,,! ,,*ild ,,( ,,! ,,dawn               
,by ,,ar?ur ,,*ri/oph] ,,b5son          
,,fell[ ,,( ,,magdal5e ,,college        
,,cambridge        ,greek3 du ti        
?>saleais ton makron teie9 bion elpis9  
,au?or ( ,,! ,,upton ,,lett]s1 ,,f ,a   
,,college ,,w9d[1 ,,beside ,,/ill       
,,wat]s1 ,,! ,,alt> ,,fire1 ,,!         
,,s*oolma/]1 ,,at ,,l>ge1 ,,! ,,gate ,,(
 ,,dea?1 ,,! ,,sil5t ,,isle1 ,,john     
,,rusk91 ,,leaves ,,( ,,! ,,tree1 ,,*ild
 ,,( ,,! ,,dawn1 ,,paul ,,! ,,m9/rel    
#aiab     ,to ,,my ,,be/ ,,& ,,de>e/    
,,fri5d ,,h]b]t ,,francis ,,william     
,,ta?am ,,9 ,,love ,,& ,,hope           
,,introduction   ,i ?9k t a book l !    
foll[+1 :i* deals ) a subject s great & 
s my/]i\s z our hope ( immortality1 by  
means ( an allegory or fantasy1 ne$s a  
few words ( preface1 9 ord] to cle> away
 at ! outset any misund]/&+s :i* may    
possibly arise 9 a read]'s m9d4 ,no?+ is
 fur!r f my wi% ?an to attempt any      
philosophical or ontological exposition 
( :at is hidd5 beh9d ! veil ( dea?4 ,b  

"o may be p]mitt$ to deal ) ! subject   
imag9atively or poetically1 to translate
 hopes into visions1 z ,i h tri$ to d4  
,! fact t und]lies ! book is ?is3 t 9 ! 
c\rse ( a v sad & /range exp]i5ce--an   
illness :i* la/$ = "s two ye>s1 involv+ 
me 9 a d>k cl\d ( dejection--,i came to 
believe practically1 in/ead ( m]ely     
!oretically1 9 ! p]sonal immortality ( !
 human s\l4 ,i 0 consci\s1 dur+ ! :ole  
"t1 t ?\gh ! physical ma*9]y ( ! n]ves 0
 out ( ge>1 ! s\l & ! m9d rema9$1 n only
 intact1 b practically unaffect$ by !   
disease1 imprison$1 l a bird 9 a cage1 b
 p]fectly free 9 !mselves1 & un9jur$ by 
! bodily weakness :i* envelop$ !m4 ,?is 
0 n all4 ,i 0 l$ to p]ceive t ,i _h be5 
liv+ life ) an entirely di/ort$ /&>d (  
values2 ,i _h be5 ambiti\s1 covet\s1    
eag] = com=t & respect1 absorb$ 9       
trivial dreams & *ildi% fancies4 ,i saw1
 9 ! c\rse ( my illness1 t :at really   
matt]$ to ! s\l 0 ! relation 9 :i* x    
/ood to o!r s\ls2 t affection 0 ! native
 air ( ! _s2 & t any?+ :i* di/ract$ !   

he>t f ! duty ( love 0 a k9d ( bodily   
delusion1 & simply h9d]$ ! _s 9 its     
pilgrimage4  ,x is easy to le>n ?is1 to 
atta9 to a s5se ( c]ta9ty ab\t x1 & yet 
to be unable to put x into practice z   
simply & frankly z "o desires to d6 ,!  
body gr[s /rong aga9 & reass]ts itself2 
b ! bless$ consci\sness ( a great       
possibility appreh5d$ & grasp$ rema9s4  
,!re came to me1 too1 a s5se t "o ( !   
sadde/ effects ( :at is practically a   
widespread disbelief 9 immortality1 :i* 
affects _m p :o w\ld nom9ally disclaim  
x1 is t we ?9k ( ! s\l aft] dea? z a ?+ 
s alt]$ z to be practically             
unrecognisable--z a meek & pi\s         
emanation1 )\t qualities or aims or     
passions or traits--z a sort ( amiable &
 weak-kne$ sacri/an 9 ! temple ( ,god2 &
 ?is is ! unhappy result ( our s (t5    
mak+ religion a pursuit ap>t f life--an 
occupation1 n an atmosph]e2 s t x seems 
impi\s to ?9k ( ! dep>t$ _s z int]e/$ 9 
any?+ b a vague species ( liturgical    
ex]cise4  ,i read ! o!r day ! acc\nt ( !

 dea?-b$ ( a great /atesman1 :i* 0      
writt5 f :at ,i may call a some:at      
cl]ical po9t ( view4 ,x 0 record$ ) mu* 
gu/o t ! dy+ politician took no int]e/ 9
 8 s*emes ( gov]nm5t & c>es ( ,/ate1 b  
f\nd p]petual solace 9 ! repetition (   
*ildi% hymns4 ,?is fact _h1 or might h  
_h1 a c]ta9 beauty ( its own1 if x _h   
be5 expressly /at$ t x 0 a pro( t ! tir$
 & brok5 m9d fell back ^u old1 simple1 &
 de> recollections ( bygone love4 ,b !re
 0 manife/ 9 ! record a k9d (           
sanctimoni\s triumph 9 ! ext9ction ( all
 ! great man's insight & wisdom4 ,x     
seem$ to me t ! "r treatm5t ( ! episode 
0 r to insi/ t ^? great qualities1 won  
by brave exp]i5ce & unselfi% ef=t1 7    
only tempor>ily obscur$1 & belong$      
actually & ess5tially to ! _s ( ! man2 &
 t if heav5 is inde$1 z we may ?ankfully
 believe1 a place ( "w & progress1 ^?   
qualities w\ld be actively &            
en]getically employ$ z soon z ! s\l 0   
fre$ f ! trammels ( ! fail+ body4       
,ano!r po9t may also be m5tion$4 ,! idea

 ( transmigration & re9c>nation is "h   
us$ z a possible solution = ! extreme   
difficulties :i* beset ! "q ( ! app>5tly
 =tuit\s brevity ( "s human lives4 ,i d 
n1 ( c\rse1 prop\nd x z lit]ally &      
precisely z x is "h set d[n--x is n a   
=eca/ ( ! future1 s mu* z a symbolis+ ( 
! =ces ( life--b ! r5ewal ( consci\s    
exp]i5ce1 9 "s =m or o!r1 seems to be ! 
only way out ( ! difficulty1 & x is t   
:i* is "h indicat$4 ,if life is a       
probation = ^? :o h to face exp]i5ce &  
temptation1 h[ c x be a probation =     
infants & *ildr51 :o die be=e ! faculty 
( moral *oice is develop$8 ,aga91 ,i f9d
 x v h>d to believe 9 any multiplication
 ( human s\ls4 ,x is ev5 m difficult =  
me to believe 9 ! creation ( new s\ls   
?an 9 ! creation ( new matt]4 ,sci5ce   
has %[n u t !re is no actual addition   
made to ! sum ( matt]1 & t ! app>5t     
creation ( new =ms ( plants or animals  
is no?+ m ?an a re>rangem5t ( exi/+     
p>ticles--t if a new =m appe>s 9 "o     
place1 x m]ely means t s mu* matt] is   

transf]r$ ?i!r f ano!r place4 ,i f9d x1 
,i say1 h>d to believe t ! sum total (  
life is actually increas$4 ,to put x v  
simply = ! sake ( cle>ness1 & accept+ ! 
assumption t human life _h "s "t a      
beg9n+ on ?is planet1 x seems impossible
 to ?9k t :51 let u say1 ! two fir/     
prog5itors ( ! race di$1 !re 7 b two    
s\ls 9 heav52 t :5 ! next g5]ation di$  
!re 71 let u say1 t5 s\ls 9 heav52 & t  
?is numb] has be5 add$ to by ?\s&s &    
millions1 until ! unse5 _w is peopl$1 z 
x mu/ be n[1 if no re9c>nation is       
possible1 by myriads ( human id5tities1 
:o1 aft] a s+le brief ta/e ( inc>nate   
life1 jo9 "s va/ community ( spirits 9  
:i* !y et]nally reside4 ,i d n say t ?is
 latt] belief may n be true2 ,i only say
 t 9 default ( evid5ce1 x seems to me a 
difficult fai? to hold2 :ile a          
re9c>nation ( spirits1 if "o c\ld       
believe x1 w\ld seem to me bo? to       
equalise ! inequalities ( human         
exp]i5ce1 & give "o a lively belief 9 ! 
virtue & wor? ( human endeav\r4 ,b all  

?is is set d[n1 z ,i say1 9 a t5tative &
 n 9 a philosophical =m4  ,& ,i h also 9
 ^! pages kept advis$ly cle> ( ,*ri/ian 
doctr9es & beliefs2 n because ,i d n    
believe :olehe>t$ly 9 ! div9e orig9 &   
unexhau/$ vitality ( ! ,*ri/ian         
revelation1 b because ,i d n int5d to   
lay ra% & pr(ane h&s ^u ! highe/ &      
holie/ ( my/]ies4  ,i w add "o ^w ab\t !
 g5esis ( ! book4 ,"s "t ago ,i wrote a 
numb] ( %ort tales ( an allegorical     
type4 ,x 0 a curi\s exp]i5ce4 ,i seem$  
to h come ^u !m 9 my m9d1 z "o comes ^u 
a covey ( birds 9 a field4 ,"o by "o !y 
took w+s & flew2 & :5 ,i _h f9i%$1 ?\gh 
,i 0 anxi\s to write m tales1 ,i c\ld n 
discov] any m1 ?\gh ,i beat ! cov]t     
pati5tly to dislodge !m4  ,?is p>ticul> 
tale rose unbidd5 9 my m9d4 ,i 0 nev]   
consci\s ( creat+ any ( its incid5ts4 ,x
 seem$ to be all !re f ! beg9n+2 & ,i   
felt ?r\gh\t l a man mak+ 8 way along a 
road1 & describ+ :at he sees z he goes4 
,! road /ret*$ ahead ( me2 ,i c\ld n see
 beyond ! next turn at any mom5t2 x j   

unroll$ itself inevitably &1 ,i w add1 v
 swiftly to my view1 & 0 ?us a /range & 
mom5t\s exp]i5ce4  ,i w only add t !    
book is all bas$ ^u an int5se belief 9  
,god1 & a no less int5se conviction (   
p]sonal immortality & p]sonal           
responsibility4 ,x aims at br++ out !   
fact t our life is a v real pilgrimage  
to high & f>-(f ?+s f mean & sordid     
beg9n+s1 & t ! key ( ! my/]y lies 9 !   
frank fac+ ( exp]i5ce1 z a bless$       
process by :i* ! secret purpose ( ,god  
is made kn[n to u2 &1 ev5 m1 9 a        
passionate belief 9 ,love1 ! love (     
fri5d & neighb\r1 & ! love ( ,god2 & 9 !
 absolute fai? t we are all ( u1 f !    
l[e/ & mo/ degrad$ human s\l to ! l(tie/
 & wise/1 knit toge!r ) *a9s ( inf9ite  
ne>ness & de>ness1 "u ,god1 & 9 ,him1 & 
?r\gh ,him1 n[ & h]eaft] & = ev]more4   
,a4,c4,b4  ,,! ,,old ,,lodge1 ,,magdal5e
 ,,college1 ,,cambridge1 ,janu>y1 #aiab4
     ,! ,*ild ( ! ,dawn     ,i          
,c]ta9ly ! la/ few mom5ts ( my =m]      
mat]ial1 worn-out life1 z ,i mu/ /ill   

call x1 7 made horrible en\gh = me4 ,i  
came to1 aft] ! op]ation1 9 a deadly    
sickness & gha/ly confusion ( ?\ght4 ,i 
0 j dimly consci\s ( ! trim1 b>e room1 !
 :ite b$1 a figure or two1 b ev]y?+ else
 0 swall[$ up 9 ! pa91 :i* fill$ all my 
s5ses at once4 ,yet surely1 ,i ?\ght1 x 
is all some?+ outside me8 444 my bra9   
began to w&]1 & ! pa9 became a ?+4 ,x 0 
a t[] ( /one1 high & blank1 ) a little  
s9i/] w9d[ high up1 f :i* some?+ 0 e n[ 
& !n wav$ above ! h\se-ro(s4444 ,! t[] 0
 gone 9 a mom5t1 & !re 0 a heap pil$ up 
on ! floor ( a great room ) op5 beams--a
 gran>y1 p]haps4 ,! heap 0 ( curv$ %>p  
/eel ?+s l sickles3 some?+ mov$ & mutt]$
 und]nea? x1 & blood ran out on ! floor4
 ,!n ,i 0 in/antly myself1 & ! pa9 0 )  
me aga92 & !n !re fell on me a s5se (   
fa9tness1 s t ! cold sweat-drops ran    
sudd5ly out on my br[4 ,!re came a smell
 ( drugs1 %>p & pung5t1 on ! air4 ,i    
he>d a door op5 s(tly1 & a voice said1  
,he is s9k+ fa/--!y mu/ be s5t = at     
once4 ,!n !re 7 m p 9 ! room1 p :om ,i  

?\ght ,i _h kn[n once1 long ago2 b ,i 0 
buri$ & cru%$ "u ! pa91 l ! ?+ b5ea? !  
heap ( sickles4 ,!re swept ov] me a     
dreadful fe>2 & ,i c\ld see t ! fe> 0   
reflect$ 9 ! faces above me2 b n[ !y 7  
/rangely di/ort$ & elongat$1 s t ,i c\ld
 h laugh$1 if only ,i _h _h ! "t2 b ,i  
_h to move ! weight (f me1 :i* 0 cru%+  
me4 ,!n a ro>+ s\nd began to come & g ^u
 ! air1 l\d] & l\d]1 fa/] & fa/]2 !     
/range pung5t sc5t came aga92 & !n ,i 0 
?ru/ d[n "u ! weight1 mon/r\s1          
insupportable2 fur!r & fur!r d[n2 & !re 
came a %>p bright /reak1 l a blade sev]+
 ! /r&s ( a rope drawn taut & t5se2     
ano!r & ano!r2 "o 0 left1 & ! blade drew
 ne>4444  ,i fell sudd5ly out ( ! s\nd &
 sc5t & pa9 into ! mo/ incr$ible &      
bless$ peace & sil5ce4 ,x w\ld h be5 l a
 sleep1 b ,i 0 /ill p]fectly consci\s1 )
 a s5se ( unutt]able & blissful fatigue2
 a picture pass$ be=e me1 ( a calm sea1 
( va/ dep? & cle>ness4 ,!re 7 cliffs at 
a little di/ance1 great headl&s & rocky 
spires4 ,i seem$ to myself to h left !m1

 to h come d[n ?r\gh !m1 to h emb>k$4   
,!re 0 a pale light ev]y:]e1 flu%$ )    
rose-col\r1 l ! light ( a summ] dawn2 & 
,i felt z ,i _h once felt z a *ild1     
awak5$ e>ly 9 ! little old h\se among ! 
or*>ds1 on a spr+ morn+2 ,i _h ris5 f my
 b$1 & lean+ out ( my w9d[1 fill$ ) a   
delightful wond]1 ,i _h se5 ! cool morn+
 quick5 into light among ! dewy         
apple-blossoms4 ,t 0 :at ,i felt l1 z ,i
 lay ^u ! mov+ tide1 glad to re/1 n     
wond]+ or hop+1 n fe>+ or expect+       
any?+--j !re1 & at peace4  ,!re seem$ to
 be no "t 9 t o!r bless$ morn+1 no ne$  
to d any?+4 ,! cliffs1 ,i did n "k h[1  
fad$ f me1 & ! b\ndless sea 0 ab\t me on
 e side2 b ,i _c describe ! timelessness
 ( x4 ,!re are no human words = x all1  
yet ,i mu/ speak ( x 9 t]ms ( "t &      
space1 because bo? "t & space 7 !re1    
?\gh ,i 0 n b\nd by !m4  ,& "h fir/ ,i w
 say a few words ab\t ! mann] ( spee* ,i
 %all use4 ,x is v h>d to make cle>1 b  
,i ?9k ,i c expla9 x 9 an image4 ,i once
 walk$ alone1 on a p]fect summ] day1 on 

! ,s\? ,d[ns4 ,! great smoo? %\ld]s ( ! 
hills lay left & "r1 &1 9 front ( me1 ! 
ri* tuft$ grass ran sudd5ly d[n to !    
pla91 :i* /ret*$ out be=e me l a map4 ,i
 saw ! fields & woods1 ! m9ute til$     
hamlet-ro(s1 ! :ite roads1 on :i* crawl$
 t9y c>ts4 ,a %eph]d1 f> bel[1 drove 8  
flock along a little deep-cut lane among
 high h$ges4 ,! s\nds ( e>? came fa9tly 
& sweetly up1 obscure s\nds ( :i* ,i    
c\ld n tell ! orig92 b ! t9kl+ (        
%eep-bells 0 ! cle>e/1 & ! b>k+ ( !     
%eph]d-dog4 ,my own dog sat beside me1  
wat*+ my face1 impati5t to be gone4 ,b  
at ! b>k+ he prick$ up 8 e>s1 put 8 head
 on "o side1 & wond]$1 ,i saw1 :]e t    
companionable s\nd came f4 ,:at he made 
( ! sc5e ,i d n "k2 ! sight ( ! fruitful
 e>?1 ! homes ( m51 ! fields & wat]s1   
fill$ me ) an inexpressible emotion1 a  
wide-flung hope1 a s5se ( ! imm5sity &  
intricacy ( life4 ,b to my dog x meant  
no?+ at all1 ?\gh he saw j :at ,i did4  
,to him x 0 no?+ b a great excavation 9 
! e>?1 pat*$ & /reak$ ) gre54 ,x 0 n !n 

! sc5e itself t ,i lov$2 t 0 only a     
symbol ( emotions & ideas )9 me4 ,x t\*$
 ! spr+ ( a ho/ ( beautiful ?\ghts2 b ! 
beauty & ! sweetness 7 ! contribution ( 
my own he>t & m9d4  ,n[ 9 ! new _w 9 :i*
 ,i f\nd myself1 ,i approa*$ ! ?\ghts ( 
beauty & lovel9ess direct1 )\t any      
int]v5+ symbols at all4 ,! emotions :i* 
beautiful ?+s _h ar\s$ 9 me ^u e>? 7 all
 !re1 9 ! new life1 b n confus$ or      
blurr$1 z !y _h be5 9 ! old life1 by !  
intrud+ symbols ( ugly1 pa9ful1 evil    
?+s4 ,t 0 all gone l a mi/4 ,i c\ld n   
?9k an evil or an ugly ?\ght4  ,= a     
p]iod x 0 s ) me4 ,= a long "t--,i w use
 ! words ( e>? h5ce=? )\t any           
explanation--,i abode 9 ! same calm1    
untr\bl$ peace1 p>tly 9 memory ( ! old  
days1 p>tly 9 ! new visions4 ,my s5ses  
seem$ all bl5d$ 9 "o s5se2 x 0 n sight  
or he>+ or t\*--x 0 b an in/ant         
appreh5sion ( ! ess5ce ( ?+s4 ,all t "t 
,i 0 absolutely alone1 ?\gh ,i _h a s5se
 ( be+ wat*$ & t5d$ 9 a sort ( helpless 
& happy infancy4 ,x 0 always ! quiet    

sea1 & ! dawn+ light4 ,i liv$ ov] !     
sc5es ( ! old life 9 a vague1 blissful  
memory4 ,= ! joy ( ! new life 0 t all t 
_h befall5 me _h a /range & p]fect      
significance4 ,i _h liv$ l o!r m54 ,i _h
 rejoic$1 toil$1 s*em$1 suff]$1 s9n$4 ,b
 x 0 all "o n[4 ,i saw t ea* influ5ce _h
 someh[ be5 %ap+ & m\ld+ me4 ,! evil ,i 
_h done1 0 x inde$ evil8 ,x _h be5 !    
fl[]+ ( a root ( bitt]ness1 ! impact (  
mat]ial =ces & influ5ces4 ,_h ,i ev]    
desir$ x8 ,n 9 my _s1 ,i n[ felt4 ,s9 _h
 br\ght me %ame & sorr[1 & !y _h done _!
 "w4 ,rep5tance1 contrition--ugly words6
 ,i laugh$ s(tly at ! ?\ght ( h[ diff]5t
 x all 0 f :at ,i _h dream$4 ,i 0 z !   
lo/ %eep f\nd1 z ! wayw>d son tak5 home2
 & %\ld ,i spoil my joy ) recall+ :at 0 
pa/ & done ) = ev]8 ,=giv5ess 0 n a     
process1 !n1 a ?+ to be su$ = & to be   
)held2 x 0 all involv$ 9 ! glad return  
to ! brea/ ( ,god4  ,:at 0 ! my/]y1 !n8 
,! ?+s t ,i _h wr\ght1 ignoble1 cruel1  
base1 mean1 selfi%--_h ,i ev] will$ to d
 !m8 ,x seem$ impossible1 incr$ible4 ,7 

^? griev\s ?+s /ill gr[+1 se$+1 fl[]+ 9 
o!r lives left beh9d8 ,_h !y invad$1    
corrupt$1 hurt o!r poor wills & lives8  
,i c\ld ?9k ( !m no long]1 any m ?an ,i 
c\ld ?9k ( ! wrongs done to myself4 ,^? 
_h n hurt me ei!r4 ,p]haps ,i _h /ill to
 suff]1 b ,i c\ld n ?9k ( t4 ,i 0 too   
mu* ov]:elm$ ) joy4 ,! :ole ?+ seem$ s  
inf9itely little & f> away4 ,s = a "t ,i
 float$ on ! mov+ cry/al ( ! transluc5t 
sea1 ov] ! glimm]+ deeps1 ! dawn above  
me1 ! sc5es ( ! old life gr[+ & %ap+    
!mselves & fad+ )\t any w ( my own1 no?+
 )9 or )\t me b ineffable peace & p]fect
 joy4     ,,ii   ,i knew q well :at _h  
happ5$ to me2 t ,i _h pass$ ?r\gh :at   
mortals call ,dea?3 & two ?\ghts came to
 me2 "o 0 ?is4 ,!re _h be5 times on e>? 
:5 "o _h felt sure ) a sort ( deep      
in/9ct t "o c\ld n really ev] die2 yet  
!re _h be5 h\rs ( we>9ess & despair :5  
"o _h wond]$ :e!r dea? w\ld n mean a    
sil5t blankness4 ,t ?\ght _h tr\bl$ me  
mo/1 :5 ,i _h foll[$ to ! grave "s fri5d
 or "s belov$4 ,! m\ld]+ =m1 %ut into ! 

n>r[ box1 0 ?ru/ ) a s5se ( %ame &      
disgrace into ! clay1 & no ^w or sign   
return$ to %[ t ! _s liv$ on1 or t "o   
w\ld ev] f9d t de> proximity aga94 ,h[  
fooli% x seem$ n[ ev] to h d\bt$1 ev] to
 h be5 tr\bl$6 ,( c\rse x 0 all et]nal &
 ev]la/+4 ,& !n1 too1 came a second     
?\ght4 ,"o _h le>n$ 9 life1 alas1 s (t5 
to sep>ate :at 0 holy & sacr$ f daily   
life2 !re 7 pray]s1 liturgies1 religi\s 
ex]cises1 solemnities1 ,sabba?s--an     
oppressive /ra91 too (t51 & a bani%+ (  
active life4 ,br\ght up z "o _h be51 !re
 _h be5 a m\rnful ov]%ad[+ ( ?\ght1 t   
aft] dea?1 & ) ,god1 x w\ld be all grave
 & con/ra9$ & s]i\s1 a p]petual liturgy1
 an un5d+ ,sabba?4 ,b n[ all 0          
delici\sly m]g$ toge!r4 ,all ( beautiful
 & graci\s t !re _h be5 9 religion1 all 
( joyful & animat$ & eag] t !re _h be5 9
 secul> life1 ev]y?+ t amus$1 int]e/$1  
excit$1 all f9e pictures1 great poems1  
lovely sc5es1 intrepid ?\ghts1 ex]cise1 
"w1 je/s1 laught]1 p]ceptions1          
fancies--!y 7 all "o n[2 only sorr[ &   

we>9ess & dulness & ugl9ess & gre$9ess 7
 gone4 ,! ?\ght 0 fre%1 pure1 delicate1 
full ( a great & mir?ful cont5t4  ,!re 7
 no divisions ( "t 9 my great peace2    
pa/1 pres5t1 & future 7 alike all m]g$4 
,h[ c ,i expla9 t8 ,x seems s           
impossible1 hav+ once se5 x1 t x %\ld be
 o!rwise4 ,! day did n broad5 to ! noon1
 nor fade to ev5+4 ,!re 0 no night !re4 
,m ?an t4 ,9 ! o!r life1 ! d>k l[-hung  
days1 "o seem$ to h liv$ s little1 &    
always to h be5 mak+ arrangem5ts to     
live2 s mu* "t sp5t 9 plans & s*emes1 9 
alt]ations & regrets4 ,!re 0 ?is to be  
done & t to be complet$2 "o ?+ to be    
begun1 ano!r to be cle>$ away2 always 9 
se>* ( ! peace :i* "o nev] f\nd2 & if "o
 did a*ieve x1 !n x 0 surr\nd$1 l "s ca/
 c>rion1 by a cl\d ( poison\s ?\ghts1 l 
buzz+ blue-flies4 ,n[ at la/ "o liv$    
inde$2 b !re grew up 9 ! s\l1 v         
gradually & sweetly1 ! s5se t "o 0 re/+1
 gr[+ accu/om$ to some?+1 le>n+ ! ways (
 ! new place4 ,i became m & m aw>e t ,i 
0 n alone2 x 0 n t ,i met1 or enc\nt]$1 

or 0 def9itely consci\s ( any ?\ght t 0 
n my own2 b !re 7 motions z ( great w9ds
 9 ! untr\bl$ calm 9 :i* ,i lay1 ( va/  
deeps draw+ pa/ me4 ,!re 7 hov]+s &     
pois+s ( unse5 creatures1 :i* gave me   
nei!r awe nor surprise1 because !y 7 n 9
 ! range ( my ?\ght z yet2 b x 0 en\gh  
to %[ me t ,i 0 n alone1 t !re 0 life   
ab\t me1 purposes go+ =w>d1 high        
activities4  ,! fir/ "t ,i exp]i5c$     
any?+ m def9ite 0 :5 sudd5ly ,i became  
aw>e ( a great cry/all9e globe t rose l 
a bubble out ( ! sea4 ,x 0 ( an         
incr$ible va/ness2 b ,i 0 consci\s t ,i 
did n p]ceive x z ,i _h p]ceiv$ ?+s ^u !
 e>?1 b t ,i appreh5d$ x all toge!r1 )9 
& )\t4 ,x rose s(tly & swiftly out ( !  
expanse4 ,! surface ( x 0 all alive4 ,x 
_h seas & cont95ts1 hills & valleys1    
woods & fields1 l our own e>?4 ,!re 7   
cities & h\ses ?rong$ ) liv+ be+s2 x 0 a
 _w l our own1 & yet !re 0 h>dly a =m ^u
 x t resembl$ any e>?ly =m1 ?\gh all 7  
articulate & def9ite1 rang+ f gr[?s :i* 
,i knew to be vegetable1 ) a dumb &     

sightless life ( _! own1 up to be+s (   
intellig5ce & purpose4 ,x 0 a _w1 9     
fact1 on :i* a hi/ory l t ( our own _w 0
 work+ itself out2 b ! :ole 0 ( a       
cry/all9e texture1 if texture x c be    
call$2 !re 0 no col\r or solidity1 no?+ 
b =m & sil5ce1 & ,i realis$ t ,i saw1 if
 n mat]ially yet 9 ?\ght1 & recognis$   
!n1 t all ! qualities ( matt]1 ! s\nds1 
! col\rs1 ! sc5ts--all t dep5ds ^u      
mat]ial vibration--7 ab/ract$ f x2 :ile 
=m1 ( :i* ! idea exi/s 9 ! m9d ap>t f   
all concrete manife/ations1 0 /ill      
pres5t4 ,= "s "t aft] t1 a s]ies ( ^!   
cry/all9e globes pass$ ?r\gh ! atmosph]e
 :]e ,i dwelt1 "s ne>1 "s f>2 & ,i saw 9
 an in/ant1 9 ea* case1 ! life & hi/ory 
( ea*4 ,"s 7 /ill all aflame1 m]e       
curr5ts ( molt5 heat & fly+ vap\r4 ,"s  
_h ! fir/ signs ( rudim5t>y life--"s1   
aga91 _h a full & organis$ life1 su* z  
ours on e>?1 ) a cla% ( nations1 a /ream
 ( comm]ce1 a p]fect+ ( k4 ,o!rs 7 gr[+ 
cold1 & ! life ^u !m 0 artificial &     
/range1 only a*iev$ by a highly         

intellectual & noble race1 ) an         
extraord9>y comm& ( natural =ces1 fight+
 9 wond]fully con/ruct$ & gu>d$ dwell+s 
aga9/ ! gr[+ dea?l9ess ( a froz5 _w1 & )
 a tortur$ despair 9 _! m9ds at !       
ext9ction :i* ?reat5$ !m4 ,!re 7 o!rs1  
aga91 :i* 7 froz5 & dead1 :]e ! drift+  
sn[ pil$ itself up ov] ! gigantic &     
pa!tic contrivances ( a race liv+       
und]gr\nd1 ) huge v5ts & *imneys1 burr[+
 fur!r into ! e>? 9 se>* ( %elt]1 &     
nurtur+ life by amaz+ processes :i* ,i  
_c "h describe4 ,!y 7 m>vell\sly wise1  
^? pale & %ad[y creatures1 ) a vitality 
inf9itely ahead ( our own1 a vitality   
out ( :i* all weakly or diseas$ elem5ts 
_h long be5 elim9at$4 ,& aga9 !re 7     
globes ^u :i* all seem$ dead & froz5 to 
! core1 slipp+ onw>ds 9 "s inf9ite      
progress4 ,b ?\gh ,i saw life "u a      
myriad ( new conditions1 & ) an endless 
v>iety ( =ms1 ! nature ( x 0 ! same z   
ours4 ,!re 0 ! same ignorance ( !       
future1 ! same d\bts & unc]ta9ties1 !   
same pa!tic lean+ ( he>t to he>t1 ! same

 wi/ful desire aft] p]man5ce & happ9ess1
 :i* c\ld n be !re or s atta9$4  ,!n1   
too1 ,i saw wild eddies ( matt] tak+    
%ape1 ( a subtlety t is z f> beyond any 
kn[n e>?ly conditions ( matt] z /eam is 
above froz5 /one4 ,great tornadoes :irl$
 & pois$2 globes ( sp9n+ fire flew (f on
 di/ant err&s ( _! own1 z :5 ! heav5s 7 
made2 & ,i saw1 too1 ! cra% ( _w ) _w1  
:5 satellites t _h lo/ _! impetus droop$
 inw>ds ^u "s c5tral sun1 & m]g$        
!mselves at la/ ) a titanic leap4 ,all  
?is enact$ itself be=e me1 :ile life    
itself flew l a pulse f sy/em to sy/em1 
nev] dim9i%$1 nev] increas$1 )drawn f "o
 to settle on ano!r4 ,all ?is ,i saw &  
knew4     ,,iii   ,i ?\ght ,i c\ld nev] 
be satiat$ by ?is inf9ite procession (  
wond]s4 ,b at la/ !re rose 9 my m9d1 l a
 ris+ />1 ! ne$ to be alone no long]4 ,i
 0 pass+ ?r\gh a k9d ( heav5ly infancy2 
& j z a day comes :5 a *ild puts out a  
h& ) a consci\s int5tion1 n m]ely a bl9d
 grop+1 b ) a ne$ to clasp & c>ess1 or  
answ]s a smile by a smile1 a ^w by a    

purposeful cry1 s 9 a mom5t ,i 0 aw>e ( 
"s "o ) me & ne> me1 ) a he>t & a nature
 t lean$ to m9e & _h ne$ ( me1 z ,i (   
him4 ,i knew him to be "o :o _h liv$ z  
,i _h liv$1 on ! e>? t 0 ours1--liv$ _m 
lives1 inde$2 & x 0 !n fir/ t ,i became 
aw>e t ,i _h myself liv$ _m lives too4  
,my human life1 :i* ,i _h la/ left1 0 ! 
fulle/ & cle>e/ ( all my exi/5ces2 b !y 
_h be5 _m & v>i\s1 ?\gh always          
progressive4 ,i mu/ n n[ tell ( ! /range
 life hi/ories t _h enfold$ me--!y _h   
ris5 9 dignity & wor? f a life f> back1 
unimag9ably elem5t>y & in/9ctive2 b ,i  
felt 9 a mom5t t my new fri5d's life _h 
be5 f> ri*] & m p]fect ?an my own1 ?\gh 
,i saw t !re 7 /ill exp]i5ces ahead (   
bo? ( u2 b n yet4 ,i may describe 8     
pres5ce 9 human similitudes1 a pres5ce  
p]fectly def9$1 ?\gh appreh5d$ ) no     
human sight4 ,he bore a "n :i* describ$ 
some?+ cle>1 /rong1 full ( =ce1 & yet   
g5tle ( access1 l wat]4 ,x 0 j t2 a ?+  
p]fectly pure & p]vad+1 :i* c\ld be /a9$
 & tr\bl$1 & yet c\ld reta9 no defilem5t

 or agitation2 :i* a *ild c\ld scatt] & 
divide1 & yet 0 absolutely p[]ful &     
insup]able4 ,i w call him ,amro?4 ,him1 
,i say1 because ?\gh !re 0 no ?\ght (   
sex left 9 my consci\sness1 8 0 a       
c\rage\s1 inv5tive1 ma/]ful _s1 :i* gave
 r ?an receiv$1 & 0 )al ( a p]fect      
k9dness & directness1 love undefil$ &   
/rong4 ,! mom5t ,i became aw>e ( 8      
pres5ce1 ,i felt him to be l "o ( ^?    
wond]ful1 pure y\?s ( an ,italian       
picture1 ^: :ole m9d is set on manful   
?+s1 untr\bl$ by ! love ( woman1 & yet  
f9d+ all ! _w int5sely graci\s &        
beautiful1 full ( eag] frankness1 ev5   
impati5ce1 ) long1 slim1 /raight limbs &
 close-curl$ hair4 ,i knew him to be !  
sort ( be+ t pa9t]s & poets _h be5 feel+
 aft] :5 !y repres5t$ or spoke ( angels4
 ,& ,i c\ld n help laugh+ outright at ! 
?\ght ( ! meek1 mild1 /atuesque drap$   
figures1 ) absurd w+s & depress+ smiles1
 t encumb]$ pictures & *ur*es1 ) :om no 
human communication w\ld be possible1 & 
^: grave & discomfit+ glance w\ld be    

fatal to all ease or m]rim5t4 ,i        
recognis$ 9 ,amro? a mir?ful s\l1 full (
 hum\r & laught]1 :o c\ld n be %ock$ by 
any tru?1 or hold any?+ uncom=tably     
sacr$--?\gh inde$ he held all ?+s sacr$ 
) a k9d ( eag]ness t *>m$ me4 ,in/ead ( 
meet+ him 9 dolor\s pieti/ic mood1 ,i   
met him1 ,i rememb]1 z at s*ool or      
college "o sudd5ly met a frank1 smil+1  
high-spirit$ y\? or boy1 :o 0 ready at  
once to take comrade%ip = grant$1 &     
walk$ away ) "o f a ga!r+1 ) an outru% (
 talk & plans = fur!r meet+s4 ,x 0 all s
 utt]ly unlike ! subdu$ & cauti\s &     
s5sitive atmosph]e ( devotion t x /irr$ 
u bo?1 ,i 0 aw>e1 to a delici\s k9d (   
laught]4 ,& !n came a swift int]*ange ( 
?\ght1 :i* ,i mu/ try to repres5t by    
spee*1 ?\gh spee* 0 none4  ,i am glad to
 f9d y1 ,amro?1 ,i said4 ,i 0 j beg9n+  
to wond] if ,i 0 n go+ to be lonely4    
,ah1 he said1 "o has :at "o desires "h2 
y _h too mu* to see & le>n at fir/ to   
want my company4 ,& yet ,i h be5 ) y1   
po9t+ out a ?\s& ?+s1 ev] s9ce y came   

"h4  ,0 x y1 ,i said1 t h be5 %[+ me all
 ?is8 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 alone4  ,at :i*     
,amro? laugh$ aga91 a laugh full (      
cont5t4 ,yes1 he said1 ! crags & !      
sunset--d y n rememb]8 ,i came d[n ) y1 
c>ry+ y l a *ild 9 my arms1 :ile y      
slept2 & !n ,i saw y awake4 ,y _h to re/
 a long "t at fir/2 y _h _h mu* to      
be>--unc]ta9ty--t is :at tires "o1 ev5 m
 ?an pa94 ,& ,i h be5 tell+ y ?+s ev]   
s9ce1 :5 y c\ld li/54  ,oh1 ,i said1 ,i 
h a hundr$ ?+s to ask y2 h[ /range x is 
to see s mu* & und]/& s little6  ,ask   
away1 said ,amro?1 putt+ an arm ?r\gh   
m9e4  ,i 0 afraid1 ,i said1 t x w\ld all
 be s diff]5t--l a cate*ism ',do/ ?\    
believe--is ?is ?y desire8' ,b in/ead x 
seems s entirely natural & simple6  ,ah1
 he said1 t is h[ we bewild] ourselves  
on e>?4 ,:y1 x is h>d to say6 ,b all !  
real ?+s rema94 ,x is all j z surpris+ &
 int]e/+ & amus+ & curi\s z x ev] 03 !  
only ?+s t are gone--= a "t1 t is--are !
 ?+s t are ugly & sad4 ,b !y are useful 
too 9 _! way1 ?\gh y h no ne$ to ?9k (  

!m n[4 ,^? are j ! discipl9e1 ! tra9+4  
,b1 ,i said1 :at makes p s diff]5t f ea*
 o!r d[n !re--s _m p :o are sordid1     
grubby1 qu>relsome1 cruel1 selfi%1      
spiteful8 ,only a few :o are bold &     
k9d--l y1 = in/ance8  ,no1 he said1     
answ]+ ! ?\ght t rose 9 my m9d1 ( c\rse 
,i don't m9d--,i l complim5ts z well z  
ev]1 if !y come naturally6 ,b don't y   
see t all ! little poky1 s5sual1 mean1  
disgu/+ lives are simply ^? ( spirits   
/ruggl+ to be free2 we beg9 by be+      
en*a9$ by matt] at fir/1 & !n ! /ream   
runs cle>]4 ,! div9e ?+s are imag9ation 
& sympa?y4 ,t is ! secret4     ,,iv     
,once ,i said3  ,:i* k9d ( p d y f9d x  
h>de/ to help along8  ,! "y p1 said     
,amro?1 ) a smile4  ,y\?6 ,i said4 ,:y1 
d[n bel[1 we ?9k ( y\? z be+ s g5]\s &  
ard5t & imitative6 ,we speak ( y\? z !  
"t to le>n1 & =m f9e habits2 if a man is
 wilful & selfi% 9 aft]-life1 we say t x
 0 because he 0 too mu* indulg$ 9       
*ildhood--& we atta* great importance to
 ! impressions ( y\?4  ,t is q "r1 said 

,amro?1 because ! impressions ( y\? are 
swift & ke52 b ( c\rse1 "h1 age is n a  
"q ( ye>s or fail+ p[]s4 ,! old1 "h1 are
 ! wise & graci\s & pati5t & g5tle2 !   
y\? ( ! _s is /upidity &                
unimag9ativ5ess4 ,on ! "o h& are ! /olid
 & placid1 & on ! o!r are ! brutal &    
cruel & selfi% & unre/ra9$4  ,y confuse 
me greatly1 ,i said2 surely y d n mean t
 spiritual life & progress are a matt] (
 intellectual en]gy8  ,no1 n at all1    
said he2 ! s-call$ intellectual p are   
(t5 ! mo/ /upid & y\nge/ ( all4 ,!      
intellect c\nts = no?+3 t is only a k9d 
( dext]ity1 a pretty game4 ,! imag9ation
 is :at matt]s4  ,worse & worse6 ,i     
said4 ,does salvation belong to poets & 
noveli/s8  ,no1 no1 said ,amro?1 t is a 
game too6 ,! imag9ation ,i speak ( is ! 
p[] ( ent]+ into o!r p's m9ds & he>ts1 (
 putt+ y\rself 9 _! place--( lov+ !m1 9 
fact4 ,! m y "k ( p1 ! bett] *ance !re  
is ( lov+ !m2 & y c only f9d y\r way    
into _! m9ds by imag9ative sympa?y4 ,i w
 tell y a /ory :i* w %[ y :at ,i mean4  

,!re 0 once a fam\s writ] on e>?1 ( ^:  
wisdom p spoke ) bat$ brea?4 ,m5 w5t to 
see him ) fe> & rev]5ce1 & came away1   
say+1 ',h[ wond]ful6' ,& ?is man1 9 8   
age1 0 wait$ ^u by a little maid1 an    
ugly1 tir$1 t9y creature4 ,p us$ to say 
t !y wond]$ he _h n a bett] s]vant4 ,b  
%e knew all t he lik$ & want$1 :]e 8    
books & pap]s 71 :at 0 good = him to d4 
,%e did n und]/& a ^w ( :at he said1 b  
%e knew bo? :5 he _h talk$ too mu*1 & :5
 he _h n talk$ en\gh1 s t 8 m9d 0 p5t up
 9 itself1 & he became cross & fracti\s4
 ,n[1 9 reality1 ! little maid 0 "o ( ! 
olde/ & mo/ beautiful ( spirits4 ,%e _h 
liv$ _m lives1 ea* app>5tly humbl] ?an !
 la/4 ,%e nev] grumbl$ ab\t h] "w1 or   
want$ to amuse h]self4 ,%e lov$ ! silly 
flies t d>t$ ab\t h] kit*51 or bru%$ _! 
black heads on ! ceil+2 %e lov$ ! ivy   
t5drils t tapp$ on h] w9d[ 9 ! breeze4  
,%e did n g to *ur*1 %e _h no "t = t2 or
 if %e _h gone1 %e w\ld n h und]/ood :at
 0 said1 ?\gh %e w\ld h lov$ all ! p    
!re1 & notic$ h[ !y look$ & sang4 ,b !  

wise man himself 0 "o ( ! y\nge/ &      
/upide/ ( spirits1 s "y & /upid t he _h 
to h a v old & wise _s to look aft] him4
 ,he 0 eat5 up ) ideas & vanity1 s t he 
_h no "t to look at any "o or ?9k (     
anybody1 unless !y prais$ him4 ,he has a
 v long pilgrimage be=e him1 ?\gh he    
wrote pretty songs en\gh1 & 8 mortal    
body1 or "o ( !m1 lies 9 ! ,poets'      
,corn] ( ! ,abbey1 & p come & put wrea?s
 !re ) te>s 9 _! eyes4  ,x is v         
bewild]+1 ,i said1 b ,i see a little m  
?an ,i did4 ,x is all a matt] ( feel+1  
!n8 ,b x seems h>d on p t !y %\ld be s  
dull & /upid ab\t x all1--t ! tru? %\ld 
lie s close to _! h& & yet be s c>efully
 conceal$4  ,oh1 !y gr[ out ( dulness6  
he said1 ) a movem5t ( 8 h&2 t is :at   
exp]i5ce does = u--x is always go+ on2  
we get wid5$ & deep5$4 ,:y1 he add$1 ,i 
h se5 a great man1 z !y call$ him1 clev]
 & al]t1 :o held a high position 9 !    
,/ate4 ,he 0 laid aside by a long &     
pa9ful illness1 s t all 8 "w 0 put away4
 ,he 0 brave ab\t x1 too1 ,i rememb]2 b 

he us$ to ?9k to himself h[ sad &       
wa/eful x 01 t :5 he 0 mo/ en]getic &   
capable he %\ld be put on ! %elf--all ! 
f9e "w he might h done int]rupt$2 all ! 
great spee*es he w\ld h made unutt]$4 ,b
 z a matt] ( fact1 he 0 !n = ! fir/ "t  
gr[+ fa/1 because he _h to look into !  
m9ds & he>ts ( all sorr[ful & disappo9t$
 p1 & to le>n t :at we d matt]s s       
little1 & t :at we are matt]s s mu*4 ,:5
 he did at la/ get back to ! _w1 p said1
 ',:at a sad pity to see s f9e a c>e]   
spoilt6' ,b out ( all ! ye>s ( all 8    
lives1 ^? ye>s _h be5 8 v be/ & ri*e/1  
:5 he sat half ! day feeble 9 ! sun1 &  
c\ld n ev5 look at ! pap]s :i* lay      
beside him1 or :5 he woke 9 ! grey      
morn+s1 ) ! ?\ght ( ano!r mis]able day (
 idl5ess & pa9 be=e him4  ,i said1 ,!n  
is x a bad ?+ to be busy 9 ! _w1 because
 x takes (f y\r m9d f ! ?+s :i* matt]8  
,no1 said ,amro?1 n a bad ?+ at all3    
because two ?+s are go+ on4 ,p>tly !    
framework ( society & life is be+ made1 
s t m5 are n gr\nd d[n into t sordid    

/ruggle1 :5 little exp]i5ce is possible 
because ( ! drudg]y :i* cl\ds all ! m9d4
 ,?\gh ev5 t has its opportunities6 ,&  
all dep5ds1 = ! individual1 ^u h[ he is 
do+ 8 "w4 ,if he has o!r p 9 m9d all !  
"t1 & does 8 "w = !m1 & n to be prais$ =
 x1 !n all is well4 ,b if he is ?9k+ ( 8
 cr$it & 8 position1 !n he does n gr[ at
 all2 t is pomposity--a v y\?ful ?+     
inde$2 b ! wor/ case ( all is if a man  
sees t ! _w mu/ be help$ & made1 & t "o 
c w9 cr$it ?us1 & s engages 9 "w ( t    
k9d1 & deals 9 all ! j>gon ( x1 ab\t us+
 influ5ce & liv+ = o!rs1 :5 he is really
 ?9k+ ( himself all ! "t1 & try+ to keep
 ! eyes ( ! _w ^u him4 ,b x is all gr[? 
really1 ?\gh sometimes1 z on ! bea* :5 !
 tide is com+ 91 ! waves seem to draw   
backw>d f ! l&1 & poise !mselves 9 a    
cre/ ( tr\bl$ wat]4  ,b is a great      
position 9 ! _w1 ,i said1 :e!r inh]it$  
or atta9$1 a dang]\s ?+8  ,no?+ is      
dang]\s1 *ild1 he said4 ,y mu/ put all t
 out ( y\r m9d4 ,b m5 9 high po/s &     
/ations are (t5 n progress+ ev5ly1 only 

9 great jogs & />ts4 ,!y le>n v (t51 ) a
 sudd5 surprise1 :i* is n always pa9ful1
 & sometimes is v beautiful & sweet1 t  
all ! c]emony & pomp1 ! great h\se1 !   
b[s & ! smiles1 mean no?+ at            
all--absolutely no?+1 except ! *ance1 ! 
opportunity ( n be+ tak5 9 by !m4 ,t is 
! use ( all pleasures & all             
satisfactions--! frame ( m9d :i* made ! 
old k+ say1 ',is n ?is great ,babylon1  
:i* ,i h build$8'--!y are no?+ b ! "w ( 
ano!r class 9 ! great s*ool ( life4 ,a  
great _m p are put to s*ool )           
self-satisfaction1 t !y may "k ! f9e joy
 ( humiliation1 ! delight ( le>n+ t x is
 n effectiv5ess & applause t matt]s1 b  
love & peacefulness4 ,& ! great ?+ is t 
we %\ld feel t we are gr[+1 n 9 h>dness 
or indiff]5ce1 nor necess>ily ev5 9     
c\rage or pati5ce1 b 9 our p[] to feel &
 our p[] to suff]4 ,z love multiplies1  
suff]+ mu/ multiply too4 ,! v ,he>t (   
,god is full ( inf9ite1 joyful1 hopeful 
suff]+2 ! :ole ?+ is s va/1 s sl[1 s    
quiet1 t ! end ( suff]+ is yet f> (f4 ,b

 :5 we suff]1 we climb fa/2 ! _s gr[s   
old & wise 9 fai? & love2 & suff]+ is ! 
"o ?+ we _c disp5se )1 because x is !   
condition ( our fulle/ & pure/ life4    
,v   ,i said sudd5ly1 ,! joy ( ?is place
 is n ! security ( x1 b ! fact t "o has 
n to ?9k ab\t security4 ,i am n afraid (
 any?+ t may happ51 & !re is no we>9ess 
( ?\ght4 ,"o does n ?9k till "o is tir$1
 b till "o has f9i%$ ?9k+4  ,yes1 said  
,amro?1 t 0 ! mis]y ( ! poor body6  ,&  
yet ,i us$ to ?9k1 ,i said1 9 ! old days
 t ,i 0 grateful to ! body = _m pleasant
 ?+s x gave me--brea?+ ! air1 feel+ !   
sun1 eat+ & dr9k+1 games & ex]cise1 & ! 
/range ?+ "o call$ love4  ,yes1 said    
,amro?1 all ^? ?+s h to be made         
pleasant1 or to appe> s2 o!rwise no "o  
c\ld submit to ! discipl9e at all2 b (  
c\rse ! pleasure only got 9 ! way ( !   
?\ght & ( ! happ9ess2 x 0 n :at "o saw1 
ta/$1 smelt1 felt1 t "o desir$1 b ! real
 ?+ beh9d x2 ev5 ! pure/ ?+ ( all1 !    
sight & contact ( "o :om "o lov$1 let u 
say1 ) no s5sual passion at all1 b ) a  

p]fectly pure love2 :at a torm5t t      
0--desir+ some?+ :i* "o c\ld n get1 !   
real fusion ( feel+ & ?\ght6 ,b ! poor  
body 0 always 9 ! way !n1 say+1 ',"h am 
,i--please me1 amuse me4'  ,b !n1 ,i    
said1 :at is ! use ( all t8 ,:y %\ld !  
pure1 cle>1 joyful1 sleepless life ,i n[
 feel be ta9t$ & hamp]$ & drugg$ by !   
body8 ,i don't feel t ,i am los+ any?+  
by los+ ! body4  ,no1 n los+1 said      
,amro?1 b1 happy ?\gh y are1 y are n    
ga9+ ?+s z fa/ n[--x is y\r "t ( re/ &  
refre%m5t--b we %all g back1 bo? ( u1 to
 ! o!r life aga91 :5 ! "t comes3 & !    
po9t is ?is1 t we h got to w9 ! be/ ?+s 
?r\gh tr\ble & /ruggle4  ,b ev5 s1 ,i   
said1 !re are _m ?+s ,i d n und]/&--!   
*ild t op5s its eyes ^u ! _w & closes !m
 aga92 ! "y *ild t suff]s & dies1 j :5 x
 is ! d>l+ ( ! home2 & at ! o!r end ( ! 
scale1 ! helpless1 fracti\s invalid1 or 
! old man :o lives 9 we>9ess1 wakeful & 
tortur$1 & :o is glad j to sit 9 ! sun1 
indiff]5t to e "o & ev]y?+1 pa/ feel+ & 
hop+ & ?9k+--or1 wor/ ( all1 ! p )      

diseas$ m9ds1 ^: pa9 makes !m suspici\s 
& malignant4 ,:at is ! mean+ ( all ?is  
pa91 :i* seems to d p no?+ b h>m1 &     
makes !m a burd5 to !mselves & o!rs too8
  ,oh1 said he1 x is difficult en\gh2 b 
y mu/ rememb] t we are all b\nd up ) !  
he>ts & lives ( o!rs2 ! *ild t dies 9   
its helplessness has a mean+ = its      
p>5ts2 ! *ild t lives long en\gh to be !
 light ( its home1 t has a significance 
deep en\gh2 & all ^? :o h to t5d & c>e =
 ! sick1 to light5 ! burd5 & ! sorr[ =  
!m1 t has a mean+ surely = all conc]n$8 
,! reason :y we feel z we d ab\t brok5  
lives1 :y !y seem s utt]ly purposeless1 
is because we h ! proportion s wrong4   
,we d n really1 9 fact1 believe 9       
immortality1 :5 we are b\nd 9 ! body--"s
 few ( u d1 & _m ( u say t we d4 ,b we d
 n realise t ! little life is b "o 9 a  
great *a9 ( lives1 t ea* _s lives _m    
times1 ov] & ov]4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z   
wa/e or sacrifice ( life4 ,! life is    
meant to d j :at x does1 no m & no less2
 b\nd 9 ! body1 x all seems s long or s 

%ort1 s complete or s incomplete2 b n[ &
 "h we c see t ! :ole ?+ is s endless1 s
 imm5se1 t we ?9k no m ( ent]+ life1    
say1 = a few days1 or ent]+ x = n9ety   
ye>s1 ?an we %\ld ?9k ( c\nt+ "o or     
n9ety wat]-drops 9 ! riv] t p\rs 9 a    
cat>act ov] ! lip ( ! rocks4 ,:]e we d  
lose1 9 life1 is 9 n tak+ ! p>ticul>    
exp]i5ce1 be x small or great1 to he>t4 
,we try to =get ?+s1 to put !m out ( our
 m9ds1 to bani% !m4 ,( c\rse x is v h>d 
to d o!rwise1 9 a body s f9ite1 toss$ & 
:irl$ 9 a /ream s inf9ite2 & ?us we are 
happie/ if we c live v simply & quietly1
 n /ra9+ to multiply our uneasy         
activities1 b j gett+ ! mo/ & ! be/ out 
( ! elem5ts ( life z !y come to u4 ,z we
 get old] 9 _s1 we d t naturally2 ! ?+s 
t m5 call ambitions & s*emes are ! signs
 ( immaturity2 & :5 we gr[ old]1 ^? slip
 (f u & conc]n u no m2 :ile ! real      
vitality ( feel+ & emotion runs ev] m   
cle> & /rong4  ,b1 ,i said1 c "o revive 
! old lives at w8 ,c "o look back into !
 long range ( previ\s lives8 ,is t      

p]mitt$8  ,yes1 ( c\rse x is p]mitt$1   
said ,amro?1 smil+2 !re are no rules "h2
 b "o does n c>e to d x ov]mu*4 ,"o is j
 glad x is all done1 & t "o has le>nt ! 
lesson4 ,look back if y l--!re are all !
 lives beh9d y4  ,i _h a curi\s         
s5sation--,i saw myself sudd5ly a /alw>t
 savage1 /rangely attir$ = w>1 ne> a hut
 9 a =e/ cle>+4 ,i 0 go+ away some:]e2  
!re 7 o!r huts at h&2 !re 0 a fire1 9 ! 
side ( a m\nd1 :]e "s wom5 seem$ to be  
cook+ some?+ & wrangl+ ov] x2 ! smoke   
w5t up into ! /ill air4 ,a *ild came out
 ( ! hut1 & ran to me4 ,i b5t d[n &     
kiss$ x1 & x clung to me4 ,i 0 sorry1 9 
a dim way1 to be go+ out--= ,i saw o!r  
figures arm$ too1 /&+ ab\t ! cle>+4 ,!re
 0 to be fight+ t day1 & ?\gh ,i wi%$ to
 fight1 ,i ?\ght ,i might n return4 ,b !
 m9d ( myself1 z ,i disc]n$ x1 0 full ( 
hurtful1 cruel1 rapaci\s ?\ghts1 & ,i 0 
sad to ?9k t ?is c\ld ev] h be5 ,i4  ,x 
is n v nice1 said ,amro? ) a smile2 "o  
does n c>e to revive t6 ,y 7 "y !n1 & _h
 mu* be=e y4  ,ano!r picture fla%$ into 

! m9d4 ,0 x true8 ,i 0 a woman1 x seem$1
 look+ out ( a w9d[ on ! /reet 9 a t[n )
 high1 d>k h\ses1 /rongly built ( /one3 
!re 0 a t[]$ gate at a little di/ance1 )
 "s figures draw+ up sacks ) a pulley to
 a door 9 ! gate4 ,a man came up beh9d  
me1 pull$ me r\ghly back1 & spoke       
angrily2 ,i answ]$ him fi]cely & %rilly4
 ,! room ,i 0 9 seem$ to be a %op or    
/ore2 !re 7 b>rels ( w9e1 & bags ( corn4
 ,i felt t ,i 0 busy & anxi\s--x 0 n a  
pleasant retrospect4  ,yet y 7 bett] !n1
 said ,amro? y ?\ght little ( y\r       
drudg]y1 & mu* ( y\r *ildr54  ,yes1 ,i  
_h _h *ildr51 ,i saw4 ,_! names &       
appe>ance float$ be=e me4 ,i _h lov$ !m 
t5d]ly4 ,_h !y pass$ out ( my life8 ,i  
felt bewild]$4  ,amro? laid a h& on my  
arm & smil$ aga94 ,no1 y came ne> to "s 
( !m aga94 ,d y n rememb] ano!r life 9  
:i* y lov$ a fri5d ) a /range love1 t   
surpris$ y by its ne>ness8 ,he _h be5   
y\r *ild long be=e2 & "o nev] q loses t4
  ,i saw 9 a fla% ! o!r life he spoke (4
 ,i 0 a /ud5t1 x seem$1 at "s univ]sity1

 :]e !re 0 a boy ( my own age1 a curi\s1
 wilful1 p]v]se1 tactless creature1     
always say+ & do+ ! wrong ?+1 = :om ,i  
_h felt a curi\s & unreasonable         
responsibility4 ,i _h always tri$ to    
expla9 him to o!r p1 to ju/ify him2 & he
 _h turn$ to me fop help & companion%ip 
9 a s+ul> way4 ,i saw myself walk+ ) him
 9 ! c\ntry1 expo/ulat+1 ge/iculat+2 &  
,i saw him angry & p]plex$4444 ,! vision
 vani%$4  ,b :at becomes ( all ^? :om we
 h lov$8 ,i said2 x _c be z if we _h    
nev] lov$ !m4  ,no1 inde$1 said ,amro?1 
!y are all !re or "h2 b !re lies "o ( ! 
great my/]ies :i* we _c yet atta9 to4   
,we %all be all br\ght toge!r "s "t1    
closely & p]fectly2 b ev5 n[1 9 ! _w (  
matt]1 ! _s half rememb]s2 & :5 "o is   
/rangely & lov+ly drawn to ano!r s\l1 :5
 t love is n ( ! body1 & has no?+ (     
passion 9 x1 !n x is "s close anci5t tie
 reass]t+ itself4 ,d y n "k h[ old &    
remote "s ( our fri5d%ips seem$--s mu*  
old] & l>g] ?an c\ld be acc\nt$ = by !  
brief days ( companion%ip8 ,t /range    

hung] = ! pa/ ( "o we love is no?+ b !  
fa9t memory ( :at has be54 ,inde$1 :5 y 
h re/$ happily a little long]1 y w move 
f>!r afield1 & y w come ne> to spirits y
 h lov$4 ,y _c be> x yet1 ?\gh !y are   
all ab\t y2 b "o rega9s ! spiritual s5se
 sl[ly aft] a life l y\rs4  ,c ,i       
revisit1 ,i said1 ! sc5e ( my la/       
life--see & "k :at ^? ,i lov$ are do+ & 
feel+8  ,n yet1 said ,amro?2 t w\ld n   
pr(it ei!r y or !m4 ,! sorr[ ( e>? w\ld 
n be sorr[1 x w\ld h no cleans+ p[]1 if 
! p>t$ _s c\ld return at once4 ,y d n   
guess1 ei!r1 h[ mu* ( "t has pass$      
already s9ce y came "h--x seems to y l  
ye/]day1 no d\bt1 s9ce y la/ suff]$     
dea?4 ,to meet loss & sorr[ ^u e>?1 )\t 
ei!r com=t or hope1 is "o ( ! f9e/ (    
lessons4 ,:5 we are !re1 we mu/ live    
bl9dly1 & if we "h c\ld make our pres5ce
 kn[n at once to ! fri5ds we leave      
beh9d1 x w\ld be all too easy4 ,x is 9 !
 sil5ce ( dea? t its virtue lies4  ,yes1
 ,i said1 ,i d n desire to return4 ,?is 
is all too wond]ful4 ,x is ! fre%ness & 

sweetness ( x all t comes home to me4 ,i
 d n desire to ?9k ( ! body1 &1 /range  
to say1 if ,i d ?9k ( x1 ! times t ,i   
rememb] gratefully are ^? :5 ! body 0   
fa9t & we>y4 ,! old joys & triumphs1 :5 
"o laugh$ & lov$ & exult$1 seem to me to
 h some?+ ugly ab\t !m1 because "o 0    
cont5t1 & wi%$ ?+s to rema9 = ev] z !y  
74 ,x 0 ! long+ = some?+ diff]5t t help$
 me2 ! acquiesc5ce 0 ! %ame4     ,,vi   
,"o day ,i said to ,amro?1 ,:at a com=t 
x is to f9d t !re is no religion "h6  ,i
 "k :at y mean1 he said4 ,i ?9k x is "o 
( ! ?+s t "o wond]s at mo/1 to rememb]  
into h[ v small & n>r[ a ?+ religion 0  
made1 & h[ mu* t 0 religi\s 0 nev]      
suppos$ to be s4  ,yes1 ,i said1 z ,i   
?9k ( x n[1 x seems to h be5 a game     
play$ by a few play]s1 a game ) a great 
_m rules4  ,yes1 he said1 x 0 a game (t5
 en\gh2 b ( c\rse ! mis*ief ( x 01 t :5 
x 0 mo/ a game x mo/ pret5d$ to be      
some?+ else--to conta9 ! secret ( life &
 all k4  ,i us$ to ?9k1 ,i said1 t      
religion 0 l a noble & g5]\s boy ) !    

lyrical he>t ( a poet1 made by "s sad   
*ance into a k+1 surr\nd$ by obsequi\s  
respect & pomp & etiquette1 b\nd by a   
hundr$ c]emoni\s rules1 =bidd5 to d ?is 
& t1 taught to ?9k t 8 "o duty 0 to be  
magnific5tly attir$1 to acquire graceful
 arts ( po/ure & c\rtesy1 subtly & g5tly
 prev5t$ f obey+ natural & simple       
impulses1 made p[]less--a cr[n$ slave2 s
 t1 in/ead ( be+ ! free/ & s9c]e/ ?+ 9 !
 _w1 x became ! prison] ( respectability
 & conv5tion1 j a "p ( ! social ma*9e4  
,t 0 only "o side ( x1 said ,amro?4 ,x 0
 (t5 :]e x 0 lea/ suppos$ to be4  ,yes1 
,i said1 z f> z ,i res5t any?+ n[1 ,i   
res5t ! conv]sion ( s mu* religion f an 
inspir+ =ce into a repressive =ce4 ,"o  
le>nt z a *ild to ?9k ( x1 n z a great  
mov+ flood ( en]gy & joy1 b z an awful  
p[] ap>t f life1 rejoic+ 9 petty        
re/rictions1 & ma9ly conc]n$ ) creat+ an
 unreal atmosph]e ( n>r[ piety1 ho/ile  
to natural talk & laught] & fre$om4     
,god's aid 0 invok$1 9 *ildhood1 mo/ly  
:5 "o 0 naughty & disob$i5t1 s t "o grew

 to ?9k ( ,him z grim1 sev]e1 irritable1
 anxi\s to int]f]e4 ,:at wond] t "o lo/ 
all wi% to meet ,god & all natural      
desire to "k ,him6 ,"o ?\ght ( ,him z   
impossible to please except by behav+ 9 
a way 9 :i* x 0 n natural to behave2 &  
"o ?\ght ( religion z a /]n & dreadful  
process go+ on some:]e1 l a law-c\rt or 
a prison1 :i* "o _h to keep cle> ( if "o
 c\ld4 ,yet ,i h>dly see h[1 9 ! int]e/s
 ( discipl9e1 x c\ld h be5 avoid$4 ,if  
only "o c\ld h begun at ! o!r end6      
,yes1 said ,amro?1 b t is because       
religion has fall5 s mu* into ! h&s ( ! 
wrong p1 & is griev\sly misrepres5t$4 ,x
 has too (t5 come to be id5tifi$1 z y   
say1 ) human law1 z a p[] :i* leaves "o 
sev]ely alone1 if "o behaves oneself1 & 
:i* puni%es h>%ly & me*anically if "o   
out/eps ! limit4 ,x comes into ! _w z a 
great joyful motive2 & !n x becomes     
id5tifi$ ) respectability1 & x is sad to
 ?9k t x is simply f ! fact t x has won 
! confid5ce ( ! _w t x ga9s its awful   
p[] ( sil5c+ & oppress+4 ,x becomes     

ho/ile to frankness & indep5d5ce1 & puts
 a premium on caution & submissiv5ess2 b
 t is ! misuse ( x & ! degradation ( x2 
& religion is /ill ! mo/ pure &         
beautiful ?+ 9 ! _w = all t2 ! doctr9e  
itself is f9e & true 9 a way1 if "o c   
view x )\t impati5ce2 x upholds ! "r    
?+s2 x all makes = peace & ord]1 & ev5 =
 humility & j k9dl9ess2 x insi/s1 or    
tries to insi/1 on ! fact t prop]ty &   
position & mat]ial ?+s d n matt]1 & t   
quality & me?od d matt]4 ,( c\rse x is  
t]ribly di/ort$1 & gets into ! h&s ( !  
wrong p--! p :o want to keep ?+s z !y   
are4 ,n[ ! ,gospel1 z x fir/ came1 0 a  
p]fectly beautiful ?+--! idea t "o mu/  
act by t5d] impulse1 t "o mu/ always    
=give1 & =get1 & love2 t "o mu/ take a  
natural joy 9 ! simple/ ?+s1 f9d e "o & 
ev]y?+ int]e/+ & delightful 444 !       
p]fectly natural1 j1 good-hum\r$1       
uncalculat+ life--t 0 ! idea ( x2 & t "o
 0 n to be sup]ior to ! h>d facts ( !   
_w1 n to try to put sorr[ or pa9 out (  
sight1 b to live eag]ly & hopefully 9 !m

 & ?r\gh !m2 n to try to s*ool oneself  
into h>dness or indiff]5ce1 b to love   
lovable ?+s1 & n to condemn or despise !
 unlovable4 ,t 0 inde$ a message out ( !
 v he>t ( ,god4 ,b ( c\rse all ! acrid  
divisions & subdivisions ( x come1 n f  
itself1 b f ! mat]ial "p ( ! _w1 t      
det]m9es to traffic ) ! beautiful       
secret1 & make x s]ve its turn4 ,b !re  
are pl5ty ( true s\ls )9 x all1 true    
tea*]s1 fai?ful le>n]s--& ! _w _c d )\t 
x yet1 ?\gh x is /rangely fett]$ & b\nd4
 ,inde$1 m5 c nev] d )\t x1 because !   
spiritual =ce is !re2 x is full ( poetry
 & my/]y1 t ageless bro!rhood ( sa9ts & 
true-he>t$ disciples2 b "o has to le>n t
 _m t claim its p[]s h !m n1 :ile _m :o 
are outside all organisations h !       
secret4  ,yes1 ,i said1 all t is true & 
good2 x is ! exclusive claim & n !      
inclusive :i* "o regrets4 ,x is ! voice 
:i* says1 ',accept my exact fai?1 or y h
 no "p 9 ! inh]itance1' :i* is wrong4 ,!
 real voice ( religion is t :i* says1   
',y are my bro!r & my si/]1 ?\gh y "k x 

n4' ,& if "o says1 ',we are all at      
fault1 we are all f> f ! tru?1 b we live
 z be/ we c1 look+ = ! l>g] hope & = !  
dawn ( love1' t is ! secret4 ,! sacram5t
 ( ,god is (f]$ & eat5 at _m a social   
meal1 & ! ,_s ( ,love f9ds utt]ance 9   
quiet words f smil+ lips4 ,"o _c tea* by
 h>% precept1 only by desirable example2
 & ! wor/ ( ! correct pr(ession (       
religion is t x is (t5 little m ?an tak+
 out a lic5ce to disapprove4  ,yes1 said
 ,amro?1 y are v ne> a great tru?4 ,!   
mi/ake we make is l ! mi/ake s (t5 made 
on e>? 9 matt]s ( human gov]nm5t--!     
oppos+ ( ! individual to ! ,/ate1 z if !
 ,/ate 7 some?+ above & diff]5t to !    
individual--l ! old ?\ght ( ! ,_s mov+  
on ! face ( ! wat]s4 ,! individual is ! 
,/ate2 & x is ! same ) ! s\l & ,god4    
,god is n above ! s\l1 see+ & judg+1    
ap>t 9 isolation4 ,! ,_s ( ,god is ! _s 
( humanity1 ! _s ( admiration1 ! _s (   
love4 ,x matt]s little :at ! s\l admires
 & loves1 :e!r x be a fl[] or a m\nta91 
a face or a cause1 a gem or a doctr9e4  

,x is t wond]ful p[] t ! curr5t ( ! s\l 
has ( sett+ t[>ds some?+ t is beautiful3
 ! ne$ to admire1 to wor%ip1 to love4 ,a
 regim5t ( soldi]s 9 ! /reet1 a         
procession ( prie/s to a sanctu>y1 a m>*
 ( disord]$ wom5 clam\r+ = _! rights--if
 ! idea ?rills y1 if x uplifts y1 x     
matt]s no?+ :e!r o!r p dislike or       
despise or d]ide x--x is ! voice ( ,god 
= y4 ,we mu/ advance f :at is m]ely     
brilliant to :at is true2 & ?\gh 9 !    
s+le life _m a man seems to halt at a   
c]ta9 po9t1 to h ti$ up 8 little packet 
( admirations once & = all1 !re are o!r 
lives :]e he w pass on to fur!r loves1 8
 passion gr[+ m int5se & pure4 ,we are n
 limit$ by our circle1 by our g5]ation1 
by our age2 & ! ?+s :i* y\?ful spirits  
are div9+ & proclaim+ z great & wond]ful
 discov]ies1 are (t5 be+ practis$ & done
 by sil5t & humble s\ls4 ,x is n !      
concise or impressive /atem5t ( a tru? t
 matt]s1 x is ! int5sity ( ! inn]       
impulse t[>ds :at is high & true :i*    
diff]5tiates4 ,! m we live by t1 ! less 

are we incl9$ to argue & dispute ab\t x4
 ,! base1 ! impure desire is only !     
imp]fect desire2 if x is gratifi$1 x    
reveals its imp]fections1 & ! s\l kn[s t
 n !re c x /ay2 b x mu/ h fac$ & te/$   
ev]y?+4 ,if ! s\l1 out ( timidity &     
conv5tionality1 says ',no' to its eag]  
impulses1 x halts ^u its pilgrimage4 ,"s
 ( ! mo/ griev\s & %ameful lives on e>? 
h be5 fruitful en\gh 9 reality4 ,!      
reason :y we m\rn & despond ov] !m is1  
aga91 t we limit our hope to ! s+le     
life4 ,!re is "t = ev]y?+2 we mu/ n be  
impati5t4 ,we mu/ despair ( no?+ & ( no 
"o2 ! true life consi/s n 9 :at a man's 
reason approves or disapproves1 n 9 :at 
he does or says1 b 9 :at he sees4 ,x is 
useless to expla9 ?+s to s\ls2 !y mu/   
exp]i5ce !m to appreh5d !m4 ,! "o       
trea*]y is to speak ( mi/akes z         
irrep>able1 & ( s9s z un=givable4 ,! s9 
aga9/ ! ,_s is to d\bt ! ,_s1 & ! s9    
aga9/ life is n to use x g5]\sly &      
freely2 we are happie/ if we love o!rs  
well en\gh to give our life to !m2 b x  

is bett] to use life = ourselves ?an n  
to use x at all4     ,,vii   ,"o day ,i 
said to ,amro?1 ,are !re no rules ( life
 "h8 ,x seems almo/ too good to be true1
 n to be f\nd fault ) & c5sur$ & advis$ 
& blam$4  ,oh1 said ,amro?1 laugh+1 !re 
are pl5ty ( rules1 z y call !m2 b "o    
feels !m1 "o is n told !m2 x is l brea?+
 & see+4  ,yes1 ,i repli$1 yet x 0 l t1 
too1 9 ! old days2 ! mis]y 0 :5 "o      
sudd5ly discov]$ t :5 "o 0 act+ 9 :at   
seem$ ! mo/ natural way possible1 x gave
 pa9 & conc]n to "s "o :om "o respect$ &
 ev5 lov$4 ,"o knew t "o's action 0 n   
wrong1 & yet "o desir$ to please &      
satisfy "o's fri5ds2 & s "o fell back   
into conv5tional ways1 n because "o lik$
 !m b because o!r p did1 & x 0 n wor?   
:ile mak+ a fuss--x 0 a sort ( c[>dice1 
,i suppose8  ,n q1 said ,amro?2 y 7 m on
 ! "r l9es ?an ! p :o int]f]$ ) y1 no   
d\bt2 b ( c\rse ! tru? is t our         
pr9ciples ought to be us$1 l a /ick1 to 
support ourselves1 n l a rod to beat o!r
 p )4 ,! mo/ difficult p to tea*1 z y w 

see h]eaft]1 are ! self-righte\s p1 ^:  
lives are really pure & good1 b :o all[ 
_! pref]5ces ab\t amusem5ts1            
occupations1 ways ( life1 to become     
matt]s ( pr9ciple4 ,! wor/ temptation 9 
! _w is ! habit ( influ5ce & au?ority1 !
 desire to direct o!r lives & to con=m  
!m to "o's own /&>d4 ,! only way 9 :i*  
we c help o!r p is by lov+ !m2 by       
fright5+ ano!r out ( some?+ :i* he is   
apt to d & ( :i* "o does n approve1 "o  
effects absolutely no?+3 s9 _c be sc>$  
away2 ! _s mu/ le>n to desire to ca/ x  
away1 because x sees t goodness is      
beautiful & f9e2 & ?is c only be done by
 example1 nev] by precept4  ,b x is !   
entire abs5ce ( bo? t puzzles me "h1 ,i 
said4 ,no?+ to d & a fri5d to talk to2  
x's a lazy bus9ess1 ,i ?9k4  ,amro?     
look$ at me ) amusem5t4 ,x's a sign1 he 
said1 if y feel t1 t y are gett+ re/$1 &
 ready to move on2 b y w be v mu*       
surpris$ :5 y "k a little m ab\t ! life 
"h4 ,y are l a baby 9 a cradle at       
pres5t2 :5 y come to ent] "o ( our      

communities "h1 y w f9d x z complicat$ a
 bus9ess z y c\ld wi%4 ,"p ( !          
difficulty is t !re are no rules1 to use
 y\r own phrase4 ,x is real democracy1 b
 x is n complicat$ by any que/ions (    
prop]ty1 :i* is ! ?+ t clogs all        
political progress 9 ! _w bel[4 ,!re is 
no?+ to s*eme =1 no ambitions to        
gratify1 no?+ to ga9 at ! exp5se ( o!rs2
 ! only ?+ t matt]s is "o's p]sonal     
relation to o!rs2 & ?is is :at makes x  
at once s simple & s complex4 ,b ,i d n 
?9k x is ( any use to tell y all ?is2 y 
w see x 9 a fla%1 :5 ! "t comes4 ,b x   
may be z well = y to rememb] t !re w be 
no "o to comm& y or compel y or advise  
y4 ,y\r own he>t & _s w be y\r only     
guides4 ,!re is no su* ?+ z compulsion  
or =ce 9 heav54 ,no?+ c be done to y t y
 d n *oose or all[ to be done4  ,yes1 ,i
 said1 x is ! bless$ & beautiful s5se ( 
fre$om f all ties & influ5ces & fe>s t  
is s utt]ly blissful4  ,b ?is is n all1 
said ,amro?1 %ak+ 8 head ) a smile4 ,?is
 is a "t ( re/ = y1 b ?+s are v diff]5t 

else:]e4 ,:5 y come to ent] heav5       
itself1 y w be con/antly surpris$4 ,!re 
are lab\r & fe> & sorr[ to be fac$2 & y 
mu/ n ?9k x is a place = drift+         
pleasantly along4 ,! moral /ruggle is ! 
same--inde$ x is fi]c] & /rong] ?an ev]1
 because !re is no bodily languor or    
fatigue to di/ract4 ,!re are *oices to  
be made1 duties to p]=m1 evil to be     
fac$4 ,! bodily temptations are abs5t1 b
 !re is /ill t :i* lay beh9d ! bodily   
frailties--curiosity1 love ( s5sation1  
excitem5t1 desire2 ! /rong duality (    
nature--! k ( duty on ! "o h& & !       
indol5t %r9k+ f p]=mance--t is all !re2 
!re is ! same s5se ( isolation1 & ! same
 ne$ = pati5t endeav\r z ^u e>?4 ,all t 
"o gets is a c]ta9 fre$om ( movem5t2 "o 
is n b\nd to places & employm5ts by !   
mat]ial ties ( e>?2 b y mu/ n ?9k t x is
 all to be easy & /raight=w>d4 ,we c ea*
 ( u by us+ our wills %ort5 our         
probation1 by n resi/+ influ5ces1 by    
putt+ our he>ts & m9ds 9 unison ) ! w ( 
,god = u2 & t is easi] 9 heav5 ?an ^u   

e>?1 because !re is less to di/ract u4  
,b on ! o!r h&1 !re is m temptation to  
drift1 because !re are no mat]ial       
consequ5ces to /imulate u4 ,!re are _m p
 on e>? :o ex]cise a sort ( practical   
virtue simply to avoid mat]ial          
inconv5i5ces1 :ile !re is no su* motive 
9 heav52 ,i say all ?is n to di/urb y\r 
pres5t tranquillity1 :i* x is y\r duty  
n[ to enjoy1 b j to prep>e y4 ,y mu/ be 
prep>$ = ef=t & = endeav\r1 & ev5 =     
/rife4 ,y mu/ use "r judgm5t1 &1 above  
all1 common s5se2 "o does n get out ( ! 
rea* ( t 9 heav56     ,,viii   ,^! are  
only "s ( ! _m talks ,i _h ) ,amro?4 ,!y
 rang$ ov] a great _m subjects & ?\ghts4
 ,:at ,i _c indicate1 h[ev]1 is !       
lightness & fre%ness ( !m2 & above all1 
_! entire frankness & amus+ness4 ,!re 7 
times :5 we talk$ l two *ildr51 reviv$  
old simple adv5tures ( life--he _h liv$ 
f> m l>gely & fully ?an ,i _h done--& ,i
 nev] tir$ ( he>+ ! tales ( 8 old lives1
 s mu* m v>i$ & wond]ful ?an my own4    
,sometimes we m]ely told ea* o!r /ories 

out ( our imag9ations & he>ts4 ,we ev5  
play$ games1 :i* ,i _c describe1 b !y 7 
l ! games ( e>?4 ,we seem$ at times to  
walk & w&] toge!r2 b ,i _h a s5se all   
?is "t t ,i 01 s to speak1 9 hospital1  
be+ t5d$ & c>$ =1 & n all[$ to d any?+  
we>isome or dem&+ ef=t4 ,b ,i became m &
 m aw>e ( o!r spirits ab\t me1 l birds t
 *irp & twitt] 9 ! ivy ( a t[]1 or 9 !  
?ick bu%es ( a %rubb]y4 ,amro? told me  
"o day t ,i mu/ prep>e = a great *ange  
soon1 & ,i f\nd myself wond]+ :at x w\ld
 be l1 half excit$ ab\t x1 & half       
afraid1 unwill+ z ,i 0 to lose ! sweet  
re/1 & ! de> companion%ip ( a fri5d :o  
seem$ l ! cr[n & sum ( all hopes (      
fri5d%ip4 ,amro? became utt]ly de> to   
me1 & x 0 a joy beyond all joys to feel 
8 happy & smil+ nature b5t ^u me1 h\r by
 h\r1 9 sympa?y & und]/&+ & love4 ,he   
said to me laugh+ly once t ,i _h mu* (  
e>? ab\t me yet1 & t ,i mu/ soon le>n n 
to b5d my ?\ghts s exclusively "o way & 
on "o fri5d4  ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i am n fit
 = heav5 yet6 ,i believe ,i am jeal\s2  

,i _c be> to ?9k t y w leave me1 or t   
any o!r s\l des]ves y\r att5tion4  ,oh1 
he said lightly1 ?is is my bus9ess &    
delight n[--b y w soon h to d = o!rs :at
 ,i am do+ = y4 ,y l ?is easy life at   
pres5t1 b y c h>dly imag9e h[ int]e/+ x 
is to h "s "o giv5 y = y\r own1 z y 7   
giv5 to me4 ,x is ! delight ( mo!rhood &
 fa!rhood 9 "o2 & :5 ,i 0 all[$ to take 
y away out ( ! room :]e y lay--,i admit 
x 0 n a pleasant sc5e--,i felt j l a    
*ild :o is giv5 a kitt5 = its v own4    
,well1 ,i said1 ,i h be5 a v            
satisfactory pet--,i h done little else 
b purr4 ,i felt 8 eyes ^u me 9 a        
wond]ful ne>ness ( love2 & !n ,i look$  
up & ,i saw t we 7 n alone4  ,x 0 !n t  
,i fir/ p]ceiv$ t !re c\ld be grief 9   
heav54 ,i say fir/ p]ceiv$1 b ,i _h kn[n
 x all along4 ,b by ,amro?'s g5tle p[] t
 _h be5 = a "t kept away f me1 t ,i     
might re/ & rejoice4  ,! =m be=e me 0 t 
( a v "y & beautiful woman--s beautiful 
t = a mom5t all my ?\ght seem$ to be    
conc5trat$ ^u h]4 ,b ,i saw1 too1 t all 

0 n well ) h]4 ,%e 0 n at peace )       
h]self1 or h] surr\nd+s4 ,9 h] great    
wide eyes !re 0 a look ( pa91 & (       
rebelli\s pa94 ,%e 0 attir$ 9 a robe t 0
 a blaze ( col\r2 & :5 ,i wond]$ at ?is1
 = x 0 unlike ! cle> hues1 pe>ly grey & 
gold1 & s(t roseate light t _h hi!rto   
encompass$ me1 ! voice ( ,amro? answ]$  
my unutt]$ "q1 & said1 ,x is ! image (  
h] ?\ght4 ,h] slim :ite h&s mov$        
aimlessly ov] ! robe1 & seem$ to f+] !  
jewels :i* adorn$ x4 ,h] lips 7 p>t$1 & 
any?+ m beautiful ?an ! pure curves ( h]
 *9 & neck ,i _h seldom se51 ?\gh %e    
seem$ nev] to be /ill1 z ,amro? 0 /ill1 
b to move re/lessly & we>ily ab\t4 ,i   
knew by a sort ( intuition t %e 0 unaw>e
 ( ,amro? & only aw>e ( myself4 ,%e     
seem$ />tl$ & surpris$ at ! sight ( me1 
& ,i wond]$ 9 :at =m ,i appe>$ to h]2 9 
a mom5t %e spoke1 & h] voice 0 l[ &     
?rill+4  ,i am s glad1 %e said 9 a      
half-c\rte\s1 half-di/ract$ way1 to f9d 
"s "o 9 ! place to :om ,i c speak4 ,i   
seem to be always mov+ 9 a cr[d1 & yet  

to see no "o--!y are afraid ( me1 ,i    
?9k2 & x is n :at ,i expect$1 n :at ,i  
am us$ to4 ,i am 9 ne$ ( help1 ,i feel1 
& yet ,i d n "k :at sort ( help x is t  
,i want4 ,may ,i /ay ) y a little8  ,:y1
 yes1 ,i said2 !re is no "q ( 'may' "h4 
,%e came up to me ) a sort ( pr\d       
confid5ce1 & look$ at me fix$ly4 ,yes1  
%e said1 ,i see t ,i c tru/ y2 & ,i am  
tir$ ( be+ deceiv$6 ,!n %e add$ ) a sort
 ( petti%ness1 ,i h n[h]e to g1 no?+ to 
d--x is all dull & cold4 ,on e>? x 0 j !
 opposite4 ,i _h only too mu* att5tion &
 love4444 ,oh1 yes1 %e add$ ) a /range  
glance1 x 0 :at y w\ld probably call    
s9ful4 ,! only man ,i ev] lov$ did n c>e
 = me1 & ,i 0 lov$ by _m = :om ,i did n 
c>e4 ,well1 ,i _h my pleasures1 & ,i    
suppose ,i mu/ pay = !m4 ,i d n compla9 
( t4 ,b ,i am det]m9$ n to give way3 x  
is unju/ & cruel4 ,i nev] _h a *ance4 ,i
 0 always br\ght up to be admir$ f !    
fir/4 ,we 7 ri* at my home1 & 9         
society--y und]/&8 ,i made :at 0 call$ a
 good mat*1 & ,i nev] c>$ = my husb&1 b 

amus$ myself ) o!r p2 & x 0 spl5did :ile
 x la/$3 !n all k9ds ( horrible ?+s     
happ5$--sc5es1 explanations1 a          
lawsuit--x makes me %udd] to rememb] x  
all2 & !n ,i 0 ill1 ,i suppose1 &       
sudd5ly x 0 all ov]1 & ,i 0 alone1 ) a  
feel+ t ,i mu/ try to take up ) all k9ds
 ( tiresome ?+s--all ! ?+s t bor$ me    
mo/4 ,b n[ x may be go+ to be bett]2 y c
 tell me :]e ,i c f9d p1 p]haps8 ,i am n
 q unpres5table1 ev5 "h8 ,no1 ,i c see t
 9 y\r face4 ,well1 take me some:]e1 %[ 
me some?+1 f9d some?+ = me to d 9 ?is   
deadly place4 ,i seem to h got into a   
p]petual sunset1 & ,i am s sick ( x all4
  ,i felt v helpless be=e ?is beautiful 
creature :o seem$ s tr\bl$ & discont5t$4
 ,no1 said ! voice ( ,amro? beside me1 x
 is ( no use to talk2 let h] talk to y2 
let h] make fri5ds ) y if %e c4  ,t's   
bett]1 %e said1 look+ at me4 ,i 0 afraid
 y 7 go+ to be grave & s]i\s4 ,i felt = 
a m9ute z if ,i 0 go+ to be confirm$4   
,no1 ,i said1 y ne$ n be di/urb$2 no?+ w
 be done to y aga9/ y\r wi%4 ,"o has b  

to wi% "h1 or to be will+1 & ! "r ?+    
happ5s4  ,%e came close to me z ,i said 
?is1 & said1 ,well1 ,i ?9k ,i %all l y1 
if only y c promise n to be s]i\s4 ,!n  
%e turn$1 & /ood = a mom5t disconsolate1
 look+ away f me4  ,all ?is :ile !      
atmosph]e ar\nd me _h be5 becom+ light] 
& cle>]1 z ?\gh a mi/ 7 ris+4 ,sudd5ly  
,amro? said1 ,y w h to g ) h] = a "t1 & 
d :at y c4 ,i mu/ leave y = a little1 b 
,i %all n be f> (f2 & if y ne$ me1 ,i   
%all be at h&4 ,b d n call = me unless y
 are q sure y ne$ me4 ,he gave me a     
h&-clasp & a smile1 & 0 gone4  ,!n1     
look+ ab\t me1 ,i saw at la/ t ,i 0 9 a 
place4 ,lonely & b>e ?\gh x 01 x seem$  
to me v beautiful4 ,x 0 l a grassy upl&1
 ) rocky heights to left & "r4 ,!y 7 mo/
 delicate 9 outl9e1 ^? crags1 l ! crags 
9 an old picture1 ) %>p1 smoo? curves1 l
 a fractur$ cry/al4 ,!y seem$ to be ( a 
creamy /one1 & ! %ad[s fell blue &      
di/9ct4 ,d[n bel[ 0 a great pla9 full ( 
trees & wat]s1 all v dim4 ,a pa?1 worn  
lightly 9 ! grass1 lay at my feet1 & ,i 

knew t we mu/ desc5d x4 ,! girl ) me--,i
 w call h] ,cyn?ia--0 gaz+ at x )       
delight4 ,ah1 %e said1 ,i c see cle>ly  
n[4 ,?is is some?+ l a real place1      
in/ead ( mi/ & light4 ,we c f9d p d[n   
"h1 no d\bt2 x looks inhabit$ out !re4  
,%e po9t$ ) h] h&1 & x seem$ to me t ,i 
c\ld see spires & t[]s & ro(s1 ( a f9e &
 airy ar*itecture1 at ! end ( a long    
horn ( wat] :i* lay v blue among ! woods
 ( ! pla94 ,x puzzl$ me1 because ,i _h !
 s5se t x 0 all unreal1 &1 inde$1 ,i    
soon p]ceiv$ t x 0 ! girl's own ?\ght t 
9 "s way affect$ m9e4 ,quick1 let u g1  
%e said2 :at are we wait+ =8  ,! desc5t 
0 easy & gradual4 ,we came d[n1 foll[+ !
 pa?1 ov] ! hill-%\ld]s4 ,a /ream ( cle>
 wat] dripp$ among /ones2 x all br\ght  
back to me ) an int5se delight !        
recollection ( long days sp5t among su* 
hills 9 holiday times on e>?1 b all )\t 
regret2 ,i only wi%$ t an old & de>     
fri5d ( m9e1 ) :om ,i _h (t5 gone1 might
 be ) me4 ,he _h quitt$ life be=e me1 & 
,i knew someh[ or hop$ t ,i %\ld be=e   

long see him2 b ,i did n wi% ?+s to be  
o!rwise2 &1 inde$1 ,i _h a /range int]e/
 9 ! fretful1 silly1 lovely girl ) me1 &
 9 :at lay be=e u4 ,%e prattl$ on1 &    
seem$ to be recov]+ h] spirits & h]     
confid5ce at ! sights ar\nd u4 ,if ,i   
c\ld b f9d any?+ t w\ld draw h] out ( h]
 re/less mood into ! peace ( ! morn+6   
,%e _h a *>m = me1 ?\gh h] impati5ce &  
desire = amusem5t seem$ un9t]e/+ en\gh2 
& ,i f\nd myself talk+ to h] z an eld]  
bro!r might1 ) t]ms ( famili> ende>m5t1 
:i* %e seem$ to be grateful =4 ,x 0     
/range 9 a way1 & yet x all appe>$      
natural4 ,! m we drew away f ! hills1 ! 
happi] %e became4 ,ah1 %e said once1 we 
h got out ( t hateful place1 & n[ p]haps
 we may be m com=table1--& :5 we came   
d[n beside ! /ream to a grove ( trees1 &
 saw some?+ :i* seem$ l a road b5ea? u1 
%e 0 delight$4 ,t's m l x1 %e said1 & n[
 we may f9d "s real p p]haps1--%e turn$ 
to me ) a smile--?\gh y are real en\gh  
too1 & v k9d to me2 b ,i /ill h an idea 
t y are a cl]gyman1 & are only wait+ y\r

 "t to draw a moral4     ,,ix   ,n[ be=e
 ,i g on to tell ! tale ( :at happ5$ to 
u 9 ! valley !re 7 two v curi\s ?+s t ,i
 obs]v$ or began to obs]ve4  ,! fir/ 0 t
 ,i c\ld n really see into ! girl's     
?\ght4 ,i became aw>e t ?\gh ,i c\ld see
 into ! ?\ght ( ,amro? z easily &       
directly z "o c look into a cle>        
sea-pool1 ) all its r\nd$ pebbles & its 
sway+ fr+es ( seawe$1 !re 0 9 ! girl's  
m9d a c5tre ( ?\ght to :i* ,i 0 n       
admitt$1 a =tress ( p]sonality into :i* 
,i c\ld n =ce my way4 ,m ?an t4 ,:5 %e  
mi/ru/$ or suspect$ me1 !re came a k9d (
 cl\d out f ! c5tral ?\ght1 z if a      
turbid /ream 7 p\r$ into ! sea-pool1 :i*
 obscur$ h] ?\ghts f me1 ?\gh :5 %e came
 to "k me & to tru/ me1 z %e did lat]1 !
 cl\d 0 gradually )drawn2 & ,i p]ceiv$ t
 !re mu/ be a p]fect sacrifice ( w1 an  
int5tion t ! m9d %\ld lie op5 & una%am$ 
be=e ! ?\ght ( "o's fri5d & companion1  
be=e ! vision c be complete4 ,) ,amro?  
,i desir$ to conceal no?+1 & he _h no   
concealm5t f me4 ,b ) ! girl x 0        

diff]5t4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 h] he>t t %e   
hid f me1 & by no ef=t c\ld ,i p5etrate 
x2 & ,i saw !n t !re is some?+ at !     
c5tre ( ! s\l :i* is our v own1 & into  
:i* ,god ,himself _c ev5 look1 unless we
 desire t ,he %\ld look2 & ev5 if we    
desire t ,he %\ld look into our s\ls1 if
 !re is any timidity or %ame or %r9k+   
ab\t u1 we _c op5 our s\ls to ,him4 ,i  
mu/ speak ab\t ?is lat]1 :5 ! great &   
wond]ful day came to me1 :5 ,i beheld   
,god & 0 beheld by ,him4 ,b n[1 ?\gh :5 
! girl tru/$ me ,i c\ld see mu* ( h]    
?\ght1 ! inmo/ cell ( x 0 /ill hidd5 f  
me4  ,& !n1 too1 ,i p]ceiv$ ano!r /range
 ?+2 t ! l&scape 9 :i* we walk$ 0 v pla9
 to me1 b t %e did n see ! same ?+s t ,i
 saw4 ,) me1 ! l&scape 0 su* z ,i _h    
lov$ mo/ 9 my la/ exp]i5ce ( life2 x 0 a
 l& to me l ! ,engli% hill-c\ntry :i* ,i
 lov$ ! be/2 little fields ( pa/ure     
mo/ly1 ) h$g][ a%es & sycamores1 & "h & 
!re a cle> /ream ( wat] runn+ by !      
wood-ends4 ,!re 7 build+s1 too1 l[      
:ite-wall$ f>ms1 r\ghly slat$1          

mu*-wea!r$1 ) evid5ces ( homely life1   
byre & b>n & gran>y1 all ab\t !m4 ,^!   
slop+ fields ran up into high moorl&s & 
little grey crags1 ) ! trees & ?ickets  
gr[+ 9 ! rock fronts4 ,i c\ld n ?9k t p 
liv$ 9 ^! h\ses & practis$ agriculture1 
?\gh ,i saw ) surprise & pleasure t !re 
7 animals ab\t1 horses & %eep graz+1 &  
dogs t frisk$ 9 & out4 ,i _h always     
believ$ & hop$ t animals _h _! %>e 9 !  
inh]itance ( light1 & n[ ,i ?\ght t ?is 
0 a pro( t x 0 inde$ s1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n  
be sure ( x1 because ,i realis$ t x     
might be b ! ?\ghts ( my m9d tak+ %ape1 
=1 z ,i say1 ,i 0 gradually aw>e t !    
girl did n see :at ,i saw4 ,to h] x 0 a 
diff]5t sc5e1 ( "s s\!rn c\ntry1 because
 %e seem$ to see v9ey>ds1 & high-wall$  
lanes1 hill-cre/s cr[d$ ) h\ses & cr[n$ 
) *ur*es1 su* z "o sees at a di/ance 9 !
 ,campagna1 :]e ! pla9 breaks into      
*e/nut-clad hills4 ,b ?is diff]5ce (    
sight did n make me feel t ! sc5e 0 9   
any degree unreal2 x 0 ! idea ( !       
l&scape :i* we lov$1 its pretty         

associations & famili> features1 & ! m9d
 did ! re/1 translat+ x all into a      
vision ( sc5es :i* _h giv5 u joy on e>?1
 j z we d 9 dreams :5 we are 9 ! body1  
:5 ! sleep+ m9d creates sights :i* give 
u pleasure1 & yet we h no k t we are    
ourselves creat+ !m4 ,s we walk$ toge!r1
 until ,i p]ceiv$ t we 7 draw+ ne> to ! 
t[n :i* we _h disc]n$4  ,& n[ we became 
aw>e ( p go+ to & fro4 ,sometimes !y    
/opp$ & look$ ^u u ) smiles1 & ev5      
greet+s2 & sometimes !y w5t pa/ absorb$ 
9 ?\ght4  ,h\ses appe>$1 bo? small      
wayside abodes & l>g] mansions ) %elt]$ 
g>d5s4 ,:at x all meant ,i h>dly knew2 b
 j z we h p]fectly decid$ ta/es on e>? z
 to :at sort ( a h\se we l & :y we l x1 
:e!r we pref] high1 bright rooms1 or    
rooms l[ & ) subdu$ light1 s 9 t o!r    
c\ntry ! m9d creates :at x desires4     
,pres5tly ! h\ses grew ?ick]1 & soon we 
7 9 a /reet--! t[n to my eyes 0 l !     
little t[ns "o sees 9 ! ,cotswold       
c\ntry1 ( a beautiful gold5 /one1 ) deep
 pl9?s & cornices1 ) old] & simpl]      

build+s int]sp]s$4 ,my companion became 
/rangely excit$1 glanc+ ?is way & t4 ,& 
pres5tly1 z if we 7 c]ta9ly expect$1 !re
 came up to u a k9dly & grave p]son1 :o 
welcom$ u =mally to ! place1 & said a   
few c\rte\s words ab\t 8 pleasure t we  
%\ld h *os5 to visit x4  ,i d n "k h[ x 
01 b ,i did n :olly tru/ our ho/4 ,8 m9d
 0 hidd5 f me2 & inde$ ,i began to h a  
s5se1 n ( evil1 inde$1 or ( oppression1 
b a feel+ t x 0 n ! place appo9t$ = me1 
b only :]e my bus9ess 0 to lie = a      
season4 ,a gr\p ( p came up to u &      
welcom$ my companion ) great *e]fulness1
 & %e 0 soon absorb$ 9 talk4     ,x     
,n[ be=e ,i come to tell ?is next "p (  
my /ory1 !re are sev]al ?+s :i* seem 9  
want ( explanation4 ,i speak ( p z look+
 old & "y1 & ( !re be+ relations betwe5 
!m su* z fa!rly & mo!rly1 son-l &       
lov]-l4 ,x bewild]$ me at fir/1 b ,i    
came to guess at ! tru?4 ,x w\ld seem t 
9 ! fur!r _w spirits d pres]ve = a long 
"t ! *>act]i/ics ( ! age at :i* !y la/  
left ! e>?2 b ,i saw no v "y *ildr5     

any:]e at fir/1 ?\gh ,i came aft]w>ds to
 "k :at befell !m4 ,x seem$ to me t1 9 !
 fir/ place ,i visit$1 ! only spirits ,i
 saw 7 ( ^? :o _h be5 able to make a    
delib]ate *oice ( h[ !y w\ld live 9 ! _w
 & :i* k9d ( desires !y w\ld s]ve2 x is 
v h>d to say :5 ?is *oice takes place 9 
! _w bel[1 b ,i came to believe t1 e>ly 
or late1 !re does come a "t :5 !re is an
 op5+ out ( two pa?s be=e ea* human s\l1
 & :5 x realises t a *oice mu/ be made4 
,sometimes ?is is made e>ly 9 life2 b   
sometimes a s\l drifts on1 guileless 9 a
 s5se1 ?\gh its life may be evil &      
purposeless1 n look+ backw>ds or =w>ds1 
b simply act+ z its nature bids x act4  
,:at x is t decides ! awak5+ ( ! w ,i   
h>dly "k2 x is all a secret gr[?1 ,i    
?9k2 b ! old] t ! _s is1 9 ! s5se (     
spiritual exp]i5ce1 ! e>li] 9 mortal    
life t *oice is made2 & ?is is only     
ano!r pro( ( "o ( ! ?+s :i* ,amro? %[$  
me1 t x is1 aft] all1 imag9ation :i*    
really makes ! diff]5ce betwe5 s\ls1 & n
 intellect or %rewdness or en]gy2 all ! 

real ?+s ( life--sympa?y1 ! p[] ( ent]+ 
into f9e relations1 h[ev] simple !y may 
be1 ) o!rs1 loyalty1 pati5ce1 devotion1 
goodness--seem to gr[ out ( ?is p[] (   
imag9ation2 & ! reason :y ! s\ls ( :om  
,i am go+ to speak 7 s cont5t to dwell  
:]e !y 71 0 simply t !y _h no imag9ation
 beyond1 b dwelt happily among !        
delights :i* ^u e>? are repres5t$ by    
s\nd & col\r & sc5t & comel9ess & com=t4
 ,?is 0 a p]petual surprise to me1      
because ,i saw 9 ^! f9e creatures su* a 
faculty ( delicate p]ception1 t ,i c\ld 
n help believ+ aga9 & aga9 t _! emotions
 7 z deep & v>i$ too2 b ,i f\nd little  
by little1 t !y 7 all b5t1 n on lov+1 & 
!re=e on giv+ !mselves away to :at !y   
lov$1 b 9 ga!r+ 9 p]ceptions &          
s5sations1 & f9d+ _! delight 9 !m2 & ,i 
realis$ t :at lies at ! root ( ! arti/ic
 nature is its deep & vital indiff]5ce  
to any?+ except :at c directly give x   
delight1 & t ^! s\ls1 = all _! amaz+    
subtlety & discrim9ation1 _h v little   
hold on life at all1 except on its out] 

details & sup]ficial h>monies2 & t !y 7 
all v "y 9 exp]i5ce1 & l %all[ wat]s1   
easily tr\bl$ & easily appeas$2 & t     
!re=e !y 7 be+ dealt ) l *ildr51 & all[$
 full scope = all _! little s5sitive    
fancies1 until ! "t %\ld come = !m to g 
fur!r yet4 ,( c\rse !y 7 "o degree old] 
?an ! p :o 9 ! _w _h be5 really imm]s$ 9
 :at may be call$ solid int]e/s & s]i\s 
pursuits--sci5ce1 politics1             
organisation1 w>f>e1 comm]ce--all ^!    
spirits 7 v y\?ful inde$1 & !y 71 ,i    
suppose1 9 "s v *ildi% nurs]y ( ,god4 ,b
 :at fir/ bewild]$ me 0 ! f9d+ ( ! e>?ly
 proportions ( ?+s s /rangely rev]s$1 ! 
s]i\s matt]s ( life s utt]ly set aside1 
& s mu* made ( ! ?+s :i* _m p take no   
sort ( tr\ble ab\t1 z companion%ips &   
affections1 :i* are s (t5 turn$ into a  
matt] ( m]e prop9quity & circum/ance4 ,b
 ( ?is ,i %all h to speak lat] 9 its    
place4  ,n[ x is difficult to describe !
 "t ,i sp5t 9 ! l& ( delight1 because x 
0 all s unlike ! life ( ! _w1 & yet 0 s 
/rangely l x4 ,!re 0 "w go+ on !re1 ,i  

f\nd1 b ! nature ( x ,i c\ld n disc]n1  
because t 0 kept hidd5 f me4 ,m5 & wom5 
excus$ !mselves f our company1 say+ !y  
mu/ return to _! "w2 b mo/ ( ! "t 0 sp5t
 9 leisurely conv]se ab\t ?+s :i* ,i    
confess f ! fir/ did n int]e/ me4 ,!re 0
 mu* wit & laught]1 & !re 7 con/ant     
games & assemblies & amusem5ts4 ,!re 7  
fea/s ( delici\s ?+s1 music1 dramas4    
,!re 7 books read & discuss$2 x 0 j l a 
v cultivat$ & civilis$ society4 ,b :at  
/ruck me ab\t ! p !re 0 t x 0 all v     
re/less & highly-/rung1 a p]petual ta/+ 
( pleasures1 :i* someh[ nev] pleas$4    
,!re 7 two p !re :o int]e/$ me mo/4 ,"o 
0 a v h&some & c\rte\s man1 :o seem$ to 
desire my company1 & spoke m freely ?an 
! re/2 ! o!r a "y man1 :o 0 v mu*       
occupi$ ) ! girl1 my companion1 & made a
 great fri5d%ip ) h]4 ,! eld] ( ! two1 =
 ,i mu/ give !m names1 %all be call$    
,*>mides1 :i* seems to correspond ) 8   
/ately *>m1 & ! y\ng] may be kn[n z     
,lucius4  ,i sat "o day ) ,*>mides1     
li/5+ to a great conc]t ( /r+$ & w9d    

in/rum5ts1 9 a portico :i* gave on a    
l>ge %elt]$ g>d54 ,he 0 mu* absorb$ 9 ! 
music1 :i* 0 n[ ( a brisk & measur$     
beauty1 & n[ ( a sweet s]i\sness :i* _h 
a v luxuri\s effect ^u my m9d4 ,x is    
wond]ful to me1 said ,*>mides1 z ! la/  
movem5t drew to a close ( liquid melody1
 t ^! s\nds %\ld pass into ! he>t l w9e1
 height5+ & uplift+ ! ?\ght--!re is no?+
 s beautiful z ! discrim9ation ( mood ) 
:i* x affects "o1 weigh+ "o delicate    
phrase aga9/ ano!r1 & f9d+ all s p]fect4
  ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i c und]/& t2 b ,i mu/
 confess t !re seems to me some?+ want+ 
9 ! melodies ( ?is place4 ,! music :i*  
,i lov$ 9 ! old days 0 ! music :i* spoke
 to ! s\l ( some?+ fur!r yet &          
unatta9able2 b "h ! music seems to h    
atta9$ its end1 & to h fulfill$ its own 
desire4  ,yes1 said ,*>mides1 ,i "k t y 
feel t2 y\r m9d is v cle> to me1 up to a
 c]ta9 po9t2 & ,i h sometimes wond]$ :y 
y sp5d y\r "t "h1 because y are n "o (  
u1 z y\r fri5d ,cyn?ia is4  ,i glanc$1 z
 he spoke1 to :]e ,cyn?ia sat on a great

 c>v$ settle among cu%ions1 side by side
 ) ,lucius1 :isp]+ to him ) a smile4    
,no1 ,i said1 ,i d n ?9k ,i h f\nd my   
place yet1 b ,i am "h1 ,i ?9k1 = a      
purpose1 & ,i d n "k :at t purpose is4  
,well1 he said1 ,i h sometimes wond]$   
myself4 ,i feel t y may h some?+ to tell
 me1 "s message = me4 ,i ?\ght t :5 ,i  
fir/ saw y2 b ,i _c q p]ceive :at is 9  
y\r m9d1 & ,i see t y d n :olly "k :at  
is 9 m9e4 ,i h be5 "h = a long "t1 & ,i 
h a s5se t ,i d n get on1 d n move2 &   
yet ,i h liv$ 9 extreme joy & cont5tm5t1
 except t ,i dread to return to life1 z 
,i "k ,i mu/ return4 ,i h liv$ (t51 &   
always 9 joy--b 9 life !re are con/antly
 ?+s to endure1 little ?+s :i* j ruffle 
! s]5ity ( s\l :i* ,i desire1 & :i* ,i  
may fairly say ,i "h enjoy4 ,i h lov$   
beauty1 & n intemp]ately2 & !re h be5   
o!r p--m5 & wom5--:om ,i h lov$1 9 a    
s5se2 b ! love ( !m has always seem$ a  
sort ( int]ruption to ! life ,i desir$1 
some?+ disord]$ & /ra9$1 :i* hurt me1 & 
kept me away f ! peace ,i desir$--f !   

f9e weigh+ ( s\nds & col\rs1 & !        
pleasure ( beautiful =ms & l9es2 & ,i   
dread to return to life1 because "o _c  
avoid love & sorr[1 & mean tr\bles1 :i* 
wa/e ! _s 9 va94  ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i c   
und]/& :at y feel v well1 because ,i too
 h kn[n :at x is to desire to live 9    
peace & beauty1 n to be di/urb$ or      
frett$2 b ! reason1 ,i ?9k1 :y x is     
dang]\s1 is n because life becomes too  
easy4 ,t is n ! dang] at all--life is   
nev] easy1 :atev] x is6 ,b ! dang] is t 
x gr[s too solemn6 ,"o is apt to become 
l a prie/1 always celebrat+ holy        
my/]ies1 always 9 a vision1 ) no "t =   
laught]1 & disput+1 & qu>rell+1 & be+   
silly & play+4 ,x is ! poor body aga9 t 
is amiss4 ,x is l ! camel1 poor ?+2 x   
groans & weeps1 b x goes on4 ,"o _c live
 :olly 9 a vision2 & life does n become 
m simple s1 b m complicat$1 = "o's "t & 
en]gy are sp5t 9 avoid+ ! sordid & !    
tiresome ?+s :i* "o _c & mu/ n avoid4 ,i
 rememb]1 9 an illness :i* ,i _h1 :5 ,i 
0 depress$ & fanciful1 a homely old     

doctor said to me1 ',don't be too c>eful
 ( y\rself3 don't ?9k y c't be> ?is &   
t--g out to d9n]--eat & dr9k r too mu*6'
 ,x seem$ to be co>se advice1 b x 0     
wise4  ,yes1 said ,*>mides1 x 0 wise2 b 
x is difficult to feel x s at ! "t4 ,i  
wond]6 ,i ?9k p]haps ,i h made ! mi/ake 
( be+ too fa/idi\s4 ,b x seem$ s f9e a  
goal t "o _h 9 sight1 to *a/5 & temp]   
all "o's ?\ghts to :at 0 beautiful--to  
judge & di/+ui%1 to *oose ! "r tones &  
h>monies1 to be always reject+ & ref9+4 
,x _h its sorr[s1 ( c\rse4 ,h[ (t5 9 !  
old days "o came 9 contact ) "s graci\s 
& beautiful p]sonality1 & flung oneself 
into close relations2 & !n "o began to  
see ?is & t flaw4 ,!re 7 lapses 9 tact1 
petulances1 littl5esses2 "o's fri5d did 
n rightly use 8 beautiful m9d2 he 0     
jeal\s1 suspici\s1 trivial1 petty2 x    
end$ 9 disillusionm5t4 ,in/ead ( tak+   
him z a pass5g] on "o's vessel1 &       
det]m9+ to live at peace1 to ov]look1 to
 accommodate1 "o began to wat* = an     
opportunity ( putt+ him d[n c\rte\sly at

 "s /opp+-place2 & in/ead ( be+ grateful
 = 8 fri5d%ip1 "o 0 vex$ ) him =        
disappo9t+ "o4 ,we mu/ speak m ( ^! ?+s4
 ,i seem to feel ! want ( some?+ common]
 & broad] 9 my ?\ghts2 b 9 ?is place x  
is h>d to *ange4  ,w y =give me !n1 ,i  
said1 if ,i ask y pla9ly :at ?is place  
is8 ,x seems v /range to me1 & yet ,i   
?9k ,i h be5 "h be=e4  ,*>mides look$ at
 me ) a smile4 ,x has be5 call$1 he     
said1 by _m ugly names1 & m5 h be5      
unreasonably afraid ( x4 ,x is ! place (
 satisfi$ desire1 &1 z y see1 x is a    
com=table place en\gh4 ,! !ologians 9 _!
 co>se way call x ,hell1 ?\gh t is a ^w 
:i* is =bidd5 "h2 x is inde$ a sort (   
treason to use ! ^w1 because ( its      
un=tunate association--& y c see ) y\r  
own eyes t ,i h done wrong ev5 to speak 
( x4  ,i look$ r\nd1 & saw inde$ t a    
visible tremor _h fall5 on ! gr\ps ab\t 
u2 x 0 z ?\gh a cold cl\d1 full ( hail &
 d>kness1 _h float$ ov] a sunny sky4 ,p 
7 hurry+ out ( ! g>d51 & "s 7 reg>d+ u  
askance & ) fr[ns ( disapproval4 ,9 a   

mom5t or two we 7 left alone4  ,i h be5 
indiscreet1 said ,*>mides1 b ,i feel    
someh[ 9 a rebelli\s mood2 & inde$ x has
 long seem$ absurd to me t y %\ld be    
unaw>e ( ! fact1 & s obvi\sly guileless6
 ,b ,i w speak no m ( ?is to-day4 ,p    
come & g "h v /rangely1 & ,i h sometimes
 wond]$ if x w\ld n soon be "t = me to  
g2 b x w\ld be idle to pret5d t ,i h n  
be5 happy "h4     ,,xi   ,:at ,*>mides  
_h told me fill$ me ) great a/oni%m5t2 x
 seem$ to me /range t ,i _h n p]ceiv$ ! 
tru? be=e4 ,x made me feel t ,i _h      
someh[ be5 wa/+ "t4 ,i 0 tempt$ to call 
,amro? to my side1 b ,i rememb]$ :at he 
_h said1 & ,i det]m9$ to resi/ !        
impulse4 ,i half expect$ to f9d t our   
/range talk1 & ! v obvi\s disapproval ( 
our words1 _h made "s diff]5ce to me4 ,b
 x 0 n ! case4 ,i f\nd myself treat$ ) !
 same smil+ welcome z be=e1 & inde$ ) an
 add$ k9d ( g5tl5ess1 su* z old] p give 
to a *ild :o has be5 confront$ ) "s h>d 
fact ( life1 su* z a sorr[ or an        
illness4 ,?is 9 a way disconc]t$ me2 = 9

 ! mom5t :5 ,i _h p]ceiv$ ! tru?1 !re _h
 come ov] me ! feel+ t ,i ought 9 "s way
 to be/ir myself to prea*1 to w>n1 to   
advise4 ,b ! idea ( f9d+ any sort (     
fault ) ^! cont5t$1 leisurely1 int]e/$  
p1 seem$ to me absurd1 & s ,i cont9u$ z 
be=e1 half enjoy+ ! life ab\t me1 & half
 bor$ by x4 ,x seem$ s ludicr\s 9 any   
way to pity ! inhabitants ( ! place1 &  
yet ,i dimly saw t none ( !m c\ld       
possibly cont9ue !re4 ,b ,i soon saw t  
!re 0 no "q ( advice1 because ,i _h no?+
 to advise4 ,to ask !m to be discont5t$1
 to suff]1 to inquire1 seem$ z absurd z 
to ask a man rid+ com=tably 9 a c>riage 
to get out & walk2 & yet ,i felt t x 0 j
 t :i* !y ne$$4 ,b "o effect ! incid5t  
_h2 x someh[ seem$ to draw me m to      
,cyn?ia4 ,!re foll[$ a "t ( v close     
companion%ip ) h]4 ,%e s\ght me out1 %e 
began to confide 9 me1 *att]+ ab\t h]   
happ9ess & h] delight 9 h] surr\nd+s1 z 
a *ild might *att]1 & half *id+ me1 9 a 
t5d] & pretty way1 = n be+ m at ease 9 !
 place4 ,y always seem to me1 %e said1 z

 if y 7 only /ay+ "h1 :ile ,i feel z if 
,i c\ld live "h = ev]4 ,( c\rse y are v 
k9d & pati5t ab\t x all1 b y are n at   
home--& ,i don't c>e a bit ab\t y\r     
disapproval n[4 ,%e talk$ to me mu* ab\t
 ,lucius1 :o seem$ to h a great         
attraction = h]4 ,he is all "r1 %e said4
 ,!re is no nons5se ab\t him1--we und]/&
 ea* o!r2 ,i don't get tir$ ( him1 & we 
l ! same ?+s4 ,i seem to "k exactly :at 
he feels ab\t ev]y?+2 & t is "o ( !     
com=ts ( ?is place1 t no "o asks        
que/ions or makes mis*ief2 "o c d j z "o
 likes all ! "t4 ,i did n ?9k1 :5 ,i 0  
alive1 t !re c\ld be any?+ s delightful 
z all ?is ahead ( me4  ,d y nev] ?9k--8 
,i began1 b %e put h] h& to my lips1 l a
 *ild1 to /op me1 & said1 ,no1 ,i nev]  
?9k1 & ,i nev] mean to ?9k1 ( all ! old 
hateful ?+s4 ,i nev] wilfully did any   
h>m2 ,i only lik$ ! p :o lik$ me1 & gave
 !m all !y ask$--& n[ ,i "k t ,i did "r1
 ?\gh 9 old days s]i\s p us$ to try to  
fright5 me4 ,god is v good to me1 %e w5t
 on1 smil+1 to all[ me to be happy 9 my 

own way4  ,:ile we talk$ ?us1 sitt+ on a
 seat t ov]look$ ! great city--,i _h    
nev] se5 x look s /ately & beautiful1 s 
full ( all t ! he>t c\ld desire--,lucius
 himself drew ne> to u1 smil+1 & seat$  
himself ! o!r side ( ,cyn?ia4 ,n[ is n  
?is heav5ly8 %e said2 to be ) ! two p ,i
 l be/--= y are a fai?ful old ?+1 y     
"k--& n to be afraid ( any?+            
disagreeable or tiresome happ5+--n to h 
to expla9 or make excuses1 :at c\ld be  
bett]8  ,yes1 said ,lucius1 x is happy  
en\gh1 & he smil$ at me 9 a fri5dly way4
 ,! pleasante/ po9t is t "o c wait 9 ?is
 *>m+ place4 ,9 ! old days1 "o 0 afraid 
( a hundr$ ?+s--money1 wea!r1 illness1  
criticism4 ,"o _h to make love 9 a      
hurry1 because "o miss$ ! beautiful h\r2
 & !n !re 0 ! horror ( gr[+ old4 ,b n[  
if ,cyn?ia *ooses to amuse h]self ) o!r 
p1 :at d ,i c>e8 ,%e comes back z       
delightful z ev]1 & x is only s mu* m to
 be amus$ ab\t4 ,"o is n ev5 afraid (   
be+ lazy1 & z = ^? ugly tw+es ( :at "o  
call$ consci5ce--:i* 7 only a sort (    

rheumatism aft] all--t is all gone too2 
& ! delight ( f9d+ t "o 0 "r aft] all1 &
 t !re 7 really no su* ?+s z            
consequ5ces6  ,i became aw>e1 z ,lucius 
spoke ?us1 9 all 8 c>eless beauty1 ( a  
vague tr\ble ( s\l4 ,i seem$ to =esee a 
k9d ( conflict betwe5 myself & him4 ,he 
felt x too1 ,i 0 aw>e2 = he drew ,cyn?ia
 to him1 & said some?+ to h]2 & pres5tly
 !y w5t (f laugh+1 l a pair ( *ildr51   
wav+ a f>ewell to me4 ,i exp]i5c$ a s5se
 ( desolation1 kn[+ 9 my m9d t all 0 n  
well1 & yet feel+ s p[]less to cont5d ) 
happ9ess s /rong & wide4     ,,xii      
,pres5tly ,i w&]$ (f alone1 & w5t out ( 
! city ) a sudd5 impulse4 ,i ?\ght ,i   
w\ld g 9 ! opposite direction to t by   
:i* ,i _h ent]$ x4 ,i c\ld see ! great  
hills d[n :i* ,cyn?ia & ,i _h made our  
way 9 ! dawn2 b ,i _h nev] gone 9 !     
fur!r direction1 :]e !re /ret*$ :at     
seem$ to be a great =e/4 ,! :ole place  
lay ba!d 9 a calm light1 all unutt]ably 
beautiful4 ,i w&]$ long by /reams &     
wood-ends1 e corn] t ,i turn$ reveal+   

new prospects ( delight4 ,i came at la/ 
to ! edge ( ! =e/1 ! m\?s ( little op5  
glades runn+ up into x1 ) f]n &         
?orn-?ickets4 ,!re 7 de] "h br[s+ ab\t !
 d+les1 :i* let me come close to !m &   
t\* !m1 rais+ _! heads f ! grass1 &     
reg>d+ me ) g5tle & fe>less eyes4 ,birds
 sang s(tly among ! b\ghs1 & ev5 flutt]$
 to my %\ld]1 z if pleas$ to be notic$4 
,s ?is 0 :at 0 call$ on e>? ! place (   
torm5t1 a place into :i* x seem$ z if   
no?+ ( sorr[ or pa9 c\ld ev] intrude6   
,j on ! edge ( ! wood /ood a little     
cottage1 surr\nd$ by a quiet g>d51 bees 
humm+ ab\t ! fl[]s1 ! sc5ts ( :i* came )
 a homely sweetness on ! air4 ,b "h ,i  
saw some?+ :i* ,i did n at fir/ und]/&4 
,?is 0 a gr\p ( ?ree p1 a man & a woman 
& a boy ( ab\t sev5te51 beside ! cottage
 por*4 ,!y _h a ru/ic air ab\t !m1 & !  
same sort ( leisurely look t all ! p ( !
 l& wore4 ,!y 7 all ?ree beautiful1 ) a 
simple & appropriate k9d ( beauty1 su* z
 comes ( a cont5t$ soj\rn 9 ! op5 air4  
,b ,i became 9 a mom5t aw>e t !re 0 a   

di/urb+ elem5t among !m4 ,! two eld]s   
seem$ to be try+ to p]suade ! boy1 :o   
li/5$ smil+ly en\gh1 b half turn$ away f
 !m1 z ?\gh he 7 go+ away on "s err& (  
:i* !y did n approve4 ,!y greet$ me1 z  
,i drew ne>1 ) ! same cordiality z "o   
receiv$ ev]y:]e1 & ! man said1 ,p]haps y
 c help u1 sir1 = we are 9 a tr\ble8 ,! 
woman jo9$ ) a murmur 9 ! reque/1 & ,i  
said ,i w\ld gladly d :at ,i c\ld2 :ile 
,i spoke1 ! boy wat*$ me e>ne/ly1 &     
some?+ drew me to him1 because ,i saw a 
look t seem$ to tell me t he 01 l       
myself1 a /rang] 9 ! place4 ,!n ! man   
said1 ,we h liv$ "h toge!r v happily a  
long "t1 we ?ree--,i d n "k h[ we came  
toge!r1 b s x 02 & we h be5 m at ease   
?an words c tell1 aft] h>d lives 9 ! o!r
 _w2 & n[ ?is lad "h1 :o has be5 our    
delight1 says t he mu/ g else:]e & _c   
/ay ) u2 & we w\ld p]suade him if we    
c\ld2 & p]haps y1 sir1 :o no d\bt "k :at
 lies beyond ! fields & woods t we see1 
c satisfy him t x is bett] to rema94    
,:ile he spoke1 ! o!r two _h drawn ne>  

to me1 & ! eyes ( ! woman dwelt ^u ! boy
 ) a look ( int5t love1 :ile ! boy look$
 9 my face anxi\sly & inquir+ly4 ,i c\ld
 see1 ,i f\nd1 v deep into 8 he>t1 & ,i 
saw 9 him a ne$ = fur!r exp]i5ce1 & a   
desire to g fur!r on2 & ,i knew at once 
t ?is c\ld only be satisfi$ 9 "o way1 & 
t some?+ w\ld gr[ out ( x bo? = himself 
& = 8 companions4 ,s ,i said1 z smil+ly 
z ,i c\ld1 ,i d n inde$ "k mu* ( ! ways 
( ?is place1 b ?is ,i "k1 t we mu/ g :]e
 we are s5t1 t no h>m c befall u1 & t we
 are nev] f> away f ^? :om we love4 ,i  
myself h lately be5 s5t to visit ?is    
/range l&2 x seems only ye/]day s9ce ,i 
left ! m\nta9s yond]1 & yet ,i h se5 an 
abundance ( /range & beautiful ?+s2 we  
mu/ rememb] t "h !re is no sickness or  
mis=tune or gr[+ old2 & !re is no       
reason1 z !re (t5 seem$ to be on e>?1 :y
 we %\ld fight aga9/ sep>ation &        
dep>ture4 ,no "o c1 ,i ?9k1 be h9d]$ "h 
f go+ :]e he is b\nd4 ,s ,i believe t y 
w let ! boy g joyfully & will+ly1 = ,i  
am sure ( ?is1 t 8 j\rney holds n only  

great ?+s = himself1 b ev5 great] ?+s = 
bo? ( y 9 ! future4 ,s be cont5t & let  
him dep>t4  ,at ?is ! woman said1 ,yes1 
t is "r1 ! /rang] is "r1 & we mu/ h9d] !
 *ild no long]4 ,no h>m c come ( x1 b   
only good2 p]haps he w return1 or we may
 foll[ him1 :5 ! day comes = t4  ,i saw 
t ! old man 0 n :olly satisfi$ ) ?is4   
,he %ook 8 head & look$ sadly on ! boy2 
& !n = a "t we sat & talk$ ( _m ?+s4 ,"o
 ?+ t ! old man said surpris$ me v      
greatly4 ,he seem$ to h liv$ _m lives1 &
 always lives ( lab\r2 he _h gr[n1 ,i   
ga!r$ f 8 simple talk1 to h a great love
 ( ! e>?1 ! lives ( flocks & h]ds1 & (  
all ! plants t grew out ( ! e>? or      
fl\ri%$ 9 x4 ,i _h ?\ght be=e1 9 a      
fooli% way1 t all ?is might be put away 
f ! _s1 9 ! l& :]e !re 0 no ne$ ( su*   
?+s2 b ,i saw n[ t !re 0 a claim =      
lab\r1 & a love ( common ?+s1 :i* did n 
belong only to ! body1 b 0 a real desire
 ( ! _s4 ,he spoke ( ! pleasures ( t5d+ 
cattle1 ( cutt+ fagots 9 ! =e/ woodl&   
among ! copses1 ( pl\gh+ & s[+1 ) !     

brea? ( ! e>? ab\t "o2 till ,i saw t !  
toil ( ! _w1 :i* ,i _h dimly ?\ght ( z a
 ?+ :i* no "o w\ld d if !y 7 n oblig$1 0
 a real in/9ct ( ! _s1 & _h its c\nt]p>t
 beyond ! body4 ,i _h suppos$ inde$ t 9 
a region :]e all tr\bl\s accid5ts (     
matt] 7 ov] & done )1 & :]e !re 0 no ne$
 ( bodily su/5ance1 !re c\ld be no?+ :i*
 resembl$ ! old we>y toil ( ! body2 b n[
 ,i saw gladly t ?is 0 n s1 & t ! primal
 ne$s ( ! _s outla/ ! visible _w4 ,?\gh 
my own life _h be5 sp5t mo/ly among     
books & ?+s ( ! m9d1 ,i knew well ! joys
 ( ! c\ntryside1 ! blossom+ ( !         
or*>d-close1 ! high-pil$ gran>y1 !      
brightly-pa9t$ waggon load$ ) hay1 !    
creak+ ( ! cid]-press1 ! l[+ ( cattle 9 
! /all1 ! /amp+ ( horses 9 ! /able1 !   
mud-/a9$ implem5ts hang+ 9 ! high-ro($1 
cobwebb$ b>n4 ,i _h nev] kn[n :y ,i lov$
 ^! ?+s s well1 & _h inv5t$ _m fancies  
to expla9 x2 b n[ ,i saw t x 0 ! natural
 delight 9 "w & increase2 & t ! love :i*
 surr\nd$ all ^! ?+s 0 ! sign t !y 7    
real inde$1 & t 9 no "p ( life c\ld !y  

be put away4 ,& !n !re came on me a sort
 ( g5tle laught] at ! ?\ght ( h[ mu* ( !
 religion ( ! _w sp5t itself on bidd+ ! 
he>t turn away f vanities1 & lose itself
 9 dreams ( wond]s & doctr9es1 & :at 7  
call$ high] & holi] ?+s ?an b>ns & byres
 & %eep-p5s4 ,yet ! tru? _h be5 />+ me 9
 ! face all ! "t1 if only ,i c\ld h se5 
x2 t ! s5se ( con/ra9t & unreality t    
fell ^u "o 9 religi\s matt]s1 :5 "s     
curi\s & intricate matt] 0 confus$ly    
exp\nd$1 0 p]fectly natural & :olesome2 
& t ! real life ( man lay 9 ! ?+s to :i*
 "o return$1 on "w-a-day morn+s1 ) su*  
relief--! acts ( life1 ! "w ( home/ead1 
libr>y1 b>rack1 (fice1 & class-room1 !  
sight & s\nd ( humanity1 ! smiles &     
glances & unconsid]$ words4  ,:5 we _h  
sat toge!r = a "t1 ! boy made ha/e to   
dep>t4 ,we ?ree w5t ) him to ! edge ( ! 
wood1 :]e a road pass$ up among ! oaks4 
,! ?ree embrac$ & kiss$ & said _m lov+  
words2 & !n to ease ! anxieties ( ! two1
 ,i said t ,i w\ld myself set ! boy =w>d
 on 8 way1 & see him well be/[$4 ,!y    

?ank$ me1 & we w5t toge!r into ! wood1 !
 two lov+ly wav+ & beckon+1 & ! boy     
/epp+ bli!ly by my side4  ,i ask$ him   
:e!r he 0 n sorry to g & leave ! quiet  
place & ! pair t lov$ him4 ,he smil$ &  
said t he knew he 0 n leav+ !m at all1 &
 t he 0 sure t !y w\ld soon foll[2 & t =
 himself ! "t _h come to "k m ( ! place4
 ,i le>n$ f him t 8 la/ life _h be5 an  
unhappy "o1 9 a cr[d$ /reet & a slov5ly 
home1 ) mu* evil ( talk & act ab\t him2 
he _h hat$ x all1 he said1 b = a little 
si/] t he _h lov$1 :o _h kiss$ & clasp$ 
him1 weep+1 :5 he lay dy+ ( a mis]able  
disease4 ,he said t he ?\ght he %\ld f9d
 h]1 :i* made "p ( 8 joy ( go+2 t = a   
long :ile !re _h come to him a s5se ( h]
 remembrance & love2 & t he _h once s5t 
8 ?\ght back to e>? to f9d h]1 & %e 0 9 
mu* grief & c>e2 & t !n all ^! messages 
_h at once ceas$1 & he knew t %e _h left
 ! body4 ,he 0 a m]ry boy1 full (       
delight & laught]1 & we w5t v *e]fully  
toge!r ?r\gh ! sunlit wood1 ) its gre5  
glades & op5 spaces1 :i* seem$ all full 

( life & happ9ess1 creatures liv+ toge!r
 9 goodwill & com=t4 ,i saw 9 ?is j\rney
 t all ?+s t ev] liv$ a consci\s life 9 
"o ( ! innum]able worlds _h a place &   
life ( _! own1 & a "t ( refre%m5t l     
myself4 ,:at ,i c\ld n disc]n 0 :e!r !re
 0 any int]*ange ( lives1 :e!r ! s\l ( !
 tree c\ld become an animal1 or ! animal
 progress to be a man4 ,x seem$ to me t 
x 0 n s1 b t ea* _h a sep>ate life ( its
 own4 ,b ,i saw h[ fooli% 0 ! fancy t ,i
 _h pursu$ 9 old days1 t !re 0 a c5tral 
res]voir ( life1 into :i* at dea? all   
little lives 7 m]g$2 ,i 0 yet to le>n h[
 /rangely all life 0 knit toge!r1 b n[  
,i saw t individuality 0 a real &       
sep>ate ?+1 :i* c\ld n be brok5 or lo/1 
& t all ?+s t _h ev] enjoy$ a           
consci\sness ( ! privilege ( sep>ate    
life _h a true dignity & wor? ( exi/5ce2
 & t x 0 only ! body t _h made ho/ility 
necess>y2 t ?\gh ! body c\ld prey ^u !  
bodies ( animal & plant1 yet t no s\l   
c\ld dev\r or incorporate any o!r s\l4  
,b z yet ! m]g+ ( s\l 9 s\l ?r\gh love 0

 unse5 & inde$ unsuspect$ by me4  ,n[ z 
we w5t 9 ! wood1 ! boy & ,i1 x came into
 my m9d 9 a fla% t ,i _h se5 a great    
secret4 ,i _h se51 ,i knew1 v little ( !
 great l& yet--& inde$ ,i _h be5 b 9 !  
l[e/ place ( all3 & ,i ?\ght h[ base &  
dull our ideas _h be5 ^u e>? ( ,god & ,8
 c>e ( m54 ,we _h ?\ght ( ,him dimly z  
sweep+ into ,8 place ( torm5t & despair 
all poison$ & diseas$ lives1 all lives t
 _h clung to ! body & to ! pleasures ( !
 body1 all :o _h s9n$ idly1 or wilfully1
 or pr\dly2 & ,i saw n[ t ,he us$ m5 f> 
m wisely & lov+ly ?an ?us4 ,into ?is    
l[e/ place inde$ pass$ all sad1 &       
diseas$1 & unhappy spirits3 & in/ead (  
be+ torm5t$ or accurs$1 all 0 made      
delightful & beautiful = !m !re1 because
 !y ne$$ n h>% & r\gh h&l+1 b c>e & s(t 
t5dance4 ,!y 7 n to be fright5$ h5ce1 or
 to live 9 fe> & angui%1 b to live      
delici\sly accord+ to _! wi%1 & to be   
drawn to p]ceive 9 "s quiet mann] t all 
0 n well ) !m2 !y 7 to h _! he>t's      
desire1 & le>n t x c\ld n satisfy !m2 b 

! only ?+ t c\ld draw !m !nce 0 ! love (
 "s o!r s\l :om !y mu/ pursue & f9d1 if 
!y c\ld4 ,x 0 all s high & reasonable & 
j t ,i c\ld n admire x en\gh4 ,i saw t !
 boy 0 drawn !nce by ! love ( 8 little  
si/]1 :o 0 else:]e2 & t ! love & loss ( 
! boy w\ld pres5tly draw ! old] pair to 
foll[ him & to leave ! place ( he>t's   
delight4 ,& !n ,i began to see t ,cyn?ia
 & ,*>mides & ,lucius 7 be+ made ready1 
ea* at 8 own "t1 to leave _! little     
pleasures & ord]$ lives ( happ9ess1 & to
 foll[ heav5w>ds 9 due c\rse4 ,because x
 0 made pla9 to me t x 0 ! love & wor%ip
 ( "s o!r s\l t 0 ! con/ra9+ =ce2 b :at 
! end w\ld be ,i c\ld n disc]n4  ,& n[ z
 we w5t ?r\gh ! wood1 ,i began to feel a
 /range elation & joy ( _s1 sev]e &     
brac+1 v diff]5t f my languid &         
half-cont5t$ acquiesc5ce 9 ! place (    
beauty2 & n[ ! woods began to *ange _!  
k9d2 !re 7 few] =e/ trees n[1 b b>e     
hea?s ) pat*es ( grey s& & scatt]$ p9es2
 & !re began to drift across ! light a  
grey vap\r :i* hid ! delicate hues &    

col\rs ( ! sunlight1 & made ev]y?+ appe>
 pale & sp>e4 ,v soon we came out on !  
br[ ( a l[ hill1 & saw1 all spread out  
be=e u1 a place :i*1 = all its dulness &
 d>kness1 _h a solemn beauty ( its own4 
,!re 7 great /one build+s v solidly     
made1 ) high *imneys :i* seem$ to /ream 
) smoke2 we c\ld see m51 z small z ants1
 mov+ 9 & out ( ! build+s2 x seem$ l a  
place ( manufacture1 ) a busy life ( its
 own4 ,b "h ,i sudd5ly felt t ,i c\ld g 
no fur!r1 b mu/ return4 ,i hop$ t ,i    
%\ld see ! grim place aga91 & ,i desir$ 
) all my s\l to g d[n into x1 & see :at 
eag] life x 0 t 0 be+ liv$ !re4 ,& !    
boy1 ,i saw1 felt ?is too1 & 0 impati5t 
to proce$4 ,s we said f>ewell ) mu*     
t5d]ness1 & ! boy w5t d[n swiftly across
 ! moorl&1 till he met "s "o :o 0 com+  
out ( ! city1 & conf]r$ a little ) him2 
& !n he turn$ & wav$ 8 h& to me1 & ,i   
wav$ my h& f ! br[ ( ! hill1 envy+ him 9
 my he>t1 & w5t back 9 sorr[ into !     
sun%9e ( ! wood4  ,& z ,i did s ,i _h a 
great joy1 because ,i saw ,amro? come   

sudd5ly runn+ to me out ( ! wood1 :o put
 8 arm ?r\gh m9e1 & walk$ ) me4 ,!n ,i  
told him ( all ,i _h se5 & ?\ght1 :ile  
he smil$ & nodd$ & told me x 0 mu* z ,i 
imag9$4 ,yes1 he said1 x is ev5 s4 ,!   
s\ls y h se5 9 ?is f9e c\ntry "h are j z
 *ildr5 :o are giv5 _! fill ( pleasant  
?+s4 ,_m ( !m h come into ! /ate 9 :i* y
 see !m f no fault ( _! own1 because _! 
s\ls are "y & ignorant4 ,!y h %runk f   
all pa9 & ef=t & t$ium1 l a *ild t does 
n l 8 lessons4 ,!re is no ?\ght (       
puni%m5t1 ( c\rse4 ,no "o le>ns any?+ ( 
puni%m5t except a c[>dly fe>4 ,we nev]  
advance until we h ! w to advance1 & !re
 is no?+ 9 m]e suff]+1 unless we le>n to
 be> x g5tly = ! sake ( love4 ,on e>? x 
is n ,god b man :o is cruel4 ,!re is    
inde$ a place ( sorr[1 :i* y w see :5 y 
c be> ! sight1 :]e ! self-righte\s & !  
h>% g = a "t1 & all ^? :o h made o!rs   
suff] because !y believ$ 9 _! own ju/ice
 & insight4 ,y w f9d !re all tyrants &  
conqu]ors1 & _m ri* m51 :o us$ _! weal? 
he$lessly2 & ev5 s y w be surpris$ :5 y 

see x4 ,b ^? spirits are ! h>de/ ( all  
to help1 because !y h lov$ no?+ b _! own
 virtue or _! own ambition2 yet y w see 
h[ !y too are drawn !nce2 & n[ t y h _h 
a sight ( ! bett] c\ntry1 tell me h[ y  
lik$ x4  ,:y1 ,i said1 x is pla9 & au/]e
 en\gh2 b ,i felt a great quick5+ ( _s1 
& a desire to jo9 9 ! lab\rs ( ! place4 
,amro? smil$1 & said1 ,y w h little %>e 
9 t4 ,y w f9d y\r task1 no d\bt1 :5 y   
are /rong en\gh2 & n[ y mu/ g back &    
make unwill+ holiday ) y\r pleasant     
fri5ds1 y h n mu* long] to /ay !re2 &   
surely--he laugh$ z he spoke--y c endure
 a little m ( ^? pretty conc]ts & *>m+  
talk ( art & its values & pulsations6   
,i c endure x1 ,i said1 laugh+1 = x does
 me good to see y & to he> y2 b tell me1
 ,amro?1 :at h y be5 ab\t all ?is "t8 ,h
 y _h a ?\ght ( me8  ,yes1 inde$1 said  
,amro?1 laugh+4 ,i don't =get y1 & ,i   
love y\r company2 b ,i am a busy man    
myself1 & h some?+ pleasant] to d ?an to
 att5d ^! elegant receptions ( y\rs--at 
:i*1 inde$1 ,i h sometimes ?\ght y out (

 place4  ,z we ?us talk$ we came to !   
=e/ lodge4 ,! old pair came runn+ out to
 greet me1 & ,i told !m t ! boy 0 well  
be/[$4 ,i c\ld see 9 ! woman's face t %e
 w\ld soon foll[ him1 & ev5 ! old man _h
 a look t ,i _h n se5 9 him be=e2 & "h  
,amro? left me1 & ,i return$ to ! city1 
:]e all 0 z peaceable z be=e4     ,,xiii
   ,b :5 ,i saw ,cyn?ia1 z ,i pres5tly  
did1 %e too 0 9 a diff]5t mood4 ,%e _h  
positively miss$ me1 & told me s ) _m   
ende>m5ts4 ,i 0 n to rema9 away s long4 
,i 0 useful to h]4 ,*>mides _h become   
tiresome & lo/ 9 ?\ght1 b ,lucius 0 z   
sweet z ev]4 ,"s new-com]s _h arriv$1   
all pleasant en\gh4 ,%e ask$ me :]e ,i  
_h be51 & ,i told h] all ! /ory4 ,yes1 t
 is beautiful en\gh1 %e said1 b ,i hate 
all ?is break+ up & go+ on4 ,i am sure  
,i d n wi% = any *ange4 ,%e made a      
grimace ( disgu/ at ! idea ( ! ugly t[n 
,i _h se51 & !n %e said t %e w\ld g ) me
 "s "t to look at x1 because x w\ld make
 h] happi] to return to h] peace2 & !n  
%e w5t (f to tell ,lucius4  ,i soon f\nd

 ,*>mides1 & ,i told him my adv5tures4  
,t is a curi\s /ory1 he said4 ,i l to   
?9k ( p c>+ = ea* o!r s2 t is           
picturesque6 ,^! simple emotions are    
int]e/+4 ,& "o likes to ?9k t p :o h    
none ( ! f9] ta/es %\ld h some?+ to fall
 back ^u--some?+ hot & /rong1 z we us$  
to say4  ,b1 ,i said1 tell me ?is1      
,*>mides1 0 !re nev] any "o 9 ! old days
 :om y c>$ = l t8  ,i ?\ght s (t5 en\gh1
 said he1 a little peevi%ly1 b y d n "k 
h[ mu* a man l myself is at ! m]cy (    
little ?+s6 ,an ugly h&1 a brok5 too?1 a
 fall5 *eek 444 x seems little en\gh1 b 
"o has a sort ( /&>d4 ,i _h a           
microscopic eye1 y "k1 & a little blemi%
 0 a s]i\s ?+ to me4 ,i 0 always 9 se>* 
( some?+ t ,i c\ld n f9d2 !n !re 7      
awkw>d /ra9s 9 ! *>act]s ( p--!y 7 mean 
or gre$y or selfi%1 & all my pleasure 0 
sudd5ly da%$4 ,i am speak+1 he w5t on1 )
 a /range c&\r6 ,i don't def5d x or     
excuse x1 b !re x 04 ,i did once1 z a   
*ild1 ,i believe1 c>e = "o p]son--an old
 nurse ( m9e--9 ! "r way4 ,de>1 h[ good 

%e 0 to me6 ,i rememb] once h[ %e came  
all ! way1 aft] %e _h left u1 to see me 
on my way ?r\gh t[n4 ,%e j met me at a  
railway /ation1 & %e _h b\ght a little  
book :i* %e ?\ght might amuse me1 & a   
bag ( oranges--%e rememb]$ t ,i us$ to l
 oranges4 ,i recollect at ! "t ?9k+ x 0 
all v t\*+ & devot$2 b ,i 0 ) a fri5d ( 
m9e1 & _h n "t to say mu*4 ,i c see h]  
old face1 smil+1 ) te>s 9 h] eyes1 z we 
w5t (f4 ,i gave ! book & ! oranges away1
 ,i rememb]1 to a *ild at ! next /ation4
 ,x is curi\s h[ x all comes back to me 
n[2 ,i nev] saw h] aga91 & ,i wi% ,i _h 
behav$ bett]4 ,i %\ld l to see h] aga91 
& to tell h] t ,i really c>$6 ,i wond]  
if t is possible8 ,b !re is really s mu*
 to d "h & to enjoy2 & !re is no "o to  
tell me :]e to g1 s t ,i am puzzl$4 ,:at
 is "o to d8  ,i ?9k t if "o desires a  
?+ en\gh "h1 ,*>mides1 ,i said1 "o is 9 
a fair way to obta9 x4 ,nev] m9d6 a door
 w be op5$4 ,b "o has got to c>e1 ,i    
suppose2 x is n en\gh to look ^u x z a  
pretty effect1 :i* "o w\ld j l to put 9 

its place ) o!r effects--',op51         
sesame'--d y rememb]8 ,!re is a *>m at  
:i* all doors fly op51 ev5 "h6  ,i w    
talk to y m ab\t ?is1 said ,*>mides1 :5 
,i h _h "t to arrange my ?\ghts a       
little4 ,:o w\ld h suppos$ t an old     
recollection l t w\ld h di/urb$ me s    
mu*8 ,x w\ld make a good subject = a    
picture or a song4     ,,xiv   ,x 0 on  
"o ( ^! days t ,amro? came sudd5ly ^u   
me1 ) a v mir?ful look on 8 face1 8 eyes
 sp>kl+ l a man /ruggl+ ) hidd5 laught]4
 ,come ) me1 he said2 y h be5 s dutiful 
lately t ,i am al>m$ = y\r heal?4 ,!n we
 w5t out ( ! g>d5 :]e ,i 0 sitt+1 & we 7
 sudd5ly 9 a /reet4 ,i saw 9 a mom5t t x
 0 a real /reet1 9 ! suburb ( an ,engli%
 t[n2 !re 7 electric trams runn+1 & r[s 
( small trees1 & an op5 space plant$ )  
%rubs1 ) asphalt pa?s & ugly seats4 ,on 
! o!r side ( ! road 0 a r[ ( big villas1
 ta/eless1 dre>y1 com=table h\ses1 )    
mean+less turrets & balconies4 ,i c\ld n
 help feel+ t x 0 v dismal t m5 & wom5  
%\ld live 9 su* places1 ?9k !m neat &   

well-appo9t$1 & ev5 gr[ to love !m4 ,we 
w5t into "o ( ^! h\ses2 x 0 e>ly 9 !    
morn+1 & a little drizzle 0 fall+1 :i*  
made ! :ole place seem v *e]less4 ,9 a  
room ) a b[-w9d[ look+ on ! road !re 7  
?ree p]sons4 ,an old man 0 read+ a pap] 
9 an arm-*air by ! fire1 ) 8 back to !  
light4 ,he look$ a nice old man1 ) 8    
cle> sk9 & :ite hair2 opposite him 0 an 
old lady 9 ano!r *air1 read+ a lett]4 ,)
 8 back to ! fire /ood a man ( ab\t     
?irty-five1 /urdy-look+1 b pale1 & ) an 
appe>ance ( be+ some:at ov]work$4 ,he _h
 a good face1 b seem$ a little un9t]e/+1
 z if he did n fe$ 8 m9d4 ,! table _h   
be5 spread = breakfa/1 & ! meal 0 f9i%$ 
& p>tly cle>$ away4 ,! room 0 ugly & !  
furniture 0 a little %abby2 !re 0 a     
glaz$ bookcase1 full ( dull-look+ books1
 a sidebo>d1 a table ) writ+ mat]ials 9 
! w9d[1 & "s engrav+s ( royal gr\ps &   
celebrat$ m54  ,! y\ng] man1 aft] a     
mom5t1 said1 ,well1 ,i mu/ be (f4 ,he   
nodd$ to 8 fa!r1 & b5t d[n to kiss 8 "m1
 say+1 ,take c>e ( y\rself--,i %all be  

back 9 good "t = tea4 ,i _h a s5se t he 
0 us+ ^! phrases 9 a me*anical way1 & t 
!y 7 cu/om>y ) him4 ,!n he w5t out1     
plant+ 8 feet solidly on ! c>pet1 &     
pres5tly ! front door %ut4 ,i c\ld n    
und]/& :y we _h come to ?is v unemphatic
 p>ty1 & exam9$ ! :ole room c>efully to 
see :at 0 ! object ( our visit4 ,a maid 
came 9 & remov$ ! re/ ( ! breakfa/ ?+s1 
leav+ ! clo? /ill on ! table1 & "s ( !  
spoons & knives1 ) ! salt-cell>s1 9 _!  
places4 ,:5 %e _h f9i%$ & gone out1 !re 
0 a sil5ce1 only brok5 by ! crackl+ ( ! 
pap] z ! old man fold$ x4 ,pres5tly !   
old lady said3 ,i wi% ,*>les c\ld get 8 
holiday a little soon]2 he looks s tir$1
 & he does n eat well4 ,he does /ick s  
h>d to 8 bus9ess4  ,yes1 de>1 he does1  
said ! old man1 b x is j ! busie/ "t1 & 
he tells me t !y h _h "s l>ge ord]s     
lately4 ,!y are do+ v well1 ,i und]/&4  
,!re 0 ano!r sil5ce1 & !n ! old lady put
 d[n h] lett]1 & look$ = a mom5t at a   
picture1 repres5t+ a boy1 a l>ge        
photograph a good deal fad$1 :i* hung   

close to h]--und]nea? x 0 a small vase (
 fl[]s on a bracket4 ,%e gave a little  
sigh z %e did ?is1 & ! old man look$ at 
h] ov] ! top ( 8 pap]4 ,j ?9k1 fa!r1 %e 
said1 t ,h>ry w\ld h be5 ?irty-eight ?is
 v week6  ,! old man made a com=t+ sort 
( little noise1 half sympa!tic & half   
deprecatory4 ,yes1 ,i "k1 said ! old    
lady1 b ,i c't help ?9k+ ab\t him a     
great deal at ?is "t ( ! ye>4 ,i don't  
und]/& :y he 0 tak5 away f u4 ,he 0     
always su* a good boy--he w\ld h be5 j l
 ,*>les1 only h&som]--he 0 always h&som]
 & bright]2 he _h s mu* ( y\r _s6 ,n b  
:at ,*>les has be5 ! be/ ( sons to u--,i
 don't mean t--no "o c\ld be bett] or m 
easy to please6 ,b ,h>ry _h a diff]5t   
way ) him4 ,h] eyes fill$ ) te>s1 :i* %e
 bru%$ away4 ,no1 %e add$1 ,i won't fret
 ab\t him4 ,i d>esay he is happi] :]e he
 is--,i am sure he is--& ?9k+ ( 8 "m    
too1 my bonny boy1 p]haps4  ,! old man  
got up1 put 8 pap] d[n1 w5t across to ! 
old lady1 & gave h] a kiss on ! br[4    
,!re1 !re1 he said soo?+ly1 we may be   

sure x's all = ! be/2 & he /ood look+   
d[n fondly at h]4 ,amro? cross$ ! room &
 /ood beside ! pair1 ) a h& on ! %\ld] (
 ea*4 ,i saw 9 an in/ant t !re 0 an     
unmi/akable lik5ess betwe5 ! ?ree2 b !  
contra/ ( ! m>vell\s brilliance & beauty
 ( ,amro? ) ! old1 _w-we>i$1 simple-m9d$
 c\ple 0 ! mo/ extraord9>y ?+ to behold4
 ,yes1 ,i feel bett] already1 said ! old
 lady1 smil+2 x always does me good to  
say out :at ,i am feel+1 fa!r2 & !n y   
are sure to und]/&4  ,! mi/ clos$       
sudd5ly 9 ^u ! sc5e1 & we 7 back 9 a    
mom5t 9 ! g>d5 ) its porticoes1 9 !     
radiant1 untr\bl$ air4 ,amro? look$ at  
me ) a smile t 0 full1 half ( gaiety &  
half ( t5d]ness4 ,!re1 he said1 :at d y 
?9k ( t8 ,if all _h gone well ) me1 z !y
 say on e>?1 t is :]e ,i %\ld be n[1 go+
 d[n to ! city ) ,*>les4 ,t is !        
prospect :i* to ! de> old p seems s     
satisfactory comp>$ ) ?is6 ,9 t h\se ,i 
lay ill = "s weeks1 & f !re my body 0   
c>ri$ out4 ,& !y w\ld h kept me !re if  
!y c\ld--& ,i myself did n want to g4 ,i

 0 afraid4 ,oh1 h[ ,i envi$ ,*>les go+  
d[n to ! city & com+ back = tea1 to read
 ! magaz9es al\d or play backgammon4 ,i 
am afraid ,i 0 n z nice z ,i %\ld h be5 
ab\t all t--! ev5+s 7 c]ta9ly dull6  ,b 
:at d y feel ab\t x n[8 ,i said4 ,don't 
y feel sorry = ! muddle & ignorance &   
pa?os ( x all8 ,c't some?+ be done to %[
 ev]ybody :at a gha/ly mi/ake x is1 to  
get s ti$ d[n to ! e>? & ! ?+s ( e>?8   
,a mi/ake8 said ,amro?4 ,!re is no su*  
?+ z a mi/ake4 ,"o _c sorr[ = _! grief1 
any m ?an "o c sorr[ = ! *ild :o cries  
out 9 ! tunnel & clasps 8 "m's h&4      
,don't y see t _! grief & loss is ! "o  
beautiful ?+ 9 ^? lives1 & all t x is   
do+ = !m1 draw+ !m hi!r8 ,:y1 t is :]e  
we gr[ & become /rong1 9 ! hopeless     
suff]+ ( love4 ,i am glad & cont5t t my 
own /ay 0 made s brief4 ,i wi% x c\ld be
 %ort5$ = ! ?ree--& yet ,i d n1 because 
!y w ga9 s wond]fully by x4 ,!y are     
m\nt+ fa/2 x is _! v ignorance t tea*es 
!m4 ,n to "k1 n to p]ceive1 b to be =c$ 
to believe 9 love1 t is ! po9t4  ,yes1  

,i said1 ,i see t2 b :at ab\t ! lives t 
are brok5 & poison$ by grief1 9 a /upor 
( pa9--or ! s\ls t d n feel x at all1   
except z a pass+ %ad[--:at ab\t !m8     
,oh1 said ,amro? lightly1 ! sadd] !     
dream ! m bless$ ! awak5+2 & z = ^? :o  
_c feel--well1 x w all come to !m1 z !y 
gr[ old]4  ,yes1 ,i said1 x has done me 
good to see all ?is--x makes _m ?+s     
pla92 b c y be> to leave !m ?us8  ,leave
 !m6 said ,amro?4 ,:o kn[s b t ,i %all  
be s5t to help !m away1 & c>ry !m1 z ,i 
c>ri$ y1 to ! cry/al sea ( peace8 ,!    
d>l+ "m1 ,i %all be !re at h] awak5+4   
,!y are old spirits1 ^? two1 old & wise2
 & !re is a high place prep>$ = !m4  ,b 
:at ab\t ,*>les8 ,i said4  ,amro? smil$4
 ,old ,*>les8 he said4 ,i mu/ admit t he
 is n a v /irr+ figure at pres5t4 ,he is
 mu* imm]s$ 9 8 game ( f9ance1 & talks a
 great deal 9 8 light] mom5ts ab\t !    
comm]cial prospects ( ! ,empire & ! ne$ 
( retaliatory t>iffs4 ,b he w outgr[ all
 t6 ,he is a v loyal s\l1 b n v         
adv5tur\s j n[4 ,he w\ld be sadly       

discompos$ by an affection :i* came 9   
betwe5 him & 8 figures4 ,he w\ld ?9k he 
want$ a *ange--& he w h a ?or\gh "o1 !  
good old fell[1 "o ( ^! days4 ,b he has 
a long j\rney be=e him4  ,well1 ,i said1
 !re are "s surprises "h6 ,i am afraid  
,i am v y\?ful yet4  ,yes1 de> *ild1 y  
are v +5u\s1 said ,amro?1 & t is a great
 "p ( y\r *>m4 ,b we w f9d some?+ = y to
 d be=e long6 ,b "h comes ,*>mides1 to  
talk ab\t ! ne$ ( exquisite pulsations1 
& _! symbolism--?\gh ,i see a *ange 9   
him too4 ,& n[ ,i mu/ g back to bus9ess4
 ,take c>e ( y\rself1 & ,i w be back to 
tea4 ,& ,amro? fla%$ away 9 a v *e]ful  
mood4     ,,xv   ,!re 7 _m ?+s at t "t t
 7 full ( my/]y1 ?+s :i* ,i nev] came to
 und]/&4 ,!re 0 9 p>ticul> a c]ta9 sort 
( p1 :om "o met occasionally1 = :om ,i  
c\ld nev] :olly acc\nt4 ,!y 7 unlike    
o!rs 9 ?is fact1 t !y nev] appe>$ to    
belong to any p>ticul> place or         
community4 ,!y 7 bo? m5 & wom51 :o      
seem$--,i c express x 9 no o!r way--to  
be 9 ! possession ( a secret s great t x

 made ev]y?+ else trivial & indiff]5t to
 !m4 ,n t !y 7 impati5t or              
contemptu\s--x 0 q ! o!r way2 b to use a
 similitude1 !y 7 l good-natur$1 active1
 k9dly eld]s at a *ildr5's p>ty4 ,!y did
 n %un conv]sation1 b if "o talk$ ) !m1 
!y us$ a k9d ( t5d] & g5tle irony1 :i*  
_h some?+ admir+ & complim5t>y ab\t x1  
:i* took away any s5se ( vexation or (  
baffl$ curiosity4 ,x 0 simply z ?\gh _! 
conc]n lay else:]e2 !y jo9$ 9 any?+ ) a 
frank delight1 n ) any t\* (            
condesc5sion4 ,!y 7 ev5 m k9dly &       
affectionate ?an o!rs1 because !y did n 
seem to h any small problems ( _! own1 &
 c\ld give _! :ole att5tion & ?\ght to !
 p]son !y 7 )4 ,^! inscrutable p puzzl$ 
me v mu*4 ,i ask$ ,amro? ab\t !m once4  
,:o are ^! p1 ,i said1 :om "o sometimes 
meets1 :o are s f> remov$ f all ( u8    
,:at are !y do+ "h8  ,amro? smil$4 ,s y 
h detect$ !m6 he said4 ,y are q "r1 & x 
does y\r obs]vation cr$it4 ,b y mu/ f9d 
x out = y\rself4 ,i _c expla91 & if ,i  
c\ld1 y w\ld n und]/& me yet4  ,!n ,i am

 n mi/ak51 ,i said1 b ,i wi% y w\ld give
 me a h9t--!y seem to "k some?+ m wor?  
kn[+ ?an all beside4  ,exactly1 said    
,amro?4 ,y are v ne> ! tru?2 x is />+ y 
9 ! face2 b x w\ld spoil all if ,i told 
y4 ,!re is pl5ty ab\t !m 9 ! old books y
 us$ to read--!y h ! secret ( joy4 ,& t 
is all t he w\ld say4  ,x 0 on a solit>y
 ramble "o day1 outside ( ! place (     
delight1 t ,i came ne>] to "o ( ^! p ?an
 ,i ev] did at any o!r "t4 ,i _h w&]$ (f
 into a pleasant place ( grassy glades )
 little ?orn-?ickets ev]y:]e4 ,i w5t up 
a small em95ce1 :i* comm&$ a view ( !   
beautiful pla9 ) its blue di/ance & !   
enamell$ gre5 =egr\nd ( close-gr[n      
cov]ts4 ,!re ,i sat = a long "t lo/ 9   
pleasant ?\ght & wond]1 :5 ,i saw a man 
draw+ ne>1 walk+ sl[ly & look+ ab\t him 
) a s]5e & delight$ air4 ,he pass$ n f> 
f me1 & obs]v+ me1 wav$ a h& ( welcome1 
came up ! slope1 & greet+ me 9 a fri5dly
 & op5 mann]1 ask$ if he might sit ) me 
= a little4  ,?is is a pleasant place1  
he said1 & y seem v agreeably occupi$4  

,yes1 ,i said1 look+ into 8 smil+ face1 
"o has no engagem5ts "h1 & no ne$ (     
bus9ess to fill ! "t--b inde$ ,i am n   
sure t ,i am busy en\gh4 ,z ,i spoke ,i 
0 reg>d+ him ) "s curiosity4 ,he 0 a man
 ( mature age1 ) a /rong1 firm-featur$  
face1 heal?y & sunburnt ( aspect1 & he 0
 dress$1 n z ,i 0 = ease & repose1 b ) !
 g>m5ts ( a travell]4 ,8 hat1 :i* 0 l>ge
 & ( "s s(t grey clo?1 0 pu%$ to 8 back1
 & hung !re by a cord r\nd 8 neck4 ,8   
hair 0 a little grizzl$1 & lay          
close-curl$ to 8 head2 9 8 /rong &      
muscul> h& he c>ri$ a /ick4 ,he smil$   
aga9 at my words1 & said3  ,oh1 "o ne$ n
 tr\ble ab\t be+ busy until ! "t comes2 
t is a feel+ "o inh]its f ! life ( e>?1 
& ,i am sure y h n left x long4 ,y h a v
 fre% air ab\t y1 z if y _h re/$1 & re/$
 well4  ,yes1 ,i h re/$1 ,i said2 b ?\gh
 ,i am cont5t en\gh1 !re is some?+      
unquiet 9 me1 ,i am afraid6  ,ah6 he    
said1 !re is t 9 all ( u1 & x w\ld n be 
well ) u if !re 7 n4 ,w y tell me a     
little ab\t y\rself8 ,t is "o ( !       

pleasures ( ?is life "h1 t we h no ne$  
to be cauti\s1 or to fe> t we %all give 
ourselves away4  ,i told him my         
adv5tures1 & he li/5$ ) s]i\s att5tion4 
,ah1 t is all v good1 he said at la/1 b 
y mu/ n be 9 any hurry2 x is a great ?+ 
t ideas %\ld dawn ^u u gradually--"o    
gets ! full tru? ( !m s4 ,x 0 ! hurry ( 
life :i* 0 s bewild]+--! %ocks1 !       
surprises1 ! ugly reflections ( "o's    
conduct t "o saw 9 o!r lives--! corn]s  
"o _h to turn4 ,?+s1 inde$1 come sudd5ly
 ev5 "h1 b "o is l$ up to !m g5tly      
en\gh2 all[$ to ent] ! sea = oneself1 n 
s\s$ & duck$ 9 x4 ,y w ne$ all ! /r5g? y
 c /ore up = :at is be=e y1 & ,i c see 9
 y\r face t y are /or+ up /r5g?--b !    
we>9ess is n q gone out ( y\r m9d4  ,he 
0 sil5t = a little1 mus+1 till ,i said1 
,w y n tell me "s ( y\r own adv5tures8  
,i am sure f y\r look t y h !m2 & y are 
a pilgrim1 x seems4 ,:]e are y b\nd8    
,oh1 he said lightly1 ,i am n "o ( ! p  
:o h adv5tures--j ! j\rney & ! talk     
beside ! way4  ,b1 ,i said1 ,i h se5 "s 

o!rs l y1 & ,i am puzzl$ ab\t x4 ,y     
seem1 if ,i may say s--,i d n mean any?+
 disrespectful or imp]t95t--to be l !   
gipsies :om "o meets 9 quiet c\ntry     
places1 ) a secret k ( _! own1 a pride  
too great to be wor? express+1 n anxi\s 
ab\t life1 n we>y or dissatisfi$1 c>+ n 
= localities or possessions1 b ) a sort 
( eag] pleasure 9 fre$om & movem5t4  ,he
 laugh$4 ,yes1 he said1 y are "r6 ,i am 
no d\bt a sort ( nomad1 z y say1 deta*$ 
f life p]haps4 ,i don't "k t x is       
desirable2 !re is a great deal to be    
said = liv+ 9 ! same place & lov+ ! same
 ?+s4 ,mo/ p are happi] s1 & le>n :at !y
 h to le>n 9 t mann]4  ,yes1 ,i said1 t 
is true & beautiful--! same old h\se1 ! 
same trees & pa/ures1 ! /ream & !       
wat]-plants t hide x1 ! blue hills      
beyond ! ne>] wood--! de> famili> ?+s2 b
 ev5 s ! road :i* passes ?r\gh ! fields1
 ov] ! bridge1 up ! cov]t-side 444 x    
leads some:]e1 & ! he>t on sunny days   
leaps up to foll[ x6 ,talk+ ) y "h1 ,i  
feel a hung] = some?+ wid] & m free2 y\r

 voice has ! s\nd ( ! w9d1 ) ! secret k 
( /range hill-tops & solit>y seas6      
,sometimes ! he>t settles d[n ^u :at x  
kn[s & loves1 b sometimes x rea*es out  
to all ! love & beauty hidd5 9 ! _w1 & 9
 ! wat]s beyond ! _w1 & w\ld embrace x  
all if x c\ld4 ,! faces "o sees z "o    
passes ?r\gh unfamili> cities or        
villages1 h[ "o longs to talk1 to "q1 to
 ask :at gave !m ! look !y we>4444 ,& y1
 if ,i may say x1 seem to h pass$ beyond
 ! ne$ ( want+ or desir+ any?+ 444 b ,i 
mu/ n talk ?us to a /rang]2 y mu/ =give 
me4  ,=give y8 said ! /rang]2 t is only 
an e>?ly phrase--! old t]ror (          
indiscretion & caution4 ,:at are we "h =
 b to get acqua9t$ ) "o ano!r--to let   
our inmo/ ?\ghts talk toge!r8 ,9 ! _w we
 are b\nd$ by "t & space1 & we h ! t]ror
 ( ea* o!r's glances & ext]iors to      
cont5d )4 ,we make fri5ds on e>? 9 spite
 ( our limitations2 b 9 heav5 we get to 
"k ea* o!r's he>ts2 & t bless+ goes back
 ) u to ! dim fields & n>r[ h\ses ( !   
e>?4 ,i see pla9ly en\gh t y are n      

p]fectly happy2 b "o c only w9 cont5t   
?r\gh discont5t4 ,:]e y are n[1 y are n 
9 accord ) ! s\ls ab\t y4 ,nev] m9d t6  
,!re are beautiful spirits )9 rea* ( y\r
 h& & he>t2 a little cl\d$ by mi/ak+ !  
quality ( joy1 no d\bt1 b great &       
ev]la/+ = all t4 ,y mu/ try to draw ne> 
to !m1 & f9d spirits to love4 ,d y n    
rememb] 9 ! days ( e>? h[ "o felt       
sometimes 9 an unfamili> place--among a 
ga!r+ ( /rang]s--at *ur* p]haps1 or at  
"s s*ool :i* "o visit$1 :]e "o saw ! "y 
faces1 :i* %[$ s cle>ly1 be=e ! _w _h   
/amp$ itself 9 fr[ns & heav9ess ^u !m1 !
 quality ( ! s\l )98 ,don't y rememb] ! 
feel+ at su* times ( h[ _m !re 7 9 ! _w 
:om "o might love1 if "o _h leisure &   
opportunity & en]gy8 ,well1 !re is no   
ne$ to resi/ t1 or to deplore x "h2 "o  
may g :]e "o's w incl9es "o1 & speak z  
"o's he>t tells "o to speak4 ,i ?9k y   
are p]haps too consci\s ( wait+ =       
some?+4 ,y\r task lies ahead ( y1 b ! "w
 ( love c beg9 at once & any:]e4  ,yes1 
,i said1 ,i feel t n[ & "h4 ,w y n tell 

me some?+ ( y\rself 9 return8 ,i _c read
 y\r m9d cle>ly--x is occupi$ ) some?+  
,i _c grasp--:at is y\r "w 9 heav58     
,oh1 he said lightly1 t is easy en\gh1 &
 yet y w\ld n und]/& x4 ,i h be5 l$     
?r\gh ! %ad[ ( fe>1 & ,i h pass$ out on 
! o!r side4 ,& my duty is to release    
o!rs f fe>1 z f> z ,i c4 ,x is ! d>ke/  
%ad[ ( all1 because x dwells 9 ! unkn[n4
 ,pa91 )\t x1 is no suff]+ at all2 inde$
 pa9 is almo/ a pleasure1 :5 "o kn[s :at
 x is do+ = "o4 ,b fe> is ! d\bt :e!r   
pa9 or suff]+ are really help+ u2 & j z 
memory nev] has any t\* ( fe> ab\t x1 s 
hope may likewise h done ) fe>4  ,b h[  
did y le>n ?is8 ,i said4  ,only by fe>+ 
to ! utt]mo/1 he repli$4 ,! p[]--x is n 
c\rage1 because t only defies fe>--_c be
 giv5 "o2 x mu/ be pa9fully won4 ,y     
rememb] ! bless+ ( ! pure 9 he>t1 t !y  
%all see ,god8 ,!re w\ld be little hope 
9 t promise = ! s\l t knew itself to be 
impure1 if x 7 n = ! o!r side ( x--t !  
vision ( ,god1 :i* is ! mo/ t]rible (   
all ?+s1 c give purity to ! mo/ s9-/a9$ 

s\l4 ,9 t vision1 all desire & all fe> h
 an end1 because !re is no?+ left ei!r  
to desire or to dread4 ,t vision we may 
delay or ha/54 ,we may delay x1 if we   
all[ our prud5ce1 or our %ame1 or our   
com=t1 to get 9 ! way3 we may ha/5 x1 if
 we ca/ ourselves at e mom5t ( our      
pilgrimage ^u ! m]cy & ! love ( ,god4 ,8
 "o desire is t we %\ld be satisfi$2 &  
if ,he seems to put ob/acles 9 our way1 
to keep u wait+1 to p]mit u to be       
mis]able1 t is only t we may le>n to ca/
 ourselves into love & s]vice--:i* is ! 
"o way to ,8 he>t4 ,b n[ ,i mu/ be go+1 
= ,i h said all t y c be>4 ,w y rememb] 
?is--n to res]ve y\rself1 n to ?9k o!rs 
unwor?y or ho/ile1 b to ca/ y\r love &  
tru/ freely & lavi%ly1 ev]y:]e & any:]e8
 ,we mu/ ga!r no?+1 hold on to no?+1 j  
give ourselves away at e mom5t1 fl[+ l !
 /ream into e *annel t is op51 )hold+   
no?+1 reta9+ no?+4 ,i see1 he add$1 v   
great & beautiful ?+s ahead ( y1 & v sad
 & pa9ful ?+s z well4 ,b y are close to 
! light1 & x is break+ all ab\t y ) a   

spl5d\r :i* y _c guess4  ,he rose up1 he
 took my h& 9 8 own & laid ! o!r on my  
br[1 & ,i felt 8 he>t g out to m9e &    
ga!r me to him1 z a *ild is ga!r$ to a  
fa!r's arms4 ,& !n he w5t sil5tly &     
lightly ^u 8 way4     ,,xvi   ,! "t mov$
 on quietly en\gh 9 ! l& ( delight4 ,i  
made acqua9tance ) q a numb] ( !        
s(t-voic$ cont5t$ folk4 ,sometimes x    
int]e/$ me to see ! *ange com+ ^u "o or 
ano!r1 a wond] or a desire t made !m sit
 )drawn & ab/ract$1 & break+ ) a sort ( 
ef=t out ( ! dreamful mood4 ,!n !y w\ld 
leave u1 sometimes q sudd5ly1 sometimes 
) c\rte\s adieus4 ,new-com]s1 too1 kept 
arriv+1 to be made pleasantly at home4  
,i f\nd myself see+ m ( ,cyn?ia4 ,%e 0  
mu* ) ,lucius1 & !y seem$ z gay z ev]1 b
 ,i saw t %e 0 sometimes puzzl$4 ,%e    
said to me "o day z we sat toge!r1 ,i   
wi% y w\ld tell me :at ?is is all ab\t8 
,i d n want to *ange x1 & ,i am v happy1
 b isn't x all r po9tless8 ,i believe y 
h "s secret y are keep+ f me4 ,%e 0     
sitt+ close beside me1 l a *ild1 re/+ h]

 head on my arm1 & %e took my h& 9 bo? (
 h]s4  ,no1 ,i said1 ,i am keep+ no?+ f 
y1 pretty *ild6 ,i c\ld n expla9 to y   
:at is 9 my m9d1 & x w\ld spoil y\r     
pleasure if ,i c\ld4 ,x is all "r1 & y w
 see 9 good "t4  ,i hate to be put (f l 
t1 %e said4 ,y are n really int]e/$ 9   
me2 & y d n tru/ me2 y d n c>e ab\t !   
?+s ,i c>e ab\t1 & if y are s sup]ior1 y
 ought to expla9 to me :y4  ,well1 ,i   
said1 ,i w try to expla94 ,d y ev]      
rememb] hav+ be5 v happy 9 a place1 &   
hav+ be5 oblig$ to leave x1 always hop+ 
to return2 & !n :5 y did return1 f9d+ t1
 ?\gh no?+ 0 *ang$1 y 7 y\rself *ang$1 &
 c\ld n1 ev5 if y w\ld1 h tak5 up ! old 
life aga98  ,yes1 said ,cyn?ia1 mus+1 ,i
 rememb] t sort ( ?+ happ5+ once1 ab\t a
 h\se :]e ,i /ay$ z a *ild4 ,x seem$ s  
/upid & dull :5 ,i w5t back t ,i wond]$ 
h[ ,i c\ld ev] h really lik$ x4  ,well1 
,i said1 x is ! same sort ( ?+ "h4 ,i am
 only "h = a "t1 & ?\gh ,i d n "k :]e ,i
 am go+ or :51 ,i ?9k ,i %all n be "h   
mu* long]4  ,at ?is ,cyn?ia did :at %e  

_h nev] done be=e--%e kiss$ me4 ,!n %e  
said1 ,don't speak ( su* disagreeable   
?+s4 ,i c\ld n get on )\t y4 ,y are s   
conv5i5t1 l a com=table old arm-*air4   
,:at a complim5t6 ,i said4 ,b y see t y 
don't l my explanation4 ,:y tr\ble ab\t 
x8 ,y h pl5ty ( "t4 ,is ,lucius l an    
arm-*air1 too8  ,no1 %e said1 he is     
excit+1 l a new necklace--& ,*>mides1 he
 is excit+ too1 9 a way1 b r too f9e =  
me1 l a ball-dress6  ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i  
notic$ t y\r own ta/e 9 dress is diff]5t
 ( late4 ,?is is a mu* simpl] ?+ ?an :at
 y came 94  ,oh1 yes1 %e said1 x doesn't
 seem wor? :ile to dress up n[4 ,i h    
made my fri5ds1 & ,i suppose ,i am gett+
 lazy4  ,we said little m1 b %e did n   
seem incl9$ to leave me1 & 0 m ) me = a 
"t4 ,i actually he>d h] tell ,lucius    
once t %e 0 tir$1 at :i* he laugh$1 n v 
pleasantly1 & w5t away4  ,b my own      
summons came to me s unexpect$ly t ,i _h
 b little "t to make my f>ewell4  ,i 0  
sitt+ once 9 a g>d5-close wat*+ a curi\s
 act proce$+1 :i* ,i did n q und]/&4 ,x 

look$ l a religi\s c]emony2 a man 9     
embroid]$ robes 0 be+ conduct$ by "s    
boys 9 :ite dresses ?r\gh ! long cloi/]1
 c>ry+ some?+ c>efully wrapp$ up 9 8    
arms1 & ,i he>d :at s\nd$ l an antique  
hymn ( a f9e /iff melody1 rapidly sung4 
,!re _h be5 no?+ q l ?is be=e1 & ,i     
sudd5ly became aw>e t ,amro? 0 beside   
me1 & t he _h a look ( ang] 9 8 face4 ,y
 _h bett] n look at ?is1 he said to me2 
x might n be v helpful1 z !y say4  ,am  
,i to come ) y8 ,i said4 ,t is well--b  
,i %\ld l to say a ^w to "o or two ( my 
fri5ds "h4  ,no1 n a ^w6 said ,amro?    
quickly4 ,he look$ at me ) a curi\s     
look1 9 :i* he seem$ to be measur+ my   
/r5g? & c\rage4 ,yes1 t w d6 he add$4   
,come at once--don't be surpris$--x w be
 diff]5t f :at y expect4  ,he took me by
 ! arm1 & we hurri$ f ! place2 "o or two
 ( ! p :o /ood by look$ at u 9 lazy     
wond]4 ,we walk$ 9 sil5ce d[n a long    
alley1 to a great gate t ,i _h (t5 pass$
 9 my /rolls4 ,x 0 a b>r$ iron gate1 ( a
 v /ately air1 ) high /one gatepo/s4 ,i 

_h nev] be5 able to f9d my outw>d way to
 ?is1 & !re 0 a view f x ( en*ant+      
beauty1 blue di/ant woods & roll+       
slopes4 ,amro? came quickly to ! gate1  
seem$ to unlock x1 & held x op5 = me to 
pass4 ,"o ^w1 he said ) 8 mo/ beautiful 
smile1 8 eyes fla%+ & k9dl+ ) "s secret 
emotion1 :atev] happ5s1 d n be afraid6  
,!re is no?+ :atev] to fe>1 only be     
prep>$ & wait4 ,he motion$ me ?r\gh1 &  
,i he>d him close ! gate beh9d me4      
,,xvii   ,i 0 alone 9 an in/ant1 & 9    
t]rible pa9--pa9 n 9 any "p ( me1 b all 
ar\nd & )9 me4 ,a cold w9d ( a pi]c+    
bitt]ness seem$ to bl[ ^u me2 b ) x came
 a s5se ( imm5se en]gy & /r5g?1 s t !   
pa9 became sudd5ly delightful1 l !      
/ret*+ ( a /iff5$ limb4 ,i _c put ! pa9 
into exact words4 ,x 0 n att5d$ by any  
horror2 x seem$ a s5se ( inf9ite grief &
 loss & lonel9ess1 a deep ye>n+ to be   
deliv]$ & made free4 ,i felt sudd5ly z  
?\gh ev]y?+ ,i lov$ _h gone f me1       
irretrievably gone & lo/4 ,i look$ r\nd 
me1 & ,i c\ld disc]n ?r\gh a mi/ ! bases

 ( "s black & s9i/] rocks1 t t[]$ up    
intol]ably above me2 9 betwe5 !m 7      
*annels full ( /ones & drift$ sn[4      
,any?+ m /up5d\s ?an ^? black-ribb$     
crags1 ^? toppl+ precipices1 ,i _h nev] 
se54 ,! w9d h[l$ among !m1 & sometimes  
!re 0 a noise ( rocks ca/ d[n4 ,i knew 9
 "s obscure way t my pa? lay !re1 & my  
he>t absolutely fail$ me4 ,in/ead ( go+ 
/raight to ! rocks1 ,i began to creep   
along ! base to see :e!r ,i c\ld f9d "s 
easi] track4 ,sudd5ly ! voice ( ,amro?  
said1 r %>ply1 9 my e>1 ,don't be silly6
 ,?is homely direction1 s p]emptorily   
made1 _h an in/antane\s effect4 ,if he  
_h said1 ,be n fai?less1 or any?+ 9 !   
copybook mann]1 ,i %\ld h sat d[n &     
resign$ myself to solemn despair4 ,b n[ 
,i felt a fool & a c[>d z well4  ,s ,i  
address$ myself1 l a dog :o he>s ! crack
 ( a :ip1 to ! rocks4  ,x w\ld be t$i\s 
to relate h[ ,i clamb]$ & /umbl$ &      
agonis$4 ,!re did n seem to me !        
slighte/ use 9 mak+ ! attempt1 or !     
smalle/ hope ( rea*+ ! top1 or ! lea/   

expectation ( f9d+ any?+ wor? f9d+4 ,i  
hat$ ev]y?+ ,i _h ev] se5 or kn[n2      
recollections ( old lives & ( ! quiet   
g>d5 ,i _h left came ^u me ) a sort (   
m5tal nausea4 ,?is 0 v diff]5t f !      
amiable & easy-go+ treatm5t ,i _h       
expect$4 ,yet ,i did /ruggle on1 ) a    
hide\s fa9tness & we>9ess--b w\ld x nev]
 /op8 ,x seem$ l ye>s to me1 my h&s     
froz5 & wett$ by sn[ & dripp+ wat]1 my  
feet bruis$ & w\nd$ by %>p /ones1 my    
g>m5ts /rangely torn & r5t1 ) /a9s (    
blood %[+ ?r\gh 9 places4 ,/ill ! hide\s
 bus9ess cont9u$1 b progress 0 nev] q   
impossible4 ,at "o place ,i f\nd ! rocks
 :olly impassable1 & *oos+ ! broad] (   
two l$ges :i* ran left & "r1 ,i work$   
out along ! cliff1 only to f9d t ! l$ge 
ran into ! precipices1 & ,i _h to       
retrace my /eps1 if ! %uffl+ motions ,i 
made c\ld be s call$4 ,!n ,i took ! h>d]
 ( ! two1 :i* zigzagg$ backw>ds & =w>ds 
across ! rocks4 ,at "o place ,i saw a ?+
 :i* mov$ me v /rangely4 ,?is 0 a heap (
 bones1 gre51 slimy1 & ill-smell+1 ) "s 

tatt]$ rags ( clo? ab\t !m1 :i* lay 9 a 
heap b5ea? a precipice4 ,! ?\ght t a man
 c\ld fall & be kill$ 9 su* a place mov$
 me ) a fre% mis]y4 ,:at t meant ,i c\ld
 n tell4 ,7 we n away f su* ?+s z m\ld]+
 fle% & brok5 bones8 ,x seem$ n2 & ,i   
climb$ madly away f !m4 ,q sudd5ly ,i   
came to ! top1 a bleak plat=m ( rock1   
:]e ,i fell pro/rate on my face &       
groan$4  ,yes1 t 0 an ugly bus9ess1 said
 ! voice ( ,amro? beside me1 b y got    
?r\gh x fairly well4 ,h[ d y feel8  ,i  
call x a p]fect outrage1 ,i said4 ,:at  
is ! mean+ ( ?is hateful bus9ess8  ,!   
mean+8 said ,amro?2 nev] m9d ab\t !     
mean+4 ,! po9t is t y are "h6  ,oh1 ,i  
said1 ,i h _h a horrible "t4 ,all my    
s5se ( security is gone f me4 ,is "o    
inde$ liable to ?is k9d ( int]ruption1  
,amro?8  ,( c\rse1 said ,amro?1 !re mu/ 
be "s te/s2 b y w be bett] v soon4 ,x is
 all ov] = ! pres5t1 ,i may tell y1 & y 
w soon be able to enjoy x4 ,!re is no   
t]ror 9 pa/ suff]+--x is ! pure/ joy4   
,yes1 ,i us$ to say s & ?9k s1 ,i said1 

clos+ my eyes4 ,b ?is 0 diff]5t--x 0    
horrible6 ,& ! "t x la/$1 & ! despair ( 
x6 ,x seems to h soak$ into my :ole life
 & poison$ x4  ,amro? said no?+ = a     
m9ute1 b wat*$ me closely4  ,pres5tly ,i
 w5t on4 ,& tell me "o ?+4 ,!re 0 a     
gha/ly ?+ ,i saw1 "s m\ld]+ bones on a  
l$ge4 ,c p inde$ fall & die !re8        
,p]haps x 0 only a phantom1 said ,amro?1
 put !re l ! sights 9 ! ,pilgrim's      
,progress1 ! fire t 0 f$ secretly ) oil1
 & ! rob9 ) 8 m\? full ( spid]s1 z an   
enc\ragem5t = wayf>]s6  ,b t1 ,i said1  
w\ld be too horrible = any?+--to turn ! 
t]rors ( dea? into a sort ( conjur+     
trick--a dramatic ent]ta9m5t1 to make   
"o's fle% creep6 ,:y1 t 0 ! mis]y ( "s (
 ! religion taught u 9 old days1 t x    
seem$ (t5 only dramatic--a sc5e )\t     
cause or motive1 j display$ to %[ u !   
ang] or ! m]cy ( ,god1 s t "o _h !      
mis]able s5se t mu* ( x 0 a spectacul>  
affair1 t ,he ,himself did n really     
suff] or feel indignation1 b ?\ght x    
well to feign emotions1 l a s*oolma/] to

 impress 8 pupils4--& t p too 7 n puni%$
 = _! own sakes1 to help !m1 b j to     
/>tle or conv9ce o!rs4  ,yes1 said      
,amro?1 ,i 0 only je/+1 & ,i see t my   
je/s 7 out ( place4 ,( c\rse :at y saw 0
 real--!re are no pret5ces "h4 ,m5 &    
wom5 d inde$ suff] a k9d ( dea?--!      
second dea?--9 ^! places1 & h to beg9   
aga92 b t is only = a c]ta9 sort (      
self-confid5t & s9-soak$ p]son1 ^: w    
ne$s to be r\ghly brok54 ,!re are c]ta9 
p]v]se s9s ( ! _s :i* ne$ a spiritual   
dea?1 z ! s9s ( ! body ne$ a bodily     
dea?4 ,only ?us c "o be born aga94      
,well1 ,i said1 ,i am amaz$--b n[ :at am
 ,i to d8 ,i am fit = no?+1 & ,i %all be
 fit = no?+ h]eaft]4  ,if y talk l ?is1 
said ,amro?1 y w only drive me away4    
,!re are c]ta9 ?+s t x is bett] n to    
confess to "o's de>e/ fri5d1 n ev5 to   
,god4 ,"o mu/ j be sil5t ab\t !m1 try to
 =get !m1 hope !y c nev] happ5 aga94 ,i 
tell y1 y w soon be all "r2 & if y are n
 y w h to see a physician4 ,b y _h bett]
 n d t unless y are oblig$4  ,?is made  

me feel a%am$ ( myself1 & ! %ame took (f
 my ?\ghts f :at ,i _h endur$2 b ,i c\ld
 d no?+ b lie a*+ & pant+ on ! rocks = a
 long "t1 :ile ,amro? sat beside me 9   
sil5ce4  ,are y vex$8 ,i said aft] a    
long pause4  ,no1 no1 n vex$1 said      
,amro?1 b ,i am n sure :e!r ,i h n made 
a mi/ake4 ,x 0 ,i :o urg$ t y might g   
=w>d1 & ,i confess ,i am disappo9t$ at !
 result4 ,y are s(t] ?an ,i ?\ght4      
,inde$ ,i am n1 ,i said4 ,i w g d[n !   
rocks & come up aga91 if t w satisfy y4 
,come1 t is a little bett]1 said ,amro?1
 & ,i w tell y n[ t y did well--bett]   
inde$ at ! "t ?an ,i expect$4 ,y did !  
?+ 9 v good "t1 z we us$ to say4  ,by   
?is "t ,i felt v dr[sy1 & sudd5ly dropp$
 (f into a sleep--su* a deep & dreamless
 sleep1 to desc5d into :i* 0 l fl++     
oneself into a riv]-pool by a bubbl+    
weir on a hot & du/y day ( summ]4  ,i   
awoke sudd5ly ) a pressure on my arm1 &1
 wak+ up ) a s5se ( r5ew$ fre%ness1 ,i  
saw ,amro? look+ at me anxi\sly4 ,d n   
say any?+1 he said4 ,c y manage to      

hobble a few /eps8 ,if y _c1 ,i w get "s
 help1 & we %all be all "r--b !re may be
 an unpleasant enc\nt]1 & x is be/      
avoid$4 ,i scrambl$ to my feet1 & ,amro?
 help$ me a little high] up ! rocks1    
look+ c>efully into ! mi/ z he did s4   
,close beh9d u 0 a /eep rock ) l$ges4   
,amro? flung himself ^u !m1 ) an agile  
scramble or two4 ,!n he held 8 h& d[n1  
ly+ on ! top2 ,i took x1 &1 /iff5$ z ,i 
01 ,i contriv$ to get up beside him4 ,t 
is "r1 he said 9 a :isp]4 ,n[ lie "h    
quietly1 don't speak a ^w1 & j wat*4  ,i
 lay1 ) a s5se ( some?+ evil ab\t4      
,pres5tly ,i he>d ! s\nd ( voices 9 !   
mi/ to ! left ( u2 & 9 an in/ant !re    
loom$ out ( ! mi/ ! =m ( a man1 :o 0    
imm$iately foll[$ by ?ree o!rs4 ,!y 7   
diff]5t f all ! o!r spirits ,i _h yet   
se5--tall1 lean1 d>k m51 v sp>e & /rong4
 ,!y look$ c>efully ab\t !m1 mo/ly      
glanc+ d[n ! cliff1 & sometimes conf]r$ 
toge!r4 ,!y 7 dress$ 9 close-fitt+ d>k  
clo!s1 :i* seem$ z if made out ( "s k9d 
( sk9 or untann$ lea!r1 & _! :ole air 0 

s9i/] & t]rify+4 ,!y pass$ q close b5ea?
 u1 s t ,i saw ! bald head ( "o ( !m1 :o
 c>ri$ a sort ( hook 9 8 h&s4  ,:5 !y   
got to ! place :]e my climb _h end$1 !y 
/opp$ & exam9$ ! /ones c>efully3 "o ( !m
 clamb]$ a few feet d[n ! cliff4 ,!n he 
came back & seem$ to make a brief       
report1 aft] :i* !y appe>$ undecid$ :at 
to d2 !y ev5 look$ up at ! rock :]e we  
lay2 b :ile !y did ?is1 ano!r man1 v    
simil>1 came hurri$ly out ( ! mi/1 said 
some?+ to ! gr\p1 & !y all disappe>$ v  
quickly into ! d>kness ! same way !y _h 
come4 ,!n !re 0 a sil5ce4 ,i %\ld h     
spok51 b ,amro? put a f+] on 8 lips4    
,pres5tly !re came a s\nd ( fall+ /ones1
 & aft] t !re broke out among ! rocks   
bel[ a horrible cry+1 z ( a man 9 sore  
/raits & in/ant fe>4 ,amro? jump$       
quickly to 8 feet4 ,?is w n d1 he said4 
,/ay "h = me4 ,& !n leap+ d[n ! rock1 he
 disappe>$1 %\t+ words ( help--,hold    
on--,i am com+4  ,he came back "s little
 "t aft]w>ds1 & ,i saw t he 0 n alone4  
,he _h ) him an old /umbl+ man1 evid5tly

 9 ! la/ extremity ( t]ror & pa91 )     
beads ( sweat on 8 br[ & blood runn+ d[n
 f 8 h&s4 ,he seem$ daz$ & bewild]$4 ,& 
,amro? too look$ ruffl$ & almo/ we>y1 z 
,i _h nev] se5 him look4 ,i came d[n !  
rock to meet !m4 ,b ,amro? said1 ,wait  
"h = me2 x has be5 a tr\blesome bus9ess1
 & ,i mu/ g & be/[ ?is poor creature 9 a
 place ( safety--,i w return4 ,he l$ !  
old man away among ! rocks1 & ,i wait$ a
 long "t1 wond]+ v heavily :at x 0 t ,i 
_h se54  ,:5 ,amro? came back to ! rock 
he 0 fre% & smil+ aga93 he swung himself
 up1 & sat by me1 ) 8 h&s clasp$ r\nd 8 
knees4 ,!n he look$ at me1 & said1 ,i   
d>esay y are surpris$8 ,y did n expect  
to see su* t]rors & dang]s "h8 ,& x is a
 great my/]y4  ,y mu/ be k9d1 ,i said1 &
 expla9 to me :at has happ5$4  ,well1   
said ,amro?1 !re is a l>ge gang ( m5 :o 
infe/ ?is place1 :o h got up "h by _!   
agility1 & c g no fur!r1 :o make x _!   
bus9ess to prev5t all !y c f com+ up4 ,i
 confess t x is ! h>de/ ?+ ( all to     
und]/& :y x is all[$2 b if y expect all 

to be pla9 sail+ up "h1 y are mi/ak54   
,"o ne$s to be w>y & /rong4 ,!y d mu*   
h>m "h1 & w cont9ue to d x4  ,:at w\ld h
 happ5$ if !y _h f\nd u "h8 ,i said4    
,no?+ v mu*1 said ,amro?2 a good deal ( 
talk no d\bt1 & "s bl[s p]haps4 ,b x 0  
well ,i 0 ) y1 because ,i c\ld h summon$
 help4 ,!y are n z /rong z !y look      
ei!r--x is mo/ly fe> t aids !m4  ,well1 
b :o are !y8 ,i said4  ,!y are ! mo/    
tr\blesome crew ( all1 said ,amro?1 &   
come ne>e/ to ! old idea ( fi5ds--!y are
 inde$ ! orig9 ( t notion4 ,to speak    
pla9ly1 !y are m5 :o h liv$ virtu\s     
lives1 & h done cruel ?+s f good        
motives4 ,!re are "s k+s & /atesm5 among
 !m1 b !y are mo/ly prie/s & s*oolma/]s1
 ,i imag9e--p ) high ideals1 ( c\rse6 ,b
 !y are n repl5i%$ s fa/ z !y us$ to be1
 ,i ?9k4 ,_! difficulty is t !y c nev]  
see t !y are wrong4 ,_! notion is t ?is 
is a bad place to come to1 & t p are    
bett] left 9 ignorance & bliss1 ob$i5t &
 submissive4 ,a good _m ( !m h giv5 up !
 old r\gh me?ods1 & hang ab\t ! base ( !

 cliff1 dissuad+ s\ls f climb+3 !y d !  
mo/ h>m ( all1 because if "o does turn  
back "h1 x is long be=e "o may make a   
new attempt4 ,b en\gh ( ?is1 he add$2 x 
makes me sick to ?9k ( !m--! old fell[ y
 saw ) me _h an awful fright--he 0 ne>ly
 done z x 06 ,b ,i see y are feel+      
/rong]1 & ,i ?9k we _h bett] be go+4 ,"o
 does n /ay "h by *oice1 ?\gh ! place   
has a beauty ( its own4 ,& n[ y w h an  
easi] "t = a:ile4  ,we desc5d$ f our    
rock1 & ,amro? l$ ! way1 ?r\gh a long   
cleft1 ) rocks1 v r\gh & black1 on ei!r 
side1 & fall5 fragm5ts "u foot4 ,x 0    
/eep at fir/2 b soon ! rocks grew l[]2 &
 we came out pres5tly on to a great     
desolate pla91 ) /ones ly+ ?ickly ab\t1 
among a co>se k9d ( grass4 ,at ea* /ep  
,i seem$ to gr[ /rong]1 & walk$ m       
lightly1 & 9 ! ?9 f9e air my horrors    
left me1 ?\gh ,i /ill _h a dumb s5se (  
suff]+ :i*1 /range to say1 ,i f\nd x    
almo/ pleasant to resi/4 ,& s we walk$ =
 a "t 9 fri5dly sil5ce1 ,amro?          
occasionally indicat+ ! way4 ,! hill    

began to slope d[nw>ds v sl[ly1 & ! w9d 
to subside4 ,! mi/ drew (f little by    
little1 till at la/ ,i saw ahead ( u a  
great b>e-look+ =tress ) high walls &   
little w9d[s1 & a great blank t[] ov]   
all4     ,,xviii   ,we 7 receiv$ at !   
gu>d$ door ( ! =tress by a port]1 :o    
seem$ to be well acqua9t$ ) ,amro?4 ,)91
 x 0 a big1 b>e place1 )1 /one-ar*$     
cloi/]s & corridors1 m l a mona/]y ?an a
 ca/le4 ,amro? l$ me briskly along !    
passages1 & took me into a l>ge room v  
sp>ely furni%$1 :]e an eld]ly man sat   
writ+ at a table ) 8 back to ! light4   
,he rose :5 we ent]$1 & ,i _h a sudd5   
s5se t ,i 0 com+ to s*ool aga91 z inde$ 
,i 04 ,amro? greet$ him ) a mixture (   
fre$om & respect1 z a well-lov$ pupil   
might treat an old s*oolma/]4 ,! man    
himself 0 tall & upright1 & s]i\s-look+1
 b = a tw9kle ( hum\r t lurk$ 9 8 eye2  
yet ,i felt he 0 "o :o expect$ to be    
obey$4 ,he took ,amro? into ! embrasure 
( a w9d[1 & talk$ ) him 9 l[ tones4 ,!n 
he came back to me & ask$ me a few      

que/ions ( :i* ,i did n !n und]/& !     
drift--b x seem$ a k9d ( v in=mal       
exam9ation4 ,!n he made u a little b[ ( 
dismissal1 & sat d[n at once to 8 writ+ 
)\t giv+ u ano!r look4 ,amro? took me   
out1 & l$ me up _m /one /airs1 along    
:itewa%$ passages1 ) n>r[ w9d[s look+   
out on ! pla91 to a small cell or room  
ne> ! top ( ! ca/le4 ,x 0 v au/]ely     
furni%$1 b x _h a little door :i* took u
 out on ! leads1 & ,i !n saw :at a v    
l>ge place ! =tress 01 consi/+ ( sev]al 
c\rts ) a great c5tral t[]4  ,:]e on e>?
 h we got to n[8 ,i said4  ,n[h]e 'on   
e>?1' said ,amro?4 ,y are at s*ool aga91
 & y w f9d x v int]e/+1 ,i hope &       
expect1 b x w be h>d "w4 ,i w tell y    
pla9ly t y are lucky to be "h1 because  
if y d well1 y w h ! be/ sort ( "w to d4
  ,b :at am ,i to d1 & :]e am ,i to g8  
,i said4 ,i feel l a new boy1 ) all     
sorts ( dreadful rules 9 ! backgr\nd4   
,t w all be expla9$ to y1 said ,amro?4  
,& n[ good-bye = ! pres5t4 ,let me he> a
 good report ( y1 he add$1 ) a p>5tal   

air1 :5 ,i come aga94 ,:at w\ld n we    
old] fell[s give to be back "h6 he add$ 
) a half-mock+ smile4 ,let me tell y1 my
 boy1 y h got ! happie/ "t ( y\r life   
ahead ( y4 ,well1 be a cr$it to y\r     
fri5ds6  ,he gave me a nod & 0 gone4 ,i 
/ood = a little look+ out r desolately  
into ! pla94 ,!re came a brisk tap at my
 door1 & a man ent]$4 ,he greet$ me     
pleasantly1 gave me a few directions1 & 
,i ga!r$ t he 0 "o ( ! in/ructors4 ,y w 
f9d x h>d "w1 he said2 we d n wa/e "t   
"h4 ,b ,i ga!r t y h _h r a tr\blesome  
asc5t1 s y c re/ a little4 ,:5 y are    
requir$1 y w be summon$4  ,:5 he left   
me1 ,i /ill felt v we>y1 & lay d[n on a 
little c\* 9 ! room1 fall+ pres5tly     
asleep4 ,i 0 r\s$ by ! entry ( a "y man1
 :o said he _h be5 s5t to fet* me3 we   
w5t d[n along ! passages1 :ile he talk$ 
pleasantly 9 l[ tones ab\t ! arrangem5ts
 ( ! place4 ,z we w5t along ! passages1 
! doors ( ! cells kept op5+1 & we 7 jo9$
 by "y m5 & wom51 :o spoke to me or to  
ea* o!r1 b all 9 ! same subdu$ voices1  

till at la/ we ent]$ a big1 b>e1 ar*$   
room1 lit by high w9d[s1 ) r[s ( seats1 
& a great desk or pulpit at ! end4 ,i   
look$ r\nd me 9 great curiosity4 ,!re   
mu/ h be5 sev]al hundr$ p pres5t1 sitt+ 
9 r[s4 ,!re 0 a murmur ( talk ov] !     
hall1 till a bell sudd5ly s\nd$ some:]e 
9 ! ca/le1 a door op5$1 a man /epp$     
quickly into ! pulpit1 & began to speak 
9 a v cle> & di/9ct tone4  ,!           
disc\rse--& all ! o!r disc\rses to :i*  
,i li/5$ 9 ! place--0 ( a psy*ological  
k9d1 deal+ entirely ) ! relations (     
human be+s ) ea* o!r1 & ! effect &      
int]play ( emotions4 ,x 0 extremely     
sci5tific1 b c\*$ 9 ! simple/           
phraseology1 & made _m ?+s cle> to me   
:i* _h =m]ly be5 obscure4 ,!re is no?+ 9
 ! _w s bewild]+ z ! selective in/9ct ( 
humanity1 ! reasons :i* draw p to ea*   
o!r1 ! attractive p[] ( simil>ity &     
dissimil>ity1 ! effects ( class & ca/e1 
! abrupt approa*es ( passion1 ! influ5ce
 ( ! body on ! s\l & ( ! s\l on ! body4 
,x came ^u me ) a %ock ( surprise t :ile

 ^! ?+s are ! mo/ s]i\s realities 9 !   
_w1 & und\bt$ly m important ?an any o!r 
?+1 little attempt is made by humanity  
to unravel or classify !m4 ,i _c "h ent]
 into ! details ( ^! in/ructions1 :i*   
inde$ w\ld be un9telligible1 b !y %[$ me
 at fir/ :at ,i _h n at all appreh5d$1  
namely ! proportionate importance &     
unimportance ( all ! passions & emotions
 :i* regulate our relations ) o!r s\ls4 
,^! disc\rses 7 giv5 at regul> int]vals1
 & mu* ( our "t 0 sp5t 9 discuss+ toge!r
 or work+ out 9 solitude ! details (    
psy*ological problems1 :i* we did ) !   
exactness ( *emical analysis4  ,:at ,i  
soon came to und]/& 0 t ! :ole (        
psy*ology is rul$ by ! mo/ exact &      
immutable laws1 9 :i* !re is no?+       
=tuit\s or abnormal1 & t ! exact c\rse (
 an emotion c be pr$ict$ ) p]fect       
c]ta9ty if only all ! data are kn[n4    
,"o ( ! mo/ /rik+ p>ts ( ^! disc\rses 0 
! fact t !y 7 accompani$ by             
illu/rations4 ,i w describe ! fir/ ( ^! 
:i* ,i saw4 ,! lectur] /opp$ = an in/ant

 & held up 8 h&4 ,9 ! middle ( "o ( !   
side-walls ( ! room 0 a great %all[ ar*$
 recess4 ,9 ?is recess !re sudd5ly      
appe>$ a sc5e1 n z ?\gh x 7 ca/ by a    
lant]n on ! wall1 b z if ! wall 7 brok5 
d[n1 & %[$ a room beyond4  ,9 ! room1 a 
com=tably furni%$ ap>tm5t1 !re sat two  
p1 a husb& & wife1 middle-ag$ p1 :o 7   
engag$ 9 a mis]able dispute ab\t "s v   
trivial matt]4 ,! wife 0 %rill &        
provocative1 ! husb& curt & contemptu\s4
 ,!y 7 obvi\sly n really conc]n$ ab\t ! 
subject !y 7 discuss+--x only =m$ a     
gr\nd = disagreeable p]sonalities4      
,pres5tly ! man w5t out1 say+ h>%ly t x 
0 v pleasant to come back f 8 "w1 day   
aft] day1 to ^! sc5es2 to :i* ! woman   
fi]cely retort$ t x 0 all 8 own fault2 &
 :5 he 0 gone1 %e sat = a "t me*anically
 knitt+1 ) ! te>s trickl+ d[n h] *eeks1 
& e n[ & !n glanc+ at ! door4 ,aft] :i*1
 ) great secrecy1 %e help$ h]self to "s 
spirits :i* %e took f a cupbo>d4  ,!    
sc5e 0 "o ( ! mo/ vulg> & debas+ t c be 
describ$ or imag9$2 & x 0 curi\s to wat*

 ! expressions on ! faces ( my          
companions4 ,!y wore ! air ( tra9$      
doctors or nurses1 wat*+ "s disagreeable
 symptoms1 ) a sort ( tra9$ & s]5e      
compassion1 nei!r %ock$ nor griev$4 ,!n 
! situation 0 discuss$ & analys$1 &     
v>i\s sugge/ions 7 made :i* 7 dealt ) by
 ! lectur]1 9 a way :i* %[$ me t !re 0  
mu* = u to ma/] & to und]/&4  ,!re 7 _m 
o!r su* illu/rations giv54 ,!y 71 ,i    
discov]$1 by no means imag9>y cases1    
project$ into our m9ds by a k9d ( m5tal 
sugge/ion1 b actual ?+s happ5+ ^u e>?4  
,we saw _m /range sc5es ( trag$y1 we _h 
a glimpse ( lunatic asylums & hospitals1
 ( murd] ev51 & ( evil passions ( ang] &
 lu/4 ,we saw sc5es ( grief & t]ror2 &1 
/rang] /ill1 we saw _m ?+s t 7 be+      
enact$ n on ! e>?1 b ^u o!r planets1 :]e
 ! =ms & appe>ances ( ! creatures       
conc]n$ 7 fanta/ic & /range en\gh1 b :]e
 ! motive & ! emotion 7 all p]fectly    
cle>4 ,at times1 too1 we saw sc5es t 7  
beautiful & t\*+1 high & h]oic beyond   
words4 ,^! seem$ to come r by contra/ & 

= enc\ragem5t2 = ! "w 0 di/9ctly        
pa?ological1 & dealt ) ! disa/]s &      
complications ( emotions1 z a rule1 r   
?an ) _! glories & radiances4 ,b x 0 all
 incr$ibly absorb+ & int]e/+1 ?\gh :at x
 0 to lead up to ,i did n q disc]n4 ,:at
 /ruck me 0 ! conc5tration ( ef=t ^u    
human emotion1 & /ill m ! fact t o!r    
hopes & passions1 su* z ambition &      
acquisitiv5ess1 z well z all mat]ial &  
economic problems1 7 treat$ z inf9itely 
insignificant1 z j ! framework ( human  
life1 only int]e/+ 9 s f> z ! bas] &    
mean] elem5ts ( circum/ance c j         
influ5ce1 ref9+ or co>s5+1 ! highe/     
traits ( "* & emotion4  ,we 7 giv5      
special cases1 too1 to /udy & consid]1 &
 "h ,i _h ! fir/ inkl+ ( h[ f> x is     
possible = disembodi$ spirits to be 9   
t\* ) ^? :o are /ill 9 ! body4  ,z f> z 
,i c see1 no direct intellectual contact
 is possible1 except "u c]ta9           
circum/ances4 ,!re is1 ( c\rse1 a great 
deal ( ?\ght-vibration tak+ place 9 !   
_w1 to :i* ! be/ analogy is wireless    

telegraphy4 ,!re exi/s an all-p]vad+    
emotional m$ium1 into :i* e ?\ght t is  
t+$ ) emotion s5ds a ripple4 ,?\ghts :i*
 are conc]n$ ) p]sonal emotion s5d !    
firme/ ripple into ?is m$ium1 & all o!r 
?\ghts & passions affect x1 n 9         
proportion to ! int5sity ( ! ?\ght1 b to
 ! nature ( ! ?\ght4 ,! scale is        
p]fectly det]m9$ & q unalt]able2 ?us a  
?\ght1 h[ev] /rong & int5se1 :i* is     
conc]n$ ) weal? or ) p]sonal ambition   
s5ds a v little ripple into ! m$ium1    
:ile a ?\ght ( affection is v noticeable
 inde$1 & m noticeable 9 proportion z x 
is pur] & less conc]n$ ) any k9d (      
bodily passion4 ,?us1 /range to say1 !  
?\ght ( a fa!r = a *ild is a /rong]     
?\ght ?an t ( a lov] = 8 belov$4 ,i d n 
"k ! exact scale ( =ce1 :i* is z exact z
 t ( *emical values--& ( c\rse su*      
emotions are apt to be complex &        
intricate2 b ! pur] & simpl] ! ?\ght is1
 ! great] is its =ce4 ,p]haps ! pray]s t
 "o prays = ^? :om "o loves s5d !       
/ronge/ ripple ( all4 ,if x happ5s t two

 ( ^! ripples ( p]sonal emotion are     
closely simil>1 a reflex action takes   
place2 & ?us is expla9$ ! ph5om5on :i*  
(t5 takes place1 ! sudd5 s5se ( a       
fri5d's p]sonality1 if t fri5d1 9       
abs5ce1 writes "o a lett]1 or b5ds 8 m9d
 int5tly ^u "o4 ,x also expla9s ! way 9 
:i* "s national or cosmic emotion       
sudd5ly ga9s simultane\s =ce1 & vibrates
 9 ?\s&s ( m9ds at ! same "t4  ,! body1 
by its joys & suff]+s alike1 (f]s a     
great ob/ruction to ^! emotional waves4 
,9 ! l& ( spirits1 z ,i h indicat$1 an  
int5tion ( cong5ial wills gives an      
in/antane\s p]ception2 b ?is seems      
impossible betwe5 an embodi$ _s & a     
disembodi$ _s4 ,! only communication :i*
 seems possible is t ( a vague emotion2 
& x seems q impossible = any sort (     
intellectual idea to be directly        
communicat$ by a disembodi$ _s to an    
embodi$ _s4  ,on ! o!r h&1 !            
intellectual processes ( an embodi$ _s  
are to a c]ta9 ext5t p]ceptible by a    
disembodi$ _s2 b !re is a condition to  

?is1 & t is t "s emotional sympa?y mu/ h
 exi/$ betwe5 ! two on e>?4 ,if !re is  
no su* sympa?y1 !n ! body is an absolute
 b>4  ,i c\ld look into ! m9d ( ,amro? &
 see 8 ?\ght take %ape1 z ,i c\ld look  
into a /ream1 & see a fi% d>t f a cov]t 
( we$4 ,b ) ^? /ill 9 ! body x is       
diff]5t4 ,& ,i w !re=e proce$ to        
describe a s+le exp]i5ce :i* w illu/rate
 my po9t4  ,i 0 ord]$ to /udy ! case ( a
 =m] fri5d ( my own :o 0 /ill liv+ ^u   
e>?4 ,no?+ 0 told me ab\t him1 b1 sitt+ 
9 my cell1 ,i put myself into           
communication ) him ^u e>?4 ,he _h be5 a
 contempor>y ( m9e at ! univ]sity1 & we 
_h _m int]e/s 9 common4 ,he 0 a lawy]2  
we did n v (t5 meet1 b :5 we did meet x 
0 always ) great cordiality & sympa?y4  
,i n[ f\nd him ill & suff]+ f ov]work1 9
 a v melan*oly /ate4 ,:5 ,i fir/ visit$ 
him1 he 0 sitt+ alone1 9 ! g>d5 ( a     
little h\se 9 ! c\ntry4 ,i c\ld see t he
 0 ill & sad2 he 0 mak+ pret5ce to read1
 b ! book 0 :olly disreg>d$4  ,:5 ,i    
attempt$ to put my m9d into             

communication ) 81 x 0 v difficult to   
see ! drift ( 8 ?\ghts4 ,i 0 l a man    
walk+ 9 a d5se fog1 :o c j disc]n at    
int]vals recognisable objects z !y come 
)9 8 view2 b !re 0 no g5]al prospect &  
no di/ance4 ,8 m9d seem$ a confus$      
curr5t ( di/ress+ memories2 b !re came a
 "t :5 8 ?\ght dwelt = a mom5t ^u       
myself2 he wi%$ t ,i c\ld be ) him1 t he
 might speak ( "s ( 8 p]plexities4 ,9 t 
in/ant1 ! :ole grew cle>]1 & little by  
little ,i 0 enabl$ to trace ! drift ( 8 
?\ghts4 ,i became aw>e t ?\gh he 0 inde$
 suff]+ f ov]work1 yet t 8 en=c$ re/    
only remov$ ! m5tal di/raction ( 8 "w1 &
 left 8 m9d free to revive a :ole troop 
( pa9ful ?\ghts4 ,he _h be5 a man (     
/rong p]sonal ambitions1 & _h = tw5ty   
ye>s be5 endeav\r+ to realise !m4 ,n[ a 
s5se ( ! comp>ative wor?lessness ( 8    
aims _h come ^u him4 ,he _h despis$ &   
slight$ o!r emotions2 & 8 m9d _h 9      
consequ5ce drift$ away l a boat into a  
bitt] & b>r5 sea4 ,he 0 a lonely man1 & 
he 0 feel+ t he _h done ill 9 n         

multiply+ human emotions & relations4   
,he reflect$ mu* ^u ! way 9 :i* he _h   
neglect$ & despis$ 8 home affections1   
:ile he _h =m$ no ties ( 8 own4 ,n[1    
too1 8 c>e] seem$ to him at an end1 & he
 _h no?+ to look =w>d to b a maim$ &    
invalid$ life ( solitude & failure4 ,_m 
( 8 ?\ghts ,i c\ld n disc]n at all--!   
mi/1 s to speak1 involv$ !m--:ile _m 7  
obscure to me4 ,:5 he ?\ght ab\t sc5es &
 p :om ,i _h nev] kn[n1 ! ?\ght loom$   
%apeless & d>k2 b :5 he ?\ght1 z he (t5 
did1 ab\t 8 s*ool & univ]sity days1 &   
ab\t 8 home circle1 all ( :i* sc5es 7   
famili> to me1 ,i c\ld read 8 m9d )     
p]fect cle>ness4 ,at ! bottom ( all lay 
a s5se ( deep disappo9tm5t & res5tm5t4  
,he d\bt$ ! ju/ice ( ,god1 & blam$      
himself b little = 8 mis]ies4 ,x 0 a sad
 exp]i5ce at fir/1 because he 0 fall+   
day by day into m hopeless dejection2   
:ile he refus$ ! pa!tic ov]tures (      
sympa?y :i* ! relations 9 ^: h\se he    
0--a m>ri$ si/] ) h] husb& &            
*ildr5--(f]$ him4 ,he bore himself )    

c\rtesy & consid]ation1 b he 0 s mu*    
worn ) fatigue & despond5cy t he c\ld n 
take any initiative4 ,b ,i became aw>e v
 gradually t he 0 le>n+ ! true wor? &   
proportion ( ?+s--& ! mon?s :i* pass$ s 
heavily = him br\ght him p]ceptions ( ! 
value ( :i* he 0 h>dly aw>e4 ,let me say
 t x 0 n[ t ! incr$ible swiftness ( "t 9
 ! spiritual region made itself felt =  
me4 ,a mon? ( 8 suff]+s pass$ to me1    
contemplat+ !m1 l an h\r4  ,i f\nd to my
 surprise t 8 ?\ghts ( myself 7 becom+ m
 frequ5t2 & "o day :5 he 0 turn+ ov] "s 
old lett]s & read+ a numb] ( m9e1 x     
seem$ to me t 8 _s almo/ recognis$ my   
pres5ce 9 ! words :i* came to 8 lips1 ,x
 seems l ye/]day6 ,i !n became bless$ly 
aw>e t ,i 0 actually help+ him1 & t ! v 
int5tness ( my own ?\ght 0 quick5+ 8    
own4  ,i discuss$ ! :ole case v closely 
& c>efully ) "o ( our in/ructors1 :o set
 me "r on sev]al po9ts & made ! :ole    
/ate ( ?+s cle> to me4  ,i said to him1 
,"o ?+ bewild]s me2 x w\ld almo/ seem t 
a man's "w ^u e>? con/itut$ an          

int]ruption & a di/raction f spiritual  
influ5ces4 ,x _c surely be t p 9 ! body 
%\ld avoid employm5t1 & give !mselves to
 seclud$ m$itation8 ,if ! s\l gr[s fa/ 9
 sadness & despond5cy1 x w\ld seem t "o 
%\ld almo/ h c\rt$ sorr[ on e>?2 & yet  
,i _c believe t to be ! case4  ,no1 he  
said1 x is n ! case2 ! body has "h to be
 consid]$4 ,no am\nt ( active ex]tion   
cl\ds ! eye ( ! s\l1 if only ! motive ( 
x is pure & l(ty1 & if ! s\l is only set
 pati5tly & fai?fully ^u ! true end (   
life4 ,! body inde$ requires due lab\r &
 ex]cise1 & ! s\l c ga9 heal? & cle>ness
 !reby4 ,b :at does cl\d ! _s is if x   
gives itself :olly up to n>r[ p]sonal   
aims & ambitions1 & uses fri5d%ip & love
 z m]e recreations & amusem5ts4         
,sickness & sorr[ are n1 z we us$ to    
?9k1 =tuit\s ?+s2 !y are giv5 to ^? :o  
ne$ !m1 z high & ri* opportunities2 & !y
 come z truly bless$ gifts1 :5 !y break 
a man's ?\ght (f f mat]ial ?+s1 & make  
him fall back ^u ! lov+ affections &    
relations ( life4 ,:5 "o re-ent]s ! _w1 

a woman's life is sometimes grant$ to a 
_s1 because a woman by circum/ance &    
temp]am5t is less tempt$ to decl9e ^u   
mean] ambitions & int]e/s ?an a man2 b  
"w & activity are no h9drances to       
spiritual gr[?1 s long z ! s\l waits ^u 
,god1 & desires to le>n ! lessons (     
life1 r ?an to en=ce its own conclusions
 ^u o!rs4  ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i see t4     
,:at1 !n1 is ! great h9drance 9 ! life (
 m58  ,au?ority1 he said1 :e!r giv5 or  
tak54 ,t is by f> ! greate/ difficulty t
 a s\l has to cont5d )4 ,! k ( ! true   
conditions ( life is s m9ute & yet s    
imp]fect1 :5 "o is 9 ! body1 t ! man or 
woman :o ?9ks x a duty to disapprove1 to
 correct1 to c5sure1 is 9 ! grave/      
dang]4 ,9 ! fir/ place x is s impossible
 to dis5tangle ! true conditions ( any  
human life2 to "k h[ f> ^? failures :i* 
are lightly call$ s9s are inh]it$       
in/9cts ( ! body1 or ! manife/ation (   
immaturity ( _s4 ,complac5cy1 h>d       
righte\sness1 spiritual security1 sev]e 
judgm5ts1 are ! real foes ( spiritual   

gr[?2 & if a man is 9 a position to     
en=ce 8 influ5ce & 8 w ^u o!rs1 he c    
fall v l[ inde$1 & susp5d 8 own gr[? = a
 v long & sad p]iod4 ,x is n ! criticism
 or ! analysis ( o!rs :i* hurts ! s\l1 s
 long z x rema9s mode/ & s9c]e &        
consci\s ( its own weaknesses4 ,x is :5 
we indulge 9 secure or compassionate    
comp>isons ( our own sup]ior wor? t we g
 backw>ds4  ,?is 0 b "o ( ! _m cases :i*
 ,i _h to inve/igate4 ,i d n say t ?is  
is ! "w ( all spirits 9 ! o!r _w--x is n
 s2 !re are _m k9ds ( "w & occupation4  
,?is 0 ! "o n[ allott$ to me2 b ,i did  
become aw>e ( ! int5se & lov+ int]e/ :i*
 is b5t ^u ! s\ls ( ! liv+ by ^? :o are 
dep>t$4 ,!re is n a s\l alive :o is n   
be+ ?us wat*$ & t5d$1 & help$1 z f> z   
help is possible2 = no "o is ev] =c$ or 
compell$ or fright5$ into tru?1 only    
drawn & woo$ by love & c>e4  ,i mu/ say 
a ^w1 too1 ( ! great & noble fri5d%ips  
:i* ,i =m$ at ?is p]iod ( my exi/5ce4   
,we 7 n free to make _m ( ^! at a "t4   
,love seems to be ! "o ?+ t dem&s an    

entire conc5tration1 & ?\gh 9 ! _w (    
spirits ,i became aw>e t "o c\ld be     
consci\s ( _m ( ! ?\ghts ( ^? ab\t me   
simultane\sly1 yet ! emotion ( love1 9 !
 e>li] /ages1 is s+le & exclusive4  ,i w
 speak ( two only4 ,!re 7 a "y man & a  
"y woman :o 7 mu* associat$ ) me at t   
"t1 :om ,i w call ,philip & ,anna4      
,philip 0 "o ( ! mo/ beautiful ( all !  
spirits ,i ev] came ne>4 ,8 la/ life ^u 
e>? _h be5 a long "o1 & he _h be5 a     
tea*]4 ,i us$ to tell him t ,i wi%$ ,i  
_h be5 "u him z a pupil1 to :i* he      
repli$1 laugh+1 t ,i %\ld h f\nd him v  
un9t]e/+4 ,he said to me once t ! way 9 
:i* he _h always di/+ui%$ ! two k9ds (  
tea*]s on e>? _h be5 by :e!r !y 7 always
 anxi\s to tea* new books & new         
subjects1 or w5t on cont5t$ly ) ! old4  
,! pleasure1 he said1 0 9 ! tea*+1 9    
mak+ ! ?\ght cle>1 9 tempt+ ! boys to   
f9d out :at !y knew all ! "t2 & ! (t5]  
,i taught a subject ! bett] ,i lik$ x2 x
 0 l a big cog-:eel1 ) a numb] ( little 
cog-:eels turn+ ) x4 ,b ! m5 :o 7 always

 want+ to *ange _! subjects 7 ! m5 :o   
?\ght ( _! own intellectual int]e/ fir/1
 & v little ( ! small int]e/s revolv+ ^u
 x4 ,! *>m ( ,philip 0 ! *>m ( extreme  
+5u\sness comb9$ ) d>+ insight4 ,he nev]
 seem$ to be %ock$ or di/ress$ by any?+4
 ,he said "o day1 ,x 0 n ! s5sual or !  
timid or ! ill-temp]$ boys :o us$ to    
make me anxi\s4 ,^? 7 def9ite faults &  
br\ght def9ite puni%m5t2 x 0 !          
h>d-he>t$1 virtu\s1 ambiti\s1 s5sible   
boys1 :o 7 good-hum\r$ & respectable &  
selfi%1 :o bo!r$ me2 "o want$ to %ake !m
 z a t]ri] %akes a rat--b !re 0 no?+ to 
get hold (4 ,!y 7 a cr$it to !mselves & 
to _! p>5ts & to ! s*ool2 & yet !y w5t  
d[nhill ) e success4  ,anna 0 a woman ( 
s+ul>ly unselfi% & c\rage\s temp]am5t4  
,%e _h be51 9 ! c\rse ( h] la/ life ^u  
e>?1 a hospital nurse2 & %e us$ to speak
 gratefully ( ! long p]iods :5 %e 0     
nurs+ "s anxi\s case1 :5 %e _h int]*ang$
 day & night1 sleep+ :5 ! _w 0 awake1 & 
sitt+ ) a book or ne$lework by !        
sick-b$1 ?r\gh ! long d>kness4 ,p us$ to

 say to me t x mu/ be s depress+2 b ^? 7
 my happie/ h\rs1 z ! d>k bright5$ into 
dawn1 :5 _m ( ! /range my/]ies ( life & 
pa9 & dea? gave up _! secrets to me4 ,b 
( c\rse1 %e add$ ) a smile1 x 0 all v   
dim to me4 ,i felt ! tru? r ?an saw x2 &
 x is a great joy to me to p]ceive n[   
:at 0 happ5+1 & h[ ! sad1 bewild]$ h\rs 
( pa9 & mis]y leave _! bless$ m>ks ^u ! 
s\l1 l ! tools ( ! grav] on ! gem4 ,if  
only we c\ld le>n to plan a little less 
& to believe a little m1 h[ mu* simpl] x
 w\ld all be6  ,^! two became v de> to  
me1 & ,i le>nt mu* heav5ly wisdom f !m 9
 long1 quiet conf]5ces1 :]e we spoke    
frankly ( all we _h felt & kn[n4        
,,xix   ,x 0 at ?is "t1 ,i ?9k1 t a     
great *ange came ov] my ?\ghts1 or r t  
,i realis$ t a great *ange _h gradually 
tak5 place4 ,till n[1 ,i _h be5 dom9at$ 
& haunt$ by memories ( my late/ life ^u 
e>?2 b at int]vals !re _h visit$ me a   
s5se ( old] & pur] recollections4 ,i _c 
describe exactly h[ x came ab\t--&1     
inde$1 ! memory ( :at my heav5ly        

progress _h hi!rto be51 z oppos$ to my  
e>?ly exp]i5ce1 0 nev] v cle> to me2 b  
,i became aw>e t my life 9 heav5--,i w  
call x heav5 = want ( a bett] "n--0 my  
real cont9u\s life1 my home-life1 s to  
speak1 :ile my e>?ly lives _h be51 to   
pursue ! metaphor1 l t]ms :i* a boy     
sp5ds at s*ool1 9 :i* he is aw>e t he n 
only le>ns def9ite & tangible ?+s1 b t 8
 "* is h>d5$ & consolidat$ by com+ into 
contact ) ! r\gh] facts ( life--duty1   
responsibility1 fri5d%ips1 ang]s1       
trea*]ies1 temptations1 r\t9e4 ,! boy   
returns ) gladness to ! s]5] & sweet]   
atmosph]e ( home2 & j 9 ! same way ,i   
felt ,i _h return$ to ! l>g] & pur] life
 ( heav54 ,b1 z ,i say1 ! recollection (
 my e>li] life 9 heav51 my occupations &
 exp]i5ce1 0 nev] cle> to me1 b r z a   
lum9\s & haunt+ mi/4 ,i que/ion$ ,amro? 
ab\t ?is once1 & he said t ?is 0 !      
univ]sal exp]i5ce1 & t ! e>?ly lives "o 
liv$ 7 l deep tr5*es cut across a pa?1 &
 seem$ to int]rupt ! heav5ly sequ5ce2 b 
t z ! _s grew m pure & wise1 !          

consci\sness ( ! heav5ly life became m  
di/9ct & secure4 ,b he add$1 :at ,i did 
n q und]/&1 t !re 0 little ne$ ( memory 
9 ! life ( heav51 & t x 0 to a great    
ext5t ! inh]itance ( ! body4 ,memory1 he
 said1 0 to a great ext5t an int]ruption
 to life2 ! ?\ght ( pa/ failures &      
mi/akes1 & especially ( unk9dnesses &   
misund]/&+s1 t5d$ to obscure &          
complicate "o's relations ) o!r s\ls2 b 
t 9 heav51 :]e activity & en]gy 7 untir+
 & unceas+1 "o liv$ f> m 9 ! emotion &  
"w ( ! mom5t1 & less 9 retrospect &     
prospect4 ,:at matt]$ 0 actual exp]i5ce 
& ! effect ( exp]i5ce2 memory itself 0 b
 an arti/ic me?od ( deal+ ) ! pa/1 &    
correspond$ to fanciful & delightful    
anticipations ( ! future4 ,! tru? is1 he
 said1 t ! indulg5ce ( memory is to a   
great ext5t a m]e s5tim5tal weakness2 to
 live mu* 9 recollection is a sign (    
exhau/$ & deplet$ vitality4 ,! fur!r y  
are remov$ f y\r la/ e>?ly life1 ! less 
tempt$ y w be to recall x4 ,! highe/    
spirits ( all "h1 he said1 h no         

temptation ev] to rev]t to retrospect1  
because ! pure en]gies ( ! mom5t are    
all-su/a9+ & all-suffic+4  ,! only trace
 ,i ev] notic$ ( any memory ( my pa/    
life 9 heav5 0 t ?+s sometimes seem$    
surpris+ly famili> to me1 & t ,i _h !   
s5se ( a s]5e p]man5ce1 :i* possess$ &  
encompass$ me4 ,inde$ ,i came to believe
 t ! /range feel+ ( p]man5ce :i* haunts 
"o ^u e>?1 :5 "o is happy & cont5t1 ev5 
?\gh "o kn[s t ev]y?+ is *ang+ & %ift+  
ar\nd "o1 & t all is prec>i\s & unc]ta91
 is 9 itself a memory ( ! s]5e &        
untr\bl$ cont9uance ( heav51 & a desire 
to ta/e x & realise x4  ,be ?is z x may1
 f ! "t ( my f9d+ my settl$ task & ord]$
 place 9 ! heav5ly community ! memories 
( my old life ^u e>? began to fade f my 
?\ghts4 ,i c\ld1 inde$1 always recall !m
 by an ef=t1 b !re seem$ less & less    
incl9ation to d s ! m ,i became absorb$ 
9 my heav5ly activities4  ,"o ?+ ,i     
notic$ 9 ^! days2 x surpris$ me v       
greatly1 till ,i reflect$ t my surprise 
0 b ! consequ5ce ( ! /range & m\rnful   

bl9dness ) reg>d to spiritual ?+s 9 :i* 
we live "u ! d>k skies ( e>?4 ,we h !re 
a false idea t someh[ or o!r dea? takes 
all ! individuality out ( a man1        
oblit]at+ all ! :ims1 prejudices1 !     
?orny & unreasonable dislikes & fancies1
 oddities1 temp]s1 r\ghnesses1 &        
subtl5esses f a temp]am5t4 ,( c\rse !re 
are a good _m ( ^! ?+s :i* disappe>     
toge!r ) ! body1 su* z ! glooms1        
suspicions1 & cl\dy irritabilities1 :i* 
are caus$ by fatigue & malaise1 & by    
ill-heal? g5]ally4 ,b a man's :ims &    
fancies & dislikes d n by any means     
disappe> on e>? :5 he is 9 good heal?2  
on ! contr>y1 !y are (t5 apt to be      
acc5tuat$ & emphasis$ :5 he is free f   
pa9 & c>e & anxiety1 & rid+ bli!ly ov] !
 waves ( life4 ,inde$ !re are m5 :om ,i 
h kn[n :o are nev] k9d or sympa!tic till
 !y are 9 "s we>+ tr\ble ( _! own2 :5 !y
 are prosp]\s & *e]ful1 !y are frankly  
intol]able1 because _! mir? turns to    
d]ision & insol5ce4  ,b "o ( ! reasons  
:y ! heav5ly life is apt to appe> 9     

prospect s we>isome a ?+ is1 because we 
are br\ght up to feel t ! :ole "* is    
flatt5$ out & *>g$ ) a s]5e k9d (       
priggi%ness1 :i* takes all ! salt out ( 
life4 ,! ^w sa9tly1 s t]ribly misappli$ 
on e>?1 gr[s to mean1 to _m ( u1 an     
irritat+ sort ( k9dness1 :i* treats !   
int]e/s & animat$ elem5ts ( life ) a    
pa9ful condesc5sion1 & a sympa?y ( :i* !
 basis is duty r ?an love4 ,! true      
sanctification1 :i* ,i came to p]ceive  
some?+ ( lat]1 is ! result ( a process (
 endless pati5ce & inf9ite delay1 & !   
atta9m5t ( x implies a humility1 sev5   
times ref9$ 9 ! fires ( self-contempt1 9
 :i* !re rema9s no smalle/ t\* (        
sup]iority or alo(ness4 ,h[ utt]ly      
depress+ is ! feign$ int]e/ ( ! imp]fect
 human sa9t 9 matt]s ( mundane conc]n6  
,h[ x takes at once bo? ! joy out (     
hol9ess & ! _s out ( human ef=t6 ,x is z
 dre>y z ! pr(essional sympa?y ( !      
seclud$ /ud5t = ! news ( a?letic        
conte/s1 z ! tol]ance ( ! %rewd man (   
sci5ce = ! fem99e logic ( religi\s      

s5tim5t6  ,b ,i f\nd to my great cont5t 
t :atev] *ange _h pass$ ov] ! spirits ( 
my companions1 !y _h at lea/ lo/ no     
fibre ( _! individuality4 ,! *ange t _h 
pass$ ov] !m 0 l ! *ange t passes ov] a 
"y man1 :o has liv$ at ! ,univ]sity     
among dilettante lit]>y designs & mild  
sociological !oris+1 :5 he f9ds himself 
plung$ into ! urg5t practical activities
 ( ! _w4 ,our happ9ess 0 ! happ9ess :i* 
comes ( int5se toil1 ) no fatigue to dog
 x1 & f a consci\sness ( ! vital issues 
:i* we 7 pursu+4 ,b my companions _h    
/ill intellectual faults & pref]5ces1   
self-confid5ce1 critical intol]ance1    
boi/]\sness1 wilfulness4 ,/rang] /ill1  
,i f\nd coldness1 ang]1 jeal\sy1 /ill at
 "w4 ,( c\rse 9 ! latt] case            
reconciliation 0 easi]1 bo? 9 ! light ( 
common en?usiasm &1 /ill m1 because     
m5tal communication 0 s mu* swift] &    
easi] ?an x _h be5 on e>?4 ,!re 0 no ne$
 ( ^? protract$ talks1 ^? tiresome      
explanations :i* clev] p1 :o really love
 & e/eem ea* o!r1 fall into on e>?--!   

/atem5ts :i* affirm no?+1 ! explanations
 :i* elucidate no?+1 because ( !        
intricacies ( human spee* & ! fact t p  
use ! same words ) su* diff]5t          
implications & mean+s4 ,all ^? became   
unnecess>y1 because "o c\ld pi]ce       
in/antane\sly into ! v ess5ce ( ! s\l1 &
 manife/1 )\t ! ne$ ( expression1 !     
reg>d & affection :i* lay b5ea? !       
cross-curr5ts ( emotion4 ,b love &      
affection wax$ & wan$ 9 heav5 z on e>?2 
x 0 weak5$ & x 0 transf]r$4 ,few s\ls   
are s s]5e on e>? z to see ) p]fect     
equanimity a fri5d1 :om "o loves &      
tru/s1 becom+ absorb$ 9 "s new & excit+ 
emotion1 :i* may n p]haps oblit]ate !   
orig9al reg>d1 b :i* mu/ )draw f x = a  
"t ! en]gy :i* f$ ! flame ( ! int]mitt$ 
relation4  ,x 0 v /range to me to       
realise ! fact t fri5d%ips & intimacies 
7 =m$ z on e>?1 & t !y lo/ _! fre%ness1 
ei!r f "s lack ( real cong5iality or f  
"s div]g5ce ( developm5t4 ,sometimes1 ,i
 may add1 our tea*]s 7 consult$ by !    
aggriev$1 sometimes !y ev5 int]v5$      

unask$4  ,i w freely confess t ?is all  
imm5sely height5$ ! int]e/s to me ( our 
common life4 ,"o c\ld see two spirits   
drawn toge!r by "s secret tie ( emotion1
 & "o c\ld see "s fur!r influ5ce /rike  
across & susp5d x4 ,"o case ( ?is ,i w  
m5tion1 :i* is typical ( _m4 ,!re came  
among u an extremely lively & r :imsical
 _s1 m l a boy ?an a man4 ,i wond]$ at  
fir/ :y he 0 *os5 = ?is "w1 because he  
seem$ bo? fitful & ev5 caprici\s2 b ,i  
gradually realis$ 9 him an extraord9>y  
f95ess ( p]ception1 & a swiftness (     
intuition almo/ unrivall$4 ,he _h a p[] 
( weigh+ almo/ by in/9ct ! con/itu5t    
elem5ts ( "*1 :i* seem$ to me some?+ l !
 p[] ( tonality 9 a musician1 ! gift (  
recognis+1 by pure faculty1 :at any     
notes may be1 h[ev] confus$ly jangl$ on 
an in/rum5t4 ,x 0 wond]ful to me h[ (t5 
8 in/antane\s judgm5ts prov$ m sagaci\s 
?an our c>efully =m$ conclusions4  ,?is 
boy became extraord9>ily attractive to  
an old] woman :o 0 "o ( our numb]1 :o 0 
solit>y & ab/ract$1 & ( an int5se       

s]i\sness ( devotion to h] "w4 ,x 0     
evid5t bo? t %e felt 8 *>m int5sely & t 
h] disposition 0 :olly ali5 to !        
disposition ( ! boy himself4 ,9 fact1 %e
 simply bor$ him4 ,he took all t he did 
lightly1 & a*iev$ by an int5se mom5t>y  
conc5tration :at %e c\ld only a*ieve by 
sl[ reflection4 ,?is devotion _h 9 x    
some?+ t 0 /rangely pa!tic1 because x   
took ! =m 9 h] ( mak+ h] wi% to         
conciliate ! boy's admiration1 by treat+
 ?\ghts & ideas ) a lightness & a hum\r 
to :i* %e c\ld by no means atta91 & :i* 
made ?+s worse r ?an bett]1 because %e  
c\ld read s easily1 9 ! ?\ghts ( o!rs1 !
 impression t %e 0 attempt+ a h&l+ (    
topics :i* %e c\ld n 9 ! lea/ accompli%4
 ,b advice 0 useless4 ,!re x 01 ! old1  
fi]ce1 con/ra9+ attraction ( love1 z x  
_h be5 ( old1 mak+ havoc ( com=table    
arrangem5ts1 attempt+ ! impossible2 &   
yet "o knew t %e w\ld ga9 by ! process1 
t %e 0 op5+ a door 9 h] he>t t _h hi!rto
 be5 clos$1 & le>n+ a l>g5ess ( view &  
sympa?y 9 ! process4 ,h] fault _h ev]   

be51 no d\bt1 to e/imate sl[ & accurate 
me?ods too highly1 & to believe t all 0 
insecure & untru/wor?y t 0 n pa9fully   
accumulat$4 ,n[ %e saw t g5ius c\ld     
accompli% )\t ef=t or tr\ble :at no     
am\nt ( homely en]gy c\ld effect1 & a   
new horizon 0 unveil$ to h]4 ,b on ! boy
 x did n seem to h ! "r result4 ,he     
might h le>n$ to ext5d 8 sympa?y to a   
nature s dumb & plodd+2 & ?is coldness (
 8 call$ d[n a rebuke ( :at seem$ almo/ 
undue /]nness f "o ( our tea*]s4 ,x 0 n 
giv5 9 my pres5ce1 b ! boy1 bewild]$ by 
! sev]ity :i* he did n anticipate1 c\pl$
 inde$ ) a h9t t he mu/ be prep>$1 if he
 c\ld n exhibit a m ela/ic sympa?y1 to h
 8 c\rse susp5d$ 9 fav\r ( "s m simple  
discipl9e1 told me ! :ole matt]4 ,:at am
 ,i to d8 he said4 ,i _c c>e = ,b>b>a2  
h] :ole nature upsets me & revolts me4  
,i "k %e is v good & all t1 b ,i simply 
am n myself :5 %e is by2 x is l tak+ a  
run ) a tortoise6  ,well1 ,i said1 no "o
 expects y to give up all y\r "t to tak+
 tortoises = runs2 b ,i suppose t       

tortoises h _! rights1 & mu/ n be j]k$  
along on _! backs1 l a sl$ge4  ,oh1 said
 he1 y are all aga9/ me1 ,i "k2 & ,i am 
n sure t ?is place is n r too solemn =  
me4 ,:at is ! good ( be+ wis] ?an ! ag$1
 if "o has m comm&m5ts to keep8  ,?+s1  
h[ev]1 settl$ d[n 9 "t4 ,b>b>a1 ,i ?9k1 
mu/ h be5 tak5 to task z well1 because  
%e gave up h] attempts at wit2 & ! end (
 x 0 t a quiet fri5d%ip sprang up betwe5
 ! incongru\s pair1 l t betwe5 a wayw>d 
"y bro!r & a pla91 k9dly1 & eld]ly si/]1
 ( a v f9e & *ivalr\s k9d4  ,x mu/ n be 
?\ght t we sp5t our "t :olly 9 ^!       
emotional relations4 ,x 0 a place ( h>d 
& urg5t "w2 b ,i came to realise t1 j z 
on e>?1 in/itutions l s*ools & colleges1
 :]e a great v>iety ( natures are ga!r$ 
9 close & daily contact1 are %ot ?r\gh &
 ?r\gh ) /range curr5ts ( emotion1 :i*  
"s p pay no att5tion to1 & o!rs dismiss 
z m]e s5tim5tality1 s x 0 also b\nd to  
be beyond1 ) ?is diff]5ce1 t :]eas on   
e>? we are %y & awkw>d ) our fri5d%ips1 
& all sorts ( physical complications    

int]v5e1 9 ! o!r _w !y assume _! frank  
importance4 ,i saw t mu* ( :at is call$ 
! s]i\s bus9ess ( life is simply &      
solely necessitat$ by bodily ne$s1 & is 
really entirely tempor>y & trivial1 :ile
 ! real life ( ! s\l1 :i* und]lies x    
all1 /ifl$ & subdu$1 p5t-up uneasily &  
cramp$ unk9dly l a bright spr+ ( wat] "u
 ! sup]9cumb5t e>?1 f9ds its way at la/ 
to ! light4 ,on e>? we awkw>dly divide  
?is impulse2 we speak ( ! relation ( !  
s\l to o!rs & ( ! relation ( ! s\l to   
,god z two sep>ate ?+s4 ,we pass ov] !  
words ( ,*ri/ 9 ! ,gospel1 :i* directly 
contradict ?is1 & :i* make ! "o         
absolutely dep5d5t on1 & conditional on1
 ! o!r4 ,we speak ( human affection z a 
?+ :i* may come 9 betwe5 ! s\l & ,god1  
:ile x is 9 reality ! swifte/ access    
?i!r4 ,we speak z ?\gh ambition 7 itself
 made m noble1 if x /]nly abjures all   
multiplication ( human t5d]ness4 ,we    
speak ( a life :i* sacrifices mat]ial   
success to emotion z a failure & an     
irresponsible affair4 ,! tru? is !      

precise opposite4 ,all ! ambitions :i* h
 _! end 9 p]sonal pre/ige are :olly     
b>r52 ! ambitions :i* aim at social     
amelioration h a c]ta9 nobility ab\t !m1
 ?\gh !y sub/itute a tortu\s by-pa? = a 
direct highway4 ,& ! pla9 tru? is t all 
social amelioration w\ld gr[ up z       
naturally & z fragrantly z a fl[]1 if we
 c\ld b ref9e & /r5g!n & awak5 our      
slumb]+ emotions1 & let !m gr[ out      
freely to gladd5 ! little circle ( e>? 9
 :i* we live & move4     ,,xx   ,x 0 at 
?is "t t ,i _h a memorable int]view ) ! 
,ma/] ( ! ,college4 ,he appe>$ v little 
among u1 ?\gh1 he occasionally gave u a 
%ort in/ruction1 9 :i* he summ$ up !    
tea*+ on a c]ta9 po9t4 ,he 0 a man (    
extraord9>y impressiv5ess1 ma9ly1 ,i    
?9k1 because he gave ! s5se ( be+       
occupi$ 9 mu* l>g] & wid] int]e/s4 ,i   
(t5 pond]$ ov] ! "q :y ! %ort1 cle>1 r  
dry disc\rses :i* fell f 8 lips appe>$  
to be s f> m weighty & mom5t\s ?an any?+
 else t 0 ev] said to u4 ,he us$ no arts
 ( exhortation1 %[$ no emotion1 seem$   

h>dly consci\s ( our pres5ce2 & if "o   
caught 8 eye z he spoke1 "o became aw>e 
( a curi\s tremor ( awe4 ,he nev] made  
any appeal to our he>ts or feel+s2 b x  
always seem$ z if he _h condesc5d$ = a  
mom5t to put aside f> bigg] & l(ti]     
designs 9 ord] to drop a fruit ( rip5$  
wisdom 9 our way4 ,he came among u1     
inde$1 l a /atesman r ?an l a tea*]4 ,! 
brief int]views we _h ) him 7 reg>d$ ) a
 sort ( t]ror1 b produc$1 9 me at lea/1 
an almo/ fanatical respect & admiration4
 ,& yet ,i _h no reason to suppose t he 
0 n1 l all ( u1 subject to ! law ( life 
& pilgrimage1 ?\gh "o c\ld n conceive ( 
him z hav+ to ent] ! ar5a ( life aga9 z 
a helpless *ild6  ,on ?is occasion ,i 0 
summon$ sudd5ly to 8 pres5ce4 ,i f\nd   
him1 z usual1 b5t ov] 8 "w1 :i* he did n
 int]mit1 b m]ely motion$ me to be      
seat$4 ,pres5tly he put away 8 pap]s f  
him1 & turn$ r\nd ^u me4 ,"o ( !        
disconc]t+ ?+s ab\t him 0 ! fact t 8    
?\ght _h a peculi>ly compell+ t5d5cy1 & 
t :ile he read "o's m9d 9 a fla%1 8 own 

?\ghts rema9$ v ne>ly imp5etrable4 ,on  
?is occasion he comm5d$ me = my "w & my 
relations ) my fell[-/ud5ts1 add+ t ,i  
_h made rapid progress4 ,he !n said1 ,i 
h two que/ions to ask y4 ,h y any       
special relations1 ei!r ) any "o :om y h
 left beh9d y on e>?1 or ) any "o ) :om 
y h made acqua9tance s9ce y quitt$ x1   
:i* y desire to pursue8  ,i told him1   
:i* 0 ! tru?1 t s9ce my /ay 9 ! ,college
 ,i _h become s mu* absorb$ 9 ! /udies (
 ! place t ,i seem$ to h became /rangely
 oblivi\s ( my ext]nal fri5ds1 b t x 0 m
 a susp5sion ?an a de/ruction ( w\ld-be 
relations4  ,yes1 he said1 ,i p]ceive t 
t is y\r temp]am5t4 ,x has its          
effectiv5ess1 no d\bt1 b x also has its 
dang]s2 &1 :atev] happ5s1 "o ought nev] 
to be able to accuse oneself ju/ly ( any
 disloyalty4  ,he seem$ to wait = me to 
speak1 :]eupon ,i m5tion$ a v de> fri5d 
( my days ( e>?2 b ,i add$ t mo/ ( ^?   
:om ,i _h lov$ be/ _h pr$eceas$ me1 & t 
,i _h look$ =w>d to a r5ewal ( our      
int]c\rse4 ,i also m5tion$ ! names (    

,*>mides & ,cyn?ia1 ! latt] ( :om 0 9   
memory /rangely ne> to my he>t4  ,he    
seem$ satisfi$ ) ?is4 ,!n he said1 ,x is
 true t we h to multiply relation%ips ) 
o!rs1 bo? 9 ! _w & out ( x2 b we mu/    
also practise economy4 ,we mu/ n ab&on  
ourselves to pass+ fancies1 or be       
subs]vi5t to *>m1 :ile if we h made an  
emotional mi/ake1 & h be5 disappo9t$ )  
"o :om we h tak5 ! tr\ble to w91 we mu/ 
gu>d su* conque/s ) a close & peculi>   
t5d]ness4 ,b en\gh ( t1 = ,i h to ask y 
if !re is any special "w = :i* y feel   
y\rself dispos$4 ,!re is a great *oice (
 employm5t "h4 ,y may *oose1 if y w1 j  
to live ! spiritual life & dis*>ge      
:atev] duties ( citiz5%ip y may be call$
 ^u to p]=m4 ,t is :at mo/ spirits d4 ,i
 ne$ n p]haps tell y--"h he smil$--t    
fre$om f ! body does n conf] ^u any "o1 
z our poor bro!rs & si/]s ^u e>? seem to
 ?9k1 a heav5ly vocation4 ,nei!r ( c\rse
 is ! e>?ly fallacy ab\t a m]e          
absorption 9 wor%ip a true "o--only to a
 v few is t conc$$4 ,/ill less is ?is a 

life ( leisure4 ,to be leisurely "h is  
p]mitt$ only to ! we>i$1 & to ^? *ildi% 
creatures ) :om y h sp5t "s "t 9 _! b>r5
 security4 ,i d n ?9k y are suit$ = ! "w
 ( record+ ! great s*eme ( life1 nor d  
,i ?9k y are made = a tea*]4 ,y are n   
suffici5tly imp>tial6 ,= m]e lab\r y are
 n suit$2 & yet ,i h>dly ?9k y w\ld be  
fit to adopt ! mo/ hon\rable task :i*   
y\r fri5d ,amro? s f9ely fulfils--a     
guide & mess5g]4 ,:at d y ?9k8  ,i said 
at once t ,i did n wi% to h to make a   
decision1 b t ,i pref]r$ to leave x to  
him4 ,i add$ t ?\gh ,i 0 consci\s ( my  
defici5cies1 ,i did n feel consci\s (   
any p>ticul> capacities1 except t ,i    
f\nd "* a v fasc9at+ /udy1 especially 9 
connection ) ! circum/ances ( life ^u   
e>?4  ,v well1 he said1 ,i ?9k t y may  
p]haps be be/ suit$ to ! "w ( decid+ :at
 sort ( life w be/ befit ! s\ls :o are  
prep>$ to take up _! life ^u e>? aga94  
,t is a task ( deep & inf9ite conc]n2 x 
may surprise y1 he add$1 to le>n t ?is  
is left to ! decision ( o!r s\ls4 ,b x  

is1 ( c\rse1 ! goal at :i* all e>?ly    
social sy/ems are aim+1 ! "r            
apportionm5t ( circum/ances to          
temp]am5t1 & y mu/ n be surpris$ to f9d 
t "h we h gone mu* fur!r 9 t direction1 
?\gh ev5 "h ! sy/em is n p]fect$2 & y _c
 beg9 to appreh5d t fact too soon4 ,x is
 un=tunate t on e>? x is commonly       
believ$1 ow+ to ! dead5+ influ5ce (     
mat]ial causes1 t beyond ! grave ev]y?+ 
is done ) a ,div9e unanimity4 ,b (      
c\rse1 if t 7 s1 fur!r gr[? & developm5t
 w\ld be impossible1 & 9 view ( inf9ite 
p]fectibility !re is yet v mu* t is     
faulty & incomplete4 ,b ,i am n sure :at
 lies be=e y2 !re is some?+ 9 y\r       
temp]am5t :i* a little baffles me1 & our
 plans may h to be *ang$4 ,y\r v        
absorption 9 y\r "w1 y\r quick p[] (    
=gett+ & ?r[+ (f impressions has its    
dang]s4 ,b ,i w be> 9 m9d :at y h said1 
& y may = ! pres5t resume y\r /udies1 & 
,i w once m comm5d y2 y h done well     
hi!rto1 & ,i w say frankly t ,i reg>d y 
z capable ( useful & hon\rable "w4 ,he  

b[$ 9 tok5 ( dismissal1 & ,i w5t back to
 my "w ) unb\nd$ gratitude & en?usiasm4 
,,xxi   ,"s "t aft] ?is ,i 0 surpris$ "o
 morn+ at ! sudd5 entrance ( ,amro? into
 my cell4 ,he came 9 ) a v bright &     
holiday aspect1 &1 assum+ a pat]nal air1
 said t he _h he>d a v cr$itable acc\nt 
( my "w & conduct1 & t he _h obta9$     
leave = me to h an exeat4 ,i suppose t  
,i %[$ signs ( impati5ce at !           
int]ruption1 = he broke into a laugh1 & 
said1 ,well1 ,i am go+ to insi/4 ,i     
believe y are work+ too h>d1 & we mu/ n 
ov]/ra9 our faculties4 ,x 0 bad en\gh1 9
 ! old days1 b !n x 0 g5]ally ! poor    
body :i* suff]$ fir/4 ,b inde$ x is q   
possible to ov]work "h1 & y h ! dim air 
( ! pale /ud5t4 ,come1 he said1 :atev]  
happ5s1 d n become priggi%4 ,n to want a
 holiday is a sign ( spiritual pride4   
,besides1 ,i h "s curi\s ?+s to %[ y4   
,i got up & said t ,i 0 ready1 & ,amro? 
l$ ! way l a boy out = a holiday4 ,he 0 
brimm+ ov] ) talk1 & told me "s /ories  
ab\t my fri5ds 9 ! l& ( delight1        

int]sp]s+ !m ) imitation ( _! mann] &   
ge/ure1 :i* made me giggle--,amro? 0 an 
admirable mimic4 ,i _h hopes ( ,*>mides1
 he said2 y\r /ay !re ar\s$ 8 curiosity4
 ,b he has gone back to 8 absurd tones &
 half-tones1 & is ne>ly insupportable4  
,cyn?ia is mu* m s5sible1 b ,lucius is a
 nuisance1 & ,*>mides1 by ! way1 has    
become absurdly jeal\s ( him4 ,!y really
 are v silly2 b ,i h a pleasant plot1   
:i* ,i w unfold to y4  ,z we w5t d[n !  
int]m9able /airs1 ,i said to ,amro?1    
,!re is a "q ,i want to ask y4 ,:y d we 
h to g & come1 up & d[n1 backw>ds &     
=w>ds1 9 ?is absurd way1 z if we 7 /ill 
9 ! body8 ,:y n j slip (f ! leads1 & fly
 d[n ov] ! crags l a pair ( pigeons8 ,x 
all seems to me s t]ribly mat]ial4      
,amro? look$ at me ) a smile4 ,i don't  
advise y to try1 he said4 ,:y1 little   
bro!r1 ( c\rse we are j z limit$ "h 9 ^!
 ways4 ,! mat]ial laws ( e>? are only a 
type ( ! laws "h4 ,!y all h a mean+ :i* 
rema9s true4  ,b1 ,i said1 we c visit ! 
e>? ) incr$ible rapidity8  ,h[ c ,i     

expla98 said ,amro?4 ,( c\rse we c d t1 
because ! mat]ial univ]se is s extremely
 small 9 comp>ison4 ,all ! />s 9 ! _w   
are "h b z a heap ( s&1 l ! motes :i*   
dance 9 a sunbeam4 ,!re is no "q ( size1
 ( c\rse6 ,b !re is su* a ?+ z spiritual
 ne>ness & spiritual di/ance = all t4 ,!
 s\ls :o d n return to e>? are v f> (f1 
z y w sometime see4 ,b we mess5g]s h our
 %ort cuts1 & ,i %all take advantage (  
!m to-day4  ,we w5t out ( ! great door (
 ! =tress1 & ,i felt a s5se ( relief4 ,x
 0 good to put x all beh9d "o4 ,= a long
 "t ,i talk$ to ,amro? ab\t all my do+s4
 ,come1 he said at la/1 ?is w nev] d6 ,y
 are becom+ some?+ ( a bore6 ,d y "k t  
y\r talk is v prov9cial8 ,y seem to h   
=gott5 ab\t e "o & ev]y?+ except y\r    
,philips & ,annas--v wor?y creatures1 no
 d\bt--& ! ,ma/]1 :o is a v able man1 b 
n ! little demigod y believe4 ,y are    
hypnotis$6 ,x is inde$ "t = y to h a    
holiday4 ,:y1 ,i believe y h half =gott5
 ab\t me1 & yet y made a great fuss :5  
,i quitt$ y4  ,i smil$1 fr[n$1 blu%$4 ,x

 0 inde$ true4 ,n[ t he 0 ) me ,i lov$  
him z well1 inde$ bett] ?an ev]2 b ,i _h
 n be5 ?9k+ v mu* ab\t him4  ,we w5t ov]
 ! moorl&s 9 ! ke5 air1 ,amro? /rid+    
cleanly & lightly ov] ! hea!r4 ,!n we   
began to desc5d into ! valley1 ?r\gh a  
f9e =e/ c\ntry1 some:at l ! *e/nut-woods
 ( ! ,ap5n9es4 ,! view 0 ( incomp>able  
beauty & wid?4 ,i c\ld see a great city 
f> out 9 ! pla91 ) a riv] ent]+ x &     
leav+ x1 l a ribbon ( silv]4 ,!re 7     
roll+ ridges beyond4 ,on ! left rose    
huge1 %ad[y1 sn[-clad hills1 ris+ to "o 
trem5d\s dome ( sn[4  ,:]e are y go+ to 
take me8 ,i said to ,amro?4  ,nev] m9d1 
said he2 x's my day & my plan = once4 ,y
 %all see :at y %all see1 & x w amuse me
 to he> y\r +5u\s conjectures4  ,we 7   
soon on ! outskirts ( ! city we _h se51 
:i* seem$ a diff]5t k9d ( place f any ,i
 _h yet visit$4 ,x 0 built1 ,i p]ceiv$1 
^u an exactly conceiv$ plan1 ( a /ately1
 classical k9d ( ar*itecture1 ) great   
gateways & colonnades4 ,!re 7 p ab\t1 r 
sil5t & s]i\s-look+1 sob]ly clad1 :o    

salut$ u z we pass$1 b made no attempt  
to talk to u4 ,?is is r a tiresome      
place1 ,i always ?9k1 said ,amro?2 b y  
ought to see x4  ,we w5t along ! great  
/reet & rea*$ a squ>e4 ,i 0 surpris$ at 
! eld]ly air ( all we met4 ,we f\nd     
ourselves opposite a great build+ ) a   
dome1 l a *ur*4 ,p 7 go+ 9 "u ! portico1
 & we w5t 9 ) !m4 ,!y treat$ u z        
/rang]s1 & made c\rte\s way = u to pass4
  ,inside1 ! footfalls fell dumbly ^u a 
great c>pet$ floor4 ,x 0 v l a great    
*ur*1 except t !re 0 no alt> or sign (  
wor%ip4 ,at ! f> end1 "u an alcove1 0 a 
/atue ( :ite m>ble gleam+ :ite1 ) head &
 h& uplift$4 ,! :ole place _h a solemn &
 noble air4 ,out ( ! c5tral nave !re    
op5$ a s]ies ( great vault$ *apels2 & ,i
 c\ld n[ see t 9 ea* *apel !re 0 a d>k  
figure1 9 a sort ( pulpit1 address+ a   
/&+ audi5ce4 ,!re 7 names on scrolls ov]
 ! doors ( ! light iron-"w scre5s :i*   
sep>at$ ! *apels f ! nave1 b !y 7 9 a   
language ,i did n und]/&4  ,amro? /opp$ 
at ! ?ird ( ! *apels1 & said1 ,"h1 ?is w

 d4 ,we came 91 & z be=e !re 0 a c\rte\s
 notice tak5 ( u4 ,a man 9 black came   
=w>d1 & l$ u to a high seat1 l a pew1   
ne> ! prea*]1 f :i* we c\ld survey !    
cr[d4 ,i 0 /ruck ) _! look ( we>9ess    
comb9$ ) int5tness4  ,! lectur]1 a "y   
man1 _h made a pause1 b ^u our tak+ our 
places1 he resum$ 8 spee*4 ,x 0 a       
disc\rse1 z f> z ,i c\ld make out1 on ! 
developm5t ( poetry2 he 0 speak+ (      
lyrical poetry4 ,i w n "h reproduce x4  
,i w only say t any?+ m acute1 delicate1
 & discrim9at+1 &1 ,i mu/ add1 m        
entirely valueless & p$antic1 ,i d n ?9k
 ,i ev] he>d4 ,x mu/ h requir$ imm5se & 
complicat$ k4 ,he 0 trac+ ! developm5t (
 a c]ta9 k9d ( dramatic lyric1 & :at    
surpris$ me 0 t he suppli$ ! subtle     
intellectual connection1 ! miss+ l9ks1 s
 to speak1 ( :i* !re is no e>?ly record4
 ,let me give a s+le in/ance4 ,he 0     
acc\nt+ = a r sudd5 *ange ( ?\ght 9 a   
well-kn[n poet1 & he %[$ t x _h be5     
br\ght ab\t by 8 mak+ ! acqua9tance ( a 
c]ta9 fri5d :o _h introduc$ him to a new

 range ( subjects1 & by 8 /udy ( c]ta9  
books4 ,^! facts are unrecord$ 9 8      
publi%$ biography1 b ! analysis ( !     
lectur]1 done 9 a few po9t$ s5t5ces1 n  
only c>ri$ conviction to ! m9d1 b j1 s  
to speak1 laid ! tru? b>e4 ,& yet x 0   
all to me incr$ibly /]ile & arid4 ,n !  
slighte/ int]e/ 0 tak5 9 ! emotional or 
psy*ological side2 x 0 all purely &     
exactly sci5tific4 ,we wait$ until ! end
 ( ! address1 :i* 0 greet$ ) decor\s    
applause1 & ! hall 0 empti$ 9 a mom5t4  
,we visit$ o!r *apels :]e ! same sort ( 
?+ 0 go+ on 9 o!r subjects4 ,x all      
produc$ 9 me a sort ( /upefaction1 bo?  
at ! amaz+ k involv$1 & 9 ! ess5tial    
futility ( x all4  ,be=e we left !      
build+ we w5t up to ! /atue1 :i*        
repres5t$ a female figure1 look+ upw>ds1
 ) a pure & delicate beauty ( =m &      
ge/ure t 0 inexpressibly & coldly       
lovely4  ,we w5t out 9 sil5ce1 :i* seem$
 to be ! rule ( ! place4  ,:5 we came   
away f ! build+ we 7 acco/$ by a v grave
 & c\rte\s p]son1 :o said t he p]ceiv$ t

 we 7 /rang]s1 & ask$ if he c\ld be (   
any s]vice to u1 & :e!r we propos$ to   
make a /ay ( any duration4 ,amro? ?ank$ 
him1 & said smil+ly t we 7 only pass+   
?r\gh4 ,! g5tleman said t x 0 a pity1   
because !re 0 mu* ( int]e/ to he>4 ,9   
?is place1 he said ) a deprecat+ ge/ure1
 we grudge e h\r t is n devot$ to ?\ght4
 ,he w5t on to inquire if we 7 foll[+   
any p>ticul> l9e ( /udy1 & z our answ]s 
7 unsatisfactory1 he said t we c\ld n d 
bett] ?an beg9 by att5d+ ! s*ool (      
lit]ature4 ,i obs]v$1 he said1 t y 7    
li/5+ to our ,pr(essor1 ,sylvanus1 )    
att5tion4 ,he is devot+ himself to !    
developm5t ( poetical =m4 ,x is a ri*   
subject4 ,x has g5]ally be5 believ$ t   
poets "w by a sort ( native inspiration1
 & t ! poetic gift is a sort ( height5+ 
( temp]am5t4 ,b ,sylvanus has prov$--,i 
?9k ,i may g s f> z to say ?is--t ?is is
 all pure fancy1 & :at is worse1 uns\nd 
fancy4 ,x is all m]ely a matt] ( h]$ity1
 & ! app>5t accid5ts on :i* poetical    
expression dep5ds c be analys$ exactly &

 precisely into ! mo/ commonplace &     
simple elem5ts4 ,x is only a "q (       
proportion4 ,n[ we :o value cle>ness (  
m9d above ev]y?+1 f9d ?is a v refre%+   
?\ght4 ,! real cr[n & sum ( human       
a*ievem5t1 9 ! intellectual doma91 is to
 see ?+s cle>ly & exactly1 & ^u t       
cle>ness all progress dep5ds4 ,we h     
dispos$ by ?is "t ( mo/ illusions2 & !  
same sci5tific me?od is be+ /r5u\sly    
appli$ to all o!r processes ( human     
endeav\r4 ,x is ev5 h9t$ t ,sylvanus has
 practically prov$ t ! imag9ative elem5t
 9 lit]ature is purely a ta9t ( b>b>ism1
 ?\gh he has n yet ann\nc$ ! fact4 ,b _m
 ( 8 class are look+ =w>d to 8 f9al     
lecture on ! subject z to a pr(\ndly    
s5sational ev5t1 :i* is likely to set a 
deep m>k ^u all our conceptions ( lit]>y
 endeav\r4 ,s t1 he said ) a tol]ant    
smile1 g5tly rubb+ 8 h&s toge!r1 our    
life "h is n by any means de/itute ( !  
elem5ts ( excitem5t1 ?\gh we mo/ ( u1 ( 
c\rse1 aim at ! acquisition ( a s]5e &  
philosophic temp]4 ,b ,i mu/ n delay y1 

he add$2 !re is mu* to see & to he>1 & y
 w be welcom$ ev]y:]e3 & inde$ ,i am    
myself some:at closely engag$1 ?\gh 9 a 
subject :i* is n fraught ) su* polite   
emolli5ce4 ,i att5d ! s*ool (           
metaphysics1 f :i* we h at la/1 ,i hope1
 elim9at$ ! la/ traces ( t debas+ elem5t
 ( psy*ology1 :i* has s long vitiat$ !  
exact /udy ( ! subject4  ,he took       
himself (f ) a b[1 & ,i gaz$ blankly at 
,amro?4 ,! conv]sation ( t v polite     
p]son1 ,i said1 is l a bad dream6 ,:at  
is ?is extraord9>ily depress+ place8    
,%all ,i h to und]go a c\rse "h8  ,no1  
my de> boy1 said ,amro?4 ,?is is r out (
 y\r dep?4 ,b ,i am some:at disappo9t$  
at y\r view ( ! situation4 ,surely ^!   
are all v important matt]s8 ,y\r        
disposition is1 ,i am afraid1 incurably 
frivol\s6 ,h[ c\ld p be m wor?ily       
employ$ ?an 9 gett+ rid ( ! la/ traces (
 intellectual error1 & 9 ref]r+ ev]y?+  
to its actual orig98 ,did n y\r he>t    
burn )9 y at 8 lum9\s exposition8 ,i _h 
always ?\ght y a boy ( intellectual     

promise4  ,amro?1 ,i said1 ,i w n be    
made fun (4 ,?is is ! mo/ dreadful place
 ,i h ev] se5 or conceiv$ (6 ,x fright5s
 me4 ,! dryness ( pure sci5ce is t]rify+
 en\gh1 b aft] all t has a k9d ( /range 
beauty1 because x deals ei!r )          
transc5d5tal ideas ( ma!matical         
relation1 or ) ! d$uc+ ( pr9ciple f     
accumulat$ facts4 ,b "h ! object appe>s 
to be to elim9ate ! human elem5t f      
humanity4 ,i insi/ ^u kn[+ :]e y h      
br\ght me1 & :at is go+ on "h4  ,well1  
!n1 said ,amro?1 ,i w conceal x f y no  
long]4 ,?is is ! p>adise ( ?\ght1 :]e   
meagre & spuri\s philosoph]s1 & all :o h
 subm]g$ life 9 intellect1 h _! rew>d4  
,x is1 z y say1 a v dre>y place = *ildr5
 ( nature l y & me4 ,b ,i d n suppose t 
!re is a happi] or a busi] place 9 all  
our dom9ions4 ,! wor/ ( x is t x is s   
t]ribly h>d to get out (4 ,x is a bl9d  
alley & leads n[h]e4 ,e /ep has to be   
retrac$4 ,^! p h to get a v sev]e dose (
 homely life to d !m any good2 & ! wor/ 
( x is t !y are s entirely virtu\s4 ,!y 

h nev] _h ! "t or ! incl9ation to be    
any?+ else4 ,& !y are among ! mo/       
tr\blesome & undiscipl9$ ( all our p4 ,b
 ,i see y h _h en\gh2 & unless y wi% to 
wait = ,pr(essor ,sylvanus's s5sational 
pron\ncem5t1 we w g else:]e1 & h "s o!r 
sort ( fun4 ,b y mu/ n be s mu* upset by
 ^! ?+s4  ,x w\ld kill me1 ,i said1 to  
he> any m ( ^! lectures1 & if ,i _h to  
li/5 to mu* ( our polite fri5d's        
conv]sation1 ,i %\ld g out ( my m9d4 ,i 
w\ld r fall into ! h&s ( ! cragm56 ,i   
w\ld r h a /&-up fight ?an be sl[ly     
/ifl$ ) int]e/+ in=mation4 ,b :]e d ^!  
unhappy p come f8  ,a few come f        
univ]sities1 said ,amro?1 b !y are n z a
 rule really le>n$ m54 ,!y are m ! sort 
( p :o subscribe to libr>ies1 & belong  
to local lit]>y societies1 & g into a   
good _m subjects on _! own acc\nt4 ,b   
really le>n$ m5 are almo/ always m aw>e 
( _! ignorance ?an ( _! k1 & recognise !
 vitality ( life1 ev5 if !y d n always  
exhibit x4 ,b come1 we are los+ "t1 & we
 mu/ g fur!r afield4     ,,xxii   ,we   

w5t "s consid]able di/ance1 aft] leav+  
our intellectual fri5ds1 ?r\gh v        
beautiful wood$ c\ntry1 & z we w5t we   
talk$ ) mu* animation ab\t !            
intellectual life & its dang]s4 ,x _h   
always1 ,i confess1 appe>$ to me a      
h>mless life en\gh2 n v effective1      
p]haps1 & possibly liable to enc\rage a 
man 9 a trivial sort ( self-conceit2 b  
,i _h always look$ ^u t z an in/9ctive  
k9d ( self-respect1 :i* kept an         
intellectual p]son f dwell+ too sorely  
^u ! s5se ( ineffectiv5ess2 z an        
addiction n m s]i\s 9 its effects ^u "* 
?an ! practice ( play+ golf1 a ?+ 9 :i* 
a leisurely p]son might imm]se himself1 
& cultivate a dec5t s5se (              
self-importance4 ,b ,amro? %[$ me t !   
dang] ( x lay 9 ! t5d5cy to consid] !   
intellect to be ! basis ( all life &    
progress4 ,! intellectual man1 he said1 
is incl9$ to confuse 8 own acute        
p]ception ( ! movem5t ( ?\ght ) !       
orig9at+ impulse ( t movem5t4 ,b ( c\rse
 ?\ght is a ?+ :i* ebbs & fl[s1 l public

 op9ion1 accord+ to its own laws1 & is n
 orig9at$ b only p]ceiv$ by m5 (        
intellectual ability4 ,! dang] ( x is a 
p>ticul>ly arid sort ( self-conceit4 ,x 
is z if ! ,lady ( ,%alott 7 to suppose t
 %e creat$ life by obs]v+ & r5d]+ x 9 h]
 magic web1 :]eas h] devotion to h] task
 simply isolates h] f ! contact ) o!r   
m9ds & he>ts1 :i* is ! "o ?+ wor? hav+4 
,t is1 ( c\rse1 ! dang] ( ! arti/ z well
 z ( ! philosoph]4 ,!y bo? /& aside f ! 
?rong1 & are s mu* absorb$ 9 ! aspect ( 
?\ght & emotion t !y d n realise t !y   
are sep>at$ f x4 ,!y are consequ5tly    
sp>$1 :5 !y come "h1 ! puni%m5t :i*     
falls ^u ^? :o h mix$ gre$ily1 selfi%ly1
 & cruelly ) life1 ( :i* y w h a sight  
be=e long4 ,b t place ( puni%m5t is n   
ne>ly s sad or depress+ a place z !     
p>adise ( delight1 & ! p>adise (        
intellect1 because ! suff]]s h no desire
 to /ay !re1 c rep5t & feel a%am$1 &    
!re=e c suff]1 :i* is always hopeful4 ,b
 ! arti/ic & intellectual h really />v$ 
_! capacity = suff]+1 ! "o by treat+ all

 emotion z spectacul>1 & ! o!r by treat+
 x z a pu]ile int]ruption to s]i\s ?+s4 
,x takes p a long "t to "w _! way out ( 
self-satisfaction6 ,b !re is ano!r      
curi\s place ,i wi% y to visit4 ,x is a 
dreadful place 9 a way1 b by no means   
consci\sly unhappy1 & ,amro? po9t$ to a 
great build+ :i* /ood on a slope ( !    
hill above ! =e/1 ) a wide & beautiful  
view f x4 ,be=e v long we came to a high
 /one wall ) a gate c>efully gu>d$4 ,"h 
,amro? said a few words to a port]1 & we
 w5t up ?r\gh a beautiful t]rac$ p>k4 ,9
 ! p>k we saw little knots ( p walk+    
aimlessly ab\t1 & a few m solit>y       
figures4 ,b 9 ea* case !y 7 accompani$  
by p :om ,i saw to be w>d]s4 ,we pass$  
inde$ close to an eld]ly man1 r         
fanta/ically dress$1 :o look$ possess$ )
 a k9d ( flighty *e]fulness4 ,he 0 talk+
 to himself ) odd1 emphatic ge/ures1 z  
if he 7 tick+ (f ! po9ts ( a spee*4 ,he 
came up to u & made u an effusive       
greet+1 prais+ ! situation & conv5i5ce (
 ! place1 & wi%+ u a pleasant soj\rn4   

,he !n 0 sil5t = a mom5t1 & add$1 ,n[   
!re is a matt] ( "s importance on :i* ,i
 %\ld l y\r op9ion4 ,at ?is ! w>d] :o 0 
) him1 a /rong1 /olid-look+ man1 ) an   
expression at once slightly contemptu\s 
& obvi\sly k9d1 held up 8 h& & said1 ,y 
w1 no d\bt1 sir1 rememb] t y h          
und]tak5-- ,n a ^w1 n a ^w1 said our    
fri5d2 ( c\rse y are "r6 ,i h really    
no?+ to say to ^! g5tlem54  ,we w5t up  
to ! build+1 :i* n[ became visible1 )   
its long & /ately front ( /one4 ,"h aga9
 we 7 admitt$ ) "s precaution1 & aft] a 
few m9utes !re came a tall &            
b5evol5t-look+ man1 to :om ,amro? spoke 
at "s l5g?4 ,! man !n came up to me1    
said t he 0 v glad to welcome me1 & t he
 w\ld be delight$ to %[ u ! place4  ,we 
w5t ?r\gh f9e & airy corridors1 into :i*
 _m doors1 z ( cells1 op5$4             
,occasionally a man or a woman1 att5d$  
by a male or a female w>d]1 pass$ u4 ,! 
inmates _h all ! same k9d ( air--a sort 
( amus$ dignity1 :i* 0 v m>k$4 ,pres5tly
 our companion op5$ a door ) 8 key & we 

w5t 94 ,x 0 a small1 pleasantly-furni%$ 
room4 ,"s books1 app>5tly ( devotion1   
lay on ! table4 ,!re 0 a little         
kneel+-desk ne> ! w9d[1 & ! room _h a   
half-mona/ic air ab\t x4 ,:5 we ent]$1  
an eld]ly man1 ) a v s]5e face1 0 look+ 
e>ne/ly into ! door ( a cupbo>d 9 !     
wall1 :i* he 0 hold+ op52 !re 01 s f> z 
,i c\ld see1 no?+ 9 ! cupbo>d2 b !      
inmate seem$ to be /ruggl+ ) an access (
 r ov]p[]+ mir?4 ,he b[$ to u4 ,our     
conductor greet$ him respectfully1 & !n 
said1 ,!re is a /rang] "h :o w\ld l a   
little conv]sation ) y1 if y c sp>e !   
"t4  ,by all means1 said ! inmate1 ) a v
 +ratiat+ smile4 ,x is v k9d ( him to   
call ^u me1 & my "t is entirely at 8    
disposal4  ,our conductor said to me t  
he & ,amro? _h "s brief bus9ess to      
transact1 & t !y w\ld call = me aga9 9 a
 mom5t4 ,! inmate b[$1 & seem$ almo/    
impati5t = !m to dep>t4 ,he motion$ me  
to a *air1 & ! mom5t !y left u he began 
to talk ) great animation4 ,he ask$ me  
if ,i 0 a new inmate1 & :5 ,i said no1  

only a visitor1 he look$ at me          
compassionately1 say+ t he hop$ ,i might
 "s day atta9 to ! privilege4 ,?is1 he  
said1 is ! abode ( f9al & la/+ peace4   
,no "o is admitt$ "h unless 8           
convictions are ( ! firme/ & mo/ ard5t  
"*2 x is a rew>d = fai?ful s]vice4 ,b z 
our "t is %ort1 ,i mu/ tell y1 he said1 
( a v curi\s exp]i5ce ,i h _h ?is v     
morn+--a spiritual exp]i5ce ( ! mo/     
reassur+ "*4 ,y mu/ "k t ,i held a high 
(ficial position 9 ! religi\s _w--,i w  
m5tion no details--& ,i f\nd at an e>ly 
age1 ,i am glad to say1 ! imp]ative     
necessity ( =m+ absolutely impregnable  
convictions4 ,i w5t to "w 9 ! mo/       
bus9ess-l way4 ,i devot$ "s ye>s to h>d 
read+ & solid ?\ght1 & ,i f\nd t ! sect 
to :i* ,i belong$ 0 lack+ 9 c]ta9       
def9ite notes ( div9e tru?1 :ile !      
weight ( evid5ce po9t$ 9 ! cle>e/       
possible mann] to ! fact t "o p>ticul>  
section ( ! ,*ur* _h pres]v$ absolutely 
intact ! primitive fai? ( ! ,sa9ts1 & 0 
)\t any %ad[ ( d\bt ! p]fectly logical  

developm5t ( ! pr9ciples ( ! ,gospel4   
,m9e is n a nature t c admit (          
compromise2 & at consid]able sacrifice (
 worldly prospects ,i transf]r$ my      
allegiance1 & 0 in/antly rew>d$ by a    
p]fect s]5ity ( conviction :i* has nev] 
falt]$4  ,i _h a fri5d ) :om ,i _h (t5  
discuss$ ! matt]1 :o 0 mu* ( my way (   
?9k+4 ,b ?\gh ,i %[$ him ! illogical    
nature ( 8 position1 he hung back--:e!r 
f mat]ial motives or f m]e emotional    
associations ,i w n n[ /op to inquire4  
,b ,i c\ld n palt] ) ! tru?4 ,i         
expo/ulat$ ) him1 & po9t$ out to him 9 !
 /]ne/ t]ms ! et]nal di/9ctions involv$4
 ,i broke (f all relations ) him        
ultimately4 ,& aft] a life sp5t 9 ! mo/ 
solemn & c&id d5unciation ( ! fluidity (
 religi\s belief1 :i* is ! curse ( our  
age1 ?\gh x involv$ me 9 _m ( !         
he>t-r5d+ susp5sions ( human int]c\rse )
 my ne>e/ & de>e/ s pla9ly indicat$ 9 ! 
,gospel1 ,i pass$ at l5g?1 9 complete   
tranquillity1 to my f9al re/4 ,! fir/   
duty ( ! s9c]e believ] is inflexible    

intol]ance4 ,if a man w n recognise !   
tru? :5 x is pla9ly pres5t$ to him1 he  
mu/ accept ! et]nal consequ5ces ( 8     
act--sep>ation f ,god1 & absorption 9   
guilty & awe/ruck regret1 :i* admits (  
no rep5tance4  ,"o ( ! privileges ( our 
soj\rn "h is t we h a /range & beautiful
 device--a w9d[1 ,i w call x--:i* admits
 "o to a sight ( ! spiritual _w4 ,i 0   
to-day contemplat+1 n )\t pa91 b )      
absolute confid5ce 9 its ju/ice1 !      
suff]+s ( "s ( ^! lo/ s\ls1 & ,i obs]v$1
 ,i _c say ) satisfaction1 b ) complete 
submission1 ! =m ( my fri5d1 :om my     
te/imony might h sav$1 9 et]nal mis]y4  
,i h ! t5d]e/ he>t ( any man alive4 ,x  
has co/ me a sore /ruggle to subdue x--x
 is m unruly ev5 ?an ! w--b y may imag9e
 t x is a matt] ( deep & com=t+         
assurance to reflect t on e>? ! door1 ! 
"o door1 to salvation is cle>ly & pla9ly
 indicat$--?\gh few !re be t f9d x--& t 
?is signal m]cy has be5 v\*saf$ to me4  
,i h !n ! peace ( kn[+1 n only t my     
*oice 0 "r1 b t all ^? to :om ! tru? is 

reveal$ h ! p[] to *oose x4 ,i am a firm
 believ] 9 ! uncov5ant$ m]cies v\*saf$  
to ^? :o h n _h ! advantages ( cle>     
pres5tm5t1 b = ! delib]ately unfai?ful1 
= all s9n]s aga9/ light1 ! s5t5ce is    
inflexible4  ,he clos$ 8 eyes1 & a smile
 play$ ov] 8 features4  ,i f\nd x v     
difficult to say any?+ 9 answ] to ?is   
monologue2 b ,i ask$ my companion :e!r  
he did n ?9k t "s cle>] revelation might
 be made1 aft] ! bodily dea?1 to ^? :o =
 "s human frailty 7 unable to receive x4
  ,an intellig5t "q1 said my companion1 
b ,i am oblig$ to answ] 9 ! negative4 ,(
 c\rse ! case is diff]5t = ^? :o h      
accept$ ! tru? loyally1 ev5 if _! record
 is /a9$ by ! f\le/ & mo/ dete/able (   
crimes4 ,x is ! moral & intellectual    
adhesion t matt]s2 t once secur$1       
conduct is comp>atively unimportant1 if 
! s\l duly recurs to ! m$ic9e ( p5it5ce 
& contrition s m]cifully provid$4 ,i h !
 utmo/ indulg5ce = e =m ( human frailty4
 ,i may say t ,i nev] %rank f contact ) 
! grosse/ & vile/ =ms ( cont9u\s        

wrong-do+1 s long z ,i 0 assur$ t ! true
 doctr9es 7 unhesitat+ly & submissively 
accept$4 ,a s\l :i* admits ! supremacy (
 au?ority c g a/ray l a %eep t is lo/1 b
 z long z x recognises its fold & !     
au?ority ( ! div9e law1 x c be s\ght &  
f\nd4  ,! little w9d[ ( :i* ,i spoke has
 giv5 me indubitable te/imony ( ?is4    
,!re 0 a man ,i knew 9 ! fle%1 :o 0     
reg>d$ z a mon/] ( cruelty & selfi%ness4
 ,he ill-treat$ 8 wife & misus$ 8       
*ildr52 8 life 0 sp5t 9 gross debau*]y1 
& 8 conduct on sev]al occasions out/epp$
 ! sanctions ( legality4 ,he 0 a =g] &  
an embezzl]4 ,i d n attempt to palliate 
8 faults1 & !re w be a heavy reckon+ to 
pay4 ,b he made 8 submission at ! la/1  
aft] a long & pro/rat+ illness2 & ,i h  
ocul> demon/ration ( ! fact t1 aft] a   
m]cifully brief p]iod ( suff]+1 he is   
numb]$ among ! ble/4 ,t is a su/a9+     
?\ght4  ,he !n ) mu* c\rtesy invit$ me  
to p>take ( "s refre%m5t1 :i* ,i        
gratefully decl9$4 ,once or twice he    
rose1 & op5+ ! little cupbo>d door1 :i* 

reveal$ no?+ b a :ite wall1 he drank 9  
enc\ragem5t f "s hidd5 sight4 ,he !n    
invit$ me to kneel ) him1 & pray$       
f]v5tly & ) "s emotion t light might be 
v\*saf$ to s\ls on e>? :o 7 9 d>kness4  
,j z he conclud$1 ,amro? appe>$ ) our   
conductor4 ,! latt] made a c\rte\s      
inquiry aft] my ho/'s heal? & com=t4 ,i 
am p]fectly happy "h1 he said1 p]fectly 
happy4 ,! att5tions ,i receive are inde$
 m ?an ,i des]ve2 & ,i am specially     
grateful to my k9d visitor1 ^: indulg5ce
 ,i mu/ beg = my some:at prolong$       
/atem5t--b :5 "o has a cause mu* at     
he>t1 he add$ ) a smile1 "s prolixity is
 easily excus$4  ,z we re-ent]$ !       
corridor1 our conductor ask$ me if ,i   
w\ld c>e to pay any m visits4 ,! case y 
h se51 he said1 is an extremely typical 
& int]e/+ "o4  ,h y any hope1 said      
,amro?1 ( recov]y8  ,( c\rse1 ( c\rse1  
said our conductor ) a smile4 ,no?+ is  
hopeless "h2 our cures are complete &   
ev5 rapid2 b ?is is a p>ticul>ly ob/9ate
 "o6  ,well1 said ,amro?1 w\ld y l to   

see m8  ,no1 ,i said1 ,i h se5 en\gh4 ,i
 _c n[ be> any m4  ,our conductor smil$ 
indulg5tly4  ,yes1 he said1 x is        
bewild]+ at fir/2 b "o sees wond]ful ?+s
 "h6 ,?is is our libr>y1 he add$1 lead+ 
u to a great airy room1 full ( books &  
read+-desks1 :]e a l>ge numb] ( inmates 
7 sitt+ read+ & writ+4 ,!y glanc$ up at 
u ) fri5dly & cont5t$ smiles4 ,a little 
fur!r on we came to ano!r cell1 be=e :i*
 our conductor /opp$1 & look$ at me4 ,i 
%\ld l1 he said1 if y are n too tir$1 j 
to take y 9 "h2 !re is a pati5t1 :o is v
 ne> recov]y inde$1 9 "h1 & x w\ld d him
 good to h a little talk ) a /rang]4  ,i
 b[$1 & we w5t 94 ,a man 0 sitt+ 9 a    
*air ) 8 head 9 8 h&s4 ,an att5dant 0   
sitt+ ne> ! w9d[ read+ a book4 ,!       
pati5t1 at our entry1 remov$ 8 h&s f 8  
face & look$ up1 half impati5tly1 ) an  
air ( great suff]+1 & !n sl[ly rose4    
,h[ are y feel+1 de> sir8 said our      
conductor quietly4  ,oh1 said ! man1    
look+ at u1 ,i am bett]1 mu* bett]4 ,!  
light is break+ 91 b x is a sore        

bus9ess1 :5 ,i 0 s /rong 9 my pride4    
,ah1 said our guide1 x is inde$ a sl[   
process2 b happ9ess & heal? mu/ be      
pur*as$2 & e day ,i see cle>ly t y are  
draw+ ne>] to ! end ( y\r tr\bles--y w  
soon be leav+ u6 ,b n[ ,i want y k9dly  
to be/ir y\rself1 & talk a little to ?is
 fri5d ( ours1 :o has n be5 long ) u1 & 
f9ds ! place some:at1 bewild]+4 ,y w be 
able to tell him some?+ ( :at is pass+ 9
 y\r m9d2 x w d y good to put x into    
words1 & x w be a help to him4  ,v well1
 said ! man gravely1 ,i w d my be/4 ,& !
 o!rs )drew1 leav+ me ) ! man4 ,:5 !y _h
 gone1 ! man ask$ me to be seat$1 &     
lean+ 8 head ^u 8 h& he said1 ,i d n "k 
h[ mu* y "k & h[ little1 s ,i w tell y t
 ,i left ! _w v confid5t 9 a p>ticul> =m
 ( fai?1 & v mu* dispos$ to despise &   
ev5 to dislike ^? :o did n agree ) me4  
,i _h liv$1 ,i may say1 uprightly &     
purely1 & ,i w confess t ,i ev5 welcom$ 
all signs ( laxity & s9fulness 9 my     
oppon5ts1 because x prov$ :at ,i        
believ$1 t wrong conduct sprang         

naturally f wrong belief4 ,i came "h 9  
great cont5t1 & ?\ght t ?is place 0 !   
rew>d ( fai?ful liv+4 ,b ,i _h a great  
%ock4 ,i 0 v t5d]ly atta*$ to "o :om ,i 
left on e>?1 & ! sev]e/ grief ( my life 
0 t %e did n ?9k z ,i did1 b us$ to     
plead ) me = a wid] outlook & a l>g]    
fai? 9 ! designs ( ,god4 ,%e us$ to say 
to me t %e felt t ,god _h diff]5t ways (
 sav+ diff]5t p1 & t p 7 sav$ by love & 
n by doctr9e4 ,& ?is ,i combat$ ) all my
 might4 ,i us$ to say1 ',doctr9e fir/1 &
 love aft]w>ds1' to :i* %e (t5 said1    
',no1 love is fir/6'  ,well1 "s "t ago  
,i _h a sight ( h]2 %e _h di$1 & ent]$  
?is _w ( ours4 ,%e 0 9 a v diff]5t place
 f ?is1 b %e ?\ght ( me )\t ceas+1 & h] 
desire prevail$4 ,i saw h]1 ?\gh ,i 0   
hidd5 f h]1 & look$ into h] he>t1 &     
disc]n$ t ! "o ?+ :i* spoil$ h] joy 0 t 
,i 0 p>t$ f h]4  ,& aft] t ,i _h no m   
delight 9 my security4 ,i began to suff]
 & to ye>n4 ,& !n1 little by little1 ,i 
began to see t x is love aft] all :i*   
b9ds u toge!r1 & :i* draws u to ,god2 b 

my difficulty is ?is1 t ,i /ill believe 
t my fai? is true2 & if t is true1 !n   
o!r fai?s _c be true also1 & !n ,i fall 
into sad bewild]m5t & despair4 ,he /opp$
 & look$ at me fix$ly4  ,b1 ,i said1 if 
,i may c>ry ! ?\ght fur!r1 might n all  
be true8 ,two m5 may be v unlike ea* o!r
 9 =m & face & ?\ght--yet bo? are v man4
 ,x w\ld be fooli% argu+1 if a man 7 to 
say1 ',i am inde$ a man1 & because my   
fri5d is unlike me--tall]1              
light]-complexion$1 swift] (            
?\ght--!re=e he _c be a man4' ,or1 aga91
 two m5 may travel by ! same road1 & see
 _m diff]5t ?+s1 yet x is ! same road !y
 h bo? travell$2 & "o ne$ n say to !    
o!r1 ',y _c h travell$ by ! same road1  
because y did n see ! violets on ! bank 
"u ! wood1 or ! spire t peep$ ?r\gh !   
trees at ! fold+ ( ! valleys--& !re=e y 
are a li> & a deceiv]6' ,if "o believes 
firmly 9 "o's own fai?1 "o ne$ n !re=e  
say t all :o d n hold x are p]v]se &    
wilful4 ,!re is no excuse1 inde$1 = n   
hold+ to :at we believe to be true1 b   

!re is no excuse ei!r = int]f]+ ) !     
s9c]e belief ( ano!r1 unless "o c       
p]suade him he is wrong4 ,is n ! mi/ake 
to ?9k t "o holds ! tru? 9 its entirety1
 & t "o has no m to le>n & to p]ceive8  
,i myself %\ld welcome diff]5ces ( fai?1
 because x %[s me t fai? is a l>g] ?+   
ev5 ?an ,i "k4 ,:at ano!r sees may be b 
a ?\ght t is hidd5 f me1 because ! tru? 
may be se5 f a diff]5t angle4 ,to       
compla9 t we _c see x all is z fooli% z 
:5 ! *ild is vex$ because x _c see !    
back ( ! moon4 ,& x seems to me t our   
duty is n to qu>rel ) o!rs :o see ?+s t 
we d n see1 b to rejoice ) !m1 if !y w  
all[ u1 & mean:ile to disc]n :at is %[n 
to u z fai?fully z we c4  ,! man he>d me
 ) a /range smile4 ,yes1 he said1 y are 
c]ta9ly "r1 & ,i bless ! goodness t s5t 
y hi!r2 b :5 y are gone1 ,i d\bt t ,i   
%all fall back into my old p]plexities1 
& say to myself t ?\gh m5 may see       
diff]5t p>ts ( ! same ?+1 !y _c see !   
same ?+ diff]5tly4  ,i ?9k1 ,i said1 t  
ev5 t is possible1 because on e>? ?+s   

are (t5 m]e symbols1 & clo! !mselves 9  
mat]ial =ms2 & x is ! =m :i* deludes u4 
,i d n myself d\bt t grace fl[s into u  
by v diff]5t *annels4 ,we may n d5y !   
claim ( any "o to d]ive grace f any     
s\rce or symbol t he c4 ,! only ?+ we   
may & mu/ d>e to dispute is ! claim t   
only by "o *annel may grace fl[4 ,b ,i  
?9k t ! words ( ! "o :om y lov$1 ( :om y
 spoke1 are inde$ true1 & t ! love ( ea*
 o!r & ( ,god is ! =ce :i* draws u1 by  
:atev] rite or symbol or doctr9e x may  
be int]pret$4 ,t1 z ,i read x1 is !     
message ( ,*ri/1 :o gave up all ?+s =   
utt] love4  ,z ,i said ?is1 our guide & 
,amro? ent]$ ! cell4 ,! man rose up     
quickly1 & draw+ me ap>t1 ?ank$ me v    
he>tily & ) te>s 9 8 eyes2 & s we said  
f>ewell4 ,:5 we 7 outside1 ,i said to ! 
guide1 ,may ,i ask y "o "q8 ,w\ld x be (
 use if ,i rema9$ "h = a "t to talk ) t 
poor man8 ,x seem$ a relief to him to   
op5 8 he>t1 & ,i w\ld gladly be ) him & 
try to com=t him4  ,! guide %ook 8 head 
k9dly4 ,no1 he said1 ,i ?9k n4 ,i       

recognise y\r k9dness v fully--b a s\l l
 ?is mu/ f9d ! way alone2 & !re is "o :o
 is help+ him fa/] ?an any ( u c avail  
to d2 & besides1 he add$1 he is v ne>   
inde$ to 8 release4  ,s we w5t to !     
door1 & said f>ewell2 & ,amro? & ,i w5t 
=w>d4 ,!n ,i said to him z we w5t d[n   
?r\gh ! t]rac$ g>d51 & saw ! inmates    
w&]+ ab\t1 lo/ 9 dreams1 ,?is mu/ be a  
sad place to live 91 ,amro?6  ,no1      
inde$1 said he1 ,i d n ?9k t !re are any
 happi] ?an ^? :o h ! *>ge "h4 ,:5 !    
pati5ts are 9 ! grip ( ?is disease1 !y  
are !mselves only too well cont5t2 & x  
is a bless$ ?+ to see ! approa* ( d\bt &
 suff]+1 :i* means t heal? draws ne>4   
,!re is no place 9 all our realm :]e "o 
sees s cle>ly & beautifully ! in/ant &  
p]fect m]cy ( ,god1 & ! joy ( pa94 ,& s 
we pass$ toge!r out ( ! gu>d$ gate4     
,,xxiii   ,well1 said ,amro?1 ) a smile1
 z we w5t out into ! =e/1 ,i am afraid t
 ! la/ two visits h be5 r a /ra94 ,we   
mu/ f9d some?+ a little less s]i\s2 b ,i
 am go+ to fill up all y\r "t4 ,y _h got

 too mu* tak5 up ) y\r psy*ology1 & we  
mu/ n live too mu* on !ory1 & sp9       
problems1 l ! spid]1 out ( our own      
insides2 b we w n sp5d too mu* "t 9     
trudg+ ov] ?is c\ntry1 ?\gh x is well   
wor? x4 ,did y ev] see any?+ m beautiful
 ?an ^? p9e-trees on ! slope !re1 ) !   
blue di/ance betwe5 _! /ems8 ,b we mu/ n
 make a bus9ess ( l&scape-gaz+ l our    
fri5d ,*>mides6 ,we are m5 ( affairs1 y 
& ,i4 ,come1 ,i w %[ y a ?+4 ,%ut y\r   
eyes = a m9ute & give me y\r h&4 ,n[6   
,a sudd5 breeze fann$ my face1 sweet &  
odor\s1 l ! w9d out ( a wood4 ,n[1 said 
,amro?1 we h arriv$6 ,:]e d y ?9k we    
are8  ,! sc5e _h *ang$ 9 an in/ant4 ,we 
7 9 a wide1 level c\ntry1 9 gre5        
wat]-mead[s1 ) a full /ream brimm+ its  
grassy banks1 9 will[y loops4 ,n f>     
away1 on a g5tly ris+ gr\nd1 lay a long1
 /raggl+ village1 ( gabl$ h\ses1 among  
high trees4 ,x 0 l ! sort ( village t y 
may f9d 9 ! pleasant ,wilt%ire          
c\ntryside1 & ! sight fill$ me ) a ru% (
 old & joyful memories4  ,x is su* a    

relief1 ,i said1 to realise t if man is 
made 9 ! image ( ,god1 heav5 is made 9 !
 image ( ,engl&6  ,t is only h[ y see x1
 *ild1 said ,amro?4 ,"s ( my own happie/
 days 7 sp5t at ,toot+3 w\ld y be       
surpris$ if ,i said t x rem9d$ me (     
,toot+8  ,i am surpris$ at no?+1 ,i     
said4 ,i only "k t x is all v           
consid]ate6  ,we ent]$ ! village1 & f\nd
 a l>ge numb] ( p1 mo/ly "y1 go+        
*e]fully ab\t all sorts ( simple "w4 ,_m
 ( !m 7 g>d5+1 & ! g>d5s 7 full (       
old-fa%ion$ fl[]s1 bloom+ 9 wond]ful    
pr(usion4 ,!re 0 an air ( settl$ peace  
ab\t ! place1 ! peace t on e>? "o (t5   
dream$ ( f9d+1 & inde$ ?\ght "o _h f\nd 
on visit+ "s seclud$ place--only to     
discov]1 alas6 on a ne>] acqua9tance1 t 
life 0 z full ( anxieties & c>es !re z  
else:]e4 ,!re 7 "o or two eld]ly p go+  
ab\t1 giv+ directions or advice1 or l5d+
 a help+ h&4 ,! work]s nodd$ bli!ly to  
u1 b did n susp5d _! "w4  ,:at surprises
 me1 ,i said to ,amro?1 is to f9d e "o s
 mu* occupi$ :]ev] we g4 ,"o he>d s mu* 

on e>? ab\t crav+ = re/1 t "o grew to   
fancy t ! o!r life 0 all go+ to be a    
sort ( solemn m$itation1 ) an occasional
 hymn4  ,yes1 inde$1 said ,amro?1 x 0 ! 
body t 0 tir$--! s\l is always fre% &   
/rong--b re/ is n idl5ess4 ,!re is no   
su* ?+ z unemploym5t "h1 & !re is h>dly 
"t1 inde$1 = all we h to d4 ,e "o really
 loves "w4 ,! *ild plays at work+1 ! man
 ( leisure works at 8 play4 ,! diff]5ce 
"h is t "w is always amus+--!re is no   
su* ?+ z drudg]y "h4  ,we walk$ all     
?r\gh ! village1 :i* /ret*$ f> away into
 ! c\ntry4 ,! :ole place humm$ l a      
beehive on a ,july morn+4 ,_m sang to   
!mselves z !y w5t ab\t _! bus9ess1 &    
sometimes a c\ple ( girls1 meet+ 9 !    
roadway1 w\ld entw9e _! arms & dance a  
few /eps toge!r1 ) a kiss at p>t+4 ,!re 
0 a s5se ( high spirits ev]y:]e4 ,at "o 
place we f\nd a gr\p ( *ildr5 sitt+ 9 ! 
%ade ( "s trees1 :ile a woman ( middle  
age told !m a /ory4 ,we /ood a:ile to   
li/51 ! woman giv+ u a pleasant nod z we
 approa*$4 ,x 0 a /ory ( "s pleasant    

adv5ture1 ) no?+ moral or s5tim5tal ab\t
 x1 l an old folk-tale4 ,! *ildr5 7     
li/5+ ) unconceal$ delight4  ,:5 we _h  
walk$ a little fur!r1 ,amro? said to me1
 ,come1 ,i w give y ?ree guesses4 ,:o d 
y ?9k1 by ! light ( y\r psy*ology1 are  
all ^! simple p8 ,i guess$ 9 va94 ,well1
 ,i see ,i mu/ tell y1 he said4 ,w\ld x 
surprise y to le>n t mo/ ( ^! p :om y   
see "h pass$ ^u e>? = wick$ &           
unsatisfactory *>act]s8 ,yet x is true4 
,don't y "k ! k9d ( boys !re 7 at s*ool1
 :o drift$ into bad company & idle ways1
 mo/ly out ( m]e good-nature1 w5t out   
into ! _w ) a black m>k aga9/ !m1 hav+  
be5 bulli$ 9 va9 by virtu\s ma/]s1 !    
despair ( _! p>5ts1 always los+ _!      
employm5ts1 & (t5 com+ :at we us$ to    
call social cropp]s--untru/wor?y1       
s5sual1 feckless1 no "o's enemy b _!    
own1 & yet pres]v+ ?r\gh x all a k9d (  
simple good-nature1 always ready to %>e 
?+s ) o!rs1 nev] kn[+ h[ to take        
advantage ( any "o1 tru/+ ! mo/         
untru/wor?y p2 or if !y 7 girls1 gett+  

into tr\ble1 los+ _! good "n1 p]haps    
liv+ lives ( %ame 9 big cities--yet1 =  
all t1 guileless1 affectionate1 nev]    
excus+ !mselves1 believ+ !y _h des]v$   
any?+ t befell !m8 ,^! 7 ! sort ( p to  
:om ,*ri/ 0 s closely drawn4 ,!y h no   
respectability1 no conv5tions2 !y act ^u
 in/9ct1 nev] by reason1 (t5 fooli%ly1 b
 seldom unk9dly or selfi%ly4 ,!y give   
all !y h1 !y nev] take4 ,!y h ! faults (
 *ildr51 & ! tru/ful affection ( *ildr54
 ,!y w d any?+ = any "o :o is k9d to !m 
& fond ( !m4 ,( c\rse !y are :at is     
call$ hopeless1 & !y use _! poor bodies 
v ill4 ,9 _! la/ /ages on e>? !y are (t5
 v deplorable objects1 sl9k+ into       
public-h\ses1 plodd+ ragg$ly & dismally 
along highroads1 suff]+ cruelly &       
compla9+ little1 consci\s t !y are      
univ]sally reprobat$1 & n exactly kn[+  
:y4 ,!y are ! victims ( society2 !y d   
its dirty "w1 & are ca/ away z (fsc\r+s4
 ,!y are really y\?ful & (t5 beautiful  
spirits1 v void ( (f5ce1 & ne$+ to be   
treat$ z *ildr54 ,!y live "h 9 great    

happ9ess1 & are consci\s vaguely ( !    
good & great int5tion ( ,god t[>ds !m4  
,!y suff] 9 ! _w at ! h&s ( cruel1      
selfi%1 & /upid p1 because !y are bo?   
humble & dis9t]e/$4 ,b 9 all our realms 
,i d n ?9k !re is a place ( simpl] &    
sweet] happ9ess ?an ?is1 because !y d n 
take _! =giv5ess z a "r1 b z a graci\s &
 unexpect$ boon4 ,& inde$ ! sights &    
s\nds ( ?is place are ! be/ m$ic9e =    
crabb$1 worldly1 conv5tional s\ls1 :o   
are (t5 br\ght "h :5 !y are draw+ ne> ! 
tru?4  ,yes1 ,i said1 ?is is j :at ,i   
want$4 ,int]e/+ z my "w has lately be51 
x has want$ simplicity4 ,i h gr[n to    
consid] life too mu* z a s]ies ( cases1 
& to =get t x is life itself t "o mu/   
seek1 & n pa?ology4 ,?is is ! be/ sight 
,i h se51 = x is s f> remov$ f all s5se 
( judgm5t4 ,! song ( ! sa9ts may be     
sometimes ( m]cy too4     ,,xxiv   ,&   
n[1 said ,amro?1 t we h be5 refre%$ by !
 sight ( ?is guileless place1 & z our "t
 is runn+ %ort1 ,i am go+ to %[ y some?+
 v s]i\s inde$4 ,9 fact1 be=e ,i %[ x y 

,i mu/ rem9d y c>efully ( "o ?+ :i* ,i  
%all beg y to keep 9 m9d4 ,!re is no?+  
ei!r cruel or hopeless "h2 all is       
implacably j & entirely m]ciful4 ,:atev]
 a s\l ne$s1 t x receives2 & x receives 
no?+ t is v9dictive or h>%4 ,! ideas (  
puni%m5t on e>? are hopelessly confus$2 
we d n "k :e!r we are rev5g+ ourselves =
 wrongs done to u1 or safegu>d+ society1
 or det]r+ w\ld-be (f5d]s1 or try+ to   
am5d & uplift ! crim9al4 ,we end1 z a   
rule1 by mak+ e "o conc]n$1 :e!r puni%] 
or puni%$1 worse4 ,we enc\rage ea* o!r 9
 v9dictiv5ess & hypocrisy1 we c[ &      
brutalise ! transgressor4 ,we rescue no 
"o1 we am5d no?+4 ,& yet we _c read !   
cle> signs ( all ?is4 ,! mild] our      
me?ods ( puni%m5t become1 ! less crime  
is !re to puni%4 ,b in/ead ( be+ at once
 k9d & sev]e1 :i* is p]fectly possible1 
we are bo? cruel & s5tim5tal4 ,n[1 !re  
is no su* ?+ z s5tim5t "h1 j z !re is no
 cruelty4 ,!re is emotion 9 full        
measure1 & sev]ity 9 full measure2 no "o
 is ei!r petti%ly fright5$ or mildly    

=giv52 & ! joy t awaits u is all ! m    
wor? hav+1 because x _c be ra%ly enjoy$ 
or rea*$ by any %ort cuts2 b d n =get1 9
 :at y n[ see1 t ! end is joy4  ,he     
spoke s solemnly t ,i 0 consci\s (      
ov]ma/]+ curiosity1 n unmix$ ) awe4     
,aga9 ! way 0 abbreviat$4 ,amro? took me
 by ! h& & bade me close my eyes4 ,!    
breeze beat ^u my face = a mom5t4 ,:5 ,i
 op5$ my eyes1 we 7 on a b>e hillside1  
full ( /ones1 9 a k9d ( grey & *illy    
haze :i* fill$ ! air4 ,j ahead ( u 7 "s 
r\gh enclosures ( /one1 ov]look$ by a   
sort ( t[]4 ,!y 7 l ! big %eepfolds :i* 
,i h se5 on nor!rn wolds1 into :i* !    
%eep ( a :ole hillside c be driv5 =     
%elt]4 ,we w5t r\nd ! wall1 :i* 0 high &
 /rong1 & came to ! entrance ( ! t[]1 ! 
door ( :i* /ood op54 ,!re seem$ to be no
 "o ab\t1 no sign ( life2 ! only s\nd a 
curi\s wail+ note1 :i* came at int]vals 
f "o ( ! enclosures1 l ! cry+ ( a       
prison$ bea/4 ,we w5t up into ! t[]2 !  
/aircase end$ 9 a b>e room1 ) f\r       
ap]tures1 "o 9 ea* wall1 ea* lead+ into 

a k9d ( balcony4 ,amro? l$ ! way into "o
 ( ! balconies1 & po9t$ d[nw>ds4 ,we 7  
look+ d[n into "o ( ! enclosures :i* lay
 j at our feet1 n v f> bel[4 ,! place 0 
p]fectly b>e1 & r\ghly flagg$ ) /ones4  
,9 ! corn] 0 a r\gh ?at*$ %elt]1 9 :i* 0
 "s /raw4 ,b :at at once rivet$ my      
att5tion 0 ! figure ( a man1 :o half    
lay1 half cr\*$ ^u ! /ones1 8 head 9 8  
h&s1 9 an attitude ( utt] ab&onm5t4 ,he 
0 dress$ 9 a r\gh1 wea!r-worn sort (    
cloak1 & 8 :ole appe>ance sugge/$ !     
base/ neglect2 8 h&s 7 muscul> & knott$2
 8 ragg$ grey hair /ream$ ov] ! coll> ( 
8 cloak4 ,:ile we look$ at him1 he drew 
himself up into a sitt+ po/ure1 & turn$ 
8 face blankly ^u ! sky4 ,x 01 or _h    
be51 a noble face en\gh1 deeply l9$1 & )
 a look ( comm& ^u x2 b any?+ l !       
hopeless & utt] mis]y ( ! drawn *eeks & 
/>+ eyes ,i _h nev] conceiv$4 ,i        
involunt>ily drew back1 feel+ t x 0     
almo/ wrong to look at any?+ s fall5 & s
 wret*$4 ,b ,amro? deta9$ me4  ,he is n 
aw>e ( u1 he said1 & ,i desire y to look

 at him4  ,pres5tly ! man rose we>ily to
 8 feet1 & began to pace up & d[n r\nd !
 walls1 ) ! me*anical movem5ts ( a cag$ 
animal1 avoid+ ! po/s ( ! %elt] )\t     
seem+ to see !m1 & !n ca/ himself d[n   
aga9 ^u ! /ones 9 a p>oxysm ( melan*oly4
 ,he seem$ to h no desire to escape1 no 
en]gy1 except to suff]4 ,!re 0 no hope  
ab\t x all1 no sugge/ion ( pray]1 no?+ b
 blank & unadult]at$ suff]+4  ,amro?    
drew me back into ! t[]1 & motion$ me to
 ! next balcony4 ,aga9 ,i w5t out4 ,!   
sight t ,i saw 0 almo/ m t]rible ?an !  
fir/1 because ! prison] "h1 p5n$ 9 a    
simil> enclosure1 0 m re/less1 & seem$  
to suff] m acutely4 ,?is 0 a y\ng] man1 
:o walk$ swiftly & vaguely ab\t1 ca/+   
glances up at ! wall :i* enclos$ him4   
,sometimes he /opp$1 & seem$ to be      
pursu+ "s dreadful tra9 ( solit>y ?\ght2
 he ge/iculat$1 & ev5 broke out into    
mutt]+s & cries--! cries t ,i _h he>d f 
)\t4 ,i c\ld n be> to look at ?is sight1
 & com+ back1 bes\ght ,amro? to lead me 
away4 ,amro?1 :o 0 himself1 ,i p]ceiv$1 

deeply mov$1 & /ood ) lips compress$1   
nodd$ 9 tok5 ( ass5t4 ,we w5t quickly   
d[n ! /airway1 & took our way up ! hill 
among ! /ones1 9 sil5ce4 ,! %apes (     
simil> enclosures 7 to be se5 ev]y:]e1 &
 ! indescribable blankness & grimness ( 
! sc5e /ruck a *ill to my he>t4  ,f !   
top ( ! ridge we c\ld see ! same b>e    
valleys /ret*+ 9 all directions1 z f> z 
! eye c\ld see4 ,! only o!r build+ 9    
sight 0 a great circul> t[] ( /one1 f>  
d[n 9 ! valley1 f :i* beat ! pulse ( "s 
heavy ma*9]y1 :i* gave ! s5se1 ,i d n "k
 h[1 ( a gha/ly & wat*ful life at !     
c5tre ( all4  ,t is ! ,t[] ( ,pa91 said 
,amro?1 & ,i w sp>e y ! inn] sight ( t4 
,only our v brave/ & /ronge/ c ent] !re 
& pres]ve any hope4 ,b x is well = y to 
"k x is !re1 & t s\ls h to ent] x4 ,x is
 !nce t all ! pa9 ( c\ntless worlds     
emanates & vibrates1 & ! gov]nor ( !    
place is ! mo/ tri$ & brave/ ( all !    
s]vants ( ,god4 ,?i!r we mu/ g1 = y %all
 h sight ( him1 ?\gh y %all n ent]4  ,we
 w5t d[n ! hill ) all ! spe$ we might1  

&1 ,i w confess x1 ) ! d>ke/ dismay ,i h
 ev] exp]i5c$ tugg+ at my he>t4 ,we 7   
soon at ! foot ( ! enorm\s /ructure4    
,amro? knock$ at ! gate1 a l[ door1     
adorn$ ) "s vague & gha/ly sculptures1  
?+s l worms & huddl$ =ms dre>ily        
int]tw9$4 ,! door op5$1 & reveal$ a fi]y
 & sm\ld]+ light )94 ,high up 9 ! t[] a 
great :eel :izz$ & %iv]$1 & mov+ %ad[s  
cross$ & recross$ ! firelit walls4  ,b !
 figure t came out to u--h[ %all ,i     
describe him8 ,x 0 ! mo/ beautiful &    
graci\s sight ( all t ,i saw 9 my       
pilgrimage4 ,he 0 a man ( tall /ature1 )
 sn[-:ite1 silv]y hair & be>d1 dress$ 9 
a d>k cloak ) a gleam+ clasp ( gold4 ,b 
= all 8 age he _h a look ( immortal y\?4
 ,8 cle> & pi]c+ eye _h a glance (      
inf9ite t5d]ness1 su* z ,i _h nev]      
conceiv$4 ,!re 7 _m l9es ^u 8 br[ & r\nd
 8 eyes1 b 8 complexion 0 z fre% z t ( a
 *ild1 & he /epp$ z briskly z a y\?4 ,we
 b[$ l[ to him1 & he rea*$ out 8 h&s1   
tak+ ,amro?'s h& & m9e 9 ea* ( 84 ,8 t\*
 _h a curi\s ?rill1 ! h& t held m9e be+ 

firm & smoo? & wond]fully w>m4  ,well1  
my *ildr51 he said 9 a cle>1 y\?ful     
voice1 ,i am glad to see y1 because !re 
are few :o come hi!r will+ly2 & ! old & 
we>y are *e]$ by ! sight ( ^? t are "y &
 /rong4 ,amro? ,i "k4 ,b :o are y1 my   
*ild8 ,y h n be5 among u long4 ,h y f\nd
 y\r "w & place "h yet8 ,i told him my  
/ory 9 a few words1 & he smil$          
indulg5tly4 ,!re is no?+ l be+ at "w1 he
 said4 ,ev5 my bus9ess "h1 :i* seems sad
 en\gh to mo/ p1 mu/ be done2 & ,i d x v
 will+ly4 ,d n be fright5$1 my *ild1 he 
said to me sudd5ly1 draw+ me ne>] to    
him1 & fold+ my arm b5ea? 8 own4 ,x is  
only on e>? t we are fright5$ ( pa92 x  
spoils our poor plans1 x makes u fretful
 & mis]able1 x br+s u into ! %ad[ (     
dea?4 ,b = all t1 z ,amro? kn[s1 x is ! 
be/ & mo/ fruitful ( all ! works t !    
,fa!r does = man1 & ! ?+ de>e/ to ,8    
he>t4 ,we _c prosp] till we suff]1 &    
suff]+ leads u v swiftly into joy &     
peace4 ,inde$ ?is ,t[] ( ,pa91 z x is   
call$1 is 9 fact no?+ b ! ,t[] ( ,love4 

,n until love is t\*$ ) pa9 does x      
become beautiful1 & ! joy t comes ?r\gh 
pa9 is ! only real ?+ 9 ! _w4 ,( c\rse1 
:5 my great eng9e "h s5ds a ?rill into a
 c>eless life1 x comes z a d>k surprise2
 b !n foll[ c\rage & pati5ce & wond]1 & 
all ! de> t5dance ( ,love4 ,i h borne x 
all myself a hundr$ times1 & ,i %all be>
 x aga9 if ! ,fa!r wills x4 ,b :5 y     
leave me "h1 d n ?9k ( me z ( "o :o     
works1 grim & indiff]5t1 wreck+ lives & 
de/roy+ homes4 ,x is b ! burn+ ( ! we$s 
( life2 & x is z ne$ful z ! sun%9e & !  
ra94 ,pa9 does n w&] aimlessly1 smit+   
d[n by mis*ance & by accid5t2 x comes z 
! close & de> int5tion ( ! ,fa!r's he>t1
 & is to a man z a trumpet-call f ! l& (
 life1 n z a knell f ! l& ( dea?4 ,& n[1
 de> *ildr51 y mu/ leave me1 = ,i h mu* 
to d4 ,& ,i w give y1 he add$1 turn+ to 
me1 a gift :i* %all be y\r com=t1 & a   
tok5 t y h be5 "h1 & se5 ! wor/ & ! be/ 
t !re is to see4  ,he drew f "u 8 cloak 
a r+1 a circlet ( gold hold+ a r$ /one )
 a flam+ he>t1 & put x on my f+]4 ,!re  

pi]c$ ?r\gh me a pang int5s] ?an any ,i 
_h ev] exp]i5c$1 9 :i* all ! love &     
sorr[ ,i _h ev] kn[n seem$ to be sudd5ly
 m+l$1 & :i* left beh9d x a p]fect &    
int5se s5se ( joy4  ,!re1 t is my gift1 
he said1 & y %all h an old man's lov+   
bless+ too1 = x is t1 aft] all1 t ,i    
live =4 ,he drew me to him & kiss$ me on
 ! br[1 & 9 a mom5t he 0 gone4  ,we     
walk$ away 9 sil5ce1 & = my "p ) an     
elation ( _s :i* ,i c\ld h>dly control1 
a desire to love & suff]1 & d & be all t
 ! m9d ( man c\ld conceive4 ,b my he>t 0
 too full to speak4  ,come1 said ,amro? 
pres5tly1 y are n z grateful z ,i _h    
hop$--y are outgr[+ me6 ,come d[n to my 
poor level = an in/ant1 & bew>e (       
spiritual pride6 ,!n alt]+ 8 tone he    
said1 ,ah1 yes1 de> fri5d1 ,i und]/&4   
,!re is no?+ 9 ! _w l x1 & y 7 mo/      
graci\sly & t5d]ly receiv$--b ! end is n
 yet4  ,amro?1 ,i said1 ,i am l "o      
intoxicat$ ) joy4 ,i feel t ,i c\ld     
endure any?+ & nev] make "q ( any?+     
aga94 ,h[ inf9itely good he 0 to me--l a

 de> fa!r6  ,yes1 said ,amro?1 he is v l
 ! ,fa!r --& he smil$ at me a my/]i\s   
smile4  ,amro?1 ,i said1 bewild]$1 y _c 
mean--8  ,no1 ,i mean no?+1 said ,amro?1
 b y h to-day look$ v f> into ! tru?1   
f>!r ?an is giv5 to _m s soon2 b y are a
 *ild ( =tune1 & seem to please e "o4 ,i
 decl>e t a little m w\ld make me       
jeal\s4  ,pres5tly1 cat*+ sight ( "o ( !
 enclosures h>d by1 ,i said to ,amro?1  
,b !re are "s que/ions ,i mu/ ask4 ,:at 
has j happ5$ _h put x mo/ly out ( my    
head4 ,^? poor suff]+ s\ls t we saw j   
n[--x is well1 ) !m1 ,i am sure1 s ne> !
 ,ma/] ( ! ,t[]--he does n =get !m1 ,i  
am sure--b :o are !y1 & :at h !y done to
 suff] s8  ,i w tell y1 said ,amro?1 = x
 is a d>k bus9ess4 ,^? two t y h        
se5--well1 y w "k "o ( !m by "n & fame1 
& ( ! o!r y may h he>d4 ,! fir/1 t old  
%aggy-hair$ man1 :o lay ^u ! /ones1 t 0 
----  ,he m5tion$ a "n t 0 notori\s 9   
,europe at ! "t ( my life on e>?1 ?\gh  
he 0 !n long dead2 a ru?less & ambiti\s 
conqu]or1 :o p\r$ a cat>act ( life away1

 9 w>s1 = 8 own aggr&isem5t4 ,!n he     
m5tion$ ano!r "n1 a /atesman :o pursu$ a
 policy ( t]rorism & oppression1 enri*$ 
himself by b>b>\s cruelty ex]cis$ 9     
colonial possessions1 & 0 fam\s = !     
calculat$ lib]t9ism ( 8 private life4   
,!y 7 great s9n]s1 said ,amro?1 & !     
sorr[s !y made & flung s c>elessly ab\t 
!m1 beat back ^u !m n[ 9 a surge ( pa94 
,^! m5 7 /rangely affect$1 ea* ( !m1 by 
! smalle/ sight or s\nd ( suff]+--a     
tortur$ animal1 a cry+ *ild2 & yet !y 7 
utt]ly ru?less ( ! pa9 t !y did n see4  
,x 0 a lack1 no d\bt1 ( ! imag9ation (  
:i* ,i spoke1 & :i* makes all !         
diff]5ce4 ,& n[ !y h to contemplate !   
pa9 :i* !y c\ld n imag9e2 & !y h to le>n
 submission & humility4 ,x is a t]rible 
bus9ess 9 a way--! lonel9ess ( x6 ,!re  
us$ to be an old say+ t ! /ronge/ man 0 
! man t 0 mo/ alone4 ,b x 0 j because ^!
 m5 practis$ lonel9ess on e>? t !y h to 
suff] s4 ,!y us$ o!rs z c\nt]s 9 a game1
 !y _h nei!r fri5d nor belov$1 except = 
_! own pleasure4 ,!y dep5d$ ^u no "o1   

ne$$ no "o1 desir$ no "o4 ,b !re are _m 
o!rs "h :o did ! same on a small        
scale--selfi% fa!rs & mo!rs :o made     
homes mis]able2 boys :o 7 bullies at    
s*ool & tyrants 9 ! _w1 9 (fices1 &     
places ( au?ority4 ,?is is ! place (    
discipl9e = all base selfi%ness & vile  
au?ority1 = all :o h oppress$ &         
victimis$ mank9d4  ,b1 ,i said1 "h is my
 difficulty4 ,i und]/& ! case ( !       
oppressors well en\gh2 b ab\t !         
oppress$1 :at is ! ju/ice ( t8 ,is !re n
 a =tuit\s elem5t !re1 an int]ruption ( 
! ,div9e plan8 ,take ! case ( ! ?\s&s ( 
lives wa/$ by "s brutal conqu]or4 ,are  
s\ls s5t into ! _w = t1 to be driv5 9   
gangs1 made to fight1 let u say1 = "s   
abom9able cause1 & !n recklessly        
dismiss$ f life8  ,ah1 said ,amro?1 y   
make too mu* ( ! dignity ( life6 ,y d n 
"k h[ small a ?+ a s+le life is1 n z    
reg>ds ! life ( mank9d1 b 9 ! life ( "o 
individual4 ,( c\rse if a man _h b "o   
s+le life on e>?1 x w\ld be an          
intol]able inju/ice2 & t is ! factor :i*

 sets all /raight1 ! factor :i* mo/ ( u1
 9 our "t ( bodily self-importance1     
ov]look4 ,^! oppressors h no p[] ov] o!r
 lives except :at ,god all[s1 & bewild]$
 humanity conc$es4 ,n only is ! great   
plan :ole 9 ! m9d ( ,god1 b e s+le      
m9ute/ life is consid]$ z well4 ,9 ! v  
case y spoke (1 ! little conscript1 torn
 f 8 home to fight a tyrant's battles1  
hector$ & ill-treat$1 & !n %ot d[n ^u "s
 cr[d$ battle-field1 t is precisely !   
discipl9e :i* at t po9t ( "t 8 s\l ne$s1
 & ! bless$ness ( :i* he aft]w>ds       
p]ceives2 sometimes discipl9e is swift &
 urg5t1 sometimes x is sl[ & l+]+3 b all
 exp]i5ce is exactly apportion$ to !    
quality ( :i* ea* s\l is 9 ne$4 ,! only 
reason :y !re seems to be an elem5t (   
*ance 9 x1 is t ! :ole ?+ is s          
inconceivably va/ & prolong$2 & our     
happ9ess & our progress alike dep5d ^u  
our realis+ at e mom5t t ! smalle/ joy &
 ! mo/ trifl+ pleasure1 z well z ! t9ie/
 ailm5t or ! mo/ subtle sorr[1 are j !  
pieces ( exp]i5ce :i* we are meant at t 

mom5t to use & make our own4 ,no "o1 n  
ev5 ,god1 c =ce u to und]/& ?is2 we h to
 p]ceive x = ourselves1 & to live 9 ! k 
( x4  ,yes1 ,i said1 x is true1 all t4  
,my he>t tells me s2 b x is v wond]ful &
 my/]i\s1 all ! same4 ,b1 ,amro?1 ,i h  
se5 & he>d en\gh4 ,my _s desires ) all  
its might to be at its own "w1 ha/5+ on 
! mighty end4 ,n[1 ,i c hold no m (     
wond]s4 ,let me return4  ,yes1 said     
,amro?1 y are "r6 ,^! wond]s are s      
famili> to me t ,i =get1 p]haps1 ! %ock 
) :i* !y come to m9ds unus$ to !m4 ,yet 
!re are o!r ?+s :i* y mu/ assur$ly see1 
:5 ! "t comes2 b ,i mu/ n let y bite (f 
a l>g] piece ?an y c swall[4  ,he took  
me by ! h&2 ! breeze pass$ ?r\gh my     
hair2 & 9 an in/ant we 7 back at !      
=tress-gate1 & ,i ent]$ ! belov$ %elt]1 
) a grateful s5se t ,i 0 return+ home4  
,,xxv   ,i return$1 z ,i said1 ) a s5se 
( s]5e pleasure & security to my "w2 b t
 s]5ity did n la/ long4 ,:at ,i _h se5 )
 ,amro?1 on t day ( w&]+1 fill$ me ) a  
/range re/lessness1 & a ye>n+ = ,i knew 

n :at4 ,i plung$ into my /udies )       
det]m9ation r ?an ard\r1 & ,i set myself
 to /udy :at is ! mo/ difficult problem 
( all--! exact limits ( individual      
responsibility4 ,i _h _m conv]sations on
 ! po9t ) "o ( my tea*]s1 a "y man ( v  
wide exp]i5ce1 :o comb9$ 9 an unusual   
way a close sci5tific k ( ! subject ) a 
peculi> emotional sympa?y4 ,he told me  
once t x 0 ! be/ outfit = ! sci5tific   
/udy ( ^! problems1 :5 ! he>t anticipat$
 ! sl[] judgm5t ( ! m9d1 & set ! m9d a  
goal1 s to speak1 to "w up to2 ?\gh he  
w>n$ me t ! dang] 0 t ! m9d 0 (t5       
reluctant to ab&on ! m indulg5t claims (
 ! he>t2 & he advis$ me to mi/ru/ alike 
sci5tific conclusions & emotional       
inf]5ces4  ,i _h a v memorable          
conv]sation ) him on ! p>ticul> "q (    
responsibility1 :i* ,i w "h give4  ,!   
mi/ake1 ,i said to him1 ( human morali/s
 seems to me to be1 t !y treat all m5 z 
m or less equal 9 ! matt] ( moral       
responsibility4 ,h[ (t51 ,i add$1 h ,i  
he>d a s*ool prea*] tell boys t !y c\ld 

n all be a?letic or clev] or popul>1 b t
 high pr9ciple & moral c\rage 7 ?+s )9 !
 rea* ( all4 ,:]eas ! m t ,i /udi$ human
 nature1 ! m did ! p[] ( survey+ & judg+
 "o's own moral progress1 & ! p[] (     
en=c+ & execut+ ! dictates ( !          
consci5ce1 seem to me faculties1 l o!r  
faculties4 ,inde$1 x appe>s to me1 ,i   
said1 t on ! "o h& !re are p :o h a p[] 
( moral discrim9ation1 :5 deal+ ) !     
retrospect ( _! actions1 b no p[] (     
obey+ ! claims ( pr9ciple1 :5 confront$ 
) a situation involv+ moral /ra92 :ile  
on ! o!r h& !re seem to me to be "s few 
m5 ) a great & resolute p[] ( w1 capable
 ( swift decision & firm action1 b )\t  
any in/9ct = morality at all4  ,yes1 he 
said1 y are q "r4 ,! moral s5se is 9    
reality a high arti/ic s5se4 ,x is a p[]
 ( disc]n+ & be+ attract$ by ! beauty ( 
moral action1 j z ! arti/ is attract$ by
 =m & col\r1 & ! musician by delicate   
comb9ations ( h>monies & ! exquisite    
balance ( s\nd4 ,y "k1 he said1 :at a   
susp5sion is 9 music--x is a *ord :i* 9 

itself is a discord1 b :i* dep5ds = its 
beauty on "s imp5d+ resolution4 ,x is j 
s ) moral *oice4 ,! imag9ation plays a  
great "p 9 x4 ,! man ^: morality is high
 & pr(\nd sees in/9ctively ! approa*+   
cont+5cy1 & 8 act ( self-d5ial or       
self-=getfulness dep5ds = its =ce ^u !  
way 9 :i* x w ultimately comb9e ) o!r   
issues involv$1 ev5 ?\gh at ! mom5t t   
act may seem to be unnecess>y & ev5     
p]v]se4  ,b1 ,i said1 !re are a good _m 
p :o atta9 to a s5sible1 well-balanc$   
k9d ( temp]ance1 aft] p]haps a few      
failures1 f a purely prud5tial motive4  
,:at is ! wor? ( t8  ,v small inde$1    
said my tea*]4 ,9 fact1 ! prud5tial     
morality1 bas$ on motives ( heal? &     
reputation & success1 is a ?+ t has (t5 
to be delib]ately unle>nt at a lat]     
/age4 ,! /range cata/rophes :i* "o sees 
s (t5 9 human life1 :]e a man by "o act 
( ra%ness1 or moral folly1 upsets !     
tranquil t5or ( 8 life--a desp]ate      
love-affair1 a passion ( unreasonable   
ang]1 a piece ( quixotic g5]osity--are  

(t5 a symptom ( a great ef=t ( ! s\l to 
free itself f prud5tial consid]ations4  
,a good ?+ done = a l[ motive has (t5 a 
s+ul>ly degrad+ & de=m+ influ5ce on !   
s\l4 ,"o has to rememb] h[ t]ribly !    
heav5ly values are obscur$ ^u e>? by !  
body1 its ne$s & its desires2 & curr5t  
morality ( a cauti\s & s5sible k9d is   
(t5 worse ?an wor?less1 because x       
produces a k9d ( self-satisfaction1 :i* 
is ! h>de/ ?+ to ov]come4  ,b1 ,i said1 
9 ! lives ( "s ( ! greate/ morali/s1 "o 
s (t5 sees1 or at all ev5ts he>s x said1
 t _! morality is useless because x is  
unpractical1 too mu* out ( ! rea* ( !   
ord9>y man1 too contemptu\s ( simple    
human faculties4 ,:at is "o to make ( t8
  ,x is a difficult matt]1 he repli$2 "o
 does inde$1 9 ! lives ( great morali/s1
 see sometimes t _! "w is vitiat$ by    
p]v]se & fanta/ic pref]5ces1 :i* !y     
exalt out ( all proportion to _! real   
value4 ,b = all t1 x is bett] to be on !
 side ( ! sa9ts2 = !y are gift$ ) ! sort
 ( in/9ctive appreciation ( ! beauty (  

high morality ( :i* ,i spoke4           
,unselfi%ness1 purity1 peacefulness seem
 to !m s beautiful & desirable t !y are 
con/ra9$ to practise !m4 ,:ile          
controv]sy1 bitt]ness1 cruelty1         
meanness1 vice1 seem s utt]ly ugly &    
repulsive t !y _c = an in/ant ent]ta9   
ev5 s mu* z a ?\ght ( !m4  ,b if a man  
sees t he is want+ 9 ?is k9d (          
p]ception1 ,i said1 :at c he d8 ,h[ is  
he to le>n to love :at he does n admire 
& to abhor :at he does n hate8 ,x all   
seems s fatali/ic1 s irresi/ible4  ,if  
he disc]ns 8 lack1 said my tea*] ) a    
smile1 he is probably n s v f> f ! tru?4
 ,! g]m ( ! s5se ( moral beauty is !re1 
& x only wants pati5ce & endeav\r to    
make x gr[4 ,b x _c be all done 9 any   
s+le life1 ( c\rse2 t is :]e ! human    
fai? fails1 9 its limitations ( a man's 
possibilities to a s+le life4  ,b :at is
 ! reason1 ,i said1 :y ! morality1 !    
high au/]ity ( "s p]sons1 :o are        
indubitably high-m9d$ & pure-he>t$1 is s
 utt]ly disc\rag+ & ev5 repell5t8  ,ah1 

he said1 !re y t\* on a great tru?4 ,!  
reason ( t is t ^! h b a /]ile sort (   
connoisseur-%ip 9 virtue4 ,virtue _c be 
atta9$ 9 solitude1 nor c x be made a    
matt] ( private enjoym5t4 ,! po9t is1 ( 
c\rse1 t x is n en\gh = a man to be     
himself2 he mu/ also give himself2 & if 
a man is moral because ( ! delicate     
pleasure x br+s him--& ! arti/ic        
pleasure ( asceticism is a v high "o--he
 is apt to f9d himself "h 9 v /range &  
di/a/eful company4 ,9 ?is1 z 9 ev]y?+1 !
 only safe motive is ! motive ( love4 ,!
 man :o takes pleasure 9 us+ influ5ce1  
or sett+ a l(ty example1 is j z arid a  
dilettante z ! musician :o plays1 or !  
arti/ :o pa9ts1 = ! sake ( ! applause & 
! admiration he w9s2 he is only reg>d+  
o!rs z s _m in/rum5ts = regi/]+ 8 own   
level ( complac5cy4 ,e "o1 ev5 ! lea/   
complicat$ ( mank9d1 mu/ "k ! exquisite 
pleasure t comes f do+ ! simple/ &      
humble/ s]vice to "o :om he loves2 h[   
su* love conv]ts ! mo/ m5ial (fice into 
a luxuri\s joy2 & ! high] t a man goes1 

! m does he disc]n 9 e s+le human be+ ) 
:om he is br\ght into contact a s\l :om 
he c love & s]ve4 ,( c\rse x is b an    
elem5t>y pleasure to enjoy pleas+ ^? :om
 we reg>d ) "s passion ( affection1 wife
 or *ild or fri5d1 because1 aft] all1 "o
 ga9s some?+ oneself by t4 ,b ! pure/   
morality ( all disc]ns ! inf9itely      
lovable quality :i* is 9 ! dep? ( e     
human s\l1 & lavi%es its t5d]ness & its 
grace ^u x1 ) a compassion t gr[s &     
increases1 ! m un?ankful & clumsy &     
bruti% is ! s\l :i* x sets out to s]ve4 
,b1 ,i said1 beautiful z t ?\ght is--&  
,i see & recognise its beauty--x does   
limit ! individual responsibility v     
greatly4 ,surely a prud5tial morality1 !
 morality :i* is j because x fe>s       
reprisal1 & is k9d because x anticipates
 k9dness1 is bett] ?an none at all8 ,!  
morality ( :i* y speak c only belong to 
! noble/ human creatures4  ,only to !   
noble/1 he said2 & ,i mu/ repeat :at ,i 
said be=e1 t ! prud5tial morality is    
useless1 because x beg9s at ! wrong end1

 & is set ^u self ?r\gh\t4 ,i mu/ say   
delib]ately t ! s\l :i* loves           
unreasonably & unwisely1 :i* ev5 yields 
itself to ! passion ( o!rs = ! pleasure 
x gives r ?an = ! pleasure x receives--!
 ?riftless1 lavi%1 good-natur$1         
affectionate p1 :o are said to make su* 
a mess ( _! lives--are f> high] 9 !     
scale ( hope ?an ! cauti\sly            
respectable1 ! prud5tly k9d1 ! selfi%ly 
pure4 ,!re mu/ be no mi/ake ab\t ?is4   
,"o mu/ someh[ or o!r give "o's he>t    
away1 & x is bett] to d x 9 error &     
disa/] ?an to treasure x = oneself4 ,(  
c\rse !re are _m lives on e>?--& an     
increas+ numb] z ! _w develops--:i* are 
g5]\s & noble & unselfi%1 )\t any       
sacrifice ( purity or self-respect4 ,b !
 ess5ce ( morality is giv+1 & n receiv+1
 or ev5 practis+2 ! po9t is free *oice1 
& n compulsion2 & if "o _c give because 
"o loves1 "o mu/ give until "o loves4   
,,xxvi   ,b all my speculations 7 cut   
%ort by a /range ev5t :i* happ5$ ab\t   
?is "t4 ,"o day1 )\t any w>n+1 ! ?\ght (

 ,cyn?ia d>t$ urg5tly & irresi/ibly into
 my m9d4 ,h] image came betwe5 me & all 
my tasks2 ,i saw h] 9 innum]able        
positions & guises1 b always ) h] eyes  
b5t on me 9 a pitiful entreaty4 ,aft]   
endeav\r+ to resi/ ! ?\ght = a little z 
"s k9d ( fantasy1 ,i became sudd5ly     
conv9c$ t %e 0 9 ne$ ( me1 & 9 urg5t    
ne$4 ,i ask$ = an int]view ) our ,ma/]1 
& told him ! /ory2 he he>d me gravely1 &
 !n said t ,i might g 9 se>* ( h]2 b ,i 
0 n sure t he 0 :olly pleas$1 & he b5t 8
 eyes ^u me ) a v inquir+ look4 ,i      
hesitat$ :e!r or n to call ,amro? to my 
aid1 b decid$ t ,i _h bett] n d s at    
fir/4 ,! "q 0 h[ to f9d h]2 ! great     
crags lay betwe5 me & ! l& ( delight2 & 
:5 ,i hurri$ out ( ! college1 ! ?\ght ( 
! desc5t & its dang]s fairly unmann$ me4
 ,i knew1 h[ev]1 ( no o!r way4 ,b :at 0 
my surprise :51 on arriv+ at ! top1 n f>
 f ! po9t :]e ,amro? _h greet$ me aft] !
 asc5t1 ,i saw a little /eep pa?1 :i*   
w\nd itself d[n into ! gulleys & *imneys
 ( ! black rocks4 ,i took x )\t         

hesitation1 & ?\gh aga9 & aga9 x seem$  
to come to an end 9 front ( me1 ,i f\nd 
t x c\ld be trac$ & foll[$ )\t s]i\s    
difficulty4 ,! desc5t 0 accompli%$ ) a  
s+ul> rapidity1 & ,i m>vell$ to f9d     
myself at ! crag-base 9 s brief a "t1   
consid]+ ! intol]able t$ium ( ! asc5t4  
,i rapidly cross$ ! int]v5+ valley1 & 0 
v soon at ! gate ( ! c>eless l&4 ,to my 
int5se joy1 & n at all to my surprise1  
,i f\nd ,cyn?ia at ! gate itself1 wait+ 
= me ) a look ( expectancy4 ,%e came    
=w>ds1 & ?rew h]self passionately into  
my arms1 murmur+ words ( delight &      
welcome1 l a *ild4  ,i knew y w\ld come1
 %e said4 ,i am fright5$--all sorts (   
dreadful ?+s h happ5$4 ,i h f\nd out :]e
 ,i am--& ,i seem to h lo/ all my       
fri5ds4 ,*>mides is gone1 & ,lucius is  
cruel to me--he tells me t ,i h lo/ my  
spirits & my good looks1 & am tiresome  
company4  ,i look$ at h]--%e 0 pal] &   
frail]-look+ ?an :5 ,i left h]2 & %e 0  
habit$ v diff]5tly1 9 simpl] & grav]    
dress4 ,b %e 0 to my eyes inf9itely m   

beautiful & de>]1 & ,i told h] s4 ,%e   
smil$ at t1 b half te>fully2 & we seat$ 
ourselves on a b5* h>d by1 look+ ov] !  
g>d51 :i* 0 /rangely & luxuriantly      
beautiful4  ,y mu/ take me away ) y at  
once1 %e said4 ,i _c live "h )\t y4 ,i  
?\ght at fir/1 :5 y w5t1 t x 0 r a      
relief n to h y\r grave face at my      
%\ld]1--"h %e took my face 9 h]         
h&s--always rem9d+ me ( some?+ ,i did n 
want1 & ought to h want$--b oh1 h[ ,i   
began to miss y6 & !n ,i got s tir$ (   
?is silly1 lazy place1 & all ! music &  
jokes & complim5ts4 ,b ,i am a wor?less 
creature1 & n good = any?+4 ,i _c "w1 & 
,i hate be+ idle4 ,take me any:]e1 make 
me d some?+1 beat me if y l1 only =ce me
 to be diff]5t f :at ,i am4  ,v well1 ,i
 said4 ,i w give y a good beat+         
pres5tly1 ( c\rse1 b j let me consid]   
:at w hurt y mo/1 silly *ild6  ,t is x1 
%e said4 ,i want to be hurt & bruis$1 & 
%ak5 z my nurse us$ to %ake me1 :5 ,i 0 
a naughty *ild4 ,oh de>1 oh de>1 h[     
wret*$ ,i am6 & poor ,cyn?ia laid h]    

head on my %\ld] & bur/ into te>s4      
,come1 come1 ,i said1 y mu/ n d t--,i   
want my wits ab\t me2 b if y cry1 y w   
simply make a fool ( me--& ?is is no "t 
= love-mak+4  ,!n y d really c>e1 said  
,cyn?ia 9 a quiet] tone4 ,t is all ,i   
want to "k6 ,i want to be ) y1 & see y e
 h\r & e m9ute4 ,i c't help say+ x1 ?\gh
 x is really v undignifi$ = me to be    
mak+ love to y4 ,i did _m silly ?+s on  
e>?1 b nev] any?+ q s feeble z t6  ,i   
felt myself fairly bewild]$ by !        
situation4 ,my psy*ology did n seem to  
help me2 & "h at lea/ 0 some?+ to love &
 rescue4 ,i w say frankly t1 9 my       
/upidity & sup]iority1 ,i did n really  
?9k ( lov+ ,cyn?ia 9 ! way 9 :i* %e ne$$
 to be lov$4 ,%e 0 to me1 ) all my grave
 conc]ns & problems1 z a *>m+ &         
intellig5t *ild1 ) :om ,i c\ld n ev5    
speak ( half ! ?\ghts :i* absorb$ me4 ,s
 ,i j held h] 9 my arms1 & com=t$ h] z  
be/ ,i c\ld2 b :at to d & :]e to be/[ h]
 ,i c\ld n tell4 ,i saw t h] "t to leave
 ! place ( desire _h come1 b :at %e c\ld

 turn to ,i c\ld n conceive4  ,sudd5ly  
,i look$ up1 & saw ,lucius approa*+1    
evid5tly 9 a v angry mood4  ,s ?is is ! 
end ( all our amusem5t8 he said1 z he   
came ne>4 ,y br+ ,cyn?ia "h 9 y\r       
tiresome1 condesc5d+ way1 y live among u
 l an almighty prig1 smil+ gravely at   
our fun1 & !n y g (f :5 x is conv5i5t to
 y\rself2 & !n1 :5 y want a little      
recreation1 y come & sit "h 9 a corn] & 
hug y\r d>l+1 :5 y h nev] giv5 h] a     
?\ght ( late4 ,y "k t is true1 he add$  
m5ac+ly4  ,yes1 ,i said1 x is true6 ,i  
w5t ( my own w1 & ,i h come back ( my   
own w2 & y h all be5 out ( my ?\ghts1   
because ,i h _h mu* "w to d4 ,b :at ( t8
 ,cyn?ia wants me & ,i h come back to   
h]1 & ,i w d :atev] %e desires4 ,x is no
 good ?reat5+ me1 ,lucius--!re is no?+ y
 c d or say t w h ! smalle/ effect on   
me4  ,we w see ab\t t1 said ,lucius4    
,none ( y\r airs "h6 ,we are peaceful   
en\gh :5 we are respectfully & fairly   
treat$1 b we h our own laws1 & no "o    
%all break !m ) impunity4 ,we w h no    

half-he>t$ fools "h4 ,if y come among u 
) y\r damn$ mission>y airs1 y %all h :at
 ,i expect y call ! cr[n ( m>tyrdom4    
,he :i/l$ l\d & %rill4 ,half-a-doz5 m5  
sprang f ! bu%es & flung !mselves ^u me4
 ,i /ruggl$1 b 0 ov]p[]$1 & dragg$ away4
 ,! la/ sight ,i _h 0 ( ,lucius /&+ ) a 
disda9ful smile1 ) ,cyn?ia cl++ to 8    
arm2 & to my horror & disgu/ %e 0 smil+ 
too4     ,,xxvii   ,i _h someh[ nev]    
expect$ to be us$ ) positive viol5ce 9 !
 _w ( spirits1 & lea/ ( all 9 t lazy &  
good-natur$ place4 ,consid]+1 too1 !    
err& on :i* ,i _h come1 n = my own      
conv5i5ce b = ! sake ( ano!r1 my        
treatm5t seem$ to me v h>d4 ,:at 0 /ill 
m humiliat+ 0 ! fact t my _s seem$ j z  
p[]less 9 ! h&s ( ^! ruffians z my body 
w\ld h be5 on e>?4 ,i 0 pu%$1 hu/l$1    
insult$1 hurt4 ,i c\ld h summon$ ,amro? 
to my aid1 b ,i felt too pr\d = t2 yet !
 ?\ght ( ! cragm51 & ! possibility ( !  
second dea?1 did visit my m9d ) dismal  
it]ation4 ,i did n at all desire a fur!r
 dea?2 ,i felt v mu* alive1 & full (    

int]e/ & en]gy4 ,wor/ ( all 0 my s5se t 
,cyn?ia _h gone ov] to ! enemy4 ,i _h   
be5 s l(tily k9d ) h]1 t ,i mu* res5t$  
hav+ appe>$ 9 h] sight z feeble &       
ridicul\s4 ,x is difficult to pres]ve   
any dignity ( demean\r or ?\ght1 ) a    
man's h& at "o's neck & 8 knee 9 "o's   
back3 & ,i felt t ,lucius _h display$ a 
really ,satanical malignity 9 us+ ?is   
p>ticul> means ( degrad+ me 9 ,cyn?ia's 
sight1 & ( rega9+ 8 own lo/ influ5ce4   
,i 0 ?ru/ & driv5 be=e my captors along 
an alley 9 ! g>d51 & :at add$ to my     
discomfiture 0 t a good _m p ran toge!r 
to see u pass1 & wat*$ me ) decid$      
amusem5t4 ,i 0 tak5 f9ally to a little  
pavilion ( /one1 ) heavily b>r$ w9d[s1 &
 a flagg$ m>ble floor4 ,! room 0        
absolutely b>e1 & conta9$ nei!r seat nor
 table4 ,into ?is ,i 0 ?ru/1 ) "s obsc5e
 je/+1 & ! door 0 lock$ ^u me4  ,! "t   
pass$ v heavily4 ,at int]vals ,i he>d   
music bur/ out among ! alleys1 & a good 
_m p came to peep 9 ^u me ) an amus$    
curiosity4 ,i 0 entirely bewild]$ by my 

position1 & did n see :at ,i c\ld h done
 to h incurr$ my puni%m5t4 ,b 9 !       
solit>y h\rs t foll[$ ,i began to h a   
suspicion ( my fault4 ,i _h f\nd myself 
hi!rto ! object ( s mu* att5tion &      
praise1 t ,i _h develop$ a /rong s5se ( 
complac5cy & self-satisfaction4 ,i _h an
 uncom=table suspicion t !re 0 ev5 m    
beh9d1 b ,i c\ld n1 by int]rogat+ my m9d
 & se>*+ out my spirits1 make out cle>ly
 :at x 02 yet ,i felt ,i 0 hav+ a %>p   
lesson2 & ?is made me resolve t ,i w\ld 
ask = no k9d ( assi/ance f ,amro? or any
 o!r p[]1 b t ,i w\ld try to meet :atev]
 fell ^u me ) pati5ce1 & extract ! full 
sav\r ( my exp]i5ce4  ,i d n "k h[ long 
,i sp5t 9 ! dismal cell4 ,i 0 9 "s      
discom=t f ! h&l+ ,i _h receiv$1 & 9    
/ill great] dejection ( m9d4 ,sudd5ly ,i
 he>d foot/eps approa*+4 ,?ree ( my     
captors appe>$1 & told me r\ghly to g ) 
!m4 ,s1 a pitiable figure1 ,i limp$     
along betwe5 two ( !m1 ! ?ird foll[+    
beh9d1 & 0 conduct$ ?r\gh ! c5tral      
piazza ( ! place1 betwe5 two l9es ( p :o

 gave way to ! mo/ undisguis$ m]rim5t1 &
 ev5 %\t$ opprobri\s rem>ks at me1 call+
 me spy & traitor & o!r unpleasant      
names4 ,i c\ld n h believ$ t ^!         
k9d-mann]$ & c\rte\s p]sons c\ld h      
exhibit$1 all ( a sudd51 su* frank      
brutality1 & ,i saw _m ( my own         
acqua9tance among !m1 :o reg>d$ me )    
obvi\s d]ision4  ,i 0 tak5 into a big   
hall1 9 :i* ,i _h (t5 sat to he> a      
conc]t ( music4 ,on ! dais at ! upp] end
 7 seat$ a numb] ( dignifi$ p]sons1 9 a 
semicircle1 ) a v h&some & /ately old   
man 9 ! c5tre on a *air ( /ate1 ^: face 
0 new to me4 ,be=e ?is ,c\rt ,i 0 =mally
 arraign$2 ,i _h to /& alone 9 ! middle 
( ! floor1 9 an op5 space4 ,two ( my    
captors /ood on ea* side ( me2 :ile !   
re/ ( ! c\rt 0 d5sely pack$ ) p1 :o     
greet$ me ) obvi\s ho/ility4  ,:5 sil5ce
 0 procur$1 ! ,presid5t said to me1 ) a 
%[ ( great c\rtesy1 t he c\ld n disguise
 f himself t ! *>ge aga9/ me 0 a s]i\s  
"o2 b t ju/ice w\ld be done to me1 fully
 & c>efully4 ,i %\ld h ample opportunity

 to excuse myself4 ,he !n call$ ^u "o ( 
^? :o sat ) him to /ate ! case briefly1 
& call witnesses & aft] t he promis$ ,i 
might speak = myself4  ,a man rose f "o 
( ! seats1 &1 plead+ some:at            
rhetorically1 said t ! object ( ! great 
community1 to :i* s _m 7 pr\d to belong1
 0 to secure to all ! utmo/ am\nt (     
innoc5t enjoym5t1 & ! mo/ entire peace (
 m9d2 t no pressure 0 put ^u any "o :o  
decid$ to /ay !re1 & to obs]ve ! quiet  
cu/oms ( ! place2 b t x 0 always        
consid]$ a he9\s & ill-dispos$ ?+ to    
attempt to unsettle any "o's            
convictions1 or to attempt1 by us+ undue
 influ5ce1 to br+ ab\t ! migration ( any
 citiz5 to conditions ( :i* little 0    
kn[n1 b :i* !re 0 reason to believe 7   
di/9ctly undesirable4  ,we are1 above   
all1 he said1 a religi\s community2 our 
rites & our c]emonies are privileges op5
 to all2 we compel no "o to att5d !m2   
all t we insi/ is t no "o1 by re/less   
innovation or cynical contempt1 %\ld    
attempt to di/urb ! emotions ( s]5e     

contemplation1 di/+ui%$ c\rtesy1 &      
arti/ic feel+1 = :i* our society has be5
 s long & ju/ly celebrat$4  ,?is 0      
receiv$ ) l\d applause1 indulg5tly *eck$
 by ! ,presid5t4 ,"s witnesses 7 !n     
call$1 :o te/ifi$ to ! indiff]5ce &     
re/lessness :i* ,i _h on _m occasions   
manife/$4 ,x 0 br\ght up aga9/ me t ,i  
_h provok$ a mu*-respect$ memb] ( !     
community1 ,*>mides1 to utt] "s v       
treason\s & unpleasant language1 & t x 0
 believ$ t ! ra% & unhappy /ep1 :i* he  
_h lately tak51 ( leav+ ! place1 _h be5 
entirely or ma9ly ! result ( my         
discont5t$ & ill-advis$ sugge/ion4  ,!n 
,lucius himself1 we>+ an air ( extreme  
gravity & ev5 despond5cy1 0 call$1 & a  
murmur ( sympa?y ran ?r\gh ! audi5ce4   
,lucius1 app>5tly /ruggl+ ) deep        
emotion1 said t he bore me no actual    
ill-w2 t on my fir/ arrival he _h done 8
 be/ to welcome me & make me feel at    
home2 t x 0 probably kn[n to all t ,i _h
 be5 accompani$ by an accompli%$ & ju/ly
 popul> lady1 :om ,i _h op5ly treat$ )  

scanty civility & undisguis$ contempt4  
,t he _h himself1 "u ! laws ( ! place1  
contract$ a close alliance ) my unhappy 
protge1 & t _! union _h be5 duly        
accr$it$2 b t ,i _h lo/ no opportunity (
 attempt+ to und]m9e 8 happ9ess1 & to   
ma9ta9 an un:olesome influ5ce ov] h]4 ,t
 ,i _h at la/ left ! place myself1 ) a  
mo/ uncivil abruptness2 dur+ ! int]val (
 abs5ce my occupations 7 believ$ to h   
be5 ( ! mo/ dubi\s "*3 x 0 m ?an        
suspect$1 inde$1 t ,i _h p5etrat$ to    
places1 ! v "n ( :i* c\ld h>dly be      
m5tion$ )\t %ame & con/]nation4 ,t my   
associates _h be5 p]sons ( ! vile/ "* & 
! mo/ brutal antec$5ts2 & at la/1 feel+ 
9 ne$ ( di/raction1 ,i _h aga9 return$ )
 ! delib]ate int5tion ( s$uc+ 8 unhappy 
p>tn] into accompany+ me to "o or o!r ( 
! ab&on$ places ,i _h visit$4 ,he add$ t
 ,cyn?ia _h be5 s mu* ov]come by h]     
emotion1 & h] natural compassion = an   
old acqua9tance1 t he _h p]suad$ h] n to
 subject h]self to ! pa9ful /ra9 ( an   
appe>ance 9 public2 b t = ?is action he 

?rew himself ^u ! m]cy ( ! ,c\rt1 :o    
w\ld "k t x 0 only dictat$ by *ivalr\s  
motives4  ,at ?is !re 0 subdu$ applause1
 & ,lucius1 aft] add+ a few brok5 words 
to ! effect t he liv$ only = ! ma9t5ance
 ( ord]1 peace1 & happ9ess1 & t he 0    
devot$ he>t & s\l to ! be/ int]e/s ( !  
community1 completely broke d[n1 & 0    
assi/$ f 8 place by fri5ds4  ,! :ole ?+ 
0 s malignant & +5i\s a trave/y ( :at _h
 happ5$1 t ,i 0 entirely at a loss to "k
 :at to say4 ,! ,presid5t1 h[ev]1       
c\rte\sly intimat$ t ?\gh ! case appe>$ 
to pres5t a good _m v unsatisfactory    
features1 yet ,i 0 entirely at lib]ty to
 ju/ify myself if ,i c\ld1 &1 if n1 to  
make submission2 & add$ t ,i %\ld be    
dealt ) z l5i5tly z possible4  ,i       
summon$ up my c\rage z well z ,i might4 
,i began by say+ t ,i claim$ no m ?an ! 
lib]ty ( ?\ght & action :i* ,i knew !   
,c\rt desir$ to conc$e4 ,i said t my    
arrival at ! place 0 my/]i\s ev5 to     
myself1 & t ,i _h simply act$ "u ord]s 9
 accompany+ ,cyn?ia1 & 9 see+ t %e 0    

securely be/[$4 ,i said t ,i _h nev]    
incit$ any rebellion1 or any disob$i5ce 
to laws ( ! scope ( :i* ,i _h nev] be5  
in=m$4 ,t ,i _h inde$ frankly discuss$  
matt]s ( g5]al int]e/ ) any citiz5 :o   
seem$ to desire x2 t ,i _h be5 always   
treat$ ) m>k$ consid]ation & c\rtesy2 & 
t1 z f> z ,i 0 aw>e1 ,i _h always foll[$
 ! same policy myself4 ,i said t ,i 0   
s9c]ely atta*$ to ,cyn?ia1 b add$ t1 )  
all due respect1 ,i c\ld no long]       
consid] myself a memb] ( ! community4 ,i
 _h transf]r$ myself else:]e "u direct  
ord]s1 ) my own entire concurr5ce1 & t  
,i _h s9ce act$ 9 accordance ) ! cu/oms 
& regulations ( ! community to :i* ,i _h
 be5 allott$4 ,i w5t on to say t ,i _h  
return$ "u ! impression t my pres5ce 0  
desir$ by ,cyn?ia1 & t ,i mu/ prote/ )  
all my p[] aga9/ ! treatm5t ,i _h       
receiv$4 ,i _h be5 arre/$ & imprison$ ) 
mu* viol5ce & contumely1 )\t hav+ _h any
 opportunity ( he>+ :at my (f5ce 0      
suppos$ to h be51 or hav+ _h any        
semblance ( a trial1 & t ,i c\ld n      

consid] t my usage _h be5 consi/5t ) !  
!ory ( c\rtesy1 ord]1 or ju/ice s       
eloqu5tly describ$ by ! ,presid5t4  ,?is
 onslaught ( m9e produc$ an obvi\s      
revulsion 9 my fav\r4 ,! ,presid5t      
conf]r$ ha/ily ) 8 colleagues1 & !n said
 t my arre/ _h inde$ be5 made ^u !      
in=mation ( ,lucius1 & ) ! cognisance ( 
! ,c\rt2 b t he s9c]ely regrett$ t ,i _h
 any compla9t ( unh&some usage to make1 
& t ! matt] w\ld be c]ta9ly inquir$     
into4 ,he !n add$ t he und]/ood f my    
words t ,i desir$ to make a complete    
submission1 & t 9 t case ,i %\ld be     
acquitt$ ( any evil int5tions4 ,my fault
 appe>$ to be t ,i _h yield$ too easily 
to ! prompt+s ( an ill-balanc$ &        
speculative disposition1 & t if ,i w\ld 
und]take to di/urb no long] ! peace ( ! 
place1 & to desi/ f all fur!r tamp]+ ) !
 dome/ic happ9ess ( a mu*-respect$ pair1
 ,i %\ld be dis*>g$ ) a caution1 & inde$
 be admitt$ aga9 to ! privileges (      
ord]ly resid5ce4  ,& ,i w und]take to   
say1 he add$1 t ! k9dness & c\rtesy (   

our community w ov]look y\r fault1 &    
make no fur!r ref]5ce to a c\rse (      
conduct :i* appe>s to h be5 misguid$ r  
?an delib]ately malevol5t4 ,we h e      
desire n to di/urb 9 any way !          
tranquillity :i* x is1 above all ?+s1   
our desire to ma9ta94 ,may ,i conclude1 
!n1 t ?is is y\r int5tion8  ,no1 sir1 ,i
 said1 c]ta9ly n6 ,) all due respect to 
! ,c\rt1 ,i _c submit to ! jurisdiction4
 ,! only privilege ,i claim is !        
privilege ( an ali5 & a /rang]1 :o 9 a  
p]fectly peaceful mann]1 & ) no s$iti\s 
int5t1 has re-ent]$ ?is l&1 & has       
!reupon be5 treat$ ) gross & unju/      
viol5ce4 ,i d n = a mom5t conte/ ! "r ( 
?is community to make its own laws &    
regulations1 b ,i d conte/ its "r to    
fett] ! ?\ght & ! lib]ty ( spee* ( all  
:o ent] x4 ,i make no submission4 ,!    
,lady ,cyn?ia came "h "u my protection1 
& if any undue influ5ce has be5 us$1 x  
has be5 us$ by ,lucius1 :om ,i treat$ ) 
a confid5ce he has abus$4 ,& ,i "h      
appeal to a high] p[] & a high] c\rt1   

:i* may inde$ p]mit ?is unhappy         
community to make its own regulations1 b
 w n p]mit any gross violation (        
elem5t>y ju/ice4  ,i 0 c>ri$ away by    
great indignation 9 ! c\rse ( my words1 
:i* _h a v />tl+ effect4 ,a l>ge numb] (
 ! audi5ce left ! hall 9 ha/e4 ,! judge 
grew :ite to ! lips1 :e!r ) ang] or fe> 
,i did n "k1 said a few words to 8      
neighb\r1 & !n ) a great ef=t to control
 himself1 said to me3  ,y put u1 sir1 by
 y\r words1 9 a v pa9ful position4 ,y d 
n "k ! conditions "u :i* we live--t is  
evid5t--& intemp]ate language l y\rs has
 be=e n[ provok$ an invasion ( our peace
 ( a mo/ undesirable k9d4 ,i entreat y  
to calm y\rself1 to accept ! apologies (
 ! ,c\rt = ! incid5tal & inde$          
unju/ifiable viol5ce ) :i* y 7 treat$4  
,if y w only return to y\r own          
community1 ! nature ( :i* ,i w n n[ /ay 
to inquire1 y may be assur$ t y w be    
conduct$ to our gates ) ! utmo/ hon\r4  
,w y pl$ge y\rself z a g5tleman1 &1 z ,i
 believe ,i am "r 9 say+1 z a ,*ri/ian1 

to d ?is8  ,yes1 ,i said1 ^u "o         
condition3 t ,i may h an int]view ) !   
,lady ,cyn?ia1 & t %e may be free to    
accompany me1 if %e wi%es4  ,! ,presid5t
 0 ab\t to reply1 :5 a sudd5 & unlook$-=
 int]ruption occurr$4 ,a man 9 a        
pe>ly-grey dress1 ) a cloak clasp$ )    
gold1 came 9 at ! end ( ! hall1 &       
advanc$ ) rapid /eps & a curi\sly       
unconc]n$ air up ! hall4 ,! judges rose 
9 _! places ) a hurri$ & disconc]t$     
look4 ,! /rang] came up to me1 tapp$ me 
on ! %\ld]1 & bade me pres5tly foll[    
him4 ,!n he turn$ to ! ,presid5t1 & said
 9 a cle>1 p]emptory voice3  ,dissolve !
 ,c\rt6 ,y\r p[]s h be5 grossly &       
insol5tly exce$$4 ,see t no?+ ( ?is sort
 occurs aga96 & !n1 asc5d+ ! dais1 he   
/ruck ! ,presid5t ) 8 op5 h& h>d ^u !   
*eek4  ,! ,presid5t gave a /ifl$ cry &  
/agg]$ 9 8 place1 & !n1 cov]+ 8 face ) 8
 h&s1 w5t out at a door on ! plat=m1    
foll[$ by ! re/ ( ! ,c\ncil 9 ha/e4 ,!n 
! man came d[n aga91 & motion$ me to    
foll[ him4 ,i 0 n prep>$ = :at happ5$4  

,outside 9 ! squ>e 0 a great1 pale1     
sil5t cr[d1 9 ! mo/ obvi\s & dreadful   
excitem5t & con/]nation4 ,we w5t        
rapidly1 9 absolute /illness1 ?r\gh two 
l9es ( p1 :o wat*$ u ) an emotion ,i    
c\ld n q int]pret1 b x 0 some?+ v l     
hatr$4  ,foll[ me quickly1 said my      
guide2 d n look r\nd6 &1 z we w5t1 ,i   
he>d ! cr[d clos+ up 9 a m5ac+ way beh9d
 u4 ,b we walk$ /raight =w>d1 nei!r     
sl[ly nor hurri$ly b at a delib]ate     
pace1 to ! gateway :i* op5$ on ! cliffs4
 ,at ?is po9t ,i saw a confusion 9 !    
cr[d1 z ?\gh "s "o 7 be+ kept back1 & 9 
! =efront ( ! ?rong1 ge/iculat+ & argu+1
 0 ,lucius himself1 ) 8 back to u4 ,j z 
we rea*$ ! gate ,i he>d a cry2 & f !    
cr[d !re ran ,cyn?ia1 ) h] hair unb\nd1 
9 t]ror & fa9tness4 ,our guide op5$ !   
gate1 & motion$ u swiftly ?r\gh1 turn+  
r\nd to face ! cr[d1 :i* n[ ran 9 ^u u4 
,i saw him wave 8 arm2 & !n he came     
quickly ?r\gh ! gate & clos$ x4 ,he     
look$ at u ) a smile4 ,don't be afraid1 
he said2 t 0 a dang]\s bus9ess4 ,b !y _c

 t\* u "h4 ,z he said ! ^w1 !re bur/ f !
 g>d5s beh9d u a /orm ( ! mo/ hide\s &  
horrible cries ,i _h ev] he>d1 l ! h[l+ 
( wild bea/s4 ,cyn?ia clung to me 9     
t]ror1 & ne>ly swoon$ 9 my arms4 ,nev]  
m9d1 said ! guide2 !y are disappo9t$1 & 
no wond]4 ,x 0 a ne> ?+2 b1 poor        
creatures1 !y h no initiative2 _! life  
is n a =tify+ "o2 & besides1 !y w h     
=gott5 all ab\t x to-morr[4 ,rut we _h  
bett] n /op "h4 ,!re is no use 9 fac+   
disagreeable ?+s1 unless "o is oblig$4  
,& he l$ ! way d[n ! valley4  ,:5 we _h 
got a little f>!r (f1 our guide told u  
to sit d[n & re/4 ,cyn?ia 0 /ill v mu*  
fright5$1 spee*less ) excitem5t &       
agitation1 &1 l all impulsive p1        
regrett+ h] decision4 ,i saw t x 0      
useless to say any?+ to h] at pres5t4   
,%e sat we>ily en\gh1 h] eyes clos$1 &  
h] h&s clasp$4 ,our guide look$ at me ) 
a half-smile1 & said3  ,t 0 r an        
unpleasant bus9ess6 ,x is a/oni%+ h[    
excit$ ^? placid & polite p c get if !y 
?9k _! privileges are be+ ?reat5$4 ,b   

really t ,c\rt 0 r too mu*4 ,!y h tri$ x
 be=e ) "s success1 & x is a clev]      
trick4 ,b !y h _h a lesson to-day1 & x w
 n ne$ to be repeat$ = a :ile4  ,y      
arriv$ j at ! "r mom5t1 ,i said1 & ,i   
really _c express h[ grateful ,i am to y
 = y\r help4  ,oh1 he said1 y 7 q safe4 
,x 0 j t t\* ( temp] t sav$ y2 b ,i 0   
h>d by all ! "t1 to see t ?+s did n g   
too f>4  ,may ,i ask1 ,i said1 exactly  
:at !y c\ld h done to me1 & :at _! real 
p[] is8  ,!y h none at all1 he said4 ,!y
 c\ld n really h done any?+ to y1 except
 imprison y4 ,:at helps !m is n _! own  
p[]1 :i* is no?+1 b ! t]ror ( _!        
victims4 ,if y _h n be5 fright5$ :5 y 7 
fir/ attack$1 !y c\ld n h ov]p[]$ y4 ,x 
is all a k9d ( playact+1 :i* !y p]=m )  
rem>kable skill4 ,! ,c\rt 0 really an   
admirable piece ( drama--!y h a great   
gift = repres5tation4  ,d y mean to say1
 ,i said1 t !y 7 actually aw>e t !y _h  
no sort ( p[] to inflict any injury ^u  
me8  ,!y c\ld h made x v disagreeable = 
y1 he said1 if !y _h fright5$ y1 & kept 

y fright5$4 ,z long z t la/$1 y w\ld h  
be5 extremely uncom=table4 ,b z y saw1 !
 mom5t y defi$ !m !y 7 helpless4 ,! "p  
play$ by ,lucius 0 really unp>donable4  
,i am afraid he is a great rascal4      
,cyn?ia fa9tly demurr$ to ?is4 ,nev]    
m9d1 said ! guide soo?+ly1 he has only  
%[n y 8 good side1 ( c\rse2 & ,i don't  
d5y t he is a v clev] & attractive      
fell[4 ,b he makes no progress1 & ,i am 
really afraid t he w h to be transf]r$  
else:]e2 ?\gh !re is inde$ "o hope =    
him4  ,tell me :at t is1 said ,cyn?ia   
fa9tly4  ,i don't ?9k ,i ne$ d t1 said  
our fri5d1 y "k bett] ?an ,i2 & "s day1 
,i ?9k1 :5 y are /rong]1 y w f9d ! way  
to release him4  ,ah1 y don't "k him z  
,i d1 said ,cyn?ia1 & relaps$ into      
sil5ce2 b did n )draw h] h& f m9e4      
,well1 said our guide aft] a mom5t's    
pause1 ,i ?9k ,i h done all ,i c = ! "t 
be+1 & ,i am want$ else:]e4  ,b w y n   
advise me :at to d next8 ,i said4 ,i d n
 see my way cle>4  ,no1 said ! guide r  
drily1 ,i am afraid ,i _c d t4 ,t lies  

outside my prov9ce4 ,^! delicate        
que/ions are n 9 my l9e4 ,i w tell y    
pla9ly :at ,i am4 ,i am j a mess5g]1    
p]haps m l a policeman1 he add$1 smil+1 
?an any?+ else4 ,i j g & appe> :5 ,i am 
want$1 if !re is a r[ or a *ance ( "o4  
,don't misund]/& me6 he said m k9dly4 ,x
 is n f any lack ( int]e/ 9 y or our    
fri5d "h4 ,i %\ld v mu* l to "k :at /ep 
y w take1 b x is simply n my bus9ess3   
our duties "h are v cle>ly def9$1 & ,i c
 j d my job1 & no?+ m4  ,he made a      
c\rte\s salute1 & walk$ (f )\t look+    
back1 leav+ on me ! impression ( a "y   
milit>y (fic]1 p]fectly c\rte\s &       
reliable1 n incl9$ to cultivate 8       
emotions or to wa/e words1 b absolutely 
effective1 c\rage\s1 & dutiful4  ,well1 
,i said to ,cyn?ia ) a %[ ( *e]fulness1 
:at %all we d next8 ,are y feel+ /rong  
en\gh to g on8  ,i am sure ,i don't "k1 
said ,cyn?ia we>ily4 ,don't ask me4 ,i h
 _h a great fright1 & ,i beg9 to wi% ,i 
_h /ay$ beh9d4 ,h[ uncom=table ev]y?+   
is6 ,:y c "o nev] h a mom5t's peace8    

,!re1 %e said to me1 don't be vex$1 ,i  
am n blam+ y2 b ,i hat$ y = n %[+ m     
fight :5 ^? m5 set on y1 & ,i hat$      
,lucius = hav+ done x2 y mu/ =give me6  
,i am sure y only did :at 0 k9d & "r--b 
,i h _h a v try+ "t1 & ,i don't l ^!    
bo!rs4 ,let me alone = a little1 & ,i   
d>esay ,i %all be m s5sible4  ,i sat by 
h] 9 mu* p]plexity1 feel+ s+ul>ly       
helpless & ineffective2 & 9 a mom5t (   
weakness1 n kn[+ :at to d1 ,i wi%$ t    
,amro? 7 ne> me1 to advise me2 & to my  
relief saw him approa*+1 b also realis$ 
9 a fla% t ,i _h act$ wrongly1 & t he 0 
angry1 z ,i _h nev] se5 him be=e4  ,he  
came up to u1 & b5d+ d[n to ,cyn?ia )   
great t5d]ness1 took h] h&1 & said1 ,w y
 /ay "h quietly a little1 ,cyn?ia1 &    
re/8 ,y are p]fectly safe n[1 & no "o w 
come ne> y4 ,we two %all be close at h&2
 b we mu/ h a talk toge!r1 & see :at c  
be done4  ,cyn?ia smil$ & releas$ me4   
,amro? beckon$ me to )draw ) him4 ,:5 we
 _h got out ( e>%ot1 he turn$ ^u me v   
fi]cely1 & said1 ,y h made a great mess 

( ?is bus9ess4  ,i "k x1 ,i said feebly1
 b ,i _c = ! life ( me see :]e ,i 0     
wrong4  ,y 7 wrong f beg9n+ to end1 he  
said4 ,_c y see t1 :atev] ?is place is1 
x is n a s5tim5tal place8 ,x is all ?is 
wret*$ s5tim5t t has done ! mis*ief4    
,come1 he add$1 ,i h an unpleasant task 
be=e me1 to unmask y to y\rself4 ,i     
don't l x1 b ,i mu/ d x4 ,don't make x  
h>d] = me4  ,v good1 ,i said1 r angrily 
too4 ,b all[ me to say ?is fir/4 ,?is is
 a place ( muddle4 ,"o is work$ too h>d1
 & %[n too _m ?+s1 till "o is hopelessly
 confus$4 ,b ,i _h r h y\r criticism    
fir/1 & !n ,i w make m9e4  ,v well6 said
 ,amro? fac+ me1 look+ at me fix$ly ) 8 
blue eyes1 & 8 no/rils a little di/5d$4 
,! mis*ief lies 9 y\r temp]am5t4 ,y are 
precoci\s1 & y are volatile4 ,y h _h    
special opportunities1 & 9 a way y h us$
 !m well1 b y\r head has be5 some:at    
turn$ by y\r successes4 ,y came to t    
place yond]1 ) ,cyn?ia1 ) a s5se (      
sup]iority4 ,y ?\ght y\rself too good = 
x1 & in/ead ( j try+ to see into ! m9ds 

& he>ts ( ! p y met1 y despis$ !m2      
in/ead ( le>n+1 y tri$ to tea*4 ,y took 
a feeble int]e/ 9 ,cyn?ia1 made a pet ( 
h]2 !n1 :5 ,i took y away1 y =got all   
ab\t h]4 ,ev5 ! great ?+s ,i 0 all[$ to 
%[ y did n make y humble4 ,y took !m z a
 complim5t to y\r p[]s4 ,& s :5 y _h y\r
 *ance to g back to help ,cyn?ia1 y     
?\ght out no plan1 y ask$ no advice4 ,y 
w5t d[n 9 a v self-suffici5t mood1      
expect+ t ev]y?+ w\ld be easy4  ,t is n 
true1 ,i said4 ,i 0 v mu* p]plex$4  ,x  
is only too true1 said ,amro?2 y enjoy$ 
y\r p]plexity2 ,i d>esay y call$ x fai? 
to y\rself6 ,x 0 t :i* made y weak4 ,y  
lo/ y\r temp] ) ,lucius1 y made a       
mis]able fight ( x--& ev5 9 prison y    
c\ld n recognise t y 7 9 fault4 ,y did  
bett] at ! trial--,i fully admit t y    
behav$ well !re--b ! fault is 9 ?is1 t  
?is girl gave y h] he>t & h] confid5ce1 
& y despis$ !m4 ,y\r m9d 0 tak5 up ) o!r
 ?+s2 a v little m1 & y w\ld be fit = ! 
intellectual p>adise4 ,!re1 he said1 ,i 
h ne>ly done6 ,y may be angry if y w1 b 

t is ! tru?4 ,y h a wrong idea ( ?is    
place4 ,x is n pla9 sail+ "h4 ,life "h  
is a v s]i\s1 v intricate1 v difficult  
bus9ess4 ,! only complications :i* are  
remov$ are ! complications ( ! body2 b  
"o has anxi\s & try+ responsibilities   
all ! same1 & y h trifl$ ) !m4 ,y mu/ n 
delude y\rself4 ,y h _m good qualities4 
,y h "s c\rage1 mu* +5uity1 ke5 int]e/s1
 & a good deal ( consci5ti\sness2 b y h 
! mak+s ( a dilettante1 ! read9ess to   
delude y\rself t ! p>ticul> little "w y 
are engag$ 9 is excessively & peculi>ly 
important4 ,y h got ! proportion all    
wrong4  ,i _h a feel+ ( int5se ang] &   
bitt]ness at all ?is2 b z he spoke1 !   
scales seem$ to fall f my eyes1 & ,i saw
 t ,amro? 0 "r4 ,i wre/l$ ) myself 9    
sil5ce4  ,pres5tly ,i said1 ,amro?1 ,i  
believe y are "r1 ?\gh ,i ?9k at ?is    
mom5t t y h /at$ all ?is r h>%ly4 ,b ,i 
d see t x c be no pleasure to y to /ate 
x1 ?\gh ,i fe> ,i %all nev] rega9 my    
pleasure 9 y\r company4  ,!re1 said     
,amro?1 t is s5tim5t aga96  ,?is put me 

into a great passion4  ,v well1 ,i said1
 ,i w say no m4 ,p]haps y w j be good   
en\gh to tell me :at ,i am to d )       
,cyn?ia1 & :]e ,i am to g1 & !n ,i w    
tr\ble y no long]4  ,oh1 said ,amro? ) a
 sne]1 ,i h no d\bt y c f9d "s v nice   
semideta*$ villas h]eab\ts4 ,:y n settle
 d[n1 & make ! poor girl a little mote  
wor?y ( y\rself8  ,at ?is ,i turn$ f him
 9 great ang]1 & left him /&+ :]e he 04 
,if ev] ,i hat$ any "o1 ,i hat$ ,amro?  
at t mom5t4 ,i w5t back to ,cyn?ia4  ,i 
h come back to y1 de>1 ,i said4 ,c y    
tru/ me & g ) me8 ,no "o "h seems incl9$
 to help u1 & we mu/ j help ea* o!r4    
,at :i* ,cyn?ia rose & flung h]self into
 my arms4  ,t 0 :at ,i want$ all along1 
%e said1 to feel t ,i c\ld be ( use too4
 ,y w see h[ brave ,i c be4 ,i c g      
any:]e ) y & d any?+1 because ,i ?9k ,i 
h lov$ y all ! "t4  ,& y mu/ =give me1  
,cyn?ia1 ,i said1 z well4 ,= ,i did n "k
 till ?is mom5t t ,i lov$ y1 b ,i "k x  
n[2 & ,i %all love y to ! end4  ,z ,i   
said ^! words ,i turn$1 & saw ,amro?    

smil+ f af>2 !n ) a wave ( ! h& to u1 he
 turn$ & pass$ out ( our sight4         
,,xxviii   ,left to ourselves1 ,cyn?ia &
 ,i sat a:ile 9 sil5ce1 h& 9 h&1 l      
*ildr51 %e look+ anxi\sly at me4 ,our   
talk _h brok5 d[n all possible res]ve   
betwe5 u2 b :at 0 /range to me 0 t ,i   
felt1 n l a lov] ) any ne$ to woo1 b z  
?\gh we two _h long s9ce be5 w$d$1 & _h 
j come to a k ( ea* o!r's he>ts4 ,at la/
 we rose2 & /range & bewild]+ z x all 01
 ,i ?9k ,i 0 p]haps happi] at ?is "t ?an
 at any o!r "t 9 ! l& ( light1 be=e or  
aft]4  ,& let me "h say a ^w ab\t ^!    
/range unions ( s\l t take place 9 t o!r
 l&4 ,!re is !re a :ole range (         
affections1 f c\rte\s tol]ance to int5se
 passion4 ,b !re is a peculi> bond :i*  
spr+s up betwe5 pairs ( p1 n always (   
diff]5t sex1 9 t c\ntry4 ,my relation ) 
,amro? _h no?+ ( t emotion ab\t x4 ,t 0 
simply l a transc5d5tal ess5ce ( p]fect 
fri5d%ip2 b !re 0 a peculi> relation1   
betwe5 pairs ( s\ls1 :i* seems to imply 
"s curi\s duality ( nature1 ( :i* e>?ly 

passion is b a symbol4 ,x is accompani$ 
by an absolute cle>ness ( vision into ! 
inmo/ s\l & be+ ( ! o!r4 ,cyn?ia's m9d 0
 z cle> to me 9 ^? days z a cry/al globe
 might be :i* "o c\ld hold 9 "o's h&1 & 
my m9d 0 z cle> to h]4 ,!re is a s5se   
accompany+ x almo/ ( id5tity1 z if ! o!r
 nature 0 ! exact & p]fect complem5t (  
"o's own2 ,i c expla9 ?is be/ by an     
image4 ,?9k ( a sph]e1 let u say1 (     
alaba/]1 brok5 into two pieces by a bl[1
 & "o piece put away or mislaid4 ,! fir/
 piece1 let u suppose1 /&s 9 its        
accu/om$ place1 & ! own] (t5 ?9ks 9 a   
trivial way ( hav+ x re/or$4 ,"o day1   
turn+ ov] "s lumb]1 he f9ds ! o!r piece1
 & wond]s if x is n ! lo/ fragm5t4 ,he  
takes x ) him1 & sees on apply+ x t !   
fractures correspond exactly1 & t jo9$  
toge!r ! pieces complete ! sph]e4  ,ev5 
s did ,cyn?ia's s\l fit into m9e4 ,b ,i 
grew to und]/& lat] ! words ( !         
,gospel--!y nei!r m>ry nor are giv5 9   
m>riage4 ,^! unions are n p]man5t1 any m
 ?an !y are really p]man5t on e>?4 ,on  

e>?1 ow+ to mat]ial consid]ations su* z 
*ildr5 & prop]ty1 a m>riage is look$ ^u 
z indissoluble4 ,b ?is takes no acc\nt (
 ! developm5t ( s\ls2 & inde$ _m ( !    
unions ( e>?1 ! passion once ov]1 d gr[ 
into a v noble & beautiful fri5d%ip4 ,b 
sometimes1 ev5 on e>?1 x is ! o!r way2 &
 passion once ext9ct1 two natures (t5   
realise _! dissimil>ities r ?an _!      
simil>ities2 & ?is is ! cause ( mu*     
unhapp9ess4 ,b 9 ! o!r l&1 two s\ls may 
develop 9 q diff]5t ways & at a diff]5t 
pace4 ,& !n ?is relation may also come  
quietly & simply to an end1 )\t ! lea/  
res5tm5t or regret1 & is succe$$        
inv>iably by a v t5d] & true fri5d%ip1  
ea* be+ sweetly & s]5ely cont5t ) all t 
has be5 giv5 or receiv$2 & ?is fri5d%ip 
is n %ak5 or frett$1 ev5 if bo? ( !     
lov]s =m new ties ( close intimacy4 ,"s 
natures =m _m ( ^! ties1 "s few1 "s none
 at all4 ,i believe t1 z a matt] ( fact1
 ea* nature has its c\nt]p>t at all     
times1 b does n always succe$ 9 f9d+ x4 
,b ! union1 :5 x comes1 seems to take   

prec$5ce ( all o!r emotions & all o!r   
"w4 ,i did n "k ?is at ! "t2 b ,i _h a  
s5se t my "w 0 = a "t ov]1 because x    
seem$ q pla9 to me t z yet ,cyn?ia 0 n 9
 ! lea/ degree suit$ to ! sort ( "w :i* 
,i _h be5 do+4  ,we walk$ on toge!r = "s
 "t1 9 a happy sil5ce1 ?\gh quiet       
communications ( a bless$ sort pass$    
p]petually betwe5 u )\t any int]*ange ( 
^w4 ,our feet mov$ along ! hillside1    
away f ! crags1 because ,i felt t       
,cyn?ia _h no /r5g? to climb !m2 & ,i   
wond]$ :at our life w\ld be4  ,pres5tly 
a valley op5$ be=e u1 fold+ quietly 9   
among ! hills1 full ( a gold5 haze2 & x 
seem$ to me t our fur!r way lay d[n x4  
,x fell s(tly & securely into a fur!r   
pla91 ! c\ntry be+ q unlike any?+ ,i _h 
z yet se5--a l& ( high & craggy m\nta9s1
 ! l[] p>ts ( !m mu* ov]gr[n ) woods2 ! 
valley itself wid5$ out1 & pass$ g5tly  
among ! hills1 ) "h & !re a lake4 ,dott$
 all ab\t ! m\nta9-bases1 at ! edges ( !
 woods1 7 little :ite h\ses1 /one-wall$ 
& /one-til$1 ) small g>d5s2 & !n ! place

 seem$ to become /rangely famili> &     
homelike2 & ,i became aw>e t ,i 0 com+  
home3 ! same ?\ght occurr$ to ,cyn?ia2 &
 at la/1 :5 we turn$ a corn] ( ! road1 &
 saw ly+ a little back f ! road a small 
h\se1 ) a g>d5 9 front ( x1 %ad$ by a   
gr\p ( sycamores1 we d>t$ =w>ds ) a cry 
( delight to ! home t 0 inde$ our own4  
,! door /ood op5 z ?\gh we 7 c]ta9ly    
expect$4 ,x 0 ! simple/ little place1 j 
a pair ( rooms v r\ghly & pla9ly        
furni%$4 ,& !re we embrac$ ) te>s ( joy4
     ,,xxix   ,! "t t ,i sp5t 9 ! valley
 home ) ,cyn?ia is ! mo/ difficult to   
describe ( all my w&]+s2 because1 inde$1
 !re is no?+ to describe4 ,we 7 always  
toge!r4 ,sometimes we w&]$ high up among
 ! woods1 & came out on ! bleak         
m\nta9-heads4 ,sometimes we sat )9 &    
talk$2 & by a curi\s provision !re 7    
ph5om5a !re t 7 m l *anges ( wea!r1 &   
int]*ange ( day & night1 ?an at any o!r 
place 9 ! heav5ly c\ntry4 ,sometimes !  
:ole valley w\ld be %r\d$ ) mi/s1       
sometimes x w\ld be grey & ov]ca/1      

sometimes ! light 0 cle> & radiant1 b   
?r\gh x all !re beat a pulse ( light &  
d>kness2 & ,i d n "k :i* 0 ! m          
desirable--! h\rs :5 we walk$ 9 ! =e/s1 
) ! w9d mov+ s(tly 9 ! leaves ov]head l 
a fall+ sea1 or ^? calm & sil5t nights  
:5 we seem$ to sleep & dream1 or :51 if 
,i wak$1 ,i c\ld he> ,cyn?ia's brea?    
com+ & go+ ev5ly z ! brea? ( a tir$     
*ild4 ,x seem$ l ! ess5ce ( human       
passion1 ! end t lov]s desire1 & disc]n 
fa9tly beh9d & beyond ! accid5ts ( s5se 
& contact1 l ! s\nd+ ( a sweet *ord1 )\t
 satiety or fev] ( ! s5se4  ,i le>nt _m 
/range & beautiful secrets ( ! human    
he>t 9 ^? days3 :at ! dreams ( womanhood
 are--h[ :olly diff]5t f ! dreams ( man1
 9 :i* !re is always a combative elem5t4
 ,! s\l ( ,cyn?ia 0 l a sil5t cleft     
among ! hills1 :i* waits1 9 its own /ill
 cont5t1 until ! horn ( ! %eph]d w9ds ! 
notes ( a *ord 9 ! valley bel[2 & !n !  
cleft makes answ] & returns an airy e*o1
 bl5d+ ! notes into a h>mony ( dulcet   
utt]ance4 ,& %e too1 ,i d\bt n1 le>nt   

some?+ f my s\l1 :i* 0 eag] & inv5tive  
en\gh1 b re/less & fugitive ( purpose4  
,& !n !re came a fur!r joy to u4 ,t :i* 
is fa!rly & mo!rly 9 ! _w bel[ is n a ?+
 t is lo/ 9 heav52 & j z ! love ( man & 
woman c draw d[n & imprison a s\l 9 a   
body ( fle%1 s 9 heav5 ! de> int5tion ( 
"o s\l to ano!r br+s ab\t a ye>n+1 :i*  
gr[s day by day 9 int5sity1 = "s fur!r  
outlet ( love & c>e4  ,x 0 "o quiet mi/y
 morn+ t1 z we sat toge!r 9 tranquil    
talk1 we he>d falt]+ /eps )9 our g>d54  
,we _h se51 let me say1 v little ( ! o!r
 inhabitants ( our valley4 ,we _h       
sometimes se5 a pair ( figures w&]+ at a
 di/ance1 & we _h ev5 met neighb\rs &   
ex*ang$ a greet+4 ,b ! valley _h no     
social life ( its own1 & no "o ev]      
seem$1 s f> z we knew1 to ent] any o!r  
dwell+1 ?\gh !y met 9 quiet fri5dl9ess4 
,cyn?ia w5t to ! door & op5$ x2 !n %e   
d>t$ out1 &1 j :5 ,i 0 ab\t to foll[1 %e
 return$1 lead+ by ! h& a t9y *ild1 :o  
look$ at u ) an air ( p]fect cont5tm5t &
 simplicity4  ,:]e on e>? has ?is       

en*ant+ baby sprung f8 said ,cyn?ia1    
seat+ ! *ild ^u h] lap1 & beg9n+ to talk
 to x 9 a /rangely un9telligible        
language1 :i* ! *ild appe>$ to und]/&   
p]fectly4  ,i laugh$4 ,out ( our two    
he>ts1 p]haps1 ,i said4 ,at :i* ,cyn?ia 
blu%$1 & said t ,i did n und]/& or c>e =
 *ildr54 ,%e add$ t m5's only idea ab\t 
*ildr5 0 to ?9k h[ mu* !y c\ld tea* !m4 
,yes1 ,i said1 we w beg9 lessons        
to-morr[1 & g on to ! ,lat9 ,gramm> v   
%ortly4  ,at :i* ,cyn?ia fold$ ! *ild 9 
h] arms1 to def5d x1 & reassur$ x 9 a   
s5t5ce :i* is f> too silly to set d[n   
"h4  ,i ?9k t sometimes on e>? ! arrival
 ( a fir/ *ild is a v try+ "t = a w$d$  
pair4 ,! husb& is apt to f9d 8 wife's   
love almo/ )drawn f him1 & to see h]    
n\ri%+ all k9ds ( jeal\sies & vague     
ambitions = h] *ild4 ,pat]nity is apt to
 be a v bewild]$ & (t5 r dramatic       
emotion4 ,b x 0 n s ) u4 ,! *ild seem$ !
 v ?+ we _h be5 ne$+ )\t kn[+ x4 ,x 0 a 
con/ant s\rce ( int]e/ & delight2 & 9   
spite ( ,cyn?ia's attempts to keep x    

ignorant & ev5 fatu\s1 x did develop a v
 *>m+ intellig5ce1 or r1 z ,i soon saw1 
began to p]ceive :at x already knew4 ,x 
soon ov]:elm$ u ) que/ions1 & us$ to    
patt] ab\t ! g>d5 ) me1 air+ all sorts (
 delici\s & absurd fancies4 ,b1 = all t1
 x did seem to make an end ( ! fir/ utt]
 clos5ess ( our love4 ,cyn?ia aft] ?is  
seldom w5t f> afield1 & ,i rang$ ! hills
 & woods alone2 b x 0 all absurdly &    
cont9u\sly happy1 ?\gh ,i began to wond]
 h[ long x c\ld la/1 & :e!r my faculties
 & en]gies1 su* z !y 71 c\ld cont9ue ?us
 unus$4 ,& ,i _h1 too1 9 my m9d t o!r   
sc5e :i* ,i _h beheld1 ( h[ ! boy 0     
)drawn f ! two old p 9 ! o!r valley4 ,0 
x always ?us1 ,i wond]$8 ,0 x s1 t s\ls 
7 drawn upw>ds 9 ceaseless pilgrimage1  
lov+ & pass+ on1 & leav+ 9 ! he>ts ( ^? 
:o /ay$ beh9d a long+ unassuag$1 :i* 0  
pres5tly to draw !m onw>ds f ! peace :i*
 !y lov$ p]haps too well8     ,,xxx   ,!
 s]5e life came all to an end v sudd5ly1
 & ) no w>n+4 ,"o day ,i _h be5 sitt+ ) 
,cyn?ia1 & ! *ild 0 play+ on ! floor )  

"s little ?+s--/ones1 bits ( /icks1     
nuts--:i* x _h collect$4 ,x 0 a my/]i\s 
game too1 accompani$ ) mu* impressive   
talk & ge/iculations1 mu* emphatic      
lectur+ ( recalcitrant pebbles1 )       
int]ludes ( unacc\ntable laught]4 ,we _h
 be5 wat*+ ! *ild1 :5 ,cyn?ia lean$     
across to me & said3  ,!re is some?+ 9  
y\r m9d1 de>1 :i* ,i _c q see into4 ,x  
has be5 !re = a long "t1 & ,i h n lik$  
to ask y ab\t x4 ,won't y tell me :at x 
is8  ,yes1 ( c\rse1 ,i said2 ,i w tell y
 any?+ ,i c4  ,x has no?+ to d ) me1    
said ,cyn?ia1 nor ) ! *ild2 x is ab\t   
y\rself1 ,i ?9k2 & x is n altoge!r a    
happy ?\ght4  ,x is n unhappy1 ,i said1 
because ,i am v happy & v well-cont5t4  
,x is j ?is1 ,i ?9k4 ,y "k1 don't y1 h[ 
,i 0 be+ employ$1 be=e ,i came back1    
,god be prais$1 to f9d y8 ,i 0 be+      
tra9$1 v c>efully & elaborately tra9$1  
,i won't say to help p1 b to be ( use 9 
a way4 ,well1 ,i h be5 wond]+ :y all t 0
 susp5d$ & cut %ort1 j :5 ,i seem$ to be
 f9i%+ my tra9+4 ,i h be5 mu* happi] "h 

?an ,i ev] 0 be=e1 ( c\rse4 ,inde$ ,i h 
be5 s happy t ,i h sometimes ?\ght x    
almo/ wrong t any "o %\ld h s mu* to    
enjoy4 ,b ,i am puzzl$1 because ! o!r "w
 seems ?r[n away4 ,if y wond] :e!r ,i   
want to leave our life "h & g back to ! 
o!r1 ( c\rse ,i d n2 b ,i h felt idle1 &
 l a boy turn$ d[n f a high class at    
s*ool to a l[ "o4  ,t is n v complim5t>y
 to me6 said ,cyn?ia1 laugh+4 ,suppose  
we say a boy :o has be5 work+ too h>d = 
8 heal?1 & has be5 giv5 a long holiday8 
,yes1 ,i said1 t is bett]4 ,x is z if a 
cl]k 0 told t he ne$ n att5d 8 (fice1 b 
/ay at home2 & ?\gh x is pleasant en\gh1
 he feels z if he ought to be at 8 "w1 t
 he appreciates 8 home all ! m :5 he c't
 sit read+ ! pap] all ! morn+1 & t he   
does n love 8 home less1 b r m1 because 
he is away all ! day4  ,yes1 said       
,cyn?ia1 t is s5sible en\gh2 & ,i am    
amaz$ sometimes t y c be s good & pati5t
 ab\t x all--s cont5t to be s mu* ) me &
 baby "h2 b ,i don't ?9k x is q--:at    
%all ,i say8--q heal?y ei!r6  ,well1 ,i 

said1 ,i h no wi% to *ange2 & "h1 ,i am 
glad to ?9k1 !re is nev] any d\bt ab\t  
:at "o is meant to d4  ,& s ! subject   
dropp$4  ,h[ little ,i ?\ght !n t ?is 0 
to be ! end ( ! old sc5e1 & t ! curta9 0
 to draw up s sudd5ly ^u a new "o4  ,b !
 foll[+ morn+ ,i _h be5 w&]+ cont5t$ly  
en\gh 9 ! wood1 wat*+ ! %afts ( light   
/rike 9 among ! trees1 ^u ! glitt]+     
fronds ( ! f]ns1 & ?9k+ idly ( all my   
/range exp]i5ces4 ,i came home1 & to my 
surprise1 z ,i came to ! door1 ,i he>d  
talk go+ on inside4 ,i w5t ha/ily 91 &  
saw t ,cyn?ia 0 n alone4 ,%e 0 sitt+1   
look+ v grave & s]i\s1 & wond]fully     
beautiful--h] beauty _h gr[n & increas$ 
9 a m>vell\s way ( late4 ,& !re 7 two   
m51 "o sitt+ 9 a *air ne> h] & reg>d+ h]
 ) a look ( love2 x 0 ,lucius2 & ,i saw 
at a glance t he 0 /rangely *ang$4 ,he  
_h ! same spirit$ & mir?ful look z (    
old1 b !re 0 some?+ !re :i* ,i _h nev]  
se5 be=e--! look ( a man :o _h "w ( 8   
own1 & _h le>n$ some?+ ( ! p]plexity &  
suff]+ ( responsibility4 ,! o!r 0       

,amro?1 :o 0 look+ at ! two ) an air (  
irrepressible amusem5t4 ,:5 ,i ent]$1   
,lucius rose1 & ,amro? said to me3  ,"h 
,i am aga91 y see1 & wond]+ :e!r y c    
rega9 ! pleasure y once 7 k9d en\gh to  
take 9 my company8  ,:at nons5se6 ,i    
said r %amefac$ly4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i blu%$ 9 
secret to ?9k ( t awful rem>k4 ,b ,i 0 r
 h>ri$1 y mu/ admit4  ,amro? came across
 to me & put 8 arm ?r\gh m9e4  ,i =give 
y1 he said1 & ,i w admit t ,i 0 v       
provok+2 b ?+s 7 9 a mess1 &1 besides1 x
 0 v inconv5i5t = me to be call$ away at
 t mom5t f my job6  ,b ,lucius came up  
to me & said3  ,i h come to apologise to
 y4 ,my behavi\r 0 hide\s & horrible4 ,i
 won't make any excuses1 & ,i don't     
suppose y c ev] =get :at ,i did4 ,i 0   
utt]ly & entirely 9 ! wrong4  ,?ank y1  
,lucius1 ,i said4 ,b please say no m    
ab\t x4 ,my own behavi\r on t occasion 0
 infam\s too4 ,& really we ne$ n g back 
on all t4 ,! :ole affair has become q an
 agreeable rem9isc5ce4 ,x is a pleasure1
 :5 x is all ov]1 to h be5 ?or\ghly &   

:olesomely %[n up1 & to discov] t "o has
 be5 a pomp\s & priggi% ass4 ,& y &     
,amro? betwe5 y did me t bless$ turn4 ,i
 am n q sure :i* ( y ,i hat$ mo/4 ,b ,i 
may say "o ?+1 & t is t ,i am he>tily   
glad to see y h left ! l& ( delight4  ,x
 0 a t$i\s place really1 said ,lucius1 b
 "o felt b\nd 9 hon\r to make ! be/ ( x4
 ,b inde$ aft] t day x 0 horrible4 ,& ,i
 we>i$ = a sight ( ,cyn?ia6 ,b y seem to
 h done v well = y\rselves "h4 ,may ,i  
v5ture to say frankly h[ well %e is     
look+1 & y too8 ,b ,i am n go+ to       
int]rupt y4 ,i h got my billet1 ,i am   
?ankful to say4 ,x is n a v exalt$ "o1 b
 x is bett] ?an ,i des]ve2 & ,i %all try
 to make up = wa/$ "t4  ,he>1 he>6 said 
,amro?2 a v cr$itable s5tim5t1 to be    
sure6  ,lucius smil$ & blu%$4 ,!n he    
said3  ,i nev] 0 mu* ( a h& at express+ 
myself correctly2 b y "k :at ,i mean4   
,don't take ! w9d out ( my sails6  ,& !n
 ,amro? turn$ to me1 & said sudd5ly3  ,&
 n[ ,i h some?+ else to tell y1 & n     
:olly good news2 s ,i w j say x at once1

 )\t beat+ ab\t ! bu%4 ,y are to come ) 
u too4  ,cyn?ia look$ up sudd5ly ) a    
glance ( pale inquiry4 ,amro? took h]   
h&4  ,no1 de> *ild1 he said1 y are n to 
accompany him4 ,y mu/ /ay "h a:ile1     
until ! *ild is gr[n4 ,b don't look l t6
 ,!re is no su* ?+ z sep>ation "h1 or   
any:]e4 ,don't make x h>d] = u all4 ,x  
is unpleasant ( c\rse2 b1 good heav5s1  
:at w\ld become ( u all if x 7 n = t6   
,h[ dull we %\ld be )\t suff]+6  ,yes1  
yes1 said ,cyn?ia1 ,i "k--& ,i w say    
no?+ aga9/ x4 ,b-- & %e bur/ into te>s4 
,come1 come1 said ,amro? *e]fully1 we   
mu/ n g back to ! old days1 & behave z  
if !re 7 p>t+s & fun]als4 ,i w give y   
five m9utes alone to say good-bye4      
,lucius1 we mu/ />t1 &1 turn+ to me1 he 
said1 ,meet u 9 five m9utes by !        
oak-tree 9 ! road4  ,!y w5t out1 ,lucius
 kiss+ ,cyn?ia's h& 9 sil5ce4  ,cyn?ia  
came up to me & put h] arms r\nd my neck
 & h] *eek to m9e4 ,we sobb$1 ,i fe>1 l 
two *ildr54  ,don't =get me1 de>e/1 %e  
said4  ,my d>l+1 :at a ^w6 ,i said4     

,oh1 h[ happy we h be5 toge!r6 %e said4 
,yes1 & %all be happi] /ill1 ,i said4   
,& !n ) m words & signs ( love1 too     
sacr$ ev5 to be writt5 d[n1 we p>t$4 ,x 
0 ov]4 ,i look$ back once1 & saw my d>l+
 ga!r ! *ild to h] he>t1 & look up once 
m at me4 ,!n ,i clos$ ! door2 some?+    
seem$ to surge up 9 my he>t & ov]:elm   
me2 & !n ! r+ on my f+] s5t a %>p pang  
?r\gh my :ole frame1 :i* recall$ me to  
myself4 ,& ,i say x ) all ! /r5g? ( my  
_s1 ,i saw h[ joyful a ?+ x 0 to suff] &
 grieve4 ,i came d[n to ! oak4 ,! two 7 
wait+ 9 sil5ce1 & ,lucius seem$ to be 9 
te>s4 ,amro? put 8 arm ?r\gh m9e4       
,come1 bro!r1 he said1 t 0 a bad        
bus9ess2 ,i won't pret5d o!rwise2 b ^!  
?+s _h bett] come swiftly4  ,yes1 said  
,lucius1 b x is a cruel affair1 & ,i c't
 say o!rwise4 ,:y _c ,god leave u alone8
  ,lucius1 said ,amro? v gravely1 "h y  
may say & ?9k z y w--& ! ?\ghts ( ! he>t
 are be/ utt]$4 ,b "o mu/ n blaspheme4  
,no1 no1 said ,lucius1 ,i 0 wrong4 ,i   
ought n to h spok5 s4 ,& inde$ ,i "k 9  

my he>t t someh[1 f> (f1 x is well4 ,b  
,i 0 ?9k+1 he said1 turn+ to me1 &      
grasp+ my h& 9 bo? ( 8 own1 n ( y1 b (  
,cyn?ia4 ,i am glad ) all my he>t t y   
took h] f me1 & h made h] happy4 ,b :at 
mis]able creatures we all are2 & h[ mu* 
m mis]able we %\ld be if we 7 n         
mis]able6  ,& !n we />t$4 ,x 0 a dre>y  
h\r t1 full ( deep & gnaw+ pa94 ,i      
pictur$ to myself ,cyn?ia at e mom5t1   
:at %e 0 do+ & ?9k+2 h[ swiftly ! good  
days _h fl[n2 h[ p]fectly happy ,i _h   
be52 & s my wret*$ sil5t rev]ie w5t on4 
,i mu/ say1 said ,amro? at l5g?1 break+ 
a dismal sil5ce1 t ?is is v t$i\s4 ,c't 
y take "s int]e/8 ,i h v disagreeable   
?+s to d1 b t is no reason :y ,i %\ld be
 bor$ z well6 ,& he !n set himself to   
talk ) mu* ze/ ( all my old fri5ds &    
companions1 tell+ me h[ ea* 0 f>+4      
,*>mides1 x seem$1 _h become a v        
accompli%$ ar*itect & design]2 ,philip 0
 a tea*] at ! ,college4 ,& he w5t on    
until1 9 spite ( my heav9ess1 ,i felt ! 
:ole ( life beg9n+ to wid5 & vibrate all

 ab\t me1 & a s5se almo/ ( %ame creep+  
into my m9d t ,i _h become s oblivi\s ( 
all ! o!r fri5d%ips & relations ,i _h   
=m$4 ,i =c$ myself to talk & to ask     
que/ions1 & f\nd myself walk+ m briskly4
 ,x 0 n v long be=e we p>t$ ) ,lucius4  
,he 0 left at ! doors ( a great b>rack-l
 l build+1 & ,amro? told me he 0 to be  
employ$ z an (fic]1 v mu* 9 ! same way z
 ! "y man :o 0 s5t to conduct me away f 
! trial2 & ,i felt :at a good (fic]     
,lucius w\ld make--sm>t1 prompt1 polite1
 & n 9 ! lea/ s5tim5tal4  ,s we w5t on  
toge!r r gloomily2 & !n ,amro? let me   
look = a little deep into 8 he>t2 & ,i  
saw t x 0 fill$ ) a k9d ( noble pity =  
me 9 my suff]+2 b beh9d ! pity lay t    
blissful c]ta9ty :i* made ,amro? s      
light-he>t$1 t x 0 j s1 ?r\gh suff]+1 t 
"o became wise2 & he c\ld no m ?9k ( x z
 irksome or sad ?an a jolly und]graduate
 ?9ks ( ! tra9+ = a race or ! r[+ 9 !   
race z pa9ful1 b takes x all ) a k9d (  
high-he>t$ ze/1 & f9ds ev5 ! n]v\sness  
an excit+ ?+1 life liv$ at high pressure

 9 a cr[d$ h\r4     ,,xxxi   ,& ?us we  
came ourselves to a new place1 ?\gh ,i  
took b little note ( all we pass$1 = my 
m9d 0 b5t inw>d ^u itself & ^u ,cyn?ia4 
,! place 0 a great solid /one build+1 9 
_m c\rts1 ) f9e tree-%ad$ fields all    
ab\t2 a s*ool1 x seem$ to me1 ) boys &  
girls go+ 9 & out1 play+ games toge!r4  
,amro? told me t *ildr5 7 be/[$ "h :o _h
 be5 ( naturally f9e & frank            
dispositions1 b :o _h liv$ _! life on   
e>? "u f\l & cramp$ conditions1 by :i*  
!y _h be5 frett$ r ?an ta9t$4 ,x seem$ a
 v happy & busy place4 ,amro? took me   
into a great room t seem$ a sort (      
libr>y or common-room4 ,!re 0 no "o !re1
 & ,i 0 glad to sit & re/2 :5 sudd5ly ! 
door op5$1 & a man came 9 ) out/ret*$   
h&s & a smile ( welcome4 ,i look$ up1 & 
x 0 none b ! olde/ & de>e/ fri5d ( my   
la/ life1 :o _h di$ be=e me4 ,he _h be5 
a tea*]1 a man ( ! simple/ & mo/        
guileless life1 ^: :ole en]gy & delight 
0 giv5 to tea*+ & lov+ ! "y4 ,! surpris+
 ?+ ab\t him _h always be5 t he c\ld    

meet "o1 aft] a long sil5ce or a        
susp5sion ( int]c\rse1 z simply & easily
 z if "o _h b left him ! day be=e2 & x 0
 j ! same "h4 ,!re 0 no effusiv5ess (   
greet+--we j fell at once into ! old    
famili> talk4  ,y are j ! same1 ,i said 
to him1 look+ at ! burly figure1 ! big1 
almo/ clumsy1 head1 & ! irradiat+ smile4
 ,8 great *>m _h always be5 an entire   
unworldl9ess & abs5ce ( ambition4  ,he  
smil$ at ?is & said3  ,yes1 ,i am afraid
 ,i am too easy-go+4 ,he _h nev] c>$ to 
talk ab\t himself1 & n[ he said1 ,well1 
yes1 ,i g along 9 my old prosy way4 ,x  
is j l ! old s*ooldays1 ) half !        
difficulties gone4 ,( c\rse ! *ildr5 are
 n always good1 b t makes x ! m amus+2 &
 "o c see mu* m easily :at !y are ?9k+ (
 & dream+ ab\t4  ,i f\nd myself tell+   
him my adv5tures1 :i* he he>d ) ! same  
quiet att5tion & ,i 0 sure t he w\ld    
nev] =get a s+le po9t--he nev] =got     
any?+ 9 ! old days4  ,yes1 he said at ! 
end1 t's a wond]ful /ory4 ,y always _h !
 tr\ble ( ! adv5tures1 & ,i _h ! fun (  

he>+ !m4  ,he ask$ me :at ,i 0 n[ go+ to
 d1 & ,i said t ,i _h n ! lea/ idea4    
,oh1 t w be all "r1 he said4  ,x 0 all s
 com=table & simple1 s obvi\s inde$1 t  
,i laugh$ to ?9k ( ! bitt] & mis]able   
rev]ies ,i _h indulg$ 9 :5 he 0 tak5 f  
me1 & :5 ! /ay ( my life seem$ gone4 ,! 
:ole incid5t seem$ to give me back a t\*
 ( ! s]5ity :i* ,i _h lo/1 & ,i saw h[  
beautifully ?is joy ( meet+ _h be5      
plann$ = me1 :5 ,i want$ x mo/4         
,pres5tly he said t he mu/ g (f = a     
lesson1 & ask$ me to come ) him & see ! 
*ildr54 ,we w5t into a big class-room1  
:]e "s boys & girls 7 assembl+4 ,"h he 0
 exactly ! same z ev]2 no s5tim5t1 b j a
 k9d ( bluff pat]nal k9dness4 ,! lesson 
0 mo/ in=mal--a good deal ( que/ion+ &  
answ]+2 x 0 a biographical lecture1 b   
devot$1 ,i saw1 9 a simple way1 to trac+
 ! developm5t ( ! h]o's "*4 ,:at made   
him d t8 0 a con/ant "q4 ,! answ]s 7 mo/
 +5i\s & extraord9>ily lively2 b ! ord] 
0 p]fect4 ,at ! end he call$ up two or  
?ree *ildr5 :o _h %[n "s impati5ce or   

jeal\sy 9 ! lesson1 & said a few        
half-humor\s words to !m1 ) an air (    
affectionate int]e/4  ,!y are jolly     
little creatures1 he said :5 !y _h all  
gone out4  ,yes1 ,i said1 ) a sigh1 ,i d
 inde$ envy y4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld be set to 
some?+ ( ! k9d4  ,oh1 no1 y don't1 he   
said2 ?is is too simple = y6 ,y want    
some?+ m arti/ic & m psy*ological4 ,?is 
w\ld bore y to ext9ction4  ,we walk$ all
 r\nd ! place1 saw ! games go+ on1 & 7  
pres5tly jo9$ by ,amro?1 :o seem$ to be 
on t]ms ( old acqua9tance%ip ) my fri5d4
 ,i 0 surpris$ at ?is1 & he said3  ,:y1 
yes1 ,amro? _h ! pleasure ( br++ me "h  
too4 ,?+s are done "h 9 gr\ps1 y "k2 &  
,amro? kn[s all ab\t our lot4 ,x is v   
well organis$1 mu* bett] ?an "o p]ceives
 at fir/4 ,y rememb] h[ y & ,i drift$ to
 s*ool toge!r1 & ! set ( boys we f\nd   
ourselves )--my ^w1 :at "y ruffians "s (
 u 76 ,well1 ( c\rse all t _h be5       
plann$1 ?\gh we did n "k x4  ,:at6 said 
,i2 ! evil z well z ! good8  ,! two     
look$ at ea* o!r & smil$4  ,t is n a v  

real di/9ction1 said ,amro?4 ,( c\rse ! 
poor bodies got 9 ! way1 z always2 !re 0
 "s fizz+ & "s precipitation1 z !y say 9
 *emi/ry4 ,b y ea* ( y gave & receiv$ j 
:at y 7 meant to give & receive2 ?\gh ^!
 are complicat$ matt]s1 l ! high]       
ma!matics2 & we mu/ n talk ( !m to-day4 
,if "o c escape ! be+ %ock$ at ?+s & yet
 be unta9t$ by !m1 &1 on ! o!r h&1 if "o
 c avoid pomposity & yet le>n           
self-respect1 t is en\gh4 ,b y are tir$ 
to-day1 & ,i want y j to re/ & be       
refre%$4  ,pres5tly ,amro? ask$ me if ,i
 %\ld l to /ay !re a:ile1 & ,i mo/      
will+ly cons5t$4  ,y want some?+ to d1  
he said1 & y %all h "s light employm5t4 
,t same day1 be=e ,amro? left me1 ,i _h 
a curi\s talk ) him4  ,i said to him3   
,let me ask y "o "q4 ,i _h always _h a  
sort ( hope t :5 ,i came to ! l& (      
spirits1 ,i %\ld h a *ance ( see+ & he>+
 some?+ ( "s ( ! great s\ls ( e>?4 ,i _h
 dimly imag9$ a sort ( reception1 :]e "o
 c\ld w&] ab\t & li/5 to ! talk ( ! m5  
"o _h admir$ & long$ to see--,plato1 let

 me say1 & ,%akespe>e1 ,walt] ,scott1 & 
,%elley--"s ( ! immortals4 ,b ,i don't  
seem to h se5 any?+ ( !m--only j ord9>y 
& simple p4  ,amro? laugh$4  ,y d say ! 
mo/ extraord9>ily +5u\s ?+s1 he said4 ,9
 ! fir/ place1 ( c\rse1 we h q a diff]5t
 scale ( values "h4 ,p d n take rank by 
_! accompli%m5ts1 b by _! p[] ( lov+4   
,_m ( ! great m5 ( e>?--& ?is is        
p>ticul>ly ! case ) writ]s & arti/s--are
 absolutely no?+ "h4 ,!y _h1 x is true1 
a f9e & delicate bra91 on :i* !y play$ )
 great skill2 b half ! arti/s ( ! _w are
 great z arti/s1 simply because !y d n  
c>e4 ,!y p]ceive & !y express2 b !y w\ld
 n h ! he>t to d x at all1 if !y really 
c>$4 ,"s ( !m1 no d\bt1 7 m5 ( great    
he>ts1 & !y h _! place & "w4 ,b to claim
 to see all ! highe/ spirits toge!r is z
 absurd z if y call$ on a doctor 9      
,london at elev5 o'clock & expect$ to   
meet all ! great physicians at 8 h\se1  
int5t on g5]al conv]sation4 ,"s ( !     
great p1 inde$1 y h met1 & !y 7 v simple
 p]sons on e>?4 ,! greate/ p]son y h    

hi!rto se5 0 a butl] on e>?--! ma/] (   
y\r ,college4 ,& if x does n %ock y\r   
ari/ocratic susceptibilities too mu*1 ! 
,presid5t ( ?is place kept a small %op 9
 a c\ntry village4 ,b "o ( ! tea*]s "h 0
 actually a m>quis 9 ! _w6 ,does t      
uplift y8 ,he tea*es ! little girls h[  
to play cricket1 & he is a v good danc]4
 ,p]haps y w\ld l to be introduc$ to    
him8  ,don't treat me z a *ild1 ,i said1
 r petti%ly4  ,no1 no1 said ,amro?1 x   
isn't t4 ,b y are "o ( ^? impressible p2
 & !y always f9d x h>d] to dis5tangle   
!mselves f ! old ideas4  ,i sp5t a long 
& happy "t 9 ! s*ool4 ,i 0 giv5 a little
 tea*+ to d1 & f\nd x p]fectly en*ant+4 
,imag9e *ildr5 ) ev]y?+ gre$y & s5sual  
gone1 ) none ( ! crossness or           
spitefulness t comes ( fatigue or       
pressure1 b ) all ! int]e/+ passions (  
humanity1 admiration1 ke5ness1          
curiosity1 & ev5 jeal\sy1 emulation1 &  
ang]1 all alive & active 9 !m4 ,!y 7 n  
angelic *ildr5 at all1 nei!r meek nor   
mild4 ,b !y 7 g5]\s & affectionate1 & x 

0 easy to evoke ^! feel+s4 ,! "o ?+     
abs5t f ! :ole place 0 any t\* (        
s5tim5tality1 :i* arises f natural      
affections suppress$ into a giggl+ k9d (
 secrecy4 ,!y express$ affection l\dly &
 frankly1 j z !y express$ indignation & 
annoyance4 ,all ! :ile ,i kept ,cyn?ia 9
 my he>t2 %e 0 ev] be=e me 9 a ?\s&     
sweet po/ures & ) innum]able glances4 ,b
 ,i saw mu* ( my /urdy & :olesome-m9d$  
old fri5d2 & ! sore pa9 ( p>t+ fad$ away
 out ( my he>t1 & left me ) no?+ b !    
pure/ & deepe/ love1 :i* help$ me 9 all 
,i did or said1 & made me pati5t &      
t5d]-he>t$4 ,& ?us ! p]iod sp$ n        
unhappily away1 ?\gh ,i _h my times (   
agony & despair4     ,,xxxii   ,i became
 aw>e at ?is "t1 v gradually & ev5      
solemnly1 t "s crisis ( my life 0       
approa*+4 ,h[ ! monition came to me ,i  
h>dly "k2 ,i felt l a man w&]+ 9 ! d>k1 
) eyes /ra9$ & h&s out/ret*$1 :o is     
dimly aw>e ( "s great object1 tree or   
hay/ack or h\se1 loom+ up ahead ( him1  
:i* he _c directly see1 b ( :i* he is   

yet consci\s by ! vibration ( "s six?   
s5se4 ,! wond] came by degrees to       
ov]%ad[ my ?\ghts ) a s5se ( expectant  
awe1 & to p]meate all ! urg5t conc]ns ( 
my life ) its %ad[y pres5ce4 ,ev5 !     
?\ght ( ,cyn?ia1 :o inde$ 0 always 9 my 
m9d1 became obscur$ ) ! dimness ( ?is   
obscure anticipation4  ,"o day ,amro?   
/ood beside me z ,i work$2 he 0 v grave 
& s]i\s1 b ) a joyful k9d ( c\rage ab\t 
him4 ,i pu%$ my books & pap]s away1 &   
rose to greet him1 say+                 
half-unconsci\sly1 & j putt+ my ?\ght   
into words3  ,s x has come6  ,yes1 said 
,amro?1 x has come6 ,i h kn[n x = "s    
little "t1 & my ?\ght has m+l$ ) y\rs4  
,i tell y frankly t ,i did n q expect x2
 b "o nev] kn[s "h4 ,y mu/ come ) me at 
once4 ,y are to see ! la/ my/]y2 & ?\gh 
,i am glad = y\r sake t x is come1 yet  
,i tremble = y1 because x is unlike any 
o!r exp]i5ce2 & "o c nev] be ! same     
aga94  ,i felt myself oppress$ by a     
sudd5 t]ror ( d>kness1 b1 half to       
reassure myself1 ,i answ]$ lightly3  ,b 

x does n seem to h affect$ y1 ,amro?6 ,y
 are always light-he>t$ & *e]ful1 & n   
ov]%ad[$ by any d>k or gloomy ?\ghts4   
,yes1 yes1 said ,amro? hurri$ly4 ,x is  
easy en\gh1 :5 x is once ov]4 ,no?+ t is
 beh9d "o matt]s2 b ?is is a ?+ t "o _c 
je/ ab\t4 ,( c\rse !re is no?+ to fe>2 b
 to be br\ght face to face ) ! greate/  
?+ 9 ! _w is n a light matt]4 ,let me   
say ?is4 ,i am to be ) y all ?r\gh2 & my
 only ^w to y is t y mu/ d exactly :at  
,i tell y1 & at once1 )\t any d\bt+ or  
fl9*+4 ,!n all w be well6 ,b we mu/ n   
delay4 ,come at once1 & keep y\r m9d    
p]fectly quiet4  ,we w5t out toge!r2 &  
!re seem$ to h fall5 a s5se ( gravity   
ov] all :om we met4 ,my companions did n
 speak to me z we walk$ out1 b /ood     
aside to see me pass1 & ev5 look$ at me1
 ,i ?\ght1 ) an air half ( rev]5ce1 half
 ( a sort ( natural compassion1 z "o    
might wat* a de> fri5d g to be tri$ = 8 
life4  ,we came out ( ! door1 & f\nd1 x 
seem$ to me1 an unusual /illness        
ev]y:]e4 ,! w9d1 :i* (t5 blew high on ! 

b>e moor1 _h dropp$4 ,we took a pa?1 :i*
 ,i _h nev] se51 :i* /ruck (f ov] !     
hills4 ,we walk$ = a long "t1 almo/ 9   
sil5ce4 ,b ,i c\ld n be> ! /range       
curiosity :i* 0 /ra9+ at my he>t1 & ,i  
said pres5tly to ,amro?3  ,give me "s   
idea :at ,i am to see or to endure4 ,is 
x "s judgm5t :i* ,i am to face1 or am ,i
 to suff] pa98 ,i w\ld r "k ! be/ & !   
wor/ ( x4  ,x is ev]y?+1 said ,amro?2 y 
are to see ,god4 ,all is compris$ 9 t4  
,8 words fell ) a %ock+ di/9ctness 9 !  
calm air1 & ,i felt my he>t & limbs fail
 me1 & a dizz9ess came ov] my m9d4      
,h>dly kn[+ :at ,i did or said1 ,i came 
to a /op4  ,b ,i did n "k t x 0         
possible1 ,i said4 ,i ?\ght t ,god 0    
ev]y:]e--)9 u1 ab\t u1 beyond u8 ,h[ c t
 be8  ,yes1 said ,amro?1 ,god is inde$  
ev]y:]e1 & no place conta9s ,him2 nei!r 
c any ( u see or compreh5d ,him4 ,i _c  
expla9 x2 b !re is a c5tre1 s to speak1 
ne> to :i* ! unclean & ! evil _c come1  
:]e ! fire ( ,8 ?\ght burns ! hotte/4444
 ,oh1 he said1 nei!r ^w nor ?\ght is (  

any use "h2 y w see :at y w see6        
,p]haps ! h>de/ ?+ ,i _h to be> 9 all my
 w&]+s 0 ! sight ( ,amro?'s own fe>4 ,x 
0 unmi/akable4 ,8 _s seem$ prep>$ = x1  
p]fectly c\rage\s & s9c]e z x 02 b !re 0
 a %udd]+ awe ^u him1 = all t1 :i*      
infect$ me ) an extremity ( t]ror4 ,0 x 
t he ?\ght me unequal to ! exp]i5ce8 ,i 
c\ld n tell4 ,b we walk$ z m5 dragg+    
!mselves into "s fi]y & dreadful        
m>tyrdom4  ,aga9 ,i c\ld n be> x1 & ,i  
cri$ out sudd5ly3  ,b1 ,amro?1 ,he is   
,love2 & we c ent] )\t fe> into !       
pres5ce ( ,love6  ,h y n yet guess$1    
said ,amro? /]nly1 h[ t]rible ,love c   
be8 ,x is ! mo/ t]rible ?+ 9 ! _w1      
because x is ! /ronge/4 ,if ,dea? is    
dreadful1 :at mu/ t be :i* is /rong] ?an
 ,dea?8 ,come1 let u be sil5t1 = we are 
ne> ! place1 & ?is is no "t = words2 &  
!n he add$ ) a look ( ! deepe/          
compassion & t5d]ness1 ,i wi% ,i c\ld   
speak diff]5tly1 bro!r1 at ?is h\r2 b ,i
 am myself afraid4  ,& at t we gave up  
all spee*1 & only our ?\ghts sprang     

toge!r & int]tw9$1 l two *ildr5 t clasp 
ea* o!r close 9 a burn+ h\se1 :5 ! smoke
 comes volley+ f ! door4  ,we 7 com+ n[ 
to :at look$ l a ridge ( rocks ahead (  
u2 & ,i saw "h a wond]ful ?+1 a great   
light ( incr$ible pur5ess & :it5ess1 :i*
 /ruck upw>ds f ! f>!r side4 ,?is began 
to light up our own pale faces1 & to ?r[
 our backs into a d>k %ad[1 ev5 ?\gh !  
radiance ( ! heav5ly day 0 all ab\t u4  
,& at la/ we came to ! place4  ,x 0 !   
edge ( a precipice s va/1 s /up5d\s1 t  
no ^w c ev5 dimly describe its dep?2 x 0
 all illum9at$ ) incr$ible cle>ness by !
 light :i* /ruck upw>ds f bel[4 ,x 0    
absolutely %e]1 great pale cliffs ( :ite
 /one runn+ d[nw>ds into ! dep?4 ,to    
left & "r ! precipice ran1 ) an irregul>
 outl9e1 s t "o c\ld see ! cliff-fronts 
gleam h[ _m millions ( leagues bel[6    
,!re seem$ no end to x4 ,b at a c]ta9   
po9t f> d[n 9 ! abyss ! light seem$     
/rong] & pur]4 ,i 0 at fir/ s amaz$ by !
 sight t ,i gaz$ 9 sil5ce4 ,!n a        
dreadful dizz9ess came ov] me1 & ,i felt

 ,amro?'s h& put r\nd me to su/a9 me4   
,!n 9 a fa9t :isp]1 t 0 almo/ inaudible1
 ,amro?1 po9t+ ) 8 f+] d[nw>ds1 said3   
,wat* t place :]e ! light seems cle>e/4 
,i did s4 ,sudd5ly !re came1 z f ! face 
( ! cliff1 a ?+ l a cl\dy jet ( gold5   
/eam4 ,x pass$ out into ! cle> air1 %ap+
 itself 9 /range & intricate curves2 !n 
x grew d>k] 9 col\r1 hung = an in/ant l 
a cl\d ( smoke1 & !n fad$ into ! sky4   
,:at is t8 ,i said1 surpris$ out ( my   
t]ror4  ,i may tell y t1 said ,amro?1 t 
y may "k :at y see4 ,!re is no "t "h2 & 
y h se5 a univ]se made1 & live its life1
 & die4 ,y h se5 ! worlds creat$4 ,t    
cl\d ( :irl+ suns1 ea* ) its planets1   
has tak5 %ape be=e y\r eyes2 life has   
aris5 !re1 has develop$2 m5 l ourselves 
h liv$1 h wre/l$ ) evil1 h =m$ /ates1 h 
di$ & vani%$4 ,t is all b a s+le ?\ght (
 ,god4  ,ano!r came1 & !n ano!r ( !     
gold5 jets1 ea* fad+ into d>kness &     
disp]s+4  ,& n[1 said ,amro?1 ! mom5t   
has come4 ,y are to make ! la/ sacrifice
 ( ! s\l4 ,d n %r9k back1 fe> no?+4     

,leap into ! abyss6  ,! ?\ght fell ^u me
 ) an inf9ity & an incr$ulity ( horror t
 ,i _c express 9 words4 ,i cov]$ my eyes
 ) my h&s4  ,oh1 ,i _c1 ,i _c1 ,i said2 
any?+ b ?is6 ,god be m]ciful2 let me g r
 to "s inf9ite place ( torm5t :]e at    
lea/ ,i may feel myself alive4 ,d n ask 
?is ( me6  ,amro? made no answ]1 & ,i   
saw t he 0 reg>d+ me fix$ly1 himself    
pale to ! lips2 b ) a t\* ( ang] & ev5 (
 contempt1 mix$ ) a _w ( compassion &   
love4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 ?is look :i* seem$
 to entreat me mutely = my own sake & 8 
own to act4 ,i d n "k :at ! impulse 0 t 
came to me--self-contempt1 tru/1        
curiosity1 ! ye>n+ ( love4 ,i clos$ my  
eyes1 ,i took a falt]+ /ep1 & /umbl$1   
huddl+ & agha/1 ov] ! edge4 ,! air flew 
up pa/ me ) a sort ( %riek2 ,i op5$ my  
eyes once1 & saw ! :ite cliffs spe$+    
pa/4 ,!n an unconsci\sness came ov] me &
 ,i knew no m4     ,,xxxiii   ,i came to
 myself v gradually & dimly1 ) no       
recollection at fir/ ( :at _h happ5$4 ,i
 0 ly+ on my back on "s s(t grassy      

place1 ) ! air bl[+ cool ov] me4 ,i     
?\ght ,i saw ,amro? b5d+ ov] me ) a look
 ( extraord9>y happ9ess1 & felt 8 arm   
ab\t me2 b aga9 ,i became unconsci\s1   
yet all ! "t ) a blissfulness ( repose &
 joy1 f> beyond :at ,i _h exp]i5c$ at my
 fir/ wak+ on ! sunlit sea4 ,aga9 life  
dawn$ ^u me4 ,i 0 !re1 ,i 0 myself4 ,:at
 _h happ5$ to me8 ,i c\ld n tell4 ,s ,i 
lay = a long "t half dream+ & half      
swoon+2 till at la/ life seem$ to come  
back sudd5ly to me1 & ,i sat up4 ,amro? 
0 hold+ me 9 8 arms close to ! spot f   
:i* ,i _h sprung4  ,h ,i be5 dream+8 ,i 
said4 ,0 x "h8 & :58 ,i _c rememb]4 ,x  
seems impossible1 b 0 ,i told to jump   
d[n8 ,:at has happ5$ to me8 ,i am       
confus$4  ,y w "k pres5tly1 said ,amro?1
 9 a tone f :i* all ! fe> seem$ to h    
vani%$4 ,x is all ov]1 & ,i am ?ankful4 
,d n try to recollect2 x w come back to 
y pres5tly4 ,j re/ n[2 y h be5 ?r\gh    
/range ?+s4  ,sudd5ly a ?\ght began to  
%ape itself 9 my m9d1 a ?\ght ( p]fect &
 irresi/ible joy4  ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i    

rememb] n[4 ,we 7 afraid1 bo? ( u1 & y  
told me to leap d[n4 ,b :at 0 x t ,i    
saw1 & :at 0 x t 0 told me8 ,i _c recall
 x4 ,oh1 ,i said at la/1 ,i "k n[2 x    
comes back to me4 ,i fell1 9 hide\s     
c[>dice & mis]y4 ,! w9d blew %rill4 ,i  
saw ! cliffs /ream pa/2 !n ,i 0         
unconsci\s1 ,i ?9k4 ,i seem to h di$2 b 
"p ( me 0 n dead4 ,my flight 0 /ay$1 &  
,i float$ out some:]e4 ,i 0 jo9$ to     
some?+ t 0 l bo? fire & wat] 9 "o4 ,i 0 
se5 & kn[n & und]/ood & lov$1 p]fectly &
 unutt]ably & = ev]4 ,b !re 0 pa91      
some:]e1 ,amro?6 ,h[ 0 t8 ,i am sure !re
 0 pa94  ,( c\rse1 de> *ild1 said       
,amro?1 !re 0 pa91 because !re 0 ev]y?+4
  ,b1 ,i said1 ,i _c und]/& yet2 :y 0 t 
t]rible leap dem&$ ( me8 ,& :y did ,i   
confront x ) su* abject c[>dice &       
dismay8 ,surely "o ne$ n g /umbl+ & c[$ 
into ! pres5ce ( ,god8  ,!re is no o!r  
way1 said ,amro?2 y d n und]/& h[       
t]rible p]fect love is4 ,x is because x 
is p]fect t x is t]rible4 ,our own      
imp]fect love has "s weakness 9 x4 ,x is

 mix$ ) pleasure1 & !n x is n a         
sacrifice2 "o gives z mu* ( oneself z "o
 *ooses2 "o is kn[n j s f> z "o wi%es to
 be kn[n4 ,b "h ) ,god !re mu/ be no    
concealm5t--?\gh ev5 !re a man c )hold 8
 he>t f ,god--,god nev] uses compulsion2
 & ! w c prevail ev5 aga9/ ,him4 ,b !   
reason ( ! leap t mu/ be tak5 is ?is3 x 
is ! la/ surr5d]1 & x _c be made on our 
t]ms & conditions2 x mu/ be absolute4 ,&
 :at ,i fe>$ = y 0 n any?+ t w\ld happ5 
if y did commit y\rself to ,god1 b :at  
w\ld happ5 if y did n2 =1 ( c\rse1 y    
c\ld h resi/$1 & !n y w\ld h _h to beg9 
aga94  ,i 0 sil5t = a little1 & !n ,i   
said3 ,i rememb] n[ m cle>ly1 b did ,i  
really see ,him8 ,x seems s absolutely  
simple4 ,no?+ happ5$4 ,i j became "o ) !
 he>t & life ( ! _w2 ,i came home at    
la/4 ,yet h[ am ,i "h8 ,h[ is x ,i 0 n  
m]g$ 9 light & life8  ,ah1 said ,amro?1 
x is ! new bir?4 ,y c nev] be ! same    
aga94 ,b y are n yet lo/ 9 ,him4 ,! "t =
 t is n yet4 ,x is a my/]y2 b z yet ,god
 works outw>d1 radiates en]gy & =ce &   

love2 ! "t w come :5 all w draw inw>d   
aga91 & be m]g$ 9 ,him4 ,b ! _w is z yet
 9 its dawn+4 ,! ris+ sun scatt]s light 
& heat1 & ! hot & sil5t noon is yet to  
come2 !n ! %ad[s move ea/w>d1 & aft] t  
comes ! wan+ sunset & ! ev5+ light1 &   
la/ ( all ! huge & />lit peace ( !      
night4  ,b1 ,i said1 if ?is is really s1
 if ,i h be5 ga!r$ close to ,god's he>t1
 :y is x t in/ead ( feel+ /rong]1 ,i    
only feel weak & un/rung8 ,i h inde$ an 
inn] s5se ( peace & happ9ess1 b ,i h no 
w or purpose ( my own t ,i c disc]n4    
,t1 said ,amro?1 is because y h giv5 up 
all4 ,! s5se ( /r5g? is "p ( our        
weakness4 ,our plans1 our s*emes1 our   
ambitions1 all ! ?+s t make u enjoy &   
hope & arrange1 are b signs ( our       
incomplet5ess4 ,y\r w is /ill z molt5   
metal1 x has borne ! fi]ce heat ( inn]  
love2 & ?is has tak5 all t is h>d &     
/ubborn & complac5t out ( y--= a "t4 ,b 
:5 y return to ! life ( ! body1 z y w   
return1 !re w be ?is great diff]5ce 9 y4
 ,y w h to toil & suff]1 & ev5 s94 ,b   

!re w be "o ?+ t y w n d3 y w nev] be   
complac5t or self-righte\s1 y w n judge 
o!rs h>dly4 ,y w be able to =give & to  
make all[ances2 y w conc]n y\rself )    
lov+ o!rs1 n ) try+ to improve !m up to 
y\r own /&>d4 ,y w wi% !m to be diff]5t1
 b y w n condemn !m = be+ diff]5t2 &    
h]eaft] ! lives y live on e>? w be ( !  
humble/4 ,y w h none ( ! temptations (  
au?ority1 or influ5ce1 or ambition      
aga9--all t w be f> beh9d y4 ,y w live  
among ! poor1 y w d ! mo/ m5ial &       
commonplace drudg]y1 y w h none ( !     
delights ( life4 ,y w be despis$ &      
contemn$ = be+ ugly & humble &          
s]viceable & meek4 ,y w be "o ( ^? :o w 
be ?\ght to h no _s to rise1 no p[] (   
mak+ m5 s]ve y\r turn4 ,y w miss :at are
 call$ y\r *ances1 y w be a failure2 b y
 w be tru/$ & lov$ by *ildr5 & simple p2
 !y w dep5d ^u y1 & y w make ! atmosph]e
 9 :i* y live "o ( peace & joy4 ,y w h  
selfi% employ]s1 tyrannical ma/]s1      
?ankless *ildr5 p]haps1 = :om y w slave 
lov+ly4 ,!y w slight y & ev5 despise y1 

b _! he>ts w turn to y aga9 & aga91 &   
y\rs w be ! face t !y w rememb] :5 !y   
come to die1 z t ( ! "o p]son :o lov$ !m
 truly & unque/ion+ly4 ,t w be y\r      
de/9y2 "o ( utt] obscurity & no?+ness ^u
 e>?4 ,yet ea* "t1 :5 y return hi!r1 y\r
 "w w be high] & holi]1 & ne>] to ! he>t
 ( ,god4 ,& n[ ,i h said en\gh2 = y h   
se5 ,god1 z ,i too saw ,him long ago2 & 
our hope is h5ce=w>d ! same4  ,yes1 ,i  
said to ,amro?1 ,i am cont5t4 ,i _h     
?\ght t ,i %\ld be exalt$ & elat$ by my 
privileges2 b ,i h no ?\ght or dream (  
t4 ,i only desire to g :]e ,i am s5t1 to
 d :at is desir$ ( me4 ,i h laid my     
burd5 d[n4     ,,xxxiv   ,pres5tly      
,amro? rose1 & said t we mu/ be go+     
onw>d4  ,& n[1 he said1 ,i h a fur!r ?+ 
to tell y1 & t is t ,i h v soon to leave
 y4 ,to br+ y hi!r 0 ! la/ ( my appo9t$ 
tasks1 & my "w is n[ done4 ,x is /range 
to rememb] h[ ,i bore y 9 my arms out ( 
life1 l a little sleep+ *ild1 & h[ mu*  
we h be5 toge!r4  ,d n leave me n[1 ,i  
said to ,amro?4 ,!re seems s mu* t ,i h 

to ask y4 ,& if y\r "w ) me is done1 :]e
 are y n[ go+8  ,:]e am ,i go+1 bro!r8  
said ,amro?4 ,back to life aga91 &      
imm$iately4 ,& !re is "o ?+ m t is      
p]mitt$1 & t is t y %\ld be ) me to !   
la/4 ,/range t ,i %\ld h att5d$ y "h1 to
 ! v cr[n & sum ( life1 & t y %\ld n[   
att5d me :]e ,i am go+6 ,b s x is4  ,&  
:at d y feel ab\t x8 ,i said4  ,oh1 said
 ,amro?1 ,i d n l x1 ( c\rse4 ,to be s  
free & active "h1 & to be b\nd aga9 9 ! 
body1 9 ! close1 suff]+1 ill-sav\r$ h\se
 ( life6 ,b ,i h mu* to ga9 by x4 ,i h a
 %>pness ( temp] & a p]emptor9ess--( :i*
 inde$1 he said1 smil+1 y h _h exp]i5ce4
 ,i am fond ( do+ ?+s 9 my own way1     
inconsid]ate ( o!rs1 & impati5t if !y d 
n g "r4 ,i am h>d1 & p]haps ev5 vulg>4  
,b n[ ,i am go+ l a bo>d to ! c>p5t]1 to
 h "s ( my r\ghness plan$ out ( me1 & ,i
 hope to d bett]4  ,well1 ,i said1 ,i am
 too full ( wond] & hope j n[ to be     
al>m$ = y4 ,i c\ld ev5 wi% ,i 7 myself  
dep>t+4 ,b ,i h a desire to see ,cyn?ia 
aga94  ,yes1 said ,amro?1 & y w see h]2 

b y w n be long aft] me1 bro!r2 com=t   
y\rself ) t6  ,we walk$ a little f>!r   
across ! moorl&1 talk+ s(tly at         
int]vals1 till sudd5ly ,i disc]n$ a     
solit>y figure :i* 0 approa*+ u swiftly4
  ,ah1 said ,amro?1 my "t has inde$     
come4 ,i am summon$4  ,he wav$ 8 h& to !
 man1 :o came up quickly & ev5          
brea?lessly1 & h&$ ,amro? a seal$ pap]4 
,amro? tore x op51 read x smil+ly1 gave 
a nod to ! (fic]1 say+ ,_m ?anks4 ,!    
(fic] salut$ him2 he 0 a brisk "y man1 )
 a fre% air2 & he !n1 )\t a ^w1 turn$ f 
u & w5t ov] ! moorl&4  ,come1 said      
,amro?1 let u desc5d4 ,y c d ?is =      
y\rself n[2 y d n ne$ my help4 ,he took 
my h&1 & a mi/ envelop$ u4 ,sudd5ly !   
mi/ broke up & /ream$ away4 ,i look$    
r\nd me 9 curiosity4  ,we 7 /&+ 9 a v   
mean /reet ( brick-built h\ses1 ) slat$ 
ro(s2 ov] ! ro(s we c\ld see a spire1 & 
! *imneys ( mills1 sp\t+ smoke4 ,! h\ses
 _h t9y smoke-dri$ g>d5s 9 front ( !m4  
,at ! end ( ! /reet 0 an ugly1 ill-t5d$ 
field1 on :i* mu* rubbi% lay4 ,!re 7 "s 

dirty *ildr5 play+ ab\t1 & a few wom51 )
 %awls ov] _! heads1 7 /&+ toge!r wat*+ 
a h\se opposite4 ,! w9d[ ( an upp] room 
0 op51 & out ( x came cries & moans4    
,x's go+ v badly ) h]1 said "o ( ! wom51
 poor s\l2 b ! doctor w be "h soon4 ,%e 
0 ab\t ?is morn+ too4 ,i _h a ^w ) h]1 &
 %e 0 feel+ v bad4 ,i said %e ought to  
be 9 b$1 b %e said %e _h h] "w to d     
fir/4  ,! wom5 glanc$ at ! w9d[ ) a hu%$
 sort ( sympa?y4 ,a "y woman1 evid5tly  
soon to become a "m1 look$ pale &       
appreh5sive4  ,w %e get ?r\gh8 %e said  
timidly4  ,oh1 don't y fe>1 ,s>ah1 said 
"o ( ! wom51 k9dly en\gh4 ,%e w be all  
"r4 ,bless y1 ,i've be5 ?r\gh x five    
times myself1 & ,i am none ! worse4 ,&  
:5 x's ov] %e'll be z com=table z nev]  
04 ,x seems wor? x !n4  ,a man sudd5ly  
turn$ ! corn] ( ! /reet2 he 0 dress$ 9 a
 %abby ov]coat ) a b[l] hat1 & he c>ri$ 
a bag 9 8 h&4 ,he came pa/ u4 ,he look$ 
a busy1 ov]tri$ man1 b he _h a          
good-hum\r$ air4 ,he nodd$ pleasantly to
 ! wom54 ,"o said3  ,y are want$ badly 9

 !re1 doctor4  ,yes1 he said *e]fully1  
,i am mak+ all ! ha/e ,i c4 ,:]e's      
,john8  ,oh1 he's at "w1 said ! woman4  
,he didn't expect x to-day4 ,b he's     
bett] out ( ! way3 he 'd be no good2    
he'd only be int]f]+ & grumbl+2 b ,i'll 
come across ) y1 & :5 x's ov]1 ,i'll j  
run d[n & tell him4  ,t's "r1 said !    
doctor1 come along--! nurse w be r\nd 9 
a m9ute2 & ,i c make ?+s easy meantime4 
,/range to say1 x _h h>dly dawn$ ^u me  
:at 0 happ5+4 ,i turn$ to ,amro?1 :o    
/ood !re smil+1 b a little pale1 8 arm 9
 m9e2 fre% & upright1 ) 8 slim &        
graceful limbs1 8 bright curl$ hair1 a  
/range contra/ to ! slatt]nly wom5 & !  
heavily-built doctor4  ,s ?is1 he said1 
is :]e ,i am to sp5d a few ye>s2 my new 
fa!r is a h>dwork+ man1 ,i believe1     
p]haps a little giv5 to dr9k b k9d      
en\gh2 & ,i d>esay "s ( ^! *ildr5 are my
 bro!rs & si/]s4 ,a score ( ye>s or m to
 sp5d "h1 no d\bt6 ,well1 x might be    
worse4 ,y w ?9k ( me :ile y c1 & if y h 
! "t1 y may pay me a visit1 ?\gh ,i     

don't suppose ,i %all recognise y4  ,x  
seems r dreadful to me1 said ,i1 ,i mu/ 
confess6 ,:o w\ld h ?\ght t ,i %\ld h   
=gott5 my visions s soon8 ,amro?1 de>1  
,i c't be> ?is--t y %\ld suff] su* a    
*ange4  ,s5tim5t aga91 bro!r1 said      
,amro?4 ,to me x is curi\s & int]e/+1   
ev5 excit+4 ,well1 good-bye2 my "t is j 
up1 ,i ?9k4  ,! doctor _h gone into !   
h\se1 & ! cries di$ away4 ,a mom5t aft] 
a woman 9 ! dress ( a nurse came quickly
 along ! /reet1 knock$1 op5$ ! door1 &  
w5t 94 ,i c\ld see into ! room1 a poorly
 furni%$ "o4 ,a girl sat nurs+ a baby by
 ! fire1 & look$ v mu* fright5$4 ,a     
little boy play$ 9 ! corn]4 ,a woman 0  
bu/l+ ab\t1 mak+ "s prep>ations = a     
meal4  ,let me d y ! hon\rs ( my new    
e/abli%m5t1 said ,amro? ) a smile4 ,no1 
de> man1 don't g ) me any f>!r4 ,we w "p
 "h1 & :5 we meet aga9 we %all h "s new 
/ories to tell4 ,bless y4 ,he took 8 h& 
f my arm1 caught up my h&1 kiss$ x1     
said1 ,!re1 t is = y1 & disappe>$ smil+ 
into ! h\se4  ,a mom5t lat] !re came !  

cry ( a new-born *ild f ! w9d[ above4 ,!
 doctor came out & w5t d[n ! /reet2 "o (
 ! wom5 jo9$ him & walk$ ) him4 ,a few  
m9utes lat] %e return$ ) a "y & /urdy   
workman1 look+ r anxi\s4  ,x's all "r1  
,i he>d h] say1 x's a f9e boy1 & ,annie 
is do+ well--%e'll be ab\t aga9 soon    
en\gh4  ,!y disappe>$ into ! h\se1 & ,i 
turn$ away4     ,,xxxv   ,x is difficult
 to describe ! /range emotions ) :i* !  
dep>ture ( ,amro? fill$ me4 ,i ?9k t1 :5
 ,i fir/ ent]$ ! heav5ly c\ntry1 !      
/ronge/ feel+ ,i exp]i5c$ 0 ! s5se (    
security--! ?\ght t ! e>?ly life 0 ov] &
 done )1 & t !re rema9$ ! re/ &         
tranquillity ( heav54 ,:at ,i _c ev5 n[ 
und]/& is ?is4 ,i am dimly aw>e t ,i h  
liv$ a great s]ies ( lives1 9 ea* ( :i* 
,i h _h to exi/ bl9dly1 n kn[+ t my life
 0 n b\nd$ & t]m9at$ by dea?1 & only    
d>kly guess+ & hop+1 9 passionate       
glimpses1 t !re might be a p]man5t life 
( ! s\l beh9d ! life ( ! body4 ,& yet1  
at fir/1 on ent]+ ! heav5ly c\ntry1 ,i  
did n rememb] hav+ ent]$ x be=e2 x 0 n  

famili> to me1 nor did ,i at fir/ recall
 9 memory t ,i _h be5 !re be=e4 ,! e>?ly
 life seems to oblit]ate = a "t ev5 !   
heav5ly memory4 ,b ! dep>ture ( ,amro?  
swept away once & = all ! s5se (        
security4 ,"o felt ( ! e>?ly life1      
inde$1 z a busy man may ?9k ( a         
tr\blesome visit he has to pay1 :i*     
breaks across ! normal curr5t ( 8 life1 
:ile he anticipates ) pleasure 8 return 
to ! usual activities ( home across !   
int]val ( social di/raction1 :i* he does
 n exactly desire1 b yet is glad t x    
%\ld int]v5e1 if only = ! height5$ s5se 
( delight ) :i* he w resume 8 real life4
 ,i _h be5 happy 9 heav51 ?\gh ) p]iods 
( discont5t & mom5ts ( dismay4 ,b ,i no 
long] desir$ a dreamful ease2 ,i only   
wi%$ passionately to be employ$4 ,& n[  
,i saw t ,i mu/ resign all expectation (
 t4 ,z s (t5 happ5s1 bo? on e>? & 9     
heav51 ,i _h f\nd some?+ ( :i* ,i 0 n 9 
se>*1 :ile ! "w :i* ,i _h e/imat$ s     
highly1 & prep>$ myself s ard5tly =1 _h 
nev] be5 giv5 to me to d at all4  ,b = !

 mom5t ,i _h b "o s+le ?\ght4 ,i 0 to   
see ,cyn?ia aga91 & ,i might !n expect  
my own summons to return to life4 ,:at  
surpris$ me1 on look+ back at my pres5t 
soj\rn1 0 ! extreme app>5t =tuit\sness (
 x4 ,x _h n be5 seem+ly organis$ or laid
 out on any plan2 & yet x _h %[n me ?is1
 t my own int5tions & desires c\nt$ =   
no?+4 ,i _h meant to "w1 & ,i _h be5    
mo/ly idle2 ,i _h int5d$ to /udy        
psy*ology1 & ,i _h f\nd love4 ,h[ mu*   
wis] & deep] x _h all be5 ?an any?+ :i* 
,i _h design$6  ,ev5 n[ ,i 0 unc]ta9 h[ 
to f9d ,cyn?ia4 ,b recollect+ t ,amro?  
_h w>n$ me t ,i _h ga9$ new p[]s :i* ,i 
might ex]cise1 ,i set myself to use !m4 
,i conc5trat$ myself ^u ! ?\ght (       
,cyn?ia2 & 9 a mom5t1 j z ! h& ( a man 9
 a d>k room1 feel+ = "s famili> object1 
enc\nt]s & closes ^u ! ?+ he is seek+1  
,i seem$ to t\* & embrace ! ?\ght (     
,cyn?ia4 ,i direct$ myself ?i!r4 ,!     
breeze fann$ my hair1 & z ,i op5$ my    
eyes ,i saw t ,i 0 9 an unfamili>       
place--n ! =e/ :]e ,i _h left ,cyn?ia1 b

 9 a t]rac$ g>d51 "u a great hill1 wood$
 to ! peak4 ,/one /eps ran up ?r\gh !   
t]races1 ! topmo/ ( :i* 0 cr[n$ by a    
long irregul> build+1 v qua9tly design$4
 ,i w5t up ! /eps1 &1 look+ ab\t me1    
caught sight ( two figures seat$ on a   
wood5 seat at a little di/ance f me1    
ov]look+ ! valley4 ,"o ( ^! 0 ,cyn?ia4  
,! o!r 0 a "y & beautiful woman2 ! two 7
 talk+ e>ne/ly toge!r4 ,sudd5ly ,cyn?ia 
turn$ & saw me1 & ris+ quickly1 came to 
me & caught me 9 h] arms4  ,i 0 sure y 7
 some:]e ne> me1 de>e/1 %e said2 ,i     
dream$ ( y la/ night1 & y h be5 9 my    
?\ghts all day4  ,my d>l+ 0 9 "s way    
alt]$4 ,%e look$ old]1 wis]1 & calm]1 b 
%e 0 9 my eyes ev5 m beautiful4 ,! o!r  
girl1 :o _h look$ at u 9 surprise = a   
mom5t1 rose too & came %yly =w>ds4      
,cyn?ia caught h] h&1 & pres5t$ h] to   
me1 add+1 ,& n[ y mu/ leave u alone = a 
little1 if y w =give me = ask+ x1 = we h
 mu* to ask & to say4  ,! girl smil$ &  
w5t (f1 look+ back at u1 ,i ?\ght1      
half-envi\sly4  ,we w5t & sat d[n on !  

seat1 & ,cyn?ia said3  ,some?+ has      
happ5$ to y1 de> "o1 ,i see1 s9ce ,i saw
 y la/--some?+ great & glori\s4  ,yes1  
,i said1 y are "r2 ,i h se5 ! beg9n+ & !
 end2 & ,i h n yet le>n$ to und]/& x4 ,b
 ,i am ! same1 ,cyn?ia1 & y\rs utt]ly4  
,we w speak ( ?is lat]4 ,tell me fir/   
:at has happ5$ to y1 & :at ?is place is4
 ,i w n wa/e "t 9 talk+2 ,i want to he> 
y talk & to see y talk4 ,h[ (t5 h ,i    
long$ = t6  ,cyn?ia took my h& 9 bo? (  
h] own1 & !n unfold$ to me h] /ory4 ,%e 
_h liv$ long 9 ! =e/1 alone ) ! *ild1 & 
!n ! day _h come :5 ! desire to g f>!r  
_h aris5 9 8 m9d1 & he _h left h]1 & %e 
_h felt /rangely desolate1 till %e too  
_h be5 summon$4  ,& ?is place--h[ c ,i  
describe x8 %e said4 ,x is a home =     
spirits :o h desir$ love on e>?1 & :o   
yet1 f "s accid5t ( circum/ance1 h nev] 
f\nd "o to love !m ) any intimacy (     
passion4 ,h[ /range x is to ?9k1 %e w5t 
on1 t ,i1 j by ! inh]itance ( beauty1 0 
surr\nd$ ) love & ! wrong sort ( love1 s
 t ,i nev] le>n$ to love rightly &      

truly2 :ile s _m1 j f "s lack ( beauty1 
"s homel9ess or unga9l9ess ( feature or 
c>riage1 miss$ ! "o k9d ( love t w\ld h 
su/a9$ & f$ !m--h nev] be5 held 9 a     
lov]'s arms1 or held a *ild ( _! own    
aga9/ _! he>t4 ,& s1 %e w5t on smil+1 _m
 ( !m lavi%$ _! t5d]ness ^u animals or  
crafty s]vants or selfi% relations2 &   
grew old & fanciful & petulant be=e _!  
"t4 ,x seems a sad wa/e ( life t6       
,because s _m ( !m are spirits t c\ld h 
lov$ f9ely & devot$ly all ! "t4 ,b "h1  
%e said1 !y unle>n _! caprices1 & live a
 life by /rict rule--& !y g out h5ce to 
h ! c>e ( *ildr51 or to t5d brok5 lives 
into tranquillity--& "s ( !m1 nay mo/ ( 
!m1 f9d heav5ly lov]s ( _! own4 ,!y are 
odd1 fracti\s p at fir/1 curi\sly       
conc]n$ ab\t heal? & occupation & "o c  
(t5 d no?+ b li/5 to _! compla9ts4 ,b !y
 f9d _! way out 9 "t1 & "o c help !m a  
little1 z soon z !y beg9 to desire to   
he> some?+ ( o!r lives b _! own4 ,!y h  
to le>n to turn love outw>ds in/ead (   
inw>ds2 j z ,i1 %e add$ laugh+1 _h to   

turn my own love inw>ds in/ead (        
outw>ds4  ,!n ,i told ,cyn?ia :at ,i    
c\ld tell ( my own exp]i5ces1 & %e he>d 
!m ) a/oni%m5t4 ,!n ,i said3  ,:at      
surprises me ab\t x1 is t ,i seem someh[
 to h be5 giv5 m ?an ,i c hold4 ,i h a v
 %all[ & trivial nature1 l a /ream t    
sp>kles pleasantly en\gh ov] a pebbly   
bottom1 b 9 :i* no boat or man c swim4  
,i h always be5 absorb$ 9 ! obs]vation (
 details & 9 ! outside ( ?+s4 ,i sp5t s 
mu* en]gy 9 wat*+ ! faces & ge/ures &   
utt]ances & tricks ( ^? ab\t me t ,i    
nev] _h ! leisure to look into _! he>ts4
 ,& n[ ^! great dep?s h op5$ be=e me1 & 
,i feel m *ildi% & feeble ?an ev]1 l a  
frail glass :i* holds a mo/ preci\s     
liquor1 & ga9s brightness & glory f !   
hues ( ! w9e x holds1 b is n l ! gem1   
compact ( col\r & radiance4  ,cyn?ia    
laugh$ at me4  ,at all ev5ts1 y h n     
=gott5 h[ to make metaphors1 %e said4   
,no1 said ,i1 t is "p ( ! mis*ief1 t ,i 
see ! lik5esses ( ?+s & n _! ess5ces4   
,at :i* %e laugh$ aga9 m s(tly1 & re/$  

h] *eek on my %\ld]4  ,!n ,i told h] ( !
 dep>ture ( ,amro?4  ,t is wond]ful1 %e 
said4  ,& !n ,i told h] ( my own        
approa*+ dep>ture1 at :i* %e grew sad = 
a mom5t4 ,!n %e said1 ,b come1 let u n  
wa/e "t 9 =ebod+s4 ,w y come ) me into !
 h\se to see ! lik5esses ( ?+s1 or %all 
we h an h\r alone toge!r1 & try to look 
into ess5ces8  ,i caught h] by ! h&4    
,no1 ,i said1 ,i c>e no m ab\t ! ma*9]y 
( ^! in/itutions4 ,i am ! pilgrim (     
love1 & n ! /ud5t ( organisations4 ,if y
 may quit y\r task1 & leave y\r ladies  
to regretful memories ( _! lap-dogs1 let
 u g out toge!r = a little1 & say :at we
 c--= ,i am sure t my "t is approa*+4   
,cyn?ia smil$ & left me1 & return$      
runn+2 & !n we rambl$ (f toge!r1 up !   
/eep pa?s ( ! woodl&1 to ! m\nta9-top1 f
 :i* we _h a wide prospect ( ! heav5ly  
c\ntry1 a great blue well-wat]$ pla9 ly+
 out = leagues be=e u1 ) ! %apes (      
my/]i\s m\nta9s 9 ! di/ance4 ,b ,i c    
give no acc\nt ( all we said or did1 =  
he>t m+l$ ) he>t1 & !re 0 little ne$ (  

spee*4 ,& ev5 s1 9 ^? la/ sweet h\rs1 ,i
 c\ld n help m>vell+ at h[ utt]ly       
diff]5t ,cyn?ia's he>t & m9d 7 f my own2
 ev5 !n x 0 a con/ant %ock ( surprise t 
we %\ld und]/& ea* o!r s p]fectly1 & yet
 feel s diff]5tly ab\t s mu*4 ,x seem$  
to me t1 ev5 aft] all ,i _h se5 &       
suff]$1 my he>t 0 /ill b5t on tak+ &    
,cyn?ia's on giv+4 ,i seem$ to see my   
own he>t ?r\gh ,cyn?ia's1 :ile %e appe>$
 to see m9e b ?r\gh h] own4 ,we spoke ( 
our exp]i5ces1 & ( our _m fri5ds1 n[    
hidd5 f u--& at la/ we spoke ( ,lucius4 
,& !n ,cyn?ia said3  ,x is /range1      
de>e/1 t n[ & !n !re %\ld yet rema9 any 
d\bt at all 9 my m9d ab\t y\r wi% or    
desire2 b ,i mu/ speak2 & be=e ,i speak1
 ,i w say t :atev] y desire1 ,i w d4 ,b 
,i ?9k t ,lucius has ne$ ( me1 & ,i am  
81 9 a way :i* ,i _c describe4 ,he is   
halt+ n[ 9 8 way1 & he is unhappy       
because 8 life is incomplete4 ,may ,i   
help him8  ,at ?is !re /ruck ?r\gh me a 
%>p & jeal\s pang2 & a d>k cl\d seem$ to
 float across my m9d = a mom5t4 ,b ,i   

set all aside1 & ?\ght = an in/ant ( !  
vision ( ,god4 ,& !n ,i said3  ,yes1    
,cyn?ia6 ,i _h wond]$ too2 & x seems    
p]haps l ! la/ ta9t ( e>?1 t ,i w\ld1 z 
x 71 condemn y to a sort ( wid[hood (   
love :5 ,i am gone4 ,b y mu/ foll[ y\r  
own he>t1 & its pure & sweet advice1 & !
 ,w ( ,love2 & y mu/ use y\r treasure1 n
 ho>d x = me 9 solitude4 ,de>e/1 ,i tru/
 y & wor%ip y utt]ly & entirely4 ,x is  
?r\gh y & y\r love t ,i h f\nd my way to
 ! he>t ( ,god2 & if inde$ y c take     
ano!r he>t ?i!r1 y mu/ d x = love's own 
sake4 ,& aft] ?is we 7 sil5t = a long   
space1 he>t bl5d+ :olly ) he>t4  ,!n    
sudd5ly ,i became aw>e t "s "o 0 com+ up
 ?r\gh ! wood1 to ! rocks :]e we sat3 & 
,cyn?ia clung close to me1 & ,i knew t  
%e 0 sorr[ful to dea?4 ,& !n ,i saw     
,lucius come up out ( ! wood1 & halt = a
 mom5t at ! sight ( u toge!r4 ,!n he    
came on almo/ rev]5tly1 & ,i saw t he   
c>ri$ 9 8 h& a seal$ pap] l t :i* _h be5
 giv5 to ,amro?2 & ,i read x & f\nd my  
summons writt54  ,!n :ile ,lucius /ood  

beside me1 ) 8 eyes ^u ! gr\nd1 ,i said3
  ,i mu/ g 9 ha/e2 & ,i h b "o ?+ to d4 
,we h spok51 ,cyn?ia & ,i1 ( ! love y h 
long borne h]2 & %e is y\rs n[1 to com=t
 & lead y z %e has l$ & com=t$ me4 ,?is 
is ! la/ sacrifice ( love1 to give up   
love itself2 & ?is ,i d v will+ly = !   
sake ( ,him t loves u3 & "h1 ,i said1 is
 a /range ?+1 t at ! v cr[n & summit (  
life1 = ,i am sure t ?is is s1 we %\ld  
be ?ree he>ts1 s full ( love1 & yet s   
sorr[+ & suff]+ z we are4 ,is pa9 inde$ 
! end ( all8  ,no1 said ,cyn?ia1 x is n 
! end1 & yet only by x c we measure !   
dep? & height ( love4 ,if we look into  
our he>ts1 we "k t 9 spite ( all we are 
m ?an rew>d$1 & m ?an conqu]ors4  ,!n ,i
 took ,cyn?ia's h& & laid x 9 ! h& (    
,lucius2 & ,i left !m !re ^u ! peak1 &  
turn$ no m4 ,& no m woeful _s 0 9 ! l& (
 heav5 t day ?an m9e z ,i /umbl$ we>ily 
d[n ! slope1 & f\nd ! valley4 ,& !n1 =  
,i did n "k ! way to desc5d1 ,i comm5d$ 
myself to ,god2 & ,he took me4          
,,xxxvi   ,i saw t ,i 0 /&+ 9 a n>r[    

muddy road1 ) deep ruts1 :i* l$ up f !  
bank ( a wide riv]--a tidal riv]1 z ,i  
c\ld see1 f ! great mudflats fr+$ )     
seawe$4 ,! sun blaz$ d[n ^u ! :ole sc5e4
 ,j bel[ 0 a sort ( l&+-place1 :]e lay a
 numb] ( long1 l[ boats1 %ad$ ) mats    
curv$ l ! hood ( a waggon2 a little f>!r
 out 0 a big qua9t %ip1 ) a high /]n &  
yell[ sails4 ,beyond ! riv] rose great  
hills1 ?ickly clo!d ) vegetation4 ,9    
front ( me1 along ! roadside1 /ood a    
numb] ( mud-wall$ huts1 ?at*$ ) "s sort 
( re$s2 beyond ^!1 on ! left1 0 !       
entrance ( a l>g] h\se1 surr\nd$ ) high 
walls1 ! tops ( trees1 ) a /range r$    
foliage1 appe>+ ov] ! enclosure1 & !    
til$ ro(s ( build+s4 ,f>!r /ill 7 !     
walls ( a great t[n1 huge e>?works cr[n$
 ) pla/]$ =tifications1 & a gate1 ) a   
curi\s ro( to x1 runn+ out at ea* end   
into horns c>v$ ( wood4 ,at "s di/ance1 
out ( a grove to ! "r1 rose a r\nd tap]+
 t[] ( m\ld]+ brickwork4 ,! re/ ( ! ne>]
 c\ntry seem$ laid out 9 l[ plantations 
( "s gre5-leav$ %rub1 ) rice-fields     

int]sp]s$ 9 ! m level gr\nd4  ,!re 7    
only a few p 9 sight4 ,"s m5 ) arms &   
legs b>e1 & big hats made ( re$s1 7     
c>ry+ up goods f ! l&+-place1 & a numb] 
( *ildr51 pale & small-ey$1 dirty &     
half-nak$1 7 play+ ab\t by ! roadside4  
,i w5t a few paces up ! road1 & /opp$   
beside a h\se1 a little l>g] ?an ! re/1 
) a r\gh v]&ah by ! door4 ,"h a         
middle-ag$ man 0 seat$1 plait+ some?+   
out ( re$s1 b evid5tly li/5+ = s\nds )9 
! h\se1 ) an air half-tranquil1         
half-anxi\s2 by him on a slab /ood      
some?+ t look$ l a drum1 & a spray (    
azalea fl[]s4 ,:ile ,i wat*$1 a man ( a 
r sup]ior rank1 ) a d>k fl[]$ jacket & a
 curi\s hat1 look$ out ( a door :i* op5$
 on ! v]&ah & beckon$ him 92 a s\nd ( l[
 subdu$ wail+ came out f ! h\se1 & ,i   
knew t my "t 0 h>d at h&4 ,x 0 /range & 
t]rible to me at ! mom5t to realise t my
 life 0 to be b\nd up1 ,i knew n = h[   
long1 ) ?is remote place2 b ,i 0        
consci\s too ( a deep excitem5t1 z ( a  
man ab\t to />t ^u a race on :i* mu*    

dep5ds4 ,!re came a groan f ! int]ior ( 
! h\se1 & ?r\gh ! half-op5 door ,i c\ld 
see two or ?ree dim figures /&+ r\nd a  
b$ 9 a d>k & ill-furni%$ room4 ,"o ( !  
figures b5t d[n1 & ,i c\ld see ! face ( 
a woman1 v pale1 ! eyes clos$1 & ! lips 
op51 h] arms drawn up ov] h] head z 9 an
 agony ( pa94 ,!n a sudd5 dimness came  
ov] me1 & a deadly fa9tness4 ,i /umbl$  
?r\gh ! v]&ah to ! op5 door4 ,! d>kness 
clos$ 9 ^u me1 & ,i knew no m4  ,,!     
,,end