,,! ,,life ,,( ,,fa!r ,,heck] ,,by ,,rev4 ,,walt] ,,elliott ,,new ,,york3 ,,! ,,columbus ,,press #ahia ,nihil ob/at3 ,,augu/9us ,f4 ,,hewit1 ,c5sor ,deputatus4 ,imprimatur3 ,m4 ,a4 ,,corrigan1 ,ar*iepiscopus ,neo-,ebor4 ,,au?or',s ,,preface ,,! read] mu/ indulge me ) :at ,i _c help say+1 t ,i h felt ! joy ( a son 9 tell+ ! a*ievem5ts & *ronicl+ ! virtues ( ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,i lov$ him ) ! sacr$ fire ( holy k9%ip1 & love him /ill--only ! m t lapse ( "t has deep5$ by exp]i5ce1 inn] & out]1 ! s5se ( tru? & ( purity he ev] communicat$ to me 9 life1 & c\rage & fidelity to consci5ce4 ,i feel x to be honor en\gh & joy en\gh = a life-"t t ,i am 8 fir/ biograph]1 ?\gh b a late born *ild & ( m]it entirely insignificant4 ,! lit]>y "w is1 inde$1 b ( home-made quality1 yet x s]ves to hold toge!r :at is ! heav5-made wisdom ( a great tea*] ( m54 ,x w be f\nd t ,fa!r ,heck] has ?ree words 9 ?is book to my "o1 ?\gh all my words ,i tri$ to make 84 ,8 j\rnals1 lett]s1 & record$ say+s are ! edifice into :i* ,i introduce ! read]1 & my words are ! h+es & lat*ets ( its doors4 ,i am glad ( ?is1 = x pleases me to d$icate my good w & my poor "w to sw++ op5 ! doors ( t new ,h\se ( ,god t ,isaac ,heck] 0 to me1 & t ,i tru/ he w be to _m4 ,,walt] ,,elliott ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] ,i4--,,*ildhood ,,ii4--,,y\? ,,iii4--,,! ,,turn+-,,po9t ,,iv4--,,l$ ,,by ,,! ,,_s ,v4--,,at ,,brook ,,f>m ,,vi4--,,inn] ,,life ,,:ile ,,at ,,brook ,,f>m ,,vii4--,,/ruggles ,,viii4--,,fruitl&s ,,ix4--,,self-,,que/ion+s ,x4--,,at ,,home ,,aga9 ,,xi4--,,/udy+ ,,& ,,writ+ ,,xii4--,,! ,,my/ic ,,& ,,! ,,philosoph] ,,xiii4--,,8 ,,se>* ,,among ,,! ,,sects ,,xiv4--,,8 ,,life ,,at ,,concord ,,xv4--,,at ,,! ,,door ,,( ,,! ,,*ur* ,,xvi4--,,at ,,! ,,door ,,( ,,! ,,*ur*--7,cont9u$7 ,,xvii4--,,across ,,! ,,?re%old ,,xviii4--,,new ,,influ5ces ,,xix4--,,ye>n+s ,,aft] ,,contemplation ,,xx4--,,f ,,new ,,york ,,to ,,/4 ,,trond ,,xxi4--,,bro!r ,,heck] ,,xxii4--,,h[ ,,bro!r ,,heck] ,,made ,,8 ,,/udies ,,& ,,0 ,,orda9$ ,,prie/ ,,xxiii4--,a ,,r$emptori/ ,,mission>y ,,xxiv4--,,sep>ation ,,f ,,! ,,r$emptori/s ,,xxv4--,,beg9n+s ,,( ,,! ,,pauli/ ,,community ,,xxvi4--,,fa!r ,,heck]',s ,,idea ,,( ,a ,,religi\s ,,community ,,xxvii4--,,fa!r ,,heck]',s ,,spiritual ,,doctr9e ,,xxviii4--,,! ,,pauli/ ,,p>i% ,,& ,,missions ,,xxix4--,,fa!r ,,heck]',s ,,lectures ,,xxx4--,,! ,,apo/olate ,,( ,,! ,,press ,,xxxi4--,,! ,,vatican ,,c\ncil ,,xxxii4--,,! ,,long ,,illness ,,xxxiii4--,,! ,,exposition ,,( ,,! ,,*ur* ,,xxxiv4--,,9 ,,! ,,%ad[ ,,( ,,dea? ,,xxxv4--,,conclusion ,,app5dix ,,introduction ,,by ,,mo/ ,,rev4 ,,john ,,irel&1 ,d4,d41 ,ar*bi%op ( ,/4 ,paul4 ,,life is action1 & s long z !re is action !re is life4 ,t life is wor? liv+ ^: action puts =? noble aspirations & good de$s4 ,! man's influ5ce = tru? & virtue p]sev]+ 9 activity1 8 life has n ceas$1 ?\gh e>? has clasp$ 8 body 9 its embrace4 ,x is well t x is s4 ,! ye>s ( usefulness betwe5 ! cradle & ! grave are few4 ,! %ortness ( a life re/rict$ to !m is suffici5t to disc\rage _m f mak+ /rong ef=ts t[>d impress+ ! work+s ( _! s\ls ^u _! fell[s4 ,! numb] to ^: m9ds we h imm$iate access is small1 & !y d n rema94 ,is ! good we might d wor? ! labor8 ,we _c at times refuse a he>+ to ! "q4 ,=tunately1 x is easily made cle> to u t ! area ov] :i* influ5ce travels is va/ly m ext5sive ?an at fir/ sight appe>s4 ,! eye w n always disc]n ! undulations ( its spread+ waves2 b onw>d x goes1 f "o s\l to ano!r1 f> beyond our imm$iate ranks1 & z ea* s\l t\*$ by x becomes a new motive p[]1 x rolls =w>d1 (t5 ) en]gy a hundr$ times int5sifi$1 long aft] ! %ad[s ( dea? h settl$ ar\nd its po9t ( dep>ture4 ,isaac ,?omas ,heck] lives to-day1 & ) add$ ye>s he w live m fully ?an he does to-day4 ,8 influ5ce = good rema9s1 & ) a bett] und]/&+ ( 8 plans & ideals1 :i* is sure to come1 8 influ5ce w wid5 & deep5 among laym5 & prie/s ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica4 ,! writ+ ( 8 biography is a tribute to 8 memory :i* ! love & e/eem ( 8 spiritual *ildr5 c\ld n refuse2 x is1 also1 a mo/ important s]vice to g5]ations pres5t & unborn1 9 ^: de$s w be se5 ! fruits ( inspirations ga!r$ f x4 ,we are ?ankful t ?is biography has be5 writt5 by "o :o f close/ conv]se & mo/ intimate fri5d%ip knew ,fa!r ,heck] s ?or\ghly4 ,he has giv5 u 9 8 book :at we ne$ to "k ( ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,we c>e v little1 except s f> z details may acc5tuate ! great l9es ( a life & make !m s5sible to our obtuse t\*1 :]e or :5 a man 0 born1 :at places he happ5$ to visit1 :at h\ses he built1 or 9 :at circum/ances ( malady or 9 :at surr\nd+s he di$4 ,^! ?+s c be said ( ! t5 ?\s&4 ,we want to "k ! ?\ghts & ! resolves ( ! s\l :i* made him a m>k$ man above 8 fell[s & :i* begot /rong influ5ces = good & great works1 & if none su* c be unfold$ !n drop ! man out ( sight1 ) a ,requiescant 9 pace engrav5 ^u 8 tomb/one4 ,few des]ve a biography1 & to ! undes]v+ none %\ld be giv54 ,if x be p]mitt$ to speak ( self1 ,i might say t to ,fa!r ,heck] ,i am indebt$ = mo/ salut>y impressions :i*1 ,i sorr[fully confess1 h n _h 9 me _! due effect2 ! remembrance ( !m1 h[ev]1 is a pro( to me ( ! usefulness ( 8 life1 & its p[] = good 9 o!rs4 ,i am glad to h ! opportunity to pr(ess publicly my gratitude to him4 ,he 0 9 ! prime ( life & "w :5 ,i 0 = ! fir/ "t br\ght to obs]ve him4 ,i 0 q "y 9 ! m9i/ry1 & v naturally ,i 0 ca/+ my eye ar\nd 9 se>* ( ideal m51 ^: foot/eps 7 tread+ ! pa? ,i c\ld feel ,i1 too1 ought to travel4 ,i nev] aft]w>ds :olly lo/ sight ( ,fa!r ,heck]1 wat*+ him z well z ,i c\ld f a di/ance ( two ?\s& miles4 ,i am n to-day )\t "s exp]i5ce ( m5 & ?+s1 won f ye>s & toils1 & ,i d n alt] "o tittle my e/imate ( him1 except to make x high]4 ,to ! prie/s ( ! future ,i recomm5d a s]i\s /udy ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s life4 ,to !m ,i w\ld h 8 biography d$icat$4 ,old] m51 l myself1 are fix$ 9 _! ways1 & !y w n receive f x s mu* b5efit4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ! typical ,am]ican prie/2 8 7 ! gifts ( m9d & he>t t g to d great "w = ,god & = s\ls 9 ,am]ica at ! pres5t "t4 ,^? qualities1 assur$ly1 7 n lack+ 9 him :i* are ! necess>y elem5ts ( "* ( ! good prie/ & ! great man 9 any "t & place4 ,^? are ! subsoil ( prie/ly culture1 & ) ! abs5ce ( !m no "o w succe$ 9 ,am]ica any m ?an else:]e4 ,b suffice !y d n4 ,!re mu/ be add$1 ov] & above1 ! practical intellig5ce & ! pliability ( w to und]/& "o's surr\nd+s1 ! gr\nd ^u :i* he is to deploy 8 =ces1 & to adapt himself to circum/ances & opportunities z ,provid5ce appo9ts4 ,i d n expect t my words1 z ,i am "h writ+1 w receive univ]sal approval1 & ,i am n at all sure t _! expression w\ld h be5 c\nt5anc$ by ! prie/ ^: memory br+s !m to my lips4 ,i write z ,i ?9k1 & ! responsibility mu/ be all my own4 ,x is z cle> to me z noon-day light t c\ntries & peoples h ea* _! peculi> ne$s & aspirations z !y h _! peculi> environm5ts1 & t1 if we w\ld ent] into s\ls & control !m1 we mu/ deal ) !m accord+ to _! conditions4 ,! ideal l9e ( conduct = ! prie/ 9 ,assyria w be out ( all measure 9 ,mexico or ,m9nesota1 & ,i d\bt n t "o do+ fairly well 9 ,m9nesota w\ld by simil> me?ods set ?+s sadly a/ray 9 ,le9/] or ,bav>ia4 ,! ,savi\r prescrib$ timel9ess 9 pa/oral c>+4 ,! ma/] ( a h\se1 ,he said1 br+e? =? out ( 8 treasury new ?+s & old1 z !re is dem& = "o k9d or ! o!r4 ,! apo/les ( nations1 f ,paul be=e ! ,areopagus to ,patrick ^u ! summit ( ,t>a1 foll[$ no diff]5t pr9ciple4 ,! circum/ances ( ,ca?olics h be5 peculi> 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & we h unavoidably suff]$ on ?is acc\nt4 ,ca?olics 9 l>ge/ numb]s 7 ,europeans1 & s 7 _! prie/s1 _m ( :om--by no means all--rema9$ 9 he>t & m9d & mode ( action z ali5 to ,am]ica z if !y _h nev] be5 remov$ f ! ,%annon1 ! ,loire1 or ! ,rh9e4 ,no "o ne$ rem9d me t immigration has br\ght u ine/imable bless+s1 or t )\t x ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica w\ld be ( small /ature4 ,! remembrance ( a preci\s fact is n put aside1 if ,i recall an accid5tal evil atta*+ to x4 ,prie/s =eign 9 disposition & "w 7 n fitt$ to make favorable impressions ^u ! non-,ca?olic ,am]ican population1 & ! ,am]ican-born *ildr5 ( ,ca?olic immigrants 7 likely to escape _! action4 ,&1 le/ ,i be misund]/ood1 ,i ass]t all ?is is z true ( prie/s com+ f ,irel& z f any o!r =eign c\ntry4 ,ev5 prie/s ( ,am]ican ance/ry1 m9i/]+ to immigrants1 n unfrequ5tly fell into ! l9es ( ^? ar\nd !m1 & did b little to make ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica ?rob ) ,am]ican life4 ,n s ,isaac ,?omas ,heck]4 ,:e!r consci\sly or unconsci\sly ,i d n "k1 & x matt]s n1 he look$ on ,am]ica z ! faire/ conque/ = div9e tru?1 & he gird$ himself ) arms %ap$ & temp]$ to ! ,am]ican patt]n4 ,i ?9k t x may be said t ! ,am]ican curr5t1 s pla9 = ! la/ qu>t] ( a c5tury 9 ! fl[ ( ,ca?olic affairs1 is1 l>gely at lea/1 to be trac$ back to ,fa!r ,heck] & 8 e>ly co-work]s4 ,x us$ to be said ( !m 9 reproa* t !y 7 ! ,yankee ,ca?olic ,*ur*2 ! reproa* 0 _! praise4 ,fa!r ,heck] und]/ood & lov$ ! c\ntry & its in/itutions4 ,he saw no?+ 9 !m to be deprecat$ or *ang$2 he _h no long+ = ! fle%-pots & bread-/uffs ( empires & mon>*ies4 ,8 favorite topic 9 book & lecture 01 t ! ,con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates requires1 z its necess>y basis1 ! tru?s ( ,ca?olic tea*+ reg>d+ man's natural /ate1 z oppos$ to ! errors ( ,lu!r & ,calv94 ,! republic1 he taught1 presupposes ! ,*ur*'s doctr9e1 & ! ,*ur* ought to love a polity :i* is ! (fspr+ ( h] own _s4 ,he und]/ood & lov$ ! p ( ,am]ica4 ,he recogniz$ 9 !m spl5did natural qualities4 ,0 he n "r8 ,n m9imiz+ 9 ! lea/ ! dreadful evil ( ! abs5ce ( ! sup]natural1 ,i am n afraid to give z my belief t !re is among ,am]icans z high an appreciation & z lively a realization ( natural tru? & goodness z has be5 se5 9 any p1 & x seems z if ,almighty ,god1 int5d+ a great age & a great p1 has put "h 9 ,am]ica a s+ul> developm5t ( nature's p[]s & gifts1 bo? 9 man & out ( man--) ! fur!r w1 ,i h ! fai?1 ( cr[n+ all ) ! glory ( ! sup]natural4 ,fa!r ,heck] p]ceiv$ ?is1 & 8 mission 0 to hold 9 8 h&s ! natural1 :i* ,am]icans extoll$ & *]i%$ & tru/$ 91 & by prop]ly direct+ its legitimate t5d5cies & gr[? to lead x to ! t]m ( its own in/9cts & aspirations--,ca?olic tru? & ,ca?olic grace4 ,prote/antism is no long] m ?an a "n1 a memory4 ,! ,am]ican has fall5 back ^u himself1 scorn+ ! negations & ! doctr9al cruelties ( ,prote/antism z utt]ly contr>y to himself1 z utt]ly unnatural2 & n[ comes ! opportunity ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* to %[ t %e is f ! ,god :o creat$ nature1 by op5+ be=e ?is p h] treasures1 amid :i* ! s\l revels 9 rational lib]ty & intellig5ce1 & enjoys ! gratification ( its be/ & pure/ moral in/9cts4 ,^! convictions are ! keynote ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s controv]sial disc\rses & writ+s1 notably ( two books1 ,aspirations ( ,nature & ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l4 ,he assum$ t ! ,am]ican p are naturally ,ca?olic1 & he labor$ ) ?is proposition con/antly be=e 8 m9d4 ,x is ! assumption ^u :i* all mu/ labor :o s9c]ely desire to make ,am]ica ,ca?olic4 ,he laid /ress on ! natural & social virtues4 ,! ,am]ican p hold ^! 9 highe/ e/eem4 ,!y are ! virtues t are mo/ app>5t1 & are seem+ly ! mo/ ne$$ = ! build+ up & ! pres]vation ( an e>?ly commonweal?4 ,tru?fulness1 hone/y 9 bus9ess deal+s1 loyalty to law & social ord]1 temp]ance1 respect = ! rights ( o!rs1 & ! l virtues are prescrib$ by reason be=e ! voice ( revelation is he>d1 & ! abs5ce ( specifically sup]natural virtues has l$ ! non-,ca?olic to place p>am\nt importance ^u !m4 ,x w be a difficult task to p]suade ! ,am]ican t a *ur* :i* w n en=ce ^? prim>y virtues c en=ce o!rs :i* %e h]self decl>es to be high] & m ardu\s1 & z he has implicit confid5ce 9 ! de/9y ( 8 c\ntry to produce a high ord] ( social exi/5ce1 8 fir/ te/ ( a religion w be its p[]s 9 ?is direction4 ,?is is accord+ to ,ca?olic tea*+4 ,*ri/ came n to de/roy1 b to p]fect :at 0 9 man1 & ! graces & tru?s ( revelation lead mo/ securely to ! elevation ( ! life t is1 no less ?an to ! ga9+ ( ! life to come4 ,x is a fact1 h[ev]1 t 9 o!r times & o!r c\ntries ! ,*ur* has be5 imp$$ 9 h] social "w1 & c]ta9 ?+s or cu/oms ( ^? times & c\ntries1 transplant$ ^u ,am]ican soil & all[$ to gr[ "h "u a ,ca?olic "n1 w d h] no honor among ,am]icans4 ,! human m9d1 among ! be/ ( u1 incl9es to n>r[ limitations1 & c]ta9 ,ca?olics1 aw>e ( ! comp>atively great] importance ( ! sup]natural1 p>tially ov]look ! natural4 ,!n1 too1 casui/s h incid5tally done u h>m4 ,!y w quote z our rule ( social conduct 9 ,am]ica :at may h be5 tol]at$ 9 ,france or ,g]many dur+ ! sev5te5? c5tury1 & _! hair-splitt+ di/9ctions 9 ! realm ( ab/ract "r & wrong are tak5 by "s ( u z practical decisions1 )\t due ref]5ce to local circum/ances4 ,! ,am]ican p pay slight att5tion to ! ab/ract2 !y look only to ! concrete 9 morals1 & we mu/ keep acc\nt ( _! mann] ( judg+ ?+s4 ,! ,*ur* is n[adays call$ ^u to emphasize h] p[] 9 ! natural ord]4 ,god =bid t ,i ent]ta91 z "s may be tempt$ to suspect me ( do+1 ! slighte/ notion t vigilance may be turn$ (f "o s+le mom5t f ! gu>d ( ! sup]natural4 ,= ! sake ( ! sup]natural ,i speak4 ,& natural virtues1 practis$ 9 ! prop] frame ( m9d & he>t1 become sup]natural4 ,ea* c5tury calls = its type ( ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,at "o "t x 0 m>tyrdom2 at ano!r x 0 ! humility ( ! cloi/]4 ,to-day we ne$ ! ,*ri/ian g5tleman & ! ,*ri/ian citiz54 ,an hone/ ballot & social decorum among ,ca?olics w d m = ,god's glory & ! salvation ( s\ls ?an midnight flagellations or ,compo/ellan pilgrimages4 ,on a l9e ) 8 pr9ciples1 z ,i h s f> del9eat$ !m1 ,fa!r ,heck] believ$ t if he w\ld succe$ 9 8 "w = s\ls1 he %\ld use 9 x all ! natural en]gy t ,god _h giv5 him1 & he act$ up to 8 belief ,i once he>d a good old prie/1 :o said 8 beads well & made a des]t ar\nd 8 pulpit by mis]able prea*+1 criticise ,fa!r ,heck]1 :o1 he imag9$1 put too mu* reliance 9 man1 & n en\gh 9 ,god4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s piety1 8 assiduity 9 pray]1 8 p]sonal habits ( self-d5ial1 repel ! asp]sion t he fail$ 9 reliance ^u ,god4 ,b my old prie/--& he has 9 ! *ur* to-day1 bo? 9 ,am]ica & ,europe1 t5s ( ?\s&s ( c\nt]p>ts--0 m ?an half will+ to see 9 all outputt+s ( human en]gy a lack ( confid5ce 9 ,god4 ,we sometimes rely f> m ^u ,god ?an ,god desires u to d1 & !re are occasions :5 a nov5a is ! refuge ( laz9ess or c[>dice4 ,god has end[$ u ) natural tal5ts1 & n "o ( !m %all be1 ) ,8 p]mission1 en%r\d$ 9 a napk94 ,he w n "w a miracle1 or supply grace1 to make up = our defici5cies4 ,we mu/ "w z if all dep5d$ on u1 & pray z if all dep5d$ on ,god4 ,god nev] propos$ to d by ,8 direct action all t might be done 9 & ?r\gh ! ,*ur*4 ,he invites human co-op]ation1 & ab&ons to x a wide field4 ,! ages ( mo/ active human indu/ry 9 religi\s ent]prises 7 ! ages ( mo/ rem>kable spiritual conque/s4 ,! t5d5cy to ov]look ?is fact %[s itself among u4 ,newman writes t :]e ! sun %9es bright 9 ! w>m climate ( ! s\?1 ! natives ( ! place "k little ( safegu>ds aga9/ cold & wet4 ,!y h _! cold days1 b only n[ & !n1 & !y d n deem x wor? _! :ile to provide aga9/ !m3 ! sci5ce ( calefaction is res]v$ = ! nor?4 ,& s1 ,prote/ants1 dep5d+ on human means solely1 are l$ to make ! mo/ ( !m2 _! sole res\rce is to use :at !y h2 !y are ! anxi\s cultivators ( a rugg$ soil4 ,ca?olics1 on ! contr>y1 feel t ,god w protect ! ,*ur*1 &1 z ,newman adds1 we sometimes =get t we %all please ,him be/1 & get mo/ f ,him1 :51 accord+ to ! fable1 we put our %\ld] to ! :eel1 :5 we use :at we h by nature to ! utmo/1 at ! same "t t we look out = :at is beyond nature 9 ! confid5ce ( fai? & hope4 ,lately a witty ,fr5* writ] pictures to u ! pi\s fri5ds ( ! lead+ ,ca?olic layman ( ,france1 ,de ,mun1 kneel+ 9 spiritual retreat :5 _! pres5ce is requir$ 9 front ( ! enemy4 ,! ,ca?olic ( ! n9ete5? c5tury all ov] ! _w is too quiet1 too easily resign$ to ! w ( ,god1 attribut+ to ,god ! effects ( 8 own timidity & indol5ce4 ,fa!r ,heck] roll$ up 8 sleeves & pit*$ 9 ) desp]ate resolve4 ,he f\ght z = v life4 ,meet him any:]e or at any "t1 he 0 at "w or he 0 plann+ to "w4 ,he 0 ev] look+ ar\nd to see :at might be done4 ,he did ) a ru% ! h>d labor ( a mission>y & ( a pa/or1 & he w5t beyond x into untrodd5 pa?ways4 ,he hat$ r\t9e4 ,he m9d$ n :at o!rs _h be5 do+1 seek+ only :at he himself might d4 ,8 ef=ts = ! diffusion ( ,ca?olic lit]ature1 ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,_w1 8 sev]al books1 ! ,ca?olic tracts1 tell 8 zeal & en]gy4 ,a ,ca?olic daily pap] 0 a favorite design to :i* he gave no small measure ( "t & labor4 ,he anticipat$ by _m ye>s ! battl+s ( our temp]ance apo/les4 ,! ,pauli/ pulpit op5$ dea?-deal+ batt]ies ^u ! saloon :5 ! saloon-keep] 0 ! h]o 9 /ate & *ur*4 ,! ,ca?olic ,univ]sity ( ,am]ica f\nd 9 him "o ( its w>me/ advocates4 ,8 zeal 0 z broad z ,/4 ,paul's1 & :oev] did good 0 8 fri5d & receiv$ 8 support4 ,! walls ( 8 p>i%1 or 8 ord]1 did n circumscribe = him ,god's ,*ur*4 ,8 *oice ( a patron sa9t--,/4 ,paul--reveals ! fire burn+ )9 8 s\l4 ,he w\ld n1 he c\ld n be idle4 ,on 8 sick-b$1 :]e he lay ! great] "p ( 8 latt] ye>s1 he 0 n inactive4 ,he wrote valuable articles & books1 & :5 unable to write1 he dictat$4 ,he 0 en?usia/ic 9 8 "w1 z all are :o put _! :ole s\l into :at !y are do+4 ,su* p h no "t to c\nt ! d>k l9+s ( ! silv]y cl\ds2 !y realize t ,god & man toge!r d n fail4 ,en?usiasm begets en?usiasm4 ,x fits a man to be a lead]2 x secures a foll[+4 ,a bi%op :o 0 pres5t at ! ,second ,pl5>y ,c\ncil ( ,baltimore has told me t :5 ,fa!r ,heck] appe>$ be=e ! assembl$ prelates & !ologians 9 advocacy ( ,ca?olic lit]ature z a mission>y =ce1 ! picture 0 inspir+1 & t ! he>]s1 receiv+ a ,p5teco/al fire )9 _! bosoms1 felt z if ,am]ica 7 to be at once conv]t$4 ,s w\ld x h be5 if !re _h be5 9 ,am]ica a suffici5t numb] ( ,heck]s4 ,he _h 8 critics4 ,:o ev] tries to d some?+ outside r\t9e l9es aga9/ :om h&s are n rais$ & ^: motives & acts are n miscon/ru$8 ,a v5]able cl]gyman "o day ?\ght he _h scor$ a great po9t aga9/ ,fa!r ,heck] by jocosely sugge/+ to him z ! motto ( 8 new ord] ! ^w ,paulatim4 ,! same "o1 no d\bt1 w\ld h made a l sugge/ion to ! ,apo/le ( ! ,g5tiles4 ,advocates ( ,paulatim me?ods h too (t5 left ! :eels ( ,*ri/'s *>iot fa/ 9 ! mire4 ,we rejoice1 = its sake1 t en?usia/s sometimes appe> on ! sc5e4 ,! missions ( ! e>ly ,pauli/s1 into :i* w5t ,fa!r ,heck]'s entire he>t1 ar\s$ ! c\ntry4 ,to-day1 aft] a lapse ( ?irty or ?irty-five ye>s1 !y are rememb]$ z ev5ts :]ev] !y 7 prea*$4 ,8 0 ! pr(\nd conviction t1 9 ! pres5t age at any rate1 ! ord] ( ! day %\ld be individual action--e man do+ 8 full duty1 & wait+ = no "o else to prompt him4 ,?is1 ,i take x1 0 l>gely ! mean+ ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s (t-repeat$ tea*+ on ! "w ( ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 s\ls4 ,!re h be5 epo*s 9 hi/ory :]e ! ,*ur*1 sacrific+ h] outpo/s & ! ranks ( h] skirmi%]s to ! pres]vation ( h] c5tral & vital =tresses1 put ! brakes1 ?r\gh necessity1 f ! nature ( ! w>f>e wag$ aga9/ h]1 ^u individual activity1 & mov$ h] soldi]s 9 s]ri$ masses2 & !n x 0 ! "p & ! glory ( ea* "o to move ) ! column4 ,! ne$ ( repression has pass$ away4 ,! au?ority ( ! ,*ur* & ( h] ,supreme ,head is beyond dang] ( be+ d5i$ or obscur$1 & ea* ,*ri/ian soldi] may take to ! field1 obey+ ! brea?+s ( ! ,_s ( tru? & piety )9 him1 feel+ t :at he may d he %\ld d4 ,!re is "w = individual prie/s1 & = individual laym51 & s soon z x is discov]$ let x be done4 ,! responsibility is ^u ea* "o2 ! indiff]5ce ( o!rs is no excuse4 ,said ,fa!r ,heck] "o day to a fri5d3 ,!re is too mu* wait+ ^u ! action ( o!rs4 ,! layman waits = ! prie/1 ! prie/ = ! bi%op1 & ! bi%op = ! pope1 :ile ! ,holy ,gho/ s5ds d[n to all ! repro( t ,he is prompt+ ea* "o1 & no "o moves = ,him4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 orig9al 9 8 ideas1 z well z 9 8 me?ods2 !re 0 no r\t9e 9 him1 m5tal or practical4 ,i _c b allude1 :e!r ,i und]/& or n ! true int5t ( x1 to :at appe>s to h be5 a lead+ fact 9 8 life3 8 leav+ an old-e/abli%$ religi\s community = ! purpose ( in/itut+ t ( ! ,pauli/s4 ,i w speak s f> ( ?is z ,i h =m$ an e/imate ( x4 ,to me1 ?is fact seems to h be5 a ,provid5tial circum/ance 9 keep+ ) all else 9 8 life4 ,i myself h at ?is mom5t su* ?\ghts z ,i imag9e mu/ h be5 runn+ ?r\gh 8 m9d dur+ t memorable soj\rn 9 ,rome1 :i* result$ 9 free+ him f 8 old allegiance4 ,! "w ( evangeliz+ ,am]ica dem&s new me?ods4 ,x is "t to draw =? f our treasury ! new ?+s ( ! ,gospel2 we h be5 long en\gh (f]+ old ?+s4 ,^? new me?ods call = newly-equipp$ m54 ,! p>o*ial cl]gy w readily confess t !y _c ( !mselves d all t ,god n[ dem&s f ,8 ,*ur* 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,!y are too heavily burd5$ ) ! ord9>y duties ( ! m9i/ry3 in/ruct+ ^? already )9 ! fold1 adm9i/]+ ! sacram5ts1 build+ temples1 s*ools1 & asylums--duties :i* mu/ be att5d$ to & :i* leave slight leisure = special /udies or special labors4 ,fa!r ,heck] organiz$ ! ,pauli/ community1 & did 9 8 way a great "w = ! conv]sion ( ! c\ntry4 ,he made no mi/ake :5 he plann$ = a body ( prie/s1 m discipl9$ ?an usually are ! p>o*ial cl]gy1 & m supple 9 ! "* ( _! in/itute ?an ! exi/+ religi\s ord]s4 ,we %all always di/+ui% ,isaac ,?omas ,heck] z ! ornam5t1 ! fl[] ( our ,am]ican prie/hood--! type t we wi% to see reproduc$ among u 9 wide/ proportions4 ,ameliorations may be s\ght = 9 details1 & ! m ( !m ! bett] = religion2 b ! great l9es ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s p]sonality we %\ld gu>d ) jeal\s love 9 ! =mation ( ! future prie/ly *>act]s ( ,am]ica4 ,,! ,,life ,,( ,,fa!r ,,heck] ,,*apt] ,i ,,*ildhood ,,t[>ds ! close ( ! eighte5? c5tury a ,g]man clockmak] nam$ ,engel ,freund1 accompani$ by 8 wife & *ildr51 left 8 native t[n ( ,elb]feld1 9 ,rh5i% ,prussia1 to seek a new home 9 ,am]ica4 ,!re is a family tradition to ! effect t 8 =efa!rs 7 ,fr5*1 & t !y came into ,g]many on acc\nt ( "s int]nal commotion 9 _! own c\ntry4 ,! "n makes x m probable t !y 7 ,alsatians :o quietly mov$ across ! ,rh9e1 ei!r :5 _! prov9ce 0 fir/ c$$ to ,france1 or p]haps lat]1 at ! "t ( ! ,revocation ( ! ,edict ( ,nantes1 9 #afhe4 ,:5 ,engel ,freund quitt$ ,g]many ! di/urb+ influ5ces ( ! ,fr5* ,revolution may h _h a consid]able %>e 9 det]m9+ 8 dep>ture4 ,he l&$ at ,new ,york 9 #agig & e/abli%$ himself 9 ,he/] ,/reet1 betwe5 ,*ri/ie & ,=sy?4 ,8 wife1 born ,ann ,elizabe? ,s*neid]1 9 #agfd1 0 a native ( ,frank5burg1 ,hesse ,cassel4 ,%e became ! "m ( a son & sev]al daught]s1 :o atta9$ maturity & settl$ 9 ,new ,york4 ,z 8 girls grew into womanhood & m>ri$1 ,engel ,freund1 :o 0 a ?rifty & successful tradesman 9 8 prime1 d[]$ ea* ( !m ) a h\se 9 8 own neighborhood1 seek+ ?us to p]petuate 9 ! new ! k9dly patri>*al cu/oms ( ! old l&4 ,to ! ,new-,york] ( to-day1 or1 inde$1 to any reputable & indu/ri\s immigrant1 ! notion ( settl+ a family 9 ,he/] ,/reet c\ld n seem o!r ?an grotesque4 ,x is n[ ! fil?y & sw>m+ c5tre ( a v l[ population4 ,! ,jewi% p$l> p> em95ce lives !re & !reab\ts4 ,signs pa9t$ 9 ! *>act]s ( 8 race1 n ( 8 accid5tal nationality1 ab\nd on e side4 ,"h a synagogue occupies ! /ory above a %op2 !re ,masonic symbols are exhibit$ betwe5 ! w9d[s 9 a simil> location4 ,jewi% faces ( ! lea/ prepossess+ type look askance into eyes :i* !y recognize z bo? unfamili> & obs]vant4 ,wom51 unkempt & sl\*y1 or else array$ 9 dubi\s f9]y1 bru% aga9/ "o4 ,at int]vals fa/ gr[+ great] ! rema9s ( an ext9ct dome/icity & privacy /ill %[ !mselves 9 ! %ape ( old-fa%ion$ brick or wood5 h\ses ) ,dut* gables or ,que5 ,anne fronts1 b = ! mo/ "p tall t5em5t-h\ses1 _! l[] /ories uni=mly giv5 up to "s small traffic1 claim exclusive "r ( possession4 ,! sidewalks are cr[d$ ) ! /alls ( a yet m petty trade2 ! neighborhood is full ( unpleasant sights1 un:olesome odors1 & revolt+ s\nds4 ,b ! ,he/] ,/reet ( sev5ty ye>s ago & m 0 ano!r matt]4 ,:5 a canal fl[$ ?r\gh ,canal ,/reet1 & tall trees gr[+ on ei!r side ( x %elt]$ ! solid & roomy h\ses ( retir$ m]*ants & pr(essional m51 ,he/] ,/reet 0 a long way up t[n4 ,sev5 ye>s be=e ! subject ( ! pres5t biography 0 born1 t elegantly proportion$ /ructure1 ! ,city ,hall1 :i* _h !n be5 n9e ye>s a-build+1 0 f9i%$ 9 mat]ial mu* less exp5sive ?an _h be5 int5d$ :5 x 0 begun4 ,m>ble 0 v de>1 reason$ ! ?rifty & f>-sight$ ,city ,fa!rs ( ! day1 & z ! population ( ,new ,york 7 nev] likely to settle to any ext5t above ,*amb]s ,/reet1 ! re> ( ! hall w\ld be se5 s seldom t ?is economy w\ld n be noticeable4 ,:at is n[ ,f\rte5? ,/reet 0 !n a place giv5 ov] to m>ket-g>d5s4 ,rutg]s ,/reet1 ,rutg]s ,place1 ,h5ry ,/reet1 7 fa%ionable localities1 & ! adjac5t qu>t]1 n[ s malodor\s & disreputable1 0 em95tly respectable4 ,freund's daught]s1 z !y left ! p>5tal ro( = mode/ h\ses ( 8 gift close by1 no d\bt _h reason to consid] !mselves abundantly =tunate 9 _! surr\nd+s4 ,"o ( ^! daught]s1 ,c>ol9e ,sophia ,susanna ,h5rietta ,wilhelm9a1 born 9 ,elb]feld on ! #b;d ( ,m>*1 #agif1 0 /ill a babe 9 arms at ! "t ( ! family emigration4 ,%e 0 a tall1 fair1 h&some girl1 n long pa/ h] fifte5? bir?day :5 %e became a wife4 ,h] husb&1 ,john ,heck]1 0 ne>ly twice h] age1 hav+ be5 born 9 ,wetzl>1 ,prussia1 ,may #g1 #aghb4 ,he 0 ! son ( ano!r ,john ,heck]1 a brew] by trade1 :o m>ri$ ! daught] ( a ,colonel ,s*midt4 ,bo? p>5ts 7 natives ( ,wetzl>4 ,_! son le>n$ ! bus9ess ( a ma*9i/ & brass-f\nd]1 & emigrat$ to ,am]ica 9 #ahjj4 ,he 0 m>ri$ to ,c>ol9e ,freund 9 ! ,old ,dut* ,*ur* 9 ! ,swamp1 ,july #ba1 #ahaa4 ,he di$ 9 ,new ,york1 9 ! h\se ( 8 elde/ son1 ,july #aj1 #ahfj4 ,ev5ts prov$ ,john ,heck] to h be5 equally =tunate & sagaci\s 9 8 *oice ( a wife4 ,at ! "t ( _! m>riage he 0 ?rifty & well-to-d4 ,at "o p]iod he own$ a fl\ri%+ brass-f\ndry 9 ,he/] ,/reet1 & dur+ 8 e>ly m>ri$ life 8 prosp]ity 0 un9t]rupt$4 ,b be=e _m ye>s _h pass$ 8 bus9ess decl9$1 & f "o cause & ano!r he nev] succe$$ 9 re-e/abli%+ x4 ,?is mis=tune1 occurr+ :ile ev5 ! elde/ ( ! sons 0 /ill a lad1 might easily h prov$ irrep>able 9 m s5ses ?an "o4 ,b ! v fact t ! ord9>y gates to le>n+ 7 s soon clos$ aga9/ ^! *ildr5 caus$ ! natural t5d5cy !y _h t[>d k to impel !m all ! m /rongly 9 t %ort] road to practical wisdom :i* leads ?r\gh labor & exp]i5ce4 ,! ,heck] bro!rs 7 all h>d at "w :ile /ill m]e *ildr51 & be=e ,john1 ! elde/1 _h atta9$ to legal manhood1 !y _h fix$ ! solid f\ndations ( an endur+ prosp]ity1 & all ne$ ( fur!r ex]tion on ! "p ( _! p>5ts 0 ov] = ev]4 ,isaac ,?omas ,heck]1 ! ?ird son & y\nge/ *ild ( ?is c\ple1 0 born 9 ,new ,york at a h\se 9 ,*ri/ie ,/reet1 betwe5 ,gr& & ,he/]1 ,decemb] #ah1 #ahai1 :5 8 "m 0 n yet tw5ty-f\r4 ,he surviv$ h] by twelve ye>s only1 %e dy+ at ! resid5ce ( h] elde/ son's wid[ 9 #ahgf1 9 ! full possession ( faculties :i* mu/ h be5 ( no common ord]4 ,f h]1 & ?r\gh h] f ,engel ,freund1 :o 0 :at is call$ a "*1 ,fa!r ,heck] seems to h d]iv$ _m ( 8 life-long peculi>ities4 ,i nev] knew a son s l 8 "m1 writes to u "o :o _h an intimate acqua9tance ) bo? ( !m = m ?an =ty ye>s4 ,%e adds3 ,mrs4 ,heck] 0 a woman ( great en]gy ( "* & /rong religi\s nature4 ,h] son1 ,fa!r ,heck]1 inh]it$ bo? ( ^! traits1 & !re 0 ! w>me/ sympa?y betwe5 !m4 ,he 0 h] y\nge/ son1 h] baby1 %e call$ him1 b ) all h] t5d] love %e _h a holy v5]ation = 8 "* z prie/4 ,%e deeply sympa?iz$ ) him ?r\gh ! trials & anxieties t 7 8 9 8 se>* aft] tru?1 & :5 8 he>t f\nd re/1 & ! aspirations ( 8 s\l 7 answ]$ 9 ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 h] noble he>t accept$ = him :at %e c\ld n see = h]self4 ,%e said to a lady :o spoke to h] on ! subject & :o c\ld n be reconcil$ to ! conv]sion ( a daught]3 ',no1 ,i w\ld n *ange ! fai? ( my sons4 ,!y h f\nd peace & joy 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & ,i w\ld n by a ^w *ange _! fai?1 if ,i c\ld4' ,%e _h a v e>ne/ temp]am5t1 & :at %e did %e did ) all h] he>t4 ,! la/ ye>s ( h] life %e 0 a great invalid1 b f h] sick room %e did wond]s4 ,family ties 7 kept w>m1 & no "o :om %e _h lov$ & kn[n 0 =gott54 ,! poor 7 ev] welcome1 & came to h] 9 cr[ds1 nev] leav+ )\t help & consolation4 ,%e _h a v *e]ful _s1 & a bright1 pleasant1 & ev5 witty ^w = e "o4 ,b ! /ronge/ trait 9 h] "* 0 h] deeply religi\s nature4 ,) ! ,ca?olic fai? x w\ld h f\nd expression 9 ! religi\s life1 z %e sometimes said h]self4 ,! fai? %e _h made h] mo/ e>ne/ & dev\t1 accord+ to h] light4 ,mrs4 ,georgiana ,bruce ,kirby1 :o sp5t a mon? at ! h\se 9 ,rutg]s ,/reet j aft] ,isaac f9ally return$ f ,brook ,f>m1 :5 ,mrs4 ,heck] 0 9 ! prime ( middle life1 speaks ( h] z a lovely & dignifi$ "*1 full ( 'humanities4' ,%e 0 fair1 tall1 erect1 a v sup]ior example ( ! ,g]man h\se-"m4 ,h]s 0 ! controll+ _s 9 ! h\se1 & h] wise & g5]\s influ5ce 0 felt f> beyond x4 ,%e 0 a life-long ,me?odi/1 & took me ) h] to a ',love ,fea/1' :i* ,i _h nev] witness$ be=e4 ,to ! good s5se1 good temp]1 & /rong religi\s nature ( ,c>ol9e ,heck] h] *ildr5 ow$1 & always cordially ackn[l$g$1 a heavy1 & 9 "o respect an almo/ undivid$1 debt ( gratitude4 ,nei!r ,engel ,freund nor ,john ,heck] pr(ess$ any religi\s fai?4 ,! latt] 0 nev] 9 ! habit ( att5d+ any place ( wor%ip4 ,bo? 7 ,lu!ran s f> z _! antec$5ts c\ld make !m s1 b nei!r seems to h practically kn[n mu* beyond ! flat negation1 or at be/ ! simple disreg>d1 ( ,*ri/ianity to :i* ,prote/antism leads m or less quickly accord+ z ! logical faculty is m or less develop$ 9 ^? ^: m9ds h be5 f$ ^u x4 ,h[ev]1 !re 0 no?+ aggressive 9 ! attitude ( ei!r t[>d religi\s obs]vance4 ,! gr&fa!r especially seems to h be5 a g5tle sceptic1 an agno/ic 9 ! g]m1 affirm+ no?+ beyond ! natural1 probably because all sub/antial gr\nd = sup]natural affirmations seem$ to him to be cut away by ! fundam5tal tra9+ imp>t$ to him4 ,he 0 a k9dly1 virtu\s1 w>m-he>t$ man1 ) a life ( 8 own :i* made him incuri\s & ?\ghtful1 & s+ul>ly devoid ( prejudices4 ,:5 8 daught] ,c>ol9e elect$ to des]t ! ,re=m$ ,dut* ,*ur* 9 :i* ! family _h a pew1 & to atta* h]self to ano!r sect1 he _h only a jocul> ^w ( surprise to say conc]n+ h] odd fancy = ^? noisy ,me?odi/s4 ,he _h a true ,g]man fondness = old ways & settl$ cu/oms1 & to ! end ( 8 days spoke only 8 own v]nacul>4 ,:y don't y talk ,engli%8 somebody once ask$ him t[>d ! close ( 8 life4 ,i don't "k h[1 he answ]$4 ,i nev] _h "t to le>n4 ,:y1 h[ long h y be5 "h8 ,ab\t =ty ye>s4 ,=ty ye>s6 ,& isn't t "t en\gh to le>n ,engli% 98 ,:at c "o le>n 9 =ty ye>s8 said ! old man1 ) an unansw]able tw9kle4 ,betwe5 him & ! y\nge/ ( 8 ,heck] gr&*ildr5 !re exi/$ a s+ul> sympa?y & affection4 ,! two 7 v mu* toge!r1 & ! little fell[ 0 all[$ to pott] ab\t ! work%op & enc\rag$ to /udy ! ins & outs ( all t w5t on !re1 z well z ent]ta9$ ) k9dly talk t may at fir/ h be5 a trifle above 8 ye>s4 ,b he 0 a precoci\s *ild1 %rewd1 obs]vant1 & ?\ghtful4 ,x 0 9 ! old wat*mak]'s %op t ! boy1 n yet a doz5 ye>s old1 & already h>d at "w help+ to e>n 8 own liv+1 conceiv$ ! plan ( mak+ a clock ) 8 own h&s & pres5t+ x to ! *ur* att5d$ by ! family1 :i* 0 situat$ 9 ,=sy? ,/reet betwe5 ,walk] & ,he/]4 ,! clock 0 f9i%$ 9 due "t & set up 9 ! *ur*1 :]e x tick$ fai?fully until ! edifice 0 torn d[n1 "s =ty ye>s lat]4 ,!n x 0 return$ to its mak] 9 accordance ) a promise made by ! pa/or :5 ! gift 0 accept$4 ,9 #ahgb ! op5+ numb] ( ! ?ird volume ( ,! ,"y ,ca?olic conta9$ a good engrav+ ( x1 accompani$ by a sket* descriptive ( its c>e]4 ,al?\gh ,fa!r ,heck] did n write ! little /ory1 x is s true bo? to fact & to s5tim5t t we make an extract f x4 ,! clock hung 9 ! ,pauli/ sacri/y = ab\t t5 ye>s4 ,!n1 = "s reason1 x 0 tak5 to ! c\ntry h\se ( ,mr4 ,george ,heck]1 :]e x 0 accid5tally de/roy$ by fire3 ,!re 7 po9ts ( resemblance 9 my own & my boy mak]'s nature4 ,9 him1 regul>ity1 ord]1 & ob$i5ce 7 fix$ pr9ciples2 & ) u bo?1 ,"t repres5t$ ,et]nity4 ,z ! days ( 8 "y manhood came 8 pursuits & ta/es 9 life *ang$4 ,deep ?\ght took possession ( 8 m9d1 & ) x a t5d] love = s\ls & a he>t-hungr9ess = a fur!r k ( :at man 0 giv5 a s\l =1 & ! way 9 :i* he 0 to save x4 ,z ^! ?\ghts 7 matur+ 9 8 m9d ,i (t5 notic$ 8 tr\bl$ look4 ,"o ,sunday 9 p>ticul>1 he l+]$ beh9d ! congregation & /ood be=e me1 ) a new expression 9 8 ke5 gray eye2 & amid ! sil5ce ( ! des]t$ aisles he ?us apo/rophiz$ me3 ',f>ewell1 old fri5d6 fa%ion$ by ^! h&s1 ?\ repres5te/ ,tru?1 ! et]nal4 ,:at man is ev] seek+1 ?r\gh me ?\ ha/ f\nd4 ,"h ,i /&1 n man's b ,god's noble/ "w1 z yet n hav+ repaid my ,mak] ) "o act ( duty or ( s]vice4 ,?\ ha/ fai?fully p]=m$ ?y mission2 h5ce=? ,i labor to p]=m m9e4' ,) a grave & sad look my boy mak]1 n[ a "y man1 left me4 ,i felt !n t we _h look$ our la/ ^u ea* o!r 9 ?is place2 b little did ei!r ( u dream ( :]e1 :51 & h[ we w\ld meet aga94 ,= ?irty-five ye>s ,i labor$ on un*ang$1 ?\gh ,i mu/ own to hav+ _h "s ailm5ts n[ & !n4 ,ab\t ?is p]iod ( my exi/5ce ,i ov]he>d /raggl+ rem>ks1 z ! wor%ipp]s pass$ out ( ! *ur*1 :i* l$ me to conclude t "s *ange 0 contemplat$1 & my suspicions 7 confirm$ by ! rector propos+ f ! pulpit ! erection ( a new *ur* edifice 9 ano!r "p ( ! city1 to be fa%ion$ aft] a m mod]n /yle ( ar*itecture4 4 4 4 ,9 accordance ) ! promise made my boy mak]1 ,i 0 to g back to him4 ,my he>t b\nd$ at ! prospect4 ,nev] 9 all ^? ye>s _h ,i se5 him4 4 4 4 ,9 a %ort "t ,i le>n$ t ! au?or ( my exi/5ce1 aft] _m h>d /ruggles & trials1 _h at la/ f\nd tru? & light1 peace & re/1 9 ! bosom ( ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,he _h return$1 :5 he f\nd me1 f ! ,pl5>y ,c\ncil ( #ahfg4 ,he is n[ a prie/1 & ! head ( a religi\s community4 ,ne$ ,i assure ^? :o h be5 int]e/$ 9 my hi/ory t ,i also h f\nd a home 9 ! same community1 :]e ,i am consecrat$ to its use8 ,i am no long] alone n[2 ,i am busy f morn+ until night1 help+ to regulate ! movem5ts ( ! community4 ,!re is n an h\r 9 ! day :5 ,i d n see my boy mak]4 ,we h e/abli%$ sympa?ies 9 common2 ,i call him to pray]s1 to 8 meals1 to 8 mat9s1 & to 8 re/4 ,_m a "t1 :5 he f9ds me alone1 he gives me "s spiritual read+1 or says al\d "s pray]s4 ,e "t ,i /rike1 he brea!s an aspiration ( love & ?anksgiv+4 ,9 %ort1 we h f\nd our glori\s mission 9 our new bir?4 ,we are bo? apo/les3 ,i repres5t ,"t2 he prea*es ( ,et]nity4 ,!re c be little d\bt1 h[ev]1 t ! *ief =mative influ5ce 9 ! ,heck] h\sehold 0 t :i* came directly ?r\gh ! "m4 ,"y z %e 0 :5 an unduly heavy %>e ( ! dome/ic burd5s fell to h] portion1 %e took x up ) c\rage & bore x ) dignity & fidelity4 ,:at aid h] fa!r c\ld give h] 0 d\btless n lack+1 b we may well suppose t1 z age crept on ,engel ,freund1 8 bus9ess began to slip away f him into y\ng] h&s4 ,he 0 probably no long] 9 a position to end[ daught]s or to und]take ! education ( gr&*ildr54 ,:at is c]ta9 is t ,c>ol9e ,heck]'s boys1 aft] v brief s*ool-days1 7 put at once to h>d "w4 ,:at decid$ _! *oice ( an occupation is n s sure1 b 9 all probability !y consult$ ) _! "m & !n took ! common-s5se view t z !re is a nev]-fail+ m>ket = food /aples1 ev5 pov]ty1 if mat$ ) dilig5ce & sagacity1 may f9d !re a fair field = successful ent]prise4 ,john1 ! elde/1 ^u :om ! "m soon began to rely z h] "r h&1 w5t to le>n 8 trade z a bak] ) a ,mr4 ,s*wab1 ^: %op 0 on ! corn] ( ,he/] & ,eldridge ,/reets4 ,george1 :o 0 "s ?ree or f\r ye>s y\ng]1 z ! only girl1 ,elizabe?1 came betwe5 !m1 pres5tly foll[$ 8 bro!r to ! same bus9ess4 ,z = ,isaac1 :om h>d necessity1 or1 m probably1 a mi/ak5 ?rift1 likewise =c$ away f s*ool :5 n mu* m ?an t5 ye>s old1 8 e>lie/ v5tures be> a curi\s symbolic lik5ess to 8 late/4 ,he e>n$ 8 fir/ wages 9 ! s]vice ( a religi\s p]iodical1 ! ,me?odi/ publication /ill kn[n z ,zion's ,h]ald1 ^: (fice 0 situat$ 9 ,crosby ,/reet ne> ,broadway4 ,f !re he w5t to le>n a trade 9 ! type f\ndry 9 ,great ,?ames ,/reet4 ,b z x 0 already app>5t t ! family road to prosp]ity 0 id5tical ) t *os5 by 8 eld] bro!rs1 we f9d him work+ away beside !m 9 ! bake-h\se by ! "t he 0 elev54 ,!y _h already e/abli%$ ! bak]y 9 ,rutg]s ,/reet1 betwe5 ,monroe & ,*]ry1 :]e ! family liv$ = s _m ye>s4 ,!y _h ano!r %op 9 ,pe>l ,/reet1 to :i* ,isaac us$ to c>ry bread e morn+4 ,?is 0 a "p ( 8 life to :i* he 0 fond ( recurr+ 9 8 la/ ye>s4 ,?anks be to ,god6 he said on ! fir/ day ( #ahhf1 h[ h>d we us$ to "w prep>+ = ,new ,ye>'s ,day6 ,?ree weeks 9 advance we began to bake ,new ,ye>'s cakes--fl\r1 wat]1 sug>1 butt]1 & c>away se$s4 ,we nev] c\ld make en\gh4 ,h[ ,i us$ to "w c>ry+ ! bread ar\nd 9 my bak]'s c>t6 ,h[ (t5 ,i got /uck 9 ! gutt]s & 9 ! sn[6 ,sometimes "s good s\l1 see+ me unable to get along1 w\ld give me a lift4 ,i began to "w :5 ,i 0 t5 & a half ye>s old1 & ,i h be5 at x ev] s9ce4 ,& aga91 a few days lat]1 z a poor woman c>ry+ a heavy basket pass$ him 9 ! /reet1 he said to ! companion ( 8 walk3 ,i h _h ! blood spurt out ( my arm c>ry+ bread :5 ,i 0 a bak]4 ,a lady ask$ me once = a hundr$ doll>s to help h] s5d h] only son to college4 ,i answ]$ h] t my "m _h f\r *ildr5 & got along )\t begg+1 & t ,i w\ld n ex*ange "o ye> ( ^? ,i sp5t work+ = sev]al at college4 ,less ?an a mon? be=e 8 dea? he fell into conv]sation ) a newsboy on ! corn] ne> ! ,pauli/ *ur* 9 ,fifty-n9? ,/reet4 ,x int]e/$ me v mu*1 he said aft]w>ds4 ,i f\nd out t he is "o ( five little bro!rs1 & _! "m is a wid[4 ,%e is try+ to br+ !m up1 poor ?+6 ,x rem9ds me ( my own "m4 ,x is pla9 t !re c\ld n h be5 mu* room = =mal /udy 9 a life ( h>d physical labor1 s soon begun & s unremitt+ly cont9u$ dur+ ! ye>s usually giv5 up to s*ool "w4 ,an ord9>y boy1 plac$ 9 su* circum/ances1 w\ld d\btless h gr[n up ignorant & un=m$4 ,b :ile none ( ! ,heck] boys 0 q ( ! ord9>y /amp1 ,isaac 0 di/9ctly sui g5]is & individual4 ,he has said ( himself t he c\ld rememb] no p]iod ( 8 life :5 he _h n ! consci\sness ( hav+ be5 s5t into ! _w = "s especial purpose4 ,:at x 0 he knew n1 b expectation & desire = ! )held k kept him pond]+ & self-)drawn4 ,once 9 8 *ildhood he 0 giv5 ov] = dea? ) a bad attack ( conflu5t small-pox1 & 8 "m came to 8 b$side to tell him s4 ,no1 "m1 he answ]$ h]1 ,i %all n die n[4 ,god has a "w = me to d 9 ! _w1 & ,i %all live to d x4 ,su* in/ruction z ,isaac obta9$ be=e beg9n+ to e>n 8 own bread 0 giv5 him 9 ,w>d ,s*ool ,no4 #g4 ,a ,dr4 ,kirby 0 !n its pr9cipal1 & ! "t 0 j previ\s to ! introduction ( ! pres5t sy/em4 ,! s*ools 7 n entirely free1 a small paym5t be+ requir$ f ! p>5ts = ea* pupil1 to supplem5t ! grant ( public funds4 ,no d\bt ! boy1 :o _h an ard5t ?ir/ = k1 regrett$ 8 removal f 8 desk m deeply ?an he 0 at ! "t will+ to express4 ,/ill1 x may be que/ion$ :e!r he ev] _h any natural aptitude = close1 cont9u\s book-"w1 at lea/ on ord9>y & prescrib$ l9es4 ,he 0 always /udy+1 inde$1 z he sometimes said 9 speak+ ( 8 e>ly life1 b ! ?\ghts ( o!r m51 :e!r writt5 or spok51 d n seem to h be5 greatly valu$ by him1 except z keys :i* might help him to unlock ^? my/]ies ( ,god & man1 & _! mutual relations1 :i* torm5t$ him f ! fir/4 ,he 0 to ! la/ an indefatigable read]1 b yet x w\ld be true to say t he 0 nev] ei!r a /ud5t or a s*ol> 9 ! ord9>y s5se4 ,x is a curi\s "q z to h[ a ?or\gh education might h modifi$ ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,x is possible--nay1 z ! read] may be incl9$ to believe ) u z ! /ory ( 8 inn] life goes on1 x is ev5 probable--t ! m he 0 taught by ,god ! less he 0 able to receive f m54 ,x is c]ta91 h[ev]1 t he s]i\sly regrett$ & soon set himself to rectify ! defici5cies ( 8 e>ly tra9+4 ,?is 0 "o ( ! reasons :i* took him to ,brook ,f>m4 ,9 ! fir/ entry ( ! e>lie/ ( 8 di>ies :i* has be5 pres]v$ he ?us speaks ( 8 hidd5 long+ aft] k4 ,he 0 tw5ty-?ree :5 ^! s5t5ces 7 writt51 & he _h be5 at ,brook ,f>m = sev]al mon?s3 ,if ,i ca/ a glance ^u a few ye>s ( my pa/ life1 x appe>s to me my/]i\sly incompreh5sible t ,i %\ld be :]e ,i am n[4 ,i confess s9c]ely t1 al?\gh ,i h nev] labor$ = x1 /ill1 some?+ 9 me always dream$ ( x4 ,once1 :5 ,i 0 ly+ on ! floor1 my "m said to my bro!r ,john1 )\t any?+ previ\sly be+ spok5 on ! subject1 & sudd5ly1 9 a k9d ( unconsci\s spee*1 ',john1 let ,isaac g to college & /udy4' ,^! words w5t ?r\gh me l liquid fire4 ,he made "s evasive answ] & !re x end$4 ,al?\gh to /udy has always be5 ! secret desire ( my he>t f my y\?1 ,i nev] felt incl9$ to op5 my m9d to any "o on ! subject4 ,& n[ ,i f9d1 aft] a long "t1 t ,i h be5 l$ "h z /rangely z possible4 ,8 *ildhood seems to h be5 a s]i\s "o4 ,9 recurr+ to x 9 lat] life1 z he (t5 did1 he nev] spoke ( any games or sports 9 :i* he _h %>$1 nor1 9 fact1 ( any amusem5ts be=e ! "t :5 he began to att5d lectures & ! !atre4 ,x 0 ! *ildhood ( :at we call 9 ,am]ica a self-made man--"o 9 :i* ! pla/ic human mat]ial is rudely dealt ) by circum/ances4 ,8 "m taught him 8 pray]s1 ! s*oolmi/ress 8 lett]s1 necessity 8 daily r\nd ( duties1 & = ! re/ he 0 left v mu* to himself & to t int]ior ,ma/] ( ^: /ress & con/ra9t ^u him he grew m intimately consci\s z he grew 9 ye>s4 ,! =ce ( ?is inw>d pressure %[$ itself 9 _m ways4 ,outw>dly x made 8 mann] undemon/rative1 & fix$ an intangible yet v real b>ri] betwe5 him & 8 k9dr$1 ev5 :5 ! affection t exi/$ 0 extremely close & t5d]4 ,f infancy he exhibit$ t repugnance to t\*+ or be+ t\*$ by any "o :i* m>k$ him to ! end4 ,ev5 8 "m refra9$ f embrac+ him1 kn[+ ?is s+ul> av]sion4 ,%e w\ld /roke 8 face1 in/ead1 :5 %e 0 pleas$ ) him1 & say1 ,t is my kiss = y1 my son4 ,! mutual respect = ea* o!r's p]sonalities %[n 9 ?is close/ ( human relations 0 *>act]i/ic ( ! entire family1 z w be se5 lat]1 :5 ! nature ( ! bus9ess connections betwe5 ,isaac & 8 bro!rs has to be consid]$4 ,f> f weak5+ ! natural ties1 or impair+ _! prop] influ5ce1 x seems to h /r5g!n$ & p]fect$ !m4 ,ask$ once t[>ds ! close ( 8 life h[ x 0 t he _h nev] us$ tobacco 9 any =m1 he answ]$3 ,"m =bade x1 & t 0 en\gh = ,george & me4 ,i 0 nev] rul$ 9 any way b by h] affection4 ,t 0 suffici5t4 ,! p>allel fact t he nev] 9 8 life drank a drop ( liquor at a b> or at any public place 0 probably due to a simil> injunction4 ,! *ildr5 7 br\ght up1 too1 ) exce$+ly /rict ideas ab\t ly+ & /eal+1 & all petty vices4 ,?r\gh\t ! family !re prevail$ an extreme sev]ity on su* faults4 ,i h nev] =gott51 said ,fa!r ,heck]1 ! furi\s ang] ( an aunt ( m9e & ! viol5t beat+ %e gave "o ( my c\s9s = /eal+ a c5t f h] draw]4 ,t tra9+ has _h a great & la/+ effect ^u my "*4 ,9 su* antec$5ts & surr\nd+s x is easy to see ! s\rce ( t abid+ confid5ce 9 human nature1 & t love = ! natural virtues :i* m>k$ ,fa!r ,heck]'s :ole c>e]4 ,!y _h kept 8 own y\? pure4 ,he _h be5 baptiz$ 9 infancy1 h[ev]1 z ! *ildr5 ( or?odox ,prote/ants m commonly 7 at t p]iod ?an at pres5t1 & 9 all probability validly1 s t "o c\ld nev] positively say t nature 9 him _h ev] be5 unaid$ by grace 9 any p>ticul> in/ance4 ,x is ! conviction ( ^? :o knew him be/ t he _h nev] be5 guilty ( delib]ate mortal s94 ,"o ( ^! writes3 ,dur+ all ! intimate h\rs ,i sp5t ) him1 speak+ ( 8 pa/ life he ev] once said t he _h be5 a s9n] 9 a s5se to convey ! idea ( mortal s94 ,& on ! o!r h& he said mu* to ! contr>y2 s mu* z to leave no mann] ( d\bt on my m9d t he _h kept 8 baptismal innoc5ce4 ,he 0 deeply atta*$ to an edify+ & religi\s "m2 he 0 at h>d "w be=e ! dawn ( s5sual passion1 & 8 recreation1 ev5 z a boy1 0 9 talk+ & read+ ab\t deep social & philosophical que/ions1 & li/5+ to o!rs on ! same !mes4 ,he expressly told me t he _h nev] us$ dr9k 9 excess1 & t he _h nev] s9n$ aga9/ purity1 nev] 0 pr(ane1 nev] told a lie2 & he c]ta9ly nev] 0 di%one/4 ,! influ5ce ( 8 "m 0 ( ! mo/ p[]ful k9d4 ,he told me t ! sev]e/ puni%m5t %e ev] inflict$ on him 0 once or twice 7once only1 ,i am pretty sure7 to tell him t %e 0 angry ) him2 & ?is s di/ress$ him t he 0 utt]ly mis]able1 sat d[n on ! floor completely ov]come1 & s rema9$ till %e aft] a "t rel5t$ & re/or$ him to favor4 ,su* a relation%ip is q in/ructive 9 ref]5ce to ! orig9al innoc5ce ( 8 life4 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,y\? ,x has be5 said already1 9 speak+ ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s *ildhood1 t he _h be5 consci\sly "u ! influ5ce ( sup]natural impressions f a v e>ly p]iod4 ,x seems probable1 !re=e1 t at lea/ dur+ ! few ye>s :i* prec$$ 8 juv5ile plunge into politics he mu/ h be5 dev\t & pray]ful1 ?\gh d\btless 9 8 own spontane\s way4 ,su* 7 8 "m's *>act]i/ics1 & we f9d h] son writ+ to h]1 :5 8 aspirations aft] ! p]fect life _h l$ him to ! ?re%old ( ! *ur*1 t %e1 ( all p]sons1 ought mo/ to sympa?ize ) him1 = he is ab\t do+ t :i* w aid him to be :at %e has always desir$ to see him4 ,b 8 devotions probably bore small resemblance to ^? ( ! ord9>y religi\sly m9d$ boy1 ei!r ,ca?olic or ,prote/ant4 ,he has said t (t5 at night1 :5 ly+ on ! %av+s be=e ! ov5 9 ! bake-h\se1 he w\ld />t up1 r\s$ 9 spite ( himself by "s great ?\ght1 & run out ^u ! :>ves to look at ! ,ea/ ,riv] 9 ! moonlight1 or w&] ab\t "u ! spell ( "s resi/less aspiration4 ,:at does ,god desire f me8 ,h[ %all ,i atta9 unto ,him8 ,:at is x ,he has s5t me into ! _w to d8 ,^! 7 ! ceaseless que/ions ( a he>t t re/$1 mean:ile1 9 an un%ak5 confid5ce t "t w\ld br+ ! answ]4 ,b ^! 7 e>ly days1 days :5 ! influ5ce ( 8 "m1 nev] :olly %ak5 (f1 0 /ill dom9ant & p]vasive 9 all t conc]n$ him4 ,!re came a p]iod1 h[ev]1 beg9n+ 9 all likelihood ab\t 8 f\rte5?1 & la/+ until 8 tw5tie? ye> or !reab\ts1 9 :i* he c]ta9ly lo/ hold on all di/9ctively ,*ri/ian doctr9es4 ,) su* a m9d z 81 & su* a tra9+1 ?is 0 almo/ inevitable4 ,8 intellect1 :ile x hung]$ incessantly aft] sup]natural tru?1 kept nev]!less a p]si/5t hold ^u ! v]ities ( ! natural ord]1 & c\ld n re/ until x _h syn!tiz$ !m into a coh]5t :ole4 ,t 0 8 life-long *>act]i/ic4 ,dur+ ! ye>s ( pa9ful ill heal? :i* prec$$ 8 dea?1 he (t5 said t he 0 unlike ! ,celt1 :o takes to ! sup]natural z if by in/9ct4 ,b ,i am a ,saxon & cl+ to ! e>?y he w\ld say2 ,i want an explicit & satisfactory reason :y any innoc5t pleasure %\ld n be enjoy$4 ,he attribut$ ?is to 8 racial peculi>ities4 ,o!rs may diff] ) him & cr$it x to 8 nature1 tak5 9 its human & rational integrity4 ,fur!rmore1 he 0 always s+ul>ly indep5d5t & self-pois$4 ,he c\ld n endure be+ h9d]$ ( any?+ t 0 81 except by an au?ority :i* _h legitimat$ to 8 intellig5ce its "r to comm&4 ,he c\ld obey t readily & entirely1 z 8 life f infancy cle>ly witnesses2 b he nev] knew a m]ely arbitr>y ma/]4 ,su* a nature1 f$ on ! m+l$ tru? & error *>act]i/ic ( or?odox ,prote/antism1 0 c]ta9 to reject x soon] or lat]1 impell$ by hung] = ! :ole ,div9e gift ( :i* t tea*+ conta9s fragm5ts only4 ,! s\l ( ,isaac ,heck] 0 "o a?ir/ = ,god f ! fir/ dawn ( its consci\s be+4 ,^u ,him1 its ,creator & ,s\rce1 x nev] lo/ hold1 & nev] ceas$ to cry out = ,him ) long+ & aspiration1 ev5 dur+ t bitt] & protract$ p]iod ( 8 y\? :5 8 m9d1 entangl$ 9 ! maze ( philosophic subjectivism1 seem$ 9 dang] ( reject+ !ism altoge!r4 ,b ! und]p9n+ ( 8 fai?1 s f> z t pr(ess$ to be ,*ri/ian & to come by he>+--to h an intellectual basis1 t is--began to slip away almo/ z soon z he left 8 "m's knee4 ,x is possible t v little /ress 0 ev] laid ^u di/9ctively ,*ri/ian doctr9es 9 h] tea*+4 ,to adore ,god ! ,creator1 to li/5 to ,8 voice 9 consci5ce1 to live hone/ly & purely z 9 ,8 sight--! h]itage %e transmitt$ to him probably conta9$ little m ?an ?is4 ,l mo/ o!rs re>$ 9 h]esy :o aft]w>ds atta9 to ! true k ( ! ,inc>nation1 he _h to seek = x ) almo/ z great travail ( m9d z if he _h be5 born a pagan4 ,x _c be too /rongly insi/$ on1 h[ev]1 t 8 /ruggles 7 m]ely intellectual1 &1 :5 !y began to take a def9ite turn1 %ap$ !mselves into ! natural result ( a metaphysic z repugnant to common s5se z x is to ,*ri/ian philosophy4 ,to ?is fact1 s important 9 c]ta9 ( its be>+s1 we h ample te/imony 9 ! private di>ies kept be=e 8 conv]sion1 f :i* we %all make extracts lat] on4 ,!y f9d a lat] confirmation 9 "s mo/ int]e/+ memor&a1 jott$ d[n1 aft] conv]sation ) him at int]vals dur+ ! la/ ye>s ( 8 life1 by "o :om he admitt$ to an unusually close intimacy4 ,he 0 always s+ul>ly res]v$ conc]n+ matt]s purely p]sonal2 8 confid5ces1 :5 !y t\*$ 8 own s\l1 seldom seem$ entirely volunt>y1 & 7 quickly *eck$4 ,occasionally !y 7 tak5 by surprise1 z :5 ! c\rse ( talk ins5sibly turn$ t[>d int]nal ways2 & aga9 !y 7 delib]ately angl$ = ) a hook s well conceal$ t x secur$ a prize be=e he 0 aw>e4 ,f ^! notes we %all "h make a few quotations be>+ on ! po9t made above--i4e41 t 8 difficulties prior to 8 entrance into ! *ur* 7 nei!r moral nor spiritual1 b intellectual4 ,( him1 if ( any man1 x 0 always true t 8 he>t 0 naturally ,*ri/ian4 ,! fir/ ( ^! extracts1 be>+ z x does on a topic con/antly 9 8 ?\ghts1 af=ds a good en\gh example ( :at 0 meant 9 say+ t 8 confid5ces 7 sometimes tak5 by surprise3 ,!re are "s = :om ! pr$om9ant influ5ce is ! ext]nal "o1 au?ority1 example1 precept1 & ! l4 ,o!rs 9 ^: lives ! int]ior action ( ! ,holy ,_s pr$om9ates4 ,9 my case1 f my *ildhood ,god influ5c$ me by an int]ior light & by ! int]ior t\* ( ,8 ,holy ,_s4 ,at ano!r "t he said3 ,:ile ,i 0 a y\?1 & 9 e>ly manhood1 ,i 0 pres]v$ f c]ta9 s9s & c]ta9 occasions ( s91 9 a way t 0 peculi> & rem>kable4 ,i 0 also at ! same "t1 &1 inde$1 all ! "t1 consci\s t ,god 0 pres]v+ me innoc5t ) a view to "s future provid5ce4 ,m9d1 all ?is 0 long be=e ,i came into ! *ur*4 ,& aga93 ,_m a "t be=e my conv]sion ,god gave me grace to weep ov] ^? words3 ',& all ^? :o love ,8 com+4' ,i did n believe 9 ,8 com+1 b ,i lov$ x hone/ly & long$ to believe x4 ,i _h le>n$ mu* ( ! ,bible f my "m & _h read x (t5 & mu* myself4 ,?is consci\sly sup]natural "* ( 8 inn] life f ! fir/1 %\ld be kept closely unit$ 9 ! read]'s m9d ) t o!r idea ( 8 adhesion to guileless nature :i* 0 su* a favorite !me ) ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,no "o c\ld be m emphatic ?an he 9 ass]t+ ! necessity ( ! sup]natural = ! atta9m5t ( man's de/9y4 ,h[ c\ld x be o!rwise1 :5 he consid]$ t de/9y to be ! elevation ( man above all good m]ely human1 & by means f> beyond ! compass ( 8 natural p[]s8 ,/ill1 ?is 0 und\bt$ly a conclusion ( 8 rip] ye>s1 a result arriv$ at aft] a c]ta9 int5se if n v prolong$ exp]i5ce 9 contempor>y ,utopias1 9 futile endeavors to raise man above 8 own level :ile rema9+ on x1 :e!r by sociali/ic s*emes or social politics4 ,9 an article call$ ,dr4 ,br[nson & ! ,work+man's ,p>ty ,fifty ,ye>s ,ago1 publi%$ 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w ( ,may1 #ahhg1 ,fa!r ,heck] has himself made "s int]e/+ ref]5ces to 8 exp]i5ces 9 ! latt] field1 & ^u ^! we %all draw heavily = our own acc\nt ( ?is p]iod ( 8 life1 supplem5t+ !m ) :atev] be>s ^u ! subject 9 ! memor&a already ref]r$ to4 ,conc]n+ ! inception ( ?is p>ty1 to :i* all ?ree ( ! "y ,heck]s belong$ 9 #ahcd1 we h a bett] /atem5t 9 ,dr4 ,br[nson's ,conv]t ?an we "k ( else:]e4 ,br[nson 0 = a "t actively int]e/$ 9 x1 & 9 #ahbi e/abli%$ a j\rnal 9 support ( its pr9ciples some:]e 9 ,we/]n ,new ,york4 ,f him we le>n t x 0 />t$ 9 #ahbh by ,rob]t ,dale ,ow51 ,rob]t ,l4 ,j5n+s1 ,george ,h4 ,evans1 ,fanny ,wright1 & a few o!r doctr9aires1 =eign-born )\t exception1 9 ! hope ( gett+ control ( political p[] s z to use x = e/abli%+ purely secul> s*ools4 ,_! advocacy ( anti-,*ri/ian & free-love doctr9es _h s signally fail$ among adult ,am]icans t ! sl[] b sur] me?od ( educat+ ! *ildr5 ( ! c\ntry )\t religion _h dawn$ ^u !m z m c]ta9 to succe$4 ,we hop$1 writes ,dr4 ,br[nson1 by l9k+ our cause ) ! ultra-democratic s5tim5t ( ! c\ntry1 :i* _h _h f ! "t ( ,jeff]son & ,tom ,pa9e some?+ ( an anti-,*ri/ian "*2 by pr(ess+ ourselves ! bold & uncompromis+ *ampions ( equality2 by express+ a great love = ! p & a deep sympa?y ) ! labor]1 :om we repres5t$ z defraud$ & oppress$ by 8 employ]2 by d5\nc+ all proprietors z ari/ocrats1 & by keep+ ! m unpopul> features ( our plan z f> 9 ! backgr\nd z possible1 to enli/ ! majority ( ! ,am]ican p "u ! bann] ( ! ,work+man's p>ty2 no?+ d\bt+ t1 if we c\ld once raise t p>ty to p[]1 we c\ld use x to secure ! adoption ( our educational sy/em4 ,?is p>ty1 h[ev]1 bo? z an eng9e 9 politics & z a fitt+ embodim5t ( 8 private views1 ,dr4 ,br[nson soon ab&on$4 ,he 0 n truly radical1 9 ! evil s5se ( t ^w1 at any p]iod ( 8 c>e]1 & ! !ories ( ! lead]s soon became insupportable to 8 moral s5se4 ,b he rema9$ true to ! cause ( ! work+m5 :ile ab&on+ ! organization :i* assum$ to voice _! ne$s & _! wi%es4 ,probably ^! m ult]ior aims ( _! lead]s 7 nev] fully appreciat$ by ! rank & file ( ^? :o foll[$ !m4 ,yet ! g5esis ( ! pres5t purely secul> s*ool sy/em1 aga9/ ^: work+s & results ne>ly all ,*ri/ian d5om9ations are too late beg9n+ to prote/1 is cle>ly traceable to ! propag&a c>ri$ on half a c5tury ago by m5 & wom5 ^: only half-veil$ w>f>e aga9/ ,*ri/ianity1 prop]ty1 & m>riage 0 !n an (f5ce 9 ! no/rils ( our p at l>ge4 ,x is fair to pr$ict t ?is g5]ation1 or ano!r :i* %all succe$ x1 w yet h ! good s5se to regret1 & ! c\rage to atone =1 ! fact t hatr$ to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & a desire to cripple h] h&s :]e h] own *ildr5 7 conc]n$1 %\ld h be5 a m p[]ful ag5t 9 dragg+ !m & !irs into ! abyss ( secul>ism ?an 0 _! love ( ,*ri/ianity 9 det]r+ !m f x4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s acc\nt ( 8 own y\?ful connection ) ! ,work+man's ,democracy1 al?\gh writt5 ) ! direct int5tion ( plac+ 8 e/imate ( ,dr4 ,br[nson on record1 has too _m /rictly autobiographic t\*es 9 x to be "h omitt$4 ,su* passages1 be>+ on long pa/ p]sonal hi/ory1 are few] ?an we c\ld wi% !m among 8 pap]s1 publi%$ or unpubli%$4 ,! five articles on ,dr4 ,br[nson1 beg9n+ 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w ( ,april1 #ahhg1 & conclud+ 9 ,novemb] ( ! same ye>1 conta9 almo/ ! only matt]s relative to 8 p]sonal hi/ory :i* he ev] put into pr9t4 ,conc]n+ ! p>ty1 ( :i* ,dr4 ,br[nson says t he _h ceas$ to be a recogniz$ lead] at ?is "t1 al?\gh he /ill ?rew 8 influ5ce z a speak] into all its projects = social re=m1 ,fa!r ,heck] writes3 ,we call$ ourselves ! g5u9e ,democracy1 & 9 ,new ,york ,city 7 = "s ye>s a sep>ate political body1 indep5d5t ( ! 'regul>' ,democracy1 & vot+ our own ticket4 ,i h be=e me ! files ( our newspap] organ1 ! ,democrat1 ! fir/ numb] ( :i* appe>$ ,m>* #i1 #ahcf1 publi%$ by ,w9dt ,conrad1 #aa ,frank=t ,/reet4 ,9 its prospectus ! ,democrat promises to cont5d = ',equality ( ,rights1 (t5 trampl$ 9 ! du/ by ,monopoly ,democrats1' to battle ') an ari/ocratic opposition p[]ful 9 tal5t & (ficial entr5*m5t1 & mighty 9 money & facilities = corruption4' ',9 ! c\rse ( ?is duty x w n fail fe>lessly & fully to ass]t ! inali5able rights ( ! p' aga9/ 've/$ rights' & 've/$ wrongs4' ,x claims to be ! 'in/ructive companion' ( ! me*anics' & work+m5's leisure1 '! promotion ( ^: int]e/s w ev] =m a lead+ feature ( ! ,democrat4' ,& 9 ! editorial salutatory x speaks ?us3 ',we are 9 favor ( gov]nm5t by ! p4 ,our objects are ! re/oration ( equal rights & ! pro/ration ( ^? ari/ocratical usurpations exi/+ 9 ! /ate ( monopolies & exclusive privileges ( e k9d1 ! products ( corrupt & corrupt+ legislation4 4 4 4 ,at ?is mom5t we are ! only l>ge nation on ! face ( ! e>? :]e ! mass ( ! p gov]n 9 !ory--:]e !y may gov]n 9 reality1 if !y w--:]e ! real taxes ( gov]nm5t1 al?\gh too heavy1 are b trifl+1 & :]e a majority ( ! population dep5d on _! own labor = support2 yet su* is ! condition ( t l>ge class t ! fruits ( _! toil are inadequate to su/a9 !mselves 9 com=t & re> _! families z ! "y citiz5s ( a republic ought to be re>$4 '4 4 4 ,he is v %ortsight$1 h[ev]1 :o ?9ks t a majority ( ! p1 :]e univ]sal suffrage exi/s1 w submit long to a /ate ( toil & m5dicity4 ,! majority w\ld soon le>n to ex]cise its political rights1 & comm& its repres5tatives to c>ry ! laws aboli%+ primog5iture & entails "o /ep fur!r1 & /op all devises ( l& & prohibit x f be+ an article ( sale4 7,9 a foot-note ( ! editorial37 ,we actually he>d ^! & sev]al su* propositions discuss$ by a numb] ( app>5tly v intellig5t me*anics1 aft] ! adj\rnm5t ( a meet+ call$ to consid] ! subject ( wages1 r5ts1 etc4' ,at t "t ! ma9 "q 0 ! condition ( ! public f9ances1 & our agitation 0 direct$ *iefly aga9/ grant+ *>t]s to private banks ( circulation4 ,we condemn$ ^! z monopolies1 = we 7 ho/ile to all monopolies--t is to say1 to ! use ( public funds or ! enjoym5t ( public exclusive privileges by any man or association or class ( m5 = _! private pr(it4 ,we int]rupt our direct quotation f ?is article 9 ord] to relate "o ( ! humors ( ! p]iod1 s f> z ^! bro!rs 7 conc]n$1 9 ! words ( ! late ,mr4 ,george ,heck]3 ,:5 we 7 bak]s ! money 9 common use 0 ! old-fa%ion$ pap] issu$ by private banks "u ,/ate *>t]s4 ,we 7 regul>ly aga9/ x4 ,s we b\ght a h& pr9t+-press & set x up 9 ! g>ret ( our e/abli%m5t4 ,all ! bills we receiv$ f our cu/om]s1 "s ?\s&s sometimes e week1 we smoo!d out & put 9 a pile1 & !n pr9t$ on _! backs a say+ we took f ,daniel ,web/] 7?\gh ,i believe x 0 n q au!ntic73 ',( all ! contrivances to impov]i% ! labor+ classes ( mank9d1 pap] money is ! mo/ effective4 ,x f]tilizes ! ri* man's field ) ! poor man's sweat4' ,!y tri$ to puni% u = defac+ money1 b we beat !m4 ,we didn't deface x2 we only pr9t$ some?+ on ! back ( x4 ,isaac & ,i (t5 work$ all night putt+ up h&bills = our meet+s1 = 9 ^? days !re 7 no pr(essional bill-po/]s4 ,fa!r' ,heck]'s acqua9tance ) ,dr4 ,br[nson1 :i* _h s p[]ful an effect ^u 8 future c>e]1 began 9 #ahcd1 :5 ,br[nson 0 invit$ to lecture 9 ,new ,york 9 favor ( ! pr9ciples & aims ( ?is p>ty4 ,isaac 0 !n 9 8 fifte5? ye>4 ,among ! conv]sations record$ 9 ! memor&a we f9d ?is ref]5ce to _! e>lie/ int]view3 ,i fir/ met ,dr4 ,br[nson 9 ,new ,york1 9 our h\se4 ,i 0 !n read+ ! ,wa%+ton ,globe1 ,b5ton's spee*es1 ,calh\n's1 etc4 ,! eld] ,blair 0 its editor2 its motto 01 ',! _w is gov]n$ too mu*'--a motto 9 ^: _s !re c\ld be no great movem5t except 9 ! way ( revolution4 ,aft] ! e/abli%m5t ( ! ,am]ican ,gov]nm5t ! pr9ciple express$ 9 t motto c\ld only be ab&on$ or pu%$ into revolution & an>*y4 ,i put ?is "q to ,br[nson3 ',h[ c ,i become c]ta9 ( ! objective reality ( ! op]ations ( my s\l8' ,he answ]$3 ',if y h n yet rea*$ t p]iod ( m5tal life1 y w d s be=e _m ye>s4' ,x is a great humiliation = me to admit t ,i 0 ev] 9 a /ate 9 :i* ,i d\bt$ ! actual validity ( ! te/imony ( my own faculties1 & ! reality ( ! ph5om5a ( my m5tal exi/5ce4 ,i _h begun my m5tal life 9 politics1 & 9 a c]ta9 s5se 9 religion2 b to my philosophical life ,i 0 yet unborn4 ,9 ! article on ! ,work+man's ,p>ty1 already quot$ f1 ,fa!r ,heck]1 aft] m5tion+ t ,dr4 ,br[nson cont9u$ to lecture be=e ! ,new ,york memb]s ( ! p>ty = sev]al ye>s1 goes on z foll[s3 ,if x be ask$ :y a man l ,dr4 ,br[nson1 a born philosoph]1 %\ld h ?us busi$ himself ) ! solution ( ! mo/ practical ( problems by und]tak+ to aboli% inequality among m51 ! answ] is pla94 ,! true philosoph] w n conf9e himself to ab/ract !ories4 ,b1 fur!rmore1 ,br[nson at ?is epo* ( 8 life _h lo/ 8 grip on ! philosophy t leads m5 to tru/ 9 a sup]natural happ9ess to be enjoy$ 9 a future /ate2 & ! man :o does n look to ! hope ( a future /ate ( beatitude = ! *ief solace ( human mis]y mu/ look to ?is life z its end4 ,if a man does n seek beatitude 9 ,god he seeks x 9 himself & 8 fell[-m5--9 ! highe/ e>?ly developm5t ( our bett] nature if he becomes a sociali/ ( "o s*ool1 & 9 ! lu/s ( ! animal man if he becomes a sociali/ ( ! brutal s*ool4 ,! man :o has any sympa?y 9 8 he>t & is n guid$ by ,ca?olic e?ics1 if he reasons at all on public affairs1 w become a sociali/ ( "s s*ool or o!r4 ,says ,dr4 ,br[nson 9 ,! ,conv]t1 p4 #aja3 ,! end ( man1 z disclos$ by my cre$ ( #ahbi1 is obvi\sly an e>?ly end1 to be atta9$ 9 ?is life4 ,man 0 n made = ,god1 & de/9$ to f9d 8 beatitude 9 ! possession ( ,god 8 ,supreme ,good1 ! ,supreme ,good itself4 ,8 end 0 happ9ess--n happ9ess 9 ,god1 b 9 ! possession ( ! good ?+s ( ?is _w4 ,our ,"l _h said1 ',be n anxi\s z to :at ye %all eat1 or :at ye %all dr9k1 or :]e)al ye %all be clo!d2 = aft] all ^! ?+s d ! hea!n seek4' ,i gave ,him a flat d5ial1 & said1 ,be anxi\s2 labor especially = ^! ?+s1 fir/ = y\rselves1 !n = o!rs4 ,enl>g+1 h[ev]1 my views a little1 ,i said1 ,man's end = :i* he is to labor is ! well-be+ & happ9ess ( man 9 ?is _w--is to develop man's :ole nature1 & s to organize society & gov]nm5t z to secure all m5 a p>adise on ! e>?4 ,?is view ( ! end to labor = ,i held /eadily & )\t wav]+ f #ahbh till #ahdb1 :5 ,i began to f9d myself t5d+ unconsci\sly t[>ds ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4' ,! read] w h se5 by ! extracts giv5 t we 7 a p>ty full ( en?usiasm4 ,i 0 b fifte5 :5 our p>ty call$ ,dr4 ,br[nson to deliv] ! lectures above m5tion$4 ,b my bro!rs & ,i _h long be5 play+ m5's p>ts 9 politics4 ,i rememb] :5 elev5 ye>s ( age1 or a ye> or two old]1 be+ tall = my ye>s1 propos+ & c>ry+ ?r\gh a s]ies ( resolutions on ! curr5cy "q at our w>d meet+s4 ,z our "n indicates-- ',work+man's ,democracy'--we 7 a k9d ( ,democrats4 ,z to ! ,:ig p>ty1 x receiv$ no great att5tion f u4 ,at t "t its *ances ( gett+ control ( ?is ,/ate or ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates 7 remote4 ,our bigge/ fight 0 aga9/ ! 'usages ( ! p>ty' z 9 vogue 9 ! s-call$ regul> ,democracy embodi$ 9 ! ,tammany ,hall p>ty4 ,?is organization und]took to absorb u :5 we _h gr[n too p[]ful to be ignor$4 ,!y nom9at$ a legislative ticket made up half ( _! m5 & half ( ours4 ,?is move 0 to a great ext5t successful2 b _m ( u :o 7 puri/s refus$ to compromise1 & ran a /ump ticket1 or1 z x 0 !n call$1 a rump ticket4 ,i 0 too "y to vote1 b ,i rememb] my bro!r ,george & ,i po/+ political h&bills at ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+2 ?is h\r 0 n s inconv5i5t = u1 = we 7 bak]s4 ,we also work$ h>d on election day1 keep+ up & supply+ ! ticket boo?s1 especially 9 our own w>d1 ! old ,sev5?4 ,i rememb] t "o ( our lead]s 0 a %oemak] nam$ ,john ,ryk]1 & t we us$ to meet 9 ,sci5ce ,hall1 ,broome ,/reet4 ,if ?is 0 ! high /ate ( my en?usiasm1 s 0 x t ( u all4 ,our political fai? 0 ard5t & active4 ,b if we _h be5 te/$ on our religi\s fai? we %\ld n h come (f cr$itably2 _m ( u _h n any religion at all4 ,i rememb] say+ once to my bro!r ,john t ! only diff]5ce betwe5 a believ] & an infidel is a few ounces ( bra9s4 4 4 4 ,we 7 a que] set ( cranks :5 ,dr4 ,br[nson br\ght to u 8 p[]ful & eloqu5t advocacy1 8 contribution ( m+l$ tru? & error4 ,he deliv]$ 8 fir/ c\rse ( lectures 9 ! old ,/uyvesant ,in/itute 9 ,broadway1 fac+ ,bond ,/reet--! same hall us$ a little aft]w>ds by ! ,unit>ian ,society :ile !y 7 build+ a *ur* = ,mr4 ,dewey 9 ,broadway opposite ,eigh? ,/reet1 ! v same society n[ e/abli%$ 9 ,lex+ton ,av5ue1 ) ,mr4 ,colly] z m9i/]4 ,! subsequ5t c\rses 7 deliv]$ 9 ,cl9ton ,hall1 corn] ( ,nassau & ,beekman1 ! site n[ occupi$ by "o ( our mod]n mammo? build+s4 ,i =get h[ mu* we 7 *>g$ admission1 except t a ticket = ! :ole c\rse co/ ?ree doll>s4 ,!re 0 no great ru%1 b ! lectures drew well & abundantly paid all exp5ses includ+ ! lectur]'s fee4 ,! press did n take mu* notice ( ! lectures1 = ! ,work+man's p>ty _h no newspap]s expressly 9 its favor1 except ! "o ,i h already quot$ f4 ,b he 0 "o ( ! few m5 ^: p[] is great en\gh to adv]tise itself4 ,:]ev] he 0 he 0 felt4 ,8 tread 0 heavy & he c\ld make way = himself4 ,dr4 ,br[nson 0 !n 9 ! v prime ( manhood4 ,he 0 a h&some man1 tall1 /ately1 & ( grave mann]s4 ,8 face 0 clean-%av$4 ,! fir/ lik5ess ( him t ,i rememb] appe>$ 9 ! ,democratic ,review4 ,x made him look l ,pr\dhon1 ! ,fr5* ,sociali/4 ,?is 0 all ! m s+ul> because at t "t he 0 really ! ,am]ican ,pr\dhon1 ?\gh he nev] w5t s f> z ',la propriete1 c'e/ le vol4' ,z he appe>$ on ! plat=m & receiv$ our greet+ he 0 inde$ a maje/ic man1 display+ 9 8 demeanor ! p[] ( a m9d altoge!r above ! ord9>y4 ,b he 0 ess5tially a philosoph]1 & t means t he c\ld nev] be :at is call$ popul>4 ,he 0 an int]e/+ speak]1 b he nev] s\ght popul>ity4 ,he nev] seem$ to c>e mu* ab\t ! reception 8 words receiv$1 b he exhibit$ anxiety to get 8 ?\ghts rightly express$ & to leave no d\bt ab\t :at 8 convictions 74 ,yet among a limit$ class ( m9ds he always awak5$ real en?usiasm--among m9ds1 t is1 ( a philosophical t5d5cy4 ,he nev] us$ manuscript or notes2 he 0 famili> ) 8 topic1 & 8 ?\ghts fl[$ out spontane\sly 9 good1 pure1 /rong1 =cible ,engli%4 ,he c\ld control any reasonable m9d1 = he 0 a man ( great ?\ghts & nev] )\t "s gr& tru? to imp>t4 ,b to /ir ! emotions 0 n 9 8 p[]1 ?\gh he sometimes attempt$ x2 he nev] succe$$ 9 be+ really pa!tic4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ t al?\gh ,dr4 ,br[nson 0 te*nically class$ among ! rev]5ds1 he 0 n commonly s call$4 ,x may be said t he 0 /ill reckon$ among ! ,unit>ian m9i/ry1 ow+ mo/ly to 8 connection ) ,dr4 ,*ann+1 ( ,bo/on1 :o took a great int]e/ 9 ! ,work+man's p>ty4 ,b ,i d n ?9k he 0 adv]tis$ by u z rev]5d or publicly spok5 ( z a cl]gyman4 ,he may h be5 yet hang+ on ! skirts ( ! ,unit>ian movem5t4 ,b 8 c>e] _h become political1 & 8 err& to ,new ,york 0 political4 ,he _h giv5 up prea*+ = "s ye>s1 & emb>k$ on ! /ormy waves ( social politics1 & _h by 8 writ+s become an expositor ( v>i\s !ories ( social re=m1 *iefly ^? ( ,fr5* orig94 ,s t ! dom9ant note ( 8 lectures 0 n by any means religi\s1 b political4 ,he 0 at t "t consid]$ z id5tifi$ ) ! ,work+man's p>ty1 & came to ,new ,york to speak z "o ( our lead]s4 ,! g5]al tr5d ( 8 lectures 0 ! philosophy ( hi/ory z x be>s on que/ions ( social re=m4 ,at bottom 8 !ories 7 ,sa9t-,simonism1 ! object be+ ! amelioration ( ! condition ( ! mo/ num]\s classes ( society 9 ! spe$ie/ mann]4 ,?is 0 ! ess5ce to our k9d ( ,democracy4 ,& ,dr4 ,br[nson und]took 9 ^! lectures to br+ to be> 9 favor ( our purpose ! life-lessons ( ! provid5tial m5 ( human hi/ory4 ,( c\rse1 ! life & tea*+s ( our ,savi\r ,jesus ,*ri/ 7 br\ght into use1 & ! up%ot ( ! lectur]'s !sis 0 t ,*ri/ 0 ! big ,democrat & ! ,gospel 0 ! true ,democratic plat=m6 ,we int]pret$ ,*ri/ianity z altoge!r a social in/itution1 its social side entirely ov]lapp+ & hid+ ! religi\s4 ,dr4 ,br[nson set out to make1 & did make1 a p[]ful pres5tation ( our ,"l z ! repres5tative ( ! ,democratic side ( civilization4 ,= ,8 p]son & (fice he & all ( u _h a pr(\nd appreciation & sympa?y1 b x 0 n rev]5tial or religi\s2 ! religi\s side ( ,*ri/'s mission 0 ignor$4 ,*ri/ 0 a social ,democrat1 ,dr4 ,br[nson ma9ta9$1 & he & _m ( u _h no o!r religion b ! social !ories we drew f ,*ri/'s life & tea*+2 t 0 ! mean+ ( ,*ri/ianity to u1 & ( ,prote/antism especially4 ,9 p5n+ ! rem9isc5ces j giv5 ,fa!r ,heck] probably _h 9 m9d ! :ole p]iod ly+ betwe5 8 f\rte5? ye> & 8 tw5ty-fir/4 ,9 ! autumn ( #ahcd1 :5 he fir/ made acqua9tance ) ,ore/es ,br[nson1 ,isaac ,heck] 0 n yet fifte51 :ile ! re=m lectur] 0 9 8 e>ly ?irties4 ,b ! boy :o began at once1 z he has told u1 to put philosophical que/ions1 & to seek a te/ :]eby to det]m9e ! validity ( 8 m5tal processes1 0 already well kn[n to ! vot]s ( 8 w>d1 n m]ely z an ov]gr[n & v active lad1 always on h& at ! poll+ boo?s1 & ready = any "w :i* might be entru/$ to a boy1 b also z a cle> & p]suasive speak] on v>i\s topics ( social & political re=m4 ,politics ( ! k9d into :i* ! "y ,heck]s ?rew !mselves s ard5tly 7 n v diff]5t 9 _! me?ods fifty ye>s ago f :at !y are to-day4 ,re=m politics are always ! rev]se ( :at are call$ ma*9e politics4 ,! meet+s ( :i* ,fa!r ,heck] speaks 7 spontane\s ga!r+s ( det]m9$ & e>ne/ m51 "y & old1 held sometimes 9 public halls1 sometimes1 :5 elections 7 close at h&1 9 ! op5 /reet4 ,(t5 !y 7 dom9at$ by lead]s bett] able to =mulate !ories ?an to br+ ab\t practical rem$ial measures4 ,! inception ( all great p>ties has some?+ ( ?is "*4 ,x g5]ally happ5s t pr9ciples are dwelt ^u ) an exclusive devotion m or less prejudicial to imm$iate practical ends4 ,?is is :y "y m51 & ev5 /ripl+s1 provid$ !y are en]getic & p]suasive1 w be li/5$ to ) att5tion at su* eras4 ,m5 are seek+ = enlight5m5t1 & h5ce views are tak5 = :at !y seem to be wor? r ?an out ( respect = ! s\rce !y spr+ f4 ,imag9e1 !n1 ?is tall1 fair1 /rong-fac$ boy ( f\rte51 m\nt$1 p]haps1 on "o ( 8 own fl\r-b>rels1 dogmatiz+ ! pr9ciples ( social democracy1 pos+ z a spontane\s political re=m] be=e a cr[d$ /reet full ( m5 twice & ?rice 8 ye>s1 b b\nd toge!r ) him by ! sympa?ies common to ! wage-e>n+ classes4 ,x is true t ,isaac ,heck] & 8 bro!rs1 ( :om ! elde/ _h b rec5tly atta9$ to ! dignity ( a vot]1 al?\gh /ill poor & h>d-work+1 _h already1 by virtue ( %e] indu/ry & pluck1 pass$ ov] to ! class ( wage-pay]s4 ,b !y 7 n less ard5t re=m]s aft] ?an be=e t transition4 ,isaac at all ev5ts1 0 consi/5t & un*ang$ ?r\gh\t 8 life 9 ! political pr9ciples he adopt$ among ! appr5tices & j\rneym5 ( ,new ,york ov] half a c5tury ago4 ,!re 0 little room = vulg> self-conceit 9 a nature s frank & s9c]e z 84 ,:at he _h to le>n1 z well z :at he _h to tea*1 always dw>f$ m]ely p]sonal consid]ations to _! n>r[e/ dim5sions 9 8 m9d4 ,h5ce 8 impulsive c&or1 ! cle>ness ( 8 views1 & ! /raight=w>d simplicity ( 8 spee* at once attract$ notice1 & al?\gh s "y1 he w5t spe$ily to ! front 9 ! local managem5t ( 8 p>ty4 ,9 ! article already quot$ f1 he tells u t aft] #ahcd ! manag]s left all future engagem5ts ( lectur]s to 8 bro!r ,john & himself4 ,x 0 d\btless ?is fact :i* l$ directly to t la/+ & fruitful intimacy ) ,dr4 ,br[nson :i* !n began4 ,8 0 ! /ronge/ purely human influ5ce1 if we except 8 "m's1 :i* ,isaac ,heck] ev] knew4 ,& ^! two 7 on planes s diff]5t t x is h>dly fair to comp>e !m ) ea* o!r4 ,,*apt] ,,iii ,,! ,,turn+-,,po9t ,a ,,brief consid]ation at ?is po9t ( a c]ta9 p]man5t t5d5cy ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s m9d w be ( pres5t & future value to ! /ud5t ( 8 life4 ,x has be5 said already t he nev] *ang$ ! pr9ciples he _h adopt$ z a lad among ! appr5tices & j\rneym5 ( ,new ,york2 pr9ciples :i*1 = all social politics1 he summ>iz$ 9 ! homely expression1 ,i am always = ! "u dog4 ,?us1 9 ! article quot$ 9 ! prec$+ *apt]1 he _h ! "r to say ( himself & 8 associates3 ,we 7 guileless m5 absorb$ 9 seek+ a solution = ! problems ( life4 ,nor1 z social re=m]s at lea/1 7 we giv5 ov] to !ories altoge!r wrong4 ,! con/ant recurr5ce ( simil> epo*s ( social agitation s9ce !n1 & ! pres5t enorm\s developm5t ( ! monopolies :i* we resi/$ 9 _! v infancy1 %[ t our =eca/ ( ! future 0 n :olly vision>y4 ,! om9\s outlook ( popul> politics at ! pres5t mom5t pla9ly %[s t legislation su* z we !n propos$1 & su* z 0 !n )9 ! easy rea* ( ,/ate & national au?ority1 w\ld h =e/all$ difficulties ^: settlem5t at ?is day ?reat5s a dang]\s di/urbance ( public ord]4 ,we dwell on 8 political consi/5cy1 h[ev]1 only because x af=ds an evid5ce ( t unity ( "* :i* 0 always recogniz$ 9 ,fa!r ,heck] by ^? :o knew him be/4 ,*ange 9 him1 9 :atev] direction x seem$ to proce$1 meant prim>ily ! dropp+ (f ( accid5tal excresc5ces4 ,!re 0 no?+ radical 9 x4 ,:at he once held ) ! settl$ allegiance ( 8 intellig5ce he held always1 add+ to or develop+ x fur!r z fa/ z ! cl\ds 7 bl[n away f 8 m5tal horizon4 ,f ! /&po9t ( p]sonal exp]i5ce he c\ld fairly criticise1 z he did 9 conv]sation "s few ye>s be=e 8 dea?1 ,c>d9al ,newman's dictum t conv]sion is a leap 9 ! d>k4 ,i say1 he w5t on1 t x is a leap 9 ! light4 ,into ! light1 b ?r\gh ! d>k1 0 sugge/$ 9 reply4 ,no1 he answ]$4 ,if "o arrives at a recognition ( ! tru? ( ,ca?olic doctr9e ?r\gh "o or o!r =m ( ,prote/ant or?odoxy1 !n ! difficulties ( ord9>y controv]sy w inde$ leave him to ! v end 9 ! d>k4 ,b if he comes to ! ,*ur* ?r\gh ! work+ & ! results ( natural reason1 x is light all ! way1 & to ! v end4 ,i _h ?is out ) ,c>d9al ,newman p]sonally1 & he agre$ t ,i 0 "r4 ,x is true t 8 views 7 rectifi$ :5 he ent]$ ! ,*ur*1 & t :5 once 9 x he 0 ev] acquir+ new tru? & new views ( tru?4 ,b 8 "* nev] *ang$4 ,he 0 a lum9\s example ( ! tru? ( ! say+ t ! *ild is fa!r to ! man1 s (t5 app>5tly falsifi$ by exp]i5ce4 ,boy & man1 ! prom95t *>act]i/ic ( 8 m9d 0 a cle> p]ception ( fundam5tals & a disreg>d ( non-ess5tials 9 ! :ole doma9 ( life4 ,to rev]se a famili> maxim1 ,take c>e ( ! doll>s & ! c5ts w take c>e ( !mselves1 might describe 8 plan ( m5tal economy4 ,to ! small co9 ( discussion 9 any field ( inquiry he paid little att5tion4 ,"o :o knew him _m ye>s has (t5 he>d him say1 ,emphasize ! univ]sal always4 ,he 0 a tea*] by natural vocation4 ,no soon] 0 he satisfi$ t he knew any?+ ( g5]al mom5t ?an he felt press$ to imp>t 8 k4 ,contact ) him c\ld nev] be simply = acqua9tance' sake2 /ill less = an idle comp>ison ( views4 ,:ile no man c\ld be m frank 9 ! admission ( a lack ( data on :i* to base an op9ion 9 matt]s ( fact1 or a lack ( illum9ation on affairs ( conduct or practical direction1 :5 su* exi/$1 yet to be c]ta9 01 to him1 ! self-lum9\s gu>antee ( 8 mission to in/ruct4 ,b until t c]ta9ty 0 atta9$1 9 a mann] satisfactory to bo? ! intellectual & ! e?ical sides ( 8 nature1 he 0 sil5t4 ,z a prie/1 ?\gh he und]took to tea* anybody & ev]ybody1 yet he c\ld seldom h giv5 ! impression ( desir+ to impose 8 p]sonal views1 simply z su*4 ,8 vital p]ception t !re c be no?+ private 9 tru? %one ?r\gh 8 spee* too pla9ly = s gross a misconception to be easily made by c&id m9ds4 ,! fact is t ! community ( spiritual goods 0 vividly realiz$ by him1 & 9 good fai? he cr$it$ all m5 ) a long+ l 8 own to see ?+s z !y really are4 ,z he _h by nature a v k9dly mann]1 b5ignant & *e]ful1 ! av]age man readily submitt$ to 8 influ5ce4 ,9 8 prime he 0 always a mo/ successful & popul> prea*] & lectur]1 f ! comb9$ effect ( ?is e>ne/ness ( conviction & 8 p]sonal magnetic quality4 ,m5 ^: m5tal *>act]i/ics resembl$ 8 became1 soon or late1 8 en?usia/ic disciples1 & z to o!rs1 al?\gh at fir/ "s 7 incl9$ to suspect him1 _m ( !m end$ by becom+ 8 w>m fri5ds4 ,x is 9 ?is light t we mu/ view ! precoci\s ef=ts ( ! "y politician4 ,no?+ 0 fur!r f 8 ?\ghts at any "t ?an to employ politics z a means to any private end4 ,al?\gh we h already quot$ him z say+ t he always felt b\nd to dem& "s good reason :y he %\ld n use all ?+s lawfully 81 & enjoy to ! full e innoc5t pleasure1 yet t dem& 0 made solely 9 ! int]e/s ( human fre$om1 nev] 9 t ( self-indulg5ce4 ,he seems to h be5 ascetic by nature--a ,/oic1 n an ,epicurean1 by ! v make-up ( 8 p]sonality4 ,! read] w see ?is m cle>ly z we pass on to ! succe$+ phases ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s int]ior life4 ,b we _c leave ! /atem5t ev5 "h )\t expla9+ t we use ! ^w ascetic 9 its prop] s5se1 to connote ! rightful dom9ance ( reason ov] appetite1 ! supremacy ( ! high] ov] ! l[]2 n ! jurisdiction ( ! judge ov] ! crim9al4 ,9 8 case1 dur+ ! great] "p ( 8 life1 ! adju/m5t ( ! high] & l[]1 ! re/ra9t he plac$ ^u ! bea/ 9 view ( ! elevation due to ! man1 0 nei!r conceiv$ nor felt z punitive4 ,we %all see lat] on h[ ,god f9ally subject$ him to a discipl9e s corrective z to be ackn[l$g$ by him z judicial4 ,isaac ,heck] ?rew himself into public que/ions1 !n1 because1 be+ a workman1 he believ$ he saw ways by :i* ! work+ classes might be morally & socially elevat$4 ,he want$ = 8 class :at he want$ = himself4 ,to get 8 views into %ape1 to press !m ) all 8 =ce :5ev] & :]ev] an opportunity pres5t$ itself1 0 = him ! inescapable consequ5ce ( t belief4 ,l 8 great patron1 ,/4 ,paul1 ,:at wilt ,?\ h me to d8 0 always 8 fir/ "q aft] 8 own illum9ation _h be5 grant$4 ,!re is a note 9 ! collection ( private memor&a t has be5 pres]v$1 9 :i*1 allud+ to ! pa9ful /ruggles :i* prec$$ 8 cle> recognition t ! doctr9es ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* af=d$ ! adequate solution ( all 8 difficulties1 he says t 8 int]ior suff]+s 7 s great t ! "q ) him 0 :e!r ,i %\ld dr[n myself 9 ! riv] or dr[n my long+s & d\bts 9 a c>e] ( wild ambition4 ,/ill1 to ^? :o knew him well1 x is impossible to ?9k ( him z ev] capable ( any ambition :i* _h n an end comm5surate ) mank9d itself4 ,to elevate m51 to g up ) !m1 n above !m1 01 f fir/ to la/1 ! scope ( 8 desire4 ,! nature ( 8 surr\nd+s 9 y\?1 8 p]sonal exp]i5ce ( ! h>d%ips ( ! poor] classes1 8 int]c\rse ) radical sociali/s1 toge!r ) ! incomplete "* ( ! religi\s tra9+ giv5 him1 made him at fir/ look on politics z a possible & probable means to ?is desirable end4 ,b he 0 too s5sibly impell$ by ! ,div9e impulse t[>d p]sonal p]fection1 & too inflexibly hone/ ) himself1 n to come e>ly to a ?or\gh realization1 on "o h& ( ! fact t man _c1 unaid$1 rise above 8 natural level1 &1 on ! o!r1 t no conceivable amelioration ( m]ely social conditions c\ld satisfy 8 aspirations4 ,& if n 81 h[ ^? ( o!r m58 ,"o ?+ t becomes evid5t 9 /udy+ ?is p]iod ( ,isaac ,heck]'s life is ! fact t 8 acqua9tance ) ,dr4 ,br[nson m>ks a turn+-po9t 9 8 views1 8 op9ions1 8 :ole attitude ( m9d t[>d our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,until !n ! ,savi\r ( m5 _h be5 repres5t$ to him exclusively z a rem$y aga9/ ! fe> ( hell2 ,8 use seem$ to be to furni% a ,div9e po9t to :i* m5 might "w !mselves up by an emotional process result+ 9 an assurance ( =giv5ess ( s9 & a secure hope ( heav54 ,*ri/ianity1 t is to say1 _h be5 pres5t$ to him "u ! =m ( ,me?odism4 ,! result _h be5 :at might h be5 anticipat$ 9 a nature s av]se to emotional excitem5t & possess+ s little consci\sness ( actual s94 ,drawn to ,god z he _h always be5 by love & aspiration1 he 0 n z yet s5sible ( any gulf :i* ne$$ to be bridg$ betwe5 him & 8 ,creator2 h5ce1 to pres5t ,*ri/ solely z ! ,victim1 ! ,expiatory ,sacrifice dem&$ by ,div9e ,ju/ice1 0 to make ,him1 if n impossible1 yet premature to a p]son l him4 ,meantime1 :at he saw & he>d all ar\nd him1 pov]ty1 inequality1 gre$1 %iftlessness1 l[ views ( life1 ceaseless & poorly remun]at$ toil1 made incessant dem&s ^u him4 ,^! ?+s he knew by actual contact1 by physical1 m5tal1 & moral exp]i5ce1 z a man kn[s by t\* & ta/e & smell4 ,m5's suff]+s1 long+s1 /ruggles1 disappo9tm5ts _h be5 e>ly ?ru/ ^u him z a p]sonal & mo/ weighty burd52 & ! only relief yet (f]$ 0 ! ,*ri/ ( emotional ,me?odism4 ,to a nature m op5 to temptation on its l[] side1 & h5ce m consci\s ( its radical limitations1 ev5 ?is defective pres5tation ( ! ,r$eem] ( m5 might h appeal$ pr(\ndly4 ,b ,isaac ,heck]'s problems 7 at ?is "t ma9ly social2 z1 inde$1 to use ! ^w 9 a l>ge s5se1 !y rema9$ until ! end4 ,n[1 ,prote/antism is ess5tially unsocial1 be+ an extravagant =m ( individualism4 ,its ,*ri/ deals ) m5 ap>t f ea* o!r & furni%es no cohesive elem5t to humanity4 ,! validity & necessity ( religi\s organization z a moral =ce ( ,div9e appo9tm5t is t "o ( ! ,ca?olic pr9ciples :i* x has f ! beg9n+ mo/ vehem5tly reject$4 ,z a negative =ce its ess5ce is a prote/ aga9/ organic ,*ri/ianity4 ,z a positive =ce x is simply m51 tak5 "o by "o1 deal+ sep>ately ) ,god conc]n+ matt]s /rictly p]sonal4 ,true1 x is a fundam5tal v]ity t m5 mu/ deal individually ) ,god2 b ! ext]nal te/ t _! deal+s ) ,him h be5 efficaci\s1 & _! inspirations valid1 is furni%$ by ! fact ( _! incorporation into ! organic life ( ,*ri/5dom4 ,z ,/4 ,paul expresses x3 ,= z ! body is "o1 & ha? _m memb]s2 & all ! memb]s ( ! body1 :]eas !y are _m1 are yet "o body1 s also is ,*ri/4 ,= 9 "o ,_s 7 we all baptiz$ into "o body1 :e!r ,jews or ,g5tiles1 :e!r bond or free1 & 9 "o ,_s h we all be5 made to dr9k499 99 ,i ,cor4 #ab3ab1 #ac4 ,x is pla91 !n1 t a religion su* z ,prote/antism1 :i* is unsocial & dis9tegrat+ by virtue ( its antagoni/ic =ces1 c contribute little to ! solution ( social problems4 ,ev5 :5 n actively reject$ by m5 deeply int]e/$ 9 su* problems1 x is tol]ably sure t x w be practically ignor$ z a work+ factor 9 _! public relations ) _! fell[s4 ,religion w rema9 ! n>r[ly p]sonal matt] x began2 *iefly an affair = ,sundays2 be/ att5d$ to 9 "o's pew 9 *ur* or at ! family alt>4 ,probably x may rea* ! %op1 ! c\nt]1 & ! scales2 n s c]ta9ly ! factory1 ! m9e1 ! political plat=m1 & ! ballot4 ,if ,*ri/ianity _h nev] pres5t$ itself "u any o!r aspect ?an ?is to ,isaac ,heck]1 x is c]ta9 t x w\ld nev] h obta9$ 8 allegiance4 ,yet x is equally c]ta9 t he nev] reject$ ,*ri/ "u any aspect 9 :i* ,he 0 pres5t$ to him4 ,ev5 conc]n+ ! p]iod ( 8 life ) :i* we are n[ engag$1 & 9 :i* we h already repres5t$ him z hav+ lo/ hold ( all di/9ctively ,*ri/ian doctr9es1 we mu/ emphasize ! precise words we h employ$4 ,he lo/ hold2 t 0 because 8 orig9al grasp 0 weak4 ,:ile no au?oritative dogmatic tea*+ _h giv5 him an ev5 approximately full & def9ite idea ( ! ,god-man1 ,8 p]sonality1 ,8 "*1 & ,8 mission1 ! fragm5t>y tru?s (f]$ him _h made ,8 influ5ce seem re/rictive r ?an lib]ative ( human en]gies4 ,yet ev5 s he _h n delib]ately turn$ 8 back ^u ,him1 ?\gh 8 t5d5cy at ?is "t 0 d\btless t[>d simple ,!ism4 ,he _h begun to ignore ,*ri/ianity1 simply because 8 own problems 7 dom9antly social1 & or?odox ,prote/antism1 ! only =m ( religion :i* he knew1 _h no social =ce correspond+ to its pret5sions & dem&s4 ,n[1 ^u ?is /ate ( m9d ! tea*+ ( ,dr4 ,br[nson came l se$ ^u a fall[ soil4 ,l t :i* prec$$ x1 x err$ r by defect ?an by actual or1 at any rate1 by wilful deviation f true doctr9e4 ,isaac ,heck] met = ! fir/ "t 9 ,ore/es ,br[nson an expon5t ( ,jesus ,*ri/ z ! great ,b5efactor & ,uplift] ( ! human race 9 ?is pres5t life4 ,dr4 ,br[nson has himself giv5 a /atem5t ( ! views :i* he held & inculcat$ betwe5 #ahcd & #ahdc--:i* includes ! p]iod we are at pres5t consid]+--& x is s brief & to ! po9t t we _c d bett] ?an to quote x3 ,i f\nd 9 me1 he writes 7,! ,conv]t1p4 #aaa71 c]ta9 religi\s s5tim5ts t ,i c\ld n efface2 c]ta9 religi\s beliefs or t5d5cies1 ( :i* ,i c\ld n dive/ myself4 ,i reg>d$ !m z a law ( my nature1 z natural to man1 z ! noble/ "p ( our nature1 & z su* ,i *]i%$ !m2 b z ! expression 9 me ( an objective _w1 ,i seldom pond]$ !m4 ,i f\nd !m univ]sal1 manife/+ !mselves1 9 "s =m1 :]ev] man is f\nd2 b ,i receiv$ !m1 or suppos$ ,i receiv$ !m1 on ! au?ority ( humanity or human nature1 & pr(ess$ to hold no religion except t ( humanity4 ,i _h become a believ] 9 humanity1 & put humanity 9 ! place ( ,god4 ,! only ,god ,i recogniz$ 0 ! div9e 9 man1 ! div9ity ( humanity1 "o alike ) ,god & ) man1 :i* ,i suppos$ to be ! real mean+ ( ! ,*ri/ian doctr9e ( ! ,inc>nation1 ! my/]y ( ,emmanuel1 or ,god ) u--,god manife/ 9 ! fle%4 ,!re may be an unmanife/$ ,god1 & c]ta9ly is2 b ! only ,god :o exi/s = u is ! ,god 9 man1 ! active & liv+ pr9ciple ( human nature4 ,i reg>d$ ,jesus ,*ri/ z div9e 9 ! s5se 9 :i* all m5 are div9e1 & human 9 ! s5se 9 :i* all m5 are human4 ,i took him z my model man1 & reg>d$ him z a moral & social re=m]1 :o s\ght1 by tea*+ ! tru? "u a religi\s envelope1 & practis+ ! highe/ & pure/ morality1 to meliorate ! e>?ly condition ( mank9d2 b ,i saw no?+ miracul\s 9 8 conception or bir?1 no?+ sup]natural 9 8 p]son or "*1 9 8 life or doctr9e4 ,he came to r$eem ! _w1 z does e great & good man1 & des]v$ to be held 9 univ]sal honor & e/eem z "o :o rema9$ firm to ! tru? amid e trial1 & f9ally di$ on ! cross1 a m>tyr to 8 love ( mank9d4 ,z a social re=m]1 z "o devot$ to ! progress & well-be+ ( man 9 ?is _w1 ,i ?\ght ,i might lik5 myself to him & call myself by 8 "n4 ,i call$ myself a ,*ri/ian1 n because ,i took him = my ma/]1 n because ,i believ$ all he believ$ or taught1 b because1 l him1 ,i 0 labor+ to introduce a new ord] ( ?+s1 & to promote ! happ9ess ( my k9d4 ,i us$ ! ,bible z a good ,prote/ant1 took :at c\ld be accommodat$ to my purpose1 & pass$ ov] ! re/1 z belong+ to an age n[ happily outgr[n4 ,i foll[$ ! example ( ! c>nal ,jews1 & gave an e>?ly s5se to all ! promises & prophecies ( ! ,messias1 & look$ = my rew>d 9 ?is _w4 ,! passages we h italiciz$ 9 ?is extract may g to %[ h[ f> ,dr4 ,br[nson himself 01 at ?is p]iod1 f be+ able to give any b ! evasive answ] he actually did give to ! se>*+ philosophical que/ions put by 8 y\?ful admir]4 ,b x is n easy1 especially 9 ! light ( ,isaac ,heck]'s subsequ5t exp]i5ces1 to ov]e/imate ! influ5ce :i* ?is new pres5tation ( our ,savi\r _h ^u ! developm5t ( 8 m9d & "*4 ,= reasons :i* we h tri$ to indicate by a brief description ( "s ( 8 life-long int]ior traits1 ! ord9>y ,prote/ant view1 re/rict$ & n>r[1 :i* repres5ts ,jesus ,*ri/ m]ely z ! appo9t$ ?\gh volunt>y ,victim ( ! ,div9e wra? aga9/ s91 _h be5 press$ ^u him prematurely4 ,n[ ,he 0 held up to him1 & by a man :o 0 9 _m ways sup]ior to all o!r m5 ! boy _h met1 z a great p]sonality1 altoge!r human1 inde$1 b /ill ! mo/ p]fect specim5 ( ! race2 ! supremely wor%ipful figure ( all hi/ory1 ^: life _h be5 giv5 to ! ass]tion ( ! dignity ( man & ! equality ( mank9d4 ,t human nature is good & t m5 are bre?r51 said ,dr4 ,br[nson1 0 ! !sis ( ,*ri/1 taught ?r\gh\t ,8 life1 seal$ by ,8 dea?4 ,! ,"n :i* is above all names became ?us 9 a new s5se a wat*word1 & ! ,gospels a treasury = t social apo/olate to :i* ,isaac ,heck] _h already devot$ himself ) an e>ne/ness :i* = "s ye>s made x seem religion en\gh = him4 ,s x has seem$ be=e 8 "t & s9ce to _m a b5evol5t dream]4 ,?\gh ! rites ( ! humanit>ian cult diff] ) its diff]5t prie/s1 its cre$ reta9s ev]y:]e & always its n>r[ id5tity4 ,b t all m5 are good1 or w\ld be s save = ! unequal pressure ( social conditions on !m1 is a conclusion :i* does n foll[ f ! s+le premise t human nature1 inasmu* z x is a nature & f ! h& ( ,god1 is ess5tially good4 ,! _w is flood$1 j at pres5t1 ) s*emes = insur+ ! p]fection & happ9ess ( m5 by remov+ s f> z possible all re/ra9ts ^u _! natural fre$om2 & :e!r ?is is to be accompli%$ ) ,tol/oi1 by r$uc+ wants to a m9imum & aboli%+ money2 or by e/abli%+ clubs = ! promotion ( culture & organiz+ a social army :i* %all de/roy pov]ty by mak+ money pl5ty1 appe>s a m]e matt] ( detail--at all ev5ts to dream]s & to noveli/s4 ,b to m5 :o are 9 h>d e>ne/ ) !mselves1 m5 :o h n tak5 _! s\ls 9 va9 nor sworn deceitfully1 ei!r to _! neighbor or ab\t him1 c]ta9 o!r tru?s conc]n+ human nature besides t ( its ess5tial goodness are sure to make !mselves evid5t1 soon or late4 ,& among ^! is t ( its radical insuffici5cy to its own ne$s4 ,x is a rational nature1 & x seeks ! ,supreme ,reason1 if only = its own self-explication4 ,x is a nature :i*1 :]ev] f\nd1 is f\nd 9 ! attitude ( adoration1 & nei!r 9 ! individual man nor 9 humanity at l>ge is !re any ,div9ity :i* responds to wor%ip4 ,x is impossible to say j :5 ,isaac ,heck]'s appreciation ( ?is tru? became int5sely p]sonal & cle>1 b x is easy to make a tol]able approximation to ! "t4 ,he w5t to ,brook ,f>m 9 ,janu>y1 #ahdc1 r m ?an eight ye>s aft] 8 fir/ meet+ ) ,dr4 ,br[nson4 ,x 0 by ! advice ( ! latt] t he made ?is fir/ decisive break f 8 =m] life4 ,f ! "t :5 _! acqua9tance began1 ,isaac appe>s to h tak5 up ! /udy ( philosophy 9 good e>ne/1 & to h f\nd 9 x an outlet = 8 en]gies :i* ins5sibly dim9i%$ 8 absorption 9 social politics4 ,we h a glimpse ( him knead+ at ! d\gh-tr\gh ) ,kant's ,critique ( ,pure ,reason fa/5$ up on ! wall be=e him1 s t he might lose no "t 9 m]ely manual labor4 ,fi*te & ,hegel succe$$ ,kant1 all ( !m philosoph]s ^: "m-tongue 0 likewise 8 own1 & ^: comb9$ influ5ce put him f>!r (f ?an ev] f ! solution ( t fundam5tal d\bt :i* con/antly grew m p]plex+ & m pa9ful4 ,we f9d him hir+ a seat 9 ! ,unit>ian ,*ur* ( ! ,messiah1 :]e ,orville ,dewey 0 !n prea*+1 & walk+ e ,sunday a di/ance ( ?ree miles f ! foot ( ,rutg]s ,/reet1 because he 0 a sm>t fell[1 & ,i enjoy$ li/5+ to him4 ,did ,i believe 9 ,unit>ianism8 ,no6 ,i believ$ 9 no?+4 ,8 active p>ticipation 9 local politics did n cont9ue ?r\gh\t all ^! ye>s4 ,8 belief 9 c&idates & p>ties z in/rum5ts to be reli$ on = social purification receiv$ a f9al bl[ v e>ly--possibly be=e he 0 entitl$ to ca/ a vote4 ,! ,work+m5 _h made a /rong ticket "o ye>1 & !re seem$ e probability ( _! c>ry+ x4 ,b on ! eve ( ! election half ( _! c&idates sold out to "o ( ! oppos+ p>ties4 ,:at o!r results ?is trea*]y may h _h is a "q :i*1 =tunately1 does n conc]n u1 b x dispell$ "o ( ! /ronge/ ( ,isaac ,heck]'s y\?ful illusions4 ,he cont9u$1 nev]!less1 to prove ! s9c]ity ) :i* 8 views on social que/ions 7 held1 by do+ all t lay 9 8 p[] to bett] ! condition ( ! m5 9 ! employm5t ( 8 bro!rs & himself4 ,aft] he pass$ 8 majority 8 int]e/ 9 ! bus9ess decl9$ rapidly1 & x is impossible to d\bt t "o ( ! *ief reasons :y x did s is to be s\ght 9 8 *ang+ convictions z to ! mann] 9 :i* bus9ess 9 g5]al %\ld be c>ri$ on4 ,al?\gh 9 accept+ ,*ri/ z 8 ma/] & model he _h z yet no belief 9 ,him z m ?an ! mo/ p]fect ( human be+s1 yet1 ev5 s1 ,isaac ,heck]'s s9c]ity & simplicity 7 too great to p]mit him to foll[ 8 lead] at a purely conv5tional di/ance4 ,d y "k1 he said long aft]w>ds1 ! ?\ght t fir/ loos5$ me f ! life ,i l$8 ,h[ c ,i love my fell[-m5 & yet get ri* by ! sweat ( _! br[s8 ,i c\ldn't d x4 ,y are n a ,*ri/ian1 & c't call y\rself "o1 ,i said to myself1 if y d t4 ,! hea!ni% selfi%ness ( bus9ess competition />t$ me away f ! _w4 ,if he _h receiv$ a ,ca?olic tra9+1 ,isaac ,heck] w\ld soon h recogniz$ t he 0 be+ drawn t[>d ! practice ( t c\nsel ( p]fection :i* ,/4 ,paul embodies to ,/4 ,timo?y 9 ! words3 ,hav+ food & :]e) to be cov]$1 ) ^! we are cont5t499 ,c\ld he h s\ght at ?is "t ! advice ( "o famili> ) int]nal ways1 he mu/ h be5 caution$ aga9/ t fir/ error to :i* ^? s drawn are liable1 ( suppos+ t ?is call is common & imp]ative1 & c nev] fail to be he>d )\t "s m or less wilful clos+ ( ! e>s4 ,?\gh ! ,heck] bro!rs 71 & ev] cont9u$ to be1 m5 ( ! highe/ bus9ess integrity1 & ?\gh !re exi/$ betwe5 !m a cordial affection1 :i* 0 int5sifi$ to an extraord9>y degree 9 ! case ( ,george & ,isaac1 yet ! unfitness ( ! latt] = ord9>y trade grew increas+ly evid5t1 & to himself pa9fully s4 ,! tru? is1 t 8 ideas ( conduct+ bus9ess w\ld h l$ to ! di/ribution ( pr(its r ?an to _! accumulation4 ,if he c\ld make ! bake-h\se & ! %op into a s*ool = ! atta9m5t ( an ideal t _h begun to hov]1 half-veil$1 9 ! air above him1 he saw 8 way to /ay+ :]e he 02 b n o!rwise4 99 ,i ,timo?y #f3h4 ,9 ! autumn ( #ahdb !re came ^u him c]ta9 s+ul> int5sifications ( ?is disquiet ) himself & 8 surr\nd+s4 ,9 ! j\rnal begun ! foll[+ spr+1 he s frequ5tly & s explicitly ref]s to ^! occurr5ces1 n[ speak+ ( !m z dreams :i* _h a great effect ^u my "*2 & aga91 specializ+ & fully describ+ "o1 z some?+ n dream$1 b se5 :5 awake1 :i* left an indelible impression my m9d1 wean+ x at once & = ev] f all possibility ( natural love & m>riage1 t ! integrity ( any n>rative ( 8 life w\ld dem& "s recognition ( !m4 ,8 own comm5t1 9 ! di>y1 w n be )\t int]e/ & value1 bo? z be>+ on mu* t foll[s1 & z conta9+ all t ne$ be said 9 explanation ( ! pres5t ref]5ce to su* exp]i5ces3 ,april #bd1 #ahdc4--4 4 4 ,h[ c ,i d\bt ^! ?+s8 ,say :at may be said1 /ill !y h to me a reality1 a practical good be>+ on my life4 ,!y are impressive in/ructors1 ^: tea*+s are giv5 9 su* a real mann] t !y influ5ce me :e!r ,i w\ld or n4 ,real pictures ( ! future1 z actual1 nay1 m s ?an my pres5t activity4 ,if ,i %\ld n foll[ !m ,i am altoge!r to blame4 ,i c h no su* advis] ^u e>?2 none c\ld impress me s /rongly1 ) su* peculi> effect1 & at ! precise "t mo/ ne$$4 ,:]e my natural /r5g? is n en\gh1 ,i f9d !re comes =eign aid to my assi/ance4 ,is ! ,"l in/ruct+ me = any?+8 ,i _h1 six mon?s ago1 ?ree or m dreams :i* _h a v great effect ^u my "*2 !y *ang$ x4 ,!y 7 ! embodim5t ( my pres5t 9 a great degree4 ,la/ ev5+'s 0 a w>n+ embodim5t ( a false activity & its consequ5ce1 :i* w pres]ve me1 "u ,god's assi/ance1 f fall+4 4 4 4 ,i see by x :]e ,i am2 x has made me pur]4 ,9 addition to ^! peculi> visitations1 & v probably 9 consequ5ce ( !m1 ,isaac's inw>d anxieties culm9at$ 9 prolong$ fits ( n]v\s depression1 & at la/ 9 repeat$ attacks ( illness :i* baffl$ ! m$ical skill call$ to 8 assi/ance4 ,t[>ds ,*ri/mas he w5t to ,*elsea to visit ,br[nson1 to :om he p>tially reveal$ ! /ate ( obscurity & di/ress 9 :i* he f\nd himself4 ,br[nson1 :o _h be5 "o ( ! orig9al promot]s ( ! exp]im5t 9 practical sociology at ,we/ ,roxbury1 advis$ a resid5ce at ,brook ,f>m z likely to af=d ! "y man ! leisure & opportunities = /udy :i* he ne$$ 9 ord] to come to a full und]/&+ ) himself4 ,he wrote to ,george ,ripley 9 8 behalf & lat] und]took to reconcile ! ,heck] h\sehold ) ,isaac's det]m9ation to g ?i!r4 ,x 0 dur+ 8 /ay at ,*elsea t ,isaac fir/ began pla9ly to acqua9t 8 family ) ! fact t 8 dep>ture meant some?+ m important ?an ! mod]ately prolong$ *ange ( sc5e & circum/ances :i* !y _h recogniz$ z ess5tial to 8 heal?4 ,we %all make abundant extracts f ! lett]s :i* beg9 at ?is date1 conv9c$ t 8 own words w n only af=d ! be/ evid5ce ( ! /r5g? ( ! int]ior pressure on him1 b w %[ also its unique & con/ant b5t4 ,our purpose is to %[1 9 ! mo/ explicit mann] possible1 fir/1 h[ irresi/ibly he 0 impell$ t[>d ! celibate life & ! practice ( pov]ty2 & second1 t 9 yield+ to ?is impulse1 he 0 also drawn away f 8 =m] view ( our ,savi\r1 z simply ! p]fect man1 to ! full acceptance ( ! sup]natural tru? t ,he is ! ,inc>nate ,god4 ,x is at ?is p]iod ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s life t we fir/ meet ) a positive int]f]5ce ( an extraord9>y k9d 9 ! plans & purposes ( 8 life4 ,_m m5 :o h outliv$ !m1 & settl$ d[n into respectable b 9 n[ise notable memb]s ( society1 h felt vague long+s & indef9ite aspirations t[>d a good beyond nature dur+ ! ,/orm & ,/ress p]iod ( _! y\?4 ,! record ( _! m5tal /ruggles gets into lit]ature ) comp>ative frequ5cy1 & sometimes becomes fam\s4 ,x has always a c]ta9 value1 if m]ely z contribut+ to psy*ological sci5ce2 b 9 any p>ticul> in/ance is ( pass+ int]e/ only1 unless x c be %[n to h be5 in/rum5tal 9 %ap+ ! subsequ5t c>e]4 ,! latt] 0 ! case ) ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,! extraord9>y influ5ces already m5tion$ cont9u$ to dom9ate 8 intellig5ce & 8 w1 sometimes )1 (t5] )\t1 explicit assignm5t ( any cause4 ,x is pla9 en\gh t1 up to ! "t :5 !y began1 he _h look$ =w>d to su* a future ( dome/ic happ9ess z hone/ "y fell[s 9 8 position commonly desire4 ,he 0 ! life ( ! family circle1 says "o :o knew ! ,heck] h\sehold intimately2 he lov$ 8 p1 & 0 lov$ by !m ) great int5sity1 & 8 go+ away mu/ h be5 mo/ pa9ful to him z well z to !m4 ,on ?is po9t ! memor&a1 s (t5 to be ref]r$ to1 conta9 "s words ( 8 own to ! same purport4 ,!y 7 spok5 e>ly 9 #ahhb3 ,y "k ,i _h to leave my bus9ess--a good bus9ess x 0 gett+ to be1 too4 ,i tell y1 x 0 agony to give ev]y?+ up--fri5ds1 prospects 9 life & old associates2 ?+s = :i* by nature ,i _h a v /rong atta*m5t4 ,b ,i c\ld n help x2 ,i 0 driv5 f x4 ,i want$ some?+ m2 some?+ ,i _h n be5 able to f9d4 ,yet ,i did n "k :at ,i want$4 ,i 0 simply 9 torm5t4 ,! tru? is t1 :ile he _h always *]i%$ ideals high] ?an are usual1 /ill !y 7 n su* z ne$ set him ap>t f ! common life ( m54 ,b n[ he became sudd5ly av]se f c]ta9 pursuits & pleasures1 n only good 9 !mselves1 b consonant to 8 previ\s dispositions4 ,! road to weal? lay op5 be=e him1 b 8 feet refus$ to tread x4 ,he 0 inv9cibly drawn to pov]ty1 solitude1 sacrifice2 modes ( life f :i* he %rank by nature1 & :i* l$ to no goal t he c\ld see or und]/&4 ,!re is no "n s descriptive ( su* impulses z sup]natural4 ,,*apt] ,,iv ,,l$ ,,by ,,! ,,_s ,,! e>lie/ ( ! lett]s s =tunately pres]v$ by ! affection ( ,isaac ,heck]'s k9dr$ is address$ to 8 "m1 f ,*elsea1 & be>s date ,decemb] #bd1 #ahdb4 ,aft] giv+ "s details ( 8 arrival1 & ( ! k9dly mann] 9 :i* he _h be5 receiv$1 he writes399 99 ,we h correct$ "s slight errors ( or?ography & punctuation 9 ^! e>ly lett]s4 ,!y 7 ( ! sort to be expect$ f a self-tra9$ y\?1 z yet little us$ to ! writt5 expression ( 8 ?\ghts4 ,!y soon disappe> almo/ entirely4 ,b z reg>ds y\r advice to write my ?\ghts to y1 t is an impossibility :i* ,i _c gov]n or control4 ,?is ought n to be s1 b s x is4 ,am ,i to blame8 ,i feel n4 ,& :at if ,i c\ld tell8 ,x might be only a deep dissatisfaction :i* c\ld n be made intelligible1 or at lea/ n be felt z x is felt by me4 ,let u be untr\bl$ ab\t x4 ,a little "t1 &1 ,i hope1 all w pass away1 & ,i be ! same z usual4 ,we all diff] a little1 at lea/ 9 our *>act]s2 h5ce !re is no?+ surpris+ if our exp]i5ces %\ld diff]4 ,i feel t a little "t w be my be/ rem$y1 :i* ,i tru/ we w await )\t mu* anxiety4 ,resignation is taught :5 we _c help ourselves4 ,take no?+ ,i h said disc\rag+ly4 ,turn fe>s into hopes & d\bts into fai?1 & we %all be bett] if n happi]4 ,!re is no use 9 all[+ our d\bts & fe>s to control u2 by fo/]+ !m we increase !m1 & we want all our "t = some?+ bett] & high]4 ,two days lat] he writes m fully1 & ?is lett] we %all give almo/ entire3 ,*elsea1 ,decemb] #bf1 #ahdb4--;,,bro!rs3 ,i want to write to y1 b :at is ! use ( scrawl+ on pap] if ,i write :at ,i d n feel--int5d8 ,x is worse ?an n writ+4 ,& yet :y ,i %\ld be backw>d ,i don't "k4 ,! *ange t ,i h und]gone has be5 s rapid & ( su* a k9d2 t may be ! reason4 ,i feel t z ,i n[ am p]haps y _c und]/& me4 ,i am afraid le/ y\r conduct w\ld be su* t "u pres5t circum/ances ,i c\ld n /& "u x4 ,d n misund]/& me4 ,if ,i h ev] appreciat$ any?+ 9 my life1 x is ! favor & indulg5t treatm5t y h %[n me 9 our bus9ess4 ,i "k t ,i h nev] done an equal %>e 9 ! "w :i* 0 = u all to d4 ,i h always be5 consci\s ( ?is4 ,i hope y w receive ?is z x is writt51 = ,i am op54 ,daily am ,i los+ t disposition :i* 0 attribut$ to me ( self-approval4 4 4 4 ,!re is no reason :y ,i %\ld di/ru/ y\r dispositions t[>d me b my own feel+s1 & x is ^! t h kept me back1 t & ! *ange my m9d is und]go+4 ,?is is s cont9u\s1 & at ! same "t s firmly fix$1 t ,i am unable to keep back any long]4 ,i _h hopes t my =m] life w\ld return1 s t ,i w\ld be able to g on z usual1 al?\gh ?is t5d5cy has always be5 gr[+ 9 me4 ,b ,i f9d m & m t x is n possible4 ,i w\ld g back if ,i c\ld1 b ! impossibility ( t ,i _c express4 ,to cont9ue z ,i am n[ w\ld keep me con/antly 9 an unsettl$ /ate ( heal?1 especially z my future appe>s to be op5+ be=e me ) cle>ness4 ,i say s9c]ely t ,i h lo/ all b ?is "o ?+1 & h[ %all ,i speak x8 ,my m9d has lo/ all disposition to bus9ess2 my hopes1 life1 exi/5ce1 are all 9 ano!r direction4 ,no "o kn[s h[ ,i tri$ to ex]t myself to "w1 or ! cause ( my inability4 ,i 0 consci\s ( ! cause1 b z x 0 suppos$ to be a physical "o1 ! reason ( x 0 s\ght =1 b to no purpose4 ,9 ! same circum/ances n[ ,i %\ld be worse4 ,:5 ,i say my m9d _c be occupi$ z =m]ly1 d n attribute x to my wi%es4 ,?is is :at ,i fe>2 x makes me almo/ despair1 makes me feel t ,i w\ld r die ?an live "u su* ?\ghts4 ,i nev] c\ld be happy if y ?\ght s4 ,my future w be my only evid5ce4 ,my exp]i5ce1 :i* is n[ my own evid5ce1 ,i _c give y4 ,to keep company ) females--y "k :at ,i mean--,i h no desire4 ,i h no ?\ght ( m>ry+1 & ,i feel an av]sion to company = su* an end4 ,9 my :ole life ,i h nev] felt less incl9$ to x4 ,if my disposition ran t way1 m>ry+ might lead me back to my old life1 b oh6 t is impossible4 ,to give up1 z ,i h to d1 a life :i* has (t5 be5 my highe/ aim & hope1 is done ) a s5se ( responsibility ,i nev] imag9$ be=e4 ,?is1 ,i am consci\s1 is no light ?\ght4 ,x lies deep] ?an myself1 & ,i h n ! p[] to control x4 ,i d n write ?is ) ease2 x is done 9 te>s1 & ,i h op5$ my m9d z ,i h n done be=e4 ,h[ all ?is w end ,i "k n1 b _c b tru/ ,god4 ,x is n my w b my de/9y1 :i* w n be "o ( ease & pleasure1 b "o :i* ,i contemplate z a p]petual sacrifice ( my pa/ hopes1 ?\gh ( a communion ,i _h nev] felt4 ,c ,i adopt a c\rse ( life to increase & fulfil my pres5t life8 ,i am unable to give ?is decision s+ly4 ,y w1 ,i hope1 accept ?is lett] 9 ! _s ,i h writt5 x4 ,i speak to y 9 a s5se ,i nev] h spok5 to y be=e4 ,9 ?is lett] ,i h op5$ z f> z ,i c\ld my inmo/ life4 ,my he>t is full & ,i w\ld say a great deal m4 ,truly1 a new life has op5$ to me1 & to turn backw>d w\ld be dea?4 ,n sudd5ly has x und]gone ?is *ange1 b x has come to t crisis :]e my decision mu/ be made2 h5ce am ,i =c$ to write ?is lett]4 ,= its answ] ,i %all wait ) int5se anxiety4 ,hop+ y w write soon1 my love to all4--,,isaac4 ,! next lett]1 ?\gh address$ to 8 bro!rs1 0 app>5tly int5d$ = ! :ole family1 & beg9s ) m ?an ,isaac's cu/om>y abruptness3 ,*elsea1 ,decemb] #bh1 #ahdb4--;,i w op5 my m9d s t y c h ! mat]ials to judge f z well z myself4 ,i feel unable to ! task ( judg+ alone correctly4 ,i h giv5 an acc\nt ( my /ate ( m9d 9 my =m] lett]1 b w add t :at is !re said describes a p]man5t /ate1 n a mom5t>y excitem5t4 ,y may ?9k t 9 a little "t ?is w\ld pass away1 & ,i w\ld be able to resume my =m] life2 or1 at lea/1 y c\ld s adapt ?+s at home t al?\gh ,i %\ld n precisely occupy myself z !n1 /ill x might be s arrang$ z to give me t :i* ,i feel necess>y 9 ord] to live some:at cont5t$4 ,i am sorry to say ,i c 9 no way conceive su* an arrangem5t ( ?+s at home4 ,:y8 ,i hate to say x1 yet we might z well come to an und]/&+4 ,i h gr[n out ( ! life :i* c be receiv$ ?r\gh ! accu/om$ *annels ( ! circle t 0 ar\nd me4 ,i am subject to ?\ghts & feel+s :i* ! o!rs _h no int]e/ 92 h5ce !y c\ld n be express$4 ,!re c be no ne$ to tell y ?is--y all mu/ h se5 x4 ,h[ c ,i /op my life f fl[+ on8 ,y mu/ see ! case ,i /& 94 ,d n ?9k ,i h less ( ! feel+s ( a bro!r & a son4 ,my he>t nev] 0 clos]1 n s close z x is n[ to y\rs4 4 4 4 ,d n ?9k ?is is imag9ation2 9 ?is ,i h _h too mu* exp]i5ce4 ,! life t 0 9 me _h none to commune )1 & ,i felt x 0 consum+ me4 ,i tri$ to express ?is 9 diff]5t ways obscurely1 b x appe>$ s+ul> & no "o und]/ood me4 ,?is 0 ! cause ( my wi%+ to g away1 hop+ ,i w\ld ei!r get cle> ( x or some?+ might turn up1 ,i knew n :at4 ,"o c\rse 0 advis$ by ! doctor1 & y all ?\ght z he did--t 0 to keep company ) ! int5tion ( gett+ m>ri$4 ,?is 0 n ! communion t ,i want$ or t 0 cong5ial to my life4 ,m>ry+ w\ld n1 ,i am conv9c$1 h _h any p]man5t effect4 ,x 0 n t :i* controll$ me1 !n or n[4 ,x is altoge!r diff]5t2 x is a life 9 me :i* requires altoge!r diff]5t circum/ances to live x4 ,?is is no dream2 or1 if x is1 !n h ,i nev] _h su* reality4 4 4 4 ,:5 ,i wrote la/ x /ruck me ,i might secure :at ,i ne$ at ,brook ,f>m1 b t w\ld dep5d greatly ^u h[ y answ] my lett]4 ,if y d z p]haps y may1 ,i w g & see :e!r ,i c\ld be satisfi$ & h[ x is1 & let y "k4 ,s f> _h ,i writt5 :5 y\r lett] came4 4 4 4 ,y appe> to ask ?is "q3 ,:at object h y 9 contemplation8 ,none fur!r ?an to live a life agreeable to ! m9d ,i h1 :i* ,i feel "u a necessity to d4 ,*elsea1 ,decemb] #cj1 #ahdb4--,,to ,,"m3 ,i am sorry to he> t y feel worri$4 ,my heal? is good1 ,i eat & sleep well4 ,t my m9d is n settl$1 or z x us$ to be1 is no reason to be tr\bl$1 = ,i hope x is n *ang+ = ! worse1 & ,i look =w>d to bright] days ?an we h se5 9 ^? t are gone4 ,i 0 consci\s my la/ lett] 0 n writt5 9 a mann] to give y ease2 b to break ^? old habits ( our accu/om$ communion 0 to me a s]i\s task1 & done "u a s5se ( duty1 to let y "k ! cause ( ! disease ,i 0 suppos$ to labor "u4 ,t is pa/ n[1 & ,i hope we %all und]/& ea* o!r1 & t our future w be smoo? & easy4 ,! ice has be5 brok54 ,t caus$ me "s pa9 b no regret1 & in/ead ( feel+ sorr[1 y w1 ,i hope1 be cont5t$ t ,i %\ld cont9ue ! pa? t w make me bett]4 ,conc]n+ ,isaac ,heck]'s resid5ce at ,brook ,f>m1 :i* 0 begun ab\t ! middle ( ! foll[+ ,janu>y1 we %all h m to say h]eaft]4 ,at pres5t our conc]n is *iefly ) ^? explanations ( 8 conduct & motives :i* ! anxieties ( 8 family cont9ually =c$ him to attempt4 ,!re is1 h[ev]1 among ! pap]s belong+ to ?is p]iod "o :i*1 al?\gh f\nd ) ! lett]s1 0 evid5tly s includ$ by mi/ake1 & at "s lat] date4 ,x is an outp\r+ /ill m intimate ?an he 0 able to make = ! enlight5m5t ( o!rs1 & is ! fir/ ve/ige ( a di>y :i* has be5 f\nd4 ,b x seems pla9 t 8 long+ = :at he cont9ually calls communion1 & ! ef=t to div9e ! w ( ,provid5ce 9 8 reg>d1 mu/ frequ5tly h urg$ him to t introspective self-contemplation s common to natures l 8 be=e _! "t = action has arriv$4 ,we make "s brief extracts f ?is docum5t :i* illu/rates1 /ill m pla9ly ?an any ( ! lett]s1 ! fact t ! int]ior pressure to :i* he 0 subject$ _h = its uni=m t5d5cy & result 8 vivid realization ( ! ,inc>nation ( ,god 9 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,x is writt5 9 a f9e1 close h& on a %eet ( lett]-pap]1 :i* x entirely cov]s1 & be>s date ,janu>y #aj1 #ahdc3 ,c\ld ,i b reveal myself unto myself6 ,:at %all ,i say8 ,is life de> to me8 ,no4 ,are my fri5ds de> to me8 ,i c\ld suff] & die = !m1 if ne$ 71 b yet ,i h none ( ! old atta*m5t = !m4 ,i w\ld clasp all to my he>t1 love all = _! humanity1 b n z relatives or individuals4 4 4 4 ,"l1 if ,i am to be any?+1 ,i am1 ( all1 mo/ unfit = ! task4 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,:om %all ,i cry to b ,him :o has giv5 me life & plant$ ?is _s 9 me8 ,unto ,!e1 !n1 d ,i cry f ! dep?s ( my s\l = light to suff]4 ,if !re is any?+ = me to d1 :y ?is d>kness all ar\nd me8 ,i ask n to be happy4 ,i w =ego1 z ,i always _h a pres5tim5t ,i mu/ d1 all hopes :i* "y m5 ( my age are prone to picture 9 _! m9ds4 ,if only ,i c\ld h a ray ( light on my pres5t condition6 ,o ,"l6 op5 my eyes to see ! pa? ,?\ w\ld/ h me walk 94 4 4 4 ,jan4 #aa4--,true life is "o cont9u\s pray]1 "o unceas+ aspiration aft] ! holy4 ,i h no conception ( a life ins5sible to t :i* is n above itself l(ty4 ,i w\ld n take x on myself to say ,i h be5 'born aga91' b ,i "k t ,i h pass$ f dea? to life4 ,?+s bel[ h no hold ^u me fur!r ?an z !y lead to ?+s above4 ,x is n a moral re/ra9t t ,i h ov] myself1 b x is su* a *ange1 a conv]sion ( my :ole be+1 t ,i h no ne$ ( re/ra9t4 ,temptations /ill beset me--n s5sual1 b ( a k9d :i* seek to make me untrue to my life4 ,if ,i am n on my gu>d ,i become cold4 ,may ,i always be humble1 meek1 pray]ful1 op5 to all m54 ,light1 love1 & life ,god is always giv+1 b we turn our backs & w n receive4 4 4 4 ,:o c measure ! dep?s ( ,*ri/'s suff]+--alone 9 ! _w1 hav+ t :i* w\ld give life ev]la/+1 a heav51 to ^? :o w\ld receive x1 & yet despis$1 spit ^u1 reject$ ( m56 ,oh6 h[ sweet mu/ x h be5 to ,8 s\l :5 ,he f\nd ev5 "o :o w\ld accept a portion ( t preci\s gift :i* ,he came to ! _w to be/[6 ,well c\ld ,he say1 ',fa!r1 =give !m2 !y "k n :at !y d4' ,he w\ld give !m life1 b !y w\ld n receive4 ,he w\ld save !m1 b !y reject$ ,him4 ,he lov$ !m1 & !y despis$ ,him4 ,alas6 :o has measur$ ev5 9 a small degree ! love ( ,*ri/ & yet d5i$ ,8 sup]iority ov] man6 ,8 love1 goodness1 m]cy are unb\nd$4 ,o ,"l6 may ,i daily come into clos] communion ) ,?y ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,on ! #bb;d ( ,febru>y he addresses bo? ( 8 p>5ts 9 reply to a lett] s5t by 8 bro!r ,john1 detail+ "s ( _! tr\bles on ?is head4 ,he writes3 ,x is z great a difficulty = me to reconcile my be+ "h ) my s5se ( duty t[>ds y4 4 4 4 ,s9ce ,i mu/ speak1 let me tell y t ,i h at pres5t no disposition to return4 ,nei!r are ! circum/ances t surr\nd me n[ ^? :i* w give me cont5tm5t2 b ,i feel t ,i am "h z a tempor>y place1 & t by spr+ some?+ w turn up :i* ,i hope w be = ! happ9ess ( u all4 ,:at x w be ,i h n ! lea/ idea ( n[4 ,x is z impossible = me to give y an explanation ( t :i* has l$ me ( late z x w\ld be = a /rang]4 ,all be=e me is d>k1 ev5 z t is :i* leads me n[ & has l$ me be=e4 ,"o s5tim5t ,i h :i* ,i feel ,i _c imp>t to y4 ,x is t ,i am controll$4 ,=m]ly ,i c\ld act f int5tion1 b n[ ,i h no future to design1 no?+ 9 prospect1 & my pres5t action is f a pres5t cause1 n f any pa/4 ,h5ce x is t :ile my action may appe> to o!rs z design$1 to me x is unlook$-= & unacc\ntable4 ,i d n expect t o!rs c feel ?is z ,i d4 ,i am toss$ ab\t 9 a sea )\t a rudd]4 ,:at drives me onw>d1 & :]e ,i %all be driv51 is to me unkn[n4 ,my pa/ life seems to me l t ( ano!r p]son1 & my pres5t is l a dream4 ,:]e am ,i8 ,i "k n4 ,i h no p[] ov] my pres5t1 ,i d n ev5 "k :at x is4 ,:om c ,i f9d l myself1 :om c ,i speak to t w und]/& me8 ,?is makes me /ill1 lonely2 & ,i _c wi% myself out ( ?is /ate4 ,i h no w to d t--n t ,i h any desire to4 ,all ,i c say is t ,i am 9 x4 ,:at w\ld be ! effect ( necessity on me1 ,i "k n1 :e!r x w\ld lead me back or lead me on4 ,my feel+ ( duty t[>ds y is a cont9ual weight ^u me :i* ,i _c ?r[ (f--x is be/1 p]haps1 t ,i _c4 ,all appe>s to me z a seem+1 n a reality4 ,no?+ t\*es t life 9 me :i* is seek+ t :i* ,i "k n4 ,,to ,,george ,,heck]4--,brook ,f>m1 ,m>* #f1 #ahdc4--,:at 0 ! reason ( my go+1 or :at made me g8 ,! reason ,i am n able to tell4 ,b :at ,i felt 0 a d>k1 irresi/ible influ5ce ^u me t l$ me away f home4 ,:at x 0 ,i "k n4 ,:at keeps me "h ,i _c tell4 ,x is only :5 ,i /ruggle aga9/ x t a spell comes ov] me4 ,if ,i give up to x1 no?+ is ! matt] ) me4 ,b :5 ,i look to my pa/1 my duty t[>d y all1 & consid] :at ?is may lead me to1 & !n attempt to return1 ,i get into a /ate :i* ,i _c speak ( 4 4 4 ,by attempt to return ,i mean an attempt to return to my old life1 = s ,i h to call x--t is1 to get cle> ( ?is influ5ce4 ,& yet ,i h no w to w aga9/ x4 ,i d n desire x1 or its mode ( liv+1 & ,i am oppos$ to its t5d5cy4 ,:at be>+ ?is has ^u ! "q ( my com+ home y w p]ceive4 ,z soon z ,i c come1 ,i w4 ,if ,i %\ld d s n[1 x w\ld ?r[ me back to ! place f :i* ,i />t$4 ,is ?is fancy on my "p8 ,all ,i c say is t if s ! la/ n9e or t5 mon?s ( my life h be5 a fancy :i* is too deep = me to control4 ,aft] pay+ 8 family a visit 9 ,april1 he writes to !m on 8 return3 ,brook ,f>m1 ,april #ad1 #ahdc4--;,"h ,i am alone 9 my room once m4 ,i feel settl$1 & beg9 to live aga91 sep>at$ f ev]y?+ b my /udies & ?\ghts1 & ! feel+ ( gratitude t[>d y all = treat+ me s mu* bett] ?an ,i am aw>e ( ev] hav+ treat$ y4 ,may ,i ev] keep ?is s5se ( obligation & indebt$ness4 ,my pray] is1 t ! life ,i h be5 l$ to live ^! few mon?s back may prove to ! advantage ( u all 9 ! end4 ,i sometimes feel guilty because ,i did n attempt aga9 to try & labor ) y4 ,b ! p[] t kept me back1 its hold ^u me1 its /r5g? ov] me1 all t ,i am unable to communicate1 makes my situation appe> /range to o!rs1 & to myself irreconcilable ) my =m] /ate4 ,/ill1 ,i tru/ t1 9 a %ort p]iod1 all ?+s w take _! peaceful & ord]ly c\rse4 ,,to ,,george ,,heck]4--,brook ,f>m1 ,may #ab1 #ahdc4--;,h[ mu* ne>] to y ,i feel on acc\nt ( y\r good lett] y _c e/imate--ne>] ?an :5 we slept 9 ! same b$4 ,ne>ness ( body is no evid5ce ( ! di/ance betwe5 s\ls1 = ,i imag9e ,*ri/ lov$ ,8 "m v t5d]ly :5 ,he said1 ',woman1 :at h ,i to d ) !e8' ,i h felt1 "t & aga91 t ei!r ,i w\ld h to give up ! life t 0 /ruggl+ 9 me1 or )draw f bus9ess 9 ! way t we pursue x4 ,?is ,i _h long felt1 be=e ! p]iod came :i* sudd5ly ?rew me involunt>ily out ( x4 ,"h ,i am1 liv+ 9 ! pres5t1 )\t a :y or a :]e=e1 tru/+ t some?+ w %ape my c\rse intelligibly4 ,i am completely )\t object4 ,& :5 occasionally ,i em]ge1 if ,i may s speak1 into actual life1 ,i feel t ,i h dissipat$ "t4 ,a s5se ( guilt accompanies t ( pleasure1 & ,i return inw>dly into a deep]1 int5s] life1 break+ ^? t5d] roots :i* held me fa/ = a %ort p]iod to ! outw>d4 ,9 /udy only d ,i ent] ) :ol5ess2 no?+ else appe>s to take hold ( my life4 4 4 4 ,i am /ay+ "h1 int5tionally1 = a %ort p]iod4 ,:5 ! "t arrives 7= leav+7 heav5 kn[s :at ,i may d4 ,i am n[ p]fectly dumb be=e x4 ,p]haps ,i may return & ent] into bus9ess ) m p]sev]ance & indu/ry ?an be=e2 p]haps ,i may /ay "h2 x may be t ,i %all be l$ else:]e4 ,b !re is no utility 9 speculat+ on ! future4 ,if we liv$ z we %\ld1 we w\ld feel t we liv$ 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 )\t pa/ or future1 hav+ a full consci\sness ( exi/5ce1 liv+ ! 'et]nal life4' 4 4 4 ,george1 d n get too engross$ ) outw>d bus9ess4 ,r neglect a "p ( x = t :i* is immortal 9 its life1 incomp>able 9 its fulness4 ,x is a deep1 important tru?3 ',seek fir/ ! k+dom ( ,god1 & !n all ?+s w be add$4' ,9 hav+ no?+ we h all4 ,,to ,,mrs4 ,,heck]4--,brook ,f>m1 ,may #af1 #ahdc4--;,,de> ,,"m3 ,y w n take x unk9d1 my n writ+ to y be=e8 ,i am sure y w n1 = y "k :at ,i am4 ,daily ,i feel m & m indebt$ to y = my life1 especially :5 ,i feel happy & good4 ,h[ c ,i repay y8 ,z y1 no d\bt1 w\ld wi% me to-by becom+ bett] & liv+ z y h desir$ & pray$ t ,i %\ld1 :i* ,i tru/1 by ,div9e assi/ance1 ,i may4 ,"m1 ,i _c express ! dep? ( gratitude ,i feel t[>d y = ! t5d] c>e & lov+ discipl9e ) :i* y br\ght me up to manhood4 ,)\t x1 oh6 :at might ,i n h be58 ,! good t ,i h1 "u ,god1 ,i am consci\s t ,i am greatly indebt$ to !e =2 at times ,i feel t x is ?\ act+ 9 me1 & t !re is no?+ t c ev] sep>ate u4 ,a bond :i* is z et]nal z our immortality1 our life1 b9ds u toge!r & _c be brok54 ,"m1 t ,i %\ld be away f home at pres5t no d\bt makes y sorr[ful (t51 & y wi% me back4 ,let me tell y h[ x is ) me4 ,! life :i* surr\nds me 9 ,new ,york oppresses me1 contracts my feel+s1 & abridges my lib]ty4 ,bus9ess1 z x is n[ pursu$1 is a burd5 ^u my spiritual life1 & all its influ5ce hurtful to ! gr[? ( a bett] life4 ,?is ,i h felt = a long "t1 & feel x n[ m int5sely ?an be=e4 ,& ! society ,i _h !re 0 n su* z b5efit$ me4 ,my life 0 n increas$ by !irs1 & ,i 0 gradually ceas+ to be4 ,i 0 lonely1 fri5dless1 & )\t object 9 ?is _w1 :ile at ! same "t ,i 0 consci\s ( a great] degree ( activity ( m9d 9 ano!r direction4 ,^! causes /ill rema94 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,i feel fully consci\s ( ! importance ( mak+ any *ange 9 my life at my pres5t age--giv+ up ^? advantages :i* s _m desire2 z well z ! necessity ( be+ consid]ate1 prud5t1 & sl[ to decide4 ,i am aw>e t my future /ate "h1 & h5ce h]eaft]1 w greatly dep5d ^u ! /eps ,i n[ take1 & !re=e ,i w\ld d no?+ unadvis$ or ha/ily4 ,i w\ld n sacrifice et]nal = worldly life4 ,at pres5t ,i wi% to live a true life1 desir+ no?+ ext]nal1 see+ t ?+s ext]nal _c procure ^? ?+s = & 9 :i* ,i live4 ,i d n r5\nce ?+s1 b feel no incl9ation = !m4 ,all is indiff]5t to me--pov]ty or ri*es1 life or dea?4 ,i am loos$4 ,b d n on ?is acc\nt ?9k ,i am sorr[ful2 nay1 = ,i h no?+ to sorr[ =4 ,is !re no bright hope at a di/ance :i* *e]s me onw>d & beckons me to spe$8 ,i d>e n say4 ,sometimes ,i feel s--x is ! unutt]able4 ,yet ,i rema9 cont5t$ to be )\t spr+ or autumn1 y\? or age4 ,"o tie has be5 loos5$ aft] ano!r2 ! dreams ( my y\? h pass$ away sil5tly1 & ! visions ( ! future ,i !n beheld h vani%$4 ,i feel awak5$ z f a dream1 & l a %ad[ has my pa/ gone by4 ,) ! v]se at ! bottom ( ! picture y gave me1 ,i c say3 ',oh6 days t once ,i us$ to prize1 ,are ye =ev] gone8 ,! veil is tak5 f my eyes1 ,& n[ ,i /& alone4' ,b ,i w\ld n recall ^? by-gone days1 nor d ,i /& alone4 ,no6 ,out f ?is life w spr+ a high] _w1 ( :i* ! pa/ 0 b a weak1 fa9t %ad[4 ,,*apt] ,v ,,at ,,brook ,,f>m ,,! fam\s ?\gh %ort-liv$ community at ,we/ ,roxbury1 ,massa*usetts1 :]e ,isaac ,heck] made 8 fir/ trial ( ! common life1 0 />t$ 9 ! spr+ ( #ahda by ,george ,ripley & 8 wife1 ,na?aniel ,haw?orne1 ,john ,s4 ,dwight1 ,george ,p4 ,brad=d1 ,s>ah ,/]ns1 a niece ( ,george ,ripley's1 ,m>ianne ,ripley1 8 si/]1 & f\r or five o!rs ^: names we d n "k4 ,9 ,septemb] ( ! same ye> !y 7 jo9$ by ,*>les ,a4 ,dana1 n[ ( ! ,new ,york ,sun4 ,haw?orne's resid5ce at ! ,f>m1 commemorat$ 9 ! ,bli!dale ,romance1 _h t]m9at$ be=e ,mr4 ,dana's began4 ,! ,curtis bro!rs1 ,burrill & ,george ,william1 7 !re :5 ,isaac ,heck] came4 ,em]son 0 an occasional visitor2 s 0 ,m>g>et ,full]4 ,bronson ,alcott1 !n cogitat+ 8 own ephem]al exp]im5t at ,fruitl&s1 sometimes desc5d$ on ! gay community & 0 d\btless ,orphic at 8 leisure4 ,! association 0 ! outcome ( _m discussions :i* _h tak5 place at ,mr4 ,ripley's h\se 9 ,bo/on dur+ ! w9t] ( #ahdj-da4 ,among ! prom95t ,bo/onians :o took "p 9 ^! in=mal talks 7 ,!odore ,p>k]1 ,ad9 ,ball\1 ,samuel ,robb9s1 ,john ,s4 ,dwight1 ,w>r5 ,burton1 & ,ore/es ,br[nson4 ,ea* ( ^! m51 &1 if we d n mi/ake1 ,george ,ripley also1 presid$ at ! "t ov] "s religi\s body4 ,mr4 ,ball\1 :o 0 a ,univ]sali/ m9i/] ( mu* local r5[n1 01 p]haps1 ! only exception to ! prevail+ ,unit>ian complexion ( ! assembly4 ,! object ( _! discussions seems to h be51 9 a g5]al way1 ! necessity = "s social re=m :i* %\ld g to ! root ( ! comm]cial _s & ! contempt = c]ta9 k9ds ( labor s widely preval5t2 &1 9 a special way1 ! feasibility ( e/abli%+ at once1 on h[ev] small a scale1 a co-op]ative exp]im5t 9 family life1 hav+ = its ult]ior aim ! reorganization ( society on a less selfi% basis4 ,!y probably consid]$ t1 a beg9n+ once made by p ( _! /amp1 ! influ5ce ( _! example w\ld "w z a quick5+ leav54 ,!y hop$ to be ! mu/>d-se$ :i*1 plant$ 9 a cong5ial soil1 w\ld gr[ into a tree 9 ^: bran*es all ! birds ( ! air might dwell4 ,x 0 ! initial mis=tune ( ! ,brook-,f>m]s to e/abli% !mselves on a picturesque b gravelly & uncong5ial soil1 ^: pov]ty w5t v f> t[>d compass+ ! collapse ( _! und]tak+4 ,n all ( ! m9i/]s ^: names h j be5 m5tion$ 7 ( "o m9d1 ei!r z to ! special evils to be c\nt]act$ or ! rem$ies :i* might be t5tatively appli$4 ,?ree diff]5t associations took _! rise f among ?is h&ful ( e>ne/ seek]s aft] bett] social me?ods4 ,mr4 ,ball\1 :o head$ "o ( ^!1 believ$ t unity & cohesion c\ld be mo/ surely obta9$ by a frank av[al ( beliefs1 aims1 & practices1 to :i* all pres5t & future associates w\ld be expect$ to con=m4 ,mrs4 ,kirby1 ^: int]e/+ volume99 we h already quot$1 says t ! plat=m ( ?is p>ty b\nd !m to abolitionism1 anti-or?odoxy1 wom5's rights1 total ab/95ce1 & opposition to w>4 ,!y e/abli%$ !mselves at ,hop$ale1 ,massa*usetts1 :]e1 s f> z our k goes1 "s ve/ige ( !m may /ill rema91 ?\gh ! analogies & probabilities are all aga9/ su* a survival4 ,a second b& ( come-out]s1 z p us$ to be call$ 9 t day & region1 :5 !y ab&on$ ! common road = reasons n obvi\sly compulsory1 w5t to ,nor?ampton 9 ! same ,/ate1 & f !re into corporate obscurity4 99 ,ye>s ( ,exp]i5ce4 ,new ,york3 ,g4 ,p4 ,putnam's ,sons1 #ahhg4 ,mr4 ,ripley's s*eme 0 m ela/ic1 & if ! money basis ( ! association _h be5 m solid1 !re seems no reason on ! face ( ?+s :y ?is community at ,brook ,f>m might n h enjoy$ a mu* long] lease ( life4 ,x seems to h left a mo/ pleasant memory 9 ! m9ds ( all :o 7 ev] memb]s ( x4 ,9 matt]s ( belief & ( op9ion no h>d-&-fa/ l9es 7 drawn at any po9t4 ,9 matt]s ( conduct1 ! morality ( self-respect+ ,new-,engl&]s :o 7 at a f>!r remove f ,puritanic cre$s ?an f ,puritanic discipl9e1 0 reg>d$ z a suffici5t gu>antee ( social decorum4 ,( ! e>lie/ additions to ! co-op]ative h\sehold1 a spr9kl+ 7 already ,ca?olic2 o!rs1 includ+ ! wife & ! niece ( ! f\nd]1 aft]w>ds became s4 ,"s att5d$ or?odox ,prote/ant *ur*es2 ! majority 7 probably ,unit>ians4 ,discussion on all subjects appe>s to h be5 free1 frank1 & good-temp]$4 ,!re 0 no attempt made at any communism except t ( intellectual & social gifts & privileges4 ,!re 0 a common table1 & ,mrs4 ,kirby has giv5 u "s attractive glimpses ( ! good feel+1 & k9dly gayety1 & practical obs]vance ( ! precept to be> "o ano!r's burd5s :i* came into play ar\nd x4 ,= _m mon?s1 z no "o c\ld endure to h 8 equal s]ve him1 & all 7 equals1 !re 0 a con/ant gett+ up & d[n at table s t ea* might help himself4 ,aft]w>ds1 :5 decl9e _h already set 91 s f> z ! mat]ial basis ( ! und]tak+ 0 conc]n$1 & ^? :o _h its success mo/ at he>t _h begun to /udy ,f\ri] = fruitful sugge/ions1 ! fir/ practical h9t f t qu>t] result$ 9 ,mr4 ,dana's organiz+ a gr\p ( s]vitors4 ,^!1 writes ,mrs4 ,kirby199 compris$ f\r ( ! mo/ elegant y\?s at ! community--! son ( a ,l\isiana plant]1 a "y ,spani% hidalgo1 a rudim5t>y ,free-soil] f ,h+ham1 &1 if ,i rememb] rightly1 ,edw>d ,b>l[ 7! bro!r ( ,francis74 ,^!1 ) "o accord1 elect$ z *ief _! h&some & belov$ tea*]4 ,x is h>dly necess>y to obs]ve t ! bus9ess 0 h5ce=? att5d$ to ) su* c\rtly grace & su* promptness t ! new regime 0 applaud$ by e "o1 al?\gh x did appe> at fir/ z if we 7 all engag$ 9 act+ a play4 ,! gr\p1 ) _! admir$ *ief1 took d9n]1 :i* _h be5 kept w>m = !m1 aft]w>ds1 & 7 !mselves wait$ ^u ) ! utmo/ consid]ation1 b ,i confess ,i nev] c\ld get accu/om$ to ! new regulation4 99 ,ye>s ( ,exp]i5ce1 pp4 #agh1 #agi4 ,! wat*word ( ! place 0 frat]nity1 n communism4 ,p took up resid5ce at ,brook ,f>m on diff]5t t]ms4 ,"s paid a /ipulat$ bo>d1 & ?us fre$ !mselves f any obligatory %>e 9 ei!r dome/ic or out-door labor4 ,o!rs contribut$ small] sums & work$ out ! balance4 ,"s gave labor only1 z 0 ! case ) ,mrs4 ,kirby1 !n ,georgiana ,bruce1 an ,engli% girl ( /rong "*4 ,%e says %e agre$ to "w eight h\rs a day = h] bo>d & in/ruction 9 any bran*es ( /udy :i* %e elect$ to pursue4 ,z an illu/ration ( ! actual pov]ty to :i* ! community 7 soon r$uc$1 &1 moreov]1 ( ! l[ money value !y set on dome/ic labor1 we give ano!r *>act]i/ic passage f h] book4 ,! price ( full bo>d1 z we le>n f a bill s5t by ,mr4 ,ripley to ,isaac ,heck] aft] ! latt]'s f9al dep>ture f ! ,f>m1 0 five doll>s & fifty c5ts a week3 ,:5 a ye> _h elaps$ ,i f\nd my purse empty & my w>drobe mu* ! worse = we>4 ,z ,i 0 kn[n to be he>tily int]e/$ 9 ! new movem5t1 my case 0 tak5 "u consid]ation1 &1 ) ! und]/&+ t ,i 0 to add two m h\rs to my work+ day1 ,i 0 admitt$ z bona-fide memb] ( ! association 7:i* includ$ only a doz571 & 0 all[$ to draw on ! treasury = my v mod]ate necessities4 ,=ty doll>s a ye> w\ld cov] ^!1 writ+-pap] & po/age includ$4 ,! la/ item 0 no unimportant "o1 z ea* lett] co/ f t5 to fifty c5ts1 & money c\nt$ = m !n ?an n[4 ,i %\ld expla9 t = ! :ole ( "o w9t] !re rema9$ b two bonnets fit = city eyes among six ( u4 ,b ! be/ ( ^! 0 =c$ on :omev] 0 go+ to t[n4 ,z = be/ dresses1 a tw5ty-five c5t dela9e 0 held to be gorge\s app>el4 ,! g5tlem5 _h f\nd x desirable to adopt a tunic 9 place ( ! m exp5sive1 old-_w coat499 99 ,ye>s ( ,exp]i5ce1 p4 #acb4 ,! income ( ! association 0 d]iv$ f v>i\s s\rces o!r ?an ! prices paid = bo>d4 ,!re 0 a s*ool = "y *ildr51 presid$ ov] by ,mrs4 ,ripley1 assi/$ by v>i\s pupil-tea*]s1 :o ?us p>tially recomp5s$ ! community = _! own support4 ,fruit1 milk1 & vegetables1 :5 !re 7 any to sp>e1 7 s5t to ! ,bo/on m>kets4 ,n[ & !n "s b5evol5t philan?ropi/ ) means w\ld make a donation4 ,no "o :o ent]$ 0 expect$ to contribute 8 :ole income to ! g5]al purse1 unless su* income w\ld n m ?an cov] ! actual exp5se incurr$ = him4 ,:5 ,isaac ,heck] w5t to ,we/ ,roxbury ! e/abli%m5t includ$ sev5ty inmates1 :o 7 di/ribut$ 9 sev]al build+s be>+ su* poetical names z ! ,hive1 ! ,eyrie1 ! ,ne/1 & s on4 ,! numb] rose to n9ety or a hundr$ be=e he left !m1 b ! additions seem occasionally to h be5 9 ! nature ( subtractions also1 tak+ away m ( ! cultivation1 ref9em5t1 & g5]al good feel+ :i* _h be5 ! di/+ui%+ "* ( ! place1 ?an !y add$ by _! money or _! labor4 ,isaac ,heck] 0 nev] an actual memb] ( t inn] community ( ^: aspirations & convictions ! ,f>m 0 int5d$ z an embodim5t4 ,he ent]$ at fir/ z a p>tial bo>d]1 pay+ f\r doll>s a week1 & und]tak+ also ! bread-mak+1 :i* until !n _h be5 v badly done1 z he writes to 8 "m4 ,x %\ld be und]/ood t :atev] 0 receiv$ f any inmate1 ei!r 9 money or labor1 0 accept$ n z a m]e return = food & %elt]1 b z an equival5t = su* in/ruction z c\ld be imp>t$ by any o!r memb] ( ! collective family4 ,& !re 7 _m compet5t & brilliant m5 & wom5 !re1 ^: atta9m5ts n only qualifi$ !m amply = ! tasks !y !n assum$1 b h s9ce made !m prom95t 9 ,am]ican lett]s & j\rnalism4 ,mr4 ,ripley lectur$ on mod]n philosophy to all :o desir$ an acqua9tance ) ,sp9oza1 ,kant1 ,c\s91 & _! compe]s4 ,george ,p4 ,brad=d 0 a ?or\gh classical s*ol>4 ,*>les ,a4 ,dana1 !n fre% f ,h>v>d1 0 an en?usia/ = ,g]man lit]ature1 & successful 9 imp>t+ bo? k & en?usiasm to 8 pupils4 ,!re 7 classes 9 almo/ ev]y?+ t any "o c>$ to /udy4 ,fr5* & music1 z we le>n f "o ( ,isaac's lett]s home1 7 :at he set himself to at ! fir/4 ,! latt] 0 taught by s accompli%$ a ma/] z ,john ,s4 ,dwight1 :o conduct$ weekly s++-s*ools = bo? *ildr5 & adults4 ,to :at o!r /udies ,isaac may h appli$ himself we h>dly "k4 ,x w be notic$ t ,mr4 ,george ,william ,curtis1 9 ! k9dly rem9isc5ces :i* he p]mits u to embody 9 ?is *apt]1 says t he does n rememb] him z especially /udi\s4 ,! rem>k tallies ) ! impression we h ga!r$ f ! j\rnal kept :ile he 0 !re4 ,8 m9d 0 introv]t$4 ,philosophical que/ions1 !n z always1 int]e/$ him pr(\ndly1 b only 9 s f> z !y l$ to practical results4 ,x might be tru] to say t philosophy 0 at no "t m ?an ! h&maid ( !ology to him4 ,at ?is p]iod he 0 9 ! ?ick ( 8 /ruggle to atta9 c]ta9ty ) reg>d to ! nature & ext5t ( ! ,*ri/ian revelation1 & :at he s\ght at ,brook ,f>m 0 ! leisure & quiet & opportunity = solitude :i* c\ld n be 8 at home4 ,lead me into ,?y holy ,*ur*1 :i* ,i n[ am seek+1 he writes z ! f9al petition ( ! pray] ) :i* ! fir/ bulky volume ( 8 di>y op5s4 ,) ! burd5 ( t se>* ^u him1 x 0 n possible = su* a nature z 8 to plunge ) ! unres]ve :i* is ! condition ( success into any /udy :i* _h no direct ref]5ce to x4 ,we f9d him compla9+ at frequ5t int]vals t he _c give 8 /udies ! att5tion !y dem&4 ,nor 7 8 labors z ! community bak] ( long cont9uance4 ,!y left him too little "t at 8 own disposal1 & 9 a %ort "t he became a full bo>d]1 & occupi$ himself only z 8 incl9ations direct$4 ,x may occur to "s ( our read]s to wond] :y a man l ,br[nson1 :o 0 !n fa/ ne>+ ! c]ta9ty he aft]w>ds atta9$1 %\ld h s5t a y\? l ,isaac ,heck] to ,brook ,f>m4 ,x mu/ be rememb]$ t ,br[nson's road to ! ,*ur* 0 n s direct z t ( 8 "y disciple1 nor s entirely free 9 all its /ages f self-crippl+ consid]ations4 ,z we %all pres5tly see1 by an ab/ract ( "o ( 8 s]mons1 prea*$ 9 ! spr+ ( #ahdc1 :i* 0 made by ,isaac ,heck] at ! "t1 ,br[nson ?\ght x possible to hold all ,ca?olic tru? & yet def] ent]+ ! ,*ur* until %e %\ld s f> abate h] claims z to =m a fri5dly alliance ) or?odox ,prote/antism on t]ms n too di/a/eful to ! latt]4 ,he 0 n yet will+ to dep>t alone1 & hop$ by wait+ to take o!rs ) him1 & he 0 nei!r ready to r5\nce :olly 8 private views1 nor to c\nsel su* a /ep to "y ,heck]4 ,he 0 9 h>mony1 moreov]1 ) ! tol]ant & lib]al t5d5cy :i* influ5c$ ! lead+ spirits at ,brook ,f>m4 ,al?\gh he nev] became "o ( ! community1 he _h s5t 8 son ,ore/es !re z a pupil1 & 0 a frequ5t visitor himself4 ,_! aims1 z express$ 9 a passage :i* we subjo9 f ,! ,dial ( ,janu>y1 #ahdb1 7 assur$ly su* z w\ld approve !mselves to p]sons :o fully accept$ :at !y believ$ to be ! social tea*+ ( our ,"l1 b :o _h n atta9$ to any true conception ( ! ,div9e au?ority :i* clo!s t tea*+3 ,:oev] is satisfi$ ) society z x is2 ^: s5se ( ju/ice is n w\nd$ by its common action1 in/itutions1 _s ( comm]ce1 has no bus9ess ) ?is community2 nei!r has any "o :o is will+ to h o!r m5 7ne$+ m "t = intellectual cultivation ?an himself7 give _! be/ h\rs & /r5g? to bodily labor to secure himself immunity !refrom4 4 4 4 ,ev]y?+ c be said ( x1 9 a degree1 :i* ,*ri/ said ( ,8 k+dom1 & !re=e x is believ$ t 9 "s measure x does embody ,8 idea4 ,= its ,gate ( ,entrance is /rait & n>r[4 ,x is1 lit]ally1 a pe>l hidd5 9 a field4 ,^? only :o are will+ to lose _! life = its sake %all f9d x4 4 4 4 ,^? :o h n ! fai? t ! pr9ciples ( ,*ri/'s k+dom are applicable to ?is _w1 w smile at x z a vision>y attempt4 ,brook ,f>m has an int]e/ = ,ca?olics because1 9 ! ord] ( guileless nature1 x 0 ! preamble ( t common life :i* ,isaac ,heck] aft]w>ds enjoy$ 9 its sup]natural realization 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,x 0 a prote/ aga9/ t selfi%ness ( ! individual :i* is highly acc5tuat$ 9 a l>ge class ( ,new-,engl&]s1 & prodigi\sly develop$ 9 ! economical conditions ( mod]n society4 ,aga9/ ^! ,isaac _h revolt$ 9 ,new ,york2 at ,brook ,f>m he hop$ to f9d _! rem$y4 ,& 9 fact ! g5tle re=m]s1 z we may call ^! ,we/ ,roxbury adv5tur]s into ! unexplor$ regions ( ! common life1 7 wor?y ( _! task ?\gh n equal to x4 ,!re is no d\bt t 9 small numb]s & ) a p>tial surr5d] ( individual pr]ogatives1 well-mean+ m5 & wom5 may ta/e _m ( ! good ?+s & be able to be> "s ( ! h>d%ips ( ! common life4 ,b to compass 9 p]man5t =m its aspirations 9 ?is direction1 z 9 _m o!rs1 nature is incompet5t4 ,! t]rible if wond]ful success ( ,sp>ta is :at c be atta9$1 & tells at :at co/4 ,! economy ( ! bee-hive1 :i* kills or drives away its sup]flu\s memb]s1 & ! polity ( ,sp>ta1 :i* put ! cripples & ! ag$ to dea?1 are ess5tial to p]man5t success 9 ! v5ture ( communism 9 ! natural ord]4 ,sweetness & light are enjoy$ by ! few only at ! sacrifice ( ! un:olesome & burd5some memb]s ( ! hive4 ,brook ,f>m1 h[ev]1 0 n conceiv$ 9 any _s ( cruelty or ( contempt ( ! weak] memb]s ( humanity2 ! v contr>y 0 ! case4 ,s9 & feebl5ess 7 capable1 ?\ght its f\nd]s1 ( elim9ation by ! =ce ( natural virtue4 ,! m5 & wom5 :o ga!r$ !re 9 its fir/ ye>s 7 noble ( _! k9d2 & _! k9d1 n[ mu* less frequ5tly met )1 0 ! f9e/ product ( natural manhood4 ,( ! *annels ( in=mation :i* rea* u f ,brook ,f>m1 & we believe we h _h access to !m all1 none conta9s ! slighte/ evid5ce ( s5suality1 ! lea/ trace ( ! selfi%ness ( ! _w1 or ev5 any sign ( ! extravagances ( spiritual pride4 ,!re is1 on ! o!r h&1 a full ackn[l$gm5t ( ! ord9>y fail+s ( unpret5ti\s good p4 ,nor d we mean to say t !y 7 purely 9 ! natural ord]--:o c be said to be t8 ,!y 7 ! desc5dants ( ! baptiz$ ,puritans ^: religi\s f]vor _h be5 = g5]ations at :ite heat4 ,!y _h1 inde$1 cut ! root1 b ! sap ( ,*ri/ian pr9ciple /ill l+]$ 9 ! trunk & bran*es & br\ght =? fruit :i* 0 sup]natural1 ?\gh de/9$ nev] to rip54 ,*ri/ 0 ! model ( ! ,brook-,f>m]s1 z ,he _h become t ( ,isaac ,heck]4 ,!y did n "k ,him z well z !y knew ,8 doctr9e4 ,!y knew bett] :at ,he said ?an :y ,he said x1 & t defect obscur$ ,8 mean+ & my/ifi$ _! und]/&+s4 ,t all m5 7 bre?r5 0 ! result ( _! /udy ( humanity "u :at !y conceiv$ to be ,8 lead]%ip2 t all labor is honorable1 & entitl$ to equal remun]ation1 0 _! solution ( ! social problem4 ,:ile any man 0 sup]flu\sly ri*1 !y ma9ta9$1 no man %\ld be mis]ably poor4 ,!y 7 rea*+ aft] :at ! be/ spirits ( ! human race 7 !n & n[ long+ =1 & !y succe$$ z well z any c :o employ only ! selvage ( ! ,*ri/ian g>m5t to protect !mselves aga9/ ! rigors ( nature4 ,sa9t-,simon 0 a f> less wor?y man ?an ,george ,ripley1 b he fail$ no m signally4 ,fr$]ic ,ozanam1 ^: ambition 0 limit$ 9 its scope by 8 appreciation ( bo? nature & ! sup]natural1 succe$$ 9 e/abli%+ a measure ( true frat]nity betwe5 ri* & poor ?r\gh\t ! ,ca?olic _w4 ,!re c be no mann] ( d\bt t al?\gh ,fa!r ,heck] 9 aft] life c\ld good-natur$ly smile at ! s+ul>ities ( ,brook ,f>m1 :at he saw & 0 taught !re _h a /rong & p]man5t effect on 8 "*4 ,x is little to say t ! influ5ce 0 ref9+ to him1 = he 0 ref9$ by nature4 ,b he ga9$ :at 0 to him a con/ant corrective ( any t5d5cy to man-hatr$ 9 all its degrees1 n ne$$ by himself to be sure1 b always ne$$ 9 8 deal+ ) o!rs4 ,x gave to a naturally tru/ful disposition ! vim & vigor ( an apo/olate = a *e]ful view ( human nature4 ,x 0 a *>act]i/ic trait ( 8 to expect good results f reliance on human virtue1 & 8 :ole success z a p]suades ( m5 0 l>gely to be expla9$ by ! subtle flatt]y ( ?is tru/ful attitude t[>ds !m4 ,at ,brook ,f>m ! m9d ( ,isaac ,heck] 0 eag]ly look+ = in/ruction4 ,x fail$ to get ev5 a little cle> light on ! m p]plex+ problems ( life1 b x got some?+ bett]--! object-lesson ( good m5 & wom5 /ruggl+ nobly & unselfi%ly = laudable ends4 ,brook ,f>m 0 an attempt to remove ob/ructions f ! pa?way ( human progress1 tak+ t ^w 9 ! natural s5se4 ,ev5 aft]w>ds1 :5 he _h kn[n human de/9y 9 its p]fect sup]natural & natural =ms1 & :5 ! means to compass x 7 9 8 possession & pla9ly compet5t = success1 8 memory reproduc$ ! sc5es & p]sons ( ,brook ,f>m 9 an atmosph]e ( affection & admiration1 ?\gh n unm+l$ ) amusem5t4 ,he us$ n infrequ5tly to quote words he>d !re1 & cite examples ( ?+s done !re1 z lessons ( wisdom n only = ! philosoph] b also = ! ascetic4 ,he 0 !re equipp$ ) ! necess>y ext]nal gu>antee ( 8 inn] consci\sness t man is good1 because made s by 8 ,creator--incl9$ inde$ to evil1 b yet a good be+1 ev5 s incl9$4 ,no?+ is m necess>y = "o :o is to be a tea*] among a population ^: ,ca?olicity is ( blood & family tradition z well z ( grace1 ?an to "k t !re is virtue1 true & high 9 its own ord]1 outside ! visible pale ( ! ,*ur*4 ,especially is ?is necess>y if ,ca?olics 9 any age or c\ntry are to be fitt$ = a mission>y vocation4 ,t ?is is ! vocation ( ! ,*ur* ( 8 day 0 ,isaac ,heck]'s passionate conviction4 ,he 0 able to communicate ?is to ,ca?olics ( ! old /ock z well z to influ5ce non-,ca?olics 9 favor ( ! ,*ur*2 p]haps ev5 m s4 ,m ?an any?+ else1 inde$1 ,brook ,f>m taught him ! defect ( human nature on its highe/ plane2 b x taught him also ! wor?9ess ( ! m5 & wom5 ( ,am]ica ( ! apo/le's toil & blood4 ,! g5tle natures :om he !re knew & le>n$ to love1 _! _s ( self-sacrifice = ! common good1 _! m9ds at once innoc5t & cultivat$1 _! devotion to _! high ideal1 ! abs5ce ( meanness1 co>s5ess1 vulg>ity1 ! s9k+ ( private ambitions1 ! pati5ce ) ! defects ( o!rs1 _! desire to e/abli% ! communism ( at lea/ intellectual gifts--all ?is & mu* m ( ! k9d fix$ 8 views & affections 9 a m\ld :i* em95tly fitt$ him z a vessel ( election = apo/olic uses4 ,be=e pass+ to ! /udy ( ,isaac ,heck]'s own int]ior dur+ ! p]iod ( 8 resid5ce at ,brook ,f>m1 x is our pleasant privilege to communicate to our read]s ! subjo9$ *>m+ rem9isc5ce ( 8 p]sonality at ! "t1 f "o :o 0 8 associate !re3 ,we/ ,new ,brighton1 ,s4,i41 ,febru>y #bh1 #ahij4--;,,de> ,,sir3 ,i fe> t my recollections ( ,fa!r ,heck] w be ( little s]vice to y1 = !y are v scant4 ,b ! impression ( ! "y man :om ,i knew at ,brook ,f>m is /ill vivid4 ,x mu/ h be5 9 ! ye> #ahdc t he came to ! ,f>m 9 ,we/ ,roxbury1 ne> ,bo/on4 ,he 0 a y\? ( tw5ty-?ree1 ( ,g]man aspect1 & ,i ?9k 8 face 0 some:at seam$ ) small-pox4 ,b 8 sweet & c&id expression1 8 g5tle & affectionate mann]1 7 v w9n+4 ,he _h an air ( s+ul> ref9em5t & self-reliance comb9$ ) a half-eag] inquisitiv5ess1 & ^u becom+ acqua9t$ ) him1 ,i told him t he 0 ,erne/ ! ,seek]1 :i* 0 ! title ( a /ory ( m5tal unre/ :i* ,william ,h5ry ,*ann+ 0 !n publi%+ 9 ! ,dial4 ,heck]1 or1 z ,i always call$ him & ?9k ( him1 ,isaac1 _h app>5tly come to ,brook ,f>m because x 0 a result ( ! intellectual agitation ( ! "t :i* _h rea*$ & t\*$ him 9 ,new ,york4 ,he _h be5 br$ a bak]1 he told me1 & ,i rememb] ) :at satisfaction he said to me1 ',i am sure ( my livelihood because ,i c make good bread4' ,8 p[]s 9 ?is way 7 mo/ satisfactorily te/$ at ! ,f>m1 or1 z x 0 g5]ally call$1 '! ,community1' al?\gh x 0 9 no o!r s5se a community ?an an association ( fri5dly work]s 9 common4 ,he 0 drawn to ,brook ,f>m by ! belief t its life w\ld be at lea/ agreeable to 8 convictions & ta/es1 & (f] him ! society ( ^? :o might answ] "s ( 8 que/ions1 ev5 if !y c\ld n satisfy 8 long+s4 ,by :at influ5ces 8 m9d 0 fir/ affect$ by ! moral movem5t kn[n 9 ,new ,engl& z transc5d5talism1 ,i d n "k4 ,probably he may h he>d ,mr4 ,em]son lecture 9 ,new ,york1 or he may h read ,br[nson's ,*>les ,elwood1 :i* dealt ) ! que/ions t engag$ 8 m9d & consci5ce4 ,b among ! _m int]e/+ figures at ,brook ,f>m ,i recall none m s9c]ely absorb$ ?an ,isaac ,heck] 9 s]i\s que/ions4 ,! m]ely ae/hetic aspects ( its life1 its gayety & social pleasures1 he reg>d$ good-natur$ly1 ) ! air ( a spectator :o tol]at$ r ?an ne$$ or enjoy$ !m4 ,!re 0 no?+ ascetic or sev]e 9 him1 b ,i h (t5 ?\ght s9ce t 8 feel+ 0 probably :at he might h aft]w>d describ$ z a consci\sness t he mu/ be ab\t 8 ,fa!r's bus9ess4 ,i d n rememb] him z especially /udi\s4 ,mr4 ,ripley _h classes 9 ,g]man philosophy & metaphysics1 9 ,kant & ,sp9oza1 & ,isaac us$ to look 91 z he turn$ :]ev] he ?\ght he might f9d answ]s to 8 que/ions4 ,he w5t to he> ,!odore ,p>k] prea* 9 ! ,unit>ian ,*ur* 9 ! neighbor+ village ( ,we/ ,roxbury4 ,he w5t into ,bo/on1 ab\t t5 miles di/ant1 to talk ) ,br[nson1 & to ,concord to see ,em]son4 ,he ent]$ into ! work+ life at ! ,f>m1 b always1 z x seem$ to me1 ) ! same res]ve & attitude ( obs]vation4 ,he 0 ! dove float+ 9 ! air1 n yet f9d+ ! spot on :i* 8 foot might re/4 ,! impression t ,i ga!r$ f my int]c\rse ) him1 :i* 0 boyi%ly intimate & affectionate1 0 t ( all '! apo/les ( ! newness1' z !y 7 gayly call$1 ^: c\nsel he s\ght1 ,br[nson 0 ! mo/ satisfactory to him4 ,i ?\ght !n t ?is 0 due to ! au?ority ( ,br[nson's ma/]ful tone1 ! def9it5ess ( 8 views1 ! =ce ( 8 'und]/&+1' z ! ^w 0 !n philosophically us$ 9 di/9ction f ! reason4 ,br[nson's m5tal vigor & positiv5ess 7 v agreeable to a c&id m9d :i* 0 speculatively adrift & exp]im5t+1 &1 z x seem$ to me1 :i* 0 m emotional ?an logical4 ,br[nson1 aft] 8 life ( v>i$ !ological & controv]sial activity1 0 draw+ t[>d ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & 8 virile =ce fasc9at$ ! m delicate & s5sitive temp] ( ! "y man1 &1 ,i h always suppos$1 0 ! *ief influ5ce :i* at t "t affect$ ,heck]'s views1 al?\gh he did n !n ent] ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,he 0 a g5]al favorite at ,brook ,f>m1 always equable & playful1 :olly simple & frank 9 mann]4 ,he talk$ readily & easily1 b n controv]sially4 ,8 smile 0 s+ul>ly attractive & sympa!tic1 & ! e>ne/ness ( :i* ,i h spok5 gave him an unconsci\s p]sonal dignity4 ,8 temp]am5t 0 sangu9e4 ,! :ole air ( ! y\? 0 t ( goodness4 ,i d n ?9k t ! impression made by him =eca/ 8 c>e]1 or1 9 any degree1 ! lead]%ip :i* he aft]w>ds held 9 8 ,*ur*4 ,b ev]ybody :o knew him at t "t mu/ recall 8 *>m+ amiability4 ,i ?9k t he did n rema9 at ,brook ,f>m = a :ole ye>1 & :5 lat] he w5t to ,belgium to /udy !ology at ! sem9>y ( ,mons he wrote me _m lett]s1 :i* ,i am sorry to say h disappe>$4 ,i rememb] t he labor$ ) fri5dly zeal to draw me to 8 ,*ur*1 & at 8 reque/ ,i read ! life & "s writ+ ( ,/4 ,alphonse ( ,liguori4 ,gradually our correspond5ce decl9$ :5 ,i 0 9 ,europe1 & 0 nev] resum$2 nor d ,i rememb] see+ him aga9 m ?an once1 _m ye>s ago4 ,!re 0 /ill 9 ! cl]ical figure1 :i* 0 v /range to me1 ! old sweetness ( smile & address2 !re 0 "s talk ( ! idyllic days1 "s w>m words ( he>ty good w1 b our int]e/s 7 v diff]5t1 &1 p>t+1 we w5t our sep>ate ways4 ,= a g5]ation we liv$ 9 ! same city1 yet we nev] met4 ,b ,i d n lose ! bright recollection ( ,erne/ ! ,seek]1 nor =get ! frank1 ard5t1 g5]\s1 manly y\?1 ,isaac ,heck]4 ,v truly y\rs1 ,,george ,,william ,,curtis4 ,,*apt] ,,vi ,,inn] ,,life ,,:ile ,,at ,,brook ,,f>m ,,! private j\rnals f :i* we are ab\t to quote s l>gely 7 an unhop$-= addition to ! /ock ( mat]ials available = ,fa!r ,heck]'s biography4 ,until aft] 8 dea? n ev5 _! exi/5ce1 /ill less ! nature ( _! cont5ts1 0 suspect$4 ,) ! exception ( two important docum5ts1 "o writt5 :ile he 0 9 ,belgium1 9 ob$i5ce to ! requirem5ts ( 8 director2 ! o!r 9 ,rome1 = ! consid]ation ( ! f\r v5]able religi\s ^: advice he s\ght be=e f\nd+ 8 community1 no records ( 8 int]ior life h be5 discov]$ :i* are at all comp>able 9 fulness to ^? made dur+ ! eighte5 mon?s :i* prec$$ 8 admission to ! ,*ur*4 ,9 8 ye>s ( heal? & /r5g? he liv$ & work$ = o!rs2 & 9 ^? we>y ones ( illness :i* foll[$ !m1 he ?\ght & wrote & suff]$1 b app>5tly )\t mak+ any delib]ate notes ( 8 deep] p]sonal exp]i5ce4 ,on ^? ( our read]s ^: acqua9tance ) ,fa!r ,heck] dates1 z our own does1 f 8 int5sely active & labori\s prime1 ^! revelations ( ! p]iod :5 he 0 be+ passively wr\ght ^u & %ap$ = 8 "w by ! h& ( ,god1 may produce an effect n unlike t we h be5 consci\s ( 9 /udy+ ! great] mass f :i* our extracts are tak54 ,!y w1 p]haps1 be /ruck1 9 ! fir/ place1 by ! unexpect$ly /rong witness !y be> to ! :olly int]ior & my/ical exp]i5ce ( ! man4 ,!y te/ify1 moreov]1 to ! real & objective "* ( t lead+ :i* he 0 con/ra9$ to foll[2 & n only t4 ,!y d s 9 a way :i* furni%es a conv9c+ reply to a v plausible d\bt z to :e!r ! n>r[ & uncong5ial surr\nd+s ( 8 e>ly life might n1 by !mselves1 be suffici5t to expla9 ! discont5t ( a poetic & aspir+ nature su* z 84 ,he 0 at ,brook ,f>m :5 t community 0 at its pleasante/4 ,! %ad[ ( c>e & ! premonition ( failure 71 inde$1 already loom+ up be=e ^? :o bore ! *ief responsibilities ( ! und]tak+1 b ! gr\p by virtue ( ^: pres5ce x became fam\s _h h>dly begun to dw9dle4 ,& besides ^? ^: names h s9ce become well kn[n1 !re 7 o!rs1 "y1 gay1 intellig5t1 & well br$1 acqua9tance & famili>ity ) :om 7 9 _m ways attractive to a susceptible y\? l ,isaac ,heck]4 ,:at impression he made ^u ! circle he ent]$1 h[ cordially he 0 receiv$ & held 9 high e/eem1 our read]s already "k4 ,& if he gave pleasure1 he receiv$ x also4 ,at fir/ ! new circum/ances 7 a little /range & emb>rass+ to him4 ,aft] a =tnight1 or !reab\ts1 we f9d him not+ t he is n "o ( _! spirits4 ,!y say ',mr4 ,heck]' 9 a tone !y d n use 9 speak+ to ea* o!r4 ,b ! /rang5ess soon wore (f & he yield$ to ! influ5ce ( ! place ) a :ol5ess :i* w\ld h be5 entire b = ! /rong] draw+ :i* nev] let him free4 ,on ?is po9t1 too1 ! witness ( ! j\rnal is p]emptory4 ,s x is z to ! unity & consi/5ce ( 8 int]ior exp]i5ces f fir/ to la/4 ,*ild1 & boy1 & man1 !re 0 always ! same ard5t s9c]ity ( purpose 9 him1 ! same docility to ! ,voice t spoke )91 ! same attitude t[>d ! life t n[ is :i* ,mr4 ,curtis1 9 ! lett] giv5 9 ! prec$+ *apt]1 has describ$1 ) s f9e an insight1 z "o ( res]ve & obs]vation4 ,he 0 ! dove float+ 9 ! air1 n yet f9d+ ! spot on :i* 8 foot might re/1 writes ,mr4 ,curtis ( ,isaac ,heck] at t p]iod ( 8 y\? :5 8 surr\nd+s & companions 7 = ! fir/ "t1 & v possibly = ! la/1 :olly cong5ial to 8 natural incl9ations4 ,& aga93 ,!re 0 no?+ ascetic or sev]e 9 him2 b ,i h (t5 ?\ght s9ce t 8 feel+ 0 probably :at he might h aft]w>d describ$ z a consci\sness t he mu/ be ab\t 8 ,fa!r's bus9ess4 ,^! words are significant te/imony to ! nobility ( ! impression made on o!rs by ,fa!r ,heck]'s p]sonality 9 e>ly manhood4 ,ev5 if our only addition to su* scanty k ( 8 life at ,brook ,f>m z c\ld be ga!r$ f 8 own conv]sations 9 lat] ye>s 7 ?is happily-t\*$ sket*1 x c\ld h>dly be m int]e/+ ?an x is4 ,b1 =tunately1 x does n /& alone4 ,its f9e recognition ( ! l(ty purity ( 8 nature is ev]y:]e borne out by ! unprem$itat$ & c&id self-revelations ( ! di>y4 ,_! *>act]i/ic trait is ev]y:]e aspiration--a s5se ( joy 9 elevation above ! e>?ly1 or a s5se ( depression because ! e>?ly weighs him d[n4 ,!n come eag] glances ( inquiry 9 e direction = ! satisfaction ( 8 aspirations1 little by little n>r[+ d[n to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 :]e9 ! dove ( ,mr4 ,curtis's image 0 f9ally to re/ 8 foot = ev]4 ,& 9 all ?is he sc>cely at all m5tions a dread ( ! ,div9e wra? z a motive = 8 flight4 ,x is n out ( ! city ( de/ruction1 b t[>d ! cele/ial city t he goes4 ,he is drawn by :at he wants1 n h\nd$ by :at he fe>s4 ,always !re is ! rea*+ out ( a /rong nature t[>d :at x lacks--a mat]ial = its /r5g? to "w on1 a crav+ = rational joy1 c\pl$ ) an ev]-increas+ conviction t nature _c give him su* a boon4 ,m5 :o knew ,fa!r ,heck] only 9 8 royal maturity1 sometimes cavill$ at 8 words ( emphatic fai? 9 guileless nature2 b !y _h only to "k him a little bett] to le>n 8 appreciation ( ! sup]natural ord]1 & 8 recognition ( its absolute & exclusive compet5cy to satisfy nature's highe/ aspirations4 ,read+ ^! e>ly j\rnals1 we h con/antly recall$ ! lat] days :5 he s (t51 & sometimes cont9ually1 repeat$1 ,religion is a boon6 ,no "o c\ld "k t bett] ?an he :o _h s deeply felt ! want x satisfies4 ,! di>y 0 begun 9 ! middle ( ,april1 #ahdc1 :5 ,isaac _h j return$ to ,brook ,f>m aft] a =tnight sp5t at home4 ,x op5s ) a pray] = light & direction1 :i* is its d$ication to ! uses n only ( an e>ne/ b a religi\s seek]4 ,he addresses himself directly to ,god z ,fa!r1 n mak+ ei!r appeal or ref]5ce to our ,"l4 ,b !re is 9 x an invocation to ^? t are 9 heav5 to int]c$e & plead = him1 :i* recalls ! fact1 s (t5 m5tion$ by him1 t x 0 ! tea*+ ( ! ,cate*ism ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t on ! ,communion ( ,sa9ts :i* cle>$ away 8 f9al cl\ds & br\ght him directly to ! ,*ur*4 ,!re is a note1 too1 among 8 lat] pap]s1 9 :i*1 speak+ ( ! ph5om5a ( mod]n spiritualism1 he says t ! same long+ = an assurance ( p]sonal immortality :i* leads s _m into t maze ( m+l$ tru? & error1 _h a great %>e 9 dispos+ 8 m9d to accept ! au?oritative doctr9e ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* "h z else:]e answ]$ fully ! deepe/ long+s ( 8 s\l4 ,we %all n attempt to foll[ ! *ronological ord] ( ! j\rnal ) exactness1 b 9 mak+ our extracts %all pursue ! ord] ( topics r ?an ( "t4 ,by ! middle ( ,april ! "q ( ! ,*ur* _h pres5t$ itself s unmi/akably to ,isaac ,heck]1 z ! necess>y prelim9>y to fur!r progress--to be settl$ 9 "o way or ano!r1 ei!r set def9itely aside z uness5tial or else accept$ z ! adequate solution ( man's problems1 t 8 /ruggles = & aga9/ x recur ) especial frequ5cy4 ,fab] has said some:]e t ! ,*ur* is ! t\*/one ( rational humanity1 & t probably no adult passes out ( life )\t hav+ once1 at lea/1 be5 br\ght squ>ely face to face ) x & made to und]/& & %\ld] ! trem5d\s responsibility :i* its claims impose4 ,!re w\ld be no ne$ ( a t\*/one if !re 7 no alloy 9 human nature1 no feebl5ess 9 man's w1 no d>kness 9 8 und]/&+4 ,7 t ! condition ( humanity1 ! call to ! sup]natural ord] w\ld be simply ! summons to come up high]1 its symbol a beacon tor* ^u ! heights4 ,z x is1 ! pa? may be mi/ak54 ,he ^: feet h be5 set 9 x f bir? by ,*ri/ian tra9+ may wilfully =sake x4 ,he ^: he>t is pure & ^: aspirations noble1 may be s surr\nd$ by ! mi/s ( inh]it$ error & misappreh5sion t ! light ( tru? fails to p5etrate !m :5 x fir/ dawns4 ,! road is always /rait :i* leads any son ( ,adam to sup]nal joy 9 consci\s union ) 8 ,creator1 ev5 :5 8 w is good & 8 desire unfeign$4 ,we %all f9d1 !re=e1 t ,isaac ,heck]'s /ruggles 7 _m & pa9ful be=e he fully recogniz$ & atta9$ ! necess>y means to ! end he crav$4 ,!y 7 *>act]i/ic also4 ,he 0 look+ = ! satisfaction ( 8 rational aspirations r ?an = ! solution ( hi/orical problems1 al?\gh 8 m9d 0 too cle> n to see t ! two are inextricably b\nd up toge!r4 ,b inasmu* z at ! p]iod ( :i* we are writ+1 :i* 0 t ( ! ,ox=d ,tracts1 controv]sy turn$ ma9ly on que/ions ( hi/orical cont9uity & ( ,div9e w>rant 9 ! ext]nal revelation ( holy ,scripture1 x foll[s t he1 & su* z he1 mu/ h tak5 a lonely & unfrequ5t$ road t[>ds ! tru?4 ,e "t he look$ at ! ,*ur* he 0 greet$ ) ! spectacle ( unity & uni=mity1 ( discipl9e & ord]4 ,^! are elem5ts :i* always h be51 & probably always w be1 mo/ attractive to ! classes call$ educat$1 to m5 seek+ = ext]nal notes ( tru?1 fly+ f disord]1 fe>ful ( rebellion4 ,b to ,isaac ,heck]1 ! only ext]nal note :i* deeply attract$ him 0 t ( univ]sal bro!rhood4 ,if he 7 to b[ 8 knee ) joy to ,jesus ,*ri/1 x w\ld be because all1 9 heav5 & e>? or hell1 %\ld "o day b5d 9 union ) him4 ,x takes an intimate k ( ,ca?olicity to p]ceive ! int]ior trans=mation ( humanity by its sup]natural aids4 ,on ! "o h&1 ! influ5ce ( ,isaac ,heck]'s ,brook ,f>m surr\nd+s 0 to p]suade him to confide :olly 9 nature1 :i* !re 0 v ne>ly at its unaid$ be/4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! treasures ( ,ca?olicity = ! inn] life 7 hidd5 f him4 ,religion1 9 8 conception ( x--9 ! true conception ( x--mu/ be ! b9d+ ( all ?+s toge!r1 natural & sup]natural4 ,h5ce we f9d him at times compla9+ t ! ,*ur* is n suffici5t = 8 wants4 ,if x 7 n p]sonal 9 its adaptation to him1 x 0 little t x %\ld be hi/orical ?is1 hi]>*ical t1 or biblical ! o!r4 ,x mu/ be 8 prim>ily1 because he _c live a rational & pure life )\t x4 ,an ord9>ily decor\s life1 if y w2 free f lu/ or passion1 & )\t gross unreason1 b nev]!less tame1 unprogressive1 dry & unproductive1 )\t any absolute c]ta9ty except t ( ! helplessness ( man4 ,su* a life seem$ to him h>dly m ?an a synonym = dea?4 ,! fact is1 z he writes on a page n[ ly+ be=e u1 ,i want to live e mom5t4 ,i want some?+ positive1 liv+1 n\ri%+4 ,i negative only by affirm+4 ,! e>lie/ entry 9 ?is di>y has be5 already quot$ 9 ! fir/ ,,*apt] ( ! pres5t biography4 ,on its second page occurs ! foll[+ acc\nt ( 8 impressions :ile 9 *ur* on ,ea/] ,sunday3 ,monday1 ,april #ag1 #ahdc4--,ye/]day ,i w5t to ! ,ca?olic *ur* at ,we/ ,roxbury4 ,x 0 ,ea/] ,sunday4 ,! s]vices 71 to me1 v impressively affect+4 ,! alt>-piece repres5t$ ,*ri/'s ris+ f ! tomb1 & ?is 0 ! subject-matt] ( ! prie/'s s]mon4 ,9 ! mid/ ( x he turn$ & po9t$ to ! pa9t+1 ) a few t\*+ words4 ,all eyes foll[$ 81 :i* made 8 rem>ks d\bly affect+4 ,h[ inspir+ x mu/ be to ! prie/1 :5 he is prea*+1 to see ar\nd him ! ,savi\r1 & ! goodly company ( m>tyrs1 sa9ts1 & fa!rs6 ,!re may be objections to hav+ pa9t+s & sculptures 9 *ur*es1 b ,i confess t ,i nev] ent] a place :]e !re is ei!r b ,i feel an awe1 an invisible influ5ce1 :i* /rikes me mute4 ,i w\ld sit 9 sil5ce1 cov]+ my head4 ,a sanctifi$ atmosph]e seems to fill ! place & to p5etrate my s\l :5 ,i ent]1 z if ,i 7 9 a holy temple4 ',?\ /&e/ 9 a holy place1' ,i w\ld say4 ,a l\d ^w1 a heavy foot/ep1 makes me %udd]1 z if an infidel 7 desecrat+ ! place4 ,i /& spee*less1 9 a magical atmosph]e t wraps my :ole be+1 sc>cely d>+ to lift my eyes4 ,a p]fect /illness comes ov] my s\l2 x seems to be so>+ on ! bosom ( cl\ds4 ,tuesday1 ,april #ah4--;,i confess t ei!r ! ,*ur* is n suffici5t = my wants or ,i h n se5 x 9 its glory4 ,i hope x may be ! latt]4 ,i d n want to say x1 b ,i mu/ own t x fills me no m4 ,i contemplate x1 ,i look at x1 ,i compreh5d x4 ,x does n lead me to aspire4 ,i feel t ei!r x has no?+ to give1 or t :at x has is n t = :i* my s\l is a*+4 ,i "k x c be said 9 reply t ,i _c "k :at ! ,*ur* has until ,i am 9 communion ) x2 t x satisfies natures great] ?an m9e2 t x is ! true life ( ! _w2 t !re is no true spirituality outside ( x1 & t be=e ,i c judge x rightly my life mu/ be equal to x 9 purity & elevation4 ,mu* m might be said4 ,b1 aft] all1 :at is x8 ,! ,ca?olic %[s up ! ,anglican2 ! ,anglican retorts ) an accusation ( corruption1 & ev5 a want ( purity2 ! ,prote/ant1 ! ,presbyt]ian1 claim _! own mission at ! exp5se ( consi/5cy & good logic4 4 4 4 ,! :ole fact1 ,i suppose1 is t if !re is any?+ 9 ,succession1 ,tradition1 ,infallibility1 ,*ur* organism & =m1 x is 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & our bus9ess w be to /op ?is controv]sy & call an ,ecum5ical ,c\ncil :i* %all settle ^! matt]s accord+ to ! ,bible1 ,tradition1 & ! light ( ! ,*ur*4 ,!re is a t\* ( unconsci\s humor 9 ! f9al p>agraph :i* clamor$ = quotation4 ,b x 0 pla9ly writt5 9 pr(\nd e>ne/4 ,?ursday1 ,april #bj4--,my s\l is disquiet$1 my he>t a*es4 4 4 ,te>s fl[ f my eyes involunt>ily4 ,my s\l is griev$--= :at8 ,ye/]day1 z ,i 0 pray+1 ! ?\ght fla%$ across my m9d1 ,:]e is ,god8 ,is ,he n "h8 ,:y praye/ ?\ z if ,he 7 at a great di/ance f !e8 ,?9k ( x4 ,:]e can/ ?\ place ,him--9 :at locality8 ,is ,he n "h 9 ?y mid/8 ,is ,8 pres5ce n ne>e/ ( all to !e8 ,oh1 ?9k ( x6 ,god is "h4 4 4 4 ,am ,i impi\s to say t ! language us$ 9 ,scripture = ,*ri/'s expresses ! ?\ghts ( my s\l8 ,oh1 c\ld we b und]/& t ! k+dom ( heav5 is always at h& to ! disc]n]1 & t ,god calls ^u all to ',rep5t1 = ye %all n all disappe> until x %all op54 ,?is g5]ation %all n pass away4' ,!n foll[s a page ( philosophiz+ on "t & et]nity1 imm5sity & space1 & monads :o may develop or fulfil _! de/9y 9 o!r worlds ?an ?is1 a rem9isc5ce1 p]haps1 ( ! lectures on su* topics at :i* ,mr4 ,curtis says ,isaac us$ to look 91 hop+ to f9d an answ] to 8 que/ions4 ,su* speculations are a trait ?r\gh\t ! di>y1 ?\gh !y are ev]y:]e subord9ate to ! practical ends :i* dom9antly int]e/ him4 ,a day or two lat] comes a passage1 already giv5 9 a prec$+ *apt]1 9 ref]5ce to c]ta9 prophetic dreams :i* x has be5 giv5 him to see realiz$4 ,& at once ?is foll[s3 ,april #bd1 ,noon4--,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* alone seems to satisfy my wants1 my fai?1 life1 s\l4 ,^! may be baseless fabrics1 *im]as dire1 or :at y please4 ,i may be labor+ "u a delusion4 ,yet my s\l is ,ca?olic1 & t fai? responds to my s\l 9 its religi\s aspirations & its long+s4 ,i h n wi%$ to make myself ,ca?olic1 b t answ]s on all sides to ! wants ( my s\l4 ,x is s ri*1 s full4 ,"o is 9 h>mony all ov]--9 unison ) heav51 ) ! pres5t1 liv+ 9 ! natural body1 & ! pa/1 :o h *ang$4 ,!re is a solid>ity betwe5 !m ?r\gh ! ,*ur*4 ,i d n feel controv]sial4 ,my s\l is fill$4 ,f ?is po9t he spe$ily rec$es4 ,by ! next day he is lo/ almo/ 9 ! fle%2 fall5 into an id5tity ) my body1 & notes t = "s "t he has done little 9 /udy1 b feel t ,i h liv$ v mu*4 ,:at h9d]s him he supposes to be contemplat+ any c]ta9 am\nt ( /udy :i* ,i ought to accompli%--look+ to x z an end4 ,:y %\ld ,i n be satisfi$ :5 ,i am liv+1 gr[+8 ,did ,*ri/ & ,8 apo/les /udy languages8 ,i h ! life--is n t ! end8 ,april #bh4--,:at %all ,i say8 ,am ,i wrong8 ,%\ld ,i submit & give myself up to t :i* does n engage my :ole be+8 ,to me ! ,*ur* is n ! great object ( life4 ,i am n[ out ( x 9 ! common mean+4 ,i am n subject to its ord9ances4 ,is x n be/ = me to accept my own nature r ?an attempt to m\ld x z ?\gh x 7 an object8 ,is n our own exi/5ce m ?an ?is exi/5ce 9 ! _w8 ,i read ?is morn+ an extract f ,he9e ^u ,s*ell+ :i* affect$ me m ?an any?+ ,i h read = six mon?s4 ,! ,*ur*1 says ,s*ell+ 9 sub/ance1 0 fir/ ,petr9e1 !n ,paul9e1 & mu/ be love-embrac+1 ,john-l4 ,pet]1 ,ca?olicism2 ,paul1 ,prote/antism2 ,john1 :at is to be4 ,! /atem5t /ruck me & respond$ to my own dim intuitions4 ,ca?olicism is solid>ity2 ,prote/antism is individuality4 ,:at we want1 & are t5d+ to1 is :at %all unite !m bo?1 z ,john's _s does--& t 9 ea* individual4 ,we want nei!r ! au?ority ( ,hi/ory nor ( ! ,individual2 nei!r ,infallibility nor ,reason by itself b bo? comb9$ 9 ,life4 ,nei!r ,prec$5t nor ,op9ion1 b ,be+--nei!r a writt5 nor a prea*$ ,gospel1 b a liv+ "o4 4 4 4 ,x is only ?r\gh ,*ri/ we c see ! love1 goodness1 & wisdom ( ,god4 ,he is to u :at ! telescope is to ! a/ronom]1 ) ?is diff]5ce3 ,he s exalts & purifies u t our subject becomes ! p[] to see4 ,! telescope is a m$ium ?r\gh :i* ! b\nd>ies ( our vision are enl>g$1 b x is passive4 ,*ri/ is an active ,m$iator :o begets u if we w1 & gives u p[] to see by becom+ "o ) ,him4 ,may #c4--,we all look ^u ?is _w z suits our moods1 assimilat+ only su* food z suits our dispositions--& no d\bt !re is suffici5t v>iety to suit all4 4 4 4 ,e p]sonality individualizes ! _w to himself n subjectively b truly objectively4 4 4 4 ,e individual ought1 p]haps1 to be satisfi$ ) 8 own "*4 ,= x is an important tru? ( ,f\ri]'s t attractions are 9 proportion to de/9ies4 ,fe> 9 proportion to hope1 pa9 9 proportion to pleasure1 /r5g? 9 proportion to de/9y1 etc4 ,b x is my/]i\s t we "k all ?is4 ',man has become z "o ( u4' ,we are all dead4 ,ah1 my/ic6 do/ ?\ %[ ?yself 9 ?is %ape8 ,b n[1 be+ dead1 %all we receive life & immortality 7= ,i imag9e immortality ! solid>ity ( life--i4e41 ! union ( ! two lives1 "h & heav57 ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! ,son ( ! liv+ ,god1 & s lose '! k ( good & evil4' ,= z 9 ,adam all di$1 s %all ye all be made alive ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/4' ,! effect ( ! fall 0 lit]ally ! k ( good & evil4 ,god kn[s no evil1 & :5 we become "o ) ,him1 ?r\gh ! ,m$iator1 we %all rega9 our previ\s /ate4 ,k is ! effect ( s91 & is p]haps de/9$ to correct itself4 ,consci\sness & k g toge!r4 ,spontaneity & life are "o4 ,k is no ga91 = x gives no?+4 ,i c only "k :at has be5 giv5 ?r\gh spontaneity4 ,spontaneity is unity1 "o2 k is division ( be+4 ,if ,adam _h n be5 sep>at$ he w\ld d\btless n h s9n$4 ',! woman t ,?\ gave/ me said unto me1 ,eat1 & ,i did eat4' ,/ill1 ?r\gh ! se$ ( ! woman1 :i* w be ! union re/or$1 is ! s]p5t to be bruis$4 ,may #d4--,! real effect ( ! !ory ( ! ,*ur* is to isolate m5 f ! outw>d _w1 )draw !m f its enjoym5ts1 & make !m live a life ( sacrifice ( ! passions4 ,?is is "o /atem5t4 ,ano!r w\ld be ?is3 all ^! ?+s c & %\ld be enjoy$1 b 9 a high]1 pur]1 m exalt$ /ate ( be+ ?an is ! pres5t ord9>y condition ( our m9ds4 ,! only opposition to !m arises :5 ! s\l becomes s5sual1 falls into _! arms1 & becomes lo/ to high] & m spiritual objects4 4 4 4 ,all is d>k be=e me1 imp5etrable d>kness4 ,i appe> to live 9 ! c5tre4 ,no?+ seems to take hold ( my s\l1 or else x seeks no?+4 ,:]e x is ,i "k n4 ,i meet ) no "o else ar\nd me4 ,i w\ld t ,i c\ld feel t "s "o liv$ 9 ! same _w t ,i n[ d4 ,some?+ cl\dy sep>ates u4 ,i _c speak f my real be+ to o!rs4 ,!re is no mutual recognition4 ,:5 ,i speak1 x is z if a burd5 accumulat$ r\nd me4 ,i long to ?r[ x (f1 b ,i _c utt] my ?\ghts & feel+s 9 _! pres5ce2 if ,i d1 !y return to me unrecogniz$4 ,%all ,i ev] meet ) "o ! w9d[s ( ^: s\l w op5 simultane\sly ) m9e8 ,on ! fir/ ,sunday ( ,may ,isaac w5t into ,bo/on to he> ,br[nson prea*1 & a day or two lat] made ! subjo9$ %rewd comm5ts on ! s]mon 9 a lett] to 8 "m3 ,may #i1 '#dc4--;,8 int5tion is to prea* ! ,ca?olic doctr9e & adm9i/] ! ,sacram5ts4 ,h[ _m ( !m1 ,i suppose1 dep5ds on circum/ances4 ,he ju/ifies himself on ! gr\nd t he t is n aga9/ u is = u1 & t 9 times ( exig5cy1 & 9 extraord9>y cases1 we may d :at we c\ld n be excus$ = do+ o!rwise4 ,& he ?9ks by proclaim+ ! ,ca?olic fai? & repudiat+ ! attempt to build up a ,*ur*1 t 9 "t ! ,prote/ant _w w become ,ca?olic 9 its dispositions1 s t a unity w be made )\t submission or sacrifice4 ,"u pres5t circum/ances x w\ld be impossible1 ev5 if ! ,prote/ant *ur*es %\ld be will+ to unite ) ! ,ca?olic1 t ! ,ca?olic c\ld ev5 supply prie/s = =ty millions ( ,prote/ants1 ! ,prote/ant prie/s be+ mo/ ( !m m>ri$1 etc4 ,i confess ! s]mon 0 :olly unsatisfactory to me1 un-ca?olic 9 its premises1 & _m ( 8 argum5ts & facts *im]ical & illusive4 ,if y grant t ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ! true ,*ur*1 !re is1 to my ?\ght1 no /opp+-place %ort ( its bosom4 ,or ev5 if x is ! ne>e/ to ! tru?1 y are "u obligations to jo9 x4 ,h[ any "o c believe 9 ei!r "o ( ^? propositions1 z #j4 ,a4 ,b4 does1 )\t becom+ a ,ca?olic 9 fact1 ,i _c conceive4 ,?is special plead+ ( exceptions1 ! necessity ( ! case1 & improbable suppositions1 spr+s m1 ,i ?9k1 f ! position ( ! individual ?an f ! importance or tru? ( ! argum5ts made use (4 ,!re=e ,i ?9k he w give up 9 "t ! gr\nd ^u :i* he n[ supports 8 c\rse--n ! object b 8 position4 4 4 4 ,i h b\ght a few ,ca?olic books 9 ,bo/on :i* treat ^u ! ,anglican claims to ,ca?olicity1 & ,i ?9k ,i c say1 s f>1 ,i nev] %all jo9 a ,prote/ant ,*ur*--:ile ,i am n positive on ! positive side1 nor ev5 9 any way z yet decid$4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,/ruggles ,,! citations ?us f> made f ,isaac ,heck]'s y\?ful di>y1 al?\gh p5n$ at ,brook ,f>m1 be> few traces ( t fact4 ,!y might h be5 writt5 9 a des]t = all evid5ce !y give ( any special influ5ce produc$ ^u him by p]sonal contact ) o!rs4 ,x is n until ! middle ( ,may1 #ahdc1 t he beg9s to make any ref]5ce to 8 actual surr\nd+s4 ,be=e foll[+ him into ^! m intimate self-confid5ces1 & especially be=e giv+ 9 8 own words an acc\nt ( t peculi> occurr5ce :i* s p]man5tly affect$ 8 future1 "s prelim9>y rem>ks seem necess>y4 ,x has be5 said already1 9 an e>li] *apt] ( ?is biography1 t b = "s special int]v5tion ( ,div9e ,provid5ce1 x is m ?an probable t ,isaac ,heck] w\ld h l$ ! ord9>y life ( m5 9 ! _w1 cont9u+1 inde$1 to *]i% a high ideal ( ! duties ( ! citiz5 ( a free c\ntry1 b pursu+ x along well-beat5 ways4 ,!re is no d\bt t1 unless "s su* ev5t z he has n>rat$1 or "s influ5ce equival5t to x 9 effect1 _h sup]naturally drawn him away1 he w\ld ( 8 own volition h s\ght :at he 0 repeat$ly advis$ to seek by 8 mo/ atta*$ fri5ds1 a cong5ial union 9 w$lock4 ,he 0 naturally susceptible1 & 8 atta*m5ts 7 n only firm1 b (t5 seem$ ob/9ate4 ,( celibacy he _h1 up to ?is "t1 no o!r idea ?an su* z ! common run ( non-,ca?olics possess4 ,at home1 inde$1 :5 aft]w>ds press$ to seek a wife1 he _h answ]$1 truly en\gh1 ?\gh hold+ fa/ to 8 secret1 t he _h no ?\ght ( m>ry+ & felt an av]sion to company = su* an end4 ,& aga9 he writes to 8 "m1 anxi\s & tr\bl$ = 8 future1 t ! circle :i* surr\nd$ him 9 ,new ,york oppress$ & contract$ him1 & abridg$ 8 lib]ty4 ,!re 0 no "o 9 x :o increas$ 8 life4 ,b at ,brook ,f>m he met "s "o1 z is reveal$ by 8 di>y & correspond5ce1 :o deeply attract$ him1 & :o might h attract$ him z f> z m>riage _h he n already receiv$ ! ,holy ,_s's prev5i5t grace ( virg9ity4 ,t is to say1 he f\nd a be+1 to use 8 imp]sonal t]m1 ^: "n & id5tity he is c>eful to veil1 awkw>dly en\gh at times ) mislead+ pron\ns1 ^: *>m 0 s great z to w9 f him :at w\ld h be51 9 8 normal /ate1 a m>ital affection4 ,b he 0 no long] normal4 ,al?\gh /ill beyond ! visible pale ( t g>d5 ( elect s\ls1 ,god's holy ,*ur*1 he 0 already trans=m$ by ! quick5+ grace :i* rea*es f end to end mightily & ord]s all ?+s sweetly4 ,our next quotations af=d explicit pro( on ?is po9t3 ,tuesday1 ,may #af4--,life appe>s to be a p]petual /ruggle betwe5 ! heav5ly & ! worldly4 ,"h at ,brook ,f>m ,i become acqua9t$ ) p]sons :o h mov$ 9 a high] rank 9 society ?an ,i--p]sons ( good education & f9e tal5ts2 all ( :i* has an improv+ influ5ce on me4 ,& ,i meet ) ^? to :om ,i c speak1 & feel t1 to a great degree1 ,i am und]/ood & respond$ to4 ,9 ,new ,york ,i am alone 9 ! mid/ ( p4 ,i am n 9 any int]nal s5se en rapport ) !m4 ,i suppose ! reason :y ,i d n1 9 my pres5t /ate1 feel dispos$ to connect myself ) any be+1 & w\ld r avoid a p]son :om ,i 0 consci\s ,i might or c\ld love1 is t ,i feel my life to be 9 a rapid progress1 & t no /ep n[ w\ld be a p]man5t "o4 ,i am afraid ! *oice ,i w\ld h made "s "t s9ce 7if !re _h n be5 some?+ deeply secret 9 my be+ :i* prev5t$ me7 w\ld n[ be v unsatisfactory4 ,i feel consci\s !re c\ld n h be5 an equal & mutual advance1 because ! natures ( "s are n capable ( mu* gr[?4 ,& ,i mi/ru/ :e!r !re w\ld n h be5 an inequality1 h5ce di%>mony & unhapp9ess4 ,to be requir$ to accept y\r pa/ is mo/ unpleasant4 ,p]haps ! society ) :i* ,i 0 surr\nd$ did n af=d a be+ t unifi$ ) m9e own4 ,& ,i h fai? t !re are spiritual laws b5ea? all ?is outw>d framework ( sight & s5se1 :i* w1 if rightly believ$ 9 & tru/$1 lead to ! goal ( et]nal life1 h>mony ( be+1 & union ) ,god4 ,s ,i accept my be+ l$ "h4 ,am ,i sup]/iti\s or egoi/ic 9 believ+ ?is8 ,?is is1 no d\bt1 disput$ t]ritory4 ,h we any objective rule to comp>e our fai? ) :i* w\ld give u ! measure ( our sup]/ition8 ,h[ mu* ( to-day w\ld h seem$ miracul\s or sup]/iti\s to ! pa/8 ,i confess ,i h no rule or measure to judge ! fai? ( any man4 ,! pa/ is always ! /ate ( infancy4 ,! pres5t is an et]nal y\?1 aspir+ aft] manhood2 hop+ wi/fully1 int5sely desir+1 li/fully li/5+1 dimly see+ ! bright /> ( hope 9 ! future1 beckon+ him to move rapidly on1 :ile 8 /rong he>t beats ) en?usiasm & gl[+ joy4 ,! pa/ is dead4 ,wi% me n ! dead f ! grave1 = t w\ld be dea? re-enact$4 4 4 4 ,oh1 7 our wi%es 9 h>mony ) heav51 h[ *ang$ w\ld be ! sc5es ( our life6 4 4 4 ,?is accordance w\ld be music :i* only ! angels n[ he>--too delicate = be+s su* z we are at pres5t4 ,li/6 ha/ ?\ n he>d 9 "s bright mom5t a /ra9 f heav5's angelic *oirs8 ,oh1 yes6 ,9 our sleep ! angels h :isp]$ su* ri* music1 & ! s\l be+ !n passive1 we c he>4 ,& ! pleasure does n leave u :5 passion & ?\ght take _! accu/om$ c\rse4 ,o man6 7 ?y s\l m pure1 :at a _w w\ld op5 to ?y inn] s5ses6 ,!re w\ld be no mom5t ( ?y exi/5ce b w\ld be fill$ ) ! music ( love4 ,! prophet said3 ',9 t day my eyes 7 op5$4' ,& behold :at he saw6 ,he saw x4 ,c\ld we b he>6 ,! ^w ( ! ,"l is ev] speak+--alas6 :]e is "o t c he>8 ,:]e are our ,isaiahs1 our ,ezekiels1 our ,j]emiahs8 ,oh6 ?\ %runk5-visag$1 black1 holl[-ey$ d\bt6 ha/ ?\ pass$ l a cl\d ov] m5's s\ls1 mak+ !m bl9d1 deaf & dumb8 ,ah1 ha6 do/ ?\ %udd]8 ,i *ant ?y requiem1 & prophets1 poets1 & se]s %all rise aga96 ,i see !m com+4 ,great heav56 ,e>? %all be aga9 a p>adise1 & ,god conv]se ) m56 ,! next entry is undat$1 b x 0 probably made on ! la/ day ( ,may4 ,x has s]v$ to fix ! proximate "t ( ! illness & disquiet :i* l$ to 8 fir/ )drawal f bus9ess & home4 ,w$nesday4--,ab\t t5 mon?s ago--p]haps only sev5 or eight--,i saw 7,i _c say ,i dream$2 x 0 q diff]5t f dream+2 ,i 0 seat$ on ! side ( my b$7 a beautiful1 angelic be+1 & myself /&+ alongside ( h]1 feel+ a mo/ heav5ly pure joy4 ,x 0 z if our bodies 7 lum9\s & gave =? a moon-l light :i* sprung f ! joy we exp]i5c$4 ,i felt z if we _h always liv$ toge!r1 & t our motions1 actions1 feel+s1 & ?\ghts came f "o c5tre4 ,:5 ,i look$ t[>ds h] ,i saw no bold outl9e ( =m1 b an angelic some?+ ,i _c describe1 ?\gh 9 angelic %ape & image4 ,x 0 ?is picture t has left su* an indelible impression on my m9d4 ,= "s "t aft]w>d ,i cont9u$ to feel ! same influ5ce1 & d n[ s (t5 t ! actual ar\nd me has lo/ its hold4 ,9 my /ate previ\s to my vision ,i %\ld h m>ri$ ere ?is1 = !re are ^? ,i h s9ce se5 :o w\ld h met ! dem&s ( my m9d4 ,b n[ ?is vision cont9ually hov]s ov] me & prev5ts me1 by its beauty1 f accept+ any "o else2 = ,i am *>m$ by its influ5ce1 & consci\s t1 %\ld ,i accept any o!r1 ,i %\ld lose ! life :i* w\ld be ! only "o :]e9 ,i c\ld say ,i live4 ,^? ( our read]s :o are ei!r v]s$ 9 my/ical !ology or :o h any wide k ( ! lives ( ! ,*ur*'s m int]ior sa9ts1 ) nei!r ( :i* ,isaac ,heck] _h at ?is "t any acqua9tance1 w be apt to recall "h ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi & 8 bride1 ! ,lady ,pov]ty1 ! simil> occurr5ces relat$ by ,h5ry ,suso ( himself1 & ! my/ic esp\sals ( ,/4 ,ca?>9e4 ,we h 9 ?is relation n only ! pla9ly av[$ reason :y he accept$ ! celibate life1 ev5 be=e ent]+ ! ,*ur* or arriv+ at any cle> und]/&+ ( 8 duty to d s1 b we h some?+ m4 ,n yet c]ta9 ( 8 own vocation1 ! dream ( a virg9al apo/olate1 includ+ ! two sexes1 _h already absorb$ 8 ye>n+s1 nev] aga9 to be =gott54 ,nei!r prie/ nor ,ca?olic1 save 9 ! z yet unreveal$ ord9ance ( ,god1 he 0 no long] free to invite any woman to m>riage1 no matt] h[ deeply he might be s5sible ( h] fem99e attraction4 ,! union ( s\ls8 ,yes2 = uses wor?y ( s\ls4 ,! union ( bodies8 ,no2 t w\ld only clip 8 w+s & n>r[ 8 horizon4 ,!nce=w>d ! te/ ( true k9%ip ) him c\ld only be a k9dr$ aspiration aft] union 9 lib]ty f m]ely natural trammels1 9 ord] to t5d m surely to a sup]natural end4 ,?is may seem to "s a /range beg9n+ to a life s simply & entirely set ap>t f ! active1 or1 at lea/1 public union ( ! sexes 9 apo/olic labors4 ,/range or n1 ! read] w see x to be m true z ?is biography proce$s1 & its writ] is n consci\s ( any reluctance to make x kn[n4 ,su* an integral sup]natural mission to m5 0 :at he ev] aft] desir$ & s\ght to e/abli%1 ?\gh he only atta9$ success on ! male side4 ,we _c d5y t ?is di>y1 surpris+ to u 9 _m ways1 0 mo/ s 9 ?is p>ticul>1 al?\gh 9 ?is p>ticul> we f\nd ! explanation ( _m words spok5 by ,fa!r ,heck] 9 8 maturity & old age1 words ! mo/ sob] & ! mo/ decid$ we ev] he>d f him4 ,he nev] = an h\r left out ( view ! ne$ ( wom5 = any great "w ( religion1 ?\gh he d\btless made v sure ( 8 auditor be=e unveil+ 8 :ole ?\ght4 ,he nev] made s mu* z a s]i\s attempt to incorporate wom5 ) 8 "w1 b he nev] ceas$ to look ar\nd & to plan ) a view to do+ s4 ,among ! p]sonal memor&a already m5tion$ are f\nd evid5ces ( ?is s direct1 & corroborat$ by su* rec5t facts1 t !y _c be us$ until ! lapse ( "t %all h made an ext5sion ( ?is life z well possible z necess>y4 ,june #a4--,"o _c live a spiritual life 9 ! _w because x requires s mu* labor to supply food & clo?+ t :at is inw>d & et]nal has to be giv5 up = ! mat]ial & life 9 "t4 ,if "o has to su/a9 himself at ,brook ,f>m )\t o!r means to aid him1 he mu/ employ 8 /r5g? to t degree t he has no "t = ! culture ( ! spiritual4 ,i _c rema9 & support myself )\t becom+ subject to ! same conditions z exi/$ at home4 ,i _c expect !m to be will+ to less5 _! pres5t exp5ses mu* = ! sake ( ga9+ "t = spiritual culture2 nor d ,i see h[ ,i c at home live ) my relatives & h ! "t :i* ,i require4 ,i see no way b to give up ! ta/e = f9e clo?+ & v>iety 9 food4 ,i w\ld pref] ! life ( ! mona/]y to t ( ! ext]nal _w4 ,! advantages = my be+ are great]4 ,! h>mony ( ! two is ! full & p]fect exi/5ce2 b ! spiritual %\ld always be pres]v$ at ! exp5se ( ! o!r1 :i* is contr>y to ! t5d5cy ( ! _w1 & p]haps ev5 to t ( ?is place4 ,i w\ld pref] go+ hungry 9 body ?an 9 s\l4 ,i am speak+ aga9/ nei!r1 = ,i believe 9 ! fulness ( life1 9 amply supply+ all its wants2 b ! k+dom ( ,god is m to me ?an ?is _w4 ,i w\ld be ,plato 9 love1 ,z5o 9 self-/r5g?1 & ,epicurus 9 ae/hetics2 b if ,i h to sacrifice ei!r1 let ,epicurus g4 ,june #ab4--;,at times ,i h an impulse to cry out1 ',:at w\ld/ ,?\ h me to d8' ,i w\ld %\t up into ! empty vault ( heav53 ',ah1 :y plague/ ,?\ me s8 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,give me an answ] unless ,?\ wilt h me consum$ by inw>d fre1 dry+ up ! liv+ liquid ( life4 ,w\ld/ ,?\ h me to give up all8 ,i h4 ,i h no dreams to realize4 ,i want no?+1 h no?+1 & am will+ to die 9 any way4 ,:at ties ,i h are few1 & c be cut ) a groan4' ,monday1 ,june #bf4--,solomon said1 aft] he _h ta/$ all ! joys ( ! _w1 ',vanity ( vanities1 all is vanity4' ,i1 my fri5d1 :o h sc>cely ta/$ any ( ! pleasures ( ! _w1 w\ld say ) ,solomon1 'all is vanity4' ,i see no?+ 9 :i* ,i c "w4 ,all are vanities1 %ad[s2 b5ea? all !re is no?+4 ,great ,god6 :at is all ?is =8 ,:y torm5t & pa9 me s8 ,:y is all ?is action a pr(anity to me8 ,& ev5 hol9ess1 :at is x8 ,oh6 ,i am dumb2 my s\l is in>ticulate4 ,!re is t 9 me :i* ,i w\ld p\r out4 ,oh6 :y is x t ! noble/ actions ( humanity speak n to my s\l8 ,all life is inadequate--b n 9 ! s5se ( ! _w4 ,i w\ld joyfully be sil5t1 obscure1 dead to all ! _w1 if ?is alone :i* is 9 me _h life4 ,i ask n = "n1 ri*es1 ext]nal conditions ( delight or spl5dor4 ,no2 ! meane/ ( all w\ld be heav5 to me1 if ?is inw>d impulse _h action1 liv$ itself out4 ,b no2 ,i am imprison$ 9 _s4 ,:at imprisons8 ,:at is imprison$8 ,:o c tell8 ,y say1 good advis]1 ',y mu/ accept ?+s z !y are--be cont5t to be2 h fai? 9 ,god2 d t "w :i* y\r h&s f9d to d4' ,good2 b x is tak5 = grant$ we "k :at ?+s are--:i* is ! "q4 ',be cont5t to be4' ,be :at8 ',h fai? 9 ,god4' ,yes4 ',"w8' ,yes2 b h[8 ,l o!rs4 ,b ?is is n "w to me2 x is dea?2 nay1 worse--x is s92 h5ce1 damnation--& ,i am n ready to g to hell yet4 ,y\r "w gives me no activity2 & to />ve1 if ,i mu/1 is bett] ?an to d ! pr(ane1 ! sacrilegi\s labor y place be=e me4 ,i want ,god's liv+ "w to d4 ,my labor mu/ be a s]mon1 e motion ( my body a ^w1 e act a s5t5ce4 ,my "w mu/ be devotional4 ,i mu/ feel t ,i am wor%ipp+4 ,x mu/ be music1 love1 pray]4 ,my field mu/ be ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,*ri/ mu/ reign 9 all4 ,x mu/ be ,*ri/ do+ 9 me1 & n me4 ,my life mu/ be poetical1 div9e4 ,head1 he>t1 & h&s mu/ be a tr9ity 9 unity2 !y mu/ tone 9 "o accord4 ,my "w mu/ be "w ( inspiration & aspiration4 ,my he>t _c be 9 heav5 :5 my head & h&s are 9 hell4 ,i mu/ feel t ,i am build+ up ,*ri/'s k+dom 9 all t ,i d4 ,to give ,*ri/ room = action 9 my he>t1 s\l1 & body is my desire1 my aim1 purpose1 be+4 4 4 4 ,x is n he :o goes to *ur*1 says 8 pray]s1 s+s psalms1 says ',"l1 ,"l1' :o is 9 ,god & e/abli%+ ,8 k+dom4 ,no2 x is he :o is do+ x4 ,! e>? is to be ,8 k+dom1 & y\r pray]s mu/ be de$s1 y\r actions music asc5d+ to heav54 ,! ,*ur* mu/ be ! k+dom ( ,god 9 its fulness4 4 4 4 ,are we ,*ri/ians if we act n 9 ! _s 9 :i* ,*ri/ act$8 ,%all we say3 ',:at %all we d8' ,foll[ ! _s ( ,*ri/ :i* is 9 y4 ',unless ye are reprobates1 ye h x 9 y4' ',be ye fai?ful1 z ,i am1' said ,jesus4 ',love "o ano!r z ,i h lov$ y4' ,take up y\r cross & foll[ ,him4 ,leave all1 if ! ,_s leads y to leave all4 ,d :atev] x comm&s y4 ,!re w be no lack ( action4 ,c>e n = ! _w2 give up weal?1 fri5ds1 ^? t y love1 ! op9ions ( all4 ,be will+ to be despis$1 spit ^u1 crucifi$4 ,be sil5t1 & let y\r sil5ce speak = y4 ,x is pla9 t :at ,isaac ,heck] is "h condemn+ is ! life ( ! _w1 :olly ord9>y 9 its aims & motives4 ,x is n to be und]/ood z a condemnation ( ! common lot ( m51 or ( t life 9 itself4 ,x 0 only z he saw x ov] aga9/ 8 own vocation to some?+ high] t x became repulsive1 nay guilty to him4 ,nor 0 he ev5 yet s settl$ 9 8 view ( ! contra/$ wor? ( ! two c>e]s betwe5 :i* he _h to *oose1 z to be q free f pa9ful /ruggles4 ,9 ! entry made on ! day prec$+ ?is outbur/1 he once m recurs to ! subject ( m>riage3 ,monday ,ev5+1 ,june #bf4--,?is ev5+ ! same advice t has be5 giv5 me be=e1 fir/ by ! doctor :o att5d$ me1 next by my de>e/ fri5d1 0 giv5 me aga9 by a man :o n[ resides "h4 ,tuesday ,morn+1 ,june #bg4--,r ?an foll[ ?is advice1 ,i w\ld die4 ,i %\ld be mis]able all my life4 ,nay1 dea? be=e ?is4 ,^! m5 appe> to me z natural m51 b n 9 ! same life z m9e4 ,!y are old]1 h m exp]i5ce & m judgm5t ?an ,i1 p]haps2 b consid]+ ! po9t ( view f :i* _! judgm5t is =m$1 _! advice does n appe> to be ! c\nsel = me4 ,i nev] c1 nor w1 save my heal? or life by su* means4 ,if t is ! only rem$y1 !n unrem$i$ mu/ ,i rema94 ,b ! cause ( my pres5t /ate ( m9d is n :at !y suppose4 ,x is deep]1 high]1 &1 ,o ,god6 ,?\ kn[e/ :at x is6 ,wilt ,?\ give me hope1 /r5g?1 guidance8 4 4 4 ,friday1 ,june #bi4--;,am ,i l$ by some?+ high] to ! life to :i* ,i am t5d+8 ,sometimes ,i ?9k x is mo/ prop] = me to return home1 accept ?+s z !y are1 & live a life l o!rs--z good1 & z mu* bett] z possible4 ,if ,i c f9d "o ) :om ,i ?9k ,i c live happily1 to accept su* a "o1 & give up t :i* n[ leads me4 ,my fri5ds w\ld say ?is is ! prud5t & rational c\rse--b x appe>s ?is is n m9e4 ,t ,i am "h is "o evid5ce t x is n m9e4 ,a second is t ,i /ruggl$ aga9/ :at l$ me "h z mu* z lay 9 my p[]1 until ,i became weak1 sick1 & conf9$ to my b$4 ,f>!r ?an t ,i c\ld n g4 ,!y tell me t if ,i 7 m>ri$ x w\ld n be s ) me4 ,i w n dispute ?is1 al?\gh ,i d n believe x4 ,b1 my good fri5ds1 t is ! difficulty4 ,to m>ry is to me impossible4 ,y tell me ?is is unnatural4 ,yes1 my bre?r51 x may be unnatural1 b h[ %all ,i be natural8 ,mu/ ,i commit t :i* 9 my sight is a crime1 :i* ,i feel w\ld make me mis]able & be dea? to my s\l8 ',b ?is is fooli% & "o-sid$ 9 y4 ,y are wrong-m9d$4 ,y w lose y\r heal?1 y\r y\?ful joy1 & ! pleasure :i* ,god has1 by human laws1 design$ y to enjoy4 ,y %\ld give up ^! ?\ghts & feel+s ( y\rs & be l ^? ar\nd y4 ,yes1 my fri5ds1 ?is advice ,i accept ) love1 kn[+ y\r k9dness to me4 ,b1 alas6 ,i feel t x comes f su* a s\rce t ,i _c receive x4 ,july #e4--,my bro!r ,george has be5 "h2 he /ay$ ?ree days4 ,he told me he _h (t5 talk$ ) my bro!r ,john ab\t liv+ a life high]1 nobl]1 & m self-d5y+ ?an he _h done4 ,x appe>s f 8 conv]sation t s9ce ,i left home !y h be5 impress$ ) a deep] & bett] _s4 ,to me x is ( mu* int]e/ to decide :at ,i %all d4 ,i h det]m9$ to make a visit to ,fruitl&s4 ,to leave ?is place is to me a great sacrifice4 ,i h be5 mu* ref9$ 9 be+ "h4 ,to /ay "h--to pur*ase a place = myself--or to g home4 ,^! are que/ions ab\t :i* ,i feel ! want ( "s fri5d to consult )4 ,i h no "o to :om ,i c g = advice4 ,if ,i wi% to be self-d5y+1 "o w\ld say at home is ! be/1 ! l>ge/ field = my activity4 ,?is may be true 9 "o s5se4 ,b is x wise to g :]e !re are ! mo/ difficulties to ov]come8 ,w\ld x n be bett] to plant ! tree 9 ! soil :]e x c gr[ mo/ 9 e direction8 ,at home1 to be sure1 if ,i h /r5g? to succe$1 ,i may1 p]haps1 d ! mo/ good1 & x may be ! wide/ sph]e = me4 ,b !re are _m difficulties :i* h su* a direct influ5ce on "o to injure1 to blight all high & noble s5tim5ts1 t ,i fe> to enc\nt] !m1 & ,i am n sure x is my place4 ,p]haps x w\ld be be/ = me n to speculate on ! future1 b look to ,him :o is above = wise direction 9 all t conc]ns my life4 ,sacrifices mu/ be made4 ,i mu/ expect & accept !m 9 a meek1 humble1 & will+ _s4 ,,*apt] ,,viii ,,fruitl&s ,,:at influ5c$ ,isaac ,heck] to leave ,brook ,f>m1 a place s cong5ial 9 _m ways to 8 natural dispositions1 01 pla9ly en\gh1 8 t5d5cy to seek a m ascetic & int]ior life ?an he c\ld lead !re4 ,! /ep co/ him mu*1 b he _h receiv$ all t ! place & 8 companions c\ld give him1 & 8 dep>ture 0 inevitable4 ,8 next move 9 pursuit if 8 ideal took him to ,fruitl&s4 ,?is 0 a f>m1 situat$ ne> ,h>v>d1 9 ,worce/] ,co41 ,massa*usetts1 :i* _h be5 b\ght by ,mr4 ,*>les ,lane1 an ,engli% admir] ( ,amos ,bronson ,alcott1 ) ! hope ( e/abli%+ on x a new community 9 consonance ) ! views & wi%es ( ! latt]4 ,p]haps ,fruitl&s c\ld nev]1 at any /age ( its exi/5ce z a corporate home = ,mr4 ,alcott's family & 8 scanty foll[+ ( disciples1 h be5 truly describ$ z 9 runn+ ord]1 b :5 ,isaac ,heck] w5t !re1 on ,july #aa1 #ahdc1 x 0 /ill 9 its incipi5cy4 ,he _h paid ! ,fruitl&]s a brief visit t[>d ! end ( ,june1 & ?\ght t he saw 9 !m evid5ces ( a deep] life4 ,x speaks volumes = 8 native sagacity & ke5 eye = realities1 t less ?an a =tnight's resid5ce ) ,mr4 ,alcott %\ld h suffic$ to dispel ?is illusion4 ,bronson ,alcott seems to h be5 by nature :at ! ,fr5* call a poseur2 or1 z "o ( 8 own n unk9dly intimates has describ$ him1 an innoc5t *>latan4 ,al?\gh n altoge!r empty1 he 0 va92 full ( talk :i* _h :at 0 mo/ (t5 a false air ( pr(undity2 unpractical & incapable 9 ! ord9>y affairs ( life to a degree n adequately comp5sat$ = by su* a grasp z he 0 able to get on ! realities t und]lie !m2 & ) an impos+ aspect :i* correspond$ wond]fully well ) 8 int]ior traits4 ,t1 9 8 prime1 8 p]suasive acc5ts & bl& self-confid5ce1 back$ by ! admiration felt & express$ = him by m5 su* z ,em]son1 & "s ( ! community at ,brook ,f>m1 %\ld h induc$ an op5-m9d$ y\? l ,isaac ,heck] to take him = a "t at 8 own valuation1 is n /range4 ,! tru? is1 t x 0 "o ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s life-long traits to prove all ?+s1 t he might f9d ! good & hold fa/ to x4 ,!re 0 an elem5t ( ju/ice 9 8 make-up :i* enabl$ him to susp5d judgm5t ^u any in/itution or p]son1 h[ev] little !y seem$ to des]ve su* consid]ation1 until he 0 9 a condition to decide f 8 own inve/igations4 ,we %all see1 lat] on1 h[ he tri$ all ! pr9cipal =ms ( ,prote/antism be=e decid+ ^u ,ca?olicity1 /rong z 8 t5d5cy t[>d ! ,*ur* _h become4 ,we h nev] kn[n any o!r man :o1 )\t exhibit+ ob/9acy1 c\ld s /eadfa/ly res]ve 8 judgm5t on ano!r's /atem5t1 especially if x 7 9 ! nature ( a condemnation4 ,:5 ,isaac ,heck] fir/ made 8 acqua9tance1 ,mr4 ,alcott _h b rec5tly return$ f ,engl&1 :i!r he _h gone on ! invitation ( ,james ,p4 ,greaves1 a fri5d & fell[-labor] ( ! great ,swiss educator1 ,pe/alozzi4 ,mr4 ,alcott _h ga9$ a c]ta9 vogue at home z a lectur]1 & also z ! conductor ( a s+ul> s*ool = "y *ildr54 ,among its _m peculi>ities 0 t ( c>ry+ moral suasion to su* l5g?s1 z a solit>y means ( discipl9e1 t ! ma/] occasionally publicly submitt$ to ! ca/igation e>n$ by a refractory ur*91 probably by way ( rea*+ ! latt]'s moral s5se ?r\gh %ame or pity4 ,?is 01 d\btless1 r int]e/+ to ! pupils1 :e!r or n x 0 corrective4 ,mr4 ,alcott's peculi>ities did n /op "h1 h[ev]1 & ,bo/on p>5ts1 :5 he began to publi% ! ,colloquies on ! ,gospels :i* he held ) _! *ildr51 conclud$1 on ! evid5ce ?us furni%$1 t 8 ?\ght 0 too advanc$ to make x prud5t to tru/ !m long] to 8 c>e4 ,miss ,elizabe? ,p4 ,peabody1 s9ce s well kn[n z an expositor ( ! ,k9d]g>t5 sy/em1 _h be5 8 assi/ant4 ,%e wrote a ,record ( ,mr4 ,alcott's ,s*ool :i* attract$ ! att5tion ( a small b& ( educational en?usia/s 9 ,engl&4 ,!y gave ! "n ( ,alcott ,h\se to a s*ool ( _! own at ,ham1 ne> ,london1 & hop$ = great ?+s f ! p]sonal advice & pres5ce ( ! ,concord ,plato4 ,he 0 pett$ & fet$ among !m pretty ne>ly to ! top ( 8 b5t2 b 8 visit w\ld h prov$ a m unalloy$ success if ! h>d ,scot* s5se ( ,c>lyle1 to :om ,em]son _h recomm5d$ him1 _h n s quickly dubb$ 8 vaunt$ dep?s deceptive %all[s4 ,on 8 return he 0 accompani$ by two ,engli%m5 :o seem$ to be l-m9d$ ) himself1 a ,mr4 ,h4 ,g4 ,wright & ,mr4 ,*>les ,lane1 bo? ( :om return$ )9 a ye> or two to _! own c\ntry1 wis] & p]haps sadd] m54 ,lane1 at all ev5ts1 :o 0 a simple & c&id s\l = :om ,isaac ,heck] conceiv$ a long-endur+ fri5d%ip1 sunk all 8 private means irrevocably 9 ! futile attempt to e/abli% ,fruitl&s on a solid basis4 ,to use 8 own words 9 a lett] n[ at our h&1 ?\gh ref]r+ to ano!r ( ,mr4 ,alcott's s*emes1 8 little =tune 0 buri$ 9 ! same grave ( fl[]y rhetoric 9 :i* s _m o!r notions h be5 deposit$4 ,ly+ be=e u !re is an epi/le--,mr4 ,alcott's mo/ ord9>y writt5 communications ) 8 fri5ds mu/ h dem&$ t t]m 9 pref]5ce to any?+ less /ately--9 :i* he has describ$ 8 own ideal ( :at life at ,fruitl&s ought to be4 ,no direct] way ( convey+ to our read]s a notion ( 8 peculi> faculty ( seem+ to say some?+ ( s+ul> importance occurs to u1 ?an t ( giv+ x entire4 ,?\gh f\nd among ,fa!r ,heck]'s pap]s1 x 0 n address$ to him b to "o ( 8 mo/-valu$ ,brook ,f>m associates3 ,concord1 ,mass41 ,febru>y #ae1 #ahdc4--;,,de> ,,fri5d3 ,9 reply to y\r lett] ( ! #ab?1 ,i h to say t z until ! sn[ leaves ! gr\nd cle>1 ! ,family _c s mu* z look = a locality 7:i* !n may n readily be f\nd71 x seems premature to talk ( ! conditions on :i* any association may be =m$4 ,nev]!less1 z human progress is a univ]sally int]e/+ subject1 ,i h mu* pleasure 9 communicat+ ) y on ! "q ( ! g5]al conditions mo/ conducive to t end4 ,i h no belief 9 associations ( human be+s = ! purpose ( mak+ !mselves happy by means ( improv$ outw>d arrangem5ts alone1 z ! f\nta9s ( happ9ess are )91 & are op5$ to u z we are preh>moniz$ or consociat$ ) ! ,univ]sal ,_s4 ,?is is ! "o condition ne$ful = happy association among/ m54 ,& ?is condition is atta9$ by ! surr5d] ( all individual or selfi% gratification--a complete will+ness to be m\ld$ by ,div9ity4 ,?is1 z m5 n[ are1 ( c\rse involves self-r5unciation & retr5*m5t2 & 9 enum]at+ ! h9drances :i* deb> u f happ9ess1 we %all be drawn to consid]1 9 ! fir/ place1 ourselves2 & to ent]ta9 practically ! "q1 ,are we prep>$ = ! giv+ up all1 & tak+ refuge 9 ,love z an unfail+ ,provid5ce8 ,a fai? & reliance z l>ge z ?is seems ne$ful to insure u aga9/ disappo9tm5t4 ,! entrance to ,p>adise is /ill ?r\gh ! /rait gate & n>r[ way ( self-d5ial4 ,ed5's av5ue is yet gu>d$ by ! fi]y-sword$ *]ubim1 & humility & *>ity are ! cr$5tials = admission4 ,unless well arm$ ) valor & pati5ce1 we mu/ cont9ue 9 ! old & mu*-trodd5 broad way1 & take %>e ( ! p5alties paid by all :o walk !reon4 ,! conditions = "o are conditions = all4 ,h5ce !re c be no p>ley ) ! tempt]1 no private pleas = self-indulg5ce1 no lean+ on ! brok5 re$ ( circum/ances4 ,x is n = u to prescribe conditions2 ^! are prescrib$ on our natures1 our /ate ( be+--& ! be/ we c d1 if disqualifi$1 is ei!r to atta9 an am5d$ "*1 or to rel9qui% all hopes ( secur+ felicity4 ,our purposes1 z f> z we "k !m at pres5t1 are briefly ^!3 ,fir/1 to obta9 ! free use ( a spot ( l& adequate by our own labor to our support2 includ+1 ( c\rse1 a conv5i5t pla9 h\se1 & (fices1 wood-lot1 g>d51 & or*>d4 ,secondly1 to live indep5d5tly ( =eign aids by be+ suffici5tly elevat$ to procure all articles = subsi/5ce 9 ! productions ( ! spot1 "u a regim5 ( heal?ful labor & recreation2 ) b5ignity t[>ds all creatures1 human & inf]ior2 ) beauty & ref9em5t 9 all economies2 & ! pure/ *>ity ?r\gh\t our demeanor4 ,%\ld ?is k9d ( life attract p>ties t[>ds u--individuals ( l aims & issues--t /ate ( be+ itself det]m9es ! law ( association2 & ! p>ticul> mode may be spok5 ( m def9itely z individual cases may arise2 b1 9 no case1 c\ld inf]ior ends compromise ! pr9ciples laid d[n4 ,d\btless su* a h\sehold1 ) our libr>y1 our s]vices & mann] ( life1 may attract "y m5 & wom51 possibly also families ) *ildr51 desir\s ( access to ! *annels & f\nta9 ( wisdom & purity2 & we are n )\t hope t ,provid5ce w use u progressively = b5eficial effects 9 ! great "w ( human reg5]ation1 & ! re/oration ( ! highe/ life on e>?4 ,) ! humane wi% t y\rself & little ones may be l$ to confide 9 provid5tial ,love1 ,i am1 de> fri5d1 v truly y\rs1 ,a4 ,,bronson ,,alcott4 ,x mu/ be admitt$ t !re is some?+ delightful 9 ! naivete ( ?is und]tak+ to be suffici5tly elevat$ to live indep5d5tly ( =eign aids1 aft] fir/ gett+ ! free use ( a spot ( l&1 4 4 4 includ+1 ( c\rse1 a conv5i5t pla9 h\se1 & (fices1 wood-lot1 g>d51 & or*>d4 ,e/abli%m5ts :i* w\ld tol]ably approximate to ?is description1 & to ! really ess5tial ne$s ( its prospective f\nd]1 h long exi/$ 9 e civiliz$ community4 ,!re are c]ta9 re/rictions plac$ ^u _! inmates1 h[ev]1 & ,mr4 ,alcott's desire 0 to make sure ( 8 basis ( e>?ly supplies1 :ile left entirely free to p]suade himself t he _h arriv$ at an elevation :i* made him indep5d5t ( !m4 ,/ill1 ?\gh a *>latan1 x mu/ n be =gott5 t he 0 an innoc5t "o4 ,he 0 pla9ly born great 9 t way1 & _h no ne$ to a*ieve greatness 9 x4 ,z ,fa!r ,heck] said ( him long aft]w>ds1 ,diog5es & 8 tub w\ld h be5 ,alcott's ideal if he _h c>ri$ x out4 ,b he nev] c>ri$ x out4 ,diog5es himself1 x may be suppos$1 _h 8 ideal includ$ a family & an audi5ce z well z a tub1 might f9ally h come to hold t ! f9d+ ( ! latt] 0 a m]e detail1 :i* c\ld be entru/$ indiff]5tly to ei!r ( ! two =m] or to bo? comb9$4 ,somebody once describ$ ,fruitl&s z a place :]e ,mr4 ,alcott look$ b5ign & talk$ philosophy1 :ile ,mrs4 ,alcott & ! *ildr5 did ! "w4 ,/ill1 to look b5ign is a good deal = a man to d p]si/5tly 9 an adv]se _w1 indiff]5t = ! mo/ "p to ! *>ms ( div9e philosophy1 & ,mr4 ,alcott p]sev]$ 9 t ex]cise until 8 late/ day4 ,he 0 unque/ionably "o ( ^? :o l to sit ^u a plat=m1 wrote1 at ! "t ( 8 dea?1 "o :o knew ,alcott well1 & he may h lik$ to feel t 8 v5]able aspect _h ! effect ( a b5$iction4 ,b ) ?is mild criticism1 c5sure ( him is well-nigh exhau/$4 ,!re 0 no?+ ( ! ,patri>* ( ,ble$+ ,he>t ,y>d ab\t him except t v5]able aspect1 = :i* nature 0 responsible1 & n he4 ,fruitl&s 0 ! c>icature ( ,brook ,f>m4 ,j z ! fanatic is ! c>icature ( ! true re=m]1 s 0 ,alcott ! c>icature ( ,ripley4 ,?is is n meant z disp>ag+ ei!r ,alcott's s9c]ity or 8 intellig5ce1 b to affirm t he lack$ judgm5t1 t he miscalculat$ means & ends1 t he jump$ f !ory to practice )\t a mom5t's int]val1 pref]r$ to be guid$ by in/9ct r ?an by processes ( reason+1 & deem$ ?is to be ! philosoph]'s way4 ,9 ! memor&a ( private conv]sations ) ,fa!r ,heck] we f9d sev]al ref]5ces to ,mr4 ,alcott4 ,! fir/ be>s date ,febru>y #d1 #ahhb1 & occurs 9 a conv]sation rang+ ov] ! :ole ( 8 exp]i5ce betwe5 8 fir/ & second dep>tures f home4 ,we give x z x /&s3 ,fruitl&s 0 v diff]5t f ,brook ,f>m--f> m ascetic4 ,y didn't l x8 ,yes2 b !y did n beg9 to satisfy me4 ,i said to !m3 ',if y _h ! ,et]nal "h1 all "r4 ,i w\ld be ) y4' ,_h !y no notion ( ! h]eaft]8 ,no2 no?+ def9ite4 ,_! idea 0 human p]fection4 ,!y set out to demon/rate :at man c d 9 ! way ( ! supremacy ( ! spiritual ov] ! animal4 ',all "r1' ,i said1 ',i agree ) y fully4 ,i admire y\r asceticism2 x is no?+ new to me2 ,i h practis$ x a long "t myself4 ,if y c get ! ,ev]la/+ out ( my m9d1 ,i'm y\rs4 ,b ,i "k' 7"h ,fa!r ,heck] ?ump$ ! table at 8 b$side7 't ,i am go+ to live = ev]4' ,:at did ,alcott say :5 y left8 ,he w5t to ,lane & said1 ',well1 ,heck] has flunk$ out4 ,he hadn't ! c\rage to p]sev]e4 ,he's a c[>d4' ,b ,lane said1 ',no2 y're mi/ak54 ,heck]'s "r4 ,he want$ m ?an we _h to give him4' ,mr4 ,alcott's dea? 9 #ahhh 0 ! occasion ( ! rem9isc5ces :i* foll[3 ,m>* #e1 #ahhh4--;,bronson ,alcott dead6 ,i saw him com+ f ,ro*e/] on ! c>s4 ,i _h be5 a ,ca?olic mission>y = ,i don't "k h[ _m ye>s4 ,we sat toge!r4 ',fa!r ,heck]1' said he1 ':y c't y make a ,ca?olic ( me8' ',too mu* ru/ "h1' said ,i1 clapp+ him on ! knee4 ,he got v angry because ,i said t 0 ! ob/acle4 ,i nev] saw him angry at any o!r "t4 ,he 0 too pr\d4 ,b he 0 a great natural man4 ,he 0 fai?ful to pure1 natural consci5ce4 ,8 virtues came f t4 ,he nev] _h any virtue beyond :at a good pagan has4 ,he nev] aim$ at any?+ m1 nor claim$ to4 ,he ma9ta9$ t to be all4 ,i don't believe he ev] pray$4 ,:om c\ld he pray to8 ,0 n ,bronson ,alcott ! greate/ ( all8 ,did he believe 9 ,god8 ,n ! ,god t we "k4 ,he believ$ 9 ! ,bronson ,alcott ,god4 ,he 0 8 own ,god4 ,y say he 0 ,em]son's ma/]3 :at d y mean by t8 ,he taught ,em]son4 ,he began life z a p$l]4 ,! ,yankee p$l] 0 ,em]son's ma/]4 ,:atev] pr9ciples ,em]son _h1 ,alcott gave him4 ,& ,em]son 0 a good pupil2 he 0 fai?ful to 8 ma/] to ! end4 ,:5 did ,i "k him fir/8 ,h>d to rememb]4 ,he 0 ! head ( ,fruitl&s1 z ,ripley 0 ( ,brook ,f>m4 ,!y 7 entirely diff]5t m54 ,diog5es & 8 tub w\ld h be5 ,alcott's ideal if he _h c>ri$ x out4 ,b he nev] c>ri$ x out4 ,ripley's ideal w\ld h be5 ,epictetus4 ,ripley w\ld h tak5 ) him ! good ?+s ( ?is life2 ,alcott w\ld h reject$ !m all4 ,h[ did he receive y at ,fruitl&s8 ,v k9dly1 b f mix$ & selfi% motives4 ,i suspect$ he want$ me because he ?\ght ,i w\ld br+ money to ! community4 ,lane 0 entirely unselfi%4 ,alcott 0 a man ( no great intellectual gifts or acquirem5ts4 ,8 k came *iefly f exp]i5ce & in/9ct4 ,he _h an ins9uat+ & p]suasive way ) him--he mu/ h be5 an ideal p$l]4 ,:at if he _h be5 a ,ca?olic1 & ?or\ghly sanctifi$8 ,he c\ld h be5 no?+ b a h]mit l ^? ( ! f\r? c5tury--he 0 naturally & con/itutionally s odd4 ,em]son1 ,alcott1 & ,?oreau 7 ?ree consecrat$ cranks3 r be crank ?an presid5t4 ,all ! cranks look up to !m4 ,beside ^! lat] rem9isc5ces we %all n[ place ! contempor>y record ( 8 impressions made by ,isaac ,heck] :ile at ,fruitl&s4 ,our fir/ extract1 h[ev]1 0 writt5 at ,brook ,f>m1 a few days be=e go+ ?i!r3 ,july #g1 #ahdc4--;,i g to ,mr4 ,alcott's next ,tuesday1 if no?+ happ5s4 ,i h _h ?ree pairs ( co>se pants & a coat made = me4 ,x is my int5tion to comm5ce "w z soon z ,i get !re4 ,i w gradually simplify my dress )\t mak+ any sudd5 diff]5ce1 al?\gh x w\ld be easi] to make a radical & ?or\gh *ange at once ?an piece by piece4 ,b ?is w be a lesson 9 pati5t p]sev]ance to me4 ,all our difficulties %\ld be look$ at 9 su* a light z to improve & elevate our m9ds4 ,i c h>dly prev5t myself f say+ h[ mu* ,i %all miss ! company ( ^? :om ,i love & associate ) "h4 ,b ,i mu/ g4 ,i am call$ ) a /rong] voice4 ,?is is a diff]5t trial f any ,i h ev] _h4 ,i h _h t ( leav+ k9dr$1 b n[ ,i h t ( leav+ ^? :om ,i love f aff9ity4 ,if ,i wi%$ to live a life ! mo/ gratify+ to me1 & 9 agreeable company1 ,i c]ta9ly w\ld rema9 "h4 ,"h are ref9+ amusem5ts1 cultivat$ p]sons--& "o :om ,i h n spok5 (1 "o :o is too mu* to me to speak (1 "o :o w\ld leave all = me4 ,alas6 him ,i mu/ leave to g4 ,9 ?is f9al s5t5ce1 z x n[ /&s 9 ! di>y & z we h transcrib$ x1 occurs "o ( ^? ef=ts ( :i* we h spok51 to oblit]ate ! traces ( ?is e>ly atta*m5t4 ,him 0 orig9ally writt5 h]1 b ! r has be5 l5g!n$ to an m1 & ! e dott$1 bo? ) a c>e :i* ov]%ot _! m>k by an almo/ imp]ceptible hair's-bread?4 ,if ! nature ( ?is atta*m5t 7 n s evid5t f o!r s\rces1 we %\ld h left su* passages unquot$2 fe>+ le/ !y might be misund]/ood4 ,z x is1 ! light !y ca/ seems to u to ?r[ up into full] proportions ! k9d & ext5t ( ! r5unciations to :i* ,isaac ,heck] 0 call$ be=e he _h arriv$ at any cle> view ( ! end to :i* !y t5d$4 ,fruitl&s1 ,july #ab4--,la/ ev5+ ,i arriv$ "h4 ,aft] tea ,i w5t out 9 ! fields & rak$ hay = an h\r 9 company ) ! p]sons "h4 ,we return$ & _h a conv]sation on ,clo?+4 ,"s v f9e ?+s 7 said by ,mr4 ,alcott & ,mr4 ,lane4 ,9 mo/ ( _! ?\ghts ,i co9cide2 !y are ! same :i* ( late h mu* occupi$ my m9d4 ,alcott said t to ,em]son ! _w 0 a lecture-room1 to ,br[nson a ro/rum4 ,?is morn+ aft] breakfa/ a conv]sation 0 held on ,fri5d%ip & its laws & conditions4 ,mr4 ,alcott plac$ ,innoc5ce fir/2 ,l>n$1 ,?\ghtfulness2 ,i1 ,s]i\sness2 ,lane1 ,fidelity4 ,july #ac4--,?is morn+ aft] breakfa/ !re 0 held a conv]sation on ,! ,highe/ ,aim4 ,mr4 ,alcott said x 0 ,integrity2 ,i1 ,h>monic be+2 ,lane1 ,progressive be+2 ,l>n$1 ,annihilation ( self2 ,b[]1 ,repulsion ( ! evil 9 u4 ,!n !re 0 a confession ( ! ob/acles :i* prev5t u f atta9+ ! highe/ aim4 ,m9e 0 ! d\bt :e!r ! light is light2 n ! want ( w to foll[1 or ! sight to see4 ,july #ag4--;,i _c und]/& :at x is t leads me1 or :at ,i am aft]4 ,be+ is incompreh5sible4 ,:at %all ,i be l$ to8 ,is !re a be+ :om ,i may m>ry & :o w\ld be ! means ( op5+ my eyes8 ,sometimes ,i ?9k s--b x appe>s impossible4 ,:y %\ld o!rs tell me t x is s1 & w be s1 9 an unconsci\s way1 z ,l>n$ did on ,sunday la/1 & z o!rs h be=e him8 ,w ,i be l$ home8 ,x /rikes me ^! p "h1 ,alcott & ,lane1 w be a great deal to me4 ,i d n "k b !y may be :at ,i am look+ =1 or ! answ] to t 9 me :i* is ask+4 ,c ,i say x8 ,i believe x %\ld be said4 ,"h ,i _c end4 ,!y are too ne> me2 !y d n awak5 9 me t s5se ( _! high sup]iority :i* w\ld keep me "h to be bett]$1 to be elevat$4 ,!y h mu*1 v mu*4 ,i desire ,mr4 ,alcott's /r5g? ( self-d5ial1 & ! unselfi%ness ( ,mr4 ,lane 9 money matt]s4 ,9 bo? ^! !y are f> my sup]iors4 ,i w\ld be meek1 humble1 & sit at _! feet t ,i might be z !y are4 ,!y d n und]/& me1 b if ,i am :at my consci\sness1 my he>t1 lead me to feel--if ,i am n deceiv$--:y !n ,i c wait4 ,yes1 pati5tly wait4 ,is n ?is ! fir/ "t s9ce ,i h be5 "h t ,i h recov]$ myself8 ,d ,i n feel t ,i h some?+ to receive "h1 to add to1 to increase my highe/ life1 :i* ,i h nev] felt any:]e else8 ,is ?is suffici5t to keep me "h8 ,if ,i c prophesy1 ,i mu/ say no4 ,i feel t x w n fill my capacity4 ,o ,god6 /r5g!n my resolution4 ,let me n wav]1 & cont9ue my life4 ,b ,i am s9ful4 ,oh1 =give my s9s6 ,:at %all ,i d1 ,o ,"l6 t !y may be blott$ out8 ,"l1 c\ld ,i only blot !m f my memory1 no?+ w\ld be too great or too mu*4 ,july #ah4--;,i h ?\ght ( my family ?is aft]noon1 & ! happ9ess & love ) :i* ,i might return to !m4 ,to leave !m1 to give up ! ?\ght ( liv+ ) !m aga9--c ,i ent]ta9 t idea8 ,/ill1 ,i _c conceive h[ ,i c engage 9 bus9ess1 %>e ! practices1 & indulge myself ) ! food & g>m5ture 7sic7 ( our home & city4 ,to return home1 7 x possible = me1 w\ld mo/ probably n only /op my progress1 b put me back4 ,x is useless = me to speculate ^u my future4 ,put dep5d5ce on ! _s :i* leads me1 be fai?ful to x2 "w1 & leave results to ,god4 ,if ! "q %\ld be ask$ me1 :e!r ,i w\ld give up my k9dr$ & bus9ess & foll[ out ?is _s-life1 or return & enjoy !m bo?1 ,i c\ld n hesitate a mom5t1 = !y w\ld n comp>e--!re w\ld be no room = *oice4 ,:at ,i d ,i mu/ d1 = x is n ,i t d x2 x is ! _s4 ,:at t _s may be is a "q ,i _c answ]1 ,:at x leads me to d w be ! only evid5ce ( its "*4 ,i feel z imp]sonal z a /rang] to x4 ,i ask1 ,:o are y8 ,:]e are y go+ to take me8 ,:y me8 ,:y n "s "o else8 ,i /& amaz$1 a/oni%$ to see myself4 ,alas6 ,i cry1 :o am ,i & :at does ?is mean8 & ,i am lo/ 9 wond]4 ,saturday1 ,july #ba4--,ye/]day1 aft] supp]1 a conv]sation took place betwe5 ,mr4 ,alcott1 ,mr4 ,lane1 & myself2 ! subject 0 my position ) reg>d to my family1 my duty1 & my position "h4 ,mr4 ,alcott ask$ = my fir/ impressions z reg>ds ! h9drances ,i h not$ s9ce com+ "h4 ,i told him c&idly !y 73 #a/1 8 want ( frankness2 #b;d1 8 disposition to sep>at5ess r ?an w9 co-op]ators ) ! aims 9 8 own m9d2 #c;d1 8 family1 :o prev5t 8 imm$iate plans ( re=mation2 #d?1 ! fact t ?is place has v little fruit on x1 :ile x 0 & is _! desire t fruit %\ld be ! pr9cipal "p ( _! diet2 #e?1 my fe> t !y h too decid$ a t5d5cy t[>d lit]ature & writ+ = ! prosp]ity & success ( _! ent]prise4 ,my relations ) my family are v critical at ?is p]iod--m s ?an !y h ev] be54 ,x is ! crisis ( ! /ate we h be5 9 = ?is pa/ ye>4 ,if ,god gives me /r5g? to be true to ! _s1 x is v d\btful h[ f> ^? at home w be will+ to second x4 ,i h writt5 !m a lett] ask+ = _! own aims & views ( life1 & ,i am anxi\s = _! answ]4 ,! "q ( return+ is n a wilful "o ) me1 = x is ! _s :i* guides me4 ,if x c live !re1 ,i g back4 ,if n1 ,i am gov]n$ & mu/ foll[ :]e x leads1 :]ev] t may be4 ,! lett] ref]r$ to 9 ?is entry ( ! di>y is too long1 & cov]s too mu* gr\nd already trav]s$1 to be quot$ 9 full1 b x conta9s "s /rik+ passages4 ,x 0 writt5 at ,fruitl&s1 ,july #ag1 '#dc4 ,aft] inquir+ ) 8 cu/om>y directness :at are _! aims 9 life & :at !y are do+ to atta9 !m1 he goes on to say3 ,al?\gh ! idea or aim :i* ea* "o aspires t[>d & tries to realize w be color$ by 8 own peculi> t5d5cies1 /ill1 9 sub/ance1 9 practice1 !y w agree if !y are inspir$ by ! self-same _s4 ,"h we h ! practical good s5se :i* re9$ 9 & direct$ ,isaac ,heck] ?r\gh\t 8 life1 mak+ x f9ally impossible = him n to see & recognize ! visible ,*ur*1 not)/&+ 8 my/ical t5d5cy1 8 want ( ?or\gh education1 & 8 bir?right ( h]esy4 ,aga9 he writes3 ,!re are all ! natural ties :y we %\ld n be sep>at$1 & no reasons :y we %\ld1 unless !re exi/s su* a wide diff]5ce 9 ! aims we seek to realize t x w\ld be injuri\s or impossible = u to live 9 family1 9 unity1 9 love4 ,i d n believe ?is diff]5ce exi/s1 b if x does1 & we are consci\s ( be+ l$ by a high] _s ?an our own1 we %\ld & w\ld sacrifice all t h9d]s u f ! div9e call+4 ,t dem&s implicit1 uncompromis+ ob$i5ce4 ,x speaks 9 ! tone ( high au?ority4 ,! dead mu/ bury _! dead4 ,t :i* (f5ds x mu/ be got rid ( at all co/s1 be x wife1 p>5ts1 *ildr51 bro!rs1 si/]s1 or our own eye or h&4 ,i d n contemplate a sacrifice ( ei!r ( ^!2 /ill1 x is well to consid] :e!r1 if su* a dem& %\ld be made ( u1 we are 9 su* a /ate ( m9d t we w\ld be will+ to give "o or all up1 if !y %\ld /& 9 ! way ( our progress t[>d ,god4 4 4 4 ,if y desire to cont9ue ! way ( life y h & d n[ lead1 be pla91 frank1 & s express y\rselves explicitly4 ,if n1 & y h any desire or int5tion 9 y\r m9ds to alt] or make a radical *ange 9 y\r ext]nal circum/ances = ! sake ( a high]1 bett] mode ( life1 be equally op51 & let me "k all y\r ?\ghts & aspirations :i* are /ruggl+ = expression1 = real life4 4 4 4 ,we h labor$ toge!r 9 union = mat]ial weal?2 c we n[ labor 9 ! same way = spiritual weal?8 ,if !re are suffici5t po9ts ( accord 9 u 9 ?is high] life1 we mu/ come toge!r & live 9 h>mony4 ,s9ce my dep>ture f home !re has be5 a *ange 9 my m9d1 or1 p]haps m truly1 a sudd5 & rapid gr[? 9 a c]ta9 direction1 ! g]ms ( :i* y mu/ h h]et(ore p]ceiv$ 9 my conduct & life4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,i suppose !re has be5 a progress 9 y\r m9ds1 & ,i feel t ! "t has arriv$ :5 we %\ld see :]e we are1 s t we may ei!r come toge!r or sep>ate4 ,our future relation _c be a wilful "o4 ,x mu/ be bas$ on a unity ( _s1 = ! social1 ! humane in/9cts _c b9d u toge!r any long]4 4 4 4 ,h we ! spiritual z well z ! natural bro!rhood8 ?is is ! "q :i* deeply conc]ns u n[4 4 4 4 ,i d n "k :at ! _s has done = y s9ce my dep>ture4 ,if x has l$ y z x has l$ me1 !re is no reason :y ,i %\ld be among/ /rang]s by bir?1 al?\gh n altoge!r /rang]s 9 love 4 4 4 ,?9k s]i\sly ^u y\r answ]4 ,act true4 ,life is to me ( s]i\s import1 & ,i feel call$ ^u to give up all t h9d]s me f foll[+ ?is import :]ev] x may lead4 ,b d n let ?is influ5ce y 9 y\r judgm5ts4 ,we h b a %ort life to live "h1 & ,i w\ld (f] m9e to "s wor?y end3 ?is is all ,i desire4 ,my heal? is v good4 ,i am /ill at ,fruitl&s1 & w rema9 "h until some?+ fur!r happ5s4 ,accept my deepe/ love4 ,:ile wait+ = an answ] to ?is lett]1 ! di>y %[s h[ cont9u\sly ,isaac's m9d 0 work+ ov] ?is problem ( a f9al sep>ation f 8 k9dr$4 ,x seems probable t x 01 on ! :ole1 ! deepe/ emotional "o t he _h to solve4 ,bo? filial duty & natural affection 7 /rong s5tim5ts ) him4 ,"o notices 9 ^! lett]s h[ c\rte\s & urbane is ! tone he uses1 ev5 :5 insi/+ mo/ on ! necessity :i* lies ^u him to cut all ! ties :i* b9d him4 ,?is 0 a family trait4 ,9 a lett] writt5 to u la/ ,septemb] 9 answ] to a "q1 ,mr4 ,*>les ,a4 ,dana incid5tally ref]s to a visit he paid ,isaac ,heck] at 8 "m's h\se4 ,x 0 a v int]e/+ family1 he writes1 & ! cordiality & sweetness ( ! relations :i* prevail$ 9 x impress$ me v greatly4 ,! entry we are ab\t to quote op5s ) an odd e*o f a c]ta9 s*ool ( my/icism ) :i* ,isaac ab\t ?is "t became famili>3 ,july #bb1 #ahdc4--,man requires a new bir?--! bir? ( ! fem99e 9 him4 ,! "q arises 9 my m9d :e!r x is necess>y = me to require ! concurr5ce ( my bro!rs 9 ! views ( life :i* n[ appe> to dem& ( me _! actualization4 ,c ,i n adopt simple g>m5ture & diet )\t _! do+ s8 ,mu/ ,i ne$s h _! concurr5ce8 ,c ,i n leave results to !mselves8 ,if my life is pur] ?an t ( ^? ar\nd me1 c ,i n tru/ to its own simple influ5ce8 ,b if !re is a great diff]5ce ( _s1 c we live toge!r8 ,does n l seek l8 ,9 money matt]s ?+s mu/ c]ta9ly be o!r ?an !y h be54 ,we mu/ agree t no acc\nts %all be kept betwe5 ourselves1 let ! consequ5ces be :at !y may4 ,i w\ld r suff] evils f a dep5d5ce on ! _s ( love ?an p]mit t ( selfi%ness to exi/ betwe5 u4 ,i ask n a c5t above :at w supply my imm$iate1 necess>y wants4 4 4 ,!y may dem& t5 times m ?an ,i1 & x w\ld be a happ9ess to me to see !m use x1 ev5 if ,i ?\ght !y us$ x wrongfully4 ,all ! *eck ,i w\ld be will+ to employ w\ld be t ( love & mutual good feel+4 ,if ,i rema9 z ,i n[ am1 ,i %all require v little1 & t little w\ld be sp5t = ! b5efit & help ( o!rs4 ,july #bc4--;,i w g home1 be true to ! _s ) ! help ( ,god1 & wait = fur!r light & /r5g?4 4 4 4 ,i feel t ,i _c live at ?is place z ,i w\ld4 ,?is is n ! place = my s\l4 4 4 ,my life is n !irs4 ,!y h be5 ! means ( giv+ me mu* light on myself1 b ,i feel ,i w\ld live & progress m 9 a diff]5t atmosph]e4 ,on ! #be? ( ,july ,isaac f9ally dep>t$ f ,fruitl&s1 & aft] rema9+ = a few days at ,brook ,f>m1 he return$ to 8 home 9 ,new ,york4 ,be=e foll[+ him ?i!r1 x may be well to give at once su* fur!r ref]5ces to ?is p]iod ( 8 life z are conta9$ 9 ! memor&a4 ,! foll[+ extract is undat$3 ,a propos ( ,em]son's dea?1 ,fa!r ,heck] said3 ',i knew him well4 ,:5 ,i resolv$ to become a ,ca?olic ,i 0 bo>d+ at ! h\se ( ,h5ry ,?oreau's "m1 a /one's-?r[ f ,em]son's at ,concord4' ,:at did ,?oreau say ab\t x8 ',:at's ! use ( y\r jo9+ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*8 ,c't y get along )\t hang+ to h] skirts8' ,i suppose ,em]son f\nd x out f ,?oreau1 s he tri$ 8 be/ to get me out ( ! notion4 ,he invit$ me to tea ) him1 & he kept lead+ up to ! subject & ,i lead+ away f x4 ,! next day he ask$ me to drive ov] ) him to ! ,%ak]s1 "s fifte5 miles4 ,we /ay$ ov] night1 & all ! way !re & back he 0 fi%+ = my reasons1 ) ! pla9 purpose ( dissuad+ me4 ,!n ,alcott & he arrang$ matt]s s t !y corn]$ me 9 a sort ( int]view1 & ,alcott frankly develop$ ! subject4 ,i f9ally said1 ',mr4 ,alcott1 ,i d5y y\r inquisitorial "r 9 ?is matt]1' & s !y let x drop4 ,"o day1 h[ev]1 ,i 0 walk+ along ! road & ,em]son jo9$ me4 ,pres5tly he said1 ',mr4 ,heck]1 ,i suppose x 0 ! art1 ! ar*itecture1 & s on 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* :i* l$ y to h]8' ',no1' said ,i2 'b x 0 :at caus$ all t4' ,i 0 ! fir/ to break ! ,transc5d5tal camp4 ,br[nson came "s "t aft] me4 ,ye>s lat]1 dur+ ! w>1 ,i w5t to ,concord to lecture1 & want$ ,em]son to help me get a hall4 ,he refus$4 ,alcott promis$ t he w\ld1 b he did n1 & ,i ?9k ,em]son dissuad$ him4 ,aft] a "t1 h[ev]1 a prie/1 a *ur*1 & a congregation ( "s six or sev5 hundr$ ,ca?olics grew up 9 ,concord1 & ,i 0 invit$ to lecture1 & ,i w5t4 ,! pa/or att5d$ ano!r /ation t ,sunday1 & ,i said ! ,mass & meant to give a homily by way ( s]mon4 ,b z ,i 0 go+ to ! alt>1 all ve/$ = ! ,mass1 two m5 came into my s\l3 "o1 ! man :o liv$ 9 t village 9 =m] ye>s1 a bl9d man1 grop+ ab\t = light1 a s\l ) e problem unsolv$2 ! o!r a man full ( light1 ) e problem solv$1 ! univ]se & ! reason ( 8 exi/5ce kn[n z !y actually are4 ,well1 !re 7 ^? two m5 9 my s\l4 ,i _h to get rid ( !m1 s ,i prea*$ !m ( to ! p4 ,"s wept1 "s laugh$1 all 7 deeply mov$4 ,t night came ! lecture4 ,x ra9$ pit*=ks & p9eapples1 b ! hall1 a l>ge "o1 0 completely fill$4 ,multitudes ( ,yankees 7 !re4 ,em]son 0 abs5t1 b ,alcott 0 pres5t4 ,i _h my lecture all cut & dri$4 ',:y ,i became a ,ca?olic' 0 ! subject4 ,b z ,i 0 ab\t to beg91 up came ^? two m5 aga91 & = ! life ( me ,i c\ldn't help fir+ !m (f at ! audi5ce1 & ) rem>kable effect4 ,next day ,i met ,em]son 9 ! /reet & we _h a little talk toge!r4 ,none ( ^? m5 are com=table 9 conv]sation ) an intellig5t ,ca?olic4 ,he avoid$ my squ>e look1 & actually kept turn+ to avoid my eyes until he _h q turn$ r\nd6 ,su* m51 confront$ ) actual1 c]ta9 convictions are exce$+ly uncom=table4 ,!y feel 9 subjection to y4 ,!y _c be> ! /eadfa/ glance ( a man ( c]ta9 pr9ciples any bett] ?an a dog c ! look ( 8 ma/]4 ,l a dog1 !y turn away ! head & %[ signs ( uneas9ess4 ,f ! memor&a1 also1 we take ?is rem9isc5ce ( ,george ,ripley1 ! man :om ,fa!r ,heck] lov$ be/ ( all ! ,transc5d5tal p>ty3 ,janu>y #bc1 #ahhe4--,see+ my p]plexity at ,brook ,f>m1 ,george ,ripley said1 ',mr4 ,heck]1 d y ?9k we h n got true religion8 ,if y ?9k s1 say s4 ,if y h views y ?9k true1 & :i* we ought to h1 let u he> !m4' ,i answ]$1 ',no2 ,i hav5't ! tru?1 b ,i am try+ to get x4 ,if ,i ev] succe$1 y w he> f me4 ,if ,i don't1 y nev] w4 ,i am n go+ to tea* be=e ,i am c]ta9 myself4 ,i w n add myself to ! li/ ( humbugs4' ,ripley 0 a great man2 a wond]ful man4 ,b he 0 a complete failure4 ,i lov$ him de>ly1 & he knew x1 & he lov$ me2 ,i "k well he did4 ,:5 ,i came back a ,r$emptori/ f ,europe1 ,i w5t to see him at ! ,tribune (fice4 ,he ask$ me1 ',c y d all t any ,ca?olic prie/ c d8' ',yes4' ',!n ,i w s5d = y :5 ,i am draw+ t[>ds my end4' ,inde$1 if "o c\ld h gone to ,ripley1 at any "t 9 8 lat] ye>s1 & said1 ',y w nev] return aga9 to ! society ( m51' & p]suad$ him x 0 true1 he w\ld h said at once1 ',s5d = ,fa!r ,heck] or "s o!r ,ca?olic prie/4' ,i am p]suad$ t ! fe> ( fac+ 8 fri5ds h9d]$ ,george ,ripley f becom+ a ,ca?olic4 ,he s5t = me :5 tak5 d[n by 8 la/ illness1 b 8 message 0 n deliv]$4 ,z soon z ,i he>d t he 0 ill ,i ha/5$ to 8 b$side1 b 8 m9d 0 gone & ,i c\ld d no?+ = him4 ,& n[1 hav+ giv5 s fully su* ( 8 own impressions z rema9 ( ! p]sons & places :i* help$ to %ape ,fa!r ,heck] 9 e>ly manhood1 we w t]m9ate ! record ( ?is p]iod ) two lett]s1 "o f ea* community1 :i* 7 writt5 him soon aft] 8 return to ,new ,york4 ,no words ( our own c\ld %[ s well ! he>ty affection & implicit tru/ :i* he awak5$ & return$3 ,brook ,f>m1 ,septemb] #ah1 #ahdc4--,,my ,,de> ,,fri5d3 ,i 0 rejoic$ to he> f y1 ?\gh y wrote too %ort a lett]4 ,y\r beautiful fruit1 en\gh to conv]t ! dire/ sceptic to ,grahamism1 toge!r ) ! pe>l$ :eat1 arriv$ safely1 al?\gh a few days too late to be 9 p]fectly good ord]4 ,we di/ribut$ !m to all & s+ul>1 m51 wom51 & *ildr51 :o discuss$ !m ) great int]e/1 ,i assure y2 _m1 no d\bt1 ) sil5t wi%es t no good or beautiful ?+ might ev] be want+ to y4 ,i am glad to le>n t y are s happy 9 ,new ,york1 t y f9d s mu* 9 y\r own m9d to comp5sate = ! evils ( a city environm5t1 & t y\r aspirations are n qu5*$ by ! sight ( ! huge disord]s t daily surr\nd y4 ,i h>dly d>e to ?9k t my own fai? or hope w\ld be /rong en\gh to reconcile me to a return to common society4 ,i %\ld p9e l an imprison$ bird1 & ,i fe> ,i %\ld gr[ bl9d to ! visions ( lovel9ess & glory :i* ! future promises to humanity4 ,i long = action :i* %all realize ! prophecies1 fulfil ! ,apocalypse1 br+ ! new ,j]usalem d[n f heav5 to e>?1 & collect ! fai?ful into a true & holy bro!rhood4 ,to atta9 ?is consummation s dev\tly to be wi%$1 ,i w\ld eat no fle%1 ,i w\ld dr9k no w9e :ile ! _w la/$4 ,i w\ld become z devot$ an ascetic z y\rself1 my de> ,isaac4 ,b to :at end is all speculation1 all dream+1 all que/ion+1 b to advance humanity1 to br+ =w>d ! manife/ation ( ! ,son ( ,god8 ,oh1 = m5 :o feel ?is idea burn+ into _! bones6 ,:5 %all we see !m8 ,& )\t !m1 :at w be phalanxes1 gr\ps & s]ies1 attractive indu/ry1 & all ! sublime words ( mod]n re=ms8 ,:5 w y come back to ,brook ,f>m8 ,c y d )\t u8 ,c we d )\t y8 ,b d n come z an amateur1 a self-p]fectioniz]1 an ae/hetic self-seek]1 will+ to suck ! orange ( ,association dry & ?r[ away ! peel4 ,oh6 t y w\ld come z "o ( u1 to "w 9 ! fai? ( a div9e idea1 to toil 9 lonel9ess & te>s = ! sake ( ! k+dom :i* ,god may build up by our h&s4 ,all "h1 t is1 all our old c5tral memb]s1 feel m & m ! _s ( devot$ness1 ! ?ir/ to d or die1 = ! cause we h at he>t4 ,we d n di/ru/ ,provid5ce4 ,we _c believe t :at we h ga9$ "h ( spiritual progress w be lo/ ?r\gh want ( mat]ial res\rces4 ,at pres5t1 h[ev]1 we are 9 great /raits4 ,we h>dly d>e to provide ! means ( keep+ w>m 9 our pleasant ne/ ?is w9t]4 ,j look at our case4 ,) prop]ty am\nt+ to #cj1jjj1 ! want ( two or ?ree ?\s&s fett]s u & may kill u4 ,t sum w\ld free u f pecuni>y emb>rassm5t1 & = want ( t we "w daily ) fett]s on our limbs4 ,are !re n five m5 9 ,new ,york ,city :o w\ld d>e to v5ture #bjj ea* 9 ! cause ( social re=m1 )\t be+ assur$ ( a ,phalanx = !mselves & _! *ildr5 = ev]8 ,alas6 ,i "k n4 ,we are will+ to trav]se ! wild]ness =ty ye>s2 we ask no grapes ( ,e%col = ourselves2 we d n claim a fair abode 9 ! promis$ l&2 b :at c we d1 ) nei!r quails nor manna1 ) raim5t wax+ old1 & %oes bur/+ f our feet8 ,=give me1 my de> ,isaac1 = speak+ s mu* ab\t ourselves4 ,b :at else %\ld ,i speak (8 ,& :o m sympa?iz+ ) our movem5t ?an y\rself8 ,d n be surpris$ at receiv+ ?is lett] s long aft] date4 ,n less ?an f\r times h ,i begun x1 & z (t5 h be5 int]rupt$4 ,pray write me n[ & !n4 ,y\r words are always sweet & pleasant to my s\l4 ,believe me1 ev] y\rs truly1 ,,george ,,ripley4 ,h>v>d1 ,mass41 ,novemb] #aa1 #ahdc4--;,,de> ,,fri5d3 ,y\r k9d lett] ( ! #a/ came duly to h&1 & we are mak+ arrangem5ts to enjoy ! b5efit ( y\r heal?ful beque/4 ,please to accept ?anks = y\r sympa?y & ! reports ( p]sons & ?+s 9 y\r circle4 ,!y h int]e/$ me mu* b ,i am ab\t to make y ! mo/ incongru\s return conceivable4 ,= pleasure almo/ unqualifi$ :i* y h conf]r$ on me1 ,i fe> ,i %all tr\ble y ) pa9ful relations2 9 return = a b>rel ( sup]f9e :olesome :eat-meal1 ,i am go+ to submit to y a peck ( tr\bles4 ,out ( z _m ( ^! z y lov+ly & freely c1 y may assi/ me2 b1 ( c\rse1 y w und]/& t ,i feel ,i h no claim ^u y4 ,on ! contr>y1 inde$1 ,i see t ,i run ! haz>d ( =feit+ y\r valu$ fri5d%ip by ?us obtrud+ my pecuni>y conc]ns into our hi!rto l(ti] commun+s4 ,y "k x to be a s5tim5t ( m9e1 t ^! affairs %\ld nev] be obtrud$ betwe5 ae/hetic fri5ds1 b :at c "o d 9 extremity b to unburd5 c&idly to ! g5]\s8 ,:5 ,i b\ght ?is place1 in/ead ( pay+ ! :ole #a1hjj1 z ,i wi%$1 #cjj ( my money w5t to pay old debts ) :i* ,i ought to h _h no?+ to d2 & ,mrs4 ,alcott's bro!r1 ,samuel ,j4 ,may1 jo9$ 8 "n to a note = #cjj1 to be paid by in/alm5ts 9 two ye>s4 ,& n[ t ! fir/ in/alm5t is due1 he s5ds me ^w t he decl9es pay+ x4 ,z all my ca% has be5 exp5d$ 9 buy+ & keep+ up ! affair1 ,i am left 9 a prec>i\s position1 out ( :i* ,i d n see ! way )\t "s loveful aid1 & to y ,i v5ture freely to submit my feel+s4 ,above all ?+s ,i %\ld l to dis*>ge at once ?is #cjj note1 z unless t is done ! place mu/1 ,i fe>1 fall back into individuality & ! idea be susp5d$4 ,n[1 if z mu* ca% is loose 9 y\r pocket1 or t ( "s weal?y fri5d1 !re %all be p>t$ (f z mu* ( ! l& z w secure its return1 f ! crops alone1 9 a few ye>s2 or1 ,i w\ld sell a piece until ,i c r$eem x2 or1 ,i w\ld meet ! loan 9 any o!r secure way1 if ,i c b secure ! l& f ! demon usury4 ,?is mode seems to me ! mo/ desirable4 ,b ,i c\ld get along ) ! in/alm5t ( #ge1 & w\ld (f] l security 9 proportion4 ,or1 if y c d x y\rself1 & w\ld pref] ! libr>y z a pl$ge1 y %all select su* books z w suit y\r own read+ & w\ld cov] y\r advance 9 ca% any day y *oose to put !m up to auction1 if ,i %\ld fail to r$eem !m4 ,or1 ,i w\ld give my notes ( h& t ,i c\ld meet by sales ( produce or ( l&4 ,if ,i _h ! b5efit ( y\r p]sonal c\nsel1 we c\ld contrive some?+ betwe5 u1 ,i am sure1 b ,i h no su* aid ab\t me4 ,! difficulty 9 itself is really light1 b to me1 "u pres5t circum/ances1 is q =midable4 ,if at y\r e>lie/ conv5i5ce y acqua9t me ) y\r m9d1 y w mu* oblige4 ,i h ano!r tr\ble ( a p]sonal nature4 ,i suff] already ?is w9t] f ! inclem5cy ( ! wea!r1 s mu* t my h&s are s *app$ t ,i c sc>cely hold ! p54 ,if ,i c\ld f9d employm5t 9 a m s\!rn position t w\ld support me & ! boy1 & leave a little to be appli$ to ! common good1 ,i w\ld und]take x4 ,i ?9k ,i c\ld at ! same "t be ( "s m5tal & moral s]vice to ! p :]e ,i might be locat$4 ,ano!r tr\ble4 ,"y ,william has be5 v ill = ! la/ mon?1 br\ght on1 ,i believe1 by excessive "w4 ,he is /ill v weak1 & has n sat up = ?ree weeks4 ,all ^!1 besides sundry slight] plagues1 com+ ^u me at once1 h p]haps a little disconc]t$ my n]ves1 & ! advice & assi/ance ( a g5]\s fri5d at su* a juncture w\ld be inde$ s]viceable4 ,if ! j\rney 7 n s long & s co/ly ,i w\ld ask y to come4 ,be assur$ t :atev] may be y\r decision 9 any ( ^! relations1 my e/eem = y _c be !reby dim9i%$4 ,my only fe> is t su* encroa*m5ts on y\r good nature w r$uce y\r e/imation (1 de> fri5d1 y\rs mo/ s9c]ely1 ,,*>les ,,lane4 ,reg>ds to ! ,doctor & all fri5ds4 ,! ,%ak]s h k9dly inquir$ = y1 & !y /ill take mu* int]e/ 9 our life4 ,h y se5 ! la/ ,dial8 ,! ,pres5t is good1 b surely n good en\gh4 ,i hope to write a m univ]sal lett] 9 response to y\r next1 = :i* ,i wait4 ,poor ,lane1 fail+ to f9d any equally confid+ & g5]\s fri5d to %\ld] ) him ! p]sonal debts ( ! f\nd] ( ,fruitl&s1 0 compell$ at la/ to let ! f>m lapse into individuality & to see ! idea susp5d$4 ,9 8 next & m univ]sal lett] he ann\nces t ! exp]im5t is end$ 9 consequ5ce ( ,mrs4 ,alcott's refusal to rema9 on ! place ?r\gh ! w9t]4 ,lane w5t ov] to ! neighbor+ ,%ak] community1 & f !re to ,engl&1 :]e ,fa!r ,heck] met him dur+ 8 own resid5ce at ,clapham1 aft] 8 ord9ation4 ,8 lett]s foll[$ ,fa!r ,heck] = sev]al ye>s1 & brea! always ! same unselfi%ness1 ! same simple tru/ 9 human goodness1 & ! same fondness = speculations on ! univ]sal4 ,,*apt] ,,ix ,,self-,,que/ion+s ,,n f9d+ any solution ( 8 spiritual difficulties at ei!r ,fruitl&s or ,brook ,f>m1 ,isaac ,heck] turn$ 8 face once m t[>d ! home f :i* he _h dep>t$ ne>ly a ye> be=e4 ,he expect$ little f ?is /ep1 b 8 /ate ( m9d 0 n[ "o 9 :i* he _h begun to anticipate1 at any turn1 "s light on ! dispositions ( ,provid5ce 9 8 reg>d :i* might det]m9e 8 c\rse = good & all4 ,&1 meantime1 z pati5t wait+ 0 all t lay 9 8 own p[]1 x seem$ ! wise/ c\rse to yield to ! solicitations ( 8 k9dr$ & abide results 9 8 own place4 ,he did n g !re at once1 h[ev]1 aft] quitt+ ,alcott's community1 b return$ to ,brook ,f>m = a =tnight4 ,8 j\rnal dur+ ?is p]iod (f]s _m pages wor?y ( transcription4 ,x is possible t we h read]s :o may deem u too copi\s 9 our quotations f ?is s\rce4 ,b1 if we>isome to any1 yet !y are necess>y to ^? = :om ?is ,life is especially writt54 ,! lessons to be le>n$ f ,fa!r ,heck] are ma9ly ^? aris+ f ! int]action betwe5 ,god's sup]natural deal+s ) him1 & 8 own natural *>act]i/ics4 ,?is fact1 moreov]1 is typical z well z p]sonal1 = ! great "q ( 8 day1 :i* 0 ! dawn+ ( our own1 0 ! relation ( ! natural man to ! reg5]at+ influ5ces ( ,*ri/ianity4 ,?is be+ s1 x is pla9 to our own m9d t no adequate repres5tation ( ! man c\ld be made )\t a free use ( ^! e>ly j\rnals4 ,!y seem to u "o ( ! *ief ,provid5tial results ( ! spiritual isolation ( 8 y\?4 ,he 0 9 a mann] driv5 to ?is intimate self-commun+1 on "o h& by 8 nev]-satisfi$ crav+ = sympa!tic companion%ip1 & on ! o!r by 8 complete unacqua9tance ) a k9d ( read+ :i* ev5 at ?is po9t might h %$ "s light ^u 8 int]ior difficulties4 ,9 lat] ye>s he enjoy$1 9 ! /udy ( accr$it$ ,*ri/ian my/ics1 t k9d ( satisfaction :i* a travell] exp]i5ces :o1 aft] long w&]+s 9 :at _h seem$ a trackless des]t1 obta9s a map :i* n only makes 8 :ole r\te pla91 b assures him t he did n /ray f well-kn[n pa?s ev5 dur+ 8 times ( mo/ extreme bewild]m5t4 ,t ! di>y has ! "* we "h claim = x1 & is n ! m]e ord9>y result ( a morbid & aimless introspection1 is pla9ly %[n by ! spe$y cessation ( excessive self-analysis on ,fa!r ,heck]'s "p1 aft] he _h actually rea*$ ! goal to :i* he 0 at ?is p]iod alt]nately sweetly l$ & viol5tly driv54 ,b x is also %[n by ! deep humility :i* is reveal$ precisely by ?is %>p prob+ ( 8 int]ior4 ,?\gh he felt himself 9 t\* ) ,god 9 "s special way1 yet x 0 ) s little pride t x 0 8 pr(\nd conviction1 z x rema9$1 inde$1 ?r\gh\t 8 life1 t :at he _h all _h or might h4 ,b ! /udy ( 8 int]ior ?us =c$ ^u him 0 f> f a pleas+ task4 ,x is exce$+ly oppressive to me to write z ,i n[ d1 we f9d him compla9+2 cont9ually does myself appe> 9 my writ+4 ,i w\ld t my ,i 7 :olly lo/ 9 ! sea ( ! ,_s--:olly lo/ 9 ,god4 ,we preface ! subjo9$ extract f ! di>y ) ! rem>k t ,fa!r ,heck]'s read+ ( signs ( ! ,div9e w 9 m5 & ev5ts (t5 br\ght him to ! v]ge ( cr$ulity1 ov] :i* he 0 prev5t$ f /epp+ by 8 %rewd native s5se4 ,?\gh he insi/$ all 8 life on int]pret+ !m z signal flags ( ! ,div9e wisdom1 ?is did n h9d] him f ga9+ a reputation = s\nd practical judgm5t3 ,brook ,f>m1 ,july #ca1 #ahdc4--,man is ! symbol ( all my/]ies4 ,:y is x t all ?+s seem to me to be in/9ct ) prophecy8 ,i d n see any m individual p]sonalities1 b prie/s & oracles ( ,god4 ,! age is big ) a prophecy :i* x is 9 labor to give bir? to4 ,my exp]i5ce is diff]5t n[ f :at x has be54 ,x is mu* full]2 e fibre ( my be+ seems teem+ ) s5sitive life4 ,i am 9 ano!r atmosph]e ( s5tim5t & ?\ght4 4 4 4 ,i h less real union & sympa?y ) h]1 & ) ^? :om ,i h met mu* ne>] h]et(ore4 ,x appe>s z if _! atmosph]e 0 d5s]1 _! life m natural1 m 9 ! fle%4 ,in/ead ( meet+ !m on my highe/1 ,i c only d s by com+ d[n into my body1 ( :i* x seems to me t ,i am n[ almo/ unconsci\s4 ,!re is n t s5se ( heav9ess1 dulness1 fle%l9ess1 9 me4 ,i exp]i5ce no natural desires1 no impure ?\ghts1 nor w&]+s ( fancy4 ,/ill1 ,i feel m int5sely1 & am fill$ to ov]fl[+ ) love1 & ) desire = union4 ,b !re is no "o to meet me :]e ,i am1 & ,i _c meet !m :]e !y are4 ,all 8 life ,fa!r ,heck] 0 on ! look\t = ! great human influ5ces :i* run across ^? ( religion1 ei!r to swell _! volume or to less5 _! =ce4 ,^! are ma9ly ! transmissions ( h]$ity1 & ! environm5ts t are racial1 temporal1 epo*al1 or local4 ,?is endur+ t5d5cy is =e%ad[$ 9 ! foll[+ extracts3 ,augu/ #b1 #ahdc4--;,i h be5 ?9k+ mu* ( late ab\t ! v great influ5ce :i* nationality & ! family prog5itors h ^u "*4 ,m5 talk ( univ]sality1 imp>tiality1 _m-sid$ness1 free judgm5t1 unbias$ op9ion1 & s on1 :5 9 reality _! national & family dispositions are ! c5tre & gr\nd ( _! be+1 & h5ce ( _! op9ions4 ,!y appe> to be mo/ !mselves :5 !y %[ ^! traits ( "*4 ,!y are mo/ natural & e>ne/ & at home :5 !y speak f ?is l9k :i* b9ds !m to ! pa/4 ,!n _! he>ts are op5$1 & !y speak ) a gl[ ( eloqu5ce & a peculi> unction :i* t\* ! same *ord 9 ! brea/s ( ^? :o he> !m4 ,x is well = man to feel 8 indebt$ness to ! pa/ :i* lives 9 him & )\t :i* he w\ld n be :at he is4 ,he is f> m its creature ?an he gives himself cr$it =4 ,he reproduces daily ! s5tim5ts & ?\ghts ( ! dim & obscure be=e4 ,!re are c]ta9 ideas & aspirations :i* h n _h _! fulfilm5t1 b :i* run ?r\gh all m5 f ! beg9n+ & :i* are cont9ually reproduc$4 ,!re is a unity ( race1 call$ ,humanity2 "o ( place1 call$ ,nationality2 "o ( bir?1 call$ ,k9dr$2 "o ( aff9ity1 call$ ,love & ,fri5d%ip4 ,by all ^! we are greatly influ5c$4 ,!y all make _! m>k ^u ! man4 ,! faculties :i* take cognizance ( ! inn] _w h be5 awak5$ 9 only a few ( ! human race1 & ^!1 to di/+ui% !m1 h be5 call$ prophets1 miracle-work]s1 ,provid5tial m51 se]s1 & poets4 ,n[1 _! privilege is t ( all m5 9 a great] or less degree1 j z is ! case ) reg>d to ! faculties :i* relate to ! outw>d _w4 ,= :5 m5 9 g5]al 7 z ignorant ab\t ! ext]ior _w z !y n[ are ab\t ! int]ior1 ! m5 ( sci5ce1 ! a/ronom]s1 ! ma!maticians1 ! f\nd]s ( ! arts1 7 held to be miracul\s1 gods1 & !y 7 deifi$4 ,:at any "o man 7& ?is is a mo/ com=table & *e]+ ?\ght7 has be5 or has done1 all m5 may 9 a measure be or d1 = ea* is a type1 a specim5 ( ! :ole human race4 ,if x is said 9 reply1 ',^! miracles or great acts1 :i* y hold z actual1 are m]e sup]/iti\s dreams1' ,i c>e n4 ,t w\ld be /ill m glori\s = u1 = !n !y are /ill to be p]=m$1 !y are 9 ! com+ "t1 ^! div9e prophetic in/9cts are yet to be actualiz$4 ,! dreams ( ,orpheus1 ! inspir$ /ra9s ( ! ,hebrew b>ds1 &1 above all1 ! prophecies ( ,*ri/1 are be=e u4 ,! div9e in/9cts w be realiz$ z surely z !re is a ,god above :o inspires !m4 ,x is ! glory ( ,god t !y %\ld be s2 x is ,8 delight4 ,?is _w mu/ become heav54 ,?is is its de/9y2 & our de/9y1 "u ,god1 is to make x s4 ,prophecy is giv5 to enc\rage & n\ri% our hopes & fe$ our joys1 s t we may say ) ,job1 ',i "k t al?\gh worms %all eat ?is fle%1 & my bones become du/1 yet at ! latt] day ,i %all see my ,r$eem] face to face4' ,! s5t5ces :i* foll[ c be p>allel$ by words tak5 f all :o h truly int]pret$ ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/ by _! lives or _! writ+s3 ,to him t has fai? all ?+s are possible1 = fai? is an act ( ! s\l2 ?y fai? is ! measure ( ?y p[]4 ,if m5 w\ld act f ! pres5t inspiration ( _! s\ls !y w\ld ga9 m k ?an !y d by read+ or speculat+4 ,no man 9 8 he>t c ask = m ?an he has4 ,?9k ( ?is deeply4 ,god is j4 ,we h :at we ought to h1 ev5 accord+ to our own s5se ( ju/ice4 ,! desire to love & be belov$1 to h fri5ds ) :om we c conv]se1 to ent] society :i* we enjoy--is x n be/ to d5y & sacrifice ^! desires8 ,x may be said t1 gratifi$1 !y add to life1 & ! "q is h[ to increase life1 n h[ to dim9i% x4 ,b by d5y+ !m1 w\ld n our life ga9 by fl[+ 9 a m heav5ly direction8 ,we are daily fe$+ ! demons t are 9 u by our wick$ ?\ghts & s9ful acts2 ^! are _! meat & dr9k4 ,i make !m gasp sometimes4 ,my he>t laughs q m]rily to ?9k ( x4 ,:5 ,i am hungry1 & !re is some?+ tempt+ on ! table1 hung]1 l a s]p5t1 comes creep+ up into my ?roat & laps its dry tongue ) eag]ness = its prey1 b x (t5 returns *agr9$ at its discomfiture4 ,t :i* tempts u we %\ld d5y1 no matt] h[ innoc5t x is 9 itself4 ,if x tempts1 away ) x1 until x tempts no m4 ,!n p>take ( x1 = x is !n only t y c d s prud5tly & ) temp]ance4 ,all our ?\ghts & emotions are caus$ by "s ag5t act+ on u4 ,?is is true ( all ! s5ses & ! spiritual faculties4 ,h5ce we %\ld by all possible means purify & ref9e our organism1 s t we may he> ! mo/ delicate1 ! sweete/1 ! /ille/ s\nds & murmur+s ( ! angels :o are ab\t u4 ,h[ mu* full] & ri*] w\ld be our life if we 7 m acutely s5sitive & f9ely textur$6 ,h[ _m exquisite delights nature yields :i* we are n yet aw>e (6 ,:at a _w surr\nds u ( :i* none b holy m51 prophets1 & poets h _h a glimpse6 ,! s\l is a plate on :i* ! s5ses dagu]reotype indelibly pictures ( ! out] _w4 ,h[ cauti\s %\ld we be :]e we look1 :at we he>1 :at smell1 or feel1 or ta/e6 ,& h[ we %\ld endeavor t all ar\nd u %\ld be made beautiful1 musical1 fragrant1 s t our s\ls may be awak5$ to a div9e s5se ( life )\t a mom5t's int]ruption6 ,o ,god1 be ,?\ my help]1 my /r5g? & my r$eem]6 ,may ,i live :olly to ,!e2 give me grace & ob$i5ce to ,?y ,_s4 ,may all self be put f me s t ,i may ent] into ! glori\s lib]ty ( ! sons ( ,god1 ,awak5 me1 raise me up1 re/ore me1 ,o ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,"l1 ,heav5ly ,k+6 ,9 read+ :at next foll[s x mu/ be rememb]$ t at ! "t :5 x 0 writt5 ,isaac ,heck] _h absolutely no k ( ,ca?olic my/ical !ology4 ,x is s9ce t day t ,engli%-speak+ ,ca?olics h _h access to ! great au?orities on ?is subject ?r\gh adequate translations4 ,b :at little he _h le>n$ f o!r s\rces1 comb9$ ) 8 own intuitional & exp]im5tal k ( human capabilities = p5etrat+ ! veil1 _h already furni%$ him ) conclusions :i* no?+ 9 8 devot$ /udy ( ,ca?olic my/ical writ]s =c$ him to lay aside3 ,belief 9 ! special guidance ( ,god has be5 ! fai? ( all deeply religi\s m54 ,i w n dispute ! fact t "s m5 are s guid$1 b w (f] an explanation ( x :i* seems to me to reconcile x ) ! regul> ord] ( laws e/abli%$ by ,god4 ,my explanation w\ld be t ?is guidance is n a miracul\s p[]1 specially be/[$ ^u "s m51 b m]ely a high] degree ( ord9>y div9e guidance4 ,our ord9>y life is inspir$2 ! o!r is only a high] degree ( :at is common to all4 ,! evil :i* arises f ! contr>y op9ion is ?is3 m5 :o h receiv$ a high] degree ( insight believe t x is a special miracul\s gift1 & t all !y may say is infallibly true1 :]eas !y /ill reta9 _! own individuality ?\gh rais$ to a pur] /ate ( be+4 ,!y h n be5 s rais$ 9 ord] to f\nd new sects1 or to cause revolutions1 b to fulfil ! old1 cont9ue & c>ry x on z f> z !y h be5 giv5 light to d s4 ,9 =m+ new sects !y b reproduce _! own individualities ) all _! errors4 ,s ,sw$5borg did1 & ,wesley1 m5 ( mod]n times :o 7 awak5$ 9 a great] degree ?an ! mass ( _! fell[s4 ,_! mi/ake lay 9 _! attempt to make univ]sal ends out ( _! individual exp]i5ces4 ,9 ! ord9>y /ate no man does ?is1 b ^!1 be+ lift$ a little above ! mass1 became intoxicat$4 ,! only "o1 s f> z ,i h read1 :o has _h humility equal to 8 inspiration 0 ,jacob ,boehm54 ,lu!r1 ,calv91 ,fox1 ,p5n1 ,sw$5borg1 ,wesley1 _h self 9 view4 ,selfism is mix$ ) _! univ]salism4 ,none has spok5 tru? s pure & univ]sal z ,boehm54 ,he is ! mo/ inspir$ man ( mod]n times4 ,he _h m love & tru? ?an all ! o!r my/ics put toge!r1 & few] faults ?an ei!r "o ( !m tak5 s+ly4 ,,*apt] ,x ,,at ,,home ,,aga9 ,,x 0 ! middle ( ,augu/1 #ahdc1 :5 ,isaac ,heck] once m took up 8 resid5ce ) 8 family 9 ,new ,york4 ,8 fir/ endeavor 0 to s9k back aga9 z f> z possible into ! old r\t9e ( bus9ess4 ,to-morr[ ,i comm5ce to "w1 he writes on ! ev5+ ( 8 return4 ,my int]ior /ate is quiet & peaceful4 ,i h n met any "o yet4 ,my de> "m und]/&s me bett] ?an any "o else4 ,h[ f> bus9ess w int]f]e ) my inn] life rema9s to be se54 ,o ,"l6 help me to keep my resolution1 :i* is n to let ! _w ent] my he>t1 b to keep x look+ t[>d ,!e6 ,my he>t has be5 9 a con/ant pray]ful /ate s9ce ,i h be5 at home4 ,x is busy 9 its own sanctu>y1 its own temple1 ,god4 ,o ,"l6 pres]ve x4 ,"o ( ! fir/ notewor?y ?+s reveal$ by ! di>y--:i* f ?is "t on 0 kept ) less regul>ity ?an be=e--is t ,isaac n only ma9ta9$ 8 ab/emi\s habits aft] 8 return1 b increas$ _! rigor4 ,= a robu/ man1 work+ h>d = _m h\rs out ( e tw5ty-f\r1 & depriv$ ( all ! pleasant relaxations1 lit]>y1 conv]sational & musical1 to :i* he _h be5 accu/om+ himself = _m mon?s1 ! *oice ( su* a diet z is describ$ 9 ! foll[+ s5t5ces 0 c]ta9ly extraord9>y3 ,augu/ #cj4--;,if ! pa/ n9e mon?s or m are any evid5ce1 ,i f9d t ,i c live on v simple diet--gra9s1 fruit1 & nuts4 ,i h j comm5c$ to eat ! latt]2 ,i dr9k pure wat]4 ,s f> ,i h _h :eat gr\nd & made into unleav5$ bread1 b z soon z we get 9 a new lot1 ,i %all try x 9 ! gra94 ,he _h evid5tly at ?is "t a practical conviction ( ! tru? ( a pr9ciple :i*1 9 aft] ye>s1 he repeat$ to ! pres5t writ] 9 ! =m ( a maxim ( ! transc5d5tali/s3 ,a gross fe$] w nev] be a c5tral ?9k]4 ,x is a tru? ( ! spiritual no less ?an ( ! intellectual ord]4 ,a little lat] we come ^u ! foll[+ pr(ession ( a veget>ian fai?1 :i* w be apt to amuse z well z to edify ! read]3 ,reasons = n eat+ animal food4 ,x does n fe$ ! _s4 ,x /imulates ! prop5sities4 ,x is tak+ animal life :5 ! o!r k+doms (f] suffici5t & bett] increm5t4 ,slaught] /r5g!ns ! l[] in/9cts4 ,x is ! *ief cause ( ! slav]y ( ! kit*54 ,x g5]ates 9 ! body ! diseases animals are subject to1 & enc\rages 9 man _! be/iality4 ,its odor is (f5sive & its appe>ance unae/hetic4 ,! appreh5sion "u :i* he _h labor$1 t city life w\ld pres5t _m temptations :i* he w\ld f9d x difficult to )/&1 appe>s to h be5 unf\nd$4 ,"s few social relaxations he n[ & !n p]mitt$ himself1 b !y 7 mo/ly v sob]-ton$4 ,la/ ev5+ ,i att5d$ a ,me?odi/ love-fea/1 is 8 record ( "o ( ^!4 ,9 return+ ,i /opp$ at ! w>d political meet+4 ,!n he notes t al?\gh ! bus9ess he foll[s is especially full ( temptations--z no d\bt x 0 to a man keep+ s tight a re9 ov] 8 mo/ natural & legitimate appetites--he feels deeply grateful t1 s f>1 he has _h no ne$ to fe> 8 be+ l$ away4 ,:at yet rema9s8 he adds4 ,my diet is all pur*as$ & all produc$ by hir$ labor4 ,i suppose t slave labor produces almo/ all my dress4 ,& ,i _c say t ,i am rightly condition$ until all ,i eat1 dr9k1 & we> is produc$ by love4 ,x 0 a vivid recollection ( ^! e>ly ef=ts aft] an ascetic p]fection :i* _h nei!r guide nor def9ite plan1 :i* prompt$ ! foll[+ vigor\s self-appreciation1 made by ,fa!r ,heck] two ye>s be=e 8 dea?4 ,he _h be5 speak+ ( "s ( 8 y\?ful exp]im5ts 9 ?is direction1 & end$ ) an amus$ laugh & ! ejaculation1 ,?ank ,god6 ,he l$ me into ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,if x hadn't be5 = t ,i %\ld h be5 "o ( ! wor/ cranks 9 ! _w4 ,"h are two expressions tak5 f ! di>y ( a p]man5t fact ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s individuality4 ,!y help to expla9 :y he 0 misund]/ood by _m 9 lat] ye>s3 ,m5 h fe> to utt] absurdities4 ,! head is sceptical ( ! div9e oracles ( ! he>t1 & be=e %e utt]s !m %e clo!s !m 9 su* a fanta/ic dress t m5 he> ! words b lose ! life1 ! ?\ght4 ,we (t5 act to be und]/ood by ! he>t1 n by ! head2 & :5 ! head speaks ( its hav+ und]/ood1 we d5y its und]/&+4 ,x is ! secret sympa?y ( ! he>t :i* is ! only response t is look$ =4 ,spee* is cold1 pr(ane4 ,?is mu/ recall1 to ^? :o 7 intimate ) ,fa!r ,heck]1 h[ (t5 he arriv$ at 8 own convictions by discuss+ !m ) o!rs :ile !y 7 yet b p>tially =m$4 ,x is a cu/om ) _m to d s1 m9d assi/+ m9d1 negation provok+ affirmation1 d\bt vani%+ ) ! utt]ance ( ! tru?4 ,9 ,fa!r ,heck]'s case 8 p]fect frankness l$ him1 :5 among 8 own fri5ds1 to utt] half-=m$ ideas1 sometimes s\nd+ />tl+ & errone\s1 b spok5 ) a view to get !m into prop] %ape4 ,at su* times x requir$ pati5ce to "k j :at he meant1 = he nev] f\nd x ! easie/ to employ t]ms ^: mean+ 0 conv5tional4 ,by ! fir/ ( ,septemb] su* fa9t hopes z ,isaac _h ent]ta9$ ( adapt+ himself to ! conditions ( 8 home 9 ,new ,york 7 well-nigh dissipat$4 ,b a c]ta9 natural timidity1 jo9$ ) ! /ill complete unc]ta9ty he felt z to :at 8 true c\rse %\ld be1 made him dissemble 8 disquiet s long z x 0 be>able4 ,aft] a mon? or two1 by a mutual agreem5t betwe5 8 bro!rs & himself :i* exon]at$ him f mu* ( ! manual labor :i* !y /ill %>$ ) ! m5 9 _! employm5t1 he devot$ himself to an occupation m accordant to 8 m9d4 ,he set to "w to make s+le b$s & private rooms = ! workm51 contriv+ v>i\s conv5i5ces & means ( occasional solitude = !m1 & 9 o!r ways do+ all 9 8 p[] to a*ieve = !m ! privileges he f\nd s necess>y = himself4 ,( ^! ef=ts we get occasional glimpses 9 ! di>y4 ,b x is1 9 ! ma91 devot$ to m imp]sonal & l>g] topics1 & ! facts ( 8 daily employm5t1 z j giv51 h be5 ga9$ f o!r s\rces4 ,septemb] #a4--,!re are two ways 9 :i* ! _s may live itself out4 ,"o is to leave all ^! conditions1 pur*ase a spot ( gr\nd1 & live accord+ to its daily dictates4 ,! o!r is to make ^! conditions z h>monic z possible by giv+ ! m5 7workm57 an associative int]e/ 9 ! accumulations ( our associative labor4 ,bo? extremes require r5unciation ( prop]ty & ( self4 ,love1 univ]sal love is ! rul]1 & only by x c ! _s f9d peace or be cr[n$ ) ! highe/ happ9ess4 ,! my/]y ( man's be+1 ! unawak5$ capacities 9 him1 we are n half aw>e (4 ,a few ( ! race1 ! prophets1 sages1 & poets1 give u a glimpse ( 8 high de/9y4 ,alas6 t m5 %\ld be on ! bord]s ( su* mighty tru?s & /& z bl9d & dumb z l[] animals be=e !m6 ,balaam sometimes1 b ignorantly1 utt]s true prophecies4 ,a rem>k ,i he>d to-day leads me to say ?is4 ,speak+ ( diet a man said3 ',:y1 :at d y int5d8 ,at la/ y w h m5 to live on ,god4' ,we mu/ become ,god-l1 or ,god-full4 ,live z ,he lives1 become "o ) ,him4 ,until we are reconcil$ ) our ,fa!r we are ali5s1 prodigals4 ,until we c say1 ,my ,fa!r & ,i are "o1 we h n comm5c$ to be4 ,we mu/ fulfil :at ! ,apo/le said 7& x means1 p]haps1 m ?an we commonly imag9e73 ',9 ,god we live & move & h our be+4' ,! deep] & m pr(\nd a tru? is1 ! less pro( c y give 9 its support4 ,septemb] #h4--,on ! ev5+ ( ! #f? ,i w5t to see ! ,fr5* ,op]a ,company 9 ,aub]'s ',black ,dom9o4' ,x did n please me z well z "s music ,i h he>d1 ?\gh p>ts ( x 7 v beautiful4 ,! hymns ( ! nuns 7 v sweet4 ,! ?\ght occurr$ to me t if ! ,*ur* does n provide religi\s gratifications = ! true wants ( humanity1 %e mu/ be sil5t if m5 fe$ !m pr(anely4 ,x is because ! ,*ur* has n done h] duty t !re are s _m secul> societies = ,re=mation1 ,temp]ance1 & s on4 ,! ,*ur* has provid$ = ! salvation ( ! s9n]'s s\l by means ( spiritual acts1 su* z pray]1 p5ance1 ! ,eu*>i/ & o!r sacram5ts4 ,b n[ %e mu/ provide t]re/rial sacram5ts = ! salvation & transfiguration ( ! body4 ,we %\ld /rive con/antly to actualize ! ideal we p]ceive4 ,:5 we d realize all ! beauty & hol9ess t we see1 we are n call$ to d5y ourselves1 = !n we are liv+ z fully on all sides z we h capacity to d4 ,are we n 9 ?is /ate8 ,!n1 if we are s9c]e1 we w give up l[] & unnecess>y gratifications = ! sake ( ! ideal we h 9 view4 ,i w\ld die to prove my immortality4 ,at times we are call$ to rely on ,provid5ce1 to be imprud5t & reckless accord+ to ! wisdom ( ! _w4 ,s ,i am will+ to be ?\ght4 ,ea* ( u has an individual "* to act out1 "u ! inspiration ( ,god1 & ?is is ! highe/ & noble/ we c d4 ,we are =ms diff]+ f "o ano!r1 & if we are act+ "u ! inspirations ( ! ,highe/1 we are do+ our utt]mo/2 m ! angels d n4 ,:at t5ds to h9d] u f realiz+ ! ideal :i* our vision sees mu/ be d5i$1 be x self1 weal?1 op9ion1 or dea?4 ,! ,he>t says1 ',be all t y c4' ,! ,intellect says1 ',:5 y are all t y c be--:at !n8' ,inf9ite love is ! basis ( ! smalle/ act ( love1 & :5 we love ) our :ole be+1 we are 9 & "o ) ,god4 ,to love is to lose "o's self & ga9 ,god4 ,to be all 9 love is to be "o ) ,god4 ,:5 ! ,_s begets u1 we are no m2 ! ,_s is1 & !re is no?+ else4 ,!re is mu* debau*]y 9 speak+ wilfully4 ,e act ( self is s91 is a lie4 ,! ,_s w lead y into solitude & sil5ce if x has some?+ to tea* y4 ,y mu/ be born aga9 to "k ! tru?4 ,x _c be inculcat$4 ,to educate is to br+ =?1 n to put 94 ,to put 9 is dea?2 to fl[ out is life4 ,le/ ! read] may h got an impression1 f any ( ! extracts already giv51 t ,isaac ,heck] 0 puff$ up by ! pride ( 8 own innoc5ce1 we transcribe :at foll[s4 ,x %[s t he did n fall "u ! ,apo/le's condemnation3 ,if we say t we h no s91 we deceive ourselves1 & ! tru? is n 9 u4 ,x 0 writt5 on ! la/ ,sunday ( ,septemb]1 &1 aft] ?is long outp\r+ ( confession1 long+1 & weakness1 ! di>y 0 n aga9 resum$ = ne>ly a mon?4 ,! desire express$ 9 its second p>agraph = ! k9d ( spiritual refre%m5t :i* 9 aft] ye>s he s (t5 enjoy$ "u ! "n ( a retreat1 seems notewor?y4 ,septemb] #bd1 #ahdc4--,! human he>t is wick$ above all ?+s4 ,! enemy ( man is subtle & wat*ful beyond conception4 ,in/ead ( be+ on ! way ( goodness1 ,i am j f9d+ out ! wick$ness ( my nature1 its crook$ness1 its impurity1 its d>kness4 ,i want deep humility & =getfulness ( self4 ,i am j em]g+ out ( gross d>kness & my sight is b dim1 s t my iniquities are n :olly pla9 to my vision4 ,at pres5t ,i feel z if a week ( quiet sil5ce w\ld be ! means ( op5+ m deeply ! /ill fl[+ f\nta9s ( div9e life4 ,i w\ld cut (f all relations b t ( my s\l ) ! ,_s--all o!rs seem intrusions1 worldly1 frivol\s4 ,! inp\r+ ( ! ,_s is *eck$ by s mu* att5tion to o!r ?an div9e ?+s4 ,9 ! bu/le & noisy confusion its voice is unhe>d4 ,i feel t "o ( my greate/ weaknesses1 because x leads me to s mu* s91 is my social disposition4 ,x draws me s (t5 into p]il\s conv]sations1 & away f sil5ce & m$itation ) ! ,_s4 ,lately ,i h felt almo/ ready to say t good works are a h9drance to ! gate ( heav54 ,pride & self-approbation are s (t5 mix$ ) !m4 ,i feel t no?+ has be5 spok5 aga9/ ! va9 attempt to tru/ 9 good works :i* my s\l does n fully accord )4 ,?is is a new1 a v new exp]i5ce = me4 ,! =ego+ mu/ be und]/ood 9 ! s5se ( good works h9d]+ bett] works4 ,isaac ,heck] felt 8 noble/ aspirations to be1 = ! mom5t at any rate1 t[>ds solitude & ! passive /ate ( pray]2 & 9 ?is he 0 h9d]$ by ! urg5cy ( 8 zeal = ! propagation ( philan?ropic s*emes & 8 great joy 9 commun+ ) m5 :om he hop$ to f9d l-m9d$ ) himself4 ,! "t came :5 he 0 able to ,jo9 ! two /ates1 ! inn] purify+ ! out] man & direct+ 8 en]gies by ! in/9ct ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,?is entry goes on z foll[s3 ,by practice ( our aspirations1 ideals1 & visions1 we conv]t !m into real be+4 ,we %\ld be able to say1 ',:i* ( y conv9ce? me ( s98' be=e we are fit to prea* to o!rs 9 su* a way t our prea*+ may h a practical effect ^u society4 ,did all our ef=ts fl[ into realiz+ ! tea*+s ( ! ,_s1 we %\ld d mu* m good & be great] 9 ! sight ( ,god ?an we are n[ by s mu* speak+ & writ+4 ,b let u be wat*ful t ! pride ( good works does n take ! place ( t ( speak+ & writ+4 ,by our s9s & _m weaknesses we are prev5t$ f ent]+ ! ,promis$ ,l&1 & mu/ die j 9 sight ( x4 ,in/ead ( be+ humble1 will+1 & self-d5y+ 9 our y\?1 & be+ l$ by ! ,_s ( ,god1 we keep on 9 ! _s ( ! _w & give all ! sub/ance ( our be+ to its s]vice4 ,& :5 we are ne>ly worn out we flee to ,god1 & die1 p]haps1 9 sight ( heav51 in/ead ( hav+ be5 among its inhabitants1 liv+ 9 x ^u e>?1 9 ! full bloom ( our y\?ful joy ( life4 4 4 4 ,! ,"l has be5 good to me & my he>t is fill$ ) ,8 w>m love4 ,bless$ be ,?\1 ,o ,god6 = ,?\ ha/ giv5 me a ta/e ( ,?y sweetness4 ,?\ ha/ giv5 me gratitude & ?ankfulness & an ov]fl[+ he>t ( praise4 ,i w\ld /& /ill & %\t & bless ,god4 ,x is ,god 9 u t believes 9 ,god4 ,)\t ! light ( ,god we %\ld be 9 total d>kness1 & ,he is ! only s\rce ( light4 ,! m ( ,god we h 9 u1 ! m we see beyond u4 ,?y inspiration1 ,o ,god6 is love & wisdom4 ,9 ,!e !y are "o1 z light & w>m? are 9 ! fire4 ,?\ art ! true1 et]nal food ( life1 & he t has ta/$ ,!e c nev] be at re/ until he is :olly fill$ ) ,!e4 ,"l1 :5 we are )\t ,!e we are lo/1 dead1 9 d>kness4 ,x is 9 & by ,?y pres5ce t we live & move & h our be+4 ,ev] m1 ,o ,"l1 increase ,?y ,_s 9 u until betwe5 z !re is no m we or ,!e1 b ,?\1 ,o ,fa!r1 art all6 ,l ! fix$ light 9 a cry/al :i* fla%es back ! light ( ! sun1 s does ! s\l ( man reflect ,god4 ,a good life consi/s 9 passive z well z active virtues4 ,o ,"l1 s fill me t no?+ %all be left b ,!e1 & ,i may be no m4 ,"o w\ld be tempt$ to believe t none b a ma/] 9 ! spiritual life c\ld h writt5 ! s5t5ces :i* imm$iately foll[ ?is outbur/ ( love & praise4 ,yet rememb] t ,isaac ,heck] 0 n yet tw5ty-f\r1 & t he knew no?+ ( ! ways ( ! ,_s except :at ! ,_s ,himself _h directly taught him3 ,! reason :y m5 are p]plex$ & 9 d>kness ab\t _! be+ & ! que/ions :i* _! be+ (t5 asks1 is n t ^! are insoluble1 b t ! disposition & _s 9 :i* a solution is attempt$ is s contr>y to t 9 :i* !y may be solv$1 t !y appe> z hidd5 my/]ies4 ,:5 we come toge!r to conv]se1 x %\ld be to le>n f ea* o!r :at good we c & ought to d1 & s m+le ! brightness ( "o ) ! dimness ( ! o!r4 ,our meet+s %\ld be su* t we %\ld g away feel+ t ,god _h be5 ) u & multipli$ our bless+s4 ,! "q %\ld be1 ',bro!r1 c y tea* me ! way ( ! ,"l 9 a m p]fect mann] ?an t 9 :i* ,i tread x1 s t my s\l may be increas$ & ,god abide 9 me m & m8' ,oh6 he is my bro!r1 my ma/]1 :o leads me to d m & m good & to love & live m ( ,god4 ,he t does n increase my he>t 9 love or my m9d 9 true godly wisdom1 is unpr(itable & negatively injuri\s to me4 ,wilfulness locks up :ile will+ness 7docility7 unlocks ! portal to ! div9e my/]ies ( ,god4 ,i w\ld n attempt to solve a my/]y by intellect1 b by be+4 ,octob] #ag4--;,x is "s "t s9ce ,i h writt5 9 ?is book4 ,all my sp>e "t has be5 occupi$ 9 writ+ lett]s to my fri5ds1 m$itat+1 feel+1 arrang+ matt]s ) my bro!rs reg>d+ our relations ) ea* o!r1 & att5d+ to ! bus9ess4 ,i h _h little "t to read & to visit my fri5ds4 ,s9ce ,i h writt5 my feel+s h become m def9ite1 my ?\ghts cle>] & m di/9ct1 & my :ole m9d m sy/ematic4 4 4 4 ,! settlem5t :i* has be5 made ) my bro!rs gives me ! opportunity ( do+ :at my _s has long dem&$ ( me4 ,?is aft]noon ,i h be5 work+ on _! b$room1 mak+ x l>g] & m pleasant = _! m9ds4 ,?is is ! fir/ movem5t ,i h made t[>d ameliorat+ _! condition4 ,i hope t ,god w give me /r5g? to cont9ue4 ,octob] #ah4--;,i feel ?is aft]noon a deep want 9 my s\l unsatisfi$ by my circum/ances "h1 ! same z ,i exp]i5c$ la/ w9t] :5 ,i 0 l$ f ?is place4 ,x is at ! v dep? ( my be+4 ,ah1 x is deeply /irr$6 ,oh1 c\ld ,i utt] ! a*+ void ,i feel )96 ,c\ld ,i "k :at w\ld fill x6 ,alas6 no?+ t c be said1 no1 no?+1 c t\* ! a*+ spot4 ,9 sil5ce ,i mu/ rema9 & let x a*e4 ,i w\ld cov] myself ) d>kness & hide my face f ! light4 ,oh1 c\ld ,i b call ^u ! ,"l6 ,c\ld ,i b say1 ,fa!r6 ,c\ld ,i feel any relation%ip6 ,novemb] #c4--;,all ?+s consid]$1 c\ld ,i1 "u any circum/ances1 h m opportunities = self-culture & = do+ good ?an ,i h 9 my pres5t position8 ,= "o ?+1 !re is too mu* dem& on me = physical action4 ,my he>t & head h n _! %>e ( "t4 ,b :5 ,i consid]1 ,i am at a loss to "k h[ we c possibly dim9i% our bus9ess 9 any way )\t a /ill great] dem& on u = physical labor 9 consequ5ce ( dim9i%+ x4 ,ye/]day aft]noon ,i w5t alone 9 my b$room & ,i 0 l$ to pray1 & to ?9k :at m ,i c d = ! fri5ds ar\nd me ?an ,i n[ d4 ,?is morn+ ,i arose & pray$1 & felt det]m9$ n to let any outw>d ev5t di/urb my inw>d life2 t no?+ %\ld ruffle my inw>d peace1 & t ?is day %\ld be "o ( int]ior life1 let come :at w\ld4 ,(t5 ,i ?9k ( my pa/ life & my pres5t ) su* a /r5g? ( emotion t ,i w\ld cry al\d1 ',o ,heav5 help me f my c\rse6 ,?is is n ! life ,i w\ld lead1 b h[ %all ,i *ange x8 ,o ,"l6 wilt ,?\ guide me & lead me1 no matt] :at pa9 or di/ress ,i may h to pass ?r\gh1 to ! true pa? ,?\ w\ld/ h me g 98 ,oh6 ,i ?ank ,!e = all ,?\ ha/ 9 any way inflict$ on me2 x has be5 to me ! greate/ bless+ ,i c\ld h receiv$4 ,&1 ,o ,"l6 *a/5 me m1 = ,i ne$ x4 ,h[ %all ,i live s t ,i may be ! be/ ,i c be "u any conditions8 ,if ^? 9 :i* ,i n[ am are n ! be/1 :]e %all ,i g or h[ %all ,i *ange !m8 ,tea* me1 ,o ,"l6 & he> my humble pray]4' ,! foll[+ acc\nt ( 8 curi\s inn] exp]i5ces tells ( ! positive int]f]5ce ( ,god & ,8 angels1 supplem5t+ ! calm] moods 9 :i* ,isaac long$ = & /ruggl$ t[>ds ! settl$ condition only to be atta9$ aft] 8 ent]+ ! ,*ur*4 ,novemb] #e4--;,h[ is x & :y is x t ,i feel ar\nd me ! con/ant pres5ce ( invisible be+s :o affect my s5sibility1 & ) :om ,i conv]se1 z x 71 9 ?\ght & feel+1 b n 9 expression8 ,at times !y s move me t ,i w\ld escape !m1 if ,i c\ld1 by runn+ away f :]e ,i am4 ,i c sc>cely keep /ill2 ,i feel l beat+1 rav+1 & grasp+ :at ,i "k n4 ,ah6 x is an une>?ly feel+1 & pa9fully afflicts my he>t4 ,h[ to get rid ( x ,i d n "k4 ,if ,i rema9 quietly :]e ,i am1 by collect+ its scatt]$ rays x burns m deeply into my s\l1 br++ =? deep sighs1 groans1 & at times dem&+ all my en]gy to repress an unnatural h[l4 ,h[ %all ,i escape ?is8 ,by rema9+ "h & try+ to be> x1 or by travell+8 ,to d ! latt] has (t5 occurr$ to me ( late4 ,by su* a cause ,i 0 driv5 f home la/ w9t]4 ,:at ! result w be ?is "t ,i _c tell2 b if ,i did "k1 ,i w\ld n wait1 z ,i did !n1 until x came on me ) su* p[] z to be tortur+ 9 ! extreme4 ,ah1 :at n]v\s /r5g? & en]gy ,i feel at su* times6 ,if ,i speak ( x to my bro!rs1 !y _c und]/& me1 nev] hav+ _h ! same exp]i5ce4 ,my timidity1 :i* does n wi% to be ?\ght ( z desir+ any?+ extra on acc\nt ( my life1 makes me be> x until x is un5durable4 ,h5ce ,i am sil5t s long z x does n speak = itself1 :i* extremity might be prev5t$ 7 circum/ances o!r ?an !y are4 ,s9ce !y are n1 let x be borne )1 say /r5g? & resignation unit$ ) hope4 ',tis ?is t is fabl$ 9 ,prome!us & ,laocoo5--& h[ well fabl$1 too4 ,x is significant t aft] e extraord9>y di/urbance1 su* z ! above1 he exp]i5c$ ! impulse to /udy ! cr$5tials ( claimants 9 ! out] religi\s _w1 ! envoys ( ! ,deity to man2 & ?is especially conc]n+ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,he goes on at once to say3 ,( late ,i h felt m dispos$ to look into *ur* matt]s ?an = six mon?s pa/4 ,la/ ev5+ ,i made a visit to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,haight 7an ,episcopal cl]gyman7 & conv]s$ ) him ab\t t subject = an h\r & a half4 ,we diff]$ v little 9 our op9ions4 ,if ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has fall5 into corruptions f h] ov]-w>m?1 ! ,anglican has neglect$ "s ( h] duties ?r\gh h] coldness4 ,& if ! ,anglican receives ! fir/ five or six c\ncils z legitimate & rejects ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t z n a full "o1 /ill1 z an individual1 ,i ?9k ,rome did n e/abli% or enjo9 any?+ 9 ^? decrees 7! ,trid5t9e7 :i* 0 n 9 h>mony ) ! ,_s ( ,*ri/1 ! ,scriptures1 & tradition4 ,b ! ,anglican ?9ks %e has1 & h5ce1 9 8 judgm5t1 !y are unw>rantable & unnecess>y4 ,novemb] #ae4--;,h[ does ,jesus commune ) ,humanity ?r\gh ! ,*ur*8 ,does ,he n[ commune ) ! ,*ur*8 ,0 ! life giv5 by ,him to ,8 imm$iate disciples all t has be5 giv5 & transmitt$ to u1 or does ,he n[ commune ) ! visible ,*ur*8 ,& h[8 ,he promis$ to be ) ,8 disciples ev5 unto ! end ( ! _w1 to s5d ! ,com=t] :o %\ld lead !m into all tru?1 & to int]c$e = u ) ! ,fa!r4 ,! ,*ur* holds t its sacram5ts & =ms are ! visible means = commun+ ) ! invisible--t grace is imp>t$ ?r\gh !m to ! wor?y receiv]4 ,is x true t su* grace is imp>t$8 ,if x is1 x w be %[n by its fruits4 ,contra/ ! ,ca?olic :o believes mo/ 9 ! sacram5ts ) ! ,quak] :o does n believe 9 !m at all z religi\s or moral =ces4 ,c]ta9ly1 if ! sacram5ts h any b5eficial effect1 x %\ld be %[n 9 ! contra/ betwe5 ^? :o totally d5y _! efficacy & ^? :o religi\sly believe 9 !m4 ,n[1 does ?is %[ :at "o w\ld naturally expect to fl[ f fai? 9 ! sacram5ts8 ,novemb] #bj4--;,i feel 9 bett] heal? ?an ,i h ev] _h1 bo? m9d & body1 hav+ at ! same "t an increas$ s5sitiv5ess1 s t ! t\* ( any "o ,i _c be>4 ,also1 ,i am consci\s ( a m con/ant spiritual communion4 ,i feel m vividly & di/9ctly ! influ5ce & pres5ce--spiritual pres5ce--( o!rs4 ,i lie d[n 9 my b$ at night ) ! same feel+s ) :i* ,i rise 9 ! morn+4 ,i anticipate z mu* f "o z f ! o!r4 ,! ev5ts1 emotions1 & ?\ghts :i* come 9 my sleep are z mu* a "p ( my real life z ^? ( ! day4 ,wak+ & sleep+ are two =ms ( exi/5ce4 ,to me ! latt] /ate is full ( int]e/ & expectation4 ,! two /ates mutually act ^u ea* o!r4 4 4 4 ,hope1 ,fai?1 ,wi%1 are ! pres5tim5ts ( sight1 ! evid5ces ( becom+ sight to ! s5ses4 ,!y are ! =]unn]s ( vision4 ,x is by !m we "k4 4 4 4 ,to believe is to see1 n ) ! s5ses b ) ! high] faculties ( ! s\l1 reason1 imag9ation1 hope4 4 4 4 ,i believe t e faculty may be elevat$ to ! /ate ( prophecy4 ,reason+ is fai? /ruggl+ ) d\bt4 ,,*apt] ,,xi ,,/udy+ ,,& ,,wait+ ,,t movable fea/1 ,?anksgiv+ ,day1 gave ,isaac occasion = mak+ ?is exam9ation ( consci5ce at five o'clock 9 ! morn+3 ,:5 ,i ca/ my eyes back1 x seems to me t ,i h made "s progress--t ,i h gr[n some:at bett] ?an ,i 04 ,?\ghts1 feel+s1 & passions :i* 7 active 9 my bosom1 & :i*1 9 tru?1 7 n to be well-spok5 (1 h giv5 place1 ,i hope1 to a bett] /ate ( m9d4 ,h[ am ,i n[ actualiz+ my spiritual life8 ,x w\ld be h>d = me to answ] at ?is mom5t4 ,am ,i less wilful8 ,d ,i sacrifice m ?an ,i did8 ,am ,i m lov+8 ,i am afraid t ,i am do+ no?+ m ?an ,i did2 & !re=e ,i took up ?is book to give an acc\nt ( myself4 ,/udy occupies ! be/ "p ( my "t mo/ g5]ally4 ,i recite lessons 9 ,lat9 & 9 ,g]man e day1 & n[ int5d to /udy ,engli% gramm> aga94 ,!n ,i read consid]able1 & write lett]s to my fri5ds4 ,all ?is1 add$ to ! h\rs ,i h to sp5d 9 bus9ess1 leaves me n suffici5t "t to m$itate2 & !re is no opportunity "h = me to g into a retir$1 sil5t place1 :]e ,i c be p]fectly /ill1 :i* is :at has ! mo/ int]nal effect on me1 & ! be/ & mo/ la/+4 ,two ?+s ,i %\ld & mu/ d = my own s\l's sake3 speak less1 & ?9k less ( my fri5ds4 ,to d ?is w give me a retir$ place & an opportunity = sil5ce 9 ! mid/ ( all t is ar\nd me4 ,i feel t ,i am n do+ any?+ to ameliorate ! social condition ( ^? ar\nd me :o are "u my influ5ce & p>tial control4 ,j n[ !re seems a /&-/ill 9 ?is direction4 ,! ,_s promises to tea* u 9 all ?+s3 :at m w\ld x h me d 9 ?is way8 ,:at %\ld be my next /ep8 ,my m9d has be5 p>tially drawn away f ?is by ! pres5t poor /ate ( bus9ess1 :i* keeps u cramp$ 9 our funds4 ,i fe> t to take less food ?an ,i n[ d w\ld injure my heal?--else ,i %\ld fa/ (t54 ,to-day let me put 9 practice ! two above-m5tion$ duties3 sil5ce1 & less ?\ght ^u my fri5ds4 ,& n[1 ,o ,god6 ,if ,?\ helpe/ n ,i %all be worse ?an be=e4 ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 z ! l[] dep5ds on ! light & w>m? ( ! sun = its grace & beauty1 s1 & mu* m1 d ,i dep5d on ,!e = life & progress4 ,o ,"l6 f ! dep?s ( my he>t ,i w\ld implore ,!e to aid me 9 all good int5tions4 ,my he>t ov]fl[s ) its fulness ( gratitude = :at ,?\ ha/ done = me1 & ,i "k ,?\ wilt n %ort5 ,?y h&4 ,?y beauty1 ,?y lovel9ess1 ,o ,god6 is beyond our f9ite vision1 f> above our expression4 ,"l1 all ,i c utt] is1 ,help my weakness4 ,decemb] #b1 #ahdc4--,my he>t1 ^! two days back1 has be5 fill$ ) love4 ,oh1 _h ,i "s "o to :om ,i c\ld unbosom myself6 ,!re is a some?+ t affects my he>t :i* is invisible1 & to me /range4 ,"h he seems to int5d ! lit]al1 physical he>t1 mak+ x ! sc5e1 at ! same "t1 ( a spiritual emotion4 ,on ! same day he writes3 ,i w n fe$ my body ) impure food--is x n ( inf9itely m importance t ,i %\ld n fe$ my _s ) de$s ( impurity8 ,by ?is ,i mean my ga9+ a liv+ by mak+ & sell+ articles :i*1 9 my judgm5t1 are injuri\s1 be+ luxuri\s & altoge!r unnecess>y4 ,%\ld ,i cease f do+ t :i* is contr>y to my _s1 :at else %\ld ,i d8 ,o ,"l1 enlight5 ,?\ my pa?6 ,) :at zeal he /ill p]si/$ 9 ! practice ( bodily mortification ?is entry be>s witness3 ,decemb] #f4--;,day be=e ye/]day ,i fa/$ & took a cold %[]-ba?4 ,my diet is apples1 potatoes1 nuts1 & unleav5$ bread4 ,no wat]--sc>cely a m\?ful a week4 ,!n foll[ "s ?\ghts on ! solid>ity ( humanity1 :i* ret>ds individual progress by weight+ ea* ) ! burd5s ( all o!rs4 ,he f9ds 9 ?is an explanation ( ! tru? t our ,"l took all ! s9s ( m5 ^u ,himself & suff]$ = !m on ! cross4 ,! bl9d +ratitude ) :i* ?is sacrifice has be5 repaid cuts him ) angui%1 f :i* he rises into ?is cry ( love & adoration3 ,o ,"l6 my he>t is *ok$ f ! utt]ance ( its dep? ( ?ankfulness4 ,o de> ,*ri/6 ,o sweet ,*ri/6 ,o lov+ ,*ri/6 oh1 m ?an bro!r1 fri5d6 oh1 m ?an any o!r be+ c be6 ,o ,son ( ,god6 oh1 ,?\ :o %[e/ =? ! pure love ( ,god6 oh1 ,?\ inexpressible ,love6 draw me ne>] ,!e1 let me feel m ( ,?y purity1 ,?y love6 ,oh1 baptize me ) ,?y ,_s & loos5 my tongue t ,i may speak ( ,?y love to m56 ,oh1 x _c be spok5 (1 nor c our he>ts feel its greatness4 ,god6 :at is ,?y m]cy t ,?\ suff]e/ u to live8 ,our +ratitude is too great to be utt]$4 ,"l1 ,i am sil5t1 = :o c speak 9 ,?y pres5ce8 ,o ,fa!r6 ,o ,love6 ,o ,lov+-k9dness6 ,my he>t c\ld fly away6 ,on 8 bir?day1 ,decemb] #ah1 #ahdc1 hav+ f9i%$ 8 tw5ty-?ird ye>1 he puts d[n an acc\nt ( consci5ce 9 ! =m ( pray]s & aspirations to ,god1 brea?+ a deep s5se ( humility1 express+ regret = 8 inactivity1 8 lack ( gratitude = favors bo? spiritual & temporal1 & add+ a f]v5t appeal = m light & great] c\rage4 ,9 almo/ e entry ( any l5g? 9 ! di>y dur+ ?is p]iod he compla9s ( 8 lack ( solitude & ( ! means ( obta9+ x4 ,8 m9d1 aft] arriv+ home1 0 toss$ ) _m int]ior di/resses :i* he c\ld n communicate to 8 bro!rs1 nor ev5 to 8 "m1 ) any hope ( assuagem5t1 b :i* sil5ce & solitude enabl$ him to soo! by pray]4 ,on ! la/ day ( ! ye> he rev]ts to ! great *anges :i* #ahdc _h witness$ 9 8 s\l1 & :i*1 he says1 7 accompani$ by bitt] angui%4 ,twelve mon?s be=e he _h be5 ) 8 de> fri5d1 #j1 ,a4 ,br[nson1 fill$ ) an unkn[n _s1 driv5 f home by x1 & l "o intoxicat$1 n kn[+ :o ,i 0 or :]e=e ,i 0 s tr\bl$--!n to ,brook ,f>m1 & to ,fruitl&s1 & back aga9 9 ,new ,york = ! previ\s five or six mon?s1 ! same _s /ill 9 sov]eign ma/]y ov] him1 &1 ?\gh regulat$1 none ! less p[]ful4 ,he says t he is n s re/less nor 8 m9d s *aotic1 b t he /ill has a pa9 at he>t :i* he decl>es to be almo/ unbe>able1 jo9$ to "s n]v\s excitability4 ,meantime1 besides try+ to employ himself actively 9 ! bus9ess ( ! ,heck] ,bro!rs1 he recit$ lessons daily 9 bo? ,g]man & ,lat91 & read mu*1 *iefly on topics sugge/$ by ! difficulties ) :i* 8 life 0 beset1 su* z philosophy1 religi\s controv]sy1 & ! grav] sorts ( poetry1 ( :i* t ( ,goe! made a deep impression on him4 ,! melan*oly unre/ & long+ :i* su* poetry embodies sunk into 8 v he>t4 ,(t5 x gave p]fect expression to 8 own d\bt+ & di/ress$ /ate ( s\l4 ,he also f\nd "s relaxation 9 an occasional visit to ! !atre & he>d ne>ly all ! lectures giv5 9 ! city4 ,"o ( ! dreams ( 8 life1 ! amelioration ( ! social condition ( ! work+ p1 he f\nd himself unable to actualize 9 any appreciable degree4 ,x is evid5t t 8 bro!rs %>$ 8 philan?ropic views2 b :5 x came to set practically to "w !re 0 a lack ( h>mony4 ,john ,heck] 0 = atta9+ ! object by /rict] discipl9e1 treat+ ! m5 r z s]vants2 :ile we1 says ,isaac1 speak+ ( himself & ,george1 took ! side ( treat+ !m ) k9dness1 &1 z f> z possible1 z bre?r54 ,9 tru?1 x 0 evid5ce ( nobility ( "* 9 ^! ?ree bro!rs t !y c\ld s mu* z dream ( actualiz+ s radical a social re=m 9 b "o e/abli%m5t amid/ s _m 9 ard5t bus9ess competition ) ea* o!r4 ,x may be said 9 pass+ t ! practical *>ity ( ! ,heck] ,bro!rs cont9u$ to d cr$it to ! _s :i* orig9ally prompt$ _! attempts at social re=m4 ,dur+ a p]iod ( g5]al di/ress "s ye>s s9ce !y di/ribut$ bread free1 s5d+ _! own wagons ar\nd ! city = ! purpose4 ,no small "p ( ,isaac's di/ress arose f :at ! di>y calls ! ugl9ess1 vulg>ity1 & discord ev]y:]e to be met ) 9 8 daily r\nd ( duties4 ,he _h "o refuge f ?is 9 8 dome/ic life--a pleasant1 pure1 & peaceful home2 & ano!r 9 ! inn] *amb] ( 8 s\l1 bett] fitt$ e day to be a sanctu>y to :i* he c\ld fly = solace4 ,b 8 he>t fairly bl$ = ! va/ mass ( m5 & ( wom5 ab\t him1 only a few ( :om _h su* an out] refuge1 & p]haps few] /ill ! inn] "o4 ,?is sympa?y he felt 8 life long4 ,he ev] blam$ ! huge accretion ( law & cu/oms & selfi%ness :i* is call$ society = mu* ( ?is mis]y ( m51 ?is h9drance to a fair di/ribution ( ! goods ( ?is _w1 ?is guilty p]mission on ! "p ( ! =tunate few ( ! want & dirt & ugl9ess & co>s5ess :i* are ! lot ( almo/ ! :ole race ( man4 ,yet he 0 n bl9d to individual guilt4 ,"r "h 9 8 di>y1 aft] lam5t+ 8 en=c$ inability to succor human mis]y1 he says t "s words dropp$ by ! workm5 9 conv]sation ) him cause him to record 8 conviction t suff]+ & inju/ice1 toge!r ) ! deprivation ( lib]ty1 are due to "o's own fault z well z to t ( o!rs3 ,e evil t society inflicts ^u me1 ! g]m ( x is my own fault2 9 proportion z ,i free myself f my vices w ,i free myself f ! evils :i* society inflicts ^u me4 ,be true to ?yself & ?\ can/ n be false to any "o4 ,be true to ?yself & x foll[s z night foll[s day t o!rs _c be false to !e4 ,( c\rse ?is panacea (f]s only an inw>d heal+1 = none m readily admitt$ ?an he :o wrote ^! s5t5ces t 9 ext]nals ! true he>t is (t5 ! fir/ victim ( ! malice ( ! false he>t4 ,ev] & aga9 we f9d 9 ! di>y reflections on ! g5]al aspect ( religion4 ,! ,prote/ant *ur*es seem$ to him to fail to meet ! aspirations ( ! natural man2 t is ! burd5 ( 8 compla9t aga9/ !m all4 ,"s1 l ! ,unit>ians1 did b (f] man 8 be/ self & h5ce add$ no?+ to humanity1 :ile humanity at its be/ ceaselessly condemn$ itself z insuffici5t4 ,?is insuffici5cy ( man = himself1 ,calv9i/ic & ,lu!ran ,prote/antism 9 _! turn condemn$ z a depravity wor?y ( ! deepe/ hell1 mak+ man a wret* maim$ 9 8 v nature s cruelly & fatally z to be damn$ = :at he c\ld n help be+ guilty (4 ,meantime ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 0 se5 by ,isaac ,heck] z hav+ elem5ts ! mo/ attractive4 ,x recogniz$ 9 man 8 native dignity2 x saw 9 him a be+ made ,god-l by ! attribute ( reason1 & call$ him to a /ate inf9itely m ,god-l by a sup]natural union ) ,*ri/4 ,x und]/ood 8 weakness1 piti$ x1 & knew h[ to cure x4 ,true1 !re are passages "h 9 :i* 8 impati5ce ) ! public attitude ( ! ,*ur* betrays t 8 view ( x 0 yet a di/ant "o2 !y %[1 also1 an undue conc5tration ( 8 gaze ^u social evils4 ,! ,*ur* is a great almon]1 he says1 b :at is %e do+ to ameliorate & improve ! circum/ances ( ! poor] & m num]\s classes8 ,%e is m passive ?an active4 ,in/ead ( ! ,*ur* be+ 9 ! head & front ( advancem5t1 suff]+ m>tyrdom = ,*ri/1 %e is 9 a cons]vative relation ) society4 ,yet he adds3 ,we speak ( ! ,*ur* z %e is exhibit$ by h] bi%ops & cl]gy1 & only 9 ?is s5se4 ,isaac ,heck]'s r5ew$ exp]im5t ( engag+ 9 bus9ess & foll[+ at ! same "t ! lead ( ! p]emptory ,_s )9 him soon prov$ a failure4 ,he compla9s1 ?\gh n z bitt]ly z ! ye> be=e :5 he felt ! fir/ agony ( ?is suff]+1 t ! great] "p ( 8 true life is lo/ 9 8 pres5t position--! ?\ghts1 feel+s1 /udies :i* are ( supreme value to him1 gett+ entrance into 8 m9d almo/ by /eal?1 :ile1 at ! same "t1 he is n ( mu* use 9 ! bus9ess & ( little b5efit to o!rs 9 any way4 ,on ,m>* #aj he wrote to ,br[nson t he 0 go+ to give up bus9ess totally & f9ally1 & ask$ 8 ,advice ab\t a c\rse ( /udy = ! field ( ! ,*ur*1 n hav+ yet fully settl$ z to :e!r x %\ld be ! ,roman or ! ,anglican4 ,^u 8 det]m9ation to )draw f ! secul> affairs ( life he exp]i5c$ su* peace1 calmness1 & deep1 settl$ /r5g? & confid5ce z nev] be=e4 ,i feel ! pres5ce ( ,god1 he writes1 :]ev] ,i am4 ,i w\ld kneel & praise ,god 9 all places4 ,9 ,8 pres5ce ,i walk & feel ,8 brea? encompass me4 ,my s\l is borne up by ,8 pres5ce & my he>t is fill$ by ,8 influ5ce4 ,h[ ?ankful ought we to be6 ,h[ humble & submissive6 ,let u lay our heads on ! pill[ ( peace & die peacefully 9 ! embrace ( ,god4 ,br[nson answ]$ 8 lett] ) "o ( enc\ragem5t to c>ry out 8 purpose4 ,yet1 !re 0 a pang2 ,isaac lam5ts ! dome/ic com=ts1 ! little (fices ( t5d] love :i* he %\ld lose by go+ f home4 ,& well he might1 = t5d] love may well describe ! bond unit+ ! de> old "m & h] ?ree noble sons4 ,! pres5t writ] _h no p]sonal acqua9tance ) ,john ,heck]1 b we nev] he>d 8 "n m5tion$ by ,fa!r ,heck] except ) mu* affection4 ,george always seem$ to u some?+ l a p]fect man4 ,he especially x 0 :o all 8 life gave 8 entire unselfi% love to 8 bro!r ,isaac4 ,! read] has notic$1 we hope1 t !re has be5 no m5tion s f> 9 ! di>y ( difficulty 9 obta9+ money = ! exp5ses ( 8 v>i\s j\rney+s & = 8 support :5 abs5t f home4 ,! two bro!rs 9 ,new ,york appe> to h held ^! pilgrimages 9 se>* ( ! tru? 9 su* rev]5ce z to make ,isaac _! p>tn]1 only 9 a high] s5se ?an ev] be=e4 ,& ,george ,heck]1 especially1 seem$ ?r\gh\t 8 life to cont9ue ,isaac a memb] ( 8 great & ri* firm1 lavi%+ ^u 8 lea/ wi% l>ge sums ( money1 & ^! n only = 8 /rictly p]sonal exp5diture1 b = any cause :atev] he might h at he>t4 ,,*apt] ,,xii ,,! ,,my/ic ,,& ,,! ,,philosoph] ,,be=e summ>iz+ & conv5i5tly arrang+ ,isaac ,heck]'s reasons = becom+ a ,ca?olic & n>rat+ ! accompany+ incid5ts1 we give ! foll[+ pr(ession ( fai? 9 ! au?ority ( ! ,_s speak+ )94 ,x 0 writt5 9 ! di>y 9 ! mid/ ( 8 prep>ations = 8 baptism1 & is an e>ly witness ( a p]man5t *>act]i/ic ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s life4 ,x is1 besides1 a fitt+ introduction to ! description ( 8 /ate ( m9d :5 he ent]$ ! ,*ur*1 %[+ bett] ?an any?+ we h f\nd :at k9d ( man became a ,ca?olic 9 ,isaac ,heck]4 ,man is a my/ic fact4 ,:at is mo/ int]ior is ev] my/ical1 & we %\ld ev] be 9 ! c5tre ( ! circle ( ! my/ic life4 ,we mu/ unfold ! my/ical 9 all our expressions1 actions1 ?\ghts1 & motions4 ,x is ! my/ic life only :i* c fully int]e/ man4 ,?is is deep] ?an all conditions1 beh9d all organs1 faculties1 & functions4 ,we mu/ li/5 to ^? :o speak to u 9 ! int]ior _w1 & he> ! my/ic man speak ?r\gh u4 ,! my/ic man is ev] y\?ful1 fre%1 & new4 ,! my/ic sph]e is ! k+dom ( heav5 )94 ,i c nei!r /udy nor sit d[n & read = any l5g? ( "t4 ,! inn] man w n p]mit me4 ,ev] he calls me f x to m$itate & enjoy 8 pres5ce4 ,he says3 ,i am all4 ,ask ( me & ,i w give y m ?an has be5 writt5--m ?an y c ev] f9d or dig out by /udy4 ,be my spokesman--?is is y\r (fice4 ,submit to me--?is is y\r glory4 ,i h tak5 up my abode 9 y on condition t y w be fai?ful & submissive4 ,y h no bus9ess to ask ( me :at ,i am go+ to set y ab\t4 ,i am1 & y "k x--& ?is is en\gh = y to "k4 ,?is is my condition ( rema9+ ) y--t y ent]ta9 me1 & me alone1 & no o!r on any pretext :atsoev]4 ,i am all1 & ?is suffices4 ,y h no?+ to say1 to d1 or to be tr\bl$ ab\t4 ,d only z ,i bid y1 foll[ :at ,i tell y1 & be /ill4 ,if y neglect me 9 any way1 or =get me = any o!r object1 n[ t y h enjoy$ my confid5ce1 love1 & bless+1 ,i w n abide ) y any long]4 ,i want all y\r "t & to speak all t is to be said4 ,y h no "r to speak a ^w--n a ^w--( y\r own4 ,y are n y\r own4 ,y h giv5 y\rself up to me1 & ,i am all4 ,i w n leave y unless y leave me fir/1 & ev5 !n ,i %all ev] be ! ne>e/ to y1 b y w n "k x4 ,i am y\r ,fri5d2 ! ,"o :o loves y4 ,i h discov]$ myself to y & w d s yet m4 ,b ! condition ( s do+ requires f y ev5 m fai?1 t5d]ness1 & submissiv5ess4 ,no?+ is s real1 s ne>1 s full ( enjoym5t z ,i am to y1 & y _c leave me )\t giv+ up ! great] = ! less4 ,i talk to y at all times & am ne> y at all seasons1 & my joy is to be 9 y\r pres5ce1 to love y & to take delight 9 ?is love ,i be/[ ^u y4 ,i direct y\r p51 spee*1 ?\ght1 & affections1 ?\gh y "k x n s5sibly4 ,b y %all "k m cle>ly :o ,i am1 & all respect+ me1 if y b comply ) my requirem5ts4 ,y ne$ n fe>3 y _c make any mi/akes if y submit to be guid$ by me4 ,isaac ,heck] _h n[ tri$ e =m ( philosophy4 ,:oev] sail$ ) ,br[nson on t voyage :i* end$ on ! %ores ( ,ca?olic tru?1 _h explor$ ! deep seas & s\nd$ ! %oal wat]s ( all human reason2 & "y ,heck] _h be5 ,br[nson's fri5d & sympa?iz] s9ce ! ye>s ( 8 own e>lie/ m5tal activity4 ,pan!ism1 subjectivism1 idealism1 & all ! o!r sy/ems 7 tri$1 & :5 at la/ he 0 conv9c$ t ,life is ,real x 0 only aft] su* an agony z mu/ att5d ! imm95t dang] ( fatal %ipwreck4 ,he _h1 meantime1 giv5 a fair trial to philan?ropy4 ,!oretically & practically1 ,isaac ,heck] lov$ humanity2 to make m5 happy 0 8 ev]-r5ew$ endeavor2 01 9 tru?1 ! condition on :i* 8 own happ9ess dep5d$4 ,= ye>s ?is view ( 8 life-task alt]nat$ ) 8 se>* = exact answ]s to ! que/ions 8 s\l ask$ ab\t man's de/9y h]eaft]2 or1 "o might r say1 social que/ions & philosophical ones borr[$ /r5g? f ea* o!r to assail him till 8 he>t ?robb$ & 8 bra9 :irl$ ) ! agony ( ! conflict4 ,9 a s]ies ( articles 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w publi%$ 9 #ahhg1 & be=e ref]r$ to1 ,fa!r ,heck] call$ ,dr4 ,br[nson's road to ! ,*ur* ! philosophical road4 ,f9d+ t doctr9es :i* 8 philosophical m9d p]ceiv$ to answ] ! deepe/ que/ions ( ! s\l 7 taught only 9 "o society1 & !re taught ) au?ority1 he argu$ validly t t society c\ld lay claim to ! "r to tea*4 ,f ! doctr9e to ! tea*]1 f ! tru? to ! ext]nal au?ority t tea*es x1 is an inf]5ce ( s\nd reason4 ,?is applies to ,fa!r ,heck]'s case also1 = he 0 ( a b5t ( m9d truly philosophical1 & he has plac$ on record ! simil>ity ( 8 philosophical difficulties ) ^? ( ,br[nson4 ,b 9 addition to philosophical que/ions1 & f> m press+1 7 to ,isaac ,heck] ! problems aris+ f ! my/ical occurr5ces ( :i* 8 s\l 0 ! !atre4 ,7 ^! real8 t is1 7 !y m ?an ! vag>ies ( a s5sitive temp]am5t1 ! w&]+s ( a s5tim5tal imag9ation1 or1 to use ,fa!r ,heck]'s own words1 ! m]e projections into activity ( feel+s entirely subjective2 my/ical impulses t[>ds no correspond+ objective realities1 or1 at any rate1 ) objects :i* x is n possible to br+ into ! field ( ! really kn[able8 ,"s w admit t religi\s feel+ is z mu* a v]ity z any o!r "p ( human consci\sness1 affirm+1 h[ev]1 ! subjectivity ( all purely spiritual life2 & no m c be said1 !y insi/1 = ! pr9ciples1 metaphysical & logical1 ) :i* !y are associat$ 9 ! spiritual life ( man4 ,n[1 su* a !ory nev] leaves ! s\l t is gov]n$ by reason at re/4 ,! problem ev] & aga9 dem&s solution3 are ^! ye>n+s1 aspirations1 unappeas$ desires1 or religi\s feel+s--! rul+ traits ( ! noble/ m5 & wom5--are !y g5u9e1 real1 correspond+ to & aris+ f ! reality ( c]ta9 objects ext]nal to ! s\l8 ,i ?9k t 9 ! solution ( ?is problem ,dr4 ,br[nson f\ght & won 8 greate/ victory2 at any rate1 x 0 to me ! mo/ int]e/+ p]iod ( 8 life4 ,no wond]1 s9ce ,i _h ! same battle to fight myself1 & x 0 j at ?is epo* t ,i came into close/ contact ) him4 ,we f\ght ?is battle %\ld]-to-%\ld]4--,ca?olic ,_w1 ,octob]1 #ahhg1 pp4 #e-f4 ,br[nson's heavy he>t 0 due to philosophical difficulties1 & ,isaac ,heck]'s to ! same2 b 9 addition ! latt] _h a my/ical exp]i5ce to :i* ,br[nson 0 at t "t1 c]ta9ly1 a /rang]1 &1 z f> z we "k1 he rema9$ s2 & ^! my/ical difficulties dem&$ settlem5t f> m imp]atively ?an did ! philosophical ones4 ,isaac ,heck]'s inn] life mu/ h an ext]nal adjunct ( div9e au?ority4 ,su* aspirations ( ! s\l = pres5t union ) ,god 9 love z he _h1 are m p]emptory 9 dem&+ satisfaction ?an ^? ( ! logical faculty 9 dem&+ ! asc]ta9m5t ( ! c]ta9 tru?4 ,philosophy outside ! ,*ur* is to ! se>*] aft] tru? :at ,/4 ,paul said ! ,law 0 to ! ,jews1 a s*oolma/]2 b1 to a s\l 9 ! condition ( ,isaac ,heck]1 ! ,holy ,_s is a sp\se dem&+ union4 ,bo? ,br[nson & himself 7 m5 true to _! convictions1 c\rage\s & unselfi%4 ,!y 7 bo? firmly det]m9$ to h ! tru? & to h ! :ole ( x1 :e!r spok5 ex ca!dra 9 ! div9e c\rt ( ! inn]mo/ s\l1 or ex ca!dra by ! supreme au?ority ( ,god 9 ! organism ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*4 ,br[nson 0 firmly p]suad$1 says ,fa!r ,heck]1 & s am ,i1 t ! great fault ( m5 g5]ally is t !y deem ! life ( _! s\ls1 ?\ghts1 judgm5ts1 & convictions1 ye>n+s1 aspirations1 & long+s to be too subject to illusion to be wor?y _! att5tive /udy & manly fidelity2 t ev5 multitudes ( ,ca?olics greatly und]value ! div9e reality ( _! inn] life1 :e!r 9 ! natural or sup]natural ord]4 ,! philosophical difficulty 0 f> less s]i\s ?an ! spiritual "o4 ,to ! philosoph] ! fundam5tal tru?s ( human reason are e/abli%$ z objective realities by processes common to e sane m9d1 & are back$ by ! common cons5t ( m52 & ?is is true also ( ! prime v]ities ( e?ics4 ,b :5 a man f9ds himself subject to secret influ5ces ( ! utmo/ p[] ov] him1 able to ca/ him (f or to hold him1 to sick5 8 body & di/ress 8 s\l1 ext5d+ 8 views ( ! tru? by fla%es ( light into vi/as t seem inf9ite1 mak+ 8 love ( "r an ec/asy1 8 sympa?y = human mis]y a passion1 controll+ 8 diet & 8 clo?+1 ord]+ him "h & !re at w & kn[+ h[ to be obey$--:51 9 a ^w1 a man f9ds himself treat$ by ,god 9 a mann] totally diff]5t f any "o else he kn[s or ev] he>d (1 x is pla9 t he mu/ agonize = ! possession ( a div9e sanction to :i* he c appeal 9 common ) all m51 & :i* mu/ !re=e exi/ 9 ! ext]nal ord]4 ,he longs1 above all ?+s1 to te/ 8 secret 9 ! light ( day4 ,! problem t ,isaac ,heck] _h to solve1 z he describ$ x himself1 0 :e!r 8 life 0 real--us+ ! ^w life to d5ote its true/ mean+1 ! int]ior life4 ,we h be5 c>eful to make ! read] aw>e ( h[ deep & cont9u\s 7 ! inn] t\*es ( ! ,holy ,_s :i* l$ him on4 ,be=e apply+ = admission to ! ,*ur*1 !re 0 no tru? t he c\ld believe m firmly ?an t he 0 ! temple ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,( t he _h ! c]titude :i* is call$ p]sonal & ! tea*+ ( ,god :i* is mo/ direct4 ,yet some?+ 0 lack+1 & !re9 lay 8 agony1 = he knew t 8 fell[-m5 7 entitl$ to all t he _h ( tru? & virtue4 ,! m di/9ct ! ,voice :i* spoke )91 ! m p]plex+ x became to he> no e*o f )\t4 ,he felt sure t :at 0 true & holy = him mu/ be s = all1 & yet he c\ld n s mu* z make himself und]/ood if he told 8 secret to o!rs4 ,to ! born ,ca?olic !re is no su* difficulty4 ,he is s fully accu/om$ to ! v]ification ( ! inn] action ( ,god1 enlight5+ 8 m9d & /++ 8 consci5ce1 by ,god's ext]nal action 9 ! ,*ur*1 t he (t5 conf\nds ! two4 ,he kn[s ! ,voice bett] by its e*o ?an by its own tones4 ,!re are _m good ,ca?olics1 b few enlight5$ my/ics4 ,?is is n = lack ( guidance1 s f> z doctr9e is conc]n$1 = accr$it$ au?ors on su* subjects are num]\s & _! tea*+ is uni=m & explicit1 besides be+ ( ! mo/ int5se int]e/ to ^? = ^: in/ruction x is adapt$4 ,^! ma/]s ( spiritual doctr9e n only dwell ^u ! int]ior life itself1 b also on ! ext]nal ord] ( ,god 9 ,8 ,*ur* :i* br+s ,8 int]ior tea*+ into prop] relation ) ! ext]ior4 ,! int]ior life ?us made integral is alone wor?y ( ! t]m real2 is alone wor?y ( ! description ( ,/4 ,paul :5 he calls x ! witness ( ! ,_s4 ,n[1 z a witness :o _c be br\ght into op5 c\rt to give 8 te/imony might z well be dumb1 & is z good z no witness1 s ! inn] life1 lack+ ! true ext]nal ord] ( ,god1 is cramp$ & helpless2 & cramp$ & helpless ,isaac ,heck] 04 ,:atev] he did1 !re=e1 t[>d inve/igat+ religi\s evid5ces 0 done prim>ily z a se>* = ! ext]nal crit]ion :i* %\ld gu>antee ! validity ( ! inspirations ( ,god )9 him1 & at ! same "t provide a m$ium ( union ) 8 fell[-m54 ,^? ^: adv]t5ce is n p>ticul>ly ar\s$ to ! facts ( _! int]ior life1 h = _! ma9 task ei!r ! /udy ( ! ,*ur* z a visible society1 claim+ cont9uity ) "o e/abli%$ by ,*ri/2 or1 prec$+ t1 ! "q :e!r su* a society 0 ev] f\nd$ by ,god4 ,n[1 al?\gh su* que/ions mu/ be settl$ by all1 !y are n ! ma9 task ( m5 l ,isaac ,heck]4 ,9 _! case ! problem transc5d+ all o!rs is :]e to f9d t div9e ext]nal ord] dem&$ = ! completion ( _! inn] exp]i5ce4 ,su* m5 mu/ say3 ,if !re is no ext]nal ord] ( ,god 9 ?is _w1 !n my :ole int]ior life is fatally awry4 ,! capta9 ^: voyage is on ! track ( ! trade w9ds nev]!less ne$s m ?an dead reckon+ = 8 c\rse2 he ne$s to take ! sun at noon1 to /udy ! heav5s at night1 & to con 8 *>t4 ,to foll[ "o's int]ior drift only is to sail ! ocean )\t *>t or compass4 ,! sail t is waft$ by ! impulses ( ! div9e ,_s 9 ! int]ior life mu/ h1 besides1 ! gu>antee ( div9e v]acity 9 ! ext]nal ord] to ju/ify him4 ,?is he ne$s1 9 ord] to safegu>d him 9 ! int]ior life itself1 & to provide a common c\rt ( appeal betwe5 himself & 8 fell[s1 or o!rwise he is 9 dang] ( fanaticism1 & is c]ta9 ( ! mi/ru/ ( 8 fell[-m54 ,no man1 unsupport$ by ext]nal miracles1 c claim to tea* :at is v\*$ = only by 8 own te/imony2 & ?is especially applies to purely subjective exp]i5ces4 ,isaac ,heck] 0 a born tea*] ( m51 & to be %ut (f f !m by an isolat$ exp]i5ce 0 to be robb$ ( 8 vocation4 ,a s\l l 81 l$ to ! tru? along ! pa? ( social re=m1 w hail ) delight a religion :i* organizes all humanity on a basis ( equality1 & at ! same "t v]ifies & expla9s ! facts ( ea* "o's p>ticul> exp]i5ce4 ,su* a religion is to be long$ =1 n only because ( its univ]sal bro!rhood1 b also because x c decide betwe5 ! inspirations ( ! ,holy ,_s & ! crim9al conceits ( passion or ! dreams ( an imag9ative temp]am5t4 ,_m ye>s aft]w>ds ,fa!r ,heck] ?us /at$ ! h>mony betwe5 ! inn] & out] action ( ,god 9 ! s\l's life3 ,9 case ( obscurity or d\bt conc]n+ :at is ! div9ely reveal$ tru?1 or :e!r :at prompts ! s\l is or is n an inspiration ( ! ,holy ,_s1 rec\rse mu/ be _h to ! div9e tea*] or crit]ion--! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,= x mu/ be borne 9 m9d t to ! ,*ur*1 z repres5t$ 9 ! fir/ in/ance by ,/4 ,pet] & subsequ5tly by 8 successors1 0 made ! promise ( h] div9e ,f\nd] t '! gates ( hell %\ld nev] prevail aga9/ h]4' ,no su* promise 0 ev] made by ,*ri/ to ea* individual believ]4 ',! ,*ur* ( ! liv+ ,god is ! pill> & gr\nd ( tru?4' ,! te/1 !re=e1 ( a truly enlight5$ & s9c]e ,*ri/ian w be1 9 case ( unc]ta9ty1 ! promptitude ( 8 ob$i5ce to ! voice ( ! ,*ur*4 ,f ! above pla9 tru?s ! foll[+ practical rule ( conduct may be drawn3 ,! ,holy ,_s is ! imm$iate guide ( ! s\l 9 ! way ( salvation & sanctification2 & ! crit]ion or te/1 t ! s\l is guid$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 is its ready ob$i5ce to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,?is rule removes all dang] :atev]1 & ) x ! s\l c walk1 run1 or fly1 if x *ooses1 9 ! greate/ safety & ) p]fect lib]ty1 9 ! ways ( sanctity4--,! ,*ur* & ! ,age1 p4 #ce4 ,9 transcrib+ ! above we are rem9d$ t ,/4 ,ignatius1 :o 0 ! div9e in/rum5t 9 e/abli%+ & p]fect+ ,god's au?ority 9 ! ext]nal ord]1 yet left on record t s cle>ly _h ! ,holy ,_s %[n him by secret tea*+ ! tru?s ( religion1 t1 if all ! ,scriptures _h be5 de/roy$1 8 private revelations at ,manresa w\ld h suffic$ him 9 _! /ead4 ,all t we h j be5 say+ helps to answ] ! "q :y ,ore/es ,br[nson & ,isaac ,heck] did n set up sy/ems ( _! own1 & become ,c>lyles & ,em]sons or1 especially 9 ,fa!r ,heck]'s case1 ,emanuel ,sw$5borgs or ,edw>d ,irv+s4 ,we f9d ! foll[+ among ! memor&a ( conv]sations3 ,june #cj1 #ahhf4--,:y didn't ,i swit* (f f ,*ri/ianity z ,c>lyle did8 ,because ,i hope t ,i 0 tru] to natural reason2 b *iefly because ,god _h giv5 me su* an am\nt ( infus$ lights & graces t ,i 0 =c$ to seek a guide or g (f into extravagant fanaticism4 ,!y 7 ready to enc\rage me 9 ! latt]4 ,george ,ripley said to me1 ',heck]1 :at h y got to tell8 ,tell u :at x is & we w accept x4' ,! impression a p]fectly indep5d5t ?9k] made on him1 z typifi$ 9 ,em]son1 is told 9 an entry 9 8 di>y1 dat$ ,april #bd1 #ahdd3 ,i h _h a few words ) ,em]son4 ,he /&s on ! extreme gr\nd :]e he did sev]al ye>s ago4 ,he & 8 foll[]s seem to me to live almo/ a purely intellectual exi/5ce4 ,8 wife ,i h und]/ood to be a v religi\s woman4 ,!y are hea!ns 9 ?\ght1 & pr(ess to be s4 ,!y h no conception ( ! ,*ur*3 out ( ,prote/antism !y are almo/ p]fectly ignorant4 ,!y are ! n>r[e/ ( m51 yet !y ?9k !y are extremely '_m-sid$'2 &1 =soo?1 d n compreh5d ,*ri/5dom1 & reject x4 ,! ,ca?olic accepts all ! good !y (f] him & f9ds x comp>atively little comp>$ to t :i* he has4 ,t he recogniz$ t ! te/ ( ! "* ( 8 inn] exp]i5ces1 = good or ill1 0 to be f9ally f\nd 9 :at !y l$ him to1 is %[n by ! foll[+ passage1 already quot$1 f ! di>y3 ,:at ,i d ,i mu/ d1 = x is n ,i t d x2 x is ! ,_s4 ,:at t ,_s may be is a "q ,i _c answ]4 ,:at x leads me to d w be ! only evid5ce ( its "*4 ,i feel z imp]sonal z a /rang] to x4 ,! aid :i* fidelity to ! light ( reason & ! *]i%+ & obey+ ! inspirations ( ! ,holy ,_s l5ds to ! discov]y ( ! fulness ( tru? is %[n by ! foll[+ extract f an article by ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w ( ,octob]1 #ahhg3 ,! man :o e/abli%es ! hi/orical id5tity ( ! ,*ur* ( to-day ) ! ,apo/olic college says ! doctr9es n[ taught mu/ be true2 ! man :o p]ceives ! id5tity ( ! ,*ur*'s doctr9es ) 8 own highe/ aspirations also proves !m true4 ,! man :o has become responsive to ! primitive action ( 8 reason says t ! ,*ur*1 :i* is its only au?oritative expon5t1 mu/ be a div9ely appo9t$ tea*]4 ,! infallible au?ority ( ! ,*ur* 9 h] pa/1 pres5t1 & future tea*+ is e/abli%$ by ! necessity ( ! tru?s :i* %e tea*es = ! welf>e ( ! human race1 by ?us complet+ ! outl9es ( natural tru? drawn by ! div9e h& 9 human consci\sness4 ,by ?is we see t1 if ! div9e inn] life _h ne$ ( ! div9e out] life = its integrity1 x is equally c]ta9 t 9 8 case1 & also 9 t ( ,dr4 ,br[nson1 ! intimate action ( ,god )9 0 a po9t] to ! true ,*ur* ( ! ,div9e ,^w inc>nate 9 ! actual _w ( humanity3 = ,dr4 ,br[nson *iefly 9 ! intellectual ord]1 = ,isaac ,heck] 9 bo? ! intellectual & my/ical4 ,we h no fe> ( we>y+ ! read] ) ! l5g? ( an extract ( su* value z ! foll[+3 ,! "o :o rea*es ,ca?olicity by ! philosophical road1 z ,br[nson did1 by no means pret5ds t ! problem ( human de/9y c be solv$ by m]e =ce ( reason3 ,ca?olicity is n rationalism4 ,nor does he pret5d t ! product ( reason's action1 ! k ( human immortality & lib]ty & ( ! be+ ( ,god1 place man ap>t f or above ! univ]sal action ( ,god ^u all s\ls by means ( a visible society & ext]nal ord9ances3 ,ca?olicity is well nam$2 x is univ]sal4 ,b he kn[s t :5 a man is p]suad$ ( a tru? philosophically he is n call$ ^u by 8 intellig5ce or 8 consci5ce to base x ^u hi/orical evid5ce2 x is en\gh t he has "o s\rce ( c]titude 9 its favor4 ,x may be a tru? fir/ kn[n by revelation1 b if ! human intellig5ce is capable ( receiv+ x 9 revelation x mu/ h "s elem5t ( k9%ip to ! tru?s ( pure reason4 ,z 9 ! ord] ( nature m5 are l unto ,god1 s is !re a lik5ess betwe5 ! tru? ( ,god naturally kn[n & t kn[n only by revelation4 ,z !re is an appetite 9 ! human he>t :i* n all ! treasures1 honors1 joys ( nature c satisfy1 s !re is a void 9 ! m9d :i* all ! tru? )9 rea* ( ! unaid$ natural faculties leaves unfill$4 ,:5 a man )\t guile is br\ght face to face ) tru? he spontane\sly desires union ) x4 ,appetite proves ! exi/5ce ( food1 & ! food affirms itself by satisfy+ ! appetite4 ,:]e !re is "q ( a pr9ciple !re is a class ( m9ds :i* mu/ /udy ! "p a pr9ciple has play$ 9 hi/ory1 & is ma9ly influ5c$ = or aga9/ x f its effect on =m] g5]ations ( m54 ,?is class foll[s ! hi/orical road4 ,ano!r class is s pr(\ndly mov$ by ! tru?s ( revelation z soon z kn[n1 assimilates !m s readily & p]fectly1 becomes s absorb$ & lo/ 9 !m1 t ! hi/ory ( revelation is n ( prim>y importance2 x is only necess>y 9 ord] to e/abli% necess>y facts1 su* z ! div9e in/itution ( an ext]nal society1 & ( o!r ext]nal aids4 ,b ) ?is philosophical class ( m9ds ! tru? /&s sponsor = itself & is its own be/ witness4 ,! impression produc$ by revelation "h & n[ ^u ! s\l )\t guile is "o ( ! be/ probable pro(s to t s\l ( ! hi/orical claims ( ! society to :i* ,god entru/$ x4 ',! ,*ur* ,accr$its ,itself' 0 ! title ( "o ( ! mo/ p[]ful articles ,dr4 ,br[nson ev] wrote = ?is magaz9e4 ,bo? ! hi/orical & ! philosophical processes are necess>y1 b ea* is m s to "o class ( m9ds ?an to ano!r4 ,to ! philosophical m9d1 once scepticism is gone & life is real1 ! supreme fact ( life is ! ne$ ( m tru? ?an unaid$ reason c "k4 ,! m ?is ne$ is felt1 & ! m cle>ly ! defici5cies ( natural reason are kn[n1 ! bett] capable "o is to appreciate ! tru?s ( revelation :i* c alone supply ^! defici5cies4 ,9 su* a /ate ( m9d y are 9 a condition to e/abli% reveal$ tru? 9 a c]ta9 s5se a priori1 & ! me?od a po/]iori is !n outrank$4 ,! philosoph] outranks ! hi/orian4 ,9 m9ds ( a speculative turn ! hi/orian is nev] consid]$ ( prim>y importance4 ,! pr9ciples :i* its facts illu/rate are furni%$ him by human reason 9 philosophy1 & by ! div9e reason 9 revelation4 ,! hi/orical m9d has nev] be5 consid]$ 9 ! _w ( ?\ght z sov]eign4 ,! philosoph] is broad en\gh to /udy all ways lead+ to ! full tru? & joy ( life1 :e!r logical or traditional2 b he kn[s t ! /udy ( pr9ciples is high] ?an t ( facts4 4 4 4 ,no man c intellig5tly become a ,ca?olic )\t exam9+ & decid+ ! hi/orical "q4 ,b back ( ?is is ! consid]ation t ! tru?s ! ,*ur* tea*es are necess>ily 9 h>mony ) my reason--nay1 t !y alone solve ! problems ( reason satisfactorily & answ] fully to ! wants ( ! he>t4 ,to "s m9ds ! tru?s /&+ alone compel ass5t2 t is to say1 ! tru?s /&+ alone1 & consid]$ 9 !mselves1 dem& ! submission ( my reason4 ,among ^! tru?s1 ?us imp]ative1 n ! lea/ is ! ne$ ( ! v ,*ur* h]self1 view$ 9 h] action on m5 & nations--view$ q ap>t f ! hi/orical & ,scriptural pro( ( h] e/abli%m5t by ,*ri/4 ,once ! m9d is lift$ above subjectivism & is face-to-face ) ! tru?1 union ) ! ,*ur* is only a "q ( "t & ( fidelity to consci5ce4--,ca?olic ,_w1 ,novemb]1 #ahhg1 ,dr4 ,br[nson & ,ca?olicity4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii ,,8 ,,se>* ,,among ,,! ,,sects ,,_h ,prote/antism possess$ any?+ capable ( attract+ ,isaac ,heck] he w\ld c]ta9ly h f\nd x1 = he made due & dilig5t se>*4 ,he 01 9 a mann]1 b\nd to d s1 = ! atmosph]e 9 :i* he _h be5 born & nurtur$ _h n yet cle>$ s fully t he c\ld say to himself ) positive assurance t !re 0 no safe midway betwe5 no-belief & ,ca?olicity4 ,all ! natural influ5ces ( 8 surr\nd+s 7 su* z to draw him to "o or o!r ( ! ,prote/ant d5om9ations4 ,! p[] ( example & precept 9 8 "m t5d$ t way4 ,! p[] ( public op9ion1 9 s f> z x _h any religi\s be>+1 0 ,prote/ant4 ,! mo/ intellig5t & high-m9d$ p he _h enjoy$ intimate acqua9tance ) 7 ,prote/ant by bir? & tra9+4 ,true1 mo/ ( ^! _h fall5 away f bo? ! fell[%ip & ! doctr9es ( or?odoxy2 b :ile !y _h n ! he>t to po9t him to :at _h be5 _! ,egypt1 /ill !y _h no ,promis$ ,l& to lead him into1 & 7 confess$ly 9 ! ,des]t4 ,yet _! influ5ce 0 indirectly favorable to ,prote/antism z oppos$ to ,ca?olicity1 al?\gh no "o b ! m9i/]s :om he consult$ ?\ght ( urg+ him to id5tify himself ) any v>iety ( x until he %[$ signs ( becom+ a ,ca?olic4 ,to ?is rule ,br[nson may appe> z a p>tial exception1 b until ! summ] ( #ahdd he 0 s 9 appe>ance only4 ,x is true t ,isaac ,heck] _h le>n$ f him ! claims ( mo/ ( ! great =ms ( ,prote/antism1 & got 8 p]sonal te/imony z to ! empt9ess ( !m all4 ,br[nson 0 a compet5t witness1 = he _h be5 an accept$ disciple ( e s*ool1 f /]ile ,presbyt]ianism to rank ,transc5d5talism4 ,al?\gh ( a c]ta9 te/9ess ( temp]1 he bore malice to no man & to no body ( m54 ,8 te/imony 0 9 ! pres5ce ( pat5t facts1 & 8 condemnation ( all =ms ( or?odox ,prote/antism 9 ! end 0 unres]v$4 ,b1 up to ! date giv5 above he /ill made a possible exception 9 favor ( ,anglicanism4 ,9 ! middle ( ,april1 #ahdc1 he wrote ,isaac a lett]1 motion+ him t[>d ?is sect1 at ! same "t affirm+ t he c\ld n q accept x = himself4 ,su* c\nsel 0 no bett] ?an motion+ him away f x1 & 0 b a symbol ( ,br[nson's own devi\s progress1 sway+ n[ to "o side & aga9 to ! o!r1 b always go+ =w>d to ,rome4 ,b "y ,heck] w\ld le>n = himself4 ,( an abnormally inquir+ m9d by nature1 he nev] accept$ a witness o!r ?an himself ab\t any matt] if he c\ld help x4 ,9 ! e>ly "p ( #ahdd ! "q ( religi\s affiliation began to press = settlem5t ) increas+ urg5cy1 ca/+ him at times into an agony ( m9d4 ,x 0 n m]ely t he 0 impell$ by consci5ce t[>ds ! fulness ( tru?1 b t tru? 9 its simple/ elem5ts seem$ sometimes to be lack+ to him4 ,he 0 he>d to say 9 aft] ye>s t1 _h he n f\nd ,ca?olicity true1 he w\ld h be5 ?r[n back into a scepticism s pa9ful z to sugge/ suicide z a relief4 ,yet ^? :o h trodd5 any ( ! pa?s :i* lead f inh]it$ h]esy to true doctr9e1 w appreciate ! =ce ( ! influ5ces1 bo? p]sonal & social1 :i* induc$ him to reconsid]1 & make = himself ! gr& r\nds ( ,prote/ant or?odoxy be=e turn+ 8 back ^u x = ev]4 ,we f9d him1 !re=e1 go+ dilig5tly to all :o claim$ to be wat*m5 on ! walls ( ,sion1 to seek f ea* "o p]sonally t c\nt]sign :i* w\ld tally ) ! div9e ^w nature & grace 7 utt]+ 9 8 own s\l4 ,he int]view$ m9i/]s repeat$ly4 ,n hav+ _h1 he wrote 9 ?is magaz9e = ,novemb]1 #ahhg1 p]sonal & exp]im5tal k ( ! ,prote/ant d5om9ations1 ,i inve/igat$ !m all1 go+ f "o ( !m to ano!r--,episcopal1 ,congregational1 ,bapti/1 ,me?odi/1 & all--conf]r+ ) _! m9i/]s & read+ _! books4 ,x 0 a dre>y bus9ess1 b ,i did x4 ,i knew ,transc5d5talism well & _h be5 a radical sociali/4 ,all 0 f\nd to be z /at$ above4 ,br[nson's ripe exp]i5ce & my own ?or\ghly e>ne/ inve/igation talli$ p]fectly4 ,inde$1 ! m y exam9e ! ,prote/ant sects 9 ! light ( fir/ pr9ciples ! m !y are f\nd to weak5 human c]titude1 int]f]e ) reason's native k ( ,god & ,8 attributes1 & p]plex ! free work+ ( ! laws ( human ?\ght4 ,prote/antism is no religion = a philosoph]1 unless he is a pessimi/--if y c call su* a be+ a philosoph]--& adopts ,calv9ism4 ,:y ,calv9ism1 ) its dread consi/5cy ( av]sion = human nature1 did n attract him 9 ^! e>ly inquiries 0 express$ by ,fa!r ,heck] 9 aft] ye>s by ! say+1 ,h]esy always involves a mutilation ( man's natural reason4 ,! typical ,calv9i/ foams aga9/ man's natural capacity = ! true & ! good1 & "o ( its repres5tatives1 a ,presbyt]ian m9i/]1 _h ! consi/5cy to say to our "y disciple ( nature1 ,unless y believe t y are totally deprav$ y w c]ta9ly suff] et]nal damnation4 ,^! words 7 spok5 to "o :o felt "s sort ( apo/le%ip gr[+ into act )9 8 bosom3 to prea* ! ,gospel to ^? :o are totally deprav$ he p]ceiv$ to be bo? va9 & suicidal4 ,fur!rmore1 ! consci\sness ( 8 own upright "*1 8 exp]i5ce & obs]vation ( human virtue 9 o!rs1 made ab/ract argum5ts ne$less to prove t ,calv9ism is an outrage on human k9d & a blasphemy aga9/ ! ,creator4 ,anglicanism1 too--uncleans$1 z x notori\sly is1 ( a ,calv9i/ic ta9t1 brok5 up by absolute lic5se ( diss5t1 ma9ta9+ a m]e outw>d con=mity to an extremely lax discipl9e--affront$ ,isaac ,heck]'s ideal ( ! communion ( man & ,god2 man seek+ & ,god giv+ ! "o only revelation ( div9e tru?1 unify+ & organiz+ ! ,*ri/ian community3 & ?is 9 spite ( an attraction = ! beauty ( ! ,episcopal s]vice :i* he (t5 confesses 9 8 di>y4 ,9 ! same scrupul\s _s he tri$ ! ,bapti/s1 ?\gh he mu/ h kn[n t !y 71 almo/ )\t exception1 ,calv9i/s4 ,he _h a conf]5ce ) "o ( _! m9i/]s :i*1 f ! acc\nt he gives ( x1 mu/ h deg5]at$ into some?+ l a wrangle4 ,if1 said "y ,heck]1 y admit t baptism is n a sav+ ord9ance1 :y1 !n1 d y sep>ate y\rselves f ! re/ ( ,*ri/5dom on a m]e "q ( c]emonial obs]vance8 ,!re c\ld be no satisfactory answ] to ?is "q4 ,z to ! ,me?odi/s1 !y made fifty ye>s ago mu* less pret5sion to an intellectual foot+ 9 ! religi\s _w ?an at ! pres5t day4 ,"o ?+1 ,fa!r ,heck] tells u1 drew 8 sympa!tic reg>ds _! way--_! doctr9e ( p]fection4 ,he w5t to "o ( _! m9i/]s1 a ,dr4 ,craw=d4 ,i h read 9 ! ,bible1 said he1 ',if ?\ w\ld/ be p]fect1 g & sell all ?\ ha/'2 n[1 t is ! k9d ( ,*ri/ian ,i want to be4 ,! answ] 03 ,well1 "y man1 y mu/ n c>ry ?+s too f>2 y are too en?usia/ic4 ,*ri/ does n require t ( u 9 ! n9ete5? c5tury4 ,aft] conv]s+ ) him = "s "t1 ! m9i/] told him to give up su* ideas & /udy = ! m9i/ry4 ,a s+ul> episode 9 8 se>* 0 8 meet+ ) two en?usia/ic ,mormon apo/les1 & a long & c>eful exam9ation1 "u _! guidance1 ( ! !n newly-deliv]$ revelations & prophecies ( ,joseph ,smi?4 ,he describes 8 ,mormon acqua9tances z m5 ( "s intellig5ce1 b giv5 ov]1 totally & bl9dly1 to ,smi?'s impo/ure4 ,b :at cut "u ! claims ( e =m ( ,prote/antism 0 ! error1 common to !m all1 conc]n+ ! rule ( fai?3 ! private & indep5d5t judgm5t ( ! tea*+ ( ,scripture made by ea* man = himself4 ,z ! real own] ( a home/ead has mo/ reason to dread a deal] 9 false titles1 s ! truly free man has mo/ reason to dread false lib]ty4 ,isaac ,heck] 0 ! type ( rational individual lib]ty1 h5ce ! v man to abhor mo/ ! c>icature ( t pr]ogative 9 ! typical ,prote/ant4 ,five ye>s be=e 8 dea?1 9 an article 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w entitl$ ,lu!r & ! ,diet ( ,worms1 ,fa!r ,heck] put ! case ?us3 ,x is a misappreh5sion common among ,prote/ants to suppose t ,ca?olics1 9 refus+ ! appeal ( ,m>t9 ,lu!r at ! ,diet ( ,worms1 condemn ! use ( reason or individual judgm5t1 or :atev] "o pleases to call ! p]sonal act :i* involves ! ex]cise ( man's intellect & free w4 ,! tru? is1 p]sonal judgm5t fl[s f :at con/itutes man a rational be+1 & !re is no p[] "u heav5 t c ali5ate p]sonal judgm5t f man1 nor c man1 if he w\ld1 disappropriate x4 ,! cause ( all ! tr\ble at ! ,diet ( ,worms 0 n p]sonal judgm5t1 = nei!r p>ty put t 9 "q4 ,! po9t 9 dispute 0 ! "r application ( p]sonal judgm5t4 ,ca?olics ma9ta9$1 & always h & always w ma9ta91 t a div9e revelation necessitates a div9e int]pret]4 ,ca?olics resi/$1 & always w resi/1 on ! gr\nd ( its incompet5cy1 a human au?ority appli$ to ! int]pretation ( ! cont5ts ( a div9ely-reveal$ religion4 ,!y consid] su* an au?ority1 :e!r ( ! individual or ! /ate1 9 religi\s matt]s an intrusion4 ,ca?olics insi/1 )\t sw]v+1 ^u believ+ 9 religion none b ,god4 4 4 4 ,to inve/igate & make "o's self c]ta9 t ,god has made a revelation is ( obligation1 & consi/5t ) ,*ri/ianity4 ,b z a div9e revelation spr+s f a s\rce above ! sph]e ( reason1 x necessitates a div9ely au?oriz$ & div9ely assi/$ int]pret] & tea*]4 ,?is is "o ( ! ess5tial functions ( ! ,*ur*4 ,t ! use ( ! ,scriptures is n1 & _c be made ! ord9>y means = mak+ all m5 ,*ri/ians1 0 pla9 to ,isaac ,heck] = o!r reasons ?an ! ess5tial "o ?us cle>ly /at$4 ,=1 if su* 7 ! case1 ,god w\ld be/[ on all m5 ! gift to read at sight1 or cause all to le>n h[ to read1 or w\ld h record$ 9 ! ,book itself ! words1 ,unless a man reads ! ,bible1 & believes :at he reads1 he _c ent] into ! k+dom ( ,god1 or _! pla9 equival5t2 :]eas ! ,bible1 z we h x n[1 did n exi/ 9 ! apo/olic days1 ! mo/ glori\s era ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*4 ,su* is ,fa!r ,heck]'s argum5t 9 a p[]ful article 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w = ,octob]1 #ahhc4 ,he cont9ues3 ,b suppose t ev]ybody knew h[ to read1 or all m5 7 gift$ to read at fir/ sight2 suppose t ev]ybody _h a copy ( ! ,bible )9 8 rea*1 a g5u9e ,bible1 & knew ) c]titude :at x means2 suppose t ,*ri/ himself _h laid x d[n z a rule t ! ,bible1 )\t note or comm5t1 & z int]pret$ by ea* "o = himself1 is ! ord9>y way ( receiv+ ! grace ( salvation--:i* is ! vital pr9ciple ( ,prote/antism2 suppose all ^! evid5t assumptions z true4 ,w\ld ! ,bible ev5 9 t case suffice to make any "o man1 woman1 or *ild a ,*ri/ian8 ,evid5tly n4 ,& :y8 ,= t is a p]sonal "w1 & ! p]sonal "w ( ,*ri/2 = ,*ri/ alone c make m5 ,*ri/ians4 ,& no acc\nt ( ,*ri/ is ,*ri/4 4 4 ,! cont5ts ( a book1 :atev] ^! may be1 are p[]less to place its read]s 9 direct contact & vital relations ) its au?or4 ,no man is s vision>y z to imag9e t ! m5tal op]ation ( read+ ! ,iliad1 or ! ,pha$o1 or ! ,div9e ,com$y1 suffices to put him 9 communication ) ! p]sonality ( ,hom]1 or ,plato1 or ,dante4 ,all ef=t is 9 va9 to slake ! ?ir/ ( a s\l fami%+ = ! ,f\nta9 ( liv+ wat]s f a brook1 or to /op ! crav+s ( a s\l = ! liv+ ,savi\r ) a pr9t$ book4 4 4 4 ,8 words are ',come unto ,,me all t are we>y & heavy lad51 & ,i w refre% y4' ,x 0 ! attempt to make m5 ,*ri/ians by read+ ! ,bible t broke ,*ri/5dom into fragm5ts1 multipli$ j>r+ ,*ri/ian sects1 produc$ sw>ms ( d\bt]s1 fill$ ! _w ) sceptics & sc(f]s at all religion1 fru/rat$ comb9$ ,*ri/ian action1 & put back ! ,*ri/ian conque/ ( ! _w = c5turies4 ,?ree c5turies ( exp]i5ce h made x evid5t en\gh t1 if ,*ri/ianity is to be ma9ta9$ z a pr9ciple ( life among m51 x mu/ be on ano!r foot+ ?an ! suicidal hypo!sis inv5t$ 9 ! sixte5? c5tury aft] ! bir? ( its div9e ,f\nd]4 ,8 f>ewell int]views ) expon5ts ( ! ,prote/ant claims 7 ma9ly1 if n :olly1 ) repres5tatives ( ,anglicanism4 ,?is did n arise f any gr\nd$ hope ( gett+ all he want$ !re1 b f an ins5sible drift ( 8 m9d ^u ^? curr5ts ( ?\ght set 9 motion by ! great p[] ( ,newman4 ,! air 0 full ( promise ( non-,roman ,ca?olicity1 & ! voices :i* call$ ! ,engli%-speak+ _w to li/5 7 ! mo/ eloqu5t s9ce ,%akespe>e4 ,x ne$$ b a dim hope po9t+ along any road to induce ! delicate consci5ce ( ,isaac ,heck] to try if x might n be a ?or\ghf>e4 ,b nei!r 9 8 copi\s entries 9 ! di>y at ?is p]iod1 nor 9 8 articles 9 ?is magaz9e = ! ye> #ahhg on ,dr4 ,br[nson's difficulties--& ^! 7 mu* l 8 own--d we f9d any trace ( 8 discov]+ 9 ,anglicanism a g]m ( ,ca?olicity unfold+ f ! *rysalis ( g5u9e ,prote/antism & ca/+ x (f4 ,?is 0 readily p]ceiv$ 9 ,isaac ,heck]'s be>+ & conv]sation by acute ,episcopalians !mselves1 z 9 ! case ( ,dr4 ,seabury1 :o1 z ,fa!r ,heck] relates 9 ! articles above ref]r$ to1 prophesi$ ,br[nson's conv]sion to ,ca?olicity1 & did s = reasons :i* ,seabury mu/ h kn[n w\ld apply to "y ,heck] also4 ,_m at ?is "t 7 be+ drawn by poetical s5tim5t to ! beautiful & religi\s =ms ( ,episcopalian wor%ip2 drawn & held r by imag9ation & feel+ ?an by any adhesion ( _! m9ds to di/9ctive ,anglican doctr9es4 ,fa!r ,heck] 01 inde$1 m poetical 9 temp]am5t ?an at fir/ acqua9tance he seem$ to be1 b 8 m9d 0 s con/itut$ t he mu/ h ! ma9 reasons ( ?+s1 :e!r religi\s or n1 firmly settl$ be=e he c\ld enjoy _! use4 ,nor c\ld he be cont5t ) fragm5ts ( reveal$ tru?1 su* z are f\nd 9 all d5om9ations ( non-,ca?olics4 ,!re is a l>ge float+ body ( ,ca?olic tru? 9 ! _w1 says ,newman2 x comes d[n by tradition f age to age4 4 4 4 ,m5 outside ! *ur* take up & pr(ess ^! scatt]$ tru?s1 m]ely because !y fall 9 ) !m4 ,n s ,fa!r ,heck]3 no flotsam & jetsam ( doctr9e = him1 unless "s fragm5t w\ld reveal to him ! "n ( ! %ip f :i* x _h be5 torn1 & ! port f :i* %e _h sail$1 & s lead him to ! discov]y ( ! %ip h]self1 crew1 c>go1 port1 & own]4 ,yet he l+]$ long ov] ! claim ( ,anglicanism to be ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,( ,mr4 ,haight & ( 8 int]views ) him we h already spok54 ,?r\gh him he came across a publi%$ lett] ( a ,mr4 ,norris1 ,episcopal m9i/] 9 ,c>lisle1 ,pa41 :i* s pleas$ him = its ,ca?olic t5d5cy t he wrote to him1 ask+ to be all[$ to g to ,c>lisle & live !re z ! writ]'s pupil4 ,! answ]1 ?\gh a refusal ( ?is reque/1 0 k9d1 & conta9$ a cordial invitation to visit ,mr4 ,norris aft] ,ea/]4 ,on 8 way to ,concord1 9 ! foll[+ spr+1 ,isaac made a long det\r to ! little t[n 9 s\!rn ,p5nsylvania1 int]view$ ,mr4 ,norris1 & came away no wis] ?an be=e4 ,! foll[+ words ( ! di>y1 "u date ( ,m>* #cj1 #ahdd1 ref] to an ,episcopal dignit>y ( high] grade3 ,mr4 ,haight gave me a note ( introduction to ,dr4 ,seabury4 ,i call$ to see him two ev5+s ago & _h a v pleasant conv]sation ) him4 ,8 sociabl5ess & p]fect op5ness ( expression ,i 0 q delight$ )4 ,he frankly ackn[l$g$ t he ?\ght t error _h be5 committ$ on bo? sides 9 ! controv]sy ( ! ,re=mation betwe5 ! ,pope & ! ,anglican ,*ur*4 ,he recomm5d$ me to exam9e ^? po9ts :i* kept me f jo9+ ! ,anglican or ,roman ,*ur* be=e ,i %\ld d any?+ fur!r1 z !re 0 ! *>ge ( s*ism aga9/ ! ,anglican ,*ur* & neglect ( discipl9e among ! memb]s ( h] communion4 ,i told him t ?\gh ! ,*ur* ( ,rome may commit errors 9 practice1 %e _h n committ$ any 9 pr9ciple1 & t x 0 easi] to prune a luxuriant tree ?an to revivify a tree almo/ exhau/$ ( life4 ,i left him ) an e>ne/ invitation to call aga94 ,?is half-confession ( s*ism & frank av[al ( lack ( discipl9e on ! "p ( a p]fectly repres5tative (ficial ( ! ,anglican ,*ur* 0 some?+ s+ul>ly ,provid5tial1 = x came )9 a =tnight aft] ,isaac ,heck]'s fir/ int]view ) ,bi%op ,hughes1 describ$ 9 ! di>y "u date ( ,m>* #bb4 ,t p[]ful man & great prelate 0 a type ( ! be/ =m ( ,ca?olicism at t day4 ,he 0 ( ! ,*ur* militant 9 m s5ses ?an "o2 & ! milit>y qualities :i* h inspir$ ! public action ( ,ca?olic *ampions = ! pa/ ?ree c5turies 7 /rongly develop$ 9 him4 ,t x 0 = ! good ( religion t x %\ld h su* *>act]s z ,john ,hughes to c>e = its public welf>e !re is no room to d\bt4 ,s9ce !n ! temp] ( ,prote/ant ,am]icans has und]gone a *ange :i* is almo/ radical4 ,x has gr[n inf9itely m j & k9dly t[>ds ,ca?olics4 ,! decay ( ! ,prote/ant bond ( cohesion f lapse ( "t & f ! unsettlem5t ( belief 9 its *ief doctr9es2 ! fight+ ( two w>s1 "o ( !m ! great ,rebellion1 :i* fus$ ! populations ( ,/ates & acqua9t$ m5 bett] ) _! neighbors2 ! com+ 9 ( millions ( ,ca?olic =eign]s ^: e brea? 0 an aspiration = lib]ty2 ! rise1 culm9ation1 & collapse ( ! anti-,ca?olic movem5t t]m$ ,"k-no?+-ism2 ! polemical w>f>e ( ,bi%op ,hughes himself & ( 8 contempor>ies--^! & o!r causes h made x possible1 nay necess>y1 to treat non-,ca?olics 9 a diff]5t _s f :at wisdom dictat$ fifty ye>s ago4 ,if ,dr4 ,seabury own$ to s*ism & lack ( discipl9e 9 ,anglicanism1 ,bi%op ,john ,hughes br\ght out to ,isaac ,heck] ! v contr>y z ! attractive qualities ( ,ca?olicity4 ,he 0 que/ion$ by ! "y inquir] ab\t ! latt]'s *ances = /udy+ = ! prie/hood %\ld he decide on ent]+ ! ,*ur*1 & he answ]$ accord+ to rigid notions ( ! place ( au?ority 9 religion4 ,he said1 are ! words ( ! di>y1 end+ a summ>y ( ! int]view1 t _! ,*ur* 0 "o ( discipl9e4 ,i ?ank$ him = ! in=mation t he gave1 & told him t x 0 = j su* in/ruction t ,i s\ght him4 ,he seem$ to ?9k t ,i _h "s loose notions ( ! ,*ur*4 ,s f>1 ?is settles my pres5t int5tion ( unit+ myself ) ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,?\gh ,i feel n 9 ! lea/ dis9cl9$ to be gov]n$ by ! mo/ rigid discipl9e ( any *ur*1 yet ,i am n prep>$ to ent] ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* at pres5t4 ,x is n national ) u1 h5ce x does n meet our wants1 nor does x fully und]/& & sympa?ize ) ! exp]i5ce & dispositions ( our p4 ,x is pr9cipally made up ( adopt$ & =eign individuals4 ,to u ?is is exce$+ly in/ructive1 = x tells u h[ n to meet ! e>ne/ seek] aft] ,ca?olic tru?4 ,ev5 a good-natur$ dog does n %[ 8 tee? :5 c>ess$1 nor is an artill]y salute ! only %[ ( amity betwe5 ev5 w>like p[]s4 ,yet ! repellant attitude ( ! great controv]siali/ 0 t ( v _m repres5tative ,ca?olics ( 8 "t1 especially ^? hold+ 8 high (fice4 ,= al?\gh he really did "k ! ,am]ican p1 & al?\gh _! c\ntry 0 fully 8 own1 & 0 by him deeply & intellig5tly lov$1 yet he did n und]/& or sympa?ize ) ! religi\s movem5ts ( :i* 8 /range "y visitor 0 ! true/ type4 ,he aft]w>ds knew him bett] & lov$ him4 ,! toss ?us giv5 ,isaac ,heck] by ,bi%op ,hughes's catapult ( discipl9e _h ! good effect ( ?r[+ him aga9 ^u a full & p]fect & f9al inve/igation ( ,prote/antism4 ,) :at imm$iate result is %[n by ! ,seabury int]view already relat$1 & ) :at hone/y ( purpose is %[n by ! foll[+ words writt5 ! same day3 ,if a l[ passion usurps ! place ( pure love1 if a bl9d prejudice usurps ! place ( ,ca?olic tru?1 he :o in=ms me ( x1 ?\gh he _h be5 my enemy 7if enemies x is possible = me to h71 ,i w receive him z an angel f heav51 z an in/rum5t ( ,god4 ,my honor1 my consi/5cy1 my "* consi/s 9 fai?fulness to ,god's love1 ,god's tru?1 & no?+ else4 ,let me be b true to ,him--h[ !n c ,i be false to ei!r man or ! _w8 ,x is ,him :o kn[s our secret ?\ghts t we %\ld fe> 7if fe> we mu/7 & obey4 ,?us x 0 ,anglicanism t engag$ ,isaac ,heck]'s la/ ef=ts to adju/ a ,prote/ant outside to 8 inw>d exp]i5ce ) ! ,holy ,_s2 & ?is = a reason q evid5t4 ,t body pret5d$1 !n z n[1 to be ! ,ca?olic ,*ri/ian ,*ur*1 assi/+ m5 to union ) ,god by a div9ely-f\nd$ ext]nal organism1 b n dem&+ ! sacrifice ( human lib]ty4 ,to an inexp]i5c$ obs]v] su* z he1 x seem$ possible t ,anglicanism might be ! union ( hi/orical ,*ri/ianity ) manly fre$om4 ,clos] obs]vation prov$ to him n only ! compatibility ( ,ca?olicity & lib]ty1 b t ,anglicanism1 ?\gh assum+ "s ( ! =ms ( ,ca?olic unity1 is kept alive by ! pr9ciple ( individual sep>atism common to all ,prote/ant sects4 ,= a "t1 or 9 a place1 x may h mu* or little ( ,ca?olicity2 b 9 no place c x live = a day )\t ! ,prote/ant pr9ciple ( a "r ( f9al appeal to ! individual judgm5t to decide ^u ! v]ity ( doctr9e4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv ,,8 ,,life ,,at ,,concord ,i ,,h be5 grop+ 9 d>kness1 seek+ :]e ,?\ wa/ n1 & ,i f\nd ,!e n4 ,b1 ,o ,"l my ,god1 ,?\ ha/ f\nd me--leave me n4 ,^! words are "p ( a long pray] writt5 by ,isaac ,heck] 9 8 di>y ,april #bc1 #ahdd1 aft] 8 arrival at ,concord1 ,mass4 ,he appe>s to h gone directly !re f ,c>lisle1 ,pa41 :]e he _h sp5t "s days ) ! ,rev4 ,william ,h]b]t ,norris1 ^: publi%$ lett] to ,a ,s9c]e ,enquir] _h excit$ 9 ! "y man a hope t he might f9d 9 him a tea*] ^: deep inw>d exp]i5ces w\ld be complem5t$ by ! adequate ext]nal gu>anty t he 0 seek+4 ,we h already not$ t he 0 disappo9t$4 ,he /ates ! reason v sugge/ively 9 a lett] writt5 at ! "t3 ,alas1 t m5 %\ld speak ( ^? ?+s !y are mo/ ignorant (6 ,:at hopes did he n awak5 9 my bosom z ,i read 8 lett] to a ,s9c]e ,enquir]1 & h[ 7 !y bla/$ :5 ,i met him & f\nd t x 0 n he1 b ,hook]1 ,newman1 ,paul1 etc46 ,x is a sad fact t _m believe1 b v few give !mselves up to :at !y believe s t !y may h ! sub/ance ( _! belief4 ,isaac ,heck]'s bus9ess 9 ,concord _h1 z usual1 two sides4 ,ext]nally x meant go+ on ) ,greek & ,lat91 "u ! guidance ( ! lately deceas$ ,george ,p4 ,brad=d1 a s*ol> ( r>e acquirem5ts1 ^: acqua9tance he _h made at ,brook ,f>m ! previ\s ye>4 ,! end he s\ght 9 ?is /udy 0 to fit himself = work+ 9 ! field ( ! *ur*4 ,b z ! "q ( :i* *ur* 0 n ev5 yet fully settl$ 9 8 m9d1 8 se>* = ! true religion /ill rema9$ 8 deepe/ & mo/ inmo/ purpose4 ,nev]!less1 he 0 enjoy+ at ?is "t "o ( 8 p]iods ( pr(\nd int]ior & ext]ior peace4 ,i feel1 he writes1 t ,i am gr[+ 9 ,god's grace4 ,to ,him ,i look = support4 ,w ,he n imp>t wisdom z well z love8 ,8 surr\nd+s at ,concord are s vividly describ$ 9 ! lett]s he wrote to 8 family t we _c omit quotations f !m4 ,! fir/ ( ^! is dat$ at ,brook ,f>m1 & describes 8 ef=ts to f9d a room aft] rea*+ ! village4 ,he seems to h gone at once to ,mr4 ,brad=d's h\se on 8 arrival4 ,april #bb1 '#dd4-4 4 4 ,aft] supp] we salli$ =? aga94 ,we saw a room1 & :at d y imag9e !y *>g$ = x8 ,sev5ty-five doll>s a ye>66 ,?is 0 out ( ! "q4 ,we w5t fur!r & f\nd a room1 good size1 v good p1 furni%$1 & to be kept 9 ord] = eight doll>s a qu>t]4 ,?is seem$ reasonable to me1 & also to ,mr4 ,brad=d4 ,i felt safe 9 tell+ ! lady t ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld take x4 ,i reque/$ ,mr4 ,brad=d to keep a look-out = me :ile ,i 0 gone1 & if we c\ld n f9d a bett] place be=e ,i return$ ,i w\ld accept ?is4 ,?is morn+ ,i left ,concord to come & see ,*>les ,dana conc]n+ ! books ,i %all require1 & to see "s ( my fri5ds4 ,i got into ,bo/on at t5 o'clock1 & walk$ out "h by d9n]-"t4 ,all ( ! old set t are "h 7 delight$ to see me4 ,i h conv]s$ ) a few ( !m1 & f9d !m m op5 to consid] ! claims ( ! ,*ur* ?an ,i _h anticipat$4 ,concord1 ,april #bd1 '#dd4--;,de> ,fri5ds3 ,?is ev5+ ,i c say t ,i am settl$1 com=tably settl$ 9 e p>ticul>4 ,all t is ne$$ = my com=t is "h3 a good /raw b$1 a l>ge table1 c>pet1 wa%/&1 book-case1 /ove1 *airs1 look+-glass--all1 all t is ne$ful4 ,& ?is = sev5ty-five c5ts a week1 includ+ lights2 wood is extra pay4 ,?is is ! inanimate ab\t me4 ,! lady ( ! h\se1 ,mrs4 ,?oreau1 is a woman4 ,! only fe> ,i h ab\t h] is t %e is too mu* l de> "m--%e w take too mu* c>e ( me4 ,%e has told me h[ %e us$ to sit up nights1 wait+ = a "y man :om %e _h tak5 to bo>d1 to come home4 ,he 0 a /rang] to h]1 b /ill %e insi/s t %e mu/ treat all z %e w\ld h] own1 & ev5 ) great] c>e4 ,if y 7 to see h]1 "m1 y w\ld be p]fectly satisfi$ t ,i h fall5 into good h&s1 & met a second "m1 if t is possible4 ,april #be1 #a3cj ,p4,m4--,i h j f9i%$ my d9n]2 x 0 e9 h]rli*es ,ess54 ,unleav5$ bread 7f home71 maple-sug>1 & apples :i* ,i pur*as$ ?is morn+4 ,previ\s to tak+ d9n] ,i said my fir/ lesson to ,mr4 ,brad=d 9 ,greek & ,lat94 ,i am extremely well situat$1 & feel cont5t$ 9 myself1 & deeply grateful to y all = y\r goodness 9 help+ me to pursue ! real purpose ( my be+4 ,all we c d is to be fai?ful to ,god & to ! "w ,he has giv5 u to d1 &1 :atev] end ,he may lead u to1 to h t c5tral fai? t 'all is = ! be/4' ,!re is only "o life1 & t is life 9 ,god2 & only "o dea?1 & t is sep>ation f ,him4 ,& ?is life is n & _c be measur$ by ! ext]nal eye4 ,we mu/ be fix$ 9 ,god be=e we c d any?+ rightly--/udy1 labor1 social1 political or ( any k9d4 4 4 4 ,i h writt5 ?is lett] full ( no?+ness2 ,i w be m settl$ ! next "t & d bett]4 ,s5d all y\r love to me--?9k m ( heav5 & we %all gr[ happi]4 ,if once cele/ial love has t\*$ u1 we _c re/ until x dwells & abides 9 our he>ts4 ,to y all ,i s5d my w>me/ & pure/ love4--,,isaac4 ,concord1 ,may #b1 #ahdd4--;,de> ,fri5ds3 ,x 0 my int5tion n to write home until ,i _h receiv$ a lett] f y2 b z none has yet come1 & ,i am 9 want ( a few ?+s1 ,i w write y imm$iately4 ,y c sc>cely imag9e h[ diff]5t my life is n[ f :at x 0 at home4 ,x is l liv+ 9 ano!r _w4 ,x is possible t y might n be suit$ ) ! conditions "h1 b to me !y are ! v ones :i* are cong5ial to my pres5t /ate ( be+4 ,i am alone f e>ly dawn to late at night2 no "o to intrude ^u my quiet except ,mr4 ,brad=d1 :o occupies ! h\r betwe5 twelve & "o to he> my recitations1 & ,mrs4 ,?oreau a few m9utes 9 mak+ my b$ 9 ! morn+s4 ,! re/ ( my "t is devot$ to /udy1 communion1 &1 a little ( x1 to read+4 ,h[ unlike ! life at home6 ,! ?\ght j occurs to me t if su* a life seems desirable to y1 h[ easily y c\ld obta9 x4 ,:at is x t co/s s mu* labor ( m9d & body8 ,is x n t :i* we consume on & 9 our bodies8 ,!n1 if we r$uce ! consumption !re w be less ne$ ( production4 ,mo/ ( our labor is labor = ! body4 ,we are treasur+ up corruption = ! day ( dea?2 is ?is n s8 ,z we rise 9 _s above ! body we %all br+ all its appetites into subjection to ! moral law4 4 4 4 ,?is is :at ,i %\ld l y to d = me4 ,all ! food t ,i br\ght ) me is gone1 & z ,i w\ld l to h my razor s5t on1 & z ! articles y c give me w\ld be bett] ?an any ,i c get "h1 y w be s k9d z to s5d ) x ! foll[+ li/1 if y ?9k be/3 #a4 ,put 9 "s h>d bread4 #b4 ,a few unleav5$ :eat biscuits1 su* z ,i us$ to make4 #c4 ,"s unleav5$ ,graham biscuits4 #d4 ,a five-c5t or t5-c5t loaf ( bread1 if y ?9k x w keep good until x gets "h4 #e4 ,get me a l95 summ] frock-coat su* z are worn--^? loose ones4 ,dun/] has my measure & he c cut x = y4 ,let x be made4 ,i h only a summ] jacket ) me1 & t is ,john's4 #f4 ,d n =get ! razor4 ,y c put 9 any o!r simple1 solid food1 if y wi% to s5d any4 ,d ,i ask too mu* f y8 ,if s1 y mu/ be k9d en\gh to tell me4 ,y\r labor is already too great1 & ,i am burd5+ y ) m4 4 4 4 ,h[ mu* my he>t loves y all6 ,h[ unk9dly ,i h spok5 to y at times6 ,y w =give me & love me none ! less1 w y n8 ,may we live toge!r m & m 9 ! unity ( love4 ,may1 #ahdd4--4 4 4 ,my /udies are pursu$ ) ! same _s 9 :i* !y 7 comm5c$1 & !re seems to me no reason to fe> b t !y w be cont9u$ 9 ! same = "s "t to come4 ,h[ev]1 ,i w\ld affirm :at has be5 affirm$ by me = ^! two ye>s back1 ! only consi/5cy t ,i c promise is submission to ! ,_s t is guid+ me1 :atev] may be ! ext]nal appe>ance or sup]ficial consequ5ces to o!rs4 4 4 4 ,h[ our a/oni%m5t %\ld be excit$ to p]ceive t we h be5 9 su* a long sleep1 & t ev5 n[ we see b dimly4 ,let u ea* ask ourselves 9 ^: bus9ess we are employ$4 ,is x our ,fa!r's1 or is x n8 ,if n1 let u imm$iately turn to ! bus9ess ( our ,fa!r1 ! only object ( our life4 ,let u submit :olly to ! guidance ( ,love4 ,,to ,,mrs4 ,,ca!r9e ,j4 ,,heck]4 ,concord1 ,may #ca1 #ahdd4--,y speak ( my situation z pleasant1 & s x is to me4 ,?\gh ! h\se is situat$ on ! /reet ( a village1 ! /reet is beautifully ar*$ ) trees = "s di/ance1 & my room is v pleasant4 ,"o w9d[ is :olly %ad$ by sweet honeysuckle1 :i* is n[ 9 blossom1 fill+ ! room ) its mild fragrance4 ,! little humm+-birds visit its fl[]s frequ5tly )\t be+ di/urb$ by my pres5ce4 ,! di>y1 :i* runs side by side ) ^! lett]s1 01 z usual1 ! recipi5t ( m intimate self-commun+s ?an c\ld be %>$ ) any fri5d4 ,x %[s t al?\gh he 0 n[ well-nigh conv9c$ ( ! tru? ( ,ca?olicity1 yet t he /ill felt a l+]+ indecision1 produc$1 p]haps1 by a haunt+ memory ( ! /]n front ( discipl9e he _h enc\nt]$ 9 ,bi%op ,hughes4 ,?is seem$ l a phantom ( t]ror to ! "y social re=m]1 ^: love ( lib]ty1 ?\gh rational1 0 !n & ev] aft]w>ds "o ( ! passions ( 8 s\l4 ,yet we r>ely f9d n[ 9 ^! pages any /atem5t ( specific reasons = & aga9/ ,ca?olicity su* z 7 pl5tiful dur+ ! p]iod prec$+ 8 acqua9tance ) ,mr4 ,haight1 ,dr4 ,seabury1 & ,mr4 ,norris4 ,he seems to %udd] z he /&s on ! bank & looks ^u ! fl[+ & cleans+ /ream2 b 8 hesitancy is caus$ n s mu* by any unansw]$ difficulties ( 8 reason z by 8 s5sibilities1 by vague feel+s ( al>m = ! integrity ( 8 manhood4 ,he fe>$ le/ ! wat]s might cleanse him by sk9n+ him alive4 ,ca?olicity1 z typifi$ 9 ,bi%op ,hughes1 h] ,celtic-,am]ican *ampion1 seem$ to him a =tifi$ city1 & a pill> ( iron1 & a wall ( brass aga9/ ! :ole l&4 ,n[1 ,isaac ,heck] 0 built = a mission>y1 & ! extreme view ( ! prim>y value ( highly-wr\ght discipl9e :i* he enc\nt]$ ev]y:]e among ,ca?olics1 ?\gh n en\gh to bl9d him to ! ess5tial lib]ty ( ! ,*ur*1 0 en\gh to delay him 9 8 progress to h]4 ,!re c be little d\bt t multitudes ( m5 & wom5 ( less disc]nm5t & feebl] w ?an 81 h be5 & /ill are kept entirely out ( ! ,*ur* by ! same cause4 ,only at long int]vals1 z we ne> ! la/ pages ( ! l>ge & closely-writt5 book conta9+ ! fir/ volume ( 8 di>y1 d we meet ) ^? agoniz+ compla9ts ( dryness1 ! di/ress ( d\bt1 ! we>y burd5 ( insoluble difficulties1 s common h]et(ore4 ,he seems1 inde$1 no long] battl+2 be victory is won2 b x rema9s to "k :at are ! spoils & :]e !y are to be ga!r$4 ,( c\rse !re are int]ludes ( 8 irrepressible philosophiz+ on moral que/ions4 ,& at ! v end1 "u date ( ,may #bc1 #ahdd1 we f9d ! foll[+3 ,?is aft]noon br+s me to ! close ( ?is book4 ,h[ diff]5t are ! emotions ) :i* ,i close x f ^? ) :i* ,i op5$ x at ,brook ,f>m1 n[ little m 7a mon?7 ?an a ye> ago6 ,h[ fruitful has ?is ye> be5 to me6 ,h[ /rangely my/]i\s & beautiful6 ,& n[ my s\l =e%ad[s m ! next ye> ?an ev] x presag$ be=e4 ,my life is beyond my grasp1 & be>s me on w-lessly to its de/9$ hav54 ,l a ri* f\nta9 x ov]fl[s on e side2 f )9 fl[s unceas+ly ! noiseless tide4 ,! _m *anges & unlook$-= results & circum/ances1 )9 & )\t1 ( ! com+ ye> ,i w\ld no m v5ture to anticipate ?an to c\nt ! />s4 ,x is to me n[ z if ,i _h j be5 born1 & ,i live 9 ! ,sabba? ( creation4 ,e ?+ t ,i see ,i feel call$ on to give a "n2 x has a new mean+ to me4 ,%\ld ?is life gr[--:at8 ,x is a s+ul> fact t1 al?\gh consci\s ( a m int]ior & pot5t =ce at "w )91 ,i am n[ m quiet & w-less ?an ,i 0 :5 x at fir/ affect$ me4 ,i feel l a *ild1 full ( joy & pliability2 & all ambition ( e "* seems to h left me4 ,i see :]e ,i 0 h]et(ore1 & ! degree ( ext]nality :i* 0 mix$ ) ! influ5ces t ,i co-op]at$ )1 an ext]nality f :i* ,i n[ feel t ,i h be5 fre$4 ,x does seem to me t all worldly prospect t ev] 0 be=e me is gone1 & z if ,i 7 weak1 v weak1 9 ! sight ( ! _w2 s ,i really am4 ,i feel no m pot5cy ?an a babe4 ,yet ,i h a w-less p[] ( love :i* w conqu] ?r\gh me1 & :i*1 ,o graci\s ,"l1 ,i nev] dreamt ( be=e4 ,9 ! middle ( ! above entry he ?us notes an int]ruption1 & records a lesson taught by ! late ,new ,engl& spr+3 ,george & ,burrill ,curtis came 91 & ,i h j return$ f a walk 9 ! woods ) !m4 ,may ! buds )9 blossom1 & may _! fruit rip5 9 my pray]s to ,god4 ,he 0 n[1 inde$1 v ne> 8 goal1 ?\gh ev5 yet he did n cle>ly see x4 ,& once m all 8 active p[]s des]t$ him4 ,/udy became impossible4 ,8 m9d 0 drawn s /rongly 9 ^u itself t nei!r "w nor play1 nei!r books nor ! r5ew$ int]c\rse :i* at ?is p]iod he s\ght ) 8 old fri5ds 9 ,bo/on & at ,brook ,f>m1 c\ld any long] fa/5 8 att5tion4 ,he op5s 8 new di>y ) a record ( ! trial he has j made 9 ord] to discov] :e!r 9 mix+ ) ! _w ,i %\ld n be some:at influ5c$ by _! life & br\ght into new relations ) my /udies4 ,b x 0 to no purpose t ,i w5t4 4 4 4 ,!re 0 no inducem5t t ,i c\ld imag9e /rong en\gh to keep me f return+4 ,ole ,bull1 :om ,i v mu* wi%$ to he> aga91 0 to play ! next ev5+2 & ,p>ley ,pratt1 a fri5d :om ,i _h n met = a great l5g? ( "t1 & :om ,i did wi% to see1 0 to be 9 t[n ! next day4 ,!re 7 _m o!r ?+s to keep me1 b none ( !m _h ! lea/ effect4 ,i c\ld no m keep myself !re ?an a man c\ld s9k himself 9 ! ,dead ,sea1 & s ,i _h to come home4 ,i feel a /rong incl9ation to doze & slumb]1 & m & m 9 ^! slumb]s ! dim %ad[s t appe> 9 my wak+ /ate become cle>]1 & my conv]sation is m real & pleasant to me4 ,i feel a d\ble consci\sness 9 ?is /ate1 & ?9k1 ',n[1 is n ?is real8 ,i w recollect x all1 :at ,i saw & :at ,i said'2 b x flies & is lo/ :5 ,i awake4 4 4 4 ,i call ?is sleep+1 b sleep x is n2 = 9 ?is /ate ,i am m awake ?an at any o!r "t4 ,a few days lat]1 on ,june #e1 he notes t ,al?\gh my meals are made ( unleav5$ bread & figs1 & my dr9k is wat]1 & ,i eat no m ?an supports my body1 yet d ,i feel s9fully self-indulg5t4 ,he resolves1 moreov]1 to tr\ble himself no m ab\t ! fact t he _c cont9ue 8 /udies4 ,on ?is subject1 & on ! passivity to :i* he 0 n[ compell$1 he _h writt5 z explicitly z he c\ld to 8 fri5d ,br[nson1 & on ,june #g he receiv$ a response :i* _h su* an imm$iate result ^u 8 future t we transcribe x entire3 ,mt4 ,bell+ham1 ,june #f1 #ahdd4--,my de> ,isaac3 ,i ?ank y = y\r lett]1 & ! frankness ) :i* y speak ( y\r pres5t int]ior /ate4 ,y ask = my advice1 b ,i h>dly "k :at advice to give4 ,!re is mu* 9 y\r pres5t /ate to approve1 also mu* :i* is dang]\s4 ,! dreamy luxury ( indulg+ "o's ?\ghts & rang+ at ease ?r\gh ! :ole _s-_w is s captivat+1 & :5 frequ5tly indulg$ 9 acquires su* p[] ov] u1 t we cease to be free m54 ,! p[] to control y\r ?\ghts & feel+s & to fix !m on :at object y *oose is ( ! la/ necessity1 z x is ! highe/ aim ( spiritual culture4 ,be c>eful t y d n mi/ake a m5tal habit into :i* y h fall5 = ! guidance ( ! ,all-wise4 ,is x n ! v sacrifice y are appo9t$ to make1 to ov]come ?is spiritual luxury & to become able to d t :i* is disagreeable8 ,:]e is ! sacrifice 9 foll[+ :at ! natural t5d5cies & fix$ habits ( our m9d dispose u to d8 ,:at victory h y acquir$1 :at p[] to conqu] 9 ! /ruggle = sanctity d y possess1 :5 y _c s f> control y\r ?\ghts & feel+s z to be able to apply y\rself to /udies :i* y feel are necess>y8 ,"h is y\r w>f>e4 ,y h n won ! victory till y h become z able to drudge at ,lat9 or ,greek z to give up worldly weal?1 pleasures1 honors1 or di/9ctions4 ,b1 my de> ,isaac1 y _c ga9 ?is victory alone1 nor by m]e private m$itation & pray]4 ,y c obta9 x only ?r\gh ! grace ( ,god1 & ! grace ( ,god only ?r\gh its appo9t$ *annels4 ,y are wrong4 ,y d n beg9 "r4 ,d y really believe ! ,gospel8 ,d y really believe ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,*ur*8 ,if s1 y mu/ put y\rself "u ! direction ( ! ,*ur*4 ,i h comm5c$ my prep>ations = unit+ myself ) ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,i d n z yet belong to ! family ( ,*ri/4 ,i feel x4 ,i c be an ali5 no long]1 & )\t ! ,*ur* ,i "k1 by my own pa/ exp]i5ce1 t ,i _c atta9 to purity & sanctity ( life4 ,i ne$ ! c\nsels1 ! aids1 ! *a/isem5ts1 & ! consolations ( ! ,*ur*4 ,x is ! appo9t$ m$ium ( salvation1 & h[ c we hope = any good except ?r\gh x8 ,our fir/ bus9ess is to submit to x1 t we may receive a mat]nal bless+4 ,!n we may />t fair4 ,y d\btless feel a repugnance to jo9+ ! ,*ur*4 ,b we ought n to be a%am$ ( ,*ri/2 & ! ,*ur* op5s a sph]e = y1 & y especially4 ,y are n to dream y\r life away4 ,y\r devotion mu/ be regulat$ & direct$ by ! discipl9e ( ! ,*ur*4 ,y "k t !re is a l>ge ,roman ,ca?olic population 9 our c\ntry1 especially 9 ,wiscons94 ,! bi%op ( t ,t]ritory is a ,g]man4 ,n[1 "h is y\r "w--to s]ve ?is ,g]man population4 ,& y c d x )\t feel+ y\rself among =eign]s4 ,"h is ! cross y are to take up4 ,y\r cross is to resi/ ?is t5d5cy to my/icism1 to s5tim5tal luxury1 :i* is really enfeebl+ y\r s\l & prev5t+ y f atta9+ to true spiritual bless$ness4 ,i ?9k y w\ld bett] give up ,greek1 b comm& y\rself suffici5tly to ma/] ! ,lat92 t y ne$1 & _c d )\t4 ,get ! ,lat91 & ) t & ! ,engli%1 ,fr5*1 & ,g]man :i* y already "k1 y c get along v well4 ,b don't be disc\rag$4 ,i want y to come & see our good bi%op4 ,he is an excell5t man--le>n$1 polite1 easy1 affable1 affectionate1 & exce$+ly w>m-he>t$4 ,i sp5t two h\rs ) him imm$iately aft] p>t+ ) y 9 ,wa%+ton ,/reet1 & a c\ple ( h\rs ye/]day4 ,i l him v mu*4 ,i h made up my m9d1 & ,i %all ent] ! ,*ur* if %e w receive me4 ,!re is no use 9 resi/+4 ,y _c be an ,anglican1 y mu/ be a ,ca?olic or a my/ic4 ,if y ent] ! ,*ur* at all1 x mu/ be ! ,ca?olic4 ,!re is no?+ else4 ,s let me beg y1 my de> ,isaac1 to beg9 by own+ ! ,*ur* & receiv+ h] bless+4 ,my heal? is v good1 ! family are all v well2 ,i hope y are well4 ,let me he> f y (t54 ,=give me if ,i h said any?+ h>% or unk9d 9 ?is lett]1 = all is meant 9 k9dness1 & be assur$ ( my s9c]e & e>ne/ affection4 ,y\rs truly1 ,o4 ,a4 ,,br[nson4 ,,*apt] ,,xv ,,at ,,! ,,door ,,( ,,! ,,*ur* ,,! fir/ effect ( ,br[nson's lett] 0 to ?r[ its recipi5t into a /ate ( great ?\gh brief p]plexity4 ,t f9al /ruggle1 /range & pa9ful1 9 :i* ! s\l = ! la/ "t cont5ds aga9/ its happ9ess2 9 :i* x is drawn by an inv9cible attraction1 kn[+ t x w yield yet /riv+ /ill to resi/2 is "o t mu/ rema9 b half-compreh5d$ by mo/ ( ^? to :om ,ca?olic tru? is an inh]itance4 ,& yet !re is an explanation :i* ,fa!r ,heck] himself w\ld possibly h giv54 ,d y "k :at ,god is8 he said to ! pres5t writ] 9 #ahhb1 9 t abrupt fa%ion ) :i* he (t5 put ! deepe/ que/ions4 ,t is n :at ,i mean1 he w5t on1 aft] gett+ a conv5tional reply3 ,i'll tell y :at ,god is4 ,he is ! et]nal ,lov] ( ! s\l4 ,t %udd] ( bl9d av]sion :i* is a "p ( ! exp]i5ce ( s _m conv]ts1 is an in/9ctive te/imony t ! call to ! tru? is m ?an natural1 :ile ! ov]p[]+ attraction :i* att5ds x witnesses t nature mu/ ne$s obey or p]i%4 ,! ,*ur*1 too1 is n he>d by ! s\l m]ely z ! collective voice ( _m m5 & ages ( m5 agre$ ^u ! tru?1 b z a my/ic p]sonality :i* makes h] ! imp]ative ambassadress ( ,*ri/4 ,= %e is ! ,sp\se ( ! ,lamb1 & 9 h] ! ,inc>nate ,^w obta9s a voice :i* is no less s+le 9 its p]sonality ?an multitud9\s 9 its tones4 ,mu* z ,isaac ,heck] _h consid]$ ! matt]1 /udy+1 read+1 pray+1 assur+ himself f "t to "t t if any *ur* 7 true ?is 0 ! "o1 & t to ent] x 0 probably 8 duty1 n[ t ,br[nson's weight 0 likewise ?r[n into ! scale & x w5t d[n ) a w>n+ ?ud1 he ?rill$ ?r\gh ) appreh5sion4 ,i feel l ?r[+ all up1 he wrote 9 ! di>y on ! day ! lett] rea*$ him4 ,"s _c re/4 ,h[ mu* bett] w\ld x h be5 c\ld ,i h rema9$ 9 quietness at my daily pursuits1 & n be5 l$ to :]e ,i n[ f9d myself4 ,!n he que/ions himself3 ,:at h ,i aga9/ ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*8 ,at ?is mom5t ,i _c say t ,i h any?+ t is ess5tial4 ,& %e meets my wants on e side4 ,oh1 ?is is ! deepe/ ev5t ( my life6 ,i w\ld h unit$ myself to any "o ( ! ,prote/ant sects if ,i _h f\nd any t w\ld h answ]$ ! dem&s ( my nature4 ,:y %\ld ,i n[ hesitate :5 ,i f9d ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* w d s8 ,is n ?is ! self-w :i* revolts aga9/ ! involunt>y w ( ! ,_s8 ,! fundam5tal "q is1 ,am ,i will+ to submit my w to ! guidance & direction ( ! ,*ur*8 ,if %e is ! body ( ,*ri/2 if %e is ! *annel ( ! ,holy ,gho/2 if %e is ! inspir$ body illum9$ by ,*ri/'s ,_s2 9 a ^w1 if %e is ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*2 if ,i w\ld s]ve ,god & humanity2 if ,i w\ld secure ! favor ( ,god1 & heav5 h]eaft]2 :y %\ld ,i n submit to h]8 ,b h[ev] pa9ful ?is f9al indecision may h be51 x 0 ( %ort duration4 ,br[nson's lett] rea*$ ,concord on ,friday morn+1 & on ,saturday ,isaac ,heck] w5t into ,bo/on to see ,bi%op ,f5wick & put himself "u in/ruction4 ,t done1 8 peace n m]ely return$1 b he felt t x re/$ on m solid gr\nds ?an h]et(ore4 ,yet1 curi\sly en\gh1 x is at ?is po9t we come ^u almo/ ! fir/ trace ( 8 /opp+ s]i\sly to consid] ! adv]se s5tim5ts ( o!rs ) reg>d to any propos$ action on 8 "p4 ,n[ t he means to range himself1 he turns to look back at ! disord]ly ho/ :i* he is quitt+1 n s mu*1 or at lea/ n prim>ily = ! sake ( ! ord] & regul>ity & solidity ( t to :i* x is oppos$1 b because a true in/9ct has taught him t unity is ! ext]nal m>k ( tru?1 z equilibrium is ! te/ ( a j balance4 ,9 8 di>y ( ,june #aa1 #ahdd1 aft] record+ t he has j return$ f ,bo/on1 :]e he has se5 ! bi%op & 8 coadjutor1 ,bi%op ,john ,b]n>d ,fitzpatrick1 & receiv$ f ! latt] a note ( introduction to ! presid5t ( ,holy ,cross ,college1 at ,worce/]1 ,mass41 he adds3 ,i int5d to /ay !re z long z x seems pleasant to me1 & !n g on to ,new ,york & !re unite myself ) ! ,*ur*4 ,i sigh1 & feel t ?is /ep is ! mo/ important ( my life4 ,my highe/ convictions1 my deepe/ wants1 lead me to x2 & %\ld ,i n obey !m8 ,!re is no room to h>bor a d\bt ab\t x4 ,my fri5ds w look ^u x ) a/oni%m5t1 & probably use ! common epi!ts1 delusion1 fanaticism1 & bl9dness4 ,b s ,i wi% to appe> to m9ds l !irs2 o!rwise ?is w\ld be unsatisfactory to me4 ,m5 call t sup]/ition :i* !y h n ! feel+ to appreciate1 & t fanaticism :i* !y h n ! spiritual p]ception to p]ceive4 ,! ,prote/ant _w admires1 extols1 & flatt]s him :o w write & speak high-s\nd+ & h]oic words2 :o w ass]t t he w foll[ tru? :]ev] x leads1 at all sacrifices & haz>ds2 b no soon] does he d s ?an x sl&]s & p]secutes him = be+ :at he pr(ess$ to be4 ,v]ily x has sep>at$ fai? f works4 ,?is is a heavy task2 x is a great und]tak+1 a s]i\s1 sacr$1 s9c]e1 & solemn /ep2 x is ! mo/ vital & et]nal act1 & z su* d ,i feel x 9 all its importance1 weight1 & p[]4 ,o ,god6 ,?\ :o ha/ l$ me by ,?y heav5ly mess5g]s1 by ,?y div9e grace1 to make ?is new1 un=ese51 & religi\s act ( duty1 support me 9 ! day ( trial4 ,support me1 ,o ,"l1 9 my confessions2 give me /r5g? & purity to speak freely ! :ole tru? )\t any equivocation or attempt at ju/ification4 ,o ,"l1 help ,?y s]vant :5 he is feeble & w\ld fall4 ,"o ?+ t gives me mu* peace & joy is t all worldly inducem5ts1 all temptations t[>d self-gratification :atev]1 are 9 favor ( ! ,anglican ,*ur* & 9 opposition to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,& on ?is acc\nt my consci5ce feels free f any unwor?y motive 9 jo9+ x4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ! mo/ despis$1 ! poore/1 &1 accord+ to ! _w1 ! lea/ respectable ( any2 ?is on acc\nt ( ! class ( =eign]s ( :i* x is *iefly compos$ 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,9 ?is respect x pres5ts to me no difficulty ( any sort1 nor dem&s ! lea/ sacrifice4 ,b ! new relations 9 :i* x w place me1 & ! new duties :i* w be requir$ ( me1 are /range to me1 & h5ce ,i %all feel all _! weight at once4 ,8 premonitions 7 spe$ily fulfill$1 ?\gh probably n 9 ! extreme =m :i* he anticipat$4 ,! _s ( c\rtesy :i* prevail$ ?r\gh\t 8 family d\btless prev5t$ any b ! milde/ criticism on 8 action4 ,b ev5 t _h hi!rto be5 sp>$ him4 ,!re _h be5 anxiety & mu* que/ion+ ab\t 8 f9al c\rse1 b t x w\ld end 9 ?is way does n seem to h be5 s]i\sly appreh5d$4 ,on ! same day on :i* he made ! entry j quot$ he wrote ! foll[+ lett] to !m3 ,june #aa1 #ahdd4--,on ,saturday la/ ,i w5t into ,bo/on & did n return until ?is morn+ 7,tuesday74 4 4 4 ,my purpose 9 go+ 0 to see ,bi%op ,f5wick ( ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 to le>n :at are ! prelim9>ies necess>y = "o :o wi%es to be unit$ to ! ,*ur*4 ,i saw ! bi%op & 8 coadjutor1 m5 ( rem>kable goodness1 c&or1 & frankness4 ,i 0 *iefly int]e/$ ) 8 coadjutor1 & sp5t "s h\rs ) him on ,monday4 ,& ?is is ! result to :i* ,i h come3 ,t soon1 probably next week1 ,i %all g f "h to ,worce/]1 :]e !re is a ,ca?olic college1 & /ay !re = a few days1 p]haps a =tnight1 to see ! place1 become acqua9t$ ) _! practical religi\s life & _! sy/em ( intellectual in/ruction4 ,f !re ,i %all g on home to ,new ,york1 &1 aft] hav+ gone ?r\gh ! requisite prelim9>ies1 be unit$ to ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* 9 our city4 4 4 4 ,be=e ,i make any unalt]able /ep1 ,i wi% to see y all & commune ) y conc]n+ ?is movem5t on my "p4 4 4 4 ,:atev] !ories & speculations may be indulg$ 9 & *]i%$ by ^? oppos$ to ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 _! influ5ce1 h[ev] important !y may seem1 is n suffici5tly vital to prev5t me f be+ unit$ to x4 ,x satisfies & meets my deepe/ wants2 & on ?is gr\nd1 sett+ aside any o!r = ! mom5t1 ,i feel l affirm+1 9 ! _s ( ! man :om ,*ri/ made to see499 ,i "k n :e!r ?is ,*ur* be or be n :at c]ta9 m5 call x1 b ?is ,i "k3 x has ! life my he>t is ?ir/+ =1 & ( :i* my _s is 9 great ne$4 99 ,john #i3bd3 ,we "k ?is man is a s9n]4 ,he said !re=e to !m3 ,if he be a s9n]1 ,i "k n2 "o ?+ ,i "k1 t :]eas ,i 0 bl9d1 n[ ,i see4 ,a case 9 po9t3 ,! s]mon ( ,dr4 ,seabury on ! lam5t$ dea? ( ,ar?ur ,c>ey is z f> f satisfy+ my he>tfelt long+s z ,platonism w\ld be to ! ,*ri/ian4 ,read ! doctr9e ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* on ! ,communion ( ,sa9ts 9 ! ,cate*ism ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t att5tively & dev\tly1 & y w see & feel ! wide diff]5ce 9 doctr9e & life betwe5 x & t held ev5 by ! high-*ur* ,anglican4 ,x may be said 9 excuse = ,dr4 ,seabury1 t he has to be prud5t & cauti\s on acc\nt ( ! /ate ( m9d ( ^? :om he has to speak to4 ,well en\gh2 b :y %\ld "o g to a weak & almo/ dri$-up spr+ :5 !re is "o equally ne>1 fre%1 always fl[+ & full ( life8 4 4 4 ,!re may be ^?1 & ,i d n "q !re are _m su* good p]sons1 :o d n feel ! deep dem&s ( ! spiritual nature z pr(\ndly z o!rs d1 & t ! ,anglican ,*ur* fully satisfes all _! ne$s4 ,b ev5 9 h] bosom !re are _m :o ?9k t if ! ,ox=d t5d5cies are ,anglican1 %e is v idolatr\s & exce$+ly sup]/iti\s1 because !y feel no ne$ = s mu* discipl9e & c]emony1 & su* fai? 9 ! invisible 4 4 4 all reasons t c tempt "o 9 my position are 9 favor ( ! ,anglican ,*ur*1 & x is a s\rce ( mu* joy t !re is no conceivable inducem5t ( a worldly or mix$ nature = me to jo9 ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,if !re 7 ,i %\ld di/ru/ myself 4 4 4 ,x seems to me t ! diff]5ce betwe5 my embrac+ ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur* & any o!r is ! same z ! diff]5ce betwe5 rema9+ z ,i am1 & sell+ all t ,i h & foll[+ ,*ri/4 ,8 def]5ce = 8 fri5ds' op9ions1 ?\gh he made _! views no condition ( 8 action1 is beautifully %[n by ! foll[+ words3 ,john1 & all :o feel l giv+ me advice1 y w n hesitate 9 giv+ x freely & frankly4 ,!re are _m reasons = my pres5t c\rse2 x is impossible = me to put !m all on pap]4 ,b :5 ,i return home & meet y all aga91 we w 9 love speak ( ?is 9 common communion3 until !n ,i w n take any decisive /ep4 ,i suppose y feel z little incl9$ to speak to o!rs ( ! decision ,i h come to z ,i d to h x prematurely kn[n4 ,to ! bro!r ^: he>t 0 mo/ 8 own he devotes ! conclud+ words ( ! lett]3 ,:at is bro!r ,george's m9d respect+ ! ne$ ( receiv+ ?is div9] life 9 ord] to br+ u into a clos] communion ) ,god & make u inhabitants ( heav58 ,george1 %all we g arm-9-arm 9 our heav5ly j\rney z we h done 9 our e>?ly "o8 ,:ile await+ an answ] to ?is lett] he began ano!r1 9 :i* he summ>izes m explicitly su* ( 8 reasons = becom+ a ,ca?olic z might appeal on ord9>y gr\nds ( controv]sy to 8 "m & 8 bro!r ,john1 ! latt] ( :om _h rec5tly become an ,episcopalian4 ,our extracts1 h[ev]1 w be made f ! passages m /rictly p]sonal & *>act]i/ic3 ,concord1 ,june #ad1 #ahdd4--,until ,i he> f y ,i _c say h[ y may view my resolution or feel reg>d+ ! decision ,i h come to1 & !re=e ,i am at a loss :at to say to y respect+ x4 ,"o ?+ mu/ /rike y z inexplicable3 t ,i rel9qui% my /udies "h s sudd5ly4 ,?is arises f ! fact t ,i h n kept y p]fectly in=m$ conc]n+ ! *ange my m9d has = "s "t be5 und]go+ ) reg>d to ! object & end ( /udy1 its (fice & its b5efits4 ,i kept sil5t1 ?9k+ t my views might be b tempor>y1 & t x 0 unnecess>y to tr\ble y ) !m4 ,my simple fai? is1 9 a few words1 t we mu/ fir/ seek ! k+dom ( ,god1 & !n all necess>y ?+s w be giv5 u4 ,& ?is k+dom is n f\nd ?r\gh nature1 philosophy1 sci5ce1 art1 or by any o!r me?od ?an t ( ! ,gospel3 ! p]fect surr5d] ( ! :ole he>t to ,god4 ,we /op "h to rem>k t su* expressions z ^! are nei!r to be tak5 z evid5ces ( a pass+ disgu/ = ! drudg]y ( text-book tasks1 nor z signs ( an indol5t disposition4 ,!y are ! ass]tion ( a pr9ciple :i* ,fa!r ,heck] ma9ta9$ ?r\gh\t 8 life4 ,he nev] felt ! lea/ int]e/ 9 /udies n und]tak5 z a result ( "s sup]natural impulse1 or pursu$ 9 view ( "s sup]natural aim4 ,he look$ ) ! colde/ unconc]n ^u su* inve/igations ( sci5ce z promise no?+ t[>d solv+ ! problems :i* p]plex humanity on ! moral side1 or :i* d n contribute to ! natural well-be+ ( m54 ,) ! pursuit ( any sci5ce :i* does promise su* results he 0 9 ! fulle/ sympa?y1 & 0 himself an unwe>i$ /ud5t4 ,x 0 any?+ b intellectual indol5ce :i* caus$ him to put away 8 books4 ,he 0 naturally ( a busy temp]am5t3 if m5 :o knew him b slightly might ?9k him vision>y1 no man c\ld "k him at all & consid] him a slugg>d4 ,we %all see 9 ! sequel h[1 "u extremely critical circum/ances1 ! ass]tion ( ?is pr9ciple 0 wrung f him by ! con/ra9+ =ce ( 8 int]ior guide4 ,mu* ( :at foll[s illu/rates ?is trait ( "*4 ,! lett] la/ quot$ f _h n yet be5 s5t :5 ! answ] to 8 ann\ncem5t ( ,june #aa rea*$ him1 & he add$ a po/script4 ,! only po9t 9 x to :i* he alludes or makes any direct reply is ! g5tle expression ( 8 "m's disapprobation ( 8 purpose3 ,y\r lett] & draft1 bro!r ,george1 came ?is morn+4 ,y say "m w\ld pref] my jo9+ ! ,anglican ,*ur*4 ,! reasons :y %e pref]s ?is are su* z w\ld d\btless gov]n me if ,i did n feel /ill deep] & /rong] reasons to ov]come !m4 4 4 4 ,my pres5t convictions are deep] f> ?an any ,i h ev] exp]i5c$1 & are n ha/ily decid$ ^u4 ,turn+ n[ to ! di>y1 ! entries made at ?is "t seem especially *>act]i/ic3 ,june #ac1 #ahdd4--;,i feel v *e]ful & at ease s9ce ,i h cons5t$ to jo9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,nev] h ,i felt ! quietness1 ! immovabl5ess1 & ! p]man5t re/ t ,i d n[4 ,x is inexpressible4 ,i feel t ess5tial & int]ior p]man5ce :i* no?+ ext]ior c di/urb1 & no act :i* x calls on me to p]=m w move 9 ! lea/4 ,x is ) a p]fect ease & gracefulness t ,i nev] dream$ ( t ,i %all unite ) ! ,*ur*4 ,x w n *ange b fix my life4 ,no ext]nal relations1 ev5ts1 or objects c di/urb ?is unrea*able quietness or break ! deep repose 9 :i* ,i am4 ,! exot]ic eye is d\ble2 ! esot]ic eye is s+le4 ,! ext]nal _w is divisional2 ! int]nal _w is unity4 ,! esot]ic includes ! exot]ic1 b ! exot]ic excludes ! esot]ic4 ,! man c move all faculties1 organs1 limbs2 b !y _c move ! man4 ,! ,creator moves ! creature1 & ! creature moves ! creat$4 ,we "k ,god by look+ t[>ds ,him ) ! s+le eye4 ,to-morr[ ,i g ) ,r4 ,w4 ,em]son to ,h>v>d to see ,lane & ,alcott1 & %all /ay until ,sunday4 ,we %all n meet ea* o!r1 = ,i c meet him on no o!r gr\nds ?an ^? ( love4 ,we may talk intellectually toge!r1 & rem>k1 & reply1 & rem>k aga94 ,we give ! read] f ! di>y ! foll[+ e/imate ( a transc5d5tali/1 ma9ly to s]ve z a backgr\nd = ! picture :i* ,isaac ,heck] drew ( 8 own m9d 9 ! succe$+ pages3 ,june #ad4--;,a transc5d5tali/ is "o :o has ke5 sight b little w>m? ( he>t2 :o has f9e conceits b is de/itute ( ! ri* gl[ ( love4 ,he is en rapport ) ! spiritual _w1 unconsci\s ( ! cele/ial "o4 ,he is all n]ve & no blood--colorless4 ,he talks ( self-reliance1 b fe>s to tru/ himself to love4 ,he nev] ab&ons himself to love1 b is always on ! look\t = "s new fact4 ,8 n]ves are always tight-/ret*$1 l ! /r+ ( a b[2 8 life is all ef=t4 ,9 a %ort p]iod he loses 8 tone4 ,behold him sitt+ on a *air2 he is n sitt+1 b brac$ ^u its angles1 z if 8 bones 7 ( iron & 8 n]ves /eel2 e n]ve is drawn1 8 h&s are clos$ l a mis]'s--x is 8 lips & head t speak1 n 8 tongue & he>t4 ,he pref]s talk+ ab\t love to possess+ x1 z he pref]s ,socrates to ,jesus4 ,nature is 8 *ur*1 & he is 8 own god4 ,he is a dissect+ critic--he>tless1 cold4 ,:at w\ld excite love & sympa?y 9 ano!r1 excites 9 him curiosity & int]e/4 ,he w\ld h writt5 an essay on ! p[] ( ! s\l at ! foot ( ! ,cross4 4 4 4 ,t ! %ap+ ( ev5ts is n :olly 9 our own h&s my pres5t unanticipat$ movem5t has cle>ly demon/rat$ to me4 4 4 ,i "k ( no act t ,i c\ld make :i* w\ld h m influ5ce to %ape my de/9y ?an my union ) ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 4 4 4 ,x is v c]ta9 to me t my life is n[ z x nev] has be54 ,x seems t ,i live1 feel1 & act f my he>t4 ,t reads1 talks1 he>s1 sees1 smells1 & all4 ,all is unity ) me1 all love4 ,in/ead ( excit+ ?\ghts & ideas1 z all ?+s h done h]et(ore1 !y n[ excite love1 *e]ful emotion1 & gladness ( he>t4 ,to ! ,_s )9 ,i address myself3 ,s long z ,i /ruggl$ aga9/ ,!e ,i _h pa91 sorr[1 angui%1 d\bt1 weep+1 & di/ress ( s\l4 ,aga9 & aga9 h ,i submitt$ to ,!e1 ?\gh ev] reluctantly2 yet 0 x always 9 ! end = my good4 ,oh6 h[ full ( love & goodness art ,?\ to suff] 9 u & = u1 t we may be b5efit$ & made happy4 ,x is f ,?y own pure love = u1 = ,?y happ9ess _c be increas$ or dim9i%$1 t ,?\ take/ ^u ,!e all ! suff]+ ( ! *ildr54 ,"l1 if ,i w\ld or c\ld give myself :olly up to ,!e1 no?+ b pure joy1 complete happ9ess1 & exquisite pleasure w\ld fill all my _s1 s\l1 & body4 ,! ,"l desires our :ole happ9ess2 x is we :o h9d] ,him f caus+ x by our /ruggles aga9/ ,8 love-work+ ,_s4 ,:o is ! ,"l8 ,is ,he n our ne>e/ fri5d8 ,is any clos] to u ?an ,he :5 we are good8 ,is any fur!r f u :5 we are wick$8 ,8 simple pres5ce is bless$ness4 ,our m>riage ) ! ,"l %\ld be s complete t no?+ c\ld attract our att5tion f ,him4 ,we %all speak be/ to m5 :5 we d n reflect on :om we are talk+ to4 ,speak always z if 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god1 :]e y mu/ be if y w\ld speak to b5efit y\r neighbor4 ,if we are pure be=e ,god ! eyes ( m5 w nev] make u a%am$4 ,we mu/ be bl9d to all ?+s & h our s+le eye turn$ t[>d ,god :5 we w\ld act 9 any mann] ^u e>?--:5 we w\ld heav5ize x4 ,"h ends ! contempor>y record ( 8 life 9 ,concord4 ,! next lett]s are dat$ at ,worce/]2 ! next entry 9 ! di>y at ,new ,york4 ,!re rema91 h[ev]1 "s int]e/+ allusions to x 9 ! articles 9 ?is magaz9e ( #ahhg conc]n+ ,dr4 ,br[nson1 & "s conv]sations1 /ill m graphic1 9 ! pages ( ! memor&a4 ,,*apt] ,,xvi ,,at ,,! ,,door ,,( ,,! ,,*ur*--,,cont9u$ ,,! fir/ ,bi%op ( ,bo/on1 ,john ,l\is de ,*ev]us1 :o left t diocese to become successively ! ,bi%op ( ,montauban & ! ,c>d9al-,ar*bi%op ( ,bordeaux1 01 9 ! /ricte/ s5se1 a mission>y dur+ 8 ,am]ican episcopate4 ,?or\ghly ,fr5* 9 blood1 9 tra9+1 9 mann]s1 & 9 zeal1 8 p5etrat+ intellig5ce n less ?an 8 sa9tly life & 8 tireless *>ity recomm5d$ him to m5 ( all cre$s & ( none4 ,8 dep>ture f ,bo/on 0 reg>d$ by all its citiz5s z a public mis=tune1 & by himself z cause = pr(\nd p]sonal sorr[4 ,he _h le>n$ !re a lesson ( lib]ty :i* he f\nd x h>d to =get :5 he w5t away4 ,"o ( 8 biograph]s records t ,*>les ,x41 ^: (f] to make him ,m9i/] ( ,ecclesia/ical ,affairs ,*ev]us _h decl9$1 once que/ion$ him conc]n+ ! lib]ty enjoy$ by ! ,*ur* 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,!re1 said ! ar*bi%op 9 reply4 ,i c\ld h e/abli%$ missions 9 e *ur*1 f\nd$ sem9>ies 9 e qu>t]1 & confid$ !m to ! c>e ( ,jesuits )\t any "o ?9k+ or say+ aught aga9/ my proce$+s2 all opposition to !m w\ld h be5 reg>d$ z an act ( despotism & a violation ( "r4 ,t p und]/& lib]ty1 at lea/1 return$ ! k+2 :5 w x be und]/ood among u8 ,we h spok5 ( ,bi%op ,*ev]us because1 at ! "t ( ,isaac ,heck]'s acqua9tance ) 8 successors1 8 influ5ce 0 /ill felt 9 ,bo/on4 ,8 imm$iate successor 0 ,b5$ict ,joseph ,f5wick1 a ,m>yl&]1 desc5d$ 9 direct l9e f "o ( ! orig9al ,engli% ,ca?olic pilgrims :o f\nd$ t colony "u ,"l ,baltimore4 ,dur+ 8 episcopate ! diocese grew amaz+ly4 ,:5 he w5t to x1 9 #ahbf1 al?\gh x compris$ ! :ole ( ,new ,engl&1 x conta9$ b two *ur*es fit = div9e s]vice1 & only two prie/s besides himself4 ,:5 he di$1 9 #ahdf1 he left beh9d him two bi%oprics :]e !re _h be5 b "o2 :ile 9 t ( ,bo/on alone !re 7 !n fifty *ur*es1 s]v$ by z _m prie/s4 ,al?\gh conv]sions _h n be5 r>e1 ! increase 0 ma9ly due to immigration1 :i* ! great fam9e 9 ,irel& 0 spe$ily to increase4 ,! ef=ts ( ,bi%op ,f5wick & ^? ( 8 coadjutor & successor 71 9 ! nature ( ?+s1 cons]vative r ?an aggressive4 ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick1 also1 0 ,am]ican by bir? & tra9+4 ,a native ( ,bo/on1 he 0 re>$ 9 its public gramm> & ,lat9 s*ools until ! age ( sev5te51 :5 he began 8 /udies = ! prie/hood1 :i* he f9i%$ 9 ,france4 ,bo? ( ^! prelates cont9u$ ! tradition ( ,*ev]us s f> z _! own p]sons 7 conc]n$4 ,b :ile !y easily won & reta9$ ! respect ( _! m intellig5t ,prote/ant fell[-citiz5s1 ! confid5ce !y inspir$ z m5 0 n ample en\gh to protect ! ,*ur* ov] :i* !y rul$ :5 once x began to %[ signs ( solid prosp]ity4 ,*ev]us 0 n wrong 9 c\nt+ ) assurance ^u ,am]ican love = & und]/&+ ( true lib]ty1 b he d\btless ow$ m ?an he ?\ght at ! "t to ! insignificance & scanty numb]s ( 8 flock4 ,!re came a p]iod1 ev5 9 ! c>e] ( 8 imm$iate successor1 :5 lib]ty itself seem$ b a feeble sapl+ :i* a /rong w9d ( /upid bigotry might avail to root out & ca/ away2 :ile ! *ronicle ( ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick's episcopate conta9s ! record ( conv5ts invad$ "u =ms ( law1 & ( bo? conv5ts & *ur*es sack$ & burn$ by ,native ,am]ican mobs1 :o 7 secure ( _! immunity f puni%m5t4 ,su* outrages1 witness$ by ! second & ?ird ,bi%ops ( ,bo/on1 & ! incessant conflict to :i* !y 7 compell$ ) ! bigotry :i* caus$ !m & :i* protect$ _! p]petrators1 pr$ispos$ bo? !m & _! cl]gy to a di/ru/ful attitude t[>d conv]ts l ,br[nson & ,heck]1 9 :om ,am]ican traits ( "* 7 v conspicu\s4 ,dr4 ,br[nson has record$ 9 ,! ,conv]t1 p4 #cgd1 ! fact t 8 entrance into ! ,*ur* 0 delay$ = mon?s by 8 fe> ( expla9+ to ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick ! precise road by :i* he _h approa*$ x4 ,he says3 ,i really ?\ght t ,i _h made "s philosophical discov]ies :i* w\ld be ( value ev5 to ,ca?olic !ologians 9 conv9c+ & conv]t+ unbeliev]s1 & ,i dread$ to h !m reject$ by ! ,ca?olic bi%op4 ,b ,i p]ceiv$ almo/ in/antly t he ei!r 0 ignorant ( my doctr9e ( life or plac$ no confid5ce 9 x2 & ,i felt t he 0 f> m likely1 br$ z he _h be5 9 a diff]5t philosophical s*ool f myself1 to oppose ?an to accept4 ,i _h1 inde$1 h[ev] highly ,i e/eem$ ! doctr9e1 no special atta*m5t to x = its own sake1 & c\ld1 s f> z x 0 conc]n$1 give x up at a ^w )\t a s+le regret2 b1 if ,i reject$ or waiv$ x1 :at reason _h ,i = reg>d+ ! ,*ur* z au?oritative = natural reason1 or = recogniz+ any au?ority 9 ! bi%op himself to tea* me8 ,"h 0 ! difficulty4 4 4 4 ,my tr\ble 0 great1 & ! bi%op c\ld n relieve me1 = ,i d>$ n disclose to him its s\rce4 ,! read] w und]/& t we d n comp>e ! c\rse ( ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick 9 ,br[nson's case ) t tak5 by him t[>d ,isaac ,heck]4 ,! latt] 0 a "y man1 unkn[n to ! bi%op save by :at he may h said ( 8 own antec$5ts1 :ile ,br[nson 0 a well-kn[n publici/1 conc]n+ :om "s res]ve 0 natural & prud5t4 ,) ,bi%op ,f5wick1 :o 0 already 9 fail+ heal?1 ! new c&idate = admission to ! fold seems to h _h v little int]c\rse4 ,z we h se51 ! j\rnal makes only a pass+ ref]5ce to him1 b is m explicit ) reg>d to 8 coadjutor4 ,c]ta9 po9ts 9 _! int]view :i* rema9$ ev] fre% 9 8 memory 71 at ! "t1 ca/ into ! %ade by 8 deep preoccupation ) :at may1 p]haps1 be call$ ! spiritual z di/+ui%$ f ! intellectual side ( ! ,*ur*4 ,t 9 h] :i* makes h] ! t5d] & b\ntiful "m ( ! simple 0 :at *iefly attract$ him1 j z o!rs are ma9ly drawn to h] z ! adequate tea*] & guide ( ! intellect4 ,if he f\nd ! door at :i* he 0 knock+ some?+ h>d 9 turn+ on its h+es2 if ! ve/ibule into :i* he 0 u%]$ seem$ a trifle n>r[] ?an he _h expect$ at ! entrance ( a temple s _w-wide2 8 satisfaction at hav+ det]m9$ ^u entrance made all o!r consid]ations = ! mom5t dw9dle4 ,b t ! impressions he receiv$ 7 p]man5t1 9 _! sugge/iv5ess at lea/1 is witness$ by an article 9 ?is magaz9e = ,april1 #ahhg1 entitl$ ,dr4 ,br[nson & ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick1 z well z by ! sev]al ref]5ces to ?is p]iod :i* occur 9 ! memor&a4 ,9 ! article j nam$ ,fa!r ,heck] ?rew into a p>agraph or two1 :i* we subjo91 ! sub/ance ( 8 fir/1 & p]haps at ?is "t 8 only1 int]view ) ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick3 ,x 0 always difficult to detect h[ mu* ( conviction & h[ mu* ( bant] !re 0 9 8 treatm5t ( m5 engag$ 9 ! actual intellectual movem5t ( our times4 ,i f\nd su* to be ! case 9 my own int]c\rse ) him4 ,he always attack$ me 9 a bant]+ way1 b1 ,i ?\ght1 half 9 e>ne/ too4 ,h5ce ,i nev] f\nd x advisable to ent] into argum5t ) him4 ,h[ c y argue ) a man1 a brilliant wit & an accompli%$ !ologian1 :o cont9ually fla%es back & =? betwe5 fir/ pr9ciples & witticisms8 ,:5 ,i w\ld und]take to grapple ) him on fir/ pr9ciples he w\ld ?r[ me (f ) a joke1 & :ile ,i 0 p>ry+ ! joke he 0 back aga9 ^u fir/ pr9ciples4 ,an illu/ration ( 8 way ( treat+ m5 & que/ions 0 8 reception ( me :5 ,i pres5t$ myself to him1 "s mon?s be=e ,dr4 ,br[nson did1 = reception into ! ,*ur*4 ',:at tru?s 7 ! /epp+-/ones t l$ y "h8' he w\ld h ask$ if he _h _h ! temp]am5t ( ! apo/le4 ,b in/ead ( se>*+ = tru? 9 me he began to se>* = error4 ,i _h liv$ ) ! ,brook ,f>m ,community & ) ! ,fruitl&s ,community1 & be=e t _h be5 a memb] ( a ,work+man's p>ty 9 ,new ,york ,city1 9 all :i* organizations ! "r ( private own]%ip ( prop]ty _h be5 a prime "q4 4 4 4 ,b1 z = my "p1 at ! "t ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick want$ me to purge myself ( communism1 ,i _h settl$ ! "q 9 my own m9d1 & on pr9ciples :i* ,i aft]w>ds f\nd to be ,ca?olic4 ,! /udy & settlem5t ( ! "q ( own]%ip 0 "o ( ! ?+s t l$ me into ! ,*ur*1 & ,i am n a little surpris$ t :at 0 a door to lead me into ! ,*ur* seems at ?is day to be a door to lead "s o!rs out4 ,b :5 ! bi%op attack$ me ab\t x1 x 0 no long] ) me an actual "q4 ,i _h settl$ ! "q ( private own]%ip 9 h>mony ) ,ca?olic pr9ciples1 or ,i %\ld n h d>$ to pres5t myself z a conv]t4 ,b ,i m5tion ?is because x illu/rates ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick's "*4 ,8 01 inde$1 a fir/-class m9d bo? 9 natural gifts & acquir$ cultivation1 b 8 habitual be>+ 0 t ( suspicion ( error2 z man & prelate he _h a joyful read9ess to se>* x out & correct x f 8 own po9t ( view4 ,he 0 a type ( m9d common !n & n uncommon n[--! embodim5t ( a purpose to refute error1 & to refute x by condemnation direct1 au?oritative ev5 if argum5tative3 ! o!r type ( m9d w\ld seek = tru? amid/ ! error1 e/abli% its exi/5ce1 applaud x1 & endeavor to make x a basis = fur!r tru? & a fulcrum = ! ov]?r[ ( ! error connect$ ) x4 ,x w be se51 !n1 :at k9d ( man ,dr4 ,br[nson fir/ met z ! (ficial expon5t ( ,ca?olicity1 "o h>dly capable ( prop]ly und]/&+ & deal+ ) a m9d l 82 = he 0 "o :o _h come into ! possession ( ! full tru? n s mu* f hatr$ ( error z f love ( tru?4 ,br[nson's s\l 0 int5sely fai?ful to its p]sonal convictions1 fai?ful unto h]oism--= t is ! temp] ( m5 :o seek ! :ole tru? free f c[>dice1 or n>r[ness1 or bias4 ,he has admitt$ t ! effect ( 8 int]c\rse ) ! bi%op 0 n =tunate4 ,he confesses t he =c$ him to adopt a l9e ( public controv]sy =eign to 8 g5ius1 & "o :i* _h n br\ght him into ! ,*ur*1 & p]haps c\ld n h done s4 ,! memor&a conta9 a m famili> acc\nt ( ?is int]view3 ,i pres5t$ myself = in/ruction & reception into ! ,*ur* at ! episcopal resid5ce1 & 0 receiv$ by ! old bi%op1 ,f5wick4 ,he que/ion$ me on ! ess5tial doctr9es & f\nd me z ,i 02 t is1 firm z a rock & p]fectly cle> 9 my belief4 ,!n he said1 ',y _h bett] see ,bi%op ,john4' ,i did s4 ,he tri$ to get me />t$ on que/ions ( mod]n !ology su* z he suspect$ ,i might be 7z he w\ld d\btless ?9k1 kn[+ my antec$5ts7 uns\nd on2 = example1 rights ( prop]ty1 etc4 ,i refus$ to speak my s5tim5ts on !m4 ,i said ,i _h no difficulties ab\t any?+ to submit to him4 ,i knew ! ,ca?olic fai? & wi%$ to be receiv$ into ! ,*ur* at once4 ,i _h come seek+ ! means to save my s\l1 & ,i want$ no?+ f him b to be prep>$ = baptism4 ,m int]e/+ ?an ei!r ( ^! n>rations is ! foll[+ conv]sation1 record$ on ,july #d1 #ahhd4 ,besides furni%+ a v explicit answ] to a "q :i* may occur to "s m9ds1 z to :y a man :o always took su* a hopeful view ( human nature z ,isaac ,heck] did1 %\ld n h be5 repell$ f ,ca?olicity by ! doctr9e ( orig9al s91 x adds "s fur!r p>ticul>s to ! meagre array ( facts 9 our possession3 ,suppose1 he 0 ask$1 t ! deliv]ances ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t on orig9al s91 & ! !ories ( ,bell>m9e on t doctr9e1 _h be5 (f]$ y dur+ y\r transition p]iod3 :at w\ld y h ?\ght ( !m8 ,i w\ld h receiv$ !m readily en\gh4 ,:y1 ! book ,i took to ,concord to /udy 0 ! ,cate*ism ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 :i* has ! /ronge/ k9d ( /atem5t ( t doctr9e4 ,bell>m9e's =mula ( nudus & nudatus w\ld h op5$ my eyes amaz+ly to a solution ( ! :ole difficulty499 99 ,ref]5ce is "h made to a v fam\s say+ ( ,bell>m9e's 9 explanation ( a preval5t tea*+ on orig9al s94 ,accord+ to t tea*+1 if ,adam _h be5 orig9ally con/itut$ 9 a /ate ( pure nature1 devoid ( sup]natural gifts & graces1 8 spiritual condition might be describ$ z nak$--nudus4 ,on ! o!r h&1 man z n[ born is nudatus1 /ripp$ ( ^? gifts & graces1 suff]+ ! p5al privation ( !m on acc\nt ( ,adam's s94 ,! corruption ( nature1 says ,bell>m9e1 does n come f ! want ( any natural gift1 or f ! accession ( any evil quality1 b simply f ! loss ( a sup]natural gift on acc\nt ( ,adam's s94 ,! ,cate*ism ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 to :i* ,fa!r ,heck] s (t5 ref]s1 0 ! v be/ book he c\ld h _h = le>n+ j :at ,ca?olicity is 9 doctr9e & practice4 ,x is unique 9 ,ca?olic lit]ature1 be+ ! only au?oritative expression ( ! ,*ur*1 9 ext5d$ =m1 on matt]s ( pa/oral !ology4 ,outside ! dogmatic circle ( doctr9al def9ition x enjoys ! fulle/ & mo/ di/9ct au?orization4 ,! express comm& ( ! c\ncil caus$ x to be prep>$ by a special congregation ( prelates & div9es1 & x 0 promulgat$ to ! episcopate to be translat$ into ! language ( ! p & exp\nd$ to !m by all pa/ors4 ,x may be said ( x t x is ! only book :i* has ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* = its au?or4 ,x is a book :i* nev] c gr[ old2 & 9 witness ( t p]5nial quality1 x may be m5tion$ t ,c>d9al ,newman said t he nev] prea*$ )\t us+ x 9 prep>ation4 ,x is an expon5t ( ,ca?olic tru? absolutely free f ! dang] ( private1 or national1 or racial1 or traditional bias--! v book ,isaac ,heck] 0 9 ne$ (4 ,its pl5tiful use ( ,scripture2 its confid5t appeal to antiquity2 its p]fect cle>ness2 its complet5ess2 its tone ( conviction no less ?an its attitude ( au?ority2 make x to su* m9ds z 8 ! v all-suffici5t organ ( tru?4 ,fur!rmore1 ! entire sy/em ( doctr9e & morals kn[n to reveal$ religion f9ds "h its adequate exposition4 ,we are glad ( an occasion to say ^! words1 n m]ely to *ronicle ! usefulness ( ! book to ,fa!r ,heck]1 b also to recomm5d its re/oration to its prop] place1 :i* bo? by m]it & by au?ority is ! fir/ 9 ! moral & pa/oral lit]ature ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! tru? is1 cont9ue ! memor&a1 t orig9al s9 z taught by ! ,*ur* w\ld nev] h be5 a great difficulty to me3 ( c\rse ! ,calv9i/ic doctr9e is q a diff]5t affair4 ,i 0 l$1 aft] ,i got to "w at ! ,cate*ism ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 9 a way q positive4 ,= example1 "o ?+ ,i want$ 0 a satisfaction ( t feel+ & s5tim5t :i* has made s _m p]sons ,spirituali/s4 ,i f\nd t 9 ! ,*ur* !re 0 no impassable b>ri] divid+ ! liv+ f ! dep>t$4 ,t 0 an int5se delight to me499 ,! doctr9e ( p5ance1 & ! =giv5ess ( s9s 9 ! ,sacram5t ( ,p5ance1 _h a wond]ful beauty z soon z ,i f\nd !m4 ,to be taught t ,god _h someh[ giv5 m5 p[] to disp5se ,8 graces & m]cies made me say1 ,oh1 h[ delightful a doctr9e t is1 if ,i only c\ld believe x6 ,! doctr9e ( ! ,communion ( ,sa9ts & t ( ! ,sacram5t ( ,p5ance 7 v pleas+ to me4 ,h5ce1 ,i soon saw t :at ,i already _h ( tru? & light2 :at my be/ nature & consci5ce & my cle>e/ natural k told me 0 tru?2 0 b elevat$ & lift$ up beyond all conception by ^! & o!r doctr9es ( ! ,*ur*4 ,f ?is ,i 0 soon 9 a position to appreciate ! ,*ur*'s claim to au?oritative tea*+4 ,if %e1 & %e alone1 _h taught su* ?+s1 %e mu/ possess ,god's tea*+ au?ority4 99 ,ref]5ce is "h made to ! ,ca?olic doctr9e ( ! ,communion ( ,sa9ts4 ,:51 !re=e1 ,i w5t into ,bo/on & saw ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick 7:o is n[1 ,i hope1 9 ! k+dom ( heav571 he _h little to d ) me 9 ! way ( in/ruction4 ,! ,tr9ity & o!r fundam5tal doctr9es ,i accept$ readily on ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,he 0 v anxi\s to argue ) me ab\t sociali/ic !ories1 on acc\nt ( my hav+ be5 at ,brook ,f>m & ,fruitl&s4 ,b ,i told him ,i _h no su* difficulties z he suppos$2 t ,i _h only gone to ^! places 9 se>* ( tru?1 n because ,i _h =m$ any su* !ories z !y g5]ally held4 ,he !n ask$ me :e!r ,i w\ld n pref] to be receiv$ into ! ,*ur* 9 ,new ,york1 :]e my fri5ds 74 ,i said ,i did n c>e2 if he w\ld give me a lett] ,i w\ld pres5t x4 ,he gave me "o to ,bi%op ,mc,closkey1 :o 0 !n coadjutor 9 ?is city4 ,! read] may be int]e/$ 9 ! t]ms 9 :i* ! ,cate*ism ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t expresses ! doctr9e ( ! ,communion ( ,sa9ts4 ,s f> z t doctr9e conc]ns ! spiritual side ( man x is exp\nd$ 9 ^! words3 ,= ! unity ( ! ,_s1 by :i* ! ,*ur* is gov]n$1 e/abli%es among all h] memb]s a community ( spiritual bless+s1 :]eas ! fruit ( all ! sacram5ts is common to all ! fai?ful1 & ^! sacram5ts1 p>ticul>ly baptism1 ! door1 z x 71 by :i* we are admitt$ into ! ,*ur*1 are s _m connect+ l9ks :i* b9d & unite !m to ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,t x ext5ds to ! my/ical & miracul\s gifts s de> to ,fa!r ,heck]1 0 ?us expla9$ to him3 ,b ! gifts :i* ju/ify & ende> u to ,god are n alone common3 'graces gratuit\sly grant$1' su* z k1 prophecy1 ! gifts ( tongues & ( miracles1 & o!rs ( ! same sort1 are common also1 & are grant$ ev5 to ! wick$2 n1 h[ev]1 = _! own1 b = ! g5]al good2 = ! build+ up ( ! ,*ur* ( ,god4 ,t ! doctr9e is ! f\ndation ( a real ?\gh n a legal community ( mat]ial goods1 0 evid5t to our "y social re=m] f ! foll[+3 ,9 f9e1 e true ,*ri/ian possesses no?+ :i* he %\ld n consid] common to all o!rs ) himself1 & %\ld !re=e be prep>$ promptly to relieve an indig5t fell[-creature2 = he t is bless$ ) worldly goods1 & sees 8 bro!r 9 want1 & w n assi/ him1 is at once convict$ ( n hav+ ! love ( ,god )9 him4 ,besides giv+ him a lett] to ,bi%op ,mc,closkey1 ,bi%op ,fitzpatrick also furni%$ ! "y cate*um5 ) "o to ! presid5t ( ,holy ,cross ,college1 an in/itution :i* _h be5 e/abli%$ at ,worce/]1 ,mass41 9 #ahdc by ,bi%op ,f5wick1 & pres5t$ by him to ! ,society ( ,jesus1 ( :i* he _h be5 a memb]4 ,! foll[+ lett] 0 writt5 by ,isaac to 8 family aft] he _h arriv$ !re2 8 /ay 0 n long3 ,worce/]1 ,mass41 ,june1 '#dd--,respect+ ! purpose :i* leads me to ,new ,york ,i h sc>cely a ^w to say4 ,quietly1 )\t excitem5t1 ,i come ) an immovable det]m9ation to be jo9$ to ! ,roman ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,!re is a conviction :i* lies deep] ?an all ?\ght or spee*1 :i* moves me ) an irresi/ible influ5ce to take ?is /ep1 :i* argum5ts _c rea*1 nor any visible p[] make to falt]4 ,words are p[]less aga9/ x & inexpressive ( x2 to attempt to expla91 or give to ! intellectual m9d ! reasons :y & :]e=e1 w\ld be z impossible z to pa9t ! heav5s or to utt] ! et]nal ,^w1 ! c5tre ( all exi/5ce4 ,x w\ld be l ask+1 ',:]e=e is t :i* is8' ! f9ite que/ion+ ! inf9ite2 an impossibility4 4 4 4 ,no man by 8 own wisdom c f9d out ,god2 & x is only by ! grace ( ,heav5 t we come to1 & by ! he>t p]ceive1 ! true ,*ur* ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,grace tea*es u to feel & "k t :i* be=e 0 unfelt1 unkn[n1 invisible4 ,p]fect submission to ,8 love breaks op5 all seals1 unlocks all my/]ies1 & unfolds all difficulties4 4 4 4 ,no ext]nal ev5t ( any k9d or "* induces me to take ?is /ep4 ,if :at does is delusion1 :at to "n my =m] life ,i am at a loss to "k4 4 4 ,! heads ( ! college "h appe> to be m5 ( good "*1 devot$ to ! ,*ur*1 innoc5t ( ! ,prote/ant _w ( lit]ature1 philosophy1 etc4 ,! presid5t is a v social1 frank1 w>m-he>t$ man1 ( m ext5sive acqua9tance 9 ! _w ( lett]s4 ,,*apt] ,,xvii ,,across ,,! ,,?re%old ,,f ,worce/] ,isaac w5t on to ,new ,york1 /opp+ on ! way to make a brief visit to ! ,f\ri]ite community 9 ,new ,j]sey1 kn[n z ! ,nor? ,am]ican ,phalanx4 ,he probably _h "s p]sonal acqua9tances !re :om he hop$ to inoculate ) 8 newly-f\nd c]titude4 ,he rea*$ home ,june #bj1 #ahdd1 & five days lat] pres5t$ 8 lett] to ,bi%op ,mc,closkey4 ,conc]n+ ! acqua9tance !n begun1 :i*1 on ! bi%op's "p1 soon took ! =m ( a disc]n+ & wise direction1 & ev5tually deep5$ into a life-long fri5d%ip1 we %all h m to say h]eaft]4 ,! di>y *ronicles _! fir/ meet+ & gives ! reason ( ! brief delay :i* ensu$ be=e ,isaac 0 admitt$ to conditional baptism4 ,! bulk ( ! entries made betwe5 ?is date & t ( 8 =mal reception into ! ,*ur*1 ! fir/ ( ,augu/1 conta9s spiritual doctr9e ( a k9d s em95tly *>act]i/ic ( ,fa!r ,heck] ?r\gh\t 8 life t we cont9ue to make extracts f x3 ,new ,york1 ,june #be1 #ahdd4--,?is morn+ ,i w5t to see ,bi%op ,mc,closkey4 ,i f\nd him a man ( f9e "*1 mild disposition1 & ( a broad] education ?an any ( ! ,ca?olics ,i h _h ! pleasure ( meet+4 ,he 0 acqua9t$ ) ,br[nson's writ+s & ,em]son's1 & p]sonally knew ,mr4 ,*ann+1 :om he _h met at ,rome4 ,he loan$ me "s books on matt]s p]ta9+ to ! ,*ur*4 ,he is to be gone = a =tnight f ,new ,york1 & ,i am to wait until he comes back be=e ,i take any fur!r /eps t[>d be+ unit$ ) ! ,*ur*4 ,july #e1 #ahdd4--;,x is ! duty ( e man to d t :i* expresses ! div9e life :i* /irs )9 him1 & to d no?+ :i* is incon=mable to x4 ,s f> z he falls %ort ( ?is1 s f> he falls %ort ( 8 duty1 8 p]fection1 & div9e beauty4 ,i ?9k we may say ) v great c]ta9ty t ?is is ! only way to obta9 happ9ess 9 ?is _w & et]nal felicity 9 ! _w to come4 ,x is to ?is ,god calls u1 b we--no1 n truly we1 b ! ,man ( ,s9--flatt] ourselves1 z he did ,eve1 t if we foll[ him we %all n die b become z gods4 ,we1 to-day1 h ! same temptation to ov]come t ,eve _h4 ,oh1 h[ mu* great] ,god w\ld h u be ?an we are1 & we w n6 ,we mu/ ca/ out ! ,man ( ,s9 & submit to ! ,p>adisiacal ,man4 ,?is we are enabl$ to d1 bless$ be ,heav51 by ! grace ( ,god ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,:at are ! temptations :i* hold m5 back f foll[+ ,god & lead+ a div9e life8 ,9 "o ^w1 ! ,_w4 ,pride1 love ( praise1 ri*es1 self-indulg5ce1 all t ref]s & looks to "t in/ead ( et]nity1 heav51 ,god4 ,we %\ld enc\rage all t gives u an impulse heav5w>d1 & d5y all t t5ds to draw u d[n m into ! body1 s5se1 "t4 ,man1 alas6 is weak1 p[]less1 & unable to p]=m any good de$ :i* w raise him to ,god )\t ! free gift1 ! bless$ grace ( ,god ! ,holy ,_s4 ,we all fail to act up to ! div9e grace :i* is giv5 u4 ,o ,"l6 =give my manifold transgressions1 & emp[] me to be m & m ob$i5t to ?y ,holy ,_s4 ,my inw>d man desires to foll[ ,?y ,_s1 b ! appetites ( my memb]s ev] w> aga9/ & (t5 subdue him4 ,/r5g!n him1 ,o ,"l6 & enable him to gov]n my :ole ?ree-sph]$ nature4 ,s5d d[n ,?y cele/ial love into my he>t & quick5 all my heav5ly p[]s4 ,x is v true t no man c s]ve two ma/]s4 ,betwe5 ,god & ,mammon !re is no compromise1 no m$iator4 ,"l1 make me fully s5sible ( ?is1 & /r5g!n my resolution to foll[ ,!e4 ,i d look to ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ = help4 ,oh1 may ,i f9d 9 x t :i* ! ,apo/les f\nd 9 ,jesus6 ,we _c refra9 f rem9d+ ! read] ( ! immature age1 & almo/ total lack ( education--9 ! ord9>y mean+ ( ! t]m--( ! man :o wrote ^! l(ty & inspir+ s5t5ces4 ,he 0 ignorant ( ev]y?+ b ! mo/ rudim5t>y tru?s ( ,ca?olicity2 _h nev] read an ascetic "w2 _h nev] spok5 on ascetical subjects ) ,ca?olics2 _h nev] read ! life ( a sa9t2 & _h no exp]i5ce to draw f except 8 own4 ,yet m>k ! absolute c]ta9ty ( 8 propositions & _! uni=m correctness4 ,x %\ld also be made kn[n t ^! doctr9es & s5tim5ts1 ?\gh writt5 ) ! mo/ evid5t ha/e1 foll[ ea* o!r1 page aft] page1 )\t an erasure or a correction4 ,! tru?s :i* _h dropp$ ^u 8 m9d 71 inde$1 rudim5t>y1 b s well adapt$ 0 ! soil to receive ! se$ t ! fruit 0 in/ant & mature4 ,seldom has spontaneity s well approv$ itself by its utt]ances4 ,july #f4-,! imm$iate effect ( ,*ri/ianity ^u humanity has be5 to increase man's s5sibility to ! objects ( ! spiritual _w4 ,poetry1 music1 ! f9e arts1 are ennobl+ & spiritualiz+ only s f> z !y appeal to ! nature ( man div9iz$ by ! influ5ce ( ! ,div9ity4 ,previ\s to ! com+ ( ,*ri/ ! t5d5cy ( ! arts 01 on ! :ole1 r to enc\rage lic5ti\sness & s9 ?an to elevate & ref9e human nature4 ,! t5d5cy ( ,*ri/ianity 0 to re/ore man to 8 primitive gracefulness1 excell5ce1 & beauty4 ,h5ce ! expression ( man 9 art--or1 r1 ( ! div9ity 9 man--became pur] & m beautiful 9 its "*4 4 4 4 ,9 affirm+ ,jesus to be ! basis & life ( mod]n civilization1 no?+ is detract$ f ! great & good m5 :o prec$$ ,him2 nor is x d5i$ t !y h left traces ( _! g5ius ^u mod]n society4 ,:5 we speak ( ,jesus z ,god1 we affirm ,him to be ! ,s\rce ( all inspiration1 f :om all1 anci5t & mod]n1 h d]iv$ _! life1 g5ius1 goodness1 & div9e beauty4 ,jesus quick5$ ! spiritual p[]s ( ! s\l :i* 7 dead5$ by ! fall1 & man aga9 saw heav51 & angels desc5d+ & asc5d+ to ! ?rone ( ineffable ,love4 ,all ! promises ( ,jesus ref] to gifts ( spiritual p[] ov] inanimate matt]1 ! animal creation1 & ! ,man ( ,s94 ,jesus came to give a spiritual life :i* w\ld g5]ate all k & physical well-be+4 ,he came1 n to tea* a sy/em ( philosophy1 h[ev] useful t might be2 n to direct man h[ to procure food = 8 physical exi/5ce ) ! lea/ possible ex]cise ( physical /r5g?1 h[ev] necess>y ?is might seem4 ,b ,he came to give man a new nature :i* %all m ?an d all ?is2 :i* w n only secure 8 well-be+ "h1 b 8 et]nal felicity h]eaft]4 ,z we rise above our "t nature1 & are unit$ ) our et]nal nature1 we feel m & m our indebt$ness to ,*ri/4 ,x 0 to ?is ,he call$ u 9 all ,8 words1 & n[ calls u 9 ! ,_s4 4 4 4 ,s long z l[ appetites are *]i%$1 & selfi% passions h>bor$1 & vanity all[$ a seat 9 our bosoms1 s long w m5 be slaves to _! /oma*s1 backs1 & bus9ess4 ,e quick5+ ( our s5sibility t[>d love1 heav51 equity1 w lead u to *ange our circum/ances s z to make !m con=mable to our new inw>d life4 ,x is = u to be true to ,god1 h[ev] unlike ! _w we may seem4 ,x is 9 sil5ce1 9 private1 alone1 t de$s c be done :i* %all out/rip ^? ( ! ,alex&]s & ,napoleons 9 _! et]nal effects4 ,july #g4--;,all t we cont5d = is t man %\ld obey ,god1 & co-op]ate 9 ,8 "w ) 8 w & n aga9/ x4 ,int]ior submission to ! ,love ,_s is ! answ] to all que/ions conc]n+ man's welf>e1 "h & h]eaft]4 ,:atev] a man is l$ to d 9 ob$i5ce to x is well done & godlike1 ?\gh x lead him to (f] up 8 only de> son4 ,we d say1 ) great emphasis1 t no?+ "u heav5 %\ld prev5t a man f foll[+ ,god4 ,unless a man c give up all & foll[ ,*ri/1 he is none ( ,84 ,e true man is a g5ius4 ,all g5ius is religi\s4 ,! objective =ms ( g5ius are ! expressions ( ! beautiful1 ! good1 & ! true2 9 "o ^w--,god4 ,he is a g5ius 9 :om ! beautiful1 ! good1 & ! true p]man5tly inhabit4 4 4 ,! g5ius 9 e "w ( art is religi\s1 :atev] ! subject may be4 ,we repeat t e man is call$ to give expression to ! highe/1 be/1 div9e/ 9 him2 & to ?is1 & to ?is only is he call$4 ,we add t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is ! m$ium ( ?is div9e life1 & t %e has nurtur$ & enc\rag$ m5 ( g5ius 9 h] bosom z a fond "m4 ,we d n mean to say t ! ,*ur* has conv]t$ m5 ( ord9>y /amp into g5iuses1 b t %e has giv5 ! highe/ inspiration to ! inborn capacity ( g5ius1 & s1 to m5 ?us gift$1 has be5 ! means by :i* !y h become m ?an !y c\ld h be5 )\t h]3 s1 also1 ) ! mo/ ord9>y m54 ,we affirm t ! influ5ce ( ,prote/antism ^u ! bus9ess _w has be5 to make x mu* m un*ri/ian ?an x 0 9 ! middle ages "u ! influ5ce ( ,ca?olicism4 ,at ?is p]iod1 :5 ,isaac ,heck]'s se>* _h ceas$1 b :5 he _h n yet ent]$ into complete & =mal possession ( ! tru?1 we f9d him look+ back at 8 pa/ almo/ z if x 7 a ?+ 9 :i* 8 int]e/ 0 b curi\s & imp]sonal4 ,! ?\ght ( writ+ a hi/ory ( x occurr$ to him1 & he jott$ d[n "s brief notes1 & made a p>tial collection ( su* lett]s & o!r memor&a1 ap>t f ! di>y1 z he f\nd to h be5 pres]v$ by 8 family4 ,b ?is s*eme 0 m]ely "o ( ! occupations ) :i* he beguil$ ! necess>y delay impos$ on him by ,bi%op ,mc,closkey's abs5ce4 ,"o c easily believe t ! plan he propos$ to himself has deeply int]e/$ ! pres5t writ]1 :o1 ?\gh regrett+ t x 0 n foll[$ out by ,isaac ,heck] himself1 has yet be5 enabl$ by ! di>y & ! lett]s to measurably fulfil its purpose4 ,he divid$ x into five p]iods1 &1 ) a rem9isc5ce ( ,wilhelm ,mei/]1 call$ x 8 ,w&]jahr3 ,! fir/ %\ld be nam$ ,y\?1 & give ! ideal & ! actual 9 y\?4 ,! second %\ld be ! /ruggle betwe5 ! ideal & ! actual4 ,! ?ird %\ld be ! ma/]y & supremacy ( ! ideal ov] ! actual & mat]ial4 ,! f\r? %\ld give ! absolute union ( ! ideal & ! et]nal-absolute 9 _! uncondition$ exi/5ce4 ,! fif? %\ld give ! ev5tual "o-ness ( ! ideal-absolute ) humanity & nature4 ,"u ^! five heads ,i h 9 m9d mat]ials suffici5t to make a volume1 b lack ! close application necess>y to connect !m4 ,i d n say x w\ld be readable :5 done4 ,x w\ld be ! esot]ic & exot]ic hi/ory ( my own life = t5 ye>s4 4 4 ,i w\ld op5 ! fir/ *apt] ?us3 ,let m5 say :at !y w1 ,god above u1 ! human s\l1 & all surr\nd+ nature1 are great realities1 et]nal1 solemn1 joy\s facts ( human exp]i5ce4 ,9 ! f9e passage t foll[s we h an anticipation ( ! prom95t mod]n conception ( ,*ri/ianity1 z a develop+ =ce 9 ! hi/ory ( man--clos+ an epo* & introduc+ a new species2 or1 z ,fa!r ,heck] w\ld h said 9 lat] ye>s1 rais+ man f 8 natural position z a creature ( ,god to true son%ip ) ,him ?r\gh affiliation ) ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,! ?\ght1 z x /&s 9 ! di>y1 is em95tly *>act]i/ic ( ,isaac ,heck]1 :o always felt1 9 a measure beyond :at is ord9>y1 8 solid>ity ) all 8 k9d1 & a long+ to keep 9 /ep ) !m on ! l9e ( _! direct advance3 ,july #ab4--,we make no "q t ,god gave to all nations1 previ\s to ! bir? ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ,8 belov$ & only ,son1 disp5sations ( light & love 9 _! great m51 & l$ !m f "t to "t to ! /age ( civilization to :i* !y arriv$4 ,! ,*ri/ian affirms t ,god is ! ,p>5t ( humanity1 ! ,fa!r ( e human be+499 ,x w\ld be 9 direct contradiction to 8 fai? to d5y ?is4 ,b ,jesus ,*ri/ came to introduce a new life1 ^: light & love %\ld s surpass all t _h be5 be=e ,him z to make x appe> z d>kness by contra/4 ,?is life makes no w> aga9/ ! good & true t already exi/$ 9 m51 b x embraces1 includes1 & fulfils x all1 & !n adds m ?an m5 _h d>$ to dream be=e ,8 com+4 ,t ,*ri/ianity is ( ?is high "*1 n only did its ,au?or %[ by ! example ( ,8 life & dea?1 b x has %[n itself to be s :]ev] x has come 9 contact ) any ( ! old] =ms ( religi\s fai? & doctr9e4 ,x has exhibit$ a p[] t is sup]ior to1 & :i* ov]comes1 all t arrays itself aga9/ x4 ,we d n d5y t ,zoroa/]1 ,py?agoras1 ,plato1 ,socrates1 ,z5o1 ,cato1 etc41 7 good1 great1 & religi\s m51 above ! age 9 :i* !y liv$1 & inspir$ be a life n only sup]ior to t ( _! "t b above t ( a great "p ( ,*ri/5dom1 s-call$4 ,b we say t ,*ri/ gave to ! _w a life inf9itely above !irs1 & t1 _h !y be5 ,8 contempor>ies1 or ours1 !y w\ld h be5 z f> sup]ior to _! actual selves z ! inspiration ( ,*ri/ianity is sup]ior to t "u :i* !y liv$4 99 ,z "s also ( y\r own poets said3 ,= we are also ,8 (fspr+4 ,be+1 !re=e1 ! (fspr+ ( ,god1 we mu/ n suppose ! ,div9ity to be l unto gold or silv] or /one1 ! grav+ ( art & ! device ( man4 7,acts #ag3bh1 #bi7 ,al?\gh !re is au?ority = say+ t ! bus9ess p>tn]%ip betwe5 ,isaac ,heck] & 8 bro!rs 0 n =mally dissolv$ until he w5t away to ,belgium 9 #ahdi1 he seems nev] to h resum$ any active %>e 9 x aft] 8 return f ,concord4 ,n[ & aga9 ! old scruples ab\t ?is app>5t inactivity return$ ^u him1 & we f9d him contract+ 8 p]sonal ne$s )9 a compass s n>r[ t 8 support %all be felt z ! lea/ possible burd54 ,?us he writes1 on ,july #ac1 t 8 pres5t /ate ( susp5sion f all outw>d engagem5ts _c & %\ld n be ( long cont9uance4 ,he adds3 ,x is a cle> & b\nd5 duty t e "o %\ld 9 "s way or o!r comp5sate ! _w = t :i* he consumes f its /ore4 ,b ,i d n see h[ ,i c d ?is consi/5tly ) ! pres5t /ate ( my m9d4 ,to be sure ,i h contract$ my wants z respects eat+ z f> z seems possible to me2 some:at 9 dress1 b n z f> z ,i %\ld & c d4 ,z = pleasures & _m o!r causes ( exp5diture1 ,i tru/ ,i am n immod]ate4 ,9 ?is "p ( ! _w ,i d n see any prep>$1 cong5ial conditions4 ,if ,i 7 9 ,europe1 ,i %\ld f9d 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* in/itutions :i* ,i c\ld ent] = a "t1 until ?is p]iod ( my life w\ld ei!r fix itself p]man5tly1 or give place to ano!r 9 :i* ,i c\ld see my way m cle>ly4 ,b "h ,i am1 & n 9 ,europe4 ,"s ?\ghts h aris5 9 my m9d1 & ,i w /ate !m1 z to :at may come at "s future "t )9 ! range ( ! possible3 ,if ,i am jo9$ to ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & !re is su* an in/itution 9 ,europe1 may ,i n g !re & live = a "t8 ,ah6 is ?is possible8 ,if we own$ a spot ( gr\nd1 ,i w\ld be will+ to g on x & engage z mu* ( my "t z possible 9 cultivat+ & improv+ x4 ,la/ly1 ,i d n "k :at effect ! advice & influ5ce ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* may h ^u my m9d1 & d h a slight hope t ,i may f9d ! exact rem$y t ,i ne$ 9 my union ) h]4 ,i feel ! assurance t if ,i foll[ ! ,_s ( ,god1 & place all my confid5ce 9 x1 x w d = me :at ,i d>e n hope to d = myself4 ,a day or two lat] he jots d[n1 casually z x 71 "o ( ^? pr(\nd obs]vations :i* are l po9t]s to 8 :ole c>e]4 ,occurr+ at ?is e>ly p]iod1 :51 z ! read] may see h]eaft]1 ! g]ms ( all 8 lat] ?\ght & "w 7 beg9n+ to unfold1 !y are l rifts 9 ! d>kness :i* seem$ to himself to lie ab\t 8 future1 & %[ pla9ly to ! /ud5t ( 8 life h[ /raight & secure 8 pa? 0 amid/ x all4 ,he _h be5 c\nsell+ himself to pati5ce & entire reliance ^u ,god's provid5ce :ile wait+ ! opportunity to create or procure ! circum/ances necess>y to ! expression ( 8 own individuality4 ,he felt t ?is 0 ! especial task to :i* all m5 7 call$4 ,to use 8 own words3 ,x is = ?is we are creat$2 t we may give a new & individual expression ( ! absolute 9 our own peculi> "*4 ,z soon z ! new is b ! re-expression ( ! old1 ,god ceases to live4 ,ev] ! my/]y is reveal$ 9 ea* new bir?4 ,s mu/ x be to et]nity4 ,! ,et]nal-,absolute is ev] creat+ new =ms ( express+ itself4 ,9 ! next *apt] we %all h occasion to give ,fa!r ,heck]'s *oice ( an epitaph = ,dr4 ,br[nson4 ,we ?9k t ! s5t5ces j quot$ are wor?y to be 8 own4 ,9 ! middle ( ,july ,bi%op ,mc,closkey return$ to ,new ,york1 & ,isaac wait$ ^u him )\t delay4 ,_! fir/ long conv]sation made x pla9 to ! bi%op t ! "y man _h v little ne$ ( fur!r prelim9>y in/ruction1 & x 0 settl$ t conditional baptism %\ld be adm9i/]$ to him )9 a =tnight4 ,t ! nature ( ,isaac ,heck]'s vocation also reveal$ itself to ?is prud5t advis] is also evid5t f ?is entry1 made 9 ! di>y z soon z ! visit 0 end$3 ,he said t my life w\ld lead me to contemplation1 & t 9 ?is c\ntry ! ,*ur* 0 s situat$ z to require !m all to be active4 ,i did n speak fur!r on ?is subject ) him4 ,he ask$ :e!r ,i felt l devot+ myself to ! ord] ( ! prie/hood1 & und]go+ _! discipl9e1 self-d5ial1 etc41 & becom+ a mission>y4 ,i answ]$ t all ,i c\ld say 0 t ,i wi%$ to live ! life giv5 me1 & felt l sacrific+ all ?+s to ?is2 b c\ld n say t ! prie/hood w\ld be ! prop] place = me4 ,i feel t if1 = a c]ta9 l5g? ( "t1 & "u ! discipl9e ( ! ,*ur*1 ,i c\ld h ! conditions = lead+ ! life ( contemplation1 x w\ld be :at ! ,_s n[ dem&s4 ,:e!r ,i %all n be compell$ back to ?is if ,i attempt to foll[ "s o!r way1 ,i am n p]fectly sure4 ,! bi%op intimat$ t 9 ,europe !re 7 bro!rhoods cong5ial to ! /ate ( m9d t ,i am 94 ,if s1 & ,i c\ld rema9 !re = a c]ta9 l5g? ( "t1 :y %\ld ,i n g8 ,i w inquire fur!r ab\t x :5 next ,i speak ) ! bi%op4 ,!re is a college at ,=dham :]e !re is to be a comm5cem5t to-morr[1 :i* ! bi%op invit$ me to g & see4 ,p]haps ,i %all f9d ?is place to be suitable1 & may be l$ to exam9e & try x4 ,! ,"l kn[s all2 into ,8 h&s ,i resign myself4 ,8 impressions ( ! ,ca?olic college at ,=dham he does n record4 ,! next entry 9 ! di>y is1 z usual1 tak5 up ) ! l>ge topics :i* = ! mo/ "p exclud$ p>ticul> incid5ts f m5tion4 ,:at 8 /rict ab/95ce f p]mitt$ pleasures1 & ! rigor\s self-discipl9e :i* he _h s long practis$1 meant to himself1 may be p>tly ga!r$ f ! extract we are ab\t to give4 ,he says he does n call su* d5ial1 9 /rict language1 ! d5ial ( our true1 ,god-creat$1 immortal self1 b ! d5ial ( t :i* is n myself1 b :i* has usurp$ ! place ( my true1 et]nal1 heav5ly1 ,adamic be+4 ,x is ! re/oration ( t defac$ image ( ,god to its primitive div9e beauty1 grace1 & sweetness4 ,we mu/ feel & possess ! love & light f above be=e we h ! disposition & p[] to d5y ! body & ! wisdom ( ?is _w4 ,if we h ! ,*ri/-_s1 we w fulfil ! ,*ri/-comm&s4 ,?us 0 x ) man prior to 8 spiritual dea?1 8 fall4 ,he liv$ 9 & enjoy$ ,god1 & 0 9 communion & society ) angels1 n kn[+ good & evil4 ,8 life 0 spontane\s2 8 wisdom intuitive2 he 0 unconsci\s ( x1 ev5 z we w\ld be ( light 7 !re no d>kness4 ,we %\ld see x & be recipi5ts ( all its bless+s )\t kn[+ its exi/5ce4 ,b d>kness came1 & man knew4 ,alas6 9 kn[+ he lo/ all t he possess$ be=e4 ,jesus came to re/ore man to t et]nal day f :i* ,adam fell4 ,ab\t ?is "t he m5tions hav+ sp5t a day 9 ! woods ) "s fri5ds1 at ,=t ,lee2 x is ! only allusion we f9d to any sort ( recreation or companion%ip ) o!rs4 ,he sat alone = an h\r1 he says1 9 a pleasant spot :i* ov]look$ ! ,hudson & ! high ,palisade rocks1 & seem$ to be 9 communion ) ! inf9ite invisible all ar\nd 9 all ! deep av5ues ( ! s\l4 ,f\r days be=e 8 baptism comes ?is anticipation ( x3 ,new ,york1 ,july #bg1 '#dd4--;,i h comm5c$ act+4 ,my union ) ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is my fir/ real1 true act4 ,& x is no d\bt ! =]unn] ( _m m--( an active life4 ,h]et(ore ,i did n see or feel 9 me ! gr\nds ^u :i* ,i c\ld act ) p]man5ce & security4 ,i n[ d2 & on ?is basis my future life w be built4 ,:at my actions may be1 ,i c>e n4 ,x 0 ?is deep et]nal c]ta9ty )9 ,i did wi% to feel1 & ,i am n[ consci\s t ! lack ( x 0 ! reason = my inactivity4 ,) ?is guide ,i ask no o!r1 nor d ,i feel ! ne$ ( ! support ( fri5ds1 or k9dr$1 or ! _w4 ,alone x is suffici5t = me1 ?\gh x contradicts ! advice ( my fri5ds & all my =m] life4 ,x c]ta9ly seems to me absolute3 if any error arises x w be f my disob$i5ce4 ,july #cj4--,! inw>d voice becomes m & m audible4 ,x says3 ',i am--obey6' ,! new clo!s itself 9 new dress4 ,:at pro( does a man give t he is if he does only :at has be5 done8 ,c a man repeat ! pa/ ) g5ius8 ,"o true act op5s ! passage to t5 m4 ,man is left to 8 own de/9y2 religion b sanctifies x4 ,:5 ! day comes at la/1 ! ,sacram5t itself gets only ! briefe/ *ronicle4 ,! door seems b a door4 ,pass+ ?r\gh x1 he f9ds himself at home1 & app>5tly )\t "o quick5+ ( ! pulse1 or any cessation ( 8 desire to p5etrate all its secret *amb]s4 ,! explanation ( ?is is to be look$ = 9 ! presumption t 8 baptism 9 infancy _h be5 valid4 ,x 0 conf]r$ by a ,lu!ran m9i/] :o mu/ h be5 tra9$ 9 ,g]many1 & ^: me?odical adh]5ce to ! prop] =m might be c\nt$ on4 ,9 ! sight ( ,god1 d\btless1 he _h nev] s9ce be5 outside ! ,*ur*4 ,he 0 l a *ild /ol5 f ! cradle1 b 9 :om racial & family traits _h be5 sup]ior to an uncong5ial environm5t4 ,friday1 ,augu/ #a1 #ahdd1 #a ,p4,m4--,?is morn+ we 7 baptiz$ by ,bi%op ,mc,closkey4 ,to-morr[ we att5d ! tribunal ( confession4 ,!n he m5tions a curi\s fact :i* recalls a simil> exp]i5ce ( ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,g5oa3 ,we "k n :y x is we feel an int]nal necessity ( us+ ! plural pron\n in/ead ( ! s+ul>4 ,b if conditional baptism left him sil5t1 ! ,sacram5t he c]ta9ly receiv$ ! foll[+ day op5$ ! flood-gates ( 8 spee*3 ,augu/ #b4--,p5ance6 joy6 unb\nd$ love6 ,sweet ,jesus1 ,?y love is inf9ite6 ,bless$ fai?6 sweet love6 ,i possess an int]nal glory1 a gl[+ flame ( love6 ,let my :ole life be "o act ( p5ance6 ,o de> ,jesus1 ! life-giv]6 ,oh1 :at a sweet ?+ x is to be 9 ! way ( loveful grace6 ,jesus1 keep me ne> ,!e6 ,oh1 h[ great a condesc5sion1 ,jesus is my ,fri5d6 ,oh6 :o has ! conception ( ,jesus be+ 8 ,fri5d8 ,o anci5t fai?1 h[ de>1 h[ good is ,god 9 giv+ u s9n]s !e6 ,bless$ is ! grace ( ,god t leade? s9n]s to !e6 ,oh1 h[ ?\ ha/ com=t$ ! s\l6 ,x w\ld turn f !e1 b ?\ /r5g!ne/ x4 ,! cup 0 bitt]1 b inf9itely m sweet is ! joy ?\ give/4 ,my s\l is clo!d 9 brightness2 its y\? is re/or$4 ,o bless$1 ev]-bless$1 unfa?omable1 div9e fai?6 ,o fai? ( apo/les1 m>tyrs1 confessors1 & sa9ts6 ,holy ,"m ( ,jesus1 ?\ art my "m4 ,i feel 9 my he>t ?y t5d] love4 ,o holy ,"m1 ?\ ha/ beheld me6 ,bless me1 ,virg9 ,"m ( ,jesus6 ,,*apt] ,,xviii ,,new ,,influ5ces ,,bi%op ,mc,c,l,o,s,k,e,y1 aft]w>ds ! fir/ ,am]ican ,c>d9al1 0 coadjutor to ,bi%op ,hughes f #ahdd to #ahdg4 ,he 0 liv+ at ! old ,ca!dral :5 ,isaac ,heck] fir/ call$ ^u him4 ,he 0 /ill a "y man1 less ?an t5 ye>s sep>at+ him f ! y\?ful cate*um54 ,9 temp]am5t !y 7 v diff]5t4 ,! bi%op1 a man ( r\t9e 9 me?od & ( no orig9al views ( pr9ciples1 0 s1 nev]!less1 by m5tal pr$isposition r ?an by positive *oice4 ,he 0 a man ( f9i%$ education2 a dignifi$ speak]1 ^: words read z impressively z !y s\nd$4 ,al?\gh ! two m5 7 s unlike1 ! bi%op c\ld1 at lea/ aft] brief hesitation1 fully appreciate ,isaac ,heck]2 nay1 c\ld love him1 c\ld fur!r 8 plans1 & /& by him 9 8 difficulties4 ,be=e we are done ) ?is ,life1 ! read] w see ?is m 9 detail4 ,nor 0 ,bi%op ,mc,closkey )\t light z a judge 9 spiritual matt]s4 ,by nature calm & self-pois$1 & readily ob$i5t to reason1 ! grace ( 8 high (fice1 8 wide k ( m51 8 ext5sive read+1 7 d\btless supplem5t$ by a special infusion ( heav5ly wisdom1 due to 8 upright purpose & 8 spotless life4 ,?\gh n timid1 he 0 n conspicu\s = c\rage2 8 refuge 9 difficulty 0 a high ord] ( prud5ce1 nev] c[>dice2 nor did he err ei!r by precipitancy1 by cruelty1 or by rigidity ( adh]5ce to ab/ract rules ( law4 ,fa!r ,heck] knew him ?or\ghly well1 & admir$ him2 m1 he pr(it$ by 8 guidance1 & t n only at ?is e>lie/ p]iod ( _! int]c\rse4 ,x 0 by him t ,isaac ,heck]'s vocation 01 ?\gh n reveal$1 yet mo/ wisely direct$4 ,br[nson told ! "y man t he ought to devote himself to ! ,g]mans 9 ?is c\ntry2 ,bi%op ,hughes advis$ him to g to ,/4 ,sulpice & /udy = ! secul> prie/hood2 ,bi%op ,mc,closkey told him to become a religi\s4 ,hi!rto ,isaac ,heck]'s environm5t _h be5 entirely non-,ca?olic2 ! ebb+ & fl[+ ( a sea ( d\bt & inquiry ^u :i* float$ small boats & rafts :i* _h be5 ca/ (f f ! good %ip ( ,*ri/4 ,n[ t he 0 on bo>d ! %ip itself1 he f\nd its crew & pass5g]s sail+ /raight on t[>d _! de/9$ hav51 pay+ small reg>d1 z a rule1 to ! small craft & ! %ipwreck$ sailors toss+ on ! wild waves ar\nd !m1 & only surpris$ :5 "o or ano!r hail$ _! vessel & ask$ to be tak5 on bo>d4 ,nor did ! attitude ( non-,ca?olics1 tak+ !m g5]ally1 invite any?+ else4 ,isaac ,heck]1 pass+ into ! ,*ur*1 n only came into contact ) its memb]s1 b 0 to be = "s ye>s exclusively 9 _! company4 ,b1 ?\gh c>ri$ beyond ! ,ripleys1 ! ,alcotts1 ! ,lanes1 ! ,em]sons1 & beyond ! !ories !y 9 "s sort /& = & repres5t1 he _h le>n$ !m & _! lesson1 & nev] lo/ 8 aptitude = return+ to _! company ) a ,ca?olic message4 ,8 f>ewell to t class did n involve loss ( affectionate int]e/1 = 9 m9d he cont9ually rev]t$ to !m4 ,he knew t _! peculi> traits 7 significant ( ! mo/ imp]ative invitation ( ,provid5ce to mission>y "w4 ,he ?\ght x 0 to t class1 or1 r1 to ! multitude to :om !y 7 prophets1 t ! expon5t ( ,ca?olicity %\ld fir/ address himself4 ,!y possess$ ! highe/ activity ( ! natural faculties2 !y 7 all b ! only class ( ,am]icans :o lov$ tru? = its own sake1 t trait :i* is ! peculi>ity ( ! ,ca?olic m9d1 & ! fir/ requisite = real conv]sion4 ,x may h be5 ! lat5t /r5g? ( ?is conviction t1 )9 a ye> aft] 8 reception into ! ,*ur*1 p]man5tly affect$ ! influ5ce :i* ,br[nson _h s long ex]t$ ov] him4 ,x ceas$ n[ to be 9 any s5se controll+1 & at no future "t rega9$ =ce en\gh to be directive4 ,!y f\nd ! ,*ur* toge!r1 w5t toge!r into its ve/ibule1 & 7 receiv$ ne>ly at ! same "t4 ,& !n ! wide lib]ties ( a univ]sal religion gave ample scope & l>ge sugge/ion = ! acc5tuation & developm5t ( _! native diff]5ces4 ,br[nson 0 a publici/ & rema9$ s2 ,isaac ,heck] 0 a my/ic & rema9$ s4 ,to ! my/icism ( ! latt] 0 add$ an ext]nal apo/olate2 ! public activity ( ! =m] 01 inde$1 apo/olic1 b ^u a field n only diff]5t f any he w\ld himself h spontane\sly *os51 b q unlike4 ,our read] already kn[s h[ griev\s a loss to ! public exposition ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica ?is defection ( ,br[nson's g5ius f its true direction seem$ to ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,he nev] ceas$ to deplore x z a ne$less calamity1 ov]rul$ 9 great measure1 inde$1 by ! good ,provid5ce ( ,god1 b n :olly repair$4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s affection = ,dr4 ,br[nson nev] wav]$1 & 8 gratitude t[>ds him 0 only deep5$ & made m efficaci\s ) ! lapse ( "t & ! gr[? ( 8 own spiritual exp]i5ce4 ,if !y did n always agree1 ei!r 9 pr9ciples or 9 que/ions ( policy1 !y always lov$ ea* o!r4 ,! memor&a furni% an int]e/+ pro( ( ?is abid+ affection on ! "p ( ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,he 0 ask$3 ,don't y ?9k we might h a memorial tablet to ,dr4 ,br[nson 9 our *ur*8 ,yes6 ,( all ! m5 ,i ev] knew1 he _h mo/ influ5ce ov] me4 ,:5 y 7 9 e>ly life8 ,yes1 ( c\rse4 ,oh6 9 aft] life no man has _h influ5ce ) me1 b only ,god4 ,?is meant1 ( c\rse1 ! influ5ce ( ma/] ^u disciple1 & n t ( lawful au?ority or ( frat]nal love1 to bo? ( :i* ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ev] v s5sitive4 ,speak+ at ano!r "t ( ,br[nson1 he quot$ ?is s5t5ce f ,! ,conv]t z s p]fect an epitome ( ! man t x %\ld be put on 8 monum5t3 ,i _h "o pr9ciple1 & only "o1 to :i*1 s9ce ?r[+ up ,univ]salism1 ,i _h be5 fai?ful2 a pr9ciple to :i* ,i _h1 p]haps1 made "s sacrifices--t ( foll[+ my own hone/ convictions :i!rsoev] !y %\ld lead me4 ,& j "h is f\nd "o ( ^? po9ts ( ess5tial diff]5ce :i* x is int]e/+ to note betwe5 ^! two m51 s closely drawn toge!r by ,div9e ,provid5ce at "o p]iod1 & 9 su* a relation t to ! eld] ! function ( guidance seem$ to h be5 appo9t$4 ,9 unsw]v+ fidelity to conviction !y 7 on a p>1 b 9 native cle>ness ( vision & in/9ctive av]sion f error !y 7 f> less closely mat*$4 ,br[nson 9 e>ly life _h tri$1 accept$1 & prea*$ v>i\s =ms ( ab]ration f true doctr9e4 ,"o might say ( him1 t1 hav+ f\nd himself outside ! highway at 8 />t1 he ga!r$ accretions f h$ge & dit* z he /ruggl$ t[>d ! true road1 & w5t ?r\gh an aft] process ( sl\gh+ !m "o by "o4 ,p]haps t process end$ 9 mak+ him ov]-timid4 ,x 0 o!rwise ) ,isaac ,heck]4 ,he1 too1 _h /opp$ to consid] _m doctr9es :i* purport$ to be true2 m ?an t1 he _h recogniz$ 9 ea* ! modicum ( tru? :i* x possess$4 ,b ! falsity ) :i* ?is 0 ov]load$ 0 p[]ful en\gh to repel him1 9 spite ( ! tru? he knew to be conta9$ 9 x4 ,he c>ri$ 9 himself ! t\*/one to :i* all t 0 ak9 to x beyond him respond$ ( necessity4 ,! ,light :i* lights e man :o comes into ! _w _h n only nev] be5 d>k5$ 9 him by s9ful c\rses1 b x seem$ to burn ) a cry/al cle>ness :i* ?rew up into hide\s & repellant proportions all t 0 (f5sive to x4 ,_m voices _h call$ him f )\t1 b he _h refus$ ob$i5ce unto any4 ,he nev] submitt$ until 8 submission 0 full & n to be )drawn4 ,s1 once 9 ! ,*ur*1 & enjoy+ h] div9e gu>antee ( ext]nal au?ority1 he _h few if any disquiet+ recollections ( error to bre$ di/ru/ ( ! light t %one )9 him4 ,8 s\l 0 ( t ord] to :i* tru? speaks au?oritatively & at fir/ h&2 ( t soil f :i* in/itutions :i* are to /& spr+ by a true process ( developm5t1 because x is ! soil :i* fir/ receiv$ _! g]ms4 ,always x is ! s\l ( man :i* is inspir$1 ! m9d ( man t is enlight5$4 ,!n ! tea*+ comes z record ( ! fact & ! doctr9e2 !n ! in/itution solidifies ab\t !m1 a p]petual witness t to _m m5 & ages ( m5 ! same message has be5 h&$ d[n by its fir/ recipi5ts & has produc$ 9 !m its prop] results4 ,! race ( su* s\ls has n di$ out 9 ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*4 ,! "o tru?1 spok5 once = all by ! ,inc>nate ,^w1 takes on = !m new aspects & new tones4 ,!y are ! pione]s ( great movem5ts4 ,nurtur$ 9 ! ,*ur*1 _! ardor burns away m]e conv5tionalities2 born outside ! ,*ur*1 ! light %e c>ries is a beacon1 & ! voice %e utt]s is felt z t ( ! true ,"m4 ,to adapt once m a pregnant s5t5ce f "y ,heck]1 ( ! tru? ( :i* he 0 himself an example3 ,x is ,god 9 !m :i* believes 9 ,god4 ,b to return to ,br[nson4 ,an entry 9 ! j\rnal1 made ne>ly a ye> lat]1 sums up ! total impression :i* ,br[nson _h made ^u 8 "y disciple3 ,june #bb1 #ahde4--j4 ,a4 ,b4 is "h4 ,he arriv$ ?is morn+4 ,?\gh he is a fri5d to me1 & ! mo/ critical p]iods ( my exp]i5ce h be5 kn[n to him1 & he has frequ5tly giv5 me advice & sympa?y1 yet he nev] moves my he>t4 ,he has be5 ( ine/imable use to me 9 my intellectual developm5t4 ,he is1 too1 a man ( he>t4 ,b he is s /rong1 & s intellectually active1 t all 8 en]gy is consum$ 9 ?\ght4 ,he is an intellectual a?lete4 ,he ?9ks = a doz5 m54 ,he does n take "t to realize 9 he>t = himself4 ,no man reads or ?9ks m ?an he4 ,b he is great] z a writ] ?an z a p]son4 ,!re are m5 :o nev] wrote a l9e1 b ^: influ5ce is deep] & m ext5sive ?an t ( o!rs :o h writt5 heavy tomes4 ,x is too late = ,br[nson to give himself to contemplation & int]ior recollection4 ,he is a controv]siali/2 a doctor4 ,! la/ he w be be=e long4 ,"s h wond]$ :y ,i %\ld h contract$ su* a fri5d%ip = "o :om !y imag9e to be s h>% & dictatorial4 ,i h n felt ?is4 ,8 pres5ce does n *ange me2 nor d ,i f9d myself :]e ,i 0 n aft] hav+ met him4 ,he has n ! temp]am5t ( a g5ius1 b t ( a rhetorician & declaim]4 ,he arrives at 8 tru?s by a regul> & consecutive sy/em ( logic4 ,8 m9d is ( a hi/orical m ?an ( a poetical m\ld4 ,z a man1 ,i h nev] kn[n "o s consci5ti\s & self-sacrific+4 ,?is is natural to him4 ,8 love ( "r is supreme1 & ! ?+ he dete/s mo/ is bad logic4 ,x makes him peevi% & (t5 riles 8 temp]4 ,he defeats1 b w nev] conv9ce an oppon5t4 ,?is is bad4 ,no "o loves to break a lance ) him1 because he cuts su* ung5tlemanly ga%es4 ,he is /rong1 & he kn[s x4 ,!re is m ( ! ,indian *ief ?an ( ! ,*ri/ian knight 9 8 composition4 ,b he has some?+ ( bo?1 ?\gh no?+ ( ! mod]n s*ol>1 s call$4 ,8 art is logic1 b he nev] aims at art4 ,by nature he is a mo/ g5u9e & true man2 none s mu* s4 ,by no means ,e---- ,em]son8 :o ev] prates ab\t ?is ?+4 ,if he attempts embelli%m5t1 y see at once x is borr[$2 x is n 9 8 nature4 ,!re is a pure & g5u9e ve9 ( poetry runn+ ?r\gh him1 b x is n suffici5t to t9cture ! :ole fl[ ( 8 life4 ,he is a man ( ! ?irte5? or f\rte5? c5tury r ?an ( ! n9ete5?4 ,he is an anomaly among its s*ol>s1 writ]s1 & div9es4 ,he is n ?or\gh on any "o subject ?\gh at home on all4 ,:at a f9i%$ collegiate education w\ld h done = him ,i am baffl$ to conjecture4 ,he is g5u9e1 & ,i love him = t2 x is ! cr[n ( all virtues4 ,b ,i mu/ /op4 ,i only int5d$ to m5tion t he is "h4 ,! read] may well suppose t ,fa!r ,heck] fully appreciat$ ,br[nson's lit]>y g5ius4 ,! ,engli% language 9 8 grasp 0 a weapon to slay & a talisman to raise to life4 ,nev] 0 argum5tation made m delightful read+2 nev] did a ma/] in/ruct m exclusively by ! aid ( 8 disciple's highe/ faculties ?an did ,br[nson4 ,habituat$ 8 :ole life long to ! ard5t /udy ( ! greate/ topics ( ! human und]/&+1 he 0 able to tea* all1 z he _h taught "y ,heck]1 h[ to ?9k1 disc]n1 judge1 p5etrate1 decide ab\t !m ) mat*less p[]2 & he clo!s 8 conclusions 9 language z adequate to express !m z human language well c be4 ,cle>ness1 precision1 =ce1 purity1 vividness1 l(t9ess are t]ms applicable to ,dr4 ,br[nson's lit]>y /yle4 ,x may be t ! g5]al read+ public w n /udy 8 works m]ely = ! sake ( 8 lit]>y m]its2 ! pleasures ( ! imag9ation & ( n>rative are n to be f\nd 9 ,dr4 ,br[nson4 ,b he c]ta9ly w w9 8 way to ! suffrages ( ! high] class ( /ud5ts ( f9e writ+4 ,& let "o h any %ad[ ( int]e/ 9 ! great que/ions he treats1 & e page displays a /yle :i* is ! r>e/ ( lit]>y gifts4 ,! v fact t 8 writ+ is unt9t$ by ^? less] beauties :i* cat* ! eye b to imp$e its deepe/ glances1 is 9 itself an excell5ce all ! great] 9 proportion to ! gravity ( 8 topics4 ,absolutely free f ! lea/ obscurity1 8 diction is a magnetic m$ium unit+ ! ma/]'s p]sonality1 ! disciple's und]/&+1 & ! ess5ce ( ! subject "u consid]ation4 ,c>d9al ,newman1 "s may believe1 possess$ ?is supreme rhetoric 9 p]haps ev5 a high] degree ?an ,br[nson1 b s mu* c be said ( few o!r writ]s ( ,engli% prose4 ,george ,ripley1 :om ,fa!r ,heck] deem$ ! be/ judge ( lit]ature 9 our c\ntry or else:]e1 assur$ him t !re 7 passages 9 ,dr4 ,br[nson :i* c\ld n be surpass$ 9 ! :ole range ( ,engli% lit]ature4 ,,*apt] ,,xix ,,ye>n+s ,,aft] ,,contemplation ,,c\ld ,i b give up all my "t to contemplation1 /udy1 read+1 & reflection6 ,^u ?is aspiration z a backgr\nd ! :ole matt] ( ,isaac ,heck]'s vocation mu/ be consid]$4 ,9 sub/ance we h met ) x v frequ5tly already2 9 ! %ape j giv5 x confronts u on ! fir/ page ( ! new di>y begun a few days be=e 8 baptism4 ,& z our read] accompanies u ?r\gh ! records he made dur+ ! ye> t /ill elaps$ be=e he ent]$ ! ,r$emptori/ ,ord]1 no?+1 we ?9k1 w become m evid5t ?an t he 0 call$ to some?+ beyond adhesion to ! ,*ur*1 ! wor?y reception ( ! sacram5ts1 or ev5 ! ord9>y sac]dotal /ate4 ,to make ?is /ill pla9] at ! />t1 x may be useful to describe briefly ! special gr\nds :]eon ,isaac ,heck] f\ght 8 life-long battles4 ,^! 71 fir/3 ,! validity ( ^? natural aspirations :i* are call$ religi\s1 & :i* embrace ! v]acity ( reason 9 its ess5tial affirmations4 ,second3 ,:e!r man be by nature guileless or totally deprav$3 ,?ird1 ,:e!r religion be or be n intr9sically & prim>ily an elevat+ influ5ce ^: end is to raise m5 to real union ) ,god4 ,to _m inquir]s aft] ! true religion su* prelim9>y d\bts h be5 already settl$1 ei!r by natural b5t ( m9d or docility to previ\s tra9+2 & !y pass on to consid] apo/olical succession1 ! primacy ( ,pet]1 ! nature & numb] ( ! sacram5ts1 & o!r matt]s :]e9 h]esy errs by d5ial or by defect4 ,b to ,isaac ,heck] all su* po9ts z ^! 71 9 a s5se1 subsidi>y4 ,he _h ask$ admission into ! ,*ur* because he f\nd x to be ! only tea*+ society on e>? ^: doctr9es gave complete & adequate satisfaction to t fundam5tal crav+ ( 8 nature :i* prompt$ 8 que/ions4 ,%e accr$it$ h]self to him z fully by t fact z %e mu/ h done to _m a philosophic pagan among ^? :o 7 ! fir/ disciples to ! new fai? prea*$ by ,/4 ,john or ,/4 ,paul4 ,all else he accept$ ) an implicit1 *ild-l confid5ce n diff]5t f t :i* moves ! loyal desc5dant ( ages ( ,ca?olic ance/ors4 ,x 0 cle> to him t ^! accompany+ doctr9es & in/itutions mu/ h be5 enfold$ )9 ! orig9al g]m1 & mu/ be receiv$ on ! same au?ority1 n by an analytic process & on _! m]its1 "o by "o4 ,:at he want$ 01 9 ! fir/ place1 su/5ance = :at he inv>iably calls ! life giv5 him2 & next1 light to see 9 :at way he 0 to put to use ! /r5g? s ga9$4 ,! fir/ effect ( ! sacram5ts 0 :at "o might call ! natural "o ( mak+ m visible ! %ad[s :i* envelop$ 8 pa?1 z well z /imulat+ 8 in/9ctive ef=ts to pi]ce ?r\gh !m4 ,aft] ! raptur\s joy :i* succe$$ confession & absolution1 a p]iod ( desolation & dryness heavi] ?an he _h ev] kn[n at once set 94 ,p]haps he _h expect$ ! v rev]se ( ?is4 ,at all ev5ts1 x 0 n _m days be=e x drew f him ! compla9t t 9 leav+ ,concord he _h also left beh9d him ! great int]ior sweetness :i* _h buoy$ him up4 ,on ,augu/ #aa he writes3 ,h[ h>d x has be5 = me to g ?r\gh ) all ^! solemn my/]ies & c]emonies )\t exp]i5c+ any ( ^? great delights :i* ,i h be=e felt4 ,:y is ?is8 ,is x to try my fai?8 ,o ,"l6 h[ long %all ,i be tri$ 9 ?is season ( desolation8 ,are ^! delights nev] to return8 ,h ,i act$ unwor?ily8 ,:at %all ,i d to receive ^! bless+s aga98 ,!n he resolves to make a nov5a1 fa/+ ! :ile on bread & wat]1 to entreat _! r5ewal4 ,b at once a bett] mood sets 9 & he adds3 ,! highe/ /ate ( p]fection is to be cont5t to be no?+4 ,"l1 give me /r5g? n to ask ( ,!e any?+ t is pleasant to me4 ,i r5\nce :at ,i h j ask$ =1 & w try to d all )\t ! hope ( recomp5se4 ,if ,?\ trie/ my s\l1 let x n g until x has paid ! utt]mo/ f>?+4 ,augu/ #ae1 #ahdd4--,to-day is ! holyday ( ! ,assumption ( ! de>1 ,bless$ ,m>y1 ,"m ( our ,"l & ,savi\r ,jesus4 ,oh6 may ,i be f\nd wor?y ( h] reg>d & love4 ,he t has n le>n$ ! bitt]ness ( ! drops ( woe has n le>n$ to live4 ,"o h\r ( deep agony tea*es man m love & wisdom ?an a :ole long life ( happ9ess4 4 4 ,9 _m faces ,i see pass+ ?r\gh ! cr[d$ /reets !re seems a veil$ beauty1 an angel quick5+ me ) pur] life z ,i g by !m 9 anxi\s ha/e4 ,d we n see ! hidd5 wor?1 glory1 & beauty ( o!rs z our own becomes reveal$ to u8 ,w\ld ! ,son ( ,god h be5 ne$$ to ransom man if he 7 n ( incomp>able value8 ,"o ( ! dreams t at ?is "t occupi$ ,isaac's m9d 0 t ( und]tak+ a pilgrimage to ,rome4 ,he wrote to ,h5ry ,?oreau1 propos+ t !y %\ld g 9 company1 & felt regret :5 8 invitation 0 n accept$4 ,8 notion 0 to "w1 beg1 & travel on foot1 s f> z l& goes1 to ,rome4 ,i "k ( no pleasant]1 bett] way1 bo? = s\l & body1 ?an to make su* a pilgrimage 9 ! old1 middle-age fa%ion2 to suff] hung]1 /orm1 cold1 heat--all t c affect ! body ( fle%4 ,if we receive h>d usage1 s mu* ! bett] w x be = u4 ,:y ?ump "o's own fle% "h8 ,let x be done = u by o!rs1 our s\l1 mean:ile1 look+ at high] objects4 4 4 4 ,i feel t ,i h ! /uff to d x 9 me4 ,i w\ld love to "w & beg my way to ,rome if x co/ me t5 or fifte5 ye>s ( my life4 ,?oreau repli$ to ?is proposal t su* a t\r _h be5 "o ( 8 own e>ly dreams1 b t he _h outliv$ x4 ,he _h n[ retir$ f all ext]nal activity 9 disgu/1 & 8 life 0 m ,brahm9ical1 ,artesian-well1 ,inn]-,temple l4 ,s ! s*eme1 :i* _h secur$ ,bi%op ,mc,closkey's approbation1 al?\gh he _h =cibly repres5t$ to "y ,heck] t to g absolutely de/itute ( money1 & dep5d5t = all ?+s ^u alms1 w\ld be impossible1 0 pres5tly %elv$4 ,x 0 b "o ( ! div]sions ) :i* c]ta9 s\ls1 n yet enlight5$ z to _! true c\rse1 nor arriv$ at ! ab&onm5t ( !mselves to ,div9e ,provid5ce1 are amus$4 ,_! inactivity seems idl5ess to !m1 & !y mi/ake ! re/less impulse :i* bids !m be up & do+ = ! voice ( consci5ce or ! inspiration ( heav5ly wisdom2 b x is nei!r4 ,sometimes x is a sup]fluity ( natural en]gy seek+ an outlet2 sometimes x is ! result ( ! /ra9 plac$ ^u nature by a v p[]ful influx ( grace4 ,! infusion ( p[] f above is (t5 greatly 9 excess ( ! light necess>y = guidance 9 its use4 ,?is la/ r>ely comes entirely f ! inn] t\* ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,9 ! lives ( ! ,fa!rs ( ! ,des]t we read ( a c]ta9 "y bro!r1 ,ptolemy1 :o w5t a/ray f s\nd spirituality4 ,:5 admoni%$ he ass]t$ t he ne$ le>n ! spiritual life f none save ! ,holy ,gho/1 ( ^: inspirations any man ( good w c\ld be c]ta94 ,he 0 told by ! old monks t ! inspiration ( ! ,holy ,gho/ & ! und]/&+ ( ! same are two di/9ct ?+s1 & t ?is und]/&+ is disclos$ only to him ^: w has be5 purifi$ by ! practice ( ob$i5ce & humility4 ,9 tru?1 x is r>ely t ! inn] voice ( ,god does n call = an ext]nal int]pret]1 :i*1 if x does no m ?an furni% a div9ely au?oriz$ te/ & crit]ion1 is none ! less necess>y4 ,moreov]1 ! inn] voice seldom provides ways & means = its own purposes4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ev] a /r5u\s def5d] ( ?is inn] & out] unity ( ! ,div9e guidance1 & 8 vocation 0 an illu/ration ( x4 ,h[ev] ma/]ful ! inn] voice ( ,god :i* call$ him away f ! _w1 he 0 helpless till he he>d its tones h>moniz$ by ! c\nsel ( ,bi%op ,mc,closkey4 ,:5 he f\nd t ev5 ) ?is back+ secur$1 ! ext]nal ob/acles to 8 plan prov$ inv9cible1 he 0 once m nonpluss$4 ,if n ?is1 :at8 he asks himself4 ,i feel deeply & /rongly t ! circle ( family happ9ess is n suffici5t = my nature1 b :at ,i c pr(itably d outside ( ?is ,i h n ! ability to say4 ,t our real wi%es are pres5tim5ts ( our capabilities is a v true prov]b1 no d\bt2 b are we n mo/ ignorant ( :at ^! are8 ,x seems z ?\gh we are all unconsci\sly educat$ = unkn[n ends & purposes4 ,i look ^u myself z belong+ to t class ( decid$ly un=tunate be+s :o h no m>k$ tal5t = any p>ticul> pursuit4 ,! words tal5t1 g5ius1 h = me no application :atev]4 ,i /& on ! conf9es ( bo? worlds1 n feel+ ! necessity nor hav+ ! true valor to decide = ei!r sph]e4 ,o heav56 :y 0 ?is deep1 ev]-burn+ life giv5 me1 unless x be t ,i might be sl[ly & pa9fully consum$ by x8 ,all greatness is 9 ! actor1 n 9 ! act4 ,he :om ,god has bless$ ) an end 9 life1 c e>ne/ly labor to accompli% t end4 ,b alas = t poor mortal ^: exi/5ce only s]ves to fill up space 9 ! _w6 ,h[ excruciat+ to him to be consci\s ( ?is6 ,o ,prome!us6 ,simply to be :at ,god w\ld h u1 is to be great] ?an to h ! applause ( ! :ole _w o!rwise4 ,all su* /atem5ts z ?is are necess>ily "o-sid$4 ,because !re are always good & virtu\s m5 9 ! _w ^: approbation is t ( ,god4 ,!re is an in/9ct 9 man :i* draws him to dang]1 z 9 battle-fields2 z !re is also 9 ! fly1 draw+ x to ! flame ( light4 ,x is ! desire ( ! _s )91 seek+ = release4 ,augu/ #bj1 #ahdd4--,sc>ce d ,i "k :at to say ( myself4 ,if ,i accuse myself by ! light giv5 me1 x w\ld lead me to leave all ar\nd me4 ,my consci5ce ?us accuses me4 ,& 9 p>tak+ ( worldly ?+s & go+ into ! company ar\nd me1 my int]ior self has no pleasure1 & ,i feel aft]w>ds t ! labor & "t h be5 missp5t4 ,h[ to live a life :i* %all be con=mable to ! life wl?9 & n sep>ate f ! p]sons & circum/ances ar\nd me1 ,i _c conceive4 ,i am n[ l "o :o ta/es a little ( ?is & !n a little ( t di%1 :ile 8 "t is wa/$ & 8 m9d di/ract$ f t pure enjoym5t :i* is a =eta/e ( ! bliss ( ! angels4 ,i feel my primitive in/9cts & unvitiat$ ta/es daily becom+ m s5sible to inspirations f above1 f ! invisible4 ,! ideal _w1 ! s\l _w1 ! k+dom ( heav5 )91 ,i feel z if ,i 7 m a fri5d & citiz5 ( ,o ,"l6 my he>t w\ld break =? 9 praise ( ! ri*es ( ! life giv5 )96 ,x seems t 9 ?is t we enjoy all1 "k all1 & possess all4 ,if we h ,!e1 ,o ,"l6 if ,?\ ha/ tak5 up ,?y dwell+ 9 u1 we enjoy heav5 )9 & p>adise )\t6 ,augu/ #ba1 #ahdd4 ,! object ( education %\ld be to place ea* individual m9d 9 vital union ) ! ,"o ,univ]sal ,educator4 4 4 4 ,! only pleasure = man is 8 union ) a priori pr9ciples4 ,augu/ #bc1 #ahdd4--;,if ! animal passions are indulg$1 ( c\rse y mu/ pay ! co/4 ,if y get a l>ge family ( *ildr5 ab\t y1 & please y\r animal appetites ) all sorts ( luxury1 & indulge y\r pride 9 all ! fooli% fa%ions ( %[1 d n wond] t x co/ all y\r "t to uphold su* an exp5sive life4 ,?is is necess>y1 unless y *eat "s "o else out ( ! h>d-e>n$ value ( 8 labor4 ,i _c conceive h[ a ,*ri/ian1 "u ! pres5t arrangem5ts1 c become weal?y )\t violat+ repeat$ly ! precepts ( 8 religion4 4 4 4 ,:]e %all we f9d ,god8 ,)94 ,h[ %all we he> ! voices ( angels8 ,li/5 ) ! inw>d e>4 ,:5 are we ) ,god8 ,:5 we are no m ) ourselves4 ,:5 d we he> ! music ( heav58 ,:5 we are entirely sil5t4 ,:at is ! effect ( s98 ,confusion4 ,:]e does ,god dwell8 ,9 sil5ce4 ,:o loves ,god8 ,he :o kn[s no?+ & loves no?+ ( himself4 ,:at is pray]8 ,! brea? ( sil5ce4 ,:at is love8 ,! motion ( ! pure w4 ,:at is light8 ,! %ad[ ( love4 ,:at is =ce8 ,! p[] ( love4 ,:]e does ,god dwell8 ,:]e !re is peace4 ,:o is mo/ l ,god8 ,he :o kn[s he is ! lea/ l ,him4 ,:at is ! inn]mo/ ( all8 ,/illness4 ,:o is ! pure/8 ,he :o is mo/ beyond temptation4 ,:at is ! p]sonality ( man8 ,! absolute negation ( ,god4 ,:at is ,god8 ,! absolute affirmation 9 man4 ,:at is x to "k8 ,x is to be ignorant4 ,:at %\ld we desire8 ,n to desire4 ,:at is ! mo/ positive answ]8 ,sil5ce4 ,:at is ! true/8 ,t :i* _c be prov54 ,augu/ #be1 #ahdd4--;,9 sil5ce1 suff]+ )\t murmur+4 ,an et]nal ?ir/1 endur+ )\t be+ qu5*$4 ,inf9ite long+s )\t be+ met4 ,he>t ev] burn+1 nev] refre%$4 ,void )9 & my/]y all ar\nd4 ,ev] escap+ t :i* we w\ld rea*4 ,tortur$ incessantly )\t relief4 ,alone--b]eft ( ,god1 angels1 m5--all4 ,hopes gone1 fe>s vani%$1 & love dead )94 ,^!1 & m ?an ^!1 mu/ man suff]4 ,augu/ #bh1 #ahdd4--;,is x n because ,i h be5 too mu* engag$ 9 read+ & paid too little att5tion to ! c5tre t ,i h lo/ myself1 z x 78 ,my position "h di/racts my att5tion & ,i lose ! delight1 intimate k1 & sweet consci\sness ( my int]ior life4 ,h[ c ?is be rem$i$8 ,i am con/antly call$ ( to matt]s 9 :i* ,i h no reli%2 & if ,i retreat = a %ort "t1 !y re/ on me l a load1 s t ,i _c call myself free at any mom5t4 ,i see ! case z x /&s1 & feel ,i am los+ my int]ior life f ! false position 9 :i* ,i am plac$4 ,! human ties & ! mat]ial conditions 9 :i* ,i am %\ld unque/ionably be sacrific$ to ! div9e int]ior relation to ! ,"o1 ! ,love-,_s1 :i*1 alas6 ,i h s s5sibly felt4 ,c a man live 9 ! _w & foll[ ,*ri/8 ,i "k n2 b1 z = me1 ,i f9d x impossible4 ,i feel m & m ! necessity ( leav+ ! society & ! di/ract+ c>es ( a city bus9ess = a sil5t & peaceful retreat1 to ! end t ,i may re/ore ! life ,i fe> ,i am los+4 ,our natural int]e/s %\ld be subject to our human ties2 our human ties to our spiritual relations2 & :o is he :o br+s all ^! into div9e h>mony8 ,h[ %all ,i make ! sacrifice :i* %all accompli% ! sole end ,i h1 & %\ld h1 9 view8 ,?rice h ,i left home = ?is purpose1 & ea* "t h return$ unavoidably s1 at lea/1 x seems to me4 ,once m1 ,i tru/1 w prove a p]man5t & immovable trial4 ,to "s1 a mo/ /rik+ incid5tal pro( ( 8 inaptitude = ! ord9>y layman's life1 is f\nd 9 ! subjo9$ extract f ! memor&a4 ,speak+ ( ?is p]iod1 ,fa!r ,heck] said3 ,"s "t aft] my reception into ! ,*ur*1 ,i w5t to ,bi%op ,mc,closkey & told him ,i _h scruples aga9/ r5t+ a seat 9 ! ,ca!dral 9 ,mott ,/reet4 ',if ,i d1' ,i said1 ',i %all feel sore at ! ?\ght t ,i h set ap>t = me 9 ! h\se ( ,god a seat :i* a poor man _c use4' ,i told him t = ?is reason ,i _h knelt d[n ne> ! doorway1 among ! cr[d ( transi5t poor p4 ,oh1 h[ he eas$ my _s by sympa?iz+ ) my s5tim5t1 & satisfi$ me by decl>+ t ! r5t+ ( pews 0 only f necessity1 & he wi%$ we c\ld get along )\t x4 ,8 relations ) "s ( 8 =m] fri5ds at ,brook ,f>m /ill cont9u$1 ?\gh 9 a some:at att5uat$ condition4 ,f a long & appreciative lett] s5t him by ,burrill ,curtis1 we make an extract1 foll[$ by ,isaac's comm5ts on x3 ,octob] #ac1 #ahdd4--,y\r prep>$ness = any fate has be5 "o ( ! *ief attractions ( y\r "* to me1 = ,i believe x is deep] ?an a m]e /ate ( m9d4 ,b1 = all t1 y\r re/lessness is upp]mo/ j n[2 n z a contradictory elem5t1 = x is n2 b z a discov]+ p[]4 ,isaac's j\rnal1 j at ?is "t1 0 *iefly devot$ to :at he calls ! _m small]1 v5ial s9s :i* beset my pa? & keep me d[n to e>?4 ,also to prescribe su* rem$ies z may seem to me be/ = ^! ?orns 9 ! fle%4 ,on ,octob] #bf he notes t he has receiv$ ! lett] j quot$1 & rem>ks3 ,x %[$ m reg>d = me ?an ,i ?\ght he _h4 ,! tru? is1 ,i d n feel myself wor?y to be ! fri5d ( any "o1 & w\ld pass my life 9 be+ a fri5d to all1 )\t recogniz+ _! fri5d%ip t[>ds me4 ,to-day ,i h felt m humanly t5d] ?an ev]4 ,! pa/ has come up be=e me ) mu* emotion4 ----- has be5 mu* 9 my ?\ghts4 ,i h exp]i5c$ ^? unnatural feel+s :i* ,i h felt h]et(ore4 ,i feel t ! _s _w is ne> & glimm]+ all ar\nd me4 ,! n]v\s %ocks ,i h be5 subject to1 b :i* ,i h n exp]i5c$ = "s "t back1 recurr$ ?is ev5+4 ,i am kn[n to spirits1 or else ,i appreh5d !m4 ,he _h tak5 up ,lat9 & ,greek aga91 & seems to h ent]$ a class ( "y m5 "u ! tutor%ip ( a ,mr4 ,ow54 ,! entry j quot$ f goes on z foll[s3 ,i d n devote z mu* "t to /udy z ,i %\ld1 or z ,i might4 ,i fe> ,i %all nev] make any?+ ( my /udies4 ,i d n endeavor ) all my might4 ,?is /udy has ?r[n me into ano!r sph]e4 ,i l x n4 ,i feel appreh5sive ( some?+1 ( some:at4 ,t5 ye>s f n[ w fix my de/9y1 if ,i h any4 ,mu* good z he cont9u$ to receive f ! sacram5t ( p5ance1 he f\nd a n altoge!r usual difficulty 9 prep>+ = x4 ,p]haps x 0 9 ! c\nsel he receiv$ !re t he got c\rage to gird himself = 8 r5ew$ attack ^u ! languages1 = 8 del9qu5cies 9 ?is respect h ! air ( be+ ! mo/ tangible ( ! matt]s on 8 consci5ce4 ,i mu/ prep>e = confession ?is week1 he writes on ,novemb] #e1 #ahdd4 ,oh6 w\ld t ,i c\ld accuse myself z ,i %\ld4 ,man is n :at he %\ld be s long z he is n an angel4 ,oh1 de> ,god6 give me ,?y aid1 & help me 9 my weaknesses4 ,:at s9s c ,i accuse myself ( n[8 ,fir/--oh1 ,love6 give me light to accuse myself--to see my s9s4 ,?is is my greate/ s92 t ,i _c accuse myself & am s wick$4 ,ea* day ,i omit a hundr$ duties t ,i %\ld n4 ,"l1 give me ,?y ,_s1 t ,i may be humble1 meek1 & sweet 9 all my walk & conv]sation4 ,fill my he>t ) ,?y love4 ,9 a little :ile he f\nd himself able to /udy m dilig5tly1 & ?\gh he cont9ually regrets ! inroad ?is makes ^u 8 int]ior life1 he seems n only to h p]sev]$1 b to h tak5 consid]able int]e/ & an active "p 9 ! debates got up at regul> int]vals by ! class he _h jo9$4 ,he notes t he has s]i\s d\bts :e!r x w be wise = him to express 8 full m9d on "s ( ! subjects br\ght up4 ,8 fell[-pupils 7 all ,prote/ants1 & "s ( !m well-in=m$ & tal5t$ "y m54 ,8 views w\ld be new to !m1 & s w\ld _m ( 8 au?orities = 8 /atem5ts ( fact1 & he ?\ght x n unlikely t a commotion might sometimes be rais$ :i* w\ld n at all comm5d itself to ! tea*] ( ! in/itution4 ,he conclud$1 h[ev]1 to ?r[ prud5ce to ! w9ds1 & on controv]t$ po9ts to express 8 s5tim5ts freely & frankly4 ,!re 7 "s animat$ discussions1 no d\bt4 ,he 0 endeavor+ at ?is "t to retr5* 8 h\rs ( sleep to ! n>r[e/ dim5sions compatible ) heal?1 & f\nd x1 we may note1 ! mo/ difficult ( 8 au/]ities4 ,9 o!r respects !y rema9$ sev]e1 z ?is entry may witness3 ,novemb] #bg1 #ahdd4--;,i am sorely p]plex$ :at to eat4 ,nuts1 apples1 & bread seem n a diet :olly suitable1 & :at to add ,i "k n4 ,potatoes are n good2 ,i ?9k !y 7 ! cause ( my illness la/ week4 ,i d n wi% to p>take ( any?+ t comes ev5 remotely f an animal4 ,cook+1 also1 ,i wi%1 z f> z possible1 to disp5se )4 ,i w\ld ,i c\ld disp5se ) ! :ole dige/ive app>atus6 ,*eese1 butt]1 eggs1 milk1 are = _m reasons n a "p ( my diet4 ,! balance ( ?is f\r? volume ( 8 di>y1 begun ,septemb] #i1 #ahdd1 & end$ ,janu>y #b1 #ahde1 is ma9ly occupi$ ) addresses to 8 gu>dian angel4 ,he 01 z ^? :o knew him w rememb]1 always extremely dev\t to ! angelic *oirs4 ,on 8 bir?day ?is ye> he writes z foll[s3 ,decemb] #ah1 #ahdd4--,let me look back = a few mom5ts & see :]e ,i /ood la/ ye> ?is "t 7an incompreh5sible l5g?71 & :]e ,i n[ /&4 ,!n my pa? 0 dim1 unfix$1 unsettl$4 ,!n ,i 0 n s dis5tangl$ f ! body & its desires z1 ,i hope 9 ,god1 ,i n[ am4 ,9 all ,i feel a consci\sness t s9ce !n ,i h spiritually gr[n--be5 trans=m$4 ,= my pres5t ,i _c speak4 ,= my future1 x seems ,i d>e n speak4 ,dreams ( ! future6 ,exalt$ visions6 ,beautiful1 unspeakable hopes6 ,deep1 in>ticulate long+s t fill ! consci\s s\l6 ,ah6 s sweet1 s h>moni\s1 s delightful1 l an angel1 l ! bride ( ! pure & bright s\l adorn$ = ! nuptials1 d ,i see ! future beckon+ me ) a cle>1 transp>5t smile onw>d to h] pres5ce4 ',ah6' my s\l w\ld say1 'we w meet1 = ,i am 9 ?y pres5ce1 & fai?ful 9 ,god may heav5 grant me to be4' ,! beauty1 ! grace1 ! love1 ! sweetness t attract me1 are beyond all comp>ison4 ,ah6 ?\ et]nal1 ev]-bloom+ virg91 ! ,future1 %all ,i ev] embrace !e8 ,%all ,i ev] see !e ne>] to my he>t8 ,i look at myself & ,i am b[$ d[n l[ 9 grief2 b :5 ,i ca/ my eyes up to !e1 9 see+ !e ,i am lo/4 ,! grace & beauty ,i see 9 !e passes into my s\l1 & ,i am all t ?\ art4 ,i am !n w$d$ to !e1 & ,i w\ld t x 7 an et]nal union4 ,b ah6 my eyes1 :5 turn$ ^u myself1 lose all sight ( !e1 & meet no?+ b my own spots & blemi%es4 ,h[ can/ ?\ love me8 ,i say2 & = ?y pure love ,i am melt$ into !e z "o4 ,he cont9ues3 ,"l1 let me speak ( my _m & griev\s s9s2 b oh6 :5 ,i w\ld d s1 my m\? speaks no?+ =? b ,?y praises4 ,i w\ld (f] my :ole s\l afre% to all t is1 = ! sake ( ! love ( ,god4 4 4 4 ,"l1 ,i am ,?9e1 = ,?\ do/ tea* me ?is be ,?y unutt]able1 ev]-pres5t love4 ,janu>y #c4--,la/ ,saturday my confessor 0 n at home :5 ,i call$4 ,i h wait$ until ?is morn+1 ! ,saturday foll[+4 ,x is sad to me to wait to p>take ( ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t4 ,h[ mu* joy1 love1 & sweetness x is to ! s\l6 ,i feel my s\l to gl[ aga9 ) r5ew$ love :5 ,i h p>tak5 ( ! bless$ communion ( ,*ri/4 ,?is is my spiritual food4 ,x is ! goodness1 m]cy1 & love ( ,god :i* keeps me f sadness4 ,,*apt] ,,xx ,,f ,,new ,,york ,,to ,,/4 ,,trond ,,isaac ,,heck]',s zeal = social re=m l5t =ce to 8 /rictly p]sonal crav+s = a m religi\s life2 he long$ = wid] scope ?an individual ef=t c\ld possibly be/[1 & also = a sup]natural po9t ( vantage4 ,if we w\ld d humanity any good1 he writes 9 8 di>y :ile consid]+ 8 vocation1 we mu/ act f gr\nds high] ?an humanity2 our /&po9t mu/ be above ! race1 o!rwise h[ c we act ^u humanity8 ,he also speaks ( ! fundam5tal necessity ( an impulse ( div9e love actuat+ ! re=m] ( social evils4 ,he addresses himself ?us3 ,if ?\ w\ld/ move ! race to great] good & high] virtue1 lose ?yself 9 ! ,univ]sal4 ,be s great z to give ?yself to some?+ nobl] ?an ?yself if ?\ w\ld/ be ennobl$1 immortaliz$4 ,9 _m pages ( ! la/ two volumes ( 8 di>y ^! notes ( sympa!tic love = 8 fell[-m5 are m+l$ ) ye>n+s = solitude4 ,?is book1 he writes on ! la/ page ( "o ( !m1 has answ]$ "s little purpose2 = :5 ,i want$ to speak to "s "o & yet 0 alone1 x co/ me no labor to scribble 9 x4 ,x w\ld give me great pleasure if ,i _h a fri5d :o w\ld ex*ange su* ?\ghts ) me4 ,he 0 soon to ent] into t spiritual h]itage :i* among its o!r treasures be/[s ! beatitude ( ! sage1 ,bless$ is ! man :o ha? f\nd a true fri5d4 ,little by little a di/9ctly p5it5tial mood came ov] him1 & x occupies ne>ly ! :ole ( ! la/ volume ( ! di>y ) ! mo/ unres]v$ expressions ( grief = s91 or1 r1 = a /ate ( s9fulness1 s9ce ! specific m5tion ( s9s is ne>ly altoge!r want+4 ,we meet ) page aft] page ( self-accusation 9 g5]al t]ms3 ,i am 9 want ( great] love = ^? ar\nd me2 ,i p]=m my spiritual duties too neglig5tly2 too little ( my "t is devot$ to spiritual ex]cises4 ,i feel all ov] sick ) s96 ,"h is my difficulty1 ,o ,"l1 & d ,?\ direct me3 ,i am always 9 d\bt1 :5 ,i d n ?9k ( ,!e alone1 t ,i am s9n+ & t my "t is missp5t4 ,8 prote/ations ( sorr[ are extremely f]v5t & v num]\s2 & z ! ,l5t ( #ahde approa*$ he records 8 purpose ( re/rict+ himself to "o meal a day4 ,z he nev] ate meat1 nor any product ( animal life1 & drank only wat]1 8 nuts1 bread1 & apples once a day mu/ h be5 8 diet all ?r\gh ! p5it5tial season4 ,! read] w rememb] e9 h]rli*es ,ess5 at ,concord3 bread1 maple-sug>1 & apples4 ,9 ! middle ( ,febru>y he op5$ 8 m9d m fully to ,bi%op ,mc,closkey1 :om he cont9ually calls 8 spiritual director4 ,he _h n[ to reveal ! discov]ies ( holy p5ance1 & to add to 8 o!r motives = leav+ ! _w ! dread ( fall+ into mortal s94 ,he _h1 he tells u1 misgiv+s z to :e!r he 0 ambiti\s or n4 ,"o ( 8 spiritual /ates he ?us alludes to3 ,i w ask my confessor h[ x is--if x is s ) o!rs1 t !y feel no s5se ( ?+s1 no joy1 no reality1 no emotion1 no impulse1 no?+ positive )9 or ar\nd1 b only ! consci\sness ( ! ne$ ( a t]rible atonem5t4 ,?is is accompani$ by frantic pray]s to ,god1 invocations ( ! ,bless$ ,virg91 ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi & o!r sa9ts4 ,& he says t he has be5 told t he is scrupul\s1 & compla9s t at confession he c only accuse himself 9 g5]al t]ms4 ,complete ab&onm5t to ! div9e w seems to h be5 ! outcome ( a season ( mu* di/ress ( s\l1 & bodily mortification4 ,on ,april #b he writes3 ,! la/ "t ,i saw my director he spoke to me conc]n+ ! sacr$ m9i/ry1 & ?is is a subject ,i feel an unspeakable difficulty ab\t4 ,i told him t ,i desir$ to place myself :olly 9 8 h&s & %\ld d :atev] he direct$4 ,i d n wi% to be any m ?an no?+4 ,i give myself up4 ,s f> ! ,"l seems to be ) me1 & ,i hope t ,he w n =sake me 9 ! future4 ,z might h be5 anticipat$1 ,bi%op ,mc,closkey's advice 0 wise4 ,pla9ly1 8 own hope 0 t "y ,heck] %\ld ent] ! secul> prie/hood1 b !re is no evid5ce 9 ! num]\s ref]5ces to ! matt] 9 ! di>y1 t ?is caus$ him to d m ?an make 8 "y fri5d fully acqua9t$ ) t /ate ( life4 ,he _h him call at ! newly-op5$ diocesan sem9>y at ,=dham & become acqua9t$ ) ! pr(essors4 ,bi%op ,hughes1 :om he also consult$1 urg$ him to g to ,/4 ,sulpice 9 ,p>is1 & to ! ,propag&a 9 ,rome1 & make 8 /udies = ! secul> prie/hood4 ,b !y fail$ to w9 him to _! op9ion1 & 7 too enlight5$ to seek to influ5ce him except by argum5t4 ,fa!r ,heck] ev] held ! v highe/ views on ! dignity ( ! prie/hood1 consid]+ its vocation second to none4 ,b :ile he 0 irresi/ibly incl9$ to a /ate ( retirem5t q incompatible ) ! duties ( ! secul> prie/hood 9 ,am]ica1 he also felt ! mo/ urg5t ne$ ( con/ant advice & companion%ip = guidance 9 8 int]ior life4 ,^! seem+ly contradictory requirem5ts he hop$ to f9d unit$ 9 a religi\s community1 & ,bi%op ,mc,closkey emphatically assur$ him t 8 anticipations w\ld n be disappo9t$4 ,9 addition to ?is1 ,isaac ,heck] _h at lea/ "s premonitions ( an apo/olic vocation call+ = a wid] range ( activity ?an c be usually compass$ by ! diocesan cl]gy4 ,b we h (t5 he>d him say t ! imm$iate impulse :i* induc$ 8 application to be made a ,r$emptori/ 0 ne$ ( intimate & c>eful spiritual guidance4 ,8 director !re=e became satisfi$ t he %\ld become a religi\s1 & turn$ 8 att5tion to ! ,society ( ,jesus1 giv+ him ! lives ( ,/4 ,ignatius & ,/4 ,francis ,xavi] to read1 &1 d\btless1 answ]$ 8 inquiries ab\t t ord]4 ,b1 he said 9 aft] ye>s1 ,i _h no vocation to tea* "y boys & felt unfitt$ = a /ud5t's life2 add$ to ?is 0 ! c]ta9ty ( ! po/ponem5t ( any public activity on 8 "p = _m ye>s if he became a ,jesuit4 ,aft] m5tion+ t he _h read ! life ( ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]1 he says t an acqua9tance _h writt5 him t a ,g]man prie/1 liv+ 9 ,?ird ,/reet1 want$ to see him4 ,?is 0 "o ( ! ,r$emptori/ ,fa!rs :o 7 newly e/abli%$ 9 ! city4 ,?is prie/1 ^: "n is n giv51 und]took to assume direction ( ,isaac1 & 0 v urg5t ) him to make a spiritual retreat ) a view to decid+ 8 vocation4 ,he is a v zeal\s p]son--too mu* s x seems to me1 is ! comm5t 9 ! di>y1 & ! answ] 0 a refusal4 ,b :at he saw 9 ! community pleas$ & attract$ ,isaac1 = ev]y?+ 0 poor & pla91 & !re 0 an air ( solitude4 ,h[ev]1 he w\ld by no means *ange 8 spiritual advis]1 writ+1 ,i /rive to foll[ my spiritual director or else ,i %\ld be fe>ful ( my /ate4 ,all my difficulties1 s9s1 & temptations ,i make him acqua9t$ )4 4 4 4 ,?\gh ! _w has no p>ticul> hold ^u me1 ,i give x up once & = all4 ,x gives me pa9 to feel my p]fect want ( fai? 9 myself z be+ 9 any way useful4 ,meantime1 on ,tr9ity ,sunday1 he _h be5 confirm$ ) 8 bro!r ,george1 ^: entrance into ! ,*ur* is "h fir/ indicat$2 no o!r memb] ( ! family became a ,ca?olic4 ,isaac took ! additional "n ( ,?omas on receiv+ ?is sacram5t1 9 honor ( ,/4 ,?omas ,aqu9as4 ,aga9 he writes3 ,i h tri$ to /udy to-day1 b ,i _c4 ,is x n ! bus9ess ( man to save 8 own s\l1 & ?is be=e all ?+s8 ,does ! /udy ( ,greek & ,lat9 help a s\l t[>ds its salvation8 ,is x n q a diff]5t ?+ f grace8 ,sometimes ,i feel /rongly incl9$ to set aside all /udy1 all read+1 z sup]ficial & n s important z contemplation & sil5ce4 ,! "t 0 com+ :5 ! ,holy ,_s w\ld d ?is 9 spite ( him & 9 a way ! rev]se ( pleasant4 ,meantime he work$ away at 8 books & att5d$ 8 classes at ,cornelius ,in/itute1 :i* 0 ! "n ( ! private s*ool he _h be5 att5d+1 till ,july #af1 ! comm5cem5t day4 ,9 record+ 8 impressions ( ! s*ool & ! acqua9tances !re made1 he says t ) "o possible exception ! "y m5 7 ( little int]e/ to him1 lack+ e>ne/ness ( "*4 ,he does n "n ! tea*]s or give ! location ( ! s*ool4 ,yet he says 8 exp]i5ce !re _h be5 useful & *a/5$ my hopes4 ,i h se5 by means ( x mu* m cle>ly into ! work+s ( ,prote/antism1 its want ( deep spirituality1 its sup]ficiality1 & its inevitable t5d5cy to no-religion4 ,z may be suppos$1 8 visits to ,?ird ,/reet became frequ5t1 & 8 acqua9tance ) ! ,fa!rs bett] e/abli%$4 ,?is 0 especially true ) reg>d to ,fa!r ,rumpl]1 :o 0 rector ( ! h\se1 a le>n$ & able man & "o ( mature spirituality4 ,he 0 a ,g]man born & br$1 ) ! h>d ideas ( discipl9e peculi> to a class ( 8 c\ntrym5 ?\gh =eign to ! g5u9e ,g]man "*4 ,he impress$ "y ,heck] z a s$ate man1 wise & firm4 ,! fri5d%ip !n begun 0 ma9ta9$ until ,fa!r ,rumpl] 0 depriv$ ( 8 reason by an attack ( acute mania sev]al ye>s lat]4 ,b m ?an ! fri5d%ip ( ,rumpl]1 z f> z imm$iate results 7 conc]n$1 0 ! provid5tial circum/ance ( two o!r "y ,am]icans hav+ appli$ to jo9 ! ,r$emptori/s4 ,to ,isaac ?is 0 a /imulant ( no ord9>y p[]4 ,l himself1 !y 7 conv]ts & v f]v5t ones2 b1 unlike him1 !y _h come into ! ,*ur* f ,episcopalianism4 ,cl>5ce ,a4 ,walwor?1 son ( ! ,*ancellor ( ! ,/ate ( ,new ,york1 0 a graduate ( ,union ,college4 ,he /udi$ law 9 ,albany & practis$ 8 pr(ession = a %ort "t1 b f9ally und]took ! m9i/ry4 ,aft] ?ree ye>s 9 ! ,episcopal sem9>y he became a ,ca?olic4 ,^? :o "k him n[ c see ! tall & graceful y\?1 pleas+ & k9dly1 ) ! face & voice & s\l ( an orator2 = ! =ce & *>m ( y\? h n be5 weak5$ 9 receiv+ ! dignity ( old age4 ,james ,a4 ,mc,master 0 ( ,p5nsylvania ,scot*-,iri% p>5tage4 ,8 "n is famili> to our read]s z editor ( ! ,freeman's ,j\rnal4 ,^? qualities ( aggressive zeal :i* made ,mc,master s well kn[n to ,ca?olics ( our day 7 n :olly undevelop$ 9 ! tall1 angul> y\?1 /ill a cate*um51 & intoxicat$ ) ! new w9e ( ,ca?olic f]vor4 ,"y ,mr4 ,walwor? _h be5 made a ,ca?olic b a %ort "t be=e1 & ,mc,master 0 receiv$ into ! ,*ur* by ! ,r$emptori/s 9 ,?ird ,/reet1 8 two "y fri5ds be+ pres5t4 ,:ile he 0 kneel+ at ! alt>1 c&le 9 h&1 pi\sly read+ 8 pr(ession ( fai? to ,fa!r ,rumpl]1 he accid5tally set fire to ,fa!r ,ts*5h5s' hair1 "o ( ! fa!rs assi/+ at ! c]emony4 ,walk+ toge!r aft]w>ds 9 ! little g>d5 ( ! conv5t1 ,fa!r ,rumpl] said to him3 ,mr4 ,mc,master1 y beg9 well--sett+ fire to a prie/4 ,oh1 answ]$ he1 if ,i don't set fire to some?+ m ?an t x w be a pity4 ,^! new fri5ds ( ,isaac _h appli$ to ent] ! ,r$emptori/ novitiate & !y _h be5 accept$4 ,?is meant a voyage to ,europe1 = ! congregation _h n yet e/abli%$ a novitiate 9 ,am]ica4 ,"o ,friday1 !n1 dur+ ! la/ days ( ,july--! exact date we h n be5 able to discov]--,isaac ,heck] 0 in=m$ by ,fa!r ,rumpl] t ,walwor? & ,mc,master w\ld sail = ,belgium ! ev5+ ( ! next day4 ,i decid$ to jo9 !m1 he said :5 relat+ ! circum/ances aft]w>ds4 ,fa!r ,rumpl] 0 favorable1 b puzzl$4 ,& ,i mu/ fir/ pres5t myself to ! ,prov9cial1 ,fa!r de ,held1 :o 0 9 ,baltimore4 ,i arriv$ 9 ,baltimore at f\r o'clock 9 ! morn+ on ,saturday1 travell+ all night4 ,fa!r de ,held look$ at me1 z ,i pres5t$ myself1 & said t he mu/ take "t to consid]4 ,i expla9$ ab\t ! dep>ture ( ! o!rs t day4 ,he ord]$ ,bro!r ,mi*ael to get me a b[l ( c(fee f ! kit*51 & me to he> 8 ,mass4 ,i he>d ! ,mass & aft] t he exam9$ me a little--ask$ me to read out ( ! ,foll[+ ( ,*ri/ 9 ,lat91 :i* ,i did4 ,he gave me my acceptance1 & ,i ru%$ back to ,new ,york by ! half-pa/ eight o'clock morn+ tra94 ,george _h pack$ my trunk1 & ,i sail$ t day ) ! o!rs4 ,! picturesqu5ess ( ! gr\p 0 c]ta9ly n less5$ by ! accession ( ,isaac ,heck]1 ^: leap to & f ,baltimore1 ?\gh h>dly to be expect$ f a contemplative1 0 9 accord ) ! sudd5 en]gy ( 8 nature4 ,"o :o saw him at ! "t says t he _h ! g5]al make-up ( a transc5d5tali/1 n except+ 8 long hair fl[+ d[n on 8 neck4 ,! %ip 0 an ,am]ican "o nam$ ! ,argo1 & %e 0 b\nd = ,london4 ,! voyage 0 e way pleasant1 la/+ b tw5ty-five days f l& to l&1 ) bright skies1 quiet sea1 & fair w9ds4 ,_! b]?s 7 9 ! wai/ ( ! %ip1 9 ! second cab91 all ! places 9 ! fir/ cab9 hav+ be5 tak52 ?is pleas$ !m well1 = !y lov$ ! poor man's lot4 ,isaac's passage money 0 paid by 8 bro!rs1 & he 0 suppli$ by !m & 8 "m ) all sorts ( conv5i5ces2 & ^!1 ( c\rse1 he made to conduce to ! com=t ( ! entire p>ty4 ,! l[] & l>g] b]? ( _! little /ate-room 0 occupi$ by ,walwor? & ,mc,master1 & ,isaac took ! upp] & small] "o4 ,none ( !m suff]$ f sea-sickness4 ,! "y pilgrims 7 ov]fl[+ ) happ9ess1 z if !y 7 go+ to ! enjoym5t ( a ri* h]itage1 z1 inde$1 9 a spiritual s5se !y 74 ,x 0 a fir/ voyage to ! ,old ,_w = all ( !m & !y f\nd ev]y?+ int]e/+4 ,!y made fri5ds ) ! crew1 :o 7 ne>ly all ,yankee sailors1 & :o /ruck !m z exactly l !mselves1 except t !y 7 n religi\s2 & !y s\ght ent]ta9m5t ) su* ( ! pass5g]s z 7 cong5ial1 ?\gh 9 ?is ,isaac ,heck] 0 m ready ?an 8 companions4 ,fa!r ,walwor? tells an incid5t *>act]i/ic ( bo? himself & 8 transc5d5tal companion4 ,he 0 admoni%+ "y ,heck] to be m retic5t among ! crew & 0 ask$ :y4 ,y w\ldn't l to kneel d[n & kiss ! deck be=e all ^? sailors1 said ,walwor?4 ,:y n8 0 ! reply4 ,!n d x4 ,& d[n dropp$ ,heck] to ! deck & kiss$ x 9 all simplicity4 ,!y _h _m topics ( int]e/ to occupy _! "t2 ,isaac favor$ su* z 7 philosophical & social1 8 companions 7 absorb$ by ! ,tract>ian movem5t1 its phases ( ?\ght & v>iety ( p]sons1 & all mu/ h _h mu* to tell ( fri5ds & relatives :om !y hop$ soon to see memb]s ( ! ,*ur*4 ,"o night ! h>mony ) _! fell[-pass5g]s 0 ?reat5$ ) rupture4 ,!y 7 mu* annoy$ by a viol5t dispute ab\t ! ,tr9ity c>ri$ on 9 ! adjo9+ cab9 f> into ! night4 ,mc,master f9ally lo/ pati5ce1 sprang out ( b$1 ru%$ among ! disputants1 & smote ! table ) a trem5d\s bl[ & %\t$ ,sil5ce6 ,8 rem$y 0 efficaci\s2 ! !ologians scatt]$ & w5t to b$4 ,!re 0 a m>k$ diff]5ce betwe5 ,isaac & 8 companions 9 controv]sial views4 ,all ?ree us$ _! reason ) ! utmo/ activity1 b he _h travell$ into ! ,*ur* by ! road ( philosophy & !y by t ( hi/ory & ,scripture4 ,_! conv]sation mu/ h be5 ! ex*ange ( intellectual commodities ( v diff]5t k9ds & = t reason exp$it+ a busy comm]ce4 ,!y c\ld pr(it by 8 bold & orig9al views ( pr9ciple & he 0 9 ne$ ( _! idea ( ! ext]nal integrity ( organiz$ religion4 ,!n1 too1 !y _h mu* to say ( ! future1 *iefly by way ( conjecture1 = no memb] ( ! ord] accompani$ !m4 ,no "o 0 sup]ior & no sup]ior 0 ne$$4 ,z to devotional ex]cises ea* suit$ himself1 kneel+ d[n & say+ 8 pray]s night & morn+ & at o!r times1 9 8 own way & words4 ,!re 0 also diff]5ce 9 matt]s ( devotion1 = ,isaac ,heck] _h little or no religi\s tra9+1 & z to ! traditional =ms ( religi\s practice he 0 v backw>d4 ,! o!rs _h long s9ce famili>iz$ !mselves ) all ,ca?olic usages4 ,"y ,walwor? taught "y ,heck] h[ to say ! ros>y & initiat$ him1 d\btless1 into o!r common practices1 :i* he assum$ ) ! simplicity & docility ( ! *ild ( guileless nature t he 04 ,! %ip1 z we h said1 0 b\nd to ,london1 b our p>ty 7 too impati5t to wait till ! end ( ! voyage & left h] at ,portsm\? 9 ! pilot's boat2 ! sea 0 runn+ high1 b s 7 _! spirits1 & al?\gh ! boat 0 toss$ ab\t 9 a way to sc>e a l&sman1 !y gladly w5t a%ore & took ! c>s to ,london4 ,we h be=e u a lett] f ,isaac ,heck] to 8 bro!rs1 dat$ ! #bi? ( ,augu/1 say+ t !y _h be5 9 ,london ?ree days aft] a pleasant voyage1 & express+ deep joy at ne>+ ! place ( retirem5t & pray] = :i* he _h be5 long+4 ,he asks !m to write to ,br[nson & especially to assure 8 "m ( 8 happ9ess4 ,mc,master insi/$ on visit+ ,newman at ,littlemore1 & aft]w>ds gave a gl[+ acc\nt ( 8 visit4 ,he _h be5 receiv$ by ! great man1 :o did n ent] ! ,*ur* till a few mon?s lat]1 ) ! utmo/ k9dness4 ,he f\nd him /&+ 9 8 libr>y1 read+ a book4 ,he ask$ _m que/ions ab\t ! t5d5cy ( m5's m9ds 9 ,am]ica1 & 0 especially int]e/$ 9 ,ar?ur ,c>ey1 ) ^: influ5ce among ,am]ican ,episcopalians & e>ly dea? ! read] has be5 made acqua9t$4 ,!y lodg$ at a dec5t little inn ov] a pa/ry cook's %op & did n g sight-see+ to any ext5t4 ,mc,master's companions did n wait = 8 return f ,ox=d1 b :5 ! packet sail$ = ,antw]p1 :i* 0 ,sunday1 ! #cj? ( ,augu/1 !y w5t d[n to ,folke/one & took passage4 ,!y arriv$ ! foll[+ morn+1 &1 arm$ ) a lett] f ,fa!r ,rumpl] to a ,madame ,m>*&1 a w>m fri5d ( ! congregation1 !y w5t /raight to ! ne>e/ ,*ur* to inquire ! way to h] h\se4 ,x happ5$ to be ! ,jesuit *ur*1 & "o ( ! fa!rs k9dly guid$ !m to ! lady's h\se4 ,%e 0 delight$ to s]ve !m2 gave !m an excell5t d9n]1 &1 aft] !y _h visit$ ,rub5s' great picture1 ! ,desc5t f ! ,cross1 set !m =? on _! j\rney2 b ! yea1 yea & nay1 nay ( ,scripture1 or r jah1 jah1 ne91 ne91 0 _! only conv]sation ) ! good lady1 = al?\gh "y ,walwor? c\ld speak ,fr5* & ,isaac ,g]man1 %e knew no?+ b ,flemi%4 ,di/ances are n great 9 little ,belgium1 & s be=e night !y 7 at ,/4 ,trond1 a little city ab\t ?irty-five miles s\!a/ ( ,antw]p & tw5ty miles f ,liege4 ,"h !y 7 soon jo9$ by ,mr4 ,mc,master1 & _! novitiate began4 ,isaac ,heck] 0 n[ tw5ty-five ye>s & n9e mon?s old4 ,,*apt] ,,xxi ,,bro!r ,,heck] ,,! ,r$emptori/ novitiate at ,/4 ,trond1 z well z ! h\se ( /udies at ,wittem1 ,holl&1 _h be5 e/abli%$ be ! imm$iate disciples ( ,/4 ,clem5t ,h(bau]4 ,t great s]vant ( ,god _h introduc$ ! ,congregation ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem] into ,au/ria & o!r p>ts ( ,g]many sev]al ye>s be=e ! "t ( :i* we write4 ,a sa9t himself1 & ( wond]ful mission>y gifts1 he 0 wor?y ( ! title ( second f\nd] ( ! ord] ( ,/4 ,alphonsus ,liguori4 ,/4 ,clem5t 0 ! son ( a ,moravian peasant1 & 9 e>ly life _h be5 a bak] by trade4 ,/4 ,alphonsus 0 /ill alive :5 ,clem5t1 :ile on a pilgrimage to ,rome1 0 enroll$ !re 9 ! ,r$emptori/ novitiate4 ,?is ev5t 0 auspici\s ( ! future ( ! entire community1 s9ce 8 apo/olate 0 ! means ( propagat+ ! ord] among ! nor!rn nations1 & giv+ to x "s ( its pres5t dom9ant *>act]i/ics ( ,teutonic discipl9e2 :]eas 9 ! l& ( its orig9 x has nev] fully recov]$ f ! disa/]s :i* befell x dur+ ! lifetime ( its f\nd]4 ,9 ,g]many & ! ,l[ ,c\ntries1 on ! o!r h&1 ! *ildr5 ( ,/4 ,alphonsus & ,/4 ,clem5t 71 at ! "t :5 ! ?ree ,am]icans jo9$ !m1 ! mo/ p[]ful prea*]s 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,_! vocation call$ !m to give missions--spiritual ex]cises la/+ f a week to a mon?--to ! fai?ful 9 e "p ( ,ca?olic ,europe1 n except+ ,france4 ,_! fame 0 e/abli%$ z ! =emo/ prea*]s ( p5ance & ( ! ,r$eem]'s love = s9n]s4 ,/4 ,trond 0 ! novitiate ( ! ,belgian ,prov9ce1 :i* embrac$ ,belgium & ,holl& z well z ! newly e/abli%$ conv5ts 9 ,engl& & ,am]ica4 ,! ,prov9cial 0 ,fa!r de ,held1 :om we saw 9 ,baltimore :ile he 0 !re on a t\r ( inspection ( ! ,am]ican h\ses4 ,he 0 an ,au/rian ,g]man1 a man ( noble pres5ce1 matur$ spirituality & an accompli%$ mission>y4 ,fa!r ,heck] knew him well 9 aft] ye>s1 & always c\nt$ him z "o :o und]/ood 8 _s & approv$ 8 aspirations4 ,! conv5t 9 ,/4 ,trond 0 9 a n>r[ /reet ( ! qua9t little city2 s n>r[1 inde$1 t "o almo/ fanci$ t he c\ld t\* bo? walls by /ret*+ out 8 arms4 ,x 0 a solid old /ructure1 built 9 ! fir/ half ( ! fifte5? c5tury by ,/4 ,colette = h] ,poor ,cl>es1 an ample gu>antee ( its con=mity to ! ideas ( religi\s pov]ty4 ,x 0 n ar*itecturally f9e1 b 0 a curi\s & int]e/+ build+4 ,isaac 9 "o ( 8 lett]s home says t ! h\se 0 v roomy1 ) long corridors hav+ cells on ea* side4 ,x abutt$ on a *ur* :i* 0 op5 to ! public & s]v$ by ! fa!rs2 a w9d[ 9 ! conv5t *apel look$ into ! sanctu>y4 ,atta*$ to ! h\se 0 a g>d5 ( ?ree or f\r acres4 ,! c\ntry ar\nd ! t[n is a typical ,flemi% l&scape1 flat1 f]tile1 ?ickly dott$ ) f>m build+s1 & highly cultivat$4 ,! p are :olly ,ca?olic4 ,! t[n is an old "o1 & 9 its "t has _h "s milit>y importance4 ,our "y novices (t5 walk$ ^u ! ramp>ts :i* encircl$ x4 ,9 ! neighborhood are /ructures :i* 7 built be=e ! ,*ri/ian era2 q ne> by 0 "o ( ,caes>'s r\nd t[]s1 z well z ! des]t$ ru9s ( an anci5t city nam$ ,leo4 ,curi\s old *ur*es & mona/]ies might (t5 be se5 by ! novices on _! long walks into ! c\ntry4 ,all ?is antiquity 0 ! m pleas+ to ! ,am]ican novices because 9 _! own l& ! =e/s1 ! riv]s1 & ! ev]la/+ hills are all t repres5t ! di/ant pa/4 ,besides tw5ty novices !re 7 t5 or twelve fa!rs at ,/4 ,trond1 :o ei!r s]v$ ! *ur* or w5t ab\t on missions2 & !re 7 also a numb] ( lay bro!rs4 ,by nationality ! great] portion ( ! novices 7 ,belgians & ,holl&]s1 ! o!rs be+ mo/ly ,g]mans4 ,! language ( ! h\se 0 ,fr5*1 ?\gh ,lat9 0 sometimes us$4 ,( c\rse ?is 0 an add$ difficulty to ,bro!r ,heck]1 z he 0 n[ call$1 = he knew practically no?+ ( t language1 ?\gh he _h /udi$ x a little4 ,b he attack$ x resolutely &1 z "o ( 8 companions said1 le>n$ x heels ov] head4 ,he nev] fe>$ to make mi/akes1 nor dread$ a smile at 8 exp5se1 & z a consequ5ce 0 soon able to talk to any "o4 ,b 8 ,fr5* 0 always curi\s1 & :5 he took 8 turn at read+ dur+ meals he gave ! community "s he>ty laughs4 ,all ! new-com]s 7 inve/$ ) ! ,r$emptori/ habit ab\t ?ree weeks aft] _! arrival1 9 ,septemb]1 #ahde4 ,y c sc>ce imag9e ! happ9ess ,i felt on my arrival "h1 he writes to 8 "m 9 8 fir/ lett] home4 ,= ?ree days my he>t 0 fill$ ) joy & gladness4 ,i 0 l "o :o _h be5 transport$ to a loveli]1 a pur]1 & a bett] _w4 ,he tells h] t he _h wait$ = a =tnight be=e writ+1 to le>n ! place1 & !n1 aft] express+ 8 satisfaction ) ev]y?+ 9 su* s5t5ces z ! above1 he fills ! re/ ( ! lett] ) argum5ts 9 favor ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* & exhortations to jo9 x4 ,su* 0 ! burd5 ( all ( 8 lett]s home f bo? ,/4 ,trond & ,wittem4 ,we h t5 writt5 f ! novitiate4 ,an exception mu/ be made z to "o :i* describes 9 detail ! daily ord] ( life 9 ! novitiate4 ,x is address$ to 8 "m4 ,he tells h] t ! fir/ bell r+s at half-pa/ f\r 9 ! morn+ & ! la/ at half-pa/ n9e at night4 ,! "t is divid$ betwe5 v>i\s common & private devotional ex]cises1 includ+ ,mass1 m$itations1 recitation ( ! (fice 9 common1 /udy ( ! rule ( ! ord]1 spiritual conf]5ces1 spiritual read+1 & ! l4 ,sil5ce is brok5 only = an h\r aft] d9n] & ano!r h\r aft] supp]4 ,ab\t an h\r ( out-door ex]cise is tak5 e day1 & a long walk once a week & on fea/-days4 ,all ( ,?ursday 9 ea* week & ! m important fea/s ( ! ye> are days ( recreation1 :5 sil5ce ne$ n be obs]v$ dur+ ! great] "p ( ! day1 & mu* relaxation is o!rwise all[$4 ,all ,fridays are days ( total sil5ce & special devotion4 ,! lett] fails to m5tion ! discipl9e1 or flagellation1 :i* 0 tak5 twice a week4 ,he ends ?us3 ,! "t ( ! novitiate is "o ye>1 & its object is to prove our vocation1 & =m ! religi\s "*--! he>t4 ,! ex]cises may seem too _m to y1 b to u !y are q o!rwise4 ,_! frequ5t *anges prev5t !m f be+ monoton\s1 & _! v>iety makes !m agreeable4 ,our "t passes )\t our tak+ c\nt ( x1 & our joy is t ( a pure consci5ce1 & our happ9ess t ( a clean he>t4 ,x might seem a matt] ( peculi> difficulty = a free nature l ,isaac ,heck]'s to con=m to ! /iff rules ( su* a sy/em4 ,b ?is 0 n ! case1 & a clos] look into ! matt] %[s t su* a regim5 is ( mu* use to an e>ne/ man1 h[ev] free 8 "*1 at ! outset ( 8 spiritual c>e]4 ,exp]i5ce proves t "o te/ ( ! g5u95ess ( ! int]ior disposition to s]ve ,god p]fectly is read9ess to surr5d] ext]ior peculi>ities4 ,!re is no?+ 9 ! special graces ( ,god :i* %\ld h9d] a placid acceptance ( ! r\t9e ( a novitiate4 ,! m]g+ ( individual conduct into ! common cu/om is ! contribution :i* community life mu/ exact f e memb]4 ,if a man is to be a h]mit he may act f individual impulses alone1 ?\gh1 ev5 s1 r>ely )\t c\nsel4 ,b if "o w\ld live & "w ) o!rs1 special graces & individual traits ( "* mu/ n be all[$ to int]f]e ) a c]ta9 degree ( uni=mity4 ,on ! o!r h&1 t uni=mity %\ld n be all[$ to cripple ! spontane\s action ( natural indep5d5ce1 & ! inspiration ( graces :i* are p]sonal4 ,x mu/ be grant$ t ) _m s\ls a novitiate w t5d to a r\t9e use ( religi\s aids4 ,yet x _c be d5i$ t its discipl9e =cibly conc5trates ! scatt]$ purposes ( life into "o p[]ful /ream4 ,x contributes to symmetry ( "*4 ,x furni%es efficaci\s te/s ( s9c]ity4 ,x drills disord]ly natures into regul>ity4 ,x acqua9ts ! beg9n] ) ! lit]ature ( 8 holy pr(ession1 & h]e9 x is ( priceless wor?4 ,& f9ally1 x provides advis]s ( approv$ wisdom dur+ ! p]iod ( ! spiritual life :5 c\nsel is mo/ ne$$1 z well z mo/ gratefully accept$4 ,b if x fails 9 ea* ( ^! p>ticul>s1 z no d\bt x sometimes does1 ! novitiate may be said nev] to fail 9 detect+ an inaptitude = ! common life1 if su* exi/s2 t is to say1 a s]i\s lack ( ! qualities :i* fit "o to get along 9 peace ) ! bre?r54 ,into ! novitiates ( ! religi\s ord]s1 & into ! sem9>ies :i* hold _! place = ! secul> prie/hood1 ! noble/ m5 ( our race h ent]$ joyfully2 "s to be w$d$ to ! ,div9e ,sp\se 9 ! quiet seclusion ( holy contemplation1 & o!rs1 ( ! m militant ord]s1 to be tra9$ to foll[ wor?ily ! /&>ds ( ! apo/olic w>f>e aga9/ vice & error4 ,! novice-ma/] 0 puzzl$ by 8 ?ree ,am]icans1 ?\gh ,bro!r ,mc,master 0 easily compreh5d$--an ov]-frank temp]am5t1 impulsive1 & demon/rative4 ,n only 7 8 bann]s always hang+ on ! outw>d wall1 b 8 plan ( campaign also4 ,! o!r two 7 a /udy1 & ,bro!r ,heck] 0 a curiosity4 ,yet bo? 7 *e]ful1 ob$i5t1 e>ne/1 c\rage\s4 ,! novice-ma/] 0 annoy$ at ! ,am]icans' incessant dem& = ! reason :y ( all ?+s p]mitt$1 & ! reason :y n ( all ?+s prohibit$2 until at la/ ,bro!r ,walwor? 0 nam$ ,bro!r ,p\rquoi4 ,z to ,bro!r ,heck]1 besides %[+ ! same /&-&-deliv] prop5sity1 he occupi$ mu* ( ! "t ( conv]sation 9 philosophiz+1 plung+ into ! obscure/ dep?s ( metaphysical & e?ical problems1 us+ t]ms :i* 7 (t5 q unfamili> to /rictly or?odox e>s1 & exhibit+ a fe>less indep5d5ce ( ?\ght g5]ally conc$$ among ,ca?olics only to practis$ !ologians4 ,yet ! novice-ma/] 0 well pleas$ ) bo?1 ?\gh we %all see t 8 j\rney ) ,bro!r ,heck] 0 = "s "t 9 ! d>k4 ,:5 ! ,f\r? ( ,july came ar\nd he le>n$ t x 0 ! great ,am]ican holiday1 & he call$ ! ?ree ,am]icans to him & ask$1 ,h[ d y celebrate y\r national holiday at home8 ,by %oot+ (f fire-crack]s1 !y answ]$ ) a tw9kle4 ,?is be+ out ( ! "q1 & ! gr& milit>y p>ade :i* 0 next sugge/$ also impracticable1 ,bro!rs ,walwor? & ,heck] bo? exclaim$1 ,g+]-bread6 ,take all y want1 0 ! answ]1 & g (f on a long walk1 & sp5d ! day by y\rselves4 ,& ( !y w5t to w&] among ! ru9s ( ! outpo/s ( ! old ,roman republic1 & make ,f\r? ( ,july spee*es 9 honor ( ! great new ,republic beyond ! sea4 ,^? :o h be5 novices !mselves w n be surpris$ at ! boyi%ness ( ^! ?ree manly *>act]s "u ! circum/ances4 ,isaac ,heck]'s _s 0 n anywise cramp$ by ! r\t9e ex]cises ( ! novitiate2 he made !m easily & well4 ,he always seem$ to 8 companions :at he actually 01 & :at he describ$ himself to be 9 8 lett]s to ,new ,york1 a *e]ful & cont5t$ novice4 ,b1 z "o ( !m s9ce express$ x1 he 0 n a dude novice1 n ! v p9k ( ext]nal p]fection1 & _h a long p]iod ( int]ior trial4 ,he did n exhibit at any "t ! lea/ hesitancy ab\t 8 vocation1 = 8 m9d 0 made up4 ,yet once1 :5 he took a walk ) ,bro!r ,walwor? to visit a h\se ( ,recollects1 ,franciscans ( ! /rict obs]vance1 bo? he & 8 companion 7 greatly /ruck by t *>m+ pov]ty :i* ! poor man ( ,assisi has bequea!d to 8 *ildr52 !y did ask ea* o!r :e!r !y _h n made a mi/ake4 ,?is "q1 h[ev]1 0 b ! expression ( a %ad[y d\bt1 vani%+ z sudd5ly z x _h come4 ,! novice-ma/] 0 ,fa!r ,o?mann1 & he 0 by univ]sal te/imony entirely compet5t = 8 place4 ,he 0 himself ! novitiate4 ,its au/]ities1 & !y 7 n trifl+1 its long & frequ5t pray]1 its total seclusion f ! _w1 all 7 ref9$ & adju/$ to ea* "o by pass+ ?r\gh 8 s\l & be+ disp5s$ by 8 wisdom4 ,fa!r ,heck] reg>d$ him z a v rem>kable man4 ,he 0 a /ud5t ( "*1 & wise & sagaci\s 9 v>y+ ! application ( religi\s influ5ces accord+ to temp]am5t & spiritual gifts4 ,"u him ! dang] ( =malism1 :i* occurs to "o's m9d imm$iately z ! incessant r\nd ( ex]cises is m5tion$1 0 r5d]$ remote2 = he gave 8 in/ructions1 & especially us$ ! *apt] ( faults1 9 a way to infuse into ! s\ls ( ! novices ! ev]-recurr+ fre%ness ( individual initiative4 ,8 model 7aft] ,/4 ,alphonsus7 0 ,/4 ,francis de ,sales4 ,he foll[$ him con/antly 9 8 doctr9e & me?ods1 & (t5 spoke ( him & quot$ him4 ,( o!r me?ods & _! advocates he spoke respectfully1 b1 h[ev] mu* !y 7 9 vogue1 he did n foll[ !m4 ,bro!r ,heck] 0 a fai?ful /ud5t 9 8 s*ool & le>n$ mu* f ,fa!r ,o?mann4 ,! latt] especially insi/$ on ! pr9ciple ( accept+ ,provid5ce z ! *ief disp5s] ( mortifications4 ,he _h no objection to self-impos$ spiritual ex]cises1 b he did n positively favor !m4 ,he taught 8 "y m5 t ! traditional practices ( dev\t s\ls z embrac$ 9 ! r\t9e ( ! novitiate1 7 good ma9ly to break ! resi/ance ( corrupt nature & r5d] _! s\ls pliant subjects ( ! ,div9e guidance 9 ! int]ior life1 z well z submissive to ! ord] ( ,god 9 ! ev5ts ( ,8 ext]nal ,provid5ce4 ,! assi/ant novice-ma/]1 :o took ,fa!r ,o?mann's place dur+ 8 abs5ce1 0 a ,walloon4 ,8 "n we h be5 unable to discov]1 b he 0 a holy prie/1 held up to ! novices z _! model & e/eem$ by !m z ! sa9t ( ! novitiate4 ,he 0 a v pleasant man )al1 & no d\bt add$ 9 e way to ! fruits ( ! long ye> ( spiritual trial4 ,:5 ,isaac ,heck] pres5t$ himself z a novice he took 8 place among ! y\?s le>n+ ! ,a1 ,b1 ,c ( ! spiritual life1 :ile he himself _h exp]i5c$ = _m mon?s ! mo/ r>e deal+s ( ! ,holy ,gho/ ) ! s\l4 ,?is c\ld n fail to come to ! k ( ,fa!r ,o?mann1 &1 tak5 ) ! o!r peculi>ities ( 8 subject1 to elicit 8 mo/ skilful treatm5t4 ,p]e ,o?mann1 my novice-ma/]1 said ,fa!r ,heck]1 9 aft] ye>s1 _h a "r to be puzzl$ by me1 & s he wat*$ me m ?an he did ! o!rs4 ,he wat*$ & /udi$ him & gradually appli$ ! two sov]eign te/s ( g5u9e spirituality1 ob$i5ce & humiliation4 ,^! 7 all ! m efficaci\s 9 ?is case1 because ,bro!r ,heck] 0 a man ( great native indep5d5ce ( "* & naturally ( an extremely s5sitive disposition4 ,su* 0 ! common au/]ity ( ! life t x took "s +5uity to inflict on a novice a mortification :i* _h n gr[n /ale by use 9 ! case ( "o or m ( ! o!rs4 ,b 9 se>*+ ! int]ior ( ! s\l ! director c\ld f9d t5d] places into :i* 8 weapon w\ld be plung$ to ! bone4 ,b x is m ?an probable t he misund]/ood ,bro!r ,heck]1 & t = a "t he ev5 suspect$ him ( be+ "u delusions4 ,= sev]al mon?s1 at any rate1 he treat$ him at 8 weekly confession ) ! utmo/ rigor1 produc+ indescribable m5tal agony4 ,_m ye>s aft]w>ds1 & :5 ne> 8 dea?1 ,fa!r ,heck] once said to ! writ]3 ,:ile ,i 0 kneel+ among ! novices1 outside ,p]e ,o?mann's room1 wait+ to g to confession1 ,i (t5 begg$ ( ,god t x might be ,8 w t ,i %\ld die be=e my turn came1 s dreadful an ordeal _h confession become on acc\nt ( ! sev]ity ( ! novice-ma/]4 ,yet1 z record$ 9 ! memor&a1 ! victim 0 eag] = ! sacrifice :5 ! knife 0 n actually lift$ ov] him4 ,i begg$ ! novice-ma/]1 he said on ano!r occasion1 to wat* me c>efully1 & :5 he saw me b5t on any?+ to ?w>t me4 ,i did n "k any o!r way ( ov]com+ my nature4 ,he took me at my ^w1 too4 ,= example1 once a week only we _h a walk1 a good long "o1 & we enjoy$ x1 & x 0 necess>y = u4 ,i enjoy$ x v mu* inde$4 ,s1 sometimes :5 we 7 />t+ out1 my ?\ghts b\nd+ ) ! anticipat$ pleasure1 he w\ld /op me midway on ! /airs3 ',fr]e ,heck]1' he w\ld say1 'please rema9 at home1 & in/ead ( ! walk wa% & clean ! /air-way4' ,x w\ld ne>ly kill me to obey1 su* 0 my disappo9tm5t1 grief1 humiliation4 ,9 conjunction ) ^! trials f )\t came a recurr5ce ( resi/less int]ior impulses4 ,dur+ my novitiate1 he is record$ z say+ 9 #ahhe1 ,i f\nd myself "u impulses ( grace :i* x seem$ to me impossible to resi/4 ,"o 0 to conqu] ! t5d5cy to sleep4 ,i slept on bo>ds or on ! floor4 ,aft] a :ile ,i 0 able to d ) five h\rs sleep1 & (t5 ) only ?ree1 9 ! tw5ty-f\r4 ,p]e ,o?mann 0 n unwill+ = me to foll[ ^! impulses z soon z he became conv9c$ ( _! imp]ative /r5g?4 ,yet ,i n[ see t su* practices 7 9 a c]ta9 s5se mi/ak54 ,!y necess>ily consum$ 9 mortification vitality t ,i c\ld n[ use1 if ,i _h x1 9 a m useful way4 ,/ill1 h[ c\ld ,i help x8 ,! end ( ?is p]iod ( 8 humiliations1 :i* 0 n f> f ! end ( 8 novice%ip1 is ?us describ$3 ,"o day aft] ,communion ,i 0 mak+ my half-h\r ?anksgiv+ 9 my room1 :5 ,p]e ,o?mann came 9 & exam9$ me ab\t my =m ( pray]4 ,oh6 x 0 j !n t ,i _h rea*$ ! passive /ate ( pray]3 ,i did no?+1 ,ano!r did ev]y?+ 9 my pray]4 ,f t "t1 hav+ put me d[n 9 ! gutt]1 ! novice-ma/] rais$ me up to ! p9nacle1 :]eas ,i %\ld h be5 9 nei!r place4 ,on ano!r occasion he told h[ ! *ange ( pray] _h happ5$3 ,i 0 on my knees "o day aft] ,communion1 mak+ a regul> ?anksgiv+1 :5 sudd5ly ,god /opp$ me1 & ,i 0 told n to pray t way any m4 ,"q3 ,h[ 7 y told--:at words 7 spok5 to y8 ,answ]3 ,cease y\r activity4 ,i h no ne$ ( y\r words :5 ,i possess y\r w4 ',tis ,i1 n y1 :o %\ld act4 ,my action 9 y is m important ?an y\r ?anks4 ,i cease to act :5 y beg91 & beg9 to act :5 y cease4 ,be /ill--tranquil-- li/5--suff] me to act4 ,ab&on y\rself to me1 & ,i w take c>e ( y4 ,:5 9 ,rome1 9 ! w9t] ( #aheg-h1 he 0 compell$ by circum/ances1 :i* w be told 9 _! place1 to make a writt5 summ>y ( 8 spiritual exp]i5ce4 ,9 x he says3 ,my novitiate 0 "o ( sore trials1 = ! ma/] ( novices seem$ n to und]/& me1 & ! manife/ation ( my int]ior to him 0 a s\rce ( ! greate/ pa94 ,aft] ab\t n9e or t5 mon?s he appe>$ to recognize ! h& ( ,god 9 my direction 9 a special mann]1 conceiv$ a great e/eem 7= me71 & plac$ unusual confid5ce 9 me1 & all[$ me )\t ask+ x1 ?\gh greatly desir$1 daily ,communion4 ,dur+ my :ole novitiate no am\nt ( au/]ity c\ld appease my desire = mortification1 & sev]al gifts 9 ! way ( pray] 7 be/[$ on me4 ,on ,m>* #f1 #ahhf1 :ile 9 a /ate ( almo/ utt] physical pro/ration1 he communicat$ to ! writ] ! foll[+3 ,=ty ye>s ago1 9 my novitiate1 ,god told me t ,i 0 to suff] 9 e fibre ( my be+4 ,p]haps1 0 rem>k$1 y h n suff]$ all yet4 ,answ]3 ,p]haps n1 b ,god has kept ,8 promise 9 e limb1 memb]1 & function ( my body4 ,x may become necess>y to ref] aga9 to ^! int]ior exp]i5ces4 ,we leave !m ) ! rem>k t 8 novitiate 0 *>act]iz$ by a cont9uance ( ,div9e int]f]5ces simil> to ^? :i* _h occurr$ at int]vals f ! "t he 0 driv5 f home & bus9ess to seek ! fulfilm5t ( 8 aspirations4 ,! foll[+ is ! record ( a brave s\l's failure to become a ,r$emptori/4 ,x is giv5 9 a lett] dat$ ,septemb] #ad1 #ahdf3 ,bro!r ,mc,master1 :o returns to ! ,u4,s41 gives me ! opportunity ( writ+ a few l9es to y1 etc4 ,x 0 a pr(\nd disappo9tm5t = ,mr4 ,mc,master to be oblig$ to return home a layman1 & x %ock$ 8 companions4 ,x is a little s+ul> t ,fa!r ,o?mann told him t 8 vocation 0 n to be a religi\s1 b an editor4 ,he c>ri$ ) him ,bro!r ,heck]'s messages ( affection to 8 fri5ds & relatives1 & ros>ies ( ,isaac's own mak+ = 8 "m & 8 bro!r ,george4 ,writ+ to ! latt]1 on ,augu/ #bf1 #ahdf1 aft] "s t5d] & affectionate words1 he says3 ,i h n[ ne>ly eight weeks until ! "t ( tak+ ! v[s4 ,oh t x 7 b eight m9utes1 nay1 eight seconds1 :5 ,i %all be p]mitt$1 ) ! favor & grace ( ,god1 to consecrate my :ole be+ & life to ,8 sole s]vice6 ,millions ( worlds put on top ( "o ano!r c\ld n pur*ase f me my vocation4 ,we make fifte5 days' retreat be=e we take ! v[s4 ,y mu/ recomm5d me v p>ticul>ly to ! ,rt4 ,rev4 ,bi%op ,mc,closkey2 tell him ! "t ( my tak+ ! v[s 7,fea/ ( ,/4 ,t]esa1 ,octob] #ae71 & give him my humble reque/ to rememb] me at t "t 9 8 pray]s4 ,on ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,t]esa1 ,octob] #ae1 #ahdf1 !re=e1 ! two ,am]ican novices took _! v[s1 & became memb]s ( ! ,congregation ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem]4 ,on ! v morn+ ( t ev5t1 at half-pa/ eight1 ,bro!r ,heck] wrote a lett] to 8 "m1 9 :i* he goes ov] all ( 8 trials & exp]i5ces 9 foll[+ ! ,div9e guidance s9ce he fir/ quitt$ bus9ess4 ,he brea!s int5se affection 9 e ^w1 & writes 9 a solemn mood4 ,we w\ld give ! lett] to ! read] entire1 b t he has already le>n$ :at x n>rates4 ,x ends ?us3 ,de> "m1 9 half an h\r ,i g to ! *apel to consecrate my :ole be+ = ev] to ,god & ,8 s]vice4 ,:at peace1 :at happ9ess ?is gives me6 ,to live alone = ,8 love1 & to love all = ,8 love1 9 ,8 love1 & ) ,8 love6 ,aft] ! c]emony 0 ov] he wrote z foll[s to 8 bro!r ,john3 ,,de> ,,bro!r ,,john3 ,?is day1 ) ! special grace ( ,god1 ,i h tak5 ! holy v[s ( ! ,ca?olic religion1 :i* are ob$i5ce1 pov]ty1 *a/ity1 & f9al p]sev]ance4 ,^! v[s b9d me to ! ,congregation ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem] = my natural life1 & ! ,congregation 9 ! same mann] to me4 ,?anks to ,god = ,8 k9d ,provid5ce4 ,my vocation is once = all1 = ev] settl$1 firmly fix$4 ,dur+ ! ye> & m ( my novitiate ,i h n _h any temptation aga9/ my vocation1 nor any desire on my "p to return to ! _w4 ,z y 7 n c]ta9 :e!r ,i w\ld return aft] ! novitiate or n1 ,i suppose y left my "n 9 connection ) y\rs & bro!r ,george's 9 ! firm4 ,b n[ t ?is 7sep>ation7 is c]ta91 w\ld x n be be/ = y to de/roy t agreem5t we made ) ea* o!r "s "t ago1 t no future difficulty c or may arise8 ,all ?is ,i leave to y\r judgm5ts2 & z = me1 de> bro!rs ,john & ,george1 9 respect to ! bus9ess1 y may reg>d me z ?\gh ,i _h nev] be5 connect$ ) x1 nor _h any title or claim ^u x :atev]4 ,i am simply y\r de> bro!r ,isaac1 :o loves y f ! dep? ( 8 he>t4 ,?is love1 be assur$1 w nev] be dim9i%$ by any ev5t2 :atev] happ5s w only give me new motives to love y ! m4 ,my conduct is "u y\r inspection1 y\rs especially1 de> ,john1 z be+ ! elde/ ( u ?ree1 & ,i tru/ y\r s9c]e love = me w n let any ^w or action ( m9e pass unnotic$ :i* may be ! lea/ unpleasant to y4 ,my love1 my gratitude1 & my pray]s to & = y all4 ,rememb] me to all my fri5ds4 ,y\r bro!r1 ,,isaac4 ,/4 ,trond1 ,octob] #ae1 #ahdf4 ,i h =gott5 to say t if y h n already made use ( ! ?+s t ,i left1 su* z clo?+1 y %\ld d s4 ,9 bidd+ adieu to ! novitiate we ?9k ,fa!r ,heck]'s la/ meet+ ) 8 old novice-ma/]1 z we f9d x record$ 9 ! memor&a1 w be ( int]e/3 ,p]e ,o?mann 0 "o ( my be/ fri5ds4 ,%ortly be=e he di$ ,i happ5$ to be 9 ,france 7?is 0 aft] leav+ ! ,r$emptori/s71 & ,i he>d t he 0 extremely ill at ! ,r$emptori/ h\se at ,nancy4 ,i wrote to him t if he wi%$ ,i w\ld call & see him4 ,he answ]$ me at once1 begg+ me to come imm$iately1 z he desir$ above all ?+s to see me be=e he di$4 ,s ,i made a j\rney to ,nancy1 & we _h "s h\rs ( pleasant conf]5ce toge!r1 & ,i bade him f>ewell4 ,,*apt] ,,xxii ,,h[ ,,bro!r ,,heck] ,,made ,,8 ,,/udies ,,& ,,0 ,,orda9$ ,,prie/ ,,! day aft] ! tak+ ( ! v[s1 ,bro!rs ,heck] & ,walwor? />t$ by /age-coa* = ! h\se ( /udies1 at ,wittem 9 ,dut* ,limburg4 ,! r\te lay ne>ly ea/ ?r\gh a c\ntry pleasant on acc\nt ( ! f]tility ( its soil & ! indu/ry ( its inhabitants1 & int]e/+ f its *ur*es1 mona/]ies1 & curi\s old villages4 ,! travell]s cross$ ! ,meuse at ,mae/ri*t & rea*$ _! de/9ation be=e nightfall4 ,wittem is a small t[n1 ?irty miles ea/ ( ,/4 ,trond & ab\t t5 we/ ( ,aix-la-*apelle4 ,?is "p ( ,holl& is entirely ,ca?olic1 & its p possess a f]vor :i* has s5t mission>ies to ! ends ( ! e>?4 ,ev]y:]e %r9es 7 to be se5 by ! roadsides4 ,! c\ntry is n s level z t we/ ( ! ,meuse1 & ! ,r$emptori/ /ud5ts (t5 made excursions among ! hills1 our "y ,am]icans admir+ ! %eph]ds gu>d+ _! flocks1 ) _! crooks & _! dogs4 ,! h\se ( /udies 0 an old ,capu*9 mona/]y1 l>ge & pla9 & v int]e/+4 ,! fri>s _h buri$ _! dead "u ! gr\nd floor1 :i* enabl$ ! /ud5ts to dig up an abundant supply ( skulls z mem5to moris till ! rector =bade x4 ,! /ud5ts 7 m num]\s at ,wittem ?an ! novices _h be5 at ,/4 ,trond4 ,!y 7 mo/ly ,dut*m51 ) a spr9kl+ ( ,belgians & a few ,g]mans2 b ! language ( ! h\se 0 ,fr5* or ,lat94 ,we h n be5 able to make q sure ( ! "n ( ! ,rector2 possibly x 0 ,fa!r ,heilig1 :o c]ta9ly 0 !re at ?is "t1 ei!r 9 *>ge ( ! h\se or z "o ( ! pr(essors4 ,! ,ma/] ( ,/udies 0 ,fa!r ,l'hoir1 :o soon became "o ( ,bro!r ,heck]'s de>e/ fri5ds4 ,! two ,am]icans f\nd _! fell[-/ud5ts m5 ( f9e "* & e way lovable1 be+ e>ne/ & devot$ religi\s4 ,!y admir$ _! ?or\gh pr(ici5cy 9 all classical & lit]>y /udies1 ! result ( old-_w me?od & application4 ,m5tally & physically !y 7 spl5did m54 ,! :ole race ( ,flem+s & ,dut* 0 f\nd by our "y recruits to be a grave & p[]ful p1 al?\gh exceptional cases ( m]curial temp]am5t 7 n r>e4 ,"s curi\s individuals 7 to be f\nd among !m1 z is m ! case 9 ,european nationalities 9 g5]al ?an 9 our own4 ,bo? ,am]icans 7 mu* lik$ & respect$ by all _! new-f\nd bre?r51 ?\gh ,bro!r ,heck]1 = reasons soon to be told1 0 sometimes ridicul$ 9 a way t di/ress$ him4 ,bro!r ,walwor?1 hav+ /udi$ mu* be=e ent]+ ! ord]1 0 plac$ at once 9 ! !ological dep>tm5t & ,bro!r ,heck] 9 ! philosophical4 ,! =m] 0 ev5 disp5s$ f "o ye> ( 8 !ology1 tak+ b two ye>s ( ! ?ree :i* =m$ ! full c\rse4 ,! diff]5ce ( /udies sep>at$ ! two companions almo/ :olly f ea* o!r1 memb]s ( ! two dep>tm5ts n be+ all[$ ev5 to speak toge!r except on extraord9>y occasions4 ,all w5t smoo?ly ) ,bro!r ,walwor?4 ,n s ) ,bro!r ,heck]1 :o 0 expect$ to make two ye>s ( philosophy & meantime to increase 8 /ock ( ,lat94 ,b 8 faculties _h be5 subject$ to spiritual exp]i5ces ( s absorb+ a nature t he f\nd /udy impossible4 ,& :5 ,bro!r ,walwor? 0 9 due c\rse orda9$ prie/1 9 ,augu/1 #ahdh1 8 companion 0 /uck fa/ :]e he _h begun4 ,x ne$ n be said t s e>ne/ a s\l made e ef=t to /udy1 b all 0 9 va94 ,9 ! /atem5t made 9 ,rome t5 ye>s lat]1 & ref]r$ to be=e1 we f9d ! foll[+3 ,my wi% 0 to make a ?or\gh c\rse 7( /udies7 & beg9 ) philosophy4 ,?is ! sup]ior grant$4 ,my intellect 9 all sci5tific 7s*ola/ic7 matt]s seem$ /upid1 x 0 ) great difficulty t its att5tion c\ld be kept on !m = a few mom5ts1 & my memory reta9$ ( ^! ?+s no?+4 ,at ! close ( ! fir/ ye> 7at ,wittem7 all ability to pursue my /udies _h altoge!r dep>t$4 ,?is /ate ( ?+s p]plex$ my sup]iors1 & on be+ ask$ :at !y c\ld d ) me1 my answ] 01 ',"o ( ?ree ?+s3 make me a lay bro!r2 s5d me to a contemplative ord] :i* does n require sci5tific 7s*ola/ic7 /udies2 or all[ me to pursue1 at my free mom5ts1 my /udies by myself4' ,in/ead ( ei!r ( ^! !y gave me *>ge ( ! sick1 :i* 0 my sole 7regul>7 occupation = ! :ole ye> foll[+4 ,dur+ ?is ye> my /upidity augm5t$ & r$uc$ me to a /ate next to folly1 & x 0 my delight to be treat$ z a fool4 ,"o day1 :5 my fell[-/ud5ts 7 treat+ me z su*1 & ?r[+ e>? at me1 an anci5t fa!r1 v5]at$ = 8 gifts & virtues1 sudd5ly turn$ ar\nd to !m & ) emotion exclaim$1 ',y treat him z a fool & despise him2 ! day w come :5 y w ?9k x an honor to kiss 8 h&4' ,at ! expiration ( ! second ye> 7at ,wittem7 ! "q came up aga91 :at 0 to be done ) me4 ,my sup]ior put ?is "q to me1 & dem&$ ( me "u ob$i5ce to tell him 9 writ+ h[1 9 my belief1 ,god int5d$ to employ me 9 ! future4 ,?\gh ! answ] to ?is "q 0 no secret to me1 yet to express x :ile 9 a condition ( su* utt] helplessness requir$ me to make an act ( great mortification4 ,!re 0 no escape1 & my reply 0 z foll[s3 ,x seem$ to me 9 look+ back at my c>e] be=e becom+ a ,ca?olic t ,div9e ,provid5ce _h l$ me1 z x 7 by ! h&1 ?r\gh ! diff]5t ways ( error & made me p]sonally acqua9t$ ) ! diff]5t classes ( p]sons & _! wants1 ( :i* ! p ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates is compos$1 9 ord] t aft] hav+ made kn[n to me ! tru?1 ,he might employ me ! bett] to po9t out to !m ! way to ,8 ,*ur*4 ,t1 !re=e1 my vocation 0 to labor = ! conv]sion ( my non-,ca?olic fell[-c\ntrym54 ,?is "w1 x seem$ to me at fir/1 0 to be accompli%$ by means ( acquir$ sci5ce1 b n[ x _h be5 made pla9 t ,god w\ld h x done pr9cipally by ! aid ( ,8 grace1 & if 7,i 77 left to /udy at su* mom5ts z my m9d 0 free1 x w\ld n take a long "t = me to acquire suffici5t k to be orda9$ a prie/4 ,?is plan 0 adopt$4 ,a m explicit /atem5t ( ! sup]natural influ5ces by means ( :i* ,god in=m$ him ( 8 mission 0 made 9 aft] ye>s to v>i\s p]sons1 s+ly & 9 common4 ,x 0 to ! effect t ! ,holy ,_s gave him a di/9ct & unmi/akable intimation t he 0 set ap>t to und]take1 9 "s lead+ & conspicu\s way1 ! conv]sion ( ?is c\ntry4 ,t ?is intimation came to him :ile he 0 at ,wittem is also c]ta92 b x is equally s t he _h premonitions ( x dur+ ! novitiate4 ,x 0 ! incongruity ( su* a p]suasion be+ unit$ to a helpless inactivity ( m9d 9 matt]s ( /udy t made ,isaac ,heck] a puzzle to 8 v self1 to say no?+ ( ^? :o _h to decide 8 place 9 ! ord]4 ,fa!r ,o?mann1 9 bidd+ him f>ewell at ,/4 ,trond1 _h told him to become un sa9t f\1 a holy fool2 a direction bas$ ^u 8 excessive ab/raction ( m9d t[>ds my/ical ?+s1 & 8 consequ5t incapacity = m5tal ef=t 9 ord9>y affairs4 ,once1 at lea/1 dur+ ^? two ev5tful ye>s at ,wittem1 ,fa!r ,o?mann visit$ ! place1 & :5 he saw ,bro!r ,heck] he embrac$ him & exclaim$1 ,o "h is ! sp\se ( ! ,canticles6 ,8 f>ewell injunction on p>t+ at ,/4 ,trond _h be5 p]=ce compli$ )4 ,x mu/ h tak5 m ?an ord9>y p5etration to p]ceive any?+ b a k9d ( gr&iose folly 9 ,bro!r ,heck]4 ,! impulse to talk ab\t ! conv]sion ( ,am]ica1 to plan x & advocate x1 to proclaim x possible & prove x s1 & to philosophize on ! pr(\nde/ que/ions ( ! human reason1 0 irrepressible4 ,?is he did ) an air ( matur$ conviction & ) ! impact ( consci\s moral au?ority1 b 9 t]ms z /rik+ly ecc5tric z ! ?\ghts 7 l(ty & inspir+1 & 9 execrable ,fr5*1 ! declaim] be+ kn[n z m9us hab5s 9 8 /udies & utt]ly incapable4 ,all ?is 0 ! v make-up ( folly2 & ,bro!r ,heck] 0 no d\bt ?\ght a fool4 ,b h[ holy a fool he 0 8 sup]iors soon discov]$4 ,we f9d ! foll[+ among ! memor&a3 ,p]e ,l'hoir 0 my sup]ior 9 ! /ud5tate4 ,he 0 a holy man & a good fri5d1 b he 0 surpris$ at my /ate ( pray]4 ,he ask$ me h[ x c\ld happ5 t ,i1 a conv]t ( only a few ye>s1 %\ld h a /ate ( pray] he _h n atta9$ ?\gh 9 ! ,*ur* all 8 life & /riv+ = p]fection4 ,i told him t x 0 ,god's w to set ap>t "s m5 = a c]ta9 "w & specially prep>e !m = x1 & cause !m1 z ,he _h me1 to be br\ght "u ! influ5ce ( special ,div9e graces f boyhood4 ,l'hoir !n began to s5d anybody ) difficulties to me1 & ,god gave me grace to settle !m4 ,!n murmurs arose t he 0 too mu* "u my influ5ce1 & he 0 remov$ f 8 position ov] ! /udies4 ,b aft]w>ds !y replac$ him2 he 0 v effici5t 9 8 place4 ,! confid5ce ( 8 sup]iors 9 ,bro!r ,heck] 0 %[n by _! caus+ him to receive tonsure & m9or ord]s at ! end ( 8 fir/ ye> at ,wittem1 ?\gh he _h made no progress :atev] 9 8 /udies4 ,! foll[+ notes are f\nd 9 ! memor&a3 ,! "t 9 my :ole life :5 ,i felt ,i _h ga9$ ! greate/ victory by self-ex]tion 0 :51 aft] weeks ( labor1 ,i 0 able to recite ! ,pat] ,no/] 9 ,lat94 ,my memory f9ally fail$ me 9 my /udies to t degree t at la/ ,i took all my books up-/airs to ! libr>y & told ! prefect ( /udies ,i c\ld d no m to acquire k by /udy4 ,"q4 ,h[ long 7 y unable to /udy8 ,answ]4 ,two ye>s 9 ,holl& & "o ye> 9 ,engl&4 ,i nev] w5t to class ^? ye>s4 ,i 0 a k9d ( a sc&al1 ( c\rse1 9 ! h\se4 ,:5 ,i got a lucid int]val ( memory ,i /udi$1 ?\gh mu* ( ! "t ,i hadn't a book 9 my room4 ,yet1 :5 !y came to orda9 me1 ,i knew en\gh & 0 s5t at once to ! "w ( ! m9i/ry4 ,t 8 /upidity 0 n blamewor?y is %[n by ! sympa?y ( ,isaac's sup]iors2 t x 0 n natural is kn[n to our read]s by _! acqua9tance ) 8 native ability exhibit$ 9 8 j\rnals & lett]s4 ,! difficulty 0 conf9$ almo/ :olly to /udy2 to fix 8 att5tion on ! matt] 9 ! text-books1 or to grasp x & hold x 9 memory1 0 beyond 8 p[]4 ,meantime 8 lett]s to 8 fri5ds 9 ,new ,york & else:]e 7 full ( life4 ,he kept a copy ( a c>efully writt5 "o1 address$ to an old-"t fri5d ( ! ,brook ,f>m community4 ,x is a model ( brief /atem5t ( great tru?s1 & proves t ! social difficulty c only be fully rem$i$ by ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 :i* has an elevat+ =ce incomp>ably m p[]ful ?an any o!r kn[n to humanity4 ,! me?od us$ & ! *oice ( argum5ts are peculi>ly ,isaac ,heck]'s own1 & ! tone1 ?\gh affectionate1 is "o ( au?ority1 z t ( an expon5t ( evid5t tru?4 ,8 lett]s to 8 "m & 8 bro!rs are full ( controv]sy1 ab\nd+ 9 appeals to ,scripture1 to ! voice ( consci5ce1 to ! dictates ( reason2 & al?\gh ! tone is "o ( deep affection1 ! attacks on ,prote/antism are ke51 & ! use ( facts & p]sons z illu/rations full ( intellig5ce4 ,mo/ ( ! lett]s :i* we h f\nd 7 address$ to 8 "m1 = ^: conv]sion he _h an ard5t long+4 ,) "o ( !m he s5ds h] a little manuscript treatise on true ,bible ,*ri/ianity :i* he _h himself prep>$4 ,we give ! read] extracts f two lett]s1 ! fir/ f "o to 8 bro!r ,john & ! second f "o to 8 "m3 ,y\r lam5tation1 de> ,john1 on my sep>ation f y1 excites 9 me a great a/oni%m5t4 ,to ju/ify ?is sep>ation x seems to me t y h only to op5 a page ( ! ,gospels ( ,*ri/1 & to read x ) a s9c]e belief 9 ! words & a g5]\s love ( ! ,savi\r4 ,z = me1 ,i regret no?+ s mu* z t ,i h n a ?\s& lives to sacrifice to ,8 s]vice & love4 ,yes1 ,i love y all m ?an ,i ev] did1 & ,i w\ld c\nt no?+ z a co/ = y\r pres5t & et]nal good4 ,yet1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ,i love my ,savi\r inf9itely1 inf9itely1 inf9itely m4 ,alas6 :5 w ^? :o pr(ess to be ,*ri/ians le>n ! significance ( ,*ri/'s ,gospels & ,8 bless$ example4 ,i am n ignorant nor ins5sible ( ! love we owe to our p>5ts & relatives--no1 ,i am n ins5sible ( ?is love2 b 9 me x is all 9 ,*ri/1 z ,i w\ld wi% y\rs 74 4 4 4 ,i embrace y1 de> bro!r1 9 ! love ( our crucifi$ ,"l4 ,,de> ,,"m3 ,!re h be5 times :51 consid]+ ! wick$ness ( ! _w1 s5sible ( its mis]ies & my own1 & at ! same "t behold+ obscurely & z x 7 ta/+ ! ?+s ( heav51 ,i h long$ & wi%$ to be sep>at$ f ! body4 ,b :5 com+ back to myself1 & ?9k+ t ) ! aid ( grace ,i c /ill increase 9 ,god's love & h5ce love ,him /ill m 9 consequ5ce = all et]nity1 ,i feel will+ to love & suff] until ! la/ day1 if by ?is ,i %\ld acquire b "o drop m ( ,div9e love 9 my he>t4 ,& s x is1 z ,/4 ,paul decl>es1 t we %\ld c\nt ! trials "h z no?+ comp>$ ) ! glory t awaits u4 ,n[1 all ^! consid]ations1 de> "m1 jo9 toge!r to increase my desire to see y 9 ! communion ( ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 to :i* ,god has s+ul>ly giv5 s _m means ( gr[+ 9 grace1 etc41 etc4 ,not)/&+ ^! m>ks ( active intellig5ce1 ,bro!r ,heck] c\ld n /udy1 except by fits & />ts4 ,(t5 he c\ld n get ?r\gh ! common pray]s1 & 9 ord9>y conv]sation 8 tongue w\ld sometimes be tangl$ among ! words ( a s5t5ce be=e he 0 half ?r\gh ) x4 ,! read] has already le>n$ t ! p5alties ( utt] /upidity 7 n unkn[n to ! unwritt5 law ( ! ,wittem /ud5tate1 not)/&+ t ! "y m5 7 dev\t religi\s2 & h5ce ,bro!r ,heck] mu/ h _h _m h\rs ( angui%4 ,b we _c suppose t 8 native *e]fulness 0 q suppress$4 ,8 dulness ( m9d 0 accompani$1 or r 0 ! result (1 ! close embraces ( ,div9e love4 ,x 0 ! bitt] "p ( t intimate communion ) ,god :i* is grant$ to *os5 s\ls4 ,no d\bt he 0 pr(\ndly humiliat$ by ! disgrace involv$ 9 8 failure to /udy1 b he 0 will+ to suff] t ext]nal degradation :i* 0 ! complem5t ( & ! means ( emphasiz+1 ! tea*+ ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 8 int]ior1 z well z ! means ( purify+ 8 s\l m & m p]fectly4 ,9 aft] ye>s he relat$ an in/ance ( 8 lightness ( he>t1 a natural quality :i* he %>$ ) 8 companion1 ,bro!r ,walwor?4 ,! bi%op ( "s neighbor+ diocese1 ,aix-la-*apelle1 if we rememb] rightly1 happ5+ to visit ! h\se at ,wittem1 0 told ( ! two ,am]ican /ud5ts4 ,he conv]s$ ) !m 9 ! recreation1 ! language be+ ,fr5*4 ,!n he said3 ,i "k h[ to read ,engli%1 b ,i h nev] he>d x spok52 c y n speak a little piece = me8 ,c]ta9ly1 0 ! answ]4 ,aft] a mom5t's consultation ! two "y m5 9 all s]i\sness recit$ toge!r ,pet] ,pip] pick$ a peck ( pickl$ pepp]s1 etc4 ,no wond] t ! prelate 0 a/oni%$ at ! peculi> s\nd ( ,engli%4 ,!n he ask$ !m = a song4 ,oh ( c\rse1 0 ! answ]1 & !y sang 9 unison ,! ,c>rion ,cr[1 ) full *orus & imitations4 ,besides tak+ c>e ( ! sick1 = :i* he 0 admirably fitt$ by nature1 ,bro!r ,heck] made himself g5]ally useful ab\t ! h\se4 ,he sp5t mu* "t work+ among ! bro!rs 9 ! kit*51 & ! writ] has he>d him say t = ne>ly ! :ole ( 8 /ay 9 ,wittem he bak$ ! bread ( ! entire community4 ,he also c>ri$ 9 ! fuel = ! h\se1 us+ a crate or hod hoi/$ on 8 back4 ,9 ,augu/1 #ahdh1 ,bro!r ,walwor? 0 orda9$ prie/1 & x 0 decid$ t he & ,bro!r ,heck]1 toge!r ) two "y ,belgian prie/s1 ,fa!rs ,teunis & ,lefevre1 %\ld proce$ to ,engl&1 ! ,r$emptori/s hav+ be5 rec5tly introduc$ !re4 ,z ! cassock is n worn 9 ! /reets 9 ,engl& !y 7 s5t f ,wittem to ,liege & !re equipp$ ) cl]ical suits1 ! tailor be+ caution$ n to be too ecclesia/ical 9 ! cut ( ! g>m5ts4 ,he produc$ a ridicul\s compromise betwe5 a fa%ionable frock-coat & a cassock1 ! wai/ be+ high & tight & ! tails full & fl[+1 & flopp+ ab\t ! "y cl]ics' heels4 ,z !y j\rney$ f ,liege to ,am/]dam1 & !nce to ,london1 p /opp$ & />$ at !m 9 _! /yli% array1 & "s laugh$ at !m4 ,9 ?is in/ance ,bro!r ,heck]'s *agr9 0 n ov]come by 8 s5se ( ! ludicr\s1 = he 0 naturally v s5sitive ( p]sonal unbecom+ness1 & al?\gh n precisely a m>t9et = cl]ical exactness1 he _h /rict notions ( propriety4 ,! new ,r$emptori/ f\ndation 0 at ,clapham1 ?ree miles s\? ( ,london ,bridge4 ,! h\se 0 a l>ge1 old-fa%ion$ mansion & _h be5 own$ by ,"l ,teignm\?1 a notori\s anti-,ca?olic bigot4 ,"s ( ! l>g] rooms _h be5 ?r[n toge!r into "o1 & ?is 0 us$ tempor>ily z a public *apel4 ,j z ! "y ,r$emptori/s arriv$1 ,fa!r ,pet*]9e 0 prea*+ to ! congregation4 ,he 0 a ,russian conv]t1 & ! new-com]s 7 a/oni%$ at 8 good ,engli% & 8 eloqu5ce4 ,he 0 "o ( ! _m extraord9>y m5 :o adorn$ ! ord] at t "t4 ,he 0 ma/] n only ( 8 native tongue1 b ( ,engli%1 ,g]man1 ,italian1 ,fr5*1 & mod]n ,greek1 & c\ld prea* well 9 all ( ^! languages4 ,clapham 0 rea*$ on ,septemb] #bc1 #ahdh1 & %ortly aft]w>ds ,fa!r ,walwor? 0 s5t to d mission>y z well z p>i% "w 9 ,worce/]%ire1 & rema9$ !re ! great] "p ( ! two ye>s :i* 7 sp5t by our ,am]icans 9 ,engl&4 ,f ,clapham ,bro!r ,heck] wrote1 on ,septemb] #bg1 #ahdh3 ,i am at pres5t1 de> "m1 9 a newly-e/abli%$ h\se 9 ! city ( ,london1 hav+ come "h by ord] ( my sup]iors to cont9ue & f9i% my /udies4 ,bodily ,i am ne>] to y ?an ,i 01 & naturally speak+ ,i am mu* m at home "h ?an ,i 0 on ! ,cont95t4 ,b ?is is ( little or no mom5t1 = a good religi\s %\ld f9d 8 home :]e he c be/ execute ! w ( 8 ,div9e ,ma/]4 ,& w\ld y n1 de> "m1 r see me 9 ,*9a ?an 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates if1 by be+ !re1 ,i %\ld be m agreeable to our ,bless$ ,savi\r1 :o left ! h\se ( ,8 ,fa!r to save u poor ab&on$ s9n]s ^u ! e>?8 ,our h\se "h is situat$ some:at out ( ! d5se & busy "p ( ! city1 at ,clapham2 a f9e g>d5 is atta*$ to x1 & ev5 9 a worldly view ,i c\ld n desire x to be m agreeable4 ,& did n our ,"l promise to give ^? :o w\ld leave all to foll[ ,him1 'a hundr$ fold m 9 ?is _w & life ev]la/+ 9 ! _w to come'8 ,alas6 h[ _m pr(ess to believe 9 ! ,bible & h no fai? 9 ! words :i* our ,"l spoke1 etc41 etc4 ,! difficulties ( ,wittem 7 n abat$ at ,clapham2 r !y 7 aggravat$ by ,bro!r ,heck] hav+ to deal ) new sup]iors4 ,i rememb] see+ ,heck] at ,clapham1 look+ hopelessly into 8 moral !ology1 said ,fa!r ,walwor? to ! writ]4 ,fa!r ,fr$]ick de ,held1 :om we left 9 ,baltimore1 _h return$ to ,europe1 be+ ,prov9cial ( ! ,belgian ,prov9ce1 :i* at t "t includ$ ! ,engli% z well z ! ,am]ican missions4 ,x mu/ h seem$ /range to him t ,bro!r ,heck] _h be5 s5t to ,engl&2 he _h no h\se ( /udies to put him into & c\ld give him no regul> c\rse ( in/ruction4 ,we _c ev5 surmise :at ^w 0 s5t to ,fa!r de ,held ab\t ?is curi\s "y man1 :om e>ly "o summ]'s morn+ ?ree ye>s be=e he _h se5 flitt+ into ,baltimore & out ( x1 tak+ ) him ! ,prov9cial's leave to ent] ! novitiate4 ,p]haps ! case _h be5 s5t to him because x 0 too p]plex+ = any au?ority less ?an 8 to settle4 ,at any rate1 x plac$ him 9 an awkw>d position1 to decide ! case ( ?is lone applicant = ord]s1 :o _h made no /udies & c\ld make none1 & yet :o 0 ( s m>k$ a "*1 s full ( life1 s zeal\s1 work+ will+ly ab\t ! *ur*1 eag]ly work+ 9 ! kit*51 talk+ deep philosophy & =m+ plans = ! conv]sion ( nations4 ,8 case 0 peculi>4 ,! difficulty 0 n conf9$ to ! "q ( div9ity /udies4 ,bro!r ,heck]'s g5]al education 0 scant1 & 8 ,engli% sic 0 /ill faulty4 ,& yet he 0 sil5tly ask+ ord9ation 9 a prea*+ ord]1 = :i* a ?or\gh education is a pr]equisite4 ,fa!r de ,held1 !re=e1 is n to be condemn$ = 8 h>%ness z want+ 9 sympa?y or 9 judgm5t ( "*4 ,gold is tri$ by fire1 & fire is an active ag5t & a pa9ful "o4 ,b ,bro!r ,heck] soon f\nd bo? solace & assi/ance 9 a new fri5d4 ,we quote f ! memor&a3 ,fa!r de ,held 0 sup]ior at ,clapham & = a ye> he treat$ me z ,h5ry ,suso says a dog treats a rag--he took me 9 8 tee? & %ook me4 ,at la/ ,i w5t to him & begg$ him to settle my case "o way or ! o!r3 orda9 me1 or make a lay bro!r ( me1 or take (f my habit & dismiss me to ano!r ord]2 ?\gh ,i told him t w\ld be l tak+ (f my sk94 ,fa!r de ,bugg5oms !n w5t my surety4 ,he _h be5 my confessor at ,clapham & 0 !n abs5t4 ,b he wrote to ,de ,held t he w\ld gu>antee my conduct if orda9$4 ,de ,held !n *ang$ & became my fa/ & con/ant fri5d4 ,?is is ! fir/ m5tion we f9d ( ,fa!r de ,bugg5oms4 ,fa!r ,heck] ev] v5]at$ him & *]i%$ 8 memory z t ( a sa9tly fri5d & b5efactor4 ,on ano!r occasion we f9d a full] acc\nt ( ! same ev5ts3 ,only = ,fa!r de ,bugg5oms ,i %\ld n h be5 orda9$ at all4 ,:o 0 ,de ,bugg5oms8 ,a ,belgian1 & my confessor :ile ,i 0 at ,clapham4 ,i 0 !re1 n orda9$1 nor yet mak+ my /udies4 ,i _h be5 =c$ to give !m up2 ,i c\ld n g on ) !m4 ,de ,held did n "k :at to make ( me1 & he treat$ me h>%ly & cruelly4 ,f9ally ,i w5t to him & told him my ?\ghts2 ,i said ,i 0 absolutely c]ta9 ,i _h a religi\s vocation2 t he might compel me to take ( ! habit1 b x w\ld be l tak+ (f my sk92 & s on4 ,aft] t int]view ,de ,held *ang$ t[>d me & 0 ev] aft] my w>m fri5d4 ,he 0 a v prom95t memb] ( ! ,congregation4 ,y "k he came )9 a few votes ( be+ ,rector-major4 ,he 0 v w>m 9 8 sympa?y ) u dur+ our tr\ble 9 ,rome4 ,well1 ,heilig1 a ,g]man1 0 ab\t com+ ov] to ,engl& z sup]ior4 ,he _h be5 my director = two ye>s4 ,be=e he came he wrote me a lett] t gave me indescribable pa94 ,he wrote t ,i mu/ *ange--t ,i 0 all wrong1 & s on4 ,i answ]$ t x 0 too late to *ange2 t he _h be5 my director = two ye>s1 knew me well1 & _h be5 cognizant ( my /ate4 ,if he want$ me *ang$ he mu/ d x = me1 = ,i did n see h[ to d x = myself4 ,:5 he came1 ,de ,bugg5oms told him to h me orda9$1 set me to "w at any?+1 & he 7,de ,bugg5oms7 w\ld be responsible = me 9 e respect4 ,heilig compli$4 ,i ask$ him aft]w>ds :y he wrote t lett]4 ',because1' said he1 ',i ?\ght y ne$$ to be tri$ "s m4' ',:y1' said ,i1 ',i h _h no?+ b trial ev] s9ce ,i came4' ,f ?is x w\ld seem t ! case 0 f9ally settl$ by ,fa!r ,heilig aft] ,fa!r de ,held's dep>ture = ! ,cont95t1 :i* took place1 z well z we c discov]1 "s "t 9 ! summ] ( #ahdi4 ,fa!r ,heilig's lett]1 writt5 f ,liege1 is be=e u2 x is dat$ ! #bd? ( ,m>*1 #ahdi4 ,x is a complete arraignm5t ( ,isaac ,heck]'s spiritual condition4 ,x is g5tle1 consid]ate1 *oice ( t]ms1 b cond5ses all t c\ld be said to %[ t 8 "y fri5d _h be5 delud$ by a vision>y temp]am5t1 apply+ to himself :at he _h read 9 my/ical treatises & ! lives ( ! sa9ts4 ,! lett] 0 inde$ a deadly bl[4 ,fa!r ,heilig _h be5 ,bro!r ,heck]'s confessor = two ye>s at ,wittem1 & _h at lea/ tacitly approv$ 8 _s2 & n[ came 8 condemnation4 ,no wond] t ,isaac 0 pr(\ndly di/ress$ by x4 ,yet 8 conviction ( ! validity ( 8 inn] life 0 n %ak5 = an in/ant4 ,nor 0 ! trial ( long duration4 ,we h f\nd a lett] f ,fa!r ,heilig dat$ two mon?s lat] ?an ! "o we h be5 consid]+1 & x is full ( messages ( reassurance & enc\ragem5t4 ,! int]v5tion ( ,de ,bugg5oms complet$ ! "w4 ,x is possible t ,fa!r ,heilig _h n simply a desire to te/ ,bro!r ,heck]'s humility1 b1 by /udy+ ! effect ( ! trial impos$1 to remove d\bts /ill l+]+ 9 8 own m9d4 ,"s words 9 bo? ! lett]s ref]r$ to lead u to ?is inf]5ce4 ,fa!r ,l'hoir _h n =gott5 8 "y fri5d1 :o receiv$ a lett] f him a c\ple ( mon?s aft] leav+ ,wittem1 :i* brea!s 9 e ^w ! t5d]e/ utt]ance ( fri5d%ip2 & a ye> aft]1 ano!r "o simil>ly affectionate1 congratulat+ him on 8 ord9ation4 ,?is ,fa!r ,l'hoir mu/ h be5 a noble s\l to write s lov+ly2 we wi% t space p]mitt$ u to give 8 lett]s to ! read]4 ,among/ ! pap]s left by ,fa!r ,heck] we f\nd "o c>efully pres]v$1 be>+ date at ,/4 ,m>y's1 ,clapham1 ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,raphael 7,oct4 #bd7 #ahdh1 a mon? aft] 8 arrival !re4 ,x is a manuscript ( ?irty-n9e closely-writt5 pages ( lett]-pap]4 ,x is an acc\nt ( consci5ce made1 no d\bt1 to ,fa!r de ,held1 ?\gh its prep>ation may h occupi$ "s ( 8 "t be=e leav+ ,wittem4 ,we w make "s extracts4 ,x beg9s ?us3 ,be=e comm5c+ :at is to foll[1 ,i _c resi/ mak+ ! confession ( my feebl5ess & incapacity to express ev5 conv5i5tly ^? ?+s :i* ,i feel x my duty to relate1 t ,i may walk ) great] security & quick] /ep 9 ! way ( ,god4 ,x w\ld n surprise me if "o :o has n tak5 ! pa9s to inve/igate ?is matt] suffici5tly %\ld d\bt inde$ :e!r su* s+ul> graces1 see+ ! faults ,i daily commit & my _m imp]fections1 _h really be5 giv5 to su* an individual4 ,a simil> rem>k to ?is 0 made by my la/ director4 ,b ?is is a cause ( mu* joy & consolation to me2 7t is to say7 t my int]ior life is hid & unkn[n to o!rs except ^? :o direct me4 ,all t ,i c adduce 9 behalf ( its tru? & cr$ibility are ^! words ( sacr$ ,scripture3 ,spiritus ubi vult spirat 7! ,_s brea!? :]e ,he w72 &1 ubi autem abundavit delictum1 sup]abundavit gratia 7b :]e s9 ab\nd$ !re did grace m ab\nd47 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,at t "t 7t[>ds ! end ( ! novitiate7 ,i felt a special attraction & devotion t[>d ,our ,bless$ ,"l 9 ! ,holy ,sacram5t & an almo/ irresi/ible desire ( receiv+ ! bless$ ,communion ( ,div9e love4 ,?is desire s f> f hav+ abat$ has greatly increas$1 s t ,i h a con/ant hung] & ?ir/ = ,our ,"l 9 ! sacram5t ( ,8 body & blood4 ,if x 7 possible ,i w\ld desire to receive no o!r food ?an ?is1 = x is ! only n\ri%m5t t ,i h a real appetite =4 ,i _c consid] x o!r ?an ! s\rce & sub/ance ( my :ole spiritual & int]ior life4 ,! day on :i* ,i h be5 depriv$ ( x ,i h exp]i5c$ a debility & want ( bo? mat]ial & spiritual life l "o :o is ne>ly fami%$4 ,! doctr9e ( ! real pres5ce ( our ,"l seems to be ) me a matt] ( conviction aris+ m f actual exp]i5ce ?an f fai?4 ,at times1 :5 ,i w\ld make my visit1 ,i am seiz$ ) su* a viol5t love t[>ds ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t t ,i am =c$ to break (f imm$iately1 be+ unable to support ! attraction ( ! ,sp\se1 ! ,belov$1 ! ,only ,"o ( my s\l4 ,= "s "t back1 :]ev] ,i may be1 or on :atev] side ,i turn1 ,i seem to feel ! pres5ce ( ,our ,"l 9 ! ,sacram5t 9 ! tab]nacle4 ,x seems z ?\gh ,i 7 9 ! same sph]e z our ,"l 9 ! sacram5t1 :]e !re appe>s no "t nor space1 yet bo? are4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,at times1 especially dur+ ! great retreat be=e mak+ ! v[s1 ,i 0 z x 7 inebriat$ ) love1 s t ,i sc>cely knew :at ,i said or did4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,?is 0 ! /age ( my int]ior life on ent]+ ! h\se ( /udies at ,wittem1 ,octob]1 #ahdf4 ,"h ! pr9cipal acts 9 all my spiritual ex]cises 7 ^? ( resignation & con=mity to ! w ( ,god1 an entire fidelity to ! inspirations & attractions ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & a total ab&onm5t ( myself to ! conduct ( ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,god seem$ always engag$ 9 my s\l by means ( ,8 grace 9 repress+ my own activity4 ,! end ( my prop] activity1 ,i said to myself1 is its de/ruction4 ,god comm&s a total & entire ab&onm5t ( ! s\l to ,him 9 ord] t ,he may ) 8 grace de/roy & annihilate all t ,he f9ds 9 x aga9/ ,8 designs & w4 ,god at times seem$ to dem& ( me a frightful & h]oic ab&onm5t ( my s\l to ,8 good pleasure4 ,god alone kn[s h[ to ex]cise ! s\l 9 virtue1 & ! ,holy ,_s is its only true ma/] 9 ! spiritual life4 ,n only did ! _s ( ,god excite & elicit 9 me volunt>y acts ( self-ab&onm5t1 b (t5 my s\l 0 z if /ripp$ ( all support1 & plac$1 z x 71 ov] a d>k & unfa?omable abyss1 & ?us ,i 0 made to see t my only hope 0 to give myself up :olly to ,him4 ,! words ( ,job well express ?is purgation ( ! s\l :5 he says3 ',! arr[s ( ! ,"l are 9 me1 ! rage :]e( dr9ke? up my _s1 & ! t]rors ( ! ,"l w> aga9/ me4' 7,"h foll[ o!r quotations f ! book ( ,job47 ,sometimes ^! pa9s p5etrate into ! remote/ & mo/ secret *amb]s ( ! s\l4 ,! faculties are 9 su* an int5sive purgation t f ! excessive pa9 :i* ?is subtile & purify+ fire causes !y are susp5d$ f _! ord9>y activity1 & ! s\l1 incapable ( receiv+ any relief or escap+ f its suff]+1 has no?+ left b to resign itself to ! w & good pleasure ( ,god4 ,?\gh envelop$ ) an unse5 b no less real fire1 suff]+ 9 e "p1 limb1 & fibre f indescribable pa9s1 fix$ l "o :o %\ld be =c$ to look ! sun con/antly 9 ! face at midday1 %e is nev]!less cont5t1 = %e has a secret consci\sness t ,god is ! cause ( all h] suff]+s1 & n only cont5t--%e w\ld suff] /ill m = ,8 love4 ,"h foll[s an acc\nt ( ! mortifications to :i* ?is int]ior pressure drove him1 %ort5+ ( sleep1 we>+ hair-%irts1 sev]e discipl9e1 ab/95ce & fa/+1 & ! l4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,!re 7 no p5ances t ,i h read ( t seem$ to me impossible4 ,! vile/ habits & o!r ?+s t ,i 0 all[$ to we> & to use gave me ! greate/ pleasure4 ,! ?\ght ( n hav+ :]e) to cov] my nak$ness1 to be contemn$1 ridicul$1 & spit ^u1 gave me an extreme joy4 ,my delight consi/$ 9 want+ t :i* is consid]$ necess>y 4 4 4 all ?is ,i did n only d )\t reluctance1 difficulty1 & pa91 b ) great pleasure1 ease1 & joy4 ,!y seem$ z no?+1 & ,i 0 z ?\gh ,i _h sc>cely ne$ ( a body 9 ord] to live1 or1 9 o!r words1 x seem$ t ,i liv$ = ! mo/ "p indep5d5t ( ! body4 ,x 0 ab\t ?is p]iod t ,god gave me ! grace :i* ,i _h long desir$ & sigh$ aft]3 to be able to act & suff] )\t ! idea ( any recomp5se4 ,i call x a gift1 = al?\gh ,i _h s long wi%$ & dem&$ ( ,god ! p[] to act & to love ,him dis9t]e/$ly1 /ill ,i 0 unable to d s4 ,i felt myself a slave & hirel+ 9 ! s]vice ( ,god1 & ?is mortifi$ me & made me mu* a%am$ ( myself4 ,b :5 ?is grace 0 giv51 :i* happ5$ unexpect$ly1 ,i c\ld n =be> go+ imm$iately to my director to express my joy ( ! favor ,i _h receiv$1 & ! fre$om & magnanimity ( s\l :i* x inspir$ me )4 ,i d n mean to say t ! s\l has no idea ( any recomp5se1 = %e has x tacitly1 b ?is is n h] =mal int5tion 9 h] actions2 = %e is to su* a degree animat$ to act = ! good pleasure & sole glory ( ,god1 t %e quasi =gets all else4 4 4 4 ,sometimes ,i h felt s+ul>ly pres5t & 9 intimate communion ) c]ta9 ( ! sa9ts1 su* z ,/4 ,francis ( ,assisi1 ,/4 ,bonav5ture1 ,/4 ,?omas1 ,/4 ,pet] ( ,alcant>a1 our holy fa!r ,alphonsus1 etc4 ,dur+ ?is "t--& sometimes x is = _m days--! life1 ! virtues1 ! _s ) :i* ! sa9t act$ occupies almo/ exclusively my m9d4 ,i seem to feel _! pres5ce mu* m intimately & really ?an t ( ^? :o are ar\nd me4 ,i und]/& & compreh5d !m bett]1 & exp]i5ce a m salut>y influ5ce f !m ?an p]haps ,i w\ld h done _h ,i liv$ & be5 ) !m 9 _! "t4 4 4 4 ,twice ,i rememb] hav+ exp]i5c$ 9 ?is mann] ! pres5ce ( ,our ,bless$ ,"l4 ,:ile ?is la/$ ,i felt myself altoge!r ano!r p]son4 ,8 h]oic virtues1 ,8 greatness1 t5d]ness1 & love seem$ to inspire me ) su* a desire to foll[ ,him & imitate ,8 example t ,i lo/ sight ( all ?+s else4 ,8 pres5ce excit$ 9 me a great] love & e/eem = ! ,*ri/ian virtues ?an ,i c\ld h acquir$ o!rwise 9 ye>s & ye>s4 4 4 4 ,ab\t ! comm5cem5t ( ! second ye> ( /udies1 dur+ "s weeks my faculties 7 drawn & conc5trat$ to su* a degree t[>ds ! c5tre ( my s\l t ,i 0 z "o b]eft ( 8 ext]ior s5ses & activity4 ,be=e ! vacation ,i _h desir$ to pass t "t 9 solitude & retreat1 b x 0 n all[$4 ,we h omitt$ mu* ( ?is s+ul> docum5t1 includ+ detail$ acc\nts ( sup]natural occurr5ces1 & also quotations f ! works ( ,go]res1 ,/4 ,t]esa1 ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross1 ,/4 ,bonav5ture1 ,fa!r ,rigoleu1 ,ri*>d ( ,/4 ,victor1 ,sc>amelli's ,directorium ,my/icum1 & o!r my/ical writ+s4 ,^! ref]5ces he _h collect$ to c]tify to ! reality ( 8 exp]i5ce4 ,?r\gh\t all ^! ?ree ye>s ( trial he _h employ$ :at he calls 8 lucid int]vals ( m5tal p[] 9 /udy+ 9 8 own way1 ,god aid+ him 9 ,8 own way to ! de/9$ end1 z ,he _h h9d]$ him f *oos+ any o!r way4 ,^! int]vals seem$ s slight 9 8 memory t ! read] has se5 8 /atem5t t he _h n /udi$ at all4 ,:5 he _h be5 a ye> at ,clapham he 0 f\nd1 on exam9ation1 to be well en\gh prep>$1 z he _h promis$ he w\ld be4 ,hav+ be5 orda9$ sub-deacon & deacon at old ,hall ,college1 by ,bi%op ,wiseman1 he 0 orda9$ prie/ by ! same prelate 9 8 private *apel 9 ,london4 ,! ev5t took place on ! #bc;d ( ,octob]1 #ahdi1 ! fea/ ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem]4 ,fa!r ,heck] said 8 fir/ ,mass ! foll[+ day at ,clapham1 t be+ ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,raphael ! ,ar*angel3 "o ye> f ! date ( 8 acc\nt ( consci5ce writt5 out & giv5 to 8 sup]iors4 ,! foll[+ is f a lett] to 8 "m ann\nc+ 8 ord9ation3 ,,de> ,,"m3 ,y h be5 d\bly bless$ by ,almighty ,god )9 ! pa/ few weeks4 ,y\r y\nge/ son has be5 orda9$ prie/ 9 ,god's "o1 holy1 ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & prays = y daily :5 he (f]s up to ,god ! preci\s body & blood ( ,8 belov$ ,son1 our ,"l2 & besides y h receiv$1 by ! m>riage ( ano!r ( y\r sons ,george1 a new daught]1 :o1 be+ also a *ild ( ! ,holy ,*ur*1 mu/ be k9d1 dutiful1 pi\s1 fe>+ ,god1 & lov+ above all ?+s our ,"l & ,savi\r1 ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,are n ^!1 de> "m1 bless+s8 ,d !y n convey to y\r he>t joy & consolation8 ,!y ought & surely d4 ,y\r latt] days de> "m1 w be y\r happie/4 ,! rema9d] ( ! lett] is fill$ ) exhortations to ent] ! ,*ur*1 & argum5ts drawn f ,scripture4 ,we may m5tion a lett] writt5 to ,fa!r ,heck] by ,fa!r ,heilig on ! eve ( ! =m]'s dep>ture = ,am]ica2 a message full ( affectionate good wi%es & claims ( fri5d%ip & union 9 pray] ) ! s+ul> "y pilgrim f ! ,we/]n ,_w4 ,! foll[+ extracts f ! memor&a may be ( int]e/ z embody+ ,fa!r ,heck]'s views ( h[ to /udy div9ity1 result+ f 8 own exp]i5ce 9 prep>+ = ! prie/hood3 ,m>*1 #ahhd4--;,i told ,fa!r ,heck]1 9 c\rse ( conv]sation1 ab\t my read+ ! life ( ! ,cure ( ,ars4 ,he said3 ',a sa9tly man inde$1 & "o gift$ ) a sup]natural "* to an extraord9>y degree4 ,b x seems to me t 8 biograph] misund]/ood him some:at4 ,he seems to admit t ! ,cure ( ,ars _h a naturally /upid m9d1 because he _h s mu* difficulty 9 gett+ ?r\gh 8 /udies = ! prie/hood4 ,! tru?1 probably1 0 t j at t "t ! sup]natural action ( ! ,holy ,_s came ^u him & incapacitat$ him = 8 /udies4 ,b ev]y?+ ab\t 8 aft] life %[s t1 ?\gh a ru/ic man1 he _h a good m9d1 a ke5 native wit1 quick & cle> p]ception4 ,i _h some?+ ! same difficulty myself4 ,dur+ my novitiate & /udies "o ( my great tr\bles 0 ! relation betwe5 infus$ k & acquir$ k2 h[ mu* "o's education %\ld be by pray] & h[ mu* by /udy2 ! relation betwe5 ! ,holy ,gho/ & pr(essors4 ,9 ! novitiate !y 7 all too mu* on ! passive side-- unbrok5 devotional & ascetic r\t9e4 ,9 ! /ud5tate1 too mu* on ! active side--leav+ no?+ = infus$ sci5ce & pray] z a "p ( ! me?od ( /udy4 ,!y soon broke me d[n4 ,i told !m s4 ,if ,i w5t on /udy+ ,i w\ld h be5 driv5 mad4 ,let me alone1 ,i said4 ,let me take my own way & ,i w w>rant t ,i w "k en\gh to be orda9$ :5 ! "t comes4 ,!y said ,i 0 a sc&al4 ,!n !y s5t me to ,engl& to ,de ,held4 ,i am p]suad$ t 9 ! /udy ( div9ity n en\gh room is giv5 to pray] & n en\gh acc\nt made ( infus$ sci5ce4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiii ,a ,,r$emptori/ ,,mission>y ,i ,,w\ld n h become a prie/ _h ,i liv$ 9 ,europe1 = ,i nev] _h or c\ld h any /rong attrait = sac]dotal functions4 ,b ,i felt t ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica 0 9 ne$ ( all ! help t c\ld be giv5 by h] *ildr5 = ! "w ( ! prie/hood4 ,fa!r ,heck] said ?is :5 ne> 8 end1 & a full k ( 8 "* bore him out 9 x4 ,! sac]dotal1 ! ecclesia/ical1 7 qualities :i* he _h assum$ ) full consci\sness ( _! sanctity1 yet !y unit$ ) 8 o!r *>act]i/ics 9 a way to leave traces ( ! po9t ( contact4 ,he 0 c]ta9ly an edify+ prie/1 & to he> 8 ,mass 0 to be spiritually elevat$ by 8 joy\s f]vor4 ,b y w\ld nev] say ( him he is a ?or\gh ecclesia/ic1 he is a typical prie/4 ,! ext]nal aids ( religion he imp>t$ ) a rev]5ce :i* display$ 8 fai? 9 8 prie/ly "* z a disp5s] ( ! sacram5tal my/]ies ( ,god4 ,b ! o!r my/]ies ( ,god :i* are hidd5 9 8 provid5tial guidance ( m51 he c\ld exp\nd ) ! in/9ctive famili>ity ( a native gift2 ! voice ( ,god 9 nature1 9 reason1 & 9 consci5ce1 & its response 9 revelation1 he c\ld elicit ) a p[] & unction r>ely met )4 ,he has left ! foll[+ words on record3 ,aft] my ord9ation ! duties ( ! sacr$ m9i/ry appe>$ to me mo/ natural2 ! he>+ ( confessions & ! direction ( s\ls 0 z if x _h be5 a ?+ practis$ f my *ildhood1 & 0 a s\rce ( great consolation4 ,! ye> sp5t 9 ,engl& aft] ord9ation 0 occupi$ by ,fa!r ,heck] ma9ly 9 p>o*ial duties at ,clapham & "s neighbor+ /ations att5d$ by ! ,r$emptori/s ( t h\se4 ,fa!r ,walwor? enjoy$ "s mission>y exp]i5ce ) ,fa!rs ,pe*]9e & ,bugg5oms1 b ,fa!r ,heck] _h only be5 at "o or two small retreats--"o at ,scott-,murray's e/ate 9 company ) ,fa!r ,ludwig & ano!r at t ( ,weld-,blundells 9 ,lanca%ire2 b 9 nei!r ( ^! _h he prea*$ or giv5 any in/ructions1 s]v+ only 9 ! confessional & 9 hunt+ up ob/9ate s9n]s4 ,he c]ta9ly did prea* once be=e leav+ ,engl&1 p]haps only once1 & t 0 at ,great ,m>l[e1 ne> ,london1 9 ! *ur* built by ! ,hornihold family4 ,x 0 on ,ea/] ,sunday1 #ahej1 & 0 well rememb]$ by ,fa!r ,heck] & ref]r$ to 9 aft] ye>s4 ,he ?\ght ! s]mon a good "o z a beg9n+1 b x seems to h giv5 him no enc\ragem5t1 & we v5ture to ?9k t if x pr(it$ 8 he>]s some:at x also amus$ !m a little4 ,he ne$$ a tea*]1 & he f\nd "o 9 ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 ! newly appo9t$ prov9cial ( ! ,am]ican prov9ce4 ,9 #ahej ,fa!r ,b]n>d ,joseph ,hafk5s*eid99 0 made ,prov9cial ( ! ,r$emptori/ h\ses 9 ,am]ica4 ,8 patronymic 0 too =midable = ord9>y use1 & he 0 univ]sally kn[n z ,fa!r ,b]n>d4 ,he 0 9 ! prime ( life on tak+ ?is (fice1 & al?\gh he _h sp5t tw5ty ye>s on ! missions 9 ,holl&1 8 native c\ntry1 9 ,belgium & ,engl&1 he yet %[$ no signs ( ^! labors2 he cont9u$ !m = f\rte5 ye>s long]1 = ! mo/ ( ! "t 9 ! ,ne!rl&s1 8 dea? result+ f accid5t 9 #ahfe4 ,by common cons5t he is rank$ 9 ! highe/ ord] ( popul> prea*]s4 ,he _h ent]$ ! community f ! secul> prie/hood %ortly aft] 8 ord9ation2 he _h made a brilliant c\rse ( /udies at ,rome1 :i* 0 cr[n$ by ! doctorate ( ! ,roman ,college4 ,he 0 physically a tall1 p[]ful man1 & ( maje/ic be>+4 ,8 features 7 full ( intellig5ce1 8 glance p5etrat+1 8 voice cle>1 sympa!tic1 & vibrat+1 8 ge/ures expressive4 ,if half t is h&$ d[n ( ,fa!r ,b]n>d be true1 he 0 a wond]ful prea*] ( p5ance & ( hope1 8 high gifts ( natural eloqu5ce s]v$ by a p]fect education & inspir$ by a mo/ en?usia/ic love ( ! p4 99 ,! read] is ref]r$ to 8 life by ,canon ,claess5s 7,ca?olic ,publication ,society ,co47 ,x is all too brief1 yet is a good summ>y ( ! c>e] ( ! great ,r$emptori/ mission>y1 "o ( ,/4 ,alphonsus' noble/ sons4 ,he 0 a popul> prea*] 9 ! be/ s5se ( ! t]m1 calm 9 demeanor & simple 9 language z he op5$1 b :5 at ! po9t ( f]vor p\r+ =? 8 s\l 9 a fi]y torr5t ( oratory1 ^: only re/ra9t 0 ! inability ( ! human voice to express all t ! he>t conta9$4 ,9 /yle impassion$1 he yet (t5 *ose language bord]+ on ! famili>1 b 0 n vulg>4 ,he is an in/ance ( ! fallacy ( ! say+ t ! prea*] mu/ /oop to 8 auditory if he w\ld be popul>4 ,fa!r ,b]n>d 0 ev] true to himself1 nev] appe>$ less ?an an educat$ prie/ & grave religi\s1 & yet he 0 a mo/ popul> prea*]4 ,! great tru?s ( et]nal life are a univ]sal h]itage1 & ! use ( pla9 words is n gett+ d[n f good /yle ev5 9 ! lit]>y s5se1 & a famili> mann] is a trait ( affection4 ,we h /opp$ ! read] = ?is mom5t ) ,fa!r ,b]n>d because he 0 ,fa!r ,heck]'s tea*] ( mission prea*+ & in/ruct+1 & 0 ev] belov$ by him z an appreciative fri5d & a wise & indulg5t preceptor4 ,he _h made 8 fir/ visit to ,am]ica ) ,fa!r de ,held 9 #ahde1 b rema9$ only a few mon?s to acquire in=mation & ga9 impressions = a report to ! ,rector ,major4 ,he made a second voyage 9 ,janu>y1 #ahdi1 act+ z sup]ior ( ! ,am]ican h\ses1 z ,vice-prov9cial1 & rema9$ ab\t eighte5 mon?s4 ,! ,unit$ ,/ates n[ =m+ a sep>ate prov9ce & ,fa!r ,b]n>d made ,prov9cial1 he dem&$ ,fa!rs ,heck] & ,walwor? z 8 subjects1 & !y 7 giv5 to him4 ,a lett] f ,fa!r ,heck] ann\nces 8 dep>ture = ,new ,york z fix$ = "s "t 9 ,octob]1 #ahij2 b delays occurr$1 & ! foll[+ is an extract f "o to 8 "m1 dat$ ,janu>y #ag1 #ahea2 x says t ! dep>ture is fix$ = "s day ! same mon?3 ,oh6 may ,almighty ,god prosp] our voyage1 & may ,8 sweet & bless$ ,"m be our guide & protector on ! /ormy sea4 ,& may my arrival 9 ,am]ica be = ! good ( _m s\ls :o are /ill w&]+ out ( ! "o flock & away f ! "o %eph]d6 ,i hope t to no "o w x be ( m consolation & b5efit ?an to y1 my de>e/ "m4 ,! %ip 0 nam$ ! ,helvetia & sail$ f ,havre ! #bg? ( ,janu>y1 ! capta9 be+ a g5u9e d[n-ea/ ,yankee1 & ! crew a mix$ assortm5t ( ,engli% & ,am]ican sailors4 ,fa!r ,b]n>d's p>ty consi/$ ( ,fa!rs ,walwor?1 ,heck]1 ,l&t%e]1 ,kittell1 ,dold1 & ,gies51 & ! /ud5ts ,hellemans1 ,muell]1 & ,wir?1 ! ,am]ican fa!rs hav+ come to ,havre f ,london by way ( ,dov]1 ,calais1 & ,p>is4 ,! wea!r 0 unfavorable dur+ ne>ly ! entire voyage1 ! %ip be+ driv5 back into ! ,engli% ,*annel & =c$ to an*or 9 ! ,d[ns4 ,!y 7 beat5 ab\t = two weeks be=e !y got fairly ^u ! ,atlantic1 & :ile cross+ ! ,newf\ndl& banks 7 9 dang] f iceb]gs4 ,ne>ly all ! p>ty 7 m or less sea-sick1 includ+ ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,?is did n prev5t 8 attempt+ ! conv]sion ( ! boatswa91 :o seem$ ! only hopeful subject 9 ! %ip's company4 ,!re 7 a hundr$ & ?irty /e]age pass5g]s1 emigrants = ! mo/ "p f ,prote/ant c\ntries1 ?\gh a p>ty ( ,g>ibaldian refugees & a few equally wild ,fr5*m5 enliv5$ ! monotony ( sea-life by "s bloody fights4 ,!re 7 b two cab9 pass5g]s besides ! ,r$emptori/s1 & ! =m] be+ conf9$ to _! /at]ooms by ne>ly cont9ual sea-sickness1 ! cab9 0 turn$ into a float+ conv5t1 to borr[ ,fa!r ,dold's expression 9 a long lett] descriptive ( ! voyage1 giv5 by ,canon ,claess5s 9 8 ,life ( ,fa!r ,b]n>d4 ,! w9try & /ormy voyage _h already te/$ ! mission>ies' pati5ce = "s weeks1 :5 ,fa!r ,b]n>d in=m$ ! capta9 t he & 8 companions 7 go+ to make a nov5a to ,/4 ,joseph to arrive at ,new ,york on or be=e 8 fea/1 ,m>* ! #ai?4 ,/4 ,joseph w h to d 8 v prettie/ to get u 91 0 ! answ]4 ,& :5 ! %ip 0 /ill f> to ! ea/1 be+ (f ! banks1 & ! wea!r q unfavorable1 & only ?ree days left be=e ! fea/1 ! capta9 call$ out3 ,/4 ,joseph c't d x--give x up1 ,fa!r ,b]n>d4 ,b ! latt] w\ld /ill p]sev]e2 & t night ! w9d *ang$4 ,! ,yankee %ip n[ flew along at ! rate ( f\rte5 miles an h\r4 ,:5 ! eve ( ,/4 ,joseph's ,day came !y 7 wrapp$ 9 a d5se fog1 & ! capta91 dread+ ! ne>ness ( ! coa/1 hove to4 ,:5 day dawn$ ! fog lift$1 & ! %ip 0 f\nd to be (f ,long ,bran*1 & a wreck$ %ip 0 se5 on ! %ore2 %e _h be5 driv5 !re dur+ ! night4 ,! pilot soon came abo>d & !y sail$ ?r\gh ! ,n>r[s & into ! h>bor ( ,new ,york1 hav+ sp5t fifty-two days on ! ocean4 ,z !y approa*$ ! city a little tug-boat 0 se5 com+ to meet !m4 ,x bore ,george & ,john ,heck] & ,mr4 ,mc,master1 ^: cordial greet+s 7 ! fir/ welcome ! "y ,r$emptori/s he>d on _! return to ! ,new ,_w4 ,!y 7 soon at _! home 9 ! conv5t 9 ,?ird ,/reet1 & on ! six? ( ,april foll[+ ! fir/ mission 0 op5$ 9 ,/4 ,joseph's ,*ur*1 ,wa%+ton ,place1 ,new ,york4 ,"h is ,dr4 ,br[nson's greet+1 f 8 home 9 ,*elsea1 ,mass41 receiv$ by ,fa!r ,heck] soon aft] 8 arrival3 ,my v de> fri5d1 y _c imag9e :at pleasure x gives me to le>n ( y\r arrival 9 ,new ,york4 4 4 4 ,i want to see y mu*1 v mu*4 ,y h mu* to tell me t x is ne$ful t ,i %\ld "k1 & ,i beg y to come to see me4 ,tell y\r sup]iors f me t y\r visit to me w be m ?an an act ( *>ity to me p]sonally1 & t x is highly necess>y--n m]ely z a matt] ( pleasure to u two--t we %\ld meet2 & tell !m t ,i e>ne/ly beg to h y come & sp5d a few days ) me4 ,i am sure t !y w p]mit y to d s 9 fur!rance ( ! "w 9 :i* ,i z well z y are engag$1 & ,i h a special reason = wi%+ to see y n[4 ,i w\ld will+ly visit y at ,new ,york or any:]e 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 b !re is no place s appropriate z my own h\se4 4 4 4 ,i am m indebt$ to y = hav+ become a ,ca?olic ?an to any o!r man "u heav51 & :ile y suppos$ ,i 0 lead+ y to ! *ur*1 x 0 y :o l$ me !re4 ,i owe y a debt ( gratitude ,i c nev] repay 4 4 4 ,come1 if possible1 & z soon z possible4 ,at ! ,?ird ,/reet h\se ! new-com]s f\nd ,fa!r ,augu/9e ,f4 ,hewit1 a conv]t f ! ,episcopal ,*ur*1 9 :i* he _h t>ri$ = a few ye>s on 8 way f ,calv9ism to ! true religion4 ,he _h be5 a secul> prie/ = a %ort "t previ\s to ent]+ ! ord]4 ,he 0 direct$ to jo9 ! newly-=m$ mission>y b&1 & 0 de/9$ to be m to ,fa!r ,heck] ?an any o!r man1 & to succe$ him z sup]ior ( ! ,pauli/ community4 ,aft] m ?an five ye>s' abs5ce ,fa!r ,heck] ?us f9ds himself 9 ,am]ica1 ! l& ( 8 apo/olate1 a memb] ( a mission>y community ^: ext]nal vocation is ! prea*+ ( p5ance1 & ! conv]sion ( s9ful ,ca?olics to a good life4 ,a mission is a season ( r5ewal ( ! religi\s life among ! p ( a p>i%4 ,x is a c\rse ( spiritual ex]cises 9 :i* ! pr9ciples ( religion are call$ =? & plac$ 9 m active control ( m5's conduct1 & by means ( :i* _! emotional nature is /imulat$ to grief = s91 love ( ,god1 ye>n+ = et]nal happ9ess4 ,! s]mons & in/ructions are giv5 twice1 & sometimes (t5]1 ea* day1 dur+ ! e>ly morn+s & 9 ! ev5+s4 ,^! ex]cises are conduct$ 9 ! p>i% *ur*1 b n by ! p>i% cl]gy4 ,! p see among !m ! memb]s ( a religi\s ord]1 m5 set ap>t1 by ! int]ior t\* ( ! ,holy ,_s & ! public approval ( ! *ur*1 = ?is p>ticul> "w--p[]ful prea*]s1 confessors z indefatigable z !y are pati5t1 prie/s full ( ma/]ful zeal1 mov+ 9 discipl9$ accord toge!r aga9/ vice4 ,! call !y address to ! p is ! p]emptory "o3 ,d p5ance1 = ! k+dom ( heav5 is at h&4 ,_! words are giv5 =? n f ! usual pulpit1 b f a plat=m at ! communion rail+1 & 9 ! pres5ce ( a high black cross set up 9 ! sanctu>y4 ,!y we> no surplice or /ole :ile prea*+1 ! only insignia ( _! (fice be+ a crucifix on _! brea/s4 ,! bi%op usually ext5ds to !m great] p[]s ?an are commonly giv5 = reconcil+ s9n]s :o h incurr$ ecclesia/ical c5sures4 ,! ,holy ,see emp[]s !m to ext5d ! mo/ abundant spiritual favors 9 its gift 9 ! =m ( indulg5ces1 & ! pa/or in=ms ! congregation sev]al ,sundays be=eh& t he expects ! entire ,ca?olic population ( 8 p>i% to att5d ! mission & receive ! sacram5ts4 ,to be absorb$ 9 su* labors z above describ$ 0 n ! prim>y object ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s vocation1 b he accept$ 8 place joyfully z *os5 by ! evid5t w ( ,god4 ,! mission>y life 0 nev] 9 8 eyes :at ! read] might surmise x to be--a m]e int]lude 9 8 c>e]1 a p]iod ( pati5t wait+4 ,su* is f> f hav+ be5 ! case4 ,! missions are em95t works ( ,ca?olic zeal1 & !re is n any vocation kn[n to ! active m9i/ry :i* may n commute ) !m on equal t]ms4 ,human nature has nev] felt influ5ces m deeply religi\s ?an ^? set at "w by missions1 recall+ ! effects ( ! prea*+ ( ! ,apo/les !mselves4 ,remorse ( consci5ce1 loa?+ = s91 t]ror at ! div9e wra?1 confid5ce 9 ,god1 sympa?y = our crucifi$ ,savi\r1 ! ec/atic joy ( ! new-f\nd div9e fri5d%ip1 utt] contempt = ! maxims ( ! _w1 iron det]m9ation to love ,god to ! end--^! are ! s5tim5ts :i*1 by ! prea*+ ( missions1 are made to dom9ate entire p>i%es 9 a degree simply m>vell\s4 ,nor c x be said t ^! dispositions are fleet+4 ,all[+ = exceptions1 especially 9 l>ge cities1 _! p]man5cy is (t5 an evid5ce ( ! solidity ( ! motives :i* inspir$ !m1 z well z ( ! sup]natural graces :i* gave !m life4 ,e mission>y w be> witness1 z ,fa!r ,heck] (t5 did1 t he has nev] assi/$ at a mission 9 :i* he 0 n pr(\ndly impress$ by ! te>s ( h>d5$ s9n]s4 ,e p>i% prie/1 h[ev] mu* he may regret ! backslid+ ( "s1 w te/ify to ! valuable results ( missions among 8 p3 ! quick5+ ( fai? & ! revival ( sup]natural motives1 drunk>ds re=m$1 re/itutions made1 lu/ cleans$ away1 families unit$1 ! *ur* ?rong$ ) wor%ipp]s1 saloons des]t$4 ,fa!r ,heck] nev] ?\ght t all ?is 0 too de>ly b\ght by ! dre>y toil ( ! confessional1 ! discom=ts ( = ev] *ang+ resid5ces & liv+ 9 /range places1 nor ev5 by ! gr[+ n]ve-tr\bles :i* ! fa!rs are (t5 subject to1 f bra9s sup]heat$ ov] & ov] aga9 9 ! burn+ fires ( mission prea*+4 ,fa!r ,heck] did n ?9k ! privileges ( su* a life too de>ly b\ght ev5 by ! po/ponem5t ( 8 prop] apo/olate1 & 0 ev] glad ( 8 labors z a mission>y4 ,!y s*ool$ him 9 public speak+4 ,9 8 antec$5ts !re 0 abundant reason = diffid5ce1 & he knew full well t :at 0 good en\gh language = an h>angue to ! ,sev5? ,w>d ,democracy w\ld be ridicul\s 9 a ,ca?olic pulpit4 ,nor 0 he deceiv$ into ! notion ( 8 ability to prea* because he c\ld influ5ce m5 9 private4 ,conv]sation is n public speak+1 & ! defects ( gramm>1 or any o!r su* defects1 if p>don$ 9 an e>ne/ & hone/ man 9 private int]*ange ( views1 if committ$ on ! public ro/rum are unp>donable & are usually fatal4 ,fa!r ,heck] f\nd 9 ! incessant practice ( ! mission>y plat=m1 & 9 ! assi/ance ( 8 pres5t sup]ior1 exactly :at he ne$$ by way ( prep>ation4 ,besides ! mission s]mon at night--! great s]mon1 z x 0 call$--!re is a %ort doctr9al in/ruction at ! same s]vice & a moral "o on ! sacram5ts or comm&m5ts 9 ! morn+4 ,^! became 8 %>e ( ! mission prea*+1 & ! s*ool 9 :i* he acquir$ t direct1 conv9c+1 & popul> mann] ( disc\rse = :i* he 0 aft]w>ds r5[n$ z a lectur]4 ,we f9d ! foll[+ among ! memor&a3 ,:5 ,i came ov] to ,am]ica ) ,fa!rs ,b]n>d & ,walwor?1 ,b]n>d want$ to "k :at ,i c\ld d4 ,well1 by t "t ,i _h giv5 up all hopes ( any public c>e]4 ,i c\ldn't prea*4 ,my memory & intellectual faculties g5]ally 7 s influ5c$ by my int]ior /ate t !ology 0 out ( ! "q4 ,! lights t ,god _h giv5 me ab\t ! future /ate ( religion 9 ?is c\ntry 7 /ill cle> z ev]1 b ,i ?\ght t ,i %\ld h to conf9e myself to imp>t+ !m to p>ticul> & individual s\ls :om ! provid5ce ( ,god %\ld ?r[ 9 my way2 = ,i 0 p]suad$ t ! ,r$emptori/ community 0 unfitt$ = ! future "w ,i _h caught a glimpse ( & ,i 0 entirely cont5t$ to live & die a ,r$emptori/1 & 0 q c]ta9 t ,i %\ld4 ,s1 :5 ,b]n>d ask$ me :at ,i c\ld d1 ,i told him to get me "s place z *apla9 ( a prison or public in/itution ( *>ity1 z t 0 ab\t all t ,i 0 capable (4 ,b he ?\ght diff]5tly4 ,my fir/ in/ructions on ! missions 7 almo/ ^w = ^w giv5 me by ,b]n>d4 ,i didn't seem to h a s+le ?\ght ( my own4 ,to prea*1 :e!r to ,ca?olics or to non-,ca?olics1 "o mu/ le>n h[1 & ,fa!r ,heck] ) all 8 gifts knew t ?is gift seldom comes f above except by way ( rew>d = /eady labor4 ,! opportunity ( ! missions1 & ( ,fa!r ,b]n>d z a guide1 0 eag]ly accept$ 9 lieu ( ! prison *apla9cy4 ,! missions also enabl$ him to "k ! ,ca?olic p4 ,! non-,ca?olics he already knew f vivid recollection ( 8 own =m] /ate & f t ( 8 e>ly surr\nd+s2 ,brook ,f>m & ,fruitl&s _h complet$ 8 k ( ! outside _w2 b ! ,r$emptori/ novitiate & /ud5tate & 8 soj\rn 9 ,engl& did n give him a simil> k ( ! ,ca?olic p1 prie/hood1 & hi]>*y4 ,to ! av]age look]-on ,ca?olicity is :at ,ca?olics are1 & ,ca?olics 9 ,am]ica view$ f a /&po9t ( morality 7 !n & /ill are a v mix$ population4 ,:y ! fruits are worse ?an ! tree is a sore p]plexity ev5 to exp]t controv]siali/s1 & ,fa!r ,heck] _h ne$ to equip himself well = meet+ t difficulty1 a pat5t "o 9 ! ru%+ tide ( /rick5 immigrants !n p\r+ into ,am]ica4 ,! missions are an unequall$ s*ool = le>n+ m54 ,all m5 & wom5 9 a p>i% are made kn[n to ! mission>y1 = !y walk or /umble ?r\gh 8 v s\l4 ,nor c "o fail to see ! use ( missions z an evid5ce to ! non-,ca?olic public itself ( ! sup]natural p[] ( ,ca?olicity ov] m5's lives4 ,to practical p l ,am]icans !re is no oral or writt5 evid5ce ( ! true religion s valid z ! spectacle ( its p[] to *ange bad m5 into good ones4 ,su* a p w accept argum5ts f hi/ory & f ,scripture1 b ^? ( a moral k9d !y dem&2 !y mu/ see ! !ories at "w4 ,a mission is a microcosm ( ! *ur* z a moral =ce4 ,x %[s a p[]ful grasp ( human nature & an easy supremacy ov] x4 ,x is an en]getic1 calm1 & clean-sweep+ influ5ce = good1 bold 9 its *oice ( ! mo/ sublime tru?s ( sup]natural religion z ! sole motives ( rep5tance4 ,& x uni=mly a*ieves s complete a victory ov] ! be/-entr5*$ vices t non-,ca?olic prejudice is inv>iably %ak5 at ! spectacle4 ,& 9 ,am]ica ! pione] "w ( ! apo/olate mu/ be to remove prejudice4 ,! "* ( ! m5 :o conduct ^! ex]cises1 _! c\rage1 intellig5ce1 devot$ness1 discipl9e1 & ready comm& ( ! p2 ! indiscrim9ate humanity :i* ru%es to he> !m1 to pray1 to confess _! s9s1 to li/5 ) mute att5tion--long be=e day-break & 9 ! h\rs ( re/ aft] "w--all reg>dless ( social diff]5ces or ( moral ones1 soon become well kn[n to ! public & g5]ally excite comm5t 9 ! press4 ,all ?is contributes to prep>e non-,ca?olics to he> f ! same tea*]s ! invitation :i* our ,"l int5d$ 9 say+3 ,o!r %eep ,i h :i* are n ( ?is fold2 !m also mu/ ,i br+1 & !y %all he> my voice1 & !re %all be "o fold & "o %eph]d4 ,fur!rmore1 x 0 necess>y t ,fa!r ,heck] %\ld be made p]sonally kn[n to ! bi%ops & prie/s ( ! c\ntry4 ,! "t 0 com+ :5 he w\ld h a public cause to advance1 & _! approval is a necess>y sign ( div9e favor4 ,n[1 ! mission>y is closely /udi$ by !m & soon is intimately kn[n1 = !re are too _m ?+s 9 common betwe5 prie/s b t !y c readily te/ ea* o!r4 ,be=e ! ,pauli/ community _h be5 organiz$1 ,fa!r ,heck] _h be5 ! gue/ ( ! mo/ prom95t cl]gym5 ( ! entire ,unit$ ,/ates1 & ( _m ev5 9 ! ,briti% ,prov9ces1 & 0 a well-kn[n man ?r\gh\t ! ,ca?olic community4 ,meantime ! humiliations ( 8 /udy-"t _h be5 quickly recov]$ f1 if !y _h ev] be5 a real h9drance to public ef=t1 & we f9d no sign ( prote/ on 8 "p or ( reque/ to be let (f f giv+ in/ructions beyond 8 answ] to ,fa!r ,b]n>d z above record$4 ,z he lov$ 8 v[s z a ,r$emptori/1 s he lov$ ! "w ( ! missions1 because !y 7 ,god's w = him2 because !y are a "w ( ! highe/ ord] ( good = s\ls2 because ! reputation ( ,ca?olicity is always rais$ 9 a community by a mission1 & a good "n is necess>y = a controv]sial /&+2 because 9 !m he daily le>n$ m ( m5 & ( ! means to w9 !m2 & because ! memb]s ( ! div9e ord] ( ! episcopate & secul> prie/hood mu/ be well kn[n by him & he well kn[n to !m be=e any ext5sive "w c\ld be done among non-,ca?olics2 & ! mission>y becomes a famili> fri5d ev]y:]e he goes4 ,h5ce controv]sial s]mons 7 sometimes prea*$ dur+ ! missions1 lectures ( ! same sort giv5 aft] !m1 & dur+ _! cont9uance _m conv]ts receiv$ into ! *ur*4 ,fa!r ,heck]1 z we h tri$ to %[ ! read]1 0 a v obs]vant nature1 always le>n+ lessons f life1 & ready to try 8 'pr5tice h& on :at mat]ial (f]$ 9 ! way ( conv]t+ ,prote/ants at e opportunity public & private4 ,nev]!less1 ! missions c\ld n be made ! ord9>y *annel ( direct influ5ces = turn+ sceptics & ,prote/ants to ! true religion4 ,! attempt to make !m s1 involv+1 z x does1 a notable int]sp]sion ( controv]sial s]mons1 has nev] be5 tri$ by ! ,r$emptori/ or ,pauli/ ,fa!rs to our k1 & :5 done by o!rs has result$ 9 n en\gh ( controv]sy = mak+ solid conv]ts1 & too little p5it5tial prea*+ = ! prop] re=mation ( h>d s9n]s among ,ca?olics4 ,fa!r ,heck] fully appreciat$ ?is4 ,he ?rew himself into ! mission "w j z x 0 ) ! utmo/ ardor1 & le>n+ f ,fa!r ,b]n>d h[ to prep>e ! matt] = ! morn+ & ev5+ in/ructions1 8 natural gifts1 toge!r ) h9ts & sugge/ions f 8 bre?r51 suppli$ him ) ! be/ possible mann] ( giv+ !m4 ,! writ] has (t5 s]v$ on missions 9 p>i%es :]e ,fa!r ,b]n>d's new-=m$ b& _h prea*$ 9 =m] ye>s1 & ! te/imony is univ]sal t z a doctr9al & moral in/ructor ,fa!r ,heck] 0 unequall$ among mission>ies4 ,he 0 s frank1 s cle>1 s lively1 s impressible1 &1 9 a c]ta9 way1 s humor\s1 t he c>ri$ ! p away ) him4 ,& he c>ri$ !m all1 high & l[1 le>n$ & simple4 ,) p]sons ( education 8 homely words did n break ! *>m1 nor did 8 simple b extremely well *os5 illu/rations d s--all tak51 z !y 71 f common life or ! lives & writ+s ( ! sa9ts4 ,he nev] prea*$ ! great s]mons & nev] aspir$ to d x4 ,he nev] s\ght to ar\se t]ror or to be pa!tic4 ,he always reason$ & in/ruct$4 ,9 tru?1 he 0 n compet5t to deal adequately ) su* subjects z ,dea?1 ,judgm5t1 & ,hell--t is to say1 z !y are prea*$ at missions1 = ! emotions h hone/ rights on su* occasions1 & ,fa!r ,heck] ackn[l$g$ 8 defici5cy 9 emotional oratory4 ,b1 to tell y ! qualities ( true sorr[1 or to %[ y h[ to make a true confession1 to picture ! manl9ess ( virtue & ! dignity ( ! ,*ri/ian /ate1 he 0 unsurpass$4 ,& ! g5]al effect rema9+ aft] 8 in/ructions 0 always a bright und]/&+ ( j :at to d = a good life1 ) _m happy examples to aid ! memory1 toge!r ) a /rong p]sonal affection = ! holy man :o %[$ religion to be a mo/ happy z well z mo/ reasonable s]vice ( ,god4 ,to 8 p5it5ts 9 ! confessional he 0 ev] mo/ k9d & pati5t4 ,no s*ool ( p]fection1 he once said1 c equal ! self-d5ial necess>y to he> confessions well4 ,god is n[ rew>d+ him1 we tru/1 = ! *e]ful1 (t5 ev5 bant]+1 words ( enc\ragem5t he gave to ! multitudes ( poor s9n]s :o knelt at 8 feet dur+ ! toilsome ye>s he sp5t on ! missions2 & = ! enlight5m5t & enc\ragem5t ( 8 big-he>t$ influ5ce1 & = 8 trumpet notes ( hope 9 ! e>ly morn+ in/ructions4 ,aft] ! h>d p\nd+ ( ! night s]mons x is always s\ght to pick ! s9n] up out ( ! du/ & to he>t5 him by ! e>ly in/ructions1 z well z to guide him to ! precise me?ods & means ( re=m & ( a good life = ! future4 ,z to ! sacram5t ( p5ance1 ! say+ ( ,/4 ,alphonsus is a maxim ) u all3 ,be a lion 9 ! pulpit1 b a lamb 9 ! confessional4 ,! read] mu/ indulge u 9 ?us dwell+ s long on ! ,ca?olic missions1 = we are incl9$ to say _m words ( praise ( s lovely a life1 9 :i* ! same m5 s[ & reap a great h>ve/ 9 ! same week1 exp5d _! vitality 9 prea*+ ! ^w & adm9i/]+ ! sacram5ts & com=t+ s9n]s :o are :olly brok5 d[n ) ! true/ contrition4 ,9 #ahea ! ,am]ican ,r$emptori/s _h be=e !m a mission>y field almo/ unt\*$4 ,public retreats _h be5 giv5 f "t to "t 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates by ,jesuits & o!rs1 b ! mission op5$ at ,/4 ,joseph's ,*ur*1 ,new ,york ,city1 on ,passion ,sunday1 #ahea1 0 ! fir/ mission ( a regul> s]ies c>ri$ on sy/ematically by a body ( m5 especially devot$ to ! vocation4 ,! m]it ( inaugurat+ !m is *iefly due to ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 :o _h no hesitation 9 gett+ to "w ) 8 ?ree ,am]ican fa!rs2 ?\gh ,fa!r ,joseph ,muell]1 rector ( ! ,?ird ,/reet conv5t1 & ,rev4 ,joseph ,mc,carron1 ! rector ( ,/4 ,joseph's ,*ur*1 _h some?+ to d 9 arrang+ ! details & 9 facilitat+ ! "w4 ,sev]al ,r$emptori/s f ,?ird ,/reet help$ 9 ! confessionals499 99 ,obs]v]s ( co9cid5ces w be int]e/$ to notice ! arrival ( ! mission>ies 9 ,am]ica on ,/4 ,joseph's day1 "u ! ,prov9cial ,b]n>d ,joseph ,hafk5s*eid1 to op5 _! fir/ mission at ,/4 ,joseph's ,*ur*1 ! pa/or be+ ,joseph ,mc,carron1 ! mission hav+ be5 negotiat$ by ,joseph ,muell]1 ! rector ( ! ,?ird ,/reet conv5t4 ,fa!r ,heck] _h a special devotion = ,/4 ,joseph4 ,we h space = only ! foll[+ extracts f ! brief record ( ! missions1 pres]v$ by ! fa!rs4 ,!y illu/rate h[ e>ne/ly ,fa!r ,heck] work$4 ,9 ! record ( ! second mission at ,loretto1 ,pa41 we f9d ?is3 ,! in/ructions & ,ros>y 7 g5]ally giv5 by ,fa!r ,heck]1 :o receiv$ f ! p ! "n ( ,fa!r ,m>y4 4 4 4 ,dur+ ! fir/ few days ! p did n att5d well2 b aft] ,fa!r ,heck] _h gone ?r\gh ! village & among a clique ( "y m5 :o 7 indiff]5t & disaffect$ to ! cl]gy1 & ! evil g5iuses ( ! place1 & aft] "s f]v5t exhortations _h be5 made to ! p1 !y flock$ to ! mission & cr[d$ ! *ur*4 ,at ,john/[n1 ,pa43 ,aft] two or ?ree days a man happ5$ to die on ! railroad1 & all ! m5 at t /ation1 p]haps a hundr$ 9 numb]1 accompani$ ! corpse to ! *ur*4 ,fa!r ,heck] seiz$ ! opportunity to address !m & to give !m a mission f]v]oso4 ,& ! next day he w5t on horseback1 accompani$ by ! pa/or1 ,fa!r ,mull5 7s9ce ,bi%op ( ,erie71 to sev]al /ations & address$ ! m51 invit+ !m to att5d ! mission4 ,! result 0 successful4 ,procession aft] procession m>*$ 91 fill+ ! *ur*1 & numb]s ( !m /ay$ all day1 ly+ on ! grass ab\t ! *ur*4 4 4 4 ,fa!r ,heck] call$ out a not$ politician1 :o _h n be5 to ! sacram5ts = _m ye>s until ! mission1 to receive ! scapul> z an example1 & ! good man did n fail to receive a pl5tiful supply ( holy wat] f ! vigor\s arm ( ! said fa!r4 ,! foll[+ entry 9 ! record "u date ( ,febru>y1 #aheb1 made aft] a mission giv5 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s ,*ur*1 ,troy1 ,n4,y41 w be ( int]e/ to mission>ies1 & to o!rs :o are obs]vant ( _! me?ods3 ,at ,y\ng/[n1 ,pa41 7! prec$+ ,decemb]7 ! exp]im5t ( prea*+ f a plat=m _h be5 successfully tri$ & 0 repeat$ "h1 z at o!r missions s9ce 7,y\ng/[n74 ,on ! plat=m a l>ge black cross1 "s t5 feet or m 9 height1 0 erect$1 f ! arms ( :i* a :ite musl9 clo? 0 susp5d$4 ,?is use ( cross & plat=m has ?us be5 regul>ly introduc$ into ! missions4 ,previ\sly x _h be5 ! cu/om to erect a l>ge cross out ( doors 9 front ( ! *ur* z "o ( ! clos+ c]emonies ( ! mission4 ,fa!rs ,heck]1 ,hewit1 & ,walwor?1 l$ by ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 made a unique b& ( mission>ies1 "o1 we ?9k1 h>dly equall$ s9ce !y yield$ _! place to o!rs4 ,ea* 0 a man ( m>k$ individuality1 ^: di/9ct p]sonality 0 by no means obscur$ by ! /rict con=mity to rule evid5t 9 _! behavior4 ,fa!rs ,hewit & ,walwor? 7 orators1 diff]+ mu* f ea* o!r1 bo? full ( p[]4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 a born p]suad] ( m51 & c\ld tea* z a gift ( nature1 e>ne/ 9 m9d & mann]4 ,8 two companions saw him le>n by h>d "w h[ s to modulate 8 voice & to manage x & 8 mann] z to exactly suit himself to 8 duties z ! in/ructor ( ! b&1 :ile !y deliv]$ f9i%$ disc\rses at ! night s]vices1 _m ( !m ma/]pieces ( mission oratory4 ,_! v poise & glance on ! plat=m /ill$ ! *ur*1 & _! noble rhetoric clo!d appeals to ! intellig5ce & to ! he>t 9 mo/ attractive g>b4 ,9 ,fa!r ,heck] y saw a man :o want$ to p]suade y because he 0 "r & knew x1 & because he 0 deeply int]e/$ 9 y\r welf>e4 ,he s\ght no display1 & yet held y fa/ to him by eye & e>4 ,he _h no tricks to cat* applause1 = he _h no vanity4 ,he said :at he lik$1 = he 0 totally devoid ( diffid5ce or awkw>dness1 & 8 be/ aid 0 8 inv>iable equipm5t ( an e>ne/ purpose4 ,b ,i don't believe1 said ,fa!r ,walwor? to ! writ]1 t ,demo/h5es ev] work$ ?r\gh great] difficulties ?an ,fa!r ,heck] 9 mak+ himself a good public speak]4 ,fa!r ,b]n>d manag$ ! missions = ! fir/ ye>1 & dealt ) ! pa/ors z sup]ior ( ! b&1 mean:ile dev\r+ m ?an 8 %>e ( ! "w 9 ! confessional4 ,! lea/ exp]i5ce %[s t !re c be little ( ! discipl9e ( ! b>racks ord] on ! missions1 & all ! fa!rs mu/ ( necessity consult toge!r1 ! sup]ior lead+ 9 ! obs]vance ( su* community devotional cu/oms z are possible1 & sett+ a good example 9 /oop+ to ! burd5s :i* all mu/ be>4 ,z to ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 ! ,am]icans c\ld only admire & love him4 ,9 8 own tongue a r5[n$ orator1 he yet nev] prea*$ 9 ,engli% :ile ) ^! ?ree m5 unless on r>e occasions1 su* z :5 "o ( !m 0 prev5t$ by sickness4 ,f him !y receiv$ ! mann] ( giv+ missions h&$ d[n f ,/4 ,alphonsus1 & !y h transmitt$ ! tradition to _! spiritual *ildr5 9 all its integrity4 ,ne>ly two ye>s pass$ ( h>d mission>y campaign+ "u ,fa!r ,b]n>d1 :5 he 0 recall$ to ,europe1 & ,fa!r ,alex&] ,cvitcovicz took 8 place4 ,8 la/ "n 0 seldom us$1 = ! same evid5t reason z 9 8 pr$ecessor's case4 ,fa!r ,alex&] 0 a ,magy>1 pa/ ! m]idian ( life1 long accu/om$ to missions 9 ,europe1 le>n$1 dev\t1 k9dly1 & ( a zeal :i* seem$ to aspire at utt] self-annihilation 9 ! s]vice ( s9n]s4 ',x 0 n unusual = ,fa!r ,alex&]1 says ,fa!r ,hewit 9 8 memoir ( ,fa!r ,bak]1 to sit 9 8 confessional = t5 days 9 succession = fifte5 or sixte5 h\rs ea* day4 ,he in/ruct$ ! little *ildr5 :o 7 prep>+ = ! sacram5ts1 b nev] prea*$ any ( ! great s]mons4 ,9 8 gov]nm5t ( ! fa!rs :o 7 "u him he 0 g5tl5ess1 consid]ation1 & indulg5ce itself4 ,9 8 own life & example he pres5t$ a patt]n ( ! mo/ p]fect religi\s virtue1 9 its mo/ attractive =m1 )\t con/ra9t1 au/]ity1 or moros5ess1 & yet )\t relaxation f ! mo/ ascetic pr9ciples4 ,he 0 a mo/ ?or\ghly accompli%$ & le>n$ man 9 _m bran*es ( secul> & sacr$ sci5ce & 9 ! f9e arts2 & 9 ! ,g]man language1 :i* 0 z famili> to him z 8 native language1 he 0 among ! be/ prea*]s ( 8 ord]4 4 4 4 ,we w5t ?r\gh sev]al long & h>d mission>y campaigns "u 8 direction1 until at la/ we left him1 9 ! ye> #ahed1 9 ! conv5t at ,new ,orleans1 worn out ) labor1 to ex*ange 8 ardu\s mission>y "w = ! light] duties ( ! p>i%4 ,fa!r ,walwor? n[ became sup]ior1 & ! missions w5t on 9 ! same _s & ) ! same success z be=e4 ,9 ! record ( ! "o giv5 at ! *ur* ( ,our ,lady1 ,/> ( ! ,sea1 ,brooklyn1 we f9d ! foll[+ entry3 ,mission>ies1 ,fa!rs ,walwor?1 ,heck]1 ,hewit1 & ,george ,de%on 7late lieu-t5ant ,ordnance1 ,u4 ,s4 ,a41 a conv]t f ! ,episcopal ,*ur*4 ,?is 0 8 fir/ mission74 ,fa!r ,de%on _h be5 orda9$ n long be=e1 & soon began to %>e ! in/ructions ) ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,?is 0 9 ,febru>y1 #ahef1 & 9 ,novemb] ( ! same ye>1 at ,/4 ,patrick's ,mission1 ,wa%+ton1 ,d4 ,c41 !y 7 jo9$ by ,fa!r ,francis ,a4 ,bak]1 orda9$ 9 ! prec$+ ,septemb]1 a di/+ui%$ conv]t f ! ,episcopal m9i/ry ( ! city ( ,baltimore4 ,mu* we w\ld say ( him1 8 eloqu5ce & 8 v amiable traits ( "*1 b all ?is & m is well said by ,fa!r ,hewit1 9 8 memoir ( ,fa!r ,bak]1 publi%$ aft] ! latt]'s dea? 9 #ahfe 7,ca?olic ,publication ,society ,co47 ,?is increase ( memb]s all[$ a division ( ! b& = small]-siz$ missions4 ,9 our judgm5t ^? m5 7 a b& ( mission>ies ! l ( :om h n s]v$ ! great cause among ! ,engli%-speak+ races ^! rec5t g5]ations4 ,fa!rs ,walwor?1 ,hewit1 & ,de%on h surviv$ _! companions ( ^? e>ly days1 & may !y long rema9 ) u1 calm & beautiful & dev\t old vet]ans ( ! div9e w>f>e ( peace6 ,fa!r ,heck] gave sev]al retreats to religi\s communities ( m5 & ( wom5 dur+ ! six or sev5 ye>s we are consid]+1 devot+ = ! purpose portions ( ! summ] mon?s usually unoccupi$ by missions4 ,copies ( notes ( 8 conf]5ces1 tak5 d[n by "s ( 8 he>]s1 are 9 our possession & may aid u fur!r on 9 giv+ ! read] a view ( 8 spiritual doctr9e4 ,! foll[+ extract f ! ,roman /atem5t summ>izes :at we h be5 tell+ 9 ?is *apt]1 & introduces ! read] to ,fa!r ,heck]'s fir/ mission>y activity z a writ]3 ,my sup]iors s5t me back to ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & on my return be+ ask$ by my imm$iate sup]ior 9 :at way he c\ld be/ employ me1 my reply 01 9 tak+ c>e ( ! sick1 ! poor1 & ! prison]s4 ,! /upidity :i* /ill reign$ ov] my intellectual faculties1 & ! helplessness ( my w1 & my sympa?y ) ^? classes l$ me to *oose su* a sph]e ( action z mo/ suitable to my !n condition4 ,& al?\gh ! conv]sion ( ! non-,ca?olics ( my fell[-c\ntrym5 0 ev] be=e my m9d1 yet ,god left me 9 ignorance h[ ?is 0 to be accompli%$4 ,su* /rong & deep impulses1 & s va/ 9 _! rea*1 took possession ( my s\l on my return to ! ,unit$ ,/ates 9 reg>d to ! conv]sion ( ! ,am]ican p1 t on manife/+ my int]ior to "o ( ! mo/ spiritually enlight5$ & exp]i5c$ fa!rs ( ! congregation on ! subject to obta9 8 direction1 he bade me n to resi/ ^! int]ior movem5ts1 !y came f ,god2 & t ,god w\ld yet employ me 9 accordance ) !m4 ,su* 7 8 words4 ,aft] a few weeks 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ! "w ( ! missions began4 ,my pr9cipal duties on ^! 7 to give public in/ructions & he> confessions1 & up to ?is "t 7#aheh7 ^! mission>y labors h occupi$ me almo/ exclusively4 ,! bless+s ( ,god ^u our missions 7 mo/ evid5t & mo/ abundant & my %>e 9 !m mo/ consol+1 z usually ! mo/ ab&on$ s9n]s fell to my lot4 ,b holy & important z ! ex]cises ( ! missions among ,ca?olics are1 /ill ?is "w did n correspond to my int]ior attrait1 & ?\gh exhau/$ & frequ5tly made ill f excessive fatigue 9 ^! duties1 yet my ard5t & con/ant desire to d some?+ = my non-,ca?olic c\ntrym5 l$ me to take up my p54 ,t took place z foll[s3 ,"o day alone 9 my cell ! ?\ght sudd5ly /ruck me h[ great 7 my privileges & my joy s9ce my becom+ a ,ca?olic1 & h[ great 7 my tr\bles & agony ( s\l be=e ?is ev5t6 ,alas6 h[ _m ( my =m] fri5ds & acqua9tances1 h[ _m ( ! great body ( ! ,am]ican p 7 9 ! same mo/ pa9ful position4 ,_c some?+ be done to lead !m to ! k ( ! tru?8 ,p]haps if ! way t div9e ,provid5ce _h l$ me to ! *ur* 0 %[n to !m _m ( !m might 9 ?is way be l$ also to see ! tru?4 ,?is ?\ght1 & ) x ! hope ( induc+ "y m5 to ent] into religi\s ord]s1 produc$ 9 a few mon?s f my p5 a book entitl$ ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l4 ,! ma9 features ( ?is book are ! pro(s t ! ,sacram5ts ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* satisfy fully all ! wants ( ! he>t4 4 4 4 ,b ! head 0 left to be yet conv]t$2 ?is ?\ght l$ me to write a second book1 call$ ,aspirations ( ,nature2 & :i* has = its aim to %[ t ! tru?s ( ! ,ca?olic fai? answ] completely to ! dem&s ( reason4 ,my purpose 9 ^! two books 0 to expla9 ! ,ca?olic religion 9 su* a mann] z to rea* & attract ! m9ds ( ! non-,ca?olics ( ! ,am]ican p4 ,^! books 7 reg>d$ 9 my own secret ?\ghts z ! te/ :e!r ,god _h really giv5 to me ! grace & vocation to labor 9 a special mann] = ! conv]sion ( ^! p4 ,! fir/ book1 ) ,god's grace1 has be5 ! means ( _m & signal conv]sions 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,engl&1 & 9 a %ort p]iod pass$ ?r\gh ?ree editions4 ,! second has be5 publi%$ s9ce my arrival 9 ,rome4 4 4 ,on an occasion ( a public conf]5ce 7disc\rse7 giv5 by me be=e an audi5ce1 a great "p ( :i* 0 n ,ca?olic1 ! matt] & mann] ( :i* 0 tak5 f my second book1 my fell[-mission>ies 7 pres5t2 & !y z well z myself reg>d$ ?is z a te/ :e!r my views & s5tim5ts 7 adapt$ to rea* & conv9ce ! und]/&+ & he>ts ( ?is class ( p1 or 7 ! m]e illusions ( fancy4 ,hi!rto my fell[-mission>ies _h %[n b little sympa?y ) my ?\ghts on ^! po9ts1 b at ! close ( ! conf]5ce !y 7 ( "o m9d t my vocation 0 evid5tly to "w 9 ! direction ( ! conv]sion ( ! non-,ca?olics1 & !y spoke ( su* a "w ) conviction & en?usiasm4 ,?is la/ ev5t occurr$ 9 ,/4 ,patrick's ,*ur*1 ,norfolk1 ,va41 9 ,april1 #ahif1 & is ?us m5tion$ by ,fa!r ,hewit 9 ! record ( ! mission3 ,fa!r ,heck] clos$ ) an extremely eloqu5t & popul> lecture on ',popul> ,objections to ,ca?olicity4' ,! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l 0 well nam$1 = x und]takes to %[ h[ ! crav+s ( man = div9e union may be satisfi$4 ,x does ?is by discuss+ ! problem ( human de/9y1 affirm+ ! ne$ ( ,god = ! s\l's light & = its virtue1 prov+ ?is by argum5ts drawn f ! in/9cts1 faculties1 & a*ievem5ts ( man4 ,! s5se ( want 9 man is ! univ]sal argum5t = 8 ne$ ( m ?an human fruition1 & 9 ! moral ord] is ! irrefragable pro( ( bo? 8 own dignity & 8 incapacity to make himself wor?y ( x4 ,fa!r ,heck] urg$ 9 ?is book t man is born to be m ?an equal to himself--an evid5t pro( ( ! ne$ ( a sup]human or sup]natural religion4 ,elev5 *apt]s1 mak+ "o-?ird ( ! volume1 are devot$ to %[+ ?is1 & include ! au?or's own it9]>ium f 8 fir/ consci\sness ( ! supreme "q ( ! s\l until its f9al answ] 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 embrac+ %ort acc\nts ( ! ,brook ,f>m & ,fruitl&s communities1 & m5tion ( o!r su* abortive attempts at solution4 ,?ree *apt]s !n affirm & briefly develop ! claim ( ,*ri/ to be ! entire fulfilm5t ( ! s\l's ne$ = ,god1 ) ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* z 8 *os5 means & in/rum5t4 ,^! are entitl$ respectively1 ,! ,model ,man1 ,! ,model ,life1 & ,! ,idea ( ! ,*ur*4 ,?ree m *apt]s discuss ,prote/antism1 /at+ its commone/ doctr9es & cit+ its mo/ compet5t witnesses 9 pro( ( its total & (t5 admitt$ inadequacy to lead man to 8 de/9y4 ,br++ ! read] back to ! ,*ur*1 ! f\rte5 la/ *apt]s fully develop h] claims1 deal+ mo/ly ) kn[n facts & public in/itutions1 & cit+ l>gely ! te/imony ( non-,ca?olic writ]s4 ,x is some?+ l ! inductive me?od to inf] ! exi/5ce ( a ,god f t ( an admitt$ appetite1 z also to le>n ! k9d ( food f ! nature ( ! organs provid$ by nature = its reception & dige/ion4 ,s ! long+s ( man's moral nature1 ,fa!r ,heck] felt1 :5 fairly und]/ood1 mu/ lead to ! k ( :at he wants = _! satisfaction--! ,inf9ite ,good--& t by a process ( reason+ some?+ equival5t to ! sci5tific4 ,su* is ! /atem5t ( 8 case1 embrac+ ) its argum5t ! introductory *apt]s4 ,! inquiry !n ext5ds to ! claimants 9 ! religi\s _w1 n simply z to :i* is biblically au!ntic or hi/orically s1 b r z to :i* religion claims to satisfy ! entire human want ( ,god & makes ! claim good z an actual fact4 ,x is wond]ful h[ ?is l9e ( argum5t simplifies controv]sy1 & no less wond]ful to f9d h[ easily ! victory is won by ! ,ca?olic claim4 ,! read] w also notice h[ consi/5t all ?is is ) ,fa!r ,heck]'s own exp]i5ce f ! beg9n+4 ,! lit]>y faults ( ! book are n a few2 = if ! argum5t is compact1 its details seem to h be5 ha/ily snat*$ up & put toge!r1 or p]haps ! occupations ( ! missions prev5t$ revision & consultation4 ,!re is a l>ge surplusage ( quotations f poets1 _m ( !m obscure1 & wor?y ( praise r z didactic writ]s ?an z poets2 yet e ^w quot$ be>s on ! po9t "u discussion4 ,to "o :o has labor$ 9 prep>+ s]mons1 ea* *apt] looks l ! cull+s ( ! prea*]'s commonplace book set 9 ord] = memoriz+2 & v _m s5t5ces are rhetorically faulty4 ,b1 9 spite ( all ^! defects1 ! book is a p[]ful "o1 & no?+ is f\nd to hurt cle>ness or /r5g? ( expression4 ,:at we h criticis$ are only bits ( b>k left cl++ to ! close-jo9t$ b r\gh-hewn frame-"w4 ,! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l 0 got out by ! ,appletons1 & 0 at ! "t ( its publication a great success1 & /ill rema9s s4 ,! reason is because ! au?or takes no?+ = grant$1 prop\nds difficulties common to all non-,ca?olics1 sceptics z well z pr(ess+ ,prote/ants1 & (f]s solutions v]ifiable by inspection ( e-day ,ca?olicity & by evid5ces "r at h&4 ,ca?olicity is ! true religion1 because x alone unites m5 to ,god 9 ! fulness ( union1 sup]natural & integral 9 inn] & out] life--a union dem&$ by ! mo/ resi/less crav+s ( human nature3 su* is ! !sis4 ,!re c be little d\bt t prior to ?is book !re 0 no?+ l its argum5t curr5t 9 ,engli% lit]ature2 a %ort & extremely in/ructive acc\nt by ,fr$]ick ,lucas ( 8 conv]sion f ,quak]ism is ! only exception kn[n to u1 & t b p>tially resembles x1 is q brief1 & has long s9ce gone out ( pr9t4 ,! ,aspirations ( ,nature deals ) intellectual difficulties 9 ! same mann] z ! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l does ) ! moral ones4 ,! greate/ possible emphasis is laid ^u ! two-fold tru? t man's intellectual nature is infallible 9 its rightful doma91 & t t doma9 is too n>r[ = its own activity4 ,! validity ( human reason z f> z x goes1 & its failure to g f> en\gh = man's intellectual ne$s1 are ! two !ses ( ! book4 ,!y are well & ?or\ghly prov$2 & no "o c d5y ! urg5t ne$ ( discuss+ !m3 ! dignity ( human nature & ! necessity ( revelation4 ,l ,fa!r ,heck]'s fir/ book1 ! ,aspirations ( ,nature is good = all non-,ca?olics1 because 9 prov+ ! dignity ( man's reason ,prote/ants are br\ght face to face ) _! fundam5tal error ( total depravity2 en\gh = _! case surely4 ,if !y take refuge 9 ! mitigations ( mod]n ,prote/ant beliefs1 !y ne>ly always g to ! extreme ( ass]t+ ! entire suffici5cy ( ! human intellect1 & are "h met by ! argum5t = ! necessity ( revelation4 ,an extremely valuable collection ( ! confessions ( hea!n & infidel philosoph]s z to ! insuffici5cy ( reason is f\nd 9 ?is book1 z well z a full set ( quotations f ,prote/ant repres5tative au?orities on ! subject ( total depravity4 ,ov] aga9/ ^! ! ,ca?olic doctr9e ( reason & revelation is br\ght out cle>ly4 ,! /udy ( ! book w\ld be a valuable prep>ation = ! exposition ( ! claims ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* to be ! religion ( humanity1 natural & reg5]ate--! intellectual religion4 ,z might be expect$ f "o :o _h su* an av]sion = ,calv9ism1 ! view ( human nature tak5 by ! au?or is :at "s w\ld call optimi/ic1 & ! tone ) reg>d to ! religi\s hone/y ( non-,ca?olic ,am]icans extremely hopeful4 ,p]haps h]e9 0 ,dr4 ,br[nson's reason = an adv]se1 or almo/ adv]se1 criticism on ! book 9 8 ,review4 ,he _h giv5 ! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l a ?or\ghly flatt]+ reception1 & n[ says _m ?+s 9 praise ( ! ,aspirations ( ,nature1 prais+ especially ! *apt] on individuality4 ,b yet he dreads t ! book w be misund]/ood2 he has no su* lively hopes z ! au?or2 he tru/s he is n runn+ along ) ! ecc5tricities ( !ologians r ?an ) _! common tea*+2 fe>s t he takes ! possible p[]s ( nature & su* z are r>ely se5 9 actual life z ! common rule2 dreads1 aga91 t ,transc5d5tali/s w be enc\rag$ by x2 & m to ! same effect4 ,b ,fa!r ,heck]1 be=e leav+ = ,europe 9 #aheg1 _h submitt$ ! manuscript to ,ar*bi%op ,k5rick & receiv$ 8 approval2 nor did ,br[nson's unfavorable notice ruffle ! anci5t fri5d%ip betwe5 !m4 ,! ,aspirations ( ,nature 0 put ?r\gh ! press by ,george ,ripley1 at t "t lit]>y editor ( ! ,new ,york ,tribune1 ,fa!r ,heck] hav+ gone to ,rome on ! mission :i* end$ 9 ! e/abli%m5t ( 8 new community4 ,mr4 ,mc,master _h assi/$ him simil>ly ) ! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l4 ,! second book sold well1 z ! fir/ _h done1 & has _h sev]al editions4 ,x is n s hot & eag] 9 _s z ! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l1 b x presses its argum5ts e>ne/ly en\gh on ! read]'s att5tion4 ,x is free f ! lit]>y faults nam$ 9 connection ) its pr$ecessor1 reads smoo?ly1 & has v _m p[]ful passages & "s eloqu5t ones4 ,,*apt] ,,xxiv ,,sep>ation ,,f ,,! ,,r$emptori/s ,,! ev5ts :i* l$ to ! sep>ation ( ! b& ( ,am]ican mission>ies f ! ,r$emptori/ community took place 9 ! spr+ & summ] ( #aheg4 ,a misund]/&+ arose ab\t ! f\nd+ ( a new h\se 9 ,new>k1 ,n4,j41 or 9 ,new ,york ,city1 :i* %\ld be ! headqu>t]s = ! ,engli%-speak+ ,fa!rs & become ! c5tre ( attraction = ,am]ican subjects1 & 9 :i* ,engli% %\ld be ! language 9 common use4 ,application _h be5 made by ,bi%op ,bayley1 & aft]w>ds by ,ar*bi%op ,hughes1 = su* a f\ndation1 b sup]iors1 bo? 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & 9 ,rome--! latt] dep5d5t on lett]-writ+ = und]/&+ ! difficulties :i* arose--became suspici\s ( ! aims ( ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs & ( ! _s :i* actuat$ !m4 ,to e/abli% _! loyalty & to expla9 ! necessity = ! new f\ndation1 ! mission>y ,fa!rs believ$ t "o ( _! numb] %\ld g to ,rome & lay ! matt] 9 p]son be=e ! ,g5]al or ,rector ,major ( ! ord]4 ,! *oice fell on ,fa!r ,heck]1 :o sail$ on ,augu/ #e1 #aheg1 arriv$ 9 ,rome ! #bf?1 & 0 expell$ f ! ,congregation ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem] on ,sunday1 ! #bi? ( ! same mon?1 ! ,g5]al deem+ 8 com+ to ,rome to be a violation ( ! v[s ( ob$i5ce & pov]ty4 ,! gr\nds ( 8 expulsion 7 !n exam9$ by ! ,propag&a1 f :i* ! case pass$ to ! ,holy ,fa!r1 :o s\ght ! decision ( ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s4 ,pius ,,ix4 gave 8 judgm5t z a result ( ! exam9ation made by ! la/-nam$ ,congregation2 b he _h made a p]sonal /udy ( all ! evid5ce1 & _h giv5 private audi5ces to bo? ! ,g5]al & ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,x 0 decid$ t all ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs associat$ 9 ! mission>y b& %\ld be disp5s$ f _! v[s z ,r$emptori/s1 includ+ ,fa!r ,heck]1 :o 0 look$ ^u & treat$ by ! decree z if he 7 /ill z mu* a memb] ( ! ,congregation z ! o!rs1 8 expulsion be+ ignor$4 ,?is conclusion 0 arriv$ at only aft] sev5 mon?s ( delib]ation1 & 0 dat$ ! #f? ( ,m>*1 #ahih4 ,! decree1 :i* w be giv5 entire 9 ?is *apt]1 contemplates ! cont9u$ activity ( ! ,fa!rs z mission>ies1 subject to ! au?ority ( ! ,am]ican bi%ops2 _! =mation into a sep>ate society 0 tak5 = grant$4 ,su* is a brief /atem5t ( ! entire case4 ,if ! read] w all[ x to /& z a summ>y1 :at foll[s w s]ve to fill 9 ! outl9e & complete a m detail$ view4 ,& at ! outset let x be fully und]/ood t none ( ! ,fa!rs desir$ sep>ation f ! ord] or _h ! fa9te/ notion ( its possibility z ! outcome ( ! misund]/&+4 ,"o ( ! fir/ lett]s ( ,fa!r ,heck] f ,rome utt]s ! passionate cry1 ,!y h driv5 me out ( ! home ( my he>t & love4 ,we h repeat$ly he>d him affirm t he nev] _h s mu* z a temptation aga9/ 8 v[s z a ,r$emptori/4 ,b 9 say+ ?is we d n mean to lay blame on ! ,r$emptori/ sup]iors4 ,9 all t we h to say on ?is subject we mu/ be und]/ood z recogniz+ _! purity ( int5tion4 ,_! motives 7 love ( discipl9e & ob$i5ce1 :i* !y consid]$ s]i\sly endang]$4 ,!y 7 p]suad$ t _! action1 ?\gh sev]e1 0 necess>y = ! good ( ! entire ord]4 ,& ?is %[s t ! difficulty 0 a misund]/&+1 = !re is conclusive evid5ce ( ! loyalty ( ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs--( ,fa!r ,heck] no less ?an ! o!rs2 z also ( _! fair fame z ,r$emptori/s ) bo? ! sup]iors & bre?r5 ( ! community up to ! date ( _! disagreem5t4 ,:5 ,fa!r ,heck] left = ,rome ! ,prov9cial gave him 8 writt5 ^w t1 al?\gh he disapprov$ ( 8 j\rney1 he bore witness to him z a good ,r$emptori/1 full ( zeal = s\ls2 & he add$ t up to t "t 8 sup]iors _h be5 entirely satisfi$ ) him2 & to ! pap] conta9+ ?is te/imony ! ,prov9cial plac$ ! (ficial seal ( ! ord]4 ,on ! o!r side1 a repeat$ & c>eful exam9ation ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s lett]s & memor&a reveals no accusation by him ( moral fault aga9/ 8 ,r$emptori/ sup]iors1 b on ! contr>y _m words ( favorable explanation ( _! conduct4 ,:5 ! ,rector ,major1 9 ! mid/ ( 8 c\ncil1 began1 to ,fa!r ,heck]'s utt] amazem5t1 to read ! s5t5ce ( expulsion1 he fell on 8 knees & receiv$ ! bl[ ) b[$ head z a visitation ( ,god4 ,& :51 aga91 aft] pro/rat+ himself be=e ! ,bless$ ,sacram5t & resign+ himself to ! ,div9e ,w1 he return$ to ! c\ncil & begg$ ! ,g5]al on 8 knees = a fur!r consid]ation ( 8 case1 & 0 refus$1 he reports t ! ,g5]al affirm$ t 8 s5se ( duty w\ld n all[ him to act o!rwise ?an he _h done1 & t he by no means meant to condemn ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ! c\rt ( consci5ce1 b only to ex]cise jurisdiction ov] 8 ext]nal conduct4 ,9 tru? ! tr\ble arose ma9ly f ! v great diff]5ce betwe5 ! "* ( ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs & t ( _! sup]iors 9 ! ord]4 ,x is no?+ new or /range1 to borr[ ,fa!r ,hewit's ?\ghts z express$ 9 8 memoir ( ,fa!r ,bak]1 t m5 ^: *>act]s are ca/ 9 a diff]5t m\ld %\ld h diff]5t views1 & %\ld1 ) ! mo/ consci5ti\s int5tions1 be unable to co9cide 9 judgm5t or act 9 conc]t3 ,!re is room 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* = e k9d ( religi\s organization1 suit+ all ! v>ieties ( m9d & "* & circum/ance4 ,if collisions & misund]/&+s (t5 come betwe5 ^? :o h ! same great end 9 view1 ?is is ! result ( human infirmity1 & only %[s h[ imp]fect & p>tial are human wisdom & human virtue4 ,:at ,fa!r ,hewit adds ( ,fa!r ,bak]'s dispositions applies z well to all ! ,fa!rs4 ,9 ceas+ to be ,r$emptori/s1 !y did n sw]ve f _! orig9al purpose 9 becom+ religi\s4 ,none ( !m _h gr[n discont5t$ ) 8 /ate or ) 8 sup]iors4 ,!y 7 all 9 ! full f]vor ( ! devotional _s ( ! community1 & z mission>ies 7 g5]\sly we>+ out _! lives 9 ! toil & h>d%ip ( its peculi> vocation4 ,b bo? p>ties became ! in/rum5ts ( a special provid5ce1 :i* made use ( ! wide div]sities ( temp]am5t exi/+ among m51 & set ap>t ,fa!r ,heck] & 8 companions1 aft] a season ( sev]e trial1 = a new apo/olate4 ,!y did n *oose x = !mselves4 ,fa!r ,heck] _h aspirations1 z we "k1 b he did n dream ( realiz+ !m ?r\gh any sep>ation :atev]4 ,b ,provid5ce l$ ! ,holy ,see to *ange :at _h be5 a viol5t wr5* into a peaceful division1 ex]cis+1 9 s do+1 a div9e au?ority accept$ ) equal ob$i5ce by all conc]n$4 ,:at ,fa!r ,hewit fur!r says ( ,fa!r ,bak] applies exactly to ,fa!r ,heck]3 ,= ! ,congregation 9 :i* he 0 tra9$ to ! religi\s & ecclesia/ical /ate he always reta9$ a s9c]e e/eem & affection4 ,he did n ask ! ,pope = a disp5sation f 8 v[s 9 ord] to be reliev$ f a burd5some obligation1 b only on ! condition t x seem$ be/ to him to t]m9ate ! difficulty :i* _h aris5 t way4 ,:5 ! disp5sation 0 grant$ he did n *ange 8 life = a m easy "o4 4 4 ,let no "o1 !re=e1 :o is dispos$ to yield to temptations aga9/ 8 vocation1 & to ab&on ! religi\s /ate f we>9ess1 tepidity1 or any unwor?y motive1 ?9k to f9d any enc\ragem5t 9 8 example2 = 8 au/]e1 self-d5y+1 & ardu\s life w give him only rebuke1 & n enc\ragem5t4 ,aft] ! expulsion ! ,g5]al begg$ ,fa!r ,heck] to make ! conv5t 8 home till he 0 suit$ else:]e1 & ,fa!r ,heck]1 hav+ ?ank$ him = 8 k9dness & /ay$ !re t night1 took lodg+s ! foll[+ day 9 a quiet /reet ne> ! ,propag&a4 ,dur+ ! sev5 mon?s ( 8 /ay 9 ,rome he frequ5tly visit$ ! ,g5]al & 8 consultors1 sometimes on bus9ess b at o!r times f c\rtesy & good feel+4 ,he at once pres5t$ ! te/imonials int5d$ = ! ,g5]al to ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 ,prefect ( ! ,propag&a1 :o exam9$ !m 9 company ) ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i1 ! ,secret>y ( t ,congregation4 ,z may be imag9$1 ! attitude ( ^! prelates 0 at fir/ "o ( extreme res]ve4 ,b e case gets a he>+ 9 ,rome1 & t ( ?is expell$ religi\s1 & !re=e susp5d$ prie/1 c\ld be no exception4 ,a glance at ! cr$5tials1 a %ort conv]sation ) _! be>]1 a clos] exam9ation ( ! man & ( 8 claim1 produc$ a favorable impression & l$ to a det]m9ation to sift ! matt] ?or\ghly4 ,! pr9cipal lett]s 7 f ,ar*bi%op ,hughes & ,bi%op ,bayley4 ,! =m] spoke ?us ( ,fa!r ,heck]3 ,i h great pleasure 9 recomm5d+ him z a labori\s1 edify+1 zeal\s1 & truly apo/olic prie/4 ,"s ( ! lett]s 7 f prom95t laym5 ( ! ,city ( ,new ,york1 includ+ "o f ,mr4 ,mc,master1 ano!r f ,dr4 ,br[nson1 & ano!r f ,dr4 ,ives2 9 addition he _h ! words ( praise ( ! ,prov9cial 9 ,am]ica already ref]r$ to4 ,f9ally he %[$ lett]s f ea* ( ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs1 "o ( :om1 ,fa!r ,hewit1 0 a memb] ( ! ,prov9cial ,c\ncil1 all jo9+ !mselves to ,fa!r ,heck] z %>+ ! responsibility ( 8 j\rney to ,rome1 & nam+ him z ! repres5tative ( _! cause4 ,x is n our purpose to trace ! progress ( ! inve/igation ?r\gh ! ,roman tribunals4 ,we w b give su* facts & su* extracts f lett]s z ?r[ light on ,fa!r ,heck]'s conduct dur+ ?is great crisis4 ,"o might be curi\s to "k some?+ ab\t ! fri5ds he made 9 ,rome4 ,! =emo/ ( !m 0 ! ,c>d9al ,prefect ( ! ,propag&a4 ,! impression t ,c>d9al ,b>nabo made ^u me1 he writes 9 "o ( 8 e>lie/ lett]s1 0 mo/ unexpect$2 he 0 s quick 9 8 p]ceptions & p5etration1 s c&id & confid+ 9 speak+ to me4 ,he 0 m l a fa!r & fri5d2 & bo? ! c>d9al & ! ar*bi%op 7,b$9i7 express$ su* w>m sympa?y 9 my behalf t x made me feel1 4 4 4 9 a way ,i nev] felt be=e1 ! pres5ce ( ,god 9 ^? :o are *os5 z rul]s 9 ,8 ,*ur*4 ,9 ano!r lett] he says3 ,he 7! c>d9al7 has be5 to me m ?an a fri5d2 he is to me a fa!r1 a c\nsellor1 a protector4 ,no "o enjoys s high a reputation 9 e reg>d 9 ,rome z ! c>d9al4 ,he gives me free access to him & confides 9 me4 ,!re is mu* evid5ce1 too mu* to quote x all1 t ! c>d9al 0 drawn to ,fa!r ,heck] on acc\nt ( 8 simplicity & op5ness ( "*1 8 frank mann]1 b especially = 8 bold1 orig9al views ( ! opportunity ( religion among free peoples4 ,c>d9al ,b>nabo 0 not$ = 8 /urdy temp] & 0 :at is kn[n z a h>d hitt]1 ?\gh a g5]\s oppon5t z well z an e>ne/ fri5d4 ,he esp\s$ ,fa!r ,heck]'s cause ) mu* he>t9ess2 (ficial int]c\rse soon develop$ into a close p]sonal atta*m5t1 :i* la/$ ) unabat$ w>m? till ! /rong old ,roman 0 call$ to 8 rew>d4 ,fa!r ,heck] speaks 9 8 lett]s ( sp5d+ "t ) him1 n only on bus9ess b 9 discuss+ que/ions ( philosophy & religi\s controv]sy1 & 9 talk+ ov] ! :ole ,am]ican outlook4 ,! c>d9al became ! ,am]ican prie/'s advocate be=e ! ,pope1 & also ) ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s aft] ! case rea*$ t tribunal4 ,:5 ,i he>d him speak 9 my def5ce1 he said 9 aft] times1 ,i ?ank$ ,god t he 0 n aga9/ me1 = he 0 a mo/ imp]i\s "* :5 ar\s$1 & !re seem$ no resi/+ him4 ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i1 ! ,secret>y ( ! ,propag&a1 0 ano!r he>ty fri5d4 ,our old] read]s w rememb] t he _h paid a visit to ,am]ica a few ye>s be=e ! "t we are consid]+1 & t 8 pres5ce "h 0 made ! occasion = "s ( ! m viol5t outbreaks ( ! ,"k-no?+ excitem5t4 ,he knew our c\ntry p]sonally1 !re=e1 & 0 acqua9t$ ) v _m ( our cl]gy2 8 assi/ance to ! ,roman ,c\rt 9 ?is case 0 ( special value4 ,he became s demon/rative 9 8 fri5d%ip = ,fa!r ,heck] t ! ,pope 0 amus$ at x1 & ,fa!r ,heck] relates 9 8 lett]s home h[ ! ,holy ,fa!r ralli$ him ab\t ! w>m? ( 8 advocacy ( ! ,am]ican prie/'s cause1 z did v>i\s memb]s ( ! ,pontifcal c\rt4 ,at t "t & = _m ye>s aft]w>ds ,doctor ,b]n>d ,smi?1 an ,iri% ,b5$ict9e monk1 0 ,pr(essor ( ,dogmatic ,!ology 9 ! ,college ( ! ,propag&a2 he is n[ ! honor$ abbot ( ! great ,basilica ( ,/4 ,paul )\t-!-walls4 ,h[ ,fa!r ,heck] came to "k ! le>n$ pr(essor we h be5 unable to discov]2 b bo? he & ,monsignor ,kirby1 ( ! ,iri% ,college1 became 8 firm fri5ds & p[]ful advocates4 ,)\t ,doctor ,smi?'s advice1 inde$1 sc>cely a /ep 0 tak5 9 ! case4 ,an unexpect$ ally 0 f\nd 9 ,bi%op ,connolly1 ( ,/4 ,john's1 ,new ,brunswick4 ,he _h be5 robb$ on 8 way betwe5 ,civita ,vec*ia & ,rome1 & t mis=tune gave him a special claim to ! reg>d ( ! ,pope1 ) :om he soon became a favorite4 ,! ,holy ,fa!r admir$ 9 him t en]gy ( "* & zeal = religion :i* di/+ui%$ him 9 aft] ye>s z ,ar*bi%op ( ,halifax4 ,on he>+ ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s case he /udi$ x on acc\nt ( sympa!tic int]e/ 9 ! aspects ( ,ca?olicity 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 "p ( 8 diocese be+ at t "t1 we believe1 9 ! ,/ate ( ,ma9e4 ,h[ ard5t 8 fri5d%ip = ,fa!r ,heck] soon became is %[n by 8 exclamation3 ,i am ready to die = y1 & ,i am go+ to tell ! ,pope s4 ,he ev5 (f]$ to assi/ ,fa!r ,heck] 9 pay+ 8 p]sonal exp5ses :ile 9 ,rome4 ,9 a lett] to ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs ( ,decemb] #ah ,fa!r ,heck] writes3 ,ano!r rec5t & provid5tial ev5t 9 our favor has be5 ! fri5d%ip ( ,bi%op ,connolly1 ( ,/4 ,john's1 ,new ,brunswick4 ,by 8 extraord9>y ex]tions & 8 w>m fri5d%ip = u he has succe$$ 9 giv+ u ! vantage gr\nd 9 all qu>t]s :]e we 7 n 9 good favor4 ,i told y 9 ! la/ note t he _h spok5 to ! ,holy ,fa!r 9 favor ( our cause1 b ,i _h no "t to give y ! sub/ance ( :at 0 said4 ,bi%op ,connolly is a full-blood$ ,iri%man1 b1 =tunately = u1 n implicat$ 9 any p>ty views 9 our c\ntry1 & see+ t ! ,propag&a reg>d$ our cause z its own & _h id5tifi$ itself ) our success1 4 4 4 x be+ fri5dly to u z mission>ies1 he ex]t$ all 8 influ5ce 9 our favor4 ,8 influ5ce 0 n slight1 = ! ,pope _h conceiv$ a great fri5d%ip = him1 & heap$ all sorts ( honors on him4 ,well1 he _h a regul> tussle ) 8 ,hol9ess ab\t u & our cause1 & :5 ! ,holy ,fa!r repeat$ "s ?+s said ( me--aga9/ me1 ( c\rse--he repli$3 ',y\r ,hol9ess1 ,i %\ld n be at all surpris$ if "s f9e day y y\rself w\ld h to canonize "o ( ^! ,yankee fell[s4' ,9 "o ^w1 he left no?+ unsaid or undone ) ! ,pope 9 our favor2 & ! ,pope sugge/$ to him obta9+ disp5sation ( our v[s & =m+ a new company4 ',!y _c expect me1' he said1 'to take ! initiatory /ep2 ?is w\ld be putt+ ! c>t be=e ! horse4 ,let !m d ?is1 & pres5t _! plan to me1 & if ,i f9d x good1 x %all h my cons5t4' 4 4 4 ,! bi%op has also se5 & won ov] to our favor ,monsignor ,talbot1 :o said to him3 ',! only way n[ ( settl+ ! difficulties is to give ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs ! lib]ty to =m a new company = ! ,am]ican missions4' ,9 addition1 ! bi%op wrote a /rong docum5t 9 favor ( our missions & ( u1 & pres5t$ x to ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 :i* w be h&$ 9 to ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s1 :o h our affairs 9 h&4 4 4 4 ,if ?is good bi%op %\ld come 9 y\r way1 :e!r by writ+ or o!rwise1 y _c be too grateful = :at he has done = u4 ,aft] ,c>d9al ,b>nabo & ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i we owe m to him ?an to any "o else4 ,w9d & tide are n[ 9 our favor1 & my plan is to keep quiet & /ick close to ! rudd] to see t ! %ip keeps "r4 ,on 8 way home f ,rome ,bi%op ,connolly wrote ! foll[+ lett] to ,fa!r ,heck]1 dat$ at ,m>seilles1 ,janu>y #bj1 #aheh3 ,f ! deep int]e/ ,i feel 9 y\r conc]ns y w p>don my curiosity 9 wi%+ to h ! e>lie/ intellig5ce ( y\r fate 9 ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s4 ,i c\ld wi% ,i 7 ne> y all ! "t1 & h no?+ else to att5d to2 b y h got ,"o m p[]ful ?an ,i at y\r "r h&4 ,fix y\r hopes 9 ,him & y w n be conf\nd$4 ,aft] hav+ done ev]y?+ on y\r "p t unsleep+ en]gy z well z prud5ce c\ld sugge/1 y mu/ take ! issue1 h[ev] unpalatable x may be1 z ! und\bt$ expression ( ,god's w1 & act 7z ,i am sure y w act7 accord+ly4 4 4 4 ,y mu/ keep /eadily 9 view ! glori\s pr9ciple = :i* y came to ,rome1 & :i* ,i am conv9c$ is = ! great] glory ( ,god & ! great] good ( religion 9 ,am]ica4 ,if y c />t z a religi\s body ) ! approbation ( ,rome1 ?is w\ld be ! holie/ & mo/ auspici\s consummation4 4 4 4 ,be guid$ at e /ep by ! holy & enlight5$ m5 ^: sympa?ies y h won & 9 ^: h&s y w be always safe3 ,c>d9al ,b>nabo 9 primis1 & aft] him ,monsignor ,b$9i & ,doctors ,kirby & ,smi?4 ,unit$ ) !m at e /ep1 failure is impossible--y mu/ & y w succe$4 4 4 4 ,i am sure t y "k & feel ?is z well z ,i d 7= we h be51 m>vell\sly ( ! same way ( ?9k+ on ne>ly all po9ts71 b z ,i feel ,i mu/ write to y1 z x may be1 p]*ance1 ( "s consolation to y 9 y\r tr\bles1 ,i ?\ght x bett] to say x ov] aga94 4 4 4 ,if a lett] or any?+ else f me c\ld be ( any s]vice1 ,i ne$ n tell y t ,i am /ill on h& & only anxi\s to be employ$4 7,"h foll[s 8 address 9 ,p>is & ,liv]pool47 ,) all good wi%es = y\r success1 & ) ! hope ( he>+ ! happy tid+s f y\r own h& be=e ,i leave ,europe1 ,i am1 ,rev]5d de> ,sir1 ,v fai?fully y\rs 9 ,*ri/1 ,,?omas ,l4 ,,connolly1 ,bi%op ( ,/4 ,john's1 ,n4,b4 ,f :at has be5 s f> communicat$ to ! read]1 x w be se5 t ,fa!r ,heck]'s case _h ! /r5g? ( fri5d%ip to assi/ x4 ,b he 0 himself 8 be/ advocate4 ,8 traits ( "* 7 lovable1 & ! v incongruity ( su* a man =c$ to plead aga9/ ! dire/ p5alty kn[n to a religi\s1 0 a s+ul>ly /rong argum5t4 ,8 *e]ful demeanor :ile fight+ = 8 life2 8 puzzl+ que/ions on social & philosophical po9ts2 8 m+l$ my/icism & practical judgm5t2 8 utt]ance ( political s5tim5ts :i*1 z he truly said 9 "o ( 8 lett]s1 if spok5 by any "o b an ,am]ican w\ld elicit in/ant repro(2 8 total lack ( obsequi\sness unit$ to entire submission to lawful au?ority1 all help$ to make = himself & 8 cause fri5ds 9 e direction4 ,! unanim\s adhesion ( ! ,am]ican ,r$emptori/ mission>ies 0 a p[]ful elem5t 9 8 favor1 & a priceless boon = 8 own consolation4 ,he 0 cont9ually 9 receipt ( su* words z ^!3 ,we all desire y to consid] u fully id5tifi$ ) y & to act 9 our "n4 ,we h ! utmo/ confid5ce 9 y\r discretion1 & y\r cons]vative views are q to our m9d4 ,8 :ole he>t w5t out 9 response to ^! greet+s4 ,on ,octob] #bd he writes to ! ,fa!rs3 ,! cont5ts ( y\r note 7 :at ,i _h a "r to expect f y3 sympa?y1 confid5ce1 & reliance on ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,h[ mu* ^! trials w ende> u to ea* o!r6 ,if we keep toge!r z "o man & reg>d only ,god1 defeat is impossible4 ,d n =get to (f] up cont9ually pray]s = me4 ,h[ mu* ,i see ! h& ( ,provid5ce 9 all our difficulties6 ,& ! end w1 ,i tru/1 make x evid5t z ! sun4 ,b :]e he plac$ 8 entire tru/ is %[n by ! foll[+1 a "p ( ! same lett]3 ,our affairs are 9 ! h&s ( ,god4 ,i hope no "o w feel disc\rag$1 nor fe> = me4 ,all t is ne$$ to br+ ! int]e/s ( ,god to a successful issue is grace1 grace1 grace2 & ?is is obta9$ by pray]4 ,& if ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs w only pray & get o!rs to pray1 & n let any "o h ! slighte/ reason to br+ a ^w aga9/ !m 9 our pres5t crisis1 ,god w be ) u & help u1 & ,our ,lady w take good c>e ( u4 ,s f> no /ep tak5 9 our pa/ ne$ be regrett$4 ,if x 7 to be done aga9 x w\ld h my cons5t4 ,! bl[ giv5 to me ,i h endeavor$ to receive ) humility & 9 view ( ,god4 ,x has n produc$ any tr\ble 9 my s\l1 nor made me wav] 9 ! slighte/ degree 9 my confid5ce 9 ,god or my duty t[>ds ,him4 ,let u n be impati5t4 ,god is ) u & w lead u if we confide 9 ,him4 ,dur+ 8 /ay 9 ,rome he correspond$ regul>ly ) 8 bro!r ,george1 ^: ev]-op5 purse paid all 8 exp5ses4 ,we h also f\nd a v long lett] ( lov+ fri5d%ip f ,doctor ,br[nson1 convey+ ! pr(\nde/ sympa?y4 ,?is came dur+ ! mo/ critical p]iod ( ! case & gave mu* consolation4 ,x call$ =? an answ] equally affectionate4 ,he receiv$ exce$+ly sympa!tic lett]s f ,fa!rs de ,held & de ,bugg5oms4 ,! =m] 0 at ! "t rector ( ! h\se 9 ,liege1 & wrote a lett] to ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 a copy ( :i* has be5 pres]v$1 :i* treats mo/ favorably ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s "* & discusses 8 case at l5g?1 petition+ a decision :i* %\ld re9/ate him 9 ! ord]4 ,late 9 ,novemb] he s\ght an int]view ) ,c>d9al ,reisa*1 hold+ him closely int]e/$ = two h\rs1 conv]s+ ^u ,am]ican religi\s prospects & q w9n+ 8 fri5d%ip4 ,by means ( su* int]views1 :i*1 at ,c>d9al ,b>nabo's sugge/ion1 he s\ght ) ! *ief prelates 9 ,rome1 he became widely kn[n 9 ! city1 & ! /ate ( religion 9 ,am]ica 0 made a common topic ( conv]sation4 ,! foll[+ introduces a s+ul> phase 9 ! case4 ,x is f a lett] writt5 be=e ! end ( ,septemb]1 less ?an a mon? aft] 8 arrival3 ,my leisure mom5ts are occupi$ 9 writ+ an article on ! ',pres5t ,condition & ,future ,prospects ( ! ,ca?olic ,fai? 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1' = ! ,civilta ,cattolica4 ,!y h promis$ to translate & publi% x4 ,! ,civilta is /ill a lead+ ,ca?olic j\rnal1 ! =emo/ expon5t ( ! views ( ! ,society ( ,jesus4 ,at t "t x 0 ! (ficial organ ( ,pius ,,ix41 :o read all its articles 9 ! pro(s1 & x w5t ev]y:]e 9 ,ca?olic circles4 ,! editors became fa/ fri5ds ( ,fa!r ,heck]1 ?\gh we are n aw>e t !y took sides 9 8 case4 ,8 article 0 divid$ 9 ! edit+1 & appe>$ 9 two successive numb]s ( ! magaz9e4 ,x attract$ wide att5tion1 be+ translat$ & pr9t$ 9 ! *ief ,ca?olic p]iodicals ( ,france1 ,belgium1 & ,g]many1 & publi%$ by ,mr4 ,mc,master 9 ! ,freeman's ,j\rnal4 ,9 ,rome x s]v$ a good purpose4 ,to "s its views 7 />tl+1 b its tone 0 fre% & enliv5+4 ,x und]took to %[ t ! free/ nation 9 ! _w 0 ! mo/ invit+ field = ! ,ca?olic propag&i/4 ,we suppose t ! au?or's ma9 purpose 9 writ+ 0 b to invite att5tion to ,am]ica1 yet he s affect$ public op9ion 9 ,rome z to mat]ially assi/ ! adju/m5t ( ! difficulty p5d+ be=e ! high tribunals4 ,c>d9al ,b>nabo 0 q urg5t ) ,fa!r ,heck] t he %\ld write m ( ! same k9d1 b ei!r 8 occupations or 8 expectation ( an e>ly return home h9d]$ 8 do+ s4 ,z x 01 he _h caus$ himself & ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs to be view$ by m5 g5]ally ?r\gh ! m$ium ( ! great "q ( ! relation ( religion to ! "y ,republic ( ! ,we/]n ,_w4 ,t topic 0 =tunate 9 hav+ him = its expon5t4 ,he 0 an object-lesson ( ! aspirations ( enlight5$ ,ca?olic ,am]icans z well z an exalt$ type ( ,ca?olic mission>y zeal4 ,v few m5 ( disc]nm5t ev] really knew ,fa!r ,heck] b to admire him & to be ready to be p]suad$ by him ( 8 life-!sis3 t a free man t5ds to be a good ,ca?olic1 & a free nation is ! mo/ promis+ field = apo/olic zeal4 ,soon aft] 8 arrival 9 ,rome he made ! acqua9tance ( ,george ,l4 ,br[n1 an ,am]ican arti/ ( "s note1 & a non-,ca?olic4 ,he 0 an e>ne/ man1 & ,fa!r ,heck] attack$ him at once on ! score ( religion1 & be=e ,decemb] _h receiv$ him into ! ,*ur*4 ,?is ev5t made q a /ir 9 ,rome4 ,! city 0 always full ( arti/s & _! patrons1 & ,mr4 ,br[n's conv]sion1 toge!r ) ! articles 9 ! ,civilta1 influ5c$ 9 ,fa!r ,heck]'s favor _m p]sons :om he c\ld n directly rea*4 ,?is 0 especially ! case ) ! ,pope1 to ^: notice su* matt]s 7 br\ght by ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i1 8 (fice enabl+ him to approa* ! ,holy ,fa!r at %ort int]vals4 ,he ex]t$ a simil> influ5ce on all ! high (ficials ( ! ,roman c\rt4 ,9 spite ( all ?is favor ! usual delays att5dant ^u s]i\s judicial inve/igations oppress$ ,fa!r ,heck] ) ! heavy dread ( ! law's delay1 deta9+ him 9 ,rome f ! fir/ week 9 ,septemb]1 #aheg1 :5 ! case 0 op5$ 9 ! ,propag&a1 till x 0 clos$ by ! decision ( ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s e>ly 9 ! foll[+ ,m>*4 ,nor 0 ! insol5ce ( (fice q abs5t4 ,he 0 once he>d to tell ( 8 hav+ be5 snubb$ 9 ! ,pope's ante*amb] by "s "o 9 att5dance1 & (t5 put aside till he 0 vex$ ) _m we>y h\rs ( wait+ & by be+ compell$ to repeat$ly return4 ,i _h to wait = ?ree days1 we read 9 ! memor&a1 & !n 0 reproa*$ & scold$ by ! monsignor 9 att5dance = com+ late4 ,i _h n come late b _h be5 kept wait+ outside1 & ,i told him s4 ',y w see ^? hills ( ,albano move1' said ,i1 'be=e ,i move f my purpose to see ! ,holy ,fa!r4' ,:5 he saw my det]m9ation he *ang$ & gave me my desir$ audi5ce4 ,:5 ev5ts _h tak5 ! "q out ( ! ,jurisdiction ( be ,r$emptori/ ord] & into ! g5]al c\rt ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 its settlem5t 0 f\nd to be difficult4 ,! re/oration ( ,fa!r ,heck] by a judicial decision w\ld n1 x is pla91 h left him & 8 companions 9 t h>moni\s relation s ess5tial to _! p]sonal happ9ess & to _! success z mission>ies4 ,x 0 !n sugge/$ t !y %\ld petition = a sep>ate organization "u ! ,rule ( ,/4 ,alphonsus approv$ by ,b5$ict ,,xiv41 act+ directly subject to ! ,holy ,see1 ?us mak+ two ,r$emptori/ bodies 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 z is ! case ) v>i\s ,franciscan communities4 ,x 0 also sugge/$ t ! ,cisalp9e1 or ,neapolitan ,r$emptori/s1 at t "t an indep5d5t congregation1 w\ld gladly take ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs "u _! jurisdiction4 ,! alt]native 0 :at aft]w>ds took place--! disp5sation ( ! ,fa!rs f _! v[s1 9 view ( _! =m+ _! own organization "u direction ( ! ,bi%ops & ! ,holy ,see4 ,a petition pray+ ! ,holy ,fa!r to give !m ei!r ! ,rule ( ,b5$ict ,,xiv4 9 ! s5se above sugge/$1 or _! disp5sations f ! v[s1 0 drawn up & =w>d$ by ! ,fa!rs rema9+ 9 ,am]ica1 ! disp5sation be+ nam$ z ! la/ resort4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s legal case n be+ decid$1 he 0 advis$ by ,c>d9al ,b>nabo to res]ve 8 signature to ?is docum5t = ! pres5t4 ,x w be se5 at a glance t ! disp5sation f ! v[s & an entirely new dep>ture 9 community exi/5ce 0 m 9 accordance ) 8 aspirations4 ,b no aspiration 0 s /rong 9 him z love ( 8 bre?r51 & he 0 fully det]m9$ n to be sep>at$ f !m if he c\ld prev5t x4 ,mu* delay 0 caus$ by wait+ = fur!r te/imonials f ,am]ican bi%ops confirmatory ( ! good "* ( ! ,fa!rs & ( ! value ( _! labors z mission>ies4 ,fa!r ,heck]1 meantime1 wrote _m lett]s to 8 bre?r5 discuss+ ! alt]natives 9 "q4 ,9 "o ( ,octob] #bd he tells ( a pilgrimage he made to ,noc]a1 to ! tomb ( ,/4 ,alphonsus1 be>+ 8 bre?r5 9 8 he>t ) him4 ,he also visit$ ! ,r$emptori/ h\se !re & 9 ,naples1 & 0 q *>m$ ) ! fa!rs1 :o 7 entirely will+ to receive ! ,am]icans into _! organization1 :i*1 z ! read] kn[s1 0 sep>ate f t ( ! ,g5]al 9 ,rome4 ,kn[+ ! m9d ( 8 bre?r51 & det]m9$ to take no /ep alone1 ,fa!r ,heck] w\ld h be5 cont5t ) ?is arrangem5t _h x seem$ good to ! ,holy ,see4 ,meantime he tells h[ greatly he enjoy$ 8 visit to ,noc]a1 h[ he said ,mass ov] ! holy body ( ! f\nd]1 & adds3 ,ev] s9ce ,i feel m consol$ & support$ & confid5t4 ,! foll[+ is f a jo9t lett] ( ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs dat$ ,novemb] #ag2 !y pref]1 9 case ,fa!r ,heck] is n re9/at$1 be+ sep>at$ f ! ord] & made imm$iately dep5d5t on ! ,holy ,see1 or ! ,prefect ( ! ,propag&a1 r ?an any?+ else2 4 4 4 call$1 = in/ance1 ',religi\s ,mission>ies ( ! ,propag&a1' if ! ,holy ,fa!r w\ld make u su*4 ,) ! ,rule ( ,/4 ,alphonsus & ! same mission>y privileges we n[ enjoy1 & our de> ,fa!r ,heck] among u aga91 we %\ld feel happy & safe4 4 4 4 ,b we wait = ! words ( ! ,holy ,see to indicate our c\rse4 ,8 words to !m are to ! same effect3 ,our fir/ ef=t %\ld be direct$ to ! secur+ our hopes ?r\gh ! ,transalp9e ,congregation ?is means ! regul> ,r$emptori/ ord] to :i* !y !n belong$4 4 4 4 ,if ?is is n successful1 !n to endeavor to accompli% our hopes ?r\gh ! ,cisalp9e 7,neapolitan7 ,fa!rs1 :o w be he>t & s\l ) u & grant all our be/ desires4 ,or1 ?irdly1 to obta9 p]mission to act z a b& ( mission>ies 9 our c\ntry "u ! protection1 = ! pres5t1 ( "s bi%op4 4 4 4 ,x is a consolation to me to see t our affairs are s f> develop$ & kn[n1 & our views are s id5tical t y c act on y\r "p1 & write1 )\t hav+ to delay = in=mation f me4 ,y c easily imag9e t x 0 no pleasant /ate = me to be 9 :ile 9 susp5se ab\t :at w\ld be ! det]m9ation y w\ld come to4 ,?ank ,god & ,our ,lady1 y\r rec5t lett] set t all aside6 ,! "w n[ to be done is pla91 & ! greate/ c>e & prud5ce is to be ex]cis$ n to commit any fault1 or make any mi/ake :i* may be to u a s\rce ( regret aft]w>ds4 ,9 ano!r lett] he says t ,c>d9al ,b>nabo spoke ( ! unpleasant relations likely to exi/ aft] 8 re/oration to ! ord]1 & !n cont9ues3 ,! c>d9al _h a long conv]sation ) me1 & he sugge/$ :e!r ,god might n desire ( me a special "w4 ,i told him ,i w\ld n ?9k ( ?is :ile ! dismission 0 ov] my head4 ,he said1 ',( c\rse n2 = if y are a mauvais sujet1 z ! ,g5]al ?9ks1 ,god w surely n use y = any special mission4' ,! lett] "h details m ( ! ex*ange ( views betwe5 ! c>d9al & ,fa!r ,heck]1 ! latt] a/\nd$ to he> f ?is direction sugge/ions s closely tally+ ) 8 own int]ior aspirations ab\t ! apo/olic outlook 9 ,am]ica4 ,b1 cont9ues ! lett]1 y mu/ well und]/& t ,i %\ld n accept su* a proposition = myself be=e hav+ ask$ ! be/ c\nsel ( m5 ( ,god & receiv$ _! unhesitat+ approval ( its be+ ,god's w4 ,!re are holy m5 "h1 & ,i take c\nsel ) !m 9 e important /ep2 & !y are religi\s1 s t !y are good judges 9 su* important matt]s4 4 4 4 ,if ,god wi%es to make use ( u 9 su* a design1 & ,i c be assur$ ( ?is on compet5t au?ority1 :atev] x may co/1 ) ,8 grace ,i w n %r9k f x4 ,i call compet5t au?ority ! approbation ( good & holy m51 & "o l ! c>d9al1 :o kn[s ! c\ntry1 kn[s all our affairs n[1 & has e quality ( m9d & he>t to be a compet5t judge 9 ?is important matt]4 ,?\gh y h made me y\r pl5ipot5ti>y1 yet ?is is an individual affair1 "o we did n contemplate1 "o ( ! highe/ import to our salvation & sanctification1 & mu/ dep5d on ,god & our individual consci5ce4 ,ev5 be=e mak+ ?is proposition to y ,i ask$ advice f my spiritual director1 & he approv$ ( x4 ,y may be confid5t t 9 e /ep :i* ,i take ,i endeavor to be actuat$ by ! _s ( ,god1 & take e means to assure myself ( x1 s t h]eaft] no scruple may tr\ble my consci5ce1 & ,god's bless+ be ) me & y also4 ,he writes ?us t[>ds ! end ( ,septemb]3 ,! m ,i ?9k ( our difficulties ! m ,i am incl9$ to believe t !y may h be5 p]mitt$ by a good ,god = ! v purpose ( a "w ( ?is k9d4 ,if wise & holy m5 say s1 & we h ! approbation ( ! ,holy ,see1 is x n a mission (f]$ to u by ,div9e ,provid5ce1 & ought we n *e]fully to embrace x8 ,& on ,octob] #e3 ,i hope ,god has inspir$ y ) "s means ( com+ to my help4 ,inde$1 x is a difficult position1 & ! be/ ,i c d is to ?r[ myself con/antly on ,div9e ,provid5ce & be guid$ by ,him4 ,y w rememb]1 & ,i hope1 be=e ?is rea*es y1 w h answ]$ my proposition 9 my la/ note1 :e!r or n y w\ld be will+ to =m an indep5d5t b& ( mission>ies to be devot$ to ! great wants ( ! c\ntry4 ,i h consid]$ & reconsid]$1 & pray$ & pray$1 & 9 spite ( my fe>s ?is seems to me ! direction 9 :i* ,div9e ,provid5ce calls u4 4 4 4 ,) all ! difficulties1 dang]s1 & /ruggles t ano!r community movem5t pres5ts be=e me1 ,i feel m & m conv9c$ t x is ?is t ,div9e ,provid5ce asks ( u4 ,if we %\ld act 9 conc]t its success _c be d\bt$--success n only z reg>ds our pres5t k9d ( labors1 b 9 a v>iety ( o!r ways :i* are op5 to u 9 our new c\ntry4 4 4 4 ,if y are prep>$ to move 9 ?is direction x w\ld be be/1 & inde$ necess>y1 n only to write to me y\r ass5t1 b also a memorial to ! ,propag&a--to ,c>d9al ,b>nabo--/at+ ! int]e/s & wants ( religion & ( ! c\ntry1 & !n petition to be p]mitt$ to turn y\r labors 9 ?is direction4 4 4 4 ,su* a c\rse involves ! release ( y\r obligations to ! ,r$emptori/ ,congregation1 & ?is w\ld h to be express$ di/9ctly 9 y\r petition1 & motiv$ by good reasons !re giv54 ,fur!r on 9 ! same lett] he adds3 ,s9ce writ+ ! above ,i h _h "t = m reflection1 & consult$ ) my spiritual advis]1 & ?is c\rse appe>s to be ! "o ,div9e ,provid5ce po9ts out4 ,?is v important lett] ends z foll[s3 ,i endeavor to keep close to ,god1 to keep up my confid5ce 9 ,8 protection1 & 9 ! aid ( ,our ,bless$ ,lady4 ,i pray = y all2 y _c =get me 9 y\r pray]s4 ,!n foll[ sugge/ions ab\t obta9+ te/imonials f ! ,am]ican hi]>*y = ! in=mation ( ! ,holy ,see 9 a f9al settlem5t ( ! entire case4 ,! prelates :o wrote1 all v favorably1 73 ,ar*bi%ops ,hughes ( ,new ,york1 ,k5rick ( ,baltimore1 ,purcell ( ,c9c9nati1 ,bi%ops ,bayley ( ,new>k1 ,spald+ ( ,l\isville 7bo? aft]w>ds ,ar*bi%ops ( ,baltimore71 ,lyn* ( ,*>le/on1 ,b>ry ( ,savannah1 & ,de ,goesbri& ( ,burl+ton1 ,v]mont4 ,on ,octob] #bf1 :ile wond]+ :at w\ld next happ51 he writes3 ,z = my "p1 ,i d n see "o /ep ahead1 b at ! same "t ,i nev] felt s closely embrac$ 9 ! arms ( ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,b on ! next day3 ,x seems to me a great & entire *ange awaits u4 4 4 4 ,we are all ( u "y1 & if we keep close & true to ,god--& !re is no?+ b ourselves to prev5t ?is--a great & hopeful future is at our wait+4 ,i "k y pray = me2 cont9ue to d s1 & believe me always y\r :olly devot$ fri5d & bro!r 9 ,jesus & ,m>y4 ,on ,novemb] #ab3 ,my pres5t impression is t nei!r union ) ! ,cisalp9e ,fa!rs nor sep>ation z a b& ( indep5d5t ,r$emptori/ mission>ies 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates w be approv$ ( "h4 4 4 4 ,:at appe>s to me m & m probable is t we %all h to />t entirely ^u our own basis4 ,?is is p]haps ! be/ ( all1 all ?+s consid]$4 4 4 4 ,su* a movem5t has f ! beg9n+ seem$ to me ! "o to :i* ,div9e ,provid5ce calls u1 b ,i always felt timid z long z any door 0 left op5 = u to act 9 ! ,congregation4 4 4 4 ,i feel prep>$ to take ?is /ep ) y )\t hesitation & ) great confid5ce1 4 4 4 ,i %\ld h be5 glad1 z soon z my dismission 0 giv51 to h />t$ on 9 su* a movem5t4 ,b !n x 0 my fir/ duty to see :e!r ?is "w c\ld n be accompli%$ by ! ,congregation 7( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem]72 &1 besides1 ,i 0 n sure1 z ,i n[ am1 ( y\r views be+ ! same z m9e 4 4 4 all indicates ! w ( ,div9e ,provid5ce 9 our reg>d & gives me confid5ce4 4 4 4 ,fa!r ,hewit's lett]1 confirm+ y\r read9ess to %>e y\r =tunes ) me1 0 mo/ consol+ & /r5g!n+4 ,god kn[s we seek only ,8 int]e/ & glory & are ready to suff] any?+ r ?an (f5d ,him4 4 4 4 ,we %\ld take our pres5t missions z ! basis ( our unity & activity2 at ! same "t n be exclusively re/rict$ to !m1 b leave ourselves at lib]ty to adapt ourselves to ! religi\s wants :i* may pres5t !mselves 9 our c\ntry4 ,7 ! "q pres5t$ to me to re/rict myself exclusively to missions1 9 t case ,i %\ld feel 9 consci5ce b\nd to obta9 f holy m5 a decision on ! "q :e!r ,god _h n po9t$ out ano!r field = me4 4 4 4 ,tak+ our missions & our pres5t mode ( life z ! gr\ndwork1 ! re/ w h to be left to ,div9e ,provid5ce1 ! "* ( ! c\ntry1 & our own _s ( fai? & good common s5se4 ,9 ! same lett]1 t ( ,decemb] #be1 he hopes t if ! ,holy ,see sep>ates !m f old affiliations !y w =m a society :i* w\ld embody 9 its life :at is good 9 ! ,am]ican p 9 ! natural ord] & adapt itself to answ] ! great wants ( our p 9 ! spiritual ord]4 ,i mu/ confess to y frankly t ?\ghts ( ?is k9d d occupy my m9d1 & day by day !y appe> to me to come m cle>ly f heav54 ,i _c refuse to ent]ta9 !m )\t resi/+ :at appe> to me ! inspirations ( ,god4 ,y "k t ^! are n new op9ions ha/ily adopt$4 ,f ! beg9n+ ( my ,ca?olic life !re seem$ always be=e me1 b n di/9ctly1 "s su* "w1 & x is indicat$ bo? 9 ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l & ,aspirations ( ,nature4 ,& ,i _c resi/ ! ?\ght t my pres5t peculi> position is or may be provid5tial to fur!r "s su* und]tak+4 4 4 4 ,x might be imag9$ t ^! views 7 b a ruse ( ! devil to ?w>t our common cause & future prospects4 ,to ?is ,i h only to answ] t ! old rascal has be5 a long "t at "w to rea* ?is po9t4 ,if x be he1 ,i %all head him (f because all t reg>ds my p]sonal vocation ,i %all submit to wise & holy m5 & obey :at !y tell me4 ,fa!r ,heck] _h 8 fir/ audi5ce ) ,pius ,,ix41 aft] mu* delay1 on ,decemb] #bb4 ,i felt1 he said1 9 giv+ an acc\nt ( x 9 aft] ye>s1 t my tr\ble 9 ,rome 0 ! great crisis 9 my life4 ,i _h "o way ( tell+ t ,i 0 n l ,m>t9 ,lu!r3 9 my inmo/ s\l ,i 0 ready entirely ready1 to submit to ! judgm5t ( ! ,*ur*4 ,!y _h made me out a rebel & a radical to ! ,holy ,fa!r1 & :5 ,i saw him alone1 aft] ! usual salutations1 & :ile on my knees1 ,i said3 ',look at me1 ,holy ,fa!r2 see1 my %\ld]s are broad4 ,lay on ! /ripes4 ,i w be> !m4 ,all ,i want is ju/ice4 ,i want y to judge my case4 ,i w submit4' ,! ,pope's eyes fll$ ) te>s at ^! words1 & 8 mann] 0 v k9d4 ,! re/ ( ! int]view is giv5 9 a lett]3 ,! ,pope bade me rise & told me he 0 in=m$ all ab\t my affairs4 ,!n he ask$ :at 0 my desire4 ,i repli$ t he might h ! goodness to exam9e ! purpose ( my com+ to ,rome1 's9ce x reg>d$ ! conv]sion ( ! ,am]ican p1 a "w :i* ! mo/ intellig5t & pi\s ,ca?olics h at he>t1 among o!rs ,dr4 ,ives1 :om y "k4' ',yes1' he said2 'has 8 wife become a ,ca?olic8' ,i repli$ 9 ! affirmative4 ',b :at c ,i d8' he said2 '! affair is be+ exam9$ by ,ar*bi%op ,biz>ri 7,secret>y ( ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s71 & no?+ c be done until he gives 9 8 report2 !n ,i w give my op9ion & my decision4' ',y\r decision1 mo/ ,holy ,fa!r1 is ,god's decision1 & :atev] x may be will+ly & humbly w ,i submit to x4' ,:ile ,i 0 mak+ ?is rem>k 8 ,hol9ess paid ! greate/ att5tion1 & x seem$ to satisfy & please him4 ',! ,am]ican p1' he cont9u$1 'are mu* engross$ 9 worldly ?+s & 9 ! pursuit ( weal?1 & ^! are n favorable to religion2 x is n ,i :o say s1 b our ,"l 9 ! ,gospel4' ',! ,unit$ ,/ates1 y\r ,hol9ess1' ,i repli$1 'is 9 its y\?1 &1 l a "y fa!r ( a family occupi$ 9 furni%+ 8 h\se1 :ile ?is is go+ on he mu/ be busy2 b ! ,am]ican p d n make money to ho>d x1 nor are !y mis]ly4' ',no1 no1' he repli$2 '!y are will+ to give :5 !y possess ri*es4 ,! bi%ops tell me !y are g5]\s 9 aid+ ! build+ ( *ur*es4 ,y see1' he add$1 ',i "k ! bright side z well z ! d>k side ( ! ,am]icans2 b 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates !re exi/s a too unre/rict$ fre$om1 all ! refugees & revolutioni/s ga!r !re & are 9 full lib]ty4' ',true1 mo/ ,holy ,fa!r2 b ?is has a good side4 ,_m ( !m1 see+ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates t ! ,*ur* is self-subsi/+ & n necess>ily connect$ ) :at !y call despotism1 beg9 to reg>d x z a ,div9e in/itution & return to h] fold4' ',yes1' he said1 '! ,*ur* is z mu* at home 9 a republic z 9 a mon>*y or ari/ocracy4 ,b !n1 aga91 y h ! abolitioni/s & _! oppon5ts1 :o get ea* o!r by ! hair4' ',!re is also ! ,ca?olic fai?1 ,holy ,fa!r1 :i* if once kn[n w\ld act on ^! p>ties l oil ^u tr\bl$ wat]s1 & our be/-in=m$ /atesm5 are becom+ m & m conv9c$ t ,ca?olicity is necess>y to su/a9 our in/itutions1 & enable our "y c\ntry to realize h] great de/9y4 ,& all[ me to add1 mo/ ,holy ,fa!r1 t x w\ld be an ent]prise wor?y ( y\r glori\s pontificate to set on foot ! measures necess>y = ! beg9n+ ( ! conv]sion ( ,am]ica4' ,on retir+ he gave me 8 bless+1 & repeat$ 9 a l\d voice z ,i kneel$1 ',bravo6 ,bravo6' ,pius ,,ix41 said ,fa!r ,heck] aft]w>ds1 0 a man ( ! l>ge/ head1 ( /ill l>g] he>t1 mov$ m by 8 impulses ?an by 8 judgm5t2 b 8 impulses 7 great1 noble1 all-embrac+4 ,x w n be out ( place "h to look m closely into ,fa!r ,heck]'s consci5ce & /udy 8 motives4 ,"o might ask :y he did n simply submit to ! infliction visit$ ^u him by 8 sup]ior 9 ! ord]1 & humbly )draw f notice till ,god %\ld f9d a way to v9dicate him4 ,b 8 case 0 n a p]sonal "o4 ,he 0 9 ,rome repres5t+ a body ( prie/s & a public cause1 & e pr9ciple ( duty & honor requir$ an appeal to high] au?ority4 ,nor 0 v9dication ! *ief end 9 view1 b r fre$om to foll[ ! dictates ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 accordance ) ,ca?olic traditions & :olly subject to ! laws & usages ( ! ,*ur*4 ,beyond secur+ exactly ?is he _h no object :atev]4 ,on ,febru>y #ai1 #aheh1 he ?us wrote to 8 bro!r ,george3 ,b !re is no use ( keep+ back any?+4 ,my policy has all along be5 to h no policy1 b to be frank1 tru?ful1 & h no fe>4 ,= my own "p ,i w try my be/ to be true to ! light & grace giv5 me1 ev5 ?\gh x r$uces me to p]fect insignificance4 ,i desire no?+ ^u e>? except to labor = ! good ( our ,religion & our ,c\ntry1 & :atev] may be ! decision ( our affairs "h1 my aims _c be defeat$4 ,i feel1 inde$1 q indiff]5t ab\t ! decision :i* may be giv51 s t !y all[ u fre$om4 ,z illu/rat+ ,fa!r ,heck]'s sup]natural motives & rectitude ( consci5ce ! foll[+ extracts f lett]s to ! ,fa!rs w be ( int]e/4 ,9 ,septemb]1 :5 ! arr[ 0 yet 9 ! w\nd1 he wrote3 ,i h no feel+s ( res5tm5t aga9/ any "o ( ! actors 9 ?is matt]4 ,on ! contr>y ,i c\ld embrace !m all ) unfeign$ s5tim5ts ( love4 ,god has be5 exce$+ly good n to let me be ev5 tempt$ 9 ?is way4 ,aga91 on ,decemb] #e3 ,y\r repeat$ assurances ( be+ unit$ ) me 9 our future fills me ) consolation & c\rage4 ,we may well repeat ! ,am]ican motto1 ',unit$ we /&1 divid$ we fall4' ,nev] did ,i f9d myself m su/a9$ by ! grace ( ,god4 ,h[ (t5 ,i h he>d repeat$ by acqua9tances ,i h made "h3 ',:y1 ,fa!r ,heck]1 y are ! happie/ man 9 ,rome6' ,little d !y "k h[ _m sleepless nights ,i h pass$1 h[ deeply ,i h suff]$ )9 ?ree mon?s4 ,b isn't ,almighty ,god good8 ,x seems ,i nev] knew or felt be=e :at x is to be :olly devot$ to ,him4 ,on ,decemb] #i1 aft] a long exposition ( ! ne$ ( a new religi\s mission>y in/itute = ,am]ica3 ,consid]+ our pa/ tra9+1 & _m o!r advantages :i* we possess1 ,i _c b believe t ,god w use u1 provid$ t we rema9 fai?ful to ,him1 unit$ toge!r z "o man1 & ready to make any sacrifice = "s su* holy ent]prise2 & my daily pray] is t ! ,holy ,fa!r may receive a special grace & inspiration to welcome & bless su* a proposition4 ,) 8 ,*ri/mas greet+s he wrote3 ,f ! />t ,i h n suff]$ myself to repose a mom5t :5 !re 0 any?+ to be done :i* promis$ help4 ,:atev] may be ! result ( our affairs1 ?is consolation w be ) me--,i did my utmo/1 & ev]y?+ j & honorable1 to des]ve success4 ,no "o w\ld believe h[ mu* ,i h gone ?r\gh at ,rome1 b ,i d x *e]fully1 & sometimes gaily1 because ,i "k x is ! w ( ,god4 ,on ,febru>y #ai1 #aheh3 ,! exp]i5ce ,i h made "h is wor? m ?an my weight 9 gold4 ,if ,god int5ds to employ u 9 any important "w 9 ! future1 su* an exp]i5ce 0 absolutely necess>y = u4 ,x is a novitiate on a l>ge scale4 ,i _c ?ank ,god suffici5tly = my hav+ made x ?us f> )\t incurr+ by my conduct ! displeasure or c5sure ( any "o4 ,& a week aft]w>ds3 ,y %\ld write (t51 = words ( sympa?y1 hope1 enc\ragem5t are mu* to me n[ 9 ^! trials1 difficulties1 & conflicts4 ,9 all my ,ca?olic life ,i h n exp]i5c$ oppression & anxiety ( m9d 9 su* a degree z ,i h = ^! t5 days pa/4 ,m>* #f3 ,s f> f my devotion to religion be+ dim9i%$ by rec5t ev5ts1 x has1 ?ank ,god1 greatly increas$2 b _m o!r ?+s h be5 *ang$ 9 me4 ,on _m new po9ts my intellig5ce has be5 awak5$2 exp]i5ce has dispell$ mu* ignorance1 & on ! :ole ,i hope t my fai? & he>t h be5 m purifi$4 ,if ,god sp>es my life to return1 ,i hope to come back m a man1 a bett] ,ca?olic1 & m entirely devot$ to ! "w ( ,god4 ,! foll[+ is f a copy ( a lett] to ,fa!r de ,held dat$ ,novemb] #b3 ,"o ?+ my trials h taught me1 & ?is is ! "o ?+ important--to love ,god m4 ,x almo/ seems t ,i did n "k be=e :at x is to love ,him4 ,:5 x became evid5t t ! ,holy ,see w\ld decide ! case s z to make x necess>y = ! ,fa!rs to =m a new society1 ,fa!r ,heck] did n accept ev5 ?is z a f9al indication ( ,provid5ce t ext]nal circum/ances _h made x possible = him to realize 8 long-*]i%$ dreams ( an ,am]ican apo/olate2 = he 0 at lib]ty /ill to refuse4 ,he r$\bl$ 8 pray]s4 ,8 pilgrimage to ! %r9e ( ,/4 ,alphonsus is already kn[n to ! read]2 he caus$ a nov5a ( ,masses to be said at ! alt> ( ,our ,lady ( ,p]petual ,help 9 ! ,r$emptori/ ,*ur* 9 ,rome2 he said ,mass himself at all ! great %r9es1 especially ! ,confession ( ,/4 ,pet]1 ! alt> ( ,/4 ,ignatius & t ( ,/4 ,philip ,n]i2 he e>ne/ly entreat$ all 8 fri5ds1 old ones at home & new-f\nd ones 9 ,rome1 to jo9 ) him 9 8 pray]s = light4 ,he fur!rmore took measures to obta9 ! c\nsel ( wise & holy m54 ,e "o :om he ?\ght wor?y ( 8 confid5ce 0 ask$ = an op9ion4 ,f9ally he drew up a =mal docum5t1 kn[n 9 ?is biography z ! ,roman ,/atem5t1 & already famili> by ref]5ce & quotation1 & plac$ x 9 ! h&s ( ! ?ree religi\s ^: names1 9 addition to ^? ( ,c>d9al ,b>nabo & ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i1 appe> at ! end ( ! extract we make f its orig9al draft4 ,x op5s ) a summ>y ( 8 conv]sion1 entrance into religion1 & mission>y life1 & embraces a full en\gh /atem5t ( ! tr\ble ) ! ,g5]al ( ! ord]--a matt] ( notoriety at ! "t 9 ! city ( ,rome4 ,he !n describes 8 own int]ior aspirations & vocation to ! apo/olate 9 ,am]ica1 back+ up ! au?ority ( t inn] voice ) ! ext]nal te/imonials ( prelates & prie/s & laym51 ^: lett]s _h be5 procur$ by ! ,propag&a z evid5ce 9 ! case be=e ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s4 ,if ,god has call$ me1 he cont9ues1 to su* a "w1 ,8 provid5ce has 9 a s+ul> way1 s9ce my arrival at ,rome1 op5$ ! door = me to und]take x4 ,! object ( my com+ to ,rome 0 to induce ! ,g5]al to su/a9 & favor ! ext5sion ( our mission>y labors 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,x 0 und]tak5 altoge!r = ! good ( ! ord]1 9 ! g5]al int]e/s ( religion1 & 9 und\bt$ good fai?4 ,"u false impressions ( my purpose1 my expulsion f ! ,congregation 0 decre$ ?ree days aft] my arrival4 ,?is 0 ab\t ?ree mon?s ago1 & x 0 ! s\rce ( ! deepe/ affliction to me1 & up to )9 a %ort "t my greate/ desire 0 to re-ent] ! ,congregation4 ,at pres5t x seems to me t ^! ?+s 7 p]mitt$ by ,div9e ,provid5ce 9 ord] to place me 9 ! position to und]take t mission :i* has nev] ceas$ to occupy my ?\ghts4 ,aft] "s description ( ! /ate ( religion 9 ,am]ica ! /atem5t concludes3 ,^! ,am]ican non-,ca?olics require an in/itution :i* %all h _! conv]sion to ! ,ca?olic fai? z its pr9cipal aim1 :i* is free to develop itself accord+ to ! fre% wants :i* may spr+ up1 ?us op5+ an attractive future to ! religi\s vocations ( ! ,ca?olic "y m5 ( t c\ntry4 ,reg>d+1 !re=e1 my e>ly & ext5sive acqua9tance among my own p1 politically1 socially1 religi\sly1 ) ! k ( _! peculi> wants1 ) _! errors also2 & ! way 9 :i* ,god has l$ me & ! graces giv5 to me2 & my int]ior convictions & ! exp]i5ce acquir$ confirm+ !m s9ce my ,ca?olic life1 & also my s+ul> position at pres5t--! "q1 9 conclusion1 is to "k f holy1 in/ruct$1 & exp]i5c$ m5 9 su* matt]s :e!r or n !re is suffici5t evid5ce ( a special vocation f ,god = me to und]take n[ su* a "w4 ,:at foll[s is plac$ at ! bottom ( ! la/ page ( ! /atem5t3 ,,epiphany1 #aheh1 ,,rome4 ,?is docum5t ,i _h translat$ into ,italian1 & ,i gave x to ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i1 ,fa!r ,francis1 ,passioni/--my director :ile 9 ,rome--,fa!r ,gregorio1 def9itor1 ,c>melite1 & ,fa!r ,druelle1 ( ! ,congregation ( ! ,holy ,cross1 & ea* gave a favorable answ]4 ,fa!r ,heck] (t5 said t he 0 fully det]m9$ to =ego ! entire matt]1 g back to ! ,r$emptori/s1 or drift :i!rsoev] ,provid5ce might w1 if a s+le "o ( ! m5 :om he ?us consult$ _h fail$ to approve him1 or _h s mu* z express$ a d\bt4 ,he _h inquir$ :o 7 ! mo/ spiritually enlight5$ m5 9 ,rome1 & _h be5 guid$ to ! ?ree religi\s :om he _h associat$ ) ,c>d9al ,b>nabo & ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i to assi/ him 9 com+ to a decision4 ,! end came at la/1 & is ann\nc$ 9 a lett] ( ,m>* #i1 #aheh3 ,! ,pope has spok51 & ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs1 includ+ myself1 are disp5s$ f _! v[s4 ,! decree is n 9 my h&s1 b ,c>d9al ,b>nabo read x to me la/ ev5+4 ,! ,g5]al is n m5tion$ 9 x1 & no att5tion :atev] is paid to 8 action 9 my reg>d4 ,! o!r ,fa!rs are disp5s$ 9 view ( ! petition !y made1 z ! dem& = sep>ation z ,r$emptori/s w\ld de/roy ! unity ( ! ,congregation1 & 9 ! disp5sation ,i am associat$ ) !m4 ,! ,c>d9al ,b>nabo is :olly cont5t2 says t ,i mu/ ask imm$iately = an audi5ce to ?ank ! ,pope4 4 4 4 ,n[ let u ?ank ,god = our success4 ,on ,m>* #aa3 ,we are left 9 entire lib]ty to act 9 ! future z ,god & our intellig5ce %all po9t ! way4 ,let u be ?ankful to ,god1 humble t[>ds ea* o!r & e "o else1 & m ?an ev] 9 e>ne/ to d ! "w ,god dem&s at our h&s4 4 4 4 ,! ,pope _h be=e him all ! docum5ts1 y\rs & m9e & ! ,g5]al's1 & ! lett]s f ! ,ar*bi%ops & ,bi%ops ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,ar*bi%op ,biz>ri 7,secret>y ( ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s7 gave him a v]bal report ( _! cont5ts & read "s ( ! lett]s4 ,subsequ5tly ! ,pope himself exam9$ !m & came to ! conclusion to grant u disp5sation4 ,b !re 0 ,i 9 ! way1 :o _h n petition$ = a disp5sation4 ,& :y n8 ,simply because ,c>d9al ,b>nabo w\ld h be5 (f5d$ at me if ,i _h done s4 4 4 4 ,i c\ld n g aga9/ ! wi%es ( ! c>d9al4 ,a few days aft] he _h giv5 me 8 views1 & ) su* w>m? t ,i c\ld n act aga9/ !m1 he saw ! ,pope1 :o in=m$ him ( 8 int5tion to give u disp5sation & to set aside ! decree ( my expulsion4 ,on see+ ! c>d9al aft] ?is audi5ce he told me t ,i might communicate ?is to ,ar*bi%op ,biz>ri4 ,i did s by note1 tell+ him t if ! ,pope set aside my expulsion & 0 det]m9$ to give ! o!r ,am]ican ,fa!rs disp5sation f _! v[s1 9 view ( ! circum/ances :i* _h aris5 ,i w\ld be cont5t to accept my disp5sation also4 ,?is note ( m9e 0 %[n to ! ,pope1 & h5ce he imm$iately associat$ me ) y 9 ! disp5sation4 ,! word+ ( ! decree is su* z to make x pla9 t x 0 giv5 9 view ( y\r memorial1 & its t]ms are calculat$ to give a favorable impression ( u4 4 4 4 ,ar*bi%op ,biz>ri told me ye/]day1 :5 ,i w5t to ?ank him = 8 "p1 t 9 x ! ,holy ,see _h giv5 u its praise1 & he tru/$ we w\ld %[ ourselves wor?y ( x 9 ! future4 ,i rejo9$ t s9ce ! comm5cem5t ( our ,ca?olic life we _h giv5 ourselves s\l & body entirely to ! increase ( ,god's glory & ! int]e/s ( ,8 ,*ur*1 & x 0 our firm resolve to cont9ue to d s to ! end ( our lives4 ,he 0 q gratifi$ ) our cont5tm5t ) ! decision1 = ,i spoke1 z ,i always h done1 9 y\r "n z well z my own4 ,b :om d y ?9k ,i met 9 8 ante*amb]8 ,! ,g5]al ( ! ,r$emptori/s4 ,:5 he came 9 & got seat$ ,i imm$iately w5t across ! room & rea*$ out my h& to him1 & we %ook h&s & sat d[n beside ea* o!r4 4 4 4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! conv]sation he inquir$ :at we int5d$ to d 9 ! future4 ,my reply 0 t we _h be5 guid$ by ,god's provid5ce 9 ! pa/ & we look$ to ,him = guidance 9 our future4 4 4 4 ,z to my return home1 ! c>d9al says ,i mu/ n ?9k ( dep>t+ till aft] ,ea/]4 ,inde$1 ,i see t be=e ,i c obta9 an audi5ce to ?ank ! ,holy ,fa!r x w be h>d on to ,ea/]4 ,if !re be a few days int]v5+ ,i w g to ,our ,lady ( ,loretto to invoke h] aid 9 our behalf & = h] protection ov] u z a body & ov] ea* "o 9 p>ticul>4 ,9 ,may1 e>li] or lat] 9 ! mon?1 ) ,god's bless+ & y\r pray]s1 ,i hope to be ) y4 ,! decree1 :i* places u1 accord+ to ! ,canons1 "u ! au?ority ( ! ,bi%ops1 y w1 ( c\rse1 und]/&1 does n 9 any way make u p>i% prie/s4 ,! ,pope c\ld n tell u 9 x to comm5ce ano!r congregation1 al?\gh ?is is :at he1 & ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 & ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i1 & o!rs1 expect f u4 ,he ! ,pope said t = him to tell u s (ficially w\ld be putt+ ! c>t be=e ! horse4 ,^! are 8 words4 ,on ,m>* #ah3 ,x is cu/om>y "h1 be=e giv+ disp5sation ( v[s to religi\s1 to require !m to %[ _! admission into a diocese4 ,z ?is 0 n requir$ 9 our case1 we are consequ5tly at lib]ty n[ to *oose any bi%op we please :o w receive u4 ',*oose y\r bi%op1 in=m him ( y\r int5tions1 & if he approves1 arrange y\r conditions ) him4' ,^! are ! c>d9al's words1 & bo? he & ,ar*bi%op ,b$9i sugge/$ ,new ,york4 4 4 4 ,my trip to ,loretto has come to naught1 z ,i c f9d no "o to accompany me1 & !n my heal?1 ,i fe>1 w n be> s mu* fatigue1 ,i %all come back ) "s gray hairs2 ,i ?\ght to pull !m all out be=e my return1 b on look+ ?is morn+ ) t int5tion ,i f\nd !m too _m4 ,h[ev]1 t is only on ! outside2 )9 all is "r--"y1 fre%1 & full ( c\rage1 & ready to fight ! good fight4 ,! foll[+ is a memor&um ( 8 second audi5ce ) ,pius ,,ix43 ,ye/]day1 ! #af? ( ,m>*1 ! ,pope accord$ me an audi5ce1 & on my ent]+ 8 room he repeat$ my "n1 gave me 8 bless+1 & aft] ,i _h kiss$ 8 r+ he told me to rise1 & said3 ',at l5g? y\r affairs are det]m9$4 ,we h _m causes to decide1 & ea* mu/ h its turn2 y\rs came f9ally1 & n[ y h our decision4' ',true1' ,i repli$1 '& y\r decision gives me great satisfaction1 & x appe>s to me t x %\ld be satisfactory to all conc]n$4' ',i f\nd y1' he rejo9$1 'l ,abraham & ,lot1 & 7mak+ a motion ) 8 h&7 ,i told "o to take ?is1 ! o!r t direction4' ',= my "p1' ,i said1 ',i look ^u ! decision z provid5tial1 z ,i s\ght no p]sonal triumph ov] ! ,g5]al1 b ent]ta9 e s5tim5t ( *>ity t[>ds him1 & e "o ( my =m] religi\s bre?r54' ,?is rem>k appe>$ to move ! ,pope1 & ,i cont9u$3 ',i ?\ght ( y\r ,hol9ess' decision 9 ! holy ,mass ( ?is morn+1 :5 9 ! ,gospel our ,"l rem9ds u n to decide accord+ to ! appe>ances ( ?+s1 b r5d] a j judgm5t2 & su* is ! "o y h giv51 & = our "p we tru/ t y w receive 9 ! future consolation & joy f our conduct4' ',z y petition$1' he said1 ') ! o!r ,fa!rs z "o ( ! ,congregation1 9 giv+ y disp5sation ,i consid]$ y a memb] ( ! ,congregation4' ',s ,i und]/ood x1' 0 my reply2 '& z a private p]son ,i felt no incl9ation to def5d my "*1 b z a prie/ ,i felt x to be my duty2 & 9 ?is reg>d y\r ,hol9ess has done all t ,i h desir$4' ',b y int5d to rema91' he inquir$1 'toge!r 9 community8' ',mo/ assur$ly1 y\r ,hol9ess2 our int5tion is to live & "w z we h hi!rto done4 ,b !re are _m spiritual privileges atta*$ to ! "w ( ! missions v necess>y to _! success1 & :i* we w\ld gladly p>ticipate 94' ',well1 well1' he answ]$1 'organize1 beg9 y\r "w1 & !n dem& !m1 & ,i w grant !m to y4 ,! ,am]icans1 h[ev]1 are v mu* engross$ 9 mat]ial pursuits4' ',true1 ,holy ,fa!r1' ,i repli$1 'b ! fai? is !re4 ,we five mission>ies are ,am]icans1 & 7 l ! o!rs1 b y see ! grace ( ,god has )drawn u f ^! ?+s & mov$ u to consecrate ourselves :olly to ,god & ,8 ,*ur*1 & we hope x w d ! same = _m ( our c\ntrym54 ,& once our c\ntrym5 are ,ca?olics1 we hope !y w d great ?+s = ,god's ,*ur* & ,8 glory1 = !y h en?usiasm4' ',yes1 yes1' he rejo9$1 'x w\ld be a great consolation to me4' ,i ask$ him if he w\ld grant me a pl5>y indulg5ce = my bre?r5 & my fri5ds 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ',well1' he said1 'b ,i mu/ h a rescript4' ',i h "o ) me :i* p]haps w d1' ,i answ]$4 ,look+ ov] x1 he made "s alt]ations & sign$ x4 ,i knelt d[n at 8 feet & begg$ him to give me a l>ge bless+ be=e my dep>ture1 9 ord] t ,i might become a great mission>y 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates--:i* he gave me mo/ cordially1 & ,i retir$4 ,8 mann] 0 v affectionate1 & 9 ! c\rse ( ! conv]sation he call$ me 'c>o mio' & 'figlio mio' sev]al times4 ,we c\ld n desire to leave a m favorable impression ?an exi/s "h 9 reg>d to u & our "p 9 ! rec5t transaction1 & we h ! sympa?y ( ! ,pope & ! ,propag&a4 ,rome w )hold no?+ f u if we prove wor?y ( its confid5ce1 & w hail our success ) true joy4 ,i look ^u ?is settlem5t ( our difficulties z ! "w ( ,div9e ,provid5ce1 & my pray] is t x may make me humble1 mode/1 & r5ew my desire to consecrate myself :olly to ,god's designs4 ,he writes to ! ,fa!rs1 ,m>* #bg3 ,! sev5 mon?s pass$ "h 9 ,rome seem to me an age2 & h tax$ me to t ext5t t ,i look =w>d to home z a place ( re/ & repose4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( ! fe>s1 anxieties1 & labors und]gone ,i say to myself--en\gh = ?is "t4 ,on ! o!r h&1 :5 ,i rememb] ! w>m & dis9t]e/$ fri5ds ,god has giv5 u on acc\nt ( ^! difficulties1 & ! happy issue to :i* ,8 provid5ce has conduct$ !m1 my he>t is full ( gratitude & joy4 ,to me ! future looks bright1 hopeful1 full ( promise1 & ,i feel confid5t 9 ,god's provid5ce1 & assur$ ( ,8 grace 9 our reg>d4 ,i feel l rais+ up ! cross z our /&>d & adopt+ "o ^w z our motto--,,conqu]6 ,i h j receiv$ ! docum5ts = y to give ! ,papal b5$iction at ! missions1 & w s5d !m4 ,a lett] rea*$ "h ?is week f ! ,bi%op ( ,burl+ton1 ,vt41 & x is /rongly 9 our favor2 x concludes by say+ t all t we requir$ to make u a religi\s ,congregation 0 ! special bless+ ( ! ,holy ,fa!r4 ,aga91 on ,april #c3 ,monsignor ,b$9i ask$ ( ! ,pope ! special b5$iction t ,bi%op ,de ,goesbri& sugge/$1 & he repli$3 ',did ,i n give x to ,p]e ,heck]1 & ?r\gh him to 8 bre?r51 :5 he 0 "h8' ',b1' answ]$ ,monsignor ,b$9i1 'give !m ?is b5$iction ?is "t on ! reque/ ( ! bi%op4' ,& he answ]$3 ',x is well2 ,i d4' ,s !re is a special bless+ f ! ,holy ,fa!r 9 view ( our =m+ a religi\s body4 ,inde$1 t is s well und]/ood "h t sev]al h inquir$ :at "n we int5d to adopt1 etc4 ,( c\rse to all su* que/ions my answ] is3 ',i c say no?+2 ! future is 9 ,god's h&s1 & we int5d to foll[ ,8 provid5ce4' 4 4 4 ,good ,c>d9al ,b>nabo looks ^u u ) a pat]nal reg>d1 & :5 ,i express$ 9 y\r "n h[ w>mly we return$ 8 affection1 & :at a deep gratitude we ow$ him1 he 0 deeply mov$1 & repli$ t he did n des]ve su* s5tim5ts1 & t he _h only done ju/ice4 ,s9ce ! settlem5t ( our affairs ,i h let no occasion pass to express our gratitude to ^? :o h befri5d$ u2 & z = ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 ,monsignor ,b$9i1 ,bi%op ,connolly1 & ,doctor ,b]n>d ,smi?1 ,b5$ict9e monk1 !y %\ld be put at ! head ( ! li/ ( our spiritual b5efactors & rememb]$ 9 all our pray]s4 ,n[ t we are a body1 ,i w\ld advise ?is to be done at once4 ,! ,holy ,fa!r /&s ,no4 #a2 t is und]/ood4 ,h[ mu* ,i h to relate to y on my return6 ,_m ?+s ,i did n v5ture to write d[n on pap]1 & _m ,i c communicate to no "o else b y4 ,h[ great is my desire to see y6--x seems t ,i h no o!r4 ,i h tak5 passage = ,m>seilles on ,tuesday aft] ,ea/]1 ! #f? ( ,april1 & int5d to take passage on ! ,v&]bilt1 :i* leaves ,havre on ! #bh?4 4 4 4 ,i saw ! ,g5]al on ,tuesday ( ?is week1 to take leave ( him4 ,aft] "s conv]sation we left 9 good feel+1 promis+ to pray pro invicem4 ,god bless him6 ,be=e leav+ ,p>is ,fa!r ,heck] receiv$ extremely affectionate lett]s ( congratulation f 8 old fri5ds1 ,fa!rs de ,held & de ,bugg5oms4 ,! foll[+ is ! decree ( ! ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s3 ,c]ta9 prie/s ( ! ,congregation ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem] 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,nor? ,am]ica rec5tly pres5t$ _! mo/ humble petition to our ,mo/ ,holy ,"l ,pope ,pius ,,ix41 t 9 view ( c]ta9 special reasons he w\ld grant t !y might be )drawn f ! au?ority & jurisdiction ( ! ,rector ,major & be gov]n$ by a sup]ior ( _! own1 imm$iately subject to ! ,apo/olic ,see1 & accord+ to ! ,r$emptori/ ,rule approv$ by ,b5$ict ,,xiv41 ( holy memory4 ,if1 h[ev]1 ?is %\ld n be grant$ to !m1 !y mo/ humbly ask$ = disp5sation f _! v[s 9 ! said ,congregation4 ,aft] hav+ c>efully consid]$ ! matt]1 x appe>$ to 8 ,hol9ess t a sep>ation ( ?is k9d w\ld be prejudicial to ! unity ( ! ,congregation & by no means accord ) ! ,in/itute ( ,/4 ,alphonsus1 & !re=e %\ld n be p]mitt$4 ,s9ce1 h[ev]1 x 0 repres5t$ to 8 ,hol9ess t ! petition]s sp>e no labor 9 ! prosecution ( ! holy missions1 9 ! conv]sion ( s\ls1 & 9 ! dissem9ation ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e1 & are = ?is reason comm5d$ by _m bi%ops1 x seem$ m exp$i5t to 8 ,hol9ess to )draw !m f ! said ,congregation1 t !y might apply !mselves to ! prosecution ( ! works ( ! sacr$ m9i/ry "u ! direction ( ! local bi%ops4 ,:]e=e 8 ,hol9ess by ! t5or ( ?is decree1 & by 8 ,apo/olic au?ority1 does disp5se f _! simple v[s & f t ( p]man5ce 9 ! ,congregation ! said prie/s1 viz43 ,cl>5ce ,walwor?1 ,augu/9e ,hewit1 ,george ,de%on1 & ,francis ,bak]1 toge!r ) ! prie/ ,isaac ,heck]1 :o has jo9$ himself to _! petition 9 respect to disp5sation f ! v[s1 & decl>es !m to be disp5s$ & entirely releas$1 s t !y no long] belong to ! said ,congregation4 ,& 8 ,hol9ess confid5tly tru/s t "u ! direction & jurisdiction ( ! local bi%ops1 accord+ to ! prescription ( ! sacr$ ,canons1 ! above-m5tion$ prie/s w labor by "w1 example1 & ^w 9 ! v9ey>d ( ! ,"l1 & give !mselves ) alacrity to ! et]nal salvation ( s\ls1 & promote ) all _! p[] ! sanctification ( _! neighbor4 ,giv5 at ,rome1 9 ! (fice ( ! ,sacr$ ,congregation ( ,bi%ops & ,regul>s1 ! #f? day ( ,m>*1 #aheh4 ,l4 ,s4 ,g4 ,,c>d9al ,,della ,,g5ga1 ,prefect4 ,a41 ,,ar*bi%op ,,( ,,philippi1 ,secret>y499 99 ,nup] nonnulli ex ,presbyt]is ,congregationis ,s,smi ,r$emptoris 9 prov9ciis ,am]icae ,sept5trionalis fo$]atis exi/5tibus ,s,smum ,d4 ,n4 ,pium ,,pp4 ,,ix41 supplici prece deprecabantur1 ut eis ob speciales circum/antias conc$]et ab auctoritate et jurisdictione ,rectoris ,majoris subtrahi1 ac a proprio ,sup]iore ,apo/olicae ,s$i imm$iate subjecto juxta regulam a ,b5$icto ,,xiv41 sanctae memoriae1 approbatam gub]n>i4 ,quod ad id eis datum non esset1 disp5sationem a votis 9 dicta ,congregatione emissis1 humillime expo/ulabant4 ,re s$ulo p]p5sa1 ,sanctitas ,sua exi/imavit hujusmodi sep>ationem unitati ,congregationis (fic]e1 et ,s4 ,alphonsi in/ituto m9ime respond]e ideoque haud p]mitt5dum esse4 ,cum autem relatum sit oratores nulli labore p>c]e 9 sacris exp$itionibus p]ag5dis1 et 9 proximorum conv]sione1 ,*ri/ianaque in/itutione cur&a1 et idcirco a pluribus ,anti/ibus comm5d5tur1 visum e/ ,s,smo ,dom9o magis exp$ire eos a praefata ,congregatione eximi1 ut 9 sacri m9i/]ii op]a promov5da sub directione ,anti/itum locorum incumb]e poss9t4 ,quapropt] ,sanctitas ,sua presbyt]os ,cl>5tium ,walwor?1 ,augu/9um ,hewit1 ,georgium ,de%on1 et ,franciscum ,bak]1 una cum presbyt]o ,isaac ,heck]1 qui eorumdem po/ulationibus quoad disp5sationem a votis adhaesit1 a votis simplicibus1 etiam p]man5tiae 9 ,congregatione ,s,smi ,r$emptoris emissis1 hujus ,decreti t5ore1 ,apo/olica auctoritate disp5sat1 et disp5satos1 ac prorsus solutos esse decl>at1 ita ut ad eamdem ,congregationem amplius non p]t9eant4 ,confidit v]o ,sanctitas ,sua memoratos ,presbyt]os1 qua op]e1 qua exemplo1 qua s]mone1 9 v9ea ,dom9i sub directione et jurisdictione ,anti/itum locorum1 ad praescriptum ,,ss4 ,canonum adlaboraturos1 ut aet]nam anim>um salutem alacrit] cur5t1 atque proximorum sanctificationem pro viribus promoveant4 ,datum ,romae1 ex ,secret>ia ,sacrae ,congregationis ,episcoporum et ,regul>ium1 ,die #f ,m>tii1 #aheh4 ,l4 ,s4 ,g4 ,,c>d9al ,,della ,,g5ga1 ,praef4 ,a41 ,,ar*iepiscopus ,,philipp51 ,sec4 ,,note4--,i wi% to add to ?is1 t ! relations betwe5 ! ,r$emptori/s & ,pauli/s are1 & ,i tru/ w cont9ue to be1 mo/ amicable4 ,,aug4 ,f4 ,,hewit1 ,c4,s4,p41 ,sup]ior4 ,,*apt] ,,xxv ,,beg9n+s ,,( ,,! ,,pauli/ ,,community ,,dur+ ! sev5 mon?s ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s /ay 9 ,rome ! b& ( ,am]ican mission>ies 7 busily occupi$4 ,missions 7 giv5 9 ! foll[+ ord]3 ,new>k1 ,n4,j42 ,p\ghkeepsie1 ,cold ,spr+ on ! ,hudson1 & ,utica1 ,n4,y42 ,br&yw9e1 ,del42 ,tr5ton1 ,n4,j42 ,burl+ton1 ,br&on1 ,ea/ & ,we/ ,rutl&1 ,vt41 & ,plattsburgh1 ,s>atoga1 & ,little ,falls1 ,n4,y4 ,all ^! labors 7 und]tak5 subject to ! au?ority ( ! ,r$emptori/ ,prov9cial & 9 a _s ( entire ob$i5ce4 ,! mission at ,little ,falls clos$ on ,palm ,sunday1 ,m>* #bh1 & ! mission>ies1 ) ! exception ( ,fa!r ,bak]1 :o 0 s5t to ,annapolis1 ,md41 return$ to ! ,r$emptori/ h\se 9 ,?ird ,/reet1 ,new ,york4 ,on ! ,tuesday aft] ,ea/]1 ,april #f1 #aheh1 ! (ficial copy ( ! ,pope's decision rea*$ !m1 & !y bade f>ewell to _! ,r$emptori/ bre?r5 & to ! community 9 :i* !y _h sp5t s _m happy ye>s1 & witness$1 z ,fa!r ,hewit has writt51 s _m edify+ examples ( high virtue & devot$ zeal1 to ent] ^u a new & untri$ und]tak+4 ,ar*bi%op ,k5rick1 z soon z he he>d ( ?is1 made a det]m9$ ef=t to secure ,fa!r ,bak] = ! diocese ( ,baltimore1 b ! latt] nev] = a mom5t falt]$ 9 8 purpose to ca/ 8 lot ) 8 bre?r51 & ! ar*bi%op gave up 8 claim ^u him at ! reque/ ( ,c>d9al ,b>nabo4 ,_! engagem5ts call$ = two m missions be=e ! season end$--"o at ,wat]t[n1 ,n4,y41 & ! o!r at ,/4 ,bridget's ,*ur*1 ,new ,york ,city4 ,! fir/ ( ^! op5$ on ! #ah? ( ,april1 & :ile wait+ = t date ! ,fa!rs liv$ ) ,mr4 ,george ,heck] 9 ,rutg]'s ,place1 say+ ,mass 9 8 private *apel & foll[+ _! religi\s rule z f> z circum/ances all[$1 cont9u+ meantime to obey ,fa!r ,walwor?1 _! =m] sup]ior ( ! missions4 ,!y j\rney$ to ,wat]t[n1 fe>ful le/ ! faculties = giv+ ! ,papal bless+ & ! mission indulg5ces %\ld n arrive !re 9 "t4 ,b late on ,saturday night1 ,april #ai1 !y 7 receiv$1 mu* to ! joy ( ! ,fa!rs4 ,"h occurr$ a notewor?y co9cid5ce4 ,wat]t[n 0 at t "t 9 ! diocese ( ,albany1 ( :i* ,bi%op ,mc,closkey 0 !n ! ord9>y4 ,he _h receiv$ ,fa!r ,heck] into ! ,*ur* & _h be5 8 fir/ guide 9 ! spiritual life1 & n[ he 0 ! fir/ to publicly welcome 8 bre?r5 at ! beg9n+ ( _! new c>e]4 ,! foll[+ is f a lett] ( 8 to ,fa!r ,walwor? 9 answ] to "o ann\nc+ ! rec5t *anges3 ,i am happy to he> t y\r difficulties h at l5g? receiv$ _! solution1 & 9 a mann]1 ,i presume1 z satisfactory z y c\ld well expect4 ,! future mu/ n[ 9 great measure dep5d ^u y\rselves4 ,y w1 ( c\rse1 h difficulties to surm\nt & prejudices to enc\nt]1 b ,i tru/ t ) ,god's bless+ y\r new community :5 once organiz$ w cont9ue f day to day to ga9 increas$ /ability & /r5g?1 & be enabl$ to c>ry out successfully all its laudable aims = ! good ( our holy religion4 ,! faculties already giv5 y 9 ?is diocese y w n consid] z be+ )drawn by ! act ( y\r sep>ation f ! ,r$emptori/ ord]1 & !re is no?+ t ,i "k ( to int]f]e ) y\r propos$ mission 9 ,wat]t[n4 ,dur+ ! mission at ,/4 ,bridget's--t is1 9 ! fir/ half ( ! mon? ( ,may--,fa!r ,heck] arriv$ 9 ,new ,york & measures 7 at once tak5 = ! practical organization ( ! new community4 ,no?+ 0 done hurri$ly2 a fair & full consid]ation ( all que/ions f e po9t ( view1 :i* la/$ until e>ly 9 ! mon? ( ,july1 enabl$ ea* "o cle>ly to und]/& 8 new relation 9 its e aspect4 ,fa!r ,walwor? n be+ entirely 9 agreem5t ) ! o!rs1 )drew to ! diocese ( ,albany & took *>ge ( a p>i%2 he return$ aga9 9 #ahfa1 rema9+ ) ! community till #ahfe1 :5 8 heal? becom+ q %att]$1 he reluctantly decid$ to )draw altoge!r4 ,x ne$ h>dly be said t ! relations betwe5 him & ! community h always be5 mo/ cordial4 ,meantime ! o!rs1 ,fa!rs ,heck]1 ,hewit1 ,de%on1 & ,bak]1 organiz$ by elect+ ! fir/-nam$ ! ,sup]ior1 & drew up & sign$ :at 0 t]m$ a ,programme ( ,rule4 ,?is 0 submitt$ to ,ar*bi%op ,hughes & by him approv$ & sign$ on ,july #g1 #aheh4 ,! ,apo/le ( ! ,g5tiles 0 *os5 z patron1 & ! "n select$ 01 ,! ,mission>y ,prie/s ( ,/4 ,paul ! ,apo/le1 :i* has be5 popul>iz$ into ,pauli/s4 ,! habit agre$ ^u 0 9 =m some:at l t ( ! /ud5ts ( ! ,propag&a 9 ,rome1 black ?r\gh\t1 ) a n>r[ l95 coll> & button$ across ! brea/1 be+ held at ! wai/ by a c9cture4 ,! ,programme ( ,rule adopts an ord] ( spiritual ex]cises simil> to t obs]v$ by ! ,fa!rs :ile ,r$emptori/s4 ,a p]petual volunt>y agreem5t takes ! place ( ! v[s z ! security ( /ability1 ! memb]s affirm+ t !y are fully det]m9$ to promote _! sanctification by lead+ a life 9 all ess5tial respects simil> to t l$ 9 ! religi\s ord]s4 ,besides ! *a/ity impos$ ^u !m by ! prie/hood ! o!r evangelical c\nsels ( ob$i5ce & pov]ty are adopt$ & _! obs]vance enjo9$ ^u ! memb]s1 toge!r ) ! daily & p]iodical ex]cises ( community life4 ,z to ! ext]nal vocation1 ! missions are nam$ z ! basis ( g5]al apo/olic labors1 & p>i% "w also1 ?\gh 9 a subord9ate degree4 ,! entire docum5t looks =w>d to a complete ,rule to be drawn up & submitt$ to ! ,holy ,see at a future day1 = :i* x actually furni%$ ! outl9es "s tw5ty ye>s aft]w>ds4 ,! approval ( ! ,programme ( a ,rule by ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,new ,york gave ! ,fa!rs ! canonical /atus anticipat$ by ! decree ,nup] nonnulli4 ,?is 0 confirm$ by an (ficial p]mission ( ! ,holy ,see to ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,new ,york to e/abli% ! ,pauli/ ,in/itute 9 8 diocese1 ) ! cons5t ( 8 suffragans1 :i* 0 ask$ = & obta9$4 ,a little m ?an a =tnight aft] ^! ev5ts ,fa!r ,heck] wrote z foll[s to a fri5d3 ,be=e leav+ ,rome our ,holy ,fa!r ,pius ,,ix4 gave u 8 special bless+ = ! comm5cem5t ( our new organization1 promis$ u any privileges we might ne$ to c>ry on our mission>y labors1 & held out ! hope ( 8 sanction1 9 prop] "t1 ( ! rules :i* we might make4 ,9 my la/ visit to 8 ,em95ce ,c>d9al ,b>nabo he gave me advice h[ to organize1 :at /eps 7 to be tak5 f "t to "t1 & express$ a mo/ lively int]e/ 9 our und]tak+4 ,! same did ,monsignor ,b$9i4 ,on my return we organiz$ z advis$1 wrote out an outl9e ( our new in/itution & submitt$ x to ! ord9>y ( ?is diocese1 ! initiatory /ep ( all su* und]tak+s4 ,he gave x 8 cordial approbation1 & said t he f\nd no ^w to alt]1 to add1 or improve4 ,?us we are s f> regul>ly canonically in/itut$4 ,our aim is to lead a /rict religi\s life 9 community1 />t+ ) ! volunt>y pr9ciple2 leav+ ! "q ( v[s to fur!r exp]i5ce1 c\nsel1 & indications ( ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,our pr9cipal "w is ! missions1 su* z we h hi!rto giv51 b we are n exclud$ f o!r apo/olic labors z ! wants ( ! ,*ur* may dem& or develop4 4 4 4 ,we beg9 e>ly ?is fall our campaign ( missions1 & we nev] _h be=e u s f9e a li/4 ,"o ?+ ,i may say1 & ,i tru/ )\t boa/+1 we are ( "o m9d & he>t1 resolv$ to labor & die = ,jesus ,*ri/1 = ! good ( ,8 holy ,*ur*1 = ! advancem5t ( ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,we h ! enc\ragem5t ( a numb] ( bi%ops1 & also1 we tru/1 ! pray]s1 sympa?y1 & assi/ance ( ! fai?ful4 ,we %all h to face ob/acles1 opposition f fri5ds & foes2 b if we are ! "r k9d ( m5 & h ! virtues :i* su* a position z ours dem&s1 our trials w only /r5g!n u & make u ! bett] ,*ri/ians4 ,e good "w mu/ expect opposition f pi\s m51 & our m9ds are made up to t4 ,aft] ,/4 ,bridget's mission ! little community f\nd itself homeless1 & x rema9$ s till ! spr+ ( ! ye> #ahei4 ,b dur+ "p ( ?is p]iod ,mr4 ,george ,heck]1 tak+ 8 family to ! c\ntry1 gave up 8 :ole h\se to ! ,fa!rs1 s]vants & all1 mak+ provision = ! supply ( e want 9 ! mo/ g5]\s mann]4 ,= ! great] portion ( ! "t1 h[ev]1 especially betwe5 missions 9 ! w9t] & spr+ ( #aheh-i1 ! ,fa!rs dep5d$ = tempor>y %elt] ^u ! hospitality ( fri5ds among ! cl]gy & laity1 ev5 lodg+ = a %ort :ile 9 a respectable bo>d+-h\se 9 ,?irte5? /reet1 at a conv5i5t di/ance f sev]al *ur*es & *apels :]e ,mass c\ld be said daily4 ,b 9 ! spr+ ( #aheh arrangem5ts _h be5 made ) ,ar*bi%op ,hughes = e/abli%+ a h\se & p>i% 9 ,new ,york4 ,! pres5t site ( ,/4 ,paul's ,*ur* & conv5t1 !n 9 ! mid/ ( a suburban wild]ness1 0 *os51 &1 by d9t ( ha/y collections f private fri5ds & ) ! help ( a v l>ge gift f ,mr4 ,george ,heck]1 money en\gh 0 paid d[n to obta9 ! de$s4 ,sixtie? ,/reet 0 n q op5$ at ! "t1 & ?is "p ( ,n9? ,av5ue exi/$ only on pap]2 b by en]getic ef=ts made by all ! ,fa!rs & _! fri5ds1 & by p]sonal appeals 9 e direction1 especially 9 ! d[n-t[n p>i%es 9 :i* !y _h giv5 missions1 suffici5t funds 7 rais$ to cle> ! gr\nd & lay ! f\ndations ( a build+ :i* 0 to include bo? conv5t & *ur*4 ,e>ly 9 ! summ] ( #aheh circul>s ask+ assi/ance _h be5 s5t out to ! cl]gy ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 & by ?is means also a consid]able am\nt 0 secur$1 ! v fir/ answ] ) a h&some donation com+ f ,fa!r ,e>ly1 ,presid5t ( ,georget[n ,college4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahei ! ,fa!rs r5t$ a frame h\se on ,sixtie? ,/reet1 j we/ ( ,broadway1 fitt$ up a little *apel 9 x1 & liv$ !re 9 community till ! new h\se 0 f9i%$4 ,! corn]-/one ( ! new /ructure 0 laid by ,ar*bi%op ,hughes on ,tr9ity ,sunday1 ,june #ai1 #ahei1 9 ! pres5ce ( an imm5se conc\rse ( p4 ,dur+ t summ] & fall e ef=t 0 made to keep ! build]s at "w4 ,! task 0 no easy "o4 ,! times 7 h>d1 ! c\ntry /ill suff]+ f ! effects ( ! f9ancial crisis ( #aheg1 ! f9ancial depression be+ aggravat$ by ! om9\s outlook 9 ! political _w4 ,b ! h\se 0 f9ally complet$1 & 0 bless$ by ,fa!r ,heck] on ! #bd? ( ,novemb]1 ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross1 "o ( 8 v special patrons4 ,?is 0 )9 a few weeks ( 8 =tie? bir?day4 ,on ! #bg? ( ! same mon?1 ! fir/ ,sunday ( ,adv5t1 ! *apel 0 bless$ & ,solemn ,mass 0 celebrat$ 9 x4 ,!reaft] ! ,fa!rs _h to act z p>i% prie/s z well z mission>ies4 ,a few weeks be=e ?is ! fir/ recruit jo9$ ! little b& 9 ! p]son ( ,fa!r ,rob]t ,bev]ly ,tillotson1 a conv]t1 :o1 ?\gh an ,am]ican1 _h be5 = "s "t a memb] ( ,dr4 ,newman's ,oratory4 ,he 0 a *>m+ prea*] & a noble "*1 mu* belov$ by all ! fa!rs1 & especially by ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,he di$1 deeply m\rn$1 9 ! summ] ( #ahfh1 hav+ giv5 ! community n9e ye>s ( mo/ valuable s]vice4 ,he came j 9 "t to set free ?ree ( ! ,fa!rs = mission>y duty1 ! o!r two rema9+ 9 c>e ( ! p>i%4 ,?is 0 at fir/ small en\gh 9 numb]s1 ?\gh 9 t]ritory x rea*$ f ,fifty-second ,/reet to v ne> ,manhattanville4 ,! accession ( ,fa!r ,alfr$ ,"y1 ( ! diocese ( ,new>k1 & ! return ( ,fa!r ,walwor? consid]ably reliev$ ! pressure1 ?\gh ! rapid gr[? ( ! p>i% & ! wid5+ scope ( ! community's labors kept e "o busy en\gh4 ,! newly-f\nd$ ,pauli/ community 0 he>tily welcom$ by bo? cl]gy & p4 ,missions 7 giv5 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 applications be+ (t5 decl9$ = want ( "t & mission>ies4 ,sev]al prelates1 among :om 7 ! ,ar*bi%ops ( ,baltimore & ,c9c9nati1 wrote to ,fa!r ,heck] (f]+ to e/abli% ! community 9 _! dioceses2 ,bi%op ,bayley1 ( ,new>k1 also wi%$ to secure ! ,fa!rs1 & he 0 especially urg5t 9 8 reque/4 ,"o has b to "k ! int5sely cons]vative _s ( ! ,ca?olic hi]>*y & cl]gy to appreciate h[ /a9less mu/ h be5 ! record ( ! ,fa!rs to elicit su* te/imonials ( good-w j aft] !y _h f\ght a h>d battle on ! gr\nd ( au?ority & ob$i5ce4 ,z to ! ,ca?olic laity1 ! foll[+ extract f a lett] ( ! poet ,george ,h4 ,miles1 ^: e>ly dea? "s ye>s aft] 0 s deeply lam5t$1 %[s h[ !y reg>d$ ! new community4 ,x 0 writt5 f ,baltimore "u date ( ,augu/ #ac1 #aheh3 ,,my ,,v ,,de> ,,fa!r ,,heck]3 4 4 4 ,s9ce we la/ p>t$ y h be5 to me "o ( ^? gr&1 good memories we take to he>t & *]i%4 ,i h lov$ y bett] ?an y c\ld believe1 = ,i felt t 9 ! extremity ( sorr[ or temptation y 7 ! man & ! prie/ ,i w\ld h rec\rse to1 c\ld my own wi% be grant$4 ,y are n wrong 9 consid]+ me a fri5d2 t is1 if mu* love may atone = little p[] to befri5d4 4 4 4 ,provid5tially1 x n[ appe>s1 y m5 h always _h an individual =ce t deta*$ y completely f y\r confr]es4 ,to me & to ! multitudes y 7 nev] ,r$emptori/s1 nev] ,liguorians1 b ,heck]1 ,walwor?1 ,hewit1 ,de%on1 ,bak]4 ,i mean to utt] no?+ disrespectful to ! society :i* has bless$ ?is nation 9 tra9+ & develop+ y & y\r new body ( prea*]s1 b ,i ma9ta9 t y /ood s completely ap>t f t society1 s absolutely individualiz$1 t1 etc4 ,! ?ree ye>s foll[+ ,fa!r ,heck]'s return f ,rome 7 exce$+ly active ones4 ,! missions 7 ma9ta9$1 money collect$ = ! pur*ase ( ! prop]ty & ! build+ ( ! conv5t at ! corn] ( ,fifty-n9? ,/reet & ,n9? ,av5ue1 &1 aft] ! op5+ ( ! new *ur* 9 ,novemb]1 #ahei1 ! regul> duties ( a city p>i% 7 add$4 ,i am h>d at "w1 writes ,fa!r ,heck] to a fri5d1 9 ! v mid/ ( ^! labors1 9 solicit+ subscriptions = our conv5t & tempor>y *ur*4 ,i h work$ h>d 9 my life1 b ?is is ab\t ! h>de/4 ,h[ev]1 x goes4 ,i _h1 a c\ple ( weeks ago1 a donation ( #bjj f a ,prote/ant4 ,ye/]day a subscription ( #ij f ano!r4 ,sursum ,corda & g ahead1 is my cry6 ,&1 inde$1 he 0 full ( c\rage & consci5ce 9 ! future1 all 8 lett]s brea?+ a *e]ful _s4 ,be=e giv+ ,fa!r ,heck]'s pr9ciples = community life1 :i* we w d 9 ! next *apt]1 x may be well to say a few words m ab\t ! attitude 9 :i* he & 8 companions _h be5 plac$1 by ! action ( ! ,holy ,see1 t[>d ! ,ca?olic idea ( au?ority4 ,j z he 0 ab\t to sail = ,am]ica he wrote to 8 bro!r ,george3 ,i return f ,rome ) my en?usiasm un*ill$ & my resolution to labor = ! conv]sion ( our p int5sifi$ & /r5g!n$4 ,i feel t ! k & exp]i5ce :i* ,i h acquir$ are mo/ necess>y = ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs 9 _! pres5t delicate position4 ,& 9 tru? 8 /ay 9 ,rome _h prep>$ him = ! new responsibilities 9 /ore = him4 ,8 suff]+s !re _h purifi$ 8 motives1 8 humiliations & 8 angui% _h taught him ! ne$ ( reliance1 total & lov+1 on ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,he _h /udi$ au?ority 9 its *ief seat1 & he _h done s ) ! dep? ( impression :i* a man on trial = 8 life exp]i5ces ( ! p[] ( ! advocates & ! dignity ( ! judges4 ,! result ( t trial 0 ( inf9ite b5efit4 ,! te/ ( g5u9e lib]ty is its consonance ) lawful au?ority1 & 9 ,fa!r ,heck]'s case ! newe/ lib]ty _h be5 r\ghly arraign$ be=e ! mo/ v5]able au?ority kn[n among m51 tri$ by fire1 & s5t =? ) ,rome's broad seal ( approval4 ,)\t d\bt ! *ief endeavor ( au?ority %\ld be to w9 ! allegiance ( free & aspir+ spirits2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 no "o %\ld be s firmly conv9c$ ( ! rights ( ! ext]nal ord] ( ,god z ! man :o is call$ to m9i/] to ! aspirations ( human lib]ty4 ,no man ought to be s vividly consci\s ( ! pr]ogatives ( au?ority z he :o lays claim to a vocation to extol ! wor? ( lib]ty4 ,x 01 !re=e1 fitt+ t ,fa!r ,heck] %\ld le>n 8 lesson ( ! pr]ogatives ( ! visible ,*ur* f t tea*] :o has no ma/] among m54 ,at ! same "t ,rome s5t =? 9 ! p]son ( ,fa!r ,heck] a liv+ & p[]ful argum5t address$ to ?is ,republic1 t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* is wor?y ( ! he>tie/ allegiance ( our citiz5s4 ,?is provid5tial aspect ( ! case %\ld n be =gott54 ,:5 ,fa!r ,heck] _h be5 expell$ f ! ,r$emptori/s x might h be5 ?\ght t he 0 done =1 & t if he _h ev] _h a mission x _h suff]$ total %ipwreck1 :e!r des]v$ or n4 ,b 9 reality ! v rev]se 0 ! tru?4 ,! disgrace ( expulsion1 ! sudd5 horror ( be+ ?us ca/ out1 a calamity :i* set him =? to all ,ca?olics z a ru9$ prie/1 _h b s]v$ to br+ him into ! notice ( ! supreme au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,& :5 9 ?is ,god _h wr\ght all ,8 "w ,8 s]vant 0 purifi$ )9 & mightily /r5g!n$ )\t4 ,9 8 inmo/ s\l he 0 consci\s ( 8 div9e mission ) a deep] c]titude ?an ev] be=e2 & z he began 8 apo/olate he bore on 8 arm ! buckl] ( ,rome1 aga9/ :i* all ! d>ts ( enemies1 if any %\ld arise1 w\ld /rike h>mless & fall to ! gr\nd4 ,x 0 fitt+ t ! ,pauli/ community1 appeal+ to ! m5 & wom5 ( to-day ) ! cr$5tials z well ( _! own individual indep5d5ce z ( ! good w ( ! ,pope & ! ,bi%ops1 %\ld be laun*$ into exi/5ce f ! v deck ( ,pet]'s b>k1 & furni%$ ) all ! te/imonials ( ecclesia/ical au?ority %ort ( canonical sanction4 ,?is 0 ! m prop] because1 9 a few ye>s aft] ! beg9n+ ( ! community1 ,european revolutioni/s 7 to be sc\rg$ ) ! ,syllabus1 ^: e ^w agoniz$ ! s\ls ( unwor?y advocates ( lib]ty4 ,t ,pontifical docum5t has creat$ a lit]ature ( its own 9 comm5t & explanation1 "s ty+ m knots 9 e la% & o!rs mitigat+ its sev]ity or palliat+ ! errors x smote ) su* pitiless rigor4 ,b ! be/ int]pretation ( ! ,syllabus is ! ,pauli/ community4 ,x is a body ( free m5 ^: orig9 0 ! jo9t result ( ! p]sonal work+s ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l ( a man :o lov$ civil & political fre$om ) a mighty love1 & ! decision ( ! highe/ c\rt ( ,ca?olicity decl>+ him wor?y ( tru/ z an expon5t ( ! ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,if ! ,syllabus %[s :at ! ,*ur* ?9ks ( ^? :o 9 ! guise ( freem5 are conspirators aga9/ religion & public ord]1 ! approval ( ! ,pauli/ community %[s ! ,*ur*'s attitude t[>ds m5 wor?y to be free4 ,nor 0 ,rome's c\rse *os5 )\t weigh+ ! consequ5ces1 )\t a full e/imate ( ! public significance ( ! act4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s adv]s>ies fix$ ^u him e /igma ( radicalism & rebellion possible 9 a good b delud$ prie/4 ,= sev5 long mon?s !y p\r$ into e>s :i* in/9ctively fe>$ revolt 9 ! "n ( lib]ty1 e accusation 8 do+s & say+s c\ld be made to give color to1 9 ord] to prove t he & ! ,am]ican ,fa!rs 7 ta9t$ ) false lib]alism4 ,& he seem$ to l5d himself to _! purpose4 ,8 guileless tongue spoke to ! c>d9als1 prelates1 & pr(essors ( ,rome ab\t no?+ s mu* z fre$om1 & its k9%ip ) ,ca?olicity4 ,he seem$ to h no refuge b ! disclosure ( ! v secrets ( 8 s\l4 ,dur+ ^? mon?s ( incessant accusation & def5ce ,fa!r ,heck] talk$ ,rome's high dignit>ies into full k ( himself1 until !y saw ! cause mirror$ 9 ! man & gave approval to bo?4 ,"s1 l ,b>nabo1 7 actuat$ by ! quick sympa?y ( free natures2 o!rs1 l ,pius ,,ix41 arriv$ at a decision by ! sl[] processes ( ! removal ( prejudice f an hone/ m9d1 & ! c>eful comp>+ ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s pr9ciples ) ! fundam5tal tru?s ( religion4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvi ,,fa!r ,,heck]',s ,,idea ,,( ,a ,,religi\s ,,community ,,! beg9n+s ( ! ,pauli/ community hav+ be5 sket*$1 x is n[ 9 ord] to /ate ! pr9ciples ) :i* ,fa!r ,heck]1 guid$ no less by sup]natural intuition ?an by enlight5$ reason1 int5d$ x %\ld be inspir$2 & ?is %all be done z ne>ly z possible 9 8 own words4 ,! foll[+ s5t5ces1 f\nd 9 "o ( 8 di>ies & quot$ "s *apt]s back1 embody :at may be deem$ 8 ultimate pr9ciple3 ,x is = ?is we are creat$3 t we may give a new & individual expression ( ! absolute 9 our own peculi> "*4 ,z soon z ! new is b ! re-expression ( ! old1 ,god ceases to live4 ,ev] ! my/]y is reveal$ 9 ea* new bir?2 s mu/ x be to et]nity4 ,! ,et]nal-,absolute is ev] creat+ new =ms ( express+ itself4 ,:at ! new ord] ( ?+s 0 to be 9 ! spiritual life c\ld be le>n$1 ,fa!r ,heck] held1 by obs]v+ m5's /riv+s aft] natural good4 ,! t5d5cies :i* %ape m5's ef=ts to secure happ9ess 9 ?is _w1 9 s f> z !y are innoc5t1 indicat$ to him :at *oice ( means %\ld be made to propagate ! k & love ( ,god4 ,accord+ to ?is1 ! mo/ successful work] = a p's sanctification w be k9dr$ to !m by conviction & by sympa?y 9 all t conc]ns _! political & social life4 ,m5's aspirations 9 ! natural ord] po9t out ! highway ( ,god's repres5tatives4 ,z ^! aspirations *ange f era to era1 s d ! ma9 l9es ( religi\s ef=t *ange1 ! highways ( "o age becom+ ! byways ( ano!r4 ,x is true t no me?od = ! elevation ( human nature to div9e union1 :i* ! ,*ur* has sanction$1 ev] becomes q obsolete1 b ! m]e/ glance at ! diff]5ces betwe5 ! spiritual *>act]i/ics ( ! m>tyrs1 ! h]mits1 ! monks1 ! fri>s1 %[s t "o =m ( ! ,*ri/ian virtues succe$s ano!r 9 g5]al possession ( m5's s\ls4 ,! new _s1 )\t cr[d+ ! old "o (f its beat5 track1 foll[s m5 to ! new ways :i!r ! provid5ce ( ,god 9 ! natural ord] has l$ !m4 ,fir/ ! natural man1 says ,/4 ,paul1 & !n ! spiritual4 ,diff]5t types ( spirituality are br\ght =w>d by ,almighty ,god to sanctify m5 9 new conditions ( life4 ,among ! =emo/ ( ^! are religi\s communities ( m5 & wom54 ,h5ce _! duty to adju/ !mselves1 z f> z fai? & discipl9e p]mit1 to ! circum/ances ( ! times4 ,! p[] ( a religi\s community = good w be measur$ by its ability to elevate ! natural to ! sup]natural )\t %ock+ x or ?w>t+ x4 ,n[1 e "o kn[s t ?is age diff]s mat]ially f pa/ ones4 ,x diff]s by a wid] spread ( education & an uncontrollable long+ aft] lib]ty1 civil1 political1 & p]sonal4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 p5etrat$ ) ! belief t ! intellig5ce & lib]ty1 ^: well-ord]$ enjoym5t he _h witness$ 9 ,am]ica1 & :i* he lov$ s deeply himself1 7 div9e invitations to ! apo/olate ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,he 0 pr(\ndly impress$ ) ! c]ta9ty ( ! developm5t1 ! ext5sion1 & ! p]man5ce ( ^! political & social *anges2 & he knew t !y dem&$ ( m5 a p]sonal indep5d5ce ( "* f> 9 advance ( previ\s g5]ations4 ,& he knew1 also1 t = ! sanctification ( su* m5 ! aids ( religion1 ?\gh n *ang$ 9 !mselves1 mu/ be appli$ 9 a diff]5t _s4 ,discipl9e & uni=mity1 ?\gh nev] to be disp5s$ )1 mu/ yield ! fir/ places to m int]ior virtues4 ,! dom9ant influ5ce mu/ be docility to ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s dwell+ )9 e reg5]ate s\l4 ,apply+ ?is1 t[>ds ! end ( 8 life1 to religi\s communities1 ,fa!r ,heck] wrote3 ,! controll+ ?\ght ( my m9d = _m ye>s has be5 t a body ( free m5 :o love ,god ) all _! might1 & yet "k h[ to cl+ toge!r1 c\ld conqu] ?is mod]n _w ( ours4 ,! s5t5ce may be tak5 z a brief description ( ! ,pauli/ community z he w\ld h x4 ,& x is easily se5 :y free m5 lov+ ,god ) all _! he>ts are suit$ to conqu] ?is mod]n _w2 because m5 are det]m9$ to be free4 ,! foll[+ extracts f notes1 lett]s1 & di>ies m fully develop ?is idea3 ,a new religi\s ord] is an evid5ce & expression ( an uncommon or special grace giv5 to a c]ta9 numb] ( s\ls1 s t !y may be sanctifi$ by ! practice ( p>ticul> virtues to meet ! special ne$s ( _! epo*1 & 9 ?is way to r5ew ! spiritual life ( ! memb]s ( ! ,*ur* & to ext5d h] fold4 ,a new community is ?is1 or x has no reason = its exi/5ce4 ,! means to accompli% its special "w are bo? new & old4 ,x %\ld lay /ress on ! new1 & n despise b also make use ( ! old4 ',! wise h\sehold] br+e? =? f 8 treasury new ?+s & old4' ,! true ,pauli/ is a religi\s man entirely dep5d5t on ,god = 8 spiritual life2 he lives 9 community = ! great] security ( 8 own salvation & p]fection1 & to meet m effici5tly ! press+ ne$s ( ! ,*ur* & ( humanity 9 8 day4 ,! ,*ur* always f9ds 9 h] wond]ful fecundity :]e) to supply ! new wants :i* arise 9 e di/9ct epo* ( society4 ,a new religi\s community1 unless its activity is direct$ *iefly to supply+ ! special ne$s ( its "t1 we>s itself out at ! exp5se ( its true mission & w decl9e & fail4 ,we mu/ realize ! necessity ( m explicitly br++ out our ideal if we w\ld give a suffici5t motive = our /ud5ts & memb]s1 keep !m 9 ! community1 br+ ab\t unity ( action1 & accompli% ! good :i* ! ,holy ,_s dem&s at our h&s4 ,a ,pauli/1 z a di/9ct species ( a religi\s man1 is "o :o is alive to ! press+ ne$s ( ! ,*ur* at ! pres5t "t1 & feels call$ to labor specially ) ! means fitt$ to supply !m4 ,& :at a memb] ( ano!r religi\s community might d f t div9e guidance :i* is ext]nal1 ! ,pauli/ does f ! prompt+s ( ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s4 ,a ,pauli/ is a ,*ri/ian man :o aims at a ,*ri/ian p]fection consi/5t ) 8 natural *>act]i/ics & ! type ( civilization ( 8 c\ntry4 ,s f> z x is compatible ) fai? & piety1 ,i am = accept+ ! ,am]ican civilization ) its usages & cu/oms2 leav+ aside o!r reasons1 x is ! only way by :i* ,ca?olicity c become ! religion ( our p4 ,! "* & _s ( our p1 & _! in/itutions1 mu/ f9d !mselves at home 9 our ,*ur* 9 ! way ^? ( o!r nations h done2 & x is on ?is basis alone t ! ,ca?olic religion c make progress 9 our c\ntry4 ,:at we ne$ to-day is m5 ^: _s is t ( ! e>ly m>tyrs4 ,we %all get !m 9 proportion z ,ca?olics cultivate a _s ( indep5d5ce & p]sonal conviction4 ,! highe/ developm5t ( religion 9 ! s\l is :5 x is assi/$ by free contemplation ( ! ultimate causes ( ?+s4 ,intellig5ce & lib]ty are ! human environm5ts mo/ favorable to ! deep5+ ( p]sonal conviction ( religi\s tru?1 & ob$i5ce to ! int]ior movem5ts ( an enlight5$ consci5ce4 ,to a well-ord]$ m9d ! "q ( ! h\r is h[ ! s\l :i* aspires to ! sup]natural life %all utilize ! advantages ( lib]ty & intellig5ce4 ,! =m ( gov]nm5t ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates is pref]able to ,ca?olics above o!r =ms4 ,x is m favorable ?an o!rs to ! practice ( ^? virtues :i* are ! necess>y conditions ( ! developm5t ( ! religi\s life ( man4 ,?is gov]nm5t leaves m5 a l>g] m>g9 = lib]ty ( action1 & h5ce = co-op]ation ) ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 ?an any o!r gov]nm5t "u ! sun4 ,) ^! popul> in/itutions m5 enjoy great] lib]ty 9 work+ out _! true de/9y4 ,! ,ca?olic ,*ur* w1 !re=e1 fl\ri% all ! m 9 ?is republican c\ntry 9 proportion z h] repres5tatives keep1 9 _! civil life1 to ! l9es ( _! republicanism4 ,! two poles ( ! ,pauli/ "* are3 fir/1 p]sonal p]fection4 ,he mu/ respond to ! pr9ciples ( p]fection z laid d[n by spiritual writ]s4 ,! backbone ( a religi\s community is ! desire = p]sonal p]fection actuat+ its memb]s4 ,! desire = p]sonal p]fection is ! f\ndation /one ( a religi\s community2 :5 ?is fails1 x crumbles to pieces2 :5 ?is ceases to be ! dom9ant desire1 ! community is tott]+4 ,mission>y works1 p>o*ial "w1 etc41 are & mu/ be made subord9ate to p]sonal p]fection4 ,^! works mu/ be done 9 view ( p]sonal p]fection4 ,! ma9 purpose ( ea* ,pauli/ mu/ be ! atta9m5t ( p]sonal p]fection by ! practice ( ^? virtues )\t :i* x _c be secur$--mortification1 self-d5ial1 deta*m5t1 & ! l4 ,by ! use ( ^! means ! grace ( ,god makes ! s\l p]fect4 ,! p]fect s\l is "o :i* is guid$ in/9ctively by ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s4 ,to atta9 to ?is is ! end always to be aim$ at 9 ! practice ( ! virtues j nam$4 ,second1 zeal = s\ls2 to labor = ! conv]sion ( ! c\ntry to ! ,ca?olic fai? by apo/olic "w4 ,p>i% "w is a "p1 an integral "p1 ( ,pauli/ "w1 b n its pr9cipal or *ief "w--& p>i% "w %\ld be done s z to =m a "p ( ! ma9 aim1 ! conv]sion ( ! non-,ca?olic p ( ! c\ntry4 ,9 ?is mann] we c labor to raise ! /&>d ( ,ca?olic life "h & ?r\gh\t ! _w z a means ( ! g5]al triumph ( ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,i d n ?9k t ! pr9cipal *>act]i/ic ( our ,fa!rs & ( our life %\ld be pov]ty or ob$i5ce or any o!r special & second>y virtue1 or ev5 a c>d9al virtue1 b zeal = apo/olic works4 ,our vocation is apo/olic--conv]sion ( s\ls to ! fai?1 ( s9n]s to rep5tance1 giv+ missions1 def5ce ( ! ,*ri/ian religion by conf]5ces1 lectures1 s]mons1 ! p51 ! press1 & ! l works2 & 9 ! int]ior1 to propagate among m5 a high] & m spiritual life4 ,to supply ! special elem5t ! age & ea* c\ntry dem&s1 ?is is ! peculi> "w ( religi\s communities3 ?is _! field4 ,x is a fatal mi/ake :5 religi\s attempt to d ! ord9>y "w ( ! ,*ur*4 ,let religi\s practise pray] & /udy2 !re w always be en\gh ( ! "w to :i* !y are call$4 ,are ! ,pauli/s ,religi\s8 ,yes1 & no4 ,yes1 ( _! age4 ,no1 ( ! pa/2 ! words 9 nei!r case be+ tak5 9 an exclusive mean+4 ,z reg>ds ! gr[? ( ! ,pauli/1 he mu/ develop 9 an apo/olic vocation--t is1 9 apo/olic works1 ,ca?olic1 univ]sal2 n 9 works :i* conf9e 8 life's en]gies to a locality4 ,he mu/ d ! "w ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! "w ( ! ,*ur*1 z ,*ur*1 is to r5d] h] note ( univ]sality m & m conspicu\s to r5d] x s5sible1 palpable4 ,?is is ! _s ( ! ,*ur* 9 our c\ntry4 ,! foll[+ ref]s to ! second trait ( ! "* above giv53 ,a ,pauli/ is to emphasize individuality2 t is1 to make individual lib]ty an ess5tial elem5t 9 e judgm5t t t\*es ! life & welf>e ( ! community & t ( its memb]s4 ,^? :o emphasize ! community elem5t are incl9$ to look ^u ?is z a dang]\s & impracticable exp]im5t4 ,individuality is an integral & conspicu\s elem5t 9 ! life ( ! ,pauli/4 ,?is mu/ be felt4 ,"o ( ! natural signs ( ! true ,pauli/ is t he w\ld pref] to suff] f ! excesses ( lib]ty r ?an f ! arbitr>y actions ( tyranny4 ,! individuality ( a man _c be too /rong or 8 lib]ty too great :5 he is guid$ by ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,b :5 "o is easily influ5c$ f bel[ r ?an f above1 x is an evid5ce ( ! _s ( pride & t ( ! fle%1 & n '! lib]ty ( ! glory ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god4' ,:at foll[s t\*es ! relation betwe5 ! p]sonal & common life3 ,_m o!r communities lay ! ma9 /ress on community life z ! *ief elem5t1 giv+ x control z f> z is consi/5t ) fundam5tal individual "r2 ! ,pauli/s1 on ! contr>y1 give ! elem5t ( individuality ! fir/ place & put x 9 control z f> z is consi/5t ) ! common life4 ,! _s ( ! age has a t5d5cy to run into extreme individuality1 into ecc5tricity1 lic5se1 revolution4 ,b ! typical life %[s h[ individuality is consi/5t ) community life4 ,?is is ! aim ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates 9 ! political ord]1 an aim & t5d5cy :i* we h to guide1 & n to *eck or sacrifice4 ,! elem5t ( individuality is tak5 into acc\nt 9 ! ,pauli/ ess5tially1 integrally1 practically4 ,b :5 x comes into conflict ) ! common "r1 ! individual mu/ yield to ! community3 ! common life outranks ! individual life 9 case ( conflict4 ,b ! individual life %\ld be reg>d$ z sacr$ & nev] be effac$4 ,h[ ?is is to op]ate 9 p>ticul> cases belongs1 :]e x is n a matt] ( rule1 to ! virtue ( prud5ce to decide4 ,:5 ! p]sonality ( ! individual comes into conflict ) ! life ( ! community1 ! p]sonal side mu/ n be sacrific$1 b made to yield to ! common4 ,9 case ( conflict1 z be=e said1 common life & int]e/s outrank p]sonal life & int]e/s4 ,x may be ask$ h[1 9 ! ord9>y regulation & gov]nm5t ( a community ( ?is k9d1 ! individual & common elem5ts are to be made to h>monize8 ,! answ] is1 t ! "o at ! head ( affairs mu/ be a true ,pauli/ t is to say1 ke5ly s5sitive ( p]sonal rights z well z appreciative ( su* z are common3 :]e ! "q is n a po9t ( rule1 its decision is dep5d5t on ! practical sagacity & prud5ce ( ! sup]ior m ?an on any m9ute regulations :i* c be giv54 ,he :o int]prets ! acts ( legitimate au?ority z an attack on 8 p]sonal lib]ty1 is z f> out ( ! way z he :o looks ^u ! ex]cise ( reason z an attack on au?ority4 ,h[ ab\t p]sons ( dull m9ds or ( little spiritual ambition com+ into ! use ( ?is fre$om8 ,fir/1 no su* p]son %\ld be all[$ to ent] into ! community3 su* p]sons %\ld be exclud$4 ,second1 a full-fl$g$ ,pauli/ %\ld h pass$ a long en\gh novitiate to h acquir$ ! special virtues :i* are necess>y = 8 vocation4 ,abs5ce ( sup]natural light is ! cause :y a man is n fit to be a ,pauli/1 = he _c und]/& rightly or appreciate ! value ( ! lib]ties he enjoys4 ,he ei!r is or he becomes a turbul5t elem5t 9 ! community4 ,a ,pauli/1 see+ t he has s mu* individuality1 %\ld h a /rong1 nay1 a v /rong attrait = community life2 he %\ld be fond ( ! ,fa!rs' company1 pref] !m & _! society :5 seek+ prop] recreation1 feel ! h\se to be 8 home & ! community & its surr\nd+s v de> to him2 9 ! r\t9e ( ! day all ! community ex]cises & labors are1 9 8 judgm5t1 ( p>am\nt obligation & importance4 ,! civil & political /ate ( ?+s ( our age1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 fo/]s ! individual life4 ,b x %\ld d s )\t weak5+ ! community life3 ?is is true individualism4 ,! problem is to make ! syn!sis4 ,! jo9t product is ! ,pauli/4 ,a ,pauli/ %\ld cultivate p]sonal fre$om )\t detrim5t to ! community _s2 &1 vice v]sa1 ! community _s %\ld n be all[$ to be detrim5tal to p]sonal fre$om4 ,b :5 ! individual life runs into ecc5tricity1 lic5se1 & revolution1 t is a violation & sacrifice ( ! community life4 ,! duty ( ! ,pauli/ ,sup]ior is to elicit ! spontane\s zeal ( ! ,fa!rs & to fur!r x ) 8 au?ority4 ,= lack ( "o's own initiative t ( ano!r may be us$1 & h]e9 ! ,sup]ior (f]s a con/ant help4 ,b ! c5tre ( action is individual1 is 9 ! s\l mov$ by ! ,holy ,gho/2 n 9 ! ,sup]ior ( ! community or 9 ! au?orities ( ! ,*ur*4 ,& if he be mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 he w be mo/ ob$i5t to 8 sup]ior2 & he w n only be submissive to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 b c>eful to foll[ out h] _s4 ,9 expla9+ ! r\t9e ( daily life ,fa!r ,heck] said3 ,! memb] ( a community :o does n make ! common ex]cises ( religion 8 fir/ c>e is d]elict ( 8 duty4 ,a common ex]cise %\ld be pref]r$ to all o!r devotional practices or occupations :atev]2 z f> z possible all o!r ex]cises ought to be made subord9ate to common ones1 :i* %\ld nev] be omitt$ )\t p]mission ( ! sup]ior4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 once ask$3 ,:i* w\ld y pref]3 to h a rule & mann] ( life adapt$ to a l>ge numb] ( m51 embrac+ _m ( a uni=m type1 m5 good en\gh = av]age "w1 int5d$ to include & seek+ to reta9 p]sons ( m$iocre _s1 & hav+ a dim und]/&+ ( our peculi> in/itute8 or w\ld y pref] ! rule to be made only = a select body1 compos$ ( su* m5 z ----& ----1 & ! l8' ,answ]3 ,i %\ld pref] ! rule to be made = ! small] & m select body ( m54 ,religi\s vocations are n common1 b special4 ,x is a fatal mi/ake = religi\s to take ! place ( secul> prie/s4 ,no "o c be misl$ by :at he has read 9 ! =ego+ pages into ! notion t ,fa!r ,heck] _h any o!r aim ?an ! entire consecration ( lib]ty & intellig5ce to ! influ5ce ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,to "k ,fa!r ,heck] well 0 to be m deeply impress$ ) 8 long+ = ! reign ( ! ,_s ( ,god 9 m5's s\ls ?an ev5 ) 8 love ( human lib]ty4 ,9 8 e/eem ! wor? ( ! latt] 0 altoge!r 9 proportion to its aptitude = ! =m]4 ,8 love ( lib]ty 0 t ( a means to an end--! p]fect oblation ( ! inn] man to ,god4 ,he aim$ at individuality because ( 8 belief 9 ! action ( ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 ! individual s\l4 ,su* action1 he 0 quick to ma9ta91 is giv5 to e ,*ri/ian1 b x is to be look$ = 9 a high degree 9 ^? :o are call$ by a special vocation to assi/ indep5d5t *>act]s to f9d ! _s ( ,god )9 !m2 or1 if already kn[n1 to obey ,8 direction implicitly4 ,pauli/s aft] ,fa!r ,heck]'s he>t w\ld be m5 :om exp]i5ce & /udy _h r5d]$ fit in/rum5ts = dissem9at+ ! k ( ! ways ( ,god ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 m5's he>ts2 = in/ruct+ ! fai?ful h[ to di/+ui% ! voice ( ,god 9 ! s\l f ! vag>ies ( ! imag9ation or ! emotions ( passion1 & able to /imulate a ready & g5]\s response to e call ( ,god f )94 ,x is because ( ?is indwell+ ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 e reg5]ate s\l t ,fa!r ,heck] s vigor\sly ma9ta9$ t ! fre$om ( ! individual is a gold5 opportunity = ! ,catbolic apo/olate1 accord+ to ! text ,:]e ! ,_s ( ! ,"l is1 !re is lib]ty4 ,fre$om1 he affirm$1 0 9 absolute consonance ) ,ca?olic doctr9e4 ,b he fur!rmore insi/$ t x has become ! _w-wide aspiration ( m5 by int]position ( ,div9e ,provid5ce & ) a view to _! high] sanctification2 & h[ev] grossly abus$1 x is yet a direct sugge/ion to an apo/olate ^: prospects are 9 ! highe/ degree promis+4 ,& ?is is ! answ] to ! "q :i* reasonable p]sons may well ask1 namely3 ,:y %\ld ! new in/itution diff] s radically f ! old ones1 :i* 7 c]ta9ly works ( ,god8 ,because ! *ange ( m5's lives 9 ! entire secul> & natural ord] is 9 ! direction ( p]sonal lib]ty & indep5d5ce1 & ?is *ange is a radical "o4 ,! ,et]nal-,absolute is ev] creat+ new =ms ( express+ itself4 ,if1 inde$1 m5's aspirations = lib]ty & intellig5ce be all f ! p[]s ( d>kness1 !n let e long+ = fre$om be repress$ & condemn$1 cru%$ by au?ority 9 ! /ate1 ana!matiz$ by ! ,*ur*4 ,b if m5 are ye>n+ to be free1 h[ev] bl9dly1 because ,god by _! fre$om w\ld make !m holi]1 !n let u hail ! new ord] z a bless+2 & let ^? :o love fre$om & are wor?y ( x use its privileges to advance !mselves & _! bre?r5 ne>] to imm$iate union ) ! ,holy ,_s4 ,x has be5 se5 t ! important "q :e!r ! end ( ! new community w\ld be bett] atta9$ ) ! usual religi\s v[s or )\t !m 0 decid$ 9 ! negative4 ,!y 7 n def9itely reject$ 9 ! beg9n+2 b />t+ )\t !m1 ! ,fa!rs 7 will+ to all[ exp]i5ce to %[ :e!r or n !y %\ld be resum$4 ,! lapse ( "t b confirm$ ! view t ! volunt>y agreem5t & ! bond ( frat]nal *>ity 71 "u ! circum/ances1 pref]able z securities = /ability & inc5tives to hol9ess4 ,!re c be little d\bt t ,fa!r ,heck]'s ideas on ?is feature ( ! religi\s /ate _h be5 greatly modifi$ betwe5 ! writ+ ( ! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l & ! end ( ! /ruggle 9 ,rome4 ,mu* is said 9 t book ( community life 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 & g5]ally z r5d]$ /able & its _s ( sacrifice made complete by ! v[s2 & 9 ! /atem5t giv5 9 ,rome to 8 five *os5 advis]s1 he says t "o reason = writ+ ! volume nam$ 0 to induce "y m5 to ent] ! religi\s ord]s z ! only means ( p]fection--mean+ ord]s "u v[s4 ,b :5 he 0 releas$ f 8 own obligations & 0 confront$ ) ! *oice ( means = foll[+ 8 vocation1 ! horizon broad5$ away until he c\ld see beyond ! in/itutions & traditions 9 :i* he _h liv$ s9ce ent]+ ! novitiate at ,/4 ,trond4 ,8 ideas ( p]fection 9 its relation to /ates ( life und]w5t a *ange4 ,!re=e he said1 ,let u wait = ! unmi/akable w ( ,god be=e we b9d ourselves ) v[s amid/ a free p4 ,he nev] depreciat$ ! evid5t value ( ^! obligations2 inde$1 he seldom 0 he>d to speak ( !m4 ,b he knew f close obs]vation ! tru? ( ! words ( ! ,jesuit ,avanc9us3 ,! net 7,/4 ,mat!w #ac3dd7 is ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 or1 to take a n>r[] view1 x means ! /ation 9 :i* y are plac$4 ,z 9 a net all k9ds ( fi% are to be f\nd1 s 9 our position1 z 9 all o!rs1 !re are good & bad ,*ri/ians4 4 4 4 ,%\ld y\rs be a sacr$ call+1 y are n1 on t acc\nt1 ei!r ! bett] or ! m secure2 y\r sanctity & y\r salvation dep5d on y\rself1 n on y\r call+4 7,m$itations1 ,f\rte5? ,friday aft] ,p5teco/7 ,x nev] ent]$ into ! m9ds ( ! ,fa!rs to "q ! doctr9e & practice ( ! ,*ur* conc]n+ v[s4 ,b p]sonal exp]i5ce proves ! lesson ( hi/ory1 t :at religion ne$s is n s mu* holy /ates ( life z holy m5 & ,wom54 ,look+ back into ! pa/1 ,fa!r ,heck] saw ,/4 ,philip ,n]i1 to :om he _h a great devotion & = ^: spiritual doctr9e he _h a high admiration4 ,! foll[+ is f an expon5t ( t doctr9e1 & is mu* 9 po9t3 ,al?\gh our ,fa!rs & lay bro!rs ,oratorians make no v[ ( ob$i5ce1 z d religi\s1 !y are1 nev]!less1 no way inf]ior 9 ! p]fection ( ?is virtue to ^? :o pr(ess x 9 ! cloi/] ) solemn v[s4 ,!y supply ! want ( v[s ) love1 ) volunt>y promptitude1 & p]fection 9 obey+ e wi% ( ! sup]ior4 ,& x is a ?+ = :i* we mu/ inde$ ?ank ,god1 t )\t ! obligation ( obey+ "u pa9 ( s91 )\t fe> ( re/ra9t or o!r puni%m5t 7except t ( expulsion 9 case ( contumacy71 all ! subjects are prompt 9 ?is ob$i5ce1 ev5 9 ?+s mo/ humiliat+ & sev]e1 accord+ to ! t]ms ( ! rule4 ,all take pleasure 9 meet+ ! wi%es ( ! sup]ior1 etc4 7,! ,excell5ces ( ! ,oratory ( ,/4 ,philip ,n]i1 p4 #acf4 ,london3 ,burns ,oates47 ,fa!r ,heck] did n dream t by rel9qui%+ ! v[s he & 8 companions 9 ! ,pauli/ community _h ca/ away a s+le inc5tive to virtue capable ( mov+ su* m5 z !y1 or _h ev5 fail$ to secure any ( ! insignia adorn+ ! great ho/ ( m5 & wom5 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* ^: entire be+ has be5 giv5 up to ! div9e s]vice4 ,! true ,pauli/1 said he once1 %\ld be fit & ready to take ! solemn v[s at any mom5t4 ,he felt /rongly ! tru? ( ! foll[+ words ( ! ,jesuit ,lallemant3 ,a desire & hung] aft] our p]fection1 a det]m9$ w to be con/antly t5d+ t[>ds x ) all our /r5g?--let ?is be always our *ief object & our greate/ c>e4 ,let u be> 9 m9d t ?is c>e is m ( ! ess5ce ( religion i4e41 ( a religi\s ord] ?an v[s !mselves2 = x is on ?is t our :ole spiritual progress dep5ds4 ,h]e9 consi/s ! diff]5ce betwe5 true religi\s & ^? :o are s only 9 appe>ance & 9 ! sight ( m54 ,)\t ?is c>e to advance 9 p]fection ! religi\s /ate does n secure our salvation2 b no?+ is m common ?an to deceive ourselves on ?is po9t4 7,! ,spiritual ,doctr9e ( ,fa!r ,l\is ,lallemant1 ,s4,j1 p4 #aaa4 ,new ,york3 ,sadli] ,co47 ,) reg>d to /ability1 m5 ( /able "* ne$ no v[ to gu>antee adh]5ce to a div9e vocation1 & m5 ( feeble "* may inde$ v[ !mselves into an outw>d /ability1 b x is ( little fruit to !mselves p]sonally1 & _! irremovability is (t5 ( inf9ite di/ress to _! sup]iors & bre?r54 ,! episcopate is ! "o religi\s ord] f\nd$ by ,our ,"l1 & its memb]s are 9 ! highe/ /ate ( evangelical p]fection2 yet !y are nei!r requir$ nor advis$ to take ! oa?s or v[s ( religi\s ord]s4 ,nei!r ,fa!r ,heck] nor any ( 8 associates _h ! lea/ av]sion to ! v[s4 ,on ! contr>y1 !y _h liv$ cont5t$ly "u !m = _m ( _! mo/ active ye>s1 & x w be rememb]$ ( ,fa!r ,heck] t he nev] f\nd !m irksome1 _h nev] kn[n a temptation aga9/ !m4 ,! "q :i* arose 0 a *oice betwe5 two k9ds ( community1 ! "o fa/-b\nd by ext]nal obligations to ! ,*ur* 9 ! =m ( v[s1 plac+ ! memb]s 9 a relation ( peculi> /rictness to ! ,canon ,law2 or ano!r k9d1 9 :i* ! memb]s tru/$ :olly to ! /r5g? ( ,div9e grace1 & _! own consci\s purpose nev] to give up ! fight = p]fection2 :i* ( ^! /ates w\ld bett] facilitate ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! pres5t ,provid5ce ( ,god2 & :i* ( !m w\ld t5d to produce a type ( "* fitt$ to evangelize a nation ( indep5d5t & self-reliant m5 & wom58 ,! free community 0 *os54 ,no d\bt ?is involv$ "s risk ( criticism1 p>ticul>ly 9 ! beg9n+1 = x 0 a wond] to _m t m5 %\ld organize = a life-long endeavor aft] p]fection & n swe> to x1 especially z none ( ! free communities exi/+ 9 ,europe _h h\ses 9 ,am]ica1 = ! ,sulpicians belong to ! secul> cl]gy4 ,& !re 0 also dang] ( unwor?y subjects creep+ 9 "u favor ( a fre$om !y 7 unfit to enjoy4 ,= x may be reproa*$ aga9/ u t we are apt to be victimiz$ by m5 rul$ by caprice1 indulg+ 9 extravagant s*emes or delud$ by w&]+ fancies2 & also by sup]iors :o w\ld let ev]ybody d z he pleas$4 ,no d\bt su* dang]s are to be gu>d$ aga9/4 ,b v[$ communities d n claim to be free f difficulties4 ,no /ate ( life & no organization claims to be s p]fect z totally to prev5t abuse ( p[] on ! "p ( sup]iors or caprice & slo? on ! "p ( memb]s4 ,bo? k9ds ( organiz$ religi\s life h _! difficulties3 ! "o1 ! m>t9et sup]ior & ! r\t9e subject2 ! o!r1 ! caprici\s subject & ! lax sup]ior4 ,9 "o k9d ! bond ( union z well z ! /imulus ( endeavor is ma9ly ob$i5ce1 frat]nal *>ity assi/+2 9 ! o!r x is ma9ly frat]nal *>ity1 ob$i5ce assi/+2 ea* has to ov]come ob/acles peculi> to itself4 ,:at has be5 said 9 ?is *apt]1 besides s]v+ to exhibit ,fa!r ,heck]'s pr9ciples z a f\nd]1 w be1 we tru/1 a suffici5t answ] to ! silly delusion :i* ! ,pauli/s h enc\nt]$ 9 "s qu>t]s1 t _! society tol]ates a s(t life & supposes 9 its memb]s no high vocation to p]fection2 or t ! volunt>y pr9ciple all[s !m a p]sonal *oice 9 reg>d to ! devotional ex]cises1 p]mitt+ !m to att5d or n att5d ?is or t m$itation or devotion laid d[n 9 ! rule1 z ! _s moves !m4 ,?is is z pla9 an error z ano!r "o :i* _h mu* curr5cy = ye>s & :i* is n yet ev]y:]e correct$3 t ! ,pauli/ community 0 op5 to conv]ts alone & receiv$ none o!rs4 ,,*apt] ,,xxvii ,,fa!r ,,heck]',s ,,spiritual ,,doctr9e ,,hav+ giv5 9 ! prec$+ *apt] ,fa!r ,heck]'s pr9ciples ( ! religi\s life 9 community1 a m g5]al view ( 8 spiritual doctr9e1 z well z ( 8 me?od ( ! direction ( s\ls1 naturally foll[s4 ,& "h we are emb>rass$ by ! am\nt ( matt] to *oose f2 = z he 0 always talk+ ab\t spiritual doctr9e to :omsoev] he c\ld get to li/51 s 9 8 publi%$ writ+s1 9 8 lett]s to intimate fri5ds1 & 9 8 notes & memor&a1 we h f\nd en\gh fall+ "u ! head+ ( ?is ,,*apt] to fill a volume4 ,let u hope = its publication "s day4 ,x ne$ h>dly be said t ,fa!r ,heck] did n claim to h any new doctr9e2 !re c be none1 & he knew x well4 ,e g5]ation s9ce ,*ri/ has _h ,8 entire revelation4 ,developm5t is ! ^w :i* t\*es ! out] m>g9 ( all possible adaptation ( ,*ri/ian pr9ciples to ! *ang+ conditions ( humanity4 ,b 9 ! transmission ( ^! pr9ciples f ma/] to disciple1 9 practically assi/+ 9 _! use by public in/ruction1 or by private advice1 or by *oice ( devotional & ascetical ex]cises1 !re is z great a v>iety ( me?od z ( temp]am5t among races1 & ev5 among individuals2 & !re are broadly m>k$ diff]5ces :i* are cont]m9\s ) provid5tial eras ( hi/ory4 ,?is 0 a tru? :i* ,fa!r ,heck]1 9 common ) all disc]n+ m9ds1 took c>efully into acc\nt4 ,8 fundam5tal pr9ciple ( ,*ri/ian p]fection may be t]m$ a view ( ! ,ca?olic doctr9e ( div9e grace suit$ to ! aspirations ( our times4 ,by div9e grace ! love ( ,god is diffus$ 9 our he>ts2 ! ,holy ,_s takes up 8 abode !re & makes u *ildr5 ( ! ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & bre?r5 ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ! ,div9e ,son4 ,! /ate ( grace is ?us an imm$iate union ( ! s\l ) ! ,holy ,tr9ity1 its ,creator1 ,m$iator1 & ,sanctifi]4 ,to secure ?is union & r5d] x m & m consci\s 0 ,fa!r ,heck]'s ceaseless endeavor ?r\gh life1 bo? = himself & = ^? :o fell "u 8 influ5ce1 :e!r 9 cleans+ ! s\l ( all h9drances ( s9 & imp]fection1 or advanc+ x deep] & deep] into ! div9e life by pray] & ! sacram5ts4 ,8 doctr9e ( ,*ri/ian p]fection might be =mulat$ z a pr(ession ( fai?3 ,i believe 9 ,god ! ,fa!r ,almighty2 ,i believe 9 ,jesus ,*ri/ ! ,only ,begott5 ,son ( ! ,fa!r2 ,i believe 9 ! ,holy ,gho/ ! ,life ,giv]1 ! _s ( adoption by :om ,i am enabl$ to say to ! ,fa!r1 ,my ,fa!r1 & to ! ,son1 ,my ,bro!r4 ,he wi%$ t m5 g5]ally %\ld be made aw>e ( ! imm$iate nature ( ?is union ( ! s\l ) ,god1 & t !y %\ld become m & m p]sonally consci\s ( x4 ,he w\ld br+ ?is ab\t )\t ! int]v5tion ( o!r p]sons or o!r me?ods ?an ! div9ely con/itut$ ones accessible to all 9 ! prie/hood & sacram5ts4 ,x 0 ! developm5t ( ! sup]natural1 heav5ly1 div9e life ( ! reg5]ate man1 born aga9 ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 t ,fa!r ,heck] made ! end ( all he said & all he did 9 lead+ s\ls2 & he ma9ta9$ t to p>take ( ?is life :i* is ! light ( m51 _m s\ls ne$$ little int]f]5ce on ! "p ( o!rs1 & t 9 e case ! utmo/ c>e %\ld be tak5 le/ ! s\l %\ld m+le human influ5ces1 ev5 ! holie/1 9 undue proportion ) ^? :i* 7 /rictly div9e4 ,g to ,god1 he wrote to "o ask+ advice1 g entirely to ,god1 g integrally to ,god2 behold1 t is s9c]ity1 complete1 p]fect s9c]ity4 ,d t1 & make x a complete1 cont9u\s act1 & y ne$ no help f me or any creature4 ,i wi% to provoke y to d x4 ,t is my :ole aim & desire4 ,j 9 proportion z we h>bor pride1 vanity1 self-love--9 a ^w1 self-hood--j s f> we fail 9 integrally resign+ ourselves to ,god4 ,7 we :olly resign$ to ,god ,he w\ld *ange all 9 u t is 9 discord ) ,him1 & prep>e our s\ls = union ) ,him1 mak+ u "o ) ,himself4 ,god longs = our s\ls greatly m ?an our s\ls c long = ,him4 ,su* is ,god's ?ir/ = love t ,he made all creatures to love ,him1 & to h no re/ until !y love ,him supremely4 ,if my words are n to y\r s\l ,god's words & voice1 pay no he$ to !m4 ,if !y are1 hesitate n a mom5t to obey4 ,if !y humble y to ! du/1 :at a bless+6 ,he t is humbl$ %all be exalt$4 ,peace is ga9$ by a wise inaction1 & /r5g? by integral resignation to ,god1 :o w d all1 & m ?an we1 ) ! bolde/ imag9ation1 c fancy or desire4 ,may y see ,god 9 all1 ?r\gh all1 & above all4 ,may ! ,div9e transc5d5ce & ! ,div9e imman5ce be ! two poles ( y\r life4 ,! natural faculties ( ! und]/&+ & w1 ^: integrity ,fa!r ,heck] s mu* valu$1 7 to be e/abli%$ 9 a new life inf9itely above _! native rea*1 glorifi$ ) div9e life1 _! activity direct$ to ! k ( ?+s n ev5 dream$ ( be=e1 & end[$ ) a div9e gift ( lov+4 ,9 ?is /ate ! ,holy ,_s communicates to ! human faculties =ce to accompli% intellectual & moral feats :i* naturally c be accompli%$ by ,god alone4 ,?is is call$ by !ologians sup]natural infus$ virtue1 & is root$ 9 ,fai?1 ,hope1 & ,love1 is made efficaci\s by spiritual gifts ( wisdom & und]/&+1 & k & c\nsel1 & o!r gifts & =ces1 ! consci\s & daily possession ( :i* ! ,*ri/ian is entitl$ to hope = & /rive aft]1 & f9ally to obta9 & enjoy 9 ?is life4 ,t ?is union is a p]sonal relation1 & t x %\ld be a di/9ctly consci\s "o on ! s\l's "p1 all w admit :o ?9k b a mom5t ( ! inf9ite1 lov+ activity ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 & ! natural & sup]natural receptivity ( ! _s ( man4 ,al?\gh n ev5 ! smalle/ g]m ( ! sup]natural life is f\nd 9 nature1 yet ! s\l ( man ceaselessly1 if bl9dly1 ye>ns aft] its possession4 ,once possess$1 ! life ( ,god bl5ds into our own1 m+les ) x & is "o ) x1 impregnat+ x z magnetism does ! iron ( ! lode/one1 till ! div9e qualities1 )\t suppress+ nature1 entirely possess x1 & ass]t = x & ov] x ! ,div9e individuality4 ,n[ ,i live1 yet n ,i1 b ,*ri/ live? 9 me4 ,an au?or mu* admir$ by ,fa!r ,heck] ?us describes ! effects produc$ 9 ! s\l by sup]natural fai?1 & hope1 & love3 ,^! virtues are call$ & 9 reality are ,div9e virtues4 ,!y are call$ ?us n because !y are relat$ to ,god 9 g5]al1 b because !y unite u 9 a div9e mann] ) ,god1 h ,him = _! imm$iate motive1 & c be produc$ 9 u only by a communication ( ! ,div9e nature4 4 4 4 ,= ! life t ! *ildr5 ( ,god lead "h ^u e>? mu/ be ( ! same k9d z ! life t awaits !m 9 heav54 7,s*eeb5's ,glories ( ,div9e ,grace1 p4 #bbb2 ,b5zig] ,bros47 ,to p>take ?us ( ! inn] life ( ,god 0 ,fa!r ,heck]'s "o spiritual ambition1 & to help o!rs to x 8 "o motive = deal+ ) m54 ,he 0 ev] insi/+ ^u ! clos5ess ( ! div9e union1 & t x is our life br\ght into actual t\* ) ,god1 ^: supreme & ess5tial activity mu/1 by a law ( its own exi/5ce1 make itself felt1 dom9ate z f> z p]mitt$ ! entire activity ( ! s\l1 & w9 m & m ^u its life till all is won4 ,!n are fulfill$ ! ,apo/le's words3 ,b we all behold+ ! glory ( ! ,"l ) op5 face are trans=m$ into ! same image f glory to glory1 z by ! ,_s ( ! ,"l 7#b ,cor4 #c3ah74 ,"h are "s ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s words1 pr9t$ b a ye> or two be=e 8 dea?1 :i* treat n only ( ! int]ior life 9 g5]al1 b 9 p>ticul> ( its relation to ! out] action ( ,god on ! s\l ?r\gh ! div9e organism ( ! ,*ur*3 ,/4 ,?omas ,aqu9as attributes ! abs5ce ( spiritual joy ma9ly to neglect ( consci\sness ( ! inn] life4 ',dur+ ?is life1' he says 7,opuscula de ,beatitud9e1 cap4 iii471 'we %\ld cont9ually rejoice 9 ,god1 z some?+ p]fectly fitt+1 9 all our actions & = all our actions1 9 all our gifts & = all our gifts4 ,x is1 z ,isaias decl>es1 t we may p>ticul>ly enjoy him t ! ,son ( ,god has be5 giv5 to u4 ,:at bl9dness & :at gross /upidity = _m :o are always seek+ ,god1 always sigh+ = ,him1 frequ5tly desir+ ,him1 daily knock+ & clamor+ at ! door = ,god by pray]1 :ile !y !mselves are all ! "t1 z ! apo/le says1 temples ( ! liv+ ,god1 & ,god truly dwell+ )9 !m2 :ile all ! "t _! s\ls are ! abid+-place ( ,god1 :]e9 ,he cont9ually reposes6 ,:o b a fool w\ld look = some?+ out ( doors :i* he kn[s he has )98 ,:at is ! good ( any?+ :i* is always to be s\ght & nev] f\nd1 & :o c be /r5g!n$ ) food ev] crav$ b nev] ta/$8 ,?us passes away ! life ( _m a good man1 always se>*+ & nev] f9d+ ,god1 & x is = ?is reason t 8 actions are imp]fect4' ,a man ) su* a doctr9e mu/ cultivate ma9ly ! int]ior life4 ,8 answ] to ! "q1 ,:at is ! relation betwe5 ! inn] & ! out] action ( ,god ^u my s\l8 is t ,god uses ! out] = ! sake ( ! inn] life4 ,!re seems to be little dang] n[adays ( our los+ sight ( ! ,div9e au?ority & ! ,div9e action 9 ! gov]nm5t ( ! ,*ur*1 & 9 ! aids ( religion convey$ ?r\gh ! ext]nal ord] ( ! sacram5ts4 ,yet x is only aft] fully appreciat+ ! life ( ,god )9 u t we le>n to prize fitt+ly ! action ( ,god 9 ,8 ext]nal ,provid5ce4 ,su* is ! pla9 tea*+ ( ,/4 ,?omas 9 ! extract above giv54 ,by fully assimilat+ ?is doctr9e "o comes to aim /eadily at secur+ a m & m direct communion ) ,god4 ,?us he does n seek m]ely = an ext]nal life 9 an ext]nal society1 or become totally absorb$ 9 ext]nal obs]vances2 b he seeks ! invisible ,god ?r\gh ! visible ,*ur*1 = %e is ! body ( ,*ri/ ! ,son ( ,god4 ,once a man's h& is safe on ! alt> 8 eye & voice are lift$ to ,god4 ,x is n to keep up a /ra9$ outlook = times & mom5ts ( ! int]ior visitations1 b to wait calmly = ! actual movem5ts ( ! ,div9e ,_s2 to rely ma9ly ^u x & n solely ^u :at leads to x1 or communicates x1 or gu>antees its g5u9e pres5ce by necess>y ext]nal te/s & symbols4 ,n an anxi\s se>*1 lea/ ( all a crav+ = extraord9>y lights2 b a con/ant read9ess to p]ceive ! ,div9e guidance 9 ! secret ways ( ! s\l1 & !n to act ) decision & a noble & g5]\s c\rage--?is is true wisdom4 ,! ,holy ,_s is ?us ! inspiration ( ! inn] life ( ! reg5]ate man1 & 9 t life is 8 ,sup]ior & ,director4 ,t ,8 guidance may become m & m imm$iate 9 an int]ior life1 & ! s\l's ob$i5ce m & m in/9ctive1 is ! object ( ! :ole ext]nal ord] ( ! ,*ur*1 includ+ ! sacram5tal sy/em4 ,says ,fa!r ,lallemant 7,spiritual ,doctr9e1 #c;d pr9ciple1 *ap4 i4 art4 #a73 ',all creatures t are 9 ! _w1 ! :ole ord] ( nature z well z t ( grace1 & all ! lead+s ( ,provid5ce1 h be5 s dispos$ z to remove f our s\ls :atev] is contr>y to ,god4' ,:at foll[s has be5 cull$ f notes & memor&a3 ,:5 au?ority & lib]ty are intellig5tly und]/ood1 :5 bo? aim at ! same end1 !n ! univ]sal reign ( ,god's au?ority 9 ! ,*ur* w be ne> & ! k+dom ( ,god be e/abli%$ univ]sally4 ,! :ole future ( ! human race dep5ds on br++ ! individual s\l m completely & p]fectly "u ! sway ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,:at society mo/ ne$s to-day is ! baptism ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,t s\l is p]fect :i* is guid$ habitually by ! in/9ct ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,! aim ( ,*ri/ian p]fection is ! guidance ( ! s\l by ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s4 ,?is is atta9$1 ord9>ily1 fir/ by br++ :atev] is inord9ate 9 our animal prop5sities "u ! control ( ! dictates ( reason by ! practice ( mortification & self-d5ial2 = x is a self-evid5t pr9ciple t a rational be+ ought to be ma/] ( 8 animal appetites4 ,& second1 by br++ ! dictates ( reason "u ! control & inspiration ( ! ,holy ,_s by recollection1 & by fidelity & docility to its movem5ts4 ,to atta9 to ! spiritual e/ate ( ! consci\s guidance ( ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s1 ! practice ( asceticism & ( ! natural & ,*ri/ian moral virtues are ! prep>atory means4 ,to rise be=e ! light appe>s1 is va92 to h9d] ! s\l f ris+ :5 x does appe>1 is oppression4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ! s\l is expos$ to delusions2 9 ! second1 x is subject$ to arbitr>y human au?ority4 ,! =m] op5s ! door to all sorts ( extravagances & h]esies2 ! latt] bre$s a _s ( s]vility & bondage4 ,to rea* t /age ( ! spiritual life :i* is ! consci\sness ( ! indwell+ & guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s "s s\ls ne$ ! practice ( asceticism m ?an o!rs1 ^! latt] be+ m advanc$ by ! practice ( ! ,*ri/ian virtues4 ,o!rs1 aga91 ne$ ! /r5u\s practice ( bo? ( ^! means ( advancem5t until ! close ( _! lives4 ,& !re is ano!r class :i* rea*es ?is degree ( spiritual gr[? soon] & ) less difficulty ?an ! g5]ality ( s\ls4 ,:5ev] ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s is suffici5tly recogniz$1 !n ! practice ( ! virtues imm$iately relat$ to ?is action & prop] to increase x 9 ! s\l are to be recomm5d$1 su* z recollection1 purity ( he>t1 docility & fidelity to ! inn] voice1 & ! l4 ,x %\ld ev] be kept 9 view t ! practice ( ! virtues is n only = _! own sake & to obta9 m]it1 b ma9ly 9 ord] to remove all ob/acles 9 ! way ( ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & to assi/ ! s\l 9 foll[+ ,8 op]ations ) docility4 ,ob$i5ce 9 its spiritual aspect dive/s "o ( self-w & makes him prompt to submit to ! w ( ,god alone4 ,view$ z an act ( ju/ice1 ob$i5ce is ! paym5t ( due s]vice to "o's sup]ior1 :o holds 8 (fice by appo9tm5t ( ,god4 ,! ess5tial mi/ake ( ! transc5d5tali/s is ! tak+ = _! guide ! in/9cts ( ! s\l in/ead ( ! inspirations ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,!y are mov$ by ! natural in/9cts ( human be+s in/ead ( ! in/9ct ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b true spiritual direction consi/s 9 discov]+ ! ob/acles 9 ! way ( ! ,div9e guidance1 9 aid+ & enc\rag+ ! p5it5t to remove !m1 & 9 tea*+ h[ ! int]ior movem5ts ( ! ,holy ,_s may be recogniz$1 z well z 9 /imulat+ ! s\l to fidelity & docility to ,8 movem5ts4 ,! director is n to take ! place ( ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 ! s\l1 b to assi/ ,8 gr[? 9 ! s\l z its prim>y & supreme guide4 ,! prim>y work] ( ! s\l's sanctification is ! ,holy ,_s act+ int]iorly2 ! "w ( ! director is second>y & subord9ate4 ,to ov]look ?is fundam5tal tru? 9 ! spiritual life is a great mi/ake1 :e!r x be on ! "p ( ! director or ! "o "u direction4 ,! great ob/acle to ! preval5t use ( ?is privilege ( div9e int]ior direction is lack ( practical realization ( its exi/5ce by good ,*ri/ians4 ,& ?is want ( fai? is met ) almo/ z mu* among tea*]s z among le>n]s1 result+ 9 too great a m+l+ ( ! human elem5t 9 ! guidance ( s\ls4 ,:at is kn[n z ov]-direction is to be attribut$1 z ,fa!r ,heck] 0 p]suad$1 to confessors lead+ s\ls by self-*os5 ways1 or labori\sly work+ !m along ! road to p]fection by artificial processes1 s\ls :om ! ,holy ,_s has n made ready = m ?an ! beg9n+ ( ! spiritual life4 ,?is is l press+ w9e out ( unripe grapes4 ,ano!r practice :i* ,fa!r ,heck] (t5 deprecat$ 0 ! b9d+ ( free & g5]\s s\ls ) all sorts ( obligations 9 ! way ( devotional ex]cises4 ,?is is =c+ a?letes to g on crut*es4 ,! excuse = x all is t x really does /agg] human belief to accept z a lit]al matt] ( fact t ,god ! ,holy ,gho/ p]sonally comes to u ) div9e grace & gives ,himself to u2 t ,he actually & ess5tially dwells 9 our s\ls by grace1 & 9 an unspeakably intimate mann] takes *>ge ( our entire be+1 s\l & body1 & all our faculties & s5ses4 ,by sanctify+ grace1 says ,/4 ,?omas 7p4 ,i1 q4 #cc1 art4 #b71 ! rational creature is ?us p]fect$1 t x may n only use ) lib]ty ! creat$ good1 b t x may also enjoy ! uncreat$ good2 & !re=e ! invisible s5d+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/ takes place 9 ! gift ( sanctify+ grace & ! ,div9e ,p]son ,himself is giv5 to u4 ,x is ! s\l's high] self1 ?us 9 entire union ) ! ,_s ( ,god1 t ,fa!r ,heck] sp5t 8 life 9 cultivat+1 bo? 9 8 own int]ior & 9 t ( o!rs4 ,he insi/$ t 9 ! normal condition ( ?+s ! ma9spr+ ( virtue1 bo? natural & sup]natural1 %\ld be = ! reg5]ate man ! in/9ctive ob$i5ce ( ! individual s\l to ! voice ( ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s4 ,to :at an ext5t ?is inn] div9e guidance has be5 obscur$ by m ext]nal me?ods is witness$ by ,monsignor ,gaume1 :o places ^u ! title-page ( 8 le>n$ "w on ! ,holy ,_s ! motto ,ignoto ,deo--to ! ,unkn[n ,god6 ,objections to ?is doctr9e are made f ! po9t ( view ( caution4 ,!re is dang] ( exagg]ation1 x is said2 = if 9 its t]ms x is pla9ly ,ca?olic1 x may s\nd ,prote/ant to "s e>s4 ,& 9 fact to ^? ^: glances h be5 ev] turn$ outw>d = guidance x seems l ! delusions ( c]ta9 classes ( ,prote/ants ab\t *ange ( he>t & inn] light4 ,b1 says ,lallemant 7& ! read] w ?ank u = a detail$ reply to ?is difficulty f s v5]able an au?ority71 x is ( fai? t )\t ! grace ( an int]ior inspiration1 9 :i* ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s consi/s1 we _c d any good "w4 ,! ,calv9i/s w\ld det]m9e ev]y?+ by _! inw>d _s1 subject+ !reto ! ,*ur* h]self & h] decisions4 4 4 4 ,b ! guidance :i* we receive f ! ,holy ,gho/ by means ( ,8 gifts presupposes ! fai? & au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 ackn[l$ges !m z its rule1 admits no?+ :i* is contr>y to !m1 & aims only at p]fect+ ! ex]cise ( fai? & ! o!r virtues4 ,! second objection is1 t x seems z if ?is int]ior guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s 7 de/ructive ( ! ob$i5ce due to sup]iors4 ,we reply3 #a4 ,t z ! int]ior inspiration ( grace does n set aside ! ass5t :i* we give to ! articles ( fai? z !y are ext]nally propos$ to u1 b on ! contr>y g5tly disposes ! m9d to believe2 9 l mann] ! guidance :i* we receive f ! gifts ( ! ,holy ,_s1 f> f int]f]+ ) ob$i5ce1 aids & facilitates ! practice ( x4 #b4 ,t all ?is int]ior guidance1 & ev5 private div9e revelations1 mu/ always be subord9ate to ob$i5ce2 & 9 speak+ ( !m ?is tacit condition is ev] impli$1 t ob$i5ce enjo9s no?+ contr>y !reto4 4 4 4 ,! ?ird objection is t ?is int]ior direction ( ! ,holy ,_s seems to r5d] all delib]ation & all c\nsel useless4 ,= :y ask advice ( m5 :5 ! ,holy ,_s is ,himself our director8 ,we reply t ! ,holy ,_s tea*es u to consult enlight5$ p]sons & to foll[ ! advice ( o!rs1 z ,he ref]r$ ,/4 ,paul to ,ananias4 ,! f\r? objection is made by "s :o compla9 t !y are n !mselves ?us l$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 & t !y "k no?+ ( x4 ,to !m we reply3 #a4 ,t ! lights & inspirations ( ! ,holy ,_s1 :i* are necess>y 9 ord] to d good & avoid evil1 are nev] want+ to !m1 p>ticul>ly if !y are 9 a /ate ( grace4 #b4 ,t be+ altoge!r ext]ior z !y are1 & sc>cely ev] ent]+ into !mselves1 exam9+ _! consci5ces only v sup]ficially1 & look+ only to ! outw>d man & ! faults :i* are manife/ 9 ! eyes ( ! _w1 4 4 4 x is no wond] t !y h no?+ ( ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 :i* is :olly int]ior4 ,b1 fir/1 let !m be fai?ful 9 foll[+ ! light :i* is giv5 !m2 x w g on always increas+4 ,secondly1 let !m cle> away ! s9s & imp]fections :i*1 l s _m cl\ds1 hide ! light f _! eyes3 !y w see m di/9ctly e day4 ,?irdly1 let !m n suff] _! ext]ior s5ses to rove at w1 & be soil$ by indulg5ce2 ,god w !n op5 to !m _! int]ior s5ses4 ,f\r?ly1 let !m nev] quit _! own int]ior1 if x be possible1 or let !m return z soon z may be2 let !m give att5tion to :at passes !re91 & !y w obs]ve ! work+s ( ! diff]5t spirits by :i* we are actuat$4 ,fif?ly1 let !m lay b>e ! :ole gr\nd ( _! he>t to _! sup]ior or to _! spiritual fa!r4 ,a s\l :i* acts ) ?is op5ness & simplicity c h>dly fail ( be+ favor$ ) ! direction ( ! ,holy ,_s 7,spiritual ,doctr9e1 #d? pr9ciple1 *4 i4 art4 #c74 ,fa!r ,heck] _h himself suff]$1 & t 9 ! e>lie/ days ( 8 religi\s life1 f want ( explicit in/ruction ab\t ?is doctr9e4 ,fa!r ,o?mann1 :om our read]s rememb] z ! novice-ma/] at ,/4 ,trond1 0 too spiritual a man to h be5 ignorant ( its pr9ciples4 ,yet he seem$ to ?9k t ei!r no "o w\ld *oose x 9 pref]5ce to ! me?od 9 m common use1 or t he w\ld n f9d 8 novices ready = x4 ,b to ,fa!r ,heck] x 0 all-ess5tial4 ,:5 ,i 0 n f> f be+ ?r\gh ) my novice%ip1 he 0 he>d to say1 ,i 0 "o day look+ ov] ! books 9 ! libr>y & ,i came across ,lallemant's ,spiritual ,doctr9e4 ,gett+ leave to read x1 ,i 0 ov]joy$ to f9d x a full /atem5t ( ! pr9ciples by :i* ,i _h be5 int]iorly guid$4 ,i said to ,p]e ,o?mann3 ',:y did y n give me ?is book :5 ,i fir/ came8 ,x settles all my difficulties4' ,b he answ]$ t x _h nev] once occurr$ to 8 m9d to d s4 ,besides ! ,scriptures1 ,lallemant1 ,sur91 ,sc>amelli's ,directorium ,my/icum1 ! ascetical & my/ical writ+s ( ! contemplatives1 su* z ,rusbruck1 ,h5ry ,suso 7^: life he c>ri$ = ye>s 9 8 pocket1 read+ x daily71 ,taul]1 ,fa!r ,augu/9e ,bak]'s ,holy ,wisdom 7,sancta ,sophia71 ,blosius1 ! works ( ,/4 ,t]esa1 & ^? ( ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross--^! & o!r su* works =m$ ! lit]ature :i* aid$ ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ! und]/&+ & enjoym5t ( ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,lallemant he return$ to ev] & aga91 & ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross he nev] let g at all4 ,x 0 always ) him1 always read ) r5ew$ joy1 & its wond]ful lessons ( div9e wisdom1 express$ z !y are ) ! sci5tific accuracy ( a tra9$ !ologian & ! unction ( a sa9t1 7 to ,fa!r ,heck] a pl$ge ( security = 8 own /ate ( s\l & a s\rce ( inspiration 9 deal+ ) o!rs4 ,to ! ord9>y obs]v] a k ( ! m5 & wom5 ( to-day does n give rise to mu* hope ( ! widespread use ( ?is spirituality4 ,b ,fa!r ,heck] ?\ght o!rwise4 ,he ev] insi/$ t x mu/ come into g5]al pref]5ce among ! lead+ m9ds ( ,*ri/5dom2 = indep5d5ce ( "* calls = su* a spirituality1 & t indep5d5ce is by ,god's provid5ce ! *>act]i/ic trait ( ! be/ m5 & wom5 ( our times4 ,god mu/ mean to sanctify u 9 ! way ,he has plac$ u 9 ! natural ord]4 ,he believ$ t ! ,holy ,_s w\ld soon be p\r$ out 9 an abundant disp5sation ( ,8 heav5ly gifts1 & t su* a r5ewal ( m5's s\ls 0 ! only salvation ( society4 ,"s may ?9k t he 0 ov]-sangu9e2 _m w n int]e/ !mselves 9 su* high matt]s at all4 ,b "s ( ! wise/ m5 9 ! ,*ur* are ( 8 m9d1 notably ,c>d9al ,mann+4 ,& ! signs ( ! times1 if int]rogat$ ) reg>d to ! problem ( man's et]nal de/9y1 give no o!r answ] ?an ! promise ( a new era 9 :i* ! ,holy ,gho/ %all reign 9 m5's s\ls & 9 _! lives ) a supremacy peculi> to ?is age4 ,! foll[+ extract f ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age1 a compilation ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s lat] essays1 %[s 8 e/imate ( ! =m ( spirituality we h be5 discuss+1 z be>+ ^u ! reg5]ation ( society 9 g5]al3 ,! :ole aim ( ! sci5ce ( ,*ri/ian p]fection is to in/ruct m5 h[ to remove ! h9drances 9 ! way ( ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & h[ to cultivate ^? virtues :i* are mo/ favorable to ,8 solicitations & inspirations4 ,?us ! sum ( spiritual life consi/s 9 obs]v+ & yield+ to ! movem5ts ( ! ,_s ( ,god 9 our s\l1 employ+ = ?is purpose all ! ex]cises ( pray]1 spiritual read+1 ! practice ( virtues1 & good works4 ,t div9e action :i* is ! imm$iate & pr9cipal cause ( ! salvation & p]fection ( ! s\l1 claims by "r ! s\l's direct & ma9 att5tion4 ,f ?is s\rce )9 ! s\l !re w gradually come to bir? ! consci\sness ( ! indwell+ pres5ce ( ! ,holy ,_s1 out ( :i* w spr+ a =ce surpass+ all human /r5g?1 a c\rage high] ?an all human h]oism1 a s5se ( dignity excell+ all human greatness4 ,! light ! age requires = its r5ewal c come only f ! same s\rce4 ,! r5ewal ( ! age dep5ds on ! r5ewal ( religion4 ,! r5ewal ( religion dep5ds on a great] effusion ( ! creative & r5ew+ p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,! great] effusion ( ! ,holy ,_s dep5ds on ! giv+ ( increas$ att5tion to ,8 movem5ts & inspirations 9 ! s\l4 ,! radical & adequate rem$y = all ! evils ( our age1 & ! s\rce ( all true progress1 consi/ 9 increas$ att5tion & fidelity to ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l4 ',?\ %alt s5d =? ,?y _s & !y %all be creat$3 & ,?\ %alt r5ew ! face ( ! e>?4' ,lallemant's answ] to ! difficulty ( excess ( p]sonal lib]ty 9 ?is me?od has be5 already giv54 ,fa!r ,heck]'s own is z foll[s3 ,! enl>gem5t ( ! int]ior field ( action = ! s\l1 )\t a true k ( ! end & scope ( ! ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 w\ld only op5 ! door to delusions1 errors1 & h]esies ( e description1 & w\ld be 9 effect only ano!r =m ( ,prote/antism4 ,b1 on ! o!r h&1 ! exclusive view ( ! ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 )\t a prop] und]/&+ ( ! nature & "w ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l1 w\ld r5d] ! practice ( religion =mal1 ob$i5ce s]vile1 & ! ,*ur* /]ile4 ,! solution ( ! difficulty is z foll[s3 ,! action ( ! ,holy ,_s embodi$ visibly 9 ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 & ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s dwell+ invisibly 9 ! s\l =m "o insep>able syn!sis2 & he :o has n a cle> conception ( ?is two-fold action ( ! ,holy ,_s is 9 dang] ( runn+ into "o or ! o!r1 & sometimes into bo?1 ( ^! extremes1 ei!r ( :i* is de/ructive ( ! end ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! ,holy ,_s1 9 ! ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 acts z ! infallible int]pret] & crit]ion ( div9e revelation4 ,! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l acts z ! div9e ,life-giv] & ,sanctifi]4 ,x is ( ! highe/ importance t ^! two di/9ct (fices ( ! ,holy ,_s %\ld n be conf\nd$4 ,! increas$ action ( ! ,holy ,_s1 ) a m vigor\s co-op]ation on ! "p ( ! fai?ful1 :i* is 9 process ( realization1 w elevate ! human p]sonality to an int5sity ( =ce & gr&eur productive ( a new era to ! ,*ur* & to society--an era difficult = ! imag9ation to grasp1 & /ill m difficult to describe 9 words1 unless we h rec\rse to ! prophetic language ( ! inspir$ ,scriptures4 ,! way out ( our pres5t difficulties1 said ,fa!r ,heck]1 speak+ ( ! conflicts ( religion 9 ,europe1 is to rev]t to a spirituality :i* is fre] ?an t :i* ,provid5ce assign$ z ! c\nt]action ( ,prote/antism 9 ! sixte5? c5tury--to a spirituality :i* is1 & ev] has be51 ! normal "o ( ! ,*ri/ian inn] life4 ,t era acc5tuat$ ob$i5ce1 ?is acc5tuates no p>ticul> moral virtue1 b r presses ! s\l back ^u ,fai? & ,hope & ,love z ! spr+s ( life1 & makes ! di/9ctive virtue fidelity to ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 impell+ ! ,*ri/ian to t "o ( ! moral virtues :i* is mo/ suitable to 8 nature & to ! requirem5ts ( 8 /ate ( life1 & o!r environm5ts4 ,b f :at has be5 said x mu/ n be inf]r$ t ,fa!r ,heck] ?\ght x safe to be )\t spiritual c\nsel1 above all :5 ! s\l seem$ l$ 9 extraord9>y ways4 ,he firmly believ$ 9 ! necessity ( direction1 & t 9 ! s5se int5d$ by spiritual writ]s g5]ally4 ,9 practice he himself always consult$ m5 ( exp]i5ce & piety4 ,we h se5 h[ he s\ght advice1 & 0 aid$ by x at e crisis ( 8 life4 ,b he did n accept all t is said by "s writ]s ab\t ! surr5d] ( ! s\l to "o's fa!r confessor4 ,he ?\ght t confession 0 (t5 too closely alli$ ) direction1 & he 0 conv9c$ t _m s\ls c\ld pr(it by less introspection 9 se>* ( s91 & m 9 se>* ( natural & sup]natural movem5ts to virtue4 ,he condemn$ ov]-direction1 & ?\ght t !re 0 a good deal ( x4 ,he ?\ght t !re 7 cases 9 :i* spontaneity ( ef=t 0 too high a price to pay = ev5 ! m]it ( ob$i5ce4 ,8 s5tim5t is well express$ by ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross 9 ! n9? *apt] ( ,! ,asc5t ( ,m\nt ,c>mel3 ,spiritual directors are n ! *ief work]s1 b r ! ,holy ,gho/2 !y are m]e in/rum5ts1 only to guide s\ls by ! rule ( fai? & ! law ( ,god accord+ to ! _s :i* ,god gives to ea*4 ,_! object1 !re=e1 %\ld be n to guide s\ls by a way ( _! own1 suitable to !mselves2 b to asc]ta91 if !y c1 ! way :i* ,god ,himself is guid+ !m4 ,leave mu* to ,god's secret ways1 0 "o ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s pr9ciples4 ,:5 he>+ "s confessions on ! missions1 he once said1 & :5 ab\t to give absolution1 ,i us$ to say1 9 my he>t1 to ! p5it5t1 ,well1 no d\bt ,god means to save y1 y poor fell[1 or ,he w\ldn't give y ! grace to make ?is mission4 ,b j h[ ,he w d x1 consid]+ y\r bad habits1 ,i c't see2 b t's none ( my bus9ess4 ,leave mu* to natural or acquir$ incl9ations1 0 "o ( 8 maxims4 ,he 0 n deeply int]e/$ 9 s\ls :o by temp]am5t or tra9+ ne$$ v m9ute guidance 9 ! spiritual life2 to him !y seem$ s ov]load$ ) h>ness z to h no great /r5g? left = pull+ ! *>iot4 ,b he w\ld n int]f]e ) !m2 he knew t x 0 ( little avail to try to *ange su* me?ods once !y _h become habitual2 & he recogniz$ t !re 7 _m :o c\ld nev] get along )\t !m4 ,at any rate he 0 tol]ant by nature1 & sl[ to condemn 9 g5]al or p>ticul> any?+ useful to well-mean+ s\ls4 ,x is va9 to rise be=e ! light1 0 ano!r motto4 ,make no ha/e 9 ! "t ( cl\ds4 ,^! two texts ( ,scripture he 0 fond ( repeat+4 ,:5 ,god %[s ! way1 he once said1 y w see2 no am\nt ( pe]+ 9 ! d>k w br+ ! sun ov] ! hills4 ,pray = light1 b don't move an in* be=e y get x4 ,:5 x comes1 g ahead ) all y\r might4 ,self-impos$ p5ances1 self-assum$ devotional practices he mi/ru/$4 ,he 0 conv9c$ t ! only way sure to succe$1 & to succe$ p]fectly1 0 ei!r t %[n by an int]ior attraction too p[]ful & too peaceful to be o!r ?an div9e1 or "o po9t$ out by ! lawful ext]nal au?ority 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,:5 ask$ = advice on matt]s ( consci5ce 8 decisions 7 g5]ally quick & always simple4 ,yet he (t5 refus$ to decide )\t "t = pray] & ?\ght1 say+1 ,i h no lights on ?is matt]2 y mu/ give me "t4 ,& n seldom he refus$ to decide altoge!r = ! same reason4 ,"o ?+ annoy$ him mu*1 & t 0 ! blank sil5ce & /upid wond] ) :i* "s in/ruct$ ,ca?olics li/5$ to him z he spoke ( ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s z ! way ( ,*ri/ian p]fection1 treat+ x z beyond ! rea* ( ord9>y mortals1 intricate 9 its rules1 my/ical1 & vision>y2 :]eas ,fa!r ,heck] knew x to be ! "o only simple me?od1 ) a m9imum ( rules1 useful = all1 readily und]/ood4 ,:at foll[s is a brief outl9e ( ! entire doctr9e 9 x practical use 9 ! progress or ! s\l f a s9ful life onw>ds2 we h f\nd x among 8 memor&a3 ,:at mu/ "o d 9 ord] to favor ! reception ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & secure fidelity to ,8 guidance :5 receiv$8 ,fir/ receive ! ,sacram5ts1 ! div9ely in/itut$ *annels ( grace3 "o w sc>cely p]sev]e 9 liv+ 9 ! /ate ( grace1 to say no?+ ( secur+ a close union ) ,god1 :o receives ,holy ,communion only once or twice a ye>4 ,second1 practise pray]1 above all t highe/ =m ( pray]1 assi/+ at ,holy ,mass2 !n m5tal & vocal pray]1 ! public (fices ( ! ,*ur*1 & p>ticul> devotions accord+ to "o's attrait4 ,?ird1 read spiritual books daily--! ,bible1 ,lives ( ! ,sa9ts1 ,foll[+ ( ,*ri/1 ,spiritual ,combat1 etc4 ,b 9 all ?is be> ev] 9 m9d1 t ! /eady impell+ =ce by :i* "o does ea* ( ^! outw>d ?+s is ! inn] & secret prompt+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 & t p]sev]ance 9 !m is secur$ by no o!r aid except ! same hidd5 inspiration4 ,*]i% t above all1 !re=e1 & 9 e /age ( ! spiritual life2 be mo/ ob$i5t to x1 seek+ meantime = good c\nsel :]ev] x is likely to be _h4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ( op9ion t a l>g] numb] ( p]sons c be l$ to p]fection ?an is g5]ally suppos$1 & he w\ld s\nd ! call 9 ! e>s ( ,*ri/ians g5]ally f> m ?an is commonly done4 ,he 0 also p]suad$ t !re are _m s\ls ^: :ole lives h be5 entirely1 or almo/ entirely1 free f ! ta9t ( mortal s91 & ^! he consid]$ %\ld be ! mo/ active spirits among ,*ri/ians4 ,he ?\ght t m room %\ld be made = !m 9 our disc\rses1 & t ev]ybody %\ld n be lump$ toge!r 9 "o mass z h>d5$ s9n]s or z p5it5ts4 ,to ^! innoc5t m5 & wom5 ! m$iator%ip ( ,*ri/ %\ld be made z di/9ct z possible1 ! elevation ( ! s\l to div9e union ?r\gh ! ,inc>nation br\ght out fully1 & ! r$emption ( man f s9 & hell be includ$ 9 x1 & be absorb$ by x4 ,too _m s\ls :o h nev] s9n$ mortally fail to /ruggle = p]fection1 ,fa!r ,heck] (t5 said1 because !y nev] h he>d any invitation b ! call to rep5tance4 ,! positive side ( ,*ri/ianity is ! ,inc>nation1 :i* lifts all m5 ( good-w1 rep5tant & innoc5t alike1 into p>ticipation ) ! ,deity4 ,fa!r ,heck] w\ld talk by ! h\r ( ! ne$ ( br++ t view ( our ,"l's mission mo/ prom95tly =w>d1 ! idea ( r$emption apply+ to innoc5t s\ls only on acc\nt ( orig9al s91 & by sympa?y ) _! bre?r5 infect$ by actual s94 ,& he w\ld %[ t ev5 h>d s9n]s c\ld (t5 be br\ght to a good life m surely1 & be enabl$ m c]ta9ly to p]sev]e1 by =cibly emphasiz+ ! ,inc>nation & its b5efits ?an by any o!r me?od4 ,_! bl9dness & selfi%ness h9d] h>d s9n]s f easily appreciat+ our ,"l's suff]+s z borne on _! acc\nt4 ,fa!r ,heck] regrett$ t ! idea ( r$emption 0 s (t5 pres5t$ 9 a way to give ! impression t atonem5t 0 ! :ole (fice ( ,*ri/4 ,!re are _m s\ls = :om access to ,*ri/ z ,m$iator 0 m 9 consonance ) ! tru? ?an access to ,him z ,r$eem]1 ,m$iator 9 t case includ+ ,r$eem]1 r ?an ! ,r$eem] absorb+ ! idea ( ,m$iator4 ,r$emption f orig9al s9 is1 ( c\rse1 necess>y to ! m$iator%ip ( a fall5 race4 ,b our ,"l became ,r$eem] t he might be ,m$iator2 he cleans$ u f s9 t he might lift u up to ! ,godhead2 & 9 _m s\ls ,fa!r ,heck] knew t ! process ( cleans+ began & end$ ) orig9al s9 & v5ial s9s4 ,su* s\ls (t5 g _! lives long ) no compell+ /imulus to p]fection1 because !y _c apply to !mselves ! accusations ( s9 commonly put into ! directions = beg9n]s4 ,mu* has be5 already said ( ! aids to p]fection :i* ,fa!r ,heck] p]ceiv$ 9 a "r use ( ! lib]ty & intellig5ce ( our times4 ,he also insi/$ t ! comm]cial & indu/rial features ( our civilization 7 no ob/acles to a high /ate ( ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,9 a rem>kable s]mon1 entitl$ ,! ,sa9t ( ,our ,day1 publi%$ 9 ! ?ird volume ( ! ,pauli/ s]ies1 ,fa!r ,heck]1 aft] mak+ a p[]ful exposition ( ! advantages ( lib]ty & intellig5ce z helps to ! int]ior life1 insi/s t ! opportunities & responsibilities peculi> to our civilization are capable ( be+ sanctifi$ to ! highe/ degree4 ,! model he proposes 9 ?is s]mon is ,/4 ,joseph4 ,he 0 no m>tyr1 yet %[$ a m>tyr's fidelity by 8 tru/ 9 ,god4 ,call$ by ! voice ( ,god to leave 8 fri5ds1 home1 & c\ntry1 he obeys in/antly & )\t a murmur4 ,to f9d ,god & to be "o ) ,god1 a solit>y life 9 ! des]t 0 n necess>y to ,/4 ,joseph4 ,he 0 9 ! _w & f\nd ,god :]e he 04 ,he sanctifi$ 8 "w by c>ry+ ,god ) him into ! work%op4 ,/4 ,joseph 0 no fl[] ( ! des]t or plant ( ! cloi/]2 he f\nd ! means ( p]fection 9 ! _w1 & consecrat$ x to ,god by mak+ its c>es & duties subs]vi5t to div9e purposes4 ,! h\se ( ,/4 ,joseph 0 8 cloi/]1 & 9 ! bosom ( 8 family he practis$ ! sublime/ virtues4 ,:ile occupi$ ) ! common daily duties ( life 8 m9d 0 fix$ on ! contemplation ( div9e tru?s1 ?us brea?+ into all 8 actions a heav5ly influ5ce4 ,he atta9$ 9 society & 9 human relation%ips a degree ( p]fection n surpass$1 if equall$1 by ! m>tyr's dea?1 ! contemplative ( ! solitude1 ! cloi/]$ monk1 or ! mission>y h]o4 ,our age is n an age ( m>tyrdom1 nor an age ( h]mits1 nor a mona/ic age4 ,al?\gh x has its m>tyrs1 its recluses1 & its mona/ic communities1 ^! are n1 & are n likely to be1 its prevail+ types ( ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,our age lives 9 its busy m>ts1 9 c\nt+-rooms1 9 work%ops1 9 homes1 & 9 ! v>i$ relations t =m human society1 & x is into ^! t sanctity is to be introduc$4 ,/4 ,joseph /&s =? z an excell5t & unsurpass$ model ( ?is type ( p]fection4 ,^! duties & ^! opportunities mu/ be made in/rum5tal 9 sanctify+ ! s\l4 ,= x is ! difficulties & ! h9drances t m5 f9d 9 _! age :i* give ! =m to _! "* & habits1 & :5 ma/]$ become ! means ( div9e grace & _! titles to glory4 ,indicate ^!1 & y portray t type ( sanctity 9 :i* ! life ( ! ,*ur* w f9d its actual & liv+ expression4 ,?is1 !n1 is ! field ( conque/ = ! h]oic ,*ri/ian ( our day4 ,out ( ! c>es1 toils1 duties1 afflictions1 & responsibilities ( daily life are to be built ! pill>s ( sanctity ( ! ,/ylites ( our age4 ,?is is ! com+ =m ( ! triumph ( ,*ri/ian virtue4 ,) all1 moreov]1 ,fa!r ,heck] insi/$ on ! practice ( ! natural virtues1 hone/y1 temp]ance1 tru?fulness1 k9dl9ess4 c\rage1 & manl9ess g5]ally1 z prec$+ any practical move t[>ds ! high] life4 ,he fir/ explor$ ! "* & life ( 8 p5it5t 9 se>* ( :at natural p[] he _h1 & !n dem&$ its full ex]tion4 ,he began ) ! natural man1 & made e sup]natural =ce 9 ! sacram5ts & pray] aid 9 e/abli%+ & increas+ natural virtue z a necess>y prelim9>y & ev]-pres5t accompanim5t ( sup]natural progress4 ,p]haps ,fa!r ,heck]'s antipa?y to ,calv9ism %>p5$ 8 zeal = ! natural virtues1 & /r5g!n$ 8 advocacy ( human innoc5ce4 ,! crav+ = ! sup]natural1 he 0 conv9c$1 w\ld be /rong 9 proportion to ! enlight5m5t ( ! natural reason2 ! ne$ ( ! grace ( ,god is1 ( c\rse1 mo/ urg5t 9 a s9ful /ate1 b x w\ld be m quickly p]ceiv$ 9 proportion to ! possession ( natural virtue4 ,z ! ex]cise ( reason is necess>y to fai? & prec$es its acts1 s ! integrity ( natural virtue is ! be/ prep>ation = ! grace ( ,god4 ,_m pages ( ,! ,aspirations ( ,nature1 f :i* ! foll[+ brief quotations are made1 are devot$ to ! dignity ( humanity & ! ne$ ( plac+ ! excell5ce ( human nature 9 ! =egr\nd :5 consid]+ h[ man may atta9 to a high sup]natural /ate3 ,e faculty ( ! s\l1 rightly ex]cis$1 leads to tru?2 e in/9ct ( our nature has an et]nal de/9y atta*$ to x4 ,ca?olicity f9ds its support 9 ^! & employs !m 9 all h] developm5ts4 ,! ,ca?olic religion is wond]fully calculat$ & adapt$ to call =?1 su/a91 & p]fect ! ta/es1 prop5sities1 & peculi>ities ( human nature4 ,& let no "o v5ture to say t ^! *>act]i/ics :i* are ev]y:]e f\nd among m5 are to be repress$ r ?an enc\rag$4 ,?is is to despise human nature1 ?is is to m> ! "w ( ,god4 ,= are n ^! peculi>ities inborn8 ,are !y n implant$ 9 u by ! h& ( our ,creator8 ,are !y n :at g to con/itute our v individuality8 ,humanity is a ^w ( vague mean+ to mo/ e>s1 b to ,fa!r ,heck] its mean+ 0 a liv+ ?+ ( value second only to ,*ri/ianity4 ,"h is 8 summ>y ( ! relation ( ,ca?olicity to human nature1 tak5 f ! same s\rce z ! =ego+3 ,ca?olicity is t religion :i* l9ks itself to all ! faculties ( ! m9d1 appropriates all ! in/9cts ( human nature1 & by ?us concurr+ ) ! "w ( ! ,creator affirms its own ,div9e orig94 ,we give ! foll[+ extracts f lett]s ( spiritual advice1 to %[ ,fa!r ,heck]'s views ( mortification3 ,ext]ior mortifications are aids to int]ior life4 ,:at we take f ! body we give to ! _s4 ,if we w look at x closely1 two-?irds ( our "t is tak5 up ) :at we %all eat1 & h[ we %all sleep1 & :]e)al we %all be clo!d4 ,two-?irds ( our life & m is animal--includ+ sleep4 ,i d n despise ! animal 9 man1 b ,i g 9 = fair play = ! s\l4 ,! bett] "p %\ld h ! great] %>e4 ,! "r ord] ( ?+s has be5 rev]s$3 con-v]sion is necess>y4 ,read ! lives ( ! old ,fa!rs ( ! ,des]t4 ,!y det]m9$ on lead+ a rational & div9e life4 ,h[ little are !y kn[n or appreciat$ 9 our day6 ,_! lives are m int]e/+ ?an a novel & /rang] ?an a romance4 ,self-love1 self-activity1 self-hood1 is some?+ n easily de/roy$4 ,x is l a canc] :i* has its roots ext5d+ to ! mo/ delicate fibres ( our m5tal & moral nature4 ,div9e grace c draw !m all out4 ,b h[ sl[ly6 ,& h[ exquisitely pa9ful is ! process--! m subtle ! self-love ! m pa9ful ! cure4 ,nev] practise any mortification ( a consid]able "* )\t c\nsel4 ,! devil1 :5 he c no long] keep u back1 aims at driv+ u too f> & too fa/4 ,h[ c ! intellect be br\ght "u direction ( div9e grace except by r$uc+ x to its no?+ness8--& h[ c ?is be done except by plac+ x 9 utt] d>kness8 ,h[ c ! he>t be fill$ ) ! _s ( div9e love :ile x conta9s any o!r8 ,h[ c x be purifi$ ( all o!r inord9ate love except by dryness & bitt]ness8 ,god wi%es to fill our intellig5ce & our he>ts ) div9e light & love1 & ?us to deify our :ole nature--to make u "o ) :at we repres5t--,god4 ,& h[ c ,he d ?is o!rwise ?an by remov+ f our s\l & its faculties all t is contr>y to ! div9e ord]8 ,all y\r difficulties are favors f ,god2 y see !m on ! wrong side1 & speak z ! block ( m>ble w\ld :ile be+ *isell$ by ! sculptor4 ,:5 ,god purifies ! s\l1 x cries out j l little *ildr5 d :5 _! faces are wa%$4 ,! s\l's att5tion mu/ be )drawn f ext]nal1 creat$ ?+s & turn$ inw>d t[>ds ,god exclusively be=e its union ) ,him2 & ?is trans=mation is a great1 pa9ful1 & wond]ful "w1 & s mu* ! m difficult & pa9ful z ! s\l's att5tion has be5 attract$ & atta*$ to transitory ?+s--to creatures4 ,he 0 (t5 he>d repeat+ ! foll[+ v]se f ,! ,imitation 7book iii4 *ap4 xxxi471 z summ>iz+ ! necess>y conditions ( ! active life3 ,unless a man be elevat$ 9 _s1 & set at lib]ty f all creatures1 & :olly unit$ to ,god1 :atev] he kn[s & :atev] he has is ( no great weight4 ,he wrote to a fri5d t he _h /udi$ t v]se = ?irty ye>s & /ill f\nd t he did n "k all x meant4 ,we give :at foll[s z *>act]i/ic ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s mann] z a director3 ,at fir/1 9 all y\r delib]ate actions1 calm y\r m9d1 place y\rself 9 ! attitude ( a receiv] or li/5]1 & !n decide4 ,imp]ceptibly & ins5sibly grace w guide y4 ,don't c>e :at p say2 keep y\r own c\nsel4 ,use y\r own s5se & ab\nd 9 x2 z ! apo/le says3 ',let e "o ab\nd 9 8 own s5se4' ,don't try to get anybody to agree ) y4 ,no two noses are alike1 mu* less s\ls4 ,god nev] repeats4 ,nobody n[adays wants ,god4 ,e "o has ! :ole _w on 8 %\ld]s1 & unless 8 own petty ideas & s*emes are adopt$ & succe$1 he prophesies ! end ( ! _w4 ,y are on ! "r road--pu% on6 ,our maxim is3 ,be sure y are "r & !n g ahead6 ,h[ mu* t is good & noble 9 ! s\l is smo!r$ by unwise re/ra9t6 ,! :ole object ( re/ra9t is to reject t :i* is false & to correct ! pref]5ce giv5 to a l[] good in/ead ( to a high] "o4 ,z = ! re/--fre$om6 ,i "k a man :o ?9ks he don't "k any?+--:o e day kn[s t he kn[s less2 & :o hopes to "k no?+ be=e he dies4 ,o bless$ empt9ess :i* fills u ) all6 ,o happy pov]ty :i* possesses all6 ,o beatifi$ no?+ness :i* c exclaim1 ,deus meus et omnia6 ,x w h be5 se5 by ?is "t t ,fa!r ,heck]'s fir/ & fundam5tal rule ( direction 0 to h z little ( x z possible4 ,8 me?od />t$ out ) ! purpose to d away ) me?od at ! e>lie/ mom5t x c\ld safely be done4 ,to be ,fa!r ,heck]'s p5it5t meant ! privilege ( soon] or lat] be+ nobody's p5it5t b ! ,holy ,gho/'s4 ,! foll[+ rules ( direction he pr9t$ 9 #ahhg3 ,! "w ( ! prie/hood is to help to guide ! ,*ri/ian p1 und]/&+ t ,god is always guid+ !m int]iorly4 ,an innoc5t s\l we mu/ guide1 fully und]/&+ t ,god is dwell+ )9 him2 n z a sub/itute = ,god4 ,a rep5tant s9n] we mu/ guide1 und]/&+ t we are b re/or+ him to ,god's guidance4 ,! be/ t we c d = any ,*ri/ian is to quick5 8 s5se ( fidelity to ,god speak+ to him 9 an enlight5$ consci5ce4 ,n[1 ,god's guidance is ( two k9ds3 "o is t ( ,8 ext]nal provid5ce 9 ! circum/ances ( life2 ! o!r is int]ior1 & is ! direct action ( ! ,holy ,_s on ! human s\l4 ,!re is great dang] 9 sep>at+ ^! two4 ,! key to _m spiritual problems is f\nd 9 ?is tru?3 ,! direct action ( ,god ^u ! s\l1 :i* is int]ior1 is 9 h>mony ) 8 ext]nal provid5ce4 ,sanctity consi/s 9 mak+ !m id5tical z motives = e ?\ght1 ^w1 & de$ ( our lives4 ,! ext]nal & ! int]nal 7& ! same mu/ be said ( ! natural & sup]natural7 are "o 9 ,god1 & ! consci\sness ( !m bo? is to be made "o div9e :ole 9 man4 ,to d ?is requires an h]oic life-sanctity4 ,all ! sacram5ts ( ! ,*ur*1 h] au?ority1 pray] bo? m5tal & vocal1 spiritual read+1 ex]cises ( mortification & ( devotion1 h = _! end & purpose to lead ! s\l to ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,/4 ,alphonsus says 9 8 lett]s t ! fir/ director ( ! s\l is ! ,holy ,gho/ ,himself4 ,x is nev] to be =gott5 t "o man c nev] be a guide to ano!r except z lead+ him to 8 only ,div9e ,guide4 ,! guide ( ! s\l is ! ,holy ,_s ,himself1 & ! crit]ion or te/ ( possess+ t guide is ! ,div9e au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,:at foll[s 0 publi%$ by ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w 9 #ahhg4 ,x ?r[s new light on ! que/ions we h be5 consid]+1 ab\nd+ 9 practical rules ( direction1 & !re=e1 ?\gh some:at long1 we v5ture to close ! *apt] ) x3 ',if any "o %all say t )\t ! previ\s inspiration ( ! ,holy ,_s & ,8 aid1 a man c believe1 hope1 love1 or rep5t z he %\ld1 s t ! grace ( ju/ification may be conf]r$ ^u him1 let him be ana!ma4' ,^! are ! words ( ! holy ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t1 9 :i* ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* infallibly tea*es t )\t an int]ior movem5t ( ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s no act ( ! s\l c be m]itori\s ( heav54 ,?is doctr9e1 embody+ ! pla9 s5se ( ,holy ,scripture & ! unbrok5 tea*+ ( ! ,*ur* 9 all ages1 bases human ju/ification on an int]ior impulse ( ! ,?ird ,p]son ( ! ,div9e ,tr9ity4 ,?is impulse prec$es ! s\l's acts ( fai?1 hope1 & love1 & ( sorr[ = s93 ! fir/ /age 9 ! sup]natural c>e]1 !n1 is ! ent]+ ( ! ,holy ,_s into ! inn] life ( ! s\l4 ,! process ( ju/ification beg9s by ! div9e life ( ! indwell+ ,_s tak+ up into itself ! human life ( ! s\l4 ,nor is ?is to ! detrim5t ( man's lib]ty1 b r to its increase4 ,! inf9ite indep5d5ce ( ,god & 8 div9e lib]ty are %>$ by man exactly 9 proportion z he p>takes ( ,god's life 9 ! communication ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,if x be ask$ h[ ! ,holy ,_s is receiv$1 ! answ] is1 ,sacram5tally4 ',unless a man be born aga9 ( wat] & ! ,holy ,gho/1 he _c ent] into ! k+dom ( ,god4' ,z man by nature is a be+ ( bo? out] & inn] life1 s1 :5 made a new man by ! ,_s ( ,god & elevat$ into a sup]natural /ate1 ,god deals ) him by bo? out] & inn] me?ods4 ,! ,holy ,_s is receiv$ by ! sacram5tal grace ( baptism & r5ew$ by ! o!r sacram5ts2 also 9 pray]1 vocal or m5tal1 he>+ s]mons1 read+ ! ,scriptures or dev\t books1 & on occasions1 extraord9>y or ord9>y1 9 ! c\rse ( daily life2 & :5 once receiv$ e act ( ! s\l t m]its heav5 is done by ! inspiration ( t ,div9e ,guide dwell+ )9 u4 ,ev5 ?\gh unp]ceiv$1 ?\gh indi/+ui%able f impulses ( natural virtue1 ?\gh imp]ceptibly multipli$ z (t5 z ! in/ants are1 yet ea* movem5t ( heav5-w9n+ virtue1 & especially love1 hope1 fai?1 & rep5tance1 is made because ! ,holy ,_s has act$ ^u ! s\l 9 an efficaci\s mann]4 ,x is n to induce a /ra9$ outlook = ! p>ticul> cases ( ! action ( ! ,_s ( ,god on u1 or ! signs ( x1 t ^! words are writt54 ,! sacram5ts1 pray] & holy read+1 & he>+ s]mons & in/ructions1 are ! pla91 ext]nal in/rum5ts & accompanim5ts ( ! visitations ( ,god1 & are suffici5t l&m>ks = ! j\rney ( ! s\l1 unless x be l$ 9 a way altoge!r extraord9>y4 ,& ap>t f ^! ext]nal m>ks1 no matt] h[ y wat* = ,god1 8 visitations are be/ kn[n by _! effects2 x is aft] ! cause has be5 plac$1 p]haps "s consid]able "t aft]1 t ! fai?1 hope1 love1 or sorr[ becomes p]ceptibly increas$--always except+ extraord9>y cases4 ,n to 'resi/ ! ,_s' is ! fir/ duty4 ,fidelity to ! div9e guidance1 yield+ "o's self up lov+ly to ! impulses ( virtue z !y g5tly claim control ( our ?\ghts--?is is ! simple duty4 ,hav+ laid d[n 9 broad t]ms ! fundam5tal doctr9e ( ! sup]natural life1 x is prop] to say a ^w ( ! natural virtues & ( _! relation to ! sup]natural4 ,x has be5 already intimat$ t ! goodness ( nature is (t5 indi/+ui%able f ! hol9ess ( ! sup]natural life2 &1 inde$1 z a rule1 impulses ( ! ,holy ,_s fir/ p\r _! floods into ! *annels ( natural virtue1 ?us r5d]+ !m sup]natural4 ,^! are ma9ly ! c>d9al virtues3 ,prud5ce1 ,ju/ice1 ,=titude1 & ,temp]ance4 ,practis$ 9 a /ate ( nature1 ^! place u 9 our true relations ) our nature & ) ,god's provid5ce 9 all creat$ nature ar\nd u2 ^! are ! virtues :i* *oice s\ls among ! hea!n practis$4 ,!y are n en\gh4 ,:5 !y h done _! utmo/ !y leave a void 9 ! he>t t /ill ye>ns = m4 ,x is ! purpose ( ! ,_s ( ,god to raise our virtue to a grade f> above nature4 ,! practice ( ! virtues ( fai? hope1 & love1 :i* br+ ! s\l into direct communication ) ,god1 & :i*1 :5 practis$ "u ! guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s1 are sup]natural1 foll[+ ^u ! practice ( ! c>d9al virtues "u ! same guidance1 place ! s\l 9 its true & p]fect relation ) ,god--a /ate :i* is m ?an natural4 ,let u1 if we w\ld see ?+s cle>ly1 keep 9 sight ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! natural & sup]natural4 ,9 ! natural ord] a c]ta9 union ) ,god 0 possess$ by man 9 all ages 9 common ) e creature4 ,! union ( ! creature ) ! div9e creative p[] is some?+ :i* man c nei!r escape f nor be robb$ (4 ,b 9 ! case ( rational creatures ?is union is1 ev5 9 a /ate ( nature1 made f> clos] & its enjoym5t increas$ by a virtu\s life--"o 9 :i* reason is sup]ior to appetite2 a life only to be l$ by "o assi/$1 if n by ! indwell+ ,holy ,_s peculi> to ! grace ( ,*ri/1 yet by ! helps necess>y to natural virtue & call$ m$ic9al graces4 ,! practice ( ! f\r c>d9al virtues--,prud5ce1 ,ju/ice1 ,=titude1 & ,temp]ance--9 ! ord9>y natural /ate gave to guileless m5 & wom5 9 e age a natural union ) _! ,creator4 ,al?\gh we ma9ta9 t su* natural union ) ,god is n en\gh = man1 yet we insi/ t ! "p ! natural virtues play 9 man's sanctification be recogniz$4 ,9 consid]+ a holy life natural virtues are too (t5 pass$ ov]1 ei!r because ! m5 :o practis$ !m 9 hea!n times 7 p]haps few 9 numb]1 or because ( ! ,calv9i/ic error t nature & man are totally corrupt4 ,& we fur!r insi/ on ! natural virtues because !y t5d to place man 9 true relations ) himself & ) nature1 ?us br++ him into m p]fect relation or union ) ,god ?an he 0 by means ( ! creative act--a prop] prelim9>y to 8 sup]natural relation4 ,:o w d5y t !re 7 m5 n a few among ! hea!n 9 :om ,prud5ce1 ,ju/ice1 ,=titude1 & ,temp]ance 7 highly exemplifi$8 ,!y knew well en\gh :at "r reason dem&$4 ,su* m5 z ,socrates1 ,plato1 ,epictetus1 & ,m>cus ,aurelius _h by ! natural light ( reason a k ( :at _! nature requir$ ( !m4 ,!y _h faults1 great ones if y please2 at ! same "t !y knew !m to be faults1 & !y _h ! natural virtues 9 great] or less degrees4 ,?us ! union betwe5 ,god & ! s\l1 due to ! creative act1 ?\gh n suffici5t1 nev] 0 int]rupt$4 ,! ,creator & ! ,m$iator are "o4 ,,*apt] ,,xxviii ,,! ,,pauli/ ,,p>i% ,,& ,,missions ,,9 s]v+ ! p>i%1 ! ,pauli/s1 l$ by ,fa!r ,heck]1 endeavor$ to utilize ! individual qualities ( ea* memb]1 z well z ! advantages ( a community1 s z to br+ !m to be> z di/9ct =ces ^u ! p4 ,:at ,george ,miles _h said ( !m z mission>ies1 z quot$ 9 a previ\s *apt]1 appli$ to !m z p>i% prie/s1 & told accord+ly 9 result4 ,_! p]sonal excell5ces f\nd free room = activity1 )\t any lack ( on5ess ( _s & )\t int]f]+ ) h>mony ( action4 ,! mission>y makes an effici5t p>i% prie/4 ,accu/om$ to sev]e labor z well z to v mod]ate recreation1 he p\rs ! en]gy ( apo/olic zeal into p>o*ial *annels4 ,a high ord] ( prea*+ is (t5 ! result1 comb9$ ) tireless application to visit+ ! sick1 hunt+ up s9n]s1 & he>+ confessions4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! exp]i5ce ( regul> p>i% duty is ( assi/ance to ! mission>y :5 he returns to 8 apo/olic exp$itions1 z ,pius ,,ix4 call$ !m2 he is all ! bett] fitt$ to plan & execute 8 prop] ent]prises f hav+ obta9$ a full] k ( ! ord9>y /ate ( ?+s 9 a p>i%4 ,x w n be expect$ t a detail$ acc\nt ( ! p>i% "w ( ,/4 ,paul's w "h be giv51 or m ?an a brief summ>y ( t ( ! missions4 ,^! latt] 7 kept up ) vigor\s en]gy f #aheh till ! close ( ! w> 9 ! spr+ ( #ahfe4 ,on ,april #d ( t ye> ,fa!r ,bak] di$1 & ! missions1 :i* _h be5 a griev\s burd5 to ! little b&1 n[ became an impossibility4 ,!y 7 susp5d$ till #ahgb1 except+ an occasional "o1 giv5 n s mu* z "p ( ! curr5t labor ( ! community1 z to reta9 _! sweet savor 9 ! memory & z an e>ne/ ( _! future resumption4 ,b up to ,fa!r ,bak]'s dea? ?is small body ( m5 _h prea*$ almo/ ev]y:]e ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry1 gett+ away f ! ,s\? j be=e ! w> block$ ! road4 ,eighty-"o missions _h be5 giv51 hundr$s ( conv]ts _h be5 receiv$ into ! ,*ur* & _m scores ( ?\s&s ( confessions he>d4 ,num]\s applications = missions 7 refus$ = want ( m5 to prea* !m4 ,sc>cely a city ( any size 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates & ,canada b knew ! ,pauli/s & ?ank$ ,god = _! missions4 ,! ,fa!rs conduct$ !m 9 ! same _s z :5 !y 7 ,r$emptori/s1 & foll[$1 z ! community /ill cont9ues to d1 sub/antially ! same me?od4 ,x is n easy to improve on ,/4 ,alphonsus4 ,b !y did n fail to br+ out ! qualities & call = ! peculi> virtues dem&$ by ,div9e ,provid5ce 9 ^! times4 ,_! prea*+ 0 di/+ui%$ by appeals to manl9ess & intellig5ce1 z well z to ! virtues di/9ctly sup]natural4 ,! p 7 n only edifi$ by _! zeal & religi\s discipl9e1 b ! m obs]vant 7 attract$ by ! ,pauli/s' fre$om ( _s1 & by _! con/ant insi/5ce on ! use ( ! reason+ faculties to guide ! emotions ar\s$ by ! s]mons4 ,! mission>ies 7 m5 ( native indep5d5ce1 & _! religi\s influ5ce 0 productive ( ! same quality4 ,great att5tion 0 paid to ! doctr9al in/ructions4 ,z to special devotions1 ! ,pauli/s h nev] _h any to propagate1 ?\gh compet5t & will+ to assi/ ! pa/or 9 8 own *oice ( su* subsidi>y religi\s aids4 ,non-,ca?olics ( all classes 7 drawn to he> ! conv]t mission>ies1 & ! ex]cises usually receiv$ flatt]+ notices f ! secul> press4 ,an unrel5t+ w>f>e 0 c>ri$ on aga9/ ! dang]\s occasions ( s9 peculi> to our c\ntry & p1 & ! ,fa!rs 7 f ! beg9n+1 & _! community is yet well kn[n = p>ticul> ho/ility to drunk5ness1 & to ! mo/ fruitful s\rce ( t dete/able & widespread vice1 ! saloon4 ,_! antagonism to drunk5ness %[$ _! appreciation ( its evil supremacy among ! masses1 & ! condemnation ( ! saloon 0 a necess>y result4 ,?is attitude ( ! mission>ies 0 (t5 a bitt]-sweet morsel to ! pa/ors1 ne>ly all ( :om at t "t _h be5 tra9$ 9 ! ,old ,_w4 ,!y 7 glad ( ! good done1 yet sorry to see _! liquor-deal]s put to public %ame4 ,"o pa/or is record$ z say+3 ,! only p t h look$ sad at ?is mission are ! fir/ m5 9 my p>i%1 ! rum-sell]s4 ,! foll[+ is a piece ( evid5ce wor? publi%+1 ?\gh x is b "o ( v _m :i* c\ld be produc$4 ,x is f\nd 9 ! ,mission ,record 9 ,fa!r ,bak]'s h&writ+3 ,a ,ca?olic "o ev5+1 on 8 way to ! mission1 /opp$ 9 a grog-%op & took a glass ) ! proprietor4 ',won't y g ) me to he> ! ,fa!rs8' said ! gue/4 ',no1' said ! o!r1 '^! m5 are too h>d on u4 ,!y want all ( u liquor-deal]s to %ut up our %ops4 ,if we 7 ri* we c\ld d x2 b we an't--we are poor4 ,^! m5 are too high & indep5d5t2 ,fa!r w\ldn't d>e to speak z !y d4 ,b aft] all1' cont9u$ he1 '!y are good fell[s2 see ! effect ( _! labors4' ,!n1 tak+ out ( 8 pocket a crumpl$ lett] :i* he _h receiv$ ?r\gh ! po/-(fice1 & :i* 0 badly spell$ & badly writt51 he read z foll[s3 ',,sir3 ,i s5d y ?ree doll>s :i* ,i receiv$ by mi/ake ?ree ye>s ago f y\r cl]k4 ,& n[ ,i hope t y w /op sell+ damnation1 & t ,god may give y grace to /op x4 ,y\rs3 ,a ,s9n]4' ,:atev] may h be5 ! misgiv+s ( "s1 ! opposition ( ! ,pauli/s to ! liquor-traffic 0 approv$ by ! mo/ enlight5$ & influ5tial prelates & prie/s ( ! c\ntry1 z is %[n by ! numb] ( ca!drals & o!r prom95t *ur*es 9 :i* ! missions 7 prea*$4 ,x %\ld be add$ t ?is antagonism to drunk5ness1 to convivial dr9k+1 & to saloon-keep+1 n only receiv$ ! unanim\s applause ( ! ,ca?olic laity1 b edifi$ ! non-,ca?olic public1 & br\ght out _m comm5dations f ! secul> press z well z f ! police au?orities ( our cr[d$ cities4 ,a mission is a t]ror to ob/9ate evil-do]s ( all k9ds1 b to habitual drunk>ds & saloon-keep]s x is especially s4 ,! attitude ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica on ?is entire subject1 z (ficially express$ by ! decrees ( ! ,?ird ,pl5>y ,c\ncil & by its pa/oral lett]1 fully ju/ifies ! action ( ,fa!r ,heck] & 8 companions4 ,z soon z ! *ur* 9 ,fifty-n9? ,/reet 0 op5$ ! community ex]t$ itself to make ! surr\nd+s attractive4 ,! build+ occupi$ b a small "p ( ! prop]ty1 ! re/ ( :i* 0 laid out 9 grass-plats & gravel walks2 _m %ade-trees & "s fruit-trees 7 set out1 & a fl[] & vegetable g>d5 plant$4 ,x 0 ,fa!r ,heck]'s delight to sup]9t5d ?is "w1 & to p>ticipate actively 9 x :5 8 duties all[$4 ,! gr\nds soon became an attractive spot1 to :i* 9 a few ye>s *ur*-go]s f all p>ts ( ! city began to make ,sunday pilgrimages4 ,!y came 9 consid]able numb]s e ,sunday to assi/ at ,mass or ,vesp]s 9 ,/4 ,paul's quiet1 c\ntry-l *ur*4 ,meantime ! resid5ts ( ! p>i%1 n v num]\s & ne>ly all ( ! labor+ class1 =m$ deep atta*m5ts = _! pa/ors1 & an almo/ ideal /ate ( unity & affection b\nd prie/s & p toge!r4 ,ne>ly ! entire region 0 cov]$ ) m>ket g>d5s1 v>i$ ) huge masses ( rock1 & gr\ps ( %anties4 ,v _m ( ! p>i%ion]s ( t e>ly p]iod liv$ 9 ^! nondescript dwell+s1 ( :i* !y 7 !mselves bo? ! ar*itects & build]s1 a fact :i* add$ n a little to _! qua9t & picturesque appe>ance4 ,! sites ^u :i* ^! squatt]s' homes 7 plac$1 & ov] :i* roam$ & sport$ _! m+l$ goats1 dogs1 & *ildr51 are n[ occupi$ 9 great "p by blocks ( /ately resid5ces & ap>tm5t h\ses2 b we "k n :e!r ! grace ( ,god ab\nds m pl5tifully n[ ?an x did !n4 ,at any rate1 :oev] he>d ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ^? primitive days call 8 p>i% ,%antyopolis1 c\ld see no sign ( regret on 8 "p t he _h a poor & simple p z ! bulk ( 8 p>i%ion]s4 ,mu* att5tion 0 giv5 to ! prep>ation & prea*+ ( s]mons1 ) ! result ( a full att5dance at ,high ,mass on ,sundays4 ,beg9n+ ) #ahfa1 a volume ( ^! disc\rses 0 publi%$ "u ,fa!r ,heck]'s direction ea* ye>1 till a s]ies ( sev5 volumes _h be5 complet$4 ,^! 7 v well receiv$ by ! ,ca?olic public1 & 7 b\ght 9 consid]able numb]s by non-,ca?olic cl]gym54 ,!y _h an ext5sive sale1 ?\gh :5 _! publication 0 fir/ propos$ x 0 fe>$ t !y w\ld n succe$4 ,!y are almo/ :olly ( a /rictly p>o*ial "*1 brief1 direct 9 /yle1 ab\nd+ 9 examples f e-day life1 & pl5tifully illu/rat$ ) ,scripture quotations4 ,al?\gh ,fa!r ,heck] prea*$ regul>ly 9 8 turn1 only a few ( 8 s]mons 7 contribut$ to ^! volumes1 b 8 sugge/ions & enc\ragem5t greatly assi/$ ! o!r ,fa!rs 9 prep>+ !irs1 z inde$ 9 all _! duties1 p>o*ial & mission>y4 ,"s ye>s aft] ! s]ies 0 end$ two volumes ( ,five-,m9ute ,s]mons 7 publi%$1 provid+ %ort in/ructions = ,l[ ,masses on ,sundays4 ,! ,pauli/ ,*ur* also became well kn[n = ! att5tion paid to ! public (fices ( religion1 z well z = rubrical exactness 9 c]emonies1 ! great] fea/s ( ! ye> be+ celebrat$ ) all ! spl5dor :i* a simple *ur*-build+ & limit$ pecuni>y means all[$4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 f fir/ to la/ /rongly 9 favor ( congregational s++1 & assi/$ to ! be/ ( 8 p[] 9 introduc+ x4 ,x began 9 our *ur* 9 mode/ fa%ion back 9 ^? e>ly days1 & 0 fo/]$ zeal\sly at ! ,l5t5 devotions & society meet+s4 ,x nev] fail$ ( "s good results1 & has f9ally atta9$ a fl\ri%+ /ate ( success 9 ?is p>i%4 ,8 att5tion to ! *ildr5 0 con/ant4 ,no matt] :o _h *>ge ( ! ,sunday-s*ool1 z long z 8 heal? p]mitt$ ,fa!r ,heck] 0 !re e ,sunday t he 0 at home1 ask+ que/ions1 talk+ to ! tea*]s & *ildr51 enliv5+ all by 8 enc\ragem5t & *e]fulness4 ,he 0 a m>t9et on "o "q1 & t 0 cleanl9ess1 & its k9dr$ virtue1 ord]l9ess4 ,he 0 nev] above work+ ) mop1 broom & du/] indoors1 & %ovel & rake 9 ! g>d52 & ?is trait add$ mu* to ! appe>ance ( ?+s z well z to ! com=t ( all conc]n$ 9 ! use ( ! conv5t & ! *ur*4 ,?\gh assidu\s 9 e p>i% duty1 8 favorite task 0 ! relief ( ! poor4 ,!y multipli$ 9 numb] 9 undue proportion to ! increase ( ! p>i%1 drift+ out ?is way f ! ov]cr[d$ qu>t]s d[n t[n4 ,fa!r ,heck] enli/$ ! be/ m5 & wom5 9 ! congregation 9 ! "w ( c>+ = !m1 organiz+ a conf]5ce ( ! ,/4 ,v9c5t de ,paul ,society1 9 ^: labors he joyfully & en]getically p>ticipat$4 ,! dea? ( ,fa!r ,bak] 01 humanly speak+1 a loss to ! community beyond all calculation1 & 0 ! great ev5t ( ! fir/ p]iod ( ! ,pauli/ community4 ,fa!r ,heck] _h ! v highe/ e/imate ( 8 hol9ess1 & m\rn$ him ) ! m+l$ sorr[ & joy ) :i* sa9ts are m\rn$4 ,! read] %\ld get ,fa!r ,hewit's ,memoir ( ,fa!r ,bak] if he w\ld "k 8 virtues4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 (t5 he>d to say t few m5 und]/ood 8 ideas s cle>ly z did ,fa!r ,bak] & _h s mu* sympa?y ) !m4 ,& 8 dea? 0 ! signal = an impulse ^: p[] pla9ly indicat$ its sup]natural orig94 ,up to t "t !re _h be5 b two prie/s add$ to ! community1 & ^? :o _h (f]$ !mselves z novices & be5 reject$ 71 z a rule1 little calculat$ to inspire hope4 ,b f #ahfe onw>ds good subjects1 mo/ly conv]ts1 appli$ 9 suffici5t numb]s1 & 9 a few ye>s ! missions 7 resum$4 ,b :at 0 ( ev5 m importance1 ! apo/olate ( ! press1 />t$ 9 ! publication ( ,,! ,,ca?olic ,,_w ! mon? 9 :i* ,fa!r ,bak]'s dea? occurr$1 assum$ a national prom95ce1 & toge!r ) ! ,ca?olic ,tracts & ! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society set ! ,pauli/s at "w 9 _! prim>y vocation1 ! conv]sion ( non-,ca?olics to ! true religion4 ,to ?is1 & to ,fa!r ,heck]'s lectures1 we n[ turn4 ,( c\rse we might dwell long] on ! p>i% & ! missions1 ab\t :i* !re are _m ?+s ( int]e/ left untold1 b only ! lapse ( "t c suffici5tly dissociate !m f liv+ p]sons to all[ ( _! be+ made public4 ,,*apt] ,,xxix ,,fa!r ,,heck]',s ,,lectures ,,! susp5sion ( ! missions1 if x 0 ! result ( necessity1 0 yet an aid to ,fa!r ,heck] 9 devot+ himself to public speak+ 9 ! int]e/s ( ! ,ca?olic fai?4 ,betwe5 missions1 x is true1 he seiz$ e favorable opportunity to address audi5ces on controv]sial topics1 (t5 do+ s 9 public halls1 z well z 9 *ur*es4 ,meantime he c\ld /ill fur!r mature 8 plans1 &1 te/+ 8 me?ods by exp]im5t1 secure = future occasions a c\rse ( lectures fully suit$ to ! end he _h 9 view4 ,m ?an ev] did he /udy to fit himself = 8 apo/olate4 ,h[1 he ask$ himself1 %all ! liv+ ^w be fram$ anew = our new p8 ,h[ %all religi\s tea*+ be suit$ to ! special ne$s ( ?is age )\t detract+ f ! integrity & ! v5]able antiquity ( ! tru?8 ,he s\ght to answ] ^! que/ions by recall+ 8 own e>ly difficulties1 & by op5+ 8 s\l to ! voices ( /ruggl+ humanity utt]$ ev]y:]e ar\nd him4 ,:at m5 outside ! ,*ur* 7 ye>n+ = 9 matt]s social & religi\s 0 8 incessant /udy4 ,he read e book1 he read e p]iodical :i* promis$ to guide him ev] s little to "k by :at road ,div9e ,provid5ce 0 mov+ m5's m9ds t[>ds ! tru?4 ,8 eyes 7 ev] /ra9$ to read ! signs ( ,god's provid5ce 9 m5's lives4 ,& 8 conclusion 0 always ! same3 proclaim x on ! h\se-tops t no man c be consi/5t ) 8 natural aspirations till he has become a ,ca?olic2 prea* x on ! /reet-corn]s t ! ,ca?olic religion elevates man f> above 8 highe/ natural =ce into union ) ! ,deity--intimate1 consci\s1 & p]petual4 ,z to sy/ematic prep>ation = disc\rses to non-,ca?olics1 ,fa!r ,heck] _h 8 own peculi> equipm5t4 ,z ! read] w rememb]1 ,god _h l$ him 9 no way m s+ul>ly ?an 9 8 /udies1 & _h l$ him /raight4 ,! doctr9es ( ! ,*ur* 7 famili> to him1 = !y _h qu5*$ 8 s\l's ?ir/4 ,& he _h prea*$ !m on ! missions1 ! in/ructions on ! ,cre$ & ! ,sacram5ts fall+ to 8 %>e4 ,he _h giv5 ^! wat]s ( life to o!r s\ls1 & knew _! value4 ,he 0 a close /ud5t ( ! dogmatic side ( religion4 ,he _h1 x is true1 little ta/e = ! ref9em5ts ( !ologians1 unless !y t\*$ ! que/ions ( human dignity & ! scope ( ! grace ( ,*ri/1 :i* 7 vital ones to himself4 ,he view$ religion ) wide-sweep+ glances1 try+ to discov] e hill ( vision or /ream ( sanctity4 ,he _h pla9 tru?s to tea*1 & he ne$$ none o!r4 ,he knew ! organism ( ! ,*ur* 9 cl]gy & 9 p1 = he _h se5 x bo? f )\t & )94 ,he _h felt ! grip ( au?ority fix$ 9 8 s\l4 ,he _h agoniz$ "u ! br& ( puni%m5t z x burnt into 8 fle%1 & he _h se5 x *ang$ into ! badge ( approval4 ,)9 & )\t he knew ,ca?olicity1 lov$ x daily m & m1 & 0 daily m & m anxi\s to proclaim x to ! _w4 ,x 0 n f labor$ prep>ation ( 8 lectures t success came to ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,ev5 ^? :i* seem$ ! mo/ elaborately prep>$ he did n write out ^w = ^w4 ,8 v]bal memory 0 n tru/wor?y1 & he _h to confide 9 8 extemporiz+ faculty1 :i* 0 v good1 & :i* became 9 c\rse ( "t q reliable1 giv+ out s5t5ces cle>1 grammatical1 & fit to pr9t4 ,i h to produce a s]mon = next ,sunday1 he once wrote to a fri5d4 ,= me a s]mon is always a spontane\s production2 ,i _c get "o up4 ,! idea mu/ arise & gr[ up 9 my own m9d4 ,x is usually h>d labor = me to produce x outw>dly & give x suitable expression4 ,b ! ef=t did n appe> 9 ! deliv]y1 = 8 /yle1 al?\gh emphatic1 0 easy & famili>2 8 deliv]y1 if n altoge!r accord+ to ! rules ( elocution1 nev]!less ga9$ 8 po9t completely4 ,no ^w ( 8 0 dead-born4 ,8 voice 0 n always cle>1 z he (t5 suff]$ f bron*ial tr\bles1 b x 0 n unpleasant1 & _h a p5etrat+ quality1 be+ ( t middle pit* :i* c>ries to ! ends ( a l>ge auditorium )\t provok+ ! e*oes4 ,8 appe>ance 0 v dignifi$1 8 tall frame1 8 broad face & l>ge features %[+ ) /rik+ effect4 ,8 action 0 simple & n ungraceful1 ?\gh frequ5tly exce$+ly en]getic4 ,z he nev] s\ght emotional effects 8 p[] may be kn[n by 8 unfail+ success 9 hold+ 8 audi5ce p]fectly att5tive ?r\gh\t long argum5tative disc\rses4 ,en]gy ( conviction 0 "o ( ! /ronge/ =ces he possess$1 & x took ! %ape ( a g5tle con/ra9t ) :i* 8 positive utt]ances ( ,ca?olic pr9ciples compell$ ass5t4 ,s9c]ity ( belief & lib]ty ( s\l 7 admirably bl5d$ 9 8 mann]4 ,he nev] appe>$ 9 public )\t attract+ _m repres5tatives ( ! mottl$ sect>ianism ( our population2 & ?is pleas$ him mu*1 = he lov$ !m1 felt at home ) !m1 & 0 full ( joy at ! opportunity ( address+ !m4 ,he 0 *agr9$ at ! apa?y he sometimes met ) among ,ca?olics conc]n+ ! ,am]ican apo/olate4 ,he f\nd prie/s :o w\ld devote mu* labor to collect+ money = ! propagation ( ! fai? among di/ant hea!n races1 b v few :o w\ld make a s]i\s ef=t = ! conv]sion ( _! ,am]ican fell[-citiz5s4 ,are ,am]icans ( less wor? 9 ,god's eyes ?an pagans & ,buddhi/s8 he w\ld ask4 ,he ?\ght no diff]5tly ( ! p ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates ?an ,/4 ,paul did ( ! ,cor9?ians & ,mac$onians1 groan+ & travail+ ) !m to br+ !m =? memb]s ( ,*ri/2 or ?an ,/4 ,francis ,xavi] did ( ! ,japanese4 ,if ask$ h[ he 0 go+ to conv]t p1 he w\ld answ]3 ,i am a ,ca?olic1 & ,i "k t ,i am "r4 ,i c prove t ,i am "r4 ,:at m d ,i want ?an ?is1 & hone/ m5 & wom5 :o w li/5 to me8 ,! confid5ce he _h 9 ! /r5g? ( ! ,ca?olic argum5t 0 absolute1 & ?is he %[$ by 8 zeal4 ,8 sole /udy 0 h[ to transmute ?is =ce into mission>y =m4 ,( all ! wond]s ( ! intellectual _w he felt t ! greate/ is ! fai? ( ,ca?olics1 & he knew by ! lesson ( 8 e>ly life t x is b slightly appreciat$ by ! non-,ca?olic m9d4 ,t ,ca?olics p]mit ?is ignorance to cont9ue 0 a puzzle to him4 ,& x 0 all ! m annoy+ because any s+le "o ( !m c multiply 8 influ5ce indef9itely by 8 union ) ! mo/ p]fect organism ev] kn[n--! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,! quiesc5ce ( a body ( m51 s9c]e & intellig5t1 infallibly c]ta9 ( ! means ( obta9+ et]nal happ9ess1 liv+ 9 daily contact ) o!r m5 ignorant & inquir+ ab\t ?is unspeakable privilege1 & yet n tak+ in/ant measures to imp>t _! k1 0 to ,fa!r ,heck] almo/ z great a wond] z ! div9e gift ( fai? itself1 especially z ,ca?olics are well furni%$ ) lead]s & are organiz$ to spread ! tru? z "o ( _! mo/ sacr$ duties4 ,mr4 ,wilfrid ,w>d1 a ,ca?olic philosophical writ] ( di/9ction1 has expla9$ 9 a brilliant little volume ! influ5ce ^u controv]sy ( :at he /yles ,! ,clo!s ( ,religion--race1 political traditions1 education1 physical temp]am5t4 ,he puts into 8 in/ructive pages ! s5se ( ! great s*ola/ic maxim1 ,quidquid recipitur secundum modum recipi5tis recipitur--,:atev] is receiv$1 is receiv$ accord+ to ! mode 7or "*7 ( ! recipi5t4 ,! national "*1 ! t5d5cies1 ! antec$5ts ( ! p address$1 ! relative p[] ( ?\ght & ( emotion 9 _! m5tal activity2 all ^! are n1 inde$1 ! s\ls ( m5 b ! clo?+ ( !m1 _! armor & _! weapons2 & ,fa!r ,heck] felt t su* ?+s mu/ be tak5 into acc\nt 9 deal+ ) p1 & t ) ! utmo/ discretion4 ,8 view ab\t controv]sy ) non-,ca?olics 0 inde$ aggressive--t we _h rea*$ ! po9t 9 ! battle at :i* ! legion1 hav+ ca/ its javel9s1 ru%es on ) drawn swords to clos] conflict4 ,b ! combatants %\ld be well tra9$1 ! capta9s %\ld "k ! gr\nd to be trav]s$1 %\ld und]/& ?or\ghly ! weakness & /r5g? ( ! enemy4 ,x 0 n a new ?+ to br+ ,prote/antism into c\rt at ! suit ( human lib]ty4 ,b x 0 a novelty to attack ,prote/antism z ! v torture-*amb] ( free & innoc5t s\ls1 & to d x 9 su* a way z to draw ?\s&s ( ! be/ ,prote/ants 9 ! l& to li/54 ,su* s5t5ces 9 ! morn+ pap]s z ,an ov]fl[+ h\se greet$ ,fa!r ,heck]1 ,! imm5se hall has seldom be5 s completely fill$1 ,repres5tative m5 ( all cre$s & ( none 7 scatt]$ ?r\gh ! l>ge audi5ce1 _h a trem5d\s mean+ :5 ! lectur] 0 kn[n to be ! mo/ fe>less assailant ( ,prote/antism :o _h appe>$ = _m a day4 ,fa!r ,heck] well knew t ! non-,ca?olic ,am]ican aspires to deal ) ,god ?r\gh ! aid ( z few ext]ior appliances z possible4 ,to come ne> ,god by 8 own spiritual activity )\t halt+ at =ms ( human contrivance is 8 spiritual ambition4 ,8 religi\s joy is 9 a spiritual life :i* deals ) ,god directly1 ,8 inspir$ ,^w1 ,8 ,holy ,_s4 ,fa!r ,heck] long$ to tell 8 fell[-c\ntrym5 t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* gives !m a flight to ,god a ?\s& times m direct ?an !y ev] dream$ (4 ,!y ?9k t ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur* w cramp _! limbs2 he 0 eag] to expla9 to !m t x sets !m free1 cle>s ! m9d ( d\bt1 int5sifies conviction into in/9ctive c]titude1 quick5s ! intellectual faculties into an activity ^: =ce is unkn[n outside ! ,*ur*4 ,x 0 n ) ! tru?s ( revelation alone t ,fa!r ,heck] dealt 9 8 lectures4 ,! fir/ pr9ciples ( natural religion 7 ! backgr\nd ( all 8 pictures ( true ,*ri/ianity3 t ,god is good1 t m5 w be puni%$ only = _! p]sonal misde$s1 t m5 are born = union ) ,god & 9 _! be/ mom5ts long = ,him1 t !y are equal1 be+ all made 9 ! ,div9e image1 end[$ ) free w & call$ to ! "o et]nal happ9ess--su* 7 ! great tru?s ) :i* he w\ld impress 8 audi5ce fir/ ( all1 us+ !m aft]w>ds z t]ms ( comp>ison ) ,prote/ant doctr9e4 ,?is plan he foll[$ r ?an in/itute a comp>ison ( hi/orical claims or ( ,biblical cr$5tials1 ! well-trodd5 b we>y road ( ord9>y controv]sy4 ,to him ,prote/antism 0 m an (f5ce aga9/ ! integrity ( human nature ?an ev5 aga9/ ! tru?s ( ,*ri/ian revelation4 ,& he w\ld place ,ca?olicity 9 a new light1 t ( reason & lib]ty4 ,! revolt ( ,prote/antism 0 n m aga9/ ,god's ext]nal au?ority among m5 ?an x 0 aga9/ ! equal bro!rhood ( ! human race4 ,well done1 ,lu!r1 ,fa!r ,heck] w\ld say1 well & consi/5tly done2 :5 y h proclaim$ man totally deprav$ y h prop]ly made 8 religion a ,ca9-l flight f ! face ( 8 ,mak] & 8 k9dr$ by y\r doctr9e ( pr$e/9ation4 ,fa!r ,heck] deem$ x pla9ly unwise to =ego ! advantages ( attack+ su* vuln]able po9ts z ! ,prote/ant errors ( total depravity & pr$e/9ation = ! sake ( dwell+ on ! ,biblical & hi/orical cr$5tials ( ,*ur* au?ority4 ,he knew1 inde$1 t extravagant individualism is to ?is day a fundam5tal ,prote/ant error1 b ! wan+ p[] ( its doctr9al ass]tion has depriv$ x ( aggressive vigor4 ,!re is less dang] ( its assault ^u ! ,*ur*1 ,fa!r ,heck] ?\ght1 ?an ( its sceptical t5d5cy ^u its own adh]5ts4 ,to emphasize ! obligation ( organic unity1 9 su* a condition ( ?+s1 0 n good tactics2 x 0 to revive ! _s ( resi/ance )\t arre/+ ! evils ( d\bt4 ,au?ority 9 religion has high & und\bt$ claims2 b x is nev]!less true t ! normal developm5t ( man is 9 fre$om4 ,man is fitt$ = 8 de/9y 9 proportion to 8 ability to use 8 lib]ty ) wisdom1 & ,fa!r ,heck] endeavor$ to set non-,ca?olics !mselves to "w remov+ ! ob/acles to true spiritual lib]ty :i* ,prote/antism _h plant$ 9 ! way4 ,an appeal f ,lu!r & ,calv9 to ! /&>ds ( rational nature1 to human virtue1 to human equality1 r ?an to exclusively ,ca?olic /&>ds1 0 c]ta9 ( success 9 a l>ge class ( m9ds4 ,& ?is b l$ to ! consid]ation ( ! ,*ur*'s claims to elevate rational nature & natural virtue to t div9e ord] :i* is above nature1 & :i* is organic 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,moral rectitude is a simpl] te/ ( tru? ?an texts f a dead book1 ^: orig9al tongues & ^: p]plex$ exegesis are q unkn[n to ! va/ mass ( mank9d4 ,& ,fa!r ,heck] recogniz$ t ! elem5t>y tru?s ( reason & ! aspirations ( humanity = bett] ?+s are n unkn[n to any man or woman2 ^! are ev]ybody's p]sonal means ( te/+ tru?4 ,to pass !m by 9 ord] to apply ! remot] te/ ( revelation is ei!r to admit t ,prote/antism is n aga9/ ! dictates ( reason & man's aspirations1 or to comm5ce ! argum5t aga9/ x at ! wrong end4 ,9 a lett] to ,c>d9al ,b>nabo writt5 9 ,july1 #ahfc1 ,fa!r ,heck] gives an acc\nt ( h[ he w5t to "w to secure & int]e/ a non-,ca?olic audi5ce3 ,= sev]al ye>s pa/ x has seem$ to me t "s m effectual means %\ld be tak5 to rea* ! ,prote/ant community4 ,?is la/ w9t] ,i v5tur$ ) ?is view ^u an exp]im5t4 ,9 ?ree diff]5t cities ,i gave1 9 a l>ge public hall1 a c\rse ( conf]5ces on religion1 "o e ev5+ f ,sunday to ,sunday inclusive4 ,! exp5se ( ! hall 0 paid by ! prie/ ( ! place1 ! lectures 7 all free1 & address$ exclusively to ,prote/ants4 ,! halls 7 cr[d$ at ea* place1 & t my audi5ces might be su* z ,i desir$ to address1 ,i begg$ ,ca?olics to /ay away4 ,at ! close ( "o ( my lectures !re 7 pres5t tw5ty-five hundr$ p]sons1 *iefly ,prote/ants4 ,my me?od 0 z foll[s3 ,9 treat+ any doctr9e ( our holy fai? ) a view to conv9c+ my audi5ce1 ,i consid]$ fir/ :at want 9 our nature x 0 relat$ to1 & to :i* x address$ itself4 ,?is want be+ discov]$1 ,i develop$ & illu/rat$ x until my he>]s 7 fully conv9c$ ( its exi/5ce & importance4 ,!n ! "q came up1 ,:i* religion recognizes ?is elem5t or want ( our nature1 & meets all its legitimate dem&s8 ,does ,prote/antism8 ,its answ]s 7 giv51 & f\nd ei!r ho/ile or incomplete4 ,!n ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 0 int]rogat$3 & %e 0 f\nd to recognize ?is want1 & h] answ]s adequate & satisfactory4 ,^! answ]s 7 !n %[n to be support$ by ! au?ority ( ,holy ,scriptures4 ,! int]e/ %[n by my audi5ce 0 rem>kable1 & ! effect ( ?is me?od 0 equal to my hopes4 ,my exp]i5ce conv9ces me t1 if ?is "w 7 cont9u$1 x w\ld prep>e ! way = a great *ange ( religion 9 ?is c\ntry1 m p>ticul>ly at ! pres5t "t1 :5 ! public m9d is favorably dispos$ to consid] ! claims ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,! want 9 our nature appeal$ to 0 (t5 9 ! political ord]1 su* z ! love ( lib]ty or man's capacity = self-gov]nm5t4 ,?is he dwelt ^u at consid]able l5g? 9 ! op5+ "p ( 8 lecture1 view+ x z a philosoph] w\ld1 & ext5d+ its application1 z f> z possible1 to m5 g5]ally4 ,he ?us *ose 8 crit]ion = comp>ison ( ! two claimants 9 ! religi\s _w4 ,8 triumph 01 !re=e1 (t5 9 an ar5a only semi-religi\s1 or r 9 t ( natural religion4 ,! effect 0 wond]fully good1 ?\gh d\btless due 9 great measure to ! mann] 9 :i* 8 plan1 s simply sket*$ 9 ! lett] above quot$1 0 develop$ be=e ! audi5ce4 ,! entire d\bt+ body ( intellig5t m5 0 enli/$ 9 v>y+ degrees 9 favor ( ! ,ca?olic tea*+ ( man's relation to ,god & to 8 fell[-m51 & aga9/ ,prote/antism4 ,am]icans c\ld n help feel+ disgu/ = doctr9es :i* 7 condemn$ by ! maxims ( ! ,decl>ation ( ,indep5d5ce4 ,al?\gh !re 0 no?+ positively new 9 ! me?od--some?+ l x _h be5 us$ by ,ar*bi%op ,hughes aga9/ ! ,presbyt]ian *ampion1 ,breck5ridge--yet ! public 0 tak5 by surprise4 ,! /yle ( controv]sy univ]sally 9 vogue 0 t ( sett+ up texts ( ,scripture & b[l+ !m d[n ) o!r texts4 ,b "h comes an ,am]ican ,ca?olic & arraigns ,prote/ant doctr9e at ! tribunal ( ,am]ican lib]ty4 ,! ?ick-&-?9 ,prote/ant 0 ?r[n into a rage1 & became abusive & (t5 incoh]5t 9 8 reply4 ,! easy-go+ ,prote/ant claim$ t ! doctr9es assail$ 7 obsolete1 z 8 *ur* _h1 at lea/ implicitly1 *ang$ !m4 ,!n *ange y\r *ur*1 said ,fa!r ,heck]2 if y h come back to ! "r doctr9e1 :y n come back to ! true ,*ur*8 ,z to ! av]age intellig5t inquir]1 he 0 uni=mly influ5c$ by ^! lectures aga9/ ! ,re=mation & its entire tea*+1 ) its dreadful effects ( d\bt & division among ,*ri/ians4 ,fa!r ,heck] _h an intuitive p]ception ( ! peculi> difficulties ( ! ,am]ican p1 & ev] %[$ ! utmo/ read9ess & skill 9 meet+ !m4 ,he _h a mat*less p[] ( lay+ b>e ! wants ( ! human he>t1 & an equal facility ( po9t+ out ! light & /r5g? ( ,ca?olicity = _! supply4 ,8 imm5se sympa?y = an aspir+ & guileless s\l depriv$ ( ! tru?1 0 mo/ evid5t2 he always look$ x & spoke x & act$ x be=e 8 audi5ce4 ,to d s 0 no ef=t on 8 "p4 ,he told ( ! promis$ l& n z a native ( x1 b z a mess5g] s5t into x1 & n[ return$ ) su* tid+s z %\ld ha/5 ! /eps ( 8 bre?r5 /ill w&]+ 9 ! des]t2 & ?is sympa!tic int]e/ embrac$ ! civil z well z ! religi\s side ( human nature4 ,he claim$ ev]y?+ really ,am]ican = ! ,ca?olic fai?1 & ?is 0 joy & gladness to _m a we>y he>t drawn to ! ,*ur* by h] *>ities1 or h] beautiful symbolism1 yet h9d]$ by ! phantom ( absolute au?ority & ! dread ( los+ ! integrity ( free citiz5%ip4 ,incivism--w ,ca?olic apologi/s nev] le>n x8--is ! heavie/ /one flung at ! ,*ur* 9 all free l&s to-day4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s blood fairly boil$ t ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 ! v home ( ,*ri/ian fre$om1 & ! nurs+-"m ( all civil well-be+1 %\ld be ?us assail$1 :ile ,calv9's & ,lu!r's degrad+ doctr9es %\ld be p>ad$ z alone wor?y ( a free p4 ,to say t ,fa!r ,heck] ,am]icaniz$ 9 ! n>r[ s5se w\ld be to d him inju/ice4 ,! ,am]ican ideas to :i* he appeal$ he knew to be ,god's w = all civiliz$ peoples ( our "t4 ,if fundam5tally ,am]ican !y 7 n = t reason exclusively ,am]ican4 ,8 ,am]icanism is s broad t by a *ange ( place x c be made ,spani%1 or ,g]man2 & a slight *ange ( t]ms makes x religi\s & ,ca?olic4 ,nor _h =m ( gov]nm5t ess5tially to d ) x2 human equality _c be monopoliz$ by republics2 x c be rightly und]/ood 9 a mon>*y1 ?\gh 9 su* a ease x does n assume ! conspicu\s place :i* x does 9 a republic4 ,x 0 ?is broadness ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s ,am]icanism t made him acceptable to ! extremely cons]vative circles ( ,rome1 9 8 /ruggle !re 9 ! w9t] ( #aheh-i4 ,_m m5 9 ! mon>*ies ( ! old ,_w may d\bt ! adv5t ( republicanism !re1 b :at s5sible man any:]e d\bts ! aspiration ( all races t[>ds lib]ty & intellig5ce8 ,fa!r ,heck]'s rep]tory cov]$ ! entire gr\nd betwe5 scepticism & ,ca?olicism4 ,9 refutation ( ,prote/antism ! pr9cipal lectures 73 ,! ,*ur* & ! ,republic2 ,lu!r & ! ,re=mation2 ,h[ & ,:y ,i ,became a ,ca?olic1 or ,a ,se>* aft] ,rational ,*ri/ianity2 & ,! ,/ate ( ,religion 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,on ! positive side 8 *ief topics 73 ,! ,*ur* z a ,society1 ,:y ,we ,invoke ! ,sa9ts1 & ! ,sacram5ts ( ,p5ance & ,holy ,communion4 ,o!rs he _h aga9/ mat]ialism1 spiritualism1 etc4 ,z may naturally be suppos$1 "s ( 8 lectures succe$$ bett] ?an o!rs4 ,"o ( ^? he p]sonally pref]r$ 0 ,! ,*urrk & ! ,republic4 ,he op5$ by affirm+1 z ! fundam5tal pr9ciple ( ! ,am]ican nation1 t man is naturally virtu\s en\gh to be capable ( self-gov]nm5t4 ,he develop$ ?is 9 v>i\s ways till 8 audi5ce felt t x 0 to be ! t\*/one ( ! "q betwe5 ! *ur*es4 ,he !n exhibit$ ! ,prote/ant tea*+ on human virtue & human depravity1 quot+ ext5sively f ,lu!r & f ,calv91 z well z f ! cre$s ( ! pr9cipal ,prote/ant sects1 until ! contra/ betwe5 _! tea*+ & ! fundam5tal ,am]ican pr9ciple 0 pa9fully vivid4 ,!re 0 no escape2 doctr9al ,prote/antism is un-,am]ican4 ,he !n gave ! ,ca?olic doctr9e ( free w1 ( m]it1 ( human dignity1 & ( ! equality ( m5 & human bro!rhood4 ,! impression 0 pr(\nd4 ,great m\nta9s ( prejudice 7 lift$ up & ca/ into ! sea4 ,! elevat+ influ5ces ( ! ,*ur*'s fai? fix$ m5's eyes & won _! he>ts4 ,to h x demon/rat$ t ,ca?olicity 0 n a gigantic ef=t to comb9e all available human =ces to ma9ta9 a c5tral religi\s despotism 9 ! h&s ( a hi]>*y1 0 a surprise to multitudes ( ,prote/ants4 ,to n a few intellig5t ,ca?olics ! /yle ( argum5t 0 a great novelty4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s success prov$ t ! claim ( au?ority on ! "p ( ! ,*ur* c\ld be e/abli%$ )\t mu* difficulty 9 m5's m9ds1 if x 7 n associat$ ) ! enslavem5t ( reason & consci5ce1 & if %[n to be consi/5t ) rational lib]ty4 ,he insi/$ ^u ! positive view ( ! subject4 ,he proclaim$ ! purpose ( ,ca?olic discipl9e to be ess5tially cons]vative ( human rights1 a div9ely-appo9t$ safegu>d to ! lib]ty & enlight5m5t ( ! s\l ( man4 ,he fur!r proclaim$ t ! infliction ( p5alties by ,*ur* au?ority 0 an accid5tal ex]cise ( p[] provok$ by disob$i5ce to lawful au?ority4 ,lu!r & ! ,re=mation excit$ widespread rem>k1 & yet to "o accu/om$ to old-"t controv]sy x seem$ b a fragm5t ( an argum5t4 ,! lecture prov$ t ,lu!r 0 n an hone/ re=m]1 because1 hav+ />t$ to re=m inside ! ,*ur* & z a ,ca?olic1 he f9i%$ by leav+ ! ,*ur* & !re=e ! real "w ( re=m4 ,at ! outset ,fa!r ,heck] prov$ t ,lu!r 0 b "o1 & by no means ! mo/ important "o1 ( ! great body ( ,ca?olic re=m]s ( 8 "t4 ,^! set to "w to rem$y abuses :i* _h gr[n to su* an ext5t z to h become intol]able4 ,! g5u9e re=m]s1 l$ by ! ,popes1 w5t "r on & did re=m ! ,*ur* mo/ ?or\ghly1 end+ by ! decrees ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t4 ,all ?is ! lectur] prov$ by citations f num]\s high au?orities1 all ( !m ,prote/ants4 ,:y did ,lu!r leave ! company ( ! true re=m]s8 or1 z ,fa!r ,heck] puts x1 ,:y did ,lu!r *ange 8 base8 ,:atev] reason he _h = leav+ ,ca?olicity1 x 0 n1 z a matt] ( fact1 on acc\nt ( zeal = re=m4 ,! lecture conclud$ by emphatically &1 9 diff]5t t]ms1 repeat$ly d5y+ to ,lu!r ! "n ( ,re=m] & to 8 "w ! "n ( ,re=mation4 ,su* 0 ! l9e ( argum5t 9 a lecture :i* ent]ta9$ ! g5]al public & enrag$ bigot$ ,prote/ants m1 p]haps1 ?an any ( ! o!rs4 ,! secret ( its success 0 t x ov]turn$ ! great ,prote/ant idol4 ,) humanit>ians1 rationali/s1 indiff]5ti/s1 & sceptics ,fa!r ,heck]'s lectures 7 popul>1 & su* 7 8 favorite audi5ce4 ,if he s mu* z ar\s$ _! curiosity ab\t ! ,*ur*1 he deem$ t he _h ga9$ a victory2 ?is & m ?an ?is he always succe$$ 9 do+4 ,regul> *ur* memb]s he did n hope mu* f1 ?\gh !y came to he> him & he sometimes made conv]ts ev5 among !m4 ,! lecture sy/em1 !n f> m 9 vogue ?an at pres5t1 gave him he>]s f all classes ( m9ds1 & especially ^? mo/ intellectually re/less & inquir+4 ,he took 8 turn 9 ! li/ :i* conta9$ ! names ( ,w5dell ,phillips1 ,bee*]1 ,em]son1 & ,sumn]1 & f\nd 8 gold5 opportunity be=e su* audi5ces z _h be5 ga!r$ to li/5 to !m4 ,?us into ! drifts ( ?\ght & into ! intellectual movem5ts ar\nd him1 into ! daily & p]iodical press1 into ! social & political & sci5tific gr\p+s ( m5 & wom51 8 lectures enabl$ him to brea! ! p]emptory call ( ! true religion1 sure to provoke inquiry 9 all active m9ds1 & 9 "s to f9d good soil & be> ! h>ve/ ( conv]sion4 ,he se>*$ = e>ne/ s\ls2 & 8 confid5ce t !y 7 ev]y:]e to be f\nd 0 rew>d$ n only 9 _m p>ticul> in/ances1 b also by ! removal ( mu* prejudice ?r\gh\t ! entire c\ntry4 ,! writ] ( ^! pages saw ,fa!r ,heck] = ! fir/ "t on ! lecture plat=m4 ,he 0 !n 9 ! full tide ( success1 consci\s ( 8 opportunity & ( 8 p[] to pr(it by x4 ,we nev] c =get h[ di/9ctly ,am]ican 0 ! impression ( 8 p]sonality4 ,we _h he>d ! nation's greate/ m5 !n liv+1 & _! type 0 too famili> to be successfully c\nt]feit$4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 s pla9ly a great man ( t type1 s evid5tly an outgr[? ( our in/itutions1 t he /amp$ ,am]ican on e ,ca?olic argum5t he propos$4 ,nor 0 ! =ce ( ?is peculi> impression less5$ by ! :isp]$ grumbl+s ( a few petty m9ds among ,ca?olics !mselves1 to :om ?is apo/olic trait 0 cause = suspicion4 ,nev] 0 a man m ,ca?olic ?an ,fa!r ,heck]1 simply1 calmly1 joyfully1 entirely ,ca?olic4 ,:at bett] pro( ( ?is ?an ! rage into :i* 8 lectures & writ+s ?rew ! outright enemies ( ! ,*ur*8 ,grave m9i/]s lo/ _! balance & foam$ at him z a trick/] & a hypocrite1 all ! worse because d\ble-dy$ ) pret5ce ( love ( c\ntry4 ,= ! ,prote/ant pulpits felt ! %ock & /orm$ 9 unison aga9/ ?is new exposition ( ,ca?olicity & aga9/ its repres5tative4 ,9 "s cases1 n cont5t ) "o onslaught1 !y return$ to ! *>ge ,sunday aft] ,sunday4 ,all ?is 0 n unexpect$4 ,! secul> press1 h[ev]1 7 v g5]ally favorable 9 _! notices1 except+ "s ( ! ,bo/on dailies4 ,z a rule1 ! lectures 7 v fully report$ & sometimes appe>$ ^w = ^w4 ,to reply to "o's assailants aft] "o has left ! field ( battle is no easy matt]1 & = ! mo/ "p ,fa!r ,heck] tru/$ = ?is to local *ampions ( ,ca?olicity2 & n 9 va94 ,b x happ5$ on "o occasion t aft] he _h lectur$ 9 a l>ge t[n 9 ,mi*igan1 & _h j\rney$ on to fulfil engagem5ts f>!r ,we/1 he 0 attack$ 9 a public hall by a m9i/] ( ! place4 ,on 8 return ,ea/ ,fa!r ,heck] /opp$ ov] & gave ano!r lecture 9 ! t[n1 & n only refut$ ! m9i/] b cov]$ him ) ridicule4 ,9 fact !re 0 no great ne$ ( def5ce ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s argum5ts1 !y 7 s simply true & s readily und]/ood4 ,n "o ( 8 antagoni/s comp>$ well ) him = frankness1 good humor1 c\rtesy2 & !y almo/ inv>iably %irk$ ! issue & conf9$ !mselves to /ale calumnies aga9/ ! ,*ur*4 ,at ,ann ,arbor1 ,mi*igan1 ,fa!r ,heck] lectur$ 9 ! ,me?odi/ meet+-h\se1 !n ! l>ge/ hall 9 ! t[n4 ,! ,mi*igan ,/ate ,univ]sity1 at ?is t[n1 _h at ! "t ab\t sev5 hundr$ /ud5ts1 ne>ly all ( :om came to ! lecture4 ,! subject *os5 0 ,lu!r & ! ,re=mation4 ,z x 0 ann\nc$1 ! audi5ce l\dly applaud$ ,lu!r's "n1 & "s "o call$ = ?ree *e]s = him1 :i* 7 giv5 vocif]\sly1 especially by ! /ud5ts4 ,fa!r ,heck] smil$1 wait$ till ! noise 0 ov]1 !n bade !m give him a fair he>+2 :i*1 ( c\rse1 !y did4 ,be=e he _h conclud$1 8 audi5ce seem$ won to 8 view ( ! "q 9 h&1 & %[$ x by ! names & ! s5tim5ts applaud$4 ,at ! end "s "o call$ out ,?ree *e]s = ,fa!r ,heck]6 & !y 7 giv5 mo/ he>tily4 ,!re seems no?+ l a new discov]y1 z we h already said1 9 ,fa!r ,heck]'s controv]sial matt]1 or ev5 9 ! me?od ( its treatm5t4 ,b jo9$ ) its expon5t1 bl5d$ into 8 p]sonality1 z x 01 by ! s9c]ity ( 8 conviction1 x 0 a discov]y2 flavor$ & t9ctur$ by him1 ?is wayside f\nta9 _h a new life-giv+ p[] to bo? ,ca?olics & non-,ca?olics4 ,bi%ops1 prie/s1 & ,ca?olic m5 & wom5 9 ! _w he>d him ) mute att5tion4 ,"s ,ca?olics1 x is true1 7 /unn$ by 8 bold h&l+ ( ^? traditional t\*-me-nots ( cons]vatism--reason & lib]ty2 & su* drew (f suspici\s4 ,b multitudes ( ,ca?olics felt t he op5$ up to full view ! dim vi/as ( tru? t[>ds :i* !y _h long be5 grop+2 ^! c\ld agree ) him )\t an ef=t4 ,a few _h rea*$ 8 /&-po9t be=e !y knew him1 & hail$ ) rapture ! lead] :o1 unlike !mselves1 0 n kept back by ei!r dread ( novel-s\nd+ t]ms or by ! impot5cy ( private /ation4 ,b "h & !re he met ,ca?olics z dead-set aga9/ him z ! ,judaiz+ conv]ts _h be5 aga9/ 8 patron1 ,/4 ,paul4 ,_! only love 0 = antiquity1 & t !y lov$ passionately & 9 all its =ms1 ev5 ! neo-antiquity ( ! controv]sy ( ! ,re=mation era4 ,on ! o!r h& _m1 :5 !y he>d him1 said1 ,t is ! k9d ( ,ca?olic ,i am1 & ! only k9d x is easy = me to be4 ,non-,ca?olics1 e>ne/ m5 & wom51 7 (t5 he>d to say1 ,if ,i 7 q sure t ,heck] is a g5u9e ,roman ,ca?olic ,i ?9k t ,i c\ld be "o myself2 & ?is "s ( !m did n hesitate to publi% 9 ! newspap]s1 s t ,fa!r ,heck] might h said ) ,job3 ,! e> t he>d me bless$ me1 & ! eye t saw me gave witness to me4 ,fa!r ,heck] felt t he 0 a pione] 9 ?us deal+ ) rationaliz$ ,prote/ants4 ,8 eye 0 quick to see ! signs ( ! break+ up ( dogmatic ,prote/antism1 & he 0 e>ly out among ! va/ intellectual wreckage1 endeavor+ to cat* & t[ into port :at fragm5ts he c\ld ( a sy/em f\nd$ on d\bt & on ! d5ial ( human virtue & human intellig5ce4 ,i want1 he said on "o occasion 9 private1 to op5 ! way to ! ,*ur* to rationali/s4 ,x seems to me to be n[ clos$ up4 ,i feel t ,i am a pione] 9 op5+ & lead+ ! way4 ,i smuggl$ myself into ! ,*ur*1 & s did ,br[nson4 ,& n[ he want$ to aboli% ! cu/om-h\se1 & op5 ! h>bor wide & cle> = ! entrance into ! ,*ur* ( all m5 :o _h be5 =c$ back on reason alone = guidance4 ,! words above italicis$ 7 utt]$ ) p[]ful emphasis & ) mu* feel+4 ,he quot$ ! foll[+ say+ ( ,ozanam ) emphatic approval3 ,:at ! age ne$s is an intellectual crusade2 & he affirm$ t ,leo ,,xiii4 _h done v mu* to aid u 9 prea*+ x1 & t ,pius ,,ix41 rightly und]/ood1 _h l$ ! way to x4 ,! ,ca?olics ,i w\ld help ) my left h&1 ! ,prote/ants ) my "r h&1 he once said4 ,& non-,ca?olics1 all b ! bigots1 lik$ him1 = he 0 frank & true by e te/4 ,he 0 nei!r an exotic nor a hybrid1 & !y felt at home ) him4 ,he mu* resembl$ ! be/ type ( public m5 9 ,am]ica :o h a*iev$ fame at ! b> or 9 politics2 inde$1 z we h already intimat$1 he really belong$ to t type1 = all 8 /udies & all 8 tra9+ 9 ! ,ca?olic s*ools & conv5ts1 :i* _h giv5 him m & m ( tru?1 m & m ( ! grace ( ,god1 _h n *ang$ ! k9d or type ( man to :i* he belong$4 ,he 0 ! same "* z :5 he h>angu$ ! ,sev5? ,w>d vot]s1 or discuss$ ! ,div9e ,transc5d5ce at ,brook ,f>m4 ,s*ola/ic tru? sank deep into 8 s\l1 b s*ola/ic me?ods /uck on ! surface & !n dropp$ away4 ,& ,david hav+ gird$ 8 sword ^u 8 armor began to try if he c\ld walk 9 armor1 = he 0 n accu/om$ to x4 ,& ,david said to ,saul1 ,i _c g ?us1 = ,i am n us$ to x4 ,& he laid !m (f4 ,& he took 8 /aff :i* he _h always 9 8 h&s1 & *ose him five smoo? /ones out ( ! brook4 ,if 8 duties 9 ! ,pauli/ community & p>i% _h all[$1 ,fa!r ,heck] c\ld h lectur$ to l>ge audi5ces dur+ ! great] "p ( ! ye>1 & be5 well paid = 8 labor4 ,he soon became ! =emo/ expon5t ( ,ca?olicity on ! public plat=m 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,f ! close ( ! w> till 8 heal? gave way 9 #ahgb he 0 mu* s\ght aft] = lectures1 & spoke 9 ! diff]5t cities & v _m ( ! l>ge t[ns1 besides be+ oblig$ to refuse num]\s applications1 con/antly com+ 9 f all p>ts ( ! ,union & f all sorts ( societies1 secul>1 ,ca?olic1 & ev5 di/9ctly ,prote/ant4 ,meantime he 0 frequ5tly call$ on to prea* on su* occasions z ! lay+ ( corn]-/ones ( *ur*es & _! d$ications4 ,he also gave "o ( ! s]mons prea*$ be=e ! ,second ,pl5>y ,c\ncil ( ,baltimore4 ,! foll[+ is ! introductory p>agraph ( a long "* sket* ( ,fa!r ,heck] f ! p5 ( ,james ,p>ton1 ! hi/orian4 ,x is tak5 f an article entitl$ ,our ,roman ,ca?olic ,bre?r51 publi%$ 9 ! ,atlantic ,mon?ly = ,april & ,may1 #ahfh4 ,! entire article is full ( admiration = ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* & ( ye>n+ t[>ds h]1 ?\gh writt5 by a typical sceptic ( ?is era3 ,z usual ) !m ,ca?olics x is "o man :o is work+ ?is new & mo/ effective idea ! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society2 b1 z usual ) !m also1 ?is "o man is work+ by & ?r\gh an organization :i* multiplies 8 =ce "o hundr$ times & con/itutes him a p]son ( national importance4 ,read]s :o take note ( ! really important ?+s transpir+ ar\nd !m w "k at once t ! individual ref]r$ to is ,fa!r ,heck]1 ,sup]ior ( ! ,community ( ! ,pauli/s1 9 ,new ,york4 4 4 4 ,x is he ,fa!r ,heck] :o is putt+ ,am]ican ma*9]y into ! anci5t ark & gett+ ready to run h] by /eam4 ,"h1 = once1 is a happy man--happy 9 8 fai? & 9 8 "w--sure t 9 spread+ abroad ! k ( ! true ,ca?olic doctr9e he is do+ ! be/ ?+ possible = 8 native l&4 ,a tall1 heal?y-look+1 robu/1 h&some1 *e]ful g5tleman ( =ty-five1 end[$ ) a p>ticul> tal5t = w9n+ confid5ce & reg>d1 :i* tal5t has be5 improv$ by _m ye>s ( active ex]cise4 ,x is a p>ticul> pleasure to meet ) any "o1 at su* a "t z ?is1 ^: "w p]fectly satisfies 8 consci5ce1 8 b5evol5ce1 & 8 pride1 & :o is do+ t "w 9 ! mo/ favorable circum/ances1 & ) ! be/ co-op]ation4 ,imag9e a b5evol5t physician 9 a popul\s hospital1 :o has 9 8 (fice ! m$ic9e :i* he is p]fectly c]ta9 w cure or mitigate e case1 provid$ only he c get x tak51 & :o is surr\nd$ ) a corps ( able & zeal\s assi/ants to aid him 9 p]suad+ ! pati5ts to take x6 ,mr4 ,p>ton hav+ giv5 u a picture ( ,fa!r ,heck] z he appe>$ to ,prote/ants1 ! foll[+ exhibits him z ,ca?olics saw him4 ,x is an extract f ,fa!r ,lockh>t's clev] book1 ,! ,old ,religion2 ! orig9al ( ,fa!r ,dilke is ,fa!r ,heck]3 ,! day aft] our la/ conv]sation1 hav+ an introduction to ! ,sup]ior ( ! ---- ,fa!rs 9 ,new ,york1 my fri5ds agre$ to accompany me4 ,i 0 p>ticul>ly glad ( ?is because ,fa!r ,dilke 0 "o ( ! mo/ rem>kable m5 ( our ,*ur* 9 ! ,/ates4 ,himself a conv]t1 & a man ( l>ge views & great sympa?ies1 no "o 0 bett] able to ent] into ! scruples & difficulties ( religi\s ,prote/ants on _! fir/ contact ) ,ca?olic doctr9es & ,ca?olic wor%ip4 ,on s5d+ 9 our names we _h n long to wait 9 ! gue/-room be=e ! good fa!r made 8 appe>ance4 ,!re 0 a /amp ( orig9ality ab\t him2 tall 9 /ature1 n exactly :at we are us$ to call cl]ical 9 appe>ance1 ) a ?or\ghly ,am]ican type ( face1 & ) ! national peak$ be>d in/ead ( be+ closely %av5 z is ! cu/om ) our cl]gy g5]ally4 ,i _h met him be=e1 )\t 8 cl]ical 7religi\s7 g>b1 on a j\rney on bo>d a /eamboat4 ,at fir/1 ,i rememb]1 ,i _h set him d[n z a ,yankee skipp] or trad] ( "s sort2 b :5 by *ance we got into conv]sation1 ,i f\nd him a h>d-head$ man1 %rewd1 orig9al1 & e>ne/ 9 8 rem>ks2 b :5 our conv]sation turn$ to religi\s topics1 & got animat$1 ,i %all nev] =get h[ all t 0 common & national 9 8 physique disappe>$4 ,& :5 he spoke ( ! my/]y ( ,god's love = man1 8 c\nt5ance seem$ z x 7 transfigur$1 s t ,i felt t an arti/ w\ld n wi% = a bett] liv+ model f :i* to pa9t a ,/4 ,francis ,xavi]1 mak+ himself all ?+s to all m5 amid/ 8 %ipmates on 8 voyage to ! ,indies4 ,f :at has be5 said ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s aptitude to w9 non-,ca?olics to he> & believe him1 x %\ld n be ?\ght t 9 ord] to d s he 0 oblig$ to leave (f any sign ( 8 prie/ly "*4 ,he 0 di/9ctly prie/ly 9 8 demeanor1 ?\gh1 z already obs]v$1 n exactly :at "o w\ld call a ?or\gh ecclesia/ic4 ,he ev] dress$ sob]ly4 ,:5 he arriv$ at a t[n on a lecture t\r he always put up at ! h\se ( ! resid5t prie/1 if !re 0 "o1 &1 if he /ay$ ov] ,sunday1 prea*$ = him at ,high ,mass4 ,he inv>iably correspond$ be=eh& ) ! pa/or ( ! t[n to :i* he 0 invit$ by a secul> lecture society1 reque/+ him to s5d complim5t>y tickets to ! lead+ m5 ( ! place--lawy]s1 doctors1 m9i/]s1 m]*ants1 & politicians4 ,& :5 he appe>$ on ! plat=m x 0 always 9 company ) ! prie/4 ,he lov$ prie/s ) all 8 might & 0 ev] at home 9 _! company4 ,x is n v s+ul>1 !re=e1 t "s ( 8 mo/ devot$ fri5ds & mo/ ard5t admir]s 7 prie/s1 secul> & religi\s1 born & br$ 9 ! ,old ,_w--among !m "s ( ! mo/ prom95t cl]gym5 9 ! c\ntry4 ,fa!r ,heck] (t5 met non-,ca?olics 9 private1 be+ s\ght out by prom95t radicals1 sceptics1 unbeliev]s1 & humanit>ians4 ,:at !y _h he>d f him 9 public lectures1 or read ( him 9 ! press1 drew !m to him1 or !y 7 br\ght to see him by mutual fri5ds4 ,& "h he 0 inde$ p[]ful1 ov]be>+ resi/ance by ! /r5g? ( conviction & ! simple exhibition ( ,ca?olic tru?4 ,! sight ( a man any:]e1 :om he c\ld b suspect ( aptitude = 8 views1 0 ! signal = 8 emphatic affirmation ( !m1 sometimes lead+ him to controv]sy bord]+ on ! vocif]\s on c>s & /eamboats4 ,9 su* circum/ances1 & 9 all 8 o!r deal+s ) m51 y saw 8 prompt intellig5ce1 8 f9e s5sibility1 8 l(ty _s1 8 =ceful & occasionally imp]i\s w to hold y to ! po9t2 b ! quality :i*1 bo? 9 public & private disc\rse1 out%one all1 or r gave all light & direction1 0 an imm5se love ( tru? jo9$ to an equal admiration = virtue4 ,,*apt] ,,xxx ,,! ,,apo/olate ,,( ,,! ,,press ,,"o ,sunday =5oon1 happ5+ to cross ,broadway ne> a fa%ionable ,prote/ant *ur*1 we saw ! curb on bo? sides ( ! /reet l9$ ) c>riages1 & ! coa*m5 & footm5 all read+ ! morn+ pap]s4 ,! ri* ma/] & 8 family 7 9 ! s(tly-cu%ion$ pews indoors1 :ile _! s]vants /udi$ ! news ( ! _w & wor%ipp$ at ! %r9e ( ! ,press outside3 a spectacle sugge/ive ( _m ?+s to ! social re=m]4 ,b to a religi\s m9d x 0 an invitation to ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press4 ,! ,philips ( our day c evangelize ! r\gh *>iote] by means ( ! writt5 ^w z easily z !y c 8 cultur$ ma/]4 ,to ,fa!r ,heck] ! ,press 0 ! highe/ opportunity = religion4 ,! only t]m ( comp>ison = x is "s elem5t ( nature l sunlight or ! atmosph]e4 ,9 ! ,press civiliz$ ,man lives & brea!s4 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 z alive to ! injury done to humanity by bad read+ z a skilful physician is to ! mal>ia :i* he c smell & fairly ta/e 9 an infect$ atmosph]e2 & he ev] /rove to make ! ,press a means ( enlight5m5t & virtue4 ,he began to write = publication almo/ imm$iately aft] 8 arrival 9 ,am]ica z a ,r$emptori/ mission>y2 ! ,que/ions ( ! ,s\l & ! ,aspirations ( ,nature 7 compos$ amid/ mo/ absorb+ occupations betwe5 #ahec & #aheh4 ,?r\gh\t life he 0 ev] ask+ himself & o!rs h[ ! ,press c\ld be cleans$1 & h[ its ,apo/olate c\ld be inaugurat$4 ,to ?is end he 0 ready to devote all 8 ef=ts1 & exp5d all 8 res\rces & ^? ( ! community ( :i* he 0 ! f\nd]4 ,x is true t no man ( 8 "t 0 bett] aw>e ( ! p[] ( ! spok5 ^w1 & few 7 m compet5t to use x1 ! natural & ,p5teco/al vehicle ( ! ,holy ,_s to m5's s\ls4 ,b he also felt t ! provid5ce ( ,god1 9 mak+ ! ,press ( our day an artificial m$ium ( human int]c\rse m univ]sal ?an ! liv+ voice itself1 _h po9t$ x out z a necess>y adjunct to ! oral prea*+ ( ! tru?4 ,he 0 conv9c$ t religion %\ld make ! ,press its own4 ,he w\ld n look ^u x z an extraord9>y aid1 b ma9ta9$ t ! ord9>y provision ( ,*ri/ian in/ruction = ! p %\ld ev] be two-fold1 by spee* & by pr9t3 nei!r ! ,prea*] )\t ! ,press nor ! ,press )\t ! ,prea*]4 ,he 0 he>d to say t 9 read+ ,montalemb]t's ,monks ( ! ,we/ he _h be5 /ruck ) ! au?or's eloqu5t apo/rophe to ! spade1 ! in/rum5t ( civilization & ,*ri/ianity = ! wild hordes ( ! e>ly middle ages4 ,mu* r1 he said1 %\ld we wor%ip ! ,press z ! m$ium ( ! light ( ,god to all mank9d4 ,he felt t ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press might well absorb ! ext]nal vocation ( ! mo/ active fri5ds ( religion4 ,9 ! ,press he f\nd a di/9ct sugge/ion f above ( a *ange ( me?ods = elevat+ m5 to tru? & virtue4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahgj1 :ile on 8 way home f ! ,vatican ,c\ncil1 he wrote to ,fa!r ,de%on f ,assisi3 ,i felt z if ,i w\ld l to h peopl$ t gr& & empty conv5t ) inspir$ m5 & pr9t+-presses4 ,= evid5tly ! special battle-field ( attack & def5ce ( tru? = half a c5tury to come is ! pr9t+-press4 ,he believ$ 9 types z he believ$ 9 pulpits4 ,he believ$ t ! pr9t+-(fice 0 necess>y to ! conv5t4 ,to him ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press meant ! l>ge/ am\nt ( tru? to ! greate/ numb] ( p4 ,by its means a small b& ( p[]ful m5 c\ld rea* an entire nation & elevate its religi\s life4 ,?is be+ und]/ood1 "o is n surpris$ at ! ext5t ( 8 plans = ?is ,apo/olate4 ,he 0 nev] able to c>ry !m out fully4 ,n till "s ye>s aft] ! f\nd+ ( ! community c\ld he make a fair beg9n+1 al?\gh ! fir/ volume ( ! ,pauli/ ,s]mons appe>$ 9 #ahfa4 ,delays 7 inevitable f ! difficulties incid5t to ! op5+ ( ! h\se & *ur* 9 ,fifty-n9? ,/reet1 & ^! 7 aggravat$ by ! w>1 :i* = ov] f\r ye>s br$ su* int5se excitem5t z to int]f]e ) any /rong g5]al int]e/ 9 matt]s o!r ?an political4 ,b ! v mon? x end$1 9 ,april1 #ahfe1 ,fa!r ,heck] />t$ ,! ,ca?olic ,_w4 ,its purpose 0 to speak = religion 9 high-grade p]iodical lit]ature4 ,! ye> foll[+ he f\nd$ ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society1 ) ! purpose ( direct+ ! entire res\rces ( ! ,press into a mission>y apo/olate4 ,9 #ahgj he began ,! ,"y ,ca?olic4 ,9 lit]>y m]it & 9 illu/rations x equall$ any ( ! juv5ile publications ( t p]iod1 & 0 ! pione] ( all ! ,ca?olic j\rnals 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates int5d$ = *ildr54 ,& f9ally1 9 #ahga1 he project$ ! e/abli%m5t ( a fir/-class ,ca?olic daily1 secur+ )9 a ye> subscriptions = m ?an half ! money necess>y = ! purpose1 :5 ! "w 0 arre/$ by ! f9al break+ d[n ( 8 heal?4 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w 0 consid]$ a haz>d\s v5ture4 ,at ! "t x 0 propos$1 su* mode/ attempts at ,ca?olic mon?lies z _h /ruggl$ into life _h long ceas$ to exi/4 ,! public = su* a magaz9e seem$ to be small4 ,! prie/hood _h little leisure = read+1 be+ h>dly suffici5t 9 numb] = _! mo/ ess5tial duties2 ! educat$ laym5 7 n num]\s1 nor rem>kable = activity ( m9d 9 matt]s ( religion2 ne>ly ! entire ,*ur* ( ,am]ica 0 =eign by bir? or p>5tage1 & belong$ to ! toil+ masses ( ! p3 n _m ri*1 n _m noble4 ,&1 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ask$1 :om are y go+ to get to write = ! magaz9e8 ,h[ _m ,ca?olic lit]>y m5 & wom5 d y "k (8 ,prud5ce1 !re=e1 /ood sponsor to c\rage4 ,! cauti\s policy ( an eclectic 0 adopt$1 & = m ?an a ye> ! magaz9e1 ) ! exception ( its book reviews1 0 made up ( selections & translations f =eign p]iodicals4 ,! late ,john ,r4 ,g4 ,hass>d1 :o _h already succe$$ z a j\rnali/1 0 *os5 by ,fa!r ,heck] z 8 assi/ant 9 ! editorial "w4 ,ef=ts 7 at once made to secure orig9al articles2 b be=e ! magaz9e 0 fill$ by !m ?ree or f\r ye>s 7 sp5t 9 urg5t solicit+1 9 v elaborate sub-edit+ ( ,,mss41 & 9 reliance on ! /eady assi/ance ( ! p5s ( ! ,pauli/ ,fa!rs4 ,z a comp5sation1 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w has introduc$ to ! public _m ( our be/ writ]s1 & fir/ & la/ has br\ght our able/ m9ds on bo? sides ( ! wat] into contact ) ! mo/ intellig5t ,ca?olics 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,all ?r\gh its c>e] x has repres5t$ ,ca?olic tru? be=e ! ,am]ican public 9 su* wise z to comm& respect1 & has br\ght ab\t ! conv]sion ( _m ( its non-,ca?olic read]s4 ,s9ce its beg9n+ x has be5 =c$ to hold its own aga9/ ! claims ( n unwelcome rivals1 & aga9/ ! almo/ ov]:elm+ attractions ( ! great illu/rat$ secul> mon?lies1 to say no?+ ( ! vicissitudes ( ! bus9ess _w2 & x has succe$$ 9 do+ s1 ,fa!r ,heck]'s purpose 9 e/abli%+ x has be5 realiz$1 = x has ev] be5 a fir/-rate ,ca?olic mon?ly ( g5]al lit]ature1 hold+ an equal place ) simil> publications 9 ! _w ( lett]s4 ,he 0 its editor-9-*ief till ! "t ( 8 dea?1 except dur+ ?ree ye>s ( illness & abs5ce 9 ,europe4 ,he conduct$ x s z to occupy mu* ( ! field op5 to ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press1 giv+ solid doctr9e 9 =m ( controv]sy1 & discuss+ su* religi\s tru?s z 7 ( curr5t int]e/4 ,he kept its read]s in=m$ ( ! *angeful moods ( non-,ca?olic ?\ght1 & furni%$ !m ) %ort /udies ( in/ructive eras & p]sonages 9 hi/ory4 ,^! grav] topics h be5 float$ along by contributions ( a light] k9d1 by good fiction & consci5ti\s lit]>y criticism4 ,meantime1 ! social problems :i* _h p]plex$ ,fa!r ,heck] himself 9 8 e>ly life1 h caught ! att5tion ( ! sl[] m9ds ( av]age m51 or r h be5 ?ru/ ^u !m2 & _! consid]ation1 ev] 9 8 own sympa!tic _s1 n[ =ms a prom95t feature ( ,! ,ca?olic ,_w4 ,! ,"y ,ca?olic 0 an ent]prise de> to 8 he>t4 ,8 int]e/ 9 x 0 con/ant & m9ute1 & "s ( ! articles mo/ popul> ) its "y con/itu5cy 7 f 8 own p54 ,x has always be5 edit$ by ,mrs4 ,george ,v4 ,heck]1 assi/$ by a small circle ( zeal\s & enlight5$ writ]s4 ,x has held its way1 b has _h to enc\nt] ! n unusual fate ( bold pione]s4 ,x creat$ its own rivals by demon/rat+ ! possibilities ( juv5ile ,ca?olic j\rnalism1 call+ into exi/5ce m ?an a score ( claimants = ! support :i* x alone at fir/ solicit$4 ,! l[e/ e/imate ( juv5ile publications ( a purely secul> tone ye>ly sold 9 ,am]ica c>ries ! figure f> into ! millions4 ,"s ( ^!1 & x is well to "k t !y are ! mo/ widely sold1 are fir/-rate 9 a lit]>y po9t ( view & employ ! be/ arti/s = ! pictures4 ,to say t !y are secul> b feebly expresses ! totally unmoral influ5ce !y = ! mo/ "p ex]t4 ,!y are ! ext5sion ( ! unreligi\s s*ool into ! homes ( ! p4 ,:5 ,fa!r ,heck] & ,mrs4 ,george ,v4 ,heck] & _! associates began ,! ,"y ,ca?olic1 ?is va/ mirage ( ! des]t ( life _h b glimm]$ ^u ! di/ant horizon2 !y saw x com+ & !y did _! be/ to po9t ,ca?olic y\? away f x & lead x to ! real oasis ( ,god1 ) its grateful %ade1 its delici\s fruits1 & its ev]-fl[+ spr+s ( ! wat]s ( life4 ,z already said1 ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society 0 begun a ye> aft] ,! ,ca?olic ,_w 0 />t$1 its aim be+ to turn to ! good ( religion1 & especially to ! conv]sion ( non-,ca?olics1 all ! uses ! press is capable (4 ,x 0 a mission>y "w 9 ! broade/ s5se seek+ to enli/ n only ! cl]gy b especially ! laity 9 an organiz$ ,apo/olate ( ! ,press1 to enlight5 ! fai? ( ,ca?olics & to spread x among _! ,prote/ant fell[-citiz5s4 ,its fir/ "w 0 to be ! issu+ ( tracts & pamphlets tell+ ! pla9 tru? ab\t ! ,ca?olic religion4 ,local societies1 to be e/abli%$ ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry1 7 to buy ^! publications at a price less ?an co/1 & di/ribute !m gratis to all classes likely to be b5efit$4 ,to cat* ! eye ( ! ,am]ican p1 to affect _! he>ts1 to supply _! religi\s wants ) ,ca?olic tru?1 7 objects kept 9 view 9 prep>+ ! tracts4 ,al?\gh "s ( !m 7 address$ to ,ca?olics1 en=c+ important religi\s duties1 ne>ly all ( !m 7 controv]sial4 ,m ?an sev5ty diff]5t tracts 7 pr9t$ fir/ & la/1 & _m hundr$s ( ?\s&s1 inde$ sev]al millions1 ( !m di/ribut$ 9 all p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 public1 *>itable1 & p5al in/itutions be+1 ( c\rse1 fair field = ?is "w4 ,!y 7 all v brief1 few ( !m cov]+ m ?an f\r small-siz$ pages4 ,?ree pages ( tru? h be=e n[ ov]turn$ a life-"t ( error1 said ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,! tract ,is x ,hone/8 ?\gh only f\r pages ( l>ge type1 or ab\t twelve hundr$ words1 creat$ a s5sation ev]y:]e1 & 0 answ]$ by a ,prote/ant m9i/] ) ov] fifty pages ( pr9t$ matt]1 or ab\t fifte5 times m ?an ! tract itself4 ,"o hundr$ ?\s& copies ( ?is tract 7 di/ribut$ 9 ,new ,york ,city alone4 ,x is pr9t$ h]e) z a specim51 bo? z to /yle & matt]1 ( :at "o may call ! aggressive-def5sive tactics 9 ,ca?olic controv]sy3 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to say t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* prohibits ! use ( ! ,bible-- ,:5 anybody :o *ooses c buy z _m z he likes at any ,ca?olic book/ore1 & c see on ! fir/ page ( any "o ( !m ! approbation ( ! ,bi%ops ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 ) ! ,pope at _! head1 enc\rag+ ,ca?olics to read ! ,bible1 9 ^! words3 ,! fai?ful %\ld be excit$ to ! read+ ( ! ,holy ,scriptures1 & t n only = ! ,ca?olics ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 b also = ^? ( ! :ole _w besides8 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to say t ,ca?olics believe t man by 8 own p[] c =give s9--,:5 ! prie/ is reg>d$ by ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* only z ! ag5t ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 act+ by ! p[] delegat$ to him1 accord+ to ^! words1 ,^: s9s y %all =give1 !y are =giv5 !m2 & ^: s9s y %all reta91 !y are reta9$8 7,/4 ,john #bj3bc74 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to repeat ov] & ov] aga9 t ,ca?olics pay ! prie/ to p>don _! s9s--,:5 su* a ?+ is unhe>d ( any:]e 9 ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*--,:5 any transaction ( ! k9d is /igmatiz$ z a griev\s s91 & rank$ along ) murd]1 adult]y1 blasphemy1 etc41 9 e cate*ism & "w on ,ca?olic !ology8 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to p]si/ 9 say+ t ,ca?olics believe _! s9s are =giv5 m]ely by ! confession ( !m to ! prie/1 )\t a true sorr[ = !m1 or a true purpose to quit !m--,:5 e *ild f9ds ! contr>y di/9ctly & cle>ly /at$ 9 ! cate*ism1 :i* he is oblig$ to le>n be=e he c be admitt$ to ! sacram5ts8 ,any hone/ man c v]ify ?is /atem5t by exam9+ any ,ca?olic cate*ism4 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to ass]t t ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* grants any indulg5ce or p]mission to commit s9--,:5 an indulg5ce1 accord+ to h] univ]sally receiv$ doctr9e1 0 nev] dream$ ( by ,ca?olics to imply1 9 any case :atev]1 any p]mission to commit ! lea/ s92 & :5 an indulg5ce has no application :atev] to s9 until aft] s9 has be5 rep5t$ ( & p>don$8 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to accuse ,ca?olics ( putt+ ! ,bless$ ,virg9 or ! ,sa9ts 9 ! place ( ,god or ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/--,:5 ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t decl>es t x is simply useful to ask _! int]cession 9 ord] to obta9 favor f ,god1 ?r\gh 8 ,son1 ,jesus ,*ri/ our ,"l1 :o alone is our ,savi\r & ,r$eem]-- ,:5 ask+ _! pray]s & influ5ce ) ,god is exactly ( ! same nature z :5 ,*ri/ians ask ! pi\s pray]s ( "o ano!r8 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to accuse ,ca?olics ( pay+ div9e wor%ip to images or pictures1 z ! hea!n d--,:5 e ,ca?olic indignantly repudiates any idea ( ! k9d1 & :5 ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t di/9ctly decl>es ! doctr9e ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 9 reg>d to !m to be1 t !re is no div9ity or virtue 9 !m :i* %\ld appe> to claim ! tribute ( "o's v5]ation2 b t all ! honor :i* is paid to !m %all be ref]r$ to ! orig9als :om !y are design$ to repres5t8 7,sess4 #be74 ,,is ,,x ,,hone/ ,to make ^! & _m o!r simil> *>ges aga9/ ,ca?olics-- ,:5 !y dete/ & abhor su* false doctr9es m ?an ^? d :o make !m1 & make !m1 too1 )\t ev] hav+ read a ,ca?olic book1 or tak5 any hone/ means ( asc]ta9+ ! doctr9es :i* ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* really tea*es8 ,rememb] ! comm&m5t ( ,god1 :i* says3 ,?\ %alt n be> false witness aga9/ ?y neighbor4 ,read]1 w\ld y be hone/1 & d no inju/ice8 ,!n exam9e ! doctr9es ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*2 read ! works ( ,ca?olics4 ,see bo? sides4 ,exam9e1 & be fair2 = ,,am]icans ,,love ,,fair ,,play4 ,9 prep>+ ^! little mess5g]s ( tru? e /yle ( writ+ 0 us$1 n>rative1 allegory1 dialogue1 & positive argum5t4 ,!y are z good read+ to-day z :5 fir/ issu$1 & ! volume :i* !y =m may be plac$ 9 an inquir]'s h&s ) excell5t effect4 ,to keep !m ago+ ,fa!r ,heck] laid all 8 fri5ds ( any lit]>y ability "u contribution1 ! s]ies be+ op5$ by ,ar*bi%op ,spald+ ) a tract on ,religi\s ,indiff]5tism4 ,did space p]mit1 an entire li/ ( ! subjects dealt ) might be giv51 & ! read] c\ld ! bett] see h[ !y embrace ! entire controv]sy betwe5 ,ca?olics & ,prote/ants & infidels1 _m ( ! tracts be+ ma/]pieces ( popul> argum5tation4 ,z to ! bus9ess side ( ^! ent]prises1 ,fa!r ,heck] confid$ x to ,mr4 ,lawr5ce ,kehoe1 :o 0 publi%] ( ,! ,ca?olic ,_w & ( ,! ,"y ,ca?olic f _! beg9n+ until ! ,pauli/s became _! own publi%]s1 %ortly be=e ,mr4 ,kehoe's dea?4 ,he 0 plac$ 9 *>ge ( ! ,publication ,society z manag] :5 x 0 />t$1 & s cont9u$ until ! =mation ( ! pres5t firm1 rema9+ !n ! active p>tn] 9 its managem5t4 ,no m ard5t advocate ( a good cause c\ld be desir$ ?an ,lawr5ce ,kehoe4 ,fa!r ,heck] *]i%$ him z a fri5d1 & he 0 8 zeal\s & effici5t ag5t 9 8 entire ,apo/olate ( ! ,press4 ,! purpose ( ! ,publication ,society 0 mission>y1 & ! int5tion 0 t its books1 tracts1 & pamphlets %\ld be ei!r giv5 away or sold at co/ price1 or bel[ x4 ,!re=e x 0 necess>y to secure funds = ! runn+ exp5ses4 ,! read] has se5 t ?is 0 to h be5 done by ! contributions ( subsidi>y societies4 ,to aid 9 ! =mation ( ^! & to solicit contributions 9 money1 circul>s 7 s5t to all ! cl]gy ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,only a few made any practical response4 ,b ! meet+ ( ! ,second ,pl5>y ,c\ncil ( ,baltimore 9 #ahff1 ! same ye> ! ,society 0 f\nd$1 0 opportune4 ,! bi%ops 7 induc$ to take ! matt] up1 & a decree1 ( :i* ! foll[+ is a translation1 0 enact$4 ,aft] speak+ ( ! ne$ ( supply+ ,ca?olic lit]ature at a l[ price ! ,c\ncil proce$s3 ,s9ce a society ) ?is object 9 view1 kn[n z ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society1 has be5 f\nd$ 9 ,new ,york1 & has be5 s f> conduct$ ) comm5dable dilig5ce & ) notable success1 we !re=e consid] x to be entirely wor?y ( ! favor & assi/ance ( prelates & prie/s1 z well z ( ! ,ca?olic p 9 g5]al4 ,t ! :ole c\ntry may ! bett] & m c]ta9ly %>e 9 its advantages1 we advise & exhort ! bi%ops to e/abli% bran*es ( ?is ,society 9 _! dioceses1 by means ( ^: (fic]s ! publications ( ! ,society may be di/ribut$4 ,b z )\t great exp5diture ( money ^! societies _c be kept up & mu/ fail ( success1 ! bi%ops %all !re=e appo9t a ye>ly collection = _! support1 to be tak5 up 9 all ! pr9cipal *ur*es1 or %all make o!r provision = ! same purpose accord+ to _! be/ judgm5t 7,con4 ,pl54 ,balt41 ,sec4 #ejj74 ,f ! ,pa/oral ,lett] ( ! same ,c\ncil we extract ! foll[+3 ,9 connection ) ?is matt] ! ,ca?olic ,press we e>ne/ly recomm5d to ! fai?ful ( our *>ge ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society1 lately e/abli%$ 9 ! city ( ,new ,york by a zeal\s & devot$ cl]gyman4 ,besides ! issu+ ( %ort tracts ) :i* ?is ,society has begun1 & :i* may be usefully employ$ to arre/ ! att5tion ( _m :om nei!r incl9ation nor leisure w all[ to read l>g] works1 ?is ,society contemplates ! publication ( ,ca?olic books1 accord+ z circum/ances may p]mit & ! int]e/s ( religion appe> to require4 ,f ! judgm5t & good ta/e ev9c$ 9 ! composition & selection ( su* tracts & books z h already be5 issu$ by ?is ,society1 we are enc\rag$ to hope t x w be em95tly effective 9 mak+ kn[n ! tru?s ( our holy religion1 & dispell+ ! prejudices :i* are ma9ly ow+ to want ( in=mation on ! "p ( s _m ( our fell[-citiz5s4 ,= ?is x is necess>y t a g5]\s co-op]ation be giv5 bo? by cl]gy & laity to ! und]tak+1 :i* is second to none 9 importance among ! subsidi>y aids :i* ! inv5tions ( mod]n times supply to our m9i/ry = ! diffusion ( ,ca?olic tru?4 ,h[ elat$ ,fa!r ,heck] 0 by ?is action ( ! ,c\ncil1 & h[ ov]-sangu9e1 z ! ev5t prov$1 ( ! future ( ! ,society1 is %[n by ! foll[+ extracts f lett]s to a fri5d3 ,my ef=ts 9 ! rec5t ,c\ncil 7 completely successful1 ow+ to ! _m pray]s (f]$ to ,god--y\rs n ! lea/4 ,c\ld y h se5 ! lett]s f diff]5t qu>t]s1 f good pi\s nuns1 & p]sons lov+ & s]v+ & fe>+ ,god 9 ! _w1 writt5 to me1 & _! writ]s all pray+ & do+ works ( m]cy & mortification = ! purposes ,i _h 9 view1 y c\ld n wond] at my success4 ,god did x4 ,:at is m1 ,i 0 fully consci\s ( ! fact1 & x is ?is t made my great joy4 ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society has ! unanim\s cons5t1 & sympa?y1 & co-op]ation ( ! entire episcopate & cl]gy4 ,e ye> !re is a collection to be tak5 up 9 ! pr9cipal *ur*es = its support4 ,i h drawn an elephant1 b ,i d n feel l ! man :o did n "k :at to d ) him aft] he _h got him4 ,x is good 9 ,god to place me 9 a position 9 :i* ,i c act effici5tly4 ,! disposition t[>ds me is1 ,i "k1 mo/ pleasant & favorable4 ,i h be5 plac$ :]e ,i %all be at lib]ty to act & direct action4 ,quietly pray = me z ! ,holy ,_s may sugge/4 ,on my "p ,i w also seek ! same guidance4 ,h[ good ,god is to give x6 ,! ,c\ncil _h h>dly adj\rn$ :5 x began to be pla9 t 9 legislat+ = ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society ! prelates _h be5 ov]-/imulat$ by ! zeal ( ,ar*bi%op ,spald+ & ! p]sonal influ5ce ( ,fa!r ,heck] himself1 :o 0 pres5t 9 8 capacity ( ,sup]ior ( ! ,pauli/s4 ,he w5t among ! bi%ops & plead$ = ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press ) *>act]i/ic vigor1 & ) 8 usual success4 ,aid$ by ! ar*bi%op1 he lift$ ! ,fa!rs ( ! ,c\ncil = a mom5t above :at 9 _! sob] s5ses !y deem$ ! exclusive duty ( ! h\r4 ,?is 0 to provide *ur*es & prie/s1 & s*ools & s*ool-tea*]s1 = ! p4 ,already f> too num]\s = _! cl]gy1 ! ,ca?olic p 7 increas+ by immigration alone at ! rate ( m ?an a qu>t] ( a million a ye>4 ,e ef=t mu/ be conc5trat$1 x 0 ?\ght1 & e p5ny sp5t1 9 ! va/ "w ( h\s+ & fe$+ ! w&]+ flocks ( ! ,"l4 ,& c]ta9ly ! magnitude ( ! task & ! success atta9$ 9 p]=m+ x c excuse ! indiff]5ce %[n to ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press1 if any?+ c excuse x4 ,b x seem$ o!rwise to ,fa!r ,heck]1 z x does n[ to u4 ,= ! ,ca?olic p c\ld h be5 bett] & e>li] c>$ = 9 _! spiritual conc]ns if furni%$ ) ! abundant supply ( good read+ :i* ! c>ry+ out ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s plan w\ld h giv5 !m1 & t at no great exp5se4 ,:at sub/itute = a prie/ is equal to a good book8 ,:at vocation to ! prie/hood has n f\nd its orig9 9 ! pages ( a good book1 or at any rate be5 fo/]$ by its dev\t lessons8 ,& all hi/ory z well z exp]i5ce proves t ! be/ gu>antee ( ! fai? ( a ,ca?olic1 mov+ amid/ k9dly-dispos$ non-,ca?olic neighbors1 is ! aggressive =ce ( mission>y zeal4 ,! ,publication ,society1 if br\ght into active play1 w\ld h done mu* to create ?is zeal1 & w\ld h suppli$ its be/ arms ( attack & def5ce by an abundance ( free ,ca?olic read+4 ,x w\ld h help$ on e good "w by auxili>y =ces drawn f intellig5t fai? & in/ruct$ zeal4 ,a clos] view ( ! case %[s t antec$5ts ( a racial & social "* among ! p _h some?+ to d ) ! apa?y we h be5 consid]+4 ,to a great degree x /ill re/s ^u u1 ?\gh su* organiz$ ef=ts z ! ,ca?olic ,tru? ,society ( ,/4 ,paul1 ,m9nesota1 & ! ,holy ,gho/ ,society ( ,new ,orleans indicate a *ange = ! bett]4 ,_h ,fa!r ,heck] cont9u$ 9 good heal? !re is a *ance1 ?\gh a desp]ate "o1 t he might h ov]come all ob/acles4 ,_m zeal\s s\ls w\ld h foll[$ 8 lead4 ,z a specim5 we may "n ! ,vic>-,g5]al ( ,san ,francisco1 ,fa!r ,pr5d]ga/1 :o1 ) ! help ( a few e>ne/ fri5ds1 rais$ sev]al ?\s& doll>s 9 gold 9 t diocese alone4 ,b 9 #ahga ,fa!r ,heck]'s /r5g? began to fail1 & 9 ! foll[+ ye> 8 active life 0 done4 ,z already %[n1 x _h be5 ! int5tion to e/abli% bran* societies ev]y:]e1 ^: delegates w\ld regul>ly meet & control ! entire "w1 giv+ ! ,*ur* 9 ,am]ica an approv$1 p[]ful auxili>y dom9antly made up ( laym54 ,9 t s5se ! ,society nev] 0 s mu* z organiz$1 ! numb] ( bran* societies n at any "t w>rant+ su* a /ep z a g5]al meet+ ( _! repres5tatives4 ,! money actually collect$ 0 all sp5t 9 pr9t+ & circulat+ ! tracts & o!r publications giv5 away or sold bel[ co/1 ,fa!r ,heck] & ! ,pauli/s manag+ ! entire "w4 ,:5 ! collections gave out1 ,mr4 ,george ,v4 ,heck] contribut$ a l>ge sum = cont9u+ ! und]tak+4 ,! result 0 8 f9d+ himself 9 ! publi%+ bus9ess1 :i* he 0 compell$ to place z f> z possible on a basis to meet ! curr5t outlay4 ,! ,society1 z f> z its "n w5t1 ?us became a ,ca?olic publi%+ firm1 ) ,mr4 ,heck] ma9ly involv$ f9ancially & ,mr4 ,kehoe 9 *>ge ( ! bus9ess4 ,mr4 ,heck] sunk a small =tune 9 ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press1 mu* ( x dur+ ! h>d times betwe5 #ahgc & #ahgf4 ,! hi/ory ( ! :ole affair is z curi\s z x is in/ructive1 & h5ce we h giv5 a pretty full acc\nt ( x4 ,x weigh$ heavy on ,fa!r ,heck]'s he>t1 ?\gh he a/oni%$ 8 fri5ds by ! equanimity ) :i* he accept$ its failure4 ,8 "w1 if x did n p]i% 9 a night l ! prophet's g\rd1 )]$ quickly into v s+ul> =m & n>r[ proportions4 ,! amazem5t ( ,prote/ant bigots at ! appe>ance ( ! ,ca?olic tracts1 spee*less & clamor\s by turns2 ! quak] guns ( ! ,second ,pl5>y ,c\ncil1 & ! bright dreams ( a vigor\s attack ^u ! enemy all along ! l9e & by all classes ( cl]gy & laity--h[ ,fa!r ,heck] did 9 aft] ye>s discuss ^! topics1 & h[ he did inspire all ab\t him ) 8 own en?usia/ic hopes ( a future & m successful ef=t6 ,:5 he w5t to ,europe 9 #ahgc1 too feeble to hope = recov]y1 leav+ ! ent]prise beh9d him 9 ! same condition z 8 own brok5 heal?1 h[ unmurmur+ 0 8 submission to ! ,div9e & human wills :i* _h br\ght all to naught6 ,n m ?an a few words ne$ be said ( 8 und]tak+ to buy a ,new ,york daily pap]4 ,x happ5$ t 9 #ahga a prom95t j\rnal1 a memb] ( ! ,associat$ ,press1 c\ld be b\ght = ?ree hundr$ ?\s& doll>s4 ,9 an in/ant1 z x seems1 ,fa!r ,heck] grasp$ ! opportunity4 ,by p]sonal appeals to ! ri* m5 ( ! city m ?an half ! sum requir$ 0 subscrib$1 ,ar*bi%op ,mc,closkey head+ ! li/ ) a l>ge am\nt4 ,b soon ! doctors _h to be call$ 91 & ! ent]prise w5t no fur!r4 ,h[ ,fa!r ,heck] appe>$ to m5 :5 advocat+ ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press1 & h[ he spread ! =ceful maje/y ( ,ca?olicity ov] 8 p]sonal surr\nd+s1 is %[n by ,mr4 ,james ,p>ton's words 9 ! article 9 ! ,atlantic ,mon?ly already quot$ f3 ,! special "w ( ?is ! ,pauli/ community is to br+ ! /eam pr9t+-press to be> ^u ! spread ( ! ,ca?olic religion 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,! resi/less mission>y p[] lat5t 9 ! ,*ur* is ?us spok5 ( by ! same writ]3 ,:at a p[]ful eng9e is ?is6 ,suppose ! six able/ & highe/ ,am]icans 7 liv+ ?us1 fre$ f all worldly c>es1 9 an agreeable1 seclud$ abode1 yet ne> ! c5tre ( ?+s1 ) twelve zeal\s1 gift$ "y m5 to help & *e] !m1 a ?\s& organizations 9 ! c\ntry to aid 9 di/ribut+ _! writ+s1 & 9 e t[n a spaci\s edifice & an eag] audi5ce to hang ^u _! lips4 ,:at c\ld !y n effect 9 a lifetime ( well-direct$ "w8 ,:at foll[s1 tak5 f a lett] ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s :ile sick 9 ,europe 9 #ahgd1 %[s "o ( 8 aims 9 ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press4 ,x is sugge/ive ( a result s9ce atta9$1 at lea/ p>tially1 9 m ?an "o religi\s community 9 ,am]ica3 ,monsignor ,m]millod desir$1 e>ly 9 ! fall1 t ,i %\ld see ,canon ,s*ord]et1 ( ?is place ,frib\rg 9 ,switz]l&1 z he 0 engag$ zeal\sly ) ! press4 ,?is 0 "o ( my pr9cipal reasons = visit+ ?is place4 ,my surprise has be5 mo/ gratify+ 9 f9d+ t he has organiz$1 or r begun1 an association ( girls to set types1 etc41 :o live 9 community & labor = ! love ( ,god 9 ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press4 ,he publi%es sev]al newspap]s & j\rnals4 ,! h\se 9 :i* ! memb]s live is also ! /ore & ! publi%+ h\se4 ,ea* girl has h] own room4 ,!y are "u ! patronage ( ,/4 ,paul4 ,! canon is fill$ ) ! idea ( ,/4 ,paul z ! great patron ( ! ,press1 ! fir/ ,*ri/ian j\rnali/4 ,:at has long be5 my dream ( a movem5t ( ?is nature has f\nd "h an incipi5t realization4 ,our views 9 reg>d to ! mission ( ! press1 & ! necessity ( runn+ x = ! spread & def5ce ( ! fai? z a =m ( ,*ri/ian sacrifice 9 our day1 are id5tical4 ,y c easily fancy :at int]e/ & consolation our meet+ & conv]sation mu/ be to ea* o!r4 ,8 movem5t is ! completion ( ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society ( ,new ,york4 ,z !re may be "s curiosity ab\t ,fa!r ,heck]'s pr9ciples z a public writ]1 9 po9t ( view ( ecclesia/ical au?ority1 we give ! foll[+ f a lett] writt5 j be=e ! ,vatican ,c\ncil3 #a4 ,absolute & unsw]v+ loyalty to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 :]ev] & h[ev] express$1 z ,god's au?ority ^u e>? & = all "t4 #b4 ,to seek 9 ! same dispositions ! true _s ( ! ,*ur*1 & be unres]v$ly gov]n$ by x z ! wisdom ( ! ,mo/ ,high4 #c4 ,to keep my m9d & he>t free f all atta*m5ts to s*ools1 p>ties1 or p]sons 9 ! ,*ur*1 ,heck] includ$1 s t no?+ )9 me may h9d] ! light & direction ( ! ,holy ,_s4 #d4 ,9 case any conflict arises conc]n+ :at ,heck] may h spok5 or writt51 or any "w or movem5t 9 :i* he may be engag$1 to re-exam9e4 ,if wrong1 make him retract at once4 ,if n1 !n ask3 ,is ! "q ( t importance t x requires def5ce1 & ! upsett+ ( attacks8 ,if n ( ?is importance1 !n n to delay & p]haps jeop>dize ! progress ( o!r works1 & condemn ,heck] to simple sil5ce4 #e4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! imp]fections1 abuses1 sc&als1 etc41 ( ! human side ( ! ,*ur*1 nev] to all[ myself to ?9k or to express a ^w :i* might seem to place a tru? ( ! ,ca?olic fai? 9 d\bt1 or to savor ( ! _s ( disob$i5ce4 #f4 ,) all ?is 9 view1 to be ! mo/ e>ne/ & ard5t fri5d ( all true progress1 & to "w ) all my might = its promotion ?r\gh exi/+ organizations & au?orities4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxi ,,! ,,vatican ,,c\ncil ,,9 #ahfg ,fa!r ,heck] visit$ ,europe 9 company ) ,fa!r ,hewit = ! purpose ( op5+ bus9ess relations betwe5 ,! ,ca?olic ,publication ,society & ,engli%1 ,iri%1 & ,cont95tal publi%]s1 z well z to att5d ! ,ca?olic ,congress ( ,mal9es held 9 ! summ] ( t ye>4 ,! latt] purpose we ! *ief inducem5t = ! j\rney4 ,! ,ar*bi%op ( ,new ,york favor$ ! project ( hold+ a ,ca?olic ,congress 9 ,am]ica1 & enc\rag$ ,fa!r ,heck] to /udy ! proce$+s at ,mal9es ) ?is end 9 view4 ,_! /ay at ,mal9es 0 full ( in/ruction1 z !y he>d !re ! r5[n$ orators1 ,dupanl\p & ,montalemb]t1 z well z o!rs ( note4 ,! ,ca?olic ,congress ( ,am]ican laym5 held 9 ,baltimore a few ye>s ago1 & ^: good effects are /ill felt1 w\ld h be5 assembl$ tw5ty ye>s e>li] if ,fa!r ,heck] c\ld h br\ght x ab\t4 ,^! meet+s 7 "p ( 8 s*eme = t moral organization ( ,ca?olic =ces :i* he knew to be s necess>y = ! fruitful work+ ( ! (ficial unity ( ! ,*ur*4 ,9 ! e>ly "p ( ! ye> #ahfi ,pius ,,ix4 wrote ,fa!r ,heck] an autograph lett] comm5d+ ! v>i\s religi\s works :i* he & 8 community 7 engag$ 91 especially ! ,apo/olate ( ! ,press1 & giv+ !m all 8 bless+4 ,i h good news to tell y1 he wrote to a fri5d4 ,! ,holy ,fa!r has writt5 me ! 'talle/' k9d ( a lett]1 endors+ e good "w 9 :i* ,i am engag$4 ,hurrah = ,ca?olicity at ,fifty-n9? ,/reet6 ,my private op9ion is t ! ,holy ,fa!r has gone too f> 9 8 endorsem5t ( ,heck]4 ,he has made me feel a%am$ ( myself & humiliat$4 ,:5 ,pius ,,ix4 call$ toge!r ! ,c\ncil ( ! ,vatican ,fa!r ,heck] 0 urg$ by fri5ds1 among !m sev]al bi%ops1 to g to ,rome = ! occasion4 ,! late ,bi%op ,rosecrans1 ( ,columbus1 ,ohio1 n be+ able to att5d himself1 appo9t$ ,fa!r ,heck] 8 ,procurator1 or proxy4 ,be=e 8 dep>ture he prea*$ a s]mon on ! ,c\ncil 9 ! ,pauli/ ,*ur*1 :i* 0 pr9t$ 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w = ,decemb]1 #ahfi4 ,he devot$ ! great] "p ( x to quiet+ ! wild =ebod+s ( timid ,ca?olics & combat+ ! progno/ics ( outright anti-,ca?olics4 ,he conclud$ by ask+ ! p to pray t ! hopes ( a new & bright] era = religion1 to date f ?is great ev5t1 might be fulfill$2 = x 0 commonly believ$ & expressly int5d$ t ! entire /ate ( ! ,*ur* %\ld be consid]$ & legislat$ ^u at ! ,c\ncil4 ,! break+ out ( ! ,franco-,prussian w>1 z is well kn[n1 toge!r ) ! seizure ( ,rome by ! ,pi$montese1 fru/rat$ ^! hopes z to all b ! v fir/ "p ( ! "w laid out = ! ,c\ncil4 ,fa!r ,heck] arriv$ 9 ,rome on ! #bf? ( ,novemb]1 #ahfi4 ,:5 ! prelim9>y bus9ess ( organization _h be5 f9i%$ x 0 ann\nc$ t ! procurators ( abs5t bi%ops w\ld n be admitt$ to ! ,c\ncil1 z ! numb] ( prelates pres5t 9 p]son 0 exce$+ly l>ge4 ,b1 he writes home3 ,! ,ar*bi%op ( ,baltimore has made me 8 !ologian ( 8 own accord4 ,?is gives me ! privilege ( read+ all ! docum5ts ( ! ,c\ncil1 ( kn[+ all t takes place 9 x1 its discussions1 etc4 ,z 8 !ologian ,i take "p 9 ! meet+s & delib]ations ( ! ,am]ican hi]>*y1 :i* is1 z x 71 a p]man5t c\ncil conc]n+ ! int]e/s ( ! ,*ur* 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 9 :i* ,i feel a /rong & special int]e/4 ,fa!r ,heck] _h ev] be5 a firm believ] 9 ! doctr9e ( papal infallibility1 z 0 ! case ) all ,am]ican ,ca?olics1 prelates1 prie/s1 & p4 ,%ortly be=e leav+ = ! ,c\ncil we he>d him say3 ,i h always he>d ! voice ( ,rome z t ( tru? itself4 ,?is he also %[$ v pla9ly 9 8 f>ewell s]mon4 ,speak+ ( ! dread ( undue papal influ5ce ov] ! bi%ops 9 ! ,c\ncil1 he exclaim$3 ,all ,i h to say is1 t if ! ,roman ,c\rt prevail 9 ! delib]ations ( ! ,c\ncil1 x is ! ,holy ,gho/ :o prevails ?r\gh ! ,roman ,c\rt4 ,b ! tone ( ! controv]sy on ! subject ( papal infallibility1 :i* soon deaf5$ ! _w1 0 too %>p = 8 n]ves1 & he ab/a9$ f m+l+ 9 x4 ,z a matt] ( fact he det]m9$ to get away f ,rome e>ly 9 ! spr+ ( #ahgj4 ,if ! read] w\ld "k :at we deem to h be5 ,fa!r ,heck]'s frame ( m9d ab\t ! proce$+s ( ! ,c\ncil we ref] him to ,bi%op ,j4 ,l4 ,spald+'s excell5t life ( 8 uncle1 ! !n ,ar*bi%op ( ,baltimore1 ^: views ( bo? doctr9e & policy 71 z f> z we c judge1 %>$ by ,fa!r ,heck]1 :o 0 8 intimate & belov$ fri5d4 ,b 8 /ay 9 ! ,et]nal ,city1 at ?is "t m ?an ev] be=e ! focus ( all religi\s tru?1 z well z ! object ( all human expectancy1 _h n be5 unev5tful4 ,v mu* aga9/ 8 w he prea*$ "o ( ! s]mons ( ! c\rse giv5 dur+ ! octave ( ! ,epiphany1 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,san ,&rea della ,valle1 & lat] on ano!r1 on an important occasion1 9 place ( ,ar*bi%op ,spald+1 :o _h fall5 ill4 ,mu* ( 8 "t he sp5t ) ! ,am]ican bi%ops & ! di/+ui%$ prie/s :o 7 ) !m2 he r5ew$ ! old-"t fri5d%ips ( 8 /ay 9 ,rome twelve ye>s be=e1 see+ a good deal ( ,ar*bi%op ,connolly1 ( ,halifax1 ,n4 ,s42 he made new fri5ds1 too1 among :om he names especially ,mrs4 ,crav51 ! au?or ( ! ,recit d'une ,soeur2 & he =m$ acqua9tance ) lead+ m5 & wom5 ( all nationalities4 ,!re is n a day passes1 he wrote home1 t ,i d n make ! acqua9tance ( p]sons ( great importance1 or acquire ! k ( matt]s equally important = me to "k2 & ,i ga9 m 9 a day ?an "o c\ld 9 ye>s at o!r times4 ,= we may say t ! intellig5ce1 ! sci5ce & sanctity ( ! ,*ur* are n[ ga!r$ into ?is "o city4 ,yet my he>t is 9 my "w at home4 ,he _h two private audi5ces ) ,pius ,,ix41 :i*1 ?\gh ( c\rse brief1 7 v int]e/+2 ! ,pope rememb]$ him1 & express$ 8 int]e/ 9 him & 8 "w 9 ,am]ica4 ,! foll[+ extracts f lett]s to 8 bro!r ,george1 writt5 v soon aft] rea*+ ,rome1 recall an old fri5d3 ,i d n "k :e!r ,i told y ( my int]view ) ,c>d9al ,b>nabo4 ,he receiv$ me lit]ally ) op5 arms4 ,aft] an h\r's conv]sation on sev]al matt]s he end$ by say+3 ',! affection & e/eem :i* ,i _h = y :5 y 7 "h be=e has be5 increas$ by y\r labors s9ce !n1 & my door is always op5 = y1 & ,i %all always be glad to see y4' ,he ent]ta9s a high idea ( ! importance ( ,! ,ca?olic ,_w4 ,i _h a mo/ pleasant int]view a few ev5+s s9ce ) ,c>d9al ,b>nabo1 he writes 9 ,april1 #ahgj1 %ortly be=e leav+4 ,among o!r ?+s he said3 ',y ought to be grateful to ,god = ?ree reasons3 fir/1 ,he drew y out ( h]esy2 second1 ,he sav$ y f %ipwreck 9 ,rome2 ?ird1 ,he has giv5 y tal5ts1 etc41 to d great ?+s = ,8 ,*ur* 9 y\r c\ntry4' ,he takes great int]e/ 9 ! ,pauli/s4 ,n alone 9 ,rome did he meet ) fri5ds1 b :at foll[s1 writt5 home 9 ,decemb]1 #ahfi1 tells t 8 "n & 8 vocation _h be5 made famili> to _m obs]vant p]sons 9 ,europe3 ,x surprises me to f9d my "n famili> ev]y:]e ,i h be5 on my travels4 ,b magaz9es1 newspap]s1 telegrams1 & :at-n h turn$ ! _w into a :isp]+ gall]y4 ,b ! less a man is kn[n to m5 ! m he kn[s ( ,god2 s x seems to me1 z a rule4 ,yet great activity may fl[ z a consequ5ce ( intimate union ) ,him :om !ologians call ,actus ,purissimus4 ,f ! fact ( 8 be+ kn[n1 ,i ent]ta9 no bett] idea ( ,fa!r ,heck] ?an ,i ev] did2 & c\ld ,i get him aga9 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 he w be m devot$ ?an ev] to 8 "w4 ,fa!r ,heck] gave 8 view ( ! be>+ ( ! ,vatican ,c\ncil on ! future ( religion 9 a lett] :i* w be f\nd bel[4 ,x conc]ns :at we h already spok5 ( at "s l5g? & :at we %all aga9 ref] to1 namely1 ! relation betwe5 ! inn] & out] action ( ! ,holy ,gho/ z factors 9 ! s\l's sanctification4 ,we he>d ,fa!r ,heck] sev]al times affirm t he receiv$ special illum9ation f ,god on ?is subject :ile 9 ,rome dur+ ! ,c\ncil1 & t some?+ l ! v words 9 :i* prop]ly to express himself 7 !n giv5 to him4 ,x 0 writt5 9 ! summ] ( #ahgb1 b we quote x "h be=e bidd+ adieu to ,rome & accompany+ him 9 8 %ort pilgrimage among ! great %r9es ( ,italy3 ,^! two mon?s pa/ ,i h be5 driv5 away f home to "o place & ano!r by poor heal?4 4 4 4 ,! def9ition ( ! ,vatican ,c\ncil completes & fixes = ev] ! ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur* aga9/ ! h]esies & errors ( ! la/ ?ree c5turies4 4 4 4 ,none b ! decl>$ enemies ( ! ,*ur* & misdirect$ ,ca?olics c fail to see 9 ?is ! direct+ influ5ce ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,! ,vatican ,c\ncil has plac$ ! ,*ur* 9 battle array1 unmask$ ! conceal$ batt]ies ( h] enemies2 ! conflict w be on a fair & op5 field1 & x w be decisive4 ,! rec5t ho/ility ( ! gov]nm5ts ( ,europe1 & especially ( ,italy1 aga9/ ! ,*ur*1 has %[n ! wisdom ( ! ,vatican ,c\ncil 9 prep>+ ! ,*ur* to meet ! crisis4 ,! def9ition leaves no long] any d\bt 9 reg>d to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ief ( ! ,*ur*4 ,= my "p ,i s9c]ely ?ank ! ,jesuits = _! influ5ce 9 br++ x ab\t1 ev5 ?\gh t 7 z great z "s p w\ld h u believe4 4 4 4 ,?is _h to be done be=e ! ,*ur* c\ld resume h] normal c\rse ( action4 ,:at is t8 ,:y1 ! div9e ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur* complet$1 fix$ beyond all controv]sy1 h] att5tion & t ( all h] *ildr5 c n[ be turn$ m directly to ! div9e & int]ior au?ority ( ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 ! s\l4 ,! :ole ,*ur* giv+ h] att5tion to ! int]ior inspirations ( ! ,holy ,_s1 w give bir? to h] r5ewal1 & enable h] to reconqu] h] place & true position 9 ,europe & ! :ole _w4 ,= we mu/ nev] =get t ! imm$iate means ( ,*ri/ian p]fection is ! int]ior direction ( ! ,holy ,_s1 :ile ! te/ ( our be+ direct$ by ! ,holy ,_s & n by our fancies & prejudices1 is our filial ob$i5ce to ! div9e ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,if = ?ree c5turies ! mo/ influ5tial s*ools 9 ! ,*ur* gave a prepond]ance 9 _! tea*+ & spiritual direction to ^? virtues :i* are 9 direct relation to ! ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 x mu/ be rememb]$ t ! h]esies ( t p]iod all aim$ at ! de/ruction ( ?is au?ority4 ,! "* ( ?is tea*+1 !re=e1 0 a necessity4 ,!re 0 no o!r way ( pres]v+ ! *ildr5 ( ! ,*ur* f ! dang] ( ?is infection4 ,if ! effect ( ?is tea*+ made ,ca?olics *ildlike1 less manly & active ?an o!rs1 ?is 0 "u ! circum/ances inevitable4 ,! def9ition ( ! ,vatican ,c\ncil1 ?anks to ! ,jesuits1 n[ gives u fre$om to turn our att5tion 9 ano!r direction1 & to cultivat+ o!r virtues4 ,if "o infidel 0 equal to two ,ca?olics 9 c\rage & action 9 ! pa/1 9 ! future "o ,ca?olic1 mov$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 w be equal to half-a-doz5 or a ?\s& infidels & h]etics4 ,! /upid ,doell+]ites d n see or und]/& t :at !y pret5d to desire--! r5ewal ( ! ,*ur*--c only be accompli%$ by ! reign ( ! ,holy ,_s ?r\gh\t ! ,*ur*1 & t ?is c only be br\ght ab\t by a filial submission to h] div9e ext]nal au?ority4 ,in/ead ( _! insane opposition to ! def9ition ( ! ,vatican ,c\ncil & to ! ,jesuits1 ^: influ5ce !y h exagg]at$ beyond all measure1 !y ought to embrace bo? ) en?usiasm1 z op5+ ! door to ! r5ewal ( ! ,*ur* & a bright] & m glori\s future4 4 4 4 ,to my view !re is no o!r way or hope = su* a future4 ,he left ,rome & 8 _m w>m fri5ds !re e>ly 9 ! spr+ ( #ahgj1 &1 z he ?\ght1 = ! la/ "t4 ,he 0 full ( c\rage1 he 0 consci\s ( n only p]fect agreem5t ) e cr$5tial ( or?odoxy1 b ( int]ior impulses ( a m>vell\sly inspir+ k9d4 ,9 a v famili> lett] to 8 bro!r's family he says t j be=e 8 dep>ture1 :ile /&+ 9 "o ( ! great piazzas1 look+ at ! conc\rse ( repres5tatives ( all nations pass+ back & =?1 ga!r$ to take c\nsel ) ! ,vic> ( ,*ri/ = ! well-be+ ( ! human race1 he 0 s exhil>at$ t he c\ld h>dly refra9 f call+ out1 ,?ree *e]s = ,p>adise1 & "o = ! ,unit$ ,/ates6 ,i return ) new hope & fre%] en]gy1 he writes1 = t bett] future = ! ,*ur* & humanity :i* is 9 /ore = bo? 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,?is is ! conviction ( all intellig5t & hopeful m9ds 9 ,europe4 ,!y look to ! o!r side ( ! ,atlantic n only ) great int]e/1 b to cat* ! light :i* w solve ! problems ( ,europe4 ,our c\rse is surely fraught ) ! int]e/s1 hopes1 & happ9ess ( ! race4 ,i nev] felt s mu* l acquitt+ myself z a ,*ri/ian & a man4 ,! convictions :i* h hi!rto direct$ my c\rse h be5 deep5$1 confirm$1 & /r5g!n$ by rec5t exp]i5ce "h1 & ,i return to my c\ntry a bett] ,ca?olic & m an ,am]ican ?an ev]4 ,t he might say ,mass daily & at conv5i5t h\rs :ile 9 ,rome1 cr[d$ z x 0 at ! "t ) bi%ops & prie/s1 he obta9$ leave to d s 9 8 own rooms4 ,he made little pilgrimages to ! great %r9es ( ! ,holy ,city1 especially ^? ( ! ,apo/les & ! typical m>tyrs1 n =gett+1 ( c\rse1 8 favorite mod]n sa9ts1 ,philip ,n]i & ,ignatius ,loyola4 ,! foll[+ are extracts f lett]s home tell+ ( 8 celebration ( ,/4 ,paul's ,conv]sion & ( ! m>tyrdom ( ,/4 ,agnes4 ,! read] w rememb] t ! association ( wom5 "h m5tion$ 0 "o ( 8 e>lie/ ideas1 & "o ( ! _m ^: realization ,provid5ce has giv5 ov]1 let u hope1 to "s s\ls especially favor$ by ,fa!r ,heck]'s gifts3 ,i pray mu* = ea* memb] ( ! community1 & = light to guide x 9 ! way ( ,god4 ,)9 a %ort p]iod mu* light has be5 giv5 to me1 & ! importance ( our "w & its greatness h impress$ me greatly1 m ?an ev] be=e4 ,ye/]day ,i w5t to ! ,basilica ( ,/4 ,paul1 be+ ! fea/ ( 8 conv]sion1 especially to invoke 8 aid4 ,i felt t my visit 0 n 9 va94 4 4 4 ,i =got no "o ( our de> community4 4 4 4 ,on ! #ba/ ,i said ,mass 9 ! catacombs ( ,/4 ,agnes2 x 0 ! day ( h] fea/4 ,m ?an tw5ty p]sons 7 pres5t1 fri5ds & acqua9tances4 ,i gave elev5 communions1 & made a little disc\rse at ! close ( ! ,holy ,sacrifice4 ,! sc5e 0 mo/ solemn & affect+4 ,:at did ,i pray =8 dur+ my ,mass 9 ,/4 ,agnes's ,catacomb4 ,= y all1 especially = ! future4 ,:at future8 ,h[ %all ,i "n x8 ,! association ( wom5 9 our c\ntry to aid ! "w ( ,god ?r\gh ! ,holy ,*ur* = its conv]sion4 ,my convictions become fix$1 & my det]m9ation to beg9 ! ent]prise consecrat$4 ,at ! close ( ! ,mass ,i made a %ort disc\rse4 ,?9k ( x1 prea*+ once m 9 ! ,catacombs1 surr\nd$ ) ! tombs :]e ! m>tyrs are laid & :]e ! voice ( ! m>tyrs _h spok56 ,y c imag9e t ! impression 0 pr(\nd & solemn on u all4 ,x 0 a piece ( foolh>d9ess on my "p to op5 my lips & speak1 :5 ev]y?+ ar\nd u spoke s impressively & solemnly to our heads4 ,i w attempt to int]pret ?is spee*3 ,9 ! days ( ,agnes1 ,*ri/ians 7 call$ ^u to resi/ & conqu] physical p]secution4 ,9 our day we are call$ ^u to ov]come intellectual & social opposition4 ,!y conqu]$6 ,we %all conqu]6 ,agnes tells u !re is no excuse = c[>dice4 ,agnes 0 "y1 ,agnes 0 weak1 ,agnes 0 a girl1 & %e conqu]$6 ,"o ,agnes c conqu] ! opposition ( ! n9ete5? c5tury4 ,su* 9 sub/ance 0 my disc\rse4 ,! :ole sc5e caus$ e "o to be ba!d 9 te>s4 ,aft] leav+ ,rome he w5t /raight to ,assisi1 = ^: sa9t he _h ev] felt a v p[]ful attraction4 ,he ?us describes 8 impressions3 ,! p t ,i h se5 ab\t "h h a mild] c\nt5ance & a m *e]ful look1 m ref9$ & human ?an ! ,italians ar\nd ,rome4 ,!y are to ! o!r ,italians :at ! ,swabians are to ! o!r ,g]mans4 ,x is easy = ! ,m9nes+] ( ! human1 to become ! ,m9nes+] ( ,div9e love4 ,i c\ld h kiss$ ! /ones ( ! /reets ( ! t[n :5 ,i rememb]$ t ,/4 ,francis _h trodd5 ^! same /reets1 & ! love & h]oism :i* beat 9 8 he>t4 4 4 4 ,i said ,holy ,mass at ! tomb ( ,/4 ,francis1 & 9 pres5ce ( 8 body ?is morn+--a votive ,mass ( ! ,sa9t4 ,x seems ,i c\ld l+] weeks & weeks ar\nd ?is holy spot4 4 4 4 ,:at ,/4 ,francis did = 8 age "o might d = "o's own4 ,he t\*$ ! *ords ( feel+ & ( aspiration 9 ! he>ts ( ! m5 & wom5 ( 8 "t & organiz$ !m = action4 ,/4 ,dom9ic did ! same = ! intellectual wants ( ! "t4 ,:y n d ?is = our age8 ,:o %all s t\* ! spr+s ( m5's he>ts & rea* _! m9ds z to lead !m to ! desire ( unit$ action1 & organize !m s z to br+ =? great results8 ,!re is no d\bt t ! age wants ?is4 ,:o is !re t is inspir$ f a high] sph]e ( life1 & sees into ! future1 s z to be able to speak to m5 & to invite !m to d ! "w ( ,god 9 our day8 ,:o takes all humanity into 8 he>t1 & ) ! pa/ & pres5t at once 9 8 m9d c inspire m5 to live & act = ! div9e future8 ,he also visit$ ! ,holy ,h\se at ,loretto1 &1 pass+ ?r\gh ,v5ice & ,milan to see ! great *ur*es ( ^! cities1 ! despair ( all mod]n *ur*-build]s1 z he says1 he came f9ally to ,g5oa4 ,i turn$ my /eps1 he writes1 to ! g5]al hospital2 & :y8 ,because ! int]e/ ( my he>t 0 !re1 & has be5 !re = upw>d ( tw5ty ye>s4 ,x is ! spot :]e ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,g5oa labor$ = ! mis]able1 lov$ ,god1 & sanctifi$ h] s\l4 ,h] body is 9 a cry/al case1 uncorrupt$1 )]$ 9 appe>ance b n unpleasant to ! sight4 ,:5 ! curta9 0 )drawn & ,i c\ld see h] face & h] feet1 :i* 7 uncov]$1 ,i c\ld n help exclaim+ ) ! ,psalmi/1 ',god is wond]ful 9 ,8 sa9ts6' ,i _c express :at an attraction ,i h always felt = ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,g5oa4 ,%e knew h[ to reconcile ! greate/ fidelity to ! int]ior attrait & guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s ) p]fect filial ob$i5ce to ! ext]nal & div9e au?ority ( ! ,holy ,*ur*4 ,%e knew h[ to reconcile ! highe/ degree ( div9e contemplation ) ! greate/ ext5t ( works ( ext]nal *>ity4 ,%e 0 a h]oic lov] ( ,god1 = %e resi/$ ,8 gifts1 le/ %e might =get ! ,giv] 9 !m1 & be h9d]$ ! entire possession ( ,him1 & ! complete union ( h] s\l ) ,him4 ,z a virg9 %e 0 pure1 a model z a wife1 & z a wid[ a sa9t6 ,h] writ+s on ! spiritual life are ma/]pieces1 & ?\gh a woman1 no man has surpass$1 if any has equall$1 ! eloqu5ce ( h] p54 ,he procur$ an excell5t copy ( ,/4 ,ca!r9e's portrait pres]v$ at ! hospital1 & br\ght x home ) him4 ,he _h done ! same = ,/s4 ,philip & ,ignatius be=e leav+ ,rome4 ,/4 ,ca!r9e's picture repres5ts a h&some face1 e>ne/1 simple1 & joyful2 %e is dress$ pla9ly z a dev\t woman liv+ 9 ! _w1 lovely to look ^u & inspir+ love ( ,god & man 9 ! behold]4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s /ay 9 ,europe dur+ ! w9t] ( #ahfi-gj & ! foll[+ spr+ awak5$ 9 8 s\l aspirations t[>ds a wide & endur+ religi\s movem5t 9 ! ,old ,_w1 simil> to t :i* he _h />t$ 9 ! ,new4 ,at ! "t he did n anticipate any p]sonal %>e 9 x o!r ?an enc\ragem5t & direction f ,am]ica4 ,! read] w le>n 9 ! sequel t ^! aspirations 7 aga9 felt1 & t ) r5ew$ =ce1 :5 he return$ to ,europe 9 ill heal? ?ree ye>s lat]4 ,:at foll[s is f a pocket di>y1 & f a lett] home3 ,! "w t ,div9e ,provid5ce has call$ u to d 9 our own c\ntry1 7 its _s ext5d$ ?r\gh\t ,europe1 w\ld be ! focus ( new light & an elem5t ( reg5]ation4 ,our c\ntry has a provid5tial position 9 our c5tury 9 relation to ,europe1 & our ef=ts to ,ca?olicize & sanctify x give x an importance1 9 a religi\s aspect1 ( a mo/ int]e/+ & significant "*4 ,i d n wi% to cross ! ,atlantic ev] aga91 & !re=e w\ld l to f9i% ) ,europe & ,italy4 ,z = ! notable m5 ( ! day1 ,i h se5 _m ( !m--en\gh ( !m4 ,my pres5t exp]i5ce 9 "o way & ano!r seems to h prep>$ me to lay a f\ndation = action :i* w be suitable n only = ! pres5t b = c5turies to come4 ,no "o ( my previ\s convictions h be5 di/urb$1 b mu* /r5g!n$ & enl>g$ & settl$4 ,i see no?+1 practically1 9 :i* ,i am engag$1 t1 7 x 9 my p[]1 ,i w\ld n[ wi% to alt] or ab&on4 ,i %all return ) ! resolution to cont9ue !m ) m confid5ce1 m zeal1 m en]gy4 ,he arriv$ 9 ,new ,york 9 ,june1 #ahgj4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxii ,,! ,,long ,,illness ,,we h n[ arriv$ at ! la/ p]iod ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s life1 ! long illness :i* complet$ 8 me$ ( suff]+ & ( m]it1 & gradually drew him d[n to ! grave4 ,x w n be expect$ t we %all treat ext5sively ( ?is subject2 nor c "o :o writes 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! '#ijs ab\t ! clos+ sc5es ( a life :i* end$ late 9 ! '#hjs g v mu* into detail )\t br++ 9 ! liv+4 ,z to ,fa!r ,heck]'s latt] days 9 ?is _w1 x may be said t 8 joy & c\rage & buoyancy ( spirits1 z well z 8 hopeful outlook ^u m5 & ?+s1 7 all tri$ 9 ! furnace ( extreme bodily suff]+ z well z ( ! mo/ excruciat+ m5tal agony4 ,f\r di/9ct epo*s divide ,fa!r ,heck]'s life3 "o :5 9 e>ly days he 0 driv5 f home & bus9ess & ultimately into ! ,*ur* by aspirations t[>ds a high] life2 ano!r m>ks ! extraord9>y deal+s ( ,god ) 8 s\l dur+ 8 novitiate & "t ( /udies2 ! ?ird 0 ! /ruggle 9 ,rome :i* produc$ ! ,pauli/ community2 ! f\r? & la/ 0 ! illness :i* we are n[ to consid]4 ,! clos+ sc5es ( 8 life are scatt]$ ov] m ?an sixte5 ye>s1 fill$ ) almo/ e =m ( pa9 ( body & d>kness ( s\l4 ,f sev]e colds1 acute heada*es1 & weakness ( ! dige/ive organs ,fa!r ,heck] 0 a frequ5t suff]]4 ,b t[>ds ! end ( ! ye> #ahga 8 heada*es became mu* m pa9ful1 8 appetite left him1 & sleeplessness & excitability ( ! n]v\s sy/em 7 add$ to 8 o!r ailm5ts4 ,rem$ies ( e k9d 7 tri$1 b )\t p]man5t relief1 &1 al?\gh he lectur$ & prea*$ & did 8 o!r "w all w9t] & mo/ ( ! foll[+ spr+1 8 weakness increas$1 until by ! summ] ( #ahgb he 0 :olly incapacitat$4 ,! w9t] ( #ahgb-c 0 sp5t 9 ! ,s\? )\t notable improvem5t1 & e>ly 9 ! foll[+ summ]1 act+ ^u ! advice ( physicians1 he w5t to ,europe4 ,look ^u me z a dead man1 he said ) te>s z he bade ! community f>ewell2 ,god is try+ me sev]ely 9 s\l & body1 & ,i mu/ h ! c\rage to suff] crucifixion4 ,he also assur$ u t :atev] action %\ld be tak5 9 adopt+ ! ,con/itutions1 !n "u consid]ation1 _h 8 he>ty approval be=eh&4 ,he 0 accompani$ to ,europe by ,fa!r ,de%on1 f :om he p>t$ ) deep emotion at ,ragatz1 a heal? resort 9 ,switz]l&4 ,fa!r ,heck] rema9$ m ?an two ye>s 9 ,europe1 try+ e *ange ( climate & sc5e1 & e o!r rem$y advis$ by physicians1 & return$ to ,new ,york 9 ,octob]1 #ahge1 ) unimprov$ heal?4 ,he _h d]iv$ mo/ b5efit f a j\rney up ! ,nile 9 ! w9t] ( #ahgc-d1 & a %ort visit to ! ,holy ,l& 9 ! foll[+ spr+4 ,:ile 9 ,europe 8 m9d 0 busy1 & he manag$ to meet _m ( 8 old fri5ds !re1 & =m$ new & important acqua9tances4 ,9 ,febru>y1 #ahge1 he publi%$ 8 pamphlet1 ,an ,exposition ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,view ( ! ,pres5t ,ne$s ( ! ,age1 :i* conta9s 8 e/imate ( ! evils ( our times1 especially 9 ,europe1 & ! adequate rem$y = !m4 ,on 8 return to ,new ,york he 0 too weak to be> ! r\t9e ( ! h\se 9 ,fifty-n9? ,/reet & liv$ ) 8 bro!r ,george till ! fall ( #ahgi1 :5 he remov$ to ! conv5t1 rema9+ ) ! community till 8 dea? n9e ye>s aft]w>ds4 ,z to ! physical suff]+s ( ^? la/ sixte5 ye>s1 !y 7 nev] su* z to impair ,fa!r ,heck]'s m5tal s\ndness4 ,he nev] _h s(t5+ ( ! bra91 z ! /ate ( 8 n]ves be=e go+ to ,europe seem$ to indicate2 nor _h he he>t disease1 z 0 = a "t suspect$4 ,8 m5tal p[]s 7 intact f fir/ to la/1 ?\gh 8 organs ( spee* 7 sometimes too sl[ = 8 ?\ghts4 ,8 dige/ion _h be5 impair$ by excessive ab/95ce 9 e>ly manhood1 dat+ back to a "t be=e he 0 a ,ca?olic1 & 8 n]v\s sy/em1 also1 _h be5 injur$ by t means1 z well z by ! pressure ( excessive "w 9 lat] life4 ,gradual impov]i%m5t ( ! blood 0 ! result1 & ! dropp+ d[n ( n]v\s =ce1 till at la/ ! body /ruck "w altoge!r4 ,f\r or five ye>s be=e 8 dea? ,fa!r ,heck] became subject to frequ5t attacks ( ang9a pectoris1 said to be ! mo/ pa9ful ( all diseases4 ,dur+ ! sixte5 ye>s ( illness e symptom ( bodily illness 0 aggravat$ by ! lea/ att5tion to community affairs or bus9ess matt]s1 & also by int]ior trials :i* w pres5tly be describ$4 ,he 0 n unwill+ to trace 8 break+ d[n to excessive au/]ity 9 =m] ye>s4 ,once :5 ask$ = advice ab\t corporal mortification he answ]$3 ,don't g too fa/4 ,rememb] ,/4 ,b]n>d's regret = hav+ gone too f> ) su* ?+s 9 8 y\?4 ,= my "p1 = _m ye>s ,i practis$ frightful p5ances1 & n[ ,i fe> t mu* ( my physical helplessness is due to t cause4 ,8 /ate 0 n "o ( utt] debility1 ?\gh t quickly result$ if wat*fulness 7 relax$1 or f application to responsible duties4 ,b 8 /r5g? nev] 0 to mu* to speak (1 only s1 s1 to use 8 own expressions1 :i* signifi$ a v small am\nt ( ! p[] ( ex]tion or endurance 9 ! muscles & n]ves4 ,:at ab\t my heal?8 he wrote f ,europe4 ,!re are days :5 ,i feel q myself1 & !n o!rs :5 ,i s9k d[n to ! bottom4 ,my condition ( m9d & body (t5 p]plexes me1 & !re is no?+ left me b to ab&on all into ! h&s ( ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,! end ( x all is entirely 9 ! d>k1 & 7 !re n p>allel epo*s 9 my pa/ life1 & simil> ?+s 9 ! lives ( "s o!rs :i* ,i h read1 my p]plexity w\ld be great]4 ,& aga91 f ,ragatz1 9 ! summ] ( #ahge3 ,my /ate ( heal? is mu* ! same4 ,i f\nd la/ week t my pulse 0 b\nd+ 9 a few h\rs f ! sixties into ! n9eties )\t any app>5t cause4 ,ye/]day ,i det]m9$ to consult ! lead+ physician "h4 ,he exam9$ me1 &1 l all o!rs1 attributes ev]y?+ to my n]ves1 result+ f impov]i%$ blood4 ,i say to myself3 #a/1 ,h[ long w ! ma*9e keep work+ 9 ?is /yle8 #b;d1 ,!re w be a sma%-up "s day4 #c;d1 ,or p]haps ,i %all be able to get up m /eam & run x a :ile long]4 ,:o kn[s8 ,& 9 ano!r lett] f ! same place3 ,ev5 "h1 fre$ f all labors1 x (t5 seems to me t a good breeze1 if x /ruck me 9 ! "r place1 w\ld drive ! s\l out ( my body1 s lightly is x connect$ ) x1 s slightly d !y hold toge!r4 ,z already said1 8 trip to ,egypt _h giv5 him a tempor>y relief1 & ?is 0 due1 s he suppos$1 to utt] *ange ( sc5e & to solitude4 ,:5 x 0 ov] he wrote z foll[s3 ,?is trip has be5 9 e respect mu* m to my b5efit ?an my mo/ sangu9e expectations l$ me to hope4 ,x seems to me almo/ l an inspiration1 su* h be5 its b5eficial effects to my m9d & body4 ,9 ,nubia !re reign$ pr(\nd sil5ce & repose1 & 9 l[] ,egypt1 al?\gh !re is m activity & evid5ce ( mod]n life1 /ill x is quiet & tranquil4 ,i feel some:at l "o :o has be5 9 solitude = ?ree or f\r mon?s4 ,my daily regime1 he writes to 8 bro!r & ,mrs4 ,heck]1 f ,italy1 has n *ang$ ^! two ye>s :i* ,i h sp5t 9 ,europe4 ,if ,i rise be=e n9e ,i feel x ! :ole day4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i awake ab\t sev5 = good1 & take a cup ( tea ) "s bread & butt]4 ,i !n read2 sometimes1 n (t51 ,i write a note 9 b$1 & rise ab\t n9e or t54 ,i take a lun* at twelve & d9e at six4 ,my appetite is n mu* at any "t4 ,my sleep1 s s4 ,all ?r\gh 8 illness he w5t to b$ at n9e or %ortly aft]4 ,i feel = ! mo/ "p l a man balanc+ :e!r he w keep on swimm+ or g "u ! wat]4 ,sometimes ,i take a nap two or ?ree times a day--if ,i c get x4 ,!re are weeks :5 ,i d n & _c put my p5 to pap]4 ,to write a note is a great ef=t4 4 4 4 ,?\gh my /r5g? is s little my m9d is n unoccupi$1 & ,i keep up "s read+4 ,j 9 :at way 8 spiritual difficulties accel]at$ 8 bodily decl9e x is h>d to say1 = he 0 g5]ally extremely retic5t z to 8 int]ior life4 ,a few words dropp$ unaw>es & at long int]vals1 & c>efully tak5 d[n at ! "t1 give fleet+ glimpses into a s\l :i* 0 a d>k *amb] ( sorr[1 ?\gh x 0 sometimes peaceful sorr[4 ,to ?is we c =tunately add "s s5t5ces writt5 9 an unusually confid5tial mood 9 lett]s f ,europe4 ,be=e 8 illness he 0 ov]-joyful1 or s x seem$ to "s to :om ?is trait ( 8 0 a temptation4 ,:y1 x 0 said1 religion seems to h no p5it5tial side to ,fa!r ,heck] at all4 ,f ! day ( 8 ord9ation until 8 illness began he might h made ! ,psalmi/'s words 8 own3 ,!re be _m t say1 ,:o %all %[ u any good8 ,"l1 ,?\ ha/ set ^u u ! light ( ,?y c\nt5ance1 ,?\ ha/ put gladness 9 my he>t4 ,b n[ ! light ( t radiant joy _h fad$ away1 & ! face ( ,god1 ?\gh z pres5t z ev] be=e1 loom$ ov] him d>k1 ?reat5+1 & maje/ic4 ,he _h /udi$ spiritual doctr9e too well n to be ready = ?is trial1 nor _h x be5 s5t to him )\t w>n+4 ,nev]!less ! s5sible pres5ce ( ,god's love _h be5 s vivid & con/ant t he c\ld alt]nate ! joy ( labor ) t ( pray] ) ! greate/ ease4 ,& n[ x 0 an alt]nation1 n ( *oice b ( dire compulsion1 betwe5 bitt]1 helpless inaction1 & a /ate ( pray] :i* 0 a m]e dread ( an all-too-ne> ,judge4 ,x seem$ to him z if he _h boa/$1 ,i said 9 my abundance ,i %all n be mov$ = ev]1 & n[ he mu/ end ! inspir$ s5t5ce1 ,?\ ha/ turn$ away ,?y face f me & ,i became tr\bl$4 ,:5 ?is obscuration ( ! ,div9e ,love fir/ grew ^u him ! mis]y ( x 0 intol]able & 0 borne ) extreme difficulty4 ,! pa9 0 less5$ at int]vals z "t pass$ on1 & be=e a ye> _h elaps$1 8 lett]s f ,europe1 ?\gh !y did n be=e compla9 ( desolation1 n[ %[ its previ\s exi/5ce by hail+ ! adv5t ( seasons ( int]ior peace4 ,b f beg9n+ to end ( ?is entire p]iod ( 8 life we h n f\nd a ^w ( 8 speak+ ( joy4 ,& aga91 ev5 ! peace w\ld g & ! desolation return2 ! face ( ,god1 n any "t smil+1 _h lo/ its calm reg>d & 0 once m b5t fr[n+ ^u him4 ,! foll[+ extracts f lett]s writt5 f ,switz]l& 9 ! autumn ( #ahgd1 & )9 a mon? ( ea* o!r1 tell ( ^! alt]nations ( /orm & calm3 ,z to my heal? ^! la/ t5 days ,i _c say mu*4 ,my int]ior trials h be5 su* t x w\ld be impossible t my heal? %\ld improve "u !m4 ,z long z !y la/ ,i mu/ expect to suff]4 ,i see no?+ be=e me b d>kness1 & !re is no?+ )9 my s\l b desolation & bitt]ness4 ,cut (f f all t =m]ly int]e/$ me1 bani%$ z x 7 f home & c\ntry1 isolat$ f ev]y?+1 ! doors ( heav5 %ut1 ,i feel ov]:elm$ ) mis]y & cru%$ to atoms4 ,my be+ away f my =m] duties is a negative relief2 x frees me f ! additional burd5 & tr\ble :i* w\ld necess>ily fall ^u me if ,i 7 )9 rea*4 ,!re rema9s no?+ = me b to confide 91 to foll[1 & ab&on myself to t ,guide :o has direct$ me f ! beg9n+4 ,i read ,job1 ,j]emias1 & ,?omas a ,kempis1 & m$itate on ! suff]+s ( ,our ,"l & ! "* ( ,8 dea?4 ,i recall to m9d :at ,i h read on ^! matt]s 9 spiritual writ]s & ! ,lives ( ! ,sa9ts4 ,i reflect h[ f ! v nature ( ! purification ( ! s\l ?is d>kness1 bitt]ness1 & desolation mu/ be2 b n a drop ( consolation is di/ill$ into my s\l4 ,! only words :i* come to my lips are ',my s\l is sad unto dea?1' & ^! ,i repeat & repeat aga94 ,at all times1 9 ris+ & 9 go+ to b$1 9 company & at my meals1 ,i :isp] !m to myself1 :ile to o!rs ,i appe> *e]ful & jo9 9 ! talk4 ,at ! mo/ ,i c b die2 ?is is ! lot ( all1 & no "o c tell ! mom5t :54 ,)al1 ,i try to h pati5ce1 resignation1 endurance1 & tru/ 9 ,god1 wait+ on ,8 guidance & leav+ all 9 ,8 h&s4 ,s9ce my la/ ,i h _h "s relief f my int]ior trials1 & no soon] does ?is take place ?an my body recov]s "s ( its /r5g?4 ,x w\ld n h be5 possible = me to h borne mu* long] ! desolation :i* fill$ my s\l4 ,ea* new trial1 :5 pass$1 leaves me m quiet & tranquil4 ,pa/ p]iods ( my life give me hope t ?is trial w also come to an end4 ,:at w t be8 ,h[ w x happ58 & :58 ,god alone kn[s4 ,he t has l$ me s _m ye>s /ill guides me1 & resi/ance to ,8 w is worse ?an va94 ,judg+ f t same pa/1 my expectations to return to my =m] labors are n sangu9e4 ,x seems to me sometimes t ,i am cut (f f ^! to be prep>$ = a deep] & broad] basis = future action4 ,b :e!r ?is w be s or n1 is 9 ! h&s ( ,god4 ,:atev] ,he wills me to d1 ,i mu/ d x4 ,my own w has become null1 & all t is left = me to d is to wait on ,8 good pleasure & ,8 own "t4 ,to act or n to act1 to suff] or n to suff]1 to speak or to keep sil5ce1 to return to my =m] labors or nev] to return1 to live on or die1 all h become indiff]5t to me4 ,i am 9 ,god's h&s1 ) no w ( my own2 = ,he has tak5 x1 & x is = ,him to d ) me :atev] ,he pleases4 ,if ?is be a s\rce ( pa9 to o!rs1 none b ,god kn[s :at x has co/ me4 ,!re z no?+1 !re=e1 left b to wait 9 tru/ on ,god's w & ,8 m]cy & good pleasure4 ,& aga9 ! d>k5$ heav5s are above him3 ,dea? invit$1 alas6 w n come4 ,:at a relief x w\ld be f a cont9u\s & prolong$ dea?6 ,! obscurity ( ! draw+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 z well z ( ,god's designs1 & 8 incessant frett+ aga9/ ?is1 p>tly involunt>y &1 z he confesses1 p>tly volunt>y also1 di/urbs my heal? & r$uces my /r5g?4 ,next to ! evil self-company ( an un=giv5 s9n] !re is no lonel9ess s sad z t ( ! invalid4 ,he ne$s company mo/ :o is wor/ company = himself4 ,yet ,fa!r ,heck] has n left a s+le ^w :i* w\ld sugge/ t dur+ m ?an two ye>s ( abs5ce f all 8 life associates 9 religion1 z well z f 8 blood k9dr$1 :om he lov$ ) a p[]ful love1 he felt ! lack ( human companion%ip4 ,"o reason = ?is 0 8 contemplative nature1 & ?is 0 ! ma9 reason4 ,he 0 born to be a h]mit1 & 0 an active liv] only by be+ born aga9 = a special vocation4 ,ano!r reason 0 t 8 m9d 0 s con/itut$ t1 :5 subject$ to trial1 x re/$ bett] :5 q out ( sight ( ev]ybody & ev]y?+ associat$ ) pa/ responsibilities4 ,he bade adieu to ,fa!r ,de%on :5 ! latt] left him at ,ragatz ) sorr[1 b )\t reluctance2 & :5 a ye> aft]w>ds at 0 sugge/$ t "o ( ! community %\ld come to ,europe & keep him company1 he refus$ )\t hesitation1 say+ t 8 companion w\ld be burd5$ ) a sick man's infirmities1 or ! sick man di/ress$ by 8 companion's inactivity on 8 acc\nt4 ,b t[>ds ! v end ( 8 life !re 7 times :5 he felt ! ne$ ( cong5ial company & 0 extremely grateful = x4 ,b ?is did n happ5 (t51 & :5 x did x 0 because ! waves ( despond5cy :i* subm]g$ him 7 heavi] & d>k] ?an usual4 ,! foll[+ extract f a lett] %[s ?is /ate ( m9d3 ,z ,i get some:at m accu/om$ to my sep>ation f all t 0 s de> to me1 ! /rang5ess ( my position seems to me m & m inexplicable4 ,all ! ?+s :i* are go+ on 9 ,fifty-n9? ,/reet 7 once all to me1 & no?+ appe>$ beyond4 ,to be sep>at$ f all2 to look ^u "o's pa/ z a dream2 to become a /rang] to "o's self1 w&]+ f city to city1 f c\ntry to c\ntry1 ev] 9 a /range l& & among /rang]s2 to be atta*$ to no?+2 to see no def9ite future2 to be an enigma to "o's self2 to f9d no light 9 any "o to guide me1 isolat$ f all except ,god--:o w expla9 :at all ?is means8 :]e x w end8 & h[ soon8 ,z ,i become resign$ to ?is /ate ( ?+s my heal? suff]s less4 ,occasionally my int]ior trials & /ruggles are almo/ insupportable1 b less s ?an if ,i 7 surr\nd$ by ^? :o h an affection = me4 ,to worry o!rs )\t _! be+ able to give me any relief w\ld only increase my suff]+1 & f9ally become unbe>able4 ,all is = ! be/6 ,god's w be done6 ,:at he wrote to a fri5d suff]+ f illness he appli$ to himself2 he made spiritual pr(it1 z be/ he might1 f sep>ation f ! m5 & ! vocation he lov$ s well3 ,i c sympa?ize ) y m completely 9 y\r sickness be+ myself n well4 ,to be %ut (f f ! _w1 & cut (f f human activity--& ?is is :at x means to be sick--gives ! s\l ! be/ conditions to love ,god alone1 & ?is is ,p>adise ^u e>?4 ,bless$ sickness6 :i* deta*es ! s\l f all creatures & unites x to its sov]eign ,good4 ,b "o's duties & responsibilities1 :at ( ^! 9 ! meantime8 ,we mu/ give !m all up "o day1 & :y n n[8 ,we ?9k ourselves necess>y1 & o!rs try to make u believe ! same2 !re is b little tru? & mu* self-love 9 ?is4 ',:at else d ,i require ( !e1' says our ,"l 9 ,?omas a ,kempis1 '?an t ?\ %\ld/ resign ?yself integrally to ,me4' ,?is is :at our ,"l is fight+ = 9 our s\ls4 ,yet 9 hav+ 8 life-"w torn away f him he 0 l a man ^: leg has be5 cru%$ & !n amputat$1 ! phantom ( ! lo/ limb a*+ 9 e muscle1 bone1 & n]ve4 ,?is 0 p>tly ! secret ( 8 pa9 :ile 9 ,europe1 at ! m]e ?\ght ( 8 =m] active life2 x haunt$ him ) memories ( its lo/ opportunities1 its %ortcom+s 9 motive or a*ievem5t1 or :at he fanci$ to be su*1 9 view ( ! ,div9e ju/ice1 n[ always reckon+ ) him4 ,he 0 ev] *e]ful 9 ^w1 ev5 :5 ! pallor ( 8 face & ! blaz+ ( 8 eyes betray$ 8 bodily & spiritual pa94 ,! end ( religion is joy1 joy "h no less ?an joy h]eaft]1 he once insi/$1 & he argu$ long & en]getically = ! proposition2 b meantime he 0 rack$ ) inn] agony & 0 too feeble to walk alone4 ,9 8 lett]s & di>ies he speaks ( 8 illness & ( its symptoms z ( ^? ( ano!r p]son ( :om he 0 giv+ news4 ,8 w&]+s 9 ,europe 7 l grop+s aft] ! ,div9e w 9 ! mid/ ( ! _s's night1 (t5 9 angui%1 (t5 9 tranquillity1 nev] 9 8 =m] b\nd+ joy1 always ) submission1 be=eh&1 at ! mom5t1 & aft]w>ds4 ,al?\gh ! ,div9e ,w gave a cold welcome1 he s\ght no o!r refuge4 ,!re are a ?\s& ?+s1 he writes1 t w\ld worry me if ,i w\ld only let !m1 b ) ,god's help ,i keep !m on at arm's l5g?4 ,8 grace suffices1 or 9 ,8 pres5ce all ! ?+s ( ?is _w disappe>4 ,god alone has be5 always ! :ole desire ( my he>t1 & :at else c ,i wi% ?an t ,8 w may be :olly fulfill$ 9 me4 ,hav+ root$ ev]y?+ else out ( my he>t1 & cut me (f f all ?+s1 :at o!r desire c ,i h ?an t ,he :o has begun ! "w %\ld f9i% x accord+ to ,8 design4 ,x is n important t ,i %\ld "k :at t design is2 x is en\gh t ,i am 9 ,8 h&s1 to d ) me :atev] ,he pleases4 ,to be & to live 9 ,8 pres5ce is all4 ,& aga93 ,! m9d quiet bo? z to ! pa/ & ! future1 cont5t$ ) ! pres5t mom5t3 z to ! pa/1 leav+ x out ( sight2 z to ! future1 unsolicit\s4 ,z to ! pres5t1 satisfi$ to be outw>dly homeless1 cut on f all pa/ fri5d%ips & relations4 ,! pres5t gives me all ! conditions requir$ = prep>ation = ! future4 ,any "t ^! two ye>s pa/ ,i w\ld h made an entire r5unciation ( all relations to my pa/ labors & position1 b wait$ z a dictate ( prud5ce4 ,n[ ,i feel ready to make x ) calmness & 9 view ( all its consequ5ces4 ,no soon] d ,i set my m9d to pray ?an ,god fills x ) ,himself1 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 once he>d to say4 ,& ?is p[] ( pray] by no means left him aft] #ahgb2 only t ! ,god :o fill$ him 0 no long] reveal$ z ! ,supreme ,love1 b z ! ,supreme ,maje/y4 ,!re 0 once a prie/1 he said1 speak+ ( himself1 :o _h be5 v active = ,god1 until at la/ ,god gave him a k ( ! ,div9e ,maje/y4 ,aft] see+ ! ,maje/y ( ,god t prie/ felt v /range & 0 mu* humbl$1 & knew h[ little a ?+ he 0 9 comp>ison ) ,god4 ,comp>ison ) ,god6 ,x 0 ?is t gave him1 z x did ,job1 a t]ror ( ! ,div9e ju/ice beyond words to express1 & impress$ t air ( spiritual dejection ^u him :i* /ruck 8 old fri5ds z s /rongly 9 contra/ ) 8 =m] happy & vivaci\s mann]s4 ,y w nev] "k1 he once said1 :ile be+ help$ into b$ aft] a v sad day1 h[ mu* ,i h suff]$ till y are 9 heav54 ,meantime ?is awful ,deity1 s prompt to ent] ,fa!r ,heck]'s m9d1 com+ at times l a )]+ bla/ f ! des]t1 0 /ill ! only attraction ( 8 s\l1 ! only object ( 8 love4 ,he c\ld no m keep 8 m9d (f ,god n[ ?an he c\ld be=e1 & n[ ,god kill$ him1 & !n ,he made him alive4 ,! ideas ( ! ,div9e goodness1 pati5ce1 m]cy1 & love :i* =m]ly well$ up 9 abundant floods at ! ?\ght ( ,god1 at ! same ?\ght n[ 7 dri$ up & disappe>$4 ,oh6 he once exclaim$1 if ,i c\ld only be sure t ,i %all n be damn$6 ,?is 0 said unaw>es :ile li/5+ to ! life ( a sa9t4 ,! read] w1 !re=e1 und]/& t ,fa!r ,heck]'s inn] tr\ble 0 n a /ate ( m]e aridity1 a difficulty ( conc5tration ( m9d on spiritual ?+s1 or a vagrancy ( ?\ght2 x 0 a p]petual fac+ ( 8 ,div9e ,accus] & ,judge1 a trembl+ woe at ! sight ( ,inf9ite ,maje/y on ! "p ( "o = :om ! ,div9e love 0 ! "o necess>y ( life = s\l & body4 ,yet he knew t ?is 0 really a high] =m ( pray] ?an any he _h yet enjoy$1 t x /eadily purifi$ 8 und]/&+ by compell+ ceaselessly repeat$ acts ( fai? 9 ,god's love1 purifi$ 8 w by con/ant resignation ( e joy except ,god alone--,god receiv$ by any mode 9 :i* x might please ! ,div9e ,maje/y to reveal ,himself4 ,he 01 !re=e1 will+1 nay1 9 a true s5se1 glad ?us to walk by m]e fai? & live by pa9ful love4 ,i %\ld deem x a mis=tune if ,god %\ld cure me ( my infirmities & re/ore me to active usefulness1 s mu* h ,i le>n$ to appreciate ! value ( my passive condition ( s\l4 ,?is he said less ?an ?ree ye>s be=e 8 dea?4 ,& ab\t ! same "t1 to a v intimate fri5d3 ,god reveal$ to me 9 my novitiate t at "s future "t ,i %\ld suff] ! crucifixion4 ,i h always long$ = x2 b oh1 n[ t x has come x is h>d1 oh1 x is t]rible6 ,& ?is he said weep+4 ,"o aspect ( ! ,div9e ,maje/y :i* ?reat5$ = ye>s to ov]p[] him 0 ! ,la/ ,judgm5t4 ,god has giv5 me to see ! t]rors ( ! day ( judgm5t1 he once said1 & x has tri$ me ) dreadful sev]ity2 b x is a wond]fully great privilege4 ,humility grew ^u him day by day4 ,no "o :o knew him well 9 8 day ( greate/ p[] c\ld ?9k him a pr\d man1 b 8 confid5ce 9 8 vocation1 & 9 himself is ,god's repres5tative1 _h be5 imm5se4 ,! foll[+1 f a memor&um1 %[s h[ he end$3 ,i told him h[ c\rage\s ,i felt4 ,answ]3 ,t is ! way ,i us$ to feel4 ,i us$ to say1 ,o ,"l6 ,i feel z if ,i _h ! :ole _w on my %\ld]s2 & all ,i've got to say is1 ,o ,"l6 ,i am sorry y've giv5 me su* small potatoes to c>ry on my back4 ,b n[--well1 :5 a mosquito comes 9 ,i say1 ,mosquito1 h y any good to d me8 ,yes8 ,!n ,i ?ank y1 = ,i am glad to get good f a mosquito4 ,x w ?us be se5 t :atev] diseases may h enfeebl$ ,fa!r ,heck]'s body1 8 _s suff]$ f a malady kn[n only to great s\ls--?ir/ = ,god4 ,?is gave him re/ nei!r day nor night1 or all[$ him int]vals ( peace only to return ) r5ew$ =ce4 ,"s m5 love gold too mu* = _! peace ( m9d1 "s love wom5 too mu*1 & "s p[]2 m5 l ,fa!r ,heck] love ! ,inf9ite ,good too mu* to be happy 9 s\l or s\nd 9 body unless ,he be reveal$ to !m z a lov+ fa!r4 ,& ?is k ( ,god once possess$ & lo/ aga91 al?\gh x bre$s a pur]1 a m p]fectly dis9t]e/$ love1 leaves bo? s\l & body 9 a /ate ( acute di/ress4 ,my s\l ?ir/e? = ,!e1 my fle% longe? = ,!e1 9 a dry & des]t l& )\t wat]4 ,tri$ by ^! visitations1 he 0 free to ackn[l$ge t 9 pa/ times he _h be5 favor$ above o!rs3 ,oh6 !re 0 a "t1 he said1 :5 ,i 0 borne along high above nature by ! grace ( ,god1 & ,i fe>$ t ,i %\ld die )\t be+ subject to nature1 & %\ld nev] feel ! ne$ ( ! sup]natural4 ,b = _m ye>s n[ ,i h be5 left by ,god to my natural weakness & get no?+ :atev] except :at ,i e>n4 ,! foll[+ words ( 8 indicate ! cleans+ process ( ^! div9e influ5ces2 x is f memor&a3 ,he said to me once1 aft] he _h be5 = n9e or t5 ye>s subject to almo/ unceas+ desolation ( _s1 'all ?is suff]+1 ?\gh x has be5 excruciat+1 has greatly purifi$ me & 0 ( ! la/ necessity to me4 ,oh1 h[ pr\d ,i 06 h[ va9 ,i 06 ,& ^! long ye>s ( ab&onm5t by ,god h heal$ me4' ,i ?9k ?is 0 ! only "t ,i ev] knew him to connect 8 suff]+s ) fault4 ,:at he said may h ref]r$ to ! m]e temp] & frame ( 8 m9d r ?an to p>ticul>1 specific faults4 ,he und\bt$ly ?\ght m highly ( human nature be=e t desolation began ?an he did at ! end ( x4 ,meantime he us$ e aid = ! assuagem5t ( 8 int]ior suff]+s1 j z he consci5ti\sly tri$ e means = ! re/oration ( 8 bodily heal?4 ,good books help$ him greatly4 ,he recit$ 8 ,brevi>y z he w\ld read a new & int]e/+ book1 und]l9+ "h & !re1 & not+ on ! m>g9s4 ,b dur+ mo/ ( 8 "t ( illness 8 infirmities made ! ,div9e ,(fice impossible4 ,e day he read or _h read to him "s p>ts ( ! ,scriptures 9 ,engli%4 ,)\t ! ,book ( ,job1 he us$ to say1 ,i w\ld h brok5 d[n completely4 ,lallemant1 ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross1 ,/4 ,t]esa1 ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,g5oa1 & o!r au?ors ( a my/ical t5d5cy he frequ5tly us$4 ,b next to ! ,scriptures no book s]v$ him s well dur+ 8 illness z ,ab&onm5t1 or ,entire ,surr5d] to ,div9e ,provid5ce1 a small po/hum\s treatise ( ,fa!r ,p4 ,j4 ,caussade1 ,s4,j41 edit$ & publi%$ by ,fa!r ,h4 ,rami]e1 ,s4,j41 ) a /rong def5ce ( ! au?or's doctr9e by way ( preface4 ,at ,fa!r ,heck]'s sugge/ion x we translat$ into ,engli% by ,miss ,ella ,mc,mahon1 & has already soo!d _m he>ts 9 difficulties ( e k9d4 ,x is an +5i\s comp5dium ( all spiritual wisdom1 b x seem$ to ,fa!r ,heck] t submission to ! ,div9e ,w is taught 9 its pages z x has nev] be5 done s9ce ! "t ( ! ,apo/les4 ,! little ,fr5* copy :i* he us$ is ?umb$ all to pieces4 ,he us$ x incessantly :5 9 great tr\ble ( m9d & knew x almo/ by he>t4 ,z he read its s5t5ces or he>d !m read he w\ld ejaculate1 ,ah1 h[ sweet t is6 ,oh1 :at a great tru?6 ,oh1 t is a mo/ consol+ doctr9e6 j z a man exhau/$ ) ?ir/ & cov]$ ) du/1 z he dr9ks & ba!s at a gu%+ f\nta9 9 ! des]t1 calls out & sighs & smiles4 ,did he n f9d m5 "h & !re 9 8 travels ) :om he w\ld take c\nsel & :o c\ld com=t him8 ,!re is little trace ( x1 ?\gh he nev] lack$ sympa!tic fri5ds = 8 bodily ailm5ts4 ,9 tru? he tri$ to ma9ta9 a *e]ful ext]ior1 ?\gh occasionally he fail$ 9 8 attempts to d s4 ,only once d we f9d by 8 lett]s & di>ies t he op5$ 8 m9d freely on 8 int]ior difficulties :ile 9 ,europe1 & t 0 to ,c>d9al ,des*amps1 :o gave him1 he writes1 v great com=t4 ,no "p ( 8 soj\rn 9 ! ,old ,_w pleas$ & pr(it$ him s mu* z 8 trip up ! ,nile 9 ! w9t] ( #ahgc-d4 ,9 in=mation ( mo/ v>i\s k9ds1 he writes1 x has be5 ! ri*e/ f\r mon?s ( my :ole life4 ,! value intellectually & religi\sly z well z physically is incalculable4 ,giv5 b "o trip1 x w\ld puzzle me to "n any :i* c comp>e ) t up ! ,nile to ,wady-,halfa4 ,nubia mu/ be includ$4 ,x has some?+ ( its own :i* y c f9d nei!r 9 ,egypt nor else:]e3 sil5ce1 repose1 almo/ total solitude1 & its own peculi> p4 ,8 companions 7 few 9 numb] & cong5ial 9 ta/es1 ! climate mild & equable1 & ! p & c\ntry altoge!r novel4 ,! j\rney1 :i* ext5d$ into ,nubia1 0 made 9 a flat-boat1 ! ,sitt9a ,miriam el ,adra--,our ,lady ,m>y ! ,virg9--! sail propell+ !m :5 ! w9d 0 fair1 ! crew t[+ !m 9 calm wea!r2 :5 ! w9d 0 contr>y !y ti$ up to ! bank4 ,! progress 01 ( c\rse1 sl[1 & yet 8 di>y1 ! only "o writt5 dur+ 8 illness ) ample entries1 %[s t e day gave new enjoym5t4 ,he 0 provid$ ) lett]s :i* enabl$ him to say ,mass at ! mission>y /ations along ! riv]4 ,! wond]ful ru9s ( ! anci5t cities ( ,egypt gave him mu* ent]ta9m5t4 ,b 8 m9d dwelt fondly on ?\ghts ( ,abraham1 ,joseph1 & ! *os5 p1 & especially ^u ! ,holy ,family1 z well z ! monks ( ! des]t4 ,he 0 mu* int]e/$ 9 ! ,mohamm$an natives2 _! op5 practice ( pray]1 ! in/9ctive read9ess ) :i* ! idea ( ,god & ( et]nity 0 welcom$ to _! ?\ghts1 &1 )al1 _! utt] religi\s /agnation1 :i* he trac$ to _! ignorance ( ! ,tr9ity1 fill$ 8 m9d ) que/ions4 ,h[ to conv]t ^! sluggi% contemplatives1 :at type ( ,ca?olicity w\ld be likely to fl\ri% 9 ! ,ea/1 & h[ x c\ld be reconcil$ ) ! /irr+ traits ( ! ,we/1 busi$ 8 m9d4 ,he (t5 recalls 8 di/ant fri5ds & contra/s new ,am]ica ) old ,egypt4 ,he wrote home :5 opportunity s]v$1 z ?us to ,fa!r ,hewit3 ,) ! hope t ?is note w rea* y 9 due season1 ,i greet y f ?is l& f :i* ,moses taught1 & :i* our infant ,savi\r trod1 ) a "r m]ry ,*ri/mas & a happy ,new ,ye> to y\rself & all ! memb]s ( ! community1 all 9 ! h\se1 & ! p>i%ion]s ( ,/4 ,paul's4 ,9 my pray]s all h a %>e & 9 ! ,holy ,sacrifice ( ! alt>4 ,my he>t & its affections are pres5t ) y4 ,c\ld ,i realize its desire1 ,i w\ld %$ a cont9u\s fl[ ( bless+s on ea* "o ( y l a great riv] ,nile--! riv] :i* ,abraham saw & ^: banks 7 hall[$ by ! foot/eps ( ,jesus1 ,m>y1 & ,joseph4 ,rememb] me especially 9 all y\r pray]s on ^! great fe/ivals4 ,(f] up a ,mass = my special int5tion on ea* ( !m4 ,! excursion to ,nubia & back did him s mu* good physically1 & left 8 m9d ) a peace :i* seem$ s settl$1 t = a "t he _h /rong hopes ( recov]y2 b he 0 soon undeceiv$4 ,on ! #ae? ( ,april ,fa!r ,heck] left ,cairo = ,j]usalem1 & sp5t "s weeks 9 ! ,holy ,l&1 cont9u+ to enjoy an int]val ( spiritual relief4 ,he writes3 ,9 recit+ ! ,gloria & ! ,cr$o1 aft] hav+ be5 9 ! localities :]e ! great my/]ies :i* !y express took place1 "o is impress$ 9 a wond]ful mann] ) _! actuality4 ,! tru?s ( our holy fai? seem to saturate "o's blood1 ent] into "o's fle%1 & p5etrate ev5 to ! m>r[ ( "o's bones4 ,! fir/ greet+ :i* he s5t f ! holy places 0 a lett] to 8 "m1 full ( expressions ( ! mo/ t5d] affection & gratitude1 z well z ( ard5t religi\s emotions produc$ by mov+ among ! sc5es ( our ,"l's life4 ,he enclos$ a little bun* ( wild fl[]s pluck$ f ,m\nt ,sion4 ,he soon return$ to ,europe to escape ! hot summ] ( ,pale/9e1 & began 8 r\nd ( visits to heal? resorts1 %r9es1 & occasionally to a fri5d ( m ?an usual attraction4 ,8 bro!r ,john di$ ab\t ?is "t1 & ?is news drew f him a lett] ( enc\ragem5t & condol5ce to _! "m4 ,to ,george ,heck] & 8 wife he wrote (t51 8 lett]s be+ full ( affection1 ( entire submission to ! ,div9e ,w1 & ( religi\s s5tim5ts4 ,! foll[+ may be ( int]e/ z indicat+ ! return ( 8 disconsolate frame ( m9d3 ,i h tak5 to writ+ fables4 ,"h is "o3 ,once ^u a "t a bird 0 caught 9 a sn>e4 ,! m x /ruggl$ to free itself1 ! m x got entangl$4 ,exhau/$1 x resolv$ to wait ) ! va9 hope t ! f[l]1 :5 he came1 w\ld set x at lib]ty4 ,8 appe>ance1 h[ev]1 0 n ! signal = its re/oration to smil+ fields & fond companions1 b ! =]unn] ( dea? at 8 h&s4 ,fooli% bird6 :y did y g into ! sn>e8 ,poor ?+2 x c\ld n f9d food any:]e1 & x 0 fami%+ ) hung]2 ! se$ 0 s attractive1 & he :o _h bait$ ! trap knew x full well1 & t ! bird c\ld n resi/ its appetite4 ,! f[l] is our ,"l4 ,! bait is ,div9e ,love4 ,! bird is ! s\l4 ,o skillful cat*] ( s\ls6 ,o irresi/ible bait ( ,div9e ,love6 ,o pitiable victim6 b mo/ bless$ s\l2 = 9 ! h&s ( our ,"l ! s\l only dies to self to be trans=m$ into ,god4 ,9 all 8 j\rney+s 9 se>* ( b5eficial *ange ( air or = ! use ( m$ic9al wat]s1 he endeavor$ to take 9 ! fam\s %r9es2 z = places not$ 9 pr(ane hi/ory1 or ! usual resorts ( t\ri/s1 !re is n ! lea/ m5tion ( !m 9 8 lett]s1 unless an exception be made 9 favor ( ^? 9 ,egypt & "s art gall]ies 9 ,europe4 ,b1 attract$ by ,/4 ,ca!r9e1 he w5t back to h] relics at ,g5oa once m4 ,drawn by ,/4 ,francis de ,sales1 he made a visit to ,annecy :i* _h a soo?+ effect ^u him1 = t sa9t 0 ano!r ( 8 favorites4 ,he (t5 w5t out ( 8 way to see a fri5d1 or to seek ! acqua9tance ( "s man or woman ( reputation 9 religi\s circles1 & he 0 himself surpris$ at ! numb] ( ^? :o _h he>d ( him & wi%$ to "k him4 ,he readily =m$ acqua9tances1 & ,am]ican1 ,engli%1 & ,fr5* fell[-travell]s c\ld easily h 8 conv]sation & company on condition t !y w\ld conv]se on religi\s matt]s1 or on ! grav] social & racial topics4 ,x 0 n a little s+ul> t1 al?\gh suff]+ f weakness ( ! n]v\s sy/em1 he c\ld talk ab/ruse philosophy by ! h\r )\t m5tal fatigue4 ,discuss+ su* po9ts z ! diff]5t movem5ts ( nature & grace1 ! v>i\s !ories ( appreh5d+ ! exi/5ce ( ,god1 or h[ to br+ ab\t conviction 9 ! m9ds ( non-,ca?olics on ! claims ( ! ,*ur*1 he c\ld tire ! /rong bra9 ( a well man4 ,x 0 ! ?+s bel[ :i* tir$ him4 ,he illu/rat$ 8 conv]sation by gleams ( light reflect$ f 8 pa/ exp]i5ce4 ,:5 circum/ances condemn su* g5]\s s\ls z ,fa!r ,heck] to inactivity1 a favorite solace is pick+ up fragm5ts ( "w or recall+ high ideas f ! cr[d$ memory ( _! =m] zeal1 (t5 ) mu* pr(it to ^? :o li/54 ,& ?is 0 no idle-m9d$ or boa/ful trait 9 him1 z we see f ! foll[+3 ,be assur$ ,i %all n foll[ my own w if ,i c help x4 ,e dictate ( prud5ce & wisdom w be my guide4 ,until ! cl\ds cle> away ,i %all be quiet1 wait+1 wat*+ & pray+1 seek+ = light :]ev] !re is a reasonable prospect ( obta9+ x4 ,9 ! mean:ile my "t is n missp5t4 ,! j\rneys :i* ,i h made1 ! p]sons :om ,i h met on my way--^! & a ?\s& o!r ?+s incid5t to my pres5t way ( life are ! be/ ( educators = improv+ "o's m9d1 = correct+ "o's judgm5ts1 & = giv+ great] bread? to "o's ?\ghts4 4 4 4 ,x seems to me t ,i almo/ see visibly & feel palpably ! bless+ ( div9e grace on ! "w ( ! community1 9 its h>mony1 9 ! success ( its missions1 9 ! special graces to its memb]s1 9 _! *e]fulness & zeal3 all ?is1 too1 9 my abs5ce4 ,my abs5ce1 !re=e1 _c be displeas+ to ! ,div9e ,w2 r ^! ?+s seem to indicate ! contr>y1 & !y awake 9 my s\l an inexpressible consolation4 ,b he said to "o ( 8 bre?r5 aft]w>ds3 ,oh1 fa!r6 ,i 0 sad all ! "t t ,i 0 9 ,europe4 ,:y s8 ,well1 x 0 because ,i 0 away f home1 away f my "w1 away f my companions4 ,& t 0 :y ,i atta*$ myself :ile !re to ^? p]sons :o felt z we did1 & 7 ( l views1 & p>ticipat$ 9 our aims & purposes4 ,h[ he felt ab\t 8 *ances ( recov]y is %[n by ! foll[+3 ,i h no?+ fur!r to say ab\t my heal? ?an t ,i h none4 ,7 ,i twelve h\rs1 or six1 9 my =m] /ate ( heal?1 my consci5ce w\ld give me no mom5t ( peace 9 my pres5t position4 ,x w\ld worry me & set me to "w4 ,z x is ,i am tranquil1 at peace1 & do+ no?+ except will+ly be>+ feebl5ess & in]tia4 ,f ,p>is1 ,june #b1 #ahgd1 he writes to ,george & ,joseph9e ,heck] ( a visit to ,c>d9al ,des*amps 9 ,brussels1 :]e he met 8 old director1 ,fa!r de ,bugg5oms4 ,he express$ himself fully to !m ab\t ! /ate ( religion 9 ,europe1 &1 al?\gh bo? 7 8 admir]s & w>m fri5ds1 x 0 only on ! ?ird day t he made himself fully und]/ood1 & disabus$ _! m9ds ( res]ves & suspicions4 ,b be=e leav+ a complete und]/&+1 w>m sympa?y1 & entire approval 0 ! result4 ,9 "o ( ! e>li] ,c,h,a,p,t,e,rs ( ?is ,life we h adv]t$ to ,fa!r ,heck]'s difficulty 9 mak+ himself und]/ood4 ,on ?is occasion he suff]$ mu* pa91 = :i*1 he says1 ! joy ( ! f9al agreem5t amply repaid him4 ,he =m$ an intimate fri5d%ip ) ! ,abbe ,xavi] ,dufresne1 a dev\t & enlight5$ prie/ ( ,g5eva1 & ) 8 fa!r1 ,doctor ,dufresne1 well kn[n z ! ma9/ay ( all ! works ( *>ity & religion 9 t city4 ,! ,abbe ,dufresne became mu* atta*$ to ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,! ,almighty kn[s1 he wrote to him1 h[ ard5tly ,i wi% to see y aga91 = no "o c feel m ?an ,i ! want ( y\r conv]sation1 x 0 s greatly to my improvem5t4 ,we h receiv$ f ! ,abbe ,dufresne a memorial ( ,fa!r ,heck]1 :i* is valuable z indep5d5t contempor>y te/imony4 ,x is s appreciative & s in/ructive t we %all give ! great] "p ( x z an app5dix1 toge!r ) two lett]s f ,c>d9al ,newman writt5 aft] ,fa!r ,heck]'s dea?4 ,! foll[+ is f a lett] f ,mrs4 ,crav51 writt5 e>ly 9 #ahge3 ,t we h ?\ght ( y v (t5 ,i ne$ n tell y1 nor yet t we h ?\ght & talk$ ( & pond]$ ov] ! _m & ! great subjects :i* h be5 discuss$ dur+ ?is week ( delightful repose & solitude 7?\gh c]ta9ly n ( sil5ce74 ,let me1 = "o1 tell y t _m words ( y\rs w be deeply & gratefully & usefully rememb]$1 & t ,i feel z if all y expla9$ to u 9 p>ticul> conc]n+ ! inw>d life :i* alone gives mean+ & usefulness to outw>d signs & symbols 7let !m be ev] s sacr$71 & ! ways & means ( quick5+ t inw>d life1 all come home to me z a cle> expression ( my own ?\ghts by "o :o _h read !m bett] ?an myself4 ,su* 0 a dev\t & intellectual ,fr5*woman's way ( describ+ an influ5ce simil>ly felt by m5 & wom5 ( all classes1 & ( ! mo/ div]se s*ools ( ?\ght1 :om ,fa!r ,heck] met 9 ,europe4 ,?is 0 writt5 on he>+ news ( ! community3 ,x is consol+ to see all ^! good works progress+ 9 ! ,pauli/ community4 ,to me !y s\nd m l an e*o ( my pa/ ?an ! actual pres5t4 ,be=e go+ up ! ,nile ,i us$ to say to "s ( my fri5ds1 t ,i once knew a man ^: "n 0 ,heck]1 b _h lo/ 8 acqua9tance1 & ,i 0 go+ up ! ,nile to f9d him4 ,p]haps ,i w\ld ov]take him at ,wady-,halfa 9 ,nubia6 ,b ,i didn't4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k ! se>* is 9 va91 & t ,i %all h to resign myself to 8 loss & beg9 a new life4 ,tuesday ( ?is week my int5tion is to g to ,milan & /op "s days4 ,i f9d fri5ds 9 almo/ e city4 ,friday la/ ,i d9$ ) ! ,ar*bi%op ( ,tur91 & h made ! acqua9tance ( "o or two prie/s "h4 ,occasionally ,i visit museums1 picture gall]ies1 etc42 & ?us "t is outw>dly pass+ by1 until x pleases ,god to %$ m light on my s\l1 & to imp>t m /r5g? to my body1 & make cle> my pa?4 ,"h are 8 impressions ( ,rome aft] its occupation by ! ,italians1 toge!r ) an acc\nt ( an audi5ce ) ! ,holy ,fa!r3 ,rome is inde$ *ang$1 n s mu* outw>dly1 mat]ially1 z 9 spiritual atmosph]e4 ,x has lo/ its ,*ri/ian exorcism & return$ to its =m] pagan condition4 ,! mod]n _s1 too1 has ent]$ x ) activity 9 ! mat]ial ord]4 ,! old ord]1 ,i fe>1 is nev] to return2 t is to say1 z x 02 if x returns at all x w be on ano!r basis4 ,! la/ citadel has giv5 way to ! invasion ( mod]n activity & pu%4 ,:o w\ld h dream$ ( ?is tw5ty ye>s ago8 ,! *>m ( ,rome is gone1 ev5 to non-,ca?olics1 = !y felt rais$ above !mselves into a m cong5ial & spiritual atmosph]e :ile "h1 & _! s\ls enjoy$ x1 ?\gh _! intellectual prejudices 7 oppos$ to ! pr9ciples4 ,! *>m !y 7 consci\s ( =c$ !m back aga9 to ,rome 9 spite ( !mselves4 ,b t *>m has 9 a great measure gone4 ,! o!r ev5+ ,i _h a v pleasant private audi5ce ) ! ,holy ,fa!r4 ,among o!r matt]s ,i %[$ him ,! ,"y ,ca?olic :i* pleas$ him v mu*4 ,he 0 /ruck ) ! size ( ! jackass 9 ! picture ( ,ob]-,amm]gau1 & ask$ if !y grew s l>ge 9 t c\ntry4 ,i repli$3 ',holy ,fa!r1 asses n[adays gr[ l>ge ev]y:]e4' ,he laugh$ he>tily & said1 ',b5e trovato4' ,fa!r ,heck] 0 9 ,rome :51 9 ,m>*1 #ahge1 8 old fri5d & patron & fir/ spiritual advis]1 ,ar*bi%op ,mc,closkey1 0 made ,c>d9al4 ,he 0 mu* rejoic$1 & s5t ! ,c>d9al a ri* silk cassock1 & gave a public banquet to ,monsignor ,roncetti & ,doctor ,ubaldi1 :o 7 to c>ry ! insignia ( ! c>d9alate to ,new ,york4 ,we are indebt$ to ! k9dness ( ,ar*bi%op ,corrigan = a copy ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s lett] ( congratulation1 ! pr9cipal p>ts ( :i* we subjo94 ,! view ( public policy conc]n+ ! ,college ( ,c>d9als express$ 9 ?is lett] 0 develop$ at l5g? 9 an article publi%$ by ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w1 :5 ,c>d9al ,gibbons 0 appo9t$2 x w also be f\nd 9 8 late/ volume1 ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age3 ,! *oice ( ! ,supreme ,pontiff 9 mak+ y ! fir/ ,c>d9al ( ! hi]>*y ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates gives great satisfaction "h to all y\r fri5ds4 ,= z honors & dignities 9 ! ,*ur* proce$ by way ( di/+ui%$ m]it & abilities1 ! qualities :i* !y h always recogniz$ & e/eem$ 9 y are by ! ev5t made kn[n to ! :ole _w4 ,?is elevation to ! c>d9alate ( an ,am]ican prelate z a *e]+ sign t ! dignities ( ! ,*ur* are op5 to m5 ( m]it ( all nations1 & x is to be hop$ t e nation w be repres5t$ 9 ! ,college ( ,c>d9als 9 proportion to its importance1 & 9 t way ! ,holy ,see w repres5t by its advis]s ! entire _w1 & r5d] its univ]sality m complete4 ,! ,*ur* w be a ga9]1 & ! _w too2 & ,i h no d\bt t y\r appo9tm5t to ?is (fice 9 ! ,*ur* w be1 f ?is po9t ( view1 popul> ) ! ,am]ican p4 ,8 cont9u$ & ins5sibly increas+ weakness ( body1 z well z :at seem$ an unconqu]able m5tal av]sion to attempt+ ev5 p>tially to resume 8 =m] c>e] 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 seem$ to settle negatively ! "q ( 8 e>ly return home4 ,he began to ?9k t x 0 ,god's w t he %\ld p]man5tly transf] 8 influ5ce to ! old ,_w4 ,8 m9d 0 full ( ! religi\s problems ( ,europe1 & ! notion ( ,pauli/s = ,europe1 diff]+ 9 details f ,am]ican ,pauli/s b id5tical 9 _s1 soon occupi$ 8 ?\ghts4 ,! read] w rememb] ,fa!r ,heck]'s conviction1 express$ :5 leav+ ,rome aft] ! ,vatican ,c\ncil1 t ! condition ( ?+s 9 ! ,old ,_w invit$ ! apo/olate ( a free community ( :olly sanctifi$ m51 su* z he w\ld h ! ,pauli/s to be4 ,he n[ became p]suad$1 or almo/ s1 t ,god meant 8 illness to be ! means ( practically inaugurat+ su* a movem5t4 ,by x ! dim outl9es ( m5's ye>n+s = a religi\s awak5+1 :i* he ev]y:]e met ) among ! ,european nations1 c\ld be br\ght out di/9ctly & realiz$ by an adaptation ( ! ess5tials ( community life to *ang$ ,european conditions4 ,he ?\ght he c\ld select ! lead+ spirits = ! "w1 &1 )\t ov]tax+ 8 /r5g?1 tea* !m ! pr9ciples & inspire !m ) ! _s necess>y to success4 ,all ?is is br\ght =w>d 9 8 lett]s & discuss$4 ,b x 0 n to be 9 8 "t4 ,! foll[+ entries 9 8 j\rnal1 made dur+ ! ,l5t ( #ahgi1 h ?is ,european1 or r univ]sal1 apo/olate 9 view3 ,! ,holy ,_s is prep>+ ! ,*ur* = an increas$ infusion ( ,himself 9 ! he>ts ( ! fai?ful4 ,?is increas$ action ( ! ,holy ,_s w r5ew ! :ole face ( ! e>?1 9 religion & 9 society4 ,s\ls w be inspir$ by ,him to assi/ 9 br++ ab\t ?is end4 ,! "q is h[ %all su* s\ls co-op]ate ) ,him 9 prep>ation = ?is extraord9>y outp\r+ ( div9e grace8 ,! law ( all ext5sive & effectual "w is t ( association4 ,! inspiration & desire & /r5g? to co-op]ate & associate 9 facilitat+ ?is prep>ation = ! ,holy ,_s mu/ come to ea* s\l f ! ,holy ,_s ,himself4 ,:at w be ! nature ( ?is association & ! special "* ( its "w8 ,! end to be _h 9 view w be to set on foot a means ( co-op]ation ) ! ,*ur* 9 ! conque/ ( ! :ole _w to ,*ri/1 ! r5ewal ( ! ,apo/olic _s & life4 ,= unity1 activity1 & *oice ( means reliance %\ld be _h ^u ! bond ( *>ity 9 ! ,holy ,_s & ^u ,8 inspirations4 ,! c5tral tru? to actuate ! memb]s %\ld be ! ,k+dom ( ,heav5 )9 ! s\l1 :i* %\ld be made ! burd5 ( all s]mons1 expla9+ h[ x is to be ga9$ n[4 ,m5 w be call$ = :o h t univ]sal syn!sis ( tru? :i* w solve ! problems1 elim9ate ! antagonisms1 & meet ! great ne$s ( ! age2 m5 :o w def5d & uphold ! ,*ur* aga9/ ! attacks :i* ?reat5 h] de/ruction1 ) weapons suitable to ! times2 m5 :o w turn all ! g5u9e aspirations ( ! age1 9 sci5ce1 9 socialism1 9 politics1 9 spiritism1 9 religion1 :i* are n[ p]v]t$ aga9/ ! ,*ur*1 into means ( h] def5ce & univ]sal triumph4 ,if x be ask$1 !re=e1 9 :at way ! co-op]ation ) ! new phase ( ! ,*ur* 9 ! increase ( int5sity & expansion ( h] div9e life 9 ! s\ls ( m5 is to be in/itut$1 ! answ] is z foll[s3 ,by a movem5t 4 4 4 spr++ f ! syn!sis ( ! mo/ exalt$ fai? ) all ! good & true 9 ! elem5ts n[ plac$ 9 antagonism to ! ,*ur*1 ?us elim9at+ antagonisms & vacat+ controv]sies4 4 4 4' ,c a c]ta9 numb] ( s\ls be f\nd :o are actuat$ by ! in/9ct ( ! ,holy ,_s1 ! g5ius ( grace1 to =m an associative ef=t 9 ! special "w ( ! pres5t "t8 ,if !re be su* a "w1 & an associative ef=t be necess>y1 w n ! ,holy ,_s produce 9 s\ls1 c]ta9 ones at lea/1 su* a vocation8 ,is n ! bond ( unity 9 ! ,holy ,_s :i* w unite su* s\ls all t is ne$$ 9 ! pres5t /ate ( ?+s to d ?is "w8 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiii ,,! ,,exposition ,,( ,,! ,,*ur* ,,:ile 9 ,europe ,god op5$ ,fa!r ,heck]'s s\l to ! cries ( ! nations4 ,he 0 pr(\ndly int]e/$ 9 ! /ate ( religion !re1 & ! p]secutions suff]$ by ,ca?olics 9 ,g]many1 9 ,switz]l&1 & 9 ,italy dur+ 8 /ay1 :ile x ar\s$ 8 sympa?ies1 increas$ 8 desire to f9d a rem$y1 & a fundam5tal "o1 = ! evils f :i* ! ,*ur* suff]$4 ,! peoples ( ! ,old ,_w1 ) _! diff]+ t5d5cies1 7 incessantly disput+ 9 8 m9d4 ,!y 7 always display+ ov] aga9/ ea* o!r _! div]se traits ( race & tradition1 at ! same "t t !y 7 actually pass+ be=e 8 eyes 9 8 con/ant j\rney+s 9 se>* ( heal?4 ,:at amaz$ & no less irritat$ ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ! political apa?y ( ,ca?olics4 ,all ! active spirits seem$ to hate religion4 ,a small m9ority ( anti-,*ri/ians 0 all[$ entire control ( ,italy & ,france1 & exhibit$ 9 ! gov]nm5t ( ^? =emo/ ,ca?olic commonweal?s a pagan f]ocity aga9/ ev]y?+ sacr$2 & ?is 0 met by timid li/lessness on ! "p ( ! ,ca?olic majority4 ,^! latt] evad$ ! accusation ( crim9al c[>dice by an extravagant display ( devotional religion4 ,to acc\nt = ?is anomaly & to (f] a rem$y = x1 ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ! w9t] ( #ahge publi%$ a pamphlet ( "s fifty pages1 entitl$ ,an ,exposition ( ! ,*ur* 9 ,view ( ,rec5t ,difficulties & ,controv]sies & ! ,pres5t ,ne$s ( ! ,age4 ,x is a brief outl9e ( 8 views1 held m or less di/9ctly s9ce 8 case 9 ,rome 9 #aheg-h1 b fully unfold$ 9 8 m9d at ! ,vatican ,c\ncil & matur$ dur+ 8 pres5t soj\rn 9 ,europe2 ! read] has already be5 giv5 a summ>y ( !m 9 a lett] treat+ ( ! provid5tial mean+ ( ! ,vatican decrees4 ,:at is ! matt] ) ,ca?olics1 t !y all[ _! national life1 9 education1 9 art1 9 lit]ature1 9 g5]al politics1 to be paganiz$ by petty cliques ( unbeliev]s8 ,h[ acc\nt = ?is weakness ( "* 9 ,ca?olics8 ,! answ] is t ! devotional & ascetical type on :i* !y are =m$ is "o calculat$ to repress individual activity1 a quality ess5tial to political success 9 our day4 ,en]gy 9 ! _w ( mod]n politics is n ! product ( ! devotional _s dom9ant on ! cont95t ( ,europe4 ,t _s 9 its "t sav$ ! ,*ur*1 = x fo/]$ submission :5 ! temptation 0 to revolt4 ,! exagg]ation1 says ! ,exposition1 ( p]sonal au?ority on ! "p ( ,prote/ants br\ght ab\t 9 ! ,*ur* its great] re/ra9t1 9 ord] t h] div9e au?ority might h its legitimate ex]cise & ex]t its salut>y influ5ce4 ,! errors & evils ( ! times ! ,re=mation era sprang f an unbridl$ p]sonal indep5d5ce1 :i* c\ld only be c\nt]act$ by habits ( increas$ p]sonal dep5d5ce4 ,contr>ia contr>iis curantur4 ,! def5ce ( ! ,*ur* & ! salvation ( ! s\l 7 "u ^! circum/ances ord9>ily secur$ at ! exp5se1 necess>ily1 ( ^? virtues :i* prop]ly g to make up ! /r5g? ( ,*ri/ian manhood4 ,! ga9 0 ! ma9t5ance & victory ( div9e tru?1 & ! salvation ( ! s\l4 ,! loss 0 a c]ta9 fall+ (f 9 en]gy1 result+ 9 decreas$ action 9 ! natural ord]4 ,! =m] 0 a p]man5t & ine/imable ga94 ,! latt] 0 a tempor>y & n irrep>able loss4 ,! passive virtues1 fo/]$ "u an ov]rul+ ,provid5ce = ! def5ce ( ?reat5$ ext]nal au?ority 9 religion1 & produc+ admirable effects ( uni=mity1 discipl9e1 & ob$i5ce1 s]v$ well 9 ! politics ( ! ,re=mation & po/-,re=mation eras1 :5 ne>ly all gov]nm5ts 7 absolute mon>*ies2 b ! pres5t gov]nm5ts are republics or con/itutional mon>*ies1 & are suppos$ to be rul$ by ! citiz5s !mselves4 ,?is dem&s individual initiative1 active p]sonal ex]tion & direct int]f]5ce 9 public affairs4 ,vigilant & c\rage\s vot]s rule ! nations4 ,!re=e1 )\t injury to entire ob$i5ce1 ! active virtues 9 bo? ! natural & sup]natural ord]s mu/ be ma9ly cultivat$2 9 ! fir/ ord] ev]y?+ t makes = self-reliance1 & 9 ! second ! int]ior guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! individual s\l4 ,?is1 ! ,exposition ma9ta9s1 is ! way out ( pres5t difficulties4 ,t x is ! ,provid5tial way out1 is %[n by mo/ /rik+ evid5ce3 ! div]sion ( ! anti-,ca?olic =ces f ! attack aga9/ au?ority to "o aga9/ ! mo/ elem5t>y pr9ciples ( religion--,god1 consci5ce1 & immortality2 ! drift ( ,anglo-,saxon & ,teutonic m9ds ( a religi\s ca/ t[>ds ! ,*ur*1 call+ = spiritual attractions 9 accordance ) ! indep5d5ce ( "* peculi> to ^? races2 ! hopeless failure ( ! po/-,re=mation me?ods to meet ! ne$s ( ! h\r2 & especially ! ,vatican decrees1 :i* h set at re/ all controv]sy on au?ority among ,ca?olics4 ,! ne$s ( ! times1 !re=e1 call = virtues among ,ca?olics :i* %all display ! p]sonal =ce ( ,ca?olic life no less ?an t :i* is organic4 ,^! mu/ all c5tre ar\nd ! cultivation ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! individual s\l4 ,! light ! age requires = its r5ewal1 says ! ,exposition1 c only come f ! same s\rce4 ,! r5ewal ( ! age dep5ds on ! r5ewal ( religion4 ,! r5ewal ( religion dep5ds ^u ! great] effusion ( ! creative & r5ew+ p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,! great] effusion ( ! ,holy ,_s dep5ds on ! giv+ ( increas$ att5tion to ,8 movem5ts & inspirations 9 ! s\l4 ,! radical & adequate rem$y = all ! evils ( our age1 & ! s\rce ( all true progress1 consi/ 9 increas$ att5tion & fidelity to ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l4 ',?\ %alt s5d =? ,?y ,_s & !y %all be creat$3 & ,?\ %alt r5ew ! face ( ! e>?4' ,! foll[+ extract gives ! syn!sis ( ! tw(old action ( ! ,holy ,_s1 %[+ h[ ext]nal au?ority & ob$i5ce to x are amply secur$ by ! int]ior virtues3 ,! ,holy ,_s 9 ! ext]nal au?ority ( ! ,*ur* acts z ! infallible int]pret] & crit]ion ( div9e revelation4 ,! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l acts z ! ,div9e ,life-giv] & ,sanctifi]4 ,x is ( ! highe/ importance t ^! two di/9ct (fices ( ! ,holy ,_s %\ld n be conf\nd$4 ,! supposition t !re c be any opposition1 or contradiction1 betwe5 ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! supreme decisions ( ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 & ! inspirations ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l1 c nev] ent] ! m9d ( an enlight5$ & s9c]e ,*ri/ian4 ,! ,holy ,_s1 :i* ?r\gh ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur* tea*es div9e tru?1 is ! same ,_s :i* prompts ! s\l to receive ! div9e tru?s :i* ,he tea*es4 ,! measure ( our love = ! ,holy ,_s is ! measure ( our ob$i5ce to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 4 4 4 ,!re is "o ,_s1 :i* acts 9 two diff]5t (fices concurr+ to ! same end1 ! reg5]ation & sanctification ( ! s\l4 ,9 case ( obscurity or d\bt conc]n+ :at is ! div9ely reveal$ tru?1 or :e!r :at prompts ! s\l is or is n an inspiration ( ! ,holy ,_s1 rec\rse mu/ be _h to ! ,div9e ,tea*] or crit]ion1 ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,= x mu/ be borne 9 m9d t to ! ,*ur*1 z repres5t$ 9 ! fir/ in/ance by ,/4 ,pet]1 & subsequ5tly by 8 successors1 0 made ! promise ( h] ,div9e ,f\nd]1 t '! gates ( hell %\ld nev] prevail aga9/ h]4' ,no su* promise 0 ev] made by ,*ri/ to ea* individual believ]4 ',! ,*ur* ( ! liv+ ,god1 ! pill> & gr\nd ( ,tru?4' ,! te/1 !re=e1 ( a truly enlight5$ & s9c]e ,*ri/ian w be1 9 case ( unc]ta9ty1 ! promptitude ( 8 ob$i5ce to ! voice ( ! ,*ur*4 ,f ! above pla9 tru?s ! foll[+ practical rule ( conduct may be drawn3 ,! ,holy ,_s is ! imm$iate guide ( ! s\l 9 ! way ( salvation & sanctification2 & ! crit]ion1 or te/1 t ! s\l is guid$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 is its ready ob$i5ce to ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,?is rule removes all dang] :atev]1 & ) x ! s\l c walk1 run1 or fly1 if x *ooses1 9 ! greate/ safety & ) p]fect lib]ty1 9 ! ways ( sanctity4 ,! practical aim ( all true religion is to br+ ea* individual s\l "u ! imm$iate guidance ( ! ,div9e ,_s4 ,! ,div9e ,_s communicates ,himself to ! s\l by means ( ! sacram5ts ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! ,div9e ,_s acts z ! int]pret] & crit]ion ( reveal$ tru? by ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! ,div9e ,_s acts z ! pr9ciple ( reg5]ation & sanctification 9 ea* ,*ri/ian s\l4 ,su* an exposition ( ,*ri/ianity1 ! union ( ! int]nal ) ! ext]nal notes ( cr$ibility1 is calculat$ to produce a m enlight5$ & int5se conviction ( its div9e tru? 9 ! fai?ful1 to /imulate !m to a m en]getic p]sonal action2 &1 :at is m1 x w\ld op5 ! door to _m /ray+ b n altoge!r lo/ *ildr51 = _! return to ! fold ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! increas$ action ( ! ,holy ,_s1 ) a m vigor\s co-op]ation on ! "p ( ! fai?ful1 :i* is 9 process ( realization1 w elevate ! human p]sonality to an int5sity ( =ce & gr&eur productive ( a new era 9 ! ,*ur* & to society2 an era difficult = ! imag9ation to grasp1 & /ill m difficult to describe 9 words1 unless we h rec\rse to ! prophetic language ( ! inspir$ ,scriptures4 ,x is ?us made pla9 t ,fa!r ,heck] does n d5y ! h>mony betwe5 ! devotional _s & practices preval5t 9 diff]5t ages ( ! ,*ur*2 b he calls att5tion to ! fact t ! dom9ant note ( "o age is n always ! same z t 9 ano!r4 ,& 9 us+ ! words crit]ion & te/1 descriptive ( ! ,*ur*1 he w\ld convey _! full mean+3 n m]ely a plumb-l9e = ! ris+ wall b div9e accuracy itself made ext]nal4 ,8 out] crit]ion is to ! inn] life :at articulate spee* is to ! human voice4 ,! ,exposition is no?+ else1 he writes home1 ?an a g5]al outl9e ( a movem5t f )\t to )92 z 9 ! sixte5? c5tury ! movem5t 0 "o f )9 to )\t4 ,?is 0 occasion$ by ! nature ( ! attack ( ,prote/antism4 ,! ,*ur* hav+ ) increas$ ext]nal ag5cies protect$ :at 0 assault$1 c return to h] normal c\rse ) increas$ action4 ,i give an indication ( ! nature ( ?is movem5t3 ,an increas$ action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l 9 consequ5ce ( ?is great] att5tion direct$ to ! int]ior life1 & a m p]fect explanation ( ! same4 ,an exposition ( ! relation ( ! ext]nal to ! int]nal 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,! action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l & ,8 gifts are ! rem$ies = ! evils ( our times4 ,! developm5t ( ! intelligible side ( ! my/]ies ( fai?1 & ! intr9sic reasons ( ! tru?s ( div9e revelation4 ,su* a movem5t w op5 ! door = ! return ( ! ,saxon races4 ,! ,lat9-,celts 9 relation to ! developm5t ( ! hi]>*y1 discipl9e1 wor%ip1 & ae/hetics ( ! ,*ur* are consid]$4 ,causes ( ,prote/antism--antagonism & jeal\sy ( races2 pres5t p]secutions4 ,! ,saxon idea ( ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,reason = x--!y see only ! outw>d & human side ( ! ,*ur*4 ,return ( ! ,saxons 9 consequ5ce ( ! new phase ( developm5t--! display ( ! inw>d & ! div9e to _! intellig5ce4 ,! transition ( races2 9 ! future ! ,saxon w sup]naturalize ! natural1 ! ,lat9-,celts w naturalize ! sup]natural4 ,! plan & sugge/ions giv5 are ! way to escape ! ext]m9ation ( ,*ri/ianity by ! ,saxons1 & ! d5ial ( ,*ri/ianity by ! apo/asy ( ! ,lat9s4 ,! union ( ^! races 9 ! ,*ur*1 ) _! civilization & =ce1 is ! means ( spread+ ,*ri/ianity rapidly ov] ! :ole _w4 ,9 ! ,exposition ,i foll[ simply ! foot/eps ( ! ,*ur* z indicat$ 9 h] hi/ory1 9 ! ,encyclicals ( ,pius ,,ix41 & ! ,vatican ,c\ncil4 ,! ,*ur* is ,god act+ directly on ! human race1 guid+ x to its true de/9y1 ! road ( all true progress4 ,! ,exposition1 z already said1 _h be5 talk$ to all com]s by ,fa!r ,heck]1 & 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ,europe1 b 0 put into %ape 9 ! autumn ( #ahgd1 :ile he 0 9 ! nor? ( ,italy4 ,he took x to ,rome & (f]$ x to ! ,propag&a ,press4 ,no fault 0 f\nd ) x2 _m high dignit>ies1 "s ( !m memb]s ( ! ,congregation ( ! ,sacr$ ,palace1 :i* has *>ge ( ! c5sor%ip1 he>tily approv$ ( x & w\ld h x publi%$ at once2 b at ! la/ mom5t ?is 0 decid$ by ! au?orities to be inexp$i5t4 ,x 0 !n s5t to ,london1 & ,pick]+ br\ght x out anonym\sly1 & x 0 at once put into ,fr5* by ,mrs4 ,crav54 ,x 0 publi%$ z a lead] 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w ab\t ! same "t1 & 9 #ahhg =m$ ! fir/ *apt] ( ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age1 a compilation ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s m important lat] essays4 ,! ,exposition contributes to ! solution ( ! race problem z x affects religion4 ,a glance at ,europe %[s ! radical diff]5ce :i* is symboliz$ by ! t]ms ,transalp9e & ,cisalp9e1 ,lat9 & ,teutonic4 ,! "o gr\p ( races mo/ readily cl+s to ! int]ior virtues ( religion1 ! o!r to ext]nal in/itutions4 ,! problem is h[ to reconcile !m1 h[ to br+ bo? into unity4 ,fa!r ,heck] believ$ t ! ,lat9 race _h cr[n$ its "w 9 ! ,vatican ,c\ncil & done x glori\sly1 & t ! "t _h arriv$ to invite ! ,teutonic race to develop its =ce 9 ! int]ior life ( ! ,*ur*4 ,!re are passages 9 ! foll[+ lett] :i* indicate ! weight ( ?is racial problem to him1 z well z ! sup]natural e>ne/ness :i* he br\ght to ! /udy ( x4 ,x s]ves to expla9 a rem>k he once made3 ,i wrote ! ,exposition :ile ,i 0 hav+ v _m lights ab\t ! ,holy ,gho/--,i c\ldn't help b write x4 ,,p>is1 ,june #aa1 #ahgd4 ,,de> ,,george ,,& ,,joseph9e3 ,!re is n mu* = me to add to my lett] ( ! ?ird ( ?is mon?4 ,my prep>ations are made to g to ,may5ce dur+ ! ,ca?olic ,assembly1 :i* comm5ces on ! fifte5? & la/s ?ree days4 ,!re ,i %all meet sev]al p]sons :om ,i am int]e/$ 9 & wi% to see4 ,besides1 ecclesia/ical affairs 9 ! ,g]man ,empire are 9 a v critical /ate1 & ?is mu/ add to ! int]e/ ( ! ,assembly4 ,meet+1 z ,i frequ5tly d1 ! lead+ m9ds ( ,europe1 enables me to comp>e views1 appreciate difficulties1 & he> objections4 ,x is j z difficult to get ! ,celtic & ,lat9 m9d to conceive & appreciate ! int]nal notes ( ! ,*ur*1 & ! "* ( h] div9e int]ior life1 z x is to get ! ,teutonic m9d to conceive & appreciate ! div9e ext]nal con/itution ( ! ,*ur*1 ! importance1 & ess5tial importance1 ( h] au?ority1 discipl9e1 & liturgy4 ,b ! weakness ( ! =m]1 & ! p]secutions n[ p]mitt$ by ,div9e ,provid5ce to be visit$ on ! latt]1 are tea*+ !m bo? ! lessons !y ne$ to le>n4 ,to complete ! developm5t ( ! tru?1 ( ! ,*ur*1 ea* ne$s ! o!r2 & ,div9e ,provid5ce is %ap+ ?+s s t 9 spite ( all ob/acles1 natural & induc$1 a syn!sis ( !m bo? is =m+ 9 ! bosom ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! "w is sl[ b c]ta91 conceal$ f ord9>y obs]vation because div9e2 b exce$+ly beautiful4 ,und]nea? all ! p]secutions1 ! oppression1 ! false action1 ! :ole outw>dly critical condition ( ! ,*ur* & society1 !re is an ov]p[]+1 c\nt]act+1 div9e curr5t1 lead+ to an all-embrac+1 mo/ complete1 & triumphant unity 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,to see h[ all ?+s--wick$ m5 z well z ! good1 = ,god reigns ov] all--contribute to ?is end & are made to s]ve x1 gives peace to ! m9d1 repose to ! s\l1 & excites admiration & adoration ( ! ,div9e action 9 ! _w4 ,to h a conception ( ?is all-embrac+ & direct action ( ,god 9 ! affairs ( ?is _w1 & by ! light ( fai? to see t ! ,*ur* is ! dwell+ place ( ,8 hol9ess1 maje/y1 m]cy1 & p[]1 & is ! m$ium ( ?is action1 at fir/ /upefies1 ov]:elms1 &1 z x 71 r$uces ! s\l to no?+4 ,by degrees & imp]ceptibly x is rais$ f its no?+ness2 timidly ! s\l op5s its eyes & v5tures to ca/ a glance1 & !n to contemplate ! ,div9ity :i* ev]y:]e surr\nds x1 z air & light d our bodies4 ,! contemplation ( ! ,div9e action becomes its only occupation & x is an irresi/ible "o4 ,all ! life1 m9d1 & /r5g? ( ! s\l is involunt>ily absorb$ 9 ?is direction1 leav+ ! body sc>cely suffici5t /r5g? to cont9ue its ord9>y functions4 ,h[ f> w ! body rega9 its =m] /r5g?8 ,:at w be ! relation ( ! s\l ) its =m] occupations8 ,w ?is additional light require o!r conditions8 ,0 ?is light giv5 = ano!r & wid] field ( labor8 ,^! & _m o!r que/ions mu/ arise 9 ! s\l1 :i* 9 due season w be answ]$4 ,its pres5t duty is to practise con=mity to ,god's w1 pati5ce1 deta*m5t1 discretion1 & confid5ce4 ,!re is h>dly any "p ( ?is ,life :i* does n assi/ "o 9 und]/&+ ! ,exposition1 especially ! *apt]s on ! idea ( a religi\s community & t giv+ 8 spiritual doctr9e4 ,_m lead+ spirits hail$ x ) joy1 among !m ,m>gotti1 ! editor ( ! ,unita ,cattolica ( ,tur91 & ,c>d9al ,des*amps4 ,! =m] made ,fa!r ,heck]'s acqua9tance dur+ a visit to ,tur91 & became a w>m admir] ( him & 8 views4 ,he compell$ him to leave ! hotel & lodge at 8 h\se dur+ 8 /ay 9 t city4 ,:5 ! ,exposition came out he gave x two long & highly comm5datory notices 9 8 j\rnal1 at ! "t ! mo/ influ5tial ,ca?olic "o 9 ,italy1 & publi%$ ?ree *apt]s entire4 ,we h a copy ( ! ,exposition annotat$1 at ,fa!r ,heck]'s reque/1 by ! late di/+ui%$ ,jesuit1 ,fa!r ,h4 ,rami]e4 ,^! comm5ts are valuable & sugge/ive4 ,:ile modify+ ,fa!r ,heck]'s judgm5t z to ! causes ( ! det]ioration ( ,ca?olic manl9ess1 ,fa!r ,rami]e recognizes ! fact4 ,! rem$ies receive 8 emphatic approval1 z also ! au?or's explanation ( ! syn!sis ( ! inn] & out] action ( ! ,holy ,gho/ 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,:5 ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age appe>$ ! ,engli% ,jesuit magaz9e1 ,! ,mon?1 9 its issue ( ,july1 #ahhh1 gave ! book a v full & favorable review1 endors+ all ! pr9ciples ( ! ,exposition4 ,aft] say+ t ! ,vatican decrees m>k a special epo* 9 ! evolution ( ,*ri/ianity1 & close a p]iod ( attack--"o ( ! %>pe/ :i* ! ,*ur* has ev] su/a9$--^u h] ext]nal au?ority1 ! review] cont9ues3 ,x complet$ ! ,*ur*'s def5ce1 & left h] free to cont9ue unimp$$ h] normal c\rse ( int]nal developm5t4 4 4 4 ,! au?or displays rem>kable bread? ( ?\ght1 & ! book conta9s _m passages :i* are n only eloqu5t z a def5ce ( ,ca?olicity1 b :i* _c fail to imp>t in/ruction to ! reflect+ read]4 ,we ?9k x des]v+ ( a wide circulation among bo? cl]gy & laity1 & x is ) a desire to fur!r su* a result t we propose to expla9 at "s l5g? ! views :i* we h already t\*$ ^u4 4 4 4 ,we want a ,ca?olic individualism1 :i* necess>ily requires a cle> & recogniz$ au?ority z a safegu>d aga9/ ! errors to :i* individualism exposes itself1 b :i*1 on ! o!r h&1 c nev] be begott5 by ! m]e pr9ciple ( au?ority z su*4 ,! ,lit]>is*] ,h&weis]1 a ,g]man ,ca?olic critical review1 publi%$ 9 ,mu5/]1 hav+ a high "* & wide circulation1 gave an equally favorable e/imate ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s views 9 a notice ( ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age4 ,! foll[+ extracts f lett]s w close our consid]ation ( ! ,exposition1 :i* we h ?\ght wor?y ( s c>eful & full a /udy because x is ! rem$ial application ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s spiritual doctr9es to ! evils ( ,european ,ca?olicity3 ,x is consol+ to see m5 ( diff]5t op9ions & ( opposite p>ties 9 ! ,*ur* reg>d+ my pamphlet z ! programme ( a common gr\nd on :i* !y c meet & agree4 ,i h _h sev]al int]views ) ,c>d9al ,des*amps4 ,he invit$ me to sp5d ! ev5+s ) him1 z we are old & v close fri5ds4 ,on all po9ts1 ma9 po9ts1 our views are "o4 ,& x is s+ul> h[ ! same precise ideas & views h pres5t$ !mselves at ! same "t to ! m9ds ( u bo?4 ,9 matt]s :i* reg>d my p]sonal direction1 ,i h consult$ him sev]al times1 & fully4 ,he has always tak5 a special int]e/ 9 my welf>e 9 e s5se4 ,8 c\nsel has giv5 me great relief1 increas$ tranquillity1 & w be ( great s]vice4 ,he rema9s "h eight or t5 days long]1 & ,i w see him z (t5 dur+ t p]iod z ,i c4 ,a di/+ui%$ ,swiss orator & prelate1 s9ce made c>d9al1 told ,fa!r ,heck] ( a dev\t prie/ :o gave a l>ge numb] ( retreats to ! cl]gy3 ',:5 ,i saw him la/1' said ,monsignor to me1 'he said t s9ce we _h met he _h giv5 retreats to sev5 hundr$ or eight hundr$ prie/s1 & t he _h read to !m ! ,exposition ( ! ,*ur* :i* ,i gave him at my la/ int]view ) him4' ,x w take "t to und]/& ! ideas 9 ! ,exposition4 ,x w take /ill long] "t to see _! be>+1 application1 & results4 ,few at fir/ w seize _! import2 by degrees !y w take 9 a wid] circle4 ,! difficulties ( ! times1 ! angui% ( _m s\ls 9 ! mid/ ( ! pres5t p]secutions1 etc41 w draw att5tion to any project or plan or sy/em t (f]s a bett] future4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxiv ,,9 ,,! ,,%ad[ ,,( ,,dea? ,i ,,look back1 wrote ,fa!r ,heck] 9 ! summ] ( #ahgi1 on ^! ?ree ye>s z "o cont9u\s & dreadful int]ior /ruggle4 ,?is %[s t ! %ad[s 7 too deep & broad = ! int]vals ( peace1 :i* we "k f 8 lett]s he _h n[ & !n enjoy$1 to bani% ! impression ( con/ant gloom4 ,& ,fa!r ,heck]'s read9ess to return home ^u positive reque/ w be ! bett] appreciat$ :5 we rememb] h[ v pa9ful to him 0 ! v ?\ght ( 8 pa/ occupations4 ,nor 0 8 bodily heal? 9 a hopeful condition4 ,:ile at ,ragatz 9 ! mon? ( ,june1 #ahge1 he met a di/+ui%$ physician f ,p>is1 an excell5t ,ca?olic1 :om he _h be5 /rongly advis$ to consult be=e4 ,glad ( ! *ance1 he submitt$ to a ?or\gh exam9ation1 & receiv$ f him a writt5 /atem5t to ! effect t x w\ld be dang]\s to take up any /eady occupation1 & t he %\ld be entirely free f c>e = at lea/ a ye>2 o!rwise a f9al break-d[n 0 to be expect$4 ,?is seem$ effectually to b> all ?\ghts ( return4 ,& su* 0 8 own settl$ conviction1 z is %[n by ! foll[+1 writt5 ab\t ! end ( ,june3 ,:]e c\ld ,i f9d repose8 ,n 9 ! community2 n at my bro!r's3 n[h]e else to g4 ,!n1 aga91 ,i w\ld be con/antly requir$ to give op9ions & c\nsel 9 ! affairs ( ! community1 :i* w\ld require an application beyond my /r5g?4 ,!re is no o!r way ?an = me to rema9 cont5t$ 9 ,europe1 ) my feebl5ess & obscurity1 9 ! h&s ( ,god4 ,b on ,july #bi he receiv$ a lett] :i* compell$ him to decide betwe5 tranquillity ( _s & bodily com=t--p]haps life itself--on ! "o h&1 & ! call ( 8 bre?r5 on ! o!r4 ,he decid$ )\t a mom5t's hesitation & ) ! utmo/ equanimity4 ,we quote f a lett] to ,george ,heck]3 ,?ree days ago a lett] f ,fa!r ,hewit rea*$ me urg+ my imm$iate return 9 su* /rong language & ) su* consid]ations t ,i wrote a reply express+ my read9ess to return at once4 ,on re-read+ ! lett] ,i f\nd its tone s urg5t t ,i s5t a telegram to ! above effect4 4 4 4 ,9 ,god's h&s are my be+1 my s\l1 & all my faculties1 to d ) !m & direct !m z ,he pleases4 ,to return to ! ,unit$ ,/ates & !re arrange ?+s to ,8 pleasure1 or to leave me "h4 ,i am indiff]5t1 quiet1 entirely ready ei!r n to act or to act4 ,& s 9 ,octob]1 #ahge1 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 aga9 9 ,new ,york4 ,he begg$ ! ,fa!rs to all[ him to /ay ) 8 bro!r = ! pres5t1 = my n]ves c\ld n /& ! noise1 ! r\t9e1 & ! excitem5t ( ! h\se 9 ,fifty-n9? ,/reet4 ,& :5 he did return to ! conv5t to live1 :i* 0 f\r ye>s aft]w>ds1 he 0 q sure t 8 end 0 at h&1 ?\gh x did n come till n9e ye>s lat]4 ,dur+ all ! ?irte5 ye>s betwe5 ,fa!r ,heck]'s return to ,am]ica & 8 dea?1 8 daily ord] ( life 0 pretty mu* ! same z he describ$ x 9 "o ( 8 lett]s f ,europe1 already giv5 to ! read]4 ,he did n resort any long] to *ange ( place or climate z a means ( recov]y2 he _h tri$ t long en\gh4 ,8 physician1 ! "o :o s]v$ ! community1 assi/$ him con/antly ) advice & rem$ies1 & once or twice he tri$ a sanit>ium2 he 0 apt to try any?+ sugge/$1 be+ cr$ul\s ab\t su* matt]s4 ,b 8 /r5g? ( body sl[ly fad$ away4 ,he 0 m di/urb$ ?an surpris$ at ?is1 & f\ght = life e in* ( ! way4 ,if ,i 7 a ,celt1 he once said ) a smile1 ,i %\ld m readily resign myself to die1 b ,i am ( a race t cl+s fa/ to ! e>?4 ,8 p]si/5t /ruggle 0 sometimes calm1 b 0 g5]ally %>p5$ by a horrible dread ( dea?1 :i* fa/5$ on 8 s\l l a vampire1 & gave a /]n aspect to 8 self-def5ce4 ,8 pati5ce 9 suff]+ 0 mo/ admirable1 ?\gh seldom clo!d 9 ! usual =malities4 ,p]haps1 aft] all1 he w\ld sometimes say1 ,god w give me back my heal?1 = ,i h a "w to d4 ,?\gh any?+ b an ill-temp]$ man1 ,fa!r ,heck] 0 yet by nature ard5t & irascible & quickly provok$ by opposition1 b ,god gave him su* a horror ( diss5sion t he w\ld n qu>rel1 ?\gh x 0 (t5 pla9 t 8 peaceful words co/ him a h>d /ruggle4 ,occasionally he lo/ 8 temp] = a little :ile1 & ?is 0 :5 compell$ to att5d to bus9ess "u /ress ( great bodily or m5tal pa94 ,we d n ?9k t he 0 ev] kn[n to attempt to move m5 by ang]1 or ev5 /]nness4 ,if y ev] tell any "o ab\t me1 he said1 say t ,i believ$ 9 prais+ m5 m ?an 9 condemn+ !m1 & t ,i valu$ praise z a high] =m ( influ5ce ?an any k9d ( ?reat5+ or compulsion4 ,nor did he resort to ! =malities ( ob$i5ce to secure 8 end4 ,:y don't y put me "u ob$i5ce to d ?is8 ask$ a fa!r :o did n exactly approve ( a proposal ,fa!r ,heck] _h made to him4 ,! answ] 0 giv5 ) a good deal ( heat3 ,i h nev] done su* a ?+ 9 my life1 & ,i am n go+ to beg9 n[6 ,nor _h he any use = bitt] spee* ev5 9 cold blood4 ,"o ?+1 he said 9 a lett]1 ,i w n[ correct2 a sne]--int5tionally or consci\sly-- is a ?+ t1 s f> z my memory s]ves1 ,i am z innoc5t ( z a little babe4 ,yet he c\ld be s>ca/ic1 z ! foll[+ memor&um %[s3 ,c>d9al ,cull5 once said to me1 aft] ,i _h made a j\rney ?r\gh ,irel&1 ',well1 ,fa!r ,heck]1 :at d y ?9k ( ,irel&8' ,i answ]$3 ',y\r ,em95ce1 my ?\ghts ab\t ,irel& are su* t ,i w get out ( ! c\ntry z soon z ,i c2 = if ,i express$ my s5tim5ts ,i %\ld soon be put into jail = ,f5ianism6' ,?is 0 9 #ahfg :ile ,f5ianism 0 rampant4 ,( c\rse he did n approve ( x1 b ! sights he saw taught him its awful provocation4 ,& once :5 unduly press$ ) ! dictum ( an au?or ^: range ( p[] 0 n high en\gh to ov]come ,fa!r ,heck]'s objections1 he said3 ,i am n cont5t to live to be ! e*o ( dead m5's ?\ghts4 ,b x 0 n by skill 9 ! ?ru/ & p>ry ( argum5tative f5ce t ,fa!r ,heck] won 8 way 9 a discussion1 b by ! h>d drive ( a great pr9ciple4 ,! foll[+ memor&um describes ! effect ( ?is on an ord9>y man3 ,x is r amus+ :5 ,fa!r ,heck] asks me "s ( 8 /unn+ que/ions on ! deepe/ topics ( ! div9e sci5ces4 ,i look blank at him1 ,i ask him to expla91 ,i fi% up "s /ale commonplace f ! memory ( my /udies--& he !n gives me 8 own orig9al1 8 lum9\s answ]4 ,& bo? 8 *oice ( subjects 9 conv]sation & 8 natural mann] 7 accord+ to 8 temp]am5t1 :i* 0 m$itative4 ,?is gave 8 c\nt5ance :5 at re/ a peaceful ca/ until )9 a few ye>s ( ! end1 :5 dea?'s pale flag ca/ ^u x a %ade ( =ebod+4 ,we h a photograph ( him tak5 :5 he 0 ab\t =ty-five & 9 av]age good heal?1 %[+ a tranquil face1 full ( ?\ght & ) eyes ca/ d[n2 to ! writ]'s m9d x is ! typical ,isaac ,heck]4 ,b ?is expression *ang$ 9 conv]sation1 :5 n only 8 words b 8 ge/ures & 8 glances *all5g$ a fri5dly b en]getic conflict ( op9ion4 ,if x be ask$1 h[ did ,fa!r ,heck] recreate himself dur+ ^? m\rnful ye>s1 ! answ] is t recreation 9 ! s5se ( a pleasurable relaxation seem$ contr>y to 8 nature :e!r 9 sickness or 9 heal?4 ,x 0 once said to him1 ,ea/] week is always a lazy "t4 ,no1 x is n1 he answ]$4 ,i nev] h kn[n a "t1 n a mom5t1 9 my :ole life1 :5 ,i felt lazy or 0 9 an idle mood4 ,he f\nd himself oblig$1 h[ev]1 to get out ( ! h\se & take ex]cise1 walk+ 9 ! p>k lean+ on ! arm ( "o ( ! community1 or1 if he 0 m ?an usually weak1 be+ driv5 9 8 bro!r's c>riage4 ,!re 7 occasions :5 to kill "t 0 = him to kill c>e--to call 8 m9d away f ?\ghts ( dea? & ( ! judgm5t1 ! dread ( :i* fell ^u him l et]nal doom4 ,!n he w\ld try to get "s "o to talk to1 or to g ) him & look at pictures & /atues2 or he w\ld "w at m5d+ old clocks1 a pretty well m5d$ collection ( :i* he kept 9 8 room aga9/ su* occasions4 ,9 ! p>k he w\ld (t5 g & look at ! bea/s 9 ! m5ag]ie1 & he spoke ( !m affectionately4 ,!y br+ to my m9d ! p[] & beauty ( ,god1 he said4 ,he came to meals ) ! community1 at lea/ to d9n]1 until five or six ye>s be=e 8 dea?1 :5 8 appetite became s unreliable t he took :at food he c\ld1 & :5 he c\ld1 9 8 room4 ,he also att5d$ ! community recreations aft] meals until a few ye>s be=e ! end2 b x 0 (t5 notic$ t ! process ( humiliation he 0 und]go+ caus$ him to creep away into a corn]1 sit a:ile ) a v deject$ look1 & !n we>ily g up/airs to 8 room4 ,:5 he 0 urg$ n to d ?is1 ,i _c help x to save my life1 0 all ! answ] he c\ld give4 ,he f9ally gave up ! recreations almo/ entirely4 ,b he hat$ laz9ess4 ,i am s weak1 he once said1 & my bra9 is s easily tir$ out t ,i am =c$ to read a great deal to recreate myself4 ,t's :y y see me read+ s mu*4 ,! book 9 :i* he 0 at ! mom5t seek+ recreation 0 a pond]\s "w on metaphysics by a prolix ,scot*man1 treat+ 9 _m dre>y *apt]s ( su* amus+ topics z ! unity ( ! act ( p]ception ) ! object p]ceiv$6 ,z may be suppos$ ( su* a man1 ^: illness =bade action & ^: int]ior trials made contemplation an agony1 he *af$ sometimes at 8 en=c$ inactivity1 ?\gh he 0 nev] he>d1 z f> z we c get evid5ce1 op5ly to compla9 ( x4 ,"t & /agnation ( bodily =ces did n alt] 8 progressive ideas4 ,is x n wis]1 he said1 to give "o's ?\ght & en]gy to prep>e ! way = ! future success & triumph ( religion ?an to labor to cont9ue ! pres5t /ate ( ?+s1 :i* mu/ be & is be+ supplant$8 ,su* an attitude may n be und]/ood & may be mis9t]pret$1 & be "o ( trial & suff]+2 /ill x is ! only "o :i*1 consi/5tly ) a s5se ( duty1 c be tak5 & ma9ta9$4 ,a bi%op on 8 way to ,rome once call$ on ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,tell ! ,holy ,fa!r1 he said to him1 t !re are ?ree ?+s :i* w greatly advance religion3 ,fir/1 to place ! :ole ,*ur* 9 a mission>y attitude--make ! ,propag&a ! "r arm ( ! ,*ur*4 ,second1 *oose ! c>d9als f ! ,ca?olics ( all nations1 s t !y %all be a s5ate repres5t+ all ,*ri/5dom4 ,?ird1 make full use ( mod]n appliances & me?ods = transact+ ! bus9ess ( ! ,holy ,see4 ,sometimes he discuss$ ! activity ( mod]n comm]ce z tea*+ religi\s m5 a lesson4 ,he once said3 ,:5 ,fa!r ,heck] is dead "o ?+ may be laid to 8 cr$it3 t he always prote/$ t x is a %ame & an outrage t m5 ( ! _w d m = money ?an religi\s m5 w d = ! s]vice ( ,god4 ,no glutton ev] dev\r$ a fea/ m eag]ly ?an ,fa!r ,heck] read a s]mon1 a lecture1 or an editorial %[+ ! tr5d ( non-,ca?olic ?\ght4 ,aft] 8 dea? 8 desk 0 f\nd litt]$ ) innum]able clipp+s ( ! sort1 _m ( !m p5cill$ ) und]l9+s & ) notes4 ,^! furni%$ mu* ( ! matt] ( 8 conv]sation1 & d\btless ( 8 pray]s4 ,once he wrote to a fri5d3 ,nobody is necess>y to ,god & to ! accompli%m5t ( 8 designs4 ,yet at times ,i wi% t ,i _h ! virtue t "s creatures h2 :5 cut into pieces ea* piece becomes a new complete individual ( ! same species4 ,i %\ld cut myself into at lea/ a doz5 pieces to meet ! dem&s made ^u me4 ,:at a spl5did ?+ x is to ?9k ( our ,"l go+ ab\t do+ wond]s1 et]nal & inf9ite ?+s1 & all ! "t seem+ to be unoccupi$4 ,! truly simple s\l r$uces all occupations to "o1 & 9 t "o accompli%es all4 ,& 8 organiz+ faculty w\ld busy itself 9 v>i\s s*emes1 :i*1 if !y c\ld n cure 8 weak body1 c\ld relax ) a fanci$ activity 8 tir$ s\l4 ,?us 9 a lett] he said3 ,:y %\ld we n =m a league = ! cause ( our ,"l1 to :om we owe all8 ,unres]v$ devotion to ,8 cause ) pati5ce1 p]sev]ance1 humility1 & sweetness1 are weapons t no man or woman or ?+ c )/&4 ,our ,"l has promis$ t if we believe 9 ,him we %all d great] works ?an ,he did4 ,let u believe 9 ,him1 & clo! ourselves ?r\gh fai? 9 ,him ) ,8 virtues1 & :o %all resi/ u8 ,! fir/ ( all successes is ,*ri/'s triumph 9 our s\ls4 ,ev]y?+ t leads to ?is1 humiliations1 afflictions1 calumnies1 contempt1 mortifications1 all "w = u a glory exce$+ ! imag9ation ( man4 ,to suff] = ,*ri/'s sake is ! %ort-cut 9 ! way ( becom+ ,*ri/-l4 ,! foll[+ anecdote ( 8 mission>y days %[s ,fa!r ,heck]'s contempt = lazy devotion4 ,once1 :5 ^u a mission1 a "y prie/ j return$ home f ,rome1 :]e he _h made 8 /udies1 express$ 8 desire to get back aga9 to ,italy z soon z possible1 say+1 ,i f9d no "t "h to pray4 ,fa!r ,heck] felt indignant1 = x did n seem to him t ! "y man 0 v mu* occupi$4 ,don't be su* a baby1 said he4 ,look ar\nd & see h[ mu* "w !re is to be done "h4 ,is x n bett] to make "s return to ,god--"h 9 y\r own c\ntry--= :at ,he has done = y1 r ?an to be suck+ y\r ?umbs abroad8 ,:at k9d ( piety d y call t8 ,he took a p]sonal int]e/ 9 all ! memb]s ( ! community1 & ?is 0 greatly height5$ if any "o fell sick4 ,we rememb] 8 excitem5t :5 x 0 ann\nc$ t "o ( ! ,fa!rs1 :o _h be5 s5t to a hospital = a surgical op]ation1 _h gr[n worse & 0 9 dang] ( dea?4 ,he began to pace 8 room1 to "q %>ply ab\t doctors & nurses1 & imm$iately ord]$ ,masses to be said & special pray]s by ! community2 & ?is fa!r he _h se5 v little ( & h>dly knew f ! o!rs4 ,i _c tell1 he wrote to a fri5d at ! "t ( ,fa!r ,tillotson's illness1 ,i d>e n express1 h[ mu* ,i love him1 :at he is to me4 ,always t5d]-he>t$1 ! ne>] he came to ! end & ! m he suff]$ ! m g5tle 7 8 feel+s t[>ds all1 ! m k9dly grew 8 looks1 b also ! m sad & we>y4 ,he 0 always c>eful to express ?anks = favors1 small or great4 ,! foll[+ is f a lett] to a fri5d3 ,y\r la/ note conta9$ at ! end a k9d invitation4 ,don't be tr\bl$2 ,i'm n com+6 ,d y "k t sometimes ,i am tempt$ to ?9k t ,i am necess>y8 ,sometimes ! ?\ght has come to me t ,i might run away f home a week or s4 ,!n ,i h driv5 ! ?\ght away z ,i w\ld a temptation4 ,b ,i wi%$ to ?ank y none ! less = y\r invitation1 ?\gh ,i %\ld nev] see y aga94 ,i h an uncontrollable horror ( +ratitude4 ,dur+ 8 long ye>s ( illness ,fa!r ,heck]'s read+ cont9u$ ^u ! l9es he _h ev] foll[$1 ! ,scriptures hold+1 ( c\rse1 ! fir/ place4 ,besides read+ or hav+ read to him c]ta9 p>ts adapt$ to ! spiritual probation he 0 und]go+1 su* z ,job1 ! ,passion ( our ,"l1 & *apt]s ( ! sapi5tial books1 he also took ! entire ,scriptures 9 c\rse1 go+ sl[ly ?r\gh !m f cov] to cov] & insi/+ on e ^w be+ read1 g5ealogies & all4 ,he w\ld sometimes int]rupt ! read] to make comm5ts & ask que/ions4 ,! la/ words t he li/5$ to at night 7 ! words ( ,scripture1 read to him aft] he _h got into b$4 ,he decl>$ t !y soo!d him & settl$ 8 m9d & calm$ its di/urbance1 & ?is 0 easily se5 by 8 looks & mann]4 ,"s :o knew him well ?\ght f 8 comm5ts t ,god gave him infus$ k ( a r>e ord] ab\t ! s5se ( ,scripture4 ,once he said3 ,:5 y 7 read+ ,eze*iel la/ night1 oh1 y _c und]/& :at ?\ghts ,i _h6 ,dur+ ! pa/ six mon?s ,i h le>n$ h[ to und]/& him4 ,i say )9 myself3 ',o ,eze*iel6 ,eze*iel6 no "o und]/&s1 no "o und]/&s y 9 ?is _w1 except "o "h & !re4' ,next to ,scripture came ,/4 ,?omas & ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross1 ! "o = dogmatic & philosophical1 ! o!r = devotional uses4 ,x mu/ h be5 soon aft] return+ to ,am]ica z a ,r$emptori/ t he procur$ a copy ( ,alagona's ,comp5dium ( ,/4 ,?omas1 submitt$ x to ,bi%op ,neumann1 ^: le>n+ 0 9 high repute1 & obta9$ 8 assurance ( its accuracy4 ,t little book is a curiosity ( und]l9+ & v>i\s o!r =ms ( emphasiz+4 ,x 0 ) him till dea?4 ,f x he ref]r$ to ! full works ( ,/4 ,?omas = complete /atem5ts1 b he lov$ to pond] ! brief summ>y ( ! abridgm5t & "w ! pr9ciples out 9 8 own way4 ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross & ,lallemant1 z already /at$1 7 8 h&-books ( my/icism & ascetic pr9ciples4 ,! =m] he caus$ to be read to him 9 regul> c\rse ov] & ov] aga91 enjoy+ e syllable ) fre% reli%4 ,9 lat] days ! ,life ( ,m>y ,w>d1 by ,m>y ,ca!r9e ,*amb]s1 & ,! ,glories ( ,div9e ,grace1 by ,s*eeb51 af=d$ him special pleasure4 ,books :i* told ( ! religi\s t5d5cies ( m9ds outside ! ,*ur* 7 sure to int]e/ him4 ,he /udi$ !m z ,columbus inspect$ ! drift+ we$s & ! wild birds enc\nt]$ on 8 voyage ( discov]y4 ,^? :o s]v$ him z read]s sometimes f\nd ?is k9d ( lit]ature pretty dry1 j z ,columbus's crew d\btless f\nd x idle "w to fi% up ! float+ we$s ( ! sea4 ,! foll[+ s5t5ces occur 9 a di>y writt5 :ile 9 ,europe 9 #ahge4 ,x is a /atem5t ( 8 op9ion ( ! objective po9ts at :i* ,ca?olic tea*]s & writ]s ( our day %\ld aim3 ,9 dogmatic !ology1 :5 treat+ ( ! doctr9e ( ! fall ( man keep 9 view ! value ( human nature & ! necessity ( div9e grace prec$+ e act ( ,*ri/ian life4 ,9 moral !ology1 /imulate ! s5se ( p]sonal responsibility4 ,9 ascetic !ology1 fidelity to ! ,holy ,_s4 ,9 polemic !ology1 develop ! intr9sic notes ( ! ,*ur*4 ,z to novels1 he fully appreciat$ _! p[] ov] m9ds1 b we believe t he did n read half a doz5 9 8 :ole life1 & ^! he treat$ z he did grav] works3 he /udi$ !m4 ,to read is "o ?+1 to /udy is ano!r1 says ,c>d9al ,mann+2 b all read+ 0 /udy to ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,we rememb] "o novel :i* he read1 sl[ly & mo/ c>efully1 und]l9+ mu* ( x & fill+ ! m>g9s ( e page ) notes4 ,:y don't y read novels1 z o!r p d8 he 0 ask$4 ,because life is m novel ?an any fiction1 = fiction is b an attempt to pa9t life1 he answ]$4 ,no pr9t$ matt] ( any k9d1 mu* less a book1 ev] c\ld be a play?+ to ,isaac ,heck]4 ,he (t5 made m ( ! s5t5ces on a scrap ( newspap]1 & /udi$ !m f> h>d]1 ?an ! writ] ( !m himself _h done4 ,a man ^: play & "w are 9 su* problems z1 h[ ,god is kn[n1 h[ ! ,tr9ity subsi/s1 :at beatitude is1 h[ ,god's be+ is mirror$ 9 man's activity1 has too real a life )9 him & ab\t him to t>ry long 9 fiction or 9 any ( ! by-roads ( lit]ature4 ,poetry1 h[ev]1 9 its high] =ms1 or ) a /rong e?ical t5d5cy1 he 0 v fond (4 ,p]haps 8 favorite among ! poets 0 ,cov5try ,patmore4 ,aft] return+ to ,new ,york ,fa!r ,heck]1 besides sup]vis+ ! editorial "w ( ,! ,ca?olic ,_w1 wrote an occasional article = its pages4 ,! m important ( ^!1 twelve 9 numb]1 ) ! ,exposition z a lead]1 7 publi%$ 9 a volume already m5tion$1 ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age4 ,?is book appe>$ 9 #ahhg1 & conta9s 8 views ( ! religi\s problems 9 ,europe & ,am]ica1 & also "s controv]sial writ+s aga9/ or?odox ,prote/antism & ,unit>ianism4 ,^! are well-writt51 clean-cut1 & aggressive pieces ( polemical writ+1 :e!r aga9/ ! errors ( ,prote/ants or ( infidels4 ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age is ! be/ exhibit ( ! au?or's op9ions & pr9ciples on topics ( religi\s int]e/ & ^? ( race & epo* hav+ a religi\s be>+4 ,he has left a consid]able am\nt ( unpubli%$ matt]1 notably "s essays on h[ ,god is kn[n1 ! reality ( ideas1 & ! ,tr9ity1 toge!r ) mu* on spiritual subjects4 ,let u hope t ^! & m ( 8 unpubli%$ writ+s w "s day be giv5 to ! public4 ,he always f\nd difficulty 9 prep>+ matt] = ! press4 ,us+ a p5cil & a rubb] eras]1 he (t5 positively wore ! pap] ?r\gh ) writ+1 correct+1 & writ+ aga94 ,he seem$ scrupul\s ab\t su* matt]s1 & 9 ^! circum/ances he lack$ ! imm$iate expression ( 8 ?\ghts :i* came to him s spontane\sly 9 8 lett]s & di>ies1 z well z 9 8 public speak+4 ,b he dictat$ readily1 & ) a result ( rea*+ quickly ! =m ( words he w\ld f9ally be cont5t )4 ,by ?is means he prep>$ 8 articles on ,doctor ,br[nson1 :i* appe>$ 9 ,! ,ca?olic ,_w betwe5 ,april & ,novemb]1 #ahhg4 ,8 int]c\rse ) ! memb]s ( ! community 0 naturally mu* int]f]$ ) by 8 illness4 ,b he lov$ to li/5 to !m speak+ ( _! "w1 0 greatly int]e/$ 9 ! build+ & decorat+ ( ! new *ur*1 & :5 ! mission>ies came home 0 eag] to he> !m tell ( _! success4 ,he w\ld inv>iably sugge/ t we %\ld /udy h[ to ext5d our prea*+ outside ! regul> missions1 s z to take 9 non-,ca?olics4 ,he 0 also alive to opportunities = /imulat+ o!rs1 9 & out ( ! community1 to d lit]>y "w4 ,at ,lake ,george1 :]e he sp5t 8 summ]s ) ! community1 he 0 able to h a famili> contact ) u all1 especially ! /ud5ts1 :om he enli/$ 9 work+ ab\t ! gr\nds or ! h\se1 help+ z be/ he c\ld4 ,b aft] 8 illness began he ev] %[$ a c]ta9 con/ra9t ( mann] :5 ! conv]sation took a grave turn1 a k9d ( %yness1 :i* a judge ( "* might int]pret z mean+1 ,i am afraid y'll misund]/& me2 ,i am afraid y'll ?9k ,i am a vision>y4 ,,*apt] ,,xxxv ,,conclusion ,,fa!r ,,heck]',s pray] dur+ all ^! ye>s 0 a /ate ( :at seem$ almo/ un9t]rupt$ contemplation ( v>i$ int5sity4 ,he att5d$ ! ev5+ m$itation ( ! community z long z he _h /r5g? to d s1 frequ5tly giv+ a comm5t>y on ! po9ts read out at ! beg9n+1 simple1 direct1 & f]v5t4 ,he 0 exce$+ly fond ( assi/+ at ,high ,mass on ,sundays & fea/ days1 & he _h a small oratory built betwe5 ! h\se & ! new *ur*1 f :i*1 by pass+ a few /eps f 8 room1 he c\ld he> ! music & see ! function ?r\gh a w9d[ op5+ into ! sanctu>y4 ,?is (t5 ov]p[]$ him ) emotion1 :i* 0 sometimes s /rong z to drive him back to 8 room & into b$4 ,once a week & on ! m solemn fe/ivals 0 z (t5 z he c\ld say ,mass1 or ev5 he> x1 on acc\nt ( 8 extreme weakness 9 ! morn+s4 ,= ! la/ ?ree or f\r ye>s ( 8 life to say ,mass at all became a /ruggle :i* 0 z curi\s z x 0 di/ress+ to witness4 ,^? :o _h (t5 read ( su* ?+s 9 ! lives ( ! s]vants ( ,god 7 nev]!less amaz$ at ! sight ( !m 9 ,fa!r ,heck]4 ,! foll[+ is f a memor&um3 ,fa!r ,heck]3 ,d y "k :at x is to be 9 spontane\s relations ) ,god--:]e ! ,div9e ,object works ^u ! s\l spontane\sly8 ,x is t :i* prev5ts me f say+ ,mass1 because ,i make a fool ( myself4 ,at any po9t ,i am apt to be s influ5c$ by ,god z to be utt]ly depriv$ ( physical =ce1 to s9k d[n helpless4 ,at my bro!r's h\se !y expect x & get me a *air4 ,a few mom5ts on a *air1 & ,i am ready to g on4 ,n[1 if ,i yield to ?is ,i "k t ,i %all be ?r[n into a clean helpless /ate1 & ,i h a practical "w to d4 ,"q3 ,does ?is effect come at receiv+ ,communion8 ,answ]3 ,i don't "k1 z ,i h nev] yet receiv$ ,communion out ( ,mass4 ,b ,i am afraid ( x4 ,any su* ?+ is apt to ?r[ me (f1 & ,i am afraid4 ,"q3 ,b suppose x to be ,god's w t y %\ld say ,mass not)/&+ ?is difficulty8 ,answ]3 ,!n let ,him br+ x ab\t4 ,at "o "t sev]al mon?s pass$1 mon?s ( v l[ vitality 9 body & awful d>kness ( s\l1 dur+ :i* he nei!r said ,mass nor receiv$ ,communion4 ,! foll[+ memor&um describes h[ ?is p]iod1 p]haps ! mo/ pa9ful ( 8 life1 0 end$3 ,*ri/mas1 #ahhe4--;,= ! fir/ "t s9ce e>ly summ] ,fa!r ,heck] und]took to say ,mass3 ,i assi/$ him1 & a /ormy "t we _h ( x4 ,x 0 at five 9 ! morn+ & 9 ! oratory4 ,he want$ to h ! door lock$1 b !re 0 no key4 ',don't speak a ^w to me1' he said :ile he 0 dress+ 9 8 room4 ,arriv$ 9 ! oratory1 he sank d[n ^u a b5* z if "s "o _h /ruck him2 he ?rew 8 birettum d[n on ! floor1 & began to weep & cry 9 a v m\rnful way & al\d4 ,b he quickly recov]$1 & re/$ z if he 7 prep>+ to be hang$4 ,i support$ him ov] to ! alt>1 & z he began ! ,judica he blubb]$ out ! words l a s*ool-boy be+ :ipp$4 ,mo/ ( ! ,mass he said out l\d1 h>dly hold+ 9 8 sobs any:]e except f ! hanc igitur till ne> ! ,pat] ,no/]4 ,8 calme/ "t 0 dur+ t mo/ solemn "p1 & at 8 ,communion4 ,?ree or f\r times he 0 =c$ to sit d[n on a *air ,i _h provid$ = him on ! pr$ella4 ,at ! ,mem5to = ! liv+ he 0 deeply affect$ & patt$ ! floor ) 8 foot1 sobb+ al\d & act+ l a *ild ) an un5durable too?a*e4 ,he 0 afraid ( ! ,pat] ,no/] & ask$ me to say x ) him1 :i* ,i did2 also v>i\s words & s5t5ces 9 o!r p>ts ( ! ,mass4 ,i h he>d him say t ! ,pat] ,no/] is a pray] :i* breaks him d[n4 ,aft] he 0 ?r\gh he insi/$ on try+ to say ! ,pope's pray]s4 ,we said ! ,hail ,m>ys & ! ,hail1 ,holy ,que51 toge!r1 & ,i recit$ ! pray] = him4 ,i _h to take (f 8 ve/m5ts ! be/ ,i c\ld :ile he sat1 & :5 ,i got him d[n to 8 room & into b$1 he 0 9 a /ate ( ne>ly complete unconsci\sness4 ,aft] say+ my ?ree ,masses1 ,i saw him aga9 at ab\t #h4cj1 f\nd him up & dress$ & v bright1 & he has be5 p>ticul>ly s all day4 ,:at foll[s is f a lett] dat$ e>ly 9 #ahhf1 & seems to ref] to ! occasion above describ$4 ,he speaks ( himself 9 ! ?ird p]son3 ,& he ,fa!r ,heck] 0 nev] s occupi$ z n[1 al?\gh he is do+ no?+ & has be5 9 t condition = mon?s4 ,?\gh he does he> ,mass1 he does n1 because he _c1 say x--)\t %[+ :at a big fool he is4 ,h[ev] he has begun aga9 to say x4 ,if x _h n be5 = human respect he w\ld n h said x la/ ,sunday2 he 0 too feeble4 ,god is kill+ him by sl[ fire1 by in*es4 ,he dies t]ribly h>d4 ,if ,fa!r ,heck] _h _h an unimpair$ physical sy/em :5 8 int]ior trials came1 he might h resi/$ ! n]v\s depression :i* !y caus$1 at lea/ well en\gh to ma9ta9 an active "p 9 8 und]tak+s4 ,or if 8 bodily weakness1 result+ f 8 e>ly au/]ities1 _h be5 accompani$ ) int]ior equanimity1 he might h held up4 ,a rickety %ip c1 ) c>e & skill1 get into port if ! eng9e is s\nd1 & s c a s\nd %ip ) a brok5-d[n eng9e sail home1 h[ev] sl[ly4 ,b ) bo? a rickety %ip & a disabl$ eng9e ! port %\ld be ne> at h& or !re is dang] ( %ipwreck4 ,t ,fa!r ,heck] did n die long be=e he did1 0 due1 ap>t f ,god's special designs1 to ! extraord9>y skill & c>e ( ,doctor ,james ,beg51 :o 0 also an atta*$ fri5d4 ,mr4 ,an?ony ,ellis1 "o ( 8 =m] p5it5ts1 s]v$ him 9 8 sick-room out ( pure love f #ahgi until 8 dea?1 :i* prec$$ ,fa!r ,heck]'s by ab\t a ye>4 ,he _h a k9d-he>t$ successor 9 ,mr4 ,patrick ,mc,cann4 ,fa!r ,heck]'s belov$ bro!r ,george di$ on ,febru>y #ad1 #ahhh4 ,he _h be5 ail+ = "s "t & ,fa!r ,heck] w5t to see him frequ5tly4 4 4 4 ,george & ,i1 he once said1 7 unit$ 9 a way no words c describe4 ,our union 0 some?+ extremely spiritual & div9e4 ,! foll[+ memor&um tells h[ ,fa!r ,heck] receiv$ ! news3 ,george ,heck] di$ ab\t n9e o'clock la/ night1 & :5 ,i in=m$ ,fa!r ,heck] ( x ?is morn+ he 0 deeply mov$4 ',don't say a ^w to me6' he cri$1 'n a ^w4 ,read some?+6 ,read some?+ quick6' ,i /epp$ ov] to ! table & took ! ,scriptures & began to read ! ?irte5? *apt] ( ,/4 ,john1 read x ?r\gh1 & ano!r *apt]4 ,by t "t he calm$ d[n4 ,he only wept twice1 except a few little sobs1 & w5t out rid+ z usual ?is aft]noon4 ,he is pr(\ndly mov$4 ',i knew x1' he said ?is morn+2 ',i saw x1 ,i saw x la/ night--x seem$ to me t ,i saw x4 ,i came ne> com+ to y\r room at half-pa/ t51 b conclud$ n to d s4' ,ano!r "t to-day he said3 ',if ,god enables me to be> ?is ,i hope ,i %all be able to d my allott$ "w4' ,he bore x well1 b x add$ v mu* to a burd5 already too heavy4 ,= "s weeks aft]w>ds he n[ & !n moan$ & wept = 8 bro!r1 & ?is happ5$ occasionally till summ] came4 ,^? :o att5d$ ,fa!r ,heck] c\ld n b be conv9c$1 f :at !y saw & he>d1 t ,god all[$ ,george to visit 8 bro!r m ?an once aft] 8 dea?1 & ^! sup]natural int]views 7 productive ( m+l$ consolation ( s\l & pa9 ( body to ! survivor4 ,george ,heck] 0 wor?y ( 8 bro!r's love4 ,he 0 a noble "*1 full ( t sort ( religion n[adays mo/ ne$$4 ,8 piety fl\ri%$ 9 ! )]+ atmosph]e ( weal? & 9 ! turmoil ( comm]cial life4 ,indu/ry1 ?rift1 ent]prise1 quick p]ception ( opportunities1 det]m9ation1 a ke5 s5se ( 8 rights & a bold h& to def5d !m1 manly frankness1 7 conspicu\s traits 9 him & made him a ri* m]*ant4 ,b all ^! qualities s]v$ him z well = high spiritual ends4 ,he 0 ess5tially & dom9antly a spiritual man1 fond ( pray]1 regul> 9 all religi\s duties4 ,he 0 z hone/ z ! day1 & all = consci5ce' sake & ! love ( ,god4 ,8 und]/&+ 0 wide & cle>1 8 he>t t5d]1 simple1 & c\rage\s4 ,he lov$ 8 wife & *ildr51 he lov$ 8 bro!r ,isaac1 ) an absorb+ devot$ness1 & ^! loves 7 bl5d$ & m+l$ into "o ) ! love ( ,god4 ,8 *>ities are kn[n to ! read]1 b !y %\ld be und]/ood z ! result n m]ely ( affection = 8 bro!r1 or ev5 ( fai? 9 8 apo/olate1 b also f 8 own p]ception ( ! intr9sic wor? ( ! und]tak+s !mselves4 ,we "k n :at quality c\ld be add$ to ,george ,heck] to make him a model ,*ri/ian ( our day4 ,8 dea? _h a s]i\s effect on ,fa!r ,heck]'s /ate ( body & m9d4 ,b f ! previ\s autumn & dur+ ! w9t] foll[+ he _h fail$ rapidly4 ,9 fact1 he _h reque/$ & receiv$ ! la/ ,sacram5ts f ,fa!r ,hewit on ,septemb] #ae1 #ahhg2 b ?is 0 on acc\nt ( an al>m+ irregul>ity ( ! he>t's action1 :i* 0 b tempor>y4 ,he _h no long di/ance to drop at any "t to get to ! bottom1 & x became evid5t 9 ! summ] ( #ahhh t ! end 0 n f> (f4 ,he c\ld n /& ! /rong air ( ,lake ,george t summ]1 & came home aft] be+ !re b a c\ple ( weeks4 ,he tri$ ! sea-side ) ev5 worse success2 & ! %ort j\rneys he made 7 extremely pa9ful4 ,! p>oxysms ( ang9a pectoris became m frequ5t & daily left _! victim less able to rally4 ,pati5ce /ra9$ to ! utt]mo/ by physical suff]+1 ! m9d di/ress$1 fits ( despond5cy & ( indescribable gloom1 ! weight ( a body ( dea?--all ?is he _h borne = sixte5 ye>s1 ) only occasional int]vals ( peace4 ,!re 0 little left to suff] except dea?4 ,8 bodily resi/ance grew weak] t[>ds ! end ( 8 la/ summ] on e>?1 & he lo/ fle% rapidly4 ,! fulness ( 8 face 0 gone by autumn1 & a wan look1 z ( decay+ =ce1 0 /amp$ ^u x4 ,he suff]$ 9 lit]ally e memb] ( 8 body1 by turns or simultane\sly4 ,we f9d ! foll[+ memor&um3 ,"q3 ,:at's ! matt] ) ! back ( y\r head8 he 0 rubb+ x ) extract ( wit* hazel4 ,answ]3 ,x is sore1 x hurts me4 ,q4 ,well6 ,z soon z "o "p is bett] ano!r gets out ( ord]8 etc4 ,a4 ,d y "k x 0 all reveal$ to me & =etold beg9n+ to weep4 ,q4 ,:58 ,9 y\r novitiate8 ,a4 ,yes4 ,q4 ,b n all ! details ( y\r suff]+s8 ,a4 ,yes1 all ! details4 ,b ,i w n say ano!r ^w ab\t x4 ,q4 ,b y ought to1 etc4 ,he refus$ to say m4 ,little by little dur+ ! latt] ye>s ,fa!r ,heck]'s visitors _h become v few4 ,an occasional call 0 receiv$ f an old fri5d1 lay or cl]ic1 & ?is 0 n apt to be repeat$1 s pa9ful 0 ! contra/ betwe5 ! =m] ,fa!r ,heck] & ! pres5t "o4 ,in/ead ( ! active & p[]ful man1 ( contagi\s c\rage & hopefulness1 !y saw a tall1 wan old man b5d+ ) ! weight ( ye>s & ( suff]+1 b /ill maje/ic 9 8 look & be>+1 ) a :ite be>d1 & s(t1 attractive eyes4 ,! quick movem5t1 ! joy\s greet+1 ev5 ! smil+ s]5ity1 _h pass$ away1 & in/ead an air ( sadness _h come1 or ( en=c$ *e]fulness4 ,! foll[+ memor&um1 tak5 ov] two ye>s be=e 8 dea?1 tells ( a relief :i* he hop$ w\ld be p]man5t2 b su* 0 n to be ! case3 ,fa!r ,heck] said to-day3 ',only )9 ! la/ ?ree days has ,god releas$ me f ! s5sation t ,i might die any in/ant4 ,oh6 h[ ,i h suff]$ f t feel+ = t5 ye>s4 ,i did n "k :e!r ,i %\ld ev] be deliv]$ f x4 ,n[1 little by little ,god is lift+ x (f f my s\l4 ,= t5 ye>s ,i h be5 "u ?is cl\d4 ,oh1 h[ t]rible a suff]+ x has be56' ,?is he said1 8 h&s cov]+ 8 face2 he _h int]rupt$ me to say x :ile ,i 0 read+ ,/4 ,john ( ! ,cross4 ',oh6' he add$1 'h[ ,i c\ld weep = my s9s1' & s on = a few m words4 ,! cl\ds soon settl$ d[n aga94 ,! foll[+ 0 not$ a little ov] a mon? aft] ! above3 ,fa!r ,heck] said to me to-day3 ',!re 0 a "t :5 ,i seem$ to "k ,god s cle>ly & to be s consci\s ( ,8 attraction t my :ole ?\ght & wi% 0 dea?2 to break ! *a9 ( life to be unit$ to ,god 9 ,p>adise4 ,n[ x is altoge!r diff]5t2 no?+ b d>kness & depression4' ,"h is ano!r memor&um1 tak5 "s "t be=e ! above3 ,fa!r ,heck] said3 ',god is n[ visit+ me ) ! pr(\nde/ desolation ( _s4 ,i h ! mo/ deadly t]ror ( dea?2 if ,i yield$ to x ,i %\ld tremble f head to foot4 ,yet !re is a spell on me :i* makes me wi% t ,i may die )\t s5sible fai? & depriv$ ( e pres5t spiritual com=t4 4 4 4' ,he also said _m ?+s ab\t 8 cont9u$ & unbrok5 desolation ( _s ^! sev]al ye>s back4 ',yet1' said he1 ',i nev] knew t ,god w\ld p]mit me to come s ne> to ,him & see s mu* ( ,him z ,i h4' ,!n he made me read to him ! fir/ *apt] ( ! ,book ( ,job4 4 4 4 ,aft] he _h gone to b$ ,i read to him "p ( an article 9 ,! ,mon? on ! indwell+ ( ! ,holy ,_s1 & he disc\rs$ meantime to me mo/ pr(\ndly on t topic4 ,& he add$3 ',"o reason :y ,i h always be5 s mu* int]e/$ 9 ! doctr9e ( ! ,holy ,gho/ act+ 9 ! s\l is a practical "o1 because ,i myself h nev] _h any o!r director1 ?\gh ,i h m ?an once op5$ my m9d entirely to o!rs & pr(it$ by _! advice1 b none 0 or c\ld be really my director4 ,h5ce1 too1 ,i am s mu* attract$ to sa9ts :o h _h to /ruggle on alone l ,/4 ,ca!r9e ( ,g5oa1 :o 0 )\t a director = tw5ty-five ye>s4' ,t[>ds ! close ( ,octob]1 #ahhh1 two mon?s be=e dea?1 ,doctor ,beg5 saw t ! end 0 approa*+4 ,?is 0 evid5t f a sudd5 & g5]al failure ( /r5g?1 ! appetite1 n mu* at any "t1 seem+ n[ to vani% q away1 al?\gh ,fa!r ,heck]'s /rong w =c$ d[n a little n\ri%m5t4 ,?is loss ( /r5g? caus$ ! he>t to "w badly & to give an occasional sudd5 al>m4 ,int]nal conge/ions foll[$1 relax+ ! b[els & caus+ mu* bodily annoyance4 ,meantime he 0 h>dly ev] out ( 8 room & _m days he sp5t entirely 9 b$4 ,8 fits ( depression ( spirits 7 m frequ5t ?an usual & m sadd5+4 ,he no long] re/$ at all1 :at sleep he got be+ produc$ by drugs & s]v+ b to pass ! "t unconsci\sly4 ,f ! beg9n+ ( ,decemb] he 0 apt to fall into a semi-comatose /ate1 ?\gh g5]ally 9 full use ( 8 faculties4 ,"s days be=e he di$ he seem$ to realize t ! long /ruggle 0 ne>ly ov]1 & he no long] talk$ to ! doctor or o!rs ( ! m$ic9es or ( 8 bodily ailm5ts1 nor did he seem to ?9k ( !m2 & 8 m9d appe>$ to h sudd5ly gr[n peaceful4 ,! ,scriptures z well z o!r books 7 read to him1 z usual1 up to ! v ev5+ be=e he di$4 ,on ! night ( ! #bj? ( ,decemb]1 two days aft] 8 sixty-n9? bir?day1 ! la/ sacram5ts 7 adm9i/]$1 ,fa!r ,heck] receiv+ !m )\t visible emotion b 9 full consci\sness4 ,dur+ ! foll[+ day he 0 quiet & app>5tly free f acute pa91 ! b5umb$ body refus+ to suff] m2 b ! m9d calm & att5tive4 ,:5 ! morn+ ( ! #bb;d came all c\ld see t 8 "t 0 ne> at h&4 ,9 ! middle ( ! =5oon ! memb]s ( ! community 7 ga!r$ at ! b$side1 ! pray]s = ! dy+ 7 read & ! indulg5ce 0 giv54 ,z ?is 0 ov] ! doctor arriv$1 & ,fa!r ,heck]1 :o _h gradually lo/ adv]t5ce to all ar\nd him1 0 r\s$ by him into full consci\sness1 & gave ! community 8 bless+1 feebly rais+ 8 h& to make ! sign ( ! cross & utt]+ ! words 9 a light :isp]4 ,!n he sank away into unconsci\sness & 9 an h\r ceas$ to brea!4 ,& s ,fa!r ,heck] di$4 ,our belov$ tea*] & fa!r1 s blameless & brave1 s g5tle & d>+1 s full ( ,god & ( humanity1 ent]$ into 8 et]nal beatitude4 ,dy+ on ,saturday1 & s ne> ,*ri/mas1 ! fun]al 0 delay$ till ,w$nesday1 ! fea/ ( ,/4 ,/eph51 ! body be+ embalm$4 ,*ri/mas aft]noon x 0 plac$ 9 ! *ur* & 0 visit$ & v5]at$ by great ?rongs ( p4 ,a va/ conc\rse att5d$ ! ,requiem ,mass ! next morn+1 :i* 0 sung by ,ar*bi%op ,corrigan surr\nd$ by _m prie/s1 an eloqu5t s]mon be+ prea*$ by ,fa!r ,t4 ,j4 ,campbell1 ! ,prov9cial ( ! ,jesuits4 ,! body 0 plac$ 9 ! vaults ( ! old ca!dral4 ,! life we h be5 foll[+ is a h>moni\s :ole f beg9n+ to end4 ,! *ild tells ( ! y\?1 ! y\? promises a noble man1 & ! promise is m ?an fulfill$4 ,he 0 guileless2 no d>k ways ( =bidd5 pleasure ev] he>d ! s\nd ( 8 foot/ep4 ,!re 0 no b>t] ( consci5ce = ambition's prize4 ,he 0 fe>less2 f beg9n+ to end !re 0 no halt f want ( c\rage4 ,nor did he ru% =w>d be=e ! light came to %[ ! road1 ?\gh he (t5 *af$ & pant$ to he> ! ^w ( ,div9e comm&2 he nev] mov$ at any o!r4 ,b :5 ! voice ( ,god bade him =w>d he nev] fl9*$ at any ob/acle4 ,! ev]-recurr+ p]suasion t !re 7 s few :o saw ,god's w z he saw x cut him to ! he>t1 & ! my/]y ( ! ,div9e times & mom5ts grew ^u him ) fatal =ce till ! end1 until he droop$ & p9$ away ) grief t he c\ld b ta/e ! fir/-fruits4 ,yet he 0 ev] submissive to ! ,div9e ,w1 to live1 to die1 to beg91 to end ! "w1 to be alone or to be ( _m bre?r51 to lead or to foll[4 ,?\gh a mo/ active _s1 he 0 yet contemplative1 & to unite ! manife/ation ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! inn] & out] life 0 ! end he always kept 9 view2 b he 0 di/9ctively an int]ior man4 ,few m5 s9ce ! ,apo/les h felt a quick] pulse ?an ,isaac ,heck] :5 ! "n ( ,god 0 he>d1 or t ( ,jesus ,*ri/ or ! ,holy ,_s4 ,few m5 h _h a nobl] pride 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/1 or felt m "o ) h] honor4 ,few m5 h gr[n into clos] k9%ip ) all ! family ( ,god1 f ,m>y ! great "m & ! holy angels d[n to ! simple/ ,ca?olic1 ?an ,isaac ,heck]4 ,b 8 peculi> trait 0 fidelity to ! inn] voice4 ,!re are "s1 he once said1 = :om ! pr$om9ant influ5ce is ! ext]nal "o1 au?ority1 example1 etc42 o!rs 9 ^: lives ! int]ior action ( ! ,holy ,_s pr$om9ates4 ,9 my case1 f my *ildhood1 ,god influ5c$ me by an int]ior light & by ! int]ior t\* ( 8 ,holy ,_s4 ,! desp]ate dem& ( ,philip1 ,"l1 %[ u ! ,fa!r & x is en\gh1 0 ,fa!r ,heck]'s cry all ?r\gh e>ly life4 ,aft] ! f\nd+ ( 8 community1 9 #aheh1 8 life 0 l an arctic ye>4 ,f t date till #ahgb !re 0 no set ( sun4 ,! uncl\d$ heav5s b5t ov] him ev] smil+ ) ,god's glori\s light2 & its gold5 t9ts lit up all humanity ) hope & joy4 ,!n ! sun w5t d[n to rise no m4 ,! heav5s 7 d>k & sil5t1 or r5t asund] ) wra?ful /orms1 only a transi5t fla% ( ! aurora reliev+ ! gloom4 ,:5 ! light dawn$ aga9 x 0 to beam ^u 8 s\l 9 ! ec/asies ( ,p>adise4 ,we "k n :at to say ( 8 faults1 nor c we ?9k t he _h any t 7 n to be trac$ to 8 eag] love ( ,god's cause1 su* z 8 ov]p[]+ m5 ) plead+ = ,god 9 _! s\ls2 or too easily cr$it+ unwor?y m5 :o prat$ to him ( lib]ty & ! ,holy ,_s2 or ov]-fondness dur+ 8 illness = play+ 9 ! li/s ( fancy at an apo/olate d5i$ him 9 ! battle ( active life2 he rep9$ at be+ =c$ to plan great battles 9 a sick-room4 ,he c\ld n help betray+ a he>t heav+ ) a p5t-up ocean ( zeal1 :ile he 0 creep+ ab\t helplessly1 (t5 too feeble to speak above 8 brea?4 ,a lov] ( lib]ty1 its only boon to him at la/ 0 lib]ty to accept & rivet ^u himself ! *a9 ( pati5t love4 ,"s may say ,heck] 0 be=e 8 "t4 ,b no man is be=e 8 "t if1 hav+ a div9e message1 he c get b "o o!r to accept x1 c arre/ m5's att5tion1 c cause !m to pond]1 to ask :y or :y n1 :e!r ?is be ! day or only its vigil4 ,! s[] is n be=e 8 "t ?\gh he dies be=e ! h>ve/2 !re is a "t to s[ & a "t to reap4 ,& n[ ! tree is dead1 b its ripe fruits are 9 our bosoms be>+ liv+ se$s1 :i* w spr+ up 9 _! "t & give fruit aga9 ea* accord+ to its k9d4 ,! life ( ,fa!r ,heck] is a /rong invitation to ! m5 ( ^! times to become foll[]s ( ,god ! ,holy ,gho/1 to fit _! s\ls by pray] & p5ance 9 union ) ,*ri/ & 8 ,*ur*1 = ! consecration ( lib]ty & intellig5ce to ! elevation ( ! human race to union ) ,god4 ,we d n bid him f>ewell1 = ?is age1 & especially ?is nation1 w hail him & 8 tea*+s ) great] & great] acclaim z "t goes on4 ,z ,god guides ,8 ,*ur* to seek h] ,apo/olate ma9ly 9 develop+ m5's aspirations = bett] ?+s into fulness ( ,ca?olic tru? & virtue1 ,isaac ,heck] w be f\nd to h taught ! pr9ciples & giv5 ! me?ods :i* w lead mo/ surely to success4 ,,! ,,end ,,app5dix ,,lett]s ,,f ,,c>d9al ,,newman ,i ,,! ,,oratory1 ,,birm+ham1 ,febru>y #bh1 #ahhi4 ,,my ,,de> ,,fa!r ,,hewit3 ,i 0 v sorr[ful at he>+ ( ,fa!r ,heck]'s dea?4 ,i h ev] felt t !re 0 ?is sort ( unity 9 our lives--t we _h bo? begun a "w ( ! same k9d1 he 9 ,am]ica & ,i 9 ,engl&1 & ,i "k h[ zeal\s he 0 9 promot+ x4 ,x is n _m mon?s s9ce ,i receiv$ a vigor\s & /rik+ pro( ( x 9 ! book he s5t me ,! ,*ur* & ! ,age4 ,n[ ,i am left ) "o fri5d less1 & x rema9s ) me to convey ?r\gh y my be/ condolem5t to all ! memb]s ( y\r society4 ,hop+ t y d n =get me 9 y\r pray]s1 ,i am1 de> ,fa!r ,hewit1 mo/ truly y\rs1 ,,john ,h4 ,,c>d4 ,,newman4 ,,ii ,,! ,,oratory1 ,,birm+ham1 ,m>* #ae1 #ahij4 ,,de> ,,fa!r ,,hewit3 ,9 answ] to y\r lett] ,i am glad to be told :at is s int]e/+ to me1 viz41 t ! ,life ( ,fa!r ,heck] is 9 prep>ation4 ,i _h a great affection & rev]5ce t[>ds him1 & felt t :i* s _m good ,ca?olics mu/ h felt ) me on he>+ ( 8 illness & dea?4 ,i wi%1 z y ask me1 t ,i c\ld say some?+ m def9ite ?an ?is ( 8 life & writ+s1 b my own correspond5ce ) fri5ds1 & especially ! infirmities ( my age1 burd5 me & make x impossible = me to v5ture ^u x4 ,?is1 alas6 is all t ,i h left me n[ by my ye>s t[>ds ! fulfilm5t ( welcome duties to ! grateful memory ( an effective ,ca?olic writ] 7,i d n =get 8 "w 9 ,engl&7 & a ,b5efactor1 if ,i may use ! t]m1 to ! ,ca?olic ,religion1 ^: "n w ev] be held 9 honor by ! ,ca?olic ,*ur*4 ,y\rs mo/ truly1 ,j4 ,h4 ,n4 ,,recollections ,,( ,,fa!r ,,heck] ,,by ,,! ,,abbe ,,xavi] ,,dufresne1 ,,( ,,g5eva ,i ,i fir/ knew ,fa!r ,heck] 9 #ahgc1 meet+ him at a ,ca?olic ,congress held at ,f]ney & presid$ ov] by ,monsignor ,m]millod4 ,fa!r ,heck] visit$ ,g5eva sev]al times aft] t1 liv+ 9 ! close/ intimacy ) our family4 ,he sp5t sev]al weeks on a visit ) my fa!r1 ,dr4 ,dufresne1 at a *alet situat$ on ,salane m\nta9 above ,g5eva1 be+ at ! "t 9 feeble heal? & seek+ recov]y by a prolong$ soj\rn 9 ,europe4 ,= ?is en=c$ inactivity he recomp5s$ himself by cont9ual & e>ne/ conv]sations1 = ! purpose ( ga9+ to 8 ideas all :om he believ$ capable ( und]/&+ !m1 :e!r ,prote/ants or ,ca?olics4 ,!re 0 ab\t him an indescribable *>m :i* my/]i\sly drew "o to him & p5etrat$ "o ) 8 influ5ce4 ,al?\gh he did n "k ,fr5* ?or\ghly & pref]r$ to use ,engli%1 yet he spoke ) su* p[]1 elevation1 exub]ance1 & dep? ( ?\ght t he captivat$ 8 he>]s4 ,:5 ,i made ,fa!r ,heck]'s acqua9tance ,i _h j lo/ my eyesight1 be+ at ! end ( my ecclesia/ical /udies1 & n yet orda9$4 ,he did my s\l mu* good by tea*+ me a k9d ( hol9ess :i* 0 jo9$ to lively intellig5ce & ! mo/ en]getic activity4 ,fa!r ,heck] rema9s to me n only ! type ( an ,am]ican prie/1 b ( ! mod]n "o1 ! k9d ne$$ by ! ,*ur* = ! recov]y ( ! gr\nd lo/ z a result ( ,prote/antism & infidelity1 z well z to enable h] to />t anew 9 h] div9e mission4 ,,ii ,! pr9cipal impression produc$ by ,fa!r ,heck] on ^? :o came 9 contact ) him 0 "o ( sanctity4 ,9 8 company "o felt 8 :ole be+ influ5c$ z if by some?+ v5]able & sup]natural1 & a con/ant incl9ation to correspond to ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s & submit ! human w to ! div9e4 ,9 conv]s+ ) him ab\t spiritual ?+s "o 0 transport$ into a high] region1 ! he>t gr[+ w>m] & ! consci5ce m s5sitive4 ,fa!r ,heck] pla9ly incl9$ by habit to ! type ( "* giv5 u by ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,he suff]$ mu*1 bo? physically f weakness ( n]ves & morally on acc\nt ( en=c$ inactivity1 yet he n only nev] compla9$ b 0 always *e]ful4 ,?is 0 ! great] m]it 9 him because he seem$ by nature impati5t ( opposition & contradiction4 ,he _h a sagaci\s m9d & easily discov]$ ! faults ( o!rs1 b1 al?\gh he spoke ( m5 & affairs ) op5ness & c&or1 he yet ev] s\ght = favorable int]pretations4 ,l ,/4 ,francis de ,sales1 he knew h[ to judge ( p & yet rema9 full ( *>ity = 8 neighbor4 ,pr(\ndly individual1 & pr(\ndly atta*$ to 8 ideas1 l all ,anglo-,saxons1 & 9 fact l all :o h acquir$ ! ,prote/ant habit ( free inquiry1 he nev]!less _h = ! ,*ur* a docility almo/ naive & infantile2 & ?is 0 because he recogniz$ 9 h] ! au?ority & ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,x may be said ( him )\t exagg]ation t he 0 e mom5t ready1 if x became necess>y1 to be> witness to ! div9ity ( ! ,*ur* by m>tyrdom1 & 9 fact he (t5 made t decl>ation4 ,9 him ! mo/ h]oic virtue 0 fai?4 ,he _h come into ! ,ca?olic ,*ur* 9 spite ( ! mo/ extreme natural repugnance1 & he rema9$ 9 x1 ov]com+ ! p]petual objection ( ,prote/ants t ,ca?olicity c\ld n be ! tru? because ,ca?olic c\ntries _h become ! lea/ p[]ful & ! lea/ prosp]\s 9 ! civiliz$ _w4 ,on ?is po9t he lov$ to exp\nd ! text ( ,scripture :i* says t x is bett] to lose an eye & an arm & ent] into ! k+dom ( heav51 ?an to save bo?1 & fall into hell4 ,8 piety 0 :olly int]ior4 ,x consi/$ 9 ! p]petual ex]cise ( ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,he _h a natural dis9cl9ation = devotional practices z !y are 9 vogue among ! s\!rn races4 ,8 t5d5cy 0 to spiritualize z mu* z possible all ! devotions 9 use 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,8 own pr9cipal "o 0 to ! ,holy ,gho/ & ,8 div9e ,gifts4 ,he nev] spoke ( ! ,inc>nation & ! ,eu*>i/ )\t deep emotion & a contagi\s love4 ,z to devotion to ! ,bless$ ,virg91 he expla9$ x 9 a mo/ elevat$ mann]1 ev] %[+1 & ) great dignity & nobility ( mann]1 h[ x fl[$ f ! pr9ciple ( ! div9e mat]nity4 ,! la/ book he s5t me 0 "o on ! ,bless$ ,virg9 writt5 by an ,am]ican prie/4 ,s9ce ,fa!r ,heck]'s dea? ,i h nev] fail$ a s+le day to invoke him 9 my pray]s1 & to 8 int]cession ,i attribute _m graces obta9$1 "s ( !m v important4 ,,iii ,fa!r ,heck] _h a m>vell\s op5ness ( he>t4 ,i he>d him relate sev]al times ! /ory ( 8 life1 8 conv]sion1 8 jo9+ ! ,r$emptori/s1 8 case be=e ! ,roman ,congregations1 & ! f\nd+ ( ! ,pauli/ community4 ,i c /ill recall ! banks ( ! ,lake ( ,g5eva at ! ,villa ,b>toloni1 :]e ,fa!r ,heck]1 walk+ ) a fri5d & myself1 told u ( 8 leav+ ! ,r$emptori/ ord]4 ,x 0 ! way 9 :i* he talk$ ( s delicate a matt] t enabl$ me to appreciate t ! man 0 a sa9t4 ,he lik$ to repeat1 :ile on ?is subject1 :at ,c>d9al ,des*amps _h said ( him3 ,"h is a man :o has be5 able to leave our ,congregation ( ! ,mo/ ,holy ,r$eem] )\t committ+ ev5 a v5ial s94 ,9 my op9ion1 ,fa!r ,heck] 01 aft] ,p]e ,lacordaire1 ! mo/ rem>kable sacr$ orator ( ! c5tury4 ,?is does n apply to 8 writ+s1 = 8 ideas lo/ mu* ( _! =ce 9 ! process ( gett+ into pr9t4 ,l all natural orators 8 *ief quality 0 a p[] ( draw+ & p]suad+1 :i*1 to use an expression (t5 appli$ to ,p]e ,lacordaire1 _h some?+ magnetic ab\t x4 ,he _h a prodigi\s gift ( %[+ 8 ,prote/ant or infidel he>]s t _! own he>ts & _! own reason aspir$ by in/9ct t[>ds ! ,ca?olic tru? :i* he 0 tea*+ !m4 ,9 t way he drew 8 he>]s to discov] ! tru? 9 _! own m9ds in/ead ( receiv+ x by =ce ( argum5t or any extr9sic au?ority4 ,to acquire ?is p[] he _h made a great /udy ( ! ,gospel1 &1 su/a9$ by ,div9e grace1 he w5t ab\t ! exposition ( ! tru? z ,jesus ,*ri/ did4 ,"o ( ! mo/ orig9al aspects ( 8 m9d 0 t he jo9$ ! practical s5se ( ! ,am]ican to ! ta/e & aptitude ( ! ,european = speculation4 ,he _h n be5 able to make a complete c\rse ( /udies because he _h sp5t sev]al ye>s 9 comm]cial life1 b he _h great natural gifts = metaphysics1 !ology1 & above all my/icism4 ,unlike ! ,engli% conv]ts ( ! ,ox=d s*ool1 he _h rea*$ ,ca?olicity by way ( lib]al ,prote/antism1 :i* he _h r5\nc$ because x c\ld n satisfy ! religi\s aspirations ( 8 nature4 ,x w\ld be int]e/+ to /udy 8 case 9 connection ) ^? ( ,newman & ,mann+1 = x %[s t s\ls are l$ to ,ca?olicity by all roads1 ev5 ! mo/ opposite1 & t m9ds mo/ incl9$ to rationalize c be drawn to ! ,*ur* z easily z ^? ( a cons]vative or traditional temp]am5t4 ,,iv ,b ,i wi% to dwell especially on :at preoccupi$ ,fa!r ,heck]'s m9d & =m$ ! fundam5tal !me ( 8 eloqu5t words4 ,we 7 j on ! morr[ ( ! ,vatican ,c\ncil1 ( ! defeat ( ,france by ,prussia1 & 9 ! fir/ agonies ( ! ,culturkampf 9 ,g]many & ,italy4 ,n[1 if "o rememb]s t ,fa!r ,heck] 0 ( an ,am]ican family orig9ally f ! t[n ( ,elb]feld1 ,prussia1 he c bett] und]/& ! gravity ( ! problem :i* weigh$ ^u 8 m9d1 z ^u t ( s _m o!rs4 ,mu/ we admit1 x 0 ask$1 t ! ,c\ncil ( ! ,vatican has affix$ its seal ^u ! decad5ce ( ,ca?olicity1 b9d+ ! ,*ur* to ! fail+ =tunes ( ! ,lat9 races8 ,mu/ ,prote/antism f9ally triumph ) ! ,saxon races8 ,& "h ,fa!r ,heck]'s fai? did n halt an in/ant1 b grasp$ ! difficulty 9 all its t]rible magnitude4 ,8 solution may be que/ion$ by "s1 b ,i believe t no "o w dispute t ! m9d :i* conceiv$ x 0 ( ! fir/ ord]4 ,fa!r ,heck] rem>k$1 z did _m o!rs1 t1 />t+ f ! sixte5? c5tury1 ! ,*ur*1 al?\gh ev] ex]t+ a consid]able influ5ce1 no long] appe>$ at ! head ( ! _w's activity4 ,?is 0 9 contra/ ) :at %e _h done 9 ! era ( ! conv]sion ( ! ,roman ,empire1 dur+ t ( ! invasion ( ! b>b>ians1 & amid ! imm5se religi\s movem5t :i* *>act]iz$ ! apogee ( ! ,middle ,ages4 ,fa!r ,heck] discov]$ ! cause ( ?is less5+ influ5ce 9 ! fact t s9ce ! sixte5? c5tury ! ,*ur* _h be5 compell$ to /& ^u ! def5sive4 ,?is _h greatly p>alyz$ h] p[] ( initiation & h] lib]ty4 ,z a consequ5ce ( ! ,prote/ant h]esy1 :i* ?reat5$ ! utt] de/ruction ( ! pr9ciple ( au?ority1 ! ,*ur* _h be5 =c$ to conc5trate on t side ( h] =tress all h] means ( def5ce4 ,9 ord] to protect h]self f ! excesses ( ! pr9ciple ( individuality & free inquiry1 %e _h be5 oblig$ to resort to a multitude ( re/rictive measures1 :i* 7 conceiv$ 9 a v diff]5t _s f t :i* animat$ h] 9 previ\s c5turies4 ,9 ! sixte5? c5tury ! ,*ur* plac$ be=e ev]y?+ else ! idea ( au?ority4 ,%e sacrific$ ! developm5t ( p]sonality to fo/]+ ! association ( m5 ^: wills 7 absolutely m]g$ by discipl9e 9 "o p[]ful body4 ,x c be se5 at a glance h[ intimately & pr(\ndly ! _s ( ! dom9ant religi\s ord]s ( ! lat] era diff]s f t ( ! great ord]s ( ! ,middle ,ages1 9 respect to ! expansion ( nature & ! developm5t ( individuality4 ,! ne$s ( ! sixte5? c5tury 7 altoge!r diff]5t f ^? ( ! ages prec$+ x1 & to meet ^? ne$s ,god inspir$ ,/4 ,ignatius ) ! idea ( a diff]5t type ( ,*ri/ian "*4 ,! result 0 ! triumphant repulse ( ,prote/antism f all ! s\!rn nations4 ,b ! victory 0 ga9$ at ! price ( real sacrifices2 ! ,ca?olics ( ! rec5t c5turies h n display$ ! puissant individuality ( ^? ( ! ,middle ,ages1 ! types ( :i* are ,/4 ,b]n>d1 ,/4 ,gregory ,,vii41 ,innoc5t ,,iii41 ,/4 ,?omas ,aqu9as4 ,! ,div9e ,_s (t5 exacts ! sacrifice ( c]ta9 human qualities = ! pres]vation ( ! fai?2 & x is 9 ?is s5se t we %\ld int]pret ! my/]i\s words ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 t x is bett] to lose an eye & an arm & n fall into hell1 ?an to save an eye & an arm & be lo/ et]nally4 ,! ,c\ncil ( ! ,vatican1 ,fa!r ,heck] ma9ta9$1 by giv+ to ! pr9ciple ( au?ority its dogmatic completion1 has plac$ x above all attacks1 & consequ5tly has br\ght to a close ! hi/orical p]iod 9 :i* x 0 necess>y to devote all ef=ts to its def5ce4 ,a new p]iod n[ op5s to ! ,*ur*4 ,%e has be5 engag$ dur+ ?ree c5turies 9 p]fect+ h] ext]nal organism1 & secur+ to au?ority ! place x %\ld h 9 work+ out h] div9e life2 %e w n[ und]take q ano!r "p ( h] provid5tial mission4 ,x is n[ to be ! individuality1 ! p]sonality ( s\ls1 _! free & vigor\s initiative "u ! direct guidance ( ! ,holy ,_s dwell+ )9 !m1 :i* %all become ! di/9ctive ,ca?olic =m ( act+ 9 ^! times4 ,& ?is w all be done "u ! control ( h] div9e supreme au?ority 9 ! ext]nal ord] prev5t+ error1 ecc5tricity1 & ra%ness4 ,! ,lat9 races 7 fitt$ by nature to be ! pr9cipal in/rum5ts ( ! ,holy ,_s dur+ ! p]iod j pass$4 ,9 ! new "o ! ,anglo-,saxon & ,teutonic races1 ( a nature /rongly individual & indep5d5t1 w take _! turn z in/rum5ts ( ,div9e ,provid5ce4 ,?is is n say+ t ! developm5t ( ! ,*ur* is ! result ( ! natural aptitudes ( races1 b t ,god1 :o has creat$ ^! aptitudes1 takes !m "o aft] ! o!r1 & at ! h\rs ,he *ooses1 & causes !m to s]ve z in/rum5ts = c>ry+ out ,8 designs4 ,x 0 ?us1 f ! f\r? to ! sev5? c5tury1 t ,he made use ( ! metaphysical subtilty implant$ by ,him 9 ! ,greek g5ius1 issu+ 9 all ^? great def9itions :i* h fix$ n only ! sub/ance b ! v]bal =m ( ,ca?olic dogma4 ,h5ce ! fir/ g5]al c\ncils 7 all held 9 ! ,ea/4 ,fa!r ,heck] *]i%$ hopes = ! conv]sion ( ! ,teutonic & ,anglo-,saxon races4 ,d\btless ,god c\ld conv]t !m sudd5ly1 b consid]+ ! way h]et(ore foll[$ t conv]sion w be br\ght ab\t ins5sibly & by ! two foll[+ in/rum5talities3 ,on ! "o h&1 ! new developm5t ( individuality 9 s\ls )9 ! ,*ur* w create a sympa!tic attraction t[>ds h] on ! "p ( ,prote/ants1 :o w discov] aff9ities ) h] ( :i* !y 7 :olly unaw>e4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ! m ! ,prote/ant races exp&1 ! m !y w f9d ! dw>f$ ,*ri/ianity :i* !y pr(ess fall+ %ort ( _! aspirations1 & by t means !y w be incl9$ t[>ds ,ca?olicity4 ,x is n a little rem>kable t ,fa!r ,heck] express$ himself ?us dur+ ! la/ ye>s ( ! pontificate ( ,pius ,,ix41 at a mom5t :5 su* ideas seem$ to be lea/ 9 favor 9 high ,ca?olic circles4 ,b soon aft]w>ds ! pontificate ( ,leo ,,xiii4 began1 & ) x a movem5t 9 ! _s indicat$ by ! ,am]ican prie/1 & 9 a mann] s /rik+ly 9 accord ) 8 views t ,fa!r ,heck] seem$ to h be5 enlight5$ f above 9 8 presages ( ! future4 ,fa!r ,heck] develop$ a gr& !ological syn!sis ( :at he call$ ! ext]ior & int]ior mission ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,he has expla9$ x 9 a pamphlet2 b h[ mu* m impressive x 0 :5 he exp\nd$ x 9 p]son6 ,we _h ! privilege ( he>+ him d s 9 a long conv]sation ) ! mo/ celebrat$ ,prote/ant m9i/] ( ,fr5*-speak+ c\ntries1 ! illu/ri\s philosoph] & orator1 ,erne/ ,naville4 ,fa!r ,heck] said t ! antipa?y ( ,prote/ants = ! ,*ur* arose f ! fact t !y imag9$ t ,ca?olicity r$uc$ all religion to ob$i5ce to ext]nal au?ority4 ,prote/ants1 on ! o!r h&1 pret5d to place all religion 9 ! int]ior life1 directly g5]at$ 9 s\ls by ! ,holy ,_s1 & x is = ?is reason t ,ca?olicity impresses !m z a tyrannical usurpation & a /upid =malism4 ,9 ?is !y are deceiv$1 z a close acqua9tance ) ,ca?olics & ) su* writ+s z ^? ( ,/4 ,francis de ,sales & ,/4 ,t]esa soon proves to !m4 ,s1 also1 :5 !y fancy t ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur* is n necess>y to ! pres]vation ( ! action ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! s\l4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 ! innum]able divisions ( ,prote/ants among !mselves pla9ly %[ t ! int]ior action ( ! ,holy ,gho/ does n ext5d to mak+ ea* individual infallible4 ,to safegu>d s\ls aga9/ deception1 scepticism or illum9ism1 !re is ne$ ( ano!r action ( ! ,holy ,_s :i* %all be cons]vative ( ! int]ior life4 ,t o!r action is ext]ior1 & is ex]cis$ by means ( ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! ,holy ,_s _c be br\ght into contradiction ) ,himself4 ,by ,8 action 9 ! ext]ior au?ority ( ! ,*ur* ,he c nev] int]f]e 9 ! lea/ degree ) ! fulness or ! spontaneity ( ,8 own int]ior action 9 s\ls4 ,! ext]ior action is "o ( control & ( v]ification1 to h9d] s\ls f be+ lo/ 9 ! dep?s ( illusion & 9 ! deceits ( pride4 ,b besides ?is1 humility1 ob$i5ce1 self-abnegation1 virtues de> by excell5ce to ! he>t ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 are impossible )\t due submission to ! ext]nal au?ority4 ,:5 "o believes only 9 himself1 he obeys only himself1 & h5ce has nev] practis$ complete r5unciation nor complete humility4 ,fa!r ,heck] also ma9ta9$ t ! direction ( s\ls 9 confession %\ld be made to /r5g!n & develop individual life4 ,we d n ne$ blood-lett+1 he said1 z if we suff]$ f ple?ora1 b r we ne$ a c\rse ( tonics1 sea-ba?s1 & ! invigorat+ air ( ! m\nta9s4 ,we %\ld n hold our p5it5ts 9 lead+-/r+s1 b %\ld tea* !m to live a self-reliant life "u ! direction ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,s\ls temp]$ by t process w\ld r5d] ! ,*ur* a ?\s& times m s]vice ?an !y d n[4 ,no d\bt su* s\ls may sometimes run ! risk ( pride & ( temptation to revolt4 ,b 9 su* cases ! ,*ur* is s provid$ ) p[] by ! dogma ( infallibility1 z proclaim$ by ! ,vatican ,c\ncil1 z to be able to c\nt]act ?is dang] )\t s]i\s loss1 z 0 prov$ 9 ! case ( ,doell+] & ! ,old ,ca?olics4 ,! ,holy ,_s1 prep>+ = a great developm5t ( individual life1 has made provision be=eh& t ! ,*ur* %\ld be arm$ ) p[] suffici5t to repress all wayw>dness1 & ?is 0 done by ! ,vatican ,c\ncil4 ,"s _h fe>$ t ! def9ition ( infallibility w\ld introduce an extravagant use ( au?ority1 & lead to a dim9ution ( reasonable lib]ty & individuality 9 ! ,*ur* ev5 great] ?an be=e4 ,b ! v contr>y has be5 ! result4 ,) ref]5ce to ! int]ior life1 ,i c affirm t ,fa!r ,heck]'s 0 full & ri*4 ,hav+ sp5t ! great] "p ( 8 life 9 a dev\r+ activity1 at its close he liv$ z a true contemplative4 ,he 0 a g5u9e my/ic4 ,we he>d him disc\rse ) m>vell\s beauty on ! ,tr9ity1 ! ,inc>nation1 ! ,eu*>i/1 exp\nd+ ^! great tru?s 9 a way n only to enrapture "o ) _! spl5dor1 b utt]ly to refute deism1 pan!ism1 & mat]ialism4 ,! latt] error1 he said1 ow$ its introduction p>tly to ! fact t ,prote/antism _h refus$ to ! s5ses _! legitimate place 9 div9e wor%ip1 ?is excessive spiritualiz+ hav+ br\ght ab\t a reaction4 ,v ,fa!r ,heck] (t5 spoke ( ! future res]v$ = ,ca?olicity 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates1 say+ t x 0 !re t ! union ( ! ,*ur* ) democracy w\ld fir/ take place4 ,9 t nation ! prejudice aga9/ ! ,*ur* is n s /rong z 9 ,europe1 & h] position is free f ! emb>rassm5ts ( traditional difficulties4 ,ca?olicity is !re valu$ = its imm$iate effect ^u human nature1 & ! rancor born ( hi/orical recollections is n 9 su* full control ( m5's m9ds2 h5ce conv]sions are m easily made4 ,fur!rmore1 ,fa!r ,heck] believ$ t x w\ld f9ally be discov]$ t ! ,prote/ant _s is contr>y to ! political _s ( ! ,am]ican ,republic4 ,am]ica has bas$ h] ,con/itution on ! fact t man is born free1 reasonable1 & capable ( self-gov]nm5t4 ,! ,prote/ant ,re=m]s1 on ! contr>y1 nev] ceas$ to tea* t orig9al s9 depriv$ man ( 8 free w & made him incapable ( p]=m+ virtu\s acts2 & if ,prote/ants seek to escape f ?is :irlpool ( fatalism1 !y fall into infidelity4 ,! day w come :5 ,am]icans w admit t if !y are to be at once religi\s & reasonable1 !y mu/ become ,ca?olics4 ,!re=e1 :e!r x be ackn[l$g$ or n1 e developm5t ( political lib]ty 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates contributes to ! advance ( ,ca?olicity4 ,! ,con/itution ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates has =mulat$ ! political pr9ciples mo/ con=mable to ! ,canons ( ! ,c\ncil ( ,tr5t4