,transcrib$ f ! #aijf ,macmillan & ,co4 edition by ,david ,price1 email ccx#jgdpglaf4org ,out ( ! ,deep3 ,,words ,,= ,,! ,,sorr[ful4 ,,f ,,! ,,writ+s ,,( ,,*>les ,,k+sley4 ,out ( ! deep h ,i cri$ unto ,!e1 ,o ,god4 ,london ,,macmillan ,,& ,,co41 ,,limit$ ,,new ,,york3 ,,! ,,macmillan ,,company #aijf ,all rights res]v$ ,pr9t$ by ,rob]t ,mac,lehose ,co4 ,ltd4 ,univ]sity ,press1 ,glasg[4 ,fir/ ,edition #ahhj4 ,repr9t$ #ahhc1 #ahhe1 #ahhf1 #ahhg1 #ahhi1 #ahia1 #ahic1 #ahif1 #aijj1 #aijf ,,?is ,,little ,,book ,,is ,d$icat$ ,,to ,,all ,,tr\bl$ ,,s\ls ,,& ,,to ,,! ,,de> ,,memory ,,( ,,"o ,,:o ,,pass$ ,,?r\gh ,,! ,,deep ,,into ,,et]nal ,,re/4 ,f4 ,e4 ,k ,june #ab1ahhj4 ,i4 ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep ,,( ,,suff]+ ,,& ,,sorr[4 ,save me1 ,o ,god1 = ! wat]s are come 9 ev5 unto my s\l3 ,i am come into deep wat]s2 s t ! floods run ov] me4--,ps4 lxix4 #a1 #b4 ,i am br\ght into s great tr\ble & mis]y3 t ,i g m\rn+ all ! day long4--,ps4 xxxviii4 #f4 ,! sorr[s ( my he>t are enl>g$3 ,oh6 br+ ,?\ me out ( my di/ress4--,ps4 xxv4 #ag4 ,! ,"l ha? he>d ! voice ( my weep+3 ! ,"l w receive my pray]4--,ps4 vi4 #h4 ,9 ! multitude ( ! sorr[s :i* ,i _h 9 my he>t1 ,?y com=ts h refre%$ my s\l4--,ps4 xciv4 #ag4 ,ea* he>t kn[s its own bitt]ness2 ea* s\l has its own sorr[2 ea* man's life has its d>k days ( /orm & tempe/1 :5 all 8 joys seem bl[n away by "s sudd5 bla/ ( ill-=tune1 & ! desire ( 8 eyes is tak5 f him1 & all 8 hopes & plans1 all :i* he int5d$ to d or to enjoy1 are hid ) bl9d+ mi/1 s t he _c see 8 way be=e him1 & kn[s n :i!r to g1 or :i!r to flee = help2 :5 fai? 9 ,god seems brok5 up = ! mom5t1 :5 he feels no /r5g?1 no purpose1 & kn[s n :at to det]m9e1 :at to d1 :at to believe1 :at to c>e =2 :5 ! v e>? seems reel+ "u 8 feet1 & ! f\nta9s ( ! abyss are brok5 up4 ,:5 t day comes1 let him ?9k ( ,god's cov5ant & take he>t4 ,is ! sun's w>m? p]i%$ out ( ! sky because ! /orm is cold ) hail & bitt] w9ds8 ,is ,god's love *ang$ because we _c feel x 9 our tr\ble8 ,is ! sun's light p]i%$ out ( ! sky because ! _w is black ) cl\d & mi/8 ,has ,god =gott5 to give light to suff]+ s\ls1 because we _c see our way = a few %ort days ( p]plexity8 ,no4 ,god's message to e sad & desolate he>t on e>?1 is t ,god is ,light1 & 9 ,him is no d>kness at all2 t ,god is ,love1 & 9 ,him !re is no cruelty at all2 t ,god is ,"o1 & 9 ,him !re is no *ange at all4 ,& !re=e we c pray boldly to ,him1 & ask ,him to deliv] u 9 ! "t ( our tribulation & mis]y2 9 ! h\r ( dea?1 :e!r ( our own dea? or ! dea? ( ^? we love2 9 ! day ( judgm5t1 :]e( x is writt5--,x is ,god :o ju/ifie? u2 :o is he t condemne?8 ,x is ,*ri/ :o di$1 yea1 r :o is ris5 aga91 :o ev5 n[ make? int]cession = u4 ,to t b\ndless love ( ,god1 :i* ,he %[$ =? 9 ! life ( ,*ri/ ,jesus2 to t p]fect & utt] w to deliv] u :i* ,god %[$ =? 9 ! dea? ( ,*ri/ ,jesus1 :5 ! ,fa!r sp>$ n ,8 own ,son1 b gave ,him freely = u2 to t b\ndless love we may tru/ ourselves1 our =tunes1 our families1 our bodies1 our s\ls1 & ! bodies & s\ls ( ^? we love4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,to all1 soon] or lat]1 ,*ri/ comes to baptise !m ) fire4 ,b d n ?9k t ! baptism ( fire comes once = all to a man1 9 "s "o t]rible affliction1 "s "o awful conviction ( 8 own s9fulness & no?+ness4 ,no2 ) _m--& ^? p]haps ! be/ p--x goes on mon? aft] mon?1 ye> aft] ye>4 ,by secret trials1 *a/5+s1 :i* none b !y & ,god c und]/&1 ! ,"l is cleans+ !m f _! secret faults1 & mak+ !m to und]/& wisdom secretly2 burn+ out ( !m ! *aff ( self-w1 & self- conceit1 & vanity1 & leav+ only ! pure gold ( righte\sness4 ,h[ _m sweet & holy s\ls1 :o look *e]ful en\gh be=e ! eyes ( man1 yet h _! secret sorr[s4 ,!y c>ry _! cross unse5 all day long1 & lie d[n to sleep on x at night2 & !y w c>ry x p]haps = ye>s & ye>s1 & to _! graves1 & to ! ?rone ( ,*ri/ be=e !y lay x d[n2 & none b !y & ,*ri/ w ev] "k :at x 02 :at 0 ! secret *a/isem5t :i* ,god s5t to make t s\l bett] :i* seem$ to u already too good = e>?4 ,s does ! ,"l wat* ,8 p1 & tries !m ) fire1 z ! ref9] ( silv] sits by 8 furnaces wat*+ ! melt$ metal till he kn[s t x is purg$ f all its dross by see+ ! image ( 8 own face reflect$ on x4 ,t[n & ,c\ntry ,s]mons4 ,by suff]+s 0 ,*ri/ made p]fect2 & :at 0 ! be/ pa? = ,jesus ,*ri/ is surely good en\gh = u1 ev5 ?\gh x be a r\gh & ?orny "o4 ,let u lie /ill b5ea? ,god's h&2 = ?\gh ,8 h& be heavy ^u u1 x is /rong & safe b5ea? u too2 & none c pluck u out ( ,8 h&1 = 9 ,him we live & move & h our be+4 ,he waits = u ye> aft] ye>1 ) pati5ce :i* _c tire2 !re=e1 let u wait a:ile = ,him4 ,) ,him is pl5te\s r$emption1 & !re=e r$emption en\gh = u & = ^? likewise :om we love4 ,& ?\gh we g d[n into hell ) ,david1 ) ,david we %all f9d ,god !re 7,ps4 cxxxix4 #h2 ,ps4 xvi4 #aj71 & f9d t ,he does n leave our s\ls 9 hell1 nor suff] ,8 holy ones to see corruption4 ,yes1 h fai? 9 ,god4 ,no?+ 9 !e :i* ,he has made %all see corruption2 = x is a ?\ght ( ,god's1 & no ?\ght ( ,8 c p]i%4 ,no?+ %all be purg$ out ( !e1 b ?y disease2 no?+ %all be burnt out ( !e b ?y dross2 & t 9 !e ( :i* ,god said 9 ! beg9n+1 ,let u make man 9 our own image1 %all be sav$ & live to all et]nity4 ,yes1 h fai? 9 ,god1 & cry to ,him out ( ! deep1 ,?\gh ,?\ slay me1 yet w ,i love ,!e1 = ,?\ lov$/ me 9 ,jesus ,*ri/ be=e ! f\ndation ( ! _w4 ,s]mons--,good ,news ( ,god4 ,oh1 sad he>ts & suff]+6 ,anxi\s & we>y ones6 ,look to ! cross ( ,*ri/4 ,!re hung y\r ,k+6 ,! ,k+ ( sorr[+ s\ls1 & m1 ! ,k+ ( ,sorr[s4 ,ay1 pa9 & grief1 tyranny & des]tion1 dea? & hell--,he has fac$ !m "o & all1 & tri$ _! /r5g?1 & taught !m ,81 & conqu]$ !m "r royally4 ,& s9ce ,he hung ^u t tortur+ cross1 sorr[ is div9e1 godlike1 z joy itself4 ,all t man's fall5 nature dreads & despises1 ,god hon\r$ on ! cross1 & took unto ,himself1 & ble/ & consecrat$ = ev]4 ,& n[ bless$ are ! poor1 if !y are poor 9 he>t z well z purse2 = ,jesus 0 poor1 & !irs is ! k+dom ( heav54 ,bless$ are ! hungry1 if !y hung] = righte\sness z well z food2 = ,jesus hung]$1 & !y %all be fill$4 ,bless$ are ^? :o m\rn1 if !y m\rn n only = _! sorr[s1 b = _! s9s2 = ,jesus m\rn$ = our s9s1 & on ! cross ,he 0 made s9 = u1 :o knew no s92 & !y %all be com=t$4 ,bless$ are ^? :o are a%am$ ( !mselves1 & hate !mselves1 & humble !mselves be=e ,god1 = on ! cross ,jesus humbl$ ,himself2 & !y %all be exalt$4 ,bless$ are ! =sak5 & despis$2 did n all m5 =sake ,jesus 9 ,8 h\r ( ne$8 ,& :y n !e1 too1 ?\ poor des]t$ "o8 ,%all ! disciple be above 8 ,ma/]8 ,no4 ,e "o t is p]fect mu/ be z 8 ,ma/]4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,nev] let u get into ! common trick ( call+ unbelief ,resignation2 ( ask+1 & !n because we h n fai? to believe1 putt+ 9 a ,?y w be done at ! end4 ,let u make ,god's w our w1 & s say1 ,?y w be done4 ,!re is a false z well z a true & holy resignation4 ,:5 ! sorr[ is come or com+1 or necess>y app>5tly = o!rs' good1 let u say ) our ,ma/] 9 ! ,agony1 ,n :at we w1 b :at ,?\ wilt6 ,b up to t po9t1 let u pray boldly4 ,lett]s & ,memories ( ,*>les ,k+sley4 ,*ri/ianity height5s z well z deep5s ! human z well z ! div9e affections4 ,i am happy2 = ! less hope1 ! m fai?4 ,god kn[s :at is be/ = u4 ,i am sure we d n4 ,cont9ual resignation1 ,i beg9 to f9d1 is ! secret ( cont9ual /r5g?4 ,daily dy+1 z ,boehm5 int]prets x1 is ! pa? ( daily liv+4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,9 all ! trials ( life1 !re is /ill "s way ( escape to be f\nd if a man goes to ! "r place to look = x2 &1 if n ( escape1 /ill ( comp5sation4 ,i speak ( t :i* ,i "k4 ,( my own com=t ,i w n speak--( ! pa? by :i* ,i atta9$ x ,i w4 ,x 0 simply by n /ruggl+1 do+ my "w vigor\sly :]e ,god _h put me1 & believ+ firmly t ,8 promises _h a real1 n a m]e metaphorical mean+1 & t ,psalms x41 xxvii41 xxxiv41 xxxvii41 cvii41 cxii41 cxxiii41 cxxvi41 cxlvi41 are z practically true = u z !y 7 = ! ,jews ( old1 & t x is ! fai?lessness ( ?is day :i* prev5ts m5 f accept+ ,god's promises 9 _! lit]al s5se ) simple *ildlike fai?4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,d n fe> ! cl\ds & /orm & ra92 look at ! b[ 9 ! cl\d1 9 ! v ra9 itself4 ,t is a sign t ! sun1 ?\gh y _c see x1 is %9+ /ill--t up above1 beyond ! cl\d1 is /ill sunlight & w>m? & cl\dless blue sky4 ,believe 9 ,god's cov5ant4 ,believe t ! sun w conqu] ! cl\ds1 w>m? w conqu] cold1 calm w conqu] /orm1 fair w conqu] f\l1 light w conqu] d>kness1 joy w conqu] sorr[1 life conqu] dea?1 love conqu] de/ruction & ! dev\r+ floods2 because ,god is light1 ,god is love1 ,god is life1 ,god is peace & joy et]nal1 ,god is )\t *ange1 & lab\rs to give life & joy & peace to man & bea/ & all creat$ ?+s4 ,?is 0 ! mean+ ( ! ra9b[4 ,x is a witness t ,god1 :o made ! _w1 is ! fri5d & pres]v] ( man2 t ,8 promises are l ! ev]la/+ sun%9e :i* is above ! cl\ds1 )\t spot or fad+1 )\t v>iabl5ess or %ad[ ( turn+4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,if ,i did n believe 9 a special ,provid5ce1 9 a p]petual education ( m5 by evil z well z good1 by small ?+s z well z great--if ,i did n believe t--,i c\ld believe no?+4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,let u be cont5t2 we d n "k :at is good = u1 & ,god does4 ,x is true1 & y w f9d x true 7?\gh ,god kn[s x is a difficult lesson en\gh to le>n7 t !re %\ld be no great] com=t to ,*ri/ian p ?an to be made l ,*ri/ by suff]+ pati5tly n only ! h>d "w ( e-day life1 b sorr[s1 tr\bles1 & sicknesses1 & all our heav5ly ,fa!r's corrections1 :5soev]1 by any mann] ( adv]sity1 x %all please ,8 graci\s goodness to visit !m4 ,= ,*ri/ ,himself w5t n up to joy1 b fir/ ,he suff]$ pa94 ,he ent]$ n into ,8 glory be=e ,he 0 crucifi$4 ,!re=e ^? words :i* we read 9 ! ,visitation ( ! ,sick ab\t ?is matt] are n m]e k9d words1 meant to give com=t = ! mom5t4 ,!y are tru? & fact & s\nd philosophy4 ,!y are z true = ! "y lad 9 heal? & spirits z = ! old folks crawl+ t[>ds _! graves4 ,x is true t sickness & all sorts ( tr\bles are s5t to correct & am5d 9 u :atsoev] do? (f5d ! eye ( our heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,x is true1 & y w f9d x true1 t :om ! ,"l love? ,he *a/5e?4 ,all ,sa9ts' ,day ,s]mons4 ,t ye ?r\gh pati5ce & com=t ( ! ,scriptures might h hope1 says ,/4 ,paul2 &1 aga91 ,let pati5ce h h] p]fect "w4 ,b :]e are we to get pati5ce8 ,god kn[s x is h>d 9 su* a _w z ?is = poor creatures to be always pati5t4 ,b fai? c bre$ pati5ce1 ?\gh pati5ce _c bre$ itself2 & fai? 9 :om8 ,fai? 9 our ,fa!r 9 ,heav51 ev5 9 ,almighty ,god ,himself4 ,he calls ,himself ! ,god ( ,pati5ce & ,consolation4 ,pray = ,8 ,holy ,_s1 & ,he w make y pati5t2 pray = ,8 ,holy ,_s1 & ,he w console & com=t y4 ,he has promis$ t ,_s ( ,8--! ,com=t]--! ,_s ( ,love1 ,tru/1 & ,pati5ce--to z _m z ask ,him4 ,ask ,him at ,8 ,holy ,table to make y pati5t2 ask ,him to *ange y\r wills into ! lik5ess ( ,8 w4 ,!n w y\r eyes be op5$2 !n w y see 9 ! ,scriptures a sure promise ( hope1 & glory1 & r$emption = y\rself & all ! _w2 !n y w see 9 ! bless$ ,sacram5t ( ! ,"l's body & blood a sure sign & w>rant1 h&$ d[n f h& to h&1 f age to age1 f ye> to ye>1 f fa!r to son1 t ,8 promises %all be fulfill$--t pati5ce %all h h] p]fect "w--t hope %all become a reality--t n "o ( ! ,"l's words %all fail or pass away till all be fulfill$4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,god means "s good to y by pro/rat+ y--p]haps ,he means by giv+ y bless+s almo/ )\t y\r ask+1 to %[ y h[ little avails morbid s5sitiv5ess or self-torm5t+ /ruggles4 ,syn!tical m9ds are subject to ?is self-torture4 ,su* a p]iod 9 y\r life is ! "t to become aga9 a little *ild6 ,i d n mean a re-reg5]ation1 b a p]mitt+ ( ! m9d to assume t tone ( calm wond] & infantile tru/1 :i* w all[ all ! innate pr9ciples )9--all ,god-be/[$ graces :i* h be5 bruis$ & b[$ by ! tempe/1 to blossom g5tly upw>ds aga91 9 ! cle> %9+ aft] ra9--a brea?+ "t 9 life--n too mu* retrospection or self-exam9ation--keep t = ! heal?y & vigor\s h\rs ( ! m9d--b a sil5t bask+ 9 ! light ( ,god's pres5ce--a "t = fai?1 m ?an = lab\r2 = g5]al & unexpress$1 m ?an = p>ticul> or e>ne/ pray]4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,sorr[1 ?\gh dre>y1 is n b>r54 ,no?+ ne$ be b>r5 to ^? :o view all ?+s 9 _! real light1 z l9ks 9 ! great *a9 ( progression1 bo? = !mselves & = ! univ]se4 ,to u1 all ,"t %\ld seem s full ( life2 e mom5t ! grave & ! fa!r ( unnumb]$ ev5ts & designs 9 heav5 & e>?1 reveal+ ! m9d ( our ,god ,himself--all ?+s mov+ smoo?ly & surely1 9 spite ( app>5t *ecks & disappo9tm5ts1 t[>ds ! appo9t$ ,end6 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,9 all ! *ances & *anges ( ?is mortal life1 x is our "o com=t to believe firmly & actively 9 ! *angeless k+dom1 & 9 ! *angeless ,k+4 ,?is alone w give u calm1 pati5ce1 fai?1 & hope1 ?\gh ! heav5s & ! e>? be %ak5 ar\nd u4 ,= s only %all we see t ! k+dom1 ( :i* we are citiz5s1 is a k+dom ( light1 & n ( d>kness2 ( tru?1 & n ( falsehood2 ( fre$om1 & n ( slav]y2 ( b\nty & m]cy1 & n ( wra? & fe>2 t we live & move & h our be+1 n 9 a ,deus quidam deceptor1 :o grudges ,8 *ildr5 wisdom1 b 9 a ,fa!r ( ,light1 f :om comes e good & p]fect gift2 :o wille? t all m5 %\ld be sav$1 & come to ! k ( ! tru?4 ,9 ,8 k+dom we are2 & 9 ! ,k+ :om ,he has set ov] x we c h mo/ p]fect tru/4 ,= u t ,k+ /oop$ f heav5 to e>?2 = u ,he 0 born1 = u ,he toil$1 = u ,he suff]$1 = u ,he di$1 = u ,he arose aga91 = u ,he sits = ev] at ,god's "r h&4 ,& c we n tru/ ,him8 ,let ,him d :at ,he w4 ,let ,him lead u :i!r ,he w4 ,:]esoev] ,he leads mu/ be ! way ( tru? & life4 ,:atsoev] ,he does1 mu/ be 9 h>mony ) t inf9ite love :i* ,he display$ = u ^u ! ,cross4 ,:atsoev] ,he does mu/ be 9 h>mony ) t et]nal purpose by :i* ,he reveals to m5 ,god _! ,fa!r4 ,!re=e1 ?\gh ! heav5 & ! e>? be %ak5 ar\nd u1 we w tru/ 9 ,him2 = we "k t ,he is ! same ye/]day1 to-day1 & = ev]4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,if we believe t ,god is educat+ m51 ! :51 ! :]e1 & ! h[1 are n only unimportant1 b consid]+ ,:o is ! tea*]1 unfa?omable to u2 & x is en\gh to be able to believe t ! ,"l ( all ?+s is influ5c+ u ?r\gh all ?+s4 ,essays4 ,provid$ we atta9 at la/ to ! truly h]oic & div9e life1 :i* is ! life ( virtue1 x w matt] little to u by :at /range & we>y ways1 or ?r\gh :at pa9ful & humiliat+ processes1 we h arriv$ ?i!r4 ,if ,god has lov$ u1 if ,god w receive u1 !n let u submit loyally & humbly to ,8 law--,:om ! ,"l love? ,he *a/5e?1 & sc\rge? e son :om ,he receive?4 ,all ,sa9ts' ,day ,s]mons4 ,i believe t ! wise/ plan ( be>+ sorr[ is sometimes n to try to be> x--z long z "o is n crippl$ = "o's e-day duties--b to give way to sorr[1 utt]ly & freely4 ,p]haps sorr[ is s5t t we may give way to x1 &1 9 dr9k+ ! cup to ! dregs1 f9d "s m$ic9e 9 x itself :i* we %\ld n f9d if we began doctor+ ourselves1 or lett+ o!rs doctor u4 ,if we say simply1 ,i am wret*$1 ,i ought to be wret*$2 !n we %all p]haps he> a voice1 ,:o made !e wret*$ b ,god8 ,!n :at c ,he mean b ?y good8 ,& if ! he>t answ]s impati5tly1 ,my good8 ,i don't want x1 ,i want my love6 p]haps ! voice may answ]1 ,!n ?\ %alt h bo? 9 "t4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,aft] all1 ! problem ( life is n a difficult "o1 = x solves itself--s v soon at be/--by dea?4 ,d :at is "r1 ! be/ way y c1 & wait to ! end to "k4 4 4 4 ,if1 9 spite ( w>s1 & fev]s1 & accid5ts1 & ! /rokes ( *ance1 ?is _w be gre5 & fair1 :at mu/ ! com+ _w be l8 ,let u com=t ourselves z ,/4 ,paul did 79 inf9itely worse times71 t ! suff]+s ( ?is pres5t "t are n wor?y to be comp>$ ) ! glory t %all be reveal$4 ,x is n fair to quote "o text ab\t ! creation groan+ & travail+ )\t ! o!r1 t x w n groan & travail long4 ,w\ld ! "m :o has groan$ & travail$ & br\ght =? *ildr5--w\ld %e give up ^? *ildr5 = ! sake ( n hav+ _h t pa98 ,!n believe t ! day w come :5 ! _w1 & e human be+ 9 x :o has really groan$ & travail$1 w\ld n give up its pa/ pangs = ! sake ( its !n pres5t p]fection1 b w look back on ?is life1 z ! "m does on pa/ pa91 ) glory & joy4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,i write to y because e expression ( human sympa?y br+s "s little com=t1 if x be only to rem9d su* z y t y are n alone 9 ! _w4 ,i "k no?+ c make up = su* a loss z y\rs4 #bf ,b y w /ill h love on e>? all r\nd y2 & 8 love is n dead4 ,x lives /ill 9 ! next _w = y1 & p]haps ) y4 ,= :y %\ld n ^? :o are gone1 if !y are gone to _! ,"l1 be actually ne>] u1 n fur!r f u1 9 ! heav5ly _w1 pray+ = u1 & x may be1 influ5c+ & guid+ u 9 a hundr$ ways1 ( :i* we 9 our prison-h\se ( mortality _c dream8 ,yes1 d n be afraid to believe t he :om y h lov$ is /ill ne> y1 & y ne> him1 & bo? ( y ne> ,god1 :o di$ on ! ,cross = y4 ,t is all ,i c say4 ,b :at com=t !re is 9 x1 if "o c give up "o's he>t to believe x6 ,lett]s & ,memories4 4 4 4 ,all t ,i c say ab\t ! text1 ,matt4 xxii4 #cj ( ,m>riage 9 ! _w to come1 is t x has n\ght to d ) me & my wife4 ,i "k t if immortality is to include 9 my case id5tity ( p]son1 ,i %all feel = h] = ev] :at ,i feel n[4 ,t feel+ may be develop$ 9 ways :i* ,i d n expect2 x may h provid$ = x =ms ( expression v diff]5t f any :i* are among ! holie/ sacram5ts ( life4 ,( t ,i take no c>e4 ,! union ,i believe to be et]nal z my own s\l1 & ,i leave all 9 ! h&s ( a good ,god4 ,is n m>riage ! m]e approximation to a unity t %all be p]fect 9 heav58 ,& %all we n be reunit$ 9 heav5 by t /ill deep] tie8 ,surely if on e>? ,*ri/ ! ,"l has lov$--"s m ?an o!rs2--:y %\ld n we d ! same 9 heav51 & yet love all8 ,d ,i ?us seem to und]value e>?ly bliss8 ,no6 ,i enhance x :5 ,i make x ! sacram5t ( a high] union6 ,w n ?is ?\ght give m exquisite delight2 w x n te> (f ! ?orn f e rose2 & sweet5 e nect> cup to p]fect security ( bless$ness 9 ?is life1 to feel t !re is m 9 /ore = u--t all expressions ( love "h1 are b dim %ad[s ( a union :i* w be p]fect if we b "w "h1 s z to "w out our own salvation8 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,t is an awful feel+ ( hav+ ! roots :i* connect "o ) ! la/ g5]ation seem+ly torn up1 & hav+ to say1 ,n[ ,i am ! root1 ,i /& self-support$1 ) no o!r old] /ature to re/ on4 #cj ,b ?is "o mu/ believe t ,god is ! ,god ( ,abraham1 & t all live to ,him1 & t we are no m isolat$ & self-support$ ?an :5 we 7 *ildr5 on our "m's bosom4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,believe t ^? :o are gone are ne>] u ?an ev]2 & t if1 z ,i surely believe1 !y d sorr[ ov] ! mi%aps & misde$s ( ^? :om !y leave beh9d1 !y d n sorr[ 9 va94 ,_! sympa?y is a fur!r education = !m1 & a pl$ge1 too1 ( help1 &1 ,i believe1 ( f9al deliv]ance = ^? on :om !y look d[n 9 love4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,bless$ are ! dead :o die 9 ! ,"l2 = !y re/ f _! lab\rs1 & _! works d foll[ !m4 ,!y re/ f _! lab\rs4 ,all _! /ruggles1 disappo9tm5ts1 failures1 backslid+s1 :i* made !m unhappy "h1 because !y c\ld n p]fectly d ! w ( ,god1 are pa/ & ov] = ev]4 ,b _! works foll[ !m4 ,! good :i* !y did on e>?--t is n pa/ & ov]4 ,x _c die4 ,x lives & gr[s = ev]1 foll[+ on 9 _! pa? long aft] !y are dead1 & be>+ fruit unto ev]la/+ life1 n only 9 !m1 b 9 m5 :om !y nev] saw1 & 9 g5]ations yet unborn4 ,good ,news ( ,god--,s]mons4 ,a little :ile & ye %all n see me1 & aga9 a little :ile & ye %all see me1 because ,i g to ! ,fa!r1 said our ,"l :5 speak+ ( ,8 own dea? to ,8 sorr[+ disciples4 ,& if x be s ) ,*ri/1 !n is x s ) ^? :o are ,*ri/'s1 ) ^? :om we love4 ,!y are ! p>tak]s ( ,8 dea?1 !re=e !y are ! p>tak]s ( ,8 resurrection4 ,let u believe t bless$ news 9 all its fulness1 & be at peace4 ,a little :ile & we see !m1 & aga9 a little :ile & we d n see !m4 ,b :y8 ,because !y are gone to ! ,fa!r--to ! s\rce & f\nt ( all life & p[]1 all light & love1 t !y may ga9 life f ,8 life1 p[] f ,8 p[]1 light f ,8 light1 love f ,8 love--& surely n = n\ght4 ,surely n = n\ght4 ,=1 if !y 7 l ,*ri/ on e>?1 & did n use _! p[]s = !mselves alone1 if !y are to be l ,*ri/ :5 !y %all see ,him z ,he is1 ! m surely w !y n use _! p[]s = !mselves1 b z ,*ri/ uses ,81 = ^? !y love8 ,surely1 l ,*ri/ !y may come & g ev5 n[ unse54 ,l ,*ri/ !y may brea! ^u our re/less he>ts & say1 ,peace be unto y4 ,& n 9 va9--= :at !y did = u :5 !y 7 yet on e>? !y c d m fully n[ t !y are 9 heav54 ,!y may seem to h left u1 & we may weep & lam5t4 ,b ! day w come :5 ! veil %all be tak5 f our eyes & we %all see !m z !y are--) ,*ri/ & 9 ,*ri/ = ev]--& rememb] no m our angui%1 = joy t ano!r human be+ has ent]$ into t "o true1 real1 & et]nal _w1 :]e9 is nei!r disease1 disord]1 *ange1 decay1 nor dea?1 = x is none o!r ?an ! bosom ( ! ,fa!r4 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,& :at if e>?ly love seems s delici\s t all *ange 9 x w\ld seem a *ange = ! worse1 %all we rep9e8 ,:at does reason 7& fai?1 :i* is reason ex]cis$ on ! invisible7 require ( u1 b to conclude t if !re is *ange1 !re w be some?+ bett] !re8 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,:at is ! true ev]la/+ life--! life ( ,god & ,*ri/--b a life ( love1 a life ( p]fect active1 self-sacrific+ goodness1 :i* is ! "o only true life = all rational be+s1 :e!r on e>? or 9 heav5--9 heav5 z well z on e>?4 ,=m y\r own notions z y w ab\t angels & sa9ts 9 heav51 7= e "o mu/ h "s notions ab\t !m17 & try to picture to y\rself :at ! s\ls ( ^? :om y h lov$ & lo/ are do+ 9 ! o!r _w2 b be> ?is 9 m9d1 t if ! sa9ts 9 heav5 live ! ev]la/+ life1 !y mu/ be liv+ a life ( usefulness1 ( love1 & ( good works4 ,!re are ^? :o believe :at we are too apt to =get1 & t is t ! ev]la/+ life _c be a selfi% & idle life1 sp5t only 9 be+ happy oneself4 ,!y believe t ! sa9ts 9 heav5 are n idle--t !y are et]nally help+ mank9d1 do+ all sorts ( good (fices = ^? s\ls :o ne$ !m4 ,i _c see :y !y %\ld n be "r4 ,= if ! sa9ts' delight 0 to d good on e>?1 mu* m w x be to d good 9 heav54 ,if !y help$ poor suff]]s1 if !y com=t$ ! afflict$ "h on e>?1 mu* m w !y be will+ to help & com=t !m1 n[ t !y are 9 ! full p[]1 ! full fre$om1 ! full love & zeal ( ! ev]la/+ life4 ,if _! he>ts 7 w>m$ & s(t5$ by ! fire ( ,god's love "h1 h[ mu* m !re6 ,if !y liv$ ,god's life ( love "h1 h[ mu* m !re1 be=e ! ?rone ( ,god & ! face ( ,*ri/6 ,& if any "o %all say t ! s\ls ( good m5 9 heav5 _c help u :o are "h on e>?1 ,i answ]--,:5 did !y asc5d into heav5 to f9d out t8 ,if !y _h ev] be5 !re1 let u be sure !y w\ld h _h bett] news to br+ home ?an ?is1 t ^? :om we h hon\r$ & lov$ on e>? h lo/ ! p[] :i* !y us$ once to h ( com=t+ u :o are /ruggl+ bel[4 ,no1 we w believe--:at e "o :o loses a belov$ fri5d comes soon] or lat] to believe--t ^? :om we h hon\r$ & lov$1 ?\gh tak5 f our eyes1 are ne> to our spirits2 t !y /ill fight = u "u ! bann] ( _! ,ma/]1 ,*ri/1 & /ill "w = u by virtue ( ,8 life ( love1 :i* !y live 9 ,him & by ,him = ev]4 ,pray to !m1 inde$1 we ne$ n1 z if !y w\ld help u out ( any self-w ( _! own4 ,!y d ,god's w1 & n _! own2 & g on ,god's err&s1 & n _! own4 ,if we pray to ,god our ,fa!r ,himself1 t is en\gh = u4 ,& :at %all we pray8 ,fa!r1 ,?y w be done on e>? z x is 9 heav54 ,good ,news ( ,god1 ,s]mons4 ,is n t "o ?\ght t our belov$ ones sleep 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus en\gh8 ,!y sleep 9 ,jesus1 & !re=e 9 inf9ite t5d]ness1 sympa?y1 c>e1 & love4 ,!y sleep 9 ,jesus2 & ,he is ! ,life1 & !re=e !y sleep 9 ,life4 ,!y sleep 9 ,jesus2 & ,he is ! ,light1 & !re=e !y sleep 9 ,light4 ,!y sleep 9 ,jesus2 & ,he is ,love1 & !re=e !y sleep 9 ,love4 ,& :at bett]8 ,?is is bett]--t !y :o sleep 9 ,jesus mu/ surely awak54 ,=1 z x is writt51 ,8 is a quick5+1 awak5+1 life-giv+ ,_s1 & s to sleep 9 ,him is to sleep 9 ! v f\nt & core ( life & p[]4 ,if f ,jesus all our p[]s & tal5ts come "h on e>?1 surely ,he w give u m & nobl]1 :5 we sleep 9 ,him1 & wake 9 ,him to a ris5 & et]nal life4 ,& m1 x is writt5 t !m t sleep 9 ,jesus w ,he br+ ) ,him4 ,at ! la/ day we %all see face to face ^? we lov$--& be=e t--oh6 d\bt x n4 ,(t5times :5 ,*ri/ draws ne> our spirits ,he comes n alone1 b lov+ s\ls1 s\ls :om we knew 9 ! fle% on e>?1 be> up ,8 tra91 & hov] ne> our he>ts & jo9 _! :isp]s to ! voice & inspiration ( ,him :o lov$ u1 & :o w guide u ) c\nsel "h1 & aft] t receive u into glory1 :]e we %all meet ^? belov$ ones--n z our =efa!rs dream$1 z meagre %ad[s flitt+ ?r\gh dre>y & =mless *aos--b z we knew !m once--! body ( ! fle% alone put (f1 b ! real body1 ! spiritual body to :i* fle% & blood 0 b a husk & %ell1 liv+ & lov+ m fully1 m utt]ly1 ?an ev5 be=e1 because x is 9 ,*ri/ :o is ! f\nt ( life1 & fre$ 9 ,him = ev] f hell & dea?4 ,& if y wi% = a sign t ?is is s1 come to holy communion & take ! bread & w9e z a sign t y\r bodies & !irs1 y\r s\ls & !irs1 are f$ f ! same f\nt ( ev]la/+ life--! dead & ris5 & ev] liv+ body ( ,*ri/ ,jesus1 :i* ,he has giv5 to be ! life ( ! _w4 ,,mss4 ,s]mons4 ,we "k t afflictions d come--t]rible b]eavem5ts1 sorr[s sad & /range4 ,!re !y are1 ,god help u all4 ,b f :om d !y come8 ,:o is ,"l ( life & dea?8 ,:o is ,"l ( joy & sorr[8 ,is n t ! "q ( all que/ions8 ,& is n ! answ] ! mo/ ess5tial ( all answ]s8 ,x is ! ,holy ,_s ( ,god2 ! ,_s :o proce$e? f ! ,fa!r & ! ,son2 ! ,_s ( ! ,fa!r :o s lov$ ! _w1 t ,he sp>$ n ,8 only begott5 ,son2 ! ,_s ( ! ,son :o s lov$ ! _w t ,he /oop$ to die = x ^u ! ,cross2 ! ,_s :o is ! ,com=t]1 & says1 ,i h se5 ?y ways & w heal !e1 ,i w lead !e also1 & re/ore com=ts to !e & to ?y m\rn]s4 ,i speak peace to him t is ne> & to him t is af> (f1 sai? ! ,"l2 & ,i w heal him4 ,is n t ! mo/ bless$ news1 t ,he :o takes away1 is ! v same z ,he :o gives8 ,t ,he :o afflicts is ! v same z ,he :o com=ts8 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,oh6 bless$ news1 t ,god ,himself is ! ,com=t]4 ,bless$ news1 t ,he :o /rikes w also heal2 t ,he :o gives ! cup ( sorr[ w also give ! /r5g? to dr9k x4 ,bless$ news1 t *a/isem5t is n puni%m5t1 b ! education ( a ,fa!r4 ,bless$ news1 t our :ole duty is ! duty ( a *ild--( ! ,son :o said 9 ,8 agony1 ,fa!r1 n my w1 b ,?9e be done4 ,bless$ news1 t our ,com=t] is ! ,_s :o com=t$ ,*ri/ ! ,son ,himself2 :o proce$s bo? f ! ,fa!r & ! ,son1 & :o w tell u t 9 ,*ri/ we are really & lit]ally ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 :o may cry to ,him 9 our extreme ne$1 ,fa!r1 ) full und]/&+ ( all t t royal ^w conta9s4 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,,ii4 ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep ,,( ,,s94 ,innum]able tr\bles are come ab\t me4 ,my s9s h tak5 su* hold ^u me1 t ,i am n able to look up2 yea1 !y are m 9 numb] ?an ! hairs ( my head1 & my he>t ha? fail$ me4--,ps4 xl4 #ae4 ,i ackn[l$ge my faults1 & my s9 is ev] be=e me4 ,aga9/ ,!e only h ,i s9n$1 & done ?is evil 9 ,?y sight4--,ps4 li4 #c4 ,i said1 ,i w confess my s9s unto ! ,"l2 & s ,?\ =gave/ ! wick$ness ( my s94--,ps4 xxxii4 #f4 ,bless$ is ! man ^: iniquity is =giv51 & ^: s9 is purg$4--,ps4 xxxii4 #a4 ,!re is =giv5ess ) ,!e1 !re=e %alt ,?\ be fe>$4--,ps4 cxxx4 #a4 ,god is n aga9/ y b = y1 9 all ! /ruggles ( life2 ,he wants y to get ?r\gh safe2 wants y to succe$2 wants y to conqu]2 & ,he w he> y\r cry out ( ! deep & help y4 ,& !re=e :5 y f9d y\rselves wrong1 utt]ly wrong1 d n cry to ?is man or t man1 ,d y help me2 d y set me a little m "r be=e ,god comes1 & f9ds me 9 ! wrong & puni%es me4 ,cry to ,god ,himself1 to ,*ri/ ,himself2 ask ,him to lift y up2 ask ,him to set y "r4 ,d n be l ,/4 ,pet] be=e 8 conv]sion1 & cry1 ,dep>t f me1 = ,i am a s9ful man1 ,o ,"l2 wait a little till ,i h ris5 up1 & wa%$ (f my /a9s1 & made myself some:at fit to be se54--,no4 ,cry1 ,come quickly1 ,o ,"l--at once--j because ,i am a s9ful man2 j because ,i am sore let & h9d]$ 9 runn+ my race by my own s9s & wick$ness2 because ,i am lazy & /upid2 because ,i am p]v]se & vici\s1 !re=e raise up ,?y p[]1 & come to me1 ,?y mis]able creature1 ,?y lo/ *ild1 & ) ,?y great might succ\r me4 ,lift me up1 because ,i h fall5 v l[2 deliv] me1 = ,i h plung$ out ( ,?y s\nd & safe highway into deep mire :]e no gr\nd is4 ,help myself ,i _c1 & if ,?\ help me n1 ,i am undone4 ,d s4 ,pray s4 ,let y\r s9s & wick$ness be to y n a reason = hid+ f ,*ri/1 :o /&s by2 b a reason1 ! reason ( all reasons1 = cry+ to ,*ri/1 :o /&s by4 ,& !n1 :e!r ,he deliv]s y by g5tle means or by %>p ones1 deliv] y ,he w1 & set y\r feet on firm gr\nd1 & ord] y\r go+s1 t y may run ) pati5ce ! race :i* is set be=e y along ! road ( life & ! pa?way ( ,god's comm&m5ts :]e9 !re is no dea?4 ,good ,news ( ,god1 ,s]mons4 ,:at are we to d :5 our s9s br+ u1 z !y c]ta9ly w "s day br+ u1 into tr\ble1 b to op5 our eyes & see t ! only ?+ = m5 & wom5 :om ,god has made is to obey ,him8 ,h[ c we prosp] by do+ any?+ else8 ,x is ill fight+ aga9/ ,god4 ,b "s "o may say1 ,i "k ,i h s9n$1 & ,i d wi% & long to obey ,god1 b ,i am s weak1 & my s9s h s entangl$ me1 t ,i _c obey ,god4 ,i long to d s4 ,i feel & "k1 :5 ,i look back1 t all my s9 & %ame & unhapp9ess come f be+ pr\d & self-will$ & det]m9$ to h my own way4 ,b ,i _c m5d4 ,d n despair1 poor s\l6 ,i _h a ?\s& times soon] he> y say t y _c m5d ?an t y c4 ,= ^? :o really feel !y _c m5d--^? :o are really we>y & worn out ) ! burd5 ( _! s9s--^? :o are tir$ out ) _! own wilfulness1 & feel ready to lie d[n & die1 l a sp5t horse1 & say1 ,god take me away1 no matt] to :at place2 ,i am n fit to live "h on e>?1 a %ame & a torm5t to myself day & night--^? :o are 9 t /ate ( m9d are v ne>--v ne>--f9d+ out glori\s news4 ,god kn[s z well z y :at y h to /ruggle aga9/2 ay1 a ?\s& times bett]4 ,he kn[s--,:at does ,he n "k8 ,!re=e pray to ,him4 ,cry to ,him to make y\r w l ,8 own w1 t y may love :at ,he loves1 hate :at ,he hates1 & d :at ,he wi%es y to d2 & y w surely f9d x come true t ^? :o try to m5d1 & yet "k t !y _c m5d !mselves1 ,god w m5d !m4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,s91 ,greek text1 is lit]ally1 z x signifies1 ! miss+ ( a m>k2 & t ea* miss br+s a p5alty1 or r is itself ! p5alty1 is to me ! be/ ( news1 & gives me hope = myself & = e human be+1 pa/1 pres5t1 & future1 = x makes me look on !m all z *ildr5 "u a pat]nal education1 :o are be+ taught to become aw>e (1 & use _! own p[]s 9 ,god's h\se1 ! univ]se1 & = ,god's "w 9 x2 & 9 proportion z !y le>n to d t1 !y atta9 salvation1 ,greek text1 lit]ally heal? & :ol5ess ( _s1 :i* is1 l ! heal? ( ! body1 its own rew>d4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,if 9 sorr[ ! ?\ght /rikes y t y are puni%$ = y\r s9s1 m\rn = !m1 b n = ! happ9ess !y h prev5t$4 ,r ?ank ,god t ,he has /opp$ y 9 "t1 & rememb] ,8 promises ( re/or+ u if we pr(it by ,8 *a/isem5t4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,ah6 h[ _m a poor1 fooli% creature1 9 mis]y & %ame1 ) guilty consci5ce & sad he>t1 tries to =get 8 s91 to =get 8 sorr[2 b he _c4 ,he is sick & tir$ ( s94 ,he is mis]able1 & he h>dly kn[s :y4 ,!re is a long+1 & crav+1 & hung] at 8 he>t aft] some?+ bett]4 ,!n he beg9s to rememb] 8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r's h\se4 ,old words1 :i* he le>nt 9 *ildhood2 good old words out ( 8 ,cate*ism & ,bible1 />t up /rangely 9 8 m9d4 ,he _h =gott5 !m1 laugh$ at !m p]haps 9 8 wild days4 ,b n[ !y come up1 he does n "k :]e f1 l beautiful gho/s glid+ 94 ,& he is a%am$ ( !m4 ,!y reproa* him1 ! de> old lessons2 & at la/ he says1 ,w\ld ,god t ,i 7 a little *ild aga92 once m an innoc5t little *ild at my "m's knee6 ,p]haps ,i h be5 a fool2 & ! old ,sunday books 7 "r aft] all4 ,at lea/1 ,i am mis]able6 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 my own ma/]1 b p]haps ,he ab\t :om ,i us$ to read 9 ! old ,sunday books is my ,ma/] aft] all4 ,at lea/1 ,i am n my own ma/]2 ,i am a slave4 ,p]haps ,i h be5 fight+ aga9/ ,him1 aga9/ ! ,"l ,god1 all ?is "t1 & n[ ,he has %[n me t ,he is ! /rong] ( ! two4 ,& :5 ! ,"l has drawn a man ?us f>1 does ,he /op8 ,n s4 ,he does n leave ,8 "w half done4 ,if ! "w is half done1 x is t we /op1 n t ,he /ops4 ,:oev] comes to ,him1 h[ev] confus$ly1 or clumsily1 or ev5 lazily !y may come1 ,he w 9 no wise ca/ out4 ,he may afflict !m /ill m to cure t confusion & laz9ess2 b ,he is a physician :o nev] s5ds a pati5t away1 or keeps him wait+ = a s+le h\r4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,! bless$ ,/4 ,augu/9e f\nd he c\ld nev] conqu] 8 own s9s by argu+ ) himself1 or by any o!r means1 till he got to "k ,god1 & to see t ,god 0 ! ,"l4 ,& :5 8 _s 0 utt]ly brok51 :5 he saw himself to h be5 a fool & bl9d all along--!n ! old words :i* he le>n$ at 8 "m's knee came up to 8 m9d1 & he knew t ,god _h be5 wat*+1 guid+ him1 lett+ him g wrong only to %[ him ! folly ( go+ wrong1 c>+ = him1 be>+ ) him1 plead+ ) 8 consci5ce1 allur+ him back to ! only true happ9ess1 z a lov+ fa!r w a rebelli\s & self-will$ *ild2 & he became a *ang$ man4 ,to t bless$ /ate may ,god ( ,8 great m]cy br+ u 9 ,8 own good "t4 ,& if ,he does br+ u to x1 x is little matt] :e!r ,he br+s u to x ?r\gh joy or ?r\gh sorr[1 ?r\gh hon\r or ?r\gh %ame1 ?r\gh ! ,g>d5 ( ,ed5 or ?r\gh ! ,valley ( ! ,%ad[ ( ,dea?4 ,= :at matt] h[ bitt] ! m$ic9e is if x does b save our lives8 ,national ,s]mons4 4 4 4 ,y\r s5se ( s9 is n fanaticism2 x is1 ,i suppose1 simple consci\sness ( fact4 ,z = help+ y to ,*ri/1 ,i d n believe ,i c "o in*4 ,i c see no hope b 9 pray]1 9 go+ to ,him y\rself1 & say+3 ,"l1 if ,?\ art !re1 if ,?\ art at all1 if ?is be n all a lie1 fulfil ,?y reput$ promises1 & give me peace & ! s5se ( =giv5ess1 & ! feel+ t1 bad z ,i may be1 ,?\ love/ me /ill1 see+ all1 und]/&+ all1 & !re=e mak+ all[ance = all6 ,i h _h to d t 9 pa/ days2 to *all5ge ,him ?r\gh out] d>kness & ! sil5ce ( night1 till ,i almo/ expect$ t ,he w\ld v9dicate ,8 own hon\r by appe>+ visibly1 z ,he did to ,/4 ,paul & ,/4 ,john2 b ,he answ]$ 9 ! /ill1 small voice only2 yet t 0 en\gh4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 4 4 4 ,de> fri5d1 ! secret ( life = y & = me is to lay our purposes & our *>act]s cont9ually be=e ,him :o made !m1 & cry1 ,d ,?\ purge me1 & s alone %all ,i be clean4 ,?\ require/ tru? 9 ! inw>d p>ts4 ,?\ wilt make me to und]/& wisdom secretly4 ,:at m rational belief8 ,= surely if !re be any ,god1 & ,he made u at fir/1 ,he :o makes c also m5d ,8 own "w if x gets out ( ge>4 ,:at m miracul\s 9 ! doctr9es ( reg5]ation & r5ewal ?an 9 ! m]e fact ( creation8 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,z = ! s9s ( y\?1 :at says ! #acj? ,psalm8 ,if ,?\1 ,"l1 7 extreme to m>k :at is done amiss1 :o c\ld abide x8 ,b !re is m]cy ) ,him1 !re=e %all ,he be fe>$4 ,& h[ to fe> ,god ,i "k n bett] ?an by work+ on at ! special "w :i* ,he has giv5 u1 tru/+ to ,him to make x ( use to ,8 creatures1 if ,he ne$s u4 ,!re=e fret n nor be ( d\btful m9d1 b j d ! duty :i* lies ne>e/4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,yes2 ?is is our com=t1 ?is is our hope2 ,*ri/1 ! ,great ,heal]1 ! ,great ,physician1 c deliv] u1 & w deliv] u f ! rema9s ( our old s9s1 ! consequ5ces ( our own follies4 ,n1 inde$1 at once or by miracles1 b by sl[ education4 ,bett]1 inde$1 = u p]haps t ,he %\ld n cure u at once1 le/ we %\ld fancy t s9 0 a light ?+ :i* we c\ld ?r[ (f :5ev] we *ose2 & n t x is an inw>d disease1 corrod+ & corrupt+1 ! wages :]e( are dea?4 ,& s x is t because ,*ri/ loves u ,he hates our s9s1 & _c abide or endure !m1 b w puni% !m1 & is m]ciful & lov+ 9 puni%+ z long z a t9cture or remnant ( s9 is left 9 u4 ,!re=e let u put ourselves into ! h&s ( ,*ri/1 ! ,great ,physician1 & ask ,him to heal our w\nd$ s\ls1 & purge our corrupt$ s\ls1 & leave to ,him ! *oice ( h[ ,he w d x4 ,let u be cont5t to be puni%$ & *a/is$4 ,let ,him deal ) u1 if ,he sees fit1 z ,he dealt ) ,david ( old1 :5 ,he =gave ! s91 & yet puni%$ x by ! dea? ( 8 *ild4 ,let ,him d :at ,he w by u1 provid$ ,he does--:at ,he w d--make u good m54 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,my belief is t ,god w puni% 7has ,he n puni%$ already some:at87 e wrong ?+ ,i ev] did unless ,i rep5t--t is1 *ange my behavi\r !re92 & t ,8 lighte/ bl[ is h>d en\gh to break bone & m>r[4 ,b z = say+ ( any human be+ :om ,i ev] saw on e>? t !re is no hope = !m2 t if ev]1 "u ! bitt] sm>t ( j puni%m5t1 !y op5$ _! eyes to _! folly & alt]$ _! m9d1 ev5 !n ,god w\ld n =give !m2 z = say+ t1 ,i w n = all ! _w & ! rul]s !re(4 ,i nev] saw a man 9 :om !re 0 n "s good1 & ,i believe t ,god sees t good f> m cle>ly1 & loves x f> m deeply1 ?an ,i c1 because ,he ,himself put x !re1 & !re=e x is reasonable to believe t ,he w educate & /r5g!n t good1 & *a/ise ! hold] ( x till he obeys x1 & loves x1 & gives himself up to x2 & t ! said hold] w f9d su* *a/isem5t t]rible en\gh if he is unruly & /ubborn ,i d\bt n1 & s mu* ! bett] = him4 ,beyond ?is ,i _c say4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,if a man really believ$ himself to be a son1 "u a fa!r's education1 he w\ld believe ev]y?+ :i* happ5$ to be a "p ( t education4 ,& su* a man1 ,i believe1 s pray+ & s work+1 keep+ be=e him z 8 lode-/>--,our ,fa!r1 hall[$ be ,?y "n2 ,?y k+dom come2 ,?y w be done on e>? z x is 9 heav52 & ask+ ev5 = 8 daily bread = t purpose & no o!r1 w\ld f9d selfi%ness & self-seek+ die out ( him1 & active b5evol5ce gr[ up 9 him4 ,he w\ld f9d pa/ sorr[s & falls turn$ unexpect$ly to practical use = 8 own & o!r's good2 & discov] to 8 delight1 t 8 ,fa!r _h be5 educat+ him1 :ile he fanci$ he 0 educat+ himself2 & he w\ld nei!r h leisure nor ne$ to torm5t himself ab\t ! motives ( 8 actions1 b simply :atev] 8 h& f\nd to d1 d x ) all 8 might4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,let u =w>d4 ,god leads u2 ?\gh bl9d1 %all we be afraid to foll[8 ,i d n see my way2 ,i d n c>e to2 b ,i "k t ,he sees ,8 way1 & t ,i see ,him1 & ,i _c believe t 9 spite ( all "o's s9s ,he w =get ,8 graci\s promises4 ,!y _h an eye unto ,him1 & 7 light5$4 ,!y t put _! tru/ 9 ,him %all n be a%am$4 ,i "k ! mis]able1 peevi%1 lazy1 conceit$1 fai?less1 pray]less wret* t ,i am1 b ,i "k ?is too1 t ,"o is guid+ me1 & driv+ me :5 ,i w\ld n be guid$1 :o w make me1 & has made me1 g ,8 way1 & d ,8 "w1 by fair means or by f\l4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,be ( good *e]4 ,,:5 ! wick$ man turne? f 8 wick$ness 7!n1 !re & !n7 he %all save 8 s\l alive--& all 8 s9 & wick$ness %all n be m5tion$ unto him4 ,:at y\r measure ( guilt 7if !re c be a measure ( ! incomm5surable spiritual7 may be1 ,i "k n4 ,b ?is ,i "k t z long z y keep ! s5se ( guilt alive 9 y\r own m9d y w rema9 ju/ifi$ 9 ,god's m9d2 z long z y set y\r s9s be=e y\r face ,he w set !m beh9d ,8 back4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,?is is ! ,gospel1 ! good news = fall5 m51 t !re is a ,man 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone ( ,god to :om all p[] is giv5 9 heav5 & e>?2 t ! fate ( ! _w & all t is !re91 ! fate ( sun & />s1 ! fate ( k+s & nations1 ! fate ( e publican & h>lot1 hea!n & outca/1 ! fate ( all :o are 9 dea? & hell1 dep5d alike ^u ! sacr$ he>t ( ,jesus2 ! he>t :i* griev$ at ! tomb ( ,laz>us1 ,8 fri5d2 ! he>t :i* wept ov] ,j]usalem2 ! he>t :i* said to ! bless$ ,magdal5e1 ! woman t 0 a s9n]1 ,g 9 peace1 ?y s9s are =giv5 !e2 ! he>t t ye>ns ov] e s9ful & w&]+ s\l all ov] ! e>? ( ,god1 cry+ to all1 ,:y w ye die8 ,h ,i any pleasure 9 ! dea? ( him t die?1 sai? ! ,"l1 & n r t he %\ld turn f 8 wick$ness & live8 ,come unto me all ye t are we>y & heavy lad5 & ,i w give y re/4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,?is is ! message ( ! bless$ sacram5t ( ! body & blood ( ,*ri/1 :i* tells y t 9 spite ( all y\r daily s9s & fail+s1 y c /ill look up to ,god z y\r ,fa!r2 to ! ,"l ,jesus z y\r life2 to ! ,holy ,_s z y\r guide & y\r inspir]2 t ?\gh y be a prodigal son1 y\r ,fa!r's h\se is /ill op5 to y2 y\r ,fa!r's et]nal love ready to meet y af> (f ! mom5t t y cry f y\r he>t--,fa!r1 ,i h s9n$1 & am no m wor?y to be call$ ,?y *ild2 & t y mu/ be conv]t$ & turn back to ,god y\r ,fa!r n m]ely once = all1 b weekly1 daily1 h\rly1 z (t5 z y =get & disobey ,him4 ,?is is ! message ( ! bless$ sacram5t--t ?\gh y _c come to x tru/+ 9 y\r own righte\sness1 y c come tru/+ 9 ,8 manifold & great m]cies2 t ?\gh y are n wor?y to ga!r up ! crumbs "u ,8 table1 yet ,he is ! same ,"l ^: prop]ty is ev] to h m]cy1 & ,he w grant t y\r s\ls %all be wa%$ 9 ,*ri/'s mo/ preci\s blood1 t y may dwell 9 ,him1 & ,he 9 y1 = ev]4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,memb]s ( ,*ri/1 *ildr5 ( ,god1 heirs ( ! k+dom ( heav51 heirs ( a ,hope undy+1 pure1 t w nev] fade away1 y h a "r giv5 y by ! promise & oa? ( ,almighty ,god ,himself1 to hope = y\rselves1 = y\r neighb\rs1 = ?is poor di/ract$ _w = ev] & ev]3 a "r to believe t !re is an ev]la/+ day ( ju/ice1 & peace1 & happ9ess 9 /ore = ! :ole _w1 & t y1 if y w1 may h y\r %>e 9 t glori\s sunrise :i* %all nev] set aga94 ,g to ! ,scriptures1 & !re read ! promises ( ,god1 ! gr\nds ( y\r j hope1 = all heav5 & e>?4 ,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :o takes away ! s9 ( ! _w4 ,h[ d>e we1 :o call ourselves ,*ri/ians1 :o h be5 baptiz$ into ,8 "n1 :o h ta/$ ( ,8 m]cy1 :o h ! might ( ,8 love1 ! conv]t+ & r5ew+ p[] ( ,8 ,_s--h[ d>e we d\bt t ,he w take away ! s9s ( ! _w8 ,ay1 /ep by /ep1 nation by nation1 ye> by ye>1 ! ,"l %all conqu]2 = ,he mu/ reign till ,he has put all enemies "u ,8 feet4 4 4 4 ,he has promis$ to take away ! s9s ( ! _w1 & ,he is ,god1 & _c lie4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,,iii4 ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep ,,( ,,fe> ,,& ,,anxiety4 ,my he>t is disquiet$ )9 me4 ,te>fulness & trembl+ are come ^u me1 & an horrible dread ha? ov]:elm$ me4--,ps4 lv4 #d4 ,?\ ha/ prov$ & visit$ my he>t 9 ! night season--,ps4 xvii4 #c4 ,nev]!less ?\gh ,i am sometimes afraid1 yet put ,i my tru/ 9 ,!e4--,ps4 lv4 #c4 ,! ,"l is my light & my salvation2 :om %all ,i fe>8 ,! ,"l is ! /r5g? ( my life2 ( :om %all ,i be afraid8--,ps4 xxvii4 #a4 ,i s\ght ! ,"l & ,he he>d me & deliv]$ me f all my fe>4--,ps4 xxxiv4 #d4 ,:o is !re :o has n at times said to himself--,god is s holy1 s pure & glori\s2 :ile ,i am s unju/1 & unclean1 & mean6 & ,god is s great & p[]ful2 :ile ,i am s small & weak6 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,does n ,god hate & despise me8 ,w ,he n take f me all ,i love be/8 ,w ,he n hurl me into endless torm5t :5 ,i die8 ,h[ c ,i escape f ,him8 ,wret*$ man t ,i am1 ,i _c escape f ,him6 ,h[ !n c ,i turn away ,8 hate8 ,h[ c ,i make ,him *ange ,8 m9d8 ,h[ c ,i soo! & appease ,him8 ,:at %all ,i d to escape ,him8 ,did y ev] h su* ?\ghts8 ,& did y ev] f9d ^? ?\ghts1 t slavi% t]ror ( ,god's wra?1 t dread ( hell make y bett] m58 ,i nev] did4 ,unless y g beyond !m--z f> beyond !m z heav5 is beyond hell1 z f> above !m z a free son is above a mis]able cr\*+ slave1 !y w d y m h>m ?an good4 ,?is _s ( bondage1 ?is slavi% t]ror1 in/ead ( br++ u ne>] to ,god1 only drives u f>!r f ,him4 ,x does n make u hate :at is wrong1 x only makes u dread ! puni%m5t ( x4 ,h[ !n %all we escape ! t]ror & mis]y ( an evil consci5ce1 & rise out ( our s9s8 ,believe ! w>rant ( y\r baptism4 ,y\r baptism says to y--,god is y\r ,fa!r1 ,he does n hate y ?\gh y be ! greate/ s9n] on e>?4 ,he loves y1 = y are ,8 *ild1 & ,he wille? n ! dea? ( a s9n]1 b t all %\ld come & be sav$4 ,he hate? no?+ t ,he has made4 ,?is is ! message ( y\r baptism--t y are ,god's *ild1 & t ,god's w & wi% is t y %\ld gr[ up to become ,8 son1 to s]ve ,him lov+ly1 tru/+ly1 manfully2 & t ,he c & w give y ! p[] to d s2 ay1 ,he has giv5 y ! p[] already1 if y w b claim & use x4 ,b y mu/ claim & use x1 because y are meant n m]ely to be ,god's wilful1 ignorant1 selfi% *ild1 obey+ ,him f fe> ( ! rod1 b to be ,8 will+1 lov+1 loyal son4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,god is n a tyrant :o mu/ be appeas$ ) gifts1 or a task-ma/] :o mu/ be satisfi$ ) ! lab\r ( 8 slaves4 ,he is a ,fa!r1 :o loves ,8 *ildr51 :o gives & love? to give1 :o gives to all freely1 & upbraide? n4 ,he truly wille? n ! dea? ( a s9n]1 b r t he %\ld turn f 8 wick$ness & live4 ,8 w is a good w1 & h[soev] mu* m5's s9 & folly may resi/ x1 & seem = a "t to m> x1 yet ,he is too great & good to owe any man1 ev5 ! wor/1 ! smalle/ spite or grudge4 ,pati5tly1 nobly1 magnanim\sly1 ,god waits--waits = ! man :o is a fool1 to f9d out 8 folly2 waits = ! he>t :i* has tri$ to f9d pleasure 9 ev]y?+ else1 to f9d out t ev]y?+ else disappo9ts1 & to come back to ,him1 t f\nta9 ( all :olesome pleasure1 t well-spr+ ( all life fit = a man to live4 ,:5 ! fool f9ds out 8 folly2 :5 ! wilful man gives up 8 wilfulness2 :5 ! rebel submits himself to law2 :5 ! son comes back to 8 fa!r's h\se--!re is no /]nness1 no upbraid+1 no rev5ge2 b ! ev]la/+ & b\ndless love ( ,god wells =? aga9 z ev]4 ,! ,creator has condesc5d$ to wait = ,8 creature1 because :at ,he want$ 0 n ,8 creature's fe>1 b ,8 creature's love2 n 8 lip-ob$i5ce1 b 8 he>t2 because ,he want$ him n to come back z a trembl+ slave to 8 ma/]1 b z a son :o has f\nd out at la/ :at a fa!r he has left him1 :5 all beside has play$ him false4 ,let him come back ?us1 to f9d all is =giv52 & to he> ! ,fa!r say1 ,?is my son 0 dead & is alive aga92 he 0 lo/ & is f\nd4 ,discipl9e & o!r ,s]mons4 ,:5 ! tempe/ comes2 :5 affliction1 fe>1 anxiety1 %ame come1 !n ! ,cross ( ,*ri/ beg9s to mean some?+ to u4 ,= !n 9 our mis]y & confusion we look up to heav5 & ask1 ,is !re any ,"o 9 heav5 :o und]/&s all ?is8 ,does ,god und]/& my tr\ble8 ,does ,god feel = my tr\ble8 ,does ,god c>e = my tr\ble8 ,does ,god "k :at tr\ble means8 ,or mu/ ,i fight ! battle ( life alone1 )\t sympa?y or help f ,god1 :o made me & has put me "h8 ,!n1 does ! ,cross ( ,*ri/ br+ a message to our he>t su* z no o!r ?+ or be+ on e>? c br+4 ,= x says to u1 ,god does und]/& !e utt]ly2 = ,*ri/ und]/&s !e4 ,*ri/ feels = !e2 ,*ri/ feels ) !e2 ,*ri/ has suff]$ = !e1 & suff]$ ) !e4 ,?\ can/ g ?r\gh no?+ :i* ,*ri/ has n gone ?r\gh4 ,he1 ! ,son ( ,god1 endur$ pov]ty1 fe>1 %ame1 agony1 dea? = !e1 t ,he might be t\*$ ) ! feel+ ( ?9e infirmity & help !e to endure1 & br+ !e safe ?r\gh all to victory & peace4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,?\gh we1 happily1 no long] believe 9 ! t]ror by night1 :i* ( old 0 ?\ght to come f wit*es1 gho/s1 demons1 yet !re is a t]ror by night 9 :i* we mu/ believe1 = x comes to u f ,god1 & %\ld be li/5$ to z ! voice ( ,god1 ev5 t t]ror ab\t our own s9fulness1 folly1 weakness1 :i* comes to u 9 dreams & sleepless nights4 ,we may le>n f ^! night fancies & night ?\ghts2 = !y are (t5 ,god's message to u1 call+ u to rep5tance & am5dm5t ( life4 ,!y are (t5 ,god's ,book ( ,judgm5t1 :]e9 our s9s are writt51 :i* ,god is sett+ be=e u1 & %[+ u ! ?+s we h done4 ,god s5ds dreams to m5 :i* enable !m to look back1 & recollect ?+s pa/1 :i* !y _h =got only too easily2 & ^! humble & p5it5tial dreams are ,god's w>n+ t 7z ! ,article says7 ! infection ( nature do? rema9 ev5 9 ^? :o are reg5]ate1 & t no?+ b ! cont9ual help ( ,god's ,_s w keep u f fall+ back or fall+ away4 ,discipl9e & o!r ,s]mons4 ,! religion ( t]ror is ! mo/ sup]ficial ( all religions4 ,god's arbitr>y w & almighty p[] may seem d>k by !mselves ?\gh deep1 z !y d to ! ,calv9i/s1 because !y d n involve ,8 moral "*4 ,jo9 !m ) ! fact t ,he is a ,god ( m]cy z well z ju/ice1 rememb] t ,8 ess5ce is love1 & ! ?und] cl\d w blaze ) dewy gold1 full ( s(t ra9 & pure light4 ,all ! deep ?+s ( ,god are bright1 = ,god is light4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,i am n1 & w n 7please ,god to help me1 z ,he has hi!rto7 be anxi\s ab\t any?+4 ,:y %\ld we we>y out ! little life we h left 9 u1 :5 ,he has promis$ to c>e = u1 & make u r5ew our y\?1 & heap u ) ev]y?+ t is good = u8 ,& z = our difficulties4 ,has x n be5 fulfill$ 9 !m--,z ?y day s %all ?y /r5g? be8 ,h !y n be5 ,god's s5d+8 ,god's way ( prev5t+ ! cup ( bliss be+ ov] sweet8 & consid]1 h !y n be5 bless$ lessons8 ,h we n _h 9 all ?+s ) ! temptation a way to escape8 ,s out ( evil ,god br+s good2 or r out ( necessity ,he br+s /r5g?4 ,! highe/ spiritual tra9+ is conta9$ 9 ! mo/ paltry physical accid5ts2 & ! meane/ actual want may be ! means ( call+ into actual life ! possible b sleep+ embryo ( ! v noble/ faculties4 ,?is is a great my/]y2 b we are animals1 9 "t & space2 & by "t & space1 & our animal natures1 are we educat$4 ,!re=e let u be only pati5t1 pati5t2 & let ,god our ,fa!r tea* ,8 own lesson1 ,8 own way4 ,let u try to le>n x well1 & le>n x quickly2 b d n let u fancy t ,he w r+ ! s*ool bell1 & s5d u to play be=e our lesson is le>nt4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,9 all ! ev5ts ( life pray1 pray take :at ,god does n s5d z n good = u1 & tru/ ,him to s5d u :at is good4 ,rememb] all ^! ?+s are "r1 & come ) a reason1 & a purpose1 & a mean+2 & he :o grumbles at !m believe? n 7= ! "t be+ at lea/7 9 ! ,liv+ ,god4 ,ah6 d n fancy t ,i am n (t5 p]plex$--,ca/ d[n1 yet n 9 despair4 ,no2 ,*ri/ reigns1 z ,lu!r us$ to say--& !re=e ,i w n fe>1 ?\gh ! m\nta9s be remov$ 7& ,i ) !m7 & ca/ into ! mid/ ( ! sea4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,all ^! anxieties w be good = y4 ,!y all g to ! mak+ ( a man--call+ out t ,god-dep5d5ce 9 him :i* is ! only true self- dep5d5ce1 ! only true /r5g?4 ,well said old ,hezekiah1 ,"l1 by all ^! ?+s m5 live 7by tr\ble1 sorr[1 sickness71 & 9 ^! ?+s is ! life ( ! _s4 ,,ms4 ,lett]s4 ,our ,"l said1 ,take no ?\ght = ! morr[2 ! morr[ %all take ?\ght = ! ?+s ( itself4 ,suffici5t unto ! day is ! evil !re(4 ,matt4 vi4 #cd4 ,& d we n f9d t our ,"l's words are true8 ,:o are ! p :o get ?r\gh mo/ "w 9 _! lives1 ) ! lea/ we> & te>8 ,are !y ! anxi\s p8 ,^? :o imag9e to !mselves possible mis=tunes1 & ask cont9ually1 ,:at if ?is happ5$1 or if t8 ,h[ %\ld ,i be able to get ?r\gh su* & su* a tr\ble8 ,f>1 f> f x4 ,let u n wa/e ! /r5g? :i* ,god has giv5 u = to-day 9 va9 fe>s or va9 dreams ab\t to-morr[4 ,to- day is q full en\gh ( anxiety & c>e4 ,suffici5t = ! day is ! evil !re(1 & suffici5t = ! day is ! good !re(4 ,to-day1 & to-morr[ too1 may end v diff]5tly f :at we hope4 ,yes4 ,b !y may end v diff]5tly f :at we fe>4 ,look n too f> ahead1 le/ y see :at is com+ be=e y are ready = ! sight4 ,if we =esaw ! tr\bles t are com+1 p]haps x w\ld break our he>ts2 & if we =esaw ! happ9ess :i* is com+1 p]haps x w\ld turn our heads4 ,let u n m$dle ) ! future b refra9 our s\ls & keep !m l[1 l little *ildr51 cont5t ) ! day's food1 & ! day's s*ool+1 & ! day's play-h\rs1 sure t ! ,div9e ,ma/] kn[s all t is "r1 & h[ to tra9 u1 & :i!r to lead u1 ?\gh we "k n1 & ne$ n "k1 save ?is1 t ! pa? by :i* ,he is lead+ ea* ( u--if we w b obey & foll[1 /ep by /ep--leads up to ,ev]la/+ ,life4 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,,iv4 ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep ,,( ,,lonel9ess1 ,,failure1 ,,& ,,disappo9tm5t4 ,my he>t is smitt5 d[n1 & )]$ l grass4 ,i am ev5 z a sp>r[ t sitte? alone on ! h\setop--,ps4 cii4 #d1 #f4 ,my lov]s & fri5ds ha/ ,?\ put away f me1 & hid m9e acqua9tance out ( my sight--,ps4 lxxviii4 #ah4 ,i look$ on my "r h&1 & saw !re 0 no man t w\ld "k me4 ,i _h no place to flee unto1 & no man c>$ = my s\l4 ,i cri$ unto ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 & said1 ,?\ art my ,hope4 ,:5 my _s 0 9 heav9ess1 !n ,?\ knewe/ my pa?4--,ps4 cxlii4 #d1 #e4 ,graci\s is ! ,"l1 & righte\s1 yea1 our ,god is m]ciful4 ,i 0 9 mis]y1 & ,he help$ me4--,ps4 cxvi4 #e1 #f4 ,x is sorr[--sorr[ & failure--:i* =ces m5 to believe t !re is ,"o :o he>e? pray]1 =ces !m to lift up _! eyes to ,"o f :om come? _! help4 ,be=e ! t]rible realities ( dang]1 dea?1 disappo9tm5t1 %ame1 ru9--& mo/ ( all be=e des]v$ %ame1 des]v$ ru9--all argum5ts melt away2 & ! man or woman1 :o 0 b too ready a day be=e to say1 ,tu%1 ,god w nev] see & w nev] he>1 beg9s to hope passionately t ,god does see1 t ,god does he>4 ,9 ! h\r ( d>kness1 :5 !re is no com=t nor help 9 man1 :5 he has no place to flee unto1 & no man c>e? = 8 s\l1 !n ! mo/ awful1 if mo/ bless$ ( all que/ions is1 ,b is !re no ,"o high] ?an man to :om ,i c flee8 ,no ,"o high] ?an man :o c>es = my s\l1 & = ! s\ls ( ^? :o are de>] to me ?an my own s\l8 ,no fri5d8 ,no help]8 ,no deliv]]8 ,no c\nsellor8 ,ev5 no judge8 ,no puni%]8 ,no ,god1 ev5 ?\gh ,he be a consum+ fire8 ,am ,i 9 my mis]y alone 9 ! univ]se8 ,is my mis]y )\t any mean+ & )\t hope8 ,if !re be no ,god1 !n all t is left = me is despair & dea?4 ,b if !re be1 !n ,i c hope t !re is a mean+ 9 my mis]y2 t x comes to me n )\t cause1 ev5 ?\gh t cause be my own fault4 ,!n ,i c plead ) ,god1 ev5 ?\gh 9 wild words l ,job2 & ask1 ,:at is ! mean+ ( ?is sorr[8 ,:at h ,i done8 ,:at %\ld ,i d8 ,i w say unto ,god1 ,d n condemn me2 %[ me :]e=e ,?\ cont5de/ ) me4 ,surely ,i w\ld speak unto ! ,almighty2 ,i desire to reason ) ,god4 ,oh1 my fri5ds1 a man1 ,i believe1 c ga9 c\rage & wisdom to say t only by ! inspiration ( ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,b :5 once he has said t f 8 he>t1 he beg9s to be ju/ifi$ by fai?2 = he has _h fai? 9 ,god4 ,he has tru/$ ,god--& m--he has ju/ifi$ ,god4 ,he has confess$ t ,god is n a m]e =ce or law ( ,nature2 nor a m]e tyrant & torm5tor2 b a ,reasonable ,be+ :o w he> reason1 & a ,j ,be+ :o w d ju/ice by ! creatures ,he has made4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,! deep]1 ! bitt]] y\r lonel9ess1 ! m y are l ,him :o cri$ ^u ! cross1 ,my ,god1 my ,god1 :y ha/ ,?\ =sak5 me8 ,he kn[s :at t grief1 too1 is l4 ,he feels = !e at lea/4 ,?\gh all =sake !e1 ,he is ) !e /ill1 & if ,he be ) !e1 :at matt] :o has left !e = a :ile8 ,ay1 bless$ are ^? t weep n[1 = :om ! ,"l love?1 ,he *a/5e?2 & because ,he loves ! poor1 ,he br+s !m l[4 ,all ?+s are bless$ n[ b s92 = all ?+s except+ s9 are r$eem$ by ! life & dea? ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,bless$ are wisdom & c\rage1 joy & heal?1 & beauty & love & m>riage1 *ildhood & manhood1 corn & w9e1 fruits & fl[]s2 = ,*ri/ r$eem$ !m by ,8 life4 ,& bless$1 too1 are te>s & %ame1 bless$ are weakness & ugl9ess1 bless$ are agony & sickness1 bless$ ! sad remembrance ( our s9s1 & a brok5 he>t & a rep5tant _s4 ,bless$ is dea?1 & ble/ ! unkn[n realms1 :]e s\ls await ! resurrection day1 = ,*ri/ r$eem$ !m by ,8 dea?4 ,bless$ are all ?+s1 weak z well z /rong4 ,bless$ are all days1 d>k z well z bright1 = all are ,81 & ,he is ours2 & all are ours1 & we are ,8 = ev]4 ,!re=e sigh on1 ye sad ones1 & rejoice 9 y\r own sadness2 a*e on1 ye suff]+ ones1 & rejoice 9 y\r own sorr[s4 ,rejoice t y are made free ( ! holy bro!rhood ( m\rn]s2 rejoice t y are c\nt$ wor?y ( a fell[%ip 9 ! suff]+s ( ! ,son ( ,god4 ,rejoice & tru/ on1 = aft] sorr[ %all come joy4 ,tru/ on2 = 9 man's weakness ,god's /r5g? %all be made p]fect4 ,tru/ on2 = dea? is ! gate ( life4 ,endure on to ! end1 & possess y\r s\ls 9 pati5ce = a little :ile1 & t1 p]haps1 a v little :ile4 ,dea? comes swiftly1 & m swiftly /ill p]haps1 ! day ( ! ,"l4 ,! deep] ! sorr[1 ! ne>] ! salvation3-- ,! night is d>ke/ be=e ! dawn2 ,:5 ! pa9 is sore/1 ! *ild is born2 ,& ! day ( ! ,"l at h&4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,?\ :o art we>y & heavy lad52 ?\ :o fancie/ at mom5ts t ! ,"l's arm is %ort5$ t x _c save1 & art ready to cry1 ,god ha? =gott5 me1 take com=t1 & look ^u ,*ri/4 ,?\ wilt nev] be sure ( ! love ( ,god1 unless ?\ rememb]e/ t x is ! same z ! love ( ,*ri/2 & by look+ at ,*ri/1 le>ne/ to "k ?y ,fa!r & ,8 ,fa!r1 ^: lik5ess & image ,he is1 & see t ! ,_s :i* proce$s alike f bo? ( !m is ! ,_s ( humanity & love1 :i* _c help go+ =? to seek & to save !e1 simply because ?\ art lo/4 ,look1 ,i say1 unto ,*ri/2 & be sure t :at ! good ,sam>itan did to ! w\nd$ travell]1 t same w ,he d to !e1 because ,he is ! ,son ( ,man1 human & humane4 ,art ?\ robb$1 w\nd$1 des]t$1 left to die1 wor/$ 9 ! battle ( life1 & fall5 9 its rugg$ road1 ) no c\nsel1 no /r5g?1 no hope1 no purpose left8 ,!n rememb] t !re is ,"o walk+ to & fro 9 ?is _w unse51 b ev] pres5t1 ^: =m is z ! =m ( ! ,son ( ,man4 ,& ,he has "t1 z ,he has w1 to turn aside & m9i/] to su* z !e6 ,no human be+ s mean1 no human sorr[ s petty1 b t ,he has ! "t & ! w & ! p[] to h m]cy on x1 because ,he is ! ,son ( ,man4 ,!re=e ,he w turn aside ev5 to !e1 :oev] ?\ art1 :o art we>y & heavy lad51 & c f9d no re/ = ?y s\l1 at ! v mom5t1 & 9 ! v mann] :i* is be/ = !e4 ,:5 ?\ ha/ suff]$ long en\gh1 ,he w /abli%1 /r5g!n1 settle !e4 ,he w b9d up ?y w\nds1 & p\r 9 ! oil & ! w9e ( ,8 ,_s--! ,holy ,gho/1 ! ,com=t]--& w c>ry !e to ,8 own inn1 :]e( x is writt51 ,he w hide !e secretly 9 ,8 own pres5ce f ! provok+ ( m52 ,he w keep !e 9 ,8 tab]nacle f ! /rife ( tongues4 ,he w give ,8 angels *>ge ov] !e to keep !e 9 all ?y ways2 & ,he w give !e re/ at la/ 9 ! bosom ( ! ,fa!r1 f :i* ?\1 l all human s\ls1 came/ =? at fir/1 & to :i* ?\ %alt at la/ return1 ) all human s\ls :o h 9 !m ! ,_s ( ,god & ( ,*ri/1 & ( et]nal life4 ,discipl9e & o!r ,s]mons4 ,we all l com=t4 ,b :at k9d ( com=t d we n m]ely l1 b ne$8 ,m]ely to be com=table8 ,to be free f fe>1 anxiety1 sorr[8 ,! com=t :i* poor human be+s want 9 su* a _w z ?is is n ! com=t ( ease1 b ! com=t ( /r5g?4 ,! com=t] :om we ne$ is n "o :o w m]ely say k9d ?+s1 b give help--help to ! we>y1 lonely1 heavy-lad5 he>t :i* has no "t to re/4 ,we ne$ n ! sunny & smil+ face1 b ! /rong help+ arm4 ,= we may be 9 t /ate t smiles are %ock+ to u1 & m]e k9dness--?\gh we may be grateful = x--( no m com=t to u ?an sweet music to a dr[n+ man4 ,we may be mis]able1 & unable to help be+ mis]able1 & unwill+ to help x too4 ,we d n wi% to flee f our sorr[3 we d n wi% to =get x4 ,we d>e n4 ,x is s awful1 s he>t-r5d+1 s pla9-spok51 t ,god1 ! ma/] & tutor ( our he>ts1 mu/ wi% u to face x & endure x4 ,our ,fa!r has giv5 u ! cup--%all we n dr9k x8 ,oh6 = a com=t] :o w help u to dr9k ! bitt] cup--:o w give u fai? to say1 ) ,job1 ,?\gh ,he slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him--:o w give u ! firm reason to look /eadily at our grief1 & le>n ! lesson x is meant to tea*--:o w give u ! temp]ate w to keep sob] & calm amid ! %ocks & *anges ( mortal life6 ,if we _h su* a com=t] z t1 we %\ld n c>e if he seem$ at times /]n1 z well z k9d2 we c\ld endure rebuke f him if we c\ld only get f him wisdom to und]/& ! rebuke1 & c\rage to be> ! *a/isem5t4 ,:]e is t com=t]8 ,god answ]s3 ,t ,com=t] am ,i1 ! ,god ( ,heav5 & ,e>?4 ,!re are com=t]s on e>? :o c help !e ) wise words & noble c\nsels1 c be /rong z man & t5d] z woman4 ,b ,god c be m /rong ?an man1 m t5d] ?an woman likewise2 & :5 ! /rong arm ( man supports !e no long]1 yet "u !e are ! ,ev]la/+ ,arms4 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 4 4 4 ,y are disappo9t$4 ,d rememb] if y lose he>t ab\t y\r "w1 t none ( x is lo/4 ,t ! good ( e good de$ rema9s1 & bre$s1 & works on = ev]2 & t all t fails & is lo/ is ! outside %ell ( ! ?+1 :i* p]haps might h be5 bett] done1 b bett] or worse has no?+ to d ) ! real spiritual good :i* y h done to m5's he>ts1 = :i* ,god w surely repay y 9 ,8 own way & "t4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,don't be d[nhe>t$ if outw>d humiliation1 disappo9tm5t1 failure1 come at fir/4 ,if ,god be inde$ our ,fa!r 9 any real s5se1 !n :om ,he love? ,he *a/5e?1 ev5 z a fa!r ! son 9 :om he delighte?4 ,& till ?\ art empti$ ( ?yself1 ,god _c fill !e1 ?\gh x be a law ( ! old ,my/ics1 is true & practical common s5se4 ,g ?y way1 ?\gh ! way to true light is a long ladd]4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,z = any s*emes ( m9e1 x is a slight matt] :e!r !y h fail$ or n4 ,b ! failure ( a hundr$ s*emes w\ld n alt] my conviction t !y are attempts 9 a "r direction2 & ,i w die 9 hope1 n hav+ receiv$ ! promises1 b behold+ !m af> (f1 & confess+ myself a /rang] & a pilgrim4 ,s ,i am cont5t to h fail$4 ,i h le>nt 9 ! exp]im5t priceless tru?s conc]n+ myself1 my fell[-m51 & ! ,city ( ,god1 :i* is et]nal 9 ! heav5s1 = ev] com+ d[n among m51 & actualiz+ itself m & m 9 e succe$+ age4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,we h hope 9 ,*ri/ = ! next life z well z = ?is--hope t 9 ! next life ,he w give u p[] to succe$ :]e we fail$ "h2 t ,he w enable u to be good & to d good1 &1 if n to make o!rs good 7= !re we tru/ all w be good toge!r71 to enjoy ! fulness ( t pleasure = :i* we h be5 long+ on e>?--! pleasure ( see+ o!rs good1 z ,*ri/ is good & p]fect1 z _! ,fa!r 9 ,heav5 is p]fect4 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,!re are _m :o h 9 !m1 by grace ( ,god1 ! div9e ?ir/ = ! high] life2 :o are discont5t$ ) !mselves1 a%am$ ( !mselves2 :o are torm5t$ by long+s :i* !y _c satisfy1 in/9cts :i* !y _c analyse1 p[]s :i* !y _c employ1 duties :i* !y _c p]=m1 doctr9al confusions :i* !y _c unravel2 :o w\ld welcome any *ange1 ev5 ! mo/ trem5d\s1 :i* w\ld make !m nobl]1 pur]1 ju/]1 m lov+1 m useful1 m cle>-he>t$ & s\nd-m9d$2 &1 :5 !y ?9k ( dea?1 say ) ! poet-- ',tis life1 n dea?1 = :i* ,i pant1 ',tis life :]e( my n]ves are scant1 ,m life1 & full]1 t ,i want4 ,to !m we c say1 = ,god has said x long ago--,be ( good *e]4 ,! call+ & gifts ( ,god are )\t rep5tance4 ,if y h ! div9e ?ir/1 x w be surely satisfi$4 ,if y long to be bett] m5 & wom51 y w surely be s4 ,only be true to ^? high] in/9cts2 only d n le>n to despise & qu5* t div9e ?ir/2 only /ruggle on1 9 spite ( mi/akes1 ( failures1 ev5 ( s9s1 = e "o ( :i* la/ y\r ,heav5ly ,fa!r w *a/ise y1 ev5 :ile ,he =gives2 9 spite ( all disappo9tm5t /ruggle on4 ,bless$ are y :o hung] & ?ir/ aft] righte\sness1 = y %all be fill$4 ,to y1 & n 9 va91 ,! ,_s & ! ,bride say1 ,come4 ,& let him t is a?ir/1 ,come4 ,& :osoev] w1 let him dr9k ( ! wat] ( life freely4 ,wat] ( ,life--,s]mons4 ,! he>t & s\l ( man wants m ?an a religion1 z x is writt51 ,my s\l is a?ir/ = ,god1 ev5 ! ,liv+ ,god4 ,!y want a liv+ ,god1 :o c>es = m51 =gives m51 saves m5 f _! s9s2 & ,him ,i h f\nd 9 ! ,bible1 & n[h]e else1 save 9 ! facts ( life1 :i* ! ,bible alone int]prets4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,:at 0 ,*ri/'s life8 ,n "o ( deep speculation1 quiet ?\ghts1 & bright visions2 b a life ( fight+ aga9/ evil2 e>ne/1 awful pray]s & /ruggles )91 cont9ual lab\r ( body & m9d )\t2 insult & dang] & confusion & viol5t ex]tion & bitt] sorr[4 ,?is 0 ,*ri/'s life--?is is ! life ( almo/ e good & great man ,i ev] he>d (4 ,?is 0 ,*ri/'s cup1 :i* ,8 disciples 7 to dr9k ( z well z ,he2 ?is 0 ! baptism ( fire ) :i* !y 7 to be baptis$ ( z well z ,he2 ?is 0 to be _! fight ( fai?2 ?is 0 ! tribulation ?r\gh :i* !y1 & all o!r great sa9ts1 7 to ent] into ! k+dom ( heav54 ,= x is c]ta9 t ! h>d] a man fights aga9/ evil ! h>d] evil w fight aga9/ him 9 return2 b x is c]ta9 too t ! h>d] a man fights aga9/ evil1 ! m is he l 8 ,savi\r ,*ri/1 & ! m glori\s w be 8 rew>d 9 heav54 ,village ,s]mons4 ,v4 ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep ,,( ,,d\bt1 ,,d>kness1 ,,& ,,hell4 ,o ,"l ,god ( my salvation1 ,i h cri$ day & night unto ,!e4 ,oh6 let my pray] ent] into ,?y pres5ce4 ,= my s\l is full ( tr\ble & my life drawe? nigh unto ,hell4 ,?\ ha/ laid me 9 ! l[e/ pit1 9 a place ( d>kness1 & 9 ! deep4--,ps4 lxxxviii4 #a1 #b4 ,if ,i g d[n to ,hell1 ,?\ art !re also4 ,yea1 ! d>kness is no d>kness ) ,!e2 b ! night is z cle> z ! day4--,ps4 cxxxix4 #g1 #aa4 ,i wait$ pati5tly = ! ,"l2 & ,he incl9$ unto me1 & he>d my call+4 ,he br\ght me also out ( ! horrible pit1 out ( ! miry clay1 & set my feet ^u ! rock4 ,& ,he ha? put a new song into my m\?1 ev5 a ?anksgiv+ unto our ,god4--,ps4 xl4 #b1 #c4 ,god ha? deliv]$ my s\l f ! place ( ,hell4 ,he %all receive me4--,ps4 xlix4 #ae4 ,x is sometimes true1 t sun%9e comes aft] /orm4 ,sometimes true--or :o c\ld live8--b n always4 ,equally true t 9 mo/ human lives !re are p]iods ( tr\ble1 bl[ foll[+ bl[1 wave foll[+ wave1 f opposite & unexpect$ qu>t]s1 till all ,god's bill[s h gone ov] ! s\l4 ,h[ paltry & helpless 9 su* d>k times are all pr\d attempts to hang self-pois$ 9 ! c5tre ( ! abyss1 & !re organise = oneself a "* by means ( circum/ances4 ,easy en\gh x seems = a man to educate himself )\t ,god :ile he lies com=tably 9 idl5ess on a s(a4 ,b :at if he f\nd himself hurl$ p]=ce among ! real univ]sal exp]i5ces ( humanity2 & made free 9 spite ( himself1 by d\bt & fe> & horror ( great d>kness1 ( ! bro!rhood ( woe1 common alike to ! simple/ peasant woman1 & to e great s\l1 :o has left 8 impress ^u ! he>ts ( aft] g5]ations8 ,jew1 ,hea!n1 or ,*ri/ian2 m5 ( ! mo/ opposite cre$s & aims--:e!r x be ,moses or ,socrates1 ,isaiah or ,epictetus1 ,augu/9e or ,mohamm$1 ,dante or ,b]n>d1 ,%akespe>e or ,bacon--ea* & all ( !m h ?is "o fact 9 common--t once 9 _! lives1 at lea/1 !y h gone d[n into ! bottomless pit1 & !re out ( ! utt] d>kness h ask$ ! "q ( all que/ions--,is !re a ,god8 & if !re be1 :at is ,he do+ ) me8 ,:at refuge !n--:5 a man feels himself p[]less 9 ! gripe ( "s unse5 & inevitable p[]1 & kn[s n :e!r x be *ance or necessity1 or a dev\r+ fi5d--to wrap himself /]nly 9 himself & cry1 ,i w endure ?\gh all ! univ]se be aga9/ me8 ,h[ f9e x s\nds6 ,b :o has done x8 ,no1 !re is b "o escape1 "o *9k ?r\gh :i* we may see light1 "o rock on :i* our feet may f9d /&+-place1 ev5 9 ! abyss2 & t is ! belief1 intuitive1 inspir$1 due nei!r to reason+ nor to /udy1 t ! bill[s are ,god's bill[s2 & t ?\gh we g d[n into ,hell1 ,he is !re also2 ! belief t n we1 b ,he1 is educat+ u2 t ^! seem+ly incoh]5t mis]ies1 /orm foll[+ e>?quake1 & e>?quake fire1 z if ! caprice ( all ! demons 7 let loose aga9/ u1 h 9 ,8 m9d a spiritual coh]5ce1 an organic unity & purpose1 ?\gh we see x n2 t ^! sorr[s d n come s+ly1 only because ,he is mak+ %ort "w ) our spirits2 & because ! m effect ,he sees produc$ by "o bl[1 ! m swiftly ,he foll[s x up by ano!r2 till 9 "o great & v>i$ crisis1 seem+ly long to u1 b %ort comp>$ ) immortality1 our spirits may be-- ,heat$ hot ) burn+ fe>s1 ,& ba!d 9 ba?s ( hiss+ te>s1 ,& batt]$ ) ! /rokes ( doom1 ,to %ape & use4 ,two ,ye>s ,ago4 ,!re is no d>k] temptation ?an t :i* comes ov] a man :5 ! devil :isp]s to him su* ?\ghts z ^!1 ,god does n c>e = me--,god hates me4 ,luck1 & ev]y?+ else is aga9/ me4 ,!re seems "s curse ^u me4 ,:y %\ld ,i *ange8 ,let ,god fir/ *ange to me & !n w ,i *ange t[>ds ,him4 ,b ,god w n *ange2 ,he has det]m9$ to h no m]cy on me4 ,i c see t2 = ev]y?+ goes wrong ) me4 ,!n :at is ! use ( my rep5t+4 ,i w g my own way--& :at mu/ be mu/4 ,h y ev] _h su* ?\ghts8 ,!n he> ! ^w ( ! ,"l to y3 ,:51 :5soev]1 :]esoev]1 ! wick$ man turne? away f 8 wick$ness :i* he has committ$1 & doe? t :i* is lawful & "r1 he %all save 8 s\l alive4 ,h ,i any pleasure 9 ! dea? ( him t die? sai? ! ,"l1 & n r t he %\ld be conv]t$ & live8 ,nev] believe ! devil :5 he tells y t ,god hates y4 ,nev] believe him :5 he tells y t ,god has be5 too h>d ^u y1 & plac$ y 9 su* circum/ances ( temptation1 ignorance1 pov]ty or any?+ else1 t y _c m5d4 ,:at does ! promise ( y\r ,baptism say8 ,be y poor1 tempt$1 ignorant1 /upid1 be y :at y w1 y are ,god's *ild--y\r ,fa!r's love is ov] y1 ,8 m]cy ready = y4 ,y feel too weak to *ange4 ,ask ,god's ,_s to give y a /r5g? ( w y nev] felt be=e4 ,y feel too pr\d to *ange4 ,ask ,god's ,_s to humble y\r pr\d he>t1 to s(t5 y\r h>d he>t2 & y w f9d to y\r surprise t :5 y\r pride is gone1 :5 y are utt]ly a%am$ ( y\rself1 & see y\r s9s 9 _! true blackness1 & feel unwor?y to look up to ,god1 t !n w come a nobl]1 holi]1 manli] feel+--self-respect1 & a cle> consci5ce1 & ! ?\ght t1 weak & simple z y are1 y are 9 ! "r way2 t ,god & ! ,angels ( ,god are smil+ on y2 t y are 9 tune aga9 ) all e>? & heav51 because y are :at ,god wills y to be4 ,n ,8 pr\d1 peevi%1 self-will$ *ild1 fancy+ y\rself /rong en\gh to g alone1 :5 y are really ! slave ( y\r own passions & appetites & ! play?+s ( ! devil2 b ,8 lov+1 loyal son ?r\gh ! /r5g? ( ,god1 & able to d :at y w1 because :at y w ,god wills also4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,to escape a!ism & despair1 let u rememb] t ! ,creator & ,orda9] ( ! circum/ances ( life is n *ance or ,nature1 b ! ,fa!r ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ & ( u4 ,:5 y feel y are 9 ! deepe/ & gloomie/ d\bt1 pray ! pray] ( desp]ation2 cry out1 ,"l1 if ,?\ do/ exi/1 let me "k t ,?\ do/ exi/6 ,guide my m9d by a way t ,i "k n into ,?y tru?1 & ,god w deliv] y4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,sad z y\r lett] 01 x gave me pleasure2 = x is always a pleasure to see life spr++ out ( dea?1 heal? return+ aft] disease1 ?\gh1 z doctors "k1 ! recov]y f asphyxia or dr[n+ is always z pa9ful z ! tempor>y dea? itself 0 pa9less4 ,fai? is born ( d\bt4 ,x is n life1 b dea?1 :]e no?+ /irs4 ,take all ^! d\bts & /ruggles ( y\rs z simply s _m signs t y\r ,fa!r 9 heav5 is treat+ y z a fa!r1 t ,he has n =sak5 y1 is n (f5d$ ) y1 b is tea*+ y 9 ! way be/ suit$ to y\r own idiosyncracy1 ! great lesson ( lessons1 ,empty ?yself & ,god w fill !e4 ,take y\r sorr[s to y\r ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,if t "n ,fa!r mean any?+1 x mu/ mean t ,he w n turn away f ,8 w&]+ *ild 9 a way t y w\ld he a%am$ to turn away f y\rs4 ,if !re be pity1 la/+ affection1 pati5ce 9 man1 !y mu/ h come f ,god4 ,!y above all ?+s mu/ be ,8 lik5ess4 ,believe t ,he possesses !m a million times m fully ?an any human be+4 ,/4 ,paul knew well at lea/ ! /ate ( m9d 9 :i* y are4 ,he said t he _h f\nd a panacea = x4 ,& 8 words1 to judge f ! way 9 :i* !y h tak5 root & spread & conqu]$1 mu/ h "s dep? & life 9 !m4 ,:y n try !m8 ,j read ! fir/ n9e *apt]s ( ,/4 ,paul's ,epi/le to ! ,romans1 tak+ = grant$ t !y mean ! simple/ & mo/ obvi\s s5se :i* c be put ^u !m4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,:5 ! h\r ( temptation comes1 g back1 g back if y w\ld escape1 to :at y 7 taught at y\r "m's knee conc]n+ ! grace ( ,god2 = t alone w keep y safe1 or angel1 or ar*angel1 or any creat$ be+ safe1 9 ?is life1 & 9 all lives to come4 ,s]mons on ,david4 ,:at does x all mean8 ,i cry4 ,night & day ! heav5s h be5 black to me4 ,y may ?9k x s9ful to h su* ?\ghts4 ,my exp]i5ce is t :5 !y come1 "o mu/ d battle ) !m2 "o mu/ face !m2 d battle ) !m delib]ately2 be pati5t if !y wor/ "o = a :ile4 ,by all su* ?+s m5 live2 9 ^! is ! life ( ! _s4 ,only by go+ d[n into hell c "o rise ! ?ird day4 ,i h be5 9 hell _m times 9 my life1 !re=e1 p]haps1 ,i h _h "s small p[] ( influ5c+ human he>ts4 ,b ,i nev] h look$ hell s close 9 ! face z ,i h be5 do+ ( late4 ,:]e=e1 ,i hope !reby to get fre% p[] to rise & to lift o!rs heav5w>d4 ,i c only cry--,o ,"l1 9 ,!e h ,i tru/$1 let me nev] be conf\nd$4 ,:]e=e %\ld ! wick$ say--,:]e is n[ 8 ,god8 ,b :ile ,i fret mo/ !re comes to me an inn] voice1 say+--,:at matt] if ?\ art conf\nd$4 ,god is n4 ,only believe firmly t ,god is z good z ?\ ) ?y f9ite reason can/ conceive2 & ,he w make !e at la/ able to conceive h[ good ,he is1 & ?\ %alt h ! p]fect bless+ ( see+ ,god4 ,y w say ,i am inconsi/5t4 ,s ,i am2 & s1 if read hone/ly1 are ,david's ,psalms4 ,yet1 t v inconsi/5cy is :at br+s !m home to e human he>t = ev]4 ,! words ( a man 9 real d\bt & real d>kness1 cry+ = light1 & n cry+ 9 va91 z ,i tru/ ,i %all n4 4 4 4 ,i only "k t ,i "k no?+1 b hope t ,*ri/1 :o is ! ,son ( ,man1 w tell me piecemeal1 if ,i be pati5t & wat*ful1 :at ,i am & :at man is4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,"s ?+s ,i see cle>ly1 & hold ) desp]ate clut*--a ,fa!r 9 ,heav5 = all2 a ,son ( ,god inc>nate = all 7t inc>nation is ! "o fact :i* is to me wor? all1 because x makes all o!rs possible & rational1 & )\t x ,i %\ld g mad72 & a ,_s ( ! ,fa!r & ! ,son1 ! f\nta9 ( all good on e>?--:o works to w & to d ( ,8 own good pleasure--9 :om8 ,9 e human be+ 9 :om !re is "o sp>k ( active good1 ! lea/ desire to d "r1 or to be ( use4 ,beyond t ,i see little save t ,"r is div9e & all-conqu]+--,wrong utt]ly inf]nal1 & yet weak1 fooli%1 a m]e bully+ phantom1 :i* w flee at ea* brave bl[1 _h we c\rage to /rike at x 9 ,god's "n4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,!re is n a sorr[ :i* man c ta/e :i* ,jesus ,*ri/ has n fulfill$4 ,he fill$ ! cup ( mis]y to ! brim1 & dra9$ x to ! dregs4 ,he ta/$ dea? = e man1 & w5t d[n into ! l[e/ dep?s ( t]ror & %ame & agony & dea?1 &1 wor/ ( all1 into ! feel+ t ,god _h =sak5 ,him2 t !re 0 no help or hope = ,him 9 heav51 z well z e>?2 9 a ^w1 ,he w5t d[n into hell2 ev5 into t l[e/ d>kness :]e1 = "o mom5t1 a man feels1 t ,god is no?+ to him1 & he is no?+ to ,god4 ,ev5 into t dep? ,jesus condesc5d$ to g d[n = u4 ,t wor/ ( all temptations1 ( :i* ,david only ta/$ a drop1 :5 he cri$ out1 ,my ,god1 my ,god1 :y ha/ ?\ =sak5 me8--,jesus dra9$ to ! v dregs = u4 ,he w5t d[n into hell = u1 & conqu]$ hell & dea?1 & ! d>kness ( ! unkn[n _w1 & rose aga9 glori\s f !m1 t ,he might tea* u n to fe> dea? & hell2 t ,he might "k h[ to com=t u 9 ! h\r ( dea?1 & 9 ! day ( judgm5t1 :5 on our sick-b$1 or 9 "s bitt] %ame & tr\ble1 ! ly+ devil is tell+ u t we are damn$ & lo/1 & =sak5 by ,god1 & e s9 we ev] did rises up & />es u 9 ! face4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,:atev] may be ! my/]ies ( life & dea?1 !re is "o my/]y :i* ! ,cross ( ,*ri/ reveals to u1 & t is ! inf9ite & absolute goodness ( ,god4 ,let all ! re/ rema9 a my/]y s long z ! my/]y ( ! ,cross ( ,*ri/ gives u fai? = all ! re/4 ,fai?1 ,i say4 ,! my/]y ( evil1 ( t]ror1 ( dea?1 ! gospel does n pret5d to solve1 b x tells u t ! my/]y is prov$ to be soluble2 = ,god ,himself has tak5 ^u ,himself ! task ( solv+ x2 & ,*ri/ has prov$ by ,8 own act1 t if !re be evil 9 ! _w1 x is none ( ,81 = ,he hates x1 fights aga9/ x1 & ,he f\ght aga9/ x to ! dea?4 ,! ,cross says1 ,h fai? 9 ,god4 ,ask no m ( ,him1 ,:y ha/ ?\ made me ?us8 ,ask no m1 ,:y d ! wick$ prosp] on ! e>?8 ,ask no m1 ,:5ce pa9 & dea?1 w> & fam9e1 e>?quake & tempe/1 & all ! ills to :i* fle% is heir8 ,all fruitless que/ion+1 all peevi% rep9+s are preclud$ h5ce=? by ! dea? & passion ( ,*ri/4 ,do/ ?\ suff]8 ,?\ can/ n suff] m ?an ! ,son ( ,god4 ,do/ ?\ sympa?ise ) ?y fell[-suff]]s8 ,?\ can/ n sympa?ise m ?an ! ,son ( ,god4 ,do/ ?\ long to "r !m1 to deliv] !m1 ev5 at ! price ( ?9e own blood8 ,?\ can/ n long m ard5tly ?an ! ,son ( ,god1 :o c>ri$ ,8 long+ into act1 & di$ = !m & !e4 ,:at if ! end be n yet8 ,:at if evil /ill endure8 ,:at if ! m$ic9e h n yet conqu]$ ! disease8 ,h pati5ce1 h fai?1 h hope1 z ?\ /&e/ at ! foot ( ,*ri/'s ,cross1 & holde/ fa/ to x1 z ! ,an*or ( ?y s\l & reason1 z well z ( ?y he>t4 ,= h[ev] ill ! _w may g1 or seem to g1 ! ,cross is ! ev]la/+ tok5 t ,god s lov$ ! _w1 t ,he sp>$ n ,8 only begott5 ,son1 b freely gave ,him = x4 ,:atsoev] else is d\btful ?is at lea/ is sure1 t ,god mu/ conqu]1 because ,god is good2 t ,evil mu/ p]i%1 because ,god hates ,evil1 ev5 to ! dea?4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,h[ %all ! bottomless pit1 if we fall into x1 be a pa?way to ! ev]la/+ rock8 ,david tells u1 ,out ( ! deep h ,i cri$ unto ,!e1 ,o ,god4 ,he cri$ to ,god--n to himself1 8 own le>n+1 prud5ce1 tal5ts--to pull him out ( t pit4 ,n to doctr9es1 books1 *ur*-go+s--n to ! de>e/ e>?ly fri5d--n to 8 own exp]i5ces1 fai?'s assurances1 frames & feel+s4 ,! matt] 0 too t]rible to be pla/]$ ov] 9 t way1 or 9 any way4 ,he 0 face to face ) ,god alone1 & 9 utt] weakness1 9 utt] nak$ness ( s\l1 he cri$ to ,god ,himself4 ,!re 0 ! lesson4 ,god took away f him all ?+s1 t he might h no "o to cry to b to ,god4 ,& x %all be ) e s\l ( man :o1 be+ 9 ! deep1 cries out ( ! deep to ,god1 z x 0 ) ,moses :5 he w5t up alone into ! ,m\nt ( ,god1 & fa/$ =ty days & =ty nights amid ! e>?quake & ! ?und]/orm1 & ! rocks :i* melt$ be=e ! ,"l4 ,& behold1 :5 x 0 pa/1 he talk$ face to face ) ,god1 z a man talke? ) 8 fri5d1 & 8 c\nt5ance %one ) heav5ly light1 :5 he came d[n triumphant out ( ! ,m\nt ( ,god4 ,good ,news ( ,god--,s]mons4 ,on ! tortur+ cross ,*ri/ pray$ = ,8 murd]]s1 ,fa!r1 =give !m1 = !y "k n :at !y d4 ,& ?is is ! "* _m a man may get 9 ! d>k deep4 ,to feel = all1 to feel ) all2 to rejoice ) ^? :o rejoice1 & weep ) ^? :o weep1 to und]/& p's trials & make all[ances = _! temptations2 to put oneself 9 _! place till we see ) _! eyes1 & feel ) _! he>ts1 till we judge no man1 & h hope = all2 to be fair & pati5t & t5d] ) ev]yone we meet2 to despise no "o1 despair ( no "o1 because ,*ri/ despises none & despairs ( none2 to look on e "o we meet ) love1 almo/ ) pity1 because !y too may h be5 d[n into ! deep ( horror1 or may g d[n into x any day2 to see our own s9s 9 ! s9s ( o!rs1 to feel t we might d :at !y d1 & feel z !y feel at any mom5t1 did ,god des]t u2 to give & =give1 live & let live1 ev5 z ,*ri/ gives to u & =gives u1 & lives = u & lets u live 9 spite ( all our s9s4 ,good ,news ( ,god4 ,rejoice t !re is a fire ( ,god ! ,fa!r ^: "n is ,love1 burn+ = ev] unqu5*ably1 to de/roy out ( e man's he>t & out ( ! he>ts ( all nations1 & ( ! physical & moral _w1 all :i* (f5ds & makes a lie2 & t into t fire ! ,son w surely ca/ all %ams1 lies1 hypocrisies1 tyrannies1 false doctr9es4 ,is x n good news t t fire is unqu5*able1 t t worm w n die8 ,! fire may be k9dl$ = u--! worm may seize our he>ts4 ,god grant t 9 t day we may h c\rage to let ! fire & ! worm d _! "w--to say to ,*ri/1 ,^! too are ,?9e1 & out ( ,?9e inf9ite love !y h come4 ,?\ require/ tru? 9 ! inw>d p>ts1 & ,i w ?ank ,!e = any means1 h[ev] bitt]1 :i* ,?\ use/ to make me true4 ,i want to be an hone/ man & a "r man6 ,&1 ,o joy6 ,?\ wante/ me to be s also4 ,o joy6 t ?\gh ,i long c[>dly to qu5* ,?y fire1 ,i _c d x4 ,purge me !re=e1 ,o ,"l1 ?\gh x be ) fire4 ,burn up ! *aff ( vanity & self-indulg5ce1 ( ha/y prejudices1 second-h& dogmas1--husks :i* d n fe$ my s\l1 ) :i* ,i _c be cont5t1 ( :i* ,i feel a%am$ daily--& if !re be any gra9s ( :eat 9 me1 any ^w or ?\ght or p[] ( action :i* may be ( use z se$ = my nation aft] me1 ga!r x1 ,o ,"l1 into ,?y g>n]4 ,am54 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,! ,fire ( ,god h>d5s a man & s(t5s him at ! same "t4 ,he comes out ( x h>d5$ to t h>dness ( :i* x is writt51 ,d ?\ endure h>dness z a good soldi] ( ,jesus ,*ri/2 & aga91 ,i h f\ght a good fight1 ,i h kept ! fai?1 ,i h f9i%$ my c\rse2--yet s(t5$ to t s(tness ( :i* x is writt51 ,be ye t5d]-he>t$1 compassionate1 =giv+ "o ano!r1 ev5 z ,god1 = ,*ri/'s sake1 has =giv5 y2 & aga91 ,we h a ,high ,prie/ :o c be t\*$ ) ! feel+ ( our infirmities1 see+ t ,he has be5 tempt$ 9 all ?+s l z we are4 ,happy1 ?rice happy1 are !y :o h ?us walk$ ?r\gh ! ,valley ( ! ,%ad[ ( ,dea?1 & f\nd x a pa? t leads to ev]la/+ life4 ,happy are !y :o h wri!d a:ile 9 ! fi]ce fire ( ,god1 & h _h burn$ out ( !m ! *aff1 & ! dross1 & all :i* (f5ds & makes !m va9 & light1 yet makes !m dull1 & drags !m d[n at ! same "t2 till only ! pure gold ( ,god's righte\sness is left1 sev5 times tri$ 9 ! fire1 incorruptible1 preci\s 9 ! sight ( ,god & man4 ,su* ne$ n regret1 w n regret1 all t !y h gone ?r\gh4 ,x has made !m brave1 sob]1 pati5t4 ,x has giv5 !m ,! reason firm1 ! temp]ate w1 ,endurance1 =esight1 /r5g? & skill2 & s %ap$ !m into ! lik5ess ( ,*ri/1 :o 0 made p]fect by suff]+2 & ?\gh ,he 7 a ,son1 yet 9 ! days ( ,8 fle% made /rong supplication1 & cry+ ) te>s to ,8 ,fa!r1 & 0 he>d 9 t ,he fe>$2 & s1 ?\gh ,he di$ on ! ,cross & desc5d$ into ,hell1 yet triumph$ ov] ,dea? & ,hell by dy+ & desc5d+1 & conqu]$ !m by submitt+ to !m4 ,good ,news ( ,god--,s]mons4 ,,vi4 ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep ,,( ,,dea?4 ,my he>t is disquiet$ )9 me1 & ! fe> ( dea? has fall5 ^u me4--,ps4 iv4 #d4 ,my fle% & my he>t faile?1 b ,god is ! /r5g? ( my he>t4--,ps4 lxiii4 #be4 ,yea ?\gh ,i walk ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w fe> no evil1 = ,?\ art ) me4--,ps4 xxiii4 #d4 ,?\ ha/ deliv]$ my s\l f dea?1 m9e eyes f te>s1 & my feet f fall+4--,ps4 cxvi4 #h4 ,:at w become ( u aft] we die8 ,:at w ! next _w be l8 ,:at is heav5 l8 ,%all ,i be able to enjoy x8 ,%all ,i be a man !re1 or only a gho/1 a _s )\t a body8 ,to ?is ,/4 ,paul answ]s1 t ,*ri/1 ! ,son ( ,god1 aft] t ,he 0 manife/$ 9 ! fle%1 0 receiv$ up into glory4 ,he does n tell u :at heav5 is l1 = ?\gh he _h be5 caught up into ! ?ird heav51 yet :at he saw !re 0 unspeakable4 ,nei!r does he tell u :at ! next life w be l2 all he says is1 ! ,man ,*ri/ ,jesus1 :o walk$ ?is e>? l o!r m51 0 receiv$ up into glory1 & ,he did n leave ,8 man's m9d1 ,8 man's he>t1 ev5 ,8 man's body beh9d ,him4 ,he c>ri$ up into heav5 ) ,him ,8 :ole manhood1 _s1 s\l1 & body1 ev5 to ! pr9t ( ! nails 9 ,8 h&s1 & 9 ,8 mo/ holy feet1 & ! w\nd ( ! spe> 9 ,8 mo/ holy side4 ,t is en\gh = u2 because ! ,man ,*ri/ ,jesus is 9 heav51 we1 z m51 may asc5d to heav54 ,:]e ,he is we %all be4 ,& :at ,he is1 9 z f> z ,he is ,man1 we %all be4 ,& ?is we d "k1 t we %all be l ,him1 = we %all see ,him z ,he is4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,m5 are afraid ( dy+1 pr9cipally1 ,i believe1 because !y fe> ! unkn[n4 ,x is n t !y are afraid ( ! pa9 ( dy+4 ,x is n t !y are afraid ( go+ to hell4 ,nei!r is x t !y are afraid ( n go+ to heav54 ,b :5 !y ?9k ( actually dy+1 !y feel z if to g into ! next _w 0 to be turn$ out into ! d>k night1 into an unkn[n l&1 away f h\se & home1 & all !y h kn[n & lov$2 & s !y %r9k f dea?4 ,all ,sa9ts-,day ,s]mons4 ,:5 y are 9 t]ror1 tr\ble1 & affliction1 ay6 & 9 ! black jaws ( dea?1 & "k n :]e to turn1 t bless$ ?\ght1 ,*ri/ is ris5 f ! dead1 w be a %ield & a /r5g? to y :i* no o!r ?\ght c give4 ,! ,"l is ris5--a man1 ) ,8 man's body1 & ,8 man's _s1 ,8 human love & t5d]ness2 ,he has tak5 !m all up to ,heav5 ) ,him4 ,he is a man /ill1 ?\gh ,he is v ,god ( v ,god1 ,he rose f ! dead z a man1 & !re=e ,he c und]/& me & feel = me /ill--n[--"h 9 ,engl& 9 ! n9ete5? c5tury j z mu* z ,he c\ld :5 ,he 0 walk+ ^u e>? 9 ,judea ( old4 ,:5 ?is _w is vani%+ f our eyes1 & we are go+ we "k n :i!r1 leav+ beh9d u all we "k1 & love1 & und]/&2 !n ! ?\ght ( all ?\ghts--,*ri/ is ris5 f ! dead is ! only "o :i* w save u f sad1 d>k ?\ghts1 f fe> & despair1 or f /upid c>elessness1 & ! dea? ( a brute bea/1 su* z too _m die4 ,*ri/ is ris5 & ,i %all rise4 ,*ri/ has conqu]$ dea? = ,himself1 & ,he w conqu] x = me4 ,*ri/ took ,8 man's body & s\l ) ,him f ! tomb to ,god's "r h&1 & ,he w raise my body & s\l at ! la/ day1 t ,i may be ) ,him = ev]1 & see ,him :]e ,he is4 ,9 life & 9 dea? ?is is ! only ?+ :i* w save u f s91 f t]ror1 f ! dread ( ! h]eaft]4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,:y did he die1 we ask8 ,!re mu/ be a f9al cause1 a purpose = ea* dea? ( e son ( man1 or ! fact w\ld be altoge!r hide\s--a scribble )\t a mean+--a skeleton )\t a s\l4 ,:y did he die8 ,i became dumb1 ,i op5$ n my m\?2 = x 0 ,?y do+4 ,s says ! ,burial ,psalm4 ,s let u say likewise4 ,i became dumb3 n ) rage1 n ) despair2 b because x 0 ,?y do+1 & !re=e x 0 done well4 ,x 0 ! de$1 n ( *ance1 nor ( necessity4 ,n s4 ,= x 0 ! de$ ( ! ,fa!r1 )\t :om a sp>r[ falls n to ! gr\nd2 ( ! ,son :o di$ ^u ! ,cross 9 ! utt]ness ( ,8 desire to save2 ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 :o is ! ,"l & ,giv] ( ,life to all creat$ ?+s4 ,x 0 ! de$ ( ,"o :o delights 9 ,life & n 9 ,dea?2 9 bliss & n 9 woe2 9 light & n 9 d>kness2 9 ord] & n 9 an>*y2 9 good & n 9 evil4 ,x _h a f9al cause1 a mean+1 a purpose2 & t purpose is v good4 ,:at x is1 we "k n2 & we ne$ n "k4 ,to guess at x w\ld be inde$ to m$dle ) matt]s too high = u4 ,s let u be dumb4 ,dumb1 n f despair1 b f fai?2 dumb1 n l a wret* we>y ) call+ = help :i* does n come1 b dumb l a *ild sitt+ at its "m's feet1 & look+ up into h] face & wat*+ h] do+s1 und]/&+ none ( !m z yet1 b c]ta9 t !y are all done 9 love4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,*ri/ is ris56 ,:at a ?\ght 0 t = ! bless$ m>tyrs1 = poor creatures 9 ! agony ( fe> & %ame1 expect+ pres5tly to be torn to pieces or burnt alive4 ,dea?1 ?is horrible dea?1 _c conqu] me1 weak & fe>ful z ,i am1 = my ,"l & ,ma/]1 = :om ,i am go+ to suff]1 has conqu]$ dea?1 & ,he w n let x conqu] me4 ,he is /rong] ?an hell & dea?1 & ,he w n suff] me 9 my la/ h\r1 = any pa9s ( dea?1 to fall f ,him4 ,he is ,k+ ( ,heav5 & ,e>?1 & ,he w c>e = ,8 own4 ,:at com=t to be able to say3 ,ay1 ,i am torn f wife & *ild & all :i* ,i love on e>?2 b n = ev]1 n = ev]2 = ,*ri/ rose f ! dead1 & ,i1 :o belong to ,*ri/1 %all rise z ,he did4 ,?is poor fle% ( m9e may be burnt 9 flames1 dev\r$ by rav5\s bea/s4 ,:at matt]8 ,*ri/ ! ,k+ ( m5 has ris5 f ! dead1 & become ! fir/ fruits ( !m t slept4 ,t same ,_s :i* br\ght back ,8 body f ! grave & hell1 w br+ my body also f ! grave & hell1 to a nobl]1 happi] life ) ,him 9 joy unspeakable1 :]e ,*ri/ n[ sits on ,god's "r h& def5d+ me1 pity+ me1 & bless+ me1 hold+ out to me a cr[n ( glory :i* %all nev] fade away4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,^! ?+s are mo/ bitt]1 #adg & ! only com=t t ,i c see 9 !m is1 t !y are br++ u all face to face ) ! realities ( human life1 z x has be5 9 all ages1 & giv+ u /]n] & yet m lov+1 m human1 & m div9e ?\ghts ab\t ourselves1 & our bus9ess "h1 & ! fate ( ^? :o are gone1 & awak5+ u out ( ! luxuri\s1 frivol\s1 unreal dream 7full1 nev]!less1 ( h>d judgm5ts7 9 :i* we h be5 liv+ s long1 to tru/ 9 a ,liv+ ,fa!r1 :o is really & practically gov]n+ ?is _w & all worlds1 & :o wille? t none %\ld p]i%2 & !re=e has n =gott5 or sudd5ly begun to hate & torm5t "o s+le poor s\l :i* is pa/ out ( ?is life into "s o!r4 ,all are 9 our ,fa!r's h&s2 &1 oh6 bless$ ?\ght1 ?\gh !y g d[n into hell1 ,?\ art !re also4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,jesus is ! ,savi\r1 ! ,deliv]]1 ! great ,physician1 ! heal] ( s\l & body4 ,n a pang is felt1 or a te> %$ on e>?1 b ,he sorr[s ov] x4 ,n a human be+ on e>? dies "y b ,he1 z ,i believe1 sorr[s ov] x4 ,:at is x :i* prev5ts ,him heal+ e sickness1 soo?+ e sorr[1 wip+ away e te> n[1 we _c tell4 ,b ?is we c tell1 t x is ,8 w t none %\ld p]i%4 ,?is we c tell1 t ,he is will+ z ev] to heal ! sick1 to cleanse ! lep]1 to ca/ out devils1 to tea* ! ignorant1 to b9d up ! brok5-he>t$4 ,?is we c tell1 t ,he w g on do+ s m & m1 ye> by ye>1 & age by age4 ,?is we c tell1 f ,scripture1 t ,*ri/ is /rong] ?an ! devil4 ,?is we c tell1 t ,*ri/ & all good m51 ! spirits ( j m5 made p]fect1 ! wise & ! great 9 ,god's sight1 :o h left u _! books1 _! say+s1 _! writ+s1 z preci\s heal?-giv+ heir-looms1 h be5 fight+1 & are fight+1 & w fight to ! end1 aga9/ ! devil1 & s91 & oppression1 & mis]y1 & disease1 & ev]y?+ :i* spoils & d>k5s ! face ( ,god's good e>?4 ,& ?is we c tell1 t !y w conqu] at ! la/1 because ,*ri/ is /rong] ?an ! devil2 good is /rong] ?an evil2 light is /rong] ?an d>kness2 ,god's ,_s1 ! giv] ( life & heal? & ord]1 is /rong] ?an all ! evil cu/oms & c>elessness & cruelty & sup]/ition :i* make mis]able ! lives1 &1 z f> z we c see1 de/roy ! s\ls ( ?\s&s4 ,yes2 ,i say ,*ri/'s k+dom is a k+dom ( heal? & deliv]ance = body & s\l2 & x w conqu]1 & x w spread1 & x w gr[1 till ! nations ( ! _w h become ! k+doms ( ,god & ( ,8 ,*ri/4 ,*ri/ reigns1 & w reign1 till ,he has put all enemies "u ,8 feet1 & ! la/ ( ,8 enemies :i* %all be de/roy$ is ,dea?4 ,dea? is ,8 enemy :i* ,he has conqu]$ by ris+ f ! dead2 & ! day w come :5 ,dea? w be no m--:5 sickness & sorr[ %all be unkn[n1 & ,god %all wipe te>s f all eyes4 ,i say x aga9--nev] =get x--,*ri/ is ,k+1 & ,8 k+dom is a k+dom ( heal?1 ( life & deliv]ance f all evil4 ,x always has be5 s f ! fir/ "t our ,"l cur$ ! lep] 9 ,galilee2 x w be s to ! end ( ! _w4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,:at did ! spiritual glory ( ,*ri/'s c\nt5ance at ,8 transfiguration %[ ,8 disciples1 b t ,he 0 a spiritual ,k+1 ^: /r5g? lay 9 ! _s ( p[]1 & wisdom1 & beauty1 & love1 :i* ,god _h giv5 ,him )\t measure2 & t !re 0 su* a ?+ z a spiritual body--su* a body z ea* ( u "s day %all h if we be f\nd 9 ,*ri/ at ! resurrection ( ! j--a body :i* %all n hide a man's _s z x does "h1 :5 x becomes subject to ! we> & te> ( life1 & disease1 & decay2 b a spiritual body--a body :i* %all be fill$ ) our spirits1 :i* %all be p]fectly ob$i5t to our spirits--a body ?r\gh :i* ! glory ( our spirits %all %9e out1 z ! glory ( ,*ri/'s _s %one out ?r\gh ,8 9 ! transfiguration4 ,bre?r51 we "k n :at we %all be1 b ?is we d "k1 t :5 ,he %all appe> we %all be l ,him1 = we %all see ,him z ,he is4 ,village ,s]mons4 ,i believe1 says ! ,cre$1 9 ! ,resurrection ( ! ,fle%4 ,! ,bible tea*es u to believe1 t we1 ea* ( u1 z human be+s1 m5 & wom51 %all h our %>e 9 t glori\s day2 n m]ely z gho/s1 disembodi$ spirits 7( :i* ! ,bible1 ?anks be to ,god1 says little or no?+71 b z real live human be+s1 ) new bodies ( our own1 on a new e>?1 "u a new heav54 ,!re=e1 says ,david1 my fle% %all re/ 9 hope2 n m]ely my s\l1 my gho/1 b my fle%4 ,= ! ,"l1 :o n only di$1 b rose aga9 ) ,8 body1 %all raise our bodies1 accord+ to ! mighty work+ by :i* ,he subdues all ?+s to ,himself2 & !n ! :ole manhood ( ea* ( u1 body1 s\l1 & _s1 %all h our p]fect consummation & bliss 9 ,8 et]nal & ev]la/+ glory4 ,t is our hope4 ,national ,s]mons4 ,^? :o die 9 ! fe> ( ,god & 9 ! fai? ( ,*ri/ d n really ta/e ( dea?2 to !m !re is no dea?1 b only a *ange ( place1 a *ange ( /ate2 !y pass at once into "s new life1 ) all _! p[]s1 all _! feel+s1 un*ang$2 /ill ! same liv+1 ?9k+1 active be+s :i* !y 7 "h on e>?4 4 4 4 ,re/ !y may--re/ !y w1 if !y ne$ re/4 ,b :at is _! re/8 ,n idl5ess1 b peace ( m9d4 ,to re/ f s91 f sorr[1 f fe>1 f d\bt1 f c>e2 ?is is true re/4 ,above all1 to re/ f ! wor/ we>9ess ( all--kn[+ "o's duty1 & n be+ able to d x4 ,t is true re/--! re/ ( ,god1 :o works = ev]1 & is at re/ = ev]2 z ! />s ov] our heads move = ev]1 ?\s&s ( miles a day1 & yet are at p]fect re/1 because !y move ord]ly1 h>moni\sly1 fulfill+ ! law :i* ,god has giv5 !m4 ,p]fect re/1 9 p]fect "w2 t surely is ! re/ ( bless$ spirits1 till ! f9al consummation ( all ?+s1 :5 ,*ri/ %all h made up ! numb] ( ,8 elect4 ,& if x be s1 :at com=t = u :o mu/ die1 :at com=t = u :o h se5 o!rs die1 if dea? be b a new bir? into "s high] life2 if all t x *anges 9 u is our body--! m]e husk & %ell ( u--su* a *ange z comes ov] ! snake :5 he ca/s 8 old sk91 & comes out fre% & gay1 or ev5 ! crawl+ cat]pill>1 :i* breaks its prison1 & spreads its w+s to ! sun z a fair butt]fly8 ,:]e is ! /+ ( dea? !n1 if dea? c /+1 & poison1 & corrupt no?+ ( u = :i* our fri5ds love u2 no?+ ( u ) :i* we c\ld d s]vice to m5 or ,god8 ,:]e is ! victory ( ! grave1 if s f> f ! grave hold+ u d[n1 x frees u f ! v ?+ :i* does hold u d[n--! mortal body8 ,wat] ( ,life--,s]mons4 ,consid] ! lilies ( ! field4 ,we mu/ take our ,"l's words exactly4 ,he is speak+ ( ! lilies1 ! bulb\s plants :i* spr+ into fl[] 9 c\ntless ?\s&s e spr+ ov] ! d[ns ( ,ea/]n l&s4 ,all ! w9t] !y are dead1 unsightly roots1 hidd5 9 ! e>?4 ,b no soon] does ! sun ( spr+ %9e ^u _! graves1 ?an !y rise into sudd5 life & beauty1 z x pleases ,god1 & e se$ takes its own peculi> body4 ,s[n 9 corruption1 !y are rais$ 9 incorruption2 s[n 9 weakness1 !y are rais$ 9 p[]2 s[n 9 di%on\r1 !y are rais$ 9 glory2 delicate1 beautiful 9 col\r1 p]fum+ ! air ) fragrance2 types ( immortality1 fit = ! cr[ns ( angels4 ,consid] ! lilies ( ! field1 h[ !y gr[4 ,= ev5 s is ! ,resurrection ( ! dead4 ,yes1 n )\t a div9e provid5ce--yea1 a div9e inspiration--has ! bless$ ,ea/]tide be5 fix$1 by ! ,*ur* ( all ages1 z ! season :5 ! e>? %akes (f h] w9t]'s sleep2 :5 ! birds come back1 & ! fl[]s beg9 to bloom1 :5 e se$ :i* falls into ! gr\nd & dies1 & rises aga9 ) a new body1 is a witness to u ( ! ,resurrection ( ,*ri/2 & a witness1 too1 t we %all rise aga92 t 9 u1 z 9 x1 life %all conqu] dea?2 :5 e bird t comes back to s+ & build among u1 e fl[] t bl[s1 is a witness to u ( ! ,resurrection ( ! ,"l & ( our ,resurrection4 4 4 4 ,!y obey ! call ( ! ,"l1 ! ,giv] ( ,life1 :5 !y return to life1 z a type & a tok5 to u ( ,*ri/ _! ,mak]1 :o 0 dead & is alive aga91 :o 0 lo/ 9 hell on ,ea/] eve1 & 0 f\nd aga9 9 heav5 = ev]more4 ,& s ! resurrection ( ! e>? f h] w9t]'s sleep1 commemorates to u1 z ea* bless$ ,ea/]tide comes r\nd1 ! ,resurrection ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & is a witness to u t "s day life %all conqu] dea?1 light conqu] d>kness1 righte\sness conqu] s91 joy conqu] grief2 :5 ! :ole creation1 :i* groane? & travaile? 9 pa9 until n[1 %all h br\ght =? t ( :i* x travaile? 9 lab\r--ev5 ! new heav5s & ! new e>?1 :]e9 %all be nei!r sigh+ nor sorr[1 b ,god %all wipe away te>s f all eyes4 ,discipl9e & o!r ,s]mons4 ,dea? is n dea? if x kills no "p ( u save t :i* h9d]$ u f p]fect life4 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x raises u 9 a mom5t f d>kness into light1 f weakness into /r5g?1 f s9fulness into hol9ess4 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x br+s u ne>] to ,*ri/ :o is ! f\nt ( life4 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x p]fects our fai? by sight1 & lets u behold ,him 9 :om we h believ$4 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x gives u to ^? :om we h lov$ & lo/1 = :om we h liv$1 = :om we long to live aga94 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x jo9s ! *ild to ! "m :o 0 gone be=e4 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x takes away f t "m = ev] all a "m's anxieties1 a "m's fe>s1 & lets h] see1 9 ! graci\s c\nt5ance ( h] ,savi\r1 a sure & c]ta9 pl$ge t ^? :om %e has left beh9d are safe1 safe ) ,*ri/ & 9 ,*ri/1 ?r\gh all ! *ances & dang]s ( ?is mortal life4 ,dea? is n dea?1 if x rids u ( d\bt & fe>1 ( *ance & *ange1 ( space & "t1 & all :i* space & "t br+ =?1 & !n de/roy4 ,dea? is n dea?2 = ,*ri/ has conqu]$ dea? = ,himself1 & = ^? :o tru/ 9 ,him4 ,wat] ( ,life--,s]mons4 ,out ( ,god's b\ndless bosom1 ! f\nt ( life1 we came2 ?r\gh selfi%1 /ormy y\? & contrite te>s--j n too late2 ?r\gh manhood n altoge!r useless2 ?r\gh sl[ & *ill old age1 we return f ,:5ce we came2 to ! ,bosom ( ,god once m--to g =? aga91 x may be1 ) fre% k1 & fre% p[]s1 to nobl] "w4 ,am54 ,essays4 ,,vii4 ,,pray] ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,deep4 ,he> my pray]1 ,o ,god2 & hide n ,?yself f my petition4 ,take he$ unto me & he> me2 h[ ,i m\rn 9 my pray] & am vex$4--,psalm iv4 #a1 #b4 ,9 my tr\ble ,i w call ^u ! ,"l1 & compla9 unto my ,god2 s %all ,he he> my voice out ( ,8 holy temple1 & my compla9t %all come be=e ,him2 x %all ent] ev5 into ,8 e>s4--,ps4 xviii4 #e1 #f4 ,! ,"l is nigh unto !m t call ^u ,him2 ,he also w he> _! cry1 & w help !m4--,psalm cxlv4 #ah1 #ai4 ,9 ! day :5 ,i cri$ ,?\ answ]$/ me1 & /r5g!n$/ me ) /r5g? 9 my s\l4--,psalm cxxxviii4 #c4 ,! old] ,i gr[1 & ! m ,i see ( ! *ances & *anges ( ?is mortal life1 & ( ! ne$s & long+s ( ! human he>t1 ! m important seems ?is "q3 ,is !re any:]e 9 ! univ]se any be+ :o c he> our pray]s8 ,is pray] a sup]flu\s folly1 or ! highe/ prud5ce8 ,i say3 ,is !re a be+ :o c ev] he> our pray]s8 ,i d n say a be+ :o w always answ] !m1 & give u all we ask2 b "o :o w at lea/ he>1 :o w li/5 consid] :at is fit to be grant$ or n1 & grant or refuse accord+ly8 ,is t /range in/9ct ( wor%ip :i* rises 9 ! he>t ( man z soon z he beg9s to ?9k1 to become a civiliz$ be+ & n a savage1 to be disreg>d$ z a *ildi% dream :5 he rises to a high] civilization /ill8 ,is ! exp]i5ce ( m51 hea!n z well z ,*ri/ian1 = all ^! ages to g = n\ght8 ,has e utt]ance t has ev] gone up f suff]+ & d\bt+ humanity gone up 9 va98 ,h ! pray]s ( sa9ts1 ! hymns ( psalmi/s1 ! agonies ( m>tyrs1 ! aspirations ( poets1 ! ?\ghts ( sages1 ! cries ( ! oppress$1 ! plead+s ( ! "m = h] *ild1 ! maid5 pray+ 9 h] *amb] = h] lov] ^u ! di/ant battlefield1 ! soldi] answ]+ h] pray] f af> (f ) ,keep quiet1 ,i am 9 ,god's h&s--^? v utt]ances ( humanity :i* seem$ to u mo/ noble1 mo/ pure1 mo/ beautiful1 mo/ div9e--be5 all 9 va98 ,m]e imp]t95ces1 ! babbl+s ( fair dreams1 p\r$ =? into no :]e1 to no ?+1 & 9 va98 ,has e suff]+1 se>*+ s\l :i* ev] gaz$ up into ! d>kness ( ! unkn[n1 9 hopes ( cat*+ ev5 a glimpse ( a div9e ,eye1 behold+ all1 & ord]+ all1 & pity+ all1 gaz$ up 9 va98 ,oh6 my fri5ds1 ^? :o believe1 or fancy !y believe1 su* ?+s1 & c prea* su* doctr9es )\t pity & sorr[1 "k n ( :at !y rob a mank9d already b too mis]able by its own folly & its own s9--a mank9d :i* if x h n hope 9 ,god & 9 ,*ri/1 is truly1 z ,hom] said ( old1 m mis]able ?an ! bea/s ( ! field4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,:5 ! human he>t asks1 ,h we n only a ,god 9 ,heav51 b a ,fa!r 9 ,heav58 t "q c only be answ]$ by our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,truly ,he said1 ,no "o come? unto ! ,fa!r b by ,me4 ,! only begott5 ,son1 :o is 9 ! bosom ( ! ,fa!r1 ,he ha? reveal$ ,him4 ,& !re=e we c f9d b\ndless com=t 9 ! words1 ,su* z ! ,fa!r is1 su* is ! ,son & su* ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,= n[ we "k t !re is ,a ,,man 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone :o is ! brightness ( ,god's glory & ! express image ( ,8 p]son--a high prie/ :o c be t\*$ by ! feel+ ( our infirmities1 see+ ,he 0 tempt$ 9 all ?+s l z we are4 ,to ,him we c cry ) human passion & 9 human words1 because we "k t ,8 human he>t w respond to our human he>ts1 & t ,8 human he>t aga9 w respond to ,8 ,div9e ,_s1 & t ,8 ,div9e ,_s is ! same z ! ,div9e ,_s ( ,8 ,fa!r1 = _! wills & m9ds are ,"o1 & _! w & _! m9d is b\ndless love to s9ful m54 ,yes1 we c look up 9 our extreme ne$ by fai? into ! sacr$ face ( ,*ri/1 & by fai? take refuge )9 ,8 sacr$ he>t1 say+1 ,if x be good = me1 ,he w give :at ,i ask2 & if ,he gives x n1 x is because t too is good = me1 & = o!rs beside me4 ,9 all ! *ances & *anges ( ?is mortal life we c say to ,him1 z ,he said 9 t supreme h\r--,if x be possible let ?is cup pass f ,me1 nev]!less n ,my w b ,?9e be done2 sure t ,he w pres5t t pray] to ,8 ,fa!r & to our ,fa!r1 & to ,8 ,god & our ,god2 & t :atsoev] be ! answ] v\*saf$ by ,him ^: ways are n z our ways1 nor ,8 ?\ghts z our ?\ghts1 ! pray] w n h gone up to ,*ri/ 9 va94 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,i h be5 pray+ long & e>ne/ly1 & h no fe>s n[4 ,:atsoev] ye %all ask 9 my "n1 believ+1 ye %all receive4 ,"l1 ,i believe1 help ,?\ my unbelief4 ,^? two texts 7 my /ronghold :5 ! night ( mis]y 0 mo/ utt]ly d>k1 & 9 ! /r5g? ( !m we %all prevail4 ,fret n !n1 nei!r be anxi\s2 :at ,god int5ds ,he w d4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,! long] ,i live ! m ,i see t ! ,"l's ,pray] is ! patt]n ( all pray]s2 & :e!r x be consi/5t ) t to ask t ,god %\ld alt] ! c\rse ( ! univ]se 9 ! same brea? t we say1 ,?y w be done on e>?--judge y4 ,i d n object to pray+ = special ?+s4 ,god =bid6 ,i d x myself4 ,i _c help do+ x any m ?an a *ild 9 ! d>k c help call+ = its "m4 ,only x seems to me1 t :5 we pray1 ,grant ?is day t we run into no k9d ( dang]1 we ought to lay our /ress on ! run1 r ?an on ! dang]2 & ask ,god n to take away ! dang] by alt]+ ! c\rse ( nature1 b to give u light & guidance :]eby to avoid x4 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,pray night & day v quietly1 l a little1 we>y *ild1 = ev]y?+ y want1 9 body z well z 9 s\l--! lea/ ?+ z well z ! greate/--no?+ is too mu* to ask ,god =--no?+ too great = ,him to grant--& try to ?ank ,him = ev]y?+4 ,glory be to !e1 ,o ,god6 ,lett]s & ,memories4 ,:5 y are 9 ! deep--:atev] t dep? be--cry to ,god3 to ,god ,himself1 & none b ,god4 ,if y c g to ! pure f\nta9-head1 :y dr9k ( ! /ream1 :i* mu/ h ga!r$ some?+ ( defilem5t z x fl[s8 ,if y c g to ,god ,himself1 :y g to any ( ,god's creatures1 h[ev] holy1 pure1 & lov+8 ,g to ,god1 :o is light ( light1 life ( life4 ,f ,him all goodness fl[s4 ,g !n to ,him ,himself4 ,out ( ! deep1 h[ev] deep1 cry unto ,god1 unto ,god ,himself4 ,if ,david ! ,jew ( old c\ld d s1 mu* m we :o are baptiz$ into ,*ri/2 mu* m c we :o h access by "o ,_s unto ! ,fa!r2 mu* m c we :o1 if we "k :o we are & :]e we are1 %\ld come boldly to ! ,?rone ( ,grace1 to f9d m]cy & grace to help u 9 ! "t ( ne$4 ,ha? ,he promis$1 & %all ,he n d x8 ,to e "o ( y--h[ev] weak1 h[ev] ignorant1 aye1 h[ev] s9ful1 if y desire to be deliv]$ f ^? s9s--?is grace is giv52 lib]ty to cry out ( ! dep? to ,god ,himself1 :o made sun & />s1 all heav5 & e>?2 lib]ty to /& face to face ) ! ,fa!r ( ! spirits ( all fle%1 & cl+ to ! ,"o ,be+ :o c nev] fail nor *ange1 ev5 to ! ,"o immortal1 et]nal ,god4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,! se$ :i* we s[--! se$ ( rep5tance1 ! se$ ( humility1 ! se$ ( sorr[ful pray]s = help--%all take root & gr[ & br+ =? fruit1 we "k n h[1 9 ! good "t ( ,god :o _c *ange4 ,we may be sad--we may be we>y2 our eyes may wait & wat* = ! ,"l m ?an !y :o wat* = ! morn+2 b x mu/ be z ^? :o wat* = ! morn+1 = ! morn+ :i* mu/ & w come2 = ! sun w surely rise1 & ! day w surely dawn1 & ! ,savi\r w surely deliv] ^? :o cry unto ,him4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,= ! poor s\l :o is abas$1 :o is d[n1 & 9 ! dep?2 :o feels 8 own weakness1 folly1 ignorance1 s9fulness1 & out ( ! deep cries unto ,god z a lo/ *ild cry+ aft] its fa!r--ev5 z a lo/ lamb bleat+ aft] ! ewe--( t poor s\l1 be 8 pray]s nev] s confus$1 /upid1 & ill express$--( him x is writt53 ,! ,"l helpe? !m t fall2 ,he is nigh unto all t call ^u ,him2 ,he w fulfil ! desire ( ^? t fe> ,him2 ,he also w he> _! cry1 & w help !m4 ,we/m9/] ,s]mons4 ,,pray]s ,,& ,,confessions ,,= ,,p>don ,,& ,,lik5ess ,,to ,,god4 ,o ,lamb et]nal1 beyond all place & "t6 ,o ,lamb ( ,god1 sla9 et]nally be=e ! f\ndation ( ! _w6 ,o ,lamb t lie/ sla9 et]nally 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone ( ,god6 ,let ! blood ( life1 :i* fl[s f ,!e1 procure me p>don = ! pa/2 let ! wat] ( life1 :i* fl[s f ,!e1 give me /r5g? = ! future4 ,i come to ca/ away my own life1 my life ( self & selfi%ness1 :i* is corrupt accord+ to ! deceitful lu/s1 t ,i may live x no m1 & to receive ,?y life1 :i* is creat$ aft] ! lik5ess ( ,god1 9 righte\sness & true hol9ess1 t ,i may live x = ev] & ev]1 & f9d x a well ( life spr++ up 9 me to ev]la/+ life4 ,et]nal ,goodness1 make me good l ,!e4 ,et]nal ,wisdom1 make me wise l ,!e4 ,et]nal ,ju/ice1 make me j l ,!e4 ,et]nal ,love1 make me lov+ l ,!e4 ,am54 ,,= ,,light4 ,o ,"l6 ,love :o embrace/ ! univ]se1 ,light :o lighte/ e man t comes into ! _w1 take away f me all d>kness ( s\l & h>dness ( he>t4 ,fill me ) ,?y light1 t ,i may see all ?+s 9 light4 ,fill me ) ,?y love1 t ,i may love all ?+s :i* ,?\ ha/ made4 ,am54 ,come to u1 ,o ,"l6 op5 ! eyes ( our s\ls1 & %[ u ! ?+s :i* belong to our peace & ! pa? ( life1 t we may see t1 ?\gh all man's inv5tions & plans come to an end1 yet ,?y comm&m5t is exce$+ly broad--broad en\gh = ri* & poor1 = s*ol>1 tradesman1 & lab\r]1 = our prosp]ity 9 ?is life & our salvation 9 ! life to come4 ,am54 ,,= ,,true ,,glory4 ,o ,god1 qu5* 9 u all :i* is selfi%1 idle1 mean1 & quick5 to life 9 u all :i* is ,god-l & = ,god1 t s we may atta9 at la/ to ! true glory1 ! glory :i* comes1 n f selfi% ambition1 n f selfi% pride1 n f selfi% ease1 b f gett+ rid ( selfi%ness 9 all its %apes--! glory :i* ,*ri/ alone has 9 p]fection--! glory be=e :i* e knee w "o day b[ :e!r 9 e>? or heav5--ev5 ! glory ( do+ our duty1 reg>dless ( :at x co/s u1 9 ! /ation to :i* ea* ( u has be5 call$ by 8 ,fa!r 9 ,heav54 ,am54 ,,= ,,hol9ess4 ,o ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,exalt me ) ,!e s to "k ! my/]y ( life1 t ,i may use ! e>?ly z ! appo9t$ expression & type ( ! heav5ly2 & by us+ to ,?y glory ! natural body1 ,i may be fit to be exalt$ to ! use ( ! spiritual body4 ,am54 ,,= ,,purity ,,& ,,goodness4 ,purge ,?\ me1 ,o ,"l1 or ,i %all nev] be pure2 wa% ,?\ me1 & !n alone %all ,i be clean4 ,= ,?\ require/ n frames or feel+s1 n pride & self-conceit1 b tru? 9 ! inw>d p>ts2 & wilt make me to und]/& wisdom secretly4 ,o ,god1 ,?\ art good1 & ,i am bad2 & = t v reason ,i come4 ,i come to be made good4 ,i adore ,?y goodness1 & ,i long to copy x3 b ,i _c unless ,?\ helpe/ me4 ,purge me4 ,make me clean4 ,cleanse me f my secret faults1 & give me tru? 9 ! inw>d p>ts4 ,d :at ,?\ wilt ) me4 ,tra9 me z ,?\ wilt4 ,puni% me if x be necess>y4 ,only make me good4 ,am54 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,"l1 ! secrets ( our he>ts4 ,%ut n ,?y m]ciful e>s to our pray]2 b sp>e u1 ,o ,"l1 mo/ holy6 ,o ,god1 mo/ mighty6 ,?\ wor?y ,judge ,et]nal1 & suff] u n1 = any temptation ( ! _w1 ! fle%1 or ! devil1 to fall f ,!e4 ,i1 ,"l1 am ,i3 & :at ,i am--a v poor1 pitiful1 s9ful p]son4 ,b ,?\1 ,"l1 art ,?\2 & :at ,?\ art--,p]fect6 ,?\ art ,goodness itself4 ,& !re=e ,?\ can/1 & ,?\ wilt1 make me :at ,i ought to be at la/1 a good p]son4 ,to ,!e ,i c br+ ! burd5 ( ?is undy+ ,i1 :i* ,i c>ry ) me1 too (t5 9 %ame & sadness4 ,i ask ,!e to help me to be> x4 ,guide me1 tea* me1 /r5g!n me1 till ,i become su* z ,?\ w\ld/ h me be3 pure & g5tle1 tru?ful & high-m9d$1 brave & able1 c\rte\s & g5]\s1 dutiful & useful l ,?y ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,am54 ,,pray] ,,aga9/ ,,be+ ,,conf\nd$4 ,o ,"l1 ,i am oppress$1 cru%$--! he>t is beat5 out ( me4 ,i h no?+ to say = myself4 ,und]take = me4 ,o ,"l1 conf\nd me n4 ,i "k ,i am weak1 ignorant1 unsuccessful2 full ( faults & fail+s1 :i* make me a%am$ ( myself e day ( my life4 ,i h gone a/ray1 l a %eep t is lo/4 ,b seek ,?y s]vant1 ,o ,"l1 = ,i d n =get ,?y comm&m5ts4 ,i am try+ to le>n my duty4 ,i am try+ to d my duty4 ,i h /uck unto ,?y te/imonies4 ,o ,"l1 h m]cy & conf\nd me n4 ,man may conf\nd me4 ,b d n ,?\ ( ,?y m]cy & pity1 ,o ,"l4 ,let me n f9d :5 ,i die1 or be=e ,i die1 t all my lab\r has be5 9 va92 t ,i am n wis]1 n m useful aft] all4 ,let n my gray hairs g d[n ) sorr[ to ! grave4 ,let me n die ) ! mis]able ?\ght t 9 spite ( all my /ruggles to d my duty1 my life has be5 a failure & ,i a fool4 ,let me n wake 9 ! next life1 to be utt]ly conf\nd$3 to f9d t ,i 0 all wrong1 & h no?+ left b disappo9tm5t & confusion ( face4 ,o ,"l1 :o did/ endure all %ame = me1 save me f t mo/ utt] %ame4 ,?\ art good & j4 ,?\ wilt n leave my s\l 9 hell4 ,o ,god1 9 ,!e h ,i tru/$2 let me nev] be conf\nd$4 ,am54 ,,= ,,peace ,,( ,,m9d4 ,o ,fa!r1 grant me ,?y peace4 ,i h n a peaceful _s 9 me2 & ,i "k t ,i %all nev] get x by ?9k+1 & read+1 & und]/&+1 = x passes all t2 & peace lies f> away beyond x1 9 ! v ess5ce ( ,?9e undivid$1 unmov$1 absolute1 ,et]nal ,godhead1 :i* no *ange nor decay ( ?is creat$ _w1 nor s9 or folly ( m5 or devils1 c ev] alt]2 b :i* abide? = ev] :at x is1 9 p]fect re/1 & p]fect p[]1 & p]fect love4 ,soo! ?is re/less1 gre$y1 fretful s\l ( m9e1 z a "m soo!s a sick & fev]i% *ild4 ,h[ ,?\ wilt d x ,i d n "k4 ,x passes all und]/&+4 ,b ?\gh ! sick *ild _c rea* ! "m1 ! "m is at h& & c rea* x4 ,& ,?\ art m ?an a "m3 ,?\ art ! ,ev]la/+ ,fa!r4 ,?\gh ! eagle by fly+ _c rea* ! sun1 yet ! sun is at h&1 & c rea* all ! e>?1 & p\r its light & w>m? ov] all ?+s4 ,?\ art m ?an ! sun2 ,?\ art ! ,light & ,life ( all ?+s4 ,p\r ,?y ,light & ,?y ,life ov] me1 t ,i may see z ,?\ see/1 & live z ,?\ live/1 & be at peace ) myself & all ! _w1 z ,?\ art at peace ) ,?yself & all ! _w4 ,p\r ,?y love ov] me1 t ,i may love z ,?\ love/4 ,aga91 ,i say1 ,i "k n h[1 = x passes all und]/&+2 b ,i hope t ,?\ wilt d x = me1 ,i tru/ t ,?\ wilt d x = me1 = ,i believe t ,?\ art ,love1 & t ,?y m]cy is ov] all ,?y works4 ,i believe t ,?\ s love/ ! _w t ,?\ ha/ s5t ,?y ,son to save ! _w & me4 ,i "k n h[1 = t too passes und]/&+2 b ,i believe t ,?\ wilt d x1 = ,i believe t ,?\ art ,love1 & t ,?y m]cy is ov] all ,?y works1 ev5 ov] me4 ,i believe t ,?y w is peace on e>?1 ev5 peace to me1 re/less & unquiet z ,i am1 & goodwill to all m51 ev5 to me1 ! *ief ( s9n]s4 ,am54 ,,pray] ,,be=e ,,holy ,,communion4 ,o bless$ ,jesus6 ,savi\r1 :o agoniz$ = u6 ,god ,almighty1 :o did/ make ,?yself weak = ! love ( u6 ,oh1 write t love ^u our he>ts s deeply t nei!r pleasure nor sorr[1 life nor dea? may wipe x away6 ,?\ ha/ sacrific$ ,?yself = u2 oh1 give u he>ts to sacrifice ourselves = ,!e6 ,?\ art ! ,v9e1 we are ! bran*es4 ,let ,?y priceless blood1 %$ = u on ! cross1 fl[ l life-giv+ sap ?r\gh all our he>ts & m9ds1 & fill u ) ,?y righte\sness1 t we may be sacrifices fit = ,!e4 ,/ir u up to (f] to ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 our bodies1 our s\ls1 our spirits2 & 9 all we love & all we le>n1 9 all we plan & all we d1 to (f] ourselves1 our lab\rs1 our pleasures1 our sorr[s1 to ,!e2 to "w = ,?y k+dom1 to live z ^? :o are n _! own1 b b\ght ) ,?y blood1 f$ ) ,?y body2 & enable u n[1 9 ,?y mo/ ,holy ,sacram5t1 to (f] to ,!e our rep5tance1 our pray]s1 our praises1 liv+1 reasonable1 & spiritual sacrifices--,?9e f our bir?-h\r--,?9e n[1 & ,?9e = ev]6 ,am54 ,,confession ,,( ,,s94 ,fa!r1 ,i h s9n$ aga9/ ,!e1 & am n wor?y to be call$ ,?y *ild2 b ,i come to ,!e4 ,fa!r1 ,i hate myself2 b ,?\ love/ me4 ,i d n und]/& myself2 b ,?\ do/1 & ,?\ wilt be m]ciful to ! "w ( ,?9e own h&s4 ,i _c guide & help myself1 b ,?\ can/ help me1 & ,?\ wilt too1 because ,?\ art my ,fa!r1 & no?+ c "p me f ,?y love1 or f ! love ( ,?y ,son1 my ,k+4 ,i come & claim my %>e 9 ,!e1 j because ,i h no?+1 & c br+ ,!e no?+1 b lie at ,?y gate z a begg> full ( sores1 desir+ to be f$ ) ! crumbs f ,?y table4 ,& if ,i w\ld help ! wret*$1 h[ mu* m wilt ,?\ help me4 ,?y "n is ,love1 & ,?y glory is ! lik5ess ( ,?y ,son ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o said1 ,come to me1 all ye t are we>y & heavy lad51 & ,i w give y re/2 ,if ye be+ evil "k h[ to give good gifts to y\r *ildr51 h[ mu* m %all y\r heav5ly ,fa!r give ,8 ,holy ,_s to !m t ask ,him4 ,am54 ,,confession ,,( ,,weakness4 ,o ,god my ,fa!r1 ,i am ,?9e2 save me1 = ,i h s\ght ,?y comm&m5ts4 ,i am ,?9e--n m]ely ,?y creature1 ,o ,god--! v birds1 & bees1 & fl[]s are t2 & d _! duty f> bett] ?an ,i--,god =give me--d m9e4 ,i am ,?9e--n m]ely ,?y *ild--b ,i am ,?y s*ool *ild4 ,o ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,i claim ,?y help z my s*oolma/]1 z well z my ,"l & ,savi\r4 ,i am ! lea/ ( ,?y s*ool *ildr52 & x may be ! mo/ ignorant & /upid4 ,i d n pret5d to be a s*ol>1 a div9e1 a philosoph]1 a sa9t4 ,i am a v weak1 insuffici5t s*ol>1 sitt+ on ! l[e/ =m 9 ,?y great s*ool-h\se1 :i* is ! :ole _w1 & try+ to spell out ! m]e lett]s ( ,?y alphabet1 9 hope t h]eaft] ,i may be able to make out :ole words & :ole s5t5ces ( ,?y comm&m5ts1 & hav+ le>nt !m1 to d !m4 ,if ,?\ wilt b tea* me ,?y /atutes1 ,o ,"l1 !n ,i w try to keep !m to ! end2 = ,i long to be on ,?y side1 & ab\t ,?y "w4 ,i long to help1 be x ev] s little1 9 mak+ myself bett]1 & my neighb\r bett]4 ,i long to be useful1 & n useless2 a fruit-be>+ tree1 & n a noxi\s we$ 9 ,?y g>d52 & !re=e ,i pray t ,?\ wilt n cut me d[n or root me up1 nor let f\l creatures trample me "u foot4 ,h m]cy ^u me1 ,o ,"l1 9 my tr\ble1 = ! sake ( ! tru? :i* ,i long to le>n1 & = ! good :i* ,i long to d4 ,poor weak plant ?\gh ,i may be1 ,i am /ill a plant ( ,?y plant+1 :i* is /ruggl+ to gr[1 & fl[]1 & be> fruit to et]nal life2 & ,?\ wilt n despise ! "w ( ,?9e own h&s1 ,o ,"l1 :o di$ t ,i might live8 ,?\ wilt n let me p]i%6 ,i h /uck unto ,?y te/imonies4 ,o ,"l1 conf\nd me n6 ,am54 ,,confession ,,( ,,"o ,,9 ,,confusion ,,( ,,_s4 ,o ,god1 ,?\ kn[e/1 & ,?\ alone1 h[ f> ,i am "r1 & h[ f> wrong4 ,i leave myself 9 ,?y h&1 c]ta9 t ,?\ wilt deal fairly1 ju/ly1 lov+ly ) me1 z a ,fa!r ) 8 son4 ,i d n pret5d to be bett] ?an ,i am2 nei!r w ,i pret5d to be worse ?an ,i am4 ,truly ,i "k no?+ ab\t x4 ,i1 ignorant human be+ t ,i am1 c nev] fully "k h[ f> ,i am "r1 & h[ f> wrong4 ,i f9d light & d>kness fight+ toge!r 9 my he>t1 & ,i _c divide betwe5 !m4 ,b ,?\1 ,"l1 can/4 ,?\ kn[e/4 ,?\ ha/ made me2 ,?\ love/ me2 ,?\ ha/ s5t ,?y ,son into ! _w to make me :at ,i ought to be4 ,?\ wilie/ n t ,i %\ld p]i%1 b come to ! k ( ! tru?2 & !re=e ,i believe t ,i %all n p]i%1 b come to ! k ( ! tru? ab\t ,!e1 ab\t my own "*1 my own duty1 ab\t ev]y?+ :i* x is ne$ful = me to "k4 ,!re=e1 ,o ,"l1 ,i w g boldly on1 do+ my duty z well z ,i c1 ?\gh n p]fectly1 day by day2 & ask+ ,!e day by day to fe$ my s\l ) daily bread4 ,?\ fe$e/ my body ) daily bread4 ,h[ mu* m wilt ,?\ fe$ my m9d & my he>t1 m preci\s by f> ?an my body4 ,"l1 ,i w tru/ ,!e = s\l & body alike2 & if ,i ne$ correct+ = my s9s1 ,i "k ?is1 at lea/1 t ! wor/ ?+ t c happ5 to me1 or to any man1 is to d wrong & n to be correct$2 & ! be/ ?+ is to be set "r1 ev5 by h>d bl[s1 z (t5 z ,i /ray out ( ! way4 ,!re=e1 ,o ,"l1 ,i w take my puni%m5t quietly & manfully1 & try to ?ank ,!e = x1 z ,i ought2 = ,i "k t ,?\ wilt n puni% me beyond :at ,i des]ve1 b f> bel[ :at ,i des]ve4 ,i "k ,?\ wilt puni% me only to br+ me to myself1 & to correct me1 & purge me1 & /r5g!n me4 ,i believe1 ,o ,"l1 on ! w>rant ( ,?9e own ^w ,i believe x--undes]v$ z ! hon\r is1 t ,?\ art my ,fa!r1 & love/ me2 ,?\ do/ n afflict any man will+ly1 or grieve ! *ildr5 ( m5 out ( passion or out ( spite4 ,?\ wilie/ n t ,i1 or any man1 %\ld p]i%2 b ,?\ wilie/ h all m5 to be sav$ & come to ! k ( ! tru?1 = ,jesus ,*ri/ ,8 sake4 ,am54 ,,confession ,,( ,a ,,torm5t$ ,,s\l4 ,o ,"l1 ,i am 9 mis]y--my s\l is sore tr\bl$--= ,i h s9n$1 & ,i confess t ,i only receive ! due rew>d ( my de$s4 ,i h e>n$ my %ame1 ,i h e>n$ my sorr[2 ,"l1 ,i h des]v$ x all4 ,i look back on wa/$ "t & wa/$ p[]s4 ,i look r\nd on ru9$ heal?1 ru9$ =tune1 ru9$ hopes2 ,i confess t ,i des]ve x all4 ,b ,?\ ha/ endur$ m ?an ?is = me1 & ,?\ ha/ done no?+ amiss4 ,= me ,?\ did/ suff]1 = me ,?\ ha/ be5 crucifi$1 & me ,?\ ha/ be5 try+ to save all ?r\gh ! ye>s ( my vanity4 ,p]haps ,i h n we>i$ out ,?y love1 p]haps ,i h n conqu]$ ,?y pati5ce4 ,i w take ! bless$ *ance4 ,i w /ill ca/ myself ^u ,?y love4 ,o ,"l1 ,i h des]v$ all my mis]y4 ,yet1 ,"l1 rememb] me :5 ,?\ come/ into ,?y k+dom4 ,am54 ,fa!r6 n our w b ,?9e be done4 ,all ?+s come f ,?y h&1 & !re=e all ?+s come f ,?y love4 ,we h receiv$ good f ,?y h&1 & %all we n receive evil8 ,?\gh ,?\ slay u1 yet w we tru/ 9 ,!e4 ,= ,?\ art graci\s & m]ciful1 long-suff]+ & ( great goodness4 ,?\ art lov+ to e man1 & ,?y m]cy is ov] all ,?y works4 ,?\ art righte\s 9 all ,?y ways1 & holy 9 all ,?y do+s4 ,?\ art nigh unto !m t call ^u ,!e4 ,?\ wilt he> _! cry1 & wilt help !m2 = all ,?\ desire/1 :5 ,?\ s5de/ tr\ble on u1 is to make u wis] & bett]4 ,& t ,?\ can/ only make u by tea*+ u ! k ( ,?yself4 ,glory be to ,!e1 ,o ,god6 ,am54 ,,! ,,end4 #bf ,dea? ( a ,husb&4 #cj ,dea? ( a ,p>5t4 #adg ,dea?s on ! battlefield4