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(fice ( ! ,libr>ian ( ,congress at ,wa%+ton4 ,jas4 ,b4 ,rodg]s ,co41 ,pr9t]s & ,/]eotyp]s1 ,philadelphia4 ,,cont5ts4 ,,preface1 #g ,,*apt] ,i4 ,introduction4--,my e>ly life4--,ent] ! ,*ur*4--,! ,m9i/ry4--,happy days4--,sad *ange4--,h[ happ5$ x8 #ag ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,causes ( unbelief4--,vice4--,o!r causes4--,con/itutional t5d5cies to d\bt4--,disappo9t$ expectations ab\t ,*ri/ianity4--,my/]ies ( ,provid5ce4--,misrepres5tations ( ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity 9 human cre$s4--,*ur* divisions4--,ignorant advocates ( ,*ri/ianity4--,wrong pr9ciples ( reason+4--,false sci5ce1 #ai ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,ano!r cause ( unbelief4--,bad feel+ betwe5 m9i/]s or among *ur* memb]s4--,ali5ates !m f ea* o!r4--,!n sep>ates !m f ! ,*ur*4--,!n f ,*ri/4--,h[ x works4--,my case1 #bf ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,orig9 ( ! unhappy feel+ betwe5 me & "s ( my bro!r m9i/]s4--,t5d5cies ( my m9d4--,rationaliz+ t5d5cy4--,its effects4--,read+4--,inve/igations4--,dis cov]ies1 #cj ,,*apt] ,v4 ,modification ( my e>ly cre$4--,unscriptural doctr9es rel9qui%$4--,scriptural ones adopt$4--,"s doctr9es modifi$4--,!ological fictions dropp$4--,eag] = ! pure1 simple tru? z taught by ,jesus4--,doctr9e ( types giv5 up4--,o!r notions rel9qui%$4--,al>m ( "s ( my bre?r5 at ^! *anges1 #dd ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,h[ prea*]s & !ologians indulge _! fancies on religion4--,john ,wesley4--,8 resolution to be a man ( "o book4--,:at came ( 8 resolution4--,8 s]mon on ,god's approbation ( ,8 works1--unscriptural & unphilosophical ?r\gh\t4--,illu/rations & pro(s4--,& ,wesley 0 "o ( ! be/ & wise/1 "o ( ! mo/ hone/ & s+le-m9d$ ( our !ologians4--,:at !n may we expect ( o!rs8--,evils ( !ological trifl+4--,mis*iev\s effects ( mix+ human fictions ) ,div9e revelations1 #ee ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,fur!r !ological inve/igations4--,unw>rant$ /atem5ts by prea*]s4--,john ,fo/]'s ,essay on ,"s ( ! ,causes by :i* ,evangelical ,religion is ,r5d]$ ,di/a/eful to ,p]sons ( ,cultivat$ ,m9ds4--,introduction ( simil> views to ! notice ( my m9i/]ial bre?r54--,! reception !y met )4--,no ,*ur* has got all ! tru?4--,mo/ ,*ur*es1 p]haps all1 h got portions ( x1 :i* o!rs h n4--,my attempts to ga!r up ! fragm5ts f all4--,fre$om f bigotry4--,love to all ,*ri/ians4--,judg+ trees by _! fruit4--,read+ ! books ( v>i\s d5om9ations1 l =eign travel1 lib]alizes ! m9d4--,i f\nd tru? & goodness 9 all d5om9ations4--,appropriat$ all z "p ( my patrimony4--,results4--,suspicions & fe>s among my bre?r54--,mutt]+s3 ,backbit+s3 ,controv]sy4 ,bad feel+1 #fe ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,my /yle ( prea*+4--,decid$ly practical4--,us+ ,*ri/ianity z a means = mak+ bad p into good ones1 & good ones always bett]4--,reasons = ?is me?od4--,a family trait4--,h]$it>y4--,great ne$ ( practical prea*+4--,folly ( o!r k9ds ( ,prea*+4--,littl5ess ( great ,prea*]s4--,wor?lessness ( great s]mons4--,! ,truly ,great are ! ,greatly ,good & ,greatly ,useful4--,my ,models4--,! ,bible4--,jesus4--,my ,favorite ,prea*]s4--,billy ,dawson1 ,david ,/on]1 ,james ,p>sons4--,my ,favorite ,books4--,! ,bible--,nature4--,simple ,common ,s5se1 in/ructive1 e>ne/1 mov+ books4--,h[ my prea*+ 0 receiv$ by ! p4--,its effects on *ur*es & congregations4--,uneas9ess ( my colleagues4--,fre% mutt]+s2 tale be>+s2 controv]sies2 & m bad feel+1 #hb ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,extracts f my ,di>y4--,a /range prea*]4--,horrible s]mons4--,lights ( ! _w t give no light4--,!ological mi/ & smoke4--,n>r[-m9d$ness4--,intol]ance4--, t4 ,all91--,great prea*+ great folly4--,a4 ,scott1--,a good prea*]4--,sanctification4--,keep to ,scripture4--,r4 ,watson3 !ological madness4--,big ,books on ! way ( salvation2 puzzl+ folks4--,ant9omian utt]ances ab\t ,*ri/'s "w & man's salvation4--,prea*]s tak+ ! devil's side2 & do+ 8 "w4--,sc>city ( common s5se 9 prie/hoods1 & ( uncommon s5se4--,! great abundance ( nons5se & bad s5se4--,common religi\s expressions t are false4--,favorite ,hymns t are n ,scriptural--,baxt]'s good s5se1 #ih ,,*apt] ,x4 ,re=m+ t5d5cies4--,corruptions 9 ! ,*ur*4--,bad trades4--,faults 9 ! m9i/ry4--,tol]ation ( vice4--,dr9k+ habits4--,intemp]ance4--,! ,connexion4--,faulty rules4--,bad cu/oms4--,defective in/itutions4--,all enc\rag$ to sugge/ re=ms & puni%$ = do+ s4--,orig9al pr9ciples ( ! ,connexion set aside1 & p]secution sub/itut$ = fre$om4--,my simplicity4--,my rew>d4--,! ,m9i/ry4--,drunk5ness4--,teetotalism4--, advocacy ( ,temp]ance4--,outcry ( prea*]s4--,my ,evangelical ,re=m]4--,articles on ! prevail+ vices ( ! ,*ur*2 ,on ,tol]ation & ,human ,cre$s2--,on ,*ann+'s ,works2 ,on ,anti-,*ri/ian trad+1 c41 get me into tr\ble4--,conf]5ce int]f]5ce4--,conf]5ce trials4--,! /ate ( ?+s critical4--,no rem$y4--,matt]s get worse & worse4--,excit+ ev5ts3 too _m to be nam$ "h4--,envy1 jeal\sy1 rage1 /rife1 confusion1 & _m evil works4--,conspiracies3 ,fi]ce conflicts4--,expulsion1 #aag ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,explanations ab\t ! diff]5t ,me?odi/ ,bodies4--,gr\nds ( my re=matory proce$+s4--,ab\t immoralities4--,*ri/ianity n to blame = ! faults ( pr(essors & prea*]s4--,my own defects1 #aec ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,/ory ( my life cont9u$4--,results ( my expulsion4--,fi]ce fight+4--,desp]ation ( my p]secutors4--,great excitem5t on my "p4--,rank crop ( sl&]s4--,mon/r\s ones4--,& silly ones4--,bad de$s z well z wick$ words4--,h>d "w4--,exhau/ion4--,p[]lessness4--,?ree days' re/4--,long sleep4--,wond]ful1--delightful1--result4 --,public debates4--,rem>kable occurr5ces2 seem$ ,provid5tial4--,a ly+ oppon5t unexpect$ly confront$ & conf\nd$4--,new ,body1--,*ri/ian ,bre?r54--,my *ur* at ,newca/le4--,*ange 9 my views1 & fre% tr\bles4--,losses4--,pov]ty4--,le>n ! ,pr9t+ bus9ess4--,foll[ x "u difficulties4--,want ( funds4--,g5]\s fri5ds4 ,family on ! v]ge ( want4--,pray4--,an unlook$-= c>t-load ( provisions4--,tru/ 9 ,provid5ce4--,false fri5ds4--,true ones4--,a mad utt]ance4--,a worse de$4--,!ological ,conv5tions4--,free inve/igations & public discussions4--,*ange ( views1 #ajc ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,approa* to ,unit>ianism4--,k9dness ( ,unit>ians4--,prea*+ & lectur+ 9 _! pulpits4--,t5 nights' public discussion ) ,rev4 ,w4 ,cooke4--,subjects4--,results4--,publica tions4--,n[ p]iodicals4--,unit>ian invitation to ,london4--,public reception4--,lib]al contributions to ,/eam ,press ,fund4--,press pres5tation4--,dr4 ,bateman2 ,dr4-,sir-,john ,b[r+4--,pleasurable *ange f intol]ance & p]secution to fri5d%ip & favor4--,discov]ies4--,unit>ianism has _m phases4--,*ann+ism4--,anti-sup]naturalis m4--,deism4--,a!ism4--,gradually slid d[n to ! l[]1 #aia ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,! ,bible4--,my e>lie/ views ( its orig9 & au?ority4--,*ang$ z ,i grew up4--,fur!r *anges4--,important facts ab\t ! ,bible4--,false !ories ( its ,div9e inspiration4--,! true--! ,bible's own1--doctr9e on ! subject4--,ne$ful to keep inside ( ?is4--,no def5ce outside ei!r = ! ,bible or = ,bible m54--,explanations3 illu/rations3 te/imonies ( celebrat$ writ]s4--,! ,,p]fection ( ! ,bible--9 :at does x consi/4--,fooli% & impossible notions ( p]fection4--,no absolute p]fection 9 any ?+4--,no ne$ = x4--,fooli% talk ab\t infallibility4--,o!r important te/imonies1 #bjb ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,ent]s politics4--,advocates extreme political views4--,republicanism4--,=etells ! ,fr5* ,revolution ( #ahdh4--;,great political excitem5t 9 ,engl&4--,gov]nm5t al>m$4--,get arre/$4--,lodg$ 9 prison4--,trial4--,triumph ov] ,gov]nm5t4--,great rejoic+s4--,elect$ memb] ( ,p>liam5t = ,bolton1 & ,t[n ,c\ncillor = ,le$s4--,exhau/ion f excess ( labor4--,heal? fails4--,t]rible ,pa9s4--,voyage to ,am]ica & back4--,removes to ,am]ica4--,objects 9 do+ s4--,settles on a f>m4--,gets into fre% excitem5t4--,! ,abolitioni/s4--,wom5's ,rights4--,all k9ds ( wild revolution>y !ories4--,g f>!r into unbelief in/ead ( gett+ back to ,*ri/4--,a mad _w1 ) /range unwritt5 hi/ories1 & awful1 nameless my/]ies1 #bda ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,/ory ( my desc5t f ! fai? ( my *ildhood1 to d\bt & unbelief4--,bad !ological tea*+ 9 my e>ly days4--,dreadful results4--,p]plexity4--,madness4--,survi ve all1 & get ov] x4--,! fir/ argum5ts ,i he>d = ! ,bible4--,true basis ( religi\s belief4--,read+ on ! evid5ces4--,effects4--,uns\nd argum5ts4--,_! effect4--,int]nal evid5ces be/4--,negative criticism1 long cont9u$1 ru9\s bo? to fai? & virtue4--,mov+ ev] d[nw>ds4--,! devil z a !ologian1 a poet & a philosoph]4--,bible ,conv5tions4--,w4 ,l4 ,g>rison1 ,a4 ,j4 ,davis4--,public discussions 9 ,philadelphia ) ,dr4 ,mc,calla4--,! ,doctor's disgraceful failure4--,great1--mad1--excitem5t4--,n> r[ escape f murd]4--,eight nights' debate ) ,dr4 ,b]g4--,! good cause suff]$ ?r\gh bad managem5t4--,! ,doctor took an unt5able position4--,und]took to prove too mu* & fail$4--,sub/antially "r1 b logically wrong4--,o!r debates 9 ,ohio1 ,indiana1 ,engl& & ,scotl&4--,mean & mis*iev\s oppon5ts4--,honorable & useful ones4--,bad advocates ( a good cause1 its wor/ enemies1 #bfi ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,cont9uation ( my ,/ory4--,lectures on ! ,bible 9 ,ohio4--,tr\ble4--,riot4--,rott5 eggs4--,midnight mis*ief4--,_h to move4--,settlem5t among ,lib]als1 ,come\t]s4--,too fond ( lib]ty4--,w\ld h my %>e z well z _! own4--,fre% tr\ble4--,ano!r =c$ move4--,settlem5t 9 ! wilds ( ,nebraska1 among ,indians1 wolves1 & rattlesnakes4--,exp]i5ce !re4--,a *ange = ! bett]4--,h[ br\ght ab\t4--,quiet ( m9d4--,reflection4--,horrors ( ,a!ism4--,de/roys ! value ( life4--,deceives y2 mocks y2 makes y intol]ably mis]able4--,sugge/s suicide4--,prosp]ity n good = mu* )\t religion3 adv]sity1 sickness1 pa91 loss1 b]eavem5t intol]able4--,/range adv5tures 9 ! wild]ness2 t]rible dang]s2 wond]ful deliv]ances4--,solemn ?\ghts & feel+s 9 ! b\ndless des]t4--,solitude & sil5ce prea*4--,religi\s feel+s revive4--,rec\rse to old religi\s books4--,demoraliz+ t5d5cy ( unbelief4--,lecture 9 ,philadelphia4--,cases ( infidel depravity4--,y c't make p good1 nor ev5 dec5t1 )\t religion4--,infidelity means utt] debasem5t4--,a good1 a lov+1 & a fai?ful wife1 :o nev] ceases to pray4--,return to ,engl&4--,exp]i5ce !re4--,unb\nd$ lic5ti\sness ( ,secul>ism4--,total sep>ation f ! infidel p>ty4--,my new ,p]iodical4--,resolution to re-read ! ,bible1 to d ju/ice to ,*ri/ianity1 c4--,a sight ( ,jesus4--,happy results4--,*ange bo? ( head & he>t4--,happy trans=mation ( "*4--,a new life4--,new "w4--,new lot4--,f d>kness to light1--,f dea? to life1--f purgatory to p>adise1--f hell to heav51 #caj ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,p>ties ^: ,*ri/ian sympa?y1 & wise words1 & g5]\s de$s1 help$ me back to ,*ri/1 #cde ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,! /eps by :i* ,i gradually return$ to ,*ri/4--,lectures & s]mons on ! road4--,answ]s to objections aga9/ ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity4--,spiritualism4--,/range ph5om5a4--,answ]s to objections advanc$ by myself 9 ! ,b]g debate4--,! position to be tak5 by advocates ( ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity4--,additional rem>ks on ,div9e inspiration4--,:at x implies1 & :at x does n imply4--,ov]do+ is undo+4--,g5esis & ,geology4--,! ,bible & ,sci5ce4--,public discussions1--explanation4--,at ,home 9 ! ,*ur*4--,sorr[ful1 yet always rejoic+4--,joy unspeakable1 #cee ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,lessons ,i h le>n$4--#a4 ,m5 sl[ to le>n wisdom by ! exp]i5ce ( o!rs4--#b4 ,dang] ( bad feel+4--#c4 ,( a controv]sial _s4--#d4 ,old m9i/]s %\ld deal t5d]ly ) _! y\ng] bre?r54--#e4 ,"y ?9k]s %\ld be pray]ful1 humble1 wat*ful2 yet fai?ful to consci5ce & to tru?1 tru/+ 9 ,god4--#f4 ,) ,*ri/ian fai? goes ,*ri/ian virtue4--,! t5d5cy ( unbelief is ev] d[nw>ds4--#g4 ,unbeliev]s are n irreclaimable4--,we %\ld n pass !m by unpiti$ or unhelp$4--#h4 ,conv]ts f infidelity mu/ look = trials4--,!y mu/ n expect too mu* f *ur*es & m9i/]s4 ,paul's case4--#i4 ,!y mu/ risk all = ,*ri/1 & be> _! losses & tr\bles pati5tly4--#aj4 ,!y %\ld jo9 ! ,*ur*1 "r away4--,n look = a p]fect ,*ur*4--,keep inside4--,be> unpleasantnesses meekly4--,/ones made smoo? & r\nd 9 ! /ream1 by ! rubb+ !y get f o!r /ones4--,re=m]s %\ld move g5tly1 & h long pati5ce4--,! m ha/e ! wor/ spe$4--,kill+ rats4--#ab4 ,unbelief1 :5 n a s91 is a t]rible calamity3 a _w ( calamities 9 "o1 #djf ,,conclud+ ,,rem>ks1 #dcg ,,preface4 ,! object ( ?is ,book is1 ,fir/1 to expla9 a portion ( my own hi/ory1 &1 ,secondly1 to *eck ! spread ( infidelity1 & promote ! int]e/s ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,h[ f> x is calculat$ to answ] ^! ends ,i d n pret5d to "k4 ,i h no v high op9ion ( ! "w myself4 ,i fe> x has great defects4 ,on "s po9ts ,i may h said too mu*1 & on o!rs too little4 ,i _c tell4 ,i h h[ev] done my be/1 & ,i w\ld fa9 hope1 t my labors w n prove to h be5 altoge!r 9 va94 ,i h sp5t consid]able "t ) a view to br+ my read]s to di/+ui% betwe5 ! doctr9es ( ,*ri/1 & ! !ological fictions :i* are s ext5sively propagat$ 9 ,8 "n4 ,x is exce$+ly desirable t no?+ %\ld pass = ,*ri/ianity1 b ,*ri/ianity itself4 ,& x is equally desirable t ,*ri/ianity %\ld be se5 9 its true light1 z pres5t$ 9 ! tea*+s & "*1 9 ! life & dea? ( its great ,au?or4 ,a correct exposition ( ,*ri/ianity is its be/ def5ce4 ,a true1 a pla91 a fai?ful & j exhibition ( its _s & tea*+s1 & ( its adaptation to ! wants ( man1 & ( its t5d5cy to promote 8 highe/ welf>e1 is ! be/ answ] to all objections1 & ! mo/ conv9c+ pro( ( its tru? & div9ity4 ,& ! tru?1 ! reasonabl5ess1 ! consi/5cy1 ! purify+ & ennobl+ t5d5cy1 & ! unequall$ consol+ p[] ( ,*ri/ianity1 c be prov$1 & prov$ ) comp>ative ease2 b to def5d ! nons5se1 ! contradictions1 ! ant9omianism & ! blasphemies ( !ology is impossible4 ,i h tak5 special pa9s to expla9 my views on ! ,div9e ,inspiration ( ! ,scriptures4 ,i am satisfi$ t no attempts to answ] ! objections ( infidels aga9/ ! ,bible w prove satisfactory1 s long z m5's views on ?is subject g beyond ! tea*+s ( ! ,scriptures !mselves4 ,to ! fanciful !ories ( a l>ge numb] ( ,!ologians ! sacr$ writ+s d n answ]1 & y mu/ !re=e1 ei!r set aside ^? !ories1 & put a m mod]ate "o 9 _! place1 or give up ! def5ce ( ! ,bible 9 despair4 ,i !re=e leave ! extravagant !ories to _! fate1 & cont5t myself ) :at ! ,scriptures !mselves say2 & ,i feel at re/ & secure4 ,! views ,i h giv5 on ! subject 9 ?is "w1 & 9 my pamphlet on ! ,bible1 are n new4 ,y may f9d !m 9 ! works ( q a numb] ( ,evangelical ,au?ors4 ,! only cr$it to :i* ,i am entitl$ is1 t ,i /ate !m ) great pla9ness1 & )\t res]ve1 & t ,i d n1 aft] hav+ giv5 !m on "o page1 take !m back aga9 on ! next4 ,h[ f> my fri5ds w be able to receive or tol]ate my views on ^! po9ts1 ,i d n "k4 ,i hope !y w pond] !m ) all ! c&or & *>ity !y c4 ,i h kept z ne> to or?odox /&>ds z ,i c\ld1 )\t do+ viol5ce to my consci5ce1 & inju/ice to ! tru?4 ,i w\ld nev] be s+ul>1 if ,i c\ld hone/ly help x4 ,x is no?+ b a reg>d to ,god1 & duty1 & ! int]e/s ( humanity1 t prev5ts me go+ ) ! multitude4 ,x w\ld be gratify+ 9 ! extreme to see tru? & ! majority on "o side1 & to be p]mitt$ to take my place ) !m3 b if ! majority take sides ) error1 ,i mu/ take my place ) ! m9ority1 & look = my com=t 9 a good consci5ce1 & 9 ! sweet assurance ( ,god's love & favor4 ,a ,dream4 ,9 look+ ov] "s manuscripts "s "t ago1 belong+ to a relation ( my wife's fa!r-9-law1 ,i f\nd ! foll[+ /ory ( a dream4 ,"s h no reg>d = dreams1 b ,i h4 ,i h bo? read ( dreams1 & _h dreams myself1 t answ]$ m>vell\sly to great realities2 & ?is may be "o ( t k9d4 ,9 any case1 z ! ,preface does n take up all ! space set ap>t = x1 ,i am dispos$ to give x a few ( ! vacant pages4 ,! dream]'s acc\nt ( 8 dream is z foll[s4 ',aft] tir+ my bra9 "o day ) read+ a long debate betwe5 a ,ca?olic & a ,prote/ant ab\t ! ,infallibility ( ! ,*ur* & ! ,bible1 ,i took a walk along a quiet field-pa? ne> ! riv]1 full ( ?\ght on ! subject on :i* ,i _h be5 read+4 ,! fre% air1 ! pleasant sc5e1 & ! ripple ( ! /ream1 _h su* a soo?+ effect on me1 t ,i lo/ myself1 & pass$ unconsci\sly f ! ,_w ( realities1 into ! ,l& ( dreams4 ,i f\nd myself 9 a l>ge ,hall1 fill$ ) an eag] cr[d1 li/5+ to a numb] ( m5 :o _h assembl$1 z ,i 0 told1 to discuss ! affairs ( ! ,univ]se1 & put an end to controv]sy4 ,! subject "u discussion j !n 0 ! ,sun4 ,i f\nd t aft] ! _w _h liv$ 9 its light = ?\s&s ( ye>s1 & be5 happy 9 ! abundance ( ! fruit1 & gra91 & numb]less bless+s produc$ by 8 wondr\s influ5ces1 "s "o1 :o _h look$ at ! ,great ,light ?r\gh a p[]ful telescope1 _h discov]$ t !re 7 sev]al d>k spots on 8 disk or face1 & t "s ( !m 7 ( a v consid]able size4 ,he nam$ ! matt] to a numb] ( 8 fri5ds :o1 look+ ?r\gh ! telescope = !mselves1 saw t su* 0 really ! case4 ',n[ !re happ5$ to be an ord] ( p]sons 9 ! ,l& ( dreams ^: bus9ess x 0 to praise ! ,sun1 & extol its ,light4 ,& !y _h a !ory to ! effect1 t ! ,light ( ! ,sun 0 unmix$1 & t ! ,sun itself 0 "o uni=m mass ( brightness & brilliancy1 )\t speck1 or spot1 or any su* ?+4 ,!y held t ! ,head ( _! ord] 0 ! ,mak] ( ! ,sun1--t ,he ,himself 0 ,light1 & t 9 ,him 0 no d>kness at all2 & t ! ,sun 0 exactly l ,him1 int5se1 unm+l$1 & unv>y+ ,light4 ,:5 ^! p he>d ( ! alleg$ discov]y ( ! spots1 !y rais$ a trem5d\s cry1 & "s h[l$1 & "s %riek$1 & all unit$ 9 pron\nc+ ! /atem5t a fiction1 & 9 d5\nc+ 9 sev]e t]ms1 bo? its au?or1 & all :o took 8 "p1 z deceiv]s2 z ! enemies ( ! ,sun1 z blasphem]s ( its ,au?or1 & z ! enemies ( ! human race4 ',?is 0 "o ( ! great controv]sies :i* ?is _w-wide conv5tion _h met to br+ to an end4 ',z ,i took my place 9 ! ,hall1 "o ( ! ,pr(essors ( ! ,sol> ,univ]sity 0 speak+4 ,he said ! /ory ab\t ! spots 0 a wick$ calumny2 & he w5t into a l5g?y & labor$ argum5t to %[1 t ! ?+ 0 absurd & impossible4 ',! ,sun1' said he1 '0 made by an ,all-p]fect ,artific]1--made on purpose to be a ,light1 ! ,great ,light ( ! _w1 & a ,light x mu/ be1 & no?+ else b a ,light2 a pure unsulli$ ,light all r\nd1 )\t ei!r spot1 or speck ( any k9d1 or any v>y+ %ade ( brilliancy 9 any "p4' ,he add$1 ',to say ! contr>y1 is to d ! ,sun inju/ice1 to di%onor its ,all-glori\s ,au?or1 to ali5ate ! m9ds ( m5 f ! ,heav5ly ,lum9>y1 to de/roy _! fai? 9 8 ,light & w>m?1 to plunge ! _w into d>kness1 & r$uce x to a /ate ( utt] desolation4 ,if ! ,sun is n all light1 he is no ,light at all4 ,if !re be d>k spots on "o "p ( 8 face1 !re may be d>k spots on e "p4 ,all may be d>k1 & :at seems ,light may be an illusion2 a false ,light1 't leads to bewild]1 & dazzles to bl9d4' ,he is n to be tru/$4 ,e ?+ is unc]ta94' ,& he call$ ! man :o said he _h se5 ! spots1 an impo/or1 a blasphem]1 a scav5g]1 an ass1 a =eign]1 & a numb] ( o!r /range names4 ',! man he 0 abus+ s unm]cifully1 /epp$ =w>d1 & 9 a meek & quiet _s said1 ',i saw ! spots ) my own eyes4 ,i h se5 !m scores ( times4 ,i c %[ !m to y1 if y w look ?r\gh ?is glass4' ',y\r glass is a *eat1 a lie1' said ! ,pr(essor4 ',b o!rs h se5 !m1' said ! man1 'z well z ,i1 & se5 !m ?r\gh a numb] ( o!r glasses4' '',x is impossible1' answ]$ ! ,pr(essor4 ',a ,sun made by an ,all-p]fect ,god1 & made on purpose to be a ,light1 _c possibly be defac$ ) d>k spots2 & :oev] says any ?+ to ! contr>y is a ----4' ',"h ! ,pr(essor re/$ 8 case2--',a ,sun )\t spots1 or no ,sun4 ,light )\t v>iation ( %ade1 or no ,light4 ,prove t ! ,sun has spots1 & y r$uce him to a level ) an old ext+ui%$ lamp1 t is fit = no?+ b to be ca/ away z an unclean & wor?less ?+4 ,! honor ( ,god1 & ! welf>e ( ! univ]se all hang on ?is "o "q1--,spots1 or no spots6' ',8 fell[ pr(essors took 8 "p1 & _m spoke 9 ! same /ra94 ,b ! belief 9 ! spots made its way1 & spread fur!r e day1 & ! consequ5ce 01 ! ob/9ate ,pr(essors 7 conf\nd$ & put to %ame4 ,facts 7 too /rong = !m1 & _! cr$it & influ5ce 7 damag$ beyond rem$y4 ',aft] ! ,pr(essors ( ! ,sun 7 sil5c$1 ! ,man 9 ! ,moon arose & spoke4 ,he cont5d$ t bo? ,sun & ,moon 7 free f spots1 b said1 t no "o c\ld see ! ,sun z x really 01 unless he liv$ 9 ! ,moon1 & look$ at x f 8 /&po9t4 ',! ,moon1' said he1 'l ! ,sun1 is ! "w ( ! ,all-p]fect ,creator2 & its face is "o un*ang+ blaze ( absolute & unv>i$ brightness4' ',n[ all :o _h ev] look$ at ! ,moon1 _h notic$1 t no "p ( h] face 0 z bright z ! ,sun1 & t "s portions 7 ( a %ade consid]ably d>k] ?an ! re/4 ,& ,i notic$ t ev5 ! ,pr(essors :o _h spok5 extravagantly ab\t ! ,sun1 look$ at ea* o!r & smil$1 :5 !y he>d ! /atem5ts ( ! ,man 9 ! ,moon4 ,inde$ !re 0 su* a titt]+ & a giggl+ ?r\gh ! ,hall1 t ! meet+ 0 brok5 up4 ',i ha/5$ out1 & f\nd !re 7 a hundr$ discussions go+ on 9 ! /reet4 ,_m ( ! disputants seem$ greatly excit$4 ,i felt melan*oly4 ,a quiet-look+ man1 ) a v g5tle expression ( c\nt5ance1 came up to me1 & 9 tones ( rem>kable sweetness1 said1 ',y seem mov$4' ',i feel tr\bl$1' said ,i4 ',i don't "k :at to ?9k2 & ,i don't "k :at to d4' ,he smil$1 & said1 ',none ( ^! ?+s move me4' ,!n lift+ up 8 eyes t[>ds ,heav5 he said1--',! ,sun /ill %9es2 & ,i feel 8 bless$ w>m? z s5sibly z ev]4 ,& ! millions ( our race /ill live & rejoice 9 8 beams4' ',?ank ,god1' said ,i3 ',yes1 ,i see1 he /ill %9es2 & ,i w re/ cont5t$ ) 8 light & w>m?4' ',! spots are !re1' said he1 'pa/ d\bt2 b exp]i5ce1 ! /ronge/ evid5ce ( all1 proves t !y d n int]f]e ) ! b5efic5t influ5ces ( ! ,great & ,glori\s ,orb1 or less5 8 claims to our respect & v5]ation1 or dim9i% "o jot our obligations to 8 great ,au?or4 ,!y h _! use1 no d\bt4 ,! ,sun might be too brilliant )\t !m1 & de/roy our eyes1 in/ead ( giv+ u light4 ,too mu* light might prove z bad z too little4 ,all is well4 ,i accept pla9 facts4 ,to d5y !m is to fight aga9/ ,god4 ,to admit !m & tru/ 9 ,god is ! true fai?1 & ! g]m ( all true virtue & piety4 '',i h no fai? 9 ! k9d ( absolute p]fection ^? pr(essors cont5d =1 ei!r 9 ,sun or ,moon1 ,bible or ,*ur*2 b ,i believe 9 ! ,,suffici5cy1 or practical p]fection ( all1 & am z happy1 & only wi% ,i 7 z good & useful1 z ----' ',j z he spoke ^? words1 ,i awoke4 ,he seem$ z if he _h mu* to say1 & ,i w\ld fa9 h he>d him talk 8 sweet talk till n[2 b p]haps ,i _h he>d en\gh1 & ought n[ to set myself he>tily to "w1 to get ?r\gh ) ! bus9ess ( my life4' ,s ends ! ,dream-/ory4 ,"s writ]s seem to ?9k t _! read]s %\ld und]/& & receive _! views1 h[ev] new & /range !y may be1 ! mom5t !y place !m be=e _! m9ds4 ,!y _c und]/& h[ t :i* is cle> to !m1 %\ld n be pla9 to ev]ybody else4 ,& !re are "s read]s :o seem to ?9k1 t e ?+ !y meet ) 9 ! books !y read1 h[ev] mu* x may be out ( ! way ( _! ord9>y ?\ght1 or h[ev] contr>y to _! long-*]i%$ belief1 %\ld1 if x be really intelligible & true1 appe> s to !m at fir/ glance4 ,h[ c any?+ seem my/]i\s or untrue to !m1 t is n my/]i\s or untrue 9 its v nature8 ,x s happ5$1 t along ) ! dream-/ory1 ,i f\nd ! foll[+ fragm5t4 ,x is n an int]pretation ( ! dream1 b x seems z if x might tea* a useful lesson1 bo? to writ]s & read]s4 ',some?+ m ?an light1 & eyes1 & surr\nd+ objects1 is necess>y to see+4 ,a new-born *ild may h light1 & eyes1 & surr\nd+ objects1 & yet n see any?+ di/9ctly4 ,& a man born bl9d may h ! film remov$ f 8 eyes1 & be plac$1 at noontide1 9 ! mid/ ( a _w ( int]e/+ objects1 & yet1 in/ead ( see+ ?+s1 z we see !m1 h no?+ b a conf\nd+ & di/ress+ s5sation4 ,see+1 z we see1 is ! result ( habit1 acquir$ by long-cont9u$ use4 ,! new-born babe mu/ h "t to ex]cise its eyes1 & ex]cise its little m9d z well1 be=e x c di/+ui% face f face1 & =m f =m4 ,! man :o has j receiv$ 8 sight mu/ h "t = simil> ex]cise1 be=e he c enjoy ! ri* pleasures & advantages ( sight to p]fection4 ,ev5 we :o h _h our sight = fifty ye>s d n see z _m ?+s 9 a picture1 a l&scape1 or a b$ ( fl[]s1 :5 we see !m = ! fir/ "t1 z ^? :o h be5 accu/om$ to inspect & exam9e su* objects = ye>s4 ',& s x is ) m5tal & moral vision4 ,some?+ m ?an a m9d1 & in/ruction1 & m5tal objects are necess>y to enable a man to und]/& religion & duty4 ,att5tion1 /udy1 comp>ison1 cont9u$ ) calmness1 & c&or1 & pati5ce1 = days1 = mon?s1 or = ye>s1 may be necess>y to enable a skeptic to und]/&1 to believe1 & to feel l ^? :o h long be5 disciples ( ,*ri/4 ',& a *ange ( habits1 cont9u$ till x produces a *ange ( ta/es & desires1 is necess>y to prep>e ! s5suali/ to judge correctly ) reg>d to ?+s moral & religi\s4 ,we mu/ n !re=e expect a good lecture1 or an able book1 to cure a skeptic ( 8 d\bts at once4 ,x may produce an effect :i*1 9 "t1 if ! p>ty be fai?ful to duty1 w end 9 8 conv]sion at a future day4 ,! se$ committ$ to ! soil does n produce ri* h>ve/s 9 a day4 ,a *ange ( air & habits does n at once reg5]ate ! invalid4 ,! husb&man has to wait long = 8 crop3 & ! physician has to wait long = ! recov]y ( 8 pati5t4 ,& ! skeptic has to wait long1 till ! se$ ( tru?1 deposit$ 9 8 s\l1 unfolds its g]ms1 & produces ! ri* ripe h>ve/ ( fai?1 & hol9ess1 & joy4 ',& prea*]s & tea*]s mu/ n ?9k x /range1 if _! he>]s & read]s are sl[ to *ange4 ,nor mu/ !y despond ev5 ?\gh no signs ( improvem5t appe> = mon?s or ye>s4 ,a *ange = ! bett] 9 a /ud5t may n be manife/ till x has be5 9 progress = ye>s4 ,x may n be p]fect$ = _m ye>s4 ,y _c =ce a *ange ( m9d1 z y c =ce ! gr[? ( a plant 9 a hot-h\se4 ,an attempt to d s might /op x altoge!r4 ,baxt] said1 two hundr$ ye>s ago1 ',no?+ s mu* h9d]e? ! reception ( ! tru?1 z urg+ x on m5 ) too mu* importunity1 & fall+ too heavily on _! errors4' ',h pati5ce1 !n4 ,tea*1 z y\r pupil may be prep>$ to le>n1 b respect ! laws ( ! ,et]nal1 :i* h fix$ long int]vals = sl[ & sil5t processes1 betwe5 ! se$-"t & ! h>ve/-home4' ,:ile ,i am 9 d\bt z to :e!r ,i h put into my book too mu* on "s subjects1 ,i am ?or\ghly conv9c$ t ,i h put into x too little on o!rs4 ,i h n said en\gh1 nor half en\gh1 on ,a!ism4 ,i ought to h expos$ its gr\ndlessness1 its folly1 & its mis*iev\s & mis]able t5d5cy at consid]able l5g?4 ,?is defect ,i %all try to rem$y z soon z possible1 & 9 ! be/ way ,i c4 ,"s weeks ago ,i read a pap] be=e ! ,m4 ,e4 ,prea*]s' ,meet+ ( ,philadelphia1 on ,,a!ism1--:at c x say = itself8 ,! pap] 0 receiv$ ) great favor1 & _m ask$ = its publication4 ,x w =m ! fir/ article 9 my next volume4 ,i expect1 9 fact1 to give ! subject ( ,a!ism a pretty ?or\gh exam9ation 9 t volume1 & to %[ t x is irrational & demoraliz+ f beg9n+ to end1 & to ! la/ extreme4 ,john ,/u>t ,mill1 ! head & repres5tative ( ,engli% ,lit]>y & ,philosophical ,a!i/s1 has left u a hi/ory ( 8 life1 & ( 8 fa!r's life4 ,9 ?is "w he pres5ts u ) full l5g? portraits ( himself & 8 fa!r1 & bo? gives u _! reasons = be+ ,a!i/s1 & reveals to u ! influ5ce ( _! ,a!ism on _! he>ts & *>act]s1 z well z on _! views on morality1 politics1 & o!r important subjects4 ,& ?\gh ! pa9t]1 z we might expect1 flatt]s to "s ext5t bo? himself & 8 fa!r1 yet he gives u ! m important features ( bo? s tru?fully1 t we h no difficulty 9 le>n+ f !m1 :at k9d ( creatures great ,philosophical ,a!i/s are1 or 9 ga!r+ f _! works a great am\nt ( in=mation ab\t infidelity1 ( ! mo/ melan*oly1 b ( ! mo/ int]e/+ & important "*4 ,?is ,autobiography ( ,mr4 ,mill ,i propose to review4 ,i meant to review x 9 ?is volume1 b ,i _h n room4 ,i int5d !re=e to give x a place 9 my next volume1 :i* may be look$ = 9 ! c\rse ( ! ye>4 ,ano!r "w has j be5 publi%$1 call$ ,! ,old ,fai? & ! ,new4 ,x is ! la/ & mo/ important "w ( ,d4 ,f4 ,/rauss1 ! greate/ & able/ advocate ( anti*ri/ian & a!i/ic views t ! ages h produc$1--! ,colossus or ,golia? ( all ! infidel ho/s ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,9 ?is "w1 :i* he calls 8 ,,confession1 ,/rauss1 l ,mill1 gives u a portrait ( himself1 exhibit+ n only 8 views1 & ! argum5ts by :i* he labors to su/a9 !m1 b ! influ5ce ( ^? views on ! he>ts1 ! lives1 ! *>act]s1 & ! enjoym5ts ( m54 ,if ?is ,book c be answ]$1--if ! argum5ts ( ,/rauss c be fairly met1 & 8 views effectually refut$1 infidelity mu/ suff] s]i\s damage1 & ! cause ( ,*ri/ianity be greatly b5efit$4 ,i h gone ?r\gh ! ,book ) great c>e4 ,i h measur$ & weigh$ its argum5ts4 ,& my conviction is1 t ! "w admits ( a ?or\gh & satisfactory refutation4 ,if ,i _h _h space1 ,i %\ld h made "s rem>ks on x 9 ?is volume3 b ,i _h n4 ,i propose !re=e to review x at consid]able l5g? 9 my next4 ,"s "t ago ,rob]t ,ow5 0 a prom95t man 9 ! infidel _w4 ,he 0 extoll$ by 8 fri5ds z a great ,philan?ropi/4 ,he too left u a hi/ory ( 8 life1 & 8 son1 ,rob]t ,dale ,ow51 has j be5 repeat+ portions ( t hi/ory 9 ! ,atlantic ,mon?ly4 ,x may be int]e/+ to my read]s to "k :at ,a!ism c d 9 ! way ( ,philan?ropy4 ,we propose !re=e to add a review ( ! ,life ( ,rob]t ,ow5 to ^? ( ,/rauss & ,mill4 ,rob]t ,dale ,ow5 himself 0 an ,a!i/ =m]ly1 & a v zeal\s & able advocate ( ,a!i/ical views4 ,he gives 8 articles 9 ! ,atlantic ,mon?ly z an autobiography1 & seeks to make ! impression t he has reveal$ to 8 read]s all ! important facts ( 8 hi/ory )\t res]ve4 ,& he has c]ta9ly reveal$ "s /range ?+s4 ,b !re are c]ta9 facts :i* he has n reveal$1 facts ( great importance too1 calculat$ to %[ ! demoraliz+ t5d5cy ( infidelity4 ,we propose to r5d] ! autobiography ( ,mr4 ,dale ,ow5 m complete1 m int]e/+1 & m in/ructive1 by ! addition ( "s ( ^? facts4 ,frances or ,fanny ,wright 0 a fri5d ( ,mr4 ,dale ,ow5's4 ,%e 0 ! great repres5tative female ,a!i/ ( h] "t4 ,l ,mr4 ,dale ,ow5's fa!r1 %e 0 ri*1 & l him1 seem$ desir\s to d some?+ 9 ! way ( philan?ropy4 ,mr4 ,dale ,ow51 :o 0 h] ag5t = "s "t1 gives u "s int]e/+ facts ) reg>d to h] hi/ory1 :i* may prove ( s]vice to our read]s4 ,9 ,buckle we h an ,a!i/ical ,hi/orian1 :o endeavors to prove t we are indebt$ = all ! advantages ( our sup]ior civilization1 n to ,*ri/ianity1 b to natural sci5ce & skepticism alone4 ,he repres5ts ,*ri/ianity z ! enemy ( sci5ce1 & z ! great imp$im5t to ! advance ( civilization4 ,^! views ( ,buckle we reg>d z false & fooli% to ! la/ extreme1 & we expect to be able to %[ t ,europe & ,am]ica are indebt$ = _! sup]ior civilization1 & ev5 = _! ri* treasures ( natural sci5ce1 n to infidelity1 b to ! influ5ce ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,mat!w ,arnold has j publi%$ an int]e/+ book entitl$ ,,lit]ature ,,& ,,dogma4 ,x is h[ev] a mix$ "w2 & we propose1 :ile notic+ a numb] ( its beautiful utt]ances1 to make a few rem>ks on "s ( its objectionable s5tim5ts4 ,!re is a great multitude ( important facts ) reg>d to ,*ri/ianity1--facts :i* c be und]/ood & appreciat$ by p]sons ( ord9>y capacity1 & :i* no man ( intellig5ce & c&or w be dispos$ to call 9 "q2 yet facts ( su* a "* z _c fail1 :5 duly consid]$1 to leave ! impression on m5's m9ds1 t ,*ri/ianity is ! p]fection ( all wisdom & goodness1 & wor?y ( acceptance z a revelation f an all-p]fect ,god1 & z ! mightie/ & mo/ b5efic5t fri5d ( mank9d4 ,a numb] ( ^? facts we propose to give 9 our next volume4 ,,mod]n ,,skepticism4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,introduction4 ,:5 a man has travell$ f>1 & se5 /range l&s1 & dwelt among /range peoples1 & enc\nt]$ unusual dang]s1 x is natural1 on 8 return home1 t he %\ld feel dispos$ to communicate to 8 family & fri5ds "s ( ! incid5ts ( 8 travels1 & "s ( ! discov]ies :i* he may h made on 8 way4 ,s :5 a man has travell$ f> along ! way ( life1 especially if he has v5tur$ on /range pa?s1 & come 9 contact ) /range *>act]s1 & _h altoge!r a l>ge & v>i$ exp]i5ce1 x is natural1 z he draws ne> to ! end ( 8 j\rney1 or :5 he rea*es "o ( its m important /ages1 t he %\ld feel dispos$ to communicate to 8 fri5ds & k9dr$ "s ( ! incid5ts ( 8 life's pilgrimage1 & "s ( ! lessons :i* 8 exp]i5ce may h engrav5 on 8 he>t4 ,he w especially be anxi\s to gu>d ^? :o h life's j\rney yet be=e !m1 aga9/ ! errors into :i* he may h fall51 & s pres]ve !m f ! sorr[s t he may h _h to endure4 ,& s x is ) me4 ,i h travell$ f> along ! way ( life4 ,i may n[ be ne> its close4 ,i h c]ta9ly ( late pass$ "o ( its mo/ important /ages4 ,i h _h a some:at ev5tful j\rney4 ,!re are b few p]haps :o h _h a l>g] or m v>i$ exp]i5ce4 ,i h committ$ great errors1 & ,i h 9 consequ5ce pass$ ?r\gh griev\s sorr[s2 & ,i w\ld fa9 d some?+ t[>ds sav+ ^? :o come aft] me f simil> errors & f simil> sorr[s3 & ?is is ! object ( ! "w be=e y4 ,at an e>ly p]iod1 :5 ,i 0 little m ?an sixte5 ye>s ( age1 ,i became a memb] ( ! ,me?odi/ society4 ,be=e ,i 0 tw5ty ,i became a local prea*]4 ,be=e ,i 0 tw5ty-?ree ,i became a travell+ prea*]2 & aft] ,i _h got ov] ! fir/ great difficulties ( my call+1 ,i 0 happy 9 my "w2 z happy z a mortal man ne$ wi% to be4 ,x 0 my delight to read good books1 to /udy ,god's ,^w & works1 & to /ore my m9d ) useful k4 ,to prea* ! ,gospel1 to turn m5 f d>kness to light1 & f ! p[] ( ,satan to ,god1 & to promote ! in/ruction & improvem5t ( ,god's p 7 ! joy & rejoic+ ( my s\l4 ,!re 7 times1 & ^? n a few1 :5 ,i c\ld s+ ) ,wesley-- ,9 a rapture ( joy my life ,i employ1 ,! ,god ( my life to proclaim3 ',tis wor? liv+ = ?is1 to adm9i/] bliss ,& salvation 9 ,jesus's "n4 ,& ,i 0 v successful 9 my "w4 ,i nev] travell$ 9 a circuit 9 :i* !re 0 n a consid]able increase ( memb]s1 & 9 "o place :]e ,i 0 /ation$1 ! numb]s 9 *ur*-fell[%ip 7 m ?an d\bl$ 9 less ?an eighte5 mon?s4 ,9 ^? days x nev] once ent]$ my m9d t ,i c\ld ev] be any?+ else b a ,*ri/ian m9i/]3 yet 9 c\rse ( "t ,i ceas$ to be "o2 ceas$ to be ev5 a ,*ri/ian4 ,i 0 sev]$ fir/ f ! ,*ur*1 & !n f ,*ri/1 & ,i w&]$ at l5g? f> away into ! regions ( d\bt & unbelief1 & came ne> to ! out]mo/ conf9es ( et]nal night4 ,& ! "q arises1 ,h[ happ5$ ?is8 ,& h[ happ5$ x t1 aft] hav+ w&]$ s f> away1 ,i 0 p]mitt$ to return to my pres5t happy position8 ,^! two que/ions ,i %all endeavor1 to ! be/ ( my ability1 to answ]4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,causes ,,( ,,unbelief4 ,h[ came ,i to w&] into d\bt & unbelief8 #a4 ,!re are sev]al causes ( skepticism & infidelity4 ,"o is vice4 ,:5 a man is b5t on =bidd5 pleasures1 he f9ds x h>d to believe 9 ! tru? & div9ity ( a religion t condemns 8 vici\s indulg5ces4 ,& ! long] he p]si/s 9 8 evil c\rse1 ! d>k] becomes 8 und]/&+1 ! m corrupt 8 ta/es1 & ! m p]v]se 8 judgm5t2 until at l5g? he puts d>kness = light1 & light = d>kness2 calls evil good & good evil1 & mi/akes bitt] = sweet1 & sweet = bitt]4 ,he becomes an infidel4 ,x is ! decree ( ,heav5 t m5 :o p]si/ 9 seek+ pleasure 9 unrighte\sness1 %all be giv5 up to /rong delusions ( ! devil to believe a lie4 #b4 ,b !re are o!r causes ( skepticism & unbelief besides vice4 ,?omas 0 an unbeliev] = a "t1--a v resolute "o1--yet ! ,gospel gives no intimation t he 0 *>geable ) any =m ( vice4 ,& ,john ! ,bapti/1 "o ( ! noble/ *>act]s 9 sacr$ hi/ory1 aft] hav+ proclaim$ ,jesus z ! ,messiah to o!rs1 came himself to d\bt1 :e!r ,he 0 really ! "o t %\ld come1 or !y %\ld look = ano!r4 ,l ! e>ly disciples ( ! ,savi\r1 & ! ,jewi% p g5]ally1 ,john expect$ ! ,messiah to take ! ?rone ( ,david by =ce1 & to rule z a temporal pr9ce2 & :5 ,jesus took a c\rse s v diff]5t1 8 confid5ce 9 8 ,messiah%ip 0 %ak54 ,& "o ( ! sweete/ ,psalmi/s tells u t1 z = him1 8 feet 7 almo/ gone2 8 /eps _h well-nigh slipp$3 & t1 n because he 0 eag] = s9ful pleasures1 b because he saw d>kness & cl\ds ar\nd ! ,provid5ce ( ,god3 he c\ld n und]/& or ju/ify ! ways ( ,god to man4 ,& !re are ?\ghtful & good m5 /ill :o fall into d\bt & unbelief f simil> causes4 ,! k9d ( p :o1 l ,?omas1 are con/itutionally incl9$ to d\bt1 are n all dead4 ,baxt] m5tions a class ( m5 :o liv$ 9 8 day1 t 7 always crav+ = s5sible demon/rations4 ,l ,?omas1 !y want$ to see & feel be=e !y believ$4 ,9 o!r words1 !y 7 n cont5t ) fai?2 !y want$ k4 ,& !re are m5 ( t k9d /ill 9 ! _w4 ,& ! d>kness & cl\ds :i* ! ,psalmi/ saw ar\nd ! provid5ce ( ,god are n all gone4 ,!re are _m ?+s 9 connection ) ! gov]nm5t ( ! _w t are h>d to be und]/ood1--h>d to be reconcil$ by _m ) _! ideas ( :at is "r4 ,!re are my/]ies bo? 9 nature & 9 hi/ory1 :i* baffle ! m9ds & try ! fai? ( ! be/ & wise/ ( our race4 #c4 ,& !re are matt]s 9 connection ) ,*ri/ianity to try ! fai? ( m54 ,l its great ,au?or1 :5 x fir/ made its appe>ance1 x _h nei!r =m nor comel9ess 9 ! eyes ( _m4 ,x nei!r met ! expectations ( ! selfi%1 pr\d1 ambiti\s ,jew1 nor ( ! disputati\s1 philosophic ,greek4 ,to ! "o x 0 a /umbl+-block1 & to ! o!r fooli%ness4 ,& !re h be5 m5 9 e age1 :o h be5 unable to f9d 9 ,*ri/ianity all t _! preconceiv$ notions _h l$ !m to expect 9 a religion f ,heav54 ,!re are m5 /ill1 ev5 among ! s9c]e/ & dev\te/ fri5ds ( ,*ri/ianity1 :o are puzzl$ & /agg]$ at times by ! my/]i\s aspects ( "s ( its doctr9es1 or by "s ( ! facts connect$ ) its hi/ory4 ,!y _c und]/&1 = in/ance1 h[ x is t x has n spread m rapidly1 & become1 be=e ?is1 ! religion ( ! :ole _w4 ,y tell !m ! fault is 9 its disciples & m9i/]s1 & n 9 ,*ri/ianity itself4 ,b !y _c und]/& :y ,god %\ld all[ ! success ( a sy/em s important to dep5d on fai?less or fallible m54 ,nor c !y und]/& h[ x is t 9 ! nations 9 :i* ! ,gospel has be5 receiv$1 x has n work$ a great] trans=mation ( "*1 & produc$ a happi] *ange 9 _! condition4 ,h[ is x1 !y ask1 t x has n ext+ui%$ ! _s ( w>1 de/roy$ ! sordid lu/ = ga91 develop$ m fully ! _s ( self-sacrific+ g5]osity1 & conv]t$ society into "o great bro!rhood ( love8 ,h[ is x t ! ,*ur* is n m holy1 m unit$1 & m prosp]\s1--t pr(essors & tea*]s ( ,*ri/ianity d n exhibit m ( ! ,*ri/ian "*1 & foll[ m closely ! example ( ! meek & l[ly1 ! lov+ & labori\s1 ! condesc5d+ & self-sacrific+ ,savi\r ^: "n !y be>8 ,!y are amaz$ t s little is done by pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians to save ! p]i%+ classes2 t s _m ( ! *ur*es1 in/ead ( grappl+ ) ! vice & wret*$ness ( our l>ge t[ns1 turn _! backs on !m1 build _! *ur*es 9 ari/ocratic neighborhoods mo/ly1 & compete ) "o ano!r = ! favor ( ! ri* & p[]ful4 ,!y _c und]/& h[ x is1 t *ur*es & m9i/]s d n ex]t !mselves m = ! ext9ction ( drunk5ness1 gambl+1 & lic5ti\sness1 & = ! suppression ( all trades & cu/oms t m9i/] to s94 ,x />tles !m to see to :at a fe>ful ext5t ! *ur*es h all[$ ! p[] ( ! press1 :i* once 0 all _! own1 to pass out ( _! h&s1 into ! h&s ( selfi%1 worldly1 & godless adv5tur]s4 ,^! matt]s admit ( explanation1 b !re are _m to ^: m9ds ! explanation is nev] pres5t$1 & !re are "s :om no?+ w relieve f p]plexity & d\bt b a gr&] display ( ,*ri/ian zeal & philan?ropic ef=t1 on ! "p ( ! *ur*es1 = ! reg5]ation ( society4 #d4 ,!n ! religion ( ,*ri/ is n1 z a rule1 pres5t$ to m5 9 its lovelie/ & mo/ w9n+1 or 9 its gr&e/ & mo/ ov]p[]+ =m4 ,z pres5t$ 9 ! tea*+s & "* ( ,*ri/1 ,*ri/ianity is ! p]fection ( wisdom & goodness1 ! mo/ glori\s revelation ( ,god & duty ! m9d ( man c conceive3 b z pres5t$ 9 ! cre$s1 & *>act]s1 & writ+s ( _m ( its tea*]s & advocates1 x has nei!r beauty1 nor wor?1 nor cr$ibility4 ,"s tea* only a v small portion ( ,*ri/ianity1 & ! portion !y tea* !y (t5 tea* amiss4 ,"s doctr9es !y exagg]ate1 & o!rs !y maim4 ,"s !y c>icature1 di/ort1 or p]v]t4 ,& _m add to ! ,gospel inv5tions ( _! own1 or fooli% traditions receiv$ f _! fa!rs2 & ! tru? is hid "u a mass ( error4 ,_m conceal & disfigure ! tru? by putt+ x 9 an antiquat$ & outl&i% dress4 ,! language ( _m !ologians1 l ! ,lat9 ( ! ,romi% ,*ur*1 is1 to va/ numb]s1 a dead language1--an unkn[n tongue4 ,!re are hundr$s ( words & phrases us$ by prea*]s & religi\s writ]s :i* nei!r !y nor _! he>]s or read]s und]/&4 ,9 "s ( !m !re is no?+ to be und]/ood4 ,!y are m]e words2 mean+less s\nds4 ,"s ( !m h mean+s1 b !y are h>d to come at1 & :5 y h got at !m y f9d !m to be worse ?an none4 ,!y are falsehoods t lurk )9 ! d>k & antiquat$ words4 ,i h he>d & ev5 read :ole s]mons 9 :i* n9e s5t5ces out ( t5 _h no m mean+ 9 !m ?an ! *att] ( an ape4 ,p]haps n s mu*4 ,i h gone ?r\gh l>ge volumes & f\nd h>dly a respectable1 pla9-mean+ s5t5ce f beg9n+ to end4 ,& wagon loads ( s-call$ religi\s books may /ill be f\nd1 9 :i*1 z 9 ! talk ( "o ( ,%akespe>e's *>act]s1 ! ideas are to ! words z ?ree gra9s ( :eat to a bu%el ( *aff2 y may se>* = !m all day be=e y f9d !m2 & :5 y f9d !m !y are good = no?+4 ,:5 ,i fir/ came across su* books ,i suppos$ x 0 my ignorance or want ( capacity t made x impossible = me to und]/& !m2 b ,i f\nd1 at l5g?1 t !re 0 no?+ 9 !m to und]/&4 ,!re are o!r books :i* h a mean+1 a good mean+1 b x is wrapp$ up 9 su* out-(-!-way words & phrases1 t x is difficult to get at x4 ,m5 ( sci5ce h n only disc>d$ ! fooli% fictions ( d>k] ages1 b h begun to simplify _! language2 to ca/ aside ! unspeakable & un9telligible j>gon ( ! pa/1 & to use pla91 good1 common ,engli%1 ?us r5d]+ ! /udy ( nature pleasant ev5 to *ildr52 :ile _m div9es1 by cl++ to ! unmean+ & mis*iev\s phraseology ( anci5t dream]s1 r5d] ! /udy ( religion repulsive1 & ! atta9m5t ( s\nd ,*ri/ian k almo/ impossible to ! masses ( mank9d4 ,& all ^! ?+s become occasions ( unbelief4 ,s long z ,*ri/ian prea*]s & writ]s are limit$ s mu* to human cre$s & sy/ems1 or to /]eotyp$ phrases ( any k9d1 & avail !mselves s little ( ! popul> diction ( lit]ature & ( common life1 s long mu/ !y repel _m :om !y might conv9ce & w94 ,dr4 ,port]1 ,presid5t ( ,yale ,college4 #e4 ,!n aga93 ! divisions ( ! ,*ur*1 & ! un*>itable _s 9 :i* po9ts ( diff]5ce betwe5 cont5d+ sects are discuss$1 & ! disposition sometimes %[n by religi\s disputants to impugn ea* o!r's motives1 to call ea* o!r (f5sive names1 & to consign ea* o!r to p]dition1 are occasions ( /umbl+ to "s4 #f4 ,& aga93 _m advocates ( ,*ri/ianity1 m zeal\s ?an wise1 say m ab\t ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity ?an is true1 & attempt to prove po9ts :i* d n admit ( pro(2 & by _! ungu>d$ ass]tions1 & _! failures 9 argum5t1 br+ ! tru? itself into discr$it4 ,o!rs use uns\nd argum5ts 9 support ( ! tru?1 & :5 m5 discov] ! uns\ndness ( ! argum5ts1 !y are l$ sometimes to suspect ! s\ndness ( ! doctr9e 9 behalf ( :i* !y are employ$4 ,! pi\s frauds ( anci5t & mod]n fanatics h prov$ a /umbl+-block to ?\s&s4 ,alb]t ,b>nes says1 ,!re is no class ( m5 t are s liable to rely on weak & inconclusive reason+s z prea*]s ( ! ,gospel4 ,_m a "y man 9 a ,!ological ,sem9>y is on ! v]ge ( infidelity f ! nature ( ! reason+ employ$ by 8 in/ructor 9 def5ce ( t :i* is true1 & :i* might be well def5d$3 & _m a y\? 9 our congregations is almo/ or q a skeptic1 n because he wi%es to be s1 b because t :i* is true is support$ by su* wor?less argum5ts4 #g4 ,aga92 !ological /ud5ts sometimes adopt errone\s pr9ciples or unwise me?ods ( reason+ 9 _! se>* aft] tru?1 & d n discov] _! mi/ake till !y are l&$ 9 d\bt & unbelief4 ,!y f9d c]ta9 pr9ciples laid d[n by m5 9 high repute = sci5ce1 & adopt !m )\t hesitation1 n consid]+ t m5 ( sci5ce are sometimes mad1 fanatical infidels1 & t !y manufacture pr9ciples )\t reg>d to tru?1 = ! simple purpose ( und]m9+ m5's fai? 9 ,god & religion4 ,writ]s on sci5ce ( "o s*ool tell y1 t 9 y\r /udy ( nature1 y mu/ be c>eful nev] to admit ! doctr9e ( f9al causes2 or1 9 o!r words1 t y mu/ nev] ent]ta9 ! idea t any?+ 9 nature 0 meant to answ] any p>ticul> purpose4 ,y mu/1 say !y1 if y w\ld be a true philosoph]1 %ut out f y\r m9d all idea ( design or contrivance 9 ! works ( nature4 ,y mu/ j look at :at is1 & n ask :at x is =4 ,y may f9d wond]ful adaptations ( ?+s to ea* o!r1 all t5d+ to happy results2 b y mu/ nev] suppose t any "o ev] design$ or plann$ ^? adaptations1 ) a view to ^? happy results4 ,y mu/ conf9e y\rself entirely to :at y see1 & nev] admit ! ?\ght ( a ,mak] :om y d n see4 ,y mu/ limit y\r obs]vations to :at is done1 & n dream ( a ,do]4 ,y may see ?+s t5d+ to ! diffusion ( happ9ess1 b mu/ n suppose t !re is a great unse5 ,b5efactor1 :o gives !m ?is bless$ t5d5cy4 ,& if y feel 9 y\rself a disposition to gratitude1 y mu/ treat x z a fooli%1 *ildi% fancy1 & suppress x z irrational4 ,a silli] or a m contemptible notion--a notion m oppos$ to true philosophy & common s5se1--c h>dly be conceiv$4 ,h[ any "o c\ld ev] h ! ignorance or ! impud5ce to prop\nd su* an unnatural & mon/r\s absurdity z a great philosophical pr9ciple1 w\ld be a my/]y1 if we did n "k h[ infidelity p]v]ts m5's und]/&+s1 &1 :ile puff+ !m up ) inf9ite conceit ( _! own wisdom1 trans=ms !m into ! mo/ arrant & outrage\s fools4 ,yet ?is mon/r\s folly has f\nd its way into books1 & pap]s1 & reviews1 &1 ?r\gh !m1 into ! m9ds ( "s ,*ri/ian /ud5ts2 & :5 ! madness ( ! notion is n detect$1 x de/roys _! fai?1 & makes !m mis]able infidels4 ,"s adopt ! pr9ciple t reason is man's only guide1--t reason alone is judge ( :at is true & good1 & t to reason e ?+ mu/ be submitt$1 & receiv$ or reject$1 done or left undone1 z reason may decide4 ,?is s\nds v plausible to _m1 & !re is a s5se 9 :i* x may be true2 b !re is a s5se 9 :i* x is fe>fully false2 & ! y\? t adopts x1 & acts ^u x1 w be likely to l& himself 9 utt] d\bt1 bo? ) reg>d to religion & morals4 ,!re are numb]s ( cases 9 :i* reason is no guide at all1--9 :i* in/9ct1 natural affection1 & consci\sness are our only guides4 ,y c nev] prove by :at is g5]ally call$ reason alone1 t man is n a ma*9e1 gov]n$ entirely by =ces ov] :i* he has no control4 ,y _c !re=e prove by :at c]ta9 philosoph]s call reason1 t any man is wor?y ( rew>d or puni%m5t1 ( praise or blame1 ( gratitude or ( res5tm5t2 or t !re is any su* ?+ 9 m5 z virtue or vice1 accord+ to ! ord9>y s5se ( ! words4 ,! able/ logicians on e>?1 :5 !y take reason alone z _! guide1 come to ! conclusion t !re is no su* ?+ z lib]ty or moral responsibility1 9 ! ord9>y acceptation ( ! t]ms1 b t all is fix$1 t all is fate1 f et]nity to et]nity4 ,!y accord+ly come to ! fur!r conclusion1 t !re is no free1 volunt>y ,rul] ( ! univ]se1--t !re is no ,almighty ,judge & ,rew>d]1--t !re is nei!r rew>d nor puni%m5t1 prop]ly speak+1 ei!r 9 ?is _w or 9 ! _w to come4 ,!y become a!i/s4 ,y c nev] prove by reason t a woman ought to love h] own *ild bett] ?an ! *ild ( ano!r woman4 ,y _c prove by reason t %e ought to love x at all4 ,y may say no *ildr5 w\ld be re>$ if mo!rs did n love _! *ildr51 & ev5 love !m bett] ?an ! *ildr5 ( o!r mo!rs4 ,b h[ w y prove t *ildr5 ought to be re>$8 ,c y %[ t ! "m w conf] any advantage on h] *ild1 or secure any advantage to h]self1 or any "o else1 by re>+ x8 ,c y prove t x w n be a torm5t to h]1--t x w n br+ h] to want1 & %ame1 & an untimely dea?8 ,! fact is1 a "m's love1 a "m's p>tiality = h] own *ild1 is n a matt] ( reason4 ,! h5 loves h] *ick5s1 ! %e be> loves its cubs1 ! "m dog loves its :elps1 & ! ewe loves h] lambs1 )\t any reg>d to reason4 ,_! affections & pref]5ces are gov]n$ by some?+ inf9itely wis] ?an reason2 inf9itely high]1 at lea/1 ?an any reason t man c boa/4 ,& m5 love wom51 & wom5 love m51 & m5 & wom5 m>ry & =m new families1 n at ! bidd+ ( reason1 b "u ! influ5ce ( in/9cts or impulses t come f a wisdom inf9itely high] ?an ! wisdom ( ! wise/ man on e>?4 ,& s x is ) _m ( our beliefs4 ,!y are in/9ctive2 & reason1 :5 x becomes reasonable en\gh to des]ve ! "n1 w advise y to *]i% ^? in/9ctive beliefs z y\r life1 9 spite ( all ! infidel philosophy & reason+ on e>?4 ,b ev5 hone/ & well-dispos$ m5 ( sci5ce sometimes =m bad1 defective1 or "o-sid$ habits ( ?\ght & judgm5t unconsci\sly1 :i* r5d] x impossible = !m to d ju/ice ei!r to ,nature or ,*ri/ianity z revelations ( ! "* & gov]nm5t ( ,god4 ,& ^! faulty habits ( ?\ght & judgm5t1 & ! anti-,*ri/ian conclusions to :i* !y lead1 pass on f m5 ( sci5ce to lit]>y m52 & lit]ature is vitiat$1 & books & p]iodicals :i* %\ld lead m5 to tru?1 cause !m to err4 ,?us skeptical pr9ciples p]vade society4 ,!y f9d advocates at times ev5 among m5 :o call !mselves m9i/]s ( ,*ri/4 ,! consequ5ce is1 t well-dispos$1 & ev5 pi\s "y m51 are p]plex$1 bewild]$1 & "s :o1 l ,john ! ,bapti/1 7 burn+ & %9+ lights1 become w&]+ />s1 & lose !mselves1 = a "t at lea/1 amid/ ! blackness & d>kness ( d\bt & despair4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,ano!r ,,cause ,,( ,,unbelief--,,bad ,,feel+4 ,,! ,,au?or',s ,,case4 ,!re are sev]al o!r causes ( d\bt & unbelief :i* we might "n1 if we _h "t2 b we h n4 ,!re is "o h[ev] :i* we mu/ notice1 because x _h consid]able influ5ce 9 our own case2 we ref] to ! bad feel+ :i* sometimes takes possession ( ! m9ds ( ,*ri/ians t[>ds ea* o!r1 or ( ! m9ds ( m9i/]s t[>ds _! bro!r m9i/]s4 ,y are aw>e1 p]haps1 t if y scrat* ! sk91 & introduce a little diseas$ animal matt] to ! blood1 x w gradually spread itself ?r\gh ! sy/em1 & 9 "t poison ! :ole body4 ,& if y d n "k ?is1 y "k1 t if y take a little leav51 & place x 9 a mass ( meal1 & leave x !re to "w un*eck$1 x w 9 "t leav5 ! :ole lump4 ,& z x is ) ?+s natural1 s x is ) ?+s spiritual4 ,if y all[ a little leav5 ( bad feel+ to get into y\r m9ds t[>ds y\r fell[ ,*ri/ians or y\r bro!r m9i/]s1 & p]mit x to rema9 !re1 x w 9 "t infect y\r :ole s\l1 impair ! action ( all its faculties1 & aft] ali5at+ y f individuals1 sep>ate y fir/ f ! ,*ur*1 & !n f ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity4 ,!re is a passage 9 ! ,bible :i* says t judges are n to take gifts2 & ! reason assign$ is1 n t if a judge accepts a pres5t he w1 ) 8 eyes op51 wilfully condemn ! innoc5t or acquit ! guilty2 b t a gift bl9de? ! eyes1 ev5 ( ! wise1 s t he is no long] able to see cle>ly :i* is ! guilty & :i* ! guiltless p>ty4 ,& !re is ano!r passage 9 ! ,bible :i* says t oppression drive? a wise man mad4 ,! feel+ a man has t he has be5 wick$ly1 cruelly treat$1 excites 8 m9d s pa9fully & viol5tly1 t x is impossible = him to ?9k well ( ! "* or views ( 8 oppressor1 or ( any p>ty1 in/itution1 or sy/em ) :i* he may be connect$4 ,z "s fri5ds ( m9e 7 canvass+ = votes "o day1 previ\s to an election1 !y came ^u a man :o c\ld n1 = a "t1 say = :i* c&idate he w\ld vote4 ,at l5g? a ?\ght /ruck him1 & he said1 ,:o is ,john ,my]s go+ to vote =8 ,oh1 said my fri5ds1 he's go+ to vote = our man4 ,!n ,i'll vote = ! o!r man1 said he1 = ,i'm sure ,my]s w vote wrong4 ,my]s _h sw9dl$ him 9 a bus9ess transaction2 & 8 feel+s t[>ds him 7 s /rong1 & ( s unpleasant a k9d1 t he c\ld n ?9k any?+ "r t ,my]s did1 nor c\ld he ?9k any?+ wrong t he himself did1 s long z he took c>e to g contr>y to ,my]s4 ,x is v natural to smile at su* weakness :5 we see x 9 o!rs1 & yet exhibit unconsci\sly ! same weakness ourselves "u ano!r =m4 ,!re are "s ,*ri/ians :o1 :5 _! m9i/] pleases !m well1 are q delight$ ) 8 disc\rses4 ,!y are m>r[ & fatness to _! s\ls4 ,& e s]mon he prea*es seems bett] ?an ! "o t w5t be=e2 & !y feel z if !y c\ld sit "u t de> good man = ev]4 ,b a *ange comes ov] _! feel+s ) reg>d to him4 ,:ile go+ 8 r\nd ( pa/oral visits "s day1 he passes _! door1 b calls at ! h\se ( a ri*] neighbor a little l[] d[n3 or on visit+ ! ,sunday-s*ool1 he pats someone's little boy on ! head1 & speaks to him k9d & pleasant words1 :ile he passes _! little son unnotic$4 ,he has no improp] design 9 :at he does2 b x happ5s s2 t is all4 ,! idea ( p>tiality nev] ent]s 8 m9d4 ,b !y fancy he has got some?+ wrong 9 8 m9d t[>ds !m2 & x is c]ta9 n[ t !y h got some?+ wrong 9 _! m9ds t[>ds him4 ,& n[ 8 s]mons are q *ang$4 ,! m>r[ & fatness are all gone1 & !re is no?+ left b ! husks :i* ! sw9e %\ld eat4 ,& e s]mon he prea*es seems worse ?an ! "o :i* w5t be=e1 until at l5g? !y get q we>y1 & _! only com=t is1 if !y be ,me?odi/s1 t ,conf]5ce w come "s day1 & !y w h a *ange4 ,& all ?is "t ! prea*] is j ! same good man he ev] 01 & 8 s]mons are ! same2 only !y are *ang$4 ,!y h misjudg$ him1 & become ! subjects ( unhappy feel+1 & are no long] capable ( do+ ei!r him or 8 s]mons ju/ice4 ,& ! long] ! unhappy feel+ is all[$ to rema9 9 _! m9ds1 ! /rong] x w become1 & ! m mis*iev\s w x prove4 ,aft] disabl+ or p]v]t+ _! judgm5ts ) reg>d to _! pa/or1 x w be 9 dang] ( sep>at+ !m f ! ,*ur*2 & :5 once !y get out ( ! ,*ur* into ! outside _w1 no wond] if !y make %ipwreck bo? ( fai?1 & ( a good consci5ce4 ,& s x is cont9ually4 ,our views ( m5's *>act]s1 tal5ts1 s5tim5ts1 are always m or less influ5c$ by our feel+s & affections4 ,if we l a man v mu*1 we look on 8 views 9 ! mo/ favorable light1 & are glad to see any?+ l a reason = adopt+ !m ourselves4 ,we give 8 words & de$s ! mo/ favorable int]pretation1 & we rate 8 gifts & graces above _! real value4 ,on ! o!r h&1 if we dislike a man1--if we are l$ to reg>d him z an enemy1 & to h>bor feel+s ( res5tm5t t[>ds him1 we look on :at he says & does ) di/ru/2 we suspect 8 motives2 we "u-rate 8 tal5ts1 & are pleas$ to h an excuse = diff]+ f him 9 op9ion4 ,we see pro(s ( ?is p[] ( feel+ & affection ov] ! judgm5t on e h&4 ,! "m ( t ord9>y-look+ & tr\blesome *ild ?9ks x ! mo/ beautiful & engag+ little creature "u heav52 :ile %e wond]s h[ p c h pati5ce ) h] neighbor's *ild1 :i*1 9 tru?1 is q a *]ub or an angel comp>$ ) h]'s4 ,y "k h[ x is ) natural light4 ,y sit inside an anci5t ca!dral1 & ! light f ! bright %9+ sun /reams 9 ?r\gh ! pa9t$ w9d[s4 ,outside ! ca!dral ! light is all pure :ite2 b inside1 z x falls ^u ! pulpit1 ! pill>s1 ! pews & ! p1 x is purple1 orange1 violet1 blue1 r$1 or gre51 accord+ to ! color ( ! glass ?r\gh :i* x passes4 ,x is ! same ) moral or spiritual light2 x takes ! t9t or hue ( ! pa9t$ w9d[s ( our passions & prejudices1 our likes & dislikes1 ?r\gh :i* x ent]s our m9ds4 ,! light t f9ds its way into m5's m9ds1 says ,bacon1 is nev] pure1 :ite light2 b light color$ by ! m$ium ?r\gh :i* x passes4 ,look :]e we w1 :e!r into books or into ! liv+ _w1 we see diff]5ces ( op9ion on m5 & ?+s t c be acc\nt$ = on no o!r pr9ciple ?an t ! judgm5ts ( p are influ5c$ by _! passions & feel+s1 _! prejudices & int]e/s4 ,! ,royali/s look$ on ,cromwell ?r\gh spectacles ( hate & v5geance1 & saw a mon/] ( hypocrisy & blood4 ,! ,puritans look$ at him ?r\gh spectacles ( revolution>y fanaticism1 & saw a glori\s sa9t & h]o4 ,! cl]gy look$ on ,noncon=mi/s ?r\gh cons]vative glasses1 & saw a rabble ( fanatics & rebels4 ,! ,noncon=mi/s look$ on ! cl]gy ?r\gh revolution>y glasses1 & saw a ho/ ( sup]/iti\s =mali/s1 & bl9d1 p]secut+ ,ph>isees4 ,! man :o looks ?r\gh ! un/a9$ glasses ( imp>tiality1 sees mu* t is good1 & some?+ t is n good1 9 all4 ,:o1 t kn[s mu* ( human nature1 expects ,ca?olics to judge righte\sly ( ,prote/ants1 or ,prote/ants to judge righte\sly ( ,ca?olics8 ,:o1 t kn[s any?+ ( ! _w1 expects revolution>y ,radicals to d ju/ice to ! *>act]s & motives ( ,cons]vatives1 or eject$ ,iri%m5 to see any?+ 9 ,engli%m5 b robb]s & tyrants8 ,i "k t all ?is is great weakness1 b :]e is ! man t is n weak8 ,! man :o ?9ks himself free f ?is weakness1 has probably a d\ble %>e ( x4 ,! man :o is really /rong is "s "o :o is ke5ly s5sible ( 8 weakness1 & :o feels t 8 suffici5cy is ( ,god4 ,weakness & humanity are "o4 ,i dwell ! long] on ?is po9t because1 z ,i h already intimat$1 a "r und]/&+ ( x w g f> t[>ds expla9+ ! disa/r\s *ange :i* took place 9 my own m9d ) reg>d to ,*ri/ianity4 ,"o great cause ( my sep>ation f ! ,*ur*1 & !n ( my e/rangem5t f ,*ri/1 0 ! influ5ce ( bad feel+ :i* took possession ( my m9d t[>ds a numb] ( my bro!r m9i/]s4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,orig9 ,,( ,,! ,,unhappy ,,feel+--,,*>act]i/ics ,,( ,,! ,,au?or',s ,,m9d--,,rationaliz+ ,,t5d5cy4 ,h[ came ,i to be ! subject ( ?is bad feel+8 ,i w tell y4 ,z a "y m9i/] ,i _h two or ?ree m>k$ t5d5cies4 ,"o may be call$ a rationaliz+ t5d5cy4 ,i 0 anxi\s1 9 ! fir/ place1 cle>ly to und]/& all my pr(ess$ beliefs1 & to be able1 9 ! second place1 to make !m pla9 to o!rs4 ,i nev] lik$ to travel 9 a fog1 wrapp$ r\nd z ) a bl9d+ cl\d1 unable ei!r to see my way1 or to get a view ( ! ?+s ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$4 ,i lik$ a cle>1 bright sky1 ) ! sun %9+ full ^u my pa?1 & gladd5+ my eyes ) a view ( a ?\s& int]e/+ objects4 ,& s ) reg>d to spiritual matt]s4 ,i nev] lik$ to travel 9 !ological fogs4 ,!y press$ on me at ! outset ( my religi\s life1 on e side1 hid+ f my view ! wond]s & ! glories ( ,god's ^w & works2 b ,i nev] re/$ 9 ! d>kness4 ,i long$ & pray$ = light ) all my s\l1 & s\ght = x ) all my p[]s4 ,reg>d+ ! ,bible z ,god's ,book1 giv5 to man = 8 in/ruction & salvation1 ,i resolv$1 by ,god's help1 to f9d out bo? :at x said & :at x meant1 on e important po9t ( tru? & duty4 #a4 ,i became s5sible1 v e>ly 9 life1 t ! doctr9es ,i _h receiv$ f my tea*]s 71 9 "s cases1 inconsi/5t ) ea* o!r1 & t !y c\ld n !re=e all be true2 & ,i 0 anxi\s to get rid ( ?is inconsi/5cy1 & to br+ ! :ole ( my beliefs into h>mony ) ea* o!r4 #b4 ,i 0 also anxi\s to br+ my views into agreem5t ) ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les4 ,i wi%$ e article ( my belief to re/1 n on ! ^w ( man1 b on ! ^w ( ,god4 ,i believ$ x to be my duty to come z ne> to ,*ri/ z possible1 bo? 9 my views & "*4 ,& ,i wi%$ my /yle ( prea*+ & tea*+ to be1 l ,81 ! p]fection ( pla9ness & simplicity4 ,i felt t my *ief mission 0 to ! masses1--t ,i 0 call$ especially to prea* & tea* ! ,gospel to ! poor2 & x 0 my wi% to be able to make x pla9 to p ( ! mo/ defective education1 & ( ! humble/ capacity4 #c4 ,i 0 fur!r wi%ful to see an agreem5t betwe5 ! doctr9es :i* ,i ga!r$ f ! ,sacr$ ,scriptures1 & ! oracles :i* came to me f ! works ( ,god 9 nature4 ,if nature & ,*ri/ianity 7 f ! same ,all-p]fect ,god1 z ,i believ$1 _! voices mu/ be "o4 ,_! lessons ( tru? & duty mu/ agree4 ,!y mu/ h ! same end & t5d5cy4 ,*ri/ian precepts mu/ be 9 h>mony ) man's m5tal & bodily con/itution4 ,!y mu/ be conducive to ! developm5t ( all man's p[]s2 to ! p]fection & happ9ess ( 8 :ole be+4 ,!y mu/ be fri5dly to ! improvem5t ( 8 condition4 ,!y mu/ favor e ?+ t is conducive to 8 p]sonal & dome/ic happ9ess1 & to ! social & national welf>e ( ! :ole human race4 ,& ! doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity mu/ be 9 h>mony ) ! con/itution1 & laws1 & ph5om5a ( ! visible univ]se4 ,if !re be "o ,great1 ,all-p]fect ,creator & ,gov]nor ( ! _w & ( man1 !n man & ! univ]se1 ! univ]se & religion1 sci5ce & revelation1 philosophy & ,*ri/ianity1 ! laws ( nature & ! laws ( ,*ri/1 mu/ all be "o4 ,i want$ to see ?is on5ess1 & to feel ! sweet s5se ( x 9 my s\l4 #d4 ,i want$ fur!r to see ! f\ndations on :i* my belief 9 ,god & ,*ri/ & 9 ! ,sacr$ ,scriptures re/$1 t ,i might be able to ju/ify my belief bo? to myself & to o!rs4 ,i wi%$ to h ! fulle/ evid5ce & assurance ( ! tru? ( ,*ri/ianity ,i c\ld get1 t ,i might bo? feel at re/ & happy myself1 & be able to give re/ & com=t to ! s\ls ( o!rs4 #e4 ,) ^! objects 9 view ,i set to "w4 ,i pray$ to ,god1 ! ,great ,fa!r ( lights1 & ! ,giv] ( e good & p]fect gift1 to lead me into all tru?1 & to furni% me to e good "w4 ,i read ! ,bible ) ! greate/ c>e4 ,i se>*$ x ?r\gh & ?r\gh4 ,i /udi$ x daily1 desir\s to le>n ! :ole scope & sub/ance ( its tea*+s1 on e po9t bo? ( tru? & duty4 ,i m>k$ on ! m>g9 ( ! pages all ^? passages t /ruck me by _! peculi> cle>ness1 & _! fulness ( important mean+4 ,^! passages ,i read ov] aga9 & aga91 till ,i got great numb]s ( !m (f by he>t4 ,i gave ea* passage a p>ticul> m>k accord+ to ! subject on :i* x treat$4 ,i !n copi$ ! :ole ( ^! passages into l>ge ,note ,books1 plac+ all t spake on any p>ticul> subject toge!r4 ,i also arrang$ ! passages s f> z ,i 0 able1 9 _! natural ord]1 t !y might ?r[ light on "o ano!r1 & pres5t ! subject on :i* !y treat$1 9 z full & intelligible a light z possible4 ,i divid$ ! pages ( my ,note ,books into two columns1 plac+ ! passages :i* favor$ "o view ( a subject 9 ! fir/ column1 & ^? :i* seem$ to favor a diff]5t view 9 ! second4 ,i plac$ 9 ^? ,note ,books passages on matt]s ( duty1 z well z on matt]s ( tru?4 ,9 ?is way ,i got ne>ly all ! pla9] & m important portions ( ! ,bible arrang$ 9 some?+ l sy/ematic ord]4 ,hav+ done ?is1 ,i w5t ?r\gh my ,books1 & put d[n 9 writ+ all t ! passages pla9ly taught1 & m>k$ ! be>+ ( _! tea*+s on ! v>i\s articles ( my cre$1 ) a view to br++ my cre$1 & ! tea*+s ( ,scripture1 into agreem5t ) ea* o!r4 #f4 ,to help me 9 ^! my labors1 & to secure myself z f> z possible f s]i\s error1 ,i read a multitude ( o!r books1 on almo/ e subject ( importance1 by au?ors ( almo/ all v>ieties ( cre$s4 ,i read comm5t>ies1 s]mons1 bodies ( div9ity1 & a ho/ ( treatises on v>i\s po9ts4 ,to ! be/ ( my ability ,i exam9$ ! ,scriptures 9 ! orig9al languages1 z well z 9 a numb] ( translations1 bo? anci5t & mod]n1 includ+ sev]al ,lat9 & ,fr5* v]sions1 f\r ,g]man ones1 & all ! ,engli% ones t came 9 my way4 ,i _h a numb] ( ,lexicons1 & ( ,!ological & ,bible ,diction>ies ( :i* ,i made free use4 ,i w5t ?r\gh ! ,comm5t>ies ( ,baxt]1 ,wesley & ,adam ,cl>ke ) ! greate/ c>e1 z well z ?r\gh a huge & some:at het]odox1 b able & excell5t "w1 publi%$ by ,goadby1 entitl$1 ,illu/rations ( ! ,sacr$ ,scriptures4 ,i d n ?9k ,i miss$ a s+le s5t5ce 9 ^! comm5t>ies1 or pass$ unweigh$ a s+le ^w4 ,i read & /udi$ ! writ+s ( ,wesley g5]ally1 & ! works ( ,flet*]1 ,b5son & ,watson4 ,i read ,hook] & ,taylor also1 & ,wilk9s1 & ,b>r[1 & ,tillotson1 & ,butl]1 & ,burnet1 & ,pe>son1 & ,hoadley4 ,i read ! writ+s ( ,baxt] almo/ cont9ually4 ,i w5t ?r\gh1 n only ! :ole ( 8 volum9\s practical works1 b _m ( 8 doctr9al & controv]sial ones1 includ+ 8 ,ca?olic ,!ology1 8 ,aphorisms on ,ju/ification1 8 ,confessions1 & 8 mo/ elaborate1 compreh5sive & wond]ful "w ( all1 8 ,me?odus ,!ologiae1 9 ,lat94 ,9 ,baxt] alone ,i _h a _w ( mat]ials = ?\ght1 on almo/ e religi\s & moral subject t c engage ! m9d ( man4 ,& on almo/ e subject ( importance 8 ?\ghts seem$ ri* & :olesome1 scriptural & rational 9 ! highe/ degree4 ,8 ,*ri/ian _s held me captive1 & ,i nev] got tir$ ( 8 e>ne/1 eloqu5t1 & godly talk4 ,ev5 ! old & endless controv]sies on :i* he sp5t s mu* "t & /r5g?1 7 (t5 r5d]$ int]e/+ by ! hone/y ( 8 he>t1 by ! abundance ( 8 *>ity1 by ! mod]ation ( 8 views1 & by ! nev]-fail+ good s\nd s5se ( 8 rem>ks4 ,none ( ! works ,i read _h su* a *>m = me z ^? ( ,baxt]1 & no o!r religi\s writ] ex]t$ s p[]ful & la/+ an influ5ce ei!r on my head or he>t4 ,taylor 0 too fl[]y1 & ,b>r[ too wordy1 & ,tillotson 0 r cold & =mal2 yet ,i read !m all ) pr(it1 & ) a great am\nt ( pleasure4 ,hook] ,i f\nd a wond]1 bo? = excell5cy ( /yle & ri*ness ( s5tim5t2 & 8 piety & wisdom1 8 c&or & 8 *>ity1 h nev] be5 surpass$ s9ce ! days ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les4 ,& ,hoadley too ,i lik$1 & ,butl]1 & ,?omas a ,kempis1 & ,william ,law4 ,& !n came ,bolton & ,h[e1 & ,doddridge & ,watts4 ,!n ,p5n1 & ,b>clay1 & ,cl>kson1 & ,sewell1 & ,hales1 & ,dell caught my att5tion1 giv+ me int]e/+ revelations ( ,quak] ?\ght & feel+4 ,& ,i 0 edifi$ by ,lactantius & ,*ryso/om1 ! mo/ eloqu5t1 rational & practical ( ! ,*ri/ian ,fa!rs4 ,by & by came ,prie/ley & ,price1 & ,dr4 ,john ,taylor1 & ,w4 ,e4 ,*ann+1 & a ho/ ( o!rs ( ! mod]n s*ool ( het]odox writ]s4 ,i also read a numb] ( celebrat$ ,fr5* au?ors1 includ+ ,bossuet & ,b\rdal\e1 ,fle*i] & ,massillon1 ,pascal & ,f5elon1 & ! eloqu5t1 ,prote/ant prea*] & au?or1 ,m4 ,saur94 ,i read ! pr9cipal works bo? ( ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants1 ( ! ,fa!rs & ,re=m]s1 ( ,*ur*m5 & ,diss5t]s1 ( ,quak]s & ,my/ics1 ( ,me?odi/s & ,calv9i/s1 ( ,unit>ians & ,infidels4 ,i read sev]al works on ,law & ,gov]nm5t1 includ+ ,puff5dorf's ,law ( ,nature1 ,grotius on ! ,laws ( ,peace & ,w>1 ,bod9 on ,gov]nm5t1 ,montesquieu's ,_s ( ,laws1 ,black/one's ,comm5t>ies1 & ,j]emy ,taylor's ,ductor ,dubitantium4 ,i _h read works on ,anatomy1 ,physiology & ,m$ic9e1 :5 ,i c\ld get hold ( !m1 f ! "t :5 ,i 0 only twelve ye>s old4 ,i nev] w5t f> into any o!r sci5ces1 yet ,i /udi$1 to "s ext5t1 ,a/ronomy1 ,geology1 ,physical ,geography1 ,botany1 ,natural ,hi/ory1 & ,an?ropology4 ,i read ,wesley's publication on ,natural ,philosophy1 & ,i gave m or less att5tion to e "w on sci5ce & natural philosophy t came 9 my way4 ,works on natural religion & natural !ology1 9 :i* sci5ce 0 taught & us$ 9 subs]vi5ce to ,*ri/ian tru? & duty1 ,i read :5ev] ,i c\ld get hold ( !m4 ,!y int]e/$ me exce$+ly4 ,= works on ,pa9t+1 ,sculpture1 ,ar*itecture1 ,i _h n ! lea/ reg>d4 ,!y seem$ to h no t5d5cy to help me 9 ! "w 9 :i* ,i 0 engag$1 & ,i _h no desire to talk respectable nons5se on su* subjects4 ,i 0 fond ( ,ecclesia/ical & ,civil ,hi/ory1 & read mo/ gre$ily su* works z ?rew light on ! progress ( society 9 le>n+1 sci5ce1 & useful arts2 9 fre$om1 morals1 religion & gov]nm5t4 ,i read _m ( ! works ( ! anci5t ,greeks & ,romans1 & ! hi/ory ( ! wond]ful p]iods 9 :i* !y fl\ri%$4 ,i 0 especially fond ( ,cic]o1 ,s5eca1 & ,epictetus4 ,all subjects be>+ on ! great int]e/s ( mank9d1 & all works reveal+ ! work+s ( ! human m9d & ! laws ( human nature1 seem$ to me to be> important relations to religion & ! ,bible2 & ! writ+s ( ! great philosoph]s1 lawy]s1 & hi/orians1 appe>$ to be almo/ z mu* 9 my l9e z ,baxt]'s ,*ri/ian ,directory1 or ,wesley's ,notes on ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,tales ( w>s & intrigues1 & ( royal & ari/ocratic vices & follies ,i hat$4 ,yet ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 acc\nts ( religi\s controv]sies1 & read ) eag]ness1 ?\gh ) pa9 & horror1 ! tragic & s\l-h>r[+ /ories ( ! deadly conflicts betwe5 ,*ri/ian piety & anti-,*ri/ian intol]ance4 ,above all ,i lov$ well-writt5 books on ! b5eficial influ5ce ( ,*ri/ianity on ! temporal int]e/s & ! g5]al happ9ess ( mank9d4 ,i lik$ good biographies1 especially ( celebrat$ /ud5ts1 great philosoph]s1 & rem>kable ,*ri/ian philan?ropi/s4 ,( works ( fiction ,i read v few1 & ev]more /ill few] z ,i got old]1 until at l5g? ,i came to view !m g5]ally z a great nuisance4 ,!re are few1 ,i suppose1 t c say !y read ! :ole1 n only ( ,wesley's works1 b ( 8 ,*ri/ian ,libr>y1 9 fifty volumes2 yet ,i w5t ?r\gh ! :ole1 ?\gh "o ( ! books 0 s pr(\nd1 or else s silly1 t ,i c\ld n f9d "o s5t5ce 9 x t ,i c\ld prop]ly und]/&4 ,i read ! great] "p ( ! books ( my fri5ds4 ,i w5t ?r\gh ne>ly ! :ole libr>y ( a village ab\t two miles di/ant f my native place4 ,my native place itself c\ld n boa/ a libr>y 9 ^? days4 ,i read scores1 if n hundr$s ( books t taught me no?+ b ! ignorance & self-conceit ( ! writ]s1 & ! v>i\s =ms ( lit]>y & religi\s insanity to :i* poor weak humanity is liable4 ,!re 0 a l>ge old ,free ,libr>y at ,newca/le-on-,tyne1 left to ! city by a celebrat$ cl]gyman1 :i* conta9$ all ! ,fa!rs1 all ! ,greek & ,roman ,classics1 all ! m celebrat$ ( ! old ,infidels1 all ! old lead+ skeptical & lawless writ]s ( ,italy1 & ,france1 & ,holl&1 all ! great old ,*ur* ( ,engl& writ]s1 & all ! lead+ writ]s ( ! ,noncon=mi/s1 ,diss5t]s1 & ,h]etics ( all k9ds4 ,to ?is libr>y ,i us$ to g1 day aft] day1 & /ay f morn+ to night1 read+ "s ( ! great au?ors ?r\gh1 & exam9+ almo/ all ( !m suffici5tly to enable me to see :at !re 0 9 ea*1 t ,i _h n met ) 9 ! re/4 ,"h ,i read ,hobbes & ,ma*iavel1 ,bol+broke & ,%aftesbury1 ,t9dal & ,*ubb4 ,"h ,i fir/ saw ! works ( ,cudwor? & ,*ill+wor?1 & "h too ,i fir/ f\nd ! entire works ( ,bacon & ,newton1 ( ,locke & ,boyle4 ,"h also ,i read ! works ( "s ( ! old] def5d]s ( ! fai?4 ,grotius on ! tru? ( ! ,*ri/ian religion ,i _h read mu* e>li]4 ,i _h us$ x z a s*ool book1 translat+ x bo? out ( ,lat9 into ,engli%1 & out ( ,engli% back into ,lat91 impr9t+ x !reby almo/ ^w = ^w ^u my memory4 ,i _h also read ! "w ( 8 comm5tator on ! causes ( incr$ulity4 ,lel& on ! dei/ical writ]s1 & ,paley's ,evid5ces1 & o!rs1 ,i read aft]4 ,b 9 ?is great old libr>y ,i met ) numb]s ( int]e/+ & important works t ,i h nev] met ) s9ce4 ,& "h1 9 ! dimly light$ antiquat$ rooms1 ,i us$ to fill my m9d ) a _w ( facts1 & ?\ghts1 & fancies1 & !n g away to m$itate ^u !m :ile travell+ on my way1 or sitt+ 9 my room1 or ly+ on my b$4 ,day & night1 alone & 9 company1 ^! 7 ! ?+s :i* fill$ my m9d & ex]cis$ my ?\ghts4 ,& hav+ a r ret5tive memory1 & consid]able p[]s ( imag9ation1 ,i 0 able at times to br+ almo/ all ! ?+s ( importance :i* ,i _h met ) 9 my read+1 be=e my m9d1 & comp>e !m bo? ) ea* o!r1 & ) all t 0 already 9 my memory4 ,& :atev] appe>$ to me mo/ rational1 mo/ scriptural1 ,i treasur$ = future use1 all[+ ! re/ to drift away into =getfulness4 ,no "o c imag9e ! happ9ess ,i f\nd 9 ?is my se>* aft] tru?1 except ^? :o h exp]i5c$ ! l4 ,i seem$ at times to live 9 a region ( ! highe/ & div9e/ bliss4 ,e fre% discov]y ( tru?1 e detection ( old error1 e enl>gem5t ( my views1 br\ght unspeakable rapture2 & _h x n be5 = ! n>r[-m9d$ness ( "s ( my fri5ds1 ! re/ra9ts ( e/abli%$ cre$s1 & ! ?\ght ( ! trials :i* my m5tal revels might "s day br+ on me & my family1 my life w\ld h be5 a heav5 on e>?4 ,p]haps ,i read too mu*1 or too gre$ily & v>i\sly4 ,w\ld x n 9 any case h be5 bett] = me to h refra9$ f read+ ! writ+s ( su* a ho/ ( h]etics1 infidels1 & m]e natural philosoph]s8 ,x is c]ta9 t :at ,i attempt$ 0 too mu* = my p[]s1 & too va/ = "o man's life4 ,b ,i 0 n suffici5tly consci\s ( ! inf9itude ( tru?1 or ( ! n>r[ limits ( my p[]s1 or ( ! inf9ite my/]ies ( :i* humanity & ! univ]se are full4 ,& my desire = k 0 inf9ite1 & my appetite 0 v ke51 & ,i 0 s desir\s to be "r on e subject be>+ on ! religion ( ,*ri/1 & on ! great int]e/s ( mank9d1 t no?+ t ,i c\ld d seem$ too mu* if x seem$ likely to help me 9 ! atta9m5t ( my object4 ,!n ,i _h no consid]ate & enlight5$ guide2 no fri5d1 no colleague1 ) a fa!r's he>t1 to direct me 9 my /udies or my *oice ( books4 ,!re 0 "o m9i/] 9 ! ,body to :i* ,i belong$ t might h giv5 me good c\nsel1 if he _h be5 at h&1 b he & ,i 7 nev] /ation$ 9 ! same neighborhood4 ,& he _h suff]$ s mu* on acc\nt ( 8 sup]ior intellig5ce & lib]al t5d5cies1 t he might h felt unwill+ to advise me freely4 ,! prea*]s g5]ally c\ld n und]/& me1 & !y _h no sympa?y ) my eag] long+s = religi\s k4 ,!y c\ld n compreh5d :at 9 ! _w ,i c\ld want beyond _! own old /]eotyp$ notions & phrases1 & ! com=table provision made = ! supply ( my temporal wants4 ,:y c\ld ,i n *eck my ?9k+1 enjoy my popul>ity1 & rejoice 9 ! success ( my labors8 ,& :5 ,i c\ld n take _! flippant c\nsels1 !y _h no?+ left b h9ts at unpleasant consequ5ces4 ,!re 0 no?+ = me !re=e1 b to foll[ ! prompt+s ( my own insatiate s\l1 & travel on alone 9 ! fe> ( ,god1 hop+ t ?+s w\ld get bett]1 & my prospects gr[ bright] by & by4 ,s ,i mov$ on 9 my own track1 /ill digg+ = tru? z = silv]1 & se>*+ = x z = hidd5 treasure4 ,& ,i work$ unceas+ly1 & ) all my might4 ,i lo/ no "t4 ,i hat$ pleasure p>ties1 & all k9ds ( amusem5ts4 ,my "w 0 my amusem5t4 ,i hat$ company1 unless ! subject ( conv]sation c\ld be religion1 or some?+ p]ta9+ to x4 ,:5 oblig$ to g out & take d9n]1 or tea1 or supp]1 ,i always took a book or two ) me1 & if ! company 7 n incl9$ to sp5d ! "t 9 useful conv]sation1 ,i w\ld slip away into "s quiet room1 or take a walk1 & sp5d my "t 9 read+4 ,i always read on my walks & on my j\rneys1 if ! wea!r 0 fair1 & on "s occasions :5 x 0 n fair4 ,my m9d 0 always on ! /ret*4 ,i _h no idea t ,i ne$$ re/ or recreation4 ,x nev] ent]$ into my m9d t ,i c\ld get to ! end ( my m5tal /r5g?1 & :5 ,i 0 actually exhau/$1--:5 ,i _h we>i$ bo? body & m9d to ! utmo/1 s t writ+ & ev5 read+ became irksome to me1 ,i /ill accus$ myself ( idl5ess1 in/ead ( suspect+ myself ( we>9ess4 ,i wond] t ,i liv$4 ,if my con/itution _h n be5 s\nd & ela/ic to ! la/ degree1 ,i %\ld h worn myself out1 & be5 sil5t 9 ! du/1 m ?an ?irty ye>s ago4 #g4 ,all ! "t t ,i 0 labor+ to correct & enl>ge my views ( ,*ri/ian tru? & duty1 ,i 0 endeavor+ to improve my way ( speak+ & writ+4 ,i wi%$1 ( c\rse1 to be able to speak & write correctly & =cibly1 b :at ,i long$ = mo/ ( all1 0 to be able to speak ) ! greate/ possible pla9ness & simplicity to ! poor] & less favor$ classes4 ,if !re 7 ?+s 9 ,*ri/ianity t 7 inexplicable my/]ies1 ,i _h no wi% to m$dle ) !m at all2 if !re 0 no?+ b :at 0 explicable1 ,i wi%$ to be able to speak 9 su* a mann] z to make ! :ole subject ( religion pla9 to !m4 ,my belief 0 t !re 7 n any inexplicable my/]ies 9 ,*ri/ianity2 t ?\gh !re 7 doctr9es 9 ,*ri/ianity :i* _h be5 my/]ies 9 e>li] times1 !y 7 my/]ies n[ no long]1 b revelations2 t ! ?+s :i* 7 inexplicable my/]ies1 belong$ to ,god1 & t none b ?+s t 7 reveal$ belong$ to u4 ,my impression 01 t all ?+s spiritual c\ld be made z pla9 to p ( common s5se & hone/ he>ts1 z ?+s natural2 t all t 0 necess>y to ?is end1 0 fir/ to sep>ate f ,*ri/ianity all t 0 n ,*ri/ianity1 & secondly1 to translate ,*ri/ianity out ( ,lat9 & ,greek1 ,hebrew & ,gibb]i%1 into ! language ( ! common p4 ,to qualify myself = ?is "w ( translation 0 ! next great object ( all my /udies4 ,paul reg>d$ ! unnecess>y use ( unkn[n tongues 9 ! assemblies ( ! ,*ur*1 z a great nuisance4 ,he dem&$ t ev]y?+ said 9 ^? assemblies1 %\ld be spok5 9 a language t all c\ld und]/&4 ,:e!r m5 pray$1 or sang1 or prea*$1 he insi/$ t !y %\ld d x 9 su* a mann] z to make !mselves intelligible4 ,8 rem>ks on ?is subject are ! p]fection ( wisdom1 & des]ve m att5tion f religi\s tea*]s ?an !y are accu/om$ to receive4 ,paul's wi% 01 t ,*ri/ians %\ld n only all speak ! same ?+s1 b t !y %\ld speak !m 9 ! same way1 s t !y might all be able to und]/& ea* o!r1 & t outsid]s might be able to und]/& !m all4 ,above all gifts1 says he1 covet ! gift ( pla9 & intelligible speak+4 ,nev] use an unkn[n tongue s long z y c use a kn[n "o4 ,he t speake? 9 an unkn[n tongue speake? n unto m5 b unto ,god3 = no man und]/&e? him4 ,he may talk ab\t v good ?+s1 b no "o is ! bett] = 8 talk4 ,b he t speake? 9 a kn[n tongue c be und]/ood by all2 & all are in/ruct$1 & com=t$1 & /r5g!n$4 ,& ev5 ,god c und]/& a kn[n tongue z well z an unkn[n "o4 ,he t speake? 9 an unkn[n tongue may edify himself p]haps2 b he t speake? 9 a kn[n "o1 edifie? ! ,*ur*4 ,i d n grudge y y\r unkn[n tongues1 b ,i _h a great deal r y w\ld use a kn[n "o2 = great] is he t speake? 9 a kn[n "o1 ?an he t speake? 9 an unkn[n "o4 ,true greatness does n consi/ 9 say+ or do+ ?+s wond]ful2 b 9 say+ & do+ ?+s useful1--9 talk+ & act+ 9 a lov+1 condesc5d+1 self-sacrific+ _s1 ) a view to ! com=t & welf>e ( our bre?r54 ,suppose ,i 7 to come to y speak+ 9 tongues t y did n und]/&1 :at good %\ld ,i d y1 unless ,i %\ld translate :at ,i said into a tongue y c\ld und]/&8 ,& :y %\ld ,i say a ?+ twice ov] :5 say+ x once w\ld d z well1 & ev5 bett]8 ,ev]y?+ %\ld be made z pla9 z possible f ! fir/4 ,:5 y h made ?+s z pla9 z y c1 !re w be "s t w f9d x z mu* z !y c d to cat* y\r mean+4 ,if y talk 9 an unkn[n tongue !y _c get at y\r mean+ at all1 b only sit1 & />e1 & sigh4 ,"s poor silly s\ls may admire & applaud y2 = !re are always "s :o1 :5 !y he> a man t !y _c und]/&1 w cry out1 ,:at a great prea*]6 ,b :at good or s5sible man w\ld wi% = ! praise ( su* creatures z ^?8 ,talk intelligibly4 ,talk s t folks c tell :at y are talk+ ab\t4 ,if y h no?+ wor? say+1 hold y\r tongues4 ,if y h some?+ wor? say+1 say x s t p c und]/& x4 ,make ev]y?+ z cle> z possible4 ,we might z well be )\t tongues z talk un9telligibly4 ,ev5 ?+s )\t life1 giv+ s\nd1 :e!r pipe or h>p1 except !y give a di/9ction 9 ! s\nds1 h[ %all x be kn[n :at is pip$ or h>p$8 ,= if ! trumpet give an unc]ta9 s\nd1 :o %all prep>e himself to ! battle8 ,s likewise ye1 except ye utt] by ! tongue words easy to be und]/ood1 h[ %all x be kn[n :at is spok58 = ye %all speak into ! air4 ,!re are1 no "o kn[s h[ _m voices 9 ! _w2 & none ( !m )\t signification4 ,! voices ( birds & ! voices ( bea/s are endless 9 v>iety2 yet ea* has its own di/9ct intelligible mean+4 ,all creatures1 ?\gh de/itute ( language l t ( man1 make !mselves prop]ly und]/ood by _! mates1 _! k9dr$1 & _! associates4 ,!y ev5 make !mselves intelligible to m54 ,talk ( great prea*]s2--:y ! man t _c or w n prea* s z to make himself und]/ood1 is small]1 l[]1 less 9 ! e/eem ( ,god1 & ( good1 s5sible1 ,*ri/ian m5 & wom51 ?an ! l[e/ animal1 or ! smalle/ insect1 on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,e %eep t bleats1 e ox t l[s1 e ass t brays1 e bird t s+s1 & e goose t gabbles1 is m ( a sage1 if n m ( a sa9t1 ?an ! great prea*]s6 ,! ?+s s-call$ by a c]ta9 class ( simpletons1 are ab\t ! mo/ pitiable1 if n ! mo/ blameable creatures1 9 all ,god's univ]se4 ,:at !n is ! up%ot ( :at ,i am say+8 ,x is ?is4 ,:e!r ,i s+1 or pray1 or talk1 ,i w make myself und]/ood4 ,i ?ank my ,god1 ,i c speak ) tongues m ?an y all2 & ,i d speak ) !m :5 x is necess>y to d s 9 ord] to make myself und]/ood3 b 9 ! ,*ur*1 ,i _h r speak five words 9 a tongue & a /yle t my he>]s c und]/&1 t by my voice ,i may tea* o!rs1 ?an t5 ?\s& 9 an unkn[n tongue4 ,& s ! great1 good1 common-s5se ,apo/le goes on4 ,my wi% & purpose 7 to c>ry out 8 pr9ciples to ! f>!/ possible ext5t4 ,if ,i _h tri$ h>d1 ,i c\ld h prea*$ 9 ,lat94 ,) a little m ef=t ,i c\ld h prea*$ 9 ,greek4 ,i c\ld h prea*$ 9 ! ord9>y1 high-s\nd+1 ,fr5*ifi$1 ,lat9iz$1 mongrel /yle1 )\t an ef=t4 ,x requir$ an ef=t to keep cle> ( ! abom9ation4 ,& ,i made ! ef=t4 ,i want$ to feel :5 speak+1 t ,i _h n only myself a prop] und]/&+ ( :at ,i 0 talk+ ab\t1 b t ,i 0 convey+ correct & cle> ideas ( x to ! m9ds ( my he>]s4 ,to utt] words :i* ,i did n und]/&1 or words :i* ,i c\ld n make my he>]s und]/&1 0 a ?+ ,i c\ld n endure2 & to ?is day1 ! v idea ( su* a ?+ excites 9 me a k9d ( horror4 ,i _h no ambition to prea* :at 7 call$ great s]mons1 or to be :at 0 call$ a great prea*]4 ,my great desire 0 n to a/oni% or conf\nd p1 b to d !m good2 to convey religi\s tru? to _! m9ds 9 su* a way1 & s to impress x on _! he>ts1 t !y might be conv]t$1 edifi$1 & sav$4 ,:5 ,i fir/ began to prea* ,i _h a c\s9 :o 0 comm5c+ 8 c>e] z a m9i/] at ! same "t4 ,he 0 ambiti\s to %9e1 & to a/oni% 8 he>]s by a %[ ( le>n+4 ,he knew no?+ ( ,lat9 & ,greek1 b he 0 fond ( great high-s\nd+ words ( ,greek & ,lat9 orig94 ,he c>ri$ ab\t ) him a pocket diction>y1 :i* he us$ = ! purpose ( turn+ little words into big ones1 & common ones into /range ones4 ,my ta/e 0 j ! contr>y4 ,my desire 0 to be z simple z possible4 ,l my companion1 ,i (t5 c>ri$ ab\t ) me a pocket diction>y1 b ! end = :i* ,i us$ x 01 to help me to turn big words into little ones1 & /range & h>d ones into common & easy ones4 ,& :5ev] ,i _h to consult a diction>y 9 translat+ ,lat91 or ,greek1 or any o!r language1 into ,engli%1 ,i always took ! simple/ & be/ kn[n words ,i c\ld f9d to give ! mean+ ( ! orig9al4 ,my c\s9's desire to %9e betray$ him at times into v ridicul\s blund]s4 ,i once he>d him say1 aft] hav+ sp5t "s "t 9 expla9+ 8 text1 ,b t ,i may devil-hope ! subject a little m fully1 ,i w\ld obs]ve1 t ! words are mephitical4 ,he1 ( c\rse1 meant to say1 metaphorical1 figurative1 n mephitical :i* means ( a bad smell4 ,my plan secur$ me aga9/ su* mi/akes4 ,to assi/ me 9 ga9+ a k ( ! true mean+1 & ( ! "r use ( words1 & to correct & simplify my /yle z mu* z possible1 ,i read :atev] came 9 my way on gramm> & philology1 on rhetoric & logic4 ,i also collect$ a numb] ( ! be/ ,engli% diction>ies1 includ+ a beautiful copy ( ,johnson's great "w 9 two ?ick qu>to volumes4 ,i read & /udi$ ! works ( ne>ly all our great poets1 f ,sp5s] & ,%akespe>e1 d[n to ,c[p] & ,burns4 ,i read two or ?ree lat] ones4 ,i _h already committ$ to memory ! :ole1 or ne>ly ! :ole1 ( ! moral songs ( ,dr4 ,watts2 & _m ( !m keep _! places 9 my memory to ! pres5t day4 ,& ?\gh x may seem incr$ible to "s1 ,i actually committ$ to memory e hymn 9 ! ,wesleyan ,hymn ,book4 ,i nev] knew !m all (f at "o "t1 b ,i got !m all (f 9 succession4 ,& ,i nev] =got ! bett]1 tru]1 simpl]1 sweet] ones4 ,i c repeat hundr$s ( !m /ill1 ) ! exception ( "h & !re a /anza or two4 ,& ,i committ$ to memory all ! bett] portion ( ! new hymns introduc$ into ! hymn book by ! ,me?odi/ ,new ,connection4 ,& ,i committ$ to memory *oice pieces ( poetry )\t numb]4 ,i read ,%akespe>e till ,i c\ld quote _m ( 8 be/ passages1 includ+ ne>ly all 8 soliloquies1 & a numb] ( long conv]sations1 z readily z ,i c\ld quote ! sacr$ writ+s4 ,i read all ,bunyan's works4 ,i c\ld tell ! /ory ( 8 ,pilgrim f beg9n+ to end4 ,i read ,rob9son ,crusoe1 & "s ( ! o!r works ( ,defoe4 ,i read ,addison & ,johnson1 ,goldsmi? & ,swift4 ,to get at ! orig9 & at ! primitive mean+ ( words1 ,i /udi$ ,fr5* & ,g]man1 z well z ,lat9 & ,greek4 ,:5 ,i met ) passages 9 ,engli% au?ors t express$ great tru?s 9 a /yle t 0 n to my ta/e1 ,i us$ to translate !m into my own /yle1 j z ,i did f9e passages f ,lat91 ,greek1 or ,fr5* au?ors4 ,i also translat$ poetical passages into prose4 ,i tri$ sometimes to translate ?+s into ! language ( *ildr51 & 9 "s cases ,i succe$$4 ,i did my be/ to keep 9 m9d h[ ,i felt1 & :at ,i c\ld und]/&1 :5 ,i 0 a *ild & a boy1 & endeavor$ to keep my /yle z ne> z ,i c\ld to ! level ( my boyi% und]/&+4 ,my fir/ sup]9t5d5t did n approve ( my plan4 ,! prop] way1 said he1 is1 n to g d[n to ! p2 b to compel ! p to come up to y4 ,he 0 fond ( a swell+1 high-s\nd+1 long-w9d$ /yle4 ,h[ f> he succe$$ 9 br++ p up to himself1 ,i _c say1 b ,i recollect once he>+ a pupil ( 8 talk a :ole h\r )\t utt]+ ei!r a ?\ght or a feel+ t 0 wor? a /raw4 ,an old woman1 ) :om he _h once liv$1 & ) :om he 0 a great favorite1 said to me aft] ! s]vice1 ',well1 h[ did y l our "y man8' ',he talk$ away1' said ,i4 ',i ?9k he did1' %e answ]$1 'he gr[s bett] & bett]4 ,i c\ldn't und]/& him4' ,8 tea*]1 my sup]9t5d5t1 publi%$ a volume ( s]mons2 b ,i nev] met ) anybody t _h read !m4 ,i read "o or two ( !m myself1 & 0 a/oni%$2--p]haps n s mu* a/oni%$ z some?+ else1--to f9d1 t at ! end ( "o ( 8 tall-word$1 long-w9d$1 r\nd-ab\t s5t5ces1 he contradict$ :at he _h said at ! beg9n+4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,*anges ,,9 ,,! ,,au?or',s ,,views4 ,my /udies l$ me to make consid]able *anges bo? 9 my views & way ( speak+4 #a4 ,) reg>d to my views4 ,i f\nd t "s ( ! doctr9es :i* ,i _h be5 taught z ,*ri/ian doctr9es1 7 n s mu* z h9t$ at by ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les1--t "s doctr9es :i* ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les taught ) great pla9ness1 ,i nev] _h be5 taught at all2 & t "s ( ! doctr9es ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les :i* ,i _h be5 taught1 ,i _h be5 taught 9 v diff]5t =ms f ^? 9 :i* !y 7 pres5t$ 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,i f\nd t "s doctr9es :i* ,i _h be5 taught z doctr9es ( ! greate/ importance1 7 nev] s mu* z allud$ to 9 ! :ole ,bible1 :ile 9 numb]s ( places q contr>y doctr9es 7 taught4 ,:ile unscriptural doctr9es 7 inculcat$ z fundam5tal doctr9es ( ! ,gospel1 "s ( ! fundam5tal doctr9es !mselves 7 n only neglect$1 b d5\nc$ z griev\s h]esies4 ,_m passages ( ,scripture :i* 7 p]fectly pla9 :5 left to speak out _! own mean+1 _h be5 us$ s badly by !ologians1 t !y _h become un9telligible to ord9>y ,*ri/ians4 ,:ile pr(ess+ to give ! passages ne$ful explanations1 !y _h heap$ ^u !m imp5etrable obscurations4 ,words t1 z !y came f ,jesus1 7 _s & life1 _h be5 s griev\sly p]v]t$1 t !y _h become mean+less or mis*iev\s4 ,i met ) passages :i* _h be5 us$ z pro(s ( doctr9es to :i* !y _h n ! slighte/ ref]5ce4 ,!re 7 ! words ( ,j]emiah = in/ance3 ,c ! ,e?iopian *ange 8 sk91 or ! leop>d 8 spots8 ,! prophet is speak+ ( ! impossibility ( m51 aft] long cont9uance 9 wilful s91 break+ (f _! bad habits2 z ! clos+ words ( ! passage %[2 ,!n may ye :o are accu/om$ to d evil1 d well4 ,b ! !ologians took ! words & us$ !m 9 support ( ! doctr9e t no man 9 8 unconv]t$ /ate c d any?+ t[>ds 8 salvation1--a doctr9e :i* is nei!r ,scriptural nor rational4 ,aga92 ,isaiah1 ref]r+ to ! calamit\s condition ( ! ,jewi% nation1 9 consequ5ce ( ,god's judgm5ts1 says3 ,! :ole head is sick1 & ! :ole he>t fa9t4 ,f ! sole ( ! foot to ! head1 !re is no s\ndness2 b w\nds1 & bruises1 & putrefy+ sores1 c4 ,?is1 :i* ! prophet said ) reg>d to ! /ate ( ! ,jews1 ! !ologians appli$ to ! "*1 n ( ! ,jews only1 b ( all mank9d4 ,:at ,paul said ab\t ! law ( ,moses1 & ! works or de$s requir$ by t law1 ! !ologians appli$ to ! law ( ,*ri/4 ,& s ) reg>d to multitudes ( passages4 ,i 0 con/antly com+ across passages t ! !ologians sy/ematically p]v]t$1 tak+ !m f _! prop] use & mean+1 & =c+ !m into ! support ( notions to :i* !y _h n ! slighte/ ref]5ce4 ,! lib]ties tak5 ) ! words ( ,paul w5t f> t[>ds turn+ ! writ+s ( t great advocate & example ( hol9ess into lessons ( lic5ti\sness4 ,x 0 pla9 t1 on _m po9ts1 !ology 0 "o ?+1 & ,*ri/ianity ano!r2 & t _m & important *anges w\ld h to be made 9 ! cre$s & confessions ( ,*ri/5dom1 be=e !y c\ld be br\ght into h>mony ) ! tru? z taught by ,jesus4 ,"s !ological doctr9es ,i f\nd re/$ on ! au?ority ( ,milton's ,p>adise ,lo/1 or ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& ,pray] ,book1 or on ! au?ority ( e>li] works f :i* ,milton or ! au?ors ( ! ,pray] ,book _h borr[$4 ,"o day1 ab\t =ty-two ye>s ago1 ,i 0 travell+ homew>ds f ,%ields to ,bly? on foot1 :5 a man ) a c>t ov]took me1 & ask$ me to get 9 & ride4 ,i did s4 ,! man & ,i 7 soon busy discuss+ !ology4 ,we talk$ on sav+ fai?1 imput$ righte\sness1 pr$e/9ation1 div9e =ekn[l$ge1 election1 reprobation & r$emption4 ,we diff]$ on e po9t1 & ! man got v w>m4 ,he !n spake ( a cov5ant made betwe5 ,god ! ,fa!r & ,8 ,son be=e ! creation ( ! _w1 giv+ me all ! p>ticul>s ( ! engagem5t4 ,i told him ,i _h read some?+ ab\t a cov5ant ( t k9d 9 ,milton's ,p>adise ,lo/1 b t ,i _h nev] met ) any?+ on ! subject 9 ! sacr$ writ+s1 & add$ t ,i d\bt$ :e!r any su* transaction ev] took place4 ,he got m excit$ ?an ev]1 & express$ "s uneas9ess at hav+ su* a blasphem\s h]etic 9 8 c>t4 ,j !n "o ( ! c>t :eels came (f & d[n w5t ! vehicle on "o side1 spill+ me & ! driv] on ! road4 ,i 0 quickly on my feet1 b he lay on 8 back sprawl+ 9 ! s&4 ,t's a judgm5t1 said he1 on y\r blasphemies4 ,y seem to h got ! wor/ "p ( ! judgm5t1 said ,i4 ,i ask$ him if ,i c\ld help him4 ,he seem$ to h9t t ,i ought to pay = ! damage done to ! c>t2 b z t 0 n 9 ! cov5ant1 ,i did n take ! h9t2 & z he 0 9 a some:at unamiable temp]1 ,i left him to himself1 & trudg$ on homew>d4 ,! c>t] & ,i _h no m discussions on cov5ants4 ,b _m a bit ( !ology has be5 built on ,milton s9ce !n4 ,o!r doctr9es ,i f\nd to be new v]sions ( old pagan imag9ations4 ,"s seem$ to h orig9at$ 9 ! selfi% & s5sual pr9ciples ( human nature1 :i* make m5 wi%ful to avoid self-d5ial & a life ( b5efic5ce1 & to f9d "s easy way to heav54 ,9 "s cases ,prote/ants _h run into extremes ?r\gh a hatr$ & horror ( ,pop]y1 :ile 9 o!rs or?odox tea*]s _h run into extremes ?r\gh hatr$ & dread ( ,soc9ianism4 ,9 o!r cases doctr9es seem$ to h be5 re/$ on no au?ority b ! facts1 or suppos$ facts1 ( individual exp]i5ces4 ,"s great doctr9es 7 r5d]$ incompreh5sible1 repulsive1 or incr$ible1 9 consequ5ce ( n be+ accompani$ ) o!r doctr9es1 :i* 7 necess>y to expla9 _! use1 & make manife/ _! reasonabl5ess & wor?4 ,!re 0 no lack ( att5tion among !ologians to ! doctr9e t ,*ri/ 0 an inc>nation ( ! ,deity2 b little or no reg>d 0 paid to ! k9dr$ doctr9e1 its necess>y accompanim5t1 t ,jesus 0 ! 'image1' ! 'lik5ess1' ( ,god1 ! revelation or manife/ation ( ,8 "*4 ,yet ?is is ess5tial to a "r und]/&+ & a due appreciation ( ! o!r4 ,! revelation or manife/ation ( ,god1 & especially ( ,8 et]nal & inf9ite love1 0 ! great design & end ( ! inc>nation4 ,tak5 ap>t f ?is doctr9e ! inc>nation becomes a dry h>d fact1 )\t use or mean+4 ,x is :5 view$ z a means ( reveal+ ,god1--( mak+ manife/ ,8 inf9ite goodness1 & by t means melt+ & purify+ man's he>t1 & trans=m+ 8 "*1 t x is se5 to be full ( int]e/ & p[] & glory4 ,! doctr9e t ,jesus is ,god's image1 ,god manife/ 9 ! fle%1 is ! "o great doctr9e ( ,*ri/ianity1--! sum1 ! sub/ance ( ! :ole ,gospel1--! ,gospel itself1--! p[] ( ,god to ! salvation ( e "o t truly believes & contemplates x4 ,x is a _w ( tru? 9 "o1--a :ole encyclopa$ia ( div9e philosophy2 ! p]fection ( all wisdom & ( all p[]2 ! "o great revelation ne$ful to ! salvation ( ! _w4 ,yet ,i nev] met ) ?is doctr9e = ! fir/ ?irty ye>s ( my life1 9 any !ological "w4 ,i h no recollection t ,i ev] he>d x m5tion$ 9 a s]mon4 ,i c]ta9ly nev] he>d x expla9$ & appli$ to ! great purposes = :i* x 0 design$4 ,i nev] 0 told t to "k ! "* ( ,god1 ,i _h only to look at ! "* ( ,*ri/1--t :at ,*ri/ 0 dur+ ,8 life on e>? 9 ! circle 9 :i* ,he mov$1 t ,god 0 ?r\gh\t all worlds1 & t[>ds all ! creatures ( ,8 h&s1--t ! love :i* l$ ,jesus to suff] & die = ! salvation ( ! _w1 liv$ & mov$ 9 ! he>t ( ! inf9ite1 invisible ,god1 prompt+ ,him to plan & labor ?r\gh\t imm5sity to promote ! happ9ess ( ! :ole creation4 ,9 %ort1 ! ,gospel 0 nev] prea*$ to me 9 its simplicity & beauty1 9 its glory & p[]1 nor 0 x ev] prop]ly expla9$ to me 9 cate*ism1 cre$1 confession1 or body ( div9ity4 ,& g5]ally1 no suffici5t /ress 0 ev] laid by !ologians on ! value & necessity ( p]sonal virtue1--( religi\s & moral goodness4 ,x 0 believ$ t ,*ri/ians w\ld h goodness ( "s k9d1 9 "s degree1--t !y w\ld be1 on ! :ole1 9 "s respects1 bett] ?an ! ungodly _w2 & !re 0 a feel+ t !y ought to be s3 b x 0 r>e to meet ) a prea*] or a book t put ! subject 9 any ?+ l a ,scriptural ,*ri/ian light4 ,no "o cont5d$ t goodness 0 ev]y?+1 t x 0 ! "o great all-glori\s object = :i* ! _w 0 made1 = :i* ! univ]se 0 upheld1 = :i* prophets spake1 = :i* ! ,scriptures 7 writt51 = :i* ,god became inc>nate1 = :i* ,jesus liv$ & labor$1 = :i* ,he suff]$ & di$1 = :i* ,he f\nd$ ,8 ,*ur* & appo9t$ & end[$ its m9i/]s1 = :i* ,provid5ce plann$1 & = :i* all ?+s cont9u$ to exi/4 ,no "o taught t goodness 0 ! only ?+ = :i* ,god c>$1 ! only ?+ :i* ,he e/eem$ & lov$1 & ! only ?+ ,he w\ld rew>d & bless4 ,books & prea*]s did n use to tell u1 t fai?1 & k1 & feel+1--t rep5tance1 conv]sion1 & sanctification1--t read+ ! ,scriptures1 & he>+ s]mons1 & s++ hymns1 & (f]+ pray]s1--t *ur* fell[%ip1 & religi\s ord9ances1 7 all no?+ except s f> z !y t5d$ to make p good1 & !n to make !m bett]1 & at la/ to p]fect !m 9 all div9e & human excell5ce4 ,no "o taught u t goodness 0 beauty1 t goodness 0 greatness1 t goodness 0 glory1 t goodness 0 happ9ess1 t goodness 0 heav54 ,! tru? 0 nev] press$ on u t ! want ( goodness 0 de=mity1 di%onor & %ame1--t x 0 pa91 & wret*$ness1 & torm5t1 & dea?1--t goodness 9 full measure w\ld make e>? heav5--t its decl9e & disappe>ance w\ld make e>? hell4 ,yet a c>eful & long-cont9u$ p]usal ( ! ,scriptures left ! impression on my m9d1 t ?is 0 really ! case4 ,:5 ,i comp>$ ! et]nal talk ab\t all our goodness be+ ( no acc\nt 9 ! sight ( ,god1--( all our righte\sness be+ b z fil?y rags1--) ! tea*+s ( ,scripture1 ,i felt z if !ologians 7 anti-*ri/1 & _! !ology ! gospel ( ! wick$ "o4 ,i h no wi% to d inju/ice to !ology1 or to !ologians ei!r2 b ! m ,i knew ( !m1 ! less ,i ?\ght ( !m4 ,& ev5 :5 ! ,*ri/ian & !ologian got bl5d$1 z !y did1 to "s ext5t1 9 su* m5 z ,baxt] & ,wesley1 ,i piti$ ! !ologian :ile ,i e/eem$ & lov$ ! ,*ri/ian4 ,!ological works are poor contemptible ?+s4 ,x w\ld h be5 no great loss to ! _w if n9ete5-tw5tie?s ( !m _h be5 burnt 9 ! ,*icago fire4 ,i 0 (t5 griev\sly h>ass$ ) prevail+ !ories ( ,scripture inspiration4 ,all ^? !ories seem$ inconsi/5t ) facts1--inconsi/5t ) :at e man ( any in=mation1 knew to be true 9 ref]5ce to ! ,scriptures4 ,!y all lay op5 to infidel objections1--unansw]able objections4 ,!y made x impossible = a man to argue ) ! abl] & bett] in=m$ class ( infidel assailants ) ! success & satisfaction desirable4 ,! !ories did n admit ( a successful def5ce4 ,& :5 ! !ories 7 refut$1 ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity suff]$4 ,on se>*+ ! ,scriptures ,i f\nd !y gave no c\nt5ance to ^? !ories4 ,!y taught ! doctr9e ( ,scripture inspiration1 b n ! prevail+ !ories ( ! doctr9e4 ,! doctr9e ,i c\ld def5d ) ease3 ! def5ce ( ! !ories 0 impossible4 ,i accord+ly laid aside ! !ories4 ,aga92 ,i he>d & read cont9ually ab\t ! influ5ce & "w ( ! ,holy ,_s2 b ,i seldom he>d & read ( ! influ5ce ( ! tru?4 ,yet 9 ,scripture we read z mu* & z (t5 ( ! latt] z ( ! =m]4 ,i _h be5 l$1 9 "s way1 to believe t ,adam 0 ! f$]al head ( all mank9d1--t ,god made a cov5ant ) him t 0 b9d+ on all 8 po/]ity1--t ! de/9ies ( ! :ole human race 7 plac$ 9 8 h&s1--t x 0 s arrang$ t if ,adam did "r1 8 po/]ity 7 to be born 9 a /ate ( p]fection & bless$ness1 incapable ( s9 & mis]y1--t if he did wrong !y 7 to be born deprav$ & mis]able1 "u ! curse ( ,god1 & liable to dea? & damnation--t z ,adam did d wrong1 we all came into ! _w s deprav$ t we 7 incapable ( ?9k+ a good ?\ght1 ( feel+ a good desire1 ( speak+ a "r ^w1 or ( do+ a "r ?+1--t ,jesus came into ! _w to r$eem u f ! guilt ( ,adam's s91 & f ! puni%m5t due to u = t s91 & to put u on su* a foot+ ) reg>d to ,god z to r5d] possible our salvation4 ,i _h be5 l$ to believe a hundr$ o!r ?+s connect$ ) ^! ab\t ! plan ( r$emption1 ! way ( salvation1 imput$ righte\sness1 sav+ fai?1 c4 ,:5 ,i came to look = ^? doctr9es 9 ! ,bible1 ,i c\ld n f9d "o ( !m f ! beg9n+ ( ! ,book to ! end4 ,i 0 9 consequ5ce l$ to reg>d !m z ! imag9ations ( un?9k+1 trifl+1 or dreamy !ologians4 ,!re are few doctr9es m g5]ally receiv$ ?an ! doctr9e ( types1--! doctr9e t p]sons & ?+s "u ! old] disp5sations 7 int5d$ to direct ! m9ds ( ^? :o saw !m to ?+s correspond+ to !m "u ! ,*ri/ian disp5sation4 ,9 ,mc,ewen's "w on ,types1 :i* appe>s to h _h an imm5se circulation1 is ?is s5t5ce1--',t ! gr& doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity conc]n+ ! m$iation ( ,*ri/1 c41 7 typically manife/$ to ! *ur* by a v>iety ( c]emonies1 p]sons & ev5ts1 "u ! ,old ,te/am5t disp5sation1 is pa/ d\bt4' ,& x is v pla9ly intimat$1 t ^? :o affect to call ?is notion 9 "q1 & yet pret5d to be fri5ds ( a div9e revelation1 are hypocrites4 ,x is add$3 ',! sacrifices 7 orda9$ to pre-figure ,*ri/1--& 7 pr(essions ( fai? 9 ,8 propitiation4' ,!re are b few prea*]s or religi\s books :i* d n g on ! supposition t ?is doctr9e is taught 9 ,scripture4 ,& y may he> s]mon aft] s]mon f "s prea*]s1 ! *ief object ( :i* is to po9t out correspond5ces betwe5 ! pas*al lamb1 ! scape-goat1 & o!r sacrifices "u ! ,law1 & ,jesus & ! sacrifice :i* ,he (f]$4 ,"s prea*]s & religi\s writ]s take almo/ all ?+s "u ! law to be types ( ,*ri/1 or types ( ?+s p]ta9+ to ,him4 ,!y make ,noah1 & ,isaac1 & ,mel*is$ec1 & ,joseph1 & ,moses1 & ,jo%ua1 & ,david1 & ,samson1 & ,solomon1 & ! braz5 s]p5t1 & ! rod ( ,a>on1 & ! manna1 types ( ,*ri/1 & almo/ all ! sacrifices !y make types ( ,8 great sacrifice ( ,himself4 ,i c\ld see no w>rant = ?is doctr9e4 ,i c\ld f9d no pro( t any ( ! sacrifices "u ! law 7 int5d$ to direct ! m9ds ( ^? :o (f]$ !m to ! sacrifice ( ,jesus4 ,!re is no?+ 9 ! law1 & !re is no?+ 9 ! prophets to t effect4 ,!re is no passage ( ,scripture :i* says t any "o ev] did look ?r\gh ! old ,levitical sacrifices to ,*ri/4 ,!re is no passage :i* says x 0 m5's duty to d s2 none :i* comm5ds any "o = do+ s1 or :i* blames any "o = n do+ s4 ,! prophets (t5 rebuke ! ,israelites = _! inju/ice1 intemp]ance1 deceit & cruelty1 b !y nev] rebuke !m = n look+ ?r\gh _! sacrifices to ! sacrifice ( ,jesus4 ,!y (t5 exhort p to 'cease to d evil & le>n to d well2' b !y nev] urge !m to reg>d _! sacrifices z types or manife/ations ( ! sacrifice ( ,*ri/4 ,*ri/ n[h]e tea*es ! ord9>y doctr9e ( types4 ,he nev] ref]s to any?+ z a type ( ,8 sacrifice1 or ( any?+ else connect$ ) ,8 "w4 ,nor d ! ,apo/les say any?+ to c\nt5ance ! prevail+ notion4 ,= any?+ ! ,scriptures say to ! contr>y1 ! :ole doctr9e ( types1 z set =? 9 su* books z t ( ,mc,ewen1 is a human fiction4 ,inde$1 ,i see no h9t 9 ,scripture t any "o _h ! lea/ idea t ! ,messiah w\ld (f] ,himself a sacrifice = s9 till aft] ! sacrifice _h tak5 place4 ,isaiah & ,daniel spake on ! subject1 & ',!y inquir$ & se>*$ dilig5tly1' says ,pet]1 ':at1 or :at mann] ( "t ! _s ( ,*ri/ :i* 0 9 !m did signify1 :5 x te/ifi$ be=eh& ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/ & ! glory t %\ld foll[2 unto :om x 0 reveal$1 t n unto !mselves1 b unto u !y did m9i/] ! ?+s1 :i* are n[ report$ unto y by !m t h prea*$ ! gospel unto y ) ! ,holy ,gho/ s5t d[n f ,heav54' ,& we "k t ,*ri/'s own disciples did n believe t ,*ri/ w\ld die at all4 ,s f> 7 !y f hav+ any ?\ght ( su* a ?+1 t :5 ,jesus told !m1 9 ! pla9e/ words imag9able1 !y did n und]/& ,him4 ,! fact _h to reveal itself4 ,& ev5 n[ ! nature & end ( ,*ri/'s sacrifice are b v imp]fectly und]/ood4 ,& if ! doctr9e ( types falls to ! gr\nd1 "s o!r doctr9es1 :i* re/ ^u x1 mu/ g d[n4 ,c]ta9 notions ab\t ! fai? ( ! anci5t sa9ts mu/ give way1 & ! views ( sav+ fai? pres5t$ 9 ! elev5? *apt] ( ! ,epi/le to ! ,hebrews mu/ take _! place4 ,great numb]s ( religi\s tea*]s & writ]s attribute to ,adam & ,eve1 9 _! fir/ /ate1 an am\nt ( k1 & a p]fection ( righte\sness1 :i* ! ,scriptures n[h]e ascribe to !m1 & :i*1 if !y _h possess$ !m1 w\ld h r5d]$ x impossible1 "o w\ld ?9k1 t !y %\ld h yield$ s readily to temptation4 ,!y repres5t ! fir/ s9 z hav+ effects :i* are nev] attribut$ to x 9 ! ,bible4 ,!y give an unw>rantable mean+ to ! ^w dea? conta9$ 9 ! fir/ ?reat5+4 ,!y attribute to man's fir/ s9 inconv5i5ces ( ! seasons1 & ( ! diff]5t climates ( ! globe1 z well z a ?\s& ?+s on ! e>?'s surface1 & 9 ! dispositions & habits ( ! l[] animals1 :i* are n attribut$ to t cause by ! sacr$ writ]s4 ,!y sp5d a va/ am\nt ( "t & words 9 try+ to prove t ! reason :y ,abel's sacrifice 0 m excell5t ?an t ( ,ca91 & 0 accept$ by ,god1 0 t ,abel (f]$ animals1 & _h an eye to ! sacrifice ( ,*ri/1 :ile ,ca9 (f]$ only ! fruits ( ! gr\nd1 t did n typify or symbolize t sacrifice2 a notion = :i* !re is no au?ority 9 ,scripture4 ,! /ory 9 ,g5esis seems to intimate t ! sacrifice ( ,ca9 0 reject$ because he 0 a bad-liv+ man1 & t ! sacrifice ( ,abel 0 accept$ because he 0 a good-liv+ man4 ,h5ce ! words ( ,god 9 ,8 address to ,ca91 ',:y art ?\ wro?8 ,& :y is ?y c\nt5ance fall58 ,if ?\ doe/ well %alt ?\ n be accept$8 & if ?\ doe/ n well1 s9 lie? at ! door4' ,& h5ce too ! /atem5t ( ,john1 t ,ca9 slew 8 bro!r because 8 own works 7 evil & 8 bro!r's righte\s4 ,& ! fai? attribut$ to ,abel1 z well z to ,eno*1 ,moses & o!rs1 9 ! ,epi/le to ! ,hebrews1 is n fai? 9 ! sacrifice ( ,*ri/1 b simply a belief 9 ,god2 a belief t ',he is1 & t ,he is a rew>d] ( !m t dilig5tly seek ,him1 or lov+ly s]ve ,him4' ,!re 7 _m def9itions & descriptions ( sav+ fai? common 9 religi\s books = :i* ,i c\ld f9d no au?ority 9 ,scripture4 ,i also met ) a multitude ( cold h>d ?+s ab\t ! ,tr9ity & ! ,atonem5t 9 works on ,!ology :i* ,i nev] 0 unhappy en\gh to f9d 9 ! ,bible4 ,all seem$ pleasant & natural & ( heav5ly t5d5cy !re4 ,i read books :i* seem$ to require me to believe 9 ?ree ,gods2 b ,i met ) no?+ ( ! k9d 9 ,scripture4 ,i he>d pray]s & =ms ( b5$iction word$ 9 a way altoge!r diff]5t f ! pray]s & b5$ictions f\nd 9 ! ,bible4 ,! ,scriptures all[$ me to ?9k ( ,god1 9 ! fir/ place1 z "o1 z ,i myself 0 "o4 ,!y did n tell me ,he 0 ?ree 9 ! same way z ,i 0 ?ree2 b !y left ! doctr9e ( ! ,tr9ity 9 su* a /ate or %ape t ,i f\nd no m difficulty 9 receiv+ x1 ?an ,i f\nd 9 receiv+ ! fact ( a ,tr9ity 9 myself4 ,i left accord+ly ! h>d repulsive repres5tations ( ! !ologians to _! fate1 & accept$ & cont5t$ myself ) ! liv+1 rational & practical repres5tations ( ,scripture 9 _! /ead4 ,! "w ( ,*ri/ 0 g5]ally repres5t$ by !ologians z ex]t+ its influ5ce directly on ,god4 ,8 dea? 0 g5]ally spok5 ( z a satisfaction to div9e ju/ice1 or z an exp$i5t = h>moniz+ ! div9e attributes1 or ma9ta9+ ! pr9ciples ( ! div9e gov]nm5t4 ,god 0 repres5t$ z be+ plac$ 9 a difficulty1--z be+ unable to gratify ,8 love 9 =giv+ m5 on _! rep5t+ & turn+ to ,him1 )\t violat+ ,8 ju/ice & ,8 tru?1 & putt+ 9 p]il ! pr9ciples ( ,8 gov]nm5t4 ,!re 7 sev]al o!r !ological !ories ( ! design or object ( ! dea? ( ,*ri/4 ,all ^! !ories may be true 9 a c]ta9 s5se4 ,!y may1 p]haps1 be s expla9$ z to make !m h>monize ) ! tea*+s ( ,scripture4 ,b ,i f\nd none ( !m 9 ! ,bible4 ,i f\nd multitudes ( passages :i* repres5t$ ! dea? & suff]+s ( ,*ri/ z int5d$ to influ5ce m51 b n "o t taught any ( ! !ological !ories1--h>dly "o t ev5 seem$ to d s4 ,"h aga9 ,i took ! ,scripture repres5tations1 & all[$ ! !ological ones to slide4 ,!re 0 a hymn :i* said ( ,*ri/1 ',our debt ,he has paid1 & our "w ,he has done4' ,i c\ld f9d no?+ 9 ,scripture ab\t ! ,savi\r pay+ our debt1 or do+ our "w4 ,i c\ld f9d passages :i* taught t our debts or s9s might be =giv51 on our return to ,god4 ,s f> 7 ! ,scriptures f tea*+ t ,*ri/ _h done our "w1 t !y repres5t$ ,him z com+ into ! _w to fit u to d x ourselves1--z r$eem+ u & creat+ u anew t we might be zeal\s ( good works4 ,i c\ld f9d no?+ 9 ,scripture to c\nt5ance ! common notion ab\t ! efficacy ( ! dea?-b$ rep5tances ( old1 wilful1 h>d5$ s9n]s4 ,! ,bible left on my m9d ! impression t ':atsoev] a man s[e?1 t %all he also reap4' ,"s prea*]s & writ]s spoke z if ,god ! ,fa!r 0 /]n]1 less t5d] & lov+1 ?an ! ,son4 ,b z we h se51 ! ,bible taught t ,jesus 0 ,god's image1 ,8 lik5ess1 ! inc>nation & revelation ( ,god1--,god manife/ 9 ! fle%4 ,i read 9 books1 & he>d x said 9 s]mons1 t ,god did n answ] m5's pray]s1 or grant !m any bless+1 or receive !m at la/ to heav51 on acc\nt ( any?+ good 9 !mselves1 or ( any?+ good !y did4 ,yet on look+ ?r\gh ! ,scriptures ,i f\nd su* passages z ^!3 ',belov$1 if our he>t condemn u n1 !n h we confid5ce t[>d ,god4 ,& :atsoev] we ask1 we receive ( ,him1 because we keep ,8 comm&m5ts1 & d ^? ?+s t are pleas+ 9 ,8 sight4' ,9 ! p>able ( ! tal5ts ,i f\nd ,god repres5t$ z say+1 ',well done1 ?\ good & fai?ful s]vant1 because ?\ ha/ be5 fai?ful 9 a v little1 h ?\ au?ority ov] t5 cities4' ,& 9 ! ,prophet ,i read1 ',aga91 :5 ! wick$ man turne? away f 8 wick$ness t he ha? committ$1 & doe? t :i* is lawful & "r1 he %all save 8 s\l alive4 ,because he consid]e? & turne? away f all 8 transgressions t he ha? committ$1 he %all surely live1 he %all n die4' ,i f\nd ! :ole ,bible go+ on ! same pr9ciple4 ,god loves :at is good = its own sake4 ,x w\ld be /range if ,he did n4 ,& h[ any "o c ?9k ,he is honor+ ,god by tea*+ ! contr>y we _c und]/&4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,john ,,wesley ,,& ,,8 ,,views ,,on ,,c]ta9 ,,po9ts4 ,h[ easy x is = m5 to mix up _! own fancies1 or ! va9 conceits ( o!rs1 ) div9e tru?1--or r1 h[ h>d x is to avoid do+ s1--we may see by ! case ( ,john ,wesley4 ,wesley 0 "o ( ! mo/ dev\t1 & consci5ti\s1 &1 on ! :ole1 "o ( ! mo/ rational1 ,scriptural1 practical & common-s5se m5 ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur* ev] _h4 ,comp>$ ) !ologians g5]ally1 he 0 wor?y ( ! highe/ praise4 ,he _h ! greate/ rev]5ce = ! ,scriptures4 ,he e>ly 9 life decl>$ x to be 8 det]m9ation to be a man ( "o ,book1 & t "o book ! ,,bible2 & he act$ 9 accordance ) ?is det]m9ation to ! be/ ( 8 k & ability4 ,! ,bible 0 8 sole au?ority4 ,its te/imony decid$ all que/ions1 settl$ all controv]sies4 ,yet su* 0 ! influ5ce ( prevail+ cu/om 9 ! !ological _w1 op]at+ on 8 m9d unconsci\sly f 8 e>lie/ days1 t he un9t5tionally act$ inconsi/5tly ) ?is good resolution 9 cases )\t numb]4 ,%akespe>e makes "o ( 8 *>act]s say1 ,if to d1 7 z easy z to "k :at is fitte/ to be done1 begg>s w\ld ride on horses1 & poor m5's cottages w\ld be pr9ces' palaces4 ,i c\ld m easily tell tw5ty m5 :at x 0 be/ to d1 ?an be "o ( ! tw5ty to c>ry out my own in/ructions4 ,& we ne$ no bett] pro( or illu/ration ( ! tru? ( ?is wise say+1 ?an ! case ( ! good & great ,john ,wesley4 ,we h se5 :at 8 resolution 04 ,look n[ at "o or two ( 8 s]mons4 ,take fir/ ! s]mon on ,god's ,approbation ( ,8 ,works4 ,9 t disc\rse1 ref]r+ to ! primeval e>?1 he speaks z foll[s3 ,! :ole surface ( x 0 beautiful 9 a high degree4 ,! univ]sal face 0 clo!d ) liv+ gre54 ,& e "p 0 f]tile z well z beautiful4 ,x 0 no :]e de=m$ by r\gh or ragg$ rocks3 x did n %ock ! view ) horrid precipices1 huge *asms1 or dre>y cav]ns3 ) deep1 impassable morasses1 or des]ts ( b>r5 s&s4 ,we h n any au?ority to say1 ) "s le>n$ & +5i\s au?ors1 t !re 7 no m\nta9s on ! orig9al e>?1 no unev5nesses on its surface1 yet x is highly probable t !y rose & fell1 by almo/ ins5sible degrees4 ,!re 7 no agitations )9 ! b[els ( ! globe3 no viol5t convulsions3 no concussions ( ! e>?3 no e>?quakes3 b all 0 unmov$ z ! pill>s ( heav54 ,!re 7 !n no su* ?+s z eruptions ( fire3 !re 7 no volcanoes1 or burn+ m\nta9s4 ,nei!r ,vesuvius1 ,etna1 nor ,hecla1 if !y _h any be+1 !n p\r$ out smoke & flame1 b 7 cov]$ ) a v]dant mantle1 f ! top to ! bottom4 ,x is probable !re 0 no ext]nal sea 9 ! p>adisiacal e>?3 none1 until ! great deep bur/ ! b>ri]s :i* 7 orig9ally appo9t$ = x2 inde$ !re 0 n !n t ne$ ( ! ocean = navigation :i* !re is n[4 ,= ei!r e c\ntry produc$ :atev] 0 requisite ei!r = ! necessity or com=t ( its inhabitants2 or man be+ !n 7z he w be aga9 at ! resurrection7 equal to ! angels1 0 able to convey himself1 at 8 pleasure1 to any giv5 di/ance4 ,!re 7 no putrid lakes1 no turbid or /agnat+ wat]s4 ,! elem5t ( air 0 !n always s]5e1 & always fri5dly to man4 ,x conta9$ no frightful meteors1 no un:olesome vapors1 no poison\s exhalations4 ,!re 7 no tempe/s1 b only cool & g5tle breezes1 fann+ bo? man & bea/1 & waft+ ! fragrant odors on _! sil5t w+s4 ,! sun1 ! f\nta9 ( fire1 ',( ?is great _w bo? eye & s\l1' 0 situat$ at ! mo/ exact di/ance f ! e>?1 s z to yield a suffici5t quantity ( heat1 7nei!r too little nor too mu*7 to e "p ( x4 ,god _h n yet ',bid 8 angels turn askance ?is oblique globe4' ,!re 01 !re=e1 !n no c\ntry t groan$ "u ',! rage ( ,arctos1 & et]nal fro/4' ,!re 0 no viol5t w9t]1 or sultry summ]2 no extreme ei!r ( heat or cold4 ,no soil 0 burn$ up by ! sol> heat3 none un9habitable ?r\gh ! want ( x4 ,!re 7 !n no impetu\s curr5ts ( air1 no tempe/u\s w9ds1 no furi\s hail1 no torr5ts ( ra91 no roll+ ?und]s or =ky lightn+s4 ,"o p]5nial spr+ 0 p]petually smil+ ov] ! :ole surface ( ! e>?4 ,speak+ ( vegetable productions1 he says1 ,!re 7 no we$s1 no plants t encumb]$ ! gr\nd4 ,mu* less 7 !re any poison\s ones1 t5d+ to hurt any "o creature4 ,ref]r+ to ! liv+ creatures ( ! sea1 he says1 ,none ( ^! !n attempt$ to dev\r1 or 9 any wise hurt "o ano!r4 ,all 7 peaceful & quiet1 z 7 ! wat]y fields :]e9 !y rang$ at pleasure4 ,ref]r+ to insects1 he adds1 ,! spid] 0 !n z h>mless z ! fly1 & did n !n lie 9 wait = blood4 ,! weake/ ( !m crept securely ov] ! e>?1 or spread _! gild$ w+s 9 ! air1 t wav]$ 9 ! breeze & glitt]$ 9 ! sun1 )\t any to make !m afraid4 ,meantime1 ! reptiles ( e k9d 7 equally h>mless1 & m intellig5t ?an !y4 ,ref]r+ to birds & bea/s1 he says1 ,among all ^! !re 7 no birds or bea/s ( prey3 none t de/roy$ or mole/$ ano!r4 ,all ?is may be v beautiful poetry1 su* z "o might expect f ! f9e fr5zy ( a lov+1 lawless g5ius1 b x is n ,scripture1 nor is x sci5ce or philosophy4 ,we h n a d\bt b t ,god made all ?+s "r1--t all ,8 works 7 v good2 ! ,scriptures tell u t v pla9ly3 b !y d n tell u t ! ?+s nam$ by ,wesley con/itut$ _! goodness4 ,he ?9ks t ! e>? c\ld n be good if x _h on its surface r\gh or rugg$ rocks1 horrid precipices1 huge *asms1 or dre>y cav]ns1 ) impassable morasses1 or des]ts ( b>r5 s&s4 ,we ?9k o!rwise4 ,we ?9k ! e>? is all ! bett]1 & ev5 all ! m beautiful = r\gh & rugg$ rocks1 = horrid precipices1 huge *asms1 & dre>y cav]ns4 ,s f> f reg>d+ ! r\gh & rugg$ rocks z de=mities1 we look on !m z ornam5ts4 ,s f> f appe>+ to u z an evil1 !y appe> a good4 ,ev5 ! impassable morasses1 & ! des]ts ( b>r5 s&s may h _! use4 ,if man _h met ) no?+ 9 ! /ate ( ! e>? t /ood 9 ! way ( 8 w or pleasure2 if he _h met ) no?+ 9 ! %ape ( difficulty or inconv5i5ce1 x w\ld h be5 a t]rible calamity4 ,all man's p[]s are develop$ & p]fect$ by ex]tion2 & )\t ex]tion1--)\t vigor\s ex]tion--he w\ld n1 z at pres5t con/itut$1 be capable ( enjoy+ life4 ,man _c be happy )\t "w4 ,we !re=e believe t x 0 wise & k9d 9 ,god1 indep5d5t ( ,adam's s91 to make impassable morasses1 & b>r5 des]ts1 c41 to ex]cise man's p[]s ( m9d & body 9 dra9+ ! morasses1 & f]tiliz+ ! des]ts4 ,we believe t ! e>? 0 v good2 b we believe t ! r\gh & rugg$ rocks1 ! horrid precipices1 huge *asms1 dre>y cav]ns1 ) ! deep impassable morasses1 & ! des]ts ( b>r5 s&s1 7 p>ts ( ! e>?'s goodness1--7 manife/ations bo? ( ! wisdom & goodness ( ,god4 ,wesley ?9ks !re 7 m\nta9s on ! e>? be=e s9 0 committ$1 b t _! sides 7 n abrupt or difficult ( asc5t2 t !y rose & fell by almo/ ins5sible degrees4 ,?is passage also goes on ! false supposition1 t :atev] ?+s w\ld be likely to r5d] great ex]tion necess>y on ! "p ( man1 w\ld be an evil2 :]eas su* ?+s are among man's greate/ bless+s4 ,wesley f>!r tells u1 t !re 7 no agitations )9 ! b[els ( ! e>?1 no viol5t convulsions1 no concussions ( ! e>?1 no e>?quakes1 no eruptions ( fire1 no volcanoes1 or burn+ m\nta9s4 ,!re is pro( h[ev]1 t !re 7 all ^! ?+s1 n only be=e s9 0 committ$1 b be=e man himself 0 creat$4 ,nor d we reg>d e>?quakes & volcanoes z evils4 ,!y are calculat$ ev5 at ! pres5t to answ] good ends4 ,!y t5d to make m5 feel _! absolute dep5d5ce ^u ,god1 & ?us lead !m to obey ,8 law4 ,!y are s9k+ revelations ( ,god's p[]1 & p]petual lessons ( piety4 ,& !y h o!r uses4 ,he says1 ,if ,vesuvius1 ,etna1 or ,hecla1 exi/$ be=e s9 0 committ$1 !y 7 cov]$ ) a v]dant mantle f ! top to ! bottom4 ,b is a m\nta9 ei!r bett] or m beautiful = be+ cov]$ ) a v]dant mantle f ! top to ! bottom8 ,is x ei!r bett] or m beautiful = hav+ no abrupt sides1 difficult ( asc5t1--= ris+ & fall+ by almo/ ins5sible degrees8 ,we ?9k ! contr>y4 ,! v>iety ( sc5]y pres5t$ by m\nta9s 9 _! pres5t /ate1 is mo/ beautiful4 ,! abruptness ( ! sides ( m\nta9s contributes inf9itely bo? to ! beauty ( ! m\nta91 & to ! beauty ( ! e>? 9 g5]al2 & ! toil ( climb+ up ! /eep asc5t ( a m\nta9 is "o ( ! bless+s & pleasures ( life4 ,we %\ld be sorry if !re 7 no hills s /eep z to be difficult ( asc5t4 ,we %\ld be sorry if ! e>? _h no m\nta9s ) abrupt sides1 & black1 & br[n1 & rugg$ faces4 ,we %\ld be v sorry if ! face ( ! e>? 7 cov]$ ) "o unv>i$ mantle ( gre54 ,gre5 is v pleasant1 & x is well t ! great] "p ( ! e>? is cov]$ ) gre52 b v>iety also is pleasant2 & gre5 itself w\ld cease to be pleasant if !re 7 no?+ else b gre54 ,wesley adds1 t !re 0 probably no sea on ! surface ( ! e>? 9 its p>adisiacal /ate1 none until ! great deep bur/ ! b>ri]s :i* 7 orig9ally appo9t$ = x2 & he adds1 t !re 0 n !n t ne$ ( ! ocean = navigation :i* !re is n[1 z e place yield$ all t 0 necess>y to man's welf>e & pleasure4 ,we answ]4 ,! idea t ! ocean 0 giv5 to facilitate communication betwe5 diff]5t nations1 makes u smile4 ,suppose !re _h be5 no ocean1 %\ld we h _h a long way to g to get into ! next c\ntry1 ! c\ntry ne>e/ to u8 ,j ! contr>y4 ,if !re _h be5 no ocean1 !re w\ld h be5 l& 9 its place1 & we %\ld nei!r h _h to cross wat] nor l& to get to x4 ,x w\ld h come up close to our own c\ntry4 ,we h all ! same travell+ 9 ord] to h communication ) ! inhabitants ( o!r c\ntries :5 we h cross$ ! ocean1 t we %\ld h _h1 to obta9 communication ) neighbor+ c\ntries1 if !re _h be5 no ocean at all4 ,! ocean 0 int5d$ = o!r purposes4 ,! use ( ! ocean1 "o ( its pr9cipal uses at lea/1 is to temp] ! climates & seasons ( ! e>?4 ,if ! e>? 7 "o unbrok5 cont95t1 ! summ]s w\ld be intol]ably hot1 & ! w9t]s w\ld be intol]ably cold1 & ! *anges f w9t] to summ] w\ld be s viol5t1 & "w su* fe>ful havoc1 z to r5d] ! e>? un9habitable4 ,by means ( ! ocean1 ^? intol]able inconv5i5ces are avoid$4 ,! sea1 :i* is nev] s cold 9 w9t] z ! l&1 temp]s ! air z x bl[s ov] x1 & ?us mod]ates ! cold ( ! l&4 ,! sea also1 :i* is nev] s w>m 9 summ] z ! l&1 temp]s ! air aga91 & brea!s coolness & fre%ness ov] ! heat$ l&4 ,nei!r heat nor cold affects ! sea s sudd5ly or s viol5tly z x affects ! l&4 ,a few days ( summ] heat are suffici5t to make ! solid e>? q hot1--s hot1 9 _m cases1 t y _c be> y\r nak$ h& ^u x long4 ,yet ?is same am\nt ( summ] heat w make sc>cely any p]ceptible diff]5ce 9 ! wat]s ( ! ocean4 ,!n aga91 9 w9t]1 a few days sev]e fro/ w make ! solid e>?1 & especially ! /ones & metals1 s cold1 t !y w\ld bli/] a delicate sk91 if press$ aga9/ !m2 :ile !y make sc>cely any p]ceptible diff]5ce ^u ! wat]s ( ! ocean4 ,! ocean sits on its l[ ?rone l ! mon>* ( ?is l[] _w1 controll+ ! elem5ts1 temp]+ ! heat & ! cold1 & ?us pres]v+ ! e>? & its liv+ inhabitants f h>m4 ,wesley tells u f>!r1 t be=e ! s9 ( ,adam1 ,! air 0 always s]5e & always fri5dly to man4 ,n[ ! air is /ill always fri5dly to man4 ,ev5 :5 x comes 9 ! =m ( hurricanes & tempe/s1 x is s4 ,x is do+ "w1 ev5 !n1 good "w1 :i* g5tle breezes are unable to d4 ,x is c>ry+ away dang]s :i* g5tl] curr5ts ( air w\ld n h ! p[] to c>ry away4 ,& ev5 :5 !y cause de/ruction 9 _! c\rse1 !y are /ill p]=m+ fri5dly (fices to man4 ,!y are inspir+ him ) a liveli] consci\sness ( 8 absolute dep5d5ce ^u ,god1 & ( ! folly ( resi/+ ,8 w4 ,!y are ex]cis+ 8 intellectual p[]s1 by lead+ him to devise means = 8 protection f _! fury1 & oblig+ him also to ex]t 8 bodily p[]s 9 c>ry+ out ! devices ( 8 intellect4 ,!y are1 9 fact1 contribut+ to make him a wis]1 a /rong]1 a bett]1 a happi]1 & 9 all respects1 a complet]1 & a div9] be+ ?an he o!rwise w\ld be4 ,we agree !re=e ) ,wesley t ! air be=e ,adam s9n$ 0 always fri5dly to man2 b we d n agree ) him 9 8 notions z to :at con/itut$ its fri5dl9ess2 nor d we agree ) him 9 ! notion1 t s9ce ! s9 ( ,adam ! air has ceas$ to be fri5dly1 or ev5 prov$ to be less fri5dly1 to man4 ,we believe t ! air is z fri5dly to man n[ z x ev] 01--t x does him z little mis*ief1 t x contributes z mu* to 8 well-be+ & com=t1 z x ev] did4 ,wesley fur!r says1 ! sun 0 situat$ at ! mo/ exact di/ance f ! e>?1 s z to yield a suffici5t quantity ( heat1 nei!r too little nor too mu*1 to e "p ( x4 ,ho fur!r intimates t !re 0 at fir/ no incl9ation ( ! e>?'s axis1 & t ! seasons & ! degree ( heat & cold 71 9 consequ5ce1 ! same all ! _w ov]1 & all ! ye> r\nd4 ,all ^! /atem5ts seem errone\s 9 ! extreme4 ,! supply ( heat to ! diff]5t p>ts ( ! e>? does n dep5d altoge!r on ! di/ance ( ! sun f ! e>?1 z ,wesley intimates1 b on ! motions ( ! e>? ar\nd ! sun & ^u its own axis4 ,wesley seems to imag9e t if ! axis ( ! e>? 7 n incl9$1 or elevat$ at "o end1 ! e>? w\ld receive f ! sun ! same quantity ( heat ?r\gh e "p2 :]eas no?+ c\ld be f>!r f ! tru?4 ,if1 z ,wesley expresses x1 ,?is oblique globe _h n be5 turn$ askance1 "s p>ts ( ! e>? w\ld h receiv$ f ! sun sc>cely any heat at all2 !y w\ld h receiv$ nei!r light nor heat1 except 9 su* slight measures z to be altoge!r useless4 ,! arctic regions & ! ant>ctic regions mu/ h be5 alike un9habitable4 ,t turn+ ( ! oblique globe askance1 :i* ,wesley repres5ts z ! cause ( extreme heat & cold1 0 ! v ?+ to prev5t ^? extremes1 or to r$uce !m to ! l[e/ possible po9t1 & to secure to e "p ( ! globe1 z f> z possible1 an equal am\nt ( light & w>m?4 ,i say z f> z possible2 = to secure to e "p ( ! e>? exactly ! same am\nt ( light & heat f "o sun1 is impossible4 ,place a little globe 9 :at position y w ) respect to a neighbor+ c&le1 & fix ! axis ( t globe z y please1 & move t globe2 give ! globe a motion ^u its own axis1 & ano!r motion r\nd ! light ne> :i* x is plac$1 & y w f9d x impossible to secure to e "p ( t globe exactly ! same am\nt ( light & heat4 ,by incl9+ ! axis ( ! globe1 or z ,wesley expresses x1 turn+ x askance1 z ! axis ( ! e>? is incl9$ or turn$ askance1 y may secure ! greate/ possible equality ( light & heat to e "p2 b /ill t greate/ possible equality w be a consid]able inequality4 ,s f>1 !re=e1 f ! pol> regions be+ made cold] or d>k] by ! globe be+ turn$ askance1 !y are indebt$ to t v obliqu5ess ( ! e>?'s axis1 & t app>5t irregul>ity ( its motions1 = ! *ief portion ( t light & heat :i* !y receive4 ,h[ ,wesley came to speak s errone\sly on ?is subject1 ,i am at a loss to "k1 z he mu/1 "o w\ld ?9k1 h und]/ood ! fir/ elem5ts ( geography & a/ronomy4 ,yet 8 words are at v>iance ) ! fir/ elem5ts ( ^? popul> sci5ces4 ,b x w\ld take up too mu* room to notice all ! unau?oriz$ /atem5ts ( ,mr4 ,wesley on ?is subject4 ,we h said en\gh to %[ h[ ! mo/ consci5ti\s & be/-int5tion$ man may err on !ological subjects1 & :at ne$ "y ,*ri/ians h to be some:at critical & c>eful 9 adopt+ & te/+ _! religi\s op9ions4 ,!re are o!r s]mons ( ,wesley :i* are z mu* at v>iance ) ,scripture z ! "o we h _h "u notice4 ,i h n 8 s]mons at h& j n[1 b if ,i rememb] "r1 8 rem>ks on ! righte\sness ( ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees1 9 8 s]mon on t subject1 are q at v>iance ) ! /atem5ts ( ,*ri/4 ,& ,wesley 0 "o ( ! be/1 "o ( ! mo/ hone/ & consci5ti\s1 "o ( ! mo/ s+le-m9d$ m5 on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,no man1 ,i imag9e1 0 ev] m anxi\s to be "r1--no "o 0 ev] m desir\s to "k & tea* ,god's tru? 9 all its purity1 & 9 ev]y?+ to d ,god's w & bless mank9d4 ,& he knew & *ose ! "r /&>d ( tru? & goodness1 & hone/ly endeavor$ to con=m to x bo? 9 ?\ght & de$ & ^w4 ,yet he c\ld err 9 ?is /range & :olesale way4 ,:at !n may we expect f o!r !ological writ]s8 ,_m ( ! !ologians ^: writ+s influ5ce ! ,*ur* 7 n v good m52 !y 7 selfi%1 ambiti\s1 pr\d & worldly4 ,"s 7 idle1 dreamy1 c>eless1 godless4 ,& o!rs1 :o 7 pi\sly dispos$1 nev] delib]ately adopt$ ! ,bible z _! rule ( fai? & practice4 ,!y nev] set !mselves to con=m to x1 z ! /&>d ( tru? & goodness4 ,!y adopt$ or inh]it$ ! fai?s or traditions ( _! pr$ecessors1 nev] suspect+ !m ( error1 & nev] inquir+ :e!r !y 7 true or n4 ,! idea ( te/+ or correct+ ei!r _! way ( ?9k+ or _! way ( talk+ on religi\s subjects1 by ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/1 nev] ent]$ _! m9ds4 ,!y liv$ at ease1 dream+ r ?an ?9k+1 & talk+ 9 _! sleep1 & fill+ great folios ) _! idle utt]ances4 ,:at k9d ( ?\ghts1 & :at k9d ( words 7 we likely to f9d 9 ! writ+s ( m5 l ^!8 ,rob]t ,hall is report$ to h describ$ ! works ( ! celebrat$ ,john ,ow5 z ,a ,,cont95t ,,( ,,mud4 ,!re are o!rs ^: writ+s might be ju/ly describ$ z volumes ( smoke4 ,m]e w9d !y are n1 b f\l1 black1 bl9d+ smoke4 ,& writ+s ( ?is description are publi%$ or republi%$ 9 great quantities to ! pres5t day4 ,& p read !m1 & fill !mselves ) w9d & fil?y fumes1 & wrap !mselves 9 smoky1 pit*y cl\ds1 & g ?r\gh ! _w 9 a spiritual d>kness ?ick en\gh to be felt4 ,?is smoke1 ?is blackness & d>kness1 ,i c\ld n endure4 ,i 0 anxi\s beyond measure to free myself f its bewild]+ & bl9d+ p[]1 & to get into ! cle> fre% air1 & ! bright & *e]ful light1 ( simple ,*ri/ian tru?4 ,& h5ce ! fre$om & eag]ness ( my inve/igations1 & ! lib]ty ,i took 9 modify+ my belief4 ,x may be said t _m ( ! doctr9es :i* ,i h set d[n z unscriptural1 are ( little importance2 & t is really ! case4 ,we ought1 !re=e1 to be ! m ready to give !m up4 ,:y cont5d = doctr9es ( no mom5t8 ,b "s ( !m are important4 ,!y are revolt+ & mis*iev\s errors1 & :5 !y are reg>d$ z p>ts ( ,*ri/ianity1 !y t5d to make m5 infidels4 ,& 9 _m cases !y /agg] ! fai?1 & less5 ! com=t1 & injure ! s\ls ( ,*ri/ians4 ,& ev5 ! less important ones d h>m :5 tak5 to be p>ts ( ! religion ( ,*ri/4 ,y _c make ?\ghtful1 %>p-vision$ m5 believe t ,jesus came into ! _w1 & liv$ & di$ to propagate trifles4 ,trifles !re=e are no long] trifles :5 set =? z ,*ri/ian doctr9es4 ,& we h en\gh to believe & ?9k ab\t )\t occupy+ our m9ds ) *ildi% fancies4 ,& we h ?+s en\gh ( high importance to prea* & write ab\t1 )\t sp5d+ our "t & /r5g? on idle dreams4 ,& ! app>5tly h>mless fictions prop up ! hurtful ones4 ,& !y less5 ! influ5ce ( great tru?s4 ,& !y make religion appe> suspici\s or contemptible to m5 ( s5se4 ,!y disgu/ "s4 ,!y give occasion to ! adv]s>ies to speak reproa*fully4 ,& if y tol]ate fictions at all 9 ,*ri/ianity1 :]e w y /op8 ,& if y d n /op some:]e1 ,*ri/ianity w disappe>1 & a mass ( wor?less & disgu/+ follies w take its place4 ,! new creation w vani%1 & *aos come aga94 ,& aga94 ,a l>ge proportion ( ! controv]sies ( ! ,*ur* are ab\t m5's inv5tions4 ,*ri/'s own doctr9es d n s (t5 provoke opposition z ! traditions ( ! eld]s2 nor d !y1 :5 assail$1 require s mu* def5d+4 ,!y def5d !mselves4 ,! devil's way ( undo+1 says ,baxt]1 is by ov]do+4 ,to br+ religi\s zeal into disrepute1 he makes "s zeal\s to madness1 to p]secution1 to blood4 ,to discr$it fre$om he urges its advocates into lawlessness4 ,to discr$it ,*ri/ian morality1 he induces "s to c>ry x to ! extreme ( asceticism4 ,to discr$it ne$ful au?ority1 he makes rul]s ( ! ,/ate into despots1 & p]suades ! rul]s ( ! ,*ur* to claim infallibility4 ,to discr$it ,*ri/ianity1 he adds to x human inv5tions4 ,wesley has a simil> s5tim5t4 ,if y place ,*ri/ian p]fection too high1 y drive x out ( ! _w4 ,& x is c]ta91 t an inf9ite am\nt ( ho/ility to ,*ri/ianity is ow+ to ! folly ( div9es 9 supplem5t+ its simple & practical doctr9es1 by speculative & un9telligible !ories4 ,! "o great evid5ce ( ! div9ity ( ,*ri/ianity1 says "o1 ! ma/]-evid5ce1 ! evid5ce ) :i* all o!r evid5ces w /& or fall1 is ,*ri/ ,himself speak+ by ,8 own ^w4 ,b if y add to ,8 words fooli% fancies1 or revolt+ absurdities1 or immoral speculations ( y\r own1 y de/roy t evid5ce4 ,y make m5 infidels4 ,!re are multitudes at ! pres5t day to :om y mu/ pres5t religion 9 an intelligible & rational1 & 9 a grave & comm&+ light1 if y w\ld induce !m to give x _! s]i\s att5tion4 ,y c no m int]e/ !m 9 my/]ies & nons5se1 9 speculative & unpractical fictions1 ?an y c *ange ! c\rse ( nature4 ,! "t = !ological trifl+ is gone by4 ,! "t has gone by = any =m ( religion to make its way :i* does n consi/ 9 solid goodness1 or :i* tea*es doctr9es1 or uses =ms1 t d n t5d to promote solid goodness4 ,if religion is to secure ! att5tion ( ! _w1--if x is to comm& _! respect1 _! rev]5ce & _! love1--if x is to conqu] _! he>ts1 & gov]n _! lives1 & satisfy _! s\ls1--if x is to become ! great absorb+ subject ( man's ?\ght1 & ! gov]n+ p[] ( our race1 x mu/ be s pres5t$1 z to prove itself 9 h>mony ) all t is highe/ & be/ 9 man's nature1 ) all t is mo/ beautiful & useful 9 life1 & ) all t is b5efic5t & glori\s 9 ! univ]se4 ,9 a ^w1 old dreamy !ologies ) _! b>b>\s dialects & silly notions1 mu/ be dropp$ & left to die1 & ! ,*ur* & ! m9i/ry mu/ live1 & act1 & talk z m5 :o are deal+ ) ! gr&e/ & mo/ int]e/+ & important realities4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,fur!r ,,inve/igations ,,& ,,_! ,,results4 ,z my read]s w h se5 be=e ?is1 ! *anges 9 my views 7 r num]\s1 if n always ( great importance4 ,& ! cases ,i h giv5 are b samples ( _m o!r *anges4 ,! fact is1 ,i p>$ away f my cre$ ev]y?+ t 0 n pla9ly ,scriptural4 ,i ?rew aside all human !ories1 all m]e guesses ab\t religi\s matt]s4 ,i also dismiss$ all =c$ or fanciful int]pretations ( ,scripture passages4 ,i endeavor$ to free ,*ri/ian doctr9es f all corruptions1 p]v]sions1 or exagg]ations1 reta9+ only ! pure & simple tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ! sacr$ writ+s4 ,i accept$ only ^? int]pretations ( ,scripture1 :i* 7 9 accordance ) ! object & drift ( ! writ]1 ) common s5se1 & ) ! g5]al t5or ( ! sacr$ volume4 ,i paid special reg>d to ! pla9e/ & mo/ practical portions ( ,scripture4 ,i paid no reg>d to doctr9es gr\nd$ on solit>y passages1 or on texts ( d\btful mean+1 :ile num]\s texts1 ) _! mean+ on _! v faces1 taught opposite doctr9es4 ,i w\ld accept no?+ t seem$ irrational f any qu>t]1 unless requir$ to d s by ! pla9 unque/ionable oracles ( ,god4 ,i c\ld see no propriety 9 ,*ri/ians encumb]+ _! m9ds & clogg+ religion ) notions be>+ pla9 & palpable m>ks ( inconsi/5cy or absurdity4 ,& if a doctr9e pres5t$ itself 9 diff]5t religi\s writ]s 9 a v>iety ( =ms1 ,i always took ! =m :i* seem$ mo/ 9 h>mony ) reason & ! pla9e/ tea*+s ( ,scripture4 ,"s writ]s seem$ to take pleasure 9 pres5t+ su* doctr9es z ! ,tr9ity1 ! ,atonem5t1 ,salvation by ,fai?1 ,et]nal ,puni%m5t1 c41 9 ! mo/ incr$ible & repulsive =ms1 /ra9+ & wre/+ ! ,scriptures to ju/ify _! mis*iev\s extravagances4 ,o!r writ]s w\ld say no m on ^? subjects ?an ! ,scriptures said1 & w\ld put :at ! ,scriptures said 9 su* a light z to r5d] x wor?y ( all acceptation4 ,z a matt] ( c\rse1 ! latt] k9d ( writ]s became my favorites4 ,inde$ ! ,scriptures seem$ always to favor :at appe>$ mo/ rational 9 ! v>i\s cre$s4 ,! ,scriptures & common s5se seem$ always 9 rem>kable h>mony4 ,! doctr9es :i* cla%$ ) reason seem$ also to cla% ) ,scripture3 & ,i felt t 9 reject+ su* doctr9es ,i 0 promot+ ! honor ( ,god & ( ,*ri/1 & r5d]+ a s]vice to ! ,*ur* & ,*ri/ianity4 ,i 0 sometimes r tri$ by ! unw>rant$ & inconsid]ate /atem5ts ( my bro!r m9i/]s4 ,take an in/ance4 ,a prea*] "o night1 9 a s]mon to :i* ,i 0 li/5+1 said1 ,h[ great is ! love ( ,god to fall5 man6 ,angels s9n$1 & 7 doom$ at once to ev]la/+ damnation4 ,no ,savi\r int]pos$ to br+ !m back to hol9ess & heav54 ,no ambassador 0 s5t ) (f]s ( p>don to besee* !m to be reconcil$ to ,god4 ,man s9s1 & ! ,deity ,himself becomes inc>nate4 ,all ! ma*9]y ( nature & all ! res\rces ( ,heav5 are employ$ to save him f de/ruction4 ,"o s9 %uts up 9 ev]la/+ despair millions ( spiritual be+s1 :ile a ?\s& transgressions are =giv5 to man4 ,n[ ?is doctr9e1 in/ead ( reflect+ peculi> glory on ,god1 seem$ to me to savor ( blasphemy4 ,x is no honor to be p>tial or caprici\s2 x is a reproa*4 ,a fa!r t %\ld be t5d]ly indulg5t to "o ( 8 *ildr51 & rigidly sev]e to ! re/1 w\ld be reg>d$ ) indignation4 ,! doctr9e ( ,div9e p>tiality %ocks bo? our reason & our moral feel+s4 ,& x is n scriptural4 ,! ,bible says no?+ ab\t ,god doom+ ! rebelli\s angels to p]dition = "o s91 )\t any attempt to br+ !m back to ob$i5ce2 b x does say t ,god is good to all1 & t ,8 t5d] m]cies are ov] all ,8 works4 ,i accord+ly reject$ ! doctr9e4 ,!re 0 q a multitude ( doctr9es :i* ent]$ into ! s]mons ( _m ( my bro!r m9i/]s1 :i* nev] f\nd _! way into m9e4 ,& !re 7 doctr9es :i* ent]$ into my disc\rses1 :i* nev] f\nd _! way into !irs4 ,& ! doctr9es :i* we held & prea*$ 9 common1 we (t5 pres5t$ 9 v diff]5t =ms1 & put into v diff]5t words4 ,!y c\ld say a multitude ( ?+s :i* ,i c\ld n say2 ?+s :i* ,i c\ld f9d no k9d ( w>rant = say+4 ,:5 we met toge!r aft] he>+ ea* o!r prea*1 we _h at times long talks ab\t our diff]5t views & ways ( prea*+4 ,i 0 free 9 express+ my ?\ghts & feel+s1 especially 9 ! e>li] ye>s ( my m9i/ry1 & our conv]sations 7 (t5 v animat$4 ,9 "s circuits1 ,i induc$ my colleagues to jo9 me 9 e/abli%+ weekly meet+s = mutual improvem5t 9 religi\s k4 ,at ea* meet+ an essay 0 read1 on "s subject agre$ ^u at a =m] meet+1 & aft] ! essay _h be5 read we discuss$ ! m]its bo? ( ! s5tim5ts x embodi$1 & ( ! /yle 9 :i* x 0 writt54 ,:5 x 0 my turn to prep>e an essay1 ,i g5]ally introduc$ "o or m ( ! po9ts on :i* ,i & my colleagues diff]$1 = ! purpose ( hav+ !m discuss$4 ,i /at$ my views ) ! utmo/ fre$om1 & gave e enc\ragem5t to my colleagues to /ate !irs ) equal fre$om 9 return4 ,:5 my colleagues read _! productions1 ,i po9t$ out :at ,i ?\ght errone\s or defective ) great pla9ness & fidelity4 ,i 0 anxi\s bo? to le>n & to tea*1 & x 0 my delight1 z x 0 my duty & bus9ess1 to endeavor to d bo?4 ,i 0 n1 h[ev]1 s anxi\s to *ange ! views ( my fri5ds z ,i 0 to excite 9 !m a ?ir/ = k4 ,& inde$ ,i did n consid] x ( s mu* importance t a man %\ld accept a c]ta9 numb] ( tru?s1 or p>ticul> doctr9es1 z t he %\ld h a s9c]e desire1 & make suitable endeavors to und]/& all tru?4 ,x 0 idl5ess1 indiff]5ce1 a /ate ( m5tal /agnation1 a read9ess c>elessly to accept :atev] might come 9 ! way )\t once try+ to te/ x by ,scripture or reason1 t ,i p>ticul>ly dislik$2 & to cure or abate ?is evil1 ,i ex]t$ myself to ! utmo/4 ,:5 ,i 0 /ation$ 9 ,newca/le 9 #ahca1 ,i met ) ,fo/]'s ,essays1 :i* ,i read ) a great deal ( eag]ness & pleasure4 ,"o ( ^! ,essays is ,on "s ( ! ,causes by :i* ,evangelical ,religion has be5 ,r5d]$ ,unacceptable to ,p]sons ( ,cultivat$ ,ta/e8 ,among 8 rem>ks on ?is subject1 he has "s to ! foll[+ effect3-- #a4 ,*ri/ianity is ! religion ( _m weak1 uncultivat$ & little-m9d$ p1 & !y1 by _! unwise ways ( talk+ ab\t x1 & by _! v>i\s defects ( "*1 make religion look weak1 & poor1 & unreasonable4 ,& _m receive _! impression or ideas ( ! "* ( ,*ri/ianity m f ! exhibitions giv5 ( x by ! religi\s p ) :om !y come 9 contact1 ?an f ! exhibition giv5 ( x 9 ! life & tea*+s ( its great ,au?or1 or f ! *>act]s & writ+s ( ,8 ,apo/les4 ,an intellig5t & cultivat$ man1 = in/ance1 falls into ! company ( ,*ri/ians :o "k little ei!r ( ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/1 or ( ! wond]ful facts :i* g to prove _! tru? & _! inf9ite excell5cy--,*ri/ians :o nev] tr\ble !mselves ab\t su* matt]s1 & :o look on x z no good sign :5 p %[ a disposition to inquire s]i\sly into su* subjects4 ,he he>s ^? ,*ri/ians talk ab\t religion1 b c f9d no?+ 9 _! conv]sation b /range &1 to him1 un9telligible expressions4 ,! speak]s give pro( en\gh ( excit$ feel+s1 b %[ no sign ( m5tal enlight5m5t4 ,if he asks !m = in=mation on ! great pr9ciples & be>+s ( ,*ri/ianity1 !y tell him !y h no?+ to d ) va9 philosophy4 #b4 ,! man ( ta/e & culture he>s o!r ,*ri/ians h>p+ et]nally on two or ?ree po9ts1 adopt$ p]haps f "s dreamy au?or1 & d5\nc+ all :o "q ! correctness ( _! v]sion ( ! ,gospel1 z h]etics or infidels1 :ile all ! "t _! notions h little or no resemblance ei!r to ! ,gospel or to common s5se2 b are at be/1 only p]v]sions or di/ortions ( ,*ri/ian doctr9es1 :i* h no m lik5ess to ! religion ( ,*ri/ ?an a few brok5 bricks h to a beautiful & magnific5t palace4 #c4 ,9 _m cases ! ,*ri/ians ) :om he meets h n only no g5]al k ( religi\s subjects1 b no desire = su* k4 ,! ,bible is _! book1 !y say1 & !y want no o!r4 ,& !y make b a pitiful use ( t4 ,!y d n g to ! ,bible z to a f\nta9 ( inf9ite k1 ^: /reams ( tru? bl5d naturally ) all ! tru?s 9 ! univ]se1 b m]ely to refre% _! m9ds ) a few mis9t]pret$ passages1 :i* ignorance & bigotry are accu/om$ to use to support _! misconceptions ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e4 ,!y use ! book n to make !m wise1 b to keep !m ignorant4 ,!y dwell = ev] on ! same irrational fancies1 & repeat !m = ev] 9 ! same outl&i% j>gon4 #d4 ,he meets ) o!r ,*ri/ians :o read a little 9 o!r books besides ! ,bible2 b x is j ^? books t help to keep !m f und]/&+ ! mean+ ( ! ,bible4 ,& ! portions ( ! books :i* !y admire mo/ & quote (t5e/1 are ! sillie/ & mo/ errone\s portions4 ,!y put d>kness = light1 & light = d>kness4 ,! man ( culture speaks to !m1 b !y _c und]/& him4 ,8 ?\ghts & /yle are alike out ( _! l9e1 or beyond _! capacity4 ,if at any "t !y cat* a glimpse ( 8 mean+1 !y are fright5$ on p]ceiv+ t 8 ?\ghts are n an exact repetition ( _! own4 #e4 ,ano!r cause :i* has t5d$ to r5d] ,*ri/ianity less acceptable to m5 ( ta/e & culture1 is ! peculi> language adopt$ 9 ! disc\rses & writ+s ( its ,tea*]s4 ,! /yle ( "s religi\s tea*]s is l[1 vulg>4 ,! /yle ( a /ill great] numb] is b>b>\s4 ,m5 soon feel ! language ( ! ,law to be b>b>\s4 ,!y w\ld feel ! language ( !ology to be z b>b>\s1 if !y 7 n accu/om$ to he> x or read x s con/antly4 ,! way 9 :i* ! great] numb] ( evangelical div9es express !mselves is q diff]5t f t 9 :i* m5 g5]ally express !mselves4 ,_! :ole ca/ ( phraseology is peculi>4 ,y _c he> five s5t5ces )\t feel+ t y are li/5+ to a dead or =eign language4 ,to put x into good curr5t ,engli% y h to translate x1 & ! task ( translation is z h>d1 & requires z mu* /udy & practice1 z t ( translat+ ,greek or ,hebrew4 ,! language ( ! pulpit & ( religi\s books is a dialect to itself1 & _c be us$ 9 common life or common affairs4 ,if y try to apply x to any?+ b religion1 x becomes ridicul\s1 & a common k9d ( wit consi/s 9 speak+ ( common ?+s 9 pulpit phraseology4 ,a =eign hea!n might ma/] our language 9 its common & classical =ms1 & be able to und]/& bo? our ord9>y talk & our able/ au?ors1 yet f9d himself q at a loss to und]/& an evangelical prea*] or writ]4 ,ev5 if our hea!n und]/ood religion 9 its simpl] & m natural =ms1 he w\ld /ill be unable to und]/& ! common run ( religi\s talk]s & writ]s4 ,if he _h religion to le>n f su* tea*]s & writ]s1 he w\ld h a d\ble task1 fir/1 to get ! ideas1 & !n to le>n ! unc\? & unnatural language4 ,?is peculi> dialect is q unnecess>y4 ,! /yle ( a prea*] or a religi\s writ] might be1 &1 all[+ = a few t]ms1 ought to be1 ! same z t ( a man talk+ ab\t ord9>y affairs1 & matt]s ( common int]e/ & duty4 ,! want ( ?is is "o great cause ( ! little success1 bo? ( our prea*]s at home1 & ( our mission>ies abroad4 ,!y hide b5ea? an unseemly veil1 a beauty t %\ld /rike all eyes1 & w9 all he>ts4 ,_! /yle is j ! opposite ( ev]y?+ t c in/ruct1 attract1 comm&4 ,& x is va9 to expect mu* improvem5t 9 ! pres5t g5]ation ( religi\s tea*]s4 ,!y c\ld n get a good /yle )\t a long & c>eful /udy ( good au?ors1 & = ?is _m ( !m h nei!r ! ta/e nor ! ne$ful indu/ry4 ,!y w\ld h to beg9 life anew1 to be conv]t$ & become z little *ildr51 be=e !y c\ld ma/] ! task4 ,!y _c ?9k ( religion b 9 common words4 ,!y _c ?9k !re c be div9e tru? b 9 ! old phrases4 ,to discont9ue !m1 !re=e1 & use o!rs1 w\ld 9 _! view1 be to become h]etics or infidels4 ,9 tru?1 _m ( !m seem to h no ideas4 ,_! phrases are n vehicles ( ideas1 b sub/itutes = !m4 ,if !y he> ! ideas :i* _! phrases did once signify1 express$ ev] s pla9ly 9 o!r language1 !y d n recognise !m1 & in/antly suspect ! man :o utt]s !m ( uns\ndness 9 ! fai?1 & apply to him all ! abusive t]ms ( ecclesia/ical reproa*4 ,= su* ! common pulpit j>gon is ! conv5i5t refuge ( ignorance1 idl5ess & prejudice4 #f4 ,speak+ ( c]ta9 k9ds ( religi\s books1 ,mr4 ,fo/] calls !m an accumulation ( bad writ+1 "u :i* ! evangelical !ology has be5 buri$1 & :i* has contribut$ to br+ its pr9ciples into disfavor4 ,he adds3 ,a l>ge proportion ( religi\s books may be s5t5c$ z bad on m acc\nts ?an _! peculi>ity ( dialect4 ,"o has to regret t _! au?ors did n rev]e ! dignity ( _! religion too mu* to surr\nd x & *oke x ) _! works4 ,!re is q a multitude ( books :i* =m ! p]fect vulg> ( religi\s au?or%ip1--a va/ exhibition ( ! mo/ inf]ior mat]ials t c be call$ ?\ght1 9 language too grovell+ to be call$ /yle4 ,9 ^! books y are mortifi$ to see h[ l[ religi\s ?\ght & expression c s9k2 & y almo/ wond] h[ ! gr& ideas ( ,god & ,provid5ce1 ( r$emption & et]nity1 ! noble/ ideas kn[n1 c %9e on a human m9d1 )\t imp>t+ "s small occasional degree ( dignity to its tra9 ( ?\ght4 ,y c make all[ances = ! great defects ( private ,*ri/ians1 b :5 m5 obtrude _! inf9ite littl5ess & folly on ! public 9 books1 y c h>dly help reg>d+ !m z inexcusable4 ,true1 _m ( ^? wor?less & mis*iev\s books are ev]more disappe>+1 b o!rs z bad1 or b little bett]1 take _! places4 ,look :]e y w y w meet ) !m4 ,:at e/imate c a man h ( ,*ri/ianity :o receives 8 fir/ impressions ( x f su* books8 #g4 ,!re are o!r religi\s books t are tol]able z to /yle1 b :i* display no p[] or prom95ce ( ?\ght1 no liv+ vigor ( expression2 !y are flat & dry z a pla9 ( s&4 ,!y tease y ) ! ?\s&? repetition ( common-places1 caus+ a feel+ ( unspeakable we>9ess4 ,?\gh ! au?or is surr\nd$ ) ri* immeasurable fields ( tru? & beauty1 he treads = ev] ! same n>r[ track already trodd5 into du/4 #h4 ,!re is a small] class ( religi\s writ]s t may be call$ mock-eloqu5t writ]s4 ,!y try at a sup]ior /yle1 b =get t true eloqu5ce resides ess5tially 9 ! ?\ght1 ! feel+1 ! "*1 & t no words c make g5u9e eloqu5ce out ( t :i* is ( no wor? or int]e/4 ,!y mi/ake a gaudy v]bosity = eloqu5ce4 #i4 ,! moral & !ological mat]ials ( _m religi\s books are z faulty z _! /yle1 & ! injury !y d ! ,gospel is incalculable4 ,"h is a sy/ematic writ] 9 ^: h&s all ! ri*es & magnific5ce ( revelation %r9k into a meagre li/ ( doctr9al po9ts1 & n a s+le v]se 9 ! ,bible is all[$ to tell its mean+1 or ev5 all[$ to h "o1 till x has be5 =c$ "u torture to ma9ta9 "o ( 8 po9ts4 ,y are next confront$ ) a prat] ab\t ! invisible _w1 t makes y %r9k away into d>kness2 & !n y are met ) a grim zealot = su* a revolt+ !ory ( ! ,div9e attributes & gov]nm5t1 t he seems to delight 9 repres5t+ ! ,deity z a dreadful k+ ( furies1 ^: dom9ion is ov]%ad[$ ) v5geance1 ^: music is ! cries ( victims1 & ^: glory requires to be illu/rat$ by ! ru9 ( ,8 creation4 ,"o _c help deplor+ t ! great mass ( religi\s books 7 n consign$ to ! flames be=e !y 7 p]mitt$ to rea* ! eyes ( ! public4 ,books :i* exhibit ,*ri/ianity & its claims ) insipid feebl5ess1 or :i* cramp its maje/y into an artificial =m at once di/ort$ & mean1 mu/ griev\sly injure its influ5ce4 ,an intellig5t ,*ri/ian _c look into su* works )\t feel+ ?ankful t !y 7 n ! books f :i* he got 8 conceptions ( ! ,gospel4 ,no?+ w\ld induce him to put !m into ! h&s ( an inquir+ y\?1 & he w\ld be sorry to see !m on ! table ( an infidel1 or 9 ! libr>y ( 8 *ildr51 or ( a /ud5t = ! m9i/ry4--,fo/]'s ,essays4 ,^! s5tim5ts answ]$ s a/oni%+ly to my own ?\ghts1 t ,i read !m ) ! greate/ delight4 ,i laid !m1 9 sub/ance1 be=e my bre?r54 ,i expla9$ !m4 ,i illu/rat$ !m by quotations f books & s]mons4 ,i gave !m in/ances ( ! v>i\s faults po9t$ out by ,fo/]1 tak5 f _! favorite au?ors1 & 9 "s cases f ! disc\rses ( liv+ prea*]s4 ,i wrote sev]al essays on ! causes ( ! sl[ progress made by ,*ri/ianity1 9 :i* ,i embodi$ & illu/rat$ _m ( ,fo/]'s views4 ,i wrote essays on ,prea*+ ,*ri/1 9 :i* ,i embodi$ & illu/rat$ ,wesley's views on ! subject1 includ+ 8 condemnation ( :at1 9 8 days1 0 falsely call$ ,gospel ,prea*+4 ,i wrote q a l>ge volume on ^! subjects1 & read ! cont5ts1 s f> z opportunity (f]$1 to my colleagues at our weekly meet+s4 ,i 0 badly requit$ = my pa9s4 ,9 "s cases my colleagues li/5$ to me & />$ at me ) amazem5t4 ,!y ?\ght ,i br\ght /range ?+s to _! e>s4 ,"o1 :o is n[ dead1 said ,i %\ld be really an excell5t fell[1 he believ$1 if ,i c\ld only get ! cobwebs swept out ( my upp] /ories4 ,ev]y?+ beyond 8 own poor /&+ common-places 0 cobwebs to him1 poor fell[4 ,! rem>ks on ?is subject 9 ! ,,life ( ! prea*] ref]r$ to1 %[ t my ideas & plans at t "t are n yet und]/ood by all 8 bre?r54 ,travel1 !y say1 frees m5 f _! prejudices4 ,! m !y see ( ! wond]s ( o!r c\ntries1 & ( ! mann]s ( o!r nations1 ! m mod]ate becomes _! e/imate ( ! m>vels1 & ( "s ( ! views & cu/oms ( _! native l&4 ,& x is c]ta9 t ! m a man travels ?r\gh good books by m5 ( diff]5t ,*ur*es f 8 own1 ! less important w "s ( ! peculi>ities ( 8 own d5om9ation appe>4 ,z ignorance ( ! _w is favorable to bl9d patriotism & home idolatry1 s ignorance ( ,*ur*es1 & sy/ems1 & lit]atures diff]5t f our own1 is favorable to bigotry & sect>ianism4 ,& z free & ext5d$ int]c\rse ) =eign nations t5ds to enl>ge & lib]alize ! m9d2 s ! m ext5sive a ,*ri/ian's acqua9tance is ) diff]5t bran*es ( ! ,*ur*1 & ) _! cu/oms1 & writ+s1 & mann]s1 ! m likely w 8 sect>ian bigotry & intol]ance be to give place to lib]al views & to ,*ri/ian mod]ation & *>ity4 ,b j 9 proportion z he becomes ! subject ( ?is bless$ trans=mation1 w he be reg>d$ ) suspicion & dread by ^? :o /ill rema9 ! slaves ( ignorance & bigotry4 ,x 0 s 9 my case4 ,i travell$ ?r\gh ext5sive regions ( religi\s lit]ature diff]5t f t ( my own ,*ur*1 & ,i did s ) an e>ne/ desire to le>n :at 0 true & good 9 all4 ,! consequ5ce 0 ! loss ( _m prejudices1 & ! modification ( _m m4 ,i lo/ my prejudices aga9/ all k9ds ( ,*ri/ians4 ,i c\ld believe 9 ! salvation bo? ( ,quak]s & ,ca?olics1 & ( all betwe51 if !y 7 well dispos$1 ,god-fe>+1 good-liv+ m54 ,i c\ld believe 9 ! salvation ( all1 n except+ ,jews1 ,turks1 & ,pagans1 :o liv$ accord+ to ! light !y _h1 & hone/ly & fai?fully s\ght = fur!r light4 ,i believ$ t 9 e nation he t fe>$ ,god & work$ righte\sness 0 accept$ ( ,him4 ,i believ$ t hone/1 fai?ful s\ls among ! pagans ( old w\ld be f\nd at la/ among ! sav$4 ,i reg>d$ ! moral & spiritual light ( ! anci5t pagans z light f heav51 z div9e revelation4 ,i look$ on all mank9d z equally objects ( ,god's c>e & love1 z ,8 *ildr51 "u ,8 tuition1 ?\gh plac$ = a "t 9 diff]5t s*ools1 ) diff]5t tea*]s1 & ) diff]5t lesson-books4 ,i came to believe t ,god 0 z good z a good man1 z good z ! k9de/ & be/ ( fa!rs1 & ev5 bett]1 & ,i felt assur$ t ,he w\ld n p]mit any well-dispos$ s\l on e>? to p]i%4 ,i believ$ t "s :o 7 fir/ 9 privileges1 w\ld be among ! la/ 9 bless$ness2 & t "s t 7 la/ 9 privileges w\ld be among ! fir/ 9 bless$ness4 ,yet ,i believ$ 9 missions4 ,i believ$ t x 0 ! duty ( all to %>e _! bless+s ) o!rs2 to give to o!rs ! light t ,god _h be/[$ on !m1--t ?\gh pagans might be sav$ )\t ,*ri/ian light1 if !y liv$ accord+ to ! light !y _h1 ,*ri/ians c\ld n be sav$ if !y did n1 z !y _h opportunity1 imp>t _! sup]ior light to ! pagans4 ,i respect$ ! good moral pr9ciples1 & ! portions ( religi\s tru? t ,i f\nd 9 ! anci5t ,greek & ,roman au?ors1 j z ,i lam5t$ & condemn$ ! moral & religi\s errors t ,i f\nd 9 ,*ri/ian books4 ,i seiz$ on tru? :]e'er 'twas f\nd1 ,on ,*ri/ian or on ,hea!n gr\nd1 & made x "p ( my cre$3 & ,i w>r$ ) error ?\gh entr5*$ 9 ! /rong-holds ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i respect$ :at 0 true & good 9 all d5om9ations ( ,*ri/ians2 & ev5 9 all d5om9ations t call$ !mselves ,*ri/ians1 :e!r !y came ne> en\gh to ,*ri/ to entitle !m to t "n or n4 ,if ,i saw any?+ good 9 ! cre$s or ! *>act]s ( o!r d5om9ations ,i accept$ x1 & tri$ to embody x 9 my own cre$ & "*4 ,& ,i did1 z ,i ?\ght1 see good 9 e "o t ,i did n see 9 o!rs4 ,i c\ld see ?+s 9 "s ,prote/ants1 :i* ,i ?\ght ,ca?olics w\ld d well to imitate2 & ,i c\ld see ?+s among ,ca?olics1 :i* ,i ?\ght ,prote/ants w\ld d well to imitate4 ,i c\ld see ?+s 9 ,quak]ism1 :i* x w\ld h be5 to ! honor & advantage ( o!r ,*ri/ians to imitate2 & ,i c\ld see good ?+s 9 o!r ,*ur*es :i* ,quak]s w\ld h done well to copy4 ,i c\ld see ev5 among ,unit>ians ( ! old] & bett] class1 an att5tion to matt]s practical1 a naturalness ( /yle1 & a fre$om f c]ta9 anti-*ri/ian expressions & notions1 :i* x w\ld h be5 well = or?odox ,*ur*es to h made _! own2 & ,i c\ld see :]e ,unit>ians _h bo? gone too f> ?r\gh _! dislike ( or?odox error1 & fall5 %ort ( tru? & duty ?r\gh dread ( or?odox weaknesses or imp]fections4 ,& ,i _h an idea1 t x w\ld be well 9 all ,*ur*es1 in/ead ( avoid+1 or scold+1 or abus+ "o ano!r1 to /udy ea* o!r lov+ly1 ) a view to f9d h[ mu* ( tru? & goodness !y c\ld f9d 9 ea* o!r1 t !y c\ld n f9d 9 !mselves1 & h[ mu* ( error & imp]fection !y c\ld f9d 9 !mselves1 t !y did n f9d 9 o!rs4 ,i saw t no ,*ur* _h got all ! tru?1 or all ! goodness1 & t no ,*ur* 0 free f anti-*ri/ian errors & defects4 ,i saw t to make a p]fect ,*ri/ian cre$1 we %\ld h to take some?+ out ( e cre$1 & leave o!r ?+s 9 e cre$ beh9d2 & t to secure a p]fect exhibition ( ,*ri/ian virtue1 & a p]fect sy/em ( ,*ri/ian op]ations1 we %\ld h to borr[ f ea* o!r habits1 cu/oms1 rules & ma*9]y 9 ! same way1 & leave p>ts ( our own to fall into disuse4 ,& ,i 0 will+ to act on ?is pr9ciple4 ,i saw t ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity 7 m & bett] ?an all ! ,*ur*es & all ! cre$s on e>? put toge!r1 & t all ! ,*ur*es _h errors & faults or fail+s :i* ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity _h n2 & ,i _h an idea t "o ( ! gr&e/ sights conceivable w\ld be to set all ! disciples ( ,*ri/ to "w /riv+ to get rid ( ev]y?+ anti-*ri/ian1 & to come z ne> to ,*ri/1 & to ea* o!r1 z possible1 bo? 9 tru? & virtue4 ,b to proce$ ) my /ory4 ,i frequ5tly spoke on religi\s subjects ) my colleagues :5 we met1 along ) ! lead+ laym51 at ! h\ses ( our fri5ds4 ,"s new book1 "s p>ticul> s]mon1 or "s article 9 ! magaz9e1 or p]haps ! fulness ( "o's own m9d ) ! subjects ( "o's /udies1 w\ld turn ! conv]sation on ! /ate ( ! ,*ur* & ! m9i/ry1 & ! ne$ ( improvem5t 9 ! !ological sy/ems & dialects ( ! day1 & ! mann] ( h&l+ religi\s subjects g5]ally1 bo? 9 ! pulpit & ?r\gh ! press4 ,:atev] ! subject "u consid]ation might be1 ,i express$ myself ) ! utmo/ fre$om4 ,i /at$ my beliefs & disbeliefs1 my d\bts & my convictions1 )\t ! lea/ res]ve4 ,& ,i z readily gave my reasons = my views4 ,i 0 g5]ally prep>$ ) ! passages ( ,scripture be>+ on ! subjects introduc$1 & gave !m1 ) my impressions ( _! mean+4 ,& ,i did my be/ to draw my colleagues & fri5ds into a ?or\gh inve/igation ( e po9t1 9 hopes t we might all come z ne> z possible 9 our views to a full con=mity to ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/4 ,! results ( ^! conv]sations1 & ( my o!r labors1 7 9 "s cases1 v satisfactory4 ,"s 7 l$ to ex]cise _! m9ds on religi\s subjects :o _h nev] tr\bl$ !mselves ab\t su* matt]s be=e4 ,"s t _h be5 accu/om$ to ?9k & read a little 7 l$ to ?9k & read m1 & to bett] purpose4 ,"s t _h be5 helplessly & mis]ably p]plex$ _h _! m9ds put "r1 & 7 deliv]$ f _! di/resses4 ,"s _h _! m9ds direct$ m s]i\sly to ! practical requirem5ts ( ,*ri/ianity1 & labor$ m1 & made m sacrifices1 = ! prosp]ity ( ! ,*ur* & ! salvation ( _! fell[-m54 ,9 consid]able numb]s ! /&>d ( ,*ri/ian k & piety 0 rais$1 & ! g5]al tone ( ! *ur*es improv$4 ,9 o!r cases ! results 7 ( a v diff]5t "*4 ,dur+ ! e>ly ye>s ( my religi\s life ,i suppos$ t all pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians1 & especially all m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel1 7 anxi\s to be z wise & good z possible1 & t !y w\ld be delight$1 z ,i 0 myself1 to get any new1 or l>g]1 or cle>] views ( tru? & duty4 ,i judg$ ( o!rs by myself1 & gave !m cr$it = ! same desires & long+s t swell$ my own s\l4 ,i gave !m cr$it too = unlimit$ capacities to take 9 & appreciate ! tru?1 & = any am\nt ( ability to use x1 :5 receiv$1 9 do+ good to o!rs4 ,i _h seldom any difficulty 9 und]/&+ !m2 & x nev] ent]$ my m9d t !y w\ld h mu* difficulty 9 und]/&+ me4 ,& ,i nev] felt myself ev5 tempt$1 mu* less dispos$1 to misrepres5t ! words or s5tim5ts ( my fri5ds1 or to take advantage ( ! fre$om ) :i* !y spoke1 to injure !m 9 ! e/imation ( _! fri5ds4 ,i _h no intol]ance myself1 s f> z ,i c recollect1 & ,i _h no disposition to cause intol]ance 9 o!rs t[>ds my bre?r54 ,h[ x 0 ) my bre?r5 ,i w n und]take to say1 b1 z a p]son ) any k ( human nature w\ld h anticipat$1 ,i 0 greatly misund]/ood & misrepres5t$4 ,"s ( my colleagues & fri5ds 7 9 a maze ) reg>d to my views & int5tions4 ,%ut up )9 ! n>r[ conf9es ( "s old /]eotyp$ =m ( fai? or fancy into :i* !y _h be5 born1 or into :i* !y _h be5 br\ght !y knew n h[1 & afraid to *ange or modify "o iota ( _! bl9d belief1 inve/igation1 se>* aft] tru?1 enl>gem5t ( ?\ght1 or *ange ( s5tim5t1 0 ) !m out ( ! "q4 ,! v idea ( any?+ diff]+ f _! own tradition>y or haphaz>d belief 01 9 ! e/imation ( "s ( !m1 no less ?an h]esy1 treason1 or infidelity4 ,o!rs1 :o 7 n s mu* b5ight$1 7 afraid to v5ture on a free exam9ation ( religi\s matt]s1 or a c>eful comp>ison ( _! views ) ! tea*+s ( ,scripture4 ,"s tru/$ 9 _! eld]s1 & fe>$ no error s long z !y kept 9 ! track ( _! pr$ecessors4 ,i am n c]ta9 t ,i %\ld g too f> if ,i 7 to say1 t "s 7 "u ! influ5ce ( worldly & selfi% motives1 & 7 resolv$ to take ! c\rse :i* promis$ to be mo/ conducive to a quiet1 easy1 self-indulg5t life4 ,!re 7 "s ^: conv]sations left ?is impression on my m9d4 ,"o "y m9i/]1 :5 ,i 0 po9t+ out to him "s inconsi/5cy betwe5 a /atem5t he _h made & ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/1 put an end to ! conv]sation by say+1 ,i don't want to he> any?+ ab\t su* matt]s2 ,i "k :at is expect$ ( a m9i/] ( ! ,me?odi/ ,new ,connexion1 & ,i am resolv$ to be "o2 & ,i %all j hold ! doctr9es necess>y to keep me 9 ! (fice1 & no?+ else4 ,& ,i suppose he did n /& alone4 ,"s lack$ ! p[] to ?9k4 ,!y 7 all b m9dless4 ,:atev] !y might be able to d 9 ref]5ce to worldly matt]s1 !y 7 unable to ?9k1 to comp>e doctr9e ) doctr9e1 or to reason 9 any respect :atev] on religi\s matt]s4 ,"o "y man1 a c&idate = ! m9i/ry1 told me t he nev] _h ?\ght matt]s ov] 9 8 own m9d1 b tak5 :at came 9 8 way 9 books or s]mons1 nev] tr\bl+ himself1 or f9d+ himself able1 to d m ?an to rememb] & to repeat :at he he>d or read4 ,he _h n ! faculty to comp>e ! say+s ( m5 ) ! say+s ( ,god2 or ! say+s ( "o man ) ! say+s ( ano!r4 ,he 0 a m]e deal] 9 words & phrases1 & he aspir$ to no?+ high] ?an to live by ! ignoble occupation4 ,h[ _m ( ^? ) :om ,i came 9 contact1 & 9 ^: society ,i p\r$ =? s freely ! ?\ghts ( my m9d1 7 ( ! same /amp1 ,i d n "k4 ,i nev] te/$ any o!r p]son s ?or\ghly z ,i te/$ him4 ,!re 7 o!rs1 h[ev]1 t _h be5 fa%ion$ 9 a simil> m\ld4 ,o!rs ) :om ,i conv]s$ _h ?\ght1 & _h embrac$ c]ta9 views believ+ !m to be true2 b !y _h fall5 "u ! influ5ce ( tea*]s & books ( a diff]5t ca/ f ^? by :i* my own m9d _h be5 *iefly influ5c$4 ,& !y _h be5 l$ to fix _! ?\ghts almo/ exclusively on "o p>ticul> class ( ,scripture passages1 & to neglect or ov]look o!r portions ( ! sacr$ volume1 ?\gh mu* m num]\s1 & mu* m cle> 9 _! mean+4 ,!y _h also be5 l$ to adopt c]ta9 int]pretations ( ! passages on :i* _! att5tion _h be5 specially fix$1 :i* a consid]ation ( o!r passages ( ,scripture _h l$ me to reject4 ,?us our m9ds _h run into diff]5t m\lds1 & tak5 diff]5t =ms4 ,we diff]$ n only on c]ta9 po9ts ( doctr9e1 b 9 our ta/es1 & 9 our rules ( judg+4 ,! consequ5ce 01 t we c\ld nev] talk long on religi\s subjects )\t gett+ into a dispute1 or com+ to a dead /&4 ,to make matt]s worse1 ?is class ( p _h be5 l$ to believe t _! peculi> notions 7 ! ess5tial doctr9es ( ! ,gospel1 & t ^? :o did n believe !m c\ld n be ,*ri/ians4 ,:5 !re=e !y f\nd t ,i look$ ^u _! !ories z errone\s & unscriptural1 !y pron\nc$ me at once an erratic & dang]\s man4 ,i imag9$1 at fir/1 t ,i c\ld br+ ^! p to see ?+s 9 a diff]5t light4 ,i _h su* fai? 9 ! p[] ( pla9 ,scripture passages1 & 9 ! =ce ( common s5se1 & 0 s ignorant ( ! p[] ( prejudice1 & ( peculi>ities ( m5tal con/itution1 t ,i conv]s$ & reason$ ) !m ) ! greate/ fre$om & ! utmo/ confid5ce4 ,b ,i f\nd at l5g? t my expectations 7 va94 ,i 0 conv]s+ once ) a colleague :o belong$ to ?is class1 on man's natural pron5ess to evil4 ,he 0 "o ( ! be/ & mo/ enlight5$ ( t s*ool ( !ologians1 & he reg>d$ me at ! "t ) v k9dly feel+s4 ,& we 7 agre$ z to ! fact ( man's natural t5d5cy to evil1 b he _h be5 l$ to re/ 8 belief 9 ! doctr9e on some:at diff]5t gr\nds f ^? on :i* my belief re/$4 ,& ?is 0 en\gh4 ,he quot$ ! passage f ,isaiah1 ,! :ole head is sick1 & ! :ole he>t fa9t3 f ! cr[n ( ! head1 to ! sole ( ! foot1 !re is no s\ndness1 b w\nds & bruises & putrefy+ sores4 ,d y ?9k t ! ,prophet ref]s 9 t passage to man's natural pron5ess to evil8 said ,i4 ,:at c he ref] to else8 said he4 ,i h be5 accu/om$ to reg>d ! words z a figurative description ( ! mis]able /ate ( ! ,israelites "u ! t]rible judgm5ts ( ,god1 ,i repli$4 ,he in/antly became r$ 9 ! face1 & said1 ,d y mean to d5y ! natural depravity ( man8 ,i said1 ,! "q is n ab\t ! doctr9e1 b only ab\t ! mean+ ( t p>ticul> passage4 ,b all 0 9 va94 ,i _h r\s$ 8 suspicions & 8 ang]1 & ! conv]sation came at once to an end1 & he nev] aft]w>ds reg>d$ me ) ! same degree ( confid5ce & fri5dl9ess z be=e4 ,on ano!r occasion a bro!r m9i/] quot$1 z pro( t m5 9 _! unreg5]ate /ate _c d any?+ t[>ds _! own salvation1 ! words ( ,j]emiah1 already once ref]r$ to1 ,c ! ,e?iopian *ange 8 sk91 or ! leop>d 8 spots8 ,d y really ?9k1 said ,i1 t ! ,prophet is speak+1 9 ^? words1 ( m5 g5]ally8 ,:at else is he speak+ (8 0 ! answ]4 ,he seems to me to be speak+ ( a p>ticul> class ( m51 :o h be5 s long accu/om$ to d wrong1 t !y h lo/ ! p[] to d "r--hav+ made !mselves ! helpless slaves ( _! evil habits4 ,he is n1 ,i ?9k1 speak+ ( ! /ate into :i* !y 7 born2 b ( ! /ate to :i* !y _h r$uc$ !mselves by long p]si/5ce 9 s94 ,h5ce he says at ! conclusion ( ! passage1 ',!n may ye1 :o are accu/om$ to d evil1 d well4' ,oh6 ,i suppose y d5y ! doctr9e ( natural depravity4 ,no1 ,i d n1 said ,i4 ,x is no use say+ t1 he repli$1 :5 y expla9 away ! passages ( ,scripture 9 :i* ! doctr9e is taught4 ,su* enc\nt]s betwe5 me & my bre?r5 7 at "o "t by no means uncommon4 ,!y took place at almo/ e meet+4 ,! result 0 (t5 unpleasant4 ,my bre?r5 g5]ally did n l to be di/urb$ 9 _! notions1 or 9 _! way ( talk+4 ,b few1 if any ( !m1 7 prep>$ or dispos$ to ent] on ! inve/igations necess>y to enable !m to asc]ta9 :at 0 ! tru? on ! po9ts on :i* we 7 accu/om$ to conv]se4 ,"s _h n ! p[] to revise _! cre$s & _! way ( talk+ & prea*+1 & br+ !m into h>mony ) ,scripture & common s5se4 ,& p ( ?is class 7 sure to look on all :o did n see ?+s 9 ! same light z !mselves1 z dang]\s or damnable h]etics4 ,!y1 ( c\rse1 conclud$ t ,i 0 n s\nd 9 ! fai?4 ,!y felt t ,i 0 a tr\blesome1 & fe>$ t ,i 0 a lo/ & ru9$ man4 ,! rem>ks :i* ,i made to !m1 !y repeat$ to _! fri5ds2 & z !y seldom succe$$ 9 und]/&+ me prop]ly1 _! reports 7 g5]ally incorrect4 ,9 "s cases my /atem5ts 7 report$ ) important additions1 & 9 o!rs ) s]i\s alt]ations1 & 9 "s cases _! mean+ 0 entirely *ang$4 ,& ! *ange 0 seldom to my advantage4 ,a diff]5ce ( expression betwe5 me & my bre?r5 0 mi/ak5 = a diff]5ce ( belief2 & ! disuse ( an unscriptural ^w1 0 mi/ak5 = a r5unciation ( a ,*ri/ian doctr9e4 ,a dispute ab\t ! et]nal son%ip 0 mi/ak5 = a dispute ab\t ! div9ity ( ,*ri/1 & a diff]5ce ( op9ion ab\t ! mean+ ( a passage ( ,scripture1 came to be report$ z ! d5ial ( ,*ri/'s au?ority4 ,9 "o case ,i gave x z my judgm5t t !re 7 really righte\s p on e>? :5 ,*ri/ came into ! _w1 & t x 0 to su* t ,*ri/ ref]r$1 :5 ,he said1 ,he came n to call ! righte\s1 b s9n]s to rep5tance4 ,?is 0 made into an ass]tion t ! com+ ( ,*ri/ 0 unnecess>y4 ,inability to accept unau?oriz$ def9itions & unscriptural !ories ( ,scriptural doctr9es1 0 con/ru$ into a d5ial ( ^? doctr9es4 ,my endeavor to /rip religi\s subjects ( ne$less my/]y1 0 repres5t$ z an attempt to sub/itute a va9 philosophy = ! ,gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,an expression ( dissatisfaction ) a gr&iloqu5t b fooli% & mis*iev\s s]mon on ! ,cross ( ,*ri/1 0 set d[n z a pro( t my views on ! sacrifice ( ,*ri/ 7 n evangelical4 ,my endeavors to %[ t ,*ri/ianity 0 9 h>mony ) reason1 7 mi/ak5 = an attempt to sub/itute reason = fai?1 & became ! occasion ( a rumor t ,i 0 runn+ into ,pelagianism or ,soc9ianism4 ,my own conviction 01 t ,i 0 com+ ne>] to ! simplicity1 ! purity1 & ! fulness ( ! ,gospel2 & t is my conviction /ill4 ,& ^? ( my bre?r5 9 ! m9i/ry :o 7 9 advance ( ! re/ 9 po9t ( intellig5ce & piety1 & :o 7 lea/ infect$ ) fooli% fe> & jeal\sy1 express$ to me _! satisfaction ) my views & proce$+s4 ,& ! p li/5$ to my disc\rses ) ! greate/ delight4 ,!y flock$ to he> me 9 cr[ds2 & ! cr[ds cont9ually increas$4 ,& _m 7 b5efit$ "u my m9i/ry4 ,s9n]s 7 conv]t$1 & believ]s 7 com=t$1 & /imulat$ to great] ef=ts 9 ! cause ( ,god4 ,to ^?1 h[ev]1 :o _h come to believe t ,i 0 drift+ t[>ds h]esy1 all ?is 0 ! occasion ( great] al>m1 & my great success & gr[+ popul>ity l$ !m to make increas+ ef=ts to less5 my influ5ce1 or sil5ce me altoge!r4 ,_! conduct caus$ me great uneas9ess1 & x 0 ?is t fir/ awak5$ 9 me unhappy feel+ t[>ds !m4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,a ,,second ,,t5d5cy4 ,,practical ,,prea*+4 ,i _h a second p[]ful t5d5cy :i* help$ to get me into tr\ble1 & s became an occasion ( unhappy feel+1 namely1 a practical t5d5cy4 ,?is 0 br$ 9 me4 ,x 0 a family peculi>ity2 x ran 9 ! blood4 ,my fa!r _h x4 ,religion ) him 0 goodness ( he>t & goodness ( life2 fe>+ ,god & work+ righte\sness2 lov+ ,god & keep+ ,8 comm&m5ts4 ,& 8 belief & life 7 "o4 ,i nev] knew a m consci5ti\s or godly man4 ,& ,i nev] knew a man :o c\ld m truly h utt]$ ! words ( ! ,psalmi/3 ,"l1 my he>t is n haughty1 nor m9e eyes l(ty2 nei!r d ,i ex]cise myself 9 great matt]s1 or 9 ?+s too high = me4 ,surely ,i h behav$ & quiet$ myself z a *ild t is wean$ ( its "m2 my s\l is ev5 z a wean$ *ild4 ,:at ,god _h left my/]i\s1 he 0 will+ %\ld rema9 s2 he f\nd suffici5t to meet 8 wants & to occupy 8 ?\ghts 9 :at ,he _h cle>ly reveal$4 ,he nev] tr\bl$ ei!r himself or 8 *ildr5 ) ^? incompreh5sible subjects on :i* _m p are s prone to speculate & dogmatize4 ,he read b few books1 & ^? :i* he read he c>efully comp>$ ) ! sacr$ ,scriptures4 ,! ,bible 0 8 only au?ority1 & by x he te/$ bo? books & prea*]s1 receiv+ no?+ b :at he saw & felt to be 9 h>mony ) its _s & tea*+s4 ,he lik$ ,bunyan1 especially 8 ,pilgrim's ,progress2 & he lik$ ,wesley2 b he lik$ ! ,bible be/4 ,!re 7 no b\nds to 8 love & rev]5ce = ! ,scriptures4 ,he reg>d$ !m z ! p]fection ( all wisdom1 ! true & p]fect unfold+ ( ! m9d & w ( ,god4 ,he read !m e morn+ on 8 knees1 be=e ! re/ ( ! family 7 up4 ,:atev] might be ! calls ( bus9ess1 he sp5t a full h\r 9 ?is ex]cise4 ,he read !m e noon to 8 family4 ,he read !m at night be=e retir+ to re/4 ,he read !m ) a s9c]e desire to le>n ,god's w1 & ) e>ne/ pray] = ,div9e help to enable him to d x4 ,he read !m till all ! pla9] & m practical portions 7 safely lodg$ 9 8 memory1 & deeply engrav5 on 8 he>t4 ,he read !m till _! tea*+s became a "p ( 8 v nature1 & %one =? 9 8 "* 9 all ! beauty ( hol9ess4 ,he 0 a ?or\gh ,*ri/ian4 ,! oracles ( ,god 7 ! rule bo? ( 8 fai? & conduct4 ,!y leav5$ 8 :ole s\l4 ,!y m+l$ ) all 8 conv]sation4 ,!y 7 8 only c\nsellors & 8 *ief com=t]s4 ,!y 7 8 law1 8 politics1 8 philosophy1 8 morals4 ,!y 7 8 treasure & 8 song4 ,& he receiv$ _! tea*+s 9 _! simple1 obvi\s1 common-s5se mean+4 ,he _h q a di/a/e = comm5t>ies1 because !y w\ld n all[ ! ,scriptures to speak =? _! own solemn mean+ 9 _! own pla91 artless way4 ,he hat$ ! notes to ,bunyan's ,pilgrim's ,progress = ! same reason4 ,he c\ld und]/& ! ,bible1 b he c\ld n und]/& ! explanations ( x giv5 by !ologians4 ,he w\ld n /udy !ology4 ,he w\ld /udy ! ,bible & ,*ri/2 he w\ld /udy precepts & promises1 exhortations & w>n+s1 examples & hi/orics2 b n !ology4 ,& he nev] bo!r$ u ) !ology4 ,!re 0 no !ology 9 8 conv]sation4 ,!re 0 none 9 8 pray]s4 ,he nev] us$ !ological t]ms4 ,9 all he said on religi\s matt]s1 :e!r to ,god or man1 he us$ ! simple/ ,bible t]ms4 ,he seldom talk$ mu* to 8 *ildr5 ab\t religion2 he taught u m by 8 de$s & _s ?an by words2 b :5 he did say any?+ to u on ! subject1 x 0 ! pure1 unadult]at$ ,^w ( ,god4 ,! idea ( mak+ u !ologians1 9 ! ord9>y s5se ( ! ^w1 nev] ent]$ into 8 head4 ,he wi%$ u to ?9k & feel & act l ,*ri/ians1 & t 0 all2 & ! end ( all 8 c\nsels & labors 0 to furni% u unto e good ^w & "w4 ,if he _h writt5 a sy/em ( div9ity1 he w\ld h left out mo/ ( ! ?+s :i* _m put into su* books1 & put 9 _m :i* mo/ leave out4 ,x w\ld h be5 a book to help p to live "r & feel "r1 & n to dream1 or speculate1 or wrangle4 ,if he _h be5 a prea*]1 he w\ld h fill$ 8 s]mons ) ! liv+ words ( ,moses & ! ,prophets1 ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les1 & press$ !m on ! consci5ces ( 8 he>]s ) all 8 might4 ,he w\ld (t5 h reason$ ( righte\sness1 temp]ance1 & a judgm5t to come1 b nev] tr\bl$ 8 he>]s ) human !ories ( ,*ri/ian doctr9es4 ,! drift & scope ( 8 s]mons to ! ungodly w\ld h be51 ,cease to d evil2 le>n to d well4 ,let ! wick$ =sake 8 way1 & ! unrighte\s man 8 ?\ghts1 & let him return unto ! ,"l1 & ,he w h m]cy ^u him2 & to our ,god1 = ,he w abundantly p>don4 ,repeat & be conv]t$1 e "o ( y1 t y\r s9s may he blott$ out4 ,! sub/ance ( 8 s]mons to believ]s w\ld h be51 ,i besee* y !re=e1 bre?r51 by ! m]cies ( ,god1 t ye pres5t y\r bodies a liv+ sacrifice1 holy1 acceptable unto ,god1 :i* is y\r reasonable s]vice4 ,ye are n y\r own2 ye are b\ght ) a price2 !re=e glorify ,god ) y\r bodies & y\r spirits1 :i* are ,84 ,= ye 7 n r$eem$ ) corruptible ?+s1 su* z silv] & gold1 f y\r evil way ( life receiv$ by tradition f y\r fa!rs2 b ) ! preci\s blood ( ,*ri/2 :o gave ,himself = y1 t ,he might r$eem y f all iniquity1 & purify y unto ,himself a peculi> p1 zeal\s ( good works4 ,be n deceiv$2 ,god is n mock$2 = :atsoev] a man s[e?1 t %all he also reap4 ,= he t s[e? to ! fle%1 %all ( ! fle%1 reap corruption2 b he t s[e? to ! ,_s1 %all ( ! ,_s reap life ev]la/+4 ,& let u n be we>y 9 well-do+2 = 9 due season we %all reap1 if we fa9t n4 ,z we h !re=e opportunity1 let u d good unto all m51 especially to ^? :o are ( ! h\sehold ( fai?4 ,he w\ld h spok5 ( ! love ( ,god1 & ( ! dea? ( ,*ri/1 & ( all ! great mov+ facts & doctr9es ( ! ,gospel2 b1 l ! sacr$ writ]s1 he w\ld h turn$ !m all to practical acc\nt4 ,8 aim 9 ev]y?+ w\ld h be5 to br+ m5 into subjection to ,god's w1 & into full con=mity ) ! tea*+s & "* ( ,*ri/4 ,my elde/ bro!r 0 a m9i/]1 & ?is 0 ! "* ( 8 prea*+4 ,8 favorite books 7 ,baxt]'s works & ! ,bible4 ,8 favorite m9i/] 0 ,william ,dawson1 "o ( ! mo/ practical1 e>ne/1 & common-s5se prea*]s t ev] occupi$ a pulpit4 ,l 8 fa!r1 he kept scrupul\sly to ! simple tea*+s ( ! ,scriptures1 & he 0 once *>g$ ) uns\ndness 9 ! fai?1 because he w\ld n be wise above :at 0 reveal$1 nor prea* m ?an ! ,gospel committ$ to him by ,*ri/4 ,x 0 ! same ) myself4 ,i look$ on ,*ri/ianity1 f ! fir/1 z a means ( enlight5+ & reg5]at+ mank9d1 & *ang+ !m into ! lik5ess ( ,*ri/ & ( ,god4 ,9 o!r words1 ,i reg>d$ x z a gr& in/rum5t appo9t$ by ,god1 = mak+ bad m5 into good m51 & good m5 always bett]1 ?us fitt+ !m = all ! duties ( life1 & all ! bless$ness !y 7 creat$ to enjoy4 ,& ,i consid]$ t ! great bus9ess ( a ,*ri/ian m9i/] 0 to use x = ^? great ends4 ,& ,i ?9k s /ill4 ,! ,bible is ! mo/ practical book "u heav51 & ,i _c conceive h[ any "o c read x c>efully1 ) a m9d unbias$ by prejudice or evil feel+1 )\t p]ceiv+ t its great object is to br+ m5 to fe> & love ,god1 & to make !m p]fect 9 e good "w to d ,8 w4 ,h[ any "o c /udy ,*ri/ianity )\t p]ceiv+ t its design is to br+ m5 into h>mony ) ,god1 bo? 9 he>t & action1 & to make !m /eadfa/1 immovable1 always ab\nd+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l1 is a my/]y to me4 ,ant9omianism is ,anti*ri/4 ,! prea*+ :i* t5ds to less5 m5's s5se ( duty1 or to reconcile p to a selfi%1 idle1 or useless life1 is contr>y bo? to ,*ri/ianity & common s5se4 ,& all int]pretations ( ,scripture :i* favor ! doctr9e t m5 h no?+ to d b to believe & tru/ 9 ,*ri/1 are madness or impiety4 ,! impression :i* ,god seeks to make on our m9ds f ! beg9n+ ( ,g5esis to ! end ( ,revelation is1 t if we w\ld h ,8 favor & bless+1 we mu/ d ,8 w4 ,! :ole ,bible is "o great lesson ( piety & virtue1 ( love & b5efic5ce4 ,*ri/ is ! ,au?or ( et]nal salvation to ^? only :o obey ,him4 ,^? :o obey ,him n ,he w puni% ) ev]la/+ de/ruction4 ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les agree t1 if we w\ld see ,god & h et]nal life1 we mu/ be holy z ,god is holy1 m]ciful z our ,fa!r 9 heav5 is m]ciful1 righte\s z ,*ri/ 0 righte\s2--t ,god1 :o is love1 & ,*ri/1 :o is ,god1 mu/ dwell 9 u1 live 9 u1 "w 9 u2--t c>nal1 s9ful self mu/ die1 & grace reign 9 u ?r\gh righte\sness unto et]nal life4 ,i "k :at c be said ab\t doctr9es2 b !re are no doctr9es 9 ! ,scriptures at v>iance ) ! pr9ciple t ,god w r5d] to e man accord+ to 8 de$s1--t to !m :o by pati5t cont9uance 9 well-do+ seek = glory1 honor1 & immortality1 ,he w give et]nal life2 & t to !m :o are cont5ti\s1 & d n obey ! tru?1 b obey unrighte\sness1 ,he w recomp5se indignation & wra?1 tribulation & angui%4 ,nay1 ! doctr9es ( ,scripture are employ$ ?r\gh\t z motives & inducem5ts to righte\sness4 ,?is is _! use4 ,! tru? is taught u t x may make u free f s91 & sanctify bo? our he>ts & lives to ,god4 ,! ,^w ( ,god1 ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/1 is s[n 9 our he>ts z se$ 9 ! gr\nd1 t x may br+ =? 9 our lives ! fruits ( righte\sness4 ,! (fice ( fai? 9 ,*ri/ & ,8 doctr9e is1 to "w by love1 to make u new creatures1 & s br+ u to keep ,god's comm&m5ts4 ,! bl9de/ man on e>? is n m bl9d ?an ! man :o c read ! ,scriptures )\t p]ceiv+ t _! object is to make m5 p]fect1 ?or\ghly furni%$ unto all good works4 ,z ,i _h nev] be5 plac$ = in/ruction "u any ,ant9omian !ologian1 & _h nev] be5 taught at home1 ei!r by ^w or de$1 to wre/ ! ,scriptures f _! pla9 & simple mean+1 ,i naturally became a ?or\ghly practical prea*]4 ,i took practical texts3 ,i prea*$ practical s]mons4 ,! fir/ text f :i* ,i prea*$ 01 ,say ye to ! righte\s1 x %all be well ) !m1 = !y %all eat ! fruit ( _! do+s4 ,wo unto ! wick$1 x %all be ill ) him2 = ! rew>d ( 8 h&s %all be giv5 him4 ,! second 01 ,bless$ are ! pure 9 he>t1 = !y %all see ,god4 ,! ?ird 01 ,ye are n y\r own2 ye are b\ght ) a price2 !re=e glorify ,god ) y\r bodies & spirits1 :i* are ,god's4 ,& ! f\r? 01 ,^! %all g away into ev]la/+ puni%m5t2 b ! righte\s into life et]nal4 ,! foll[+ 7 among my pr9cipal texts & subjects = _m ye>s3 ,occupy till ,i come4 ,let y\r light s %9e be=e m51 t !y may see y\r good works1 & glorify y\r ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav54 ,h]e9 is my ,fa!r glorifi$1 t ye be> mu* fruit4 ,he t %[e? m]cy ) *e]fulness4 ,be ye !re=e m]ciful1 z y\r ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav5 is m]ciful4 ,he t w9ne? s\ls is wise4 ,tra9 up a *ild 9 ! way he %\ld g1 & :5 he is old he w n dep>t f x4 ,! ,good ,sam>itan4 ,! ,prodigal ,son4 ,! ,b>r5 ,fig-tree4 ,! ,hatefulness & ,wick$ness ( ,lukew>mness4 ,! ,woman t did :at %e c\ld4 ,! ,*ri/ian's ,race4 ,! ,good ,/ew>d4 ,! duty ( ,*ri/ians to /rive ) "o he>t & "o m9d = ! fai? ( ! ,gospel4 ,! example ( ,*ri/4 ,give no occasion to ! adv]s>y to prea* reproa*fully4 ,& n[ abide? fai?1 hope1 *>ity1 ^! ?ree2 b ! greate/ ( ^! is *>ity4 ,!re=e1 my belov$ bre?r51 be ye /eadfa/1 unmovable1 always ab\nd+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l1 =asmu* z ye "k t y\r labor is n 9 va9 9 ! ,"l4 ,= ,i am n a%am$ ( ! gospel ( ,*ri/3 = x is ! p[] ( ,god unto salvation3 to e "o t believe?3 to ! ,jew fir/1 & also to ! ,greek4 ,i mu/ "w ! works ( ,him t s5t me1 :ile x is day3 ! night come?1 :5 no man c "w4 ,= ye "k ! grace ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 t1 ?\gh ,he 0 ri*1 yet = y\r sakes ,he became poor1 t ye ?r\gh ,8 pov]ty might be ri*4 ,z we h !re=e opportunity1 let u d good unto all m51 especially unto !m :o are ( ! h\sehold ( fai?4 ,be n deceiv$2 ,god is n mock$3 = :atsoev] a man s[e? t %all he also reap4 ,= he t s[e? to 8 fle% %all ( ! fle% reap corruption2 b he t s[e? to ! ,_s %all ( ! ,_s reap life ev]la/+4 ,bre?r51 if a man be ov]tak5 9 a fault1 ye :i* are spiritual re/ore su* an "o1 9 ! _s ( meekness2 consid]+ ?yself le/ ?\ also be tempt$4 ,& let u n be we>y 9 well do+3 = 9 due season we %all reap1 if we fa9t n4 ,fe$ ,my %eep4 ,fe$ ,my lambs4 ,be> ye "o ano!r's burd5s1 & s fulfil ! law ( ,*ri/4 ,rememb] ! poor4 ,freely ye h receiv$2 freely give4 ,x is m bless$ to give ?an to receive4 ,i _h q a multitude ( su* subjects4 ,i did n h[ev] conf9e myself to ^!4 ,i did my be/ to decl>e ! :ole c\nsel ( ,god4 ,i kept back no?+ t seem$ likely to be useful to my he>]s4 ,i spoke on ! love ( ,god1--on ! condesc5sion ( ,*ri/1--( ,8 unp>allel$ love 9 giv+ ,himself a sacrifice = our salvation4 ,i spoke ( ,8 suff]+s & dea?1--( ,8 resurrection & m$iation1--( ,8 sympa?y ) our sorr[s1--( ,8 com+ to judgm5t4 ,i spoke ( ! mis]ies ( s91--( ! pleasures ( religion1--( ! joys ( heav51--( ! pa9s ( hell1--( provid5ce1 & ( tru/ 9 ,god4 ,9 %ort1 ,i prea*$ on e great doctr9e ( revelation z ,i _h opportunity4 ,i rev]$ all ,god's tru?1 & ,i prea*$ on e "p ( x ) fidelity4 ,b ,i treat$ ev]y?+ 9 a practical way4 ,i us$ e subject z a means or motive to hol9ess & usefulness4 ,& ?is1 ,i believe1 0 "r4 ,! ,apo/les did s1--,*ri/ did s1--& !y are ! ,*ri/ian m9i/]'s examples4 ,i _h a p>tiality = practical books4 ,z ,i h already said1 among my favorite ,engli% au?ors 7 ,hook]1 & ,baxt]1 & ,b>r[1 & ,h[e1 & ,j]emy ,taylor1 & ,p5n1 & ,tillotson1 & ,law4 ,baxt] /ood fir/1 & my favorite books 7 8 ,*ri/ian ,directory1 8 ,life ( ,fai?1 8 ,crucifixion ( ! ,_w by ! ,cross ( ,*ri/1 & 8 ,directions = ,settl$ ,peace ( ,consci5ce4 ,b1 9 tru?1 x is h>d to say :i* ( 8 works ,i did n reg>d z favorites4 ,i lik$ 8 ,ca?olic ,!ology1 8 ,aphorisms on ,ju/ification1 8 ,confessions1 & ev5 8 ,lat9 ,me?odus ,!ologiae4 ,i read him ev]la/+ly4 ,i read ,law & ,b>r[ too1 till ,i almo/ knew _m ( _! works by he>t4 ,i /udi$ ,p5n f beg9n+ to end4 ,& ,i nev] got tir$ ( read+ ,hook]4 ,i reg>d$ 8 ,ecclesia/ical ,polity z "o ( ! ri*e/1 sweete/1 wise/1 sa9tlie/ books "u heav54 ,my favorite ,fr5* au?ors 7 ,massillon1 ,f5elon1 ,fle*i]1 ,b\rdal\e & ,saur91 all practical prea*]s4 ,massillon mov$ me mo/4 ,i h read him n[ at int]vals = m ?an =ty ye>s1 & ,i read him /ill ) undim9i%$ pr(it & delight4 ,he is ! greate/ ( all prea*]s2 ! mo/ eloqu5t1 ! mo/ p[]ful2 & 8 works ab\nd ) ! gr&e/1 ! pr(\nde/1 ! mo/ impressive & ov]p[]+ views ( tru? & duty4 ,among ! ,fa!rs ,i lik$ ,lactantius & ,*ryso/om be/1 n only = ! sup]iority ( _! /yle1 b = ! common s5se & practical "* ( _! s5tim5ts4 ,my favorite ,me?odi/ au?or1 :5 ,i fir/ began my ,*ri/ian c>e]1 0 ,b5son4 ,8 s]mons 7 full ( f]vor & p[]4 ,i felt less int]e/ 9 ,wesley at fir/4 ,i 0 incapable ( duly appreciat+ 8 works4 ,z ,i grew old]1 & got m s5se1 my e/imate bo? ( 8 "* & writ+s rose1 & n[ ,i l him bett]1 & e/eem him m highly1 ?an at any =m] p]iod ( my life4 ,& ,i l 8 late/ writ+s be/4 ,i lik$ ,flet*] v mu*1 p>tly on acc\nt ( ! good1 k9d ,*ri/ian feel+ t p]vad$ 8 writ+s1 & p>tly on acc\nt ( 8 able & unansw]able def5ce ( ! enlight5$ & scriptural views ( ,wesley1 z set =? 9 ! ,m9utes ( #agga4 ,among ! lat] ,diss5t+ writ]s1 ,rob]t ,hall 0 my favorite4 ,i lik$ _m ?+s 9 ! writ+s ( ,john ,angell ,james2 b !re 7 o!r ?+s1 especially 9 8 ,anxi\s ,inquir]1 t appe>$ to savor m ( my/icism ?an ( ,*ri/ianity1 & t seem$ bett] calculat$ to p]plex & emb>rass "y disciples ( ,*ri/1 ?an to af=d !m guidance & com=t4 ,!re 7 _m o!r good au?ors :om ,i read & priz$1 b mo/ ( ! above ,i read till _! ?\ghts & feel+s became1 to a great ext5t1 my own2 & ! effect ( all 0 to /r5g!n ! already /rong practical t5d5cy ( my m9d4 ,b no book did s mu* to make me a practical prea*] z ! ,bible4 ,x is practical ?r\gh\t--int5sely practical1 & no?+ else b practical4 ,! mom5t x introduces man to our notice1 x pres5ts him z subject to ,god's law1 & repres5ts 8 life & bless$ness z dep5d+ entirely on 8 ob$i5ce4 ,god is pres5t$ f ! fir/ z an av5g] ( s91 & z a rew>d] ( !m t dilig5tly seek ,him4 ,9 ,8 address to ,ca9 ,he sets =? ! :ole pr9ciple ( ,8 gov]nm5t3 ',if ?\ doe/ well1 %alt ?\ n be accept$8 ,b if ?\ doe/ n well1 s9 lie? at ! door4' ,eno* is translat$ because he walk$ ) ,god4 ,! _w is de/roy$ because ( its wick$ness1 & ,noah is sav$ because ( 8 righte\sness4 ,abraham is bless$ because he obs]ves ! /atutes & judgm5ts ( ,god1 & because he is ready to make ! greate/ sacrifices out ( respect to ,8 comm&s4 ,! sum ( ! :ole revelation giv5 to ! ,jews is1 ,behold ,i set be=e y life & dea?1 a bless+ & a curse4 ,obey1 & all conceivable bless+s %all be y\r portion3 disobey1 & all imag9able curses %all fall on y4 ,! hi/ory ( ! ,jews is an ev]la/+ /ory ( ob$i5ce & prosp]ity1 ( disob$i5ce & adv]sity4 ,! hi/ory ( individuals is ! same4 ,! j live2 ! wick$ die4 ,! good are honor$2 ! bad are put to %ame4 ,! ,psalms1 ! ,prov]bs1 & ! ,prophets are all lessons ( righte\sness4 ,righte\sness exalte? nations2 s9 br+s !m d[n to de/ruction4 ,& ,jesus & ,paul1 & ,pet] & ,james1 & ,jude & ,john1 h all "o aim1 to bless m5 by turn+ !m away f _! iniquities1 & by urg+ !m to p]petual advancem5t 9 hol9ess4 ,all ! hi/ories1 all ! biographies1 all ! prophecies1 all ! p>ables1 all ! prea*+1 all ! pray+1 all ! writ+1 all ! reason+1 all ! ?+s ! ,book conta9s1 h j "o object1 to make m5 good1 & urge !m to gr[ cont9ually bett]4 ,all ! doctr9es are practical1 & are us$ z motives to purity1 love & b5efic5ce4 ,all ! promises are giv5 to support & *e] p 9 ! fai?ful dis*>ge ( _! duty4 ,all ! w>n+s are to keep m5 f idl5ess1 selfi%ness & s94 ,! ,*ur* & all its m9i/ries2 ! ,scriptures & all _! revelations2 ,provid5ce & all its disp5sations2 nature & all h] op]ations1 are all pres5t$ z means & motives to a life ( holy love & usefulness4 ,! ,bible has no?+1 is no?+1 b laws & lessons1 aim+ at ! illum9ation1 ! sanctification1 ! moral & spiritual p]fection ( mank9d4 ,idl5ess & selfi%ness are ! greate/ ( all h]esies1 & love & b5efic5ce ! p]fection ( all religion4 ,no doctr9e c be fals] or m anti-*ri/ian ?an ! doctr9e t a man may s[ "o ?+ & reap ano!r2 t he may s[ t>es & reap :eat2 or s[ cockle & reap b>ley--t he c gr[ ?i/les & reap figs1 or plant ?orns & ga!r grapes4 ',he t doe? good is ( ,god2' 'he t committe? s9 is ( ! devil4' ',by ?is we "k t we h pass$ f dea? unto life1 because we love ! bre?r54' ',by ?is %all all m5 "k t ye are my disciples1 if ye h love "o to ano!r4' ',ye "k t e "o t doe? righte\sness1 or lives to d good1 is born ( ,god4' ',by _! fruits ye %all "k !m4' ,good trees w br+ =? good fruit1 bad trees w br+ =? bad fruit4 ',e tree t br+e? n =? good fruit %all be hewn d[n & ca/ into ! fire4' ,b to give all ! practical passages ! ,bible conta9s y mu/ quote ! sub/ance1 ! s\l1 ! bulk ( ! :ole ,book4 ,x is all ( a piece4 ,x has "o aim & "o t5d5cy f beg9n+ to end1 to kill s9 & fo/] righte\sness1 to cru% selfi%ness & develop philan?ropy4 ,x consi/s ( a multitude ( p>ts1 writt5 9 diff]5t ages1 by a great v>iety ( au?ors1 9 a great v>iety ( /yles1 b x has "o _s1 ! _s ( tru? & righte\sness4 ,& ! la/ oracles x conta9s are l ! fir/3 ',bless$ are ! dead t die 9 ! ,"l2 !y re/ f _! labors1 & _! works foll[ !m4' ',bless$ are !y t d ,8 comm&m5ts1 t !y may h a "r to ! tree ( life1 & ent] 9 ?r\gh ! gates into ! city4' ,"u ! influ5ce ( ?is mo/ rational1 common-s5se1 practical ,book1 :at c\ld ,i d b become a ?or\ghly practical prea*]8 ,:at c\ld ,i d b dr9k 9 its bless$1 god-l lessons1 & make x ! great bus9ess ( my life to tea* !m & prea* !m to my he>]s1 & urge !m on _! consci5ces z ! gov]n+ pr9ciples ( _! he>ts & lives8 ,! book ( nature prea*es ! same practical ,gospel z ! ,bible4 ,!re is n a creature on e>? t is n requir$ to "w4 ,birds1 bea/s & insects mu/ all labor1 or die4 ,! birds mu/ build _! ne/s1 & ga!r supplies ( food = !mselves & _! "y1 or !y w\ld all p]i%4 ,! cattle mu/ graze1 or br[se1 or burr[1 or dive1 or lack _! ne$$ supplies ( food4 ,! beav] mu/ build its dam1 & ! wolf mu/ dig its hole1 & bo? mu/ labor = _! daily food4 ,! bee mu/ ga!r h] wax1 & build h] cell1 & fet* home h] honey1 or />ve4 ,! ant mu/ build h] palace & look out = food bo? = h]self & h] family4 ,! spid] mu/ sp9 h] ?read1 & weave h] web1 & wat* all day = h] prey4 ,all seek _! food f ,god1 & obta9 x at 8 h&s z ! rew>d ( _! indu/ry4 ,e organ 9 man's body has to "w1 or ! body1 ) all its organs1 w\ld die4 ,! lungs mu/ be cont9ually brea?+1 & ! he>t incessantly beat+1 & ! blood p]petually runn+ its my/]i\s r\nd1 or ! :ole frame w\ld p]i%4 ,& ! h&s mu/ "w1 & ! feet mu/ walk1 & ! eyes mu/ look1 & ! e>s mu/ li/51 & ! tongue mu/ talk4 ,& ! jaws mu/ gr9d our food1 & ! /oma* dige/ x1 & ! liv] & ! sple51 & ! bra9 & ! b[els1 & ! n]ves & ! gl&s mu/ all co-op]ate1 or we ha/5 to ! du/4 ,& s x is ?r\gh e dep>tm5t ( nature4 ,all ?+s are full ( labor4 ,! vegetable _w s]ves ! animal _w1 & ! animal _w s]ves ! vegetable _w1 & ! m9]al & meteorological worlds s]ve !m bo?4 ,& ! bran*es ( ! tree %$ _! leaves to fe$ ! roots1 & ! roots collect moi/ure & nutrim5t f ! soil to fe$ ! bran*es & ! leaves4 ,& ! cl\ds let fall _! %[]s1 & ! sun %$s d[n 8 w>m? & light1 & ! m my/]i\s p[]s ( nature ex]t _! secret influ5ces1 & all ?+s are ?us kept "r4 ,& ! w9ds keep ev] 9 motion1 be>+ away ! surplus cold ( "o region to temp] ! excessive heat ( ano!r1 & c>ry+ back ! surplus heat ( ! w>m] climes1 to s(t5 ! rigors ( ! cold] ones4 ,& s ?r\gh\t ! univ]se4 ,!re is n an idle orb 9 ! :ole heav5s1 nor is !re an idle atom on e>?4 ,! sun ! moon & ! />s are 9 et]nal motion1 & are ev]more ex]t+ _! wondr\s influ5ces = ! good ( ! :ole univ]se4 ,& ! /reams are ev] fl[+1 & ! sea is ev] toil+4 ,! great ?+s & ! small1 ! se5 & ! unse51 ! consci\s & ! unconsci\s1 are all at "w1 help+ !mselves1 & s]v+ ea* o!r1 & contribut+ ) "o cons5t to ! welf>e ( ! great my/]i\s :ole4 ,nature's laws are s fram$ t idl5ess is ev]y:]e puni%$1 & hone/ indu/ry ev]y:]e rew>d$4 ,ev]y:]e ob$i5ce is life1 & disob$i5ce dea?4 ,salvation by works is ! pr9ciple ( ! ,div9e ,gov]nm5t ?r\gh\t ! univ]se1 among all ! creatures ( ,god4 ,my favorite prea*]s 7 ,william ,dawson1 ,david ,/on] & ,james ,p>sons1 all eloqu5t & e>ne/ m51 & all decid$ly practical4 ,i nev] miss$ an opportunity ( he>+ !m if !y came )9 five or six miles ( ! place :]e ,i liv$4 ,& _m ( _! s]mons :i* ,i he>d m ?an =ty ye>s ago are /ill fre% 9 my memory1 & cont9ue to ex]t a happy influ5ce on my he>t4 ,william ,dawson 0 a local prea*]1 a f>m]4 ,he 0 a l>ge1 broad-*e/$1 big-head$1 /rong built man1--"o ( ! f9e/ specim5s ( a well-made1 ?or\ghly develop$ ,engli%man ,i ev] saw4 ,& he 0 full ( life4 ,!re 0 n a sluggi% atom 9 8 :ole body1 nor a sl[-go+ faculty 9 8 :ole s\l4 ,he _h eyes l fire2 & 8 face 0 ! mo/ expressive ,i ev] look$ ^u4 ,& 8 voice 0 l\d z ! fall ( mighty wat]s4 ,& x 0 wond]fully flexible1 & full ( music4 ,& he always spoke 9 natural tones4 ,!re 0 no?+ l cant or monotony 9 8 utt]ance4 ,yet he w\ld raise 8 voice to su* a pit* at times t y c\ld he> him half a mile away4 ,he 0 ! mo/ p]fect actor ,i ev] saw1 because he 0 n an actor at all1 b awful1 absolute reality4 ,& he 0 a man ( wond]ful intellig5ce & good s5se4 ,& he 0 well read4 ,8 m9d 0 full to ov]fl[+ ( ! s\nde/ religi\s k4 ,& 8 good s\nd s5se _h no p]ceptible admixture ( nons5se4 ,e s5t5ce answ]$ to y\r be/ ideas ( ! "r1 ! true1 ! holy1 ! div9e4 ,8 gramm>1 8 logic1 & 8 rhetoric 7 p]fect1 & all nature seem$ to /& by to supply him ) apt1 & /rik+1 & t\*+ illu/rations4 ,& 8 s\l 0 full ( feel+4 ,he seem$ to sympa?ize ) e =m ( humanity1 f ! helpless babe to tott]+ age1 & to be "o ) !m 9 all _! joys & sorr[s1 & 9 all _! hopes & fe>s4 ,& n[ he w\ld cry ) ! cry+ *ild1 & !n he w\ld wail ) ! afflict$ "m4 ,all t is great1 all t is t5d]1 all t is t]rible1--all nature1 ) all t is human1 & mu* t 0 div9e1 seem$ inc>nat$ 9 him4 ,he 0 ! mo/ wond]ful embodim5t ( all t goes to make a great1 a mighty1 a complete man1 & a good1 an able1 & an all-p[]ful prea*]1 x ev] 0 my privilege to see4 ,z a matt] ( c\rse1 8 pray]s1 8 s]mons1 & 8 public spee*es 7 irresi/ible4 ,s9n]s trembl$1 & fell on _! knees pray+ & h[l+4 ,sa9ts %\t$1 & lo/ !mselves 9 transports4 ,8 congregations 7 always cr[d$1 & ! d5se1 mix$ masses ( m5 & wom51 good & evil1 old & "y1 all 7 mov$ by him l ! sea by a /rong w9d4 ,all und]/ood him3 all felt him2 & all 7 aw$ & b[$ z by ! p[] ( ,god4 ,8 s]mons 7 always practical4 ,:e!r he spake to ! sa9t or ! s9n]1 he w5t directly to ! consci5ce4 ,& all t he said y saw4 ,s9 />$ y full 9 ! face & look$ unspeakably s9ful2 x rose & /ood be=e y a mon/] gr\p ( all imag9able horrors & abom9ations4 ,! s9n] %ook1 he %rank1 he wri!d at ! sight1 9 mortal agony4 ,god1 z ,dawson pictur$ ,him1 0 t]rible 9 maje/y & inf9ite 9 glory4 ,jesus 0 ! p]fection ( t5d]ness1 ( love1 & p[]1 & almighty to save4 ,?\s&s 7 conv]t$ "u him4 ,8 influ5ce p]vad$ ! :ole c\ntry1 & 0 ev]y:]e a *eck on evil1 & a p[] = good4 ,! effect ( 8 m9i/ry on me1 on my imag9ation1 my m9d & my he>t1 0 liv+ & p[]ful to ! la/ degree1 & ,i rememb] 8 s]mons1 & feel 8 p[]1 to ! pres5t day1 & he w dwell 9 my memory1 to be lov$ & honor$1 z long z ,i live4 ,david ,/on] 0 a travell+ prea*]4 ,he liv$ 9 ! same village z ,william ,dawson1 & 0 a memb] ( 8 class4 ,he 0 a disciple ( ,dawson 9 e respect1 b 9 no respect a s]vile imitator4 ,he 0 a man & n a slave4 ,& he _h mu* ( ,dawson's s5se1 & mu* ( ,dawson's p[]1 ?\gh little or no?+ ( ,dawson's natural dramatic mann]4 ,he 0 a f\nta9 p\r+ =? a p]petual /ream ( tru? & holy influ5ce4 ,! two 7 "o 9 love1 & light1 & p[]1 b 9 mann] !y diff]$ z mu* z any two p[]ful prea*]s ,i ev] knew4 ,bo? live 9 my s\l1 & speak ) my voice1 & write ) my p54 ,bo? _h an influ5ce 9 det]m9+ bo? ! me?od ( my prea*+ & ! mann] ( my life 9 my e>ly days4 ,james ,p>sons 0 a ,congregationali/4 ,8 "*1 & ! "* ( 8 prea*+1 may be le>n$ f 8 publi%$ s]mons4 ,b1 /range to say1 ! s]mons publi%$ by himself1 are n ne> s good1 nor d !y convey half s good an idea ( 8 p[]1 z ^? report$ by %ort-h& writ]s & publi%$ by o!rs4 ,he 0 m1 & bett]1 & mighti] 9 ! pulpit1 be=e a l>ge & liv+ congregation1 ?an 9 8 closet alone4 ,my remembrance ( ^! ?ree great & godly m51 & p[]ful ,*ri/ian m9i/]s1 is a ri* & et]nal treasure4 ,i c nev] come ne> !m1 b ,i may foll[ !m1 z ,i did 9 ! days ( my y\?1 ,af> (f4 ,:e!r ! /rong practical t5d5cy ( my m9d did n c>ry me too f> sometimes1 & make my prea*+ some:at "o-sid$1 ,i _c say4 ,i may n be consid]$ qualifi$ to judge4 ,i h1 h[ev]1 an op9ion on ! subject4 ,my impression is1 t my me?od ( prea*+ 0 ?or\ghly scriptural & evangelical4 ,& x 01 ,i believe1 ! k9d ( prea*+ :i* ! ,*ur* & ! _w p>ticul>ly ne$$4 ,x 01 too1 ! k9d ( prea*+ to :i* ,i believe ,i 0 specially call$1 & = :i* ,i 0 specially fitt$4 ,x 0 ! only k9d 9 :i* ,i felt myself p]fectly at home4 ,& ! effects 7 good4 ,s9n]s 7 conv]t$4 ,unbeliev]s 7 conv9c$4 ,& believ]s 7 improv$ & com=t$4 ,!y 7 l$ to read & /udy ! ,scriptures m1 & to read & /udy !m ) great] pleasure1 & to great] pr(it4 ,!y became m enam\r$ ( ,*ri/ianity1 m zeal\s = its spread1 & m able 9 its def5ce4 ,& ! societies among :i* ,i labor$ always prosp]$1 & ^? among :i* ,i labor$ mo/ prosp]$ mo/ abundantly4 ,my labors prov$ especially useful to ! "y4 ,my classes 7 cr[d$ ) ?\ghtful1 e>ne/1 inquir+ y\?s4 ,& ^? :o fell "u my influ5ce became1 z a rule1 intellig5t1 devot$1 & useful *>act]s4 ,n a few ( !m cont9ue labori\s & exempl>y ,*ri/ians1 & able & successful m9i/]s1 to ! pres5t day4 ,i meet ) good & useful p almo/ ev]y:]e1 _m ( :om are 9 ! m9i/ry1 :o ackn[l$ge me z _! spiritual fa!r1 & consid] !mselves indebt$ to my =m] m9i/ry1 & to my e>ly writ+s1 bo? = _! /&+ & usefulness 9 ! ,*ur*1 & = _! success & happ9ess 9 life4 ,"o w\ld suppose t a me?od ( prea*+ :i* 0 foll[$ by su* happy results1 %\ld h be5 enc\rag$4 ,& s x 0 by ! great mass ( ! p4 ,!y he>d me gladly4 ,!y came 9 cr[ds :]ev] ,i 0 ann\nc$ to prea*1 & fill$ ! l>ge/ *apels to _! utmo/ capacity4 ,!y drank 9 my words ) eag]ness1 & made no secret ( ! place ,i occupi$ 9 _! affection & e/eem4 ,b _m ( my bre?r5 9 ! m9i/ry reg>d$ me ) great disquietude4 ,!y ?\ght my prea*+ griev\sly defective4 ,x fail$1 !y said1 to give due prom95ce to ! di/9ctive features ( ! gospel economy4 ,x is good1 !y w\ld say1 z f> z x goes2 b x does n g f> en\gh4 ,x is too vague1 too g5]al4 ,8 s]mons are beautiful & good 9 _! way1 b !y are n ! ,gospel4 ,!y are true2 b !y are n ! :ole tru?4 ,!re is n en\gh ( ,*ri/ 9 !m4 ,we f9d fault ) !m1 n = :at !y conta91 b = :at !y d n conta94 ,true1 !y make m5tion ( ! great facts & doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity1 b !y d n make en\gh ( !m2 !y d n dwell on !m z _! con/ant !me4 ,!y made _m su* compla9ts4 ,!y *>g$ me ) w9n+ f my he>]s1 = a p>tial & defective view ( ! ,gospel1 ! love & rev]5ce :i* 7 due only to a v diff]5t view4 ,!y call$ me a legali/1 a "w-mong]1 & o!r (f5sive names4 ,!y *>g$ me too ) spoil+ ! p1 ) giv+ !m a di/a/e = ord9>y k9ds ( prea*+1 & mak+ x h>d = o!r prea*]s to foll[ me4 ,! compla9ts !y :isp]$ 9 ! e>s ( _! fri5ds soon f\nd _! way to m9e4 ,i endeavor$ to ju/ify myself by appeals to ,scripture1 to ,wesley1 & to o!r au?orities4 ,x w\ld h be5 bett] p]haps if ,i _h kept sil5t & gone quietly on ) my "w4 ,b "s ( my fri5ds ?\ght o!rwise4 ,!y wi%$ to be furni%$ ) answ]s to my traduc]s1 & s con/ra9$ me to speak4 ,my def5ce only l$ to r5ew$ & m viol5t attacks4 ,my oppon5ts c\ld n ?9k well ( my /yle ( prea*+1 )\t ?9k+ ill ( _! own4 ,!y c\ld n ackn[l$ge my me?od to be evangelical1 )\t confess+ _! own to be griev\sly defective1 & to h expect$ !m to d t w\ld h be5 ! extreme ( folly4 ,!y c\ld d no o!r !re=e ?an reg>d me z a dang]\s man1 & d :at !y c\ld to br+ my prea*+ & s5tim5ts into suspicion1 & prep>e ! way = my exclusion f ! m9i/ry4 ,?is 0 ! second cause ( ! unhappy feel+ :i* took possession ( my m9d4 ,a few quotations f a ,j\rnal writt5 ab\t ?is "t may be ( use & int]e/ "h4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,extracts ,,f ,,my ,,di>y4 ,i he>d ,t4 ,batty ye/]day4 ,8 text 01 ,come unto ,me all ye t labor1 & are heavy-lad51 & ,i w give y re/4 ,he urg$ p to come to ,*ri/1 b he nev] told !m :at x 0 to come to ,him4 ,we _c come to ,him lit]ally n[1 z p did :5 ,he 0 on e>?2 b we c leave all o!r tea*]s & guides1 & r5\nce ! dom9ion ( our appetites & passions1 & put ourselves "u ,8 tea*+ & gov]nm5t4 ,9 o!r words1 we c become ,*ri/ians2 we c le>n ,*ri/'s doctr9e & obey x1 &1 ?us obey+1 tru/ 9 ,him = salvation4 ,b ,mr4 ,batty said n a ^w ab\t ?is4 ,he talk$ z if all t p _h to d1 0 to roll !mselves on ,*ri/1 or ca/ !mselves on ,him j z !y 74 ,he made all ! passages ab\t br++ =? fruits meet = rep5tance1--he>+ ,*ri/'s words & do+ !m1--d5y+ ourselves & tak+ up our cross1--us+ our tal5ts1 work+ 9 ,8 cause1 c41 ( no effect4 ,he said1 ,come j z y are4 ,if y t>ry till y are bett]1 y w nev] come at all2 :i* seems to me1 nei!r ,scripture nor common s5se4 ,to come to ,*ri/1 9 ! prop] s5se ( ! words1 is to become bett]2--x is to cease to live to ourselves & s91 & to live to ,god4 ,h5ce ,*ri/1 9 connection ) ,mr4 ,batty's text says1 ,take my yoke ^u y1 & le>n ( ,me1 = ,i am meek1 & l[ly 9 he>t1 & ye %all f9d re/ unto y\r s\ls4 ,! mean+ ( ?is is1 give up ! s]vice ( self & s91 & s]ve me4 ,take me = y\r patt]n1 & be z ,i am1 & live z ,i live4 ,b he nev] notic$ ! latt] "p ( ! passage4 --,:at a bless$ ?+ x is to h s _m good books6 ,!y are a _w ( com=t to me1 z well z a means ( ev]-increas+ spiritual good4 ,& !y are ev]more />tl+ & delight+ me ) /rik+ oracles ( ,*ri/ian tru?4 ,"h is "o f ,baxt]4 ,e tru? ( ,god is appo9t$ to be ,8 in/rum5t1 to d "s holy "w ^u y\r he>t6 ,*>ity is ! end ( tru?4 ,"h is ano!r3 ,! ,gospel is a seal1 on :i* is engrav5 ! portrait1 ! lik5ess ( ,*ri/4 ,our he>ts are ! wax1 on :i* ! seal %\ld be impress$1 & to :i* ! lik5ess %\ld be transf]r$4 ,! duty ( m9i/]s & ( all religi\s tea*]s is to apply ! seal to m5's he>ts1 t all may be br\ght to be> ! image1 ! lik5ess ( ,*ri/4 --,i always plac$ ! moral elem5t ( religion above ! doctr9al2 *>ity above fai?2 good liv+ above any k9d ( op9ions4 --,?is aft]noon ,mr4 ,burr[s prea*$ on ,m>y's *oice1 b he left ! matt] 9 a mi/4 ,he talk$ ab\t sitt+ at ,*ri/'s feet1 b did n say :at x meant4 ,we _c d t lit]ally n[2 b we c d :at am\nts to ! same ?+4 ,we c read ,*ri/'s words 9 ! ,gospels1 z ,m>y he>d !m f ,8 lips2 & we c d z ,he bids u1 & look to ,him = all we ne$4 ,& ?is1 9 tru?1 is ! "o ?+ ne$ful4 ,b he did n put ! matt] 9 ?is light4 ,he probably did n see x 9 ?is light4 ,he w\ld h be5 afraid p]haps to receive or to give s simple an explanation ( ! matt]4 ,i _h a talk ) ,mr4 ,woodh\se la/ night1 ab\t man's natural /ate4 ,he prea*$ on ! subject on ,tuesday night1 & said ?+s :i*1 to me1 seem$ unw>rant$4 ,he said m5 c d no?+ good1 till !y are reg5]at$4 ,is t y\r idea8 said ,i4 ,( c\rse4 ,are !y n dead8 ,& :at c dead m5 d8 ,i suppose !y c d z ,god bids !m1 ,arise f ! dead4 ,y spoke ( ! result ( ,adam's s91 b y said no?+ ( ! effect ( ! second ,adam's do+s4 ,n[ ,i believe t we are put 9 z good a position by ,*ri/1 = s]v+ ,god & obta9+ heav51 z we %\ld h be5 if ,adam _h n s9n$4 ,i believe m5 h good ?\ghts1 good feel+s1 & d good ?+s1 be=e !y are reg5]at$2 & t !y are reg5]at$ 9 consequ5ce ( _! good ?\ghts1 good purposes1 & good de$s4 ,!y consid] _! ways1 & turn to ,god4 ,!y cease to d evil1 & le>n to d well1 & s get wa%$4 ,!y purify _! he>ts 9 obey+ ! tru?4 ,!y cleanse _! h&s & purify _! he>ts4 ,!y come out f ! ungodly1 & leave _! ungodly ways1 & !n ,god receives !m4 ,!y he> ,god's ^w or read x2 & fai? comes by he>+ & read+2 & fai? works by love1 & makes !m new creatures4 ,besides1 y "k we c\ld n help :at ,adam did1 & y talk$ z if ,adam's s9 made x impossible = u to d any?+ else b s91 ?us ?r[+ ! blame ( ! s9s ( all ! unreg5]ate on ,adam2 & t is nei!r ,scriptural nor wise4 ,!re are two t5d5cies 9 unreg5]ate p1 "o to good1 & "o to evil1 & x is _! duty to resi/ ! "o & obey ! o!r1 & ?us to seek = reg5]ation4 ,t is z ,i und]/& ! ,bible4 ,& ,i always try to make p believe & feel1 t if !y d n get reg5]at$1 & keep ,god's comm&m5ts1 x is _! own fault1 & nei!r ,adam's nor ,god's4 ,we talk$ ne>ly an h\r1 b ,i fancy ,mr4 ,w4 did n seem to und]/& ei!r me or ! ,bible4 ,x is /range t p c't take ,god's ^w z x /&s1 & cont5t !mselves ) speak+ z ! oracles ( ,god speak4 ,if we c't d any?+ b s9 till we are reg5]at$1 :o is to blame = our s91 b ,he :o neglects to reg5]ate u8 ,:at horrible notions are mi/ak5 by "s = ,gospel8 ,s5d out1 ,o ,god1 ?y light & tru?2 let !m lead me & guide me4 --,poor ,mr4 ,woodh\se is full ( tr\ble4 ,he ?9ks me wrong1 b does n see h[ to put me "r4 --,:at a curi\s creature ,mr4 ,batty is4 ,h[ 9 ! _w did he come to be a prea*]8 ,a /rang]1 silli] talk] ,i ?9k ,i nev] he>d4 ,i _c say he is *ildi% exactly4 ,*ildr5 talk nons5se pl5ty sometimes1 b no *ild c\ld talk ! k9d ( nons5se ,mr4 ,batty talks4 ,la/ night 8 text 01 ,he %all baptize y ) ! ,holy ,gho/ & ) fire4 ,b he =got ! ,holy ,gho/1 & talk$ only ab\t fire4 ,8 object seem$ to be to prove t fire w\ld burn4 ,he m5tion$ sev]al fires spok5 ( 9 ! ,bible t did burn1 su* z ! fire t consum$ ,sodom & ,gomorrah2 ! fire t =m$ "o ( ! plagues ( ,egypt2 c41 b he came at l5g? on ! fire 9 ! bu% t ,moses saw1 &1 poor man1 he 0 oblig$ to ackn[l$ge t t w\ld n burn4 ,! bu% 0 unconsum$4 ,he got away f t fire z soon z he c\ld1 & f\nd a numb] ( o!r fires t did burn4 ,by & by h[ev] he came ^u ! burn+ fi]y furnace ( ,nebu*adnezz>4 ,?is w\ld burn "s t 7 ?r[n into x1 b x w\ld n burn o!rs4 ,!n he talk$ ab\t ! fire ( ,mosc[1 & said1 t t fire gave z mu* light to ! moon1 z ! moon gives to ! e>?1 & he add$1 t ! flames ( ! burn+ city made su* a blaze1 t we might h se5 x 9 ,engl&1 if x _h n be5 = ! hills4 ,& ?is is ! talk t s5sible p are expect$ to g & he>4 --,mr4 ,w4 prea*$ "o ( ,mr4 ,melville's s]mons la/ night4 ,x 0 a good "o ?\gh1 & ,i _h r a man prea*$ ano!r man's good s5se1 ?an 8 own nons5se4 ,& ,i _h r he> a good s]mon read1 ?an a bad "o spok54 ,let u h good s\nd s5se1 real ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 & f]v5t ,*ri/ian love1 9 ! fir/ place1 & !n z _m o!r good ?+s z we c get4 ,b d let ! *ildr5 ( ,god h good :olesome bread1 ! bread ( heav51 & pure liv+ wat] f ! wells ( salvation4 ,don't try to fe$ m5's s\ls ) *aff or *opp$ /raw1 & don't give !m mud or muddy wat] to dr9k4 --,he>d ,mr4 ,hulme la/ night on ,! ,cross ( ,*ri/4 ,! s]mon 0 an attempt at f9e prea*+4 ,x 0 n to my ta/e4 ,! prea*] did n seem to und]/& 8 subject4 ,:at he said _h no?+ to d ) ! consci5ce or ! he>t4 ,x 0 talk1--tumid talk--high-swell+ words1 no?+ m4 --,he>d ,mr4 ,all5 prea* on ! ,flood4 ,he talk$ a deal ab\t granite--labor$ h>d to prove some?+2 b :e!r he succe$$ or n1 ,i _c exactly tell4 ,x 0 a great s]mon & _h little effect4 ,i did n feel mu* int]e/ 9 x4 --,he>d him prea* ano!r great s]mon on ,isaiah's vision4 ,x am\nt$ to no?+4 ,i pref] a simpl] & m practical k9d ( prea*+4 --,he>d him prea* ano!r s]mon on dea? by ,adam4 ,x 0 n s great nor s fooli% z ! o!rs4 ,! logic 0 we>isome1 b ! application 0 tol]able4 --,he>d ,dr4 ,newton1 on prea*+ ,*ri/4 ,8 views on ! subject are v diff]5t f ,wesley's1 & z diff]5t f m9e4 ,i h he>d _m silly s]mons on ! subject1 b n "o wise "o4 ,_m seem to be afraid ( be+ s5sible on religi\s subjects4 ,!y are wise en\gh on small] matt]s2 x is only on ! greate/ t _! und]/&+s are at fault4 ,b ! sillie/ prea*]s repeat good words 9 _! s]mons1 su* z ,*ri/1 ,god1 love & heav51 & ^! words no d\bt call up good ?\ghts1 & revive good feel+s 9 ! m9ds ( p1 s t ! mo/ pitiful prea*]s may be ( "s use4 ,b h[ mu* m useful w\ld good1 s\nd1 s5sible & truly ,*ri/ian prea*]s be1 :o always talk$ pla9 ,*ri/ian tru?1 & press$ x home 9 a lov+1 ,*ri/-l _s4 --,he>d ,mr4 ,curtis la/ night4 ,8 text & introduction 7 good2 b ! s]mon 0 good = no?+4 --,he>d ,mr4 ,pea ?is aft]noon4 ,! *ief use ( _m prea*]s is to visit ! memb]s1 & /& at ! head ( ! societies z c5tres ( union4 ,!y d n d mu* good by prea*+4 --,god save me f error & s94 ,lead me 9 ! way ( tru? & righte\sness4 ,i feel a dreadful contempt = "s m5's prea*+4 ,save me f go+ too f>4 ,b really1 to he> h[ c>eful "s are to w>n p aga9/ ?9k+ too highly ( good works1 "o might suppose t ! _w & ! ,*ur* 7 go+ to be s5t to p]dition = too mu* piety & *>ity2 = do+ too mu* good1 & mak+ too _m sacrifices = ,god & ! salvation ( ! _w4 ,o fools & bl9d1 n to see1 t selfi%ness1 idl5ess1 luxury1 pride1 worldl9ess1 slav]y to fa%ion1 neglect ( ! ,bible1 ignorance & lukew>mness are ! ?+s :i* disgrace & weak5 ! ,*ur*1 & h9d] ! salvation ( mank9d4 --,mr4 ,/on] prea*$ p[]fully la/ night4 ,he said all true ,*ri/ians w\ld sigh & cry on acc\nt ( ! abom9ations t are done 9 ! l&1--t !y w\ld accompany _! sigh+ & cry+ ) ceaseless labors = ! removal ( ^? abom9ations1--t !y w\ld try to br+ ! _w into ! ,*ur*1 & lift up ! ,*ur* to ! /&>d exhibit$ 9 ! life & "* ( ,*ri/1--t !y w\ld pray1 tea*1 live & give1 & if ne$ful1 suff] = ?is great end4 ,i h n he>d su* a practical1--su* a truly ,*ri/ian ,gospel s]mon = a long "t4 --,i notice1 t 9 "s m5's m\?s1 evangelical s]mons mean !ological s]mons1--wood1 hay1 & /ubble s]mons1--s]mons )\t any ,gospel 9 !m2 & t s]mons :i* are evangelical inde$1 !y talk ( z legal1 moral1 dry4 --,mr4 ,lynn prea*$ on ! fall ( ,j]i*o ye/]day4 ,x 0 q a dramatic s]mon1 & x 0 pla9ly int]e/+ to ! congregation4 ,i expect x 0 useful too4 ,!re 0 n mu* ,*ri/ian tru? 9 x1 b x /irr$ ! p's bett] feel+s4 ,x made !m feel l do+ some?+ = ,god4 ,! nons5sical !ology introduc$ w\ld n be und]/ood ,i hope4 --,he>d ,mr4 ,t4 ,p>sons prea* a beautiful ,*ri/ian s]mon on ,bre?r51 if a man be ov]tak5 9 a fault1 ye :i* are spiritual1 re/ore su* a "o 9 ! _s ( meekness1 consid]+ ?yself le/ ?\ also be tempt$4 ,be> ye "o ano!r's burd5s1 & s fulfil ! law ( ,*ri/4 ,x 0 full ( useful in/ruction & ne$ful caution1 & x 0 utt]$ 9 a truly ,*ri/ian _s4 ,x did me good4 --,he>d ,mr4 ,scott on ju/ification4 ,he v5tur$ to speak z ! oracles ( ,god4 ,x 0 a ?or\ghly ,gospel & ,wesleyan s]mon4 ,he 0 pla9] ?an he is 9 8 pamphlets on t subject4 ,i c't say he made ! subject pla91 = x 0 pla9 already 9 ! ,bible--b he left x pla91 & t is say+ a great deal4 ,he said t ! simple way = a man :o believes 9 ,*ri/1 to obta9 p>don & et]nal life is1 to d ,god's w4 ,i di/+ui% betwe5 fai? & tru/2 fai? is belief2 tru/ or hope is "o ( its fruits4 ,p believe 9 ,*ri/1 & turn to ,god2 !n !y tru/ 9 ,*ri/ & f9d peace4 ,he did n /ate ?is po9t ) suffici5t cle>ness2 & t 0 ! only defect ,i saw 9 ! disc\rse4 ,h[ ri* & h[ apt he is 9 ,scriptural quotations & illu/rations6 ,i _h r he> "o ( 8 disc\rses1 ?an t5 ( ,mr4 ,all9's4 ,& ,i _h r he> t5 ( 81 ?an "o ( ,mr4 ,all9's4 ,i _h r he> "o ( ,mr4 ,all9's1 ?an t52 & ,i _h r he> t5 ( ,mr4 ,scott's ?an "o4 ,i c\ld li/5 to ,mr4 ,scott ! :ole ye> r\nd4 --,i h j be5 read+ a big book1 ne>ly five hundr$ pages1 on ! way ( salvation4 ,! ,scriptures expla9 ! way ( salvation 9 less ?an a ?\s&? "p ! space4 ,rep5t & be conv]t$1 t y\r s9s may be blott$ out2 t's ! fir/ ?+3 ,be ye /eadfa/1 unmovable1 always ab\nd+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l3 t's ! second4 ,^! two include ! :ole way ( salvation4 ,bless$ is ev]yone t he>s ! ^w ( ,god & keeps x4 ,?is is bo? 9 "o4 ,my/]y mak]s w\ld be a prop] "n = "s !ologians4 ,9 ! multitude ( words !re wante? n s92 & !re's a fe>ful multitude ( words1--idle words1 & mis*iev\s ones too1--9 t ,book4 ,:5 w va9 words h an end8 --,mr4 ,hatman prea*$ on in/antane\s sanctification la/ night4 ,he 0 v confus$1 &1 z ,i ?9k1 inconsi/5t 9 8 rem>ks2 & 8 argu+ ab\t ! in/antane\sness ( sanctification seem$ weak4 ,sanctification1 9 ,scripture language1 means1 #a4 ,sep>ation ( ?+s & p]sons f common uses1 & consecration to sacr$ uses4 #b4 ,purification4 ,a man is sanctifi$ 9 ! fir/ s5se :5 he ceases to d evil1 & beg9s to d well2 & he is sanctifi$ 9 ! second s5se 9 proportion z he is fre$ f inw>d defilem5t1 f bad passions1 bad temp]s1 bad dispositions1 bad t5d5cies1 & fill$ ) love to ,god1 to ,*ri/1 to ,god's p1 to mank9d at l>ge1 & to all ?+s true & good4 ,!re is no my/]y ab\t sanctification4 ,p are sanctifi$ by ,god's tru?4 ,*ri/'s doctr9e ent]s ! m9d1 & is ! means ( *ang+ bo? ! disposition & ! life4 ,m5 are sanctifi$ by ! ,_s1 us+ ! tru? z its in/rum5t4 ,!y are sanctifi$ by afflictions1 us$ by ,god z means to br+ !m to ?9k on ! tru?1 & see its mean+1 & feel its p[]4 ,!y are sanctifi$ by fai?1 :i* is a belief 9 ! ,tru?4 ,!y are sanctifi$ by _! own ef=ts1 ,cleans+ !mselves f all fil?9ess1 bo? ( ! fle% & ! _s1 p]fect+ hol9ess 9 ! fe> ( ! ,"l4 ,= e "o t ha? ?is hope1--! ,*ri/ian hope ( heav51--9 him1 purifie? himself ev5 z ,god is pure4 ,all ?is is p]fectly pla94 ,b :]e does ! ,scripture say any?+ ab\t p be+ :olly sanctifi$1 or p]fect$ 9 goodness1 in/antane\sly1 by "s p>ticul> act ( fai?8 ,b ,god c d x 9 an in/ant1 said ,mr4 ,hatman4 ,b x is n all ,god's "w4 ,x is p>tly ours2 & x is p>tly ! tru?'s4 ,c man purify himself z ,god is pure1 9 an in/ant8 ,god c\ld make a babe into a man 9 an in/ant1 = any?+ ,i "k2 b t is n ,8 way4 ,he all[s x to gr[ gradually1 fir/ by ! use ( milk & ex]cise1 & !n by ! use ( /rong] meat1 & great] labors4 ,& accord+ to ,scripture1 ?is is ,8 plan ( br++ up spiritual babes to spiritual manhood4 ,god c\ld make se$ produce a crop in/antane\sly1 if ,he w\ld1 ,i suppose2 b ,8 plan is to let ! gra9 gr[ & rip5 gradually4 ,& x is ,8 plan1 accord+ to ,scripture1 to let ! spiritual gra9 gr[ up & ! spiritual h>ve/ rip5 gradually4 ,& x is bett] x %\ld be s4 ,gradual gr[? 9 k & goodness is mo/ conducive1 ,i believe1 to ! happ9ess ( man4 ,i w\ld n make a *ild into a man all at once if ,i c\ld4 ,i w\ld let him h ! pleasure & ! privilege ( pass+1 9 ! ord9>y way1 ?r\gh all ! int]m$iate /ages4 ,nor w\ld ,i alt] ! arrangem5t ) reg>d to spiritual gr[?4 ,x is be/ to le>n a lesson at a "t4 ,y might raise ! d\gh quick] by gunp[d] ?an by leav5 or yea/2 b ,i pref] to see x rais$ 9 ! ord9>y way4 ,i am cont5t to gr[ 9 grace & k1 z p gr[ 9 /r5g? & /ature4 ,x is ,god's plan1 & ,i l x4 ,if anybody c pass f ! gates ( hell to ! gates ( heav51 f ! bottom ( ! horrible pit to ! top ( ! delectable m\nta9s at a jump1 let him2 ,i pref] to trudge ) ord9>y pilgrims1 & enjoy ! pleasures ( ! j\rney1 & ! beautiful sc5]y ( ! road1 at my leisure4 ,! ways are ways ( pleasantness2 ! pa?s are pa?s ( peace2 & ,i enjoy !m4 ,& ,i w\ld n = ! _w1 make ! impression on p's m9ds1 t !y are 9 dang] ( p]dition1 if !y _c skip across ! univ]se f hell to heav5 9 no "t4 ,god likes spiritual *ildr5 z well z spiritual m51 ?\gh ,he w\ld n h !m to cont9ue *ildr54 ,:y %\ld prea*]s make ?+s h>d t ,god makes easy1 & require impossible tasks :]e ,god asks only a reasonable s]vice8 ,"s folks h little m9ds1 & "s h crook$ ones4 ,t's my view ( ! matt]4 ,i am *>g$ ) reject+ ,god's tru?4 ,! fact h[ev] is1 ,god's tru? is ! joy & rejoic+ ( my he>t4 ,x is my pleasant food4 ,b ,i d n l "s p's manglem5t ( t tru?1 & ,i sometimes ?9k ! mangl]s belong to ! class ( :om ,*ri/ said1 ,x 7 good = ^? m5 if !y _h nev] be5 born4 ,!y lay /umbl+-blocks 9 m5's ways1 & cause !m to fall into d\bt1 p]plexity1 & mis]y4 ,i am a believ] 9 sanctification1--full sanctification1--b ,i won't g beyond ! ,bible 9 :at ,i say1 ei!r on ?is or any o!r po9t4 ,i w g z f> z ! ,bible1 b no f>!r4 --,*ri/ianity is love2 & love prompts to dilig5ce 9 all good works4 ,to be a ,*ri/ian is to h ! m9d ( ,*ri/2 b ! m9d ( ,*ri/ 0 a self-sacrific+ m9d4 ,he pleas$ n ,himself1 b liv$ & labor$1 suff]$ & di$1 = ! welf>e ( mank9d4 ,h[ seldom "o he>s a s]mon on liv+ = ! good ( o!rs1--on lov+ our neighbors z ourselves1--on go+ ab\t do+ good4 ,i h read s]mons on ^? subjects2 b ,i h n he>d "o = ye>s4 ,i h he>d *>ity s]mons z !y are call$1 & mission>y s]mons1 into :i* a rem>k or two on do+ good 7 ?r[n2 b a s]mon on ! subject ,i h n he>d4 ,c]ta9 prea*]s talk ab\t prea*+ ,*ri/1 b !y prea* any ?+ r ?an ,*ri/4 --,i h j be5 read+ a labor$ & fooli% attempt to prove t ,abel 0 accept$ because he (f]$ animals to ,god1 & t ,ca9 0 reject$ because he (f]$ ! fruits ( ! gr\nd4 ,!re is no end to ! nons5se t c be talk$ & writt5 on religi\s subjects4 ,"h is a man f :om "o expect$ in/ruction & guidance1 wa/+ 8 great p[]s 9 worse ?an idl5ess4 ,x is a fooli% & a dang]\s ?+ to hang ! doctr9e ( reconciliation or r$emption on a sl5d] hook1 :5 !re are /rong ones pl5ty to hang x on4 ,b x is n ! ,*ri/ian doctr9e ( r$emption = :i* ,mr4 ,w4 labors s zeal\sly1 b a !ory1 a crot*et1 an inv5tion ( ! eld]s4 ,! doctr9e itself requires no labor$ pro(1 no d\btful criticisms1 no le>n$ or unle>n$ inquiry into ,greek & ,hebrew etymologies4 ,x lies on ! surface ( ! sacr$ page4 ,! ,son ( man came n to be m9i/]$ unto1 b to m9i/]1 & to give ,8 life a ransom = _m4 ,he di$ ! j = ! unju/1 to br+ u to ,god4 ,he di$ = all1 t !y :o live %\ld h5ce=? live n unto !mselves1 b unto ,him :o di$ = !m & rose aga94 ,^! !ori/s make ,*ri/ianity disgu/+ by _! metaphysical vanities1 & _! outl&i% j>gon4 ,! idea t x is necess>y = me to believe t ,abel und]/ood ! ,*ri/ian doctr9e ( r$emption1 is mon/r\s4 ,!re is no pro( t ,abel "k any?+ ab\t x4 ,! probabilities lean all ! o!r way4 ,x is a pity ^? self-satisfi$ !oriz]s h n some?+ else to d1 ?an to encumb] religion & p]plex good p by _! mis]able speculations4 --,!re's ano!r book1 "o ?\s& two hundr$ & fifty pages1 by a man t _h real tal5t1 & t c\ld prea* well :5 he took 9 h& practical subjects1 & :o _h ! appe>ance ( a good man1 & n9e-t5?s ( ?is "w ( 8 is mis*iev\s trifl+4 ,! cl[n at a !atre1 ! m\ntebank on ! /age1 are n s badly employ$ z !ological trifl]s1 :o d>k5 c\nsel by words )\t k4 ,x is n 9 pray] only1 b 9 prea*+ & writ+1 t m5 %\ld be 9 ,god's fe>1 & let _! words be few4 ,mr4 ,jones prea*$ la/ night on ,*ri/ 9 y1 ! hope ( glory4 ,i c und]/&1 #a4 ,h[ ,*ri/1 9 ! s5se ( ,*ri/ianity1 or ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/1 c be 9 u4 ,we sometimes he> f p su* expressions z3 ,he is full ( ,plato1 or full ( ,s5eca1 or full ( ,%akespe>e1 :5 speak+ ( a man :o has got 8 m9d full ( ! s5tim5ts ( ^? writ]s4 ,& ,i c und]/& well en\gh h[ ,*ri/ianity1 :i* br+s life & immortality to light1 %\ld beget 9 m5's m9ds a hope ( glory4 #b4 ,i c und]/& h[ ,*ri/1 9 ! s5se ( ,*ri/'s _s1 temp]1 disposition1 m9d1 c be 9 u4 ,we sometimes say ( a p]son :o exhibits mu* ( 8 fa!r's disposition1 ,he has got a deal ( 8 fa!r 9 him4 ,& ,i c und]/& h[ ,*ri/ 9 u 9 ?is s5se %\ld be1 or %\ld k9dle1 ! hope ( glory4 ,= ! m9d ( ,*ri/ is man's fitness = glory4 ,! m9d ( ,*ri/1 & ! life to :i* x prompts1 are ! ?+s to :i* et]nal glory is promis$4 ,b ,i c\ldn't und]/& ,mr4 ,jones4 ,ei!r he _h no ideas on ! subject1 or he fail$ to convey !m to me4 --,i see no my/]y 9 ,john's doctr9e t ,god dwells 9 ^? 9 :om love dwells1 = ,god is love4 ,& ,i see no my/]y 9 :at ,pet] says ab\t ,*ri/ians be+ p>tak]s ( ! div9e nature2 = ! ,div9e nature is purity1 wisdom & love4 ,we %>e ! common human nature & ! common animal nature2 t is1 we h c]ta9 qualities or prop]ties 9 common ) m5 g5]ally1 & ) ! inf]ior ord]s ( liv+ ?+s4 ,s we %>e ! div9e nature1 :5 we h ! same dispositions1 affections1 qualities z ! div9e ,be+4 ,& ! prop]ties ( ! div9e be+ are purity1 k1 love4 --,i h j be5 li/5+ to ano!r ant9omian s]mon4 ,! prea*] cont5d$ t we are ju/ifi$ & sav$ solely on acc\nt ( :at ,*ri/ has done & suff]$ = u1 & t ! only ?+ we h to d1 is to believe ?is1 or tru/ 9 ! m]its ( ,*ri/1 & be at re/ z to our et]nal de/9y4 ,b if we are sav$ solely on acc\nt ( :at ,*ri/ has done & suff]$1 :y talk z if our believ+ ?is1 or tru/+ 9 ,*ri/'s m]its1 0 necess>y to salvation8 ,:y n g a /ep fur!r & say1 t nei!r believ+ nor tru/+ has any?+ to d ) our salvation8 ,b ! :ole !ory is z anti-scriptural & false z x is fooli% & mis*iev\s4 ,! prea*] said1 ,we are n "u ! law1--,*ri/ has r$eem$ u f ! curse ( ! law4 ,v true2 b we are "u ! ,gospel2 & ! ,gospel requires a m p]fect life ?an ! law requir$4 ,! law ( ,*ri/ is mu* /rict] ?an ! law ( ,moses4 ,he said1 ,by ! works ( ! law no fle% liv+ c be ju/ifi$4 ,b we may /ill be ju/ifi$ by ! works ( ! ,gospel4 ,=give1 & ye %all be =giv54 ,by ?y words %alt ?\ be ju/ifi$1 & by ?y words %alt ?\ be condemn$4 ,) :at measure ye mete1 x %all be measur$ to y aga94 ,bless$ are ! m]ciful1 = !y %all obta9 m]cy4 ,because ?\ ha/ be5 fai?ful ov] a few ?+s1 ,i w make !e rul] ov] _m ?+s3 ent] ?\ into ! joy ( ?y ,"l4 ,rep5t & be conv]t$1 t y\r s9s may be blott$ out4 ,we h confid5ce 9 ! day ( judgm5t1 because z ,he 0 s are we 9 ?is _w4 ,he said circumcision availe? no?+2 & x is true t ! circumcision :i* is outw>d 9 ! fle% avails no?+ "u ! ,*ri/ian disp5sation3 b t :i* is inw>d1 namely1 ! putt+ away ( all fil?9ess1 & liv+ a holy life1 availe? mu*4 ,!n foll[$ a lot ( unscriptural & unwise talk ab\t our own righte\sness & ,*ri/'s righte\sness4 ,b ! tru? is1 :5 we love ,god & keep ,8 comm&m5ts1--:5 we love ,*ri/ & d z ,he bids u1 & believe1 9 consequ5ce1 t we are approv$ ( ,god1 & 9 a fair way = heav51 we tru/ 9 ,god's righte\sness1 or ,*ri/'s righte\sness1 & n 9 a righte\sness ( our own4 ,! righte\sness ( ,god means ! righte\sness :i* ,god requires2 ! righte\sness ( ,*ri/ means ob$i5ce to ,8 precepts1 & con=mity to ,8 m9d & "*4 ,true1 if ,i obey ! ,gospel1 my ob$i5ce is my own1 b ! law1 or ! righte\sness prescrib$1 is ,*ri/'s4 ,x is :5 m5 make a law ( _! own1--:5 !y set aside ,god's law1 & put "s o!r law 9 its place1 & expect ,god's bless+ 9 consequ5ce ( obey+ t1 t !y tru/ 9 _! own righte\sness4 ,& 9 all su* cases m5's own righte\sness1 9 ,god's sight1 is z fil?y rags4 ,b he>ty1 lov+ ob$i5ce to ,god's own law is nev] reg>d$ by ,him z fil?y rags1 b z a ri* adorn+4 ,real ,*ri/ian goodness is1 9 ! sight ( ,god1 ( great price4 ,?an gold or pe>ls m preci\s f>1 ,& bright] ?an ! morn+ />4 ,*ri/ian ob$i5ce is a sacrifice ) :i* ,god is well pleas$3 ,to d good & to communicate =get n1 = ) su* sacrifices ,god is well pleas$4 ,he alone tru/s 9 ! righte\sness ( ,*ri/ :o he>s ,*ri/'s words & does !m1--:o cultivates ,*ri/'s m9d1 & lives z ,*ri/ liv$1 & :o1 9 do+ s1 expects1 accord+ to ,*ri/'s promise1 ,god's bless+ & et]nal life4 ,! idea t ,god looks on any p]sons z hav+ liv$ l ,*ri/ :5 !y h n done s2 or t ,he supposes any p]sons to be righte\s1 or treats !m z righte\s1 :5 !y are n s1 is fooli% & anti-scriptural 9 ! extreme4 ,& x is unme?odi/ical too4 ,yet "h is a ,me?odi/ prea*] s-call$1 deal+ out ?is mis*iev\s & mis]able folly4 ,& alas he is n alone4 ,& ^! are ! m5 :o abuse o!rs z h]etics4 --,! good done :]e prea*]s prea* !ology is n done by ! prea*+1 ,i fancy1 b by /ray tru? f ! ,gospels1 & by ! ,*ri/ian lives & ,*ri/ian labors ( simple-m9d$1 ,bible-lov+1 non-!ological memb]s ( ! *ur*4 ,god bless !m6 --,wesley has ?irty def9itions ( religion1 & !y all mean1 9 sub/ance1 lov+ ,god & lov+ man1 & liv+ to d good4 ,wesley 0 always s5sible 9 proportion z he got away f "u ! influ5ce ( ! prevail+ ,!ology4 --,"s talk z if a religi\s education c nev] be ! means ( a *ild's conv]sion1--t1 d = y\r *ildr5 :at y w1 !y w /ill1 l o!rs1 require a di/9ct & full conv]sion :5 !y come ( age4 ,i _c see :y a good ,*ri/ian "m talk+ to h] *ild f h] old arm-*air1 & pray+ ) x z x kneels by h] side1 or ! good example & godly tra9+ ( a pi\s fa!r1 may n be made z effectual to ! gradual conv]sion ( a *ild z ! prea*+ ( a pa/or f ! pulpit4 ,nor c ,i see :y a gradual elevation ( a *ild to ! high] spiritual life %\ld n be z possible & z probable z ! sudd5 elevation ( a h>d5$ & invet]ate s9n]4 ',y _c give y\r *ildr5 grace1' x is said3 b x is easy to answ]1 ',,god c give *ildr5 grace ?r\gh ! m$ium ( ,*ri/ian p>5ts1 z well z ?r\gh public prea*]s & tea*]s4' ,i enc\rage p to br+ up _! *ildr5 9 ,*ri/ian k & goodness1 by tell+ !m t ,god may be expect$ to bless _! labors to ! sanctification & salvation ( _! *ildr5 f _! e>ly days4 ,baxt] us$ to ?ank ,god t he 0 l$ by 8 good p>5ts to love ,god s e>ly t he c\ld n recollect a "t :5 he did n love ,him4 --,*ur*es exi/ 9 ?is _w to rem9d u ( ! et]nal laws :i* we are b\nd to obey4 ,s f> z !y d ?is1 !y answ] _! end1 & are honor$ 9 do+ s4 ,x w\ld h be5 bett] = all ( u--x w\ld be bett] = u n[1 c\ld *ur*es keep ?is _! peculi> function /eadily & s+ly be=e !m4 ,un=tunately1 !y h pref]r$ 9 lat] times ! speculative side ( ?+s to ! practical4 --,!re is a t5d5cy 9 m5 to corrupt religion2 to *ange x f an aid & inc5tive to a holy life1 into a contrivance to enable m5 to s9 )\t fe> ( puni%m5t4 ,ob$i5ce to ,god's law is disp5s$ )1 if m5 w dilig5tly pr(ess c]ta9 op9ions1 or practically take "p 9 c]ta9 rites4 ,h[ev] sc&al\s ! moral life1 ! pr(ession ( a p>ticul> belief1 or att5tion to c]ta9 =ms1 at ! mom5t ( dea?1 is held to cle> ! s\l4 --,x w\ld be easy to give a hundr$ in/ances ( doctr9es to be he>d 9 s]mons & f\nd 9 religi\s books1 :i* are n[h]e taught 9 ,scripture4 ,& "s ( !m ex]t a mighty influ5ce = evil on ! *ur* & ! _w4 ,!y *eck ! spread ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,!y /r5g!n ! cause ( infidelity4 ,!y keep p away f ,*ri/4 ,!y make an all b impassable gulf betwe5 ! *ur* & ! mass ( humanity4 --,"s ?9k !y w\ld n h en\gh to talk ab\t if !y 7 to give up all ! doctr9es or notions = :i* ,i say !re is no scriptural au?ority4 ,"o prea*] told me ,i _h already spoil$ "s ( 8 be/ s]mons4 ,he said he _h nev] be5 able to prea* !m ) com=t s9ce he began to li/5 to my conv]sation4 ,! tru? is1 prea*]s w nev] "k :at great1 good ?+s !re are to be talk$ ab\t1 till !y get rid ( _! fooli% fancies4 ,nor w !y "k ! true pleasure ( talk+ till !y come to feel t _! utt]ances are ! words ( et]nal tru?4 ,& s f> w !y be f n hav+ en\gh to talk ab\t1 t if !y give !mselves 9 a ,*ri/ian _s1 to /udy ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus1 !y w nev] h "t to utt] a t5? ( ! bless$ ?+s t w pres5t !mselves to _! m9ds4 ,a hundr$ ye>s w\ld n af=d me "t en\gh to say all t ,i get glimpses ( on religi\s subjects z pres5t$ 9 nature & 9 ! ,scriptures4 ,e subject ,i take 9 h& requires t5 times m "t to d x ju/ice ?an is g5]ally all[$ = a s]mon4 ,& ! subjects are numb]less4 ,we live 9 an inf9ite univ]se ( tru?4 ,i rejoice1 says "o1 t ,i h be5 l$1 9 ! c\rse ( ,god's provid5ce1 to d s mu* z ,i h done1 t[>ds purg+ revelation f ^? doctr9es & practices :i* 7 discordant ) its tea*+s1 & prev5t$ its reception ) _m4 ,%all ,i ev] be able to d any?+ 9 ?is way8 ,god help me4 ,if ,i c\ld make ! ,*ur* & ! m9i/ry m ,*ri/-l1 & m p[]ful = good1 :at a bless+ x w\ld be4 ,:at a _w ( "w wants do+1 bo? 9 ! *ur* & 9 ! _w4 ,save me f an impati5t1 pugnaci\s1 disagreeable _s4 ,p]haps ,i see ! ne$s ( o!rs m ?an ,i feel my own4 ,p]haps ,i am 9 dang] ( be+ m eag] = re=m 9 o!rs1 ?an = a ?or\ghly ,*ri/ian _s & behavior 9 myself4 ,h[ _m words & phrases "o he>s 9 s]mons & 9 pray]s1 & :at heaps ( expressions "o meets ) 9 religi\s works1 t are n w>rant$ by ,scripture or common s5se6 --,"s ( ! words & phrases t are m frequ5tly us$ by ,*ri/ians ?an any o!r1 are unscriptural ones4 ,"s ( !m express unscriptural ideas4 ,"s ( !m are names ( ?+s t h no exi/5ce4 ,bo? ! words & ! ideas = :i* !y /& are anti-*ri/ian4 ,_m ( ! ?+s said f ! pulpit are un9telligible4 ,! p /ra9 _! m9ds to get at a mean+1 b to no purpose4 ,x is ,lat9 or ,greek to !m4 ,!y li/51 b d n le>n4 ,!y he> s\nds1 b cat* no s5se4 ,!y rev]5ce1 !y wor%ip1 b !y d n und]/&4 ,!y believe1 !y feel1 t !re are great spiritual realities1 b !y are n made cle> to _! m9ds4 ,! dev\t] portion ( ! p /ill pray1 & on ! :ole1 live sob]1 righte\s & godly lives2 b multitudes are disc\rag$1 & take !mselves away4 ,! hungry %eep look up & are n f$4 ,!y he> words1 b get no ideas4 ,religion does n come to !m f ! pulpit z a reality4 ,x does n make itself felt z tru?4 ,books & lectur]s on sci5ce treat ( realities1 & treat ( !m 9 words t c be und]/ood2 b _m books on religion1 & _m prea*]s1 seem to deal only 9 words4 ,& ! consequ5ce is1 _m fancy religion is a delusion1 a fanaticism1 a dream4 ,o!rs believe !re is some?+ 9 x1 b !y _c conceive :at x is4 ,yet tea*]s & prea*]s appe> n prop]ly to und]/& :y s _m get we>y ( s]mons & religi\s books4 ,let !m talk 9 pla9 good ,engli%1 & say no?+ b :at has "s great ,*ri/ian reality "u x1 & s]mons & religi\s books w be ! mo/ popul> ?+s on e>?4 --,i w\ld nev] sacrifice ,*ri/ian tru? to conciliate ! _w2 b ,i w\ld sacrifice ev]y?+ at v>iance ) ,*ri/ian tru?2 & ,i w\ld pres5t ,*ri/ian tru? itself 9 z intelligible & tak+ a =m z possible4 --,! ant9omian !ology has _h a t]ribly corrupt+ effect on _m memb]s ( *ur*es4 ,i meet pro(s ( x e day4 ,god help me to d my duty4 ,"s ( my he>]s say to me1 ',we come to *ur* to be com=t$1 & n to be cont9ually told to d1 d1 d4' ,i d n wi% p to be com=t$ unless !y w d _! duty2 & !y w nev] lack com=t if !y d d x4 ,com=t is = ^? :o labor to com=t & b5efit o!rs1 & n = ^? :o c>e only = !mselves4 ,i try to make ! easy-go+1 indol5t & selfi% pr(essors mis]able3 & 9 "s cases ,i succe$4 ,b ,i make o!rs happy1 ?ank ,god1 by induc+ !m to give !mselves he>tily to ,*ri/ian "w4 --,"h are a few m good words f ,baxt]3 ',_m proclaim ! praise ( tru? 9 g5]al1 b reject & p]secute its v>i\s portions4 ,! "n ( tru? !y honor1 b ! tru? itself !y despise4' ',passion is a great s$uc] ( ! und]/&+1 & /rangely bl9de? & p]v]te? ! judgm5t4' ',:5 passion ha? done boil+ & ! he>t is cool$1 & leave? ! judgm5t to d its "w )\t clamor & di/urbance1 x is /range to see h[ ?+s w appe> to y to be q ( ano!r t5d5cy ?an 9 y\r fr5zy y e/eem$ !m4' ',be m /udi\s to hold & improve ^? common tru?s :i* all pr(ess1 ?an to oppose ! p>ticul> op9ions ( any1 except s f> z ^? common tru?s require y to d s4' ',be n borne d[n by ! c5sori\sness ( any1 to outrun y\r own und]/&+ & ! tru?1 & to comply ) !m 9 _! errors & extremes2 b hold to ! tru? & keep y\r /ation4 ',let !m return unto !e1 b return n ?\ unto !m4' ,j]4 xv4 #ai4' ',believe no?+ t contradicte? ! end ( all religion4 ,if its t5d5cy be aga9/ a holy life1 x _c be tru?4' ',plead n ! d>k] texts ( ,scripture aga9/ ^? t are m pla9 & cle>1 nor a few texts aga9/ _m t are z pla94 ,t passage t is int]pret$ aga9/ ! mo/ pla9 & frequ5t expressions ( ! ,scriptures is c]ta9ly mis9t]pret$4' ,i w c>ry out ^! pr9ciples to ! be/ ( my ability4 --,i notice t ,*ri/ nev] tells p t !y _c rep5t & d ,god's w )\t div9e help4 ,he did n ?9k x necess>y to supply p ) excuses = _! neglect ( duty4 ,& ,he knew t div9e help is nev] )held f any man4 ,all h ! help ne$$ to d :at ,god requires4 ,!re is no dang] ( any man try+ to d any?+ good be=e he receives p[] f ,god4 ,god is always be=eh& ) m54 --,i h _h a tr\bl$ night4 ,i h n slept s\ndly = a week4 ,i h _h odd h\rs ( sleep1 b nev] a qu>t] ( a night's unbrok5 re/4 ,p>ties w talk ) me ab\t religion1 & ,i am fooli% en\gh to talk ) !m1 yet we nev] q agree4 ,!y insi/ on ! sacr$ness ( e old notion & ( e old ^w !y h receiv$ f _! tea*]s1 & ,i believe 9 ! sacr$ness ( no?+ b ,scripture tru? & common s5se4 ,!y _c und]/& me1 & ,i _c accept _! nons5se4 ,& !y h no idea ( lib]ty or tol]ation4 ,!y all[ no excuse = n be+ s\nd 9 ! fai?1 & no "o is s\nd 9 ! fai? accord+ to _! notions b ^? :o agree ) !m4 ,!y "k no?+ ( ! f\ndation on :i* ! ,connexion 0 built4 ,!y "k no?+ ( ,wesley3 no?+1 at lea/1 ( 8 lib]al views4 ,! fundam5tal pr9ciples ( ! ,connexion ju/ify me 9 my fre$om ( inve/igation1 & 9 ! s5tim5ts :i* ,i hold & tea*2 b !y d n "k ?is4 ,!y "k no?+ b t e "o is to ?9k z !y ?9k1 & talk z !y talk4 ,h5ce !y keep me on ! rack4 ,i am tir$4 ,i feel sad4 ,i c\ld weep4 ,i feel z if ,i c\ld l to run away1 l ,elijah1 & hide myself 9 ! wilds ( "s great m\nta94 ,b no2 ,i mu/ /& my gr\nd1 & d my duty4 ,%all tru? be timid1 & error bold8 ,%all folly rage & be confid5t1 & wisdom be afraid to :isp]8 ,help me1 ,o ,god1 to d my duty z ,?y s]vant1 & z ! m9i/] ( ,?y ,gospel4 --,!re are "s v]ses ( hymns t are sung 9 almo/ all religi\s assemblies t h no?+ answ]+ to !m 9 ,scripture4 ,john ,wesley once said1 t ! hymns :i* 7 ! greate/ favorites among ! ,me?odi/s 7 ! wor/ 9 ! :ole ,hymn ,book4 ,x is ! same /ill ,i fe>1 to "s ext5t4 ,let ^? :o w\ld l to "k to :at words & hymns we ref]1 take !mselves to task = a "t1 & dem& ,scriptural au?ority = e ^w & expression !y utt]4 ,we w\ld save !m ! tr\ble1 7 x n t we h le>n$ t in/ruction f o!rs is ( no use to p :o d n endeavor to tea* !mselves4 ,b take a sample or two4 ,i _c s+ ! foll[+3 ,=bid x ,"l t ,i %\ld boa/ ,save 9 ! dea? ( ,*ri/ my ,god4 ,! immortal ,god ha? di$ = me1 c4 ,jesus di$1 & ,god dwelt 9 ,jesus1 b ,god did n die4 ,great all[ances are made to poets2 b !y %\ld n be enc\rag$ to write impossibilities4 ,a he>t t always feels ,?y blood1 c4 ,i feel ?ankful = ! love :i* l$ ,jesus to die = me2 b ,i _c say ,i feel ! blood4 ,i feel ! happy effects ( ! dea? or blood-%$d+ ( ,jesus2 & p]haps t is :at ! poet means4 ,:5 f ! du/ ( dea? ,i rise1 ,to claim my mansion 9 ! skies1 ,ev5 !n ?is %all be all my plea1 ,jesus ha? liv$ & di$ = me4 ,?is is n scriptural4 ,! good s]vant 9 ! p>able ( ! tal5ts says3 ,"l1 ,?\ deliv]$/ unto me five tal5ts3 behold1 ,i h ga9$ besides !m five tal5ts m4 ,& s f> 0 8 ,"l f f9d+ fault ) 8 plea1 t he answ]$1 ,well done1 good & fai?ful s]vant2 ?\ ha/ be5 fai?ful ov] a few ?+s1 ,i w make !e rul] ov] _m ?+s3 ent] ?\ into ! joy ( ?y ,"l4 ,& :y may n o!r fai?ful s]vants use ! same plea8 ,john makes p]fect love1 or lik5ess to ,jesus1 ! gr\nd ( confid5ce or boldness 9 ! day ( judgm5t4 ,h[ /range t ,*ri/ian writ]s %\ld be s ignorant ( ! ,bible1 or s reg>dless ( its tea*+s4 ,"s ( !m seem to ?9k !y are say+ v f9e ?+s :5 !y are talk+ _! anti-,*ri/ian nons5se4 ,help me1 ,o ,god1 to speak & act 9 accordance ) ,?y ^w4 ,f9e writ+ may be a f9e ?+1 b true writ+ is a f9]4 ,i suppose x is z h>d = !ologians to give up _! anti-,*ri/ian words & notions z x is = drunk>ds to give up _! dr9k4 ,b x w\ld be well = !m to consid]1 t self-d5ial may be z necess>y to _! salvation1 z x is to ! salvation ( infidels & pr(ligates4 ,i w\ld sacrifice a little poetry to tru?4 ,i w\ld n be v p>ticul>1 b d let u h sub/antial tru?4 ,d n let u encumb] & disfigure religion by absurdities1 impossibilities1 & ant9omian abom9ations4 ,"s "o has said1 ,! _w is v jeal\s ( ^? :o assail its religi\s ignorance4 ,its old mi/akes are great idols4 ,no man has ev] c>ri$ a p "o m>* ne>] ! promis$ l& )\t be+ 9 dang] ( be+ /on$4 ,no man has ev] purifi$ ! life ( an age1 )\t sub/antially lay+ d[n 8 own4 ,i am anxi\s only = tru? & righte\sness4 ,tru? & righte\sness ,i respect 9 all sects1 f ! ,quak]s to ! ,ca?olics2 & ,i hate nons5se1 & lies1 & s91 9 pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians1 z mu* z 9 ,turks & pagans4 ,s end ! extracts f my ,di>y4 ,i h j be5 read+ an article 9 ! ,*ri/ian ,advocate1 & ,i c't resi/ ! temptation to give a %ort extract or two4 ,n only is !re an emasculat$ !ology1 b !re is n a little emasculat$ prea*+4 ,no?+ is empti] or feebl] ?an cant--r++ ! *anges on :at may be call$ ! /ock phrases ( "o's sect4 ,john ,wesley once said1 ',let b a p]t1 self-suffici5t animal1 t has nei!r s5se nor grace1 bawl out some?+ ab\t ',*ri/1' or ',8 blood1' or 'ju/ification by fai?1' & !re are n want+ ^? :o w cry out1 ',:at a f9e ,gospel s]mon6' ,= myself1 ,i pref] a s]mon on ei!r good temp]s or good works to su* ',gospel s]mons4' ,take away f c]ta9 prea*]s _! 'heav5ly tone1' z ! old lady call$ x--_! s+-song cad5ces1 & _! favorite pulpit phrases--& y take away ! pr9cipal "p ( _! /ock 9 trade4 ,out ^u su* 'words )\t k'--s\nd )\t s5se6 ,q z de/itute ( ,gospel p[] is t prea*+ :i* consi/s l>gely 9 ! pres5tation ( old worn-out !ories1 mu/y s*ola/ic philosophies ab\t religion1 usually p>ad$ "u ! pret5ti\s title ( 'doctr9e4' ,! devil1 x is said1 once inspir$ a dead prie/ to prea* an or?odox s]mon4 ,on be+ que/ion$ by 8 imps :y he v5tur$ on su* a deliv]ance1 he repli$ v significantly1 t no?+ made infidels m effectually ?an or?odoxy prea*$ by dead m5's lips4 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,! ,,re=m+ ,,t5d5cy4 ,i _h a ?ird t5d5cy :i* help$ to get me into tr\ble2 namely1 a re=m+ t5d5cy4 ,e>ne/ & active-m9d$ "y m5 are g5]ally re=m]s4 ,9 me ! re=m+ t5d5cy 0 unusually /rong4 ,i want$ to re=m ev]ybody & ev]y?+1 & to d x ?or\ghly1 & )\t delay4 ,& ,i comm5c$ op]ations v e>ly4 #a4 ,x 0 ! cu/om ( my class-lead] to read ov] to 8 class once a qu>t] ! rules ( society1 & to reque/ ! memb]s1 if !y 7 aw>e ( any brea* ( any ( ! rules by any ( ! memb]s1 to "n ! matt] z he proce$$4 ,n[ "o ( ! rules =bade ! putt+ on ( gold or co/ly app>el2 yet sev]al ( ! memb]s ( our class put on bo?4 ,s :5 he came to t rule1 ,i ask$ :y x 0 n en=c$4 ,! lead] seem$ confus$4 ,"o ( ! (f5d]s 0 ! wife ( "o ( ! travell+ prea*]s1 & ano!r 0 ! wife ( an influ5tial layman1 & bo? 7 cu/om]s at 8 /ore1 & he _h nev] ent]ta9$ a ?\ght1 ,i imag9e1 ( runn+ ! risk ( (f5d+ !m by rebuk+ !m = _! (f5ces2 s he mutt]$ some?+ 9 ! way ( excuse & !n pass$ on4 ,! tru? 01 t ! rule1 ?\gh copi$ f ! ,new ,te/am5t1 & reg>d$ by ,mr4 ,wesley z ( great importance1 0 no long] consid]$ b9d+ ei!r by ! prea*]s or ! lead+ memb]s4 ,! read+ ( ! rules 9 ! class 0 m]ely a =m1 & my rem>ks1 in/ead ( induc+ my (f5d+ class-mates to return to ! old ,me?odi/ cu/om1 only caus$ !m & ^? :o sid$ ) !m1 to look on me z a tr\bl] ( ,israel4 #b4 ,i got myself into a little tr\ble on a lat] occasion at a local prea*]s' meet+4 ,x 0 ! cu/om at ^? meet+s = ! sup]9t5d5t prea*] to read ov] ! names ( ! local prea*]s1 & to reque/ any bro!r :o knew ( any brea* ( rule by any ( 8 bre?r51 to "n ! matt]4 ,:5 ! "n ( ,mr4 ,h4 0 read ov]1 ,i /at$ t he _h be5 guilty ( evil speak+ aga9/ "o ( 8 bre?r54 ,i gave ! p>ticul>s1 & ! (f5ce 0 ackn[l$g$1 b ! (f5d+ bro!r 0 n )\t excuse1 & ! bus9ess ( ! meet+ proce$$4 ,b !re 0 a v /rong feel+ 9 ! m9ds ( _m t su* attempts z ,i 0 mak+ to press neglect$ rules on ! att5tion ( ! meet+1 ought n to be enc\rag$2 & my endeavors to en=ce consi/5cy br\ght d[n ^u me _m %>p rebukes4 #c4 ,among ! books t ,i read 9 ^? e>ly days 0 ,mason on ,self-k4 ,i f\nd "s excell5t rem>ks on temp]ance & frugality 9 ?is "w4 ,i met ) "s simil> rem>ks 9 translat+ portions ( ! writ+s ( ,s5eca & ,cic]o4 ,9 a conv]sation t ,i _h ) "o ( ! travell+ prea*]s1 & a p]son t 0 supply+ ! place ( ano!r travell+ prea*]1 ,i quot$ ! beautiful s5tim5ts :i* ,i _h be5 read+ & translat+1 & add$ "s rem>ks ( my own1 ) a view to recomm5d att5tion to ! lessons !y inculcat$4 ,! travell+ prea*] rema9$ sil5t1 b 8 companion answ]$ me ) a scornful laugh1 & said1 !re 0 no ne$ to urge su* matt]s on !m1 = !y _h n ! means to be any?+ else b frugal & temp]ate4 ,?is 0 nei!r true nor c\rte\s1 & ?\gh ,i made no answ]1 x left an impression on my m9d by no means favorable to ! wisdom & piety ( ^? :o1 at t "t1 7 plac$ ov] me z my tea*]s & guides4 #d4 ,?\gh ,i met ) su* poor enc\ragem5t 9 my e>ly ef=ts to re=m or *eck abuses among my bre?r51 ,i /ill p]si/$ 9 my c\rse1 ev5 aft] ,i became a travell+ prea*]4 ,x 0 ! cu/om ( ! ri*] memb]s ( society to h l>ge p>ties1 to :i* !y invit$ ea* o!r & ! prea*]s & _! families4 ,at _m ( ^! p>ties !re 0 a good deal ( dr9k+1 & a s]i\s wa/e ( money on _m ?+s t 7 n only useless b injuri\s4 ,& ea* family tri$ to outdo ! re/ 9 ! co/l9ess ( _! p>ties4 ,i reg>d$ ?is cu/om z anti-,*ri/ian1 & tri$ to get x *ang$ = some?+ bett]4 ,i ?\ght ! money wa/$ on dr9k & hurtful luxuries w\ld be bett] sp5t 9 do+ good4 ,9 "s cases ,i ref]r$ to ! words ( ,*ri/ ab\t mak+ fea/s1 record$ 9 ,luke xiv4 #ab-ad2 b no "o seem$ to ?9k ,*ri/'s rule to be b9d+ on pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians n[4 ,ev5 my bro!r m9i/]s ?\ght me ne$lessly p>ticul>1 & help$ to r5d] my ef=ts = re=m bo? unsuccessful1 & productive ( disagreeable results4 #e4 ,! cu/om ( treat+ ! ri* :o came to our *apels ) m respect ?an ! poor1 0 z preval5t probably :5 ,i became a m9i/]1 z x 0 9 ! days ( ,james4 ,i (t5 saw ! (ficials ( ! *ur* conduct+ gaily-dress$ p to com=table pews1 :ile !y left su* z 7 poorly clad to /& 9 ! aisles1 or to f9d _! way into seats !mselves2 & on "s occasions ,i %[$ my dissatisfaction ) su* proce$+s4 #f4 ,x 0 cu/om>y to h society meet+s 9 ea* place once a qu>t]1 & at ^! meet+s ,i us$ to ref] to :at ,i ?\ght amiss 9 ! conduct ( pr(essors1 & to urge att5tion to su* lessons ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les z seem$ to be g5]ally ov]look$ or =gott54 ,on "s occasions too on week nights1 in/ead ( prea*+ a regul> s]mon1 ,i us$ to give a k9d ( lecture or exhortation1 9 :i* ,i pres5t$ a summ>y ( neglect$ duties1 & read ov] ! passages ( ,scripture 9 :i* !y 7 enjo9$1 mak+ rem>ks on !m4 ,!re 7 _m matt]s p]ta9+ to m>riage1 to ! education & gov]nm5t ( *ildr51 & to dome/ic duties g5]ally2 & !re 7 matt]s p]ta9+ to trade1 to social int]c\rse1 to m5tal improvem5t1 & ! l1 on :i* prea*]s1 z a rule1 7 entirely sil5t 9 _! s]mons1 f ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> to ! end4 ,yet _m ( ^! matt]s 7 ( ! utmo/ importance1 & = want ( in=mation on !m _m religi\s p 7 nei!r s happy !mselves1 nor s useful to o!rs1 z !y ought to be4 ,on ^! matt]s ,i spoke 9 z pla9 & fai?ful a way z possible4 ,i caution$ ! "y aga9/ wa/+ _! "t1 advis$ !m to sp5d _! leisure h\rs 9 read+ & writ+1 told !m :at books to read1 & h[ to read !m1 %[$ !m ! mo/ pr(itable plan ( read+ ! ,bible1 w>n$ !m aga9/ bad company1 & advis$ !m n to sp5d too mu* "t ev5 9 good company4 ,i urg$ !m1 if !y ?\ght ( be+ prea*]s1 to endeavor to be prea*]s ( ! highe/ ord]1 workm5 t ne$$ n to be a%am$1 rightly di/ribut+ ! ^w ( tru?4 ,& :e!r !y ?\ght ( be+ prea*]s or n1 ,i urg$ !m to improve _! tal5ts1 & to become z wise1 z able & z useful z possible4 ,_m 7 delight$1 & r$uc$ my lessons to practice4 ,o!rs h[ev] took (f5ce1 & repaid my endeavors to d !m good ) un*>itable c5sures4 #g4 ,x 0 ! cu/om 9 ! ,body to :i* ,i belong$ to keep ! doors ( ! annual conf]5ce clos$ aga9/ all b ^? :o 7 s5t z delegates by ! circuits4 ,i & a few o!rs ?\ght ?is c\rse l$ to inconsid]ate1 &1 9 "s cases1 to unju/ & oppressive measures1 & 9 #ahce ,i wrote a lett] on ! subject to ! ,*ri/ian ,advocate4 ,my rem>ks 7 n agreeable to ! lead+ memb]s ( conf]5ce1 & ,i 0 in/antly call$ to acc\nt & sev]ely c5sur$1 & ?reat5$ ) ! heavie/ puni%m5t if ev] ,i (f5d$ s griev\sly aga94 ,! reason :y my lett] prov$ s (f5sive 0 probably its tru?fulness1 = ! *ange ,i recomm5d$ 0 aft]w>ds adopt$1 ?\gh n till ! old objectionable sy/em _h produc$ mo/ disa/r\s consequ5ces4 #h4 ,"o rule ( ! ,connexion to :i* ,i belong$ =bade ! prea*]s to m>ry till aft] !y _h be5 engag$ 9 ! m9i/ry f f\r to five ye>s or upw>ds4 ,?is regulation seem$ to me to be ! cause ( s]i\s evils4 ,"s ( ^! evils ,i _h myself exp]i5c$1 & o!rs ,i _h se5 9 ! conduct & mi%aps ( _m ( my bre?r54 ,! reason assign$ = ! law seem$ to me to be n only insuffici5t1 b to be a disgrace to a body ( ,*ri/ians situat$ z we 74 ,i urg$ an alt]ation or a repeal ( ! law1 recomm5d+ conf]5ce to take out ! be/ & able/ m5 z m9i/]s1 :e!r !y 7 m>ri$ or n1 & to all[ su* m9i/]s z 7 s+le to m>ry :5ev] !y ?\ght fit1 & to urge ! *ur*es to provide = ! additional exp5se ( m>ri$ prea*]s by a little additional lib]ality4 ,!re 7 memb]s t wa/$ z mu* on "o fooli% & mis*iev\s p>ty1 z w\ld h made up ! diff]5ce betwe5 a s+le man's sal>y & a m>ri$ man's sal>y4 ,!re 7 memb]s t sp5t z mu* 9 intoxicat+ dr9ks z w\ld h kept a m>ri$ prea*] or two out & out4 ,!re 7 tradesm5 t c\ld h support$ five or six prea*]s out ( _! ye>ly pr(its1 if !y _h be5 z lib]al z ! old selfi% ,jews 7 requir$ to be4 ,if !y _h be5 z lib]al z ,*ri/ians are requir$ to be1--if !y _h lov$ _! neighbors1 or ,jesus1 or ,god1 z !y lov$ !mselves1 !y c\ld h support$ tw5ty prea*]s1 & /ill reta9$ en\gh to keep _! families 9 com=t & pl5ty1 & to c>ry on & ext5d _! bus9esses too4 ,to %ut good m5 out ( ! m9i/ry because !y 7 m>ri$1 & take 9 d\btful m5 because !y 7 s+le1 01 9 my view1 disgraceful & inexcusable4 ,b 9 ?is also ,i 0 consid]$ wrong by ! rul]s ( ! ,connexion1 & 0 once m c5sur$ & admoni%$ = :at 0 consid]$ my presumptu\s int]f]5ce4 #i4 ,fifty ye>s ago1 & = "s ye>s aft]1 almo/ ev]ybody us$ to dr9k intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,ale & be]1 w9e & spirits1 7 z freely us$ z tea & c(fee1 & 7 tak5 9 great quantities by _m ev5 9 ! *ur* & m9i/ry4 ,i rememb] once1 :ile yet a local prea*]1 go+ r\nd ) ,mr4 ,et*ells1 a new m9i/] 9 my native t[n1 on 8 fir/ pa/oral visits1 to %[ him :]e ! pr9cipal memb]s ( ! *ur* liv$4 ,he 0 invit$ to dr9k at e h\se1 & nev] fail$ to comply ) ! invitations4 ,i saw him dr9k sixte5 glasses ( be]1 w9e & spirits1 on t "o r\nd1 occupy+ only two or ?ree h\rs4 ,?is same m9i/] prosecut$ ,mr4 ,f>r>1 8 sup]9t5d5t1 = drunk5ness1 & got him susp5d$4 ,:e!r 8 sup]9t5d5t drank m ?an he or n1 ,i d n "k1 b he did n keep up appe>ances s well4 ,he %[$ himself drunk 9 ! pulpit1--s drunk1 on "o or two occasions1 t he 0 unable to speak pla9ly1 or ev5 to /& /eadily4 ,he also fell d[n 9 ! /reets sometimes1 & _h to be c>ri$ home4 ,8 colleague did n commit himself 9 su* ways1 ?\gh he drank en\gh at times 9 "o day to make half a doz5 sob] p drunk4 ,! lead+ memb] 9 ! ,me?odi/ *ur*1 ,ri*>d ,wilson1 op5$ ! fir/ w9e & _s /ore at ,bramley1 & corrupt$ ! :ole c\ntry r\nd ) 8 w>es1 do+ f> m = ! devil & s9 ?an ! prea*]s c\ld d = ,god & hol9ess4 ,yet no "o seem$ to ?9k !re 0 any?+ di%onorable or diabolical 9 ! bus9ess4 ,at a social p>ty to :i* ,i 0 invit$ at ,le$s1 consi/+ ( prea*]s & lead+ memb]s ( ! *ur*1 "o man1 a prea*]1 got s drunk1 t he became a mo/ di/ress+ spectacle4 ,i _c describe 8 mi%aps4 ,!re 7 o!rs :o ought to h committ$ !mselves 9 ! same sad way1 = !y drank z mu*1 & ev5 m1 b !y _h /rong] con/itutions1 or 7 bett] season$4 ,at ,liv]pool1 my fir/ /ation1 e "o on :om ! prea*]s call$ 9 _! pa/oral r\nds1 ask$ !m to dr9k4 ,ev5 ,dr4 ,raffles1 ! popul> ,congregational m9i/]1 _h w9e & cakes br\ght out1 :5 ,i & my sup]9t5d5t call$ on him "o morn+4 ,w9e & cakes1 or cakes & spirits1 7 plac$ on ! table by all :o 7 n too poor to buy su* ?+s1 & ev5 ! poor] memb]s contriv$ to supply !mselves ) rum or :isky4 ,& all expect$ ! prea*]s to dr9k4 ,& ! prea*]s did dr9k4 ,mr4 ,all91 my sup]9t5d5t1 0 n by f> ! greate/ dr9k] 9 ! ,connexion1 yet he seldom all[$ ! poison plac$ be=e him to rema9 unta/$4 ,i 0 s organiz$1 t ,i nev] c\ld dr9k a full glass ( ei!r w9e or ale )\t feel+ m or less intoxicat$1 & = spirits ,i _h q a di/a/e2 s t ,i 0 oblig$ to take intoxicat+ dr9ks v sp>+ly4 ,yet ,i con=m$1 to "s ext5t1 to ! prevail+ cu/om2 & x 0 n1 ,i fe>1 ?r\gh any great goodness ( my own1 t ,i did n become a drunk>d4 ,sev]al ( my fell[-m9i/]s became drunk>ds4 ,mr4 ,all9 himself1 aft] he fell "u ! influ5ce ( t bad ri* man at ,%effield became a drunk>d1 & br\ght on %ocks ( p>alysis by 8 excesses4 ,my sup]9t5d5t at ,%effield drank himself into delirium trem5s1 & ,i fe> he nev] got ov] 8 bad habits4 ,mr4 ,*apman 0 a notori\s sot4 ,i knew him p]sonally1 & 0 compell$1 at times1 to witness 8 disgu/+ habits4 ,yet he 0 nev] expell$1 ?\gh he 0 sup]annuat$ "s =ty ye>s or m be=e 8 dea?4 ,8 sup]annuation r$uc$ 8 income "s sev5ty-five p] c5t41 & made x impossible = him to dr9k s freely z he _h be5 wont1 & s1 v probably1 help$ to prolong 8 mis]able life4 ,:ile /ation$ at ,liv]pool1 ,i 0 call$ away to supply ! place ( ! sup]9t5d5t prea*] 9 ! ,*e/] circuit = a few weeks1 :o _h di$ v sudd5ly1 "u v peculi> circum/ances4 ,8 "n 0 ,dunk]ley4 ,i 0 told by p]sons likely to "k ! tru?1 t he 0 a v drunk5 man4 ,on "o occasion1 :ile he 0 ov] at ,liv]pool1 he fell d[n 9 ! ,!atre ,squ>e1 & _h to be tak5 up & c>ri$ into a neighbor+ %op4 ,at fir/ x 0 suppos$ he _h _h a fit2 b a little fur!r att5tion to ! case reveal$ ! secret t he 0 drunk4 ,on ano!r occasion1 on 8 return f ,liv]pool to ,*e/]1 he 0 obs]v$1 :5 he got (f ! coa*1 to /agg] backw>ds & fall d[n4 ,"s fri5ds t 7 wait+ = 8 arrival1 ran & help$ him up1 & took him to a memb]'s h\se j by4 ,he 0 f\nd to be drunk !n also4 ,! memb]s spoke to him on ! subject1 & reprov$ him %>ply1 & !n put him to b$4 ,! ,tuesday night foll[+1 ! matt] 0 m5tion$ at ! lead]s' meet+1 :5 he 0 pres5t4 ,! lead]s told him t su* conduct c\ld n be tol]at$1 & t unless a *ange took place = ! bett]1 ! matt] w\ld h to be laid be=e ! ,qu>t]ly ,meet+4 ,! prea*] ackn[l$g$ 8 fault1 & promis$1 if !y w\ld =give him t once1 t he w\ld d s no m4 ,i believe t f t "t he gave up ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks = a week or two2 b %ortly aft]1 hav+ to g to ! ,wel% side ( ! ,circuit1 he began to use !m aga94 ,at "o ( ! places on t side ( ! ,circuit1 ! lead]s 7 accu/om$ to h _! meet+s 9 a room 9 a public-h\se1 ne> ! ,*apel1 & to lodge ! prea*] !re4 ,p]haps poor ,dunk]ley ?\ght x w\ld h>dly look "r = him to be accommodat$ at a public-h\se ) a b$1 & yet take no?+ to dr9k2 s he got "s g94 ,! reli% = ! g9 mu/ h return$ ^u him ) great p[] :5 he began to ta/e x1 = he drank v freely4 ,he drank s mu*1 t ! publican himself began to feel al>m$ = him4 ,a %ort "t aft] he _h gone up /airs to b$1 ! p ( ! h\se he>d a noise ( an unusual "* 9 8 room1 & on go+ to see :at 0 ! matt]1 !y f\nd ! prea*] on 8 knees1 9 an apoplectic fit1 ! blood gu%+ f 8 nose & e>s4 ,he di$ ! same ev5+4 ,he di$ drunk4 ,x 0 ?is man's place t ,i w5t to supply4 ,i d n wond] n[ t ,dunk]ley & sev]al o!r prea*]s 9 ! ,new ,connexion 7 drunk>ds1 :5 ,i take into consid]ation ! cu/oms & habits ( ! p ( ! ,connexion 9 ^? days4 ,i nev] met ) any?+ 9 any society1 t ,i recollect1 m at v>iance ) ! pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ian temp]ance1 & m likely to lead bo? prea*]s & p into drunk5ness & pr(ligacy1 ?an ! habits & cu/oms ( _m ( ! memb]s ( ! ,new ,connexion 9 ! ,*e/] circuit4 ,9 ! fir/ place !y 7 all us]s ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 & all ^? t 7 9 tol]able circum/ances regul>ly kept spirits z well z mild]1 weak] k9ds ( intoxicat+ dr9ks 9 _! h\ses4 ,9 ! next place a prea*] c\ld nev] call at ! h\ses ( ^? p1 :atev] ! "t ( day1 )\t be+ urg$ to dr9k ( ei!r ! /rong] or weak] k9ds ( intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,& he c\ld h>dly refuse to dr9k )\t seem+ to slight ! k9dness ( ! p1 & runn+ ! risk ( giv+ (f5ce4 ,9 ! ?ird place !y 7 v mu* addict$ to extravagant social p>ties1 pleasure jaunts1 c4 ,!y 7 worse ?an ! p ( ,le$s 9 ?is respect2 unless !y 7 worse ?an usual :ile ,i 0 !re4 ,all ! "t t ,i 0 9 ,*e/]1 !re 0 n a s+le week or day :5 !y _h n ei!r "s d9n]-p>ty or tea-p>ty1 or bo?1 or else "s pleasure jaunt on ! wat] or on l&4 ,& ^? pleasure p>ties & fea/s 7 always occasions ( extravagant eat+ & dr9k+4 ,besides abundance ( fle% & game1 & o!r luxuries1 !re 0 always an ov]:elm+ supply ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 & great quantities 7 consum$4 ,i h se5 m5 on ^? occasions dr9k five1 six1 eight1 or ev5 t5 glasses ( w9e or spirits1 besides dr9k+ ale1 or port]1 or w9e at meals4 ,i recollect v di/9ctly see+ a p]son1 & t a prea*]1 dr9k1 9 addition to :at he consum$ ov] 8 meal1 t5 glasses ( ,port w9e betwe5 d9n] & tea1 aft] :i* he w5t to prea*4 ,religi\s society 0 n q s corrupt 9 ! pr9cipal t[ns ( ! ,hanley circuit1 :]e ,i 0 next /ation$1 z at ,liv]pool & ,*e/]1 yet !re 0 a fe>ful am\nt ( respectable intemp]ance !re4 ,!re 0 no end to ! fea/+4 ,& z ,i1 ?\gh s "y1 0 v popul>1 ,i 0 always expect$ to be pres5t4 ,! luxuries 9 :i* ,i indulg$ br\ght on indige/ion4 ,indige/ion1 & close /udy1 & h>d "w 9 ! pulpit1 br\ght on a mo/ we>isome languor & depression4 ,to help me1 "o ri* fri5d s5t me a bottle ( ,%]ry w9e4 ,ano!r s5t me ,eld]b]ry w9e4 ,^! made me worse4 ,x 0 well ?is mi/ak5 k9dness did n ru9 me4 ,b ,i 0 pres]v$1 ?ank ,god1 bo? f dea? & drunk5ness4 ,= two ye>s m ,i 0 9 ! mid/ ( ^! awful temptations to intemp]ance1 & a witness to _! deadly effects on sev]al ( my bre?r54 ,i felt t ,i 0 9 dang]4 ,& ,i saw t ! *ur* 0 suff]+4 ,i look$ r\nd = a rem$y4 ,j !n !re came rumors ( a temp]ance society1 & ( attempts at a temp]ance re=mation4 ,"o ( our "y prea*]s _h jo9$ ?is new society1 & _h labell$ 8 :isky & br&y m$ic9e4 ,he left 8 be]1 & port]1 & w9e1 unlabell$1 & drank !m z freely z be=e4 ,! p :o told me ( ?is1 ridicul$ ! man1 & ridicul$ ! movem5t = temp]ance re=m4 ,i 0 r pleas$ ) ! news1 ?\gh news ( a m ?or\gh movem5t might h pleas$ me bett]4 ,b ! beg9n+s ( ?+s are small4 ,! movem5t soon became radical en\gh1 & ,i kept pace ) x4 ,9 #ahcb ,i gave up ! use ( ard5t spirits1 & became a memb] ( ! old-fa%ion$ temp]ance society4 ,9 #ahcc ,i gave up ! use ( intoxicat+ dr9ks ( all k9ds1 & jo9$ ! teetotal society4 ,9 #ahcd ,i gave up ! use ( tobacco4 ,a few mon?s lat] ,i gave up tea & c(fee1 & took wat] z my usual dr9k4 ,^! *anges 9 my way ( life gave great (f5ce to _m 9 ! *ur* to :i* ,i belong$1 & l$ !m to speak ( me1 & act t[>ds me1 9 a way t 0 any?+ b k9d & agreeable4 ,?is 0 especially ! case ) reg>d to my disuse ( intoxicat+ dr9ks1 & my advocacy ( teetotalism4 ,i might h be5 borne ) p]haps if ,i _h become a drunk>d2 = drunk>ds 7 9 "s cases tol]at$2 b a teetotal] 0 n to be endur$4 ,"s call$ me a fool1 & "s a madman1 & "o man pron\nc$ me no bett] ?an a suicide & a murd]]4 ,y w be dead1 said he1 9 twelve mon?s1 if y p]si/ 9 y\r mis]able c\rse1 & :at w become ( y\r wife & *ildr58 ,& :at acc\nt c y give ( ! p y are lead+ to untimely dea? by y\r example8 ,"o p]son at ,*e/]1 at ^: h\se ,i _h visit$ "s ye>s be=e1 :5 supply+ ! place ( ! deceas$ m9i/]1 w\ld nei!r invite me to 8 h\se1 nor speak to me 9 ! /reet1 except 9 ! way ( insult1 n[ t ,i _h become a teetotal]4 ,he said no "o %\ld ev] sit at 8 table :o w\ld n take a glass ( w9e4 ,& ,i nev] did sit at 8 table aft]4 ,he invit$ my colleagues1 & he invit$ ! old sup]annuat$ m9i/]1 ^: "* ,i _c describe1 b he nev] invit$ me4 ,"o object t ,i _h 9 view 9 adopt+ my ab/emi\s way ( life 0 to save a little money to buy books4 ,i _h become an au?or too1 & _h ?\ghts ( publi%+ a numb] ( works1 & ,i want$ to be able to d s )\t hav+ to g into debt4 ,!n ,i want$ to d good 9 o!r ways4 ,i lik$ to be able to give a little to ! di/ress$ & ne$y t ,i 0 call$ ^u to visit4 ,& ,i lik$ to subscribe occasionally to funds = ! erection ( new s*ools & *apels 9 circuits :]e ,i 0 /ation$4 ,among my reasons = becom+ a teetotal] 0 a desire to induce o!rs to d s1 :o seem$ to me to be likely1 if !y cont9u$ to use intoxicat+ dr9ks1 to become drunk>ds4 ,!n ,i _h se5 ! t]rible effects ( ! dr9k+ sy/em1 bo? 9 ! ,*ur* & among my relations4 ,& ,i 0 anxi\s = ! success ( e k9d ( measure t seem$ likely to promote ! re=mation & salvation ( mank9d4 #aj4 ,i _h n be5 a teetotal] long be=e ,i became anxi\s to see my bre?r5 9 ! m9i/ry teetotal]s4 ,i wrote a lett] to ! ,temp]ance ,advocate1 giv+ an acc\nt ( ! exp]im5t ,i _h made1 & /at+ ! happy results by :i* x _h be5 foll[$1 & urg+ o!rs1 by all ! consid]ations t _h influ5c$ my own m9d1 to adopt & advocate ! teetotal pr9ciple4 ,mr4 ,livesey s5t a copy ( ! ,advocate conta9+ my lett] to all ! m9i/]s ( ! ,body to :i* ,i belong$4 ,!re 7 b few ( !m h[ev] :o seem$ to be able to ent] into my views & feel+s1 or to und]/& & appreciate ! motives by :i* ,i 0 actuat$4 ,! g5]ality look$ on ! c\rse ,i _h tak5 z a pro( ( a re/less & ill-regulat$ m9d1 & in/ead ( foll[+ my example1 treat$ me & my teetotalism ) ridicule4 ,"s 7 angry1 & scold$ me 9 "r good e>ne/4 ,!y suppos$ t x 0 ,i t _h s5t !m ! ,pap] conta9+ my lett]1 & seem$ to ?9k !mselves call$ ^u to res5t my int]f]5ce ) _! ta/es & habits 9 a v decid$ mann]4 ,sev]al ( !m s5t me v (f5sive lett]s1 & "o ( !m conclud$ a long outp\r+ ( abuse & insol5ce ) "s v cutt+ b j rem>ks on my inconsi/5cy 9 press+ ab/95ce f intoxicat+ dr9ks s e>ne/ly on o!rs1 :ile ,i myself 0 guilty ( ! unreasonable & (f5sive practice ( smok+ tobacco4 ,i _h long _h misgiv+s z to ! propriety ( smok+1 & :5 ,i read ?is cutt+ rebuke1 ,i resolv$ to smoke no m4 ,i said to my wife1 ,!y %all n be able to *>ge me ) inconsi/5cy aga9 on t score1 & ,i !re & !n broke my pipe on ! grate1 & empti$ my tobacco cup into ! fire1 & ,i h nev] annoy$ o!rs1 or defil$ myself1 ) ! abom9ation ( tobacco smoke or tobacco spittle f t day to ?is4 ,my angry correspond5t _h done me an important s]vice4 #aa4 ,i met ) "s ( ! bitt]e/ & mo/ p]si/5t enemies ( teetotalism 9 ! circuit 9 :i* ,i 0 !n travell+4 ,!re 7 sev]al memb]s ( society1 class-lead]s1 & local prea*]s1 9 & ar\nd ,*e/]1 :o 7 slaves to intoxicat+ dr9ks4 ,"s ( !m 7 habitual drunk>ds1 & o!rs ( !m 7 n mu* bett]2 & !y treat$ all :o w\ld n c\nt5ance _! excesses z p]sonal enemies4 ,_m ( !m 7 accu/om$ to g to public h\ses1 & sit !re dr9k+ & smok+ = h\rs toge!r1 l ord9>y drunk>ds4 ,?is horrible habit !y gave up %ortly aft] my appo9tm5t to ! circuit1 b sev]al ( !m rag$ aga9/ me ) trem5d\s fury1 & w\ld h done any?+ to de/roy my influ5ce4 ,at fir/ !y 7 kept 9 *eck to "s ext5t by ! wisdom & goodness ( my sup]9t5d5t1 :o1 ?\gh he did n become a teetotal] himself1 %[$ great respect = ^? :o did4 ,:5 he left ,*e/]1 a man ( a v diff]5t "* came 9 8 place1 :o sid$ ) ! dr9k]s1 & took a savage delight 9 annoy+ ! teetotal]s1 & exult$ z if he _h a*iev$ "s wond] ( b5evol5ce & piety :5 he _h induc$ "s poor re=m$ drunk>d to break 8 pl$ge1 ?\gh he plung$ aga9 into ! horrors ( intemp]ance4 ,i call$ "o =5oon on ,mr4 ,d[ns4 ,he 0 frantic1 & 8 wife 0 wild ) anxiety & t]ror4 ,%e seem$ z if %e _h be5 awake & weep+ all ! night4 ,i soon saw ! cause ( ! dreadful spectacle4 ,d[ns _h be5 a drunk>d1 b _h1 "u my influ5ce1 become a teetotal]1 & jo9$ ! *ur*4 ,8 wife _h be5 a memb] ( ! *ur* = "s ye>s4 ,%e 0 ov]joy$ ) ! re=mation & conv]sion ( h] husb&1 & 0 promis+ = h]self & h] husb&1 = ! future1 a v happy life4 ,my sup]9t5d5t _h got poor ,d[ns into 8 company1 & by reason+1 ridicule1 & coax+1 _h induc$ him to take a glass ( ale4 ,8 horrible appetite = intoxicat+ dr9k return$ ) irresi/ible =ce1 & he drank himself drunk4 ,he w5t home 9 a v deplorable condition4 ,8 wife1 di/ress$ beyond measure1 got him to b$1 & he fell asleep1 & %e1 poor woman1 sat wat*+ him1 & weep+1 hop+ he might wake to lam5t 8 error & become aga9 a sob] man4 ,he awoke 9 a fury1 & attempt$ to de/roy himself4 ,he 0 mad ) %ame & horror1 & decl>$ he c\ld n & w\ld n live4 ,:5 ,i ent]$1 8 wife _h be5 wat*+ him & /ruggl+ ) him = sev]al h\rs1 to keep him f suicide4 ,i j got 9 9 "t to save ! man1 & relieve 8 exhau/$ wife1 & ,i 0 enabl$ to reconcile ! man to live a little long]1 & try teetotalism aga94 ,my misguid$ sup]9t5d5t nev] attempt$ to reason ) me1 b :5 he ?\ght he _h a *ance ( puni%+ me = my teetotalism1 he snat*$ at ! app>5t opportunity ) ! greate/ eag]ness4 ,"o week night1 :5 appo9t$ to prea* 9 ,*e/] ,*apel1 ,i gave ! p a s]mon on temp]ance4 ,"s days aft]1 ,i 0 summon$ to a meet+ ( (ficials1 to give an acc\nt ( my do+s4 ,i att5d$4 ,my sup]9t5d5t1 ! bitt] enemy ( teetotalism1 0 9 ! *air1 & on ea* side ( him sat a numb] ( m5 ( simil> feel+s1 & ( gross] habits4 ,i 0 told !re 0 a compla9t aga9/ me1 to ! effect t ! la/ "t ,i 0 at ,*e/] ,i _h prea*$ teetotalism in/ead ( ! ,gospel4 ,i said1 ,is t all8 ,& !y answ]$ ,yes4 ,!n y ought to be a%am$ ( y\rselves1 ,i said1 & left ! meet+4 ,:at !y did aft] my dep>ture ,i 0 nev] told4 ,"o man 9 t neighborhood circulat$ a report t ,i _h ask$ my "m-9-law1 :o _h be5 /ay+ "s "t at our h\se1 to h a glass ( br&y & wat]1 :5 %e 0 leav+ = home 9 ! coa*4 ,?is sl&] 0 refut$ by a deputation1 :o at once visit$ my "m-9-law1 & br\ght back f h] a flat contradiction ( ! /atem5t4 ,i ought to say1 t :ile ,i 0 9 ?is circuit1 hundr$s ( drunk>ds 7 re=m$1 _m ( :om became happy1 exempl>y1 & useful memb]s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i 0 ! means ( t5s ( ?\s&s becom+ teetotal]s 9 ! c\ntry r\nd ab\t1 & ! happy effects ( my labors 9 ^? regions rema91 to "s ext5t1 to ! pres5t day4 #ab4 ,9 #ahcg1 :ile ,i 0 /ation$ 9 ! ,mossley ,circuit1 ,i began a weekly p]iodical call$ ! ,evangelical ,re=m]4 ,i _h long wi%$ = a suitable means ( lay+ my views be=e my fri5ds1 b _h f\nd none4 ,! editor ( ! magaz9e publi%$ by ! ,body to :i* ,i belong$ 0 a v disagreeable man1 & to me he 0 m unaccommodat+ & (f5sive ?an to o!rs4 ,he w\ld h publi%$ articles "u my "n1 b n till he _h alt]$ !m1 & made !m con=mable to 8 own ideas & ta/es4 ,& ?is 0 m ?an ,i c\ld endure4 ,!re 0 ano!r p]iodical :i* ,i c\ld use1 & _h us$ occasionally1 b x l5t itself to ill-dispos$ p z a vehicle ( sl&]1 & ,i _h ceas$ to feel myself at lib]ty to give x my c\nt5ance4 ,) a small p]iodical ( my own ,i c\ld communicate ) my fri5ds at pleasure1 & ,i us$ my ,evangelical ,re=m] = ?is purpose ) great fre$om4 ,i publi%$ my views on temp]ance1 on m>riage1 on trade1 on education1 on dress1 on diet1 on religi\s p>ties1 on books & read+1 on ! use ( money1 on ! duty ( ! ,*ur* to support its poor memb]s1 on tol]ation & human cre$s1 & on a multitude ( o!r subjects1 & urg$ on ! *ur*es a re=m on all ^! po9ts4 ,my fre$om ( expression soon br\ght me into fre% tr\ble4 ,an article :i* ,i publi%$ on ,tol]ation & ,human ,cre$s1 0 consid]$ by "s ( my bre?r5 to be highly objectionable & dang]\s1 & 0 br\ght be=e ,conf]5ce4 ,conf]5ce 0 press$ by _m to condemn ! article1 & to %[ its disapprobation ( x by puni%+ ! au?or4 ,o!rs entreat$ t ,conf]5ce %\ld sp>e ! au?or1 le/ mis*ief %\ld foll[1 & cont5t itself ) privately express+ disapprobation ( ! article4 ,! latt] p>ties prevail$2 b _! mod]ation 0 made ( no effect by ! editor ( ! magaz9e :o wick$ly publi%$ ! obnoxi\s resolution to ! _w1 & s r5d]$ x necess>y = me to write aga9 on ! subject1 to def5d myself & my article4 ,! result 0 a controv]sy betwe5 me & "s ( my bre?r51 :i* l$ at l5g? to ! mo/ s]i\s consequ5ces4 ,ano!r article 0 object$ to by _m ( my bro!r m9i/]s4 ,a drap]1 a lead+ memb] ( ! society at ,a%ton1 publi%$ a circul>1 ann\nc+ ! w9t] fa%ions1 & s5t copies to memb]s ( my congregation1 press+ !m to g & pur*ase 8 w>es1 _m ( :i* 7 bo? co/ly & useless4 ,i copi$ ?is circul> into my p]iodical1 & advis$ my read]s to disreg>d its c\nsels1 & to sp5d _! money l ,*ri/ians4 ,i add$ "s rem>ks on ! inconsi/5cy ( pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians urg+ p1 ev5 9 ! way ( trade1 to wa/e _! ,ma/]'s money on ?+s =bidd5 by ,8 ^w4 ,?is article creat$ a great am\nt ( excitem5t1 & "s w\ld fa9 h _h x c5sur$ by ,conf]5ce1 along ) ! o!r article2 b !y 7 n all[$ to h _! way4 ,bo? my p]iodical & my o!r publications 7 favorably receiv$1 & _h a l>ge circulation1 & my oppon5ts ?\ght !y gave me too mu* p[]1 & made me dang]\s2 & ?is became ! occasion ( fur!r unpleasantness4 ,on ! o!r h& ! magaz9e _h b a poor circulation1 & ! ,book-room1 ?\gh x _h a l>ge am\nt ( capital1 did b a v limit$ bus9ess2 & ,i sugge/$ re=ms ) a view to r5d] !m m useful4 ,i urg$ an improvem5t ( ! magaz9e1 & ! publication ( *eap books1 ) a view to supply useful read+ to ! memb]s ( ! *ur*es1 & to p g5]ally4 ,all ^! propositions prov$ unpalatable to ! easy-go+ (ficials1 & br\ght on me fre% trials4 #ac4 ,aga92 ! /&>d ( morality 0 l[ 9 _m ( our societies1 & ,i plead$ = ! en=cem5t ( ,*ri/ian discipl9e4 ,"s ( our memb]s 7 brew]s1 "s publicans1 "s _s-m]*ants1 "s be]-%op keep]s4 ,old ,mr4 ,?waites 0 a publican4 ,8 son1 :o 0 bo? class-lead] & local prea*]1 0 bo? a dr9k-sell] & a pawnbrok]4 ,& ,i am n c]ta9 t pawnbrok+ 9 ,engl& is n z bad a bus9ess z dr9k-sell+4 ,! two are ne>ly relat$ & are fa/ fri5ds4 ,drunk5ness leads to pawnbrok+1 & pawnbrok+ helps drunk5ness4 ,timo?y ,b5tley1 "o ( ! greate/ brew]s 9 ,engl&1 ! poison]-g5]al bo? ( ! s\ls & bodies ( ! imm5se population ( my native c\nty1 0 a ,me?odi/ class-lead] at ,hudd]sfield4 ,i once met 9 8 class4 ,he 0 a mo/ v5]able & sa9tly-look+ man1 & /ood 9 high repute4 ,i reg>d$ ^! bus9esses z anti-*ri/ian1 & cont5d$ t ^? :o p]si/$ 9 !m aft] due admonition1 %\ld be expell$4 ,! bus9esses nam$ above 7 n ! wor/4 ,"s memb]s ( society 7 :olesale p&]s4 ,take ! foll[+ facts4 ,:5 ,i 0 s5t to ,liv]pool ,i _h a "y man1 ^: "n ,i ne$ n give1 = a b$-fell[4 ,he 0 a drap]1 & 8 cu/om]s 7 un=tunate wom54 ,he sold to !m on tru/1 & w5t r\nd weekly to collect 8 money4 ,8 fa!r1 :o 0 a lead+ man 9 ! society1 & 8 bro!rs1 7 9 ! same way ( bus9ess4 ,ano!r man :o 0 a lead+ memb] & an (ficial1 foll[$ ! same di%onorable occupation4 ,x 0 usual ) ^? p1 :5 _! wret*$ cu/om]s 7 turn$ out ( _! h\ses by _! l&lords1 to provide !m ) fre% h\ses1 & ev5 to supply !m ) furniture4 ,:5 fairs or races 7 at h&1 !y suppli$ !m ) extra dresses & ornam5ts1 to enable !m to ply _! horrible trade to bett] advantage4 ,^! facts ,i _h 9 "p f my b$-fell[1 & 9 "p f ! p 9 ^: h\se he kept 8 %op1 & ) :om ,i liv$4 ,:5 ,i came to "k ^! ?+s ,i 0 v uneasy2 & on f9d+ t x 0 unsafe to sleep ) my b$-fell[1 ,i got fre% lodg+s4 ,?is vex$ my b$-fell[ & all 8 family1 & made !m my enemies4 ,i spoke ( ^! ?+s to my sup]9t5d5t1 b he advis$ me to be cauti\s :at ,i did & said 9 ref]5ce to su* matt]s4 ,& he told me a /ory t he _h met ) 9 a "w on ! m9i/ry by an ,am]ican1 :i* he _h j be5 read+4 ,?is au?or said1 t out ( fifty m9i/]s :om he _h kn[n expell$ f _! holy (fice1 only "o or two _h be5 expell$ = immoral conduct or gross inconsi/5cy3 all ! re/ _h be5 disc>d$ on acc\nt ( imprud5ces4 ,?is 0 meant to det] me f int]f]+ ei!r by ^w or de$ ) faulty memb]s ( society4 ,& he back$ 8 ungodly c\nsel by z bad an example4 ,= he n only left ^? wick$ p to pursue _! evil c\rses undi/urb$1 b visit$ at _! h\ses1 all[$ 8 family to receive pres5ts f !m1 &1 :5 he 0 leav+ ! circuit1 did himself accept f _! unclean h&s a portion ( _! fil?y ga9s1 9 ! %ape ( a te/imonial ( _! respect = 8 great abilities & di/+ui%$ virtues4 ,?is p]son1 ^: g5]al conduct 0 mu* 9 keep+ ) ! facts ,i h giv5 above1 ?\gh he 0 ! =emo/ m9i/] 9 ! ,connexion1 prov$ my mo/ p]si/5t adv]s>y 9 aft] life1 & nev] re/$ till he _h br\ght ab\t my expulsion f ! m9i/ry4 #ad4 ,i w m5tion ano!r affair to %[ :at notions c]ta9 memb]s ( ! *ur* _h ( :at 0 requir$ ( ,*ri/ians 9 ref]5ce to bus9ess matt]s4 ,i b\ght "s h&k]*iefs ( a man1 a memb] ( society1 9 ,*e/]1 on 8 assurance t !y w\ld wa%4 ,:5 we wa%$ !m !y came to pieces4 ,i ask$ ! man aft]w>ds if he 0 aw>e :5 he sold ! h&k]*iefs t !y 7 rott54 ,he said he 04 ,!n :y did y sell me !m8 ,i ask$4 ,he said he _h b\ght !m = good ones himself1 & t he c\ld n af=d to lose :at he _h giv5 = !m4 ,i want$ su* p to be dealt ) accord+ to ! rules ( ,*ri/ian discipl9e4 #ae4 ,!re 7 _m o!r sad facts1 f> m ?an ,i h ei!r "t or disposition to m5tion1 :i* =c$ !mselves on my notice1 & oblig$ me1 9 consci5ce1 to plead & labor = re=m4 ,!re seem$ a dreadful di/ance betwe5 ! "* ( ,*ri/ & ! "* ( ! ,*ur*2 & ,i wi%$ to make x less4 ,h[ f> ,i err$ 9 my ef=ts to br+ ab\t ?is desirable result1 & h[ f> ,i act$ wisely1 x is n = me to say4 ,i "k t my object 0 good1 & t ! c\rse ,i took 0 ! "o t seem$ be/ to me at ! "t2 b x is probable t "s w\ld h gone ab\t ! "w 9 a wis] way4 ,i nev] excell$ 9 c]ta9 =ms ( prud5ce4 ,i 0 prone to speak =? my ?\ghts & feel+s )\t mu* consid]ation & ) b little res]ve2 & ,i (t5 us$ ! pla9e/ & ev5 ! /ronge/ words4 ,i 0 too op54 ,my he>t 0 too ne> my m\?4 ,i ?\ght al\d4 ,& ,i 0 n suffici5tly t5d] ( p's feel+s4 ,nor did ,i make suffici5t all[ance = _! prejudices & imp]fections4 ,i probably expect$ too mu* f m54 ,& "s ( ! re=ms :i* ,i propos$ might at ! "t be impracticable4 ,i 0 accu/om$ to muse v mu* on ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les1 & to image to myself a /ate ( ?+s 9 ! ,*ur* :i*1 ?\gh v desirable1 0 probably unatta9able1 except ?r\gh _m sl[ prelim9>y *anges4 ,i wi%$ = a *ur* )\t spot1 or wr9kle1 or any su* ?+1--a *ur* t %\ld set =? & c>ry out ! highe/ pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ian purity & *>ity--& t 0 a bless+ to be look$ = n 9 ! pres5t1 b 9 ! future only4 #af4 ,!n ,i _h b little k ( human nature1 ei!r 9 its reg5]ate or unreg5]ate /ate4 ,i ov]-rat$ m5's virtues1 & "u-rat$ _! defects4 ,i tru/$ !m too mu* & fe>$ !m too little4 ,i took all :o put on a fair appe>ance1 = fri5ds1 & imp>t$ to !m ! inn]mo/ ?\ghts ( my s\l4 ,& _m prov$ unwor?y ( my confid5ce4 ,& ,i (t5 ov]-rat$ m5's tal5ts or capabilities4 ,i 0 n aw>e ( ! inf9ite diff]5ce 9 m5's p[]s4 ,i ?\ght all my bre?r5 9 ! m9i/ry1 & almo/ all my bro!r ,*ri/ians1 7 capable1 "u prop] culture1 ( be+ made z wise1 z able1 z eloqu5t1 z ! mo/ di/+ui%$ 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,i 0 n aw>e t "s m5 7 naturally palm-trees1 & o!rs only brambles2 t "s 7 pe>ls1 & o!rs only pebbles2 & t ^! con/itutional diff]5ces 7 unalt]able4 ,h5ce ,i expect$ too mu* ( "s1 & 0 too impati5t p]haps :5 disappo9t$4 ,i err$ ) reg>d bo? to m5 & in/itutions1 & my colleagues 7 (t5 (f5d$ ) :at !y deem$ my unreasonable expectations & dem&s4 #ag4 ,b 9 tru?1 x is n necess>y = re=m]s to err1 9 ord] to give (f5ce4 ,! be/ & wise/ ,"o t ev] appe>$ on e>? gave (f5ce to ^? :o 7 w$d$ to error & abuses4 ,a ,*ri/ian re=m] c nev] please ! e>?ly1 ! s5sual1 & ! devili%4 ,! hi/ory ( ,*ri/ & ( ,paul has settl$ t4 ,a ,*ri/ian re=m] nev] does ! "r ?+ 9 ! e/imation ( ! idle1 ! selfi%1 ! corrupt3 & if he does1 he nev] does x at ! "r "t1 or 9 ! "r way4 ,he always m$dles too e>ly1 or too late2 & he always goes too fa/1 or too sl[2 & he always does too mu*1 or too little4 ,he int]f]es ) _! ease1 _! int]e/s1 & _! pleasures1 & t is en\gh4 ,!y w1 9 return1 endeavor to de/roy 8 influ5ce1 if n to take away 8 life4 ,!y w impute to him ! vile/ motives4 ,!y w /ick at no lie1 no wrong1 t seems likely to damage 8 reputation4 ,!y w magnify 8 innoc5t weaknesses or trifl+ inconsi/5cies1 & repres5t !m z gross & unp>donable faults4 ,if he is fai?ful !y w call him ra%2 if he is prud5t !y w call him hypocritical2 & !y w labor 9 e way to awak5 aga9/ him di/ru/ & prejudice 9 ! m9ds ( ! bett]-dispos$ among _! bre?r54 ,& _m ( ! bett]-dispos$ !mselves (t5 see :at tries !m greatly 9 ! "* & do+s ( re=m]s4 ,x is ! natural t5d5cy ( ! re=m+ _s to lead a man to look too mu* at :at is amiss 9 m5 & sy/ems1 & too little at :at is "r & praisewor?y4 ,x is :at is amiss t wants re=m+1 s he fixes 8 m9d on t1 & makes x ! con/ant subject ( 8 conv]sation4 ,& s x 0 ) myself no d\bt to "s ext5t4 ,& ?is1 to m5 ( cons]vative t5d5cies1 :o look m at ! good & less at ! evil 9 ! m5 & sy/ems ) :i* !y are connect$1 seems a griev\s fault1 an inexcusable piece ( inju/ice1 des]v+ ! sev]e/ c5sure4 ,& !y repay x ) ! /]ne/ condemnation4 ,& cons]vatives c be z bl9d or "o-sid$ z ! mo/ eag] re=m]s4 ,!y c %ut _! eyes to :at is evil1 or treat great abuses z excusable trifles2 :ile !y magnify :at is good beyond all b\nds4 ,& :5 !y get excit$ or vex$ !y c be z unju/ t[>ds ! re=m]1 z ! mo/ rabid re=m] c be t[>ds !m or _! pet in/itutions4 ,& !re are few ?+s fi]c] ?an ! fire ( bigotry1 ev5 9 m9ds n de/itute ( piety4 ,! tru? is1 :5 m5 wax hot1 ei!r 9 favor ( re=m or aga9/ x1 ju/ice is =gott51 & k9dness & c\rtesy are out ( ! "q4 ,& s x 0 9 ! controv]sies :i* arose out ( my ef=ts at re=m4 ,i 0 assail$ bo? by ! malignity ( ! corrupt1 & by ! bigotry ( ! misguid$4 ,i 0 hat$ by ! bad1 & dread$ by "s ( ! good1 & abus$ & p]secut$ by bo?4 ,& "s ( my enemies _h nei!r m]cy nor mod]ation4 ,!y press$ matt]s to ! mo/ t]rible extremes4 ,& ,i 0 n suffici5tly on my gu>d4 ,in/ead ( possess+ my s\l 9 pati5ce1 & ca/+ my c>e on ,god1 ,i all[$ _! p]secutions to increase ! bitt]ness ( my unhappy feel+s1 & r5d] my ultimate sep>ation f !m inevitable4 #ah4 ,!re 7 sev]al o!r matt]s :i* _h some?+ to d 9 caus+ unpleasant feel+s betwe5 me & a numb] ( my bre?r54 ,x fell to my lot to be unusually popul>4 ,i became s at a v e>ly p]iod4 ,i 01 9 consequ5ce1 (t5 invit$ by o!r circuits to prea* _! special s]mons1 & ,i frequ5tly accept$ ^? invitations4 ,"s ( my sup]9t5d5ts 7 annoy$ at ?is1 & %[$ _! displeasure 9 v (f5sive ways4 ,:ile ,i 0 9 ,hanley circuit my sup]9t5d5t call$ a meet+ ( a numb] ( lead+ fri5ds1 be=e :i* ,i 0 summon$ to appe>4 ,!re my acceptance ( invitations to prea* occasional s]mons 0 *>g$ aga9/ me z an (f5ce1 & ,i 0 ord]$ n to g into o!r circuits any m1 )\t ! cons5t ( my sup]9t5d5t4 ,i (f]$ no objection to ?is4 ,my sup]9t5d5t next *>g$ me ) hav+ a numb] ( objectionable books 9 my libr>y4 ,he _h reque/$ ! woman at ^: h\se ,i lodg$ to %[ him into my room dur+ my abs5ce1 & !re he _h f\nd ! works ( ,%akespe>e1 ,b>r[1 ,tillotson1 & ,paley1 & "s volumes ( poems by ,"l ,byron4 ,! meet+ advis$ me to get rid ( ,%akespe>e & ,byron1 & to be c>eful h[ ,i us$ ! works ( ,b>r[1 ,tillotson1 & ,paley1 z !y 7 n ,me?odi/ical1 & my great conc]n1 x 0 said1 %\ld be to excel z a tea*] & def5d] ( ,me?odism4 ,) ?is recomm5dation ,i c\ld n entirely comply4 ,i reta9$ my ,%akespe>e2 ,i h him yet4 ,& ,i read ! works ( ,tillotson1 ,b>r[1 & ,paley z freely z ,i _h done be=e4 ,b ,i lo/ all confid5ce 9 my sup]9t5d5t1 & a portion ( ! respect ,i _h felt = ^? :o took 8 "p4 ,t[>ds ! close ( ! ye> my sup]9t5d5t & 8 fri5ds endeavor$ to prev5t me f receiv+ a p]fect c]tificate1 on ! pret5ce t ,i _h express$ a d\bt :e!r my heal? w\ld prove equal to ! "w ( ! m9i/ry4 ,_! objections prov$ ( no avail2 b ! _s :i* my sup]9t5d5t %[$1 increas$ ! unhappy feel+ :i* 8 previ\s unk9dness _h awak5$ 9 my brea/4 #ai4 ,! wife ( "o ( our m9i/]s publi%$ a book1 & ! husb& s5t x to me = review4 ,x conta9$1 mix$ up ) a great v>iety ( useful rem>ks1 a numb] ( anti-scriptural & ant9omian passages4 ,:ile ,i did ju/ice to ! re/ ( ! book1 ,i expos$ its errors ) great fidelity1 & gave ! husb& great (f5ce4 #bj4 ,ab\t ! same "t a g5tleman at ^: h\se ,i 0 billet$ at ,bury1 :5 lectur+ !re on temp]ance1 made me a pres5t ( a volume ( ,*ann+'s disc\rses4 ,i read ?is volume ) ! greate/ delight1 & spoke ( x highly 9 my p]iodical4 ,n[ ,*ann+ 0 a ,unit>ian1 & 9 "o ( ! disc\rses conta9$ 9 ! volume :i* ,i _h comm5d$1 !re 7 sev]al ,unit>ian expressions4 ,! husb& ( ! lady ^: book ,i _h review$ br\ght ! matt] be=e ,conf]5ce4 ,he also quot$ f my p]iodical a numb] ( passages :i* he cont5d$ 7 n ,me?odi/ical4 ,he 0 v viol5t 9 8 rem>ks1 & conclud$ 8 address by dem&+ my expulsion4 ,he _h conf]r$ ) a numb] ( o!r prea*]s be=e ,conf]5ce came on1 & =m$ a consid]able p>ty1 & ! clamor = my condemnation 0 bo? l\d & some:at g5]al4 ,a g5tleman1 h[ev]1 ( great influ5ce 9 ,conf]5ce1--! same :o _h plead$ = mod]ation at ! ,conf]5ce previ\s1--rose & propos$ a g5tl] c\rse4 ,! result 0 a committee1 explanations & a settlem5t4 ,aft] ! ,conf]5ce1 ! t]ms ( ! settlem5t 7 misrepres5t$ by my oppon5ts1 & ,i felt call$ ^u to put !m 9 _! prop] light4 ,?is reviv$ ! controv]sy1 & made matt]s worse ?an !y _h be5 be=e4 #ba4 ,i h ref]r$ to ! rule :i* requir$ "y prea*]s to rema9 s+le = f\r or five ye>s4 ,:5 a p]son 0 receiv$ into ! m9i/ry1 he 0 requir$ to give a pl$ge t he w\ld keep ?is rule4 ,i decl9$ to give ?is pl$ge1 ,i said ,i _h no int5tion to m>ry be=e ! appo9t$ "t1 & t if ,i did s1 ,i %\ld be 9 ! h&s ( ! ,conf]5ce1 & !y c\ld d ) me :at !y ?\ght be/4 ,?is 0 consid]$ suffici5t1 & ,i 0 accept$4 ,z x happ5$ ,i did m>ry be=e ! appo9t$ "t4 ,i _h _h su* unsuitable lodg+s f\nd me :]e ,i _h be5 /ation$1 & ,i _h suff]$ s mu* 9 consequ5ce1 t ,i felt ju/ifi$ 9 tak+ a wife & provid+ accommodations = myself1 ,i took = my wife a woman ( exempl>y "*1 ( amiable disposition1 & engag+ mann]s1 & ,i put ! circuits 9 :i* ,i 0 /ation$ to no additional exp5se or tr\ble4 ,i took my own h\se1 & provid$ my own furniture4 ,& ,i nei!r begg$ nor borr[$ a p5ny1 nor did ,i run "o p5ny into debt4 ,& ,i work$ z h>d aft] m>riage z be=e1 & probably h>d]1 & to bett] purpose4 ,! ,conf]5ce h[ev] puni%$ me by putt+ me a ye> back1 & transport+ me to ! mo/ di/ant "p ( a v di/ant circuit4 ,?i!r ,i _h to remove my wife & furniture at great exp5se4 ,& ! all[ance = bo>d !re 0 ! l[e/ t ! laws all[$ a society to give4 ,my :ole ye>ly income 0 only =ty p\nds1 or two hundr$ doll>s4 ,i 0 requir$ too to be (t5 & long f home 9 di/ant p>ts ( ! circuit4 ,i w5t h[ev] to my appo9tm5t & set to "w1 dispos$1 ?\gh sorr[ful1 to d my duty4 ,i got a "p ( an old un9habit$ h\se1 & my wife made x com=table4 ,we liv$ economically1 & kept out ( debt1 )\t ! aid ( ei!r gifts or loans1 & ,i nev] _h a happi] ye>1 & my labors 7 nev] bett] receiv$ or m successful2 & ,bly?1 ! place ( my bani%m5t1 w be de> to me z long z ,i live4 #bb4 ,yet ,i _h _m trials :ile /ation$ !re4 ,my sup]9t5d5t 0 unk9d1 & tri$ f "t to "t to d me h>m4 ,b ?\gh he caus$ me mu* tr\ble at times1 a high] p[] ov]rul$ ?+s = my good4 ,"o ( ! societies ov] :i* he _h great influ5ce 0 really cruel4 ,x refus$ to po/pone a s]vice to all[ me to g & see my *ild :5 x 0 v ill1 & ?\ght to be 9 great dang]4 ,! circuit 0 ne>ly ?irty miles 9 l5g?1 & ,i _h to sp5d ne>ly half my "t f fifte5 to tw5ty-?ree miles away f home4 ,once :5 />t+ = ! mo/ di/ant ( my appo9tm5ts1 ,i _h left my little *ild v unwell1 & app>5tly 9 dang] ( dea?4 ,x 0 too bad t ,i %\ld h _h to leave my little family "u su* circum/ances2 b ! feel+ 9 _m p>ts ( ! circuit 0 s unfri5dly t[>ds me1 9 consequ5ce ( ! unfavorable repres5tations ( my views & habits ( ?\ght circulat$ by my sup]9t5d5t & 8 fri5ds1 t ,i c\ld n h miss$ an appo9tm5t ) safety4 ,i _h be5 away five days1 :5 ,i he>d t my *ild 0 worse1 & likely to die4 ,i _h /ill "o appo9tm5t to fulfil1 b ,i resolv$1 if possible1 to get x po/pon$1 & ha/5 home4 ,i w5t to ! place & reque/$ ! lead]s to all[ me to put (f ! appo9tm5t to ! foll[+ week4 ,!y refus$ my reque/4 ,i told !m ,i _h receiv$ ^w t my *ild 0 likely to die1 & t ,i 0 anxi\s to be ) its afflict$ "m2 b !y w\ld n give way4 ,i 0 sadly tri$1 & ,i said1 ,i %all g home not)/&+4 ,if ,i f9d my *ild alive & likely to recov]1 ,i w return & prea*2 if ,i d n f9d x bett]1 ,i %all n return4 ,i %all /ay at home & take ! consequ5ces6 ,i _h already walk$ ?irte5 miles4 ,x 0 t5 or elev5 m to ,bly?4 ,i walk$ ! :ole di/ance4 ,!re 0 no conveyance4 ,my sup]9t5d5t 0 all[$ horse hire2 b ,i 0 n3 & ,i c\ld n af=d to pay = a horse myself out ( sixte5 doll>s or ?ree p\nd five a mon?4 ,i rea*$ home1 & f\nd my *ild a little bett]4 ,aft] a little re/1 ,i />t$ back on foot to my appo9tm5t4 ,my wife look$ out ( ! w9d[ aft] me1 weep+1 afraid to ask me to rema9 ) h]4 ,%e knew ! temp] ( my sup]9t5d5t1 & ! feel+ ( ! p1 s %e wept 9 sil5ce4 ,i walk$ ov] t5 miles m1 & !n prea*$4 ,i walk$ altoge!r ?irty-?ree miles t day4 ,i 0 v mu* tir$2 b ,i _h se5 my wife & *ild1 s ,i w5t ?r\gh my "w )\t compla9+1 & 0 up v e>ly next morn+1 & walk$ t5 miles m to breakfa/ ) my d>l+ wife1 & to com=t h] sorr[ful he>t4 ,my *ild got well1 & all ?+s turn$ out happily 9 ! end4 ,/ill1 ! unk9dness ( ! ,conf]5ce 9 puni%+ me s undes]v$ly1 & ! cruelty ( my sup]9t5d5t & ! ,we/moor lead]s1 made me feel v ke5ly1 & ,i c\ld nev] ?9k ( ^? matt]s )\t some?+ l indignation & horror4 ,& all ^! annoyances less5$ my respect = _m ( my bre?r51 & help$ to prep>e ! way = future tr\bles4 ,my tr\bles did n all come f ! prea*]s4 ,!re 7 sev]al laym5 9 & ab\t ,newca/le-on-,tyne1 :o seem$ to ?9k x a duty to annoy _! "y m9i/]4 ,! wor/1 ?\gh 9 "s respects ! be/1 ( t class 0 ,?omas ,sn[don1 an old local prea*]1 lead]1 & tru/ee4 ,! fir/ int]view t ,i _h ) ?is man he took occasion to insult me respect+ my m>riage1 & also gave me to und]/& t he %\ld expect me to be 9 p]fect subjection to 8 w1 if ,i wi%$ to enjoy mu* peace or com=t 9 ! circuit4 ,x fell to my lot to be lodg$ & bo>d$ = "p ( my "t at 8 h\se1 & to %[ 8 way ( proce$+ ,i may give ! foll[+4 ,x 0 8 cu/om to read a portion ( ! ,scriptures to 8 family e morn+1 & z he pass$ along he w\ld make comm5ts on :at he read4 ,:5 ,i 0 !re1 he w\ld frequ5tly /op 9 8 read+s & comm5ts1 to ask my op9ion1 & he seem$ to expect t ,i mu/ always concur 9 :at he said4 ,at times h[ev] ,i 0 oblig$ to diss5t f 8 say+s1 & !n w\ld foll[ a little controv]sy4 ,^? controv]sies 7 nev] v pr(itable1 9 consequ5ce ( 8 con/ant desire to =ce 8 own op9ions on me1 & to extort f me ass5t to 8 :imsical & fooli% obs]vations4 ,yet he /ill cont9u$ to =ce ^? controv]sies4 ,he also took ^u himself ! (fice ( p]petual c5sur] ( my disc\rses4 ,& 8 c5sures 7 g5]ally proportion$ to ! goodness ( ! s]mon4 ,if ,i happ5$ to be p>ticul>ly at lib]ty 9 my disc\rse1 & prea* bett] ?an usual1 he w\ld blame almo/ ev]y?+4 ,if ,i prea*$ indiff]5tly1 he w\ld c5sure less2 & if ,i prea*$ poorly1 if ,i 0 emb>rass$ 9 my disc\rse1 & seem$ tr\bl$ or sad on t acc\nt1 he w\ld sc>cely c5sure at all4 ,!n ! ?+s :i* he c5sur$ w\ld be sure to be ! be/ & true/ p>ts ( my s]mon4 ,he appe>$ to ?9k t he 0 out ( 8 duty1 unless he 0 endeavor+ to torture ! m9d ( ! "y prea*]1 & to =ce him1 if possible1 into subjection to 8 w4 ,on "o occasion he & ,i _h ne>ly qu>rell$4 ,he _h tri$ me till ,i c\ld keep sil5ce no long]1 s ,i told him pla9ly :at ,i ?\ght ab\t 8 mann] ( proce$+4 ,i spoke s pla9ly1 t bo? he & 8 wife 7 s]i\sly put ab\t4 ,soon aft] t1 on my visit+ ! ,newca/le side ( ! circuit1 ,i f\nd t ! p at ^: h\se ,i 0 !n accu/om$ to sleep1 _h gone (f1 & clos$ ! h\se1 s t ,i 0 oblig$ to look out = o!r lodg+s4 ,i w5t directly to ,mr4 ,sn[don's4 ,he 0 ! pr9cipal man 9 ! circuit1 & x 0 8 place to see t ,i 0 prop]ly provid$ =4 ,8 wife seem$ a/oni%$ :5 ,i ent]$ ! h\se3 b ,i told h] h[ ! matt] /ood2 & ,i add$1 t ,i did n feel dispos$ to g1 at t "t ( ! night1 7= x 0 gett+ r late7 to any o!r lodg+2 s t ,i hop$ %e w\ld give me a b$4 ,i also said1 t unless ,i c\ld be accommodat$ ) a b$ !re1 ,i w\ld at once return to ,bly?4 ,%e said1 ',i %\ld always be glad to see y1 & to give y ei!r b$ or any?+ else1 if y w\ld n disagree & dispute s ) our ma/]4' ,i repli$1 ',x is y\r ma/] t w disagree & dispute ) me4 ,i %\ld be quiet en\gh1 if he w\ld let me alone4 ,i nev] =ce my op9ions on him2 x is only :5 he attempts to =ce 8 op9ions on me t ,i ev] speak4 ,y mu/ y\rself h se5 t he w nei!r all[ me to be sil5t1 nor all[ me quietly to speak my m9d2 t he w oblige me to speak1 & yet always f9ds fault if ,i say any?+ at v>iance ) :at he says4' ,%e ackn[l$g$ t h] husb& 0 r que] 9 t respect1 b /ill ?\ght t ,i might manage a great deal bett] ) him if ,i w\ld4 ,i told h] ,i _h done my be/1 & t x 0 all to no purpose4 ',he w ask my op9ion1' said ,i1 'on e subject t comes into 8 head1 & !n beg9 to compla9 :5ev] my op9ion happ5s to diff] f 84' ,i also add$1 t ,i ?\ght he sometimes disput$ ) me m]ely = ! sake ( disput+1 & contradict$ me1 n because he ?\ght ,i 0 wrong1 b because he ?\ght t x w\ld be too mu* ( a complim5t to ackn[l$ge t he agre$ ) me on any subject4 ,%e ?\ght ,i 0 too sev]e ^u him4 ,i said1 ',well1 j wait & see to-night1 & if x is n z ,i h said1 y %all blame me z mu* z y l1 & ,i w ackn[l$ge myself 9 error4' ,almo/ imm$iately ,mr4 ,sn[don came 94 ',:at are y do+ "h to-night8' said he4 ',i h come to sleep "h1' ,i repli$1 '& m ?an t1 ,i mu/ sleep "h1 or else return to ,bly?4 ,mr4 ,g----'s h\se is clos$1 & x is too late to seek a b$ else:]e4' ,he made no objections1 & ?+s proce$$ z usual4 ,he soon took 8 ,bible1 call$ ! family ar\nd him1 & began to read4 ,! lesson 0 9 ,isaiah4 ,he _h n read f> be=e he began to expla9 a passage4 ',?is1' said he1 'ref]s to our bless$ ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x po9ts out ! glory ( ,8 "* & ( ,8 p]son z ! supreme ,god & ,"l ( all2 exhibits ,him z ! ,mak] z well z ! ,savi\r ( ! _w4 ,d y n ?9k s1 ,mr4 ,b>k]8' said he4 ,i rema9$ sil5t4 ',is n t y\r view ( ! subject1 ,mr4 ,b>k]8' he add$4 ',i h no objections to (f]1' ,i said4 ,?is did n seem exactly to satisfy him2 b he w5t on1 & read aga94 ',& s x is1' said he2 'we are all by nature z an unclean ?+2 !re is no heal? 9 u4 ,h[ deeply we are fall51 ,mr4 ,b>k]6 ,d y n ?9k s1 ,mr4 ,b>k]8' ,i made no reply4 ,he wi%$ to "k :y ,i 0 sil5t4 ,i said ,i did n l to be always talk+ on ^? matt]s1--t ,i w\ld r he w\ld read on1 & all[ u to ?9k ab\t ! *apt] at our leisure aft]w>ds4 ,all ?is "t 8 wife 0 dreadfully fidgetty4 ,%e want$ to speak to him1 b c\ld n4 ,%e wi%$ to cat* 8 att5tion by h] looks1 b to no purpose4 ,! pro( ( ! tru? ( :at ,i _h said 0 becom+ too /rong = h]1 & %e c\ld sc>cely sit /ill on h] *air4 ,he proce$$3 ',?is1' said he1 'ref]s to ! glory ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ 9 ! latt] days1 :5 ! ,g5tiles %all be conv]t$1 & ! ,jews br\ght back to _! own l&4 ,?is w be a glori\s "t1 ,mr4 ,b>k]4 ,:at are y\r views on ?is subject1 ,mr4 ,b>k]8' ,!n he add$ "s fur!r rem>ks1 conclud+ ) ! "q1 ',d y n ?9k s1 ,mr4 ,b>k]8' ,i n[ began to laugh3 ,i c\ld hold no long]4 ',& d y laugh at ,god's holy ^w8' said he3 & a t]rible lecture he w\ld h read me1 _h n 8 wife broke out & said1 ',h9ney1 y are to blame1 y are to blame4 ,y won't let ,mr4 ,b>k] alone3 he w\ld be sil5t if y w\ld all[ him3 y are too bad4' ,he repeat$ 8 t]rible rebuke ( my levity1 & ,i began to expla94 ,i told him :at _h pass$ betwe5 8 wife & me be=e he came 94 ,i told him all t ,i ?\ght ab\t 8 way ( proce$+ t[>ds me 9 ^? matt]s1 & he1 poor fell[1 0 completely conf\nd$4 ,i told him t x seem$ to me z if he really took pleasure 9 torm5t+ p2 z if he c\ld n be happy unless he ?\ght t he 0 mak+ o!r p mis]able1--t he seem$ to begrudge ^? t 7 ar\nd him ! lea/ ease1 or quietness1 or pleasure1 & to wi% to keep !m on a p]petual rack4 ,x 0 8 "t n[ to expla9 & apologize1 & :at d y ?9k 0 ! reason he assign$ = 8 proce$+s8 ',h9ney1' said he1 ',mr4 ,b>k] is a "y m9i/]1 & ,i wi% to inure him to h>dness z a good soldi] ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4' ,i told him !re 7 pa9ful ?+s en\gh 9 ! _w to inure m5 to h>dness )\t 8 mak+ m1 c4 ,aft] ?is he nev] annoy$ me mu* 9 t way aga94 ,he did n all[ me to re/ altoge!r2 t w\ld h be5 too mu*2 b he 0 a va/ deal bett]2 & if he ev] aft] ?is began to be que]1 ,i always felt great] confid5ce 9 refus+ to talk to him1 & 9 lett+ him "k t ,i expect$ to be all[$ to h a little ( my own way4 ,i nev] c\ld p]suade myself b t ?is man 01 aft] all1 a good man4 ,i believe he really fe>$ ,god & lov$ 8 fell[-m54 ,i ?9k he 0 consci5ti\s & b5evol5t4 ,among o!r pro(s ( 8 b5evol5ce ,i may m5tion1 t he took an orphan family "u 8 c>e1 & re>$ !m4 ,he made !m "w1 x is true2 he made e "o "w t 0 "u him2 b he f$ !m1 & clo!d !m1 & taught !m 9 8 way4 ,he act$1 9 %ort1 l a fa!r to !m4 ,aga91 :5 my "m came ov] to see me at ,newca/le1 he invit$ h] to 8 h\se4 ,he %[$ h] e possible att5tion4 ,he 0 z k9d z x 0 possible = a man to be4 ,& :5 %e _h to leave = ,le$s1 he 0 up by f\r or five o'clock 9 ! morn+1 to provide h] a com=table breakfa/1 & take h] to ! coa*4 ,b ,i obs]v$ t he 0 always k9d] to old p ?an to "y p4 ,i suppose he ?\ght t old p _h _h tr\ble en\gh1 & t he _h !re=e no ne$ to give !m m2 b t "y p 7 9 dang] ( be+ too happy1 ( hav+ too little tr\ble1 & t x 0 necess>y !re=e t he %\ld be _! torm5tor4 ,b ev5 to ! "y he c\ld be k9d on occasions1 v k9d2 & if ! "y %[$ a disposition to meet 8 views1 to receive 8 say+s z oracles1 & always to consult 8 w1 he w\ld ev5 c>ess & comm5d !m4 ,b he c\ld receive no measur$ or limit$ subjection4 ,!y mu/ nei!r ?9k1 nor speak1 nor smile1 nor /ir b 9 accordance ) 8 w if !y wi%$ to enjoy 8 favor4 ,! lea/ imag9able opposition to 8 judgm5t or 8 pleasure1 w\ld draw =? 8 rebukes4 ,!re 7 laym5 9 almo/ all places :o took ^u !mselves to tell y :at y %\ld believe & tea*1 & to condemn y z a h]etic if y did n att5d to _! sugge/ions4 #bd4 ,9 #ahcg1 %ortly aft] ,i 0 /ation$ 9 ,mossley1 ,i _h a public discussion ) a cl]gyman on ! propriety or lawfulness ( tea*+ ! *ildr5 ( ! poor to write 9 our ,sunday-s*ools4 ,! ,new ,connexion p 9 ! ,mossley circuit taught writ+ 9 _! ,sunday-s*ools1 & !y _h1 9 consequ5ce1 a v l>ge att5dance ( s*ol>s1 & v prosp]\s *ur*es4 ,_! s*ol>s outnumb]$ ^? ( all ! o!r s*ools put toge!r4 ,?is seem$ to annoy ! m9i/]s ( ! o!r d5om9ations1 & x 0 no uncommon ?+ = ^? m9i/]s1 :5 !y came to prea* ! ye>ly s]mons 9 behalf ( ! funds ( _! ,s*ools1 to say /rong ?+s aga9/ ! practice ( ! ,new ,connexion4 ,dr4 ,nunn1 ( ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur*1 cont5d$ t x 0 ,sabba?-break+1 & *all5g$ ! ,new ,connexion (ficials to a public discussion on ! subject4 ,!y accept$ ! *all5ge1 & appo9t$ me _! *ampion4 ,i cont5d$1 t 9 ! circum/ances 9 :i* ! *ildr5 ( ! poor 7 plac$ at t "t1 x 0 an act ( m]cy & ,*ri/ian b5efic5ce to tea* !m to write on ,sundays4 ,! cl]gyman gave up ! conte/ be=e ! "t all[$ = ! debate came to a close1 & ,i 0 proclaim$ victor4 ,i publi%$ my views on ! subject 9 a pamphlet1 entitl$ ,,m]cy ,,triumphant1 :i* _h an ext5sive circulation1 & produc$ a p[]ful effect on ! views ( l>ge numb]s ( p4 ,"s ( my bre?r5 d5\nc$ ! pamphlet z h]etical1 & ! editor ( ! ,magaz9e took occasion to in=m 8 read]s1 9 an (f5sive way1 t my views 7 n ! views ( ! body to :i* ,i belong$4 #be4 ,9 ! ,%effield circuit ,i _h sev]al unpleasant collisions ) "o ( my colleagues1 & a c\ple ( sup]annuat$ m9i/]s1 ab\t a ri* b v unwor?y memb] !re4 ,?is man 0 anxi\s to control ! action ( ! :ole circuit1 & ev5 ( ! :ole ,connexion1 & "o ( my colleagues1 & ! two sup]annuat$ m9i/]s1 "o ( :i* 0 ,mr4 ,all91 my old & p]si/5t oppon5t1 took 8 "p4 ,i _h myself no fai? 9 ! man4 ,i knew him to be bo? an ignorant & unwor?y p]son4 ,he 01 9 fact1 a drunk>d4 ,bo? he & ,mr4 ,all9 once1 aft] hav+ sp5t ! day at a public fea/1 came into an (ficial meet+ drunk 9 ! ev5+4 ,i 0 pres5t1 & saw ! horrible sight4 ,x aft]w>ds came out t ?is rude1 ambiti\s man 0 some?+ worse ?an a drunk>d4 ,i did :at ,i c\ld to avoid an op5 rupture ) my colleagues & ?is man's fri5ds1 & succe$$ = a "t1 b !y oblig$ me at la/1 ei!r to sanction :at ,i felt to be wrong1 or op5ly to prote/ aga9/ _! proce$+s4 ,i prote/$4 ,& n[ ! unsub/antial peace :i* _h exi/$ betwe5 u = a "t 0 foll[$ by a v unhappy rupture1 :i* left deep & angry w\nds 9 ! he>ts ( all ! cont5d+ p>ties4 #bf4 ,b to give all ! incid5ts :i* prov$ ! occasion ( bitt] feel+ & ali5ation betwe5 me & a numb] ( my bre?r5 w\ld require a book4 ,!y 7 happ5+ almo/ cont9ually4 ,:5 once p h ceas$ to reg>d ea* o!r ) love & confid5ce1 !y c nei!r speak nor /ir )\t giv+ ea* o!r (f5ce4 ,& ?is 0 ! /ate to :i* ,i & sev]al ( my bre?r5 _h come4 ,inde$ su* 0 ! unhappy /ate ( our feel+s1 t we _h ceas$ to take pleasure 9 pleas+1 & _h come almo/ to take delight 9 try+ "o ano!r4 ,in/ead ( com+ z ne> toge!r z we c\ld1 we got z f> z possible ap>t4 ,we came at l5g? to feel a k9d ( gratification 9 f9d+ :at appe>$ good reasons = diff]+ f "o ano!r4 ,! consequ5ce 01 we came to diff] f ea* o!r s mu*1 t x became impossible = u to "w toge!r to any advantage4 ,& !re 0 no "o ) wisdom & piety suffici5t to int]pose & heal ! brea*1 or ev5 to prev5t x f gett+ cont9ually wid]4 ,! g5tleman :o _h act$ z m$iator & mod]ator :5 my article on ,tol]ation & ,human ,cre$s 0 arraign$1 & :o _h also br\ght ab\t ! tempor>y settlem5t ( a m s]i\s dispute at ! ,conf]5ce foll[+1 n[ f\nd ! case beyond 8 p[]s1 & made no fur!r attempts at reconciliation4 ,he saw x necess>y1 if he w\ld reta9 8 influ5ce 9 ! ,body1 to become a p>tizan1 in/ead ( a m$iator1 & he *ose ! side ( my oppon5ts4 ,!re 7 two o!r m5--two ( ! olde/ & able/ ( our m9i/]s--& two ( ! mo/ exempl>y ,*ri/ians 9 ! ,body--:o saw ! dang] ( ! tempe/ t 0 rag+ aga9/ me1 & :o w\ld h be5 glad to scre5 me f its viol5ce1 b !y 7 afraid to int]pose4 ,!y lov$ me & e/eem$ me1 & sympa?iz$ ) me 9 _m ( my views2 b to h attempt$ to save me f ! fury ( my oppon5ts1 w\ld h be5 to risk _! own reputation & position4 ,"o ( !m _h already suff]$ 9 consequ5ce ( ! fre$om ) :i* he _h express$ 8 views on c]ta9 anti-*ri/ian doctr9es1 ?\gh he _h writt5 ) f> m caution1 & act$ ) mu* m prud5ce1 ?an ,i _h done2 & he no d\bt felt1 t if he c\ld n1 )\t s mu* difficulty1 save himself1 x w\ld be va9 to attempt to save ano!r1 :o _h spok5 & writt5 ) s mu* m fre$om1 & act$ ) s mu* m indep5d5ce4 ,s ! /orm 0 left to rage & sp5d its fury on my own head4 ,i _c give an acc\nt ( all t foll[$ dur+ ! la/ two ye>s :i* ,i sp5t 9 connection ) ! ,*ur*2 x w\ld make my /ory too long4 ,b ?+s got worse & worse z "t pass$ on4 ,9 #ahdj ,i br\ght my ,evangelical ,re=m] to a close4 ,9 ! la/ numb] ,i decl>$ my un*ang$ belief 9 ! s5tim5ts set =? 9 my article on ,tol]ation1 ,human ,cre$s1 c4 ,i also contradict$ ! reports t _h be5 spread abroad by my enemies1 to ! effect t ,i _h1 at ! prec$+ ,conf]5ce1 retract$ c]ta9 expressions us$ 9 my writ+s ) reg>d to ju/ification1 ! witness ( ! ,_s1 c42 & c5sur$ ! conduct ( ! rul+ p>ty 9 my case 9 v pla9 t]ms4 ,i said1 ,if any ( my oppon5ts imag9e t ,i h recant$ a s+le s5t5ce t ,i h publi%$ 9 ?is "w1 !y are "u "s misappreh5sion4 ,!re is n a doctr9e t ,i h inculcat$ 9 x t ,i d n /ill ma9ta94 ,& ,i decl>e my full conviction t ! resolutions :i* 7 pass$ 9 ref]5ce to me by ! ,a%ton & ,hudd]sfield ,conf]5ces 7 bas$ 9 error1 & t ! proce$+s ( my oppon5ts 9 ?is matt] 7 uncall$ = & un*ri/ian4 ,my enemies at once decid$ on my expulsion4 ,_! purpose 0 to ca/ me out at ! foll[+ ,conf]5ce1 & ,mr4 ,all9 publi%$ a small tract 9 reply to my article on ,human ,cre$s1 to prep>e ! m9ds ( ! p = ! int5d$ measure4 ,he publi%$ x j be=e ,conf]5ce1 :5 he suppos$ x w\ld be impossible = me to prep>e a reply be=e ! ,body assembl$4 ,i nev] saw x till ! ev5+ ( ,?ursday1 ! day b "o be=e t on :i* ,i 0 to leave home = ! di/ant place :]e ! ,conf]5ce 0 to meet4 ,b ,i wrote a reply ! same night1 & got x pr9t$1 & 9 less ?an tw5ty-f\r h\rs x 0 circulat+ 9 e direction4 ,i _h be5 able to %[ t my oppon5t's argum5ts prov$ j ! contr>y ( :at !y 7 br\ght =w>d to prove4 ,i also %[$ t ! views advocat$ 9 my article 7 ! views ( ,mr4 ,kilham1 ! f\nd] ( ! ,body to :i* we all belong$1 & 71 9 fact1 ! views ( "s ( ! be/ & able/ m5 t ! ,*ur* univ]sal _h ev] produc$4 ,i gave q a multitude ( quotations ju/ify+ my article to ! v lett]4 ,! effect 0 a/\nd+4 ,! p saw at once t ,i 0 "r4 ,my enemies 7 conf\nd$4 ,!y 7 p>alyz$4 ,& ,i 0 sav$4 ,b x 0 only = a "t4 ,! conte/ _h la/$ s long1 & _h produc$ su* a fe>ful am\nt ( unhappy feel+ betwe5 me & my oppon5ts1 t reconciliation & com=table co-op]ation _h become impossible4 ,x c\ld n be expect$ t a p[]ful p>ty w\ld re/ cont5t "u a defeat2 & x 0 n 9 me to give up my ef=ts to br+ ab\t a bett] /ate ( ?+s 9 ! ,connexion4 ,& h5ce a r5ewal ( ! unhappy /rife4 ,x is natural to suppose t my enemies w\ld n[ be anxi\s to get rid ( me1 & w\ld wat* = a suitable occasion to ca/ me out2 & my ideas ( duty 7 su*1 t x 0 impossible = me long to refra9 f giv+ !m ! opportunity !y desir$4 ,i did x z foll[s4 #a4 ,! e>ly *ur*es provid$ = _! poor memb]s4 ,! ,quak]s1 ! ,moravians1 & ! e>ly ,me?odi/s did ! same4 ,?is ex]cise ( bro!rly love is enjo9$ by ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les4 ,i urg$ ?is duty on ! *ur* to :i* ,i belong$4 ,i prea*$ & publi%$ a s]mon on ! subject1 & circulat$ a numb] ( tracts on ! same po9t1 publi%$ by o!rs4 #b4 ,! travell+ prea*]s _h a ,fund1 call$ ! ,b5efic5t ,fund1 = ! support ( sup]annuat$ prea*]s & prea*]s' wid[s4 ,"s ( ! rules ( ?is fund seem$ to me to be anti-*ri/ian1 & ,i labor$ to get !m alt]$4 ,i also recomm5d$ t !re %\ld be a fund = worn-out & ne$y local prea*]s4 #c4 ,memb]s ( ! *ur*es m+l$ ) drunk>ds1 pr(ligates1 & infidels1 9 b5efit societies1 & _m o!r associations4 ,?is seem$ to me to be v objectionable1 & pla9ly unscriptural1 & ,i recomm5d$ t !y %\ld come out f su* societies1 & =m associations = good objects among !mselves4 #d4 ,wesley _h provid$ *eap books & pamphlets = 8 societies1 & ,i urg$ ! ,conf]5ce to d ! same = ours4 ,i wrote lett]s to ! ,annual ,committee1 ! repres5tatives ( ! ,connexion1 %[+ t books publi%$ at eight or t5 %ill+s a volume1 c\ld be suppli$ at "o or "o & sixp5ce4 ,i rem9d$ !m ( ! fact t ! ,book-room _h abundance ( sp>e capital :i* might be pr(itably us$ 9 su* a "w1 & ,i po9t$ out ! advantages likely to result f ! enc\ragem5t ( ?\ghtful & /udi\s habits among ! p4 ,i publi%$ a pamphlet on ! subject1 entitl$ ,! ,*ur* & ! ,press1 %[+ t ! *ur*es might almo/ monopolize ! supply ( books1 & become ! tea*]s & ! rul]s ( ! nations1 ,i said1 ,if ! ,*ur* at l>ge w\ld d its duty1 e d>k place on e>? might be visit$1 & ! se$s ( tru? & righte\sness s[n 9 e "p ( ! globe 9 a few ye>s4 ,) reg>d to our own ,connexion ,i said1 ,our ,magaz9e & ,book-room1 :i* ought to be promot+ ! intellectual & religi\s improvem5t ( ! ,connexion & ! _w1 are do+ j no?+ at all1 or next to no?+4 ,! lead+ articles ( ! ,magaz9e are among ! dulle/ & mo/ useless ?+s ev] pr9t$4 ,! ,book-room1 :i* has capital en\gh to publi% ?irty or =ty new books a ye>1 does n issue "o4 ,an in/itution :i* ought to be fill+ ! ,connexion & ! c\ntry g5]ally ) ! light & bless+s ( ,*ri/ianity1 & :i* is capable ( be+ made a bless+ to ! _w at l>ge1 is all[$ to '/& !re all ! day idle4' ,i !n propos$1 z a means ( /imulat+ ! ,book ,committee & ! ,editor ( ! ,magaz9e to great] activity1 t ,i & my fri5ds %\ld be all[$ to publi% a p]iodical1 & to e/abli% a ,book-room1 at our own exp5se4 ,! proposal 0 n only reject$1 b ev5 treat$ z a capital (f5ce4 #e4 ,i _h labor$ h>d aga9/ ! infidel sociali/s1 lectur+ aga9/ !m 9 almo/ all ! l>ge t[ns 9 ! k+dom1 & ,i 01 to a great ext5t1 ! means ( break+ up _! societies4 ,b my conte/s ) ^? infidels made me m s5sible ( ! necessity ( ab&on+ all human additions to ,*ri/'s doctr9e1 & ( hav+ no?+ to def5d b ! beautiful & b5efic5t pr9ciples ( pure unadult]at$ ,*ri/ianity4 ,h5ce ,i became /ill less ( a sect>ian 9 my belief1 & m & m ( a simple ,*ri/ian1 & ,i labor$ to promote a /rict] con=mity to ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ among m9i/]s & ,*ri/ians g5]ally4 #f4 ,i wrote aga9/ ! wa/e ( ,god's money by pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians 9 luxuri\s liv+ & va9 %[1 & exhort$ ! ri* to employ _! surplus weal? 9 do+ good4 #g4 ,t x might n be said t ,i receiv$ pay f ! *ur* = do+ "o k9d ( "w :ile ,i employ$ a portion ( my "t 9 do+ o!rs1 ,i gave up my sal>y1 & refus$ to receive any?+ f ! circuit 9 :i* ,i 0 /ation$1 except :at 0 giv5 me z a free-w (f]+4 #h4 ,i )drew f ! prea*]s' b5efit society1 resolv$1 9 case ( sickness or old age1 to tru/ = a supply ( my wants to ! provid5ce ( ,god4 #i4 ,i recomm5d$ ! ,connexion to pay (f all ! *apel debts1 & prep>e itself = m vigor\s & ext5sive aggressions on ! k+dom ( d>kness4 ,all ^! ?+s increas$ ! anxiety ( my oppon5ts to get me out ( ! m9i/ry2 b !y w\ld probably h fail$ to give !m ! p[] to accompli% _! object1 if ,i _h gone no f>!r4 ,b ,i believ$ x my duty to take ano!r /ep4 #aj4 ,x 0 ! cu/om 9 ! ,body to :i* ,i belong$1 to baptize *ildr5 9 ! "n ( ! ,fa!r1 ! ,son1 & ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,?is =m ( words 0 und]/ood by me to imply t infant baptism 0 comm&$ by ,god 9 ,scripture4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 ,i d\bt$1 & ,i decl9$ to use ! words :5 nam+ or baptiz+ *ildr54 ,i _h no objection to "n *ildr51 to pray = !m1 or ev5 to spr9kle !m2 b ,i c\ld n use an expression 9 a s5se 9 :i* ,i did n ?9k x /rictly true4 ,?is embold5$ my enemies to attempt my expulsion )\t m ado1 & ?is "t !y adopt$ measures calculat$ to ensure success4 ,!y issu$ circul>s on ! subject to ! m9i/]s & to ! lead+ & influ5tial laym54 ,!y call$ secret meet+s4 ,!y employ$ a v>iety ( means :i* seem$ to me & my fri5ds to savor m ( ,popi% tyranny ?an ( ,*ri/ian discipl9e4 ,at l5g? ,conf]5ce came1 & ,i 0 call$ to acc\nt4 ,! *>ges aga9/ me 7-- #a4 ,t ,i _h d5i$ ! div9e appo9tm5t ( baptism1 & refus$ to adm9i/] ! ord9ance4 #b4 ,t ,i _h d5i$ ! div9e appo9tm5t & pres5t obligation ( ! ,"l's supp]4 #c4 ,t ,i _h decl>$ myself oppos$ to ! b5efic5t fund4 #d4 ,t ,i _h ann\nc$ ! =mation ( a book e/abli%m5t1 !reby engag+ 9 worldly pursuits1 contr>y to rule1 & by ?is means oppos+ ! be/ int]e/s ( ! ,book-room4 ,none ( ^? *>ges 7 true4 #a4 ,:at ,i propos$ to d ) reg>d to ! supply ( books1 0 no m worldly bus9ess ?an prea*+ 01 or sell+ ! publications ( ! ,connexion4 ,! object 0 n pr(it1 b ext5d$ usefulness4 #b4 ,i _h n decl>$ myself oppos$ to ! ,b5efic5t ,fund1 b _h simply propos$ ! improvem5t ( its rules1 & ! ext5sion ( its op]ations4 #c4 ,i _h n d5i$ ei!r ! div9e appo9tm5t or pres5t obligation ( ! ,"l's supp]4 #d4 ,nor _h ,i d5i$ ! div9e appo9tm5t ( baptism1 b only decl>$ my belief t wat] baptism1 ?\gh a becom+ rite "u ! ,*ri/ian disp5sation1 0 ! baptism ( ,john1 & absolutely b9d+ only "u 8 int]m$iate disp5sation4 ,! two latt] *>ges 7 n press$1 & ev5 ! second 0 spe$ily giv5 up1 ! "o on baptism only rema9+4 ,?is 0 press$1 & z my views on ! subject 7 deem$ intol]able1 ,i 0 expell$4 ,!re 0 a fe>ful display ( bad feel+ on ! "p ( _m ( my oppon5ts4 ,& no little pressure 0 br\ght to be> on ^? :o 7 oppos$ to extreme measures4 ,x 0 a "t ( t]rible trial to ^? :o %[$ !mselves my fri5ds4 ,! height to :i* ! excitem5t aga9/ me rose c h>dly be made intelligible to my read]s ( ! pres5t day4 ,i reg>d$ ! proce$+s ( my oppon5ts f beg9n+ to end z di%onorable1 unju/ & cruel4 ,!y h gone1 said ,i1 9 my acc\nt ( ! proce$+s ( ! ,conf]5ce1 !y h gone 9 opposition to e dictate bo? ( equity & *>ity4 ,! pr9ciples on :i* !y h act$ are ! l[1 ! d>k1 & ! tyrannical pr9ciples ( ,pop]y4 ,!y h cov]$ !mselves ) di%onor1 & e>n$ = !mselves a "n = inju/ice1 intol]ance & cruelty1 beyond all ! religi\s d5om9ations 9 ! l&4 ,_m a "t1 z ,i sat 9 my place 9 ,conf]5ce1 he>+ :at 0 said1 & obs]v+ :at 0 done1 ,i ask$ myself1 ',is ?is l ,*ri/8 ,c ?is be pleas+ to ,god8 ,:at mu/ angels ?9k to look ^u a sc5e l ?is8 ,p]petual talk ab\t ! au?ority ( ,conf]5ce & ! maje/y ( ! rules2 b n a ^w ab\t ! au?ority ( ,*ri/1 or ! maje/y & supremacy ( ! ,gospel4 ,& su* ov]be>+1 su* h>%ness1 su* det]m9$ unrel5t+ cruelty t[>ds all :o %[$ a det]m9ation to act accord+ to _! own convictions ( duty4' ,9 ! ev5+s1 aft] ! sitt+s ( ,conf]5ce 7 adj\rn$1 ,i & a fri5d frequ5tly walk$ out among ! hills surr\nd+ ! t[n1 conv]s+ ) ea* o!r1 & ) our heav5ly ,fa!r1 & oh6 :at a contra/6 ,:at a b\ndless contra/ betwe5 ! atmosph]e ( ,conf]5ce1 & ! atmosph]e ( ^? sweet hills6 ,:at an inf9ite relief to be plac$ beyond ! s\nd ( angry /rife1 & jeal\s1 p]secut+ rage2 to walk at l>ge ov] ! l(ty hills1 to brea! ! fre% air ( heav51 to conv]se ) ,god1 to look ^u ,8 wondr\s works1 to he> ! sweet music ( ! birds1 to trace ! sil5t pa? ( ! %ad[y woods1 or to /& on ! expos$1 uncov]$ peaks ( ! m\nta9 tops1 & ca/ "o's eyes on fruitful vales1 & quiet homes1 & all t e>? c %[ ( gr& & beautiful1 & mo/ ( all1 to see 9 e sight ! h& ( ,god--to he> 9 e s\nd ,8 voice1--to feel t ! ,great1 ,almighty1 ,unse5 ,_s ( ! ,univ]se1 t liv$ & work$ ?r\gh all1 0 our ,fa!r & our love1--to feel t we 7 "o ) ,him1 & t ,he 0 "o ) u4 ',?is is heav51' ,i cri$2 &1 po9t+ to ! sc5e ( /rife & hate t lurk$ bel[1 ,i add$1 ',t is hell4' ,nev] be=e did we und]/& :y ,jesus1 aft] hav+ sp5t ! day 9 cr[ds1 & be+ h>ass$ ) ! capti\s1 cruel1 p]secut+ ,scribes & ,ph>isees1 retir$ at night into ! des]t1 or )drew to ! m\nta9s4 ,nev] be=e did ! ,gospel seem s true a /ory4 ,nev] be=e 7 we br\ght into su* liv+ sympa?y ) ! ,savi\r ( mank9d4 ,i c recollect no?+ ,i ev] met ) s try+ z to sit 9 ,conf]5ce2 b 9 our walks ^u ! high places1 ,god made up = all4 ,well1 ,i add$1 ,i ?ank ,god ,i am n[ free4 ,my ,conf]5ce trials are end$4 ,o nev] m may ,i be f\nd %ut up ) m5 :o set at n\ght ! au?ority ( ,*ri/1 & :o1 by all ! cruel acts ( unrel5t+ p]secution1 /rive to b5d ! immortal godlike m9d into unnatural subjection to _! ambiti\s w4 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,explanations4 ,a few explanations are requir$ be=e we g fur!r4 ,explanation ,fir/4 ,! ,diff]5t ,me?odi/ ,bodies4 ,! ,me?odi/ ,body to :i* my p>5ts belong$1 & to :i* ,i myself belong$ till ,i 0 tw5ty-"o ye>s ( age1 0 ! ,old ,connexion or ,wesleyan ,body4 ,i 0 a local prea*] 9 t ,body1 & 0 expect$ & reque/$ to g out z a travell+ prea*]4 ,b insurm\ntable difficulties lay 9 ! way4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 none c\ld be receiv$ z travell+ prea*]s1 unless !y 7 will+ to g to :atev] "p ( ! _w ! conf]5ce or ! mission>y committee might ?9k fit to s5d !m1 & unless !y c\ld express _! will+ness to be s dispos$ ( be=e !y w5t out4 ,?is ,i c\ld n d4 ,x 0 my conviction t ,god _h call$ me to labor 9 my own c\ntry1 & to d good among/ my own p4 ,i did n believe myself call$ to g to any =eign c\ntry to prea* ! gospel1 & ,i did n !re=e feel at lib]ty to (f] to g out on ! t]ms requir$4 ,i felt z if ,i %\ld d wrong to expose myself to unse5 dang]s & unkn[n trials & difficulties 9 =eign l&s1 )\t a conviction t ,god requir$ x at my h&s4 ,& ,i c\ld n ?9k t ,i %\ld be likely to succe$ 9 mission>y labors1 unless ,i c\ld ent] on !m ) a belief t ^? 7 ! labors = :i* ,god design$ me4 ,!re 0 ano!r difficulty4 ,conf]5ce _h made a new law1 e/abli%+ a new te/ ( or?odoxy1 & no "o c\ld be tak5 out z a travell+ prea*] n[1 :o c\ld n subscribe to ! doctr9e ( ! ,et]nal ,son%ip1 z taught by ,ri*>d ,watson & ,jabez ,bunt+1 9 opposition to ,adam ,cl>ke4 ,?is te/ ,i c\ld n subscribe4 ,i _c say t ,i altoge!r disbeliev$ ! doctr9e ( ! ,et]nal ,son%ip2 b ,i 0 n 9 a /ate ( m9d to ju/ify me 9 subscrib+ ! doctr9e4 ,:e!r ! doctr9e ( ! ,et]nal ,son%ip 0 "r or n1 ,i _h n a firm belief 9 x3 & t 0 reason en\gh :y ,i %\ld refuse to subscribe x4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,conf]5ce pass$ laws =bidd+ ! tea*+ ( writ+ 9 all ! ,sunday ,s*ools4 ,i disapprov$ ( ^! laws1 & 0 unable to b9d myself to en=ce !m4 ,i 0 oblig$ !re=e to give up all ?\ghts ( becom+ a travell+ prea*] 9 ! ,old ,connexion4 ,n long aft] ?is1 di/urbances took place 9 ! ,me?odi/ society 9 ,le$s1 respect+ ! introduction ( an organ into ,brunswick ,*apel4 ,conf]5ce1 ?r\gh ! importunities ( "s ri* p1 _h brok5 ?r\gh its own laws1 & giv5 au?ority = ! introduction ( an organ into ,brunswick ,*apel contr>y to ! wi%es ( a great "p ( ! memb]s1 tru/ees1 local prea*]s1 & lead]s4 ,i ( co>se disapprov$ ( ?is proce$+ on ! "p ( ,conf]5ce4 ,i _h he>d ! ,rev4 ,joseph ,suttcliffe speak v s]i\sly & ) great & sorr[ful dissatisfaction ( ! proce$+s ( ^? :o 7 !n at ! head ( ,me?odi/ical affairs1 & ?\gh ,i did n1 at ! "t1 rightly und]/& him1 ev5ts t took place aft]w>ds1 bo? br\ght 8 words to my m9d1 & %[$ me _! mean+4 ,9 consequ5ce ( :at ,i saw1 ,i began to be greatly dissatisfi$ ) ! mann] 9 :i* ?+s 7 c>ri$ on 9 ! society4 ,a division took place 9 ,le$s1 & 9 sev]al o!r places1 & ! sec$]s =m$ a new body1 call$ ! ,prote/ant ,me?odi/s4 ,i left ! old ,body at ! same "t1 b hav+ he>d favorable acc\nts ( ! ,me?odi/ ,new ,connexion1 ,i jo9$ t community4 ,?is ,body _h sec$$ f ! ,old ,connexion "s ?irty ye>s be=e1 "u ! ,lead]%ip ( ,alex&] ,kilham4 ,kilham 0 a great re=m] bo? 9 religion & politics4 ,he sympa?iz$ ) ! ,fr5* revolutioni/s1 & ) ! ,engli% religi\s ,latitud9>ians4 ,he 0 a great admir] ( ,rob]t ,rob9son ( ,cambridge1 & repr9t$1 9 8 p]iodical1 ! ,me?odi/ ,monitor1 8 writ+s on religi\s lib]ty4 ,he d5\nc$ all human cre$s1 & proclaim$ ! ,bible ! "o sole au?ority 9 ! *ur* bo? 9 matt]s ( doctr9e & matt]s ( duty4 ,! conf]5ce ( ! ,body 0 to consi/ ( "o-half prea*]s & ! o!r half laym54 ,9 ! circuit & society meet+s ! p[] 0 to be divid$ 9 ! same way4 ,a li/ ( doctr9es g5]ally held 9 ! ,body 0 aft]w>ds drawn up & publi%$1 b 0 n put =w>d z an au?oritative cre$4 ,! writ+s ( ,wesley & ,flet*] 7 ref]r$ to1 b n z au?orities1 b only z works to be consult$4 ,i f\nd on look+ ?r\gh ! rules1 t !re 0 no?+ to h9d] me f becom+ a travell+ prea*] 9 ?is ,body4 ,i (f]$ myself z a memb]1 & 0 receiv$4 ,i 0 !n s5t out z a travell+ prea*]2 & x is to ?is ,body *iefly t ,i ref] 9 ?is "w4 ,i ent]$ ! m9i/ry ) ! full und]/&+ t ,i %\ld h p]fect ,*ri/ian lib]ty bo? ( ?\ght & spee*1--t no?+ 0 requir$ ( any m9i/] b a belief 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t1 a life 9 accordance ) its tea*+s1 & ! abilities necess>y to fit him = 8 "w4 ,! p]fection ( ! ,scriptures1 bo? z a rule ( fai? & a rule ( life1 0 "o ( ! fir/ articles 9 ! connexional li/ ( doctr9es1 & ea* prea*] 0 left to int]pret ! ,scriptures = himself4 ,to %[ t ! lib]ty ,i took 9 revis+ my cre$ 0 9 full agreem5t ) ! pr9ciples on :i* ! ,body to :i* ,i belong$ 0 f\nd$1 ,i w give a quotation or two f ! ,f\nd]'s works4 ,subscription to all human cre$s implies two dispositions contr>y to true religion1 love ( dom9ion ov] consci5ce 9 ! impos]1 & slav]y 9 ! subscrib]s4 ,! fir/ usurps ! "r ( ,*ri/2 ! la/ implies allegiance to a pret5d]4 ,vol4 ,i1 page #gg4 ,! revelation itself is infallible1 & ! ,au?or ( x has giv5 x me to exam9e2 b ! e/abli%m5t ( a giv5 mean+ ( x r5d]s exam9ation ne$less1 & p]haps dang]\s4 ,p4 #gh4 ,i h no pati5ce ) ^? :o cov] _! own /upidity1 pride1 or laz9ess1 ) a pret5d$ acquiesc5ce 9 ! unexam9$ op9ions ( m5 :o v probably nev] exam9$ _! own op9ions !mselves1 b pr(ess$ ^? :i* lay ne>e/ at h&1 & :i* be/ suit$ _! base secul> int]e/4 ,vol4 ,,ii1 p4 #cdj4 ,i am s]i\sly ( op9ion1 & ,i wi% all my read]s w\ld s]i\sly consid] x1 t real ,*ri/ianity w nev] ?or\ghly prevail & fl\ri% 9 ! _w1 till ! pr(essors ( x are br\ght to be ^u bett] t]ms ) "o ano!r2 lay aside _! mutual jeal\sies & animosities1 & live z bre?r5 9 s9c]e h>mony & love2 b :i* w1 ,i appreh5d1 nev] be1 till consci5ce is left entirely free2 & ! pla9 ,,bible become 9 ,,fact1 z x is 9 ,,pr(ession1 ! ,,only rule ( _! religi\s fai? & practice4 ,p4 #bga4 ,su* 7 ! s5tim5ts :i* ,alex&] ,kilham ?\ght prop] to publi% on ! subject ( cre$s4 ,he adds1 t he did s = ! purpose ( giv+ to our p & o!rs suitable views ( religi\s lib]ty 9 g5]al1 ,,& ,,( ,,:at ,,ought ,,to ,,be ,,e/abli%$ ,,among ,,u ,,9 ,,p>ticul>4 ,9 all ,i did1 !n1 bo? 9 endeavor+ to br+ my views into h>mony ) ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/1 & 9 sugge/+ re=ms 9 ! laws & in/itutions ( ! ,body1 ,i act$ 9 p]fect accordance ) ! pr9ciples on :i* ! ,connexion 0 f\nd$4 ,:e!r ! pr9ciple 0 a good "o or n may be que/ion$3 all ,i say is1 x sanction$ my c\rse4 ,explanation ,second4 ,immoralities4 ,:at ,i say ( immoralities 9 m9i/]s & memb]s ( ! ,*ur* ref]s *iefly to m9i/]s & memb]s ( ! ,new ,connexion4 ,i mu/ n h[ev] be und]/ood z say+ t ! m9i/]s & memb]s ( ! ,old ,connexion 7 free f su* vices4 ,!y 7 n4 ,james ,et*ells1 ! m9i/] :o drank sixte5 glasses ( intoxicat+ dr9ks on "o r\nd ( pa/oral calls1 & ,john ,f>r>1 8 sup]9t5d5t1 :om he got susp5d$ = drunk5ness1 & ,ri*>d ,wilson1 :o op5$ ! fir/ _s %op 9 my native t[n1 & corrupt$ ! p all r\nd ! c\ntry1 & ,timo?y ,b5tley1 ! great ,brew] & ,poison]-,g5]al ( ! bodies & s\ls ( ! ,york%ire p1 & ,john ,falk5]1 ( ,new ,ca/le-on-,tyne1 ! :olesale ,be]%op-,keep]1 c41 7 all memb]s & high (ficials 9 ! ,wesleyan ,body4 ,& ,i nev] he>d ( a man be+ ei!r kept out or put out ( ! ,wesleyan ,connexion ei!r = be+ a ,brew]1 a ,di/ill]1 a ,_s ,m]*ant1 a ,g9%op ,keep]1 a ,publican1 a ,pawnbrok]1 or a ,be]%op-keep]4 ,& ,i nev] he>d ( ! ,conf]5ce do+ any?+ to promote teetotalism1 or ! suppression ( ! liquor trade4 ,! rules & tea*+s ( ,wesley1 & ! pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ on ?is subject1 7 z little c>$ = 9 ! ,old z 9 ! ,new ,connexion4 ,!re 7 po9ts ?\gh 9 :i* ! ,old ,connexion seem$ to me sup]ior to ! ,new4 ,!re seem$ m he>ty religi\sness 9 ! ,old ,connexion ?an 9 ! ,new4 ,! prea*]s 9 ! ,old ,connexion seem$ to be a high] ord] ( m51 bo? 9 piety & intellig5ce4 ,!y seem$ to be k9d] too to ea* o!r1 less jeal\s1 less envi\s1 & less dispos$ to annoy & p]secute "o ano!r4 ,& !y work$ h>d]4 ,!y _h m ( ! _s ( ,wesley4 ,!y 7 less anxi\s to /eal %eep f o!r folds1 & m dispos$ to g out into ! wild]ness to br+ 9 ^? :i* 7 a/ray4 ,) _m ( ! ,new ,connexion memb]s religion 0 too mu* ( a =m & a "n3 ) an imm5se numb] 9 ! ,old ,connexion x 0 a life & a p[]4 ,h5ce ! ,old ,connexion prosp]$1 :ile ! ,new ,connexion langui%$ & decl9$4 ,! ,new ,connexion tru/$ to _! democratic pr9ciples ( *ur* gov]nm5t = additions1 & 7 disappo9t$4 ,! ,old ,connexion tru/$ to hone/1 zeal\s1 ,*ri/ian "w1 & succe$$4 ,! ,old ,connexion1 br$ great & mighty m51 ! ,new ,connexion br$ weak & little ones4 ,! ,new ,connexion 0 afraid ( sup]ior m51 & if any made _! appe>ance1 drove !m away1 z 9 ! case ( ,ri*>d ,watson & o!rs2 ! ,old ,connexion welcom$ su* m51 & us$ !m1 & reap$ f _! labors ri* h>ve/s ( bless+4 ,i might myself p]haps1 if my way into its m9i/ry _h n be5 block$ up1 h be5 mu* m happy & useful 9 ! ,old ,connexion ?an 9 ! ,new1 & h _h a v diff]5t /ory to tell 9 my old age1 f t :i* ,i am tell+ y n[4 ,i don't "k4 ,no2 ,i don't "k4 ,x is q possible t ,i 0 s =m$1--t religi\s fre$om 0 s ess5tial to ! s\l ,god _h giv5 me1--t ,i %\ld h brok5 ?r\gh ! enclosures ( any sect1 & made = myself a hi/ory l t :i* ,i am n[ writ+4 ,b speculations on su* subjects are all va94 ,a man c live b once1 & 9 "o way1 & all we c d n[ is to live well = ! future1--z well z we c4 ,god help u4 ,god w help u4 ,& we mu/ n suppose t because we h n _h ! lot :i* imag9ation pictures z mo/ desirable1 we h liv$ 9 va94 ,let u look on matt]s 9 a m *e]ful light4 ,! _w1 & all our affairs1 are 9 ! h&s ( an all-p]fect ,god1 & always h be51 & ,i am incl9$ to believe1 t ) reg>d to myself1 ,he has done all ?+s well4 ,i meant to d "r f ! fir/4 ,i nev] wick$ly dep>t$ f ,god4 ,i err$ un9t5tionally & unexpect$ly4 ,i err$ seek+ = ! tru?4 ,i err$ pray+ to ,god to lead me "r4 ,& ,i am incl9$ to believe t my c\rse 0 n entirely ( myself1 b 0 a discipl9e appo9t$ me by a high] p[]1 & meant to fur!r "s desirable end4 ,s ,i w g on hop+ & rejoic+1 int]pret+ ,god's do+s z favorably z ,i c1 & believ+1 t :at ,i "k n n[1 ,i %all "k h]eaft]4 ,& all ! "t ,i w rejoice 9 ,god's love1 & s+ ,glory1 ,hallelujah4 ,explanation ,?ird4 ,*ri/ianity & ,me?odism n to ,blame4 ,d n let any "o judge ( ,*ri/ianity or ,me?odism1 nor ev5 ( ! :ole body ( ! ,me?odi/ ,*ur*1 f ! cases ( immorality :i* ,i h f\nd x necess>y to "n4 ,*ri/ianity & real ,wesleyan ,me?odism are z oppos$ to bad trades & bad de$s z light is to d>kness4 ,& bad z ?+s 7 9 ! *ur*es to :i* ,i h ref]r$1 a l>ge portion1 if n ! great bulk ( ! memb]s1 7 s9c]e ,*ri/ians1 fe>+ ,god & work+ righte\sness4 ,nor 7 all ! prea*]s bad-he>t$ or cruel m54 ,x (t5 happ5s t a few control ! _m4 ,& ! rul+ few are (t5 worse ?an ! _m :om !y rule4 ,! lea/ wor?y memb]s ( ! *ur* are (t51 l ,diotrephes1 eag] = ! pre-em95ce1 :ile ! be/ are mode/ & retir+4 ,x is n always ! cream t comes to ! top1 ei!r 9 civil or religi\s society2 x is sometimes ! scum4 ,& my read]s mu/ take ^! ?+s into acc\nt :ile read+ my /ory4 ,! e>ly ,me?odi/ *ur*es 7 bless$ organizations1 bitt]ly z ,wesley & ,flet*] lam5t$ _! %ortcom+s & backslid+s4 ,) all _! faults !y 7 ! lights ( ! _w1 & ! salt ( ! e>?4 ,!y are s /ill4 ,!y 7 s 9 ! days ( :i* ,i write4 ,& ! same may be said ( o!r *ur*es4 ,!y fall v f> %ort ( ! p]fection ( ,*ri/ian k & hol9ess1 b !y are z f> 9 advance ( a godless _w1 z ,*ri/ianity is 9 advance ( !m4 ,i ?9k x no objection to ,*ri/ians or to ,*ri/ian *ur*es t !y d n at once embody & exemplify ,*ri/ian tru? & virtue 9 all _! fullness1 any m ?an ,i ?9k x an objection to m5 ( sci5ce & sci5tific associations t !y d n "k & set =? all ! laws ( ! mat]ial univ]se4 ,m5 are f9ite1 :ile ,nature & ,*ri/ianity are inf9ite4 ,*ri/ianity w always be ahead ( *ur*es1 & nature w always be ahead ( sci5ce1 z ,god w always be ahead ( man4 ,i w\ld h *ur*es & m9i/]s improve1 & ,i w\ld tell !m ( _! faults & %ortcom+s t !y may see :]e improvem5t is want$1 b ,i w\ld n on any acc\nt d !m inju/ice1 or give c\nt5ance to ! infidel sl&] t ! *ur* is worse ?an ! godless _w1 or a tw5tie? "p z bad4 ,& ?\gh ,i w\ld expla9 h[ unhappily ,i 0 influ5c$ by ! errors & misdo+s ( my bre?r51 t ,i may make my apo/acy f ,*ri/ intelligible1 ,i h no desire to make ! impression t all ) :om ,i came 9 uncom=table collision 7 great s9n]s1 :ile ,i 0 a meek & faultless sa9t4 ,i "k ! contr>y4 ,!re 7 errors & fail+s on bo? sides4 ,i may sometimes ?9k ',i 0 m s9n$ aga9/ ?an s9n+1' b at o!r times ,i am a%am$ & conf\nd$ at my great & griev\s errors4 ,god =give me4 ,i 0 dreadfully tri$ at times by my bre?r52 b my bre?r5 7 tri$ by me at o!r times pa/ all endurance4 ,god only kn[s :i* 0 mo/ to blame2 b ,i 0 bad en\gh4 ,if ei!r ,i or my bre?r5 _h be5 z wise & good z m5 %\ld /rive to be1 bo? !y & ,i might h _h a v diff]5t /ory to tell2 a /ory mu* m agreeable to our read]s & mu* m cr$itable to ourselves4 ,b ! pa/ is pa/1 & my bre?r51 mo/ ( !m1 h gone to judgm5t1 & ,i am ha/5+ aft]2 & x behooves me to tell z fair a /ory1 & to tell x 9 z meek & l[ly & lov+ a _s z possible4 ,& ,i "h decl>e1 t if any expression ( bitt]ness1 or any /atem5t savor+ ( h>%ness or inju/ice1 escapes my lips1 ,i wi% x s(t5$1 & br\ght into h>mony ) p]fect tru? & *>ity4 ,x is v difficult1 :5 a man is giv+ an acc\nt ( 8 life1 to be /rictly j & imp>tial4 ,p]haps x is impossible4 ,x is v difficult1 :5 he is tell+ ( 8 trials1 to keep f all expressions ( /rong & unpleasant feel+ t[>ds ^? :om he reg>ds z ! causes ( 8 trials4 ,p]haps ?is also is impossible4 ,my read]s mu/ consid] ?is1 & make all[ances bo? = me & my bre?r54 ,& bo? my read]s & ,i mu/ try to be> 9 m9d1 t m5 are n ! sole actors 9 ! pitiable blund]s & melan*oly trag$ies ( _! lives4 ,god _h to d ) ! desc5t ( ,joseph into ,egypt4 ,8 bre?r5 7 ! visible actors1 b a ,great ,invisible ,actor direct$ & controll$ _! do+s4 ,our ignorance & our vices are our own1 b ! =m !y take 9 action1 & ! effects !y produce1 are ,god's4 ,%imei's wick$ness 0 8 own1 b x 0 ,god t caus$ x to %[ itself 9 ?r[+ /ones at ,david4 ,all our trials are1 9 tru?1 f ,god1 & x w\ld be well = u to reg>d !m 9 t light4 ,& we ought no m to be malignantly res5tful t[>ds ! m5 :om ,god makes use ( to try u1 ?an we ought to murmur aga9/ ,god4 ,we %\ld try to g ?r\gh all ) ! meek & quiet _s ) :i* ,jesus w5t ?r\gh ! /ill great] trials t lay 9 ,8 pa?4 ,& 9 speak+ ( our trials1 we %\ld try to exhibit ! sweet =giv+ temp] t %9es out s glori\sly 9 ! life & dea? ( ! ,r$eem]4 ,& if we c g a /ep f>!r1 & rejoice 9 tribulation1 & smile 9 peaceful tranquility at ! err+ b div9ely guid$ actors 9 our trials1 s mu* ! bett]4 ,& if we c believe t all ?+s "w toge!r = good n only to !m t love ,god1 b ev5 to ^? :o = a "t are unwitt+ly sep>at$ f ,god1 :y %\ld we n 'rejoice ev]more1 & 9 ev]y?+ give ?anks8' ,my graci\s ,god1 ,i "k t !re are expressions 9 ?is book t might h be5 bett]1--t feel+s sometimes %[ !mselves t are n ! p]fection ( ,*ri/ian love & meekness2 & ,i ask ,!e 9 ,?y m]cy to =give !m all3 ,& ,i pray ,!e s to influ5ce my s\l = ! "t to come1 & to enable me s to use my tongue & p51 t all ,i say & write may savor ( ,jesus1 be 9 agreem5t ) my ,*ri/ian pr(ession1 & t5d to ! in/ruction & spiritual improvem5t ( my he>]s & read]s4 ,explanation ,f\r?4 ,my ,own ,defects4 ,my "* 0 v defective 9 my e>ly days4 ,i h felt ?is a hundr$ times :ile ,i h be5 writ+ & revis+ ! =ego+ pages4 ,i 0 want+ 9 humility4 ,!re 7 "s k9ds ( pride f :i* ,i 0 probably free2 b !re 7 o!rs ( :i* ,i _h m ?an my %>e4 ,& ,i 0 lack+ 9 meekness4 ,i c\ld control myself & keep q calm 9 a public debate2 b c\ld be angry & res5tful 9 o!r cases4 ,i 0 n suffici5tly =be>+4 ,i 0 n suffici5tly =giv+4 ,& ,i 0 too critical1 too pugnaci\s1 too controv]sial4 ,i 0 too mu* 9 ! habit ( look+ = defects 9 :at ,i he>d & read2 defects 9 /yle2 errors 9 ?\ght2 mi/akes 9 reason+2 faults 9 arrangem5t2 & improprieties 9 mann] & _s4 ,consid]+ t ,i 0 to a great ext5t self-taught1 t mu* t ,i le>n$ ,i le>n$ aft] ,i _h become almo/ a man1 ?is p]haps 0 natural2 b x 0 a disadvantage4 ,x w\ld h be5 bett] if ,i _h s\ght only = ! true1 ! good1 ! beautiful 9 :at ,i he>d1 & read1 & saw4 ,i ought1 p]haps1 in/ead ( ex]cis+ my critical p[]s on o!rs1 to h cont5t$ myself ) ex]cis+ !m on my own "* & p]=mances1 & ) endeavor+ 9 all ?+s to set an example ( :at 0 wor?y ( imitation4 ,x may be t ,i 0 naturally1 con/itutionally critical2 b t does n make x "r or wise4 ,i ought to h w>r$ ) my con/itutional prop5sities1 & to h kept my critical t5d5cies )9 ! b\nds ( prud5ce & *>ity4 ,b ?is wisdom 0 too high = me 9 my e>ly days1 & ,i fe> t :ile ,i 0 press+ att5tion to practical matt]s on o!rs1 ,i 0 myself too mu* busi$ 9 doctr9al matt]s4 ,i 0 too zeal\s aga9/ c]ta9 doctr9es :ile rebuk+ o!rs = be+ too zeal\s = !m4 ,:ile !y 7 too doctr9al & controv]sial positively1 ,i 0 too doctr9al & controv]sial negatively4 ,!y err$ 9 go+ too f>2 ,i 0 too zeal\s 9 pu%+ !m back4 ,9 _m ?+s my enemies 7 wrong3 b !re 7 o!r ?+s 9 :i* ,i 0 n "r4 ,!y 7 v fooli%2 & ,i 0 f> f wise4 ,i see x1 ,i feel x all1 & ,i lam5t x too4 ,& /ill ,i feel ! rema9s ( my old defects & vices cl++ to me4 ,i h /ill great ne$ ( ! m]cy ( ,god1 & ( ! =be>ance & k9d consid]ation ( my bre?r54 ,god help me1 if x be n too late1 to improve bo? 9 wisdom & 9 ,*ri/ian virtue4 ,my ,graci\s ,god1 x is ,?y wi% t ,?y p '%\ld be con=m$ to ! image ( ,?y ,son1 t ,he might be ! fir/-born among _m bre?r54' ,oh1 if ,i c\ld b approa* t po9t1 & be wor?y to take "s humble place z a bro!r ( t glori\s embodim5t ( all moral & spiritual excell5ce1 :at w\ld ,i n give1--:at w\ld ,i n d6 ,if x be possible1 ,make me1 by ?y trans=m+ love1 ,de> ,savi\r1 daily m l ,!e4 ,& :ile ! bless$ process ( trans=mation is go+ on1 keep me1 ,o ,?\ ,fri5d & ,savi\r ( mank9d1 f e evil ^w & de$1 & f e great & griev\s error4 ,explanation ,fif?4 ,!ology & ,!ologians4 ,if any ?9k ,i h be5 too sev]e 9 my rem>ks on !ology & !ologians1 & on ! prea*]s :o mock _! he>]s ) !ological vanities1 & puzzle !m ) _! s5seless !ological dialect1 let !m read ! rem>ks ( ! ,rev4 ,joseph ,p>k]1 ,d4 ,d41 ,g4 ,gilfillan1 ,alb]t ,b>nes1 ,john ,wesley1 ,ri*>d ,baxt]1 & o!rs on ?is subject4 ,quotations f _! writ+s may be f\nd f>!r on 9 ! volume4 ,we w\ld give a few ( _! rem>ks "h1 b we mu/ n[ ha/5 on ) our /ory4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,! ,,/ory ,,cont9u$4 ,,:at ,,foll[$ ,,expulsion4 ,,desp]ate ,,^w ,,fight+4 ,,abuse4 ,i 0 expell$ on a ,saturday aft]noon4 ,i 0 unable to /ay till ! clos+ sc5e1 z ,i _h an engagem5t to prea* anniv]s>y s]mons on ! ,sunday1 "s ?irty miles away4 ,b ! news soon rea*$ me1 & ,i receiv$ x ) /range & indescribable emotions4 ,i felt t some?+ v important _h happ5$1--t ,i 0 plac$ 9 a new & s]i\s position1 & 0 ent]+ on a new & untri$ way ( life2 b ,i little dreamt :at ! results w\ld be4 ,i expect$ an ev5tful future1 b n ! k9d ( future t 0 really wait+ = me4 ,i anticipat$ trials1 & sorr[s1 & great *anges2 b h[ /rangely diff]5t ! realities h prov$ f :at ,i anticipat$ 9 my fev]$ dreams6 ,b ,i _h /rong fai? 9 ,god1 & a firm tru/ 9 ,8 all-p]fect ,provid5ce1 & no "o saw me tremble or turn pale4 ,i _h n be5 expell$ long :5 ,i f\nd myself face to face ) a t]rible ho/ ( trials4 ,"s :o _h promis$ to /& by my side took fright1 & left me to my fate4 ,"s f\nd _! int]e/s 7 endang]$ by _! atta*m5t to me1 & fell away4 ,"s 7 influ5c$ by ! ?reats ( _! ma/]s1 & "s by ! te>s & entreaties ( _! k9dr$1 & reluctantly jo9$ ! ranks ( my enemies4 ,"s ?\ght ,i %\ld h yield$ a po9t or two1 & 7 vex$ at :at !y call$ my ob/9acy4 ,!re 7 fe>ful & melan*oly *anges4 ,p :o _h always h]et(ore receiv$ me ) smiles ( welcome1 n[ look$ cold & gloomy4 ,"s rag$1 "s wept1 & "s embrac$ me ) unspeakable t5d]ness2 :ile "s wi%$ me dead1 & said x _h be5 bett] = me if ,i _h nev] be5 born4 ,"o man1 a p]son ( consid]able influ5ce1 :o _h enc\rag$ me 9 my movem5ts1 & jo9$ me 9 lam5t+ ! %ortcom+s ( ! ,connexion1 & 9 condemn+ ! conduct ( my oppon5ts1 no soon] saw t ,i 0 doom$1 ?an he s5t me a mo/ unfeel+ lett]4 ,i met ! po/man & got ! lett] 9 ! /reet1 & read x z ,i walk$ along4 ,x pa9$ me t]ribly1 b x com=t$ me to ?9k t x _h n fall5 into ! h&s ( my delicate & s5sitive wife4 ,t no o!r eye might see x1 & no o!r s\l be afflict$ ) ! trea*]y & cruelty ( ! writ]1 ,i tore x 9 pieces1 & ?rew x into ! ,tyne1 & kept ! matt] a secret f ^? ^: s\ls x might h %ock$ too rudely = endurance4 ,ano!r man1 :o _h said to me a %ort "t be=e my expulsion1 t :oev] else might close _! doors aga9/ me1 8 w\ld always be op51 prov$ z fai?less z ! base/4 ,i call$ "o day at 8 %op4 ,z soon z he saw me1 he turn$ away 8 eyes1 & /ood motionless & spee*less beh9d ! c\nt]1 z if agitat$ ) pa9ful & unutt]able passion4 ,i saw 8 family move hurri$ly f ! room beh9d ! %op to ano!r room1 z if afraid le/ ,i %\ld /ep =w>d into _! pres5ce4 ,! man kept 8 door op5 sure en\gh1 8 %op door2 b 8 he>t 0 clos$1 & he nev] spoke to me m z long z he liv$4 ,"o day ,i w5t ) a bro!r ( m9e to ! h\se ( a tradesman ne> ,gate%ead1 a memb] & a lead+ man 9 ! ,new ,connexion1 on a matt] ( bus9ess4 ,z soon z ! p]son saw me1 he began to abuse me 9 a v extravagant mann]4 ,i _h always _h a favorable op9ion ( ! man1 & ,i quietly answ]$1 ,i c excuse y\r sev]ity2 = y no d\bt are act+ consci5ti\sly4 ,t is m ?an ,i believe y are do+1 he answ]$1 & turn$ away4 ,!re 0 great excitem5t ?r\gh\t ! :ole ,connexion4 ,& :ile _m 7 transport$ ) rage1 great numb]s took my "p4 ,! feel+ 9 my favor 0 bo? /rong & v g5]al4 ,"o-?ird ( ! :ole ,connexion probably sep>at$ f my oppon5ts1 & =m$ !mselves into a new society4 ,sev]al m9i/]s jo9$ !m1 & _h n ! *apels be5 secur$ to ! ,conf]5ce1 x is probable t ! great] portion ( ! community w\ld h sec$$4 ,z x 01 ! exi/5ce ( ! ,body seem$ 9 p]il1 & ! lead]s f\nd x necess>y to /ra9 e n]ve to save x f utt] de/ruction4 ,& !y 7 n p>ticul> z to ! means !y us$4 ,be=e my expulsion ev5 my enemies _h consid]$ me a virtu\s1 godly man1 & ackn[l$g$ me to be a mo/ labori\s & successful m9i/]4 ,n[ !y fabricat$ & circulat$ all mann] ( sl&]\s reports respect+ me4 ,"o day !y gave x out t ,i _h brok5 my teetotal pl$ge1 & _h be5 tak5 up drunk out ( ! gutt]1 & :eel$ home 9 a :eelb>r[4 ,!n x 0 discov]$ t ,i _h n brok5 my pl$ge1 b ,i _h be5 se5 nibbl+ a little ,spani% juice1 s x 0 said ,i 0 eat+ opium1 & kill+ myself z fa/ z ! poison c\ld de/roy me4 ,at ano!r "t x 0 said ,i _h gone />k mad1 & _h be5 smo!r$ to dea? betwe5 two b$s4 ,a fri5d came1 pale & dismally sorr[ful1 to condole ) my wife on ! dreadful cata/rophe1 & 0 himself almo/ mad ) delight :5 he f\nd t ,i 0 9 ! p>lor writ+1 z well & z sane z usual4 ,!n x 0 report$ t ,i _h appli$ = a place 9 ! m9i/ry among ! ,calv9i/s1 ?\gh ,i _h up to t "t pr(ess$ views at v>iance ) ,calv9ism1 & _h ev5 object$ to be a hir$ m9i/]4 ,:5 ,i call$ = ! names ( ! p>ties to :om ,i _h made ! (f]1 & engag$ to give a l>ge rew>d if my sl&]]s w\ld produce !m1 !y f\nd x 0 ano!r ,joseph t _h appli$ = ! place1 & n ,joseph ,b>k]4 ,b ! dea? ( "o sl&] seem$ to be ! bir? ( two or ?ree fre% ones4 ,& sometimes opposite sl&]s sprang up toge!r4 ,if he _h be5 a good man1 said "o1 he w\ld h /opp$ 9 ! ,connexion quietly1 & wait$ = re=m6 ,if he _h be5 an hone/ man1 said ano!r1 he w\ld h left ! ,connexion long ago1 & n rema9$ 9 a community t he ?\ght 9 error4 ,i _h be5 too ha/y = "o1 & too sl[ = ano!r4 ,"o wrote to assure me t ,i %\ld die a viol5t dea? 9 less ?an eighte5 mon?s4 ,ano!r said he =esaw me ly+ on my dea?-b$1 ) ,satan sitt+ on my brea/1 ready to c>ry away my s\l to et]nal torm5ts4 ,"o s5t me a numb] ( my pamphlets blott$ & torn1 pack$ up ) a piece ( wood1 = ! c>riage ( :i* ,i 0 *>g$ f f\r to five %ill+s4 ,ano!r s5t me a numb] ( my publications defac$ 9 ano!r way1 ) (f5sive enclosures t d n admit ( description4 ,at "o "t x 0 report$ t ,i _h di$ sudd5ly at ,le$s4 ,aft] lectur+ !re "o night1 ! /ory said1 a c]ta9 p]son got ^u ! plat=m to oppose me1 & ,i 0 s fright5$1 t ,i fir/ turn$ pale1 !n fa9t$1 & 9 two h\rs brea!d my la/4 ,i 0 prea*+ at ,p5ri?1 9 ,cumb]l&1 "s sev5ty or eighty miles away1 at ! "t ,i 0 said to h di$ at ,le$s4 ,"s weeks lat] x 0 rumor$ t ,i _h de/roy$ myself at ,otley4 ,! mak] ( ! tale 9 ?is case _h be5 v p>ticul>1 & giv5 8 /ory ! appe>ance ( great tru?fulness4 ,he said ,i _h gone to lecture at ,otley1 & on my arrival !re1 0 f\nd to be m ?an usually ?\ghtful & depress$4 ,i lectur$ ) my usual fre$om & p[]1 b seem$ oppress$ ) "s my/]i\s sorr[4 ,aft] ! lecture1 in/ead ( go+ along ) my ho/1 ,i unacc\ntably disappe>$1 & ?\gh my fri5ds s\ght = me & inquir$ = me all ab\t ! t[n1 ,i 0 n[h]e to be f\nd4 ,9 ! morn+1 z ! son ( my ho/ 0 seek+ = "s c[s 9 a wood on ! side ( ! ,*ev91 he f\nd me dead & cold1 ) my ?roat cut1 & ! razor 9 my h& ) :i* ,i _h done ! deadly de$4 ,! news soon spread1 & my body 0 tak5 back to ,otley1 :]e an inque/ 0 held4 ,! v]dict 0 t ,i _h di$ by my own h&1 9 a fit ( tempor>y insanity4 ,^! /ories 7 pr9t$ & publi%$1 & circulat$ ?r\gh ! :ole c\ntry4 ,!y 7 %\t$ al\d 9 ! /reet opposite my own door1 9 ! he>+ ( my wife & family1 dur+ my abs5ce4 ,at fir/ my wife & *ildr5 7 t]ribly al>m$ :5 !y he>d m5 cry+1 ,! melan*oly dea? ( ,mr4 ,joseph ,b>k]4 ,b !y got s us$ to me dy+ & de/roy+ myself 9 "t1 t !y took su* matt]s m calmly1 especially z ,i always came aga91 & appe>$ no worse = ! t]rible dea?s ?r\gh :i* ,i _h be5 made to pass4 ,= a ye> or two my enemies publi%$ a p]iodical call$ ,! ,beacon1 e page ( :i* !y fill$ ) malignant sl&]s4 ,! loss ( memb]s exasp]at$ !m pa/ measure4 ,! dang] :i* ?reat5$ ! ,connexion drove !m mad4 ,!y took up evil reports respect+ me )\t consid]ation4 ,!y look$ on all ,i did ) an evil eye1 & recklessly *>g$ me ) wick$ devices :i* _h no exi/5ce b 9 _! own di/urb$ imag9ations4 ,"o *>g$ me ) hav+ act$ inconsi/5tly ) my views ) reg>d to ! use ( money1 & ano!r ) hav+ act$ inconsi/5tly ) my belief ) reg>d to baptism4 ,any tale to my discr$it 0 welcome1 & ! supply ( sl&]\s tales seem$ inf9ite4 ,!y wre/$ my words1 !y beli$ my de$s1 !y mis9t]pret$ my motives1 !y misrepres5t$ ! :ole c\rse ( my life1 & ! :ole texture ( my "*4 ,"o ( ! pitiful sl&]s circulat$ by my enemies 0 ! foll[+4 ,my cu/om 01 :5 ,i w5t out to lecture1 or to prea* anniv]s>y s]mons1 to *>ge only my coa* f>es1 r5d]+ my s]vices gratis4 ,= eighte5 ye>s ,i nev] *>g$ a p5ny ei!r = prea*+ or lectur+4 ,b ! p ( ,b]ry ,br[1 ne> ,hudd]sfield1 said ,i _h *>g$ !m ?irty %ill+s = prea*+ _! anniv]s>y s]mons1 & ! ,conf]5ce p>ty took ! tr\ble to spread ! contemptible *>ge ?r\gh ! ,connexion4 ,! facts ( ! case 7 ^!3 ,i _h an engagem5t to prea* anniv]s>y s]mons at ,hanley1 9 ! ,/af=d%ire ,pott]ies4 ,! ,b]ry ,br[ p he>d ( ?is1 & z ,i _h to pass _! place on my way to ,hanley1 !y reque/$ me to sp5d a ,sabba? ) !m1 & prea* _! anniv]s>y s]mons4 ,i did s1 & *>g$ !m ?irty %ill+s1 ab\t "o-?ird ( ! exp5ses ( my j\rney1 tak+ ! o!r two-?irds f ! ,hanley p4 ,?is 0 all4 ,( c\rse su* matt]s w\ld n be wor? nam+1 if x 7 n to %[ h[ mu* !re 0 9 ! conduct ( my p]secutors to give me a dislike to _! "*1 & to prejudice me aga9/ _! views4 ,t y may h an idea ( my labors z a prea*]1 take ! foll[+ acc\nt ( "o week's "w1 :5 ,i 0 lectur+ aga9/ ! infidel ,sociali/s1 previ\s to my expulsion4 ,i _h prea*$ ?ree times on ! ,sunday1 walk$ six miles1 & att5d$ to sev]al o!r duties4 ,at half pa/ t5 at night ,i />t$ by /age coa* = ,bolton1 a hundr$ & fifty miles away4 ,i travell$ all night1 & all next day1 outside ! coa*4 ,x 0 w9t]1 & ! wea!r 0 v cold4 ,ab\t six 9 ! ev5+ ,i rea*$ ,bolton4 ,at half pa/ sev5 ,i began my lecture1 9 a place cr[d$ almo/ to suffocation4 ,aft] ! lecture1 ,i _h an h\r & a half's debate4 ,betwe5 elev5 & twelve ,i w5t to b$4 ,i sp5t next day mo/ly 9 writ+4 ,at half pa/ sev5 ,i began my second lecture1 ) a congregation m closely pack$ ?an ! night be=e4 ,! lecture 0 foll[$ ) a some:at long] debate4 ,?is cont9u$ five nights4 ,on ,friday night ,i got to b$ ab\t twelve4 ,at half pa/ two ,i />t$ 9 an op5 gig = ,man*e/]1 twelve miles (f4 ,! morn+ 0 v cold4 ,!re 0 a sev]e fro/ & a ?ick fog4 ,at ,man*e/] ,i took ! coa* = ,newca/le1 & ,i rode outside all day1 until half pa/ t5 at night4 ,! ,sunday foll[+ ,i prea*$ ?ree times aga94 ,& 9 ?is way ,i labor$ = ne>ly two ye>s4 ,i paid all my own exp5ses4 ,i also engag$ & paid a p]son to prea* = me1 & to att5d to my o!r duties 9 ! circuit1 dur+ ! week4 ,if !re 0 a loss at my meet+s ,i bore x myself2 nev] ask+ any "o = aid4 ,& at times ,i _h heavy losses4 ,at ,man*e/] once1 aft] giv+ five lectures1 ,i 0 elev5 p\nds out ( pocket4 ,at ,birm+ham ,i _h a loss ( ?irty-sev5 p\nds on five lectures4 ,t 0 ab\t ! h>de/ week ,i ev] _h4 ,my tongue got r :ite4 ,my food lo/ its reli%4 ,my ?\ghts kept me awake aft] ,i lay d[n 9 b$ sometimes1 & sometimes awoke me aft] ,i _h gone to sleep4 ,i caught myself draw+ long brea?s at times4 ,money came into my head at pray]1 ?\gh none came into my pocket4 ,i did n ev5 ask = t4 ,i met ) ,combe's "w on dige/ion & read x1 b x did n help me mu*1 ei!r 9 dige/+ my food1 or my heavy loss4 ,b ,i made no compla9ts4 ,i did n ev5 tell my wife till long aft]1 :5 ,i 0 prosp]\s & com=table aga94 ,& none ( ^? :o he>d my lectures1 saw 9 me any sign ( disc\ragem5t4 ,i lectur$ to my small audi5ce z e>ne/ly z if ! va/ amphi!atre _h be5 cr[d$4 ,& ,i paid ! :ole loss out ( my own pocket1 ask+ help f nei!r /rang] nor fri5d4 ,j ab\t ?is "t ,mr4 ,hulme1 ! son-9-law ( my *ief p]secutor1 set afloat a /ory t ,i 0 gett+ imm5sely ri* by my lectures1 & dem&$ t ,i %\ld h& ov] my ga9s to ! ,connexional funds4 ,i c\ld h>dly help wi%+ t he _h be5 compell$ to take "o-half ( my ,man*e/] & ,birm+ham ga9s4 ,i nev] *>g$ m ?an two-p5ce1 ,i seldom *>g$ m ?an a p5ny1 = admission to my lectures3 b su* 7 ! cr[ds t att5d$1 & su* 0 ! read9ess ( my fri5ds 9 diff]5t places to help me )\t *>ge1 t 9 n9e cases out ( t5 ,i _h a surplus4 ,i _h =ty p\nds 9 h& ) :i* to pay ! loss ( ?irty-sev5 at ,birm+ham4 ,besides1 ,i sold l>ge quantities ( my pamphlets1 & !y yield$ me a pr(it1 ?\gh ,i sold my works eighty or n9ety p] c5t4 *eap] ?an my envi\s bre?r5 sold !irs4 ,aft] my expulsion ,i work$ h>d] ?an ,i _h done be=e4 ,! foll[+ is only a "p ( "o week's "w4 ,i prea*$ ?ree times on ! ,sunday2 twice to imm5se cr[ds 9 ! op5 air4 ,! "t betwe5 ! ?ree meet+s ,i sp5t 9 talk+1 writ+1 & walk+4 ,i walk$ fifte5 miles4 ,on ,monday ,i wrote a l5g?y article = my p]iodical1 ! ,*ri/ian ,inve/igator4 ,at night ,i lectur$ to a cr[d$ audi5ce1 & _h a ?ree h\rs' discussion aft]4 ,ab\t "o ,i got to b$4 ,at five ,i 0 up to take ! coa* to ,man*e/]4 ,at ,man*e/] ,i c>ri$ a heavy pack two miles to ! railway /ation4 ,i w5t by tra9 to ,s&ba*1 !n walk$ ab\t tw5ty-?ree miles to ,longton1 c>ry+ my c>pet bag1 & "s ?irty p\nds weight ( books1 on my %\ld]4 ,x 0 a hot day 9 ,june4 ,at ,longton ,i prea*$ an h\r & a qu>t] to ab\t five ?\s& p 9 ! op5 air1 & _h a l5g?y discussion aft]4 ,h[ ,i slept1 ,i =get4 ,i believe ,i 0 fev]i% ?r\gh ! night4 ,9 ! morn+ my nose bl$ freely1 & ,i 0 bett]4 ,i walk$ six1 eight1 or t5 miles daily1 c>ry+ my bag & books along ) me1 & prea*+1 or lectur+ & discuss+1 e night4 ,i did ?is daily = weeks1 & mon?s1 & ye>s4 ,& ,i nev] *>g$ a p5ny = my labors4 ,& ,i _h no sal>y4 ,i support$ myself & my family by ! sale ( my *eap publications4 ,yet "o ( ! sl&]s circulat$ by my enemies 01 z ,i said1 t ,i act$ inconsi/5tly ) my publi%$ views on ! use ( money4 ,i taught1 z ,wesley _h taught1 & z ,jesus & ,paul _h taught1 t a man %\ld n lay up = himself treasures on e>?1--t money 0 a tru/ f ,god1 to be us$ 9 ,8 s]vice1 = ! good ( mank9d4 ,& ,i act$ on ^! pr9ciples4 ,i did n lay up a p5ny = myself on e>?4 ,i employ$ all ,i receiv$ 9 do+ good1 h>dly sp5d+ en\gh on myself & family to pur*ase ! b>e/ necess>ies4 ,b my enemies f\nd ,i _h plac$ fifty p\nds on int]e/1 9 ! h&s ( ,mr4 ,t[ns5d2 & away w5t ! *>ge ( inconsi/5cy1 hypocrisy1 & :at n1 ?r\gh ! c\ntry4 ,!re 0 no inconsi/5cy at all 9 :at ,i _h done4 ,x 0 a pr9ciple ) me1 nev] to g into debt4 ,& my plan 01 nev] to beg9 to pr9t a book1 till ,i _h1 9 ! fir/ place1 got ! money ready to pay ! exp5se ( pr9t+1 &1 9 ! second place1 reconcil$ myself to lose ! money 9 case ! book did n sell4 ,at ! "t ,i plac$ ! fifty p\nds 9 ! h&s ( ,mr4 ,t41 ,i 0 prep>+ to pr9t a book t w\ld co/ me ?rice t am\nt4 ,i did pr9t x1 & paid ! exp5se 9 ca%1 accord+ to my pr9ciples & plan4 ,i foll[ ! same plan /ill3 my pr9t]s l x2 & s d ,i4 ,i ow$ a doll> & a half at ! close ( la/ ye>4 ,! ?\ght ( x tr\bl$ me1 n mu*1 b /ill a little1 dur+ ! wat*-night s]vices at ,siloam *ur*4 ,i _h only ow$ ! sum t5 h\rs1 & ,i paid x next morn+1 b /ill1 ! ?\ght ( ! debt made ! end+ ( ! old ye>1 & ! beg9n+ ( ! new "o1 a trifle less happy ?an !y might h be51 if ,i _h be5 entirely /raight ) all ! _w4 ,9 "s cases1 :5 ,i w5t out to lecture1 ! lead+ m9i/]s ( ! ,connexion w\ld come to my meet+s1 & excit+ discussions foll[$4 ,^! injur$ ! ,connexion /ill m1 = ,i inv>iably ga9$ ! sympa?y ( ! audi5ce4 ,on "s occasions my enemies behav$ 9 su* a mann] z to provoke my audi5ces pa/ endurance1 & upro> foll[$2 & ! greate/ coolness on my "p1 & ! employm5t ( all my influ5ce1 7 necess>y to keep ! m excitable ( my fri5ds f resort+ to viol5ce4 ,v curi\s incid5ts took place sometimes1 /rangely conf\nd+ my oppon5ts1 & mak+ ! impression on my fri5ds1 & on myself z well1 t ,god _h specially int]f]$ on my behalf4 ,on m ?an "o occasion1 :5 discr$itable tales 7 told ( me by my oppon5ts1 "s "o 9 ! audi5ce :o knew ! facts1 w\ld rise & te/ify 9 my behalf1 & publicly convict my sl&]]s ( falsehood4 ,9 "o case1 at ,dudley1 ,mr4 ,bakewell1 :o _h always tak5 a lead+ "p aga9/ me1 *>g$ me be=e a cr[d$ audi5ce1 ) hav+ baptiz$ a *ild ( c]ta9 p>5ts1 at ,haw>d5 9 ,wales1 a hundr$ miles away1 aft] ,i _h decl>$ my belief t x 0 improp] to baptize *ildr54 ,he adduc$ "s te/imony 9 support ( 8 /atem5t1 :i* seem$ to satisfy _m 9 ! audi5ce t ,i _h be5 guilty ( inconsi/5cy4 ,:at c\ld ,i d8 ,i _h no?+ to oppose to 8 te/imony & 8 pret5d$ pro(s1 b my solemn d5ial ( ! /atem5t4 ,mo/ happily = me1 z soon z my oppon5t took 8 seat1 a lady rose1 t[>ds ! f>!r end ( ! room1 ) a baby 9 h] arms4 ,i wi% to speak1 said ! lady4 ,! p ne> h] help$ h] to /ep ^u a seat1 t %e might be se5 & he>d to bett] advantage4 ,i am ! "m ref]r$ to by ,mr4 ,bakewell1 said ! lady1 & ?is is ! *ild4 ,mr4 ,bakewell's /atem5t is untrue4 ,mr4 ,b>k] did n spr9kle my *ild4 ,he only nam$ x1 & ask$ ,god's bless+ on x4 ,"h is my husb&1 & he c te/ify to ! tru? ( ?is /atem5t4 ,! lady /epp$ d[n & ! husb& rose4 ,i am ! ,ri*>d ,burr[s m5tion$ by ,mr4 ,bakewell4 ,?is is my wife1 & t is our *ild4 ,mr4 ,b>k] did n baptize x4 ,mr4 ,bakewell's /atem5t is false4 ,t settl$ ! "q4 ,! feel+ aga9/ my sl&]] 0 trem5d\s4 ,! p w\ld n he> him speak ano!r ^w4 ,x _h s happ5$ t ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,burr[s _h be5 oblig$ to remove f ,wales to ! neighborhood ( ,dudley1 & _h j arriv$ at _! new home4 ,he>+ t ,i 0 lectur+ at ,dudley1 !y ha/5$ to ! meet+1 & got !re j 9 "t to he> my oppon5t m5tion _! names 9 support ( 8 *>ge ( inconsi/5cy4 ,:at c\ld be m natural ?an t ,i & my fri5ds %\ld reg>d ?is rem>kable & happy incid5t z a graci\s int]position ( ,provid5ce 9 our behalf8 ,! conduct ( my oppon5ts _h a mo/ injuri\s effect n only on my own m9d1 b on ! m9ds ( my wife & *ildr54 ,we came to look on ,new ,connexion ,me?odi/ prea*]s z "s ( ! wor/ ( m51--z ! v ess5ce or embodim5t ( deceit & malignity2 & our respect = ,me?odi/ prea*]s g5]ally1 & ev5 = ,me?odism itself1 0 greatly abat$4 ,! consequ5ce 01 we 7 prep>$ to move 9 almo/ any direction t w\ld take u f>!r away f our old associates1 & we all became1 to "s ext5t1 anti-,me?odi/ical 9 our feel+s & s5tim5ts4 ,excit+ meet+s l ! "o at ,dudley took place 9 almo/ e "p ( ! c\ntry4 ,! numb]s att5d+ !m 7 s great t no room c\ld hold !m1 s t ,i g5]ally _h to speak 9 ! op5 air4 ,& ,i lectur$ almo/ e night1 & (t5 ?r\gh ! day z well2 & e lecture 0 foll[$ ) discussion4 ,:5 oppon5ts did n rise to assail me1 fri5ds rose to consult me1 & our ev5+ meet+s (t5 cont9u$ till ne>ly midnight4 ,& ,i prea*$ ?ree times on a ,sunday4 ,& aft] e meet+ !re 0 a cr[d ( fri5ds anxi\s to talk ) me1 or h my c\nsel ab\t ! =mation or managem5t ( societies4 ,"s _h he>d /range /ories ab\t me1 & want$ to "k :e!r !y 7 true or n4 ,o!rs _h _h discussions ) oppon5ts1 & wi%$ to tell me h[ !y _h f>$4 ,"s _h be5 puzzl$ ) passages ( ,scripture quot$ by oppon5ts1 & !y wi%$ to "k my views ( _! mean+4 ,"s 7 sick1 & want$ my pray]s4 ,"s want$ prescriptions z well z pray]s1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to be a physician z well z a prea*] & re=m]4 ,reports ( cures wr\ght by my means l$ _m to believe ,i _h ! gift ( heal+1 & suff]]s s\ght my aid :]ev] ,i made my appe>ance4 ,:ile "o-half ( ea* day 0 tak5 up ) talk+1 ano!r half 0 tak5 up ) writ+4 ,i _h hundr$s ( lett]s to write1 & hundr$s ^u hundr$s ( all k9ds ( lett]s to read4 ,i _h1 besides1 a new p]iodical on h&1 = :i* ,i 0 expect$ to provide ! pr9cipal "p ( ! articles4 ,& special attacks on me or on my views requir$ a con/ant succession ( pamphlets4 ,9 addition to my press ( "w1 ,i _h no small %>e ( anxiety4 ,my wife 0 greatly tri$1 & saw no prospect ( a spe$y end to h] trials4 ,:5 expell$ ,i 0 liv+ 9 ! prea*]'s h\se1 & _h ! prea*]'s furniture1 & _m 9 ! circuit consid]$ t ,i _h a "r to !m1 & advis$ me to keep !m1 & set ! ,conf]5ce p>tly at defiance4 ,i h[ev] refus$ to reta9 possession ( prop]ty ) a d\btful title1 & gave all up4 ,& n[ ,i _h n a *air on :i* to sit1 nor a b$ on :i* to sleep4 ,& ! little money ,i _h 0 want$ = ! pr9t]s4 ,my fri5ds provid$ = me 9 a way1 b n 9 ! way to satisfy an anxi\s "m4 ,"o *ild 0 tak5 by "o family1 & ano!r by ano!r1 :ile ,i & my wife 7 accommodat$ by a ?ird4 ,& "o ( ! *ildr5 0 unk9dly treat$1 & ! re/ 7 n cont5t2 & no h\se c\ld be a home to my wife :i* 0 n h] own2 & no condition c\ld make h] cont5t :ile depriv$ ( ! company ( h] *ildr54 ,& ,i saw h] he>t 0 ! seat ( fe>ful conflicts4 ,= sev]al mon?s ,i w5t ?r\gh my ardu\s & ceaseless labors1 & my v>i$ & exhau/+ trials1 )\t app>5t injury to my heal?4 ,at l5g?1 h[ev]1 cont9ual excitem5t1 int5se ?\ght1 ceaseless anxiety1 ! f\l air ( close & cr[d$ rooms1 p]petual travell+1 loss ( sleep1 lack ( dome/ic com=ts1 unheal?y food1 & trials ( o!r k9ds )\t end1 s exhau/$ me1 t ,i f\nd x difficult to rise f my *air1 or to /eady myself on my feet4 ,to walk 0 q a task1--a really pa9ful "o4 ,i _h a difficulty 9 putt+ "o foot be=e ! o!r4 ,x 0 a labor to drag myself along4 ,a walk ( two or ?ree miles q we>i$ me4 ,& :5 ,i got to my j\rney's end1 my lungs lack$ p[] to utt] words2 my bra9 lack$ en]gy to supply ?\ghts2 & lectur+ & prea*+ became a we>9ess4 ,:5 ,i sat d[n to write1 my p5 seem$ reluctant to t\* ! pap]4 ,my m9d %rank back f its task4 ,9 my ignorance ( ! laws ( life1 ,i *>g$ myself ) idl5ess1 & tri$ to spur myself on to r5ew$ activity4 ,! attempt 0 va94 ,"o aft]noon ,i v5tur$ to lie d[n & treat myself to an aft]-d9n] nap4 ,i slept ?ree h\rs4 ,i _h no engagem5t t night1 & feel+ /ill unacc\ntably sleepy1 ,i slipp$ (f to b$ ab\t eight o'clock4 ,i slept till ne>ly n9e next morn+4 ,i slept an h\r or two m aft] d9n]4 ,at night ,i slept ab\t t5 h\rs m4 ,next day ,i felt z if my /r5g? 0 runn+ ov]4 ,i c\ld d any?+4 ,my p5 seem$ to po9t to ! pap] ( itself1 z if anxi\s to be writ+4 ,walk+ 0 a pleasure4 ,i c\ld prea* or lecture )\t ef=t4 ,words1 ?\ghts1 & feel+s 7 all at h& to d my bidd+4 ,:at ,i _h *>g$ on myself z idl5ess1 0 /r5g?lessness1 ! result ( %e] exhau/ion4 ,i _h suff]$ s mu* f ! intol]ance ( my old colleagues1 t ,i n[ resolv$ to be subject to no au?ority :atev] b ,god & my own consci5ce4 ,& ,i kept my resolution4 ,i w\ld nei!r rule nor be rul$4 ,! extreme ( prie/ly tyranny1 f :i* ,i _h suff]$ s griev\sly1 _h begott5 9 me ! extreme ( religi\s lic5se4 ,i h se5 s9ce1 t a man may h too mu* lib]ty1 z well z too little2 too little re/ra9t z well z too mu*2 & t a *ur* )\t au?ority & discipl9e mu/ inevitably lose itself 9 confusion & ru94 ,we are none ( u fit = unlimit$ lib]ty3 we all ne$ ! sup]vision1 & c\nsels1 & admonitions1 ( our ,*ri/ian bre?r54 ,aft] my sep>ation f ! ,me?odi/ ,new ,connexion ,i became ! pa/or ( a *ur* 9 ,newca/le1 :i* _h left ! ,connexion on acc\nt ( my expulsion4 ,! tru/ees _h legal & rightful possession ( ! l>ge & nice new *apel !re1 & !y & ! o!r (ficials ( ! *ur* 7 bo? dissatisfi$ ) ! do+s ( ,conf]5ce1 & desir\s to secure me z _! m9i/]4 ,!y 7 aw>e ( my admiration ( ! ,quak]s1 & ( my lean+ t[>ds "s ( _! peculi> views & cu/oms4 ,!y 7 also acqua9t$ ) my way ( prea*+1 = ,i _h travell$ 9 t ,circuit "s ye>s be=e1 & ,i _h prea*$ = !m frequ5tly :ile /ation$ at ,gate%ead4 ,!y knew my "* too1 & 7 acqua9t$ ) all my conflicts ) ! rul+ p>ty 9 ! ,connexion f :i* ,i _h be5 expell$4 ,& ?\gh !y did n ?9k exactly z ,i ?\ght on e po9t1 !y saw no?+ 9 my views b :at !y c\ld freely tol]ate4 ,!y 7 satisfi$ t ,i 0 consci5ti\s2 & !y consid]$ my g5]al deportm5t to be highly exempl>y4 ,& !y knew ,i 0 a h>d-work+ & successful m9i/]4 ,"o ( ! lead+ memb]s 0 a pr9t]1 & _h be5 consult$ by ! ,annual ,committee ( ! ,new ,connexion 9 ref]5ce to my communications to !m ab\t ! publication ( *eap books by ! ,book-room4 ,!y ?\ght my /atem5ts 7 extravagant2 he told !m !y 7 v ne> ! tru?1 if n ! tru? itself4 ,?is g5tleman 0 "o ( ! mo/ eag] n[ to arrange = my settlem5t z a m9i/] 9 ,newca/le4 ,! (fic]s & memb]s ( ! *ur* g5]ally 7 dispos$ to consult my feel+s & meet my views4 ,!y did n require me to be a hir$ or sal>i$ m9i/]4 ,!y knew ! wants ( my family1 & !y w\ld provide = !m4 ,!y w\ld appo9t a p]son to baptize *ildr54 ,!y 7 n p>ticul> ab\t !ological niceties4 ,!y _h read my writ+s2 !y 7 acqua9t$ ) ! controv]sies t _h tak5 place betwe5 me & my oppon5ts2 & !y 7 satisfi$ t ,i 0 "r on e po9t ( importance2 & t 0 en\gh4 ,& !y lik$ my simple1 e>ne/1 practical /yle ( prea*+4 ,s ev]y?+ 0 com=tably arrang$4 ,we unit$ on ! pr9ciple laid d[n 9 my article on ,tol]ation1 ,human ,cre$s1 c4 ,! ,bible 0 our cre$3 ! ,bible 0 our law-book2 ?\gh we 7 /ill1 on ! :ole1 me?odi/ical1 bo? 9 doctr9e & discipl9e4 ,numb]s ( o!r *ur*es 7 organiz$ on ! same pr9ciple1 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ! c\ntry2 & sev]al "y prea*]s left ! body to :i* ,i _h belong$1 or 7 expell$ on acc\nt ( _! atta*m5t to me1 & became _! m9i/]s4 ,& ! *ur*es prosp]$4 ,numb]s ( p jo9$ !m1 bo? f ! _w & f o!r religi\s communities4 ,= ne>ly two ye>s ?+s w5t on v happily at ,newca/le1 & ! *ur* 0 v prosp]\s4 ,i labor$ to ! utmo/ ext5t ( my p[]s4 ,i prea*$ twice e ,sunday to my own congregation1 & once to ano!r congregation at ,gate%ead1 or 9 ! c\ntry4 ,i visit$ ! *ur*es also 9 e "p ( ! l&1 prea*+ & lectur+ cont9ually4 ,all ?is "t my old oppon5ts cont9u$ _! abuse4 ,?\gh ,i rel9qui%$ no ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 & add$ to ! tru? no dreams or speculations ( my own1 b employ$ myself cont9ually 9 prea*+ ! great practical pr9ciples ( ! ,gospel1 & 9 urg+ my he>]s to love & good works1 !y assail$ me ) ! bitt]e/ hatr$4 ,& ! m ! *ur*es ) :i* ,i 0 connect$ prosp]$1 ! m furi\sly my enemies rag$4 ,& :5 p left o!r d5om9ations to unite ) my fri5ds1 m9i/]s & memb]s ( ^? d5om9ations jo9$ my oppon5ts 9 _! evil "w4 ,!y prea*$ abusive s]mons & publi%$ abusive pamphlets4 ,!re 0 eag]1 angry controv]sy on e h&4 ,h>d words 7 us$ on bo? sides4 ,! feel+s ( bo? p>ties 7 heat$ to a high pit*4 ,& z is usual 9 su* cases1 bo? p>ties1 "u ! influ5ce ( _! passions1 came to ! conclusion t _! oppon5ts 7 nei!r s\nd 9 doctr9e1 nor good 9 "*4 ,t[>ds ! close ( ! second ye> ,i got into tr\ble at ,newca/le4 ,a religi\s re=m] ( ! "n ( ,george ,bird came to ! t[n4 ,8 fa!r 0 a cl]gyman 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 & he himself 0 rector ( ,cumb]wor?4 ,he 0 recomm5d$ to me by "s ( my fri5ds :o liv$ ne> ,cumb]wor?1 & z he 0 wi%ful to sp5d "s "t 9 ,newca/le & ! neighborhood1 ,i took him into my h\se1 & gave him a home4 ,he _h publi%$ a book on ! ,re=m ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 urg+ ! abolition ( a numb] ( abuses1 & recomm5d+ ! re/oration ( :at he consid]$ true ,*ri/ian discipl9e4 ,8 idea 01 t ,*ri/ians %\ld meet = religi\s wor%ip ap>t f p ( ! _w1--t ?\gh prea*]s might prea* to mix$ audi5ces1 !y %\ld res]ve _! s++ & pray+1 & all t 0 /rictly wor%ip1 = assemblies ( ,*ri/ians alone4 ,he recomm5d$ t ! memb]s ( ! *ur* %\ld meet fir/1 9 a place ap>t1 or 9 a "p ( ! *apel m>k$ (f = !mselves1 & g ?r\gh _! devotions all alone1 & t ! s]mon1 address$ bo? to believ]s & unbeliev]s1 %\ld be q a sep>ate s]vice4 ,he _h passages ( ,scripture1 & *ur* tradition1 & consid]ations ( fitness & propriety1 by :i* he recomm5d$ 8 doctr9e1 & to "s !y prov$ conv9c+4 ,i began myself1 aft] ?9k+ ! matt] ov] = a:ile1 to h a lean+ t[>ds 8 views4 ,my fri5ds c\ld s f> tol]ate ! new views1 t !y all[$ ,mr4 ,bird to prea* 9 _! *apels1 lett+ "s "o else conduct ! s++ & pray+ p>ts ( ! s]vice4 ,b :5 !y f\nd t _! own m9i/] began to look ) favor on ! new plan1 !y became al>m$4 ,!y c\ld tol]ate peculi>ities 9 o!rs1 b !y 7 n dispos$ to appe> be=e ! _w z re=m]s & innovators !mselves4 ,nor w\ld !y all[ _! m9i/] to g any f>!r 9 ! way ( re=m ?an he _h gone be=e !y _h accept$ him z _! pa/or4 ,!y _h reconcil$ !mselves to ! *anges ( :i* he _h be5 ! subject previ\s to 8 special connection ) !m1 b !y w\ld h no new ones4 ,he might g back a little if he pleas$1 b n =w>ds4 ,bo? my fri5ds & ,i 7 plac$ 9 a try+ position4 ,i 0 b5t on compliance ) :atev] seem$ to be ! requirem5ts ( ! ,gospel1 & my fri5ds1 :o _h no misgiv+s on ! subject ( public wor%ip1 7 resolv$ n to tol]ate a *ange4 ,i kept ! usual c\rse z long z ,i c\ld d s )\t self-condemnation1 b at l5g? 0 con/ra9$ to *ange4 ,"o ,sunday night ,i prea*$ f ! conclud+ words ( ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt1--,!re=e :osoev] he>e? ^! say+s ( ,m9e1 & doe? !m1 ,i w lik5 him unto a wise man1 :i* built 8 h\se ^u a rock3 & ! ra9 desc5d$1 & ! floods came1 & ! w9ds blew1 & beat ^u t h\se2 & x fell n3 = x 0 f\nd$ ^u a rock4 ,& e "o t he>e? ^! say+s ( ,m9e1 & doe? !m n1 %all be lik5$ unto a fooli% man1 :i* built 8 h\se ^u ! s&3 & ! ra9 desc5d$1 & ! floods came1 & ! w9ds blew1 & beat ^u t h\se2 & x fell3 & great 0 ! fall ( x4 ,i review$ ! say+s ( ,*ri/ ref]r$ to 9 ! text4 ,i dwelt at "s l5g? on ! passage ab\t pray+ 9 ! synagogues & 9 ! corn]s ( ! /reets4 ,! congregation 0 v l>ge1 & ! s]mon 0 unusually impressive4 ,"s said !y _h nev] he>d me prea* ) s mu* p[]4 ,z ,i drew t[>ds a close1 ,i ref]r$ aga9 to ! words on public pray]1 & gave :at appe>$ to me to be _! mean+4 ,i rem>k$1 t ,i felt b\nd to comply ) :at ,i believ$ to be ! comm& ( ! ,savi\r1 & t ,i mu/ !re=e decl9e to conclude ! s]vice 9 ! usual way1 by a public pray]1 & reque/ ! disciples ( ,*ri/ to retire to _! homes & secret places to pray4 ,! result 0 exce$+ly pa9ful4 ,! confusion 0 dreadful4 ,"s1 :o _h nev] ?\ght on ! subject be=e1 & :o _h probably li/5$ to me t ev5+ )\t compreh5d+ prop]ly my mean+1 7 horrifi$4 ,! (fic]s ( ! *ur*1 :o _h accept$ me z _! m9i/] 9 ! belief t ,i %\ld nev] try !m by any?+ new 9 my views or proce$+s1 7 griev$ beyond measure4 ,"o ( !m said to me at a meet+ ! foll[+ ev5+3 ,y h committ$ a crime1 comp>$ ) :i* ! s9 ( him :o betray$ 8 ,"l = silv]1 0 honor & piety6 ,?is1 ( c\rse1 0 madness1 if n blasphemy4 ,b x helps to %[ ! fe>ful difficulties t lie 9 ! way ( ! man :o feels himself call$ to be a religi\s re=m]4 ,& x t5ds to %[ ! tempe/ ( excitem5t 9 :i*1 = s long a p]iod1 x 0 my lot to live4 ,! result ( ?is la/ /ep 9 my re=m+ c>e] 01 t almo/ all ! ri*] & m influ5tial memb]s ( ! *ur* des]t$ me1 & "s ev5 ( ! less influ5tial foll[$ _! example4 ,?is h[ev] did n *ange my det]m9ation to d :at ,i believ$ to be ! w ( ,god4 ,nor did x dispose me to hesitate long] be=e mak+ *anges :5 !y seem$ to be call$ = by ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/4 ,on ! contr>y1 x l$ me to resolve1 t ,i w\ld hold myself m at lib]ty to foll[ ! revelations ( tru? & duty ?an ev]4 ,i blam$ myself = hav+ accept$ ! situation ( a regul> m9i/]1 blam$ myself = hav+ all[$ myself to be influ5c$ s mu* by a reg>d to ! judgm5ts & feel+s ( o!rs4 ,i felt a k9d ( pleasure at l5g?1 :5 ,i f\nd ! lead+ fri5ds :o _h held me s mu* 9 *eck1 7 gone4 ,i attribut$ _! dep>ture to my fidelity to ,*ri/1 & to my gr[+ con=mity to ,8 lik5ess2 & ,i resolv$ to labor m ?an ev] to come to ! p]fection ( ,*ri/ian manhood1 to ! measure ( ! /ature ( ! fulness ( ,*ri/4 ,i com=t$ myself ) ! ?\ght t ,jesus _h be5 des]t$1 betray$1 & p]secut$1 be=e me2 & felt happy 9 ! assurance1 t if ,i suff]$ ) ,him1 ,i %\ld also be glorifi$ ) ,him4 ,i n[ resolv$ to speak & write & act m freely ?an ev]4 ,i w\ld no long] keep my ?\ghts to myself till ,i 0 ?or\ghly conv9c$ ( _! tru?1 b submit !m to ! consid]ation ( my fri5ds z soon z !y assum$ ! appe>ance ( probability4 ,i w\ld ?9k al\d4 ,i w\ld se>* to ! bottom ( all ?+s1 & make kn[n ! result )\t res]ve4 ,i w\ld favor a free & fe>less discussion ( e subject4 ,& ,i w\ld r$uce to practice ev]y?+ inculcat$ by ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les1 h[ev] mu* at v>iance x might be ) ! cu/oms ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i w\ld rid myself ( prejudice4 ,i w\ld take no?+ on tru/4 ,old ?+s %\ld n[1 at la/1 pass away1 unless !y 7 f\nd to =m "p ( ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/2 & all ?+s %\ld become new4 ,& :at ,i purpos$1 ,i did1 to ! be/ ( my ability4 ,i arrang$ = meet+s ( ! *ur*1 at :i* we sang & pray$1 & endeavor$ to in/ruct & com=t "o ano!r1 & provoke ea* o!r to love & good works4 ,:5 ?is *ur* meet+ 0 ov]1 ,i asc5d$ ! pulpit1 & address$ ! public congregation4 ,we *ang$ ! mann] ( conduct+ class-meet+s1 enc\rag+ ! memb]s to read hymns1 or portions ( ,scripture1 or extracts f any in/ructive book1 or to speak to ea* o!r = com=t or improvem5t4 ,i w\ld be no long] ! tea*] ( ! *ur*1 b only "o ( its tea*]s4 ,t ,i might be able to support my family )\t ! aid ( ! *ur*1 & s feel myself ?or\ghly free & indep5d5t1 ,i resolv$ to comm5ce bus9ess z a pr9t]4 ,i b\ght a press1 & type1 & all ! o!r requisites ( a pr9t+-(fice1 & set to "w4 ,elizabe? ,pease1 a good k9d ,quak]ess ( ,d>l+ton1 gave me ?irty p\nds to help me 9 my und]tak+1 & o!rs1 ne>] at h&1 assi/$ me accord+ to _! ability4 ,i engag$ a man to "w = me1 & tea* me h[ to "w myself1 = ,i 0 q a /rang] to ! bus9ess4 ,i soon 0 able bo? to set up type & "w ! press1 ?\gh ! pressure ( o!r "w prev5t$ me f excell+ 9 ei!r ( ^? l9es4 ,be=e long ,i _h two m5 at "w4 ,b my workm5 7 n s fai?ful z !y %\ld h be51 & x co/ me m to pr9t my works myself1 ?an x _h done to get !m pr9t$ by o!rs4 ,i got a =eman1 b he us$ my (fice to c>ry on a bus9ess ( 8 own1 in/ead ( do+ :at he c\ld = m9e1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to turn him (f1 & pay him a consid]able sum to keep him f tr\bl+ me ) a law-suit4 ,a %ort "t aft]1 a v unpromis+-look+ "y man came & ask$ me = a place 9 my pr9t+ e/abli%m5t4 ,he 0 h>dly a "y man1 9 fact1 b j a half-taught r&om-look+ k9d ( boy4 ,i ask$ :at he c\ld d4 ,to my unspeakable a/oni%m5t he told me t ! place he want$ 0 t ( =eman4 ,i smil$1 & look$ on ! poor creature z a simpleton4 ,b ?\gh he seem$ a little disconc]t$1 he 0 n to be aba%$4 ,he told me1 t if ,i w\ld give him a trial1 he w\ld let me see :e!r he c\ld manage ! (fice or n4 ,b h[ c y manage ! m58 said ,i4 ,no?+ h[ev] w\ld satisfy ! poor boy b a trial1 & ,i1 "u "s k9d ( influ5ce1 agre$ to give him "o4 ,:at ! m5 ?\ght :5 he took 8 place1 ,i don't "k2 b !y seem$ to act on ! pr9ciple1 t z ,i _h made him =eman1 !y mu/ obey 8 ord]s2 & obey him !y did1 & to my agreeable surprise1 ev]y?+ w5t on 9 a satisfactory mann]4 ,! y\?ful =eman1 :o turn$ out to be a s5sible1 mode/1 h>d-work+1 hone/ "y man1 did well f ! fir/1 & improv$ e ye>1 & rema9$ ) me1 giv+ satisfaction bo? to me & to my m51 s long z ,i cont9u$ 9 bus9ess4 ,i _h _m fe>ful trials to pass ?r\gh aft] ,i (f5d$ ! lead+ memb]s ( my congregation by giv+ up s++ & pray] at public meet+s1 & a heavy loss entail$ on me by ! di%one/y ( "o ( ^? lead+ memb]s 0 n ! lea/4 ,ev] s9ce ! "t :5 ,i fir/ became an au?or1 ,i _h act$ z my own publi%] & booksell]1 s5d+ out p>cels to my fri5ds1 keep+ acc\nts1 & do+ ! :ole "w ( a ,book-room4 ,:5 ,i engag$ to be m9i/] ( ! *ur* 9 ,newca/le1 & became s]vant ( ! newly-=m$ *ur*es all ov] ! c\ntry1 ,mr4 ,blackwell1 ! pr9t] ref]r$ to on page #age1 advis$ me to put ! book-sell+ bus9ess into ! h&s ( ,mr4 ,t[ns5d1 ano!r lead+ (ficial ( ! *ur*4 ,y h "w en\gh1 said he1 & too mu*1 9 prea*+1 lectur+1 writ+1 & travell+1 & ,mr4 ,t[ns5d c d ! book-sell+ bett] ?an y4 ,he is a bus9ess man2 he und]/&s book-keep+2 & he w conduct ! bus9ess 9 an ord]ly & effici5t mann]4 ,x _h always be5 a pr9ciple ) me nev] to g into debt1 & ,i said to ,mr4 ,blackwell1 :o 0 !n my pr9t]1 ,if y w give me a gu>antee t no debt %all be incurr$1--t y w nev] pr9t any?+ till ,mr4 ,t[ns5d has paid y = all "w previ\sly pr9t$1 ,i w agree to y\r proposal4 ,he gave me 8 ^w t he w\ld d exactly z ,i reque/$4 ,mr4 ,t[ns5d 0 accord+ly made :olesale ag5t = my new p]iodical1 & = all my o!r publications1 & all my /ock ( books 0 plac$ 9 8 h&s4 ,= fifte5 or eighte5 mon?s ,i gave myself no conc]n ab\t matt]s ( bus9ess1 tru/+ to ,mr4 ,blackwell to keep ?+s "r1 accord+ to 8 pl$ge4 ,mr4 ,t[ns5d _h ano!r bus9ess besides my book conc]n1 ! *9a & e>!nw>e bus9ess1 & ab\t eighte5 mon?s aft] my bus9ess 0 plac$ 9 8 h&s1 he w5t into ,scotl& to dispose ( a quantity ( 8 surplus /ock4 ,he _h only be5 gone a few days be=e ^w came t he 0 dead4 ,x !n came out t ,mr4 ,blackwell _h all[$ him to run up a debt ( ne>ly sev5 hundr$ p\nds = pr9t+4 ,x also came out t ,mr4 ,t[ns5d 0 insolv5t4 ,he _h be5 9 difficulties = ye>s1 & he _h us$ ! money he _h receiv$ = my books to prev5t 8 cr$itors f mak+ him a bankrupt4 ,8 j\rney to ,scotl& 0 8 la/ %ift1 & fail+ 9 t1 he _h tak5 opiates1 x 0 said1 to su* an ext5t1 z to cause dea?4 ,! dreadful revelations t 7 laid be=e me %ock$ & tr\bl$ me beyond measure1 & ,i knew n :at to d4 ,mr4 ,blackwell1 ?r\gh ^: neglect or unfai?fulness ! debt _h be5 incurr$1 exhort$ me n to be al>m$1 assur+ me t he %\ld nev] tr\ble me = ! money4 ,s ,i set to "w to ga!r up ! fragm5ts ( my prop]ty1 & re-organize ! bus9ess4 ,i got 9 :at money ,i c\ld f ! ag5ts1 & gave x1 along ) all ,i c\ld e>n1 to ,mr4 ,blackwell1 to r$uce ! debt1 ?\gh x 0 n 9 reality a debt ( m9e4 ,i gave him also a sum belong+ to my wife1 :i* %e _h j receiv$ z a legacy4 ,i gave him all t came into my h&s1 except a trifle t ,i sp5t 9 procur+ food = my family2 & 9 eight mon?s ,i _h r$uc$ ! debt to two hundr$ & ?irty p\nds4 ,x 0 :ile ,i 0 ex]t+ myself to pay (f ?is debt t ,i (f5d$ ! lead]s ( my congregation by giv+ up public wor%ip4 ,! p]son :o said t 9 do+ s1 ,i _h be5 guilty ( a crime1 comp>$ ) :i* t ( ,judas 9 sell+ 8 ,ma/]1 0 honor & piety1 0 ?is same ,mr4 ,blackwell4 ,:5 ,i began to pr9t = myself1 he dem&$ ! in/ant paym5t ( ! rema9+ two hundr$ & ?irty p\nds1 & foll[$ ! dem& by legal proce$+s4 ,a fri5d1 ,mr4 ,john ,h9dhaugh1 :o _h he>d h[ ,i 0 situat$1 & :o _h also he>d t ,mr4 ,blackwell _h said t he w\ld soon put a /op to my pr9t+1 w5t & paid ! am\nt dem&$1 & br\ght me ! receipt1 & said1 t if ev] ,i f\nd myself able1 ,i might repay him ! am\nt1 b t ,i mu/ by no means put myself to any inconv5i5ce4 ,9 c\rse ( "t ,i repaid my fri5d1 & 0 once m out ( debt4 ,x 0 j :ile tri$ by ?is sad affair1 t ,i =m$ ! resolution to ?r[ (f all re/ra9ts ( prevail+ cre$s & cu/oms1 & ent] on a c>e] ( :olesale & untrammell$ inve/igation & discussion4 ,i 0 n 9 ! fitte/ /ate ( m9d to d ju/ice to ! =ms ( ,*ri/ianity 9 favor ) ! *ur*es4 ,on ! contr>y1 ! influ5ces to :i* ,i _h be5 long subject$1 & ! peculi> /ate ( excitem5t 9 :i* ,i 0 /ill liv+1 c\ld h>dly fail to c>ry me into extremes4 ,no matt]1 ,i set to "w4 ,i pr9t$ ?\s&s ^u ?\s&s ( h&-bills1 ann\nc+ a ?ree mon?s' conv5tion & free discussion 9 my *apel1 & _h !m po/$ & di/ribut$ all r\nd ! c\ntry4 ,free admission & fre$om ( spee* 7 promis$ to all com]s4 ,among ! subjects ann\nc$ = discussion 71 ! ,tr9ity1 ! ,godhead ( ,*ri/1 ! ,atonem5t1 ,natural ,depravity1 ,h]$it>y ,guilt1 ,et]nal ,torm5ts1 ,ev]la/+ ,de/ruction1 ,ju/ification by ,fai? alone1 ! ,nature ( ,sav+ ,fai?1 ,:at is a ,*ri/ian8 ,tru/ 9 ! ,m]its ( ,*ri/1 ,in/antane\s ,reg5]ation1 ,*ri/ian ,p]fection1 ! direct ,witness ( ! ,_s1 ! ,sabba? ,"q1 ,non-resi/ance1 ,peace1 ,w>1 & ,human ,gov]nm5ts1 ,law-,suits1 ! ,cr$it ,sy/em1 ,tol]ation & ,human ,cre$s1 ! ,*ur*1 ! ,hir$ ,m9i/ry1 ,public ,pray]1 ,public ,wor%ip g5]ally1 ,prea*+1 ,sunday ,s*ools1 ,fre$om ( ,?\ght1 ,fre$om ( ,consci5ce1 ,class-,meet+s1 & ! ,duty ( ! ,*ur* to its ,poor ,memb]s4 ,! *apel 0 kept op5 e day1 & e day1 :5 n call$ out ( t[n1 ,i deliv]$ "o or two lectures on "o ( ^? subjects1 /at+ my own views on ! po9t1 & my reasons = hold+ !m1 & !n call+ on any "o t might diff] f me1 to /ate 8 views 9 reply4 ,! *apel 0 g5]ally cr[d$1 & ! discussions 7 (t5 v animat$4 ,p]sons ( v>i\s d5om9ations took "p 9 !m1 & p came f almo/ e "p ( ! c\ntry to witness ! proce$+s4 ,my pr9cipal oppon5t1 = a portion ( ! "t1 0 ,george ,bird1 ! rector ( ,cumb]wor?1 :o _h inoculat$ me ) 8 views on public wor%ip4 ,he 0 v or?odox on _m po9ts1 :ile ,i1 on "s po9ts1 0 lean+ t[>ds ,latitud9>ianism4 ,we _h1 at times1 v excit+ conte/s4 ,mr4 ,bird 0 exce$+ly anxi\s to ga9 a victory1 bo? = himself & = 8 views4 ,& he 0 n p>ticul> z to ! means he employ$ to accompli% 8 object4 ,he 0 v unfair4 ,he c\ld n1 or he w\ld n1 refra9 f p]sonal abuse1 nor f misrepres5tations ( my views & /atem5ts4 ,i 0 sev]e en\gh 9 my criticisms1 b ,i nev] 0 kn[+ly1 & ,i d n ?9k ,i 0 (t5 ev5 un9t5tionally1 unju/ to an oppon5t4 ,i nev] *>g$ p ) say+ :at !y did n say1 & ,i nev] =c$ a mean+ on _! words :i* !y 7 n int5d$ to express4 ,& if at any "t an oppon5t *>g$ me ) misquot+ 8 words1 or ) misrepres5t+ 8 mean+1 ,i always accept$ 8 corrections or explanations4 ,nor did ,i indulge 9 p]sonal abuse4 ,nor did ,i lose my temp]4 ,i did my utmo/ to be j to all1 & :5 ,i c\ld n exhibit mu* e/eem or love = an oppon5t1 ,i tri$ to be respectful4 ,! records ( ^? long-cont9u$ & /range debates are1 ,i am sorry to say1 lo/4 ,b :ile !y 7 proce$+ ,i drift$ fur!r away1 on "s po9ts1 f ! views ma9ta9$ by or?odox communities4 ,i am n aw>e h[ev] t ,i w5t mu* fur!r ?an ,wesley w5t dur+ ! latt] ye>s ( 8 life4 ,i f\nd1 n only 9 ,scripture1 b 9 ! s]mons ( ,wesley1 & 9 ! writ+s ( ,baxt]1 :o 0 a favorite ) ,wesley1 :at seem$ to me fully to ju/ify all t ,i _h taught on ! great doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity up to ?is p]iod4 ,i gave up ! ,*ri/ian ,inve/igator at ! end ( two ye>s1 & z two ( my fri5ds 7 anxi\s to publi% a p]iodical1 ,i refra9$ = a "t f comm5c+ ano!r1 to give !m a bett] *ance ( success4 ,i also help$ !m by writ+ = !m1 at _! reque/1 a numb] ( articles = ! e>li] numb]s ( _! "w4 ,_! attempt h[ev] prov$ a failure4 ,! "w conta9$ a heap ( ,ant9omian & ,mill5>ian nons5se1 & my read]s _h no ta/e = su* /uff2 & ! "w 0 giv5 up1 & ! ,editors %ortly aft] left me & my fri5ds1 & jo9$ ! ,plym\? ,bre?r51 repay+ me = my k9dness by trea*]y & abuse4 ,"o ( !m publi%$ a tract :5 he took himself away1 exhort+ my fri5ds to be on _! gu>d le/ !y %\ld be l$ by me into anti-*ri/ian error4 ,_! conduct t[>ds me altoge!r1 z ,i ?\ght1 0 unju/ & di%onorable1 & ?\gh !y are n[ bo? dead1 ,i c ?9k ( no good excuse = ! way 9 :i* !y act$4 ,b ,god is judge4 ,i n[ laid aside ! "n ( ,me?odi/ & adopt$ t ( ,*ri/ian1 & ,i comm5c$ a new p]iodical1 be>+ ! same title4 ,i made x1 z ,i _h made my o!r p]iodicals1 ! organ ( my own m9d1 ! vehicle ( my own ?\ghts on e subject ( importance t engag$ my att5tion4 ,my writ+ 0 simply free & fri5dly talk ) my read]s on matt]s 9 :i* we 7 all greatly int]e/$4 ,& ! "w conta9s ! hi/ory ( ! *anges :i* took place 9 my views dur+ ! p]iod ( its publication4 ,:ile publi%+ ,! ,*ri/ian1 ,i publi%$ a multitude ( pamphlets4 ,9 answ] to a pamphlet by ! ,rev4 ,w4 ,cooke1 9 :i* ,i 0 r\ghly & unju/ly h&l$1 ,i publi%$ sev5 lett]s entitl$ ,tru? & ,re=m aga9/ ! ,_w1 sign+ myself ,a ,*ri/ian4 ,9 ^! lett]s ,i spoke ) ! greate/ fre$om bo? ( myself & ( my oppon5ts1 z well z on a great v>iety ( o!r subjects4 ,i expos$ a numb] ( :at seem$ extravagant or ungu>d$ /atem5ts made by my assailant ) reg>d to ! ,scriptures4 ,i also publi%$ a "w on ,! ,hir$ ,m9i/ry4 ,my tracts on ,sav+ ,fai? & ,! ,atonem5t came out ab\t ! same "t4 ,my aim 9 ^! latt] publications 0 to free ! subject ( ,sav+ ,fai? & ! doctr9e ( ! ,atonem5t f ne$less my/]y1 by sep>at+ f ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ! ,apo/les on ^? po9ts1 ! bewild]+ & mis*iev\s additions ( ignorant !ologians4 ,i did n d5y ! doctr9e ( salvation by fai? 9 ,*ri/1 b only %[$ t ! fai? 9 ,*ri/ spok5 ( 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t 0 simply a belief 9 ,him z ! ,messiah1 lead+ u to receive & obey ,8 tea*+s1 & to tru/ 9 ,him = salvation4 ,nor did ,i d5y ! doctr9e ( r$emption or atonem5t2 b simply endeavor$ to put :at ! ,new ,te/am5t said on ^! subjects 9 its true light4 ,9 mo/ ( ^? works1 if n 9 all ( !m1 !re are evid5ces ( undue excitem5t1 & 9 _m ( !m !re are passages :i*1 9 "o's calm] & m c&id mood1 "o is oblig$ to condemn4 ,i ext5d$ my inve/igations to all religi\s subjects1 endeavor+ to br+ my views & proce$+s on e po9t into p]fect h>mony ) ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les4 ,i also did my be/1 9 connection ) my fri5ds1 to c>ry into practice 9 our *ur* at ,newca/le :at we reg>d$ z ! ,new ,te/am5t pr9ciples ( discipl9e & *ur* gov]nm5t4 ,! foll[+ 7 among our regulations3--,we w\ld h no fix$ paym5ts4 ,all mu/ be giv5 freely4 ,!re mu/ be no *>ge = admission to ! *ur* fea/s4 ,we w\ld support our poor memb]s4 ,we w\ld deal ) (f5d]s accord+ to ! in/ructions ( ,*ri/3 fir/1 tell !m ( _! faults betwe5 !m & u alone1 c41 c4 ,we enc\nt]$ _m difficulties 9 our attempts to c>ry out "s ( our pr9ciples4 ,"s1 t 7 able to contribute1 7 too selfi% to d s1 & left ! exp5ses ( ! *ur* to be met by ! g5]\s few4 ,!y w\ld eat l gluttons at ! *ur* fea/s1 b give no?+ t[>ds pay+ = ! provisions4 ,"s seem$ to ent] ! *ur* to get support$ 9 idl5ess out ( its funds4 ,?is seem$ to be ! case especially ) a bl9d begg>4 ,he sp>$ no pa9s 9 mak+ kn[n 8 connection ) ! *ur*1 & its g5]osity 9 support+ him1 to ! public4 ,?is br\ght 9 a numb] ( o!rs :o 7 wi%ful to be support$4 ,b _m ( ^! p1 aft] jo9+ ! *ur*1 refus$ to "w4 ,x 0 pla9 t we mu/ ei!r give up ! attempt to c>ry out our g5]\s pr9ciples1 or else adopt "s me?od ( te/+ p be=e admitt+ !m z memb]s1 & "s wise sy/em ( discipl9e & gov]nm5t ) reg>d to ^? already admitt$4 ,b we _h said s mu* ab\t unlimit$ lib]ty1 t we c\ld d nei!r ! "o nor ! o!r )\t break+ up ! *ur* & build+ x up anew2 & x seem$ too late to d t4 ,s we dragg$ along z well z we c\ld4 ,"s lo/ pati5ce1 & w5t to o!r *ur*es4 ,"s came to ! conclusion t ,*ri/ianity z laid d[n 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t 0 impracticable1 & s became skeptical4 ,"s kept alo( f all ! *ur*es1 b /ill reta9$ _! fai? 9 ,*ri/ianity1 & _! atta*m5t to ! pr9ciples to :i* we _h giv5 prom95ce4 ,at "o p]iod ,i lectur$ frequ5tly on ,peace4 ,! ,quak]s aid$ me 9 obta9+ rooms = my lectures1 & suppli$ me ) money to pay my travell+ exp5ses2 & ! ,backh\ses & ,peases ( ,d>l+ton1 & ! ,ri*>dsons & o!rs ( ,newca/le1 contribut$ to ! support ( my family4 ,i met ) "s ( ! be/ & mo/ agreeable p ,i ev] knew1 among ! ,quak]s4 ,_m ( !m 7 rem>kably lib]al & enlight5$ 9 _! views1 n only on religion1 b on _m o!r subjects4 ,i 0 a/oni%$ at ! ext5t ( _! read+1 & at ! am\nt ( k !y possess$4 ,& !y _h a wond]ful am\nt ( *>ity t[>ds o!r religi\s d5om9ations4 ,!y believ$ ! *ur*es 7 do+ mu* good1 & rejoic$ 9 _! usefulness1 ?\gh !y c\ld n always jo9 !m 9 _! labors4 ,i also f\nd t 9 _! deal+s ) ea* o!r1 !y 7 exce$+ly consci5ti\s4 ,"o ,fri5d _h recomm5d$ ano!r1 a lady1 to inve/ h] money 9 "s m9+ speculation1 :i* he believ$ 0 likely to prove pr(itable4 ,%e did s1 & lo/ h] money1 or receiv$ no int]e/ f x4 ,! ,fri5d :o _h c\nsell$ ! inve/m5t1 took ! %>es1 & return$ ! lady h] money4 ,?is1 ,i believe1 0 n a ?+ by itself1 b a sample ( ,quak] deal+s ) ea* o!r4 ,i le>n$ "s useful lessons f ! ,quak]s1 & ,i receiv$ f !m _m favors4 ,i reta9 _m pleasant recollections ( my int]c\rse ) !m1 & expect to ?9k ( !m ) pleasure to my dy+ day4 ,aft] ,i ceas$ to receive a sal>y = prea*+1 ,i & my family 7 (t5 9 /raits1 & at times we seem$ on ! v v]ge ( />vation4 ,my pr9t+ bus9ess did n pay its own exp5ses at fir/1 & = sev]al ye>s aft] x began to yield a pr(it1 ! pr(it 0 requir$ = new presses1 new type1 or _h to lie dead 9 ! %ape ( increas$ /ock ( publications4 ,& ,i _h no income f prop]ty4 ,yet 9 e case :5 we seem$ to be r$uc$ to extremities1 supplies came f "s qu>t] or o!r4 ,sometimes ,i knew ! h& by :i* assi/ance 0 s5t1 b at o!r times my b5efactors rema9$ unkn[n4 ,!re 0 "o good ,*ri/ian1 ,john ,donaldson1 :o 0 always ready ) 8 help4 ,he n only aid$ me by _m gifts1 b busi$ himself to induce 8 fri5ds to s5d mo aid4 ,he gave ! fir/ subscription t[>ds a /eam press2 & :5 ! press 0 b\ght1 he s5t a sum to pur*ase ! fir/ load ( coals to get up ! /eam1 to put ! press 9 motion4 ,on "o occasion1 :ile ,i 0 lectur+ 9 ! ,s\?1 ne>ly two hundr$ miles away f home1 ,i fail$ to receive ! supplies ,i expect$ f ! ag5ts = my publications1 & my family seem$ likely to be out ( provisions be=e ,i c\ld s5d !m help4 ,my wife & *ildr5 _h begun to feel uneasy & afraid4 ,t day a man came up to ! door ) a c>t-load ( provisions4 ,does ,mr4 ,b>k] live "h8 said ! man to my elde/ son1 :o _h answ]$ ! knock at ! door4 ,yes1 answ]$ my son4 ,i h br\ght y "s ?+s1 said ! man1 "s fl\r1 & potatoes1 & ?+s4 ,!y are n = u1 said ! poor little fell[1 my fa!r is away4 ,b ?is is ,mr4 ,b>k]'s1 is x n8 said ! man4 ,yes1 said my son1 ,!n x is all "r1 said ! man1 ,i 0 told to leave !m "h1 & he began to unload4 ,bo? *ildr5 & "m 7 afraid !re 0 "s mi/ake1 b ! man w5t on unload+1 & /ock$ ! h\se ) food = weeks to come4 ,a day or two be=e1 my wife & *ildr5 _h be5 talk+ to ea* o!r1 & express+ _! appreh5sions1 z ,i _h n be5 able to s5d !m any money1 t !y w\ld soon be )\t any?+ to eat4 ,"o ( ! *ildr5 said1 ',let u pray1 "m3 p]haps ,god w s5d u some?+4' ,!y all knelt d[n1 & bo? "m & *ildr5 pray$3 & :5 !y saw ! abundant supplies ) :i* ! c>t _h /ock$ ! h\se1 !y believ$ t ,god _h s5t !m 9 answ] to _! pray]s4 ,i refus$ to buy pap]1 or type1 or any?+1 on cr$it1 & ,i 0 (t5 at a loss1 :5 my /ock ( pap] 0 almo/ out1 to "k :]e ! money 0 to come f to get a fre% supply4 ,& ,i _h n s mu* fai? z ,g4 ,muell] ( ,bri/ol2 at any rate1 my fai? did n give me ! same pleasant assurances t ,i %\ld receive :at ,i desir$1 t ,muell]'s fai? gave him4 ,i am incl9$ h[ev] to ?9k t ,i _h n s mu* tru/ 9 ,provid5ce1 z ,i ought to h _h4 ,i c]ta9ly _h n s mu* z ,i h n[4 ,b !n1 ,i am bett] (f n[ ?an ,i 0 !n4 ,b ,i 0 lack+1 to "s ext5t1 9 ,*ri/ian tru/ 9 ,god1 z well z 9 resignation to ,8 w1 & h5ce my uneas9ess4 ,_m a "t :5 ,i laid myself d[n on my b$ at night1 in/ead ( go+ to sleep1 ,i sp5t long h\rs 9 ?\ght ab\t my bus9ess1 look+ 9 e direction = a prospect ( supplies to enable me to pay ! wages ( my m51 & pur*ase pap]4 ,! fir/ ?+ 0 to ?9k ( all ! m5 t ow$ me money1--to consid] :i* ( all ! numb] w\ld be likely to s5d me remittances 9 "t1 & to reckon up ! sums1 to see if !y w\ld enable me to meet ! dem&s ^u me4 ,! next ?+ 0 to d ! same ?+ ov] aga92 & ! next1 to d x ov] aga9 a ?ird "t4 ,all ?is 0 accompani$ ) long & deep-drawn sighs1 :i* 7 li/5$ to by a fond & wakeful b$fell[1 :o sil5tly sympa?iz$ ) me 9 all my trials1 & :o 0 z re/less & anxi\s z myself4 ,sometimes ,i moan$1 & sometimes ,i pray$2 & :5 ,i 0 we>i$ out ) my fruitless labors1 ,i fell asleep4 ,x w\ld h be5 bett]1 if ,i c\ld h done x1 to h giv5 to ! w9ds my fe>s1 & lo/ myself 9 peaceful & refre%+ slumb]s2 = g5]ally1 on ! foll[+ morn+1 ! ne$ful supplies arriv$4 ,!y seldom came f ! p>ties f :om ,i expect$ !m1 b !y came not)/&+4 ,"o day1 t[>ds ! close ( ! ye>1 my /ock ( pap] 0 v l[1 & ,i _h no?+ ) :i* to pur*ase a fre% supply4 ,next morn+ a lett] came1 enclos+ ?irty-five p\nds1 a ,*ri/mas gift f fri5ds 9 ,irel&4 ,on "o occasion1 :5 ,i 0 unwell1 a g5tleman :om ,i _h nev] se51 & :om ,i h n se5 yet 9 fact1 s5t me =ty p\nds1 to enable me to sp5d a mon? at "s hydropa?ic e/abli%m5t4 ,he _h read a numb] ( my publications1 & _h be5 pleas$ ) !m1 & hav+ le>n$ 9 "s way t ,i 0 n well1 _h s5t ?is pro( ( 8 k9d reg>d4 ,!re 0 "o man 9 ,newca/le1 a weal?y man1 :o said to me1 ,come to me :5ev] y are 9 difficulty1 & y %all h :atev] y ne$4 ,i 0 (t5 9 difficulties1 b hesitat$ to ask 8 help4 ,"o day1 h[ev]1 aft] hav+ wait$ = supplies f o!r qu>t]s z long z ,i dur/1 ,i w5t to him1 & /at$ my case4 ,he kept me wait+ an h\r or m1 & !n said1 ,no4 ,i turn$ away a%am$ & sad4 ,a fri5d :om ,i enc\nt]$ on my way home1 said1 ,:at is ! matt] ) y8 ,are y ill8 ,y look bad4 ,i 0 oblig$ to tell him my /ory4 ,is t all8 said he4 ,we c soon put t "r4 ,& he gave me1 unask$1 z mu* z ,i ne$$4 ,:ile we 7 /ruggl+ ) our o!r difficulties1 my wife 0 tak5 ill4 ,! h\se 9 :i* we liv$ 0 badly dra9$1 or r1 ! dra9s be+ out ( ord]1 ! (f5sive mat]ials f o!r h\ses lodg$ "u ! floor ( our cell> kit*51 & s5t =?1 ?r\gh ! floor1 deadly effluvia4 ,9 ?is cell> kit*5 we 7 oblig$ to live4 ,i 0 s mu* f home1 & :5 at home 0 s mu* 9 ! op5 air1 travell+ to my appo9tm5ts1 & ev5 :5 9 ! h\se1 ,i sp5t s mu* ( my "t 9 an upp] room writ+1 t ,i took no h>m4 ,x 0 o!rwise ) my poor wife4 ,%e _h to be 9 ?is room almo/ all day long1 & (t5 till late at night4 ,! result 0 a deadly attack ( fev]4 ,%e _h felt unwell = "s days1 b _h /ill gone on ) h] "w1 & s\ght no m$ical advice or help4 ,at l5g?1 z %e 0 go+ to b$ "o night1 %e fa9t$ on ! /airs4 ,! /airs 7 v /eep1 & ! po9t at :i* %e lo/ h] consci\sness 0 a mo/ dang]\s "o1 & x seem$ a miracle t %e _h n fall5 back to ! bottom & be5 kill$4 ,b someh[ %e fell only a /ep or two4 ,my elde/ son he>d !re 0 some?+ ! matt]1 & ran to see :at x 04 ,!re he f\nd 8 poor1 d>l+ "m app>5tly dead1 9 ! middle ( ! /eep & w9d+ /aircase4 ,h[ he did x1 ,i d n "k1 nor does he1 b ?\gh he 0 only a *ild ( ab\t ?irte5 ye>s ( age1 he took 8 "m1 & by "s my/]i\s means1 c>ri$ h] up ! rema9d] ( ! /airs1 plac$ h] on h] b$1 & !n /ood sorr[+ & trembl+ till %e came to h]self4 ,%e 0 ill ?irte5 weeks4 ,= two or ?ree weeks %e seem$ on ! po9t ( dea?4 ,on my return1 late "o night1 f "o ( my engagem5ts1 t5 miles away 9 ! c\ntry1 ,i f\nd h] /rangely *ang$ = ! worse4 ,%e look$ at me ) a look ,i c nev] =get4 ,%e ?\ght %e 0 dy+4 ,i ?\ght s too4 ,h] eye said1 ,dea?2 h] :ole expression said1 ,dea?4 ,i bur/ into te>s1 & gave :at ,i ?\ght 0 my la/ fond embrace4 ,%e _h p[] to utt] j "o s5t5ce3 x 0 an expression ( t5d]ness & k9dness1 m k9d & t5d] ?an ,i des]v$2 & !n fell back on h] pill[1 z if giv+ up ! gho/4 ,b %e liv$ ?r\gh ! night1 & %e liv$ ?r\gh ! foll[+ day1 helpless & spee*less1 yet /ill brea?+4 ,%e recov]$1 & rema9$ ) u to com=t & guide & bless u = ne>ly ?irty ye>s1 & !n1 alas1 all too soon app>5tly1 = ^? :o lov$ & all b ador$ h]1 %e pass$ 9 peace to ! worlds ( light4 ,i believ$ myself all ?is "t engag$ 9 ! s]vice ( my ,mak]1 & ,i reg>d$ ! arrival ( seasonable help f "t to "t1 z a pro( t ,i 0 an object ( ,8 t5d] c>e1 & t my labors _h ,8 smile & bless+4 ,:y did ,i n tru/ ,him m fully8 ,by ! "t ,i _h c>ri$ on my pr9t+ bus9ess = f\r or five ye>s1 ! outlay = type1 & presses1 & o!r k9ds ( pr9t+ app>atus1 became mu* less1 :ile my income f ! sale ( books became mu* great]1 & ,i f\nd myself able1 at l5g?1 to pur*ase :atev] ,i ne$$ z soon z ,i want$ x4 ,by-&-bye ,i _h money always on h&4 ,! relief ,i felt1 :5 ,i f\nd myself fairly above want & difficulty1 0 delightful beyond measure4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,contact ,,) ,,unit>ians1 ,,& ,,d[nw>d ,,t5d5cy ,,to ,,deism4 ,i _h n[ = "s "t be5 gradually approa*+ ! views ( ! m mod]ate class ( ,unit>ians4 ,"s ( my fri5ds1 :5 !y saw ?is1 became al>m$1 & return$ to _! old associates 9 ! or?odox communities2 o!rs got out ( pati5ce ) me = mov+ s sl[ly1 & ran headlong into unbelief2 :ile ! great majority /ill *ose to foll[ my guidance4 ,two ( my ,quak] fri5ds1 :o _h aid$ me 9 my peace lectures1 wait$ ^u me & said1 t x w\ld be necess>y = me1 if ,i meant to cont9ue to lecture 9 connection ) ! ,peace ,society1 n to all[ myself to be kn[n z hold+ het]odox views4 ,i answ]$ t ,i w\ld n submit to "o hair's bread? ( re/ra9t1 nor to a fea!r's weight ( pressure2 & ! consequ5ce 01 ! )drawal ( all assi/ance & c\nt5ance f ! or?odox portion ( ! ,quak]s 9 e "p ( ! c\ntry4 ,! ,unit>ians _h long be5 obs]v+ our movem5ts1 & :5 !y f\nd u com+ s ne> to _! views1 !y began to att5d our meet+s1 & to c\rt our company4 ,at fir/ we 7 v uneasy at _! advances1 & %rank f !m ) real horror2 b our dislike & dread ( !m gradually gave way4 ,!y 7 v k9d4 ,!y l5t u books1 & assi/$ u ) ! loan ( s*ools & *apels4 ,!y %[$ !mselves graci\s 9 _m ways4 ,& aft] ! cruelty we _h exp]i5c$ f o!r p>ties1 _! k9dness & sympa?y prov$ v agreeable4 ,i read _! works ) great eag]ness1 & 0 (t5 delight$ to f9d 9 !m s _m s5tim5ts s l my own4 ,i _h read "s ( ,*ann+'s works be=e1 & n[ ,i read !m all1 & _m ( !m ) ! greate/ delight4 ,i read ! "w ( ,worce/] on ! ,atonem5t1 ( ,norton on ! ,tr9ity1 & ( ,w>e on a v>iety ( subjects4 ,i also read sev]al ( ! works ( ,c>p5t]1 ,bel%am1 ,prie/ley1 & ,m>t9eau4 ,"s ( ^? works ,i publi%$4 ,i also publi%$ a "w by ,w4 ,p5n1 ,! ,s&y ,f\ndation ,%ak51 :i* "s ?\ght ,unit>ian4 ,i came at l5g? to be reg>d$ by ! ,unit>ians z "o ( _! p>ty4 ,!y invit$ me to prea* 9 _! *apels1 & aid$ me 9 ! circulation ( "s ( my publications4 ,i prea*$ = !m 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ! c\ntry4 ,i 0 invit$ to visit ! ,unit>ians 9 ,london1 & ,i prea*$ 9 mo/ ( _! *apels !re1 & 0 welcom$ by _m ( ! m9i/]s & lead+ laym5 ( ! ,metropolis at a public meet+4 ,:5 my fri5ds rais$ a fund to pur*ase me a /eam pr9t+ press1 _m ,unit>ians gave lib]al subscriptions4 ,sev]al ( _! lead+ m5 att5d$ ! meet+ at :i* ! press 0 pres5t$1 & took a lead+ "p 9 ! proce$+s4 ,i _h n m+l$ long ) ! ,unit>ians be=e ,i f\nd t !y diff]$ f "o ano!r v mu* 9 _! views4 ,"s few 7 ,arian1 "s 7 ,soc9ian1 & "s q ,latitud9>ian4 ,"s admir$ ,prie/ley1 "s ,c>p5t]1 "s ,*ann+1 & "s ,p>k]4 ,"s look$ on ,*ann+ z an old fogy1 & said !re 0 n an advanc$ or progressive idea 9 8 writ+s2 :ile o!rs ?\ght t ev]y?+ beyond ,*ann+ bord]$ on ! regions ( d>kness & dea?4 ,"s look$ on ! ,scriptures z ( div9e au?ority1 & decl>$ _! read9ess to believe :atev] !y c\ld be prov$ to tea*3 o!rs reg>d$ ! ,scriptures z ( no au?ority :atev]1 & decl>$ _! det]m9ation to accept no views b su* z c\ld be prov$ to be true indep5d5t ( ! ,bible4 ,"s believ$ ,jesus to be a sup]natural p]son1 commission$ by ,god to give a sup]natural revelation ( tru? & duty1 & emp[]$ to prove ! div9ity ( ,8 mission & doctr9e by sup]natural works4 ,o!rs look$ on ,*ri/ z ! natural result ( ! moral developm5t ( our race1 l ,bacon1 ,%akespe>e1 or ,baxt]4 ,!y look$ on miracles z impossible1 & reg>d$ all ! ,bible acc\nts ( sup]natural ev5ts z fables4 ,!y 7 ,dei/s4 ,"o ,i f\nd :o decl>$ 8 disbelief 9 a future life4 ,!re 0 a gradual incl9e f ! almo/ ,*ri/ian doctr9e ( ,c>p5t] & ,*ann+1 d[n to ! pr9ciples ( ,deism & ,a!ism4 ,:ile 9 ,london ,i became acqua9t$ ) ,dr4 ,b[r+1 aft]w>ds ,sir ,john ,b[r+4 ,he 0 "o ( my he>]s at ,/am=d ,/reet ,*apel1 & complim5t$ me1 aft] ! s]mon1 by call+ me ! mod]n ,john ,bunyan4 ,he _h be5 pleas$ ) ! simplicity ( my /yle1 & ! famili> & /rik+ "* ( my illu/rations4 ,he invit$ me to 8 h\se1 %[$ me a multitude ( curiosities1 :i* he _h collect$ 9 8 travels r\nd ! _w1 made me a pres5t ( "p ( a skull :i* he _h tak5 f an ,egyptian ,pyramid--! skull ( a pr9ce1 :o1 he said1 _h liv$ 9 ! days ( ,joseph1--he also made me a pres5t ( 8 works1 includ+ five volumes ( translations f ! ,poets ( ,russia1 ,hung>y1 & o!r c\ntries1 & "s works connect$ ) 8 own ev5tful hi/ory4 ,dr4 ,b[r+ 0 a memb] ( ,p>liam5t1 & he took me to ! ,h\se ( ,commons1 introduc$ me to a numb] ( ! memb]s1 got me into ! ,h\se ( ,lords1 & did all 9 8 p[] to make my /ay 9 ,london z pleasant z possible4 ,ano!r ,london g5tleman :o 0 v k9d 0 ,dr4 ,bateman1 ! ,que5's ,assi/ant ,solicitor ( ,excise4 ,he took me to sev]al assemblies1 at "o ( :i*1 besides a numb] ( ! great ones ( ! l&1 ,i 0 introduc$ to a ,new ,zeal& *ief1 a /rong-built1 broad-set1 l>ge-head$1 lion-look+ man4 ,x 0 h9t$ t he knew ! ta/e ( human fle%1 & 0 probably ?9k+ at t mom5t1 :at ri* contributions "s ( ! y\?ful & well-f$ p>ties :o 7 pay+ _! respects to him1 w\ld make to a ,new ,zeal& fea/4 ,at "o ( ^? assemblies !re 0 a trem5d\s cr[d1 & ,i lo/ my hat1 & "s body else mu/ h lo/ 81 = ,i got a magnific5t & /range-%ap$ head-cov]1 t might h di/+ui%$1 if n adorn$1 ! greate/ magnate ( ! l&4 ,dr4 ,bateman & ,dr4 ,b[r+ %[$ me k9dness 9 o!r ways1 obta9+ = me & my fri5ds l>ge grants ( books1 contribut+ to ! fund = ! pur*ase ( a /eam press to be pres5t$ to me1 & induc+ a numb] ( _! fri5ds to contribute4 ,i 0 also introduc$ to ,dr4 ,hutton1 m9i/] ( ,c>t] ,lane ,*apel1 & prea*$ & lectur$ 9 8 pulpit4 ,& ,i visit$ ! meet+-place ( ! ,free-?9k+ ,*ri/ians1 0 introduc$ to ! lead+ memb]s ( ! society1 & 0 pres5t$ ) _! publications4 ,i prea*$ at ,hackney ,*apel1 :]e ,i _h ,william & ,m>y ,h[itt z he>]s1 :o 7 introduc$ to me aft] ! s]mon1 invit$ me to sp5d "s "t at _! h\se1 %[$ me ! greate/ possible k9dness1 & did z mu* z good & k9d p c\ld d to make my /ay 9 ,london a pleasure nev] to be =gott54 ,a meet+ 0 call$ 9 ! ,assembly room ( ! ,cr[n & ,an*or1 or ! city ( ,london ,tav]n1 to give me a public welcome to ,london1 & a great numb]1 ! pr9cipal "p1 ,i suppose1 ( ! ,london ,unit>ians met me !re1 to give me a demon/ration ( _! respect & good wi%es4 ,i spoke1 & my rem>ks 7 v favorably receiv$2 & s _m & k9d 7 ! fri5ds t ga!r$ r\nd me1 & s /range & gratify+ ! position 9 :i* ,i f\nd myself1 t ,i seem$ 9 ano!r _w4 ,! contra/ 0 s great betwe5 ! treatm5t to :i* ,i _h s long be5 accu/om$ 9 ! ,new ,connexion1 & ! long-cont9u$ & flatt]+ ovation ,i 0 receiv+ f s l>ge a multitude ( ! mo/ highly cultivat$ p 9 ! c\ntry1 t if ,i _h lo/ my s5ses amid ! delightful excitem5t x c\ld h be5 no matt] = wond]4 ,b x 0 m ?an ,i 0 able to enjoy4 ,i long$ = quiet4 ,i want$ to be at home ) my wife & *ildr51 & 9 ! society ( my less di/+ui%$1 b old] & m devot$ fri5ds4 ,i fe> ,i h>dly %[$ myself ?ankful en\gh = ! honor done me1 or made ! returns to my new fri5ds to :i* !y 7 entitl$4 ,!y mu/ h ?\ght me r cool 9 private2 b !y knew t ,i _h be5 br$ a ,me?odi/1 a pla9 ,me?odi/1 & _h liv$ & mov$ among ,me?odi/s ( ! pla9] k9d1 & nev] be=e be5 fairly outside ! ,me?odi/ _w4 ,& "s ( !m knew t ,i _h n mu* "t = pleasure-tak+1 sight-see+1 & ! curr5t k9d ( *at1 or ev5 ! multiplication ( new fri5ds & acqua9tances4 ,!y knew too t ,i _h a bus9ess :i* requir$ my att5tion1 & a va/ quantity ( lett]s to answ]1 & p>ties call+ = my help 9 almo/ e "p ( ! c\ntry4 ,i 0 happy at l5g? to f9d myself at lib]ty to leave ! metropolis1 & my _m new1 agreeable & g5]\s fri5ds & acqua9tances !re1 & return to quiet] & calm] sc5es1 & m cu/om>y occupations1 9 ! c\ntry4 ,b ,i nev] 0 p]mitt$ to conf9e myself )9 my old circle ( acqua9tances1 & my old sph]e ( labor1 aft] my visit to ,london4 ,acc\nts ( my ,london meet+s 7 giv5 9 ! ,unit>ian newspap]s & p]iodicals1 & spread abroad ?r\gh ! :ole c\ntry4 ,! result 01 ,i receiv$ invitations to prea* & lecture f almo/ e t[n ( importance ?r\gh\t ! k+dom1 & f _m places t 7 n ( s mu* importance2 & _m ( ^? invitations ,i 0 induc$ to accept4 ,i visit$ ,bri/ol1 & _h a welcome !re z gratify+ & almo/ z flatt]+ z my ,london "o4 ,i 0 introduc$ to all ! lead+ ,unit>ians !re1 & _h a gr& reception1 & a c\rse ( lectures 9 ! l>ge/ & mo/ spl5did hall 9 ! city4 ,& ! place 0 cr[d$4 ,i visit$ ,bridgewat]1 ,plym\?1 ,exet]1 & ,tavi/ock1 ) l results4 ,& !n ,i _h calls to ,y>m\?1 ,lynn1 ,bridport1 ,nor?ampton1 ,taunton1 ,birm+ham1 ,%effield1 ,hull1 ,man*e/]1 ,liv]pool1 ,bolton1 ,/ockton1 & o!r places )\t numb]4 ,& ev]y:]e ,i f\nd myself 9 v agreeable society1 & 9 e place ,i met ) real1 he>ty1 & g5]\s fri5ds4 ,x is true ,i met ) "s :o _h little ( religion b ! "n2 b ,i met ) o!rs1 & t 9 consid]able numb]s1 :o really fe>$ & lov$ ,god1 & :o 7 he>tily desir\s to promote a liv+ practical ,*ri/ianity among _! neighbors4 ,^! 7 delight$ to see & he> a man :o1 :ile he held to a great ext5t _! own religi\s views1 0 full ( ,me?odi/ical zeal & en]gy1 & :o _h p[] to attract1 & int]e/1 & move ! masses ( ! p4 ,!y reg>d$ me z an ,apo/le ( _! fai?4 ,!y believ$ ! mill5nium ( enlight5$ & lib]al ,*ri/ianity 0 at h&4 ,!y he>k5$ to my c\nsels1 & set to "w to di/ribute tracts1 to improve _! s*ools1 to e/abli% new ones1 to organize city missions1 to employ local prea*]s1 & to circulate books ( a popul> & r\s+ "*4 ,& bo? !y & ,i believ$ t a great & la/+ revival ( pure unadult]at$ religion 0 at h&4 ,& x took "s "t to dissipate ^! pleasant hopes1 & ?r[ ! well dispos$ & m pi\s "p ( ! ,unit>ians d[n into ! dep?s ( despond5cy aga94 ,b ! melan*oly p]iod arriv$ at l5g?4 ,y _c k9dle a fire & keep x burn+ 9 ! dep?s ( ! sea4 ,& x is z h>d to revive a dead or dy+ *ur*1 especially :5 its m9i/]s & s*ools are support$ by old end[m5ts1 & :5 _m ( its mo/ influ5tial memb]s h caught ! infection ( infidelity1 & become m]e selfi%1 fle%-pleas+ worldl+s4 ,& ?is 0 ! case ) ,unit>ians4 ,_m ( ! tru/ees1 & a consid]able portion ( ! weal?i] memb]s1 c>$ no?+ = religion4 ,o!rs _h no reg>d = any?+ ab\t ,*ri/ianity b ! "n & a little ( ! =m4 ,"s _h su* a hatr$ ( :at !y call$ ,me?odi/ fanaticism1 t !y %rank f any manife/ation ( religi\s life or e>ne/ness4 ,& !y _h su* a horror ( cant1 t !y cant$ on ! o!r side4 ,_! talk ab\t religion 0 little else b cant4 ,_! talk ab\t cant itself 0 cant4 ,!y _h q a dislike ( any ?+ l religi\s zeal1 & _h a dread ( any "o :o _h be5 a ,me?odi/1 especially if he reta9$ any ( 8 ,me?odi/ical e>ne/ness4 ,! ^w unction 0 a t]m ( reproa*1 & ! ri*1 invaluable treasure = :i* x /ood 0 an (f5ce4 ,!y wi%$ to enjoy !mselves 9 a quiet1 easy1 self-indulg5t1 fa%ionable way1 & h j s mu* ( ! =m & appe>ance ( religion z 0 requisite to a fir/ class worldly reputation4 ,!y _h no desire to be reg>d$ z skeptics or unbeliev]s2 t w\ld h be5 z bad z to h be5 reput$ ,me?odi/s2 b !y w\ld h no?+ to d ) any s*emes or ef=ts = ! revival ( religi\s feel+ 9 _! *ur*es1 or ) any int]f]5ce ) ! cu/om>y habits or quiet worldl9ess ( _! peaceable neighbors4 ,"s1 & 9 c]ta9 di/ricts _m1 ev5 ( ! poor] memb]s1 7 utt]ly indiff]5t1 & 9 "s cases ev5 oppos$1 to any religion4 ,9 "s cases bo? ri* & poor _h become grossly immoral4 ,_! *ur*es _h deg5]at$ into eat+ & dr9k+ clubs4 ,! end[m5ts 7 sp5t 9 p]iodical fea/s4 ,!re 7 also cases 9 :i* ! *apel & s*ool end[m5ts _h fall5 into ! h&s ( individuals or families1 :o look$ on !m & us$ !m v mu* z private prop]ty4 ,! s*ools & congregations _h disappe>$1 & ev5 ! *apels & s*ool-h\ses 7 rapidly ha/5+ to ru94 ,& !re 0 ev]y:]e a t5d5cy d[nw>d f ! ,*ri/ian to ! infidel level4 ,if *ur*es d n labor = ! conv]sion ( ! _w1 & endeavor to become !mselves m ,*ri/-l & godly1 deg5]acy1 & utt] degradation & ru9 are inevitable4 ,& ! t5d5cy1 at ! "t to :i* ,i ref]1 ?r\gh\t ! :ole little _w ( ,unit>ianism 0 d[nw>ds to utt] unbelief4 ,9 _m m9ds !re 0 z mu* impati5ce ) old-fa%ion$ mod]ate ,unit>ianism1 z ) old-fa%ion$ ,*ri/ianity or ,me?odism4 ,!y want$ prea*]s :o w\ld op5ly assail ! doctr9e ( ! div9e or special inspiration ( ! ,bible1 & ! sup]natural orig9 ( ,*ri/ianity1 & try to br+ p d[n or up to ! pagan or infidel level ( m]e s5se & reason4 ,! ,unit>ians requir$ no pr(ession ( fai?2 s t dei/s & a!i/s _h ! same title to memb]%ip z believ]s 9 ,*ri/4 ,!y adm9i/]$ ! ,"l's ,supp]1 b !y _h no *ur* discipl9e1 s t p defil$ ) ! fil?ie/ vices _h ! same "r to communicate z p ( ! r>e/ virtues4 ,ev5 ! m9i/]s 7 n requir$ to make any pr(ession ( fai?1 s t dei/s & a!i/s 7 admitt$1 n only into ! *ur*es1 b into ! pulpits4 ,i 0 n aw>e ( ^! ?+s :5 ,i fir/ became id5tifi$ ) ! ,body4 ,x is possible t ! ,body 0 n s corrupt at t "t z x 0 aft]4 ,any way1 at ! "t ( my return f infidelity to ,*ri/ianity1 bo? dei/s & a!i/s 7 among ! m9i/]s4 ,if any f9d x h>d to believe ^! ?+s1 let !m read my pamphlet on ,unit>ianism1 :]e !y w f9d te/imony f lead+ ,unit>ians !mselves1 to ! tru? ( ^! /atem5ts4 ,:atev] enc\ragem5t !re=e c]ta9 portions ( ! ,unit>ian ,body might give to a man l me1 ! influ5ce ( ! ,body g5]ally 0 sure to r5d] my labors ( little or no avail4 ,if ! m religi\s portion ( ! m9i/]s & memb]s _h be5 will+ to come out f ! ,body1 & leave _! old-fa%ion$ build+s & end[m5ts beh9d !m1 !y might h done "s good2 b ?is !y 7 n prep>$ to d4 ,_m ev5 ( ! bett] class ( ,unit>ian m9i/]s 7 fond ( a quiet lit]>y life4 ,!y 7 /ud5ts1 s*ol>s1 & g5tlem51 r ?an prea*]s & apo/les4 ,!y 7 too good to be :]e !y 71 & yet n robu/1 & d>+1 & en]getic en\gh to make _! way into m useful positions4 ,& _! /yle ( prea*+ 0 n popul>4 ,x nev] w\ld h mov$ ! masses4 ,inde$ mu* ( x w\ld h be5 un9telligible to ! k9d ( p :o cr[d$ to my meet+s4 ,!y c\ld n !re=e h mov$ into my sph]e )\t expos+ !mselves to want4 ,if "s "o c\ld h gone & help$ !m 9 _! own "w1 9 _! own sph]es1 x might h answ]$ = !m2 b x w\ld n h answ]$ = !m to come out & battle ) ! rude1 co>se1 outside _w4 ,& ev5 if good1 e>ne/ m9i/]s _h gone to _! aid1 x w\ld h caus$ a rupture & division 9 ! *ur*4 ,my labors !re=e c\ld d little m ?an r\se ! bett] portion ( ! ,body to a tempor>y zeal & activity1 & transf] a numb] ( my fri5ds to _! communion4 ,& ,i & my fri5ds 7 out ( our place1 & out ( our elem5t1 9 _! society4 ,! e>ne/ words we spoke 7 n 'l fire among dry /ubble2' b l sp>ks fall+ into ! wat]4 ,in/ead ( u k9dl+ !m1 !y ext+ui%$ u4 ,! '/rong man arm$' :o _h got possession ( ! ,unit>ian ,h\se1 0 too /rong to be ov]p[]$ & ca/ out by any?+ %ort ( a miracle ( ,omnipot5ce4 ,& t 0 out ( ! "q4 ,*ri/ c save individuals1 b n *ur*es4 ,to memb]s ( a dead or deprav$ *ur* 8 words are1 ',come out ( h]1 my p4' ,& !re 01 & !re is1 no revival1 no salvation1 = ,unit>ians1 b by _! ab&onm5t ( ! ,unit>ian fell[%ip1 & _! return to ,*ri/ z individuals4 ,s y may guess :at foll[$4 ,i _h got :]e x 0 impossible = me to d o!rs mu* good1 ev5 if ,i _h be5 bett] myself1 & :]e x 0 impossible = me to prev5t o!rs f do+ me mo/ s]i\s h>m4 ,i 0 on an incl9$ plane1 t5d+ ev] d[nw>d1 ) all surr\nd+ influ5ces calculat$ to r5d] my desc5t e day m rapid4 ,d[n ?is incl9$ plane ,i gradually slid1 till ,i rea*$ at l5g? ! l& ( d\bt & unbelief4 ,my desc5t 0 v sl[4 ,x took me sev]al ye>s to pass f ! m mod]ate to ! m extravagant =ms ( ,unit>ianism4 ,:5 ,i fir/ read ! works ( ,dr4 ,*ann+1 ?\gh ,i 0 delight$ beyond measure ) _m portions ( 8 writ+s1 ,i _h a great dislike = "s ( 8 rem>ks ab\t ,*ri/ & ! ,atonem5t4 ,& :5 ,i fir/ resolv$ to publi% an edition ( 8 works1 ,i int5d$ to add notes1 ) a view to neutralize ! t5d5cy ( 8 objectionable views2 b by ! "t ,i got 8 works into ! press1 ^? views appe>$ objectionable no long]4 ,i /ill h[ev] reg>d$ portions ( ,!odore ,p>k]'s works ) horror4 ,8 rejection ( miracles1 & ( ! sup]natural orig9 ( ,*ri/ianity1 seem$ inexcusable4 ,& _m a "t 0 ,i %ock$ :ile read+ 8 ,disc\rse on ,matt]s p]ta9+ to ,religion1 by ! contemptu\s mann] 9 :i* he spoke ( portions ( ! sacr$ ,scriptures4 ,i 0 en*ant$ ) _m p>ts ( ! book2 b h[ a man ( s mu* le>n+1 & ) su* amaz+ p[]s1 & ) s mu* love & admiration ( ,*ri/1 & ,god1 & goodness1 c\ld g to su* extremes seem$ a my/]y4 ,& ,i resolv$1 t if ev] ,i publi%$ an edition ( 8 works1 ,i w\ld add a refutation ( 8 revolt+ extravagances4 ,yet "t1 & int]c\rse ) ! m advanc$ ,unit>ians1 br\ght me1 9 a few ye>s1 to look on ,p>k] z my model man4 ,:5 ,i fir/ he>d an ,unit>ian say1 ,sup]naturalism is sup]/ition1 ,i gave him to und]/& t ,i did n feel easy 9 8 company4 ,y are "r1 said ,dr4 ,bateman1 ,pay no reg>d to su* extreme views3 prea* y\r own old-fa%ion$ practical doctr9es4 ,?is made me feel m at ease4 ,yet ! g5tleman :o spoke to me ?us1 z ,i aft]w>ds f\nd1 0 himself on anti-sup]naturali/4 ,b he saw t ,i _h to be dealt ) c>efully1--t ,i 0 n to be hurri$ or argu$1 b l$ g5tly & unconsci\sly1 into ultra views4 ,?is 0 ! g5tleman t busi$ himself m ?an any o!r 9 obta9+ subscriptions t[>ds ! /eam press4 ,he pr(ess$ to l my sup]natural beliefs mu* bett] ?an ! anti-sup]natural views ( ! extrem] portion ( 8 bre?r54 ,& p]haps he did l !m bett]1 ?\gh he _h lo/ ! p[] to believe !m himself4 ,b :e!r he lik$ !m or n1 he won my confid5ce1 & ga9$ an influ5ce ov] me1 :i* an hone/ av[al ( 8 op9ions1 & especially an op5 attempt to induce me to accept !m1 w\ld h r5d]$ x impossible = him to ga94 ,/range z x may seem1 ,i /ill reta9$ _m ( my old me?odi/ical habits1 & ta/es1 & s5sibilities4 ,my m9d 0 /ill imbu$ to a consid]able ext5t ) true religi\s feel+4 ,my head _h *ang$ fa/] ?an my he>t4 ,& ,i /ill took delight 9 read+ a numb] ( my old religi\s books4 ,& ,i _h no disposition to indulge myself 9 worldly amusem5ts4 ,i c\ld n be induc$ to g to a !atre1 or ev5 to a conc]t4 ,i w\ld n play at draughts or *ess4 ,i hat$ c>ds4 ,& all ?is "t ,i held myself prep>$ to def5d1 9 public discussion1 :at ,i consid]$ to be ! sub/ance ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,an arrangem5t 0 actually made = a public debate on ,*ri/ianity ab\t ?is "t1 betwe5 me & ,mr4 ,holyoake4 ,x 0 to take place at ,halifax1 & ,i att5d$ at ! "t1 & /at$ my views 9 two lectures2 b ,mr4 ,holyoake did n att5d4 ,he 0 prev5t$ f do+ s by illness1 x 0 said4 ,"s ( ! publications :i* ,i issu$ ab\t ?is "t1 9 reply to "o s5t =? by ! ,rev4 ,w4 ,cooke1 l$ to a public discussion betwe5 me & t g5tleman1 9 ! ,lecture-room1 ,newca/le-on-,tyne4 ,mr4 ,cooke 0 a m9i/]--! able/ m9i/]--9 ! ,body to :i* ,i myself _h =m]ly belong$4 ,! li/ ( subjects = debate includ$ ! foll[+3--,:at is a ,*ri/ian8 ,:at is ! ,scripture doctr9e ) reg>d to ! ,atonem5t8 ,:at is ,sav+ ,fai?8 ,:at d ! ,scriptures tea* ) reg>d to ,orig9al ,s91 or ,natural ,depravity1 ,! ,tr9ity1 ,! ,div9ity ( ,*ri/1 ,! ,hir$ ,m9i/ry1 & ,future ,puni%m5t8 ,! discussion la/$ t5 nights1 & e night ! room 0 cr[d$ to its utmo/ capacity4 ,! excitem5t 0 int5se4 ,& x p]vad$ ! :ole c\ntry4 ,!re 7 p]sons pres5t f places ne>ly two hundr$ miles di/ant4 ,hugh ,mill]1 ! ,scot* geologi/1 0 !re "o night4 ,z usual1 bo? p>ties consid]$ !mselves victori\s4 ,& bo? 7 "r4 ,nei!r ! tru? nor ! error 0 all on "o side2 nor 0 ! argum5t4 ,*ri/ianity 0 some?+ diff]5t f ! cre$ ( ei!r p>ty1 & some?+ m & bett]4 ,x 0 m & bett] ?an ! cre$s ( bo? p>ties put toge!r4 ,my oppon5t1 ?\gh some?+ ( a ,*ri/ian1 0 m ( a !ologian4 ,he 0 committ$ to a sy/em1 & c\ld n see beyond x1 or d>$ n accept any views at v>iance ) its doctr9es4 ,h5ce he w5t 9 direct opposition to ! pla9e/ tea*+s ( ! ,scriptures1 & ! cle>e/ dictates ( common s5se4 ,he f\nd x necess>y also1 to sp5d a portion ( 8 "t 9 fooli% criticisms on ,greek & ,hebrew words1 & 9 ef=ts to make ! worse appe> ! bett] reason4 ,z = myself1 ,i 0 committ$ to *ange4 ,i 0 travell+ d[nw>ds at ! "t1 at a r rapid rate1 & 0 n to be turn$ back1 or ev5 made to slack5 my pace4 ,! ord9>y k9d ( !ological vanities ,i reg>d$ ) ! utmo/ contempt1 & ,i _h come to look on "s portions ev5 ( ,*ri/'s own tea*+s z no?+ m ?an d\btful human op9ions4 ,i held to ! great f\ndation tru?s ( religion1 & to ! g5]al pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ian tru? & duty1 &1 ,i w n say1 def5d$ !m1 = !y ne$$ no def5ce beyond _! own manife/ reasonabl5ess & excell5ce1--b /at$ !m bo? ) suffici5t cle>ness & fulness4 ,b nei!r p>ty 0 9 a /ate ( m9d to le>n f ! o!r4 ,w>1 :e!r x be a w> ( words1 or a w> ( deadli] weapons1 t5ds g5]ally to wid5 ! diff]5ces & increase ! antipa?ies ( ! combatants4 ,& s x 0 "h4 ,& "o p>ty c]ta9ly w5t fur!r & travell$ fa/] 9 ! way ( error aft] ?is excit+ conte/ ?an he _h done be=e4 ,& great] extremes produc$ m bitt]ness ( feel+ 9 my oppon5ts4 ,"o man wi%$ me dead1 & said to a ne> relation ( m9e1 ,if !re 0 a rope r\nd 8 neck1 & ,i _h hold ( x1 ,i w\ld hang him myself4 ,& ?is 0 a man rem>kable1 9 g5]al1 = 8 meekness & g5tl5ess4 ,ano!r said he %\ld l to /ick me3 b he 0 a but*]4 ,ano!r p]son1 a woman1 said1 ,hang+ w\ld be too good = him3 hell is n bad en\gh = him4 ,!re 0 "o ev5 among my relations t w\ld n speak to me2 a relation t be=e _h reg>d$ me ) pride4 ,at "s places :]e ,i 0 ann\nc$ to lecture1 m5 organiz$ & plott$ to d me bodily injury1 & 9 "s cases !y ?reat5$ me ) dea?4 ,on m ?an "o occasion ,i _h n>r[ escapes ) my life4 ,once ,i 0 /ruck on ! head ) a brick1 :i* almo/ took away my consci\sness1 & came ne> putt+ an end to my life4 ,on ano!r occasion ,i 0 hunt$ by a furi\s mob = h\rs1 & _h repeat$ hair-bread? escapes f _! viol5ce4 ,"o man advocat$ my assass9ation 9 a newspap]1 & ! editor ins]t$ ! article1 & quietly gave x 8 sanction4 ,all ?is 0 natural1 b x 0 n ,*ri/ian1 nor 0 x wise4 ,! wra? ( man worke? n ! righte\sness ( ,god4 ,h>d bricks h no t5d5cy to s(t5 a man's he>t4 ,^! attempts to =ce me into submission made me m rebelli\s4 ,!y r\s$ my indignation to ! highe/ pit*1 & fe>fully increas$ my hatr$ ( ! *ur*es & _! cre$s1 & made me feel z if ,i ought to wage aga9/ my p]secutors an unsp>+ & et]nal w>4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,,! ,,bible ,,"q4 ,,inspiration1 ,,infallibility4 ,,hi/ory ,,( ,,my ,,views ,,on ,,! ,,subject4 ,a ,,pray]4 ,help me1 ,o ,?\ ,great ,good ,fa!r ( my _s1 9 ! "w on :i* ,i am n[ ab\t to ent]4 ,enable me1 on ! great & solemn subject on :i* ,i am n[ to speak1 to sep>ate ! true f ! false1 ! d\btful f ! c]ta91 ! important f ! unimportant4 ,& may ,i be enabl$ to make all pla94 ,& save me1 ,o my ,fa!r1 f go+ too f>4 ,let me n run to any extreme4 ,yet enable me to g f> en\gh4 ,may ,i n1 ?r\gh ne$less fe>1 or ?r\gh any evil motive1 be kept f speak+ any?+ t ought to be said4 ,i am ,?9e1 ,o my ,god2 use me accord+ to ,?y w1 = ! s]vice ( ,?y ,*ur*1 & = ! welf>e ( ! _w4 ,i am e mom5t acc\ntable to ,!e2 help me s to speak t ,i may be at peace ) my own s\l1 & h a sweet assurance ( ,?y approbation4 ,fill my s\l1 ,o my ,fa!r1 ) ! _s ( love1 ( tru?1 ( t5d]ness1 & ( all goodness4 ,guide ,?\ my p51 & control my _s4 ,grant t ,i may s write1 t ,i may d "s good & no h>m4 ,may ,?y p endeavor to d ju/ice to :at ,i say4 ,if any "o1 ?r\gh error or evil disposition1 %\ld d me wrong1 help me to be> ! trial ) ,*ri/ian meekness & pati5ce4 ,& may ! "t at l5g? come1 :5 ! religion ( ,*ri/1 s full ( tru? & love1 %all be und]/ood & embrac$ by all mank9d1 & :5 by its bless$ & trans=m+ p[] ! e>? %all become ! abode ( purity1 & love1 & bliss4 ,,am54 99 99 99 99 99 ,x may n be amiss to /ate n[1 h[ f> ,i _h gone at ?is "t1 ) reg>d to my views on ! ,bible4 #a4 ,i rememb] a "t1 :5 ,i believ$ t ! ,bible 9 :i* my fa!r read1 came d[n direct f ,god out ( heav51 j z x 04 ,i look$ on x z simply & purely div9e4 #b4 ,i aft]w>ds le>nt t ! ,bible 0 pr9t$ on e>?1 & t x 0 a translation f o!r books :i* _h be5 writt5 9 ,greek & ,hebrew4 #c4 ,b ,i /ill suppos$ t ! ,greek & ,hebrew ,bible 0 :olly div9e1 & t ! translation 0 z p]fect z ! orig9al4 #d4 ,i next le>n$ t ! translation 0 n p]fect1--t ! translators 7 sometimes 9 d\bt z to ! mean+ ( ! orig9al1 & put "o mean+ 9 ! body ( ! page1 & ano!r 9 ! m>g91--t 9 o!r cases !y _h misund]/ood ! orig9al1 & giv5 errone\s translations4 ,i sometimes he>d prea*]s correct+ ! translation ( passages1 & :5 ,i came to read comm5t>ies & o!r !ological works1 ,i f\nd ! au?ors do+ ! same ?+4 #e4 ,i !n f\nd t !re 7 sev]al translations ( ! ,scriptures1 "o by ,wesley1 "o by ,campbell1 & o!rs by o!r m51 & t !y all diff]$ f ea* o!r1 & t none ( !m c\ld be reg>d$ z :olly correct4 ,:5 ,i read ! ,notes ( ,adam ,cl>ke on ! ,bible1 ,i f\nd t he (t5 diff]$ f all ! translators1 & t 9 "s cases he diff]$ f !m v widely4 #f4 ,i /ill suppos$ t ! orig9als 7 p]fect2 t 9 !m we _h ! words ( ,god j z !y came f ,8 own m9d4 #g4 ,b ,i aft]w>ds f\nd t !re 7 sev]al orig9als1--or at lea/ sev]al ,greek & ,hebrew ,bibles1--& t !y also diff]$ f ea* o!r to "s ext5t1 & t none ( !m c\ld be said to be entirely free f error4 #h4 ,i le>nt f ,adam ,cl>ke & o!rs t ! pr9t$ ,greek & ,hebrew ,bibles _h be5 compil$ f manuscripts1--or f ,bibles1 or portions ( ! ,bible1 writt5 by ! h&1 be=e ! art ( pr9t+ 0 kn[n4 #i4 ,i also f\nd t ^? manuscripts diff]$ f ea* o!r1 9 a great _m places1 & t 9 "s cases !y diff]$ on po9ts suppos$ to be ( consid]able importance1 & t x 0 impossible to tell :i* ( ! manuscripts 7 mo/ correct4 #aj4 ,i also le>nt1 t all exi/+ manuscripts 7 copies ( o!r manuscripts1 & t ! real orig9al books1 ! books writt5 by ,moses & ! ,prophets1 & by ! ,evangeli/s & ,apo/les1 7 all lo/1 s t x 0 impossible to tell1 ) absolute c]ta9ty1 :e!r any ( ! manuscripts 7 absolutely correct1--t :5 ! be/ & able/ m5 on e>? _h done _! utmo/1 !re w\ld /ill be room = d\bt z to ! true read+1 z well z to ! correct mean+1 ( v>i\s portions ( ,scripture4 #aa4 ,i next le>n$ t !re 7 diff]5ces ( op9ion among critics & div9es z to :e!r c]ta9 books ought to h a place 9 ! ,bible or n4 ,9 my fa!r's ,bible !re 7 sev]al books call$ ! ,apocrypha4 ,"s ( ^! 7 v int]e/+4 ,i us$ to read !m ) a great deal ( pleasure4 ,& l>ge portions ( o!rs1 especially ^? call$ ,! ,wisdom ( ,solomon1 & ,ecclesia/icus1 seem$ z good1 z true1 & z beautiful z any?+ 9 ! ,book ( ,prov]bs4 ,my p>5ts h[ev] told me1 t ^? books 7 n to be put on a level ) ! o!r books ( ! ,bible1--t !re 0 "s my/]y ab\t _! orig91 & t !re 0 "s d\bt :e!r !y 7 really a "p ( ! ^w ( ,god4 #ab4 ,i aft]w>ds le>nt ?\gh1 t !y 7 reg>d$ z "p ( ,god's ^w by ! ,ca?olics1 & ,i cont9u$ to read l>ge portions ( !m ) mu* satisfaction & pr(it4 #ac4 ,i also le>nt f ,adam ,cl>ke & o!rs1 t !re _h be5 d\bts 9 ! m9ds ( "s ( ! anci5t ,*ri/ians ) reg>d to ! "r ( "s ( ! ,epi/les & ( ! ,book ( ,revelation to be admitt$ z p>ts ( ! ,bible4 ,& ,i aft]w>ds f\nd t ! ,book ( ,revelation 0 exclud$ f ! ,bible by ! ,greek ,*ur*1 & by ,lu!r z well3--& t ,lu!r _h b little reg>d = ! ,epi/le ( ,james1 "o ( ! f9e/ portions ( ! :ole ,bible z ,i ?\ght4 #ad4 ,i fur!r le>nt t "s _h d\bts z to ! "r ( ,solomon's ,song to a place 9 ! ,bible1 & ,i f\nd t ev5 ,adam ,cl>ke did n believe t x _h any spiritual mean+4 ,all ^! 7 facts2 & ,i le>n$ !m all f ,*ri/ian au?ors ( ! highe/ repute = le>n+ & piety4 ,& s long z ?+s w5t on smoo?ly1 !y _h n1 s f> z ,i c rememb]1 any injuri\s effect on my m9d4 ,b :51 aft] hav+ be5 h>ass$ = ye>s by ! intol]ance ( my bre?r51 ,i 0 expell$ f ! m9i/ry & ! *ur*1 & f9ally plac$ 9 a ho/ile position ) reg>d to ! great body ( ,*ri/ians & ,*ri/ian m9i/]s1 ,i began to see1 t ^? facts 7 incompatible ) ! views & !ories ( ! div9e inspiration & absolute p]fection ( ! ,bible held by my oppon5ts4 ,i came v sl[ly to see ?is1 & aft] ,i saw x ,i 0 sl[ to speak on ! subject 9 my publications2 b ! "t to see & to speak arriv$ at l5g?4 ,"o ( my ,new ,connection oppon5ts1 by repeat$ *>ges ( infidelity1 & by /atem5ts ab\t ! ,scriptures :i* ,i knew he c\ld n ma9ta91 got me into controv]sy on ! subject4 ,!n ,i utt]$ all t 0 9 my m9d4 ,i %[$ t _m ( ! ?+s :i* he _h said ab\t ! ,bible 7 n true1--t !y 7 inconsi/5t ) pla9 unque/ionable facts1--) facts ackn[l$g$ by all ! div9es on e>? ( any consequ5ce1 & kn[n ev5 to himself & 8 bre?r54 ,:ile engag$ 9 ?is controv]sy ,i made discov]ies ( o!r facts inconsi/5t ) ! views ( my p]secutors1 & press$ !m ^u my oppon5t )\t m]cy4 ,& ! viol5t & res5tful feel+ excit$ by 8 unfairness1 di%one/y & malignity 9 def5d+ ! ,bible1 l$ me probably to be less conc]n$ = its claims ?an ,i o!rwise %\ld h be54 ,suffice x to say1 ,i came out ( ! debate ) my savage oppon5t1 n a disbeliev] 9 ! ,bible or ,*ri/ianity1 b ) views f>!r remov$ f ^? :i* he cont5d$ =1 & ) feel+s mu* less ho/ile to het]odox extremes p]haps ?an ^? ) :i* ,i ent]$ x4 ,among ! views ,i 0 l$ to ent]ta9 & promulgate ) reg>d to ! ,bible ab\t ?is "t1 7 ! foll[+4 #a4 ,we h no pro( t ! diff]5t portions ( ! ,bible 7 absolutely p]fect z !y came f ! h&s ( ! writ]s4 ,! probability is on ! o!r side4 ,= if an absolutely p]fect book _h be5 necess>y = man1 x w\ld h be5 z necess>y to keep x p]fect1 z to make x p]fect4 ,& z ,god has n se5 fit to keep x p]fect1 we h no reason to suppose t ,he made x s4 #b4 ,b 9 tru?1 to write an absolutely p]fect book 9 an imp]fect language1 is impossible4 ,& all human languages are imp]fect4 ,! ,hebrew language1 9 :i* ! great] "p ( ! ,bible 0 writt51 is v imp]fect4 ,& x seems to h be5 mu* m imp]fect 9 ^? times :5 ! ,bible 0 writt51 ?an x is n[4 ,& ! ,greek language1 9 :i* ! rema9d] ( ! ,bible 0 writt51 0 imp]fect4 ,& ! ,greek us$ 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t is n ! be/ ,greek2--x is n ! ,greek ( ! ,classics4 #c4 ,& bo? ,greek & ,hebrew n[ are dead languages1 & h be5 s = _m ages4 ,?is r5d]s !m m imp]fect 9 "s respects3 x makes x h>d] 9 _m cases to asc]ta9 ! s5se 9 :i* words1 & p>ticul> =ms ( expression1 are us$ by ! writ]s4 ,) reg>d to ! ,hebrew1 we h no o!r books 9 t language1 writt5 9 ^? e>ly ages :5 ! diff]5t p>ts ( ! ,bible 7 writt51 to assi/ u 9 asc]ta9+ ! s5se 9 :i* words 7 us$4 #d4 ,! writ]s ( ,scripture diff] v mu* f "o ano!r bo? 9 /yle & matt]1 & _! works diff] greatly 9 wor? & usefulness4 ,ezekiel is mu* m obscure ?an ,j]emiah2 & ,j]emiah is less pla9 ?an ,isaiah4 ,_m ( ! figures1 & "s ( ! visions ( ,ezekiel1 seem co>se1 & "s ( !m appe> un9telligible4 ,& ! matt] ( _m p>ts ( ,ezekiel's prophecies seems inf]ior to t ( ! prophecies ( ,j]emiah & ,isaiah4 ,"s portions ( ,ezekiel are v valuable2 !y are good & useful to ! la/ degree4 ,b o!r portions1 :atev] value !y might h = p]sons ( =m] times & o!r l&s1 h none1 t ,i c see1 = u4 #e4 ,"s portions ( ,j]emiah1 & ev5 ( ,isaiah1 appe> to h little t is calculat$ to be ( use 9 ! pres5t day4 ,inde$ "s portions seem un9telligible4 ,b _m portions ( ! writ+s ( bo? ^? prophets ab\nd 9 ! mo/ t\*+1 />tl+1 & useful lessons4 #f4 ,& s ) ,daniel & ! m9or prophets4 ,! d>kness & ! light1 & ?+s m useful & ?+s less useful1 are m+l$ 9 !m all4 #g4 ,x is ! same ) ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,"s portions ( ,paul's writ+s are z pla9 z !y well c be2 o!rs are v obscure1 p]haps q un9telligible4 ,"s passages 9 ! controv]sial portions ( 8 ,epi/les to ! ,romans & ! ,galatians1 & consid]able p>ts ( ! ,epi/le to ! ,hebrews1 are d>k z night to _m2 & ,i fe> t ^? :o ?9k !y und]/& !m1 are "u a delusion4 ,& z portions ( ^! ,epi/les 7 wre/$ by ! unle>n$ & unconfirm$ 9 ,pet]'s "t1 s h !y be5 mi/ak5 = lessons 9 moral laxity s9ce4 ,& /ill !y are us$ by _m z props = immoral & blasphem\s doctr9es4 #h4 ,& :at %all we say ( ! ,book ( ,revelation8 ,adam ,cl>ke ?\ght he und]/ood x z well z any "o1 yet ackn[l$g$ t he did n und]/& x at all4 ,& ?\gh !re are sev]al passages t are bo? pla9 & practical1 & _m t are mo/ wondr\sly & sublimely poetical1 & "s few t are ri* bo? 9 tru? & t5d]ness1 yet1 z a :ole1 ! ,book is exce$+ly1 if n imp5etrably1 d>k4 #i4 ,"s portions ( ! ,old ,te/am5t hi/ory are giv5 twice ov]1 z 9 ! ,books ( ,k+s & ,*ronicles1 & ! two acc\nts1 9 "s cases1 seem to be irreconcilable ) ea* o!r4 ,! numb]s (t5 diff]1 & "s ( !m seem altoge!r too l>ge4 ,! acc\nts agree well en\gh1 & ! /atem5ts are cr$ible en\gh1 z a rule1 on matt]s ( great importance2 b on small] matt]s !re are _m pla9 discrepancies4 ,"s o!r portions ( ! ,bible1 includ+ two or ?ree ( ! ,psalms1 are giv5 twice ov]4 #aj4 ,!n :o t reads ! ,prov]bs att5tively c help see+1 t "s ( !m are mu* pla9]1 & calculat$ to be mu* m useful1 ?an o!rs4 ,_m ( !m are ri* 9 wisdom & goodness beyond measure2 b o!rs appe> to h nei!r mu* ( beauty1 nor mu* ( utility4 #aa4 ,& ! ,psalms are n all ( equal excell5ce4 ,"s conta9 t]rible outp\r+s ( hatr$ & v5geance4 ,_m conta9 fi]ce & res5tful expressions4 ,& ?\gh ^! ?+s 7 excusable 9 e>ly times1 & 71 9 fact1 n wick$1 b only a l[] =m ( virtue1 we _c b feel _! great inf]iority to ! tea*+s & _s ( ,jesus4 ,b tak5 z a :ole1 ! ,psalms are miracles ( beauty & sublimity1 ( t5d]ness & maje/y1 ( purity & piety1 ( wisdom & righte\sness4 ,!y are a heav5 ( bright con/ellations2 a _w ( glory & bless$ness4 #ab4 ,! ,book ( ,job too is a mixture1 & to "s ext5t a my/]y1 b x w\ld be a great loss to ! _w if x 7 to p]i%4 ,! tw5ty-n9? & ?irty-fir/ *apt]s are wor? ! :ole lit]ature ( infidel philosophy a hundr$ times ov]4 ,& _m o!r portions ( ! book are 'gems ( pure/ ray s]5e1' & treasures ( incalculable value4 #ac4 ,& ev5 ! ,book ( ,ecclesia/es1 :ile x conta9s _m ?+s ( a /range1 a d>k1 & a d\btful "*1 has _m oracles ( wisdom & piety4 ,x conta9s lessons ( wond]ful beauty1 & ( great solemnity & p[]4 #ad4 ,!re is a va/ am\nt ( wisdom & goodness 9 ! laws ( ,moses4 ,i say no?+ ( ! laws t are m]ely c]emonial3 b !re are lessons ( great importance mix$ up ev5 ) !m at times4 ,take ^? ab\t ! ,naz>ites4 ,mo/ ( !m are beautiful1 excell5t2 & well w\ld x be if p ev5 9 our days w\ld accept !m z rules = _! own conduct4 ,!n take ! laws :i* =bid ! use ( w9e & /rong dr9k to ! m9i/]+ prie/s4 ,!y are wond]fully wise4 ,& ev5 ! laws ab\t ! diff]5t k9ds ( bea/s1 & birds1 & fi%es1 t 7 all[$ or =bidd5 z food1 are1 on ! :ole1 rem>kably philosophical4 ,consid]+ ! "t :5 !y 7 giv51 & ! p = :om !y 7 int5d$1 & ! ends = :i* !y 7 design$1 ! laws ( ,moses g5]ally1 are wor?y ( ! highe/ praise4 #ae4 ,b ,judaism is n ,*ri/ianity4 ,t :i* 0 ! be/ = ! ,jews ?ree ?\s& ye>s ago1 0 n ! be/ = all mank9d ?r\gh all ! ages ( "t4 ,comp>$ ) ! religions & laws ( surr\nd+ nations1 & ( prec$+ ages1 ,judaism 0 glori\s1--b comp>$ ) ,*ri/ianity x is no long] glori\s4 ,judaism comp>$ ) ,paganism1 0 a wond] ( wisdom1 philosophy1 & righte\sness2 b comp>$ ) ,*ri/ianity x is a mass ( rudim5ts1 fir/ lessons1 begg>ly elem5ts4 ,h5ce sev]al ?+s conta9$ 9 ! law ( ,moses are repeal$ or =bidd5 by ,*ri/2 /ill m are quietly dropp$ & left beh9d2 :ile o!r portions are develop$1 exp&$1 & exalt$4 ,all ^! ?+s1 & a multitude ( o!r ?+s1 h to be tak5 into acc\nt1 if we w\ld =m a correct & prop] e/imate ( ! ,bible4 ,all ^!1 & q a multitude ( o!r matt]s1 %\ld be borne 9 m9d :5 we are consid]+ 9 :at t]ms to speak ( ! ,book1 & 9 :at way to qualify our comm5dations ( its cont5ts4 ,i d n believe x possible to praise ! ,bible too highly2 b no?+ is easi] ?an to praise x unwisely1 untruly4 ,y _c love or prize ! ,bible too mu*2 b y may err z to :at con/itutes its wor?4 ,y _c ov]-e/imate its b5efic5t p[]2 b y may make mi/akes z to ! p>ts or prop]ties ( ! book 9 :i* its /r5g? lies4 ,a *ild c h>dly value gold or silv] too highly1 b he makes a great mi/ake :5 he fancies _! great excell5cy to consi/ 9 ! brightness ( _! colors4 ,& s ) reg>d to ! ,bible4 ,its be/ fri5ds & its able/ eulogi/s c nev] ?9k or speak ( x beyond its real wor?2 b !y may fancy its wor? to consi/ 9 qualities ( second>y importance1 or 9 a k9d or =m ( p]fection :i* x does n possess4 ,! enemies ( ! ,bible (t5 speak evil ( x ignorantly1 f ! m]e =ce ( bad example1 z p>rots curse3 & ! fri5ds ( ! ,bible (t5 speak well ( x ignorantly1 z p>rots pray4 ,!y "k1 !y feel1 !y are sure1 t ! ,bible is good1--t x does !m good1--t x purifies _! s\ls1--t x improves _! *>act]s1--t x makes !m *e]ful1 joyful1 useful1 happy4 ,yet all ! "t !y fancy1 because !y h be5 errone\sly taught1 t ! bless$ volume owes its com=t+1 trans=m+1 & glori\s p[] to "s metaphysical nicety1 or to "s unreal or impossible k9d ( p]fection4 ,:5 ,*ri/ians attribute ! sanctify+1 elevat+1 com=t+ p[] ( ! ,bible to ! fact t x is div9ely inspir$1 !y are "r4 ,b _m d n /op !re4 ,!y suppose t div9e inspiration has giv5 ! ,book c]ta9 grammatical1 rhetorical1 logical1 hi/orical1 sci5tific & metaphysical qualities :i* x has n giv5 x1 & !y ev5 attribute its sup]ior wor? & sav+ p[] to ^? imag9>y qualities4 ,x 0 aga9/ ! mi/akes & mis-/atem5ts ( my oppon5ts t ,i fir/ wrote1 & x 0 _! ignorance1 or _! want ( hone/y & c&or1 t gave me at times ! advantage ov] !m 9 our debates on ! subject4 ,x 0 = want ( see+ ?+s 9 _! prop] light1 & putt+ !m 9 _! prop] %ape be=e _! he>]s & read]s1 t made _! ef=ts to keep p f d\bt & unbelief unavail+4 ,!y1 9 tru?1 made unbelief or infidelity to consi/ 9 some?+ 9 :i* x did n consi/1 & made p ?9k !y 7 infidels :5 !y 7 no su* ?+4 ,if !y _h giv5 up all t 0 errone\s ) reg>d to ! ,bible1 & und]tak5 ! def5ce ( no?+ b :at 0 true1 !y might bo? h conv9c$ ! hone/ skeptic1 & /r5g!n$ ! fai? ( ,*ri/ians4 ,b !y und]took to def5d ! false1 & to assail ! true1 & ! consequ5ce 01 !y 7 beat51 & ! cause :i* !y s\ght to s]ve 0 injur$4 ,john ,wesley says1 t ! way to drive ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/ian p]fection1 or 'true hol9ess1' out ( ! _w1 is to place x too high1--to make x consi/ 9 some?+ t is beyond man's p[]4 ,& ! way to drive ! doctr9e ( ! div9e inspiration ( ! ,scriptures out ( ! _w1 is to give ! doctr9e a =m :i* ! ,scriptures !mselves d n give x1--to *ange x f a tru? into an error1--to tea* t div9e inspiration produces effects :i* x does n produce1--t x imp>ts qualities :i* x does n imp>t1 & :i* ! ,scriptures !mselves d n exhibit4 ,& ?is is :at _m def5d]s ( ! ,bible d4 ,& ?is is "o great cause bo? ( ! increase ( infidelity1 & ( ! confid5ce ( its disciples4 ,x is impossible to prove ! doctr9e ( ! div9e inspiration ( ! ,bible1 z t doctr9e is def9$ by _m religi\s writ]s4 ,x is n true4 ,& ^? :o attempt to prove t ! ,bible is su* a book1 z ^! false !ological !ories ( div9e inspiration w\ld require x to be1 mu/ always be beat51 9 a fair fight1 ) an able & well-in=m$ infidel oppon5t4 ,! man :o cont5ds t ! ,bible is all t c]ta9 old !ories ( inspiration require x to be1 fights aga9/ pla9 facts1 & ev5 8 fri5ds w (t5 see & feel t he has n succe$$4 ,he may say a _m f9e ?+s1 a _m good ?+s1 a _m great ?+s1 a _m glori\s ?+s ab\t ! ,bible1 & !y may all be true3 & he may say a _m bad ?+s1 a _m horrible ?+s aga9/ infidelity1 & !y too may be true4 ,& 8 fri5ds may see & feel t1 on ! :ole1 he is sub/antially "r1 & t ! infidel is ess5tially wrong4 ,!y may see & feel t on ! ,*ri/ian side is all t is good1 & true1 & holy2 & t on ! infidel side is a _w ( d>kness & depravity1 ( horror & despair4 ,/ill1 on ! "o def9ite po9t1 ',is ! ,bible div9ely inspir$ accord+ to ! !ory ( div9e inspiration laid d[n by c]ta9 !ologians1' ! ,*ri/ian w be beat5 out & out1--he w n only be confut$1 b conf\nd$1 di%onor$1 & utt]ly r\t$4 ,! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity w receive an undes]v$ w\nd1 & infidelity w h an undes]v$ triumph2 & _m a poor "y man ^: lean+s 7 t[>ds ! ,bible1 & :o w\ld h lik$ its advocate to triumph1 w be di%e>t5$1 di/ress$1 emb>rass$1 di/ract$1 & p]haps undone4 ,! true doctr9e ( ,scripture inspiration1 or ( ,scripture au?ority1 is ab\t z applicable to ! common v]sion1 & to hone/ ,*ri/ian translations g5]ally1 & to all ! manuscripts1 & to all ! pr9t$ ,greek & ,hebrew ,bibles1 z x w\ld be to ! lo/ orig9als if !y c\ld be recov]$4 ,!re is div9e inspiration en\gh 9 ! poore/ translation ( ! ,scriptures1 & 9 ! mo/ imp]fect ,greek & ,hebrew transcript ( !m ev] made1 to place ! ,bible above all ! books on e>?1 z a means ( enlight5+1 reg5]at+1 com=t+1 & sav+ mank9d4 ,b 9 none ( its =ms is ! ,bible s inspir$1 z to make x :at ! unau?oriz$1 fanciful1 impossible !ories ( c]ta9 dreamy1 or pr\d1 presumptu\s1 & ov]be>+ !ologians require x to be4 ,i h se5 tw5ty or ?irty def9itions ( ,scripture ,,inspiration all ( :i* betray ! ,bible into ! h&s ( its adv]s>ies4 ,& x is no use expect+ to conv]t skeptics1 till ^? def9itions are set aside1 & bett]1 tru] ones put 9 _! place4 ,we ourselves pay no reg>d to ^! def9itions4 ,!y are m]ely human fictions4 ,!y h no w>rant f ,scripture1 & we _c all[ ourselves to be hamp]$ ) !m4 ,! passage 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t :i* speaks ( ! ,holy ,scriptures ( ! ,old ,te/am5t z div9ely inspir$1 gives u no def9ition ( div9e inspiration4 ,x says1 ',all ,scripture giv5 by inspiration ( ,god is pr(itable = tea*+1 = repro(1 = correction1 = in/ruction 9 righte\sness1 t5d+ to make ! man ( ,god p]fect1 ?or\ghly furni%$ unto all good works3' b x goes no fur!r4 ,x does n say t all ,scripture giv5 by inspiration ( ,god w be writt5 9 a sup]human language1 or 9 a sup]human /yle4 ,nor does x say t all its allusions to natural ?+s w be p]fectly correct2 t all ! /ories :i* x tells w be told 9 a sup]human way4 ,nor does x say t all ! precepts1 & all ! in/itutions1 & all ! revelations1 & all ! examples ( ! ,book w be up to ! level ( absolute p]fection4 ,:at ! passage does say ( su* ,scriptures z are giv5 by inspiration ( ,god1 is true ( ! ,old ,te/am5t writ+s z a :ole1 & /ill tru] ( ! ,new ,te/am5t writ+s3 !y are pr(itable = doctr9e1 = repro(1 = correction1 & = in/ruction 9 righte\sness2 & !y are adapt$ to make m5 p]fect1 ?or\ghly furni%$ unto all good works4 ,all ?is y c prove4 ,b y _c prove t !y answ] to ! def9itions ( div9e inspiration s (t5 giv5 9 books ( !ology4 ,!re is ano!r passage 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t :i* says t ',:atsoev] ?+s 7 writt5 a=etime1 7 writt5 = our le>n+1 t we ?r\gh pati5ce & com=t ( ! ,scriptures might h hope4' ,?is too is true ( ! ,old ,te/am5t writ+s z a :ole2 b x gives no c\nt5ance to ! def9itions ( ,scripture inspiration giv5 by dreamy !ologians4 ,pet] says t 'holy m5 ( old spake z !y 7 mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s2' b he does n say t ev]y?+ spok5 or writt5 by holy m51 :5 mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 w\ld answ] to "s human dream ( absolute p]fection4 ,he does n say t ! holy m51 :5 mov$ to speak by ! ,holy ,_s1 w\ld cease to be m51 or ev5 be free f all ! imp]fections or misconceptions ( _! age & nation1 & speak z if !y _h become at once p]fect 9 ! k ( natural philosophy1 or ( common hi/ory1 or ev5 on e po9t p]ta9+ to religion4 ,!y might speak z mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 & yet utt] div9e oracles 9 an imp]fect human language1 & 9 a defective human /yle1 & ev5 use illu/rations bas$ on errone\s conceptions ( natural facts & hi/orical ev5ts4 ,a man mov$ to speak by ! ,holy ,_s w\ld n exhort p to be idle or he$less2 he w\ld urge !m to be indu/ri\s & prud5t3 b 9 en=c+ 8 exhortation to ^? virtues by a ref]5ce to ! ,,ant1 he might give pro( t 8 k ( ! ,,ant 0 n p]fect1--t 8 ideas ( its ways 7 n 9 e little po9t correct4 ,a man full ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & especially a man :o _h receiv$ ( its influ5ces )\t measure1 w\ld be sure to exhort m5 to be v wise & v h>mless2 b he might use a =m ( words 9 8 exhortation :i* _h orig9at$ 9 ! misconception t s]p5ts 7 wis] ?an any o!r animals1 & t doves 7 m h>mless ?an any o!r birds4 ,yet ! exhortation w\ld be good 9 sub/ance2 & ev5 ! =m1 be+ 9 accordance ) ! views prevail+ 9 8 times1 w\ld be unobjectionable2 & bo? w\ld be consi/5t ) ! fulle/ inspiration ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,a great1 good man1 speak+ "u div9e impulse1 urg+ 8 son 9 ! ,gospel to resi/ false & immoral tea*]s1 might say1 ',n[ z ,jannes & ,jambres )/ood ,moses1 s d ^! also resi/ ! tru?2 b _! folly %all be made manife/ unto all m51 z !irs also 04' ,:e!r ! m5 :o )/ood ,moses 7 really call$ ,jannes & ,jambres or n1 ,i d n "k4 ,! ,old ,te/am5t does n say !y 74 ,! probability is1 t ,paul re/$ 8 illu/ration on a ,jewi% tradition4 ,b z ! tradition 0 receiv$ z true by 8 p1 8 lesson 0 j z good z if x _h re/$ on "s unque/ionable fact /at$ 9 au!ntic hi/ory4 ,& s ) reg>d to illu/rations & incid5tal /atem5ts & allusions g5]ally4 ,?\gh !y may re/ on misconceptions1 ! moral lessons & spiritual revelations into ! s]vice ( :i* !y are press$1 may be ,god's own oracles1 & ! book 9 :i* !y appe> may1 z a :ole1 be giv5 by div9e inspiration1 & be pr(itable = tea*+1 = repro(1 = correction1 & = in/ruction 9 righte\sness1 & conducive to all ! great & desirable ends s de> to ,god4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z absolute p]fection ) reg>d to books4 ,!re is no au?oriz$ /&>d1 no te/1 no measure ( absolute p]fection = books2 & if !re 71 no man c\ld apply x4 ,( a ?\s& diff]5t books ea* may be p]fect 9 its way1 yet none ( !m be absolutely p]fect4 ,ea* may h "s great good end 9 view1 & be adapt$ to answ] t end2 & t is ! only p]fection ( :i* a book admits4 ,& x is p]fection en\gh4 ,& ?is p]fection ! ,bible has4 ,x has ! be/1 ! highe/1 ! mo/ glori\s objects 9 view1 & x is adapt$ to accompli% ^? objects2 & t is suffici5t4 ,!y t und]take to prove t x has any o!r p]fection1 w fail1 & bo? br+ discr$it on !mselves1 & suspicion on ! ,bible4 ,! ,bible may be m griev\sly wrong$ by unwise praise1 ?an by unju/ c5sure4 ,absolutely p]fect books & tea*]s are n necess>y to our in/ruction & welf>e4 ,we c le>n all we ne$ to "k1 & all we ne$ to d1 f books & tea*]s t are n p]fect4 ,we h no absolutely p]fect books on ,gramm>1 ,rhetoric1 or ,logic4 ,yet m5 le>n ^? sci5ces readily en\gh :5 !y /udy !m he>tily & dilig5tly4 ,we h no p]fect sy/ems ( ,ari?metic1 ,geometry1 or ,algebra2 ( ,geography1 ,a/ronomy1 or ,geology2 ( ,anatomy1 ,physiology1 or ,*emi/ry2 ( ,botany1 ,natural ,hi/ory1 or ,physical ,geography4 ,yet on all ^? subjects m5 ga!r an imm5se am\nt ( k1 make a multitude ( new discov]ies1 & arrive at a wond]ful degree ( c]ta9ty4 ,& s ) arts & trades4 ,we h no absolutely p]fect tea*]s or books 9 music1 or pa9t+1 or sculpture2 9 f>m+1 or manufactures1 or trade4 ,yet :at wond]ful pr(ici5ts m5 become 9 ^? arts6 ,we h no p]fect tea*]s ( languages3 yet any man ) a ta/e = ! /udy ( !m1 may le>n tw5ty or ?irty ( !m 9 a life-"t4 ,ev5 indiff]5t books & tea*]s w enable a man :o is b5t on le>n+1 to ma/] ! mo/ difficult language on e>?4 ,a man once ask$ me1 ',:i* is ! be/ ,engli% ,gramm>8' ,my answ] 01 ',! fir/ y come at4 ,a poor "o to-day is bett] ?an a good "o to-morr[4 ,beg9 y\r /udies at once ) ! gramm> y h2 & y w soon f9d out :i* is ! be/4' ,& s ,i say ) reg>d to books on o!r subjects4 ,make ! be/ use y c ( ! books y h1 & y w soon come across bett]4 ,& :5 y d come across !m1 y w be all ! bett] prep>$ to pr(it by !m1 ?an if y 7 to wa/e y\r "t 9 idl5ess till y c get hold ( ! be/ ( all4 ,besides2 ! book t is be/ = o!rs1 may n be ! be/ = y4 ,& if a man %\ld ask me1 ',:i* is ! be/ translation ( ! ,bible8' ,i w\ld say1 ',! fir/ y come at4 ,read any1 till y meet ) o!rs4 ,!n read _m1 &1 us+ y\r common s5se1 judge = y\rself :i* is be/4 ,t :i* does mo/ to make y a good1 a /rong1 a useful & a happy man is ! be/4' ,"s want books & tea*]s t w save !m ! tr\ble ( /udy4 ,& !re are none su*4 ,x w\ld be a pity if !re 74 ,!y w\ld d no good1 b h>m4 ,no?+ /r5g!ns & develops ! m9d l labor4 ,b if y _h ! be/ books possible !y w\ld n enable y to acquire mu* useful k1 )\t close /udy1 & vigor\s m5tal ef=t4 ,i le>n$ ,greek ) ! wor/ ,greek ,gramm> ,i ev] saw2 b :5 ,i _h le>n$ ! language tol]ably1 ,i f\nd "o ( ! be/ ,greek ,gramm>s 9 ! _w1 & w5t rapidly ?r\gh x1 & f\nd t x _h little to add to ! in=mation ,i _h ga9$ already f ! poor] "o4 ,& x is ! same ) reg>d to books on ,god1 religion1 & duty4 ,books ) numb]s ( defects1--) defects ( /yle1 defects ( arrangem5t1 & ev5 defects 9 matt]1 may tea* y _m useful lessons1 if y read & /udy !m prop]ly2 & ! be/ books on e>? w n tea* y mu* if y read !m c>elessly4 ,a great deal1 almo/ e ?+1 dep5ds on ! _s or ! object ) :i* a man reads a good book4 ,y may read ! be/ books to little pr(it1 & y may get great good f v inf]ior ones4 ,! ,bible is ! be/ religi\s & moral book on e>?2 x is1 9 its mo/ imp]fect translations1 able to make m5 wise1 & good1 & useful1 & happy to ! la/ degree1 if !y w read & /udy x prop]ly4 ,b !re is n a bett] book on e>? = mak+ a man a fool1 if he comes to x ) a va9 m9d1 a pr\d _s1 a fulness ( self-conceit1 or a wi% to be a prophet4 ,a desire to be a prat] ab\t ! mill5nium1 ! second com+ ( ,*ri/1 ! p]sonal reign1 ! ord]s ( angels1 ! ranks ( devils1 ! secrets ( ,god's c\nsels1 ! hidd5 mean+ ( ! badg]s' sk9s1 ! %ittim wood1 ! ,urim & ,?ummim1 ! ,*]ubim & ,s]aphim1 ! ,t]aphim & ,anakim1 & all ! imag9>y mean+s ( imag9>y types1 & ! place :]e ,p>adise 0 situat$1 & ! m\nta9 peak on :i* ! ,ark re/$1 & ,behemo?1 & ,levia?an1 & ! spot at :i* ! ,israelites ent]$ ! ,r$ ,sea1 & ! compass ( ,adam's k be=e he nam$ ! animals1 & ! fi]y sword at ! gate ( ,p>adise1 & ! controv]sial p>ts ( ,paul's epi/les1 & ! my/]ies ( ! ,book ( ,revelation1 & ! spiritual mean+ ( ,solomon's ,song1 & ! place :]e ,satan _h 8 meet+ ) ! sons ( ,god 9 ! days ( ,job1 & ! exact way 9 :i* ,job us$ ! pot%]d1 :5 he scrap$ himself z he sat among ! a%es1 c41 c41--,i say if ?is is :at a man desires1 ! ,bible w help him to 8 wi%1 & make him ! laugh+-/ock1 or ! pity ( all s5sible m54 ,& if he employs ! "o hundr$ & fifty rules ( ,h>twell ,horne = mis9t]pret+ ! pla9 portions ( ! ,bible1 & 8 "o hundr$ & =ty o!r rules = d>k5+ 8 m9d1 & conf\nd+ 8 s\l1 ! ,bible w ru9 him /ill quick]4 ,a bett] book = try+ a man1 & = rew>d+ 8 hone/y1 & piety1 & *>ity1 if he has ^? virtues1 & = mak+ !m ev] m2 or = puni%+ a man's vanity1 & pride1 & selfi%ness1 & p]v]sity1 if he be ! slave ( su* passions1 ,god c\ld h>dly h giv54 ,& to try & to bless m5 are ! two great objects ( all ,god's revelations4 ,my oppon5t 0 fond ( say+ t ! ,bible 0 an infallible guide4 ,! /atem5t 0 n true 9 any /rict & rigor\s s5se ( ! words4 ,& x 0 fooli% = him to make x 9 an eag] debate1 = he c\ld nev] prove x4 ,& he 0 n long 9 f9d+ ?is out4 ,a few pla9 que/ions set him q fa/4 ,! ,bible is an infallible guide1 y say4 ,we ask1 ,:i* ,bible8 ,! common v]sion8 ,no4 ,john ,wesley's v]sion8 ,no4 ,dr4 ,conque/'s8 ,no4 ,! ,unit>ian v]sion8 ,no4 ,any v]sion8 ,no4 ,is x "s p>ticul> ,greek or ,hebrew ,bible !n8 ,no4 ,is x ! manuscripts8 ,no4 ,b ^! are all ! ,bibles we h4 ,! ,bible is an infallible guide1 y say4 ,:at to8 ,uni=mity ( op9ion8 ,no4 ,uni=mity ( wor%ip8 ,no4 ,uni=mity ( life8 ,no4 ,uni=mity ( feel+1 ( affection1 ( ef=t8 ,no4 ,x does n ev5 require uni=mity 9 ^? matt]s4 ,x supposes div]sity4 ,x asks only = s9c]ity1 hone/y1 fidelity4 ,b x is an infallible guide to all tru? & duty1 y say4 ,has x guid$ y to all tru? & duty8 ,no4 ,:om has x guid$ to ^? bless$ results8 ,y _c say4 ,b x is an infallible guide to all t tru? :i* is necess>y to a man's salvation1 y say4 ,b !re is no p>ticul> am\nt ( tru? t is necess>y to a man's salvation4 ,! am\nt ( tru? necess>y to a man's salvation diff]s accord+ to 8 p[]s & privileges4 ,t :i* is necess>y to my salvation may n be necess>y to ! salvation ( a ,pagan4 ,x is s9c]ity 9 ! se>* ( tru?1 & fidelity 9 r$uc+ x to practice1 :i* is necess>y to a man's salvation1 & n ! acquisition ( "s p>ticul> quantity ( tru?4 ,! ,bible is an infallible guide4 ,to :om8 ,to ! ,ca?olics8 ,no4 ,to ! ,unit>ians8 ,no4 ,to ! ,quak]s8 ,no4 ,to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& p8 ,no4 ,to ,me?odi/s & ,calv9i/s8 ,no4 ,t ! ,bible is a tru/y guide en\gh1 ,i h no d\bt1 if we w fai?fully & pray]fully foll[ x2 b to talk z if x w\ld guide e "o infallibly to exactly ! same views1 or to ! fulness ( all tru?1 is n wise4 ,x is n w>rant$ ei!r by ! ,bible itself1 or by facts4 ,besides1 if a book is to guide a man infallibly1 x mu/ be made p]fectly pla92 x mu/ be infallibly int]pret$4 ,& :]e are ! infallible int]pret]s8 ,we "k ( none t ev5 pr(ess to be su* outside ! ,*ur* ( ,rome2 & none b !mselves & _! own ,*ur* memb]s believe _! pr(essions4 ,y d n believe !m4 ,z a rule1 ! claim ( infallibility is tak5 z a pro( t ! man :o makes x is n only fallible1 b some?+ worse4 ,b if we _h infallible int]pret]s1 !y w\ld n be able to keep u f error1 unless we _h infallible he>ts & infallible und]/&+s4 ,& we h no su* ?+s4 ,if we _h1 we %\ld nei!r ne$ infallible books nor infallible int]pret]s4 ,t ! ,bible is all t x ne$s to be1 & all t x ought to be1 ,i am satisfi$2 b t x is all t "s ( its zeal\s advocates say x is1 pla9 & unque/ionable facts make x impossible = any c&id1 unbiass$1 & well-in=m$ man to believe4 ,we h all an infallible guide )9 u1 if we be true ,*ri/ians4 ,= ! ,_s ( ,god dwells 9 ! he>ts ( all true disciples ( ,*ri/4 ,b ! infallible guide does n make u all infallible foll[]s4 ,! infallible tea*] does n make u all infallible le>n]s4 ,we are bless$ ) div9e inspiration1 b we are n conv]t$ into ma*9es4 ,inspiration does n make u absolutely p]fect ei!r 9 k or virtue1 /ill less does x make u p]fect all at once4 ,we %all le>n en\gh1 & we %all le>n fa/ en\gh1 if we are fai?ful2 b we %all nev] be p]fect or infallible 9 our k 9 ?is _w4 ,z ! subject ( ,bible inspiration is "o ( great importance1 & z x is at pres5t excit+ ! greate/ int]e/1 x may n be amiss "h to give a few quotations f writ]s :o h be5 l$ to see ! doctr9e 9 ! same light z ourselves4 ,i am unable to give ! names ( "s ( ! au?ors f ^: works ,i quote1 b !y are all connect$ ) "o or o!r ( ! great evangelical d5om9ations ( ! day4 ,! foll[+ is f ,,bases ,,( ,,belief1 by ,edw>d ,miall1 "o ( ! be/ books on ! tru? & div9ity ( ,*ri/ianity ,i h _h ! happ9ess to read4 ,mr4 ,miall is a ,congregational m9i/]1 editor ( ! ,noncon=mi/ ,newspap]1 & ,memb] ( ,p>liam5t4 ,z 8 rem>ks are l5g?y1 we are oblig$ to abridge !m 9 "s cases4 ',x is n ne$$1 9 ord] to %[ satisfactorily t !re is a div9e revelation 9 ! record1 to prove t ! record is itself div9e4 ,to disprove t revelation1 a man mu/ d some?+ m ?an po9t out m>ks ( imp]fection 9 ! ,book conta9+ x1 su* m>ks z w\ld n be expect$ 9 a book writt5 directly by ! h& ( ,god4 ,if x c\ld be demon/rat$ t ! p5m5 :o h giv5 u ! life ( ,*ri/1 7 indebt$ to no o!r aid ?an t suppli$ by ! good m5tal & moral qualifications :i* any o!rs might possess1 ! ma9 /r5g? ( ,*ri/ianity z a communication ( ,god's m9d & w1 w\ld rema9 unt\*$4 ',! discrepancies betwe5 ! /atem5ts ( ! f\r ,evangeli/s1--! indications ( individual or national peculi>ities1--! modes ( describ+ occurr5ces1 true because well und]/ood 9 ! locality ( ! speak]1 b n /rictly true 9 o!r places1--all matt]s :i* s]ve to %[ t ! same objects h be5 se5 by diff]5t p]sons1 b f diff]5t po9ts ( view1 are to be all[$ = z reconcilable ) a tru?fulness t may be implicitly reli$ ^u4 ,"o in=mant may h blund]$ 9 geography1 ano!r may h be5 mi/ak5 9 an hi/orical ref]5ce1 a ?ird may h misquot$ or misappli$ "s prophetical allusion1 & all may h giv5 ample pro( t !y 7 n free f ! influ5ce ( ! traditions g5]ally receiv$ 9 ! places to :i* !y belong$2 b unless ^! peculi>ities & infirmities %[ a want ( compet5cy z witnesses1 or a lack ( integrity1 !y may be dismiss$1 z hav+ no be>+ on ! ma9 po9t4 ',! "q :e!r ! ,gospel records are free f blemi%es f\nd to atta* to e o!r record1 has no?+ to d ) ! ma9 issue4 ,our !ories may require !m to be free f su* h>mless imp]fections2 b our reason makes no su* dem&4 ',! memoir ( a great man does n lose its use & virtue1 because writt5 by a biograph] op5 to "s c5sure3 nor c ! life ( ,*ri/ fail ( its transc5d5t purpose1 because ! writ]s 7 n 9 all ?+s infallible4 ',appe>ances ( h>mless human imp]fections 9 ! writ]s d n invalidate ! sacr$ records4 ,= in/ance1 if x %\ld be f\nd t ^? fai?ful witnesses h giv5 _! te/imony 9 exceptionable ,greek1--or t 9 "s matt]s1 n t\*+ _! ma9 object1 !y are n enlight5$ above ! common /&>d ( _! times & /ation1--or t !y h habits ( ?\ght1 or spee*1 or action1 :i*1 ?\gh p]fectly innoc5t 9 !mselves1 %[ t !y are n s f> advanc$ 9 sci5ce z "s1--if1 9 a ^w1 x %\ld appe> t ! hi/oric writ]s ( ! ,new ,te/am5t 7 really m5 ( ! age 9 :i* !y liv$1 & m5 ( ! c\ntry 9 :i* !y 7 born & educat$1 subject to ! !n limitations ( g5]al k1--m5 ( individual t5d5cies1 ta/es1 temp]am5ts1 passions1 & ev5 prejudices1--:]e9 is ! _w worse = ?is1 & 9 :at respect c\ld our reason h wi%$ x o!rwise8 ,we prote/1 we d n see4 ,on ! contr>y1 we feel x to be an advantage1 t ! div9e light emanat+ f ! life ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 %\ld rea* u ?r\gh an artless & ?or\ghly human m$ium4 ,x is no mis=tune1 9 our judgm5t1 b q ! opposite1 t 'we h ?is treasure 9 e>!n vessels4' ,su* traces on ! pages ( evangelic hi/ory z m>k ! writ]s = m51--hone/1 fai?ful1 compet5t1 b yet v]ily & inde$ m51--br+ _! n>rative mu* m closely home to our sympa?ies1 & set u ^u a m ard5t se>* = ! _s 9 its sev]al portions1 ?an if ! /ory _h be5 writt5 by ! faultless p5 ( "s sup]ior be+4' ,mr4 ,miall !n ref]s to ! errors & discrepancies 9 ! g5ealogies prefix$ to two ( ! lives ( ,*ri/1 & says1 ',!y are acc\nt$ =1 9 our view1 by ! humanity ( ! writ]s4 ,we are n b\nd to reg>d ! g5ealogies z infallibly accurate1 any m ?an we are b\nd to reg>d ! dialect ( ! writ]s z pure ,greek4 ,no ess5tial tru? is affect$ by ei!r1 & t is en\gh4' ,mr4 ,miall fur!r argues t intellectual infallibility 0 n necess>y1 & 0 n to be look$ =1 9 ,paul1 ! great exp\nd] ( ! ,gospel4 ,& he adds1 ',tak+ ! ,new ,te/am5t z a :ole1 we are n dispos$ to d5y1 t x be>s ^u ! face ( x1 _m indications t its sev]al writ]s 7 n entirely exempt f m5tal imp]fection1--b we cont5d t ! m5tal imp]fection :i* _! works exhibit1 is p]fectly compatible ) ! communication to m5 ( infallible k respect+ ,god1 ,8 moral relations to u1 ,8 purposes ) reg>d to u1 & ! religi\s duties :i* ^! ?+s en=ce on all :o w\ld atta9 et]nal life4 ,& if ?is be true1 ! record satisfies ! spiritual ne$ ( man 9 its fulle/ ext5t4' ,we h giv5 ,mr4 ,miall's views at great] l5g?1 because he occupies s high a position1 n only 9 "o ( ! l>ge/ religi\s d5om9ations 9 ,engl&1 b 9 ! c\ntry g5]ally1 & because we h nev] se5 any prote/ aga9/ 8 views f any writ] ( influ5ce1 9 any bran* ( ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/4 ,su* prote/s may h appe>$1 b we h nev] met ) any4 ,we may add1 t :ile ,mr4 ,miall gives up ! idea ( infallibility1 he holds t ! writ]s ( ! ,new ,te/am5t hi/ory 7 "u div9e guidance 9 compos+ _! sev]al memoirs ( ,*ri/4 ,mr4 ,miall's views on ! ,old ,te/am5t writ+s we may h occasion to notice fur!r on4 ,! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,p>k]1 au?or ( ,,ecce ,,deus1 has "s rem>ks ( a "* some:at simil> to ^? ( ,mr4 ,miall1 b we h n 8 works at h&4 ,our next quotation is f a lecture on ,,sci5ce ,,& ,,revelation1 by ! v rev]5d ,r4 ,payne ,smi?1 ,d4 ,d41 ,dean ( ,cant]bury4 ,! lecture 0 deliv]$ at ! reque/ ( ! ,*ri/ian ,evid5ce ,society1 ,london1 & is publi%$ by t society1 9 _! volume1 entitl$ ,,mod]n ,,skepticism4 ',revelation has no?+ to d ) our physical /ate4 ,reason is q suffici5t to tea* u all ^? sanit>y laws by :i* our bodies w be ma9ta9$ 9 heal?ful vigor4 ,:atev] we c atta9 by our m5tal p[]s1 we are to atta9 by !m4 ,physical & metaphysical sci5ce alike lie remote f ! object matt] ( revelation4 ,! ,bible nev] gives u any sci5tific k 9 a sci5tific way4 ,if x did1 x w\ld be leav+ its own prop] doma94 ,:5 x seems to give u any su* k1 z 9 ! fir/ *apt] ( ,g5esis1 :at x says has always ref]5ce to man4 ,! fir/ *apt] ( ,g5esis does n tell u h[ ! e>? 0 =m$ absolutely1 b h[ x 0 prep>$ & fitt$ = man4 ,look at ! "w ( ! f\r? day4 ,does any man suppose t ! />s 7 set 9 ! expanse ( heav5 absolutely t m5 might "k :at "t ( ! ye> x 08 ,!y did r5d] m5 ?is s]vice1 b ?is 0 n _! great use4 ,z ! ,bible speaks to all p1 at all times1 x mu/ use popul> language4' ,?is writ]1 l _m o!rs :5 !y approa* ?is subject1 speaks timidly1 & 9 consequ5ce some:at vaguely & obscurely2 b 8 mean+ is1 t we mu/ expect ! ,bible1 on sci5tific subjects1 to speak1 n accord+ to sci5ce1 b accord+ to ! prevail+ ideas ( _! times on sci5tific subjects2 & t we are to reg>d ! ,bible z our tea*]1 n on e subject to :i* x may allude1 or on :i* x may speak1 b only on matt]s ( religi\s tru? & duty4 ,! foll[+ is f ! ,rev4 ,h4 ,w4 ,bee*]4 ',mat!w says1 t ,jesus dwelt 9 ,naz>e?2 t x might be fulfill$ :i* 0 spok5 by ! prophets1 ,he %all be call$ a ,naz>5e4 ,no su* l9e has ev] be5 f\nd 9 ! prophets4 ',inf9ite +5uity ( le>n+ has be5 br\ght to be> ^u ?is difficulty1 )\t 9 ! slighte/ degree solv+ x4 ',:at w\ld happ5 if x %\ld be said t ,mat!w record$ ! curr5t impression ( 8 "t 9 attribut+ ?is decl>ation to ! ,old ,te/am5t ,prophets8 ,w\ld a m]e error ( ref]5ce invalidate ! tru/wor?9ess ( ! evangeli/8 ,we lean our :ole weight 9 o!r matt]s ^u m5 :o are fallible4 ,mu/ a record be totally infallible be=e x c be tru/$ at all8 ,navigators tru/ %ip1 c>go1 & ! lives ( all on bo>d1 to calculations bas$ on tables ( log>i?ms1 kn[+ t !re nev] 0 a set ( log>i?ms comput$1 )\t ma*9]y1 t _h n "s error 9 x4 ,! supposition1 t to admit t !re are immat]ial & incid5tal mi/akes 9 ,sacr$ ,writ w\ld break ! confid5ce ( m5 9 x1 is contradict$ by ! uni=m exp]i5ce ( life1 & by ! :ole proc$ure ( society4 ',on ! contr>y1 ! %ifts & +5uities to :i* critics are oblig$ to resort1 ei!r blunt ! s5se ( tru?1 or disgu/ m5 ) ! special plead+ ( critics1 & t5d p[]fully to g5]al unbelief4 ',! !ory ( inspiration mu/ be f\nd$ ^u ! gr\nds on :i* ! ,scriptures !mselves f\nd x4 ,all ,scripture is giv5 by inspiration ( ,god1 & is pr(itable = doctr9e1 = repro(1 = correction1 = in/ruction 9 righte\sness2 t ! man ( ,god may be p]fect1 ?or\ghly furni%$ unto all good works4 7#b ,tim4 #c3 #af1 #ag47 ',"u ?is decl>ation1 no m c be claim$ = ! doctr9e ( inspiration ?an t !re %all h be5 su* an influ5ce ex]t$ ^u ! =mation ( ! record1 t x %all be ! tru? respect+ ,god1 & no falsity2 t x %all s exp\nd ! duty ( man "u ,god's moral gov]nm5t1 z to secure1 9 all :o w1 a true hol9ess2 t x %all conta9 no errors :i* c affect ! ess5tial tru?s taught1 or :i* %all cl\d ! reason or sully ! moral s5se4 ',b x is n "r or prud5t to inf] f ! ,biblical /atem5t ( inspiration1 t x makes provision = ! v words & s5t5ces2 t x %all raise ! inspir$ p5m5 above ! possibility ( lit]>y inaccuracy1 or m9or or immat]ial mi/akes4 ,x is en\gh if ! ,bible be a sure & suffici5t guide to spiritual morality & rational piety4 ,to erect = x a claim to absolute lit]>y infallibility1 or to infallibility 9 ?+s n directly p]ta9+ to fai?1 is to weak5 its real au?ority1 & to turn x aside f its av[$ purpose4 ,! !ory ( v]bal inspiration br+s a /ra9 ^u ! ,^w ( ,god :i* x _c be>4 ,if rigor\sly press$1 x t5ds p[]fully to bigotry on ! "o side1 & to infallibility on ! o!r4 ',! inspiration ( holy m5 is to be con/ru$1 z we con/rue ! doctr9e ( an ov]-rul+ & special ,provid5ce2 ( ! div9e sup]vision & guidance ( ! *ur*2 ( ! fai?fulness ( ,god 9 answ]+ pray]4 ,! tru? ( ^! doctr9es is n inconsi/5t ) ! exi/5ce ( a ?\s& evils1 mis*iefs1 & mi/akes1 & ) ! occurr5ce ( w&]+s long & almo/ fatal4 ,yet ! g5]al sup]vision ( a ,div9e ,provid5ce is rational4 ,we might expect t !re w\ld be an analogy betwe5 ,god's c>e & education ( ! race1 & ,8 c>e ( ! ,bible 9 its =mation4 ',ar\nd ! c5tral c]ta9ty ( sav+ tru? are wrapp$ ! swaddl+-clo!s ( human language4 ,nei!r ! condition ( ! human und]/&+1 nor ! nature ( human spee*1 :i* is ! vehicle ( ?\ght1 admits ( m ?an a fragm5t>y & p>tial pres5tation ( tru?4 ,= we "k 9 "p1 & we prophesy 9 "p4 7#a ,cor4 xiii4 #i47 ,/ill less are we !n to expect t !re w be p]fection 9 ?is vehicle4 ,& incid5tal errors1 :i* d n rea* ! sub/ance ( tru? & duty1 :i* t\* only cont+5t & ext]nal elem5ts1 are n to be reg>d$ z inconsi/5t ) ! fact t ! ,scriptures 7 inspir$ ( ,god4 ,nor w our rev]5ce = ! ,scriptures be impair$ if1 9 su* cases1 x be frankly said1 ',!re is an insoluble difficulty4' ,su* a c\rse is f> less dang]\s to ! moral s5se ?an t p]nici\s +5uity :i*1 assum+ t !re c be no lit]al errors 9 ,scripture1 resorts to subtle arts ( criticism1 improbabilities ( /atem5t1 & viol5ce ( con/ruction1 su* z1 if made use ( 9 ! int]c\rse ( m5 9 daily life1 w\ld break up society & de/roy all fai? ( man 9 man4 ',we dwell at l5g? on ?is topic n[1 t we may n be oblig$ to recur to x :51 z w be ! case1 o!r in/ances arise 9 :i* !re is no solution ( unimportant1 ?\gh real1 lit]>y difficulties4 ',!re are a multitude ( m9ute1 & on ! :ole1 z respects ! sub/ance ( tru?1 n important que/ions & topics1 :i*1 l a fa/5$ door1 refuse to be op5$ by any key :i* le>n+ has br\ght to !m4 ,x is bett] to let !m /& clos$ ?an1 l impati5t ma/iffs1 aft] long b>k+ 9 va91 to lie :9+ at ! door1 unable to ent]1 & unwill+ to g away4 ,life ( ,jesus1 pp4 #gg-ha4 ,! ,rev4 ,g4 ,rawl9son1 9 an able lecture 9 def5ce ( ! ,bible1 publi%$ by ! ,,*ri/ian ,,evid5ce ,,society ( ,london1 ackn[l$ges t !re are matt]s ( unc]ta9ty 9 "s p>ts ( ! ,old ,te/am5t hi/ory1 & says1 ',! "t all[$ by ! common v]sion ( ! ,bible = all ! ev5ts :i* took place f ! days ( ,noah1 to ! bir? ( ,*ri/1 & = all ! *anges by :i* ! v>i\s races ( m5 7 =m$1 by :i* civilization & ! arts 7 develop$1 etc41 is less ?an #b1fjj ye>s4 ,n[ ?is is q insuffici5t4 ,h[ is ?is difficulty to be met8 ,we answ]2 a special unc]ta9ty atta*es to ! numb]s 9 ?is case4 ,!y are giv5 diff]5tly 9 ! diff]5t anci5t v]sions4 ,! ,sam>itan v]sion ext5ds ! "t #fej ye>s4 ,! ,septuag9t ext5ds x eight or n9e hundr$ ye>s4 ,if m "t /ill be ?\ght want+ = ! developm5t ( gov]nm5t1 art1 sci5ce1 language1 div]sities ( races1 etc41 ,i %\ld n be afraid to grant t ! orig9al record ( ,scripture on ?is po9t may h be5 lo/1 & t ! true *ronology _c n[ be asc]ta9$4 ,no?+ 9 anci5t manuscripts is s liable to corruption z ! numb]s4 ,! orig9al mode ( writ+ !m 0 by signs n v diff]5t f "o ano!r1 & ?us x happ5s t 9 almo/ all anci5t works1 ! numb]s are f\nd to be des]v+ ( v little reliance4' ,b ! errors & unc]ta9ty ) reg>d to numb]s am\nt to no?+4 ,!y d n affect ! ,bible z ! great religi\s in/ructor ( ! _w4 ,! sun has its spots1 d>k ones & l>ge ones too2 & ! face ( ! moon is n all ( equal brightness2 b are ! sun & ! moon less useful on t acc\nt8 ,d !y n answ] ! ends = :i* !y 7 made1 & are n ^? ends ! mo/ important & desirable imag9able8 ,cavill]s might say1 if ! sun & moon 7 made to be lights ( ! e>?1 :y are !y n all light1 & :y is n _! light ( ! greate/ brilliancy possible8 ,b we too h a "r to ask1 ,d !y n give u light en\gh8 ,& is n _! light z brilliant z is desirable8 ,w ! cavill] prove t ! sun & moon w\ld be great] bless+s if _! light wore m int5se1 or m abundant8 ,m5 may h too mu* light z well z too little4 ,if light exce$s a c]ta9 degree ( int5sity1 x dazzles & bl9ds in/ead ( enlight5+4 ,x is well to h a little w>m?1 b if ! heat be increas$ beyond a c]ta9 po9t1 x burns & consumes1 in/ead ( com=t+ & *e]+4 ,! disposition ( ! cavill] is any?+ b enviable1 & if ,god 7 to take him at 8 ^w1 8 lot w\ld be any?+ b com=table4 ,happy are !y :o accept ,god's gifts z ,he pres5ts !m1 ) ?ankfulness1 & use !m 9 ,8 s]vice fai?fully1 rejoic+ & tru/+ 9 ,8 inf9ite wisdom & love4 ,:at a man wants 9 a book are in/ruction1 impulse1 /r5g?1 correction1 reg5]ation1 consolation1 lessons fit to furni% him to e good "w1 some?+ to give pleasure1 supply ex]cise = 8 intellect1 consci5ce1 affections3 & ! ,bible is all4 ,if ,god may employ an imp]fect & fallible man to prea* = him1 all[+ a portion ( 8 imp]fections to m+le ) 8 message1 :y might ,he n employ an imp]fect & fallible man to write = ,him1 all[+ a portion ( 8 imp]fections to m+le ) 8 writ+8 ,! foll[+ is f ! ,,bi%op ,,( ,,london4 ',! v9dication ( ! sup]natural & au?oritative "* ( ! ,bible has too (t5 be5 emb>rass$ by speculative !ories n au?oriz$ by ! /atem5ts ( ! ,bible itself4' ',x is no reply to ! ess5tial claims ( ! ,bible to be a sup]natural revelation f ,god1 to %[ t c]ta9 speculative !ories conc]n+ ! mann] & degree ( its inspiration are unt5able4' ,f ^: works ! foll[+ quotation is made1 we d n rememb]4 ',! wat*word ( ! ,re=mation 01 ',! suffici5cy ( ! ,scriptures = salvation4' ',def9ite !ories ( inspiration 7 seldom prop\nd$ till ( late ye>s4 ',! ,bible is a revelation ( spiritual tru? communicat$ *iefly 9 illu/rations & figurative language1 & mak+ use ( ! hi/ory1 *ronology1 & o!r sci5ces ( ! age1 z vehicles or helps4 ,?is pr9ciple w expla9 ^? seem+ contradictions to sci5ce :i* result f ! use ( popul> language1 z :5 ! sun & moon are said to /& /ill1 or :5 ! sun is said to g f "o end ( ! heav5 to ! o!r1 etc4 ,x w also acc\nt = _m actual errors 9 sci5ce1 *ronology1 & hi/ory1 %\ld su* be f\nd to exi/4 ,! ,scriptures 7 n int5d$ to tea* m5 ^! ?+s1 b to reveal :at relates to our connection ) moral law1 & ! spiritual _w1 & our salvation4 ,9 tea*+ ^! ?+s1 ! writ]s avail$ !mselves ( ! popul> language1 & ! curr5t sci5ce & lit]ature ( ! age 9 :i* !y liv$4 ,z 9 ! pres5t day a man may be well in/ruct$ 9 ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 & h ! unction f ! ,holy ,"o1 :ile ignorant ( ! tea*+s ( mod]n sci5ce1 s likewise x 0 possible to ^? :o fir/ receiv$ religi\s tru? & 7 commission$ to decl>e x4 ,! pres5ce ( ! ,holy ,_s no m pres]v$ m5 f errors 9 sci5ce 9 ! "o case ?an 9 ! o!r4 ,"o may z well seek to /udy survey+ 9 a biography ( ,wa%+ton1 z ! details ( geology or *ronology 9 ,g5esis4 ',! prop] te/ to apply to ! ,gospels is1 :e!r ea* gives u a picture ( ! life & m9i/ry ( ,jesus t is self-consi/5t & consi/5t ) ! o!rs2 su* z w\ld be suitable to ! use ( believ]s4 ',_m ( ! app>5t contradictions ( ! ,bible may be expla9$ by ! mi/akes ( transcrib]s1 or 9 "s o!r way equally natural2 b1 z ! ,bi%op ( ,london has well rem>k$1 ',:5 labori\s +5uity has ex]t$ itself to collect a :ole /ore ( su* difficulties1 suppos+ !m to be real1 :at on e>? does x signify8 ,!y may be left quietly to float away )\t our be+ able to solve !m1 if we be> 9 m9d ! ackn[l$g$ fact1 t !re is a human elem5t 9 ! ,bible4' ',:at if _m ( ! numb]s giv5 9 ,exodus %\ld1 z ,bi%op ,col5so ass]ts1 be inaccurate8 ,:at is to be ga9$ by ass]tions or d5ials relative to matt]s :i* h = ev] pass$ out ( ! rea* ( our v]ification8 ,& :at if1 "h & !re1 a law %\ld seem to u /range & unacc\ntable2 an ev5t difficult to compreh5d2 a /atem5t to involve an app>5t contradiction8 ,:at has all ?is to d ) ! ess5tial value ( ! ,book4 ,absolutely no?+1 unless !reby its hone/y tru?fulness c be set aside4 ',if error 7 cunn+ly int]sp]s$ ) tru? 9 ! ,bible1 ! case w\ld be diff]5t4 ,b x is n s4 ,! ,book1 z a :ole1 & z x /&s1 is :olesome & useful2 ea* portion ( x has its prop] place1 & is adequate to fulfil its appo9t$ end4 ,b ev]y?+ 9 ! ,book does n take hold alike on ! he>t & consci5ce4 ,x may be v int]e/+1 z inde$ x is1 to trace on ! map ! v>i\s j\rney+s ( ,/4 ,paul1 or ! w&]+s ( ! *ildr5 ( ,israel 9 ! wild]ness2 to note a hundr$ design$ co9cid5ces1 etc4 ,yet all ?is may be done )\t ! slighte/ moral or spiritual b5efit to ! man :o does x4 ,&1 ( c\rse1 all ?is may be left undone by o!rs )\t ! slighte/ spiritual loss or disadvantage4' ,! foll[+ may be our own4 ,! great ?+ is to use ! ,scriptures z a means ( in/ruction 9 religi\s tru? & ,*ri/ian duty1 & z a means ( improvem5t 9 all moral excell5ce & ,*ri/ian usefulness4 ,set ! doctr9e ( ,scripture inspiration too high1 & p1 f9d+ t ! ,scriptures d n come up to x1 w conclude t ! doctr9e is false1--t ! ,scriptures are n inspir$1--t !y d n diff] f o!r books1--t div9e revelation is a fiction1--t religion is a delusion1--& t ! true philosophy ( life & ( ! univ]se is infidelity4 ,& ! ,scriptures d n come up to ! doctr9e ( inspiration held by _m4 ,x is impossible !y %\ld4 ,no book writt5 9 human language c come up to x4 ,:at !y say an inspir$ book mu/ be1 no book on e>? ev] 01 & no book ev] w be4 ,& infidels see x1 & are confirm$ 9 _! infidelity4 ,& o!rs see x & become infidels4 ,& ,*ri/ians argue ) !m & are ov]come4 ,& o!rs are p]plex$ & bewild]$1 & oblig$ to close _! eyes to facts1 & ?\gh !y cl+ to _! belief1 !y are tr\bl$ ) fe>s & misgiv+s z long z !y live4 ,if m5 w\ld be /rong 9 ! fai?1 & /rong 9 its def5ce1 !y %\ld accept no?+ z "p ( _! cre$ b :at is /rictly true4 ,!re are passages :i* speak ( ! sun smit+ m5 by day1 & !re is "o at lea/ :i* speaks ( ! moon smit+ m5 by night1 & bo?1 = any ?+ ,i "k1 may be lit]ally true4 ,b suppose x 7 prov$ t nei!r ! sun nor ! moon ev] smites m51 w\ld my fai? 9 ,*ri/ianity1 or 9 ! div9e inspiration ( ! ,bible1 be %ak5 !reby8 ,n at all4 ,nor w\ld x de/roy or weak5 ! effect ( ! passages on my m9d 9 :i* ^? allusions to ! sun & moon occur4 ,i %\ld /ill believe 9 ! sub/antial tru? ( ! passages1 namely1 t1 day & night1 ! good man is secure "u ! protection ( ,god4 ,a man says t he has lately be5 "u 'disa/r\s influ5ces4' ,lit]ally1 ! words disa/r\s influ5ces mean ! influ5ces ( unfri5dly />s4 ,b !re are no unfri5dly />s4 ,!n :y does he use su* an expression8 ,because1 ?\gh x does n n[ 9 its curr5t mean+ ref] to ! />s at all1 x means calamit\s1 unfavorable1 influ5ces4 ,i d n believe t ! sun l a /rong man runs a race3 ,i believe its motion is only app>5t1--t ! real motion is 9 ! e>?4 ,b d ,i !re=e "q ! div9e inspiration ( ! ,bible :i* uses t expression8 ,n at all2 = ! words are sub/antially true4 ,& s 9 a hundr$ o!r cases4 ,& s 9 passages ( o!r k9ds4 ,x does n matt] to me :e!r ! acc\nt ( creation 9 ,g5esis answ]s lit]ally to ! real processes reveal$ by ,geology1 or :e!r ! acc\nt ( ! flood answ]s exactly to pa/ facts4 ,bo? acc\nts are p]fect z lessons ( div9e tru? & duty1 & t is en\gh4 ,^? :o und]take to prove t e passage ( ! ,bible is lit]ally true1 mu/ fail4 ,if !y 7 all lit]ally true1 !y w\ld nev] h done4 ,!re are m difficult passages1 & m app>5t little contradictions1 ?an any man c\ld g ?r\gh 9 a life-"t4 ,i w\ld no m und]take su* a task ?an ,i w\ld und]take to prove t e leaf1 & e fl[]1 & e se$1 ( e plant on e>? is p]fect1 & t ea* is exactly l its fell[s4 ,god's honor & man's welf>e are z mu* conc]n$ 9 ! "o z 9 ! o!r4 ,!y are conc]n$ 9 nei!r4 ,! leaves1 ! fl[]s1 & ! se$s ( plants are "r en\gh1--!y are z p]fect z !y ne$ to be1--& ,i ask no m4 ,& ! ,bible is z p]fect z x ne$s to be1 & ,i am satisfi$4 ,! foll[+ is abridg$ f a "w entitl$ ,,*ri/ianity ,,& ,,our ,,era1 by ! ,rev4 ,g4 ,gilfillan ( ,scotl&4 ,mr4 ,gilfillan speaks ( x z a ',g5]ally admitt$ fact1 t !re is a human1 z well z a div9e elem5t 9 ,scripture1' & adds1 't ?is %\ld modify our judgm5t 9 consid]+ p]plex+ discrepancies & m9or objections4 ,!re are spots 9 ! sun2 !re are bogs on ! e>?2 & :y %\ld ! p]plexities 9 a book1 :i* is a multif>i\s collection ( poetico-!ological & hi/orical tracts1 writt5 9 v>i\s ages1 & subject1 9 _! hi/ory1 to _m human vicissitudes1 bewild] & appal u8 ,! c&id inquir] w be satisfi$ if1 f ! unity ( _s1 ! tru? & simplicity ( mann]1 ! maje/y ( ?\ght1 ! heav5l9ess ( tone1 & ! v>i\s collat]al & ext]nal pro(s1 he ga!rs a g5]al inspiration 9 ! ,bible1 & ! g5]al tru? ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,logical /rictness1 p]fect hi/oric accuracy1 sy/ematic arrangem5t1 etc41 c\ld n be expect$ 9 a book ( intuitions & bur/s ( inspiration2 ! au?ors ( :i* seem$ (t5 ! *ild-l organs ( ! p[] )94 ,x seem$ en\gh t !re %\ld be no wilful mis-/atem5ts1 & no errors b ^? aris+ f ! inevitable conditions to :i* all writ+s are liable4 ,! skeptic :o proce$s to p]use ! ,bible1 expect+ x ev]y:]e to be con=mable to ! highe/ ideal /&>d--t !re %all be no?+ to p]plex 8 und]/&+1 to try 8 belief1 or to (f5d 8 ta/e1 w be disappo9t$1 & w ei!r give up 8 task1 or g on 9 we>9ess & hesitation4 ,on ! o!r h&1 if he be told to prep>e = hi/orical discrepancies1 = /agg]+ /atem5ts1 = phrases m pla9 ?an elegant1 & = s5t5ces ( inscrutable d>kness1 he w be f> m likely to come to a satisfactory conclusion4 ,& ! app>5t d>k spots w only s]ve to increase ! surr\nd+ spl5dor4 ,we !re=e cry to ! skeptic :o purposes to explore ! region ( revelation2 ',we promise y no pavem5t ( gold2 y w f9d y\r pa? an ,alp9e road1 /eep1 rugg$1 ) pr(\nd *asms bel[1 & giddy precipices above1 & ?ick mi/s (t5 clos+ 9 ar\nd1 b rew>d+ y by prospects ( ineffable lovel9ess1 by gleams ( f>-reveal+ light1 & delight+ y ) a ?\s& une>?ly pleasures4 ,try ?is pass1 ) a s9c]e desire to come at tru?1 & ) hope & c\rage 9 y\r he>ts1 & y w be ri*ly rew>d$1 & ! toils ( ! asc5t w seem to y aft]w>ds only a portion ( y\r triumph4' ,"o writ] gives ! foll[+ def9ition ( inspiration4 ',a sup]natural1 div9e influ5ce on ! sacr$ writ]s1 by :i* !y 7 qualifi$ to communicate moral & religi\s tru? ) au?ority4' ,?is is tol]able4 ,ano!r writ] says1 ',x is a miracul\s influ5ce1 by :i* m5 are enabl$ to receive & communicate div9e tru?4' ,?is too is tol]able1 not)/&+ ! ^w miracul\s4 ,ano!r writ] says1 ',!re has be5 a great div]sity ( op9ions among ! be/ m5 ( all ages1 z to ! nature & ext5t ( ,bible inspiration4' ,he might h add$1 t ^! op9ions h g5]ally be5 no?+ m ?an op9ions1--m]e fancies1 !ories1 fram$ )\t reg>d to facts4 ,ano!r writ] says1 ',x %\ld be rememb]$1 t ! inspiration :i* brea!s ?r\gh ! ,book is n ( a sci5tific1 critical1 or hi/orical "*1 b exclusively religi\s4' ,he means1 t :ile inspiration makes ! ,bible all t is desirable z a tea*] on religi\s matt]s1 x does n1 on o!r subjects1 raise x above ! views ( ! ages & places 9 :i* x 0 writt54 ,= he adds1 ',! sacr$ record is n 9 e respect faultless4 ,x is n free f lit]>y1 typographical1 & o!r defects4 ,nature h]self1 :]e no "o c d5y ! f+] ( ,god1 has imp]fections4 ,! ,book pres5ts ! same *>act]i/ics z ! be/ & highe/ ( ,god's o!r gifts1 namely1 n ! outw>d symmetry ( a f9ite & me*anical p]fection1 b ! inw>d1 ela/ic1 & reproductive p[] ( a div9e life6' ,! mean+ ( ?is latt] vague & wordy s5t5ce seems to be1 t ! inspiration ( ! ,bible is su* z to make x a p[]ful means ( produc+ spiritual life1--real religion2 b n su* z to pres]ve x f little ord9>y human errors & imp]fections4 ,?is writ] repres5ts ,dr4 ,/[e z say+1 ',inspiration1 accord+ to ! ,bible1 is j t measure ( extraord9>y ,div9e influ5ce af=d$ to ! sacr$ speak]s & writ]s1 :i* 0 necess>y to secure ! purpose int5d$1 & no m4' ,?is too we c accept4 ,x does n au?orize u to expect ( ! ,bible1 or require u to prove ) reg>d to x1 any ?+ m1 ?an t x is adapt$ to be ! religi\s & moral in/ructor ( mank9d4 ,?is same writ] repres5ts ,dr4 ,rob9son z say+1 ',:5ev]1 & z f> z1 div9e assi/ance 0 necess>y1 x 0 always af=d$4' ,?is too is tol]able4 ,"o writ] says1 ',div9e inspiration _c be claim$ = ! transcrib]s or translators ( ! orig9al ,scriptures4' ,we ?9k x c4 ,we see no reason to d\bt1 b t _m ( ! transcrib]s & translators ( ! ,scriptures 7 z mu* "u ! influ5ce ( ! ,holy ,_s1--! _s ( love1 & tru?1 & all goodness1--z ! orig9al writ]s4 ,our impression is1 t ! common v]sion is z truly ! "w ( div9e inspiration1 z any book on e>?4 ,"o writ] says1 ',! language ( ! :ole ,bible is t ( appe>ances4 ,9 draw+ illu/rations f nature1 ! writ]s c\ld n h be5 und]/ood1 unless !y _h us$ figures & =ms ( spee* bas$ on nature z popul>ly und]/ood4 ,h5ce ! heav5ly bodies are spok5 ( z revolv+ r\nd ! e>?1 ! ant z /or+ up food 9 summ]1 & ! e>? z be+ immovable1 all ( :i* are n[ kn[n to be contr>y to /rict tru?4' ,?is writ]1 l "s o!rs1 feel+ z if he _h gone too f> 9 utt]+ words s true1 contradicts !m a few pages aft]1 & makes a numb] ( /atem5ts :i* rem9d "o ( :at ! ,apo/le says1 ab\t h&l+ ! ^w ( ,god deceitfully4 ,"o w\ld be tempt$ to *>ge him ) 'cunn+ craft9ess1' only 8 craft is n v cunn+4 ,:5 religi\s tea*]s act s unfai?fully1 !y h no "r to compla9 if p lose all confid5ce 9 _! hone/y4 ,we grant1 h[ev]1 t ! temptation to keep back ! tru? on ?is po9t is v /rong1 & we mu/ n be h>d on ! timid ones4 ,x is n always a fe> ( p]sonal loss or suff]+ t keeps m5 f speak+ freely on religi\s subjects1 b a dread ( less5+ _! usefulness1 ( hurt+ ! m9ds ( good ?\gh mi/ak5 p1 or ( di/urb+ & injur+ ! ,*ur*4 ,b x is no use try+ to *eat unbeliev]s4 ,y _c d x4 ,!y w f9d y out1 & be all ! m suspici\s & skeptical 9 consequ5ce4 ,we mu/ deal ) !m hone/ly2 tell !m no?+ b :at is true1 & use no argum5ts b :at are s\nd & unansw]able4 ,advocates ( ,*ri/ianity h made numb]less unbeliev]s by tea*+ errone\s doctr9es1 & by us+ weak & vici\s argum5ts4 ,! ,*ri/ian %\ld s speak & act1 t x %all be impossible = any "o ev] to f9d him 9 ! wrong4 ,! foll[+ is probably our own4 ,! hi/orical difficulties ( ! ,bible am\nt to little4 ,!y d n affect its scope & t5d5cy1 z a moral & spiritual tea*]4 ,nor are !y inconsi/5t ) ! doctr9e t ! ,scriptures 7 giv5 by inspiration ( ,god1 z t doctr9e is pres5t$ 9 ! ,scriptures !mselves4 ,!y may be inconsi/5t ) ! views ( ,scripture inspiration taught by c]ta9 ,!ologians2 b all we h to d is to set ! views ( ^! ,!ologians aside1 & cont5t ourselves ) ! simple tea*+s ( ,scripture4 ,n[ ! doctr9e ( ,scripture inspiration z taught by ! ,scriptures !mselves1 gives me no au?ority to expect ! ,scriptures to be free f hi/orical & sci5tific errors1 or f any ( ^? s-call$ imp]fections :i* are insep>able f human language or f human nature4 ,x au?orizes me to expect t ! ,scriptures %all aim at my moral & spiritual in/ruction & salvation1 & t !y %all be adapt$ to answ] t great end4 ,x au?orizes me to expect t ! body & sub/ance ( ! ,book %all be true & good1 & t a _s ( wisdom & purity & love %all p]vade ! ,book1 giv+ x a r\s+ & a sanctify+ p[]4 ,x au?orizes me to expect 9 x all t is necess>y to br+ me into h>mony & fell[%ip ) ,*ri/1 to fill me ) ,8 _s1 to *ange me into ,8 lik5ess1 to enable me to live z ,he liv$1 & to labor z ,he labor$4 ,x au?orizes me to expect 9 ! ,bible all t is necess>y to com=t me 9 affliction1 to give me pati5ce1 to su/a9 my hopes1 & to support & *e] me 9 ! h\r ( dea?4 ,& all ?is ,i f9d 9 inf9ite abundance4 ,i f9d x 9 a multitude ( =ms1--=ms ! mo/ t\*+ & impressive4 ,i f9d x pres5t$ 9 ! pla9e/1 simple/ /yle4 ,i f9d 9 ! ,bible an inf9ite treasury ( all t is holy1 j & good1--( all t is beautiful1 sublime1 & glori\s1--( all t is quick5+1 r5ovat+1 /r5g!n+1--( all t is *e]+1 exhil>at+1 transport+1--( all t ,i c wi% = or enjoy1--( all t my p[]s c compreh5d1--( all t my s\l c appropriate & use4 ,i f9d 9 x1 9 %ort1 ri*es unse>*able1 beyond all t ,i c\ld ev] h ask$1 or ?\ght4 ,& :at c ,i wi% = m8 ,god has giv5 u no p]fect tea*]s1 no p]fect prea*]s1 no p]fect *ur*es2 :y %\ld we suppose x necess>y t ,he %\ld give u a p]fect book8 ,he has n giv5 u any p]fect books on m$ic9e1 on diet1 on trades1 on politics1 on f>m+1 on g>d5+1 on education1 or on poetry4 ,:y %\ld we expect ,him to give u "o on religion8 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ,he has n done s4 ,our common ,bible is a translation4 ,s are all ! common ,bibles 9 ! _w4 ,& all translations are imp]fect4 ,! translations are made f ,greek & ,hebrew ,bibles1 & ^? are all imp]fect4 ,! ,greek & ,hebrew ,bibles are compil$ or =m$ f ,greek & ,hebrew manuscripts4 ,b ^! also are imp]fect4 ,!y all diff] f ea* o!r4 ,& no "o c tell :i* is ne>e/ to ! orig9als1 = ! orig9als are lo/4 ,s t :e!r !re 0 an absolutely p]fect ,bible at fir/ or n1 !re is no su* ,bible n[4 ,god ,himself has s ord]$ ?+s1 t all ! ,bibles 9 ! _w1 l all ! prea*]s1 *ur*es1 & tea*]s1 %>e ! innoc5t imp]fections ( our common humanity4 ,suppose ! orig9al ,bible to h be5 p]fect1 & to h be5 pres]v$ f de/ruction1 only "o p]son c\ld h possess$ x4 ,! re/ w\ld h _h to be cont5t ) imp]fect human copies4 ,god might ,himself h writt5 p]fect ,bibles = all mank9d1 b ,he did n *oose to d x4 ,or ,he might h made p]fect copies ( ! orig9al ,bible1 b ,he did n *oose to d ev5 t4 ,he might h employ$ a few legions ( angels 9 mak+ copies ( ! ,bible2 b t ,he did n d4 ,he left ! "w to be done by m51 & m5 h done x1 z !y d all _! "w1 imp]fectly4 ,/ill1 !y h done x well en\gh4 ,! poore/ manuscript ,bible 9 ! _w is good en\gh4 ,! mo/ imp]fect ,greek & ,hebrew ,bible is good en\gh4 ,! poore/ translation is good en\gh4 ,x is s good1 we mean1 t ^? :o are able to read x1 may le>n f x all t is necess>y to make !m good1 & useful1 & happy on e>?1 & to fit !m = ! bless$ness ( et]nal life 9 heav54 ,!re is a s5se 9 :i* no translation ( ! ,scriptures is good en\gh1 if we c make x bett]2 & we h no desire to prev5t m5 f do+ _! be/ to improve ! translations 9 all languages z mu* z possible4 ,b d n let !m make ! impression t a p]fect translation is necess>y or ev5 possible2 = x is n4 ,god has caus$ ! ,bible to be writt5 9 su* a way1 ,he has put all important matt]s ( tru? & duty 9 su* a v>iety ( =ms1 t any translation1 made ) a reasonable am\nt ( le>n+ & hone/y1 is sure to make ?+s intelligible en\gh 9 "s ( ! =ms 9 :i* !y are pres5t$ 9 ! ,book4 ,! ,bible1 l ! ,*ur* & ! ,m9i/ry1 is a great mixture ( ! human & ! div9e4 ,!re is n a s+le book1 nor a s+le passage p]haps1 9 ! :ole volume1 9 :i* ! weaknesses ( man & ! p]fections ( ,god are n bl5d$4 ,ev]y:]e we h revelations ( ! div9e glory1 & ev]y:]e we h manife/ations ( human imp]fection4 ,we h human errors side by side ) div9e tru?s4 ,we h nei!r a p]fect tea*] nor a p]fect example 9 ! :ole ,book1 b "o2 & ( t "o we h n a p]fect record1 ei!r ( ,8 tea*+s or ,8 life4 ,we h no?+ b brief1 imp]fect1 fragm5t>y records ( ei!r4 ,!y are p]fect en\gh2 b !y are v imp]fect4 ,& ,moses1 & ! ,prophets1 & ! ,apo/les1 are p]fect en\gh2 b !y are all imp]fect4 ,! ,bible is p]fect en\gh2 b x is1 accord+ to ! ord9>y mean+ ( ! ^w1 /ill imp]fect4 ,we d n ne$ p]fection1 we d n ne$ infallibility1 9 any?+2 & we h x n4 ,imp]fection is bett]1 & t we h 9 ev]y?+4 ,& all ?is is 9 keep+ ) ,god's do+s 9 o!r cases1 ',! inspiration ( ! ,holy ,"o give? man und]/&+2' b does n make 8 m9d infallible4 ,*ri/ians 'h an unction1 an inspiration1 f ! ,holy ,"o1 & "k all ?+s3' & yet !y d n "k all ?+s2 b only ^? ?+s :i* p]ta9 to ,god & ,*ri/3 & ev5 _! k ( ^! is acquir$ n all at once1 or )\t ! use ( means2 b by degrees only1 & by ! fai?ful use ( _! natural p[]s4 ,! ,apo/les 7 n ma*9es4 ,_! inspiration did n take away _! lib]ty1 or susp5d ! use ( _! natural p[]s4 ,nor did x tea* !m natural sci5ce1 or hi/ory2 or lift !m above ord9>y1 innoc5t errors4 ,nor did x cause !m to le>n all ,*ri/ian tru? at once4 ,!y ga9$ _! k by degrees4 ,"s imag9e1 t ! mom5t ! ,apo/les receiv$ ! ,_s on ! day ( ,p5teco/1 !y 7 p]fect & infallible2 :]eas x took !m ne>ly t5 ye>s to le>n t !y 7 to prea* ! ,gospel to ! ,g5tiles4 ,!y _h ! words ( ,*ri/1 ',g ye into all ! _w1 & prea* ! ,gospel to e creature2' yet x requir$ ne>ly t5 ye>s1 & a special vision1 to make !m und]/& t e creature includ$ ! ,g5tiles4 ,nor h we any pro( t ! ,_s ev] made ! ,apo/les infallible 9 e little matt]4 ,paul says1 :5 speak+ ( ! resurrection1 ',t :i* ?\ s[e/ is n quick5$1 except x die4' ,n[ ! tru? is1 t ! se$ f :i* ! h>ve/ spr+s1 does n die4 ,x simply exp&s & unfolds4 ,8 doctr9e 0 "r1 b ! notion on :i* he gr\nd$ 8 illu/ration ( x 0 an error4 ,b x answ]$ 8 purpose4 ,& !re is a s5se 9 :i* se$ dies4 ,x ceases to be a se$ 9 becom+ a plant4 ,bi%op ,watson says1 'a gra9 ( :eat mu/ become rott5 be=e x c spr\t2' b t is n ! case4 ,x ceases to be a m]e gra9 to become a plant2 b x does n become rott52 x rema9s alive & s\nd4 ,! ,apo/le is an able m9i/]1 a glori\s int]pret] ( ,*ri/ & ,8 doctr9e2 & !re is no?+ s]i\sly amiss 9 8 illu/rations2 b sev]al ( !m are bas$ on prevail+ misconceptions4 ,"s say1 ',if ! ,apo/les 7 n infallible 9 ev]y?+1 _! writ+s w\ld be ( no use to u4 ,if !y might err 9 "o ?+1 !y might err 9 o!rs1 & we c\ld h no c]ta9ty ( ! tru? ( any?+4' ,b t is n true4 ,on "o occasion1 ,paul says1 ',i knew n t x 0 ,god's high-prie/4' ,& on ano!r1 he says1 ',i baptiz$ none ( y b ,crispus & ,gaius4' ,aft]w>ds he says ',i baptiz$ also ! h\se ( ,/ephanas3' & he f9i%es by say+1 ',i "k n :e!r ,i baptiz$ any o!r4' ,w y say1 ',if ,paul c\ld be ignorant or mi/ak5 ab\t ! high-prie/1 or ! numb] ( p]sons he _h baptiz$2 he might be ignorant or mi/ak5 on e subject8' ,! tru? is1 a man :o 0 s mu* tak5 up ) great ?+s1 w\ld be sure to ?9k b little ( small ?+s4 ,8 det]m9ation to "k no?+ b ,*ri/2 w\ld be sure to keep him f wa/+ 8 "t or /r5g? on trifles4 ,a man's ignorance on "s po9ts is (t5 proportion$ to 8 k on o!rs4 ,& ,paul is all ! m tru/wor?y on great matt]s ( ,*ri/ian tru? & duty1 because ( 8 indiff]5ce to matt]s ( little or no importance4 ,& say :at we w1 ! ,apo/les 7 n infallible on e po9t1 & !y nev] pr(ess$ to be s4 ,!y pr(ess$ to be inspir$1 & inspir$ !y 71 b !y did n pr(ess to be :olly infallible1 & x is c]ta9 !y 7 n s4 ,& ! admission ( ! tru? on ?is po9t1 w n de/roy our confid5ce 9 !m on o!rs4 ,we may believe t ! ,apo/les 7 fallible on matt]s ( little mom5t1 & h ! fulle/ assurance possible t !y 7 "r on matt]s ( great importance4 ,! ,apo/les !mselves 7 suffici5tly assur$ ( ! tru? ( ^? impressions :i* !y _h receiv$ ab\t ,*ri/ ?r\gh _! eyes & e>s2 yet nei!r ! eyes nor ! e>s ( man are always or absolutely infallible4 ,i h myself mi/ak5 blue = gre51 & yell[ = :ite2 & ,i recollect two occasions on :i* coal or jet1 seem$1 at a di/ance1 9 ! sunlight1 z :ite z sn[4 ,& ,i h (t5 ?\ght ?+s to be mov+1 :i* 7 at re/2 & ?+s to be at re/1 :i* 7 mov+4 ,yet ,i h ! fulle/ confid5ce 9 my eyes4 ,i h sometimes be5 mi/ak5 ) reg>d to s\nds4 ,i h ?\ght a s\nd to be ne>1 :5 x 0 f> (f2 & ,i h ?\ght a s\nd to be f> (f1 :5 x 0 ne>4 ,& ,i h (t5 mi/ak5 "o s\nd = ano!r4 ,yet ,i h all ! confid5ce ,i ne$ to h 9 my e>s4 ,bo? eyes & e>s may ne$ ! help ( ! m9d at times2 b ! m9d is always at h& ) its help4 ,9 %ort1 ,i "k t all my s5ses are fallible2 yet on e po9t ( mom5t ,i h all ! assurance1 ) reg>d to ?+s s5sible1 t is ne$ful to my welf>e4 ,& s ) reg>d to religi\s matt]s4 ,!re is no?+ l omnisci5ce1--no?+ l inf9ite or absolutely p]fect k or infallibility 9 any man3 yet e "o may h all ! in=mation & all ! assurance on ?+s moral & spiritual ne$ful to 8 com=t & salvation4 ,our assurance ( ! tru? & excell5cy ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e re/s on some?+ bett]1 sur]1 ?an !ological & metaphysical niceties4 ,y :o fancy t y\r /rong & he>t-*e]+ fai? re/s on !ological !ories1 & t if ^? !ories 7 explod$1 x w\ld p]i%1 are1 happily1 "u a great mi/ake4 ,y\r fai?1 & hope1 & joy1 re/ on ! h>mony betwe5 ,*ri/ianity & y\r s\ls4 ,my fai? & tru/ 9 ! outw>d _w1 & my inf9ite appreciation ( its arrangem5ts1 re/1 n on any philosophical !ory2 b on ! wond]ful1 ! p]fect adaptation ( e ?+ to my nature1 to my wants1 to my com=t & welf>e4 ,nature answ]s to me1 fits into me1 at e po9t4 ,i am j ! k9d ( be+ nature 0 made =2 & nature is j ! k9d ( _w my be+ requires4 ,!y mat*4 ,!y answ] to ea* o!r exactly1 all r\nd1 & make "o glori\s & bless$ :ole4 ,& ?is is ! secret ( my tru/ 9 nature4 ,& s x is ) reg>d to ,*ri/ianity & my s\l4 ,!y are made = ea* o!r4 ,!y fit ea* o!r4 ,my s\l j wants :at ,*ri/ianity br+s2 & ,*ri/ianity j br+s :at my s\l requires4 ,x answ]s to my s\l1 z light & beauty answ] to ! eye1 & z s\nd & music answ] to ! e>1 & ! :ole ( nature to ! :ole ( man4 ,!re is nei!r want1 nor sup]fluity1 nor disagreem5t4 ,*ri/ianity & my s\l1 l nature & my physical be+1 are a glori\s mat*4 ,!y are "o3 z ,i & my life are "o4 ,*ri/ is my life4 ,*ri/ is my all4 ,& ,he is all t my s\l requires or desires4 ,& ?is is ! gr\nd ( ! good ,*ri/ian's fai?4 ,x is n ext]nal or hi/orical evid5ce2 x is n metaphysical niceties or !ories2 x is n ! endless mass ( j>r+ evid5ces ( any k9d :i* lie 9 mi/y1 mu/y1 du/y volumes on ! %elves ( dreamy1 dot+ div9es1 t makes y feel at re/ 9 ,jesus2 b ,jesus ,himself1 ^: fulness j answ]s to y\r wants1 & ^: life & love j make y\r heav54 ,x is j t1 & no?+ m4 ,!re is a /ory ( a judge :o 0 celebrat$ = ! wisdom & ju/ice ( 8 judgm5ts1 b (t5 c5sur$ = ! weakness or folly ( ! reasons :i* he gave = !m4 ,_m ,*ri/ians resemble ?is judge4 ,!y make a wise & wor?y pr(ession ( fai?2 b :5 !y attempt to give reasons = _! belief1 !y betray ! mo/ lam5table ignorance4 ,!y h good reasons1 b !y _c put !m into words4 ,!y d n always "k :at _! reasons = believ+ are4 ,! reasons !y assign are n _! real reasons4 ,!y believ$1 & believ$ on good gr\nds1 = suffici5t reasons1 ye>s be=e !y he>d ( ! reasons !y give = _! belief to ^? :o "q !m on ! subject4 ,! reasons !y assign did n at fir/ conv9ce !m1 & !y are n ! k9d ( reasons likely to conv9ce o!rs4 ,& x w\ld be bett] if1 in/ead ( assign+ !m1 !y 7 to say3 ',well2 ,i d n "k t ,i c tell y ! reasons :y ,i believe ! ,bible2 b ,i h reasons4 ,i am satisfi$ my belief is "r4 ,i am satisfi$ ! ,bible is ! "r ?+ = me4 ,i meet ) ?+s 9 x t make me feel v happy4 ,i meet ) ?+s 9 x t w n let me d wrong2 t w keep impell+ me to d "r1 to d good4 ,i meet ) ?+s 9 x t support me 9 tr\ble2 t make me ?ankful 9 prosp]ity2 t fill me ) good ?\ghts1 good feel+s1 good purposes1 good hopes1 great peace1 sweet re/1 /rong confid5ce1 & a bless$ prospect ( a bett] life4 ,i l ! ,bible ,god3 ,he is a great protector1 & a bless$ com=t]4 ,i l ! ,bible /ory ab\t ,jesus1 & all ! glori\s ?+s x says ab\t ,8 love & salvation4 ,9 %ort1 ! ,bible is a great "p ( my life1 my s\l1 my joy1 my /r5g?1 my be+1 & ,i don't "k :at ,i c\ld d )\t x4 ,i _c argue4 ,i don't "k ! reasons :y ,i believe4 ,b ! ,bible j suits my s\l1 & ,i am incl9$ to believe t ! _w w\ld be a d>k place1 & life a poor affair1 )\t its bless$ revelations & preci\s promises4' ,n[ 9 speak+ ?us1 mo/ m5 w\ld really1 )\t kn[+ x1 be giv+ ! reasons or gr\nds ( _! fai?4 ,! great reason really is1 ! p]fect adaptation ( ! ,bible to _! nature & wants4 ,!y believe unconsci\sly & un?9k+ly 9 ! div9ity ( nature1 on acc\nt ( ! wond]ful adaptation ( its provisions to _! natural wants4 ,!y believe 9 virtu\s love1 & honorable m>riage1 & family life1 & natural affections1 & fri5d%ip1 & society1 & gov]nm5t1 & law1 on simil> gr\nds4 ,! reasons ( _! fai? are real1 & good1 & /rong2 b l ! roots ( a tree1 !y are l[ d[n1 out ( sight1 "u ! gr\nd4 ,!y d n reflect on !m1 dig !m up1 br+ !m to ! light1 & give !m a critical exam9ation4 ,?is int]nal evid5ce is ga9+ favor day by day4 ,x is pref]r$ by ! able/ mod]n writ]s to all o!rs4 ,x 0 ! evid5ce t vanqui%$ ! infidel sociali/s ( five & ?irty ye>s ago4 ,x is ! evid5ce t makes our mod]n infidel advocates w9ce & wav]4 ,!y h>dly ?9k x necess>y to notice ! hi/orical evid5ces4 ,!y "k t !y seldom get hold ( m5's he>ts4 ,b !y _c af=d to despise ! int]nal evid5ces4 ,!y are a real p[]4 ,?\s&s are t\*$ by a sight ( ,jesus z pres5t$ 9 ! ,gospels1 = "o t is mov$ by argum5ts f miracles or prophecies4 ,ev5 ! miracles ( ,jesus owe _! *ief p[] to _! b5evol5t "*4 ,! able/ ,am]ican writ] on ! ,evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity1 ,rev4 ,m>k ,hopk9s1 makes ! moral & int]nal evid5ce almo/ ev]y?+1 & ! ext]nal ones next to no?+4 ,! ,rev4 ,f4 ,c4 ,cooke1 ,canon ( ,exet]1 9 8 lecture be=e ! ,*ri/ian ,evid5ce ,society ( ,london1 says1 ',! "o great evid5ce1 ! ma/] evid5ce1 ! evid5ce ) :i* all o!r evid5ces w /& or fall1 is ,*ri/ ,himself speak+ by ,8 own ^w4 ,x is ! "* ( ,jesus t makes m5 feel t ,he & ,8 religion are div9e4 ,x is ?is t w>ms m5's he>ts1 & w9s _! love1 & produces a fai? full ( life & p[]4 ,o!r evid5ces ap>t f ?is leave m5 cold1 & indiff]5t1 or oppos$ to ,*ri/4' ,b m on ?is po9t h]eaft]4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,goes ,,into ,,politics4 ,,arre/$4 ,,lodg$ ,,9 ,,prison4 ,,elect$ ,,t[n ,,c\ncillor1 ,,memb] ,,( ,,p>liam5t1 ,c4 ,9 #ahdf1 ,i began to dabble 9 politics4 ,& my views ( political subjects 7 z mu* out ( ! ord9>y way z my views on matt]s p]ta9+ to religion4 ,i 0 a republican4 ,i w\ld h no ,k+1 no ,que51 no ,h\se ( ,lords1 & no ,/ate ,*ur*4 ,i w\ld aboli% ! laws ( entail & primog5iture1 & r$uce l& to a level ) o!r k9ds ( prop]ty4 ,! sale ( l& %\ld be z untrammell$ z t ( common m]*&ise1 & x %\ld be z liable to be tak5 = debt4 ,i broa*$ />tl+ views ) reg>d to ! "r ( prop]ty 9 l&1 & urg$ t z x 0 naturally common prop]ty1 x %\ld be consid]$ z belong+1 9 "p1 to ! nation1 or ,gov]nm5t1 & made to be> ! pr9cipal burd5 ( taxation4 ,i recomm5d$ t ! prop]ty ( ! *ur* %\ld be us$ = ! promotion ( education4 ,i propos$ to divide ! c\ntry into equal electoral di/ricts1 & give to e man :o 0 n a crim9al1 a vote = memb]s ( ,p>liam5t4 ,z a rule1 ,i held up ,am]ica z an example 9 matt]s ( gov]nm5t1 b object$ to a ,s5ate & a f\r ye>s' ,presid5t1 pref]r+ to place all p[] 9 ! h&s ( "o ,body1 ! direct repres5tatives ( ! p4 ,a committee ( t ,body %\ld be ! m9i/ry1 & ! *airman ( t committee ! ,presid5t4 ,i really believ$ t ?is w\ld be ! p]fection ( ,gov]nm5t4 ,& if all m5 7 naturally good1 z ,unit>ianism taught1 :at c\ld be wis] or bett] calculat$ to secure ! happ9ess ( a nation1 ?an to give e "o an equal %>e ( ! p[]8 ,i believ$ ) ,pa9e1 t a pure & unqualifi$ democracy w\ld secure ! /ricte/ economy1 ! greate/ purity1 ! be/ laws1 & ! mo/ p]fect adm9i/ration ( ! laws4 ,i also believ$ t a pure unmix$ democracy w\ld prev5t insurrections1 rebellions1 & civil w>1 & t x w\ld promote peace ) all ! _w4 ,true1 ,i believ$ ! p w\ld require education1 b ,i also believ$ t an ultra democracy w\ld see to x t ! p 7 educat$1 & educat$ 9 ! be/ possible way4 ,7 n ! p educat$ 9 ,am]ica8 ,& 7 we n taught t ! educational sy/em ( ,am]ica 0 ! result ( its democratic =m ( ,gov]nm5t8 ,& 7 n ,price & ,prie/ley democrats8 ,& 7 n ,*ann+ & ,p>k]1 ! two great lights ( ,unit>ianism 9 ,am]ica1 democrats8 ,democracy !n 0 ! rem$y = ! evils ( ! _w2 ! "o ?+ ne$ful to ! salvation ( our race4 ,m extravagant or gr\ndless notions h seldom ent]$ ! m9d ( man4 ,yet ,i accept$ !m z ! true political gospel1 & ex]t$ myself to ! utmo/ to propagate !m among ! masses ( my c\ntrym54 ,! ,iri% re=m]s dem&$ a repeal ( ! ,union & ! "r ( self-gov]nm5t4 ,i advocat$ bo? repeal = ,irel& & ,republicanism = ,engl&4 ,& 9 all my spee*es & publications ,i gave utt]ance to ! bitt]e/ reproa*es aga9/ ! ari/ocracy1 & aga9/ all :o took _! "p4 ,i _h suff]$ griev\sly 9 my e>ly days4 ,i _h be5 subject$ to all ! h>d%ips & mis]ies ( extreme pov]ty4 ,i _h sp5t ?ree ye>s on ! v]ge ( />vation1 nev] kn[+1 m ?an twice or ?rice dur+ ! :ole ( t dreadful p]iod1 :at x 0 to h ! gnaw+s ( hung] appeas$ by a pl5tiful meal4 ,i _h se5 "o ne> & de> to me p]i% = want ( food1 & _h escap$ ! same sad fate myself by a k9d ( miracle only4 ,& all ^! suff]+s ,i believ$ to h be5 caus$ by ! corn & provision laws1 enact$ & ma9ta9$ by ! selfi%ness ( ! ari/ocracy4 ,i reg>d$ ! ari/ocracy !re=e1 & all :o took _! "p1 z my p]sonal enemies2 z m5 :o _h robb$ me ( my daily bread1 & all b s5t me to an untimely grave4 ,i reg>d$ !m z ! greate/ ( crim9als1 z ! enemies ( ! human race4 ,i consid]$ !m answ]able = ! horrors ( ! fir/ great ,fr5* ,revolution1 & = ! mis]ies ( ! ,iri% fam9e4 ,i gave !m cr$it = no?+ good4 ,true1 !y _h all[$ ! ,re=m ,bill ( #ahca to pass1 b n till !y saw t a refusal w\ld cause a revolution4 ,!y _h accept$ free trade1 b n till !y saw t to reject x w\ld be _! ru94 ,i _h n !n le>nt t 9 legislat+ ) an eye to _! own int]e/s !y _h done no m ?an o!r classes are accu/om$ to d :5 !y get possession ( p[]4 ,i _h n yet discov]$ t ! g]ms ( selfi% legislation & tyranny are s[n 9 ! he>ts ( all1 & t ! faults ( ! high] classes prevail among all classes "u diff]5t =ms4 ,i saw ! misdo+s ( ! p>ties 9 p[]1 & look$ no fur!r1 & ,i heap$ on !m ! bitt]e/ invectives4 ,my passionate hatr$ ( ! privileg$ classes1 express$ 9 ! pla9e/ ,engli%1 & ju/ifi$1 app>5tly1 by s mu* t 0 bad 9 ! hi/ory ( _! do+s1 r\s$ ! indignation ( my he>]s & read]s to ! highe/ pit*4 ,i comm5c$ a p]iodical1 :i* at once became a favorite ) ! ultra democrats1 & spe$ily ga9$ an ext5sive circulation4 ,9 #ahdg1 9 my ,companion to ! ,almanacs1 ,i =etold ! ,fr5* ,revolution ( #ahdh4 ,h[ x happ5$ ,i d n exactly "k2 b ,i h1 at times1 made rem>kable guesses1 & ?is p]haps 0 "o ( !m4 ,:5 ! ,revolution took place x caus$ a trem5d\s excitem5t 9 e nation 9 ,europe4 ,k+s & emp]ors f\nd x necess>y to promise _! subjects con/itutional gov]nm5ts4 ,x turn$ ! heads ( _m p 9 ,engl&4 ,numb]s :o _h nev] be5 politicians be=e1 became politicians !n4 ,& _m politicians :o _h previ\sly be5 mod]ate 9 _! views1 became wild & revolution>y4 ,! ,*>ti/s clamor$ = ! ,*>t]1 ! :ole ,*>t]1 & no?+ b ! ,*>t]4 ,meet+s 7 held 9 almo/ e "p ( ! c\ntry1 & spee*es 7 deliv]$1 & publications 7 circulat$1 ( a mo/ inflammatory "*4 ,mon/] demon/rations 7 got up1 & _m :o did n take "p 9 !m enc\rag$ !m1 9 hopes t !y w\ld fright5 ! ,gov]nm5t into l>ge concessions to ! p>ty ( re=m4 ,a meet+ ( ! lead+ re=m]s 0 call$ 9 ,london1 & ,i 0 pres5t4 ,"y ,/ansfield1 n[ memb] ( ,p>liam5t1 0 !re1 & ,s]geant ,p>ry1 & ,edw>d ,miall1 & ,h5ry ,v9c5t1 & a numb] ( o!rs4 ,! ,*>ti/s arrang$ = a conv5tion 9 ,london1 & ,i 0 s5t z a memb]4 ,! meet+ cut b a pitiful figure4 ,x soon got into unspeakable disord]4 ,! second day ! "q 01 ,:at means %\ld we recomm5d our con/itu5ts to use 9 ord] to obta9 ! re=ms !y desir$8 ,i1 extravagant z ,i _h %[n myself on _m po9ts1 _h always set myself aga9/ resort to viol5ce4 ,my c\nsel !re=e 0 = peaceful1 legal measures4 ,erne/ ,jones & sev]al o!rs clamor$ = organization1 ) a view to an arm$ insurrection4 ,by & by we got into confusion aga94 ,"s "o h9t$ t ag5ts ( ! ,gov]nm5t 7 pres5t1 & t we 7 v5tur+ on dang]\s gr\nd4 ,erne/ ,jones repli$1 ,x is n = u to be afraid ( ! ,gov]nm5t1 b = ! ,gov]nm5t to be afraid ( u4 ,confusion got worse conf\nd$4 ,i began to be a%am$ ( my position4 ,mad z ,i 01 ,i 0 n insane en\gh = ! lead]s ( ! conv5tion1 s ,i />t$ home4 ,on ,good ,friday !re 0 an imm5se meet+ on ,skircoat ,moor1 ne> ,halifax1 & ,i 0 "o ( ! speak]s4 ,x 0 ! l>ge/ assembly ,i ev] saw4 ,! ,speak]s t prec$$ me talk$ ab\t ! uselessness ( talk1 & call$ = action4 ,i talk$ ab\t ! usefulness ( talk1 & cont5d$ t resort to viol5ce w\ld be bo? folly & wick$ness4 ,:ile ,i 0 speak+1 a man 9 ! cr[d on my left fir$ a pi/ol1 z if to intimidate me1 & enc\rage ! p>ty favorable to insurrection4 ,i at once d5\nc$ him z a traitor1 :o _h come to hurry ! p into crime1 or a madman1 :om no "o ought = a mom5t to ?9k ( imitat+4 ,! physical =ce m5 7 t]ribly vex$ at my rem>ks1 b ! mass ( ! meet+ applaud$ my c\nsels1 & ! imm5se conc\rse disp]s$ & w5t home1 )\t ei!r p]petrat+ a crime1 or meet+ ) an accid5t4 ,my advocacy ( peace 0 duly appreciat$ by "s ev5 ( ^? :o lam5t$ ! extravagance ( my views on o!r subjects4 ,o!rs look$ on me ) unmitigat$ horror4 ,& ! feel+s ( ! ri*] classes g5]ally aga9/ me rose to su* a pit* at l5g?1 t x 0 h>dly safe = me to g abroad aft] d>k4 ,my religi\s & political oppon5ts jo9$ _! =ces1 & seem$ b5t on my de/ruction4 ,!y believ$ ,i 0 und]m9+ ! f\ndations ( society1 & ?r[+ all ?+s into confusion4 ,!y look$ on me z little bett] ?an a madman1 scatt]+ abroad firebr&s1 arr[s1 & dea?4 ,& _m treat$ me z a k9d ( outlaw1 z a man :o _h no rights t anybody 0 b\nd to respect2 & rude boys & reckless m5 took lib]ties ) my prop]ty1 & ev5 ?reat5$ me ) dea?4 ,insurance companies w\ld n insure my prop]ty4 ,s*oolma/]s w\ld n admit my sons into _! s*ools1 le/ o!rs %\ld take _! *ildr5 away4 ,mo!rs w\ld n all[ _! daught]s to play ) my little daught]1 le/ %e %\ld infect !m ) h] fa!r's h]esies4 ,aft] ! ,summ] ,assizes 9 #ahdh1 ! judge at ,liv]pool issu$ ,b5* w>rants = ! arre/ ( a numb] ( political agitators1 & 9 ! li/ ( ! names ( ^? p>ties1 publi%$ 9 ! newspap]s1 m9e 0 includ$4 ,z ,i _h always kept )9 ! limits ( ! law1 & z ,i _h receiv$ no visit f ! police1 ,i suppos$ t my "n _h be5 ins]t$ 9 ! li/ by mi/ake4 ,& z ,i 0 all[$ to rema9 at l>ge = six weeks1 ,i felt confid5t t x 0 ei!r "s o!r ,joseph ,b>k] t 0 want$1 or t my "n _h be5 m5tion$ z "o ( ! p>ties to be arre/$1 9 je/1 or to fright5 me into sil5ce4 ,& ! probability is1 t if ,i _h kept at home & rema9$ quiet1 ,i %\ld h be5 p]mitt$ to g on ) my bus9ess undi/urb$4 ,b ,i _h an engagem5t at ! end ( six weeks1 to give two political lectures at ,bolton4 ,j ab\t t "t a vacancy occurr$ 9 ! repres5tation ( t ,bor\gh1 & my fri5ds !re1 )\t consult+ me1 put me =w>d z a c&idate = ! vacant seat1 & ann\nc$ my lectures z a /atem5t ( my political views1 urg+ ! p to come & he> me1 & judge = !mselves1 :e!r ,i 0 n ! fitte/ man to repres5t !m 9 ! ,national ,legislature4 ,i gave my fir/ lecture on a ,friday night1 to a cr[d$ & excit$ audi5ce 9 ! ,t[n ,hall1 & :5 ,i _h done1 ! p pass$ a resolution by acclamation1 to ! effect t ,i 0 j ! man = !m1 & t !y w\ld h no o!r4 ,on ! ,saturday ,i w5t on into ,wales1 to fulfil an engagem5t :i* ,i _h = ! ,sunday1 & return$ on ,monday to give my second lecture4 ,:5 ,i got ne> to ,bolton1 "s fri5ds met me1 & told me t ! police f ,man*e/] 7 9 ! t[n look+ = me1 & t ,i _h bett] g "r home4 ,i said1 ,nay1 ,i nev] broke an engagem5t yet1 & ,i won't d s n[2 s ,i w5t on4 ,z soon z ,i _h re/$ myself a little ,i w5t direct to ! head ( ! ,man*e/] police1 & ask$ him if he w\ld n all[ me to deliv] my lecture1 promis+1 if he wi%$ x1 to g ) him quietly aft]w>ds4 ,he said1 ,no1 ,i c\ld n be all[$ to deliv] my lecture1 & add$1 t ,i mu/ consid] myself 8 prison]4 ,i1 ( c\rse1 (f]$ no resi/ance1 b at 8 reque/ w5t ) him at once to ! railway /ation4 ,! p _h already collect$ 9 ! /reets z ,i pass$ along1 & !re 0 soon an excit$ cr[d at ! /ation1 b ,i & my fri5ds urg$ !m to be peaceful1 & peaceful !y 74 ,we 7 soon at ,man*e/]1 & ,i 0 tak5 at once to ! ,city ,jail1 :]e lodg+s _h be5 procur$ = me at ! public exp5se4 ,i pass$ ! night 9 an und]gr\nd cell1 ( ! k9d provid$ = crim9als ( ! bas] sort4 ,x 0 any?+ b clean & sweet1 & ! conduct ( ! au?orities 9 plac+ me 9 su* a hole1 :5 ,i 0 n ev5 *>g$ ) any gross (f5ce1 0 nei!r wise nor j4 ,!re 7 "s rais$ bo>ds on "o side1 b no b$1 no %eets1 no blankets4 ,x 0 n long be=e a numb] ( fri5ds :o _h he>d ( my arre/1 call$ to see me1 & 7 admitt$ to my dungeon4 ,!y br\ght "s food1 "s c&les1 & z !y _h be5 in=m$ t ,i _h n be5 p]mitt$ to wa% myself be=e be+ lock$ up1 "o ( !m1 a lady1 br\ght me a moi/5$ t[el ) :i* to wipe my face4 ,:ile ^! k9d fri5ds 7 try+ to make ?+s com=table = me 9 my prison1 o!rs 7 runn+ to & fro 9 se>* ( bail1 ) a view to my spe$y release4 ,"o de>1 good s\l1 ,mr4 ,trav]s ,madge1 :5 he he>d t ,i 0 9 jail1 />t$ at once = ,mossley1 a di/ance ( t5 or elev5 miles1 to see ,mr4 ,rob9son1 a fai?ful fri5d1 to reque/ him to come to my help4 ,x 0 two o'clock 9 ! morn+ :51 we>y & full ( anxiety1 he knock$ at ,mr4 ,rob9son's door4 ,mr4 ,rob9son rose z soon z he he>d 8 voice1 & took him into ! h\se1 & reque/$ him to take some?+ to eat1 & g to re/ till daylight1 promis+ to />t ) him back to ,man*e/] by ! e>lie/ conveyance4 ,b poor ,mr4 ,madge c\ld nei!r eat nor sleep till 8 fri5d 0 out ( prison4 ,e>ly 9 ! morn+ ,i 0 br\ght into c\rt4 ,bail 0 (f]$ at once1 b ! magi/rates w\ld n accept bail s e>ly1 ?\gh (f]$ by well-kn[n & ?or\ghly respectable p>ties4 ,! reason 01 ! election 0 to take place at ,bolton t day1 & ! magi/rates 7 afraid t if ,i 7 all[$ to be pres5t1 !re might be m excitem5t ?an w\ld be consi/5t ) ! peace & safety ( ! ,bor\gh4 ,s !y kept me 9 prison till f\r o'clock1 :5 !y receiv$ intellig5ce t ! election 0 ov]1 & t all 0 peaceful4 ,!y !n set me at lib]ty4 ,i w5t at once to ,bolton1 & f\nd1 sure en\gh1 t ,i _h be5 elect$1 & t by an imm5se majority1 ( m ?an eight to "o4 ,& z no "o else 0 elect$ at t "t1 ei!r by %[ ( h&s or a poll1 ,i 01 9 tru?1 ! only legal repres5tative1 ?\gh ,i nev] sat 9 ,p>liam5t4 ,explanations aft]4 ,i 0 soon surr\nd$ by a va/ multitude ( p1 to :om ,i gave a %ort address4 ,z soon z ,i c\ld get away f ! excit$ cr[d1 ,i ha/5$ home4 ,a fri5d _h />t$ = ,wortley z soon z ,i 0 out ( prison1 to in=m my wife & *ildr5 t ,i 0 safe & at lib]ty1 & he 0 !re :5 ,i arriv$4 ,x =tunately happ5$ t my family he>d ( my imprisonm5t & ( my lib]ation at ! same "t1 & f ! same lips1 s t ! %ock !y receiv$ 0 n s sev]e z x might h be54 ,b !y 7 t]ribly tri$4 ,x w\ld be va9 to attempt to describe _! feel+s :5 !y saw me ent] ! h\se4 ,i did my be/ to com=t !m1 & assur$ !m t ,i %\ld take no hurt4 ,i 0 b\nd ov] to appe> to take my trial at ! ,w9t] ,assizes on a *>ge ( s$ition & conspiracy1 & ,i set to "w to prep>e = ! ev5t4 ,a good k9d fri5d resid+ at ,b>n>d ,ca/le1 ,george ,br[n1 ,esq41 :o _h help$ me 9 my conte/s ) my !ological oppon5ts1 help$ me 9 ?is new trial4 ,he _h /udi$ ! law all 8 life1 & 0 a mo/ fai?ful & tru/wor?y advis]4 ,he direct$ me :at /eps to take1 & all 8 in/ructions prov$ wise & good4 ,my fri5ds set on foot a subscription1 to procure = me ! able/ def5ce1 & rais$1 9 ! c\rse ( a few weeks1 f two to ?ree hundr$ p\nds4 ,i am amaz$ :5 ,i look back to ^? days1 at ! numb] & ardor ( my fri5ds1 & at ! eag]ness ) :i* !y ha/5$ to my aid4 ,"s fri5ds f ,holbeck1 9 ! ,bor\gh ( ,le$s1 reque/$ me to all[ myself to be put =w>d z a c&idate = ! ,t[n ,c\ncil at ! approa*+ election4 ,n ?9k+ t ,i %\ld h any *ance ( be+ elect$1 ,i hesitat$2 b z !y express$ a contr>y op9ion1 & seem$ exce$+ly anxi\s t ,i %\ld place myself 9 _! h&s1 ,i compli$ ) _! reque/4 ,!y elect$ me by ! l>ge/ numb] ( votes t _h ev] be5 giv5 = a t[n c\ncillor 9 any bor\gh 9 ! k+dom up to t "t4 ,my neighbors *ose ?is me?od ( te/ify+ _! reg>d = me1 & ( prote/+ aga9/ ! conduct ( ! ,gov]nm5t 9 int]f]+ ) my lib]ty4 ,at l5g? ! ,assizes came4 ,i made my appe>ance 9 c\rt at ! "t appo9t$1 ) m ?an ?irty volunt>y witnesses by my side1 all prep>$ to te/ify1 t 9 my lectures & public spee*es ,i _h uni=mly advocat$ peaceful measures1 & d5\nc$ ev]y?+ 9 ! %ape ( conspiracy1 viol5ce1 or insurrection4 ,i wait$ t5 days = my trial1 att5d+ 9 c\rt all ! "t4 ,i wat*$ ! trials ( o!r political prison]s1 & 0 n a little disc\rag$ to f9d t !y 7 all convict$1 & s5t5c$1 g5]ally1 to l5g?y t]ms ( imprisonm5t4 ,! *>ge aga9/ "o ( ! prison]s 01 t he _h sold & circulat$ s$iti\s publications4 ,copies ( ! works :i* he 0 *>g$ ) circulat+ 7 br\ght into c\rt4 ,:at 7 my feel+s :5 ,i f\nd t ! publications 7 my own ,companion to ! ,almanacs1 & my weekly p]iodical ,! ,p4 ,^! works 7 h&$ ab\t ! c\rt1 & plac$ 9 ! h&s ( ! judge4 ,! man 0 convict$1 & s5t5c$ to two ye>s' imprisonm5t4 ,:at *ance 0 !re n[ = me8 ,my solicitor advis$ me to plead guilty1 tell+ me ,i %\ld ?us get (f ) a light] puni%m5t2 b ,i refus$4 ,"s did plead guilty1 & did get (f ) light] puni%m5ts ?an ^? :o /ood _! trial2 b ,i 0 det]m9$ to h a public trial1 or else be honorably dis*>g$4 ,x 0 al>m+ en\gh to see a man convict$ = sell+ my publications3 b some?+ /ill m al>m+ happ5$ ! foll[+ day4 ,a mo/ unpr9cipl$ & ly+ witness 0 br\ght =w>d by ! ,attorney-,g5]al4 ,dur+ ! trial ( "o ( ! ,*>ti/ lead]s he swore t he _h himself =m$ "o ( a b& ( conspirators 9 ,man*e/]1 :o pl$g$ !mselves to burn ! city1 & :o _h prep>$ ! mo/ de/ructive combu/ibles to secure ! success ( _! horrible plot4 ,:5 ask$ to "n ! p>ties compos+ ! meet+ at :i* he said he _h be5 pres5t1 he nam$ me z "o4 ,i 0 horrifi$4 ,i _h nev] se5 ! man be=e 9 all my life1 & ! idea t ,i %\ld be a p>ty to su* a plot z he _h describ$1 0 mon/r\s2 b :at 0 to h9d] a prejudic$ or a fright5$ jury f believ+ 8 te/imony8 ,=tunately = me1 ! ,judge ask$ him if he saw 9 c\rt1 & c\ld po9t out1 any ( ! p]sons he _h nam$ z p>ties to ! conspiracy4 ,i /ood )9 two or ?ree y>ds ( him1 & look$ him full 9 ! face4 ,x 0 pla9 f ! way 9 :i* 8 w&]+ eyes pass$ by me1 t :atev] o!r p>ties he might "k1 he did n "k me4 ,at l5g? he po9t$ out a p]son t he said 0 pres5t at ! secret meet+4 ',:at is 8 "n8' said ! ,judge4 ,! fell[ gave a "n4 ,x 0 n ! "r "o4 ,he po9t$ out ano!r4 ',:at is 8 "n8' said ! ,judge aga94 ,! fell[ gave a "n4 ,he 0 wrong aga94 ,! c\rt got out ( pati5ce ) ! villa91 & ! ,judge ord]$ him into cu/ody to await 8 trial on a *>ge ( p]jury4 ,?is 0 an unspeakable relief bo? to me & to my anxi\s wife & fri5ds1 :o _h witness$ ! dreadful affair ) ! mo/ int5se anxiety & al>m4 ,"s "t aft] ?is horrible exhibition ( bas5ess1 my solicitor came to me & told me t he _h _h an int]view ) ! ,attorney-,g5]al1 & t he _h au?oriz$ him to say1 t if ,i w\ld ent] into bonds & give securities to keep ! peace1 he w\ld n ask me to plead guilty1 b set me at lib]ty )\t m to d4 ,he ev5 (f]$1 at la/1 to accept my own recognizances to ! small am\nt ( fifty p\nds1 )\t any o!r security4 ,i refus$ ! (f]4 ,to give bonds to keep ! peace seem$ l an ackn[l$gm5t t ,i _h attempt$ or ?reat5$ to break x2 & ,i _h done no su* ?+4 ,my solicitor said ! (f] 0 a v g5]\s "o1 & press$ me v e>ne/ly to accept x3 my c\nsel did ! same2 b )\t effect4 ,a numb] ( fri5ds came r\nd me & tri$ to remove my objections to ! measure3 b all 0 va94 ,i 0 sorry to g aga9/ _! advice1 b my feel+ 01 t to agree to ! compromise propos$ w\ld be a sacrifice ( pr9ciple1 & w\ld entail di%onor on me1 & be foll[$ by self-reproa* & %ame4 ,at la/1 to obta9 a little respite1 & to get out ( ! way ( my importunate fri5ds = a "t1 ,i told my solicitor t ,i w\ld lay ! matt] be=e my wife1 & t :atev] %e might advise1 ,i w\ld d4 ,he agre$ to ?is4 ,he 0 satisfi$ t !re 0 n a woman 9 ! c\ntry t w\ld n advise h] husb& to make a concession l t requir$ ( me1 r ?an see him run ! risk ( two or ?ree ye>s' imprisonm5t4 ,my wife 0 at ,s\?port j !n1 "s eighte5 miles away1 & x 0 too late = me to get to h] t ev5+1 s ,i _h to sp5d ! night alone 9 ,liv]pool4 ,i w5t to b$1 b f\nd x impossible to sleep4 ,my anxi\s m9d kept turn+ ov] & ov] ! proposal ( ! ,attorney-,g5]al1 & try+ to f9d "s good reason = accept+ x2 b all 9 va94 ,i _h promis$ to be guid$ by my wife2 b suppose %e %\ld c\nsel me to give ! requir$ security1 c\ld ,i d s & be happy8 ,x seem$ impossible4 ,x /ruck twelve1--x /ruck "o--two--?ree1 & ,i 0 /ill unsettl$4 ,at la/ ,i said1 ',i w expla9 my misgiv+s to my wife1--,i w tell h] t ,i feel z if ,i %\ld nev] be happy to cons5t to ! compromise1--t ,i _c get rid ( ! feel+ t x w\ld be di%onorable4 ,& ,i "k %e w nev] advise me to d any?+ t ,i reg>d z di%onorable4' ,z soon z ,i _h fairly decid$ :at to d1 ,i fell asleep4 ,i 0 at ,s\?port 9 ! morn+ by ! e>lie/ conveyance1 & laid ! matt] be=e my wife4 ',d no?+1' said %e1 't y reg>d z a sacrifice ( pr9ciple1 or an act ( di%onor4 ,:atev] y believe to be y\r duty1 d x2 ,i am will+ to take ! consequ5ces4' ,i answ]$1 ',i believe x my duty to insi/ on a trial1 or on an honorable dis*>ge1' ',!n insi/ on x1' said %e4 ,t 0 en\gh4 ,i return$ to ,liv]pool at once1 & told my solicitor ! result ( my int]view ) my wife1 & he communicat$ ! intellig5ce to ! ,attorney-,g5]al4 ,! ,attorney-,g5]al 0 v mu* vex$1 &1 us+ an expression :i* we _c ) propriety repeat1 decl>$ t he w\ld 'make me squeak4' ,! result ( my refusal 0 t ! ,attorney-,g5]al put (f my case to ! v la/4 ,on ! elev5? day ( ! ,assizes ,i 0 plac$ 9 ! dock ) a numb] ( prison]s :o _h agre$ to plead guilty1 & ent] into bonds4 ,my "n 0 call$ at l5g?1 & ,i refus$ ei!r to plead guilty1 or to be b\nd to keep ! peace4 ',c !re be any man s fooli% z n to accept ! m]cy ( h] ,maje/y8' said ! ,judge4 ,my answ] 01 t ,i _h committ$ no crime1 & t x 0 ju/ice t ,i want$1 & n m]cy4 ',i dem& a trial1' said ,i1 'or an honorable dis*>ge4 ,i h be5 arre/$ on a *>ge ( s$ition & conspiracy1 & held up be=e ! _w z a crim9al1 & ,i claim ! "r ( ju/ify+ myself be=e ! public1 unless ,i am honorably dis*>g$4' ,! ,judge said ,i _h no ne$ to conc]n myself ab\t ! public1--t ! public did n conc]n itself ab\t me4 ,i answ]$ t ! public did conc]n itself ab\t me2 & t ,i 0 "r 9 conc]n+ myself ab\t ! public4 ,at ?is po9t my ,c\nsel rose1 & spoke ( my "* & position1 ) a view to ju/ify my dem& = a trial1 or an honorable dis*>ge4 ,! ,attorney-,g5]al !n appli$ = a po/ponem5t ( my trial to ! foll[+ ,assizes1 alleg+ t ,i 0 ! au?or ( a s$iti\s & blasphem\s publication4 ,i said ! /atem5t 0 false1 & t ! ,attorney-,g5]al _h no "r to make su* a *>ge aga9/ me1 & add$ t to ask a po/ponem5t aft] ,i & my witnesses _h be5 wait+ !re elev5 days1 0 mo/ unreasonable4 ,! ,judge !n ask$ on :at gr\nds a po/ponem5t 0 desir$4 ,:5 ! ,attorney-,g5]al /at$ 8 gr\nds1 ! ,judge pron\nc$ !m insuffici5t4 ,! ,attorney-,g5]al !n said he %\ld ent] a nolle prosequi4 ,"s ( my fri5ds1 :5 !y he>d ?is1 7 greatly al>m$4 ,!y suppos$ x to be a ?reat ( some?+ v t]rible1 & expect$ to see me c>ri$ away at once to prison4 ,& "s ( ! by/&]s began to reproa* me1 & say ,i 0 rightly s]v$ = n accept+ ! g5]\s (f] ( ! ,attorney-,g5]al4 ,i1 ( c\rse1 knew t ! ,attorney-,g5]al's nolle prosequi meant t he w\ld h no?+ m to d ) me1 & t ,i 0 n[ free4 ,:ile !re=e my fri5ds 7 fe>+ & trembl+1 ,i /ood calm & com=table4 ,aft] a few mom5ts ! ,judge said ',y are at lib]ty1 & may retire4' ,:5 my fri5ds f\nd t ,i 0 free1 !y 7 wild ) delight1 & flock$ r\nd me1 eag] to %ake me by ! h&1 & give me _! congratulations4 ,!y 7 n[ satisfi$ t 9 reject+ ! proposal ( ! ,attorney-,g5]al1 ,i _h done no m ?an my duty4 ,"o g5tleman1 :o _h be5 bail = me1 0 extravagant en\gh to decl>e t ,i occupi$ ! pr\de/ position ( any man 9 ! c\ntry4 ',y h )/ood ! tyranny ( ! ,gov]nm5t1' said he1 '& h triumph$4' ,i hurri$ home z fa/ z ,i c\ld ) my happy wife & my exult+ fri5ds4 ,:5 we got !re ! cannon 7 ro>+ & ! b&s play+4 ,my workm5 & neighbors _h he>d ( my triumph1 & 7 celebrat+ x 9 ! noisie/ way !y c\ld4 ,!n foll[$ fea/+ & public congratulations1 bo? at home & 9 di/ant p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 & = a "t ,i 0 q a h]o4 ,! int]f]5ce ( ! au?orities ) my lib]ty1 & ! ne$less annoyances to :i* !y _h subject$ me1 _h r\s$ my indignation to a high pit*1 & aft] my lib]ation1 ,i wrote & spoke m viol5tly aga9/ ! ,gov]nm5t ?an ,i _h done be=e4 ,at l5g? ! great excitem5t 9 :i* ,i _h s long liv$1 & ! excessive labors 9 :i* ,i _h be5 s long engag$1 exhau/$ my /r5g?2 my heal? began to fail2 ,i ?\ght my con/itution 0 giv+ way1 s ,i resolv$ on "s *ange ( position & occupation4 ,i _h long suff]$ f dyspepsia4 ,= tw5ty ye>s ,i _h sp5t s mu* n]v\s en]gy 9 m5tal "w1 t ,i _h n suffici5t left to dige/ my food4 ,& ,i _h suff]$ 9 consequ5ce1 n only f viol5t he>t-burn1 b f a m di/ress+ pa9 at ! pit ( my /oma*4 ,i _h cont9ually1 or almo/ cont9ually1 = mon?s toge!r1 a feel+ z if a r$-hot bullet lay burn+ 9 my /oma*1 or z if "s liv+ creature 0 eat+ a hole ?r\gh ! bottom ( x4 ,i took m$ic9e1 b x gave me no relief4 ,! disuse ( intoxicat+ dr9ks _h once cur$ me = a "t1--cur$ me = "s ye>s 9 fact1--b ! tortur+1 depress+ s5sation came aga9 at la/1 & seem$ m ob/9ate ?an ev]4 ,9 #ahdg1 z ,i 0 leav+ home "o day 9 ! tra91 ,i 0 seiz$ ) a pa9 ( a mu* m dreadful description4 ,x seem$ z if x w\ld bur/ my /oma*1 or te> x 9 pieces1 & de/roy my life at once4 ,x cont9u$ = ne>ly an h\r4 ,x return$ repeat$ly1 & rema9$ sometimes = sev]al h\rs4 ,9 "s cases x tortur$ me all night4 ,vomit+ took x away1 s ,i frequ5tly took w>m wat] to produce vomit+4 ,i 0 advis$ to take m ex]cise 9 ! op5 air1 s ,i b\ght a gun & w5t out %oot+4 ,i pur*as$ a horse & c>riage too1 & w5t out rid+4 ,^! did me good4 ,b ,i f\nd t :5 ,i took c]ta9 k9ds ( food1 su* z ri* cakes1 ri* pies1 or ri* pudd+s1 ! pa9 return$4 ,s ,i began to d5y myself ( ^? luxuries4 ,b ev5 sp>e liv+ seem$ to lose its effect aft] a "t1 & fir/ ! gnaw+1 & !n ! /ret*+1 te>+1 r5d+ pa9 return$4 ,9 #ahdi1 ,i took a voyage to ,am]ica4 ,va/ numb]s ( my read]s want$ to emigrate to ,am]ica1 & !y look$ to me = in=mation respect+ ! c\ntry4 ,i _h giv5 !m ! be/ ,i c\ld get1 b !y want$ m & bett]4 ,!y want$ me to visit ! c\ntry1 & give !m ! result ( my obs]vations & inquiries4 ,i did s4 ,to fit myself ! bett] = giv+ !m c\nsel1 ,i cross$ ! ocean 9 a common emigrant sail+ vessel1 & saw h[ ! poor creatures f>$4 ,we 7 ne>ly eight weeks on ! wat]4 ,= mu* ( ! "t ! w9ds 7 idle4 ,!y refus$ to bl[4 ,!y might h /ruck = %ort] h\rs or bett] pay4 ,:5 !y did bl[1 !y blew ) all _! might1 b almo/ always 9 ! wrong direction2 z if !y reg>d$ u z _! enemies1 & 7 b5t on giv+ u all ! annoyance !y c\ld4 ,_m 7 sick2 m 7 discont5t$2 & all long$ we>ily = l&4 ,^! eight weeks 7 ! longe/ ones ,i ev] liv$4 ,!y look$ l ye>s4 ,at l5g? we got a sight ( l&1 & rejoic$ exce$+ly4 ,= myself1 ,i _h o!r feel+s z well z joy1 :5 ,i fir/ got sight ( ! great ,new ,_w ( :i* ,i _h he>d1 & read1 & ?\ght s mu*1 & s long1 & ( :i* ,i _h dreamt s (t54 ,= ,am]ica _h liv$ 9 my ?\ghts f my e>ly days2 & ! fir/ fa9t glimpse ( h] wood$ %ores ?rill$ my :ole s\l ) unspeakable emotions4 ,we l&$4 ,i exam9$ ! emigrant bo>d+ h\ses4 ,i s\ght in=mation ab\t "w & wages1 & ab\t means ( transport to ! ,we/4 ,i call$ on ,horace ,greeley & o!rs1 to :om ,i _h lett]s ( recomm5dation1 :o help$ me to books ab\t ! ,we/4 ,i made my way ?r\gh ,new ,york1 & across ,lake ,erie to ,clevel&4 ,i _h ?ree bro!rs :o 7 settl$ 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ,ohio1 & a numb] ( old fri5ds4 ,i visit$ !m4 ,i explor$ ,ohio4 ,i w5t into ,we/]n ,virg9ia1 & exam9$ "s l&s !re t _h be5 adv]tis$ = sale 9 ,engl&4 ,i pass$ on to ,mi*igan1 ,indiana1 ,ill9ois1 & ,wiscons94 ,i sp5t "s days 9 ,*icago4 ,! city 0 awfully dull4 ,! p 7 despond5t4 ,i almo/ ?9k ,i c\ld h b\ght ! :ole city = fifty ?\s& p\nds4 ,i _h a f>m (f]$ me = sev5 doll>s & a half an acre1 on :i* n[ a great "p ( ! city ,i suppose is built4 ,i w5t to ,milwaukie4 ,!re ! p seem$ m hopeful2 ?\gh sev]al 7 leav+ = w>m] climes4 ,x 0 autumn1 & ,i treat$ myself freely to ! pea*es & o!r ri* fruits ( ! c\ntry4 ,ab\t ! end ( ,octob] ,i />t$ = ,engl&1 9 "o ( ! ,cun>d ,/eam]s1 cross+ ! ocean 9 n9e days1 ab\t "o-six? ( ! "t ,i sp5t 9 ! voyage out4 ,i gave to my read]s an acc\nt ( all ,i _h se51 & he>d1 & read1 & ?\s&s ( !m left ! l& ( _! bir? 9 se>* ( homes 9 ! doma9s ( ! ,great ,republic4 ,"s got home-sick1 & curs$ me4 ,"s got pr(itable "w1 or promis+ f>ms1 & bless$ me4 ,& ,i le>n$ two lessons2 fir/1 t a man mu/ n look to m5 = ! rew>d ( 8 b5efic5t s]vices1 b to ,god & a good consci5ce2 &1 second1 t "s w be mis]able1 & t "s w be happy1 g :]e !y may3--t x is n ! l& !y live 91 b ! dispositions !y *]i%1 & ! life !y live1 t makes _! heav5 or hell4 ,i _h already made up my m9d to settle 9 ,am]ica myself1 & e>ly 9 #ahea ,i dispos$ ( my bus9ess1 & prep>$ to transport myself & my family to ,c5tral ,ohio4 ,i _h suff]$ s long f pa91 & weakness1 & depression1 & ,i 0 s utt]ly we>i$ ) cont9ual ov]-"w1 & s disgu/$ too ) ! gov]nm5t & in/itutions ( ! c\ntry1 & ) "s ( its inhabitants1 t ,i felt x an inf9ite relief to be fre$ f all fur!r c>e & conc]n ab\t bus9ess1 & 9 ! fir/ ru% ( my new wild joy1 ,i took my gun & blew (f "p ( ! top ( ! *imney ( my pr9t+ e/abli%m5t4 ,no *ild c\ld be wild] 9 8 delight1 :5 escap+ f long conf9em5t 9 a we>y s*ool1 & />t+ = ! long$-= society & pleasures ( 8 home4 ,b prep>+ = a j\rney ( f\r ?\s& miles1 ) wife & *ildr51 0 itself "w en\gh = a "t4 ,!re 7 a hundr$ ?+s to be b\ght1 :i* y w\ld ne$ 9 y\r new & f> (f home4 ,& !re 7 a ?\s& ?+s :i* y already _h1 to be pack$1 & z _m m to be set aside1 to be de/roy$1 or sold1 or giv5 away4 ,& !re 7 a ?\s& lett]s & pap]s to be exam9$1 & a judgm5t =m$1 z to :i* %\ld be pres]v$1 & :i* %\ld p]i% 9 ! flames4 ,& !re 7 visits to be paid & repaid1 & !re 7 p>t+s1 & regrets1 & te>s4 ,b all 0 ov] at l5g?1 & we 7 on our way to ! _w beyond ! flood4 ,x 0 pleasant to get away f "o's religi\s & political oppon5ts1 b pa9ful to "p ) s _m devot$ fri5ds1 :o _h prov$ _! affection = me & = my family by s _m sacrifices1 & _! /eadfa/ness 9 times ( s mu* trial4 ,b ,i _h hopes ( keep+ up my int]c\rse ) !m ?r\gh ! ,press1 & ( m9i/]+ to _! gratification & improvem5t by s5d+ !m acc\nts ( all ,i saw or le>nt ( an int]e/+ "* 9 ! l& to :i* ,i 0 go+4 ,i _h also hopes t a quiet home1 9 a retir$ & peaceful "p ( a new c\ntry1 might prove conducive to my own improvem5t & happ9ess4 ,"o ( ! objects ,i _h 9 view 9 go+ to ,am]ica 0 to obta9 a little quiet = calm reflection on ! c\rse ,i _h s long be5 pursu+1 & a sob] consid]ation ( ! position :i* ,i _h rea*$4 ,i 0 n satisfi$ t ! *anges :i* _h tak5 place 9 my views & way ( life1 s9ce my sep>ation f ! ,*ur* & ! m9i/ry1 _h all be5 *anges = ! bett]4 ,i _h _h suspicions = "s "t1 t amid/ ! :irl ( p]petual excitem5t 9 :i* ,i _h liv$1 & ! cont9ual succession ( angry conte/s 9 :i* ,i _h be5 engag$1 ,i _h probably miss$ my way on "s po9ts1 & ,i wi%$ = a favorable opportunity ( asc]ta9+ :e!r ^! suspicions 7 well gr\nd$ or n4 ,b :5 ,i got to ,am]ica ,i f\nd myself 9 a condition less fri5dly to calm reflection & to a j & imp>tial review ( my pa/ hi/ory1 ?an ! "o f :i* ,i _h fl$4 ,! v day we l&$ 9 ,new ,york we fell 9 ) ! ,hut*9son family4 ,i _h become acqua9t$ ) !m 9 ,engl&1 & _h sp5t "s "t 9 _! company1 & _h att5d$ "s ( _! conc]ts at ,le$s4 ,!y 7 to s+ t night 9 ,new ,york1 & we att5d$ ! p]=mance1 & 7 delight$ ) _! sweet wild music1 & ) _! wisdom & _! wit4 ,!y 7 all re=m]s ( ! radical s*ool1 & ?\gh _! songs & conv]sation 7 n immoral or pr(ane1 !y 7 advanc$ beyond ! b\nds ( religion1 into ! neutral gr\nd ( ,latitud9>ianism4 ,:5 we got to ,akron1 ,ohio1 we f\nd a ,woman's ,rights ,conv5tion 9 session2 & !re we got introduc$ to a numb] ( advanc$ spirits1 bo? male & female1 & 9 _! society became acqua9t$ ) q a multitude ( /range & lawless speculations1 ( :i*1 till !n1 we _h liv$ 9 happy or 9 w(ul ignorance4 ,we rea*$ at l5g? ! region :]e we 7 to make our home1 & n[ o!r matt]s engross$ my m9d4 ,i _h1 9 ! fir/ place1 a f>m to select1 & !n ! pur*ase to make4 ,i _h !n my goods to look aft]1 my h\se to arrange1 & my food to provide4 ,!n "w want$ do+ on ! f>m--a hundr$ k9ds ( "w1 all new1 & _m ( !m h>d & v p]plex+4 ,we want$ m5 to aid u2 & m5 7 n to be got2 or1 :5 got1 7 difficult to manage1 & h>d to please4 ,& horses1 & c[s1 & %eep1 7 want$2 & p\ltry1 & pigs2 & pl\ghs1 & h>r[s1 & wagons1 & h>ness4 ,& /oves & fuel 7 requir$4 ,& ! h\se _h to be enl>g$1 & ! b>ns rebuilt1 & ! g>d5s cultivat$1 & ! or*>d replant$4 ,& a hundr$ lessons on f>m+ _h to be le>nt1 & a hundr$ m to be unle>nt4 ,& we 7 always mak+ mi/akes1 & su/a9+ losses4 ,& our neighbors 7 n all t we c\ld wi%2 & we 7 n all t !y c\ld wi%4 ,x 0 impossible to avoid impositions1 & difficult to take inju/ice quietly2 s we remon/rat$1 & resi/$1 & made ?+s worse4 ,be=e we _h got ourselves fairly settl$ we began to be visit$ by a numb] ( fri5ds4 ,& _m ( ^? fri5ds 7 wild] & m extravagant1 9 _! views on religion & politics1 ?an myself2 & in/ead ( help+ me to quiet reflection1 did mu* to r5d] su* a ?+ impossible4 ,!y 7 mo/ly ,g>risonian ,abolitioni/s1 ) :om ,i _h become acqua9t$ :ile 9 ,engl&1 or ?r\gh ! m$ium ( anti-slav]y publications4 ,_m ( !m _h _h an exp]i5ce a good deal l my own4 ,!y _h be5 memb]s & m9i/]s ( *ur*es1 & _h got into tr\ble 9 consequ5ce ( _! re=m+ t5d5cies1 & _h at l5g? be5 ca/ out1 or oblig$ to )draw4 ,!y _h wag$ a long & bitt] w> aga9/ ! *ur*es & m9i/]s ( _! l&1 & _h become skeptics & unbeliev]s ( a some:at extravagant k9d4 ,h5ry ,c4 ,wright 0 an ,a!i/4 ,s 7 "s o!rs ( ! p>ty4 ,my own desc5t to skepticism 0 attributable 9 "s measure to my int]c\rse ) !m1 & to a p]usal ( _! works1 :ile 9 ,engl&4 ,! fir/ deadly bl[ 0 /ruck at my belief 9 ! sup]natural inspiration ( ! ,scriptures by ,h5ry ,c4 ,wright4 ,x 0 9 conv]sation ) him too t my belief 9 ! necessity ( *ur* organization 0 und]m9$1 & t ! way 0 smoo!d to t /ate ( utt] lawlessness :i* s naturally t5ds to infidelity & all ungodl9ess4 ,my respect = ! tal5ts ( ! abolitioni/s1 & ! int]e/ ,i felt 9 ! cause to :i* !y _h devot$ _! lives1 & ! sympa?y aris+ f ! simil> way 9 :i* we _h all be5 treat$ by ! *ur*es & prie/hoods ) :i* we _h come 9 contact1 dispos$ me1 fir/1 to reg>d _! skeptical views ) favor1 & !n to accept !m z true4 ,& n[ !y welcom$ me to _! native l&1 & embrac$ ! e>lie/ opportunity ( visit+ me 9 my new home4 ,& all t pass$ betwe5 u t5d$ to confirm u 9 our common unbelief4 ,i aft]w>ds f\nd t 9 "s ( ! abolitioni/s1 9 ne>ly all1 ,i fe>1 anti-*ri/ian views _h l$ to immoral habits1 :i* r5d]$ _! antipa?y to ,*ri/ianity all ! m bitt]4 ,9 almo/ all ( !m infidelity _h produc$ a lawlessness ( speculation on moral matt]s1 :i* c\ld h>dly fail to produce 9 ! end1 if x _h n already produc$1 great lic5ti\sness ( life4 ,i _h no soon] got ?+s com=tably fix$ at home1 ?an ,i receiv$ an invitation f ! ,am]ican ,anti-slav]y ,society1 to att5d _! ,annual ,meet+1 :i* 0 to be held 9 ,ro*e/]1 ,new ,york4 ,i w5t1 & !re ,i met ) ,s4 ,s4 ,fo/]1 ,abby ,kelly ,fo/]1 ,p>k] ,pillsbury1 ,c4 ,l4 ,remond1 ,h5ry ,c4 ,wright1 ,w5dell ,phillips1 ,w4 ,l4 ,g>rison1 ,lucy ,/one1 ,lucretia & ,lydia ,mott1 & a numb] ( o!r lead+ ,abolitioni/s4 ,"h too ,i met ) ,fr$]ick ,d\glas1 ! celebrat$ fugitive slave1 :o _h settl$ 9 ,ro*e/]1 & 0 publi%+ 8 pap] !re4 ,"s ( ! ,anti-,slav]y ,lead]s ,i _h se5 be=e 9 ,engl&1 & _h _h ! pleasure ( hav+ !m z my gue/s1 & ( enjoy+ _! conv]sation4 ,h5ry ,c4 ,wright1 ,w4 ,l4 ,g>rison1 ,fr$]ick ,d\glas1 & ,c4 ,l4 ,remond1 7 old acqua9tances4 ,! re/ ,i knew only by report3 b ,i _h read ! /ory ( _! labors & suff]+s 9 behalf ( ! negro slave1 & _h long$ = ye>s to make _! acqua9tance4 ,!y 71 9 my e/imation1 among ! be/ & brave/ ( _! race4 ,i _h read ( !m a ?\s& times ) ! greate/ int]e/1 & a ?\s& times ,i _h wi%$ = ! honor ( co-op]at+ ) !m 9 _! g5]\s labors4 ,& n[ ,i 0 9 _! mid/1 on ,am]ican soil4 ,& all seem$ glad to make my acqua9tance1 & eag] to te/ify _! reg>d = me1 & to welcome me to a %>e 9 _! b5evol5t labors4 ,i 0 soon at home ) !m all1 = !y 7 a free & he>ty p4 ,i att5d$ bo? _! public & _! private meet+s4 ,! anniv]s>y la/$ sev]al days1 & ! "t 0 "o cont9u$ ,fe/ival4 ,!re 7 p f almo/ e "p ( ! c\ntry1 & ! h\se ( e ,anti-,slav]y p]son 9 ! city 0 plac$ at ! s]vice ( ! visitors4 ,!y 7 z "o family1 & _h all ?+s 9 common4 ,! public meet+s 7 l>gely att5d$1 & ! audi5ces seem$ favorably impress$4 ,9 ! int]vals ,i visit$ ! ,falls on ! ,g5esee ,riv]4 ,m beautiful & en*ant+ sc5es ,i nev] beheld4 ,9 all b t]rible gr&eur !y equal1 if !y d n surpass1 ! ,falls ( ,niag>a4 ,& !re 0 an inf9ite abundance ( /range & excit+ conv]sation 9 _m ( ! circles1 n only on ,slav]y1 b on ! ,bible & ,religion1 on ! ,*ur* & ! ,prie/hood1 & on ,woman's ,rights1 & ! ,bloom] ,co/ume1 & ,m>riage ,laws1 & ,free-love1 & ,education1 & ,solomon's ,rod1 & ,non-resi/ance1 & ,human ,gov]nm5t1 & ,communism1 & ,individualism1 & ,unit>ianism1 & ,!odore ,p>k]ism1 & ,spiritualism1 & ,veget>ianism1 & ,teetotalism1 & ,deism1 & ,a!ism1 & ,clairvoyance1 & ,&rew ,jackson ,davis1 & ! ,am]ican ,congress1 & ,quak]ism1 & ,william ,h5ry ,*ann+1 & 8 j\rney to ,engl&1 & ,free-soil1 & ! ,public ,l&s1 & ! ,common ,"r to ! ,soil1 & ,r5t1 & ,int]e/1 & ,capital1 & ,labor1 & ,f\ri]ism1 & ,cong5iality ( ,_s1 & ,natural ,aff9ities1 & ,dome/ic ,difficulties1 &--! ,good "t ,com+4 ,all 7 full ( re=m1 & mo/ 7 wild & fanatical4 ,"s reg>d$ m>riage z unnatural1 & plead$ = ,free-love z ! law ( life4 ,"s 7 = ,communism1 b diff]$ z to ! =m :i* x ought to assume4 ,"o cont5d$ t all %\ld be p]fectly free1--t ea* %\ld be a law unto himself1 & %\ld "w1 & re/1 & eat1 & dr9k1 z 8 own free _s %\ld prompt him4 ,ano!r said t ! pr9ciple _h be5 tri$1 & _h fail$1--t "s 7 anxi\s to d all ! eat+1 & sleep+1 & lov+1 & left o!rs to d all ! work+4 ,joseph ,treat 0 !re1 advocat+ ,a!ism1 & def5d+ ! "r ( m5 & wom51 m>ri$ or s+le1 to give free play to native t5d5cies & sexual aff9ities4 ,b ,treat 0 indiff]5tly clad1 & n well wa%$1 & he 0 evid5tly no great favorite4 99 99 99 ,mo/ 7 9 favor ( non-resi/ance1 & full individual fre$om4 ,to ackn[l$ge ! "r ( human gov]nm5t & ( human laws1 0 treason to humanity4 ,man is a law to himself4 ,he is 8 own gov]nor4 ,! ,prote/ant pr9ciple ( ! "r ( private judgm5t & lib]ty ( consci5ce /rikes at ! root ( all ! gov]nm5ts on e>?4 ,ea* "o's nature is 8 own sole law4 ,! "o pr9ciple ( duty is1 = e "o to d t :i* is "r 9 8 own eyes4 ,! pr9ciple ( ! ,anti-,slav]y ,society means t1 & nei!r m nor less4 ,& ! ,anti-,slav]y ,society w1 aft] emancipat+ ! negro1 de/roy all ! gov]nm5ts1 remodel all ! laws & in/itutions1 & emancipate all ! nations ( ! e>?4 ,( c\rse ! laws ( m>riage w fall to ! gr\nd4 ,:y n8 ,!y orig9at$ only ) m51--) m5 :o liv$ 9 d>k] times1 & :o 7 less develop$1 ?an we4 ,x w\ld be /range if *ildr5 c\ld make laws fit to gov]n m54 ,& ) ! laws ( m>riage w g ! laws ( prop]ty 9 l&4 ,l& 0 common prop]ty at fir/1 & :at "r _h any "o to make x private8 ,! fir/ man :o appropriat$ l& 0 a ?ief4 ,& ^? :o inh]it$ x f him 7 receiv]s ( /ol5 goods4 ,& ! title t 0 vici\s at fir/ c\ld nev] be made valid by "t4 ,! cont9uance ( a wrong c nev] make x "r4 ,all[ t m5 h a "r to ! l& 9 consequ5ce ( long possession & inh]itance1 & y mu/ all[ t m5 may h a "r to _! slaves4 ,! "r to l&1 & ! "r to slaves1 are n s diff]5t z "s w\ld suppose4 ,:at is man's "r to 8 own body wor?1 if he is depriv$ ( 8 "r to ! l&8 ,man lives f ! l&1 & unless he has a "r to ! l&1 he c h no "r to life4 ,a "r to life implies a "r to ! l&4 ,m5 live on ! l& z well z f x2 & if !y h n a "r to ! l&1 !y c h no "r to live4 ,& man has a "r to p]fect fre$om4 ,life )\t fre$om is slav]y2 & slav]y is ! ext9ction ( all rights1 ! "r to life includ$4 ,& woman has equal rights ) man4 ,& *ildr5 h equal rights ) ei!r4 ,! idea t human be+s h no rights till !y are tw5ty-"o1 is mon/r\s4 ,:at mighty *ange is x t takes place at ! mom5t a p]son rea*es ! age ( tw5ty-"o1 t he %\ld be a slave a mom5t be=e1 & a free man a mom5t aft]8 ,no *ange at all takes place4 ,! rights ( a human be+ are ! gift ( ,nature1 & n ! gift ( ! law4 ,:o au?oriz$ m5 to make laws = "o ano!r8 ,9 mak+ m5 diff]5t f ea* o!r1 ,nature has made x impossible = "o man to legislate wisely = ano!r4 ,! majority h a "r to rule !mselves1 b !y h no fight to rule ! m9ority4 ,all rights are ! rights ( individuals1 & ! rights ( individuals compos+ a m9ority1 are ! same z ! rights ( individuals compos+ a majority4 ,a man may elect a repres5tative2 b he _c be b\nd by a repres5tative elect$ by o!rs4 ,*ildr5 %\ld be educat$1 n by =ce or au?ority1 b by attraction4 ,! assumption ( au?ority ov] a *ild by a p>5t is usurpation2 ! use ( au?ority ov] a *ild is tyranny4 ,! individuality ( a *ild is its life1 & life is sacr$4 ,to de/roy individuality is murd]4 ,we h no "r to take ,nature's place1 & make a human be+ some?+ diff]5t f :at %e has =m$ him4 ,solomon's rod & ,paul's au?ority are alike immoral4 ,all %\ld be gov]n$ by _! attractions1 l ! orbs ( heav51 & ! con/itu5ts ( ! e>?4 ,! law ( ,nature is "o1 bo? = liv+ m5 & dead matt]4 ,our sympa?ies & aff9ities are our only rul]s4 ,!y are ourselves1--our be/ selves1--& to all[ ei!r law or rul] to int]f]e ) !m1 is self-de/ruction4 ,we are no long] ourselves :5 we all[ ourselves to be controll$ by ! w or p[] ( ano!r4 ,animals h equal rights ) man4 ,! poet 0 "r :5 he said1 ,take n away ! life ?\ can/ n give1 ,= all ?+s h an equal "r to live4 ,h[ c man h a "r to take away ! life ( an animal8 ,! l[] animals occupi$ ! _w be=e man1 & man1 a lat] com]1 c\ld n abrogate ! prior rights ( 8 pr$ecessors4 ,! use ( animal food is unnatural4 ,x is unheal?y4 ,9 fe$+ on o!r liv+ creatures man degrades1 corrupts1 & !n de/roys himself4 ,& vegetables1 gra9s1 & fruits %\ld be tak5 9 _! natural /ate4 ,! art ( cook+ is an unnatural innovation4 ,! fir/ ( our race did n cook4 ,man is ! only cook+ animal1 & he is ! only sickly "o4 ,he is ! only "o t loses 8 tee?1 or suff]s f indige/ion4 ,teetotalism is b9d+ on all4 ,alcohol is an unnatural product4 ,man is ! only be+ unnatural en\gh to dr9k x4 ,grapes are good1 & s is gra92 b w9e1 & be]1 & spirits1 are a tr9ity ( devils1 :i* de/roy ! bodies & torm5t ! s\ls ( unnatural m54 ,!re is no ,god1 said "o4 ,gods & devils are alike fanta/ic creatures ( ! err+ m9d ( man4 ,b !re mu/ be a ,god1 said ano!r4 ,all nature cries al\d !re is a ,god4 ,our own he>ts' in/9cts--our highe/ intuitions1--assure u !re is4 ,z well d5y ! univ]se1 & ! primal intuitions ( humanity1 z ! be+ ( ,god4 ,a ,god & a future life are necessities ( human nature4 ,& !re is1 )\t u1 a supply = e want )9 u4 ,z soon w y f9d a race ( be+s ) appetites = food1 = :om no food is provid$1 z a race ) long+s = ,god & desires = immortality1 :ile no ,god & immortality exi/ to meet ^? long+s1 to satisfy ^? desires4 ,b if !re be a ,god to answ] to our long+s1 & a bless$ immortality to satisfy our desires1 :y n a devil to answ] to our fe>s1 & a hell to answ] to our guilty t]rors8 ,& w\ld a ,god leave u )\t a revelation ( 8 w4 ,! in/9cts ( our nature are ! revelation ( ,god's w4 ,to obey our in/9cts is to obey ! law ( ,god4 ,!n is ! law ( ,god z v>i\s z m5's natural t5d5cies8 ,does ! murd]]1 ^: t5d5cy is to kill1 obey ! law ( ,god1 z well z ! victim :o /ruggles to escape 8 doom8 ,& does ! eagle obey ! law ( ,god 9 p\nc+ on ! dove1 & ! dove 9 seek+ to evade its talons8 ,is e t5d5cy ! law ( ,god8 ,if x be ! w ( ,god t ! p[]ful t5d5cies ( "s %\ld neutralize ! feebl] t5d5cies ( o!rs1 is n might1 "r8 ,& if might be "r1 :y murmur at any?+ t is8 ,= ev]y?+ t is1 exi/s by virtue ( its might3 & e ?+ t p]i%es1 p]i%es 9 virtue ( its weakness4 ,are y n sanction+ ! doctr9e ( ! ,optimi/1 & say+ ) ,pope1 ,9 spite ( s5se1 9 err+ reason's spite1 ,"o tru? is cle>--:atev] is1 is ,,"r4 ,:atev] is1 is "r1 says ano!r4 ,x is ! result ( et]nal wisdom1 ( almighty p[]1 & inf9ite love4 ,god is all p]fect1 & ,he is all 9 all4 ,a p]fect ,god c\ld h no?+ %ort ( a p]fect object 9 all ,8 works1 a p]fect motive prompt+ ,him1 a p]fect rule to guide ,him2 &1 z ! au?or ( all exi/5ce1 a p]fect mat]ial out ( :i* to make ! creatures ( ,8 love4 ,all is p]fect4 ,x is m5's own imp]fection t makes !m ?9k o!rwise4 ,all is p]fect1 y say1 yet man is imp]fect2 & 8 imp]fection makes him ?9k o!r ?+s imp]fect4 ,all is p]fect1 yet some?+ is imp]fect2 & t some?+ is ! mo/ p]fect or ! lea/ imp]fect creature 9 exi/5ce4 ,imp]fection itself is a "p ( p]fection1 says ! ,optimi/4 ,z discords are necess>y to ! highe/ musical compositions2 s imp]fection is necess>y to ! highe/ p]fection4 ,! mo/ difficult po9t ( all1 says a philosophical ,unit>ian1 is t ( necessity4 ,e ?+ mu/ h a cause4 ,man's actions are ! result ( physical causes2 yet man is consci\sly free4 ,man is no m free ?an ! planets1 says an ,a!i/4 ,he acts freely1 z ! planets d1--t is1 he acts 9 h>mony ) 8 t5d5cies1--9 h>mony ) ! causes ( 8 actions1--! causes ( 8 actions cause !m by caus+ him to w !m1 by incl9+ him to d !m2 & ! causes ( planet>y action produce t action 9 ! same way3 b ! fre$om & ! necessity are ! same 9 ! "o case z 9 ! o!r4 ,all is free1 & all is b\nd4 ,! *a9 is inf9ite1 et]nal1 & almighty4 ,! diff]5ce betwe5 man & a planet is1 t man is consci\s ( 8 acts1 & ! planet is n4 ,!n duty is a dream1 said a ?ird1 & consci5ce a delusion2 & responsibility a fiction2 & virtue & vice are alike unwor?y ( ei!r praise or blame1 rew>d or puni%m5t4 ,a tree is n responsible1 said ! ,necessit>ian1 yet we cut x d[n1 if x be>s no fruit2 & we cut (f ! natural bran*es1 & ins]t new scions1 if its fruit is n to our lik+4 ,a musquito is irresponsible1 yet we kill x :5 x gives u pa94 ,a horse is irresponsible1 yet we c>ess x :5 x gives u pleasure4 ,s man is no m ?an a tree1 a musquito1 or a horse6 ,& selfi%ness is ! measure ( our duty6 ,we c>ess or kill z we are pleas$ or pa9$4 ,& s ! conv]sation ran on 9 "o p>ty4 ,9 ano!r ! ,bible is ! subject ( conv]sation4 ,b "h all are agre$ on ! pr9cipal po9t4 ,no "o reg>ds x z ( sup]natural orig91 or ( ,div9e au?ority4 ,! "q is1 :e!r ! ,anti-,slav]y ,society %all ackn[l$ge t ! cl]gy are "r 9 say+ t ! ,bible sanctions ,slav]y4 ,t x does sanction ,slav]y is c]ta91 says "o4 ,abraham 0 a slave-hold]1 a slave-trad]1 & a slave-bre$]4 ,isaac inh]it$ 8 slave prop]ty4 ,jacob _h slaves1 & _h (fspr+ by two ( !m4 ,moses all[s ! ,jews to buy up ! nations r\nd ab\t !m1 & to hold !m z slaves1 z a possession1 & to transmit !m z an inh]itance to _! *ildr5 = ev]4 ,! ,decalogue recognizes slaves z prop]ty4 ,jesus nev] condemns slave-hold+1 & ,paul returns a fugitive1 to 8 ma/]4 ,take ! cl]gy at _! ^w4 ,ackn[l$ge t _! sacr$ book does sanction ,slav]y4 ,ackn[l$ge t x all[s a ma/] to flog 8 slave to dea?1 on ! gr\nd t ! slave is 8 money4 ,ackn[l$ge too t x all[s ! slave-hold] to make 8 female slaves 8 concub9es4 ,ackn[l$ge e ?+4 ,take ! prea*]s' side 9 ! matt]1 & y w %ock ! prea*]s1 & y w %ock ! public1 & cause !m to give up ! def5ce ( ,slav]y4 ,! slave-hold]s are n gov]n$ by ! ,bible1 says ano!r4 ,_! appeal to x is only a pret5ce1--an argum5tum ad hom9em4 ,!y favor ,slav]y because x is pr(itable1 & because !y l x4 ,make x unpr(itable1 & !y w soon f9d a diff]5t int]pretation = ! ,bible4 ,%[ t ! ,bible is no au?ority1--t x is m]ely a human book1--& y take away _! argum5t = ,slav]y1 said "o4 ,_! argum5t is =ce1 said ano!r1 & y w nev] aboli% ,slav]y till y take up arms & cru% ! tyrants4 ,b ! ,bible is ! "q1 says a ?ird4 ,call a ,conv5tion to discuss ! ,bible1 said ,i1 & ! ,conv5tion 0 accord+ly call$4 ,& ?us ! conv]sation ran 9 private circles1 dur+ ! int]vals ( ! public meet+s4 ,i _h suppos$1 t z ! p ( ,am]ica _h got a ,democratic =m ( gov]nm5t1 no fur!r re=ms 7 necess>y1 except ! ,abolition ( ,slav]y4 ,i n[ f\nd h[ev] t !re 7 m ,re=m]s1 & a great] v>iety ( ,re=m]s1 9 ! circle into :i* ,i _h fall51 ?an 9 ,engl&4 ,!re 0 no?+ "r1--no?+ z x ought to be4 ,! family1 ! *ur*1 ! s*ool1 ! gov]nm5t1 religion1 morals1 & ev5 nature 7 all wrong4 ,! _w 0 full ( prejudice4 ,we 7 heirs ( all ! mi/akes ( our =efa!rs = a ?\s& g5]ations4 ,e ?+ wants de/roy+1 said "o1 t e ?+ may be creat$ anew4 ,! oracle ( ! univ]se cries1 ,behold1 ,i make all ?+s new2 & t oracle we ought to e*o2 & on t oracle we ought to act4 ',:5 ,i 0 a *ild1 ,i ?\ght z a *ild1 ,i spoke z a *ild1 ,i und]/ood z a *ild2 b :5 ,i became a man1 ,i put away *ildi% ?+s4' ,su* 0 ! language ( ! great ,re=m] ( antiquity4 ,! human race %\ld adopt ! same language1 & foll[ ! great example4 ,! race %\ld say1 ',:5 ,i 0 a *ild1 ,i ?\ght z a *ild1 ,i spoke z a *ild1 ,i und]/ood z a *ild2 b n[1 hav+ become a man1 ,i w put away *ildi% ?+s4' ,i w put away my *ildi% ?\ghts on religion1 on sci5ce1 on morals1 on gov]nm5t1 on education1 on m>riage1 on slav]y1 on w>1 on e ?+4 ,! fact t !y are old1 is a pro( !y are wrong4 ,! clo!s :i* fit a *ild _c fit a man4 ,! notions1 ! in/itutions1 ! laws1 :i* 7 good = ! _w's infancy1 _c be good = its manhood4 ,& !y %all be put away1 s f> z ,i am conc]n$1 said a lady4 ,& !y %all be put away1 s f> z ,i am conc]n$1 answ]$ ano!r4 ,ye are born aga91 says a ?ird4 ,t noble decl>ation proves y new creatures4 ,old ?+s are pass$ away2 behold1 all ?+s are become new4 ,a ?\s& wild s5tim5ts 7 utt]$2 a ?\s& extravagant ?+s 7 said2 & _m unwise ?+s 7 done4 ,x 0 pla9 t a lic5se ( ?\ght 0 prep>+ ! way1 _h already prep>$ ! way1 = a lic5se ( de$4 ,?is lic5se produc$ a fe>ful am\nt ( mis*ief be=e long4 ,x _h produc$ no little !n4 ,_m a dome/ic s*ism1--_m a disgraceful alliance1--_m a brok5 he>t1--7 ! result ( ^? lawless1 wanton speculations4 ,& "s came to see _! folly & rep5t$ 9 "p4 ,lucy ,/one decl>$ %e w\ld nev] m>ry accord+ to law2 b %e m>ri$ accord+ to law 9 ! end1 cont5t+ h]self ) record+ a va9 & fooli% prote/4 ,h>riet ,k4 ,hunt w\ld nev] pay any m taxes till %e 0 all[$ to vote1 & 0 eligible to ! ,presid5cy ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,:e!r %e has paid h] tax or n we d n "k2 b %e has n yet got a vote1 & is c]ta9ly n yet ! ,presid5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,mrs4 ,c4 ,l4 made a decl>ation1 ! publication ( :i* cov]$ h] h>d-work+ & excell5t husb& ) %ame2 b %e too has s9ce se5 h] error1 & endeavor$ to make all ?+s "r4 ,x 0 r amus+1 b some:at />tl+1--x 0 v bewild]+1 yet v in/ructive1--to li/5 to all ! projects & !ories ( a multitude ( ?\ghtful p1 sudd5ly emancipat$ f religion & moral obligation1 & f law & cu/om1 & to speculate on :at might be ! result ( s mu* extravagance4 ,x put humanity be=e "o 9 a new light4 ,x 0 a new revelation4 ,& all ^? p 7 educat$ up to ! ,am]ican /&>d4 ,& !y 7 all 9 tol]able circum/ances4 ,"s 7 ri*1 & mo/ 7 own]s ( ! l&s on :i* !y liv$4 ,sev]al ( !m _h be5 m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel4 ,_m ( !m 7 au?ors4 ,& _! appe>ance & mann]s 7 (t5 equal to ^? ( ! be/4 ,& "s ( !m c\ld h>dly be excell$ z public speak]s4 ,"s ( ! lady speak]s 7 ! be/ ,i ev] he>d4 ,aft] m+l+ 9 su* society1 & witness+ su* a /range break+ up ( ! f\nta9s ( ! great deep ( ?\ght1 & fancy1 & animal passion1 x is h>d to say :at might n take place 9 ! _w1 if ! _s ( infidel re=m :i* is p]vad+ ! nations %\ld become g5]al4 ,i return$ to my home nei!r a bett] nor a wis] man4 ,b ,i 0 full ( ?\ght4 ,i _h be5 afraid t 9 ! excitem5t ( controv]sy1 & "u ! sm>t ( p]secution1 ,i _h gone too f>4 ,b "h 7 p :o _h gone immeasurably f>!r4 ,i 0 afraid ,i _h be5 too ra%4 ,b "h 7 pleasant look+ & educat$ p1 comp>$ ) :om ,i 0 ! p]fection ( sobriety4 ,& ! s5se ( my comp>ative mod]ation quiet$ my fe>s1 prev5t$ salut>y inve/igation1 & prep>$ me to g /ill f>!r 9 ! way ( d\bt4 ,new books 7 plac$ 9 my h&s1 all favorable to anti-*ri/ian views4 ,i got new fri5ds & acqua9tances1 & all 7 ( ! d\bt+1 unbeliev+ class4 ,sev]al ( !m 7 a!i/s1 & ins9uat$ d\bts ) reg>d to ! f\ndation ( all religi\s belief4 ,till my settlem5t 9 ,am]ica ,i _h cont9u$ to believe1 n only 9 ,god1 & provid5ce1 & pray]1 b 9 immortality2 & to look on ,a!ism z ! extreme ( folly4 ,b n[ my fai? 9 ^? doctr9es began to be %ak54 ,in/ead ( draw+ back f ! gulf ( utt] unbelief1 & retrac+ my /eps t[>d ,*ri/ z ,i _h p>tly hop$1 ,i got f>!r a/ray2 & ?\gh ,i did n plunge headlong into ,a!ism1 ,i came ne> to ! dreadful abyss1 & 0 n a little bewild]$ ) ! horrible mi/s t float$ r\nd its br9k4 ,?us my hopes ( calm & quiet ?\ght1 & ( a sob] reconsid]ation ( ! /eps ,i _h tak5 9 ! pa? ( d\bt & unbelief1 7 all1 alas6 explod$1 & ! la/ /ate ( my s\l 0 worse ?an ! fir/4 ,to make ?+s worse1 ,i got into tr\ble ) my ,*ri/ian neighbors4 ,my ali5ation f ,*ri/ _h already produc$ 9 me a det]ioration ( "*4 ,i 0 n exactly aw>e ( x at ! "t1 & if ,i _h be5 told ( x1 ,i might n h be5 able to believe x2 b su* 0 really ! case4 ,! matt] is cle> to me n[ pa/ d\bt4 ,i _h become less c\rte\s1 less conciliatory1 less agreeable4 ,i _h disc>d$1 to "s ext5t1 ! ,*ri/ian doctr9es ( meekness & humility4 ,my temp] _h suff]$4 ,i 0 soon] provok$1 & 0 less =giv+1 ,i 0 m prompt 9 ass]t+ my rights1 & m prone p]haps to reg>d z rights :at 7 no su* ?+s4 ,& ,i made myself enemies 9 consequ5ce1 & got into unhappy disputes & pa9ful excitem5ts4 ,i imag9$1 ,i suppose1 :ile 9 ,engl&1 t ! di/urb]s ( my peace 7 all outside me1 & t :5 ,i w5t to ,am]ica ,i %\ld leave !m all beh9d2 b ,i see n[ t _m ( !m 7 )9 me1 & t ,i c>ri$ !m ) me ov] ! sea1 to my f>-(f ,we/]n home4 ,& !y gave me z mu* tr\ble 9 my new abode z !y _h giv5 me 9 my old "o4 ,x is ! /ate ( our m9ds t det]m9es ! measure ( our bliss4 ,z ,burns says1 ,if happ9ess h n h] seat ,& c5tre 9 ! brea/1 ,we may be wise1 or ri*1 or great1 ,b nev] c be ble/4 ,no treasures1 nor pleasures4 ,c make u happy long2 ,! he>t ay's ! "p ay ,t makes u "r or wrong4 ,& my he>t 0 out ( tune1 & t5d$ to put ev]y?+ ar\nd me out ( tune4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,/ory ,,( ,,my ,,desc5t ,,f ,,! ,,fai? ,,( ,,my ,,*ildhood1 ,,to ,,d\bt ,,& ,,unbelief4 ,my p>5ts 7 ,me?odi/s ( ! /ricte/ k9d1 & !y did _! utmo/ to make _! *ildr5 ,me?odi/s4 ,& !y 7 v successful4 ,!y _h elev5 *ildr51 t5 ( :i* became memb]s ( ! ,me?odi/ ,society be=e !y 7 tw5ty ye>s ( age2 & ev5 ! odd "o did n escape ! influ5ce ( religion altoge!r4 ,i 0 a believ] 9 ,god & ,*ri/1 9 duty & immortality1 f my e>lie/ days4 ,& my fai? 0 /rong4 ,?+s spiritual 7 z real to me z ?+s natural4 ,?+s se5 & ?+s unse51 ?+s temporal & ?+s et]nal1 =m$ "o great :ole1--"o solemn & b\ndless univ]se4 ,i liv$ & brea!d 9 a spiritual _w4 ,my p>5ts 7 rigor\sly consi/5t4 ,!y 7 true ,*ri/ians4 ,!y n only talk$1 b look$ & liv$ z p]sons :o felt !mselves 9 ! pres5ce ( a great & holy ,god1 & 9 ! face ( an awful et]nity2 & ! influ5ce ( _! godly life1 & daily pray]s1 & solemn c\nsels fell on me ) a p[] t 0 irresi/ible4 ,if ! doctr9e taught me 9 my e>ly days _h be5 ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/1 & ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/ alone1 9 a =m adapt$ to my y\?ful m9d1 ! probability is1 t ,i %\ld h gr[n up to manhood1 & pass$ ?r\gh life a happy1 useful & consi/5t ,*ri/ian4 ,b ,i 0 taught o!r doctr9es4 ,?\gh my fa!r & "m taught me little b :at 0 ,*ri/ian1 doctr9es 7 taught me by o!rs t %ock$ bo? my reason & my s5se ( "r4 ,i 0 taught1 among o!r ?+s1 t 9 consequ5ce ( ! s9 ( ,adam1 ,god _h caus$ me to come into ! _w utt]ly deprav$1 & incapable1 till ,i 0 made ov] aga91 ( ?9k+ "o good ?\ght1 ( speak+ "o good ^w1 or ( do+ "o good de$4 ,i felt t ,i did ?9k good ?\ghts1 & t ,i _h good feel+s1 & t ,i bo? said & did good ?+s4 ,b ?is ,i 0 told 0 a great delusion3--t no?+ 0 good1 & t no?+ 0 pleas+ to ,god1 unless x came f fai? 9 ,*ri/4 ,b ,i _h fai? 9 ,*ri/4 ,i believ$ 9 ,him ) all my he>t4 ,i _h believ$ 9 ,him f ! fir/4 ,! answ] 0 t ,i _h believ$ ) a common k9d ( fai?1 b t x 0 ano!r k9d ( fai? t 0 necess>y to salvation1 & t :atsoev] did n spr+ f ?is o!r k9d ( fai?1 0 s94 ,& ,i 0 giv5 to und]/&1 t if ,i ?\ght o!rwise1 x 0 because ( ! naught9ess ( my he>t1 :i*1 ,i 0 told1 0 deceitful above all ?+s1 & desp]ately wick$4 ,:at ?is o!r k9d ( fai? 01 ,i did n "k1 & c\ld n le>n4 ,i 0 !n told t ! natural man c\ld n und]/& ! ?+s ( ! ,_s1 & t be=e ,i c\ld und]/& !m1 ,i mu/ exp]i5ce a *ange f nature to grace2 all ( :i* 0 pa/ my compreh5sion4 ,i 0 !n in=m$ t ,i mu/ wait till ,god reveal$ ^? ?+s unto me by ,8 ,_s4 ,b ?is made ! matt] no pla9]4 ,i 0 fur!r taught1 t ,i 01 9 "s way1 answ]able = ,adam's s91--t ,god made ,adam ! f$]al head ( all mank9d1 & t all 7 b\nd by :at he did2--t if he _h done "r1 all w\ld h come into ! _w pure1 & good1 & happy1 & sure ( et]nal life2 b t ?r\gh 8 s91 we wore all born1 n only utt]ly deprav$1 b guilty & liable to et]nal damnation4 ,!n foll[$ /range ?+s ab\t satisfaction to (f5d$ ju/ice1 tru/ 9 ,*ri/'s m]its & righte\sness1 ju/ification1 reg5]ation1 & sanctification1 all my/]ies z d>k to me z night4 ,sometime aft]1 ,i f\nd 9 my ,cate*ism ! doctr9e ( ,god's absolute & inf9ite =e-k1--! doctr9e t f et]nity ,god knew :o %\ld be sav$ & :o %\ld be lo/4 ,?is gave me ! mo/ t]rible %ock ( all4 ,x 0 pla9 t my doom 0 fix$ =ev]4 ,= if x 0 c]ta9ly =ekn[n1 x mu/ he un*angeably fix$4 ,^! dreadful doctr9es fill$ me ) horror4 ,!y all b drove me mad4 ,= a "t1 :5 ,i 0 ab\t eight or n9e ye>s old1 !y did drive me mad4 ,!y 7 m ?an my nature c\ld be>4 ,i felt t if ?+s 7 z ^! doctr9es repres5t$ !m to be1 ! ways ( ,god 7 horribly unju/4 ,& z ,i c\ld d no o!r ?an believe ! doctr9es1 my :ole s\l rose 9 rebellion aga9/ ,god4 ,i suppos$1 z a matt] ( c\rse1 t ,i %\ld be s5t to hell = my rebelli\sness2 /ill ,i rebell$4 ,x seem$ a dreadful ?+ t ,god %\ld hang "o's et]nal de/9y on ?+s t 7 n 9 "o's own p[]4 ,i ?\ght t if p c\ld n d all t ,god requir$ ( !m1 ,he ought to all[ !m to fall back into _! orig9al no?+ness4 ,my m9d especially revolt$ aga9/ ! arrangem5t :i* ,god 0 said to h made ) ,adam1 & ! t]rible consequ5ces entail$ !reby on 8 po/]ity4 ,to br+ m5 into be+1 & =ce !m to live on =ev]1 & at ! same "t to hang _! et]nal de/9y on ano!r1 or on some?+ beyond _! p[]1 seem$ dreadfully unju/4 ,i felt t e man ought to be all[$ a fair trial = himself1 & to /& or fall by 8 own do+s4 ,& no?+ c\ld make me feel t ,i 0 really answ]able = ! s9 ( ,adam1 any m ?an t ,adam 0 answ]able = my s9s4 ,& h[ ,god c\ld impute "o man's s9 to ano!r1 0 pa/ all compreh5sion4 ,& ,i felt1 t if matt]s 7 manag$ z !y 7 repres5t$ to be1 ! gov]nm5t ( ! univ]se 0 n "r4 ,b suppos+ t ,god _h a "r to d z ,he pleas$1 & n kn[+ t ,he 0 s good t x 0 impossible t ,he %\ld ev] please to d wrong1 ,i suff]$ 9 sil5ce4 ,b ,i (t5 said to myself1 ',god does n deal fairly ) mank9d1' & my feel+s t[>ds ,him 7 any?+ b ^? ( love & gratitude4 ,s f> 0 ,i f feel+ any obligation to ,him1 t ,i look$ on my exi/5ce z a trem5d\s curse1 & ,i w\ld gladly h cons5t$ to und]go any am\nt ( torm5t1 = any l5g? ( "t %ort ( et]nity1 = ! privilege ( be+ all[$ to return to my orig9al no?+ness4 ,! ?\ght t ev5 ?is 0 too mu* to be hop$ =1--t x 0 fix$ un*angeably t ,i mu/ live on =ev]1 & t !re 0 b "o d>k pa?1 :i* ,i might nev] be able to f9d1 by :i* ,i c\ld escape ! unb\nd$ & un5d+ torm5ts ( hell1 d>k5$ all ! days ( my e>ly y\?1 & made me exce$+ly mis]able4 ,"s k9d ( bl9d unbelief1 or a p>tial spiritual slumb] at l5g? came ov] me1 & made x possible = me to live4 ,b ev5 !n my life 0 any?+ b a happy "o4 ,i _c give ! /ory ( my life at l5g?2 b ,i aft]w>ds got ov] ! difficulties ( my e>ly cre$1 or ex*ang$ ! blasphem\s horrors ( !ology = ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/1 & became a *e]ful1 joy\s ,*ri/ian1 & a happy & successful ,*ri/ian m9i/]4 ,z ,i h said 9 ,*apt] f\rte5?1 ,i reg>d$ ! ,bible z ! ,^w ( ,god f my e>ly *ildhood4 ,i believ$ e ^w to be true1 & e comm& to be b9d+4 ,my fai?1 at fir/1 re/$ on ! te/imony ( my p>5ts & tea*]s1 & ( ^? among :om ,i liv$4 ,e "o ,i he>d speak ( ! ,book1 spoke ( x z div9e1 & ! ?\ght t x might be o!rwise did n1 t ,i rememb]1 ev] ent] my m9d4 ,?is my h]$it>y fai? 9 ! ,bible 0 /r5g!n$ by ! in/9ctive t5d5cies ( my m9d to believe 9 ,god1 & 9 all ! great doctr9es :i* ! book inculcat$4 ,! fir/ attempt to prove ! div9ity ( ! ,bible1 ( :i* ,i h any recollection1 0 made by my "m1 :ile ,i 0 yet a *ild4 ,:at l$ h] to make ! attempt ,i d n rememb]4 ,x might be "s p]plex+ "q t ,i _h ask$ h]2 = ,i us$ to propose to h] puzzl+ que/ions sometimes4 ,h] argum5t 01--',bad m5 c\ld n write su* a book1 & good m5 w\ld n4 ,x mu/ !re=e1 h be5 writt5 by ,god4' ,ano!r argum5t t ,i rememb] to h he>d 9 ^? days 01--',no man w\ld write ! ,bible :o did n "k x to be true2 because x tells li>s t _! portion w be 9 ! lake ( fire & brim/one4' ,!re 0 also an impression among su* p z my p>5ts1 t ! ,bible 0 s good a book1 & t x wr\ght ) su* a bless$ p[] ^u _! s\ls1 t x 0 impossible x %\ld be writt5 by any "o b ,god4 ,! la/ _h probably ! greate/ effect ^u _! m9ds4 ,!n !y f\nd 9 ! ,bible s _m ?+s 9 h>mony ) _! be/ affections1 _! moral in/9cts1 & _! religi\s feel+s1 t !y felt z if !y _h pro( ( its heav5ly orig9 9 _! own s\ls4 ,i came1 at "o p]iod ( my life1 to look on ^! argum5ts ) contempt4 ,& x is c]ta91 t to give !m mu* =ce ) m5 ( logical habits1 !y w\ld require qualification1 & consid]able illu/ration4 ,b !y are none ( !m s fooli% z ,i once suppos$4 ,z = ! la/ two1 !y are1 :5 pres5t$ 9 a prop] way1 unansw]able4 ,!re 0 ano!r argum5t t 0 sometimes us$1 namely1--t ?\gh ! diff]5t portions ( ! ,bible 7 writt5 by p]sons ( widely di/ant ages1 ( diff]5t occupations & ranks1 & ( v diff]5t degrees ( culture1 !y all aim at "o end1 all be> "o way1 & all t5d to make m5 good & happy to ! la/ degree4 ,?is is a great fact1 & :5 prop]ly consid]$1 may well be accept$ z a pro( t ! ,bible1 z a :ole1 is f ,god4 ,:at effect ^! argum5ts _h on my m9d 9 my e>ly days1 ,i d n exactly rememb]1 b ! probability is1 t !y help$ to /r5g!n my in/9ctive & h]$it>y fai? 9 ! div9e orig9 ( ! ,bible4 ,?is my in/9ctive & h]$it>y fai? 0 a great & b5efic5t p[]1 & w\ld h prov$ an ine/imable bless+1 if x _h be5 pres]v$ un%ak5 ?r\gh life4 ,& ,i am sorry x 0 n4 ,i h no sympa?y ) ^? :o speak ( d\bt z a bless+1 & :o recomm5d p to demoli% _! fir/ belief1 t !y may raise a bett] /ructure 9 its place4 ,we d n de/roy our fir/ & l[] life1 to prep>e ! way = a high] spiritual life4 ,nor d we kill ! body to secure ! developm5t ( ! s\l4 ,nor d we ext+ui% our natural home affections1 9 ord] to k9dle ! fires ( fri5d%ip1 patriotism1 & philan?ropy4 ,! high] life gr[s out ( ! l[]4 ,! l[] n\ri%es & su/a9s ! high]4 ,at fir/ we are little m ?an vegetables3 !n we become animals3 !n m52 & la/ ( all1 sages1 sa9ts1 & angels4 ,b ! vegetable nature lives ?r\gh all1 & is ! basis & /r5g? ( ! animal2 & ! animal nature lives1 & is ! basis & /r5g? ( ! human2 & ! human lives1 & is ! basis & /r5g? ( ! spiritual & div9e4 ,& ! high] =ms ( life are all ! m p]fect1 = ! vigor & fulness ( ^? by :i* !y are prec$$4 ,& s ) fai?4 ,in/9ctive fai? is ! prop] basis = ! fai? t comes f te/imony4 ,& ! fai? :i* re/s on te/imony is ! prop] basis = t :i* comes f reason1 inve/igation1 exp]i5ce1 & k4 ,& 9 no case ought ! fir/ to be demoli%$ to make way = ! second1 or ! second disc>d$ to make way = ! ?ird4 ,to kill a tree 9 ord] to graft on x new scions1 w\ld be madness2 & to kill1 or disc>d1 or 9 any way to slight or injure our fir/ in/9ctive *ild-l fai?1 to graft on our s\ls a high] "o1 w\ld be equal madness4 ,our in/9cts are infallible4 ,! fai? to :i* !y con/ra9 u is always sub/antially "r & true1 & no te/imony1 no reason+s1 no philosophy1 ought to be all[$ to set x aside4 ,te/imony1 & sci5ce1 & exp]i5ce1 may be all[$ to develop x1 enlight5 x1 & modify x1 b n to displace or de/roy x4 ,x is a div9e inspiration1 & is ess5tial to ! life & vigor ( ! s\l1 to ! beauty & p]fection ( ! "*1 & to ! fulness & enjoym5t ( life4 ,if y lose x1 y w h to f9d x aga91 or be wret*$4 ,if y kill x1 y w h to br+ x to life aga91 or p]i%4 ,x is a necess>y support ( all o!r fai?1 & a ne$ful "p ( all religion1 ( all virtue1 & ( all philosophy4 ,skeptics may call x prejudice2 b x is a k9d ( prejudice :i*1 z ,burke v truly says1 is wis] ?an all our reason+s4 ,i did n fall out ) my in/9ctive belief1 ?\gh ,i did n "k its value2 b ,i 0 s =m$1 t ,i long$ = pro(s or corroborat+ ( its tru?4 ,i want$ to be able to d some?+ m1 :5 que/ion$ by d\bt]s or unbeliev]s z to ! gr\nds ( my fai?1 ?an to say1 ',i feel t x is true2' or to ref] to ! te/imony ( my p>5ts & tea*]s2 & ,i did n re/ till ,i c\ld d s4 ,i _h a de>1 good fri5d1 ,mr4 ,hill1 a s*oolma/]1 a local prea*]1 & a s*ol>1 :o1 believ+ t ,i _h tal5ts to fit me = a travell+ prea*]1 & desir+ to prep>e me = t high (fice1 k9dly und]took to aid me 9 my /udies4 ,aft] he _h taught me some?+ ( ,engli% gramm>1 he began to tea* me ,lat94 ,:5 he _h got me ?r\gh ! elem5t>y books1 & ex]cis$ me well 9 "o ( ! ,roman hi/orians1 he l5t me a copy ( ,grotius1 on ! tru? ( ! ,*ri/ian religion1 & recomm5d$ me to translate x into ,engli%1 & !n to translate x back aga9 into ,lat94 ',x conta9s ! be/ argum5ts1' said he1 '9 favor ( ,*ri/ianity1 & x is writt5 9 pure & elegant ,lat92 & by ! c\rse ,i recomm5d1 y w bo? improve y\rself greatly 9 ,lat91 & obta9 a l>ge am\nt ( useful religi\s k4' ,i did z ,i 0 bid1 & ! result 0 truly delightful4 ,i f\nd 9 ! book pro(s bo? ( ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 & ( ! tru? ( ,*ri/ianity1 :i* seem$ to me mo/ decisive4 ,:5 ,i _h got ?r\gh ! book1 ,i felt z if ,i c\ld conv9ce ! :ole infidel _w4 ,by translat+ ! "w fir/ into ,engli% & !n back into ,lat91 & repeat+ my translations to my tea*] )\t manuscript1 ,i got ! :ole book1 ) all its tra9 ( reason+1 s fix$ 9 m9d1 t ,i 0 able to produce ! argum5ts :5ev] ,i f\nd x necess>y4 ,i c\ld1 9 fact1 repeat almo/ ! :ole "w f beg9n+ to end4 ,i c h>dly describe ! pleasure ,i felt :5 ,i f\nd t my fai? _h a solid f\ndation to re/ ^u1--t aft] hav+ believ$ in/9ctively1 & on ! te/imony ( my p>5ts & tea*]s1 ,i c\ld bo? ju/ify my fai? to my own m9d1 & give s\nd reasons = x to any :o might "q me on ! subject4 ,i aft]w>ds got ,watson's ,!ological ,in/itutes1 :i* amplifi$ "s ( ! argum5ts ( ,grotius1 & add$ fre% ones4 ,"h too ,i f\nd l>ge quotations f ,h[e's ,,liv+ ,,temple1 an argum5t = ! exi/5ce ( ,god drawn f ! wond]ful /ructure ( ! human body1 & consid]able portions ( ,paley's "w on ,,natural ,,!ology4 ,ab\t ! same "t ,i read ! ,lectures ( ,doddridge1 :i* gave me a m compreh5sive view ?an ei!r ,grotius or ,watson1 bo? ( ! evid5ces ( ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 & ^? ( ! tru? ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,i aft]w>ds met ) ,dwight's ,!ology1 9 :i* ,i f\nd a numb] ( ?+s :i* int]e/$ me1 ?\gh "s ( 8 reason+s seem$ m]e metaphysical fallacies4 ,i next read ,adam ,cl>ke's ,comm5t>y1 :]e ,i f\nd1 besides 8 argum5ts = ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 abundance ( quotations f ,paley1 ,l>dn]1 ,mi*aelis1 & o!rs1 on ! cr$ibility ( ! ,new ,te/am5t hi/ory1 & ! tru? ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,8 a priori argum5t = ! exi/5ce ( ,god seem$ only a play on words4 ,8 o!r argum5ts 7 mu* ! same z ,watson's4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i read ,mo%eim's ,hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*4 ,?is did me h>m4 ,x is a bad book4 ,x is1 9 tru?1 no real hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* at all1 b a mis]able *ronicle ( ! h]esies1 inconsi/5cies & crimes ( ! worldly & prie/ly p>ty 9 ! ,*ur*1 :o p]v]t$ ! religion ( ,*ri/ to worldly1 selfi% purposes4 ,! :ole t5d5cy ( ! book is to put ! sweet image ( ,*ri/ & ! glories ( ,8 religion1 out ( sight1 & to pres5t to y 9 _! place1 a di/ress+ picture ( human weakness & human wick$ness4 ,x is a great pity t ?is wret*$ pret5ce to a *ur* hi/ory 0 n long ago displac$ by a "w calculat$ to d "s ju/ice1 & to r5d] "s s]vice1 to ! cause ( ,*ri/4 ,i aft]w>ds read works 9 favor ( ,*ri/ianity & aga9/ infidelity1 by ,rob]t ,hall1 ,ol9?us ,gregory1 ,dr4 ,*alm]s1 ,le ,cl]c1 ,h>twell ,horne1 ,s4 ,?ompson1 ,bi%op ,watson1 ,bi%op ,pe>son1 ,bi%op ,porteus4 ,i also read ,lel&'s ,view ( ,dei/ical ,writ]s1 ,leslie's ,%ort & ,easy ,me?od ) ,dei/s1 ,fab]'s ,difficulties ( ,infidelity1 ,full]'s ,gospel its ,own ,witness1 ,butl]'s ,analogy1 ,baxt]'s ,unreasonabl5ess ( ,infidelity1 & 8 ,evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity1 ,simpson's ,plea = ,religion & ! ,sacr$ ,writ+s1 ,ryan on ! ,b5eficial ,effects ( ,*ri/ianity1 ,cave on ! ,e>ly ,*ri/ians1 ! ,debate betwe5 ,r4 ,ow5 & ,a4 ,campbell1 ,scot* ,lectures1 ,g4 ,campbell on ,miracles1 ,ray's ,wisdom ( ,god 9 ,creation1 ,con/able's ,hi/ory ( ,conv]ts f ,infidelity1 ,newton on ! ,prophecies1 ,locke on ! ,reasonabl5ess ( ,*ri/ianity1 ,nelson on ! ,cause & ,cure ( ,infidelity1 ,prie/ley's ,in/itutes ( ,natural & ,reveal$ ,religion1 ,jews' ,lett]s to ,voltaire1 & works by ,beattie1 ,soame ,j5yns1 ,we/1 ,lyttleton1 ,ogilvie1 ,addison1 ,gilb]t ,wakefield & o!rs4 ,i also read s]mons on diff]5t bran*es ( ! evid5ces1 by ,tillotson1 ,b>r[1 & o!rs4 ,"o ( ! la/ & "o ( ! be/ works ,i read on ! ,evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity1 7 "s s]mons by ,dr4 ,*ann+4 ,^! s]mons pres5t$ ! hi/orical argum5t 9 a simpl] & m impressive =m ?an any "w ,i _h ev] read4 ,?is read+ ( works on ! evid5ces did n prove an unmix$ bless+4 ,i am n c]ta9 t x did n prove a s]i\s injury4 #a4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ! works ,i read weak5$1 9 "t1 & !n de/roy$1 my in/9ctive & h]$it>y fai?1 & gave me no?+ s satisfactory 9 its place4 ,!y fill$ my m9d ) ?\ghts ( ?+s outside me1 & ev5 outside ,*ri/ianity itself1 :i* did n take a firm & la/+ hold ( my affections4 ,!y seem$ to take me f solid gr\nd & liv+ realities1 into regions ( cold1 ?9 air1 & bewild]+ mi/s & cl\ds4 #b4 ,9 ! second place1 ! writ]s disagre$ among !mselves4 ,!y diff]$ z to ! value ( diff]5t k9ds ( evid5ce4 ,"s 7 all = ext]nal evid5ces1 & "s 7 all = int]nal evid5ces4 ,"s said !re 0 no su* ?+ z int]nal evid5ce4 ',! v idea ( su* a ?+1' said !y1 'supposes t man is able to judge :at doctr9es are true1 or rational1 or wor?y ( ,god2 & :at precepts1 laws1 in/itutions1 & examples are "r & good2 & man has no su* p[]4 ,reason has no "r to judge revelation4 ,all t reason has a "r to d is to judge z to ! matt] ( fact :e!r ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity be really a revelation f ,god or n1 &1 if x be1 :at is its purport4 ,z to ! reasonabl5ess ( ! doctr9es1 & ! goodness ( ! precepts1 reason has no "r or p[] to judge at all4' ,o!rs cont5d$ t miracles c\ld nev] prove ! tru? or div9ity ( any sy/em ( doctr9es or morals t did n comm5d itself to ! judgm5ts & consci5ces ( enlight5$1 c&id1 & virtu\s m54 ,^! two p>ties1 betwe5 !m1 condemn$ bo? k9ds ( evid5ce4 #c4 ,!n ?irdly2 "s us$ uns\nd argum5ts4 ,!y us$ argum5ts f\nd$ on mi/akes ) reg>d to matt]s ( fact4 ,grotius1 = in/ance1 bas$ two ( 8 argum5ts = ! exi/5ce ( ,god on misconceptions ( ?is k9d4 ',t !re is a ,god1' said ,grotius1 'is evid5t f ! fact1 t wat]1 :i* naturally runs d[nw>d to ! level ( ! sea1 is made to run upw>ds ?r\gh subt]ranean *annels1 f ! sea to ! tops ( ! m\nta9s1 & ?us supply spr+s & /reams to wat] ! e>?1 & supply ! wants ( its inhabitants4' ,b ! wat]s are n =c$ upw>ds f ! sea to ! m\nta9s 9 ?is way3 !y are c>ri$ to ! hills 9 ! =m ( vapors4 ,true1 ! evid5ce = ! exi/5ce ( ,god suppli$ by ! conv]sion ( wat] into vapor1 & by ! _m b5efic5t ends answ]$ !reby1 is z real & z conv9c+ a pro( ( ,god's exi/5ce z any evid5ce t c\ld h be5 furni%$ by su* an arrangem5t z t imag9$ by ,grotius4 ,b ,i did n see ?is at ! "t2 h5ce ! discov]y t ! argum5t ( ,grotius 0 uns\nd1 _h an unfavorable effect on my m9d4 ',aga91' says ,grotius1 'x is pla9 t ! _w mu/ h _h a beg9n+1 f ! exi/5ce ( m\nta9s4 ,= if ! e>? _h exi/$ f et]nity1 ! m\nta9s1 :i* ! ra9s & floods are always r$uc+1 wa%+ d[n p>ticles into ! valleys & pla9s1 w\ld long ago h disappe>$1 & e "p ( ! e>? w\ld long be=e ?is h be5 q level4' ,"h 0 ano!r error4 ,grotius 0 n aw>e1 x w\ld seem1 t !re are =ces cont9ually at "w 9 ! int]ior ( ! e>? mak+ new m\nta9s1--t "s portions ( ! e>? are cont9ually ris+1 & o!rs gradually subsid+4 #d4 ,sev]al ( ! argum5ts :i* ,i met ) 9 ,doddridge's great "w ,i f\nd to be uns\nd4 ,& !re 7 o!rs :i*1 if ,i did n discov] to be fallaci\s1 ,i felt to be unsatisfactory4 ,!y 71 9 tru?1 z ,i aft]w>ds f\nd1 m]e metaphysical puzzles4 #e4 ,among ! mo/ hone/ & e>ne/ works on ! evid5ces t came 9 my way1 7 ^? ( ,ri*>d ,baxt]4 ,b _m ( 8 argum5ts 7 unsatisfactory4 ,among o!r ?+s ( d\btful value1 he gave a numb] ( gho/ /ories1 & acc\nts ( wit*es & _! do+s1 & ( p]sons possess$ by evil spirits1 & ev5 ( m5 & wom5 :o _h sold !mselves to ! devil1 & :o _h be5 seiz$ & c>ri$ away by him bodily1 9 ! pres5ce ( _! neighbors & fri5ds4 ,!n "s ( 8 argum5ts took = grant$ po9ts ( importance :i* ,i 0 p>ticul>ly anxi\s to h prov$4 ,mu* ( 8 reason+ seem$ conclusive en\gh1 b :5 s\nd & uns\nd argum5ts are s bl5d$ 9 ! same book1 ! uns\nd ones seem to less5 ! cr$it & ! =ce ( ! s\nd ones4 ,on ! subject ( ! evid5ces1 ,baxt]1 l ,grotius1 0 beh9d ! times4 ,8 works might be satisfactory en\gh to p ( 8 own day1 b !y 7 n adapt$ to ! m9ds ( p ( ! pres5t day4 #f4 ,! works ( ,paley & ,butl] gave me ! greate/ satisfaction4 ,paley1 bo? 9 8 ,natural ,!ology & 9 8 evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity1 seem$ to be almo/ all t ,i c\ld desire1 & ,i re/$ 9 him = a l5g? ( "t ) great satisfaction4 ,b ,i read him only once1 & ,i ought1 = a "t at lea/1 to h made him my daily /udy1 & impr9t$ 8 "w on my m9d1 z ,i did ! "w ( ,grotius4 #g4 ,_m writ]s on ! ,bible attempt$ to settle po9ts :i* c\ld n be settl$4 ,!y tri$ to make out ! au?ors ( all ! books 9 ! ,bible1 & ?is 0 f\nd impossible4 ,diff]5t writ]s ascrib$ books to diff]5t au?ors4 ,! ,book ( ,job 0 ascrib$ by "o writ] to ,job himself1 by ano!r to ,moses1 & by a ?ird to ,elihu4 ,! ,book ( ,ecclesia/es 0 ascrib$ by "s to ,solomon1 by o!rs to a writ] ( a lat] age4 ,writ]s diff]$ ) reg>d to ! au?or%ip ( _m ( ! ,psalms & _m ( ! ,prov]bs4 ,!y diff]$ ) reg>d to ! au?or ( ! ,epi/le to ! ,hebrews1 & ! ,book ( ,revelation1 & ev5 ) reg>d to "s ( ! ,gospels4 ,!y multipli$ controv]sies in/ead ( end+ !m1 & 9 "s cases made matt]s seem d\btful t 7 n s4 #h4 ,! writ]s on evid5ces (t5 attempt$ to prove po9ts :i* 7 n true1 & :i*1 if !y _h be5 true1 w\ld h be5 no cr$it to ! ,bible or ,*ri/ianity4 ,"s ( !m sp5t m "t 9 labor+ to prove t ,*ri/ianity taught doctr9es :i* x did n tea*1 ?an 9 prov+ t ! doctr9es :i* x did tea* 7 'wor?y ( all acceptation4' ,"s left ! impression t ,*ri/ianity 0 a mass ( va91 improbable1 & incompreh5sible doctr9es1 calculat$ nei!r to satisfy man's intellect nor 8 consci5ce1 nei!r to r5ovate 8 he>t1 nor improve 8 life1 nor increase 8 happ9ess4 ,su* writ]s s]v$ ! cause ( infidelity r ?an ! cause ( ,*ri/4 #i4 ,"s1 l ,h>twell ,horne1 gave s _m rules = int]pret+ ! ,bible1 & requir$ su* a multitude ( r>e qualifications to fit a man = be+ a ,bible /ud5t1 t !y left ! impression on "o's m9d t ! ,book mu/ be utt]ly un9telligible to p at l>ge4 ,& !y direct$ ! att5tion ( _! read]s s mu* to matt]s ( little or no mom5t1 t !y lo/ sight ( ! matt]s :i* ! ,bible 0 specially int5d$ to tea* & impress on m5's m9ds & he>ts4 #aj4 ,_m dwelt s mu* on ?+s d\btful1 t !y left ! impression on ! m9ds ( _! read]s1 t !re 0 little or no?+ b :at 0 d\btful4 ,!y busi$ !mselves s mu* 9 answ]+ objections1 t !y left ! impression t !re 0 little or no?+ b :at 0 op5 to objections4 ,!y _h s little to say ab\t :at 0 true1 & good1 & glori\s beyond all "q1 t !y left p 9 d\bt :e!r !re 0 any ?+ pa/ "q or controv]sy 9 ,*ri/ianity or n4 #aa4 ,& _m treat$ ! subject s coolly or c>elessly1 t !y abat$ r ?an increas$ ! int]e/ ( _! read]s 9 religi\s matt]s4 #ab4 ,& ! great mass ( writ]s foll[$ "o ano!r s s]vilely1--!y wrote s mu* by rote1 & s little f exp]i5ce or real k1 t all seem$ cold & =mal1 un9t]e/+ & unpr(itable4 ,x 0 a r>e ?+ to come across a writ] t t\*$ ! he>t1 or ev5 satisfi$ ! judgm5t4 #ac4 ,& !y (t5 labor$ h>d & long to prove po9ts ( little or no importance1 :ile po9ts ( greate/ mom5t 7 left unt\*$1 or h&l$ s unskillfully z to d h>m r ?an good4 #ad4 ,& almo/ all _h unau?oriz$ & unscriptural !ories ( ,scripture inspiration1 :i* x 0 impossible = !m to prove1 & :i* !y s manife/ly fail$ to prove1 t a critical read] c\ld n b see _! failure4 ,!y tri$ to ju/ify expressions & actions :i* c\ld n be ju/ifi$1 & to reconcile diff]5ces :i* did n admit ( reconciliation4 #ae4 ,ev5 ! hi/orical argum5ts ( ,paley & ,grotius consi/$ ( s _m p>ticul>s1 & c>ri$ "o s f> back into regions ) :i* "o 0 s imp]fectly acqua9t$1 & into /ates ( society :i* x 0 s difficult = "o to realize1 t x 0 impossible !y %\ld h mu* p[] ov] ! he>t2 & ! little !y _h 0 soon lo/1 :5 _! books 7 laid aside4 ,ev5 :5 we rememb]$ ! facts1 & c\ld run !m ov] 9 our m9ds1 we c\ld n feel ! =ce ( ! argum5t bas$ on !m1 or use x s z to make x felt by o!rs4 ,! hi/orical argum5t drawn f miracles nev] ex]t$ mu* satisfy+ p[] on my m9d = any l5g? ( "t4 ,i c\ld rememb] t x _h satisfi$ me once1 b t 0 n to feel its satisfy+ p[] !n4 ,& y c\ld n g back to y\r books cont9ually1 & pore ov] ! argum5ts =ev]4 ,s t long be=e ,i became a d\bt]1 ,i felt t ! hi/orical argum5t c\ld nev] be useful to p g5]ally1 ei!r 9 produc+ fai? :]e x 0 n1 or 9 p]petuat+ x :]e x 04 ,i 0 sure t if mank9d at l>ge 7 to be br\ght to receive & *]i% ,*ri/ianity1 x mu/ be by pro(s ( a simpl] & m popul> k9d1 :i* p c\ld feel1 & c>ry along ) !m 9 _! he>ts z well z 9 _! heads4 ,& n[ ,i see mo/ cle>ly t ,i 0 "r4 ,miracles _h a use1 & ,i may %[ :at x 0 by & by2 b x 0 n ! use to :i* !y h be5 s (t5 & s va9ly appli$4 #af4 ,! writ]s on prophecy 7 z unsatisfactory z ^? on miracles4 ,!y (t5 h&l$ ! prophecies unfairly if n deceitfully4 ,!y treat$ z absolute prophecies1 prophecies :i* 7 expressly conditional4 ,& !y lo/ sight ( ! fact1 s pla9ly /at$ 9 ,j]emiah xviii1 t all prophetic promises & ?reat5+s are conditional4 ,!n !y took "o bit ( a prophecy & left ano!r3 kept out ( sight pr$ictions :i* _h n be5 fulfill$1 & dwelt exclusively on phrases :i* _h be5 fulfill$4 ,!y dealt deceitfully ) hi/ory z well z prophecy4 ,!y made or modifi$ facts4 ,!y gave fanciful int]pretations to prophecies4 ,& !y tri$ to make prophecy prove :at x c\ld n prove1 h[ev] unque/ionable & miracul\s ! fulfilm5t might be4 ,! mann] 9 :i* ,nelson & ,kei? dealt ) prophecy 0 (t5 *ildi%1 & ev5 di%one/4 ,a c>eful exam9ation ( _! works left a mo/ pa9ful impression on my m9d4 ,:at ,alb]t ,b>nes says ab\t mu* ( ! reason+ ( prea*]s & div9es is applicable to ?is class ( writ]s m ?an to "s o!rs4 ',a great "p ( ! reason+ f\nd$ ^u prophecies is uns\nd4 ,mu* ( ! reason+ employ$ by ! e>ly ,*ri/ian ,fa!rs1 by ! ,s*oolm51 & by ! ,re=m]s _h no intr9sic =ce3 x 0 bas$ on ignorance & error4 ,yet !ologians are prone to cl+ to x4 ,!y =get ! age 9 :i* !y live4 ,!y l+]1 !y live1 among ! %ades ( ! pa/4 ,_! ?\ghts1 _! dialect1 _! way ( reason+ are all ( o!r days4 ',! quality ( ano!r k9d ( reason+ common among div9es is1 t x is n und]/ood by ! mass ( m51 & t x does n seem to be und]/ood by ^? :o use x4' #ag4 ,9 ! foll[+ p>agraph he speaks important words ab\t !ology z well z ab\t !ological reason+4 ',!re is mu* !ology1' says he1 't a good man _c prea*4 ,x w\ld %ock 8 own feel+s2 x w\ld contradict 8 pray]s2 x w\ld be fatal to all 8 ef=ts to d good2 x w\ld drive (f ! s9n] to a hopeless di/ance1 ?\gh he _h begun to return to ,god2 x w\ld be at w> ) ! elem5t>y convictions :i* m5 h ( :at mu/ be true4 ,among ! doctr9es ( ?is !ology are ^?1--t ,*ri/ di$ = ! salvation ( only a "p ( mank9d1--t we are to blame = ,adam's s91--condemn$ = an act done ages be=e we 7 born4 ',! !ology t %\ld be prea*$ to make ! pulpit :at x %\ld be1 %\ld be bas$ on obvi\s & hone/ pr9ciples ( ,scripture int]pretation4 ,! prea*] is ! int]pret] ( a book1 & he %\ld be ! voice1 ! organ1 ( its true & natural mean+4 ,no?+ %\ld be misquot$2 no?+ %\ld be p]v]t$ or misappli$4 ,8 int]pretation %\ld be se5 & felt to be 9 h>mony ) ! scope1 ! drift1 ! _s1 ! aim ( ! ,bible4 ,! success ( prea*+ has be5 greatly h9d]$ by false pr9ciples ( ,biblical int]pretation4 ,9 int]pret+ o!r books m5 h gone on rational pr9ciples2 b 9 int]pret+ ! ,bible !y h gone on pr9ciples q irrational4 ,!y h s\ght = d\ble s5ses1 & my/ical mean+s1 & us$ texts z pro(s ( doctr9es1 t _h no ref]5ce to ! doctr9es :atev]4 ,metaphors & symbols h _h all possible mean+s =c$ on !m4 ,infidels & m5 ( ! _w are approa*$ ) argum5ts t are little less ?an insults to _! und]/&+s4 ,!y are disgu/$1 in/ead ( be+ conv9c$4 ,!y are l$ to look on ! ,bible ) disda94 ,!y are will+ to rema9 infidels1 r ?an become idiots4 ,"o is pa9$ & sick5$ t su* a multitude ( imp]t95t & inapplicable texts %\ld be br\ght z pro(s ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e2--texts applicable to any?+ else r ?an ! po9ts "u consid]ation4 ,ev5 ,dr4 ,edw>ds misuses texts ( ,scripture ?us4 ,! ,bible is to be int]pret$ z o!r books are4 ,m5 are n to hide !mselves 9 ! mi/ ( a hidd5 mean+1 & %ock ! common s5se ( ! _w4 ,prea*]s %\ld g on ! supposition1 t 9 e congregation !re are %rewd & sagaci\s m51 :o c appreciate a good argum5t1 & see ! weakness ( a bad "o2 m5 :o c appreciate a good s]mon1 if !re be a good s]mon to be appreciat$4 ,= su*1 he may be assur$1 is ! fact4' ,all ^! unwise ?+s _h a t5d5cy to %ake my fai? 9 writ]s on ! evid5ces1 to less5 my int]e/ 9 ! subject1 to abate my confid5ce 9 ! k & integrity ( ! au?ors1 & to dim9i% my fai? 9 ! sup]natural orig9 ( ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity4 #ah4 ,! evid5ces t _h mo/ weight ) me 7 ! int]nal evid5ces4 ,b ^! 7 (t5 h&l$ 9 an unsatisfactory way4 ,! great] "p ( ,soame ,j5yns' little "w 0 good1 z f> z x w5t2 b x w5t only a v %ort way4 ,x took a /ep or two1 9 ! mo/ difficult1 d\btful1 & un9vit+ "p ( ! road1 b x left ! va/ p>adise ( int]nal evid5ces unexplor$1 & ev5 unapproa*$4 ,8 "w 0 r an apology = ,*ri/ianity1 prov+ t x 0 n op5 to c5sure1 ?an a demon/ration ( its incalculable wor? & p[]4 ,i did n myself see cle>ly at ! "t1 t ! adaptation ( ,*ri/ianity to man's wants1 to man's nature1 & its t5d5cy to promote man's temporal z well z 8 spiritual welf>e1 0 really a pro( ( its div9e orig94 ,i saw t x 0 a valid answ] to ! infidel objection t x 0 useless or mis*iev\s2 b n t x 0 a decisive pro( ( its div9ity4 ,h5ce ?\gh ,i employ$ x z a refutation ( infidel *>ges aga9/ ,*ri/ianity1 ,i nev] press$ x fur!r4 ,& ?\gh ,i got at l5g? mu* l>g] views ( ! excell5cy ( ,*ri/ianity ?an ^? pres5t$ by ,soame ,j5yns1 ,i saw n half1 ,i saw n a t5? ( its wor? & glory4 ,i saw n a t5? ev5 ( :at ,i see n[4 ,i n[ see !re are no limits to ! excell5cy ( ,*ri/ianity1 or to ! p[] ( ! argum5t suppli$ by its glori\s "*1 9 pro( ( its div9ity4 ,& ! wor? & excell5cy ( ,*ri/ianity y c c>ry cont9ually 9 y\r m9d4 ,!y pres5t !mselves :5ev] y op5 ! ,gospels1 or look at ,jesus4 ,!y move y :5ev] y ?9k ( ! happy effect ,*ri/ianity has _h on y\r own he>ts & lives4 ,!y come to y\r m9ds :5ev] y look on ! prevail+ vices & mis]ies ( society1 :i* result f a want ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,!y t\* y\r he>t1 z well z conv9ce y\r judgm5t4 ,b ,i nei!r saw !m 9 _! true light nor 9 _! full ext5t be=e ,i fell into d\bt2 s t !y 7 unable to make up = ! defici5cy 9 ! ext]nal evid5ces1 & to *eck my gr[+ t5d5cy to unbelief4 #ai4 ,!re 7 o!r influ5ces t help$ me d[n to unbelief4 ,negative criticism1 pull+ ?+s to pieces ) a view to f9d faults1 to :i* our mod]n philosoph]s give ! f9e "n ( ,analysis1 t5ds to cause d\bt ab\t e ?+4 ,x eats out ( "o ! v s\l ( tru?1 ( love1 & ( fai?4 ,x t5ds naturally to kill all our good in/9cts & natural affections1 & to r5d] n only religion1 b philosophy1 virtue & happ9ess impossible4 ,! ,c>tesian sy/em ( reason+1 :i* beg9s by call+ 9 "q e ?+1 & :i* refuses to believe any?+ )\t =mal pro(1 is ess5tially vici\s4 ,! man :o adopts x & c>ries x out ?or\ghly1 mu/ necess>ily become an infidel1 n only 9 religion1 b 9 morals & philosophy4 ,& he mu/ become intol]ably mis]able1 & de/roy himself1 unless1 l ,john ,s4 ,mill1 he c f9d out "s me?od ( deceiv+ himself4 ,& ?is is ! sy/em ( reason+ n[ 9 vogue4 ,?is vici\s sy/em ,i adopt$1 & x ha/5$ my fall into unbelief z a matt] ( c\rse4 ,n "o ( all ! mo/ important ?+s on e>? admits ( pro( 9 ?is =mal way4 ,y _c prove y\r own exi/5ce 9 ?is way4 ,y _c prove ! exi/5ce ( ! univ]se4 ,y _c prove ! exi/5ce ( ,god4 ,y _c prove t !re are su* ?+s z vice & virtue1 good & evil4 ,y _c prove t m5 ought to m>ry1 re> families1 =m gov]nm5ts1 live 9 society1 tell ! tru?1 be hone/1 re/ra9 _! appetites & passions1 or ab/a9 f trea*]y & murd]4 ,all reason+s 9 favor ( religion1 virtue1 society1 philosophy1 mu/ re/ on assumptions1--mu/ take a numb] ( ?+s = grant$1--mu/ take = grant$ ! tru? & goodness ( ^? in/9cts1 s5tim5ts1 & natural affections :i* con/ra9 u to be religi\s1 social1 & moral1 indep5d5t ( argum5t4 ,all reason+1 to be ( any use1 mu/ beg91 n ) d\bt1 b belief4 ,! reason+ t beg9s ) d\bt+ e ?+1 & accept+ no?+ till x is prov$ by =mal argum5t1 w end 9 d\bt ( e ?+ t ought to be believ$4 ,x w end1 n only 9 ,a!ism1 b 9 b\ndless immorality1 & 9 utt] wret*$ness & ru94 ,! man :o w\ld n be undone by 8 logic1 mu/ pity ,desc>tes in/ead ( admir+ him1 & in/ead ( foll[+ him g j ! contr>y way4 ,desc>tes made a fool ( himself1 or 8 me?od ( reason+ made a fool ( him1 ! v fir/ "t he us$ x4 ,8 v fir/ argum5t 0 a fallacy & a folly4 ,he pret5d$1 fir/1 to d\bt1 & !n to prove1 8 own exi/5ce4 ,8 argum5t 01 ',i ?9k2 !re=e ,i exi/3' z if he c\ld be m sure t he ?\ght1 ?an he 0 t he exi/$4 ,he took 8 exi/5ce = grant$ :5 he said ',i ?9k4' #bj4 ,o!r ?+s help$ on ! horrible *ange t 0 tak+ place 9 my s\l4 ,i got a ta/e = read+ a diff]5t k9d ( works f ^? :i* ,i _h be5 accu/om$ to read4 ,i turn$ away f works on religion & duty1 & began to read ! works ( ! critical1 de/ructive p>ty4 ,i turn$ away ev5 f ! be/ practical writ]s ( ! or?odox s*ool1 su* z ,baxt]1 ,tillotson & ,b>r[1 & read ,!odore ,p>k]1 ,m>t9eau1 ,w4 ,f4 ,newman1 ,w4 ,j4 ,fox1 & ,fr\de4 ,i also read ,c>lyle1 ,em]son1 & ,w4 ,mackay1 ! metaphysical bore1 & ,c4 ,mackay1 ! *>m+1 fasc9at+1 b n ,*ri/ian poet4 ,!odore ,p>k] became my favorite among ! prose writ]s4 ,8 beautiful /yle & practical lessons _h already reconcil$ me to 8 h>% expressions ab\t ! ,bible1 & to 8 contemptu\s treatm5t ( miracles2 & n[ ,i _h deg5]at$ s f> t ,i lik$ him = ^? v faults4 ,i read ! writ+s ( ! ,am]ican ,abolitioni/s1 all ( :i* t5d$ to draw me f ! ,*ur* & ! ,bible1 & to br+ me m fully "u skeptical influ5ces4 ,i began to look m freely & frequ5tly into works ( sci5ce1 & mo/ ( ^? wag$ cov]t w> ) sup]naturalism1 & s\ght to br+ d[n ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity to ! level ( ord9>y human ?\ght4 ,all ideas ( au?ority 9 books & religi\s sy/ems1 9 ecclesia/ical & social in/itutions1 gradually fad$ away4 ,all ideas ( sup]human au?ority1 or div9e obligation1 9 m>riage1 9 home1 & 9 family life vani%$4 ,all ?+s lo/ _! sacr$ness1 & came d[n to ! vulg> level ( m]e human op9ion1 or ( p]sonal int]e/1 conv5i5ce1 or pleasure4 #ba4 ,!re 0 a *ange 9 my companions4 ,^? :o _h high & holy ?\ghts ( all ?+s1 & ^: meat & dr9k x 0 to d good1 )drew f me2 & m5 & wom5 came ar\nd me :o c>$ only = e>? & self2 ^: talk 0 ( ga91 & fa%ion1 & self-indulg5ce2 & ^: desire x 0 to sil5ce consci5ce1 & to /ifle ?\ghts ( duty4 #bb4 ,i ceas$ to pray4 ,i _h already giv5 up family pray]4 ,i n[ gave up private pray]4 ,i gave up pray] altoge!r4 ,i _h impulses to pray]1 b ,i resi/$ !m4 ,pray] 0 irrational1 accord+ to ! new philosophy1 & mu/ be disc>d$4 #bc4 ,& praise & ?anksgiv+ w5t next4 ,:at reason c\ld !re be = tell+ an all-wise ,god :at y ?\ght ( ,him1 or h[ y felt t[>ds ,him8 ,& besides1 x n[ began to appe> t ,god _h n be5 s v b\ntiful z to des]ve ei!r high comm5dation1 or en?usia/ic ?anksgiv+4 #bd4 ,i _h fre% "w4 ,politics fir/ got into p>tn]%ip ) my religion1 & !n turn$ religion out ( ! conc]n4 ,& politics1 sev]$ f religion1 soon become selfi%1 & ev5 devili%4 ,s long z ,*ri/ian philan?ropy occupi$ my ?\ghts & feel+s1 x help$ religi\sness2 b :5 x gave way to polities1 my religi\sness decl9$1 langui%$1 & di$4 #be4 ,i began to indulge 9 amusem5ts4 ,*ess1 drafts1 c>ds1 conc]ts1 !atres1 & fea/+ ask$ = a portion ( my "t & money1 & ,i gave x to !m4 ,i began to ?9k ( pleasure m ?an ( usefulness2 to live = myself r ?an = o!rs2 & ! high] virtues & religion w5t d[n toge!r4 #bf4 ,my position improv$4 ,i pass$ f pov]ty to comp>ative weal?4 ,?is help$ my deg5]acy4 ,i _h m abundant means ( self-indulg5ce1 & ,i began1 ?\gh sl[ly1 timidly1 & ) misgiv+s1 & self-reproa*es1 & occasional fits ( remorse1 to use !m = selfi%1 worldly purposes4 ,god _h giv5 me m1 s ,i gave ,him less4 ,je%urun wax$ fat & kick$4 ,jesus knew :at ,he 0 say+ :5 ,he w>n$ p aga9/ ! dang]1 ! deceitfulness1 ( ri*es4 #bg4 ,i 0 (t5 uneasy dur+ ! decl9e ( religion 9 my s\l1 b philosophy _h its anodynes1 its soo?+ syrups1 its dreamy1 delusive1 spiritual drugs4 ,x c\ld flatt]1 x c\ld *eat1 9 ! mo/ approv$ fa%ion4 ,x c\ld bewit*1 intoxicate1 & take captive ! :ole s\l1--judgm5t1 consci5ce1 fancy1 ev]y?+4 ,satan c put on ! appe>ance ( an 'angel ( light4' ,he c talk religion4 ,he c talk philan?ropy4 ,he c prea* ! mo/ beautiful doctr9es4 ,he c use ! mo/ *>m+ words4 ,at ! v mom5t t he is de/roy+ religion & virtue1 he c speak ( !m 9 ! highe/ t]ms1 & ev5 s+ ( !m 9 ! sweete/ /ra9s4 ,he c talk ( lib]ty 9 ! mo/ swell+1 high-s\nd+1 & fasc9at+ /yle1 :ile all ! "t he is mak+ m5 ! mo/ degrad$ & mis]able slaves4 ,he c lead p1 s++ & danc+1 laugh+ & %\t+1 ?r\gh a philosoph]'s p>adise1 to a purgatory ( guilt & horror4 ,& all ! "t he w prea* to !m ! f9e/ doctr9es2 ! mo/ exalt$ s5tim5ts4 ',religion6--ev]y?+ is religion1 t is 9 accordance ) ! laws ( our own nature1 t is suitable to our position & relations1 t helps our bro!rs or our families4 ,& all tru? is religi\s tru?4 ,all sci5ce is div9e revelation4 ,all laws are ,god's laws1 except ! arbitr>y laws ( m54 ,all "w is div9e "w1 if x be accord+ to nature4 ,all useful "w is religion4 ,f>m+1 trade1 gov]nm5t1 are all religion4 ,s are wak+ & sleep+4 ,!y are all div9e ord9ances2 !y are all div9e s]vice4 ,all good "w is wor%ip4 ,s++ fooli% hymns1 read+ fooli% lessons1 prea*+ fooli% s]mons1 (f]+ fooli% pray]s1 9 unheal?y *ur*es1 half /ifl$ ) f\l air1 are n religion4 ,religion is ! free & natural utt]ance ( great1 true ?\ghts1 ( good & g5]\s feel+s1 ( nature's own ri* s5tim5ts & inspirations4 ,! fl[]y fields1 ! %ad[y woods1 ! l(ty m\nta9s are nobl] places ( wor%ip ?an ! d>k & damp ca!dral2 & ! fre% air ( heav5 is a div9] inspiration ?an c>bonic acid gas4 ,& ! sun is a div9] light ?an wax5 tap]s1 explosive lamps1 or oxyg5-consum+ gas4 ,& ! gorge\s sun-t9t$ cl\ds are gr&] & m beautiful ?an pa9t$ w9d[s6 ,god's temple is all space2 ,8 alt>2 e>?1 air1 skies6 ,8 m9i/]s are sun1 moon1 />s2 birds1 bea/s1 & fl[]s4 ,nature is ,god's revelation2 ! true ,bible2 writt5 9 an univ]sal language2 speak+ to all eyes2 ne$+ no translation2 9 dang] ( no int]polation1 alt]ation1 or mutilation4 ,man is ! true ,%ek9ah1--! v]itable image1 ! real glory1 ! true revelation & manife/ation ( ,god4 ,man is ! savi\r ( man3 ! tea*]1 ! guide1 ! com=t] ( man4 ,e "o1 male or female1 is a s]vant1 a m9i/] ( ,god4 ,all are prie/s4 ,all are k+s4 ,! tru? makes u free3 free f all au?orities1 b ! au?ority ( ,god1--,god 9 ! s\l4 ,*ri/ is our bro!r1 n our ma/]4 ,he is a help]1 n a rul]4 ,& all are help]s ( ea* o!r4 ,all are savi\rs4 ,all are ,*ri/s4 ,inspiration is n a matt] ( "t1 or place1 or p]son4 ,x is et]nal & univ]sal4 ,x is 9 all1 & x endures =ev]4 ,e good book is a ,bible4 ,e good hymn or song is a holy psalm4 ,purity ( body is hol9ess1 z well z purity ( m9d4 ,e day is a sabba?1 a holy day4 ,e place is holy gr\nd4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,god is ! human race4 ,all are ,god's disciples1 "u tra9+ by nature's op]ations1 & by ! ev5ts ( daily life4 ,! e>? is ,god's great s*ool-h\se2 mank9d are "o great s*ool2 ,god is our *ief ,ma/]2 ! univ]se is our lesson book1 & all we are u%]s & "u tea*]s4 ,all ?+s are our help]s1 n ma/]s2--our s]vants1 n lords4 ,!y are made = u1 n we = !m2 & mu/ be us$ s z to make !m answ] _! ends4 ,! ,sabba? 0 made = man2 n man = ! ,sabba?4 ,bibles are = m51 n m5 = ,bibles4 ,gov]nm5ts1 *ur*es1 au?orities1 laws1 in/itutions1 cu/oms1 ev5ts1 suns1 moons1 />s1 sy/ems1 atoms1 elem5ts1 all are made = man1 & to man's int]e/ & pleasure !y mu/ be subord9at$4 ,all mu/ be *ang$ to meet man's *ang+ wants4 ,no?+ is entitl$ to be p]man5t1 b t :i* answ]s b5efic5tly to some?+ p]man5t 9 man4 ,man is "l ( ! univ]se4 ,man is "l ( himself4 ,man is 8 own rightful gov]nor4 ,man is 8 own law4 ,8 nature is 8 law4 ,ea* individual man is 8 own law4 ,individualities are div9e1 & mu/ be respect$2 respect$ by laws & gov]nm5ts4 ,law mu/ yield to individuality2 n individuality to law4 ,individuality is sacr$4 ,! individuality ( ! individual is 8 life1 & mu/ be fo/]$4 ,x is a new manife/ation ( ,god4 ,z to means ( grace1--all expressions & int]*anges ( k9d feel+ are means ( grace4 ,%ak+ h&s is a means ( grace4 ,free1 fri5dly talk1 a conc]t or a song1 a social ride1 a family fea/1 a social ga!r+1 a pleasant *at1 a game at :i/1 all are means ( grace4 ,all are holy to holy s\ls4 ,all are pure to pure m9ds4 ,eat+1 dr9k+1 sleep+ are all div9e ord9ances4 ,religion1 9 its high] & m enlight5$ =m1 raises our views ( all ?+s2 makes all ?+s beautiful2 all ?+s glori\s4 ,x does n br+ d[n ! high & holy2 b lifts up all ?+s to a div9e level4 ,x desecrates no temple2 b consecrates ! univ]se4 ,x breaks no ,sabba?2 b makes e day a ,sabba?1 & all "t "o l5g!n$ holy day4 ,x degrades no prie/2 b makes all m5 prie/s4 ,x does n br+ d[n ! high1 b raises ! l[4 ,x d5ies n heav52 b br+s d[n heav5 to e>?4 ,ev]y:]e is heav54 ,god's k+dom is an univ]sal k+dom4 ,8 pres5ce1 ,8 ?rone1 ,8 glory1 are ev]y:]e1 & heav5 is all ar\nd u & )9 u4 ,! univ]se is heav54' ,?us spake ! devil4 ,& n[ came 9 8 progressive poets to give ^? broad1 ^? high1 ^? rational1 ^? philosophical pr9ciples1 ?is !ology & religion ( advanc$ humanity1 ?is ,*ur* & wor%ip ( ! future1 ! fasc9ation ( _! ec/atic g5ius1 & all ! *>ms ( numb]s1 rhyme1 & melody4 ',my religion is love1' s+s "o1 '! ri*e/ & faire/4' ',ab\ ,b5 ,adhem1' s+s ano!r4 ',he loves n ,god2 b loves ,god's creature man4 ,give him a place1--! highe/ place1--9 heav54' ,ano!r s+s1 ',! poor man's ,sunday walk4' ,! advanc$ religioni/1 address+ 8 wife1 exclaims1 ,! morn+ ( our re/ has come1 ,! sun is %9+ cle>2 ,i see x on ! /eeple-top3 ,put on y\r %awl1 my de>1 ,& let u leave ! smoky t[n1 ,! d5se & /agnant lane1 ,& take our *ildr5 by ! h& ,to see ! fields aga94 ,i've p9$ = air ! livelong week2 ,= ! smell ( new-m[n hay2 ,= a pleasant1 quiet1 c\ntry walk1 ,on a sunny ,sabba? day4 ,our p>i% *ur* is cold & damp2 ,i ne$ ! air & sun2 ,we'll sit toge!r on ! grass1 ,& see ! *ildr5 run4 ,we'll wat* !m ga!r butt]-cups1 ,or c[slips 9 ! dell1 ,or li/5 to ! *e]ful s\nds ,( ! f>-(f village bell2 ,& ?ank our ,god ) grateful he>ts1 ,?\gh 9 ! fields we pray2 ,& bless ! heal?ful breeze ( heav51 ,on a sunny ,sabba? day4 ,i'm we>y ( ! /ifl+ room1 ,:]e all ! week we're p5t2 ,( ! alley fill'd ) wret*$ life1 ,& odors pe/il5t3 ,& long once m to see ! fields1 ,& ! graz+ %eep & beeves2 ,to he> ! l>k amid ! cl\ds1 ,& ! w9d among ! leaves2 ,& all ! s\nds t glad ! air ,on gre5 hills f> away3-- ,! s\nds t brea! ( ,peace & ,love1 ,on a sunny ,sabba? day4 ,= someh[1 ?\gh !y call x wrong1 ,9 *ur* ,i _c kneel ,) half ! natural ?ankfulness ,& piety ,i feel ,:5 out1 on su* a day z ?is1 ,i lie ^u ! sod1 ,& ?9k t e leaf & fl[] ,is grateful to its ,god2 ,t ,i1 :o feel ! bless+ m1 ,%\ld ?ank ,him m ?an !y1 ,t ,i c elevate my s\l ,on a sunny ,sabba? day4 ,put on y\r %awl1 & let u g2 ,= "o day let u ?9k ,( some?+ else ?an daily c>e1 ,or toil1 & meat1 & dr9k3 ,= "o day let our *ildr5 sport ,& feel _! limbs _! own3 ,= "o day let u q =get ,! grief t we h kn[n3-- ,let u =get t we are poor2 ,&1 bask+ 9 ! ray1 ,?ank ,god t we c /ill enjoy ,a sunny ,sabba? day4 ,:at c be m natural1--:at m plausible1--:at m rational1--:at m pi\s8 ,yet x means =getfulness ( ,god1 =getfulness ( ,*ri/1 =getfulness ( duty1 =getfulness ( immortality4 ,x means self1 & s91 & ru94 ,& s x is ) a multitude ( o!r sweet poems4 ,"o ( ! sweete/ s+]s t ev] receiv$ a poetic s\l f ,god1 ignores ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity4 ,8 works are full ( tru?1 b x is tru? turn$ into a lie1 & made to d ! "w ( s9 & dea?4 ,x is ,satan clad z an angel ( light4 ,e day a ,sabba?1 means no day a ,sabba?4 ,all places holy1 means no place holy4 ,all ?+s wor%ip1 means no?+ wor%ip4 ,all hone/ labor religi\s1 means no labor religi\s4 ,fre$om means lic5se1 contempt = virtue1 enslavem5t to vice4 ,progress means fall+ back4 ,elevation means degradation4 ,lib]ality means l5i5cy to error & evil1 & sev]ity t[>ds tru? & goodness4 ,9 %ort1 d>kness means light1 & light means d>kness2 good means evil1 & evil good2 bitt] means sweet1 & sweet bitt]4 ,re=m means revolution1 & r5ovation means degradation1 & all ^! *>m+ ?+s mean wret*$ness & ru94 ,we mu/ n be und]/ood z condemn+ all ! s5tim5ts utt]$ by ! great deceiv]4 ,_m ( !m are true & good4 ,!y are ,*ri/ian4 ,satan is too wise to prea* unmitigat$ falsehood4 ,he und]/&s too well ! art ( us+ tru? s z to s]ve ! ends ( falsehood4 ,x is en\gh = him if he c sev] m5's s\ls f ,*ri/1 & tru? f div9e au?ority1 & religion f ,*ri/ianity1 ! ,*ur*1 & ! ,bible4 ,all[ him to d ?is1 & he w disc\rse & s+ to y a _w ( sweet words & l(ty s5tim5ts4 ,tru? is ! ladd] by :i* m5 climb to ,god1 & goodness1 & heav54 ,b ,satan has f\nd out t !re is a way d[n ! ladd] z well z up1 & t to praise ! ladd] to ! desc5d+ cr[d is ! sure/ way to draw !m ev] fur!r d[nw>d1 till !y lose !mselves amid ! bl9d+ smoke ( ! abyss b5ea?4 ,we love1 we *]i% e sweet ^w ( tru?1 b we value no?+ ap>t f ,god1 & ,*ri/1 & ,religion4 #bh4 ,x is a bad ?+ :5 p are taught ?+s 9 _! y\? t are n true4 ,!y are sure1 :5 !y become /ud5ts1 if !y are hone/ & able1 to f9d out ! errors1 & to lay !m aside4 ,& ! m]e habit ( detect+ & lay+ aside errors1 has a t5d5cy to make m5 skeptical4 ,n[ ,i _h be5 taught a multitude ( ?+s 9 my y\? t 7 n true1 bo? ) reg>d to ! doctr9es & ! evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,^! ?+s ,i detect$ & set aside 9 rip] ye>s4 ,& ,i _h s _m ?+s to set aside1 t ,i came to look ) suspicion on almo/ all my cre$4 ,! skeptical t5d5cy got too /rong = my habit ( belief4 ,i suspect$ :]e !re 0 no good gr\nd = suspicion4 ,i reject$ tru? z well z error4 ,i held 9 d\bt doctr9es t ,i ought to h *]i%$ z my life4 ,*ange became too easy2 judgm5t too ha/y2 & error & unbelief 7 naturally ! result4 ,x is especially a bad ?+ :5 an e>ne/ "y /ud5t sees signs ( c>elessness 9 religi\s writ]s2 a read9ess to repeat :at has be5 said be=e2 to support :at is popul>1 )\t endeavor+ to asc]ta9 :e!r x be true or n4 ,x is /ill worse :5 a /ud5t discov]s 9 religi\s writ]s signs ( di%one/y & fraud4 ,i discov]$ bo?4 ,i saw cases 9 :i* false doctr9es 7 pass$ on f g5]ation to g5]ation1 & f writ] to writ]1 )\t ! lea/ attempt to asc]ta9 _! true "*4 ,i saw o!r cases 9 :i* di%one/y 0 manife/1 9 :i* fraud 0 us$1 9 support ( doctr9es4 ,old cre$s 7 all[$ to rema9 unalt]$1 long aft] portions ( !m _h be5 f\nd to be unscriptural2 & error 0 subscrib$ z a matt] ( c\rse4 ,! result 01 a di/ru/ ( ev]y?+ held by su* p>ties1 unless x 0 support$ by ! pla9e/ & mo/ decisive pro(s4 #bi4 ,i 0 n[ 9 a /ate ( m9d to g d[n quietly & almo/ unconsci\sly into utt] unbelief4 ,& ,i w5t d[n4 ,i did n reject ! doctr9e ( ! div9e orig9 ( ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity1 b gradually lo/ x4 ,my fai? di$ a natural dea?4 ,i 0 9 ! _w1 & became a worldly man4 ,i mix$ ) unbeliev]s1 & gradually came d[n to _! level4 ,i _h suppos$ t a man c\ld be z religi\s outside ! ,*ur* z inside2 b ,i f\nd x o!rwise4 ,x 0 a sad1 an awful *ange ,i und]w5t2 b ,i n only did n see x1 at ! "t1 9 its true light1 b 0 actually unconsci\s = a long "t t x 0 tak+ place4 ,9 ,novemb] #aheb1 ,i att5d$ a ,bible conv5tion at ,salem1 ,columbiana ,c\nty1 ,ohio4 ,x la/$ ?ree days4 ,i spoke repeat$ly1 & at consid]able l5g?1 at its meet+s4 ,my rem>ks wore direct$ *iefly1 n aga9/ ! ,bible1 b aga9/ :at ,i reg>d$ z unau?oriz$ !ories ( ,scripture inspiration4 ,i cont5d$ t ^? !ories 7 injuri\s to ! int]e/s ( virtue & humanity4 ,i also spoke ab\t ! d>kness 9 :i* ! human au?or%ip ( portions ( ! ,bible 0 wrapt4 ,my rem>ks 7 a mixture ( tru? & error1 b 9 _! g5]al t5or !y 7 unju/1 & c\ld h>dly fail to be injuri\s4 ,h5ry ,c4 ,wright spoke at ?is conv5tion1 cont5d+ t man _h an infallible rule ( life engrav5 on 8 own nature1 indep5d5t ( in/ruction f )\t4 ,he 0 (t5 sev]e & extravagant 9 8 rem>ks4 ,he 0 fi]ce1 & said ?+s :i* he c\ld n make good4 ,! ,rev4 ,jonas ,h>zell & o!rs spoke 9 def5ce ( ! ,bible4 ,on ! la/ ev5+ ! hall 9 :i* ! conv5tion 0 held 0 d5sely cr[d$1 & ! audi5ce 0 greatly excit$4 ,a ,mr4 ,ambl] spoke at great l5g?1 & seem$ desir\s to excite ! p to viol5ce aga9/ ! assailants ( ! ,bible4 ,:5 he clos$1 a l>ge portion ( ! audi5ce seem$ b5t on mis*ief4 ,i rose to reply to ,mr4 ,ambl]1 & soon got ! att5tion ( ! audi5ce4 ,_! rage quickly subsid$1 & at ! close ( my address1 ! p sep>at$ 9 peace4 ,9 ,june #ahec1 ,i att5d$ ano!r ,bible conv5tion at ,h>t=d1 ,connecticut4 ,i 0 appo9t$ ,presid5t4 ,a4 ,j4 ,davis1 ! celebrat$ spirituali/1 gave ! fir/ address4 ,x 0 on ! propriety ( free discussion on religi\s subjects4 ,h5ry ,c4 ,wright spoke next1 mak+ /rong rem>ks on portions ( ! ,old ,te/am5t4 ,i foll[$1 go+ ov] mu* ! same gr\nd z at ,salem1 b speak+ ) m sev]ity ( feel+4 ,my he>t 0 gett+ h>d]4 ,! ,rev4 ,george ,/orrs repli$4 ,he set himself especially to answ] ,h4 ,c4 ,wright1 & he spoke ) mu* effect4 ,9 ! aft]noon ( ! second day1 ,w4 ,l4 ,g>rison propos$ six resolutions1 be>+ p>tly on ! ,bible1 & p>tly on ! *ur* & cl]gy4 ,!y 7 v /rong4 ,!re 0 a consid]able am\nt ( tru? 9 !m1 b _! _s & t5d5cy 7 bad4 ,p>k] ,pillsbury foll[$ ) a spee*1 9 :i* he prais$ natural religion1 b condemn$ ! religion ( ! *ur*4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,g>rison spoke4 ,he spoke ) mu* p[]4 ,he dwelt *iefly on :at 0 call$ ! doctr9e ( pl5>y inspiration4 ,8 /r5g? 0 9 ! extreme views ( ! or?odox !ologians1 & 9 ! inconsi/5cies ( ! *ur* & ! cl]gy4 ,mr4 ,g>rison made a second spee* on ! f\r? ev5+1 /ill dwell+ on ! !ory ( pl5>y inspiration4 ,be=e he got ?r\gh 8 spee* ! meet+ 0 di/urb$ by a numb] ( !ological /ud5ts1 f a college 9 ! city4 ,!y ?reat5$ mis*ief4 ,"o display$ a dagg]4 ,confusion foll[$4 ,"s ( ! speak]s fl$1 & o!rs 7 al>m$4 ,i kept my place1 b soon f\nd ,i _h ! plat=m to myself4 ,i expect$ m c\rage f my skeptical fri5ds4 ,b !y und]/ood ,judge ,lyn* bett] ?an ,i did1 & _! discretion1 "u ! circum/ances1 might be ! bett] "p ( valor4 ,my ra%ness1 h[ev]1 end$ 9 no mi%ap4 ,& ! only bad effect :i* ! viol5ce ( our oppon5ts _h on me 01 to increase my hatr$1 p]haps1 ( ! *ur* & its !ology4 ,x is n wise 9 pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians to resort to c>nal weapons 9 def5ce ( _! views4 ,9 ,decemb] #ahec1 ,i gave a c\rse ( lectures 9 ,philadelphia4 ,i 0 br\ght to ! city by ! ,sunday ,in/itute4 ,! object ( ! lectures 0 to %[1 t ! ,bible 0 ( human orig91 t its tea*+s 7 n ( div9e au?ority1 & t ! doctr9e ( its absolute p]fection 0 injuri\s 9 its t5d5cy4 ,! room 9 :i* ,i lectur$ 0 cr[d$1 & ! audi5ce 0 mu* excit$4 ,i /at$1 9 op5+1 t ,i _h no?+ to say aga9/ any?+ t 0 true & good 9 ! ,bible1--t virtue 0 ess5tial to man's happ9ess1 & t ,i _h no sympa?y ) ^? :o reject$ ! ,bible because x rebuk$ _! vices4 ,i 0 s9c]e 9 ^! rem>ks2 b my old] infidel fri5ds1 ,i f\nd1 reg>d$ !m z int5d$ to deceive ! unw>y4 ,_m ( !m 7 grossly immoral1 & hat$ ! ,bible = its ho/ility to _! evil ways4 ,aft] ea* lecture discussion foll[$4 ,b ! ability ( my oppon5ts 0 n equal to _! zeal4 ,!y 7 (t5 ignorant ( bo? sides ( ! "q1 & injur$ ! cause !y s\ght to aid4 ,^! lectures l$ to a public discussion betwe5 me & ,dr4 ,mc,calla1 a ,presbyt]ian cl]gyman4 ,x 0 to cont9ue five nights1 b end$ on ! f\r?4 ,we met fir/ 9 ! ,*9ese ,assembly ,room2 b ! place prov+ too small = ! cr[ds :i* 7 anxi\s to he> ! debate1 we adj\rn$ to ! l>ge hall4 ,dr4 ,mc,calla 0 v abusive4 ,he 0 s int5t on call+ me bad names1 & on say+ savage & provok+ ?+s1 t he =got 8 argum5t4 ,i kept to ! subject4 ,i nei!r abus$ my oppon5t1 nor sp5t my "t 9 answ]+ 8 abuse ( me4 ,i reprov$ him once or twice1 tell+ him h[ unseemly x 0 9 an old man1 pr(ess+ to be a disciple & a m9i/] ( ,jesus1 to %[ su* a spiteful disposition1 & to utt] su* (f5sive words2 & !n w5t on ) my argum5t4 ,! ?ird night my oppon5t seem$ to be los+ 8 reason4 ,on ! f\r? night he 0 lit]ally mad4 ,loss ( sleep1 rage1 & mortification1 seem$ to h br\ght on fev] ( ! bra91 & he 0 really insane4 ,8 fri5ds 7 t]ribly put ab\t4 ,_m ( !m 7 furi\s1 & 7 pla9ly b5t on viol5ce4 ,a policeman climb$ up ! back ( ! plat=m beh9d :]e ,i 0 sitt+ & said 9 my e>3 ',!re's mis*ief brew+3 y _h bett] come ) me4 ,/ep d[n n[ :ile !y are look+ ! o!r way4' ,i look$ = my ov]coat & hat1 b !y 7 gone4 ,"s "o _h c>ri$ !m (f1 to prev5t me f escap+4 ,a g5tleman :o _h se5 a p]son take !m away1 & place !m 9 a di/ant corn] ( ! room1 see+ :at 0 com+1 w5t & br\ght !m to me1 & ,i at once slipp$ ov] ! back ( ! plat=m to ! floor1 & accompani$ ! policeman4 ,! cr[d1 int5t on gett+ t[>ds ! front ( ! plat=m1 _h left a vacant space ne> ! wall1 & ,i & ! policeman got ne>ly to ! door ( ! hall be=e we 7 obs]v$4 ,b j z we 7 pass+ out a cry arose1 ',he's (f6 ,he's (f6' & a madd5$ cr[d prep>$ = pursuit4 ,:5 we got into ! /reet ! policeman said hurri$ly1 ',:i* is ! way to y\r lodg+s8' ',t1' said ,i1 po9t+ s\?4 ',!n come ?is way1' said he1 'quick2' & he pull$ me nor?4 ,?is probably sav$ my life4 ,! mob knew :i* way my lodg+s lay1 & z soon z !y got out ( ! hall1 !y hurri$ s\?1 l a pack ( h\nds1 ro>+ & furi\s4 ,i 0 soon half a mile away 9 ! o!r direction4 ',:]e %all ,i take y8' said ! policeman4 ',d y "k any "o h]eab\ts8' ',take me to ,mr4 ,mott's1' said ,i1 '9 ,ar* ,/reet4' ,we 7 !re 9 a few mom5ts1 & z ! door op5$ to receive me1 ! policeman receiv$ 8 gratuity1 & ha/5$ away4 ,9 fifte5 m9utes !re 0 a noise 9 ! /reet4 ,mr4 ,mott op5$ ! door & look$ out1 :5 a brickbat pass$ j by 8 head1 & broke itself to pieces on ! door-po/1 leav+ its m>k on ! m>ble4 ,he _h a n>r[ escape4 ,he clos$ ! door1 & aft] a:ile ! mob disp]s$1 & all 0 quiet4 ,?us end$ ! discussion ) ,dr4 ,mc,calla4 ,"o w\ld h ?\ght t aft] su* an exp]i5ce z ?is1 ,i %\ld h tak5 c>e to keep out ( debates on su* an excit+ subject4 ,b ,i 0 d>+ to madness4 ,i 0 engag$ aga9 9 discussion on ! same subject1 9 ! same city1 9 less ?an a mon?4 ,! cl]gy ( ,philadelphia1 unwill+ to leave ! cause ( ! ,bible 9 ?is plight1 dem&$ t ,i %\ld discuss ! "q ) ,dr4 ,b]g1 a m9i/] 9 :om !y _h great confid5ce4 ,i yield$ to ! dem&1 & ! discussion took place 9 ,conc]t ,hall1 9 ,janu>y1 #ahed4 ,! hall 0 cr[d$ e night4 ,"o v wet & /ormy night1 ! numb] pres5t 0 only #bjjj1 b e o!r night x 0 f #bbej to #bdjj4 ,a ,philadelphia newspap] ( t p]iod says1 ,we _c =be> to notice ! contra/ 9 ! mann] & be>+ ( ! two disputants4 ,mr4 ,b>k] uni=mly bore himself z a g5tleman1 c\rte\sly & respectfully t[>ds 8 oppon5t1 & ) ! dignity becom+ 8 position1 & ! solemnity & importance ( ! "q4 ,we regret we _c say ! same ( ,dr4 ,b]g1 :o at times seem$ to =get ! obligations ( ! g5tleman1 9 8 zeal z a controv]siali/4 ,he is an able & skilful debat]1 ?\gh less logical ?an ,mr4 ,b>k]2 b he wa/$ 8 "t & /r5g? too (t5 on p]sonalities & irrelevant matt]s4 ,8 p]sonal inu5does & (f5sive epi!ts1 8 co>se witticisms & arrogant be>+1 may h suit$ ! vulg> & intol]ant among 8 p>ty1 b !y won him no respect f ! calm & ?9k+ portion ( ! audi5ce2 :ile we "k t !y griev$ & (f5d$ "s intellig5t & c&id m5 :o ?or\ghly agre$ ) 8 views4 ,x is "t t ,*ri/ians & cl]gym5 _h le>n$ t m5 :om !y reg>d z h]etics & infidels h n =feit$ all claims to ! respect & c\rtesies ( social life by _! errors ( op9ion1 & t insol5ce & arrogance1 contemptu\s sne]s & impea*m5t ( motives & "* t[>ds su* m51 are n effective means ( grace = _! enlight5m5t & conv]sion4 ,!re 0 a l>ge numb] ( m5 among ! audi5ce :o lo/ _! self-control 9 _! dislike ( ,mr4 ,b>k]'s views1 & he 0 (t5 int]rupt$1 & sometimes *eck$ 9 8 argum5t1 by hisses1 groans1 sne]s1 vulg> cries1 & clamors1 ?\gh ?r\gh all ^! annoyances & repeat$ provocations1 he ma9ta9$ 8 wont$ composure ( mann] & 8 cle>ness ( ?\ght4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,dr4 ,b]g 0 he>d ) g5]al quiet by 8 oppon5ts1 & greet$ ) clamor\s applause by 8 fri5ds4 ,i am afraid ! above rem>ks 7 true4 ,/ill1 ,dr4 ,b]g 0 almo/ a g5tleman comp>$ ) ,dr4 ,mc,calla1 & he 0 va/ly m ( a s*ol> & debat]1 f> z he 0 f be+ a model disputant4 ,dr4 ,b]g _h ! "r side2 he /ood = ! def5ce ( all t 0 good1 & true1 & great1 & glori\s2 b ! way 9 :i* he w5t ab\t 8 "w 0 by no means ! be/ "o4 ,he took a wrong position1--a position :i* x 0 impossible = him to ma9ta94 ,8 doctr9e 0 t ! ,bible 0 absolutely p]fect1--t ! inspiration ( ! ,book 0 su* z n only to make x a fit & prop] in/rum5t = ! religi\s in/ruction1 & ! moral & spiritual r5ovation1 ( mank9d1 b su* z to pres]ve x f all ! innoc5t1 h>mless1 & unimportant weaknesses1 imp]fections1 & errors ( reg5]ate & sanctifi$ humanity4 ,he ev5 cont5d$ = a k9d or a degree ( p]fection :i* _m ( ! mo/ highly e/eem$ pr(essors & !ologians ( or?odox *ur*es _h rel9qui%$4 ,he held to views ab\t ! creation & ! univ]sality ( ! deluge1 :i* or?odox ,*ri/ian ,geologi/s l ,pr(essor ,hit*cock ( ,am]ica1 z well z ,dr4 ,pye ,smi? ( ,engl&1 _h giv5 up z unt5able4 ,he cont5d$ = a p]fection :i*1 9 fact1 is physically impossible1 & :i*1 9 tru?1 0 inconsi/5t ) 8 own ackn[l$gm5ts 9 o!r p>ts ( ! discussion4 ,i h no wi% to disp>age my oppon5t2 ,i _h r d ! contr>y2 b he did n prop]ly & adequately und]/& ! great "q :i* he und]took to discuss4 ,h5ce he got involv$ 9 inextricable difficulties1 &1 9 spite ( all he c\ld d1 8 attempt$ def5ce ( ! ,bible 01 to a great ext5t1 a failure4 ,he said a _m good ?+s ab\t ! ,bible4 ,he prov$ a _m ?+s 9 its favor4 ,he made ! impression1 at times1 t !re 0 some?+ 9 its tea*+s ( a mo/ p[]ful & bless$ t5d5cy2 t x 0 a book ( inf9ite value1--t x 0 a wond]ful tea*] & a mighty com=t]1--t x _h done a va/ am\nt ( good1 & 0 calculat$ to d a va/ am\nt m1--t x 0 a fri5d & patron ( all ?+s good & glori\s1--t x 0 ! nurse ( individual & national virtue1 & ! s\rce ( p]sonal1 dome/ic1 & national happ9ess4 ,he said _m good ?+s ab\t ! excell5cy ( ,*ri/'s precepts1 & ! beauty & glory ( ,8 example4 ,a hundr$ good ?+s he said1 bo? 9 favor ( ! ,bible1 & 9 opposition to infidelity4 ,b ! "o great po9t :i* he _h pl$g$ himself to prove he did n prove4 ,x c\ld n be prov$4 ,x 0 n true4 ,s t ?\gh he won a sub/antial victory2 he su/a9$ a logical defeat4 ,& if he _h be5 tw5ty times m le>n$1 & tw5ty times m able ?an he 01 he w\ld h be5 defeat$4 ,if a man attempts ! impossible1 failure is inevitable2 & if he has a skilful1 w>y1 & able oppon5t1 8 failure w be se5 & felt1 ev5 by 8 mo/ ard5t fri5ds1 & greate/ admir]s4 ,& s x 0 9 ! case ( ,dr4 ,b]g4 ,b ! error 0 n 8 alone2 x 0 ! error ( 8 fri5ds2 ! error ( 8 patrons2 ! error ( 8 times4 ,:at le>n+1 & tal5t1 & zeal1 & skill 9 debate1 consid]ably above ! av]age ( 8 pr(ession1 c\ld d1 he did2 & t 0 a good deal3 & 8 failure 0 *>geable n on himself1 s mu* z on ! faulty !ology ( ! s*ool 9 :i* he _h be5 tra9$1 & to :i* he /ill belong$4 ,s f> z ! g5]al m]its ( ! ,bible 7 conc]n$1 ,i 0 9 ! wrong4 ,b ! fact 0 n made s pla91 s palpable to ! audi5ce1 z x %\ld h be51 & z x might h be51 if ,i _h _h a wis]1 a w>i]1 & an abl] oppon5t1 & "o :o _h no false !ory ( ,bible inspiration or ab/ract p]fection to def5d4 ,a man ?or\ghly furni%$ = ! "w1 & free f fooli% & unau?oriz$ !ories1 w\ld h be5 able to give pro( ( ! sub/antial tru? & div9ity ( ! ,scriptures1 & ( _! transc5d5t moral & spiritual excell5ce1 absolutely ov]:elm+2 & ,i d mo/ he>tily wi% ,i _h _h ! happ9ess to enc\nt] su* an advocate 9 my discussions4 ,x might h prov$ an inf9ite advantage to me1 & an incalculable bless+ to my fri5ds4 ,z x 01 ! debate only t5d$ to /r5g!n me 9 my unbelief1 & to increase my confid5ce 9 future controv]sies ) ! cl]gy4 ,h[ ,i answ]$ my own argum5ts1 & got ov] my own objections1 :5 on my way back to ,*ri/ianity1 ,i may /ate h]eaft]4 ,all ,i ne$ say "h is1 t ,i took a qualifi$ view ( ! div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible1 & ( ! doctr9e ( its div9e inspiration1--a view 9 accordance ) facts1 & ) ! tea*+s ( ,scripture itself on ! subject4 ,?is view did n require me to dem& 9 a book ( div9e orig9 ! k9d ( ab/ract or absolute p]fection :i* ,dr4 ,b]g requir$1 & :i* he s ra%ly und]took to prove4 ,on ! contr>y1 x taught me to look = a ?\s& innoc5t & unimportant errors & imp]fections 9 ! ,bible4 ,a ?\s& ?+s :i* w\ld1 if prov$1 h be5 reg>d$ by ,dr4 ,b]g z valid objections to ! doctr9e ( its sup]human au?ority & div9e au?ority1 7 no objections at all to me4 ,i c\ld ackn[l$ge ! tru? ( !m all1 & yet believe 9 ! sub/antial tru? & div9ity ( ! ,book z a :ole4 ,! du/ & mud ( our /reets & roads1 & ! decay+ timb]s & rott+ grasses ( our =e/s & f>ms d n make me "q ! div9e orig9 & ! sub/antial p]fection ( ! _w3 nor d ! errors & imp]fections ( anci5t transcrib]s or mod]n translators1 or ! want ( absolute sci5tific1 hi/orical1 *ronological1 lit]>y1 !ological or moral p]fection ev5 9 ! orig9al au?ors ( ! ,bible1 make me d\bt its div9e orig9 & inspiration1 or its practical & sub/antial p]fection4 ,y may %[ me t5 ?\s& ?+s 9 ! e>? :i*1 to multitudes1 w\ld seem inconsi/5t ) ! doctr9e t x is ! "w ( an all-p]fect ,creator2 b !y w\ld n be inconsi/5t ) t doctr9e 9 my view4 ,!y w\ld probably seem1 to my m9d1 pro(s ( its tru?4 ,?+s :i*1 to m5 :o _h n prop]ly /udi$ !m1 appe>$ s]i\s defects1 or results ( ,adam's s91 w\ld be se5 by me to be important excell5cies2 ma/]pieces ( inf9ite wisdom & goodness4 ,_m ( ! ?+s ,i said ab\t ! ,bible 9 my debate ) ,dr4 ,b]g 7 true2 b !y am\nt$ to no?+4 ,dr4 ,b]g ?\ght !y 7 s]i\s *>ges1 & t if !y 7 n refut$1 !y w\ld de/roy ! cr$it & p[] ( ! ,book4 ,he 0 mi/ak54 ,& he nev] did refute !m4 ,if ,i 7 9 ! place ( ,dr4 ,b]g1 & an oppon5t 7 to br+ =w>d ^? ?+s 9 pro( t ! ,bible 0 n ( ,god1 ,i %\ld say1 ,y\r /atem5ts may be true1 or !y may be false1 & ,i d n c>e mu* :i* !y are2 b !y are good = no?+ z dispro(s ( ! div9e orig9 & practical p]fection ( ! ,bible4 ,! ,bible is all x pr(esses to be1 & x is m & bett] ?an its greate/ admir]s suppose x to be1 not)/&+ its numb]less traces ( innoc5t human imp]fections4 ,! sun has spots1 b !y nei!r disprove its value nor its div9e orig94 ,! probability is1 t ! spots 9 ! sun h _! use1 & w\ld be se51 if prop]ly und]/ood1 to be pro(s ( ! wisdom & goodness ( ! ,creator4 ,& x is c]ta9ly pla9 to me1 t :at y reg>d u defects 9 ! ,bible1 are pro(s bo? ( its div9e orig91 & ( its real p]fection4 ,i said "s ?+s ab\t ! ,bible 9 my debate ) ,dr4 ,b]g1 :i*1 if !y _h be5 true1 w\ld h prov$ t ! ,bible 0 n ( div9e orig94 ,b !y 7 n true4 ,all ^! ?+s %\ld h be5 refut$ by ,dr4 ,b]g ) great promptness1 & refut$ s ?or\ghly & pla9ly1 t e "o %\ld h be5 made to see & feel t !y 7 refut$4 ,b !y 7 n4 ,"s ( !m 7 left unnotic$4 ,o!rs 7 h&l$ unskilfully4 ,! "t & /r5g? t %\ld h be5 giv5 to !m 7 wa/$ on trifles1 or unwisely sp5t 9 (f5sive p]sonalities1 unseasonable witticisms1 or attempts at f9e speak+4 ,! objections ( ?is class1 :i* my oppon5t fail$ to answ]1 or answ]$ unsatisfactorily1 we may notice fur!r on4 ,9 ,janu>y1 #ahee1 :ile ov] on bus9ess1 ,i _h a public debate at ,halifax1 ,engl&1 ) ,brew9 ,grant1 a congregational m9i/]4 ,?is1 s f> z its impression on my own m9d 0 conc]n$1 0 ! mo/ un=tunate discussion ,i ev] _h4 ,my oppon5t 0 ! meane/ & mo/ unpr9cipl$ or ill-pr9cipl$ man ,i ev] met4 ,9 a pamphlet :i* he _h publi%$1 giv+ in/ructions to ^? :o 7 call$ to def5d ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity aga9/ unbeliev]s1 he _h laid x d[n z a rule1 t _! fir/ object %\ld be to de/roy ! influ5ce ( _! oppon5ts1 & t 9 ord] to d ?is1 !y %\ld d _! utmo/ to damage _! reputation1 & make !m odi\s4 ,he act$ on ?is pr9ciple1 9 8 debate ) me1 ) ! greate/ fidelity4 ,he rak$ toge!r1 & gave =? 9 8 spee*es1 all ! fooli% & wick$ /ories :i* my old p]secutors _h fabricat$ & spread abroad respect+ me1 except ^? ab\t my hav+ committ$ suicide1 & be+ smo!r$ to dea?1 & "s o!rs :i* 7 s notori\sly false t !y c\ld no long] be us$ to my disadvantage4 ,^? /ories he improv$ by mak+ !m worse4 ,he made a numb] ( new ones also4 ,i _h publi%$ a book1 giv+ ! /ory ( my life up to ! "t ( my expulsion f ! ,me?odi/ ,new ,connexion4 ,?is "w1 l my o!r works1 0 writt5 9 ! cle>e/ & simple/ /yle1 s t no man ) ord9>y abilities c\ld fail to und]/& x1 & no man )\t p[]s ( p]v]sion bord]+ on ! miracul\s1 c\ld give to any "p ( x an objectionable mean+4 ,?is book he took1 & read1 & misread1 & int]pret$1 & mis9t]pret$1 s z to make ! impression on p]sons unacqua9t$ ) x1 t ,i _h writt5 & publi%$ ! mo/ fooli%1 ridicul\s1 & 9 "s cases1 really discr$itable ?+s ( myself1 & ev5 false & unw>rantable /atem5ts ab\t o!rs4 ,be=e ! discussion came on he gave a lecture on ?is book4 ,i w5t to he> x4 ,he spoke ab\t an h\r1 & e quotation f ! "w1 & e ref]5ce he made to x1 0 false4 ,!re 0 n a ^w ( tru? 9 ! :ole lecture4 ,!re 0 n a s5t5ce :i* 0 n z opposite to tru? & z full ( falsehood z he c\ld make x4 ,& ! +5uity he display$ 9 8 task 0 m>vell\s4 ,x 0 really devili%4 ,he enl>g$ my conception ( ! evil p[]s ( wick$ m51 9 ! l9e ( turn+ good into evil1 & tru? into lies1 beyond all t ,i c\ld o!rwise h imag9$4 ,he did a hundr$ ?+s1 ! lea/ ( :i* my poor limit$ capacity w\ld h deem$ impossible4 ,he pursu$ ! same c\rse 9 ! debate4 ,he w5t z f> beyond poor ,mc,calla1 z ,mc,calla _h gone beyond ord9>y s9n]s4 ,if ,i _h und]tak5 to correct 8 misrepres5tations1 & expose 8 fictions1 ,i %\ld n h _h "o mom5t to give to ! subject we 7 met to discuss4 ,s ,i did z ,i did ) ,mc,calla1 ,i rebuk$ ! man ) becom+ sev]ity2 ,i contradict$ 8 /atem5ts 9 ! pla9e/ & /ronge/ way ,i c\ld2 ,i also (f]$ to arrange = a discussion ( p]sonal matt]s1 if he wi%$ x1 aft] we _h gone ?r\gh our discussion ( pr9ciples1 & engag$ to prove e discr$itable /ory he told ( me to be false1 & !n w5t on ) ! discussion4 ,he accept$ my *all5ge to discuss p]sonalities1 b nei!r kept 8 engagem5t1 nor abat$ 8 ef=ts at misrepres5tation dur+ ! rema9d] ( ! debate4 ,he 0 n cont5t ) sob]1 sad1 delib]ate falsehood2 he resort$ to ridicule4 ,he pull$ comical & ugly faces2 put out 8 tongue2 put 8 ?umb to 8 nose2 ?rew orange peel at me2 & said & did o!r ?+s :i* x is n lawful = me to utt]4 ,he _h ?\ght1 ,i suppose1 to disgu/ me2 to tire me out2 to make me )draw f ! debate1 & give him ! opportunity ( say+ he _h put me to flight4 ,he 0 mi/ak54 ,i kept my gr\nd4 ,& ,i kept my temp]4 ,& ,i kept my gravity4 ,i rebuk$ him at times ) becom+ /]nness1 & !n w5t on ) my task4 ,x is probable t ,i spoke m /rongly aga9/ ! ,bible1 & t ,i said h>d] ?+s aga9/ ! *ur* & ! m9i/ry1 ?an ,i %\ld h done1 if he _h conduct$ himself ) any reg>d to tru? & dec5cy2 b ,i did n raise my voice above its usual pit*1 nor did ,i %[ any unusual signs ( indignation1 disgu/1 or irritation4 ,my feel+s became m int5se1 my language m cutt+1 & my /yle & logic m po9t$ & =cible2 b my mann] 0 calm1 & my behavi\r gu>d$4 ,& ,i husb&$ my /r5g?4 ,i let him explode1 :ile ,i let (f my /eam quietly1 & 9 j measure only1 mak+ e p>ticle d its prop] "w4 ,i wa/$ nei!r words1 nor /r5g?1 nor "t4 ,9 ?ree or f\r days my wick$ oppon5t began to get weak & we>y4 ,he _h tir$ himself in/ead ( me4 ,he _h disgu/$ & put to %ame _m ( 8 fri5ds4 ,he _h driv5 away sev]al ( 8 support]s4 ,he _h weak5$ 8 p>ty4 ,he _h /r5g!n$ 8 oppon5t4 ,he _h lo/1 he _h betray$1 8 cause4 ,he dragg$ on heavily4 ,he 0 all b helpless4 ,i _h e ?+ my own way4 ,i _h an easy fight1 & a decisive victory4 ,i _h ! la/ spee*2 & :5 ! battle 0 ov]1 ,i felt free to deal ) my unpr9cipl$ oppon5t r sev]ely1 & ,i said3 ,my oppon5t has act$1 f beg9n+ to end ( ?is debate1 9 any?+ b a noble & manly way4 ,i ref] n m]ely to 8 p]sonal abuse1 8 use ( f\l names1 8 insol5ce ( mann]1 8 malignity ( _s2 b to ! way 9 :i* he has misconduct$ ! argum5t4 ,he 0 pl$g$ to prove ! ,bible ( ,div9e orig9 & au?ority4 ,he 0 b\nd to br+ out1 z e>ly z possible1 :at he ?\ght 8 /ronge/ argum5ts1 & af=d me an opportunity ( meet+ !m4 ,b he did n d ?is4 ,to judge f 8 proce$+s1 y w\ld conclude t he _h no fai? 9 any ( ! popul> argum5ts1 su* z ^? employ$ by ,paley1 ,horne1 c4 ,he sat wat*+1 l an animal we ne$ n "n1 = "s /ray ?\ght to p\nce ^u4 ,he tri$ e device to draw me f ! "q1 & %[$1 n only ! greate/ reluctance1 b a fix$ det]m9ation1 n to come any ne>] to x himself ?an he c\ld possibly help4 ,he has %[n no?+ l c\rage1 no?+ l confid5ce 9 ! goodness ( 8 cause1 no?+ l op5ness1 c&or1 or g5]osity2 no?+ b craft & cunn+4 ,he has nev] f\ght l a soldi]1 b dodg$ l an assass94 ,honorable m5 give up a cause t c't be honorably ma9ta9$4 ,= myself1 ye are witnesses1 ,i came out op5ly1 boldly1 & at once1 & gave my oppon5t ! be/ opportunity he c\ld h ( grappl+ fairly ) my argum5ts4 ,b he w\ld n meet !m4 ,he slunk beh9d 8 mud-batt]y1 & in/ead ( fir+ %ot & %ell1 spurt$ =? fil?4 ,by-&-by he took my old des]t$ batt]y1 & began to play ^u me ) my worn-out guns & wood5 %ot1 till 8 fri5ds compell$ him to give up4 ,he compla9$ t ,i _h tak5 up my position on ,m\nt ,horeb1 & patt]$ him ) grape%ot f ! old ,jewi% armory1 & bes\ght & urg$ me to plant myself on ,m\nt ,tabor1 or ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 & try :at ,i c\ld d ) ,*ri/ian ammunition4 ,i did s2 b ev5 t did n please him4 ,he />$ & squall$1 z if x _h be5 ra9+ r$-hot %ot1 z ?ick z x once p\r$ hail/ones & fire 9 ,egypt1 kill+ e bea/ t 0 out 9 ! fields4 ,& ?us he has gone on4 ,he nev] seems to h be5 satisfi$1 ei!r ) 8 own position or m9e4 ,i might h pleas$ him1 no d\bt1 by giv+ 9 be=e ! battle1 & surr5d]+ at discretion2 b t is n my cu/om4 ,well1 n[ ! battle draws ne> its close2 & no "o1 ,i tru/1 has lo/ any?+1 b :at is bett] lo/ ?an f\nd4 ,i am satisfi$ ) my own position1 & ne>ly s ) my %>e ( ! fight4 ,) a manli] foe1 ,i %\ld h _h a pleasant] fight2 b soldi]s _c always *oose _! antagoni/s1 nor c !y keep1 9 all cases1 to _! own be/ mode ( w>f>e4 ,! hunt] _c always f9d ! noble/ game2 & p]haps x is bett] = 8 neighb\r1 if n s pleasant to himself1 t he %\ld sometimes be oblig$ to employ 8 dogs & rifles 9 de/roy+ v]m94 ,i feel t an apology is due f me to y & ! public1 = ent]+ ! li/s ) my oppon5t4 ,x is soon giv54 ,:5 ,i fir/ (f]$ to meet him 9 discussion on ! ,bible1 ,i suppos$ him to be a well-in=m$ & respectable man1 & ! repres5tative ( ! highe/ intellectual & moral culture1 comb9$ ) sup]ior tal5t & exp]i5ce z a debat]1 t ! or?odox _w c\ld boa/4 ,i soon f\nd out my mi/ake1 b ,i did n feel at lib]ty to )draw my *all5ge4 ,:5 ,i le>n$ ! infam\s "* ( 8 p]sonal lectures1 ,i decl9$ all fur!r correspond5ce ) him till he %\ld retract 8 sl&]s2 b /ill ,i did n feel free to say ,i w\ld n debate ) him1 if 8 fri5ds %\ld br+ him to reasonable t]ms4 ,8 fri5ds 9 ,halifax succe$$ 9 do+ s1 & out ( reg>d to ! wi%es ( my fri5ds1 ,i submitt$ to ! tempor>y degradation ( be+ plac$ on ! same plat=m ) my unpr9cipl$ calumniator1 & ! calumniator ( ! be/1 ! wise/1 & ! greate/ m5 ( e age & nation4 ,i d n regret hav+ done s4 ,he w leave ?is discussion a sadd] & a wis] man4 ,he has f\nd t ! p[] ( insol5ce1 & falsehood1 & ( vulg>1 brutal wit1 has its b\nds2 t !re are ^? :om !y _c aba% or c[2 t ! might 9 moral enc\nt]s is ) ! "r4 ,i "p ) my oppon5t )\t malice1 ?\gh )\t regret4 ,if he has natural *>act]i/ics :i* o!rs h n1 & lacks "s high] qualities :i* o!rs h1 ! fault is n entirely 84 ,he did n make himself4 ,nor did he nurse1 or re>1 or tra9 himself4 ,he is ! production1 & 8 "* may1 to a great ext5t1 be ! production1 ( influ5ces ov] :i* he _h no control4 ,i %all n !re=e /ate all ,i h felt :ile li/5+ to ! false & fi]ce p]sonalities ) :i* ?is discussion has be5 disgrac$4 ,i w r ackn[l$ge my own errors1 & lam5t t any?+ he has said or done %\ld h be5 p]mitt$1 9 any case1 to affect my own /yle ( advocacy1 & r5d] me less g5tle or gu>d$ 9 my utt]ances ?an ,i o!rwise might h be54 ,i retract e expression ( unk9dness or res5tm5t4 ,i apologize = ev]y?+ h>%1 (f5sive1 or ungraceful 9 my mann]2 & ,i am sorry ,i c\ld n decl>e & advocate my views1 )\t %ock+ or di/ress+ "s ( y\r m9ds4 ,& n[1 ) be/ & he>tie/ wi%es = y\r welf>e1 & = ! welf>e ( mank9d at l>ge1 & 9 ! fall & c]ta9 hope ( ! f9al1 univ]sal1 & et]nal triumph ( ! tru?1 & 9 ! ultimate reg5]ation & salvation ( our race1 ,i bid y all f>ewell4 ,?is man pur*as$ ! copyright ( ! debate1 & pl$g$ himself to issue a correct edition1 9 accordance ) ! notes ( ! report]4 ,in/ead ( do+ s1 besides mak+ unlimit$ alt]ations 9 8 own spee*es1 he alt]$ e spee* ( m9e4 ,"s ?+s he left out4 ,9 "o case1 to prev5t an exposure ( "o ( 8 m reckless mis-/atem5ts1 he left out two pages ( "o ( my spee*es4 ,by a free & artful use ( italics1 & an abuse ( /ops1 he alt]$ & p]v]t$ ! mean+ ( q a multitude ( my /atem5ts4 ,& :51 aft] all1 he f\nd t ! publication damag$ him t]ribly 9 ! e/imation ( 8 fri5ds1 he suppress$ x altoge!r4 ,! conduct ( ?is oppon5t _h a bad effect on my m9d1 & if any?+ %ort ( s\nd reason c\ld h kept me 9 ! ranks ( infidelity1 x w\ld h be5 ! %ameless1 ! outrage\s conduct ( su* pret5d]s to ,*ri/ianity z ?is bad man4 ,b ,i ?ank ,god1 su* horrible & inexcusable inconsi/5cy 0 n all[$ to decide my fate4 ,bett] p[]s1 sweet] & happi] influ5ces1 7 br\ght into play to c\nt]act its deadly t5d5cy4 ,& ev5 o!r oppon5ts1 ( a wor?i] "* & ( a high] ord]1 came 9 my way1 :o1 by _! ,*ri/ian temp]1 & high culture1 & by _! reg>d = my feel+s1 & _! manife/ desire = my welf>e1 oblit]at$ ! bad impressions produc$ by ! unscrupul\s & malignant conduct ( ,brew9 ,grant1 & all b won me ov] to ! cause ( ,*ri/4 ,x happ5$ t :ile ,i 0 yet 9 ,engl&1 an arrangem5t 0 made = a public discussion betwe5 me & ,colonel ,mi*ael ,%aw1 ( ,b\rtree ,p>k1 ,ayr4 ,colonel ,%aw 0 a k9d ( lay m9i/]1 :o prea*$ ! ,gospel gratuit\sly1 & sp5t 8 "t & prop]ty 9 do+ good4 ,he 0 a ,*ri/ian & a g5tleman out & out2 a ,*ri/ian & a g5tleman ( ! highe/ ord]4 ,five su* m5 might h sav$ ,sodom & ,gomorrah1 & all ! cities ( ! pla94 ,he 0 z guileless z a little *ild1 & z hone/ z ! light1 & ab\t z pure1 & good1 & k9d z a reg5]at$ human s\l c\ld be4 ,?is1 at lea/1 0 ! impression :i* 8 looks1 & conv]sation1 & behavi\r1 made on my m9d4 ,he n only comm&$ my respect1 b call$ =? my v5]ation2 & he made me love him1 z ,i nev] did love m ?an two or ?ree good m5 9 all my life4 ,well1 an arrangem5t 0 made = a public discussion on ! div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible betwe5 ?is good & godly man & me4 ,! discussion took place 9 ! ,city ,hall1 ,glasg[4 ,! ,colonel 0 s k9d & g5tlemanly1 t ,i f\nd my task exce$+ly difficult4 ,x 0 v unpleasant to speak lightly ( ! fai? ( s good & true a man2 or to say any?+ calculat$ to hurt ! feel+s ( "o s guileless & s affectionate4 ,& _m a "t ,i wi%$ myself employ$ ab\t "s o!r bus9ess1 or engag$ 9 a conte/ ) "s o!r man4 ,at ! end ( ! second night's debate we 7 to re/ two days1 & ! ,colonel 0 s k9d z to invite me1 & ev5 to press me1 to sp5d ^? days ) him at 8 resid5ce ne> ,ayr4 ,! ,colonel _h giv5 8 good lady s favorable an acc\nt ( my behavi\r 9 ! debate1 t %e wrote to me en=c+ h] good husb&'s invitation4 ,i w5t4 ,i c\ld d no o!r4 ,! ,colonel & 8 v5]able fa!r met me at ! /ation ) a c>riage1 & ,i 0 soon 9 ! mid/ ( ! ,colonel's truly ,*ri/ian & happy family4 ,nei!r ! ,colonel nor any ( 8 h\sehold attempt$ to draw me into controv]sy4 ,n a ^w 0 spok5 t 0 calculat$ to make me feel uneasy4 ,!re seem$ no ef=t on ! "p ( any "o1 yet e ?+ 0 said & done 9 su* a way z to make me feel myself p]fectly at home4 ,love1 true ,*ri/ian love1 "u ! guidance ( ! highe/ culture1 0 ! mov+ _s 9 ! ,colonel's family circle4 ,a visit to ! bir?place ( ,burns1 & to ! banks ( ,bonny ,doon1 0 propos$1 & a mo/ delightful /roll we _h1 made all ! m pleasant by ! ,colonel's rem>ks on ! v>i\s objects ( int]e/ t came 9 view1 & 8 apt quotation ( passages f ! works ( ! poet1 ref]r+ to ! sc5]y amid/ :i* we 7 mov+4 ,on our return home ,i 0 made to feel at ease aga9 ) reg>d to e ?+ b myself4 ,i felt sorry t ,i %\ld be at v>iance ) my k9d & accompli%$ ho/ on a subject ( s mu* int]e/ & importance z religion & ! ,bible4 ,! ?\ght t on ! ev5+ ( ! com+ day ,i %\ld h to appe> on ! plat=m aga9 z 8 oppon5t1 0 really annoy+4 ,to talk ) su* a man privately1 9 a free & fri5dly way1 seem$ prop] en\gh2 b to appe> 9 public z 8 antagoni/ seem$ too bad4 ,:5 we />t$ f ,ayr to ,glasg[ 9 ! same tra91 & 9 ! same c>riage1 ,i felt z if ,i w\ld mu* r h travell$ 9 "s o!r direction1 or on a diff]5t err&4 ,b an agreem5t _h be5 made1 & x mu/ be kept2 s two m nights 7 sp5t 9 discussion4 ,b x 0 discussion1--fair & fri5dly discussion1--& n qu>rell+4 ,nei!r he nor ,i gave utt]ance to an unk9d or reproa*ful ^w4 ,:5 ! discussion 0 ov]1 ! ,colonel %ook me by ! h& 9 a mo/ he>ty mann] 9 ! pres5ce ( an excit$ audi5ce1 & pres5t$ me ) a book z an expression ( 8 respect & good feel+4 ,i made ! be/ returns ,i c\ld1 unwill+ to be too mu* outdone by my gallant & ,*ri/ian fri5d4 ,! audi5ce1 divid$ z !y 7 on matt]s ( religion1 aft] gaz+ "s "t on ! spectacle pres5t$ on ! plat=m1 z if at loss :at to d1 or :i* ( ! disputants !y %\ld applaud1 dropp$ _! diff]5ces1 & all unit$ 9 applaud+ bo?1 & ! disputants & ! audi5ce sep>at$ ) ! he>tie/ demon/rations ( satisfaction & mutual good-w4 ,! ev5ts ( ^? days1 & ! impression ,i receiv$ ( my oppon5t's exalt$ "*1 nev] fad$ f my memory4 ,& ?\gh !y _h n all ! effect !y ought to h _h1 _! influ5ce on my m9d 0 truly salut>y4 ,i h nev] ?\ght ( ,colonel ,%aw & 8 good1 k9d1 ,*ri/ian family1 )\t affection1 gratitude1 & delight4 ,he wrote to me repeat$ly aft] my return to ,am]ica1 & 8 lett]s1 :i* rea*$ u :5 we 7 liv+ among ! wilds ( ,nebraska1 7 among our pleasante/ visitants1 & mu/ be reckon$ among ! means ( my recov]y f ! horrors ( unbelief4 ,i _c d\bt b t my enc\nt] ) ?is bless$ man did mu* t[>ds w9n+ back my s\l to ,god1 & ,*ri/1 & ! ,*ur*4 ,?is graci\s man1--?is *ild ( light & love1--is /ill liv+1 & he cont9ues1 :5 ,i give him ! opportunity1 to te/ify 8 love = me1 & 8 good wi%es = my heal? & welf>e4 ,god bless 8 s\l2 & bless 8 h\sehold2 &1 aft] hav+ giv5 !m a long & happy life on e>?1 receive !m to ,8 k+dom1 to %>e toge!r ! ri*es ( ,8 love = ev] & ev]4 ,,*apt] ,,xvii4 ,,cont9uation ,,( ,,my ,,/ory4 ,,fre% ,,tr\bles4 ,a ,,*ange ,,= ,,! ,,bett]4 ,,h[ ,,br\ght ,,ab\t4 ,,incid5ts4 ,,! ,,*ange ,,complete ,,at ,,l5g?4 ,,its ,,results4 ,9 compliance ) ! reque/ ( "s skeptical neighb\rs1 ,i lectur$ aga9/ ! ,div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible 9 my fir/ settlem5t 9 ,ohio4 ,mr4 ,sp(=?1 a ,me?odi/ m9i/] 0 induc$ to hold a public discussion ) me on ! subject1 & z he 0 n well acqua9t$ ei!r ) 8 own side ( ! "q or ! o!r1 he 0 soon emb>rass$ & conf\nd$1 & oblig$ to retire f ! conte/4 ,n cont5t ) ! retirem5t ( my oppon5t1 ,i ann\nc$ ano!r c\rse ( lectures on ! ,bible1 resolv$ n to rel9qui% my hold ( ! p's att5tion1 till ,i _h laid be=e !m my ?\ghts on ! excit+ subject at great] l5g?4 ,! company li/5$ to me = a "t ) great pati5ce1 b :ile ,i 0 giv+ my la/ lecture1 "s "y m5 set to "w outside to pull d[n ! log s*ool-h\se 9 :i* ,i 0 speak+1 & ,i & my fri5ds _h to make ha/e out be=e ! lecture 0 ov]1 to avoid be+ buri$ be=e we 7 dead4 ,! "y m5 _h provid$ !mselves pl5tifully ) rott5 eggs1 ?9k+ to pelt me on my way home2 b ! night 0 v d>k1 & ! way l$ ?r\gh a tall1 d5se1 %ad[y =e/1 & someh[ !y mi/ook _! own fa!r = me1 & gave him ! eggs4 ,:5 he got home he 0 z slimy & odorif]\s z a man ne$ to be2 :ile ,i 0 p]fectly clean & sweet4 ,b ,i 0 n to be p]mitt$ to escape 9 ?is way4 ,dur+ ! night !y pull$ d[n ! f5ces ( my f>m1 & gave me o!r h9ts1 t ,i mu/ leave1 or d worse4 ,s ,i sold my f>m = :at ,i c\ld get1 & b\ght ano!r "s sev5ty miles away1 ne> ,salem1 ,columbiana ,c\nty1 a region occupi$ *iefly by :at1 9 ,am]ica1 7 call$ ,come-out]s--p :o _h left ! *ur*es & ! m9i/ry1 & ev5 sep>at$ !mselves f civil organizations1 resolv$ to be subject to no au?ority b _! own wills or _! own :ims4 ,among p s free z ^?1 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld h lib]ty pl5ty2 b ,i soon f\nd t !y 7 s fond ( fre$om1 t !y want$ my %>e z well z _! own1 & ,i got into tr\ble once m4 ,& !n ,i saw t ! greate/ brawl]s ab\t lib]ty1 :5 !y come to be tri$1 are (t5 ! mo/ arrant despots & tyrants on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,!n ! p 9 ! di/rict 7 n all ,come-out]s4 ,"s 7 ,*ri/ians4 ,& ^! ,i provok$ by my disreg>d ( ! ,sabba?1 & by my advocacy ( views unfri5dly to religion & ! div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible4 ,i work$ 9 my g>d5 or on my f>m on a ,sunday1 9 sight ( my neighbors z !y w5t to *ur*4 ,i _h previ\sly call$ a ,bible conv5tion 9 ! place1 & tak5 ! lead+ "p 9 its proce$+s4 ,i took ! skeptical side 9 a public discussion on ,*ri/ianity 9 ! t[n1 & gave utt]ance to s5tim5ts :i* pa9$ ! he>ts ( ! religi\s portion ( my neighbors beyond endurance4 ,! consequ5ce 01 ,i got into tr\ble aga91 & _h to move once m1 or be undone4 ,s ,i mov$ once m4 ,?is "t ,i resolv$ to make sure ( a quiet home1 s ,i w5t "r away beyond ! limits ( ! ,/ates1 into ! unpeopl$ t]ritory ( ,nebraska1 a c\ntry at t p]iod t5 or twelve times z l>ge z ,p5nsylvania or ,engl&1 & conta9+ less ?an five ?\s& :ite inhabitants--an imm5se wild]ness1 occupi$ *iefly by tribes ( r$ ,indians1 h]ds ( buffalo & de]1 c\ntless multitudes ( wolves1 ) "h & !re a be>1 a pan!r1 or a catam\nt1 & heaps ( rattlesnakes4 ,& "h ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld be safe4 ,& s ,i 04 ,! ,indians gave me no tr\ble4 ,i always treat$ !m k9dly1 & !y 7 k9d to me 9 return4 ,z = ! wild bea/s1 ,god has put ! fe> & dread ( man ^u e bea/ ( ! e>?2 & z he approa*es1 !y retire4 ,z a rule1 ! fi]ce/ bea/s ( ! =e/ w turn aside to make way = man4 ,i h liv$ 9 ! mid/ ( multitudes ( wolves1 & tak5 no h>m4 ,i h slept on ! op5 prairie 9 regions sw>m+ ) wolves1 & nev] be5 di/urb$4 ,i h travell$ by night 9 o!r p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 ov] ! wilde/ m\nta9s1 ! homes ( pan!rs1 be>s1 & catam\nts1 & nev] be5 mole/$4 ,! rattlesnakes 7 ! mo/ dang]\s creatures4 ,yet ev5 f !m ,i took no h>m1 ,i h walk$ among !m "t aft] "t 9 slipp]s or l[ %oes1 yet ,i nev] 0 bitt54 ,i slept once = ?ree nights ) a rattlesnake )9 two or ?ree in*es ( my brea/1 yet escap$ unhurt4 ,god took c>e ( me1 :5 ,i nei!r took due c>e ( myself1 nor c>$ z ,i ought = ,him4 ,! p>ties ,i fe>$ ! mo/ 7 ! :ite p4 ,!y _h he>d ( me1 & z !y pass$ me 9 ! /reet1 !y look$ at me askance1 reg>d+ me app>5tly z a my/]y or a mon/]4 ,b ,i nev] %ock$ !m by skeptical lectures1 or by any o!r act ( ho/ility to religion1 s !y bore ) me1 & came at l5g? to treat me ) respect & confid5ce4 ,my wife & family 7 reg>d$ ) favor f ! fir/4 ,& ,i %all nev] =get ! k9dness ( "o ( our ,*ri/ian neighbors to my wife1 9 a "t ( affliction & sorr[4 ,& x is f my settlem5t 9 ?is desolate & f>-(f region1 t ,i date ! comm5cem5t ( a *ange = ! bett] 9 ! /ate ( my m9d4 ,i d n say t my op9ions began to *ange1 b ! /ate ( my feel+s got bett]1 :i* r5d]$ possible a *ange = ! bett] 9 my s5tim5ts4 ,b ,i _h rea*$ a sad extreme4 ,i _h lo/ all tru/ 9 a ,fa!rly ,god1 & all good hope ( a bett] life4 ,i _h come ne> to ! horrors ( utt] ,a!ism4 ,& ! univ]se _h become an appall+ & inexplicable my/]y4 ,& ! _w _h come to be a dre>y habitation2 & life a we>y affair2 & _m a "t ,i wi%$ ,i _h nev] be5 born4 ,& !re 7 occasions :5 ! d>k sugge/ion came1 ,life is a burd52 ?r[ x d[n4 ,b ,i said2 ,nay2 !re are my wife & *ildr53 ,i w live = _! sakes if = no?+ else4 ,& = _! sakes ,i did live1 ?ank ,god1 till ,i _h some?+ else to live =4 ,if ,i 7 ask$ :at fir/ gave a *eck to my skepticism1 & l$ me to turn my face once m t[>ds ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity1 ,i %\ld say1 ,! answ] is suppli$ by my /ory4 ,z ,i h %[n1 x 0 ! tr\bl$ /ate ( my m9d1--! tempe/ ( unhappy feel+1 & ! :irlw9d ( excitem5t 9 :i* ,i _h liv$ s long1--t _h mo/ to d 9 c>ry+ me away f ,*ri/2 & n[ my m9d 0 all[$ to be at re/4 ,! :irlw9d ( excitem5t _h sp5t its fury4 ,! tempe/ 9 my s\l _h subsid$1 s t ! pr9cipal h9drance to my return 0 gone4 ,!re 7 o!r causes t _h contribut$ to ! de/ruction ( my fai? 9 ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity1 b ?is 0 ! fir/ & *ief "o1 & ! "o :i* gave ! pr9cipal "p ( _! =ce to ! re/4 ,z ,i h %[n1 ,i _h be5 taught ?+s ab\t ! ,scriptures t 7 n correct4 ,i _h f\nd a numb] ( ! argum5ts us$ by div9es 9 support ( ! div9ity ( ! ,scriptures to be uns\nd4 ,i _h detect$ pi\s frauds 9 ! writ+s ( "s ( ! advocates ( ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity4 ,i _h met ) unt5able views on ! inspiration & infallibility ( ! ,scriptures4 ,i _h1 besides1 adopt$ a defective me?od ( reason+ on religi\s matt]s1 :i* ex]t$ an injuri\s influ5ce on my m9d4 ,all ^! ?+s1 & _m o!rs :i* ,i _c at pres5t m5tion1 _h prov$ occasions ( d\bt & unbelief4 ,b ! probability is1 t none ( ^! ?+s w\ld h de/roy$ my fai? 9 ,*ri/1 if ,i _h be5 9 a prop] /ate ( m9d4 ,!re 0 no?+ 9 !m to ju/ify unbelief to a m9d unprejudic$1 undi/emp]$1 calm4 ,!re 0 attractiv5ess en\gh 9 ,*ri/1 if ! mi/s :i* passion _h ?r[n ar\nd ,him1 to hide ,8 wor? & glory f my view1 c\ld be cle>$ away4 ,& !re 0 tru? & goodness en\gh 9 ,*ri/ianity1 & !re 7 evid5ces suffici5t ( its div9ity1 if "o c\ld h ! films remov$ f "o's eyes1 & be p]mitt$ to behold x 9 its own sweet light4 ,! great difficulty 0 9 ! disord]$ /ate ( my m9d1 & ! try+ nature ( my situation4 ,:at 0 want$1 !re=e1 to make x possible = me to return to my =m] fai?1 0 n s mu* an explanation ( p>ticul> difficulties1 z a bett]1 happi]1 calm] /ate ( m9d4 ,explanations ( difficulties 7 desirable1 b !y 7 n ! fir/ or pr9cipal ?+s requir$4 ,! great1 ! "o ?+ ne$ful1 at ! outset1 0 a fitt+ /ate ( m9d1--a m9d suffici5tly free f irritation1 pa9ful excitem5t1 & consequ5t unhappy bias1 to enable me to d ju/ice to ! religion ( ,*ri/4 ,& ! circum/ances 9 :i* ,i 0 plac$ 9 ,nebraska 7 calculat$ to br+ me to ?is desirable /ate ( m9d2 & _m ?+s :i* befel me !re 7 calculat$ to /imulate my return to ,*ri/4 #a4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i 0 9 a region favorable to calm & s]i\s ?\ght4 ,true1 we 7 infect$ = a "t ) ! fev] ( speculation s preval5t 9 new c\ntries2 & we %>$ ! h>d%ips & toils1 ! c>es & anxieties1 ( a bord] life3 b !re 7 seasons :5 s]i\s ?\ght & salut>y reflection 7 inevitable4 ,i 0 (t5 alone amid ! quiet & solemnity ( a b\ndless wild]ness4 ,! busy _w ( m5 0 f> away4 ,!re 0 no "o ne> to fo/] d\bt or unbelief1 or to reop5 or irritate afre% ! clos+ w\nds inflict$ by bigotry & intol]ance 9 days gone by4 ,& ! lonel9ess ( my condition seem$ to br+ me ne>] to ,god4 ,x all[$ ! revival ( ^? ,godw>d-t5d+ in/9cts implant$ 9 man's he>t by ! h& ( ! ,creator4 ,x favor$ ! resurrection to life ( ! natural religi\s affections1 & ! revival ( ^? holy long+s & aspirations aft] a high] life & a gr&] de/9y ?an e>? c give1 :i* arise s spontane\sly 9 ! brea/s ( m54 ,x all[$ ! bett] self to rise & ass]t its p[]1 :ile x %am$ ! evil self into ! %ade4 ,& (t51 :5 away beyond ! sight ( man or ( human habitation1 amid/ ! et]nal sil5ce & ! b\ndless solitude1 ,i _h /range ?\ghts & /range feel+s2 & !re 7 times :51 if ,i _h yield$ to ! impulses f )91 ,i %\ld h ca/ myself d[n ^u ! gr\nd1 & ador$ ! ,great ,my/]i\s ,inf9ite4 ,on "o occasion ,i w5t1 9 company ) my y\nge/ son & a fri5d1 "s di/ance into ! int]ior ( ! c\ntry4 ,at "o po9t we came ^u a des]t$ & decay+ ,indian village1 & !n ^u an ,indian track across ! des]t4 ,a little fur!r on we /ruck a ,mormon track1 along :i* a company ( ! ,latt]-day sa9ts _h grop$ _! way t[>ds _! promis$ ,p>adise 9 ! ,salt ,lake ,valley4 ,z we foll[$ ! track we came ^u a m\nd1 & !n ^u ano!r1 m>k+ ! spots :]e worn-out travell]s _h end$ _! we>y pilgrimages1 & be5 consign$1 amid ! desolate wilds1 to _! f9al re/+ places4 ,into "o ( ^! unprotect$ graves ! wolves _h made _! way1 to fe$ ^u ! fall5 victim ( ! new fai?4 ,:5 night came on x f\nd u 9 ^! dre>y & desolate wilds1 & !re we _h to prep>e to pass ! night "u ! op5 sky1 ) multitudes ( wolves ar\nd u4 ,we _h h>dly spread our blankets :5 ! sky 0 cov]$ ) black & heavy cl\ds1 & lightn+s fla%$1 & ?und]s ro>$1 & ev]y?+ betok5$ a night ( /orm & ra94 ,we protect$ ourselves aga9/ ! ?reat5+ elem5ts z well z we c\ld1 & prep>$ ourselves = cold & dr5*+ %[]s1 & = a sleepless & tr\bl$ night1 :51 happily = u1 ! w9d sudd5ly *ang$1 & dissipat$ ! cl\ds4 ,! />s came out 9 all _! glory1 & ! night 0 calm & bright1 & all we _h to try our pati5ce 0 a little fro/4 ,& !re ,i slept2 & !re ,i (t5 awoke2 & 9 my int]vals ( wakefulness ,i gaz$ on ! magnific5ce ( ! outspread skies1 & mus$ on ! dre>9ess ( ! surr\nd+ wild]ness1 & ?\ght ( ! /irr+ sc5es ?r\gh :i* ,i _h pass$ 9 days gone by1 & ( ! /range & dea?-l sil5t "o 9 :i* ,i !n 0 plac$4 ,& :at w ! future be8 said ,i4 ,& "h is my son2 9 ! spr+ ( life2 on adv5tures s /range2 9 a univ]se s va/ & s my/]i\s2 :at w be 8 de/9y8 ,& :at w be ! de/9y ( ! de> ones we h left beh9d8 ,& !n ,i lo/ myself 9 a _w ( /range imag9+s4 ,:5 we>i$ ) my re/less mus+s1 ,i sank to re/ aga91 & pass$ f wak+ into sleep+ dreams4 ,morn+ broke at l5g?1 & we arose1 & />t$ on our j\rney4 ,! de] 7 skipp+ gaily ov] ! pla9s4 ,! wolves 7 hid+ 9 _! holes4 ,we came at l5g? to a /ream4 ,x 0 skirt$ by a grove1 into :i* we made our way1 & !re we k9dl$ a fire1 & prep>$ our breakfa/4 ,we fill$ our c(fee kettle f ! brook4 ,a hazel twig s]v$ u = a toa/+ =k2 & we 7 soon engag$ 9 "o ( ! pleasante/ p>ts ( a hungry travell]'s "w4 ,we reli%$ our bread & ham & c(fee amaz+ly4 ,! wolves might be snuff+ ! odor ( our vi&s1 & covet+ our repa/2 b !y rema9$ )9 _! hid+-places1 & kept sil5t2 & we f9i%$ our meal 9 peace4 ,we re/$ next on ! outskirts ( a grove on ! banks ( ! ,elkhorn riv]4 ,"h ,i 0 left to take c>e ( ! /uff1 to prep>e a b$1 & to ga!r wood = a fire to cook our supp]1 & to fright5 away ! wolves1 & keep u w>m ?r\gh ! night1 ,i ga!r$ a quantity ( dry & )]$ grass1 & spread x on ! gr\nd1 & cov]$ x ) a blanket1 = a b$4 ,i !n look$ ar\nd = wood4 ,i saw "s d[n 9 a d>k deep gully1 & w5t to fet* x2 :5 ,i f\nd myself all alone & un>m$ 9 front ( a hide\s wolf-hole4 ,i retreat$ ) all ! ha/e ,i c\ld1 & 0 soon on ! top ( ! bank aga91 pant+ & trembl+1 & endeavor+ to increase ! di/ance betwe5 myself & ! horrible d5 z rapidly z ,i c\ld4 ,i next look$ r\nd = wood on saf] gr\nd1 & hav+ collect$ a quantity1 ,i wait$ ) anxiety = ! return ( my companions4 ,we slept t night 9 a half-built & des]t$ log cab91 )\t doors or w9d[s1 put up by "s adv5tur\s bord]-man to secure a claim to a portion ( ! surr\nd+ l&4 ,a consid]able "p ( ! cab9 0 )\t ro(4 ,& !re 7 l>ge spaces betwe5 ! lay]s ( logs ?r\gh :i* ! fro/y w9ds _h free admission4 ,= a "t we delib]at$ :e!r we %\ld be cold] inside ! cab9 or outside4 ,at l5g? we decid$ 9 favor ( ! int]ior4 ,we !n took ! wagon body (f ! frame & c>ri$ x into ! cab91 & rais$ x on "o side to scre5 u f ! w9d :i* came ?r\gh ! cab9 walls4 ,aga9/ ! wall at our head we fix$ up rugs4 ,at our feet1 betwe5 our b$ & ! op5 doorway1 we _h our blaz+ fire4 ,& !re we slept4 ,we _h prickly s5sations 9 our eyes 9 ! morn+1 b !y soon pass$ away4 ,we took no cold1 or none t prov$ s]i\s at all4 ,& ! wolves seem$ to keep at a respectable di/ance4 ,z soon z we _h got ?r\gh our breakfa/1 & put our wagon & team 9 ord]1 we />t$ homew>ds4 ,at "o po9t1 z we pass$ along1 a wolf look$ quietly d[n ^u u f ! side ( a hill j by4 ,a bigg] "o _h pass$ u z we /ood 9 front ( ! half-built cab9 9 :i* we _h pass$ ! night4 ,! region ab\nd$ ) !m1 on e side4 ,:ile cross+ a tract ( ri* bottom l&1 :]e ! dry & )]$ grass ( ! previ\s summ] lay ?ick1 ,i /ruck a light1 & = an exp]im5t1 set ! prairie on fire4 ,! flames blaz$ =? at once l gunp[d]4 ,!y spread & ro>$4 ,! w9d rose1 & blew ! flames 9 ! direction ( our wagon4 ,x 0 all we c\ld d to get to ! wagon & jump 9 & flee4 ,we _h no soon] />t$ ! horses ?an we f\nd t ! traces ( "o ( !m 7 loose1 & we _h to jump out aga9 to fa/5 !m2 & be=e we c\ld retake our places ! flames 7 almo/ at our e>s4 ,! horses fl$1 h[ev]1 at a good quick pace1 & spe$ily c>ri$ u beyond ! rea* ( dang]1 & we got safe home4 #b4 ,!re 7 _m ?+s 9 my new situation & 9 my /range way ( life1 besides ! sil5ce & ! solitude ( a b\ndless des]t1 t 7 calculat$ to awak5 )9 me solemn feel+1 & to r\se me to s]i\s ?\ghtfulness on ?+s p]ta9+ to ,god & religion4 ,& :5 once my m9d _h begun to awake to su* matt]s1 x 0 nev] p]mitt$ to s9k aga91 = any l5g? ( "t1 into its =m] dea?-l slumb]4 ,& _m ?+s befel me t t5d$ to make me feel1 & feel mo/ pa9fully at times1 ! helplessness & *e]lessness1 ! gloom & wret*$ness1 ( ! man :o has lo/ 8 tru/ 9 ,god1 & 8 hope ( a bless$ immortality4 ,!re is no?+ 9 utt] d\bt & unbelief to satisfy a man ) a he>t4 ,a man ) a he>t wants a ,fa!r 9 ^: bosom he c repose1 a ,savi\r 9 ^: c>e & sympa?y he c tru/1 & a bett] _w to :i* he c look =w>d z 8 f9al home & re/+-place1 & z ! et]nal home & re/+-place ( ^? :o are de> to him4 ,& ,i _h a he>t4 ,i 0 n made = infidelity4 ,i nev] submitt$ to x will+ly1 & ,i nev] sat easy "u its p[]4 ,i _h affections1 crav+s1 wants1 :i* no?+ b religion c\ld satisfy4 #c4 ,!n tr\ble came4 ,infidelity is a wret*$ affair ev5 9 prosp]ity2 b 9 adv]sity x is /ill worse4 ,& adv]sity ov]took me4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #aheg we _h a reasonable income1 f prop]ty :i* we suppos$ to be ( consid]able value4 ,a few weeks lat] a panic came1 & our income fell to no?+2 our prop]ty 0 valueless2 in/ead ( a support x became a burd51 & we _h to set to "w to get a liv+ by our labor1 at a "t :5 "w 0 h>d to be got1 & :5 wages 7 d[n at ! l[e/ po9t4 ,?is 0 a "t ( great di/ress & griev\s trial1 & ,i felt ! want ( consolation mo/ ke5ly4 ,i c\ld once h said1 ,al?\gh ! fig tree %all n blossom1 nei!r %all fruit be on ! v9es2 ! labor ( ! olive %all fail1 & ! fields %all yield no meat2 ! flock %all be cut (f f ! fold1 & !re %all be no h]d 9 ! /alls2 yet w ,i rejoice 9 ! ,"l1 ,i w joy 9 ! ,god ( my salvation4 ,b n[ ,i _h no ,god4 ,! univ]se _h no great ,fa!rly ,rul]4 ,! affairs ( man 7 gov]n$ by *ance1 or by a h>% & gr9d+ necessity2 & all good gr\nd ( hope & *e]ful tru/ _h giv5 place to d\bt1 & gloom1 & cruel unc]ta9ty4 #d4 ,trials ( o!r k9ds came4 ,sickness & pa9 ent]$ our dwell+1 & seiz$ ^u "o ( my family4 ,my y\nge/ son 0 tak5 ill4 ,he 0 rack$ ) excruciat+ pa94 ,x seem$ z if ! agony w\ld drive him to di/raction1 or cut %ort 8 days4 ,& !re ,i /ood1 wat*+ 8 agony1 & di/ract$ ) 8 cries1 unable to utt] a :isp] ab\t a graci\s ,provid5ce1 or to (f] up a pray] = help or deliv]ance4 #e4 ,ano!r de> "o 0 afflict$2 & aga9 my he>t 0 torn1 & aga9 my lips 7 seal$4 ,i c\ld n ev5 say to ! suff]+ "o1 ,god bless y4 #f4 ,i 0 call$ to att5d ! fun]al ( a *ild4 ,! p>5ts 7 9 great di/ress1 & ,i 0 anxi\s to speak to !m a ^w ( com=t2 b d\bt & unbelief _h left me no su* ^w to speak4 ,i rememb]$ ! day :5 ,i c\ld h said1 ,( su* is ! k+dom ( heav54 ,!y re/ 9 ,jesus1 & are ble/1 ,h[ sweet _! slumb]s are4 ,b ! happy day 0 gone1 & ,i 0 dumb 9 ! pres5ce ( ! m\rn]s4 #g4 ,i 0 call$1 on ano!r occasion1 to visit a fri5d1 a bro!r skeptic1 :o 0 sick & likely to die4 ,i _h (t5 visit$ him :5 he 0 well1 & we _h manag$1 on ^? occasions1 to int]e/ or amuse ea* o!r2 b n[ we 7 helpless4 ,bo? 7 9 sorr[1 & nei!r c\ld console 8 bro!r4 ,& !re we 71 look+ m\rnfully on ea* o!r 9 ! face ( dea?1 spee*less & com=tless4 ,i am horrifi$ :5 ,i ?9k ( ! dreadful position 9 :i* ,i 0 plac$ on ^? solemn occasions4 ,x seem$ to me z if ,i _h be5 en*ant$ all ^? dre>y days by "s malignant demon1 & made ! sport ( 8 inf]nal cruelty4 ,my fri5d1 l myself1 _h be5 a ,*ri/ian 9 8 e>li] days1 & _h rejoic$ 9 ! assurance ( ,god's love & favor1 & 9 hopes ( future & et]nal bless$ness2 & n[ he 0 pass+ away 9 utt] *e]lessness & hopelessness4 ,he di$1 & ,i foll[$ 8 rema9s to ! grave4 ,i spoke2 b ,i _h no great com=t+ tru?s ) :i* to *e] ! sad he>ts ( 8 weep+ k9dr$4 ,i look$ d[n1 ) 8 disconsolate wid[1 & 8 sorr[+ *ildr51 into ! d>k cold vault1 b c\ld say n a s+le ^w ( a bett] life4 ,we sorr[$ z ^? :o h no hope4 #h4 ,:ile ,i 0 9 ,nebraska my "m di$4 ,l my fa!r1 :o _h di$ "s ye>s be=e1 %e _h be5 a ,*ri/ian f h] e>ly days2 a v happy "o2 & %e cont9u$ a ,*ri/ian to ! la/4 ,%e 0 "o ( ! mo/ affectionate & devot$ mo!rs t ev] liv$4 ,%e _h elev5 *ildr54 ,! elde/ "o di$ :5 he 0 tw5ty-"o1 aft] hav+ sp5t a numb] ( ye>s1 "y z he 01 z an able & useful m9i/] ( ,*ri/4 ,he di$ a happy dea?4 ,! rema9+ t5 7 all p]mitt$ to gr[ up to manhood & womanhood1 & my "m _h ! happ9ess at "o "t1 an unspeakable happ9ess to h]1 to see !m all1 ) "o exception1 devot$ to ! s]vice ( ,god1 & sev]al ( !m engag$ z prea*]s ( ! ,gospel4 ,!y 7 joyful days to h] :5 %e c\ld get !m all toge!r1 z %e sometimes did1 to s+ ) h] ! sweet hymns ( praise & gratitude1 ( hope & rapture1 :i* _h *e]$ h] s (t5 dur+ ! ye>s ( h] pilgrimage4 ,& n[ %e 0 gone4 ,i _h se5 h] "s ye>s be=e :5 on a visit to my native l&4 ,%e "k ( my skeptical t5d5cies1 & ?\gh %e _h fai? 9 my desire to be "r1 %e 0 afraid le/ ,i %\ld miss my way1 & entreat$ me ) all ! affectionate t5d]ness ( an anxi\s "m1 n to all[ myself to be c>ri$ away f ! fai? & hope ( ! ,gospel4 ,d pray1 my de> son1 %e said1--,d pray t ,god may lead y 9 ! "r pa?4 ,i want to meet y all 9 heav54 ,x w\ld be a dreadful ?+ if any ( y %\ld be f\nd want+ at la/4 ,don't =sake ,god4 ,don't leave ,*ri/4 ,religion is a reality2 a bless$ reality4 ,i "k x1 ,i feel x1 my de> son4 ,x is ! pe>l ( great price4 ,^! 7 ! la/ words ,i he>d f h] lips4 ,i li/5$ to !m 9 sil5ce4 ,?\gh ,i 0 too f> gone to be able to sympa?ize ) h] rem>ks z mu* z ,i ought1 ,i 0 wi%ful t %e %\ld enjoy all ! com=t t h] fai? c\ld give h]4 ,%e wept2 %e pray$ = me2 %e kiss$ me2 & ,i left h]1 to see h] face no m on e>?4 ,i return$ to my home 9 ,am]ica1 & ! next ?+ ,i he>d ( ! de> good creature 01 t %e _h f9i%$ h] c\rse4 ,i kept ! sad intellig5ce to myself1 = my he>t 0 too full to all[ me to speak ( my loss1 ev5 to ^? :o 7 ne>e/ & de>e/ to me4 ,i ?\ght ( all h] love = me f my e>lie/ days2 & ( all h] labors & sacrifices = my com=t & welf>e4 ,i rememb]$ h] c\nsels & h] w>n+s4 ,i rememb]$ h] la/ k9d words1 h] kiss1 h] pray]s1 h] te>s4 ,x seems dreadful2 b unbelief _h s *ill$ my s\l1 t ,i c\ld no long] indulge ! sweet ?\ght ( an immortal life ev5 = ! s\l ( my de> good ,*ri/ian "m4 ,i _h once _h visions ( a l& ( re/1 a p>adise ( bliss1 & c\ntless cr[ds ( happy s\ls1 & raptur\s songs1 & %\ts ( praise1 & joy\s meet+s ( lov+ & long p>t$ fri5ds 9 realms ( endless life & b\ndless bless$ness2 b all 7 gone4 ,a sull5 gloom1 a dea?like /upor1 a horrible & unnatural p>alysis ( hope _h come 9 place ( ^? sweet visions ( cele/ial glories4 ,my only com=t 01 t ?\gh ,i _h ceas$ to believe 9 ! div9ity ( ,*ri/ianity myself1 %e _h reta9$ h] fai?1 & _h liv$ & di$ 9 ! enjoym5t ( its consolations4 #i4 ,we _h a "y woman t _h liv$ ) u1 ) ! exception ( two %ort int]vals1 all ! "t we _h be5 9 ,am]ica4 ,%e _h come to reg>d u z h] natural gu>dians1 & we _h come to look on h] z "o ( our family4 ,! second "t %e left u %e caught a fev]1 & return$ to u 9 hopes t 9 h] old & quiet home %e w\ld soon be well aga94 ,we procur$ h] m$ical aid1 b ! fev] got worse4 ,! doctor lo/ hopes1 & x soon began to be evid5t1 t %e 0 doom$ to a spe$y dea?4 ,i att5d$ h] dur+ ! la/ sad night ( h] suff]+s4 ,i he>d h] moan+s z h] life drew sl[ly t[>ds a close4 ,i want$ to com=t h]1 b ,i _h lo/ ! p[]4 ,i c\ld once h spok5 to h] ( a ,fa!r 9 heav51 & ( a bett] _w2 b ,i c\ld speak on ^? subjects no long]4 ,i c\ld once h kneel$ by h] side & pray$2 b ,i c\ld pray no m4 ,i c\ld nei!r com=t myself nor my dy+ *>ge4 ,%e pass$ away )\t a ^w ( consolation or a :isp] ( hope to *e] h] z %e trod ! d>k valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?4 ,i /ood by1 afflict$ & com=tless1 :5 h] lifeless =m 0 committ$ to its f9al re/+-place1 unable to speak a ^w ( hope or consolation to ! sorr[+ m9ds t 7 ga!r$ ar\nd h] grave4 ,%e 0 int]r$ on ! slope ( ! hill1 on ! opposite side ( ! /ream ov] aga9/ my f>m1 )9 view ( ! field & ! g>d5 9 :i* ,i (t5 work$1 & ! lonely dwell+ 9 :i* ,i frequ5tly slept4 ,& !re %e lay1 f> f h] k9dr$ & h] native l&1 ! wild w9ds moan+ ov] h] solit>y grave1 & no sweet ^w ab\t ,god1 or ,*ri/1 or a bett] life1 to m>k ! spot :]e %e slept4 ,& !re1 on t quiet f>m1 & 9 t solit>y dwell+1 ) t "o melan*oly grave 9 view1 ,i pass$ at times ! long sad days1 & ! /ill & solemn nights1 9 utt] lonel9ess1 gaz+ on ! desolate sc5es ar\nd1 or fe$+ on sadd5+ ?\ghts )91 )\t hope & )\t ,god 9 ! _w4 ,i s\ght = com=t 9 a ,godless & ,*ri/less philosophy1 b s\ght 9 va94 ,i tri$ to extort f nature "s ^w ( consolation1 b n a :isp] c\ld ,i obta94 ,i tri$ to =ge "s !ory ( my own t might less5 ! gloom 9 :i* ,i 0 wrapt2 b my ef=ts 7 fruitless4 ,! light ( life 0 qu5*$2 ! joy1 ! bliss ( be+ 0 no m4 ,i _h =sak5 ! f\nta9 ( liv+ wat]s1 & no?+ rema9$ b brok5 ci/]ns t c\ld hold no wat]4 ,i 0 wret*$2 &1 ap>t f ,god1 & ,*ri/1 & immortality1 my wret*$ness 0 incurable2 & ! s5se ( my wret*$ness prep>$ me1 & ultimately con/ra9$ me1 to look once m 9 ! direction ( ! religion t _h *e]$ me 9 my e>li] days4 #aj4 ,i _h a great & griev\s trial ( ano!r k9d :ile 9 ,nebraska4 ,:5 we remov$ to t f>-(f c\ntry1 we left our elde/ son 9 ,ohio to look aft] our int]e/s !re1 & to s5d (f to u :at goods we might require 9 our new home4 ,! riv] ,ohio1 d[n :i* our goods _h to be s5t1 0 l[ at ! "t1 & ! /eam] on :i* !y 7 plac$1 :ile rac+ recklessly ) ano!r /eam]1 /ruck on a rock & 0 wreck$4 ,!re 7 ov] a ?\s& volumes ( my books on bo>d1 ! be/ & pr9cipal "p ( my libr>y2 ne>ly all my manuscripts too 7 on bo>d1 & mu* o!r prop]ty1 am\nt+ 9 value to twelve or ?irte5 hundr$ p\nds2 ov] #f1jjj2 & ne>ly all 0 lo/1 or irrep>ably damag$4 ,?is h[ev] 0 b a light "p ( ! trial4 ,z soon z my elde/ son got news ( ! wreck1 he ha/5$ to ! spot1 to save :at portions ( our prop]ty he c\ld4 ,! wea!r 0 hot by day1 & cold by night4 ,bo? ! season & ! place 7 unheal?y1 & by 8 great anxiety1 & excessive labors1 & cont9ual exposure1 he br\ght on a viol5t fev]4 ,! fir/ in=mation we receiv$ ab\t ! matt] 0 t he 0 dy+4 ,:5 ! dreadful tid+s rea*$ u we 7 m ?an a ?\s& miles away4 ,i />t$ at once = ,ohio1 & made :at ha/e ,i c\ld to rea* my son2 b g :at way ,i w\ld1 ,i mu/ be f\r or five long days on ! road1 & f\r or five long nights4 ,i took my way d[n ! riv]4 ,= f\r long days & f\r long dre>y nights ,i travell$1 9 d\bt all ! "t :e!r my *ild 0 dead or alive4 ,& all t "t ,i 0 unable to (f] up a pray]1 ei!r = my son1 myself1 or ! anxi\s & sorr[+ ones ,i _h left beh9d4 ,nor c\ld ,i apply to myself a s+le consolatory promise ( ,scripture4 ,my mad anti*ri/ian philosophy _h robb$ me ( all4 ,god & ,8 ,provid5ce1 ,*ri/ & ,8 sympa?y1 heav5 & its bless$ness1 7 all gone1 & no?+ 0 left b ! h>d blank horrors ( inexorable fate4 ,my s\l 0 %ut up z 9 a dungeon1 unable to help itself4 ,x 0 /ret*$ on a rack1 & tortur$ ) excruciat+ pa94 ,^? f\r long dre>y days & nights 7 ! d>ke/ & mo/ mis]able ,i ev] pass$4 ,b ,god 0 m]ciful4 ,i liv$ to rea* ! end ( my dreadful j\rney1 & ,he _h sp>$ my son4 ,we embrac$1--we wept4 ,we 7 sp>$--! :ole ( our family 7 sp>$1 ?ank ,god--= bett] days1 & = a happi] lot4 #aa4 ,!re 7 o!r ev5ts :i* befell me :ile ,i 0 9 ,nebraska1 t _h a salut>y influ5ce on my m9d4 ,i 0 frequ5tly 9 ! greate/ dang]1 & 0 z frequ5tly pres]v$ f h>m4 ,z ,i h said1 ,i slept ?ree nights ) a rattlesnake )9 ?ree in*es ( my brea/4 ,my elde/ son slept repeat$ly 9 ! same t]rible position2 yet we bo? escap$ unhurt4 ,once ,i 0 )9 an in*--)9 a hair's bread?1 ,i may say--( be+ kill$ by ! kick ( a horse4 ,on ano!r occasion1 :5 my elde/ son 0 =k+ hay 9 ! field1 & ,i 0 pil+ x on ! wagon1 he he>d a rattlesnake1 & look$ all r\nd ^u ! gr\nd to f9d x1 ) a view to kill x1 b look$ 9 va94 ,at l5g?1 turn+ 8 eyes upw>ds1 he saw x wri?+ & wriggl+ on "o ( ! prongs ( 8 hay=k1 :i* he 0 hold+ up 9 ! air4 ,he _h pi]c$ ! deadly creature :ile =k+ ! hay1 & ,i _h tak5 ! hay f ! =k ) my nak$ h&s1 & escap$ unbitt54 ,i _h q a multitude ( escapes f deadly p]il1 "s m rem>kable ?an ^? ,i h describ$4 ,& !re 7 times :5 ! ?\ghts ( ^? wond]ful deliv]ances made me feel1 t !re 7 f> m incr$ible doctr9es ?an t ( a wat*ful & graci\s ,provid5ce4 #ab4 ,aga94 ,:5 ,i comm5c$ my c>e] ( religi\s exploration1 ,i expect$ ,i %\ld get rid ( all difficulties1 & t ,i %\ld rea* a region at la/ :]e all w\ld be light2 :]e !re w\ld be no m h>ass+ or p]plex+ my/]ies4 ,= a "t my hopes appe>$ to get realiz$4 ,! doctr9es ( ,calv9ism ,i ?rew away 9 mass1 & ?us got rid ( ! difficulties connect$ ) pr$e/9ation1 election & reprobation4 ,! difficulties connect$ ) inf9ite & absolute =e-k ,i got rid ( by modify+ & limit+ ! doctr9e4 ,_m !ological difficulties appe>$ to arise1 n f ! doctr9es ( ,scripture1 b f anti-*ri/ian fictions1 & false !ories ( ,scripture doctr9es4 ,^! ,i set aside )\t mu* c]emony4 ,b :5 "o difficulty 0 dispos$ (1 ano!r made its appe>ance1 & 9 "s cases sev]al4 ,& :5 ,i got outside ! religion ( ,*ri/1 m difficulties ?an ev] made _! appe>ance1 & difficulties (t5 ( a m appall+ "*4 ,! doctr9e ( pr$e/9ation came back 9 ! %ape ( fate or necessity4 ,all ! great difficulties ( !ology _h ugly lik5esses 9 infidel philosophy4 ,in/ead ( rea*+ a region ( unsulli$ light1 ,i got into "o ( cl\ds & d>kness4 ,& ! fur!r ,i w&]$1 ! black] ! cl\ds became1 & ! ?ick] ! d>kness4 ,! difficulties1 ! p]plexities1 on ! side ( unbelief1 7 m di/ress+ & emb>rass+ ?an ^? ,i _h enc\nt]$ on ! side ( ,*ri/ianity4 #ac4 ,aga94 ,i 0 frequ5tly tri$ by ! *>act]s ( unbeliev]s4 ,i _h read & believ$ t _m ( ! old] unbeliev]s _h be5 immoral2 b ,i suppos$ t mod]n unbeliev]s 7 a bett] class4 ,i _h se5 a numb] ( /atem5ts to t effect 9 books & newspap]s1 "s ( !m proce$+ f ,*ri/ians1 & ev5 f ,*ri/ian m9i/]s4 ,i 0 dispos$ to believe t ev5 ! old] infidels _h n be5 s bad z repres5t$4 ,i knew t ,i _h be5 beli$1 & ,i consid]$ x probable t all :o _h _h qu>rels or controv]sies ) memb]s ( ! prie/hood1 _h be5 beli$ 9 l mann]4 ,i believ$ = a long "t1 t ! loss ( fai? 9 ! sup]natural orig9 ( ,*ri/ianity & ! ,bible1 _h made me bett]1 9 "s respects1 in/ead ( worse4 ,i ?\ght no *anges _h tak5 place 9 my "*1 b :at1 on ! :ole1 7 improvem5ts4 ,= ye>s aft] ,i became an unbeliev]1 ,i endeavor$ to practise all ! unque/ionable virtues inculcat$ 9 ! ,bible1 & ,i 0 dispos$ to believe t mod]n unbeliev]s g5]ally did ! same4 ,& :5 ,i lectur$ aga9/ ! ,div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible1 ,i disclaim$1 z ,i h already said1 all sympa?y ) ^? :o reject$ ! ,bible because x disc\nt5anc$ vice4 ,& su* 0 ! viol5ce ( my anti-religi\s fanaticism1 t ,i _h actually come at "o "t to believe t infidelity1 9 connection ) natural sci5ce1 0 m fri5dly to virtue ?an ,*ri/ianity4 ,b my fai? 9 ?is view met ) _m rude %ocks aft] ,i _h be5 "s "t 9 ,am]ica4 ,(t5 :5 ,i came to be acqua9t$ ) ! m5 :o invit$ me to lecture1 ,i 0 a%am$ to be se5 /&+ ) !m 9 ! /reets2 & ,i %rank f ! t\* ( _! h& z f pollution4 ,& _m a "t :5 ,i _h associat$ ) p]sons = a l5g? ( "t1 ?9k+ !m above suspicion1 ,i 0 amaz$ to f9d1 at l5g?1 t !y look$ on vici\s indulg5ce z h>mless1 & 7 a/oni%$ t any man :o _h lo/ 8 fai? 9 ,*ri/ianity1 %\ld h scruples ) reg>d to =nication or adult]y4 ,?\gh ^! pa9ful discov]ies did n at once conv9ce me t infidelity 0 wrong1 & ,*ri/ianity "r1 !y 7 n )\t effect4 ,!y less5$ my respect = ! infidel philosophy1 & prep>$ ! way = my return to ,*ri/4 ,9 ,engl&1 :]e ,i expect$ on my return1 to f9d unbeliev]s bett]1 ,i f\nd !m worse4 ,i suppos$ t ! ,secul>i/s ?\ght z ,i did ) reg>d to virtue4 ,i ?\ght _! object 0 to advance ! temporal int]e/s ( mank9d1 & nev] dreamt b t !y reg>d$ virtue z ! greate/ ( ^? int]e/s4 ,& :5 ,i f\nd fir/ "o & !n ano!r to be di%one/1 drunk51 lic5ti\s1 ,i 0 dispos$ to reg>d !m z exceptions to ! g5]al rule4 ,to ! la/2 nay1 = "s "t aft] my entire sep>ation f ! p>ty1 ,i suppos$ ! pr(ligate1 unpr9cipl$1 ab&on$ ones to be ! few1 & ! hone/ & virtu\s ones to be ! _m4 ,& :5 at l5g? ,i 0 conv9c$ pa/ d\bt ( my mi/ake1 ! effect 0 t]ribly pa9ful4 ,b x 0 salut>y4 ,x w5t f> t[>ds conv9c+ me1 t :e!r religion 0 f\nd$ 9 tru? or n1 x 0 necess>y to ! virtue & happ9ess ( mank9d4 ,x prep>$ me & incl9$ me /ill fur!r to return to ,*ri/1 & br\ght me a /ep or two ne>] to ,8 side4 #ad4 ,!n aga91 ! influ5ces ( my family 7 /rongly 9 my favor4 ,i _h a wife t always lov$ me1 & t nev] ceas$ to pray4 ,& ,i _h *ildr5 t grew up believ]s1 to a great ext5t1 "u ! %ad[ ( my unbelief4 ,!y _h suff]$1 z ,i h already said1 f ! cruel treatm5t to :i* !y _h se5 _! fa!r subject$3 !y _h be5 awfully prejudic$ aga9/ c]ta9 classes ( m9i/]s1 if n aga9/ m9i/]s g5]ally2 b n[ _! prejudices 7 well nigh gone4 ,& !y _h nev] be5 embitt]$ aga9/ ,*ri/ianity4 ,& n[ !y _h come to feel /rongly 9 its favor1 & to look on skepticism bo? z a great error1 & a t]rible calamity4 ,my y\nge/ son 0 some?+ ( a g5ius4 ,he 0 a clev] ma!matician1 & an acute logician4 ,& he w\ld say to me sometimes1 :5 he he>d me utt]+ anti*ri/ian s5tim5ts1 ,fa!r1 ,i ?9k y are wrong4 ,i am sure y are wrong on t po9t2 & if y w li/5 to me ,i ?9k ,i c conv9ce y t y are4 ,& ,i did li/54 ,i _h long be5 accu/om$ to reg>d my *ildr5 m z fri5ds & companions1 ?an z inf]iors1 & to enc\rage !m to speak to me ) all fre$om4 ,& !y 7 k9d & consid]ate en\gh z a rule to use ! lib]ty ,i gave !m )\t abus+ x2 s ,i he>k5$ to _! rem>ks & remon/rances4 ,& !re 7 occasions on :i* ! logic ( ! *ild prov$ mighti] ?an ! logic ( ! fa!r--!re 7 cases 9 :i* ! fa!r le>n$ lessons ( tru?1 f ^? :om he ought to h in/ruct$4 ,my elde/ son1 if n s p[]ful 9 logic1 0 surpass$ by none 9 goodness & t5d]ness2 & if 8 bro!r excell$ him 9 acut5ess & caution1 no "o c\ld excel him 9 dev\t & passionate long+s = 8 fa!r's return to ,*ri/4 ,& bo? ^! sons1 & ! :ole ( my family1 ex]t$ an influ5ce1 :i* t5d$ fir/ to *eck ! extravagances ( my skepticism1 & !n to help & ha/5 my return to ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus4 ,my sons assi/$ me 9 m ways ?an "o4 ,!y 7 m obs]vant ( m5 ?an ,i 01 & !y 7 bett] judges ( "*4 ,& !y _h bett] opportunities ?an ,i _h1 ( le>n+ :at ! infidels ) :om !y came 9 contact1 really 71 bo? 9 _! pr9ciples & way ( life4 ,& !y 7 readi] to receive ! tru? on ! subject ?an ,i4 ,! consequ5ce 01 t bo? 9 ,am]ica & 9 ,engl&1 !y ga!r$ up a multitude ( facts t ,i %\ld h pass$ unnotic$2 & 7 prep>$ to use !m = my b5efit1 :5 ! prop] "t %\ld come4 ,& ! prop] "t did come at l5g?4 ,i c\ld believe no?+ aga9/ p>ties ) :om ,i 0 connect$1 on any "o's te/imony1 till ,i _h begun myself to detect _! misdo+s4 ,my wife & *ildr5 knew ?is1 s !y nev] tr\bl$ me ) _! discov]ies1 till ,i _h myself begun to make simil> discov]ies4 ,z soon z !y f\nd ,i _h se5 en\gh to %ake my confid5ce 9 a numb] ( ! unbeliev]s--z soon z !y f\nd t ,i _h got rid ( my mad prejudices 9 favor ( ! p>ties1 & _h s f> come to myself z to h obta9$ ! use ( my eyes & und]/&+1 !y knew t ! "t = mak+ kn[n to me _! discov]ies _h come4 ,& !y made !m kn[n4 ,& !y agre$ s p]fectly ) :at ,i myself _h se5 & prov$1 t ,i c\ld no long] discr$it _! /atem5ts4 ,& !y expla9$ a multitude ( o!r matt]s4 ,?us ano!r bl[ 0 /ruck1 bo? at my fai? 9 skeptics1 & my fai? 9 skepticism4 ,& bo? my wife & *ildr5 _h1 on ! :ole1 wond]ful pati5ce ) me 9 my t>dy movem5ts t[>ds ! tru?4 ,:5 ,i consid] h[ mu* ( evil !y saw 9 connexion ) infidelity1 & h[ /rong _! feel+ 0 ( ! tru? & necessity ( religion1 ,i wond] at _! =be>ance4 ,at times _! pati5ce 0 well-nigh exhau/$1 b !y seldom betray$ ! fact by _! behavior4 ,b my elde/ son in=m$ me1 aft] my return to ,*ri/1 t at "o "t1 d\bt+ :e!r ,i %\ld ev] be cur$ ( my insanity1 he made up 8 m9d to =swe> all o!r occupations1 & give himself exclusively to ! ,*ri/ian m9i/ry1 t he might sp5d 8 life & p[]s 9 a ceaseless w>f>e aga9/ ! horrible delusions to :i* ,i seem$ s irretrievably w$d$4 #ae4 ,9 ! ye> #aheg1 t[>ds ! close ( ! summ]1 ,i left my home 9 ,nebraska = a "t1 & w5t ea/w>d on a lectur+ t\r4 ,my fir/ appo9tm5t 0 at ,ea/ ,liv]pool1 9 ,ohio4 ,!re ,i met ) my good1 old fri5d ,john ,donaldson1 ( ,byk]1 ne> ,newca/le-on-,tyne1 ,engl&4 ,he spoke ( days long pa/1 :5 we work$ toge!r 9 ! cause ( ,*ri/4 ,he 0 k9d1 z he _h always be52 b x tr\bl$ him to f9d me s *ang$--s f> e/rang$ f ! views ( =m] times4 ,?\gh glad to see my fri5d1 ! memories :i* 8 pres5ce reviv$1 ( ! days :5 ,i 0 a happy & a useful m9i/] ( ,*ri/1 & ! p>tial re-awak5+ ( old religi\s ?\ghts & feel+s :i* x occasion$1 made me feel1 = a mom5t1 an indescribable s5sation1 z ( "o :o _h got an unlook$-= glimpse ( "s fe>ful loss he _h su/a9$1 or ( "s trem5d\s mi/ake he _h committ$4 ,my infidel logic1 h[ev]1 ha/5$ to my aid1 & assur$ me ,i 0 "r2 b ! deep & dea?less in/9cts ( my s\l 7 n entirely at re/4 ,i rea*$ ,philadelphia at l5g?4 ,!re ,i 0 engag$ by ,dr4 ,w4 ,wright = eight mon?s4 ,i lectur$ e ,sunday1 sometimes on !ological1 sometimes on moral1 & sometimes on sci5tific & g5]al subjects4 ,i always urg$ on my he>]s a virtu\s life1 & did :at ,i c\ld to escape ! society ( p]sons ( immoral habits4 ,& ,i ?\ght1 = a "t1 ,i _h succe$$4 ,b ,i 0 griev\sly mi/ak54 ,"o ( ! act+ m5 9 my congregation 0 a ,plym\? man4 ,he1 z ,i aft]w>ds f\nd1 _h des]t$ 8 wife & family1 & 0 liv+ ) ano!r woman4 ,ano!r1 a m important memb] ( my congregation1 :om ,i suppos$ to be an example ( propriety1 turn$ out to be an advocate ( unlimit$ lic5se4 ,& ano!r1 a man ( great weal?1 :o _h (t5 invit$ me to 8 h\se1 & %[n me k9dness 9 o!r ways1 ,i f\nd1 aft] 8 dea?1 _h nev] be5 m>ri$ to ! p]son ) :om he _h liv$ z 8 wife4 ,i also f\nd t he _h ano!r family 9 ano!r "p ( ! city4 ,i m5tion ^! unpleasant matt]s to %[1 t facts 7 n want+ to %ake my fai? 9 ! moral influ5ce ( infidel pr9ciples4 ,! g5tleman by :om ,i 0 employ$1 treat$ me ) great respect & k9dness1 & "s ( my congregation did :at !y c\ld to make me com=table2 b ! long] ,i rema9$ 9 my position1 ! less enc\ragem5t ,i saw to expect infidelity or skepticism to produce a virtu\s & honorable life4 ,! g5tleman by :om ,i 0 employ$ _h ?\ght ( exp5d+ "s fifty ?\s& doll>s 9 build+ a hall1 & end[+ a lecture1 c41 = ! propagation ( infidel pr9ciples2 b ! conduct ( ! skeptics t ga!r$ r\nd him1 soon cur$ him ( 8 anti-*ri/ian zeal4 #af4 ,be=e my t]m 0 q expir$1 ,i 0 engag$ by ano!r g5tleman = eight mon?s4 ,b ,i _h se5 s mu* to %ake my fai? 9 ! b5efic5t t5d5cy ( infidelity1 t ?is "t ,i left myself free1 bo? to lecture on :at subjects ,i ?\ght be/1 & to leave my situation on two mon?s' notice4 ,z my new engagem5t did n comm5ce = ?ree mon?s or m1 ,i _h ! happ9ess ( sp5d+ "s "t 9 ! bosom ( my family4 ,z usual1 ! influ5ces to :i* ,i 0 subject !re 7 all calculat$ to abate my fai? 9 irreligi\s pr9ciples1 & to dispose me to look ) less disfavor & prejudice on ,*ri/ianity4 ,9 ,augu/ ,i />t$ aga9 = ,philadelphia4 ,i left my family ) sadness & te>s1 & ,i proce$$ on my j\rney ) a feel+ t x w\ld n be long be=e my labors 9 ,philadelphia w\ld come to an end4 ,& ! feel+ grew /rong] e week4 ,! ,hebrews _h a h>d task :5 !y 7 requir$ to make bricks )\t /raw2 b he :o und]takes to make p good )\t religion1 has to make bricks )\t clay--& t is a va/ deal h>d]4 ,i felt my position 0 n ! "r "o1 & ,i long$ & sigh$ = some?+ m 9 accordance ) my gradually *ang+ views & bett] feel+s2 b knew n exactly :at x 0 ,i ne$$1 or :]e x 0 to be f\nd4 ,i frequ5tly att5d$ ! m9i/ry ( ,dr4 ,furness1 ! ,unit>ian m9i/]2 & ?\gh 8 prea*+ 0 f> f be+ all x %\ld be1 8 s]mons _h a salut>y effect on my m9d4 ,8 words ab\t ,god & duty1 ab\t ,*ri/ & immortality1 fell on my s\l at times l refre%+ dew4 ,i also w5t to he> ! ,rev4 ,alb]t ,b>nes1 & 0 bo? pleas$ & surpris$ ) ! tru? & excell5ce ( _m ( 8 rem>ks4 ,i he>d sev]al o!r m9i/]s2 b ! irrational & anti-*ri/ian doctr9es set =? by "s ( !m1 ex]t$ an influ5ce on my m9d :i* 0 ! opposite ( salut>y4 ,at ! end ( two mon?s ,i gave notice to my committee t ,i %\ld give up my situation z lectur]4 ,i _h come to ! conclusion1 t to w> ) ,*ri/ianity 0 n ! way to promote ! virtue & happ9ess ( mank9d1 & ,i told my congregation s4 ,i add$1 t if we 7 ev5 sure t ! s5tim5ts ent]ta9$ by ,*ri/ians 7 errone\s1 x w\ld be well to refra9 f assail+ !m1 till we _h some?+ bett] to put 9 _! place4 ,& ,i also advis$ !m1 n[ !y 7 ab\t to be left )\t a lectur]1 to g to "s place ( wor%ip2 & if !y c\ld n he> exactly :at !y c\ld l1 to make ! be/ ( :at !y did he>1 & by all means to live a virtu\s1 honorable1 & useful life4 ,i gave simil> advice to congregations 9 o!r places1 & by _m x 0 well receiv$4 ,:5 ,i gave up my situation 9 ,philadelphia1 my int5tion 0 to return to ,engl&4 ,i 0 anxi\s to free myself1 z f> z possible1 f m5 ( extreme views1 :e!r 9 religion or politics1 & to place myself 9 a position 9 :i* ,i %\ld be p]fectly free to pursue :atev] c\rse a reg>d to tru? & duty might require4 ,i made up my m9d1 !re=e1 t on my arrival 9 ,engl&1 ,i w\ld /& alone1 ap>t f all societies & public m51 & h a pap] ( my own1 & publi% f "t to "t :atev] might comm5d itself to my judgm5t z true & good4 ,i knew ,i _h *ang$ dur+ ! la/ two ye>s1 ?\gh ,i did n "k h[ mu*2 & ,i believ$ ,i 0 *ang+1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n tell 9 :at ! *ange :i* 0 tak+ place w\ld end4 ,i _h no idea t ,i c\ld ev] become a ,*ri/ian aga91 ?\gh ! t5d5cy ( ! *ange :i* 0 tak+ place 9 me 0 9 t direction4 ,hav+ tak5 leave ( my fri5ds1 ,i ha/5$ to ,bo/on1 & prep>$ = my voyage across ! deep4 ,i 0 to sail by ! ,royal ,mail ,/eam%ip ,canada1 on ! elev5? ( ,janu>y1 #ahfj4 ,j z ,i 0 /epp+ on bo>d ! packet1 ,i receiv$ a lett] f my y\nge/ son4 ,among a numb] ( o!r k9d ?+s1 x conta9$ words l ! foll[+3 ,fa!r1 de>1 :5 y get to ,engl&1 don't dream t by any brea? ( y\rs1 or by any pap] balls t y c fire1 y c ev] %att] or %ake ! et]nal f\ndations on :i* ,*ri/ianity re/s4 ,words l ^? f a de> good son c\ld n b h a p[]ful effect on my m9d4 ,& n[ ,i />t$ on my voyage4 ,i _h nev] v5tur$ on ! sea be=e )\t dread ( %ipwreck & dr[n+4 ,?is "t ,i _h no su* fe>4 ,on ! contr>y1 z ! vessel ?read$ h] way among ! rocks & isl&s ( ,bo/on ,h>bor1 ,i exp]i5c$ a /range & unacc\ntable elevation ( s\l4 ,i _h n felt s *e]ful1 s hopeful1 s happy1 = _m ye>s4 ,& ?is delightful joy\sness ( s\l cont9u$ dur+ ! :ole ( ! voyage4 ,yet ,i _h nev] gone to sea at s dang]\s a season4 ,& ,i nev] enc\nt]$ su* fe>ful & long-cont9u$ /orms4 ,be=e we _h fairly lo/ sight ( ! la/ po9t ( l&1 ! w9ds1 :i* 7 already rag+ ) unusual viol5ce1 began to bl[ m furi\sly4 ,!y fell on u 9 ! mo/ fe>ful bla/s1 & ro>$ ar\nd u 9 a deaf5+ h[l4 ,! sea 0 ?r[n into ! wilde/ upro>4 ,! vessel 0 toss$ & tumbl$ ab\t 9 ! mo/ m]ciless mann]4 ,"o mom5t %e 0 plung+ head =emo/ into ! deep2 ! next %e 0 climb+ ! mo/ /up5d\s waves4 ,n[ h] "r :eel 0 va9ly labor+ deep 9 ! wat]1 :ile h] left 0 sp9n+ uselessly 9 ! air2 !n h] "r :eel 0 :irl+ 9 ! air1 :ile h] left 0 splurg+ 9 ! deep4 ,sometimes ! waves swept ov] ! vessel1 :ile at o!r times !y w\ld /rike h] s rudely on ! side1 t %e /agg]$ ?r\gh all h] timb]s4 ,aft] ! /orm _h rag$ = two or ?ree days1 !re came :at are call$ :ite squalls4 ,a light grey cl\d appe>s 9 ! di/ance1 & z x approa*es y1 x s5ds =? lightn+s1 accompani$ ) hurri$ bur/s ( ?und]4 ,a furi\s /orm ( hail or sn[ imm$iately foll[s4 ,! h[l ( ! tempe/ rises to a yell1 & ! squall1 z x sweeps along 9 its fury1 cuts (f ! tops ( ! waves1 & scatt]s !m 9 foam ov] ! surface ( ! deep l a mantle ( sn[4 ,! fir/ ( ^? squalls w5t "r ?r\gh our l>ge squ>e sail1 te>+ x to %r$s4 ,ano!r s5t a wave on bo>d :i* snapp$ 9 pieces /an*ions ( wr\ght iron ?ick] ?an my arms1 & c>ri$ away "o ( our be/ boats4 ,& ?is unspeakable upro> ( ! elem5ts cont9u$ = sev]al days4 ,at times ,i crept on deck = a few mom5ts1 &1 hold+ by ! rigg+1 gaz$ on ! wild magnific5ce ( ! appall+ sc5e4 ,& all ?is "t my he>t1 in/ead ( be+ tortur$ ) its cu/om>y fe>s1 0 full ( a *e]ful joy\s confid5ce4 ,x 0 z if "s _s ( heav5 _h tak5 possession ( my s\l to give me sweet pres5tim5ts ( ! approa* ( bett] days4 ,& s p]haps x 04 ,i 0 mov+ onw>ds1 ?\gh ,i knew x n1 to a happi] de/9y1 & ! peace & joy ,i felt 7 z ! dawn or twilight ( ! com+ day ( my r$emption4 ,we rea*$ ,liv]pool at l5g?1 & ,i 0 soon at ,betley1 ! native place ( my wife1 :i* 0 to be my tempor>y home4 ,& n[1 if ,i _h fall5 into good h&s1 or if ! bett] ?\ghts & t5d5cies ( my s\l _h be5 suffici5tly /rong1 ,i might h ent]$ at once on a happi] c\rse4 ,b ,i enc\nt]$ an unlook$-= difficulty4 ,z ,i h said1 my int5tion 01 on l&+ 9 ,engl&1 to beg9 a p]iodical1 & to keep ap>t f p]sons ( extravagant views4 ,i 0 n a ,*ri/ian1 nor did ,i1 at ! "t1 suppose ,i %\ld ev] become "o2 b ,i 0 an e>ne/ morali/1 & ,i _h become m mod]ate 9 my ideas bo? on religi\s & political subjects4 ,& ,i 01 to "s ext5t1 prep>$ to receive fre% light4 ,i _h got an impression1--,i _h _h x = "s "t be=e ,i left ,am]ica1--t my m9d 0 n 9 a ?or\ghly heal?y /ate1--t x 0 n exactly itself1--t x 0 s mu* biass$ 9 favor ( irreligion1 t x 0 incapable ( do+ ju/ice to argum5ts = a ,god & ,provid5ce1 = a spiritual _w & a future life4 ,i p>tly believ$1 & n[ ,i "k1 t facts & argum5ts 9 favor ( ! great fundam5tal doctr9es ( religion1 did n affect & influ5ce me s mu* z !y ought1--t my d\bts & disbeliefs 7 /rong] ?an facts or ! nature ( ?+s w>rant$4 ,i suspect$1 :at n[ ,i reg>d z pa/ d\bt1 t errone\s pr9ciples1 & a defective me?od ( reason+1 & long practice 9 se>*+ out flaws 9 argum5ts1 & detect+ & expos+ errors & pi\s frauds1 _h dispos$ me too /rongly to di/ru/ & disbelief1--t ,i 0 9 fact a slave to bad habits ( ?\ght & reason+1 z really z ! invet]ate drunk>d is ! slave to 8 irrational appetite = /rong dr9k4 ,:at ,i %\ld believe 9 case ! fre$om ( my m9d & ! j & h>moni\s action ( its p[]s 7 fully re/or$1 ,i c\ld n tell2 b ,i _h a /rong impression1 am\nt+ to some?+ l an assurance1 t ,i %\ld believe m ?an ,i did ) respect to ,god & a spiritual _w4 ,_h ,i1 on arriv+ 9 ,engl&1 f\nd myself 9 favorable circum/ances1 my m9d might quickly h recov]$ its fre$om1 & return$1 9 "p at lea/1 to ! fai? ( its e>li] days4 ,b ?is 0 n my lot4 ,i 0 beset ) new temptations1 & 0 doom$ to fur!r disappo9tm5ts4 ,! ,secul>i/s _h got out a prospectus ( a new pap]1 & ,i 0 urg$ to become "o ( ! editors2 & ?9k+ t x w\ld seem mean & selfi% to beg9 a pap] ( my own "u su* circum/ances1 ,i reluctantly cons5t$4 ,i h[ev] /ipulat$ = full control ov] "o half ( ! pap]1 & :5 ,i f\nd t articles ( a disgraceful & mis*iev\s t5d5cy 7 publi%$ 9 ! o!r half1 ,i publi%$ a special notice 9 m9e1 e week1 t ,i 0 n answ]able = ^? articles4 ,9 ,augu/ #ahfj my wife & *ildr5 arriv$ 9 ,engl&4 ,!y 7 sorry to f9d me 9 connection ) t pap] & ) ! p>ty :i* x repres5t$2 & !y set !mselves at once to "w to br+ ab\t a *ange2 & x 0 n long be=e !y succe$$4 ,a book1 writt5 by a lead+ ,secul>i/1 0 s5t to me = review4 ,:5 ,i read x1 ,i f\nd t its object 0 to und]m9e m>riage & br+ x into disrepute1 & to induce m5 & wom5 to ab&on honorable w$lock1 & to sub/itute = x unb\nd$ s5sual lic5se4 ,x 0 ! fil?ie/1 ! mo/ horrible & revolt+ production ,i _h ev] read4 ,?is loa?some book _h already be5 adv]tis$ 9 ! pap] ( :i* ,i 0 "o ( ! editors1 & 9 ! "p ( ! pap] ov] :i* ,i _h no control1 x _h be5 /rongly recomm5d$4 ,i f\nd1 too1 t x _h be5 v ext5sively circulat$ among ! read]s ( ! pap]1 & t ! ,secul>i/ lead]s 7 adopt+ measures to promote its /ill m ext5sive circulation4 ,i at once expos$ ! villa9\s production 9 my portion ( ! pap]4 ,z f> z a respect = dec5cy w\ld p]mit1 ,i laid its loa?some & horrible abom9ations be=e my read]s4 ,?is l$ to an in/ant1 a total1 & f9al sep>ation betwe5 me & ! fri5ds ( ! lic5ti\s book4 ,i n[ comm5c$ a ,pap] ( my own1 & ,i said to myself1 & ,i said to my *ildr53 ,i w n[ re-read ! ,bible2 ,i w exam9e ,*ri/ianity2 ,i w review ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*2 ,i w exam9e ! "* & work+s ( ! v>i\s religi\s organizations ( ! day2 & :atev] ,i f9d 9 !m t is true or good1 ,i w lay be=e my read]s4 ,i am n a ,*ri/ian1 said ,i2 & ,i nev] expect to be "o2 b ,i w d ju/ice to ! ,*ri/ian cause to ! be/ ( my ability4 ,i h said & writt5 en\gh on ! skeptical side3 ,i w see :at !re is to be said on ! ,*ri/ian side4 ,i _h no idea ( ! greatness ( ! task ,i 0 und]tak+4 ,i suppos$ t t5 or a doz5 articles w\ld be suffici5t to set =? all t 0 true & good 9 ! ,bible4 ,b :5 ,i came to exam9e ! ,book1 ) my some:at alt]$ views1 & enl>g$ exp]i5ce1 & *a/5$ feel+s1 ,i f\nd 9 x treasures ( tru? & goodness1 ( beauty & bless$ness1 ( :i*1 ev5 9 my bett] days1 ,i seem$ to h _h b a v inadequate conception4 ,i 0 t\*$ ) a hundr$ precepts ( m]cy & t5d]ness 9 ! laws ( ,moses4 ,i 0 />tl$ & delight$ ) _m ,old ,te/am5t /ories4 ,! "* ( ,job1 z portray$ 9 ! tw5ty-n9? & ?irty-fir/ *apt]s ( ! book t goes "u 8 "n1 melt$ me to te>s4 ,i 0 delight$ ) ! purity & t5d]ness1 ! beauty & sublimity ( ! ,psalms4 ,i 0 amaz$ at ! dep? & va/ness ( ! wisdom ( ! ,book ( ,prov]bs4 ,i 0 pleas$ ) ! /]n fidelity ) :i* ! prophets rebuk$ ! vices & ! crimes1 ! selfi%ness & cruelty1 ( ! s9n]s ( _! days1 & ! t5d]ness & devotion ) :i* !y plead$ ! cause ( ! poor1 ! fa!rless1 & ! wid[4 ,:5 ,i came to ! ,gospels1 & read aga9 ! wond]ful /ory ( ! ,man ( ,naz>e?1 my :ole s\l gave way4 ,! beauty1 ! t5d]ness1 ! glory ( ,8 "* ov]p[]$ me4 ,i 0 a%am$1 t ,i %\ld ev] h s fe>fully misconceiv$ x1 & done x su* griev\s inju/ice4 ,! te>s roll$ f my eyes1 moi/5+ ! book 9 :i* ,i 0 read+1 & ! pap] on :i* ,i 0 writ+4 ,b ,i proce$$ ) my task4 ,i pond]$ e ^w ,he utt]$1 & 0 delight$ ) ,8 glori\s revelations ( ,god1 & tru?1 & duty4 ,i gaz$ on all ,8 wondr\s works4 ,i m>k$1 ,i /udi$1 e trait 9 8 "*4 ,i read ! sad /ory ( ,8 trials4 ,i trac$ him ?r\gh all ,8 suff]+s4 ,i saw ! indignities & cruelties to :i* ,he 0 subject$1 & ,i saw ! meekness1 ! pati5ce1 & ! =titude ) :i* ,he suff]$4 ,i saw ,him on ! cross4 ,i he>d ! pray] :i* ,he (f]$ 9 ! mid/ ( ,8 agonies 9 behalf ( ,8 murd]]s1 ',fa!r1 =give !m2 !y "k n :at !y d4' ,& /ill ,i read1 & /ill ,i gaz$1 & /ill ,i li/5$4 ,i 0 entranc$4 ,i _h ?\ght to /& at a di/ance2 to look at ,jesus ) ! eye ( a philosoph] & morali/ only1 & calmly & coolly to take ,8 portrait2 b ,i 0 ov]p[]$4 ,! /range1 ! t\*+ sight drew me ne>]4 ,! lov+ "o got hold ( me4 ,8 inf9ite t5d]ness1 ,8 transc5d5t goodness1 ! glory ( ,8 :ole "*1 & life1 & doctr9e took me captive2 & ,i 0 no way lo? to be held by su* *>ms4 ,he _h won me entirely4 ,i lov$ ,him ) all my he>t & s\l4 ,i 0 ,81--,8 disciple1 ,8 s]vant1 entirely1 & =ev]4 ,& ,i want$ no o!r treasure b to %>e ,8 love1 & no o!r employm5t b to %>e ,8 "w4 ,i 01 ?\gh b v imp]fectly enlight5$ on _m ?+s1 & exce$+ly weak & imp]fect 9 _m respects1 mo/ bless$ly & indissolubly w$d$ to ,*ri/ & ,8 cause4 ,i drew ! portrait ( ! ,savi\r to ! be/ ( my ability1 & s5t ! articles to ! press4 ,x fell to ! lot ( my *ildr51 9 correct+ ! press1 to read ^? articles4 ,& :5 !y read !m1 !y too wept1 & "o said to ano!r1 ,fa!r is com+ "r2 he w be himself aga9 by & by4 ,& !y 7 "r 9 ?9k+ s4 ,i _h come 9 contact ) ! ,great ,heal]4 ,i _h got a sight ( ,"o on :om x is impossible to look /eadfa/ly & long )\t exp]i5c+ a ?or\gh trans=mation ( s\l4 ,& s x 0 ) me4 ,f my fir/ look ,i became less & less ( a skeptic1 & m & m ( a believ] 9 ,*ri/ianity1 till my trans=mation 0 complete4 ,! m ,i read ! ,bible ) my alt]$ feel+s & *ange ( purpose1 ! m 0 ,i impress$ ) its transc5d5t wor?1 & ! m 0 ,i influ5c$ by its r5ovat+ p[]4 ,i saw t :atev] might be said ) reg>d to p>ticul> portions ( ! ,book1 x 01 z a :ole1 ! gr&e/ revelation ( tru? & duty t ! m9d ( man c\ld conceive4 ,i c\ld no long] f9d 9 my he>t to talk or write ab\t :at appe>$ to be its imp]fections4 ,!re 7 passages t seem$ d>k or d\btful3 !re 7 "s t seem$ errone\s or contradictory2 b !y am\nt$ to no?+4 ,!y did n affect ! scope1 ! drift1 ! aim1 ! t5d5cy ( ! ,book z a :ole4 ,!y might n be consi/5t ) c]ta9 errone\s !ories ( inspiration1 or ) c]ta9 ungu>d$ /atem5ts ( extravagant !ologians2 b !y 7 consi/5t ) ! belief t ! book1 z a :ole1 0 wor?y ( ! ,great ,good be+ f :om x 0 said to h come1 & adapt$ to ! illum9ation & salvation ( ! race to :i* x _h be5 giv54 ,*ri/ianity began to pres5t itself to my m9d z ! true/ philosophy2 z ! p]fection ( all wisdom & goodness4 ,:ile x met man's spiritual wants1 & *e]$ him ) ! promise ( et]nal bliss1 x 0 manife/ly its t5d5cy to promote 8 highe/ int]e/s ev5 9 ! pres5t _w4 ,z ! cl\ds t _h d>k5$ my m9d pass$ away1 x become pla9 z ! light1 t if mank9d c\ld be br\ght to receive its tea*+s1 & to live 9 accordance ) its pr9ciples1 ! _w w\ld become a p>adise4 #b4 ,i review$ ,*ur* ,hi/ory4 ,:ile "u ! influ5ce ( anti-,*ri/ian views & feel+s1 ,i _h read ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* & ,*ri/ianity ) a view to ju/ify my unbelief1 r ?an ) a desire to "k ! simple tru?4 ,i _h look$ m = facts :i* c\ld be us$ to damage ! ,*ur*1 ?an = fair full views ( ?+s4 ,my m9d _h dwelt p>ticul>ly on ! ,*ur*'s qu>rels1 its divisions1 its intol]ance1 & its w>s2--on ! favor :i* ! cl]gy _h sometimes %[n to slav]y & to despotism2--on _! asceticisms1 fanaticisms1 & follies2 & on cases ( fraud1 & selfi%ness1 & impurity4 ,i _h read z an advocate reta9$ to plead ! cause ( unbelief1 r ?an z a c&id judge1 or an unbiass$ /ud5t1 anxi\s to "k & tea* ! :ole tru?4 ,i 0 n consci\s ( my unfairness at ! "t1 b ,i n[ began to see t ,i _h be5 influ5c$ by my irreligi\s passions & prejudices4 ,i saw1 on look+ ov] my ,guizot = in/ance1 t ,i _h m>k$ ! passages :i* conta9$ matt]s n cr$itable to ! cl]gy1 & pass$ unnotic$ ^? portions ( ! "w :i* set =? ! s]vices :i* ! ,*ur* & ,*ri/ianity _h r5d]$ to civilization4 ,i also rememb]$ h[ eag]ly ,i _h swall[$ ! unfair repres5tations & fallaci\s reason+s ( ,buckle ) reg>d to ,*ri/ianity & skepticism1 & h[ impati5tly ,i _h hurri$ ov] :at review]s fri5dly to ,*ri/ianity said on ! o!r side ( ! subject4 ,! balance ( my m9d 0 at l5g? re/or$4 ,i n[ saw t ,*ri/ianity _h prov$ itself ! fri5d ( peace & fre$om1 ( le>n+ & sci5ce1 ( trade & agriculture1 ( temp]ance & purity1 ( ju/ice & *>ity1 ( dome/ic com=t & national prosp]ity4 ,! hi/ory ( ,*ri/ianity 0 ! hi/ory ( our sup]ior laws1 ( our improv$ mann]s1 ( our b5efic5t in/itutions1 ( our s*ools ( le>n+1 ( our b\ndless weal?1 ( our con/itutional gov]nm5ts1 ( our unequall$ lit]ature1 ( our _w-wide influ5ce1 ( our dome/ic happ9ess1 & ( all t goes to make up our highe/ =ms ( civilization4 ,imp]fectly z x _h be5 und]/ood1 & defectively z x _h be5 r$uc$ to practice1 ,*ri/ianity _h plac$ ! nations ( ,europe at ! head ( ! human race4 ,*ri/ian nations 7 ! mo/ enlight5$ & virtu\s1 ! mo/ prosp]\s & p[]ful1 ! mo/ free & happy ( all ! nations ( ! e>?4 ,! pi\s frauds1 ! intol]ance & p]secutions1 ! oppressions & wrongs1 ! selfi%ness & s91 :i* 7 f\nd 9 ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur*1 7 n ! effects ( ,*ri/ianity1 b ! effects ( passions & pr9ciples directly oppos$ to its _s & tea*+s4 #c4 ,i look$ at ! ,*ur*es ( ! day4 ,i f\nd !m all at "w = ! education ( ! "y1 & = ! in/ruction & salvation ( ! _w4 ,i saw !m build+ s*ools & *apels1 & supply+ !m ) tea*]s & prea*]s4 ,i saw !m pr9t+ books1 & tracts1 & ,bibles1 & spread+ !m abroad 9 all directions4 ,i saw !m f\nd+ libr>ies & read+-rooms1 & "y m5's ,*ri/ian associations1 & ladies' sew+ societies4 ,i saw !m s5d+ out mission>ies abroad1 & c>ry+ on a multitude ( b5efic5t op]ations at home4 ,i ask$ = ! s*ools & libr>ies1 ! books & p]iodicals1 ! halls ( sci5ce & ! mission>y op]ations ( ! enemies ( ,*ri/ianity2 b !y 7 n[h]e to be f\nd4 ,!y talk$ ab\t education1 b in/ruct$ no "o4 ,!y talk$ ab\t sci5ce1 b did no?+ = its spread or its advancem5t4 ,!y abus$ ,*ri/ians = neglect+ m5's temporal int]e/s1 b did no?+ to promote m5's e>?ly happ9ess !mselves4 ,!y f\nd fault ) ,sunday-s*ools1 & talk$ ( ! faults ( ,*ri/ians1 b nev] correct$ _! own4 ,!y talk$ ( lib]ty1 & practis$ tyranny4 ,!y compla9$ ( intol]ance1 yet foll[$ su* z r5\nc$ _! society1 or que/ion$ _! views1 ) ! bitt]e/ reproa*es1 & ! mo/ he>tless p]secution4 ,!y talk$ ( re=m1 b s[$ ! se$s ( rebellion1 an>*y1 & unb\nd$ lic5ti\sness4 ,! ,*ri/ians _h ! advantage ov] _! adv]s>ies ev5 9 outw>d appe>ance4 ,!y 7 clean] & bett] clad1 & 7 m ord]ly 9 _! deportm5t4 ,!re 0 q a contra/ betwe5 ! cr[ds ( ,*ri/ians t pass$ along ! /reets to _! places ( wor%ip1 & ! knots ( ,godless1 ,*ri/less m5 :o /roll$ along1 or sat 9 _! doors1 9 _! dirty clo!s1 ) _! unwa%$ faces1 smok+ _! pipes1 or read+ _! fil?y pap]s4 ,!re 0 a contra/ betwe5 ,*ri/ian congregations & infidel meet+s4 ,"o _h ! appe>ance ( purity & elevation2 :ile ! o!r _h ! /amp ( pollution & degradation4 ,irreligion seem$ ! nurse ( co>s5ess & b>b>ism4 ,"s ( ! secul>i/s actually argu$ aga9/ civilization1 z ,r\sseau _h done be=e !m4 ,"o ( !m repr9t$ ,burke's ironical "w 9 favor ( ! savage /ate1 & s5t x to me = review1 & 0 greatly (f5d$ because ,i refus$ to recomm5d x z a sob]1 s]i\s1 philosophical treatise to my read]s4 ,x 0 pla9 t !re 0 some?+ wrong 9 infidelity2 t its t5d5cy 0 to vice & depravity2 :ile ,*ri/ianity1 :e!r x 0 div9e 9 its orig9 or n1 0 evid5tly ! fri5d & b5efactor ( our race4 ,9 #ahfb1 "s fri5ds ( m9e at ,burnley1 :o _h built a public hall !re1 engag$ me z _! lectur]4 ,! p>ties 7 unbeliev]s1 b !y 7 oppos$ to ! advocates ( unb\nd$ lic5se4 ,!y 7 favorable to morality1 & wi%$ to h an association t %\ld embody :at !y ?\ght good 9 ! ,*ur*1 )\t be+ decid$ly religi\s4 ,!y wi%$ to h music & s++ at ! ,sunday meet+s1 & to limit public discussion to ! week-night meet+s4 ,!y also wi%$ to h ,sunday-s*ools1 day-s*ools1 read+-rooms1 & libr>ies4 ,we _h come to ! conclusion t ! ,*ri/ians 7 "r on ! :ole 9 _! way ( conduct+ _! public meet+s1 & we 7 resolv$ to imitate !m z f> z we hone/ly c\ld4 ,& "h ,i liv$ & labor$ = m ?an a ye>4 ,we did n succe$ h[ev] s well z we _h expect$4 ,our s+]s1 & musicians1 & ,sunday-s*ool tea*]s _h no high & p[]ful motive to keep !m regul>ly at _! po/s1 s t :5ev] a /rong temptation came to lure !m away1 !y ran f _! tasks1 & left me & ano!r or two to toil alone4 ,we !n =m$ a ,*ur*1 & made laws1 ?9k+ to keep our associates to _! duty 9 t way4 ,b ?is made matt]s worse4 ,_! fancies & pleasures 7 _! laws1 & !y w\ld obey no o!r4 ,mo/ ( our tea*]s left1 & ,i & a fri5d or two _h to tea* ! s*ool ourselves4 ,my fri5ds e/abli%$ a day-s*ool1 & hir$ a tea*]2 b he turn$ out to be an unb\nd$ lic5se man2 he br\ght ) him1 9 fact1 an unm>ri$ woman in/ead ( 8 wife1 & !y f\nd x necess>y to get rid ( him z soon z !y c\ld4 ,all ! "t ,i 0 at ,burnley my he>t fir/1 & !n my head1 7 com+ ne>] & ne>] to ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity4 ,i gradually gave up my opposition bo? to religion & to ! *ur*es4 ,! la/ lecture 9 :i* ,i gave utt]ance to any?+ unfavorable to ! ,bible 0 "o on ,noah's flood4 ,i spoke on ! subject by reque/1 & aga9/ my incl9ation1 & be=e ,i _h got half ?r\gh ,i began to feel unutt]ably dissatisfi$ ) myself4 ,i 0 really unhappy4 ,f t "t =w>d ,i dwelt *iefly on moral subjects1 & (t5 took occasion to speak favorably ( ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity4 ,i tri$ to expla9 :at 0 d>k1 & to set =? :at 0 manife/ly true & good 9 _! tea*+s4 ,i lectur$ on ! wisdom ( ! ,book ( ,prov]bs1 on ! beauty ( ,*ri/'s "*1 & on ! excell5cy ( _m ( ,8 doctr9es1 on ! advantages ( fai? 9 ,*ri/1 & on ! follies & vices ( infidel secul>ism1 & on q a numb] ( o!r ,*ri/ian subjects4 ,my y\ng] son came to reside at ,burnley :ile ,i 0 !re1 & we _h frequ5t talks z we walk$ toge!r along ! fields & lanes1 & ov] ! neighbor+ hills2 & ?is also help$ to br+ me ne>] to ,*ri/ & ,8 ,*ur*4 ,i read ! works ( ,epictetus at ?is "t1 & my fai? 9 ,god & immortality1 & my love ( virtue too1 7 /r5g!n$ by 8 reason+s4 ,ab\t ! same "t a p]son wrote to me to g & lecture at ,goole4 ,i w5t4 ,no subject _h be5 nam$ to me1 & ,i resolv$ to speak 9 favor ( ! lead+ practical pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,:5 ,i got to ,goole1 ,i f\nd t ! man :o _h invit$ me _h put up a bill1 call+ on 8 neighbors & fell[-t[nsm5 to come & he> ! triumphant oppon5t ( ,*ri/ianity demoli% _! religion4 ,i told him he %\ld n h put =? a bill l t1--t ,i 0 n an oppon5t ( ,*ri/ianity1--t ,i 0 n an enemy ( ! *ur*es1--t ,i _h no desire to demoli% religion1--t ,i wi%$ to br+ p to *]i% & practise ! lead+ pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,?is r puzzl$ & di/ress$ him2 b not)/&+ 8 disappo9tm5t1 he w\ld h me lecture4 ,! meet+ 0 out ( doors4 ,i soon _h a l>ge audi5ce4 ,i quickly undeceiv$ su* z _h come expect+ to he> me vilify ! ,bible1 ! *ur*es1 or religion4 ,i spoke 9 ! highe/ t]ms ( ,*ri/ & ,8 tea*+s4 ,i %[$ t _m ( !m 7 ! p]fection ( wisdom & goodness4 ,i spoke ( ! causes ( human wret*$ness1 & %[$ t ob$i5ce to ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les w\ld remove !m all4 ,_m ?+s t ,i said1 & especially "s rem>ks ,i made on dome/ic duties & dome/ic happ9ess1 w5t home to ! he>ts ( my he>]s4 ,n a murmur 0 he>d f any qu>t]4 ,m5 nudg$ ea* o!r1 & wom5 look$ 9 ea* o!rs' faces1 & all gave signs t !y felt ! tru? ( my rem>ks1 & ! wisdom ( my c\nsels1 & ! meet+ end$ z satisfactorily z c\ld be desir$4 ,x 0 :ile ,i 0 liv+ at ,burnley t ,i began aga9 to pray4 ,a "y a!i/ di$1 & ,i 0 invit$ to 8 fun]al1 & reque/$ to speak at 8 grave4 ,:5 we got to ! cemet]y ! little *apel 0 occupi$ by ano!r company1 & we _h to wait "s "t = our turn4 ,my m9d 0 9 a sad & solemn mood1 & ,i left my p>ty & w&]$ to ! f>!r end ( ! cemet]y4 ,x 0 a bright & beautiful day 9 ,april4 ,! grass 0 spr++ fre% & gre51 & ! haw?orn buds 7 op5+1 & ev]y?+ seem$ full ( life1 & big ) promise4 ,! sun 0 %9+ 9 all 8 glory4 ,! ?ru%es & ! blackbirds 7 s++ 9 ! surr\nd+ groves & ?ickets1 & ! l>ks 7 p\r+ =? _! melody 9 ! air4 ,yet all 0 d>k & sorr[ful )94 ,i felt ! mis]y ( unbelief1 yet felt myself unable to free myself f its horrible & torm5t+ p[]4 ,i _h a gr[+ conviction t ,i 0 ! slave ( a vici\s me?od ( reason+1 & ( an invet]ate habit ( unreasonable or excessive d\bt1 & t ,i _h n ! p[] to d ,god & ,*ri/ianity ju/ice4 ,i felt z if ,i ought to pray1 b some?+ :isp]$1 ,x is irrational4 ,no matt]1 ,i c\ld refra9 no long]3 & lift+ up my te>ful eyes to heav5 ,i exclaim$1 ,god help me4 ,he did help me4 ,he /r5g!n$ my /ruggl+ s\l f t h\r1 & gave to ! good )9 me a gr[+ p[] ov] ! evil4 ,i dri$ my te>s & return$ to my p>ty4 ,i spoke at ! poor "y ,a!i/'s grave1 & conclud$ my address ) ! foll[+ pray]1 ,may tru/ 9 ,god1 & ! hope ( a bett] life1 & ! love ( tru? & virtue1 & delight 9 do+ good1 rema9 ) all :o h !m1 & come to all :o h !m n4 ,am54 ,! g5tleman ) :om ,i _h liv$ at ,burnley _h said to me on ! morn+ ( t v day1 t if ,i pray$ at ! fun]al he %\ld nev] ?9k well ( me m4 ,he aft]w>ds said1 :5 he he>d ( ! pray] ,i _h (f]$1 he _h no objection to a pray] l t4 ,he 0 n aw>e ( ! %ort] pray] t ,i _h (f]$ :5 alone1 or he w\ld h spok5 probably 9 ano!r /ra94 ,he 0 dreadfully oppos$ to religion1 & v uneasy :5 he saw me mov+ 9 ! direction ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,among ! fri5ds :o left ! *ur* on acc\nt ( my expulsion1 0 ,samuel ,me?ley1 ( ,mirfield1 ne> ,hudd]sfield4 ,he 0 r ecc5tric 9 "s respects2 b he 0 an hone/1 e>ne/1 k9d1 & ,*ri/ian man4 ,he _h _h little or no s*ool in/ruction1 & he _h no?+ t c\ld be call$ le>n+1 or high intellectual culture2 b he 0 a man ( great fai?1 ( mu* love1 & mu* pray]4 ,8 affection & rev]5ce = me 7 almo/ unb\nd$1 & s long z ,i cont9u$ a believ] 9 ,*ri/1 he 0 ready to g ) me any l5g?s 9 ,evangelical re=m4 ,:5 ,i ran into politics he 0 some:at /agg]$1 b foll[$ me z f> z he dur/4 ,:5 ,i began to be skeptical he /ood /ill1 afraid1 & v unhappy4 ,on "o occasion he v5tur$ to rebuke me2 b ,i knew t ! rebuke 0 ! (fspr+ ( affection1 & ,i took x quietly4 ,:5 ,i w5t to ,am]ica he 0 greatly di/ress$1 & pray$ = me mo/ anxi\sly & e>ne/ly4 ,:5 he f\nd ,i _h become an unbeliev]1 he resolv$ nev] to g ne> a meet+ ( m9e aga91 & pray$ to ,god to help him to keep 8 resolution4 ,= _m ye>s he tri$ to wean himself f me1 to ext+ui% 8 passionate reg>d = me2 b :5ev] he f\nd t ,i 0 to lecture 9 8 neighborhood1 he lo/ 8 self-control1 & came1 ?\gh ) reluctance1 & _m misgiv+s1 to my meet+s4 ,he g5]ally rose aft] my lectures1 to prote/ aga9/ my extravagances1 & to te/ify 8 uncontrollable affection = me1 & 8 anxi\s desire = my salvation4 ,to d o!rwise ?an take 8 rem>ks 9 good "p 0 impossible4 ,poor1 de>1 good man6 ,i little ?\ght at ! "t h[ mu* di/ress & pa9 ,i 0 caus+ him4 ,:5 he f\nd t ,i 0 com+ back to ,*ri/1 he 0 joyful beyond measure4 ,:5 he he>d me prea* on true religion1 he 0 9 transports4 ,at a meet+ t foll[$1 he spoke ) s mu* feel+ & f]vor1 t ,i 0 oblig$ to try to *eck him a little1 = fe> ! viol5ce ( 8 excitem5t %\ld injure 8 feeble & fail+ heal?4 ,my conv]sion1 ?\gh b p>tial !n1 gave him ! utmo/ delight4 ,at l5g? 8 feeble frame gave way1 & he sank into 8 b$ to rise no m4 ,he s5t me ^w t he 0 v desir\s to see me1 & ,i visit$ him )\t delay4 ,he 0 v ill4 ,8 voice 0 almo/ gone1 & he spoke ) great difficulty4 ,he told me he wi%$ me1 :5 he 0 gone1 to prea* 8 fun]al s]mon1 & write 8 epitaph1 & take *>ge ( a manuscript conta9+ ! /ory ( 8 life4 ,i told him ,i w\ld d s4 ,he !n spoke ( 8 tru/ 9 ,god1 8 love ( ,*ri/1 & 8 hopes ( a bless$ immortality1 :ile te>s ( joy /ood gli/5+ 9 8 eyes4 ,he !n ref]r$ to "s matt]s t _h tri$ him sadly1 b add$3 ,i h ca/ my c>e on ,god4 ,he tri$ to speak ( 8 feel+s t[>ds me1 b said3 ,^? pap]s 7ref]r+ to ! /ory ( 8 life7 w tell y all4 ,at la/ he said3 ,pray ) me1 ,joseph4 ,i _h n pray$ ) any "o = _m ye>s1 b ,i said at once3 ,i w1 ,sammy2 & ,i fell on my knees1 & pray$ by 8 side4 ,he !n1 weak z he 01 pray$ e>ne/ly = me1 & = my wife & family4 ,he di$ a few weeks aft]4 ,i prea*$ 8 fun]al s]mon on ! foll[+ ,sunday1 9 ,may1 #ahfc1 9 a field ne> ! h\se 9 :i* he _h liv$ & di$1 f ! text3 ,let me die ! dea? ( ! righte\s1 & let my la/ end be l 84 ,!re 0 an imm5se congregation1 consi/+ ( p ( all d5om9ations1 bo? infidel & ,*ri/ian1 f e "p ( ! surr\nd+ di/rict4 ,:5 speak+ ( 8 conduct 9 cl++ to ! religion ( ,*ri/1 in/ead ( foll[+ me into ! regions ( d\bt & unbelief1 ,i decl>$ my conviction t he _h done "r4 ,he _h read little1 said ,i1 & ,i _h read mu*3 yet he 0 ! wis] man ( ! two4 ,8 good religi\s in/9cts & feel+s kept him "r1 & kept him happy 9 ! w>m? & sunlight ( ! religion ( ,*ri/2 :ile my va9 reason+s c>ri$ me a/ray into ! d>k & *ill+ regions ( et]nal cold & utt] desolation4 ,!re is a seem+ wisdom t is fooli%ness2 & !re is a *ildlike1 artless simplicity ( fai?1 :i*1 :ile x is reg>d$ z fooli%ness by _m1 is 9 tru? ! p]fection ( wisdom4 ,!re are ?+s :i* are hid f ! wise & prud5t1 t are reveal$ to babes4 ,& ,jesus 0 "r1 :51 address+ ! self-conceit$ skeptical critics ( ,8 day1 ,he said3 ',except ye be conv]t$ & become z little *ildr51 ye _c ent] ! k+dom ( heav54' ,my de> dep>t$ fri5d1 :5 tru/+ 9 ,god z 8 ,fa!r1 & 9 ,*ri/ z 8 ,savi\r1 & liv+ a godly life1 0 "r1 :ile ,i1 9 di/ru/+ ! prompt+s ( my religi\s in/9cts & affections1 & committ+ myself to ! reason+s ( a cold & he>tless logic1 0 wrong4 ,! new-born babe1 t re/s untr\bl$ 9 its "m's arms1 &1 )\t misgiv+1 sucks f h] brea/ ! milk s wond]fully provid$ = x1 does ! be/ & wise/ ?+ conceivable4 ,9 obey+ its in/9cts1 x obeys ! great good ,au?or ( its be+1 & lives4 ,if--to suppose :at is happily an impossibility--if ! *ild %\ld disc>d its in/9cts1 & refuse to tru/ its "m1 till x _h logical pro( ( h] tru/wor?9ess2 &1 di/ru/+ its natural crav+s1 %\ld refuse to take ! nutrim5t provid$ = x1 till x c\ld asc]ta9 by *emical analysis & physiological inve/igation1 t x 0 j ! k9d ( food :i* x requir$1 x w\ld die4 ,my dep>t$ fri5d 0 ! happy1 confid+ *ild1 & sav$ 8 s\l alive2 :ile ,i 0 ! analytical & logical d\bt]1 & all b />v$ my mis]able s\l to dea?4 ,?ank ,god1 ,i h liv$ to see my error4 ,! lov+1 tru/+ ,*ri/ian is "r4 ,! religion ( ,jesus is sub/antially true & div9e2 &1 ?us f>1 ,i decl>e myself a ,*ri/ian4 ,x 0 a beautiful1 summ]-l day4 ,! sun %one brightly1 & ! w9ds 7 l[1 & ! va/ congregation 0 ord]ly & att5tive1 & _m 7 mu* affect$4 ,! report t ,i _h decl>$ myself a ,*ri/ian1 )\t any qualification annex$1 got into ! pap]s1 & ran ?r\gh ! c\ntry4 ,to _m x gave ! greate/ satisfaction4 ,good1 k9d ,*ri/ians came r\nd me :]ev] ,i w5t1 te/ify+ _! delight & gratitude4 ,"s wept = joy4 ,unbeliev]s 7 greatly annoy$ at ! tid+s ( my conv]sion1 & "s ( !m came & entreat$ me to give ! report a public contradiction4 ,?is ,i refus$ to d4 ,true1 ! pap]s said some:at m ?an ,i _h said2 b ! /atem5t !y gave 0 true 9 sub/ance1 s ,i let x pass1 & ! gr[+ *ange = ! bett] 9 my views & feel+s soon made x true 9 =m4 ,,*apt] ,,xviii4 ,,p>ties ,,:o ,,contribut$ ,,t[>ds ,,my ,,return ,,to ,,*ri/4 ,aft] ,i fell into d\bt & unbelief1 ! ,*ur*1 & ! m9i/ry g5]ally1 appe>$ to look on me z irretrievably lo/4 ,! great mass ( !m made no attempt = my recov]y4 ,h[ mu* !y c>$ = my s\l ,i d n "k2 b = ne>ly tw5ty ye>s !y left me to w&] z a %eep t _h no %eph]d4 ,_m ( !m spoke aga9/ me1 & wrote aga9/ me1 & "s ( !m ev5 met me 9 public discussion2 b !y nev] approa*$ me 9 ! _s ( g5tl5ess & love1 to try to w9 me back to ,*ri/1 & br+ me once m into ,8 ,*ur*4 ,"s ( !m treat$ me ) griev\s inju/ice4 ,z ,i h said "s pages back1 "o m9i/] made himself mo/ odi\s to me & my fri5ds1 & did some?+ t[>ds increas+ our antipa?y to ! religion :i* he s grossly di%onor$1 by 8 unju/ & hateful do+s4 ,x is bad = ,*ri/ianity :5 m5 l ^! are put =w>d z its advocates4 ,no op5 enemies c d x s mu* injury z su* unwor?y fri5ds4 ,!re 7 o!rs1 h[ev]1 :o took a m ,*ri/ian c\rse1 & if !y did n succe$ 9 at once reclaim+ me f my melan*oly delusions1 !y produc$ a happy effect on my m9d1 :i* help$ to br+ ab\t1 9 ! end1 my return to ! ,*ri/ian fai?4 #a4 ,!re 0 "o man1 a m9i/]1 :o1 ?\gh he wrote aga9/ "s ( my views1 always treat$ me ) respect4 ,he nev] gave me (f5sive names1 nor *>g$ me ) unwor?y motives1 nor treat$ me ) affect$ contempt4 ,he reg>d$ me simply z an err+ bro!r1 & /rove1 ) g5u9e ,*ri/ian affection1 to br+ me back to :at he reg>d$ z ! tru?4 ,he di$ be=e my re/oration to ! ,*ur*1 b 8 labors on my behalf 7 n 9 va94 #b4 ,a k9d-he>t$ layman once s5t me a book--,! ,philosophy ( ! ,plan ( ,salvation1--accompani$ ) a %ort1 b affectionate lett]4 ,! book did n conv]t me1 b ! k9dness ( ! fri5d t s5t x _h a happy effect4 ,?\gh beyond ! rea* ( logic1 ,i 0 )9 ! rea* ( love4 #c4 ,! ,au?or ( ,! ,philosophy ( ! ,plan ( ,salvation 0 ,mr4 ,walk]1 a m9i/] ( ,mansfield1 ,ohio4 ,:ile 9 ,am]ica ,i gave a c\rse ( lectures 9 t t[n on ! ,bible4 ,! fri5d at ^: h\se ,i 0 /ay+ took me to see ,mr4 ,walk]1 :o receiv$ me ) great k9dness1 invit$ me to d9e ) him1 & conv]s$ ) me 9 a truly ,*ri/ian mann]4 ,he ev5 came to "o ( my lectures1 9 hopes ( help+ me ov] ! difficulties :i* block$ my way to ! fai? ( ,*ri/4 ,i did n1 h[ev]1 treat him ) ! k9d & consid]ate t5d]ness ) :i* he _h treat$ me4 ,i 0 "u unhappy influ5ces1 & ,i spoke on ! ,bible 9 su* a mann] z to try him pa/ endurance1 & he left me t night ) v pa9ful feel+s1 reg>d+ me1 probably1 z lo/ pa/ hope4 ,%\ld he read ?is "w1 x may give him satisfaction to "k1 t 8 k9dness1 & 8 "w on ,*ri/ z a revelation ( ! ,et]nal ,fa!r1 _h a "p 9 help+ me back to ! religion ( ,*ri/4 #d4 ,five ye>s ago la/ ,decemb]1 ,mr4 ,john ,mawson1 ,%]iff ( ,newca/le-on-,tyne1 0 kill$ on ! ,t[n ,moor by a t]rible explosion ( nitro-glyc]9e4 ,i _h be5 acqua9t$ ) him m ?an five-&-tw5ty ye>s4 ,he jo9$ ! *ur* at ,newca/le1 ( :i* ,i 0 a m9i/]1 & rema9$ my fri5d to ! la/4 ,he _h 8 d\bts on c]ta9 po9ts ( !ology1 b he nev] lo/ 8 fai? 9 ! great pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,:5 ,i 0 ov] f ,am]ica once1 ,i sp5t "s "t 9 8 company1 & we _h frequ5t conv]sations on religion4 ,x seems to me1 said he1 t we ought to put "s tru/ 9 our he>ts4 ,my head has (t5 tempt$ me to d\bt2 b my he>t has always clung to ,god & immortality4 ,x does s /ill2 & ,i believe x is "r4 ,inde$1 ,i h no d\bt ( x4 ,i rememb]$ 8 words4 ,!y l$ me to /udy ! moral & spiritual in/9cts ( my nature m ?or\ghly ?an ,i _h done be=e4 ,!y l$ me to /udy ! subject ( in/9ct & natural affection g5]ally4 ,my in/9cts1 l ! in/9cts ( my fri5d1 _h always clung to ,god & a future life1 & to ! pr9ciples ( religion & virtue1 ev5 :5 reason hesitat$ & d\bt$ mo/4 ,i _h nev] giv5 up my belief 9 any ( ! great doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity )\t a pa9ful /ruggle4 ,b ,i _h be5 l$ to ?9k x my duty1 :5 !re 0 a conflict betwe5 my head & my he>t1 to take "p ) my head4 ,my he>t1 = in/ance1 w\ld say1 ,pray2 b reason1 or some?+ 9 ! g>b ( reason1 w\ld say1 ,don't4 ,if :at y desire is good1 ,god w give x y1 :e!r y pray = x or n2 & if x be evil1 ,he w )hold x1 pray z y may4 ,pray] may move a man l y\rself2 b x _c move ,god4 ,& ,i he>k5$ to ! seem+ reason1 & gave up pray]4 ,my he>t said1 ,!re is a p]sonal1 consci\s1 all-p]fect ,god4 ,my head1 or my infidel philosophy said1 ,!re _c be su* a ,god4 ,a ,god all-p[]ful c\ld prev5t evil4 ,a ,god all-good w\ld prev5t x4 ,god _c !re=e be a consci\s1 p]sonal1 all-p]fect be+4 ,he mu/ be a bl9d1 unconsci\s p[]2 ! sum total ( natural t5d5cies1 work+ accord+ to ! et]nal prop]ties ( ?+s1 )\t ! possibility ( *ange2 & h5ce ! exi/5ce ( evil1 & ! preval5ce ( et]nal1 unalt]able law4 ,& "h aga9 my head 0 p]mitt$ to prevail1 & my he>t1 9 spite ( all its remon/rances1 0 compell$ to give way4 ,& ) a p]sonal1 consci\s1 all-p]fect ,god1 w5t ! ri*e/ treasures ( ! human he>t1--tru/ 9 a ,fa!rly ,provid5ce2 ! hope ( a bless$ immortality1 & fai? 9 ! ultimate triumph ( tru? & ju/ice1 & all assurance ( human progress & a good "t com+4 ,yet ,i 0 oblig$1 9 spite ( ! false philosophical pr9ciple ,i _h adopt$1 to accept ! oracles ( my he>t on _m po9ts1 & to reject ! logic ( my head4 ,my he>t said1 ,speak ! tru?2 to lie is wrong4 ,b n[ t x _h got rid ( a p]sonal ,god1 logic said1 ,!re c be no?+ wrong 9 a lie t hurts no "o4 ,!re is some?+ comm5dable 9 a useful1 s]viceable lie4 ,to lie to save a p]son f dang] or de/ruction is a virtue4 ,! feel+ :i* %r9ks f su* a lie is a bl9d1 irrational prejudice1 & %\ld be pluck$ up & ca/ out ( ! s\l4 ,tru? may be prop] en\gh 9 ! /rong3 b deceit is ! wisdom ( ! weak4 ,b 9 ?is case my he>t1 my in/9ctive love ( tru?1 prevail$4 ,aga91 my he>t plead$ = ju/ice & m]cy2 = ju/ice to all2 & = m]cy to ! ne$y & helpless4 ,b reason1 or ! he>tless & godless philosophy t usurp$ its "n1 said1 ,utility is ! supreme law2 ! only law ( man4 ,ju/ice & m]cy are "r :5 !y are useful2 b :5 !y are hurtful !y are "r no long]4 ,if by de/roy+ ! helpless & ! ne$y we c deliv] !m f _! mis]y1 & increase ! happ9ess ( ! re/ ( our race1 _! de/ruction is a virtue1 especially if we dispose ( !m 9 a quiet & pa9less way1 s z to sp>e !m ! fe>s & agonies ( dea?6 ,b "h aga9 my he>t prevail$4 ,my natural1 unreason+1 in/9ctive horror ( inju/ice & murd] r5d]$ ! speci\s plead+s ( ,a!i/ic utilit>ianism p[]less4 ,& s on moral matt]s g5]ally4 ,z a rule1 ,a!i/s succe$1 9 c\rse ( "t1 9 vanqui%+ & de/roy+ _! moral z well z _! religi\s in/9cts1 & !n !y embrace ! mo/ revolt+ doctr9es1 & reconcile !mselves to ! mo/ appall+ de$s4 ,!y look on m>riage z irrational1 & reg>d mode/y & *a/ity z vices4 ,%ame is a weakness 9 _! eyes1 & natural affections are irrational prejudices4 ,scruples aga9/ ly+1 !ft & murd]1 :5 any great good is to be ga9$ by ^? practices1 are insanity4 ,gratitude1 ev5 to p>5ts1 is an absurdity4 ,free indulg5ce1 unlimit$ lic5se1 is a virtue4 ,! curse ( our race is religion4 ,! "o great social evil is a surplus population2 & ! prev5tion or de/ruction ( *ildr5 is ! sum ( social sci5ce & virtue4 ,! ext9ction ( ! weak] races1 & ! de/ruction ( ^? ( e race :o _c contribute _! %>e ( weal? & pleasure to ! common /ock1 is ! p]fection ( philosophy4 ,9 %ort1 all ! old-fa%ion$ pr9ciples ( virtue1 honor1 consci5ce1 g5]osity1 self-re/ra9t1 self-sacrifice1 & natural affection are explod$1 & 9 _! place !re comes a black & hide\s *aos ( all indec5cies & immoralities1 a b\ndless & bottomless abyss ( all imag9able & unspeakable horrors4 ,i %udd] :5 ,i ?9k h[ ne> ,i came to ?is hell ( a!i/ical philosophy4 ,my inability entirely to ext+ui% my bett] in/9cts & affections1 prev5t$ me f plung+ headlong into its frightful dep?s4 ,x 0 m ?an ,i c\ld d to c>ry out ! a!i/ical pr9ciples ( m]e !oretical reason+ to its la/ results4 ,i 01 ?ank ,god1 on "s po9ts1 always inconsi/5t1 & my inconsi/5cy 0 my salvation4 ,my he>t pres]v$ me 9 spite ( my head4 ,b if ,i c\ld n c>ry out my pr9ciple ( tru/+ to m]e reason+ to its full ext5t1 :y did ,i act on x at all8 ,:5 ,i f\nd t x l$ to utt] degradation & ru91 :y did ,i n r5\nce x1 & tru/ once m 9 my native in/9cts8 ,:5 ,i f\nd myself oblig$ to foll[ my he>t 9 s _m matt]s1 :y n foll[ x 9 all8 ,i answ]1 ,i _h n a suffici5t und]/&+ ( ! matt]4 ,i want$ m light4 ,b ! c\rse ( /udy on :i* ! rem>ks ( my de> good fri5d ,mr4 ,mawson l$ me to ent]1 l$ to cle>] & correct] views on ! subject4 ,x l$ to ! conviction t in/9ct & natural affection are div9e inspirations1--t ! beliefs & practices to :i* !y con/ra9 u are ! p]fection ( wisdom & goodness1--t to set !m aside is inevitable ru91--t :5ev] reason says "o ?+1 & our religi\s & moral affections & in/9cts say ano!r1 we ought to turn a deaf e> to reason1 & foll[ implicitly ! dictates ( our moral & religi\s faculties4 ,& to ?is conviction1 result+ 9 a great measure f ! rem>ks ( my fai?ful & devot$ fri5d1 ,i owe1 9 "p1 my pres5t unspeakable happ9ess z a believ] 9 ,*ri/4 #e4 ,i enc\nt]$ two ,*ri/ian m5 9 public discussion :o left a favorable impression on my m9d4 ,"o 0 ! ,rev4 ,&rew ,loose1 ( ,w9*e/]1 ,indiana4 ,! subject ( discussion betwe5 me & ,mr4 ,loose 0 ! div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible4 ,he w5t ?r\gh ! :ole debate1 :i* la/$ sev]al days1 )\t utt]+ "o un*>itable1 scornful1 or angry ^w1 ) ! exception ( a s+le phrase 9 8 la/ spee*2 & ev5 t he meekly & g5]\sly recall$1 aft] ,i _h satisfi$ him ( its impropriety4 ,i nev] =got ! conduct ( t de> good man1 & 8 ,*ri/ian meekness & =be>ance _h a good effect on my he>t4 #f4 ,! o!r g5tleman ^: conduct left ! mo/ favorable impression ( all on my m9d1 0 ,colonel ,%aw1 ( ,b\rtree ,p>k1 ,ayr1 ,scotl&1 ( ^: g5tlemanly behavior & great ,*ri/ian k9dness ,i h already spok54 #g4 ,!re 7 "s o!r p]sons :o1 )\t assail+ me ) argum5t1 did me consid]able good4 ,aft] lectur+ at ,burnley once1 a p]son rose to oppose me1 & a great di/urbance foll[$4 ,i 0 ?r[n f ! plat=m1 & fell backw>d on ! floor1 & a cr[d ( p]sons fell ^u me1 & ,i _h a n>r[ escape f dea? by viol5ce & suffocation4 ,i 0 rescu$ h[ev] alive4 ,9 ! tumult my ov]coat1 my hat1 & my wat* disappe>$1 & my body 0 some:at bruis$4 ,next day a g5tleman :o _h he>d ( ! way 9 :i* ,i _h be5 treat$1 came to my lodg+s to see me4 ,he seem$ v mu* di/ress$ on my acc\nt1 & anxi\s1 if possible1 to d some?+ :i* might m9i/] com=t to my m9d4 ,8 "n 0 ,philips4 ,he 0 a ,me?odi/1 & ! son ( a ,me?odi/ prea*]4 ,8 k9dness & sympa?y 7 s g5u9e & s e>ne/1 t !y made a deep impression on my m9d1 & !y naturally recur to my memory :5 ,i ?9k ( ! fri5ds ^: influ5ce help$ to reclaim me f ! mis]ies ( d\bt & unbelief4 #h4 ,ab\t ?irte5 ye>s ago ,i lectur$ at ,bacup4 ,! ,rev4 ,t4 ,lawson1 ,congregational m9i/] ( ,bacup1 att5d$ my lectures1 & came & spoke to me aft]w>ds1 & invit$ me to call & see him1 & d9e ) him4 ,i w5t1 & we _h a l5g!n$ conv]sation on matt]s p]ta9+ to religion & ! ,*ur*4 ,my ho/ exhibit$ a rem>kable am\nt ( ,*ri/ian *>ity & true lib]ality ( s5tim5t4 ,he _h be5 a read] ( m9e 9 8 e>li] days1 :5 ,i 0 an advocate ( ,evangelical re=m1 & he spoke ( himself z my debtor2 & he 0 desir\s1 if possible1 ( repay+ ! debt1 by smoo?+ ! way = my return to ,*ri/ianity4 ,mrs4 ,lawson sat & li/5$ to our conv]sation 9 sil5ce2 b :5 ,i rose to take my leave1 %e bade me good-bye ) mo/ unmi/akable evid5ces ( int]e/ 9 my welf>e1 & said1 z %e held me by ! h&1 ,i hope we %all meet y 9 heav54 ,i _h "o or two o!r int]views ) ,mr4 ,lawson at a some:at lat] p]iod1 & all are to be plac$ among ! means by :i* ,i 0 br\ght to my pres5t happy position4 #i4 ,"s n9ete5 ye>s ago ,i _h a public discussion ) ! ,rev4 ,*>les ,williams1 ,bapti/ m9i/]1 ( ,accr+ton4 ,x 0 a v unpleasant affair4 ,i 0 mu* exhau/$ at ! "t ) ov] mu* "w1 & ) long-cont9u$ & pa9ful excitem5t caus$ by a v unpleasant piece ( bus9ess :i* ,i _h 9 h&2 & ,i did :at ,i honorably c\ld to avoid ! discussion4 ,my fri5ds1 h[ev]1 w\ld h no nay1 & ,i reluctantly1 & 9 any?+ b an amiable temp]1 made my appe>ance at ! "t appo9t$ on ! plat=m4 ,h[ f> ! blame 0 *>geable on me1 or h[ f> x 0 *>geable on o!rs1 ,i d n "k2 b ! fir/ night's meet+ 0 a v disagreeable "o4 ,i ?\ght myself 9 ! "r at ! "t1 b ,i fancy my unhappy /ate ( m9d mu/ h r5d]$ me v provok+1 & at ! same "t bl9d$ me to ! real "* ( my proce$+s4 ,on ! foll[+ night ! discussion w5t on m smoo?ly1 & x end$ bett] ?an x began4 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to reg>d ,mr4 ,williams z an able & good man4 ,i met him occasionally aft] my sep>ation f ! ,secul>i/s1 & 8 behavi\r & _s deep5$ ! favorable impression ( 8 "* already made on my m9d4 ,:ile ,i 0 at ,burnley he deliv]$ a lecture 9 t t[n on ,bi%op ,col5so's "w on ! ,p5tateu*4 ,i 0 pres5t4 ,:5 he _h done1 he invit$ me 9 ! k9de/ way imag9able to speak4 ,i _h he>d next to no?+ 9 ! lecture to :i* ,i c\ld object1 b mu* t ,i c\ld he>tily approve & applaud4 ,to all t he _h said 9 praise ( ! ,bible ,i c\ld subscribe mo/ he>tily4 ,inde$ ,i felt t ! ,bible 0 wor?y ( m & high] praise ?an he _h be/[$ on x1 & ,i express$ myself to t effect4 ,! meet+ altoge!r 0 a v pleasant "o1 except to a numb] ( unbeliev]s1 :o 7 dreadfully vex$ at my rem>ks 9 comm5dation ( ! ,bible4 ,i saw ,mr4 ,williams repeat$ly aft]w>ds1 & 8 k9d & int]e/+ conv]sation1 & 8 v g5tlemanly & ,*ri/ian demeanor1 _h always a b5eficial effect on my m9d4 #aj4 ,"o ( ! fir/ to express a conviction t ,i %\ld become a ,*ri/ian 0 an ,am]ican lady1 :om ,i sometimes saw 9 ,london4 ,%e _h h]self be5 an unbeliev]1 b _h be5 cur$ ( h] skepticism by spiritualism4 ,%e 0 !n a ,ca?olic4 ,%e gave me a m$al ( ! ,virg9 ,m>y1 & entreat$ me to we> x r\nd my neck4 ,to please h] ,i promis$ to d s4 ,b ! m$al disappe>$ be=e long1 & :at became ( x ,i nev] c\ld tell2 b my fri5d _h ! satisfaction to see h] prophecy fulfill$ 9 my happy return to ,*ri/ianity4 #aa4 ,an acqua9tance :i* ,i =m$ ) ! ,rev4 ,w4 ,newton1 ( ,newca/le-on-,tyne1 mu/ also be reckon$ among ! ?+s :i* ex]t$ an influ5ce on my m9d favorable to ,*ri/ianity4 ,mr4 ,newton _h be5 a ,bapti/ 9 8 e>li] days1 b gett+ into p]plexity ) reg>d to c]ta9 doctr9es1 he became a ,unit>ian4 ,he came to feel h[ev]1 9 c\rse ( "t1 t some?+ m ?an ,unit>ianism 0 necess>y to ! satisfaction ( 8 s\l1 & to ! salvation ( ! _w2 & at ! "t t ,i became acqua9t$ ) him1 he _h made up 8 m9d to leave ! ,unit>ians4 ,on my way to ! f>-(f regions ( unbelief1 ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh ! ,unit>ian t]ritory2 & ,i pass$ ?r\gh ! same t]ritory1 or ne> to its bord]1 on my return to ,*ri/ianity2 & _h x n be5 = my int]views ) ,mr4 ,newton1 & a some:at />tl+ ev5t or two t occurr$ ab\t t p]iod1 ,i might h l+]$ = a "t 9 t cold & hungry l&4 ,mr4 ,newton help$ to quick5 my /eps1 & ,i mov$ onw>d1 & re/$ n1 till ,i f\nd my way back to ! p>adise1 or a g>d5 t v mu* resembl$ ! p>adise1 ( my e>li] days4 #ab4 ,mr4 ,j4 ,potts1 l ,mr4 ,j4 ,mawson1 )\t foll[+ me into ! extremes ( d\bt1 reta9$ 8 fri5d%ip = me ?r\gh all my w&]+s1 & nev] neglect$ any opportunity he _h ( %[+ me k9dness4 ,& o!rs1 :om ,i _c take ! lib]ty to "n1 ev9c$ ! same unfail+ con/ancy ( e/eem & love4 ,& ! unbrok5 connexion t rema9$ betwe5 my endur+ fri5ds & _! amiable families & myself1 add$ to ! attractions ,*ri/-w>d1 & made x easi] = my s\l to return at la/ to its home ( peace & re/4 #ac4 ,betwe5 ?irte5 & f\rte5 ye>s ago1 :ile liv+ 9 ,london1 ,i became acqua9t$ ) ,mr4 ,w4 ,:ite4 ,he _h be5 re>$ a ,quak]1 b1 l mo/ h>d ?9k]s1 _h _h exp]i5ce ( d\bt1 & 01 9 consequ5ce1 aft] 8 fai? 0 re-e/abli%$1 able to /r5g!n 8 d\bt+ bre?r54 ,he contribut$ to my conv]sion1 fir/ by 8 enlight5$ conv]sation1 & !n by a long1 k9d1 ,*ri/ian lett] on ! ,bible1 by :i* he help$ me ov] a numb] ( difficulties :i* /ood 9 ! way ( my fai?4 #ad4 ,b p]haps none ( ! p>ties ,i h nam$1 _h a m p[]ful & b5eficial effect on my m9d ?an "o :om ,i h n yet m5tion$4 ,if ,i _h be5 ask$ ?irte5 ye>s ago1 :e!r ,i suppos$ !re 0 any m9i/] 9 ! ,me?odi/ ,new ,connexion :o reg>d$ me ) affectionate solicitude1 & :o 0 wi%ful = an opportunity to speak to me words ( love & t5d]ness1 ,i %\ld h answ]$1 ,no4 ,if any "o _h told me t !re really 0 "o ( my old associates1 ) :om ,i _h =m]ly _h w>m controv]sy1 n only on matt]s !ological1 b on matt]s p]sonal1 :o _h be5 wat*+ my c>e] = ye>s1 ) ! deepe/ int]e/1 & :o = mon?s & ye>s _h be5 e>ne/ly pray+ = me e day1 he w\ld h seem$ to me z "o amus+ himself ) fables4 ,yet su* 0 really ! case4 ,) no "o _h ,i come 9 clos] contact p]haps1 or 9 m frequ5t & viol5t collision1 ?an ) ! ,rev4 ,w4 ,cooke1 n[ ,dr4 ,cooke4 ,he _h tak5 ! lead 9 ! proce$+s aga9/ me 9 ! ,a%ton ,conf]5ce1 on acc\nt ( my article on ,tol]ation1 ,human ,cre$s1 c41 proce$+s :i* _h a mo/ unhappy effect on my m9d1 & :i* l$1 at l5g?1 to my sep>ation f ! ,*ur*1 & to my ali5ation f ,*ri/4 ,he _h tak5 an active "p 9 ! viol5t controv]sies :i* foll[$ my expulsion f ! m9i/ry4 ,we _h1 at a lat] p]iod1 sp5t t5 nights 9 public discussion on ! lead+ doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,he _h1 9 ! p]=mance ( :at he consid]$ 8 duty ,i suppose 9 my case1 said ?+s :i* _h tri$ me t]ribly2 & ,i1 ) ideas ( duty diff]+ f 81 _h made him v lib]al returns1 9 a way n calculat$ to leave ! mo/ favorable or com=table impressions on 8 m9d t[>ds me4 ,i _h nev] se5 him s9ce our long discussion b once1 & !n he seem$1 to my fancy1 to be /ruggl+ ) an inw>d tempe/ ( v unhappy feel+ t[>ds me1 :i* he 0 h>dly able to keep f explod+4 ,i aft]w>ds f\nd ?\gh1 t ,i _h n int]pret$ 8 looks on ?is occasion correctly4 ,at ! "t :5 ,i took my leave ( ! ,secul>i/s1 my unpleasant feel+s t[>ds my old oppon5t _h ab\t subsid$2 b ,i _h no idea t 8 unpleasant feel+s t[>ds me _h pass$ away4 ,yet su* 0 ! case4 ,he _h be5 read+ my p]iodical = "s "t1 & _h be5 pleas$ to f9d t bo? on religion & politics1 ,i 0 return+1 ?\gh sl[ly1 to ! views ( my happi] days4 ,"s "t 9 ,augu/1 #ahfb1 he call$ at my (fice 9 ,london1 ) a p>cel ( books "u 8 arm4 ,he _h be5 pray+ = me daily = twelve mon?s1 :5 some?+ seem$ to say to him1 ,y %\ld d some?+ m ?an pray4 ,& n[ he _h come to try :at he c\ld d by a p]sonal int]view to aid ! w&]]'s return to ,*ri/4 ,i 0 f home at ! "t1 b my elde/ son 0 9 ! (fice1 & he & ! ,doctor 7 at once engag$ 9 fri5dly conv]sation4 ,h[ l y are to :at y\r fa!r 0 f\r & ?irty ye>s ago1 :5 ,i fir/ knew him1 said ! ,doctor4 ,y\r fa!r & ,i 7 great fri5ds4 ,x 0 y\r fa!r t fir/ direct$ me to ! /udy ( ,lat9 & ,greek1 :i* h be5 ( great s]vice to me2 & ,i feel indebt$ to him on t acc\nt4 ,we 7 aft]w>ds sep>at$4 ,b ,i h obs]v$1 z ,i ?9k1 symptoms t y\r fa!r is return+ t[>ds 8 =m] views4 ,& _m o!r k9d rem>ks he made4 ,at l5g? he said1 ,d y ?9k y\r fa!r w\ld accept a copy ( my works8 ,my son1 :o knew ! /ate ( 8 fa!r's m9d1 answ]$2 ,i am sure he w\ld1 ) great pleasure4 ,! ,doctor left copies ( 8 works1 k9dly inscrib$ to me ) 8 own h&2 & ) ! books1 he left = me a k9d & ,*ri/ian lett]4 ,my son lo/ no "t 9 =w>d+ me ! lett]1 toge!r ) an acc\nt ( ! pleasant & unlook$-= int]view :i* he _h _h ) ! writ]4 ,i receiv$ ! lett]1 & ! int]e/+ /ory ) :i* x 0 accompani$1 ) ! greate/ a/oni%m5t & pleasure4 ,i wrote to ! ,doctor1 reciprocat+ 8 expressions ( k9dness1 & mak+ ! be/ returns ,i c\ld = ! valuable pres5t ( 8 works4 ,! result 0 a correspond5ce1 :i* has cont9u$ to ! pres5t "t4 ,! correspond5ce l$ to int]views1 9 :i* ! ,doctor exhibit$1 9 a v /rik+ mann]1 ! graces & virtues t adorn ! ,*ri/ian "*4 ,we talk$1 we read1 we sang1 we pray$ toge!r1 & gave ,god ?anks1 ) te>s ( gratitude1 = all ! bless+s ( ,8 b\ndless love4 ,! effect ( ?is k9dness on ! "p ( ,dr4 ,cooke 01 n only to free my m9d f any rema9s ( hurtful feel+s t[>ds him1 b to dispose me1 & enable me1 to review ! claims ( ,*ri/ianity & ! ,bible 9 a _s ( great] fairness & c&or1 & s to make x possible = me to become1 :at ,i _h long believ$ ,i nev] c\ld become1 a he>ty believ] 9 ! religion ( ,*ri/4 ,,*apt] ,,xix4 ,,"s ,,( ,,! ,,/eps ,,by ,,:i* ,i ,,came ,,to ,,fai? ,,9 ,,*ri/4 ,i am n c]ta9 t ,i c /ate ! exact process by :i* ,i pass$ f d\bt & unbelief to fai? 9 ,*ri/1 b ! foll[+1 ,i believe1 is v ne> ! tru?4 #a4 ,!re 01 fir/1 a s5se ( ! *e]lessness ( unbelief--! sadness & ! sorr[ result+ f ! loss ( tru/ 9 ,god & hope ( immortality1 & f ! wret*$ prospect ( a return to utt] no?+ness4 #b4 ,!n came ! di/ress+ feel+ ( inability to com=t my afflict$ or dy+ fri5ds--my utt] helplessness 9 ! pres5ce ( sorr[1 grief & agony4 #c4 ,& !n ,i f\nd myself unable to acc\nt = ! wond]ful m>ks ( design appe>+ 9 nature1 & especially 9 my own body1 )\t ! ackn[l$gm5t ( an intellig5t ,deity4 ,! wond]ful p]fection & beauty ( a fl[] or a fea!r w\ld conf\nd me2 :ile my/]i\s adaptations 9 my own frame w\ld fill me ) amazem5t4 ,d>w9's !ory ( developm5t reliev$ me = a "t2 b ,i soon came to see t "s ( 8 explanations ( natural ph5om5a 7 errone\s1 & t none ( 8 facts prov$ ! tru? ( 8 !ory4 ,/ill lat] ,i f\nd t ,d>w9 himself ackn[l$g$ t ! evid5ces ( design 9 ! me?ods by :i* c]ta9 species ( plants 7 f]tiliz$1 7 n only ov]p[]+1 b />tl+4 #d4 ,!n came dissatisfaction ) ! !ories by :i* unbeliev]s s\ght to acc\nt = ! exi/5ce & ord] ( ! univ]se4 ,!y suppos$ ! univ]se to be et]nal1 & attribut$ ! production ( plants1 & animals1 & man to ! bl9d unconsci\s work+ ( lifeless matt]4 ,!y attribut$ to dead matt] ! p[]s :i* believ]s attribut$ to a liv+ ,god4 ,!y 7 oblig$ to believe t s5seless atoms c\ld produce works transc5d+ ! p[]s ( ! mightie/ m9ds on e>?4 ,to reconcile _! belief 9 ! et]nity ( ! univ]se1 & 9 ! un*ang+ prop]ties ( matt]1 ) ! ph5om5a ( *ange & progress1 !y suppos$ an inf9ite succession ( worlds1 or ( beg9n+s & end+s ( ! same _w1 & imag9$ ! e>? runn+ exactly ! same c\rse1 & hav+ exactly ! same hi/ory1 e "t x came into exi/5ce4 ,h5ce x became ) !m an article ( fai?1 t we _h ourselves liv$ an inf9ite numb] ( times1 & %\ld live an inf9ite numb] ( times m 9 ! future1 repeat+ always exactly ! same life1 ) exactly ! same results4 ,x 0 also an article ( fai? t we 7 m]e ma*9es1 gov]n$ by p[]s ov] :i* we _h no control2 t our ideas ( lib]ty1 & our feel+s ( responsibility1 or ( good & ill des]t1 7 all delusions2 t all ! errors1 & crimes1 & mis]ies ( our race 7 inevitable1 & 7 to be et]nally repeat$2 & t a *ange = ! bett] 0 et]nally impossible4 ,b "t w\ld fail me to m5tion all _! !ories4 ,x is en\gh to say t ! wild & unsatisfactory nature ( ^! dreams help$ to drive me back to ,*ri/ianity4 #e4 ,!re 01 ( c\rse1 no t5d5cy 9 unbelief to promote virtue1 or to *eck vice4 ,its natural t5d5cy 0 to utt] depravity4 ,& ,*ri/ianity reta9$ su* an influ5ce ov] me1 ev5 to ! la/1 t ,i c\ld nev] reconcile myself to a vici\s life4 #f4 ,!n came ano!r tr\ble4 ,infidelity c\ld give no gu>antee t wrong %\ld n f9ally triumph1 & "r be f9ally cru%$4 ,x is belief 9 ,god alone t c give assurance t virtue %all be ultimately rew>d$1 & vice ultimately puni%$4 ,! ,*ri/ian c believe pa/ d\bt1 t ,:atsoev] a man s[e?1 t %all he also reap2 t ) :at judgm5t we judge1 we %all be judg$2 & ) :at measure we mete1 x %all be measur$ to u aga94 ,b ! infidel has no f\ndation = su* a fai?4 ,= any?+ he kn[s1 a man may s[ villany1 & reap honor & bless$ness4 ,he may live by inju/ice & cruelty1 & meet ) no puni%m5t1 ei!r "h or h]eaft]2 :ile ano!r may sp5d 8 days 9 do+ good1 & give 8 life = ! salvation ( 8 fell[s1 & receive only torture1 reproa*1 & dea?4 ,nor is !re any security = ! triumph ( tru? on ! infidel pr9ciple4 ,= any?+ infidelity kn[s1 tru? may be always 9 ! mire1 & its fri5ds be =ev] reproa*$ & %unn$2 :ile error may always be 9 ! asc5dant1 & its propagators honor$ & rew>d$4 ,inde$ ?is is ! case at pres5t1 if infidelity be true4 ,= infidelity is 9 ! du/1 :ile fai? 9 ,god & ,*ri/ is 9 high repute4 ,& infidels are suspect$ & dread$1 :ile consi/5t believ]s are lov$ & tru/$4 ,fai? smoo!s man's way ?r\gh life1 & 9 "s cases raises him to honor & p[]2 :ile ,a!ism makes a man's pa?way rugg$1 & prev5ts 8 elevation4 ,?is /ate ( ?+s is exce$+ly unsatisfactory to unbeliev]s4 ,!y ought1 if !y are ! wise/ ( m51 z !y suppose1 to be ev]y:]e receiv$ ) honor4 ,!y ought to be plac$ 9 p[]4 ,! _w %\ld r+ ) _! praise4 ,! univ]se %\ld enri* !m ) its treasures4 ,! names ( _! pr$ecessors 9 unbelief %\ld be _h 9 ! greate/ honor4 ,!y %\ld /& fir/ on ! roll ( fame4 ,_! monum5ts %\ld fill ! e>?4 ,! sweete/ poets %\ld s+ _! praises2 ! mo/ eloqu5t orators %\ld proclaim _! greatness2 & ! nations %\ld delight to celebrate _! wor?4 ,_! pictures & /atues %\ld grace our c\rts1 our temples1 & our palaces4 ,_! de$s %\ld =m ! /aple ( our pleasant hi/ories1 & _! writ+s cr[d ! %elves ( our libr>ies4 ,*ildr5 %\ld be taught to lisp _! names ) rev]5ce1 & ! ag$ %\ld bless !m ) _! p>t+ brea?4 ,on ! o!r h&1 if religion be false & fooli%1 if x be unnatural & mis*iev\s1 its fri5ds %\ld be piti$ or despis$1 if n rebuk$ & puni%$4 ,its f\nd]s & propagators %\ld be br&$ z ! weake/ or ! base/ ( m54 ,_! names %\ld be _h 9 contempt or abhorr5ce4 ,_! writ+s %\ld be ev]y:]e decri$4 ,_! pictures & /atues %\ld fill "s *amb] ( horrors4 ,hi/orians1 poets1 & orators %\ld hold !m up to reprobation4 ,*ri/ians %\ld be kept f places ( tru/1 & f po/s ( honor4 ,!y %\ld be wret*$1 & poor1 & mis]able1 & ! he>ts ( m51 & ! p[]s ( nature1 %\ld comb9e = _! de/ruction1 & = ! utt] ext9ction ( _! cause4 ,yet ! /ate ( ?+s is j ! contr>y4 ,*ri/ianity triumphs1 & ,*ri/ians are honor$2 :ile infidelity langui%es1 & its disciples are cov]$ ) %ame4 ,on ! ,a!i/'s !ory ! human race has exi/$ = millions ( ye>s1 yet x has nev] produc$ m ?an a few individuals :o h ackn[l$g$ ! pr9ciple ( 8 cre$4 ,! mass ( m51 9 all ages1 h be5 believ]s 9 ,god4 ,! civiliz$ z well z ! savage1 ! le>n$ z well z ! ignorant1 ! high z well z ! l[1 alike h ador$ a ,deity4 ,ev5 ! greate/ ( our race h be5 believ]s4 ,! sweete/ poets1 ! pr(\nde/ philosoph]s1 ! greate/ /atesm51 ! wise/ legislators1 ! mo/ v5]able judges1 ! mo/ devot$ philan?ropi/s1 h all believ$ 9 ,god4 ,two or ?ree tribes h be5 f\nd1 x is said1 )\t an idea ( ,god2 b !y 7 savages ( ! l[e/ grade2 & x is n yet settl$ :e!r ! acc\nts t h be5 giv5 ( ^? wret*$ creatures be correct or n4 ,& ,a!ism has always be5 reg>d$ ) horror4 ,x is s /ill4 ,x is believ$ to be ! nurse ( vice & crime4 ,a!i/s are ev]y:]e look$ ^u ) suspicion & dread4 ,! prevail+ impression is t !y are bad & dang]\s m51--t no reliance is to be plac$ on _! ^w1--t !y are naturally lic5ti\s1 di%one/1 deceitful1 cruel1--t !y are prep>$ = any enormity1--t !y are enemies to dome/ic purity & civil ord]1 & t no "o is safe 9 _! p[]4 ,if ev] !y 7 reg>d$ by mank9d ) favor1 ! "t is =gott54 ,!re is n a nation on e>? 9 :i* !y are popul> n[4 ,!y are ev]y:]e br&$ z infam\s4 ,if ,a!i/s h always be5 s bad z to des]ve ?is fate1 _! pr9ciples mu/ be bad4 ,if !y h des]v$ a bett] fate1--if !y h be5 pure1 & j1 & true1--if !y h be5 rem>kable = g5]osity1 patriotism1 & philan?ropy1--if !y h di/+ui%$ !mselves z ! fri5ds ( virtue1 & ! b5efactors ( mank9d1 h[ sad to ?9k t !y h nev] receiv$ _! due at ! h&s ( m54 ,! long] ! ,a!i/s look on _! condition1 ! less satisfactory x appe>s4 ,!y h no gr& hi/ory1 no glori\s names1 to reflect honor on _! cause4 ,!y h no noble army ( m>tyrs4 ,!y h no great monum5ts4 ,& !y c h no assurance ( any?+ bett] 9 days to come4 ,! probability is t _! memory w rot1 & t _! pr9ciples w be an (f5ce & loa?+ to mank9d ?r\gh all succe$+ g5]ations4 ,b look on ! o!r side8 ,! highe/ "n on e>? is a religi\s "n2 ! "n ( ,jesus4 ,! names :i* /& next 9 honor are ^? ( ,8 ,apo/les & foll[]s4 ,! mightie/ nations on e>? are ,*ri/ian nations4 ,*ri/ians rule ! _w4 ,*ri/ian m9i/]s are honor$ & rev]$4 ,*ri/ian *ur*es rise to weal? & p[]4 ,! ,*ur* controls ! /ate4 ,x controls x mo/ :5 x is lea/ ambiti\s1 & mo/ consi/5t4 ,! ,*ur* has a glori\s hi/ory4 ,x has ! gr&e/ array ( honorable names4 ,x has ! noble/ army ( m>tyrs4 ,x has ! ri*e/ lit]ature4 ,its sacr$ books are read 9 all ! lead+ languages ( ! e>?4 ,! great g5iuses are h]'s4 ,! ri*e/ poetry1 ! gr&e/ eloqu5ce1 ! div9e/ philosophy1 ! noble/ c\rage1 ! ri*e/ g5]osity1 ! mo/ devot$ philan?ropy1 are all h]'s4 ,%e has ! cr$it ( be+ ! p>5t & ! nurse ( our highe/ civilization4 ,%e is ! great educator4 ,%e builds our s*ools4 ,%e rules our colleges4 ,%e controls ! press4 ,%e plants new nations4 ,%e spreads h]self & ex]ts h] influ5ce 9 e l&4 ,y _c de/roy ! ,*ur*4 ,x is immortal4 ,y _c limit its p[]4 ,x is irresi/ibly expansive & inv9cible4 ,if at any "t x suff]s loss1 x is ?r\gh its own unfai?fulness2 & a return to duty is a return to dom9ion4 ,ev5 9 c\ntries n ,*ri/ian ! religi\s elem5t is supreme1 & ! religi\s m5 alone are honor$4 ,! greate/ names 9 ! hi/ory ( ,india & ,*9a1 ( ,p]sia & ,turkey1 are ! names ( _! prophets & religi\s lead]s4 ,:at foll[s f all ?is8 ,t if infidelity be true & good1 & religion false & mis*iev\s1 ! _w & ! human race are :olly wrong4 ,! be/ & wise/ m5 are ev]y:]e despis$1 & ! weake/ & wick$e/ are ev]y:]e honor$4 ,! orig9ators ( ! greate/ delusions are deifi$2 & ! reveal]s ( ! greate/ tru?s are reg>d$ z mon/]s4 ,tru? no long] c be said to be mighty1 & error c no long] be said to be weak4 ,! "r is no long] sure ( triumph1 nor ! wrong ( ov]?r[4 ,m5 love d>kness & hate ! light2 & x is n ! few t d s1 b ! _m4 ,& !re seems no hope ( a *ange = ! bett]4 ,e>? is no place = ! great1 ! good1 ! wise2 b = ! ignorant1 ! delud$1 & ! base alone4 ,x is ! p>adise ( fools1 & ! purgatory ( philosoph]s4 ,b ,i ask$1 ,is infidelity true & good1 & religion false & mis*iev\s8 ,am ,i n labor+ "u "s mon/] delusion8 ,h ,i n be5 impos$ ^u by a vici\s logic8 ,are n mank9d "r 9 hat+ & dread+ infidelity1 & 9 lov+ & honor+ religion8 ,!re is a trem5d\s mi/ake some:]e4 ,ei!r infidelity is wrong1 or mank9d & ! univ]se are fe>fully p]v]se4 #g4 ,& n[ ,i began a reconsid]ation ( ! claims ( religion & infidelity4 ,z ,i h said1 ,i re-read ! ,bible4 ,i review$ ,*ur* hi/ory4 ,i exam9$ ! "* & work+s ( religi\s communities4 ,& ,i f\nd ! ,bible a bett] & a wis] book ?an ,i _h ev] imag9$4 ,& ,i f\nd ,*ri/ianity1 z pres5t$ 9 ! tea*+s & life ( ,jesus1 ! faire/ & lovelie/1 ! mo/ glori\s & b5efic5t ( all sy/ems4 ,i f\nd ,jesus ,himself to be ! mo/ beautiful & exalt$ ( all *>act]s4 ,i saw 9 ,paul a dignity & a glory second only to ^? ( ,*ri/4 ,i f\nd 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t ! p]fection ( wisdom & b5efic5ce4 ,i f\nd 9 ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* a record ( ! gr&e/ movem5t1 & ( ! mo/ glori\s & b5efic5t re=mation1 ! _w _h ev] witness$4 ,i f\nd 9 ! *ur*es ! mightie/ ag5cies & ! mo/ manifold op]ations = ! salvation ( mank9d4 ,*ri/ianity1 said ,i1 :e!r sup]natural or n1 is a wondr\s p[]4 ,x is good1 if x is n true4 ,x is glori\s4 ,x des]ves to be ,div9e1 :e!r x be s or n4 ,:at a _w we %\ld h1--:at a heav5 on e>?--if m5 c\ld be br\ght to believe its tea*+s1 to imbibe its _s1 & to obey its precepts4 ,:at a heav5 ( bliss x w\ld be to "o's s\l if "o c\ld see x & feel x to be really true4 ,x _h conqu]$ my he>t4 ,x _h won my love4 ,& ,i w\ld gladly h di$1 or w\ld gladly h liv$ ?r\gh ages ( h>d%ip & toil1 to be satisfi$ ( its div9ity4 ,h[ glad ,i 0 :5 ,i f\nd m5 he>tily believ+ x4 ,h[ sad :5 ,i f\nd !m d\bt+1 l myself4 ,h[ delight$ ,i 0 :5 ,i f\nd my objections to its tru? sl[ly fad+ away1 & saw facts 9 its favor com+ gradually into view4 ,b d\bt _h become a p[]ful tyrant1 & ,i _h become a slave2 & ?\gh ,i wi%$ ,i c\ld be a ,*ri/ian1 ,i c\ld indulge no hope ( ev] exp]i5c+ s great a happ9ess4 ,b ,i w\ld d ,*ri/ianity ju/ice1 to ! be/ ( my ability4 ,i w\ld exhibit its excell5cies4 ,i w\ld def5d x aga9/ false accusations4 ,i w\ld prea* x s f> z ,i hone/ly c\ld4 ,i w\ld practise its precepts s f> z ,i 0 able4 ,i w\ld *]i% its _s4 ,if x is n f ,god1 said ,i1 x is ! be/ production ( ! m9d ( man4 ,if ,i _c hold x =? z a div9e revelation1 ,i c extol x z ! p]fection ( human wisdom4 ,& "s ( its tea*+s are evid5tly true1 & o!rs are easily prov$ to be s4 ,x is true ?r\gh\t1 s f> z ,i c te/ x2 & x may be true--p]haps ,i %all "s day f9d x to be true--on po9ts on :i* ,i am unable to te/ x at pres5t4 ,i w wait1 & labor mean:ile to promote its b5efic5t influ5ce6 ,i look$ on ! o!r side4 ,i read ! ,secul>i/s' ,bible3 ,i review$ ! hi/ory ( unbelief2 ,i exam9$ ! "* & work+ ( infidel communities4 ,& :at 0 ! result6 ,! ,secul>i/s' ,bible ,i f\nd to be a huge & revolt+ mass ( fil? & loa?som5ess2 ! mo/ %ameless attack on virtue & happ9ess t ev] came "u my view4 ,i rememb]$ t ,c>lisle & ,rob]t ,ow5 _h publi%$ books ( ! same immoral & dehumaniz+ t5d5cy4 ,! hi/ory ( infidelity ,i f\nd to be a hi/ory ( lic5ti\sness1 & ( e abom9ation4 ,! infidel communities ,i f\nd to be hot-b$s ( depravity4 ,! lead]s ( ! p>ty 7 tea*]s & examples ( deceit1 ( di%one/y1 ( intemp]ance1 ( gambl+1 & ( unb\nd$ lic5ti\sness4 ,!y _h no virtue2 !y _h no consci5ce2 & x 0 only :5 !y 7 9 ! pres5ce ( m5 ( o!r views1 t !y _h any %ame1 or mode/y1 or reg>d = dec5cy4 ,& !y 7 fe>fully intol]ant & malignant t[>ds ^? :o cross$ !m1 or ?w>t$ !m1 9 _! projects4 ,!y 7 no great work]s1 b !y w\ld ex]t !mselves to ! utmo/ to annoy or vilify ! objects ( _! displeasure4 ,! facts t came to my k ) reg>d to ! morals ( ! ,secul>i/s contribut$ to my deliv]ance f ! ?raldom ( unbelief4 ,! honor aw>d$ to ,*ri/1 & ! infamy atta*$ to infidelity1 are no mi/akes4 ,jesus has nev] be5 exalt$ beyond ,8 m]its1 & infidelity has nev] be5 hat$ or dread$ beyond its des]ts4 ,*ri/ianity is ! sum & p]fection ( all t is good1 & true1 & glori\s2 & a!ism is ! sum & aggravation ( all t is vile1 & mis*iev\s1 & mis]able4 ,x w\ld be sad = ! _w if m5 %\ld lose _! in/9ctive dread ( infidelity1 & beg9 to speak ( x z an error ( little mom5t4 ,x is a mon/] conglom]ation ( all evil1 & x has no r$eem+ quality4 #h4 ,among ! lectures :i* ,i deliv]$ 9 my transition /ate 0 "o 9 answ] to ! "q2 ,:at d y (f] z a sub/itute = ! ,bible8 ,c y give u any?+ bett]8 ,i said t ,i _h no desire to d away ) ! ,bible2 t ,i wi%$ !m to read x1 /udy x1 & r$uce ! bett] "p ( its precepts to practice4 ,i said3 ,) ^? :o w\ld de/roy ! ,bible1 or prev5t its circulation1 ,i h no sympa?y & no connexion4 ,! ,bible is a book ( great int]e/ & value2 to say ! lea/1 x pres5ts u ) ! ?\ghts ( ! be/ & wise/ ( m51 on subjects ( ! greate/ int]e/ & importance2 x gives u ! be/ picture ( ! life & mann]s ( ! nations & in/itutions ( ! anci5t _w2 x is a wond]ful revelation ( human nature2 x tells ! mo/ int]e/+ /ories2 x conta9s ! gr&e/ & mo/ beautiful poetry1 ! wise/ prov]bs1 ! mo/ fai?ful d5unciations ( vice & crime1 ! mo/ e>ne/ exhortations to duty1 ! be/ examples ( virtue1 ! mo/ in/ructive & t\*+ n>ratives ( p ( di/+ui%$ wor?1 ! mo/ rational & practical def9itions ( religion1 ! wor?ie/ repres5tations ( ,god & ! univ]se1 ! greate/ enc\ragem5t to fidelity "u reproa* & p]secution1 ! ri*e/ consolations "u afflictions & trials1 & ! mo/ *e]+ exhibitions ( future bless$ness4 ,we "k ( no?+ good 9 any sy/em :i* is n favor$ by "s portion ( ! ,bible4 ,we "k ( no?+ evil :i* is n condemn$ by o!r portions4 ,all t is be/ & noble/ & gr&e/ 9 man's nature is !re embodi$4 ,we "k ( no good or g5]\s feel+ :i* is n !re express$4 ,we _c imag9e x possible = a book to be m e>ne/ 9 its exhortations to ! p]=mance ( duty1 or to ! culture ( virtue4 ,!re is no book on e>? t we %\ld be m reluctant to "p ) ?an ! ,bible4 ,its de/ruction w\ld be a fe>ful loss to mank9d4 ,x is a m9e conta9+ treasures ( inf9ite value4 ,! wise/ may le>n m wisdom f its tea*+s1 & ! be/ be rais$ to high] virtue by its influ5ce4 ,x has done mu* good2 x is do+ good /ill2 x is calculat$ to d /ill great] good 9 days to come4 ,old z x is1 x is a wis] book ?an ! books ( religion t are writt5 9 ! pres5t day4 ,x is wis] ?an ! prea*]s2 wis] ?an ! great div9es4 ,x is inf9itely sup]ior to ! ,bibles t h be5 made 9 lat] times1 su* z ! ,bible ( ! ,%ak]s1 ! ,bible ( ,reason1 & ! ,book ( ,mormon4 ,x is sup]ior to ! ,koran1 ?\gh ! au?ors ( ! ,koran1 l lat] mak]s ( ,bibles1 _h ! old] ,bible to help !m4 ,! ,koran is ! be/ ( mod]n ,bibles1 because x borr[s mo/ freely f ! ,old & ,new ,te/am5ts4 ,! ,bible is va/ly bett] z a moral book1 & z a p]suasive & help to duty1 ?an ! writ+s ( ! be/ ( ! anci5t ,greeks & ,romans4 ,! ,bible is consi/5t ) itself z a moral tea*]1 ?\gh ! precepts ( ,judaism are inf]ior to ^? ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,! ,bible treats man z a subject ( law1 z b\nd to obey ,god & d "r1 f fir/ to la/2 & ?\gh x beg9s ) few] & less p]fect precepts1 suit$ to l[] /ates ( society1 x goes /eadily on to p]fection1 till x gives u ! highe/ law1 & ! mo/ p]fect example1 9 ! tea*+s & life ( ,*ri/4 ,read y\r ,bibles2 commit ! bett] portions ( ! ,book to y\r memory2 ?9k ( !m1 practise !m4 ,don't be a%am$ to d s4 ,! greate/ philosoph]s1 n except+ su* m5 z ,newton1 ,locke1 & ,boyle2 ! mo/ celebrat$ mon>*s1 f ,alfr$ to ,victoria2 ! mo/ v5]able judges1 ) ,sir ,mat!w ,hale z _! repres5tative2 ! sweete/ poets1 f ,*auc]1 ,sp5s]1 ,%akespe>e1 & ,milton1 d[n to ,dryd51 ,"y1 & ,c[p]2 & ! mo/ devot$ philan?ropi/s1 f ,p5n1 & ,h[>d1 & ,wesley1 to ,elizabe? ,fry & ,flor5ce ,night+ale1 h be5 lov]s & /ud5ts ( ! ,bible4 ,! m5 t hate ! ,bible & wi% = its de/ruction1 are ! base & bad4 ,! m5 :o love x & labor = its _w-wide circulation1 are ! good & ! useful4 ,y _c h a bett] companion ?an ! ,bible1 if y w use x judici\sly4 ,!re is no dang] t y %\ld rate x too high4 ,if y %\ld reg>d x z sup]naturally inspir$1 x w d y no h>m4 ,su* ideas may make y read x m c>efully1 & pay m respect to its tea*+s1 & t w be a bless+4 ,m5 are 9 no dang] ( priz+ good books too highly4 ,z a rule1 !y e/eem !m f> too lightly4 ,a great good book is "o ( ! ri*e/ treasures on e>?4 ,!re is /ill less dang] t y %\ld ?9k too mu* ( ! ,bible4 ,! man does n live t has err$ 9 t direction4 ,! be/ fri5ds ! ,bible has1 ! mo/ /r5u\s advocates ( its div9ity1 d n e/imate ! ,book above its wor?4 ,!y d n value x accord+ to its wor?4 ,x is ri*] 9 its cont5ts1 x is bett] & mighti] 9 its influ5ces1 ?an its dev\te/ fri5ds are aw>e4 ,!re are m5 :o prate ab\t ,bibliolatry1 & labor to l[] m5's e/imate ( ! ,bible4 ,!y may sp>e _! brea?4 ,! p :o idolize ! ,bible too mu* are creatures ( _! own imag9ation only1 & n liv+ m5 & wom54 ,p may love ! ,bible unwisely1 b n too well4 ,to place x too high z a means ( in/ruct+1 reg5]at+ & bless+ mank9d1 is n 9 man's p[]4 ,i e/eem x myself m highly ?an ,i ev] did4 ,my rambl+s 9 ! regions ( d\bt & unbelief2 my l>g] acqua9tance ) ! works ( infidel philosoph]s1 a!i/ical re=m]s1 fanatical dream]s1 re-organiz]s ( society1 mak]s ( new moral worlds1 skeptical hi/orians ( civilization1 ,essays & ,reviews1 ,elem5ts ( ,social ,sci5ce1 ,phases ( ,fai?1 & ,phases ( no ,fai?1 & a _w ( o!r books2 my enl>g$ acqua9tance ) m51 my s5se ( spiritual want & wret*$ness :5 %ut out f religi\s consolations1 h l$ me to value ! ,bible1 skeptical z ,i yet am1 z ,i nev] valu$ x be=e4 ,i 0 born 9 a t[n on a hill1 f :i* ,i _h delightful views ( a ri* & beautiful valley4 ,i look$ on ^? beautiful prospects spread out be=e me1 ) _! *>m+ v>iety ( sc5]y1 f my e>lie/ days1 to ! "t ,i left my native l&1 b ,i h no recollection t ,i ev] exp]i5c$ 9 ^? e>ly times any l>ge am\nt ( pleasure f ! sight4 ,9 c\rse ( "t ,i left ! place ( my bir? & ! home ( my *ildhood1 & visit$ o!r l&s4 ,i saw riv]s & lakes1 & m\nta9s & pla9s1 & =e/s & prairies 9 great abundance1 & 9 almo/ endless v>iety4 ,& ,i comp>$ !m "o ) ano!r1 & m>k$ _! po9ts ( diff]5ce & resemblance4 ,& !n aft] my _m & long w&]+s1 ,i return$ to ! place ( my bir?1 & look$ on ! sc5es ( my *ildhood aga92 & ,i 0 lo/ 9 ec/acies4 ,i 0 amaz$ t ,i _h se5 s little ( _! beauty1 & be5 s little transport$ ) _! *>ms be=e4 ,& s ) reg>d to ! ,bible4 ,i 0 born 9 a family 9 :i* ! ,bible 0 read e day ( ! ye>4 ,i he>d its lessons f ! lips ( a v5]able fa!r1 & ( a mo/ affectionate "m4 ,i read ! book myself4 ,i /udi$ x :5 ,i came ( age1 & treasur$ up _m ( its tea*+s 9 my he>t4 ,i prea*$ its tru?s to o!rs4 ,i def5d$ its tea*+s aga9/ infidel assailants1 & 0 eloqu5t 9 its praise4 ,b a *ange took place2 a /range1 unlook$-= *ange4 ,i 0 sev]$ f ! ,*ur*4 ,i became an unbeliev]4 ,i turn$ away my eyes f ! book1 or look$ *iefly on su* portions ( x z seem$ to ju/ify my unbelief4 ,i h be5 l$ ( late to return to ! book1 & to /udy x ) a desire to d x ju/ice2 & ! result is1 ,i love x1 ,i prize x1 z ,i nev] did 9 my life4 ,i read x at times ) un%akable transports1 & ,i am sorry ,i %\ld ev] h be5 s ins5sible to its inf9ite excell5ces4 ,su* 0 my lecture4 ,^? :o _h come to oppose1 seem$ puzzl$ :at to say4 ,"o man said ,i _h be5 br\ght !re to curse ! ,bible1 & lo6 ,i _h bless$ x altoge!r4 ,ano!r said t :at ,i _h utt]$ c\ld n be my real s5tim5ts--t my praise ( ! ,bible mu/ be a trap or a sn>e4 ,my answ] 01 ,!y are my real convictions1 & ! s5tim5ts t ,i publi% 9 my weekly pap]4 ,!n h[ comes x t y are br\ght "h by ! ,secul>i/s8 ,i answ]$1 ,my cu/om is to accept invitations f any p>ty1 b to tea* my own s5tim5ts4 ,"o "y man came to me at ,bri/ol1 aft] he>+ me deliv] ?is lecture1 & said h[ glad he 0 at :at ,i _h said4 ,:5 my "m 0 dy+1 said he1 %e gave me a ,bible1 & press$ me to read x2 & ,i did s = a :ile4 ,b :5 ,i became a skeptic1 ,i lo/ my int]e/ 9 ! book1 & ,i didn't "k :at to d ) x4 ,i didn't l to sell x1 or de/roy x1 because x 0 ! gift ( my "m2 yet ,i seem$ to h no use = x4 ,i %all read x n[ ) pleasure4 ,on ! foll[+ ev5+ ,i lectur$ on ,true ,religion4 ,! g5tleman :o _h come to oppose me said x 0 ! be/ s]mon1 or ab\t ! be/1 he _h ov] he>d4 ,he seem$ at a loss to "k :at "r ,i _h to speak s e>ne/ly 9 favor ( all t 0 good1 & appe>$ incl9$ to abuse me = n say+ some?+ bad4 ,i took all calmly1 & ! meet+ end$ pleasantly4 #i4 ,& n[1 in/ead ( try+ to %ake m5's fai? 9 religion1 ,i labor$ to /r5g!n x4 ,i 0 satisfi$ t ! fai? ( ! ,*ri/ian 0 "r 9 sub/ance1 if x 0 n q "r 9 =m4 ,& ,i 0 satisfi$ !re 0 some?+ t]ribly wrong 9 unbelief1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n yet free myself entirely f its horrible p[]4 #aj4 ,! feel+ grew /rong] t my rema9+ d\bts 7 unreasonable2 t my s\l 0 a slave to an evil spell1 ! result ( long p]si/5ce 9 an evil me?od ( reason+2 yet ,i lack$ ! p[] to emancipate myself4 ,at l5g?1 z ,i h said1 ,i appeal$ to ,heav5 & cri$1 ,,god ,,help ,,me6 & my /ruggl+ s\l 0 /r5g!n$ & releas$4 #aa4 ,i _h look$ at ! ,*ur* :5 a ,*ri/ian m9i/] f ! highe/ gr\nd1 & x seem$ too l[4 ,i _h comp>$ x ) ,*ri/ & ,8 tea*+s1 & x seem$ full ( %ortcom+s4 ,i n[ look$ at x f l[ gr\nd1 & x seem$ high4 ,i comp>$ x ) :at ,i _h se5 9 infidel society1 & read 9 infidel books2 & ,i 0 fill$ ) admiration ( its ord]1 & ( its manifold labors ( love4 ,i tri$ to imitate ! ord] & b5efic5t op]ations ( ! ,*ur* 9 my ,burnley society1 b fail$4 ,fai? 9 ,*ri/ianity1 & ! _s ( its glori\s ,au?or1 7 want+4 ,! body )\t ! _s is dead4 #ab4 ,i 0 fir/ conv9c$ t ,*ri/ianity 0 necess>y to ! happ9ess ( man1 & to ! reg5]ation ( ! _w1 b _h d\bts z to its tru?4 ,i n[ saw t mu* ( x 0 true4 ,9 c\rse ( "t ,i came to be satisfi$ t ! religion ( ,*ri/ 0 true z a :ole2 t x 0 a revelation f ,god2 t ,*ri/ ,himself 0 a revelation bo? ( :at ,god is1 & ( :at man ought to be2 t ,he 0 ,god's image & man's model3 t ,he 0 ,god inc>nate1 ,god manife/ 9 ! fle%1 & ! "o great ,savi\r ( mank9d4 ,my objections to miracles gave way4 ,!y seem$ gr\ndless4 ,i saw miracles 9 nature4 ,!y 7 wr\ght on e em]g5cy1 ev5 to secure ! com=t ( ! l[] animals4 ,:at c\ld be m rational ?an to expect !m to be wr\ght 9 aid ( man's illum9ation & salvation8 ,my moral & religi\s feel+s got /rong]4 ,my skeptical t5d5cies grew weak]4 ,i cont9u$ to look at ,*ri/4 ,i /udi$ him m & m4 ,my he>t wax$ w>m]2 my love to ,god & ,*ri/ became a mighty flame4 ,i got among ! foll[]s ( ,*ri/2 ,i gave free scope1 ,i gave full play1 to my bett] affections1 & heav5w>d t5d5cies4 ,i read1 ,i pray$1 ,i wrote1 ,i lectur$1 ,i prea*$4 ,i gave free utt]ance to :at ,i believ$1 & :ile do+ s1 came to believe /ill m1 & to believe ) full] assurance4 ,i us$ no viol5ce ) myself1 except my l[] self4 ,i w5t no fur!r 9 my prea*+ ?an ,i _h gone 9 my belief1 & ,i accept$ no doctr9es or !ories :i* did n pres5t !mselves to my s\l z true & "r4 ,b ,i came at l5g? to see1 n ! p]fection & div9ity ( any p>ticul> sy/em ( !ology1 b ! p]fection & div9ity ( ,*ri/ianity1 & ! sub/antial p]fection & div9ity ( ! ,sacr$ ,scriptures4 #ac4 ,i exam9$ ! popul> objections to ,*ri/ianity & ! ,bible4 ,"s 7 exce$+ly *ildi%2 "s seem$ wick$2 "s1 x 0 pla91 orig9at$ 9 ignorance2 "s 9 error4 ,pa9e1 ,ow51 ,p>k]1 & c]ta9 /ud5ts ( nature1 came to errone\s conclusions ) reg>d to ,*ri/ & ! ,bible1 because !y tri$ !m by false /&>ds4 ,jesus said no?+ on ! value ( repres5tative & democratic =ms ( gov]nm5t1 s ,pa9e consid]$ ,him ignorant ( ! conditions ( human happ9ess4 ,x 0 ,pa9e h[ev] t 0 ignorant1 n ,jesus4 ,jesus 0 s wise1 t ,pa9e 0 n able to appreciate ,8 views or d ,him ju/ice4 ,ow5 believ$ t man 0 ! creature ( circum/ances2 t 8 "* 0 =m$ = him1 n by him1 & t he 0 n responsible !re=e = 8 actions4 ,*ri/ taught a contr>y doctr9e4 ,ow5 !re=e consid]$ ,*ri/ to be 9 error3 b ! error 0 9 himself4 ,p>k] did n believe 9 ! possibility ( miracles3 b ! ,bible conta9$ acc\nts ( miracles4 ,! ,bible !re=e mu/ be pron\nc$1 to a great ext5t1 fabul\s4 ,b miracles are possible2 miracles are actual1 palpable realities1 & ,p>k]'s objection falls to ! gr\nd4 ,_m smatt]]s 9 sci5ce object to ! cr$ibility ( ! gospel hi/ory on ! same gr\nd1 & are answ]$ 9 ! same way4 ,"s objections to ! ,bible & ,*ri/ianity orig9ate 9 mis9t]pretations ( portions ( ! ,bible4 ,! ,scriptures are made answ]able = fooli% doctr9es :i* !y d n tea*4 ,"s objections seem bas$ on a wilful miscon/ruction ( passages ( ,scripture4 ,_m objections owe _! =ce to wrong !ories ( ,div9e inspiration1 & to errone\s notions ) reg>d to ! design ( ! ,sacr$ ,scriptures put =? by c]ta9 div9es4 ,^! are obviat$ by ! rejection ( ^? unw>rantable !ories & errone\s ideas1 & ! acceptance ( bett] ones4 ,_m get wrong notions ab\t :at con/itutes ! p]fection ( ! ,bible1 & look 9 ! ,scriptures = a k9d ( p]fection :i* is impossible 9 a book writt5 9 human language1 & meant = ! in/ruction & education ( imp]fect human be+s4 ,!re is n a language on e>? t is absolutely p]fect1 nor is x likely t !re ev] 01 or ev] w be1 su* a language4 ,an absolutely p]fect book !re=e 9 any human language is an impossibility4 ,b no su* ?+ z an absolutely p]fect book is necess>y or desirable1 any m ?an an absolutely p]fect body or s\l1 or an absolutely p]fect *ur* or m9i/ry4 ,!re is a k9d ( imp]fection 9 ,god's works :i* con/itutes _! p]fection4 ,!re is a k9d ( p]fection talk$ ab\t by metaphysical div9es1 :i* w\ld be ! extreme ( imp]fection4 ,we h reason to be ?ankful t !re is no su* p]fection ei!r 9 ,nature or ! ,bible4 ,nature & ! ,bible w\ld be wor?less if !re 74 ,b !re is a practical p]fection1 a p]fection ( usefulness1 9 bo?2 a p]fection ( adaptation to ! accompli%m5t ( ! highe/ & mo/ desirable objects3 & t is en\gh4 ,! pr9cipal objects = :i* ! ,bible 0 writt5 71 #a4 ,to make m5 wise unto salvation ?r\gh fai? 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 #b4 ,to furni% ,god's p unto e good "w4 #c4 ,to support !m "u _! trials1 & to com=t !m "u _! sorr[s1 on _! way to heav54 ,no high] or m desirable ends c be conceiv$4 ,& x answ]s ^! ends1 :5ev] its tea*+s are receiv$ & obey$4 ,& ?is is true1 sub/antial p]fection4 ,?is is ! reason+ ( ! ,psalmi/4 ,! law ( ! ,"l is p]fect1 says he1 & ! pro( he gives is ?is1 x conv]te? ! s\l4 ,! te/imony ( ! ,"l is sure1 mak+ wise ! simple4 ,! /atutes ( ! ,"l are "r1 rejoic+ ! he>t4 ,moreov] by !m is ,?y s]vant w>n$1 & 9 keep+ ( !m !re is great rew>d4 ,?is is all ! p]fection we ne$4 #ad4 ,spiritualism _h some?+ to d ) my conv]sion4 ,i "k ! /rong feel+ prevail+ among _m ,*ri/ians aga9/ spiritualism1 b ,i %\ld feel z if ,i _h n q done my duty1 if ,i did n1 to ! be/ ( my recollection1 set d[n ! "p x _h 9 ! cure ( my unbelief4 ,my fri5ds mu/ !re=e be> ) me :ile ,i give !m ! foll[+ p>ticul>s3-- ,z ,i travell$ to & fro 9 ,am]ica1 fulfill+ my lectur+ engagem5ts1 ,i met ) a numb] ( p]sons :o _h be5 conv]t$1 by means ( spiritualism1 f utt] infidelity1 to a belief 9 ,god & a future life4 ,sev]al ( ^? conv]ts told me _! exp]i5ce1 & press$ me to visit "s m$ium myself1 9 hopes t ,i might witness some?+ t w\ld lead to my conv]sion4 ,i 01 at ! "t1 s exce$+ly skeptical1 t ! wond]ful /ories :i* !y told me1 only caus$ me to suspect !m ( ignorance1 insanity1 or di%one/y2 & ! repetition ( su* /ories1 to :i* ,i 0 compell$ to li/5 9 almo/ e place ,i visit$1 _h su* an unhappy effect on my m9d1 t ,i 0 /rongly tempt$ to say1 ,all m5 are li>s4 ,i _h s completely =gott51 or expla9$ away1 my own previ\s exp]i5ces1 & ,i 0 s f> gone 9 unbelief1 t ,i _h no confid5ce :atev] 9 any?+ t 0 told me ab\t matt]s spiritual or sup]natural4 ,i might h ! fulle/ confid5ce imag9able 9 ! witnesses :5 !y spoke on ord9>y subjects1 b ,i c\ld n put ! slighte/ fai? 9 _! te/imony :5 !y told me _! /ories ab\t spiritual matt]s4 ,& ?\gh fifty or a hundr$ p]sons1 9 fifty or a hundr$ diff]5t places1 )\t conc]t ) ea* o!r1 & )\t any temptation ( int]e/1 told me simil> /ories1 _! words _h n ! lea/ effect on my m9d4 ,! mo/ cr$ible te/imony 9 ! _w 0 utt]ly p[]less1 s f> z ?+s spiritual 7 conc]n$4 ,& :5 ! p>ties ^: pati5ce ,i tri$ by my measureless incr$ulity1 entreat$ me to visit "s celebrat$ m$ium1 t ,i might see & judge = myself1 ,i paid n ! lea/ reg>d to _! entreaties4 ,i 0 wis] 9 my own conceit ?an all ! believ]s on e>?4 ,at l5g?1 to please a p>ticul> fri5d ( m9e 9 ,philadelphia1 ,i visit$ a m$ium call$ ,dr4 ,r$man4 ,x 0 said t ! pro(s giv5 ?r\gh him ( ! exi/5ce & p[]s ( dep>t$ spirits 7 su* z no "o c\ld resi/4 ,my fri5d & 8 family _h visit$ ?is m$ium1 & _h se5 ?+s :i* to !m seem$ utt]ly unacc\ntable1 except on ! supposition t !y 7 ! "w ( disembodi$ spirits4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ,dr4 ,r$man's room1 he gave me eight small pieces ( pap]1 ab\t an in* wide & two in*es long1 & told me to take !m aside1 :]e no "o c\ld see me1 & write on !m ! names ( su* ( my dep>t$ fri5ds z ,i might ?9k fit1 & !n wrap !m up l pellets & br+ !m to him4 ,i took ! pap]s1 & wrote on sev5 ( !m ! names ( my fa!r & "m1 my elde/ & my y\nge/ bro!rs1 a si/]1 a si/]-9-law1 & an aunt1 "o "n on ea*2 & "o ,i left blank4 ,i retir$ to a corn] ( ! room to d ! writ+1 :]e !re 0 nei!r glass nor w9d[1 & ,i 0 s c>eful n to give any "o a *ance ( kn[+ :at ,i wrote1 t ,i wrote ) a %ort p5cil1 s t ev5 ! motion ( ! top ( my p5cil c\ld n be se54 ,i 0 besides entirely alone 9 t "p ( ! room1 ) my face to ! d>k wall4 ,! bits ( pap] :i* ! m$ium _h giv5 me 7 s(t1 s t ,i _h no difficulty 9 roll+ !m into r\nd pellets1 ab\t ! size ( small peas4 ,i roll$ !m up1 & c\ld no m h told :i* 0 blank & :i* 0 writt5 on1 nor :i*1 among ! sev5 ,i _h writt5 on1 conta9$ ! "n ( any "o ( my fri5ds1 & :i* ! names ( ! re/1 ?an ,i c tell at ?is mom5t :at is tak+ place 9 ! remote/ orbs ( heav54 ,hav+ roll$ up ! pap]s z describ$1 ,i laid !m on a r\nd table1 ab\t ?ree feet broad4 ,i laid on ! table at ! same "t a lett]1 wrapp$ up1 b n seal$1 writt5 to my fa!r1 b ) no address outside4 ,i also laid d[n a few loose leaves ( note pap]4 ,! m$ium sat on "o side ! table1 & ,i sat on ! o!r1 & ! pellets ( pap] & ! lett] lay betwe5 u4 ,we _h n sat ov] a m9ute1 ,i ?9k1 :5 !re came v lively raps on ! table1 & ! m$ium seem$ excit$4 ,he seiz$ a p5cil1 & wrote on ! outside ( my lett]1 wrong side up1 & f "r to left1 s t :at he wrote lay "r = me to read1 ^! words3 ,i ,,came ,,9 ,,) ,,y1 ,,b ,,y ,,nei!r ,,saw ,,me ,,nor ,,felt ,,me4 ,,william ,,b>k]4 ,& imm$iately he seiz$ me by ! h&1 & %ook h&s ) me4 ,?is r />tl$ me4 ,i felt v /range4 ,= ,,william ,,b>k] 0 ! "n ( my y\nge/ bro!r1 :o _h di$ 9 ,ohio "s two or ?ree ye>s be=e4 ,i _h nev] nam$ him1 ,i believe1 9 ,philadelphia1 & ,i h no reason to suppose t any "o 9 ! city 0 aw>e t ,i _h ev] _h su* a bro!r1 mu* less t he 0 dead4 ,i did n tell ! m$ium t ! "n t he _h writt5 0 ! "n ( a bro!r ( m9e2 b ,i ask$1 ,is ! "n ( ?is p]son among ^? writt5 9 ! pap] pellets on ! table8 ,! answ] 0 in/antly giv5 by ?ree l\di% raps1 ,yes4 ,i ask$1 ,c he select ! pap] conta9+ 8 "n8 ,! answ]1 giv5 z be=e1 0 ,yes4 ,! m$ium !n took up fir/ "o ( ! pap] pellets & !n ano!r1 lay+ !m d[n aga91 till he came to ! fif?1 :i* he h&$ to me4 ,i op5$ x out1 & x conta9$ my bro!r's "n4 ,i 0 />tl$ aga91 & felt v /range4 ,i ask$1 ,w ! p]son ^: "n is on ?is pap] answ] me "s que/ions8 ,! answ] 01 ,yes4 ,i !n took "p ( my note pap]1 & ) my left h& on edge1 & ! top ( my %ort p5cil conceal$1 ,i wrote1 ,:]e d----1 int5d+ to write1 ,:]e did y die8 ,b z soon z ,i _h writt5 ,:]e d----1 ! m$ium rea*$ ov] my h& & wrote1 upside d[n1 & backw>ds way1 z be=e1-- ,put d[n a numb] ( places1 & ,i w tell y4 ,?us answ]+ my "q be=e ,i _h _h "t to ask x 9 writ+4 ,i !n wrote d[n a li/ ( places1 f\r 9 all1 & po9t$ to ea* sep>ately ) my p5cil1 expect+ raps :5 ,i t\*$ ! "r "o2 b no raps came4 ,! m$ium !n said1 ,write d[n a few m4 ,i !n discov]$ t ,i _h n1 at fir/1 writt5 d[n ! place :]e my bro!r di$3 s ,i wrote d[n two m places1 ! fir/ ( ! two be+ ! place :]e he di$4 ,! li/ !n /ood ?us3-- ,,salem1 ,,le$s1 ,,rav5na1 ,,akron1 ,,cuyahoga ,,falls1 ,,new ,,york4 ,! m$ium !n took 8 p5cil1 & mov$ x betwe5 ! diff]5t names1 till he came to ,,cuyahoga ,,falls1 :i* he scrat*$ out4 ,t 0 ! "n ( ! place :]e he di$4 ,i !n wrote a numb] ( o!r que/ions1 9 no case giv+ ! m$ium any *ance ( kn[+ by any ord9>y means :at ,i wrote1 & 9 e case he answ]$ ! que/ions 9 writ+ z he _h done be=e2 & 9 e case b "o ! answ]s 7 su* z to %[1 bo? t ! answ]] knew :at que/ions ,i _h ask$1 & 0 acqua9t$ ) ! matt]s to :i* !y ref]r$4 ,:5 ,i _h ask$ "s t5 or a doz5 que/ions1 ! m$ium said1 ,!re is a female _s wi%es to communicate ) y4 ,is h] "n among ^? on ! table8 ,i ask$4 ,! answ]1 9 ?ree raps1 01 ,yes4 ,c %e select ! pap] conta9+ h] "n8 ,i ask$4 ,! answ] aga9 01 ,yes4 ,! m$ium !n took up "o ( ! pap] pellets1 & put x d[n2 !n took up & put d[n a second2 & !n took up a ?ird & h&$ x to me4 ,i 0 j prep>+ to undo x1 to look = ! "n1 :5 ! m$ium rea*$ ov] z be=e1 & wrote on a leaf ( my note pap]-- ,,x ,,is ,,my ,,"n4 ,,elizabe? ,,b>k]4 ,& ! mom5t he _h writt5 x1 he /ret*$ out 8 h&1 smil+1 & %ook h&s ) me aga94 ,:e!r x really 0 s or n1 ,i w n say1 b 8 smile seem$ ! smile ( my "m1 & ! expression ( 8 face 0 ! old expression ( my "m's face2 & :5 he %ook h&s ) me1 he drew 8 h& away 9 ! mann] 9 :i* my "m _h always drawn away h] h&4 ,! te>s />t$ into my eyes1 & my fle% seem$ to creep on my bones4 ,i felt /rang] ?an ev]4 ,i op5$ ! pap]1 & x 0 my "m's "n3 ,,elizabe? ,,b>k]4 ,i ask$ a numb] ( que/ions z be=e1 & receiv$ appropriate answ]s4 ,b ,i _h se5 en\gh4 ,i felt no desire to multiply exp]im5ts4 ,s ,i came away--sob]1 sad1 & ?\ghtful4 ,i _h a p>ticul> fri5d 9 ,philadelphia1 an old unbeliev]1 call$ ,?omas ,illman4 ,he 0 born at ,!t=d1 ,engl&1 & educat$1 ,i 0 told1 = ! m9i/ry 9 ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur*4 ,he 0 rem>kably well in=m$4 ,i nev] met ) a skeptic :o _h read m or knew m on hi/orical or religi\s subjects1 or :o 0 bett] acqua9t$ ) ?+s 9 g5]al1 except ,!odore ,p>k]4 ,he 0 ! lead] ( ! ,philadelphia ,free?9k]s1 & 0 _m ye>s presid5t ( ! ,sunday ,in/itute ( t city4 ,he told me1 _m mon?s be=e ,i paid my visit to ,dr4 ,r$man1 t he once paid him a visit1 & t he _h se5 :at 0 utt]ly beyond 8 compreh5sion1--:at seem$ q at v>iance ) ! notion t !re 0 no spiritual _w1--& :at compell$ him to reg>d ) *>ity & =be>ance ! views ( ,*ri/ians on t subject4 ,at ! "t he told me ( ^! ?+s1 ,i _h become r un*>itable t[>ds ! ,spirituali/s1 & v di/ru/ful ( _! /atem5ts1 & ! consequ5ce 01 t 8 acc\nt ( :at he _h witness$1 & ( ! effect x _h _h on 8 m9d1 made b little impression on me4 ,b :5 ,i saw ?+s resembl+ :at my fri5d _h se51 8 /atem5ts came back to my m9d ) great p[]1 & help$ to increase my a/oni%m5t4 ,b my fri5d 0 n[ dead1 & ,i _h no long] an opportunity ( conv]s+ ) him ab\t :at we _h se54 ,?is ,mr4 ,illman 0 ! g5tleman m5tion$ on a =m] page1 :om ,i att5d$ on 8 b$ ( dea?4 ,! result ( my visit to ,dr4 ,r$man 01 t ,i nev] aft]w>ds felt ! same impati5ce ) ,spirituali/s1 or ! same incl9ation to pron\nce !m all fooli% or di%one/1 t ,i _h felt be=e4 ,x 0 pla91 t :e!r _! !ory ( a _s _w 0 true or n1 !y 7 excusable 9 ?9k+ x true4 ,x look$ l tru?4 ,i did n myself conclude f :at ,i _h se51 t x 0 true1 b ,i 0 satisfi$ t !re 0 m 9 ?is wond]ful univ]se ?an c\ld be acc\nt$ = on ! co>se mat]iali/ic pr9ciples ( ,a!ism4 ,my skepticism 0 n de/roy$1 b x 0 %ak5 & conf\nd$4 ,& n[1 :5 ,i look back on ^! ?+s1 x seems /range t x 0 n entirely swept away4 ,b believ+ & disbeliev+ are habits1 & !y are subject to ! same laws z o!r habits4 ,y may ex]cise y\rself 9 d\bt+ till y become ! slave ( d\bt4 ,& ?is 0 :at ,i _h done4 ,i _h ex]cis$ myself 9 d\bt+1 till my t5d5cies to d\bt _h become irresi/ible4 ,my fai?1 bo? 9 ,god & man1 seem$ entirely gone4 ,i _h n1 s f> z ,i c see1 s mu* z a gra9 ( mu/>d se$ left4 ,s f> z religi\s matt]s 7 conc]n$1 ,i 0 insane4 ,x makes me sad to ?9k :at a horrible extravagance ( d\bt _h tak5 possession ( my m9d4 ,a ?\s& ?anks to ,god = my deliv]ance f t dreadful ?raldom4 #ae4 ,i h be5 ask$ h[ ,i meet my own old objections to ! ,div9e au?ority ( ! ,bible4 ,i answ]1 "s ( !m orig9at$ 9 mis9t]pretations ( ,scripture4 ,o!rs orig9at$ 9 mi/akes ) reg>d to ! "* ( ,*ri/4 ,"s ?+s :i* ,i reg>d$ z defects 9 ,*ri/ 71 9 tru?1 excell5cies4 ,"s 7 bas$ on mi/akes ) reg>d to ! tru? ( c]ta9 doctr9es1 & ! value ( c]ta9 precepts4 ,i look$ on c]ta9 doctr9es z false1 :i* ,i n[ am satisfi$ are true2 & ,i reg>d$ c]ta9 precepts z bad1 :i* ,i am n[ p]suad$ are good4 ,"s ?+s :i* ,i said ab\t ! ,bible 7 true1 b !y prov$ no?+ aga9/ its sub/antial p]fection & div9ity4 ,mu* ( :at ,i said 9 my spee* at ,salem1 ,ohio1 ab\t ! imp]fection ( all translations ( ! ,scriptures1 ! v>i\s read+s ( ,greek & ,hebrew manuscripts1 ! defects ( ,greek & ,hebrew compilations1 & ! loss ( ! orig9al manuscripts1 0 true2 b x am\nt$ to no?+4 ,x disprov$ ! ungu>d$ /atem5ts ( c]ta9 ra% div9es2 b x prov$ no?+ aga9/ ! div9e inspiration or sub/antial p]fection ( ! ,bible z taught 9 ! ,bible itself1 & z held by div9es ( ! m enlight5$ & sob] class4 ,t :i* is untrue 9 :at ,i wrote ab\t ! ,scriptures is no long] an ob/acle to my fai?1 n[ t ,i see x to be untrue4 ,& ^? rem>ks :i* are true 9 my writ+s on ! ,bible give me no tr\ble1 because my fai? 9 ,bible inspiration is ( su* a =m1 t !y d n affect x4 ,!y might %ake ! fai? ( a man :o believes 9 a k9d ( inspiration ( ! ,bible :i* is unscriptural1 & 9 a k9d ( p]fection ( ! ,book :i* is impossible2 b !y d n affect ! fai? ( a man :o keeps 8 belief 9 ,bible inspiration & ,bible p]fection )9 ! b\nds ( ,scripture & reason4 ,& "h ,i may say a few words ab\t ! objections ,i advanc$ 9 my debate ) ,dr4 ,b]g4 #a4 ,! great mass ( ^? objections prove no?+ aga9/ ! ,bible itself1 z ! great & div9ely appo9t$ means ( man's religi\s in/ruction & improvem5t4 ,!y simply %[ t ! !ory held by ,dr4 ,b]g ab\t ! inspiration & absolute p]fection ( ! book 0 errone\s4 ,if ,dr4 ,b]g _h modifi$ 8 notions1 & br\ght !m )9 ,scriptural b\nds1 ?is class ( objections w\ld all h fall5 to ! gr\nd4 #b4 ,b "s ( my /atem5ts 7 untrue & unju/4 ,= in/ance1 9 "o case ,i said1 ',! man :o =ms 8 ideas ( ,god f ! ,bible c h>dly fail to h blasphem\s ideas ( ,him4' ,n[1 f ! acc\nt ( ! ,creation 9 ,g5esis1 to ! la/ *apt] 9 ,revelation1 ! "o gr& idea pres5t$ ( ,god is t ,he is good1 & t ,8 delight is to d good1--t ,he is good to all1 & t ,8 t5d] m]cies are ov] all ,8 works4 ,:atev] may be said ( a few passages ( d>k or d\btful mean+1 ! :ole drift ( ! ,bible is 9 accordance ) t wond]ful1 t unp>allel$ oracle ( ! ,apo/le1 ',,god ,,is ,,love4' #c4 ,ano!r /atem5t t ,i made 01 t ! man :o /udies ,god 9 ,nature1 )\t ! ,bible1 is inf9itely likeli] to get wor?i] views ( ,god1 ?an he :o gets 8 ideas ( ,god f ! ,bible )\t reg>d to ,nature4 ,n[ ! tru? is1 no man c get 8 ideas ( ,god f ! ,bible )\t reg>d to ,nature2 = ! ,bible con/antly ref]s to ,nature z a revelation ( ,god1 & repres5ts ,nature z exhibit+ ! gr&e/ displays ( ,god's b\ndless & et]nal goodness4 ,! ,bible & ,nature are 9 h>mony on ! "* ( ,god4 ,! only diff]5ce is1 t ! revelations ( ,god's love 9 ! ,bible1 & especially 9 ,*ri/1 are m /rik+1 m ov]p[]+ & trans=m+ ?an ^? ( ,nature4 ,& la/ly1 ! notions ( ,god ent]ta9$ by ^? :o h ! light ( ,nature alone1 are n to be comp>$ ) ! views ent]ta9$ by ^? :o =m _! views ( ,god f ! ,bible alone1 or f ! ,bible & ,nature conjo9$4 #d4 ,"o ( my /ronge/ objections 0 bas$ on ! #aji? ,psalm4 ,?is ,psalm conta9s /rong expressions ( rev5ge & hatr$ t[>ds ! enemy ( ! ,psalmi/4 ,! answ] to ?is objection is1 #a4 ,t ! ,psalmi/ is n set up z our great example1 & t 8 utt]ances are n giv5 z ! highe/ manife/ation ( goodness4 #b4 ,! ,psalms are exce$+ly in/ructive & int]e/+1 & mu/ h be5 ( imm5se value1 bo? z a means ( com=t & improvem5t1 to ^? to :om !y 7 fir/ giv52 b ! p]fection ( div9e revelation 0 yet to come4 ,! ,psalms are ( incalculable value /ill1 b !y are n our /&>d ( ! highe/ virtue4 ,john ! ,bapti/ 0 great]1 high]1 bett] ?an ! ,psalmi/2 yet ! lea/ ( ! foll[]s ( ,jesus is high] ?an he4 #c4 ,b ?irdly2 we mu/ n conclude t ! feel+s & expressions ( ! ,psalmi/ 7 wick$1 m]ely because !y fell %ort ( ! highe/ ,*ri/ian virtue4 ',rev5ge1' says "o ( our wise/ m51 'is a wild k9d ( ju/ice2' b x is ju/ice not)/&+1 :5 call$ =? by real & griev\s wrong4 ,x is goodness1 ?\gh n goodness ( ! highe/ k9d4 ,x is virtue1 ?\gh n p]fect ,*ri/ian virtue4 ,& ! rev5ge ( ! ,psalmi/ 0 provok$ by wrong ( ! mo/ griev\s description4 ,read ! acc\nt ( ! matt] giv5 9 ! ,psalm itself4 ',hold n ?y peace1 ,o ,god ( my praise2 = ! m\? ( ! wick$ & ! m\? ( ! deceitful are op5$ aga9/ me3 !y h spok5 aga9/ me ) a ly+ tongue4 ,!y compass$ me ab\t also ) words ( hatr$2 & f\ght aga9/ me )\t a cause4 ,= my love !y are my adv]s>ies3 b ,i give myself unto pray]4 ,& !y h rew>d$ me evil = good1 & hatr$ = my love4' ,?is 0 inju/ice1 +ratitude1 cruelty ( ! mo/ griev\s k9d4 ,& ^! wrongs _h be5 cont9u$ till 8 heal? & /r5g? wore r$uc$ to ! l[e/ po9t4 ',i am gone1' says he1 'l ! %ad[ :5 x decl9e?4 ,my knees are weak2 my fle% faile?2 s t :5 m5 look at me1 !y %ake _! heads4' ,& a simil> cause is assign$ = ! rev5geful expressions 9 ! #fi? ,psalm4 ,!re we f9d ! p]secut$ ,psalmi/ say+1 ,!y t hate me1 & w\ld de/roy me1 are my enemies wrongfully1 & !y are _m & mighty4 ,!n ,i re/or$ t :i* ,i took n away4 ,= ?y sake h ,i borne reproa*3 ! reproa*es ( !m t reproa*$ !e are fall5 ^u me4 ,i 0 ! song ( ! drunk>ds4 ,reproa* ha? brok5 my he>t2 & ,i am full ( heav9ess3 & ,i look$ = "s "o to take pity1 b !re 0 none2 & = com=t]s1 b none appe>$4 ,?us ! m5 t wrong$ & torm5t$ ! ,psalmi/ 7 enemies to ,god & goodness1 z well z to himself4 ,we "k t ! virtue ( ! injur$ & torm5t$ ,psalmi/ 0 n ! virtue ( ! ,gospel2 b x 0 virtue4 ,x 0 ! virtue ( ! law4 ,& ! law 0 holy1 j1 & good1 s f> z x w5t4 ,if ! res5tm5t ( ! ,psalmi/ _h be5 *]i%$ aga9/ "s good or innoc5t man1 x w\ld h be5 wick$2 z x 01 x 0 righte\s4 ,true1 if ! ,psalmi/ _h liv$ "u ! bett] & bright] disp5sation ( ,*ri/ianity1 he w\ld nei!r h felt ! reproa*es heap$ on him s ke5ly1 nor moan$ "u !m s pite\sly1 nor res5t$ !m s w>mly4 ,he might !n h le>n$ ,to hate ! s9 ) all 8 he>t1 ,& /ill ! s9n] love4 ,he might h c\nt$ reproa* & p]secution matt]s = joy & gladness4 ,& in/ead ( call+ = v5geance on 8 enemies1 he might h cri$1 ,fa!r1 =give !m2 = !y "k n :at !y d4 ,b ! ,psalmi/ did n live "u ! disp5sation ( ! ,gospel4 ,he liv$ "u a sy/em :i*1 good z x 01 made no?+ p]fect4 ,& he act$ 9 accordance ) t sy/em4 ,& ! intellig5t ,*ri/ian1 & ! enlight5$ lov] ( ! ,bible1 w n be a%am$ ei!r ( ! ,psalmi/1 or ( ! ,book :i* gives u ! in/ructive & int]e/+ revelations ( 8 exp]i5ce4 #e4 ,ano!r ( my objections to ! ,bible 0 gr\nd$ on ! /atem5t1 t ,god visits ! iniquities ( ! fa!rs on ! *ildr54 ,b x is a fact1 fir/1 t *ildr5 d suff] ?r\gh ! s9s ( _! fa!rs4 ,! *ildr5 ( drunk>ds1 ?ieves1 pr(ligates1 all suff] ?r\gh ! misdo+s ( _! p>5ts4 ,x is also a fact1 t m5 g5]ally suff] ?r\gh ! misdo+s ( _! fell[-m54 ,we all suff] ?r\gh ! vices ( our neighbors & c\ntrym54 ,! s9s ( idl]s1 sp5d?rifts1 mis]s1 drunk>ds1 gluttons1 bigots1 p]secutors1 tyrants1 ?ieves1 murd]]s1 corrupt politicians1 & s9n]s ( e k9d1 are 9 ?is s5se visit$ on u all4 ,& we d]ive advantages on ! o!r h& f ! virtues ( ! good4 ,& x w\ld be a /range _w1 if no "o c\ld help or hurt ano!r4 ,x is bett] ?+s are z !y are4 ,! advantages we receive f ! good1 t5d to draw u to imitate _! virtues4 ,! suff]+s entail$ on u by ! bad1 t5d to det] u f _! vices4 ,& s x is ) p>5ts & *ildr54 ,*ildr5 are specially prone to imitate _! p>5ts4 ,if !y nev] suff]$ f ! evil ways ( _! p>5ts1 !y w\ld be 9 dang] ( walk+ 9 ^? ways !mselves = ev]4 ,:5 !y suff] ke5ly f _! p>5ts' misdo+s1 !re is gr\nd to hope t !y w !mselves d bett]4 ,i h kn[n p]sons :o 7 made teetotal]s ?r\gh ! suff]+s br\ght on !m by ! drunk5ness ( _! fa!rs4 ,& on ! o!r h&2 ! bless+s entail$ on *ildr5 by ! virtue ( _! p>5ts1 t5d to draw !m to goodness4 ,& ,i h kn[n fa!rs1 :o w\ld v5ture on evil de$s :5 !y ?\ght only ( ! suff]+ !y might br+ on !mselves1 :o h be5 /agg]$1 & h %runk f _! contemplat$ crimes1 :5 !y h ?\ght ( ! ru9 !y might br+ on _! *ildr54 ,& :]e is ! good p>5t :o is n m p[]fully /imulat$ to virtue & piety by ?\ghts ( ! bless+s :i* he may secure !reby to 8 (fspr+8 ,! :ole arrangem5t1 by :i* our conduct is made to entail good or evil on o!rs1 & by :i* ! conduct ( o!rs is made to entail good or evil on u1 t5ds to engage u all m e>ne/ly 9 ! w> ) evil1 & to make u labor m zeal\sly = ! promotion ( k & righte\sness among all mank9d4 #f4 ,ano!r ( my objections to ! ,bible 0 bas$ on ^? passages :i* repres5t ,god z caus+ m5 to d bad de$s4 ,joseph tells 8 bre?r51 t x 0 n !y1 b ,god1 :o s5t him into ,egypt4 ,david says1 ',let ,%imei curse2 = ,god ha? bidd5 him4' ,( c\rse1 ! words ( m5 l ,joseph & ,david are n always ! words ( ,god4 ,b ,jesus ,himself speaks ( ,judas z appo9t$ or de/9$ to 8 de$ ( trea*]y4 ,:at c we make ( su* passages8 ,does ,god make m5 wick$1 or cause !m to s98 ,we answ]1 ,no4 ,h[ is x !n8 ,we answ]1 ,:at ,god does is ?is3 :5 m5 h made !mselves wick$1 ,he turns _! wick$ness to good acc\nt1 by caus+ x to %[ itself 9 "s p>ticul> way r ?an 9 "s o!r4 ,god did n make ! bre?r5 ( ,joseph envi\s & malici\s2 b he caus$ _! envy & malice to induce !m to sell _! bro!r into ,egypt1 r ?an to kill him & ?r[ him into a pit4 ,! wick$ness 0 _! own2 ! p>ticul> turn giv5 to x 0 ( ,god4 ,god did n make ,%imei a base1 bad man2 b ,%imei hav+ become base & bad1 ,god *ose t 8 villany %\ld sp5d itself on ,david1 r ?an on "s o!r p]son4 ,god did n make ,judas a ?ief & a traitor2 b ,judas hav+ made himself s1 ,god s places him1 t 8 av>ice1 8 di%one/y & 8 trea*]y %all m9i/] to ! accompli%m5t ( a great b5efic5t design4 ,god did n tea* ! spirits t deceiv$ ,ahab to lie2 b ^? spirits hav+ giv5 !mselves to ly+1 ,god *ose t !y %\ld practise _! illusions on ,ahab r ?an on o!rs4 ,god did n make ,ph>aoh mean or tyrannical2 b ,ph>aoh hav+ become s1 ,god *ooses to employ 8 evil dispositions 9 br++ ab\t rem>kable displays ( ,8 p[]4 ,god does n make politicians corrupt2 b politicians hav+ become corrupt1 ,god *ooses to place !m 9 positions 9 :i* !y c rob1 & torm5t1 & di%onor u1 & s incite u to labor m zeal\sly = ! ,*ri/ianization ( our c\ntry4 ,a man becomes a ?ief1 & says1 ,i w rob ,john ,br[n to-night4 ,& he places himself 9 ! way along :i* he expects ,john ,br[n to pass1 & prep>es himself = 8 de$ ( plund]4 ,b ,god does n wi% to h ,john ,br[n robb$2 s ,he arranges t ,david ,jones1 a man :om he wi%es to be reliev$ ( 8 money1 %all pass t way1 & ! ?ief robs him4 ,! di%one/y is ! ?ief's own1 b x is ,god t det]m9es ! p>ty on :om x %all be practis$4 ,i h a bull-dog t w\ld worry a c]ta9 animal1 if ,i w\ld take x :]e ! animal is fe$+4 ,b ,i *oose to br+ x 9 view ( ano!r animal :i* ,i wi% to be de/roy$1 & he worries t4 ,i d n make ! bull-dog savage2 b ,i use 8 savag]y = a good purpose1 in/ead ( lett+ him gratify x = an evil "o4 ,?is view ( ?+s expla9s a multitude ( difficult passages ( ,scripture1 & enables u to see wisdom & goodness 9 _m ( ,god's do+s1 9 :i* we might o!rwise fancy we saw inju/ice & inconsi/5cy4 ,i h n "t to answ] all my old objections to ! ,bible1 advanc$ 9 ! ,b]g debate1 nor h ,i "t to answ] any ( !m at full l5g?3 b ,i h answ]$ ! pr9cipal ones2 & ! answ]s giv5 are a fair sample ( :at might be giv5 to all ! objections4 ,z = ! objections gr\nd$ on little contradictions1 on matt]s ( little or no mom5t1 !y require no answ]4 ,:e!r ! contradictions are real or only app>5t1 & :e!r !y orig9at$ ) copyi/s1 translators1 or ! orig9al human au?ors ( ! ,books 9 :i* !y are f\nd1 x is n wor? our :ile to inquire4 ,!y d n detract f ! wor? ( ! ,bible "o p>ticle1 nor are !y inconsi/5t ) its claims to a sup]-human orig94 ,& s ) reg>d to ! expressions scatt]$ up & d[n ! ,scriptures 9 ref]5ce to natural ?+s1 :i* are suppos$ to be inconsi/5t ) ! tea*+s ( mod]n sci5ce4 ,!y are1 9 our view1 ( no mom5t :atev]4 ,m5 writ+ or speak+ "u div9e impulse1 ) a view to ! promotion ( religion or righte\sness1 w\ld be sure1 :5 !y allud$ to natural ?+s1 to speak ( !m accord+ to ! ideas ( _! times4 ,_! geography1 _! a/ronomy1 & ev5 _! hi/orical traditions1 w\ld be ^? ( ! p among :om !y liv$4 ,_! _s1 _! aim1 w\ld be holy & div9e4 ,nor h we any reason to wi% x %\ld be o!rwise4 ,nor _h our old !ologians ev] any "r1 or ,scriptural au?ority1 = say+ x 01 or t x ought to be1 o!rwise4 ,to u x is a pleasure & an advantage to h a record ( ! ideas1 ( ! fir/ rude guesses1 ( our e>ly ance/ors1 ) reg>d to ! wond]s & my/]ies ( ! univ]se1 & ( ! ev5ts ( '! f> backw>d & abyss ( "t4' ,x com=ts u1 & x makes u ?ankful1 to see f :at small & blund]+ beg9n+s our numb]less volumes ( sci5ce h sprung4 ,& x com=ts u1 & makes u ?ankful1 to see h[ ! fir/ fa9t /reaks ( spiritual & moral light1 t fell on our race1 gradually increas$1 till at l5g? ! day-spr+ & ! morn+ dawn$1 & !n ! full bright light ( ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness br\ght ! effulg5ce ( ! ,p]fect ,day4 ,& "h p]haps may be ! place = a few additional rem>ks on ,div9e inspiration4 ,we may obs]ve1 9 ! fir/ place1 t a man mov$ to speak by ! ,holy ,_s1 w1 ( c\rse1 speak = hol9ess4 ,8 aim w be ! promotion ( true religi\sness1 & ?is w be se5 9 all he says4 ,he may n be a good s*ol>4 ,he may n speak 9 a sup]human /yle4 ,8 reason+ may n be 9 /rict accordance ) ! logic ( ! s*ools4 ,8 dialect may be unpoli%$4 ,he may betray a lack ( acqua9tance ) mod]n sci5ce4 ,he may n be p]fect ev5 9 8 k ( religion & virtue4 ,b he w %[ a godly _s4 ,! aim & t5d5cy ( all he says w be to d good1 to promote righte\sness & true hol9ess4 ,& s if a man be mov$ to write by ! ,holy ,_s1 !re w be an influ5ce favorable to hol9ess 9 all he writes4 ,8 object w be good4 ,if he be a s*ol>1 he w unconsci\sly %[ 8 le>n+2 if he be a man ( sci5ce1 he may %[ 8 sci5ce4 ,if he be ignorant ( sci5ce1 8 ignorance may %[ itself4 ,! ,_s ( ,hol9ess w nei!r remove 8 ignorance nor conceal x3 x w n make him talk l a le>n$ man or a philosoph]2 b x w make him talk l a sa9t1 l a s]vant ( ,god1 & a fri5d ( man4 ,8 writ+s w brea! ! _s & %[ ! love ( hol9ess1 & a t5d5cy to all goodness4 ,& ^! are j ! qualities we see 9 ! ,bible4 ,x brea!s a holy _s4 ,x t5ds to promote hol9ess4 ,! writ]s 7 n all equally advanc$ 9 hol9ess2 h5ce !re is a diff]5ce 9 _! writ+s4 ,!y 7 n alike 9 _! m5tal con/itutions or _! natural end[m5ts4 ,!y 7 n equal 9 le>n+1 or 9 a k ( nature1 or 9 g5]al culture4 ,!y diff]$ almo/ endlessly4 ,& _! writ+s diff] 9 l mann]4 ,b !y all t5d to hol9ess4 ,"s ( ! writ]s 7 poets1 & _! writ+s are poetical4 ,o!rs 7 n poets1 & _! writ+s are prose4 ,! poets 7 n all equal4 ,"s ( !m 7 v good poets1 & _! writ+s are full ( beauty1 sublimity & p[]4 ,o!rs ( !m 7 inf]ior poets1 & _! compositions are m co>se1 or m =mal4 ,"s ( ! writ]s 7 %eph]ds or h]dsm51 & _! writ+s are r\gh & homely4 ,"s ( !m 7 pr9ces & nobles1 s*ol>s & philosoph]s1 & _! writ+s are ri*] & m poli%$4 ,"s ( !m 7 m]e cl]ks & *ronicl]s1 & _! writ+s are dry & common-place2 o!rs 7 f]vid1 p[]ful g5iuses1 & _! works are full ( fire & orig9ality4 ,_! ?\ghts />tle y4 ,_! words w>m y4 ,!y are _s & life4 ,all ! writ]s %[ _! natural qualities & temp]s4 ,all exhibit ! defects ( _! le>n+ & philosophy4 ,all write l m51--l m5 ( ! age1 & ( ! rank1 & ( ! pr(ession1 & ( ! c\ntry1 to :i* !y belong4 ,!y write1 9 _m respects1 l o!r m54 ,! ?+ t di/+ui%$ !m is1 a _s ( hol9ess2 a reg>d1 a zeal1 = ,god & righte\sness1 & = ! in/ruction & welf>e ( mank9d4 ,9 _! devotion to ,god & goodness !y are all alike1 ?\gh n all equal2 b 9 o!r respects !y diff] almo/ endlessly4 ,9 _! devotion to ,god & goodness1 !y are unlike ! mass ( pagan worldly writ]s1 b n s unlike !m 9 e o!r respect4 ,! div9e inspiration ( ! sacr$ writ]s1 or _! wondr\s zeal = righte\sness1 is h>dly a matt] = dispute4 ,x is a simple1 pla91 palpable matt] ( fact4 ,we see x on almo/ e page ( _! writ+s4 ,we feel x 9 almo/ e s5t5ce4 ,take ! acc\nt ( ,creation 9 ,g5esis4 ,no "o c\ld h writt5 t docum5t "u ! influ5ce ( an ungodly or unholy _s4 ,x speaks ?r\gh\t ) ! utmo/ rev]5ce ( ,god4 ,x repres5ts ,him z act+ f ! be/ & noble/ feel+4 ,he works1 n = ,8 own int]e/ or honor1 b solely = ! purpose ( diffus+ happ9ess4 ,he n only does ! greate/1 ! be/1 ! noble/ ?+s1 b ,he does !m ) a he>ty good w4 ,e n[ & !n ,he /ops to exam9e ,8 works1 & is delight$ to f9d t ev]y?+ is good4 ,x is pla9 ,he meant !m to be good4 ,he creates c\ntless multitudes ( happy be+s1 & does x all f impulses ( ,8 own g5]\s nature4 ,all liv+ ?+s are made to be happy1 & all nature is made & adapt$ to m9i/] to _! happ9ess4 ,& :5 at l5g? ,he has complet$ ,8 works1 cr[n+ all ) ! creation ( man1 ,he looks on all aga91 & ) evid5t satisfaction & delight1 decl>es !m all v good4 ,read ! acc\nt ( ,8 creation ( man4 ,& ,god said1 ,let u make man 9 our image1 aft] our lik5ess3 & let !m h dom9ion ov] ! fi% ( ! sea1 & ov] ! f[l ( ! air1 & ov] ! cattle1 & ov] all ! e>?1 & ov] e creep+ ?+ t creepe? ^u ! e>?4 ,s ,god creat$ man 9 8 own image1 9 ! image ( ,god creat$ he him1 male & female creat$ he !m4 ,& ,god bless$ !m1 & ,god said unto !m1 ,be fruitful1 & multiply1 & repl5i% ! e>?1 & subdue x3 & h dom9ion ov] ! fi% ( ! sea1 & ov] ! f[l ( ! air1 & ov] e liv+ ?+ t move? ^u ! e>?4 ,& ,god said1 ,behold1 ,i h giv5 y e h]b be>+ se$1 :i* is ^u ! face ( all ! e>?1 & e tree1 9 ! :i* is ! fruit ( a tree yield+ se$2 to y x %all be = meat4 ,& to e bea/ ( ! e>?1 & to e f[l ( ! air1 & to ev]y?+ t creepe? ^u ! e>?1 :]e9 !re is life1 ,i h giv5 e gre5 h]b = meat3 & x 0 s4 ,& ,god saw ev]y?+ t he _h made1 & behold1 x 0 v good4 ,& ! ev5+ & ! morn+ 7 ! six? day4 ,!re c be no mi/ake z to ! _s & disposition ( ! ,great ,be+ :om we see work+1 & he> speak+1 9 ?is passage4 ,ev]y?+ savors ( pure & b\ndless love4 #a4 ,he makes man male & female1 t !y may h ! com=t & advantages ( society1 & ( love & fri5d%ip 9 _! highe/1 holie/1 & mo/ intimate =m4 #b4 ,!n ,he makes !m 9 ,8 own image1 :i*1 :atev] else x may mean1 means ungrudg+ & unb\nd$ goodness on ,8 "p4 ,!re c be no?+ high]1 great]1 bett]1 happi] ?an ,god4 ,to make man 9 ,8 own image1 & to appo9t him1 s f> z possible1 to a l position1 & a l lot ) ,himself1 0 ! gr&e/ display ( goodness possible4 #c4 ,& ,he gives ! man & woman dom9ion ov] e liv+ ?+1--makes !m1 next to ,himself1 lords ( ! univ]se4 ,& ,he blesses !m1 speaks to !m sweet good words2 & ,8 bless+ make? ri* & adds no sorr[4 ,he enc\rages !m to be fruitful2 to multiply1 & repl5i% ! e>?1 & to subdue x1--to turn x ev] m to _! advantage4 ,he 9 effect places all ?+s at _! disposal2 e gre5 h]b1 be>+ se$1 & e tree yield+ fruit1 is giv5 to !m = food2 & !y are at ! same "t giv5 = food to e bea/ ( ! field1 & to e f[l ( ! air1 & to ev]y?+ t creepe? on ! face ( ! e>?4 ,a ri*]1 sweet] /ory1--a /ory ( m *e]ful1 g5]\s lib]ality1--a picture m cr$itable or honorable to ,god1 "o _c imag9e4 ,& ! /ory is all ( a piece4 ,!re is n a j> 9 x f fir/ to la/4 ,its consi/5cy is complete4 ,:atev] else may be said ( ! au?or ( ?is acc\nt1 x is c]ta9 t he 0 mov$ by a ,holy ,_s1 t he _h ! l(tie/ & wor?ie/ views ( ,god1 & t he lov$ ,him ) all 8 he>t & s\l4 ,he believ$ 9 a good & holy ,god1 & 9 a good & holy life4 ,i say no?+ ab\t ! h>mony or discord betwe5 ?is acc\nt ( ,creation1 & ! facts ( ,geographical1 ,a/ronomical1 or ,geological sci5ce4 ,i d n tr\ble myself ab\t su* matt]s4 ,to me x is a "q ( no importance or conc]n :atev]4 ,& ,i h no tr\ble ab\t ! int]pretation ( ! /ory4 ,x wants no int]pretation4 ,x is z pla9 z ! light4 ,& ,i take x 9 its simple1 obvi\s1 lit]al1 natural s5se4 ,i keep to ! old-fa%ion$ mean+--! mean+ g5]ally giv5 to x be=e ! disputes ab\t ,geology & ,a/ronomy seem$ to r5d] a new & unnatural "o necess>y4 ,! days ( ! /ory are natural days1 & ! nights are natural nights4 ,! l5g? ( ea* ( ! six days 0 ! same z t ( ! ,sabba? day4 ,! sev5 days made an ord9>y week4 ,! fir/ v]se does n ref] to a ,creation previ\s to ! week 9 :i* man 0 made4 ,x is a /atem5t ( ! "w ( ,creation 9 g5]al1 ( :i* ! v]ses foll[+ give ! p>ticul>s4 ,all ! "w t is spok5 ( 0 believ$ by ! writ] to h be5 begun & end$ 9 six ord9>y natural days4 ,z to :e!r ! /ory be lit]ally or sci5tifically correct or n1 ,i d n c>e to inquire4 ,i am satisfi$ t x is ! result ( div9e inspiration--t he :o wrote x or spoke x 0 mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s4 ,! ,_s ( tru?1 ( love1 ( purity1 ( hol9ess p]vades x f beg9n+ to end4 ,x does ju/ice to ,god2 x be>s b5ignly on man2 x favors all goodness4 ,i see1 ,i feel ! bless$ ,_s 9 e l9e1 & ,i want no m4 ,we are told t !re are two acc\nts ( ,creation1 & t on "s po9ts !y diff] f ea* o!r4 ,= any?+ ,i "k ?is may be ! case4 ,b "o ?+ is c]ta91 !y d n diff] 9 ! views !y give ( ,god or ( ,8 objects4 ,!y bo? repres5t ,him z a be+ n only ( almighty p[] & inf9ite wisdom1 b ( pure1 unsulli$1 b\ndless g5]osity4 ,9 tru?1 ! only impulse to ,creation t pres5ts itself is1 ! natural1 spontane\s goodness ( ! ,creator4 ,& on "s po9ts ! manife/ations ( ,god's love & purity1 ( ,8 righte\sness & hol9ess1 are m full & /rik+ 9 ! second acc\nt ?an 9 ! fir/4 ,god's desire = ! social happ9ess ( man comes out m fully4 ,man1 accord+ to ?is second acc\nt1 is made previ\s to woman1 & p]mitt$ = a "t to exp]i5ce ! s5se ( comp>ative lonel9ess4 ,he is left to look ?r\gh ! ord]s ( inf]ior creatures1 9 se>* ( a mate1 & p]mitt$ to feel1 = a mom5t1 ! s5se ( disappo9tm5t4 ,at l5g? he is ca/ into a deep & quiet sleep1 & :5 he awakes1 8 mate1 8 c\nt]p>t1 an exact answ] to 8 wants1 8 crav+s1 p]fect 9 h] lovel9ess1 /&s be=e 8 eyes1 & fills 8 s\l ) love & ec/acy4 ,m>riage is in/itut$ 9 its pure/ & highe/ =m4 ,! law ( m>riage is proclaim$1 :i* is j1 & good1 & holy 9 ! highe/ degree4 ,provision is made = ! com=t & welf>e ( ! new-creat$ pair4 ,_! home is a p>adise1 or g>d5 ( delights2 _! task is to dress x & to keep x4 ,_! life is love4 ,! g5]al law "u :i* !y are plac$ is made kn[n to !m1 & !y are graci\sly w>n$ aga9/ transgression4 ,! law is ! p]fection ( wisdom & g5]osity4 ,x all[s !m an all b unlimit$ lib]ty ( indulg5ce4 ,!y may eat ( ! fruit ( e tree 9 ! g>d5 b "o4 ,indulg5ce mu/ h its limits some:]e1 or !re c\ld be no virtue1 & )\t virtue !re c\ld be no true happ9ess4 ,law1 trial1 & temptation are all ess5tial to virtue & righte\sness4 ,"h !y are all suppli$2 suppli$ s f> z we c see1 9 _! be/ & mo/ consid]ate =ms4 ,no law is giv5 to ! l[] animals4 ,no self-d5ial is requir$ ( !m4 ,!y are incapable ( virtue or righte\sness1 & are !re=e left lawless4 ,a *ild left to himself w\ld br+ 8 "m to %ame2 a man left to himself w\ld ru% headlong to de/ruction4 ,b birds & bea/s d be/ :5 left to !mselves1 or :5 left to ! law 9 _! own natures4 ,_! in/9cts1 or ,god's own impulses1 urge !m ev] 9 ! "r direction1 & secure to !m ! k9d & am\nt ( happ9ess !y are capable ( enjoy+4 ,!y are incapable ( virtue1 s !y are made incapable ( vice4 ,!y _c %>e ! highe/ pleasures2 !y %all n be expos$ !re=e to ! bitt]e/ pa9s4 ,man is capable ( bo? virtue & vice1 & he mu/ ei!r rise to ! "o or s9k to ! o!r4 ,he _c /ay midway ) ! l[] animals4 ,man mu/ be happy or mis]able 9 a way ( 8 own2 he _c h ! portion ( ! brute4 ,he mu/ ei!r be ! happie/ or ! mo/ mis]able creature on e>?4 ,he mu/ ei!r dwell 9 a p>adise1 or wri! 9 a purgatory4 ,he mu/ ei!r live 9 happy fell[%ip ) ,god1 or langui% & die b5ea? 8 fr[n4 ,& 9 ! nature ( ?+s1 ! possibility ( "o implies liability to ! o!r4 ,?is is man's greatness1 & bliss1 & glory1 t he is capable ( righte\sness2 capable ( fell[%ip1 unity1 ) ,god2 & capable ( progress1 improvem5t1 )\t limits1 ( life )\t end1 & ( happ9ess )\t b\nds4 ,all ?is1 :i* is ! p]fection ( true philosophy1 ! sum ( all true wisdom & k1 is pres5t$ 9 ! mo/ /rik+1 a/\nd+1 & intelligible =m 9 ?is second1 or supplem5t>y acc\nt ( creation4 ,duty is def9$ 9 ! cle>e/ mann]4 ,x is enjo9$ 9 ! pla9e/ t]ms4 ,! results ( transgression are =etold ) all fidelity4 ,! great pr9ciple is reveal$ t righte\sness is life & happ9ess1 & t s9 is mis]y & dea?4 ,& man is left to 8 *oice4 ,"h we h ! sub/ance1 ! elem5ts1 ( all k1 ( all law1 ( all duty1 ( all retribution4 ,we h ! pr9ciples ( ! div9e gov]nm5t4 ,we h ! sub/ance ( all hi/ory4 ,we h 9 sub/ance1 ! lessons1 ! w>n+s1 ! c\nsels1 ! enc\ragem5ts1 ! prophecies & revelations ( all times & ( all worlds4 ,! t5d5cy ( ! :ole /ory is to make u feel t righte\sness is ! "o great1 un*ang+ & et]nal good2 & t s91 un*eck$ indulg5ce1 is ! "o great1 et]nal1 & un*ang+ curse4 ,! _s ( ! /ory1 its drift1 its aim1 is hol9ess f fir/ to la/4 ,! writ] is mov$ ?r\gh\t by ! ,holy ,_s--! ,_s ( tru? & righte\sness--! ,_s ( ,god4 ,we see x1 we feel x1 9 e "p4 ,we want no pro( ( ! fact 9 ! %ape ( miracle2 ! pro( is 9 ! /ory itself4 ,x is n a matt] ( dispute2 x is a matt] ( pla9 unque/ionable fact4 ,& t ! /ory is ess5tially1 morally1 & et]nally true1 is prov$ by all ! ev5ts ( hi/ory1 by all ! facts ( consci\sness1 & by ! laws & con/itution ( univ]sal nature4 ,& 9 ! hi/ory ( man's fir/ s9 z "h giv51 & 9 ! acc\nt ( its effects1 & 9 ! conduct ( ,god to ! s9n+ pair1 ,i f9d1 n ! mon/] fictions ( an immoral & blasphem\s !ology1 b ! mo/ important elem5ts ( moral1 religi\s1 & physical sci5ce4 ,& in/ead ( feel+ tempt$ to ridicule ! docum5t1 ,i am con/ra9$ to gaze on x ) ! highe/ admiration & ! pr(\nde/ rev]5ce = its amaz+ wisdom4 ,z to :e!r ! acc\nt ( ! creation ( ! man & ! woman1 & ! /ory ( ! =bidd5 fruit1 & ( ! s]p5t1 & ( ! tree ( life1 are to be tak5 lit]ally or allegorically1 ,i h no conc]n at pres5t4 ,my sole conc]n ) x is t ( a ,*ri/ian tea*] & morali/4 ,! only "q ) me is3 ',is x div9ely inspir$8 ,does ! writ] speak z a man mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s8 ,is x ! t5d5cy ( ! /ory to make m5 lawless1 recklessly self-indulg5t1 reg>dless ( ,god & duty2 or is x ! t5d5cy ( ! /ory to make m5 fe> ,god & "w righte\sness8' ,& t is a "q answ]$ by ! /ory itself4 ,on o!r matt]s ! au?or writes z a man ( 8 age & c\ntry2 on ?is1 ! only matt] ( importance1 he writes z a man mov$ by ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,& :at ,i say ( ! acc\nts ( ,creation1 ,i say ( ! hi/ory ( ,ca9 & ,abel1 ( ,eno* & ,job1 ( ,noah & ! ,flood1 ( ,abraham & ,lot1 ( ,moses & 8 laws1 & ( ! ,hebrews & _! hi/ory1 ( ! ,psalms & ,prov]bs1 ( ! ,prophets & ,apo/les4 ,all h "o aim & t5d5cy2 all make = righte\sness4 ,! writ]s are all mov$ by "o ,_s--! ,_s ( hol9ess4 ,) ! exception ( ! ,book call$ ,solomon's ,song1 & "s o!r unimportant portions ( ! ,bible1 ! ,scriptures all be> unque/ionable m>ks1 are full f ,g5esis to ,revelations1 ( pro(s indubitable1 t !y are ! products ( div9e inspiration2 t _! au?ors wrote z !y 7 mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s4 ,:atev] _! rank or pr(ession1 :atev] _! position or education1 :atev] _! age or c\ntry1 :atev] _! p>ticul> views on matt]s ( le>n+ or sci5ce1 ! sacr$ writ]s all speak z m5 "u holy1 heav5ly influ5ces1 & _! writ+s1 h[ev] !y may diff] 9 /yle1 or size1 or o!r respects1 are all1 pr(itable = doctr9e1 = repro(1 = correction1 = in/ruction 9 righte\sness3 t ! man ( ,god may be p]fect1 ?or\ghly furni%$ unto all good works4 #af4 ,i h be5 ask$ :y ,i d n publi% a refutation ( my =m] reason+s "o by "o1 & a full explanation & def5ce ( my pres5t views4 ,i answ]1 my only reason = n do+ ?is1 s f> z x is really desirable1 is a want ( "t4 ,i did some?+ 9 ?is l9e 9 my ,review4 ,i h done a little m 9 my lectures on ! ,bible & on ,fai? & ,sci5ce1 & ,i hope1 9 "t1 to d m4 #ag4 ,i h be5 ask$ aga91 :y ,i %un discussion on ! subject4 ,i answ]1 ,i h nev] done s4 ,:5 ^? :o invite me to lecture wi% me to all[ discussion1 ,i comply ) _! wi%es4 ,i agre$ to a public discussion at ,nor?ampton2 b ! p]son :o 0 to h met me drew back4 ,aga91 if any "o really wi%es to discuss ) me1 he c d s ?r\gh ! press4 ,i publi%$ my views 9 my ,review ?irte5 or f\rte5 ye>s ago4 ,i h publi%$ _m ( !m s9ce 9 a numb] ( pamphlets1 giv+ all z good an opportunity ( discuss+ !m z !y c wi%4 ,& !re is n ! same necessity = a man :o has publi%$ 8 views ?r\gh ! press1 to invite discussion on ! plat=m1 z !re is = a man :o has n giv5 8 views ?r\gh ! press4 ,! foll[+ lett]1 writt5 to a fri5d 9 ,newca/le-on-,tyne1 may expla9 my views on ?is po9t a little m fully3-- ,,my ,,de> ,,sir1--,9 answ] to y\r "q :e!r ,i w meet ! ,repres5tative ( ,secul>ism 9 debate1 ,i w\ld say1 t ,i _h r1 = sev]al reasons1 sp5d :at rema9s ( my life & /r5g? 9 peaceful labors z a prea*]1 a lectur]1 & an au?or4 ,i seem to h done en\gh 9 ! way ( public discussion4 ,& ,i h n ! am\nt ( physical or n]v\s en]gy1 or ! /r5g? ( voice & lungs1 :i* ,i once _h4 ,i am suff]+1 n only f ! effects ( age1 b f a t]rible %ock receiv$ 9 a collision on ! railway1 caus+ s]i\s p>alysis ( my "r side1 & greatly r$uc+ ! =ce & action ( my he>t & bra94 ,!n ,i am n ! repres5tative ( ! ,*ur*1 or ( any section ( x4 ,i c only /& =? z ! advocate ( my own views4 ,fur!r2 !re are _m que/ions connect$ ) ! ,bible1 :i* appe> to me m fitt$ = quiet ?\ght & fri5dly discussion among s*ol>s & critics1 ?an = debate 9 a popul> audi5ce4 ,on _m ( ^? po9ts ,*ri/ian div9es diff] among !mselves4 ,!y diff]1 = in/ance1 to "s ext5t1 9 _! views ( ,bible inspiration & ! sacr$ canon2 !y diff] z to ! wor? ( manuscripts1 texts1 & v]sions1 ! validity ( v>i\s read+s1 ! orig9 & significance ( discrepancies 9 "s ( ! hi/orical & *ronological portions ( ! ,bible1 c41 c4 ,on none ( ^! po9ts d ,i consid] myself call$ ^u to /ate or advocate any p>ticul> views4 ,!re are h[ev] po9ts ( a broad] & m important "*1 on :i* a public popul> discussion might be prop] & useful2 su* z ! g5]al drift & scope ( ! ,bible1 or its aim & t5d5cy2 ! "* & t5d5cy ( ,*ri/ianity z pres5t$ 9 ! life & tea*+s ( its ,au?or1 & 9 ! writ+s ( ! ,apo/les2 ! comp>ative m]its ( ,*ri/ianity1 & ( ,a!i/ic ,secul>ism z set =? 9 ! writ+s ( ,secul>i/s4 ,i und]/& ! lead]s ( ! ,secul>i/s to tea*1 t ,*ri/ianity is exce$+ly mis*iev\s 9 its t5d5cy1--t x is adv]se to civilization1 & to ! temporal int]e/s ( mank9d g5]ally1--t ! ,bible is ! curse ( ,europe1 c4 ,^! are subjects on :i* a popul> audi5ce may be z well qualifi$ to judge1 z s*ol>s & critics4 ,& if y p>ticul>ly desire x1 ,i w au?orize y to arrange = a discussion on !m betwe5 me & su* repres5tative ( ,secul>ism z y may ?9k fit4 ,i %\ld n h[ev] l ! discussion to occupy m ?an ?ree nights 9 any "o week4 ,& ,i %\ld wi% effectual precautions to be tak5 to secure a peaceful & ord]ly debate4 ,x w be necess>y also to h ! subjects to be discuss$ pla9ly & def9itely /at$4 ,y\rs1 mo/ respectfully1 ,,joseph ,,b>k]4 #ah4 ,i may n[ add1 t ! evid5ces :i* _h mo/ to d 9 conv9c+ me ( ! tru? & div9ity ( ,*ri/ianity1 7 ! int]nal ones4 ,i 0 influ5c$ m by moral & spiritual1 ?an by hi/orical & critical consid]ations4 ,i d n ?9k lightly ( ,paley's works on ! ,evid5ces1 or ( ,miall's ,bases ( ,belief1 or ( ,dr4 ,hopk9s'1 or ,dr4 ,*ann+'s1 or ,dr4 ,prie/ley's ,evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity2 b ! ,bible1 & especially ! /ory ( ,*ri/1 0 ! pr9cipal in/rum5t ( my conv]sion4 ,i believ$ fir/ ) my he>t r ?an my head4 ,true1 my head soon ju/ifi$ ! belief ( my he>t3 b my he>t 0 fir/ 9 ! bus9ess4 ,i believe 9 miracles2 ,i ?9k !m ( great importance4 ,i believe especially 9 ! miracles ( ,*ri/4 ,b t :i* melt$ my he>t2 t :i* won my inf9ite admiration2 t :i* fill$ me ) unspeakable love & gratitude2 t :i* made me a ,*ri/ian & a ,*ri/ian believ]1 0 ,*ri/ himself4 ,ev5 ,8 miracles mov$ me m z expressions ( ,8 love1 ?an z pro(s ( ,8 p[]4 ,! great ?+ t ov]p[]$ me 0 ! inf9ite excell5cy ( ,*ri/1 & ! wond]ful adaptation ( ,*ri/ianity to ! spiritual & moral1 ! social & physical1 wants ( mank9d1 ,*ri/ ,himself is ,8 own be/ advocate4 ,8 life & "* are ,8 /ronge/ claims on our love & loyalty4 ,& ,8 religion1 l ! sun1 is its own be/ evid5ce ( its div9ity4 ,! inf9ite wor? ( ! sun--! a/oni%+ & inf9itely v>i$ adaptation ( 8 light & w>m? to ! wants ( e liv+ ?+--8 wond]ful & b5efic5t effects on plants & trees1 on animals & man1 are ! /ronge/ pro(s ( ,8 ,div9e orig9al4 ,& s ) ,*ri/ianity1 ! ,sun ( ! moral & spiritual _w4 ,x proves its heav5ly orig9 by its amaz+ adaptation to man's nature1 & by its almighty t5d5cy to promote 8 improvem5t & p]fection2 by ! light1 ! life1 ! bless$ness x gives2 by ! love x k9dles2 by ! glori\s trans=mations :i* x effects 9 deprav$ individuals & deg5]ate communities2 by ! peace1 ! hope1 ! joy x inspires2 & by ! c\rage & /r5g? x imp>ts bo? 9 life & 9 dea?4 #ai4 ,! =m 9 :i* ,*ri/ianity pres5t$ itself to me1 & ! way 9 :i* x op]at$ on my s\l1 may be se5 f ! articles ,i wrote on ,*ri/ & ,8 tea*+s1 ab\t ! "t ( my conv]sion4 ,!y ref] to ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/ ) reg>d to a ,fa!rly ,god1 & ,8 lov+ c>e ( ,8 creatures4 ,! fir/ ?+ t /ruck me 9 ?is doctr9e 0 its beauty & t5d]ness4 ,x is j ! k9d ( doctr9e :i* ! he>ts ( ! be/ ( m5 w\ld wi% to be true4 ,x answ]s to ! weaknesses & ! wants ( our nature2 to ! long+s & aspirations ( our s\ls4 ,x is full ( consolation4 ,x makes ! univ]se complete4 ,x makes man's life wor? liv+4 ,x makes ! greatness1 ! va/ness1 ! inf9itude ( our intellectual & affectional nature a bless+4 ,x gives peace--! peace t passes und]/&+4 ,x gives joy1--! joy t is unspeakable & full ( glory4 ,x op5s our lips 9 ! sight ( sorr[1 & enables u to give ! suff]] consolation4 ,x gives ! univ]se a head4 ,x gives x unity4 ,x gives to man a ,rul]4 ,x gives to law a comm&+ =ce4 ,x gives to consci5ce a controll+ p[]4 ,x makes virtue duty1 :ile x gives to x fre% gr&eur & beauty4 ,x exalts x 9 our eyes2 & x ende>s x to our he>ts4 ,& x furni%es ! all-p]fect example4 ,& x makes reasonable ! inculcation ( humility & *>ity1 ( =be>ance & =giv5ess4 ,& x dignifies ! "w ( b5efic5ce4 ,x makes u ! allies & fell[-work]s ( ! inf9ite4 ,x makes u "o ) ,him4 ,9 tea*+ ! ignorant1 9 br++ back ! err+1 9 /r5g!n+ ! weak1 9 re=m+ ! vici\s1 9 *e]+ ! sad1 9 bless+ ! _w1 we are work+ z *ildr5 9 fell[%ip ) _! inf9ite ,fa!r1 & ! pulses ( our g5]\s nature beat 9 h>mony ) ! liv+1 lov+1 all-p]vad+ ,_s ( ! univ]se4 ,& :ile x bright5s ! pres5t1 x gilds ! future4 ,x makes a bless$ immortality a natural c]ta9ty4 ,if ,god our ,fa!r lives1 !n we ,8 *ildr5 %all live also4 ,dea? is aboli%$4 ,day dawns at la/ on ! night ( ! grave4 ,e>? is our bir?-place & our nurs]y2 dea? is ! gate-way to inf9ity1 & !re is our glori\s & et]nal home4 ,our "w = ev] is ! joy\s "w ( do+ good4 ,our future life is an et]nal unfold+1 & a delightful ex]cise1 ( our highe/ p[]s4 ,! my/]ies ( univ]sal nature op5 to our view1 & 9 ! conflu5ce ( ! delights ( k & ! transports ( b5evol5ce1 our joy is full2 our bliss complete4 ,?is doctr9e1 9 ! =m 9 :i* ,jesus pres5ts x1 has hold ( ! he>ts ( ne>ly ! :ole population ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,x has ! /ronge/ hold on ! be/4 ,ev5 ^? :o d\bt x1 d\bt x ) a sigh2 & ^? :o give x up1 surr5d] x ) regret4 ,& z !y make ! sacrifice ! e>? gr[s d>k4 ,& life gr[s sad4 ,& nature we>s ! air ( desolation4 ,! music ( ! woods becomes less sweet4 ,! beauty ( ! fl[]s becomes less *>m+4 ,!re creeps a dre>y sil5ce ov] l& & sea4 ,exi/5ce loses m ?an half its *>ms4 ,! light ( life burns dim4 ,! pa/1 ! pres5t1 & ! future all are *e]less4 ,! _w is "o va/ orphan-h\se4 ,mank9d are fa!rless4 ,our de>e/ ones are desolate4 ,& language has no ^w to com=t !m4 ,! lov] sighs4 ,! husb& & ! fa!r weeps4 ,! brave/ /& agha/4 ,! *>m ( life1 ! unmix$ bliss ( be+1 is no m4 ,b ! "q ( que/ions is1 ,is ! doctr9e true8 ,! he>t says x is1 & ev5 ! intellect ackn[l$ges t !re are t5 ?\s& appe>ances 9 nature :i* _c be acc\nt$ = on any o!r pr9ciple4 ,we _c at pres5t dwell on ! subject2 b ! doctr9e ( ,jesus ) reg>d to ,god & immortality is ! gr&e/ & mo/ consol+1 & is ! mo/ adapt$ to /r5g!n ! s\l to duty1 & to *e] & support x "u suff]+1 t ! m9d ( man c conceive4 ,& !n z to ,jesus ,himself1 ! love & ! rev]5ce ) :i* ,he is honor$ by s l>ge a portion ( ! =emo/ nations ( ! e>?1 are no mi/ake1--no accid5t4 ,!y are ! natural result ( ,8 wor? & excell5cy4 ,!y are ! natural response ( ! g5]\s he>t ( humanity1 to its wise/ ,tea*]1 its l(tie/ ,example1 & its greate/ ,b5efactor4 ,! dev\te/ love1 ! livelie/ gratitude1 ! ri*e/ honors1 ! co/lie/ (f]+s are 81--,he des]ves !m all4 ,& ,8 "n %all rema91 & ,8 fame %all spread1 z long z ! sun & moon endure4 ,all nations love & adore ! good4 ,m5 w ev5 die = !m4 ,:at wond] !n t ,jesus %\ld be s lov$8 ,:at wond] t s _m tongues %\ld praise ,him1 s _m he>ts adore ,him1 & s _m nations b[ be=e ,him1 & accept ,him z _! ,"l8 ,= ,he devot$ ,himself to ! s]vice1 n ( a class or a nation1 b ( ! _w4 ,! sick1 ! poor1 ! ignorant1 ! fall52 ! little innoc5t *ildr51 ! wrong$ & outca/ woman1 ! hat$ ,sam>itan1 ! despis$ ,pagan1 ! obnoxi\s publican1 ! y\?ful prodigal1 ! dy+ p5it5t1 ! cruel p]secutor1 all %>$ ,8 love1 ,8 pity1 & ,8 pray]s4 ,he liv$1 ,he taught1 ,he di$ = all4 #bj4 ,! fir/ ,*ri/ians t invit$ me to prea* 7 ! ,me?odi/ ,re=m]s ( ,wolv]hampton4 ,! next 7 ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s ( ,tun/all & ,bil/on4 ,! ,primitive ,me?odi/s at ,tun/all invit$ me to jo9 _! community1 & z soon z ,i consi/5tly c\ld1 ,i did s4 ,i 0 aft]w>ds accept$ z a local prea*]4 ,my labors z a prea*] & lectur] h be5 mo/ly 9 connection ) t community4 ,i 0 specially /ruck ) ! zeal1 ! labors1 & ! usefulness ( ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s :ile on my way f ! wilds ( error2 & my int]c\rse ) its m9i/]s & memb]s s9ce ,i became a ,*ri/ian1 has prov$ to me an unspeakable com=t & bless+4 ,i h receiv$ f !m ! greate/ k9dness3 & ,i pray ,god t ,i may prove a com=t & a bless+ to !m 9 return4 #ba4 ,i _h great sacrifices to make :5 ,i r5\nc$ my connection ) ! unbeliev]s & became a ,*ri/ian1 & = "s "t ,i & my family _h exp]i5ce ( sev]e trials4 ,we _h to give up our old bus9ess1 & x seem$ impossible to obta9 a new "o1 & = a "t we 7 ?reat5$ ) ! bitt]ness ( want4 ,we 7 unwill+ to ask a favor ( any ,*ri/ian p>ty1 le/ our motives = embrac+ ,*ri/ianity %\ld be suspect$2 & at times ,i felt p]plex$ & sad4 ,"o day my elde/ son1 see+ ,i 0 depress$1 said1 ,fa!r1 de>1 don't be tr\bl$4 ,we mu/ tru/ 9 ,god n[4 ,i d tru/ 9 ,him2 & ,i am s happy to ?9k t we are all ,*ri/ians1 t ,i c be> any?+4 ,god bless 8 de> good s\l4 ,we did tru/ 9 ,god1 & ,he su/a9$ u4 ,he suppli$ our wants4 ,he ov]rul$ all ?+s = our good4 ,& we c n[ say1 ,! l9es h fall5 to u 9 pleasant places2 we h a goodly h]itage4 #bb4 ,i h met ) "s unpleasantnesses s9ce my return to ,*ri/2 b ,i am n sure t !y are wor? nam+2 & = ! pres5t !y %all rema9 unnam$4 ,i h met ) _m ?+s ( a v pleasant "*4 ,?\s&s t foll[$ me into d\bt h come back ) me to ,*ri/ianity4 ,?\s&s t 7 s9k+1 7 sav$ by my conv]sion4 ,i believe ,i may say ?\s&s ( unbeliev]s t 7 n l$ into d\bt by me1 h be5 r$eem$ f _! wret*$ness ?r\gh my example & labors4 ,"s "y m9i/]s h be5 kept f ra% & ru9\s /eps by ! /ory ( my exp]i5ce4 ,_m believ]s h be5 /r5g!n$ 9 _! fai? & enc\rag$ 9 _! ,*ri/ian labors "u my s]mons & lectures4 ,_m h be5 b5efit$ by my publications4 ,my family has be5 greatly com=t$ & bless$4 ,! p[] ( ! infidel class has be5 dim9i%$4 ,i h myself enjoy$ a k9d & a degree ( happ9ess t ,i nev] enjoy$ :ile ! slave ( d\bt & unbelief4 ,& x is a great consolation to ?9k t ,i 0 br\ght to ,god :ile 9 my heal? & /r5g?1 & t ,i h n[ be5 p]mitt$ to sp5d f elev5 to twelve ye>s 9 ! "w ( ,*ri/4 ,ano!r great com=t is1 t my circum/ances are su* z to enable me to give "s pro( ( my devotion to ! cause ( ,*ri/2 ( my inf9ite pref]5ce ( ! religion ( ,*ri/1 bo? to ! mis]able philosophy ( unbelief1 & to ! wret*$ fictions ( ignorant or anti-,*ri/ian div9es4 #bc4 ,i read q a multitude ( books on my way back to ,*ri/1 & if ,i _h "t1 ,i w\ld give "s acc\nt ( ! influ5ce :i* "s ( !m made on my m9d4 ,b ,i h n4 ,x may seem /range1 b ,i _h sunk bel[ ! level ( anci5t ,paganism1 & ! books :i* ,i read on my fir/ awak+ to a consci\sness t ,i 0 wrong1 7 ,pagan works4 ,i read mu* 9 ,plato & ,ari/otle1 ,cic]o & ,s5eca1 = a "t1 & !n 9 ,plut>*1 ,m4 ,a4 ,anton9e1 & ,epictetus4 ,! works ( ,epictetus1 ) ! comm5ts ( ,simplicius1 prov$ exce$+ly pr(itable4 ,i !n read ! writ+s ( ,!odore ,p>k]1 ,dr4 ,*ann+1 & "s ( ! works ( ,dr4 ,prie/ley1 & got good f all4 ,!y all help$ to inspire me ) a horror ( ,a!ism1 & to /r5g!n my fai? 9 ,god1 & 9 ,8 b\ndless & et]nal love4 ,i next read a numb] ( my own works1 beg9n+ ) ^? t 7 some:at skeptical1 & read+ backw>ds1 to ^? :i* 7 ,*ri/ian4 ,i !n read freely my old companions & favorites1 includ+ ,hook]1 ,baxt]1 & ,h[e2 ,j]emy ,taylor1 ,william ,law1 & ,bi%op ,butl]4 ,i read ,%akespe>e freely1 & ,pope1 & !n ,?omson1 & ,goldsmi?1 & ,"y1 & ,c[p]1 & ,t5nyson1 & sev]al o!rs ( our poets4 ,!n came ! works ( ,c>lyle1 ,burke1 ,p5n1 & ,wesley2 ( ,rob]t ,hall1 & ,dr4 ,cooke1 & ,mr4 ,newton2 & ! writ+s ( ,paley & ,grotius4 ,i also read ,guizot's ,hi/ory ( ,civilization1 & ^? portions ( ,dr4 ,h5ry's ,hi/ory ( ,engl& t ref]r$ to ! ,*ur* & ,*ri/ianity4 ,/ill lat] ,i read ,augu/9e's ,confessions1 ,montalemb]t's ,monks ( ! ,we/1 & ev]y?+ ,i c\ld f9d to illu/rate ! hi/ory ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,i 0 delight$1 transport$1 ) _m ( ,wesley's hymns4 ,i f\nd 9 !m an am\nt ( tru?1 & beauty1 & ri*ness ( good feel+1 ,i _h nev] f\nd 9 !m be=e4 ,i read _m ( ! hymns ( ,watts ) great pleasure1 z well z sev]al collections ( hymns & poetry by ,r\ndell ,palm] & o!rs4 ,i also read ! writ+s ( ,*alm]s1 ,:ewell1 & ,"l ,br\gham on natural !ology1 & ! works ( sev]al o!r au?ors on t subject4 ,at a lat] p]iod ,i read some?+ 9 ,ne&]1 ,lange1 & o!rs on ! life ( ,*ri/4 ,/ill lat] ,i read ,"y's ,*ri/ ( ,hi/ory1 ) ,r5an & ,ecce ,homo4 ,r5an tri$ me v mu*4 ,he seem$ to write 9 ! sc(f+ _s ( ,voltaire1 & ,i laid ! book aside be=e ,i got to ! end4 ,ecce ,homo delight$ me exce$+ly4 ,i read x a doz5 times4 ,i /udi$ x1 & x did me a great deal ( good4 ,x bo? /r5g!n$ my fai? 9 ,*ri/1 & increas$ my love to ,him4 ,/ill lat] ,i read ,ecce ,deus ) pleasure & pr(it4 ,! book h[ev] t did me mo/ good 0 ! ,bible4 ,i came to x cont9ually1 z to an ov]fl[+ f\nta91 & drank ( its wat]s ) ev]-increas+ delight4 #bd4 ,i began to prea* be=e ,i 0 fit2 b ,i nev] might h be5 fit1 if ,i _h n begun4 ,i became fit by work+ :ile unfit4 ,& my imp]fect labors prov$ a bless+ to _m4 #be4 ,!re 0 mu* prejudice aga9/ me at fir/2 b n m ?an ,i _h reason to expect2 & x gradually gave place to confid5ce & k9d feel+4 ,"s said ,i ought to rema9 sil5t a few ye>s2 b z ,i did n "k :at a few ye>s or ev5 a few days might br+ =?1 ,i ?\ght x be/ to speak at once4 ,i _h spok5 freely en\gh on ! wrong side1 & ,i saw no reason :y ,i %\ld n speak z freely & at once on ! "r side4 ,nor d ,i regret ! c\rse ,i took4 ,x 0 ! be/4 ,"s t ?\ght o!rwise at fir/1 ?9k z ,i d n[4 ,= in/ance1 :5 ,mr4 ,ev]ett fir/ he>d t "s ( 8 fri5ds _h invit$ me to prea* = !m1 he 0 v angry1 & said ,i ought nev] to speak or %[ my face aga9 9 public z long z ,i liv$4 ,9 less ?an f\r ye>s he came to he> me1 0 mu* affect$1 %ook me by ! h&1 ?ank$ me1 invit$ me to 8 h\se1 %[$ me 8 libr>y1 & 8 museum ( ,me?odi/ antiquities & curiosities1 (f]$ me a home 9 8 h\se1 & 0 z k9d to me z a fa!r4 ,i nev] qu>rell$ ) p = reg>d+ me ) di/ru/ or fe>1 ?\gh ,i (t5 *eck$ my ov]-zeal\s fri5ds1 :o 7 dispos$ to qu>rel ) all :o did n reg>d me ) ! same am\nt ( love & confid5ce z !mselves4 ,i h nev] def5d$ myself aga9/ sl&]]s1 ei!r by ^w or writ+1 except :5 ju/ice to my fri5ds has seem$ to require x4 ,i h nev] compla9$ ( any disadvantages "u :i* ,i h labor$4 ,x is "r t a man :o has err$ z ,i h1 %\ld h some?+ unpleasant 9 8 lot to rem9d him ( 8 error1 & r5d] him m c>eful & pray]ful = ! "t to come3 & !re is to me a pleasure 9 do+ p5ance = my faults4 #bf4 ,i h nev] ?r[n ! :ole blame ( my errors on o!rs1 nor h ,i ev] se5 reason to take ! :ole to myself4 ,god alone is able to di/ribute praise & blame1 rew>ds & puni%m5ts1 accord+ to m5's des]ts1 & to ,him ,i leave ! task4 ,at fir/ ,i 0 dispos$ to be v sev]e t[>ds myself3 b two ye>s' exp]i5ce 9 ! religi\s body t ,i fir/ jo9$1 ( a k9d ( treatm5t resembl+ t ( my e>ly days1 satisfi$ me t ,i ought to judge myself a little m l5i5tly4 ,i w\ld n h[ev] be unduly sev]e t[>ds o!rs4 ,i _c tell1 :5 a man does me wrong1 h[ f> he may be "u ! influ5ce ( unavoidable error1 & h[ f> he may be "u ! influ5ce ( a wick$ w4 ,i may be able to measure ! inju/ice ( ! act1 b n ! wick$ness ( ! actor4 ,god alone c d t4 ,a man's treatm5t ( me may satisfy me t ,i ought n to place myself 9 8 p[]2 b _c ju/ify me 9 say+ ( him t he des]ves ! damnation ( hell4 ,! rule ) reg>d to m5's des]ts is1 ,judge n1 t ye be n judg$4 #bg4 ,b :5 ,i h made ! mo/ lib]al all[ance = myself1 & ev5 :ile ,i feel satisfi$ t 9 my inve/igations my object 0 ! discov]y ( tru?1 & t my errors 7 :olly un9t5tional1 ,i mu/ /ill feel a%am$ & mortifi$ at ! ?\ght t ,i 0 s weak z to be capable ( su* griev\s errors4 ,ev5 :5 ,i take into acc\nt ! imp]fection ( my education1 & ! disadvantages ( my situation1 & all ! temptations by :i* ,i 0 assail$1 ,i am /ill a%am$ & humbl$1 & feel t my place is 9 ! du/4 ,b if1 :ile pro/rate1 ,god says to me1 ,arise6 %all ,i resi/ ! call8 ,if 9 ! ex]cise ( ,8 love ,he re/ores to me ! joys ( ,8 salvation1 & bids me speak & labor 9 ,8 cause1 %all ,i n ?ankfully obey ! heav5ly voice8 ,%all ,i c>ry my humility to ! extreme ( disob$i5ce8 ,%all ,i n r arise1 &1 ) a *e]ful & joy\s he>t1 d my ,savi\r :at s]vice ,i c8 ,i w n presume to usurp ! pr]ogative ( ,god1 ev5 to judge & puni% myself4 ,i w leave myself to ,him1 ! m]ciful & all-kn[+1 & ,he %all d ) me :at ,he sees be/4 ,i w n reject ,8 m]cy4 ,i w n resi/ ,8 w4 ,let ,him d :at seeme? to ,him good1 :e!r x be 9 ! way ( t5d]ness or ( sev]ity4 ,x has pleas$ ,him1 ?us f>1 to m+le mu* compassion ) ,8 *a/isem5ts1 & ,8 goodness calls = gratitude & joy4 #bh4 ,& z ,i act t[>ds ,god1 ,i w act t[>ds ,8 p4 ,if !y fr[n on me1 ,i w take x pati5tly2 b if !y welcome me ) demon/rations ( affection1 ,i w rejoice4 ,if !y close _! pulpits aga9/ me1 ,i w say1 ,y\r w be done4 ,if !y op5 !m to me1 ,i w ent]1 &1 to ! be/ ( my ability1 decl>e ! c\nsel ( ,god4 ,a portion ( ,god's p1--a l>ge & mo/ wor?y portion--h receiv$ me graci\sly2 & my duty is1 & my endeavor1 ,i tru/1 w be1 to reciprocate _! love & confid5ce4 ,i say ) ! poet3-- ,p ( ! liv+ ,god1 ,i h s\ght ! _w ar\nd1 ,pa?s ( d\bt & sorr[ trod1 ,peace & com=t n[h]e f\nd2 ,n[ to y my _s turns1 ,turns1 a fugitive unble/2 ,bre?r51 :]e y\r alt> burns ,o receive me to y\r re/4 ,lonely ,i no long] roam1 ,l ! cl\d1 ! w9d1 ! wave2 ,:]e y dwell %all be my home1 ,:]e y die %all be my grave2 ,m9e ! ,god :om y adore1 ,y\r ,r$eem] %all be m9e2 ,e>? c fill my he>t no m1 ,all my joys %all be div9e4 #bi4 ,x seems /range t ,i %\ld h be5 p]mitt$ to w&] into d\bt & unbelief1 & live s long "u its d>kness & horrors4 ,!re is a my/]y ab\t x t ,i _c und]/&4 ,b :at ,i "k n n[1 ,i may "k h]eaft]4 ,! my/]y ( ,job's trial 0 expla9$ :5 8 afflictions 7 at an end4 ,! my/]y ( my /range trial is /ill wrapt up 9 d>kness4 ,true1 my /range exp]i5ce has n be5 an unmix$ calamity4 ,x has br\ght me advantages :i* ,i c\ld n o!rwise h enjoy$4 ,i "k ?+s :i* ,i nev] c\ld h kn[n1 if ,i _h always rema9$ )9 ! enclosures ( ! ,*ur*1 & "u ! influ5ce ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,& my he>t is m subdu$ to ! w ( ,god4 ,i am m at "o ) ,him ?an ,i ev] 0 be=e4 ,i love ,him m4 ,i love ,jesus m4 ,i love ,8 religion m4 ,i h a cle>] view & a full] k ( its inf9ite wor?4 ,i h1 ( c\rse1 a full] k ( ! horrors ( infidelity4 ,& my fai? 9 ,god & ,*ri/ianity re/s on a firm] f\ndation ?an x did 9 my e>ly days4 ,_m ?+s :i* ,i once only believ$1 ,i n[ "k4 ,_m ?+s = :i* ,i _h =m]ly only ! te/imony ( o!rs1 ,i n[ "k to be true by my own exp]i5ce4 ,!re are q a multitude ( ?+s on :i* ,i h great] c]ta9ty1 & on :i* ,i c1 9 consequ5ce1 speak ) m au?ority ?an 9 my e>ly days4 ,!re are1 too1 cases ( d\bt :i* ,i c meet1 :i* =m]ly ,i c\ld n h met4 ,i c make m all[ances too1 ?an =m]ly1 = ^? :o are tr\bl$ ) d\bt1 or ensn>$ by error4 ,& my prea*+1 9 "s cases1 is m p[]ful4 ,& ,i am m free f bigotry & intol]ance4 ,:ile ,i see m to love & admire 9 ! ,*ur* g5]ally1 ,i love all h>d-work+ *ur*es )\t p>tiality4 ,i ?9k less ( ! po9ts on :i* !y diff]1 & m ( ! po9ts on :i* !y agree4 ,!y appe> to me m z "o *ur*4 ,!re are _m po9ts on :i* ,i might once h engag$ 9 controv]sy1 :i* n[ appe> ( little or no mom5t4 ,:ile ,i h m zeal = ,god1 ,i h m *>ity = m54 ,!re are _m ?+s 9 ,wesley's hymns1 & _m ?+s 9 o!r hymns1 :i* =m]ly ,i did n und]/& or appreciate1 or und]/ood & appreciat$ b v imp]fectly1 :i* n[ ,i und]/& m p]fectly1 & prize m highly4 ,& s ) _m ?+s 9 ! ,bible4 #cj4 ,& ,i h1 at times1 & h _h = ye>s1 /range glimpses ( ! magnific5ce & wondr\sness ( ! univ]se2 />tl+ views ( ! awful gr&eur & movem5ts ( its huge orbs1 & ( ! t]rible work+ ( its great =ces1 & an ov]p[]+ sight & s5se ( ! pres5ce & p[] ( ! liv+ ,god 9 all1 :i* ,i nev] _h 9 my e>li] days4 ,& ,i h (t5 _h1 & /ill h1 at times1 /range feel+s ( ! fact & my/]y ( exi/5ce3 ( my own exi/5ce1 & ( ! exi/5ce ( o!r be+s1 & ( ,god4 #ca4 ,& ,i h1 at times1 /range feel+s ) reg>d to ! inf9ite value ( life & consci\sness1 & ( my intellectual & moral p[]s4 ,& ,i h pleasant & wond]ful ?\ghts & feel+s ) reg>d to ! l[] animals1 z ! creatures ( ,god1 my ,fa!r2 & z manife/ations ( ,8 goodness1 & wisdom1 & p[]2 & z %>]s ) me ( an inf9ite ,fa!r's love4 ,& ,i love !m z ,i nev] lov$ !m 9 my e>li] days4 ,i feel happi] 9 _! company4 ,i li/5 ) m pleasure to ! songs ( birds1 & gaze ) m delight on e liv+ ?+4 ,! e>? & its inhabitants are new to me4 ,! plants & fl[]s are new4 ,! univ]se is new4 ,i am new to myself4 ,all ?+s are new4 ,x seems1 at times1 z if ! new1 enl>g$1 & high] life ( :i* ,i h become consci\s ?r\gh my /range exp]i5ce1 7 wor? ! fe>ful price :i* ,i h paid = x4 #cb4 ,b !n aga9 ,i ?9k ( ! "t ,i sp5t 9 s9 & folly1--( ! mis*ief ,i did 9 ^? d>k days1--( ! grief ,i caus$ to s _m good & godly s\ls1--( ! sorr[s ,i entail$ on ^? mo/ de> to me1 & ( ! t]rible disadvantages "u :i* ,i labor1 & "u :i* ,i mu/ always labor1 9 consequ5ce ( my unacc\ntable errors1 & ,i am conf\nd$ & dismay$4 ,b !n1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i am rem9d$ t ,i did n s9 wilfully1--t ,i did n err purposely or wantonly1--t :at ,i did amiss ,i did 9 ignorance1--t ,i v]ily believ$ myself 9 ! way ( duty :5 ,i w5t a/ray1--t ,i 0 influ5c$ by a desire to "k ! tru?1--t ,i believ$ myself1 at ! outset1 b\nd z a ,*ri/ian1 & z a creature ( ,god1 to use my faculties to ! utmo/ 9 se>*+ ! ,scriptures1 & explor+ ,nature1 9 pursuit ( tru?1--t :5 ,i advocat$ infidel views1 ,i advocat$ !m believ+ !m to be true1 & believ+ t tru? mu/ be mo/ conducive to ! virtue & happ9ess ( mank9d4 ,true1 appe>ances 7 aga9/ me2 b ,i felt myself b\nd1 ev5 :5 an unbeliev]1 to walk by fai?1--by fai? 9 pr9ciples :i* ,i suppos$ myself to h f\nd to be true4 ,my life1 ev5 9 my wor/ condition1 0 a life ( self-sacrifice = :at ,i reg>d$ z et]nal tru?4 ,:5 ,i gave up my belief 9 a ,fa!rly ,god1 & my fai? 9 a bless$ immortality1 ,i believ$ myself to be mak+ a sacrifice at ! %r9e ( tru?4 ,i ?\ght ,i he>d h] voice f ! inf9ite univ]se dem&+ ! surr5d]1 & consci5ce compell$ me to comply ) ! dem&4 ,i felt ! dreadful nature ( ! sacrifice1 b :at c\ld ,i d8 ,i rememb] ! words ,i utt]$1 & ,i rememb] ! m+l$ emotions :i* fill$ & agitat$ my s\l1 on t occasion4 ,i 0 di/ress$ at ! t]rible necessity ( giv+ up ! *]i%$ idols ( my s\l1 yet ,i 0 fill$ = a mom5t ) a /range delight at ! ?\ght t ,i 0 do+ my duty 9 compliance ) ! /]n dem&s ( et]nal law1 & ! dread realities ( univ]sal be+4 ,& ,i hop$ aga9/ hope t ! result w\ld all be "r4 ,i weep :5 ,i read ! /range words :i* ,i utt]$ on t d>k & t]rible occasion4 ,i said to myself1 ,! la/ rema9s ( my religi\s fai? are gone4 ,! doctr9es ( a p]sonal ,god1 & ( a future life1 ,i am compell$ to reg>d z ! (fspr+1 n ( ! und]/&+1 b ( ! imag9ation & affections4 ,x is no easy matt] to wean "o's-self f flatt]+ & long *]i%$ illusions4 ,x is no easy matt] to believe t doctr9es :i* h be5 almo/ univ]sally receiv$1 & :i* h be5 s long & s g5]ally reg>d$ z ess5tial to ! virtue & happ9ess ( mank9d--doctr9es1 too1 :i* h m+l$ _! mighty influ5ces ) s mu* ( ! beautiful & sublime 9 human hi/ory1 & :i* /ill1 to s _m1 =m all ! poetry & romance1 almo/ all ! int]e/ & gr&eur & bless$ness ( human life1 h no f\ndation 9 tru?4 ,to p]sons :o believe 9 a ,fa!rly ,god1 & 9 human immortality1 pure naturalism is t]ribly un9vit+4 ,x 0 always s to me4 ,i well rememb] ! m+l$ horror & pity ) :i*1 :5 a ,*ri/ian1 ,i reg>d$ ! man :o _h no p]sonal ,god1 & no hope ( a future life4 ,i rememb] too h[ ,i wrote or spoke ( su*4 ,i m\rn$ ov] !m z ! mo/ hapless & mis]able ( all liv+ be+s4 ,yet ,i myself h come at l5g?1 by sl[ degrees1 aft] a ?\s& /ruggles1 & ) inf9ite reluctance1 to ! dread conclusion1 t a p]sonal ,god & an immortal life are fictions ( ! human m9d4 ,yet exi/5ce has n q lo/ its *>ms1 nor life its enjoym5ts4 ,!re is some?+ inf9itely gr&1 & unspeakably excit+ & elevat+ 9 ! consci\sness ( hav+ made a sacrifice ( ! mo/ popul> & bewit*+ ( all illusions1 out ( respect to tru?4 ,x 0 an enviable /ate ( m9d :i* prompt$1 ! gr& & ?rill+ exclamation1 ,let ju/ice be done1 ?\gh ! heav5s %\ld fall4 ,& t /ate ( m9d is no less enviable :i* c su/a9 a man 9 ! sacrifice ( ,god & immortality at ! %r9e ( tru?4 ,su* a sacrifice1 accompani$1 z x mu/ be 9 ! pres5t /ate ( society1 ) a ?\s& o!r sacrifices ( reputation1 fri5d%ips1 popul> pleasures1 & social favor1 is an ex]cise ( ! highe/ virtue1 a demon/ration ( ! greate/ magnanimity1 & is accompani$ or foll[$ ) an int5sity ( satisfaction :i* none b ! m>tyr-_s ( tru? c conceive4 ,x is (t5 said by ,*ri/ians1 t ! reason :y p]sons d\bt ! exi/5ce ( ,god & a future life is1 t !y h good cause to dread !m2 or1 z ,grotius expresses x1 t !y live 9 su* a way t x w\ld be to _! int]e/ t !re %\ld be no ,god or future life4 ,?is 0 n ! case ) me4 ,my unbelief came ^u me :ile ,i 0 dilig5tly /riv+ 9 all ?+s to d ,god's w4 ,my virtue outliv$ my fai?4 ,born ( ,me?odi/ p>5ts1 & re>$ "u ,*ri/ian influ5ces1 & a ,*ri/ian myself1 & ev5 a ,*ri/ian m9i/] = _m ye>s1 ,i 0 br\ght sl[ly & reluctantly1 9 spite ( a _w ( prejudices1 & 9 spite ( int]e/s & associations & ta/es all b almighty 9 _! influ5ce1 to ! conclusion1 t pure1 unmix$ ,naturalism alone accord$ ) :at 0 kn[n ( ! pres5t /ate & ! pa/ hi/ory ( ! univ]se4 ,i say ,i 0 br\ght to ^! conclusions 9 spite ( a _w ( oppos+ influ5ces4 ,:ile a ,*ri/ian1 all t ! _w c\ld promise or be/[ seem$ to be )9 my rea*4 ,fri5ds1 popul>ity1 weal?1 p[]1 fame2 & visions ( inf9ite usefulness to o!rs1 & ( unb\nd$ happ9ess to myself 9 ! future1 7 all promis$ me z ! rew>d ( cont9u$ devotion to ! cause ( ,god & ,*ri/ianity4 ,z ! rew>d ( h]esy & unbelief1 ,i _h to enc\nt] suspicion1 des]tion1 hatr$1 reproa*1 p]secution1 want1 grief ( fri5ds & k9dr$1 anxi\s days & sleepless nights1 & almo/ e extreme ( m5tal angui%4 ,/ill1 inquiry =c$ me into h]esy fur!r & fur!r e ye>1 & br\ght me at l5g? to ! extreme ( d\bt & unbelief4 ,x 01 !n1 9 no light mood t ,i gave up my fai? 9 ,god1 & ,*ri/1 & immortality4 ,! *ange 9 my views 0 no headlong1 ha/y freak4 ,x 0 ! result ( long & s]i\s ?\ght--( misguid$1 b hone/1 consci5ti\s /udy4 ,& h5ce ,i h sometimes ?\ght1 & am /ill incl9$ to ?9k1 t ,god _h a h& 9 ! matt]--t ,he l$ me1 or p]mitt$ me to w&]1 along t /range & sorr[ful road1 & to pass ?r\gh ^? dre>y & dolor\s sc5es1 & dr9k s deeply ( s dreadful a cup ( sorr[1 = "s good end4 ,he make? ! wra? ( man to praise ,him1 & p]haps he may turn our errors also to good acc\nt4 ,i am n dispos$ to believe t my life has be5 a failure4 ,x may1 = any?+ ,i "k1 prove to h be5 a great success4 ,m5 are educat$ l>gely by _! mi/akes1 says "o4 ,x h>dly seems likely t ,god w\ld suff] a well-int5tion$1 ?\gh weak & err+ *ild1 to ru9 ei!r himself or o!rs = ev]4 ,god is good1 & ! future w ju/ify ,8 ways1 & all ,8 sa9ts %all praise ,him4 ,my bus9ess mean:ile is1 to d :at ,i c to promote ! int]e/s ( tru?1 & ! welf>e ( mank9d4 ,i mu/1 s f> z possible1 r$eem lo/ "t4 ,i h a ?\s& causes = gratitude1 & none = compla9t4 ,i am v happy 9 g5]al2 z happy z ,i desire to be1 & z happy1 ,i expect1 z x is good = me to be4 ,i sometimes feel z if ,i 7 too happy4 ,& ,i c]ta9ly nev] ask ,god to make me m happy4 ,i ask ,him to make me wis]1 & bett]1 & m useful1 b n m happy4 ,at times my cup ( joy runs ov]4 ,x is /range x %\ld be s1 yet s x is4 ,b joy & sorr[ are (t5 f\nd 9 company4 ,paul says ( himself1 ,sorr[ful1 yet always rejoic+4 ,! au?or ( ,ecce ,deus says1 ,! good man's life is "o unbrok5 rep5tance4 ,?r\gh\t 8 life he suff]s on acc\nt ( 8 s9s4 ,:at1 !n ( joy8 he asks3 & he answ]s1 ,x is contemporane\s ) sorr[4 ,!y are insep>able4 ,! joy t is born ( sorr[ is ! only joy t is endur+4 ,x may seem /range1 b x is true1 ! la/ ye> ( my life has be5 ! happie/ ,i ev] exp]i5c$4 ,,*apt] ,,xx4 ,a ,,few ,,( ,,! ,,lessons ,i ,,h ,,le>n$ ,,on ,,my ,,way ,,?r\gh ,,life4 ,& n[ = a few ( ! lessons :i* ,i h le>n$ on my way ?r\gh life4 #a4 ,"o1 alas6 is1 t x is v difficult to br+ "y p to b5efit by ! exp]i5ce ( _! eld]s4 ,x w\ld be a happy ?+ if we c\ld put old m5's heads on "y m5's %\ld]s2 b no me?od ( p]=m+ ! op]ation has1 z yet1 be5 hit ^u4 ,x might answ] z well1 if old m5 c\ld empty _! heads into ! heads ( ! "y4 ,b ?is is a task almo/ z difficult z ! =m]4 ,! heads ( ! "y are g5]ally full ( fooli% ?\ghts1 & va9 conceits1 & wild dreams ( :at !y are to be1 & d1 & enjoy 9 ! days to come1 ) l>ge admixtures at times ( m objectionable mat]ials2 s t !re is no room = ! c\nsels & admonitions ( _! eld]s4 ,!n !re are "s :o d n l to be c\nsell$ or admoni%$4 ,hav+ set _! m9ds on ! atta9m5t ( a c]ta9 object1 !y are unwill+ to li/5 to any b su* z comm5d _! c\rse1 & enc\rage !m ) promises ( success4 ,!re are o!rs :o ?9k !y h no ne$ ( c\nsel or admonition4 ,c\nsel & admonition are prop] en\gh = "s p1 b !y are n requir$ 9 _! case1 !y imag9e4 ,!y d n exactly ?9k !mselves be+s ( a sup]ior ord]1 beyond ! rea* ( ord9>y dang]s2 b !y act z if !y ?\ght s4 ,9 words !y w\ld ackn[l$ge !mselves to be b m51 liable to ! common frailties ( _! race2 b _! conduct seems to say1 ,x is impossible we %\ld ev] err or s9 z "s m5 d2 we are bett] con/ruct$1 & are born to a happi] lot4 ,_! purpose is to d "r1 & x nev] ent]s _! m9ds t !y c ev] d wrong4 ,& if y tell !m t !y are 9 dang] ( becom+ intemp]ate1 or skeptical1 or ( fall+ into any great error or s91 !y feel hurt1 & say1 ,d y suppose we are dogs t we %\ld d su* ?+s8 ,dogs or n1 :5 ! "t ( trial comes1 !y d !m4 ,& !n !y discov]1 t m5 are n always s wise1 s good1 or s /rong z !y suppose !mselves2 t p may be ! subjects ( weaknesses ( :i* !y are utt]ly unconsci\s1 till assail$ by "s unlook$ = temptation2 & !y m\rn at ! la/1 & say1 ,h[ h we hat$ in/ruction1 & despis$ ! c\nsel ( ! ,holy ,"o4 ,& n[ !y see t ! /ronge/ ne$ a /rong] "o ?an !mselves to %ield !m1 & t ! wise/ ne$ a wis] "o ?an !mselves to guide !m1 if !y are to be kept f h>m4 ,we h no disposition to be sev]e ) su* p]sons1 = we belong$ to ! same unhappy class ourselves4 ,x nev] once ent]$ our m9ds 9 our e>li] days1 t we c\ld ev] fall away f ,*ri/4 ,we saw t o!rs 7 9 dang]1 b we nev] suppos$ we 7 9 dang] ourselves4 ,we prea*$ f ! text1 ,let him t ?9ke? he /&e?1 take he$ le/ he fall1 & we press$ ! solemn w>n+ on our he>]s ) ! greate/ e>ne/ness2 b we nev] appli$ x to ourselves4 ,we suppos$ ourselves secure4 ,& if any "o _h told u t we %\ld "o day cease to be a ,*ri/ian1 & above all1 if any man _h said t we %\ld fall into unbelief1 & be rank$ ) ! oppon5ts ( ,*ri/ianity1 we %\ld h ?\ght him insol5t or mad4 ,yet we "k :at foll[$4 ,we _c !re=e deal h>%ly ) our too self-confid5t bre?r54 ,b we mu/ give !m fai?ful w>n+4 ,be on y\r gu>d1 my de> "y fri5ds4 ,y are n s free f defects1 nor s f> f dang]1 z y\r consci\s innoc5ce1 or ! great deceiv]1 may ins9uate4 ,!re may be t5d5cies to evil )9 y1 & temptations 9 ! my/]i\s _w ar\nd y1 ( ! "* & =ce ( :i* y h no conception4 ,x 0 z great & good a man z y p]haps t said1 ,weak] ?an a bruis$ re$1 ,help ,i e mom5t ne$4 ,& he 0 wise t said1-- ,bew>e ( ,pet]'s words1 ,nor confid5tly say1 ',i nev] w d5y !e1 ,"l2' ,b1 ',grant ,i nev] may4' ,!re are devices ( ! wick$ "o ( :i* y are n yet aw>e2 dep?s ( ,satan :i* y h n yet fa?om$2 & t]rible possibilities ( :i*1 z yet1 y h nev] dream$4 ,i say aga91 ,be on y\r gu>d4 ,be n high-m9d$1 b fe>4 ,bless$ is ! man t fe>e? always4 ,none are s weak z ^? :o ?9k !mselves /rong4 ,none are 9 su* dang] z ^? :o ?9k !mselves secure4 ,man1 ev5 at be/1 is n s great1 s wise1 s /rong1 z "s are prone to suppose3 & :51 cut (f f ,*ri/ & ,8 p1 f ! ,bible & pray]1 he tru/s 9 8 own res\rces1 he is poor1 & weak1 & frail 9 ! extreme4 ,!re are no errors1 no extravagances1 no dep?s ( degradation1 into :i* ! lawless self-reliant man may n fall4 ,:5 ,i _h lo/ my fai? 9 ,*ri/1 & _h fre$ myself f all re/ra9ts ( ,bible au?ority & ,*ur* discipl9e1 ,i said to myself1 ,i w be a ,,man2 all t a man act+ freely1 giv+ 8 s\l full scope1 t5ds naturally to become2 & ,i w be no?+ else4 ,i _h come to ! conclusion t man 0 naturally good--t1 :5 freely & fully develop$1 ap>t f ! au?ority ( religion1 *ur*es & books1 he w\ld become ! p]fection ( wisdom1 & goodness1 & happ9ess4 ,i said to myself1 ,*ri/ 0 b a man2 & ! reason :y ,he s mu* excell$ all o!r m5 01 t ,he act$ freely1 )\t reg>d to ! traditions ( ! eld]s1 ! law ( ,moses1 or any au?ority b t ( ,8 own untrammell$ m9d4 ,i w foll[ ! same c\rse4 ,i w free myself f ! prejudices ( my education1 f ! influ5ce ( my surr\nd+s1 & f ! au?ority ( all exi/+ laws & religions1 & be my own sole rul]1 my own sole c\nsellor1 my own sole guide4 ,i w act ) reg>d to ! religion ( ,*ri/1 z ,*ri/ act$ ) reg>d to ! religion ( ,moses2 obey x1 aboli% x1 or modify x1 z its diff]5t p>ts may require4 ,i w act ) reg>d to ! ,*ur* au?orities ( my "t z ,jesus act$ ) reg>d to ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees ( ,8 day2 ,i w set !m aside4 ,i w be a man2 a free1 self-rul$1 & self-develop$ man4 ,alas1 ,i little knew ! t]rible possibilities ( ! nature ( man :5 left to itself4 ,i _h no conception ( its inf9ite weakness ) reg>d to :at is good1 or its fe>ful capabilities ) reg>d to :at is bad4 ,i _h no idea ( ! inf9ite am\nt ( evil t lay conceal$ 9 ! human he>t1 ready1 :5 unrepress$1 to unfold itself1 & take all horrible =ms ( vice & folly4 ,i indulg$ myself 9 my mad exp]im5ts ( unlimit$ fre$om till appall$ by ! melan*oly results4 ,i did n become all t un*eck$ lic5se c\ld make me2 b ,i became s diff]5t a creature f :at ,i _h anticipat$1 t ,i saw ! madness ( my resolution1 & recoil$4 ,i came to ! v]ge ( all evil4 ,god _h m]cy on me & held me back 9 spite ( my impiety1 or ,i %\ld h become a mon/] ( iniquity4 ,man 0 n made = unlimit$ lib]ty4 ,he 0 made = subjection to ! ,div9e w1 & = ob$i5ce to ,god's law4 ,he 0 made = fell[%ip ) ! good among 8 fell[-m51 & = submission to ,*ri/ian discipl9e4 ,he c become good & great & happy only by fai? 9 ,god & ,*ri/1 by self-d5ial1 by good society1 by c>eful moral & religi\s culture1 & by con/ant pray] & dep5d5ce on ,god4 ,i n[ no long] say1 ,i w be a man2 b1 ,let me be a ,*ri/ian4 ,i no long] say1 ,i w be all t my nature1 work+ un*eck$1 w make me2 b1 ,let me be all t ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity c make me4 ,let me *eck all temp]s at v>iance ) ! m9d ( ,*ri/2 & all t5d5cies at v>iance ) ,8 precepts4 ,let ! m\? ( t fe>ful abyss :i* lies deep d[n 9 my nature be clos$1 & let ! inf]nal fires t sm\ld] !re be utt]ly smo!r$2 & let ! love ( ,god & ! love ( man reign 9 me1 produc+ a life ( ,*ri/-l piety & b5efic5ce4 ,let all ,i h & all ,i am be a sacrifice to ,god 9 ,*ri/1 & us$ 9 ! cause ( tru? & righte\sness = ! welf>e ( mank9d4 ,! enemy ( man has _m devices4 ,9 my case1 z 9 ! case ( s _m o!rs1 he trans=m$ himself into an angel ( light4 ,he did n say1 ,give up y\r "w3 =sake ,*ri/2 des]t ,8 ,*ur*2 indulge y\r appetites2 give y\rself to selfi%1 s5sual pleasure2 free y\rself f religi\s re/ra9t1 f moral control1 f scruples ( consci5ce1 & live = ga91 or fame1 or p[]4 ,on ! contr>y2 8 c\nsel 01 ,p]fect y\r cre$2 p]fect y\r k2 re=m ! ,*ur*2 expose its corruptions2 re=m ! m9i/ry2 expose its errors2 g back to ! simplicity ( ,*ri/2 return to ! ord] ( ! anci5t ,*ur*2 pay no reg>d to prevail+ s5tim5ts1 or to e/abli%$ cu/oms2 beg9 anew4 ,resolve on p]fection2 x is atta9able2 be cont5t ) no?+ less4 ,ass]t y\r rights4 ,be true4 ,prove all ?+s2 hold fa/ to :at is good1 b ca/ away :atev] y f9d to be evil4 ,call no "o ma/] b ,*ri/2 & :at ,*ri/ requires1 ask no "o b y\rself4 ,be true to y\r own consci5ce4 ,god has call$ y to re/ore ! ,*ur* to its purity1 to its simplicity1 to its anci5t p[]4 ,be fai?ful1 & fe> no opposition4 ,free inquiry mu/ lead to tru?1 & tru? is inf9itely desirable4 ,assail error2 assail m5's inv5tions2 sp>e no?+ b :at is ( ,god4 ,x is ,god's own "w y are do+2 x is ! _w's salvation = :i* y are labor+2 & ,god's own ,_s w guide y1 & ,8 p[] w keep y f h>m4 ,all ?is 0 true2 b x 0 tru? )\t ! ne$ful accompanim5t ( pi\s caution4 ,x 0 true1 b x 0 tru? )\t ! ne$ful am\nt ( humility1 ( meekness1 ( g5tl5ess1 & ( self-di/ru/4 ,x 0 tru?1 b x 0 tru? put 9 su* a =m z to d ! "w ( falsehood4 ,x 0 an appeal to pride1 to self-conceit1 to self-suffici5cy4 ,x 0 tru? pres5t$ 9 su* a %ape1 z to abate ! s5se ( my dep5d5ce on ,god2 z to make me =getful ( my own imp]fections2 z to exclude f my m9d all ?\ghts ( dang]1 & s prep>e me = mi/akes1 mi%aps1 & ultimately ru94 ,x is n en\gh to aim at good objects3 we mu/ be humble2 we mu/ be s5sible t our suffici5cy is ( ,god2 we mu/ be consci\s ( our own weakness1 ( our own imp]fections1 & ( our own dang]1 & move ) c>e1 & wat*fulness1 & pray]4 ,we mu/ n please ourselves ) ?\ghts ( ! wond]s we w a*ieve1 ( ! s]vices we w r5d] to ! _w1 & ( ! honor we %all ga92 b *]i% ! feel+ t ,god is all1 & be cont5t t ,he alone %all be glorifi$4 ,we are b e>!n vessels2 ! excell5cy ( ! p[] is ( ,god4 ,o my poor s\l1 h[ d ,i grieve :5 ,i ?9k ( ?y e>ly dreams1 & ( ?y sad awak5+4 ,l ,adam1 ,i liv$ 9 a ,p>adise ( bliss1 suspect+ no evil1 & dread+ no *ange4 ,i _h be5 tra9$ to piety f my e>lie/ ye>s4 ,! ,bible 0 my delight4 ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity 7 my glory & joy4 ,! ,*ur* 0 my home4 ,to prea* ! ,gospel1 to def5d ,god's cause1 & to labor = ! salvation ( ! _w1 7 ! delight ( my life4 ,i 0 successful4 ,i 0 popul>4 ,i _h _m fri5ds1 & 0 passionately belov$4 ,:]ev] ,i w5t1 m5 hail$ me z _! spiritual fa!r4 ,! *apels 9 :i* ,i prea*$ 7 cr[d$ to _! utmo/ capacity1 & m5 reg>d$ me z ! *ampion ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,!y applaud$ my labors 9 its behalf1 & te/ifi$ _! e/eem & admiration by unmi/akable signs4 ,at "o "t ,i might h appli$ to myself ! words ( ,job1 ,:5 ! e> he>d me1 !n x bless$ me2 & :5 ! eye saw me1 x gave witness to me4 ,! "y m5 saw me1 & gave me rev]5ce2 & ! ag$ arose & /ood up4 ,unto me m5 gave e>1 & wait$2 & kept sil5ce at my c\nsel4 ,!y wait$ = my words z = ! %[]s2 & op5$ _! m\?s z = ! latt] ra94 ,i *ose out _! way1 & sat *ief1 & dwelt z a k+ 9 ! army1 z "o t com=te? ! m\rn]s4 ,& ev]y?+ seem$ to =etell a cont9uance ( my happy lot4 ,my prejudices & my convictions1 my ta/es & my affections1 my habits & my incl9ations1 my int]e/s & my family1 all jo9$ to b9d me to ! cause ( ,*ri/ by ! /ronge/ bonds4 ,& ,i seem$ z secure to o!rs z to myself4 ,h5ce ,i look$ =w>d to a life ( ev]-increas+ usefulness1 reflect+ cr$it on my family & fri5ds1 & conf]r+ bless+s on mank9d at l>ge4 ,i revell$ 9 hopes ( a re=m$ ,*ur*1 & a reg5]at$ _w2 &1 pass+ ! b\nds ( "t1 my _s exult$ 9 ! prospect ( a glori\s immortality4 ,yet :5 ,i look$ = good !n evil came2 & :5 ,i wait$ = light !re came d>kness4 ,i fell away4 ,my happy ?\ghts1 my joy\s hopes1 my delightful prospects1 all vani%$4 ,i und]w5t a mo/ melan*oly trans=mation4 ,! eyes t gaz$ on me ) affectionate rapture1 n[ />$ at me ) affright & t]ror2 & brave1 /\t m5 wept ov] me l *ildr54 ,! light ( my life 0 ext+ui%$4 ,my dwell+ 0 9 d>kness4 ,i 0 a bro!r to dragons1 & a companion to owls4 ,& !re 0 no?+ be=e me b ! dre>y prospect ( a return to no?+ness4 ,& c y1 my "y fri5ds1 dream ( safety ) facts l ^! 9 view8 ,aga91 ,i say1 be on y\r gu>d4 ,an easy1 dreamy self-security is ! extreme ( madness4 ,our only safety is 9 wat*fulness & pray]4 ,our only suffici5cy is ( ,god4 ,o1 nev] suff] me to sleep ,secure )9 ! rea* ( hell2 ,b /ill my wat*ful _s keep ,9 l[ly awe & lov+ zeal3 ,& bless me ) a godly fe>1 ,& plant t gu>dian angel "h4 #b4 ,! second lesson ,i w\ld "n is ?is3 ,x is dang]\s to all[ bad feel+ to get into y\r he>ts t[>ds y\r ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 or y\r bro!r m9i/]s4 ,x is especially dang]\s to all[ x to rema9 !re4 ,x works l ! infection ( ! plague4 ,try !re=e to keep y\r m9ds 9 a calm & com=table /ate t[>ds all ) :om y h to d4 ,gu>d aga9/ ra% judgm5ts & gr\ndless suspicions2 or y may take (f5ce :5 no (f5ce is meant4 ,b ev5 :5 p d y h>m on purpose1 x is be/ to be =be>+4 ,we nev] "k ! =ce ( temptation "u :i* m5 act2 or ! misconceptions "u :i* !y labor4 ,we may ourselves h caus$ _! misdo+s by "s unconsci\s error ( our own4 ,x is well to suspect ourselves sometimes ( unkn[n faults1 & to g on ! supposition t :at appe>s unk9dness 9 o!rs t[>ds u1 may be ! result ( "s ungu>d$ ^w or inconsid]ate action on our "p t[>ds !m4 #b4 ,keep y\r he>ts z full z possible ( ,*ri/ian love4 ,! m abundant y\r love1 ! less w be y\r liability ei!r to give or take (f5ce4 #c4 ,& d n ov]rate ! importance ( m5's misconduct t[>ds y4 ,we are n s mu* 9 ! p[] ( o!rs z we are prone to imag9e4 ,! _w is gov]n$ by ,god1 & no "o c hurt u aga9/ ,8 w4 ,d t :i* is "r1 & y & y\r int]e/s are secure4 ,s take ?+s com=tably4 ,& try to ov]come evil ) good4 ,& if y f9d ! task a h>d "o1 seek help f ,god4 #c4 ,ano!r lesson :i* ,i h le>n$ on my way ?r\gh life is1 t x is dang]\s to indulge a _s ( controv]sy4 ,!re may be occasions :5 controv]sy is a duty2 b x is be/1 z a rule1 j to /ate :at y believe to be ! tru?1 & leave x to "w its way 9 sil5ce4 ,if p oppose x1 misrepres5t x1 or ridicule x1 !n /ate x aga9 at ! prop] "t1 ) becom+ meekness & g5tl5ess1 & !n commit x to ! c>e ( its great ,patron4 ,x is difficult to run into controv]sy )\t fall+ into s94 ,m5 ne$ to be v wise & good to be able to g ?r\gh a controv]sy honorably & usefully2 & by ! "t !y are qualifi$ = ! dang]\s "w1 !y pref] m peaceful employm5t4 ,controv]sy always t5ds to produce excess ( w>m?1 & w>m? ( a dang]\s k9d4 ,x (t5 deg5]ates into a qu>rel1 & ends 9 %ame4 ,m5 g f pr9ciples to p]sonalities2 & in/ead ( seek+ ea* o!r's in/ruction1 try only to humble & mortify ea* o!r4 ,!y beg9 p]haps ) a love ( tru?1 b !y end ) a /ruggle = victory4 ,!y try to deal fairly at ! outset1 b become unscrupul\s at la/1 & say or d any?+ t seems likely to h>ass or injure _! oppon5ts4 ,! beg9n+ ( /rife is l ! lett+ out ( wat] f a res]voir2 !re is fir/ a drop1 !n a trickle1 !n a headlong ru%+ torr5t1 be>+ d[n all be=e x1 & sweep+ away m5 & _! works to de/ruction4 ,x is be/1 !re=e1 to take ! advice ( ! prov]b1 & leave (f cont5tion be=e x be m$dl$ )4 #d4 ,ano!r lesson t ,i h le>nt on my way ?r\gh life is1 t m9i/]s %\ld deal v t5d]ly ) _! y\ng] bre?r54 ,!y %\ld tea* !m1 s f> z !y are able1 & *eck !m :5 !y see !m do+ any?+ really wrong2 b !y %\ld nev] int]f]e ne$lessly ) _! spiritual fre$om4 ,"y m5 ( m9d & consci5ce w ?9k4 ,!y w te/ _! cre$s by ! ,sacr$ ,oracles1 & endeavor to br+ !m into h>mony ) ! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ & ,8 ,apo/les4 ,& x is "r !y %\ld4 ,x is _! duty1 z !y h opportunity1 to prove all ?+s4 ,& few "y m51 ( any consid]able p[]s1 c comp>e ! cre$s :i* !y receive 9 _! *ildhood ) ! tea*+s ( ,sacr$ ,scripture1 )\t com+ to ! conclusion1 t on "s po9ts !y are errone\s1 & on o!rs defective2 t on "s subjects !y conta9 too mu*1 & on o!rs too little4 ,& good "y m5 w naturally feel dispos$ to lay aside :at !y reg>d z errone\s1 & to accept :at pres5ts itself to _! m9ds z true4 ,9 "s cases !y w make mi/akes4 ,! only m5 t nev] ?9k wrong1 are ^? :o nev] ?9k at all4 ,!re nev] 0 a *ild born into ! _w t le>n$ to walk )\t /umbl+ occasionally1 & at times ev5 fall+ outright4 ,& !re nev] 0 a spiritual *ild t le>n$ to travel 9 ! pa?s ( religi\s inve/igation1 )\t fall+ at times into error4 ,b :at is to be done on su* occasions8 ,:at does ! "m d :5 h] baby falls8 ,does %e run & kick ! poor little creature1 & say1 ,y naughty1 dirty tike1 if ev] y try to walk aga91 ,i w ?r[ y into ! gutt]8 ,on ! contr>y1 %e runs & cat*es up ! de> little ?+2 & if x has hurt itself1 %e kisses ! place to make x well1 & says1 ,try aga91 my d>l+2 try aga94 ,& x does try aga93 & 9 c\rse ( "t x le>ns to walk z /eadily z its "m2 & :5 %e beg9s to /agg] "u ! infirmities ( age1 x takes h] h&1 & /eadies h] go+s4 ,& s x %\ld be 9 spiritual matt]s4 ,:5 a good "y man falls into error1 we %\ld treat him ) ! t5d]ness & affection ( a "m4 ,we 7 g5tle among y1 says ,paul to ! ,!ssalonians1 ev5 z a nurse *]i%e? h] *ildr54 ,& ?is is ! example t we %\ld foll[ t[>ds our y\ng] bre?r54 ,:e!r we w\ld keep !m f err+1 or br+ !m back :5 !y g a/ray1 we %\ld treat !m t5d]ly4444 ,we %\ld try to w9 _! love & confid5ce4 ,m5 c (t5 be l$1 :5 !y _c be driv54 ,!re are numb]s :o1 if y attempt to drive !m1 w run ! contr>y way2 :o1 if y treat !m ) respect1 & %[ !m t y love !m1 w foll[ y :]e-ev] y may g4 ,b y mu/ give !m "t4 ,!y _c always come "r all at once4 ,:5 a fi%]man angles = l>ge fi%1 he provides himself ) a flexible1 ela/ic rod1 & a good long l5g? ( l9e2 & :5 he has hook$ 8 prey1 he gives x ! l9e )\t /9t1 & all[s x to d>t to & fro1 & plunge & fl\nd] at pleasure1 till x has tir$ itself well1 & !n he br+s x to ! bank ) ease4 ,if he 7 to attempt to drag ! fi% to ! %ore at once1 by ma9 =ce1 x w\ld snap 8 rod1 or break 8 l9e1 & get away into ! deep2 & he w\ld lose bo? 8 fi% & 8 tackle4 ,& s x is 9 ! _w ( m9d4 ,:5 we h to d ) vigor\s & active-m9d$ "y m51 we mu/ all[ _! intellects a little play4 ,we mu/ wait till !y beg9 to feel _! weakness4 ,we mu/ place a little confid5ce 9 !m1 & give !m a *ance bo? ( f9d+ out _! defici5cies1 & ( develop+ _! /r5g?4 ,x w\ld n be amiss if eld] prea*]s c\ld g on ! supposition t !y are n q p]fect or infallible !mselves1--t x is possible t _! bre?r5 may discov] "s tru? 9 ,scripture1 t has n yet f\nd its way into _! cre$2 or detect "s error 9 _! cre$1 t has lurk$ !re unsuspect$ = ages4 ,& !y ought to be will+ to le>n1 z well z dispos$ to tea*4 ,b 9 any case1 if our /udi\s "y bre?r5 miss _! way sometimes1 we mu/ be k9d & g5tle t[>ds !m1 & 9 our endeavors to save !m1 mu/ proce$ ) c>e4 ,deal h>%ly ) !m1 & y drive !m into h]esy or unbelief4 ,deal g5tly & lov+ly ) !m1 & y br+ !m back to ! tru?4 ,h[ (t5 ! disciples ( ,jesus err$ ) reg>d to ! nature ( ,8 k+dom1 & ! means by :i* x 0 to be e/abli%$4 ,yet h[ pati5tly ,he bore ) !m4 ,& 9 ?is1 z 9 o!r ?+s1 ,he has left u an example t we %\ld tread 9 ,8 /eps4 ,! sun keeps ! planets )9 _! sph]es1 & ev5 br+s back ! comets f _! f>-(f w&]+s1 by ! g5tle p[] ( attraction4 ,& ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness keeps ,8 spiritual planets 9 _! orbits1 & br+s f ! blackness ( d>kness ! />s t w&]1 by ! same sweet p[]4 ,& ! second>y lights ( ! _w mu/ keep _! satellites 9 _! orbits1 & br+ back to _! sph]es ! />s t fall or lose _! way1 by k9dr$ influ5ces4 ,! mightie/ & div9e/ p[] 9 ! univ]se is ,,love4 #e4 ,& n[ comes a lesson to ! "y ?9k]s4 ,suppose y\r eld] bre?r5 %\ld treat y unk9dly2 suppose !y %\ld disc\rage y\r se>* aft] tru?1 & require y to con=m y\r cre$ to _! own ideas1 & y\r way ( speak+ to _! own old /yle ( expression2 suppose t !y %\ld look ) suspicion on y\r endeavors to come ne>] to ! tru?1 &1 :5ev] y give utt]ance to a ?\ght or an expression at v>iance ) _! own1 %\ld d5\nce y z h]etics1 & ?reat5 y ) excommunication1 :at %\ld y d8 ,we answ]1 g quietly on 9 ! fe> ( ! ,"l4 ,make no compla9t1 b prep>e y\rselves = expulsion4 ,:5 expell$1 g quietly to "s ,*ur* t c tol]ate y\r fre$om1 & "w !re 9 peace z ! s]vants ( ,god4 ,*]i% no res5tm5t4 ,commit y\r cause to ,god1 &1 labor+ to d ,8 w1 leave ,him to *oose y\r lot4 ,ev5 ! trials t come f ! ignorance or wick$ness ( m51 are ( ,god's appo9tm5t4 ,we are taught t x 0 by ,god's ord9ation t ,judas betray$ ,*ri/2 t ,god employ$ ! wick$ness ( ! traitor = ! accompli%m5t ( ,8 great designs4 ,david said1 ref]r+ to ,%imei1 ,let him curse1 = ,god ha? comm&$ him4 ,god employ$ ! wick$ness ( ,%imei1 to try & puni% ,david4 ,wesley has embodi$ ! s5tim5t 9 "o ( 8 hymns1 z foll[s3 ,"l1 ,i adore ,?y graci\s w2 ,?r\gh e in/rum5t ( ill ,my ,fa!r's goodness see3 ,accept ! complicat$ wrong ,( ,%imei's h&1 & ,%imei's tongue1 ,z k9d rebukes f ,!e4 ,joseph said1 ,god _h s5t him d[n to ,egypt to save _m s\ls alive4 ,8 wick$ bre?r5 7 only ! in/rum5ts ( 8 bani%m5t4 ,!y meant x = evil1 ,god turn$ x to good4 ,& s 9 y\r case3 ,god may be us+ ! ignorance or ! wick$ness ( y\r p]secutors to sep>ate y f a body = :i* y are n fitt$1 & to place y 9 "o :]e y w be m useful & m happy4 ,:5 we d "r1 ,god w make ! errors1 & ev5 ! s9s ( our enemies1 "w = our good4 #f4 ,ano!r lesson :i* ,i h ?or\ghly le>nt is1 t ?\gh m5 may become unbeliev]s ?r\gh o!r causes ?an vice1 !y _c cont9ue unbeliev]s )\t spiritual & moral loss4 ,! inevitable t5d5cy ( infidelity is to debase m5's s\ls4 ,& "h ,i speak n on ! te/imony ( o!rs m]ely1 b f ext5sive obs]vation & p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,i h kn[n numb]s :om infidelity has degrad$1 b none :om x has elevat$4 ,we d n say t e *ange 9 a ,*ri/ian's belief is demoraliz+4 ,disbelief 9 error1 result+ f increase ( k1 may improve 8 "*2 b ! loss ( fai? 9 ,*ri/1 & ,god1 & immortality1 c nev] d o!rwise ?an /r5g!n a man's t5d5cies to vice1 & weak5 8 incl9ations t[>ds virtue4 ,:5 infidels say t _! unbelief has made !m m virtu\s1 !y atta* diff]5t ideas to ! ^w virtu\s f ^? :i* ,*ri/ians atta* to x4 ,!y call evil good1 & good evil4 ,! secul>i/s call =nication & adult]y virtue4 ,b ?is is fraud4 ,t infidelity is unfavorable to :at m5 g5]ally call virtue1 & fri5dly to :at m5 g5]ally call vice1 infidels !mselves "k4 ,_! passions & prejudices may make !m d\bt ! bad influ5ce ( _! unbelief = a "t1 b n long4 ,i myself que/ion$ ! d[nw>d t5d5cy ( infidelity 9 my own case = a "t1 b facts prov$ too /rong = me 9 ! end4 ,my fri5ds c\ld see a det]ioration bo? 9 my temp] & conduct4 ,& !re 0 a fall+ (f 9 my zeal & labors = ! good ( mank9d f ! fir/4 ,!re 0 a fall+ (f ev5 9 my tal5ts4 ,!re 0 a great] t5d5cy to self-indulg5ce4 ,x 0 ow+ to ! /ill l+]+ influ5ce ( my e>ly fai?1 & ( my e>ly ,*ri/ian ta/es & habits1 t ,i 0 no worse4 ,! virtue :i* ,i reta9$ ,i ow$ to ! religion on :i* ,i _h unhappily turn$ my back4 ,:5 unbeliev]s are moral1 !y are s1 n 9 consequ5ce1 b 9 spite ( _! unbelief4 ,:5 ,*ri/ian believ]s are bad1 !y are s1 n 9 consequ5ce1 b 9 spite ( _! religion4 ,infidelity t5ds to de/roy consci5ce4 ,x annihilates ! great motives to virtue4 ,x /r5g!ns ! selfi% & weak5s ! b5evol5t affections & t5d5cies ( our nature1 & smoo!s ! road to utt] depravity4 ,! f>!r m5 w&] f ,*ri/1 & ! long] !y rema9 away1 ! ne>] !y approa* to utt] deg5]acy4 ,x seldom happ5s t m5 :o h liv$ long "u ! influ5ce ( ,*ri/ianity1 become grossly immoral z soon z !y lose _! fai?3 b !y decl9e 9 virtue f ! fir/1 & utt] depravation comes 9 "t4 ,i h se5 a tree gr[+ pro/rate on ! gr\nd1 :5 _m ( its roots _h be5 torn up f ! soil2 b x grew v poorly2 & ! gr[? x made 0 ow+ to ! hold :i* ! rema9d] ( its roots /ill _h on ! soil4 ,! bran* t is cut (f f ! tree may reta9 a portion ( its sap1 & %[ "s signs ( langui%+ life = weeks2 b x dies at l5g?4 ,& s ) ! bran*es cut (f f ! spiritual v9e2 !y gradually )] & decay4 ,! iron tak5 :ite hot f ! furnace1 does n get cool at once2 b x gradually comes d[n to ! temp]ature ( ! atmosph]e ) :i* x is surr\nd$4 ,! prodigal did n get ?r\gh 8 %>e ( 8 fa!r's prop]ty 9 a day1 b he f\nd himself p]i%+ ( hung] at l5g?4 ,a man does n die ! mom5t he ceases to eat1 b he w die if he p]si/s 9 8 ab/95ce4 ,a man may live 9 an unheal?y di/rict1 & brea! un:olesome air = "s "t1 )\t app>5t injury2 b disease w %[ itself 9 ! end4 ,x is n un*>itabl5ess t makes u speak ?us1 b *>ity itself4 ,x is desirable1 t bo? believ]s & unbeliev]s %\ld "k ! tru? on ?is important subject4 ,infidelity is ! enemy ( all virtue1 & consequ5tly ( all happ9ess2 & x is necess>y t ?is %\ld be g5]ally & ?or\ghly kn[n1 & t ! old-fa%ion$ prejudice aga9/ x %\ld be all[$ to keep its gr\nd1 & rema9 z /rong z ev]4 ,& ,*ri/ians mu/ %[ _! *>ity t[>ds unbeliev]s1 n by abat+ m5's horror ( infidelity1 b by endeavor+ to deliv] !m f its deadly p[]4 #g4 ,& "h comes ano!r lesson4 ,d n suppose t unbeliev]s are irreclaimable4 ,!re is always good gr\nd to hope = ! conv]sion ( ^? unbeliev]s :o reta9 a respect = virtue1 if !y are prop]ly treat$2 & ev5 ^? :o are sunk 9 vice %\ld n be ab&on$ 9 despair4 ,sev]al ( ^? :o h return$ to ,*ri/ dur+ ! la/ t5 ye>s1 7 m5 :o _h gone f> 9 v>i\s =ms ( wick$ness4 ,& _m ( ^? conv]ts f infidelity ( :om we read 9 old religi\s books1 7 p]sons ( immoral "*4 ,& ?\gh habits ( vice are n easily brok5 (f1 yet ! mis]ies !y entail on m5 may r\se !m to m vigor\s ef=ts = _! deliv]ance4 ,& x sometimes happ5s t ^? :o are poor 9 promise1 are ri* 9 p]=mance4 ,y rememb] ! ,savi\r's p>able ( ! two sons4 ,! ,fa!r said to ! fir/1 ,son1 g "w to-day 9 my v9ey>d4 ,& he answ]$ & said1 ,i w n1 b aft]w>ds he rep5t$ & w5t4 ,& ! fa!r said to ! second1 ,g4 ,& he answ]$ & said1 ,i g1 ,sir1 & w5t n4 ,& ?is1 said ,*ri/1 is :at takes place betwe5 ,me & mank9d4 ,i say to ! fair-seem+ p1 ,give y\rselves to ,god2 & !y answ]1 ,we w1 ,"l1 b /ill live on 9 selfi%ness & s94 ,i say to ab&on$ pr(ligates1 ,give y\rselves to ,god2 & !y answ]1 ,we w n2 b on ?9k+ ! matt] ov]1 !y rep5t & live to ,god4 ,h>lots & publicans ent] ! k+dom ( ,god1 :ile scribes & ph>isees rema9 )\t4 ,! oy/]1 if y look at its outw>d cov]+1 is a h>d case2 yet )91 x is s(t & t5d] 9 ! extreme4 ,! uglie/ cat]pill> is b an undevelop$ butt]fly1 & 9 "t1 if plac$ "u favorable influ5ces1 may leave its crawl+1 & m\nt al(t on w+s ( gold & silv]4 ,& x (t5 happ5s t ! wor/ *ildr5 make ! be/ m54 ,! fi]ce/ p]secutor ( ! e>ly ,*ur* became ! *ief ( ! ,apo/les4 ,he 0 hone/ :5 dragg+ ! sa9ts to prison2 & all t 0 want$ to make him a prea*] ( ! fai? :i* he labor$ s madly to de/roy1 0 ,,light4 ,& s x is /ill4 ,"s ( ! mo/ unhappy & unpromis+ ( m5 & wom5 may require b a g5tle ^w1 a glimm] ( light1 or a manife/ation ( y\r k9d conc]n = _! welf>e1 to w9 _! he>ts to ,god4 ,x does n appe> t any ( ! e>ly ,*ri/ians suppos$ t !re 0 any?+ good 9 ! he>t ( ,saul ! p]secutor1 & no?+ is said ( any attempt on _! "p to conv9ce him ( 8 error4 ,& _m1 ev5 :5 !y he>d he 0 conv]t$1 c\ld n believe ! /ory4 ,& ev5 ,ananias1 :5 told by ,god ,himself t ! conv]t$ p]secutor 0 pray+1 c\ld n get ov] 8 fe>s & suspicions all at once4 ,:5 ,god said1 ,g1 & help ! poor man1 ,ananias answ]$1 ,"l1 ,i h he>d by _m ( ?is man1 h[ mu* evil he ha? done to ,?y sa9ts at ,j]usalem4 ,b ! ,"l said unto him1 ,g ?y way1 ha/e to 8 help1 = he is a *os5 vessel unto ,me1 to be> ,my "n be=e ! ,g5tiles1 & to k+s1 & to ! *ildr5 ( ,israel4 ,at la/ ,ananias w5t 8 way1 & visit$ ! pray+ p5it5t4 ,b ev5 aft] ?is1 :5 ,paul _h be5 prea*+ = "s "t ) great success1 & _h made ! greate/ sacrifices1 & brav$ ev5 dea? itself1 9 ! cause ( ,*ri/1 !re 7 numb]s :o d\bt$ 8 s9c]ity4 ,:5 he w5t to ,j]usalem1 & attempt$ to jo9 himself to ! disciples1 !y 7 all afraid ( him1 & did n believe t he 0 a disciple4 ,b>nabas h[ev]1 good man1 took him by ! h&1 & succe$$ at l5g? 9 obta9+ = him1 to "s ext5t1 ! advantages ( ,*ur* fell[%ip4 ,"h !n we h a c\ple ( lessons2 ! fir/ is1 to seek ! conv]sion ( unbeliev]s2 ! second is1 to gu>d aga9/ an excess ( skepticism 9 ourselves ) reg>d to ! s9c]ity ( ^? :o appe> to be conv]t$4 ,x w\ld be well 9 =m+ our judgm5ts ( p]sons pr(ess+ religion1 to foll[ ! rule laid d[n by ,*ri/1 ,by _! fruits ye %all "k !m4 ,a good tree _c br+ =? bad fruit1 nor a bad tree good fruit4 ,if m5 live sob]ly1 righte\sly1 & godly--if !y make great sacrifices1 & incur reproa* & p]secution = ,*ri/1 & labor zeal\sly 9 ,8 cause1 x is no great /ret* ( *>ity to g on ! supposition1 t _! pr(ession ( fai? 9 ,god & ,*ri/ is s9c]e4 #h4 ,b suppose ! *ur*es %\ld treat a conv]t f infidelity z ! *ur* at ,j]usalem treat$ ,paul1 :at %\ld he d8 ,we w\ld say1 ,take all quietly1 & g zeal\sly on ) y\r "w4 ,y are ! s]vant ( ,god1 & n ( man2 & y mu/ n des]t y\r ,ma/]1 because a numb] ( ,8 s]vants err 9 _! judgm5t ( y1 or %[1 9 _! conduct t[>ds y1 a lack ( *>ity4 ,s]ve y\r ,r$eem] all ! m fai?fully4 ,?is 0 ! c\rse :i* ,paul took4 ,he increas$ ! m 9 /r5g?2 & he ab\nd$ ! m 9 labors4 ,x w\ld be a poor excuse = ! neglect ( y\r duty to ,god & ,*ri/1 to y\rselves & y\r fell[ creatures1 to say1 ,! *ur*es did n treat u z k9dly z !y ought2 !y d\bt$ our s9c]ity4 ,su* conduct w\ld n only be exce$+ly wick$1 b extremely fooli%4 ,x w\ld be ! sure/ way to confirm ! d\bts ( ! *ur*es1 & make !m feel1 t 9 treat+ y coldly1 !y _h act$ wisely4 ,! sure/ way to ga9 ! confid5ce ( ! ,*ur*1 is n to c>e too mu* ab\t x4 ,if y %[ t y are satisfi$ ) ! favor ( ,god1 & ) y\r own sweet consci\sness ( ! happy *ange y h exp]i5c$1 ev]y?+ else w come 9 its season4 ,goodness w draw aft] x ! reputation ( goodness4 ,! %ad[ w foll[ ! sub/ance4 ,& :e!r x does or n1 y\r duty is to be resign$ & *e]ful4 ,a man t has really be5 conv]t$ f infidelity to ,*ri/ianity1 w be s happy1 & w feel s ?ankful = ! bless$ *ange1 if he appreciates x z he ought1 t he w h>dly c>e :e!r he has ! favor & confid5ce ( 8 bre?r5 or n4 ,!re is no intimation t ! return$ ,prodigal look$ black at 8 fa!r1 & ?reat5$ to g back aga9 into ! f> c\ntry1 because 8 eld] bro!r refus$ to jo9 9 8 welcome home4 ,! probability is1 t he felt s a%am$ ( 8 s9 & folly1 s ov]p[]$ ) ! t5d]ness ( 8 fa!r1 & s happy to f9d himself at home aga91 t he nev] inquir$ :e!r o!r p 7 satisfi$ or n4 ,! fa!r notic$ ! unhapp9ess ( 8 eld] son1 & s\ght to soo! & com=t him2 b ! y\ng] son 0 occupi$ ) o!r ?\ghts2 & hav+ suff]$ long ! griev\s pangs ( hung]1 he w\ld1 = a "t at lea/1 be busy at ! table1 speculat+ 9 raptures1 x may be1 on ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! fle% ( ! fatt$ calf1 & ! husks t ! sw9e did eat4 ,x is1 9 "o respect1 an advantage to ! conv]t$ unbeliev] to be treat$ by ! ,*ur* ) %yness4 ,x af=ds him an opportunity ( prov+ 8 atta*m5t to ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity1 9 a way 9 :i* he c\ld n prove x1 if e "o welcom$ him ) demon/rations ( affection1 & signs ( joy4 ,none are s sl[ to believe 9 ! s9c]ity ( a conv]t$ infidel z infidels !mselves2 & to be able to give to 8 old associates a pro( s decisive ( ! g5u95ess ( 8 *ange1 & ( ! value he puts on ,*ri/ianity1 w be reg>d$ by ! conv]t z a privilege ( no light value4 ,& x is fit & prop]1 z well z bett] = ! conv]t1 t he %\ld be rem9d$ ( 8 =m] weakness1 & incit$ to wat*fulness & humility1 by ! pa9 ( "s k9d ( life-long disadvantage4 #i4 ,let no "o expect to get ?r\gh ! _w )\t tr\ble4 ,! ?+ is n possible4 ,nor is x desirable4 ,we ne$ a little tr\ble n[ & !n to keep u awake2 & ,god w take c>e t we h x4 ,we _h bett] !re=e look = x1 & :5 x comes1 be> x pati5tly4 ,x is no use frett+ or fum+2 x only makes ?+s worse4 ,:5 we are re/less "u little tr\bles1 ,god s5ds u great] ones2 & if our impati5ce cont9ues1 he s5ds u great] /ill4 ,& !re is no rem$y4 ,an eel may wriggle itself out ( ! fry+-pan1 into ! fire2 b x _c wriggle itself back aga9 out ( ! fire1 ev5 into ! fry+-pan4 ,& s x is ) u4 ,we may wriggle ourselves out ( "o little tr\ble1 into two great] ones2 b we _c wriggle ourselves back aga9 out ( ! two great] ones1 into ! little "o4 ,! long] we resi/ ! w ( ,god1 ! worse we %all f>e4 ,we _h bett] !re=e be> ! ills we h1 ?an plunge into o!rs t we "k n (4 ,x is be/ to submit at once4 ,if we 7 wise we %\ld say ) ! ,r$eem]1 ,! cup t ,my ,fa!r give? me1 %all ,i n dr9k x8 ,god kn[s :at is be/ = u1 & ,he w nev] inflict on u a pang :i* ,he does n see to be necess>y to our usefulness & welf>e4 ,x is n = ,8 own pleasure t ,he afflicts u1 b = our pr(it1 t we may be p>tak]s ( ,8 hol9ess4 ,& sorr[ is ! se$ ( joy4 ,& pa9 adds to ! sweetness ( our pleasures4 ,hung] sweet5s our food1 & ?ir/ our dr9k1 & we>9ess our mom5ts ( re/2 & our light afflictions1 :i* are b = a mom5t1 "w out = u a f> m exce$+ & et]nal weight ( glory4 ,we are q mi/ak5 :5 we look at our trials z unmix$ evils4 ,!y are bless+s 9 disguise4 ,! dripp+ cl\ds :i* hide ! sun1 enri* ! e>?4 ,! difficulties ) :i* we h to cont5d1 increase our /r5g?4 ,! tail ( ! kite1 :i* seems to pull x d[n1 helps x to rise4 ,& ! afflictions1 :i* seem to press u to ! gr\nd1 help to raise u to heav54 ,let u take our lot ) meekness !n1 & le>n 9 all ?+s to say to our ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 ,?y w be done4 #aj4 ,jo9 ! ,*ur*4 ,! ,*ur* is an in/itution ( ,heav51 & connection ) x is necess>y to y\r spiritual safety4 ,"s ?9k !y c /& alone2 b :5 !y make ! attempt1 !y fall4 ,no "o c /&1 :o does n use ! means :i* ,god has giv5 him = 8 support2 & "o ( ^? means is fell[%ip ) ! ,*ur*4 ,)\t civil society m5 gradually s9k into b>b>ism2 & )\t religi\s society ,*ri/ians s9k into e>?l9ess & impiety4 ,"s ( ! sweete/ & mo/ beautiful ( our fl[]+ %rubs1 & "s ( ! ri*e/ ( our fruit-be>+ trees1 are unable to raise !mselves f ! gr\nd )\t ! assi/ance ( _! /rong] k9dr$4 ,?is is ! case ) ! honeysuckle1 ! ivy1 & ! grape v9e4 ,left to !mselves on ! op5 pla91 !y sprawl ^u ! gr\nd1 *ok$ ) ! grass1 & cropp$ & trampl$ on by bea/s1 until at l5g? !y p]i%4 ,b plac$ 9 woods or h$g][s1 !y clasp ) _! liv+ t5drils1 or embrace ) _! :ole bodies1 _! vigor\s neighbors1 climb to ! light & sun%9e by _! aid1 display _! blossoms1 & be> _! ri* delici\s fruit 9 full p]fection4 ,& we are l ^! trees4 ,we mu/ h support f o!rs1 or p]i%4 ,?is is n all4 ,ev5 ! /\te/ & /ronge/ trees1 su* z ! oak1 ! a%1 & ! sycamore1 d be/ 9 company4 ,plant ^? trees 9 groves1 & gu>d !m f ! cru%+ /eps & gre$y maws ( cattle1 & !y gr[ up tall1 & /raight1 & smoo?4 ,!y %ield ea* o!r f ! /ormy w9ds1 & !y %[ a sort ( sil5t emulation1 ea* rais+ its head z high z possible1 to cat* ! fre%e/ air & ! fulle/ /reams ( light4 ,b plant "o ( ^? trees alone 9 ! op5 field1 & leave x unf5c$ & ungu>d$1 & ! probability is1 x w p]i%4 ,if x %\ld escape de/ruction1 its gr[? w be ret>d$1 & its =m w be disfigur$4 ,x w h nei!r size nor comel9ess4 ,x w be cropp$ by ! cattle1 & b5t & twi/$ by ! w9ds2 x w be /unt$ & dw>f$1 crook$ & mis-%ap51 knott$ & gn>l$1 nei!r pleasant to ! eye1 nor good = timb]4 ,n "o 9 a ?\s& w\ld ev] become a tall1 a /raight1 & a maje/ic tree4 ,mr4 ,d>w9 says1 t on "s l>ge tracts on :i*1 :ile !y 7 un5clos$ & unprotect$1 !re 0 n a tree to be se51 !re soon appe>$1 aft] ! l& 0 enclos$ by a f5ce1 a c\ntless multitude ( f9e ,scot* firs4 ,! se$s ( ^! trees _h be5 s[n by "s means1 & !y _h g]m9at$1 & ! embryo trees _h sprung up2 b ! cattle _h cropp$ ! t5d] %oots1 or cru%$ & trampl$ !m d[n1 & n "o _h be5 able to raise its head above ! grass or hea!r4 ,on look+ d[n & se>*+ c>efully among ! hea!r1 he f\nd 9 "o squ>e y>d ( gr\nd1 no few] ?an ?irty-two small trees1 "o ( :i* _h be5 va9ly try+ to raise its head above ! hea!r = six & tw5ty ye>s4 ,aft] ?is tract ( l& _h be5 enclos$ = a:ile1 x 0 cov]$ ?ick ) a c\ntless multitude ( f9e "y trees4 ,& s x is ) ,*ri/ians4 ,leave !m 9 ! op5 common ( ! _w1 & !y gradually come d[n to a level ) ! ta/es & mann]s ( ! _w4 ,place !m )9 ! gu>d$ enclosures ( ! ,*ur*1 & !y rise to ! dignity & glory ( sa9ts4 ,he t walke? ) wise m5 %all be wise2 b a companion ( fools %all be de/roy$4 ,h5ce ! ,"l add$ to ! ,*ur* daily su* z %\ld be sav$4 ,:5 y get into ! ,*ur*1 /ay !re z long z y hone/ly c2 & honor x by a truly ,*ri/ian life2 & aid x by y\r labors2 & support x lib]ally ) y\r money4 ,! be/ sp5t money 9 ! _w is t :i* is employ$ 9 promot+ ! spread ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,& try to live 9 peace bo? ) y\r pa/or & y\r fell[-memb]s4 ,obey ! rules4 ,d n dream ( unlimit$ lib]ty2 y _c h x2 & x w\ld d y no good if y c\ld1 b h>m4 ,& unlimit$ lib]ty = "o1 w\ld be slav]y or m>tyrdom = ! re/4 ,judge ! ,*ur* & y\r pa/ors *>itably1 z y w\ld l to be judg$ y\rself4 ,expect to f9d imp]fections 9 !m1 & make z mu* all[ance = !m z y c1 t !y may be l$ to make all[ances = ! imp]fections !y f9d 9 y4 ,look m at ! good t is 9 y\r bre?r5 ?an at ! evil2 x w cause y to love !m ! m1 & make y feel happi] 9 _! company4 ,if any ( !m be ov]tak5 9 a fault1 try to re/ore !m1 9 ! _s ( meekness4 ,& let ! mi%aps ( y\r bre?r5 rem9d y t y too are expos$ to temptation4 ,calculate on meet+ ) trials or unpleasantnesses 9 ! ,*ur* occasionally2 = (f5ces are sure to come4 ,*ur*es are made up ( m51 & m5 are full ( imp]fections1 s t misund]/&+s1 & ev5 misdo+s at times1 are inevitable4 ,y may be misjudg$ or und]valu$4 ,!re w be diff]5ces ( ta/es & op9ions1 & ev5 cla%+s ( int]e/1 betwe5 y & y\r bre?r54 ,& trials may come f qu>t]s f :i* y c\ld nev] h expect$ !m1 & ( a k9d t y c\ld n possibly anticipate4 ,b make up y\r m9ds1 by ! help ( ,god1 to be> all pati5tly4 ,rememb] h[ ,god has borne ) y2 & consid] :at ,jesus suff]$ f ! weaknesses1 ! errors1 & ! s9s ( m52 & h[ meekly & pati5tly ,he endur$4 ,& und]/& t o!rs may h to be> ) z _m unpleasantnesses f y1 z y h to be> ) f !m4 ,y may misund]/& or und]value o!rs1 z mu* z !y misund]/& or und]value y4 ,& o!rs may be z mu* disappo9t$ 9 y1 z y are 9 !m4 ,& y may try _! pati5ce1 z mu* z !y try y\rs4 ,we "k :5 we are hurt by o!rs1 b we d n always "k :5 o!rs are hurt by u4 ,& we c see ! defects ( o!rs1 :5 we _c see our own4 ,& we %\ld consid]1 t !y w "k :5 !y are hurt by u1 :5 !y may n "k t we are hurt by !m2 & t !y w be able to see our imp]fections1 :5 !y w be q unconsci\s ( _! own4 ,& if we w\ld n h !m to make too mu* ( our defects & blund]s1 we mu/ n make too mu* ( !irs4 ,if !y c be> ) u1 we mu/ le>n to be> ) !m1 & ?9k ourselves well (f to h ?+s settl$ s4 ,if we c\ld see ourselves z ,god sees u1 we might be m a/oni%$ t o!rs %\ld be able to be> ) u1 ?an t we %\ld be requir$ to be> ) !m4 ,& ! trials we meet ) 9 ! ,*ur* w d u good1 if we look at !m 9 a prop] light1 & receive !m 9 a prop] _s4 ,!y w reveal to u ! defects ( our bre?r51 & draw u to labor = _! improvem5t4 ,& 9 labor+ = ! improvem5t ( o!rs1 we %all improve ourselves4 ,& ! unpleasant friction :i* takes place betwe5 u & our bre?r51 w only t5d to smoo! ! rugg$ness ( our temp]1 & rub (f ! unev5nesses ( our "*1 provid$ we c keep ourselves f impati5ce & res5tm5t4 ,9 go+ along ! c\rse ( a brook or a riv]1 y sometimes come ^u a b5d1 :]e y f9d a heap ( smoo? & nicely r\nd$ pebble /ones ?r[n up4 ,did y ev] ask y\rselves h[ ^! pebbles came to be s r\nd & smoo?8 ,:5 brok5 (f f _! respective rocks1 !y 7 z irregul> 9 =m1 !y _h z %>p corn]s1 & z r\gh1 & ragg$1 & jagg$ edges1 & 7 altoge!r z ugly & unsightly ?+s z any fragm5ts ( rocks y ev] look$ ^u4 ,b !y got into ! wat]1 & ! /ream roll$ !m along1 & rubb$ !m g5tly "o aga9/ ano!r1 & ?is 0 ! way !y came to be s r\nd & smoo?4 ,!re is no d\bt1 t if ! /ones c\ld h talk$1 & if !y _h _h no m s5se ?an we h1 :5ev] !y f\nd t _! neighbor /ones 7 rubb+ !m1 !y w\ld h scream$ out1 ,oh6 h[ y scrat*2 nev] dream+ t !y 7 scrat*+ ! o!r /ones j z mu* at ! same "t4 ,b =tunately ! /ones c\ld n talk2 & ?\gh !y _h n s mu* s5se z we h1 !y _h less nons5se1 & t s]v$ !m z well--s !y took _! rubb+ quietly2 & h5ce ! smoo?ness ( _! surface1 & ! beauty ( _! %ape4 ,n[ "h we are1 liv+ /ones 9 ! great /ream ( "t1 tumbl$ ab\t & rubb$ "o aga9/ ano!r4 ,let u take our rubb+ pati5tly1 & give ourselves a *ance ( gett+ rid ( our unev5nesses1 & ( be+ br\ght to a comely %ape4 ,h pati5ce1 my fri5ds4 ,! tr\ble w n cont9ue long4 ,:5 we h got our prop] %ape1 ,god w remove u to our prop] places 9 t liv+ temple :i* ,he is build+ 9 ! heav5s1 & our rubb+ w be at an end = ev]4 ,:5 ,i 0 fir/ invit$ by ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s ( ,tun/all to prea* 9 _! *apel1 "o ( ! class-lead]s & local prea*]s 9 ! circuit ?rew up 8 plan1 & s5t 9 8 class-book1 say+ he w\ld n belong to a society t w\ld all[ ,joseph ,b>k] to prea* 9 _! pulpits4 ,he 0 "u a wrong impression ) reg>d to my views4 ,"o ( ! ,tun/all travell+ prea*]s w5t to see him1 & told him t he 0 labor+ "u a mi/ake1 & advis$ him to take back 8 class-book & plan4 ,come1 said he1 & h a little talk ) ,mr4 ,b>k]4 ,he came1 & f\nd he _h be5 mi/ak54 ,=give me1 said he4 ,i _c1 said ,i2 y h committ$ no (f5ce4 ,i w save my p>dons till y d some?+ really wick$4 ,!n let u pray1 said he2 & we knelt d[n1 & pray$ = "o ano!r1 & we all felt bett]4 ,he came t night to he> me lecture4 ,! subject 0 ,,! ,,*ur*4 ,i spoke ( ! unpleasantnesses ) :i* we sometimes meet f our bre?r51 & :ile exhort+ my he>]s to take _! trials pati5tly1 ,i us$ ! illu/ration ,i h giv5 "h4 ,! old man sat on my left 9 ! front ( ! gall]y1 & 0 mu* excit$4 ,he wept4 ,at l5g?1 unable any long] to re/ra9 8 feel+s1 he cri$ al\d1 ,glory2 ,hallelujah2 ,i'll /op & be rubb$4 ,he did /op4 ,b he _h n mu* m rubb+ to endure4 ,9 less ?an twelve mon?s1 on retir+ "o night to re/1 9 8 usual heal?1 he pass$ away sudd5ly1 & peacefully1 to 8 re/ 9 heav54 ,let u /op & be rubb$4 ,bett] be rubb$ 9 ! ,*ur*1 ?an ?r[n out into ! broad highway ( ! _w1 & brok5 ) ! /rong man's hamm]4 #aa4 ,& n[ ) reg>d to re=m4 ,x is "r t we %\ld be re=m]s4 ,!re are pl5ty ( evils bo? 9 ! ,*ur* & ! ,/ate1 z well z 9 individuals1 & x is our duty to d :at we c to abate or cure !m4 ,b !re is a "r & a wrong way ( go+ ab\t ! bus9ess1 & if we w\ld avoid do+ mis*ief :ile we are try+ to d good1 we mu/ proce$ ) c>e4 ,re=m]s mu/ le>n to wait z well z to "w4 ,y _c make *ur*es1 or /ates1 or ev5 individuals1 all t y w\ld l !m to be1 9 a mom5t4 ,y _c make y\rselves :at y w\ld l to be z quickly z y w\ld wi%4 ,if y are l a man t ,i "k1 y w f9d ! improvem5t ( y\r own habits1 & temp]s1 & mann]s1 a task = life4 ,& if ! *ange = ! bett] is s sl[ 9 y\rselves1 :om y h 9 y\r h&s cont9ually1 & ) :om y c take :at lib]ties y please1 :at c y expect x to be 9 o!rs8 ,x is ! law ( ,god t ?+s %all pass f bad to good1 & f bett] to be/1 by sl[ & almo/ imp]ceptible gradations4 ,all ! great & b5efic5t op]ations ( ,nature are sil5t & sl[4 ,no?+ />ts sudd5ly into be+2 no?+ arrives in/antly at p]fection2 no?+ falls in/antly into decay4 ,! g]m9ation ( ! se$1 ! gr[? ( ! plant1 ! swell+ ( ! bud1 ! op5+ ( ! fl[]1 ! rip5+ ( ! fruit1 are all ! results ( sl[ & sil5t op]ations4 ,/ill sl[] is ! gr[? ( ! maje/ic =e/4 ,& ! trees ( greate/ wor?1 :i* supply u ) our *oice/ & mo/ durable timb]1 h ! sl[e/ gr[? ( all4 ,& s x is ) ?+s t live & move4 ,_! gr[? is sil5t z ! grave4 ,& man1 ! highe/ ( creat$ be+s1 advances to maturity mo/ t>dily ( all4 ,our developm5t is s gradual1 t ! *anges we und]go f day to day are imp]ceptible4 ,& ! developm5t ( our m9ds is z gradual z ! gr[? ( our bodies4 ,we ga!r our k a ?\ght1 a fact1 a lesson at a "t4 ,we =m our "*1 a l9e1 a trace1 a t\* a day4 ,society is subject to ! same law4 ,*ur*es & nations are collections ( individuals1 ea* *ang+ sl[ly1 & mu/ !re=e !mselves *ange m sl[ly /ill4 ,y _c =ce ! gr[? ( a s+le plant or animal at pleasure2 /ill less c y =ce at w ! advancem5t or improvem5t ( society4 ,y may *ange a nation's laws & in/itutions sudd5ly1 b ! *ange w be ( no s]vice1 s long z ! m9ds ( ! p rema9 un*ang$4 ,all ! great b5efic5t *anges ( ,nature are gradual4 ,h[ sl[ly ! d>kness ( ! night gives place to ! morn+ dawn1 & h[ sl[ly ! grey dawn ( ! morn+ bright5s into noon6 ,h[ sl[ly ! cold ( w9t] gives place to ! w>m? ( spr+ & summ]4 ,h[ sl[ly ! se$ deposit$ 9 ! gr\nd spr+s up1 putt+ =? fir/ ! blade1 !n ! e>1 & !n ! full ripe corn 9 ! e>4 ,& h[ sl[ly we gr[ up f babyhood to manhood1 & h[ sl[ly we pass on f e>ly sprightly manhood1 to ! sobriety & wisdom ( age4 ,& h[ sl[ly ! nations advance 9 sci5ce1 9 arts1 & 9 comm]ce2 9 religion1 & morals1 & gov]nm5t4 ,& s x is 9 all ! works ( ,god4 ,ev5 ! />tl+ ph5om5a pres5t$ by ! e>?'s surface1 :i* e>li] philosoph]s suppos$ to be ! result ( viol5t & sudd5 convulsions1 are n[ reg>d$ z ! result ( ! sl[ & ord9>y action ( natural p[]s4 ,leisurely movem5t is ! et]nal & univ]sal law4 ,& x is no use compla9+2 y _c alt] x4 ,y _c make a h5 hat* h] eggs 9 less ?an ?ree weeks1 d :at y w4 ,y may crack ! %ells1 ?9k+ to let ! *ick5s out a little e>li]2 b y let dea? 91 & ! *ick5s nev] d come out at all4 ,! m ha/e ! less spe$4 ,i h _h pro( ( ?is m ?an once 9 my own exp]i5ce4 ,i once liv$ 9 a h\se t]ribly infe/$ ) rats1 & ,i want$ to get rid ( !m z quick z ,i c\ld1 = !y 7 a great nuisance4 ,b1 ,i 0 9 too big a hurry to succe$4 ,"o night ,i he>d a t]rible spla%+ 9 ! wat]-tub 9 ! cell>4 ,t's a rat1 said ,i1 ,i'll dispat* t1 anyh[3 & ,i took ! light$ c&le & pok]1 & ha/5$ into ! cell>1 ?9k+ to kill ! creature at once4 ,:5 ! rat saw me ) c&le & pok]1 x made an extra spr+1 completely cle>$ ! edge ( ! tub1 & got safe away into its hole4 ,i 0 9 su* a hurry to kill x1 t ,i sav$ its life4 ,:5 ,i got to x1 x 0 dr[n+ itself z nicely z x c\ld d2 & if ,i _h _h pati5ce to wait1 x w\ld h be5 dead 9 t5 m9utes4 ,b because ,i w\ld n wait1 & let x die quietly1 x w\ld n die at all4 ,& x may be liv+ n[ = any?+ ,i "k1 & may h br$ a hundr$ o!r rats s9ce !n1 & all because ,i w\ld n give x "t to die 9 peace4 ,!re are rats ev]y:]e /ill4 ,!re are rats 9 ! ,*ur*1 rats 9 ! ,/ate2 rats 9 palaces1 & rats 9 hovels4 ,!re are rats ( despotism & tyranny1 rats ( slav]y & w>1 rats ( rebellion & an>*y4 ,!re are rats ( sup]/ition & idolatry1 rats ( h]esy & infidelity1 rats ( intemp]ance & lic5ti\sness4 ,& x is "r to try to kill !m (f4 ,b we _h bett] g to "w c>efully4 ,we _c put ?+s "r 9 an in/ant4 ,& :5 wick$ laws1 or vici\s pr9ciples h receiv$ _! dea? bl[1 we _h bett] give !m "t to die 9 quiet4 ,ha/e & impati5ce may spoil all4 #ab4 ,?\gh unbelief may n always be a s91 x is always a great calamity4 ,z we h said1 its t5d5cy is always to immorality1 & immorality always t5ds to mis]y & dea?4 ,byron p]i%$ 9 8 prime1 & 8 %ort life & 8 untimely dea? 7 bo? unhappy4 ,unbeliev]s are seldom happy 9 _! dome/ic relations4 ,& 9 cutt+ !mselves (f f ,god1 !y r$uce ! noble/ affections ( _! s\ls to />vation4 ,!y h no suitable ex]cise or gratification = _! natural in/9ctive gratitude1 _! rev]5ce1 or _! love4 ,!y h no?+ 9 :i* !y c securely tru/4 ,ev5 _! family & social affections (t5 decl9e & die4 ,_m unbeliev]s are poor1 & infidel pov]ty is always envi\s4 ,! _w is a v try+ "o to unbeliev]s3 h>dly any?+ pleases !m2 & no?+ pleases !m long4 ,rul]s d n please !m3 !y are despots & tyrants4 ,_! fell[ subjects d n please !m3 !y are c[>dly slaves4 ,_! ma/]s d n please !m3 !y are extortion]s4 ,_! m5 d n please !m3 !y are knaves4 ,! ri* d n please !m3 !y are lee*es1 cat]pill>s1 cormorants4 ,! poor d n please !m3 !y are mean1 deceitful & di%one/4 ,religion does n please !m2 x is sup]/ition3 & philosophy does n please !m2 x is a bore & a %am4 ,prie/s d n please !m2 !y are *eats3 & ! p d n please !m2 !y are dupes4 ,! climates d n suit !m3 !y are too hot1 or too cold2 too damp1 or too dry2 & ! seasons d n please !m--!y are always unc]ta91 & seldom "r4 ,! _w at l>ge disgu/s !m3 x takes ! "p ( _! enemies4 ,x favors ! religi\s classes1 & mocks & tortures ! infidel philosoph]4 ,_! bodies are n "r2 !y are always ail+1 & ?reat5+ to give way3 & _! m9ds are n "r2 !y are nev] cont5t$ & at re/4 ,!re is no?+ "r 9 ! pres5t2 & !re is no?+ promis+ 9 ! future4 ,!y ?9k !mselves ! wise/ p 9 ! _w1 yet p 9 g5]al reg>d !m z fools2 & !y !mselves c see t _! fanci$ wisdom does n prove _! fri5d4 ,!y c give no explanation ( ! my/]ies ( ! univ]se4 ,!y _c acc\nt = ! facts :i* geology reveals ) reg>d to ! natural hi/ory ( ! globe4 ,!y _c acc\nt = ! me*anism ( ! heav5s1 or ! *emi/ry ( ! e>?4 ,!y _c acc\nt = life1 organization1 or intellig5ce4 ,!y _c acc\nt = in/9ct4 ,!y _c acc\nt = ! m>ks ( design :i* are ev]y:]e visible 9 ,nature1 nor = ! numb]less wond]s ( special arrangem5t & adaptation manife/ 9 h] works4 ,!y _c acc\nt = ! diff]5ce betwe5 man & ! l[] animals4 ,animals c indulge !mselves freely & take no h>m2 man _c indulge himself freely )\t mis]y & ru94 ,animals c be happy )\t self-d5ial2 man _c4 ,man excels 9 ! gift ( reason1 yet commits mi/akes1 & p]petrates crimes1 :i* we look = 9 va9 among ! bea/s ( ! field4 ,man1 ) a ?\s& times m p[] ?an ! brutes1 & ) imm5sely great] capacities & opportunities = happ9ess1 is frequ5tly ! mo/ mis]able be+ on e>?4 ,on ! supposition t man 0 made = a diff]5t end1 & end[$ ) a diff]5t nature f ! brutes--on ! supposition t man 0 made = virtue1 = piety1 = rational1 religi\s self-gov]nm5t1 = volunt>y ob$i5ce to ,god1 = ! joy ( a good consci5ce1 = heav5--9 a ^w1 on ! supposition t ! ,scriptural & ,*ri/ian doctr9e ab\t man is true1 all ?is is expla9$2 b on ! infidel !ory all is a tortur+1 madd5+ my/]y4 ,& let infidels d :at !y w1 & say :at !y please1 ! _w at l>ge w hold to ! religi\s !ory4 ,mahometans1 ,pagans1 & ,*ri/ians all insi/ t man is made = high] "w1 & meant = a high] de/9y1 ?an ! l[] animals4 ,! ,*ri/ian !ory is accept$ by ! highe/ ( our race4 ,!y reg>d x ) ! deepe/ rev]5ce4 ,! books t unfold x !y reg>d z div9e4 ,!y read !m 9 _! families4 ,!y read !m 9 _! temples4 ,!y tea* !m 9 _! s*ools4 ,!y publi% !m 9 e language2 !y s5d !m r\nd ! globe4 ,9 ,engl& & ,am]ica1 ! fir/ ( ! nations1 y see !m ev]y:]e4 ,y meet ) !m 9 hotels1 9 bo>d+-h\ses1 at railway /ations1 & on /eam packets2 9 asylums & infirm>ies2 9 b>racks & 9 prisons2 9 poor-h\ses & 9 palaces2 9 ! draw+-rooms ( ! weal?y1 & 9 ! hovels ( ! poor4 ,! greate/ s*ol>s & r>e/ g5iuses devote _! lives to ! diffusion ( _! doctr9es2 & !re is no probability ( a *ange4 ,if ,*ri/ianity be false1 ! _w is mad3 if x be true1 ! case ( ! infidel is deplorable 9 ! extreme4 ,& t _m portions ( ! ,*ri/ian sy/em are true1 is pa/ d\bt4 ,!y c>ry ! evid5ce ( _! tru? on _! v face4 ,& o!r portions admit ( easy pro(4 ,! tru? ( _m ,*ri/ian doctr9es c be prov$ by exp]i5ce4 ,& ! re/ are probable en\gh4 ,!re is no?+ absurd1 no?+ irrational 9 ,*ri/ianity4 ,! tea*+s ( ,*ri/ are ! p]fection ( goodness4 ,!y are ! p]fection ( wisdom & beauty4 ,ev5 ,goe! c\ld say1 ,! human race c nev] atta9 to any?+ high] ?an ,*ri/ianity1 z pres5t$ 9 ! life & tea*+s ( its ,f\nd]4 ,& aga9 he says1 ,h[ mu* soev] spiritual culture may advance1 ! natural sci5ces broad5 & deep51 & ! human m9d enl>ge1 ! _w w nev] get beyond ! l(t9ess & moral culture ( ,*ri/ianity z x %9es & gli/5s 9 ! ,gospels4--,f>h5lehre1 iii4 #cg4 ,& no?+ c be m true4 ,look = a few mom5ts at ,*ri/ & ,*ri/ianity4 ,&1 fir/1 :at is ,*ri/ z pres5t$ 9 ! ,gospels8 #a4 ,he is1 fir/1 holy1 h>mless1 undefil$2 a lamb )\t blemi% & )\t spot4 ,?is is ! l[e/ trait 9 ,8 "*4 ,yet x is a great ?+ = any "o to rema9 innoc5t 9 a _w l ?is1 ) a nature l ours4 #b4 ,b ,he 01 second1 an example ( ! highe/ moral & spiritual excell5ce4 ,he 0 dev\t1 pi\s1 resign$1 t[>ds ,8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,he 0 full ( b5evol5ce t[>ds m54 ,he did good4 ,! happ9ess ( mank9d 0 ! end1 & do+ good ! bus9ess1 ( ,8 life4 ,he _h no o!r object4 ,he paid no reg>d to weal?1 to p[]1 to pleasure1 or to fame4 ,he 0 s fix$ & s+le 9 ,8 aim1 t !re is no room = mi/ake4 ,to d good1 to bless mank9d1 0 ,8 meat & dr9k4 #c4 ,& ,he did good to m5's bodies z well z to _! s\ls4 ,:ile ,he taught ! ignorant1 & re=m$ ! bad1 & com=t$ ! p5it5t1 ,he heal$ ! sick1 gave sight to ! bl9d1 he>+ to ! deaf1 bread to ! hungry1 & life to ! dead4 #d4 ,he enjo9$ ! same way ( life on ,8 disciples4 ,freely ye h receiv$1 said ,he1 freely give4 #e4 ,:ile ,he liv$ & labor$ = ! good ( all1 ,he paid special att5tion to ! poor4 #f4 ,yet ,he nev] flatt]$ ! poor1 nor p&]$ to _! prejudices or passions4 ,he nev] taught !m to envy ! ri*1 or revile ! great1 or to ?r[ ! blame ( _! sorr[s on o!rs4 #g4 ,:ile k9d to ! poor1 ,he 0 j & respectful to ! ri*4 ,8 conduct to ,nicodemus1 to ,zac*eus1 to ! "y man t came to "q ,him ab\t ! way to heav51 & to ! ,roman c5turion1 0 c\rte\s & comely to ! la/ degree4 ,he 0 fai?ful1 b n h>%4 #h4 ,he 0 good to all classes4 ,he lov$ ! ,jews1 yet ,he 0 j & k9d to ! ,sam>itans1 to ! ,syro-ph5ician woman1 & to ! ,roman soldi]4 #i4 ,he 0 especially k9d to wom51 ev5 to ! fall5 ones4 ,he %[$ none ( t indiff]5ce or disda9 = woman t ! pr\d b>b>ian exhibits1 or ( t he>tless contempt :i* ! vici\s s5suali/ manife/s4 ,he rose alike above ! selfi% passions & ! invet]ate prejudices ( 8 age1 & conf]r$ on ! injur$ sex ! bless+s ( fre$om & dignity1 ( purity & bless$ness4 #aj4 ,he %[$ ! t5d]e/ reg>d to *ildr54 ,he took !m 9 ,8 arms & bless$ !m1 & said1 ,suff] little *ildr5 to come unto ,me1 & =bid !m n1 = ( su* is ! k+dom ( heav54 #aa4 ,he 0 k9d to ! outca/4 ,he 0 a fri5d ( publicans & s9n]s4 ,he w5t among ! l[e/1 ! mo/ neglect$1 ! mo/ despis$1 ! mo/ hat$ & dread$ ( mank9d1 & labor$ = _! salvation4 ,! p>ables ( ! ,lo/ ,%eep1 & ( ! ,prodigal ,son1 speak volumes 9 ,8 praise4 #ab4 ,he 0 always g5tle1 tol]ant1 & =giv+4 ,he refus$ to br+ d[n fire f heav5 on ! villag]s t _h slight$ ,him1 say+ ,! ,son ( ,man is n come to de/roy m5's lives1 b to save !m4 ,he comm5d$ ! virtue ( ,sam>itan h]etics4 ,he has no?+ h>% ev5 = ! infidel ,sadducee4 ,he complies ) ! unreasonable wi%es ( ! skeptical ,?omas4 ,he p>dons ,pet]4 ,he is sev]e ) ! ,scribes & ,ph>isees only1 :o made void ! law ( righte\sness by _! traditions1 & took ! key ( k1 & us$ x1 n to op51 b to keep %ut ! door ( ! k+dom ( heav54 #ac4 ,z a re=m]1 ,he w5t to ! root ( social & political evils1 & s\ght ! re=m ( laws1 in/itutions1 & gov]nm5ts1 by labor+ = ! in/ruction & r5ovation ( individuals4 #ad4 ,he 0 pati5t z well z dis9t]e/$4 ,he 0 will+ to s[1 & let o!rs reap2 to labor1 & let o!rs enjoy ! fruits ( 8 labors4 #ae4 ,he =m$ a ,*ur*1 employ+ ! social in/9cts & affections ( ,8 foll[]s z a means ( p]petuat+ & ext5d+ ,8 b5efic5t influ5ce 9 ! _w4 #af4 ,he *eck$ ! imp]t95ce1 & sil5c$ ! vanity ( capti\s cavill]s4 #ag4 ,he c>ri$ ! tru? into m>kets & sea-ports1 z well z taught x 9 ! temple & 9 ! synagogues4 #ah4 ,he _h ! eloqu5ce ( sil5ce z well z ( spee*4 #ai4 ,he c\ld suff] z well z labor4 ,he bore reproa* & insol5ce1 & at la/ laid d[n ,8 life = mank9d4 #bj4 ,he c\ld make all[ances ev5 = ,8 murd]]s4 ,:5 !y mock$ ,him 9 ,8 dy+ agonies1 ,he c\ld say1 ,fa!r1 =give !m2 !y "k n :at !y d4 ,he excell$ z a tea*]4 #a4 ,he 0 v practical2 seek+ always to br+ m5 to be m]ciful1 z _! ,fa!r 9 ,heav5 is m]ciful4 #b4 ,he 0 v pla92 us+ ! simple/ =ms ( spee*1 & ! mo/ natural & t\*+ illu/rations4 #c4 ,he pres5t$ tru? & duty 9 ,8 p>ables 9 ! mo/ impressive =ms4 #d4 ,8 doctr9es ab\t ,god & provid5ce1 ab\t duty & immortality1 ab\t "r wor%ip & ! prop] employm5t ( ! ,sabba?2 ab\t true greatness1 & ! =giv5ess ( injuries2 ab\t g5tl5ess & tol]ation2 ab\t meekness & humility2 ab\t purity & s9c]ity1 z well z on a great v>iety ( o!r subjects1 7 ! p]fection ( true philosophy4 ,8 p>able ( ! tal5ts1 ,8 rem>ks on ! wid[ & h] two mites1 & on ! woman & ! box ( o9tm5t1 %[+ t no?+ is requir$ ( u beyond our p[]s & opportunities1 are /rik+1 in/ructive1 & impressive 9 ! highe/ degree4 #e4 ,he made x ! duty ( all :om ,he taught to in/ruct o!rs4 ,8 words1 freely ye h receiv$1 freely give2 & ! s5t5ce1 ,x is m bless$ to give ?an to receive1 are among ! div9e/ oracles ev] he>d on e>?4 #f4 ,he illu/rat$ & en=c$ all ,8 lessons by a consi/5t example4 ,he practis$ :at ,he taught4 #g4 ,& ,he comm&$ ,8 disciples to d ! same4 ,let y\r light s %9e be=e m51 t !y may see y\r good works1 & glorify y\r ,fa!r :i* is 9 heav54 #h4 ,!re c be no?+ ju/] or k9d] ?an ,8 great rule1 ,all ?+s :atsoev] ye w\ld t m5 %\ld d unto y1 d ye ev5 s unto !m4 #i4 ,8 doctr9e t ,god w treat m5 z !y treat ea* o!r1 is mo/ /rik+ & important4 ,bless$ are ! m]ciful1 = !y %all obta9 m]cy4 ,) :at judgm5t ye judge ye %all be judg$2 & ) :at measure ye mete1 x %all be measur$ to y aga94 ,if ye =give m5 _! trespasses1 y\r heav5ly ,fa!r w =give y y\r trespasses2 b if ye =give n m5 _! trespasses1 nei!r w y\r heav5ly ,fa!r =give y y\r trespasses4 #aj4 ,8 rem>ks on ri*es & pov]ty1 on honor & reproa*1 on suff]+ & glory1 ?\gh reg>d$ by "s ) %yness & di/ru/1 conta9 a _w ( important tru?4 #aa4 ,8 lessons on spiritual or religi\s fre$om1 on self-d5ial1 on ! true m>k ( disciple%ip1 on ! great judgm5t1 on ! future ( ,*ri/ianity1 & on ! heav5ly felicity1 are all rem>kable = _! wisdom1 & = _! purify+ & ennobl+ t5d5cy4 ,b x w\ld require volumes to d ,*ri/ & ,8 doctr9e ju/ice4 ,& ,i feel z if ,i 7 wrong+ ! ,savi\r to speak ( ,8 wor? & doctr9e1 :5 ,i h nei!r "t nor space duly to set =? _! transc5d5t excell5cy4 ,e peculi> trait 9 ,8 "* t ,i h nam$1 des]ves a treatise to pres5t x 9 all its importance & glory2 & ,i1 alas1 c give b a s5t5ce or two to ea*4,a ,b ,*ri/ has our dev\te/ love & gratitude1 & our pr(\nde/ rev]5ce4 ,& ! m we contemplate ,him1 ! m con/ra9$ we feel to reg>d ,him1 n only z ! p]fection ( all human excell5ce1 b z ! revelation & inc>nation ( ! et]nal ,god4 ,& we feel x a great honor & unspeakable privilege to be p]mitt$ to be> ,8 "n1 to belong to ,8 p>ty1 & to labor 9 ,8 cause4 ,we are indebt$ to ,him = ev]y?+ t gives value to our exi/5ce1 & we give ,him1 9 return1 ) *e]fulness & gladness1 our he>t1 our life1 our all4 ,ah1 :y did ,i s late ,!e "k1 ,!e1 loveli] ?an ! sons ( m58 ,ah1 :y did ,i no soon] g ,to ,!e1 ! only ease 9 pa98 ,a%am$ ,i sigh1 & inly m\rn ,t ,i s late to ,!e did turn4 ,a ,s9ce ! above 0 writt5 we h publi%$ a book entitl$ ,,jesus3 ,a ,,portrait4 ,look at x4 ,,conclud+ ,,rem>ks4 #a4 ,:ile ! t5d5cy ( infidelity is to make m5 mis]able1 x is ! t5d5cy ( ,*ri/ianity to make m5 happy4 ,:5 ,i 0 liv+ at ,burnley1 an infidel came to me "o morn+ & said1 ,b>k]1 we may say :at we w1 b ^? ,rant]s1 7mean+ ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s7 are ! happie/ m5 alive4 ,!re is "o lives next to me1 & he s+s all ! day long4 ,he gets up s++ & goes to b$ s++4 ,!y are ! happie/ m5 alive4 ,& real ,*ri/ians ( all d5om9ations are happy4 #b4 ,"s "t aft] my return to ,*ri/ianity1 ,i sp5t a few days 9 ! h\se ( a ,primitive ,me?odi/1 a f>m]1 on ! ,*e%ire ,hills4 ,i seem$ 9 ,p>adise4 ,! ma/] & ! mi/ress 7 *e]ful & k9d1 & ! daught]s & girls 7 almo/ cont9ually s++ delightful ,*ri/ian melodies :ile busy at _! "w4 ,"o mom5t !y 7 s++ ( a ,,beautiful ,,/ream1 & !n ( a ,,happy ,,l&4 ,"o w\ld beg91 ,jesus1 ,lov] ( my s\l--& :5 t 0 f9i%$1 ano!r w\ld beg9 )1 ,:5 ,i c read my title cle>1 to mansions 9 ! skies1--& ! s++ & ! "w w5t on toge!r all ! day4 ,x 0 heav54 ,& a ?\s& su* facts might be giv54 #c4 ,my own exp]i5ce is 9 h>mony ) ^! facts4 ,my return to ,*ri/ made me happy beyond measure4 ,x br\ght me enjoym5ts1 transports1 to :i*1 = ye>s1 ,i _h be5 an utt] /rang]4 ,! fact is1 = a long "t ! wor? ( my life 0 well-nigh gone4 ,i liv$1 because ,i felt ,i ought to live1 = ! sake ( ^? :o 7 de> to me4 ,b = myself1 ! light & joy ( my life seem$ gone = ev]4 ,my exi/5ce 0 a long d>k /ruggle ) cru%+ de/9y4 ,?\gh naturally hopeful1 ,i 0 made to feel ! bitt]ness ( blank despair4 ,i _h mom5ts ( relief1 b ,i _h weeks ( gloom & despond5cy4 ,n[ all is *ang$4 ,i h mom5ts ( sadness & depression2 b weeks & mon?s ( joy & gladness4 ,i see ! univ]se 9 an entirely diff]5t light4 ,& in/ead ( murmur+ at ,nature z cruel1 ,i adore a graci\s & m]ciful ,god4 ,( my errors & misdo+s ,i mu/ always feel a%am$1 & a consci\sness ( !m mu/ = ev] t5d to make me sad at times2 yet not)/&+ all drawbacks1 ,i h enjoy$ m satisfaction1 m real happ9ess1 a hundr$ times ov]1 dur+ ! la/ twelve mon?s1 ?an ,i enjoy$ dur+ ! :ole p]iod ( my ali5ation f ,god4 ,! simple-he>t$ ,*ri/ian kn[s :at he says1 :5 he tells y ,!re's some?+ 9 religion4 ,x has a p[] & a bless$ness altoge!r diff]5t f any?+ else "u heav54 ,k is sweet1 & love is sweet1 & p[] & victory are sweet2 b religion--! religion ( ,*ri/--is sweet]1 inf9itely sweet] ?an all4 ,x is ! life & bless$ness ( ! s\l4 ,x is its greatness1 its /r5g?1 its glory3 its joy1 its p>adise1 its heav54 #d4 ,if ! *ur*es ab\nd ) defects1 ! cause is 9 humanity1 & n 9 ,*ri/ianity4 ,m5 are n imp]fect because !y are ,*ri/ians1 b because !y are n ,*ri/ian en\gh4 ,! wor/ m5 are ! f>!/ f ,*ri/ianity1 & ! be/ are ne>e/ to x4 ,& ! wor/ cre$s are ! lea/ ,*ri/ian1 & ! be/ are ! mo/ ,*ri/ian4 ,& ,*ri/ianity is bett] ?an ! be/4 ,!re is n a virtue on e>?1 nor a tru? 9 ! univ]se1 :i* does n =m a "p1 or a consi/5t & fitt+ app5dage1 ( ! ,*ri/ian sy/em4 ,! be/1 ! wise/1 ! noble/ man on e>? is no bett]1 no wis]1 no nobl]1 ?an ! tea*+s ( ,jesus t5d to make ! :ole human race4 #e4 ,! influ5ce :i* ,jesus ex]t$ on ! _w1 & ! influ5ce :i* ,he is /ill ex]t+1 is ! mightie/ & mo/ b5efic5t ev] exp]i5c$ by mank9d2 & ! monum5t :i* ,he has rais$ = ,himself1 ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*1 ) all its in/itutions1 its lit]atures1 its ag5cies & a*ievem5ts is1 beyond all comp>ison1 ! gr&e/1 ! noble/1 & 9 all respects ! mo/ magnific5t & glori\s t ! hi/ory ( ! _w c boa/4 ,he has inde$ ga9$ = ,himself a "n above e "n2 a glory & a p[] :i* h no equal & no resemblance2 & ,8 foll[]s may well adore ,him z ! brightness ( ! ,fa!r's glory1 & ! express image ( ,8 love & maje/y4 #f4 ,& :at c we d bett] ?an *ime 9 ) ! an!m ( ,8 wor%ipp]s8 ,:at c we d bett] ?an tea* ,8 b5efic5t doctr9es1 & foll[ ,8 glori\s example8 ,talk z we w1 ! noble/ & ! happie/ life a man c live is a life ( ,*ri/ian love & b5efic5ce4 ,& ! be/ association on e>? is t :i* is organiz$ on ! pr9ciple ( love to ,*ri/1 pl$g$ to ! self-sacrific+ labors ( a wise philan?ropy1 ! "w ( s]v+ & bless+ mank9d4 #g4 ,a belief 9 ,*ri/ gives "o a p[] to d good to mank9d :i* no skeptic c h4 ,x k9dles love1 & /imulates to activity1 z no?+ else does4 ,& x inspires c\rage1 & produces pati5ce1 & gives com=t "u p]secution4 ,& x lays on u no unnecess>y re/ra9ts4 ,x leaves u free to e good ^w & to e good "w4 ,& x is fri5dly to sci5ce & to unlimit$ progress4 ,x (f]s a bond ( union = all great m9ds1 & = all good he>ts4 ,x increases our p[] to re=m bo? *ur*es & /ates1 )\t urg+ u to wild & revolution>y measures1 :i* might imp]il ! int]e/s ( bo?4 ,to accept ?is religion1 to av[ ?is fai?1 involves no?+ ( :i* we ne$ be a%am$1 b ev]y?+ 9 :i* we may reasonably glory4 ,we escape alike ! follies ( !ological dream]s1 & ! gloom & horrors ( infidel philosophy4 ,we live amid/ ! s(t mild glories ( et]nal light2 we *e] ourselves ) ! ri*e/ & mo/ glori\s hopes1 & we sp5d our lives 9 ! gr&e/ contemplations & ! noble/ occupations ! he>t ( man c conceive4 #h4 ,! va9e/ ( all va9 ?+s1 ! mo/ unseemly & revolt+ ( all =ms ( pride1 is ! pride ( disbelief 9 ,god & immortality4 ,& ! madde/ if n ! wick$e/ ( all occupations1 is to labor to de/roy ! fai? & blight ! hopes ( o!rs4 ,:at good1 humane1 or m]ciful motive c a man h to impel him to su* a horrible und]tak+8 #i4 ,h[ soo?+ ! ?\ght t y\r suff]+s are m>k$ by a lov+ ,god1 & w be ov]rul$ = y\r good6 ,& h[ *e]+ ! ?\ght1 :5 life is 9 dang]1 or draw+ to a close1 t dea? is ! gate ( a high] life6 ,& h[ com=t+ ! ?\ght1 :5 y\r lov$ ones are leav+ y1 t !y are go+ be=e y to a happi] home1 & t by-&-by y w see _! faces1 he> _! voices1 & %>e _! pres5ce & society aga96 ,& :at a relief1 :5 visit+ ! sick1 ! sorr[+1 or ! dy+1 to be able to speak to !m ( an inf9ite ,fa!r1 ( ano!r life1 & ( bright] sc5es1 & ( a happi] lot1 9 a bett] l&6 #aj4 ,we h sp5t "t en\gh among ! dead4 ,& y c see ) y\r own eyes :i* are ! liv+1 lov+1 & labor+ portions ( ! ,*ur*4 ,y c see :i* portions build ! mo/ s*ools1 tea* ! mo/ *ildr51 reclaim ! mo/ drunk>ds & pr(ligates1 & d mo/ to develop & cultivate ! religi\s & moral s5tim5ts ( ! masses4 ,& "o ( ! lessons we always press$ on y 01 to judge a tree by its fruits4 ,we d n int5d to sw]ve f our plan ( avoid+ sect>ian & !ological controv]sy2 b we may ask y to comp>e ! am\nt ( good religi\s "w done by ! ,me?odi/s 9 fifty ye>s1 ) ! good done by ! s-call$ lib]al ,*ri/ians1 & to draw y\r own conclusion4 ,! ,primitive ,me?odi/s alone1 ) ! smalle/ am\nt ( means1 h done incalculably m good 9 fifty ye>s1 ?an ! ,unit>ians1 ) unlimit$ supplies ( weal?1 & all ! advantages ( le>n+ & position1 h done 9 a hundr$ & fifty ye>s4 ,we h ca/ 9 our lot ) ! liv+1 work+ portion ( ! ,*ur*4 ,x is our home4 ,we _h r be a doorkeep] ( ! humble/ liv+1 h>d-work+ *ur* 9 ! l&1 ?an dwell ) ! spiritually dead & cold 9 ! palaces ( pr9ces4 ,we w help ! m5 t are do+ ! h>d & ne$ful "w ( humanity4 ,if y c see su* m5 z ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s & ! or?odox ,*ur*es g5]ally1 work+ z !y d "w1 & succe$+ z !y d succe$1 & n respect !m & love !m1 & take "p 9 help+ !m1 y h n ! he>t ( t5d]ness & ! _s ( ,*ri/ian manl9ess = :i* we h giv5 y cr$it4 #aa4 ,! influ5ce ( ,*ri/ianity _c be o!rwise ?an b5eficial2 nor is x possible t ,*ri/ianity %\ld become ! rul+ p[] on e>? )\t greatly abat+1 if n entirely cur+ ! evils ( humanity1 & mak+ mank9d z happy z _! nature & capacities admit4 ,imag9e ,*ri/ianity to be receiv$ & r$uc$ to practice by all ! p on e>?1 :at w\ld be ! result8 ,disease w\ld gradually dim9i%4 ,n9e-t5?s ( x w\ld quickly disappe>2 & life w\ld be bo? happi] & mu* long]4 ,along ) disease w\ld g want1 & ! fe> ( want4 ,all w\ld be well f$1 well clad1 well h\s$1 & well suppli$ ) all ! necess>ies & com=ts ( life4 ,! _w is /or$ ) abundance ( natural weal?4 ,! surface ( ! e>? is va/ en\gh1 & its soil is ri* en\gh1 to supply homes & pl5ty to all its inhabitants1 if !y 7 fifty times z num]\s z !y are4 ,?ree or f\r h\rs a day w\ld be ! utmo/ l5g? ( "t t m5 w\ld ne$ to labor4 ,! cessation ( w> w\ld set ! soldi]s free = productive employm5t4 ,! peaceful disposition ( ! p at home w\ld all[ ! police =ces to devote !mselves to useful labor4 ,! idle classes w\ld set to "w1 & ! wa/eful classes w\ld become economical4 ,a limit w\ld be fix$ to ! extravagances ( fa%ion4 ,?+s comely & useful w\ld satisfy ! desires ( bo? m5 & wom54 ,! p[]s ( nature w\ld be press$ m g5]ally into our s]vice1 & compell$ to d our drudg]y bo? 9 ! m9e & on ! f>m4 ,a s5se ( ju/ice w\ld dispose m5 to be cont5t ) _! %>e ( ! bless+s ( ,provid5ce1 & ,*ri/ian g5]osity w\ld prompt ! ri* to supply ! wants ( ! helpless4 ,! dang]s ( useful toil w\ld be dim9i%$4 ,! catalogue ( m\rnful accid5ts 9 flood & field1 9 m9es & factories1 w\ld be abridg$4 ,oppression w\ld cease4 ,! wise/ & be/ w\ld be our legislators & rul]s4 ,patriots1 philan?ropi/s1 & philosoph]s w\ld take ! place ( selfi% politicians4 ,political trick]y w\ld give place to honorable /atesman%ip4 ,all cruel =ms ( s]vitude w\ld cease4 ,all wick$ laws w\ld be aboli%$4 ,all ne$less burd5s w\ld be remov$ f ! backs ( ! p4 ,all w\ld be well taught4 ,all dreams ( impossible equality1 & all ?\ghts ( viol5t & bloody revolutions1 w\ld pass away4 ,vice & crime w\ld disappe>1 ) all ! tortures bo? ( m9d & body :i* !y occasion4 ,comm]ce w\ld fl\ri%4 ,all nations w\ld freely & lov+ly ex*ange _! surplus products4 ,all classes w\ld deal ) ea* o!r honorably4 ,ea* "o w\ld d to o!rs z he w\ld t o!rs %\ld d to him4 ,no "o w\ld suff] f fraud1 or f ! fe> ( fraud4 ,trade w\ld be a mutual ex*ange ( b5efits4 ,bus9ess w\ld be a pleasant pa/ime1 ga9ful to all1 & ru9\s to none4 ,m>riage w\ld be univ]sal1 & w\ld prove 9 e case a com=t & a bless+4 ,! family circle w\ld be ! abode ( love1 & peace1 & joy4 ,ea* home w\ld be a little heav54 ,*ildr5 w\ld be wisely tra9$ & c>efully nurtur$ 9 k & piety4 ,! virtues & ! graces w\ld adorn _! lives f y\? to age4 ,all tal5t & skill1 ! p[]s ( eloqu5ce & ( poetry1 ! influ5ces ( music & ( song1 & all ! p[]s ( art w\ld s]ve ! cause ( tru? & virtue1 ( religion & humanity4 ,sup]/ition w\ld die4 ,unnatural conceptions ( ,god1 & cruel1 wa/eful1 & useless =ms ( wor%ip1 w\ld give place to fai? 9 a ,god ( light & love1 ( wisdom & ( purity1 & to a spiritual1 rational1 & raptur\s k9d ( devotion4 ,all ignorant dread ( natural ph5om5a w\ld give place to joy\s & lov+ admiration1 & to dev\te/ adoration1 ( ! great et]nal ,rul] ( ! _w4 ,if calamities came !y w\ld be accept$ z div9e appo9tm5ts1 z ne$ful means ( ev]la/+ good4 ,dea? w\ld lose its t]rors4 ,belief 9 a bless$ immortality w\ld enable u to pass f e>? 9 peace & joy4 ,b]eavem5ts w\ld be less di/ress+4 ,! dep>ture ( our fri5ds w\ld be b a transition to a bett] /ate ( be+4 ,! _w itself w\ld *ange4 ,its beauties w\ld become m beautiful2 its glories w\ld become m glori\s1 & all its joys & pleasures w\ld be m transport+4 ,! eye1 ! e>1 ! ta/e1 ! smell w\ld all become ! inlets ( m & ri*] enjoym5ts4 ,sci5ce & lit]ature 9 _! div9e/ =ms w\ld become ! common lot ( our race4 ,! glory ( ,god's "* & ! brightness ( ! et]nal future1 w\ld %$ unwont$ radiance ov] ! pres5t life1 & make x raptur\s1 glori\s1 & div9e4 ,! religion ( ,*ri/1 :ile rais+ m5 to heav51 w\ld br+ d[n heav5 to e>?4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! want ( tru/ 9 ,god & ( a hope ( immortality t5ds to d>k5 e>?1 & to embitt] life4 ,:5 m5 are sev]$ f ,god & ,*ri/1 !y suff] loss bo? 9 "* & enjoym5t4 ,we c speak f exp]i5ce4 ,we nev] ru9$ our heal? by vici\s indulg5ce4 ,we nev] became ! slave ( intemp]ance or lic5ti\sness4 ,we nev] di%onor$ our family1 or lo/ ! love & confid5ce ( our wife & *ildr54 ,b we lo/ our tru/ 9 ,god1 & our hope ( immortality4 ,& ! heav5s above grew d>k1 & ! e>? became a desolation4 ,life lo/ its value1 & sorr[ its consolation2 & _m & _m a "t we wi%$ t we _h nev] be5 born4 ,= h\rs h we trod ! e>? ) heavy he>t & d[nca/ eyes1 groan+ b5ea? a weight ( sadness indescribable4 ,loss ( fai? 9 ,*ri/1 ev5 ) m5 ( a naturally *e]ful & hopeful _s1 r5d]s life a burd5 too heavy to be borne4 ,h5ce = ye>s be=e we fully rega9$ our own fai? 9 ,*ri/ianity1 we enc\rag$ o!rs to *]i% !irs4 ,an infidel once said1 t ! ,*ri/ian's hope1 if false1 0 wor? all ?is _w's be/ tru?s2 & we felt ! tru? ( ! rem>k1 & %rank f attempts to take f m5 ! ine/imable treasure4 ,& n[ we w\ld r die ?an %ake or und]m9e ! fai? ( any ,*ri/ian s\l on e>?4 ,to ! "w ( *]i%+ a belief 9 ,*ri/ 9 our own he>t1 & nurtur+ x 9 ! he>ts ( o!rs1 we consecrate our life1 our all4 ,we w\ld r live on a cru/1 9 a mud hut1 ) fai? 9 ,god & ,*ri/1 ?an fea/ on all ! da9ties ( ! e>?1 9 ! palace ( a k+1 ) ! hopelessness & gloom ( ! ,a!i/4 ,we h no disposition to exagg]ate2 b we are con/ra9$ to say1 t if all ! wisdom & all ! virtue on e>? _h dwelt 9 "o man1 & if t "o man _h pres5t$ a revelation ( ,god ) a view to supply ! /ronge/1 ! mightie/1 ! mo/ t\*+1 ! mo/ t5d]1 ! mo/ v>i$1 & ! mo/ irresi/ible inducem5ts to r5\nce all selfi%ness & s91 & to live a pure & godly1 a holy & a useful1 a div9e & glori\s life1 t revelation c\ld h assum$ no bett]1 no m p]fect or effective =m1 ?an t :i* is pres5t$ 9 ! revelation ( ,god by ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,we feel1 :ile we contemplate x1 t x c h no fitt] or tru] "n ?an t be/[$ on x by ! ,apo/les1 ',! p[] ( ,god to salvation to e "o t believe?4' ,& we are rem9d$ ( ! words1 ',we all1 ) op5 face behold+ z 9 a glass ! glory ( ! ,"l1 are *ang$ into ! same image f glory to glory1 z by ! ,_s ( ! ,"l4' ,( c\rse ! de/ruction ( ?is belief c op]ate no o!rwise ?an z an enc\ragem5t to evil1 & a disc\ragem5t to good4 ,! loss ( ,*ri/ian belief 9 ,god c be to ! virtues & ! graces ( ! he>t & life1 b z a blight to plants & fl[]s4 ,! ,*ri/ian belief makes x summ] to ! s\l1 giv+ bir?1 & p[]1 & full developm5t to all t is godlike & glori\s 9 human "*4 ,! loss ( t belief is w9t] to ! s\l2 kill+ ) its fro/s ea* =m ( life & beauty1 & mak+ all a wa/e & desolation4 ,!re h be5 ?ree great disbeliev]s 9 ,god 9 our own c\ntry dur+ ! pres5t c5tury1 all ( :om h writt5 books d5\nc+ m>riage1 & c\nsell+ unb\nd$ s5sual lic5se4 ,if _! c\nsels 7 g5]ally tak51 ! result w\ld be a /ate ( society z horrible z t portray$ 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,paul's ,epi/le to ! ,romans1 & a return to fai? 9 ,god alone c\ld save ! race ( man f utt] ext9ction4 ,b we w n dwell on ?is dreadful side ( ! subject4 ,we "k ! effects ( ! light & w>m? ( ! sun2 & we may safely be left to inf] ! horror1 ! mis]y1 ! _w-wide ru91 & ! utt] dre>9ess & desolation t w\ld foll[ if ! orb ( day 7 ext+ui%$1 or = ev] & utt]ly )drawn4 ,religion is ! sun ( ! spiritual _w2 x is its light & life1 its joy & bless$ness2 & its ext9ction w\ld be ! dea? & de/ruction ( our race4 ,:ile belief 9 ,god is favorable to virtue g5]ally1 x t5ds also to produce displays ( sup]ior excell5ce2 ( unusual c\rage1 p]sev]ance1 & endurance4 ,! believ] 9 ,god may brave ! mo/ appall+ dang]s4 ,8 feel+ is1 t he :o is = him is great] ?an all t c be aga9/ him4 ,x is no va9 boa/ 9 him to say1 ',i fe> ,god1 & "k no o!r fe>4' ,x is natural t he %\ld say1 :5 ?reat5$ by mi/ak5 or malignant m51 ',y may kill me1 b y _c hurt me4' ,! ,*ri/ian believ] c af=d to be a m>tyr4 ,:5 excit$ by ungodly or inhuman opposition1 he naturally displays ! m>tyr's c\rage4 ,he c be> too to suff] disrepute4 ,he c tru/ 8 reputation to 8 omnisci5t & almighty ,fri5d4 ,he c be> to look ) pati5ce bo? on ! adv]sity ( ! good1 & ! prosp]ity ( ! bad4 ,he kn[s ! fate1--he sees ! end1--( bo?4 ,! ,judge ( all ! e>? w d "r4 ,he kn[s no evil b s94 ,he kn[s no security b righte\sness4 ,& ,*ri/ian fai? is a f\nta9 ( all conceivable com=t4 ,x is a com=t to feel secure4 ,x is a com=t to feel /rong4 ,x is a com=t to feel assur$ t we are belov$ ( ,god4 ,x is a com=t to feel t we love ,him 9 return4 ,x is a com=t to believe t ! univ]se has a ,head1 a ,"l1 a ,rul]4 ,x is a com=t to believe t we are n orphans1 fa!rless inhabitants ( a ,godless _w4 ,!re is pleasure 9 admiration & rev]5ce4 ,!re is pleasure 9 feel+s ( gratitude4 ,!re is a pleasure 9 trac+ ! wond]s & beauties ( creation to a liv+1 lov+ ,creator4 ,x adds to ! pleasure ( sci5ce to believe1 t beh9d ! wond]ful ph5om5a :i* we behold1 !re is a ,great ,unse5 f ^: all-lov+ he>t !y all proce$4 ,x is a pleasure to believe t our ways are ord]$ by inf9ite wisdom4 ,x is a pleasure to believe t our sorr[s are kn[n to an almighty sympa?iz+ ,fri5d4 ,x is a pleasure to believe t our k9dr$ & fri5ds h a help] great] ?an ourselves4 ,x is a pleasure to believe t our lot is appo9t$ by an inf9ite ,fa!r2 t we %all n be p]mitt$ to be tri$ beyond our /r5g?2 t 9 e temptation1 a way w be made = our escape2 t no?+ c h>m u1 h[ev] pa9ful2 t no?+ c de/roy u1 h[ev] t]rible2 t all ?+s "w toge!r = our good4 ,9 %ort1 !re is no end to ! /r5g? :i* a ,*ri/ian belief 9 ,god is calculat$ to give to our virtue1 or to ! consolation :i* x is calculat$ to imp>t to our s\ls4 ,b :at c be sadd] ?an to be )\t ,god1 & )\t hope1 9 a _w l ?is8 ,) all our sci5ce h[ little we "k6 ,h[ t]rible ! ?\ght t we h no un]r+ guide6 ,) all our p[]s h[ feeble we are6 ,h[ t]rible ! ?\ght t we h no almighty fri5d6 ,& va/ & numb]less z are ! provisions t are made = our happ9ess1 h[ (t5 we are ?w>t$1 h[ prone we are1 ev5 9 ! mid/ ( pl5ty1 to be dissatisfi$2 & h[ soon we may p]i%6 ,& h[ sad ! ?\ght t !re is no re/or]6 ,is x /range t1 :5 fai? 9 ,god is lo/1 ! value ( life is felt to be gone8 ,we h no h>% ^w = ! d\bt] or ! disbeliev]1 b we raise our w>n+ voice aga9/ ! dang]s :i* beset ! way ( y\?1 & c\nsel all to consid] well _! /eps4 ',!re are ways :i* at times seem "r unto m51 b ! end !re( is dea?4' ',! fe> ( ! ,"l is ! beg9n+ ( wisdom1 & to dep>t f evil is und]/&+4' ,sci5ce has advanc$2 arts h multipli$2 gov]nm5ts h *ang$2 & _m are tempt$ to believe t ! pr9ciples ( religion & virtue are explod$4 ,b woe to ! man t yields to ! temptation4 ,8 days %all be d>k5$ ) grief2 & 8 he>t di/ract$ ) horror4 ,b peace & purity & joy %all be ! lot ( ! fai?ful ,*ri/ian4 ,! light ( life %all %9e ^u 8 pa?4 ,! wisdom ( ! ,holy ,"o %all be 8 guide2 &1 liv+ & dy+1 he %all be secure4 #ab4 ,! ,*ri/ian has ! highe/1 ! happie/ employm5t4 ,he works 9 ! _s ( et]nal love4 ,he works = ! highe/ & ! holie/ ends4 ,& he works 9 hope4 ,he sees ! h>ve/ 9 ! pl\gh+ ( ! field1 ! com+ crop 9 ! scatt]$ se$4 ,! result ( 8 labors may come sl[ly1 b he c af=d to wait4 ,! ,"l reigne?2 & ! plans ( ,8 et]nal love c nev] fail4 ,& all ?+s ri* & beautiful are 84 ,! e>? & its fulness are 84 ,! heav5s & _! glories are 84 ,all sights ( beauty1 all s\nds ( melody1 all emotions ( wond]1 all transports ( delight are 84 ,!re are no =ms1 no elem5ts ( bliss f :i* he is exclud$4 ,all ! innoc5t pleasures ( s5se1 all t c delight ! s\l ?r\gh ! eye1 ! e>1 ! ta/e1 or ! feel+s2 all t is ri* 9 art2 all t is raptur\s 9 song2 all ! pleasures ( sci5ce & lit]ature1 all are 84 ,& all e>?'s bless+s1 all pure & h>mless pleasures1 he c enjoy m truly & m fully ?an o!r m54 ,:ile 8 fai? 9 ,god gives great] beauty & glory to ! univ]se1 8 hope ( immortality gives great] sweetness to 8 e>?ly life4 ,! brightness ( ! et]nal _w ?r[s a cele/ial radiance ov] ! pres5t1 & gives to e>? a portion ( ! bless$ness ( heav54 ,a ,,few ,,te/imonies ,,( ,,great ,,m5 ,,9 ,,favor ,,( ,,*ri/ianity4 ,we live 9 ! mid/ ( bless+s1 till we are utt]ly ins5sible ( _! greatness1 & ( ! s\rce f :i* !y fl[4 ,we speak ( our civilization1 our arts1 our fre$om1 our laws1 & =get entirely h[ l>ge a %>e ( all is due to ,*ri/ianity4--,col]idge4 ,!re nev] 0 f\nd 9 any age ( ! _w1 ei!r philosoph] or sect1 or law or discipl9e1 :i* did s highly exalt ! public good z ! ,*ri/ian fai?4--,bacon4 ,z ! man ( pleasure1 by a va9 attempt to be m happy ?an any man c be1 is (t5 m mis]able ?an mo/ m5 are2 s ! skeptic1 9 a va9 attempt to be wise beyond :at is p]mitt$ to man1 plunges into a d>kness m deplorable ?an t ( ! common h]d4--,colton4 ,s9ce ! introduction ( ,*ri/ianity1 human nature has made great progress2 b x has n got 9 advance ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,m5 h outgr[n o!r in/itutions & sy/ems1 b !y may gr[ = ev] & n outgr[ ,*ri/ianity4--,*ann+4 ,i h liv$ long en\gh to "k :at ,i did n at "o "t believe--t no society c be upheld 9 happ9ess & honor )\t ! s5tim5t ( religion4--,la ,place4 ,x is heav5 on e>? to h "o's m9d to move 9 *>ity1 to re/ on ,provid5ce1 & foll[ tru?4--,bacon4 ,( all ! dispositions & habits :i* lead to political prosp]ity1 religion & morality are mo/ ess5tial4 ,9 va9 w\ld t man claim ! tribute ( patriotism1 :o %\ld labor to de/roy ^? great pill>s ( human happ9ess2 ^! firme/ props ( virtue4 ,& let u n suppose t morality c be ma9ta9$ )\t religion4 ,:atev] may be conc$$ to ! influ5ce ( ref9$ education on m9ds ( peculi> /ructure1 reason & exp]i5ce bo? =bid u to expect national morality to prevail 9 ! abs5ce ( religi\s pr9ciple4--,wa%+ton4 ,i h c>efully & regul>ly p]us$ ^! ,holy ,scriptures1 & am ( op9ion1 t ! volume1 indep5d5tly ( its div9e orig91 conta9s m sublimity1 pur] morality1 m important hi/ory1 & f9] /ra9s ( eloqu5ce1 ?an c be collect$ f all o!r books1 9 :atev] language !y may h be5 writt54--,sir ,william ,jones4