,! ,biography ( ,rob]t ,murray ,m',*eyne ,illu/ration3 ,rob]t ,murray ,m',*eyne ) ,signature 99 99 99 99 99 ,! ,biography ( ,rob]t ,murray ,m',*eyne ,,by ,,&rew ,a4 ,,bon> ,,zond]van ,,publi%+ ,,h\se ,,gr& ,,rapids1 ,,mi*igan 99 99 99 99 99 ,,publi%]',s ,,preface ,! tell+ ( ! deeply spiritual life /ory ( ! "y m9i/] ( ! ,gospel ( ,/4 ,pet]s ,*ur*1 ,dundee1 ,scotl&1 ,rob]t ,murray ,m',*eyne1 has be5 us$ ( ,god to br+ *all5ge1 bless+ & inspiration to hundr$s ( ?\s&s d[n ?r\gh ! ye>s s9ce 8 dea? 9 #ahdc at ! e>ly age ( #cj4 ,few m5 h liv$ a life fill$ ) su* p[] & bless+ 9 su* a %ort span ( ye>s4 ,dr4 ,&rew ,a4 ,bon>'s biography ( ?is /alw>t "y man ( ,god has be5 ! /&>d recogniz$ "w on ! life ( ?is pr9ce among m54 ,?is biography is f ! l>g] ,memoirs & ,rema9s ( ! ,rev4 ,rob]t ,murray ,m',*eyne ) j ! memoirs--or biography--repr9t$4 ,! rema9s1 lett]s & s]mons ( ,m',*eyne h be5 rec5tly republi%$ 9 ! ,wyckliffe ,s]ies issu$ by ! ,moody ,press1 b we are pres5t+ 9 ! pages ( ?is volume ,bon>'s s\l-/irr+ biography ( ?is "y man :o 0 s completely & :olly surr5d]$ to ! w ( ,god4 ,dr4 ,wilbur ,m4 ,smi?1 9 8 ,pr(itable ,bible ,/udy1 says1 ,e m9i/]1 ( :atev] d5om9ation1 %\ld h ?is m>vel\s "w4 ,! publi%]s ( ?is unabridg$ edition s5d x =? once aga9 ) ! e>ne/ pray] t ,god w cont9ue to use x to ! inspiration & *all5ge ( "y & old alike to realize :at c be done ) a life completely & absolutely d$icat$ to ,him4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,memoir4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,8 ,,y\?1 ,,& ,,prep>ation ,,= ,,! ,,m9i/ry ,_m %all rejoice at 8 bir?2 = he %all be great 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l--,luke #a3ad4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ! re/less activity ( su* a day z ours1 x w be felt by m9i/]s ( ,*ri/ to be useful 9 no common degree1 to trace ! /eps ( "o :o b lately left u1 & :o1 dur+ ! la/ ye>s ( 8 %ort life1 walk$ calmly 9 almo/ unbrok5 fell[%ip ) ! ,,fa!r & ! ,,son4 ,! date ( 8 bir? 0 ,may #ba1 #ahac4 ,ab\t t "t1 z is n[ evid5t to u :o c look back on ! pa/1 ! ,great ,head _h a purpose ( bless+ = ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&4 ,em95t m5 ( ,god appe>$ to plead ! cause ( ,*ri/4 ,! ,cross 0 lift$ up boldly 9 ! mid/ ( ,*ur* ,c\rts :i* _h long be5 a%am$ ( ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,m spirituality & deep] s]i\sness began a few ye>s onw>d to prevail among ! y\? ( our div9ity halls4 ,9 ! mid/ ( su* ev5ts1 :]eby ! ,"l 0 secretly prep>+ a ri* bless+ = s\ls 9 all our ,bord]s1 ! subject ( ?is ,memoir 0 born4 ,_m 7 to rejoice at 8 bir?2 = he 0 "o ( ! bless+s :i* 7 beg9n+ to be dropp$ d[n ^u ,scotl&1 ?\gh none !n knew t "o 0 born :om hundr$s w\ld look up to z _! spiritual fa!r4 ,! place ( 8 bir? 0 ,ed9burgh1 :]e 8 p>5ts resid$4 ,he 0 ! y\nge/ *ild ( ! family1 & 0 call$ ,,rob]t ,,murray1 aft] ! "n ( "s ( 8 k9dr$4 ,f 8 infancy 8 sweet & affectionate temp] 0 rem>k$ by all :o knew him4 ,8 m9d 0 quick 9 its atta9m5ts2 he 0 easily taught ! common lessons ( y\?1 & "s ( 8 peculi> end[m5ts began e>ly to appe>4 ,at ! age ( f\r1 :ile recov]+ f "s illness1 he select$ z 8 recreation ! /udy ( ! ,greek alphabet1 & 0 able to "n all ! lett]s1 & write !m 9 a rude way ^u a slate4 ,a ye> aft]1 he made rapid progress 9 ! ,engli% class1 & at an e>ly p]iod became some:at em95t among 8 s*oolfell[s = 8 melodi\s voice & p[]s ( recitation4 ,!re 7 at t "t cate*etical ex]cises held 9 ! ,tron ,*ur*1 9 ! int]val betwe5 s]mons2 & "s fri5ds rememb] ! int]e/ (t5 excit$ 9 ! he>]s by 8 correct & sweet recitation ( ! ,psalms & passages ( ,scripture4 ,b z yet he knew n ! ,"l1 he liv$ to himself1 hav+ no hope1 & )\t ,god 9 ! _w4 ,eph4 #b3ab4 ,9 ,octob] #ahba he ent]$ ! ,high ,s*ool1 :]e he cont9u$ 8 lit]>y /udies dur+ ! usual p]iod ( six ye>s4 ,he ma9ta9$ a high place 9 8 classes1 & 9 ! ,rector's class di/+ui%$ himself by em95ce 9 geography & recitation4 ,x 0 dur+ ! la/ ye> ( 8 att5dance at ! ,high ,s*ool t he fir/ v5tur$ on poetical composition1 ! subject be+ ,greece1 b liv+ ,greece no m4 ,! l9es are *>act]iz$ *iefly by en?usiasm = lib]ty & ,grecian h]oism1 = 9 ^! days 8 s\l _h nev] so>$ to a high] region4 ,8 companions speak ( him z "o :o _h ev5 !n peculi>ities t drew att5tion3 ( a light1 tall =m--full ( ela/icity & vigor--ambiti\s1 yet noble 9 8 dispositions1 disda9+ ev]y?+ l meanness or deceit4 ,"s w\ld h be5 apt to reg>d him z exhibit+ _m traits ( a ,*ri/ian "*2 b 8 susceptible m9d _h n1 at t "t1 a reli% = any high] joy ?an ! ref9$ gaieties ( society1 & = su* pleasures z ! song & ! dance c\ld yield4 ,he himself reg>d$ ^! z days ( ungodl9ess--days :]e9 he *]i%$ a pure morality1 b liv$ 9 he>t a ,ph>isee4 ,i h he>d him say t !re 0 a correctness & propriety 9 8 demeanor at times ( devotion1 & 9 public wor%ip1 :i* "s1 :o knew n 8 he>t1 7 ready to put to ! acc\nt ( real feel+4 ,& ?is exp]i5ce ( 8 own he>t made him look ) jeal\sy on ! m]e outw>d signs ( devotion 9 deal+ ) s\ls4 ,he _h le>nt 9 8 own case h[ mu* a s\l1 unawak5$ to a s5se ( guilt1 may h satisfaction 9 p]=m+ f ! pr\d consci\sness ( integrity t[>ds man1 & a s5tim5tal devot$ness ( m9d t *a/5s ! feel+s )\t *ang+ ! he>t4 ,he _h great delight 9 rural sc5]y4 ,mo/ ( 8 summ] vacations us$ to be sp5t 9 ,dumfries%ire1 & 8 fri5ds 9 ! p>i% ( ,ru?well & its vic9ity reta9 a vivid remembrance ( 8 y\?ful days4 ,8 poetic temp]am5t l$ him to visit :atev] sc5es 7 fitt$ to /ir ! s\l4 ,at all p]iods ( 8 life1 also1 he _h a love ( ent]prise4 ,dur+ ! summ] mon?s he occasionally made excursions ) 8 bro!r1 or "s intimate fri5d1 to visit ! lakes & hills ( our ,highl&s1 *]i%+ !reby1 unaw>es1 a fondness = travel1 t 0 mo/ useful to him 9 aft] days4 ,9 "o ( ^! excursions1 a some:at romantic occurr5ce befell ! travell]s1 su* z we might r h expect$ to meet ) 9 ! records ( 8 ,ea/]n j\rney4 ,he & 8 fri5ds _h set out on foot to explore1 at _! leisure1 ,dunkeld1 & ! highl&s 9 its vic9ity4 ,!y sp5t a day at ,dunkeld1 & ab\t sunset set out aga9 ) ! view ( cross+ ! hills to ,/ra?>dle4 ,a d5se mi/ spread ov] ! hills soon aft] !y began to climb4 ,!y press$ on1 b lo/ ! track t might h guid$ !m safely to ! gl54 ,!y knew n h[ to direct _! /eps to any dwell+4 ,night came on1 & !y _h no res\rce b to c\* among ! hea?1 ) no o!r cov]+ ?an ! clo!s !y wore4 ,!y felt hungry & cold2 &1 awak+ at midnight1 ! awful /illness ( ! lonely m\nta9s spread a /range fe> ov] !m4 ,b1 draw+ close toge!r1 !y aga9 lay d[n to re/1 & slept s\ndly till ! cry ( "s wild birds & ! morn+ dawn ar\s$ !m4 ,ent]+ ! ,ed9burgh ,univ]sity 9 ,novemb] #ahbg1 he ga9$ "s prize 9 all ! v>i\s classes he att5d$4 ,9 private he /udi$ ! mod]n languages2 & gymna/ic ex]cises at t "t gave him unb\nd$ delight4 ,he us$ 8 p5cil ) mu* success1 & !n x 0 t 8 h& 0 prep>$ = sket*+ ! sc5es ( ! ,holy ,l&4 ,he _h a v consid]able k ( music1 & himself sang correctly & beautifully4 ,?is1 too1 0 a gift :i* 0 us$ to ! glory ( ! ,"l 9 aft] days1--wond]fully enliv5+ 8 secret devotions1 & enabl+ him to lead ! song ( praise 9 ! congregation :]ev] occasion requir$4 ,poetry also 0 a nev]-fail+ recreation2 & 8 ta/e 9 ?is dep>tm5t drew ! att5tion ( ,pr(essor ,wilson1 :o adjudg$ him ! prize 9 ! ,moral ,philosophy class = a poem1 ,on ! ,cov5ant]s4 ,9 ! w9t] ( #ahca he comm5c$ 8 /udies 9 ! ,div9ity ,hall "u ,dr4 ,*alm]s1 & ! /udy ( ,*ur* ,hi/ory "u ,dr4 ,wel%4 ,x may be naturally ask$1 ,:at l$ him to wi% to prea* salvation to 8 fell[-s9n]s8 ,c\ld he say1 l ,rob]t ,bruce1 ,i 0 fir/ call$ to my grace1 be=e ,i obey$ my call+ to ! m9i/ry8 ,few que/ions are m int]e/+ ?an ?is2 & our answ] to x w op5 up "s ( ! wond]ful ways ( ,him ^: pa? is 9 ! great wat]s1 & ^: foot/eps are n kn[n1 ,psalm #gg3ai2 = ! same ev5t t awak5$ 8 s\l to a true s5se ( s9 & mis]y1 l$ him to ! m9i/ry4 ,dur+ 8 att5dance at ! lit]>y & philosophical classes he felt occasional impressions1 none ( !m p]haps ( mu* dep?4 ,!re c be no d\bt t he himself look$ ^u ! dea? ( 8 elde/ bro!r1 ,david1 z ! ev5t :i* awoke him f ! sleep ( nature1 & br\ght ! fir/ beam ( div9e light into 8 s\l4 ,by t provid5ce ! ,"l 0 call+ "o s\l to enjoy ! treasures ( grace1 :ile ,he took ! o!r into ! possession ( glory4 ,9 ?is bro!r1 :o 0 8 s5ior by eight or n9e ye>s1 ! light ( div9e grace %one be=e m5 ) r>e & solemn lovel9ess4 ,8 classical atta9m5ts 7 v high2 &1 aft] ! usual prelim9>y /udies1 he _h be5 admitt$ ,writ] to ! ,signet4 ,"o di/+ui%+ quality ( 8 "* 0 8 s5sitive tru?fulness4 ,9 a mom5t w\ld ! %ad[ flit across 8 br[1 if any incid5t 7 relat$ :]e9 !re 0 ! slighte/ exagg]ation2 or ev5 :5 no?+ b tru? 0 spok51 if only ! deliv]] seem$ to take up a false or exagg]at$ view4 ,he mu/ n m]ely speak ! :ole tru? himself1 b he mu/ h ! he>] also to appreh5d ! :ole tru?4 ,he sp5t mu* ( 8 leisure h\rs 9 att5d+ to ! y\ng] memb]s ( ! family4 ,t5d] & affectionate1 8 griev$ look :5 !y vex$ him by resi/+ 8 c\nsels1 _h 7x is said7 some?+ 9 x s p]suasive t x nev] fail$ 9 ! end to prevail on ^? ) :om 8 words _h n succe$$4 ,8 y\nge/ bro!r1 at a "t :5 he liv$ accord+ to ! c\rse ( ?is _w1 0 ! subject ( _m ( 8 f]v5t pray]s4 ,b a deep melan*oly1 9 a great degree ! effect ( bodily ailm5ts1 settl$ d[n on ,david's s\l4 ,_m we>y mon?s did he sp5d 9 awful gloom1 till ! tr\ble ( 8 s\l wa/$ away 8 body3 b ! light broke 9 be=e 8 dea?2 joy f ! face ( a fully reconcil$ ,fa!r above light$ up 8 face2 & ! peace ( 8 la/ days 0 ! sweet consolation left to 8 afflict$ fri5ds1 :51 #h? ,july #ahea1 he fell asleep 9 ,jesus4 ,! dea? ( ?is bro!r1 ) all its circum/ances1 0 us$ by ! ,holy ,_s to produce a deep impression on ,rob]t's s\l4 ,9 _m respects--ev5 9 ! gifts ( a poetic m9d--!re _h be5 a cong5iality betwe5 him & ,david4 ,! vivacity ( ,rob]t's ev] active & lively m9d 0 ! *ief po9t ( diff]5ce4 ,?is vivacity admirably fitt$ him = public life2 x ne$$ only to be *a/5$ & solemniz$1 & ! ev5t t _h n[ occurr$ wr\ght ?is effect4 ,a few mon?s be=e1 ! happy family circle _h be5 brok5 up by ! dep>ture ( ! second bro!r = ,india1 9 ! ,b5gal ,m$ical ,s]vice2 b :51 9 ! c\rse ( ! summ]1 ,david 0 remov$ f !m =ev]1 !re 7 impressions left su* z c\ld nev] be effac$1 at lea/ f ! m9d ( ,rob]t4 ,naturally ( an int5sely affectionate disposition1 ?is /roke mov$ 8 :ole s\l4 ,8 quiet h\rs seem to h be5 (t5 sp5t 9 ?\ghts ( him :o 0 n[ gone to glory4 ,!re are "s l9es rema9+ 9 :i* 8 poetic m9d has mo/ t\*+ly1 & ) uncommon vigor1 pa9t$ him :om he _h lo/1--l9es all ! m int]e/+1 because ! del9eation ( "* & =m :i* !y conta9 _c fail to call up to ^? :o knew him ! image ( ! au?or himself4 ,"s "t aft] 8 bro!r's dea? he _h tri$ to pres]ve ! features ( 8 well-rememb]$ =m1 by attempt+ a portrait f memory2 b ?r[+ aside ! p5cil 9 despair1 he took up ! p51 & p\r$ out ! fulness ( 8 he>t4 ,,on ,,pa9t+ ,,! ,,m9iature ,,lik5ess ,,( ,,"o ,,dep>t$4 ,,alas6 n p]fect yet--ano!r t\*1 ,& /ill ano!r1 & ano!r /ill1 ,till ^? dull lips brea! life1 & yond] eye ,lose its lack lu/re hue1 & be lit up ,) ! w>m glance ( liv+ feel+4 ,no-- ,x nev] c be6 ,ah1 poor1 p[]less art6 ,mo/ vaunt+1 yet mo/ impot5t1 ?\ seek'/ ,to trace ! ?\s&1 ?\s& %ades & lights ,t gl[$ conspicu\s on ! bless$ face ,( him ?\ fa9 w\ld/ imitate--to b9d ,d[n to ! fragile canvas ! wild play ,( ?\ght & mild affection1 :i* 7 wont ,to dwell 9 ! s]i\s eye1 & play ar\nd ,! placid m\?4 ,?\ seek'/ to give aga9 ,t :i* ! burn+ s\l1 inhabit+ ,its clay-built t5em5t1 alone c give-- ,to leave on cold dead matt] ! impress ,( liv+ m9d--to bid a l9e1 a %ade1 ,speak =?1 n words1 b ! s(t int]c\rse ,:i* ! immortal _s1 :ile on e>? ,x tab]nacles1 brea!s f e pore-- ,?\ghts n conv]t$ into words1 & hopes1 ,& fe>s1 & hidd5 joys1 & griefs1 unborn ,into ! _w ( s\nd1 b beam+ =? ,9 t expression :i* no words1 or "w ,( cunn+ arti/1 c express4 ,9 va91 ,alas6 9 va96 ,come hi!r1 ,pa9t]2 come1 ,take up once m ?9e in/rum5ts--?y bru% ,& palette--if ?y haughty art be1 z ?\ say'/1 ,omnipot5t1 & if ?y h& c d>e ,to wield creative p[]4 ,r5ew ?y toil1 ,& let my memory1 vivifi$ by love1 ,:i* ,dea?'s cold sep>ation has b w>m$ ,& r5d]$ sacr$ dictate to ?y skill1 ,& guide ?y p5cil4 ,f ! jetty hair ,take (f t gaudy lu/re t b mocks ,! true orig9al2 & let ! dry1 ,s(t1 g5tle-turn+ locks1 appe> in/ead4 ,:at ?\gh to fa%ion's g>i% eye !y seem ,untutor$ & unga9ly8 /ill to me1 ,?an folly's foppi% head-ge>1 loveli] f> ,are !y1 because bespeak+ m5tal toil1 ,labor assidu\s1 ?r\gh ! gold5 days 7,gold5 if s improv$7 ( guileless y\?1 ,unwe>i$ m9+ 9 ! preci\s /ores ,( classic lore--& bett]1 nobl] /ill1 ,9 ,god's own holy writ4 ,& scatt] "h ,& !re a ?read ( grey1 to m>k ! grief ,t prematurely *eck$ ! b\nd+ fl[ ,( ! w>m curr5t 9 8 ve9s1 & %$ ,an e>ly twilight o'er s bright a dawn4 ,no wr9kle sits ^u t br[6--& ?us ,x ev] 04 ,! angry /rife & c>es ,( av>ici\s mis] did n leave ,_! base memorial on s fair a page4 ,! eyebr[s next draw clos] d[n1 & ?r[ ,a s(t5+ %ade o'er ! mild orbs bel[4 ,let ! full eyelid1 droop+1 half conceal ,! back-retir+ eye2 & po9t to e>? ,! long br[n la%es t bespeak a s\l ,l 8 :o said1 ,i am n wor?y1 ,"l6 ,f und]nea? ^! l[ly turn+ lids1 ,let n %9e =? ! gaily sp>kl+ light ,:i* dazzles (t1 & (t deceives2 nor yet ,! dull unmean+ lu/re t c gaze ,alike on all ! _w4 ,b pa9t an eye ,9 ^: half-hidd51 /eady light ,i read ,a tru?-inquir+ m9d2 a fancy1 too1 ,t c\ld array 9 sweet poetic g>b ,! tru? he f\nd2 :ile on 8 artless h>p ,he t\*$ ! g5tle/ feel+s1 :i* ! blaze ,( w9t]'s he>? w>ms 9 ! homely he>t4 ,& oh6 recall ! look ( fai? s9c]e1 ,) :i* t eye w\ld scrut9ize ! page ,t tells u ( (f5d$ ,god appeas$ ,by awful sacrifice ^u ! cross ,( ,calv>y--t bids u leave a _w ,imm]s$ 9 d>kness & 9 dea?1 & seek ,a bett] c\ntry4 ,ah6 h[ (t t eye ,w\ld turn on me1 ) pity's t5d]e/ look1 ,&1 only half-upbraid+1 bid me flee ,f ! va9 idols ( my boyi% he>t6 ,x 0 ab\t ! same "t1 :ile /ill feel+ ! sadness ( ?is b]eavem5t1 t he wrote ! fragm5t entitl$ ,,! ,,righte\s ,,p]i%e?1 ,,& ,,no ,,man ,,laye? ,,x ,,to ,,he>t4 ,a grave ,i "k ,:]e e>?ly %[ ,is n--a m\nd ,^: g5tle r\nd ,su/a9s ! load ,( a fre% sod4 ,its %ape is rude1 ,& we$s intrude ,_! yell[ fl[]s-- ,9 gay] b[]s ,unkn[n4 ,! grass1 ,a tuft$ mass1 ,is rank & /rong1 ,unsmoo!d & long4 ,no rosebud !re ,embalms ! air2 ,no lily *a/e ,adorns ! wa/e1 ,nor daisy's head ,b$ecks ! b$4 ,no myrtles wave ,above t grave2 ,nor hea!r-bell ,is !re to tell ,( g5tle fri5d ,:o s\ght to l5d ,a sweet] sleep ,to him :o deep ,b5ea? ! gr\nd ,repose has f\nd4 ,no /one ( woe ,is !re to %[ ,! "n1 or tell ,h[ pass+ well ,he lov$ 8 ,god1 ,& h[ he trod ,! humble road ,t leads ?r\gh sorr[ ,to a bright morr[ ,unkn[n 9 life1 ,& f> f /rife1 ,he liv$3--& ?\gh ,! magic fl[ ,( g5ius play$ ,ar\nd 8 head1 ,& he c\ld weave ,! song at eve1 ,& t\* ! he>t1 ,) g5tle/ art2 ,or c>e beguile1 ,& draw ! smile ,( peace f ^? ,:o wept _! woes ,yet :5 ! love ,( ,*ri/ above ,to guilty m5 ,0 %[n him--!n ,he left ! joys ,( worldly noise1 ,& humbly laid ,8 droop+ head ,^u ! cross2 ,& ?\ght ! loss ,( all t e>? ,conta9$--( mir?1 ,( loves1 & fame1 ,& pleasures' "n-- ,no sacrifice ,to w9 ! prize1 ,:i* ,*ri/ secur$1 ,:5 ,he endur$ ,= u ! load-- ,! wra? ( ,god6 ,) _m a te>1 ,& _m a fe>1 ,) _m a sigh ,& he>t-wrung cry ,( timid fai?1 ,he s\ght ! brea?3 ,b :i* c give ,! p[] to live-- ,^: ^w alone ,c melt ! /one1 ,bid tumult cease1 ,& all be peace6 ,he s\ght n n[ ,to wrea! 8 br[ ,) laurel b\gh4 ,he s\ght no m ,to ga!r /ore ,( e>?ly lore1 ,nor va9ly /rove ,to %>e ! love ,( heav5 above1 ,) aught bel[ ,t e>? c %[ ,! smile =sook ,8 *eek--8 look ,0 cold & sad2 ,& ev5 ! glad ,return ( morn1 ,:5 ! ripe corn ,waves o'er ! pla9s1 ,& simple swa9s ,) joy prep>e ,! toil to %>e ,( h>ve/1 br\ght ,no lively ?\ght ,to him4 ,& spr+ adorns ,! sunny morns ,) op5+ fl[]s2 ,& beauty %[]s ,o'er lawn & mead2 ,its virg9 head ,! sn[drop /eeps ,9 dew1 & peeps ,! crocus =?1 ,nor dreads ! nor?4 ,b ev5 ! spr+ ,no smile c br+ ,to him1 ^: eye ,s\ght 9 ! sky ,= bright] sc5es1 ,:]e int]v5es ,no d>k5+ cl\d ,( s9 to %r\d ,! gaz]'s view4 ,?us sadly flew ,! m]ry spr+2 ,& gaily s+ ,! birds _! loves ,9 summ] groves4 ,b n = him ,_! notes !y trim4 ,8 e> is cold-- ,8 tale is told4 ,above 8 grave ,! grass may wave-- ,! cr[d pass by ,)\t a sigh ,above ! spot4 ,!y knew him n-- ,!y c\ld n "k2 ,& ev5 ?\gh1 ,:y %\ld !y %$ ,above ! dead ,:o slumb]s "h ,a s+le te>8 ,i _c weep1 ,?\gh 9 my sleep ,i sometimes clasp ,) love's fond grasp ,8 g5tle h&1 ,& see him /& ,beside my b$1 ,& lean 8 head ,^u my brea/1 ,& bid me re/ ,nor night nor day ,till ,i c say ,t ,i h f\nd ,! holy gr\nd ,9 :i* !re lies ,! ,pe>l ( ,price-- ,till all ! ties ,! s\l t b9d1 ,& all ! lies ,! s\l t bl9d1 ,be 444 ,no?+ c\ld m fully prove ! deep impression :i* ! ev5t made ?an ^! v]ses4 ,b x 0 n a transi5t regret1 nor 0 x ! sorr[ ( ! _w4 ,he 0 9 8 eighte5? ye> :5 8 bro!r di$2 & if ?is 0 n ! ye> ( 8 new bir?1 at lea/ x 0 ! ye> :5 ! fir/ /reaks ( dawn appe>$ 9 8 s\l4 ,f t day =w>d 8 fri5ds obs]v$ a *ange4 ,8 poetry 0 p]vad$ ) s]i\s ?\ght1 & all 8 pursuits began to be foll[$ out 9 ano!r _s4 ,he engag$ 9 ! labors ( a ,sabba? s*ool1 & began to seek ,god to 8 s\l1 9 ! dilig5t read+ ( ! ^w1 & att5dance on a fai?ful m9i/ry4 ,h[ important ?is p]iod ( 8 life appe>$ 9 8 own view1 may be ga!r$ f 8 allusions to x 9 lat] days4 ,a ye> aft]1 he writes 9 8 di>y3 ,on ?is morn+ la/ ye> came ! fir/ ov]:elm+ bl[ to my worldl9ess2 h[ bless$ to me1 ,?\1 ,o ,god1 only kn[e/1 :o ha/ made x s4 ,e ye> he m>k$ ?is day z "o to be rememb]$1 & occasionally its recollections seem to h come 9 l a flood4 ,9 a lett] to a fri5d 7#h? ,july #ahdb71 ^u a matt] entirely local1 he concludes by a po/script3 ,?is day elev5 ye>s ago1 my holy bro!r ,david ent]$ into 8 re/1 ag$ #bf4 ,& on t same day1 writ+ a note to "o ( 8 flock 9 ,dundee 7:o _h ask$ him to furni% a preface to a "w pr9t$ #agdj1 ,lett]s on ,spiritual ,subjects71 he comm5ds ! book1 & adds3 ,pray = me1 t ,i may be made holi] & wis]--less l myself1 & m l my heav5ly ,ma/]2 t ,i may n reg>d my life1 if s be ,i may f9i% my c\rse ) joy4 ,?is day elev5 ye>s ago1 ,i lo/ my lov$ & lov+ bro!r1 & began to seek a ,bro!r :o _c die4 ,x 0 to companions :o c\ld sympa?ize 9 8 feel+s t he unbosom$ himself4 ,at t p]iod x 0 n common = inquir+ s\ls to c>ry _! case to _! pa/or4 ,a conv5tional res]ve ^u !ses subjects prevail$ ev5 among lively believ]s4 ,x almo/ seem$ z if !y 7 a%am$ ( ! ,son ( man4 ,?is res]ve appe>$ to him v s9ful2 & he felt x to be s great an evil1 t 9 aft] days he 0 c>eful to enc\rage anxi\s s\ls to conv]se ) him freely4 ,! nature ( 8 exp]i5ce1 h[ev]1 we h "s means ( kn[+4 ,on "o occasion1 a few ( u :o _h /udi$ toge!r 7 review+ ! ,"l's deal+s ) our s\ls1 & h[ ,he _h br\ght u to himself all v ne>ly at ! same "t1 ?\gh )\t any special in/rum5tality4 ,he /at$ t !re 0 no?+ sudd5 9 8 case1 & t he 0 l$ to ,*ri/ ?r\gh deep & ev]-abid+1 b n awful or di/ract+1 convictions4 ,9 ?is we see ! ,"l's sov]eignty4 ,9 br++ a s\l to ! ,savi\r1 ! ,holy ,_s inv>iably leads x to v deep consci\sness ( s92 b !n ,he causes ?is consci\sness ( s9 to be m di/ress+ & intol]able to "s ?an to o!rs4 ,b 9 "o po9t does ! exp]i5ce ( all believ+ s9n]s agree 9 ?is matt]1 viz4 _! s\l pres5t$ to _! view no?+ b an abyss ( s91 :5 ! grace ( ,god t br+e? salvation appe>$4 ,! ,holy ,_s c>ri$ on 8 "w 9 ! subject ( ?is ,memoir1 by cont9u+ to deep5 9 him ! conviction ( 8 ungodl9ess1 & ! pollution ( 8 :ole nature4 ,& all 8 life long1 he view$ orig9al s91 n z an excuse = 8 actual s9s1 b z an aggravation ( !m all4 ,9 ?is view he 0 ( ! m9d ( ,david1 taught by ! un]r+ ,_s ( ,tru?4 ,see ,psalm #ea3d1 #e4 ,at fir/ light dawn$ sl[ly2 s sl[ly1 t = a consid]able "t he /ill reli%$ an occasional plunge into sc5es ( gaiety4 ,ev5 aft] ent]+ ! ,div9ity ,hall1 he c\ld be p]suad$ to indulge 9 light] pursuits1 at lea/ dur+ ! two fir/ ye>s ( 8 att5dance2 b x 0 ) gr[+ al>m4 ,:5 hurri$ away by su* worldly joys1 ,i f9d him writ+ ?us3--,sept4 #ad4--,may !re be few su* records z ?is 9 my biography4 ,!n1 ,dec4 #i4--;,a ?orn 9 my side--mu* torm5t4 ,z ! unhol9ess ( 8 pleasures became m app>5t1 he writes3--,m>* #aj1 #ahcb4--;,i hope nev] to play c>ds aga94 ,m>* #be4--,nev] visit on a ,sunday ev5+ aga94 ,april #aj4--;,abs5t$ myself f ! dance2 upbraid+s ill to be>4 ,b ,i mu/ try to be> ! cross4 ,x seems to be 9 ref]5ce to ! rec$+ tide1 :i* ?us = a season repeat$ly drew him back to ! _w1 t on ,july #h1 #ahcf1 he records3 ,?is morn+ five ye>s ago1 my de> bro!r ,david di$1 & my he>t = ! fir/ "t knew true b]eavem5t4 ,truly x 0 all well4 ,let me be dumb1 = ,?\ did/ x3 & x 0 good = me t ,i 0 afflict$4 ,i "k n t any provid5ce 0 ev] m abus$ by man ?an t 0 by me2 & yet1 ,"l1 :at m\nta9s ,?\ come/ ov]6 none 0 ev] m bless$ to me4 ,to u :o c look at ! results1 x appe>s probable t ! ,"l p]mitt$ him ?us to try _m brok5 ci/]ns1 & to ta/e ! wormwood ( _m e>?ly /reams1 9 ord] t 9 aft] days1 by ! side ( ! f\nta9 ( liv+ wat]s1 he might po9t to ! _w he _h =ev] left1 & te/ify ! surpass+ preci\sness ( :at he _h n[ f\nd4 ,mr4 ,alex&] ,som]ville 7aft]w>ds m9i/] ( ,&]/on ,*ur*1 ,glasg[7 0 8 famili> fri5d & companion 9 ! gay sc5es ( 8 y\?4 ,& he1 too1 ab\t ?is "t1 hav+ be5 br\ght to ta/e ! p[]s ( ! _w to come1 !y unit$ _! ef=ts = ea* o!r's welf>e4 ,!y met toge!r = ! /udy ( ! ,bible1 & us$ to ex]cise !mselves 9 ! ,septuag9t ,greek & ! ,hebrew orig9al4 ,b (t5] /ill !y met = pray] & solemn conv]se2 & c>ry+ on all _! /udies 9 ! same _s1 wat*$ ea* o!r's /eps 9 ! n>r[ way4 ,he ?\ght himself mu* pr(it$1 at ?is p]iod1 by inve/igat+ ! subject ( ,election & ! ,free ,grace ( ,god4 ,b x 0 ! read+ ( ,! ,sum ( ,sav+ ,k1 g5]ally app5d$ to our ,confession ( ,fai?1 t br\ght him to a cle> und]/&+ ( ! way ( acceptance ) ,god4 ,^? :o are acqua9t$ ) its admirable /atem5ts ( tru?1 w see h[ well fitt$ x 0 to direct an inquir+ s\l4 ,i f9d him "s ye>s aft]w>ds record+3--,m>* #aa1 #ahcd4--,read 9 ! ,sum ( ,sav+ ,k1 ! "w :i* ,i ?9k fir/ ( all wr\ght a sav+ *ange 9 me4 ,h[ gladly w\ld ,i r5ew ! read+ ( x1 if t *ange might be c>ri$ on to p]fection6 ,x w be obs]v$ t he nev] reckon$ 8 s\l sav$1 not)/&+ all 8 convictions & views ( s9s1 until he really w5t into ! ,holie/ ( all on ! w>rant ( ! ,r$eem]'s "w2 = assur$ly a s9n] is /ill "u wra?1 until he has actually avail$ himself ( ! way to ! ,fa!r op5$ up by ,jesus4 ,all 8 k ( 8 s9fulness1 & all 8 sad feel+ ( 8 own ne$ & dang]1 _c place him "o /ep f>!r (f f ! lake ( fire4 ,x is he t comes to ,*ri/ t is sav$4 ,be=e ?is p]iod he _h receiv$ a bias t[>ds ! m9i/ry f 8 bro!r ,david1 :o us$ to speak ( ! m9i/ry z ! mo/ bless$ "w on e>?1 & (t5 express$ ! greate/ delight 9 ! hope t 8 y\ng] bro!r might "o day become a m9i/] ( ,*ri/4 ,& n[1 ) alt]$ views1--) an eye t c\ld gaze on heav5 & hell1 & a he>t t felt ! love ( a reconcil$ ,god1--he s\ght to become a h]ald ( salvation4 ,he _h begun to keep a regi/] ( 8 /udies1 & ! mann] 9 :i* 8 "t slipp$ away1 "s mon?s be=e 8 bro!r's dea?4 ,= a consid]able "t ?is regi/] conta9s almo/ no?+ b ! b>e incid5ts ( ! di>y1 & on ,sabba?s ! texts ( ! s]mons he _h he>d4 ,!re is "o gleam ( s]i\s ?\ght--b x is ! only "o--dur+ t p]iod4 ,on occasion ( ,dr4 ,&rew ,?omson's fun]al1 he records ! deep & univ]sal grief t p]vad$ ! t[n1 & !n subjo9s3 ,pleas+ to see s mu* public feel+ excit$ on ! decease ( s wor?y a man4 ,h[ mu* are ! times *ang$ )9 ^! eighte5 c5turies1 s9ce ! "t :5 ,joseph bes\ght ! body 9 secret1 & :5 he & ,nicodemus 7 ! only ones f\nd to be> ! body to ! tomb6 ,x is 9 ! end ( ! ye> t evid5ces ( a *ange appe>4 ,f t p]iod & ev] onw>d 8 dry regi/] ( e-day incid5ts is v>i$ ) su* passages z ! foll[+3-- ,nov4 #ab4--,read+ ,h4 ,m>tyn's ,memoirs4 ,w\ld ,i c\ld imitate him1 giv+ up fa!r1 "m1 c\ntry1 h\se1 heal?1 life1 all--= ,*ri/4 ,& yet1 :at h9d]s8 ,"l1 purify me1 & give me /r5g? to d$icate myself1 my all1 to ,!e6 ,dec4 #d4--,read+ ,legh ,ri*mond's ,life4 ,poet5tia pr(unda1 non s9e lacrymis4 ,nunquam me ipsum1 tam vilem1 tam inutilem1 tam paup]im1 et prcipue tam +ratum1 adhuc vidi4 ,s9t lacrym d$icationis me pignora6' ,deep p5it5ce1 n unmix$ ) te>s4 ,i nev] be=e saw myself s vile1 s useless1 s poor1 &1 above all1 s ungrateful4 ,may ^! te>s be ! pl$ges ( my self-d$ication6 ,!re is frequ5tly at ?is p]iod a s5t5ce 9 ,lat9 occurr+ l ! above 9 ! mid/ ( o!r matt]1 app>5tly ) ! view ( giv+ fre] expression to 8 feel+s reg>d+ himself4 ,dec4 #i4--;,he>d a /reet-prea*]3 =eign voice4 ,seems really 9 e>ne/4 ,he quot$ ! /rik+ passage1 ',! ,_s & ! bride say1 ,come1 & let him t he>e? say1 ,come6' ,f ?is he seems to d]ive 8 au?ority4 ,let me le>n f ?is man to be 9 e>ne/ = ! tru?1 & to despise ! sc(f+ ( ! _w4 ,dec4 #ah4--;,aft] sp5d+ an ev5+ too lightly1 he writes3 ,my he>t mu/ break (f f all ^! ?+s4 ,:at "r h ,i to /eal & abuse my ,ma/]'s "t8 ',r$eem x1' ,he is cry+ to me4 ,dec4 #be4--,my m9d n yet calmly fix$ on ! ,rock ( ,ages4 ,jan4 #ab1 #ahcb4--;,cor non pacem habet4 ,qu>e8 ,peccatum apud =es manet4 ,my he>t has n peace4 ,:y8 ,s9 lie? at my door4 ,jan4 #be4--;,a lovely day4 ,eighty-f\r cases ( *ol]a at ,musselburgh1 ,h[ x creeps ne>] & ne>] l a snake6 ,:o w be ! fir/ victim "h8 ,let ?9e ev]la/+ arms be ar\nd u1 & we %all be safe4 ,jan4 #bi1 ,sabba?4--,aft]noon he>d ,mr4 ,bruce 7!n m9i/] ( ! ,new ,nor? ,*ur*1 ,ed9burgh7 on ,mala*i #a3a-f4 ,x con/itutes ! v gravam5 ( ! *>ge aga9/ ! unr5ew$ man1 t he has affection = 8 e>?ly p>5t1 & rev]5ce = 8 e>?ly ma/]1 b none = ,god6 ,mo/ noble disc\rse4 ,feb4 #b4--,n a trait wor? rememb]+6 ,& yet ^! f\r-&-tw5ty h\rs mu/ be acc\nt$ =4 ,feb4 #e1 ,sabba?4--,9 ! aft]noon1 hav+ he>d ! late ,mr4 ,m>t9 ( ,/4 ,george's1#a he writes1 on return+ home3 ,o quam humilem1 s$ quam dilig5tissimum2 quam dejectum1 s$ quam vigilem1 quam die noctuque precantem1 decet me esse quum tales viros aspicio4 ,juva1 ,pat]1 ,fili1 et ,spiritus6 ,oh6 h[ humble1 yet h[ dilig5t1 h[ l[ly1 yet h[ wat*ful1 h[ pray]ful night & day x becomes me to be1 :5 ,i see su* m54 ,help1 ,fa!r1 ,son1 & ,_s6 #a ,he says ( him on ano!r occasion1 ,june #h1 #ahcd3 ,a man greatly belov$ ( :om ! _w 0 n wor?y4 ,an apo/olic man4 ,8 own calm deep hol9ess1 resembl$ 9 _m respects ,mr4 ,m>t9's daily walk4 ,f ?is date he seems to h sat1 along ) 8 fri5d ,mr4 ,som]ville1 almo/ entirely "u ,mr4 ,bruce's m9i/ry4 ,he took copi\s notes ( 8 lectures & s]mons1 :i* /ill rema9 among 8 pap]s4 ,feb4 #bh4--,sob] conv]sation4 ,fa9 w\ld ,i turn to ! mo/ int]e/+ ( all subjects4 ,c[>dly backw>dness3 ',= :osoev] is a%am$ ( me & my words1' etc4 ,at ?is "t1 he>+1 conc]n+ a fri5d ( ! family1 t %e _h said1 ,t %e 0 det]m9$ to keep by ! _w1 he p5n$ ! foll[+ l9es on h] melan*oly decision3-- ,%e has *os5 ! _w1 ,& its paltry cr[d2 ,%e has *os5 ! _w1 ,& an endless %r\d6 ,%e has *os5 ! _w ,) its misnam$ pleasures2 ,%e has *os5 ! _w1 ,be=e heav5's own treasures4 ,%e ha? laun*$ h] boat ,on life's giddy sea1 ,& h] all is afloat ,= et]nity4 ,b ,be?lehem's /> ,is n 9 h] view2 ,& h] aim is f> ,f ! h>bor true4 ,:5 ! /orm desc5ds ,f an angry sky1 ,ah6 :]e f ! w9ds ,%all ! vessel fly8 ,away1 !n--oh1 fly ,f ! joys ( e>?6 ,h] smile is a lie-- ,!re's a /+ 9 h] mir?499 ,:5 />s are conceal$1 ,& rudd] gone1 ,& heav5 is seal$ ,to ! w&]+ "o ,! :irlpool opes ,= ! gallant prize2 ,&1 ) all h] hopes1 ,to ! deep %e hies6 ,b :o may tell ,( ! place ( woe1 ,:]e ! wick$ dwell1 ,:]e ! worldl+s g8 ,= ! human he>t ,c ne'er conceive ,:at joys are ! "p ,( !m :o believe2 ,nor c ju/ly ?9k ,( ! cup ( dea?1 ,:i* all mu/ dr9k ,:o despise ! fai?4 99,come1 leave ! dreams ,( ?is transi5t night1 ,& bask 9 ! beams ,( an endless light4 99,,transcrib]',s ,,note3 ,9 ! orig9al ,memoirs & ,rema9s ( ! ,rev]5d ,rob]t ,murray ,mc,cheyne1 ! passage 9 brackets 0 ! fir/ half ( ! la/1 eight-l9e /anza1 & ! foll[+ qu>tet 0 "p ( ! eight-l9e /anza beg9n+ ,:5 ! /orm desc5ds4 ,m>* #f4--,wild w9d & ra9 all day long4 ,hebrew class--,psalms4 ,new beauty 9 ! orig9al e "t ,i read4 ,dr4 ,wel%--lecture on ,pl9y's lett] ab\t ! ,*ri/ians ( ,bi?ynia4 ,pr(essor ,jameson on qu>tz4 ,dr4 ,*alm]s grappl+ ) ,hume's argum5ts4 ,ev5+--,notes1 & little else4 ,m9d & body dull4 ,?is is a specim5 ( 8 regi/] ( daily /udy4 ,m>* #bj4--;,aft] a few s5t5ces 9 ,lat91 conclud+ ) ,9 meam animam v5i1 ,dom9e ,deus omnipot5s1 he writes1 ,lean+ on a /aff ( my own devis+1 x betray$ me1 & broke "u me4 ,x 0 n ?y /aff4 ,resolv+ to be a god1 ,?\ %[$/ me t ,i 0 b a man4 ,b my own /aff be+ brok51 :y may ,i n lay hold ( ?9e8--,read "p ( ! ,life ( ,jona?an ,edw>ds4 ,h[ feeble does my sp>k ( ,*ri/ianity appe> beside su* a sun6 ,b ev5 8 0 a borr[$ light1 & ! same s\rce is /ill op5 to enlight5 me4 ,april #h4--;,h f\nd mu* re/ 9 ,him :o bore all our burd5s = u4 ,april #bf4--,to-night ,i v5tur$ to break ! ice ( un*ri/ian sil5ce4 ,:y %\ld n selfi%ness be buri$ b5ea? ! ,atlantic 9 matt]s s sacr$8 ,may #f1 ,saturday ev5+4--,?is 0 ! ev5+ previ\s to ! ,communion2 & 9 prospect ( aga9 decl>+ himself ! ,"l's at 8 table1 he ent]s into a brief review ( 8 /ate4 ,he _h p>tak5 ( ! ord9ance 9 ,may ( ! ye> be=e = ! fir/ "t2 b he 0 !n liv+ at ease1 & saw n ! solemn nature ( ! /ep he took4 ,he n[ sits d[n & reviews ! pa/3-- ,:at a mass ( corruption h ,i be56 ,h[ great a portion ( my life h ,i sp5t :olly )\t ,god 9 ! _w1 giv5 up to s5se & ! p]i%+ ?+s ar\nd me6 ,naturally ( a feel+ & s5tim5tal disposition1 h[ mu* ( my religion has be51 & to ?is day is1 t+$ ) ^! colors ( e>?6 ,re/ra9$ f op5 vice by educational views & ! fe> ( man1 h[ mu* ungodl9ess has reign$ )9 me6 ,h[ (t5 has x brok5 ?r\gh all re/ra9ts1 & come out 9 ! %ape ( lu/ & ang]1 mad ambitions1 & unhall[$ words6 ,?\gh my vice 0 always ref9$1 yet h[ subtile & h[ awfully preval5t x 06 ,h[ complete a te/ 0 ! ,sabba?--sp5t 9 we>9ess1 z mu* ( x z 0 giv5 to ,god's s]vice6 ,h[ ,i pollut$ x by my hypocrisies1 my self-conceits1 my worldly ?\ghts1 & worldly fri5ds6 ,h[ =mally & unhe$+ly ! ,bible 0 read1--h[ little 0 read1--s little t ev5 n[ ,i h n read x all6 ,h[ unb\nd$ly 0 ! wild impulse ( ! he>t obey$6 ,h[ mu* m 0 ! creature lov$ ?an ! ,creator6--,o great ,god1 t did/ suff] me to live :il/ ,i s di%onor$ ,!e1 ,?\ kn[e/ ! :ole2 & x 0 ?y h& alone t c\ld awak5 me f ! dea? 9 :i* ,i 01 & 0 cont5t$ to be4 ,gladly w\ld ,i h escap$ f ! ,%eph]d t s\ght me z ,i /ray$2 b ,he took me up 9 8 arms & c>ri$ me back2 & yet ,he took me n = any?+ t 0 9 me4 ,i 0 no m fit = 8 s]vice ?an ! ,au/ralian1 & no m wor?y to be call$ & *os54 ,yet :y %\ld ,i d\bt8 n t ,god is unwill+1 n t ,he is unable--( bo? ,i am assur$4 ,b p]haps my old s9s are too fe>ful1 & my unbelief too gl>+8 ,nay2 ,i come to ,*ri/1 n al?\gh ,i am a s9n]1 b j because ,i am a s9n]1 ev5 ! *ief4 ,he !n adds1 ,& ?\gh s5tim5t & con/itutional en?usiasm may h a great effect on me1 /ill ,i believe t my s\l is 9 s9c]ity desir\s & e>ne/ ab\t hav+ all its conc]ns at re/ ) ,god & ,*ri/1--t 8 k+dom occupies ! mo/ "p ( all my ?\ghts1 & ev5 ( my long-pollut$ affections4 ,n unto me1 n unto me1 be ! %ad[ ( praise or ( m]it ascrib$1 b let all glory be giv5 to ?y mo/ holy "n6 ,z surely z ,?\ did/ make ! m\? ) :i* ,i pray1 s surely do/ ,?\ prompt e pray] ( fai? :i* ,i utt]4 ,?\ ha/ made me all t ,i am1 & giv5 me all t ,i h4 ,next day1 aft] communicat+1 he writes3 ,i well rememb] :5 ,i 0 an enemy1 & especially abhorr$ ?is ord9ance z b9d+ me d[n2 b if ,i be b\nd to ,*ri/ 9 he>t1 ,i %all n dread any b&s t c draw me close to ,him4 ,ev5+--,mu* peace4 ,look back1 my s\l1 & view ! m9d t belong$ to !e b twelve mon?s ago4 ,my s\l1 ?y place is 9 ! du/6 ,may #ai4--,?\ght ) m com=t ?an usual ( be+ a witness = ,jesus 9 a =eign l&4 ,june #d4--,walk+ ) ,a4 ,som]ville by ,craiglei?4 ,conv]s+ on missions4 ,if ,i am to g to ! hea!n to speak ( ! unse>*able ri*es ( ,*ri/1 ?is "o ?+ mu/ be giv5 me1 to be out ( ! rea* ( ! baneful influ5ce ( e/eem or contempt4 ,if worldly motives g ) me1 ,i %all nev] conv]t a s\l1 & %all lose my own 9 ! labor4 ,june #bb4--,v>iety ( /udies4 ,septuag9t translation ( ,exodus & ,vulgate4 ,b\ght ,edw>ds' works4 ,draw+--,truly !re 0 no?+ 9 me t %\ld h induc$ ,him to *oose me4 ,i 0 b z ! o!r br&s ^u :om ! fire is already k9dl$1 :i* %all burn = ev]more6 ,& z soon c\ld ! billet leap f ! he>? & become a gre5 tree1 z my s\l c\ld h sprung to newness ( life4 ,june #be4--;,9 ref]5ce to ! (fice ( ! holy m9i/ry2 ,h[ apt are we to lose our h\rs 9 ! va9e/ babbl+s1 z d ! _w6 ,h[ c ?is be ) ^? *os5 = ! mighty (fice8 fell[-work]s ) ,god8 h]alds ( ,8 ,son8 evangeli/s8 m5 set ap>t to ! "w1 *os5 out ( ! *os51 z x 7 ! v pick ( ! flocks1 :o are to %9e z ! />s =ev] & ev]8 ,alas1 alas6 my s\l1 :]e %all ?\ appe>8 ,o ,"l ,god1 ,i am a little *ild6 ,b ,?\ wilt s5d an angel ) a live coal f (f ! alt>1 & t\* my unclean lips1 & put a tongue )9 my dry m\?1 s t ,i %all say ) ,isaiah1 ',"h am ,i1 s5d me4' ,!n1 aft] read+ a little ( ,edw>ds' works3 ,oh t he>t & und]/&+ may gr[ toge!r1 l bro!r & si/]1 lean+ on "o ano!r6 ,june #bg4--,life ( ,david ,bra9]d4 ,mo/ wond]ful man6 ,:at conflicts1 :at depressions1 des]tions1 /r5g?1 advancem5t1 victories1 )9 ?y torn bosom6 ,i _c express :at ,i ?9k :5 ,i ?9k ( !e4 ,to-night1 m set ^u mission>y ent]prise ?an ev]4 ,june #bh4--,oh = ,bra9]d's humility & s9-loa?+ dispositions6 ,june #cj4--,mu* c>elessness1 s91 & sorr[4 ',oh wret*$ man ?an ,i am1 :o %all deliv] me f ?is body ( s9 & dea?8' ,ent] ?\1 my s\l1 into ! rock1 & hide !e 9 ! du/ = fe> ( ! ,"l & ! glory ( 8 maje/y4 ,& !n he writes a few v]ses1 ( :i* ! foll[+ are "s /anzas3-- ,i w arise & seek my ,god1 ,&1 b[$ d[n b5ea? my load1 ,lay all my s9s be=e ,him2 ,!n ,he w wa% my s\l f s91 ,& put a new he>t me )91 ,& tea* me to adore ,him4 ,o ye t fa9 w\ld f9d ! joy-- ,! only "o t wants alloy-- ,:i* nev] is deceiv+2 ,come to ! ,well ( ,life ) me1 ,& dr9k1 z x is pr(f]$1 free1 ,! gospel draught receiv+4 ,i come to ,*ri/1 because ,i "k ,! v wor/ are call$ to g2 ,& :5 9 fai? ,i f9d ,him1 ,i'll walk 9 ,him1 & lean on ,him1 ,because ,i _c move a limb ,until ,he say1 ,unb9d him4 ,july #c4--,?is la/ bitt] root ( worldl9ess t has s (t5 betray$ me has ?is night s grossly1 t ,i _c b reg>d x z ,god's *os5 way to make me loa! & =sake x =ev]4 ,i w\ld v[2 b x is mu* m l a weakly worm to pray4 ,sit 9 ! du/1 ,o my s\l6 ,i believe he 0 enabl$ to keep 8 resolution4 ,once only1 9 ! end ( ?is ye>1 0 he aga9 l$ back to gaiety2 b x 0 ! la/ "t4 ,july #g1 ,saturday4--,aft] f9i%+ my usual /udies1 tri$ to fa/ a little1 ) mu* pray] & e>ne/ seek+ ( ,god's face1 rememb]+ :at occurr$ ?is night la/ ye>4 7,allud+ to 8 bro!r's dea?47 ,july #bb4--;,_h ?is ev5+ a m complete und]/&+ ( t self-empty+ & abasem5t ) :i* x is necess>y to come to ,*ri/1--a d5y+ ( self1 trampl+ x "u foot1--a recogniz+ ( ! complete righte\sness & ju/ice ( ,god1 t c\ld d no?+ else ) u b condemn u utt]ly1 & ?ru/ u d[n to l[e/ hell1--a feel+ t1 ev5 9 hell1 we %\ld rejoice 9 8 sov]eignty1 & say t all 0 rightly done4 ,aug4 #ae4--,little done1 & z little suff]$4 ,awfully important "q1 ,am ,i r$eem+ ! "t8 ,aug4 #ah4--;,he>d ( ! dea? ( ,james ,som]ville#b by fev]1 induc$ by *ol]a4 ,o ,god1 ?y ways & ?\ghts are n z ours6 ,he _h prea*$ 8 fir/ s]mon4 ,i saw him la/ on ,friday1 #bg? ,july1 at ! ,college gate2 %ook h&s1 & little ?\ght ,i 0 to see him no m on e>?4 #b ,son ( ! m9i/] ( ,drumelzi]1--v promis+ & v amiable4 ,sept4 #b1 ,sabba? ev5+4--,read+4 ,too mu* engross$1 & too little devotional4 ,prep>ation = a fall4 ,w>n+4 ,we may be too engross$ ) ! %ell ev5 ( heav5ly ?+s4 ,sept4 #i4--,oh = true1 unfeign$ humility6 ,i "k ,i h cause to be humble2 & yet ,i d n "k "o-half ( t cause4 ,i "k ,i am pr\d2 & yet ,i d n "k ! half ( t pride4 ,sept4 #cj4--,some:at /rait5$ by loose ,sabba? obs]vance4 ,be/ way is to be explicit & manly4 ,nov4 #a4--,m abundant long+s = ! "w ( ! m9i/ry4 ,oh t ,*ri/ w\ld b c\nt me fai?ful1 t a disp5sation ( ! gospel might be committ$ to me6 ,& !n he adds1 ,mu* peace4 ,peaceful1 because believ+4 ,dec4 #b4--;,hi!rto he us$ to sp5d mu* ( ! ,sabba? ev5+ 9 ext5d+ 8 notes ( ,mr4 ,bruce's s]mons1 b n[1 ,det]m9$ to be brief ) ^!1 = ! sake ( a m practical1 m$itative1 re/+1 sabbatical ev5+4 ,dec4 #aa4--,m9d q unfitt$ = devotion4 ,pray]less pray]4 ,dec4 #ca4--;,god has 9 ?is pa/ ye> introduc$ me to ! prep>ation ( ! m9i/ry1--,i bless ,him = t4 ,he has help$ me to give up mu* ( my %ame to "n 8 "n1 & be on 8 side1 especially be=e p>ticul> fri5ds1--,i bless ,him = t4 ,he has tak5 conclusively away fri5ds t might h be5 a sn>e1--mu/ h be5 a /umbl+-block1--,i bless ,him = t4 ,he has introduc$ me to "o ,*ri/ian fri5d1 & seal$ m & m my amity ) ano!r1--,i bless ,him = t4 ,jan4 #bg1 #ahcc4--,on ?is day x _h be5 ! cu/om ( 8 bro!r ,david to write a ,c>m5 ,natale on _! fa!r's bir?-day4 ,rob]t took up ! dome/ic song ?is ye>2 & 9 do+ s1 makes "s beautiful & t5d] allusions4 ,ah6 :]e is ! h>p t 0 /rung to ?y praise1 ,s (t & s sweetly 9 happi] days8 ,:5 ! te>s t we %$ 7 ! te>s ( our joy1 ,& ! pleasures ( home 7 unmix$ ) alloy8 ,! h>p is n[ mute--its la/ brea?+s are spok5-- ,& ! cord1 ?\gh 'twas ?reefold1 is n[1 alas1 brok56 ,yet :y %\ld we murmur1 %ort-sight$ & va91 ,s9ce dea? to t lov$ "o 0 undy+ ga98 ,ah1 fools6 %all we grieve t he left ?is poor sc5e1 ,to dwell 9 ! realms t are ev] s]5e8 ,?r\gh he sp>kl$ ! gem 9 our circle ( love1 ,he is ev5 m priz$ 9 ! circles above4 ,& ?\gh sweetly he sung ( 8 fa!r on e>?1 ,:5 ?is day w\ld inspire him ) t5d]e/ mir?1 ,yet a holi] tone to 8 h>p is n[ giv51 ,z he s+s to 8 unborn ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,feb4 #c4--,writ+ to a m$ical fri5d ( 8 bro!r ,william's1 he says1 ,i rememb] long ago a rem>k y once made to ,william1 :i* has someh[ or o!r /uck 9 my head1 viz4 t m$ical m5 ought to make a di/9ct /udy ( ! ,bible1 purely = ! sake ( adm9i/]+ conviction & consolation to _! pati5ts4 ,i ?9k y also said t y _h actually begun ) t view4 ,su* a det]m9ation1 ?\gh =m$ 9 y\?1 is "o :i* ,i tru/ rip] ye>s w n make y blu% to own4 ,feb4 #aa4--,some:at ov]come4 ,let me see3 !re is a creep+ defect "h4 ,humble purpose-l read+ ( ! ^w omitt$4 ,:at plant c be unwat]$ & n )]8 ,feb4 #af4--,walk to ,cor/orph9e ,hill4 ,exquisite cle> view1--blue wat]1 & br[n fields1 & gre5 firs4 ,_m ?\ghts on ! follies ( my y\?4 ,h[ _m1 ,o ,"l1 may !y be8 ,summ$ up 9 "o--ungodl9ess6 ,feb4 #ba4--;,am ,i z will+ z ev] to prea* to ! lo/ hea!n8 ,m>* #h4--;,biblical criticism4 ,?is mu/ n sup]s$e he>t-"w4 ,h[ apt x is6 ,m>* #ab4--,oh = activity1 activity1 activity6 ,m>* #bi4--,to-day my second session 7at ! ,div9ity ,hall7 ends4 ,i am n[ 9 ! middle ( my c>e]4 ,god hold me on ) a /eady pace6 ,m>* #ca4--,! bull tosses 9 ! net6 ,h[ %\ld ! ,*ri/ian imitate ! anxieties ( ! worldl+6 ,april #ag4--;,he he>d ( ! dea? ( "o :om _m fri5ds _h e/eem$ mu* & lam5t$ deeply4 ,?is l$ him to t\* ! /r+s ( 8 h>p aga91 9 a measure some:at irregul>1 yet sad & sweet4 ,,we ,,all ,,d ,,fade ,,z ,a ,,leaf4 ,,%e ,,liv$-- ,s dy+-l & frail1 ,t e bitt] gale ,( w9t] seem$ to bl[ ,only to lay h] l[6 ,%e liv$ to %[ h[ ,he1 ,:o /ills ! /ormy sea1 ,c ov]rule ! w9t]'s p[]1 ,& keep alive ! t9ie/ fl[]-- ,c be> ! "y lamb 9 8 arms ,& %elt] x f dea?'s al>ms4 ,,%e ,,di$-- ,:5 spr+1 ) brighte/ fl[]s1 ,0 fre%'n+ all ! b[]s4 ,! l9net sung h] *oice/ lay1 ,:5 h] sweet voice 0 hu%'d = aye ,! sn[drop rose above ! gr\nd ,:5 %e b5ea? h] pill[ f\nd1 ,bo? cold1 & :ite1 & fair1-- ,%e1 faire/ ( ! fair1 ,%e di$ to tea* u all ,! lovelie/ mu/ fall4 ,a curse is writt5 on ! br[ ,( beauty2 & ! lov]'s v[ ,_c reta9 ! flitt+ brea?1 ,nor save f all-dev\r+ dea?4 ,,%e ,,lives-- ,! _s left ! e>?2 ,& he :o gave h] bir? ,has call$ h] to 8 dread abode1 ,to meet h] ,savi\r & h] ,god4 ,%e lives1 to tell h[ ble/ ,is ! ev]la/+ re/ ,( ^? :o1 9 ! ,lamb's blood lav$1 ,are *os51 sanctifi$1 & sav$6 ,h[ fe>ful is _! doom ,:o drop into ! tomb ,)\t a cov]t f ! ire ,( ,him :o is consum+ fire6 ,,%e ,,%all ,,live-- ,! grave %all yield 8 prize1 ,:51 f ! r5d+ skies1 ,*ri/ %all ) %\t+ angels come ,to wake ! slumb]]s ( ! tomb4 ,& _m m %all rise ,be=e our long+ eyes4 ,oh6 may we all toge!r meet1 ,embrac+ ! ,r$eem]'s feet6 ,may #bj4--;,g5]al ,assembly4 ,! motion reg>d+ ,*apels ( ,ease lo/ by #ajf to #ajc4 ,e %ock ( ! ram is heavi] & /rong]1 till all %all give way4 ,june #d4--;,ev5+ almo/ lo/4 ,music w n sanctify1 ?\gh x make fem99e ! he>t4 ,june #bb4--,omissions make way = commissions4 ,c\ld ,i b take effective w>n+6 ,a _w's weal? w\ld n make up = t say+1 ',if any man s91 we h an ,advocate ) ! ,fa!r4' ,b h[ %all we t are dead to s9 live any long] !re98 ,june #cj4--,self-exam9ation4 ,:y is a mission>y life s (t5 an object ( my ?\ghts8 ,is x simply = ! love ,i be> to s\ls8 ,!n1 :y d ,i n %[ x m :]e ,i am8 ,s\ls are z preci\s "h z 9 ,burmah4 ,does ! romance ( ! bus9ess n weigh any?+ ) me8--! int]e/ & e/eem ,i w\ld c>ry ) me8--! nice j\rnals & lett]s ,i %\ld write & receive8 ,:y w\ld ,i s mu* r g to ! ,ea/ ?an to ! ,we/ ,indies8 ,am ,i :olly deceiv+ my own he>t8 & h ,i n a sp>k ( true mission>y zeal8 ,"l1 give me to und]/& & imitate ! _s ( ^? une>?ly words ( ?y de> ,son3 ',x is en\gh = ! disciple t he be z 8 ,ma/]1 & ! s]vant z 8 ,"l4' ',he t love? fa!r or "m m ?an me1 is n wor?y ( me4' ,gloria 9 excelsis ,deo6 ,aug4 #ac4--;,cle> conviction ( s9 is ! only true orig9 ( dep5d5ce on ano!r's righte\sness1 & !re=e 7/range to say67 ( ! ,*ri/ian's peace ( m9d & *e]fulness4 ,sept4 #h4--,read+ ,adams' ,private ,?\ghts4 ,oh = 8 he>t-se>*+ humility6 ,ah me6 on :at m\nta9s ( pride mu/ ,i be w&]+1 :5 all ,i d is t9ctur$ ) ! v s9s ?is man s deplores2 yet :]e are my wail+s1 :]e my te>s1 ov] my love ( praise8 ,nov4 #ad4--;,composition--a pleasant k9d ( labor4 ,i fe> ! love ( applause or effect goes a great way4 ,may ,god keep me f prea*+ myself in/ead ( ,*ri/ crucifi$4 ,jan4 #ae1 #ahcd4--;,he>d ( ! dea? ( ,j4,s41 (f ! ,cape ( ,good ,hope4 ,o ,god6 h[ ,?\ breake/ into families6 ,mu/ n ! disease be dang]\s1 :5 a t5d]-he>t$ surgeon cuts deep into ! fle%8 ,h[ mu* m :5 ,god is ! op]ator1 ':o afflicte? n f 8 he>t ,hebrew3 meilivo1 nor grieve? ! *ildr5 ( m56' ,lam4 #c3cc4 ,feb4 #bc1 ,sabba?4--,rose e>ly to seek ,god1 & f\nd ,him :om my s\l love?4 ,:o w\ld n rise e>ly to meet su* company8 ,! ra9s are ov] & gone4 ,!y t s[ 9 te>s %all reap 9 joy4 ,feb4 #bd4--;,he writes a lett] to "o :o1 he fe>$1 0 only s5tim5tal1 & n really "u a s5se ( s94 ,is x possible1 ?9k y1 = a p]son to be conceit$ ( 8 mis]ies8 ,may !re n be a deep leav5 ( pride 9 tell+ h[ desolate & h[ unfeel+ we are8--9 brood+ ov] our une>?ly pa9s8--9 our be+ exclud$ f ! unsympa!tic _w8--9 our be+ ! invalids ( ,*ri/'s hospital8 ,he _h himself be5 taught by ! ,_s t x is m humbl+ = u to take :at grace (f]s1 ?an to bewail our wants & wor?lessness4 ,two days aft]1 he records1 ) ?ankful a/oni%m5t1 t = ! fir/ "t 9 8 life he _h be5 ble/ to awak5 a s\l4 ,all :o f9d ,*ri/ = !mselves are impell$1 by ! holy necessity ( con/ra9+ love1 to seek ! salvation ( o!rs4 ,&rew f9de? 8 bro!r ,pet]1 & ,philip f9de? 8 fri5d ,na?anael4 ,s 0 x 9 ! case be=e u4 ,he no soon] knew ,*ri/'s righte\sness z 8 own cov]+1 ?an he long$ to see o!rs clo!d 9 ! same spotless robe4 ,& x is peculi>ly int]e/+ to read ! feel+s ( "o :o 0 yet to be ble/ 9 pluck+ s _m br&s f ! fire1 :51 = ! fir/ "t1 he saw ! ,"l graci\sly employ+ him 9 ?is m ?an angelic "w4 ,we h 8 own te/imony4 ,feb4 #bf4--;,aft] s]mon4 ,! preci\s tid+s t a s\l has be5 melt$ d[n by ! grace ( ! ,savi\r4 ,h[ bless$ an answ] to pray]1 if x be really s6 ',c ^! dry bones live8 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/4' ,:at a bless$ ?+ x is to see ! fir/ griev+s ( ! awak5$ _s1 :5 x cries1 ',i _c see myself a s9n]2 ,i _c pray1 = my vile he>t w&]s6' ,x has refre%$ me m ?an a ?\s& s]mons4 ,i "k n h[ to ?ank & admire ,god suffici5tly = ?is incipi5t "w4 ,"l1 p]fect t :i* ,?\ ha/ begun6 ,a few days aft]3 ,"l1 ,i ?ank ,!e t ,?\ ha/ %[n me ?is m>vell\s work+1 ?\gh ,i 0 b an ador+ spectator r ?an an in/rum5t4 ,x is sc>cely less int]e/+1 9 ! case ( "o s gift$ = ! "w ( visit+ ! c>eless1 & s s+ul>ly skill$ 9 m9i/]+ ! ^w by ! b$side ( ! dy+1 to f9d a record ( ! occasion :5 ! ,"l l$ him =? to take 8 fir/ survey ( ?is field ( labor4 ,!re exi/$ at t "t1 among "s ( ! /ud5ts att5d+ ! ,div9ity ,hall1 a society1 ! sole object ( :i* 0 to /ir up ea* o!r to set ap>t an h\r or two e week = visit+ ! c>eless & ne$y 9 ! mo/ neglect$ portions ( ! t[n4 ,our rule 01 n to subtract any?+ f our times ( /udy1 b to devote to ?is "w an occasional h\r 9 ! int]vals betwe5 diff]5t classes1 or an h\r t might o!rwise h be5 giv5 to recreation4 ,all ( u felt ! "w to be try+ to ! fle% at ! outset2 b none ev] rep5t$ ( p]sev]+ 9 x4 ,"o ,saturday =5oon1 at ! close ( ! usual pray]-meet+1 :i* met 9 ,dr4 ,*alm]s' ve/ry1 we w5t up toge!r to a di/rict 9 ! ,ca/le ,hill4 ,x 0 ,rob]t's fir/ ne> view ( ! hea!nism ( 8 native city1 & ! effect 0 endur+4 ,m>* #c4--;,accompani$ ,a4,b4 9 "o ( 8 r\nds ?r\gh "s ( ! mo/ mis]able habitations ,i ev] beheld4 ,su* sc5es ,i nev] be=e dream$ (4 ,ah6 :y am ,i su* a /rang] to ! poor ( my native t[n8 ,i h pass$ _! doors ?\s&s ( times2 ,i h admir$ ! huge black piles ( build+1 ) _! l(ty *imneys break+ ! sun's rays1--:y h ,i nev] v5tur$ )98 ,h[ dwelle? ! love ( ,god 9 me8 ,h[ cordial is ! welcome ev5 ( ! poore/ & mo/ loa?some to ! voice ( ,*ri/ian sympa?y6 ,:at imb$d$ masses ( human be+s are huddl$ toge!r1 unvisit$ by fri5d or m9i/]6 ',no man c>e? = our s\ls' is writt5 ov] e =ehead4 ,awake1 my s\l6 ,:y %\ld ,i give h\rs & days any long] to ! va9 _w1 :5 !re is su* a _w ( mis]y at my v door8 ,"l1 put ?9e own /r5g? 9 me2 confirm e good resolution2 =give my pa/ long life ( uselessness & folly4 ,he =?) became "o ( ! society's mo/ /eady memb]s1 cultivat+ a di/rict 9 ! ,canongate1 tea*+ a ,sabba? s*ool1 & di/ribut+ ! ,mon?ly ,visitor1 along ) ,mr4 ,som]ville4 ,8 exp]i5ce !re 0 fitt$ to give him insight into ! s9n]'s depravity 9 all its =ms4 ,8 fir/ visit 9 8 di/rict is ?us notic$3 ,m>* #bd4--,visit$ two families ) tol]able success4 ,god grant a bless+ may g ) u6 ,began 9 fe> & weakness1 & 9 mu* trembl+4 ,may ! p[] be ( ,god4 ,soon aft]1 he n>rates ! foll[+ sc5e3--,ent]$ ! h\se ( ----4 ,he>d h] swe>+ z ,i came up ! /air4 ,f\nd h] /orm+ at ?ree little gr&*ildr51 :om h] daught] _h left ) h]4 ,%e is a se>$1 h>d-he>t$ wret*4 ,read ,ezekiel #cc4 ,int]rupt$ by ! entrance ( h] second daught]1 furi\sly dem&+ h] m>riage l9es4 ,became m discreet4 ,promis$ to come back--nev] came4 ,h] fa!r-9-law ent]$1 a hide\s spectacle ( an ag$ drunk>d1 dem&+ money4 ,left ! h\se ) w>n+s4 ,ano!r case he p>ticul>ly m5tions ( a sick woman1 :o1 ?\gh c>eless be=e1 sudd5ly seem$ to float into a sea ( joy1 )\t be+ able to give any scriptural acc\nt ( ! *ange4 ,%e cont9u$1 ,i believe1 to h] dea? 9 ?is /ate2 b he fe>$ x 0 a subtile delusion ( ,satan z an angel ( light4 ,"o s\l1 h[ev]1 01 to all appe>ance1 br\ght truly to ! ,rock ( ,ages dur+ 8 & 8 fri5d's pray]ful visitations4 ,^! 7 fir/-fruits4 ,he cont9ues 8 di>y1 ?\gh (t5 consid]able int]vals occur 9 ! regi/] ( 8 spiritual /ate4 ,may #i4--;,h[ k9dly has ,god ?w>t$ me 9 e in/ance :]e ,i s\ght to en lave myself6 ,i w le>n at lea/ to glory 9 disappo9tm5ts4 ,may #aj4--;,at ! ,communion4 ,felt less use = ! m9i/] ?an ev]4 ,let ! ,ma/] ( ! fea/ alone speak to my he>t4 ,he felt at su* times1 z _m ( ! ,"l's p h always done1 t x is n ! addresses ( ! m9i/]s 9 s]v+ ! table1 b ! ,supp] itself1 t ought to satiate _! s\ls ) fatness4 ,may #ba4--;,x is affect+ to u to read ! foll[+ entry3--,?is day ,i atta9$ my tw5ty-fir/ ye>4 ,oh6 h[ long & h[ wor?lessly ,i h liv$1 ,?\ only kn[e/4 ,neff di$ 9 8 ?irty-fir/ ye>2 :5 %all ,i8#c #c ,x is wor?y ( notice h[ (t5 ! ,"l has done mu* "w by a few ye>s ( holy labor4 ,9 our ,*ur*1 ,g4 ,gillespie & ,j4 ,durham di$ at ?irty-six2 ,hugh ,b9n+ at tw5ty-six2 ,&rew ,gray :5 sc>cely at tw5ty-two4 ,( our witnesses1 ,patrick ,hamilton 0 cut (f at tw5ty-f\r1 & ,hugh ,m',kail at tw5ty-six4 ,9 o!r *ur*es we might m5tion _m1 su* z ,john ,janeway at tw5ty-?ree1 ,david ,bra9]d at ?irty1 & ,h5ry ,m>tyn at ?irty-two4 ,!irs 0 a %ort life1 fill$ up ) usefulness1 & cr[n$ ) glory4 ,oh to be z !y6 ,may #bi4--;,he ?is day wrote v fai?fully1 yet v k9dly1 to "o :o seem$ to him n a believ]1 & :o nev]!less appropriat$ to h]self ! promises ( ,god4 ,if y are :olly unassur$ ( y\r be+ a believ]1 is x n a contradiction 9 t]ms to say1 t y are sure ! believ]s' promises belong to y8 ,are y an assur$ believ]8 ,if s1 rejoice 9 y\r heir%ip2 & yet rejoice ) trembl+2 = t is ! v "* ( ,god's heirs4 ,b are y unassur$--nay1 :olly unassur$8 !n :at mad presumption to say to y\r s\l1 t ^! promises1 be+ 9 ! ,bible1 mu/ belong indiscrim9ately to all6 ,x is too gross a contradiction = y to compass1 except 9 ^w4 ,he !n %[s t ,*ri/'s free (f] mu/ be accept$ by ! s9n]1 & s ! promises become 84 ,?is s9n] complies ) ! call or (f]1 ',come unto me2' & !reaft]1 b n be=e1 c claim ! annex$ promise z 83 ',i w give !e re/4' ,aug4 #ad4--,p>tial fa/1 & seek+ ,god's face by pray]4 ,?is day ?irty ye>s1 my late de> bro!r 0 born4 ,oh = m love1 & !n w come m peace6 ,t same ev5+ he wrote ! hymn1 ,! ,b>r5 ,fig-tree4 ,oct4 #ag4--,private m$itation ex*ang$ = conv]sation4 ,"h is ! root ( ! evil1--=sake ,god1 & ,he =sakes u4 ,"s ev5+ ?is mon? he _h be5 read+ ,baxt]'s ,call to ! ,unconv]t$4 ,deeply impress$ ) ! affectionate & awfully solemn urg5cy ( ! man ( ,god1 he wrote-- ,?\gh ,baxt]'s lips h long 9 sil5ce hung1 ,& dea? long hu%'d t s9n]-wak5+ tongue1 ,yet /ill1 ?\gh dead1 he speaks al\d to all1 ,& f ! grave /ill issues =? 8 ,call3 ,l "s l\d angel-voice f ,zion hill1 ,! mighty e*o rolls & rumbles /ill4 ,oh grant t we1 :5 sleep+ 9 ! du/1 ,may ?us speak =? ! wisdom ( ! j6 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 peculi>ly subject to attacks ( fev]1 & by "o ( ^! 0 he laid d[n on a sick-b$ on ,novemb] #ae?4 ,h[ev]1 ?is attack 0 ( %ort duration4 ,on ! #ba/ he writes3 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & =get n all 8 b5efits4 ,le>n$ m & m ( ! value ( ,jehovah ,tzidk5u4 ,he _h1 ?ree days be=e1 writt5 8 well-kn[n hymn1 ,i once 0 a /rang]1 etc41 entitl$ ,jehovah ,tzidk5u1 ! ,wat*word ( ! ,re=m]s4 ,x 0 ! fruit ( a slight illness :i* _h tri$ 8 s\l1 by sett+ x m imm$iately 9 view ( ! judgm5t-seat ( ,*ri/2 & ! hymn :i* he s sweetly sung reveals ! sure & solid confid5ce ( 8 s\l4 ,9 ref]5ce to t same illness1 he seems to h p5n$ ! foll[+ l9es4 ,novemb] #bd?3-- ,he t5d]ly b9ds up ! brok5 9 he>t1 ,! s\l b[$ d[n ,he w raise3 ,= m\rn+1 ! o9tm5t ( joy w imp>t3 ,= heav9ess1 g>m5ts ( praise4 ,ah1 come1 !n1 & s+ to ! praise ( our ,god1 ,:o give? & take? away2 ,:o fir/ by 8 k9dness1 & !n by 8 rod1 ,w\ld tea* u1 poor s9n]s1 to pray4 ,= 9 ! assembly ( ,jesus' fir/-born1 ,:o an!ms ( gratitude raise1 ,ea* he>t has by great tribulation be5 torn1 ,ea* voice turn$ f wail+ to praise4 ,nov4 #i4--;,he>d ( ,edw>d ,irv+'s dea?4 ,i look back ^u him ) awe1 z on ! sa9ts & m>tyrs ( old4 ,a holy man 9 spite ( all 8 delusions & errors4 ,he is n[ ) 8 ,god & ,savi\r1 :om he wrong$ s mu*1 yet1 ,i am p]suad$1 lov$ s s9c]ely4 ,h[ %\ld we lean = wisdom1 n on ourselves1 b on ! ,god ( all grace6 ,nov4 #ba4--;,if no?+ else w d to sev] me f my s9s1 ,"l s5d me su* sore & try+ calamities z %all awake me f e>?ly slumb]s4 ,x mu/ always be be/ to be alive to ,!e1 :atev] be ! quick5+ in/rum5t4 ,i tremble z ,i write1 = oh6 on e h& d ,i see too likely occasions = sore afflictions4 ,feb4 #ae1 #ahce4--,to-morr[ ,i und]go my trials be=e ! ,presbyt]y4 ,may ,god give me c\rage 9 ! h\r ( ne$4 ,:at %\ld ,i fe>8 ,if ,god see meet to put me into ! m9i/ry1 :o %all keep me back8 ,if ,i be n meet1 :y %\ld ,i be ?ru/ =w>d8 ,to ?y s]vice ,i desire to d$icate myself ov] & ov] aga94 ,m>* #a4--;,bodily s]vice4 ,:at *ange is !re 9 ! he>t6 ,wild1 e>?ly affections !re are "h2 /rong1 co>se passions2 b&s bo? ( iron & silk4 ,b ,i ?ank ,!e1 ,o my ,god1 t !y make me cry1 ',oh wret*$ man6' ,bodily weakness1 too1 depresses me4 ,m>* #bi4--;,college f9i%$ on ,friday la/4 ,my la/ appe>ance !re4 ,life itself is vani%+ fa/4 ,make ha/e = et]nity4 ,9 su* records z ^!1 we read ,god's deal+s ) 8 s\l up to ! "t :5 he 0 lic5s$ to prea* ! gospel4 ,8 prep>atory discipl9e1 bo? ( he>t & ( intellect1 _h be5 direct$ by ! ,great ,head ( ! ,*ur* 9 a way t rem>kably qualifi$ him = ! "w he 0 to p]=m 9 ! v9ey>d4 ,8 s\l 0 prep>$ = ! awful "w ( ! m9i/ry by mu* pray]1 & mu* /udy ( ! ^w ( ,god2 by affliction 9 8 p]son2 by inw>d trials & sore temptations2 by exp]i5ce ( ! dep? ( corruption 9 8 own he>t1 & by discov]ies ( ! ,savi\r's fulness ( grace4 ,he le>n$ exp]im5tally to ask1 ,:o is he t ov]come? ! _w1 b he t believe? t ,jesus is ! ,son ( ,god6 ,i ,john #e3e4 ,dur+ ! f\r ye>s t foll[$ 8 awak5+1 he 0 (t5times "u ! _m wat]s1 b 0 ev] rais$ aga9 by ! same div9e h& t _h drawn him out at ! fir/2 till at l5g?1 ?\gh /ill (t5 viol5tly toss$1 ! vessel 0 able /eadily to keep ! summit ( ! wave4 ,x appe>s t he le>n$ ! way ( salvation exp]im5tally1 ere he knew x accurately by !ory & sy/em2 & ?us no d\bt x 0 t 8 :ole m9i/ry 0 little else ?an a giv+ out ( 8 own inw>d life4 ,! ,visit+ ,society notic$ above 0 mu* bless$ to ! culture ( 8 s\l1 & n less s ! ,mission>y ,association & ! ,pray] ,meet+ connect$ ) x4 ,none 7 m regul> at ! h\r ( pray] ?an he1 & none m frequ5tly l$ up our praises to ! ?rone4 ,he 0 = "s "t ,secret>y to ! ,association1 & int]e/$ himself deeply 9 details ( mission>y labors4 ,inde$1 to ! la/ day ( 8 life1 8 ?\ghts (t5 turn$ to =eign l&s2 & "o ( ! la/ notes he wrote 0 to ! ,secret>y ( ! ,association 9 ,ed9burgh1 express+ 8 unabat$ int]e/ 9 _! prosp]ity4 ,dur+ ! fir/ ye>s ( 8 college c\rse1 8 /udies did n absorb 8 :ole att5tion2 b no soon] 0 ! *ange on 8 s\l begun1 ?an 8 /udies %>$ 9 ! results4 ,a deep] s5se ( responsibility l$ him to occupy 8 tal5ts = ! s]vice ( ,him :o be/[$ !m4 ,!re h be5 few :o1 along ) a devot$ness ( _s t s\ght to be ev] directly engag$ 9 ! ,"l's "w1 h nev]!less reta9$ su* cont9u$ & undecay+ e/eem = ! advantages ( /udy4 ,:ile att5d+ ! usual lit]>y & philosophical classes1 he f\nd "t to turn 8 att5tion to ,geology & ,natural ,hi/ory4 ,& (t5 9 8 days ( mo/ successful prea*+1 :51 next to 8 own s\l1 8 p>i% & 8 flock 7 8 only c>e1 he has be5 kn[n to express a regret t he _h n laid up 9 =m] days m /ores ( all useful k2 = he f\nd himself able to use ! jewels ( ! ,egyptians 9 ! s]vice ( ,*ri/4 ,8 previ\s /udies w\ld sometimes fla% into 8 m9d "s happy illu/ration ( div9e tru?1 at ! v mom5t :5 he 0 mo/ solemnly apply+ ! glori\s gospel to ! mo/ ignorant & vile4 ,8 own words w be/ %[ 8 e/imate ( /udy1 & at ! same "t ! pray]ful mann] 9 :i* he felt x %\ld be c>ri$ on4 ,d get on ) y\r /udies1 he wrote to a "y /ud5t 9 #ahdj4 ,rememb] y are n[ =m+ ! "* ( y\r future m9i/ry 9 great measure1 if ,god sp>e y4 ,if y acquire slov5ly or sleepy habits ( /udy n[1 y w nev] get ! bett] ( x4 ,d ev]y?+ 9 its own "t4 ,d ev]y?+ 9 e>ne/2 if x is wor? do+1 !n d x ) all y\r might4 ,above all1 keep mu* 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,nev] see ! face ( man till y h se5 8 face :o is our life1 our all4 ,pray = o!rs2 pray = y\r tea*]s1 fell[-/ud5ts1 etc4 ,to ano!r he wrote3 ,bew>e ( ! atmosph]e ( ! classics4 ,x is p]nici\s inde$2 & y ne$ mu* ( ! s\? w9d brea?+ ov] ! ,scriptures to c\nt]act x4 ,true1 we ought to "k !m2 b only z *emi/s h&le poisons--to discov] _! qualities1 n to infect _! blood ) !m4 ,& aga93 ,pray t ! ,holy ,_s w\ld n only make y a believ+ & holy lad1 b make y wise 9 y\r /udies also4 ,a ray ( div9e light 9 ! s\l sometimes cle>s up a ma!matical problem wond]fully4 ,! smile ( ,god calms ! _s1 & ! left h& ( ,jesus holds up ! fa9t+ head1 & 8 ,holy ,_s quick5s ! affection1 s t ev5 natural /udies g on a million times m easily & com=tably4 ,be=e ent]+ ! ,div9ity ,hall1 he _h att5d$ a private class = ! /udy ( ,hebrew2 & hav+ aft]w>ds att5d$ ! two sessions ( ,dr4 ,brunton's college class1 he made mu* progress 9 t language4 ,he c\ld consult ! ,hebrew orig9al ( ! ,old ,te/am5t ) z mu* ease z mo/ ( our m9i/]s are able to consult ! ,greek ( ! ,new4 ,x 0 ab\t ! "t ( 8 fir/ ye>'s att5dance at ! ,hall t ,i began to "k him z an intimate fri5d4 ,dur+ ! summ] vacations1--t we might r$eem ! "t1--"s ( u :o rema9$ 9 t[n1 :5 mo/ ( our fell[-/ud5ts 7 gone to ! c\ntry1 us$ to meet once e week 9 ! =5oon1 = ! purpose ( inve/igat+ "s po9t ( ,sy/ematic ,div9ity1 & /at+ to ea* o!r ! am\nt & result ( our private read+4 ,at ano!r "t we met 9 a simil> way1 till we _h ov]tak5 ! *ief po9ts ( ! ,popi% controv]sy4 ,advancem5t 9 our acqua9tance ) ! ,greek & ,hebrew ,scriptures also br\ght u toge!r2 & "o summ] ! /udy ( ,unfulfill$ ,prophecy assembl$ a few ( u once a week1 at an e>ly morn+ h\r1 :51 ?\gh our views diff]$ mu* on p>ticul> po9ts1 we nev] fail$ to get food to our s\ls 9 ! ,scriptures we explor$4 ,b no society ( ?is k9d 0 m useful & pleasant to u ?an "o :i*1 f its object1 receiv$ ! "n ( ,exegetical4 ,x met dur+ ! session ( ! ,!ological classes e ,saturday morn+ at half-pa/ six4 ,! /udy ( ,biblical criticism1 & :atev] might ca/ light on ! ^w ( ,god1 0 our aim2 & ^! meet+s 7 kept up regul>ly dur+ f\r sessions4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne spoke ( himself z indebt$ to ?is society = mu* ( t discipl9e ( m9d on ,jewi% lit]ature & ,scripture geography :i* 0 f\nd to be s useful 9 ! ,mission ( ,inquiry to ! ,jews 9 aft] days4#d #d ,! memb]s ( ?is ,society 7--,rev4 ,william ,laughton1 n[ ,m9i/] ( ,/ ,?omas's1 ,gre5ock1 9 connection ) ! ,free ,*ur*2 ,?omas ,br[n1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,k9neff2 ,william ,wilson1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,c>myllie2 ,horatius ,bon>1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,kelso2 ,&rew ,a4 ,bon>1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,collace2 ,rob]t ,m4 ,m',*eyne2 ,alex&] ,som]ville1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,&]/on1 ,glasg[2 ,john ,?omson1 ,m>9]s' ,free ,*ur*1 ,lei?2 ,rob]t ,k4 ,hamilton1 ,madras2 ,john ,burne1 = "s "t at ,madeira2 ,patrick ,borr[man1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,gl5cairn2 ,walt] ,wood1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,we/ru!r2 ,h5ry ,moncrieff1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,kilbride2 ,james ,co*rane1 ,e/abli%$ ,*ur*1 ,cup>2 ,john ,mill]1 ,secret>y to ,free ,*ur* ,special ,commission2 ,g4 ,smeaton1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,au*t]>d]2 ,rob]t ,k9ne>1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,m(fat2 & ,w4,b4 ,cl>ke1 ,free ,*ur*1 ,half-,morton4 ,e meet+ 0 op5$ & clos$ ) pray]4 ,m9utes ( ! discussions 7 kept2 & ! essays read 7 pres]v$ 9 volumes4 ,a v *>act]i/ic essay ( ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's is ,lebanon & its ,sc5]y 7ins]t$ 9 ! ,rema9s71 :]e9 he adduces ! evid5ce ( travell]s = facts & cu/oms :i* he himself 0 aft]w>ds to see4 ,(t51 9 #ahci1 pleasant remembrances ( ^! days ( y\?ful /udy 7 sugge/$ by :at we actually witness$2 & 9 ! essay ref]r$ to ,i f9d an int]e/+ co9cid5ce4 ,he writes3 ,:at a refre%+ sight to 8 eye1 yet undimm$ ) age1 aft] re/+ =ty ye>s on ! monoton\s sc5]y ( ! des]t1 n[ to re/ on ,zion's olive-clad hills1 & ,lebanon1 ) its v9e-clad base & ov]hang+ =e/s1 & t[]+ peaks ( sn[6 ,?is 0 ! v impression on our m9ds :5 we ourselves came up f ! wild]ness z express$ 9 ! ,n>rative1 *ap4 #b--,may #bi4 ,next morn+ we saw at a di/ance a range ( hills1 runn+ nor? & s\?1 call$ by ! ,arabs ,djebel ,khalie4 ,aft] w&]+ s _m days 9 ! wild]ness1 ) its va/ monoton\s pla9s ( level s&1 ! sight ( ^! di/ant m\nta9s 0 a pleasant relief to ! eye2 & we ?\ght we c\ld und]/& a little ( ! feel+ ) :i* ,moses1 aft] be+ =ty ye>s 9 ! des]t1 w\ld pray1 ',i pray ,!e let me g ov]1' ,deut4 #c3be4 ,b ^! helps 9 /udy 7 all ! :ile no m ?an supplem5t>y4 ,! regul> sy/ematic /udies ( ! ,hall furni%$ ! ma9 provision = 8 m5tal culture4 ,"u ,dr4 ,*alm]s = ,div9ity1 & "u ,dr4 ,wel% = ,*ur* ,hi/ory1 a c\rse ( f\r ye>s af=d$ no ord9>y advantages = enl>g+ ! und]/&+4 ,new fields ( ?\ght 7 daily op5$ up4 ,8 notes & 8 di>y te/ify t he endeavor$ to reta9 :at he he>d1 & t he us$ to read z mu* ( ! books recomm5d$ by ! pr(essors z 8 "t enabl$ him to ov]take4 ,_m ye>s aft]1 he ?ankfully call$ to m9d lessons t _h be5 taught 9 ^! classes4 ,rid+ "o day ) ,mr4 ,hamilton 7n[ ( ,reg5t ,squ>e1 ,london7 f ,ab]nyte to ,dundee1 !y 7 l$ to speak ( ! be/ mode ( divid+ a s]mon4 ,i us$1 said he1 to despise ,dr4 ,wel%'s rules at ! "t ,i he>d him2 b n[ ,i feel ,i mu/ use !m1 = no?+ is m ne$ful = mak+ a s]mon memorable & impressive ?an a logical arrangem5t4 ,8 intellectual p[]s 7 ( a high ord]3 cle> & di/9ct appreh5sion ( 8 subject1 & felicit\s illu/ration1 *>act]iz$ him among all 8 companions4 ,to an eag] desire = wide acqua9tance ) tru? 9 all its dep>tm5ts1 & a memory /rong & accurate 9 reta9+ :at he f\nd1 !re 0 add$ a rem>kable c&or 9 exam9+ :at claim$ to be ! tru?4 ,he _h also an +5i\s & ent]pris+ m9d--a m9d t c\ld c>ry out :at 0 sugge/$1 :5 x did n /rike out new light = itself4 ,he possess$ great p[]s ( analysis2 (t5 8 judgm5t discov]$ s+ul> discrim9ation4 ,8 imag9ation seldom s\ght out object ( gr&eur2 =1 z a fri5d has truly said ( him1 he _h a k9d & quiet eye1 :i* f\nd out ! liv+ & beautiful 9 nature1 r ?an ! maje/ic & sublime4 ,he might h ris5 to high em95ce 9 ! circles ( ta/e & lit]ature1 b d5i$ himself all su* hopes1 t he might w9 s\ls4 ,) su* peculi> tal5ts z he possess$1 8 m9i/ry might h1 9 any circum/ances1 attract$ _m2 b ^! attractions 7 all made subsidi>y to ! s+le desire ( awak5+ ! dead 9 trespasses & s9s4 ,nor w\ld he h expect$ to be bless$ to ! salvation ( s\ls unless he _h himself be5 a monum5t ( sov]eign grace4 ,9 8 e/eem1 to be 9 ,*ri/ be=e be+ 9 ! m9i/ry 0 a ?+ indisp5sable4 ,he (t5 po9t$ to ^? solemn words ( ,j]emiah 7#bc3ba73 ,i h n s5t ^! prophets1 yet !y ran2 ,i h n spok5 to !m1 yet !y prophesi$4 ,b if !y _h /ood 9 my c\nsel1 & caus$ my p to he> my words1 !n !y %\ld h turn$ !m f _! evil way1 & f ! evil ( _! do+s4 ,x 0 ) fai? already 9 8 he>t t he w5t =w>d to ! holy (fice ( ! m9i/ry1 receiv+ f 8 ,"l ! rod by :i* he 0 to d signs1 & :i*1 :5 x _h op5$ rocks & made wat]s gu% out1 he nev] fail$ to replace ^u ! ark :5ce x 0 tak51 giv+ glory to ,god6 ,he knew n ! way by :i* ,god 0 lead+ him2 b ev5 !n he 0 "u ! guidance ( ! pill>-cl\d4 ,at ?is v p]iod he wrote t hymn1 ,!y s+ ! song ( ,moses4 ,8 c\rse 0 !n ab\t to beg92 b n[ t x has end$1 we c look back & pla9ly see t ! fai? he !re9 express$ 0 n 9 va94 ,,*apt] ,,ii ,,8 ,,labors ,,9 ,,! ,,v9ey>d ,,be=e ,,ord9ation4 ,he t goe? =? & weepe?1 be>+ preci\s se$1 %all d\btless come aga9 ) rejoic+1 br++ 8 %eaves ) him4--,ps4 #abf3f4 ,:ile he 0 /ill only und]go+ a /ud5t's usual exam9ations be=e ! ,presbyt]y1 9 ! spr+ & summ] ( #ahce1 sev]al applications 7 made to him by m9i/]s 9 ! ,*ur*1 :o desir$ to secure 8 s]vices = _! "p ( ! v9ey>d4 ,he 0 especially urg$ to consid] ! field ( labor at ,l>b]t & ,dunipace1 ne> ,/irl+1 "u ,mr4 ,john ,bon>1 ! pa/or ( ^! unit$ p>i%es4 ,?is circum/ance l$ him 7z is (t5 done 9 su* cases7 to ask ! ,presbyt]y ( ,ed9burgh1 "u ^: sup]9t5d5ce he _h hi!rto c>ri$ on 8 /udies1 to transf] ! rema9d] ( 8 public trials to ano!r ,presbyt]y1 :]e !re w\ld be less press ( bus9ess to occasion delay4 ,?is reque/ be+ readily grant$1 8 connection ) ,dumfries%ire l$ him to ! ,presbyt]y ( ,annan1 :o lic5s$ him to prea* ! gospel on #a/ ,july #ahce4 ,8 feel+s at ! mom5t appe> f a record ( 8 own 9 ! ev5+ ( ! day3 ,prea*$ ?ree probation>y disc\rses 9 ,annan ,*ur*1 &1 aft] an exam9ation 9 ,hebrew1 0 solemnly lic5s$ to prea* ! gospel by ,mr4 ,monylaws1 ! mod]ator4 ',bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l2 & all t is )9 me1 be /irr$ up to praise & magnify 8 holy "n6' ,:at ,i h s long desir$ z ! highe/ honor ( man1 ,?\ at l5g? give/ me--me :o d>e sc>cely use ! words ( ,paul3 ',unto me :o am less ?an ! lea/ ( all sa9ts is ?is grace giv51 t ,i %\ld prea* ! unse>*able ri*es ( ,*ri/4' ,felt some:at solemniz$1 ?\gh unable to feel my unwor?9ess z ,i ought4 ,be clo!d ) humility4 ,an ev5t occurr$ ! week be=e :i* ca/ a solemniz+ influ5ce on him1 & on 8 aft] fell[-travell] & bro!r 9 ! gospel1 :o 0 lic5s$ by ano!r ,presbyt]y t same day4 ,?is ev5t 0 ! lam5t$ dea? ( ! ,rev4 ,john ,br[n ,patt]son ( ,falkirk--"o :om ! ,"l _h gift$ ) preem95t eloqu5ce & le>n+1 & :o 0 us+ all = 8 ,"l1 :5 cut (f by fev]4 ,he _h spok5 mu* be=e 8 dea? ( ! awfulness ( a pa/or's *>ge1 & 8 e>ly dea? s5t home ! lesson to _m1 ) ! w>n+ t ! pa/or's acc\nt ( s\ls might be sudd5ly requir$ ( him4 ,on ! foll[+ ,sabba?1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne prea*$ = ! fir/ "t 9 ,ru?well ,*ur*1 ne> ,dumfries1 on ! ,pool ( ,be!sda2 & 9 ! aft]noon on ! ,/rait ,gate4 ,he writes t ev5+ 9 8 di>y3 ,f\nd x a m awfully solemn ?+ ?an ,i _h imag9$ to ann\nce ,*ri/ au?oritatively2 yet a glori\s privilege6 ,! week aft] 7,saturday1 ,july #aa73 ,"l1 put me into ?y s]vice :5 & :]e ,?\ please/4 ,9 ?y h& all my qualities w be put to _! appropriate end4 ,let me1 !n1 h no anxieties4 ,next day1 also1 aft] prea*+ 9 ,/4 ,john's ,*ur*1 ,lei?3 ,rememb]$1 be=e go+ into ! pulpit1 ! confession :i* says1#e ',we h be5 m anxi\s ab\t ! mess5g] ?an ! message4' ,9 prea*+ t day1 he /ates1 ,x came across me 9 ! pulpit1 t if sp>$ to be a m9/]1 ,i might enjoy sweet fla%es ( communion ) ,god 9 t situation4 ,! m9d is entirely wr\ght up to speak = ,god4 ,x is possible1 !n1 t m vivid acts ( fai? may be gone ?r\gh !n1 ?an 9 quiet] & sleepi] mom5ts4 #e ,he "h ref]s to ! ,full & ,c&id ,ackn[l$gm5t ( ,s91 = ,/ud5ts & ,m9i/]s1 drawn up by ! ,commission ( ,assembly 9 #afea1 & (t5 repr9t$ s9ce4 ,x 0 n till ! #g? ( ,novemb] t he began 8 labors at ,l>b]t4 ,9 ! int]val he prea*$ 9 v>i\s places1 & _m began to p]ceive ! peculi> sweetness ( ! ^w 9 8 lips4 ,9 accept+ ! invitation to labor 9 ! sph]e propos$1 he wrote3 ,x has always be5 my aim1 & x is my pray]1 to h no plans ) reg>d to myself1 well assur$ z ,i am1 t ! place :]e ! ,savi\r sees meet to place me mu/ ev] be ! be/ place = me4 ,! p>i% to :i* he _h come 0 v l>ge1 conta9+ six ?\s& s\ls4 ,! p>i% *ur* is at ,l>b]t2 b ?r\gh ! ex]tions ( ,mr4 ,bon>1 _m ye>s ago1 a second *ur* 0 erect$ = ! p ( ,dunipace4 ,mr4 ,hanna1 aft]w>ds m9i/] ( ,skirl+1 _h prec$$ ,m',*eyne 9 ! duties ( assi/ant 9 8 field ( labor2 & ,mr4 ,m',*eyne n[ ent]$ on x ) a fully devot$ & zeal\s he>t1 al?\gh 9 a weak /ate ( heal?4 ,z assi/ant1 x 0 8 "p to prea* e alt]nate ,sabba? at ,l>b]t & ,dunipace1 & dur+ ! week to visit among ! population ( bo? ^! di/ricts1 accord+ z he felt himself enabl$ 9 body & s\l4 ,!re 0 a m>k$ diff]5ce betwe5 ! two di/ricts 9 _! g5]al features ( "*2 b equal labor 0 be/[$ on bo? by ! m9i/] & 8 assi/ant2 & (t5 did _! pray] asc5d t ! w9d[s ( heav5 might be op5$ ov] ! two sanctu>ies4 ,s\ls h be5 sav$ !re4 ,(t51 h[ev]1 did ! fai?ful pa/or m+le 8 te>s ) ^? ( 8 y\ng] fell[-soldi]1 compla9+1 ,"l1 :o ha? believ$ our report8 ,!re 0 mu* s[+ 9 fai?2 nor 0 ?is s[+ ab&on$ ev5 :5 ! returns seem$ mo/ inadequate4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne _h great delight 9 rememb]+ t ,l>b]t 0 "o ( ! places :]e1 9 o!r days1 t holy man ( ,god1 ,rob]t ,bruce1 _h labor$ & pray$4 ,writ+ at an aft] p]iod f ! ,holy ,l&1 he express$ ! wi%1 ,may ! ,_s be p\r$ ^u ,l>b]t z 9 ,bruce's days4 ,b m ?an all associations1 ! s\ls ( ! p1 ^: salvation he long$ =1 7 ev] pres5t to 8 m9d4 ,a lett] to ,mr4 ,bon>1 9 #ahcg1 f ,dundee1 %[s u 8 ye>n+s ov] !m4 ,:at an int]e/ ,i feel 9 ,l>b]t & ,dunipace6 ,x is l ! l& ( my bir?4 ,w ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness ev] rise ^u x1 mak+ its hills & valleys bright ) ! light ( ! k ( ,jesus8 ,no soon] 0 he settl$ 9 8 *amb] "h1 ?an he comm5c$ 8 "w4 ,) him1 ! comm5cem5t ( all labor inv>iably consi/$ 9 ! prep>ation ( 8 own s\l4 ,! =]unn] ( ea* day's visitations 0 a calm season ( private devotion dur+ morn+ h\rs4 ,! walls ( 8 *amb] 7 witnesses ( 8 pray]fulness1--,i believe ( 8 te>s z well z ( 8 cries4 ,! pleasant s\nd ( psalms (t5 issu$ f 8 room at an e>ly h\r4 ,!n foll[$ ! read+ ( ! ^w = 8 own sanctification2 & few h s fully realiz$ ! bless+ ( ! fir/ ,psalm4 ,8 leaf did n )]1 = 8 roots 7 9 ! wat]s4 ,x 0 "h1 too1 t he began to /udy s closely ! works ( ,jona?an ,edw>ds1--reckon+ !m a m9e to be wr\ght1 & if wr\ght1 sure to repay ! toil4 ,along ) ?is au?or1 ! ,lett]s ( ,samuel ,ru!r=d 7 (t5 9 8 h&4 ,books ( g5]al k he occasionally p]us$2 b n[ x 0 done ) ! /eady purpose ( f9d+ 9 !m "s illu/ration ( spiritual tru?4 ,he rose f read+ ,insect ,ar*itecture1 ) ! obs]vation1 ,god reigns 9 a community ( ants & i*neumons1 z visibly z among liv+ m5 or mighty s]aphim6 ,8 desire to gr[ 9 acqua9tance ) ,scripture 0 v int5se2 & bo? ,old & ,new ,te/am5t 7 8 regul> /udy4 ,he lov$ to range ov] ! wide revelation ( ,god4 ,he w\ld be a sorry /ud5t ( ?is _w1 said he to a fri5d1 :o %\ld =ev] conf9e 8 gaze to ! fruitful fields & well-wat]$ g>d5s ( ?is cultivat$ e>?4 ,he c\ld h no true idea ( :at ! _w 01 unless he _h /ood ^u ! rocks ( our m\nta9s1 & se5 ! bleak muirs & mosses ( our b>r5 l&2 unless he _h pac$ ! qu>t]-deck :5 ! vessel 0 out ( sight ( l&1 & se5 ! wa/e ( wat]s )\t any %ore ^u ! horizon4 ,j s1 he w\ld be a sorry /ud5t ( ! ,bible :o w\ld n "k all t ,god has inspir$2 :o w\ld n exam9e into ! mo/ b>r5 *apt]s to collect ! good = :i* !y 7 int5d$2 :o w\ld n /rive to und]/& all ! bloody battles :i* are *ronicl$1 t he might f9d 'bread out ( ! eat]1 & honey out ( ! lion4'--7,june #ahcf47 ,8 anxiety to h e possible help to hol9ess l$ him to notice :at are ! disadvantages ( ^? :o are n daily /irr$ up by ! fell[%ip ( m advanc$ believ]s4 ,i h f\nd1 by "s exp]i5ce1 t 9 ! c\ntry "h my wat* does n g s well z x us$ to d 9 t[n4 ,by small & gradual *anges ,i f9d x ei!r ga9s or loses1 & ,i am surpris$ to f9d myself diff]5t 9 "t f all ! _w1 &1 :at is worse1 f ! sun4 ,! simple explanation is1 t 9 t[n ,i met ) a /eeple 9 e /reet1 & a good-go+ clock ^u x2 & s any ab]rations 9 my wat* 7 soon notic$ & easily correct$4 ,& j s ,i sometimes ?9k x may be ) t inn] wat*1 ^: h&s po9t n to "t b to et]nity4 ,by gradual & sl[ *anges ! :eels ( my s\l lag beh9d1 or ! spr+s ( passions become too p[]ful2 & ,i h no liv+ timepiece ) :i* ,i may comp>e1 & by :i* ,i may am5d my go+4 ,y w say t ,i may always h ! sun3 ,& s x %\ld be2 b we h _m cl\ds :i* obscure ! sun f our weak eyes4--7,lett] to ,rev4 ,h4 ,bon>1 ,kelso47 ,f ! fir/ he f$ o!rs by :at he himself 0 fe$+ ^u4 ,8 prea*+ 0 9 a mann] ! developm5t ( 8 s\l's exp]i5ce4 ,x 0 a giv+ out ( ! inw>d life4 ,he lov$ to come up f ! pa/ures :]e9 ! ,*ief ,%eph]d _h met him--to lead ! flock entru/$ to 8 c>e to ! spots :]e he f\nd n\ri%m5t4 ,9 ! field ( 8 labor he f\nd en\gh ( "w to ov]:elm 8 _s4 ,! sev]al colli]ies & ! ,c>ron ,ironworks furni% a population :o are1 = ! mo/ "p1 ei!r sunk 9 deep indiff]5ce to ! tru?1 or are oppos$ to x 9 ! _s ( infidelity4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne at once saw t ! pa/or :om he _h come to aid1 :atev] 0 ! measure ( 8 heal?1 & zeal1 & p]sev]ance1 _h duties laid on him :i* 7 altoge!r beyond ! p[] ( man to ov]take4 ,:5 he made a few weeks' trial1 ! field appe>$ m b\ndless1 & ! mass ( s\ls m imp5etrable1 ?an he _h ev] conceiv$4 ,x 0 probably1 9 "s degree1 8 exp]i5ce at ?is "t t gave him su* deep sympa?y ) ! ,*ur* ,ext5sion ,s*eme1 z a truly noble & ,*ri/ian ef=t = br++ ! glad tid+s to ! doors ( a population :o mu/ o!rwise rema9 neglect$1 & 7 !mselves will+ s to live & die4 ,he convey$ 8 impressions on ?is subject to a fri5d abroad1 9 ! foll[+ t]ms3 ,!re is a s\l-de/roy+ cruelty 9 ! cold-he>t$ opposition :i* is made to ! multiplication ( m9i/]s 9 su* neglect$ & ov]gr[n di/ricts z ^!4 ,if "o ( our ,royal ,commission]s w\ld b cons5t to und]go ! bodily fatigue t a m9i/] ought to und]go 9 visit+ m]ely ! sick & dy+ ( ,l>b]t 7let alone ! visitation ( ! :ole1 & prep>ation = ! pulpit71 & t = "o mon?1 ,i w\ld engage t if he be able to rise out ( 8 b$ by ! end ( x1 he w\ld *ange 8 voice & mann] at ! ,commission ,bo>d4 ,a few busy weeks pass$ ov]1 occupi$ f morn+ to night 9 su* c>es & toils1 :5 ano!r "p ( ! discipl9e he 0 to und]go 0 s5t4 ,9 ! end ( ,decemb]1 /rong oppression ( ! he>t & an irritat+ c\gh caus$ "s ( 8 fri5ds to fe> t 8 lungs 7 affect$2 & = "s weeks he 0 laid aside f public duty4 ,on exam9ation1 x 0 f\nd t ?\gh !re 0 a dulness 9 ! "r lung1 yet ! mat]ial ( ! lungs 0 n affect$4 ,= a "t1 h[ev]1 ! air-vessels 7 s clogg$ & irritat$1 t if he _h cont9u$ to prea*1 disease w\ld h quickly ensu$4 ,b ?is also 0 soon remov$1 &1 "u cauti\s managem5t1 he resum$ 8 "w4 ,?is tempor>y illness s]v$ to call =? ?is extreme s5sitiv5ess ( 8 s\l to ! responsibilities ( 8 (fice4 ,at its comm5cem5t--hav+ gone to ,ed9burgh 9 s sweet a sun%9e morn+ t ,god seem$ to h *os5 x = him--he wrote to ,mr4 ,bon>3 ,if ,i am n recov]$ be=e ! ?ird ,sabba?1 ,i fe> ,i %all n be able to be> ^u my consci5ce ! responsibility ( leav+ y any long] to labor alone1 be>+ unaid$ ! burd5 ( #f1jjj s\ls4 ,no1 my de> sir1 ,i mu/ read ! w ( ,god aright 9 8 provid5ce1 & give way1 :5 ,he bids me1 to fre% & abl] workm54 ,i hope & pray t x may be 8 w to re/ore me aga9 to y & y\r p>i%1 ) a he>t tutor$ by sickness1 to speak m & m z dy+ to dy+4 ,!n1 m5tion+ two ( ! sick3 ,poor ,a4,d4 & ,c4,h41 ,i (t5 ?9k ( !m4 ,i c d no m = _! good1 except pray = !m4 ,tell !m t ,i d ?is )\t ceas+4 ,! days :5 a holy pa/or1 :o kn[s ! blood-spr9kl$ way to ! ,fa!r1 is laid aside1 are probably z mu* a pro( ( ! k9dness ( ,god to 8 flock z days ( heal? & activity4 ,he is occupi$1 dur+ ?is season ( retirem5t1 9 discov]+ ! plagues ( 8 he>t1 & 9 go+ 91 l ,moses1 to plead ) ,god face to face = 8 flock1 & = 8 own s\l4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne believ$ t ,god _h ?is end 9 view ) him2 & t ! ,"l %\ld ?us deal ) him at 8 entrance into ! v9ey>d made him pond] ^! deal+s ! m4 ,paul ask$1 says he1 ',:at wilt ,?\ h me to d8' & x 0 answ]$1 ',i w %[ him :at great ?+s he mu/ suff] = my "n's sake4' ,?us x may be ) me4 ,i h be5 too anxi\s to d great ?+s4 ,! lu/ ( praise has ev] be5 my besett+ s92 & :at m befitt+ s*ool c\ld be f\nd = me ?an t ( suff]+ alone1 away f ! eye & e> ( man8 ,writ+ aga9 to ,mr4 ,bon>1 he tells him3 ,i feel di/9ctly t ! :ole ( my labor dur+ ?is season ( sickness & pa9 %\ld be 9 ! way ( pray] & int]cession4 ,& yet1 s /rongly does ,satan "w 9 our deceitful he>ts1 ,i sc>cely rememb] a season :]e9 ,i h be5 m av]se to ^! duties4 ,i try to build myself up 9 my mo/ holy fai?1 pray+ 9 ! ,holy ,gho/1 keep+ myself 9 ! love ( ,god1 & look+ = ! m]cy ( ! ,"l ,jesus unto et]nal life4' ,t text ( ,jude has peculi> beauties = me at ?is season4 ,if x be good to come "u ! love ( ,god once1 surely x is good to keep ourselves !re4 ,& yet h[ reluctant we are6 ,i _c d\bt t boldness is (f]$ me to ent] into ! holie/ ( all2 ,i _c d\bt my "r & title to ent] cont9ually by ! new & bloody way2 ,i _c d\bt t :5 ,i d ent] 91 ,i /& n only =giv51 b accept$ 9 ! ,belov$2 ,i _c d\bt t :5 ,i d ent] 91 ! ,_s is will+ & ready to desc5d l a dove1 to dwell 9 my bosom z a ,_s ( pray] & peace1 enabl+ me to 'pray 9 ! ,holy ,gho/2' & t ,jesus is ready to rise up z my int]cessor ) ! ,fa!r1 pray+ = me ?\gh n = ! _w2 & t ! pray]-he>+ ,god is ready to b5d 8 e> to reque/s :i* ,he delights to he> & answ]4 ,i _c d\bt t ?us to dwell 9 ,god is ! true bless$ness ( my nature2 & yet1 /range unacc\ntable creature6 ,i am too (t5 unwill+ to ent] 94 ,i g ab\t & ab\t ! sanctu>y1 & ,i sometimes press 9 ?r\gh ! r5t veil1 & see ! bless$ness ( dwell+ !re to be f> bett] ?an t ( ! t5ts ( wick$ness2 yet x is c]ta9 t ,i d n dwell )94--,my pray]s foll[ y1 especially to ! sick-b$s ( ,a4,d4 & ,c4,h4 ,i hope !y /ill survive1 & t ,*ri/ may yet be glorifi$ 9 !m4 ,on resum+ 8 labors1 he f\nd a resid5ce 9 ,c>ronvale4 ,f ?is pleasant spot he us$ to ride out to 8 "w4 ,b pleasant z ! spot 01 yet be+ only p>tially recov]$1 he 0 n satisfi$2 he lam5t$ t he 0 unable to ov]take :at a /rong] labor] w\ld h accompli%$4 ,he (t5 ca/ a regretful look at ! colli]ies2 & rememb]+ !m /ill at a lat] p]iod1 he reproa*$ himself ) neglect1 ?\gh mo/ unju/ly4 ,! places :i* ,i left utt]ly unbrok5 9 ^u are ,k9naird & ,milton4 ,bo? ( ^! rise up aga9/ my consci5ce1 p>ticul>ly ! la/1 ?r\gh :i* ,i h ridd5 s (t54 ,x 0 n ! com=t1 b ! positive usefulness ( ! m9i/ry1 t he envi$2 & he judg$ ( places by _! fitness to promote ?is great end4 ,he said ( a neighbor+ p>i%1 :i* he _h occasion to visit3 ,! manse is altoge!r too sweet2 o!r m5 c\ld h>dly live !re )\t say+1 ',?is is my re/4' ,i don't ?9k m9i/]s' manses %\ld ev] be s beautiful4 ,a simple incid5t 0 ov]rul$ to promote ! ease & flu5cy ( 8 pulpit m9i/rations4 ,f ! v beg9n+ ( 8 m9i/ry he reprobat$ ! cu/om ( read+ s]mons1 believ+ t to d s does exce$+ly weak5 ! fre$om & natural f]vor ( ! mess5g] 9 deliv]+ 8 message4 ,nei!r did he recite :at he _h writt54 ,b 8 cu/om 0 to impress on 8 memory ! sub/ance ( :at he _h be=eh& c>efully writt51 & !n to speak z he f\nd lib]ty4 ,"o morn+1 z he rode rapidly along to ,dunipace1 8 writt5 s]mons 7 dropp$ on ! wayside4 ,?is accid5t prev5t$ him hav+ ! opportunity ( prep>+ 9 8 usual mann]2 b he 0 enabl$ to prea* ) m ?an usual fre$om4 ,= ! fir/ "t 9 8 life1 he discov]$ t he possess$ ! gift ( extemporane\s composition1 & le>n$1 to 8 own surprise1 t he _h m compos$ness ( m9d & comm& ( language ?an he _h believ$4 ,?is discov]y1 h[ev]1 did n 9 ! lea/ degree dim9i% 8 dilig5t prep>ation4 ,inde$1 ! only use t he made ( ! incid5t at ! "t x occurr$ 01 to draw a lesson ( dep5d5ce on ,god's own imm$iate bless+ r ?an on ! satisfactory prep>ation made4 ,"o ?+ always fills ! cup ( my consolation1 t ,god may "w by ! meane/ & poore/ words1 z well z by ! mo/ poli%$ & ornate1--yea1 p]haps m readily1 t ! glory may be all 8 own4 ,8 h&s 7 aga9 full1 di/ribut+ ! bread ( life 9 fell[%ip ) ,mr4 ,bon>4 ,! progress ( 8 own s\l1 mean:ile1 may be trac$ 9 "s ( ! few entries t occur 9 8 di>y dur+ ?is p]iod3-- ,feb4 #ba1 #ahcf1 ,sabba?4--,bless$ be ! ,"l = ano!r day ( ! ,son ( man4 ,resum$ my di>y1 long brok5 (f2 n because ,i d n feel ! disadvantages ( x1--mak+ y assume feel+s & express r :at y wi% to be ?an :at y are1--b because ! advantages seem great]4 ,x ensures sob] reflection on ! ev5ts ( ! day z se5 9 ,god's eye4 ,prea*$ twice 9 ,l>b]t1 on ! righte\sness ( ,god1 ,rom4 #a3af4 ,9 ! morn+ 0 m engag$ 9 prep>+ ! head ?an ! he>t4 ,?is has be5 frequ5tly my error1 & ,i h always felt ! evil ( x1 especially 9 pray]4 ,re=m x1 !n1 ,o ,"l4 ,feb4 #bg4--,prea*$ 9 ,dunipace ) m he>t ?an ev] ,i rememb] to h done1 on ,rom4 #e3aj1 ow+ to ! gospel nature ( ! subject & pray]ful prep>ation4 ,audi5ce small] ?an usual6 ,h[ happy & /range is ! feel+ :5 ,god gives ! s\l composure to /& & plead = ,him6 ,oh t x 7 altoge!r = ,him ,i plead1 n = myself6 ,m>* #e4--,prea*$ 9 ,l>b]t ) v mu* com=t1 ow+ *iefly to my rem$y+ ! error ( #ba/ ,feb4 ,!re=e ! he>t & ! m\? 7 full4 ',enl>ge my he>t1 & ,i %all run1' said ,david4 ',enl>ge my he>t1 & ,i %all prea*4' ,9 ?is la/ rem>k we see ! g]m ( 8 rem>kably solemn m9i/ry4 ,8 he>t 0 fill$1 & 8 lips !n spoke :at he felt )9 8 he>t4 ,he gave out n m]ely liv+ wat]1 b liv+ wat] drawn at ! spr+s t he _h himself drank (2 & is n ?is a true gospel m9i/ry8 ,"s v5ture to try :at !y consid] a m intellectual me?od ( address+ ! consci5ce2 b ere a m9i/] attempts ?is mode1 he ought to see t he is "o :o is able to af=d m deep & anxi\s prep>ation ( he>t ?an o!r m54 ,s9ce ! intellectual "p ( ! disc\rse is n t :i* is mo/ likely to be an arr[ 9 ! consci5ce1 ^? pa/ors :o are intellectual m5 mu/ be/[ t5fold m pray]fulness on _! "w1 if !y w\ld h ei!r _! own or _! p's s\ls affect$ "u _! ^w4 ,if we are ev] to prea* ) compassion = ! p]i%+1 we mu/ ourselves be mov$ by ^? same views ( s9 & righte\sness :i* mov$ ! human s\l ( ,jesus4 7,see ,psalm #ch & #ee47 ,ab\t ?is "t he occasionally contribut$ pap]s to ! ,*ri/ian ,h]ald3 "o ( ^! 0 ,on sudd5 ,conv]sions1 %[+ t ,scripture l$ u to expect su*4 ,dur+ ?is mon? he seems to h writt5 ! ,l9es on ,mungo ,p>k1 "o ( ! pieces :i* attract$ ! notice ( ,pr(essor ,wilson4 ,b :atev] he engag$ 91 8 aim 0 to honor 8 ,ma/]4 ,i f9d him1 aft] he>+ s]mon by ano!r1 rem>k+ 7,april #c71 ,"s ?+s p[]ful2 b ,i ?ir/ to he> m ( ,*ri/4 ,on ,sabba? #af1 he writes3 ,prea*$ ) "s t5d]ness ( he>t4 ,oh1 :y %\ld ,i n weep1 z ,jesus did ov] ,j]usalem8 ,ev5+--,in/ruct+ two delightful ,sabba? s*ools4 ,mu* bodily we>9ess4 ,graci\s k9dness ( ,god 9 giv+ re/ to ! we>y4 ,april #ac4--,w5t to ,/irl+ to he> ,dr4 ,duff once m ^u 8 sy/em4 ,) great] w>m? & en]gy ?an ev]4 ,he k9dles z he goes4 ,felt almo/ con/ra9$ to g ! :ole l5g? ( 8 sy/em ) him4 ,if x 7 only to raise up an audi5ce1 x w\ld be def5sible2 b :5 x is to raise up tea*]s1 x is m ?an def5sible4 ,i am n[ made will+1 if ,god %all op5 ! way1 to g to ,india4 ,"h am ,i2 s5d me6 ,! mission>y feel+ 9 8 s\l cont9u$ all 8 life4 ,! ,"l _h really made him will+2 & ?is prep>$ness to g any:]e complet$ 8 prep>ation = unselfi%1 self-d5i$ "w at home4 ,mu/ !re n be some:at ( ?is mission>y t5d5cy 9 all true m9i/]s8 ,is any "o truly ! ,"l's mess5g] :o is n q will+ to g :5 & :]e ! ,"l calls8 ,is x ju/ifiable 9 any to put aside a call f ! nor?1 on ! gr\nd t he wi%es "o f ! s\?8 ,we mu/ be f\nd 9 ! position ( ,isaiah1 if we are to be really s5t ( ,god4 ,april #bd4--,oh t ?is day's labor may be bless$6 & n m9e alone1 b all ?y fai?ful s]vants all ov] ! _w1 till ?y ,sabba? come4 ,april #bf4--,visit+ 9 ,c>ron-%ore4 ,well receiv$ ev]y:]e4 ,truly a pleasant labor4 ,*e]$ me mu*4 ,prea*$ to !m aft]w>ds f ,prov]bs #a4 ,may #h4--;,communion 9 ,l>b]t4 ,s]v$ z an eld] & help to ! fai?ful4 ,p>took ) "s glimpses ( fai? & joy4 ,s]v$ by a fai?ful old m9i/] 7,mr4 ,demp/] ( ,d5ny71 "o taught ( ,god4 ,?is morn+ /ood by ! dy+--ev5+1 /ood by ! dead1 poor ,j4,f4 hav+ di$ la/ night4 ,i laid my h& on h] cold =ehead1 & tri$ to %ut h] eyes4 ,"l1 give me /r5g? = liv+ to ,!e6--/r5g? also = a dy+ h\r4 ,may #ae4--,?is day an annul> eclipse ( ! sun4 ,kept bo? ! s]vices toge!r 9 ord] to be 9 "t4 ,truly a beautiful sight to see ! %9+ edge ( ! sun all r\nd ! d>k disc ( ! moon4 ,"l1 "o day ?y h& %all put out ^? c&les2 = !re %all be no ne$ ( ! sun to light5 ! happy l&3 ! ,lamb is ! light !re(2 a sun t _c be eclips$--t _c g d[n4 ,may #ag4--,visit$ ?irte5 families1 & address$ !m all 9 ! ev5+ 9 ! s*ool1 on ,j]emiah #a3d1 ',go+ & weep+4' ,exp]i5c$ "s enl>gem5t ( s\l2 said "s pla9 ?+s2 & _h "s desire = _! salvation1 t ,god might be prais$4 ,may #ba4--,prep>ation = ! ,sabba?4 ,my bir?-day4 ,i h liv$ tw5ty-?ree ye>s4 ,bless$ be my ,rock4 ,?\gh ,i am a *ild 9 k ( my ,bible & ( ,!e1 yet use me = :at a *ild c d1 or a *ild c suff]4 ,h[ few suff]+s ,i h _h 9 ! ye> t is pa/1 except 9 my own body4 ,oh t z my day is my /r5g? may be6 ,give me /r5g? = a suff]+ & = a dy+ h\r6 ,may #bb4--,o ,"l1 :5 ,?\ worke/1 all disc\ragem5ts vani%2 :5 ,?\ art away1 any?+ is a disc\ragem5t4 ,bless$ be ,god = su* a day--"o ( a ?\s&6 ,oh6 :y n always ?is8 ,wat* & pray4 ,be+ 9 ,ed9burgh ?is mon?1 dur+ ! sitt+ ( ! ,g5]al ,assembly1 he us$ ! opportunity ( revisit+ "s ( 8 =m] *>ge 9 ! ,canongate4 ,j4,s41 a f>-(f inquir]1 b surely ,god is lead+4 ,8 h& draws out ^! te>s4 ,int]e/+ visits to ,l41 ne> dea?1 & /ill 9 ! same m9d4 ,i _c b hope t "s fai? is "h4 ,saw ,mrs4 ,m42 _m te>s3 felt mu*1 ?\gh ,i am /ill d\btful1 & 9 ! d>k4 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,"l6 ,june #aa4--,ye/]day up 9 ,dunipace4 ,x w\ld seem z if ,i 7 afraid to "n ! "n ( ,*ri/4 ,saw _m worldly p greatly ne$+ a ^w 9 season1 yet c\ld n get up my he>t to speak4 ,:at ,i did fail$ almo/ completely4 ,i am n wor?y1 ,"l6 ,to-day s\ght to prep>e my he>t = ! com+ ,sabba?4 ,aft] ! example ( ,bo/on1 ^: life ,i h be5 read+1 exam9$ my he>t ) pray] & fa/+4 #a4 ,does my he>t really close ) ! (f] ( salvation by ,jesus8 ,is x my *oice to be sav$ 9 ! way :i* gives ,him all ! praise1 & me none8 ,d ,i n only see x to be ! ,bible way ( salvation1 b does x cordially approve itself to my he>t z delightful8 ,"l se>* me & try me1 = ,i _c b answ]1 ,yes1 yes4 #b4 ,is x ! desire ( my he>t to be made altoge!r holy8 ,is !re any s9 ,i wi% to reta98 ,is s9 a grief to me1 ! sudd5 ris+s & ov]com+s !re( especially8 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ all ?+s--,?\ kn[e/ t ,i hate all s91 & desire to be made altoge!r l ,!e4 ,x is ! sweete/ ^w 9 ! ,bible3 ',s9 %all n h dom9ion ov] y4' ,oh1 !n1 t ,i might lie l[ 9 ! du/1--! l[] ! bett]1--t ,jesus' righte\sness & ,jesus' /r5g? alone be admir$6 ,felt mu* deadness1 & mu* grief t ,i _c grieve = ?is deadness4 ,t[>ds ev5+ reviv$4 ,got a calm _s ?r\gh psalmody & pray]4 ,june #ab1 ,sabba?4--,to-day a s9n] prea*$ ,jesus1 ! same ,jesus :o has done all ?+s = him & t s lately6 ,a day ( mu* help1 ( "s e>ne/ look+-up ( ! he>t to t alone quick5+ p[]1 ( mu* temptation to flatt]y & pride4 ,oh = brea?+ gales ( spiritual life6 ,ev5+--,some:at help$ to lay ,jesus be=e little *ildr5 9 8 beauty & excell5cy4 ,mu* fatigue1 yet "s peace4 ,surely a day 9 ?y c\rts is bett] ?an a ?\s&4 ,june #ae4--;,day ( visit+ 7r a happy "o7 9 ,c>ron-%ore4 ,l>ge meet+ 9 ! ev5+4 ,felt v happy aft] x1 ?\gh m\rn+ = bitt] speak+ ( ! gospel4 ,surely x is a g5tle message1 & %\ld be spok5 ) angelic t5d]ness1 especially by su* a ne$y s9n]4 ,( ?is bitt]ness 9 prea*+1 he _h little inde$ 9 aft] days2 yet s s5sible 0 he ( its be+ q natural to all ( u1 t (t5times he made x ! subject ( conv]sation1 & us$ to grieve ov] himself if he _h spok5 ) any?+ less ?an solemn compassion4 ,i rememb] on "o occasion1 :5 we met1 he ask$ :at my la/ ,sabba?'s subject _h be54 ,x _h be51 ,! wick$ %all be turn$ into hell4 ,on he>+ ?is awful te/1 he ask$1 ,7 y able to prea* x ) t5d]ness8 ,c]ta9 x is t ! tone ( reproa* & upbraid+ is widely diff]5t f ! voice ( solemn w>n+4 ,x is n say+ h>d ?+s t pi]ces ! consci5ces ( our p2 x is ! voice ( div9e love he>d amid ! ?und]4 ,! %>pe/ po9t ( ! two-edg$ sword is n dea?1 b life2 & aga9/ self-righte\s s\ls ?is latt] ought to be m us$ ?an ! =m]4 ,= su* s\ls c he> u tell ( ! op5 gates ( hell & ! unqu5*able fire f> m unconc]n$ly ?an ( ! gates ( heav5 wide op5 = _! imm$iate return4 ,:5 we prea* t ! glad tid+s 7 int5d$ to imp>t imm$iate assurance ( et]nal life to e s9n] t believes !m1 we /rike deep] ^u ! pr\d enmity ( ! _w to ,god1 !n :5 we %[ ! et]nal curse & ! second dea?4 ,june #ai1 ,sabba?4--,wet morn+4 ,prea*$ at ,dunipace to a small audi5ce1 on ,p>able ( ! ,t>es4 ,i ?ank ,god = t bless$ p>able4--,9 bo? disc\rses ,i c look back on _m hateful ?\ghts ( pride1 & self-admiration1 & love ( praise1 /eal+ ! he>t out ( ! s]vice4 ,june #bb4--;,c>ron-%ore4 ,my la/4 ,"s te>s2 yet ,i fe> "s l ! mess5g]1 n ! message2 & ,i fe> ,i am s va9 z to love t love4 ,"l1 let x n be s4 ,p]i% my honor1 b let ?9e be exalt$ =ev]4 ,june #bf4--,true ,sabba?-day4 ,gold5 sky4 ,full *ur*1 & m livel9ess ?an sometimes4 ,%all ,i call ! livel9ess ( ?is day a gale ( ! ,_s1 or 0 all natural8 ,i "k t all 0 n ( grace2 ! self-admiration1 ! vanity1 ! desire ( honor1 ! bitt]ness--^! 7 all brea?s ( e>? or hell4 ,b 0 !re no grace8 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/4 ,i d>e n wrong ,!e by say+--,no6 ,l>b]t ,sabba? s*ool ) ! same livel9ess & joy4 ,dome/ic "w ) ! same4 ,prais$ be ,god6 ,oh t ! savor ( x may la/ ?r\gh ! week6 ,by ?is may ,i te/ if x be all ( nature1 or mu* ( grace4 ,alas6 h[ ,i tremble = my ,monday morn+s--^? seasons ( lifelessness4 ,"l1 bless ! se$s s[n ?is day 9 ! he>ts ( my fri5ds1 by ! h& ( my fri5ds1 & all ov] ! _w--ha/5 ! h>ve/6 ,july #c4--;,aft] a week ( work+ & hurri$ prep>ation1 a ,sabba? ( m+l$ peace & pa94 ,call$1 morn+ be=e prea*+1 to see ,mrs4 ,e41 dy+4 ,prea*$ on ! ,jailor--discompos$ly--) "s glimpses ( ! g5u9e tru? z x is 9 ,jesus4 ,felt !re 0 mu* m+l+ ( exp]i5ce4 ,at times ! congregation 0 light5$ up f _! dull flatness1 & !n !y sunk aga9 into le?>gy4 ,o ,"l1 make me hang on ,!e to op5 _! he>ts1 ,?\ op5] ( ,lydia's he>t4 ,i fe> ,?\ wilt n bless my prea*+1 until ,i am br\ght ?us to hang on ,!e4 ,oh keep n back a bless+ = my s96 ,aft]noon--,on ! ,highway ( ! ,r$eem$1 ) m ease & com=t4 ,felt ! tru? sometimes boil+ up f my he>t into my words4 ,"s glimpses ( t5d]ness1 yet mu* less ( t _s ?an ! la/ two ,sabba?s4 ,aga9 saw ! dy+ woman4 ,oh :5 w ,i plead1 ) my te>s & inw>d ye>n+s1 ov] s9n]s6 ,oh1 compassionate ,"l1 give me to "k :at mann] ( _s ,i am (6 give me ?y g5tle ,_s1 t nei!r /rives nor cries4 ,mu* we>9ess1 want ( pray]fulness1 & want ( cleav+ to ,*ri/4 ,tuesday ! #e? be+ ! anniv]s>y ( 8 lic5ce to prea* ! gospel1 he writes3 ,ev5tful week2 "o ye> ,i h prea*$ ,jesus1 h ,i8 or myself8 ,i h (t5 prea*$ myself also1 b ,jesus ,i h prea*$4 ,ab\t ?is "t he aga9 felt ! h& ( affliction1 ?\gh x did n cont9ue long4 ,yet x 0 pla9 to him n[ t p]sonal tr\ble 0 to be "o ( ! +r$i5ts ( t exp]i5ce :i* help$ to give a peculi> tone to 8 m9i/ry4 ,july #h4--,s9ce ,tuesday h be5 laid up ) illness4 ,set by once m = a season to feel my unpr(itabl5ess & cure my pride4 ,:5 %all ?is self-*oos+ temp] be heal$8 ',"l1 ,i w prea*1 run1 visit1 wre/le1' said ,i4 ',no1 ?\ %alt lie 9 ?y b$ & suff]1' said ! ,"l4 ,to-day miss$ "s f9e opportunities ( speak+ a ^w = ,*ri/4 ,! ,"l saw ,i w\ld h spok5 z mu* = my own honor z 81 & !re=e %ut my m\?4 ,i see a man _c be a fai?ful m9i/]1 until he prea*es ,*ri/ = ,*ri/'s sake--until he gives up /riv+ to attract p to himself1 & seeks only to attract !m to ,*ri/4 ,"l1 give me ?is6 ,to-night "s glimpses ( humbl+1 & !re=e "s wre/l+ 9 social pray]4 ,b my pray]s are sc>cely to be call$ pray]4 ,!n1 9 ! ev5+3 ,?is day my bro!r has be5 five ye>s abs5t f ! body & pres5t ) ! ,"l1 & kn[s m & loves m ?an all e>?ly sa9ts toge!r4 ,till ! day break & ! %ad[s flee away1 turn1 my ,belov$6 ,july #aj4--;,i fe> ,i am gr[+ m e>?ly 9 "s ?+s4 ,to-day ,i felt a difficulty 9 br++ 9 spiritual conv]sation imm$iately aft] prea*+1 :5 my bosom %\ld be burn+4 ,excus$ myself f d9+ out f o!r ?an ! gr& reason2 ?\gh *eck$ & correct$ myself4 ,ev5+--,ins5sibly slid into worldly conv]sation4 ,let ^! ?+s be correct$ 9 me1 ,o ,"l1 by ! he>t be+ m fill$ ) love to ,jesus1 & m ejaculatory pray]4 ,july #ag1 ,sabba?4--,oh t ,i may rememb] my own ^w ?is day3 t ! h\r ( communion is ! h\r = ! foxes--! little foxes--to spoil ! w9e4 ,two ?+s t defile ?is day 9 look+ back1 are love ( praise runn+ ?r\gh all1 & cons5t+ to li/5 to worldly talk at all4 ,oh t ^! may keep me humble & be my burd51 lead+ me to ! cross4 ,!n1 ,satan1 ?\ wilt be outwitt$6 ,july #ai4--;,di$1 ?is day1 ,w4 ,m',*eyne1 my c\s9-g]man1 ,relief m9i/]1 ,kelso4 ,oh h[ ,i rep5t ( our va9 controv]sies on ,e/abli%m5ts :5 we la/ met1 & t we spoke s little ( ,jesus6 ,oh t we _h spok5 m "o to ano!r6 ,"l1 tea* me to be always speak+ z dy+ to dy+4 ,july #bd4--;,dunipace ,communion--,he>d ,mr4 ,purves ( ,j$burgh prea*1 ',!re=e ) joy %all ye draw wat] out ( ! wells ( salvation4' ,! only way to come to ord9ances1 & to draw f ! well1 is to come ) ! matt] ( acceptance settl$1 believ+ ,god's ang] to be turn$ away4 ,truly a preci\s view ( ! fre5ess ( ! gospel v refre%+4 ,my s\l ne$s to be r\s$ mu* to appreh5d ?is tru?4 ,above 7,july #c7 he spoke ( m+l+ exp]i5ce ) ! g5u9e tru? z x is 9 ,jesus4 ,x is to ?is t he ref]s aga9 9 ! la/ p>agraph4 ,8 deep acqua9tance ) ! human he>t & passions (t5 lead him to dwell at great] l5g?1 n only on ^? topics :]eby ! s9n] might be br\ght to discov] 8 guilt1 b also on m>ks t w\ld evid5ce a *ange1 t on ! glad tid+s4 ,& yet he ev] felt t ^! bless$ tid+s1 address$ to s\ls 9 ! v gall ( bitt]ness1 7 ! true !me ( ! m9i/] ( ,*ri/2 & nev] did he prea* o!r ?an a full salvation ready = ! *ief ( s9n]s4 ,f ! v fir/1 also1 he c>efully avoid$ ! error ( ^? :o r speculate or doctr9ize ab\t ! gospel1 ?an prea* ! gospel itself4 ,is n ! true idea ( prea*+ t ( "o1 l ,ahimaaz1 com+ ) all-important tid+s1 & int5t on mak+ ^! tid+s kn[n8 ,occupi$ ) ! facts he has to tell1 he has no he>t to speculate on m]e ab/ractions2 nay1 he is apt to =get :at language he employs1 except+ s f> z ! v gr&eur ( ! tid+s gives a gl[ ( eloqu5ce to 8 words4 ,! glori\s fact1 ,by ?is man is prea*$ unto y ! =giv5ess ( s9s1 is ! burd5 ( e s]mon4 ,! cri] is s5t to ! op5+s ( ! gate by 8 ,"l1 to h]ald =? ?is "o inf9itely important tru? ?r\gh ! :ole creation "u heav54 ,he seems inv>iably to h appli$ = 8 p]sonal b5efit :at he gave out to 8 p4 ,we h already notic$ h[ he us$ to fe$ on ! ^w1 n 9 ord] to prep>e himself = 8 p1 b = p]sonal edification4 ,to d s 0 a fundam5tal rule ) him2 & all pa/ors w feel t1 if !y are to prosp] 9 _! own s\ls1 !y mu/ s use ! ^w1--/]nly refus+ to admit ! idea ( fe$+ o!rs1 until satiat$ !mselves4 ,& = simil> ends x is ne$ful t we let ! tru? we he> prea*$ s9k d[n into our own s\ls4 ,we1 z well z our p1 mu/ dr9k 9 ! fall+ %[]4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne did s4 ,x is common to f9d him speak+ ?us3 ,july #ca1 ,sabba?4--,aft]noon1 on ,judas betray+ ,*ri/2 mu* m t5d]ness ?an ev] ,i felt be=e4 ,oh t ,i might abide 9 ! bosom ( ,him :o wa%$ ,judas' feet1 & dipp$ 8 h& 9 ! same di% ) him1 & w>n$ him1 & griev$ ov] him--t ,i might cat* ! infection ( 8 love1 ( 8 t5d]ness1 s wond]ful1 s unfa?omable4 ,com+ home on a ,sabba? ev5+ 7,aug4 #g?7 f ,torwood ,sabba? s*ool1 a p]son met him :o sugge/$ an opportunity ( usefulness4 ,!re 7 two families ( gypsies encamp$ at ,torwood1 )9 8 rea*4 ,he 0 we>y ) a long day's labor2 b in/antly1 z 0 8 cu/om on su* a call1 set (f to f9d !m4 ,by ! side ( _! wood-fire1 he op5$ out ! p>able ( ! ,lo/ ,%eep1 & press$ x on _! s\ls 9 simple t]ms4 ,he !n knelt d[n 9 pray] = !m1 & left !m some:at impress$1 & v grateful4 ,at ?is "t a y\?ful p>i%ion]1 = ^: s\l he felt mu* anxiety1 left 8 fa!r's ro(4 ,ev] wat*ful = s\ls1 he seiz$ ?is opportunity ( lay+ be=e him m fully ! ?+s belong+ to 8 peace4 ,l>b]t1 ,augu/ #h1 #ahcf ,,my ,,de> ,g4----4 ,y w be surpris$ to he> f me4 ,i h (t5 wi%$ to be bett] acqua9t$ ) y2 b 9 ^! sad p>i%es we _c manage to "k & be intimate ) e "o we w\ld desire4 ,& n[ y h left y\r fa!r's ro( & our *>ge2 /ill my desires g aft] y1 z well z ! k9d ?\ghts ( _m o!rs2 & s9ce ,i _c n[ speak to y1 ,i take ?is way ( express+ my ?\ghts to y4 ,i d n "k 9 :at light y look ^u me1 :e!r z a grave & morose m9i/]1 or z "o :o might be a companion & fri5d2 b really1 x is s %ort a :ile s9ce ,i 0 j l y1 :5 ,i enjoy$ ! games :i* y n[ enjoy1 & read ! books :i* y n[ read1 t ,i nev] c ?9k ( myself z any?+ m ?an a boy4 ,?is is "o great reason :y ,i write to y4 ,! same y\?ful blood fl[s 9 my ve9s t fl[s 9 y\rs1 ! same fancies & buoyant passions dance 9 my bosom z 9 y\rs2 s t :5 ,i w\ld p]suade y to come ) me to ! same ,savi\r1 & to walk ! re/ ( y\r life 'l$ by ! ,_s ( ,god1' ,i am n p]suad+ y to any?+ beyond y\r ye>s4 ,i am n l a grey-head$ gr&fa!r1--!n y might answ] all ,i say by tell+ me t y are a boy4 ,no2 ,i am almo/ z mu* a boy z y are2 z fond ( happ9ess & ( life z y are2 z fond ( scamp]+ ov] ! hills1 & see+ all t is to be se51 z y are4 ,ano!r ?+ t p]suades me to write y1 my de> boy1 is1 t ,i h felt 9 my own exp]i5ce ! want ( hav+ a fri5d to direct & c\nsel me4 ,i _h a k9d bro!r z y h1 :o taught me _m ?+s4 ,he gave me a ,bible1 & p]suad$ me to read x2 he tri$ to tra9 me z a g>d5] tra9s ! apple-tree ^u ! wall2 b all 9 va94 ,i ?\ght myself f> wis] ?an he1 & w\ld always take my own way2 & _m a "t1 ,i well rememb]1 ,i h se5 him read+ 8 ,bible1 or %utt+ 8 closet door to pray1 :5 ,i h be5 dress+ to g to "s frolic1 or "s dance ( folly4 ,well1 ?is de> fri5d & bro!r di$2 & ?\gh 8 dea? made a great] impression ^u me ?an ev] 8 life _h done1 /ill ,i f\nd ! mis]y ( be+ fri5dless4 ,i d n mean t ,i _h no relations & worldly fri5ds1 = ,i _h _m2 b ,i _h no fri5d :o c>$ = my s\l4 ,i _h none to direct me to ! ,savi\r--none to awak5 my slumb]+ consci5ce--none to tell me ab\t ! blood ( ,jesus wa%+ away all s9--none to tell me ( ! ,_s :o is s will+ to *ange ! he>t1 & give ! victory ov] passions4 ,i _h no m9i/] to take me by ! h&1 & say1 ',come ) me1 & we w d !e good4' ,yes1 ,i _h "o fri5d & m9i/]1 b t 0 ,jesus himself1 & ,he l$ me 9 a way t makes me give ,him1 & ,him only1 all ! praise4 ,n[1 ?\gh ,jesus may d ?is aga91 yet ! m common way ) ,him is to use e>?ly guides4 ,n[1 if ,i c\ld supply ! place ( su* a guide to y1 ,i %\ld be happy4 ,to be a f+]-po/ is all t ,i want to be--po9t+ out ! way4 ,?is is :at ,i s mu* want$ myself2 ?is is :at y ne$ n want1 unless y wi%4 ,tell me1 de> ,g41 w\ld y "w less pleasantly ?r\gh ! day--w\ld y walk ! /reets ) a m doleful /ep--w\ld y eat y\r meat ) less gladness ( he>t--w\ld y sleep less tranquilly at night--if y _h ! =giv5ess ( s9s1 t is1 if all y\r wick$ ?\ghts & de$s--lies1 !fts1 & ,sabba?-break+s--7 all blott$ out ( ,god's book ( remembrance8 ,w\ld ?is make y less happy1 d y ?9k8 ,y d>e n say x w\ld4 ,b w\ld ! =giv5ess ( s9s n make y m happy ?an y are8 ,p]haps y w tell me t y are v happy z y are4 ,i q believe y4 ,i "k t ,i 0 v happy :5 ,i 0 un=giv54 ,i "k t ,i _h great pleasure 9 _m s9s--9 ,sabba?-break+1 = in/ance4 ,_m a delightful walk ,i h _h1--speak+ my own words1 ?9k+ my own ?\ghts1 & seek+ my own pleasure on ,god's holy day4 ,i fancy few boys 7 ev] happi] 9 an unconv]t$ /ate ?an ,i 04 ,no sorr[ cl\d$ my br[--no te>s fill$ my eyes1 unless ov] "s nice /ory-book2 s t ,i "k t y say q true1 :5 y say t y are happy z y are4 ,b ah6 is n ?is j ! sadde/ ?+ ( all1 t y %\ld be happy :il/ y are a *ild ( wra?1--t y %\ld smile1 & eat1 & dr9k1 & be m]ry1 & sleep s\nd1 :5 ?is v night y may be 9 hell8 ,happy :ile un=giv56--a t]rible happ9ess4 ,x is l ! ,h9doo wid[ :o sits ^u ! fun]al pile ) h] dead husb&1 & s+s songs ( joy :5 !y are sett+ fire to ! wood ) :i* %e is to be burn$4 ,yes1 y may be q happy 9 ?is way1 till y die1 my boy2 b :5 y look back f hell1 y w say1 x 0 a mis]able k9d ( happ9ess4 ,n[1 d y ?9k x w\ld n give y m happ9ess to be =giv51--to be able to put on ,jesus1 & say1 ',god's ang] is turn$ away8' ,w\ld n y be happi] at "w1 & happi] 9 ! h\se1 & happi] 9 y\r b$8 ,i c assure y f all t ev] ,i h felt ( x1 ! pleasures ( be+ =giv5 are z sup]ior to ! pleasures ( an un=giv5 man1 z heav5 is high] ?an hell4 ,! peace ( be+ =giv5 rem9ds me ( ! calm1 blue sky1 :i* no e>?ly clamors c di/urb4 ,x light5s all labor1 sweet5s e morsel ( bread1 & makes a sick-b$ all s(t & d[ny2 yea1 x takes away ! sc[l ( dea?4 ,n[1 =giv5ess may be y\rs n[4 ,x is n giv5 to ^? :o are good4 ,x is n giv5 to any because !y are less wick$ ?an o!rs4 ,x is giv5 only to ^? :o1 feel+ t _! s9s h br\ght a curse on !m :i* !y _c lift (f1 'look unto ,jesus1' z be>+ all away4 ,n[1 my de> boy1 ,i h no wi% to we>y y4 ,if y are any?+ l :at ,i 01 y w h yawn$ _m a "t already ov] ?is lett]4 ,h[ev]1 if ! ,"l deal graci\sly ) y1 & t\* y\r "y he>t1 z ,i pray ,he may1 ) a desire to be =giv51 & to be made a *ild ( ,god1 p]haps y w n take ill :at ,i h writt5 to y 9 mu* ha/e4 ,z ?is is ! fir/ "t y h be5 away f home1 p]haps y h n le>n$ to write lett]s yet2 b if y h1 ,i w\ld l to he> f y1 h[ y come on--:at convictions y feel1 if y feel any--:at difficulties1 :at p>ts ( ! ,bible puzzle y1 & !n ,i w\ld d my be/ to unravel !m4 ,y read y\r ,bible regul>ly1 ( c\rse2 b d try & und]/& x1 & /ill m1 to feel x4 ,read m p>ts ?an "o at a "t4 ,= example1 if y are read+ ,g5esis1 read a psalm also2 or1 if y are read+ ,mat!w1 read a small bit ( an epi/le also4 ,turn ! ,bible into pray]4 ,?us1 if y 7 read+ ! #a/ ,psalm1 spread ! ,bible on ! *air be=e y1 & kneel1 & pray1 ',o ,"l1 give me ! bless$ness ( ! man1' etc4 ',let me n /& 9 ! c\nsel ( ! ungodly1' etc4 ,?is is ! be/ way ( kn[+ ! mean+ ( ! ,bible1 & ( le>n+ to pray4 ,9 pray] confess y\r s9s by "n--go+ ov] ^? ( ! pa/ day1 "o by "o4 ,pray = y\r fri5ds by "n--fa!r1 "m1 etc4 etc4 ,if y love !m1 surely y w pray = _! s\ls4 ,i "k well t !re are pray]s con/antly asc5d+ = y f y\r own h\se2 & w y n pray = !m back aga98 ,d ?is regul>ly4 ,if y pray s9c]ely = o!rs1 x w make y pray = y\rself4 ,b ,i mu/ be done4 ,good-bye1 de> ,g4 ,rememb] me to y\r bro!r k9dly1 & believe me y\r s9c]e fri5d1 ,r4,m4,m4 ,x is ! %eph]d's duty 7,ezek4 #cd3d71 9 visit+ 8 flock1 to discrim9ate2 /r5g!n+ ! diseas$1 heal+ t :i* 0 sick1 b9d+ up t :i* 0 brok51 br++ aga9 t :i* 0 driv5 away1 seek+ t :i* 0 lo/4 ,?is ,mr4 ,m',*eyne tri$ to d4 ,9 an aft]-lett] to ,mr4 ,som]ville ( ,&]/on1 9 ref]5ce to ! p ( ^! p>i%es1 :om he _h _h means ( kn[+1 he wrote1 ,take m he$ to ! sa9ts ?an ev] ,i did4 ,speak a ^w 9 season to ,s4,m4 ,s4,h4 w dr9k 9 simple tru?1 b tell him to be humble-m9d$4 ,cause ,l4,h4 to le>n 9 sil5ce2 speak n ( religion to h]1 b speak to h] case always4 ,tea* ,a4,m4 to look simply at ,jesus4 ,j4,a4 w>n & tea*4 ,get worldl9ess f ! ,b4's1 if y c4 ,mrs4 ,g4 awake or keep awake4 ,speak fai?fully to ! ,b4's4 ,tell me ( ,m4,c41 if %e is really a believ]1 & gr[s4 ,a4,k41 has ! light visit$ h]8 ,m4,t4 ,i h _h "s d\bts (4 ,m4,g4 lies sore ^u my consci5ce2 ,i did no good to t woman3 %e always manag$ to speak ( ?+s ab\t ! tru?4 ,speak boldly4 ,:at matt] 9 et]nity ! slight awkw>dnesses ( "t6 ,x 0 ab\t ?is "t t ! manag]s & congregation ( ! new *ur*1 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 ,dundee1 invit$ him to prea* z "o ( ! c&idates2 &1 9 ! end ( ,augu/1 *ose him to be _! pa/or1 ) "o accord4 ,he accept$ ! call "u an awful s5se ( ! "w t lay be=e him4 ,he w\ld r1 he said1 h made *oice = himself ( su* a rural p>i% z ,dunipace2 b ! ,"l seem$ to desire x o!rwise4 ,8 ways are 9 ! sea4 ,m ?an once1 at a lat] p]iod1 he w\ld say1 ,we might h ?\ght t ,god w\ld h s5t a /rong man to su* a p>i% z m9e1 & n a feeble re$4 ,! fir/ day he prea*$ 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s z a c&idate 7,augu/ #ad?7 is ?us record$3 ,=5oon--,m9d n altoge!r 9 a prea*+ frame2 on ! ,s[]4 ,aft]noon--,) m enc\ragem5t & help ( ! ,_s2 on ! voice ( ! ,belov$1 9 ,cant4 #b3h-ag4f ,9 ! ,ev5+--,) all my he>t2 on ,ru?4 ,"l1 keep me humble4 ,return+ f ,/4 ,pet]'s ! second "t1 he obs]v$ 9 8 class ( girls at ,dunipace m ?an usual anxiety4 ,"o ( !m seem$ to be ?or\ghly awak5$ t ev5+4 ,?anks be to ,!e1 ,"l1 = any?+1 he writes t ev5+2 = z yet he _h s[n )\t see+ fruit4 ,x seems to h be5 "p ( ! ,"l's deal+ ) him1 ?us to tea* him to p]sev]e 9 duty & 9 fai?1 ev5 :]e !re 0 no obvi\s success4 ,! arr[ t 0 yet to w\nd hundr$s 0 !n receiv+ its po9t2 b x lay 9 ! quiv] = a "t4 ,! ,"l seem$ to be t\*+ 8 own he>t1 & melt+ x by :at he spoke to o!rs1 r ?an t\*+ or melt+ ! he>ts ( ^? he spoke to4 ,b f ! day ( 8 prea*+ 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 tok5s ( success began4 ,8 fir/ day !re1 especially ! ev5+ s]mon on ,ru?1 0 bless$ to two s\ls 9 ,dundee2 & n[ he sees s\ls beg9 to melt "u 8 la/ words 9 ! p>i% :]e he ?\ght he _h hi!rto sp5t 8 /r5g? 9 va94 #f ,see ?is *>act]i/ic s]mon 9 ! ,rema9s4 ,z he 0 n[ to leave ?is sph]e1 he s\ght out1 ) deep anxiety1 a labor] :o w\ld help _! ov]burd5$ pa/or1 9 true love to ! p's s\ls4 ,he believ$ he _h f\nd su* a labor] 9 ,mr4 ,som]ville1 8 fri5d :o _h %>$ 8 e ?\ght & feel+ 9 =m] days1 & :o1 ) a %>p sickle 9 8 h&1 0 n[ advanc+ t[>d ! h>ve/ field4 ,i see pla9ly1 he wrote to ,mr4 ,bon>1 t my poor attempts at labor 9 y\r cle> p>i% w soon be eclips$4 ,b if at l5g? ! iron front ( unbelief give way1 if ! h>d faces become furr[$ ) ! te>s ( anxiety & ( fai?1 "u :atev] m9i/ry1 y w rejoice1 & ,i w rejoice1 & ! angels1 & ! ,fa!r & ,god ( angels1 w rejoice4 ,x 0 9 ?is _s t he clos$ 8 %ort t5 mon?s ( labor 9 ?is region4 ,8 la/ s]mons to ! p ( ,l>b]t & ,dunipace 7 on ,hosea #ad3a1 ,o ,israel1 return unto ! ,"l ?y ,god2 & ,j]emiah #h3bj1 ,h>ve/ is pa/4 ,9 ! ev5+ he writes1 ,"l1 ,i feel b[$ d[n because ( ! little ,i h done = !m :i* ,?\ mighte/ h bless$6 ,my b[els ye>n ov] !m1 & all ! m t ,i h done s little4 ,inde$1 ,i might h done t5 times z mu* z ,i h done4 ,i might h be5 9 e h\se2 ,i might h spok5 always z a m9i/]4 ,"l1 can/ ,?\ bless p>tial1 unequal ef=ts8 ,i believe x 0 ab\t ?is "t t "s ( u fir/ ( all began our cu/om ( pray+ specially = ea* o!r on ,saturday ev5+1 ) a ref]5ce to our engagem5ts 9 ! m9i/ry next day4 ,?is conc]t = pray] we h nev] s9ce se5 cause to discont9ue4 ,x has f "t to "t be5 wid5$ 9 its circle2 & z yet 8 has be5 ! only voice t has be5 sil5c$ ( all t ?us began to g 9 on ea* o!r's behalf be=e ! ,"l4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne nev] fail$ to rememb] ?is "t ( pray]3 ,l>b]t & ,dunipace are always on my he>t1 especially on ! ,saturday ev5+s1 :5 ,i pray = a glori\s ,sabba?6 ,on "o occasion1 9 ,dundee1 he 0 ask$ if ! accumulation ( bus9ess 9 8 p>i% nev] l$ him to neglect ! season ( pray] on a busy ,saturday4 ,8 reply 01 t he 0 n aw>e t x ev] did4 ,:at w\ld my p d if ,i 7 n to pray8 ,s /eady 0 he 9 ,sabba? prep>ations1 f ! fir/ day to ! la/ "t he 0 ) !m1 t ?\gh at pray]-meet+s1 or simil> occasions1 he did n ?9k x ne$ful to h mu* laid up be=e com+ to address 8 p2 yet1 anxi\s to give !m on ! ,sabba? :at _h co/ him some:at1 he nev]1 )\t an urg5t reason1 w5t be=e !m )\t mu* previ\s m$itation & pray]4 ,8 pr9ciple on ?is subject 0 embodi$ 9 a rem>k he made to "s ( u :o 7 conv]s+ on ! matt]4 ,be+ ask$ 8 view ( dilig5t prep>ation = ! pulpit1 he rem9d$ u ( ,exodus #bg3bj3 ,beat5 oil--beat5 oil = ! lamps ( ! sanctu>y ,& yet 8 pray]fulness 0 great] /ill4 ,inde$1 he c\ld n neglect fell[%ip ) ,god be=e ent]+ ! congregation4 ,he ne$$ to be ba!d 9 ! love ( ,god4 ,8 m9i/ry 0 s mu* a br++ out ( views t _h fir/ sanctifi$ 8 own s\l1 t ! heal?9ess ( 8 s\l 0 absolutely ne$ful to ! vigor & p[] ( 8 m9i/rations4 ,dur+ ^! t5 mon?s ! ,"l _h done mu* = him1 b x 0 *iefly 9 ! way ( discipl9e = a future m9i/ry4 ,he _h be5 taught a m9i/]'s he>t2 he _h be5 tri$ 9 ! furnace2 he _h ta/$ deep p]sonal sorr[1 little ( :i* has be5 record$2 he _h felt ! fi]y d>ts ( temptation2 he _h be5 ex]cis$ 9 self-exam9ation & 9 mu* pray]2 he _h prov$ h[ fl9ty is ! rock1 & _h le>n$ t 9 lift+ ! rod by :i* x 0 to be smitt51 success lay 9 ,him alone :o enabl$ him to lift x up4 ,& ?us prep>$ ( ,god = ! peculi> "w t await$ him1 he _h turn$ 8 face t[>ds ,dundee1 & took up 8 abode 9 ! spot :]e ! ,"l 0 s m>vel\sly to visit him 9 8 m9i/ry4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,fir/ ,,ye>s ,,( ,,labor ,,9 ,,dundee4 ,ye "k1 f ! fir/ day t ,i came into ,asia1 aft] :at mann] ,i h be5 ) y at all seasons1 s]v+ ! ,"l ) all humility ( m9d1 & ) _m te>s & temptations--,acts #bj3ah1 #ai4 ,! day on :i* he 0 orda9$ pa/or ( a flock1 0 a day ( mu* anxiety to 8 s\l4 ,he _h j\rney$ by ,p]? to sp5d ! night prec$+ "u ! ro( ( 8 k9d fri5d ,mr4 ,gri]son1 9 ! manse ( ,errol4 ,next morn+1 ere he left ! manse1 ?ree passages ( ,scripture occupi$ 8 m9d4 #a4 ,?\ %all keep him 9 p]fect peace ^: m9d is /ay$ on ,!e2 because he tru/e? 9 ,!e4--,isaiah #bf3c4 ,?is v]se 0 seasonable2 =1 z he sat m$itat+ on ! solemn duties ( ! day1 8 he>t trembl$4 #b4 ,give ?yself :olly to ^! ?+s--,i ,tim4 #d3ae4 ,may t ^w 7he pray$7 s9k deep into my he>t4 #c4 ,"h am ,i1 s5d me--,isaiah #f3h4 ,to g1 or to /ay1--to be "h till dea?1 or to visit =eign %ores1 :atsoev]1 :]esoev]1 :5soev] ,?\ please/4 ,he rose f 8 knees ) ! pray]1 ,"l1 may ?y grace come ) ! lay+ on ( ! h&s ( ! ,presbyt]y4 ,he 0 orda9$ on ,novemb] #bd1 #ahcf4 ,! s]vice 0 conduct$ by ,mr4 ,roxburgh ( ,/4 ,john's1 ?r\gh ^: ex]tions ! new *ur* _h be5 erect$1 & :o ev] aft]w>ds *]i%$ ! mo/ cordial fri5d%ip t[>ds him4 ,on ! ,sabba? foll[+ he 0 introduc$ to 8 flock by ,mr4 ,john ,bon> ( ,l>b]t1 ) :om he _h labor$ z a son 9 ! gospel4 ,himself prea*$ 9 ! aft]noon ^u ,isaiah #fa3a-c1 ,! ,_s ( ! ,"l is ^u me etc42 ( :i* he writes1 ,may x be prophetic ( ! object ( my com+ "h6 ,& truly x 0 s4 ,t v s]mon--! fir/ prea*$ by him z a pa/or--0 ! means ( awak5+ s\ls1 z he aft]w>ds le>n$2 & ev] onw>d ! impressions left by 8 words seem$ to spread & deep5 among 8 p4 ,to keep up ! remembrance ( ?is solemn day1 he us$ 9 all ! subsequ5t ye>s ( 8 m9i/ry to prea* f ?is same text on ! anniv]s>y ( 8 ord9ation4#g ,9 ! ev5+ ( t day1 ,mr4 ,bon> aga9 prea*$ on ,^! times ( refre%+4 ,a noble s]mon1 %[+ ! m>ks ( su* times4 ,ah6 :5 %all we h !m "h8 ,"l bless ?is ^w1 to help _! com+6 ,put ?y bless+ ^u ?is day6 ,felt giv5 ov] to ,god1 z "o b\ght ) a price4 #g ,! ,acceptable ,ye> ( ! ,"l 0 "o ( ^! ,anniv]s>y ,s]mons1 prea*$ ,novemb] #ahdj4 ,!re 0 a rapid gr[? 9 8 s\l1 p]ceptible to all :o knew him well1 f ?is "t4 ,ev5 8 pulpit prep>ations1 he us$ to say1 became easi] f ?is date4 ,he _h e>ne/ly s\ght t ! day ( 8 ord9ation might be a "t ( new grace2 he expect$ x w\ld be s2 & !re 0 a peculi> "w to be done by 8 h&s1 = :i* ! ,holy ,_s did spe$ily prep>e him4 ,8 di>y does n conta9 mu* ( 8 feel+s dur+ 8 resid5ce 9 ,dundee4 ,8 incessant labors left him little "t1 except :at he scrupul\sly sp5t 9 ! direct ex]cises ( devotion4 ,b :at we h se5 ( 8 mann] ( /udy & self-exam9ation at ,l>b]t1 is suffici5t to %[ 9 :at a con/ant /ate ( cultivation 8 s\l 0 kept2 & 8 habits 9 ^! respects cont9u$ ) him to ! la/4 ,j]emy ,taylor recomm5ds3 ,if ?\ meane/ to enl>ge ?y religion1 d x r by enl>g+ ?9e ord9>y devotions ?an ?y extraord9>y4 ,?is advice describes v accurately ! plan ( spiritual life on :i* ,mr4 ,m',*eyne act$4 ,he did occasionally set ap>t seasons = special pray] & fa/+1 occupy+ ! "t s set ap>t exclusively 9 devotion4 ,b ! real secret ( 8 s\l's prosp]ity lay 9 ! daily enl>gem5t ( 8 he>t 9 fell[%ip ) 8 ,god4 ,& ! riv] deep5$ z x fl[$ on to et]nity2 s t he at lea/ rea*$ ! feature ( a holy pa/or :i* ,paul po9t$ out to ,timo?y 7#d3ae73 ,8 pr(it+ did appe> to all4 ,9 8 own h\se ev]y?+ 0 fitt$ to make y feel t ! s]vice ( ,god 0 a *e]ful s]vice1 :ile he s\ght t e arrangem5t ( ! family %\ld be> ^u et]nity4 ,8 morn+ h\rs 7 set ap>t = ! n\ri%m5t ( 8 own s\l2 n1 h[ev]1 ) ! view ( lay+ up a /ock ( grace = ! re/ ( ! day1--= manna w corrupt if laid by1--b r ) ! view ( giv+ ! eye ! habit ( look+ upw>d all ! day1 & draw+ d[n gleams f ! reconcil$ c\nt5ance4 ,he 0 sp>+ 9 ! h\rs devot$ to sleep1 & resolutely secur$ "t = devotion be=e breakfa/1 al?\gh (t5 we>i$ & exhau/$ :5 he laid himself to re/4 ,a soldi] ( ! cross1 0 8 rem>k1 mu/ endure h>dness4 ,(t5 he sang a psalm ( praise1 z soon z he arose1 to /ir up 8 s\l4 ,?ree *apt]s ( ! ^w 0 8 usual morn+ portion4 ,?is he ?\ght little en\gh1 = he delight$ exce$+ly 9 ! ,scriptures3 !y 7 bett] to him ?an ?\s&s ( gold or silv]4 ,:5 y write1 said he to a fri5d1 tell me ! mean+ ( ,scriptures4 ,to ano!r1 9 express+ 8 value = ! ^w1 he said1 ,"o gem f t ocean is wor? all ! pebbles ( e>?ly /reams4 ,8 *ief season ( relaxation seem$ to be breakfa/-"t4 ,he w\ld come d[n ) a happy c\nt5ance & a full s\l2 & aft] ! sweet season ( family pray]1 =?) comm5ce =m+ plans = ! day4 ,:5 he 0 well1 no?+ seem$ to af=d him su* true delight z to h 8 h&s full ( "w4 ,inde$1 x 0 (t5 rem>k$ t 9 him y f\nd--:at y r>ely meet )--a man ( high poetic imag9ation & deep devotion1 :o nev]!less 0 engag$ unceas+ly 9 ! busie/ & mo/ labori\s activities ( 8 (fice4 ,8 fri5ds c\ld obs]ve h[ mu* 8 s\l 0 engross$ dur+ 8 times ( /udy ( devotion4 ,if int]rupt$ on su* occasions1 ?\gh he nev] seem$ ruffl$1 yet !re 0 a k9d ( gravity & sil5ce t impli$--,i wi% to be alone4 ,b he fur!r aim$ at enjoy+ ,god all ! day4 ,& ref]r+ on "o occasion to ^? blank h\rs :i* s (t5 are a believ]'s burd51--h\rs dur+ :i* ! s\l is dry & b>r51--he obs]v$1 ,!y are pro(s ( h[ little we are fill$ ) ! pres5ce ( ,god1 h[ little we are bran*like#h 9 our fai?4 #h ,comp>e ,ze*>iah #d3ab ) ,john #ae3e4 ,?is c>eful att5tion to ! frame ( 8 _s did n h9d] 8 prep>ation = 8 p2 on ! contr>y1 x kept alive 8 deep consci5ti\sness1 & kept 8 w>m compassion ev] ye>n+4 ,:5 ask$ to obs]ve a ,saturday z a day ( fa/+ & pray]1 along ) "s o!rs :o _h a special object 9 view1 he repli$1 ,saturday is an awkw>d day = m9i/]s2 = ?\gh ,i love to seek help f on high1 ,i love also dilig5tly to set my ?\ghts 9 ord] = ! ,sabba?4 ,i sometimes fe> t y fail 9 ?is latt] duty4 ,dur+ 8 fir/ ye>s 9 ,dundee1 he (t5 rode out 9 an aft]noon to ! ru9$ *ur* ( ,inv]g[rie1 to enjoy an h\r's p]fect solitude2 = he felt m$itation & pray] to be ! v s9ews ( 8 "w4 ,su* notices1 also1 z ! foll[+1 %[ 8 sy/ematic pursuit ( p]sonal hol9ess3-- ,april #i1 #ahcg1 ,ev5+4--,a v pleasant quietness4 ,/udy ( ! ,epi/le to ! ,hebrews4 ,came to a m intellig5t view ( ! fir/ six *apt]s ?an ev] be=e4 ,mu* refre%$ by ,john ,newton2 in/ruct$ by ,edw>ds4 ,help & fre$om 9 pray]4 ,"l1 :at a happy season is a ,sabba? ev5+6 ,:at w heav5 be6 ,april #af1 ,sabba? ev5+4--,mu* pray] & peace4 ,read+ ! ,bible only4 ,june #b4--,mu* peace & re/ to-night4 ,mu* brok5 "u a s5se ( my exce$+ wick$ness1 :i* no eye c see b ?9e4 ,mu* p]suasion ( ! suffici5cy ( ,*ri/1 & ( ! con/ancy ( 8 love4 ,oh h[ sweet to "w all day = ,god1 & !n to lie d[n at night "u 8 smiles6 ,june #ag1 #ahch4--;,at ,dumb>ney communion4 ,mu* s9 & coldness two days be=e4 ,lay l[ at 8 feet2 f\nd peace only 9 ,jesus4 ,sept4 #be4--,sp5t la/ week at ,blairg[rie2 ,i hope n 9 va94 ,mu* s91 weakness1 & uselessness2 mu* delight 9 ! ^w also1 :ile op5+ x up at family pray]4 ,may ,god make ! ^w fire4 ,op5$ ,i ,!ssalonians1 ! :ole2 enri*+ to my own m9d4 ,h[ true is ,psalm #a6 yet obs]v$ 9 my he>t a /range pron5ess to be entangl$ ) ! affairs ( ?is life2 n /range because ,i am good1 b because ,i h be5 s (t5 taught t bitt]ness is ! end ( x4 ,sept4 #bg4--;,devot$ *ief "p ( ,friday to fa/+4 ,humbl$ & refre%$4 ,sept4 #cj1 ,sabba?4--,v happy 9 my "w4 ,too little pray] 9 ! morn+4 ,mu/ try to get e>ly to b$ on ,saturday1 t ,i may 'rise a great :ile be=e day4' ,^! e>ly h\rs ( pray] on ,sabba? he endeavor$ to h all 8 life2 n = /udy1 b = pray]4 ,he nev] labor$ at 8 s]mons on a ,sabba?4 ,t day he kept = its orig9al end1 ! refre%m5t ( 8 s\l4 7,exodus #ca3ag47 ,! p>i% ( ,/4 ,pet]'s1 to :i* he _h come1 0 l>ge & v de/itute4 ,x is situat$ at ! we/ end ( ! t[n1 & includ$ "s "p ( ! adjac5t c\ntry4 ,! *ur* 0 built 9 connection ) ! ,*ur* ,ext5sion ,s*eme4 ,! p>i% 0 a quo>d sacra p>i%1 deta*$ f ,/4 ,john's4 ,x conta9s a population ( #d1jjj s\ls1 v _m ( :om nev] cross$ ! ?re%old ( any sanctu>y4 ,8 congregation am\nt$ at ! v outset1 to ab\t #a1ajj he>]s1 "o-?ird ( :om came f di/ant p>ts ( ! t[n4 ,"h 0 a wide field = p>o*ial labor4 ,x 0 also a v dead region--few1 ev5 ( ^? :o 7 liv+ ,*ri/ians1 brea?+ _! life on o!rs2 = ! surr\nd+ mass ( imp5etrate hea!nism _h ca/ its sad influ5ce ev5 ov] !m4 ,8 fir/ impressions ( ,dundee 7 sev]e4 ,a city giv5 to idolatry & h>dness ( he>t4 ,i fe> !re is mu* ( :at ,isaiah speaks (3 ',! prophets prophesy lies1 & ! p love to h x s4' ,8 fir/ mon?s ( labor 7 v try+4 ,he 0 n /rong 9 bodily heal?1 & t w9t] a fatal influ5za prevail$ = two or ?ree mon?s1 s t mo/ ( 8 "t 9 8 p>i% 0 sp5t 9 visit+ ! sick & dy+4 ,9 su* cases he 0 always ready4 ,did ,i tell y ( ! boy ,i 0 ask$ to see on ,sabba? ev5+1 j :5 ,i got myself com=tably seat$ at home8 ,i w5t1 & 0 speak+ to him ( ! fre5ess & fulness ( ,jesus1 :5 he gasp$ a little & di$4 ,9 "o ( 8 fir/ visits to ! sick1 ! n>rative ( ! ,"l's s+ul> deal+s ) "o ( 8 p>i%ion]s greatly enc\rag$ him to c>ry ! glad tid+s to ! di/ress$ "u e disadvantage4 ,f\r ye>s be=e1 a "y woman _h be5 seiz$ ) *ol]a1 & 0 depriv$ ( ! use ( spee* = a :ole ye>4 ,! ,bible 0 read to h]1 & m5 ( ,god us$ to speak & pray ) h]4 ,at ! end ( ! ye> h] tongue 0 loos$1 & ! fir/ words he>d f h] lips 7 praise & ?anksgiv+ = :at ! ,"l _h done = h] s\l4 ,x 0 9 h] *amb] he 0 n[ /&+1 he>+ f h] own lips :at ! ,"l _h wr\ght4 ,on ano!r occasion dur+ ! fir/ ye> ( 8 m9i/ry1 he witness$ ! dea?-b$ conv]sion ( a man :o1 till )9 a few days ( 8 end1 almo/ d5i$ t !re 0 a ,god4 ,?is solid conv]sion1 z he believ$ x to be1 /irr$ him up to speak ) all hopefulness1 z well z e>ne/ness1 to ! dy+4 ,b x 01 above all1 to ! *ildr5 ( ,god t 8 visitations seem$ bless$4 ,8 voice1 & 8 v eye1 spoke t5d]ness2 = p]sonal affliction _h taught him to feel sympa?y ) ! sorr[+4 ,?\gh ! foll[+ be an extract f a lett]1 yet x w be recognis$ by _m z exhibit+ 8 mode ( deal+ ) ,god's afflict$ ones 9 8 visitations3 ,!re is a sweet ^w 9 ,exodus 7#c3g71 :i* 0 po9t$ out to me ! o!r day by a poor b]eav$ *ild ( ,god3 ',i "k _! sorr[s4' ,/udy t2 x fills ! s\l4 ,ano!r ^w l x is 9 ,psalm #ajc3ad3 ',he kn[e? our frame4' ,may y\r own s\l1 & t ( y\r de> fri5ds1 be f$ by ^! ?+s4 ,a d>k h\r makes ,jesus bright4 ,ano!r sweet ^w3 ',!y knew n t x 0 ,jesus4' ,i f9d "s specim5s ( 8 sick visits among 8 pap]s1 not$ d[n at a "t :5 8 "w _h n gr[n ^u 8 h&s4 ,janu>y #be1 #ahcg--,visit$ ,mt4 ,m',ba91 a "y woman ( tw5ty-f\r1 long ill ( decl9e4 ,bett] or worse ^! t5 ye>s pa/4 ,spoke ( ',! "o ?+ ne$ful' pla9ly4 ,%e sat quiet4 ,febru>y #ad--;,_h he>d %e 0 bett]--f\nd h] ne> dy+4 ,spoke pla9ly & t5d]ly to h]1 comm5d+ ,*ri/4 ,us$ _m texts4 ,%e put out h] h& k9dly on leav+4 #ae?--,/ill dy+ l2 spoke z ye/]day4 ,%e nev] op5$ h] eyes4 #af?--,%[$ h] ! dreadfulness ( wra?2 fre5ess ( ,*ri/2 ! maje/y1 ju/ice1 tru? ( ,god4 ,poor ,m4 is fa/ go+ ! way :5ce %e %all n return4 ,_m neighbors also always ga!r 94 #ag?--,read ,psalm #bb2 %[$ ! suff]+s ( ,*ri/2 h[ suffici5t an atonem5t2 h[ feel+ a ,high ,prie/4 ,%e brea!d l\d1 & groan$ ?r\gh pa94 ,di$ ?is ev5+ at sev54 ,i h>dly ev] he>d h] speak any?+2 & ,i w hope t ?\ art ) ,*ri/ 9 glory1 till ,i g & see4 #bj?--,pray$ at h] fun]al4 ,saw h] laid 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s *ur*y>d1 ! fir/ laid !re1 by h] own desire1 9 ! fre% m\ld :]e nev] man 0 laid4 ,may x be a tok5 t %e is ) ,him :o 0 laid 9 a new tomb4 ,he records ano!r case3 ,janu>y #d1 #ahcg--,s5t = to ,mrs4 ,s----4 ,v ill2 a/hmatic4 ,spoke on ',no condemnation to !m t are 9 ,*ri/4' ,%e said1 ',b am ,i 9 ,*ri/8' seem+ly v anxi\s4 ,said %e _h (t5 be5 s1 & _h let x g by4 #e?--,/ill liv+2 spoke to h] ( ,*ri/1 & ( full salvation4 7,myself conf9$ 9 ! h\se till ! #af?47--,mu* worse4 ,n anxi\s to he>1 yet f> f re/4 ,d>k1 uneasy eye4 ,ask$ me1 ',:at is x to believe8' ,spoke to h] on ',god1 :o made light %9e out ( d>kness4' ,%e seem$ to take up no?+4 ,"l1 help6 #ag?--,/ill worse2 we>+ away4 ,no smile2 no sign ( inw>d peace4 ,spoke ( ',rememb] me4' ,w5t ov] ! :ole gospel 9 ! =m ( p]sonal address4 ,%e dr[sy4 #ah?--,quiet]4 ',my ,"l & my ,god4' ,%e spoke at int]vals4 ,m *e]ful2 anxi\s t ,i %\ld n g )\t pray]4 ,has mu* k2 complete comm& ( ! ,bible4 #ai?--,spoke on ',conv9c+ ( s9 & righte\sness4' ,r m he>t to he>4 #bj?--,psalm #ea4 ,h] look & h] words 7 lightsome4 #bc;d--,fa9ti% & re/less2 no sign ( peace4 ',i am ! way1' & ,psalm #be4 #bd?--,/ill sil5t & little sign ( any?+4 #bf?--,psalm #dj1 ',! fe>ful pit4' ,v pla94 ,c\ld n get any?+ out ( h]4 ,febru>y #a--;,di$ at twelve noon2 no visible m>k ( light1 or com=t1 or hope4 ,! day %all decl>e x4 ,"o o!r case3 ,febru>y #e1 #ahci4--;,call$ sudd5ly 9 ! ev5+4 ,f\nd him ne> dea?4 ,c>eless family4 ,_m r\nd him4 ,spoke ( ! fre5ess & suffici5cy ( ,jesus4 ',come unto me1' etc41 & ',! wra? ( ,god reveal$ f heav54' ,told him he 0 go+ :]e he w\ld see ,*ri/6 ask$ him if ,he w\ld be 8 ,savi\r8 ,he seem$ to answ]2 8 fa!r said1 ',he is say+1 ,yes4' ,b x 0 ! ?roe ( dea?4 ,"o or two indescribable gasps1 & he di$6 ,i sat sil5t1 & let ,god prea*4 #g?--,spoke ( ! ',wid[ ( ,na91' & ',behold ,i /& at ! door4' ,att5dance at fun]als 0 (t5 to him a season ( mu* ex]cise4 ,%\ld x n be to all m9i/]s a "t = solemn inquiry8 ,0 ,i fai?ful ) ?is s\l8 ,c\ld ?is s\l h le>n$ salvation f me e "t ,i saw him8 ,& did ,i pray z f]v5tly z ,i spoke8 ,& if we h t5d] pity = s\ls1 we w sometimes feel z ,mr4 ,m',*eyne records3 ,septemb] #bd4--;,buri$ ,a4,m4 ,felt bitt]ly ! ^w1 ',if any man draw back4' etc4 ,nev] _h m bitt] feel+s at any fun]al4 ,all :o make any pret5sion to ! (fice ( %eph]ds visit _! flocks2#i yet !re is a wide diff]5ce 9 ! k9d ( visits :i* %eph]ds give4 ,"o does x =mally1 to dis*>ge 8 duty & to quiet consci5ce2 ano!r makes x 8 delight4 ,& ( ^? :o make x _! delight1 "o goes =? on ! regul> plan ( address+ all 9 some:at ( ! same /yle2 :ile ano!r speaks freely1 accord+ z ! w\nds ( 8 %eep come to view4 ,on all occasions1 ?is difficult & try+ "w mu/ be gone ab\t ) a full he>t1 if x is to be gone ab\t successfully at all4 ,!re is little 9 x to excite1 = !re is n ! pres5ce ( numb]s1 & ! few y see at a "t are 9 _! calme/1 e-day mood4 ,h5ce !re is ne$ ( be+ full ( grace1 & ne$ ( feel+ z ?\gh ,god did visit e he>] by y\r means4 ,our object is n to get duty done1 b to get s\ls sav$4 ,,ii ,cor4 #ac3g4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne us$ to g =? 9 ?is _s1 & (t5 aft] visit+ f h\se to h\se = sev]al h\rs1 he w\ld return to "s room 9 ! place 9 ! ev5+1 & prea* to ! ga!r$ families4 ,septemb] #bf1 #ahch4--;,good visit+-day4 ,twelve families2 _m ( !m g n[h]e4 ,x is a great ?+ to be well furni%$ by m$itation & pray] be=e sett+ out2 x makes y a f> m full & fai?ful witness4 ,prea*$ 9 ,a4,f4's h\se on ,job1 ',i "k t my ,r$eem] live?4' ,v sweet & preci\s to myself4 #i ,baxt] 7,re=m$ ,pa/or7 says1 ,i d>e progno/icate f k ( ! nature ( true grace1 t all godly m9i/]s w make consci5ce ( ?is duty1 & address !mselves to x1 unless !y be1 by "s extraord9>y accid5t1 disabl$4 ,p>tly f 8 /ate ( heal?1 & p>tly f ! va/ accumulation ( o!r labors1 & ! calls made on him = evangeliz+ else:]e1 he 0 nev] able to ov]take ! visitation ( ! :ole di/rict assign$ him4 ,he 0 bless$ to attract & reclaim v _m ( ! mo/ degrad$2 & by ,sabba? s*ools & a regul> eld]%ip1 to take sup]9t5d5ce ( ! population to a great ext5t4 ,/ill he himself (t5 said t 8 p>i% _h nev] fully %>$ 9 ! advantages t att5d an aggressive sy/em ( p>o*ial labor4 ,once :5 sp5d+ a day 9 ! rural p>i% ( ,collace1 z we w5t 9 ! aft]noon f door to door1 & spoke to ! *ildr5 :om we met on ! road-side1 he smil$ & said1 ,well1 h[ ,i envy a c\ntry m9i/]2 = he c get acqua9t$ ) all 8 p1 & h "s insight into _! real "*4 ,_m ( u ?\ght t he aft]w>ds err$1 9 ! abundant frequ5cy ( 8 evangeli/ic labors at a "t :5 he 0 /ill b\nd to a p>ticul> flock4 ,he _h an ev5+ class e week = ! "y p ( 8 congregation4 ,! ,cate*ism & ! ,bible 7 8 text-books1 :ile he freely introduc$ all mann] ( useful illu/rations4 ,he ?\ght himself b\nd to prep>e dilig5tly = 8 classes1 t he might give accurate & simple explanations1 & unite :at 0 int]e/+ ) ! mo/ solemn & awak5+ views4 ,b x 0 8 class = "y communicants t engag$ 8 deepe/ c>e1 & :]e9 he saw mo/ success4 ,he began a class ( ?is k9d previ\s to 8 fir/ ,communion1 & cont9u$ to =m x aga9 "s weeks be=e e simil> occasion4 ,8 tract1 publi%$ 9 #ahdj1 ,?is d 9 remembrance ( ,me1 may be consid]$ z exhibit+ ! sub/ance ( 8 solemn exam9ation on ^! occasions4 ,he usually not$ d[n 8 fir/ impressions ( 8 communicants1 & comp>$ ^! notes ) :at he aft]w>ds saw 9 !m4 ,?us3 ,m4,k41 sprightly & lightsome1 yet s5sible2 %e saw pla9ly t ! conv]t$ alone %\ld come to ! ,table1 b /umbl$ at ! "q1 ,if %e 7 conv]t$8 ,yet %e claim$ be+ awak5$ & br\ght to ,*ri/4 ,ano!r3 ,v /aid1 intellig5t-l p]son1 ) a /eady k9d ( anxiety1 b1 ,i fe>1 no feel+ ( helplessness4 ,?\ght t sorr[ & pray] w\ld obta9 =giv5ess4 ,told h] pla9ly :at ,i ?\ght ( h] case4 ,ano!r3 ,kn[s %e 0 once ,*ri/less2 n[ %e reads1 & prays1 & is anxi\s4 ,i d\bt n !re is "s anxiety1 yet ,i fe> x may be only a self-re=mation to recomm5d h]self to ,god & to man4 ,told h] pla9ly4 ,a4,m41 ,i fe> mu* = him4 ,gave him a tok5 ) mu* anxiety2 w>n$ him v mu*4 ,c4,p4 does n seem to h any "w ( anxiety4 ,he reads pray]-books1 etc4 ,does n pray 9 secret4 ,seems n v intellig5t4 ,he s\ght to enc\rage ,sabba? s*ools 9 all ! di/ricts ( 8 p>i%4 ,! hymn1 ,oil = ! ,lamp1 0 writt5 to impress ! p>able on a class ( ,sabba? s*ol>s 9 #ahda4 ,"s ( 8 sweet1 simple tracts 7 writt5 = ^! s*ools4 ,reasons :y ,*ildr5 %\ld fly to ,*ri/ 0 ! fir/1 writt5 at ! ,new ,ye> #ahci2 & ,! ,lambs ( ! ,flock 0 ano!r at a lat] p]iod4 ,8 he>t felt = ! "y4 ,"o ev5+1 aft] visit+ "s ( 8 ,sabba? s*ools1 he writes3 ,_h consid]able joy 9 tea*+ ! *ildr54 ,oh = real he>t-"w among !m6 ,he c\ld accommodate himself to _! capacities2 & he did n reckon x va9 to use 8 tal5ts 9 ord] to attract _! att5tion1 = he reg>d$ ! s\l ( a *ild z inf9itely preci\s4 ,ev] wat*ful = opportunities1 on ! blank leaf ( a book :i* he _h s5t to a little boy ( 8 congregation1 he wrote ^! simple l9es3-- ,peace be to !e1 g5tle boy6 ,_m ye>s ( heal? & joy6 ,love y\r ,bible m ?an play1 ,gr[ 9 wisdom e day4 ,l ! l>k on hov]+ w+1 ,e>ly rise1 & m\nt & s+2 ,l ! dove t f\nd no re/ ,till x flew to ,noah's brea/1 ,re/ n 9 ?is _w ( s91 ,till ! ,savi\r take !e 94 ,he _h a high /&>d 9 8 m9d z to ! moral qualifications ( ^? :o %\ld tea* ! "y4 ,:5 a female tea*] 0 s\ght = to conduct an ev5+ s*ool 9 8 p>i% = ! sake ( ! mill-girls1 he wrote to "o int]e/$ 9 ! cause3 ,! qualifications %e %\ld possess = sew+ & knitt+ y w und]/& f> bett] ?an ,i4 ,%e %\ld be able to keep up 9 h] s*ol>s ! flu5cy ( read+1 & ! k ( ! ,bible & ,cate*ism :i* !y may h already acquir$4 ,%e %\ld be able to tea* !m to s+ ! praises ( ,god ) feel+ & melody4 ,b1 f> above all1 %e %\ld be a ,*ri/ian woman1 n 9 "n only b 9 de$ & 9 tru?1--"o ^: he>t has be5 t\*$ by ! ,_s ( ,god1 & :o c love ! s\ls ( little *ildr54 ,any tea*] :o want$ ?is la/ qualification1 ,i w\ld look ^u z a curse r ?an a bless+1--a c5tre ( bla/+ & coldness & dea?1 in/ead ( a c5tre f :i* life & w>m? & heav5ly influ5ce might emanate4 ,x 0 v soon aft] 8 ord9ation t he began 8 weekly pray]-meet+ 9 ! *ur*4 ,he _h he>d h[ meet+s ( ?is k9d _h be5 bless$ 9 o!r places1 & nev] _h he any cause to regret hav+ set ap>t ! ,?ursday ev5+ = ?is holy purpose4 ,"o ( its fir/ effects 0 to quick5 ^? :o _h already believ$2 !y 7 (t5 refre%$ ^u ^! occasions ev5 m ?an on ! ,sabba?4 ,"s ( ! mo/ solemn seasons ( 8 m9i/ry 7 at ^? meet+s4 ,at _! comm5cem5t1 he wrote to me an acc\nt ( 8 mann] ( conduct+ !m3 ,i give my p a ,scripture to be hidd5 9 ! he>t--g5]ally a promise ( ! ,_s or ! wond]ful effects ( 8 outp\r+4#aj ,i give !m ! heads ( a s]mon ^u x = ab\t tw5ty m9utes4 ,pray] goes be=e & foll[s4 ,!n ,i read "s hi/ory ( ,revivals1 & comm5t 9 pass+4 ,i ?9k ! p are v mu* int]e/$ 9 x3 a numb] ( p come f all p>ts ( ! t[n4 ,b1 oh6 ,i ne$ mu* ! liv+ ,_s to my own s\l2 ,i want my life to be hid ) ,*ri/ 9 ,god4 ,at pres5t !re is too mu* hurry1 & bu/le1 & outw>d work+1 to all[ ! calm work+ ( ! ,_s on ! he>t4 ,i seldom get "t to m$itate1 l ,isaac1 at ev5+-tide1 except :5 ,i am tir$2 b ! dew comes d[n :5 all nature is at re/--:5 e leaf is /ill4 #aj ,! fir/ text he gave to be ?us hidd5 9 ! he>t 0 ,isaiah #cd3ae2 ,until ! ,_s be p\r$ out f on high4 ,a specim5 ( ! happy fre$om & famili> illu/rations :i* 8 p felt to be peculi> to ^! meet+s1 may be f\nd 9 ! notes tak5 by "o ( 8 he>]s1 ( ,expositions ( ! ,epi/les to ! ,sev5 ,*ur*es1 giv5 dur+ ! ye> #ahch4 ,he _h himself great delight 9 ! ,?ursday ev5+ meet+s4 ,!y w d\btless be rememb]$ 9 et]nity ) songs ( praise1 said he1 on "o occasion2 & at ano!r "t1 obs]v+ ! t5d] frame ( a s\l :i* 0 (t5 manife/$ at ^! seasons1 he said1 ,!re is a /illness to ! la/ ^w1--n z on ,sabba?s1 a ru%+ d[n at ! end ( ! pray]1 z if glad to get out ( ,god's pres5ce4 ,s _m believ+ & s _m inquir+ s\ls us$ to att5d1 & s few ( ! worldl+s1 t y seem$ to brea! ! atmosph]e ( heav54 ,b x 0 8 ,sabba?-day's s]vices t br\ght multitudes toge!r1 & 7 soon felt ?r\gh\t ! t[n4 ,he 0 ev] s ready to assi/ 8 bre?r5 s mu* engag$ 9 e good "w1 & latt]ly s (t5 int]rupt$ by inquiries1 t x might be ?\ght he _h no "t = c>eful prep>ation1 & might be excus$ = ! abs5ce ( x4 ,b1 9 tru?1 he nev] prea*$ )\t c>eful att5tion be/[$ on 8 subject4 ,he might1 inde$1 h little "t--(t5 ! h\rs ( a ,saturday 0 all ! "t he c\ld obta91--b 8 daily /udy ( ! ,scriptures /or$ 8 m9d1 & =m$ a cont9ual prep>ation4 ,mu* ( 8 ,sabba? s]vices 0 a draw+ out ( :at he _h c>ri$ 9 dur+ busy days ( ! week4 ,8 voice 0 rem>kably cle>1--8 mann] attractive by its mild dignity4 ,8 =m itself drew ! eye4#aa ,he spoke f ! pulpit z "o e>ne/ly occupi$ ) ! s\ls be=e him4 ,he made !m feel sympa?y ) :at he spoke1 = 8 own eye & he>t 7 on !m4 ,he 01 at ! same "t1 able to br+ out illu/rations at once simple & felicit\s1 (t5 ) poetic skill & elegance4 ,he wi%$ to use ,saxon words1 = ! sake ( be+ und]/ood by ! mo/ illit]ate 9 8 audi5ce4 ,& :ile 8 /yle 0 s+ul>ly cle>1 ?is cle>ness itself 0 s mu* ! consequ5ce ( 8 be+ able ?or\ghly to analyse & expla9 8 subject1 t all 8 he>]s alike reap$ ! b5efit4 #aa ,gration e/ pul*ro v5i5s e corpore virtus4 ,he w5t ab\t 8 public "w ) awful rev]5ce4 ,s evid5t 0 ?is1 t ,i rememb] a c\ntryman 9 my p>i% obs]v$ to me3 ,be=e he op5$ 8 lips1 z he came along ! passage1 !re 0 some?+ ab\t him t sorely affect$ me4 ,9 ! ve/ry !re 0 nev] any idle conv]sation2 all 0 prep>ation ( he>t 9 approa*+ ,god2 & a %ort pray] prec$$ 8 ent]+ ! pulpit4 ,surely 9 go+ =? to speak = ,god1 a man may well be ov]aw$6 ,surely 9 putt+ =? 8 h& to s[ ! se$ ( ! k+dom1 a man may ev5 tremble6 ,& surely we %\ld aim at no?+ less ?an to p\r =? ! tru? ^u our p ?r\gh ! *annel ( our own liv+ & deeply affect$ s\ls4 ,aft] ann\nc+ ! subject ( 8 disc\rse1 he us$ g5]ally to %[ ! position x occupi$ 9 ! context1 & !n proce$ to br+ out ! doctr9es ( ! text1 9 ! mann] ( our old div9es4 ,?is done1 he divid$ 8 subject2 & h]e9 he 0 em95tly skilful4 ,! heads ( 8 s]mons1 said a fri5d1 7 n ! mile-/ones t tell y h[ ne> y are to y\r j\rney's end1 b !y 7 nails :i* fix$ & fa/5$ all he said4 ,divisions are (t5 dry2 b n s 8 divisions1--!y 7 s textual & s feel+1 & !y br\ght out ! _s ( a passage s surpris+ly4 ,x 0 8 wi% to arrive ne>] at ! primitive mode ( exp\nd+ ,scripture 9 8 s]mons4 ,h5ce :5 "o ask$ him1 ,if he 0 nev] afraid ( runn+ %ort ( s]mons "s day8 he repli$1 ,no2 ,i am j an int]pret] ( ,scripture 9 my s]mons2 & :5 ! ,bible runs dry1 !n ,i %all4 ,& 9 ! same _s he c>efully avoid$ ! too common mode ( accommodat+ texts1--fa/5+ a doctr9e on ! words1 n draw+ x f ! obvi\s connection ( ! passage4 ,he endeavor$ at all times to prea* ! m9d ( ! ,_s 9 a passage2 = he fe>$ t to d o!rwise w\ld be to grieve ! ,_s :o _h writt5 x4 ,int]pretation 0 ?us a solemn matt] to him4 ,& yet1 adh]+ scrupul\sly to ?is sure pr9ciple1 he felt himself 9 no way re/ra9$ f us+1 = e day's necessities1 all p>ts ( ! ,old ,te/am5t z mu* z ! ,new4 ,8 mann] 0 fir/ to asc]ta9 ! prim>y s5se & application1 & s proce$ to h&le x = pres5t use4 ,?us1 on ,isaiah #bf3af-ai1 he began3 ,?is passage1 ,i believe1 ref]s lit]ally to ! conv]sion ( ,god's anci5t p4 ,he reg>d$ ! prophecies z hi/ory yet to be1 & drew lessons f !m accord+ly z he w\ld h done f ! pa/4 ,e spiritual gift be+ 9 ! h&s ( ,jesus1 if he f\nd ,moses or ,paul 9 ! possession ( preci\s ?+s1 he =?) 0 l$ to foll[ !m into ! pres5ce ( t same ,"l :o gave !m all _! grace4 ,!re is a wide diff]5ce betwe5 prea*+ doctr9e & prea*+ ,*ri/4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne prea*$ all ! doctr9es ( ,scripture z und]/ood by our ,confession ( ,fai?1 dwell+ ^u ru9 by ! ,fall1 & recov]y by ! ,m$iator4 ,! ?+s ( ! human he>t1 & ! ?+s ( ! ,div9e ,m9d1 7 9 sub/ance 8 con/ant !me4 ,f p]sonal exp]i5ce ( deep temptation1 he c\ld lay op5 ! secrets ( ! he>t1 s t he once said1 ,he suppos$ ! reason :y "s ( ! wor/ s9n]s 9 ,dundee _h come to he> him 01 because 8 he>t exhibit$ s mu* lik5ess to !irs4 ,/ill x 0 n doctr9e alone t he prea*$2 x 0 ,*ri/1 f :om all doctr9e %oots =? z rays f a c5tre4 ,he s\ght to hang e vessel & flagon ^u ,him4 ,x is /range1 he wrote aft] prea*+ on ,revelation #a3ae3 ,x is /range h[ sweet & preci\s x is to prea* directly ab\t ,*ri/1 comp>$ ) all o!r subjects ( prea*+4 ,& he (t5 express$ a dislike ( ! phrase giv+ att5tion to religion1 because x seem$ to sub/itute doctr9e1 & a dev\t way ( ?9k+1 = ,*ri/ himself4 ,x is difficult to convey to ^? :o nev] knew him a correct idea ( ! sweetness & holy unction ( 8 prea*+4 ,"s ( 8 s]mons1 pr9t$ f 8 own ,,mss4 7al?\gh almo/ all are fir/ copies71 may convey a correct idea ( 8 /yle & mode ( prea*+ doctr9e4 ,b !re are no notes t give any true idea ( 8 affectionate appeals to ! he>t & se>*+ applications4 ,^! he seldom wrote2 !y 7 p\r$ =? at ! mom5t :5 8 he>t fill$ ) 8 subject2 = 8 rule 0 to set be=e 8 he>]s a body ( tru? fir/1--& !re always 0 a va/ am\nt ( ,bible tru? 9 8 disc\rses1--& !n urge home ! application4 ,8 exhortations fl[$ f 8 doctr9e1 & ?us _h bo? v>iety & p[]4 ,he 0 sy/ematic 9 ?is2 = he obs]v$3 ,appeals to ! c>eless1 etc41 come ) p[] on ! back ( "s massy tru?4 ,see h[ ,paul does 7,acts #ac3dj71 ',bew>e1 !re=e1 le/1' etc41 & 7,hebrews #b3a71 ',!re=e we %\ld1' etc4 ,he 0 sometimes a little ungu>d$ 9 8 /atem5ts1 :5 8 he>t 0 deeply mov$ & 8 feel+s /irr$1 & sometimes he 0 too long 9 8 addresses2 b ?is also arose f ! fulness ( 8 s\l4 ,ano!r ^w1 he ?\ght1 may be bless$1 ?\gh ! la/ has made no impression4 ,_m w rememb] =ev] ! bless$ ,communion ,sabba?s t 7 enjoy$ 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s4 ,f ! v fir/ ^! ,communion seasons 7 rem>kably own$ ( ,god4 ,! awe ( 8 pres5ce us$ to be ^u 8 p1 & ! h\se fill$ ) ! odor ( ! o9tm5t1 :5 8 "n 0 p\r$ =? 7,song #a3c74 ,b on common ,sabba?s also _m soon began to j\rney long di/ances to att5d ,/4 ,pet]'s1--_m f c\ntry p>i%es1 :o w\ld return home ) _! he>ts burn+1 z !y talk$ ( :at !y _h he>d t day4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne knew ! sn>e ( popul>ity1 & naturally 0 "o t w\ld h be5 fasc9at$ by x2 b ! ,"l kept him4 ,he 0 sometimes extraord9>ily help$ 9 8 prea*+2 b at o!r times1 ?\gh n p]ceiv$ by 8 he>]s1 8 s\l felt z if left to its own res\rces4 ,! cry ( ,r[l& ,hill 0 con/antly on 8 lips1 ,ma/]1 help6 & (t5 is x writt5 at ! close ( 8 s]mon4 ,mu* affliction1 also1 0 a ?orn 9 ! fle% to him4 ,he describ$ himself z (t5 /rong z a giant :5 9 ! *ur*1 b l a will[-w& :5 all 0 ov]4 ,b c]ta9ly1 above all1 8 abid+ s5se ( ! div9e favor 0 8 safegu>d4 ,he began 8 m9i/ry 9 ,dundee ) ?is sun%9e on 8 way4 ,z yet ,i h be5 kept n only 9 ! light ( 8 reconcil$ c\nt5ance1 b v mu* "u ! guid+ eye ( our provid+ ,god4 ,inde$1 z ,i rememb] good old ,sw>tz us$ to say1 ',i c\ld n h imag9$ t ,he c\ld h be5 s graci\s to u4' ,i believe t :ile he _h "s sor] conflicts1 he _h also f> deep] joy aft] 8 return f ,pale/9e ?an 9 ! e>ly "p ( 8 m9i/ry1 ?\gh f ! v comm5cem5t ( x he enjoy$ t s5se ( ! love ( ,god :i* keeps ! he>t & m9d4 7,phil4 #d3g47 ,?is 0 ! true secret ( 8 holy walk1 & ( 8 calm humility4 ,b = ?is1 8 ambition w\ld h become ! only pr9ciple ( _m an action2 b n[ ! sweet] love ( ,god con/ra9$ him1 & ! natural ambition ( 8 _s c\ld be disc]n$ only z sugge/+ to him ! idea ( mak+ attempts :i* o!rs w\ld h decl9$4 ,:at monotony !re is 9 ! m9i/ry ( _m6 ,duty presses on ! heels ( duty 9 an endless circle4 ,b x is n s :5 ! ,_s is quick5+ bo? ! pa/or & 8 flock4 ,!n !re is all ! v>iety ( life4 ,x 0 s "h4 ,! ,"l began to "w by 8 means almo/ f ! fir/ day he came4 ,!re 0 ev] "o & ano!r /rick51 & go+ ap>t to weep alone4 ,! flock+ ( s\ls to 8 m9i/ry1 & ! deep int]e/ excit$1 drew ! att5tion ( _m1 & rais$ ! wi% 9 "s qu>t]s to h him z _! pa/or4 ,he _h n be5 _m mon?s engag$ 9 8 labori\s "w :5 he 0 solicit$ to remove to ! p>i% ( ,skirl+1 ne> ,bigg>4 ,x 0 an (f] t pres5t$ great advantages above 8 own field ( labor z to worldly ga91 & 9 respect ( ! prospect x held out ( comp>ative ease & com=t2 = ! p>i% 0 small & ! emolum5t great4 ,b z x is requir$ ( a bi%op1 t he be n gre$y ( fil?y lucre1 nay1 t he be "o :o has no love ( money 7,greek3 aphil>guros #a ,tim4 #c3c7 at all1 s 0 x true t 9 him ^! qualifications em95tly %one4 ,8 rem>ks 9 a lett] to 8 fa!r conta9 ! hone/ expression ( 8 feel+s3 ,i am set d[n among ne>ly #djjj p2 #aajj p h tak5 seats 9 my *ur*4 ,i br+ my message1 su* z x is1 )9 ! rea* ( t great company e ,sabba?-day4 ,i d>e n leave #cjjj or #djjj1 = #cjj p4 ,_h ?is be5 (f]$ me be=e1 ,i w\ld h se5 x a direct intimation f ,god1 & w\ld he>tily h embrac$ x4 ,h[ ,i %\ld h delight$ to fe$ s preci\s a little flock1--to wat* ov] e family1--to "k e he>t1--'to allure to bright] worlds & lead ! way6' ,b ,god has n s ord]$ x4 ,he has set me d[n among ! noisy me*anics & political weav]s ( ?is godless t[n4 ,he w make ! money suffici5t4 ,he t paid 8 taxes f a fi%'s m\?1 w supply all my ne$4 ,he _h already express$ ! hope1 ,p]haps ! ,"l w make 8 wild]ness ( *imney-tops to be gre5 & beautiful z ! g>d5 ( ! ,"l1 a field :i* ! ,"l ha? bless$6 ,8 heal? 0 delicate2 & ! h>ass+ c>e & endless fatigue incid5t to 8 position1 9 a t[n l ,dundee1 seem$ unsuitable to 8 _s4 ,?is belief l$ to ano!r attempt to remove him to a c\ntry sph]e4 ,9 ! summ] ( ?is same ye> 7#ahcg7 he 0 /rongly urg$ to prea* z a c&idate = ! vacant p>i% ( ,/4 ,m>t9's1 ne> ,p]?1 & assur$ ( ! appo9tm5t if he w\ld only come =w>d4 ,b he decl9$ aga93 ,my ,ma/] has plac$ me "h ) 8 own h&2 & ,i nev] w1 directly or indirectly1 seek to be remov$4 ,!re 7 circum/ances 9 ?is latt] case t made ! call on him appe> urg5t 9 sev]al po9ts ( view4 ,9 com+ to a resolution1 he m5tions "o int]e/+ elem5t 9 ! decision1 9 a lett] to me1 dat$ ,augu/ #h?4 ,i 0 mu* tr\bl$ ab\t be+ ask$ to g to a neighbor+ p>i% at pres5t vacant1 & made x a matt] ( pray]2 & ,i m5tion x n[ because ( ! wond]ful answ] to pray] :i* ,i ?9k ,i receiv$ f ,god4 ,i pray$ t 9 ord] to settle my own m9d completely ab\t /ay+1 ,he w\ld awak5 "s ( my p4 ,i agre$ t t %\ld be a sign ,he w\ld wi% me to /ay4 ,! next morn+ ,i ?9k1 or at lea/ ! second morn+1 !re came to me two "y p]sons ,i _h nev] se5 be=e1 9 great di/ress4 ,:at br\ght ?is to my m9d 01 t !y came to me ye/]day1 & _! di/ress is greatly increas$4 ,inde$ ,i nev] saw any p 9 su* angui% ab\t _! s\l4 ,i _c b reg>d ?is z a real answ] to pray]4 ,i h also sev]al o!r p]sons 9 deep di/ress1 & ,i feel t ,i am q helpless 9 com=t+ !m4 ,i w\ld fa9 be l ,noah1 :o put out 8 h& & took 9 ! we>y dove2 b ,god makes me /& by & feel t ,i am a *ild4 ,w ,god nev] ca/ ! sc5es ( our labor ne> ea* o!r8 ,we are 9 8 h&2 let ,him d z seeme? ,him good4 ,pray = me1 = my p1 = my own s\l1 t ,i be n a ca/ away4 ,few godly pa/ors c be will+ to *ange ! sc5e ( _! labors1 unless x be pla9 t ! ,cl\dy ,pill> is po9t+ !m away4 ,x is p]il\s = m5 to *oose = !mselves2 & too (t5 has x happ5$ t ! m9i/] :o1 on slight gr\nds1 mov$ away f 8 =m] wat*-t[]1 has _h reason to m\rn ov] ! disappo9tm5t ( 8 hopes 9 8 l>g] & wid] sph]e4 ,b :ile ?is is admitt$1 probably x may appe> unw>rantable 9 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne to h pray$ = a sign ( ! ,"l's w4 ,x is to be obs]v$1 h[ev]1 t he decid$ ! po9t ( duty on o!r gr\nds2 & x 0 only ) ! view ( obta9+ an additional confirmation by ! occurr5ces ( provid5ce1 t he pray$ 9 ?is mann]1 9 submission to ! w ( ! ,"l4 ,he nev] held x "r to decide ! pa? ( duty by any su* signs or tok5s2 he believ$ t ! writt5 ^w suppli$ suffici5t data = guid+ ! believ+ s\l2 & su* provid5tial occurr5ces z happ5$ 9 ?is case he reg>d$ z important only z f> z !y might be answ]s to pray]4 ,inde$1 he himself has left u a glance ( 8 views on ?is po9t 9 a fragm5t1 :i* 7= x is n dat$7 may h be5 writt5 ab\t ?is "t4 ,he _h be5 ?9k+ on ,gideon's ,fleece4 ,:5 ,god call$ ,gideon =? to fight-- ,g1 save ?\ ,israel 9 ?y might1-- ,! fai?ful w>rior s\ght a sign ,t ,god w\ld on 8 labors %9e4 ,! man :o1 at ?y dread comm&1 ,lift$ ! %ield & deadly br&4 ,to d ?y /range & fe>ful "w-- ,?y "w ( blood & v5geance1 ,"l6-- ,might ne$ assurance d\bly tri$1 ,to prove ,?\ w\ld/ 8 /eps betide4 ,b :5 ! message :i* we br+ ,is "o to make ! dumb man s+2 ,to bid ! bl9d man wa% & see1 ,! lame to leap ) ec/asy2 ,to raise ! s\l t's b[$ d[n1 ,to wipe away ! te>s & fr[n ,to spr9kle all ! he>t )9 ,f ! accus+ voice ( s9-- ,!n1 su* a sign my call to prove1 ,to prea* my ,savi\r's dy+ love1 ,i _c1 d>e n1 hope to f9d4 ,9 ! close ( ! same ye> #ahcg1 he agre$ to become ,secret>y to ! ,association = ,*ur* ,ext5sion 9 ! c\ntry ( ,=f>4 ,! ,*ur* ,ext5sion ,s*eme1 ?\gh mu* misrepres5t$ & mu* misund]/ood1 _h 9 view z its g5u9e1 s9c]e endeavor1 to br+ to ov]gr[n p>i%es ! advantage ( a fai?ful m9i/]1 plac$ ov] su* a numb] ( s\ls z he c\ld really visit4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne *e]fully & dilig5tly =w>d$ ^! objects to ! utmo/ ( 8 p[]4 ,x is ! cause ( ,god1 said he1 & !re=e ,i am will+ to sp5d & be sp5t = x4 ,x compell$ him to ride mu* f place to place2 b rid+ 0 an ex]cise ( :i* he 0 fond1 & :i* 0 favorable to 8 heal?4 ,z a specim5--,dec4 #d1 #ahch4 ,travell$ to ,montrose4 ,spoke along ) ,mr4 ,gu?rie at a ,*ur* ,ext5sion meet+2 eight or n9e hundr$ pres5t4 ,tri$ to d some?+ 9 ! ,savi\r's cause1 bo? directly & indirectly4 ,next day at ,=f>4 ,spoke 9 ! same cause4 ,h[ he>tily he ent]$ into ?is s*eme may be se5 f ! foll[+ extract4 ,9 a lett] ( an aft] date to ,mr4 ,roxburgh1 he says3 ,e day ,i live1 ,i feel m & m p]suad$ t x is ! cause ( ,god & ( 8 k+dom 9 ,scotl& 9 our day4 ,_m a "t1 :5 ,i ?\ght myself a dy+ man1 ! s\ls ( ! p]i%+ ?\s&s 9 my own p>i%1 :o nev] ent] any h\se ( ,god1 h la9 heavy on my he>t4 ,_m a "t h ,i pray$ t ! eyes ( our enemies might be op5$1 & t ,god w\ld op5 ! he>ts ( our rul]s1 to feel t _! highe/ duty & greate/ glory is to support ! m9i/]s ( ,*ri/1 & to s5d ^! to e p]i%+ s\l 9 ,scotl&4 ,he felt t _! mis]y 0 all ! great]1 & _! ne$ ! deep]1 t su* neglect$ s\ls _h no wi% = help1 & w\ld nev] ask = x !mselves4 ,nor 0 x t he imag9$ t1 if *ur*es 7 built & m9i/]s end[$1 ?is w\ld ( itself be suffici5t to reclaim ! multitudes ( p]i%+ m54 ,b he s\ght & expect$ t ! ,"l w\ld s5d fai?ful m5 into 8 v9ey>d4 ,^! new *ur*es 7 to be l ci/]ns--ready to cat* ! %[] :5 x %\ld fall1 j z 8 own did 9 ! day ( ! ,"l's p[]4 ,8 views on ?is subject 7 summ$ up 9 ! foll[+ l9es1 writt5 "o day z he sat 9 company ) "s ( 8 zeal\s bre?r5 :o 7 deeply engag$ 9 ! s*eme3 ,give me a man ( ,god ! tru? to prea*1 ,a h\se ( pray] )9 conv5i5t rea*1 ,seat-r5ts ! poore/ ( ! poor c pay1 ,a spot s small "o pa/or c survey3 ,give ^!--& give ! ,_s's g5ial %[]1 ,scotl& %all be a g>d5 all 9 fl[]6 ,ano!r public duty to :i*1 dur+ all ! ye>s ( 8 m9i/ry1 he gave con/ant att5tion1 0 att5dance at ! meet+s ( presbyt]y4 ,8 c&or1 & uprightness1 & ,*ri/ian g5]osity1 7 felt by all 8 bre?r52 & 8 op9ion1 ?\gh ! op9ion ( s "y a man1 0 reg>d$ ) m ?an common respect4 ,9 reg>d to ! great public que/ions t 7 !n %ak+ ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&1 8 views 7 decid$ & unhesitat+4 ,no policy1 9 8 view1 c\ld be m ru9\s to true ,*ri/ianity1 or m fitt$ to blight vital godl9ess1 ?an t ( ,mod]atism4 ,he wrote once to a fri5d 9 ,irel&3 ,y don't "k :at ,mod]atism is4 ,x is a plant t our heav5ly ,fa!r nev] plant$1 & ,i tru/ x is n[ to be root$ up4 ,! great "q ( ! ,*ur*'s indep5d5ce ( ! ,civil ,p[] 9 all matt]s spiritual1 & ! "r ( ! ,*ri/ian p to judge if ! pa/or appo9t$ ov] !m _h ! ,%eph]d's voice1 he inv>iably held to be "p ( ,scripture tru?1 :i*1 !re=e1 mu/ be prea*$ & c>ri$ into practice1 at all haz>ds4 ,9 l mann] he rejoic$ exce$+ly 9 ! settlem5ts ( fai?ful m9i/]s4 ,! appo9tm5ts ( ,mr4 ,baxt] to ,hillt[n1 ,mr4 ,lewis to ,/4 ,david's1 & ,mr4 ,mill] to ,wallacet[n at a lat] p]iod1 are all notic$ by him ) expressions ( ?ankfulness & joy2 & x occasion$ ! same feel+s if he he>d ( ! de/itution ( any p>i% 9 any "p ( ! c\ntry suppli$4 ,he writes1 ,sept4 #bj1 #ahch3 ,pres5t at ,a4,b4's ord9ation at ,collace ) great joy4 ,bless$ be ,god = ! gift ( ?is pa/or4 ,give te/imony to ! ^w ( ?y grace4 ,busy at home1 he nev]!less always _h a ke5ly evangeli/ic _s4 ,he might h writt5 mu* & h ga9$ a "n by 8 writ+s2 b he laid ev]y?+ aside :5 put 9 comp>ison ) prea*+ ! ev]la/+ gospel4 ,he sc>cely ev] refus$ an invitation to prea* on a week-day2 & travell+ f place to place did n int]rupt 8 fell[%ip ) ,god4 ,8 occasional visits dur+ ^! ye>s 7 mu* bless$4 ,at ,blairg[rie & ,collace 8 visits 7 long$ = z times ( special refre%m5t2 nor 0 x less s at ,kirriemuir1 :5 he visit$ ,mr4 ,cormick1 or at ,ab]nyte 9 ! days :5 ,mr4 ,hamilton 7n[ ( ,reg5t ,squ>e1 ,london71 & aft]w>ds ,mr4 ,manson1 7 labor+ 9 t v9ey>d4 ,x w\ld be difficult ev5 to enum]ate ! places :i* he wat]$ at ,communion seasons2 & 9 "s ( ^! x 0 te/ifi$ ( him1 t n ! words he spoke1 b ! holy mann] 9 :i* he spoke1 0 ! *ief means ( arre/+ s\ls4 ,occasionally two or ?ree ( u1 ^: lot 0 ca/ )9 conv5i5t di/ance1 & ^: s\ls pant$ = ! same wat]-brooks1 us$ to meet toge!r to sp5d a :ole day 9 confession ( m9i/]ial & p]sonal s9s1 ) pray] = grace1 guid+ ourselves by ! read+ ( ! ^w4 ,at su* times we us$ to meet 9 ! ev5+ ) ! flock ( ! pa/or 9 ^: h\se ! meet+ _h be5 held ?r\gh ! day1 & !re unit$ly pray = ! ,holy ,_s be+ p\r$ d[n ^u ! p4 ,! fir/ "t we held su* a meet+1 !re 7 tok5s ( bless+ obs]v$ by sev]al ( u2 & ! week aft] he wrote3 ,has !re be5 any fruit ( ! happy day we sp5t ) y8 ,i ?\ght ,i saw "s ! ,sabba? aft]1 "h4 ,9 due season we %all reap if we fa9t n2 only be ?\ /rong1 & ( a good c\rage4 ,! incid5t t enc\rag$ him is record$ 9 8 di>y4 ,an eld]ly p]son came to tell him h[ ! riv] ( joy & peace 9 believ+ _h t ,sabba? mo/ s+ul>ly fl[$ ?r\gh h] s\l1 s t %e bless$ ,god t %e ev] came to ,/4 ,pet]'s4 ,he adds ,n4,b4--,?is seems a fruit ( our pray]-meet+1 begun la/ ,w$nesday at ,collace1--"o drop ( ! %[]4 ,x %\ld h be5 rem>k$ ere n[1 t dur+ all 8 m9i/ry he 0 c>eful to use n only ! direct means appo9t$ = ! conv]sion ( s\ls1 b ^? also t appe> m indirect1 su* z ! key ( discipl9e4 ,9 reg>d to ! ,"l's ,supp]1 8 little tract expla9s 8 views4 ,he believ$ t to keep back ^? ^: pr(ession 0 a cr$ible pr(ession1 ev5 :ile ! pa/or might h /rong d\bts z to _! fitness 9 8 own m9d1 0 n ! rule laid d[n = u 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,at ! same "t1 he z /eadily ma9ta9$ t no unconv]t$ p]son ought to come to ! ,"l's ,table2 & on ?is po9t !y %\ld judge !mselves if !y w\ld n be judg$4 ,:5 communicants came to be admitt$ = ! fir/ "t1 or :5 p>5ts t _h be5 communicants be=e came = baptism to _! *ildr51 x 0 8 cu/om to ask !m solemnly if _! s\ls 7 sav$4 ,8 deal+ 0 bless$ to ! conv]sion ( n a few "y p]sons :o 7 com+ c>elessly =w>d to ! ,communion2 & himself records ! bless+ t att5d$ 8 fai?ful ,heal+ ) a p>5t com+ to speak ) him ab\t ! baptism ( 8 *ild4 ,! man said t he _h be5 tak+ a ?\ght1 & believ$ himself 9 ! "r way--t he felt 8 disposition bett]1 = he c\ld =give injuries4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne %[$ him t nev]!less he 0 ignorant ( ,god's righte\sness4 ,! man laid x to he>t2 & :5 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne said t he ?\ght x w\ld be bett] to def] ! baptism1 at once (f]$ to come aga9 & speak on ! matt]4 ,on a subsequ5t visit1 he seem$ really to h se5 8 error1 & to h ca/ away 8 own righte\sness4 ,:5 8 *ild 0 baptiz$1 x 0 joy to ! pa/or's he>t to h ! good hope t ! man _h receiv$ salvation4 ,9 connection ) ! sup]/iti\s feel+ ( ! mo/ deprav$ z to baptism1 he relat$ an affect+ occurr5ce4 ,a c>eless p>5t "o ev5+ ent]$ 8 h\se1 & ask$ him to come ) him to baptize a dy+ *ild4 ,he knew t nei!r ?is man nor 8 wife ev] ent]$ ! door ( a *ur*2 b he rose & w5t ) him to ! mis]able dwell+4 ,!re an infant lay1 app>5tly dy+2 & _m ( ! female neighbors1 equally deprav$ ) ! p>5ts1 /ood r\nd4 ,he came =w>d to :]e ! *ild 01 & spoke to ! p>5ts ( _! ungodly /ate & fe>ful guilt be=e ,god1 & conclud$ by %[+ !m t1 9 su* circum/ances1 he w\ld consid] x s9ful 9 him to adm9i/] baptism to _! infant4 ,!y said1 ,he might at lea/ d x = ! sake ( ! poor *ild4 ,he told !m t x 0 n baptism t sav$ a s\l1 & t out ( true conc]n = !mselves he mu/ n d z !y wi%$4 ,! fri5ds ar\nd ! b$ !n jo9$ ! p>5ts 9 upbraid+ him z hav+ no pity on ! poor infant's s\l6 ,he /ood among !m /ill1 & %[$ !m t x 0 !y :o _h be5 ?us cruel to _! *ild2 & !n lift$ up 8 voice 9 solemn w>n+1 & left ! h\se amid _! ignorant reproa*es4 ,nor did he make light ( ! kirk-session's p[] to rebuke & deal ) an (f5d]4 ,once f ! pulpit1 at an ord9ation ( eld]s1 he gave ! foll[+ te/imony ^u ?is head3 ,:5 ,i fir/ ent]$ ^u ! "w ( ! m9i/ry among y1 ,i 0 exce$+ly ignorant ( ! va/ importance ( *ur* discipl9e4 ,i ?\ght t my great & almo/ only "w 0 to pray & prea*4 ,i saw y\r s\ls to be s preci\s1 & ! "t s %ort1 t ,i devot$ all my "t1 & c>e1 & /r5g?1 to labor 9 ^w & doctr9e4 ,:5 cases ( discipl9e 7 br\ght be=e me & ! eld]s1 ,i reg>d$ !m ) some?+ l abhorr5ce4 ,x 0 a duty ,i %rank f2 & ,i may truly say x ne>ly drove me f ! "w ( ! m9i/ry among y altoge!r4 ,b x pleas$ ,god1 :o tea*es 8 s]vants 9 ano!r way ?an man tea*es1 to bless "s ( ! cases ( discipl9e to ! manife/ & und5iable conv]sion ( ! s\ls ( ^? "u our c>e2 & f t h\r a new light broke 9 ^u my m9d1 & ,i saw t if prea*+ be an ord9ance ( ,*ri/1 s is *ur* discipl9e4 ,i n[ feel v deeply p]suad$ t bo? are ( ,god1--t two keys are committ$ to u by ,*ri/3 ! "o ! key ( doctr9e1 by means ( :i* we unlock ! treasures ( ! ,bible2 ! o!r ! key ( discipl9e1 by :i* we op5 or %ut ! way to ! seal+ ord9ances ( ! fai?4 ,bo? are ,*ri/'s gift1 & nei!r is to be resign$ )\t s94 ,!re 0 /ill ano!r means ( en=c+ :at he prea*$1 9 ! use ( :i* he has excell$ all 8 bre?r51 namely1 ! holy consi/5cy ( 8 daily walk4 ,aw>e t "o idle ^w1 "o ne$less cont5tion1 "o covet\s act1 may de/roy 9 our p ! effect ( _m a solemn expo/ulation & e>ne/ w>n+1 he 0 peculi>ly circumspect 9 8 e-day walk4 ,he wi%$ to be always 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god4 ,if he travell$1 he labor$ to enjoy ,god by ! way1 z well z to d good to o!rs by dropp+ a ^w 9 season4 ,9 rid+ or walk+1 he seiz$ opportunities ( giv+ a useful tract2 &1 on pr9ciple1 he pref]r$ giv+ x to ! p]son directly1 r ?an ca/+ x on ! road4 ,! =m] way1 he said1 0 m op5--!re 0 no /eal? 9 x2 & we ought to be z cle> z cry/al 9 speak+ or act+ = ,jesus4 ,9 writ+ a note1 h[ev] %ort1 he s\ght to season x ) salt4 ,if he pass$ a night 9 a /range place1 he tri$ to be> ! place specially on 8 s\l at ! m]cy-seat2 & if compell$ to take "s re/ f 8 too exhau/+ toils1 8 recreations 7 little else ?an a *ange ( occupation1 f "o mode ( glorify+ ,god to ano!r4#ab ,8 beautiful hymn1 ,i am a debtor1 0 writt5 9 ,may #ahcg1 at a leisure h\r4 #ab ,baxt]'s words are n less ?an ! tru?3 ,recreation to a m9i/] mu/ be z :ett+ is ) ! m[]1 t is1 only to be us$ s f> z is necess>y = 8 "w4 ,may a physician 9 ! plague-"t take any m relaxation or recreation ?an is necess>y = 8 life1 :5 s _m are expect+ 8 help 9 a case ( life & dea?8 ,w y /& by & see s9n]s grasp+ "u ! pangs ( dea?1 & say1 ,god do? n require me to make myself a drudge to save !m8 ,is ?is ! voice ( m9i/]ial or ,*ri/ian compassion1 or r ( s5sual laz9ess & diabolical cruelty8--,ref4 ,pa/4 #f3f ,:atev] be said 9 ! pulpit1 m5 w n mu* reg>d1 ?\gh !y may feel x at ! "t1 if ! m9i/] does n say ! same 9 private ) equal e>ne/ness1 9 speak+ ) 8 p face to face2 & x mu/ be 9 our mom5ts ( mo/ famili> int]c\rse ) !m1 t we are ?us to put ! seal to all we say 9 public4 ,famili> mom5ts are ! times :5 ! ?+s t are mo/ closely tw9$ r\nd ! he>t are br\ght out to view2 & %all we =be>1 by tacit cons5t1 to introduce ! ,"l t b\ght u into su* happy h\rs8 ,we mu/ n only speak fai?fully to our p 9 our s]mons1 b live fai?fully = !m too4 ,p]haps x may be f\nd1 t ! reason :y _m :o prea* ! gospel fully & 9 all e>ne/ness are n own$ ( ,god 9 ! conv]sion ( s\ls1 is to be f\nd 9 _! defective exhibition ( grace 9 ^! easy mom5ts ( life4 ,!m t honor me1 ,i w honor1 ,i ,samuel #b3cj4 ,x 0 notic$ long ago t m5 w give y leave to prea* aga9/ _! s9s z mu* z y w1 if s be y w b be easy ) !m :5 y h done1 & talk z !y d1 & live z !y live4 ,h[ mu* o!rwise x 0 ) ,mr4 ,m',*eyne1 all :o knew him are witnesses4 ,8 visits to fri5ds 7 times :5 he s\ght to d good to _! s\ls2 & nev] 0 he satisfi$ unless he c\ld guide ! conv]sation to be> ^u ! ?+s ( et]nity4 ,:5 he c\ld n d s1 he g5]ally rema9$ sil5t4 ,& yet 8 demeanor 0 easy & pleasant to all1 exhibit+ at once meekness ( fai? & delicacy ( feel+4 ,!re 0 9 8 "* a high ref9em5t t came out 9 poetry & true polit5ess2 & !re 0 some?+ 9 8 graces t rem9d$ "o ( 8 own rem>k1 :5 expla9+ ! spices ( ,song #d3af1 :5 he said t "s believ]s 7 a g>d5 t _h fruit-trees1 & s 7 useful2 b we ought also to h spices1 & s be attractive4 ,wi%+ to convey 8 grateful feel+s to a fell[-labor] 9 ,dundee1 he s5t him a ,hebrew ,bible1 ) ^! few l9es prefix$3-- ,ano9t m9e eyes1 ,o holy dove6 ,t ,i may prize ,?is book ( love4 ,un/op m9e e>1 ,made deaf by s91 ,t ,i may he> ,?y voice )94 ,break my h>d he>t1 ,jesus1 my ,"l2 ,9 ! inmo/ "p ,hide ?y sweet ^w4 ,x 0 on a simil> occasion1 9 #ahch1 t he wrote ! l9es1 ,?y ^w is a lamp unto my feet4 ,at ano!r "t1 sitt+ "u a %ady tree1 & ca/+ 8 eye on ! hospitable dwell+ 9 :i* he f\nd a pleasant retreat1 8 grateful feel+s fl[$ out to 8 k9d fri5d 9 ! l9es t foll[3-- ,,peace ,,to ,,?is ,,h\se4 ,long may peace )9 ?is dwell+ ,h its re/+-place2 ,angel %ields all h>m repell+1-- ,god1 _! ,god ( grace4 ,may ! dove-l ,_s guide !m ,to ! upright l&6 ,may ! ,savi\r-%eph]d f$ !m ,f 8 g5tle h&6 ,nev] 0 !re "o m belov$ z a fri5d1 & seldom any ^: dea? c\ld cause s _m to feel z if no o!r fri5d c\ld ev] occupy 8 room4 ,"s1 too1 c say t s mu* did !y le>n f 8 holy walk1 t x is probable a day nev] passes :]e9 !y h n "s advantage f 8 fri5d%ip4#ac #ac ,greek3 ,eg m5 d katanon t\ &ros tn te sophian kai tn g5naiotta oute m memn/hai dynamai aut\1 oute memnm5os m ouk epa9e94 ,ei de tis tn arets ephiem5n phelimt] t9i ,skrat\s syneg5eto eke9on eg ton &ra axiomak>iototaton nomiz4 ,i f9d writt5 on ! leaf ( "o ( 8 note-books1 a %ort memor&um3 ,rules wor? rememb]+4--,:5 visit+ 9 a family1 :e!r m9i/]ially or o!rwise1 speak p>ticul>ly to ! /rang]s ab\t et]nal ?+s4 ,p]haps ,god has br\ght y toge!r j to save t s\l4 ,& !n he ref]s to "s in/ances :i* occurr$ to himself1 9 :i* ,god seem$ to honor a ^w spok5 9 ?is incid5tal way4 ,9 ?is _s he 0 enabl$ = ne>ly ?ree ye>s to give 8 /r5g? to 8 ,ma/]'s s]vice4 ,sickness sometimes laid him aside1 & taught him :at he _h to suff]2 b he rose f x to g =? aga9 to 8 joyful labors4 ,(t51 aft] a toilsome day1 !re 7 inquir]s wait+ = him1 s t he _h to beg9 "w afre% 9 a new =m4 ,b ?is 0 8 delight2 x 0 a k9d ( int]ruption :i* he all[$ ev5 on a ,saturday1 9 ! mid/ ( 8 /udies4 ,he 0 l$ to resolve n to po/pone any inquir]s till a future "t1 by f9d+ t hav+ done s on "o occasion at a press+ mom5t1 ! individuals nev] return$2 & s alive 0 he to ! responsibilities ( 8 (fice1 t he ev] aft] fe>$ to lose su* an opportunity ( speak+ ) s\ls at a "t :5 !y 7 ar\s$ to conc]n4 ,busy "o ev5+ ) "s extra-p>o*ial "w1 he 0 ask$ if any p]son %\ld be admitt$ to see him t night4 ,surely--:at d we live =8 0 8 imm$iate reply4 ,x 0 8 mann]1 too1 on a ,saturday aft]noon1 to visit "o or two ( 8 sick :o seem$ ne> ! po9t ( dea?1 ) ! view ( be+ ?us /irr$ up to a m direct application ( ! tru? to 8 flock on ! morr[1 z dy+ m5 on ! edge ( et]nity4 ,we h already obs]v$ t 9 8 doctr9e !re 0 no?+ t diff]$ f ! views ( tru? laid d[n 9 ! /&>ds ( our *ur*4 ,he saw no inconsi/5cy 9 prea*+ an elect+ ,god1 :o calle? :om ,he w1 & a salvation free to :osoev] w2 nor 9 decl>+ ! absolute sov]eignty ( ,god1 & yet ! unimpair$ responsibility ( man4 ,he prea*$ ,*ri/ z a gift laid d[n by ! ,fa!r = e s9n] freely to take4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( 8 m9i/ry1 z he prea*$ ! fulness ( ! glad tid+s1 & urg$ on 8 p t !re 0 en\gh 9 ! glad tid+s to br+ direct & imm$iate assurance to e "o :o really believ$ !m1 "s ( 8 flock 7 />tl$4 ,= he ev] prea*$1 t1 :ile x is true t !re are believ]s1 l ,heman or ,asaph1 :o d n enjoy full assurance ( ! love ( ,god1 yet c]ta9ly no true believ] %\ld rema9 satisfi$ 9 ! abs5ce ( ?is bless$ peace4 ,n a few _h hi!rto be5 accu/om$ to take = grant$ t !y might be ,*ri/ians1 ?\gh !y knew ( no *ange1 & _h nev] ?\ght ( enjoy+ ! k ( ! love ( ,god z _! pres5t portion4 ,!y he>d t o!rs1 :o 7 reckon$ believ]s1 _h d\bts2 s !y _h come to consid] fe>s & d\bts z ! v m>ks ( a believ+ s\l4 ,! consequ5ce _h be51 t 9 pa/ days _m conclud$ !mselves to be ,*ri/ians because !y seem$ to be 9 ! v /ate ( m9d ( :i* ^? :o 7 reput$ to be believ]s spoke1 viz4 d\bt & al>m4 ,alas6 9 _! case !re c\ld be no?+ else1 = !y _h only a "n to live4 ,"s "o wrote to him1 putt+ sev]al que/ions conc]n+ conv]sion1 assurance1 & fai?1 :i* _h be5 /irr$ up by 8 m9i/ry4 ,! import ( ! que/ions may be ga!r$ f 8 reply1 :i* 0 z foll[s3-- #a4 ,i d\bt if !re are _m sa9ts :o live & die )\t a com=table s5se ( =giv5ess & acceptance ) ,god4 ,! sa9ts ( :om ! ,bible speaks seem to h enjoy$ x ri*ly bo? 9 life & dea?4 ,see ! murd]]s ( our ,"l1 ,acts #b3da2 ! ,e?iopian1 ,acts #h3ci2 ! jailor1 ,acts #af3ce4 ,david also felt x1 s9ful man ?\gh he 01 ,romans #d3f4 ,paul also pray$ t ! ,romans might h x1 ,romans #ae3ac4 ,i fe> ?is objection is g5]ally made by ^? :o are liv+ 9 s91 & d n wi% to "k ! dang]\s road !y are on4 #b4 ,a s5se ( =giv5ess does n proce$ f m>ks se5 9 y\rself1 b f a discov]y ( ! beauty1 wor?1 & fre5ess ( ,*ri/1 ,psalm #cd3e4 ,we look out = peace1 n 94 ,at ! same "t1 !re is also an assurance ris+ f :at we see 9 ourselves2 ! seal ( ! ,_s1 love to ! bre?r51 etc41 are ! *ief m>ks4 #c4 ,feel+ a body ( s9 is a m>k t we are l ,paul1 & t we are ,*ri/'s1 ,rom4 #g2 ,gal4 #e3ag4 ,paul 0 *e]ful ) a body ( s92 & s ought we to be4 ,s 0 ,david1 & all ! sa9ts4 #d4 ,i d n ?9k !re is any diff]5ce betwe5 ^? conv]t$ )9 ^! few ye>s & ^? :o 7 ,*ri/ians be=e4 ,_m ( ^? conv]t$ s9ce ,i came are1 ,i fe>1 v unholy4 ,i fe> ?is m ?an any?+4 ,i fe> !re is too mu* talk & too little reality4 ,/ill !re are _m good figs1--_m ( :om ,i am p]suad$ bett] ?+s1 & ?+s t accompany salvation4 ,! answ] to y\r "q ,i fe> is ?is1 t _m us$ to be tak5 = ,*ri/ians be=e1 :o _h only a "n to live1 & 7 dead4 ,i ?9k !re is m discrim9ation n[4 ,b take c>e & be n pr\d1 = t goes be=e a fall4 ,take c>e ( c5sori\s judg+ ( o!rs1 z if all mu/ be conv]t$ 9 ! same way4 ,god moves 9 a my/]i\s way4 ,he ha? m]cy on :om ,he w h m]cy4 ,to ,him alone be glory4 ,he ?us /at$ 8 views on ano!r occasion4 ,ref]r+ to ,song #f3c1 ,my belov$ is m9e1 foll[+ ,my belov$ is gone d[n into 8 g>d51 he said1 ,?is is ! fai? ( assurance1--a complete1 unhesitat+ embrac+ ( ,*ri/ z my righte\sness & my /r5g? & my all4 ,a common mi/ake is1 t ?is cle> conviction t ,*ri/ is m9e is an atta9m5t f> on 9 ! div9e life1 & t x spr+s f evid5ces se5 9 my he>t4 ,:5 ,i see myself a new creature1 ,*ri/ on ! ?rone 9 my he>t1 love to ! bre?r51 etc41 x is (t5 ?\ght t ,i may beg9 !n to say1 ',my ,belov$ is m9e4' ,h[ diff]5t ?is passage6 ,! mom5t ,jesus comes d[n into ! g>d5 to ! b$s ( spices1--! mom5t ,he reveals himself1 ! s\l cries out1 ',my ,belov$ is m9e6' ,s sai? ,?omas1 ,john #bj3bg1 #bh4 ,! mom5t ,jesus came 9 & reveal$ 8 w\nds1 ,?omas cri$ out1 ',my ,"l & my ,god4' ,he did n look to see if he 0 believ+1 or if ! graces ( love & humility 7 reign+2 b all he saw & ?\ght ( 0 ,jesus & ,him crucifi$ & ris54 ,at a subsequ5t p]iod1 :5 prea*+ on ,matt4 #aa3bh1 ,come unto me1 he said1 ,i suppose x is almo/ impossible to expla9 :at x is to come to ,jesus1 x is s simple4 ,if y ask a sick p]son :o _h be5 heal$1 :at x 0 to come & be heal$1 he c\ld h>dly tell y4 ,z f> z ! ,"l has giv5 me light 9 ?is matt]1 & look+ at :at my own he>t does 9 l circum/ances1 ,i d n feel t !re is any?+ m 9 com+ to ,jesus1 ?an j believ+ :at ,god says ab\t 8 ,son to be true4 ,i believe t _m p keep !mselves 9 d>kness by expect+ some?+ m ?an ?is4 ,"s ( y w ask1 ',is !re no appropriat+ ( ,*ri/8 no putt+ out ! h& ( fai?8 no t\*+ ! hem ( 8 g>m5t8' ,i q grant1 belov$1 !re is su* a ?+1 b ,i d ?9k x is insep>able f believ+ ! record4 ,if ! ,"l p]suades y ( ! glory & p[] ( ,emmanuel1 ,i feel p]suad$ t y _c b *oose ,him4 ,x is l op5+ ! %utt]s ( a d>k room2 ! sun t mom5t %9es 94 ,s1 ! eye t is op5$ to ! te/imony ( ,god1 receives ,*ri/ t mom5t4 ,9 ! case ( a fai?ful m9i/ry1 success is ! rule2 want ( x ! exception4 ,= x is writt53 ,9 do+ ?is ?\ %alt bo? save ?yself & !m t he> !e1 ,i ,tim4 #d3af4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne expect$ x1 & ! ,"l exce$$ all 8 hopes4 ,x 0 n yet common = p]sons 9 anxiety to g to _! pa/or = advice2 b soon x became an almo/ weekly occurr5ce4 ,:ile x 0 yet r>e1 two ( 8 "y p wrote a jo9t note1 ask+ lib]ty to come & speak ) him1 = we are anxi\s ab\t our s\ls4 ,among ^? :o came1 !re 7 ^? :o _h /riv5 aga9/ ! tru?2 p]sons :o us$ to run out ( he>+ :5 ! ,bible 0 read1--?r[ d[n a tract if ! "n ( ,god 0 9 x1--g quickly to sleep aft] a ,sabba?'s pleasure 9 ord] to dr[n ! fe> ( dropp+ into hell4 ,!re 7 _m ^: :ole previ\s life _h be5 b a ?readb>e pr(ession4 ,!re 7 "s op5 s9n]s1 too4 ,9 %ort1 ! ,"l glorifi$ himself by ! v>iety ( ^? :om 8 grace subdu$1 & ! v>iety ( means by :i* 8 grace rea*$ its object4 ,"o c\ld tell him t ! read+ ( ! *apt] 9 ! *ur*1 ) a few rem>ks1 _h be5 ! "t ( h] awak5+4 ,ano!r _h be5 /ruck to ! he>t by "s expression he us$ 9 8 fir/ pray] be=e s]mon "o ,sabba? morn+4 ,b mo/ 7 arre/$ 9 ! prea*+ ( ! ^w4 ,an int]e/+ case 0 t ( "o :o 0 ar\s$ to conc]n dur+ 8 s]mon on ,unto :om com+ z unto a liv+ /one4 ,z he spoke ( ! ,fa!r tak+ ! gem out ( 8 bosom1 & lay+ x d[n = a f\ndation-/one1 %e felt 9 h] s\l1 ,i "k no?+ ( ?is preci\s /one2 ,i am surely n conv]t$4 ,?is l$ h] to come & speak ) him4 ,%e 0 n "u deep conviction2 b be=e go+ away1 he said1 ,y are a poor1 vile worm2 x is a wond] ! e>? does n op5 & swall[ y up4 ,^! words 7 bless$ to produce a v awful s5se ( s94 ,%e came a second "t ) ! arr[s ( ! ,almighty dr9k+ up h] _s4 ,= ?ree mon?s %e rema9$ 9 ?is /ate1 till hav+ once m come to him = c\nsel1 ! liv+ voice ( ,jesus gave life to h] s\l :ile he 0 speak+ ( ,*ri/'s words1 ,if ?\ knewe/ ! gift ( ,god1 etc41 & %e w5t away rejoic+4 ,"s awak5$ s\ls told him t s9ce !y 7 br\ght "u conc]n1 v _m s]mons1 :i* !y _h he>d f him be=e & completely =gott51 _h be5 br\ght back to m9d4 ,he us$ to rem>k t ?is might %[ :at ! resurrection day w\ld awak5 9 ! s\ls ( gospel he>]s4 ,9 deal+ ) s\ls he us$ to speak v pla9ly4 ,"o came to him :o ass5t$ to 8 /atem5ts ( ! gospel1 & yet refus$ to be com=t$1 always look+ ^u com+ to ,*ri/ z some?+ 9 addition to really believ+ ! record ,god has giv5 ( 8 ,son4 ,he took ,john #c3af1 #ag3 ,= ,god s lov$ ! _w1 t1 etc4 ,! woman said t ,god did n c>e = h]4 ,^u ?is he at once convict$ h] ( mak+ ,god a li>2 &1 z %e w5t away 9 deep di/ress1 8 pray] 01 ,"l1 give h] light6 ,to ano!r p]son1 :o spoke ( hav+ times ( great joy1 he %[$ t ^! 7 times = wor%ipp+ ,god 9 ! _s4 ,y w\ld come to a k+ :5 y 7 full dress$2 s come to ,god1 & abide 9 8 pres5ce z long z y c4 ,sometimes he w\ld s5d away s\ls1 ( :om he ent]ta9$ good hope1 ) a text suit$ to _! /ate4 ,if ye live aft] ! fle%1 ye %all die2 b if ye1 ?r\gh ! ,_s1 d mortify ! de$s ( ! body1 ye %all live4 ,or he w\ld say1 ,i he> ( y t ,god has op5$ y\r he>t2 b rememb] n to tru/ to man's op9ion4 ,rememb] an all-see+ ,*ri/ w be ! judge at ! great day4 ,to ano!r he said1 ,i h long hop$ y 7 really "u ! w+s ( ! ,savi\r2 if x be s1 abide !re2 d n be l ,demas4 ,to a pray]-meet+1 consi/+ ( a few "y m5 t _h be5 awak5$ to flee f wra?1 he gave ?is advice3 ,gu>d aga9/ all ambition to excel "o ano!r 9 expression4 ,rememb] ! mo/ spiritual pray] is 'a groan :i* _c be utt]$1' ,rom4 #h3bf2 or a cry ( ',abba1 ,fa!r1' ,gal4 #d3f4 ,!re is v little record$ 9 8 di>y dur+ ^! ye>s1 b :at does exi/ w be read ) deepe/ int]e/4 ,m>* #bh1 #ahch1 ,?ursday4--,i ?9k ( mak+ ?is m a j\rnal ( my p1 & ! success or o!rwise ( my m9i/ry4 ,! fir/ success among my p 0 at ! "t ( my fir/ ,sacram5t3 !n x appe>$4 ,my fir/ s]mon1 on ,isa4 #fa3a1 0 bless$ to ---- & "s o!rs4 ,t on ,ezek4 #bb3ad1 ',c ?9e he>t endure1' etc41 0 bless$ to awak5 ,m4,l4 ,t on ,song #e3b1 ',op5 to me1' etc41 ! ,sabba? aft] ! ,sacram5t1 0 bless$ to ano!r4 ,^! 7 happy days4 ,m4,d4 0 awak5$ by com+ to ! communicants' class4 ,ano!r by ! action s]mon4 ,at ! words1 ',i "k !e1 ,judas1' %e trembl$1 & w\ld h ris5 f ! table4 ,^! 7 glad days :5 "o & ano!r 7 awak5$4 ,! p look$ v /irr$ & anxi\s1 e day com+ to he> ! words ( et]nal life1--"s inquir+ 9 private e week4 ,n[ !re is little ( ?is4 ,ab\t fifte5 cases came to my k ! fir/ ,sacram5t1 & two awak5$ :o seem to h gone back4 ,ab\t elev5 la/ ,sacram5t1--f\r ( ^! "y m54 ,sev]al ,*ri/ians seem$ quick5$ to great] joy1 & great] love "o to ano!r4 ,n[ x appe>s to me !re is mu* fall+ (f1--few seem awak5$2 few weep z !y us$ to d4 ,april #a1 ,sacram5t day4--,sweet season we h _h4 ,nev] 0 m /rait5$ & unfurni%$ 9 myself1 & yet mu* help$4 ,kept 9 p]fect peace1 my m9d be+ /ay$ on ,!e4 ,prea*$ on ',my ,god1 my ,god1' etc41 ,psalm #bb3a4 ,n fully prep>$1 yet f\nd "s peace 9 x4 ,f5c$ ! tables f ',*ri/'s eyes ( flame4' ,little help$ 9 s]v+ ! tables4 ,mu* peace 9 communion4 ,happy to be "o ) ,*ri/6 ,i1 a vile worm2 ,he1 ! ,"l my righte\sness4 ,mr4 ,cumm+ ( ,dumb>ney s]v$ "s tables2 ,mr4 ,som]ville ( ,&]/on s]v$ ?ree1 & prea*$ 9 ! ev5+ on ',?\ art all fair1 my love4' ,v full & refre%+4 ,all sweet1 sweet s]vices4 ,come1 ?\ nor? w9d1 & bl[1 ?\ s\?1 ^u ?is g>d56 ,may ?is "t be greatly bless$6 ,x is my ?ird communion2 x may be my la/4 ,my ,"l may come1 or ,i may be sitt+ at ano!r table soon4 ,moody1 ,c&li%1 & ,mellis1 7 a good prep>ation = ?is day2 & ! sweet ^w f ,cumm+ ye/]day1 ',:5 ! poor & ne$y seek wat]1' etc4 ,"l1 grant "s wak5+ ?is day1--to "s br++ peace--com=t to m\rn]s1--fulness to believ]s1--an advance 9 hol9ess 9 me & my *ildr56 ,,iii ,john #d4 ,"l1 wean me f my s9s1 f my c>es1 & f ?is pass+ _w4 ,may ,*ri/ be all 9 all to me4 ,admitt$ ab\t tw5ty-five "y communicants2 kept two back1 & "o or two /ay$ back4 ,"s ( !m evid5tly br\ght to ,*ri/4 ,may ! ,"l be _! ,god1 _! com=t]1 _! all6 ,may ! morr[ br+ /ill ri*] ?+s to u1 t we may say z ( to-night1 ',?\ ha/ kept ! good w9e until n[4' ,t[>d ! close ( ?is same ye> "s ( 8 notices are z foll[s3-- ,oct4 #g1 ,ev5+4--,9 ! ,gaelic ,*apel1 on ',i "k t my ,r$eem] live?1' ) m seem+ p[] on ! p ?an = a :ile4 ,i nev] rememb] ( compell+ s\ls to come 9 to ,*ri/ s mu* z 9 t disc\rse4 ,oct4 #h4--;,a p]son ( ! "n ( ---- came2 ,i hope really awak5$ by la/ night's "w2 r1 by ,!e4 ,i d n "k1 h[ev]1 :e!r grace is begun or n4 ,oct4 #ad4--,prea*$ on ',=giv+ injuries4' ,aft]noon--on ! ,second ,com+3 ',let y\r lo9s be gird$ ab\t1' etc4 ,felt its p[] myself m ?an ev] be=e1 h[ ! sudd5 com+ ( ! ,savi\r con/ra9s to a holy walk1 sep>ate f s94 ,ev5+--,prea*$ x ov] 9 ! ,f]ry4 ,oct4 #ba4--,met "y communicants 9 ! ev5+4 ,good hope ( all b "o4 ,oct4 #bb4--;,a ,jew prea*$ 9 my *ur*1 ,mr4 ,frey1 to a cr[d$ h\se4 ,felt mu* mov$ 9 he>+ an ,israelite aft] ! fle%4 ,oct4 #bc4--,prea*$ to sailors abo>d ! ',dr4 ,c>ey1' 9 ! docks4 ,ab\t #bjj1 v att5tive & impress$ l4 ,on ',i "k t my ,r$eem] live?4' ,may ! se$ s[n on ! wat]s be f\nd aft] _m days4 ,nov4 #a1 ,fa/-day4--,aft]noon--,mr4 ,c4 on ',! ?ief on ! ,cross4' ,a mo/ awak5+ & engag+ s]mon1 en\gh to make s9n]s fly l a cl\d1 & z doves to _! w9d[s4 ,! (f]s ( ,*ri/ 7 let d[n v l[ s t ^? l[ ( /ature may take hold4 ,nov4 #e4--,mr4 ---- di$ ?is morn+ at sev5 o'clock4 ,oh t ,i may take w>n+1 le/1 aft] prea*+ to o!rs1 ,i myself be a ca/away6 ,love ( popul>ity is said to h be5 8 besett+ s94 ,dec4 #b4--;,errol ,communion4 ,he>d ,mr4 ,gri]son prea* on ,*ri/'s entry into ,j]usalem4 ,s]v$ two tables4 ,ev5+--,prea*$ to a l>ge congregation1 on ',unto y1 ,o m51 ,i call1' etc4 ,! free invitation ( ! ,savi\r4 ,may "s f9d ,him ?is day6 ,9 addition to ! o!r bless+s :i* ! ,"l s5t by 8 means to ! place :]e he labor$1 x 0 obvi\s to all t ! tone ( ,*ri/ians 0 rais$ z mu* by 8 holy walk z by 8 heav5ly m9i/ry4 ,yet dur+ ^! pleasant days he _h mu* reproa* to be>4 ,he 0 ! object ( sup]cili\s contempt to =mal cold-he>t$ m9i/]s1 & ( bitt] hatr$ to _m ( ! ungodly4 ,at ?is day !re are bo? m9i/]s & pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians ( :om ,jesus w\ld say1 ,! _w _c hate y 7,john #g3g71 = ! _w _c hate itself2 b x 0 n s ) ,mr4 ,m',*eyne4 ,v deep 0 ! enmity borne to him by "s1--all ! deep]1 because ! only cause ( x 0 8 lik5ess to 8 ,ma/]4 ,b no?+ turn$ him aside4 ,he 0 full ( ardor1 yet ev] g5tle1 & meek1 & g5]\s2 full ( zeal1 yet nev] ruffl$ by 8 zeal2 & n only 8 /r5g? ( fir/ love 7,rev4 #b3d71 b ev5 its w>m gl[1 seem$ 9 him to suff] no decay4 ,?us he sp5t ! fir/ ye>s ( 8 m9i/ry 9 ,dundee4 ,! t[n began to feel t !y _h a peculi> man ( ,god 9 ! mid/ ( !m1 = he liv$ z a true son ( ,levi4 ,my cov5ant 0 ) him ( life & peace1 & ,i gave !m to him = ! fe> :]e) he fe>$ me1 & 0 afraid be=e my "n4 ,! law ( tru? 0 9 8 m\?1 & iniquity 0 n f\nd on 8 lips2 he walk$ ) me 9 peace & equity2 & did turn _m away f iniquity4 ,mal4 #b3e1 #f4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,8 ,,mission ,,to ,,pale/9e ,,& ,,! ,,jews4 ,"h am ,i2 s5d me--,isaiah #f3h4 ,?\gh engag$ night & day ) 8 flock 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne ev] *]i%$ a mission>y _s4 ,?is place h>d5s me = a =eign l&1 0 8 rem>k on "o occasion4 ,?is _s he s\ght to k9dle yet m by read+ mission>y intellig5ce = 8 own use1 & (t5 to 8 p at 8 weekly pray]-meet+4 ,! necessities bo? ( 8 own p>i%1 & ( ! _w at l>ge1 lay heavy on 8 s\l2 & :5 an opportunity ( evangeliz+ occurr$1 !re 0 none 9 ,scotl& m ready to embrace x4 ,he seem$ "o :o /ood ) 8 lo9s girt3 ,"h am ,i2 s5d me4 ,ano!r motive to incessant activity1 0 ! decid$ impression on 8 m9d t 8 c>e] w\ld be %ort4 ,f ! v fir/ days ( 8 m9i/ry he _h a /rong feel+ ( ?is nature2 & 8 fri5ds rememb] h[ 8 lett]s us$ to be seal$ ) ?is seal1 ,! night come? ,at a "t :5 he 0 app>5tly 9 8 usual heal?1 we 7 talk+ toge!r on ! subject ( ! ,pre-mill5nial ,adv5t4 ,we _h begun to speak ( ! practical influ5ce :i* ! belief ( t doctr9e might h4 ,at l5g? he said1 ,t he saw no =ce 9 ! argum5ts g5]ally urg$ aga9/ x1 ?\gh he _h difficulties ( 8 own 9 reg>d to x4 ,& p]haps 7he add$7 x is well = y1 :o enjoy con/ant heal?1 to be s firmly p]suad$ t ,*ri/ is ?us to come2 b my sickly frame makes me feel e day t my "t may be v %ort4 ,he 0 !re=e 9 "s measure prep>$1 :51 9 ! mid/ ( 8 labori\s duties1 he 0 compell$ to /& /ill & see :at ! ,"l w\ld d4 ,9 ! close ( #ahch1 "s symptoms appe>$ t al>m$ 8 fri5ds4 ,8 con/itution1 nev] robu/1 began to feel ! effects ( unremitt+ labor2 = occasionally he w\ld sp5d six h\rs 9 visit+1 & !n ! same ev5+ prea* 9 "s room to all ! families :om he _h t day visit$4 ,v g5]ally1 too1 on ,sabba?1 aft] prea*+ twice to 8 own flock1 he 0 engag$ 9 m9i/]+ some:]e else 9 ! ev5+4 ,b n[1 aft] any great ex]tion1 he 0 attack$ by viol5t palpitation ( he>t4 ,x soon increas$1 affect+ him 9 8 h\rs ( /udy2 & at la/ x became almo/ con/ant4 ,^u ?is1 8 m$ical advis]s insi/$ on a total cessation ( 8 public "w2 = ?\gh z yet !re 0 no organic *ange on 8 lungs1 !re 0 e reason to appreh5d t t might be ! result4 ,accord+ly1 ) deep regret1 he left ,dundee to seek re/ & *ange ( occupation1 hop+ x w\ld be only = a week or two4 ,a few days aft] leav+ ,dundee1 he writes f ,ed9burgh1 9 reply to ! anxi\s inquiries ( 8 fri5d ,mr4 ,gri]son3 ,! beat+ ( ! he>t is n n[ s con/ant z x 0 be=e4 ,! pit*] draws m quietly at ! ci/]n2 s t1 by ! k9d provid5ce ( our heav5ly ,fa!r1 ,i may be sp>$ a little long] be=e ! silv] cord be loos$1 & ! gold5 b[l be brok54 ,x 0 f\nd t 8 compla9ts 7 su* z w\ld be likely to give way "u c>eful treatm5t1 & a tempor>y cessation f all ex]tion4 ,"u 8 fa!r's ro(1 !re=e1 9 ,ed9burgh1 he resign$ himself to ! w ( 8 ,fa!r 9 heav54 ,b deeply did he feel ! trial ( be+ laid aside f 8 lov$ employm5t1 ?\gh he le>n$ ( ,him :o 0 meek & l[ly1 to make ! burd5 light 9 8 own way1 by say+1 ,ev5 s1 ,fa!r1 = s x seeme? good 9 ?y sight4 ,he wrote to ,mr4 ,gri]son aga91 ,janu>y #e1 #ahci3 ,i hope ?is affliction w be bless$ to me4 ,i always feel mu* ne$ ( ,god's afflict+ h&4 ,9 ! :irl ( active labor !re is s little "t = wat*+1 & = bewail+1 & seek+ grace to oppose ! s9s ( our m9i/ry1 t ,i always feel x a bless$ ?+ :5 ! ,savi\r takes me aside f ! cr[d1 z ,he took ! bl9d man out ( ! t[n1 & removes ! veil1 & cle>s away obscur+ mi/s1 & by 8 ^w & ,_s leads to deep] peace & a holi] walk4 ,ah6 !re is no?+ l a calm look into ! et]nal _w to tea* u ! empt9ess ( human praise1 ! s9fulness ( self-seek+ & va+lory1 to tea* u ! preci\sness ( ,*ri/1 :o is call$ ',! ,tri$ ,/one4' ,i h be5 able to be twice at college to he> a lecture f ,dr4 ,*alm]s4 ,i h also be5 privileg$ to smoo? d[n ! dy+ pill[ ( an old s*ool-companion1 lead+ him to a full] joy & peace 9 believ+4 ,a poor heavy-lad5 s\l1 too1 f ,l>b]t1 ,i h _h ! joy ( lead+ t[>d ! ,savi\r4 ,s t ev5 :5 abs5t f my "w1 & :5 exil$1 z x 71 ,god all[s me to d "s little ?+s = 8 "n4 ,he 0 l$ to look m c>efully into ?is try+ disp5sation1 & began to anticipate bless$ results f x to 8 flock4 ,he 0 well aw>e h[ easily ! flock beg9 to idolize ! %eph]d1 & h[ prone ! %eph]d is to feel some:at pleas$ ) ?is s9ful p>tiality ( 8 p1 & to be uplift$ by 8 success4 ,i sometimes ?9k1 is 8 rem>k 9 a lett]1 dat$ ,janu>y #ah1 t a great bless+ may come to my p 9 my abs5ce4 ,(t5 ,god does n bless u :5 we are 9 ! mid/ ( our labors1 le/ we %all say1 ',my h& & my eloqu5ce h done x4' ,he removes u into sil5ce1 & !n p\rs 'd[n a bless+ s t !re is no room to receive x2' s t all t see x cry out1 ',x is ! ,"l6' ,?is 0 ! way 9 ! ,s\? ,sea ,isl&s4 ,may x really be s ) my de> p6 ,nor did he err 9 ?is view ( ! disp5sation4 ,all ^! ends1 & m also1 7 to be accompli%$ by x4 ,an anticipation l t :i* is express$ 9 ?is & o!r lett]s1 especially 9 8 ,pa/oral ,lett] ( ,m>* #bj1 may ju/ly be reg>d$ z a pro( f exp]i5ce t ! ,"l tea*es 8 p to expect & pray = :at ,he means soon to "w4 ,& "h ! ,"l accompli%$ 8 designs 9 ! k9de/ ( all ways2 = ,he remov$ 8 s]vant = a season f ! flock to :i* he _h be5 s bless$1 le/ ev5 8 own *ildr5 %\ld beg9 to glory 9 man2 b yet ,he took t s]vant to ano!r sph]e ( labor 9 ! meantime1 & !n1 :5 ! bless+ 0 safely be/[$1 br\ght him back to rejoice ov] x4 ,he 0 /ill hop+ =1 & submissively ask+ f ! ,"l1 spe$y re/oration to 8 p 9 ,dundee1 & occasionally s5d+ to !m an epi/le t brea!d ! true pa/or's s\l2 :5 "o day1 z he 0 walk+ ) ,dr4 ,c&li%1 conv]s+ on ! ,mission to ,israel :i* _h lately be5 resolv$ on1 an idea seem$ sudd5ly sugge/$ to ,dr4 ,c&li%4 ,he ask$ ,mr4 ,m',*eyne :at he w\ld ?9k ( be+ useful to ! ,jewi% cause1 dur+ 8 cessation f labor1 by go+ abroad to make p]sonal inquiries into ! /ate ( ,israel8 ,! idea ?us sudd5ly sugge/$ l$ to all ! aft] results ( ! ,mission ( ,inquiry4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne f\nd himself all at once call$ to c>ry salvation to ! ,jew z he _h hi!rto done to ! ,g5tile1 & 8 s\l 0 fill$ ) joy & wond]4 ,8 m$ical fri5ds highly approv$ ( ! proposal1 z be+ likely to conduce v mu* to ! removal ( 8 compla9ts1--! calm1 /eady excitem5t ( su* a j\rney be+ likely to re/ore ! tone ( 8 :ole con/itution4 ,dr4 ,black ( ,ab]de5 readily cons5t$ to use 8 rem>kable tal5ts z a s*ol> 9 ?is cause2 & ,dr4 ,kei? intimat$ 8 expectation ( soon jo9+ ! deputation4 ,i also _h be5 *os5 to g =? on ?is mission ( love to ,israel2 b "s difficulties /ood 9 ! way ( my leav+ my *>ge at ,collace4 ,9 ^! circum/ances ,mr4 ,m',*eyne wrote to me1 ,m>* #ab1 f ,ed9burgh4 ,,my ,,de> ,a41--,i h receiv$ s _m tok5s = good f ,god 9 ?is matt]1 t x 7 a %ame inde$ if ,i did n tru/ ,him to p]fect all :i* conc]ns me4 ,i am glad y h det]m9$ to tru/ all 9 ! h&s ( ,israel's ,god4 ,i am q ready to g ?is week1 or next week1 b am deeply anxi\s to be sure t y are s5t ) me4 ,y "k1 de> ,a41 ,i c\ld n labor 9 ?is cause1 nor enjoy x1 if y 7 n to be ) me 9 x4 ,w\ld y be ready to give y\r ,jewi% lecture on ! ev5+ ( ,sabba? week8444 ,& n[1 pray = u1 t we may be s5t ( ,god2 &1 weak z we are1 t we may be made ,boan]ges1--t we may be bless$ to w9 "s s\ls1 & to /ir up ,*ri/ians to love ,zion4 ,mu* int]e/ is already excit$1 & ,i d look = a bless+4 ,speak to y\r p z on ! br9k ( et]nity4444 ,z to books1 ,i am q at a loss4 ,my ,hebrew ,bible1 ,greek ,te/am5t1 etc41 & p]haps ,bridge's ,*ri/ian ,m9i/ry = g5]al purposes--,i mean1 = keep+ u 9 m9d ( our m9i/]ial "w4 ,i d hope we %all g =? 9 ! ,_s2 & ?\gh /rait5$ 9 language1 may we n be bless$1 z ,bra9]d 01 ?r\gh an int]pret]8 ,may we n be bless$ also to save "s ,engli%1 & to /ir up mission>ies8 ,my heal? is only tol]able2 ,i w\ld be bett] if we 7 once away4 ,i am (t5 s tr\bl$ z to be made will+ to g or /ay1 to die or to live4 ,yet x is enc\rag+ to be us$ 9 ! ,"l's s]vice aga91 & 9 s int]e/+ a mann]4 ,:at if we %\ld see ! heav5ly ,j]usalem be=e ! e>?ly8 ,i am tak+ draw+ mat]ials1 t ,i may c>ry away remembrances ( ! ,m\nt ( ,olives1 ,tabor1 & ! ,sea ( ,galilee4 ,! int]e/ t ?is propos$ j\rney excit$ 9 ,scotl& 0 v great4 ,nor 0 x m]ely ! some:at romantic int]e/ atta*$ to ! l& :]e ! ,"l _h done mo/ ( 8 mighty works2 !re 7 also 9 x ! deep] feel+s ( a scriptural p]suasion t ,israel 0 /ill belov$ = ! fa!rs' sake4 ,= "s "t previ\s1 ,j]usalem _h come into m9d1 & _m godly pa/ors 7 al>m+ z wat*m5 ov] its ru9$ walls 7,isa4 #fb3f71 /irr+ up ! ,"l's remembranc]s4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne _h be5 "o ( ^!4 ,8 views ( ! importance ( ! ,jews 9 ! eye ( ,god1 & !re=e ( _! importance z a sph]e ( mission>y labor1 7 v cle> & decid$4 ,he agre$ 9 ! expectation express$ 9 "o ( ! ,c\rse ( ,lectures deliv]$ be=e ! deputation set out1 t we might anticipate an outp\r+ ( ! ,_s :5 our *ur* %\ld /ret* out its h&s to ! ,jew z well z to ! ,g5tile4 ,9 "o lett] he says1 ,to seek ! lo/ %eep ( ! h\se ( ,israel is an object v ne> to my he>t1 z my p "k x has ev] be54 ,su* an ent]prise may probably draw d[n unspeakable bless+s on ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&1 accord+ to ! promise1 ',!y %all prosp] :o love !e4' ,9 ano!r1 ,i n[ see pla9ly t all our views ab\t ! ,jews be+ ! *ief object ( mission>y ex]tion are pla9 & sob] tru?s1 accord+ to ! ,scripture4 ,aga91 ,i feel conv9c$ t if we pray t ! _w may be conv]t$ 9 ,god's way1 we w seek ! good ( ! ,jews2 & ! m we d s1 ! happi] we w be 9 our own s\l4 ,y %\ld always keep up a k ( ! prophecies reg>d+ ,israel4 ,9 8 prea*+ he n unfrequ5tly said on ?is subject1 ,we %\ld be l ,god 9 8 peculi> affections2 & ! :ole ,bible %[s t ,god has ev] _h1 & /ill has1 a peculi> love to ! ,jews4 ,! news ( 8 propos$ abs5ce al>m$ 8 flock at ,dundee4 ,!y manife/$ _! c>e = him m ?an ev]2 & n a few wrote expo/ulatory lett]s4 ,to "o ( ^! well-meant remon/rances he repli$1 ,i rejoice exce$+ly 9 ! int]e/ y take 9 me1 n s mu* = my own sake z t ,i hope x is a sign y "k & love ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,unless ,god _h himself %ut up ! door ( return to my p1 & op5$ ?is new door to me1 ,i nev] c\ld h cons5t$ to g4 ,i am n at all unwill+ to sp5d & be sp5t 9 ,god's s]vice1 ?\gh ,i h (t5 f\nd t ! m abundantly ,i love y1 ! less ,i am lov$4 ,b ,god has v pla9ly %[n me t ,i may p]=m a deeply important "w = 8 anci5t p1 & at ! same "t be 9 ! be/ way ( seek+ a return ( heal?4--,a m9i/] w make a poor savi\r 9 ! day ( wra?4 ,x is n kn[+ a m9i/]1 or lov+ "o1 or he>+ "o1 or hav+ a "n to live1 t w save4 ,y ne$ to h y\r h& on ! head ( ! ,lamb = y\rselves1 ,lev4 #a3d4 ,y ne$ to h y\r eye on ! braz5 s]p5t = y\rselves1 ,john #c3ad1 #ae4 ,i fe> ,i w ne$ to be a swift witness aga9/ _m ( my p 9 ! day ( ! ,"l1 t !y look$ to me1 & n to ,*ri/1 :5 ,i prea*$ to !m4 ,i always fe>$ t "s ( y lov$ to he> ! ^w1 :o d n love to d x4 ,i always fe>$ !re 7 _m ( y :o lov$ ! ,sabba? meet+s1 & ! class1 & ! ,?ursday ev5+s1 :o yet 7 n c>eful to walk ) ,god1 to be meek1 *a/e1 holy1 lov+1 h>mless1 ,*ri/-l1 ,god-l4 ,n[1 ,god wants y to ?9k t ! only end ( a gospel m9i/ry is t y may be holy4 ,believe me1 ,god himself c\ld n make y happy except y be holy4 ,at ?is crisis 9 8 p's hi/ory1 he s\ght f ! ,"l "o to supply 8 place1--"o :o w\ld fe$ ! flock & ga!r 9 w&]]s dur+ _! own pa/or's abs5ce4 ,! ,"l grant$ him 8 desire by s5d+ ,mr4 ,william ,c4 ,burns1 son ( ! m9i/] ( ,kilsy?4 ,9 a lett] to him1 dat$ ,m>* #ab1 ! foll[+ rem>kable words occur3 ,y are giv5 9 answ] to pray]2 & ^! gifts are1 ,i believe1 always )\t exception bless$4 ,i hope y may be a ?\s& times m bless$ among !m ?an ev] ,i 04 ,p]haps !re are _m s\ls t w\ld nev] h be5 sav$ "u my m9i/ry1 :o may be t\*$ "u y\rs2 & ,god has tak5 ?is me?od ( br++ y into my place4 ,8 "n is ,wond]ful4 ,?is done1 & be+ already dis5gag$ f 8 flock1 he set out = ,london to make arrangem5ts = ! re/ ( ! deputation1 :o soon aft] 7 all s5t =? by ! bre?r5 ) _m pray]s4 ,none _h m pray]s (f]$ 9 _! behalf ?an he1 & !y 7 n (f]$ 9 va94 ,dur+ all 8 j\rney+s ! ,"l /r5g!n$ him1 & sav$ him out ( all di/resses4 ,x 0 a s+ul> ev5t1--(t5 /ill x looks l a dream1--t f\r m9i/]s %\ld be s sudd5ly call$ away f _! quiet labors 9 ! t[ns & villages ( ,scotl&1 & be f\nd 9 a few weeks trav]s+ ! l& ( ,israel1 ) _! ,bibles 9 _! h&1 eye-witnesses ( prophecy fulfill$1 & spies ( ! nak$ness ( ,israel's wor%ip & leanness ( s\l4 ,! details ( t j\rney ne$ n be giv5 "h4 ,!y h be5 already record$ 9 ! ,n>rative ( a ,mission ( ,inquiry to ! ,jews f ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl& 9 #ahci4 ,b !re are "s incid5ts wor?y to be pres]v$ :i* c\ld f9d a place only 9 su* a record ( private life & feel+s z we are n[ engag$ 94 ,:5 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 on bo>d ! vessel t c>ri$ him to ,london1 he at once discov]$ an int]e/+ "y ,jew1 :o seem$1 h[ev]1 unwill+ to be recogniz$ z belong+ to ! se$ ( ,abraham4 ,he made sev]al attempts to draw ?is "y ,israelite into close conv]sation2 & be=e p>t+1 read ) him ! #a/ ,psalm 9 ,hebrew1 & press$ home ! duty ( m$itat+ on ! ^w ( ! ,"l4 ,9 visit+ ,be?nal ,gre51 he has not$ d[n t x 0 v sweet to he> ,jewi% *ildr5 s+ a hymn to ,jesus1 ! burd5 ( :i* 0 ,hebrew3 tavua* ale9u1 ,sla9 = u6 ,! awful pr(anation ( ! holy ,sabba? :i* we witness$ on ! /reets ( ,p>is1 call$ =? ! foll[+ appeal1 9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,macdonald ( ,blairg[rie4 ,8 _s _h be5 /irr$ 9 him :5 he saw ! city :olly giv5 to idolatry4 ,/& 9 ! brea*1 de> fri5d1 & lift up y\r voice l a trumpet1 le/ ,scotl& become ano!r ,france4 ,y "k h[ _m 9 our own p>i%es trample on ! holy day4 ,!y d n "k h[ sweet x is to walk ) ,god all t holy day4 ,isaiah #eh3aa-ad is a sweet text to prea* f4 ,exodus #ca3ac is also v preci\s1 %[+ t ! real sanctify+ ( ! ,sabba? is "o ( ,god's signs or m>ks :i* ,he puts ^u 8 p4 ,x is "o ( ! lett]s ( ! new "n1 :i* no "o kn[e? b !y :o receive x4 ,9 8 brief notes dur+ ! fir/ "p ( ! j\rney1 he has seldom fail$ to m>k our seasons ( unit$ pray]1 su* z ^? 9 ! cab9 ( ! vessel on ! passage to ,g5oa2 = ^! 7 times ( refre%+ to 8 _s4 ,& 8 feel+s1 z he /ood 9 t city & survey$ its palaces1 are express$ 9 a few l9es1 :i* he s5t homew>d f ! spot4 ,a =eign l& draws u ne>] ,god4 ,he is ! only "o :om we "k "h4 ,we g to ,him z to "o we "k2 all else is /range4 ,e /ep ,i take1 & e new c\ntry ,i see1 makes me feel m t !re is no?+ real1 no?+ true1 b :at is ev]la/+4 ,! :ole _w lie? 9 wick$ness6 its judgm5ts are fa/ ha/5+4 ,! m>ble palaces1 among :i* ,i h be5 w&]+ to-night1 %all soon s9k l a mill/one 9 ! wat]s ( ,god's righte\s ang]2 b he t doe? ! w ( ,god abide? =ev]4 ,at ,valetta1 9 ! isl& ( ,malta1 he wrote3 ,my he>t beats a little to-day1 b ano!r sail w d me good4 ,"o ?+ ,i "k1 t ,i am 9 ! h&s ( my ,fa!r 9 heav51 :o is all love to me1--n = :at ,i am 9 myself1 b = ! beauty ,he sees 9 ,immanuel4 ,! classic %ores ( ,italy & ,greece are inve/$ ) a peculi> int]e/1 su* z may raise deep emotions ev5 9 a sanctifi$ s\l4 ,we tri$ to recollect _m ( ! /udies ( our boyhood4 ,b :at is classic le>n+ to u n[8 ,i c\nt all ?+s b loss = ! excell5cy ( ! k ( ,*ri/ ,jesus my ,"l4 ,& yet ^! recollections t+$ e object1 & af=d$ u a mo/ lawful pleasure4 ,dur+ our voyage1 x 0 8 delight to se>* into ! ,scriptures1 j z at home4 ,& s mu* did he calculate on an unceas+ /udy ( ! ^w dur+ all our j\rney1 t he took ) him "s notes ,i _h writt5 on ea* *apt] ( ! book ( ,leviticus1 obs]v+ x w\ld be suitable m$itation = u :ile busy ) ,jewi% m9ds4 ,at home & abroad he _h an insatiable appetite = all ! ^w1--bo? = ! types ( ! ,old ,te/am5t & ! pla9 text ( ! ,new4 ,on "o occasion1 be=e leav+ home1 9 /udy+ ,numb]s #d41 he fix$ ! diff]5t duties assign$ to ! prie/s on 8 memory1 by means ( ! foll[+ l9es3-- ,! ,koha?ites ^u _! %\ld] be> ,! holy vessels1 cov]$ ) all c>e1 ,! ,g]%onites receive an easi] *>ge1 ,two waggons full ( cords & curta9s l>ge2 ,m]>i's sons f\r pond]\s waggons load ,) bo>ds & pill>s ( ! h\se ( ,god4 ,he act$ on ! pr9ciple1 t :atev] ,god has reveal$ mu/ des]ve our /udy & pray]ful inve/igation4 ,arriv$ at ,alex&ria 9 ,egypt1 & !nce proce$+ onw>d to ,pale/9e by ! way ( ! des]t1 we f\nd ourselves set d[n on a new /age ( exp]i5ce4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne obs]v$ on ! sil5ce ( ! des]t places3 ,x is a rem>kable feel+ to be q alone 9 a des]t place2 x gives simil> feel+s to fa/+2 x br+s ,god ne>4 ,liv+ 9 t5ts1 & mov+ among su* lonely sc5es = _m days1 awake _m new ideas4 ,x is a /range life we lead 9 ! wild]ness4 ,r\nd & r\nd !re is a complete circle ( s& & wild]ness %rubs2 above1 a blue sky )\t a cl\d1 & a scor*+ sun :i* (t5 made ! !rmomet] /& at #if 9 our t5ts4 ,:5 ev5+ came1 ! sun w5t d[n z x does 9 ! ocean1 & ! />s came rid+ =? 9 _! glory2 & we us$ to pit* all alone1 ) none b our poor ignorant ,b$\9s1 & _! camels1 & our all-kn[+1 all-lov+ ,god beside u4 ,:5 morn+ began to dawn1 our habitations 7 tak5 d[n4 ,(t5 we h f\nd ourselves %elt]less be=e be+ fully dress$4 ,:at a type ( ! t5t ( our body6 ,ah6 h[ (t5 tak5 d[n be=e ! s\l is made meet = ! inh]itance ( ! sa9ts 9 light4 ,to ,mr4 ,bon> ( ,l>b]t he writes3 ,i _h no idea t travell+ 9 ! wild]ness 0 s dreadful a ?+ z x is4 ,! lonel9ess ,i (t5 felt q solemniz$ me4 ,! burn+ sun ov]head1--r\nd & r\nd a circle ( b>r5 s&1 *equ]$ only by a few prickly %rubs 7'! heat ( ! wild]ness1' ( :i* ,j]emiah speaks71 no ra91 n a cl\d1 ! wells (t5 l t ( ,m>ah1 & f> betwe54 ,i n[ und]/& well ! murmur+s ( ,israel4 ,i feel t our j\rney prov$ & tri$ my own he>t v mu*4 ,:5 we look back1 & rememb] t he :o ?us /&s on ! s&y des]t road betwe5 ,egypt & ,pale/9e1 & looks on its s+ul> sc5]y1 is "o :o b lately 0 to be f\nd busy night & day 9 deal+ ) ! s\ls ( m5 9 ! d5sely peopl$ /reets ( a t[n teem+ ) population1 we are l$ to wond] at ! ways ( ! ,"l4 ,b is x n a mom5t :i* may rem9d u t ! ,god :o s5t ,elijah to ! brook at ,*]i? is ! same ,god /ill8 & t ! wise1 consid]ate1 lov+ ,ma/]1 :o said1 ,come into a des]t place & re/ a:ile1 is z lov+1 consid]ate1 & wise z ,he 0 !n8 ,at ,balte51 a small village 9 ,egypt1 ,i well rememb] ! indignation t fir$ 8 c\nt5ance1 :5 our ,arab att5dants insi/$ on travell+ =w>d on ! ,sabba?-day1 r ?an cont9ue sitt+ "u a few palm-trees1 brea?+ a sultry1 furnace-l atmosph]e1 ) no?+ m ?an j su* supply ( food z suffic$4 ,he c\ld n be> ! ?\ght ( be+ depriv$ ( ! ,sabba? re/2 x 0 ne$ful = our s\ls z mu* 9 ! wild]ness z 9 ! cr[d$ city2 & if few glorify ,god 9 t desolate l&1 s mu* ! m 7 we call$ on to fill ^! solitudes ) our songs ( praise4 ,x 0 9 ?is light he view$ our position2 & :5 we _h prevail$1 & 7 seat$ "u ! palms1 he 0 excit$ to deep emotion1 ?\gh be=e q unn]v$ by ! heat1 at ! sight ( a r[ ( poor wret*$ ,egyptians :o ga!r$ r\nd u4 ,oh t ,i c\ld speak _! language1 & tell !m ( salvation6 0 8 impassion$ wi%4 ,an ev5t occurr$ at t "t 9 :i* ! h& ( ,god aft]w>ds appe>$ v pla91 ?\gh x !n seem$ v d>k to u4 ,dr4 ,black fell f 8 camel 9 ! mid/ ( ! s&y des]t1 & none ( all our company c\ld conjecture :at be>+ on ! object ( our ,mission ?is sad occurr5ce c\ld h4 ,is x a fr[n on our und]tak+8 or c x really be a movem5t ( 8 k9d1 guid+ h&8 ,we (t5 spoke ( x3 9 our visit to ,galilee we ?\ght t we saw "s purposes evolv+2 b !re 0 /ill some?+ unexpla9$4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 ! reason appe>s3 ev5 t ev5t 0 ( ! ,"l1 9 wise & k9d design4 ,b = t fall1 our fa!rs 9 ! deputation w\ld n h sail$ up ! ,danube on _! way to ,vi5na1 & ,pe/h w\ld n h be5 visit$4 ,?is accid5t1 :i* ma9ly disabl$ ,dr4 ,black f und]tak+ ! aft] fatigue ( explor+ ,galilee1 0 ! occasion ( direct+ ! /eps ( our two fa!rs to t /ation1 :]e a sev]e /roke ( sickness 0 made ! means ( deta9+ ,dr4 ,kei? till !y _h le>n$ t !re 0 an op5 door among ! ,jews4 ,& !re1 accord+ly x has be5 t ! ,"l has p\r$ d[n 8 ,_s on ! ,jews t h come to our mission>ies s rem>kably1 t no ,jewi% ,mission seems ev] to h be5 bless$ ) deep] conv]sions4 ,!re is no?+ b tru? 9 ! rem>k made by "o ( our numb]3 ,dr4 ,black's fall f ! camel 0 ! fir/ /ep t[>ds ,pe/h4 ,:oso is wise1 & w obs]ve ^! ?+s1 ev5 !y %all und]/& ! lov+ k9dness ( ! ,"l1 ,psalm #ajg3db4 ,inde$1 :e!r x 0 t we 7 prep>$ to expect1 & !re=e 7 peculi>ly ready to obs]ve1 or :e!r x 0 really ! case t ! wat*ful eye ( our ,"l specially guid$ u1 c]ta9 x is t we ?\ght we c\ld p]ceive ! :ole c\rse we took signally m>k$ by ,provid5ce4 ,!re 7 _m pray]s 9 ,scotl& asc5d+ up 9 our behalf1 & ! ,high ,prie/ gave ! answ] by %9+ ^u our pa?4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne has /at$3 ,= mu* ( our safety ,i feel indebt$ to ! pray]s ( my p1 ,i mean ! ,*ri/ians among !m1 :o d n =get u4 ,if ! veil ( ! _w's ma*9]y 7 lift$ (f1 h[ mu* we w\ld f9d is done 9 answ] to ! pray]s ( ,god's *ildr54 ,_m ?+s lo/ some:at ( _! importance 9 our view1 :5 exam9$ amid ! undi/ract$ reflections ( ! long des]t j\rney1 :]e = _m days we _h quiet1 l ! quiet ( dea?1 ar\nd u all night long1 & ev5 dur+ ! bright day4 ,x is ! m int]e/+ on ?is v acc\nt1 to "k 8 feel+s !re on ! subject ( ! m9i/ry4 ,z 8 camel sl[ly bore him ov] ! s(t s&y soil1 mu* did he rum9ate on ! happy days :5 he 0 p]mitt$ to use all 8 /r5g? 9 prea*+ ,jesus to dy+ m54 ,use y\r heal? :ile y h x1 my de> fri5d & bro!r4 ,d n ca/ away peculi> opportunities t may nev] come aga94 ,y "k n :5 y\r la/ ,sabba? ) y\r p may come4 ,speak = et]nity4 ,above all ?+s1 cultivate y\r own _s4 ,a ^w spok5 by y :5 y\r consci5ce is cle>1 & y\r he>t full ( ,god's ,_s1 is wor? t5 ?\s& words spok5 9 unbelief & s94 ,?is 0 my great fault 9 ! m9i/ry4 ,rememb] x is ,god1 & n man1 t mu/ h ! glory4 ,x is n mu* speak+1 b mu* fai?1 t is ne$$4 ,d n =get u4 ,d n =get ! ,saturday night meet+1 nor ! ,monday morn+ ?anksgiv+4 ,?us he wrote on 8 way to a fell[-labor] 9 ,scotl&4 ,on our fir/ ,sabba? 9 ! ,holy ,l&1 our t5t _h be5 pit*$ 9 ! vic9ity ( a colony ( ants4 ,x 0 9 ! tribe ( ,simeon we 7 encamp$2 x 0 ! sc5]y ( ! ,promis$ ,l& we _h ar\nd u2 & "o ( ! similitudes ( ! bless$ ^w 0 illu/rat$ )9 our view4 ,he op5$ 8 ,bible at ,prov4 #f3f-h1 &1 z he read1 not$--,i4 ,consid] h] ways4 ,mo/ s\ls are lo/ = want ( consid]ation4 ,,ii4 ,! ant has no guide1 ov]se]1 or rul]2 no (fic]1 no "o to comm& or enc\rage h]4 ,h[ diff]5tly situat$ is ! *ild ( ,god6 ,,iii4 ,provide? h] meat 9 ! summ]1 etc4 ,"s h ?\ght t ?is tea*es u to heap up money2 b q ! rev]se4 ,! ant lays up no /ore = ! future4 ,x is all = pres5t use4 ,%e is always busy summ] & w9t]4 ,! lesson is "o ( con/ant dilig5ce 9 ! ,"l's "w4 ,_m a "t 9 ^! days1 :5 our att5dants 9 ! ev5+ 7 driv+ 9 ! /akes ( our t5t & /ret*+ its cords1 he w\ld lie d[n on ! gr\nd "u "s tree t %elt]$ him f ! dew4 ,completely exhau/$ by ! long day's ride1 he w\ld lie almo/ spee*less = half an h\r2 & !n1 :5 ! palpitation ( 8 he>t _h a little abat$1 w\ld propose t we two %\ld pray toge!r4 ,(t51 too1 did he say to me1 :5 ?us /ret*$ on ! gr\nd1--n impati5tly1 b v e>ne/ly1--,%all ,i ev] prea* to my p aga98 ,i 0 (t5 reprov$ by 8 unabat$ att5tion to p]sonal hol9ess2 = ?is c>e 0 nev] abs5t f 8 m9d1 :e!r he 0 at home 9 8 quiet *amb]1 or on ! sea1 or 9 ! des]t4 ,hol9ess 9 him 0 manife/$1 n by ef=ts to p]=m duty1 b 9 a way s natural1 t y recogniz$ !re9 ! easy outfl[+ ( ! indwell+ ,_s4 ,! f\nta9 spr++ up into ev]la/+ life 7,john #d3ad7 9 8 s\l1 well$ =? its liv+ wat]s alike 9 ! famili> sc5es ( 8 native ,scotl&1 & "u ! olive-tree ( ,pale/9e4 ,pray] & m$itation on ! ^w 7 nev] =gott52 & a peace t ! _w c\ld n give kept 8 he>t & m9d4 ,:5 we 7 deta9$ a day at ,gaza1 9 v tantaliz+ circum/ances1 8 rem>k 01 ,jehovah ,jireh2 we are at t m\nt aga94 ,x 0 sweet at any "t to be ) him1 = bo? nature & grace 9 him drew ! v he>t2 b !re 7 mom5ts ( enjoym5t 9 ^! regions ( ,pale/9e t drew e cord /ill clos]1 & creat$ unkn[n sympa?ies4 ,su* 0 t ev5+ :5 we climb$ ,samson's ,hill toge!r4 ,sitt+ !re1 we read ov] ! ref]5ces to ! place 9 ! ^w ( ,god2 & !n he took out 8 p5cil & sket*$ ! sc5e1 z ! sun 0 s9k+ 9 ! we/4 ,?is done1 we sang "s v]ses ( a psalm1 appropriate to ! spot1 (f]$ up pray]1 &1 sl[ly desc5d+1 conv]s$ ( all we saw1 & ( all t 0 br\ght to m9d by ! sc5]y ar\nd u1 till we rea*$ our t5t4 ,9 approa*+ ,j]usalem1 we came up ! ,pass ( ,latroon4 ,he writes3 ,! la/ day's j\rney to ,j]usalem 0 ! f9e/ ,i ev] _h 9 all my life4 ,= f\r h\rs we 7 asc5d+ ! rocky pass ^u our pati5t camels4 ,x 0 l ! f9e/ ( our ,highl& sc5es1 only ! trees & fl[]s1 & ! voice ( ! turtle1 told u t x 0 ,immanuel's l&4 ,rid+ along1 he rem>k$1 t to h se5 ! pla9 ( ,judea & ?is m\nta9-pass1 0 en\gh to rew>d u = all our fatigue2 & !n began to call up passages ( ! ,old ,te/am5t ,scriptures :i* might seem to ref] to su* sc5]y z t be=e u4 ,dur+ our t5 days at ,j]usalem1 !re 7 few objects )9 rea* t we did n eag]ly seek to visit4 ,we /ood at ! turn+ ( ! road :]e ,jesus came ne> & beheld ! city & wept ov] x4 ,& if we _h _h m ( ! m9d t 0 9 ,jesus1 ,i ?9k we %\ld h wept also4 ,?is 0 8 rem>k 9 a lett] homew>d2 & to ,mr4 ,bon> ( ,l>b]t he express$ 8 feel+s 9 reg>d to ! ,m\nt ( ,olives & its vic9ity3 ,i rememb] ! day :5 ,i saw y la/1 y said t !re 7 o!r discov]ies to be made ?an ^? 9 ! physical _w1--t !re 7 sights to be se5 9 ! spiritual _w1 & dep?s to be p5etrat$ ( f> great] importance4 ,i h (t5 ?\ght ( ! tru? ( y\r rem>k4 ,b if !re is a place on e>? :]e physical sc5]y c help u to discov] div9e ?+s1 ,i ?9k x is ,m\nt ,olivet4 ,ge?semane at y\r feet leads y\r s\l to m$itate on ,*ri/'s love & det]m9ation to und]go div9e wra? = u4 ,! cup 0 set be=e ,him !re1 & !re ,he said4 ',%all ,i n dr9k x8' ,! spot :]e ,he wept makes y ?9k ( 8 div9e compassion1 m+l+ ) 8 human t5d]ness1--8 awful ju/ice1 t w\ld n sp>e ! city1--8 sup]human love1 t wept ov] its com+ mis]y6 ,turn+ ! o!r way1 & look+ to ! s\?-ea/1 y see ,be?any1 rem9d+ y ( 8 love to 8 own1--t 8 "n is love1--t 9 all our afflictions ,he is afflict$1--t ^? :o are 9 _! graves %all "o day come =? at 8 comm&4 ,a little f>!r d[n y see ! ,dead ,sea1 /ret*+ f> among ! m\nta9s its /ill & sull5 wat]s4 ,?is deep5s & solemnizes all1 & makes y g away1 say+1 ',h[ %all we escape1 if we neglect s great salvation8' ,he wrote to ano!r fri5d 9 ,scotl&1 f ,m\nt ,zion1 :]e we 7 !n dwell+3-- ,m\nt ,zion1 ,june #ab1 #ahci4 ,,my ,,de> ,,fri5d1--,n[ t we are 9 ! mo/ wond]ful spot 9 all ?is _w1--:]e ,jesus liv$ & walk$1 & pray$ & di$1 & w come aga91--,i d\bt n y w be anxi\s to he> h[ we come on4 ,i am ?ankful t ev] ,he privileg$ u to come to ?is l&4 ,i he>d ( my flock ye/]day by a lett] f home1--! fir/ ,i h receiv$1 dat$ #h? ,may4444 ,we are liv+ 9 "o ( ! mission>ies' h\ses on ,m\nt ,zion4 ,my w9d[ looks out ^u :]e ! ,temple 01 ! beautiful ,m\nt ( ,olives ris+ beh9d4 ,! ,"l t made heav5 & e>?1 bless !e out ( ,zion4--,y\rs1 etc4 ,"o ev5+1 aft] our visit to ,sy*>1 he ref]r$ to ! ,bible :i* ,i _h dropp$ into ,jacob's ,well4 ,we 7 !n re/+ f our j\rney 9 our t5ts4 ,soon aft] he p5n$ on a leaf ( 8 note-book ! foll[+ fragm5t3-- ,my own lov$ ,bible1 mu/ ,i "p f !e1 ,companion ( my toils by l& & sea2 ,man ( my c\nsels1 soo!r ( di/ress1 ,guide ( my /eps ?r\gh ?is _w's wild]ness ,9 d>ke/ nights1 a lant]n to my feet2 ,9 gladsome days1 z dropp+ honey sweet4 ,:5 fir/ ,i p>t$ f my quiet home1 ,at ?y comm&1 = ,israel's good to roam4 ,?y g5tle voice said1 ,= ,j]usalem pray1 ,s %all ,jehovah prosp] all ?y way4 ,:5 ?r\gh ! lonely wild]ness we /ray$1 ,sigh+ 9 va9 = palm-trees' cool+ %ade1 ,?y words ( com=t hu%$ ea* ris+ fe>1 ,! %ad[ ( ?y mighty ,rock is ne>4 ,& :5 we pit*$ our t5ts on ,judah's hills1 ,or ?\ghtful mus$ beside ,siloa's rills2 ,:5e'er we climb$ ,m\nt ,olivet1 to gaze ,^u ! sea1 :]e /ood 9 anci5t days ,! heav5-/ruck ,sodom-- ,sweet record ( ! pa/1 to fai?'s glad eyes1 ,sweet promis] ( glories yet to rise6#ad #ad ,x is a some:at curi\s occurr5ce1 t ! remnants ( ?is ,bible 7 f\nd & drawn up f ! bottom ( ! well1 9 ,july #ahdc1 by ,dr4 ,wilson & 8 fell[-travell]1 :o employ$ a ,sam>itan f ,sy*> to desc5d & exam9e ! well4 ,at ! foot ( ,c>mel1 dur+ ! sev5 days we 7 9 qu>ant9e "u ! br[ ( ! hill1 we _h "t to recall _m =m] sc5es2 & 9 ^! circum/ances he wrote ! hymn1 ,! ,f\nta9 ( ,siloam4 ,"h1 too1 he _h leisure to write home2 & mo/ graphically does he describe our j\rney f ,alex&ria onw>d4 ,,c>mel1 ,june #bf1 #ahci ,,my ,,de> ,,fa!r1 ,,"m1 etc4--,x is a long "t s9ce ,i h be5 able to write to y1--?is be+ ! fir/ "t s9ce leav+ ,egypt t any "o has appe>$ to c>ry lett]s = u4 ,i mu/ !re=e beg9 by tell+ y t1 by ! good h& ( our ,god ^u me1 ,i am 9 excell5t heal?1 & h be5 ev] s9ce ,i wrote y la/4 ,fatigues we h _h _m1 & mu* great] ?an ,i anticipat$2 h>d%ips & dang]s we h also enc\nt]$1 b ,god has br\ght u all safely ?r\gh1 & 9 fully bett] condition ?an :5 we began4 ,y mu/ n imag9e t ,i h altoge!r lo/ ! palpitation ( my he>t1 = x (t5 visits me to humble & prove me2 /ill ,i believe x is a good deal bett] ?an x 01 & its visits are n ne>ly s frequ5t4 ,i hope v mu*1 t 9 a cold brac+ climate1 & ) less fatigue1 ,i may p]haps n feel x at all4 ,i 0 v ?ankful to receive y\r lett]1 dat$ #h? ,may1--! fir/ s9ce leav+ home4 ,i 0 delight$ to he> ( y\r heal? & safety1 & ( ! peaceful communion at ,/4 ,pet]'s4 ,! public news 0 al>m+ & humbl+4#ae ,i suppose ,i _h bett] beg9 at ! beg9n+1 & g ov] all our j\rney+s f ! l& ( ,egypt ?r\gh ! h[l+ wild]ness to ?is sweet l& ( promise4 ,i w\ld h writt5 j\rnalwise 7z my "m w\ld say7 f "t to "t1 s t ,i might h _h an int]e/+ budget ( news ready2 b y mu/ rememb] x is a m fatigu+ ?+ to ride twelve or f\rte5 h\rs on a camel's back1 9 a s&y wild]ness1 ?an 9 our home excursions2 & ,i c\ld (t5 d no?+ m ?an lie d[n on my rug & fall asleep4 #ae ,he alludes "h to ! decision ( ! ,h\se ( ,lords 9 ! ,au*t]>d] case4 ,we left ,alex&ria on #af? ,may #ahci1 p>t+ f _m k9d fri5ds 9 t /range city4 ,we & our baggage 7 m\nt$ on sev5te5 donkeys1 l ! sons ( ,jacob1 :5 !y c>ri$ corn out ( ,egypt4 ,our saddle 0 our b$d+1 viz4 a rug to lie on1 a pill[ = ! head1 & a quilt to wrap ourselves 94 ,we aft]w>ds add$ a /raw mat to put bel[ all4 ,we _h procur$ two t5ts1--"o l>ge1 & a small] "o :i* ,&rew & ,i occupy4 ,! donkeys are nice nimble little animals1 go+ ab\t five miles an h\r2 a wild ,arab accompanies ea* donkey4 ,we h our two ,arab s]vants1 to :om ,i n[ introduce y1--,ibrahim1 a h&some small-made ,egyptian1 & ,a*met ! cook1 a d>k good-natur$ fell[1 ) a :ite turban & b>e black legs4 ,ibrahim speaks a little ,engli% & ,italian1 & ,a*met ,italian1 9 addition to _! native ,arabic4 ,i soon made fri5ds ) our ,arab donkey-m51 le>n+ ,arabic words & phrases2 f !m1 :i* pleas$ !m greatly4 ,we j\rney$ by ! ,bay ( ,ab\kir1 close by ! sea1 :i* temp]$ ! air ( ! des]t4 ,at night we rea*$ ,rosetta1 a curi\s half-inhabit$ ea/]n t[n4 ,we saw an ea/]n m>riage1 :i* highly pleas$ u1 illu/rat+ ! p>ables4 ,x 0 by tor*-light4 ,we slept 9 ! conv5t4 #ag4 ,sp5t morn+ 9 ,rosetta2 gave ! monk a ,new ,te/am5t4 ,saw "s ( ,egyptian mis]y 9 ! baza>4 ,saw ! p pray+ 9 ! mosque1 ,friday be+ ! ,moslem's day ( devotion4 ,9 ! ev5+ we cross$ ! ,nile 9 small boats4 ,x is a f9e riv]2 & its wat]1 :5 filt]$1 is sweet & pleasant4 ,we (t5 ?\ght ^u x 9 ! des]t4 ,we slept t night on ! s& 9 our t5ts1 by ! sea-%ore4 #ah4--;,9 six h\rs we came to ,b\rlos 7y w see x 9 ! map ( ! ,society = ,diffus+ ,useful ,k73 7 f]ri$ across4 ,wat*$ ! fi%]m5 ca/+ _! nets into ! sea3 hot--hot4 ,9 two h\rs m ?r\gh a palmy wild]ness1 we came to ,balte51--'! ,vale ( ,figs1' an ,arab village ( mud huts4 ,y little "k :at an ,arab h\se is4 ,9 g5]al1 9 ,egypt1 x is an exact squ>e box made ( mud1 ) a l[ hole = a door4 ,! furniture is a mat & cook+ ?+s2 an ov5 made ( mud4 #ai4--,sp5t our ,sabba? unoccupi$ 9 mid/ ( ! village2 ! poor ,arabs h no ,sabba?4 ,! !rmomet] #hd 9 t5t4 ,! gov]nor call$ 9 ! ev5+1 & drank a cup ( tea ) great reli%4 ,! heat we felt mu* all day2 /ill x 0 sweet to re/ & rememb] y all 9 ! wild]ness4 #bj4--;,at twelve at night1 left ,balte5 by beautiful moonlight4 ,proce$+ ?r\gh a pleasant ,african wild ( palms & bru%wood1 we rea*$ ! sea 9 two h\rs1 & rode along1 its waves wa%+ our feet3 v sleepy4 ,we got a re/ at mid-day1 if re/ x c\ld be call$1 "u t scor*+ sun1 :i* ,i nev] w =get4 ,proce$+ onw>d1 at ?ree o'clock we left ! sea-%ore1 & p]ceiv$ ! m9>ets ( ,damietta4 ,be=e u ! mirage *eat$ u (t5 :5 we 7 v ?ir/y4 ,we cross$ ! ,nile aga91 a mu* small] bran*1--! only rema9+ "o1--& soon f\nd ourselves com=tably recl9+ on ! divan ( ! ,briti% ,consul1 an ,egyptian g5tleman ( "s =tune & mann]s4 ,he ent]ta9$ u at supp] 9 true ,egyptian /yle2 provid$ a room = u1 :]e we spread our mats 9 peace4 ,we sp5t ! :ole ( ! next day "h1 hav+ s5t (f a ,b$\9 to h camels ready = u at ,san4 ,! ,consul ent]ta9$ u 9 ! same ,egyptian /yle ( hospitality1 & s5t u away ! next day on bo>d ( a b>ge ^u ,lake ,m5zaleh4 #bb4--;,ev5 ,e---- w\ld n h be5 afraid to sail ^u ! lake4 ,x is n[h]e m ?an t5 feet deep1 & 9 g5]al only f\r or five4 ,we made an awn+ ) our mats1 & sp5t a v happy day4 ,at ev5+ we ent]$ a canal among imm5se re$s4 ,9 moonlight ! sc5e 0 truly romantic2 we slept moor$ to ! %ore all night4 ,next morn+ 7#bc7 we rea*$ ,san ab\t t54 ,?is ev5+ & next morn+ we sp5t 9 explor+ ! ru9s ( ! anci5t ,zoan1 = ?is we f9d is ! v spot4 ,w&]+ alone1 we 7 q surpris$ to f9d great m\nds ( brick1 & pott]y1 & vitrifi$ /ones4 ,&rew at la/ came ^u beautiful obelisks4 ,next morn+ we exam9$ all c>efully1 & f\nd two sph9xes & _m ,egyptian obelisks4 ,h[ wond]ful to be tread+ ov] ! ru9s ( ! anci5t capital ( ,egypt6 ,isaiah #ai3ab4 ',:]e are ! pr9ces ( ,zoan8' ,ezek4 #cj3ad1 ',god has set fire 9 ,zoan4' ,?is is ! v place :]e ,joseph 0 sold z a slave1 & :]e ,moses did 8 wond]s1 ,psalm #gh3dc4 ,?is 0 almo/ ! only place :]e we h be5 9 dang] f ! inhabitants4 ,!y are a wild race2 & our ,arabs 7 afraid ( !m4 ,y w\ld h be5 afraid too1 if y _h se51 out ( ! door ( our t5t1 our ,b$\9s keep+ wat* all night ) _! nak$ sabres gleam+ 9 ! moonlight1 fir+ (f _! guns n[ & !n1 & keep+ up a l[ *aunt to keep "o ano!r awake4 ,no evil happ5$ to u1 & we feel t _m pray = u1 & t ,god is ) u4 #bd4--,?is day our j\rney+s on camels comm5c$ & cont9u$ till we came to ,j]usalem4 ,x is a /range mode ( conveyance4 ,y h se5 a camel kneel+2 x is 9 ?is condition t y m\nt2 sudd5ly x rises fir/ on its =e feet1 & !n on its h9d feet4 ,x requires great skill to hold y\rself on dur+ ?is op]ation2 "o "t ,i 0 ?r[n fair ov] its head1 b q unhurt4 ,:5 y f9d y\rself exalt$ on ! hun* ( a camel1 x is som:at ( ! feel+ ( an a]onaut1 z if y 7 bidd+ f>ewell to sublun>y ?+s2 b :5 he beg9s to move1 ) solemn pace & sl[1 y are rem9d$ ( y\r t]re/rial orig91 & t a wrong balance or turn to ! side w soon br+ y d[n f y\r giddy height4 ,y h no /irrup1 & g5]ally only y\r b$ = y\r saddle2 y may ei!r sit z on horseback1 or z on a sidesaddle1--! latt] is ! pleasant]1 ?\gh n ! saf] ( ! two4 ,! camel goes ab\t ?ree miles an h\r1 & ! /ep is s long t ! motion is q peculi>4 ,y b5d y\r head t[>d y\r knees e /ep4 ,) a v]tical sun above & a burn+ s& bel[1 y may believe x is a v fatigu+ mode ( j\rney+4 ,h[ev]1 we ?\ght ( ,rebecca & ,abraham's s]vant 7,g54 #bd471 & li/5$ ) delight to ! wild ,b$\9's pla9tive song4 ,t night 7#bd7 we slept at ,m5agie1 a ,b$\9 mud village3 palm-trees & ?ree wells1 & an ocean ( s&1 =m$ ! only objects ( int]e/4 #be4--,up by sunrise1 & proce$$ z be=e4 ,! only ev5t ?is day 0 ,dr4 ,black's fall f 8 camel1 :i* greatly al>m$ u4 ,he _h fall5 asleep1 :i* y are v apt to d4 ,we encamp$ & us$ e re/orative1 s t we 7 able to proce$ ! same ev5+ to ,gonatre1 a mis]able ,arab po/1 hav+ a gov]nor4 ,n a tree4 #bf4--,! ,sabba? dawn$ sweetly2 !rmomet] #ib 9 t5t2 c\ld only lie on ! mat & read psalms4 ,ev5+4--,ga!r$ gov]nor & ,b$\9s to he> "s words ( et]nal life1 ,ibrahim int]pret+4 #bg4--,two v long /ages br\ght u to ,katieh2 ?ankful to ,god = 8 goodness1 :ile we pit*$ by ! date-trees4 #bh4--,sp5t ! day at ,katieh2 int]e/+ int]views ) gov]nor1 a k9d ,arab2 !rmomet] #if 9 t5t4 ,same ev5+1 proce$$ ?r\gh a gre5] des]t1 among flocks ( goats & %eep1 & encamp$ by a well1 ,bir-el-,abd4 #bi4--;,ano!r hot day 9 ! des]t2 came 9 sight ( ! sea1 :i* gave u a refre%+ breeze2 ba!d 9 ! salt lake1 z hot z a w>m ba?4 ,ev5+4--,encampm5t at ,abugilbany4 #cj4--,?is 0 our la/ day 9 ! ,egyptian wild]ness4 ,we ent]$ on a mu* m m\nta9\s region4 ,! heat v great2 we lit]ally pant$ = a brea? ( w9d4 ,! ,b$\9s begg$ h&k]*iefs to cov] _! heads1 & (t5 ca/ !mselves "u a bu% = %ade4 ,t[>ds sunset1 we came d[n on ! old ru9s ( ,rh9oculura1 n[ buri$ 9 ! s&2 & soon aft] our camels kneel$ d[n at ! gates ( ,el ,ari%1 ! la/ t[n on ! ,egyptian fronti]4 #ca4--,we sp5t 9 ,el ,ari%1 be+ unable to get fre% camels4 ,we b\ght a %eep = five %ill+s2 drank freely ( _! delightful wat]1--:at a bless+ aft] ! des]t6 ,f\nd out ! riv] ( ,egypt1 ! b\nd>y ( ,judah m5tion$ 9 ! ,bible1 q dry4 ,june #a4--,visit$ ! s*ool1--a curiosity3 all ! *ildr5 sit cross-legg$ on ! floor1 rock+ to & fro1 repeat+ some?+ 9 ,arabic4 ,we _h a curi\s int]view ) ! gov]nor1 sitt+ 9 ! gate 9 ! anci5t mann]4 ,we are q exp]t n[ at tak+ (f our %oes & sitt+ 9 ! ,ea/]n mode4 ,smok+1 & c(fee 9 v small cups1 are ! con/ant accompanim5ts ( ^! visits4 ,left ! same ev5+1 & did n rea* ,%eikh ,juidhe1 9 ! l& ( ! ,phili/9es1 till ! sun 0 ne>ly bur/+ into view4 #b4--,sp5t a happy ,sabba? "h2 sung ',9 ,judah's l& ,god is well kn[n4' ,s++ praises 9 our t5ts is v sweet1 !y are s frail1 l our mortal bodies2 !y rise easily into ! e>s ( our pres5t ,fa!r4 ,our j\rney ?r\gh ! l& ( ! ,phili/9es 0 truly pleasant4 #c4--,we w5t ?r\gh a f9e pa/ure c\ntry2 imm5se /ra?s2 flocks ( %eep & goats1 & asses & camels1 (t5 came 9 sight4 ,?is is ! v way up out ( ,egypt1 little *ang$ f ! day t ! ,e?iopian w5t on 8 way rejoic+1 & ,joseph & ,m>y c>ri$ d[n ! babe f ! ang] ( ,h]od4 ,little *ang$1 did ,i say8 x is all *ang$2 no m is !re "o brook ( wat]4 ,e riv] ( ,egypt1--,wady ,gaza1 ,e%col1 ,sorek1--e brook we cross$1 0 dri$ up2 n a drop ( wat]4 ,! l& is *ang$2 no m is x ! ri* l& ( ,phili/ia4 ,! s& /ruggles ) ! grass = ma/]y4 ,! cities are *ang$1--:]e are !y8 ,! p are *ang$3 no m ! bold ,phili/9es1--no m ! *ildr5 ( ,simeon1--no m ,isaac & 8 h]dsm51--no m ,david & 8 horsem52 b mis]able ,arab %eph]ds1--simple p1 )\t ideas1--poor degrad$1 fe>ful4 ,khan\nes 0 ! fir/ t[n we ent]$3 ,scripture "n unkn[n4 ,! bury+-gr\nd outside ! t[n4 ,! well1 & p com+ to draw1 7 objects ( great int]e/ to u4 ,! p 7 highly ent]ta9$ ) u 9 return4 ,we sat d[n 9 ! baza>1 & 7 a spectacle to all4 ,h[ mu* we long$ to h ! ,arabic tongue1 t we might prea* ! unse>*able ri*es ( ,*ri/ 9 ,god's own l&6 ,same ev5+ we he>d ! cry ( ! wolf1 & encamp$ two miles f ,gaza4 ,! plague 0 rag+1 s we did n ent]1 b sp5t a delightful day 9 comp>+ its condition ) ,god's ^w conc]n+ x3 ',baldness is come ^u ,gaza4' ,! old city is buri$ "u s&-hills1 )\t a blade ( grass1 s t x is bald inde$4 ,! h]ds & flocks are innum]able1 fulfill+ ,zeph4 #b2 ,&rew & ,i climb$ ! hill up :i* ,samson c>ri$ ! gates4 #e4--,pass$ ?r\gh a f9e olive grove = _m miles1 & ent]$ ! vale ( ,e%col4 ,! p 7 all 9 ! fields cutt+ & br++ 9 _! b>ley4 ,!y reap ) ! hook z we d4 ,!y seem to c>ry 9 at ! same "t ^u camels4 ,no v9es 9 ,e%col n[1 no pomegranates1 b "s gre5 fig-trees4 ,cross$ ! brook ,sorek--dry4 ,sp5t ! mid-day "u ! emb[]+ %ade ( a fig-tree2 ta/$ ! apricots ( ! good l&4 ,same ev5+ we came to ,d\lis1 :i* we take to be ,e%taol1 :]e ,samson 0 born4 #f4--,we w5t due ea/1 &1 aft] a m\nta9 pass1 saw ! hills ( ,judah1--an imm5se pla9 int]v5+1 all /udd$ ) little t[ns4 ,f _! names1 we f\nd out _m ,bible spots4 ,?is valley or pla9 is ! v vale ,zepha?a1 ( :i* y read 9 ,,ii ,*ron4 #ad41 ',9 ! pla9 ( ,sephela4' ,be=e night we ent]$ among ! hills ( ,judah1--v l our own ,highl&s1--& slept all night among ! m\nta9s1 at a des]t$ village call$ ,latroon4 #g4--,"o ( ! mo/ privileg$ days ( our life4 ,we broke up our t5ts by moonlight2 soon ! sun 0 up2 we ent]$ a defile ( ! mo/ romantic "*2 wild rocks & v]dant hills2 wild-fl[]s ( e color & fragrance sc5t$ our pa?4 ,sometimes we came ^u a clump ( beautiful olive-trees1 !n wild aga94 ,! turtle's voice 0 he>d 9 ! l&1 & s++ birds ( sweete/ note4 ,our camels c>ri$ u up ?is pass = f\r h\rs2 & our turban$ ,b$\9s add$ by _! /range figures to ! sc5e4 ,! t]rac+ ( all ! hills is ! mo/ rem>kable feature ( ,judean sc5]y4 ,e foot ( ! rockie/ m\nta9s may 9 ?is way be cov]$ ) v9es4 ,we ?\ght ( ,isaiah w&]+ "h1 & ,david & ,solomon4 ,/ill all 0 wild]ness4 ,! h& ( man _h be5 actively employ$ ^u e m\nta91 b :]e 7 ^! labor]s n[8 ,judah is gone into captivity be=e ! enemy4 ,!re are few m5 left 9 ! l&2 n a v9e is !re4 ',! v9e langui%e?4' ,we came d[n ^u ,g>ieh1 a village embosom$ 9 figs & pomegranates4 ,asc5d+ aga91 we came d[n into ! valley ( ,elah1 :]e ,david slew ,golia?4 ,ano!r long & /eep asc5t ( a mo/ rugg$ hill br\ght u into a /range sc5e--a des]t ( sunburnt rocks4 ,i _h read ( ?is1 & knew t ,j]usalem 0 ne>4 ,i left my camel & w5t be=e1 hurry+ ov] ! burn+ rocks4 ,9 ab\t half an h\r ,j]usalem came 9 sight4 ',h[ do? ! city sit solit>y t 0 full ( p6' ,is ?is ! p]fection ( beauty8 ',h[ ha? ! ,"l cov]$ ! daught] ( ,zion ) a cl\d 9 8 ang]6' ,x is1 inde$1 v desolate4 ,read ! two fir/ *apt]s ( ,lam5tations1 & y h a vivid picture ( our fir/ sight ( ,j]usalem4 ,we light$ (f our camels )9 ! ,jaffa gate4 ,among ^? t cr[d$ r\nd u1 we obs]v$ sev]al ,jews4 ,i ?9k ,i _h bett] n attempt to tell y ab\t ,j]usalem4 ,!re is s mu* to describe1 & ,i "k n :]e to beg94 ,! ,consul1 ,mr4 ,"y1 receiv$ u mo/ k9dly1 provid$ u a h\se :]e we might spread our mats1 & help$ u 9 e way4 ,mr4 ,nicolayson call$ ! same ev5+1 & insi/$ on our occupy+ "o ( ! mission-h\ses on ,m\nt ,zion4 ,! plague is /ill 9 ,j]usalem1 s t we mu/ keep ourselves 9 qu>ant9e4 ,! plague only communicates by contact1 s t we are n all[$ to t\* any "o1 or let any "o t\* u4 ,e night we he>d ! m\rn]s go+ ab\t ! /reets ) _! dismal wail+s = ! dead4 ,on ,sabba? ,mr4 ,nicolayson read ! pray]s1 & ,dr4 ,black prea*$ f ,isaiah #b3b4 ,dr4 ,kei? 9 ! ev5+4 ,?ree conv]t$ ,jews 7 among ! he>]s4 ,on ,monday 7#aj7 we visit$ ! sepul*re1 & a pa9ful sight1 :]e we c f9d no traces ( ,calv>y4 ,same ev5+ rode up to ! ,m\nt ( ,olives3 pa/ ,ge?semane1 a mo/ t\*+ spot4 ,visit$ ,sir ,moses ,montefiore1 a ,jew ( ,london1 encamp$ on ,m\nt ,olivet2 v k9d to u4 #aa4--,w5t r\nd ! mo/ ( ! places to be visit$ ne> ,j]usalem1--,rephaim1 ,gihon1 ,siloa's brook1 't fl[$ fa/ by ! oracle ( ,god2' ! ,pool ( ,siloam2 ! place :]e ,jesus wept ov] ! city2 ,be?any1--( all places my favorite2 ! tombs ( ! k+s4 ,su* a day we nev] sp5t 9 ?is _w be=e4 ,! climate is truly delightful1--hot at mid-day1 b delightful breezes at morn & ev54 #ab4--;,a bus9ess day1 gett+ in=mation ab\t ,jews4 ,9 ! ev5+1 walk$ to ,aceldama1--a dreadful spot4 ,zion is pl\gh$ l a field4 ,i ga!r$ "s b>ley1 & notic$ caulifl[]s plant$ 9 r[s4 ,see ,micah #c3ab4 ,j]usalem is inde$ heaps4 ,! quantities ( rubbi% w\ld amaze y1--9 "o place high] ?an ! walls4 #ac4--,we w5t to ,hebron1 tw5ty miles s\?2 ,mr4 ,nicolayson1 8 son1 ! ,consul & ladies accompany+ u1 all on mules & horses1 ,judah's cities are all wa/e4 ,except ,be?lehem1 we saw none b ru9s till we rea*$ ,hebron4 ,! v9es are beautifully cultivat$ "h1 & make x a p>adise2 ,! hills all t]rac$ to ! top4 ,we sp5t a delightful ev5+ & all next day4 ,we met ! ,jews1 & _h an int]e/+ int]view ) !m4 ,we read ,g5esis #ah1 & _m o!r ,bible passages1 ) great joy4 ,saw ! mosque :]e ! tomb ( ,abraham & ,s>ah is4 #ad4--,return$ by ,be?lehem to ,j]usalem4 ,be?lehem is a sweet village1 plac$ on ! top ( a rocky hill1--v :ite & dazzl+4 ,y see x on bo? sides ( ! hill4 ,at ,ra*el's sepul*re y see ,j]usalem on "o h& & ,be?lehem on ! o!r1--an int]e/+ sight1--six miles ap>t4 ,on ,sabba? we enjoy$ ! ,"l's ,supp] 9 an upp] *amb] 9 ,j]usalem4 ,x 0 a "t mu* to be rememb]$4 ,&rew prea*$ 9 ! ev5+ f ,john #ad3b1 #c4 #ag4--,! plague has be5 increas+ s t we ?9k x bett] to dep>t4 ,la/ visit to ,ge?semane1 & ,be?any1 & ,siloam4 ,ev5+4--,took f>ewell ( all our fri5ds at ,j]usalem1 ) mu* sorr[ y may believe4 ,w5t due nor? to ,ramah1 by ,gibeon1 & slept at ,be]1 aga9 9 our t5t1 9 ,b5jam94 #ai4--,pass$ ,be!l1 :]e ,jacob slept4 ,pass$ ?r\gh ! ri* & rocky defile ( ,ephraim1 by ,lebonah1 to ,sy*>4 ,y _c believe :at a delightsome l& x is4 ,we s\ght anxi\sly = ! well :]e ,jesus sat4 ,&rew alone f\nd x1 & lo/ 8 ,bible 9 x4 #bj4--;,_h a mo/ int]e/+ morn+ ) ! ,jews ( ,sy*>4 ,saw _m ( !m2 also ! ,sam>itans 9 _! synagogue4 ,same ev5+ visit$ ,sam>ia1--a wond]ful place1--& encamp$ at ,sanor4 #ba4--;,arriv$ at ,c>mel1 :]e we n[ are1 encamp$ )9 two y>ds ( ! sea4 ,we h be5 9 qu>ant9e "h sev5 days1 z !re is no plague nor? ( ?is4 ,sev]al ,engli% are encamp$ "h--,"l ,r41 ,"l ,h41 etc4 ,we h daily conv]sations sitt+ on ! s&4 ,we are n all[$ to t\* ev5 ! rope ( a t5t4 ,acre is 9 sight across ! bay4 ,we h delightful ba?+4 ,to-morr[ ,"l ,h4 leaves1 & k9dly (f]s to take ?is4 ,c>mel's rocky br[ is ov] u4 ,we are all well & happy4 ,on ,monday we propose leav+ = ,tib]ias & ,saphet4 ,soon we %all be 9 ,beyr\t1 & on our way to ,smyrna4 ,d n be anxi\s = me4 ,tru/ u to ,god1 :o goes ) u :]e we g4 ,i only pray t our mission may be bless$ to ,israel4 ,sir ,moses ,m4 has arriv$1 & pit*$ 8 t5t )9 fifty y>ds ( u4 ,k9de/ reg>ds to all t inquire aft] me1 n =gett+ de> ,w4--,y\r affectionate son1 etc4 ,:5 ! two eld] bre?r5 ( ! deputation left u = ,europe1 we turn$ s\?w>d aga9 f ,beyr\t1 to visit ! regions ( ,pho5icia & ,galilee4 ,nev] did ,mr4 ,m',*eyne seem m gladsome ?an 9 gaz+ on ^! regions4 ,at ,tyre1 he rememb]$ ! reque/ ( an eld] 9 ! p>i% ( ,l>b]t1 :o _h writt5 to him be=e 8 dep>ture1 /at+ :at he consid]$ to be a difficulty 9 ! ord9>y expositions ( ! prophecies :i* speak ( t r5[n$ city4 ,) great delight he exam9$ ! difficulty on ! spot2 & x is believ$ t 8 te/imony on su* po9ts z ^!1 :5 x rea*$ "s m5 ( sceptical views 9 t sc5e ( 8 e>ly labors1 0 n unble/4 ,f ,saphet he writes3 ,i sat look+ d[n ^u ! lake ?is morn+ = ab\t an h\r4 ,x 0 j at our feet1--! v wat] :]e ,jesus walk$1 :]e ,he call$ 8 disciples1 :]e ,he rebuk$ ! /orm1 :]e ,he said1 ',*ildr51 h ye any meat8' aft] ,he rose f ! dead4 ,jesus is ! same /ill4 ,to 8 e>ly & famili> fri5d1 ,mr4 ,som]ville1 he ?us describes ! same view3 ,oh :at a view ( ! ,sea ( ,galilee is be=e y1 at y\r feet6 ,x is above ?ree h\rs' desc5t to ! wat]'s edge1 & yet x looks z if y c\ld run d[n 9 z _m m9utes4 ,! lake is mu* l>g] ?an ,i _h imag9$4 ,x is hemm$ 9 by m\nta9s on e side1 sleep+ z calmly & s(tly z if x _h be5 ! sea ( glass :i* ,john saw 9 heav54 ,we tri$ 9 va9 to foll[ ! c\rse ( ! ,jordan runn+ ?r\gh x4 ,true1 !re 7 cle> l9es1 su* z y see 9 ! wake ( a vessel1 b !n ^! did n g /raight ?r\gh ! lake4 ,! hills ( ,ba%an are v high & /eep1 :]e !y run into ! lake4 ,at "o po9t1 a man po9t$ out to u :]e ! tombs 9 ! rocks are1 :]e ! demoniacs us$ to live3 & ne> x ! hills 7 exactly :at ! ,scriptures describe1 'a /eep place1' :]e ! sw9e ran d[n into ! sea4 ,on ! nor?-ea/ ( ! sea1 ,h]mon rises v gr&1 int]sect$ ) _m rav9es full ( sn[4 ,! day we sp5t at ! lake--at ! v wat]-side--0 ev] memorable1 x 0 s peculi>ly sweet6 ,we left an indescribable int]e/ ev5 9 lift+ a %ell f ! %ore ( a sea :]e ,jesus _h s (t5 walk$4 ,x 0 "h t two ( ! beautiful hymns 9 ,! ,songs ( ,zion 7 sugge/$ to him4 ,! "o 01 ,h[ pleasant to me1 etc42 ! o!r1 ,to yond] side2 b ! latt] lay beside him unf9i%$ till a lat] p]iod4 ,8 compla9t 0 n[ consid]ably abat$2 8 /r5g? seem$ return+3 & (t5 did he long to be among 8 p aga91 ?\gh quiet+ 8 s\l ^u ! ,"l4 ,n a few pa/ors ( ano!r *ur* h f "t to "t come =? to ?is l&1 compell$ by disease to seek = heal? 9 =eign regions2 b h[ r>ely d we f9d ! pa/or's he>t reta9$1--h[ r>ely d we discov] t ! %eph]d ye>ns /ill ov] ! flock he left6 ,b s deep 0 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's feel+s t[>d ! flock ov] :i* ! ,holy ,gho/ _h made him ov]se]1 t 8 conc]n = !m became a temptation to 8 s\l4 ,x 0 n 9 ! m]e desire to prea* aga9 t he manife/$ ?is conc]n2 = ?is desire might h be5 selfi%1 z he said3 ,no d\bt !re is pride 9 ?is anxiety to prea*2 a submissive s\l w\ld rejoice only 9 do+ ! pres5t w ( ,god4 ,b 8 pray]s = !m w5t up daily to ! ?rone4 ,we _h preci\s seasons ( unit$ pray] also = t same end1--especially "o morn+ at sunrise 9 ,ge?semane1 & ano!r morn+ at ,c>mel1 :]e we jo9$ 9 supplication on ! sil5t %ore at ! foot ( ! hill z soon z day dawn$1 & !n aga91 at ev5+1 on ! top1 :]e ,elijah pray$4 ,di/ance ( place ( peculi>ities ( circum/ance nev] alt]$ 8 views ( duty1 nor *ang$ 8 feel+s z a m9i/] ( ,*ri/4 ,9 ,galilee he m$itat$ ^u ! aspect ( ecclesia/ical affairs 9 our belov$ ,scotl&2 & ! pr9ciples he _h ma9ta9$ appe>$ to him z pla9ly accordant ) ! ^w ( ,god :5 tri$ !re1 ap>t f excitem5t1 z !y did :5 he review$ !m 9 connection ) _! effects at home4 ,i hope1 7 8 words to a bro!r 9 ! m9i/ry1 ,i hope ! *ur* has be5 well guid$ & bless$2 & if times ( difficulty are to come1 ,i d believe !re is no position s prop] = h] to be 9 z ! attitude ( a mission>y *ur*1 giv+ freely to ,jew & ,g5tile1 z %e has freely receiv$1--s may %e be f\nd :5 ! ,"l comes4 ,at ! foot ( ,lebanon1 9 ! t[n ( ,beyr\t1 he 0 able to exp\nd a *apt] 7,acts #aj47 at a pray]-meet+ ( ! ,am]ican bre?r54 ,?is q rejoic$ 8 he>t2 = x seem$ z if ! ,"l 7 re/or+ him1 & meant aga9 to use him 9 prea*+ ! glad tid+s4 ,b %ortly aft]1 dur+ ! oppressive heat ( ! aft]noon1 he felt himself unwell4 ,he _h paid a visit to a "y man f ,glasg[ 9 ! t[n1 :o 0 ill ( fev]2 & x is n unlikely t ?is visit1 at a "t :5 he 0 9 a /ate ( debility f previ\s fatigue1 0 ! imm$iate occasion ( 8 own illness4 ,he 0 v soon pro/rat$ "u ! fev]4 ,b 8 m$ical att5dant appreh5d$ no dang]1 & advis$ him to proce$ to ,smyrna1 9 ! belief t ! cool air ( ! sea w\ld be mu* m 9 8 favor ?an ! sultry heat ( ,beyr\t4 ,accord+ly1 9 company ) our fai?ful ,hebrew fri5d ,erasmus ,calman1 we emb>k$2 b z we lay (f ,cyprus1 ! fev] increas$ to su* a height1 t he lo/ 8 memory = "s h\rs1 & 0 rack$ ) excessive pa9 9 8 head4 ,:5 ! vessel sail$1 he reviv$ consid]ably1 b dur+ ?ree days no m$ical aid c\ld be obta9$4 ,he sc>cely ev] spoke2 & only once did he = a mom5t1 on a ,saturday night1 lift 8 languid eye1 z he lay on deck enjoy+ ! breeze1 to cat* a di/ant sight ( ,patmos4 ,we wat*$ him ) agoniz+ anxiety till we rea*$ ,smyrna & ! village ( ,b\ja4 ,?\gh ?ree miles (f1 yet1 = ! sake ( m$ical aid1 he rode to ?is village ^u a mule aft] sunset1 ready to drop e mom5t ) pa9 & burn+ fev]4 ,b "h ! ,"l _h prep>$ = him ! be/ & k9de/ help4 ,! t5d] & p>5tal c>e ( ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,lewis1 9 ^: h\se he f\nd a home1 0 nev] m5tion$ by him b ) deepe/ gratitude2 & ! sight ( ! fl[]+ jessam9e1 or ! m5tion ( ! deep-gre5 cypress1 w\ld inv>iably call up 9 8 m9d associations ( ,b\ja & its inmates4 ,he us$ to say x 0 8 second bir?-place4 ,dur+ t "t1 l mo/ ( ,god's p :o h be5 9 sickness1 he felt t a s+le passage ( ! ^w ( ,god 0 m truly food to 8 fa9t+ s\l ?an any?+ besides4 ,"o day 8 _s reviv$1 & 8 eye gli/5$1 :5 ,i spoke ( ! ,savi\r's sympa?y1 adduc+ z ! v words ( ,jesus1 ,psalm #da3a3 ,bless$ is he t consid]e? ! poor3 ! ,"l w deliv] him 9 "t ( tr\ble1 etc4 ,x seem$ s applicable to 8 own case1 z a m9i/] ( ! glad tid+s2 = (t5 _h he consid]$ ! poor1 c>ry+ a cup ( cold wat] to a disciple4 ,ano!r passage1 writt5 = ! *ildr5 ( ,god 9 _! di/ress1 0 spok5 to him :5 he seem$ ne>ly ins5sible3 ,call ^u me 9 ! day ( tr\ble4 ,?is ^w ( ,god 0 z ! drop ( honey to ,jona?an4 ,he himself ?us spoke ( 8 illness to 8 fri5ds at home3 ,i left ! foot ( ,lebanon :5 ,i c\ld h>dly see1 or he>1 or speak1 or rememb]2 ,i felt my faculties go+1 "o by "o1 & ,i _h e reason to expect t ,i w\ld soon be ) my ,god4 ,x is a sore trial to be alone & dy+ 9 a =eign l&1 & x has made me feel1 9 a way t ,i nev] knew be=e1 ! necessity ( hav+ unfeign$ fai? 9 ,jesus & 9 ,god4 ,s5tim5ts1 natural feel+s1 gl[+ fancies ( div9e ?+s1 w n support ! s\l 9 su* an h\r4 ,!re is mu* self-delusion 9 our e/imation ( ourselves :5 we are untri$1 & 9 ! mid/ ( ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 ^: w>m feel+s give a gl[ to ours1 :i* !y d n possess 9 !mselves4 ,ev5 !n he _h 8 p 9 8 he>t4 ,:5 ,i got bett]1 ,i us$ to creep out 9 ! ev5+s ab\t sunset4 ,i (t5 rememb]$ y all !n4 ,i c\ld n write1 z my eyes & head 7 mu* affect$2 ,i c\ld read b v little2 ,i c\ld speak v little1 = ,i _h h>dly any voice2 & s ,i _h all my "t to lay my p be=e ,god1 & pray = a bless+ on !m4 ,ab\t ! la/ ev5+ ,i 0 !re1 we all w5t to ! v9tage1 & ,i jo9$ 9 ga!r+ ! grapes4 ,to ,mr4 ,som]ville he wrote3 ,my m9d 0 v weak :5 ,i 0 at ! wor/1 & !re=e ! ?+s ( et]nity 7 (t5 dim4 ,i _h no fe> to die1 = ,*ri/ _h di$4 ,/ill ,i pray$ = recov]y1 if x 0 ! ,"l's w4 ,y rememb] y told me to be humble among y\r la/ advices4 ,y see ,god is tea*+ me ! same ?+4 ,i fe> ,i am n ?or\ghly humbl$4 ,i feel ! pride ( my he>t1 & bewail x4 ,to 8 k9d m$ical fri5d1 ,dr4 ,gibson1 9 ,dundee1 he wrote3 ,i really believ$ t my ,ma/] _h call$ me home1 & t ,i w\ld sleep b5ea? ! d>k-gre5 cypresses ( ,b\ja till ! ,"l %all come1 & !y t sleep 9 ,jesus come ) ,him2 & my mo/ e>ne/ pray] 0 = my de> flock1 t ,god w\ld give !m a pa/or aft] 8 own he>t4 ,:5 we met1 aft] an eight days' sep>ation1 on bo>d ! vessel at ,con/ant9ople1 he m5tion$ z "o ( ! mo/ int]e/+ incid5ts ( ! week1 t "o ev5+1 :ile walk+ ) ,mr4 ,lewis1 !y met a "y ,greek & 8 wife1 bo? ( :om 7 believ$ to be really conv]t$ s\ls4 ,x creat$ a ?rill 9 8 bosom to meet ) ^! almo/ solit>y repres5tatives ( ! once fai?ful & mu* tri$ native *ur* ( ,smyrna4 ,mean:ile !re 7 movem5ts at home t prov$ ! ,"l to be ,he :o alone doe? wondr\s ?+s4 ,! cry ( 8 s]vant 9 ,asia 0 n =gott52 ! eye ( ! ,"l turn$ t[>ds 8 p4 ,x 0 dur+ ! "t ( ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's sore sickness t 8 flock 9 ,dundee 7 receiv+ bless+ f ! op5$ w9d[s ( heav54 ,_! pa/or 0 ly+ at ! gate ( dea?1 9 utt] helplessness4 ,b ! ,"l _h done ?is on v purpose2 = ,he meant to %[ t ,he ne$$ n ! help ( any3 ,he c\ld s5d =? new labor]s1 & "w by new in/rum5ts1 :5 x pleas$ ,him4 ,we little knew t dur+ ! days :5 we 7 wait+ at ! foot ( ,lebanon = a vessel to c>ry u to ,smyrna1 ! arm ( ! ,"l _h begun to be reveal$ 9 ,scotl&4 ,on ! #bc;d ( ,july ! great ,revival at ,kilsy? took place4 ,mr4 ,w4,c4 ,burns1 ! same :o 0 supply+ ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's place 9 8 abs5ce1 0 on t day prea*+ to 8 fa!r's flock2 & :ile press+ ^u !m imm$iate acceptance ( ,*ri/ ) deep solemnity1 ! :ole ( ! va/ assembly 7 ov]p[]$4 ,! ,holy ,_s seem$ to come d[n z a ru%+ mighty w9d1 & to fill ! place4 ,v _m 7 t day /ruck to ! he>t2 ! sanctu>y 0 fill$ ) di/ress$ & inquir+ s\ls4 ,all ,scotl& he>d ! glad news t ! sky 0 no long] z brass1--t ! ra9 _h begun to fall4 ,! ,_s 9 mighty p[] began to "w f t day =w>d 9 _m places ( ! l&4 ,mr4 ,burns return$ to ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's flock on ,augu/ #h?1--"o ( ! days :5 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 /ret*$ on 8 b$1 pray+ = 8 p "u all 8 own suff]+4 ,! news ( ! "w at ,kilsy? _h produc$ a deep impression 9 ,dundee2 & two days aft]1 ! ,_s began to "w 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 at ! "t ( ! pray]-meet+ 9 ! *ur*1 9 a way simil> to ,kilsy?4 ,day aft] day ! p met = pray] & he>+ ! ^w2 & ! times ( ! apo/les seem$ return$1 :5 ! ,"l add$ to ! *ur* daily ( su* z %\ld be sav$4 ,all ?is "t1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne knew n h[ graci\s ! ,"l _h be5 9 giv+ him 8 he>t's desire4 ,x 0 n till we 7 )9 sight ( home t ! glad news ( ^! ,revivals rea*$ our e>s4 ,b he cont9u$1 l ,epaphras1 labor+ f]v5tly 9 pray]1 & s\ght daily to prep>e himself = a m effici5t dis*>ge ( 8 (fice1 %\ld ! ,"l re/ore him to x aga94 ,he s5ds home ?is message to a fell[-labor]3 ,d n =get to c>ry on ! "w 9 he>ts br\ght to a ,savi\r4 ,i feel ?is 0 "o ( my faults 9 ! m9i/ry4 ,n\ri% babes2 com=t d[nca/ believ]s2 c\nsel ^? p]plex$2 p]fect t :i* is lack+ 9 _! fai?4 ,prep>e !m = sore trials4 ,i fe> mo/ ,*ri/ians are q unready = days ( d>kness4--7,mr4 ,moody ,/u>t47 ,our j\rney l$ u ?r\gh ,moldavia1 ,walla*ia1 & ,au/ria1--l&s ( d>kness & ( ! %ad[ ( dea?4 ,pr(\nd /rang]s to ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus1 ! p ( ^! l&s1 nev]!less1 pr(ess to be ,*ri/ians4 ,sup]/ition & its idolatries veil ! glori\s object ( fai? f e eye4 ,9 ^! regions1 z well z 9 ^? already trav]s$4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's anxiety = s\ls appe>$ 9 ! ef=ts he made to leave at lea/ a few words ( ,scripture ) ! ,jews :om we met1 h[ev] %ort ! "t ( our int]view4 ,8 _s 0 /irr$ 9 him2 &1 ) 8 ,hebrew ,bible 9 8 h&1 he w\ld walk up ?\ghtfully & solemnly to ! fir/ ,jew he c\ld get access to1 & beg9 by call+ ! man's att5tion to "s /atem5t ( ,god's ^w4 ,9 ,pale/9e1 if ! ,jew did n und]/& ,italian1 he w\ld repeat to him su* texts 9 ,hebrew z1 ,9 t day !re %all be a f\nta9 op5$ to ! h\se ( ,david1 etc4 7,ze*4 #ac3a47 ,& "o ev5+1 at ! well ( ,d\lis1 :5 ! ,arab population 7 all clu/]$ r\nd ! wat] tr\ghs1 he look$ on v wi/fully1 & said1 ,if only we _h ,arabic1 we might s[ beside all wat]s6 ,at ,jassy1 aft] a deeply int]e/+ day1 sp5t 9 conv]sation ) ,jews :o came to ! inn1 he said1 ,i w rememb] ! faces ( ^? m5 at ! judgm5t-seat4 ,:5 he came among ! m educat$ ,jews ( ,europe1 he rejoic$ to f9d t !y c\ld conv]se ) him 9 ,lat94 ,8 he>t 0 b5t on do+ :at he c\ld 7,m>k #ad3h71 9 season & out ( season4 ,"o ?+1 he writes1 ,i am deeply conv9c$ (1 t ,god c make ! simple/ /atem5t ( ! gospel effectual to save s\ls4 ,if only x be ! true gospel1 ! good tid+s1 ! message t ,god lov$ ! _w1 & provid$ a ransom free to all1 !n ,god is able to make x w\nd ! he>t1 & heal x too4 ,!re is deep mean+ 9 ! words ( ,paul1 ',i am n a%am$ ( ! gospel ( ,*ri/4' ,! abom9ations ( ,pop]y witness$ 9 ,au/rian ,pol&1 call$ =? _m a pray] = ! de/ruction ( ! ,man ( ,s94 ,! images & idols by ! wayside are actually frightful1 /amp+ ! :ole l& z a k+dom ( d>kness4 ,i d believe t a j\rney ?r\gh ,au/ria w\ld g f> to cure "s ( ! ,pop]y-admir]s ( our belov$ l&4 ,he adds3 ,^! are ! m>ks ( ! bea/ ^u ?is l&4 ,& 9 l mann] our privileges 9 ,scotl& us$ to appe> to him ! m preci\s1 :51 z at ,brody1 we he>d ( ,prote/ants :o 7 suppli$ ) s]mon only once a ye>4 ,i mu/ tell ?is to my p1 said he1 :5 ,i return1 to make !m prize _! _m seasons ( grace4 ,he e/imat$ ! importance ( a t[n or c\ntry by its relation to ! h\se ( ,israel2 & 8 ye>n+s ov] ^! lo/ %eep resembl$ 8 b[els ( compassion = 8 flock at home4 ,at ,t>napol1 9 ,galicia1 he wrote home3 ,we are 9 ,t>napol1 a v nice clean t[n1 prettily situat$ on a w9d+ /ream1 ) wood$ hills ar\nd4 ,i suppose y nev] he>d its "n be=e2 nei!r did ,i till we 7 !re among ,jews4 ,i "k n :e!r x has be5 ! bir?-place ( w>riors1 or poets1 or orators2 its fl[]s h hi!rto be5 born to blu% unse51 at lea/ by u b>b>ians ( ! nor?2 b if ,god revive ! dry bones ( ,israel t are scatt]$ ov] ! _w1 !re w arise f ?is place an exce$+ great army4 ,our fri5d & bro!r 9 ! fai?1 ,erasmus ,calman1 light5$ ! t$i\sness ( a long day's j\rney by repeat+ to u "s ,hebrew poetry4 ,"o piece 0 on ,israel's pres5t /ate ( degradation2 x began-- ,hebrew3 tsuri goali maheir v'*i% p'dut ,z ! vehicle drove along1 we translat$ x l9e by l9e1 & soon aft] ,mr4 ,m',*eyne put x into v]se4 ,! foll[+ l9es are a "p3-- ,rock & ,refuge ( my s\l1 ,swiftly let ! season roll1 ,:5 ?9e ,israel %all arise ,lovely 9 ! nations' eyes6 ,"l ( glory1 ,"l ( might1 ,z our ransom$ fa!rs tell2 ,once m = ?y p fight1 ,plead = ?y lov$ ,israel4 ,give our spoil]s' t[]s to be ,wa/e & desolate z we4 ,ha/51 ,"l1 ! joyful ye>1 ,:5 ?y ,zion1 tempe/-toss$1 ,%all ! silv] trumpet he>3 ,br+ glad tid+s to ! lo/6 ,captive1 ca/ ?y cords f !e1 ,loose ?y neck--be free--be free6 ,:y do/ ,?\ behold our sadness8 ,see ! pr\d h torn away ,all our ye>s ( solemn gladness1 ,:5 ?y flock kept holy-day6 ,"l1 ?y fruitful v9e is b>e1 ,n "o glean+ grape is !re6 ,rock & ,refuge ( my s\l1 ,swiftly let ! season roll1 ,:5 ?9e ,israel %all be1 ,once aga91 belov$ & free4 ,9 8 notes1 he has "o or two subjects m>k$ = hymns4 ,"o ( ^! is--,isaiah #b3c--;,come ye1 etc41 a lov+ call to ! ,jews4 ,ano!r is to ! same effect--,isaiah #a3ae--;,come1 let u reason toge!r4 ,b ^! he nev] complet$4 ,9 ,crac[1 hav+ he>d ( ! dea? ( a fri5d1 ! wife ( an ,engli% cl]gyman1 9 ! mid/ ( h] days & 9 ! full promise ( usefulness1 he began to p5 a few sweet l9es ( com=t3 ,(t z %e taught ! little maids ( ,france ,to leave ! g>l&1 ca/anet1 & dance1 ,& li/5 to ! words :i* %e w\ld say ,ab\t ! cr[ns t nev] fade away1 ,a new expression k9dl$ 9 h] eye1 ,a holy brightness1 borr[$ f ! sky4 ,& :5 return+ to h] native l&1 ,%e b[$ b5ea? a ,fa!r's *a/'n+ h&1 ,:5 ! quick pulse & flu% ^u ! *eek1 ,a t\*+ w>n+ to h] fri5ds w\ld speak1 ,a holy *e]fulness yet fill$ h] eye1 ,will+ %e 0 to live1 will+ to die4 ,z ! good ,%unammite 7! ,scriptures tell71 ,:5 h] son di$1 said meekly1 ,x is well1 ,s :5 ,sophia lo/ h] infant boy1 ,& felt h[ de>-b\ght is a "m's joy1 ,:5 ) gre5 turf ! little grave %e spread1 ,n lo/1 b gone be=e1 %e meekly said4 ,& n[ !y sleep toge!r 'nea? ! will[ ,! same dew drops ^u _! sil5t pill[4 ,return1 ,o m\rn]1 f ?is d\ble grave1 ,& praise ! ,god :o all h] graces gave4 ,foll[ h] fai?1 & let h] mantle be ,a cloak ( holy zeal to cov] !e4 ,! dang] :i* he incurr$ f ! %eph]ds 9 ?is region1 & o!r simil> p]ils to :i* he 0 expos$ 9 company ) o!rs1 h be5 record$ 9 ! ,n>rative4 ,out ( !m all ! ,"l deliv]$ him2 & n f ^! p]ils only did ,he save him1 b f _m sev]e trials to 8 heal?1 to :i* v>iety ( climate & discom=ts ( accommodation subject$ him4 ,& n[ we 7 trav]s+ ,prussia1 draw+ ne>] our own l&4 ,x 0 ab\t five mon?s s9ce we _h receiv$ lett]s f ,scotl&1 our r\te hav+ l$ u away f places :i* we _h anticipat$ visit+1 & :]e communications _h be5 left = u4 ,we press$ homew>d some:at anxi\sly1 yet wond]+ (t5 at pa/ m]cies4 ,9 a lett] f ,b]l91 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne rem>k$1 ,our heav5ly ,fa!r has br\ght u ?r\gh s _m trials & dang]s t ,i feel p]suad$ ,he w yet c>ry u to ! end4 ,l ,john1 we %all fulfil our c\rse4 ',are !re n twelve h\rs 9 ! day8' ,are we n all immortal till our "w is done8 ,8 /r5g? 0 rapidly increas+2 ! j\rney _h answ]$ ! ends anticipat$ to a great ext5t1 9 8 re/oration to heal?4 ,he 0 able to prea* at ,hamburgh to ! ,engli% congregation ( ,mr4 ,rh$]1 f :om x 0 t ! fir/ h9t ( a ,revival 9 ,dundee rea*$ 8 e>s4 ,he he>d j s mu* bo? ( ,kilsy? & ,dundee z to make him long to he> m4 ,a few days aft]1 on bo>d ! vessel t convey$ u to ,engl&1 he ?us express$ 8 feel+s3-- ,sail+ up ! ,?ames1 ,nov4 #f1 #ahci4 ,,my ,,de> ,,fa!r ,,& ,,"m1--,y w be glad to see by ! date t we are once m 9 sight ( ! %ores ( happy ,engl&4 ,i only wi% ,i knew h[ y all are4 ,i h n he>d ( y s9ce ,i 0 9 ,smyrna4 ,9 va9 did ,i inquire = lett]s f y at ,crac[1 ,b]l91 & ,hamburgh4 ,y mu/ h writt5 to ,w>saw1 & ! ,resid5t !re has n return$ !m to ,b]l91 z we desir$4 ,&rew & ,i & ,mr4 ,calman are all q well1 & ?ankful to ,god1 :o has br\ght u ?r\gh e dang] 9 s _m c\ntries4 ,i tru/ our c\rse has n be5 altoge!r fruitless1 & t we may n[ resign our commission ) "s hope ( good issu+ f x to ! *ur* & to ,israel4 ,i prea*$ la/ ,sabba? 9 ,hamburgh1 = ! fir/ "t s9ce leav+ ,engl&1 & felt no?+ ! worse ( x2 s t ,i d hope x is my heav5ly ,fa!r's w to re/ore me to usefulness aga9 among my belov$ flock4 ,we h he>d some?+ ( a reviv+ "w at ,kilsy?4 ,we saw x notic$ 9 "o ( ! newspap]s4 ,i also saw ! "n ( ,dundee associat$ ) x2 s t ,i e>ne/ly hope good has be5 do+ 9 our *ur*1 & ! dew f on high wat]+ our p>i%es1 & t ! flocks ^: pa/ors h be5 w&]+ may also h %>$ 9 ! bless+4 ,we are q ignorant ( ! facts1 & y may believe we are anxi\s to he>4444 ,we are n[ pass+ ,woolwi*1 & 9 an h\r w be 9 ,london4 ,we are anxi\s to be home1 b ,i suppose w n get away till next week4 ,i nev] ?\ght to h se5 y aga9 9 ?is _w1 b n[ ,i hope to meet y once m 9 peace4--,believe me1 y\r affectionate son1 etc4 ,! day we arriv$ on ! %ores ( our own l& 0 inde$ a s+ul> day4 ,we 7 int5sely anxi\s to he> ( ev5ts t _h occurr$ at home a few mon?s be=e1--! outp\r+ ( ! ,_s f on high1--:ile our fri5ds 7 int5sely int]e/$ 9 he>+ tid+s ( ! l& ( ,israel & ! scatt]$ tribes4 ,! reception ( deputation on _! return1 & ! fruits ( _! mission1 are well kn[n1 & h be5 else:]e record$4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne li/5$ ) deepe/ int]e/ to ! acc\nts giv5 ( :at _h tak5 place 9 ,dundee dur+ ! mon? ( ,augu/1 :5 he lay at ! gates ( dea? 9 ,b\ja4 ,! ,"l _h inde$ fulfill$ 8 hopes1 & answ]$ 8 pray]s4 ,8 assi/ant1 ,mr4 ,burns1 _h be5 honor$ ( ,god to op5 ! floodgate at ,dundee z well z at ,kilsy?4 ,= "s "t be=e1 ,mr4 ,burns _h se5 symptoms ( deep] att5tion ?an usual1 & ( real anxiety 9 "s t _h hi!rto be5 c>eless4 ,b x 0 aft] 8 return f ,kilsy? t ! p began to melt be=e ! ,"l4 ,on ,?ursday1 ! second day aft] 8 return1 at ! close ( ! usual ev5+ pray]-meet+ 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 & :5 ! m9ds ( _m 7 deeply solemniz$ by ! tid+s :i* _h rea*$ !m1 he spoke a few words ab\t :at _h = "s days deta9$ him f !m1 & invit$ ^? to rema9 :o felt ! ne$ ( an outp\r+ ( ! ,_s to conv]t !m4 ,ab\t a hundr$ rema9$2 & at ! conclusion ( a solemn address to ^! anxi\s s\ls1 sudd5ly ! p[] ( ,god seem$ to desc5d1 & all 7 ba!d 9 te>s4 ,at a simil> meet+ next ev5+1 9 ! *ur*1 !re 0 mu* melt+ ( he>t & int5se desire aft] ! ,belov$ ( ! ,fa!r2 & on adj\rn+ to ! ve/ry1 ! arm ( ! ,"l 0 reveal$4 ,no soon] 0 ! ve/ry-door op5$ to admit ^? :o might feel anxi\s to conv]se1 ?an a va/ numb] press$ 9 ) awful eag]ness4 ,x 0 l a p5t-up flood break+ =?2 te>s 7 /ream+ f ! eyes ( _m1 & "s fell on ! gr\nd groan+1 & weep+1 & cry+ = m]cy4 ,onw>d f t ev5+1 meet+s 7 held e day = _m weeks1 & ! extraord9>y nature ( ! "w ju/ifi$ & call$ = extraord9>y s]vices4 ,! :ole t[n 0 mov$4 ,_m believ]s d\bt$2 ! ungodly rag$2 b ! ^w ( ,god grew mightily & prevail$4 ,in/ances occur$ :]e :ole families 7 affect$ at once1 & ea* c\ld be f\nd m\rn+ ap>t1 af=d+ a specim5 ( ! times spok5 ( by ,ze*>iah 7#ab3ab74 ,mr4 ,baxt] ( ,hillt[n1 ,mr4 ,hamilton1 !n assi/ant at ,ab]nyte1 & o!r m5 ( ,god 9 ! vic9ity1 ha/5$ to aid 9 ! "w4 ,mr4 ,roxburgh ( ,/4 ,john's1 & ,mr4 ,lewis ( ,/4 ,david's1 exam9$ ! "w imp>tially & judici\sly1 & te/ifi$ x to be ( ,god4 ,dr4 ,m',donald ( ,f]9to%1 a man ( ,god well exp]i5c$ 9 ,revivals1 came to ! spot & put to 8 seal also1 & cont9u$ 9 t[n1 prea*+ 9 ,/4 ,david's ,*ur* to ! anxi\s multitudes1 dur+ t5 days4 ,h[ _m ( ^? :o 7 ?us awfully awak5$ 7 really br\ght to ! tru?1 x 0 impossible to asc]ta94 ,:5 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne arriv$1 drop aft] drop 0 /ill fail+ f ! cl\ds4 ,su* 9 sub/ance 7 ! acc\nts he he>d be=e he rea*$ ,dundee4 ,!y 7 su* z made 8 he>t rejoice4 ,he _h no envy at ano!r in/rum5t hav+ be5 s honor$ 9 ! place :]e he himself _h labor$ ) _m te>s & temptations4 ,9 true ,*ri/ian magnanimity1 he rejoic$ t ! "w ( ! ,"l 0 done1 by :atev] h&4 ,full ( praise & wond]1 he set 8 foot once m on ! %ore ( ,dundee4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,days ,,( ,,revival4 ,!y %all spr+ up z among ! grass1 z will[s by ! wat]-c\rses--,isaiah #dd3d ,8 p1 :o _h nev] ceas$ to pray = him1 welcom$ 8 arrival among !m ) ! greate/ joy4 ,he rea*$ ,dundee on a ,?ursday aft]noon2 & 9 ! ev5+ ( ! same day1--be+ ! usual "t = pray] 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1--aft] a %ort m$itation1 he ha/5$ to ! *ur*1 !re to r5d] ?anks to ! ,"l1 & to speak once m to 8 flock4 ,! appe>ance ( ! *ur* t ev5+1 & ! aspect ( ! p1 he nev] c\ld =get4 ,_m ( 8 bre?r5 7 pres5t to welcome him1 & to he> ! fir/ words ( 8 op5$ lips4 ,!re 0 n a seat 9 ! *ur* unoccupi$1 ! passages 7 completely fill$1 & ! /airs up to ! pulpit 7 cr[d$1 on ! "o side ) ! ag$1 on ! o!r ) eag]ly-li/5+ *ildr54 ,_m a face 0 se5 anxi\sly gaz+ on _! re/or$ pa/or2 _m 7 weep+ "u ! unheal$ w\nds ( conviction2 all 7 /ill & calm1 int5sely e>ne/ to he>4 ,he gave out ,psalm #ff2 & ! mann] ( s++1 :i* _h be5 rem>k$ s9ce ! ,revival began1 appe>$ to him peculi>ly sweet1--s t5d] & affect+1 z if ! p felt t !y 7 prais+ a pres5t ,god4 ,aft] solemn pray] ) !m1 he 0 able to prea* = above an h\r4 ,n kn[+ h[ long he might be p]mitt$ to proclaim ! glad tid+s1 he seiz$ t opportunity1 n to tell ( 8 j\rney+s1 b to %[ ! way ( life to s9n]s4 ,8 subject 0 ,i ,cor4 #b4 #a-d1--! matt]1 ! mann]1 & ! accompanim5ts ( ,paul's prea*+4 ,x 0 a night to be rememb]$4 ,on com+ out ( ! *ur*1 he f\nd ! road to 8 h\se cr[d$ ) old & "y1 :o 7 wait+ to welcome him back4 ,he _h to %ake h&s ) _m at ! same "t2 & be=e ?is happy multitude w\ld disp]se1 _h to speak "s words ( life to !m aga91 & pray ) !m :]e !y /ood4 ,to ?y "n4 ,o ,"l1 said he t night1 :5 he return$ to 8 home1 ,to ?y "n1 ,o ,"l1 be all ! glory6 ,a mon? aft]w>ds1 he 0 visit$ by "o :o _h hi!rto /ood out aga9/ all ! s+ul> influ5ce ( ! ,revival1 b :o t night 0 deeply awak5$ "u 8 words1 s t ! arr[ fe/]$ 9 h] s\l1 till %e came cry+1 ,oh my h>d1 h>d he>t6 ,on ! ,sabba? he prea*$ to 8 flock 9 ! aft]noon4 ,he *ose ,,ii ,*ron4 #e3ac1 #ad1 z 8 subject2 & 9 ! close1 8 he>]s rememb] well h[ affectionately & solemnly he said3 ,de>ly belov$ & long$ =1 ,i n[ beg9 ano!r ye> ( my m9i/ry among y2 & ,i am resolv$1 if ,god give me heal? & /r5g?1 t ,i w n let a man1 woman1 or *ild among y alone1 until y h at lea/ he>d ! te/imony ( ,god conc]n+ 8 ,son1 ei!r to y\r condemnation or salvation4 ,& ,i w pray1 z ,i h done be=e1 t if ! ,"l w inde$ give u a great outp\r+ ( 8 ,_s1 ,he w d x 9 su* a way t x w be evid5t to ! weake/ *ild among y t x is ! ,"l's "w1 & n man's4 ,i ?9k ,i may say to y1 z ,ru!r=d said to 8 p1 ',y\r heav5 w\ld be two heav5s to me4' ,& if ! ,"l be pleas$ to give me a cr[n f among y1 ,i d "h promise 9 8 sight1 t ,i w ca/ x at 8 feet1 say+1 ',wor?y is ! ,lamb t 0 sla96 ,bless+1 & honor1 & glory1 & p[]1 be unto ,him t sitte? ^u ! ?rone1 & to ! ,lamb =ev] & ev]4' ,x 0 mu* fe>$ = a "t t a jeal\s _s w\ld prevail among ! p ( ,/4 ,pet]'s1 "s say+1 ,i am ( ,paul2 & o!rs1 ,i ( ,cephas4 ,^? rec5tly conv]t$ 7 apt to reg>d _! spiritual fa!r 9 a light 9 :i* !y c\ld reg>d none besides4 ,b ,mr4 ,m',*eyne _h receiv$ f ! ,"l a holy dis9t]e/$ness t suppress$ e feel+ ( envy4 ,_m wond]$ at ! s+le-he>t$ness he 0 enabl$ to exhibit4 ,he c\ld s9c]ely say1 ,i h no desire b ! salvation ( my p1 by :atev] in/rum5t4 ,nev]1 p]haps1 0 !re "o plac$ 9 bett] circum/ances = te/+ ! ,revival imp>tially1 & seldom has any ,revival be5 m fully te/$4 ,he came among a p ^: previ\s "* he knew2 he f\nd a "w wr\ght among !m dur+ 8 abs5ce1 9 :i* he _h n _h any direct %>e2 he return$ home to g out & 9 among !m1 & to be a close obs]v] ( all t _h tak5 place2 & aft] a fai?ful & pray]ful exam9ation1 he did mo/ unhesitat+ly say1 t ! ,"l _h wr\ght great ?+s1 :]e( he 0 glad2 & 9 ! case ( _m ( ^? ^: s\ls 7 sav$ 9 t ,revival1 he discov]$ rem>kable answ]s to ! pray]s ( himself1 & ( ^? :o _h come to ! tru?1 be=e he left !m4 ,he wrote to me 8 impressions ( ! "w1 :5 he _h be5 a few weeks among 8 p3-- ,dec4 #b1 #ahci4 ,rev4 ,&4 ,a4 ,bon>1 ,collace4 ,my ,de> ,a41--,i beg9 ^u note-pap]1 because ,i h no o!r on h& b our ?9 travell+ pap]4 ,i h mu* to tell y1 & to praise ! ,"l =4 ,i am griev$ to he> t !re are no m>ks ( ! ,_s's "w ab\t ,collace dur+ y\r abs5ce2 b if ,satan drive y to y\r knees1 he w soon f9d cause to rep5t x4 ,rememb] h[ fa!rs d to _! *ildr5 :5 !y ask bread4 ,h[ mu* m %all our heav5ly ,fa!r give 7,greek3 haga?a7 all good ?+s to !m t ask ,him4 ,rememb] ! rebuke :i* ,i once got f old ,mr4 ,demp/] ( ,d5ny1 aft] prea*+ to 8 p3 ',i 0 highly pleas$ ) y\r disc\rse1 b 9 pray] x /ruck me t y ?\ght ,god unwill+ to give4' ,rememb] ,daniel3 ',at ! beg9n+ ( ?y supplications ! comm&m5t came =?4' ,& d n ?9k y are =gott5 by me z long z ,i h heal? & grace to pray4 ,ev]y?+ "h ,i h f\nd 9 a /ate bett] ?an ,i expect$4 ,! night ,i arriv$ ,i prea*$ to su* a congregation z ,i nev] saw be=e4 ,i d n ?9k ano!r p]son c\ld h got into ! *ur*1 & !re 0 e sign ( ! deepe/ & t5d]e/ emotion4 ,r4 ,macdonald 0 ) me1 & pray$4 ,affliction & success 9 ! m9i/ry h taught & quick5$ him4 ,i prea*$ on ,i ,cor4 #b3a-d1 & felt :at ,i h (t5 he>d1 t x is easy to prea* :]e ! ,_s ( ,god is4 ,on ! ,friday night ,mr4 ,burns prea*$4 ,on ! ,sabba? ,i prea*$ on t wond]ful passage1 ,,ii ,*ron4 #e3ac1 #ad2 ,mr4 ,burns prea*$ twice1 morn+ & ev5+4 ,8 views ( div9e tru? are cle> & comm&+4 ,!re is a great deal ( sub/ance 9 :at he prea*es1 & 8 mann] is v p[]ful1--s mu* s1 t he sometimes made me tremble4 ,9 private he is deeply pray]ful1 & seems to feel 8 dang] ( fall+ into pride4 ,i h se5 _m ( ! awak5$1 & _m ( ! sav$2 inde$1 ?is is a pleasant place comp>$ ) :at x 0 once4 ,"s ( ! awak5$ are /ill 9 ! deepe/ anxiety & di/ress4 ,_! great error is exactly :at y\r bro!r ,horace told me4 ,!y ?9k t com+ to ,*ri/ is "s /range act ( _! m9d1 diff]5t f believ+ :at ,god has said ( 8 ,son2 s mu* s1 t !y w1 tell y ) "o brea?1 ,i believe all t4 ,god has said1 & yet ) ! next compla9 t !y _c come to ,*ri/1 or close ) ,*ri/4 ,x is v h>d to deal ) ?is delusion4 ,i f9d "s old p deeply %ak52 !y feel insecure4 ,"o confirm$ drunk>d has come to me1 & is1 ,i believe1 n[ a sav$ man4 ,"s little *ildr5 are evid5tly sav$4 ,all t ,i h yet se5 are relat$ to conv]ts ( my own4 ,"o1 elev5 ye>s old1 is a s+ul> in/ance ( div9e grace4 ,:5 ,i ask$ if %e desir$ to be made holy1 %e said1 ',inde$1 ,i (t5 wi% ,i 0 awa1 t ,i might s9 nae mair4' ,a4,l41 ( fifte51 is a f9e t5d]-he>t$ believ]4 ,w4,s41 t51 is also a happy boy4 ,_m ( my own de> *ildr5 9 ! ,"l are mu* advanc$2 mu* m full ( joy1--_! he>ts lift$ up 9 ! ways ( ! ,"l4 ,i h f\nd _m m sav+ly impress$ "u my own m9i/ry ?an ,i knew (4 ,"s h come to tell me4 ,9 "o case a :ole family sav$4 ,i h h>dly met ) any?+ to grieve me4 ,surely ! ,"l ha? dealt b\ntifully ) me4 ,i fe>1 h[ev]1 t ! great ,_s has 9 "s measure pass$ by1--,i hope soon to return 9 great] p[] ?an ev]4 ,! week meet+s are ?9n] n[4 ,i w turn two ( !m into my classes soon1 & s give solid1 regul> in/ruction1 ( :i* !y /& greatly 9 ne$4 ,i h n met ) "o case ( extravagance or false fire1 al?\gh d\btless !re may be _m4 ,at fir/ !y us$ to foll[ 9 a body to our h\se1 & expect$ _m an address & pray] by ! road4 ,!y h giv5 up ?is n[4 ,i prea*$ la/ ,sabba? twice1 fir/ on ,isaiah #bh3ad-ah1 & !n on ,rev4 #ab3aa1 ',ov]came by ! blood ( ! ,lamb4' ,x 0 a v solemn day4 ,! p will+ly sat till x 0 d>k4 ,_m make x a place ( ,bo*im4 ,/ill !re is no?+ ( ! p[] :i* has be54 ,i h tri$ to p]suade ,mr4 ,burns to /ay ) u1 & ,i ?9k he w rema9 9 ,dundee4 ,i feel fully /rong] 9 body ?an :5 ,i left y4 ,in/ead ( excit+ me1 !re is ev]y?+ to solemnize & /ill my feel+s4 ,et]nity sometimes seems v ne>4 ,i w\ld l y\r advice ab\t pray]-meet+s2 h[ to consolidate !m2 :at rules %\ld be foll[$1 if any2 :e!r !re %\ld be m]e read+ ( ! ^w & pray]1 or free conv]se also on ! passage8 ,we began to-day a m9i/]ial pray]-meet+1 to be held e ,monday at elev51 = an h\r & a half4 ,?is is a great com=t1 & may be a great bless+4 ,( c\rse we d n invite ! cold] m9i/]s2 t w\ld only damp our meet+4 ,tell me if y ?9k ?is "r4 ,& n[1 de> ,a41 ,i mu/ be done1 = x is v late4 ,may y\r p %>e 9 ! quick5+ t has come ov] ,dundee6 ,i feel x a v p[]ful argum5t ) _m3 ',w y be left dry :5 o!rs are gett+ drops ( heav5ly dew8' ,try ?is ) y\r p4 ,i ?9k x probable we %all h ano!r communion aga9 be=e ! regul> "o4 ,x seems v desirable4 ,y w come & help u2 & p]haps ,horace too4 ,i ?\ght ( com+ back by ,collace f ,errol1 if our ,glasg[ meet+ _h n come 9 ! way4 ,w y set ago+ y\r ,w$nesday meet+ aga91 imm$iately8 ,f>ewell1 de> ,a4 ',oh man1 greatly belov$1 fe> n2 peace be to !e2 be /rong2 yea1 be /rong4' ,y\rs ev]1 etc4 ,to ,mr4 ,burns he ?us expresses himself on ,decemb] #ai3 ,my de> ,bro!r1--,i %all nev] be able to ?ank y = all y\r labors among ! preci\s s\ls committ$ to me2 & :at is worse1 ,i c nev] ?ank ,god fully = 8 k9dness & grace1 :i* e day appe> to me m rem>kable4 ,he has answ]$ pray] to me 9 all t has happ5$1 9 a way :i* ,i h nev] told any "o4 ,aga91 on ! #ca/3 ,/ay :]e y are1 de> bro!r1 z long z ! ,"l has any "w = y to d4#af ,if ,i "k my own he>t1 its only desire is t ,*ri/ may be glorifi$1 by s\ls flock+ to ,him1 & abid+ 9 ,him1 & reflect+ 8 image2 & :e!r x be 9 ,p]? or ,dundee1 %\ld signify little to u4 ,y "k ,i told y my m9d pla9ly1 t ,i ?\ght ! ,"l _h s bless$ y 9 ,dundee1 t y 7 call$ to a full] & deep] "w !re2 b if ! ,"l accompanies y to o!r places1 ,i h no?+ to object4 ,! ,"l /r5g!n$ my body & s\l la/ ,sabba?1 & my _s also 0 glad4 ,! p 7 mu* alive 9 ! ,"l's s]vice4 ,b oh6 de> bro!r1 ! mo/ are ,*ri/less /ill4 ,! ri* are almo/ untr\bl$4 #af ,mr ,burns 0 at t "t 9 ,p]?1 & !re _h begun to be "s movem5t among ! dry bones4 ,8 evid5ce on ?is subject is giv5 fully 9 8 answ]s to ! qu]ies put by a ,committee ( ! ,ab]de5 ,presbyt]y2 & 9 a note to a fri5d1 he incid5tally m5tions a pleas+ result ( ?is wide-spread awak5+3 ,i f9d _m s\ls sav$ "u my own m9i/ry1 :om ,i nev] knew ( be=e4 ,!y are n afraid to come out n[1 x has become s common a ?+ to be conc]n$ ab\t ! s\l4 ,at t "t1 also1 _m came f a di/ance2 "o came f ! nor?1 :o _h be5 a ye> 9 deep di/ress ( s\l1 to seek ,*ri/ 9 ,dundee4 ,9 8 brief di>y he records1 on ,decemb] #c1 t tw5ty anxi\s s\ls _h t night be5 conv]s+ ) him2 _m ( !m v deeply int]e/+4 ,he occasionally fix$ an ev5+ = ! purpose ( meet+ ) ^? :o 7 awak5$2 & 9 "o ( 8 note-books !re are at lea/ f\r hundr$ visits record$1 made to him by inquir+ s\ls1 9 ! c\rse ( t & ! foll[+ ye>s4 ,he obs]v$1 t ^? :o _h be5 believ]s =m]ly _h got _! he>ts enl>g$1 & 7 greatly e/abli%$2 & "s seem$ able to fe$ ^u ! tru? 9 a new mann]1--z :5 "o relat$ to him h[ !re _h = "s "t appe>$ a glory 9 ! read+ ( ! ^w 9 public1 q diff]5t f read+ x alone4 ,at ! same "t he saw backslid+s1 bo? among ^? :om believ]s _h consid]$ really conv]t$1 & among ^? :o _h be5 deeply convict$1 ?\gh nev] reckon$ among ! really sav$4 ,he notes 9 8 book3 ,call$ to see ----4 ,poor lad1 he seems to h gone back f ,*ri/1 l$ away by evil company4 ,& yet ,i felt sure ( him at "o "t4 ,:at bl9d creatures m9i/]s are6 man looke? at ! outw>d appe>ance4 ,"o morn+ he 0 visit$ by "o ( 8 flock1 propos+ a conc]t = pray] on ! foll[+ ,monday1 9 behalf ( ^? :o _h fall5 back1 t ,god's ,_s might re-awak5 !m1--s obs]vant 7 ! believ]s z well z _! pa/or ( decl5sions4 ,among ^? :o 7 awak5$1 b nev] truly conv]t$1 he m5tions "o case4 ,jan4 #i1 #ahdj4--,met ) ! case ( "o :o _h be5 fright5$ dur+ ! late "w1 s t h] bodily heal? 0 injur$4 ,%e seems to h no c>e n[ ab\t h] s\l4 ,x has only fill$ h] m\? ) evil-speak+4 ,t _m1 :o promis$ fair1 drew back & walk$ no m ) ,jesus1 is true4 ,out ( ab\t #hjj s\ls :o1 dur+ ! mon?s ( ! ,revival1 conv]s$ ) diff]5t m9i/]s 9 app>5t anxiety1 no wond] surely if _m prov$ to h be5 impress$ only = a "t4 ,presid5t ,edw>ds consid]$ x likely t1 9 su* cases1 ! proportion ( real conv]sions might resemble ! proportion ( blossoms 9 spr+1 & fruit 9 autumn4 ,nor c any?+ be m unreasonable ?an to d\bt ! tru? ( all1 because ( ! deceit ( "s4 ,! _w itself does n s act 9 judg+ ( its own4 ,! _w reckons ^u ! possibility ( be+ mi/ak5 9 _m cases1 & yet does n cease to believe t !re is hone/y & tru? to be f\nd4 ,"o ( !mselves1 a poet ( _! own1 has said ) no less ju/ice ?an beauty-- ,angels are bright /ill1 ?\gh ! brighte/ fell2 ,& ?\gh f\l ?+s put on ! br[s ( grace1 ,yet grace mu/ /ill look s4 ,b1 above all1 we h ! au?ority ( ! ^w ( ,god1 decl>+ t su* backslid+s are ! v te/s ( ! true *ur*3 ,= !re mu/ be also h]esies among y1 t !y :i* are approv$ may be made manife/ among y1 ,i ,cor4 #aa3ai4 ,x is n1 h[ev]1 meant t any :o _h really believ$ w5t back to p]dition4 ,on ! contr>y1 x is ! cre$ ( e s\nd evangelical *ur*1 t ^? :o d g back to p]dition 7 p]sons :o nev] really believ$ 9 ,jesus4 ,_! eyes may h be5 op5$ to see ! dread realities ( s9 & ( ! wra? to come2 b if !y saw n righte\sness = _! guilty s\ls 9 ! ,savi\r1 !re is no?+ 9 all ,scripture to make u expect t !y w cont9ue awake4 ,awake1 !m t sleepe/1 & ,*ri/ w give !e light1 is ! call--invit+ s9n]s to a po9t f> beyond m]e conviction4 ,"o :o1 = a :ole ye>1 w5t back to folly1 said3 ',y\r s]mon on ! corruption ( ! he>t made me despair1 & s ,i gave myself up to my old ways--att5d+ dances1 le>n+ songs1 etc4 ,a k ( our guilt1 & a s5se ( dang]1 w n ( !mselves keep u f fall+2 nay1 ^!1 if alone1 may 7z 9 ! above case7 ?ru/ u d[n ! slipp]y places4 ,we are truly secure only :5 our eye is on ,jesus1 & our h& lock$ 9 8 h&4 ,s t ! hi/ory ( backslid+s1 in/ead ( lead+ u to d\bt ! reality ( grace 9 believ]s1 w only be f\nd to tea* u two great lessons1 viz4 ! va/ importance ( press+ imm$iate salvation on awak5$ s\ls1 & ! reasonabl5ess ( /&+ 9 d\bt ( all1 h[ev] deep _! convictions1 :o h n truly fl$ to ! hope set be=e !m4 ,!re 0 ano!r gr\nd ( prejudice aga9/ ! :ole "w1 aris+ f ! circum/ance t ! ,"l _h employ$ 9 x "y m5 n long engag$ 9 ! "w ( ! m9i/ry1 r ?an ! fa!rs 9 ,israel4 ,b h]e9 x 0 t sov]eign grace %one =? ! m conspicu\sly4 ,d su* objectors suppose t ,god ev] int5ds ! honor ( man 9 a "w ( ,revival8 ,is x n ! honor ( 8 own "n t ,he seeks8 ,_h x be5 8 wi% to give ! glory to man at all1 !n inde$ x might h be5 ask$1 ,:y does ,he pass by ! old] pa/ors1 & call = ! inexp]i5c$ y\?8 ,b :5 sov]eign grace 0 com+ to bless a region 9 ! way t w\ld r$\nd mo/ to ! glory ( ! ,"l1 c we conceive a wis] plan ?an to use ! sl+ ( ,david 9 br++ d[n ! ,phili/9e8 ,if1 h[ev]1 !re be "s ^: prejudice is f ! root ( envy1 let su* he> ! remon/rance ( ,ri*>d ,baxt] to ! jeal\s m9i/]s ( 8 day4 ,:at6 malign ,*ri/ 9 gifts = :i* ,he %\ld h ! glory1 & all because !y seem to h9d] our glory6 ,does n e man owe ?anks to ,god = 8 bre?r5's gifts1 n only z hav+ himself "p 9 !m1 z ! foot has ! b5efit ( ! guidance ( ! eye1 b also because 8 own ends may be atta9$ by 8 bre?r5's gifts z well z by 8 own8444 ,a fe>ful ?+ t any man1 t ha? ! lea/ ( ! fe> ( ,god1 %\ld s envy at ,god's gifts1 t he w\ld r 8 c>nal he>]s 7 unconv]t$1 & ! dr[sy n awak5$1 ?an t x %\ld be done by ano!r :o may be pref]r$ be=e !m4#ag #ag ,re=m$ ,pa/or1 #d3b4 ,! "w ( ! ,_s w5t on1 ! /ream fl[+ g5tly2 = ! heavy %[]s _h fall51 & ! ov]fl[+ ( ! wat]s _h pass$ by4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne became m ?an ev] vigilant & discrim9at+ 9 deal+ ) s\ls4 ,obs]v+1 also1 t "s 7 influ5c$ m by feel+s ( /rong atta*m5t to _! pa/or p]sonally1 ?an by ! p[] ( ! tru?s he prea*$1 he became m res]v$ 9 8 deal+s ) !m1 s t "s ?\ght !re 0 a little coldness or repulsiv5ess 9 8 mann]4 ,if !re did appe> any?+ ( ?is nature to "s1 c]ta9ly x 0 no indication ( dim9i%$ compassion2 b1 on ! contr>y1 proce$$ f a scrupul\s anxiety to gu>d o!rs aga9/ ! deceitful feel+s ( _! own s\ls4 ,a few notes ( 8 "w occur at ?is p]iod4 ,nov4 #bg1 #ahci4--;,a pleasant meet+ 9 ! ,cross ,*ur* on ,w$nesday la/1 = ! seam54 ,all t spoke seem$ to honor ! ,savi\r4 ,i _h to move ?anksgiv+ to ,god = 8 m]cies4 ,?is has be5 a real bless+ to ,dundee4 ,x %\ld n be =gott5 9 our pray]s & ?anksgiv+s4 ,nov4 #bh1 ,?ursday ev5+4--,mu* com=t 9 speak+4 ,!re 0 (t5 an awful /illness4 ,spoke on ,j]4 #f3ad3 ',!y h heal$ also ! hurt ( ! daught] ( my p slightly4' etc4 ,dec4 #a4--,?is ev5+ came a t5d] ,*ri/ian1 s f> z ,i c see2 an exposition ( t text1 ',i w g s(tly1' or ( t o!r1 ',?\ %all n op5 ?y m\? any m4' ,a *ild ( %ame made "o ( honor4 ,h] si/] 0 awak5$ "u ,mr4 ,baxt]'s words 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 ( :om he ask$1 ',w\ld y l to be holy8' ,%e repli$1 ',inde$1 ,i (t5 wi% ,i 7 dead t ,i might s9 no m4' ,dec4 #c4--,prea*$ six times )9 ^! two days4 ,dec4 #h4--,saw ,j4,t4 9 fev]4 ,%e seems really 9 ,*ri/ n[2 tells me h[ deeply my words sank into h] s\l :5 ,i 0 away4 ,a4,m4 /ay$ to tell me h] joy4 ,j4,b4 walk$ home ) me1 tell+ me :at ,god _h done = 8 s\l1 :5 "o day ,i _h /opp$ at ! qu>ry on acc\nt ( a %[] ( ra91 & took %elt] ) my pony 9 ! eng9e-h\se4 ,he _h simply po9t$ to ! fire ( ! furnace1 & said1 ,:at does t rem9d y (8 & ! words _h rema9$ deep 9 ! man's s\l4 ,dec4 #aa4--;,a woman awak5$ t night ,i prea*$ 9 ,j4,d4's gre51 ab\t two ye>s ago1 on ,ezek4 #bj3dc4 ,= tw5ty ye>s %e _h be5 out ( *ur* privileges1 & n[1 = ! fir/ "t1 came trembl+ to ask re/oration4 ,surely ,immanuel is 9 ?is place1 & ev5 old s9n]s are flock+ to ,him4 ,i h got an acc\nt ( ab\t tw5ty pray]-meet+s connect$ ) my flock4 ,_m op5 ones2 _m fell[%ip meet+s2 only "o or two h any?+ l exhortation sup]add$ to ! ^w4 ,^!1 ,i ?9k1 x mu/ be our c>e to *ange1 if possible1 le/ error & pride creep 94 ,! only o!r difficulty is ?is4 ,9 two ( ! female meet+s1 orig9ally fell[%ip meet+s1 anxi\s female inquir]s h be5 admitt$4 ,!y d n pray1 b only he>4 ,9 "o1 ,m4 & ,j4 _h felt ! ris+ ( pride to a great degree2 9 ! o!r1 ,m4 c\ld n be p]suad$ t !re 0 any dang] ( pride4 ,?is case w require pray]ful delib]ation4 ,my m9d at pres5t is1 t !re is great dang] f x1 ! pray+ memb]s feel+ !mselves on a diff]5t level f ! o!rs1 & any?+ l female tea*+1 z a public tea*]1 seems cle>ly condemn$ 9 ! ^w ( ,god4 ,dec4 #ab4--;,felt v feeble all day1 & z if ,i c\ld n d any m "w 9 ! v9ey>d4 ,ev5+4--,felt m ( ! reality ( ,immanuel's int]cession4 ,! p also 7 evid5tly subdu$ by m ?an a human te/imony4 ,"o s\l wait$1 sobb+ mo/ pite\sly4 ,%e c\ld give no m acc\nt ( h]self ?an t %e 0 a s9n]1 & did n believe t ,god w\ld be m]ciful to h]4 ,:5 ,i %[$ h[ ,i f\nd m]cy1 h] only answ] 01 ',b y 7 n sic a s9n] z me4' ,dec4 #ah4--,w5t to ,glasg[ along ) ,a4,b4 ,prea*$ 9 ,/4 ,george's to a full audi5ce1 9 ! cause ( ! ,jews4 ,felt real help 9 "t ( ne$4 ,?is 0 "o ( 8 _m j\rneys f place to place 9 behalf ( ,israel1 relat+ ! ?+s se5 & he>d among ! ,jews ( ,pale/9e & o!r l&s4 ,dec4 #bb4--,prea*$ 9 ,&]/on ,*ur*1 ) a good deal ( inw>d peace & com=t4 ,dec4 #bc4--;,int]e/+ meet+ ) ! ,jewi% ,committee4 ,9 ! ev5+ met a numb] ( ,god's p4 ,! horror ( "s good p 9 ,glasg[ at ! mill5>ian views is v great1 :ile at ! same "t _! objections appe> v weak4 ,dec4 #ca4--,"y communicants4 ,two h made application to be admitt$ "u elev5 ye>s ( age2 f\r t are only f\rte52 ?ree :o are fifte5 or sixte54 ,jan4 #a1 #ahdj4--;,awoke e>ly by ! k9d provid5ce ( ,god1 & _h uncommon fre$om & f]v5cy 9 keep+ ! conc]t = pray] ?is morn+ be=e light4 ,v t\*+ int]view ) ,m4,p41 :o /ill refuses to be com=t$4 ,0 enabl$ to cry aft] a glori\s ,immanuel along ) h]4 ,h[ ,i wi% ,i _h h] bitt] convictions ( s96 ,ano!r call$ ?is ev5+1 :o says %e 0 awak5$ & br\ght to ,*ri/ dur+ ! s]mon on ! morn+ ( ,decemb] #a/1 on ! ',cov5ant ) dea?4' ,gave cle> answ]s1 b seems too unmov$ = "o really *ang$4 ,jan4 #b4--,visit$ six families4 ,0 refre%$ & solemniz$ at ea* ( !m4 ,spoke ( ! ,^w made fle%1 & ( all ! pa?s ( ! ,"l be+ m]cy & tru?4 ,visit$ 9 ! ev5+ by "s int]e/+ s\ls3 "o a believ+ little boy2 ano!r compla9+ %e _c come to ,*ri/ = ! h>dness ( h] he>t2 ano!r once awak5$ "u my m9i/ry1 aga9 ?or\ghly awak5$ & br\ght to ,*ri/ "u ,horace ,bon>'s s]mon at ! ,communion4 ,%e is ! only sav$ "o 9 h] family1--awfully p]secut$ by fa!r & "m4 ,"l1 /& up = ?9e own6 ,make kn[n1 by _! con/ancy "u suff]+1 ! p[] & beauty ( ?y grace6 ,ev5+4--,mr4 ,mill] prea*$ delightfully on ',! love ( ,*ri/ con/ra9e? u4' ,8 acc\nt ( ! ,prote/ants ( ,france 0 v int]e/+3 ! "w ( ,god at ,nismes1 :]e x is said !y are no m fi%+ ) l9e1 b dragg+ ) ! nets4 ,read a lett] f ,mr4 ,cumm+1 describ+ ! "w at ,p]?1 & entreat+ ! pray]s ( ,god's *ildr54 ,?is la/ ref]5ce is to ! awak5+ :i* took place 9 ,/4 ,leon>d's ,*ur*1 ,p]?1 on ! la/ night ( ! ye>1 :5 ,mr4 ,burns1 along ) _! pa/or1 ,mr4 ,milne1 0 prea*+4 ,mr4 ,b4 _h int5d$ to return to ,dundee = ! ,sabba?1 b 0 deta9$ by ! pla9 indications ( ! ,"l's pres5ce4 ,at "o meet+ ! "w 0 s glori\s1 t "o night ab\t #aej p]sons at "o "t seem$ b[$ d[n "u a s5se ( _! guilt1 & above #bjj came next day to ! *ur* 9 ! =5oon to conv]se ab\t _! s\ls4 ,?is awak5+ 0 ! comm5cem5t ( a solid "w ( grace1 bo? 9 t t[n & its neighborhood1 mu* fruit ( :i* is to be f\nd !re at ?is day 9 s\ls t are walk+ 9 ! fe> ( ! ,"l1 & ! com=t ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,& x 0 9 ! spr+ ( ?is same ye> t 9 ,collace1 at our weekly pray]-meet+1 :5 two bre?r5 7 m9i/]+1 we receiv$ a bless$ %[] f ! ,"l4 ,8 ,j\rnal proce$s3-- ,jan4 #c4--;,an inquir] came1 awak5$ "u my m9i/ry two ye>s & a half ago4 ,jan4 #e4--,two came2 ,m4,b4 sorely w\nd$ ) ! =5oon's disc\rse4 ,jan4 #ab4--;,intimat$ a conc]t = pray]1 t unwor?y communicants might be kept back1 ! ,"l's *ildr5 prep>$ = ! fea/1 & m9i/]s furni%$ f on high4 ,jan4 #ac4--,kept conc]t ( pray] ?is morn+ ) my de> p4 ,did n f9d ! same enl>gem5t z usual4 ,m>* #e4 ,?ursday ev5+4--,prea*$ on ,ze*4 #c4--;,jo%ua4 ,0 l$ to speak se>*+ly ab\t mak+ ,*ri/ ! m9i/] ( s94 ,"o "y woman cri$ al\d v bitt]ly4 ,m4,b4 came to tell me t poor ,m4 is l to h h] life tak5 away by h] p>5ts4 ,a "y woman also1 :o is /ill conc]n$ & p]secut$ by h] fa!r4 ,a "y man came to tell me t he _h f\nd ,*ri/4 ,roll on1 ?\ riv] ( life6 visit e dwell+6 save a multitude ( s\ls4 ,come1 ,holy ,_s6 come quickly6 ,m>* #be4--,la/ night at ,=f> speak+ = ,israel to a small b& ( fri5ds ( ! ,jews4 ,fe>fully wick$ place2 ! cry ( x asc5ds up be=e ,god l t ( ,sodom4 ,m>* #ca4--,met ) "y communicants on ,w$nesday & ,friday4 ,on ! latt] night especially1 v deep feel+1 manife/$ 9 sobb+s4 ,visits ( sev]al4 ,"o cle> *ild n9e ye>s old4 ,sick-b$4 ,april #a4--,presbyt]y day4 ,pass$ ! con/itution ( two new *ur*es1--bless$ be ,god6 may ,he raise up fai?ful pa/ors = !m bo?1--,dudhope & ,wallace-,feus4 ,proposal also = ! ,m>9]'s ,*ur*4 ,a fa/-day fix$ = ! pres5t /ate ( ! *ur*4 ,april #e1 ,sabba? ev5+4--,spoke to tw5ty-f\r "y p]sons1 "o by "o2 almo/ all affect$ ab\t _! s\ls4 ,april #f4--,lovely ride & m$itation 9 a retir$ grove4 ,april #g4--;,impress$ to-night ) ! complete necessity ( prea*+ to my p 9 _! own lanes & closes2 9 no o!r way w ,god's ^w ev] rea* !m4 ,to-night spoke 9 ,/4 ,&rew's ,*ur* to a v cr[d$ assembly 9 behalf ( ,israel4 ,0 help$ to speak pla9ly to _! own consci5ces4 ,"l1 bless x6 ,%ake ?is t[n6 ,april #ac4--,spoke 9 private to ne>ly ?irty "y communicants1 all 9 "o room1 go+ r\nd ea*1 & advis+ = ! b5efit ( all4 ,april #bb4--,rode to ,collessie 7,fife7 & ,kirkcaldy4 ,sweet "t alone 9 ,collessie woods4 ,july #cj4--,"o lad came to me 9 great di/ress1 wi%+ to "k if he %\ld confess 8 little di%one/ies to 8 ma/]4 ,ab\t ?is "t1 he has not$ d[n1 ,i 0 visit+ ! o!r day1 & came to a lock$ door4 ,:at did ?is mean8 ',torm5t me n1 torm5t me n6' ,ah1 ,satan is mighty /ill6--ref]r+ to ,m>k #e3g4 ,a few ( 8 ,communion seasons are record$4 ,we c\ld h desir$ a record ( !m all4 ,! fir/ ( :i* he has detail$ any p>ticul>s1 is ! "o he enjoy$ soon aft] return+ home4 ,jan4 #ai1 #ahdj4--,/ormy morn+1 ) gu%+ torr5ts ( ra91 b cle>$ up 9 answ] to pray]4 ,sweet union 9 pray] ) ,mr4 ,cumm+1 & aft]w>ds ) ,a4 ,bon>1 ,f\nd ,god 9 secret4 ,ask$ especially t ! v sight ( ! brok5 bread & p\r$-out w9e might be bless$ to "s s\ls1 !n pride w be hidd5 f man4 ,*ur* well fill$--_m /&+4 ,prea*$ ! action s]mon on ,john #ag3bd1 ',fa!r1 ,i w1' etc4 ,_h consid]able ne>ness to ,god 9 pray]--m ?an usual1--& also fre$om 9 prea*+1 al?\gh ,i 0 a%am$ ( su* poor views ( ,*ri/'s glory4 ,! p 7 9 a v desirable frame ( att5tion--hang+ on ! ^w4 ,felt great help 9 f5c+ ! tables f ,acts #e3c1 ',ly+ to ! ,holy ,gho/4' ,came d[n & s]v$ ! fir/ table ) mu* m calmness & collect$ness ?an ev] ,i rememb] to h enjoy$4 ,enjoy$ a sweet season :ile ,a4,b4 s]v$ ! next table4 ,he dwelt *iefly on believ+ ! words ( ,*ri/ ab\t 8 fulness1 & ! promise ( ! ,fa!r4 ,!re 7 six tables altoge!r4 ,! p m & m mov$ to ! end4 ,at ! la/ table1 e head seem$ b5t l a bulru% :ile ,a4,b4 spoke ( ! asc5sion ( ,*ri/4 ,help$ a little 9 ! address4 ',n[ to ,him :o is able to keep y1' etc41 & 9 ! conclud+ pray]4#ah ,"o little boy1 9 retir+1 said1 ',?is has be5 ano!r bonnie day4' ,_m ( ! little ones seem$ deeply att5tive4 ,mr4 ,cumm+ & ,mr4 ,burns prea*$ 9 ! s*ool ! mo/ ( ! day4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,mr4 ,c4 prea*$ on ! ,pill> ,cl\d on e dwell+1 ,isaiah #d3e "s v sweet p[]ful words4 ,mr4 ,burns prea*$ 9 ! s*oolroom4 ,:5 ! *ur* empti$ a congregation =m$ 9 ! l[] s*ool1 & began to s+4 ,sang sev]al psalms ) !m1 & spoke on ',behold ,i /& at ! door4' ,go+ home1 ,a4,l4 said ',pray = me2 ,i am q happy1 & s is ,h4' ,altoge!r a day ( ! revelation ( ,*ri/1--a sweet day to myself1 &1 ,i am p]suad$1 to _m s\ls4 ,"l1 make u meet = ! table above4 #ah ,see ! ,rema9s1 = "s ( t day's solemn words4 ,ano!r ( ^! ,communion seasons record$1 is ,april #ahdj4 ,sabba? #ai4--,sweet & preci\s day4 ,prea*$ action s]mon on ,ze*4 #ab3aj1 #ac3a4 ,a good deal assi/$4 ,also 9 f5c+ ! tables1 on ,ps4 #aci41 ',se>* me1 ,o ,god4' ,less at s]v+ ! tables on ',i w betro? !e1' & ',to him t ov]come?2' ?\gh ! ?anksgiv+ 0 sweet4 ,communicat$ ) calm joy4 ,old ,mr4 ,burns s]v$ two tables2 ,h4 ,bon> five4 ,!re 0 a v melt+ frame visible among ! p4 ,help$ a good deal 9 ! address on ',my %eep he> my voice4' ,aft] sev5 be=e all 0 ov]4 ,met be=e eight4 ,old ,mr4 ,burns prea*$ on ',a ^w 9 season4' ,gave ?ree p>t+ texts1 & s conclud$ ?is bless$ day4 ,_m 7 fill$ ) joy unspeakable & full ( glory4 ,monday1 #bj4--,mr4 ,gri]son prea*$ on ',ye are come to ,m\nt ,zion1'--an in/ructive ^w4 ,pleasant walk ) ,h4,b4 ,ev5+ s]mon f him to ! little *ildr5 on ! 'new he>t1'--truly delightful4 ,pray]-meet+ aft]4 ,i began2 !n old ,mr4 ,burns1 !n ,horace1 9 a v lively mann]1 on ! 'woman ( ,sam>ia4' ,! p 7 br\ght into a v t5d] frame4 ,aft] ! bless+1 a multitude rema9$4 ,"o 7,a4,n47 0 l a p]son /ruck ?r\gh ) a d>t1 %e c\ld nei!r /& nor g4 ,_m 7 look+ on h] ) faces ( horror4 ,o!rs 7 com=t+ h] 9 a v k9d mann]1 bidd+ h] look to ,jesus4 ,mr4 ,burns w5t to ! desk1 & told !m ( ,kilsy?4 ,/ill !y w\ld n g away4 ,spoke a few words m to ^? ar\nd me1 tell+ !m ( ! lovel9ess ( ,*ri/1 & ! h>dness ( _! he>ts1 t !y c\ld be s unmov$ :5 "o 0 s deeply w\nd$4 ,! sobb+ soon spread1 till _m heads 7 b5t d[n1 & ! *ur* 0 fill$ ) sobb+4 ,_m :om ,i did n "k 7 n[ affect$4 ,aft] pray]1 we dismiss$1 ne> midnight4 ,_m foll[$ u4 ,"o1 9 great agony1 pray$ t %e might f9d ,*ri/ t v night4 ,s ends ?is bless$ season4 ,! pray]-meet+ on ! ,monday ev5+ foll[+ ! ,communion 0 g5]ally enjoy$ by all ! ,"l's p1 & by ! m9i/]s :o assi/$1 9 a peculi> mann]4 ,(t5 all felt ! la/ day ( ! fea/ to be ! great day4 ,s\ls t _h be5 enjoy+ ! fea/ 7 !n1 at its conclusion1 tak+ hold on ! arm ( ! ,belov$ 9 ! prospect ( go+ up ?r\gh ! wild]ness4 ,! only notice ( 8 la/ ,communion1 ,janu>y #a1 #ahdc1 is ! foll[+3--,sabba?4--,a happy communion season4 ,mr4 ,w4 ,burns prea*$ on ,tuesday1 ,w$nesday1 & ,?ursday ev5+s--! fir/ & la/ v solemn4 ,mr4 ,baxt] 7( ,hillt[n ,*ur*7 on ! ,friday4 ,a4 ,bon> on ,saturday1 on ,rom4 #h3--,! _s ( adoption4 ,i fa9t$ on ! ,sabba? morn+1 b reviv$1 & got grace & /r5g? to prea* on ,i ,tim4 #a3af--,paul's conv]sion a patt]n4 ,!re 7 five tables4 ,_m godly /rang]s1 & a v desirable frame obs]vable 9 ! p4 ',:ile ! k+ sitte? at 8 table1 my spik5>d s5de? out ! smell !re(4' ,mu* s9 0 cov]$4 ,he re/ore? my s\l4 ,monday1 #b4--,mr4 ,milne 7( ,p]?7 prea*$ on ',hold fa/ t ?\ ha/2' & 9 ! ev5+1 to ! *ildr51 on ,jo%4 #bd4--';,*oose ye ?is day :om ye w s]ve4' ,&rew & ,i conclud$ ) ,rev4 #e--',?\ ha/ r$eem$ u1' etc41 & ,i ,cor4 #ae4--';,be /$fa/1' etc4 ,he disp5s$ ! ,"l's ,supp] to 8 flock e qu>t]2 & ?\gh on ?is acc\nt 8 calls ^u 8 bre?r5 = help 7 frequ5t1 yet nev] did a bro!r reckon x any?+ else ?an a bless$ privilege to be ) him4 ,8 fir/ invitation to 8 fri5d ,mr4 ,hamilton 7!n at ,ab]nyte7 w %[ ! nature ( ! int]c\rse t subsi/$ betwe5 him & 8 bre?r5 :o gave _! s]vices on ^! occasions3--,my de> ,fri5d4--,w y excuse lack ( c]emony1 & come d[n to-morr[ & prea* to u ! unse>*able ri*es ( ,*ri/8 ,we h ! communion on ,sabba?4 ,we h no fa/-day1 b only a meet+ 9 ! ev5+ at a qu>t] pa/ sev54 ,come1 my de> sir1 if y c1 & refre% u ) y\r company4 ,br+ ! fragrance ( '! bundle ( myrrh' along ) y1 & may grace be p\r$ into y\r lips4 ,y\rs ev]4 7,jan4 #ae4 #ahdj47 ,soon aft] 8 return f 8 mission to ! ,jews1 a m9i/]ial pray]-meet+ 0 =m$ among "s ( ! bre?r5 9 ,dundee4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne took "p 9 x1 along ) ,mr4 ,lewis ( ,/4 ,david's1 ,mr4 ,baxt] ( ,hillt[n1 ,mr4 ,p4,l4 ,mill]1 aft]w>ds ( ,wallacet[n1 & o!rs4 ,feel+ deep conc]n = ! salvation ( ! s\ls "u _! c>e1 !y met e ,monday =5oon1 to pray toge!r = _! flocks & _! own s\ls4 ,! "t ( ! meet+ 0 limit$ to an h\r & a half1 9 ord] t all :o att5d$ might =m _! pa/oral arrangem5ts = ! day1 )\t fe> ( be+ h9d]$2 &1 9 addition to pray]1 ^? pres5t conv]s$ on "s select$ topic1 vitally connect$ ) _! duties z m9i/]s ( ,*ri/4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 nev] abs5t f ?is pray]-meet+ unless ?r\gh absolute necessity1 & ! bre?r5 sc>cely rememb] any occasion on :i* "s important rem>k did n drop f 8 lips4 ,he himself reap$ great pr(it f x4 ,he notes1 ,dec4 #h3 ,?is has be5 a deeply int]e/+ week4 ,on ,monday our m9i/]ial pray]-meet+ 0 set ago+ 9 ,/4 ,david's ve/ry4 ,! he>ts ( all seem really 9 e>ne/ 9 x4 ,! ,"l answ]s pray]2 may x be a great bless+ to our s\ls & to our flocks4 ,ano!r "t3 ,meet+ 9 ,/4 ,david's ve/ry4 ,! subject ( fa/+ 0 spok5 ^u4 ,felt exce$+ly 9 my own _s h[ little we feel real grief on acc\nt ( s9 be=e ,god1 or we w\ld (t5 lose our appetite = food4 ,:5 p>5ts lose a *ild1 !y (t5 d n ta/e a bit f morn+ to night1 out ( pure grief4 ,%\ld we n m\rn z = an only *ild8 ,h[ little ( ! _s ( grace & supplication we h !n6 ,on ,dec4 #cj3 ,pleasant meet+ ( m9i/]s4 ,_m delightful texts on ',argum5ts to be us$ ) ,god 9 pray]4' ,h[ little ,i h us$ ^!6 ,%\ld we n /udy pray] m8 ,full z he 0 ( affection & ,*ri/ian k9dness to all believ]s1 he 0 specially s to ! fai?ful bre?r5 9 ! gospel ( ,*ri/4 ,p]haps !re nev] 0 "o :o m c>efully wat*$ aga9/ ! dang] ( und]valu+ preci\s m51 & detract+ f a bro!r's "*4 ,al?\gh naturally ambiti\s1 grace s wr\ght 9 him1 t he nev] s\ght to br+ himself into view2 & mo/ *e]fully w\ld he obs]ve & take notice ( ! graces & gifts ( o!rs4 ,:o is !re ( u t %\ld ev] feel o!rwise8 ,= ! body is n "o memb]1 b _m4 ,& ! eye _c say unto ! h&1 ,i h no ne$ ( !e2 nor1 aga91 ! head to ! feet1 ,i h no ne$ ( y4 ,all ) :om he 0 intimate /ill rememb] ) gratitude h[ fai?fully & anxi\sly he us$ to w>n 8 fri5ds ( :atev] he appreh5d$ !y 7 9 dang] f4 ,to ,mr4 ,w4,c4 ,burns he wrote1 ,dec4 #ca1 #ahci3 ,n[1 ! ,"l be y\r /r5g?1 tea*]1 & guide4 ,i *>ge y1 be clo!d ) humility1 or y w yet be a w&]+ />1 = :i* is res]v$ ! blackness ( d>kness =ev]4 ,let ,*ri/ increase2 let man decrease4 ,?is is my con/ant pray] = myself & y4 ,if y lead s9n]s to y\rself & n to ,*ri/1 ,immanuel w ca/ ! /> out ( 8 "r h& into utt] d>kness4 ,rememb] :at ,i said ( prea*+ out ( ! ,scriptures3 honor ! ^w bo? 9 ! matt] & mann]4 ,d n cease to pray = me4 ,at ano!r "t 7,novemb] #c1 #ahda71 he ?us wrote to ! same fri5d3 ,n[ rememb] ,moses wi/ n t ! sk9 ( 8 face %one4 ,look+ at our own %9+ face is ! bane ( ! spiritual life & ( ! m9i/ry4 ,oh = close/ communion ) ,god1 till s\l & body--head1 face1 & he>t--%9e ) div9e brilliancy6 b oh = a holy ignorance ( our %9+6 ,pray = ?is2 = y ne$ x z well z ,i4 ,to ano!r fri5d 9 ! m9i/ry :o _h writt5 to him despond+ly ab\t 8 p & ! times1 8 reply 01 ,i am sure !re nev] 0 a "t :5 ! ,_s ( ,god 0 m pres5t 9 ,scotl&1 & x does n become y to murmur 9 y\r t5ts1 b r to give ?anks4 ,rememb]1 we may grieve ! ,_s z truly by n joyfully ackn[l$g+ 8 wond]s z by n pray+ = ,him4 ,!re is ! cle>e/ evid5ce t ,god is sav+ s\ls 9 ,kilsy?1 ,dundee1 ,p]?1 ,collace1 ,blairg[rie1 ,/ra?bogie1 ,ross-%ire1 ,breadalbane1 ,kelso1 ,j$burgh1 ,ancrum2 & surely x becomes u to say1 ',i ?ank my ,god ^u e remembrance ( y4' ,=give my presumption2 b ,i fe> le/ y hurt y\r own peace & usefulness 9 n prais+ ,god en\gh = ! op]ation ( 8 h&s4 ,to ano!r3 ,i h told y t y ne$$ trial1 & n[ x is come4 ,may y be ex]cis$ !reby1 & come to t happy 'aft]w>ds' ( :i* ! apo/le speaks1 ,to ! same aga9 ,rememb] ! necessity ( y\r own s\l1 & d n gr[ slack or lean 9 fe$+ o!rs4 ',m9e own v9ey>d h ,i n kept4' ,ah1 take he$ ( t6 ,& 9 a simil> tone ( fai?fulness at an aft] p]iod3 ,rememb] ! case ( y\r own s\l4 ',:at w x pr(it a man to ga9 ! :ole _w & lose 8 own s\l8' ,rememb] h[ (t5 ,paul appeals to 8 holy1 j1 unblameable life4 ,oh t we may be able always to d ! same6 ,rememb] ! prim+-knife1 he says to ano!r1 & d n let y\r v9e run to wood4 ,& aft] a visit to ,mr4 ,?ornton ( ,milna?ort1 9 ^: p>i% !re _h be5 an awak5+1 he asks a bro!r1 ,mr4 ,?ornton is will+ t o!rs be bless$ m ?an himself2 d y ?9k t y h t grace8 ,i f9d t ,i am nev] s successful z :5 ,i c lie at ,*ri/'s feet1 will+ to be us$ or n z seeme? good 9 8 sight4 ,d y rememb] ,david8 ',if ! ,"l say1 ,i h no delight 9 !e2 behold1 "h am ,i2 let ,him d to me z seeme? good unto ,him4' ,9 8 famili> lett]s1 z 9 8 life1 !re 0 ! manife/ation ( a bright1 *e]ful s\l1 )\t ! lea/ t5d5cy to levity4 ,:5 8 m$ical att5dant _h1 on "o occasion1 decl9$ any remun]ation1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne p]emptorily oppos$ 8 purpose2 & to ov]come 8 reluctance1 return$ ! inclosure 9 a lett]1 9 :i* he us$ 8 poetical gifts ) mo/ pleasant humor4 ,to _m x 0 a subject ( wond] t he f\nd "t to write lett]s t always brea!d ! "n ( ,jesus1 amid 8 innum]able engagem5ts4 ,b ! tru? 01 8 lett]s co/ him no exp5diture ( "t2 !y 7 ev] ! fre% ?\ghts & feel+s ( 8 s\l at ! mom5t he took up ! p52 8 habitual frame ( s\l is :at appe>s 9 !m all2 ! calm1 holy1 t5d]ly affectionate /yle ( 8 lett]s rem9ds u ( ,samuel ,ru!r=d1 ^: works he delight$ to read1--except+ only t 8 joy nev] seems to h ris5 to ec/asies4 ,! selection ( 8 lett]s :i* ,i h made = publication1 may exhibit some:at ( 8 holy skill 9 dropp+ a ^w = 8 ,ma/] on all occasions4 ,b :at impress$ _m yet m1 0 8 mann] ( introduc+ ! tru?1 mo/ naturally & /rik+ly1 ev5 9 ! %orte/ note he p5n$2 & !re 0 some?+ s elegant1 z well z solemn1 9 8 few words at ! close ( "s ( 8 lett]s1 t ^! rema9$ deep 9 ! receiv]'s he>t4 ,writ+ to ,mr4 ,g4,s41 on ,july #bh1 #ahda1 he ?us draws to a close3 ,rememb] me to ,h4,t4 ,i pray he may be kept abid+ 9 ,*ri/4 ,k9de/ reg>ds to 8 "m4 ,say to h] f me1 ',pass ! "t ( y\r soj\rn+ "h 9 fe>1 =asmu* z ye "k ye 7 n r$eem$ ) corruptible ?+s su* z silv] & gold' 7,i ,pet] #a3ag1 #ah74 ,keep y\r own he>t1 de> bro!r1 '9 ! love ( ,god' 7,jude #ba7--;9 8 love to y1 & t w draw y\r love to ,him4 ,k9de/ remembrances to y\r bro!r4 ,say to him1 ',be sob] & hope to ! end' 7,i ,pet] #a3ac74 ,to y\r own de> "m say1 ',he do? n afflict will+ly4' ,write me soon4--,ev] y\rs1 till "t %all be no m4 ,9 a note to ! memb]s ( 8 own family3 ,! ,tay is be=e me n[ l a respl5d5t mirror1 gli/5+ 9 ! morn+ sun4 ,may ! same sun %9e sweetly on y1 & may ,he t makes x %9e1 %9e into y\r he>ts to give y ! k ( ! glory ( ,god 9 ! face ( ,jesus ,*ri/4--,9 ha/e1 y\r affectionate son & bro!r4 ,!re 7 (t5 su* la/ words z ! foll[+3 ,oh = drops 9 ! pa/ures ( ! wild]ness6 ,! smiles ( ,jesus be ) y1 & ! brea?+s ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,ev] y\rs4 7,to ,rev4 ,j4 ,milne47 ,may we h gales pass+ f ,p]? to ?is1 & f "h to y1 & f heav5 to bo?4 ,ev] y\rs4 7,to ! same47 ,! "t is %ort2 et]nity is ne>2 yea1 ! com+ ( ,*ri/ ! second "t is at h&4 ,make sure ( be+ "o ) ! ,"l ,jesus1 t y may be glad :5 y see ,him4 ,comm5d+ y all to our ,fa!r 9 heav51 etc4 7,to 8 own bro!r47 ,i h a ho/ ( lett]s be=e me1 & !re=e c add no m4 ,i give y a p>t+ text1 ',sorr[ful1 yet always rejoic+4' ,ano!r3 ,f>ewell6 y\rs till ! day dawn4 ,to ! ,rev4 ,hor4 ,bon> he says1 at ! close ( a lett] ab\t "s m9i/]ial arrangem5ts3 ,i am humbl$ & *e]$ by :at y say ( good done 9 ,kelso4 ,roll on1 roll on1 riv] ( ,god1 t art full ( wat]6 ,a woman came to me1 awak5$ "u y\r s]mon to ! *ildr5 9 ! ,cross ,*ur*1 v bitt]ly conv9c$ ( s94 ,glory to ! ,div9e ,ar*]1 :o br+e? d[n ! p6 ,he closes a lett] to a /ud5t ?us3 ,grace be ) y1 & mu* ( ! k ( ,jesus--mu* ( 8 lik5ess4 ,i ?ir/ = ! k ( ! ^w b mo/ ( all ( ,jesus himself1 ! true ,^w4 ,may ,he abide 9 y1 & y 9 ,him6 ,! ,fe> ( ,isaac wat* ov] y4 ,9 conclud+ a lett] to ,mr4 ,bon> ( ,l>b]t1 9 ,febru>y #ahdc1 "s weeks be=e 8 la/ illness1 he writes3 ,my s\l (t5 goes out at ! ?rone ( grace 9 behalf ( ,l>b]t & ,dunipace4 ,may ! disruption be m bless$ to !m ?an days ( peace6 ,h[ sweet to be 9 ! ark :5 ! deluge comes d[n6 ,ev] y\rs 9 gospel bonds4 ,! ,jewi% ,mission cont9u$ ne> 8 he>t1 ! ne>e/1 said he to ,mr4 ,edw>ds1 :o is n[ at ,jassy1 ( all mission>y ent]prises4 ,7 x n = my own unfitness1 & also ! success ! ,"l has giv5 me :]e ,i am1 ,i w\ld joyfully devote myself to x4 ,9 connection ) ?is cause1 he 0 invit$ to visit ,irel&1 & be pres5t at ! meet+ ( ! ,synod ( our ,presbyt]ian bre?r5 9 ! summ] ( #ahdj4 ,:5 prep>+ to set out1 he notices ! h& ( 8 ,ma/] guid+ him3--,july #b4--;,expect$ to h be5 9 ,irel& ?is day4 ,deta9$ by n be+ able to get supply = ,sabba?1 9 ! good provid5ce ( ,god2 = ?is ev5+ !re 0 a consid]able awak5+ 9 ! *ur* :ile ,i 0 prea*+ ^u ,phil4 #c3ah1 ',enemies ( ! cross ( ,*ri/1' ,:5 t "p 0 exp\nd$1 !re 0 a l\d & bitt] weep+1--probably ?irty or =ty seem$ to %>e 9 x2 ! re/ deeply impress$1--_m secretly pray+4 ,on ! ,sabba? foll[+1 "o p]son 0 s ov]come z to be c>ri$ out ( ! *ur*4 ,he set out = ,irel& on ! #g?1 & on ! #aj? witness$ at ,belfa/ ! union betwe5 ! ,synod ( ,ul/] & ! ,secession4 ,he speaks ( x z a mo/ solemn sc5e--#ejj m9i/]s & eld]s pres5t4 ,dur+ 8 /ay !re1 he plead$ ! cause ( ! ,jews 9 ,mr4 ,morgan's *ur*1 ,mr4 ,wilson's1 & "s o!rs2 & also visit$ ,mr4 ,kirkpatrick at ,dubl94 ,he prea*$ ! way ( salvation to ! ,g5tiles 9 all 8 plead+s = ,israel4 ,8 visit 0 bless$ to awak5 a deep int]e/ 9 ! cause ( ! ,jews1 & 8 words sank into ! consci5ces ( "s4 ,8 s]mon on ,ezek4 #cd3af 0 felt by "s to be indescribably impressive2 & :5 he prea*$ on ,rom4 #a3af1 #ag1 _m m9i/]s1 z !y came out1 7 he>d say+1 ,h[ 0 x we nev] ?\ght ( ! duty ( rememb]+ ,israel be=e8 ,on ano!r occasion1 ! p to :om he _h prea*$ entreat$ _! m9i/] to try & get him aga91 & if he c\ld n prea* to !m1 t at lea/ he %\ld pray once m ) !m4 ,he 0 n1 h[ev]1 long abs5t f home on ?is occasion4 ,on ! #be? ,i f9d him record+3 ,rea*$ home2 entirely unprep>$ = ! ev5+4 ,spoke on ,psalm #ea3ab1 #ac1 ',re/ore unto me ! joy1' etc4 ,!re seem$ mu* ( ! pres5ce ( ,god1--fir/ "o cry+ out 9 extreme agony1 !n ano!r4 ,_m 7 deeply melt$1 & all solemniz$4 ,felt a good deal ( fre$om 9 speak+ ( ! glory ( ,*ri/'s salvation4 ,com+ d[n1 ,i spoke quietly to "s :om ,i knew to be "u deep conc]n4 ,!y 7 soon he>d toge!r weep+ bitt]ly2 _m m jo9$ !m4 ,mr4 ,cumm+ spoke to !m 9 a mo/ t\*+ /ra91 :ile ,i dealt privately ) sev]al 9 ! ve/ry4 ,_! cries 7 (t5 v bitt] & pi]c+1 bitt]e/ :5 ! fre5ess ( ,*ri/ 0 press$ ^u !m1 & ! lion's ne>ness4 ,sev]al 7 (f5d$2 b ,i felt no hesitation z to our duty to decl>e ! simple tru? impressively1 & leave ,god to "w 9 _! he>ts 9 8 own way4 ,if ,he save s\ls 9 a quiet way1 ,i %all be happy2 if 9 ! mid/ ( cries & te>s1 /ill ,i w bless 8 "n4 ,"o pa9ful ?+ has occurr$3 a man :o pret5ds to be a mission>y = ,israel1 & :o br+s =w>d ! apocryphal book ( ,eno*1 has be5 among my p 9 my abs5ce1 & _m h be5 l$ aft] him4 ,h[ humbl+ is ?is to !m & to me6 ,"l1 :at is man6 ,?is may be bless$1 #a/1 to discov] *aff :i* we ?\ght to be :eat2 #bnd1 to lead "s to great] di/ru/ ( !mselves1 :5 _! eyes are op5$3 #crd1 to tea* me ! ne$ ( solidly in/ruct+ ^? :o seem to h grace 9 _! he>ts4 ,! "w ( ,god w5t on1 s mu* s at ?is "t1 t he gave x z 8 belief1 9 a lett] to ,mr4 ,purves ( ,j$burgh1 t = "s mon?s ab\t ?is p]iod no m9i/] ( ,*ri/ _h prea*$ 9 a lively mann]1 )\t be+ bless$ to "s s\l among 8 flock4 ,9 o!r places ( ,scotl& also ! ,"l 0 !n p\r+ out 8 ,_s4 ,p]? has be5 already m5tion$1 & its vic9ity4 ,?r\gh\t ,ross-%ire1 :ole congregations 7 frequ5tly mov$ z "o man1 & ! voice ( ! m9i/] dr[n$ 9 ! cries ( anxi\s s\ls4 ,at ,kelso1 :]e ,mr4 ,horace ,bon> lab\r$1 & at ,j$burgh1 :]e ,mr4 ,purves 0 pa/or1 a m sil5t1 b v solid "w ( conv]sion 0 advanc+4 ,at ,ancrum 7once ! sc5e ( ,john ,liv+/on's labors71 ! :ole p>i%1 b especially ! m5 ( ! place1 7 awak5$ to ! mo/ solemn conc]n4 ,on ,lo*tayside1 :]e ,mr4 ,burns 0 = a season labor+1 !re 7 m>ks ( ! ,_s ev]y:]e2 & ! p cross+ ! lake 9 hundr$s1 to li/5 to ! words ( life on ! hillside1 call$ to m9d ! p ( ,galilee 9 ! days :5 ! gospel began to be prea*$4 ,at ,law]s1 ,mr4 ,campbell1 _! pa/or 7:o has n[ fall5 asleep 9 ,jesus71 spoke ( ! awak5+ z l a resurrection4 s great & sudd5 0 ! *ange f deadness to int5se conc]n4 ,on sev]al occasions1 ! ,_s seem$ to sweep ov] ! congregations l w9d ov] ! fields1 :i* b5ds ! heavy corn to ! e>?4 ,x 0 evid5t to disc]n+ m9ds t ! ,"l 0 prep>+ ,scotl& = "s crisis n f> di/ant4 ,sev]al di/ricts ( ,/ra?bogie _h %>$ to "s ext5t 9 a simil> bless+4 ,fai?ful m9i/]s 7 n[ ev]y:]e on ! wat* = ! %[]1 & 7 greatly /r5g!n$ to g =w>d boldly 9 seek+ to cleanse ! sanctu>y4 ,x 0 _! fond hope t ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur* ( ,scotl& w\ld soon become an example & patt]n to ! nations ( a pure *ur* ( ,*ri/1 ackn[l$g$ & upheld by ! ,/ate )\t be+ trammell$ 9 any degree1 f> less controll$ by civil int]f]5ce4 ,b ,satan 0 /irr+ up adv]s>ies on e side4 ,! ,c\rt ( ,session _h adopt$ a l9e ( proc$ure t 0 at once arbitr>y & uncon/itutional4 ,& n[ t ,c\rt int]dict$1 "u ! p5alty ( f9e or imprisonm5t1 all ! m9i/]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl& f adm9i/]+ ord9ances or prea*+ ! ^w 9 any ( ! sev5 p>i%es ( ,/ra?bogie1 ^: =m] incumb5ts _h be5 susp5d$ f (fice by ! ,g5]al ,assembly = ecclesia/ical (f5ces4 ,! *ur* saw x to be h] duty to refuse ob$i5ce to an int]dict :i* h9d]$ ! prea*+ ( ,jesus1 & attempt$ to cru% h] con/itutional lib]ties4 ,accord+ly1 m9i/]s 7 s5t to ^! di/ricts1 fe>less ( ! result2 & "u _! prea*+ ! gross d>kness ( ! region began to give way to ! light ( tru?4 ,9 ! mon? ( ,augu/1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 appo9t$1 along ) ,mr4 ,cumm+ ( ,dumb>ney1 to visit ,huntly1 & disp5se ! ,"l's ,supp] !re4 ,z he set out1 he express$ ! hope1 t ! dews ( ! ,_s !re might be turn$ into ! p\r+ ra94 ,8 own visit 0 bless$ to _m4 ,mr4 ,cumm+ prea*$ ! action s]mon 9 ! op5 air at ! ,mead[ ,well2 b ! tables 7 s]v$ )9 ! build+ :]e ! congregation usually met4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne prea*$ 9 ! ev5+ to a va/ multitude at ! well2 & ab\t a hundr$ wait$ aft] s]mon = pray]1 _m ( !m 9 deep anxiety4 ,he came to ,ed9burgh on ! #aa?1 to att5d ! meet+ ( m9i/]s & eld]s :o _h come toge!r to sign ! ,solemn ,engagem5t 9 def5ce ( ! lib]ties ( ,*ri/'s *ur*4 ,he hesitat$ n to put 8 h& to ! ,engagem5t4 ,he !n return$ to ,dundee2 & sc>cely _h he return$1 :5 he 0 laid aside by "o ( ^? attacks ( illness ) :i* he 0 s (t5 tri$4 ,9 ?is case1 h[ev]1 x soon pass$ away4 ,my heal?1 he rem>k$1 has tak5 a graci\s turn1 :i* %\ld make me look up4 ,b aga91 on ,septemb] #f1 an attack ( fev] laid him d[n = six days4 ,on ?is occasion1 j be=e ! sickness came on1 ?ree p]sons _h visit$ him1 to tell him h[ !y 7 br\ght to ,*ri/ "u 8 m9i/ry "s ye>s be=e4 ,:y1 he not$ 9 8 j\rnal1 ,:y has ,god br\ght ^! cases be=e me ?is week8 ,surely ,he is prep>+ me = "s trial ( fai?4 ,! result prov$ t 8 conjecture 0 j4 ,& :ile 8 ,ma/] prep>$ him be=eh& = ^! trials1 ,he _h ends to accompli% 9 8 s]vant by means ( !m4 ,!re 7 o!r trials1 also1 besides ^!1 :i* 7 v heavy to him2 b 9 all we c\ld disc]n ! ,husb&man prun+ ! bran*1 t x might be> m fruit4 ,z he himself said "o day 9 ! *ur* ( ,ab]nyte1 :5 he 0 assi/+ ,mr4 ,manson1 ,if we only saw ! :ole1 we %\ld see t ! ,fa!r is do+ little else 9 ! _w b tra9+ 8 v9es4 ,8 prea*+ became m & m to him a "w ( fai?4 ,(t5 ,i f9d him writ+ at ! close or beg9n+ ( a s]mon3 ,ma/]1 help6 ,help1 ,"l1 help6 ,s5d %[]s2 ,p>don1 give ! ,_s1 & take ! glory2 ,may ! op5+ ( my lips he "r ?+s6 ,! pi]c+ effects ( ! ^w prea*$ on s\ls at ?is season may be judg$ ( f :at "o ( ! awak5$1 ) :om he 0 conv]s+1 said to him1 ,i ?9k hell w\ld be "s relief f an angry ,god4 ,8 delight 9 prea*+ 0 v great4 ,he himself us$ to say t he c\ld sc>cely ev] resi/ an invitation to prea*4 ,& ?is did n arise f ! natural excitem5t !re is 9 comm&+ ! att5tion ( ?\s&s2 = he 0 equally ready to proclaim ,*ri/ to small c\ntry flocks4 ,nay1 he 0 ready to travel f> to visit & com=t ev5 "o s\l4 ,!re 0 an occasion ?is ye> on :i* he rode f> to give a cup ( cold wat] to a disciple1 & 8 rem>k 01 ,i obs]ve h[ (t5 ,jesus w5t a long way = "o s\l1 z = example ! maniac1 & ! woman ( ,canaan4 ,9 ,febru>y #ahda1 he visit$ ,kelso & ,j$burgh at ! ,communion season2 & gladly compli$ ) an invitation to ,ancrum also1 t he might witness ! h& ( ! ,"l4 ,sweet are ! spots1 he wrote1 :]e ,immanuel has ev] %[n 8 glori\s p[] 9 ! conviction & conv]sion ( s9n]s4 ,! _w loves to muse on ! sc5es :]e battles 7 f\ght & victories won4 ,%\ld n we love ! spots :]e our great ,capta9 has won 8 amaz+ victories8 ,is n ! conv]sion ( a s\l m wor?y to be spok5 ( ?an ! tak+ ( ,acre8 ,at ,kelso1 "s w long rememb] 8 rem>ks 9 visit+ a little girl1 to :om he said1 ,*ri/ gives la/ knocks4 ,:5 y\r he>t becomes h>d & c>eless1 !n fe> le/ ,*ri/ may h giv5 a la/ knock4 ,at ,j$burgh1 ! impression left 0 *iefly t !re _h be5 among !m a man ( peculi> hol9ess4 ,"s felt1 n s mu* 8 words1 z 8 pres5ce & holy solemnity1 z if "o spoke to !m :o 0 /&+ 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god2 & to o!rs 8 pray]s appe>$ l ! brea?+s ( "o already )9 ! veil4 ,i f9d him propos+ to a m9i/] :o 0 go+ up to ! ,g5]al ,assembly t ye>1 t ! ,assembly %\ld draw out a ,confession ( ,s9 = all its m9i/]s4 ,! /ate1 also1 ( p>i%es "u ! direful influ5ce ( ,mod]atism1 lay mu* ^u 8 _s4 ,9 8 di>y he writes3 ,h be5 lay+ mu* to he>t ! absolute necessity laid ^u ! *ur* ( s5d+ ! gospel to our dead p>i%es1 dur+ ! life ( ! pres5t incumb5ts4 ,x is confess$ t _m ( our m9i/]s d n prea* ! gospel--alas6 because !y "k x n4 ,yet !y h complete control ov] _! own pulpits1 & may nev] suff] ! tru? to be he>d !re dur+ _! :ole incumb5cy4 ,& yet our *ur* consigns ^! p>i%es to _! t5d] m]cies = p]haps fifty ye>s1 )\t a sigh6 ,%\ld n c]ta9 m5 be orda9$ z evangeli/s1 ) full p[] to prea* 9 e pulpit ( _! di/rict1--fai?ful1 judici\s1 lively prea*]s1 :o may g f p>i% to p>i%1 & ?us c>ry life into _m a dead corn]8 ,?is 0 a subject he (t5 rev]t$ to2 & he eag]ly held up ! example ( ! ,presbyt]y ( ,ab]de51 :o made a proposal to ?is effect4 ,f "s ( 8 lat] lett]s1 x appe>s t he _h sometimes s]i\sly weigh$ ! duty ( giv+ up 8 fix$ *>ge1 if only ! *ur* w\ld orda9 him z an evangeli/4 ,s deep 7 8 feel+s on ?is matt]1 t a fri5d relates ( him1 t z !y rode toge!r ?r\gh a p>i% :]e ! pa/or clo!d himself ) ! wool1 b f$ n ! flock1 he knit 8 br[ & rais$ 8 h& ) vehem5ce z he spoke ( ! p left to p]i% "u su* a m9i/]4 ,he 0 invit$ to visit ,irel& aga9 ?is ye>1 8 =m] visit hav+ be5 mu* valu$ by ! ,presbyt]ian bre?r5 !re4 ,he did s 9 ,july4 ,_m 7 greatly /irr$ up by 8 prea*+1 & by 8 details ( ,god's "w 9 ,scotl&4 ,8 s]mon on ,song #h3e1 #f1 is /ill spok5 ( by _m4 ,8 pray]fulness & consi/5t hol9ess left endur+ impressions on n a few2 & x 0 dur+ 8 visit t a memorial 0 pres5t$ to ! ,iri% ,assembly 9 behalf ( a ,jewi% mission4 ,8 visit 0 9 a great measure ! means ( sett+ t mission on foot4 ,cordially ent]+ into ! proposal ( ! conc]t = pray]1 he took "p1 9 ,septemb] ( ?is ye>1 9 ! prelim9>y meet+s 9 :i* ,*ri/ians ( all d5om9ations jo9$4 ,h[ sweet are ! smalle/ approximations to unity6 is 8 rem>k 9 8 di>y4 ,inde$1 he s mu* long$ = a scriptural unity1 t "s "t aft]1 :5 ! ,g5]al ,assembly _h repeal$ ! /atute ( #agii1 he embrac$ ! opportunity ( %[+ 8 s9c]e desire = unity1 by invit+ two diss5t+ bre?r5 to 8 pipit1 & !n writ+ 9 def5ce ( 8 conduct :5 attack$4 ,9 ref]5ce to ?is matt]1 he obs]v$1 9 a note to a fri5d3 ,i h be5 mu* delight$ ) ! #be? & #bf? *apt]s ( ! ,confession ( ,fai?4 ,oh = ! grace ( ! ,we/m9/] div9es to be p\r$ out ^u ?is g5]ation ( less] m56 ,z x 0 evid5t t 8 ,ma/] own$ 8 labor abundantly1 by giv+ him seals ( 8 apo/le%ip1 !re 7 attempts made occasionally by zeal\s fri5ds to induce him to remove to o!r sph]es4 ,9 all ^! cases1 he look$ simply at ! app>5t indications ( ! ,"l's w4 ,worldly int]e/ seem$ sc>cely ev] to cross 8 m9d 9 reg>d to su* a matt]1 = he truly liv$ a dis9t]e/$ life4 ,8 views may be judg$ ( by "o in/ance1--a lett] to ,mr4 ,h]iot ( ,ramornie1 9 ref]5ce to a *>ge :i* _m 7 anxi\s to (f] him3-- ,dundee1 ,dec4 #bd1 #ahda ,,de> ,,sir1--,i h receiv$ a lett] f my fri5d ,mr4 ,m',f>lane ( ,collessie1 ask+ :at ,i w\ld d if ! p ( ,kettle 7 to write desir+ me to be _! m9i/]4 ,he also desires me to s5d an answ] to y4 ,i h be5 ask$ to leave ?is place aga9 & aga91 b h nev] se5 my way cle> to d s4 ,i feel q at ! disposal ( my ,div9e ,ma/]4 ,i gave myself away to ,him :5 ,i began my m9i/ry1 & ,he has guid$ me z by ! ,pill> ,cl\d f ! fir/ day till n[4 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld leave ?is place to-morr[ if ,he 7 to bid me2 b z to seek+ removal1 ,i d>e n & c\ld n4 ,if my m9i/ry 7 unsuccessful1--if ,god fr[n$ ^u ! place & made my message void1--!n ,i w\ld will+ly g1 = ,i w\ld r beg my bread ?an prea* )\t success2 b ,i h nev] want$ success4 ,i d n ?9k ,i c speak a mon? 9 ?is p>i% )\t w9n+ "s s\ls4 ,?is v week1 ,i ?9k1 has be5 a fruitful "o1--m s ?an _m = a long "t1 :i* p]haps 0 int5d$ graci\sly to free me f all hesitation 9 decl9+ y\r k9d (f]4 ,i m5tion ^! ?+s n1 ,i tru/1 boa/fully1 b only to %[ y ! gr\nd ^u :i* ,i feel x to be my duty n = a mom5t to ent]ta9 ! proposal4 ,i h #djjj s\ls "h hang+ on me4 ,i h z mu* ( ?is _w's goods z ,i c>e =4 ,i h full lib]ty to prea* ! gospel night & day2 & ! ,_s ( ,god is (t5 ) u4 ,:at c ,i desire m8 ',i dwell among m9e own p4' ,hundr$s look to me z a fa!r2 & ,i fe> ,i w\ld be b a false %eph]d if ,i 7 to leave !m :5 ! cl\ds ( adv]sity are beg9n+ to l[]4 ,i "k ! ne$ ( ,kettle1 & its importance2 & also ! d>k prospect ( y\r gett+ a godly m9i/]4 ,/ill t is a future ev5t 9 ! h& ( ,god4 ,my duty is made pla9 & simple accord+ to ,god's ^w4 ,pray+ t ! ,"l ,jesus may s5d y a /> f 8 own "r h&1 believe me to be1 etc4 ,x 0 dur+ ?is ye> t ! ,sabba? "q began to int]e/ him s mu*4 ,8 tract1 ,i ,love ! ,"l's ,day1 0 publi%$ ,decemb] #ah2 b he _h already ex]t$ himself mu* 9 ?is cause1 z conv5] ( ! ,committee ( ,presbyt]y on ,sabba? ,obs]vance1 & _h writt5 8 well-kn[n lett] to "o ( ! *ief def5d]s ( ! ,sabba? desecration4 ,he cont9u$ unceas+ly to use e ef=t 9 ?is holy cause4 ,& is x n wor? ! pray]s & self-d5y+ ef=ts ( e believ+ man8 ,is n t day set ap>t z a season :]e9 ! ,"l desires ! refre%+ re/ ( 8 own love to be (f]$ to a fall5 _w8 ,is x n design$ to be a day on :i* e o!r voice & s\nd is to be hu%$1 9 ord] t ! silv] trumpets may proclaim atonem5t = s9n]s8 ,nay1 x is und]/ood to be a day :]e9 ,god himself /&s be=e ! alt> & pleads ) s9n]s to accept ! ,lamb sla91 f morn+ to ev5+4 ,:o is !re t does n see ! deep design ( ,satan 9 seek+ to effect an inroad on ?is mo/ m]ciful appo9tm5t ( ,god our ,savi\r8 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's own conduct 0 9 full accordance ) 8 pr9ciples 9 reg>d to /rict yet *e]ful ,sabba? obs]vance4 ,consid]+ x ! summit ( human privilege to be admitt$ to fell[%ip ) ,god1 8 pr9ciple 01 t ! ,"l's day 0 to be sp5t :olly 9 ! enjoym5t ( t sweete/ privilege4 ,a lett]1 writt5 at a lat] p]iod1 b be>+ on ?is subject1 w %[ h[ he felt ?is day to be bett] ?an a ?\s&4 ,an individual1 ne> ,inv]ness1 _h consult$ him on a po9t ( sabbatical casui/ry3 ! "q 01 ,:e!r or n x 0 s9ful to sp5d "t 9 regi/]+ meteorological obs]vations on ! ,sabba?s8 ,8 reply 0 ! foll[+1 m>k$ by a holy wisdom1 & discov]+ ! place :i* ! ,"l held 9 8 inmo/ s\l3-- ,dec4 #g1 #ahdb ,,de> ,,fri5d1--,y ask me a h>d "q4 ,_h y ask$ me :at ,i w\ld d 9 ! case1 ,i c\ld easily tell y4 ,i love ! ,"l's day too well to be m>k+ d[n ! height ( ! !rmomet] & b>omet] e h\r4 ,i h o!r "w to d1 high] & bett]1 & m l t ( angels above4 ,! m entirely ,i c give my ,sabba?s to ,god1 & half =get t ,i am n be=e ! ?rone ( ! ,lamb1 ) my h>p ( gold1 ! happi] am ,i1 & ,i feel x my duty to be z happy z ,i c be1 & z ,god int5d$ me to be4 ,! joy ( ! ,"l is my /r5g?4 ,b :e!r ano!r ,*ri/ian c sp5d ! ,sabba? is 8 s]vice1 & m>k d[n degrees ( heat & atmosph]ical pressure1 )\t lett+ d[n ! w>m? ( 8 affections1 or los+ ! atmosph]e ( heav51 ,i _c tell4 ,my consci5ce is n ! rule ( ano!r man4 ,"o ?+ we may le>n f ^! m5 ( sci5ce1 namely1 to be z c>eful 9 m>k+ ! *anges & progress ( our own _s1 z !y are 9 m>k+ ! *anges ( ! wea!r4 ,an h\r %\ld nev] pass )\t our look+ up to ,god = =giv5ess & peace4 ,?is is ! noble/ sci5ce1 to "k h[ to live 9 h\rly communion ) ,god 9 ,*ri/4 ,may y & ,i "k m ( ?is1 & ?ank ,god t we are n among ! wise & prud5t f :om ^! ?+s are hid6--,! grace ( ! ,"l ( ! ,sabba? be ) y1 etc4 ,up till ?is p]iod1 ! ,n>rative ( our ,mission to ,israel _h n be5 giv5 to ! public4 ,int]ruptions1 aris+ f multiplicity ( labors & con/ant calls ( duty1 _h f "t to "t come 9 our way4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne f\nd x exce$+ly difficult to sp>e a day or two at a "t 9 ord] to take "p4 ,i f9d x h>d "w to c>ry on ! "w ( a dilig5t pa/or & t ( an au?or at ! same "t4 ,h[ ,john ,calv9 w\ld h smil$ at my difficulties6 ,at l5g?1 h[ev]1 9 ! mon? ( ,m>* #ahdb1 we resolv$ to ga9 "t by ex*ang+ ea* o!r's pa/oral duties = a mon?4 ,accord+ly1 dur+ f\r or five weeks1 he rema9$ 9 ,collace1 my flock enjoy+ 8 ,sabba?-day s]vices & 8 occasional visits1 :ile he 0 set free f :at w\ld h be5 ! nev]-ceas+ int]ruptions ( 8 own t[n4 ,_m a pleasant remembrance rema9s ( ^! days1 z %eet aft] %eet pass$ "u ! eyes ( our mutual criticism4 ,?\gh int5t on accompli%+ 8 "w1 he kept by 8 rule1 t he mu/ fir/ see ! face ( ,god be=e he c\ld und]take any duty4 ,(t5 w\ld he w&] 9 ! morn+s among ! pleasant woods ( ,duns9nan1 till he _h drunk 9 refre%m5t to 8 s\l by m$itation on ! ^w ( ,god2 & !n he took up ! p54 ,& to a bro!r 9 ! m9i/ry1 :o _h "o day brok5 9 ^u 8 close occupation1 he aft]w>ds wrote3 ,y "k y /ole away my day2 yet ,i tru/ all 0 n lo/4 ,i ?9k ,i h _h m grace ev] s9ce t pray] among ! fir-trees4 ,oh to be l ,jesus1 & ) him to all et]nity6 ,occasionally1 dur+ ! same p]iod1 he wrote "s pieces = ! ,*ri/ian's ,daily ,companion4 ,! ,n>rative 0 f9i%$ 9 ,may1 & ! ,"l has made x acceptable to ! bre?r54 ,:5 ?is "w 0 f9i%$1 ! ,"l _h o!r employm5t ready = him 9 8 own p>i%4 ,8 di>y has ?is entry3 ,may #bb4--;,i h se5 "s v evid5t awak5+s ( late4 ,j4,g4 awak5$ p>tly ?r\gh ! ^w prea*$1 & p>tly ?r\gh ! fai?ful w>n+s ( h] fell[-s]vant4 ,a4,r41 :o has be5 = ab\t a ye> 9 ! deepe/ di/ress1 seek+ re/1 b f9d+ none4 ,b4,m4 conv]t$ la/ w9t] at ! ,tuesday meet+ 9 ,annfield4 ,%e 0 br\ght v rapidly to peace ) ,god1 & to a calm1 s$ate1 pray]ful /ate ( m9d4 ,i 0 surpris$ at ! quickness ( ! "w 9 ?is case1 & pleas$ ) ! cle> tok5s ( grace2 & n[ ,i see ,god's graci\s end 9 x4 ,%e 0 to be admitt$ at la/ communion1 b caught fev] be=e ! ,sabba?4 ,on ,tuesday la/1 %e di$ 9 great peace & joy4 ,:5 %e felt dea? com+ on1 %e said1 ',oh dea?1 dea?1 come6 let u s+6' ,_m t knew h] h be5 a good deal mov$ homew>d by ?is solemn provid5ce4 ,?is ev5+1 ,i invit$ ^? to come :o are leav+ ! p>i% at ?is t]m4 ,ab\t tw5ty came1 to :om ,i gave tracts & words ( w>n+4 ,i feel p]suad$ t if ,i c\ld foll[ ! ,"l m fully myself1 my m9i/ry w\ld be us$ to make a deep] impression ?an x has yet done4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,! ,,latt] ,,days ,,( ,,8 ,,m9i/ry4 ,my meat is to d ! w ( ,him t s5t me1 & to f9i% 8 "w4--,john #d3cd4 ,dur+ ! summ] ( #ahdb1 he 0 expos$ to sev]al attacks ( illness1 exp]i5c$ "s sev]e p]sonal trials1 & felt ! assaults ( sore temptation4 ,8 own words w be/ express 8 /ate3 ,july #ag4--;,i am myself mu* tempt$1 & h no hope1 b z a worm on ! arm ( ,jesus4 ,aug4 #d4--,(t51 (t51 w\ld ,i h be5 glad to dep>t1 & be ) ,*ri/4 ,i am n[ mu* bett] 9 body & m9d1 hav+ a little ( ! pres5ce ( my belov$1 ^: abs5ce is dea? to me4 ,! same mon?3 ,i h be5 c>ri$ ?r\gh deep wat]s1 bodily & spiritual1 s9ce la/ we met4 ,x 0 8 own p]suasion t few _h m to /ruggle ) 9 ! inn] man4 ,:o c tell :at w>s g on )98 ,dur+ ?is season ( trial1 he 0 invit$ to =m "o ( a numb] ( m9i/]s f ,scotl&1 :o 7 to visit ! nor? ( ,engl&1 ) no o!r purpose ?an to prea* ! glad tid+s4 ,! s*eme 0 plann$ by a ,*ri/ian g5tleman1 :o has done mu* = ,*ri/ 9 8 g5]ation4 ,:5 ! invitation rea*$ him1 he 0 9 ! heat ( 8 furnace4 ,he m5tion$ ?is to ! bro!r :o correspond$ ) him on ! subject1 ,mr4 ,purves ( ,j$burgh1 ^: reply 0 balm to 8 _s 444 ,i h a fell[-feel+ ) y 9 y\r pres5t infirmity1 & y "k = y\r consolation t ano!r has1 :o is a bro!r inde$4 ,9 all our afflictions1 ,he is afflict$4 ,he is1 we may say1 ! common he>t ( 8 p1 = !y are "o body2 & an infirmity 9 ! v remote/ & meane/ memb] is felt !re & borne !re4 ,let u console1 solace1 yea1 satiate ourselves 9 ,him1 z1 amid afflictions especially1 bro!r does 9 bro!r4 ,x is bless$ to be l ,him 9 ev]y?+1 ev5 9 suff]+4 ,!re is a great want ab\t all ,*ri/ians :o h n suff]$4 ,"s fl[]s mu/ be brok5 or bruis$ be=e !y emit any fragrance4 ,all ! w\nds ( ,*ri/ s5d out sweetness2 all ! sorr[s ( ,*ri/ians d ! same4 ,comm5d me to a bruis$ bro!r1--a brok5 re$1--"o l ! ,son ( man4 ,! ,man ( ,sorr[s is nev] f> f him4 ,to me !re is some?+ sacr$ & sweet 9 all suff]+2 x is s mu* ak9 to ! ,man ( ,sorr[s4 ,x 0 ?us he suff]$1 & ?us t he 0 com=t$4 ,he wrote back1 agree+ to g1 & add$4 ,rememb] me especially1 :o am heavy lad5 (t5times4 ,my he>t is all ( s92 b ,jesus lives4 ,!y set out = ,engl&4 ,mr4 ,purves1 ,mr4 ,som]ville ( ,&]/on1 ,mr4 ,cumm+ ( ,dumb>ney1 & ,mr4 ,bon> ( ,kelso1 =m$ ! company4 ,_! *ief /ation 0 ,newca/le1 :]e ,mr4 ,burns _h be5 rec5tly labor+ ) "s success1 & :]e he _h se5 a t[n giv+ itself up to utt] ungodl9ess1 a t[n :]e ,satan's tr5*es 7 deep & wide1 8 wall /rong & high1 8 g>rison great & fe>less1 & :]e all t man c\ld d seem$ b z arr[s %ot aga9/ a t[] ( brass4 ,b ^? :o w5t knew t ! ,_s ( ,god 0 omnipot5t1 & t ,he c\ld take ! prey f ! mighty4 ,!y prea*$ bo? 9 ! op5 air1 & 9 ! places ( wor%ip belong+ to ! ,presbyt]ians & to ! ,wesleyan ,me?odi/s4 ,! def5d]s ( ! ,sabba? cause 7 specially prep>$ to welcome ,mr4 ,m',*eyne1 ^: tract on ! ,"l's ,day has be5 widely circulat$ & bless$4 ,_m 7 attract$ to he>2 int]e/+ congregations assembl$ 9 ! m>ket-place1 & !re is reason to believe _m 7 impress$4 ,a p]son 9 ! t[n describes ,mr4 ,m',*eyne's la/ address z be+ peculi>ly awak5+4 ,he prea*$ 9 ! op5 air1 9 a space ( gr\nd betwe5 ! ,clo? ,m>ket & ,/4 ,ni*olas' ,*ur*4 ,above a ?\s& s\ls 7 pres5t1 & ! s]vice cont9u$ till t51 )\t "o p]son mov+ f ! gr\nd4 ,! moon %one brightly1 & ! sky 0 spangl$ ) />s4 ,8 subject 01 ,! ,great ,:ite ,?rone 7,rev4 #bj3aa74 ,9 conclud+ 8 address1 he told !m t !y w\ld nev] meet aga9 till !y all met at ! judgm5t-seat ( ,*ri/2 b ! glori\s heav5s ov] _! heads1 & ! bright moon t %one ^u !m1 & ! old v5]able *ur* beh9d !m1 7 8 witnesses t he _h set be=e !m life & dea?4 ,"s w h cause to rememb] t night ?r\gh et]nity4#ai #ai ,he aft]w>ds prea*$ ! same subject ) equal impressiv5ess 9 ! ,mead[s at ,dundee4 ,x 0 9 ! op5 air & ! ra9 fell heavy1 yet ! d5se cr[d /ood /ill to ! la/4 ,8 prea*+ at ,gilsl& also 0 n )\t effect2 & he _h good cause to bless ! ,"l = br++ him ?r\gh ,dumfries%ire 9 8 way homew>d4 ,he return$ to 8 p 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,septemb]1 full ( peace & joy4 ,i h return$ mu* /rong]1 inde$ q well4 ,i ?9k ,i h got "s preci\s s\ls = my hire on my way home4 ,i e>ne/ly long = m grace & p]sonal hol9ess1 & m usefulness4 ,! sunsets dur+ t autumn 7 peculi>ly beautiful4 ,sc>cely a day pass$ b he gaz$ ^u ! gl[+ we/ aft] d9n]2 & z he gaz$ he w\ld speak ( ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness1 or ! joy ( angels 9 8 pres5ce1 or ! bless$ness ( ^? ^: sun c g no m d[n1 till 8 face %one ) gladness z he spoke4 ,& dur+ ! w9t] he 0 obs]v$ to be peculi>ly joyful1 be+ /rong 9 body1 & feel+ ! ne> pres5ce ( ,jesus 9 8 s\l4 ,he liv$ 9 ! bless$ consci\sness t he 0 a *ild ( ,god1 humble & meek1 j because he 0 fully assur$ t ,jehovah 0 8 ,god & ,fa!r4 ,_m (t5 felt t 9 pray] ! "n ,holy ,fa!r 0 brea!d ) peculi> t5d]ness & solemnity f 8 lips4 ,8 flock 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s began to murmur at 8 abs5ce1 :5 aga9 he left !m = t5 days 9 ,novemb]1 to assi/ ,mr4 ,hamilton ( ,reg5t ,squ>e1 ,london1 at 8 communion4 ,b x 0 8 desire = s\ls t ?us l$ him f place to place1 comb9$ ) a gr[+ feel+ t ! ,"l 0 call+ him to evangeli/ic m ?an to pa/oral labors4 ,?is visit 0 a bless$ "o2 & ! gr[? ( 8 s\l 9 hol9ess 0 visible to _m4 ,dur+ ! days ( 8 visit to ,mr4 ,hamilton1 he read ?r\gh ! ,song ( ,solomon at ! "t ( family wor%ip1 comm5t+ briefly on x ) r>e gracefulness & poetic ta/e1 & yet r>] manife/ation ( s\l-fill+ love to ! ,savi\r's p]son4 ,! sanctifi$ affections ( 8 s\l1 & 8 insight into ! m9d ( ,jesus1 seem$ to h mu* affect$ 8 fri5ds on ^! occasions4 ,receiv+1 :ile "h1 an invitation to return by ! way ( ,kelso1 he repli$3-- ,london1 ,nov4 #e1 #ahdb4 ,my de> ,horatius1--,our fri5ds "h w n let me away till ! ,friday morn+1 s t x w require all my dilig5ce to rea* ,dundee be=e ! ,sabba?4 ,i w ?us be disappo9t$ ( ! joy ( see+ y1 & m9i/]+ a ^w to y\r de> flock4 ,oh t my s\l 7 new m\ld$1 & ,i 7 effectually call$ a second "t1 & made a vessel full ( ! ,_s1 to tell only ( ,jesus & 8 love6 ,i fe> ,i %all nev] be 9 ?is _w :at ,i desire4 ,i h prea*$ ?ree times "h2 a few te>s also h be5 %$4 ,oh = ,:itfield's week 9 ,london1 :5 a ?\s& lett]s came6 ,! same ,jesus reigns2 ! same ,_s is able4 ,:y is ,he re/ra9$8 ,is ! s9 ours8 ,are we ! bottle-/opp]s ( ^! heav5ly dews8 ,ev] y\rs till glory4 ,p4,s4--,we %all meet1 ,god will+1 at ! ,convocation4 ,! memorable ,convocation met at ,ed9burgh on ,novemb] #ag?4 ,!re 7 five hundr$ m9i/]s pres5t f all p>ts ( ,scotl&4 ,! encroa*m5t ( ! civil c\rts ^u ! pr]ogatives ( ,*ri/1 ! only ,head ackn[l$g$ by our *ur*1 & ! neglig5t treatm5t hi!rto giv5 by ! legislature ( ! c\ntry to e remon/rance on ! "p ( ! *ur*1 _h br\ght on a crisis4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,scotl& _h ma9ta9$1 f ! days ( ! ,re=mation1 t h] connection ) ! ,/ate 0 und]/ood to imply no surr5d] :atsoev] ( complete indep5d5ce 9 regulat+ all spiritual matt]s2 & to h all[$ any civil au?ority to control h] 9 doctr9e1 discipl9e1 or any spiritual act1 w\ld h be5 a d>+ & flagrant act ( trea*]y to h] ,"l & ,k+4 ,! delib]ations ( ! ,convocation cont9u$ dur+ eight days1 & ! mom5t\s results are well kn[n 9 ?is l&4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 nev] abs5t f any ( ! diets ( ?is solemn assembly4 ,he felt ! deepe/ int]e/ 9 e matt] t came be=e !m1 got great light z to ! pa? ( duty 9 ! c\rse ( ! consultations1 & put 8 "n to all ! resolutions1 he>tily sympa?iz+ 9 ! decid$ det]m9ation t1 z a *ur* ( ,*ri/1 we mu/ ab&on our connection ) ! ,/ate1 if our ,claim ( ,rights 7 reject$4 ,^! eight days 7 times ( rem>kable union & pray]fulness4 ,! proce$+s1 f "t to "t1 7 susp5d$ till ! bre?r5 _h aga9 ask$ c\nsel ( ! ,"l by pray]2 & none pres5t w =get ! affect+ solemnity ) :i*1 on "o occasion1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne p\r$ out our wants be=e ! ,"l4 ,he _h a decid$ abhorr5ce ( ,era/ianism4 ,:5 ! "q 0 put to him1 ,is x our duty to refuse ord9ation to any "o :o holds ! views ( ,era/ianism8 he repli$1--,c]ta9ly1 :atev] be 8 o!r qualifications4 ,he 0 ev] a ?or\gh ,presbyt]ian1 & us$ to ma9ta9 ! necessity ( aboli%+ lay patronage1 because1--#a/1 ,x 0 n to be f\nd 9 ! ^w ( ,god2 #bnd1 ,x de/roy$ ! duty ( try+ ! spirits2 #crd1 ,x m$dl$ ) ! head%ip ( ,*ri/1 com+ 9 betwe5 ,him & 8 p1 say+1 ,i w place ! />s4 ,b /ill m decid$ 0 he 9 reg>d to ! spiritual indep5d5ce ( ! *ur*4 ,?is he reckon$ a vital "q3 & 9 prospect ( ! disruption ( ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&1 if x 7 d5i$1 he /at$ at a public meet+1--#a/1 ,t x 0 to be deplor$ 9 "s respects1 viz41 because ( ! suff]+s ( ,god's fai?ful s]vants1 ! degradation ( ^? :o rema9$ beh9d1 ! ali5ation ( ! ari/ocracy1 ! p]dition ( ! ungodly1 & ! s9 ( ! nation4 ,b1 #bnd1 ,x 0 to be hail$ = o!r reasons1 viz41 ,*ri/'s k+ly (fices w\ld be bett] kn[n1 ! tru? w\ld be spread into desolate p>i%es1 & fai?ful m9i/]s w\ld be ref9$4 ,& :51 on ,m>* #g? ( ! foll[+ ye>1 ! cause ( ! *ur* 0 f9ally to be plead$ at ! b> ( ! ,h\se ( ,commons1 ,i f9d him writ+3 ,ev5tful night ?is 9 ! ,briti% ,p>liam5t6 ,once m ,k+ ,jesus /&s at an e>?ly tribunal1 & !y "k ,him n6 ,an int]e/+ anecdote is relat$ ( him by a co-presbyt]1 :o return$ ) him to ,dundee aft] ! ,convocation4 ,?is co-presbyt]1 ,mr4 ,/ew>t1 0 conv]s+ ) him z to :at x might be _! duty to d 9 ! ev5t ( ! disruption1 & :]e !y might be scatt]$4 ,mr4 ,/ew>t said he c\ld prea* ,gaelic1 & might g to ! ,highl&]s 9 ,canada1 if x 7 ne$ful4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne said1 ,i ?9k ( go+ to ! _m ?\s& convicts t are transport$ beyond seas1 = no man c>e? = _! s\ls4 ,we h n _m records ( 8 public "w aft] ?is date4 ,almo/ ! la/ note 9 8 di>y is dat$ ,decemb] #be3 ,?is day orda9$ f\r eld]s1 & admitt$ a fif?1 :o w all1 ,i tru/1 be a bless+ 9 ?is place :5 ,i am gone4 ,0 graci\sly awak5$ a great :ile be=e day1 & _h two h\rs alone ) ,god4 ,prea*$ ) mu* com=t on ,i ,tim4 #e3ag1 ',let ! eld]s t rule well1' etc4 ,at ! end ( ! s]mon & pray]1 propos$ ! regul> que/ions2 !n made ! congregation s+ /&+2 dur+ :i* "t ,i came d[n f ! pulpit & /ood ov] ! f\r m51 !n pray$1 & all ! eld]s gave ! "r h& ( fell[%ip1 dur+ :i* ,i return$ to ! pulpit1 & address$ !m & ! congregation on _! relative duties4 ,altoge!r a solemn sc5e4 ,! la/ record$ cases ( awak5+1 & ! la/ entry 9 8 di>y1 is dat$ ,janu>y #f1 #ahdc3 ,he>d ( an awak5$ s\l f9d+ re/--true re/1 ,i tru/4 ,two new cases ( awak5+2 bo? v deep & t\*+4 ,at ! v "t :5 ,i 0 beg9n+ to give up 9 despair1 ,god gives me tok5s ( 8 pres5ce return+4 ,he "h speaks ( disc\ragem5t1 :5 ,god = a few mon?s or weeks seem$ to be )hold+ 8 h& f sav+ s\ls4 ,if he 0 n "r 9 ?us ha/ily =gett+ ! pa/ = a little1 /ill ?is feature ( 8 m9i/ry is to be well consid]$4 ,he ent]ta9$ s full a p]suasion t a fai?ful m9i/] has e reason to expect to see s\ls conv]t$ "u him1 t :5 ?is 0 )held1 he began to fe> t "s hidd5 evil 0 provok+ ! ,"l & griev+ ! ,_s4 ,& ought x n to be s ) all ( u8 ,ought we n to suspect1 ei!r t we are n liv+ ne> to ,god1 or t our message is n a true transcript ( ! glad tid+s1 9 bo? matt] & mann]1 :5 we see no s\ls br\ght to ,jesus8 ,god may c]ta9ly hide f our k mu* ( :at ,he accompli%es by our means1 b z c]ta9ly w ,he br+ to our view "s seals ( our m9i/ry1 9 ord] t our p]suasion ( be+ ?us s5t by ,him may solemnize & ov]awe u1 z well z lead u on to unwe>i$ labor4 ,ought x n to be ! inscription ov] ! doors ( our ,assembly & ,college halls3 ,?anks be unto ,god1 :i* always cause? u to triumph 9 ,*ri/1 & make? manife/ ! sav\r ( 8 k by u 9 e place8 ,,ii ,cor4 #b3ad4 ,ab\t ?is "t1 9 "o ( 8 ,,mss41 !re occurs ?is s5t5ce3 ,z ,i 0 walk+ 9 ! fields1 ! ?\ght came ov] me ) almo/ ov]:elm+ p[]1 t e "o ( my flock mu/ soon be 9 heav5 or hell4 ,oh1 h[ ,i wi%$ t ,i _h a tongue l ?und]1 t ,i might make all he>2 or t ,i _h a frame l iron1 t ,i might visit e "o1 & say1 ',escape = ?y life6' ,ah1 s9n]s6 y little "k h[ ,i fe> t y w lay ! blame ( y\r damnation at my door4 ,he 0 nev] satisfi$ ) 8 own atta9m5ts 9 hol9ess2 he 0 ev] ready to le>n1 & quick to apply1 any sugge/ion t might t5d to 8 great] usefulness4 ,ab\t ?is p]iod he us$ to s+ a psalm or hymn e day aft] d9n]4 ,x 0 (t51 ,! ,"l's my %eph]d1 etc42 or1 ,oh may we /& be=e ! ,lamb6 etc4 ,sometimes x 0 t hymn1 ,oh = a clos] walk ) ,god6 & sometimes ! psalm1 ,oh t ,i l a dove _h w+s6 etc4 ,a fri5d said ( him4 ,i h sometimes comp>$ him to ! silv] & graceful a%1 ) its p5sile bran*es1 & leaves ( g5tle gre51 reflect+ gleams ( happy sun%9e4 ,! fall ( its leaf1 too1 is l ! fall ( 81--x is gre5 to-night & gone to-morr[1 x does n s]e nor )]4 ,an exp]i5c$ s]vant ( ,god has said1 t1 :ile popul>ity is a sn>e t few are n caught by1 a m subtle & dang]\s sn>e is to be fam$ = hol9ess4 ,! fame ( be+ a godly man is z great a sn>e z ! fame ( be+ le>n$ or eloqu5t4 ,x is possible to att5d ) scrupul\s anxiety ev5 to secret habits ( devotion1 9 ord] to get a "n = hol9ess4#bj ,if any 7 expos$ to ?is sn>e 9 8 day1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne 0 ! p]son4 ,yet no?+ is m c]ta9 ?an t1 to ! v la/1 he 0 ev] discov]+1 & successfully resi/+1 ! deceitful t5d5cies ( 8 own he>t & a tempt+ devil4 ,two ?+s he seems nev] to h ceas$ f1--! cultivation ( p]sonal hol9ess1 & ! mo/ anxi\s ef=ts to save s\ls4 #bj ,h[ true1 yet awful1 is ! language ( ,dr ,ow5 7quot$ 9 ,bridges' ,*ri/ian ,m9i/ry1 p4 #afh71 ,he t w\ld g d[n to ! pit 9 peace1 let him obta9 a great repute = religion2 let him prea* & lab\r to make o!r bett] ?an he is himself1 & 9 ! meantime neglect to humble 8 he>t1 to walk ) ,god 9 manife/ hol9ess & usefulness1 & he w n fail ( 8 end4 ,ab\t ?is "t he wrote d[n1 = 8 own use1 an exam9ation into ?+s t ought to be am5d$ & *ang$4 ,i subjo9 x entire4 ,h[ s+ul>ly close & imp>tial are ^! rese>*es into 8 s\l6 ,h[ acute is he 9 discov]+ 8 v>iations f ! holy law ( ,god6 ,oh t we all 7 taught by ! same _s ?us to try our re9s6 ,x is only :5 we are ?us ?or\ghly exp]i5c+ our helplessness1 & discov]+ ! ?\s& =ms ( indwell+ s91 t we really sit z disciples at ,*ri/'s feet1 & gladly receive ,him z all 9 all6 ,& at ea* su* mom5t we feel 9 ! _s ( ,ignatius1 ,greek3 ,nyn g> ar*n e* t\ ma?teue/hai--,x is only n[ t ,i beg9 to be a disciple4 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne entitles ! exam9ation ( 8 he>t & life ,re=mation & x comm5ces ?us3-- ,x is ! duty ( m9i/]s 9 ?is day to beg9 ! re=mation ( religion & mann]s ) !mselves1 families1 etc41 ) confession ( pa/ s91 e>ne/ pray] = direction1 grace1 & full purpose ( he>t4 ,mal4 #c3c--';,he %all purify ! sons ( ,levi4' ,m9i/]s are probably laid aside = a "t = ?is v purpose4 #a4 ,p]sonal ,re=mation4 ,i am p]suad$ t ,i %all obta9 ! highe/ am\nt ( pres5t happ9ess1 ,i %all d mo/ = ,god's glory & ! good ( man1 & ,i %all h ! fulle/ rew>d 9 et]nity1 by ma9ta9+ a consci5ce always wa%$ 9 ,*ri/'s blood1 by be+ fill$ ) ! ,holy ,_s at all times1 & by atta9+ ! mo/ entire lik5ess to ,*ri/ 9 m9d1 w1 & he>t1 t is possible = a r$eem$ s9n] to atta9 to 9 ?is _w4 ,i am p]suad$ t :5ev] any "o f )\t1 or my own he>t f )91 at any mom5t1 or 9 any circum/ances1 contradicts ?is1--if any "o %all ins9uate t x is n = my pres5t & et]nal happ9ess1 & = ,god's glory & my usefulness1 to ma9ta9 a blood-wa%$ consci5ce1 to be entirely fill$ ) ! ,_s1 & to be fully con=m$ to ! image ( ,*ri/ 9 all ?+s1--t is ! voice ( ! devil1 ,god's enemy1 ! enemy ( my s\l & ( all good--! mo/ fooli%1 wick$1 & mis]able ( all ! creatures4 ,see ,prov4 #i3ag--',/ol5 wat]s are sweet4' #a4 ,to ma9ta9 a consci5ce void ( (f5ce1 ,i am p]suad$ t ,i ought to confess my s9s m4 ,i ?9k ,i ought to confess s9 ! mom5t ,i see x to be s92 :e!r ,i am 9 company1 or 9 /udy1 or ev5 prea*+1 ! s\l ought to ca/ a glance ( abhorr5ce at ! s94 ,if ,i g on ) ! duty1 leav+ ! s9 unconfess$1 ,i g on ) a burd5$ consci5ce1 & add s9 to s94 ,i ?9k ,i ought at c]ta9 times ( ! day--my be/ times1--say1 aft] breakfa/ & aft] tea1--to confess solemnly ! s9s ( ! previ\s h\rs1 & to seek _! complete remission4 ,i f9d t ! devil (t5 makes use ( ! confession ( s9 to /ir up aga9 ! v s9 confess$ into new ex]cise1 s t ,i am afraid to dwell ^u ! confession4 ,i mu/ ask exp]i5c$ ,*ri/ians ab\t ?is4 ,= ! pres5t1 ,i ?9k ,i %\ld /rive aga9/ ?is awful abuse ( confession1 :]eby ! devil seeks to fright5 me away f confess+4 ,i ought to take all me?ods = see+ ! vil5ess ( my s9s4 ,i ought to reg>d myself z a condemn$ bran* ( ,adam1--z p>tak] ( a nature opposite to ,god f ! womb 7,ps4 #ea471--;z hav+ a he>t full ( all wick$ness1 :i* pollutes e ?\ght1 ^w1 & action1 dur+ my :ole life1 f bir? to dea?4 ,i ought to confess (t5 ! s9s ( my y\?1 l ,david & ,paul1--my s9s be=e conv]sion1 my s9s s9ce conv]sion1--s9s aga9/ light & k1 aga9/ love & grace1 aga9/ ea* p]son ( ! ,godhead4 ,i ought to look at my s9s 9 ! light ( ! holy law1 9 ! light ( ,god's c\nt5ance1 9 ! light ( ! cross1 9 ! light ( ! judgm5t-seat1 9 ! light ( hell1 9 ! light ( et]nity4 ,i ought to exam9e my dreams--my float+ ?\ghts--my pr$ilections--my (t5 recurr+ actions--my habits ( ?\ght1 feel+1 spee*1 & action--! sl&]s ( my enemies & ! repro(s1 & ev5 bant]+s1 ( my fri5ds--to f9d out traces ( my prevail+ s91 matt] = confession4 ,i ought to h a /at$ day ( confession1 ) fa/+--say1 once a mon?4 ,i ought to h a numb] ( scriptures m>k$1 to br+ s9 to remembrance4 ,i ought to make use ( all bodily affliction1 dome/ic trial1 fr[ns ( provid5ce on myself1 h\se1 p>i%1 *ur*1 or c\ntry1 z calls f ,god to confess s94 ,! s9s & afflictions ( o!r m5 %\ld call me to ! same4 ,i ought1 on ,sabba? ev5+s1 & on ,communion ,sabba? ev5+s1 to be especially c>eful to confess ! s9s ( holy ?+s4 ,i ought to confess ! s9s ( my confessions1--_! imp]fections1 s9ful aims1 self-righte\s t5d5cy1 etc41--& to look to ,*ri/ z hav+ confess$ my s9s p]fectly ov] 8 own sacrifice4 ,i ought to g to ,*ri/ = ! =giv5ess ( ea* s94 ,9 wa%+ my body1 ,i g ov] e spot1 & wa% x out4 ,%\ld ,i be less c>eful 9 wa%+ my s\l8 ,i ought to see ! /ripe t 0 made on ! back ( ,jesus by ea* ( my s9s4 ,i ought to see ! inf9ite pang ?rill ?r\gh ! s\l ( ,jesus equal to an et]nity ( my hell = my s9s1 & = all ( !m4 ,i ought to see t 9 ,*ri/'s blood%$d+ !re is an inf9ite ov]-paym5t = all my s9s4 ,al?\gh ,*ri/ did n suff] m ?an inf9ite ju/ice dem&$1 yet ,he c\ld n suff] at all )\t lay+ d[n an inf9ite ransom4 ,i feel1 :5 ,i h s9n$1 an imm$iate reluctance to g to ,*ri/4 ,i am a%am$ to g4 ,i feel z if x w\ld d no good to g1--z if x 7 mak+ ,*ri/ a m9i/] ( s91 to g /raight f ! sw9e-tr\gh to ! be/ robe1--& a ?\s& o!r excuses2 b ,i am p]suad$ !y are all lies1 direct f hell4 ,john argues ! opposite way3 ',if any man s91 we h an advocate ) ! ,fa!r2' ,j]4 #c3a & a ?\s& o!r scriptures are aga9/ x4 ,i am sure !re is nei!r peace nor safety f deep] s91 b 9 go+ directly to ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?is is ,god's way ( peace & hol9ess4 ,x is folly to ! _w & ! becl\d$ he>t1 b x is ! way4 ,i mu/ nev] ?9k a s9 too small to ne$ imm$iate application to ! blood ( ,*ri/4 ,if ,i put away a good consci5ce1 conc]n+ fai? ,i make %ipwreck4 ,i mu/ nev] ?9k my s9s too great1 too aggravat$1 too presumptu\s1--z :5 done on my knees1 or 9 prea*+1 or by a dy+ b$1 or dur+ dang]\s illness1--to h9d] me f flee+ to ,*ri/4 ,! weight ( my s9s %\ld act l ! weight ( a clock3 ! heavi] x is1 x makes x g ! fa/]4 ,i mu/ n only wa% 9 ,*ri/'s blood1 b clo! me 9 ,*ri/'s ob$i5ce4 ,= e s9 ( omission 9 self1 ,i may f9d a div9ely p]fect ob$i5ce ready = me 9 ,*ri/4 ,= e s9 ( commission 9 self1 ,i may f9d n only a /ripe or a w\nd 9 ,*ri/1 b also a p]fect r5d]+ ( ! opposite ob$i5ce 9 my place1 s t ! law is magnifi$1 its curse m ?an c>ri$1 its dem& m ?an answ]$4 ,(t5 ! doctr9e ( ,*ri/ = me appe>s common1 well kn[n1 hav+ no?+ new 9 x2 & ,i am tempt$ to pass x by & g to "s scripture m tak+4 ,?is is ! devil aga91--a r$-hot lie4 ,*ri/ = u is ev] new1 ev] glori\s4 ',unse>*able ri*es ( ,*ri/1'--an inf9ite object1 & ! only "o = a guilty s\l4 ,i ought to h a numb] ( scriptures ready1 :i* lead my bl9d s\l directly to ,*ri/1 su* z ,isaiah #de1 ,rom4 #c4 #b4 ,to be fill$ ) ! ,holy ,_s1 ,i am p]suad$ t ,i ought to /udy m my own weakness4 ,i ought to h a numb] ( scriptures ready to be m$itat$ on1 su* z ,rom4 #g1 ,john #ae1 to conv9ce me t ,i am a helpless worm4 ,i am tempt$ to ?9k t ,i am n[ an e/abli%$ ,*ri/ian1--t ,i h ov]come ?is or t lu/ s long1--t ,i h got into ! habit ( ! opposite grace1--s t !re is no fe>2 ,i may v5ture v ne> ! temptation--ne>] ?an o!r m54 ,?is is a lie ( ,satan4 ,i might z well speak ( gunp[d] gett+ by habit a p[] ( resi/+ fire1 s z n to cat* ! sp>k4 ,z long z p[d] is wet1 x resi/s ! sp>k2 b :5 x becomes dry1 x is ready to explode at ! fir/ t\*4 ,z long z ! ,_s dwells 9 my he>t ,he dead5s me to s91 s t1 if lawfully call$ ?r\gh temptation1 ,i may reckon ^u ,god c>ry+ me ?r\gh4 ,b :5 ! ,_s leaves me1 ,i am l dry gunp[d]4 ,oh = a s5se ( ?is6 ,i am tempt$ to ?9k t !re are "s s9s = :i* ,i h no natural ta/e1 su* z /rong dr9k1 pr(ane language1 etc41 s t ,i ne$ n fe> temptation to su* s9s4 ,?is is a lie1--a pr\d1 presumptu\s lie4 ,! se$s ( all s9s1 are 9 my he>t1 & p]haps all ! m dang]\sly t ,i d n see !m4 ,i ought to pray & labor = ! deepe/ s5se ( my utt] weakness & helplessness t ev] a s9n] 0 br\ght to feel4 ,i am helpless 9 respect ( e lu/ t ev] 01 or ev] w be1 9 ! human he>t4 ,i am a worm--a bea/--be=e ,god4 ,i (t5 tremble to ?9k t ?is is true4 ,i feel z if x w\ld n be safe = me to r5\nce all indwell+ /r5g?1 z if x w\ld be dang]\s = me to feel 7:at is ! tru?7 t !re is no?+ 9 me keep+ me back f ! grosse/ & vile/ s94 ,?is is a delusion ( ! devil4 ,my only safety is to "k1 feel1 & confess my helplessness1 t ,i may hang ^u ! arm ( ,omnipot5ce 444 ,i daily wi% t s9 _h be5 root$ out ( my he>t4 ,i say1 ',:y did ,god leave ! root ( lascivi\sness1 pride1 ang]1 etc41 9 my bosom8 ,he hates s91 & ,i hate x2 :y did ,he n take x clean away8' ,i "k _m answ]s to ?is :i* completely satisfy my judgm5t1 b /ill ,i d n feel satisfi$4 ,?is is wrong4 ,x is "r to be we>y ( ! be+ ( s91 b n "r to qu>rel ) my pres5t 'good fight ( fai?4' 444 ,! falls ( pr(essors into s9 make me tremble4 ,i h be5 driv5 away f pray]1 & burd5$ 9 a fe>ful mann] by he>+ or see+ _! s94 ,?is is wrong4 ,x is "r to tremble1 & to make e s9 ( e pr(essor a lesson ( my own helplessness2 b x %\ld lead me ! m to ,*ri/ 444 ,if ,i 7 m deeply conv9c$ ( my utt] helplessness1 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld n be s al>m$ :5 ,i he> ( ! falls ( o!r m5 444 ,i %\ld /udy ^? s9s 9 :i* ,i am mo/ helpless1 9 :i* passion becomes l a :irlw9d & ,i l a /raw4 ,no figure ( spee* c repres5t my utt] want ( p[] to resi/ ! torr5t ( s9 444 ,i ought to /udy ,*ri/'s omnipot5ce m3 ,heb4 #g3be1 ,i ,!ss4 #e3bc1 ,rom4 #f3ad1 ,rom4 #e3i1 #aj1 & su* scriptures1 %\ld be ev] be=e me 444 ,paul's ?orn1 ,,ii ,cor4 #ab1 is ! exp]i5ce ( ! great] "p ( my life4 ,x %\ld be ev] be=e me 444 ,!re are _m subsidi>y me?ods ( seek+ deliv]ance f s9s1 :i* mu/ n be neglect$1--?us1 m>riage1 ,i ,cor4 #g3b2 flee+1 ,i ,tim4 #f3aa1 ,i ,cor4 #f3ah2 wat* & pray1 ,matt4 #bf3da2 ! ^w1 ',x is writt51 ,x is writt54' ,s ,*ri/ def5d$ himself2 ,matt4 #d4 444 ,b ! ma9 def5ce is ca/+ myself into ! arms ( ,*ri/ l a helpless *ild1 & besee*+ ,him to fill me ) ! ,holy ,_s4 ',?is is ! victory t ov]come? ! _w1 ev5 our fai?1' ,i ,john #e3d1 #e1--;a wond]ful passage4 ,i ought to /udy ,*ri/ z a liv+ ,savi\r m1--z a ,%eph]d1 c>ry+ ! %eep ,he f9ds1--z a ,k+1 reign+ 9 & ov] ! s\ls ,he has r$eem$1--z a ,capta91 fight+ ) ^? :o fight ) me1 ,ps4 #ce41--;z "o :o has engag$ to br+ me ?r\gh all temptations & trials1 h[ev] impossible to fle% & blood4 ,i am (t5 tempt$ to say1 ,h[ c ?is ,man save u8 ,h[ c ,*ri/ 9 heav5 deliv] me f lu/s :i* ,i feel rag+ 9 me1 & nets ,i feel enclos+ me8 ,?is is ! fa!r ( lies aga96 ',he is able to save unto ! utt]mo/4' ,i ought to /udy ,*ri/ z an ,int]cessor4 ,he pray$ mo/ = ,pet]1 :o 0 to be mo/ tempt$4 ,i am on 8 brea/plate4 ,if ,i c\ld he> ,*ri/ pray+ = me 9 ! next room1 ,i w\ld n fe> a million ( enemies4 ,yet ! di/ance makes no diff]5ce2 ,he is pray+ = me4 ,i ought to /udy ! ,com=t] m1--8 ,godhead1 8 love1 8 almight9ess4 ,i h f\nd by exp]i5ce t no?+ sanctifies me s mu* z m$itat+ on ! ,com=t]1 z ,john #ad3af4 ,& yet h[ seldom ,i d ?is6 ,satan keeps me f x4 ,i am (t5 l ^? m5 :o said1 ,!y knew n if !re be any ,holy ,gho/ 444 ,i ought nev] to =get t my body is dwelt 9 by ! ?ird ,p]son ( ! ,godhead4 ,! v ?\ght ( ?is %\ld make me tremble to s92 ,i ,cor4 #f 444 ,i ought nev] to =get t s9 grieves ! ,holy ,_s1--vexes & qu5*es ,him 444 ,if ,i w\ld be fill$ ) ! ,_s1 ,i feel ,i mu/ read ! ,bible m1 pray m1 & wat* m4 #c4 ,to ga9 entire lik5ess to ,*ri/1 ,i ought to get a high e/eem ( ! happ9ess ( x4 ,i am p]suad$ t ,god's happ9ess is insep>ably l9k$ 9 ) 8 hol9ess4 ,hol9ess & happ9ess are l light & heat4 ,god nev] ta/$ "o ( ! pleasures ( s94 ,*ri/ _h a body su* z ,i h1 yet ,he nev] ta/$ "o ( ! pleasures ( s94 ,! r$eem$1 ?r\gh all et]nity1 w nev] ta/e "o ( ! pleasures ( s92 yet _! happ9ess is complete4 ,x w\ld be my greate/ happ9ess to be f ?is mom5t entirely l !m4 ,e s9 is some?+ away f my greate/ enjoym5t 444 ,! devil /rives night & day to make me =get ?is or disbelieve x4 ,he says1 ,:y %\ld y n enjoy ?is pleasure z mu* z ,solomon or ,david8 ,y may g to heav5 also4 ,i am p]suad$ t ?is is a lie1--t my true happ9ess is to g & s9 no m4 ,i ought n to delay p>t+ ) s9s4 ,n[ is ,god's "t4 ',i made ha/e & delay$ n4' 444 ,i ought n to sp>e s9s because ,i h long all[$ !m z infirmities1 & o!rs w\ld ?9k x odd if ,i 7 to *ange all at once4 ,:at a wret*$ delusion ( ,satan t is6 ,:atev] ,i see to be s91 ,i ought f ?is h\r to set my :ole s\l aga9/ x1 us+ all scriptural me?ods to mortify x1 z ! ,scriptures1 special pray] = ! ,_s1 fa/+1 wat*+4 ,i ought to m>k /rictly ! occasions :5 ,i h fall51 & avoid ! occasion z mu* z ! s9 itself4 ,satan (t5 tempts me to g z ne> to temptations z possible )\t committ+ ! s94 ,?is is fe>ful1--tempt+ ,god & griev+ ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,x is a deep-laid plot ( ,satan4 ,i ought to flee all temptation1 accord+ to ,prov4 #d3ae--;,avoid x1 pass n by x1 turn f x1 & pass away4' 444 ,i ought con/antly to p\r out my he>t to ,god1 pray+ = entire con=mity to ,*ri/--= ! :ole law to be writt5 on my he>t 444 ,i ought /at$ly & solemnly to give my he>t to ,god--to surr5d] my all into 8 ev]la/+ arms1 accord+ to ! pray]1 ,ps4 #ca41 ',into ?9e h& ,i commit my _s1'--besee*+ ,him n to let any iniquity1 secret or presumptu\s1 h dom9ion ov] me1 & to fill me ) e grace t is 9 ,*ri/1 9 ! highe/ degree t x is possible = r$eem$ s9n] to receive x1 & at all times1 till dea?4 ,i ought to m$itate (t5 on heav5 z a _w ( hol9ess1--:]e all are holy1 :]e ! joy is holy joy1 ! "w holy "w2 s t1 )\t p]sonal hol9ess1 ,i nev] c be !re 444 ,i ought to avoid ! appe>ance ( evil4 ,god comm&s me2 & ,i f9d t ,satan has a s+ul> art 9 l9k+ ! appe>ance & reality toge!r4 ,i f9d t speak+ ( "s s9s defiles my m9d & leads me into temptation2 & ,i f9d t ,god =bids ev5 sa9ts to speak ( ! ?+s t are done ( !m 9 secret4 ,i ought to avoid ?is4 ,eve1 ,a*an1 ,david1 all fell ?r\gh ! lu/ ( ! eye4 ,i %\ld make a cov5ant ) m9e1 & pray1 ',turn away m9e eyes f view+ vanity4' 444 ,satan makes unconv]t$ m5 l ! deaf add] to ! s\nd ( ! gospel4 ,i %\ld pray to be made deaf by ! ,holy ,_s to all t w\ld tempt me to s94 ,"o ( my mo/ frequ5t occasions ( be+ l$ into temptation is ?is1--,i say x is ne$ful to my (fice t ,i li/5 to ?is1 or look into ?is1 or speak ( ?is4 ,s f> ?is is true2 yet ,i am sure ,satan has 8 "p 9 ?is argum5t4 ,i %\ld seek div9e direction to settle h[ f> x w be good = my m9i/ry1 & h[ f> evil = my s\l1 t ,i may avoid ! latt]4 ,i am p]suad$ t no?+ is ?riv+ 9 my s\l unless x is gr[+4 ',gr[ 9 grace4' ',"l1 increase our fai?4' ',=gett+ ! ?+s t are beh9d4' 444 ,i am p]suad$ t ,i ought to be inquir+ at ,god & man :at grace ,i want1 & h[ ,i may become m l ,*ri/ 444 ,i ought to /rive = m purity1 humility1 meekness1 pati5ce "u suff]+1 love4 ',make me ,*ri/-l 9 all ?+s1' %\ld be my con/ant pray]4 ',fill me ) ! ,holy ,_s4' #b4 ,re=mation 9 ,secret ,pray]4 ,i ought n to omit any ( ! p>ts ( pray]--confession1 adoration1 ?anksgiv+1 petition1 & int]cession4 ,!re is a fe>ful t5d5cy to omit confession1 proce$+ f l[ views ( ,god & 8 law1 slight views ( my he>t & ! s9s ( my pa/ life4 ,?is mu/ be resi/$4 ,!re is a con/ant t5d5cy to omit adoration1 :5 ,i =get to :om ,i am speak+--:5 ,i ru% he$lessly into ! pres5ce ( ,jehovah1 )\t rememb]+ 8 awful "n & "*--:5 ,i h little eyesight = 8 glory1 & little admiration ( 8 wond]s4 ',:]e are ! wise8' ,i h ! native t5d5cy ( ! he>t to omit giv+ ?anks4 ,& yet x is specially comm&$1 ,phil4 #d3f4 ,(t5 :5 ! he>t is selfi%1 dead to ! salvation ( o!rs1 ,i omit int]cession4 ,& yet x especially is ! _s ( ! great ,advocate1 :o has ! "n ( ,israel always on 8 he>t4 ,p]haps e pray] ne$ n h all ^!2 b surely a day %\ld n pass )\t "s space be+ devot$ to ea*4 ,i ought to pray be=e see+ any "o4 ,(t5 :5 ,i sleep long1 or meet ) o!rs e>ly1 & !n h family pray]1 & breakfa/1 & =5oon call]s1 (t5 x is elev5 or twelve o'clock be=e ,i beg9 secret pray]4 ,?is is a wret*$ sy/em4 ,x is unscriptural4 ,*ri/ rose be=e day1 & w5t into a solit>y place4 ,david says1 ',e>ly w ,i seek ,!e2 ,?\ %alt e>ly he> my voice4' ,m>y ,magdal5e came to ! sepul*re :ile x 0 yet d>k4 ,family pray] loses mu* ( its p[] & sweetness2 & ,i c d no good to ^? :o come to seek f me4 ,! consci5ce feels guilty1 ! s\l unf$1 ! lamp n trimm$4 ,!n1 :5 secret pray] comes1 ! s\l is (t5 out ( tune4 ,i feel x is f> bett] to beg9 ) ,god--to see 8 face fir/--to get my s\l ne> ,him be=e x is ne> ano!r4 ',:5 ,i awake ,i am /ill ) ,!e4' ,if ,i h slept too long1 or am go+ an e>ly j\rney1 or my "t is any way %ort5$1 x is be/ to dress hurri$ly1 & h a few m9utes alone ) ,god1 ?an to give x up = lo/4 ,b 9 g5]al1 x is be/ to h at lea/ "o h\r alone ) ,god1 be=e engag+ 9 any?+ else4 ,at ! same "t1 ,i mu/ be c>eful n to reckon communion ) ,god by m9utes or h\rs1 or by solitude4 ,i h por$ ov] my ,bible1 & on my knees = h\rs1 ) little or no communion2 & my times ( solitude h be5 (t5 times ( greate/ temptation4 ,z to int]cession1 ,i ought daily to int]c$e = my own family1 connections1 relatives1 & fri5ds2 also = my flock1--! believ]s1 ! awak5$1 ! c>eless2 ! sick1 ! b]eav$2 ! poor1 ! ri*2 my eld]s1 ,sabba?-s*ool tea*]s1 day-s*ool tea*]s1 *ildr51 tract-di/ributors1 t all means may be bless$--,sabba?-day prea*+ & tea*+2 visit+ ( ! sick1 visit+ f h\se to h\se2 provid5ces1 sacram5ts4 ,i ought daily to int]c$e briefly = ! :ole t[n1 ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&1 all fai?ful m9i/]s2 = vacant congregations1 /ud5ts ( div9ity1 etc42 = de> bre?r5 by "n2 = mission>ies to ,jews & ,g5tiles1 & = ?is end ,i mu/ read mission>y intellig5ce regul>ly1 & get acqua9t$ ) all t is do+ ?r\gh\t ! _w4 ,x w\ld /ir me up to pray ) ! map be=e me4 ,i mu/ h a s*eme ( pray]1 also ! names ( mission>ies m>k$ on ! map4 ,i ought to int]c$e at l>ge = ! above on ,saturday morn+ & ev5+ f sev5 to eight4 ,p]haps also ,i might take diff]5t p>ts = diff]5t days2 only ,i ought daily to plead = my family & flock4 ,i ought to pray 9 ev]y?+4 ',be c>eful = no?+1 b 9 ev]y?+ 444 by pray] & supplication1 make y\r reque/s kn[n unto ,god4' ,(t5 ,i receive a lett] ask+ to prea*1 or "s su* reque/4 ,i f9d myself answ]+ be=e hav+ ask$ c\nsel ( ,god4 ,/ill (t5] a p]son calls & asks me some?+1 & ,i d n ask direction4 ,(t5 ,i g out to visit a sick p]son 9 a hurry1 )\t ask+ 8 bless+1 :i* alone c make ! visit ( any use4 ,i am p]suad$ t ,i ought nev] to d any?+ )\t pray]1 &1 if possible1 special1 secret pray]4 ,9 read+ ! hi/ory ( ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&1 ,i see h[ mu* h] tr\bles & trials h be5 connect$ ) ! salvation ( s\ls & ! glory ( ,*ri/4 ,i ought to pray f> m = our *ur*1 = our lead+ m9i/]s by "n1 & = my own cle> guidance 9 ! "r way1 t ,i may n be l$ aside1 or driv5 aside1 f foll[+ ,*ri/4 ,_m difficult que/ions may be =c$ on u = :i* ,i am n fully prep>$1 su* z ! lawfulness ( cov5ants4 ,i %\ld pray mu* m 9 peaceful days1 t ,i may be guid$ rightly :5 days ( trial come4 ,i ought to sp5d ! be/ h\rs ( ! day 9 communion ) ,god4 ,x is my noble/ & mo/ fruitful employm5t1 & is n to be ?ru/ into any corn]4 ,! morn+ h\rs1 f six to eight1 are ! mo/ un9t]rupt$1 & %\ld be ?us employ$1 if ,i c prev5t dr[s9ess4 ,a little "t aft] breakfa/ might be giv5 to int]cession4 ,aft] tea is my be/ h\r1 & t %\ld be solemnly d$icat$ to ,god1 if possible4 ,i ought n to give up ! good old habit ( pray] be=e go+ to b$2 b gu>d mu/ be kept aga9/ sleep3 plann+ :at ?+s ,i am to ask is ! be/ rem$y4 ,:5 ,i awake 9 ! night1 ,i ought to rise & pray1 z ,david & z ,john ,wel% did4 ,i ought to read ?ree *apt]s ( ! ,bible 9 secret e day1 at lea/4 ,i ought on ,sabba? morn+ to look ov] all ! *apt]s read ?r\gh ! week1 & especially ! v]ses m>k$4 ,i ought to read 9 ?ree diff]5t places2 ,i ought also to read accord+ to subjects1 lives1 etc4 ,he has evid5tly left ?is unf9i%$1 & n[ he kn[s ev5 z he is kn[n4 ,t[>d ! end ( 8 m9i/ry1 he became peculi>ly jeal\s ( becom+ an idol to 8 p2 = he 0 lov$ & rev]$ by _m :o gave no evid5ce ( love to ,*ri/4 ,?is (t5 pa9$ him mu*4 ,x is inde$ "r 9 a p to reg>d _! pa/or ) no common love 7,,ii ,cor4 #i3ad71 b !re is ev] a dang] ready to arise4 ,he us$ to say1 ,m9i/]s are b ! pole2 x is to ! braz5 s]p5t y are to look4 ,! /ate ( 8 heal? w\ld n p]mit him to be labori\s 9 go+ f h\se to h\se1 :]eas prea*+ & evangeli/ic "w 9 g5]al 0 less exhau/+2 b ( c\rse1 :ile he 0 ?us engag$1 _m conc]ns ( ! p>i% w\ld be unatt5d$ to2 accord+ly 8 ,session (f]$ him a /at$ assi/ant to help him 9 8 p>o*ial duty4 ,) ?is proposal he at once concurr$4 ,mr4 ,ga!r]1 !n at ,c>ald/one1 0 *os51 & cont9u$ to labor fai?fully ) him dur+ ! rema9+ days ( 8 m9i/ry4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ! ye> he publi%$ 8 ,daily ,bread1 an arrangem5t ( ,scripture1 t ! ,bible might be read ?r\gh 9 ! c\rse ( a ye>4 ,he s\ght to induce 8 p to m$itate mu* on ! writt5 ^w 9 all its bread?4 ,8 la/ publication 01 ,ano!r ,lily ,ga!r$1 or ! acc\nt ( ,james ,la+1 a little boy 9 8 flock1 br\ght to ,*ri/ e>ly1 & c>ri$ soon to glory4 ,9 ! middle ( ,janu>y #ahdc1 he visit$ ,collace1 & prea*$ on ,i ,cor4 #i3bg3 ,a ,ca/away--a s]mon s solemn t "o said x 0 l a bla/ ( ! trumpet t w\ld awak5 ! dead4 ,next day he rode on to ,l9tra!n1 :]e ! p 7 will+ to give up _! "w at mid-day1 if he w\ld come & prea* to !m4 ,all ?is mon? he 0 brea?+ aft] glory4 ,9 8 lett]s !re are su* expressions z ^!3 ,i (t5 pray1 ,"l1 make me z holy z a p>don$ s9n] c be made4 ,(t51 (t5 ,i w\ld l to dep>t & be ) ,*ri/--to m\nt to ,pisgah-top & take a f>ewell look ( ! *ur* bel[1 & leave my body & be pres5t ) ! ,"l4 ,ah1 x is f> bett]6 ,aga93 ,i d n expect to live long4 ,i expect a sudd5 call "s day--p]haps soon1 & !re=e ,i speak v pla9ly4 ,b1 inde$1 he _h long be5 p]suad$ t 8 c\rse w\ld be brief4 ,8 he>]s rememb] well h[ (t5 he w\ld speak 9 su* language z t ) :i* he "o day clos$ 8 s]mon3 ,*anges are com+2 e eye be=e me %all soon be dim 9 dea?4 ,ano!r pa/or %all fe$ ?is flock2 ano!r s+] lead ! psalm2 ano!r flock %all fill ?is fold4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ,febru>y1 by appo9tm5t ( ! ,committee ( ! ,convocation1 he accompani$ ,mr4 ,alex&] ( ,zirkcaldy to visit ! di/ricts ( ,de] & ,ellon--di/ricts ov] :i* he ye>n$1 = ,mod]atism _h held undisput$ sway ov] !m = g5]ations4 ,x 0 to be 8 la/ evangeli/ic t\r4 ,he exemplifi$ 8 own rem>k1 ,! oil ( ! lamp 9 ! temple burnt away 9 giv+ light2 s %\ld we4 ,he set out1 says "o t saw him leave t[n1 z uncl\d$ & happy z ! sky t 0 above 8 head t bright morn+4 ,dur+ ! space ( ?ree weeks1 he prea*$ or spoke at meet+s 9 f\r-&-tw5ty places1 sometimes m ?an once 9 ! same place4 ,great impression 0 made ^u ! p ( ! di/rict4 ,"o :o track$ 8 foot/eps a mon? aft] 8 dea? /ates1 t sympa?y ) ! pr9ciples ( our suff]+ *ur* 0 awak5$ 9 _m places2 b1 above all1 a ?ir/ 0 excit$ = ! pure ^w ( life4 ,8 em95tly holy walk & conv]sation1 comb9$ ) ! deep solemnity ( 8 prea*+1 0 specially felt4 ,! p lov$ to speak ( him4 ,9 "o place1 :]e a meet+ _h be5 intimat$1 ! p assembl$1 resolv+ to ca/ /ones at him z soon z he %\ld beg9 to speak2 b s soon] _h he begun1 ?an 8 mann]1 8 look1 8 words1 rivet$ !m all1 & !y li/5$ ) int5se e>ne/ness2 & be=e he left ! place1 ! p ga!r$ r\nd him1 entreat+ him to /ay & prea* to !m4 ,"o man1 :o _h ca/ mud at him1 0 aft]w>ds mov$ to te>s on he>+ ( 8 dea?4 ,he wrote to ,mr4 ,ga!r]1 ,febru>y #ad1 ,i _h a nice opportunity ( prea*+ 9 ,ab]de52 & 9 ,pet]head our meet+ 0 truly successful4 ,! m9i/] ( ,/4 ,f]gus ,i f\nd to be :at y describ$4 ,we _h a solemn meet+ 9 8 *ur*4 ,9 ,/ri*51 we _h a meet+ 9 ! ,indep5d5t ,meet+-h\se4 ,on ,friday ev5+1 we _h two delightful meet+s1 9 a mill at ,cre*ie1 & 9 ! *ur* ( ,clola4 ,! p 7 evid5tly mu* impress$1 "s weep+4 ,on ,saturday ev5+ we met 9 ! ,brucklay b>n4 ,i prea*$ on ,sabba?1 at ,new ,de] 9 ! morn+1 & at ,fras]burgh 9 ! ev5+--bo? int]e/+ meet+s4 ,to-night we met 9 ,pitsligo *ur*4 ,to-morr[ we tru/ to be 9 ,ab]d\r2 & !n we leave = ! ,presbyt]y ( ,ellon4 ,! wea!r has be5 delightful till n[4 ,to-day ! sn[ is beg9n+ to drift4 ,b ,god is ) u1 & ,he w c>ry u to ! v end4 ,i am q well1 ?\gh a little fatigu$ sometimes4 ,on ! #bd?1 he writes to ano!r fri5d1 ,to-day is ! fir/ we h re/$ s9ce leav+ home1 s t ,i am almo/ ov]come ) fatigue4 ,d n be idle2 improve 9 all useful k4 ,y "k :at an enemy ,i am to idl5ess4 ,nev] 0 x m felt t ,god 0 ) him ?an 9 ?is j\rney4 ,! ,"l seem$ to %[ 9 him ! mean+ ( ! text1 ,out ( 8 belly %all fl[ riv]s ( liv+ wat]1 ,john #g3ch4 ,ev5 :5 sil5t1 ! ne> int]c\rse he held ) ,god left its impression on ^? ar\nd4 ,8 con/ant hol9ess t\*$ ! consci5ce ( _m4 ,return+ to 8 belov$ flock on ,m>* #a/1 9 good heal?1 b mu* exhau/$1 he relat$1 next ev5+1 at 8 pray]-meet+1 :at ?+s he _h se5 & he>d4 ,dur+ ! next twelve days he 0 to be f\nd go+ out & 9 among 8 p1 fill+ up1 z 8 mann] 01 e in* ( "t4 ,b he _h be5 mu* weak5$ by 8 unceas+ ex]tions :5 9 ! nor?1 & he 0 m ?an ord9>ily expos$ to ! typhus fev] t 0 !n prevail+ 9 8 p>i%1 sev]al cases ( :i* he visit$ 9 8 enfeebl$ /ate4 ,on ,sabba? ! #e?1 he prea*$ ?ree times2 & two days aft]1 ,i f9d him writ+ to 8 fa!r3 ,all dome/ic matt]s g on l a placid /ream--,i tru/ n )\t its f]tiliz+ influ5ce4 ,no?+ is m improv+ ?an ! dome/ic alt>1 :5 we come to x = a daily supply ( s\l n\ri%m5t4 ,to ! la/ we get glances into 8 s\l's gr[?4 ,8 family devotions 7 full ( life & full ( gladness to ! end4 ,inde$1 8 v mann] 9 read+ ! *apt] rem9d$ y ( a man por+ into ! s&s = pieces ( f9e gold1 & f "t to "t hold+ up to y :at he delight$ to h f\nd4 ,on ,sabba? ! #ab?1 he prea*$ ^u ,heb4 #i3ae 9 ! =5oon1 & ,rom4 #i3bb1 #bc1 9 ! aft]noon1 ) uncommon solemnity2 & x 0 obs]v$1 bo? !n & on o!r late occasions1 he spoke ) peculi> /r5g? ^u ! sov]eignty ( ,god4 ,^! 7 8 la/ disc\rses to 8 p 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s4 ,t same ev5+ he w5t d[n to ,br\ghty ,f]ry1 & prea*$ ^u ,isaiah #fj3a1 ,arise1 %9e4 etc4 ,x 0 ! la/ "t he 0 to be engag$ directly 9 proclaim+ ,*ri/ to s9n]s2 & z he began 8 m9i/ry ) s\ls = 8 hire1 s x appe>s t 8 la/ disc\rse _h 9 x sav+ p[] to "s1 & t r f ! hol9ess x brea!d ?an f ! wisdom ( its words4 ,aft] 8 dea?1 a note 0 f\nd unop5$1 :i* _h be5 s5t to him 9 ! c\rse ( ! foll[+ week1 :5 he lay 9 ! fev]4 ,x ran ?us3 ,i hope y w p>don a /rang] = address+ to y a few l9es4 ,i he>d y prea* la/ ,sabba? ev5+1 & x pleas$ ,god to bless t s]mon to my s\l4 ,x 0 n s mu* :at y said1 z y\r mann] ( speak+ t /ruck me4 ,i saw 9 y a beauty 9 hol9ess t ,i nev] saw be=e4 ,y also said some?+ 9 y\r pray] t /ruck me v mu*4 ,x 01 ',?\ kn[e/ t we love ,!e4' ,oh1 sir1 :at w\ld ,i give t ,i c\ld say to my bless$ ,savi\r1 ',?\ kn[e/ t ,i love ,!e6' ,next ev5+ he held a meet+ 9 ,/4 ,pet]'s1 ) ! view ( organiz+ 8 p = collect+ 9 behalf ( ! ,free ,prote/+ ,*ur*1--! disruption ( ! ,e/abli%m5t be+ n[ inevitable4 ,he spoke v f]v5tly2 & aft] ! meet+ felt *ill$ & unwell4 ,next morn+ he felt t he 0 ill2 b w5t out 9 ! aft]noon to ! m>riage ( two ( 8 flock4 ,he seem$1 h[ev]1 to anticipate a s]i\s attack1 =1 on 8 way home1 he made "s arrangem5ts connect$ ) 8 m9i/]ial "w1 & left a message at ,dr4 ,gibson's h\se1 ask+ him to come & see him4 ,he believ$ t he _h tak5 ! fev]1 & x 0 s4 ,t night he lay d[n ^u ! b$ f :i* he 0 nev] to rise4 ,he spoke little1 b intimat$ t he appreh5d$ dang]4 ,on ,w$nesday1 he said he ?\ght t he w\ld nev] h se5 ! morn+1 he felt s sore brok51 & _h got no sleep2 b aft]w>ds add$1 ,%all we receive good at ! h& ( ! ,"l1 & %all we n receive evil also8 ,he seem$ cl\d$ 9 _s1 (t5 repeat+ su* passages z--,my moi/ure is turn$ into ! dr\ght ( summ]2--,my bones wax old1 ?r\gh my ro>+ all day long4 ,x 0 ) difficulty t he 0 able to speak a few words ) 8 assi/ant1 ,mr4 ,ga!r]4 ,9 ! =5oon1 ,mr4 ,mill] ( ,wallacet[n f\nd him oppress$ ) extreme pa9 9 8 head4 ,among/ o!r ?+s !y conv]s$ ^u ,ps4 #abf4 ,on com+ to ! #f? v]se1 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne said he w\ld give him a division ( x4 #a4 ,:at is s[$--,preci\s se$4 #b4 ,! mann] ( s[+ x--,goe? =? & weepe?4 ,he dwelt ^u weepe? & !n said1 ,m9i/]s %\ld g =? at all times4 #c4 ,! fruit--,%all d\btless come aga9 ) rejoic+4 ,mr4 ,mill] po9t$ to ! c]ta9ty ( x2 ,mr4 ,m',*eyne ass5t$1 ,yes--d\btless4 ,aft] pray+ ) him1 ,mr4 ,mill] repeat$ ,matt4 #aa3bh1 ^u :i* ,mr4 ,m',*eyne clasp$ 8 h&s ) great e>ne/ness4 ,z he became worse1 8 m$ical att5dants =bade him to be visit$4 ,once or twice he ask$ = me1 & 0 he>d to speak ( ,smyrna z if ! associations ( 8 illness !re 7 recall$ by 8 burn+ fev] n[4 ,i 0 n at t "t aw>e ( 8 dang]1 ev5 ! rumor ( x _h n rea*$ u4 ,next day1 he cont9u$ sunk 9 body & m9d1 till ab\t ! "t :5 8 p met = _! usual ev5+ pray]-meet+1 :5 he reque/$ to be left alone = half an h\r4 ,:5 8 s]vant ent]$ ! room aga91 he exclaim$1 ) a joyful voice4 ,my s\l is escap$ z a bird out ( ! sn>e ( ! f[l]2 ! sn>e is brok51 & ,i am escap$4 ,8 c\nt5ance1 z he said ?is1 bespoke inw>d peace4 ,ev] aft] he 0 obs]v$ to be happy2 & at supp]-"t t ev5+1 :5 tak+ a little refre%m5t1 he gave ?anks1 ,= /r5g? 9 ! "t ( weakness--= light 9 ! "t ( d>kness--= joy 9 ! "t ( sorr[--= com=t+ u 9 all our tribulations1 t we may be able to com=t ^? t are 9 any tr\ble1 by ! com=t :]e) we ourselves are com=t$ ( ,god4 ,on ,sabba?1 :5 "o express$ a wi% t he _h be5 able to g =? z usual to prea*1 he repli$1 ,my ?\ghts are n y\r ?\ghts1 nei!r are my ways y\r ways1 sai? ! ,"l2 & add$1 ,i am prea*+ ! s]mon t ,god w\ld h me to d4 ,on ,tuesday 7! #ba/7 8 si/] repeat$ to him sev]al hymns4 ,! la/ words he he>d1 & ! la/ he seem$ to und]/&1 7 ^? ( ,c[p]'s hymn1 ,sometimes ! light surprises ! ,*ri/ian z he s+s4 ,& !n ! delirium came on4 ,at "o "t1 dur+ ! delirium1 he said to 8 att5dant1 ,m9d ! text1 ,i ,cor4 #ae3eh--';,be /$fa/1 unmoveable1 always ab\nd+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l1' dwell+ ) mu* emphasis on ! la/ clause1 =asmu* z ye "k t y\r labor is n 9 va9 9 ! ,"l4 ,at ano!r "t he seem$ to feel himself among 8 bre?r51 & said1 ,i don't ?9k mu* ( policy 9 *ur* c\rts2 no1 ,i hate x2 b ,i'll tell y :at ,i l1 fai?fulness to ,god1 & a holy walk4 ,8 voice1 :i* _h be5 weak be=e1 became v /rong n[2 & (t5 0 he he>d speak+ to or pray+ = 8 p4 ,y mu/ be awak5$ 9 "t1 or y w be awak5$ 9 ev]la/+ torm5t1 to y\r et]nal confusion4 ,y may soon get me away1 b t w n save y\r s\ls4 ,!n he pray$1 ,?is p>i%1 ,"l1 ?is p1 ?is :ole place6 ,at ano!r "t1 ,d x ?yself1 ,"l1 = ?y weak s]vant4 ,& aga91 z if pray+ = ! sa9ts1 ,holy ,fa!r1 keep ?r\gh ?9e own "n ^? :om ,?\ ha/ giv5 me4 ,?us he cont9u$ mo/ g5]ally engag$1 :ile ! delirium la/$1 ei!r 9 pray] or 9 prea*+ to 8 p1 & always app>5tly 9 happy frame1 till ! morn+ ( ,saturday ! #be?4 ,on t morn+1 :ile 8 k9d m$ical att5dant1 ,dr4 ,gibson1 /ood by1 he lift$ up 8 h&s z if 9 ! attitude ( pron\nc+ ! bless+1 & !n sank d[n4 ,n a groan or a sigh1 b only a quiv] ( ! lip1 & 8 s\l 0 at re/4 ,z he 0 subject to frequ5t sickness1 x 0 n till )9 "s days ( 8 dea? t s]i\s al>m 0 g5]ally felt1 & h5ce ! /roke came ) awful sudd5ness ^u u all4 ,t same aft]noon1 :ile prep>+ = ,sabba? duties1 ! tid+s rea*$ me4 ,i ha/5$ d[n1 ?\gh sc>ce kn[+ :y ,i w5t4 ,8 p 7 t ev5+ met toge!r 9 ! *ur*1 & su* a sc5e ( sorr[ has n (t5 be5 witness$ 9 ,scotl&4 ,x 0 l ! weep+ = ,k+ ,josiah4 ,hundr$s 7 !re2 ! l[] "p ( ! *ur* 0 full3 & none among !m seem$ able to conta9 _! sorr[4 ,e he>t seem$ bur/+ ) grief1 s t ! weep+ & ! cries c\ld be he>d af> (f4 ,! ,"l _h mo/ sev]ely w\nd$ ! p :om ,he _h be=e s peculi>ly favor$2 & n[1 by ?is awful /roke ( 8 h&1 0 fix+ deep] 9 _! s\ls all t 8 s]vant _h spok5 9 ! days ( 8 peculi> m9i/ry4 ,:]ev] ! news ( 8 dep>ture came1 e ,*ri/ian c\nt5ance 0 d>k5$ ) sadness4 ,p]haps1 nev] 0 ! dea? ( "o1 ^: :ole occupation _h be5 prea*+ ! ev]la/+ gospel1 m felt by all ! sa9ts ( ,god 9 ,scotl&4 ,n a few also ( our ,presbyt]ian bre?r5 9 ,irel& felt ! bl[ to ! v he>t4 ,he himself us$ to say1 ,live s z to be miss$2 & none t saw ! te>s t 7 %$ ov] 8 dea? w\ld h d\bt$ t 8 own life _h be5 :at he recomm5d$ to o!rs4 ,he _h n complet$ m ?an tw5ty-n9e ye>s :5 ,god took him4 ,on ! day ( 8 burial1 bus9ess 0 q susp5d$ 9 ! p>i%4 ,! /reets1 & e w9d[1 f ! h\se to ! grave1 7 cr[d$ ) ^? :o felt t a pr9ce 9 ,israel _h fall52 & _m a c>eless man felt a secret awe creep ov] 8 h>d5$ s\l z he ca/ 8 eye on ! solemn spectacle4 ,8 tomb may be se5 on ! pa?way at ! nor?-we/ corn] ( ,/4 ,pet]'s bury+-gr\nd4 ,he has gone to ! m\nta9 ( myrrh & ! hill ( frank9c5se1 till ! day break & ! %ad[s flee away4 ,8 "w 0 f9i%$6 ,8 heav5ly ,fa!r _h n ano!r plant = him to wat]1 nor ano!r v9e = him to tra92 & ! ,savi\r :o s lov$ him 0 wait+ to greet him ) 8 own welcome3 ,well done1 good & fai?ful s]vant1 ent] ?\ into ! joy ( ?y ,"l4 ,b :at is ! voice to u8 ,has ?is be5 s5t z ! /roke ( wra?1 or ! rebuke ( love8 ,8 way is 9 ! sea1 & 8 pa? 9 ! great wat]s1 & 8 foot/eps are n kn[n4 ,only ?is mu* we c cle>ly see1 t no?+ 0 m fitt$ to leave 8 "* & example impress$ on our remembrance =ev] ?an 8 e>ly dea?4 ,!re might be envy :ile he liv$2 !re is none n[4 ,!re might h be5 "s ( ! y\?ful attractiv5ess ( 8 graces lo/ _h he liv$ _m ye>s2 ?is _c be impair$ n[4 ,x seems z if ! ,"l _h /ruck ! fl[] f its /em1 ere any ( ! colors _h lo/ _! bright hue1 or any leaf ( fragrance4 ,well may ! flock ( ,/4 ,pet]'s lay x to he>t4 ,!y h _h days ( visitation4 ,ye h se5 ! "r h& ( ! ,"l pluck$ out ( 8 bosom8 ,:at %all ! unsav$ among y d 9 ! day ( ! ,"l's ang]8 ,if ?\ had/ kn[n1 ev5 ?\1 at lea/ 9 ?is ?y day1 ! ?+s :i* belong to ?y peace6 ,x has be5 m ?an once ! lot ( ,scotl& 7z 0 said 9 ! days ( ,durham7 to enjoy s mu* ( ! ,"l's k9dness1 z to h m5 to lose ^: loss has be5 felt to ! v he>t--witnesses = ,*ri/1 :o saw ! ,k+'s face & te/ifi$ ( 8 beauty4 ,we _c weep !m back2 b %all we n call ^u ,him ) :om is ! residue ( ! ,_s1 t ere ! ,"l come4 ,he w\ld raise up m51 l ,eno*1 or l ,paul1 :o %all rea* ne>] ! /ature ( ! p]fect man1 & be> witness ) m p[] to all nations8 ,are !re n 7z he :o has left u us$ to hope7 bett] m9i/]s 9 /ore = ,scotl& ?an any t h yet aris58 ,m9i/]s ( ,*ri/1 does n ! ,"l call ^u u especially8 ,_m ( u are l ! angel ( ! *ur* ( ,ephesus3 we h works1 & labor1 & pati5ce1 & _c be> !m t are evil1 & we h borne1 & = 8 "n's sake we labor1 & h n fa9t$2 b we want ! f]vor ( fir/ love4 ,oh h[ seldom n[ d we he> ( fre% supplies ( hol9ess arriv+ f ! heav5ly places 7,eph4 #a3c7--new grace appe>+ among ! sa9ts1 & 9 liv+ m9i/]s6 ,we get cont5t$ ) our old measure & k9d1 z if ! w9d[s ( heav5 7 nev] to be op5$4 ,few among u see ! l[] dep?s ( ! horrible pit2 few ev] ent] ! inn] *amb]s ( ! h\se ( ,david4 ,b !re has be5 "o among u :o1 ere he _h rea*$ ! age at :i* a prie/ 9 ,israel w\ld h be5 ent]+ on 8 c\rse1 dwelt at ! ,m]cy-seat z if x 7 8 home1--prea*$ ! c]ta9ties ( et]nal life ) an und\bt+ m9d1--& sp5t 8 nights & days 9 ceaseless brea?+s aft] hol9ess1 & ! salvation ( s9n]s4 ,hundr$s ( s\ls 7 8 rew>d f ! ,"l1 ere he left u2 & 9 him h we be5 taught h[ mu* "o man may d :o w only press f>!r into ! pres5ce ( 8 ,god1 & h&le m skilfully ! unse>*able ri*es ( ,*ri/1 & speak m boldly = 8 ,god4 ,we speak mu* aga9/ unfai?ful m9i/]s1 :ile we ourselves are awfully unfai?ful6 ,are we nev] afraid t ! cries ( s\ls :om we h betray$ to p]dition ?r\gh our want ( p]sonal hol9ess1 & our defective prea*+ ( ,*ri/ crucifi$1 may r+ 9 our e>s =ev]8 ,our ,"l is at ! door4 ,9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye our "w w be done4 ,awake1 awake1 ,o arm ( ! ,"l1 awake z 9 ! anci5t days1 till e "o ( ?y pa/ors be will+ to imp>t to ! flock1 ov] :i* ! ,holy ,gho/ has made him ov]se]1 n ! gospel ( ,god only1 b also 8 own s\l4 ,& oh t ea* "o 7 able1 z he /&s 9 ! pa/ures fe$+ ?y %eep & lambs1 to look up & appeal to ,!e3 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ all ?+s6 ,?\ kn[e/ t ,i love ,!e6 ,pr9t$ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates ( ,am]ica ,,transcrib]',s ,,notes3 ,und]scores 7text7 indicate text italicis$ 9 ! orig9al book1 z 9 ! la/ l9e ( pr9t$ book 7above74 ,footnotes 7 mov$ f individual pages to ! end ( ! affect$ p>agraph4 ,?is e-book is a reproduction ( an orig9al t itself is an exc]pt ( a l>g] "w1 z /at$ 9 ! ,publi%]'s ,preface4 ,!re 7 a numb] ( spell+ & punctuation errors1 too num]\s to detail1 t 7 correct$ 9 ?is v]sion ( ! book4 ,!re are also a numb] ( /yli/ic diff]5ces betwe5 ! works includ+ =mat ( ref]5ces 7e4g4 ,roman vs4 decimal numb]s71 italics & poetry ind5t+s4 ,9 ^! in/ances1 ?is e-book has be5 made to foll[ ! exc]pt$ repr9t1 & n ! orig9al1 l>g] "w4