,,the ,,quest ,,of ,,the ,,simple ,,life by ,w4 ,j4 ,,dawson ,new ,york ,e4 ,p4 ,dutton and ,co4 #ca ,west ,twenty-,third ,street #aijg ,edinburgh3 ,t4 and ,a4 ,constable1 ,printers to ,his ,majesty ,ducite ab urbe domum1 mea carmina1 ducite ,daphnim4 ,,virg41 ,ecl4 viii41 l4 #gb4 ,,contents ,,chapter ,i ,,the ,,house ,,of ,,bondage ,,chapter ,,ii ,,getting ,,the ,,best ,,out ,,of ,,life ,,chapter ,,iii ,,getting ,a ,,living1 ,,and ,,living ,,chapter ,,iv ,,earth-,,hunger ,,chapter ,v ,,health ,,and ,,economics ,,chapter ,,vi ,,in ,,search ,,of ,,the ,,picturesque ,,chapter ,,vii ,i ,,find ,,my ,,cottage ,,chapter ,,viii ,,buying ,,happiness ,,chapter ,,ix ,,how ,,we ,,lived ,,chapter ,x ,,neighbourship ,,chapter ,,xi ,,the ,,wounds ,,of ,a ,,friend ,,chapter ,,xii ,,am ,i ,,right8 ,,chapter ,,xiii ,,the ,,city ,,of ,,the ,,future ,,chapter ,i ,,the ,,house ,,of ,,bondage ,for a considerable number of years ,i had been a resident in ,london1 which city ,i regarded alternately as my ,paradise and my ,house of ,bondage4 ,i am by no means one of those who are always ready to fling opprobrious epithets at ,london1 such as 'a pestilent wen1' a cluster of 'squalid villages1' and the like2 on the contrary1 ,i regard ,london as the most fascinating of all cities1 with the one exception of that city of ,eternal ,memories beside the ,tiber4 ,but even ,horace loved the olive-groves of ,tivoli more than the far-ranged splendours of the ,palatine2 and ,i may be pardoned if an occasional vision of green fields often left my eye insensitive to metropolitan attractions4 ,this is a somewhat sonorous preface to the small matter of my story2 but ,i am anxious to elaborate it a little1 lest it should be imagined that ,i am merely a person of bucolic mind1 to whom all cities or large congregations of my fellow-men are in themselves abhorrent4 ,on the contrary ,i have an inherent love of all cities which are something more than mere centres of manufacturing industry4 ,the truly admirable city secures interest1 and even passionate love1 not because it is a congeries of thriving factories1 but rather by the dignity of its position1 the splendour of its architecture1 the variety and volume of its life1 the imperial1 literary1 and artistic interests of which it is the centre1 and the prolongation of its history through tumultuous periods of time1 which fade into the suggestive shadows of antiquity4 ,london answers perfectly to this definition of the truly admirable city4 ,it has been the stage of innumerable historic pageants2 it presents an unexampled variety of life2 and there is majesty in the mere sense of multitude with which it arrests and often overpowers the mind4 ,as ,i have already1 with an innocent impertinence1 justified myself by ,horace1 so ,i will now justify myself by ,wordsworth1 whose famous sonnet written on ,westminster ,bridge is sufficient proof that he could feel the charm of cities as deeply as the charm of ,nature4 ',earth hath not anything to show more fair1' wrote ,wordsworth1 and of a truth ,london has moods and moments of almost unearthly beauty1 perhaps unparalleled by any vision that inebriates the eye in the most gorgeous dawn that flushes ,alpine snows1 or the most solemn sunset that builds a gate of gold across the profound depth of ,borrowdale or ,wastwater4 ,he who has seen the tower of ,st4 ,clement ,danes swim up1 like an insubstantial fabric1 through violet mist above the roaring ,strand2 or the golden ,cross upon ,st4 ,paul's with a flag of tinted cloud flying from it2 or the solemn reaches of the ,thames bathed in smoky purple at the slow close of a summer's day1 will know what ,i mean1 and will 7it is possible7 have some memory of his own which will endorse the justness of my praise4 ,from this exalted prelude ,i will at once descend to more prosaic matter1 leaving my reader1 in his charity1 to devise for me an apology which ,i have neither the wit nor the desire to invent for myself4 ,with the best will in the world to speak in praise of cities it must be owned that the epic and lyric moments of ,london are infrequent4 ,as a casual resident in ,london1 a student and spectator1 free to leave it when ,i willed1 ,i could have been heartily content2 but ,i1 in common with some insignificant millions of my fellow-creatures1 was bound to live in ,london as a means of living at all4 ,he is no true citizen who merely comes up to town 'for the season1' alternating the pleasures of town with those of the country2 he alone is the true citizen who must live amid the roar of the street all the year round1 and for years together4 ,if ,i could choose for myself ,i would even now choose the life of pleasant alternation between town and country1 because ,i am persuaded that the true piquancy and zest of all pleasures lies in contrast4 ,but fate orders these things for us1 and takes no account of our desires1 unless it be to treat them with habitual irony4 ,at five-and-twenty the plain fact met me--that ,i must needs live in ,london1 because my bread could be earned nowhere else4 ,no choice was permitted me2 ,i must go where crowds were1 because from the favour or necessities of such crowds ,i must gather the scanty tithes which put food upon my table and clothes upon my back4 ,when eminent writers1 seated at ample desks1 from which they command fair views of open country1 denounce with prophetic fervour the perils which attend the growth of cities1 they somewhat overlook the fact that the growth of cities is a sequence1 alike ineluctable and pitiless1 of the modern struggle for existence4 ,one cannot be a lawyer1 or a banker1 a physician or a journalist1 without neighbours4 ,he can scarce be a literary man in perfect sylvan solitude1 unless his work is of such quality--perhaps ,i should have said such popularity--that it wins for him immediate payment1 or unless his private fortune be such that he can pursue his aims as a writer with entire indifference to the half-yearly statements of his publisher4 ,in respect of the various employments of trade and commerce1 the case is still plainer4 ,men must needs go where the best wages may be earned2 and under modern conditions of life it is as natural that population should flow toward cities1 as that rivers should seek the sea4 ,these matters will be more particularly discussed later on2 it is enough for me to explain at present that ,i was one of those persons for whom life in a city was an absolute necessity4 ,it is not until one is tied to a locality that its defects become apparent4 ,a street that interests the mind by some charm of populous vivacity when it is traversed at random and without object1 becomes inexpressibly wearisome when it is the thoroughfare of daily duty4 ,my daily duty took me through a long stretch of ,oxford ,street1 which is a street not altogether destitute of some real claim to gaiety and dignity4 ,at first ,i was ready to concede this claim1 and even to endorse it with enthusiasm2 but from the day when ,i realised that ,oxford ,street conducted me1 by a force of inevitable gravitation1 to a desk in an office1 ,i began to loathe it4 ,the eye became conscious of a hundred defects and incongruities2 the tall houses rose like prison walls2 the resounding tumult of the streets seemed like the clamour of tormented spirits4 ,for the first time ,i began to understand why imaginative writers had often likened ,london to ,inferno4 ,i well remember by what a series of curious expedients ,i endeavoured to evade these sensations4 ,the most obvious was altogether to avoid this glittering and detested thoroughfare by making long detours through the meaner streets which lay behind it2 but this was merely to exchange one kind of aesthetic misery which had some alleviations for another kind which had none4 ,sometimes ,i endeavoured to contrive a doubtful exhilaration from the contrast which these meaner streets afforded2 saying to myself1 as ,i pushed my way through the costers' stalls of ,great ,james ,street1 ',now you are exchanging squalor for magnificence4 ,be prepared for a surprise4' ,but the ruse failed utterly1 and my mind laughed aloud at the pitiful imposture4 ,another device was to create points of interest1 like a series of shrines along a tedious road1 which should present some aspect of allurement4 ,there was a book-shop here or an art-shop there2 yesterday a biography of ,napoleon was exhibited in the one1 or a print of ,murillo's ',flight into ,egypt1' in the other2 and it is become a matter of speculation whether they were there to-day4 ,just as a solitary sailor will beguile the tedium of empty days at sea by a kind of cribbage1 in which the left hand plays against the right1 so ,i laid odds for and against myself on such trifles as these1 and even went so far as to keep an account of my successes and my failures4 ,thus1 for a whole month ,i was interested in a person quite unknown to me1 who wore an obsolete white beaver hat1 appeared punctually at the corner of ,bond ,street at half-past five in the afternoon1 and spent half an hour in turning over the odd volumes displayed on the street board of a secondhand-book shop not far from ,oxford ,circus4 ,his appearances were so planetary in their regularity that one might have reckoned time by them4 ,who he was1 or what his objects in life may have been1 ,i never learned4 ,i never saw him walk but in the one direction2 ,i never saw him buy one of the many books which he examined3 perhaps he also was afflicted with the tedium of ,london1 and took this singular way of getting through a portion of his sterile day with a simulated interest4 ,at all events he afforded me an interest1 and when he vanished at the end of the month1 ,oxford ,street once more became intolerable to me4 ,these particulars appear so foolish and so trivial that most persons will find them ridiculous1 and even the most sympathetic will perhaps wonder why they are recorded4 ,they were1 however1 far from trivial to me4 ,the marooned seaman saves his sanity by cutting notches in a stick1 the solitary prisoner by friendship with a mouse2 and when life is reduced to the last exiguity of narrowness1 the interests of life will be narrow too4 ,no writer1 whose work is familiar to me1 has ever yet described with unsparing fidelity the kind of misery which lies in having to do precisely the same things at the same hour1 through long and consecutive periods of time4 ,the hours then become a dead weight which oppresses the spirit to the point of torture4 ,life itself resembles those dreadful dreams of childhood1 in which we see the ceiling and the walls of the room contract round one's helpless and immobile form4 ,blessed is he who has variety in his life3 thrice blessed is he who has both freedom and variety3 but the subordinate toiler in the vast mechanism of a great city has neither4 ,he will sit at the same desk1 gaze upon the same unending rows of figures1 do1 in fact1 the same things year in and year out till his youth has withered into age4 ,he himself becomes little better than a mechanism4 ,there is no form of outdoor employment of which this can be said4 ,the life of the agricultural labourer1 so often pitied for its monotony1 is variety itself compared with the life of the commercial clerk4 ,the labourer's tasks are at least changed by the seasons2 but time brings no such diversion to the clerk4 ,it is this horrible monotony which so often makes the clerk a foul-minded creature2 driven in upon himself1 he has to create some kind of drama for his instincts and imaginations1 and often from the sorriest material4 ,when ,i played single-handed cribbage with the few trivial interests which ,i knew1 ,i at least took an innocent diversion2 and ,i may claim that my absurd fancies injured no one1 and were certainly of some service to myself4 ,the outsider usually imagines that great cities afford unusual opportunities of social intercourse1 and when ,i first became a citizen ,i found this prospect enchanting4 ,i scanned the horizon eagerly for these troops of friends which a city was supposed to furnish3 quested here and there for a responsive pair of eyes2 made timid approaches which were repulsed2 and1 finally1 after much experiment1 had to admit that the whole idea was a delusion4 ,no doubt it is true enough that1 with a settled and considerable income1 and the power of entertaining1 friends are to be found in plenty4 ,but ,grosvenor ,square and ,kentish ,town do not so much as share a common atmosphere4 ,in the one it is a pleasant tradition that the house door should be set wide to all comers who can contribute anything to the common social stock2 in the other1 the house door is jealously locked and barred4 ,the ,london clerk does not care to reveal the shifts and the bareness of his domestic life4 ,he will reside in one locality for years without so much as seeking to know his next-door neighbour4 ,he will live on cordial terms with his comrade in the office1 but will never dream of inviting him to his home4 ,his instinct of privacy is so abnormal that it becomes mere churlishness4 ,his wife1 if he have one1 usually fosters this spirit for reasons of her own4 ,her interests end with the clothing and education of her children4 ,she does not wish for friends1 does not cultivate the grace of hospitality1 and is indifferent to social intercourse4 ,in short1 the barbaric legend that an ,englishman's house is his castle1 is nowhere so much respected as in ,london4 ,the exhausting character of life in ,london1 and the mere vastness of its geographical area1 do something to produce this result4 ,men who leave home early in the morning1 sit for many hours in an office1 and reach home late at night1 soon lose both the instinct and desire for social intercourse4 ,they prefer the comfortable torpor of the fireside4 ,if some imperative need of new interests torments them1 they seek relaxation in the music-hall or some other place of popular resort4 ,the art of conversation is almost extinct in a certain type of ,londoner4 ,he knows nothing to converse about outside his business interests1 his family concerns1 and perhaps the latest sensation of the daily newspaper4 ,those lighter flights of fancy1 those delicate innuendoes and allusions of implied experience or culture--all the give-and-take of happily contending minds--all1 indeed1 that makes true conversation--is a science utterly unknown to him4 ,a certain superficial nimbleness of mind he does sometimes possess1 but for all that he is a dull creature1 made dull by the limitations of his life4 ,if it should happen1 as it often may1 that such a man has some genuine instinct for friendship1 and has a friend to whom he can confide his real thoughts1 the chances are that his friend will be separated from him by the mere vastness of ,london4 ,to the rural mind the metropolis appears an entity2 in reality it is an empire4 ,a journey from the extreme north to the extreme south1 from ,muswell ,hill to ,dulwich1 is less easily accomplished1 and often less speedily1 than a journey from ,london to ,birmingham4 ,there is none of that pleasant 'dropping-in' for an evening which is possible in country towns of not immoderate radius4 ,time-tables have to be consulted1 engagement-books scanned1 serious preparations made1 with the poor result1 perhaps1 of two hours' hurried intercourse4 ,the heartiest friendship does not long survive this malignity of circumstance4 ,it is something to know that you have a friend1 obscurely hidden in some corner of the metropolis2 but you see him so rarely1 that when you meet1 it is like forming a new friendship rather than pursuing an old one4 ,it is little wonder that1 under such conditions1 visits grow more and more infrequent1 and at last cease4 ,a message at ,christmas1 an intimation of a birth1 a funeral card1 are the solitary relics and mementoes of many a city friendship not extinct1 but utterly suspended4 ,i dwell on these obvious characteristics of ,london life1 because in course of time they assumed for me almost terrifying dimensions4 ,after ten years of arduous toil ,i found myself at thirty-five lonely1 friendless1 and imprisoned in a groove of iron1 whose long curves swept on inevitably to that grim terminus where all men arrive at last4 ,sometimes ,i chided myself for my discontent2 and certainly there were many who might have envied me4 ,i occupied a fairly comfortable house in a decayed terrace where each house was exactly like its neighbour1 and had ,i told any one that the mere aspect of this grey terrace oppressed me by its featureless monotony1 ,i should have been laughed at for my pains4 ,i believe that ,i was trusted by my employers1 and if a mere automatic diligence can be accounted a virtue1 ,i merited their trust4 ,in course of time my income would have been increased1 though never to that degree which means competence or freedom4 ,to this common object of ambition ,i had indeed long ago become indifferent4 ,what can a few extra pounds a year bring to a man who finds himself bound to the same tasks1 and those tasks distasteful8 ,i was married and had two children2 and the most distressing thought of all was that ,i saw my children predestined to the same fate4 ,i saw them growing up in complete destitution of those country sights and sounds which had made my own youth delightful2 acquiring the superficial sharpness of the city child and his slang2 suffering at times by the anaemia and listlessness bred of vitiated air2 high-strung and sensitive as those must needs be whose nerves are in perpetual agitation2 and when1 in chance excursions to the country1 ,i compared my children with the children of cottagers and ploughmen1 ,i felt that ,i had wronged them1 ,i saw my children foredoomed1 by an inexorable destiny1 to a life at all points similar with my own4 ,in course of time they also would become recruits in the narrow-chested1 black-coated army of those who sit at desks4 ,they would become slaves without having known the value of freedom2 slaves not by capture but by heritage4 ,more and more the thought began to gather shape1 ,was ,i getting the most1 or the best1 out of life8 ,was there no other kind of life in which toil was redeemed from baseness by its own inherent interest1 no life which offered more of tranquil satisfaction and available1 if humble1 happiness8 ,day by day this thought sounded through my mind1 and each fresh discouragement and disability of the life ,i led gave it sharper emphasis4 ,at last the time came when ,i found an answer to it1 and these chapters tell the story of my seeking and my finding4 ,,chapter ,,ii ,,getting ,,the ,,best ,,out ,,of ,,life ,the reader will perhaps say that the kind of miseries recounted in the previous chapter are more imaginary than real4 ,many thousands of people subsist in ,london upon narrow means1 and do not find the life intolerable4 ,they have their interests and pleasures1 meagre enough when judged by a superior standard1 but sufficient to maintain in them some of the vivacity of existence4 ,no doubt this is true4 ,i remember being struck some years ago by the remark of a person of distinction1 equally acquainted with social life in its highest and its lowest forms4 ,mr4 ,h41 as ,i will call this person1 said that the dismal pictures drawn by social novelists of life among the very poor were true in fact1 but wrong in perspective4 ,novelists described what their own feelings would be if they were condemned to live the life of the disinherited city drudge1 rather than the actual feelings of the drudge himself4 ,a man of education1 accustomed to easy means1 would suffer tortures unspeakable if he were made to live in a single room of a populous and squalid tenement1 and had to subsist upon a wage at once niggardly and precarious4 ,he would be tormented with that memory of happier things1 which we are told is a 'sorrow's crown of sorrow4' ,but the man who has known no other condition of life is unconscious of its misery4 ,he has no standard of comparison4 ,an environment which would drive a man of refinement to thoughts of suicide1 does not produce so much as dissatisfaction in him4 ,hence there is far more happiness among the poor than we imagine4 ,they see nothing deplorable in a lot to which they have become accustomed2 they are as our first parents before their eyes were opened to a knowledge of good or evil2 or1 to take a less mythical illustration1 they are as the contented savage1 to whom the refinements of ,european civilisation are objects of ridicule rather than envy4 ,i quote this opinion for what it is worth2 but it has little relevance to my own case4 ,i am the only competent judge of my own feelings4 ,i know perfectly well that these feelings were not shared by men who shared the conditions of my own life4 ,there was a clerk in the same office with me who may be taken as an example of his class4 ,poor ,arrowsmith--how well ,i recall him6--was a little pallid man1 always neatly if shabbily dressed1 punctual as a clock1 and of irreproachable diligence4 ,he was verging on forty1 had a wife and family whom ,i never saw1 and an aged mother whom he was proud to support4 ,he was of quite imperturbable cheerfulness1 delighted in small jokes1 and would chatter like a daw when occasion served him4 ,he had never read a book in his life2 his mind subsisted wholly upon the halfpenny newspapers4 ,he had no pleasures1 unless one can count as such certain ,bank ,holiday excursions to ,hampstead ,heath1 which were performed under a heavy sense of duty to his family4 ,he had lived in ,london all his days1 but knew much less of it than the country excursionist4 ,he had never visited ,st4 ,paul's or ,westminster ,abbey2 had never travelled so far as ,kew or ,greenwich2 had never been inside a picture gallery2 and had never attended a concert in his life4 ,the pendulum of his innocuous existence swung between the office and his home with a uniform monotony4 ,yet not only was he contented with his life1 but ,i believe that he regarded it as entirely successful4 ,he had counted it a great piece of luck when he had entered the office as a youth of sixteen1 and the glow of his good fortune still lingered in his mind at forty4 ,he regarded his employers with a species of admiring awe not always accorded to kings4 ,the most violent social democrat could have made nothing of ,arrowsmith2 there was not the least crevice in his heart in which the seed of discontent could have found a lodgment4 ,as for making any question of whether he was getting the best or most out of life1 ,arrowsmith was as incapable as a kitten4 ,the virtues of ,arrowsmith1 which were in their way quietly heroic1 impressed me a good deal2 but his abject contentment with the limitations of his lot appalled me4 ,i felt a dread grow in me lest ,i should become subdued to the element in which ,i worked as he was4 ,i asked myself whether a life so destitute of real interests and pleasures was life at all8 ,i made fugitive attempts to allure the little man into some realms of wider interest1 but with the most discouraging results4 ,i once insisted on taking him with me for a day in ,epping ,forest4 ,he came reluctantly1 for he did not like leaving his wife at home1 and it seemed that no persuasion could induce her to undertake so adventurous a jaunt4 ,he was no walker1 and half a dozen miles along the ,forest roads tired him out4 ,by the afternoon even his cheerfulness had vanished2 he gazed with blank and gloomy eyes upon the wide spaces of the woodland scenery4 ,he did not regain his spirits till we drew near ,stratford on the homeward journey4 ,at the first sight of gas-lit streets he brightened up1 and ,i am persuaded that the rancid odours of the factories at ,bow were sweeter in his nostrils than all the ,forest fragrances4 ,i never asked him again to share a pleasure for which ,i now perceived he had no faculty2 but ,i often asked myself how long it would take for a city life to extirpate in me the taste by which ,nature is appreciated1 as it had in ,arrowsmith4 ,i have taken ,arrowsmith as an example of the narrowness of interest created by a city life1 and it would be easy to offer an apology for him1 which ,i1 for one1 would most heartily endorse4 ,the poor fellow was very much the creature of his circumstances4 ,but this was scarcely the case with another man ,i knew1 whose circumstances1 had he known how to use them1 might have afforded him the opportunity of many cultivated tastes4 ,he was the son of a small farmer1 born in the same village as myself4 ,by some curious accident he was flung into the vortex of ,london life at seventeen1 and became a clerk in a reputable firm of stockbrokers in ,throgmorton ,street4 ,he rose rapidly1 speculated largely and successfully for himself1 became a partner1 and was rich at thirty4 ,i used to meet him occasionally1 for he never forgot that we had sat upon the same bench at school4 ,i can see him still2 well-fleshed and immaculately dressed2 his waistcoat pockets full of gold2 a prop of music-halls1 a patron of expensive restaurants2 flashing from one to the other in the evening hours in swift hansoms2 a man envied and admired by a host of clerks in ,throgmorton ,street to whom he appeared a kind of ,napoleon of finance4 ,i will confess that ,i myself was a little dazzled by his careless opulence4 ,when he took me to dine with him he thought nothing of giving the head waiter a sovereign as a guarantee of careful service1 or of sending another sovereign to the master of the orchestra with a request for some particular piece of music which he fancied4 ,he once confided to me that he had brought off certain operations which had made him the possessor of eighty thousand pounds4 ,to me the sum seemed immense1 but he regarded it as a bagatelle4 ,when ,i suggested certain uses for it1 such as retirement to the country1 the building of a country house1 the collection of pictures or of a library1 he laughed at me4 ,he informed me that he never spent more than a single day in the country every year2 it was spent in visiting his father at the old farm4 ,he loathed the quiet of the country1 and counted his one day in the year an infliction and a sacrifice4 ,books and pictures he had cared for once1 but as he now put it1 he had 'no use for them4' ,it seemed that all his eighty thousand pounds was destined to be flung upon the great roulette table of stock and share speculations4 ,it was not that he was avaricious2 few men cared less for money in itself2 but he could not live without the excitement of speculation4 ',i prefer the air of ,throgmorton ,street to any air in the world1' he observed4 ',i am unhappy if ,i leave it for a day4' ,so far as knowledge of or interest in ,london went1 he was not a whit better than poor shabby ,arrowsmith4 ,his ,london stretched no further than from the ,bank to ,oxford ,circus1 and the landmarks by which he knew it were restaurants and music-halls4 ,the man seemed so satisfied with everything about his life that it was a kind of joy to meet him4 ,the sourness of my own discontent was dissolved in the alembic of his joviality4 ,yet it was certain that he lived a life of the most torturing anxiety4 ,there were recurring periods when his fortune hung in the balance1 and his financial salvation was achieved as by fire4 ,when he sat silent for a moment1 strange things were written on his face4 ,haggard lines ran across the brow2 the hollows underneath the eyes grew deep2 and one could see that black care sat upon his shoulders4 ,there was a listening posture of the head1 as of one apprehensive of the footfall of disaster1 and though he was barely forty1 his hair was white4 ,what happened to him finally ,i do not know4 ,i missed him for a year or two2 inquired at the hotel where he had lived and found him gone2 and ,i thought ,i read in the sarcastic smile of the hotel-manager more knowledge than he was willing to communicate4 ,i imagine that he went down in some financial storm1 like ships at sea that are heard of no more2 the ,napoleon of finance had somewhere found his ,waterloo4 ,the reflection is inevitable2 what had he got out of life after all8 ,he had won neither peace nor honour2 he had known nothing of the finer joys or tastes2 he had enjoyed no satisfying pleasures2 such triumph as he had known had been the brief triumph of the gambler4 ,upon the whole ,i thought the narrow tedious life of ,arrowsmith the worthier4 ,reflections of this nature are usually attributed to mere envy or contempt of wealth1 which is a temper not less sordid than a love of wealth4 ,for my part ,i can but profess that ,i feel for wealth neither envy nor contempt4 ,on the contrary1 ,i love to imagine myself wealthy1 and ,i flatter myself--as most poor men do--that ,i am a person peculiarly fitted by nature to afford a conspicuous example of how wealth should be employed4 ,i like to dramatise my fancies1 and the more impossible these fancies are1 the more convincing is the drama that can be educed from them4 ,thus ,i have several times built palaces which have rivalled the splendours of the ,medici2 ,i have administered great estates to the entire satisfaction of my tenants2 ,i have established myself as the ,maecenas of art and literature2 and were ,i ever called to play these parts in reality1 ,i am convinced that my competence would secure applause4 ,the point at which ,i stick1 however1 is this3 rich men rarely do these things4 ,it is the pursuit of wealth1 rather than wealth itself1 that is their pleasure4 ,let us suppose the case of a man who has toiled with undivided mind for thirty years to acquire a fortune2 will it not be usually found that in the struggle to be rich he has lost those very qualities which make riches worth possessing8 ,he buys his estate or builds his house2 but there is little pleasure in the business4 ,he is the mere slave of land-agents1 the puppet of architects and upholsterers4 ,he has no original taste to guide or interest him3 what he once had has perished long ago in the dreary toil of money-grubbing4 ,the men who build or decorate his house have a certain pleasure in their work2 all that he does is to pay them for being happy4 ,if he should adopt the rich man's hobby of collecting pictures or a library1 he rarely enjoys a higher pleasure than the mere lust of possession4 ,he buys what he is told to buy1 without discrimination2 he has no knowledge of what constitutes rarity or value2 and most certainly he knows nothing of those excitements of the quest which make the collection of articles of vertu a pursuit so fascinating to the man of trained judgment but moderate means4 ,and1 as if to complete the irony of the situation1 he is after all but the infrequent tenant of the treasure-house which he has built2 the blinds are drawn half the year2 the splendid rooms are seen by no wiser eyes than those of his butler and his housekeeper2 and his secretary1 if he be a man of taste and education1 draws the real dividend of pleasure from all these rare and costly things which ,dives has accumulated4 ,dives is in most cases little more than the man who pays the bill for things which other folk enjoy4 ,let ,dives be accounted then a public benefactor1 we may say2 perhaps so1 but the question still remains1 does ,dives get the most and best out of life8 ,the obvious answer is that the best things of life are not to be bought with money2 it would be nearer the truth to quote the prophetic paradox1 they are bought 'without money and without price4' ,i was present once at a dinner given by a millionaire newspaper proprietor to a crowd of journalists1 on the occasion of the founding of a new magazine4 ,the millionaire ate little1 spoke little1 and sat throughout the feast with an anxious cloud upon his brow4 ,i recognised the same furtive look of apprehension in his eyes that ,i had seen in the eyes of my stock-broking friend long before4 ,as ,i glanced round the room ,i found myself able to pick out all the men of wealth by that same look4 ,it would seem that the anxieties of getting money only beget the more torturing anxiety of how to keep it4 ,that1 ,i am persuaded1 was the dominant thought of my millionaire host throughout the meal2 he knew the fear and fever of the gambler risking an enormous stake1 the agitation of the soldier on the eve of a battle1 in which victory is highly problematical4 ,but that crowd of hungry journalists1 how they did eat6 ,what laughter sat on those boyish faces1 what zest of life1 what capacity of pleasure6 ,there was not one of them whose daily bread was not precarious2 not one perhaps who had a decent balance at the bank2 yet they were so gay1 so resolutely cheerful1 so frankly interested in life and in themselves1 that ,i could fancy those gloomy eyes at the head of the table watched them with a sort of envy1 ,i think there must be something fatal to gaiety in the mere responsibilities of wealth2 ,i am sure that there is something corrupting in the labours of its acquisition4 ,i think ,i had rather be a vagrant1 with a crust in my knapsack1 a blue sky above me1 and the adventurous road before me1 than look upon the world with a pair of eyes so laughterless as his who was our host that night4 ,again ,i protest that ,i make no railing accusation against wealth in itself4 ,i am so far convinced of the truly beneficent utilities of wealth1 that ,i would quite willingly take the risks of a moderate competence1 should any one be disposed to make experiment with my virtues4 ,there is some magnanimity in this offer1 for ,i can no more foretell the effects of the bacillus of wealth upon my moral nature1 than can the physician who offers his body for inoculation with the germ of some dire disease that science may be served4 ,it argues some lack of imagination among millionaires that it has occurred to no one of the tribe to endow a man instead of an institution1 if it were only by way of change4 ,it would at least prove an interesting experiment1 and it would be cheap at the price of the few unmissed thousands which the millionaire would pay for it4 ,to such an experiment ,i would be willing to submit1 if it were only to ascertain whether ,i have been right or wrong in my supposition that ,i am better qualified by nature than my fellows for the right administration of wealth2 but there is one thing ,i would never do1 ,i would never undertake that laborious quest of wealth1 which robs men of the power to enjoy it when it is obtained4 ,it is there that the pinch comes2 granted that some degree of competence is needed for a free and various use of life1 is it worth while to destroy the power of living in attaining the means to live8 ,what is a man better for his wealth if he does not know how to use it8 ,a fool may steal a ship1 but it takes a wise man to navigate her towards the islands of the ,blest4 ,i am told sometimes that there is a romance in business2 no doubt there is1 but it is pretty often the romance of piracy2 and the pleasures of the rich man are very often nothing better than the pleasures of the pirate3 a barbaric wading in gold1 a reckless piling up of treasure1 which he has not the sense to use4 ,as long as there are shouting crews upon the sea and flaming ships1 he is happy2 but give him at last the gold which he has striven to win1 and he knows nothing better than to sit like the successful pirate in a common ale-house1 and make his boast to boon companions4 ,i believe that the dullest men in all the world are very rich men2 and ,i have sometimes thought that it cannot need a very high order of intelligence to acquire wealth1 since some of the meanest of mankind appear to prosper at the business4 ,a certain vulpine shrewdness of intelligence seems the thing most needed1 and this may coexist with a general dulness of mind which would disgrace a savage4 ,the thing that is least perceived about wealth is that all pleasure in money ends at the point where economy becomes unnecessary4 ,the man who can buy anything he covets1 without any consultation with his banker1 values nothing that he buys4 ,there is a subtle pleasure in the extravagance that contests with prudence2 in the anxious debates which we hold with ourselves whether we can or cannot afford a certain thing2 in our attempts to justify our wisdom2 in the risk and recklessness of our operations2 in the long deferred and final joy of our possession2 but this is a kind of pleasure which the man of boundless means never knows4 ,the buying of pictures affords us an excellent illustration on this point4 ,men of the type of ,balzac's ,cousin ,pons attain to rapture in the process because they are poor4 ,they have to walk weary miles and wait long weeks to get upon the track of their treasure2 to use all their knowledge of art and men to circumvent the malignity of dealers2 to experience the extremes of trepidation and of hope2 to deny themselves comforts1 and perhaps food1 that they may pay the price which has at last1 after infinite dispute1 reached an irreducible minimum2 and the pleasure of their possession is in the ratio of their pains4 ,but the man who enters a sale-room with the knowledge that he can have everything he wishes by the signing of a cheque feels none of these emotions4 ,it seems to me that money has lost more than half its value since cheques became common4 ,when men kept their gold in iron coffers1 lock-fast cupboards1 or a pot buried in an orchard1 there was something tangible in wealth4 ,when it came to counting out gold pieces in a bag1 men remembered by what sweat of mind or body wealth was won1 and they had a sense of parting with something which was really theirs4 ,but a cheque has never yet impressed me with the least sense of its intrinsic value4 ,it is a thing so trivial and fragile that the mind refuses to regard it as the equivalent of lands and houses and solid bullion4 ,it is a thing incredible to reason that with a stroke of the pen a man may sign away his thousands4 ,if cheques were prohibited by law1 and all payments made in good coin of the realm1 ,i believe we should all be much more careful in our expenditure1 for we should have at least some true symbol of what expenditure implies4 ,in an ideal state all incomes beyond #aj1jjj pounds per year should be prohibited4 ,almost all the real luxuries of life may be enjoyed on half that sum2 and even this is an excessive estimate4 ,such a regulation would be of vast advantage to the rich1 simply because it would impose some limit at which economy commenced4 ,they would then begin to enjoy their wealth4 ,avarice would decline1 for obviously it would not be worth while to accumulate a larger fortune than the ,state permitted4 ,we might also expect some improvement in manners1 for there would be no room for that vulgar ostentation in which excessive wealth delights4 ,if a man chose to exceed the limit which the law prescribed he would do so as a public benefactor2 for1 of course1 the excess of wealth would be applied to the good of the community1 in the relief of taxation1 the adornment of cities1 or the establishment of libraries and art-galleries4 ,it would no doubt be objected that the great historic houses of the aristocracy could not be maintained on such an income2 five thousand pounds a year would hardly pay the servants on a great estate1 and provide the upkeep of a mansion4 ,but in this case the ,state would become the custodian of such houses1 which would be treated as national palaces4 ,it is by no means improbable that their present owners would be glad to be rid of them on generous terms1 which provided for a nominal ownership and an occasional occupation4 ,however this may be1 it is certain that the rich would profit by the change1 for their chance of getting the most and best out of life would be much increased by the limit put upon cupidity and ostentation4 ,,chapter ,,iii ,,getting ,a ,,living1 ,,and ,,living ,getting the best and most out of life1 ,i take to be the most rational object of human existence4 ,even religion1 although it affects to scorn the phrase1 admits the fact2 for no man would be religious unless he were convinced that he thereby added something to his store of happiness4 ,it is a matter of temperament whether a man treats religion as a panacea for his mortal troubles1 or the ',open ,sesame' of brighter worlds1 but it is quite certain that he regards it as a means of happiness4 ,i cannot doubt that the anchorites1 ascetics1 and cloistered nuns of mediaeval times were happy in their own way1 although it was in a fashion that appears to us highly foolish and absurd4 ,even a ,st4 ,stylites had his consolations2 he was kept warm upon his pillar by the comfortable sense of his superiority to his wicked fellow-creatures4 ,to get the best out of life there must be some adequate fulfilment of one's best self4 ,man is a bundle of tastes and appetites1 some lofty1 and some ignoble1 but all crying out for satisfaction4 ,wisdom lies in the discernment of essentials2 in just discrimination between false and true tastes4 ,man has been a long time upon the earth1 and he has spent his time for the most part in one ceaseless experiment1 viz41 how he may become a satisfactory creature in his own eyes4 ,all civilisations converge upon this point2 and we maybe sure that1 in their lonely hours of meditation1 the fantastic warder on the great wall of ,china1 and the ,roman soldier pacing to and fro in the porticoes of the ,palatine1 had much the same thoughts4 ,whosoever speaks to man on the art of becoming happy is secure of a hearing2 even though he be the vilest of quacks he will have his following1 even though he were the worst of scoundrels some will take him for a prophet4 ,in short1 we are all the dupes of hope1 and it needs some experience to assure us that our only real hope is in ourselves4 ,in our own hearts lies the ,eldorado which we scour the world to find2 could we but fulfil our best selves we should ask no other happiness4 ,the question that soon comes to obtrude itself upon the mind of a thoughtful man in a great city1 is this old persistent question of whether his method of life is such as to answer to the ideal of fulfilling his best self8 ,it seemed to me that the inhabitants of cities were too busy getting a living to have time to live4 ,let us take the life of the average business man by way of example4 ,such a man will rise early1 sleep late1 and eat the bread of carefulness1 if he means to succeed4 ,he will probably live--or be said to live--in some suburb more or less remote from the roaring centre of affairs4 ,the first light of the winter dawn will see him alert2 breakfast is a hurried passover performance2 a certain train must be caught at all hazard to digestion1 and the most leisured moments of the day will be those he passes in the railway carriage4 ,once arrived at his office he must plunge into the vortex of business2 do battle with a thousand rivalries and competitions2 day after day must labour in the same wearisome pursuits1 content1 perhaps1 if at the end of the year he shall have escaped as by a miracle commercial shipwreck4 ,he will come back to his residence1 night after night1 a tired man2 not pleasantly wearied with pursuits which have exercised his complete powers1 but tired to the point of dejection by the narrowness and monotony of his pursuits4 ,i say he returns to his residence2 ,i scorn to say his home1 for the house he rents is merely the barrack where he sleeps4 ,of the life that goes on within this house1 which is nominally his1 he knows nothing4 ,in its daily ordering1 or even in its external features1 he has no part4 ,he has chosen no item of its furniture2 he has had no hand in its decoration2 he has but paid the tradesmen's bills4 ,his children scarcely know him2 they are asleep when he goes off in the morning1 and asleep when he returns at night2 he is to them the strange man who sits at the head of the table once a week and carves the ,sunday joint4 ,it is well for them if they have a mother who possesses gifts of government1 sympathy1 and patient comprehension1 for it is clear that they have no father4 ,he gets a living1 and perhaps in time an ample living2 but does he live8 ,it may be said that this picture is exaggerated2 on the contrary1 ,i think it is under-estimated4 ,i have myself known men whose average daily absence from 'home' is twelve hours2 they disappear by the eight o'clock morning train1 and in times of special business pressure it is not far from midnight when they return4 ,the trains1 cabs1 and public vehicles of ,london convey1 day by day1 one million three hundred thousand of these homeless men to their employments in the city4 ,here and there a wise man may be found who resents this tyranny of suburbanism4 ,i know a young business man1 who also chances to possess domestic instincts1 for whom suburbanism grew so intolerable that he took a house in the very heart of ,london1 that he might lunch and dine with his wife at his own table without neglecting his business interests4 ,he was a wise man1 but he is the only one ,i know4 ,counting the time passed at luncheon and dinner1 the later departure in the morning1 and the earlier arrival at night1 he is the clear gainer1 day by day1 of three to four hours of domestic intercourse4 ,at the end of the week he has thus added to the credit of his family life four-and-twenty hours2 at the end of a year he has enjoyed more than fifty full days of domestic intercourse which would have been forfeited had he continued to live at ,surbiton4 ,he has also saved money1 for though the rent he pays in ,central ,london is more than the rent he paid at ,surbiton1 yet he has saved the expense of his season-ticket1 lunches1 and occasional dinners at a club or restaurant1 and cabs to ,waterloo when he was pressed for time4 ,but it is quite vain to urge such considerations on the average man of business4 ,he would tell you frankly that nothing would induce him to live in a house within a stone's-throw of ,leicester ,square1 although it is a far better built and more comfortable house than the gimcrack villa which he rents at ,surbiton4 ,the gain in domestic intercourse would not attract him1 for he has long ago lost taste for it2 and the privilege of lunching with his family would repel him1 for he is deeply suspicious of the virtues of domestic cookery4 ,nor1 ,i suppose1 would it influence him to tell him that by living in ,central ,london1 he could command without inconvenience the full attractions of the town1 such as concerts1 lectures1 theatres1 or those special assemblies which are representative of ,london life2 for he desires nothing of the kind4 ,considerations of economy might affect him1 but with all his skill at figures he seldom has the sense to see that the moiety of income paid yearly to the railway1 by himself and his family1 goes a long way toward the doubling of his rent4 ,in short1 suburbanism is his fetish2 it is the keynote of his poor respectability1 and he is not to be diverted from it by any reasons which a sane man would regard as considerable1 if not imperative4 ,the most usual excuse of suburbanism is that it is a good thing for the wife and family of a business man1 though it is a bad thing for him4 ,it is singular that no one seems to recognise the gross selfishness of this plea4 ,it is like the plea of the vivisectionist1 that vivisection is a bad thing for a rabbit1 but a very good thing for humanity1 since humanity profits by the torture of the rabbit4 ,but for my part ,i doubt whether there is any real profit to anybody in suburbanism4 ,there is a town life1 and there is a country life1 each of which has peculiar compensations of its own2 but suburbanism is a miserable compromise1 which like most compromises combines not the qualities but the defects of two antagonisms4 ,its worst effect is that it sets up in one family two standards of life1 which have nothing in common4 ,after a while it must happen that there is a serious estrangement of taste1 and it is not surprising if this often leads to a much more serious estrangement of affection4 ,the air of ,surbiton may be a little fresher than the air of ,bloomsbury1 but what does this count for if the atmosphere of the hearth be poisoned8 ,moreover1 among the ,anglo-,saxon peoples women are not encouraged to take any vital interest in the pursuits of their husbands as they are among the ,latin races4 ,i should not be surprised to find that half the women in the ,london suburbs do not know the precise nature of their husbands' occupations4 ,a ,french woman of the bourgeois class often has a real aptitude for business4 ,she can manage a shop1 keep accounts1 take an interest in markets1 and in all questions of commercial enterprise she is the confidante1 and often the adviser1 of her husband4 ,your ,english woman of the same class prides herself rather on her total ignorance of business4 ,it is probable that in twenty years of married life she has not once visited the warehouse or the office where her husband earns the income which she spends4 ,she is 'provided for without the sweet sense of providing4' ,she sees her husband elated or depressed by things that have happened in the city2 but to her the reasons of his hope or fear are not communicated1 nor would she understand them if they were4 ,his mind speaks a language foreign to her2 his daily operations in the city have for her only the remote interest of things that have happened in a foreign country1 which appear too unreal to excite any sincere sympathy or apprehension4 ,is this divided life good for either party8 ,were some curious observer from another planet to arrive in ,london1 ,i think few things would appear to him so extraordinary as a ,london suburb at noonday4 ,by ten o'clock in the morning at latest he would see it denuded of all its male inhabitants4 ,like that fabulous realm of ,tennyson's ,princess1 it is a realm inhabited by women2 and the only male voice left in the land is the voice of the milk-boy on his rounds1 the necessary postman1 and the innocuous grocer's tout4 ,there is something of the 'hushed seraglio' in these miles of trim houses1 from whose doors and windows only female faces look out4 ,an air of sensible bereavement lies upon the land4 ,woman1 deprived of her lord and natural complement1 cuts but a poor figure anywhere1 but nowhere so poor as in a wide realm populous with grass widows4 ,by what interests or avocations1 or by what delinquency of duty the tedious hours are cheated1 is not revealed to any male philosopher2 but he is a poor observer who does not recognise something unnatural in this one-sided life4 ,a few miles away the loud ,niagara of ,london runs swift1 and the air vibrates with all the tumult of the strenuous life of man2 but here the air is dead1 unwinnowed by any clamorous wind1 unshaken by any planetary motion4 ,i cannot think this narrow separated life good for woman1 and ,i am surprised that in these days when woman claims equal privilege with man1 she will submit to it4 ,in the act of getting a living she also suffers1 and loses something of the power to live4 ,if the distraction of the city hurts the man she is not less injured by the torpor of the suburb4 ,let a woman be never so intelligent and keenly wrought1 a suburb will soon enfeeble her1 and take the fine edge off her spirit4 ,left to the sole society of nursemaids and cooks in her own house for many hours a day2 to the companionship of women outside her house1 whose conversation is mainly gossip about household difficulties2 to the tame diversions of shopping at the nearest emporium2 what power of interest in the larger things of life can be expected of her8 ,the suburb is her cloister1 and she the dedicated bride of littleness4 ,this seems a hard saying1 but it can easily be verified by observation4 ,i have myself known women1 rich enough to keep a carriage1 who had never been so far as ,hyde ,park1 never visited the ,national ,gallery1 and never sought any finer music than could be furnished by a local concert4 ,for them1 ,london as an entity did not exist4 ,this parochialism of suburban life is its most surprising feature4 ,there is after all some excuse for ,mr4 ,grant ,allen's description of ,london as an aggregation of villages1 when we find that so vast a number of ,londoners really live the life of villagers4 ,but it is not patriotism that binds them to the soil1 nor local pride1 as is the case with genuine villagers2 it is rather sheer inertia4 ,such pride1 if it existed1 might do much for the regeneration of great cities1 by creating a series of eager and intelligent communities1 which would vie with one another in civic self-improvement2 but this is just the kind of pride which does not exist4 ,no one cares how his suburb is misgoverned1 so long as rates are not too exorbitant4 ,a suburb will wake into momentary life to curb the liberal programmes of the school-board1 or to vote against the establishment of a free library2 a gross self-interest being thus the only variation of its apathy4 ,it soon falls asleep again1 dulled into torpor by the fumes of its own intolerant smugness4 ,for much of this the element of family separation in suburban life is answerable4 ,the men pay their rates and house-rent at ,surbiton1 but they live their real lives within hearing of the bell of ,st4 ,paul's2 how should they take any interest in ,surbiton8 ,after all1 ,surbiton is to them but a vast caravansary1 where they are lodged and fed at night2 and one does not inquire too closely into the internal amenities of his hotel so long as the food is tolerable1 and the bed clean4 ,suburbanism is1 however1 but a branch1 though an important branch1 of the larger question1 whether in cities men do not ultimately sacrifice the finer qualities and joys of life to the act of getting a living4 ,it will perhaps be said that the man with a true genius for business must in any case live in a city2 that he is not discontented with the conditions of his life2 that1 all things being considered1 he is probably living the kind of life for which he is best fitted4 ,may not a writer1 who is presumably a person of studious and quiet habits1 misinterpret the life of a business man precisely in the same way that he misinterprets the life of the poor1 by applying to it his own standards instead of measuring it by theirs8 ,business1 for the man of business genius1 is more than an employment2 it is his epic1 his romance1 his adventurous crusade4 ,he brings to it something of the statesman's prescience1 the diplomatist's sagacity1 the great captain's power of organising victory4 ,his days are battles1 his life a long campaign2 and if he does not win the spoil of kingdoms1 he does fight for commercial supremacy1 which comes to much the same thing4 ,no doubt there is much truth in this putting of the case1 though it really begs the main question4 ,but even if we grant that in the larger operations of commerce a certain type of genius is required1 we must remember that the men of this order are few in number4 ,every lord of commerce is attended by a vast retinue of slaves4 ,very few of these humble servitors of commerce can ever hope to rise from the ranks into supreme command4 ,they must labour to create the wealth of the successful merchant as a private soldier suffers wounds and hardships that fame may crown his general4 ,do these men share the higher privileges of life8 ,is not life with them the getting of a living rather than living8 ,nay1 more2 is it not the getting of a living for some one else8 ,the merchant-prince fulfils himself1 for his highest powers of intelligence are daily taxed to the uttermost2 but the case is very different with that vast army of subordinates1 whom we see marching every morning in an infinite procession to the various warehouses and offices of ,london4 ,i have often wondered at their cheerfulness when ,i have recollected the nature of their life4 ,for they bring to their daily tasks not the whole of themselves1 but a mere segment of themselves2 some small industrious faculty which represents them1 or misrepresents them1 at the tribunal of those who ask no better thing of them4 ,few of them are doing the best that they can do1 and they know it4 ,they are not doing it because the world does not ask them to do it2 indeed1 the world takes care that they shall have no opportunity of doing it4 ,a certain faculty for arithmetic represents a man who has many higher faculties2 and thus the man is forced to live by one capacity which is perhaps his least worthy and significant4 ,this is not the case in what we call the liberal professions and the arts4 ,the architect1 the barrister1 the humblest journalist needs his whole mind for his task1 and hence his work is a delight4 ,the artist1 if he be a true artist1 does the one thing that he was born to do1 and so 'the hours pass away untold1 without chagrin1 and without weariness1' nor would he wish them to pass otherwise4 ,many times as ,i took my way to the dreary labours of my desk ,i stopped to watch1 and sometimes to talk with1 a smiling industrious little ,frenchman1 who repaired china and bronzes in a dingy shop in ,welbeck ,street4 ,he was an expert at his trade2 knew all the distinctive marks of old china1 and could assign with certainty the right date of any piece of bronze he handled2 and to hear him discourse on these things would have been a liberal education to a budding connoisseur4 ,i never knew a man so indefatigably happy in his work2 his eye lit up at any special glow of colour or delicacy of design2 he used his tools as though he loved them2 and if he dreamed at night1 ,i doubt not that his canopies were coloured with the hues of ,svres1 and that bronze angels from the hand of ,benvenuto stood about his bed4 ,plainly the man was happy because his work engaged his whole attention2 and to every cunning rivet that he fashioned he gave the entire forces of his mind4 ,here was a man who not merely got a living but lived2 and ,i1 chained to my desk1 knew well enough that his life was much more satisfactory than mine4 ,money has little to do with this problem of satisfactory living2 ,i think that this was the first discovery ,i made in the direction of a better mode of life4 ,my ,french workman earned perhaps two pounds a week3 ,i earned four or five2 but he bought happiness with his work1 whereas ,i bought discontent and weariness4 ,money may be bought at too dear a rate4 ,the average citizen1 if he did but know it1 is always buying money too dear4 ,he earns1 let us say1 four hundred pounds a year2 but the larger proportion of this sum goes in what is called 'keeping up appearances4' ,he must live in a house at a certain rental2 by the time that his rates and taxes are paid he finds one-eighth of his income at least has gone to provide a shelter for his head4 ,a cottage1 at ten pounds a year1 would have served him better1 and would have been equally commodious4 ,he must needs send his children to some private 'academy' for education1 getting only bad education and high charges for his pains2 a village board-school at twopence a week would have offered undeniable advantages4 ,he must wear the black coat and top-hat sacred to the clerking tribe2 a tweed suit and cap are more comfortable1 and half the price4 ,at all points he is the slave of convention1 and he pays a price for his convention out of all proportion to its value4 ,at a moderate estimate half the daily expenditure of ,london is a sacrifice to the convention or imposture of respectability4 ,unless a man have1 however1 a large endowment of that liberal discontent which makes him perpetually examine and reexamine the conditions of his life1 he will be a long time before he even suspects that he is the victim of artificial needs4 ,when once the yoke of habit is imposed1 the shoulder soon accustoms itself to the bondage1 and the aches and bruises of initiation are forgotten4 ,there are spasms of disgust1 moments of wise suspicion2 but they are transient1 and men soon come to regard a city as the prison from whence there is no escape4 ,but is no escape possible8 ,that was the question which pressed more and more upon me as the years went on4 ,i saw that the crux of the whole problem was economic1 ,i knew that ,i was not the gainer by a larger income1 if ,i could buy a more real satisfaction on less income4 ,i saw that it was the artificial needs of life that made me a slave2 the real needs of life were few4 ,a cottage and a hundred pounds a year in a village meant happiness and independence2 but dared ,i sacrifice twice or thrice the income to secure it8 ,the debate went on for years1 and it was ended only when ,i applied to it one fixed and reasoned principle4 ,that principle was that my first business as a rational creature was not to get a living but to live2 and that ,i was a fool to sacrifice the power of living in securing the means of life4 ,,chapter ,,iv ,,earth-,,hunger ,like ,charles ,,ii41 who apologised for being so unconscionably long in dying1 ,i must apologise for being so long in coming to my point1 which is the possibility of buying happiness at a cheaper rate than ,london offers it4 ,as it took me twenty years of experience to make my discovery1 ,i may claim1 however1 that three chapters is no immoderate amount of matter in which to describe it4 ,my chief occupation through these years was to keep my discontent alive4 ,satisfaction is the death of progress1 and ,i knew well that if ,i once acquiesced entirely in the conditions of my life1 my fate was sealed4 ,i did not acquiesce1 though the temper of my revolt was by no means steady4 ,there were times when--to reverse an ancient saying--the muddy ,jordan of ,london life seemed more to me than all the sparkling waters of ,damascus4 ,humanity seemed indescribably majestic2 and there were moments when ,i sincerely felt that ,i would not exchange the trampled causeways of the ,london streets for the greenest meadows that bordered ,rotha or ,derwentwater4 ,there were days of early summer when ,london rose from her morning bath of mist in a splendour truly unapproachable2 when no music heard of man seemed comparable with the long diapason of the crowded streets2 when from morn to eve the hours ran with an inconceivable gaiety and lightness1 and the eye was in turn inebriated with the hard glare and deep shadows of abundant light1 with the infinite contrasts of the streets1 with the far-ranged dignity of domes and towers swimming in the golden haze of midday1 or melting in the lilac mists of evening4 ,i felt also1 in this vast congregation of my fellow-creatures1 the exhilarating sense of my own insignificance4 ,of what value were my own opinions1 hopes1 or programmes in this huge concourse and confusion of opinion8 ,who cared what one human brain chanced to think1 where so many million brains were thinking8 ,i was swept on like a bubble in the stream1 and ,i forgot my own individuality4 ,and this forgetfulness became a pleasure2 the mind1 wearied of its own affairs1 found delight in recollecting that the things that seemed so great to it were after all of infinitesimal importance in the general sum of things4 ,astronomy is often credited with providing this sensation2 writers of fiction especially are fond of explaining how the voyage of the eye through space humbles the individual pride of man through the oppression of magnitude and vastness4 ,they might come nearer home1 for terrestrial magnitudes produce the same effect as celestial magnitudes2 the mind loses itself as readily in the abyss of ,london as in those gulfs of chaos that open in the ,milky ,way1 confronting the eye with naked infinitude2 and this sense of personal insignificance is at once a horror and a joy4 ,that humble acquiescence of the ,londoner in his fate which we call his apathy1 is the natural consequence of an overwhelming sense of personal insignificance4 ,the great reformer should be country-born2 in the solitude of nature he may come to think himself significant1 and have faith in those thoughts and intuitions which no one contradicts4 ,but in ,london1 collective life1 by its mere immensity1 overwhelms individual life so completely that no audacity or arrogance of genius can supply that continuous and firm faith in himself which the reformer must possess4 ,if ,i resisted these debilitating influences1 it was through no particular virtue of my own3 it was rather through what ,i may call a kind of earth-hunger4 ,i had an obstinate craving for fresh air1 unimpeded movement1 outdoor life4 ,i wanted the earth1 and ,i wanted to live in the close embrace of the earth4 ,some ancestor of mine must have been a hermit on a mountain1 a gipsy1 or a peasant3 ,i know not which1 but something of the temperament of all three had been bequeathed to me4 ,the smell of fresh-turned earth was a smell that revived in me a portion of my nature that had seemed dead2 a flower set me dreaming of solitary woods2 and ,i found myself watching clouds and weather-signs as though my bread depended on their lenience4 ,the first time ,i saw a mountain ,i burst into tears1 an act which astonished me no less than my companions4 ,i could offer no explanation of my conduct1 but ,i felt as though the mountain called me4 ,i said to myself1 ',there is my home1 yonder is the earth of which my corporeal part is fashioned2 it is there that ,i should live and die4' ,even a ,london park in the first freshness of a summer morning produced these sensations2 and those rare excursions which ,i took into the genuine country left me aching for days afterwards with an exquisite pain4 ,i often imagined myself living as ,wordsworth did in ,dove ,cottage1 as ,thoreau did in the ,walden ,woods1 and the vision was delightful4 ,i took an agricultural paper1 and read it diligently1 not because it was of the least practical utility to me1 but because its simple details of country life seemed to me a kind of poetry4 ,in my rambles ,i never saw a lovely site without at once going to work to build an imaginary cottage on it1 and the views ,i had from the windows of my dream-cottages were more real to me than the actual prospects on which ,i looked every day4 ,i have even gone so far as to seek the offices of land-agents1 and haggle over the price of land which ,i never meant to buy1 for the mere pleasure of fancying it was mine2 and this kind of game was long pursued1 for land-agents are a numerous tribe1 and when one discovered my imposture1 there was always another ready to accept me as a capitalist in search of the picturesque4 ,in short1 to possess one small fragment of the world's surface2 to have a hut1 a cabin1 or a cottage that was verily my own1 to eat the fruits of my own labour on the soil--this seemed to me the crown and goal of all human felicity4 ,conscript of the city as ,i was1 drilled and driven daily in the grim barrack-yard of despotic civilisation1 yet ,i was a deserter at heart2 an earth-hunger as rapacious and intense as that of any ,french or ,irish peasant burned in my bones1 and1 like the peasant conscript that ,i truly was1 my dreams were all of green pastures and running streams1 and the happy loneliness of open spaces under open skies4 ,this kind of earth-hunger is1 ,i believe1 not common among ,english people to-day2 if it were1 the tide of life would not set so steadily townward as it does4 ,the class in which it existed most strongly was the yeoman class1 and this is a class which has practically disappeared4 ,in my youth ,i knew half a dozen persons of this class1 to whom towns were genuinely abhorrent4 ,they would come to ,london once or twice in their lives1 visit certain market towns in their district at intervals1 and escape back into the country with the joy of wild birds liberated from a cage4 ,the mere grime and dirt of cities horrified them2 they were suffocated in the close air1 and they were driven half distracted by the clamour of the streets4 ,these men lived1 upon the whole1 lives of not immoderate labour3 or1 as one might say1 of sober ease1 ,they possessed little money1 it is true1 but the want of it did not appear to trouble them4 ,their houses were plain1 their method of life simple1 and clearly it had not entered their minds to covet any more sumptuous modes of life4 ,all this is changed now4 ,the daily press1 which presents a thousand pictures of the bustling life of cities1 goes everywhere1 and has communicated a strange restlessness to the rural mind4 ,increased means of locomotion have brought ,london to the very door of village communities4 ,if men to-day actually possessed the acres on which they toil they would be in no hurry to leave them2 they would be effectually chained to the soil by the sense of independence and proprietorship1 as is the case among the rural population of ,france1 who do not rent but own the land4 ,the yeomen did own the land1 and that was the secret of their content4 ,but when the day of large farms came1 the small landowners were crushed out2 and as for the mere peasant1 he has no chance at all of ever owning land1 and never has had2 so that he has every inducement to crowd into towns where wages are nominally higher1 and he soon outgrows that natural earth-hunger which modern civilisation affords him no means of gratifying4 ,by virtue of the peasant or gipsy blood in me ,i kept my earth-hunger through twenty years of ,london life1 but ,i count my case unique4 ,i never found any one who shared my feelings2 on the contrary1 ,i found that whatever primitive instincts toward country life my friends may have had once1 ,london had made an effectual end of them4 ,the country means for most ,londoners1 not the blessed solitude of open spaces1 but ,margate or ,brighton4 ,when the annual summer exodus arrives he does but exchange one kind of town for another kind4 ,he carries with him all the aptitudes and artificial instincts of the town2 he loves the bustle of a crowd2 he wants boarding-houses full of company1 and streets brilliant with electric light2 and he returns to town1 after a vivacious fortnight1 without having once looked upon the real country1 unless it be with the distracted eye of a rider on a char--banc4 ,if my earth-hunger did not die in ,london1 it was mainly because my holidays were of a very different description4 ,i never visited but one watering-place1 and that was enough4 ,i never stayed in a boarding-house in my life1 nor would the promise of all my expenses paid and a handsome bonus into the bargain tempt me to the experiment4 ,i sought the country absolute2 a cottage or a little farm remote from towns and out of sound of railways2 villages so tiny that maps refuse to name them4 ,i can count half a dozen of these places which haunt my memory with all the sanctity of some religious dream4 ,they were my temporary cloisters1 where ,i received the sacrament of silence2 the woodland sanctuaries where my spirit was renewed4 ,when my friends returned from ,margate they were full of chatter about the people that they had met1 and they went about whistling the last song they had heard upon the beach4 ,i had met no one but a few simple labouring folk1 and the music ,i remembered was the whistling of blackbirds and thrushes in the early dawn4 ,i knew that ,i had purchased much finer pleasure in a single day1 and at a cheaper rate1 than they in a month of days2 but ,i never told them so1 for they would not have understood me4 ,the ear that hungers for the raucous strains of cockney ,pierrots on a beach cannot attune itself to the notes of the morning thrush4 ,there is one tiny farm that ,i love to think of1 because its tenants taught me better than a thousand books could have done how real was the felicity of simple life4 ,it had six rooms all told1 and was little better than a cottage4 ,before its door ran a clear river which connected two lakes2 a pinewood rose behind the house1 and behind this again the lower buttresses of the everlasting hills4 ,the nearest town was seven miles away2 you reached it by a lovely road1 in part through pinewoods1 in part over open moors1 with the silver flashing of a lake never far away1 and the purple mountains always close at hand4 ,the farm-holding was insignificantly small1 as was the case in those parts2 but my host uttered no word of its insufficiency4 ,he grew enough oats to provide good oatmeal for his family and fodder for his horse2 his potatoes also came from his own soil1 and his bacon from his own stye2 his few sheep gave him fresh meat1 or brought him a little money in the market1 and from their wool every blanket in the house was spun1 and even his own clothing woven4 ,two cows provided milk and butter for the household2 his fowls gave him eggs and occasionally a dinner2 and thus with the exception of the yearly grocer's bill he spent next to no money4 ,i dwelt beneath this humble roof for a month1 and ,i profess that in all that time ,i never saw the members of the household engaged in any labour that was not also a pleasure4 ,there was plenty of work1 of course3 cows to be milked1 vegetables to be dug and cleansed1 meals to be prepared1 the little harvest to be gathered in2 but it was work that one could do with singing4 ,no one hurried over it1 for there was ample time for every duty of the day4 ,no one felt these simple duties burdensome1 because they were so natural and inevitable1 ,it was a rare day when some member of the household did not find an hour or two for fishing1 and a disappointing breakfast that did not show a lordly dish of trout4 ,it may be imagined that in a place so remote culture would be missing--at least the love and knowledge of books which we call culture2 but when ,i say the place was ,scotch this delusion is disposed of4 ,the children had had to walk that long seven miles a day and back again1 in all weathers1 to obtain an education4 ,they had grown up to value it1 and were the better mentally as well as physically for their thousands of miles of tramping4 ,there were books in the little household1 and good books too4 ,as often as not when we sat round the red peats of an evening1 we discussed ,browning or ,herbert ,spencer4 ,that year it happened that a party of students from ,edinburgh ,university were camping in the neighbourhood1 and they often joined us round the farm fire of an evening4 ,they talked about books and opinions and men with all the omniscience of youth2 but the two girls of the household held their own with them4 ,ah1 ,kate ,m',intyre1 you did me much friendly service in tying flies for me that summer1 and teaching me something of the craft of fishing2 but you did a far more enduring service in helping me to see that one does not need towns and libraries to grow the fine flower of wholesome cultured womanhood4 ,here1 beside that lake1 whose lady has been made immortal by the hand of ,scott1 you showed me that ,god grows ladies still who wear homespun and live in cottages1 and are all the wiser and sweeter for the bright seclusion of their lives4 ,in a town1 you and your family1 endowed only with such means as you found sufficient for existence1 would have been despondent drudges1 you yourself perhaps working in a sewing-room in bad air and for poor pay1 but here you were the free-holders of nature4 ,never did ,i see you go about your simple duties--always with a bright look and a snatch of song--but ,i said to myself1 ',she hath chosen the better part1 which shall not be taken away from her'2 and ,i say it still1 though ,i am well aware that the smart young women of ,london shops and restaurants will not believe me4 ,i dare say they would count themselves much better off than you in money1 in dress1 and in opportunities of pleasure2 but ,i know who was the richer in vitality1 in health1 and in the power of happiness4 ,when ,i lived among these simple folk ,i shared not only their roof but their labours1 and it was thus ,i came to distinguish between the nature of work in cities and work in the country4 ,to obtain my meal in a city ,i had to do things that were distasteful to me2 ,i had to shut myself away from the fresh air and sunlight in a dingy room and to spend dull hours in tasks which afforded me no genuine intellectual pleasure4 ,here1 on the contrary1 every duty had a pastime yoked with it4 ,i rose early1 not only that ,i might learn to milk the cows1 but that ,i might see the sunrise2 if ,i went into the woods to saw logs that would presently make a clear flame on the evening fire1 my lungs drank health among the forest fragrances2 when ,i went fishing ,i did something not only pleasurable but useful1 for ,i added dainties to my larder4 ,in the city ,i lived to work2 here ,i worked to live4 ,i might go further and say that in the city ,i lived to work for other people1 for my brains were daily exploited that my master might maintain a house at ,kensington1 and when the landlord1 the water-lord1 the light-lord1 and the rate-collector had all had their dues from me there was little enough left that ,i could call my own4 ,here1 on the contrary1 all that ,i did had an immediate and direct relation to my own well-being4 ,the amount of work ,i had to do to live was light1 and ,i bought with it something that was my own4 ,we are so used to the exactions of a complicated and artificial life1 that it is an amazing discovery to ascertain how small is the toll of labour which ,nature asks of those who live naturally4 ,you have but to do certain things which in themselves are pleasures to obtain ample means of life2 and as these things are soon and easily done by a healthy human creature there is an abundant leisure at his command4 ,to split pine-logs1 dig a garden1 pull a heavy boat down the lake after fish1 tramp up the hillside to collect the sheep1 are simply so many exercises of the body1 the equivalents of which town youths find in the gymnasium or the football field2 the difference is that all this exertion in the gymnasium1 which the town youth takes to keep up his health1 would in the country keep him4 ,the same amount of muscular exertion which a town youth puts forth to chase a ball round a twenty acre field would1 if properly applied1 put a roof over his head and food on his table4 ,the sports of the civilised man are means of life to the natural man4 ,if a man must needs sweat1 and be bemired1 and have an aching back1 it is surely better economy to have a house and a good meal at the end of it all than merely a good appetite for a meal that he has yet to pay for4 ,i do not object to buy health in hard physical exercise if ,i can buy it in no other way2 but ,i am better satisfied if ,i can buy health and a meal at the same time and for the same price4 ,this is practically what is done every day by men who live in the country4 ,in a town they would undertake an equal amount of muscular exertion for the sake of health1 and would find that they still had 'to go to business' to live2 here they have done their business in doing their pleasure4 ,earth-hunger is without doubt the most wholesome passion men can entertain1 and if ,governments were wise they would do all they could to fortify and gratify it4 ,on the contrary1 the settled policy of ,english ,government is entirely hostile to it4 ,there is no country where it is so difficult to acquire freehold land in small quantities--a subject on which ,i shall have more to say presently4 ,bad land-laws lie at the back of what we call the urban tendencies of modern life4 ,if fifty years ago the ,irish peasantry had had the same facilities for acquiring land that they have to-day1 it is safe to say that there would have been little or no emigration1 for never was there race that left the land of its fathers with such bitter and entire reluctance as the ,irish4 ,the ,english peasant shares the same reluctance1 though his slower nature is incapable of expressing it with the same volubility of anguish4 ,give him enough land to live upon2 make him a proprietor instead of a serf2 let him have fair railway rates1 so that his produce can fetch its proper price in the markets1 and there were no man so proud and so content as he4 ,but this is just what the feudal laws of ,england will not do for him2 and so millions of acres fall out of cultivation and farms go a-begging because the men who could have kept them prosperous have been forced to sell their thews and muscles to be prostituted in the dismal drudgeries of cities4 ,there is an even worse result4 ,earth-hunger has been displaced by ,money-hunger4 ,simple ideas of life must needs perish where the nature of a nation's life makes them difficult or impossible of attainment4 ,a country-born youth might keep to the soil1 if he saw the slightest hope that the soil would keep him2 when he sees that this is impossible he files to cities1 because he believes that there is more gold to be picked up in the city mire in a month than can be won from the ploughed fallow in a year4 ,it is not until the altars of ,pan are overthrown that the worship of ,mammon is triumphant1 and the mischief is that when the great god ,pan is driven away he returns no more4 ,when once ,money-hunger seizes on a nation1 that primitive and wholesome ,earth-hunger--old as the primal ,eden1 where man's life began--is stifled at the birth2 the spade and harrow rust1 and instead of swords being beaten to ploughshares1 ploughshares are beaten into swords for the use of soldiers who are the gladiators of commercial avarice2 the wealth of the country runs into the swamp of speculation2 the scripture of ,nature is cast aside for the blotted pages of the betting-book2 sport becomes not a means of recreation but of gambling2 and instead of sturdy races bred upon the soil1 and drawing from the soil solid qualities of mind and body1 you have blighted and anaemic races1 bred amid the populous disease of cities1 and incapable of any task that shall demand steady energy1 continuous thought1 or sober powers of reflection or of will4 ,,chapter ,v ,,health ,,and ,,economics ,enough has been said to show that ,i never heartily settled to a town life1 and that the obstacle to content was my own character4 ,mere discontent with one's environment1 however useful it may be as an irritant to prevent stagnation and brutish acquiescence1 obviously does not carry one very far4 ,men may chafe for years at the conditions of their lot without in any way attempting to amend them4 ,i soon came to see that ,i was in danger of falling into this condition of futility4 ,i was1 therefore1 forced to face the question whether my continual inward protest against the kind of life which ,i led was founded on anything more stable than an opinion or a sentiment8 ,no man ever yet took a positively heroic or original course for the sake of an opinion4 ,opinion must become conviction before it has any potency to change the ordering of life4 ,i saw plainly that ,i must either bring my thoughts to the point of conviction or discard them altogether4 ,there is a good phrase which is sometimes used about men who are members of a party1 without in any way entering into its propagandist aims--we say that they 'do not play the game4' ,they may have excellent philosophic reasons for their aloofness1 or even admirable scruples2 but parties do not ask for either4 ,parties ask for party loyalty1 and to give this loyalty personal scruples must be set aside4 ,i could not but apply this doctrine to my own state of mind4 ,london asked me to play the game1 and ,i was not playing it4 ,it was impossible to put heart into a kind of life which ,i inwardly detested4 ,i did my day's work with a mind divided2 and1 although no one could accuse me of wilful negligence1 yet a child could see that my work missed that quality of entire efficiency which makes for success4 ,i might count myself much superior to men like ,arrowsmith by the possession of superior sentiments1 yet1 in the long run1 my sentiment debilitated me1 and his destitution of sentiment was a source of power to him in the kind of work we both had to do4 ,to the man who detests the nature of his employment as ,i detested mine1 ,i would say at once1 either conquer your detestation or change your work4 ,work that is not genuinely loved cannot possibly be done well4 ,it is no use chafing and fretting and wishing that you lived in the country1 if you know perfectly well that you have not the least intention of living anywhere but in the town4 ,if it is town life you are really bent upon1 the sooner rustic instincts are uprooted the better for you4 ,london can prove herself a complaisant mistress to those who desire no other1 but she will give nothing to those who flout her in their hearts4 ,in plain words there is no middle course between accepting the yoke or finally rejecting it2 either course may be justified1 but it is the silliest folly to accept with complacency a yoke which you mean to shake off the moment you have courage or opportunity to revolt4 ,london marks such dissemblers with an angry eye1 as captains mark reluctant soldiers2 and if time holds no disgrace for them it will certainly bring them no advancement4 ,were my fine theories composed of mere fluid sentiment1 or had they some more consistent element in them which was capable of hardening into invincible conviction8 ,that was my problem4 ,it was debated in season and out of season4 ,gradually the two dominant factors in the problem became evident2 they were health and economics4 ,there could be no question about health4 ,it was true that ,i had suffered from no serious illness in my life1 but ,london kept me in a normal state of low vitality4 ,i had constant headaches1 fits of depression1 and minor physical derangements4 ,i rarely knew what it was to wake in the morning with that clear joyousness of spirit which marks vigorous vitality4 ,a ,london winter ,i dreaded1 and ,i had good reason for my dread4 ,when the fog lay on the town an unbearable oppression lay also on my spirits4 ,imagination had little to do with this oppression2 it was the physical result of lack of oxygen4 ,it was the same with my children2 they grew pinched and bleached in face1 and went about their little tasks with the slowness of old men4 ,it is stated1 ,i believe1 that ,london is the healthiest city in the world2 no doubt it is true as regards the actual percentage of disease to the immense population1 but statistics take no account of lowered vitality4 ,without being actually ill1 vitality may be reduced to a point at which existence becomes a kind of misery4 ,alcohol dissolves for a time the cloud on the mind1 the incubus upon the energies2 and the relief is so great that men do not think of the price they pay for it4 ,no wonder public-houses are the landmarks of ,london locomotion2 they are the ,temples of ,oblivion1 where the devitalised multitudes seek to forget themselves1 that they may regain the courage to live at all4 ,for myself1 ,i had sense to know that stimulants of this kind were a remedy much worse than the disease4 ,the only stimulant1 at once safe and effectual1 which ,i needed was fresh air4 ,the moment ,i found myself among the hills a miraculous change was wrought in me4 ,i had not breathed that quick and vital air for an hour before a glow ran through my veins more delightful1 and much more enduring1 than the glow of wine4 ,a single night in some small cottage chamber--where the very bed had a cool scent of flowers and lawns1 where the open window admitted air fresh from pine forest and mountain streams1 where the silence was so deep that one's pulse seemed to tick aloud like a watch--and ,i awoke a man renewed4 ,six o'clock1 or even five1 was not too soon for all my little household to be astir4 ,we were all alike eager for the open air2 for the walk1 bare-footed1 through the dewy grass to the mountain pool2 for the shock and thrill of that green water into which we plunged delighted2 and in those prolonged and pure ablations ,i think our spirits shared4 ,the bells of laughter rang the livelong day4 ,the cramped mind began to move again1 and long abdicated powers of fancy and of humour were restored4 ,equanimity of body brought evenness of temper2 it was incredible to recollect how irritable we had been with one another in those ghastly days of ,london fog1 when the very grating of a chair along the floor made the nerves jump4 ,even the mind took new edge1 for though ,i did not read much upon a holiday1 yet ,i found that what ,i did read left a clearness of impression to which ,i had long been unaccustomed4 ,and what was the root and cause of all this miracle8 ,fresh air1 wholesome food1 rude health--nothing more6 ,to feel that it is bliss to be alive1 health alone is needed4 ,and by health ,i mean not the absence of physical ailment or disease1 but a high condition of vitality4 ,this the country gave me2 this the town denied me4 ,the only question was then1 at what rate did ,i value the boon8 ,this brought me immediately to the much more complex problem of economics4 ,i knew that men could live in the country on small means1 for men did so2 but ,i perceived that the art of living in the country did not come by nature4 ,every one supposes that he can drive a horse or grow potatoes2 and1 when we recollect how many thousands of men go to ,canada to take up agricultural pursuits without the least knowledge of the business1 it is clear that the belief is general that any man can farm4 ,i may claim the merit of freedom from this popular delusion4 ,i not only knew that ,i could not farm1 but ,i did not wish to be a farmer4 ,what ,i wished was to live in the country in some modest way that answered to my needs2 to earn by some form of exertion a small income2 and at the most1 to grow my own vegetables1 catch my own fish1 and snare my own rabbits4 ,a legacy of two hundred a year would have served my purpose admirably1 but modesty forbade me laying my case before benevolent millionaires1 and a destitution of maiden aunts put an end to any hopes of a bequest by natural causes4 ,what was my precise position then8 ,i had a salary of two hundred and fifty pounds a year4 ,an investment that had turned out fortunately gave me about forty pounds a year4 ,i had done from time to time a little work for the press1 which had been worth to me about thirty pounds a year more4 ,my total budget showed1 then1 an annual income of three hundred and twenty pounds1 which ,i found barely sufficient for my needs as a dweller in towns4 ,if ,i migrated to a cottage1 how would matters stand with me8 ,i should lose my two hundred and fifty pounds per annum of course1 and this was an alarming prospect4 ,but1 on the other hand1 ,i reminded myself that ,i had never really possessed it4 ,i prepared various tables in which ,i arranged the items of my expenditure under two heads1 viz4 the expenditure that was inevitable1 and the expenditure that was evitable1 because it was the result of town life4 ,i shall best explain by giving a sample of these tables3-- ,,table ,i4 ,,inevitable ,,expenditure4 ,l4 s4 d4 ,food and general household expenses1 calculated at #cjs4 per week 4 4 4 4 4 #gh #j #j ,books1 magazines1 and papers 4 4 4 4 4 4 #e #j #j ,clothes for two adults and two children 4 #bj #j #j ,insurances 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #be #j #j ,holidays 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #cj #j #j ,education 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #ce #j #j ,sundries 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #aj #j #j ,rent1 rates1 and taxes 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #fe #j #j ---------- ,l#bfh #j #j ,,table ,,ii4 ,,evitable ,,expenditure4 ,if ,i adopted a country life4 ,l4 s4 d4 ,holidays 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #cj #j #j ,by saving on rent1 rates1 and taxes1 calculating my cottage cost me not more than ,l#bj per annum 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #de #j #j ,by saving in food 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #bj #j #j ---------- ,l#ie #j #j ,it will be seen that ,i allowed no reduction in clothes and books1 for ,i did not wish my children to be dressed as beggars1 or to be ignorant of current literature4 ,it does not need the eye of a chartered accountant to perceive that whatever may be said for ,table ,,ii41 ,table ,i4 is not satisfactory4 ,in it ,i accounted for only #bfh pounds1 whereas ,i have already stated my total income was #cbj pounds4 ,what became of the #eb pounds which found no record in my ingenuous schedule8 ,i could not tell1 but ,i was pretty sure that it was absorbed in the petty wastefulness of town life4 ,londoners are so accustomed to constant daily expenditure in small ways1 that it occurs to no one to ascertain how considerable an encroachment this aggregate expenditure is upon the total yearly income4 ,in all but very fine weather ,i must needs use some means of public conveyance every day2 there was a daily lunch to be provided2 and when work kept me late at the office there was tea as well4 ,one can lunch comfortably on a shilling or eighteenpence a day2 and ,i knew places where ,i could have lunched for much less1 but they were in parts of the town which ,i could not reach in the brief time at my disposal4 ,moreover1 one must needs be the slave of etiquette even though he be a clerk1 and if all the staff of an office frequent a certain restaurant1 one must perforce fall into line with them under penalty of social ostracism4 ,thus1 whether ,i liked it or not1 for five days in the week ,i had to spend eighteenpence a day for lunch1 and fourpence for teas2 and if we add those small gratuities which the poorest men take it as a point of honour to observe1 here was an annual expenditure of #be pounds4 ,taking one thing with another #e pounds might be added for 'bus and railway fares2 so that only #bb pounds is left to be accounted for4 ,and now1 if we return to ,table ,,ii41 it is obvious that my income of #cbj pounds per annum was only nominal1 because a very great part of it was really spent in keeping up a position which a town life imposed upon me4 ,before ,i touched a single penny of my nominal income of #bej pounds per annum1 ,i had paid #cj pounds per year in the daily expenses inevitable to my position1 and #fe pounds for rent and taxes1 which was quite #de pounds more than ,i ought to pay4 ,education comes also to be considered at this point4 ,my two children went to a very respectable school at the cost of a little more than #ae pounds per annum each4 ,no doubt ,i might have sent them to a ,board school1 where they would have received a better education2 but in the part of ,london where ,i lived there was no ,board school within easy reach1 and besides this1 though ,i hate the pretension of gentility1 manners and companionship have to be considered as well as education in the choice of a school4 ,a child may take no harm by sitting on the same bench with village children1 but the ,london gamin is not a desirable acquaintance4 ,in this1 as in other matters1 ,i paid through the nose for my position2 and the convention cost me a clear #ce pounds per annum4 ,thus ,i calculated that out of a nominal income of #bej pounds per annum #ajj pounds was paid as a tax to convention and respectability4 ,i have no doubt that a good many flaws may be found in these calculations2 but one point is beyond dispute1 viz41 that a town income is always more apparent than real4 ,money is worth no more than its purchasing power4 ,the business man who is offered #ajjj pounds per annum in ,new ,york against #gjj pounds per annum in ,london1 refuses the offer unless it carries with it great contingent advantages1 because he knows perfectly well that #gjj pounds a year in ,london is worth a good deal more than #ajjj pounds a year in ,new ,york4 ,but the same kind of prudent calculation is seldom applied to the case of town versus country living at home4 ,it is impossible to persuade the labourer that a pound a week in ,london is really less than fifteen shillings a week in the country4 ,men are dazzled by mere figures1 and there is no country clerk who would not jump at the idea of a fifty pounds a year rise in ,london1 though ten minutes spent over a sum in addition and subtraction would be sufficient to assure him that he would not be enlarging his income but diminishing it4 ,a man has to live upon a certain scale suited to his needs and tastes1 but the income which makes this kind of life possible is a variable quantity4 ,it is not by what men earn in the aggregate that their incomes should be measured1 but by what they have left when the necessary cost of living is defrayed4 ,if it costs a man fifty pounds a year more to live in ,london than in the country1 he is obviously no better off by the extra fifty pounds he earns in ,london4 ,he is not earning fifty pounds for himself but fifty pounds for the landlord1 the rate-collector1 the gas-man1 the restaurant proprietor1 the omnibus and railway companies4 ,his gold never reaches his own pocket2 it is filched from him by dexterous thieves2 it gleams before him for an instant like the coin spun in the air by the conjurer or thimble-rigger1 and then vanishes for ever4 ,yet ,i have found few men keen enough to penetrate the delusion2 it would seem they love to be deluded1 and by their conduct justify the satiric lines of ,hudibras-- ,doubtless the pleasure is as great ,to cheated be as 'tis to cheat4 ,in most things ,i claim to be no wiser than my fellow-men1 but in this ,i knew myself wiser2 ,i knew where ,i was cheated4 ,i knew that the schoolmaster who cost me thirty pounds a year was a licensed footpad2 half the money spent in restaurants and tea-shops was blackmail paid to respectability2 the landlord who took his forty-five pounds a year from my pocket was a mere robber1 who took advantage of the need ,i had to live in a certain locality that ,i might attend to my vocation4 ,not only were my brains exploited that my employer might maintain a sumptuous house at ,kensington1 but the wage he paid me was exploited by a host of other people1 who had houses of their own to maintain4 ,before ,i could feed my children ,i must help to pay for and cook the dinner of the folk who lived on the dividends of railways and omnibus companies4 ,on the way to my office the tailor took toll of me by forcing me to wear a garb which ,i detested1 simply because ,i dared wear no other garb4 ,i could not even drink plain water but that some one was the richer4 ,i was the common gull of the thing called convention4 ,i was plucked to the skin1 and if my skin had been worth turning into leather1 some one would have put in a claim to that4 ,even for my skin1 poor asset as it was1 some one did wait1 when it had ceased to be of use to me1 for ,london cemeteries declare dividends upon the dead4 ,my case reminded me of an old gentleman ,i once knew1 who wore so many coats1 waistcoats1 and shirts to keep warmth in a body of singular attenuation1 that it was commonly said that by the time ,james ,smith undressed at night there was very little ,james ,smith that was discoverable4 ,certainly by the time ,london had done wringing gold out of me there was very little gold left that was my own4 ,there was1 however1 one kind of comfort to be deduced from these reflections2 if ,i was not nearly so well off as ,i appeared to be1 ,i had all the less to lose4 ,rightly considered it would not be #bej pounds per annum that ,i should lose by leaving ,london1 for ,i had never possessed that sum1 ,i calculated my real loss at something nearer #aej pounds1 and this seemed not so terrible a thing4 ,i had my forty pounds a year for certain4 ,i had the small earnings of my pen1 and with abundant time upon my hands ,i saw every reason why these should be increased4 ,could ,i face a new kind of life upon an income of seventy pounds per annum8 ,ah1 how anxiously that problem was debated with my wife1 many a night when the children were abed6 ,the natural conservatism of woman had a great deal to say in these debates4 ',it was all very well1' said my wife1 'to do these little sums on paper1 but suppose the facts did not correspond8 ,suppose ,i found no cottage at twenty pounds a year1 and no decent school at sixpence a week8 ,then the world was full of writers for the press4' 7,i frowned47 ',not of course like you1 not half so good1' she added with a smile1 'but how do you know that you will succeed8 ,show me a fixed income of #ajj pounds a year1 and ,i would chance it1 for ,i can live simply enough1' she would say1 'and am as fond of liberty as you4' ,she might have added what ,i knew to be true1 that the penalties of ,london life fell heavier upon her than me4 ,i was not insensible to the instantaneous lightening of spirits that happened with her when she was able to forsake the abominable purlieus of the cellar-kitchen where her life was spent2 and although ,i knew not half her toils1 nor half her dejections and anxieties1 which were sedulously kept from me1 yet ,i was not wholly blind4 ,i had seen her too amid the roses of a cottage garden flying the colour of long-forgotten roses in her cheeks2 in the hay-field shaking off a dozen years in as many hours2 and although she was always young to me1 she never seemed so young and sweet as when we walked a honeysuckled lane together4 ,her desire was with me ,i knew well2 she had no fear of poverty1 and would have been content with plainer fare than ,i2 but her children made her prudent4 ,at last the one thing happened which made her prudence coincide with her desires2 one of the children sickened with a languor that was the precursor of disease1 and the doctors said that only country air could bring back strength4 ,and then fate itself took the whole matter out of my control4 ,something happened in the city--,i know not what--and the firm ,i served came near to shipwreck4 ,business shrank to a diminished channel1 and the staff of clerks must needs be reduced4 ,i have said some hard words of my employer as the exploiter of my labour2 he will appear no more in this history1 and my last word about him shall be justly kind4 ,he broke the news of his misfortune to me with a delicacy that made me respect him1 and with a hesitating painful shame that made me pity him4 ,he praised me beyond my merit for my twenty years of service2 he had hoped to keep me with him for another twenty years1 and ,i believe he spoke the truth when he said it pained him to think that his misfortunes should be mine4 ,he handed me in silence a cheque for fifty pounds4 ,he then shook my hand heartily1 murmured some vague words about hoping to reinstate me if things should mend1 and hurried from me2 and in his broken look and bowed shoulders ,i read the prophecy that his days of fortune and success were gone for ever4 ,the little tragedy was played out in less than ten minutes4 ,i locked my desk1 put on my hat and coat1 and went out into the street2 and my heart felt a pang at leaving the place which ,i should never have imagined possible4 ,i had walked fully half a mile before another thought occurred to me4 ,my blood suddenly sang in my veins1 and ,i remembered that ,i was an emancipated slave2 at last ,i was ,free6 ,,chapter ,,vi ,,in ,,search ,,of ,,the ,,picturesque ,i was free1 but what was ,i to do with my freedom8 ,ingenious apologists for slavery used to argue that the slave was much happier as a bondman than a freeman1 as long as the conditions of his bondage were not unendurably harsh3 but no one ever knew a slave who held this creed4 ,there never was a slave who did not prefer his dinner of herbs1 earned by his own labour1 to the stalled ox of luxurious captivity4 ,for my part1 ,i thought the air never tasted so sweet as on that morning of my liberation4 ,i walked slowly1 drawing long breaths1 that ,i might taste its full relish1 as a connoisseur passes an exquisite and rare wine over his palate1 that he may discriminate its subtleties4 ,i became a lounger1 and took the pavement with the air of a gentleman at ease4 ,i wandered into ,hyde ,park1 paid my penny for a seat1 and sat down almost dizzy with the unaccustomed thought that there was not a human being in the universe who1 at that moment1 had the smallest claim to make upon my time or energy4 ,an hour passed in a kind of ecstatic dream4 ,it chanced to be a morning when ,queen ,victoria was driving from ,paddington to ,buckingham ,palace1 and every instant the throng of carriages increased4 ,standing on my seat1 ,i saw an immense lane of people1 silent as a wood2 a contagious shiver stirred them1 like a gust of wind amongst the leaves2 ,i saw the distant glitter of helmets and cuirasses1 and the pageant swept along with that one tired1 kindly1 homely face for its centre of attraction1 luring loyalty even from a heart so republican as mine by its air of patient weariness4 ,i thought1 and ,i believed the thought sincere1 that ,i would not have exchanged places with her who was the mistress of so many peoples1 the ,empress of such indeterminable ,empire4 ,my new-born loyalty was three-parts pity4 ,had she1 who sat there in such 'lonely splendour1' ever known the day1 since as a young girl the heavy rod of empire was intrusted to her frail and unaccustomed hands1 when she woke to say1 ',this day ,i am free1 ,i will go where ,i will1 do as ,i please1 and none shall stay me8' ,yet ,i1 a manumitted clerk1 had come upon this singular and glad day2 and ,i had it in my heart to say with ,emerson1 ',give me health and a day1 and ,i will make the pomp of empire ridiculous4' ,i turned slowly homeward in this glow of exultation4 ,i should have run1 for the news1 either good or evil1 called for instant communication4 ,let my delay stand excused2 ,i had certain matters to be settled with myself that morning4 ,my feet had to learn a new kind of movement1 and my thoughts a new sequence2 ,i was as a child learning to walk and think before ,i could take my place on equal terms with new companions4 ,one incident of my walk struck me by way of humour and discovery4 ,i had often strolled into bookshops toward evening1 and had remarked upon the cold discourtesy with which my presence was regarded4 ,now ,i knew the reason2 ,i had come at the clerk's hour1 and the keen eyes of discriminating shopmen had recognised my low estate4 ,i came now under altered auspices4 ,to shop at three in the afternoon is to give proof of leisure2 behold1 in the eyes of obsequious shopmen ,i had at once become a wealthy dilettante1 nurturing the growth of an expensive library1 and the rarest books were laid before me with an ingratiating smile4 ,let the man who would understand how much the estimates men take of us are based on wealth1 or supposed wealth1 make the brief experiment of shopping at the rich man's hour1 instead of at the poor man's2 he will be surprised to note the difference of the social atmosphere4 ,a man's clothes may be poor enough1 and his appearance contemptible1 but if he will shop at the hour when all the drudges are at work1 no one will take him for a drudge4 ,i will confess it gave me pleasure to note this change of estimate4 ,i seemed to taste the first privilege of a freeman1 when a pursy bookseller took from a glass case certain expensive books on ,art1 and drew my attention1 with subtle deference to my judgment1 to the merits of the pictures they contained4 ,i may as well confess at once1 that so intoxicated was ,i with the new respect that greeted me1 that ,i even bought one of these volumes1 which ,i did not need1 and certainly could not afford4 ,it was a weakness and a folly1 no doubt2 but how could ,i tell my obsequious friend that ,i paid my guinea not for anything he sold me1 but as a sort of first footing on my entrance to the realm of freedom8 ,i might have spent it much worse1 for ,i bought my self-respect with it4 ,the sight of my doorstep brought me to my bearings1 for a man's own doorstep is a rare corrective of disordered fancies4 ,the fact ,i had to communicate was briefly this2 ,that ,i had lost #bej pounds per annum1 against which ,i had #ej pounds to show by way of compensation4 ,women1 ,i have long noticed--or women of the best kind1 ,i ought to add--have much more genius in finance than men4 ,they have a much keener sense of the use of money2 an excellent thing in women when it does not deteriorate into cheese-paring and sordid parsimony4 ,they1 being primitive and unsophisticated creatures1 are unacquainted with the lax morals of the cheque-book2 a pound is just twenty shillings to them1 and each shilling is an entity1 and each is spent with an indomitable aim to get the most out of it4 ,how would my wife regard the definite disappearance of five thousand shillings8 ,not with levity1 ,i knew2 and ,i thought it best to say nothing of that guinea volume on the ,tombs of the ,etruscans4 ,the ,tombs of the ,etruscans would have meant to her three pairs of boots2 and ,i wished that ,i might conceal it in mine4 ,a wise bishop once argued that marriage was ordained not for man's pleasure1 but his discipline2 ,i believe that he was not far wrong4 ,it is no use disputing the fact that the married man is always in danger of the judgment2 and it is only by some form of bribery that he can hope to escape being cast in damages4 ,i resolved on bribery1 and made my cheque the bribe4 ,here said ,i1 was present wealth1 let us be content4 ,the plea was not received with instant favour1 but it was not wholly ineffectual4 ,by the time we sat down to supper that night we had all attained to cheerfulness4 ,it was a meal of some tenuity1 not calculated to lie heavy on the stomach2 for1 said ,charlotte1 ',if we have to begin high thinking and plain living1 we can't begin too early4' ,the only load on my digestion that night was the ,tombs of the ,etruscans4 ,it says much for the steadfastness of our convictions1 that in this new crisis of affairs the old resolution to seek a country life passed unquestioned4 ,what to another had seemed calamity appeared to us opportunity4 ,when the daily paper came next morning1 it was not to the columns where commerce chronicles its wants that my eye turned1 but to the much more engaging columns where lands and houses were advertised for sale4 ,this part of the newspaper had long ago attracted me by its fine air of surreptitious romance4 ,my mind had often been kept aglow for a whole day by some seductive advertisement of cottages 'situate amid pine-woods1' or farmhouses1 all complete1 even to the styes and kennels1 which by all accounts were to be given away4 ,one such advertisement ,i particularly remember for a kind of insane generosity which pervaded it4 ,it described at length a farmhouse1 'stone-built and covered with ivy' 7observe the very definite sense of the picturesque conveyed in this phrase71 containing ten rooms1 commanding pleasant views of a well-wooded country1 together with a large orchard1 and one hundred and fifty acres of freehold land1 the whole of which might be purchased for #gej pounds2 and1 added the advertiser1 'the furniture at present in the house is included in the price4' ,i do not know where this terrestrial ,paradise existed2 ,i believe it was in ,essex2 but ,i often regretted that ,i made no effort to discover it4 ,however1 the morning paper1 if it contained no paragraph comparable with this in point of style and seduction1 certainly did appear singularly rich in ,paradises4 ,philanthropists1 disguised as land-agents1 contended eagerly with one another through many columns of advertisements1 offering a reluctant world all the advantages of rural happiness on what appeared merely nominal terms4 ,it appeared that they did not even want the money1 which they mentioned only in a kind of gentlemanly whisper2 pay them but #ajj pounds in sound cash1 and the rest might stand at mortgage upon easy terms for an indefinite period6 ,one might have imagined that the whole of rural ,england was depopulated2 that ,eden itself had been cut up into building lots2 that1 in fact1 the land-agent was subsidised by a paternal government to persuade the townsman to turn landed proprietor on terms which even the squatter in new lands would regard as generous4 ,the reality ,i soon found to be entirely different4 ,the moment ,i set about the deliberate business of finding a cottage ,i made a series of surprising discoveries which ,i will now relate4 ,in the first place1 ,i found that many of these much vaunted farmhouses were situated in districts utterly destitute of beauty1 and even desolate4 ,one specimen may stand for the whole4 ,i omit the particulars of the advertisement1 which was drawn up in the usual style2 but ,i must say1 in justice to its author1 that when ,i interviewed him in his city office he did what he could to discourage too abundant hope4 ,he did not go the length of admitting his description false1 but he told me drily that ',i had better see the thing for myself4' ,an hour's journey found me on the ,essex flats4 ,there was a bright sky and a brisk wind1 but nothing could disguise the featureless monotony of the far-stretched landscape4 ,the train put me down at a roadside station where a dogcart waited my arrival4 ,i drove through a small village of mean1 red-brick houses1 and soon found myself in the open country4 ,my driver made but one remark during the four-mile journey4 ',you be come to see ,dawes' farm8' he said4 ,i admitted the fact4 ',there's a-many has come1' he replied4 ',you be the twenty-first ,i have drove4 ,an' they all be uncommon glad to get away agen4' ',why8' ,i asked4 ',you'll soon find out4' ,with that he lit his pipe and smoked stolidly4 ,i was not long in comprehending the reason of his reticence4 ,dawes' farm may once have been a comfortable residence1 but when ,i saw it it was a mildewed1 rat-haunted ruin4 ,it stood upon a piece of redeemed marsh-land1 and the salt damp of the marsh had eaten into its very vitals4 ,the wainscots were discoloured1 the walls oozed1 and part of the roof was broken4 ,there had once been a garden2 that1 like the rest1 was a ruin4 ,the land was there no doubt1 fifty acres said the advertisement1 but it was treeless1 bleak1 flat1 covered with coarse grass1 and cut up by muddy watercourses4 ,to have lived in the house at all it must have been rebuilt1 and even then nothing could have made it a cheerful place of residence4 ,there was no water-supply that ,i could discover1 unless half a dozen butts that took the drippings of the roof represented it4 ,the orchard had long ago gone back to barbarism4 ,it appeared that the place had been deserted for half a dozen years4 ,i did not wonder4 ,the only wonder was that it had ever been inhabited4 ',ah1' repeated my driver1 'there's a-many as comes an' looks1 an' they all be uncommon glad to get away agen4' ,i subscribed to the common sentiment4 ,never did that infinite diapason which we call the roar of ,london sound so sweet1 never did those long1 lighted1 busy streets seem so habitable1 as on that night when ,i returned from my casual inspection of ,dawes' farm4 ,the memory of ,dawes' farm taught me that if ,i was to live in the country some charm of outlook was indispensable to my content4 ,mountains1 a lake1 a wood1 a running river--some delicate effect of scenery1 some concourse of elements1 either in themselves or in their combination beautiful--these ,i must have if ,i would be happy4 ,they were as necessary to me as my daily bread4 ,but here ,i made a second disquieting discovery2 there was not a part of ,england which could be justly described as beautiful that was not already occupied in the degree of its accessibility4 ,i thought of ,surrey2 ,i visited it and found myself in a superior ,cockney ,paradise4 ,half a dozen men of genius had in an inadvertent moment advertised the pure air of the ,surrey highlands1 and by the time ,i came upon the scene trim villas had sprung up by hundreds1 and wealth was already in possession4 ,the merest cottage in this favoured district provoked keen contest in the auction-room4 ,indeed1 in the true sense1 there were no cottages2 they had been transformed1 added to1 rebuilt1 till only a remnant of their primitive rusticity remained4 ,it was the same everywhere4 ,i was too late by twenty years in this kind of quest4 ,i had been led to believe by various social writers that the villages of ,england were depopulated4 ,according to these fallacious chroniclers the country abounded in cottages and even small manor-houses from which the inhabitants had fled4 ,i can only say ,i never found it so4 ,a deserted roadside cottage ,i often found1 but there were obvious reasons for its desolation4 ,sometimes it was so far from other houses1 or any centre of congregated life1 that it must have been difficult1 and almost impossible1 for any one residing in it to obtain the common necessaries of life4 ,more commonly it was deserted because it was falling into ruin4 ,but no sooner did ,i reach a real village than ,i found every house in occupation4 ,the usual complaint was lack of accommodation4 ,hence rents were by no means low1 and the contest for houses was vehement4 ,if the village had real beauties of its own--a cluster of thatched and dormer-windowed cottages1 properties valuable to the artist--one was sure to come upon immediate evidence of the cockney invasion4 ,what ,i thought a barn would as like as not prove a studio1 and it was no farmer who lived at the pleasant1 yellow-washed farmhouse amid the rose-garden1 but 'a gentleman from ,london4' ,and we had but to go a little way down some shady lane to find a glaring board announcing building land for lease1 and from some local agent one obtained particulars of the exact kind of house which the investor would be permitted to build upon the site4 ,it will be said that this was not the country proper1 nor was it1 for ,london has annexed every place within fifty miles of ,charing ,cross4 ,but in the country proper a new difficulty met me3 not only were there no empty cottages1 but landowners stuck to their acres with such jealous obstinacy that they refused to sell a rood of land for a cottage on any terms whatever4 ,i will give one example1 which may be taken as typical4 ,there was a ,welsh valley where ,i had once spent a summer holiday1 exquisitely retired and beautiful--a dozen miles from the nearest railway4 ,beyond the green strath1 with its few white cottages and farms1 rose on every side the wide hills1 with ,snowdon towering over all like a dome4 ,the hillside land had but a prairie value4 ,it had never been cultivated4 ,a few sheep strayed over it2 but for months together no human foot trod its heather1 or wandered by its vociferous cascades4 ,one would have supposed that had any one offered to build a house on these solitary hillsides1 the owner of the land would have been only too glad to have fostered a folly that would have proved remunerative to himself4 ,on the contrary1 the two great landowners of the district stuck to every inch of soil as if it had been sown with gold4 ,the land was quite useless1 as ,i have said4 ,it might have been worth three pounds an acre--yet they refused fifty4 ,they would not even let on lease4 ,nor could it be pretended that the scenery would have lost any element of its charm by a cottage that would have been scarcely observed on those vast slopes of ,snowdon4 ,jealous obstinacy1 the desire to keep intact their own1 the desire to keep out all intruders--this was the temper of the landowners4 ,they did all they could to harass their existing tenants4 ,a tenant whose family had increased so that his cottage was as overcrowded as a tenement in ,spitalfields1 had to plead long before he was allowed to add a couple of rooms to his cottage1 even when he did so at his own expense4 ,often enough he was refused so harshly1 that he was constrained to seek a house in some other district4 ,yet1 in all that valley1 which was five miles long by two in breadth1 there were not two hundred houses2 and there rose around them the unpopulated hillside1 where a host of people might have lived in health1 and where1 indeed1 men had once lived1 as was witnessed by the roofless gables which here and there rose among the heather4 ,it seems to me that in this state of things there is a monstrous injustice4 ,there is no law to compel these gentlemen to sell land1 and there is no public sentiment that can affect them4 ,they are the complete despots of the countryside4 ,if a man does not like their domination1 he leaves the district2 he knows that it is vain to resist it4 ,in this way many rural districts are depopulated1 or kept under-populated1 simply to gratify the selfish temper of a great proprietor4 ,it is not as though he lived in the district1 and wished to keep its beauties secret to himself2 often enough he visits it so rarely that his face is not known among his tenants4 ,no2 but he must have everything to himself2 he must round off his estate2 he must look from his park on nothing which is not his2 for your rural ,ahab could not sleep with a ,naboth's little vineyard even a mile away4 ,it is useless to tell him that the land you want is waste natural land1 on which you propose to confer value2 he prefers that it shall be valueless1 rather than that it shall be yours4 ,before population can be re-distributed to the advantage of town and country alike1 this difficulty must be overcome4 ,it can only be overcome by drastic legislation4 ,compulsory purchase1 regulated by an equitable land court1 is the only remedy2 and it is hard that ,irishmen should have1 and grumble over1 privileges which their ,english brethren would receive with open arms4 ,such were some of the discoveries which ,i made when ,i came to the real business of finding a humble country residence4 ,in my ignorance and inexperience it had seemed the easiest thing in the world4 ,after a fortnight of experiment ,i began to think it was the hardest4 ,,chapter ,,vii ,i ,,find ,,my ,,cottage ,in the meantime a circumstance had occurred which was of great importance to me4 ,some enterprising spirits had started a new weekly local paper1 and--mirabile dictu--they actually contemplated a literary page6 ,with a faith in suburban culture1 so unprecedented as to be almost sublime1 these daring adventurers proposed giving their readers reviews of books1 literary gossip1 and general information about the doings of eminent writers4 ,they offered the work to me at the modest honorarium of two pounds a week1 and were willing to give me a three years' agreement4 ,they were frank enough to acknowledge that their journal was likely to die of 'superiority to its public1' long before the three years were over2 but1 barring this disaster1 they gave me assurance of regular employment4 ,this was the very thing for me4 ,one could write about books anywhere4 ,i thankfully closed with the offer and began to study the ha'-penny evening papers with assiduity1 in order to learn the craft of manufacturing biographies of living authors4 ,the greatest of all questions was thus settled3 ,i should not starve4 ,but the question of a local habitation remained as difficult as ever4 ,i went upon wild-goose chases innumerable2 was the victim of every kind of chance hint2 gathered fallacious information from garrulous third-class passengers on many railways2 confided my case to carters and rural postmen1 who played upon my innocence with genial malice2 stayed so long at village public-houses without visible motive that ,i incurred the suspicion of the local constabulary1 and on one memorable occasion found myself identified with a long watched-for robber of local hen-roosts4 ,when ,i dropped upon some quaint village that1 from a pictorial point of view1 seemed to offer all that ,i desired1 ,i found my tale1 that ,i wished to settle in it1 universally derided4 ,no one could conceive any sane person as being desirous of living in a village2 the design seemed wholly unaccountable to people who themselves would have been only too glad to live in towns4 ,that ,i came from ,london was against me1 ,it seemed to these village ,daniels barely possible that ,i was honest1 and quite certain that ,i cloaked some base designs under an innocent inquiry for empty cottages4 ,the little black bag in which ,i carried my lunch on these excursions was the object of extraordinary hypotheses4 ,at one time ,i was believed to be selling tracts1 at another time1 tea2 once ,i was suspected of being an itinerant anarchist1 doing a brisk business in infernal machines4 ,landladies1 who had lavished smiles upon me when they supposed me an ordinary pedestrian in search of the picturesque1 gave me the cold shoulder when ,i began to explain my genuine intentions4 ,they sometimes treated me with such a mixture of aversion and alarm that it was plain they doubted not only my sincerity but my sanity4 ,the travelling artist they knew1 the pedlar1 the insurance agent1 and the cockney beanfeaster2 but the stranger who desired permanent neighbourship with them they knew not2 him they treated as a lunatic at large4 ,if the papers had chanced to be full at this time of the doings of some flagrant murderer flying from justice1 which fortunately for me they were not1 ,i have little doubt that these amiable villagers would have delivered me up to the police without scruple1 and have chuckled over their sagacity4 ,the thing was amusing enough1 and yet it had a certain serious significance4 ,it was a striking illustration of the way in which the growth of cities had perverted even the rural mind4 ,i had thoughts of writing an article on ,the ,reluctant ,villagers1 and a very good article ,i could have made of it2 for ,i found hardly any one who was a villager by choice4 ,a village might appear fair as ,paradise to the casual eye2 but closer inspection always revealed the serpent of discontent among the flowers4 ,where every outward object breathed of rest1 there was universal restlessness among the people4 ,the common ambition of all the younger generation was to get to ,london by almost any means1 and in almost any capacity4 ,there was not a household that had not children or relatives in ,london4 ,the young ploughman went to ,london as a carter or ostler2 the milkmaid as a servant4 ,the village carpenter was invariably a middle-aged or an old man1 secretly despised by his apprentice1 if he had one1 for his contentment with his lot4 ,one saw very few young people in the village street1 except mere children4 ,the universal complaint was that life was dull4 ,there were no libraries or reading-rooms2 no concerts or entertainments2 even the innocuous penny-reading had died out4 ,nor were there cricket clubs1 or any organised system of sport1 except in isolated cases4 ,here and there a modern-minded clergyman had recognised the need of recreation in his parishioners1 and had done something to provide for it2 but he was an exception4 ,hence it happened that the public-house was the common centre of the village life3 it was the poor man's club1 and it was used less for purposes of social intercourse than for the discussing of racing odds4 ,artists have often painted village politicians in earnest confabulation in an oak-pannelled inn-parlour4 ,i can only say that1 so far as my experience went1 ,i found the village politician quite extinct4 ,the sort of talk ,i heard in village bar-rooms was inane and contemptible to the last degree1 and it never once touched on politics4 ,nor1 as a rule1 was there any trace of that leaven of superior intelligence which comes from a fusion of the classes4 ,all the landlords were practically non-resident4 ,they knew nothing of their tenants2 and that pleasant intercourse between hall and cottage which poets and novelists depict1 rarely happened4 ,once a year1 perhaps1 and for a few weeks only1 the blinds of the ,hall windows were drawn up2 carriages rolled through the park gates2 young ladies1 bright in ,bond ,street toilets1 flashed like deities upon the village street2 my ,lady ,bountiful left a quarter of a pound of tea at half a dozen cottages2 and then the whole vision faded like an unsubstantial pageant4 ,the blinds were drawn down again1 the lodge-keeper went to sleep1 and the monotonies of life submerged everything like a wave4 ,the clergyman alone remained as the symbol of a fuller life1 sometimes doing his duty with intelligence1 sometimes not2 but the case was rare where any definite attempt was made to uplift the village community by the infusion of any intellectual interest1 any sense of ,art1 or any care for honest sport4 ,and here lies the whole secret of the discontent of villages2 their inhabitants are conscious of unjust deprivations in their lot2 and if they remain villagers1 it is rather from lethargy than love4 ,were ,i to describe all the places ,i visited in search of a habitation1 my list would be interminable4 ,i have given one example in ,dawes' ,farm2 let me give one other1 as illustrating another kind of difficulty in my quest4 ,on an exquisite morning in ,june ,i found myself climbing the long chalk hills that lie northward of the ,thames valley4 ,at every step the air became more pure and sparkling2 and while in the hazy lowlands not a leaf stirred1 here a brisk and gusty breeze was blowing4 ,the road ran through high chalk banks1 like a railway cutting1 and ,i have since found that ,roman soldiers used it in the days of ,caesar4 ,at the height of three hundred feet authentic forest scenery began4 ,here the elms ceased1 and enormous woods of beech took their place4 ,the turf was of the greenest1 the solitude intense1 the air exhilarating2 and never had ,i so admired the lace-like delicacy of foliage which distinguishes the beech1 for never had ,i seen it in such mass or such perfection4 ,the house ,i sought stood at fully eight hundred feet above sea-level1 on a carpet of soft turf1 round which the forest rose like a wall4 ,never did place look so sweetly habitable2 it was a kind of green hermitage in the woods1 inimitably quiet1 warmed by clearest sunlight1 cooled by freshest winds4 ,here1 said ,i1 at last is my much sought ,el ,dorado2 nor did the cottage1 when ,i came to it1 belie my hopes4 ,it was a true woodland cottage1 an intimate part and parcel of the scenery4 ,it had been recently inhabited by a man of letters1 a poet and a dreamer2 and a fitter spot to dream in eye never rested on4 ,my enthusiasm rose as ,i drew nearer to it1 ,there was a warm1 homely compactness about it1 as of a nest among the trees4 ,the forest turf came to the very gate2 a young orchard of five hundred trees lay to the southward of the house1 a green paddock to the northward2 and1 as my advertisement informed me1 the entire price of this eligible freehold property was five hundred pounds6 ,why1 then1 was its possessor so eager to be quit of it8 ,i walked round the house1 went through its rooms1 took the view from various windows1 already treating it as mine1 and it was long before ,i came upon the cause4 ,that cause was not its remoteness or its solitude2 it was lack of water4 ,there was no well1 and to have sunk a well would have been costly4 ,the only water-supply was the rain-water from the roofs4 ,men can laugh at a good many deprivations1 but deprivation of water is a serious business4 ,i found upon inquiry that the nearest spring was two miles away4 ,in time of drought--and in this high district summer drought was normal--it was this or nothing4 ,water was then sold by the bucket1 nor was it easy to find any one to fetch and carry for you4 ,i had no mind to condemn myself to drink the droppings of a roof for life1 nor to perform my ablutions by the aid of a teacup and a saucer4 ,the place1 for all its beauty1 was plainly uninhabitable as the ,sahara4 ,a camel might have lived there with content2 it was no place for a family used to the delights of tubbing4 ,i had remarked in the owner of the house a certain elementary lack of linen2 the cause was now explained4 ,i think his only method of attaining cleanliness must have been by what is called 'the dry air process4' ,this adventure lives in my memory1 not only because it had delightful elements1 but because it was the last of a long series1 which might have been called more truthfully misadventures4 ,for an exhilarating month ,i scoured the neighbourhood of ,london1 living in a happy fever of enterprise and hope1 but without result4 ,july came1 and my problem was still unsolved4 ,i had already given notice to terminate the tenancy of my house in ,london1 and there seemed a fair prospect that ,september would find me homeless4 ,at my present height of good spirits ,i cannot say that even this prospect dismayed me4 ,if the worst came to the worst ,i meant to take to the road in one of those convenient vans much used by travelling hawkers4 ,i had long envied the extraordinary snugness of those itinerant habitations2 to be a ,dr4 ,marigold seemed the happiest of fates2 rent free1 and finally delivered from tax-collectors and their tribe1 ,i might yet roam the world as a superior kind of vagrant4 ,i knew indeed a young friend of mine who had adopted this very life4 ,he sold tracts and ,bibles upon village greens1 and ,i promise you no mansion had a warmer glow of comfort than the interior of his yellow van when the lamp was lit at night for supper4 ,he has since found his way to a lonely missionary station in ,peru2 but he has often told me that he was never happier than when he played the part of pious gipsy on the village greens of ,england4 ,at a pinch ,i thought that ,i could do what he had done2 it was a romantic trade1 and a new ,lavengro might be written on it4 ,but whatever dreams of permanent and dedicated vagrancy ,i might entertain1 manifestly my first duty was to find a cottage if ,i could4 ,at last1 and almost by accident1 ,i came on what ,i wanted4 ,i had gone to the ,lake ,district in the month of ,august1 and one day ,i struck into a lonely road to the north-west of ,buttermere4 ,half an hour's walk brought me to a tiny hamlet beside a rushing stream1 and here1 for the first time in all my wanderings1 ,i found a genuine deserted cottage4 ,to speak by the book there were two cottages exactly similar1 covered by a single roof4 ,they stood upon a gentle slope2 a group of pines formed a shelter from the north1 the moorland rose behind them1 and the river sang through a contiguous glen4 ,my first glance told me that they had not long been out of occupation4 ,they showed no marks of dilapidation1 and the little gardens1 though weed-grown1 gave signs of recent care4 ,a woman whom ,i met told me their history4 ,they had long been inhabited by two families1 father and son4 ,a few months previously these families had sailed for ,canada4 ,no one had applied for the cottages1 for in that part work was scarce1 and the foundries and shipyards on the coast drew away the younger population4 ,the rent--it seemed incredible--was two shillings a week4 ,the woman yielded to what she thought my idle curiosity1 and brought me the keys4 ,each cottage contained four rooms1 and the two could easily be thrown into one4 ,they were dry and water-tight1 the walls whitewashed and clean1 the woodwork sound and well cared for4 ,i sat down upon the sun-warmed bank beside the gate and thought4 ,here was solitude indeed2 a dozen neighbours in all1 simple labouring folk3 ,the silence that is in the starry sky1 ,the sleep that is among the lonely hills4 ,here1 too1 was beauty in excess2 a glen untrodden by the feet of tourists1 moorland and pine-wood1 a stream that lifted up a cheerful voice1 hills and mountains of delightful form and colour1 and not far away the silver gleam of lakes4 ,in all external features it was my dream come true1 and the deep-bosomed woman at my side1 with her face of rosy1 placid health1 was herself the proof of how lightly the wings of time passed over this haunt of ancient peace4 ,i suppose that no one ever approaches the realisation of his hopes without a kind of fear4 ,in those imaginary dramas which we invent and rehearse perpetually in the silent theatre of our own minds1 we always take care that we get the best of the situation and the dialogue4 ,the dramas of real life are apt to end differently4 ,the coveted occasion finds us incapable2 a baffling scepticism of our own powers leaves us impotent2 the part that ran so easily1 with such unanimous applause1 when we were both the dramatist and the actor1 suddenly bristles with a hundred unsuspected difficulties4 ,for the first time1 as ,i sat on that sunny bank1 ,i began to ask myself whether ,i could really play the part ,i had so long desired to play4 ,could ,i reconcile myself to seclusion so entire8 ,would not this weight of utter silence grow heavier than ,i could bear8 ,it was not always ,june1 ,i told myself1 and there were days of lashing rain1 grey skies1 and 'death-dumb autumn dripping' fog to think of4 ,the vision of lighted streets and bustling crowds1 the warm contiguity of numbers1 the long lines of windows all aglow at evening1 the genial stir and tumult of congregated life1 took masterful possession of my mind4 ,could ,i bear to relinquish the familiar scene8 ,a thousand threads of use and habit bound me to it1 each in itself as light as gossamer1 but the whole tough as cords of steel4 ,i foresaw that ,i had underestimated the ease of my deliverance4 ,it would require a strength of consistent resolution of which perhaps ,i was not capable4 ,it was but too likely that ,i should be one of those who put their hand to the plough and look back1 a reluctant recruit of a cause that won my faith1 but could not win my will4 ,this would be not only fatal to my peace1 it would make me despicable in my own eyes1 which is the worst of all calamities that man can suffer4 ,such a distress of mind was natural2 yet ,i think that behind it all my thought was firm and clear4 ,what ,i had proposed to do for twenty years ,i must do1 or attempt to do1 if ,i would retain my self-respect4 ,i might become despicable to myself by failure in my task1 but ,i should be much more despicable by never trying to accomplish it4 ,in that half-hour of meditation the die was cast4 ,i had come to my predestined battlefield4 ,i must here be triumphant or defeated2 in any case ,i must attempt the conflict4 ,the decision restored1 as by a stroke of magic1 all my good spirits4 ,i examined my two cottages again with an eye less critical1 more kindly1 more urbane4 ,i saw with how few touches they could be transformed into a habitation suited to my needs4 ,with the two main rooms thrown into one ,i should have a spacious living-room2 the two gardens would compose an admirable lawn2 roses should grow against the walls1 warm-hued creepers frame the upper windows2 it should become a lodge in ,eden4 ,then there was the air1 the view1 the company of the silent mountains and the singing stream4 ,here was my theatre1 my orchestra1 my concert-room4 ,the woman who was my guide took me into her own cottage for a cup of tea1 and ,i was struck with its homely air of comfort4 ,an oak dresser1 covered with blue ware such as is common in these parts1 filled one wall2 an oak chest of drawers another2 there was a broad-seated oak settle by the fire2 all solid1 of a good design1 and polished to a deep brown by use and industry4 ,the floor was red brick2 flowers lined the windows2 and everything was clean as hands could make it4 ,i saw my house furnished on the same plan1 and it pleased me4 ,a recollection crossed my mind1 curious and most fantastic at such a time1 of a certain room in one of the show-houses in ,london1 furnished entirely in the ,french style4 ,i recalled the console tables of old gilt1 the brocaded couch1 and the gilded chairs which no one dared to sit upon2 and ,i confess that ,i preferred this habitable cottage-room4 ,there was something satisfying in its plainness2 a sense of something honest and intimately right2 a suggestion of solid worth and homely ease4 ,my spirits had already been restored by my decision2 they were now invigorated to the point of joy1 for ,i saw the concrete emblems1 as it were1 of the beauty which is found in true simplicity4 ,the next day ,i returned to the spot accompanied by my wife and my two boys4 ,we made a new and elaborate inspection of the two cottages4 ,in the afternoon the landlord1 a neighbouring farmer1 met us4 ,he was a dales-man born and bred1 shrewd1 much given to silence1 but with a plenitude of genial good sense4 ,he began by being somewhat suspicious of us after the usual country fashion4 ,when he at last understood the sincerity and novelty of our intentions1 he treated us with a kind of fatherly derision1 which had no hint of impoliteness or impertinence in it4 ',it will na do1 ,i'm thinking1' he said1 several times4 ,when he saw us persistent1 and that our persistence grew in the ratio of his dissuasion1 he said1 just as though he were talking to wayward children1 ',well1 a wilful man maun have his way4 ,as for my bit of cottages1 ye're welcome to them1 an' ,i'll ask no rent till ye've been in them long enough to know your own minds better4 ,they're of no worth to me1 an' ,i'll be your debtor for living in them4 ,if ye want to pull them aboot1 ye'll do it at your own expense1 ,i'm willing4 ,later on1 if ye care to stay1 you and me'll fix a rent1 an' ,i gie ye ma word it shall na be more than ten pund a year4 ,i'll help ye too if ye'll let me4 ,i can find ye a man as 'll do all the little jobs you want done1 an' glad to do it4 ,as for fishing1 the stream's yours1 an' ,i would na say but what ye might get some shooting too4 ,but ye'll tire of it1 ye'll tire of it1' he concluded1 with a grave smile4 ,with that he handed us the keys4 ,he then shook our hands with the melancholy air of a man who says farewell to friends embarked upon a perilous adventure1 and strode away across the heather1 stopping once to wave his hand to us as if in wise dissuasion4 ,so ,mahomet might have stood above ,damascus when he said1 ',my ,paradise is not there1' and yet ,damascus was a ,paradise all the same4 ,,chapter ,,viii ,,buying ,,happiness ,we are all children1 and in nothing so much perhaps as in the kind of delight we take in any form of building4 ,the architectural efforts of a child with a box of bricks or a heap of sand explain the ,tower of ,babel1 the ,pyramids1 and the ,golden ,house of ,nero4 ,house-building unites the ideal with the real more thoroughly than any other human employment4 ,what can there be more delightful than to see that which you have dreamed grow into tangible and enduring form8 ,no wonder the rich man builds himself 'a lordly pleasure-house'2 it is a kind of practical poetry which he can understand4 ,were there only millionaires enough to go round all architects would be wealthy1 for building is a kind of material art admirably suited to men of material intelligence4 ,the weeks which followed the acquisition of my two deserted cottages were the most delightful ,i have ever spent4 ,first of all1 there was the question of structural alterations to be considered4 ,in my opinion the living-room of the house is the chief consideration4 ,it should be a room to live in1 the focus of the whole life of the household4 ,for this reason it should be large and airy1 covering the whole site of the house as nearly as possible4 ,one large room is infinitely to be preferred to two or three small rooms2 it is healthier1 and much more cheerful4 ,space and air are most needed in the room which is most in use4 ,it is of no consequence that the bedrooms should be small2 one's active hours are not spent in them1 and a window left wide open summer and winter will provide an ample supply of oxygen in the smallest chamber4 ,what can be more absurd than the arrangement of a modern ,london villa8 ,it is usually cut up by partition walls into a number of small rooms1 not more than one of which is in constant use4 ,pretension takes the place of comfort4 ,mrs4 ,grundy must have a 'drawing-room' or die6 ,it is a kind of holiest of holies1 too beautiful for normal occupation1 full of gimcrack chairs that cannot be sat upon1 and decorative futilities which give it the aspect of a miscellaneous stall at a 'rummage sale4' ,such a room is very well as a withdrawing-room1 its proper use2 but as a room into which no one withdraws it is absurd4 ,as ,i expected to keep no company1 and needed no room into which to withdraw1 ,i was able to get rid of this apartment4 ,moreover1 in a very small house1 common sense demanded that every room should be really and thoroughly used4 ,fortunately the fireplaces of my two cottages were against the outer or gable ends1 and not against the partition wall1 as is commonly the case4 ,i had only to remove this partition wall1 supporting the ceiling by a strong beam1 and ,i had a room about twenty-four long by fifteen in breadth4 ,at the back of this room were two small kitchens1 only one of which was needed4 ,by widening the doorway leading to one of them to double its breadth1 ,i gained another room about ten feet square4 ,this made my library1 by which ,i mean not a room in which ,i ever sat1 but a room entirely devoted to the housing of my books4 ,i had the walls entirely lined with books1 making and staining the bookshelves with my own hands4 ,across the widened doorway from which the door had been removed hung a warm curtain1 so that it was to all intents and purposes a part of my living-room4 ,i took infinite and almost childish delight in the arrangement of this living-room4 ,i had brought not a single article of domestic furniture with me from ,london4 ,such furniture as ,i had--chairs1 tables1 couch1 sideboard1 and so forth--would have looked out of place in the country1 and moreover it was better economy to sell them4 ,i sold them very well in a ,london auction-room1 getting almost as much as they cost me4 ,with the money thus received in my pocket ,i went to a neighbouring market town where there happened to be a shop that dealt in old furniture4 ,for less than ten pounds ,i bought an excellent oaken gate-table1 half a dozen serviceable oak chairs1 a couple of fine carved chests1 and a corner cupboard4 ,my oak dresser and settle1 each good specimens of serviceable cottage furniture1 cost me thirty-seven shillings at a country auction4 ,i found that even at these modest prices ,i had paid too much4 ,oaken furniture was common in these parts1 and had little value4 ,when a church was restored1 or an old house re-constructed1 large quantities of old oak were literally thrown away4 ,thus1 at a merely nominal expense ,i acquired enough carved oak to fit together into a handsome fireplace1 and later on the pews of a church came in for oak panelling4 ,let me now picture my living-room as it was about four months after ,i took possession4 ,it was entirely oak panelled to a height of nine feet1 above which about a foot of white-washed wall showed1 forming a plain frieze4 ,the fireplace at one end of the room was built in with carved oak2 what had been the corresponding fireplace at the other end of the room was turned into a cupboard1 with plain oak doors4 ,the room had three old-fashioned leaded windows opening outward4 ,two were original1 one had been added--the centre window taking the place of the gap left by the destroyed partition wall4 ,my oak chests1 dresser and cupboard1 constituted the furniture of the room4 ,the library1 curtained off with a plain curtain of crimson plush1 adjoined2 the kitchen door opened at the east corner of the room4 ,the windows faced due south4 ,the room therefore was always sunny4 ,the floor-boards were stained1 and covered by two or three cheap rugs4 ,flowers were at the windows1 a vase of flowers always on the table4 ,the fireplace was open1 for ,i had removed the ugly modern grate1 substituting for it a low hearth of red brick with iron dogs1 on which wood could be burned4 ,this room1 with the adjoining library1 was the great feature of my little house4 ,the other rooms in the house required no alteration2 fresh whitewash and wall-papers soon transformed them2 and although they were small1 they were not devoid of charm4 ,when my scheme of adaptation was complete ,i found myself possessed of a house containing one beautiful living-room1 a small library1 a kitchen1 and four good bedrooms4 ,my bill for labour1 including the mason's work in the removal of the partition wall1 the building of a new window1 and the laying of a fresh hearth2 the carpenter's work in fitting my oak1 and various minor repairs1 amounted in all to about twelve pounds4 ,the cost of my furniture1 including the oak panelling in the living-room1 and all that was needed for the bedrooms1 was about fifty pounds1 against which ,i had to set thirty-eight pounds1 received from the sale of my superfluous effects in ,london4 ,if ,i added to these sums the general expenses of removal1 the carriage and cartage of my goods1 and so forth1 which ,i reckoned at ten pounds1 ,i found that the cost of my exodus and new tenancy had been as follows3-- ,l4 s4 d4 ,by expenses of removal 4 4 4 4 4 4 #aj #j #j ,by alterations and labour 4 4 4 4 4 #ab #j #j ,by cost of furniture for living-room and four bedrooms 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #ej #j #j ----------- ,l#gb #j #j ,against which1 by sale of goods in ,london 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 4 #ch #j #j ----------- ,leaving total outlay of 4 4 4 4 4 4 ,l#cd #j #j ----------- ,i am conscious that to a townsman1 accustomed to the wastefulness of towns1 some parts of this account must appear incredible4 ,take1 for instance1 the bill for labour4 ,no one has ever lived in ,london without having occasion to complain of the dearness and badness of labour4 ,the chief object of the town artisan is to do as little work as possible4 ,he is absolutely without conscience in his work1 and all that he does is slovenly4 ,he surveys a job1 and meditates upon it for an hour--at your expense2 begins it1 and goes away to fetch a tool that he has forgotten--the time of his absence being duly charged against you2 procrastinates and dawdles2 sits down to read the paper1 if no one watches him2 and in one way and another takes quite twice as long over a job as is needed1 and then does it badly4 ,when ,i first became a householder in ,london ,i naturally sent to some neighbouring employer of labour for any little jobs of carpentering and plumbing that needed to be done4 ,i soon had to relinquish the practice4 ,if a new latch were put upon a window1 the screws were driven into the old holes1 so that in a week the latch was off again4 ,if the plumber effected one repair he invariably left some damage that made it necessary to recall him before the month was out4 ,there are houses in ,london which must be as good as an annuity to local tradesmen2 ,i believe the workmen are instructed to do their work so badly that it is never really done4 ,i soon found it wise to learn how to do repairs for myself2 and it was by doing them myself that ,i discovered how ,i had been victimised by the rapacity1 dishonesty1 and inefficiency of the ,british workman and his master4 ,but in the country things are different4 ,the village workman has honest pride in his reputation1 and in his work4 ,moreover1 he can turn his hand to anything1 he does not grudge his time1 and he is not corrupted by the contiguity of the public-house4 ,the man who did my masonry work for me was a grey-haired1 silent1 pertinacious fellow1 of great practical intelligence and efficiency4 ,he did not work rapidly1 but all that he did was thoroughly done4 ,the carpenter was a man of the same type4 ,he took a genuine delight in fitting my oak to its new uses1 and had ideas of his own1 which were often ingenious1 and always practical4 ,he even had a true artistic sense2 uncultivated for want of education1 but real4 ,i understood the extraordinary skill of mediaeval craftsmen through my association with this man4 ,the pieces of exquisite carved oak which find their way into museums to-day were wrought by men such as he was2 quiet1 thoughtful men1 residing in villages1 who developed their artistic sense in solitude4 ,i am quite sure that this man thought a great deal more of his work than of the money he earned by it4 ,at all events he charged me astonishingly little4 ,he refused a contract1 evidently regarding it as implying suspicions of his honesty4 ',i'll charge ye what's fair1' he said1 'and you and me'll not quarrel as to the price4' ,if my bill for labour was so moderate that it seems absurd to a townsman1 it was because ,i had to deal with honest craftsmen1 who brought not only efficiency and handiness to their work1 but a high sense of honour1 and a real intelligence and interest4 ,it was in the end of ,august when ,i took my house2 by the beginning of ,december ,i had completed my work upon it4 ,the gardens in front of the house had been levelled1 and covered with the finest mountain turf4 ,the walls had been colour-washed a warm yellow1 and all the window-frames painted white4 ,for three months every hour had been busy1 and not the least blessing of my toil was that it had brought me a degree of physical vigour such as ,i had never yet enjoyed4 ,how different were my sensations when ,i woke in the morning now from those which ,i had known in ,london6 ,in ,london the hour of rising had invariably found me languid and reluctant4 ,i woke with the sense of a load upon me1 and ,i dreaded the long grey day4 ,i see now that these sensations were not so much mental as physical4 ,i had not mental buoyancy simply because ,i was deficient in physical vitality4 ,but at ,thornthwaite ,i woke eager for the day4 ,the first sounds that greeted me through the open window were the songs of the birds1 the sea-like diapason of the wind in the elm-trees on the lawn1 and the animating song of the river in the glen4 ,the weather during the whole of that autumn was extraordinarily fine4 ,after a week of equinoctial storm in the end of ,september1 the weather settled into exquisite repose4 ,day succeeded day1 calm1 bright1 sunny4 ,it was as warm as ,august1 but with all the tonic freshness of autumn4 ,november1 usually a month of misery in ,london1 was here delightful4 ,the year died slowly1 amid the pomp of crimson leaves and bronzed bracken4 ,for the first time ,i understood that it is bliss to be alive4 ,like the child whom ,wordsworth celebrates1 ,i felt my life in every limb4 ,there was no goading of dull powers to unwelcome tasks2 energy ran free1 like the mountain-stream at my door1 and the zest of life was strong in me4 ,i never came downstairs into my living-room without a sense of new delight4 ,how beautiful1 how sweetly habitable it looked in the morning sunshine6 ,any one living in a city1 who immediately on rising enters the room which he has used overnight1 has noticed the peculiar staleness of the atmosphere4 ,it is not exactly a noxious atmosphere2 there is no palpable unpleasant odour in it1 but it is used up1 it is stale4 ,he will also notice the dust which rests on everything4 ,in a city the daily grinding of millions of wheels over thousands of miles of roads fills the air with an acrid1 almost impalpable powder1 which finds its way even through closed windows and settles upon everything4 ,in my ,london house ,i could not take up a book without soiled fingers4 ,even books which were protected by glass doors1 and papers shut up in drawers1 did not escape this filthy powder1 composed of the fine-ground dust and excrement of the ,london streets4 ,if ,i wiped a picture with a white silk handkerchief1 a black stain showed itself upon the handkerchief1 and this in spite of the most careful efforts to keep the house clean4 ,i suppose ,londoners get used to dirt1 as eels are said to get used to skinning4 ,they spend their time in washing their hands1 but with the most transient gain of cleanliness4 ,no one knows how filthy ,london is till he begins to notice how much longer window-curtains1 household draperies1 and personal linen keep clean in the country4 ,i should not like to be called an old maid1 but ,i confess to an old-maidish care for cleanliness4 ,untidiness in books or papers would not distress me1 but dirt is a real distress2 and if it be old-maidish to fight a continual battle with dirt1 to scour and polish and dust1 content with nothing less than immaculate purities of polished surface1 then ,i suppose ,i am an old maid1 and ,i count it to myself for righteousness4 ,amid the many miseries of cities1 this no doubt is but a minor misery1 but the relief which ,i experienced in deliverance from it was disproportionately great4 ,the purity and freshness of the atmosphere1 the corresponding cleanliness of all ,i touched in the house1 were delightful to me1 and added to my self-respect4 ,the clean1 aromatic air passed like a ceaseless lustration through every room of the house4 ,the very bed-linen1 bleached in the open air1 had acquired the fragrance of mountain thyme and lavender4 ,i did not need to climb the hill to find the pine-woods2 they grew round the very table where ,i ate4 ,four walls and a roof gave me shelter1 yet ,i lived in the open air all the time4 ,then there was also the silence1 at first so strange as to be almost oppressive1 but later on sweeter than music4 ,it was at early morning and nightfall that this silence was most intense4 ,on a still night one could almost hear the earth move1 and fancy that the stars diffused a gentle crackling noise as of rushing flame4 ,the fall of an acorn in a pine wood startled the ear like an explosion4 ,the river also was discerned as having a definite rhythm of its own4 ,it ran up and down a perpetual scale1 like a bird singing4 ,what had seemed a heavy confused sound of falling water resolved itself into regular harmonies1 which could have been written down in musical notation4 ,at times there was also in the air the sense of breathing4 ,on a dark night1 standing at my door1 ,i had the sense of a great heart that beat in the obscurity1 of a bosom that rose and fell1 of a pulse as regular as a clock4 ,i think that the ear must have recovered a fine sensitiveness1 normal to it under normal conditions1 but lost or dulled amid the deafening roar of towns4 ,it is scarcely an exaggeration when poets speak of hearing the grass grow2 we could hear it1 no doubt1 if the ear were not stunned by more violent sounds4 ,it is probable that mere increase of vitality in itself is sufficient to account for this new delicacy of the physical senses4 ,the senses adapt themselves to their environment4 ,an example of this is found in the absence of what is called long sight among city children4 ,having no extensive horizon constantly before the eye1 the power of discerning distant objects gradually decays4 ,on the contrary a child brought up upon the ,african veldt1 where he is daily confronted with almost infinite distances1 acquires what seems to be an almost preternatural sharpness of vision4 ,it is the same with hearing4 ,the savage can distinguish sounds which are entirely inaudible to the civilised man4 ,the footfall of his enemy1 the beat of a horse's hoofs1 the movement of a lion in the jungle1 are heard at what appear impossible distances4 ,i do not seek to offer any absolute explanation of these phenomena as regards myself1 but ,i state the fact that in returning to a natural life ,i found a remarkable quickening of my physical senses4 ,as my eye became accustomed to the wide moorland prospects ,i found myself increasingly able to discriminate distant objects4 ,flowers that had seemed to me to smell pretty much alike1 now had distinct fragrances4 ,i knew when ,i woke in the morning from which direction the wind came1 by its odour2 the wind from the moorland brought the scent of heather and wild thyme1 the wind from the glen the scent of water4 ,it was the same with sound4 ,properly speaking there is no such thing as silence in ,nature4 ,the silence1 or what seems silence1 is divisible into a multitude of minute sounds4 ,everything in ,nature is toiling and straining at its task1 the sap in the tree1 the rock balanced on its bed of clay1 the grass-blade pushing and urging its way toward the sun4 ,and as there is no real silence1 so there is no real solitude in a world where every atom is vigorously at work4 ,wordsworth's conception of ,nature as a ,presence becomes at once intelligible when we live close to the heart of ,nature4 ,had ,wordsworth lived in towns his poetry could never have been written1 nor can its central conception of ,nature as a ,presence be understood by the townsman4 ,i had often enough read the wonderful lines-- ,and ,i have felt ,a presence that disturbs me with the joy ,of elevated thoughts3 a sense sublime ,of something far more deeply interfused1 ,whose dwelling is the light of setting suns1 ,and the round ocean1 and the living air1 ,and the blue sky1 and in the mind of man ,a motion and a spirit1 that impels ,all thinking things1 all objects of all thought1 ,and rolls through all things4 ,but ,i never really understood them till ,i lived among scenes similar to those in which they were composed4 ,and the organ by which they were interpreted was not the mind so much as the senses1 quickened and invigorated by solitude4 ,i presented a more sensitive surface to ,nature1 and the instant result was the perception of ,nature as of something alive4 ,in the silence of the night1 as ,i stood at my door1 ,i felt the palpitation of a real life around me2 the sense1 as ,i have said1 of a breathing movement1 of pulsation1 of a beating heart1 and then ,i knew that ,wordsworth wrote with strict scientific accuracy1 and not with vague mysticism as is commonly supposed1 when he described ,nature as a living ,presence4 ,the sum of these sensations was for me a state of physical beatitude4 ,i was often reminded of the grim confession of the poor wastrel1 who1 when asked where he lived1 replied1 ',i don't live1 ,i linger4' ,i had never really lived2 ,i had lingered4 ,i had trodden the path of the days and years with reluctant feet4 ,now every daybreak was a new occasion of joy to me4 ,i was rejuvenated not only in mind1 but in the very core and marrow of my body4 ,i had put myself in right relation to ,nature2 ,i had established contact1 as electricians would say2 and as a consequence all the electric current of ,nature flowed through me1 vitalising and quickening me in every nerve4 ,men who live in cities are but half alive4 ,they mistake infinite contortion for life4 ,life consists in the efficient activity of every part of us1 each part equally efficient1 and moving in a perfect rhythm4 ,for the first time1 since ,i had been conscious of myself1 ,i realised this entire efficiency4 ,many times ,i had coveted what is called 'rude health1' but ,i had been led to believe that rude health implies lack of sensitiveness4 ,i now found the reverse to be the case4 ,perfect health and perfect sensitiveness are the same thing4 ,i felt1 enjoyed1 and received sensations more acutely simply because my health was perfect4 ,it may be said that the sensations afforded by such a life as mine were not upon a grand scale4 ,they were not to be compared with the acute and poignant sensations afforded--perhaps ,i should say inflicted--by a city4 ,i can only say they were enough for me4 ,all pleasures are relative1 and the simplest pleasure is capable of affording as great delight as the rarest4 ,the sight of a flower can produce as keen a pleasure as a ,coronation pageant1 and the song of a bird may become to the sensitive ear as fine a music as a sonata by ,beethoven4 ,may ,i not also say that the simplest pleasures are the most enduring1 the commonest delights are the most invigorating1 the form of happiness which is the most easily available is the best8 ,the further we stray from ,nature the harder are we to please1 and he knows the truest pleasure who can find it in the simplest forms4 ,,chapter ,,ix ,,how ,,we ,,lived ,the most common objection to country life is what is called its dulness4 ,when ,i used to suggest to my town acquaintances the advantages of a holiday in purely rustic scenes1 ,i was always met by the remark3 ',oh1 there would be nothing to do there6' ,no doubt if a holiday is devoted to lounging1 it is much more difficult to lounge at a solitary farm than at some crowded seaside resort4 ,but my holidays in the country had never been of this description4 ,i am constitutionally unfitted for a lounger4 ,i like to have my days planned out1 and to live them fully4 ,a country holiday for me had always meant incessant occupation of one kind or another1 fishing1 climbing1 boating1 long cycling excursions1 and an industrious endeavour to explore all scenes of interest within a reasonable compass4 ,now that ,i had come to live in the country1 ,i felt more than ever the need of incessant occupation1 for ,i fully realised that the worst enemy of human happiness is ennui4 ,during the first three months1 while ,i was busy in getting settled1 there was no danger of ennui4 ,i was constantly interested1 and ,i was constantly at work4 ,i learned how to do carpentering and joiner's jobs with a fair proficiency2 ,i dug nearly an acre of land at the back of my house with my own spade2 made paths1 and planted fruit trees2 all the turf for my lawn ,i laid myself1 with a few hours' assistance from a farm-hand2 and there was no night when ,i did not go to bed with aching muscles and often with bruised hands4 ,if my bill for labour was absurdly moderate1 it was partly because ,i did so much myself4 ,for instance1 ,i employed no one to hang papers or to whitewash ceilings or paint woodwork4 ,with the willing help of my wife and my boys this was done with complete satisfaction4 ,one result of these labours was the pride and love for our little homestead which they created4 ,in modern civilised life we get too many things done for us1 and this is not merely an economical but an ethical mistake4 ,it is difficult to feel any real pride in a home which is the creation of other people4 ,in a true state of civilisation no man will pay another to do what he can do himself4 ,not only does he preserve his independence by such a rule1 but he creates a hundred new objects of interest for himself4 ,the paper which ,i had hung with my own labour gave me a pleasure which a much finer paper hung by paid labour could not have given me4 ,the lawn which ,i had laid with my own hands seemed more intimately mine than if ,i had paid some one else to make it4 ,the more ,i reflect upon the matter the more am ,i convinced that one of the great curses of civilisation is the division of labour which makes us dependent upon other people to a degree which destroys individual efficiency4 ,thrown back upon himself as a dweller in a wilderness1 any man of ordinary capacity soon develops efficiency for kinds of work which he would never have attempted in a city1 simply because a city tempts him at every point to delegate his own proper toil to others4 ,i can conceive of few things that would do more to create a genuine pride of home than to insist that no man should possess a house except by building it for himself1 after the old primitive principle of the earliest social communities4 ,to build thus is to mix sentiment with the mortar1 and the house thus created is a place to which affections and memories cling2 whereas the mere tenancy of a cube of rotten bricks1 thrown together by the jerry-builder--of which we know no more than the amount of rent which is charged for it--is incapable of nourishing any sentiment1 and is1 in any case1 not a home but a lodging4 ,this idea is no doubt chimerical2 for in a vast city1 where the great object is to escape starvation1 no one has time to interest himself deeply in the kind of house he occupies1 and still less has he the opportunity to build a house which is the expression of his own taste and labour4 ,but in the country the idea is not only practicable1 it is urgent4 ,independence is made necessary because there are fewer people on whom we can become dependent4 ,i soon found that if ,i wanted potatoes and cabbages1 ,i must grow them2 if a pipe burst there was no plumber to mend it1 ,i must mend it myself2 and so through a long range of occupations1 with which ,i had had no previous acquaintance4 ,the immortal ,captain ,davis1 of the ,sea ,ranger1 remarks to the incompetent landsman ,herrick1 whom he has engaged as first mate on the ,farralone1 ',there ain't nothing to sailoring when you come to look it in the face1' and ,i am inclined to think that the observation is true of other things besides navigation4 ,there is nothing in ordinary gardening1 carpentering1 or work about a house that any intelligent man cannot learn in a month by giving his mind to it4 ,intelligence1 industry1 and a deft hand will take any man of capacity through any of the ordinary employments of life with moderate credit1 or at least without disgrace4 ,when once the right handling of tools is learned1 the rest is merely a matter of intelligence4 ,at all events1 ,i had to learn how to be proficient in the handling of many strange tools1 because there was no one within reach to handle them for me4 ,the experience was salutary for me in every way4 ,it taught me to be ashamed of that kind of inefficiency which in towns is reckoned the hall-mark of gentility4 ,it taught me the virtue of that independence which makes a man equal to his own needs4 ,it also saved me from ennui4 ,i found myself living a much busier life than ,i had ever lived4 ,i had never worked so hard1 and yet there was not a single part of my work that did not add to my delight4 ,and ,i worked for direct results1 for things ,i could see1 and things which ,i might justly claim as my own1 since ,i had created them4 ,i shall perhaps fall under the suspicion of morbid sensitiveness when ,i confess that ,i never took my weekly wage in ,london without a qualm and a compunction1 for ,i could never make myself believe that ,i had really earned it4 ,what had ,i done8 ,i had simply performed a few arithmetical processes which any schoolboy might have done as well4 ,my labour1 such as it was1 was absorbed instantly in the commercial operations of a great firm4 ,i could not trace it1 and ,i had no means of estimating its value4 ,the money ,i took for it seemed therefore to come to me by a sort of legerdemain4 ,that some one thought it worth while to pay me was ostensible proof that my work was really worth something2 but so little able was ,i to penetrate the processes that resulted in this judgment1 so vivid was the sense of some ingenious jugglery in the whole business1 that ,i did not know whether ,i had been cheated or was a cheat1 in living by a kind of labour that cost me so little4 ,how different was my feeling now6 ,at the end of an hour's spade-work1 ,i saw something actually done1 of which ,i was the indisputable author4 ,when ,i laid down the saw and plane and hammer1 and stretched my aching back1 ,i saw something growing into shape1 which ,i myself had created4 ,there was no jugglery about this2 there was immediate intimate relation between cause and effect4 ,and thence ,i found a kind of joy in my work1 which was new and exquisite to me4 ,i stood upon my own feet1 self-possessed1 self-respecting1 efficient for my own needs1 and conscious of a definite part in the great rhythm of infinite toil which makes the universe4 ,it is only when a man works for himself that this kind of joy is felt4 ,so enamoured was ,i of this new joy1 that had it been possible ,i would have possessed nothing that was not the direct result of my own labour4 ,i would have liked to have spun the wool for my own clothes1 and have tanned the leather for my own boots4 ,i would have liked to grow the corn for my own bread1 and have killed my own meat1 as the savage or the primitive settler does4 ,in this respect the savage or the primitive settler approaches much nearer the true ideal of human life than the civilised man1 for the true ideal is that every man shall be efficient for his own needs1 with as little dependence as possible on others4 ,under natural conditions there is enough faculty in a man's ten fingers to supply his own needs1 and all the avocations needful to life may meet under one hat4 ,the familiar illustration of the number of men required to make a pin is typical of that contemptible futility to which what is called civilisation reduces men by mere dispersal of labour4 ,such dispersal develops single faculties1 but paralyses men4 ,it is like developing some single part of the human organism1 such as a finger-tip1 to high sensitiveness1 by drawing away the sensitiveness from all the rest4 ,to do this reduces life to barrenness2 it makes it meagre in energy and pleasure2 it makes work a disease4 ,but in such a life as ,i now lived1 it was not a finger-tip that worked but the whole man4 ,the cabbage ,i cut for dinner was fashioned from my own substance1 for my sweat had nourished it4 ,the butter ,i ate was part of my own energy1 spent over the churn1 come back to me in the freshness and firmness of edible gold4 ,my bread was baked in a flame kindled at my own heart ,transcriber's note3 hearth81 and it was the sweeter for it4 ,when ,i lay down at night ,i was quits with ,nature4 ,i had paid so much energy into her bank1 and had a right to the dividend of rest she gave me4 ,apart from all other things1 the economy of this mode of life will be at once perceived4 ,my expenses sank steadily month by month4 ,i made a good many mistakes1 of course1 for there is more than meets the eye in remunerative gardening1 chicken farming1 and bee-keeping1 as there is in most human occupations which appear delusively simple4 ,it took me some time to rectify these mistakes1 but before a year had passed ,i found myself raising all my own garden produce1 well supplied with eggs and poultry for my own table1 and able to earn a little by the sale of my superfluous stock4 ,some articles1 such as coal1 were excessively dear2 but then1 as a set-off1 ,i could have all the wood ,i required for next to nothing1 and we burned more wood than coal4 ,groceries ,i purchased in wholesale quantities from a ,manchester store1 so that in spite of carriage ,i paid less for them than ,i had paid in ,london1 and secured the best quality4 ,my trout rod served my breakfast table1 and my gun brought me many a dinner4 ,in short1 ,i found that small as was the sum of money which ,i had earned1 yet it was more than enough for my needs4 ,winter is1 of course1 the trying time for a resident in the country4 ,about the beginning of ,december the weather broke1 and there was a week of driving rain4 ,a fortnight of grey weather followed1 and then came three days of heavy snow4 ,from the moment that the snow ceased winter became delightful4 ,no words of mine can describe the glory of these winter days4 ,it is only of late years that people have discovered that ,switzerland is infinitely more beautiful in winter than in summer2 some day they will discover the same truth about the ,lake ,district4 ,it happened one day in midwinter that business took me as far as ,keswick1 and ,i shall never forget the astonishment and delight of that visit4 ,skiddaw was a pure snow mountain1 a miniature ,mont ,blanc2 ,derwentwater was blue as polished steel1 covered with ice so clear that it was everywhere transparent2 the woods were plumed with snow1 and over all shone the sun of ,june1 and the keen air tingled in the veins like wine4 ,beside the road the drifts ran high1 hollowed by the wind into a hundred curves and cavities1 and in each the reflected light made a tapestry of delicate violet and rose4 ,those who imagine that snow is only white--dead1 cold white--have never seen the pure new-fallen snow1 when the stricture of the frost begins to bind it2 such snow has every colour of the rainbow in it1 and where it is beaten fine it is like a dust of diamonds4 ,under a hard grey sky snow appears dead white2 but under such a sun as this it glowed and sparkled with all the glories of an ice cave4 ,and then came the sunset1 a sunset to be dreamed of4 ,skiddaw was a pyramid of rosy flame2 great saffron seas of light lay over the ,catbells1 the immense shoulders of ,borrowdale were purple1 and the lake was truly a sea of glass and fire4 ,nor was this a singular and unmatched day4 ,for a whole month the pageant of the snow lasted4 ,close to my own door were glories scarcely inferior to those of ,borrowdale and ,derwentwater4 ,the glen was rich with all the fantastic arabesque of the frost1 the moor was like a frozen sea1 and four miles away lay ,buttermere1 ringing from morn to night with the sound of skates4 ,there is no greater error than to suppose winter a drear and joyless season in the country4 ,it has delights of its own unimagined by the townsman1 to whom winter means burst pipes and slushy streets1 and snow that is soiled even as it falls4 ,but among mountains winter has its own incomparable glories1 and holds a pageant not inferior to summer's4 ,but even in days of rain life had its pleasures4 ,however bad the weather might be there were few days when we could not be abroad for some hours1 and none when the mountains had not some peculiar beauty to reveal4 ,at the end of a day of rain there were often splendid half-hours1 just before sunset1 when the mountains glowed with richest colour2 when through the rift of thinning clouds some vast peak named like a torch1 and the mist blew out like purple banners1 and the watercourses sparkled like ropes of brilliants hung on the scarred rocks1 and the air was fresh and fragrant with all the perfume of health4 ,fog we seldom had1 and when it came1 it rarely lasted beyond midday4 ,and then there were the warm delights of winter evenings1 when the wood fire blazed upon the hearth1 and the gale roared against the windows4 ,i have already remarked that books read in the solitude of the country always make a deeper impression on my mind than books read in the uneasy leisure of towns4 ,i found this doubly true when ,i came to live in the country4 ,i came to my books with a keener and healthier brain4 ,the great masters of literature resumed their sway over me2 ,scott1 ,shakespeare1 ,cervantes1 long-neglected1 took powerful hold upon my mind4 ,it is not to dwellers in the town that great writers ever make their full appeal4 ,they are too occupied with the trivial dramas of life among a crowd1 too disturbed by the eddy and rush of the life around them4 ,but for the dweller in solitude these great writers erect a theatre1 which is the only theatre he knows4 ,he is able to attend to the drama presented to him1 and to be absorbed by it4 ,he discusses the actors and their doings as though they were real personages4 ,effie ,deans and ,varley1 ,ophelia and ,don ,quixote1 were for us creatures whom we knew4 ,it was the same with later writers4 ,byron's poetry once more appealed to me by its revolutionary note1 ,shelley was interpreted afresh to me by these mountains which he would have loved4 ,one incident ,i recollect which may serve to illustrate this new hold which imaginative literature took upon me4 ,i opened one evening ,great ,expectations1 and began to read it aloud4 ,the next morning1 at five o'clock1 my two boys were contending for the book4 ,for a month ,pip sat beside our hearth1 and ,joe ,gargery winked at us1 and 'that ass' ,pumblechook mouthed his solemn platitudes4 ,we were continually reminding each other never to forget 'them as brought us up by hand4' ,could any book have laid hold of us after this fashion if it had been read in the hurried leisure of a city life8 ,it was the very absence of incident in our quiet lives that made these imaginary incidents delightful4 ,we lingered over the books we read1 extracting from them all their charm1 all their wisdom1 and there was more good talk1 more discriminating criticism heard in my cottage in a month than would be heard in a ,london drawing-room in a year4 ,and the explanation is simple4 ,we had no trivialities to talk about2 none of those odds and ends of gossip that do duty for conversation in cities2 and thus such talk as we had concerned itself with real thoughts1 and the thoughts of wise men and great writers4 ,one of the principal occupations of my first winter was the education of my boys4 ,after the approved modern fashion ,i had intrusted this task to others1 upon the foolish assumption that what ,i paid heavily for must needs be of some value4 ,i discovered my delusion the moment ,i came to look into the matter for myself4 ,i found that they knew nothing perfectly3 certain things they had learned by rote1 and could recite with some exactitude1 but of the reasons and principles that underlie all real knowledge they knew nothing4 ,i believe this to be characteristic of almost all modern education1 especially since competitive examinations have set the pace4 ,the brain is gorged with crude masses of undigested fact1 which it has no power to assimilate4 ,fragments of knowledge are lodged in the mind1 but the mind is not taught to co-ordinate its knowledge1 or1 in other words1 to think and reason4 ,the yearly examination papers of public schools and universities afford ample and often amusing illustrations of this condition of things4 ,i remember an ,oxford tutor1 who set papers for a certain ,theological ,college1 telling me that one year he put this question3 ',give some account of the life of ,mary1 the mother of our ,lord4' ,this was a question which obviously required some power of synthesis1 some exercise of thought and skill in narrative4 ,one bright youth1 after a feeble sentence or two in which the name of ,mary was at least included1 went on to say1 ',at this point it may not be out of place to give a list of the kings of ,israel4' ,here was something he did know1 and it was something not worth knowing4 ,i found that my boys had been educated on much the same principle4 ,they could do a simple problem of mathematics after a fashion2 that is1 they could recite it2 but it had never once been suggested to them as an exercise of reason4 ,it was the same with history2 they could recite dates and facts1 but they had no perception of principles4 ,it may be imagined that ,i had to go to school again myself before ,i could attempt to instruct them4 ,i had to take down again my long disused ,virgil and ,cicero1 and work through many a forgotten passage4 ,at first the task was distasteful enough1 but it soon became fascinating4 ,my love of the classics revived4 ,i began to read ,homer and ,thucydides1 ,tacitus and ,lucretius1 for my own pleasure4 ,it was delightful to observe what interest my boys took in ,virgil1 as soon as they discovered that ,virgil was not a mere task-book1 but poetry of the noblest order4 ,by avoiding all idea of mere unintelligent task-work1 ,i soon got them to take a real interest in their work1 until at last they came to anticipate the hour of these common studies4 ,i took care also to never make the burden of study oppressive4 ,two hours of real study is as much as a young boy can bear at a time4 ,he should rise from his task1 not with an exhausted1 but with a fresh and quickened1 mind4 ,on very fine days it was understood that no books should be opened4 ,such days were spent in fishing1 in mountain-climbing1 or in long cycling excursions1 and the store of health laid up by these days gave new vigour to the mind when the work of education was resumed4 ,when the summer came on1 life became a daily lyric of delight4 ,by five in the morning1 sometimes by four1 we were out fishing4 ,in the narrow part of the glen there was a place where the rocks met in a wild miniature gorge1 and through them the water poured into a large circular rock-basin1 about forty feet in diameter4 ,this was our bathing-pool1 and the cool shock and thrill of those exquisitely pure and flowing waters runs along my nerves still as ,i write4 ,we often spent more than an hour there in the early morning1 swimming from side to side of our natural bath1 diving off a rock which rose almost in the centre of the pool1 passing to and fro under the cascade1 or sitting out in the sun1 till sheer hunger drove us home to breakfast4 ,writers who boast a sort of finical superiority will no doubt disdain these barbarian delights1 and wonder that memory should be persistent over mere physical sensations4 ,but ,i am not sure that these physical sensations are not recollected with more acuteness than mental ones1 and there is no just reason why they should be despised4 ,i have forgotten a good many aesthetic pleasures which at the time gave me keen delight--some phrase in oratory1 some movement in concerted music1 and such like--but ,i never forget the sensation of wind blowing over my bare flesh as ,i coasted down a long mountain road on a broiling day in ,august1 nor the poignant thrill of that rushing water in my morning bathes4 ,and mixed with it all is the aromatic scent of the pines beside the stream1 the freshness of the meadows1 and the song of falling water4 ,sometimes1 when the river was in summer flood1 there was just that spice of danger in our bathing which gave it a memorable piquancy4 ,on such occasions we had to use skill and coolness to avoid disaster2 we were tossed about the boiling water like bubbles2 incredible masses of water flowed over us1 warm and strong1 in a few seconds1 and we came out of the roaring pool so beaten and thrashed by the violence of the stream that every nerve quivered4 ,breakfast was a great occasion after these adventures4 ,then came a stroll round our small estate1 and an hour or so over books4 ,matthew ,arnold's ,thyrsis was a favourite poem with us all on these mornings4 ,it breathed the very spirit of the life we lived1 but for its sadness--this we did not feel4 ,but we did appreciate its wonderfully exact and beautiful interpretation of ,nature1 and we had but to look around us to see the very picture ,arnold painted when he wrote3 ,soon will the high midsummer pomps come on1 ,soon will the musk carnations break and swell1 ,soon shall we have gold-dusted snapdragon1 ,sweetwilliam with his homely cottage smell1 ,and stocks in fragrant blow3 ,roses that down the alley shine afar1 ,and open1 jasmine-muffled lattices1 ,and groups under the dreaming garden trees1 ,and the full moon1 and the white evening star4 ,such was the life we lived4 ,if we looked back at all to the life we had left1 it was with that sort of sick horror which a prisoner may feel who has endured and survived a long term of imprisonment4 ,it seemed to us that we had never really lived before4 ,the past was a dream1 and an evil dream4 ,we had moved in a world of bad enchantment1 like phantoms1 barely conscious of ourselves4 ,we had now recovered proprietorship in our own lives4 ,work1 that had been a curse1 was a blessing4 ,life1 that had gone on maimed feet1 was now virile in every part4 ,this mere fulness of health was in itself ample compensation for the loss of a hundred artificial pleasures which we had once thought necessary to existence4 ,we knew that we had found a delight in mere living which must remain wholly incredible to the tortured hosts that toil in cities2 and we knew also that when at last we came to lie down with kings and conquerors in the house of sleep1 we should carry with us fairer dreams than they ever knew amid all the tumult of their triumph4 ,,chapter ,x ,,neighbourship ,there is a wonderful passage in ,timon of ,athens which appears to express in a few strokes1 at once broad and subtle1 the picture and the ideal of a perfect city3 ,piety and fear1 ,religion to the gods1 peace1 justice1 truth1 ,domestic awe1 night-rest1 and neighbourhood1 ,instruction1 manners1 mysteries1 and trades1 ,degrees1 observances1 customs1 and laws4 ,the congregated life of man1 many-coloured1 intricate1 composed of numerous interwoven interests1 was never painted with a higher skill4 ,the word that is most expressive in this description is 'neighbourhood4' ,it strikes the note of cities4 ,uttering it1 one is aware of the pleasant music of bustling streets1 greetings in the market-place1 whispered converse in the doorways1 gay meetings and laughter1 lighted squares and crowds1 the touch of kind hands1 evening meals and festivals1 and all the reverberation of man's social voice4 ,a man may grow sick for such scenes as a sailor grows sick with longing for the sea4 ,there were times when this sickness came on me1 this nostalgia of streets4 ,it was only by degrees ,i came to see that neighbourhood has a significance apart from cities4 ,the first sensation of the man suddenly exiled from cities is a kind of bewildering homelessness in ,nature4 ,he is confronted with a spaciousness that knows no limit4 ,he treads among voids4 ,he experiences an almost unendurable sense of infinity4 ,he can put a bound to nothing that he sees2 it is a relief to the eye to come upon a wall or a hedge1 or any kind of object that implies dimension4 ,there is something awful in the glee or song of birds2 it seems irrational that with wings so slight they should dare heights so profound4 ,all sense of proportion seems lost4 ,after being accustomed for many years to think of himself as in some sense a figure of importance in the universe1 a man finds himself unimportant1 insignificant1 a little creature scarce perceptible a mile away4 ,i came once upon some human bones lying exposed on the side of an old earthwork on the summit of a hill2 heavy rains had loosened the soil1 and there lay these painful relics in the cold eye of day4 ,two thousand years ago1 or more1 spears had clashed upon this hillside1 living men had gone to final rest amid their blood2 and it came upon me with a sense of insult how little man and all his battles counted for in the limitless arena of the world4 ,the brute violence of winds and tempests had swept these hills for centuries2 and he whose lordship of the world is so loudly trumpeted1 had lain prone beneath this violence1 unremembered even by his fellows4 ,i understood in that moment that affecting doctrine of the nothingness of man1 which coloured mediaeval thought so strangely3 like the monk of the cloister ,i also had before me my memento mori4 ,but in truth ,i did not need the bones of dead warriors to humble me2 the mere space and stillness of the world sufficed4 ,my ear ached for some sound more rational than the cry of blind winds1 my eye for some narrower stage than this tremendous theatre1 where an army might defile unnoticed4 ,in such a mood the desire of neighbourship grows keen4 ,one is cheered even by the comradeship of his own shadow4 ,it becomes necessary to talk aloud merely to gain assurance that one lives4 ,so ghost-like appears man's march across the fields of ,time1 that some active expression of physical sensation becomes imperative1 in order to recover evidence of one's physical existence2 and thrice welcome1 like the violence offered to the half-drowned1 is any kind of buffet which breaks the dream1 and sets the nerves tingling in the certainty of contact with men who breathe and live4 ,the easy and ostensible remedy for such a state of mind is immediate retreat to the reassuring hum of cities3 the more difficult but real remedy is the reassurance of one's own identity4 ,many people take the first course without admitting it2 alleging the lack of intercourse or convenience in country life1 whereas the real truth is that contact with the steadfast indifference of ,nature has proved wounding to their egoism4 ,a vain man cannot maintain his sense of self-importance in the centre of a vast moor1 or amid the threatening bulk of giant hills4 ,he looks upon nothing that respects him4 ,he can find nothing subservient to him4 ,therefore he flies to the crowded haunts of men1 and the porter touching his hat to him for a prospective twopence at the railway station1 is the welcome confessor of his disallowed divinity4 ,it is1 alas6 the most common and humbling feature of human nature that we all stiffen our backs with pride when the knee of some fellow-creature is crooked in homage to us1 although that homage may be bought for twopence6 ,no wonder that the man in whose character vanity is the chief essence cannot long endure contact with ,nature2 ,nature respects no man1 and laughs in the face of the strutting egoist4 ,but if a man will live long enough with ,nature to become reconciled to her impassivity1 he begins to recover self-respect1 by recovering the conviction of his own identity4 ,he has that within himself which ,nature has not1 the faculty of consciousness4 ,he is but a trifling atom in the scheme of things1 but he is a thinking atom4 ,he sees also that all living creatures have an identity of their own4 ,each goes about the scheme of life in deliberate wisdom4 ,why should he complain of insignificance when the bird1 the flower1 the horse that drags the plough1 the beaver in the stream1 the spider on the wall1 make no complaint2 each accomplishing its task as intently as though it were the one task the world wanted done8 ,in the life of the merest insect are toils as great1 and vicissitudes as tragic1 as in the most heroic human life1 and to see so much is to attach a new dignity to all kinds of life4 ,the bird building its nest is doing precisely the same thing as the man who builds his house1 and with an equal skill of architecture4 ,the flower1 fighting for its life1 is engaged in the same struggle as man1 for whom every breath and pulse-beat is a victory over forces that threaten his destruction4 ,the world is full of identities1 each unmoved by the tremendous scale of its environment4 ,hence a new kind of neighbourship is possible1 wider and more catholic than the neighbourship between man and man4 ,kinship1 not in kindred1 but in universal life1 becomes possible4 ,there is no sense of loneliness in a country life after that discovery is made4 ,the emptiest field is as populous as the thronged city4 ,the ,academy of ,god's art opens every spring upon the gemmed hillside4 ,the building of a new metropolis as wonderful as ,london is going on beneath the thatch where the bees toil4 ,all that constitutes human magnificence is seen to be but a part1 and not a large part either1 of a yet wider magnificence of effort and achievement2 for of the flowers of the field we can say1 ',solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these4' ,the fact is that civilised man moves in a much too narrow range of affinities4 ,he has forgotten the rock from which he was hewn1 and the hole of the pit from which he was dug4 ,he has reduced the keyboard of his sympathies by whole octaves4 ,the habit of shutting up his body within walls1 has produced the corresponding habit of shutting up his mind within walls4 ,hence ,nature1 which should be an object of delight to him1 becomes a cause of terror or repugnance4 ,solitude1 which is one of the most agreeable sensations of the natural man1 is one of the most painful and alarming sensations of the civilised man4 ,the civilised man needs to be born again that he may enter the kingdom of ,nature2 for to enter either the kingdom of grace or of ,nature the same process is necessary--we must become as little children4 ,thoreau has described this experience in terms which might apply equally to the religious mystic or the ,nature-lover4 ,he tells us that for a brief period after he came to live in the woods he felt lonesome1 and 'doubted if the near neighbourhood of man was not essential to a serene and healthy life4 ,to be alone was something unpleasant4 ,but ,i was at the same time conscious of a slight insanity in my mood1 and seemed to foresee my recovery4 ,in the midst of a gentle rain1 while those thoughts prevailed1 ,i was suddenly sensible of such sweet and beneficent society in ,nature1 in the very pattering of the drops1 and in every sight and sound about my house1 an infinite and unaccountable friendliness all at once like an atmosphere sustaining me1 as made the fancied advantages of human neighbourhood insignificant1 and ,i have never thought of them since4 ,every little pine-needle expanded and swelled with sympathy1 and befriended me4 ,i was so distinctly made aware of the presence of something kindred to me1 even in scenes that we are accustomed to call wild and dreary1 and also that the nearest of blood to me and humanest was not a person nor a villager1 that ,i thought no place could ever be strange to me again4' ,this experience marked the rebirth of ,thoreau1 as truly as a new and delightful sensitiveness to a spiritual world marked the re-birth of ,bunyan4 ,the whole secret of re-birth lies in the recovery of lost affinities4 ,i do not recollect any particular crisis such as ,thoreau describes1 but ,i can trace the process in myself4 ,i took no pains to cast the slough of cities2 ,i registered no vows and consulted no teachers2 it seemed that the thing was quietly done for me by the ,higher ,powers4 ,i had no part in the matter except to be docile4 ,nature took me in hand1 as sleep takes in hand the sick child2 the only thing asked of me was my submission4 ,the result soon appeared in the altered scale of my perceptions4 ,i became indifferent to newspapers1 to the doings and performances of public personages1 to the rise and fall of literary reputations1 and to a great many books which once interested me4 ,i saw that a considerable number of those whom ,i had counted public teachers were no better than persons who talked in their sleep4 ,they knew nothing of the elemental life of man1 and were unfitted to pronounce verdicts upon his destiny4 ,novelists particularly offended me by their gross ignorance of life4 ,the pictures of life they drew were as untrue as a description of a street-fight would be if written by a perfumed odalisque who had never crossed the threshold of a harem4 ,the ancient elemental life of man1 spent in storm and sunshine1 under wide skies1 they had not so much as looked at1 and their voluminous chatter about man and his doings had as little relation to life as the philosophy that is enunciated in a monkey-house4 ,opera-bouffe performed upon ,helvellyn would be a sorry spectacle2 what was all this bedizened rout of people playing before the footlights of cities1 but a vain burlesque at which ,nature laughed8 ,and as my sense of the importance of this kind of spectacle gradually sank1 my appreciation of the serious drama conducted by ,nature1 upon a stage as old as time1 whose footlights are the changeless planets1 gradually rose4 ,i had become the neighbour of ,eternity1 through neighbourship with things that are themselves eternal4 ,i tasted the pleasure of enlarged existence1 which had become possible through enlarged affinities4 ,i had eaten of the ,tree of ,life1 which grows wherever there is a ,garden brought to beauty by the sweat of man's brow1 and ,i had the knowledge of good and evil4 ,one form of neighbourship which brought me perpetual delight was--if ,i may so describe it--neighbourship with the stars4 ,i had hitherto scarce given a thought to astronomy1 save of the vaguest kind1 and all ,i knew of it was derived from the recollection of one or two popular lectures4 ,this was pardonable in a citizen1 who is never able to see any considerable space of firmament4 ,but when a man comes to live in the country he can scarce remain indifferent to a pageant so sublime as the midnight heavens4 ,it is always with him2 it obtrudes itself upon him2 it becomes in time the scenery of his life4 ,it pleased me on clear evenings before ,i slept to go out and take what ,i called a star-bath1 a term justified by the real sense ,i had of waves of soft light and silence flowing over me1 submerging and cleansing me1 and setting my soul afloat4 ,but very soon this purely aesthetic pleasure became also an excitement of the intellect4 ,an immense curiosity seized me4 ,i desired to penetrate this lighted labyrinth of space1 to climb these shining terraces1 to know where these vast roads led1 in whose profound seclusion ,god ,himself seemed to hide4 ,in a very humble way ,i began the study of astronomy1 and although ,i never got beyond its elements yet my whole life was incalculably enriched by what ,i learned4 ,i sometimes felt that of all my neighbours the stars were the friendliest and wisest4 ,that sense of insignificance1 begotten by the pressure of immensity upon the spirit1 of which so many men have written1 ,i never felt2 my most constant feeling was a kind of gladness which had its root in the conviction of some living friendly ,power behind and in the spectacle4 ,the sense of insignificance1 if it came at all1 was associated with the vanities of mankind4 ,it did indeed seem a strange thing that a man whose thoughts could walk among the stars1 should bend those thoughts to a mean eagerness for gold1 a pride in dress1 or the building of palaces1 which when achieved are not so much as a single grain of dust upon an ant-hill4 ,in a universe1 whose arithmetic employs worlds for the ciphers of its reckoning1 bigness as associated with man sounds ridiculous2 and the biggest fortune or the biggest grief are alike infinitesimal4 ,but when the desire of bigness passes from a man's mind1 humility becomes pleasurable1 and immensity is soothing4 ,i forgot to think of the vastness of the stars2 they were for me neighbourly and friendly presences1 talking like a wise old nurse to me of things that happened before my birth1 and the ancient kindness of ,him whom a daring poet calls1 ',my old neighbour--,god6' ,neighbourship with the earth also became a vital pleasure and a source of peace4 ,there was a time when ,i had a vivid horror of death2 and as ,i look back1 and analyse my sensations1 ,i believe this horror was in large part the work of cities4 ,it sprang from the constant vision of deformity1 the presence of hospitals1 newspaper narratives of tragic accidents1 and the ghastly cheerfulness of metropolitan cemeteries4 ,to die with a window open to the trampling of a clamorous1 unconcerned street seemed a thing sordid and unendurable4 ,to be whisked away in a plumed hearse to a grave dug out of the debris of a hundred forgotten graves was the climax of insult4 ,it happened to me once to see a child buried in what was called a common grave4 ,it was a grave which contained already half a dozen little coffins2 it was a mere dust-bin of mortality1 and it seemed so profane a place that no lustration of religion could give it sanctity4 ,dissolution met the mind there in more than its native horror2 it had the superimposed horror of indecency and wilful outrage4 ,but in the wide wholesome spaces of the world1 and beneath the clean stars1 death seems not undesirable4 ,a country life gives one the pleasant sense of kinship with the earth4 ,it is no longer an offence to know oneself of the earth earthy4 ,i was so much engaged in the love and study of things whose life was brief that the thought of death became natural4 ,i saw constantly in flowers and birds1 and domestic creatures1 the little round of life completed and relinquished without regret4 ,i saw also how the aged peasant gathered up his feet and died1 like a tired child falling asleep at the close of a long day4 ,death is in reality no more terrible than birth2 but it is only the natural man who can so conceive it4 ,he who lives in constant kinship with the earth will go to his rest on the earth's bosom without repugnance4 ,i knew very well the place where ,i should be buried2 it was beneath a clean turf kept sweet by mountain winds2 and the place seemed desirable4 ,having come back by degrees to a life of entire kinship with the earth1 having shared the seasons and the storms1 it seemed but the final seal set upon this kinship1 that ,i should dissolve quietly into the elements of things1 to find perhaps my resurrection in the eternally renewed life of ,nature4 ,neighbourship meant also for me kinship1 with every kind of life around me1 and some friendly association with my fellow-men4 ,the creatures we call dumb have a sure way of talking to us1 if we will overcome their shyness and give them a chance4 ,moreover their habits1 their method of life1 their thoughts1 are in themselves profoundly interesting4 ,i seemed to have discovered a new universe when ,i first took to bee-culture4 ,the geometry of the heavens is not more astonishing than the geometry of the beehive1 nor is the architecture of the finest city built by man more intricate and masterly4 ,here1 as in all things1 we are deceived by bulk1 counting a thing great merely because it is big2 but if it come to deducing an ,invisible ,mind in the universe from the things that are visible1 ,i would as soon base my argument on what goes on in a bee's brain1 as on the harmonies of law manifested in the solar system4 ,i believe we greatly err in underrating other forms of life than our own4 ,the ,hindu1 who acknowledges a mystic sacredness in all forms of life1 comes nearer the truth4 ,life for life1 judged by proportion1 plan1 symmetry1 delicacy of design and beauty of adjustment1 man is a creature not a whit more wonderful than many forms of life which he crushes with a careless foot4 ,the creature we call dumb is not dumb to its mates1 and it is very likely our human modes of communication appear as absurd to the dog or horse as theirs do to us4 ,we know what we think of the so-called dumb creatures2 it might be a humbling surprise if we could know what the dumb creature thinks of us4 ,the satire would not be upon one side1 be sure of it4 ,to the townsman the simple dwellers on the soil seem almost as incapable of intercourse as the creatures of the field and pasture4 ,because they do not know the kind of things the townsman knows1 they are supposed to know nothing4 ,i have already said enough to show how absurd and insolent is this assumption4 ,my neighbours were few1 and simple-minded2 but they possessed many kinds of skill necessary to their life1 they had wisdom and virtue1 and upon the whole a kind of fundamental dignity of nature4 ,they were as shy as woodland creatures to a stranger's voice2 they were highly sensitive to the mere shadow of a slight1 and both suspicious and resentful of patronage2 but they met trust with trust1 and where they gave their trust they gave their full loyalty of friendship4 ,in my youth1 as ,i have said elsewhere1 ,i often passed a whole day in a forest4 ,i would choose some solitary glade1 where my intrusion was audibly resented by the unseen creatures of the wood1 who fled before me2 but when an hour had passed1 and the signal had run through the forest that ,i meant no harm1 those scattered and astonished creatures reassembled4 ,the whole life of the wood then went on before my eyes2 the birds sang their best for me1 the squirrel performed his innocent gymnastics with an eye to my applause1 the very snake moved less shyly through the grass1 as though the word had gone forth that ,i was a guest1 who must be entertained and made to feel at home4 ,this experience often recurred to me in my early days at ,thornthwaite4 ,it was some time before ,i was admitted to the free-masonry of the scanty social life around me2 when at last ,i had paid my footing ,i found that here also was a commonwealth2 here also might be found upon a narrow scale1 but in authentic forms1 ,piety and fear1 ,instruction1 manners1 mysteries1 and trades1 ,degrees1 observances1 customs1 and laws4 ,,chapter ,,xi ,,the ,,wounds ,,of ,a ,,friend ,those who have been friendly enough to follow me so far in my little story will scarcely push their friendship so far that they will refrain from criticism upon myself and my doings4 ,on one point1 viz4 the social morality of my conduct1 ,i am so sure of criticism that ,i will anticipate it with self-criticism4 ,had ,i the moral right to desert the city1 and to ignore the social obligations of the city1 in order to find a life that was more pleasurable to myself8 ,a city which presents a depressing variety of social needs can hardly afford to spare any good citizen1 however humble1 who is capable of social service1 and for such a citizen to contract himself out of his obligations is very like skulking4 ,i confess that this consideration occasioned me some uneasiness1 and the questions which it raised have been treated with such admirable lucidity by a friend of mine1 who still resides in ,london1 that ,i will let him put the case against me4 ,the friend of whom ,i speak belongs to that class which may be roughly described as ,earnest ,good ,people4 ,with very small means1 and not much spare time at his disposal1 he is nevertheless constantly engaged in what is called the work of ,social ,amelioration4 ,the problems of city squalor1 vice1 and ignorance haunt him like a nightmare4 ,when a very young man he made a voyage of discovery among the submerged tenth2 got acquainted with tramps1 night strollers1 and wastrels on the ,thames ,embankment2 slept in doss-houses and ,salvation ,army shelters2 tried his hand on experimental philanthropy among the slums2 and was driven half-frantic by what he saw4 ,he has the makings of a saint in him2 of a ,francis of ,assisi1 of a ,father ,damien4 ,he teaches in night-schools1 conducts ,penny ,banks1 and is grateful to any one who will introduce him to a desperate social enterprise which no one else will attempt4 ,the first business of life1 he is fond of saying1 is not to get good1 but to do good4 ,of pleasure1 in the usual sense of the term1 he knows nothing1 and would grudge the expenditure of a sixpence upon himself as long as he knew a cadger or a decayed washerwoman who seemed to have a better claim to it4 ,london is for him not a home1 but a battlefield1 and his spirit is the spirit of the soldier who dare not forsake his post4 ,many years ago1 when ,i was going for my summer holiday1 he wrote me a reproachful poem1 from which ,i quote a part1 because it is the best index to his own character and the most lucid exposition of his own attitude to life which ,i can recall3 ,the roar of the streets at their loudest ,rises and falls like a tune2 ,midday in the heart of ,london1 ,midway in the month of ,june4 ,and blue at the end of a valley ,i see the ocean gleam1 ,and a voice like falling water ,speaks to me thro' a dream4 ,it calls1 and it bids me follow2 ,ah1 how the worn nerves thrill ,at the vision of those green pastures ,and waters running still6 ,but ,i dare not move nor follow1 ,for out of the quivering heat ,another vision arises ,and darkens at my feet-- ,white faces worn with the fever ,that crouches evermore ,in the court and alley1 and seizes ,the poor man at his door1 ,float up in my dream and call me1 ,and cry1 ,if ,christ were here ,he had not left us to perish ,in the fever-heat of the year6 ,god knows how ,i yearn for the mountains ,and the river that runs between6 ,ah1 well1 ,i can wait--and the pastures ,of heaven are always green4 ,no one will question the nobility of sentiment in these simple lines1 and they are the genuine expression of the man4 ,in his case1 however slight may be his claim to be called a poet1 that hardest test of the poet is fulfilled3-- ,the gods exact for song ,to become what we sing4 ,it will be imagined that a man of this order would view my retreat from ,london with disfavour4 ,he thought me guilty of a kind of social perfidy4 ,no doubt the ,earnest ,good ,people1 for whom ,i have the greatest reverence1 will agree in the same verdict4 ,a letter received during the last few days from my friend puts the case with such force1 and yet with such good-feeling1 that ,i will transcribe a part of it4 ',i confess1' he writes1 'that the pleasures of life among the mountains leaves me cold4 ,it is not that ,i am incapable of the same kind of pleasure1 but1 as you know1 ,i have other ideas concerning the uses of life4 ,i cannot enjoy sunsets while men and women are starving4 ,the thought of all the misery of life for multitudes would1 as ,rossetti puts it1 make a goblin of the sun4 ,you used to be very eloquent against good men who lived only for their own pleasure2 are not you yourself living in the same way8 ,i have heard you declaim against the gross selfishness of ,goethe's aim in life--to build the pyramid of his own intellectual culture2 are not you1 in your own way1 pursuing the same ideal8 ,i have heard you say that nothing so belittled ,goethe in your judgment as the fact that he was destitute of patriotism2 he dwelt at ease among his books1 while his country perished and felt no pang2 and you live your joyous life among the hills1 and have forgotten the ,golgothas on which the poor of ,london endure their unpitied martyrdom4 ,you are doing good to yourself1 no doubt2 but is it not a better thing to be doing good to others8 ,i marvel that you can sleep at peace amid the wailing of the world4 ,i cannot1 and ,i thank ,god ,i cannot4 ',what you do not seem to realise is that all our acts must be judged not only from the personal1 but from the collective standpoint4 ,suppose all men followed your example1 what would happen8 ,why1 cities would soon become the mere refuse-heaps of the unfit4 ,the drudges would remain1 the captains of industry would be gone4 ,there would be no leaven of higher intelligence left1 no standard of manners1 nothing that could set the rhythm of life4 ,this is too much the case already4 ,the merchant1 the writer1 the man of wealth and culture1 live as far as they can from the struggling crowd4 ,you would extend the process1 and make it possible for the clerk as well as the merchant4 ,if your new gospel of a return to ,nature succeeds1 we shall soon see the universal exodus of the best intellectual and physical units of the community4 ,but you forget that some millions will remain behind1 who cannot flee4 ,have you no obligations to these8 ',besides this1 you do not seem to perceive that the ultimate drift of the new gospel is toward anarchy4 ,the return to nature is practically a return to barbarism4 ,you would have all men content so long as they grew enough potatoes for their daily needs4 ,you would have ,england return to the conditions of the ,saxon heptarchy4 ,each man would squat upon his clearing in the forest1 ignobly independent1 brutally content4 ,there would be no longer that struggle for life which develops capacity1 that urging onward of the flood of life which cuts for itself new channels1 that passion for betterment which means progress4 ,you save yourself from the collisions of life2 but it is in such collisions that the finest fires are struck out of the heart of humanity4 ,again1 ,i say1 any course of action must be judged by its collective effect before it can be rightly understood4 ,it is not the individual that counts1 but the race4 ,a good for the individual is not permissible unless it is a good also for the race4 ,i do not admit that your new way of life is an entire good for you1 for ,i believe you must in time suffer from your isolation2 but even if ,i did admit it1 ,i should deny your right to it1 if in its large effects it means an ill for the race4 ,would you venture to say that the race would profit by it if your example were largely imitated8 ,i think you dare not say so much1 for you must be aware that the general desertion of cities would mean the decay of commerce and of the arts1 the arrest of progress1 and national disintegration4 ,and if your own personal example would bear only evil fruit were it elevated to a law of life1 it stands condemned4 ',for my own part1 ,i am where you left me4 ,i am in the same rooms--dull1 stuffy1 inconvenient--you know all about them4 ,i breathe quantities of bad air every day1 and see a hundred things that distress me4 ,i go three nights a week to the room in ,lucraft's ,row2 struggle with the young barbarians of the slums1 and am content if ,i see but a few signs of order evolving themselves out of chaos4 ,a week ago ,i was knocked down by a ruffian1 who came next day to apologise on the three-fold ground that he was drunk1 that he did not know it was me he struck1 and that if he had known he never would have done it4 ,my ruffian was very penitent4 ,he has since signed the pledge and is my firm friend4 ,i chased him out of a public-house last night1 and made him come home to my lodgings with me1 where ,i gave him coffee1 and sang songs to him4 ,he followed all my movements with the big wistful eyes of a dog4 ,there were tears in those eyes when he bade me good-night4 ,he brushed them away with a dirty hand1 and said1 ,i know ,i can keep straight now1 sir1 because you are my pal1 and ,i ain't a-going against the wishes of my pal6 ,this morning he left a pineapple at the door for me--he is a coster1 and pineapples are cheap just now4 ,i felt more pleasure than ,i can say2 ,i could have sung over my work all day1 so glad was ,i4 ,my dear fellow1 don't think ,i speak pharisaically--you know me too well2 but ,i do believe ,i got more genuine pleasure out of my experience with this rough fellow than you will ever get out of your sunsets4 ,lucraft's ,row is a dull place enough1 but when a ray of light does shine into it1 it brings with it more than common joy4 ',my objection to your new mode of life is that it is entirely self-centred4 ,there is no projection of yourself into other lives4 ,you are contributing nothing to the common stock of moral effort4 ,you are simply marooned4 ,it alters nothing that you have marooned yourself under conditions that please and content you4 ,i think that if ,i were marooned upon the fairest island of the ,southern ,seas1 where ,i had but to bask in the sunshine and stretch out my hand to find delightful food1 there would be still something in my lot which ,i should find intolerable4 ,i should spend my days upon the island's loftiest crag1 watching for a sail4 ,the thought of a thousand ships not far away1 rushing round the globe1 with throb of piston1 crack of cordage1 strain of timber1 buffeting of waves1 and shouting crews1 would drive me distracted4 ,what to me were blue skies and soft winds when ,i might be sharer in this elemental strife8 ,how should ,i covet1 in all this adorable and detested beauty of my solitary isle1 the grey skies that looked on human effort1 the violent wind1 the roaring waves1 the muscles cracking at the capstan1 the strong exhilaration of peril1 effort1 conflict1 and the glory of hourly contiguity with death6 ,it was so ,ulysses felt3 ,how dull it is to pause1 to make an end1 ,to rust unburnished1 not to shine in use4 ,it was so he resolved ,to follow knowledge like a sinking star1 99 99 99 99 99 ,to strive1 to seek1 to find1 and not to yield4 ,you will not question that the sentiment is manly4 ,is there not then something that is unmanly in the opposite sentiment8 ,or1 to be plain1 my friend1 is it not lack of courage which has driven you from us1 lack of heroic temper1 lack of that divine and primitive instinct which takes a frolic welcome in the thunder and the sunshine1 in the conflict and the stress of life8 ',i believe that we are bound to be the losers by any wilful separation from our kind4 ,this was the case with the mediaeval monks and ascetics2 they lost far more than they gained from their separation from the common life of the people4 ,it is the same still with very rich folk who are able to evade the harsh conscription of life2 in evading the conscription of life they invariably deteriorate in physical and mental fibre4 ,i can conceive nothing more ruinous to a young man than that he should have just enough money to make the toil for bread unnecessary4 ,more lives have been spoiled by competence than by poverty2 indeed1 ,i doubt whether poverty has any effect at all upon a strong character1 except as a stimulus to exertion4 ,life being what it is1 we should take it as we find it3 we gain nothing by going out of our way to find an easier path4 ,the beaten road is safest4 ,the man who boldly says1 ,let me know the fulness of life2 let me taste all that it has to present of vicissitude1 joy1 sorrow1 labour1 struggle2 let me know all that common people endure1 and endure with them2 let me be no exception to the common rule1 enjoy no special privilege1 ask for no immunity from things harsh and disagreeable--the man who thinks and acts thus is the man who gets the best and most out of life4 ,but you1 my friend1 have simply copied the old monks in the arrangement of your life4 ,there is nothing novel in your action1 though just now your egoism is gratified by the sense of novelty and originality4 ,you have simply gone out of the world to escape the evil of the world4 ,you have bought yourself out of the conscription of life4 ,you have yet to answer me one question3 are you the better for it8 ,that question cannot be answered in a day4 ,ten years hence you will be able to tell me something about it1 and ,i shall be much surprised if you do not then report more of loss than gain4 ,no man ever yet held aloof from his kind without paying the price in narrower sympathies1 a narrower brain1 and a narrower heart4 ,the eternal spirit of ,progress which works throughout the universe never fails to punish the deserter1 and the most common punishment is atrophy4 ,not to submit to the process of evolution is to fall down the long slope of degeneracy4 ',you do not need to be told that the entire history of nations confirms this rule4 ,the greatest nations are those which have found life most difficult1 and they have thriven on their difficulties4 ,the soft climate1 which reduces toil to a minimum1 invariably means the enervated race4 ,under the harsh skies of ,britain a great race has been trained to great exploits2 but what part have the islands of the ,south ,pacific ever played in human history8 ,give man a difficulty to overcome1 and he at once puts forth his strength2 difficulty is his spiritual gymnasium4 ,impose on him no need of exertion1 and he will rot out1 just as the races of the ,south ,pacific are rotting out4 ,i would measure the future of a man1 or of a nation1 by this simple test2 do they habitually choose the easier or the harder path for themselves8 ,the nation that chooses the hard path1 that is not afraid of the burden of empire1 that glories in the strife for primacy and is not afraid to pay the price of primacy in incredible exertion1 in blood and sacrifice1 is the nation that shall possess the earth4 ,and is it not so with men8 ,here1 again1 ,i press home the need for considering one's actions in their collective aspect4 ,your course of life is easily imitable3 would you have it imitated8 ,there are thousands of men in ,london who could readily retire into a peaceful life to-morrow1 on terms more favourable than yours4 ,every man possessed of a hundred pounds a year could do it4 ,yet there are plenty of old men1 with ample fortunes1 who never dream of doing it4 ,they stick to their posts and they die at them4 ,and it is by such men that the great machinery of social life1 of commerce1 of national progress is kept going4 ',you would say1 perhaps1 that they are simply sacrificing the finer pleasures of life to the fanaticism of work2 ah1 but they are also sacrificing them for the good of the community4 ,if the great surgeon or physician bolted from his duties the moment he had acquired money enough to buy a cottage1 you would say he had no right to rob mankind of his skill and service to please himself4 ,have you that right8 ,and if the whole nation acted in this spirit1 how long would the nation hold its place of power and influence8 ,in less than a century we should be as the ,hottentots4 ,we should be driven out before the advance of more energetic races1 just as the ,hottentots2 who once possessed ,southern ,europe and ,egypt1 have been forced back into the ,african wilderness1 where they live a life that is content with the gratification of the most primitive1 the most bestial1 wants4 ,it is no excuse to say that the action of one man can have but little influence upon the trend of life in a whole nation4 ,the merest unit in the sum1 the cipher even1 has power to change the total4 ,the strength of wisdom in the majority of a nation may be more than sufficient to-day to counteract the folly of the unit2 but there is always the chance that the folly of the individual may in time prevail against the experience of the wise1 and pervert the nation4 ,at all events1 we ought to consider such possibilities before we hold ourselves free to do as we please in contempt of general custom4 ',do not be angry with me when ,i say that to me your flight from ,london appears only an illustration of that cowardice about life which is so common to-day4 ,men are very much afraid of life to-day2 afraid of its responsibilities and duties2 afraid of marriage and the burden of children2 and not alone for the old are there fears in the way1 but even the young men faint and grow weary4 ',i can understand ,stevenson flying to the ,south ,seas2 it was part of his prolonged duel with death4 ,but his heart was in the ,highlands1 and could he have chosen1 his feet would have trodden to old age the grey streets of ,edinburgh4 ,your flight is altogether different4 ,you have no real excuse in ill-health4 ,you have simply fallen sick with a distaste for cities4 ,you have had a bad dream1 and you are frightened4 ,i love you still2 ,i count you friend still2 but ,i cannot call you brave4 ',o my friend1 if ,i have said anything that sounds unfriendly1 do not believe it of me2 do not doubt that ,i love you4 ,i think ,i should not have written thus but that in your last letter you expressed pity for me1 and that stung me1 ,i confess4 ,and so ,i retort1 you see1 by pitying you1 which is not admirable in me4 ,therefore let me say1 if you care still to please me1 do not1 in any further letters you may write1 ever express the least pity for me4 ,quite honestly ,i say ,i do not need pity1 for ,i am perfectly happy4 ,in giving all the time and money ,i can spare to the poor in ,lucraft's ,row1 ,i have really renounced nothing2 or1 if ,i have1 ,i am so unconscious of sacrifice that ,i can only say with ,browning3 ,renounce joy for thy fellow's sake8 ,that's joy beyond joy6 ,there are half a dozen ragged boys who love me3 there are twenty more who will do so in time2 and there is my drunken friend with the dog's eyes1 who looks to me to save him from the pit2 what more can ,i ask8 ,fog and mire1 grime and drudgery1 these never trouble me1 because ,i see ,lucraft's ,row1 lit with a star1 waiting for me at the end of every day4 ,and the star is growing bigger and brighter1 for it shines over a tiny obscure ,bethlehem where the ,soul is getting itself born in a few humble hearts4 ,to be permitted to see this miracle1 to assist in this incarnation of the ,soul of the ,people1 is its own exceeding great reward2 and ,i may be envied1 but never pitied4' ,so ran the letter of my friend1 and as ,i transcribe it ,i feel anew that it is an indictment not to be easily set aside4 ,i must think over what ,i can reply to it4 ,it seems as though if he be right in his mode of life ,i must be wrong in mine2 and yet may we not both be right8 ,are we not seeing life from different angles8 ,yes1 ,i must have time for thought before ,i can reply to such a letter4 ,,chapter ,,xii ,,am ,i ,,right8 ,i have given myself a week to think over the letter of my friend1 and ,i am now able to perceive that it is built upon a number of most ingenious fallacies4 ,the chief fallacy appears to be this--that he insists that the race must always count for more than the individual1 and that the individual must fall in line and step with the average conventions of the race at the expense of his own well-being1 or be judged a deserter and a recreant4 ,it is hardly necessary to point out that no doctrine could be more hostile to collective progress1 because progress is not a collective movement1 but the movement of great individuals who drag the race after them4 ,i do not recollect a single human reform that has been spontaneously generated in the heart of society itself2 it has always had its beginnings in the hearts of individuals4 ,thus the ,reformation is practically ,martin ,luther1 the ,evangelical revival is ,wesley1 the ,oxford ,movement is ,newman1 ,free ,trade is ,cobden1 and so on through a hundred regenerations of thought1 morals1 and politics4 ',the world being what it is1 we must take it as we find it1' is a note of quiet desperation4 ,it is precisely because the ,providence of ,history has again and again raised up men who were incapable of taking the world as they found it1 that regenerations and reformations of society have occurred at all4 ,society never moves forward except when it is goaded by the spirit of individual genius4 ,so far as we can trace the history of civilisation1 and thanks to modern research we have about ten thousand years to go by1 civilisation is a succession of waves1 each flowing a little higher than its predecessor1 with an ebb between each4 ,at what point is the ebb checked1 at what point does the fuller wave begin to flow8 ,always with the advent of individual genius4 ,a great man rises who founds a dynasty2 a great thinker1 who publishes new truths2 a great lawgiver or statesman1 who establishes a new social system4 ,new worlds need a ,columbus1 and the social ,columbus is always a man with sufficient daring to stand by original convictions4 ,therefore ,i say that human progress is only made possible by not taking the world as we find it2 and that he is the best friend of collective progress who is the most obedient not to collective convention1 but to individual insight4 ,i observe that my friend does not live in the spirit of his own axiom3 else1 why should he trouble himself over the inhabitants of ,lucraft's ,row8 ,he is certainly not taking the world as he finds it when he devotes his hours of leisure to impart the elements of decency to gutter-snipes1 and save drunkards from the pit4 ,he is as much an individualist as ,i1 only his individualism expresses itself in a different way2 which confirms my original conjecture that we may be equally right in our own mode of life4 ,nor1 by his own confession1 does he really sacrifice his inclinations in his mode of life2 he gratifies his sense of altruism in ,lucraft's ,row1 and ,i my love of ,nature in the solitude of lonely hills4 ,the objects which give men pleasure may be so diverse that what is a source of joy to one man may be an equal source of misery to another4 ,there can be no doubt that many of the martyrs and ascetics were honestly enamoured of pain and whatever credit they deserve for sacrifice1 they pleased themselves by renouncing the world1 as others by enjoying it2 and all that can be said on the subject is that each pleased himself in his own way4 ,thoreau's defence when he was accused of not doing good was that it did not agree with his constitution2 and although the defence sounds like a piece of amusing cynicism1 it was in reality a plea entirely just4 ,the common fault of the ,good ,earnest ,people1 as of most people1 is that they can only conceive of doing good after a pattern which is congenial to themselves4 ,but their mode of doing good1 while it suits themselves admirably1 may not suit every constitution1 and people of a quite different mental constitution may be quite as good as themselves1 although it is after a very different pattern4 ,thoreau did a vast amount of good by showing men1 in his own example1 that the simplest kind of life was compatible with the highest intellectual aims2 would he1 in the long-run1 have served the world half as well had he forced himself to live amid the squalor of a ,new ,york slum8 ,are not we so much the wiser and stronger by the lessons taught in the hut beside ,walden ,pond1 that it would be the poorest compensation for their loss to know that ,thoreau by dint of effort made himself a fairly efficient city missionary1 or pleased the pundits of a ,charity ,organisation ,society8 ,or to take a yet more forcible example of my meaning3 ,hood wrote ,the ,song of the ,shirt1 and ,wordsworth ,the ,ode on ,intimations of ,immortality2 would either have gained by an exchange of lot8 ,the one poem could only have been written by a man who knew 'the tragic heart of towns1' and the other by the man who knew the tranquil heart of ,nature2 but ,hood1 transported to ,grasmere1 would have written nothing1 and ,wordsworth in ,fleet ,street is unthinkable4 ,as it was1 ,destiny took the matter in hand1 and having men to work upon whose first principle of life was to fulfil and not to violate the instincts of their own nature1 succeeded in producing two poets who served mankind each in a way not possible to the other4 ,i suspect there is a great deal of cant to be cleared out of the mind before we can become equitable judges of what doing good really means4 ,i define doing good as the fulfilment of our best instincts and faculties for the best use of mankind2 but ,i do not expect that the ,good ,earnest ,people will accept this definition4 ,they would find it much too catholic1 simply because they have learned to attach a specialised meaning to the phrase 'doing good1' which limits it to some form of active philanthropy4 ,if they would but allow a wider vision of life to pass before the eye1 they would see that there are many ways of doing good besides those which satisfy their own ideals4 ,it is a singular thing that men find it very difficult to live lives of charity without cherishing uncharitable tempers towards those who do not live precisely as they themselves do4 ,for instance1 the busy philanthropist1 nobly eager to bring a little happiness into the grey lives of the disinherited1 often has the poorest opinion of artists and novelists1 who appear to him to live useless lives4 ,but when ,turner paints a picture like the ,fighting ,temeraire ,towed to ,her ,last ,berth1 which is destined to stir generous thoughts in multitudes of hearts long after his death3 or when ,scott writes novels which have increased the sum of human happiness for a century1 is not each doing good of the rarest1 highest1 and most enduring kind8 ,the fulfilment of one's best instincts and faculties1 for the best use of mankind1 is not only the completest1 but also the only available form of philanthropy4 ,since ,nature has chosen to endow us with diverse faculties1 our service of mankind must be diverse too4 ,in a word1 doing good is a much larger business than the ordinary philanthropist imagines2 it has many branches and a thousand forms2 and they are not always doing the most who seem the busiest1 nor do those accomplish most in the alleviation of human misery whose contact with it is the closest4 ,during the last year of my life in ,london ,i came into contact with a brilliant young ,oxford man1 who had manifest talents for oratory1 leadership1 and literature4 ,he was in search of a career1 and being a youth of quick sympathies and very generous instincts1 he was soon caught in the tide of a certain social movement1 whose chief aim was to induce persons of culture to live among the very poorest of the poor4 ,the leader of this movement was a man of beautifully unselfish temper1 but of no striking intellectual gifts2 apart from a certain originality of character1 which was the fruit of this unselfish temper1 he was quite commonplace in mind1 and could have aspired to no higher rank in life than an honourable place among the inferior clergy4 ,he attracted this brilliant youth1 however2 a youth who had been president of the ,oxford ,union1 and had taken a double first in classics1 for whom distinction in life seemed inevitable4 ,the end was that his convert joined what was really a lay order of social and religious service4 ,he lived among the slums of ,holborn1 devoted himself to the instruction of the children of the gutter1 kept the accounts of coal and blanket clubs1 and accepted cheerfully all the drudgery of philanthropy among the poor4 ,most people1 ,i am quite aware1 will say that this is a very noble example of renunciation2 so it is1 and as such ,i can admire it4 ,but is there nothing else to be considered8 ,may not the sociologist ask whether a man is serving society in the best way by refusing to use his best gifts in the only direction in which they could have full play8 ,for many years this youth had trained himself for a particular part in life which few could fill2 he might have influenced the councils of his nation by his powers of debate1 the mind of his nation by his gift of literature2 he should have stood before kings and spoken to scholars2 yet all these high utilities were extinguished in order that he might do something which a man with only a tenth part of his gifts might have done quite as well4 ,think of the picture2 a scholar who never opens a book1 an orator who addresses only costers and work-girls1 a writer who writes nothing1 a leader of men who exerts no public influence2 and what is this wilful destruction of high faculties but social waste and robbery8 ,no doubt he is doing good2 but would not the good he might have done have been far wider1 had he followed the line of his natural gifts1 and occupied the place in life for which those gifts obviously fitted him8 ,this story is a pertinent example of the cant of ,doing ,good4 ,by all means let those live among the poor and work for their betterment who have a distinct vocation for the task2 but it is not a vocation for all4 ,i object to the spectacle of a late president of the ,oxford ,union giving up his life to the management of coal and blanket clubs1 just as ,i object to the spectacle of a thorough-bred racehorse harnessed to a dray4 ,it is a waste of power4 ,but the ,good ,earnest ,people never see this side of things1 because they are afflicted with narrowness of vision4 ,they admit no definition of doing good but their own4 ,they cannot see that the man who passes from a distinguished ,university career to a distinguished public life may do more for the poor by his pen1 by his power of awakening sympathy1 by the opportunity that may be his to obtain the reversal of unjust laws or the establishment of good laws1 than he ever could have done by living in a slum as the friend and helper of a small group of needy men and women4 ,decisive victories are won more often by lateral movements than by frontal attacks4 ,the wave of force which travels on a circle may arrive with more thrilling impact on a point of contact than that which travels on a horizontal line4 ,society is best served after all by the fullest development of our best faculties2 and whether we check this development from pious or selfish motives1 the result is still the same2 we have robbed society of its profit by us1 which is the worst kind of evil which we can inflict on the community4 ,if this statement of social obligation is admitted as correct1 most of my friend's strictures on my conduct dissolve into mere harmless rhetoric4 ,for instance1 he says ,i have 'marooned' myself1 and goes on to draw a fancy picture of a ,south ,sea ,islander1 content with laziness and sunshine1 intimating that this is the kind of life which ,i have chosen4 ,on the contrary my life is what most city men would call a hard life4 ,i work hard every day1 the only difference between my work and theirs being that my work is natural1 wholesome1 and pleasant1 while theirs is drudgery4 ,in what am ,i more selfish than the average citizen1 who after all is doing just what ,i am doing1 viz4 working for his living8 ,my friend would have me believe that the man who toils in cities does so from exalted motives4 ,he is bearing the weight of empire1 assisting in the growth of ,british commerce1 and generally serving the cause of national progress1 while ,i sit in ignoble independence on my own potato patch4 ,i have known a good many men engaged in the lower ranks of commerce1 but ,i have yet to meet one who is influenced in the least by these highly-coloured motives and ideals4 ,they are intent on earning their living1 no more4 ,their interest in commerce is precisely confined to what they can get out of it4 ,they bear just as little of the burden of the ,empire as the tax-gatherer will permit them4 ,there is not one of them who would not object with vigour to take a single shilling less per week for the sake of progress1 or any cause that might arrogate that title4 ,besides1 it is surely a piece of undiluted ,cockney egoism to suppose that the only persons who do their duty by the ,empire are ,londoners4 ,we are still an agricultural country1 and there are some millions of people who live upon the land4 ,they do some kind of work1 which one may suppose is of some utility and value to the nation2 why should their kind of work be despised8 ,they also pay taxes1 give an equivalent of labour for their keep1 rear children1 educate them1 and send them out to be of some service to the ,state2 what does the dweller in cities do more than these8 ,if ,i were disposed to argue the question1 ,i should contend that the man who gets a bushel of corn or a sack of good potatoes out of the land has added a more real asset to the wealth of the community1 and therefore deserves more praise from the commonwealth1 than all the tribe of stockbrokers since the world began2 for these lords of wealth1 who reign supreme in cities1 produce nothing4 ,but since my friend is fond of quoting ,browning1 ,i also will quote him1 and let the poet say in the flash of three lines what the dialectician would need a page to say3 ,all service ranks the same with ,god1-- ,god's puppets1 best and worst1 ,are we3 there is no last nor first1 ,of course there is no disputing the general truth of the statement that nations are developed by the call made upon their energies by difficulty1 and their power of response to that call4 ,but why should such a statement be construed into a reproach on my mode of life8 ,if my friend1 who is probably sitting in a comfortable office at this moment1 adding up figures which he could do almost with his eyes shut1 would condescend to visit my potato patch1 he would find call enough upon his energy4 ,i have almost broken my back1 and certainly blistered my hands1 for the last four hours in hoeing my potato trenches into good level lines1 and ,i have still an hour's work at weeding to do before ,i can satisfy myself that ,i have earned my dinner4 ,i can assure him that bread-fruit does not grow on my land1 nor am ,i in danger of being corrupted by a too easy means of subsistence4 ,the worst crime that can be alleged against me is that ,i have changed my occupation in life1 but ,i am very far from being unoccupied4 ,the occupation which ,i now follow is the most ancient and most honourable in the world2 ,i believe that ,adam followed it4 ,is it not a curious irony upon civilisation1 that it has so filled the mind with artificial estimates of work1 that a form of work which is still practised by the great majority of the world's inhabitants is scarcely regarded as work at all by the insolent minority of mankind who happen to live in cities8 ,but ,i have long observed that there is a universal tendency in men only to regard as work the peculiar sort of work which they themselves do2 and so the artisan supposes he is the only genuine 'working man1' and the shopkeeper thinks the life of the professional man a piece of organised idleness1 and the tradition appears ineradicable that all the clergy1 from bishops downwards1 never work at all because they do not sit in offices4 ,it is of a piece with the theory of 'doing good'2 for all men are bigots when they attempt to measure the universal life of men by their own little egoistic standards4 ,as to that imposing axiom1 that all our actions must be measured by their collective effects1 ,i heartily agree to it1 because it is precisely here that ,i think my case is strongest4 ,i do not1 of course1 invite all men to follow my example by returning to what my friend calls 'barbarism1' and there is so little danger of any such catastrophe that it is not worth while discussing it4 ,but if any considerable number of men should think my example good1 ,i would not deter them from following it1 because ,i believe that no greater service could be done to society than to multiply the number of individuals who prefer a simple to an artificial existence1 who are willing to live lives of honest labour and entire contentment1 who will care not at all for riches1 but will spend their utmost care upon their virtues1 who will count 'self-possession1' the best of all possessions1 and the power of living in ,god's world in cheerful happiness and modest usefulness the real programme of life which ,god has set before all ,his children1 and which alone is worth our hope and struggle4 ,the basis of all good citizenship is physical and moral health4 ,health is really wholeness1 and so we get the word holiness1 for all these words are products of the same idea4 ,what service to the race can be greater1 both in its present value and its ultimate effect1 than to produce men and women both physically and morally whole8 ,it is no doubt a duty to do all we can to help the unfit1 and assist the infirm2 but it is better wisdom and a truer duty to produce the fit and the whole4 ,in the degree that ,i am better equipped as a man1 ,i am better equipped as a member of the commonwealth4 ,all questions of doing good are secondary to the question of being good2 and to be good is but a synonym of moral wholeness4 ,if a nation can succeed in producing efficient human creatures1 efficient first of all in body1 because that is the basis of all efficiency of mind1 and will1 and energy1 there will be no question of efficient citizenship4 ,as for me1 ,i have found the means of a more efficient manhood by a return to a simple and a natural life2 and therefore ,i am quite willing to submit my action to the test of collective example1 believing that the more widely it is imitated1 the better will it be for the happiness and well-being of my nation1 and of the world4 ,the best way of doing good that ,i can devise is to make myself an efficient member of society2 and it is obvious that if every man did this there would be very little work for the professional philanthropist4 ,it is not help that men need most1 but opportunity4 ,philanthropy is1 for the most part1 engaged in patching up the sick anaemic body of society2 which is equivalent to minimising the distress of ill-health without producing good health4 ,the wise physician knows very well that no amount of medicine will do much for the anaemic child2 what the child wants is room to grow4 ,we have social physicians in plenty1 each with his own particular medicine1 but all of them together have said nothing half so wise as these two lines of ,walt ,whitman3 ,now ,i see the secret of the making of the best persons2 ,it is to grow in the open air1 and to eat and sleep with the earth4 ,to create the best persons is to accomplish a service for society which is durable1 and therefore is the only real good4 ,i claim that this is what ,i have tried to do in my own case1 and in no other way could ,i discharge my obligation to society so well4 ,economically considered ,i am now a profitable asset to society4 ,i do a man's work every day1 and ,i earn my keep4 ,when the time comes for my children to go out into life they will take with them good thews and muscles1 sound bodies1 and well-furnished minds4 ,i imagine that this is about as good a contribution to the cause of ,progress1 the service of ,commerce1 and the maintenance of ,empire1 as any one man can make4 ,,chapter ,,xiii ,,the ,,city ,,of ,,the ,,future ,after four years' experiment in ,quest of the ,simple ,life ,i am in a position to state certain conclusions1 which are sufficiently authoritative with me to suggest that they may have some weight with my readers4 ,these conclusions ,i will briefly recapitulate4 ,the chief discovery which ,i have made is that man may lead a perfectly honourable1 sufficing1 and even joyous existence upon a very small income4 ,money plays a part in human existence much less important than we suppose4 ,the best boon that money can bestow upon us is independence4 ,how much money do we need to secure independence8 ,that must depend on the nature of our wants4 ,becky ,sharp thought that virtue might be possible on #ejjj pounds a year2 and1 apart from the question of whether money has anything to do with virtue at all1 it is obvious that she put her figure absurdly high4 ,most of us put the figure at which independence may be purchased too high4 ,if our idea of independence is the possession of an income that allows extravagance1 if life would be intolerable to us without the gratification of many artificial wants1 if our notion of a lodge in the wilderness is the ,cottage1 with a double coach-house1 ,the pride that apes humility1 at which ,coleridge sneered1 then only a very few of us can ever hope for our emancipation4 ,the first step toward independence is the limitation of our wants4 ,we must be fed1 clothed1 and lodged in such a way that a self-respecting life is possible to us2 when we have ascertained the figure at which this ideal can be realised1 we have ascertained the price of independence4 ,my experiment ,i regard as successful1 but there are two features in it which diminish its general application4 ,one is that ,i took with me into my solitude certain tastes and aptitudes1 which ,i may claim without the least egoism to be not altogether common4 ,i had an intense love of ,nature1 a delight in physical exertion1 and a vital interest in literature4 ,i was thus provided with resources in myself4 ,it would be the height of folly for a person wholly destitute of these aptitudes to venture upon such a life as mine4 ,he would find the country unutterably wearisome1 its pursuits a detestable form of drudgery1 and the unoccupied hours of his life tedious beyond expression4 ,in reconsidering what ,i have written ,i perceive that unconsciously ,i have chronicled only the pleasant episodes of my existence4 ,there is another picture that might be painted of mountains clothed in cloud1 roads deep in mire1 work done under drenching rains1 early darkness1 lack of neighbourship1 isolation and monotony1 a life separated by continents of silence from all the eager movement of the world4 ,there are two pictures of the country1 equally true2 the country of ,corot1 idyllic1 lovely1 full of soft light and graceful form2 the country of ,millet1 austere1 harsh1 bleak1 impressive only by a certain gravity and grand severity4 ,we all imagine that we could live in1 and we all desire1 the country of ,corot4 ,but could we live in the country of ,millet8 ,i confess that ,i could not have done so without resources in myself4 ,it required a genuine pleasure in hard physical exercise to get through the duties of the day1 and a genuine interest in literature to supply the place of those artificial forms of pleasure which relieve the tedium of towns4 ,i do not know what ,i should have done without books in the long winter evenings4 ,nowhere is a 'city of the mind1' into which one can retire1 so necessary as in the country4 ,there is also needed an enduring and genuine delight in ,nature and outdoor occupations1 which creates its own sunshine under dreary skies4 ,the mere sentiment of rusticity1 created in the townsman's mind by pictures and novels1 soon dissolves before the realities of a genuine country life4 ,it is ,millet1 not ,corot1 who is the most frequent comrade of the man who looks for months together on the same expanse of fields1 and moves upon the same unchanging round of labour4 ,therefore it is necessary to insist that no error could be greater than for a man with no real aptitude for a solitary life1 and no resources of intellectual pleasure in himself1 to attempt such an experiment as mine4 ,he would weary of it in a month1 and would flee1 like a child afraid of the darkness1 back to gaslit streets again1 with reviling on his lips and bitter anger in his heart4 ,it must also be remembered that ,i did not go into the country with the intention of deriving my livelihood from the soil4 ,my sources of income were separate from my mode of life2 and although my income was at the best very small1 yet it was sufficient to secure me ease of mind4 ,i did indeed discover that the expenses of a simple life were slight1 and that these expenses might be kept low by a moderate degree of industry in rural pursuits1 but ,i never imagined that ,i could live altogether by the soil4 ,i may frankly confess that while ,i believe it to be perfectly possible for a strong and handy man1 accustomed to agricultural pursuits1 to earn a living from the soil1 my example has little to teach in this direction4 ,the cry of ',back to the ,land' will be meaningless until general ownership in the land is made possible4 ,it is the burden of rent1 often a cruel and unjust rent1 that has driven men from the land4 ,not far from me at ,thornthwaite there resided a man and his wife who were among the most frugal and industrious persons ,i have ever met1 yet they found it absolutely impossible to earn a living from the land simply because the conditions of their tenure were unreasonable4 ,for thirteen acres of land1 with a small farm-house and farm-buildings1 they paid eighty pounds per annum1 with an additional charge of thirty shillings a year for the right of a boat upon the lake4 ,the most that they could do with this small holding was to graze four cows1 and in a good season they got nearly enough hay to feed their cattle during the winter months2 but with all the pinching in the world they went steadily behind at the rate of about forty pounds per annum4 ,this is a concrete example of the difficulties of the small farmer1 and it is sufficient to show how vain is the hope of any return to the land as long as rents are maintained at their present level4 ,were it possible for an ,english government to offer free grants of land as the ,canadian government does1 or even to fix rents and provide for the purchase of land as is the case in ,ireland1 multitudes of able-bodied men1 wearied with the fierce struggle for bread in cities1 would avail themselves of the opportunity2 but under the present conditions of farm-tenure those who know the country best1 know that1 except in a very few districts1 it is next to impossible to live by the land4 ,in these important respects1 ,i admit that little can be deduced from my example4 ,all that ,i can pretend to teach is that any man possessed of a small but secure income can live with ease and comfort in the country1 where he would be condemned to a bitter struggle in a city2 that a country life presents incomparable advantages of health and happiness2 that it is not dull or monotonous to the man who has a genuine love of ,nature1 and some intellectual resources in himself2 and that what are called the privations of such a life are inconsiderable compared with the real injuries endured by the man of small income1 who earns his difficult bread in the fierce struggle of a city or a manufacturing town4 ,this leads me to a final question1 viz4 can nothing be done to regenerate our cities8 ,is it quite impossible that the ,city of the ,future should be so contrived as to offer the best advantages of corporate and communal existence without those intolerable disadvantages which at present make the city a realm of 'dreadful night' to the poor1 the weak1 and the sensitive8 ,i began by saying that ,i am not a hater of cities4 ,i feel their fascination1 and four years of country life have not destroyed that fascination4 ,when ,i had occasion recently to return to ,london for a week's visit1 ,i was surprised to find with what eager joy ,i plunged into the labyrinth of lighted streets1 how the blood began to quicken with the movement of the ceaseless crowd1 how much of grandeur and beauty assailed the eye in the wide perspective of domes and towers and spires1 how the very voice of ,london1 sonorous and confused1 like the noise of a great battlefield1 thrilled the spirit1 and ,i felt again that old and poignant charm of cities1 that quickening of the imagination which lies in mere multitude1 that perpetual seduction of the senses begotten by the revelation of so much effort and magnificence4 ,there was an indescribable vivacity in this moving crowd1 a contagious animation in the air2 and1 if truth be told1 ,i found the air fresher and the sky less grey than ,i had fancied1 for a south-west wind1 soft as velvet and wet with sea-salt1 blew through street and square1 and the sky was full of sunshine and of racing clouds4 ,i could not wonder at the love of cities2 it seemed a passion inherent in modern man1 fed and brought to its maturity by centuries of communal existence4 ,and so the thought grew1 that the temper of enduring antagonism to cities was a temper more and more impossible to modern man1 who has long since left behind the realities of elemental life1 the rude simplicities of patriarchal modes of existence4 ,the ,city is with us1 and it has come to stay4 ,london grows vaster year by year1 and there is no sign of arrest in its prodigious life4 ,is it then a dream quite impossible and vain1 that cities may be so administered as to develop the best life of men1 and not to stint it8 ,i believe that it is possible1 and1 most of all1 by the expansion of the city area4 ,there was a reason why men should be closely packed together in mediaeval times1 when cities had their defensive walls against invaders1 but those conditions have long since passed away4 ,entire security of life makes for the dispersal of population1 and in a city like ,london1 which has not been exposed to the perils of invasion for more than two centuries1 there is no reason why people should be confined in narrow areas1 ,from all that we can learn of the most ancient cities of the world1 such as ,nineveh and ,babylon1 we know that they covered enormous areas1 although at no time were they secure from the capricious tragedies of war4 ,nineveh appears to have been a group of cities1 united by a common government2 cities of gardens and parks1 so that the country flowed into the streets2 cities in which the great temples1 and palaces1 and public buildings were not confined to any one quarter1 but were scattered through the entire area of the city1 giving an equal dignity to its every part4 ,let us apply the analogy to ,london4 ,let us suppose a reconstructed ,london1 devised upon the broad principle of ample space and air according to population2 of congregated and contiguous cities under a common government2 of public buildings of utility and beauty equally distributed2 and it is easy to imagine a ,london that should combine all the charm of the country with the advantages of the metropolis4 ,the splendid streets1 which are the main arteries of traffic1 would remain1 but the squalid tenements and alleys which are packed away behind them would disappear4 ,a long chain of parks and gardens would unite the ,west and ,east1 taking the place of a host of rotten rabbit-warrens1 which are a disgrace to any civilised community4 ,there would be no quarter of the town relinquished to the absolutely poor2 ,poplar would have its palaces of wealthy merchants as well as ,kensington1 ,st4 ,albans on the north1 ,reigate on the south1 would mark the limits of the city1 and all the intervening space would be filled with thriving colonies of ,londoners1 living in well-built houses with ample gardens4 ,manufactories would be distributed as well as mansions4 ,the various trades would not be huddled together in narrow inconvenient corners of the metropolis2 the factory1 removed a dozen miles from ,charing ,cross1 would take its workers with it1 and become the nucleus of a new township4 ,the artisan would thus work within sight of his house1 and that entire dislocation of home-life1 involved by present conditions of labour1 would disappear4 ,and each of these townships would have its baths1 libraries1 and technical schools1 not dependent on local enterprise or generosity1 but administered by a central body1 composed of men of wide views and experience1 who should deserve the great title of the ,city ,fathers2 and each would be saved from the narrow spirit of suburbanism by the proud sense of its corporate unity with ,london4 ,such a ,london no doubt bears the aspect of a futile dream2 yet it is worth while pointing out that in a dim and feeble way this has been the ideal after which ,london has been groping ever since the day when the population first overflowed its normal boundaries4 ,the mischief has been that nothing has been done upon a grand scale and by organised effort4 ,a bit of open space has been bought for a park here and there1 while a much larger bit has passed into the builder's hands through local indifference or apathy4 ,new suburbs have arisen in a day1 not because any central power willed it1 but simply by the combined greed1 energy1 and enterprise of the speculative builder1 who invariably builds rotten houses1 which he sells as fast as he can to guileless people with a passion for owning house-property4 ,the result has been confusion1 waste1 and disappointment4 ,the new township rises without any adequate provision for roads or railway accommodation4 ,it is filled by a migratory population who do not realise these inconveniences or ignore them1 as long as the novelty of the thing charms them2 presently they move off again1 a poorer population takes their place1 rents drop1 and another suburb is left to a precarious existence4 ,i contend that this necessary expansion of the metropolis should not be left to caprice2 it should be designed upon broad lines of development4 ,the ,london ,county ,council should buy up every acre of land that comes into the market within a thirty-five mile radius of ,central ,london4 ,it should be for the ,council to decide whether such land as they acquired should be retained for parks and gardens1 or utilised for building4 ,it should be in their sole power to decide the kind of buildings that should be erected1 and to bind themselves to erect buildings of public utility and convenience1 such as libraries1 baths1 and concert-halls in a settled proportion to the number of dwelling-houses4 ,at all costs the speculative builder should be eliminated4 ,he is the worst sort of parasite on the community4 ,his dishonesty is absolute1 and the mischief which he works is little short of crime4 ,since the ,county ,council has established its right to build houses1 and has built them well1 let it build all our houses1 and give to other classes beside the artisan the advantage of substantial tenements4 ,let it borrow as many millions as it pleases2 no one will complain if its administration is efficient2 and after all1 we may as well pay a fair rent to a central body1 amenable to public opinion1 as to a private individual whose own gain is the chief matter involved1 ,we cannot do without the capitalist2 but a ,communal ,capitalist is infinitely preferable to a private capitalist4 ,municipal ,socialism is the watchword of the future2 and instead of being jealous of the existing powers of the ,county ,council1 ,i would increase those powers tenfold2 for without the widest kind of power1 and even of despotic power1 invested in some central authority1 the chaotic expansion of ,london will go on to the enrichment of the few and the abiding injury of the many4 ,one of the greatest difficulties in this expansion of the area is the means of locomotion4 ,it is at present in the power of a railway company1 which is after all only a private trading concern1 to create or ruin the prosperity of a suburb by the kind of provision which it makes for it necessities4 ,a good1 rapid1 cheap1 and frequent service of trains is a matter of the utmost importance to a suburb4 ,but here again1 our method of expansion is left to chance and haphazard4 ,the speculative builder does not trouble himself about a train-service2 he knows by experience that he can attract a population to any given locality1 and he leaves the new residents to discover the inconveniences of the locality for themselves4 ,it might be supposed that the railway company1 in its own interest1 would be quick to profit by the new population on its line of route2 sometimes it does so1 but in many instances it does not4 ,one would suppose by the grudging way in which extra trains are put on to meet the needs of an increased population1 that the railway company was a beneficent association1 granting favours1 instead of a trading concern in search of new business4 ,the only real remedy for this kind of evil is that all the means of locomotion within a twenty-five miles radius of ,charing ,cross should be in the hands of one central authority4 ,if a ,county ,council is capable of superintending a tramway system1 it should also be capable of superintending the suburban railway system for the public good4 ,and if it be thought much too vast an undertaking for the ,county ,council to become the proprietor of all the suburban lines1 it should at least be in the power of the ,council to exercise effective control over their working1 and to compel the companies to make adequate provision for the outlying populations4 ,but it is clear that if factories and businesses were removed into suburban districts1 carrying their armies of workers with them1 a good part of the difficulty of locomotion would soon settle itself4 ,it is the enormous daily flow of population toward the centre that chokes the channels of locomotion1 and the wisest method of checking this flow is to make it unnecessary1 by establishing manufacturing colonies1 on the pattern of ,mr4 ,ellis ,lever's and ,mr4 ,cadbury's colonies at ,port ,sunlight and ,bourneville4 ,there would still remain the difficulty of locomotion in the central districts1 but with proper enterprise1 organisation1 and control1 this difficulty is not insuperable4 ,in a few years we shall look back with wonder and pity to the days when the infrequent 'bus1 the slow and tedious horse-tram1 and the exorbitant cab were the means of locomotion in which a city of six million people put its trust4 ,the electric tram1 clean1 frequent1 and rapid1 will be everywhere2 the electric cab will run at a normal fare of threepence a mile2 perhaps also there will be electric overhead railways1 constructed upon a system which does not interfere with the perspective of the main thoroughfares1 for the overhead electric railway1 whatever may be its defects1 is a means of locomotion vastly preferable to the unventilated tubes on which we now pride ourselves4 ,may we not also hope that the general application of electric force will do much to cleanse our atmosphere8 ,with houses lit and warmed by electricity1 factories run by electric force1 cooking done in electric ovens1 the vile smoke which darkens and destroys the city would disappear4 ,the skies of ,london would be as pure as the sky of the ,orkneys1 and a hundred trees and plants1 which now perish at the first touch of the fog-fiend1 would grow in our city parks and gardens as freely as they grow in ,epping ,forest4 ,with a fleet of electric boats upon the ,thames1 running at one minute intervals1 the ,thames would once more become the river of pleasure1 and a highway of popular traffic4 ,there is no reason why these things should not be4 ,all that is needed is that ,london1 through its chosen representatives1 should assume the full control of its own life2 working out the scheme of its improvement by deliberate methods and upon a settled plan2 compelling the obedience of all its citizens to a central authority1 and intrusting to that authority the complete management of its affairs1 not as a means of personal profit1 but for the profit and the welfare of the whole community4 ,in the meantime much may be done by personal enterprise4 ,is there any real reason why groups of persons1 whose employment is in the city1 but whose hearts are in the country1 should not found small colonies for themselves on the outskirts of ,london8 ,let a thousand householders combine themselves into a company2 let them choose their own site1 build their own houses2 let them erect their own ,church--one ,church upon the broad basis of charity instead of dogma would suffice--elect their own managing committee1 and set themselves to the creation of a true community4 ,let them possess their own electric plant for heating and lighting2 let every house share the common convenience2 and since domestic labour forms one of the chief difficulties to-day1 let common dining-halls be erected for every hundred persons1 where good and cheap meals could be provided1 or from which such meals could be supplied to private houses1 at the bare cost of their production4 ,let it be the aim of these communities to collect persons of not one trade or profession only1 but persons of varied occupations to compose their citizenship1 so that as many forms of human energy as might be possible should be represented1 each contributing its own element to the common life4 ,let all the trades permitted in the little township be conducted on co-operative principles1 and not for private gain4 ,let due provision be made for efficient education1 for the cultivation of the arts1 and for the proper means of pleasure4 ,would not such a combination of men and women represent the best ideal of a human community8 ,and can we not see that in the mere economy of means and money the gain by such a system would be immense8 ,suppose the capitalised value of such a township1 including the purchase of land1 the erection of houses1 draining1 lighting1 and so forth1 were put at a million and a quarter sterling1 which is a generous estimate1 this would impose upon the individual house-holders no more than #dj pounds per annum1 calculated at #d per cent42 and besides this he would share in the great economy of co-operative trading4 ,if this estimate be rejected as inadequate1 it is easy to compute the cost by adding a burden of #aj pounds per annum to each house-holder for each quarter of a million expended2 but even if the total charge reached #ej pounds or #fj pounds per annum for each householder1 he would gain immensely in what he could get for his expenditure1 compared with what he could get for the same money in crowded ,london4 ,such a scheme is simply the application of the principle of co-operation to communal life4 ,it is not chimerical2 if it seem so1 it is simply because we are so ill-trained in morals that we are unwilling to act together in practical brotherhood4 ,it is not impracticable2 it might be achieved to-morrow if we were in earnest over it4 ,there are hundreds of thoughtful men who have perceived its attractions1 outlined its system1 vaguely desired its benefits2 are there not a thousand bold adventurers in ,london willing to bring their vague ideal to the test1 and to make a practical experiment which1 once successful1 would alter the whole science of living1 and go far to solve some of the most difficult problems of our time8 ,it is for such a movement that ,i wait4 ,free and glad as my life among the mountains has been1 yet ,i am sensible that ,i am deprived of many elements of human intercourse1 which are efficacious in the growth of thought and the widening of the mind4 ,i count my deprivation light compared with the higher gains that are mine in the composure of my mind1 the joy of animal vitality1 the tranquil days that leave no bitterness and bring no discord1 each joined to each in 'natural piety1' each inwoven into the calm rhythm of fulfilled desire and duty4 ,but my pleasure is too little shared to be entirely satisfactory4 ,i see that there are terms on which my happiness might be communicated2 that there is a mode of life that should combine all the delight of human intercourse with the tranquillity of natural existence2 that the choice does not lie1 and ought not to lie1 between the city and the desert2 that it is only by the folly of man1 only by his greed1 and haste1 and carelessness1 and contempt for the communal principle1 that such a choice is forced upon me4 ,the ,regenerated ,city will come in time1 too late perhaps for me to enjoy it2 but the ,city ,colony or ,commune may come at any time2 and when it comes ,i will gladly be its conscript1 ,i will earnestly labour for its welfare1 ,i will humbly seek to promote its success1 believing that in the degree that society exchanges individualism for co-operation1 personal gain for common good1 man will enter on the widening evolution of a real progress1 and find the path that leads him to a truly ,golden ,age4