,,f ,,dea? ,,to ,,life3 ,tw5ty ,ye>s ( ,my ,m9i/ry4 ,,by ,rev4 ,william ,haslam1 7,late ,incumb5t ( ,curzon ,*apel1 ,mayfair7 ,repr9t$ by ,rev4 ,w4 ,j4 ,wat*orn4 ,?is edition completes #acj1jjj copies4 ,/&>d ,book ,room1 ,brockville1 ,ont>io ,,cont5ts ,,*apt] #a ,! ,brok5 ,ne/1 #ahda4 ,,*apt] #b ,religi\s ,life4 ,,*apt] #c ,ord9ation4 ,,*apt] #d ,antiqu>ian ,rese>*es & ,m9i/ry1 #ahdc-df4 ,,*apt] #e ,! ,new ,p>i%1 #ahdf4 ,,*apt] #f ,! ,awak5+1 #ahdh-ea4 ,,*apt] #g ,conv]sion1 #ahea4 ,,*apt] #h ,! ,awak5+1 #ahdh-ea4 ,,*apt] #i ,! ,visitor1 #ahea4 ,,*apt] #aj ,! ,fir/ ,*ri/mas1 #ahea-eb4 ,,*apt] #aa ,dreams & ,visions1 #ahea-d4 ,,*apt] #ab ,billy ,bray1 #aheb4 ,,*apt] #ac ,cottage ,meet+s1 #aheb4 ,,*apt] #ad ,op5-,air ,s]vices1 #aheb4 ,,*apt] #ae ,draw+-,room ,meet+s1 #aheb-ec4 ,,*apt] #af ,opposition1 #ahec4 ,,*apt] #ag ,individual ,cases1 #ahec4 ,,*apt] #ah ,a ,visit to ,v]yan1 #ahec4 ,,*apt] #ai ,a ,mission 9 ! ,%ires4 #ahec4 ,,*apt] #bj ,a ,/rang] f ,london1 #ahec4 ,,*apt] #ba ,golant ,mission1 #ahed4 ,,*apt] #bb ,! ,high ,*ur* ,rector1 #ahed4 ,,*apt] #bc ,a ,mission 9 ,/af=d%ire1 #ahed4 ,,*apt] #bd ,sanctification4 ,,*apt] #be ,! ,removal1 #ahee ,,*apt] #bf ,plym\?1 #ahee ,,*apt] #bg ,devonport1 #ahee ,,*apt] #bh ,a ,mission to ! ,nor?1 #ahee ,,*apt] #bi ,tregoney1 #ahee ,,*apt] #cj ,secessions1 #ahef ,,*apt] #ca ,hayle1 #aheg-eh ,,*apt] #cb ,bible ,read+s1 #aheh-ei ,,*apt] #cc ,! ,"w ,cont9u$1 #ahei ,,*apt] #cd ,! ,dismissal1 #ahfj-fa ,,introduction ,?is volume is n s mu* a hi/ory ( my own life1 z ( ! ,"l's deal+s ) me2 sett+ =? h[ ,he wr\ght 9 & by me dur+ ! space ( tw5ty ye>s4 ,x w be obs]v$ t ?is is n1 z biographies g5]ally are1 an acc\nt ( life on to dea?2 b r ! o!r way--a n>rative ( transition f dea? into life1 & t 9 m s5ses ?an "o4 ,i _h be5 giv5 ov] by ?ree physicians to die1 b x pleas$ ! ,"l1 9 answ] to pray]1 to raise me up aga94 ,my re/or$ heal? & /r5g? ,i ?ankfully devot$ to a religi\s & e>ne/ life4 ,9 ! height & seem+ prosp]ity ( ?is1 ! ,"l awak5$ me to see t ,i 0 dead 9 trespasses & s9s2 /ill f> f ,him2 re/+ on my own works2 & go+ ab\t to e/abli% my own righte\sness1 in/ead ( submitt+ to ! righte\sness ( ,god4 ,!n ,he quick5$ me by ! ,holy ,gho/1 & rais$ me up into a new & spiritual life4 ,9 ?is volume ! read] w meet ) ! respective results ( 7:at ,i h call$7 ! ,religi\s1 z di/+ui%$ f ! ,spiritual1 life4 ,! =m] produc$ only outw>d & ecclesia/ical effects1 :ile ! latt] br\ght =? fruit 9 ! salvation ( s\ls1 to ! praise & glory ( ,god4 ,"o object 9 writ+ ?is book is to w>n & in/ruct e>ne/-m9d$ s\ls1 :o are1 z ,i 0 once1 /rang]s to ! exp]i5ce ( salvation1 seek+ re/ :]e ,i am sure !y c nev] f9d x1 & lab\r+ to d good to o!rs :5 !y h n yet receiv$ t good !mselves4 ,!y are va9ly build+ f ! top2 try+ to live be=e !y are born2 to become holy be=e !y h become ju/ifi$2 & to lead o!rs to conv]sion be=e !y h be5 conv]t$ !mselves4 ,a second object is--to draw ! att5tion ( e e>ne/1 seek+1 or anxi\s s\l1 to consid] ! ,"l's m>vell\s goodness 9 fir/ be>+ ) me 9 my religi\s w&]+s1 & !n us+ me = ,8 glory 9 ! salvation ( hundr$s4 ,ano!r desire ,i h is--to *e] ! he>ts ( believ]s :o are work+ = ,god1 by relat+ to !m :at ,he has done ?r\gh me1 & c d aga91 by ! simple prea*+ ( ! ,gospel4 ,"h ! read] w meet ) n>ratives ( ! ,"l's "w 9 individual cases1 9 congregations1 & 9 p>i%es--wond]ful ?+s :i* are wor?y ( record4 ,i h n %unn$ to tell ( ! mi/akes ,i fell into aft] my conv]sion1 hop+ t o!rs may take he$ & pr(it by !m2 & !n ,i %all n h writt5 9 va94 ,,*apt] #a ,! ,brok5 ,ne/1 #ahda4 ,at ! "t 9 :i* ?is hi/ory beg9s1 ,i _h1 9 ! provid5ce ( ,god1 a v happy ne/2 & z f> z temporal prospects 7 conc]n$1 ,i 0 provid$ = to my lik+1 &1 ?\gh n ri*1 0 cont5t4 ,i _h tak5 my degree2 0 ab\t to be orda9$2 &1 :at is m1 0 engag$ to be m>ri$2 9 ord]1 z ,i ?\ght1 to settle d[n z an effici5t c\ntry p>son4 ,) ?is bright future be=e me1 ,i w5t on v happily2 :51 "o ev5+1 aft] a h>d & tir+ day1 j z ,i 0 sitt+ d[n to re/1 a lett] 0 put into my h& :i* _h be5 foll[+ me = sev]al days4 ,mo/ urg5t 0 writt5 on ! outside4 ,x told me ( ! al>m+ illness ( ! lady to :om ,i 0 engag$1 & w5t on to say t if ,i wi%$ to see h] alive ,i mu/ set (f ) all ha/e4 ,x took me a v %ort "t to pack my bag & get my travell+ coats & rugs toge!r1 s t ,i 0 all ready to />t by ! night mail4 ,at eight o'clock punctually ,i left ,london = ! j\rney ( two hundr$ & eighty miles4 ,all t night ,i sat outside ! coa*2 all ! next day2 & "p ( ! foll[+ night4 ,i %all nev] =get ! mis]y ( m9d & body t ,i exp]i5c$1 = ,i 0 tir$ be=e />t+2 & ! fatigue ( sitt+ up all night1 toge!r ) ! int5se cold ( ! small h\rs ( ! morn+1 7 almo/ beyond endurance4 ,) ! morn+1 h[ev]1 came a w>m & bright sun%9e1 :i* 9 "s degree help$ to *e] me2 b my bodily suff]+ 0 s great t ,i c\ld nev] h held up _h x n be5 = ! m5tal eag]ness ) :i* ,i long$ to get =w>d4 ,x 0 q consonant ) my feel+s :5 ! horses 7 put into full gallop1 especially :5 !y 7 te>+ d[n "o hill to get an impetus to m\nt ano!r4 ,at l5g?1 ! long1 long j\rney 0 ov]2 & ab\t ?irty h\rs aft] />t+1 ,i f\nd myself /agg]+ along to ! well-kn[n h\se4 ,z ,i approa*$ ! door 0 s(tly op5$ by a relative :o = sev]al days _h be5 anxi\sly wat*+ my arrival4 ,%e at once conduct$ me up/airs1 to :at ,i expect$ 0 a sick *amb]1 :51 to my horror1 ! fir/ ?+ ,i saw 0 ! lid ( a c(f9 /&+ up aga9/ ! wall1 & 9 ! middle ( ! room 0 ! c(f91 ) c&les burn+ on ei!r side4 ,i ne>ly fell to ! gr\nd ) ?is trem5d\s %ock & surprise4 ,!re 0 ! de> face1 b x seem$ absorb$ 9 itself1 & to h lo/ all reg>d = me4 ,x no long] turn$ to welcome me1 nor 0 ! h& /ret*$ out1 z !ret(ore1 to meet m9e4 ,all 0 /ill2 !re 0 no smile--no voice--no welcome-no?+ b ! sil5ce ( dea? to greet me4 ,! sight ( t c(f91 ) its quiet inmate1 did n awak5 sorr[ s mu* z surprise2 & ) t1 some?+ l ang] & rebellion4 ,i 0 weak & exhau/$ 9 body1 b /rong 9 wilful insubord9ation4 ,murmur+ & compla9+1 ,i spoke unadvis$ly ) my lips4 ,a g5tle voice upbraid$ me1 add+1 t ,i _h f> bett] kneel d[n 9 submission to ,god1 & say ,?y w be done6 ,?is1 h[ev]1 0 n s easy1 = ! demon ( rebellion _h seiz$ me1 & kept me = ?ree h\rs 9 a tempe/ ( ang]1 fill+ my m9d ) h>d ?\ghts aga9/ ,god4 ,i walk$ ab\t ! room 9 ! mo/ p]turb$ /ate ( m9d1 s mu* s1 t ,i griev$ my fri5ds1 :o came repeat$ly to ask me to kneel d[n & say1 ,?y w be done6 ,kneel d[n--j kneel d[n6 ,at l5g? ,i did s1 & :ile "s "o 0 pray+1 my te>s began to fl[1 & ,i said ! words1 ,?y w be done6 ,imm$iately ! spell 0 brok5 & ,i 0 enabl$ to say f my he>t1 aga9 & aga91 ,?y w be done6 ,aft] ?is ,i 0 consci\s ( a m>vell\s *ange 9 m9d2 rebellion 0 gone1 & resignation _h come 9 its place4 ,m ?an t1 ! de> face 9 ! c(f9 seem$ to lie smil+ 9 peace1 s calm & s lovely1 t ,i felt ,i w\ld n recall ! _s t 0 fl$1 ev5 if x bad be5 possible4 ,!re 0 wr\ght 9 me some?+ m ?an submission1 ev5 a lift+-up ( my w to ! w ( ,god2 & )al1 su* a love t[>ds ,him t ,i wond]$ at myself4 ,god _h be51 z x 71 a /rang] to me be=e4 ,n[ ,i felt z ?\gh ,i knew & lov$ ,him1 & c\ld kiss ,8 h&1 ?\gh my te>s fl[$ freely4 ,! fun]al took place ! same morn+3 x 0 a "t ( great emotion2 sorr[ & joy met1 & fl[$ toge!r4 ,i ?\ght ( ! de> "o ,i _h lo/1 b yet m ( ! ,god ( love ,i _h f\nd2 & to rememb] t %e 0 ) ,him 0 an additional com=t to me4 ,! fun]al s]vice 0 soo?+ & elevat+ beyond expression2 & yet1 :5 x 0 all ov]1 su* a s5se ( desolation came ^u me1 t ,i felt utt]ly =lorn & truly sad4 ,my ne/ 0 n[ completely /irr$ up2 b in/ead ( bemoan+ its brok5 /ate1 ,i c\ld see ! eagle flutt]+ ov] h] "y ones 7,deut4 #cb3a74 ,i 0 consci\s t ,god 0 look+ on1 & t ,he _h n =sak5 me 9 ?is great wreck4 ,! /ra9 & excitem5t ,i _h und]gone naturally br\ght on an illness4 ,i 0 seiz$ ) inflammation ( ! lungs1 & 0 dang]\sly ill4 ,f ?is1 & o!r complications :i* sup]v5$1 ! doctor pron\nc$ t ,i c\ld n recov]1 & bade me prep>e = et]nity4 ,judges & doctors1 :5 !y pass s5t5ce ( dea?1 seem to reg>d religion z necess>y prep>ation = x4 ,too common1 also1 is ?is idea1 ev5 among ^? :o d n belong to ^! respect$ pr(essions4 ,my own op9ion 0 mu* ! same at t "t4 ,hav+ receiv$ ?is solemn w>n+1 ,i took d[n ! ,pray]-book1 & religi\sly read ov] ! (fice = ! ,visitation ( ! ,sick4 ,i became s int]e/$ 9 ?is ex]cise1 t ,i det]m9$ to read x ?ree times a day4 ,! pray] = a sick *ild especially comm5d$ itself to my m9d1 s t1 by *ang+ a few words1 ,i made x applicable to my own case1 & us$ x n only ?ree1 b ev5 sev51 times a day4 ,9 sub/ance1 x petition$ t ,i might be tak5 to heav5 if ,i di$2 or t1 if x %\ld please ,god to re/ore my heal?1 ,he w\ld let me live to ,8 glory4 ,i did n at t "t expect my days w\ld be prolong$1 nor _h ,i any wi% to live1 = ! _w 0 n[ p]fectly blank & desolate to me4 ,i felt z if ,i c\ld nev] be happy aga92 to be ) ,god w\ld be f> bett]6 ,i little dream$ t if ,i _h di$ 9 t unp>don$ & ,*ri/less /ate1 ,i %\ld h be5 lo/ =ev]2 = ,i 0 pr(\ndly ignorant ( ! necessity ( *ange ( he>t--p]fectly unconsci\s t ,i mu/ be born aga9 ( ! ,_s4 ,?is vital tru? _h nev] come to my m9d2 ,i felt a love = ,god1 & 9 my ignorance ,i wi%$ to die4 ,"o morn+ ! ?\ght came to me1 z ,i 0 sitt+ all alone by ! fire1 ,:at h ,i be5 pray+ =8--t ! ,"l w\ld take me to heav5 if ,i di$2 or1 if ,i liv$1 t ,he w\ld let me live to ,8 glory8 ,:y1 ?is is heav5 bo? ways6--heav5 9 heav51 or heav5 on e>?--:i*ev] way x pleases ,god to answ] my pray]4 ,someh[ ,i felt c]ta9 t ,he w\ld answ] x4 ,i 0 exce$+ly happy1 & c\ld n help ?ank+ ,him4 ,f t day ,i began to feel bett]1 & became impress$ ) ! idea t ,i 0 to live1 & n die4 ,! doctor smil$ at me :5 ,i told him s1 = he did n believe x4 ,he1 & two o!r physicians1 _h told me t my lungs 7 diseas$2 inde$1 six mon?s aft]w>ds1 all ?ree s\nd$ me1 & decl>$ t "o lung 0 inop]ative1 & ! o!r mu* affect$4 ,yet1 not)/&+ ! doctor's disc\rag+ ann\ncem5t--= he told me1 also1 t x 0 "o ( ! fatal signs ( consumption = ! pati5t to feel or ?9k he 0 gett+ bett]--,i _h a c]ta9 conviction t ,i 0 to recov]4 ,z soon z ! m$ical man _h gone1 ,i put on my coat & hat & w5t out = a walk4 ,i trembl$ mu* f weakness1 & f\nd x necess>y to move v sl[ly & /op (t52 b "u ! %elt] ( a wall1 c\rt+ ! w>m? ( ! bright-%9+ sun1 ,i manag$ to make my way to ! *ur*y>d4 ,:ile ,i 0 sitt+ !re alone1 ! great bell /ruck out unexpect$ly1 & caus$ me to %ake all ov]2 = ,i 0 9 a v weak condition4 ,x 0 ! sexton toll+ to ann\nce ! dep>ture ( ! s\l ( "s villag] f ! _w4 ,hav+ done ?is1 he came out ) 8 bo>ds & tools to dig ! grave4 ,he did n obs]ve me sitt+ by2 s he at once comm5c$1 & w5t on dilig5tly ) 8 "w4 ,! gr\nd _h s (t5 be5 brok5 be=e t x did n take him long to accompli% 8 task2 he gradually got deep] & deep] into ! gr\nd1 till he disappe>$ altoge!r f my sight4 ,i crept to ! edge ( ! n>r[ pit 9 :i* he 01 & look+ into x1 ,i c\ld n help ?9k+ ( ^? words ( ,kirke ,:ite-- ,cold grave1 me?9ks1 'tw]e sweet to re/ ,)9 ?y calm & hall[$ brea/6 ,i _h no fe> ( dea?1 b r felt t ,i %\ld welcome x ev5 m ?an re/oration to heal?4 ,i h ev5 n[ a mo/ vivid remembrance ( ?is1 & place x on record to %[ h[ delusive' are our feel+s3 because ,i did n feel any dang]1 ,i took x = grant$ t !re really 0 none4 ,t day1 h[ev]1 0 an ev5tful "o 9 my life2 =1 9 ! gladness ( my he>t1 ,i gave myself to ,god1 to live = ,him4 ,i _h giv5 my w be=e1 & n[ ,i gave my life1 & 0 happy 9 ! de$4 ,i did n "k at t "t t fai? does n consi/ 9 believ+ t ,i h giv5 myself1 ev5 if ,i meant x ev] s s9c]ely2 b 9 believ+ t ,god has tak5 or accept$ me4 ,at ! outset1 ,i began ) ! =m]--a m]ely human fai?--& its result 0 consequ5tly imp]fect4 ,i 0 spiritually dead1 & did n "k x4 ,alas6 ,:at multitudes !re are :o are utt]ly unconsci\s ( ! fact ( ?is spiritual dea?1 ?\gh !re are few ?+s m pla9ly decl>$ & reveal$ 9 ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,! full mean+ ( ! ^w dea? is too (t5 misund]/ood & ov]look$4 ,!re are ?ree k9ds ref]r$ to 9 ! ,^w ( ,god--spiritual1 natural1 & ev]la/+4 ,! fir/ is a sep>ation ( ! s\l f ,god2 ! second1 t ( ! body f ! s\l2 & ! la/1 t ( ! unbeliev+ man1 body & s\l1 f ,god =ev]4 ,x w be se5 t !re is "o *>act]i/ic :i* is common to all ?ree k9ds--t is1 sep>ation2 & t !re is no idea ( f9ality--dea? is n ! end4 ,:5 ! ,"l ,god creat$ man1 we suppose t ,he made him n m]ely 9 ! =m ( a body1 b a man ) body & s\l complete2 & aft]w>ds t ,he brea!d into ?is liv+ man ! ,_s1 & he became a liv+ s\l4 ,z su*1 he commun$ ) ! et]nal ,god1 :o is a ,_s4 ,9 ?is spiritual /ate he c\ld walk & conv]se ) ,god 9 ! g>d5 ( ,ed54 ,:51 h[ev]1 he disobey$ ! comm& :i* _h be5 giv5 to him1 he incurr$ ! trem5d\s p5alty4 ,! ,"l ,god _h said1 ,9 ! day t y eat ( ! tree ( ! k ( good & evil1 y %all surely die4 ,he did eat1 & he di$ !re & !n2 t is1 he =feit$ t ',_s :i* _h quick5$ 8 s\l1 & ?us became a dead s\l2 ?\gh1 z we "k1 he rema9$ a liv+ man = n9e hundr$ ye>s be=e 8 body return$ to its du/4 ,by 8 "o act ( disob$i5ce1 ,adam op5$ 9 an in/ant 7z an e>?quake op5s a deep *asm7 ! great gulf1 ! impassable gulf ( sep>ation :i* is fix$ betwe5 u & ,god4 ,by nature1 z ! *ildr5 ( ,adam1 we are all on ! side :i* is away f ,god2 & we are become subject also to ! s5t5ce pron\nc$ aga9/ ! life ( ! body4 ,we "k & und]/& t we are mortal1 & t x is appo9t$ unto m5 once to die2 b we d n seem to be aw>e ( ! m important fact ( ! dea? ( our s\ls4 ,satan1 :o said to our fir/ p>5ts1 ,ye %all n surely die1 employs himself n[ 9 deceiv+ m5 by say+1 ,ye are n dead2 & multitudes believe him1 & take x = grant$ t x is actually true4 ,?us !y g on unconc]n$ ab\t ?is awful & /up5d\s reality4 ,,*apt] #b ,religi\s ,life4 ,) return+ heal? & /r5g?1 ,i did n ?9k ( go+ back into ! _w1 b r gave myself m fully to ! purpose = :i* ,i suppos$ t my life _h be5 re/or$4 ,i felt a ?ankfulness & joy 9 my recov]y1 :i* confirm$ me m & m 9 my det]m9ation to live to ! glory ( ,god4 ,:5 ,i 0 able to return to ! ,s\?1 ,i did s by easy /ages till ,i got back to ! neighb\rhood ( ,london2 & !re x 0 ord]$ t ,i %\ld be %ut up = ! rema9d] ( ! w9t]4 ,dur+ ?is season ( retirem5t1 ,i sp5t my "t mo/ happily 9 read+ & pray]1 & f\nd great delight 9 ?is occupation4 ,i 0 able to say1 ) ! ,psalmi/1 ,i love ! ,"l1 because ,he has he>d my voice & my supplication2 &1 l him1 ,i c\ld say1 ,i w call ^u ,him z long z ,i live2 ,i w walk be=e ,him 9 ! l& ( ! liv+2 & ,i w take ! cup ( salvation & call ^u ! "n ( ! ,"l4 ,t is1 9 secret or private life2 9 social int]c\rse ) my fell[-m52 & 9 ! wor%ip ( ! sanctu>y1 ,i w seek ! glory ( ,god4 ,i us$ to h mu* pleasure e day 9 ask+ ,god to give me a deep] s5se ( ,8 love1 t ,i might unfeign$ly ?ank ,him1 & %[ =? ,8 praise ) my life z well z my lips4 ,all ?is1 be x obs]v$1 0 because ,god _h sav$ n my s\l1 b my life2 = z yet ,i _h n1 l ! ,psalmi/1 felt any tr\ble ab\t my s\l4 ,i knew no?+ ( :at he describes z ! sorr[s ( dea? & ! pa9s ( hell4 ,i _h n be5 awak5$ by ! ,_s to "k ! dang] & sorr[ ( be+ sep>at$ f ,god 7:i* is spiritual dea?74 ,i 0 p]fectly unconsci\s t betwe5 ,god & myself !re 0 ! impassable gulf ,i h already ref]r$ to1 & consequ5tly ,i _h n exp]i5c$ su* ov]:elm+ anxiety z made ! ,psalmi/ cry out1 ,o ,"l1 ,i besee* ,!e1 deliv] my s\l4 ,i knew no?+ ( ! necessity ( pass+ f dea? to life1 & !re=e ,i c\ld n say1 ,! ,"l has deliv]$ my s\l f dea?1 m9e eyes f te>s1 & my feet f fall+4 ,! only ?+ ,i knew 0 t ,god 0 good to me1 & !re=e ,i lov$ ,him1 & 0 ?ankful1 n = ! sake ( gett+ ,8 fav\r1 b because ,i ?\ght ,i _h x4 ,i turn$ ov] a new leaf1 & '!re) cov]$ up ! blott$ page ( my pa/ life4 ,on ?is new pa? ,i endeav\r$ to walk z e>ne/ly 9 a religi\s way1 z ,i _h be=e liv$ 9 a worldly "o4 ,?is mi/ake into :i* ,i fell 0 natural en\gh & common z x is natural2 b = all ?is x 0 v s]i\s1 & might h be5 fatal to me1 z x has prov$ to multitudes4 ,i did n see !n1 z ,i h s9ce t turn+ ov] a new leaf to cov] ! pa/1 is n by any means ! same ?+ z turn+ back ! old leaves1 & gett+ !m wa%$ 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,i h said be=e t ,i did n "k any bett]2 nor 0 ,i likely to see matt]s 9 a cle>] light f ! l9e ( /udy 9 :i* ,i 0 *iefly occupi$4 ,i 0 absorb$ = ! "t1 n s mu* 9 ! ,bible z 9 ! ,tracts = ! ,times--a publication :i* 0 engag+ mu* att5tion4 ,^! ,ox=d tracts suit$ me exactly1 & fitt$ my tone ( m9d to a nicety4 ,_! object 0 ! re/oration ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& f a cold1 =mal condition1 into some?+ l reality--f a secul> to a religi\s /ate2 ?is also 0 my own pres5t object = myself4 ,i read ^! writ+s ) avidity1 & =m$ f !m c]ta9 ecclesia/ical proclivities :i* c>ri$ me on ) r5ew$ zeal4 ,i suppose ,i le>n$ f ! p]usal ( !m to int]pret ! ,bible by ! ,pray]-book1 & to reg>d ! =m] z a book :i* no "o c\ld und]/& )\t ! int]pretation ( ! ,fa!rs4 ,c]ta9 x is1 t ,i did n look to ! ,bible1 b to ! ,*ur*1 = tea*+1 = ,i 0 l$ to consid] t private judgm5t on ! subject ( ,scripture /atem5ts 0 v presumptu\s4 ,i got1 moreov]1 into a legal /ate1 & ?\ght my acceptance ) ,god dep5d$ ^u my works1 & t ,8 future fav\r w\ld result ^u my fai?fulness & att5tion to works ( righte\sness :i* ,i 0 do+4 ,?is made me v dilig5t 9 pray]1 fa/+1 & almsde$s2 & ,i (t5 sat & dream$ ab\t ! works ( m]cy & devotion :i* ,i w\ld d :5 ,i 0 p]mitt$ to g out aga94 ,l p]sons 9 ?is /ate ( m9d1 ,i also reli$ on ord9ances1 & 0 subject to !m4 ,i took x = grant$ t ,i 0 a *ild ( ,god1 because ,i _h be5 baptiz$ & br\ght into ! ,*ur*2 & hav+ be5 confirm$ & admitt$ to ! ,"l's ,table1 ,i conclud$ t ,i 0 safely on ! way to ,heav54 ,i see n[ ! error ( ?is v e>ne/ devotion1 & t ,i 0 go+ ab\t to e/abli% my own righte\sness in/ead ( submitt+ to ! righte\sness ( ,god4 ,i l to rememb] ^! days & tell ( !m1 n because ,i am pr\d ( !m-f> o!rwise2 b because !y %[ ! k9d =be>ance & pati5ce ( ,god t[>ds me1 &1 besides ?is1 !y give me a cle>] idea ( ! /ate ( v _m e>ne/ p ,i meet )1 :o ent] ^u a religi\s pa? 9 mu* ! same way4 ,su* p]sons make ! two mi/akes already ref]r$ to4 ,!y />t ) believ+ 9 _! surr5d] ( !mselves1 in/ead ( ,god's acceptance ( x2 & secondly1 !y make _! cont9uance !re9 dep5d ^u _! repeat$ acts ( devotion4 ,!y live & walk by _! own works1 n by fai? 9 ! f9i%$ "w ( ,*ri/4 ,:at %all ,i say to ^! ?+s8 ,%all ,i d5\nce !m z delusions1 or sup]/iti\s legality8 ,no4 ,i w\ld f> r t p %\ld be ev5 ?us religi\s ?an be )\t religi\s obs]vances--f> r t !y %\ld be subject to ! ,pray]-book tea*+ ?an be ! sport ( _! own va9 imag9+s4 ,if m5 h n giv5 _! he>ts to ,god & receiv$ =giv5ess ( s9s1 x is bett] t !y %\ld give !mselves to a ,*ur* ?an yield !mselves to ! _w & its vanities4 ,if ,i _h to g ov] ! gr\nd aga9 "u ! same circum/ances1 ,i d n ?9k ,i c\ld take a bett] pa?4 ,*ur* tea*+ by itself1 ) all its legalities1 is sup]ior to a man's own inv5tions2 & ! =m ( godl9ess requir$ by x1 ev5 )\t spiritual p[]1 is bett] ?an no =m or pr(ession ( religion4 ,to say ! lea/1 ,*ur* tea*+s1 :5 x is correctly foll[$1 in/ructs ! consci5ce1 re/ra9s & guides ! w1 & imp>ts a practical morality :i* we d n f9d 9 any o!r sy/em4 ,i h m hope ( p :o re/ 9 "s di/9ctive & positive dogmas ?an ( ^? :o m]ely deal ) negations4 ,! =m] may be rea*$ by spiritual tea*+2 ! latt] are b %ad[y adv]s>ies ) :om x is impossible to engage4 ,!re=e1 :5 ,i see a man1 = consci5ce t[>ds ,god1 giv+ up ! _w1 & tak+ up ) rev]5tial wor%ip1 ) ev5 sup]/iti\s v5]ation = ecclesia/ical ?+s1 because !y are s--:5 ,i see a man1 :o 0 c>eless be=e1 become consci5ti\s & true 9 all 8 outw>d deal+s1 v p>ticul> 9 8 obs]vance ( private & public pray]1 ex]cis+ self-d5ial1 liv+ = o!rs r ?an himself1 be>+ & =be>+ 9 all quietness & meekness--,i _c d o!rwise ?an admire him4 ,?is1 surely1 is f> m lovely & admirable ?an ! opposite ( ^! ?+s4 ,in/ead ( jo9+ 9 ! outcry aga9/ su* p]sons1 ,i feel r 9 sympa?y1 & h a desire 9 my he>t to w9 !m to /ill bett] ?+s1 & to %[ !m ! way ( ,god m p]fectly4 ,i feel t !y are /irr$ z ,i 01 & are /ruggl+ 9 self-righte\sness1 n because !y wilfully pref] x to ,god's righte\sness1 b because !y are ye>n+ = true & spiritual reality4 ,!y are 9 a transition /ate1 & ! m re/less !y are1 ! m assur$ ,i am t !y w nev] atta9 real re/ & satisfaction to _! s\ls till !y h f\nd ,god1 & are f\nd ( ,him 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,b ! "q may be ask$1 ,is x possible = unsav$ p 7spiritually dead7 to be s good & religi\s8 ,is n su* a /ate an indication ( spiritual vitality8 ,i answ]1 )\t hesitation1 t x is possible4 ,religion by itself1 irrespective ( ! subject-matt] ( a cre$1 may h a quiet+ & controll+ effect ^u ! s\l4 ,! ,h9doo1 ! ,moslem1 ! ,jew1 ! ,romani/1 z well z ! ,prote/ant1 may ea* & all be wond]fully self-possess$1 zeal\s1 dev\t1 or tea*able1 or ev5 all ^! toge!r1 & yet rema9 dead s\ls4 ,z a boy 9 ,india1 ,i rememb] be+ greatly /ruck ) ! calmness ( ! ,h9doos1 z contra/$ ) ! impati5ce & angry _s ( ! ,engli%4 ,on "o occasion ,i obs]v$ "o ( ! =m] at 8 devotions4 ,he1 ) o!rs1 _h be5 c>ry+ me ab\t 9 a palanke5 all day 9 ! hot sun4 ,9 ! ev5+1 he mo/ rev]5tly took f 8 girdle a piece ( mud ( ! sacr$ riv] ,ganges1 or ,gunga1 z !y call x1 & dissolv+ ?is 9 wat]1 he wa%$ a piece ( gr\nd1 !n1 hav+ wa%$ 8 feet & h&s1 he /epp$ on ?is sacr$ spot1 & began to cook 8 food4 ,:ile x 0 prep>+1 he 0 b[$ to ! gr\nd1 ) 8 face betwe5 8 knees1 wor%ipp+ t[>ds ! sett+ sun4 ,a boy :o 0 /&+ by me said1 ,if y t\* t man he w n eat 8 d9n]4 ,9 a ?\ghtless mom5t ,i did s ) my h&1 & imm$iately he rose f 8 devotions2 b1 in/ead ( ?reat5+ & swe>+ at me1 z "s might h done :o belong to ano!r religion1 he only look$ reproa*fully1 & said1 ,ah1 ,ma/] ,william6 & !n empty+ out ! rice :i* 0 on ! fire1 he began 8 c]emony all ov] aga94 ,x 0 q d>k be=e he _h f9i%$ 8 poojah1 or wor%ip1 & 8 meal4 ,?is man's religi\s self-possession made a great] impression on me ?an if he _h abus$ or ev5 /ruck me1 = h9d]+ 8 d9n]4 ,i ?\ght to myself1 ,i w be a ,h9doo :5 ,i gr[ up6 ,& truly ,i kept my ^w1 ?\gh n 9 ! same =m2 = :at else 0 ,i 9 my e>ne/1 religi\s days6 ,?is is an important "q to settle1 &1 !re=e1 ,i w give ?ree examples f ,scripture4 ,no "o c d\bt ! zeal ( ,saul ( ,t>sus4 ,?is 0 no easy-go+1 *>itable cre$1 :i* supposes all good m5 are "r4 ,he 0 sure t if he 0 "r1 z a natural consequ5ce ,/eph5 0 wrong1 ev5 blasphem\s1 & z su* wor?y ( dea?4 ,!re=e1 he _h no scruples ab\t in/igat+ ! dea? ( su* a "o4 ,not)/&+ all ?is uncompromis+ & /raight=w>d religi\sness1 he ne$$ to be br\ght f dea? to life4 ,aga93 look at ,cornelius1 :o 0 a dev\t man t fe>$ ,god ) all 8 h\se1 :i* gave mu* alms to ! p1 & pray$ to ,god alway 7,acts #aj3b74 ,!re c be no mi/ake ab\t ?is man ) su* a te/imony2 & yet he also ne$$ to he> words :]eby he & all 8 h\se %\ld be sav$ 7,acts #aa3ad74 ,next3 ,nicodemus1 ,i suppose x w be admitt$1 0 an e>ne/ & religi\s man4 ,evid5tly1 he 0 "o ( ^? :o believ$ 9 ! "n ( ,jesus1 because he saw ! miracles :i* ,he did 7,john #b3bc74 ,?is man1 humble & tea*able z he 01 came to ,jesus1 & said1 ,rabbi1 we "k t ,?\ art a tea*] come f ,god1 = no man c d ^! miracles t ,?\ doe/1 except ,god be ) him4 ,yet he 0 told1 ,except a man be born aga91 he _c see ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,m>vel n t ,i said unto !e1 ,ye mu/ be born aga9 7,john #c74 ,z surely z all mank9d are dead 9 ,adam1 s surely e man ne$s spiritual life4 ,9 ?is respect x 0 no new ?+ :i* ! ,"l ,jesus prop\nd$ to ,nicodemus4 ,! spiritual *ange ( he>t he ref]r$ to has always be5 ! "o condition ( int]c\rse ) ,god4 ,all ,god's sa9ts1 ev5 9 ! ,old ,te/am5t times1 _h exp]i5c$ '?is4 ,h5ce ! ,"l's exclamation1 ,art ?\ a ma/] ( ,israel1 & kn[e/ n ^! ?+s8 ,x may be urg$ t ^! ?ree m5 7 n 9 ! ,*ri/ian disp5sation4 ,let ?is be grant$2 b ! po9t at h& is t !y ne$$ spiritual life1 ?\gh !y 7 su* good religi\s m54 ,x w n be v h>d to prove t ev5 baptiz$ m5 9 ! ,*ri/ian disp5sation ne$ to be rais$ f dea? unto life j z mu* z any o!r *ildr5 ( ,adam4 ,x is cle>1 bo? f ,scripture & exp]i5ce1 t baptism1 :atev] else x imp>ts1 does n give spiritual vitality4 ,/4 ,pet]'s te/imony is ?is1 ,( a tru? ,i p]ceive t ,god is no respect] ( p]sons2 b 9 e nation he t fe>e? ,him & worke? righte\sness is accept$ ) ,him 7,acts #aj3 #cd1 #ce74 ,accept$ to be sav$1 n because !re is any m]it 9 8 works1 b because ,god sees t !re is real s9c]ity 9 8 liv+ up to ! light he has4 ,! hea!n :o "k !re is a ,god1 & d n wor%ip ,8 z ,god1 are giv5 ov] to idolatry 7,rom4#a72 b1 on ! o!r h&1 ^? :o d wor%ip ,him1 & give ,him ?anks1 are tak5 9 h& to be guid$ into life & tru?4 ,!re=e are we ju/ifi$ 9 hop+ t e>ne/ & religi\s m51 ?\gh !y be dead1 if _! religion is really t[>ds ,god1 w be br\ght to spiritual life4 ,x 0 a happy w9t] to me1 h[ev]1 not)/&+ my spiritual defici5cies2 & ! recollection ( x /ill abides 9 my memory4 ,i _h n[ no desire = ! _w & its pleasures4 ,my m9d _h q gone f su* empty amusem5ts & frivolities2 ev5 ! ta/e ,i us$ to h = ^! ?+s 0 completely tak5 away4 ,i 0 happi] n[ ?an ev] ,i _h be5 be=e1 s t ,i am conv9c$ f p]sonal exp]i5ce t ev5 a religi\s life may be "o ( joy1 ?\gh by no means s satisfy+ & abid+ z a truly spiritual "o4 ,i 0 happy1 z ,i h already said1 & long$ = ! "t :5 ,i c\ld be orda9$1 & devote my en]gies to "w = ,god 9 ! m9i/ry4 ,,*apt] #c ,ord9ation & ,fir/ ,p>i%1 #ahdb4 ,on ! return+ spr+1 z ,i 0 feel+ s mu* /rong]1 & altoge!r bett]1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld g & see ! physician :o _h s\nd$ me "s mon?s be=e4 ,he1 aft] a c>eful exam9ation1 /ill adh]$ to 8 previ\s op9ion1 & gave v little hope ( my recov]y1 b sugge/$ t if ,i w5t to ! nor? coa/ ( ,cornwall !re might be a *ance = me4 ,on my return home1 ,i took up an ,ecclesia/ical ,gazette1 ?\gh x 0 ?ree mon?s old1 & look$ ov] ! adv]tisem5ts4 ,!re ,i obs]v$ "o :i* invit$ a curate = a *ur* 9 t v neighb\rhood4 ,x 0 a sole *>ge2 b1 /range to say1 a title = holy ord]s 0 (f]$ also4 ,9 reply to ?is ,i wrote a lett]1 ask+ = p>ticul>s1 9 :i* ,i /at$ my ,*ur* views1 & t ,i 0 ord]$ to t "p ( ! c\ntry = ! b5efit ( my heal?4 ,! ,vic>1 :o resid$ 9 ano!r p>i%1 ?irty miles (f1 0 s eag] to get help = ?is "o1 t he wrote back to say he _h s5t my lett] to ! ,bi%op1 ) "o f himself1 & t ,i %\ld he> f 8 lord%ip 9 a few days4 ,i 0 surpris$ at ?is precipitation ( affairs1 & all ! m s :5 ,i receiv$ a note f ! ,bi%op ( ,exet] 7,phillpotts71 bidd+ me come to him imm$iately1 t ,i might be 9 "t = ! ,l5t ord9ation4 ,accord+ly1 ,i />t$ we/w>d1 & hav+ pass$ my exam9ation1 ,i 0 s5t ) lett]s dimissory to ! ,bi%op ( ,salisbury 7,d5ison71 to :om ,i 0 also s5t1 a ye> aft]w>ds1 = prie/'s ord]s4 ,i 0 v weak1 & mu* exhau/$ ) travell+1 b /ill w5t on1 ?\gh ,i "k n h[4 ,! long-desir$ day at l5g? arriv$1 & ,i 0 duly orda9$2 b in/ead ( be+ full ( joy1 ,i became mu* depress$ 9 m9d & body1 & c\ld n r\se myself f dwell+ ^u ! ,bi%op's address1 :i* 0 v solemn4 ,he told u t we 7 go+ to take *>ge ( ! s\ls ( our p>i%ion]s1 & t ,god w\ld require !m at our h&s2 we mu/ take he$ h[ we t5d$ ! ,"l's flock4 ,altoge!r1 x 0 m ?an ,i _h calculat$ ^u2 & feel+ v ill t aft]noon1 ,i ?\ght t ,i _h und]tak5 a burd5 :i* w\ld c]ta9ly be my ru94 ,:at c\ld ,i d ) s\ls8 ,my idea ( ord9ation 0 to be a cl]gyman1 read ! pray]s1 prea* s]mons1 & d all ,i c\ld to br+ p to *ur*2 b h[ c\ld ,i answ] = s\ls :i* _h to live = ev]8 & :at 0 ,i to d ) !m8 ,9 ! ev5+1 ,i s f> r\s$ myself z to g among/ ! o!r c&idates1 to s\nd !m1 & asc]ta9 :at 7 _! feel+s ) reg>d to ! ,bi%op's solemn address6 ,!y m]ely ?\ght t x 0 v beautiful1 & t he 0 a holy man2 & !n "s ( !m propos$ t we %\ld all g 9 a rid+ p>ty1 to see ,/oneh5ge1 ! next day4 ,x 0 especially ?\ght t a drive on ! ,wilt%ire pla9s c\ld d me a great deal ( good1 if ,i did n feel /rong en\gh to ride on horseback4 ,i agre$ to ?is1 & w5t ) !m to see ?is fam\s temple ( ,druidical wor%ip2 & aft] t set (f = ,plym\?1 on my way to ! f> we/4 ,b1 alas6 ! *>m ( ord9ation _h fl$1 & ,i 0 m ?an half sorry t ,i _h und]tak5 s mu*4 ,x _h be5 done s precipitately too1 = ev5 n[ x 0 only t5 days s9ce ,i _h se5 ! physician4 ,aft] re/+ a day1 ,i proce$$ to ,truro1 & !n took a po/-*aise & drove out to my fir/ p>i%1 call$ ,p]ranzabuloe1 :i* 0 situat$ ab\t eight miles f ,truro1 on ! nor? coa/ ( ,cornwall4 ,i alight$ at an old manor h\se1 :]e ,i 0 to h ap>tm5ts ) a f>m] & 8 family4 ,be+ mu* fatigu$1 ,i soon retir$ to b$1 any?+ b happy1 or pleas$ ) ! bleak &' r\gh-look+ place to :i* ,i _h come4 ,i slept well1 h[ev]1 & ! next morn+ felt consid]ably bett]1 & 0 reviv$ 9 spirits4 ,aft] mak+ _m inquiries ab\t ?+s 9 g5]al1 ,i obta9$ ! keys1 & made my way to ! p>i% *ur*1 :i* 0 ab\t t5 m9utes' walk f ! h\se4 ,"h1 aga91 ,i 0 greatly griev$ & disappo9t$ to see su* a neglect$ *ur*y>d & dilapidat$ *ur*2 & :5 ,i w5t inside1 my he>t sank1 = ,i _h nev] se5 a place ( wor%ip 9 su* a mis]able condition4 ,moreov]1 ,i 0 told t ! p>i% 0 sev5 miles long1 & t its l>ge population ( ?ree ?\s& s\ls 0 scatt]$ on all sides1 except+ r\nd ! *ur*4 ,i _h left my fri5ds a long way (f1 & 0 alone 9 a /range place1 ) an am\nt ( "w & responsibility = :i* ,i knew ,i 0 ?or\ghly unprep>$ & unfit4 ,h[ev]1 ,i saunt]$ back to my lodg+s1 & began to rum9ate z to :at 0 to be done4 ,i _h n[ sole *>ge ( ?is ext5sive p>i%1 = ! duties ( :i* ,i 0 to receive ! v mod]ate /ip5d ( =ty p\nds a ye>2 b ( ?is ,i did n compla91 = my bo>d & lodg+1 ) wa%+1 & ! keep ( a horse includ$1 0 only twelve %ill+s a week1 leav+ me a m>g9 ( ne>ly t5 p\nds = my p]sonal exp5ses4 ,! que/ions t tr\bl$ me 7--:at 0 ,i to d ) ?ree ?\s& p8 ,& h[ 0 ,i to rea* !m8 ,9 due c\rse ,sunday morn+ arriv$1 & ) ! help ( a neighb\r+ cl]gyman1 :o k9dly came ov]1 z he said1 to put me 9 ! way1 ,i got ?r\gh ! s]vice 7be+ ! only "o = ! day at t "t71 hav+ ab\t a score ( li/less p1 l\ng+ 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! *ur*1 = a congregation4 ,?is 0 my fir/ ,sunday 9 my fir/ p>i%4 ,j at ?is "t a book 0 s5t me by a k9d fri5d1 entitl$ ,! ,bi%opric ( ,s\ls1 :i* t]rifi$ me ev5 m ?an ! ,bi%op's *>ge _h done2 = ,i felt t1 not)/&+ my ard5t desire to s]ve & glorify ,god1 ,i _h n ! remote/ conception h[ to d x1 z reg>ds w9n+ s\ls4 ,! au?or ( ?is book took x = grant$ t e "o :o _h ! (fice ( a pa/or1 _h also ! spiritual qualification = x2 b exp]i5ce proves t ?is is by no means ! case4 ,my ord9ation gave me an ecclesia/ical position 9 ! p>i%2 ! law ma9ta9$ me 9 x2 & ! p expect$ me to d ! duties ( x3 b h[ to c>ry all ?is out1 except 9 a dry & =mal way1 ,i did n "k4 ,z "t w5t on1 my p>o*ial duties increas$4 ,i _h to baptize ! *ildr51 m>ry ! "y1 visit ! sick1 & bury ! dead2 b ,i c\ld n help feel+ h[ diff]5t 0 ?is 9 action1 to :at x 0 9 !ory4 ,i _h _h a k9d ( dreaml& p>i% 9 my head1 ) daily s]vice1 beautiful music1 & an assembly ( wor%ipp+ p2 b in/ead ( ?is1 ,i f\nd a small1 unsympa?iz+ congregation1 :o m]ely look$ ^u ^! sacr$ ?+s z duties to be done1 & ^u me z ! prop] p]son to d !m4 ,:5 ,i w5t to visit ! sick ,i _h no?+ to say to !m2 s ,i read a few ,collects1 & sometimes gave !m a little temporal relief1 = :i* !y ?ank$ me2 b ,i came out dissatisfi$ ) myself1 & long$ = some?+ m1 ?\gh ,i did n "k :at4 ,not)/&+ all ^! trials & disappo9tm5ts1 my heal? 0 gradually improv+4 ,i f\nd t ! air ( ?is place 0 l meat & dr9k1 & gave me an appetite = some?+ m sub/antial4 ,i v (t5 frequ5t$ ! bea*1 ) its beautiful cliffs1 & 0 mu* exhil>at$ by ! brac+ sea air2 inde$1 ,i _h1 & /ill reta91 q a love = ! place4 ,z my /r5g? & en]gy increas$1 ,i rode ab\t ! p>i% all day1 mak+ ! acqua9tance ( ! p1 & invit+ !m to come to *ur*4 ,dur+ my visits1 ,i f\nd out t ! *ur* w>d5 0 a good musician1 & t he knew o!rs 9 ! p>i% :o 7 able to play on v>i\s in/rum5ts2 s 9 ord] to improve ! s]vices1 & make !m m attractive1 ,i urg$ him to invite ^! musical p to 8 h\se to practise2 & 9 due c\rse we _h a cl>ionet1 two fiddles1 & 8 bass viol1 ) a few s+]s to =m a *oir4 ,we tri$ ov] "s metrical psalms 7= !re 7 no hymn-books 9 ^? days71 & soon succe$$ 9 le>n+ !m4 ,?is musical p]=mance drew _m p to *ur*4 ,! s+]s 7 und5iably ! great attraction1 & !y knew x2 consequ5tly ,i 0 some:at 9 _! p[]1 & _h to submit to v>i\s an!ms & pieces1 su* z ,vital ,sp>k4 ,angels ,ev] ,bright & ,fair1 & o!rs1 n altoge!r to my ta/e1 b :i* !y evid5tly p]=m$ to _! own praise & satisfaction4 ,f9d+ t ! p 7 beg9n+ to frequ5t ! *ur*1 ,i ?\ght x 0 "t to consid] :at /eps %\ld be tak5 ab\t its re/oration1 & made x ! subject ( conv]sation ) ! f>m]s4 ,x awak5$ & al>m$ _m ( !m :5 ,i said t ! *ur* mu/ be re/or$1 & t we mu/ h a *ur* rate4 ,! *ief f>m] %ook 8 head1 say+1 ,y _c c>ry t2 b ,i repli$1 ,accord+ to law1 y are b\nd to keep up ! fabric1 & x ought to be done4 ,i w write to ! ,vic> at once ab\t x4 ,he 0 a non-resid5t plurali/4 ,! f>m] smil$ at t1 & said1 laugh+1 ,i w pl$ge myself t we w d z mu* z he does4 ,x s happ5$ t ! ,vic>1 equally incr$ul\s ab\t ! f>m]s do+ any?+1 promis$ t he w\ld d "o half1 if !y w\ld d ! o!r4 ,hav+ asc]ta9$ ?is to my satisfaction1 ,i imm$iately s5t = ! mason ( ! village1 :o play$ ! cl>ionet 9 ! *ur*1 also 8 son1 :o 0 "o ( ! ( ! fiddles1 & consult$ ) !m z to h[ ?is matt] 0 to be accompli%$4 ,!y1 be+ 9 want ( "w at ! "t1 readily advis$ me 9 fav\r ( re/oration4 ,! *ur*w>d5 7! bass viol7 said t he _h no objection to ?is proce$+1 b t he w\ld n be responsible4 ,9 two mon?s1 he add$1 w\ld be ! annual ve/ry meet+4 ,t w d1 ,i said1 int]rupt+ him2 & ,i made up my m9d t ,i w\ld at once re/ore ! *ur*1 & let ! p>i%ion]s come & see x at t "t4 ,hav+ made all necess>y prep>ations1 we comm5c$ "o f9e ,monday morn+ ) repair+ ! ro( & walls2 & :ile ! m5 7 employ$ outside1 we took out ! w9d[s & op5$ all ! doors1 to let ! w9d bl[ ?r\gh1 t ! int]ior ( ! build+ might be ?or\ghly dri$4 ,?is done1 we next col\r$ ! walls1 also ! /one ar*es & pill>s 7!y 7 f> too mu* brok5 to display !m72 & hav+ clean$ ! seats & front ( ! gall]y1 we /a9$ & v>ni%$ !m1 matt$ ! floor1 c>pet$ ! sacr>ium1 & procur$ a new clo? = ! ,communion ,table1 & also = ! 'pulpit & read+-desk4 ,all ?is be+ complet$1 ,i pa9t$ texts ) my own h&s on ! walls1 9 old ,engli% *>act]s4 ,i _h great joy 9 writ+ ^!1 = ,i felt z if x 0 to ! ,"l ,himself1 & = ,8 "n1 & f9i%$ ) ,nehemiah's pray]1 ,rememb] me1 ,o my ,god1 conc]n+ ?is2 & wipe n out my good de$s t ,i h done = ! h\se ( my ,god1 & = ! (fices !re( 7,neh4 #ac3ad74 ,altoge!r1 x 0 a pretty *ur* n[1 & a pretty sum 0 to be paid = x4 ,i told ! ve/ry t ,i alone 0 responsible1 b t ! ,vic> _h promis$ to pay "o half if ! ve/ry w\ld pay ! o!r4 ,x seem$ to be su* a joy to !m to get any?+ out ( him1 t !y made a rate at once2 & ^u ! ,vic>'s lett]1 rais$ ! money & paid (f ! debt4 ,! p 7 mu* pleas$ ) _! *ur* 9 its new aspect1 & br\ght _! fri5ds & neighb\rs to see x4 ,besides ?is1 ,i obs]v$ some?+ :i* gratifi$ me v mu*4 ,x 0 t :5 !y ent]$ ! *ur* !y did s ) rev]5ce1 tak+ (f _! hats & walk+ s(tly1 9 place ( /amp+ ) _! heels & com+ 9 ) _! hats on1 z !y too (t5 _h previ\sly done1 )\t any respect or conc]n :atev]4 ,a neglect$ place ( wor%ip does n comm& rev]5ce4 ,my *ur* n[ began to be ! talk ( ! neighb\rhood4 ,numb]s ( p came to see x1 & among !m sev]al cl]gym51 :o ask$ me to come & re/ore _! *ur*es4 ,!re 7 _m places :]e ! p c\ld n af=d to rebuild ! /ructure4 ,9 su*1 ,i 0 invit$ to ex]cise my skill 9 repair+1 z ,i _h done ) my own2 9 o!rs1 ,i 0 ask$ to give designs = re/or+ portions ( ! edifice2 & 9 "s1 = rebuild+ altoge!r4 ,9 ?is di/rict1 s*ools 7 n built nor p>sonage-h\ses enl>g$ )\t s5d+ = me4 ,= sev]al ye>s ,i 0 look$ ^u z an au?ority 9 ar*itectural matt]s4 ,i rode ab\t all ov] ! c\nty f nor? to we/1 re/or+ *ur*es & design+ s*ools1 & 0 acc\nt$ ! busie/ man alive2 & my horse1 my dog1 & myself1 ! ?ree leane/ ?+s 9 creation1 we 7 to be se5 fly+ along ! roads1 day & night1 9 "o "p or ano!r4 ,! ,bi%op ( ,exet]1 :o at t "t presid$ ov] ,cornwall1 appo9t$ me to make new ,peel di/ricts499 ,i design$ n9ete51 & made all ! maps myself1 call+ on ! ,vic>s & ,rectors = _! approbation4 ,i 0 at ?is "t a v popul> man1 & x 0 said t ! ,bi%op's be/ liv+ w\ld be giv5 to me 9 due "t4 99 ,! ,peel di/ricts 7 ! new ecclesia/ical di/ricts creat$ "u ! ,*ur* ,ext5sion ,act1 introduc$ by ,sir ,rob]t ,peel4 ,,*apt] #d ,antiqu>ian ,rese>*es & ,m9i/ry1 #ahdc-f4 ,ano!r ?+ :i* rais$ my "n 9 & beyond ! c\nty 0 ! ,lo/ ,*ur* at ,p]ranzabuloe4 ,!re 0 an old ,briti% *ur* exi/+ 9 "s s&-hills 9 ! p>i%1 & x 0 said to be entire z f> z ! f\r walls4 ,! hill "u :i* x 0 buri$ 0 easily kn[n by ! bones & tee? :i* cov]$ x4 ,! leg5d said t ! patron sa9t1 ,/4 ,piran1 0 buri$ "u ! alt>1 & t close by ! little *ur* 0 a cell 9 :i* he liv$ & di$4 ,?is 0 en\gh4 ,i got m51 & set to "w to dig x up4 ,aft] "s days' lab\r we came to ! floor1 :]e we discov]$ ! /one seats1 & on ! pla/] ( ! wall ! greasy m>ks ( ! heads & %\ld]s ( p]sons :o _h sat !re _m c5turies ago4 ,we f\nd ! *ancel /ep1 & also ! alt> tomb 7:i* 0 built ea/ & we/1 n nor? & s\?74 ,x 0 fall51 b en\gh rema9$ to %[ ! orig9al %ape & height ( x4 ,i put a notice 9 ! newspap]s1 invit+ p to come & see ! old *ur* :i* _h be5 buri$ = fifte5 hundr$ ye>s4 ,9 ! pres5ce ( _m visitors1 cl]ical & lay1 we remov$ ! /ones ( ! alt>1 & f\nd ! skeleton ( ,/4 ,piran1 :i* 0 id5tifi$ 9 ?ree ways4 ,! leg5d said t he 0 a man sev5 feet high2 ! skeleton measur$ six feet f ! %\ld]-bones to ! heel ,aga91 ano!r leg5d said t 8 he>t 0 en%r9$ 9 a *ur* =ty miles away2 ! skeleton correspond$ ) ?is1 = x 0 headless4 ,moreov]1 x 0 said t 8 "m & a fri5d 7 buri$ on ei!r side ( him2 we also f\nd skeletons ( a male & female 9 ^! positions4 ,be+ satisfi$ on ?is po9t1 we set ! masons to "w to rebuild ! alt> tomb 9 its orig9al %ape & size1 us+ ! same /ones z f> z !y w\ld g4 ,we made up ! defici5cy ) a heavy granite slab4 ,on ?is ,i trac$ ) my f+]1 9 rude ,roman lett]s1 ,,sanctus ,,piranus4 ,! mason w\ld n cut ^? crook$ lett]s unless ,i cons5t$ = him to put 8 "n 9 bett] ones 9 ! corn]4 ,i c\ld n agree to ?is1 s 8 appr5tice & ,i1 betwe5 u1 pick$ out ! rude lett]s1 :i* h s9ce 7,i h he>d7 be5 copi$ = a v]itable ,roman inscription4 ,my "n 0 n[ up z an antiqu>y1 & ,i 0 ask$ to be ! secret>y 7= ! ,we/ ( ,engl&7 to ! ,ar*aeological ,society4 ,i 0 suppos$ to be an old g5tleman1 & he>d myself quot$ z ! v5]able & respect$ ,haslam1 ^: ^w 0 consid]$ en\gh to settle a knotty po9t beyond d\bt4 ,i 0 invit$ to give a lecture on ! old ,p]ran ,*ur*1 at ! ,royal ,in/itution1 ,truro1 :i* ,i did2 illu/rat+ x ) sket*es ( ! build+1 & exhibit+ "s rude rema9s ( c>v+1 :i* are n[ pres]v$ 9 ! museum !re4 ,! audi5ce reque/$ me 7?r\gh _! *airman7 to pr9t my lecture4 ,?is ,i und]took also2 b be+ v "y 9 lit]>y ent]prises1 ,i add$ a great deal ( o!r matt] to ! manuscript :i* ,i 0 prep>+ = ! press4 ,!re 0 mu* 9 ! book 99 ab\t e>ly ,*ri/ianity & ecclesia/ical antiquities4 ,i imag9$ t ?is p>i% 01 9 ,briti% & ,druidic times1 a popul\s place1 & some:at important4 ,!re 0 a ,r\nd1 or amphi!atre1 = public games1 & f\r ,briti% ca/les2 also a great _m sepul*ral m\nds on ! hills1 ! burial-place ( *iefta9s4 ,i suppos$ t ,/4 ,piran came "h among ^! rude natives 7p]haps pa9t$ savages7 to prea* ! ,gospel1 & !n built himself a cell by ! sea-%ore1 ne> a spr+ or well1 :]e he baptiz$ 8 conv]ts4 ,close by1 he built ?is little *ur*1 9 :i* he wor%ipp$ ,god & pray$ = ! p4 99 ,! ,*ur* ( ,/4 ,piran4 ,publi%$ by ,van ,voor/4 ,?is little build+ /ill rema9s entire1 "u ! s&4 ,"s pieces ( ,briti% pott]y & limpet-%ells 7 f\nd outside ! door4 ,! words ( ! poet ,sp5s] d n inaptly describe ?is sc5e ( o!r days3-- ,a little1 l[ly h]mitage x 01 ,d[ne 9 a dale-- ,f> f resort ( p1 t did pas ,9 treveill to & fro3 a litle wyde ,!re 0 a holy *appell edifyde1 ,:]e9 ! h]mite dewly wont to say ,8 holy ?+s ea* morn & ev5tyde2 ,!reby a cry/all /reame did g5tly play1 ,:i*1 f a sacr$ f\nta9e well$ =? away4 ,"h !n1 m ?an f\rte5 c5turies ago1 p call$ ^u ,god2 & :5 _! little sanctu>y 0 ov]:elm$ ) ! s&1 !y remov$ to ! o!r side ( ! riv]1 & built !mselves ano!r *ur*2 b !y /ill cont9u$ to bury _! dead ar\nd & above ! oratory & re/+-place ( ,/4 ,piran4 ,:5 my book 0 publi%$1 !re ensu$ a hot controv]sy ab\t ! subject ( x2 & "s :o came to see ! ,lo/ ,*ur* = !mselves1 decl>$ t x 0 no?+ m ?an a mod]n c[%$2 o!rs w\ld n believe 9 ! antiquity ,i claim$ = x3 "o ( ^! ev5 v5tur$ to ass]t 8 op9ion 9 pr9t1 t x 0 at lea/ eight c5turies lat] ?an ! date ,i _h fix$2 ano!r ask$ 9 a newspap] lett]1 ,h[ is x1 if ?is is a *ur*1 t !re are no o!rs ( ! same p]iod on record8 ,?is r\s$ me to make fur!r rese>*2 & ,i 0 soon rew>d$ by f9d+ 9 ! regi/ry at ,exet] a li/ ( n9ety-two *ur*es exi/+ 9 ,cornwall alone 9 ! "t ( ,edw>d ! ,confessor1 ( :i* ,lam-piran 0 "o4 ,) ! help ( ano!r antiqu>y1 ,i discov]$ n9e 9 "o week1 9 ! we/ "p ( ! c\nty1 ) f\ndation walls & alt> tombs1 ( :i* ,i publi%$ an acc\nt 9 ! ,ar*aeological ,j\rnal4 ,?is pap] set o!r p]sons to "w1 :o discov]$ simil> rema9s 9 v>i\s p>ts ( ! c\ntry2 & ?us x 0 prov$ to demon/ration t we _h m ecclesia/ical antiquities1 & ( e>li] date1 ?an we 7 aw>e (4 ,next1 my att5tion 0 direct$ to ,corni% crosses2 ab\t :i* ,i also s5t a pap]1 ) illu/rations1 z a good secret>y & correspond5t to ! same ,j\rnal4 ,my rese>*es on ?is subject took me back to a v remote "t4 ,i f\nd crosses among ,roman rema9s1 ) inscriptions1 some?+ l ^? 9 ! ,catacombs ne> ,rome--^! 7 evid5tly ,*ri/ian2 b ,i f\nd crosses also among ,druidic antiquities4 ,i c\ld n help inquir+1 ,:]e did ! ,druids get ?is sign8 ,f ! ,pho5icians4 ,:]e did !y get x8 ,f ! ,egyptians4 ,:]e did !y get x8 ,!n ,i discov]$ t ! cross _h come to ,egypt ) traditions ab\t a g>d51 a woman1 a *ild1 & a s]p5t1 & t ! cross 0 always repres5t$ 9 ! h& ( ! second p]son ( _! tr9ity ( gods4 ,?is p]sonage _h a human "m1 & slew ! s]p5t :i* _h p]secut$ h]499 99 ,^! traditions came to ! ,egyptians f an ance/or :o _h come ov] ! flood ) sev5 o!rs4 ,"h 0 a wond]ful discov]y6 ,! my?ology ( ,egypt 0 bas$ on orig9al tradition1 h&$ d[n f ,ant$iluvian times6 ,f fur!r inve/igation1 x 0 evid5t t ! sub/ance ( ,h9doo my?ology came f ! same s\rce2 z also t ( ! ,greeks1 ,*9ese1 ,mexicans1 & ,sc&9avians4 ,?is is h[ ! ,druids got ! cross also3 x 0 9 ! h& ( _! demi-god ,?or1 ! second p]son ( _! triad1 :o slew ! great s]p5t ) 8 fam\s hamm]1 :i* he bequea!d to 8 foll[]s4 ,i 0 beside myself ) excitem5t1 & walk$ b\t ! room 9 a mo/ agitat$ /ate4 ,i !n made a table or h>mony ( ^! v>i\s my?ologies1 & :5 plac$ side by side1 x 0 q cle> t !y 7 j "o & ! same /ory1 ?\gh dress$ up 9 a v>iety ( my?ological =ms1 & t ! /ory 0 none o!r ?an t ( ! ,bible4 ,9 my ar*itectural j\rneys ,i us$ to ent]ta91 p ) ^! wondr\s subjects2 & "o ev5+ ,i _h ! hon\r ( agitat+ ev5 ! ,bi%op ( ,exet] himself1 :o1 9 8 en?usiasm1 bade me write a book1 & d$icate x to him4 ,i did s4 ,! ,cross & ! ,s]p5t is ! title ( x1 & x 0 duly inscrib$ to 8 lord%ip4 ,x excites me ev5 n[ to ?9k ab\t x1 ?\gh x is ?irty-five ye>s s9ce ,i made ^! discov]ies4 ,! old libr>ian at ,ox=d decl>$ t ,i 0 mad1 & yet he c\ld n keep away f ! subject1 & he 0 nev] we>y ( he>+ some?+ m ab\t x4 ,?is rev]5d ,doctor said1 ,if y are "r1 !n all ! great antiqu>ies are wrong4 ,i sugge/$ t !y _h n _h ! advantage ,i possess$ ( plac+ _! v>i\s !ories side by side1 or ( mak+ _! obs]vations f my po9t ( view4 ,not)/&+ all ^! ext]nal lab\rs1 :i* engross$ my e>ne/ & deep att5tion1 ,i did n neglect my p>i%4 ,i felt1 h[ev]1 t my p>i%ion]s did n "k any?+ ab\t ecclesia/ical antiquities or ar*itectural sci5ce2 & t !y knew no?+1 & c>$ less1 ab\t ,*ur* tea*+4 ,!y did n believe1 ) me1 t 9 ord] to be sav$ h]eaft]1 !y ought to be 9 ! ,*ur*1 & receive ! ,holy ,communion--t !re is no salvation out ( ! ,*ur*1 & no ,*ur* )\t a ,bi%op4 ,!y 7 utt]ly c>eless ab\t ^! ?+s & f ! fir/ _h be5 an unsympa!tic & untea*able p4 ,i feel sure t _h x n be5 = o!r int]e/+ occupations :i* engag$ my m9d1 ,i %\ld h be5 altoge!r disc\rag$ ) !m4 ,i tri$ to /ir !m up to a zeal wor?y ( _! ance/ors1 :o 7 su* good & loyal ,*ur*m51 t ,k+ ,*>les ! ,fir/ wrote !m a lett] ( ,comm5dation1 & comm&$ t x %\ld be put up 9 all ! *ur*es4 ,i _h a copy ( ?is lett] well pa9t$1 fram$1 & plac$ 9 a conspicu\s "p ( my *ur*4 ,!n ,i prep>$ an orig9al s]mon1 :i* ,i prea*$1 or r read1 to inaugurate ! royal lett]4 ,my text 0 tak5 f ,heb4 #ab3bb-bd1 ,ye are come unto ,m\nt ,sion1 & unto ! city ( ! liv+ ,god1 ! heav5ly ,j]usalem1 & to an innum]able company ( angels1 to ! g5]al assembly & *ur* ( ! fir/-born1 :i* are writt5 9 heav51 & to ,god ! ,judge ( all1 & to ! spirits ( j m5 made p]fect1 & to ,jesus ! m$iator ( ! new cov5ant1 & to ! blood ( spr9kl+1 t speake? bett] ?+s ?an t ( ,abel4 ,i appli$ ^! words to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 & r reproa*$ ! ,corni% p = n be+ m loyal & scriptural6 ,i ?9k ,i 0 m r\s$ by my s]mon ?an any "o else2 & no "o ask$ me to pr9t x1 b ,i did = all t1 ) a copy ( ! k+'s lett]4 ,i am sorry to say t ! public did n c>e suffici5tly ab\t x to buy copies en\gh ev5 to pay = pr9t+4 ,x fell v flat1 b ,i attribut$ t to ! deg5]acy ( ! times1 & ( ,corni% p 9 p>ticul>4 ,! fact 01 !y und]/ood t text f> bett] ?an ,i did1 & knew t ! ,*ur* ( ! fir/-born 0 some?+ m spiritual ?an ,i _h any conception (4 ,f ! comm5cem5t ( my m9i/ry ,i did n1 z a g5]al rule1 prea* my own s]mons1 b ,newman's1 :i* ,i abridg$ & simplifi$1 = 9 t day ,i ?\ght !m mo/ s\nd 9 doctr9e1 practical & full ( good common s5se4 ,inde$1 z f> z ,*ur* tea*+ w5t1 !y 71 to my m9d1 p]fect4 ,!y /at$ doctr9es & drew manife/ conclusions2 b my p 7 n satisfi$ ) !m !n2 & ,i c see n[1 ?ank ,god6 t1 ) all _! excell5ces1 !y 7 utt]ly defici5t 9 spiritual vitality4 ,_! au?or 0 "o :om ,i p]sonally admir$ v mu*1 b by 8 own %[+1 9 8 ,apologia4 he 0 a man :o 0 se>*+ n = ,god1 b = a ,*ur*4 ,at l5g?1 :5 he grasp$ ! ideal ( :at a ,*ur* ought to be1 he tri$ by ! ,ox=d ,tracts1 especially ,no4 ,,xc1 to raise ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& to 8 /&>d2 & fail+ 9 t1 he became dissatisfi$1 & w5t ov] to ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,once1 :5 ,i arriv$ at a fri5d's h\se 9 ! ,lake di/rict1 ,i 0 told t !re 0 a mo/ beautiful view ( di/ant m\nta9s to be se5 f my w9d[4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i lift$ ! bl9d to look1 b only saw an ord9>y view ( gre5 fields1 h$ges1 trees & a lake4 ,!re 0 no?+ else :atev] to be se54 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! day1 a heavy mi/ :i* _h be5 hang+ ov] ! lake 0 disp]s$1 & !n ,i saw ! beautiful m\nta9s :i* be=e _h be5 s completely veil$ t x 0 difficult to believe 9 _! exi/5ce4 ,s x 0 ) me4 ,i c\ld see ecclesia/ical ?+s1 b ! m glori\s view ( spiritual realities beyond !m1 9 all _! full & va/ expanse1 0 z yet hidd54 ,:e!r my extracts f ,newman's ,s]mons 7 m po9t$1 or :e!r ,i became m impati5t ) my congregation1 ,i _c tell1 b x 0 v evid5t t my words 7 beg9n+ to take effect at la/2 = z ,i w5t on prea*+ & prote/+ aga9/ ! p & aga9/ s*ism1 my bass viol call$ on me "o day1 & said1 ,if y g on prea*+ t doctr9e1 y w drive away ! be/ "p ( y\r congregation4 ,excuse me1 ,i answ]$1 n ! be/ "p2 y mean ! worse "p4 ,well1 ho said1 y w see4 ,on ! foll[+ ,sunday1 ,i gave out my text1 & _h sc>cely read ?ree pages ( my manuscript :5 ,i he>d a voice say1 ,n[ we w g4 ,) ?is1 ! bass viol1 ! o!r fiddles1 ! cl>ionet1 ! ophicleide1 & ! *oir1 came /ump+ d[n ! gall]y /airs1 & m>*$ out4 ,"s ( ! congregation foll[$ _! example1 ) ! det]m9ation nev] to come back to ! ,*ur* aga94 ,i wait$ till ! noise 0 ov]1 & !n w5t on ) my s]mon meekly1 & ?\ght myself a m>tyr = ,*ur* pr9ciples4 ,i little ?\ght t ! p 7 be+ m>tyr$2 yet !y 7 "r1 & enlight5$ 9 ! tru?1 :ile ,i 0 altoge!r 9 ! d>k1 & knew no?+ ab\t x4 ,f ?is "t !re 0 a con/ant feud betwe5 ! p>i%ion]s & myself4 ,i ?\ght t !y 7 s*ismatics2 & !y knew t ,i 0 unconv]t$1 & did n prea* ! ,gospel4 ,"o day1 a ,diss5t] call$ to pay a burial fee = ! fun]al ( 8 *ild1 :i* he _h purposely omitt$ pay+ at ! prop] "t because he wi%$ to tell me a piece ( 8 m9d4 ,i 0 abs5t on ! occasion on "s ar*itectural or ar*aeological bus9ess1 :i* 0 to me all important4 ,i "k1 he said1 :y y w5t away & w\ld n bury my *ild4 ,d y8 ,i ask$4 ,yes2 x 0 because ,i am a ,diss5t]4 ,oh6 ,i said1 ,i w\ld bury y all to-morr[ if ,i c\ld2 = y are no good1 & c d none ei!r4 ,?is w5t r\nd ! p>i% l wildfire1 & did n advance my popul>ity or d my cause any good4 ,s]i\sly at ?is "t ,i ?\ght t sep>ation f ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& 0 a mo/ deadly s9--x 0 s*ism4 ,idolatry & murd] 7 s9s aga9/ ! ,mosaic law2 b ?is 0 a s9 aga9/ ! ,*ur*4 ,i little dreamt !n t _m ( ! p ) :om ,i ?us cont5d$1 & :om ,i griev$ s mu*1 7 real spiritual memb]s ( ,*ri/1 & _h only ceas$ to be memb]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& because ,i did n prea* ! ,gospel2 t1 9 fact1 ,i 0 ! cause ( _! leav+ ! s]vices2 t ,i 0 ! s*ismatic1 = ,i 0 sep>at$ f ,*ri/3 !y only1 & t = a good reason1 _h sep>at$ f ! communion ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 :i* ,i misrepres5t$4 ,! ,*ur* ( ,engl&'s tea*+ s9ce ! ,re=mation1 l t ( ! primitive ,*ur*1 is bas$ n on baptism1 b conv]sion4 ,baptism 0 int5d$ accord+ to ! ,"l's comm&m5t 7,matt #bh3ai71 = ! purpose ( mak+ disciples99--t is1 to graft memb]s into ! body ( ,*ri/'s ,*ur* outw>dly4 ,:atev] special grace is giv5 to infants & o!rs at baptism1 is giv5 ^u ! condition ( p]sonal fai? & rep5tance4 ,until a baptiz$ p]son has be5 enabl$ by ! ,holy ,gho/ to rep5t & believe ! ,gospel1 he is n really a new-born *ild ( ,god1 or rais$ f dea? into life1 ?\gh nom9ally1 9 ! words ( ! ,cate*ism1 he has be5 made a *ild ( ,god4 99 ,see ,greek ,s9ce ! feuds & diss5sions 9 my p>i%1 ! *ur* 0 almo/ des]t$1 & left *iefly to myself1 my cl]k1 & a few poor p1 :o1 = ! mo/ "p1 7 9 ill fav\r 9 ! *apels4 ,"o day ,i 0 absorb$ 9 writ+1 or r rewrit+1 a text ov] ! por* door ( ! *ur*4 ,x 01 ,?is is none o!r b ! h\se ( ,god1 & ?is is ! gate ( heav54 ,a man :o 0 /&+ at ! foot ( ! ladd] said1 ,heav5 is a long way f t gate1 ,i reckon4 ,i pret5d$ n to he> him1 b 8 spee* /uck to me4 ,i knew only too well f ?is1 & _m o!r indications1 t ! p _h no respect = ! *ur* "u my m9i/rations4 ,,*apt] #e ,! ,new ,p>i%1 #ahdf4 ,ab\t ?is "t ! news rea*$ u t ! ,vic> 0 dead2 & ?us end$ my connection ) ,p]ranzabuloe4 ,z ! ,dean & ,*apt] w\ld n appo9t me to succe$1 ,i _h no alt]native b to make arrangem5ts = my dep>ture4 ,9 "o s5se ,i 0 n sorry to g2 b = v>i\s o!r reasons ,i mu* regrett$ hav+ to leave a place :]e my heal? _h be5 s wond]fully re/or$ & su/a9$1 & 9 :i* ,i _h receiv$ s _m tok5s ( ,god's fav\r4 ,x is true t my lab\rs 7 ( an ext]nal "*2 b ^! ,i ?\ght mo/ important1 & did !m ) all my might z unto ! ,"l4 ,i took ! "w z f ,him1 & did x all to ,him1 & = ,him1 ?ank+ ,him = any tok5 ( success or comm5dation :i* ,i receiv$4 ,i also regrett$ leav+ ! place be=e ,i _h done any good to ! p2 =1 ) all my endeav\rs1 ,i _h n succe$$ 9 p]suad+ !m to receive my idea ( salvation by *ur*man%ip4 ,h[ev]1 ! door 0 %ut beh9d me2 & ?is crisis happ5$ at ! exact "t ( ano!r important ev5t 9 my life4 ,i 0 j engag$ to be m>ri$1 & !re=e _h an additional int]e/ 9 look+ = a sph]e ( lab\r :i* w\ld suit me1 & also ! p>tn] ( my *oice1 :o 0 9 e respect likely to be an effectual helpmeet ,?is 0 soon f\nd & we agre$ toge!r to give ourselves to ! ,"l's "w 7z we ?\ght7 9 x4 ,"o ( ! ,peel di/ricts 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,truro1 :i* ,i _h design$1 call$ ,baldhu1 0 on ! ,e>l ( ,falm\?'s e/ate3 x came to 8 ,lord%ip's m9d to take an int]e/ 9 ?is desolate spot2 s he b\ght ! patronage f ! commission]s1 & !n (f]$ x to me1 to ,be made into a new p>i%4 ,?is ,i accept$1 ) _m ?anks1 & began imm$iately to dream ab\t my plans = ! future4 ,x 0 a "t ( great di/ress 9 t place among/ ! t5ants1 on acc\nt ( ! failure ( ! potato crop2 s 8 lord%ip employ$ "s hundr$s ( ! m5 9 break+ up ! b>r5 cr(t = plant+ trees2 !re he gave me a good c5tral site = a *ur*4 ,n[ ,i made up my m9d to h ev]y?+ p]fect1 & ) my own rules & regulations1 my surplic$ *oir1 *ur*w>d5s1 & frequ5t s]vices1 all aft] my own he>t1 x c\ld sc>cely fall to be o!rwise4 ,i ?\ght t hav+ free scope1 m9e %\ld be a model place4 ,! di/rict 0 9 a b>r5 "p ( a l>ge pali%2 ?ree ?\s& s\ls _h be5 assign$ to me2 & ,i 0 to g & civilize !m1 build my *ur*1 s*ool-h\se1 &1 inde$1 e/abli% ev]y?+ t 0 necess>y4 ,to beg9 )1 ,i took a room :i* 0 us$ = a village s*ool 9 ! week1 & = a s]vice on ,sunday4 ,?is succe$$ s well1 t 9 a few mon?s ,i det]m9$ to enl>ge ! build+ 9 :i* we assembl$1 z spe$ily z possible4 ,hav+ made all necess>y plans1 & procur$ /ones1 timb]1 & slate1 we comm5c$ op]ations at five o'clock "o ,monday morn+1 & by ,saturday night _h a *ancel 7:i* ,i ?\ght mo/ necess>y7 ready = ,sunday use6 ,all ! _w came to see ?is sudd5 erection4 ,?is tempor>y *ur* n[ held ?ree hundr$ p2 & ) ! addition ( a new *oir & he>ty s]vice1 x 0 a great success1 or1 at lea/1 s ,i imag9$1 = 9 ^? days ,i did n look = m4 ,i ent]$ ^u my "w "h ) r5ew$ en]gy & sangu9e hope4 ,i _h1 ( c\rse1 ga9$ m exp]i5ce 9 ! v>i\s duties ( my m9i/ry1 & _h1 moreov]1 a cle>] p]ception1 z ,i ?\ght1 h[ sacram5tal tea*+1 "u ! au?ority ( ! ,*ur*1 ought to "w4 ,i prea*$ on holy liv+1 n conv]sion1 = z yet ,i knew no?+ ab\t ! latt]4 ,9 #ahdg1 ,i w5t on a visit to a v rem>kable man1 :o _h a great effect ^u me 9 _m ways4 ,he 0 ! ,rev4 ,rob]t ,hawk]1 ( ,morw5/[1 9 ! extreme nor? ( ,cornwall499 99 ,see 8 ,,life1 by ,rev4 ,b>+ ,g\ld4 ,?is fri5d 0 a poet1 & a ,high ,*ur*man1 f :om ,i le>n$ _m practical lessons4 ,he 0 a man :o pray$1 & expect$ an answ]2 he _h a wond]ful p]ception = realiz+ unse5 ?+s1 & took ,scripture lit]ally1 ) />tl+ effect4 ,he c]ta9ly 0 mo/ ecc5tric 9 _m ( 8 ways2 b !re 0 a reality & /raight=w>dness ab\t him :i* *>m$ me v mu*2 & ,i 0 ! m drawn to him1 f ! int]e/ he took 9 me & my "w4 ,he knew _m leg5ds ( holy m5 ( old1 & said t ! patron sa9ts ( ,we/ ,cornwall 7 9 ! cal5d> ( ! ,ea/]n ,*ur*1 & ^? 9 ! nor? ( ,cornwall belong$ to ! ,we/]n4 ,8 own patron sa9t1 ,morw5na1 0 a ,saxon1 & 8 *ur* a ,saxon fane4 ,he talk$ ( ^! sa9ts z if he knew all ab\t !m1 & wrote ( !m 9 a volume ( poems ?us3-- ,!y _h _! lodges 9 ! wild]ness1 ,& built !m cells along ! %ad[y sea2 ,& !re !y dwelt ) angels l a dream1 ,& fill$ ! field ( ! evangeli/s ,) ?\ghts z sweet z fl[]s4 ,he us$ to give mo/ ?rill+ & gr& descriptions ( ! /orms ( ! ,atlantic1 :i* broke ^u ! rocky coa/ ) gigantic =ce1 & tell ?rill+ /ories ( %ipwrecks2 h[ he sav$ ! lives ( "s ( ! sailors1 & h[ he recov]$ ! bodies ( o!rs he c\ld n save4 ,!n 9 ! *ur*y>d he w\ld %[ y--!re1 a brok5 boat turn$ ov] ! re/+-place ( "s2 "h1 two o>s set up crosswise ov] sev]al o!rs2 & 9 ano!r "p ! figure-head ( a %ip1 to m>k ! spot :]e ! body ( a capta9 0 buri$4 ,! ,vic>age h\se 0 z orig9al z himself4 ,ov] ! door 0 inscrib$-- ,a h\se1 a glebe1 a p\nd a day2 ,a pleasant place to wat* & pray4 ,be true to ,*ur*1 be k9d to poor1 ,o m9i/]1 = ev]more6 ,! int]ior 0 furni%$ ) old-fa%ion$ heavy furniture & ! outside 0 conspicu\s = its rem>kable *imneys1 :i* 7 f9i%$ (f z models ( ! t[]s ( *ur*es :]e he _h s]v$4 ,! kit*5 *imney1 :i* 0 oblong1 p]plex$ him v mu*1 till 7z he said7 ,i be?\ght me ( my "m's tomb2 & !re x is1 9 its exact %ape & dim5sions6 ,he _h daily s]vice 9 8 *ur*1 g5]ally by himself1 :5 he pray$ = ! p4 ,i did n want !m !re4 he said4 ,god he>s me2 & !y "k :5 ,i am pray+ = !m1 = ,i r+ ! bell4 ,he _h mu* influ5ce 9 8 p>i%1 *iefly among/ ! poor1 & decl>$ t 8 p did :atev] he told !m4 ,!y us$ to br+ a bun* ( fl[]s or ev]gre5s e ,sunday morn+1 & set !m up 9 _! pew ends1 :]e a prop] place 0 made to hold !m4 ,! :ole *ur* 0 seat$ ) c>v$ oak b5*es1 :i* he _h b\ght f "t to "t f o!r *ur*es1 :5 !y 7 re-pew$ ) deal boxes6 ,on ! ,sunday1 ,i 0 ask$ to help him 9 ! s]vice1 & = ?is purpose 0 array$ 9 an alb1 pla91 :i* 0 j l a cassock 9 :ite l954 ,z ,i walk$ ab\t 9 ?is g>b1 ,i ask$ a fri5d1 ,h[ d y l x8 ,9 an in/ant ,i 0 p\nc$ ^u1 & grasp$ /]nly on ! arm by ! ,vic>4 ',l' has no?+ to d ) x2 is x "r8 ,he himself wore ov] 8 alb a *asuble1 :i* 0 amb] on "o side & gre5 on ! o!r1 & 0 turn$ to suit ! ,*ur* seasons2 also a pair ( crimson-color$ gloves1 :i*1 he cont5d$1 7 ! prop] sacrificial col\r = a prie/4 ,i _h v little to d 9 ! s]vice b to witness 8 proce$+s1 :i* ,i obs]v$ ) great att5tion1 & ev5 admiration4 ,8 prea*+ /ruck me v mu*2 he us$ to select ! subject ( 8 s]mon f ! ,gospel ( ! day all ?r\gh ! ye>4 ,?is happ5$ to be ,good ,sam>itan ,sunday1 s we _h a disc\rse ^u ! c]ta9 man :o w5t d[n f ,j]usalem to ,j]i*o1 9 :i* he told u t ! poor w\nd$ man 0 ,adam's race2 ! prie/ :o w5t by 0 ! ,patri>*al disp5sation2 ! ,levite1 ! ,mosaic2 & ! good ,sam>itan repres5t$ ,*ri/2 ! inn 0 ! ,*ur*2 & ! twop5ce1 ! ,sacram5ts4 ,he held 8 manuscript be=e 8 face1 & read x out boldly1 because he hat$1 z he said1 ^? fell[s :o read _! s]mons1 & all ! "t pret5d to prea* !m2 & he especially abhorr$ ^? :o secret$ notes 9 _! ,bibles3 ,ei!r h a book1 sir1 or none6 ,he _h a great av]sion to ,l[ ,*ur* cl]gym51 & told me t 8 /ag ,rob91 :o rang$ on ! lawn1 _h ! same2 & t once he p9n$ "o ( !m to ! gr\nd betwe5 8 horns4 ,! poor man cri$ out 9 great fe>2 s he told ,rob9 to let him g1 :i* he did1 b /ood & look$ at ! obnoxi\s individual z if he w\ld l to h him d[n aga9 & fright5 him1 ?\gh he w\ld n hurt him--,rob9 0 k9d-he>t$4 ,?is ,evangelical1 he cont9u$1 _h a tail coat2 he 0 dress$ l an und]tak]1 sir4 ,once ^u a "t !re 0 "o l him travell+ 9 ,egypt1 ) a simil> coat & a tall hat2 & ! ,arabs pursu$ him1 call+ him ! 'fa!r ( saucepans1 ) a slit tail4' ,?is "p ( 8 spee* 0 evid5tly meant = me1 = ,i wore a hat & coat ( ?is description1 f9d+ x m conv5i5t = ! saddle1 & = d9+ out :5 ,i alight$4 ,he p]suad$ me to we> a prie/ly g>b l 81 & gave me "o ( 8 old cassocks = a patt]n2 ?is ,i succe$$ 9 gett+ made to my satisfaction1 aft] consid]able difficulty4 ,i came back to my "w full ( new ?\ghts & plans1 det]m9$ to d :at 0 "r & ?is 9 spite ( all fe>s1 :e!r my own1 or ^? ( o!rs4 ,i n[ began to ?9k m ( ! reality ( pray]1 & ( ! mean+ ( ! s]vices ( ! ,*ur*2 ,i emphasiz$ my words1 & insi/$ ^u prop] tea*+4 ,i also paid m att5tion to my s]mons1 hav+ hi!rto disreg>d$ !m2 =1 z ,i said1 ! ,druids nev] prea*$2 !y only wor%ipp$4 ,i help up my manuscript & read my s]mon1 l ,mr4 ,hawk]2 & ,i wore a squ>e cap & cassock1 in/ead ( ! saucepan & ! tails4 ,?is co/ume ,i cont9u$ to we> = sev]al ye>s1 ?\gh ,i 0 frequ5tly laugh$ at1 & (t5 pursu$ by boys1 :i* 0 n agreeable to fle% & blood2 b x help$ to sep>ate me f ! _w1 & to make me feel t ,i 0 set ap>t z a prie/ to (f] sacrifice = ! p4 ,9 c\rse ( "t ,i began to make prep>ations = my p]man5t *ur*4 ,i drew ! designs = x1 pass$ !m1 & obta9$ money en\gh to beg9 to build4 ,!re 0 a gr& c]emony at ! /one-lay+1 & a long procession4 ,we _h bann]s1 *ant+1 & a numb] ( surplic$ cl]gy1 besides a l>ge congregation4 ,! ,e>l ( ,falm\?1 :o laid ! /one1 contribut$ a ?\s& p\nds t[>ds ! edifice2 8 "m gave ?ree hundr$ p\nds = a peal ( bells2 & o!rs ( ! g5try :o 7 pres5t contribut$2 s t upw>ds ( eighte5 hundr$ p\nds 0 promis$ t day4 ,j twelve mon?s aft]1 ,july #bj1 #ahdh1 ! same company1 ) _m o!rs1 & ! ,bi%op ( ,exet] 7,phillpotts7 came to consecrate ! beautiful *ur*4 ,9 ! meantime1 betwe5 ! /one-lay+ & ! consecration1 ! ,p>sonage h\se _h be5 built1 &1 m ?an t1 x 0 ev5 pap]$1 furni%$1 & inhabit$6 ,besides all ?is1 !re 0 a g>d5 made1 & a doorway1 aft] an ecclesia/ical mode1 lead+ into ! *ur*y>d1 ) ?is inscription ov] x3-- ,be true to ,*ur*1 ,be k9d to poor1 ,o m9i/]1 = ev]more4 ,9 ?is *ur* !re 7 sup]-alt>s1 c&les1 tripty*1 & also a pa9t$ w9d[2 organ1 *oir1 & six bells2 s t = ^? days x 0 consid]$ a v complete ?+4 ,! prie/ ( ,baldhu1 ) 8 cassock & squ>e cap1 0 q a "* 9 8 small way4 ,he prea*$ 9 a surplice1 ( c\rse1 & prop\nd$ ,*ur* tactics1 firmly cont5d+ = ! ,*ur* tea*+4 ,! ,wesleyans & o!rs _h _! di/9ctive t5ets1 ! ,*ur* mu/ h h]s3 !y _h _! memb]s enroll$1 ! ,*ur* mu/ h h]s2 !re=e he w\ld h a guild1 ) ! view ( keep+ 8 p toge!r4 ,outw>dly !re 0 an esprit de corps1 & ! p>i%ion]s came to *ur*1 & took an int]e/ 9 ! proce$+s2 b x 0 easy to see t _! he>ts 7 else:]e4 ,/ill ,i w5t on1 hop+ aga9/ hope1 build+ f ! top )\t any f\ndation1 tea*+ p to live be=e !y 7 born6 ,,*apt] #f ,! ,awak5+1 #ahdh-ea4 ,he m e>ne/ly ,i wr\ght among ! p1 & ! bett] ,i knew !m1 ! m ,i saw t ! m]e atta*m5t to ! ,*ur*1 & punctual att5dance at ! s]vices or frequ5cy ( ,communion1 0 n suffici5t4 ,i want$ some?+ deep]4 ,i want$ to rea* _! he>ts 9 ord] to d !m good4 ,:e!r ?is desire sprang up 9 ! ord9>y progress by :i* ,god 0 imp]ceptibly lead+ me1 or f a /ory ,i he>d at a cl]ical meet+1 ,i "k n--p]haps f bo?4 ,my m9d 0 evid5tly z gr\nd prep>$ to receive ! w>n+4 ,! /ory 0 ab\t a dream a cl]gyman _h4 ,he ?\ght ! ,judgm5t day 0 come1 & t !re 01 z x 71 a great visitation--great] ?an ! ,bi%op's4 ,! cl]gy 7 mu/]+1 & appe>$ 9 _! g[ns1 b in/ead ( be+ alone1 !y _h "p ( _! congregations ) !m4 ,"s _h a few foll[]s1 o!rs _h m1 & "s a great _m2 & ail ^! receiv$ a graci\s smile f ! ,judge :5 _! names 7 call$4 ,! cl]gyman :o dream$ 0 wait+1 z he suppos$1 ) a l>ge numb] ( p at 8 back ,:5 8 turn came he w5t =w>d2 b1 z he approa*$1 he saw t ! ,judge's c\nt5ance 0 sad & d>k4 ,9 a sudd5 impulse ( suspicion he look$ back2 & lo6 !re 0 no "o beh9d him4 ,he /opp$1 n d>+ to g any fur!r1 & turn+ to look at ! ,judge1 saw t ,8 c\nt5ance 0 full ( wra?4 ,?is dream _h su* an effect ^u him t he began to att5d to 8 p>i% & c>e = ! s\ls ( 8 p4 ,i also 0 beg9n+ to see t ,i ought to c>e = ! s\ls ( my p-at lea/1 z mu* z ,i did = ! s]vices ,( ! ,*ur*4 ,z a prie/1 ,i _h ! p[] 7s ,i ?\ght7 to give !m absolution2 & yet none1 alas6 avail$ !mselves ( ! opportunity4 ,h[ c\ld !y h =giv5ess if !y did n come to me8 ,?is absolution ,i believ$ to be ne$ful be=e com+ to ,holy ,communion1 & t x 01 inde$1 ! true prep>ation = t sacr$ ord9ance4 ,i us$ to speak privately to ! memb]s ( ! ,*ur* ,guild ab\t ?is1 & p]suad$ "s ( !m to come to me = confession & absolution3 b ,i 0 re/less1 & felt t ,i 0 do+ good by /eal?4 ,besides ?is1 ^? :om ,i ?us absolv$ 7 n satisfi$1 = !y said !y c\ld n rejoice 9 ! =giv5ess ( _! s9s z ! ,me?odi/s did1 or say t !y 7 p>don$4 ,9 ?is respect ,i 0 work+ ^u mo/ t5d] gr\nd1 b ,i did n "k :at else to d4 ,i us$ to sp5d h\rs & h\rs 9 my *ur* alone 9 m$itation & pray]2 &1 :ile ?9k+1 employ$ my h&s 9 writ+ texts ov] ! w9d[s & on ! walls1 & 9 pa9t+ ornam5tal bord]s above ! ar*es4 ,i rememb] writ+ ov] ! *ancel ar*1 ) mu* int]e/ & exultation1 ,n[ is come salvation1 & /r5g?1 & ! k+dom ( our ,god1 & ! p[] ( ,8 ,*ri/4 7,rev4 #ab3aj74 ,i imag9$1 9 my sangu9e hope1 t ! k+dom ( ,*ri/ 0 come1 & t ! accus] ( ! bre?r5 0 ca/ d[n4 ,i ?\ght ,i saw1 9 ! p[] ( ,*ri/ giv5 to ,8 prie/s1 su* victory t no?+ c\ld /& aga9/ x4 ,s mu* = dwell+ on a !ory1 "r or wrong1 till x fills ! m9d4 ,yet ,i _c say t all ?is 0 )\t pray]4 ,i did wait ^u ,god1 & ?\ght my answ]s 7 f ,him2 b ,i see n[ t ,i w5t to ! ,"l ) an idol 9 my he>t1 & t ,he answ]$ me accord+ to x 7,ezek4 #ad3c74 ,"o day ,i saw a picture 9 a fri5d's h\se :i* attract$ me dur+ ! "t ,i 0 wait+ = him4 ,x 0 no?+ arti/ic1 nor 0 x ov] well drawn1 b /ill x engag$ my att5tion 9 a way = :i* ,i c\ld n acc\nt4 ,:5 my fri5d came d[n we talk$ ab\t o!r ?+s2 b ev5 aft] ,i left ! h\se ?is picture haunt$ me4 ,at night ,i lay awake ?9k+ ab\t x--s mu* s1 t ,i rose e>ly ! next morn+1 & w5t to a booksell]'s %op1 :]e ,i b\ght a l>ge %eet ( trac+-pap] & p5cil1 & s5t !m out by ! po/man1 ) a note to my fri5d1 begg+ him to give me a trac+ ( ! picture 9 "q4 ,i _h to wait = m ?an a =tnight be=e x arriv$1 & !n h[ great 0 my joy6 ,i rememb] spread+ a :ite clo? on my table1 & op5+ out ! trac+-pap] ^u x2 & !re 0 ! v]itable picture ( ! ,good ,%eph]d6 ,8 c\nt5ance 0 lov+ & k9d4 ,) "o h& ,he 0 pu%+ aside ! bran* ( a tree1 ?\gh a great ?orn w5t "r ?r\gh x2 & ) ! o!r ,he 0 extricat+ a %eep :i* 0 entangl$ 9 ! ?orns4 ,! poor ?+ 0 look+ up 9 helplessness1 all spott$ ov] ) m>ks ( its own blood1 = x 0 w\nd$ 9 /ruggl+ to escape4 ,ano!r ?+ :i* /ruck me 9 ?is picture 0 t ! tree 0 gr[+ on ! edge ( a precipice1 & _h x n be5 = x 7! tree71 ) all ! cruel w\nds x inflict$1 ! %eep w\ld h gone ov] & p]i%$4 ,aft] consid]+ ?is picture = a long "t1 ,i pa9t$ x 9 a l>g] size on ! wall ( my *ur*1 j opposite ! entrance door1 s t e "o :o came 9 might see x4 ,i _c describe ! int]e/ ) :i* ,i employ$ myself ab\t ?is "w2 & :5 x 0 done1 f9d+ t x want$ a good bold =egr\nd1 ,i select$ a %ort text-,he came to seek & to save t :i* 0 lo/4 ,god 0 speak+ to me all ?is "t ab\t ! ,good ,%eph]d :o gave ,8 life = me2 b ,i did n he> ,him1 or suspect t ,i 0 lo/1 or caught 9 any ?orns1 or hang+ ov] a precipice2 !re=e1 ,i did n apply ! subject to myself4 ,c]ta9ly1 ,i rememb] t my ?\ghts dwelt v mu* on =giv5ess & salvation1 b ,i prea*$ t ^! 7 to be _h 9 & by ! ,*ur*1 :i* 0 z ! ,ark 9 :i* ,noah 0 sav$4 ,baptism 0 ! door ( ?is ,ark1 & ,holy ,communion ! tok5 ( abid+ 9 x2 & all :o 7 n inside 7 lo/4 ,:at w\ld become ( ^? outside ! ,*ur* 0 a matt] :i* greatly p]plex$ me4 ,i c\ld n d>e to say !y w\ld be lo/ =ev]2 b :]e c\ld !y be n[8 & :at w\ld become ( !m h]eaft]8 ,i long$ to save ,john ,bunyan2 b he 0 su* a det]m9$ s*ismatic t x 0 impossible to make out a hope = him6 ,sometimes ,i 0 *e]$ by ! ?\ght t he _h be5 duly baptiz$ 9 infancy1 & t 8 aft]-life 0 "o ( ignorance2 b ?is op5$ ! door too wide1 & made my !ory ( salvation by ! ,*ur* a v vague & unc]ta9 ?+4 ,s deeply 0 ! ?\ght +ra9$ 9 my m9d t "o day ,i baptiz$ myself conditionally 9 ! ,*ur*1 = fe> t ,i _h n be5 prop]ly baptiz$ 9 infancy1 & consequ5tly %\ld be lo/ h]eaft]4 ,i _h no idea t ,i 0 lo/ n[2 f> f t1 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 z safe z ! ,*ur* h]self1 & t ! gates ( hell c\ld n prevail aga9/ me4 ,i _h _m conv]sations ) ! e>ne/ p 9 my p>i%1 b !y 7 evid5tly re/+1 n :]e ,i 01 b on some?+ ,i did n "k4 ,"o v happy woman told me1 ,ah6 y w5t to college to l>n ! ,lat92 b ?\gh ,i don't "k a lett] 9 ! ,book1 yet ,i c read my title cle> to mansions 9 ! skies4 ,ano!r woman1 :5ev] ,i w5t to see h]1 made me read ! /ory ( h] conv]sion1 :i* 0 writt5 out 9 a copy-book4 ,sev]al o!r1 m5 & wom51 talk$ to me cont9ually ab\t _! conv]sion4 ,i (t5 wond]$ :at t 02 b1 z ,i did n see mu* self-d5ial among ^! conv]t$ ones1 & obs]v$ t !y did n att5d ,god's ,h\se nor ev] come to ! ,"l's table4 ,i ?\ght conv]sion c\ld n be ( mu* consequ5ce1 or any?+ to be desir$4 ,i little knew t ,i 0 ! cause ( _! rema9+ away f *ur*1 & f ! ,"l's table4 ,"o ?\ghtful man told me1 ,corni% p are too enlight5$ to g to *ur*6 ,a man mu/ give up religion to g !re2 only unconv]t$ p & backslid]s g to su* a place6 ,yet ?is 0 a pray]ful man4 ,:at did he mean8 ,at v>i\s cl]ical meet+s ,i us$ to repeat ^! ?+s1 b /ill obta9$ no in=mation or satisfaction4 ,i made x a rule to visit e h\se 9 my p>i% once a week1 tak+ f twelve to tw5ty ea* day1 :5 ,i s\ght to enlight5 ! p by leav+ ,*ur* tracts1 & ev5 wrote "s myself2 b !y w\ld n d4 ,i f\nd t ! ,religi\s ,tract ,society's publications 7 m acceptable4 ,to my great disappo9tm5t1 ,i discov]$ too1 t ,evangelical s]mons drew ! p1 :ile sacram5tal topics did n int]e/ !m4 ,s1 9 my ard5t desire to rea* & d !m good1 ,i procur$ sev]al volumes ( ,evangelical s]mons1 & copi$ !m1 putt+ 9 sometimes a negative to _! /atem5ts1 to make !m1 z ,i ?\ght1 "r4 ,n[ ,i began to see & feel t !re 0 "s good 9 prea*+1 & us$ ! pulpit int5tionally1 9 ord] to communicate ) my p1 c>efully writ+ or compil+ my s]mons4 ,b ,i mu/ confess t ,i 0 v n]v\s 9 my deliv]y1 & frequ5tly lo/ my place--sometimes ev5 myself2 & ?is to ! great confusion ( ! congregation4 ,i w tell h[ x pleas$ ! ,"l to deliv] me f ?is bondage ( n]v\sness1 & enable me to op5 my lips s z to pla9ly speak out my mean+4 ,"o day1 a fri5d ) :om ,i 0 /ay+ 0 v late 9 com+ d[n to breakfa/2 s1 :ile ,i 0 wait+1 ,i employ$ myself 9 read+ ! ,life ( ,bi%op ,%irley1 ( ,sodor & ,man4 ,my eyes happ5$ to fall on a passage1 describ+ a difficulty into :i* he fell by los+ 8 s]mon on 8 way to a c\ntry *ur*4 ,:5 ! pray]s 7 ov]1 & ! psalm 0 ne>ly sung1 he put 8 h& into 8 pocket = 8 manuscript1 &1 to 8 dismay1 x 0 gone4 ,!re 0 no "t to cont9ue 8 se>*2 s he gave out a text1 & prea*$1 z he said1 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,god1 & nev] wrote a s]mon aft]w>ds4 ,:5 my fri5d came to breakfa/1 he ask$ me :at ,i _h be5 do+ all ! morn+4 ,i told him4 ,ah6 he said1 quietly4 ,:y d y n prea* 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,god & g )\t a book l t good man8 4444 ,i prea* l t6 ,i said 9 amazem5t1 t]rifi$ at ! v ?\ght4 ,yes4 he answ]$1 mis*iev\sly1 ,y4 ,:o ne$s to dep5d ^u ,god = ?is m ?an y d8 ,see+ t ,i 0 p]turb$ at 8 sugge/ion1 he w5t on teas+ me all breakfa/ "t1 & at la/ said1 ,well1 :at is y\r decision8 ,d y mean to prea* 9 future 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,god8 ,i said1 ,yes2 ,i h made up my m9d to beg9 next ,sunday4 ,n[ x 0 8 turn to be t]rifi$1 & he did all he c\ld to dissuade me1 say+1 ,y w make a fool ( y\rself6 ,no fe> ( t1 ,i repli$2 ,i d x already2 ,i _c be worse4 ,no2 ,i w beg9 next ,sunday6 ,i came back ) ! det]m9ation to keep my promise1 b mu/ confess t ,i grew m & m uneasy z ! "t approa*$4 ,h[ev]1 on ,sunday1 ,i w5t up into ! pulpit1 & spoke z well z ,i c\ld1 )\t any notes1 & f\nd x f> easi] ?an ,i _h fe>$4 ,9 ! ev5+ x 0 /ill easi]2 & s ,i cont9u$1 week by week1 ga9+ m confid5ce1 & h nev] writt5 a s]mon s9ce t day--t is1 to prea* x4 ,once ,i 0 tempt$ to take a book up into ! pulpit1 feel+ ,i _h no?+ to say1 :5 some?+ said to me1 ,is t ! way y dep5d ^u ,god8 ,imm$iately ,i put ! volume on ! floor1 & /&+ on x1 gave out my text1 & prea*$ )\t hesitation4 ,?is go+ =w>d 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,god has be5 a deliv]ance to me f _m a difficulty besides ?is "o1 & t ?r\gh _m ye>s4 ,"o day ,i w5t1 9 my cassock & cap1 to ! %op ( a man :om ,i reg>d$ z a dreadful s*ismatic4 ,he sold ! publications ( ! ,religi\s ,tract ,society4 ,on ent]+1 he appe>$ greatly pleas$ to see me1 & took unusual int]e/ & pa9s 9 select+ tracts1 giv+ me a d\ble portion = my money4 ,8 k9dness 0 v emb>rass+2 & :51 on leav+1 he foll[$ me to ! door1 & said ,god bless y6 x gave me a great turn4 ,a s*ismatic bless+ a prie/6 ,?is1 inde$1 0 an anomaly4 ,i 0 a%am$ to be se5 com+ out ( ! %op1 & ! m s1 because ,i _h ?is l>ge ,evangelical p>cel 9 my h&1 ,i felt z ?\gh ev]ybody 0 look+ at me4 ,h[ev]1 ! tracts 7 v acceptable at home1 & 9 ! p>i%4 ,i ev5 began to ?9k !re 0 some?+ good 9 !m4 ,s ,i c5t = m4 ,?ree m51 "o aft] ano!r1 told me t !y _h be5 conv]t$ ?r\gh read+ !m4 ,"o ( ^! said t ! tract ,i _h giv5 him ought to be writt5 9 lett]s ( gold2 & a few mon?s aft] ?is same man di$ mo/ happily1 rejoic+ 9 ! ,"l1 & leav+ a bright te/imony beh9d4 ,i m5tion$ ! conv]sion ( ^! ?ree m5 to _m ( my fri5ds1 & ask$ !m = "s explanation1 b got none4 ,/ill1 ! ?\ght cont9ually haunt$ me---,:at c ?is conv]sion be8 ,i _h made x a cu/om to pray ab\t :at ,i _h to d1 & any?+ ,i c\ld n und]/&2 !re=e ,i pray$ ab\t ?is4 ,j !n 7,i believe1 9 answ] to pray]7 a fri5d (f]$ to l5d me ,s\!y's ,life ( ,wesley1 & said1 ,y w f9d x all ab\t conv]sion2 & a few days aft] came a tract1 ,john ,b]ridge's ,great ,error ,detect$4 ,?is tract 0 c>efully m>k$ 9 p5cil1 & _h sev]al que/ions writt5 9 ! m>g94 ,i f\nd out t x came f a p]son to :om ,i _h giv5 x1 & :o 0 anxi\s to "k its mean+4 ,i read x ) mu* int]e/1 = ,i saw t ! fir/ portion ( ! hi/ory ( ,b]ridge correspond$ ) m9e2 b z ,i w5t on read+1 ,i wond]$ :at he c\ld mean by ,ju/ification4 ,:at 0 t wond]ful ?+ :i* ,god did = him & = ! s\ls ( 8 p8 ,:at c\ld he mean by hav+ 8 eyes op5$ to see himself a wret*$1 lo/ man8 ,:at 0 see+ ! way ( salvation8 ,he said t he _h prea*$ = six ye>s1 & nev] br\ght a s+le s\l to ,*ri/2 & = two ye>s m 9 ano!r place1 & _h no success2 b n[1 :5 he prea*$ ,*ri/ in/ead ( ! ,*ur*1 p came f all p>ts1 f> & ne>1 to he> ! s\nd ( ! glori\s ,gospel2 & believ]s 7 add$ to ! ,*ur* cont9ually4 ,i grappl$ ) ?is subject2 b ,i c\ld n1 by se>*+1 f9d out any?+1 = ,i 0 9 ! d>k1 & knew n z yet t ,i 0 bl9d1 & ne$$ ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,_s to awak5 & br+ me to see myself a lo/ s9n]4 ,my s\l 0 n[ all a /ir on ?is subject2 b1 z f> z ,i c rememb]1 ,i want$ ! in=mation-n = myself2 b because ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld !n get hold ( ! secret by :i* ! ,wesleyans & o!rs caught & kept _! p1 or r my p4 ,soon aft]1 my g>d5]1 a good ,*ur*man1 & duly despis$ by 8 neighb\rs = atta*+ himself to me & my tea*+1 fell s]i\sly ill4 ,i s5t him at once to ! doctor1 :o pron\nc$ him to be 9 a m9]'s consumption1 & gave no hope ( 8 recov]y4 ,no soon] did he realize 8 position1 & see et]nity be=e him1 ?an all ! ,*ur* tea*+ ,i _h giv5 him fail$ to console or satisfy1 & 8 he>t sank )9 him at ! ne> prospect ( dea?4 ,9 8 di/ress ( m9d1 he did n s5d = me to come & pray ) him1 b actually s5t = a conv]t$ man1 :o liv$ 9 ! next r[ ( cottages4 ,?is man1 in/ead ( build+ him up z ,i _h done1 w5t to "w 9 ! opposite direction-to break him d[n2 t 01 to %[ my s]vant t he 0 a lo/ s9n]1 & ne$$ to come to ,jesus j z he 01 = p>don & salvation4 ,he 0 br\ght "u deep conviction ( s91 & ev5tually f\nd peace ?r\gh ! preci\s blood ( ,jesus4 ,imm$iately x spread all ov] ! p>i% t ! p>son's s]vant 0 conv]t$4 ,! news soon rea*$ me1 b1 in/ead ( giv+ joy1 br\ght ! mo/ bitt] disappo9tm5t & sorr[ to my he>t4 ,su* 0 ! pr(\nd ignorance ,i 0 96 ,! poor man s5t = me sev]al times1 b ,i c\ld n make up my m9d to g ne> him4 ,i felt f> too mu* hurt to ?9k t aft] all ,i _h taught him aga9/ s*ism1 he %\ld fall into s great an error4 ,h[ev]1 he s5t aga9 & aga91 till at la/ 8 entreaties prevail$1 & ,i w5t4 ,in/ead ( ly+ on 8 b$1 a dy+ man1 z ,i expect$ to f9d him1 he 0 walk+ ab\t ! room 9 a mo/ joyful & ec/atic /ate4 ,oh1 de> ma/]6 he exclaim$1 ,i am s glad y are come6 ,i am s happy6 ,my s\l is sav$1 glory be to ,god6 ,come1 ,john1 ,i said1 sit d[n & be quiet1 & ,i w h a talk ) y1 & tell y :at ,i ?9k4 ,b ,john knew my ?\ghts q well en\gh1 s he bur/ out1 ,oh ma/]6 ,i am sure y d n "k ab\t ?is1 or y w\ld h told me4 ,i am q sure y love me1 & ,i love y--t ,i d6 b1 de> ma/]1 y d n "k ?is--,i am pray+ = ! ,"l to %[ x to y4 ,i mean to pray till ,i die1 & aft] t if ,i c1 till y are conv]t$4 ,he look$ at me s lov+ly1 & seem$ s truly happy1 t x 0 m ?an ,i c\ld /&4 ,almo/ involunt>ily1 ,i made = ! door1 & escap$ be=e he c\ld /op me4 ,i w5t home greatly di/urb$ 9 my m9d--altoge!r disappo9t$ & disgu/$ ) my "w among ^! ,corni% p4 ,x is no use2 !y nev] w be ,*ur*m56 ,i 0 z hopeless & mis]able z ,i c\ld be4 ,i felt t my sup]ior tea*+ & practice _h fail$1 & t ! inf]ior &1 z ,i believ$1 unscriptural dogmas _h prevail$4 ,my fav\rite & mo/ promis+ ,*ur*man _h fall51 & 0 happy 9 8 fall2 m ?an t1 he 0 actually pray+ t ,i might fall too6 ,i felt v jeal\s = ! ,*ur*1 & !re=e felt deeply ! conv]sion ( my g>d5]4 ,l ! eld] bro!r ( ! ,prodigal ,son1 ,i 0 griev$1 & ev5 angry1 because he 0 re/or$ to fav\r & joy4 ,! remon/rance ( ! fa!r prevail$ no?+ to mollify 8 feel+s2 9 l mann]1 no?+ seem$ to give me any re/ 9 ?is crisis ( my p>o*ial "w4 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld give up my p>i% & *ur*1 & g & "w 9 "s m cong5ial soil2 or else t ,i w\ld prea* a set ( s]mons on ! subject ( s*ism1 = p]haps ,i _h n suffici5tly taught my p ! dang] ( ?is great s96 ,e p>i%ion] ,i pass$ seem$ to look at me z if he said1 ,s mu* = y\r tea*+6 ,y w nev] conv9ce u6 ,,*apt] #g ,conv]sion1 #ahea4 ,?is 0 a "t ( great disappo9tm5t & disc\ragem5t4 ,ev]y?+ _h turn$ out s diff]5t to ! expectation ,i _h =m$ & *]i%$ on fir/ com+ to ?is place4 ,i 0 !n full ( hope & int5d$ to c>ry all be=e me ) great success1 & ,i ?\ght ,i did2 b1 alas6 !re 0 a mi/ake some:]e1 some?+ 0 wrong4 ,9 ^? days1 :5 ,i 0 build+ my new *ur*1 & talk+ ab\t ! t[] & spire we 7 go+ to erect1 an eld]ly ,*ri/ian lady :o 0 sitt+ 9 h] :eel-*air1 calmly li/5+ to our conv]sation1 said1 ,w y beg9 to build y\r spire f ! top899 ,x 0 a /range "q1 b %e evid5tly meant some?+1 & look$ = an answ]4 ,i gave x1 say+1 ,no1 madam1 n f ! top1 b f ! f\ndation4 ,%e repli$1 ,t is "r--t is "r1 & w5t on ) h] knitt+4 99 ,see ,tract1 ,build+ f ! ,top1 by ,rev4 ,w4 ,haslam ,?is "q 0 n ask$ 9 je/ or 9 ignorance2 x 0 l a riddle4 ,:at did %e mean8 ,9 a few ye>s ?is lady pass$ away1 b h] enigmatic words rema9$4 ,no d\bt %e ?\ght to h]self t ,i 0 beg9n+ at ! wrong end1 :ile ,i w5t on talk+ ( ! *oir1 organ1 happy wor%ip1 & all ! ?+s t we 7 go+ to attempt 9 ! new *ur*2 t ,i 0 aim+ at sanctification1 )\t ju/ification2 int5d+ to tea* p to be holy be=e !y 7 sav$ & p>don$4 ,?is is exactly :at ,i 0 do+4 ,i _h plant$ ! bo>ds ( my tab]nacle ( wor%ip1 n 9 silv] sockets 7! silv] ( :i* _h be5 paid = r$emption71 b 9 ! s& ( ! wild]ness4 ,9 o!r words1 ,i 0 tea*+ p to wor%ip ,god1 :o is a ,_s1 n = love ( ,him :o gave ,8 ,son to die = !m1 b 9 ! f]v\r & en?usiasm ( human nature4 ,my sup]/ructure 0 built on s&2 & h5ce ! cont9ual disappo9tm5t1 & t la/ disc\rag+ ov]?r[4 ,no wond] t my life 0 a failure1 & my lab\rs ineffectual1 inasmu* z my ef=ts 7 n put =? 9 fai?4 ,my "w 0 n done z a ?ank-(f]+1 b r z a m]itori\s ef=t to obta9 fav\r f ,god4 ,rep5tance t[>ds ,god1 h[ev] e>ne/ & s9c]e1 )\t fai? t[>ds our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 is n complete or satisfy+4 ,!re may be a *ange ( m9d & w1 produc+ a *ange ( actions1 :i* are done 9 ord] to pacify consci5ce1 & to obta9 ,god's fav\r 9 return2 b ?is is n en\gh4 ,x is l prep>+ ! ,f\nd )\t s[+ se$1 & !n be+ disappo9t$ t !re is no h>ve/4 ,a g>d5 is n complete or successful unless ! ,f\nd has be5 prop]ly prep>$1 nor unless fl\ri%+ plants are gr[+ 9 x4 ,rep5tance ) ,fai?1 ! two toge!r1 con/itute ! fullness ( ,god's religion4 ,we h to believe1 n 9 ! fact t we h giv5 ourselves--we "k ?is 9 our own consci\sness--b 9 ! fact t ,god1 :o is m will+ to take ?an we to give1 has accept$ u4 ,we rejoice & "w1 n z p]sons :o h surr5d]$ ourselves to ,god1 b out ( lov+ gratitude1 z ^? :o h be5 *ang$ by ,him to ?is end4 ,i w g on n[ to tell h[ ,i 0 br\ght at ?is critical p]iod ( my life to real fai? t[>ds our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,?is 0 done 9 a way ,i knew n1 & moreov]1 9 a way ,i little expect$4 ,i _h promis$ a visit to ,mr4 ,aitk51 ( ,p5de51 to advise him ab\t 8 *ur*1 :i* 0 !n build+2 & n[1 9 ord] to div]t my ?\ghts1 ,i made up my m9d to g to him at once4 ,soon aft] my arrival1 z we 7 seat$ com=tably by ! fire1 he ask$ me 7z he v commonly did7 h[ ! p>i% prosp]$4 ,he said1 ,i (t5 take %ame to myself :5 ,i ?9k ( all y\r "w4 ,b1 my bro!r1 are y satisfi$8 ,i said1 ,no1 ,i am n satisfi$499 ,:y n8 ,because ,i am mak+ a rope ( s&1 :i* looks v well till ,i pull1 & !n1 :5 ,i expect x to hold1 x gives way4 ,:at d y mean8 ,:y1 ,i repli$1 ^! ,corni% p are +ra9$ s*ismatics4 ,i !n told him ( my g>d5]'s conv]sion1 & my great disappo9tm5t4 ,well1 he said1 if ,i 7 tak5 ill1 ,i c]ta9ly w\ld n s5d = y4 ,i am sure y c\ld n d me any good1 = y are n conv]t$ y\rself4 ,n conv]t$6 ,i exclaim$4 ,h[ c y tell8 ,he said1 quietly1 ,i am sure ( x1 or y w\ld n h come "h to compla9 ( y\r g>d5]4 ,if y _h be5 conv]t$1 y w\ld h rema9$ at home to rejoice ) him4 ,x is v cle> y are n conv]t$6 99 ,see ,tract1 ,are ,y ,satisfi$8 by ,rev4 ,w4 ,haslam4 ,i 0 vex$ ) him = say+ t1 & attempt$ to dispute ! po9t2 b he 0 calm & confid5t2 :ile ,i1 on ! o!r h&1 0 uneasy1 & try+ to ju/ify myself4 ,9 ! c\rse ( our conv]sation1 he said1 ,y d n seem to "k ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! natural consci5ce & ! "w ( ! ,_s4 ,"h he _h me1 = ,i only knew ( "o ?+1 & he ref]r$ to two4 ,h[ev]1 we battl$ on till ne>ly two o'clock 9 ! morn+1 & !n he %[$ me to my b$-room4 ,po9t+ to ! b$1 he said 79 a voice full ( mean+71 ,ah6 a v holy man ( ,god di$ !re a %ort "t s9ce4 ,?is did n add to my com=t or induce sleep1 = ,i 0 already mu* di/urb$ by ! conv]sation we _h _h1 & did n enjoy ! idea ( go+ to b$ & sleep+ :]e "o _h s lately di$--ev5 ?\gh he 0 a holy man4 ,resolv+ to sit up1 ,i look$ r\nd ! room1 & see+ "s books on ! table1 took up "o1 :i* happ5$ to be ,h>e's ,mission ( ! ,com=t]4 ,almo/ ! fir/ page ,i glanc$ at told ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! natural consci5ce & ! "w ( ! ,_s4 ,?is ,i read & re-read till ,i und]/ood its mean+4 ,! next morn+ z soon z breakfa/ 0 f9i%$1 ,i resum$ ! conv]sation ( ! previ\s night ) ! additional light ,i _h ga9$ on ! subject4 ,we _h n talk$ long be=e ,mr4 ,aitk5 said1 ,ah1 my bro!r1 y h *ang$ y\r gr\nd s9ce la/ night6 ,i at once confess$ t ,i _h be5 read+ ,h>e's book1 :i* he did n "k 0 9 my room1 nor ev5 9 ! h\se4 ,he 0 curi\s to see x4 ,he !n *all5g$ me on ano!r po9t1 & said1 ,h y peace ) ,god8 ,i answ]$1 )\t hesitation1 ,yes1---=1 = eight ye>s or m ,i _h reg>d$ ,god z my ,fri5d4 ,mr4 ,a4 w5t on to ask me1 ,h[ did y get peace8 ,oh1 ,i said1 ,i h x cont9ually4 ,i get x at ! ,daily ,s]vice1 ,i get x ?r\gh pray] & read+1 & especially at ! ,holy ,communion4 ,i h made x a rule to c>ry my s9s !re e ,sunday1 & h (t5 come away f t holy sacram5t feel+ z happy & free z a bird4 ,my fri5d look$ surpris$1 b did n dispute ?is "p ( my exp]i5ce4 ,he cont5t$ himself by ask+ me quietly1 ,& h[ long does y\r peace la/8 ,?is "q made me ?9k4 ,i said1 ,i suppose1 n a week1 = ,i h to d ! same ?+ e ,sunday4 ,he repli$1 ,i ?\ght s4 ,op5+ ! ,bible1 he f\nd ! f\r? *apt] ( ,/4 ,john1 & read1 ',:osoev] dr9ke? ( ?is wat] %all ?ir/ aga94' ,! woman ( ,sam>ia drew wat] = h]self at ,jacob's well1 & qu5*$ h] ?ir/2 b %e _h to come aga9 & aga9 to ! same well4 ,%e _h no idea ( gett+ wat]1 except by draw+1 any m ?an y h ( gett+ peace except+ ?r\gh ! means y use4 ,! ,"l said to h]1 ',if ?\ knewe/ ! gift ( ,god1 & :o x is t sai? to !e1 ,give me to dr9k2 ?\ w\lde/ h ask$ ( ,him1 & ,he w\ld h giv5 !e liv+ wat]1' :i* w\ld be 'a well ( wat] spr++ up into ev]la/+ life' 7,john #d3aj-ad74 ,my fri5d po9t$ out ! diff]5ce betwe5 gett+ wat] by draw+ f a well1 & hav+ a liv+ well )9 y spr++ up4 ,i said1 ,i nev] he>d ( su* a ?+4 ,i suppose n1 he answ]$4 ,h y ?is liv+ wat]8 ,i cont9u$4 ,yes1 ?ank ,god1 ,i h _h x = ! la/ ?irty ye>s4 ,h[ did y get x8 ,look "h1 he said1 po9t+ to ! t5? v]se3 ,y w\lde/ h ask$ ( ,him1 & ,he w\ld h giv5 !e liv+ wat]4 ,%all we ask ,him8 ,i said4 ,he answ]$1 ,) all my he>t2 & imm$iately pu%+ back 8 *air1 knelt d[n at 8 r\nd table1 & ,i knelt on ! opposite side4 ,:at he pray$ = ,i d n "k4 ,i 0 completely ov]come1 & melt$ to te>s4 ,i sat d[n on ! gr\nd1 sobb+1 :ile he %\t$ al\d1 prais+ ,god4 ,z soon z ,i c\ld get up1 ,i made = ! door1 & tak+ my hat1 coat1 & umbrella1 said t ,i 0 really afraid to /ay any long]4 ,) ?is ,i took my dep>ture1 leav+ my c>pet-bag beh9d4 ,x 0 sev5 miles to ,p5zance1 b 9 my excitem5t ,i walk$ & ran all ! way1 & arriv$ !re be=e ! coa*1 :i* 0 to h call$ = me1 b br\ght my c>pet-bag in/ead4 ,9 ! meantime1 :ile ,i 0 wait+ = x1 ,i saw a pamphlet1 by ,mr4 ,aitk51 9 a %op w9d[1 :i* ,i b\ght1 & got into ! tra9 to return to ,baldhu4 ,my m9d 0 9 su* a di/ract$ /ate1 t ,i s\ght relief 9 read+4 ,i _h n long be5 do+ s1 :5 ,i came to a p>agraph 9 italics3 ,!n %all ,he say unto !m1 ,dep>t f ,me2 ,i nev] knew y4 ,! "q arre/$ me1 ,:at if ,he says t to y8 ,ah1 t is n likely4 ,b1 :at if ,he does8 ,x _c be4 ,i h giv5 up ! _w2 ,i love ,god2 ,i visit ! sick2 ,i h daily s]vice & weekly communion4 ,b1 :at if ,he does8--:at if ,he does8 ,i c\ld n be> ! ?\ght2 x seem$ to ov]:elm me4 ,z ,i read ! pamphlet1 ,i saw t ! words 7 spok5 to p]sons :o 7 tak5 by surprise4 ,s %\ld ,i be4 ,!y 7 able to say1 ,we h eat5 & drunk 9 ,?y pres5ce1 & ,?\ has taught 9 our /reets3 9 ,?y "n we h ca/ out devils1 & done _m wond]ful works4 ,yet1 ) all ?is1 ,he repli$1 ,dep>t f ,me1 ,i nev] knew y4 ,i did n see h[ ,i c\ld escape1 if su* m5 z ^! 7 to be reject$4 ,conviction 0 lay+ hold ^u me1 & ! circle 0 becom+ n>r[]4 ,! ?\ght press$ heavily ^u me1 ,:at a dreadful ?+1 if ,i am wrong6 ,add$ to ?is1 ,i trembl$ to ?9k ( ^? ,i _h misl$4 ,c x be true8 ,is x s8 ,i rememb]$ "s ,i _h wat*$ ov] mo/ zeal\sly1 le/ ! ,diss5t]s %\ld come & pray ) !m4 ,i _h s5t !m out ( ! _w re/+ ^u a false hope1 adm9i/]+ ! sacram5t to !m = want ( kn[+ any o!r way ( br++ !m into ,god's fav\r4 ,i us$ to grieve ov] any p>i%ion] :o di$ )\t ! la/ sacram5t1 & (t5 wond]$ h[ x w\ld f>e ) ,diss5t]s6 ,my m9d 0 9 a revolution4 ,i d n rememb] h[ ,i got home4 ,i felt z if ,i 7 out on ! d>k1 b\ndless ocean1 )\t light1 or o>1 or rudd]4 ,i endur$ ! greate/ agony ( m9d = ! s\ls ,i _h misl$1 ?\gh ,i _h done x ignorantly4 ,!y are gone1 & lo/ =ev]6 ,i ju/ly des]v$ to g also4 ,my di/ress seem$ great] ?an ,i c\ld be>4 ,a trem5d\s /orm ( w9d1 ra9 & ?und]1 :i* 0 ra9+ at ! "t1 0 q 9 sympa?y ) my feel+s4 ,i c\ld n re/4 ,look+ at ! graves ( "s ( my fai?ful ,*ur*m51 ,i wond]$1 ,is x really true t !y are n[ curs+ me = hav+ misl$ !m8 ,?ursday4 ,friday1 & ,saturday pass$ by1 ea* day & night m d>k & despair+ ?an ! prec$+ "o4 ,on ! ,sunday1 ,i 0 s ill t ,i 0 q unfit to take ! s]vice4 ,mr4 ,aitk5 _h said to me1 ,if ,i 7 y1 ,i w\ld %ut ! *ur*1 & say to ! congregation1 ',i w n prea* aga9 till ,i am conv]t$4 ,pray = me6' ,%all ,i d ?is8 ,! sun 0 %9+ brightly1 & be=e ,i c\ld make up my m9d to put (f ! s]vice1 ! bells /ruck out a m]ry peal1 & s5t _! summons f> away ov] ! hills4 ,n[ ! ?\ght came to me t ,i w\ld g to *ur* & read ! morn+ pray]s & aft] t dismiss ! p4 ,!re 0 no prep>ation = ! ,holy ,communion t day1 & ,i _h deput$ ! cl]k to select ! hymns1 = ,i 0 f> too ill to att5d to any?+ myself4 ,! psalms & hymns 7 especially applicable to my case1 & seem$ to help me1 s t ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld g on & read ! ante-communion s]vice1 & !n dismiss ! p4 ,& :ile ,i 0 read+ ! ,gospel1 ,i ?\ght1 well1 ,i w j say a few words 9 explanation ( ?is1 & !n ,i w dismiss !m4 ,s ,i w5t up into ! pulpit & gave out my text4 ,i took x f ! gospel ( ! day--,:at ?9k ye ( ,*ri/8 7,matt4 #bb3db74 ,z ,i w5t on to expla9 ! passage1 ,i saw t ! ,ph>isees & scribes did n "k t ,*ri/ 0 ! ,son ( ,god1 or t ,he 0 come to save !m4 ,!y 7 look+ = a k+1 ! son ( ,david1 to reign ov] !m z !y 74 ,some?+ 0 tell+ me1 all ! "t1 ,y are no bett] ?an ! ,ph>isees y\rself-y d n believe t ,he is ! ,son ( ,god1 & t ,he is come to save y1 any m ?an !y did4 ,i d n rememb] all ,i said1 b ,i felt a wond]ful light & joy com+ into my s\l1 & ,i 0 beg9n+ to see :at ! ,ph>isees did n4 ,:e!r x 0 some?+ 9 my words1 or my mann]1 or my look1 ,i "k n2 b all ( a sudd5 a local prea*]1 :o happ5$ to be 9 ! congregation1 /ood up1 & putt+ up 8 arms1 %\t$ out 9 a ,corni% mann]1 ,! p>son is conv]t$6 ,! p>son is conv]t$6 ,hallelujah6 & 9 ano!r mom5t 8 voice 0 lo/ 9 ! %\ts & praises ( ?ree or f\r hundr$ ( ! congregation4 ,in/ead ( rebuk+ ?is extraord9>y brawl+1 z ,i %\ld h done 9 a =m] "t1 ,i jo9$ 9 ! outbur/ ( praise2 & to make x m ord]ly1 ,i gave out ! ,doxology--,praise ,god1 f :om all bless+s fl[--& ! p sang x ) he>t & voice1 ov] & ov] aga94 ,my ,*ur*m5 7 dismay$1 & _m ( !m fl$ precipitately f ! place4 ,/ill ! voice ( praise w5t on1 & 0 swell$ by numb]s ( pass]s-by1 :o came into ! *ur*1 greatly surpris$ to he> & see :at 0 go+ on4 ,:5 ?is subsid$1 ,i f\nd at lea/ tw5ty p cry+ = m]cy1 ^: voices _h n be5 he>d 9 ! excitem5t & noise ( ?anksgiv+4 ,!y all pr(ess$ to f9d peace & joy 9 believ+4 ,among/ ?is numb] !re 7 ?ree f my own h\se2 & we return$ home prais+ ,god4 ,! news spread 9 all directions t ! p>son 0 conv]t$1 & t by 8 own s]mon1 9 8 own pulpit to4 ,! *ur* w\ld n hold ! cr[ds :o came 9 ! ev5+4 ,i _c exactly rememb] :at ,i prea*$ ab\t on t occasion2 b "o ?+ ,i said 01 t if ,i _h di$ la/ week ,i %\ld h be5 lo/ = ev]4 ,i felt x 0 true4 ,s cle> & vivid 0 ! conviction ?r\gh :i* ,i _h pass$1 & s di/9ct 0 ! light into :i* ! ,"l _h br\ght me1 t ,i knew & 0 sure t ,he _h br\ght me up out ( an horrible pit1 out ( ! miry clay1 & set my feet ^u a ,rock1 & put a new song into my m\? 7,ps4 #dj74 ,he _h quick5$ me1 :o 0 be=e dead 9 trespasses & s9s1 7,eph4 #b3a74 ,i felt sure1 z ,i said1 t if ,i _h di$ la/ week ,i %\ld h be5 lo/ = ev]4 ,?is 0 a />tl+ & an al>m+ ^w to _m ( my e>ne/ p1 :o said1 ,:at !n w become ( u8 ,i repli$1 ,y w be lo/ = a c]ta9ty if y d n give y\r he>ts to ,god4 ,at ! end ( ?is great & ev5tful day ( my life--my spiritual bir?day1 on :i* ,i pass$ f dea? to life by be+ born f above--,i c\ld sc>cely sleep = joy4 ,i awoke e>ly ! next morn+1 ) ! impression on my m9d t ,i mu/ get up & g to a village a mile (f to tell ,james ,b---- ( my conv]sion4 ,he 0 a good & holy man1 :o _h (t5 spok5 to me ab\t my s\l2 & _h be5 pray+ = ?ree ye>s or m on my behalf4 ,i _h sc>cely gone half-way be=e ,i met him com+ t[>ds me3 he seem$ z mu* surpris$ to see me z ,i 0 to meet him4 ,he look$ at me 9 a /range way1 & !n1 lean+ 8 back aga9/ a /one f5ce1 he said1 ,are y conv]t$8 ,:y d y ask me8 ,i repli$4 ,i am j on my way to y\r h\se1 to tell y ! good news--t ,i h f\nd peace4 ,my s\l is sav$4 ,! de> man said1 ,?ank ,god6 & x came f ! v dep?s ( 8 he>t4 ,%$d+ te>s ( joy1 he w5t on to say1 ',?is night ,i woke up ?9k+ ( y2 y 7 s /rongly 9 my m9d1 t ,i got up & began to pray = y2 b ,i c\ld n 'get hold2' ,i wre/l$ & cri$ al\d1 b x 0 all ( no avail2 ,i begg$ ! ,"l n to give y up2 b x seem$ ,i c\ld n pray4 ,aft] try+ = m ?an two h\rs1 x came to my m9d t p]haps y 7 conv]t$4 ,?is ?\ght made me s happy1 t ,i began to praise ! ,"l2 & !n ,i _h lib]ty1 & %\t$ s l\d t x r\s$ up ! :ole h\se1 & !y came ru%+ into my room to "k :at ev] 0 ! matt] ) me4 ',i am prais+ ,god1' ,i said2 'prais+ ,god--! p>son is conv]t$6--,i feel sure he is4 ,glory be to ,god6 ,glory be to ,god6' ,!y said1 ',y mu/ be dream+2 y _h bett] lie d[n aga91 & be quiet4' ,b x 0 ( no use1 ,i c\ld n sleep2 & s soon z ! light began to break1 ,i dress$ myself1 & h come out to see :e!r x is true1 ,yes1 ,i said1 x is true2 ! ,"l has sav$ my s\l2 ,i am happy6 ,i ?ank$ him !n & !re = all ! help he _h be51 & = ! pati5ce he _h s long ex]cis$ t[>ds me4 ,we sp5t a happy "t toge!r1 ?ank+ & prais+ ,god1 & !n he return$ home to tell 8 fri5ds & neighb\rs ! news4 ,aft] breakfa/ a visitor arriv$1 :o 0 on an err& ( q ano!r k9d4 ,! report _h by ?is "t spread f> & wide1 t ,i 0 conv]t$ 9 my own pulpit1 & by means ( my own s]mon2 also1 t ,i _h said1 ,if ,i _h di$ la/ week1 ,i %\ld h be5 lo/ = ev]6 ,my fri5d hav+ he>d ?is1 imm$iately m\nt$ 8 horse & rode ov] to see me ab\t x4 ,he at once put ! "q1 ,did y say1 la/ night1 9 y\r pulpit1 t y 7 sav$2 & t if y _h di$ la/ week y w\ld h be5 lo/ = ev]8 ,i answ]$1 ,yes1 inde$1 ,i did2 & ,i meant x4 ,he look$ q bewild]$1 & /ood = a long "t argu+ ) me2 !n tak+ a *air he sat d[n1 & began to sympa?ize & pity me1 say+ h[ griev$ he 01 = he c\ld see madness 9 my eyes4 ,he tri$ to div]t my ?\ghts1 & begg$ t ,i w\ld g out = a ride ) him4 ,see+ t he made no impression by 8 v>i\s argum5ts1 & t he c\ld n prevail ^u me to recall my words1 he ord]$ 8 horse2 b be=e m\nt+ he said1 ,i _c agree ) y1 & w oppose y z h>d z ,i c4 ,v well1 ,i repli$2 b let u %ake h&s ov] x3 !re is no ne$ t we %\ld be angry ) "o ano!r4 ,!n m\nt+1 he />t$ (f1 & _h n gone m ?an a few y>ds1 :51 sudd5ly pull+ up1 he turn$1 & plac+ 8 h& on ! back ( 8 horse1 call$ out1 ,haslam1 ,god /op ! man :o is wrong6 ,i answ]$1 ,am51 & (f he trott$4 ,on ! ,friday foll[+ he broke a blood-vessel 9 8 ?roat or *e/1 & has nev] prea*$ s9ce4 ,8 life 0 9 dang] = ,sev]al weeks1 ?\gh 9 c\rse ( "t he recov]$1 b ,i h he>d t he has nev] be5 able to speak above a :isp]4 ,god has mo/ und\bt$ly /opp$ him2 :ile ,he has p]mitt$ me to prea* = ! la/ n9e-&-tw5ty ye>s1 on ! av]age m ?an six hundr$ times a ye>4 ,f t "t ,i began to prea* ! ,gospel1 & 0 n a%am$ to decl>e ev]y:]e :at ! ,"l _h done = my s\l4 ,?us f p]sonal exp]i5ce ,i h be5 enabl$ to proclaim ! ,^w1 bo? z a witness & a m9i/]4 ,i1 :o be=e t "t us$ to be s weak1 t ,i c\ld n prea* = m ?an fifte5 or tw5ty m9utes = ?ree consecutive ,sundays )\t break+ d[n1 0 n[ able to d s ea* day1 (t5 m ?an once1 & ?ree times e ,sunday4 ,,*apt] #h ,! ,revival1 #ahea-ed4 ,9 ! provid5ce ( ,god1 my conv]sion 0 ! beg9n+ ( a great revival "w 9 my p>i%1 :i* cont9u$ )\t mu* int]ruption = ne>ly ?ree ye>s4 ,at "s p]iods dur+ t "t !re 0 a great] p[] ( ! div9e pres5ce1 & consequ5tly m manife/ results1 ?an at o!rs2 b all along !re 7 conv]sions ( s9n]s or re/oration ( backslid]s e week--inde$1 almo/ e day4 ,i 0 c>ri$ along ) ! torr5t ( ! "w1 f> ov] & beyond sev]al b>ri]s ( prejudice :i* _h be5 9 my m9d4 ,= in/ance1 ,i made a resolution t if ,i ev] _h a "w ( ,god 9 my p>i%1 x %\ld be accord+ to rule1 & t ! p %\ld n be excit$ into mak+ a noise1 z if ,god 7 deaf or af> (f2 also1 t ,i w\ld prev5t _! ?r[+ !mselves into extraord9>y /ates ( m9d & body1 z ?\gh x 7 necess>y t !y %\ld d s 9 ord] to obta9 a bless+4 ,i int5d$ to h ev]y?+ 9 mo/ beautiful & exempl>y ord]1 & t all %\ld be done z quietly & ) z mu* precision z ! work+ ( a ma*9e4 ,no %\t+ ( praises1 no l\d pray+1 no he>ty respond+2 &1 above all1 no extravagant cry+ = m]cy1 su* z ,i _h witness$ 9 ,mr4 ,aitk5's p>i%4 ,b not)/&+ my prud5ce & judici\s resolutions1 ! w9d blew z x li/$2 we he>d ! s\nd !re(1 b c\ld n tell :5ce x came1 or :i!r x w5t 7,john #c3 #h74 ,9 spite ( all my prejudices1 s\ls 7 quick5$ & born ( ! ,_s4 ,i 0 fill$ ) rejoic+1 & my he>t ov]fl[$ ) joy to see some?+ do+ = ! ,"l4 ,any?+ is bett] ?an ! /illness ( dea?1 h[ev] ae/hetic & beautiful1 h[ev] rev]5tial & dev\t a m]e outw>d c]emonial may appe>4 ,impos+ pageants & religi\s displays may excite en?usia/ic religiosity or devotionism2 b !y d n1 & nev] c1 promote spiritual vitality4 ,f> f ?is1 !y draw ! he>t & m9d into a *annel ( human religion1 :]e x c sometimes ov]-fl[ to its own satisfaction2 b !y nev] br+ a s9n] to see himself lo/1 or1 unwor?y by nature to be a wor%ipp]1 & consequ5tly1 z su*1 utt]ly unfit to take any "p 9 religi\s c]emonies4 ,on ! ,monday aft] my conv]sion we _h our fir/ week-day revival s]vice 9 ! *ur*1 :i* 0 fill$ to excess4 ,9 ! s]mon1 ,i told !m once m t ,god _h br\ght me up out ( an horrible pit1 out ( ! miry clay1 & set my feet ^u ! ,rock1 &444 put a new song 9 my m\? 7,ps4 #dj3b-c74 ,i _h n spok5 long1 :5 "s "o 9 ! congregation gave a %riek1 & !n began to cry al\d = m]cy4 ,?is 0 quickly foll[$ by cries f ano!r & ano!r1 until prea*+ 0 altoge!r hopeless4 ,we !n comm5c$ pray+ = ^? :o 7 9 di/ress1 & "s exp]i5c$ m5 :o 7 pres5t dealt ) ! anxi\s4 ,i _c tell h[ _m p cri$ = m]cy1 or h[ _m f\nd peace t night2 b !re 0 great rejoic+4 ,i1 :o 0 /ill 9 my grave-clo!s1 ?\gh out ( ! grave1 0 sorely (f5d$ at p pray+ & prais+ ,god s he>tily & s l\dly 9 ! *ur*4 ,i ?\ght t if ?is 0 to become a regul> ?+1 x w\ld be ak9 to brawl+1 & q out ( ord]4 ,practis+ s++ & rehe>s+ an!ms 9 ! *ur*1 ,i did n ?9k mu* ab\t2 b someh[1 = p to cry out 9 di/ress ( s\l1 & to praise ,god out ( ! abundance ( _! he>ts1 0 too mu* = me4 ,i 0 sadly p]plex$6 ,at ! close ( ! s]vice1 ,i told ! p ,i w\ld h a %ort "o aga9 ! next ev5+1 9 ! *ur*1 & t aft] t we w\ld g into ! s*oolroom = ! pray]-meet+4 ,?us end$ ! second day ( my spiritual life4 ,on ,tuesday ev5+ we assembl$ 9 ! *ur*1 & !n w5t to ! s*oolroom = ! aft]-meet+4 ,!re ! p _h full lib]ty to s+1 praise1 & %\t too1 if !y desir$1 to _! he>ts' cont5t1 & truly _m avail$ !mselves ( ! opportunity4 ,9 ,cornwall1 at ! "t ,i speak ( 7n[ tw5ty-n9e ye>s ago71 ,corni% folk did n ?9k mu* ( a meet+ unless x 0 an excit+ & noisy "o4 ,9 ?is s*oolroom1 ev5+ by ev5+1 ! ,"l wr\ght a great "w1 & %[$ =? ,8 p[] 9 sav+ _m s\ls4 ,i h seldom read ( any rem>kable manife/ations 9 revivals ! c\nt]p>t ( :i* ,i did n witness 9 t room2 & ,i saw "s ?+s !re :i* ,i h nev] he>d ( z tak+ place any:]e else4 ,i 0 by ?is "t n afraid ( a little1 or ev5 mu* noise1 s long z ! p[] ( ! ,"l's pres5ce 0 evid5t4 ,! %\ts ( ! p did n h9d] me1 ( _! l\d pray+1 or _! he>ty responses4 ,!re 7 "s subjects on :i* x 0 impossible to v5ture )\t elicit+ vehem5t demon/rations4 ,a fri5d ( m9e1 :o _h come f "s di/ance on a visit1 w5t ) me on "o occasion to an aft]noon ,bible class4 ,i ask$ him to address ! p1 & 9 a quiet way he proce$$ to talk ab\t heav54 ,z he describ$ ! city ( gold1 ) its pe>ly gates1 its walls ( jasp]1 its f\ndations ( sapphire & preci\s /ones1 & to tell !m t ! city _h no ne$ ( ! sun1 nei!r ( ! moon1 to %9e 9 x2 = ! glory ( ,god did light5 x1 & ! ,lamb is ! light !re( 7,rev4 #ba3b-c71 ,i began to feel some:at uneasy1 & fe>$ t he 0 v5tur+ on t5d] gr\nd1 :5 all at once !re 0 he>d a %riek ( joy1 & 9 a mom5t almo/ ! :ole class 0 9 an ec/asy ( praise4 ,my fri5d 0 greatly dismay$1 & also fright5$ at ! noise1 & seiz+ 8 hat1 he made ha/ily = ! door4 ,/op6 /op6 ,i said2 y mu/ /& fire bett] ?an t4 ,i quietly gave out a hymn1 & ask$ "s ( !m to help me s+1 & !n we knelt d[n to pray4 ,i pray$ 9 a l[ voice1 & soon all 0 /ill aga91 except+ ! responsive ,am5s1 & ! gasp+s ( ^? :o _h be5 ?us excit$4 ,x may be ask$1 :y did ,i p]mit su* ?+s8 ,i liv$ among/ a p :o 7 accu/om$ to outw>d demon/rations2 & by desc5d+ to !m 9 _! ways ,i 0 enabl$ to lead _m ( !m to high] ?+s1 & to tea* !m to re/ n s mu* on _! feel+s1 z on ! facts & tru? reveal$ 9 ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,b !orize z we w\ld1 x 0 j a "q1 9 _m cases1 ( no "w1 or ( decid$ manife/ation4 ,we c\ld n help p be+ /rick5 d[n1 nei!r c\ld !y help x !mselves2 (t5 ! mo/ unlikely p]sons 7 ov]come & became excit$1 & p]sons naturally quiet & retir+ prov$ ! mo/ noisy & demon/rative4 ,h[ev]1 x 0 our joy to see p]man5t results aft]w>ds1 :i* m ?an reconcil$ u = any am\nt ( inconv5i5ce we _h felt at ! "t4 ,:5 ! p[] ( ,god is manife/ly pres5t1 ! p]sons :o he> ! noise1 z well z ^? :o make x1 are bo? "u ! same influ5ce1 & are 9 sympa?y ) "o ano!r4 ,an outsid]1 :o does n und]/& x1 & is n 9 sympa?y1 might compla91 & be greatly sc&aliz$4 ,= my own "p1 ,i 0 int5sely happy 9 ^? meet+s1 & _h become s accu/om$ to ! l\d ,am5s1 t ,i f\nd x v dull to prea* :5 !re 0 no response4 ,pray] meet+s :i* 7 c>ri$ on 9 a quiet & =mal mann] seem$ to me cold & he>tless4 ,!y t g d[n to ! sea 9 %ips1 t d bus9ess 9 great wat]s2 ^! see ! works ( ! ,"l1 & ,8 wond]s 9 ! deep 7,ps4 #ajg3bc1 #bd74 ,"s spiritual m>9]s nev] v5ture out ( a calm millpond1 & rejoice 9 v quiet proce$+s2 !y d n look l rejoic+ at all4 ,!y resemble ! p :o are go+ ?r\gh a =mal duty1 &1 l a pa9t$ %ip ^u a pa9t$ ocean1 !y are nev] toss$4 ,mo/ und5iable x is t _m try+ ?+s happ5 9 ! excitem5t ( a /orm4 ,i 0 h>d5$ aga9/ criticism1 & only wi%$ t my criticiz+ fri5ds c\ld %[ me a m effectual way ( work+1 & a way 9 :i* ,god's glory might be advanc$1 )\t giv+ (f5ce4 ,! v remembrance ( ^! times w>ms my he>t z ,i write2 & ?\gh ,i d n "k :e!r ,i am /ill "y en\gh to ent] into su* ?+s 9 ! same way1 yet ,i am sure t ! manife/ pres5ce ( ! ,"l1 "u any circum/ances1 w\ld /ill /ir & rejoice my _s4 ,my fri5d ,mr4 ,aitk5 us$ to rise above x all mo/ maje/ically1 & %\t z l\d z ! l\de/4 ,x 0 gr& to see 8 great s\l at full lib]ty rejoic+ 9 ! ,"l4 ,he 0 q at home 9 ! noisie/ & /ormie/ meet+s1 & no d\bt he ?\ght me a promis+ disciple1 & a v happy "o1 too4 ,oh1 :at trem5d\s sc5es we witness$ :5ev] ,mr4 ,aitk5 came to prea* at ,baldhu4 ,! *ur*1 :i* 0 built to hold six hundr$1 us$ to h z _m z fifte5 hundr$ pack$ into x4 ,n only 7 ! wide passages cr[d$1 & ! *ancel fill$1 ev5 up to ! communion table1 b !re 7 two r[s ( occupants 9 e pew4 ,! ,feat man 0 k+ ov] _! s\ls1 = at times he seem$ z if he 0 endu$ ) p[] :]eby he c\ld make !m %\t = joy1 or h[l = mis]y1 or cry al\d = m]cy4 ,he 0 by f> ! mo/ effective prea*] ,i ev] he>d1 or ev] expect to he>4 ,s\ls 7 awak5$ by scores :5ev] he prea*$1 & sometimes ! meet+s cont9u$ f> into ! night1 & occasionally ev5 to ! daylight ( ! next morn+4 ,to ! cool1 dispassionate outside obs]v]s & ! newspap] report]s1 all ?is vehem5t /ir 0 v extravagant & incompreh5sible1 & no d\bt !y ?\ght x 0 done = excitem5t2 c]ta9ly !y gave u cr$it = t1 & a great deal m4 ,!y did n e/eem u bett] ?an !mselves & consequ5tly we _h ! full b5efit ( _! s>casm & invective4 ,corni% revivals 7 ?+s by !mselves4 ,i h read ( su* /irr+ movem5ts occurr+ occasionally 9 diff]5t places else:]e1 b 9 ,cornwall !y 7 frequ5t4 ,e ye>1 9 "o "p or ano!r1 a revival w\ld spr+ up1 dur+ :i* believ]s 7 refre%$ & s9n]s awak5$4 ,x is sometimes sugge/$ t !re is a great deal ( ! fle% 9 ^! ?+s--m ( ?is ?an ( ! ,_s4 ,i am sure ?is is a mi/ake1 = ,i am q satisfi$ t nei!r ,corni% nor any o!r p c\ld produce revivals )\t ! p[] ( ! ,_s1 = !y w\ld nev] be )\t !m if !y c\ld raise !m at pleasure4 ,b1 z a fact1 x is well kn[n t revivals beg9 & cont9ue = a "t1 & t !y cease z my/]i\sly z !y began4 ,sometimes ,i h kn[n ! *ildr5 ( ! s*ool comm5ce cry+ = no o/5sible reason2 :5 a few words ab\t ! love ( ,god 9 giv+ ,8 ,son1 or ! love ( ,*ri/ 9 lay+ d[n ,8 life1 w\ld prove en\gh to k9dle a flame1 & !y w\ld beg9 to cry al\d = m]cy =?)4 ,i h se5 a :ole s*ool ( m ?an a hundr$ *ildr5 l ?is at ! same "t4 ,an awak5+ ( su* a "* 0 g5]ally a tok5 ( ! beg9n+ ( a "w ( ,god1 :i* w\ld la/ 9 p[] = f\r or five weeks1 if n m2 !n ! quiet1 ord9>y "w w\ld g on z be=e4 ,sometimes1 = no acc\ntable reason1 we saw ! *ur* ?rong$ ) a multitude ( p f v>i\s p>ts1 hav+ no connection ) "o ano!r1 all equally surpris$ to see ea* o!r2 & ! regul> congregation m surpris$ /ill to see ! unexpect$ ru% ( /rang]s4 ,aft] a "t or two we began to "k ! cause1 & und]/ood t ! com+ toge!r ( ! p 0 by ! ,_s ( ! ,"l1 & s we prep>$ accord+ly1 expect+ a revival to foll[4 ,on ^! occasions x 0 v easy to prea*1 or pray1 or s+2 we _h only to say1 ,/ay "h1 or g to ! s*oolroom2 ,/& & s+2 or1 ,kneel & pray2 & x 0 done at once3 su* 0 ! p[] ( ! ,_s 9 melt+ ! he>s ( ! p into entire submission = ! "t4 ,,*apt] #i ,! ,visitor1 #ahea4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ^! ?+s1 we _h a sc5e q *>act]i/ic ( ,cornwall1 :i* 0 ! fun]al ( my late g>d5] & fri5d1 ,john ,gill4 ,?is man's conv]sion1 x w be rememb]$1 0 ! ev5t by :i* x pleas$ ,god to br+ my religi\s /ate to a crisis4 ,aft] my sudd5 exit f ,john's cottage1 :i* ,i h already describ$1 he cont9u$ to pray = me1 z he said he w\ld1 until ! foll[+ ,sunday1 :5 he he>d ( my conv]sion4 ,!n he prais$ ,god1 & t ) amaz+ p[] ( m9d & body = a dy+ man4 ,day by day1 z 8 life 0 prolong$1 he 0 eag] to he> ( ! progress ( ! "w4 ,at la/ ! day ( 8 dep>ture arriv$1 & he 0 q cont5t & happy to g4 ,a l>ge conc\rse ( p assembl$ at ! fun]al1 dress$ 9 _! ,sunday be/4 ,!y ga!r$ by hundr$s 9 front ( ,john's cottage1 sev]al h\rs be=e ! "t fix$ = ! s]vice4 ,dur+ ?is int]val !y sang hymns1 :i* 7 giv5 out two l9es at a "t4 ,!n !y set out = ! *ur*1 s++ z !y w5t along4 ,9 ! ,we/ x is n ! cu/om to c>ry ! c(f9 on ! %\ld]s1 b by h&1 :i* (fice is p]=m$ by fri5ds1 :o cont9ually relieve "o ano!r1 t all may take "p 9 ?is la/ m>k ( respect to ! deceas$4 ,at l5g?1 !y arriv$ at ! ly* gate1 & sett+ ! c(f9 ^u ! ly* /one 7a heavy slab ( granite1 put !re = ! purpose71 !y sang _! f9al hymn4 ,at ! conclusion ( ?is1 ,i came out ) my cl]k to receive ! fun]al p>ty & to conduct !m into ! *ur*4 ,aft] ! s]vice ,i 0 ab\t to give an address1 :5 ,i 0 told t !re 7 m p outside ?an )9 ! *ur*4 ,9 ord]1 !re=e1 n to disappo9t !m1 we came to ! grave-side 9 ! *ur*y>d1 & f !nce ,i address$ a great conc\rse ( p4 ,i told !m ( de> ,john's conv]sion1 & ( my disappo9tm5t & di/ress on acc\nt ( x2 !n ( my own conv]sion1 & ,john's unb\nd$ joy2 tak+ ! opportunity to en=ce ! absolute necessity ( ?is spiritual *ange1 & ! c]ta9 damnation ( ^? :o die )\t x4 ,?is fun]al caus$ a solemn feel+1 & z ! p l+]$ ab\t1 we re-ent]$ ! *ur*1 & fur!r improv$ ! occasion4 ,!n we w5t to ! s*oolroom = a pray]-meet+1 & _m s\ls 7 add$ to ! numb] ( ! sav$4 ,among ! /rang]s pres5t 0 a g5tleman :o _h come all ! way f ,plym\?1 9 ord] to witness = himself ! wond]ful "w1 ( :i* he _h read an acc\nt 9 ! newspap]4 ,aft] att5d+ sev]al ( our s]vices1 he came up to speak to me1 & said t he _h se5 an acc\nt ( ! fall ( a ,high ,*ur*man into ,diss5t1 :i* 0 reg>d$ z a v extraord9>y ?+1 = at t "t "s ,diss5t]s 7 becom+ ,high ,*ur*m51 or :at us$ to be call$ !n ,puseyites4 ,hav+ se5 me1 & he>d = himself ( my conv]sion1 & my adh]5ce to ! ,*ur*1 he 0 satisfi$1 & ask$ me to sp>e "t = a little conv]sation ) him4 ,he came to my h\se ! next morn+1 & comm5c$ by ask+1 ,d y really ?9k y w\ld h be5 lo/ = ev]1 if y _h di$ be=e y 7 conv]t$8 ,?is he said look+ me full 9 ! face1 z if to see :e!r ,i fl9*$ f my position4 ,i answ]$1 ,mo/ c]ta9ly2 )\t a d\bt4 ,rememb]1 he said1 calmly1 y h be5 baptiz$ & confirm$2 y are a communicant1 & h be5 orda9$2 d y really ?9k t all ?is goes = no?+8 ,mo/ assur$ly1 all ^! ?+s are good 9 _! place1 & fully avail = _! respective purposes1 b !y h no?+ :atev] to d ) a s9n]'s salvation4 ,d y mean to say1 he cont9u$1 t ! ,*ur* is n ! v ark ( salvation8 ,i us$ to ?9k s1 ,i repli$1 & to say t '!re 0 no ,*ur* )\t a ,bi%op1 & no salvation out ( ! ,*ur*2' b n[ ,i am sure t ,i 0 mi/ak54 ,! outw>d ,*ur* is a fold = protect+ ! %eep2 b ! ,*ur* is n ! ,%eph]d :o seeks & f9ds ! lo/ %eep4 ,well1 he said1 b ?9k ( all ! good m5 y condemn if y take t position s absolutely4 ,see+ t ,i hesitat$1 he w5t on to say t he knew _m v good m51 9 & out ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 :o did n ?9k mu* ( conv]sion1 or believe 9 ! necessity ( x4 ,i am v sorry = !m1 ,i repli$2 b ,i _c g back f ! position into :i*1 ,i ?ank ,god1 ,he has br\ght me4 ,x is burn$ into me t1 except a man is conv]t$1 he w & mu/ be lo/ = ev]4 ,come1 come1 my "y fri5d1 he said1 %ift+ 8 *air1 & !n sitt+ d[n to ano!r onslaught1 d y mean to say t a man w g to hell if he is n conv]t$1 z y call x8 ,yes1 ,i d2 & ,i am q sure t if ,i _h di$ 9 an unconv]t$ /ate ,i %\ld h gone !re2 & ?is compels me to believe1 also1 t :at ! ,scripture says ab\t x is true = e "o4 ,b :at does ! ,scripture say8 he int]pos$4 ,x says t 'he t believe? n is condemn$ already1 because he ha? n believ$' 7,john #c3ah72 & 9 ano!r place1 'tie t believe? n %all be damn$' 7,m>k #af3af74 ,z surely z ! believ] is sav$ & goes to heav51 z surely ! unbeliev] is lo/ & mu/ ,s to hell4 ,d y mean ,geh5na1 ! place ( torm5t8 ,yes1 ,i d4 ,?is is v dreadful4 ,m dreadful /ill4 ,i said1 mu/ be ! solemn reality2 & !re=e1 in/ead ( %r9k+ f ! ?\ght & putt+ x (f1 ,i r let x /ir & r\se me to w>n unbeliev]s1 s t ,i may1 by any means1 /op !m on _! dang]\s pa?4 ,i ?9k ?is is ! only true & fai?ful way ( %[+ k9dness2 & t1 on ! o!r h&1 x is ! mo/ selfi%1 he>tless1 & cruel unk9dness to let s9n]s1 :e!r !y are religi\s1 moral1 re=m$1 or o!rwise1 to g on 9 an unconv]t$ /ate1 & p]i%4 ,d y believe1 !n1 said my visitor1 9 ! fire ( hell8 ,d y ?9k x is a mat]ial fire8 ,i d n "k2 ,i d n wi% to "k any?+ ab\t x4 ,i suppose mat]ial fire1 l e o!r mat]ial ?+1 is b a %ad[ ( some?+ real4 ,is x n a fire :i* %all burn ! s\l--a fire t nev] w be qu5*$--:]e ! worm w nev] die8 ,d y really believe all ?is8 ,yes1 ,i said1 & ,i h reason to d s4 ,i rememb]$ ! angui% ( s\l ,i pass$ ?r\gh :5 ,i 0 "u conviction1 & ! t]rible di/ress ,i felt = o!rs :om ,i _h misl$4 ,:5 our bless$ ,"l 0 speak+ to ! ,jews1 & w>n+ !m aga9/ _! unbelief & its fe>ful consequ5ces1 ,he did n all[ any '*>itable hopes' to h9d] ,him f speak+ ! :ole tru?4 ,he told !m ( ,laz>us1 :o di$1 & w5t to ,p>adise1 or ,abraham's bosom2 & ( ,dives1 :o di$1 & w5t to ,hell1 ! place ( torm5t 7,luke #af74 ,b1 he said1 int]rupt+ me1 t is only a p>able1 or figure ( spee*4 ,figure ( spee*6 ,i repeat$4 ,is x a figure ( spee* t ! ri* man f>$ sumptu\sly1 t he di$1 t he 0 buri$8 ,is n t lit]al8 ,:y1 !n1 is x a figure ( spee* t he lift$ up 8 eyes 9 torm5t1 & said1 ',i am torm5t$ 9 ?is flame'7,luke #af3bd74 ,my de> fri5d1 be sure t !re is an awful reality 9 t /ory--a mo/ solemn reality 9 ! fact ( ! impassable gulf4 ,if "h we d n believe 9 ?is gulf1 we %all h to "k ( x h]eaft]4 ,i nev] saw & felt1 ,i cont9u$1 z ,i d n[1 t e man is lo/1 ev5 :ile on e>?1 until he is sav$1 & t if he dies 9 t unsav$ /ate he w be lo/ = ev]4 ,my unkn[n visitor rema9$ sil5t = a little "t1 & ,i c\ld see t he 0 9 te>s4 ,at la/ he bur/ out & said1 ,i am sure y are "r4 ,i came to try y ^u ! ?ree great ,r's--',ru91' ',r$emption1' & ',reg5]ation1' & to see if y really meant :at y prea*$4 ,n[ ,i feel m confirm$ 9 ! tru? & reality ( ! ,scriptures4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h be5 cont5d+ ) an unbeliev] all along1 b in/ead ( ?is ,i f\nd t he 0 a man :o sc>cely v5tur$ to ?9k out :at he believ$ to its ultimate result--he believ$ ,god's ,^w1 b1 l too _m1 alas6 held x loosely4 ,?is g5tleman _h exp]i5c$ ! tru? ( ! ?ree ,r's--t is to say1 he _h be5 awak5$ to "k himself to be lo/ & ru9$ by ! fall1 r$eem$ by ! blood ( ,*ri/1 & reg5]at$ by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,9 o!r words1 he _h be5 conv]t$1 & he knew x4 ,i f\nd out t at ! "t ( 8 conv]sion he 0 a b5efic$ cl]gyman1 & t1 z su*1 n be+ responsible to any rector or vic>1 he began to prea* boldly ! ?+s he _h se54 ,8 *ang$ prea*+ produc$ a manife/ result1 & ! p 7 awak5$1 ev5 />tl$1 & x w\ld appe> he 0 />tl$ too4 ,in/ead ( ?ank+ ,god & tak+ c\rage1 he became al>m$ at ! di/urbance among/ 8 congregation1 & f9d+ t 8 prea*+ made him v unpopul>1 he 0 weak en\gh to *ange 8 tone1 & speak smoo? ?+s4 ,?us he made peace ) 8 congregation1 & ga9$ _! trea*]\s good w2 b z a liv+ s\l he c\ld n be satisfi$ ) ?is /ate ( ?+s4 ,he knew t he 0 n fai?ful to ,god or to 8 p2 s be+ a man ( compet5t means1 he resign$ 8 liv+1 & retir$ into private life--belov$ & respect$1 z !y said1 = be+ a good & peaceable man4 ,at ?is di/ance ( "t ,i cont9ue to ?ank ,god = 8 visit to me2 x help$ to fix ! tru? m firmly 9 my own s\l1 & to confirm me 9 ! c\rse 9 :i* ,i 0 work+1 & ev5 cont5d+1 9 ! face ( mu* opposition4 ,i mu/ say t ,i h _h no reason to wav] 9 my conviction1 & /ill feel t ,i w\ld n1 = t5 times t man's weal?1 & tw5ty times ! am\nt ( good-w :i* he enjoy$ 7if he did enjoy x71 /& 9 8 place4 ,aft] long obs]vation1 ,i p]ceive t x is n ! sword ( ! ,^w :i* (f5ds congregations1 = prea*]s are comm5d$ & promot$ = decl>+ ! :ole tru?1 s long z x is judici\sly put1 & ) mu* discretion1 s z n to w\nd ! prejudices ( ! p4 ,! majority ( congregations r l to see ! sword drawn out to its full l5g? & fla%$ ) dext]ity1 & !y d n always object to be+ hit ) x1 & ev5 hit h>d1 s long z x is done ) ! flat ( ! sword2 b !y v quickly res5t a t\* ) its edge1 & m a ?ru/ ) its po9t4 ,!y admire %eet lightn+1 :i* is beautiful1 z x is h>mless2 b =k$ lightn+ is some?+ to be dread$ & avoid$4 ,= in/ance1 a man may prea* mo/ eloqu5tly & acceptably on ! ?ree ,r's if he does n apply ! subject too po9t$ly1 by tell+ ! p1 bo? 9 ! pulpit & out ( x1 t !y are n[ ru9$ & lo/2 & t1 hav+ be5 r$eem$1 !y are responsible be=e ,god2 & t1 if !y w n be reg5]at$ by ! ,_s1 !y w be damn$4 ,!y d n object to y\r lay+1 ,y ha? ,he quick5$1 b to turn ^! same words into a p]sonal "q is too (t5 consid]$ imp]t95t2 ?\gh1 inde$1 x is ! s9c]e/ k9dness & true/ ,*ri/ian love4 ,?is is a fai?ful say+1 & wor?y ( all acceptation1 t ,*ri/ ,jesus came into ! _w to save s9n]s 7#a ,tim4 #a3ae74 ,he came1 & is spiritually pres5t n[1 ev]y:]e1 = ?is purpose4 ,8 real pres5ce ) p[] is p>ticul>ly promis$ to ! prea*] ( ! ,gospel 7,matt4 #bh3bj74 ,! ,"l ,jesus is ev] pres5t to take especial int]e/ 9 ! result ( prea*+4 ,h[ disappo9t+ !n mu/ x be to ,him1 to f9d ,8 s]vants s (t5 sp5d+ _! "t & en]gies ^u o!r objects1 h[ev] great or good !y may be6 ,:5 !y d prea* ! ,gospel1 x mu/ grieve ,him to see t _! object is too (t5 n ! same z ,82 & :5 ,he does apply ! ,^w by ! p[] ( ! ,_s1 x mu/ also grieve ,him to see t !y are afraid ( ! result4 ,gospel prea*+ %\ld n be to ent]ta9 p1 nor ev5 to in/ruct !m2 b fir/ to awak5 !m to see _! dang]1 & to br+ !m f dea? into life1 :i* is manife/ly ! ,"l's *ief desire4 ,?is 0 ! def9ite object ( my "w3 ,i prea*$ = & aim$ at x2 & no?+ %ort ( ?is c\ld or w\ld satisfy my long+s4 ,9 ! *ur*1 9 ! s*ool-room1 or 9 ! cottages1 we pray$ t ! ,holy ,_s w\ld br+ conviction ^u s9n]s1 & !n we s\ght to lead !m to conv]sion ) ! cle> r++ te/imony1 ,y mu/ be born aga91 or die to all et]nity4 ,,*apt] #aj ,! ,fir/ ,*ri/mas1 #ahea-eb4 ,! fir/ ,*ri/mas-day1 dur+ ! revival1 0 a wond]ful "t4 ,! p _h nev] realiz$ be=e :at ?is fe/ival 01 beyond reg>d+ x z a season = dome/ic rejoic+4 ,x surpris$ _m to see t _! pa/ ,*ri/mases 7 a true repres5tation ( _! pa/ lives t !y _h *e]$ & tri$ to make !mselves happy )\t ,*ri/1 leav+ ,him out ( _! consid]ation 9 ,8 own _w1 z !y _h on ,8 own bir?day4 ,:at a ,*ri/less & hopeless life x _h be56 ,:at a ,*ri/less religion6 ,n[ we prais$ ! ,"l toge!r = ,8 m>vell\s goodness to u1 & desir$ t we might h5ce=? live unto ,him1 s++ 9 he>t & life1 ,glory to ,god 9 ! highe/1 & on e>? peace1 good-w t[>ds m54 ,:5 ,new ,ye>'s eve arriv$ we _h a midnight ga!r+1 & d$icat$ ourselves afre% to ,god's s]vice4 ,x 0 a bless$ season1 & sev]al hundr$s 7 !re1 :o1 toge!r ) myself1 7 ! fruits ( ! revival dur+ ! previ\s two mon?s4 ,! new ye> op5$ ^u u ) fre% manife/ations ( div9e p[] & l>g] bless+s4 ,i endeav\r$ to %[ ! p t ! ,"l 0 call$ ,jesus1 n t ,he might save u f hell or dea?1 b f our s9s2 & ?is :ile we liv$ on e>?--t our he>t & all our memb]s be+ mortifi$ f all c>nal lu/s1 we might live to ,8 glory2 t ,*ri/'s religion 0 n int5d$ = a dea?-b$1 b = a happy & effectual ,*ri/ian life---a life %[+ =? ! p[] ( ,8 grace4 ,aft] ! ,*ri/mas holidays1 our s*oolma/] & 8 wife return$4 ,!y came back full ( disda9 & prejudice aga9/ ! "w1 & ev5 put !mselves out ( ! way to g f h\se to h\se1 9 ord] to set ! p aga9/ me & my prea*+4 ,!y said t !y c\ld br+ a hundr$ cl]gym5 to prove t ,i 0 wrong2 b _! ef=ts _h j ! contr>y effect to :at !y expect$4 ,x /irr$ ! p to come m frequ5tly to he>1 & cont5d m zeal\sly = :at !y knew to be "r4 ,! ma/] 0 p>ticul>ly set aga9/ excitem5t & noise4 ,he said1 ,x 0 s v mu* m rev]5t to be /ill 9 pray]1 & ord]ly 9 praise2 x 0 n necess>y to make su* an unseemly upro>6 ,i _h1 h[ev]1 discov]$1 long be=e ?is "t1 t ! p :o mo/ object$ to noise _h no?+ yet to make a noise ab\t2 & t :5 !y _h1 !y g5]ally made z mu* or m noise ?an o!rs4 ,if a h\se is se5 to be on fire1 p _c hello mak+ an outcry2 :i* !y d n1 :5 !y only read ab\t x4 ,witness+ a dang] /irs ! he>t2 & :5 p's eyes are op5 to see s\ls 9 et]nal dang]1 !y _c help be+ /irr$ up1 & cry+ out4 ,i am sometimes ask$1 ,is !re n su* a ?+ z a feel+ :i* is too deep = expression8 ,x may be t at times p are s surpris$ & a/oni%$ at "s sudd5 ann\ncem5t ( good or bad news1 t !y are /unn$1 & = a "t unable to give v5t to _! joy or grief2 b soon !re is a reaction1 & !n expression is giv54 ,g5]ally speak+1 ^! s-call$ deep feel+s are only deep 9 ! way ( be+ l[ d[n 9 ! vessel--t is to say1 v %all[1 & by no means suffici5t to ov]fl[4 ,we read t ! :ole multitude ( ! disciples began to rejoice1 & praise ,god ) a l\d voice1 = all ! mighty works t !y _h se5 7,luke #ai3cg74 ,& we are told1 ov] & ov] aga91 9 ! ,psalms1 to praise ,god ) a l\d voice1 & to %\t4 ,:5 we lift up our voice1 ! ,"l c /ir our he>ts2 & surely ! ?+s ( ! ,"l h m "r1 & ought to h m p[]1 to /ir & ar\se ! s\l ( man1 ?an a boat-race1 or a hors]ace1 or a fictiti\s sc5e on ! /age4 ,i ?9k p w\ld be all ! bett] = lett+ out _! he>ts 9 praise to ,god4 ,x may lie x is try+ & excit+ to "s1 b p]haps !y are ! v ones :o ne$ su* a /imulus1 & ?is may be ! be/ way ( br++ x out4 ,not)/&+ ! s*oolma/]'s opposition1 he /ill came to *ur*1 & 0 v att5tive to ! s]mons1 tak+ copi\s notes4 ,"o ,sunday1 :5 ,i _h be5 prea*+ on ! text1 ,cut x d[n2 :y cumb]e? x ! gr\nd8 he 0 he>d to say1 ,?ank ,god1 ,i am n cut done yet2 & !n he proce$$ = ! fir/ "t to ! aft]-meet+ 9 ! s*ool-room4 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ,i saw him l[ d[n on 8 knees1 & said h[ happy ,i 0 to see him !re4 ,oh1 he cri$1 ,i fe> !re is no m]cy--! s5t5ce is surely gone =? aga9/ me1 ',cut him d[n6 cut him d[n6' ,& !n ! poor man h[l$ al\d 9 8 di/ress4 ,! p pray$ = him ) %\ts ( ?anksgiv+1 :ile he ?rew himself ab\t 9 agony ( m9d1 & made a great noise1 :i* only drew /ill l\d] acclamations f ! p4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is trem5d\s d9 he f\nd peace1 & rejoic$ ) ! o!rs 9 unmi/akable acc5ts1 & z l\d z ! l\de/4 ,evid5tly he 0 n a%am$ or afraid ( excitem5t & noise n[4 ,:ile he 0 ?us engag$ ,i w5t r\nd to 8 h\se to see 8 wife1 & tell h] ! news4 ,i f\nd h] sitt+ on ! /airs 9 pr(\nd dismay1 z if "s dreadful calamity _h happ5$4 ,%e 0 lit]ally dumb ) fe> & a/oni%m5t4 ,:5 %e c\ld speak1 %e said1 ,:at w happ5 to him n[8 ,w he die8 ,:at w become ( u8 ,:5 ,i assur$ h] t h] husb& 0 only j beg9n+ to live1 %e said1 ,mu/ we be ,diss5t]s n[8 ,oh1 :at w become ( u8 ,h] si/]1 :o 0 /ay+ ) h]1 became v angry at he>+ ( ! ma/]'s conv]sion4 ,f9d+ t ,i c\ld n d mu* ) ^! two1 ,i left !m1 & return$ to ! s*oolroom1 :]e ! p 7 ev5 m upro>i\s & happy ?an be=e2 sev]al o!rs hav+ also f\nd p>don & peace4 ,! ,sunday aft]1 ! ma/] 0 se5 mov+ out ( *ur* z quickly z he c\ld2 & :5 he rea*$ ! *ur*y>d he 0 obs]v$ to run1 & !n leap ov] a wall1 & next ov] a h$ge into a field4 ,!y c\ld n he> him1 b he 0 %\t+ all ! "t z well z runn+4 ,he aft]w>ds said t ! ,pray]-book 0 full ( mean+2 x 0 l a new book to him2 & t if he _h /ay$ 9 *ur*1 he %\ld h di/urb$ ! :ole congregation4 ,he became a v e>ne/ ,*ri/ian1 & took mu* pa9s & int]e/ 9 ! religi\s in/ruction ( ! *ildr54 ,!re 7 sev]al revivals 9 ! s*ool :ile he 0 !re1 & _m ( ! *ildr5 7 conv]t$4 ,x 0 n long be=e he 0 able to rejoice ov] ! conv]sion ( 8 wife1 & h] si/] also4 ,i _h be5 anxi\s ab\t my cl]k = "s "t2 he 0 a good man 9 8 way1 & mo/ att5tive to 8 "w 9 & out ( *ur*2 he 0 also a regul> communicant1 & exempl>y 9 8 life2 b ) all ?is1 he 0 unconv]t$4 ,i (t5 w>n$ him ( 8 dang]2 & "o day x came to my m9d to tell him ( ! man :o w5t 9 to ! m>riage supp] )\t ! w$d+ g>m5t4 ,i said1 no d\bt he ?\ght himself z good z o!rs1 b :5 ! ,k+ came 9 to see ! gue/s1 he 0 spee*less2 & because he 0 s1 & _h n on ! w$d+ g>m5t1 ! ,k+ comm&$ t he %\ld be b\nd h& & foot1 & put into out] d>kness4 ,n[1 ,i cont9u$1 ! ,k+ has (t5 come 9 to see u1 & we h rejoic$ be=e ,him2 b y h nev] spok5 to ,him1 or ask$ = m]cy4 ,x is a v h>d5+ ?+ to he> s mu* z y d & rema9 unsav$2 & a v dead5+ ?+ to come to ! ,"l's table z y d1 go+ ?r\gh ! =m )\t any real mean+4 ,y receive ! bread & w9e 9 remembrance t ,*ri/ di$ = y1 & yet y d n believe en\gh to ?ank ,him4 ,i 0 l$ to say1 ,i mu/ =bid y\r com+ to ! ,"l's table till y h giv5 y\r he>t to ,god4 ,y "k x is "r to d x1 & t y ought to be conv]t$4 ,i w n h y come "h aga9 till y are4 ,! man look$ at me z if to see :e!r ,i meant x1 & !n appe>$ s sorr[ful t ,i ne>ly rel5t$4 ,all ?r\gh ! s]vice he 0 l[ & deject$1 & w5t away at ! "t ( ! adm9i/ration ( ! ord9ance1 & sat at ! o!r end ( ! *ur*4 ,my he>t a*$ = him1 = ,i _h nev] se5 him s t\*$ ab\t any?+4 ,aft]w>ds1 :5 he came into ! ve/ry1 ,i c\ld see t he _h be5 cry+4 ,ah1 fri5d1 ,i said1 x is bad to be left out f ! ,"l's table "h2 :at w x be to be left out ( heav58 ,9 ! ev5+ he 0 m mis]able ?an ev]1 & at ! close ( ! s]vice came into ! s*ool-room1 :]e he broke d[n1 & ask$ ! p to pray = him1 = he 0 a h>d-he>t$1 mis]able s9n]4 ,pray ! ,"l to melt my he>t4 ,we did s3 & soon ! poor brok5-he>t$ man sobb$ & cri$ al\d = m]cy2 & x 0 n long be=e1 to our great joy1 he f\nd peace4 ,he aft]w>ds told u t he _h be5 gett+ h>d5$ by =ms ev] s9ce he _h be5 cl]k1 read+ solemn words )\t any mean+1 :i* at fir/ he trembl$ at do+4 ,he 0 "r2 x is good to he> ! ,gospel1 good to att5d ! means ( grace1 good to assemble 9 ! company ( ,god's p2 b to re/ 9 ! habit ( do+ ^! good ?+s1 )\t conv]sion1 is mo/ dang]\s1 & calculat$ to dead5 ! he>t4 ,he said t he felt x v mu* :5 'ma/]' 0 conv]t$ 7mean+ myself71 & 0 also dreadfully condemn$2 = he _h believ$ 9 ! necessity ( conv]sion all 8 life2 & ?\gh he knew t ,i 0 unconv]t$1 yet he nev] told me1 b r enc\rag$ me to g on z ,i 04 ,he said t he _h _h _m sleepless nights ab\t x2 b n[1 ?ank ,god he add$1 x is all "r2 my feet are on ! ,rock1 my s\l is sav$4 ,i c praise ! ,"l 9 ! congregation4 ,! cl]k's conv]sion did n /op ) himself1 = x 0 a call to "s ( ! r+]s2 !y 7 /ill outside & unsav$1 ?\gh !y knew1 z well z he did1 t !y ought to be o!rwise4 ,"o ( ^! m5 began to att5d ! meet+s regul>ly1 b we c\ld n get him to pray1 or speak a ^w4 ,i said to him "o ev5+1 ,y w nev] h a s\nd f ! bell till y move x or its tongue2 9 l mann]1 y mu/ move y\r tongue1 = y w h no?+ until y speak1 nor get an answ] until y pray4 ,/ill he rema9$ sil5t1 & %ut up to himself2 till "o night1 z we 7 putt+ out ! lights at t5 o'clock1 ! meet+ be+ ov]1 ,i said to him z he /ood by1 ,james1 ,i wond] :5 y w ev] give y\r he>t to ,god8 ,he look$ at me & said1 ,n[4 ,t is "r1 ,i repli$2 ?ank ,god6 let x be s4 ,i at once /opp$ ! ext+ui%+ ( ! lights1 & invit$ him to pray ) me1 b he took no he$4 ,x 0 evid5t he _h delib]ately made up 8 m9d :at he w\ld d1 = he took (f 8 coat1 undid 8 neck-tie1 turn$ back 8 %irt-sleeves1 & !n1 sett+ a =m ab\t n9e or t5 feet long1 squ>e ) ! room1 he knelt d[n & began to say1 ,"l1 h m]cy ^u me6 ,"l1 h m]cy ^u me6 ,?is he repeat$ ) e return+ brea?1 fa/] & l\d] z he w5t on1 till at la/ he work$ himself up into a condition ( fr5zy4 ,he w5t on )\t cessation = two h\rs1 & !n /opp$ 9 an exhau/$ /ate1 gasp+ = brea?4 ,i po9t$ him to ! cross1 & told him ( ,god's m]cy 9 giv+ ,8 ,son to die = s9n]s2 b he 0 q abs5t1 & did n appe> to he> me1 or take ! lea/ notice4 ,aft] a little re/1 he comm5c$ aga9 pray+ z be=e1 & got into t]rible di/ress4 ,:at ) 8 noise1 & ! en]gy he put =?1 x 0 frightful to see ! /ruggle4 ,he cri$1 & beat ! =m till ,i ?\ght 8 arms w\ld be black & blue2 !n he took up ! =m & beat ! floor ) x1 till ,i expect$ e mom5t x w\ld come to pieces4 ,! noise he made br\ght "s ( ! neighb\rs out ( _! b$s 9 a fright to see :at 0 ! matt]4 ,at two o'clock 9 ! morn+1 f\r h\rs aft] he began1 he laid himself across ! =m1 & begg$ ) te>s t ! ,"l w\ld n ca/ him (f4 ,i told him t ! ,"l 0 actually wait+ = him4 ,at la/ he f\nd peace1 or felt some?+1 &1 spr++ up1 he began to %\t & praise ,god2 & we all jo9$ ) him4 ,:5 ?is 0 done1 he put on 8 coat & neck-tie1 & say+ ,good night1 w5t home4 ,f ?is "t he became a *ang$ man1 & an e>ne/ & /eadfa/ believ]4 ,,*apt] #aa ,dreams & ,visions1 #ahea-d4 ,dur+ ! revival1 ! outp\r+ ( ! ,_s ( ,god 0 v manife/ & unmi/akable1 & 0 se5 9 v>i\s ways4 ,x 0 n1 ( c\rse1 by p[] or might ( m51 b by div9e influ5ce1 t s\ls 7 awak5$ to see !mselves 9 _! true condition4 ,! c&le ( ! ,"l 0 light$1 & !re 0 a se>*+ ( & = immortal s\ls1 z typifi$ by our bless$ ,"l 9 ! p>able ( ! lo/ piece ( silv]4 ,we read t ! woman ) h] light$ c&le discov]$ h] treasure2 s ! ,div9e ,_s1 by awak5+ & se>*+ he>ts1 f\nd s\ls1 ?\gh !y _h be5 buri$ "u s9s1 worldl9ess1 & neglect1 & t = _m ye>s4 ,x 0 a/oni%+ to he> p]sons :o _h be5 dull & sil5t be=e1 break out into full & free expression ( spiritual tru?2 & _! lib]ty & p[] 9 pray] 7 n less rem>kable4 ,x 0 truly an op5+ ( eyes to see1 & e>s to he>1 & he>ts to und]/&--a rais+ ( ! dead to spiritual life & animation4 ,x 0 z wond]ful z ! speak+ ( tongues on ! day ( ,p5teco/1 ) ?is diff]5ce--t ^? p spoke :at !y knew1 9 tongues !y _h n kn[n2 & ^!1 9 _! own spee*1 decl>$ ?+s :i* !y _h nev] se5 or kn[n be=e4 ,we _h ano!r di/9ctive sign ( ,p5teco/1 :i* 01 t :ile believ]s rejoic$ ) ov]fl[+ joy1 & s9n]s 7 prick$ to ! he>t1 & cri$ out1 ,:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8 !re 7 ^? :o mock$1 say+1 ,^! m5 are mad1 or drunk4 ,b1 z ,/4 ,pet] te/ifi$ long ago1 ^! m51 wom51 & *ildr5 7 n drunk1 b "u ! influ5ce & p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,we _h yet ano!r sign4 ,! prophet ,joel pr$ict$1 ,x %all come to pass t ,i w p\r out my ,_s ^u all fle%2 & y\r sons & y\r daught]s %all prophesy1 y\r old m5 %all dream dreams1 y\r "y m5 %all see visions2 & also ^u ! s]vants & ^u ! h&maids 9 ^? days w ,i p\r out my ,_s 7,joel #b3bh1 #bi74 ,& ,i ?9k my n>rative w\ld be v incomplete1 & ,i %\ld be hold+ back ! tru?1 if ,i did n tell ( "s ( ! dreams & visions :i* cont9ually happ5$ at ?is "t among/ u4 ,e week1 almo/ e day1 we he>d ( "s rem>kable dream or /rik+ vision4 ,su* ?+s may be call$ sup]/iti\s by incr$ul\s p1 b ,i m]ely /ate :at actually took place )\t attempt+ to expla9 or acc\nt = x4 ,my own feel+ is t ,i w\ld r be among ! sup]/iti\s ?an ! incr$ul\s2 = ,i ?9k t ! =m] lose no?+ by believ+1 & ! latt] ga9 no?+ by _! unbelief4 ,among ! p :o are alive to spiritual realities ^! rem>kable tok5s are n suspect$ or d\bt$4 ,to believe no?+ b :at y c und]/& or acc\nt =1 is to believe no?+ at all4 ,corni% p at t "t--& !y may /ill be ! same--liv$ 9 a spiritual atmosph]e1 at lea/ 9 _! own c\nty2 s mu* s1 t ,i h (t5 he>d !m compla91 :5 !y return$ f ! %ires1 ( ! dryness & deadness !y felt !re4 ,i c c]ta9ly set my seal to ?is te/imony1 & decl>e t ^? ( u :o _h visions 9 ,cornwall h n _h !m 9 ! same way out ( t di/rict4 ,i w give a few specim5s1 b only "o ( a k9d1 = x w\ld fill ! volume if ,i told all2 ! read] c judge if !re 0 mean+ or import 9 "s ( !m or n4 ,at "o "t1 :5 !re 0 a depression or *eck 9 ! congregation1 & prea*+ 0 h>d1 pray+ =mal1 & s++ flat1 ,i invit$ ! p to jo9 ) me 9 pray]1 t ! ,"l w\ld %[ u :at 0 ! h9drance 9 ! way ( ! "w4 ,!y pray$ ) "o accord & )\t consult+ "o ano!r1 almo/ 9 ! same words1 :e!r 9 ! s*ool-room or 9 ! cottages2 ! sub/ance ( _! petition 01 t we might "k & put away ! ob/acle to spiritual bless+1 :atev] t ob/acle might be4 ,"o night ,i dreamt t ,i 0 9 ! *ur*1 feel+ v desolate & =sak52 !re 7 v few p !re1 b soon my eyes light$ on an ugly-look+ /rang]1 :o tri$ to evade me4 ,he 0 a v disagreeable1 sull5-look+ man4 ,:5 ,i spoke to him he gna%$ 8 tee?1 & z ,i approa*$ he drew out a knife & held x out be=e me4 ,i pursu$ him not)/&+1 :5 he back$ t[>ds ! door & w5t out4 ,i foll[$ him ?r\gh ! *ur*y>d till he 0 outside ! ly*-gate4 ,z soon z he 0 gone1 ,i saw a troop ( happy p1 all dress$ 9 :ite1 come 9 at ! same gate1 leap+ & runn+ l s _m joyful *ildr51 & sw++ _! arms = gladness3 !y w5t into ! *ur* & began to s+4 ,! dream 0 z vivid to me z a daylight sc5e4 ,i w5t out ! next ev5+1 int5d+ to tell x at ! s*ool-room meet+2 b be=e ,i began to d s1 ,i obs]v$ t ! p sang m freely ?an usual1 & ,i also notic$ t two m5 :o pray$ omitt$ to (f] ! usual reque/ = h9drances to be remov$4 ,:5 ,i told my dream1 a man arose & said1 ,i "k all ab\t t2 !re has be5 "o among u :om we ?\ght 0 a good man1 b in/ead ( ?is we h discov]$ t he 0 mo/ immoral & deceitful1 do+ a deal ( mis*ief1 secretly und]m9+ ! fai? ( "s1 & mislead+ o!rs2 he has be5 detect$1 & is gone4 ,sure en\gh our old happy fre$om return$1 & !re 0 lib]ty 9 prea*+1 pray+ & s++1 & s\ls 7 sav$4 ,ano!r "t1 :5 ,i 0 gett+ a little impati5t ) ! p1 ,i took a leaf out ( my ,scripture-read]'s book1 & prea*$ a furi\s s]mon ab\t damnation1 repres5t+ ,god z pursu+ ! s9n] to cut him d[n1 if he did n rep5t !re & !n4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h done x well1 & w5t home r satisfi$ ) myself1 suppos+ t ,i n[ knew h[ to make ! congregation feel4 ,! next morn+1 a yeoman call$ to me z ,i 0 pass+ h] cottage1 & said1 ,ma/]1 :at d'y] ?9k8 ,i dreamt la/ night t ! devil 0 a-prea*+ 9 y\r pulpit1 & t y 7 delight$ at x6 ,a sudd5 fe> fell ^u me--s mu* s1 t ,i return$ to ! *ur*1 & %utt+ ! door1 begg$ ,god's =giv5ess2 & ?ank+ ,him = ?is w>n+1 ask$ t ,i might rememb] x1 & nev] transgress aga94 ,z my ,scripture-read] cont9u$ to d5\nce wra? & v5geance1 in/ead ( prea*+ ! ,gospel1 ,i p>t$ ) him4 ,next1 let me tell ( a vision :i* ref]s to o!rs4 ,my si/] came to me "o morn+1 & said1 ,william1 ,i _h a vision la/ night ( a "y man 9 a tall hat1 ) a gre5-&-r$ c>pet-bag 9 8 h&4 ,i saw him s pla9ly1 t ,i %\ld "k him aga9 any:]e4 ,he 0 walk+ up ! road :5 y met him1 %ook h&s1 & return$ ) him to ! h\se4 ,!n y & ,f---- br\ght him 9 at ! glass door4 ,on ! hall table !re /ood a basket conta9+ f\r beautiful & fragrant fruits4 ,y took up ! basket & (f]$ x to ! visitor1 :o1 putt+ 8 h& ^u "o1 said1 ',oh1 ?ank y6' ,!n t\*+ ! ?ree o!rs 9 ord]1 said1 ',t is = "m1 & t = si/]1 & t = --4' ,i c\ld n he> :o4 ,y may smile1 %e cont9u$1 b ,i he>d t1 & saw x all z pla9ly z ,i see y n[4 ,i 0 accu/om$ to he> su* ?+s1 & consequ5tly ?\ght no m ab\t x1 b w5t on to speak ( o!r subjects4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! aft]noon1 z ,i 0 go+ out1 ,i met a relative com+ along ! road1 & took him back ) me to ! h\se2 !re my wife came out to him1 & we l$ him 9 ?r\gh ! glass door4 ,:5 he _h sat "s "t & _h _h "s lun*eon1 my wife said1 ,i wond] :e!r ?is is ! "y man we he>d ab\t ?is morn+8 4444 ,:at "y man8 ask$ our visitor1 ha/ily2 ,:at "y man d y mean8 4444 ,i %\ld n wond] if x is1 ,i repli$2 ,we w see pres5tly4 ,he seem$ v suspici\s1 hav+ he>d be=e he came t "s my/]i\s *ange _h tak5 place 9 u1 & s look$ aga9 & aga9 to see if he c\ld detect any?+ diff]5t4 ,come & see my si/]1 ,i said2 to :i* he ass5t$1 & we w5t across to h] h\se4 ,z soon z we ent]$ h] room1 %e said1 ,h[ d y d8 ,i saw y la/ night4 ,:at d y mean 8 he repli$1 )draw+ 8 h&4 ,:y1 ,i 0 on bo>d ! /eam] la/ night4 ,t may be1 %e said1 b y are ! g5tleman ,i saw4 ,h y n a gre5-&-r$ c>pet-bag8 & did n ,william meet y on ! road8 ,poor "y man6 he look$ dreadfully p]plex$4 ,nev] m9d h]1 ,i said2 sit d[n & tell u ab\t y\r j\rney4 ,aft] we _h talk$ ( ?is & o!r subjects1 we return home4 ,i !n told him t we 7 conv]t$ & ask$ if he _h giv5 8 he>t to ,god4 ,he said he _h4 ,n be+ satisfi$1 ,i put ! "q 9 ano!r =m1 & yet rema9$ unsatisfi$ ) 8 answ]4 ,d y d\bt me8 he ask$3 ,i w prove x to y4 ,he !n w5t up to 8 room = a little :ile1 & return$ ) a pap] 9 8 h&1 9 :i* 0 a d$ication ( himself to ,god1 duly sign$ & seal$4 ,i _h nev] se5 an in/rum5t ( ?is k9d be=e1 & ask$ if he really believ$ 9 x8 ,yes1 c]ta9ly1 he repli$2 & ,i mean x1 too4 ,b1 ,i said1 d y n see t fai? does n consi/ 9 believ+ :at y write1 b 9 :at ,god has writt58 ,! ,^w says t ,god is m will+ to take ?an y are to give3 y believe y h giv52 b d y believe t ,god has tak58 ,he is f> m ready to take y\r he>t ?an y to give x2 z surely z y h giv51 s surely ,he has tak54 ,_c y see t8 ,he repli$1 ,i knew t !re 0 some?+ wrong ab\t ?is1 b ,i did n "k :at4 ,?ank y6 ?ank y6 ,!n ?\ghtfully fold+ up ! pap]1 he w5t out ( ! room4 ,! bell 0 rung = d9n]1 b he did n appe>2 & !n = tea1 b he decl9$ tak+ any4 ,aft] we _h gone to *ur*1 he f\nd 8 way d[n & foll[$ u !re2 & :5 ! s]vice 0 ov] he return$ aga9 to 8 room4 ,i 0 deta9$ at ! s*oolroom t night1 & until two o'clock 9 ! morn+1 pray+ & talk+ ) anxi\s s\ls1 & return$ home v tir$4 ,go+ up to b$ ,i saw a light %9+ "u my visitor's door1 & hesitat+ !re a few mom5ts1 ,i he>d him plead+ e>ne/ly = m]cy4 ,i _h a great m9d to knock1 b 0 afraid ( di/urb+ him2 s ,i pray$ = him1 & w5t to b$4 ,9 ! morn+ he came d[n smil+4 ,?ank ,god1 he said1 x is all "r n[2 ,i am sav$4 ,9 8 h& he held ?ree lett]s--"o to 8 "m1 "o to 8 si/]1 & ! o!r to a c\s91 9 :i* he invit$ !m e>ne/ly to come to ,jesus4 ,)9 ! week all f\r 7 9 our h\se1 prais+ ,god = salvation4 ,z ! vision indicat$1 we _h no?+ to d b hold ! basket to him4 ,he accept$ x1 & ! fruit = himself & 8 relatives4 ,among/ o!r p & *>act]s ,i met ) at ?is "t 0 a good1 respectable man1 :o _h a rem>kable dream4 ,he came to me "o day1 aft] ,i _h be5 speak+ ab\t ,jacob's ladd]1 & said t my s]mon _h rem9d$ him ( 8 dream4 ,i begg$ him to sit d[n & tell x to me4 ,he said1 ,i dreamt t ,i & n9ete5 o!r "y m5 7 liv+ 9 a beautiful h\se & place1 :]e we _h ev]y?+ provid$ f] u1 & 7 free to enjoy ourselves z mu* z we pleas$4 ,we all und]/ood t ! premises belong$ to ,satan & t we 7 8 gue/s4 ,z su*1 we 7 p]mitt$ to take our pleasure ^u two conditions--"o 01 t we 7 n to pray2 & ! o!r t we 7 n to g away4 ,we smil$ at ?is1 & said x 0 n likely we %\ld d ! =m]1 = we 7 n ! pray+ k9d2 & less likely t we %\ld d ! latt]1 = :y %\ld we be su* fools z to =ego or give up our enjoym5ts8 ,i ?\ght to myself1 ,:at a wond]ful dream t is & h[ true to reality6 ,:at numb]s ( "y m5 !re are1 & "y wom5 too1 besides3 _m o!r p1 :o hold _! worldly happ9ess on ?is t5ure1 & ( c\rse f ! same ma/]4 ,well1 to cont9ue ! /ory ( ! dream1 he said1 ,9 ! c\rse ( "t we all became he>tily tir$ ( ! place & its pleasures1 & long$ to get away1 b we c\ld n4 ,"o ( u made an attempt to d s1 b he 0 captur$ & br\ght back1 & made m ( a slave ?an ev]4 ,at la/1 ,i & a few o!rs agre$ to pray at a /at$ "t 9 diff]5t places1 9 ! hope t if "o 0 caught1 yet ! re/ might escape4 ,^u a set day & "t we began pray+1 ea* 9 8 appo9t$ place4 ,i _h fix$ ^u a d>k corn] 9 a l>ge des]t$ room1 :]e we _h /[$ away bales & bales ( goods we did n c>e to op54 ,climb+ ov] ! top ( ^! /ores1 ,i l&$ on ! o!r side1 & w5t to ! spot ,i _h *os54 ,i _h n pray$ long be=e ,i he>d ma/] com+1 crack+ 8 :ip1 & say+1 ',i'll tea* y to pray4' ,?is made me tremble exce$+ly1 & pray all ! h>d]2 b he>+ t he 0 v ne> & com+ aft] me1 ,i op5$ my eyes1 & to my surprise !re 0 a beautiful silv] ladd] be=e me4 ,z quick z ?\ght1 ,i sprang ) h&s & feet ^u x1 & began to climb = de> life4 ',ha6' said ma/]1 ',i'll tea* y to climb4' ,!n ,i felt ! ladd] %ak+ "u me1 & knew t he 0 com+ up4 ,i expect$ e mom5t to be seiz$ & dragg$ back1 s ,i climb$ all ! fa/]1 & look$ up to see h[ mu* f>!r ,i _h to g4 ,oh1 x 0 su* a long way1 & !re 0 only a v small hole to get to at la/4 ,my he>t began to fail me1 s t ,i almo/ let g my hold1 till ,i felt ! ma/]'s sulphur\s brea? on ! back ( my neck1 :i* made me ru% =w>d m vehem5tly4 ,at la/ ,i rea*$ ! top1 & ?ru/ my arm ?r\gh ! hole1 !n my head1 & !n my o!r arm2 ?us ,i got ?r\gh altoge!r1 leav+ my old enemy blasphem+ & curs+ d[n bel[4 ,x 0 a mo/ beautiful place t ,i 0 n[ 91 & angels 7 fly+ ab\t1 j z ! birds d 9 ?is _w4 ,i saw ! ,"l ,himself1 & fell d[n be=e ,him to give ,him ?anks4 ,z ,i rema9$ a long "t pro/rate4 ,he said to me4 ',:at is ?y petition8' ,i answ]$1 ',"l1 grant t t hole may be made l>g]1 = ,i h n9ete5 fri5ds d[n !re 9 ! p[] ( ! cruel ma/]4' ,! ,"l smil$1 & said1 ',t hole is q l>ge en\gh4' ,s ,i awoke4 ,:]e !re is a w1 !re is always a way ( "s k9d2 & if worldl+s are really tir$ ( ,satan's s]vice1 !y c easily call ^u ,god to deliv] !m1 & ,he w mo/ surely d s :5 ,he sees !y are 9 e>ne/4 ,?is dream _h ! effect ( spiritually awak5+ ! man :o _h x1 & ( br++ him to ! foot ( ! cross = m]cy & salvation4 ,i notic$ t 9 dreams & visions 9 ,cornwall ! ,"l ,jesus v (t5 appe>s1 & ! devil also2 ^! are real p]sons to ! ,corni% m9d1 & _! p[] is respectively ackn[l$g$4 ,dur+ ! summ]1 a "y g5tleman1 :om we invit$ to our h\se 9 ! hope ( rea*+ 8 s\l1 came to /ay ) u2 & ?is 9 spite ( 8 av[$ prejudice aga9/ u & our proce$+s4 ,i took ?is z a tok5 ( enc\ragem5t1 = ,i 0 sure t ! devil w\ld h h9d]$ 8 com+1 unless ! "y man _h be5 con/ra9$ by a high] p[]4 ,he sp5t 8 "t 9 rid+ ab\t or smok+1 & made great fun ( our meet+s & s]vices1 ?\gh ,i obs]v$ t he 0 v att5tive to he> ! s]mon :5ev] he did come4 ,"o week-day ev5+1 :ile we 7 sitt+ 9 ! draw+ room1 & little expect+ x1 he bur/ into te>s & cri$ out1 ,i don't "k :at to d2 ,i %all be lo/ = ev]6 ,we imm$iately sprang up to 8 help1 always delight$ at su* opportunities ( work+ = ! ,"l4 ,we knelt d[n to pray1 & z we cont9u$ to d s1 he fell into great di/ress1 & ev5 agony ( s\l2 he lit]ally wri!d z if 9 excessive pa91 too great = utt]ance1 & look$ z if he 0 fa9t+ ) ! /ruggle4 ,we call$ all ! s]vants into ! room to help 9 pray]1 & :ile ,i 0 pray+ by ! side ( my "y fri5d1 & po9t+ him to ,*ri/1 "o ( ! s]vants rose up & walk$ /raight across ! room1 &1 ) a firm h& pu%+ me aside1 said1 ,! ,"l is "h ,himself4 ,i rose in/antly & mov$ out ( ! way1 :ile %e /ood ) h] h&s toge!r1 ador+4 ,%e aft]w>ds told u t %e saw ! ,"l /oop d[n to ! l[ *air :]e my "y fri5d 0 kneel+1 & putt+ ,8 h& on 8 head1 ,he said some?+1 & !n /ood up4 ,imm$iately ^u ?is %e saw ! v]&ah cr[d$ ) ugly-look+ devils1 all ) _! eyes fix$ on ! "y man z he knelt4 ,! ,"l !n wav$ ,8 h&1 & ! ugly company vani%$4 ,at t in/ant ! "y man lift$ up 8 head1 & turn+ t[>ds ! side on :i* %e _h disc]n$ ! ,"l z /&+1 said1 ,"l1 ,i ?ank ,!e1 & !n fa9t$ away4 ,:5 ! vision 0 ov]1 ! s]vant came1 ) te>s 9 h] eyes1 to ask p>don = s rudely pu%+ me aside1 b said t :ile ! ,"l 0 !re %e c\ld n help h]self3 ,oh1 ,he is s beautiful1 s gr&6 ,! "y man 0 soon re/or$ to animation1 & began to speak 9 a voice & tone v diff]5t to 8 =m] utt]ance4 ,he 0 altoge!r a rem>kable in/ance ( a *ange ( he>t & life4 ,a c>eless1 worldly man 9 my p>i% dreamt "o night t he 0 9 ! m>ket hall ( a c]ta9 t[n4 ,he 0 surpris$ to see1 9 a wall1 a doorway1 :i* he _h nev] notic$ be=e--s mu* s1 t he w5t =w>d to exam9e x1 & f\nd t x really 0 a door1 & t x op5$ to 8 t\*4 ,he w5t inside1 & !re he saw an impressive & /range sc5e4 ,!re 7 a numb] ( m5 & wom5 walk+ ab\t1 :o appe>$ to be v woeful1 end 9 great agony ( pa94 ,!y 7 too di/ress$ to speak1 b he recogniz$ mo/ ( !m z p]sons :o _h be5 dead "s "t4 ,!y look$ m\rnfully at him1 z if sorry t he _h come !re1 b did n speak4 ,he 0 mu* al>m$1 & made 8 way back to ! door to escape1 b 0 /opp$ by a /]n1 sull5-look+' port]1 :o said1 9 a sepul*ral voice1 ,y _c pass4 ,he said1 ,i came 9 ?is way1 & ,i want to g out4 ,y _c1 said ! solemn voice4 ,look1 ! door op5s only "o way2 y may come 9 by x1 b y _c g out4 ,x 0 s1 & 8 he>t sank )9 him z he look$ at t my/]i\s portal4 ,at la/ ! port] rel5t$1 & z a special fav\r let him g =? = eight days4 ,he 0 s glad at 8 release t he awoke4 ,:5 he told me ! dream ,i w>n$ him1 & begg$ him to give 8 he>t to ,god4 ,y may die1 ,i said1 be=e ! eigh? day4 ,he laugh$ at ! idea1 & said he 0 n go+ to be fright5$ by a dream4 ,:5 ,i am conv]t$1 he cont9u$1 ,i hope ,i %all be able to say t ,i 0 drawn by love & n driv5 by fe>4 ,b :at1 ,i said1 if y h be5 neglect+ & slight+ ,god's love = a long "t1 & ,he is n[ mov+ y ) fe> to return to ,him8 ,no?+ w\ld d2 he turn$ a deaf e> to e entreaty4 ,:5 ! eigh? day arriv$1 be+ m>ket day1 he w5t to ! hall z usual1 & look$ at ! wall ( :i* he _h dream$ ) p>ticul> int]e/1 b see+ no door !re1 he exclaim$1 ,x's all "r2 n[ ,i w g & h a good d9n] ov] x1 ) a bottle ( w9e6 ,:e!r he /opp$ at "o bottle or n1 ,i _c tell2 b late on ,saturday night1 z he 0 go+ home1 he 0 ?r[n f 8 horse & kill$4 ,t 0 at ! end ( ! eigh? day4 ,:e!r ^! dreams & visions 7 ! cause or effect ( ! p's s5sitive /ate1 ,i d n "k2 b c]ta9ly !y 7 v impressible1 & ev5 ! cold & h>d5$ among/ !m 7 ready to he> ab\t ! my/]ies ( ! unse5 _w4 ,i attribut$ ?is to ! spiritual atmosph]e 9 :i* !y 7 !n liv+4 ,,*apt] #ab ,billy ,bray1 #aheb4 ,aft] ! ev5ts n>rat$ 9 ,*apt] #aj1 & :5 all ! p :o dwelt on ! hill on :i* ! *ur* 0 built 7 conv]t$1 !re came ^u ! sc5e a v rem>kable p]son1 :o _h evid5tly be5 kept back = a purpose4 ,?is 0 none o!r ?an ! v]itable & well kn[n ,billy ,bray499 ,"o morn+1 :ile we 7 sitt+ at breakfa/1 ,i he>d "s "o walk+ ab\t 9 ! hall ) a heavy /ep1 say+1 ,praise ! ,"l6 ,praise ! ,"l6 ,on op5+ ! door1 ,i beheld a happy-look+ little man1 9 a black ,quak]-cut coat1 :i* x 0 v evid5t _h n be5 made = him1 b = "s mu* l>g] body4 ,well1 my fri5d1 ,i said1 :o are y8 99 ,see ,! ,k+'s ,son2 or1 ,life ( ,billy ,bray1 by ,f4 ,w4 ,b\rne4 ,i am ,billy ,bray1 he repli$1 look+ /eadily at me ) 8 tw9kl+ eyes2 & be y ! p>son8 ,yes1 ,i am4 ,?ank ! ,"l6 ,conv]t$1 are ye8 ,yes1 ?ank ,god4 ,& ! missus inside 7po9t+ to ! d9+-room71 be %e conv]t$8 ,yes1 %e is4 ,?ank ! de> ,"l6 he said1 mov+ =w>d4 ,i made way = him1 & he came /epp+ into ! room2 !n mak+ a pr(\nd b[ to ! said missus1 he ask$1 ,be !re any maid5s 7s]vants78 ,yes1 !re are ?ree 9 ! kit*54 ,be !y conv]t$ too8 ,i 0 able to answ] 9 ! affirmative2 & z ,i po9t$ t[>ds ! kit*5 door :5 ,i m5tion$ x1 he made (f 9 t direction1 & soon we he>d !m all %\t+ & prais+ ,god toge!r4 ,:5 we w5t 91 !re 0 ,billy ,bray1 v joyful1 s++1 ,canaan is a happy place2 ,i am b\nd = ! l& ( ,canaan4 ,we !n return$ to ! d9+-room ) our /range gue/1 :5 he sudd5ly caught me up 9 8 arms & c>ri$ me ar\nd ! room4 ,i 0 s tak5 by surprise1 t x 0 z mu* z ,i c\ld d to keep myself 9 an upright position1 till he _h accompli%$ ! circuit4 ,!n he set me 9 my *air & roll+ on ! gr\nd = joy1 said t he 0 z happy z he c\ld live4 ,:5 ?is p]=mance 0 at an end1 he rose up ) a face t d5ot$ ! fact1 = x 0 beam+ all ov]4 ,i invit$ him to take "s breakfa/ ) u1 to :i* he ass5t$ ) ?anks4 ,he *ose bread & milk1 = he said1 ,i am only a *ild4 ,i ask$ him to be seat$1 & gave him a *air2 b he pref]r$ walk+ ab\t1 & w5t on talk+ all ! "t4 ,he told u t tw5ty ye>s ago1 z he 0 walk+ ov] ?is v hill on :i* my *ur* & h\se 7 built 7x 0 a b>r5 old place !n71 ! ,"l said to him1 ,i w give !e all t dwell 9 ?is m\nta94 ,imm$iately he fell d[n on 8 knees & ?ank$ ! ,"l1 & !n ran to ! ne>e/ cottage4 ,!re he talk$ & pray$ ) ! p1 & 0 enabl$ to br+ !m to ,*ri/2 !n he w5t to ! next cottage1 & got ! same bless+2 & !n to a ?ird1 :]e he 0 equally successful4 ,!n he told ,fa!r t !re 7 only ?ree h\s5 9 ?is m\nta91 & pray$ t m might be built4 ,t pray] rema9$ ) him1 & he nev] ceas$ to make x = ye>s4 ,! neighb\rs1 :o he>d 8 pray] f "t to "t1 wond]$ :y he %\ld ask = h\s5 to be built 9 su* an unga9 place4 ,at la/1 aft] sixte5 ye>s1 he receiv$ a lett] f 8 bro!r ,james1 to say t !y 7 hack+ up ! cr(t to plant trees1 & t !y 7 go+ to build a *ur* on ! hill4 ,he 0 f9e & glad1 & prais$ ! ,"l4 ,aga9 he did s1 :5 8 bro!r wrote to say !re 0 a vic>age to be built on ! same hill1 & a s*oolroom also4 ,he 0 almo/ beside himself ) joy & ?ankfulness = all ?is4 ,9 ! ye> #ahdh1 :5 ! *ur* 0 complet$ & op5$1 he came on a visit to ,baldhu1 & 0 greatly surpris$ to see :at a *ange _h tak5 place4 ,!re 0 a beautiful *ur*1 a p>sonage1 ) a fl\ri%+ g>d51 & also a s*oolroom1 ) a l>ge plantation & fields r\nd !m4 ,he 0 q 'maz$1 = he nev] ?\ght t ! old hill c\ld be made s gr& z t6 ,h[ev]1 :5 he w5t to ! s]vice 9 ! *ur*1 8 joy 0 ov]2 he came out *eckfall51 & q disappo9t$4 ,he told ,fa!r t t 0 no?+ b an old ,pusey ,he _h got !re1 & t he 0 no good4 ,:ile he 0 pray+ t aft]noon1 ,fa!r gave him to und]/& t he _h no bus9ess !re yet1 & t he _h come too soon1 & )\t p]mission4 ,s he w5t back to 8 place at once1 ne> ,bodm91 & cont9u$ to pray = ! hill4 ,aft] ?ree ye>s 8 bro!r ,james wrote aga92 '& ?is "t x 0 to tell him t ! p>son & all 8 family 7 conv]t$1 & t !re 0 a great revival at ! *ur*4 ,n[ poor ,billy 0 mo/ eag] to come & see ?is = himself1 b he obta9$ no p]mission1 ?\gh he ask$ & look$ = x e day = m ?an ?ree mon?s4 ,at la/1 "o w9try & fro/y night 9 ,janu>y1 ab\t half-pa/ elev5 o'clock1 j z he 0 gett+ into b$1 ,fa!r told him t he might g to ,baldhu4 ,he 0 s ov]joy$1 t he did n wait till ! morn+1 b imm$iately put up 8 clo!s aga91 hit*$ 9 ! donkey1 & set out 9 8 sl[-go+ little c>t4 ,he came along s++ all ! way1 ne>ly ?irty miles & arriv$ e>ly 9 ! morn+4 ,hav+ put up 8 donkey 9 my /able1 he came into ! h\se1 & pres5t$ himself1 z ,i h already /at$1 9 ! hall1 prais+ ,god4 ,we 7 a long "t ov] breakfa/ t morn+1 = ! happy man w5t on f "o ?+ to ano!r1 tell+ ( ! ,"l1 z he call$ x1 assur+ u aga9 & aga9 t he 0 f9e & glad1 & v happy--inde$1 he look$ s4 ,he said !re 0 "o ?+ m he mu/ tell u2 x 0 ?is--t he _h a prea*+-h\se 7:at we %\ld n[ call a mission-room71 :i* he _h built ye>s ago4 ,he _h (t5 pray$ !re = ?is old m\nta91 & n[ he %\ld de>ly love to see me 9 ! pulpit ( t place1 & said t he w\ld let me h x = my "w4 ,he w5t on to say t he _h built x by pray] & fai?1 z ,fa!r s5t him help1 & t he & ano!r man _h built x ) _! own h&s4 ,"o day he 0 %ort ( money to buy timb] to f9i% ! ro(2 8 mate said x w\ld take two p\nds' wor?2 s he ask$ ! ,"l = ?is sum1 & wond]$ :y ! money did n come1 = he felt sure t he 0 to h x4 ,a f>m] happ5$ to look 9 ! next morn+1 & ,billy ?\ght he _h come ) ! money1 b he m]ely ask$ !m :at !y 7 do+1 & !n took 8 dep>ture1 )\t giv+ !m help4 ,all t day !y wait$ 9 expectation1 & w5t home 9 ! ev5+ )\t hav+ done any "w4 ,! next morn+ ! same f>m] appe>$ aga91 & said1 ,:at d y want two p\nds =8 ,oh1 said ,billy1 y are come1 are y8 ,we want t money = ! ro( yond]4 ,! f>m] !n w5t on to say1 ,two days ago x came to my m9d to give two p\nds = ! prea*+ h\se1 b z ,i 0 com+ d[n ! hill on ye/]day morn+1 some?+ said to me1 'if y give "o p\nd x w be h&some2 !n ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld give only half-a-sov]eign2 & !n t ,i w\ld give no?+4 ,:y %\ld ,i8 ,b ! ,"l laid x on my m9d la/ night t ,i mu/ give y two p\nds4 ,!re x is6 ,?ank ! ,"l6 said ,billy1 & proce$$ imm$iately to get ! requir$ timb]4 ,9 answ] to pray] he also obta9$ re$ = ?at*+ ! ro(1 & by ! same means timb] = ! =ms & seats4 ,x 0 all done 9 a humble mann]1 s t he did n dream ( buy+ any pulpit2 b "o day1 z he 0 pass+ along ! road1 he saw t !y 7 go+ to h a sale at ! c\nt-h\se ( an old m9e4 ,he w5t 91 & ! fir/ ?+ :i* met 8 eye 0 a /rong oak cupbo>d1 ) a cornice ar\nd ! top4 ,x /ruck him t x w\ld make a gr& pulpit1 if only x 0-/rong en\gh3 on exam9ation1 he f\nd x all he c\ld desire 9 ?is respect4 ,he ?\ght if he c\ld take (f ! top & make a plat to /& ^u1 x w\ld d fir/-rate4 ,he told ,fa!r s1 & wond]$ h[ he c\ld get x4 ,he ask$ a /rang] :o 0 !re1 walk+ ab\t1 :at he ?\ght t old cupbo>d w\ld g =8 ,oh1 = ab\t five or six %ill+s1 0 ! reply4 ,& :ile ,billy 0 pond]+ h[ to rise six %ill+s1 ! same man came up & said1 ,:at d y want t cupbo>d =1 ,billy8 ,he did n c>e to tell him1 = he 0 ?9k+ & pray+ ab\t x4 ,! man said1 ,!re are six %ill+s = y2 buy x if y w4 ,billy took ! money1 ?ank+ ! ,"l4 & impati5tly wait$ = ! sale4 ,no soon] 0 ! cupbo>d put up1 ?an he call$ out1 ,"h1 mai/]1 "h's six %ill9's = un1 & he put ! money d[n on ! table4 ,six %ill+s bid1 said ! auctione]--six %ill+s--?ank y2 sev5 %ill+s2 any m = t good old cupbo>d8 ,sev5 %ill+s4 ,go+--go+--gone6 ,& x 0 knock$ d[n to ano!r man4 ,poor ,billy 0 mu* disappo9t$ & p]plex$ at ?is1 & c\ld n und]/& x at all4 ,he look$ ab\t = ! man :o _h giv5 him ! six %ill+s1 b 9 va9--he 0 n !re4 ,! auctione] told him to take up 8 money out ( ! way4 ,he compli$1 b did n "k :at to d ) x4 ,he w5t ov] a h$ge into a field by himself1 & told ,fa!r ab\t x2 b x 0 all cle>--,fa!r 0 n angry ab\t any?+4 ,he rema9$ !re an h\r1 & !n w5t homew>ds4 ,z he 0 go+ along1 mu* tr\bl$ 9 8 m9d z to ?is exp]i5ce 7= he /ill felt s sure he 0 to h t cupbo>d = a pulpit71 he came ^u a c>t /&+ outside a public-h\se ) ! v cupbo>d ^u x1 & "s m5 7 measur+ x ) a foot rule4 ,z he came up1 he he>d !m say1 ,x is too l>ge to g 9 at ! door1 or ! w9d[ ei!r4 ,! publican :o _h b\ght x said1 ,i wi% ,i _h n bid = ! old ?+ at all2 x is too good to 'scat' up = firewood4 ,at t in/ant x came to ,billy's m9d to say1 ,"h1 ,i'll give y six %ill+s = un4 ,v well1 said ! man1 tak+ ! money2 y c h him4 ,!n ,billy began to praise ! ,"l1 & w5t on to say1 ',fa!r' z good z told me t ,i 0 to h t cupbo>d1 & ,he knew ,i c\ld n c>ry him home on my back1 s ,he f\nd a horse & c>t = me4 ,bless ! ,"l6 ,promis+ to br+ x back v soon1 he l$ ! horse d[n ! hill1 & put ! old cupbo>d into ! prea*+-h\se4 ,!re x is6 he exclaim$1 & a f9e pulpit he does make1 sure en\gh6 ,n[1 said ,billy1 ,i want to see !e 9 x4 ,:5 w y come8 ,i c\ld n fix = t day1 or ! next1 trot made arrangem5ts to conduct a s]ies ( s]vices ! next week1 & promis$ to h !m 9 t place4 ,be=e he left u1 he made a p>ticul> inquiry ab\t ! two o!r h\ses :i* _h be5 built1 :o liv$ 9 !m1 & especially if all ! dwell]s 7 conv]t$4 ,!n he decl>$ 8 int5tion to g & see ! p>ties1 & rejoice ) !m1 & te/ify h[ fully ! ,"l _h accompli%$ ! promise ,he gave him ^u t v hill1 tw5ty ye>s be=e4 ,accord+ to promise1 ,i w5t to ,billy ,bray's prea*+-h\se1 or mission-hall4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t t ,i _h prea*$ any:]e outside my *ur* & s*oolroom s9ce my conv]sion4 ,!re x pleas$ ! ,"l to give me mu* help1 & a great "w foll[$1 su* z ,billy _h nev] se5 9 t place be=e4 ,sev]al times we 7 deta9$ !re all night ?r\gh1 ) p5it5ts cry+ al\d = m]cy1 & believ]s rejoic+4 ,z a rule1 ! ,corni% man w\ld rema9 at a meet+ = h\rs1 & come aga9 ! next day1 & ! day aft]1 if ne$ful1 till he felt t he c\ld cry = m]cy1 & !n he w\ld beg9 & cont9ue cry+ until he felt he c\ld believe4 ,at ! conclusion ( ^! s]vices we return$ to ! s*oolroom1 :]e our meet+s 7 cont9u$4 ,our fri5d ,billy rema9$ ) u at ,baldhu1 & 0 v useful4 ,he spoke 9 ! s*oolroom ) mu* acceptance & p[] 9 ! simplicity ( 8 fai?1 & s\ls 7 add$ to ! ,"l cont9ually4 ,at ?is "t he 0 v anxi\s = a c\s9 ( 81 a man some:at old] ?an himself1 ( ! same "n4 ,?is ,billy 0 z fam\s = 8 drunk5ness & dissolute habits1 z ! o!r ,billy 0 = 8 fai? & joy4 ,! =m] us$ to g by ! "n ( ! lo/ s\l4 ,! v *ildr5 9 ! lanes call$ aft] him1 ,ah1 ,billy1 y are a lo/ s\l1 & laugh$ at him4 ,i 0 !n 9 ! fre%ness & p[] ( my fir/ love1 & c\ld n help reg>d+ ?is pitiable object1 & consid]+ 8 case2 = ,i c\ld n imag9e :y any man %\ld rema9 unsav$ & )\t ,*ri/4 ,accord+ly1 "o wet morn+1 :5 ,i felt pretty sure t old ,billy w\ld n be out work+ 9 ! field1 ,i made my way d[n to 8 h\se4 ,z ,i expect$1 he 0 at home 9 8 *imney com]2 s sett+ d[n my dripp+ umbrella1 ,i told him h[ glad ,i 0 to f9d him !re1 = ,i want$ to h a talk ) him4 ,ah1 x's all v well = y g5tlem51 :o h none else to d b to g ab\t & talk2 b we poor m5 mu/ "w4 ,s say+1 he rose up f 8 settle & w5t to ! door4 ,b1 ,billy1 x is ra9+ q h>d2 y _c "w 9 ra9 l t4 ,c't help x2 we mu/ d our "w1 & s he slamm$ ! door aft] him & dep>t$4 ,8 wife made all k9ds ( apologies = him1 because he 0 a v s+ul> k9d ( man2 he did n mean bad--he 0 't curi\s1' t he said & did curi\s ?+s1 & t ,i mu/ n m9d him4 ,i confess ,i 0 mu* disappo9t$ at 8 abrupt dep>ture f ! h\se1 b ,i rema9$ a little long]1 till ! wor/ ( ! /orm 0 ov]4 ,aft] ! lapse ( ne>ly a qu>t] ( an h\r1 ,billy crept back to ! door1 & lift+ ! lat* quietly1 :isp]$ to 8 wife1 ,is ! passon gone8 ,no1 ,billy1 ,i said1 "h ,i am4 ,come 9 out ( ! wet4 ,i am s glad y h come back4 ,:at d'y] want ) me8 he inquir$4 ,i want to talk to y ab\t y\r s\l4 ,i h be5 ?9k+ mu* ab\t y lately1 ,billy4 ,!y call y a 'lo/ s\l4' ,:at's t to y8 ,ah1 a great deal1 ,i said1 because ,i h a message = lo/ p4 ,i am n a doctor = ! body2 my bus9ess is ab\t ! s\l4 ,i a9't s bad z all t yet1 he repli$4 ,b y are bad en\gh1 ,billy--bad en\gh4 ,yes1 inde$1 int]pos$ 8 wife4 ,y hold y] tongue2 y're no bett]4 ,i beckon$ to h] to be /ill1 & w5t on to say1 ,y are bad en\gh1 ,billy1 = an old man4 ,h[ old are y8 ,up sev5ty ye>s4 ,sev5ty ye>s6 ,i repeat$4 ,well1 n[1 t's a great age--t's ! age ( man4 ,?reescore ye>s & t56 ,x is l giv+ y notice to give up ! keys ( ! old tab]nacle4 ,i wond] :y ,god sp>es y\r life8 ,i am afraid y h be5 a cumb]] ( ! gr\nd all ?is "t1 ,billy4 ,d y "k :y ! good ,"l has sp>$ y = s long8 ,i c't tell1 he said1 gett+ m & m impati5t4 ,well1 d y "k1 ,i ?9k ,i c tell y4 ,he is su* a lov+ & m]ciful ,god1 ,he wants to h m]cy on y4 ,y c\ld n h great] pro( ( x1 c\ld y8 ,y set a horribly bad example2 y d no?+ b dr9k1 & smoke1 & swe>4 ,y h ask$ ,god to damn y\r s\l ov] & ov] aga91 & yet "h y are /ill4 ,:y is ?is8 ,he did n answ]1 b seem$ int]e/$2 s ,i w5t on to speak ( ! =be>ance ( ,god t[>ds him4 ,i said1 ,billy1 d y "k t ,i ?9k ! ,"l wants to h m]cy on y8 ,he wants to save y6 ,z he li/5$1 ,i w5t on to tell him t ,god lov$ him1 & gave ,8 ,son to die = him4 ,!n ,i proce$$ to speak ( ! wond]ful pati5ce & long-suff]+ ( ,god--a k9d ( cr[n ^u ,8 love2 & :at a %ame x 0 to s9 aga9/ su* love z ?is4 ,poor ,billy look$ at me ) te>s 9 8 eyes1 & said1 ,y are a de> man6 ,de> man6 ,i answ]$4 ,:at1 !n1 is ,god1 if ,i am 'de>' only = tell+ y ( ,8 love8 ,ah1 ,billy1 take & give y\r he>t to ,god at once4 ,he is wait+ = y4 ,x is a %ame to refuse su* a ,god4 ,i knelt d[n & began to pray = him4 ,he soon fell on 8 knees too1 & sobb$ al\d2 !n he comm5c$ to pray 9 8 own way4 ,he ne$$ mu* tea*+1 s :5 he rose f 8 knees ,i said to him1 ,n[1 ,billy1 ,i h be5 to see y2 x is y\r turn to "s & see me next4 ,:5 w y come8 ,?is aft]noon1 he said4 ,v good2 come ?is aft]noon4 ,& he did4 ,m ?an t1 ?is poor lo/ s\l f\nd peace 9 my /udy1 to 8 great joy2 & he 0 n a%am$ to ackn[l$ge x op5ly1 nor afraid to praise ,god = ,8 great goodness4 ,! same ev5+ he /ood up 9 ! s*oolroom meet+1 & told ! p :at ! ,"l _h done = 8 s\l4 ,!re 0 great excitem5t t night1 & well !re might be1 = e "o knew :at a d>+ & wick$ man he _h be54 ,"o man said t if a corpse _h come out ( ! *ur*y>d & spok51 he c\ld n h be5 m fright5$ 7m surpris$1 he meant74 ,old ,billy's conv]sion gave a new & fre% impetus to ! "w1 & _m m s\ls 7 add$ to ! ,"l4 ,?is de> man liv$ = ?ree mon?s aft] ?is1 v]ify+ ! words ,i 0 l$ to say to him at ! beg9n+ ( our int]c\rse--t ! ,"l 0 keep+ him alive 9 ord] to h m]cy ^u him4 ,at ! end ( ?is "t1 8 daught] came to me "o morn+ 9 great ha/e1 & said1 ,fa!r is dy+1 & does s want to see y4 ,w y come8 ,i w5t imm$iately4 ,on rea*+ 8 h\se & ent]+3 8 b$room1 8 wife said1 ,y are too late2 he is dead6 ,s(tly ,i mov$ =w>d to ! b$1 & look+ on t face once m1 ,i ?\ght t ,i c\ld /ill see signs ( life4 ,press+ 8 cold h&1 ,i spoke a few words ab\t ! lov+ k9dness ( ! ,"l4 ,he knew me1 & a smile bright5$ 8 face at ! preci\s "n ( ,jesus4 ,:ile we /ood sil5tly r\nd 8 dy+ b$1 he said 7evid5tly 9 ref]5ce to :at he _h he>d71 n dead2 j beg9n+ to live4 ,?us1 ) a sweet1 triumphant smile1 he dep>t$4 ,,*apt] #ac ,cottage ,meet+s1 #aheb4 ,our /eps 7 n[ direct$ to ano!r "p ( ! p>i%1 :]e we comm5c$ a s]ies ( cottage meet+s 9 alt]nation ) s]vices 9 ! *ur*4 ,^! meet+s 7 inaugurat$ 9 a v rem>kable mann]1 9 ! h\se ( a man nam$ ,frank1 :o 0 well kn[n z an exce$+ly wick$ & c>eless fell[4 ,8 wife 0 among ! fruits ( ! revival1 & pray$ mu* = him2 b ! m %e did s1 ! worse he became4 ,i us$ to try & com=t h] ) ! ?\ght t if he did n give himself to ,god to be made bett]1 x 0 well t he got worse1 = x 0 a pro( t h] pray]s 7 tell+2 total indiff]5ce w\ld h be5 a f> m disc\rag+ sign4 ,?is 0 poor com=t to h]1 h[ev]1 = he came home night aft] night drunk2 or if n s1 swe>+ ab\t ! revival 9 ! *ur*1 & h] pray+4 ,he (t5 decl>$ t if he ev] caught me 9 8 h\se1 he w\ld give me some?+ = myself4 ,he 0 at all times a v irascible man1 & be+ tr\bl$ ) a wood5 leg1 x made him worse4 ,z he 0 unable to "w 9 ! m9e1 he 0 dep5d5t = 8 support on ! p>i% au?orities1 :o employ$ him to break /ones on ! road4 ,not)/&+ 8 bad temp] & ill-feel+ t[>ds me1 ,i always /opp$ at 8 heap ( /ones :5 pass+1 & talk$ to him ei!r ab\t ! wea!r or "s o!r trivial subject1 be+ q satisfi$ t he knew ! plan ( salvation1 z ,i _h spok5 to him ab\t 8 s\l at ! "t ( 8 wife's conv]sion4 ,"o day1 :5 com+ along1 ,i obs]v$ ,frank be=e me 9 ! road1 busy1 z usual1 break+ /ones1 & began to ?9k :at ,i w\ld speak to him ab\t1 hav+ no p>ticul> news to communicate4 ,:ile ,i 0 ?us pond]+1 ,i came to 8 place1 :51 to my great a/oni%m5t1 he 0 n !re4 ,i look$ ar\nd on all sides1 & call$1 ,frank--,frank6 b 9 va9--no "o answ]$4 ,!re 0 no h$ge or tree )9 sight = him to hide beh9d2 :]e c\ld he be8 ,all at once1 ,i rememb]$ t !re 0 a small gravel-pit ab\t tw5ty-five or ?irty y>ds f ! spot1 b sc>cely ?\ght x possible he c\ld be !re4 ,i w5t t[>ds x1 h[ev]1 /ill call+1 ,frank--,frank6 & yet receiv$ no answ]4 ,on look+ 91 sure en\gh1 !re 0 my man1 ly+ d[n 9 ! pit1 close up to ! side1 ) 8 face to ! gr\nd4 ,i said1 ,frank1 is t y8 ,:at are y do+ !re8 ,are y ill8 ,no1 he repli$1 ,i'm n4 ,:at d'y] want ) me8 ,no?+ 9 p>ticul>1 ,i said2 b to tell ! tru?1 ,i 0 s surpris$ at y\r disappe>ance1 t ,i c\ld n pass on )\t look+ = y4 ,i 0 s sure t ,i saw y 9 ! di/ance1 sitt+ 9 y\r place2 & !n1 :5 ,i came up1 y 7 n !re4 ,i wond]$ :e!r ,i _h se5 y\r gho/ in/ead ( y1 & :e!r y 7 dead or :at4 ,are y hid+ away f me8 ,ris+ up1 he said1 ,i _h a t]rible dream la/ night :i* fright5$ me v mu*4 ,a voice said1 ',g & see ,mr4 ,haslam ab\t y\r s\l4' ,i said1 ',i w1 ,i w1 ! fir/ ?+ 9 ! morn+4' ,:5 ! morn+ came1 ,i ?\ght ! ev5+ w\ld d2 & :5 ,i saw y com+1 x made me tremble s1 t ,i got up & hid myself "h4 ,i said1 ,frank1 x is no use = y to fight aga9/ ,god1 or to /& out aga9/ y\r wife's pray]s4 ,y _h f> bett] give 94 ,he !n told me t 8 dream ref]r$ to some?+ 9 8 pa/ life1 & sitt+ d[n on ! bank or side ( ! gravel pit1 he said1 ',:5 ,i 0 ill ) my leg 7:i* 0 tak5 (f71 ! doctor told me :at ,i %\ld die4 ,i !n cri$ to ! ,"l to h m]cy on me1 & said t if ,he w\ld raise me up1 ,i w\ld give my he>t to ,him4 ,i began to recov] f t day1 & kept on int5d+ & int5d+ to give my he>t to ,god2 b ,i nev] did x4 ,i got q well 9 heal?1 b ev] s9ce t "t ,i h be5 gett+ worse & worse 9 m9d4 ,:5 my wife 0 conv]t$1 x seem$ z if ! devil took possession ( me altoge!r1 & ! ,"l w>n$ me aga9 la/ night4 ,come n[1 ,i said1 y _h bett] kneel d[n "h & give up4 ,x 0 a lonely road on a b>e common4 ,kneel d[n1 ,i repeat$1 & let u pray4 ,he did s1 & aft] pray] he said1 ,by ,god's help4 ,i w give up4 ,no1 ,i repli$1 t w n d4 ,say1 ',"l1 take my he>t4 ,i d'--n ',i w'--give up4' ,aft] a %ort pause1 he solemnly said1 ,i d2 ,"l1 take my he>t6 & !n began to cry4 ,i gave him ! text1 ,god s lov$ ! _w1 t ,he gave ,8 only-begott5 ,son1 t :osoev] believe? 9 ,him %\ld n p]i%1 b h ev]la/+ life 7,john #c3af74 ,?9k ov] t1 ,i said1 & come to ! s*oolroom to-night4 ,he did s1 & 0 sav$1 to ! great joy ( 8 s\l4 ,aft] ! meet+ 0 ov]1 he rema9$ beh9d a long "t1 & gave v5t to 8 feel+s ) te>s1 :5 he rememb]$ ! goodness ( ,god to him4 ,?is wood5 leg ( m9e1 he said1 is a monum5t ( ,god's m]cy6 ,h[ is t8 ,i inquir$4 ,sev]al ye>s ago1 he said1 ,i 0 play+ c>ds = money 9 a public-h\se1 & 0 *eat+ 9 ord] to w91 :5 ! man ,i 0 play+ ) said1 ',y w\ld n h won t money if y _h n *eat$4' ,i swore at him1 & said1 ',god /rike my limbs if ,i did s6' ,i knew ,i _h2 & ! man w\ld n believe t ,i _h n4 ,s we p>t$4 ,! next morn+1 ,i 0 work+ 9 ! m9e1 close to a v l>ge piece ( rock1 :i* _h be5 loos5$ ) ! bla/+1 :5 x slipp$ f its place1 & c>ri$ me along ) x into ! %aft4 ,z ! heavy end 0 upp]mo/1 x turn$ ) its own weight1 & fell across ! %aft1 p9n+ me aga9/ ! side4 ,?is rock 0 n less ?an two or ?ree tons weight4 ,not)/&+ ! fe>ful %ock1 ,i reta9$ my s5ses2 b "o leg 0 sma%$1 & ! o!r sev]ely w\nd$4 ',god /ruck my limbs6' ,i cri$ = help2 & :5 ! m5 :o 7 attract$ by my screams f\nd me1 !y saw at once t x 0 impossible to extricate me )\t mov+ ! rock4 ,!re ,i rema9$ = m ?an two h\rs1 till !y _h put a sl+ ar\nd my body4 ,hav+ done t1 !y adju/$ a /rong *a9 to ! rock & lift$ ! end4 ,z soon z !y succe$$ 9 rais+ x1 d[n x w5t1 c>ry+ plate1 ladd]s1 & all be=e x1 to ! bottom ( ! %aft1 :i* 0 _m fa?oms deep1 :il/ ,i 0 left hang+ 9 ! sl+4 ,!y !n drew me up1 & took me to ! hospital1 :]e "o leg 0 tak5 (f & ! o!r set2 b ,i 0 v ill = a long "t4 ,oh1 j ?9k1 if t rock _h n p9n$ my legs to ! wall ( ! %aft1 ,i %\ld h be5 9 hell n[6 ,! ,"l sav$ my life !n--& has sav$ my s\l n[6 ,de> ,frank became a v zeal\s ,*ri/ian1 & = _m ye>s prea*$ ! ,gospel ) mu* p[] & acceptance4 ,aft] 8 conv]sion1 he came "o morn+ to beg my p>don = hav+ =bidd5 me 8 h\se1 & to ask if ,i w\ld come & hold a meet+ !re = 8 neighb\rs4 ,i did2 & !re 0 su* a cr[d inside1 & also outside ! h\se1 & s mu* bless+1 t ,i 0 n satisfi$ ) "o visit1 b w5t aga9 & aga94 ,! place 0 mo/ inconv5i5tly full2 !y turn$ out ! *airs & tables to make /&+-room inside1 & op5$ ! w9d[s & doors = ! p to he> outside2 & sometimes1 be=e ! address 0 ov]1 m5 & wom5 cri$ al\d = m]cy4 ,we c\ld n kneel d[n to pray--pray+1 s++1 & he>+ 0 done /&+1 &1 t v close toge!r4 ,! h\se 0 s uncom=tably ?rong$1 t a mill] 9 ! neighb\rhood1 :o _h a l>ge room 9 ! mill1 begg$ me to come & prea* !re in/ead4 ,i accept$ 8 invitation1 & we w5t2 b1 alas6 !re 0 no p[] !re2 x 0 h>d to pray or prea*2 & ! p 7 n ev5 att5tive4 ,?us x 0 cle>ly se5 t x is n by might or by p[] ( m51 b by ! ,_s ( ! ,"l2 & t if ! ,"l 0 n pres5t to "w1 no "w 0 done4 ,we w5t back to ,frank's cottage1 & !re aga9 ! manife/ pres5ce ( ,god 0 disc]nible2 & e "t we did s s\ls 7 sav$4 ,next door to ,frank liv$ a tall1 gaunt1 gipsy k9d ( woman1 :om !y call$ ! wise woman4 ,%e _h a m>vell\s gift ( heal+1 & o!r k1 :i* made p q afraid ( h]4 ,?is woman took a great int]e/ 9 me & my "w1 & (t5 came to *ur*1 besides att5d+ ! meet+s at ,frank's h\se4 ,"o day1 dur+ ^! s]vices1 %e paid a visit to ! ,p>sonage1 & said1 ,my de>1 h y a lemon 9 ! h\se8 ,i w5t to inquire & f\nd t we _h n4 ,well1 !n1 %e said1 get "o1 & "s honey & v9eg>1 & mix !m all toge!r4 ,y w want x4 ,m9d y d1 n[1 %e said1 draw+ h]self up to h] full height2 m9d y d1 y w want x6 ,!n %e put ! b[l ( h] pipe into ! kit*5 fire1 & hav+ ignit$ ! tobacco1 w5t away smok+4 ,! s]vants 7 v mu* fright5$ by h] mann] & h] w>n+1 & begg$ ( me to get ! lemon1 say+1 ,x 0 ab\t y1 ma/]2 x 0 ab\t y t %e came4 ,i did n "k :]e to get a lemon )9 ?ree miles1 b x s happ5$ t a man came to ! door ) a net full1 = sale1 t same aft]noon4 ,we b\ght two1 j to pacify ! s]vants1 & let !m make ! mixture1 ?9k+ no?+ m ab\t x4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! aft]noon a v heavy ?und]-/orm fell ^u u1 delug+ ! roads & lanes2 & be=e x ceas$ ,i _h to g to ! meet+4 ,i took ! precaution to put on ?ick %oes1 & !n set (f & walk$ ?r\gh ! ra94 ,:5 ,i arriv$ at ! cottage1 ,i ?\ght my feet felt wet2 b !y 7 n cold1 s t ,i soon =got all ab\t !m1 & w5t on ) ! meet+1 :i* la/$ till t5 o'clock2 !n ,i return$ home4 ,on tak+ (f my %oes1 ,i 0 surpris$ to see h[ wet & muddy my socks 74 ,i _h be5 /&+ ) wet feet all ! ev5+4 ,to gu>d aga9/ any ill effects1 ,i put my feet 9 hot wat] be=e go+ to b$4 ,h[ev]1 at ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ ,i awoke1 ne>ly *ok$ ) a sev]e fit ( bron*itis2 ! ?ick1 h>d phlegm 9 my ?roat almo/ suffocat$ me2 ,i _h to /ruggle = brea? & life4 ,aft] an h\r or m ( ! mo/ acute suff]+1 my de> wife rememb]$ ! lemon mixture1 & call$ ! s]vant to get up & br+ x4 ,x 0 j 9 "t4 ,i 0 black 9 ! face ) suffocation2 b ?is comp\nd reliev$1 &1 9 fact1 re/or$ me4 ,i 0 greatly exhau/$ ) ! ef=t & /ruggle = life1 & aft] two h\rs ,i fell asleep4 ,i 0 able to rise 9 ! morn+ & brea! freely1 ?\gh my *e/ 0 v sore4 ,aft] breakfa/1 ! wise woman appe>$1 /&+ outside ! w9d[ ( ! draw+-room1 :]e ,i 0 ly+ on ! s(a4 ,ah1 my de>1 %e said1 y 7 ne>ly gone at ?ree o'clock ?is morn+4 ,i _h a h>d wre/le = y1 sure en\gh4 ,if y _h n _h t lemon1 y "k1 y w\ld h be5 a dead man by ?is "t6 ,t my/]i\s creature1 :at ) h] heal+ art1 toge!r ) ! pray] ( fai? & ! m>vell\s =esight %e _h1 0 q a t]ror to ! p4 ,"o day %e came1 & bade me g to a man :o 0 v worldly & c>eless1 & tell him t he w\ld die be=e ,sunday4 ,i said1 ,y g1 if y h receiv$ ! message4 ,%e look$ /]nly at me1 & said1 ,y g6 t's ! message--y g6 ,i w5t4 ,! man laugh$ at me1 & said1 ,t old hag ought to be hang$4 ,i urg$ him to give 8 he>t to ,god1 & pray$ ) him1 b to no effect4 ,he 0 ?r[n f 8 c>t1 & kill$ ! foll[+ ,saturday1 com+ home f m>ket4 ,h] say+s & do+s w\ld fill a book2 b :o w\ld believe ! ?+s8 ,%e 0 n always a bird ( evil om51 = sometimes %e br\ght me good news z well z bad4 ,"o day %e said1 ,!re is a cl]gyman com+ to see y1 :o us$ to be a great fri5d ( y\rs1 b s9ce y\r conv]sion he has be5 afraid ( y4 ,he is com+2 y mu/ all[ him to prea*2 he w be conv]t$ be=e long6 ,sure en\gh1 my old fri5d ,w4,b4--1 came z %e pr$ict$4 ,he prea*$1 & 9 due "t 0 conv]t$1 & 8 wife also2 b 8 /ory %all come 9 its own place4 ,! "w at ,frank's cottage /opp$ z sudd5ly z x began4 ,i _c !orize ab\t ! subject2 ,i m]ely /ate t s x 04 ,x began1 x cont9u$1 & cont9u$ only 9 t h\se1 & !n x /opp$4 ,ano!r rem>kable ?+ may "h be obs]v$--t on visit+ ! cottages )9 a limit$ di/ance r\nd ,frank's h\se1 p 7 s(t5$1 & x 0 easy to p]suade !m to yield !mselves to ,*ri/4 ,!y appe>$ to be q ripe & ready4 ,j beyond ?is limit ! p 7 z h>d & c>eless z ev]4 ,x seem$ z if ! p[] ( ,god ov]%ad[$ only a c]ta9 spot1 & t all )9 t 7 "u ,div9e influ5ce = ! "t1 ?\gh all 7 n conv]t$4 ,!y ackn[l$g$1 h[ev]1 t !y felt ! ,_s's p[] /riv+ ) !m1 & !y knew aft]w>ds t x 0 )drawn4 ,! w9d bl[e? :]e x li/e?4 ,,*apt] #ad ,op5-,air ,s]vices1 #aheb4 #a4 ,,p]ranzabuloe ,,z ! summ] advanc$1 x 0 laid on he>t to g & prea* 9 ! p>i% ( ,p]ranzabuloe1 :]e ,i _h m9i/]$ 9 my unconv]t$ days4 ,! vic>1 w\ld n cons5t to my hav+ ! *ur*2 b told me1 9 writ+1 t he c\ld n prev5t my prea*+ on ! common or ! bea*4 ,i ?ank$ him = 8 sugge/ion z to ! latt]4 ,z soon ,i 0 able ,i made arrangem5ts1 & giv+ due notice1 w5t d[n to ! old famili> place2 b ?is "t on a new err&1 & x 0 to me a fre% />t 9 my "w4 ,i took my g[n = ?is fir/ op5-air s]vice2 & on arriv+1 f\nd _m hundr$s ( p already assembl$ at ! appo9t$ place1 on ,p]ran bea*4 ,aft] giv+ out a hymn1 :i* 0 mo/ he>tily sung1 ,i pray$1 ?ank+ ,god = ! *ange ,he _h wr\ght 9 my s\l1 & begg+ ,him to %[ t ,he _h =giv5 ! pa/1 by be/[+ a manife/ bless+ ^u ! pres5t s]vice4 ,all ?is 0 l\dly respond$ to1 9 ,corni% fa%ion1 ) he>ty ,am5s & v>i\s o!r ejaculations to :i* ,i 0 well accu/om$4 ,!n ,i read ! beg9n+ ( ! fif? *apt] ( ,/4 ,luke1 tak+ = my text ! words1 ,laun* out into ! deep1 & let d[n y\r nets = a draught4 ,hav+ rem9d$ ! p h[ h>d ,i _h work$ among/ !m = f\r ye>s )\t see+ any conv]sions1 ,i w5t on to %[ !m1 by way ( p>allel1 t ,simon ,pet] _h toil$ all night & tak5 no?+1 b t :5 he w5t =? at ! ,"l's comm&1 he enclos$ a great multitude ( fi%es4 ,"h1 ,i said1 is enc\ragem5t = u to expect a bless+ n[4 ,:y did ,simon ,pet] fail at fir/8 & :y did he subsequ5tly succe$8 ,:y did he fail8--#a4 ,because he w5t out 9 ! night4 #b4 ,at 8 own desire4 #c4 ,9 ! wisdom ( m54 ,:y did ,i fail8--#a4 ,because ,i prea*$ & lab\r$ 9 ! night ( my unconv]t$ /ate4 #b4 ,i lab\r$ at ! bidd+ ( ! ,*ur*4 ,&1 #c4 ,accord+ to ! wisdom & tradition ( ! fa!rs4 ,:y did ,pet] succe$8--,because1 #a4 ,he w5t out 9 ! morn+4 #b4 ,at ! ,"l's bidd+4 #c4 ,) ! ,"l's pres5ce4 ,i am come 7,i 0 ?ankful to be able to say7 9 ! bright sun%9e ( my fir/ love4 ,jesus1 ! ,savi\r1 is ! ',sun ( my s\l1 my ,savi\r de>4' ,! p *e]$ me s mu* ) _! respond+1 t ,i felt z happy z !y4 ,! op5+ heav5 seem$ to %9e ar\nd u1 inde$1 ) beams ( sacr$ bliss4 ,!y %\t$ aga9 & aga91 ,glory to ,god6 ,glory to ,god6 ,hallelujah6 4444 ,i am come n[1 ,i cont9u$1 to tell y f my own p]sonal exp]i5ce1 ab\t salvation & ! =giv5ess ( s9s4 ,yes1 yes6 ,?ank ! ,"l6 ,bless ,him6 ,i am come1 de> fri5ds1 at ! ,"l's bidd+4 ,i feel sure t ,he put x into my he>t to d s4 ,oh1 h[ mu* ,i long$ to d y good :5 ,i 0 y\r m9i/]2 b ,i c\ld n1 = ,i knew no?+ ab\t ! ,way myself4 ,n[1 t ,i d1 ,i am con/ra9$ to tell y4 ,! love ( ,god )91 & ! ,^w ( ,god )\t1 compel me4 ,i feel ,i h ! ,"l's pres5ce1 = ,he n only promis$ x :]e two or ?ree are ga!r$ toge!r 9 ,8 "n2 b also to ^? :o prea* ! ,gospel1 ,he said1 ',lo1 ,i am ) y alway6' ,8 pres5ce is p[]4 ,x is ,8 ^w ,i br+ y1 n m9e2 ,i m]ely deliv] x4 ,he is "h4 ,& be sure ,he loves y1 &1 :at is m1 takes a deep] int]e/ 9 ?is prea*+ ?an we c4 ,he di$ = y1 & %$ ,8 blood = y\r =giv5ess2 h[1 !n1 c ,he d o!rwise ?an take an int]e/ 9 ! deliv]y ( ,8 message1 &1 m1 9 ! result :i* is to foll[8 ,:5 ,simon ,pet] let d[n 8 net1 he 0 a/oni%$2 m>k1 x 0 a net he let d[n into ! deep1 some?+ :i* enclos$ ! fi%1 9 ord] t he might br+ !m out ( _! native elem5t1 ! wat]4 ,s ,i prea* ! ,gospel1 n m]ely = ! sake ( prea*+1 b to br+ y f ! p[] ( ,satan1 9 :i* we all are by nature1 to ,god1 t y may receive ! =giv5ess ( y\r s9s4 ,we read t he enclos$ a great multitude ( fi%es2 ,i h fai? to believe t ! ,"l w br+ _m to ,himself to-night4 ,) %\t+ & praise ! address 0 conclud$ & pray] 0 (f]$4 ,at ! close1 we f\nd at lea/ fifty p 9 t great ?rong on _! knees1 cry+ = m]cy4 ,x 0 a mo/ triumphant & joyful "t1 & ! p 7 lo? to sep>ate4 ,we slept t night at ,por?1 z t "p ( ! village is call$4 ,! next morn+ two fi%]m5 came to my lodg+1 br++ a l>ge basket ( fi% z a pres5t4 ,_! he>ts _h be5 *e]$ ! prec$+ night1 & tak+ my ^w 9 a natural z well z a spiritual s5se1 !y w5t out once aga9 & let d[n _! nets4 ,!y _h gone out _m nights be=e & tak5 no?+2 b ?is "t _! v5ture 0 cr[n$ ) success1 & !y came back rejoic+ ill ! ,"l1 :o _h %[n !m t temporal z well z spiritual bless+s come f ,him4 ,! basket ( fi% !y br\ght me 0 an ackn[l$gm5t ( _! he>tfelt gratitude4 ,aft] breakfa/1 z we 7 walk+ on ! sea%ore1 "u ! maje/ic cliffs :i* h /ood z a wall aga9/ ! ,atlantic waves = c5turies1 we he>d our good-natur$ ,newf\ndl& dog b>k+ at some?+ on ! rocks2 we look$ up1 & behold6 ,!re 0 an exquisitely graceful fawn-col\r$ kid1 ) a sc>let coll> & bells1 b\nd+ ab\t playfully on ! n>r[ l$ges ( ! rocks4 ,x seem$ to u to be leap+ ab\t on ! face ( ! cliff1 = we c\ld n see ! little l$ges on :i* x pick$ its way4 ,x 0 q out ( ! dog's rea*1 & appe>$ to "k x1 judg+ f ! coquetti% & defiant mann] 9 :i* x 0 jump+ ab\t1 9 high glee at its indep5d5ce4 ,:ile we 7 /&+ wat*+ ! pretty & graceful creature1 a "y lady came out f beh9d o!r rocks1 & call$ to h] pet1 :i* ar*$ its little neck & look$ at h]1 !n at ! dog1 z if x w\ld say1 ,h[ c ,i come d[n8 ,i walk$ t[>ds h]1 & on speak+1 f\nd t %e knew me1 & t ,i _h se5 h] :5 %e 0 a *ild4 ,aft] a little talk ab\t ! playful kid1 ,i ask$ h] if %e _h be5 to ! meet+2 %e said %e _h1 & %e _h n6 ,i wait$ sil5tly = an explanation4 ,pres5tly1 %e said t h] mamma _h =bidd5 h] to g to su* wild meet+s1 b t h] fa!r _h ask$ h] to walk ) him "u a wall 9 ! g>d51 !re !y c\ld & did he> e ^w2 & %e add$1 ,i ?9k papa has f\nd peace--he is s v happy'4 ,& h n y also8 ,i ask$4 ,ah1 %e repli$1 ,i wi% ,i c\ld4 ,! m ,i talk$ ) h]1 ! m conv9c$ ,i felt %e 0 9 e>ne/1 b t some?+ /ood 9 ! way4 ,%e said %e did n "k :at x 0--t %e really wi%$ = salvation1 & 0 will+ to give up ev]y?+4 ,i said1 ,d y ?9k y\r "m w\ld let y return ) u on a %ort visit8 ,we are j go+ back to ,baldhu4 ,%e said1 ,mamma is n at home3 %e has gone away = ?ree days2 b ,i ?9k papa w\ld let me g4 ,%all ,i ask him8 ,%e did2 & soon return$1 say+ t %e might d s if we c\ld promise to br+ h] back 9 two days4 ,?is be+ settl$1 %e ha/5$ to get h] ?+s ready1 & s5t h] maid to fet* home ! pet kid1 :i* %e bade h] take great c>e ( dur+ h] abs5ce3 !n we set (f4 ,on arriv+ at our h\se %e w5t /raight to h] b$room1 & !re on h] knees implor$ ,god's m]cy1 & rema9$ plead+ & pray+ = five h\rs1 be=e %e f\nd peace4 ,!n %e came d[n among u1 rejoic+ 9 ! ,"l4 ,t ev5+ %e sp5t at ! meet+1 & ! next day 9 visit+ among ! cottages4 ,on ! ?ird day1 aft] a happy visit1 we took h] home to h] fa!r1 rejoic+ 9 ! lib]ty ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,h] "m return$ ! day aft]1 & :5 %e 0 told ( ! *ange 9 h] husb& & h] daught] ,lucy1 %e became exce$+ly angry1 & wrote1 n to ?ank1 b to =bid u ! h\se2 also prohibit+ fur!r int]c\rse4 ,at ! same "t %e decl>$ h] int5tion to get all t nons5se out ( h] daught]'s head z soon z possible4 ,%e dragg$ ?is poor girl out to p>ties & amusem5ts ( e k9d1 aga9/ h] w1 :i* _h ! effect ( mak+ h] dislike !m ! m1 & caus$ h] to cleave /eadfa/ly to ! ,"l 9 pray]4 ,six mon?s lat]1 %e 0 tak5 ill1 & aft] a few weeks' suff]+ %e di$1 rejoic+ t h] s9s 7 p>don$1 & t %e 0 go+ home4 ,x 0 evid5t t ,god w\ld n tru/ t "m ) a daught] ^: s\l %e 0 det]m9$ to injure4 ,he took ,8 *ild away to ,himself4 #b4 ,,rose-,,9-,,vale ,! op5-air prea*+ at ,p]ran l$ to _m simil> s]vices !re1 & at o!r places4 ,i w tell ( two only1 to prev5t sam5ess1 & = fe> ( tir+ ! read]4 ,! =m] ( ^!1 0 at a place call$ ,rose-9-vale1 9 ! same p>i%1 on ! lawn ( ! *ief p>i%ion]4 ,he 0 an un$ucat$ man1 :o _h ris5 f ! rank ( a common m9] to t ( a m9e capta94 ,be+ v %rewd & clev]1 he _h succe$$ 9 accumulat+ a consid]able sum ( money2 & ?\gh he & 8 wife _h a v l>ge h\se1 !y *iefly occupi$ two ( ! smalle/ rooms4 ,!m f9e ?+s up 9 ! p>l\rs1 he said1 he made no 'c\nt (2 inde$ he 0 any?+ b com=table or easy 9 8 /ate ap>tm5ts4 ,be+ ! weal?y man ( ! p>i%1 he sat on ,sunday 9 ! l>ge squ>e pew2 b beyond giv+ p]sonal att5dance1 & t v regul>ly1 ,i d n "k :at o!r he$ he gave1 ei!r to ! s]vice or ! s]mon4 ,dur+ ?is summ] he invit$ me to give a prea*+ 9 8 g>d54 ,accord+ly1 on a fix$ day1 ,i w5t1 & tri$ to speak1 b f\nd x mo/ difficult to d s4 ,i "k n :y2 b aga9 & aga9 ,i felt z ?\gh ,i _h lo/ ! ?read ( my disc\rse & 0 rambl+--t ,i 0 at a loss = words1 & c\ld n hold ! att5tion ( ! p4 ,p]plex$1 & greatly disc\rag$1 ,i 0 n sorry :5 ! "t came to conclude2 !re=e ,i did n invite ! p to rema9 = an aft]-meet+ = pray]4 ,sev]al p]sons came up & ask$ me :y ,i _h dismiss$ ! assembly4 ,ah6 ,i repli$1 because !re is no p[]4 ,i c\ld n get on at all6 ,!y 7 surpris$1 & said !y ?\ght t ,i _h be5 help$ m ?an usual1 & 7 q sure t ! ,"l 0 work+ among ! p4 ,h[ev]1 ! congregation _h gone n[1 & c\ld n be recall$4 ,?is only made me feel m di/ress$ ?an be=e4 ,! feel+ 0 v /rong ) :i* ,i _h be5 s burd5$ :ile speak+2 &1 to add to my p]plexity1 ,i obs]v$ ?ree coa/-gu>d m51 :o _h come "s five or six miles1 behav+ badly1 & laugh+ all ! "t 7z ,i ?\ght7 at my disc\rse1 to ! great discomfiture ( my prea*+4 ,op5-air addresses 7 n common 9 ^? days1 & = a man to set up 7z "s said7 & pret5d to be a second ,:itfield or ,wesley1 0 bad en\gh1 b to fail 0 mo/ humiliat+6 ,?ree ye>s aft] ?is1 ,i 0 travell+ outside a coa*1 :5 a r\gh sailor-look+ man came climb+ up to ! top1 al?\gh he 0 told t !re 0 no room4 ,nev] m9d1 he said2 ,i w sit on ! boxes4 ,i want to talk to ?is "h g5tleman4 ,s say+1 he p]*$ himself on ! luggage1 & (f]$ to %ake h&s ) me4 ,d y "k me8 ,i ask$4 ,oh yes1 bless y1 ( c\rse ,i d6 ,don't y rememb] ?ree coa/-gu>d m5 at ,capta9 ,o--'s g>d58 ,yes1 ,i said1 inde$ ,i d1 & am n likely to =get !m easily2 !y behav$ s badly1 & di/urb$ me s mu*4 ,well1 he cont9u$1 ,i'm "o o' !m4 ,i don't "k :y we laugh$ & made fun1 = we all on u felt y\r words deeply1 & w5t home to pray2 & a few days aft]w>ds we 7 all ?ree conv]t$--t we 74 ,praise ! ,"l6 ,aft] t1 we volunte]$ = ! navy1 to g to ! ,crimea w>4 ,i've be5 9 "s hot sc5es1 sure en\gh4 ,"o day we got a little too ne> ! ,russian batt]y1 & !y pepp]$ u brave--no mi/ake1 ,i assure y2 !y cut our ma/s & rigg+ to pieces1 & pl\gh$ up our deck ) _! %ots4 ,m5 7 be+ kill$ on e side ( me4 ,i ?\ght1 n[ ,i %all see ! ,k+ 9 ,8 glory4 ,my s\l 0 s happy1 ,i expect$ e mom5t to be cut d[n & s5t into ,8 pres5ce2 b n a %ot t\*$ me6 ,i _h n ev5 a scrat*2 & "h ,i be1 safe & s\nd1 all ?r\gh m]cy6 ,?us1 ^! ?ree m51 :o made me at ! "t s unhappy1 & di/urb$ me to su* a degree1 turn$ out well1 aft] all4 ,s9ce !n1 on sev]al occasions1 ,i h felt z disc\rag$ 9 prea*+ z ,i 0 t day2 & ?\gh aga9 & aga9 ,i h said t ,i w n he$ x1 ,i h nev]!less f\nd x difficult to be unmov$ "u ?is my/]i\s influ5ce4 ,i write ?is = ! com=t & consolation ( o!rs :o are afflict$ "u simil> circum/ances1 t !y may n be ca/ d[n by _! feel+s4 #c4 ,m\nt ,hawke ,! next occasion 0 v diff]5t1 & q a contra/ 9 results4 ,i 0 invit$ to a neighb\r+ p>i%1 :i* =m]ly us$ to be unit$ ) ,p]ran at ! "t :5 ,i _h sole *>ge ( x4 ,"h1 on ! appo9t$ ,saturday aft]noon1 ,i f\nd n few] ?an ?ree ?\s& p assembl$ on ! common4 ,!y _h erect$ a k9d ( plat=m1 ) a canvas awn+1 to %elt] me f ! w9d1 :i* always bl[s ) m or less viol5ce 9 ,cornwall1 ev5 :5 x is n ra9+4 ,!re ,i /ood & beheld ?is conc\rse ( p1 evid5tly full ( l>ge expectation4 ,i gave out ! hymn-- ,oh = a ?\s& tongues1 to s+ ,my great ,r$eem]'s praise6 ,?is 0 he>tily sung2 & aft] pray] = a bless+1 ,i ann\nc$ my text1 & spoke f ! fact1 t ,*ri/ ,jesus came into ! _w to save s9n]s4 ,^u en=c+ ?is z wor?y ( all acceptation1 ,i press$ ! ?\ght1 t ! ,"l ,jesus came m ?an eighte5 hundr$ ye>s ago1 & t is pres5t /ill1 & able to "w great] ?an ,he wr\ght !n2 = inde$ ,he only began !n to d & to tea* :at ,he is do+ & tea*+ cont9u\sly n[4 ,a mighty p[] ( ! ,_s ( ! ,"l came on ! p1 & sev]al hundr$s fell ^u _! knees simultane\sly1 & _m began to cry al\d = m]cy4 ,! /range "p 01 t ! p[] ( ! ,"l appe>$ to pass diagonally ?r\gh ! cr[d1 s t !re 0 a lane ( p on _! knees six or eight feet deep1 bank$ up on ei!r side by o!rs /&+4 ,x ext5d$ f ! left-h& corn] ne> me1 to ! "r-h& corn] 9 ! di/ance4 ,x 0 q impossible to g on prea*+1 s ,i gave out a hymn1 & !n w5t 9 among ! sla9 ( ! ,"l4 ,aft] ab\t an h\r1 "s "o sugge/$ t we %\ld g to ! s*ool-room2 z x 0 gett+ d>k4 ,! cl]gyman ( ! p>i% 0 on horseback 9 ! lane close by1 wat*+ proce$+s4 ,i ask$ him if we c\ld h ! use ( ! s*ool-room4 ,oh yes1 he said2 yes1 c]ta9ly--c]ta9ly--any?+4 ,he seem$ v fright5$4 ,! m5 & wom5 9 di/ress ( s\l 7 l$ to ! room1 cry+ & pray+ z !y w5t4 ,:5 ,i rea*$ ! place1 ,i f\nd x impossible to get 91 f> x 0 already full1 besides a ?rong /&+ at ! door4 ,i 0 tak5 to a w9d[ at la/1 & gett+ 9 ?r\gh t1 ,i /ood on ! s*oolma/]'s table1 :i* 0 ne>4 ,aga9/ ! wall ! m5 _h1 9 m9]s' fa%ion1 set up ) clay "s c&les1 :i* 7 beg9n+ to b5d ov] ) ! heat ( ! room4 ,! place 0 d5sely pack$1 & ! noise ( ! p pray+ = m]cy 0 excessive4 ,i c\ld d no m ?an speak to ^? :o 7 ne> me r\nd ! table4 ,z !y f\nd peace "o by "o & 7 able to praise ,god1 we ask$ !m to g out & let o!rs come4 ,9 ?is way ! meet+ w5t on till t5 o'clock1 :5 ,i left2 & x cont9u$ to g on all night & all ! next day )\t cessation4 ,x w sc>cely be cr$it$1 b t same meet+ 0 prolong$ by successive p]sons )\t any int]mission1 day & night1 till ! ev5+ ( ,sunday1 ! eigh? day aft] x began4 ,?is k9d ( ?+ 0 n unusual 9 ,cornwall1 = we _h ! same 9 our s*ool-room at ,baldhu = ?ree days & nights2 b eight days is ! longe/ p]iod ( :i* ,i h any p]sonal k4 ,i w5t aga9 & aga9 to see h[ !y 7 go+ on2 b ! p 7 too absorb$ to he$ my pres5ce2 & ^? :o 7 !n seek+ m]cy 7 /rang]s to me1 & _h n be5 pres5t at ! s]vice on ! previ\s ,saturday4 ,,*apt] #ae ,draw+-,room ,meet+s1 #aheb-ec4 ,f t "t ,i did n conf9e myself s mu* to my own *ur*1 b frequ5tly w5t out to prea* 9 o!r places1 z opportunities occurr$2 & ^! 71 = ! mo/ "p1 br\ght ab\t by rem>kable & uns\ght-= incid5ts4 ,"o ,sunday a lady & g5tleman came to my *ur* f "o ( ! neighb\r+ t[ns2 !y 7 pr(essors ( religion1 & memb]s ( "s ,diss5t+ body4 ,my s]mon t ev5+ 0 ^u :eat & *aff--! =m] 0 to be ga!r$ into ! g>n]1 ! latt] burn$ ) fire unqu5*able4 ,i said t we 7 all ei!r "o or ! o!r--to be ga!r$ or burn$4 ,!y w5t away v angry1 & compla9$ "o to ano!r ( my want ( *>ity2 !y also rem>k$ t ,i took good c>e to let ! p "k t ,i 0 n among/ ! *aff :i* 0 to be burn$4 ,! arr[s ( ! ,"l _h evid5tly f\nd !m1 & _h pi]c$ ! jo9ts 9 _! h>ness4 ,!y c\ld n sleep all night = ang] & di/ress4 ,9 ! morn+ ! g5tleman rose e>ly1 & be=e breakfa/ _h 8 horse out1 & gallop$ ov] eight miles to see me4 ,he came ) ! int5tion ( f9d+ fault1 b in/ead ( ?is he bur/ into te>s1 & told me t he 0 ! greate/ ( s9n]s4 ,he 0 9 sore di/ress1 :i* increas$ all ! m z he gave v5t to 8 feel+s4 ,i c\ld n help rejoic+1 & told him t ,god _h w\nd$ him1 b t ,he only w\nds to heal1 & kills to make alive4 ,ah1 he said1 t is ! fir/ ?\ght ( com=t ,i h _h2 x is l balm to my s\l4 ,we knelt d[n & pray$2 !n ,i _h ! privilege ( lead+ him to ,*ri/1 & we prais$ ,god toge!r4 ,i gave him "s breakfa/1 & aft] t rode back ) him to see 8 wife1 :om he _h left 9 ! morn+ 9 great tr\ble ( m9d4 ,we f\nd h] up1 & rejoic+4 ,x 0 mo/ t\*+ to witness ! mutual surprise & joy ( ^! two lov+ ones1 :5 !y discov]$ t !y 7 n[ unit$ 9 ! ,"l4 ,%e told u1 t aft] h] husb&'s dep>ture %e 0 9 su* t]rible tr\ble t %e got up to pray1 & t :ile %e 0 on h] knees %e saw a vision on ! b$-cov]4 ,be=e h] 0 pr9t$1 9 l>ge visible lett]s1 ,?y s9s be =giv5 !e2 %e c\ld sc>cely believe h] eyes1 b ) h] own f+] %e trac$ ! lett]s1 & 0 sure !y 7 !re4 ,tak+ !m z a message f ,*ri/1 %e rose & ?ank$ ,him1 & n[ felt q sure %e 0 sav$4 ,i c\ld n help tell+ h] n to believe 9 h] eyes or h] visions1 b 9 ,jesus1 & ! fact t ,he _h di$ = h]4 ,hav+ ?ank$ ,god toge!r1 !y next began to ?9k ( _! s]vants2 s we s5t = !m1 & bo? ma/] & mi/ress told !m :at ! ,"l _h done = _! s\ls2 & :ile we 7 pray+1 !y all ?ree cri$ al\d = m]cy1 & f\nd peace4 ,?is 0 ! comm5cem5t ( a good "w 9 t t[n by draw+-room meet+s1 & _m 7 ga!r$ to ! ,"l4 ,among/ ! numb] 0 ! mayor ( ! t[n1 :o 9 8 turn wi%$ to h a meet+ at 8 h\se4 ,z soon z ,i 0 able to fix ! day1 he invit$ 8 fri5ds1 b on f9d+ t s _m m desir$ to come ?an he c\ld accommodate1 he ann\nc$ t ! meet+ w\ld be held at ! ,t[n ,hall4 ,great int]e/ 0 excit$1 & x 0 soon evid5t t ev5 ?is build+ w\ld n be l>ge en\gh1 s x end$ 9 ! ,temp]ance ,hall be+ select$4 ,! vic> he>+ ab\t x1 wrote to prote/1 & ask$ me to call on him be=e ,i w5t to ! place ( meet+4 ,he said x 0 bad en\gh = me to come to 8 p>i% to private h\ses1 b to come to a public room1 & t a l>ge "o1 0 q out ( ! "q4 ,i endeav\r$ to %[ him t ! lecture or address ,i _h come to give 0 n an (ficial or m9i/]ial act2 b he w\ld n see t4 ,i also sugge/$ t !re 0 no law aga9/ x4 ,he1 begg+ my p>don1 said ,! ',conv5ticle ,act' _h n be5 repeal$ yet1 & t no "o c\ld lawfully hold a meet+ ( m ?an tw5ty p]sons4 ,b surely1 ,i repli$1 t is virtually repeal$ by ! ',tol]ation ,act4' ,a cl]gyman ought n to be 9 great] bondage 9 ,engl& ?an a layman1 or m re/rict$4 ,anybody else c come & prea* ! ,gospel 9 y\r p>i%1 & y _c h9d] x4 ,d n h9d] me4 ,x w d y no h>m4 ,he said1 ,i _c consci5ti\sly all[ x4 ,x is aga9/ ! ,canons4 ,:i* ,canon is x aga9/8 ,i ask$4 ,he took d[n a book & %[$ x me1 b ca/+ my eyes on ! "o be=e1 & ano!r :i* foll[$1 ,i f\nd t we nei!r ( u obs]v$ ! "o or ! o!r4 ,:y1 !n1 be s zeal\s ab\t ?is8 ,besides1 ,i said1 y are n responsible2 y h n ask$ me1 nor h ,i ask$ y\r cons5t4 ,y\r consci5ce ne$ n be tr\bl$ ab\t ! matt]4 ,b1 he said1 impati5tly1 ,i am det]m9$ t y %all n prea* 9 ?is p>i%4 ,i w in=m ! ,bi%op4 ,i repli$1 t ! ,bi%op _h n any jurisdiction 9 ?is case2 !re is no law on ! subject4 ,! ,conv5ticle ,act only ref]s to wor%ip1 n to s]vice or prea*+4 ,he said1 t he c\ld see no diff]5ce :atev] betwe5 wor%ip & s]vice4 ,b1 ,i said1 ,i am sure ! ,bi%op kn[s1 & w ackn[l$ge1 ! great diff]5ce betwe5 ^! two4 ,!n1 *ang+ 8 tone1 he said1 ,n[1 come1 !re's a good fell[1 don't prea* at ! ,t[n ,hall4 ,my de> man1 ,i answ]$1 ,i am n a 'good fell[' at all ,i _c give x up4 ,!n1 he said1 at lea/ please to def] y\r address = a week1 till we c get ! ,bi%op's decision4 ,he ask$ s k9dly & e>ne/ly1 & made su* a po9t ( x1 t ,i cons5t$ to wait = ! ,bi%op's answ]1 & def] ! prea*+ = a week4 ,he 0 v pleas$1 & said t ,i 0 inde$ a 'good fell['1 b ! praise ,i got f him b>ely satisfi$ my consci5ce1 & ,i 0 a%am$ to meet my fri5ds4 ,i _h n gone f> be=e my c\rage fail$2 s1 go+ back1 ,i said t ,i mu/ )draw my cons5t to def] ! meet+4 ,i w take ! consequ5ces & responsibilities1 & g on4 ,no1 no4 cri$ ! vic>1 ,i w arrange = ! ,po/ponem5t ( y\r meet+4 ,look "h1 ,i h writt5 out a notice = ! cri]2 he %all g r\nd ! t[n at once1 & tell ! p t ! meet+ is unavoidably def]r$ = a week4 ,i 0 v reluctantly p]suad$ to yield1 & !n w5t to my fri5d & told him :at ,i _h done4 ,he 0 v mu* vex$ ) me1 & said1 ,!n we mu/ g at once & tell ! mayor be=e he he>s ! cri]4 ,we did s1 & f\nd t ?is p]sonage 0 disappo9t$ too1 & advis$ me to g away out ( sight ( ! p4 ,accord+ly1 my fri5d & ,i w5t to a h\se :i* comm&$ a good view ( ! t[n & pr9cipal /reets1 f :5ce we c\ld see ! p assembl+ & disp]s+4 ,a l>ge gang ( !m /ood opposite my fri5d's h\se1 & ask$ if ,i w\ld n prea* to !m 9 ! op5 air2 & :5 !y asc]ta9$ t ! vic> _h h9d]$ ! prea*+1 !y 7 mu* exasp]at$4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i w5t back to my own p>i%1 & _h ! usual s]vice1 :i* ,i f\nd v refre%+ aft] s mu* bick]+ ab\t te*nicalities4 ,! ,bi%op's lett] arriv$ 9 due "t4 ,9 x 8 lord%ip said1 t he always _h ent]ta9$ a great e/eem = me & my ob$i5ce to au?ority1 & highly comm5d$ me = po/pon+ or giv+ up my s]vice at ! above t[n4 ,z he did n say a s+le ^w ( prohibition1 ,i imm$iately wrote to ! mayor to expect me on ! foll[+ ,tuesday1 ,= ! ,bi%op _h n =bidd5 me1 & ,i also wrote to ! vic> to ! same effect4 ,l>ge bills1 ) l>ge lett]s on !m1 ann\nc$ t ! ,rev4 ,william ,haslam w positively prea* 9 ! ,temp]ance ,hall at ?ree o'clock on ,tuesday next4 ,! *ur*w>d5s ( ! p>i% 7 reque/$ to att5d ! meet+1 & prote/1 on behalf ( ! vic>1 & also to pres5t ! ar*deacon's monition4 ,!y /ood beside me all ! "t1 & aft] ! s]vice 0 conclud$ !y %[$ me ! ar*idiaconal in/rum5t1 ) a great seal app5d$ to x4 ,!y said t !y d>$ n /op t prea*+1 & s !y took _! monition back4 ,?is gave rise to a long correspond5ce 9 ! newspap]s1 "s tak+ "p on my side1 & "s aga9/ me4 ,?us ! "q 0 v5tilat$1 & f9ally conclud$1 by a lett] f "s "o1 :o said1 ,! ,bi%op ( ,exet] is "o ( ! greate/ ecclesia/ical lawy]s we h1 & if he _c /op ,mr4 ,haslam1 ! "q is settl$2 = be sure 8 lord%ip has all ! w to /op ?is prea*+1 & w\ld d s if he _h ! p[]4 ,f t "t ,i nev] hesitat$ to prea* ! ,gospel 9 any p>i% or diocese :]e ,i 0 invit$4 ,s few ( ! cl]gy ask$ me1 t ,i 0 oblig$ to g out 9 spite ( !m1 or1 at any rate1 )\t ask+ _! cons5t1 & 9 consequ5ce ( ?is1 ,i am afraid ,i became obnoxi\s to _m ( my cl]ical bre?r54 ,s9ce !n ?+s are mu* *ang$4 ,! ,e>l ( ,%aftesbury has succe$$ 9 gett+ an ,act pass$ ?r\gh bo? ,h\ses ( ,p>liam5t1 to settle ! "q ab\t su* s]vices4 ,n[ any cl]gyman may prea* 9 ,exet] ,hall1 or any o!r public non-ecclesia/ical build+1 )\t consult+ ! vic> ( ! p>i%4 ,besides ?is1 a g5]al disposition has aris5 among/ ! cl]gy1 f "o end ( ! l& to ! o!r1 to h missions1 s t !re is no ne$ to "w indep5d5tly ( cl]gym51 b ) !m1 & v *e]+ x is to be ?us employ$4 ,x 0 n pleasant to witness ! sc[l & ! fr[n1 nor to get ! cold %\ld]4 ,?ank ,god1 times are *ang$ n[2 b ,i mu/ ne$s tell ( "s ( ! sc5es ,i 0 91 & ! opposition ,i _h to enc\nt]1 dur+ ! ye>s t are gone by4 ,,*apt] #af ,opposition1 #ahec4 ,i h be5 tell+ hi!rto ( bless+ & prosp]ity 9 ! ,"l's "w4 ,_m m cases might h be5 m5tion$1 & _m o!r ?+s ( n less mom5t & int]e/2 b en\gh has be5 said1 ,i hope1 to %[ ! "* ( ! "w1 & give "s idea ( ! am\nt ( bless+ :i* att5d$ x4 ,b x mu/ n be suppos$ t ! (f5ce ( ! cross _h ceas$1 or t ! enmity ( ! c>nal m9d 0 nev] /irr$2 inde$1 ,i always d\bt ! reality ( a "w :i* moves on )\t opposition4 ,on ! day ( ,p5teco/1 :5 ! ,holy ,gho/ 0 fir/ giv51 :ile believ]s 7 rejoic+1 & s9n]s 7 prick$ to ! he>t1 & "s mock$1 !re arose ! opposition ( o!rs1 :o resi/$ ! influ5ce ( ! ,_s2 & be+ cut to ! he>t1 !y gna%$ ) _! tee?1 & w5t =w>d 9 furi\s cont5tion aga9/ ! ,"l's "w4 ,s x 0 ) u4 ,! opposition ran v high1 b ,i d n ?9k x 0 ( malice or hatr$1 b r righte\s indignation4 ,! in/igators ( x 7 s]i\s & e>ne/ p]sons1 :o v]ily ?\ght !y 7 do+ "r4 ,!y tri$ fir/ to save me f :at !y consid]$ 0 my infatuation2 & fail+ t1 did all !y c\ld to save o!rs f my bad influ5ce4 ,i be> !m record1 t !y _h a zeal = ,god1 b n accord+ to k4 ,x 0 j su* a zeal z ,i _h be=e ,i 0 conv]t$2 !re=e my he>t's desire 0 drawn out t[>ds !m1 & ,i made cont9ual ef=ts to w9 !m4 ,"o de> fri5d ( old "t said he felt s hurt because ,i 0 *ang$1 & (t5 wond]$ :y ,god did n /rike me dead = all ! h>m ,i _h done to ! ,*ur*4 ,ano!r said t he %\ld n be surpris$ if ! v gr\nd op5$ & swall[$ me up = my frat]niz+ ) s*ismatics4 ,! s9 ( ,korah1 ,da?an1 & ,abiram 0 no?+ to m9e4 ,at ! ,cl]ical ,meet+1 :i* ,i att5d$ not)/&+ all ?is /ir aga9/ me1 ,i 0 beset on e side ) some?+ m ?an lov+ reproa*es2 = evid5tly my old fri5ds 7 v mu* griev$1 & c\ld n =give me = :at !y consid]$ ! betrayal ( ,*ur* pr9ciples4 ,a special meet+ or synod ( ! cl]gy 0 conv5$ by ! ,rural ,dean1 to take into consid]ation among o!r ?+s1 my defection1 & to decide :at public notice %\ld be tak5 on ! subject ( ?is great sc&al4 ,i also att5d$ ?is meet+1 & f\nd my bre?r5 9 a v angry & excit$ /ate4 ,"o aft] ano!r got up & made griev\s *>ges aga9/ me1 ab\t ! proce$+s 9 my *ur* & p>i%4 ,! burd5 ( _! di/ress1 h[ev]1 seem$ to be noise & excitem5t4 ,!y said t ,!re 0 brawl+ 9 my *ur*1 & h[l+ 9 my s*oolroom1 wom5 fa9t+ & m5 %\t+ 9 a mo/ fanatical mann]4 ,!y _h n witness$ ^! sc5es !mselves1 b !y 7 cr$ibly in=m$ ( !m4 ,moreov]1 !y ass]t$1 on good au?ority1 t ,i prea*$ a v diff]5t doctr9e to t :i* 0 au?oriz$ by ! ,*ur*4 ,i _h decl>$ t !re 0 no salvation by ! ,*ur* & ,sacram5ts1 b by simple fai? 9 ,*ri/2 t any man--x did n matt] :at 8 previ\s life _h be5--if he only came to my prea*+1 & did z ,i told him1 w\ld be sav$4 ,^!1 & _m o!r su* *>ges1 7 made & support$ by %\ts ( ,he>6 he>6 & cries ( ,%ame6 ,! ,rural ,dean said he 0 glad ,mr4 ,haslam 0 pres5t to answ] = himself2 he _h obs]v$ t ,i _h sat v quietly to he> o!rs2 & he n[ hop$ t a pati5t he>+ w\ld be giv5 to me4 ,i rose1 & said ,i 0 v ?ankful to be !re1 & to h ?is opportunity ( te/ify+ be=e !m all t ! ,"l _h conv]t$ my s\l6 ,!re 0 a little int]ruption "h1 b aft] a "t ,i 0 p]mitt$ to g on4 ,i said t be=e ,i 0 conv]t$1 ,i 0 ev5 m zeal\s ?an any ( !m aga9/ ?is *ange1 & greatly prejudic$ aga9/ x4 ,i actually flogg$ a big boy 9 my s*ool = go+ to a *apel & pr(ess+ to be conv]t$2 ?is ,i did be=e all ! *ildr51 & he promis$ t he w\ld nev] be conv]t$ any m4 ,i c\ld1 !re=e1 well und]/& _! pres5t feel+s1 & said t ,i 0 n angry ) !m1 b r pray$ t !y might1 9 _! turn1 be enabl$ to see ^! ?+s z ,i n[ saw !m1 & be sav$ z ,i 04 ,^u ?is1 !re arose a great di/urbance4 ,! ,rural ,dean gave me cr$it = c&\r1 & said he ?\ght ,i meant well1 b t ,i impli$ too mu* aga9/ my bre?r52 h[ev]1 he _h said be=e1 & w\ld repeat x1 t ,i _h li/5$ quietly' to :at o!rs _h said1 & t n[ ,i 0 entitl$ to a pati5t he>+ a little long]4 ,b ?is c\ld n be1 = ,i 0 /opp$ at e ,fre% /atem5t ,i made1 & _h s _m que/ions put to me1 t ,i begg$ = only "o at a "t4 ,i 0 enabl$ to /& my gr\nd calmly1 & endeav\r$ to answ] ! *>ges 9 ord] z !y 7 br\ght out4 ,to all appe>ances1 ,i _h to /& q alone 9 t tumultu\s p>ty4 ,we _h met at twelve o'clock1 & aft] f\r h\rs 7 /ill 9 ! heat ( conflict4 ,at la/1 to conclude ?is extraord9>y meet+1 "o ( ! ,cl]gy rose & said t he felt x 0 8 pa9ful yet necess>y duty to propose t a vote ( c5sure be pass$ on ,mr4 ,haslam4 ,x 0 n second$1 & s fell to ! gr\nd4 ,:]eupon1 ano!r rose 'to record a prote/ aga9/ revival meet+s1 z contr>y to ! usage ( ! ,*ur*4 ,?is also fail$2 & z no "o else _h any?+ to say1 ! conclave ( div9es broke up4 ,:at !y w\ld h said or done1 if ,i _h n att5d$ to be torn to pieces by !m1 ,i "k n2 all ,i c say is1 t !y sep>at$ )\t eat+ me up4 ,"s ( !m came to me aft]w>ds & seem$ pleas$ t ,i _h /ood my gr\nd s good-natur$ly1 & ?\ght t ,i _h _h a great badg]+4 ,! opposition did n /op !re--s]mons 7 prea*$ 9 sev]al ( ! neighb\r+ *ur*es1 & p e>ne/ly w>n$ aga9/ att5d+ c]ta9 s]vices1 & told n to c\nt5ance !m by _! pres5ce4 ,! newspap]s also took up ! matt]1 & public report 0 n beh9d 9 its usual exagg]ation4 ,i give "h an extract f a ,lett] ,i ?\ght x necess>y to write at ?is "t1 on ,,religi\s ,,excitem5t3 ,my ,de> ,sir1--,i h be5 s]i\sly consid]+1 = "s "t1 ! necessity ( mak+ a public /atem5t respect+ ! "w ( ,god 9 ?is place2 ) a view p>tly ( draw+ att5tion to an all-important1 ?\gh v neglect$ subject2 & p>tly ) a view ( giv+ "s def9ite & au?oritative =m to ! v>i\s & v>i$ reports :i* are 9 circulation4 ,x is va9 to pret5d to "k no?+ ab\t !m1 & x is equally va9 to suppose t reports ab\t our proce$+s are likely to lose less by repetition1 ?an ^? on o!r subjects ( less mom5t4 ,i embrace1 !re=e1 ! opportunity :i* y\r ,s]mon on ,,religi\s ,,excitem5t (f]s1 to make a /atem5t4 ,i d remon/rate aga9/ y\r publi%+ to ! _w a s]mon av[$ly aga9/ 'proce$+s connect$ ) a neighb\r+ *ur*2' & t in/ead ( enc\ragem5t1 c\nsel1 & coop]ation 9 :at ,i "k is ! "w ( ,god1 ,i receive ?is public rebuke4 ,i make ?is remon/rance ! m e>ne/ly1 because sev]al ( ! op9ions y h express$1 are n1 z ,i believe1 consi/5t ) ! tea*+ ( our ,*ur*2 & la/ly1 ,i v5ture to be ! remon/rant1 because ,i am ! p]son1 & m9e ! *ur*1 :i* are ! objects ( y\r animadv]sions4 ,y hold des]v$ly a high position among u 9 respect ( rank & e/eem = y\r piety & le>n+2 b at ! haz>d ( incurr+ ! imputation ( arrogance1 ,i _c1 ,i mu/ n1 & ,i w n be unfai?ful to ! light 9 :i* ,i walk1 by ! grace ( ,god2 & !re=e ,i d simply & pla9ly prote/1 9 ! fir/ place1 aga9/ ! supposition t ,excitem5t is a means :i* ,i am us+1 or an end ,i h 9 view2 secondly1 aga9/ ! supposition t conv]sion is a gradual "w1 :i* is to be work$ out by ,sacram5ts & ,means ( ,grace2 & ?irdly1 aga9/ a tea*+ :i* supposes & actually decl>es t a ,p]son may believe1 may be p>don$1 may be cleans$ f s91 yet n "k x4 ,9 ! s5se 9 :i* y c5sure ,religi\s ,excitem5t1 namely1 z a means to '=ce1 z x 71 ! ,_s ( ! ,"l1' & '= ! purpose ( /rongly work+ on ! animal feel+s1 etc41' x may be ju/ly c5surable4 ,^? :o make excitem5t ! end & object ( _! endeav\rs 9 a religi\s movem5t1 mu/ soon f9d ! empt9ess ( x2 !y ?r[ du/ into _! own eyes1 & w ev] v]ify y\r words t 'excitem5t lifts up = a mom5t & !n lets fall aga91' & t 'l dram-dr9k+1 x leaves ^? t indulge 9 x weak] ?an be=e4' ,^? :o really are engag$ 9 ! "w ( ,god1 & especially conv]sion "w1 mu/ meet ) 'excitem5t4' ,x is impossible = a s9n]1 "u connection ( s91 to rema9 9 a calm imp]turbable /ate3 or :5 ! despair+ s9n] comes to a k ( t ,savi\r :o made ,atonem5t = him1 to help be+ excit$ ) joy4 ,noble or peasant1 g5tle or un$ucat$1 ,i am sure !re w be excitem5t1 & ov]fl[+ joy & gladness4 ,a man :o nev] felt himself a lo/ s9n]1 & nev] knew 8 ne$ ( ! ,savi\r1 may reason gravely ( ! impropriety ( 'excitem5t1' & ! man :o has nev] exp]i5c$ ! lib]ty ( deliv]ance f ! 'horrible pit1 & ! mire & clay1' may seem to be wise on ! subject ( ,*ri/ian joy2 b he kn[s x n4 ,! outbur/ ( joy 9 ! newly born *ild ( ,god1 is z undiscrim9at+ z ! joy\s mir? ( *ildr54 ,b x becomes m subdu$ z ! *ild gr[s on to '! conqu]+ "y man1' & m *a/5$ /ill :5 ! '"y man' atta9s to t /ate :i* ,/4 ,john t]ms 'fa!r4' ,?is ,i h no d\bt is ! k9d ( ,*ri/ian joy y expect to see1 & )\t :i* y are n satisfi$499 ,b1 de> fri5d1 rememb] ! p]fect ,temple 0 n built 9 "o1 b ?ree days4 99 ,i write unto y1 little *ildr51 because y\r s9s are =giv5 y = ,8 "n's sake4 ,i write unto y1 fa!rs1 because ye h kn[n ,him t is f ! beg9n+4 ,i write unto y1 "y m51 because ye h ov]come ! ,wick$ ,"o4--#a ,john #b3ab1 #ac4 ,we are at f\ndation "w2 & y rebuke u = an unf9i%$ temple6 ,y\r rebuke is n undes]v$ 9 "o s5se3 we ought to h atta9$ to great advancem5ts1 & to h begun long ago2 b ,god has _h pati5ce ) u4 ,9 ?is beg9n+' !re seems to be confusion to sup]ficial obs]v]s1 & !re mu/ be 'excitem5t2' b ?is1 z ,i said1 is n ! end 9 view1 or ! means we use4 ,x is n long s9ce ,i c\ld reason a aga9/ 'excitem5t1' & ?\ght z _m d n[1 t 9 connection ,) religion x is irrev]5t1 & unbecom+4 ,oh1 :at a sn>e is ?is unfeel+ 'propriety6' ,x is really a dislike ( be+ ar\s$ f sleep2 a fe>ful hugg+ ( oneself into apa!tic security1 & ly+ d[n 9 ! arms ( ! ,wick$ ,"o = a fatal slumb]4 ,oh t ,i c\ld 'excite' su* p]sons6 t ,i c\ld ar\se !m6 t by any means ,i c\ld awak5 ^! s\ls f ! sleep ( dea?6 ,i w\ld glory 9 ! c5sure & rejoice 9 ! blame4 ,w\ld t ,i c\ld rea* y\r he>t & ! he>ts ( _m ( my o!r bre?r52 t we might unite toge!r & raise a l\d] call6 ,!re %\ld be a m excit$ bla/1 z f a trumpet1 to /ir ! masses ( ^? :o come duly & regul>ly 'to he> u e ,sunday1' a l\d]1 /rong]1 & m urg5t & ?rill+ cry1 ,rep5t6 ,rep5t6 ,we want m fe>less pla9 speak+1 m p]sonal appeal4 ,x is n ref9$ to prea* ( ! grave & dea?1 judgm5t & hell1--x is 'rant+3' b nev]!less let u 'rant2' let u be fai?ful2 let u tell ! s9n] t he mu/ die2 & t he w die 9 8 s9s & p]i% = ev]1 except he rep5t & be conv]t$ t 8 s9s may be blott$ out4 ,let u tell him t he 'is condemn$ already1 because he ha? n believ$ 9 ! ,"n ( ! only-begott5 ,son ( ,god' 7,john #c3ah73 t '! wra? ( ,god abide? on him' 7v]se #ce74 ,in/ead ( argum5ts aga9/ 'excitem5t1' let u h a unit$ cry aga9/ s9 & frivolity :]ev] x is4 ,!re is excitem5t aga9/ 'excitem5t' n[2 let !re be excitem5t1 if y w1 aga9/ indiff]5ce1 & neglect ( religion4 ,_m ( ! proce$+s 9 our p>i% 71 ,i confess1 m tumultu\s ?an ,i c\ld ju/ify1 m noisy & excit+ ?an ,i ?\ght ne$ful2 b ,i c\ld n control ! p4 ,if !y _h be5 educat$ to ideas ( propriety & self-control1 ! impulse ( ,div9e p[]1 :i* really !n fill$ !m1 might h f\nd expression 9 a m quiet & ord]ly mann]4 ,to h9d] _! rejoic+s !re=e1 ?\gh !y 7 consid]$ s obnoxi\s1 w\ld h be5 to )/& ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,z ! p _h n be5 taught bett]1 ,i c\ld n int]f]e ) !m2 ,i w\ld r be> ! obloquy ( m54 ,= in/ance1 "o day1 by way ( *ange1 ,i _h a meet+ = ! ,bible ,society1 & invit$ "s ( ! cl]gy :o sympa?iz$ ) its object4 ,!y att5d$1 & o!rs came out ( curiosity to see ^! revival p4 ,we _h a l>ge ga!r+1 & ev]y?+ began smoo?ly4 ',my ,scripture-read]1 :o 0 naturally a mo/ excitable & noisy man1 tri$ to d 8 be/ be=e ! cl]gy2 he spoke ( ! sweet words :i* !y _h he>d f ! rev]5d speak]s2 x 0 *>m+1 he said1 to he> ( a good cause support$ 9 su* melliflu\s acc5ts1 & s =?4 ,he got a little wild t[>ds ! end1 b on ! :ole he 0 to be prais$ = 8 k9d ef=ts to give a quiet tone to ! meet+'4 ,by ?is "t1 our fri5d ,billy ,bray _h appe>$ on ! sc5e1 & gave u *apt] & v]se f "o end ( ! ,bible to ! o!r1 on ! subject ( danc+ = joy4 ,he prop\nd$ 8 !ory1 t if a man did n praise ,god1 he w\ld n rise 9 ! resurrection2 if he only prais$ ,god ) 8 m\?1 he w\ld rise l ^? ?+s c>v$ on ! tomb/ones1 ) swell+ *eeks & w+s2 if he clapp$ 8 h&s 7suit+ 8 actions to ! words7 he w\ld h a pair ( h&s z well at ! resurrection2 & if he danc$ ) 8 feet1 he w\ld rise complete4 ,he hop$ to rise l t1 to s+1 to clap 8 h&s1 dance1 & jump too4 ,! wor/ ( jump+ 9 ?is _w1 he said1 0 t he _h to come d[n aga91 b ev5 9 heav5 he suppos$ ! high] he danc$ & jump$1 ! high] he w\ld be2 walk+ 9 heav51 to 8 m9d1 0 prais+ ,god1 "o foot said ,glory1 & ! o!r ,hallelujah4 ,"u ,billy's orig9al !ories ! p 7 w>m+ up1 & becom+ a little responsive1 & ,billy himself 0 gett+ excit$4 ,9 ref]5ce to "s rem>ks :i* _h be5 made by a previ\s speak] ab\t ,samson1 he said t he felt z happy & /rong z ,samson2 !n sudd5ly he put 8 arms r\nd me1 z ,i 0 /&+ ge/iculat+ & mak+ signs to ! p to be /ill1 & tak+ me up z he _h done once be=e1 he c>ri$ me d[n ! s*oolroom1 cry+ out1 ,"h g ! po/es6 ,glory6 hallelujah6 ,x 0 useless to resi/1 = he held me ) an iron grasp2 s ,i rema9$ /ill1 hop+ at e /ep t he w\ld put me d[n4 ,i suppose he imag9$ himself to be ,samson c>ry+ (f ! gates ( ,gaza4 ',! p got :at !y call$ happy1 & %\t$ & prais$ ,god mo/ vocif]\sly4 ,i gave out a hymn1 b ! joy ( ! ,corni% p c\ld n be re/ra9$ )9 ! b\nds ( a tune1 or =m ( words4 ,"s ( !m became v excit$ & unmanageable2 only ^? :o h witness$ su* sc5es c und]/& :at ,i mean4 ,! p[] ( ,god 0 great1 ?\gh ! demon/rations 7 v human4 ,my visitors trembl$ ) fe>1 & made _! escape z precipitately z !y possibly c\ld4 ,to ^? :o are n 9 ! p[] ( ! ,_s su* rejoic+s are un9telligible2 look]s-on are /umbl$ or (f5d$ because !y only see & feel ! human manife/ation1 & n ! ,div9e p[]2 !y are l p :o get all ! smoke1 & none ( ! w>m? ( ! fire4 ,i made up my m9d = ! wor/1 = we _h a report] !re1 & "s o!rs :o 7 only too ready to make ! mo/ ( su* a sc5e4 ,nev]!less ,i w\ld r h ! same ?+ ov] & ov] aga91 ?an h ! mo/ /ately & ord]ly c]emonials conjo9$ ) spiritual dea?4 ,^! ?+s1 ) all _! proprieties1 are v *ill+ to liv+ s\ls1 & all ! m hurtful because dead s\ls are satisfi$ by !m in/ead ( be+ di/urb$4 ,de> ,mr4 ,aitk5 0 v angry ) u1 :5 he he>d ! ?+s :i* 7 report$2 &1 l a good spiritual fa!r1 he came ov] to tea* u bett]4 ,he prea*$ "o ( 8 own /rong s]mons1 on ! diff]5ce betwe5 emotion & pr9ciple1 & aft] beat+ u d[n v h>d1 8 de> he>t rel5t$1 & he tri$ to *e] & lift u up4 ,?is la/ is always an easy ?+ to d 9 ,cornwall4 ,! p soon respond$ to 8 ef=ts1 & began to praise ,god2 & !n he took fire1 & prais$ too4 ,mutually excit+ & be+ excit$1 8 p[]ful voice c\ld be he>d above ! d9 ( hundr$s ( %\t+ voices4 ,! de> man 0 happy 9 8 s\l1 & s 0 ,i1 & we did n c>e a halfp5ny = ! outside _w1 newspap]s1 or any?+ else4 ,we _h obloquy ) opposition2 & ev5 to my p]sonal fri5ds ,i c\ld n give satisfactory explanations ( ^! ?+s4 ,"o sugge/$ t ,i %\ld read a pap] at ! next ,cl]ical ,meet+1 & give a /atem5t 9 exposition ( my views & practices4 ,?is ,i cons5t$ to d1 & ,mr4 ,aitk5 k9dly help$ me to write x4 ,on ! appo9t$ day ,i und]took to read x1 on condition t no "o int]rupt$ me till ,i _h f9i%$4 ,x 0 a h>d task = !m to sit /ill1 b !y manag$ to d s2 & at ! end1 bur/ out ^u me 9 a volley ( c5sure & disapprobation4 ,i 0 oblig$ to tell !m t !y 7 n conv]t$1 & !re=e c\ld n und]/& ^! ?+s4 ,i wrote a pamphlet to %[ t ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&'s tea*+ 0 bas$ on conv]sion1 & n on baptism2 & t ! ,re=mation 0 to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& :at ,conv]sion 0 to ! individual re=m]s4 ,tak+ my own *ange z an illu/ration1 ,i said1 t ,i us$ to re/ on ,baptism & ! ,*ur*1 & t n[ ,i 0 /&+ on ! ,rock1 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,once ,i work$ = life1 & n[ ,i work$ f life2 t is1 because ,i possess$ x4 ,i decl>$ t ?is 0 ! *>act]i/ic diff]5ce betwe5 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& z x is1 & z x 0 :5 connect$ ) ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,?is pamphlet w\ld n satisfy !m4 ,i !n wrote & publi%$ a lett] to ! ,ar*deacon1 9 :i*1 9 my "y zeal1 ,i *>g$ ! cl]gy ) be+ unconv]t$1 & do+ ! devil's "w ( h9d]+ ! salvation ( s\ls1 & t !y seem$ to /& on _! p>i% b\nd>ies & say1 ,?is is my p>i%1 & y %all n come "h to di/urb ! sleep ( dea? :i* n[ reigns4 ,?is p\r$ no oil ^u ! wat]s4 ,i !n wrote ano!r pamphlet ^u :i* ,i sp5t mu* "t1 ?\ght1 & pray]4 ,i took ! manuscript & read x to ,mr4 ,aitk54 ,he walk$ up & d[n 9 8 l>ge room1 :ile ,i 0 read+1 & ejaculat$1 z only he c\ld1 ,bless ,god6 ,glory be to ,god6 ,:5 ,i f9i%$1 ,i said1 ,%all ,i pr9t x8 ,he said1 ,x is wor? pr9t+1 b x w d no good4 ,x is l a little doggie b>k+ at a dead elephant4 ,we %all nev] conv]t !4 ,*ur* z a body3 we mu/ try & get at individuals4 ,i am q conv9c$ we %all n succe$ unless we "w 9 ?is1 way4 ,,*apt] #ag ,individual ,cases1 #ahec4 ,an ,ar*bi%op ( ,cant]bury1 9 old times1 contra/$ public prea*+ ) p]sonal deal+ 9 ?is way3 ,:5 we prea*1 x is l da%+ wat] f a bucket ^u s _m vessels :i* are arrang$ be=e u-"s drops fall into "o1 & "s into ano!r1 :ile o!rs rema9 empty2 b :5 we speak to individuals1 x is l p\r+ wat] into ! neck ( a vessel4 ,i gave up writ+ & pr9t+ pamphlets1 & w5t on z quietly z ,i c\ld ) my own "w1 look+ out = individual cases z !y pres5t$ !mselves 9 ! provid5ce ( ,god4 ,9 ?is way1 )\t f]m5t+ controv]sy or keep+ up public excitem5t1 ,i 0 able m effectually to imp>t my mean+1 ?an by pr9t$ /atem5ts1 :i* ,i f\nd 7 misund]/ood or di/ort$2 & :at is m1 ,i 0 able to apply ! tru? ) an individual ,h y8 ,x w\ld take m space ?an ,i c af=d to tell ( ! s\ls :i* 7 ga9$ 9 ?is way4 ,i w give "h only a few in/ances1 :i* are int]e/+1 & :i* w su/a9 ! ?read ( my n>rative4 ,! fir/ 0 9 ! case ( "o :o began an argum5t on ,baptismal ,grace4 ,i ask$ him :at x 04 ,i "k :at conv]t+ or sav+' grace is2 b :at is ?is8 ,he did n say m1 ?an t 9 ,baptism he 0 made a memb] ( ,*ri/1 a *ild ( ,god1 & an inh]itor ( ! k+dom ( heav54 ,b1 ,i ask$1 suppose y h n rep5t$ & believ$1 :at !n8 ,receiv+ no answ]1 ,i cont9u$1 ,!n1 no?+2 b ! responsibility & ! "n4 ,a few days aft]w>ds he came to me1 say+ t ,i _h made him q mis]able1 & ask$ me :e!r ,i meant to d5y ! necessity ( baptism4 ,i said1 ,c]ta9ly n1 b ! condition ( fai? & rep5tance mu/ be fulfill$4 ,:atev] ,baptismal ,reg5]ation may be1 ,spiritual ,reg5]ation is ! "w ( ! ,_s 9 ^? :o believe 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,aft] a long talk & pray]1 he appe>$ to und]/& t a consci\s *ange %\ld be wr\ght 9 him1 & a spiritual faculty imp>t$1 by :i* he c\ld see ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,he rema9$ = ! ev5+ s]vice & meet+ 9 ! s*oolroom & 0 mu* impress$ ) :at he witness$4 ,in/ead ( go+ away1 he /ay$ ) me till aft] midnight1 :5 he f\nd peace ) ,god 7z he said7 9 ! *ur* :]e we _h be5 pray+4 ,!n he ord]$ 8 horse & rode home2 b be=e he set out1 he exact$ a promise f me t ,i w\ld n m5tion 8 conv]sion to any "o4 ,i cons5t$ to ?is1 on ! condition t he ann\nce ! *ange :i* _h be5 wr\ght 9 him1 f 8 pulpit on ! foll[+ ,sunday4 ,a few days aft]w>ds my fri5d came to me 9 a great rage1 & *>g$ me ) ann\nc+ 8 conv]sion all ov] ! t[n4 ,i told him t ,i 0 n sure en\gh ( x myself to say any?+ ab\t x1 & t ,i _h n spok5 to a s+le p]son on ! subject4 ,/ill he seem$ to d\bt me1 = he said 8 bro!r _h be5 ) him1 & _h told him t x 0 kn[n all ov] ! t[n t he _h be5 to ,baldhu1 & t he 0 conv]t$4 ,^u inquiry1 ,i f\nd out t my s]vant1 :o sat up till aft] mid-night to get 8 horse1 _h ov]he>d our conv]sation1 & 0 ! (f5d+ p>ty4 ,i am always afraid ( p]sons :o are a%am$ to ackn[l$ge _! conv]sion4 ,my fri5d1 ,i am sorry to say1 made no ann\ncem5t1 b w5t on prea*+ z if he _h always be5 ! same1 & consequ5tly nev] came out to be ( any use or help 9 ! "w4 ,8 te/imony 0 indi/9ct also1 & )\t any p[]4 ,he became a v popul> prea*] aft]w>ds1 :i* 0 8 great ambition1 = he c>$ m = a l>ge congregation ?an = ,w9+ ,s\ls4 ,soon aft] ?is1 ,i fell across ano!r ( my old fri5ds 9 ! /reet4 ,he tri$ to avoid me1 b ,i w5t up & %ook h&s ) him4 ,at fir/ he w\ld n look at me1 & said he 0 afraid ( me because ,i _h *ang$ my views4 ,i assur$ him t ,i _h n *ang$ any?+1 b t ,i _h myself be5 *ang$4 ,z he 0 li/5+1 ,i w5t on to tell him t ,i _h long tri$ to make myself good en\gh = ,god's acceptance1 b f9d+ t ,*ri/ w\ld n receive re=m$ *>act]s1 ,i came to ,him z a poor lo/ s9n]1 & ,he sav$ me4 ,see+ t he cont9u$ att5tive1 ,i 0 proce$+ to make my mean+ pla9]1 :5 he turn$ r\nd1 & look+ /]nly at me1 said1 ,if ,i und]/& y1 ,i am to cry = m]cy z 'a common s9n]4' ,yes1 ,i repli$1 be+ v pleas$ to f9d t he _h und]/ood me s well4 ,!n4 he said1 ,i w d no su* ?+4 ,) ?is1 he turn$ away & dep>t$4 ,:5 he saw t ,i 0 foll[+ him1 he said1 ,i desire y w n speak to me any m4 ,i d n agree ) y4 ,"o morn+1 a %ort "t aft]1 ,i 0 pray+ & m$itat+ 9 ! *ur*1 :5 x came to my m9d =cibly t ,i mu/ g to ?is man's p>i%4 ,i rose f my knees =?)1 say+ to myself t ,i w\ld g2 b imm$iately ! ?\ght came to me1 ,?is sugge/ion is n f ,god1 = ,he mu/ "k t my horse has lo/ two %oes1 & c\ld n g all t di/ance4 ,h[ev]1 ,i return$ home1 & w5t to ! /able to inquire1 :51 to my surprise1 ,i f\nd t my man _h tak5 ! horse out v e>ly 9 ! morn+1 & _h got him prop]ly %od4 ,he is all "r = a long j\rney1 ma/]1 he said1 if y want to g4 ,well1 ,i said1 put on ! saddle1 & be ready 9 half-an-h\r4 ,i w5t 9 to prep>e1 & />t$ 9 due "t4 ,on ! way ,i 0 ?9k+ :at ,i w\ld say1 & h[ ,i w\ld beg9 ! conv]sation1 = z yet ,i did n "k ! p>ticul> message ,i 0 to take4 ,:5 ,i arriv$ at my fri5d's gate1 ,i saw ! m>ks ( 8 horse's feet1 z if he _h j gone out4 ,h[ev]1 ,i rode up to ! front door1 & rang ! bell4 ,8 wife appe>$1 & said t h] husb& _h gone out1 & w\ld n be back be=e six o'clock2 %e add$1 ,y look disappo9t$2 & s ,i 01 = ,i ?\ght ! ,"l _h s5t me ) "s message to him4 ,! lady k9dly ask$ me to put up my horse1 say+1 ,p]haps he may return soon]2 y _h bett] re/ a little4 ,i ?ank$ h]1 & do+ s1 w5t 94 ,z soon z we 7 seat$1 ! lady said1 ,i h be5 wi%+ to see y = a long "t2 we h />t$ m ?an once to visit y1 :5 my husb&'s c\rage has fail$ him1 & we h return$4 ,he says t he loves y /ill2 b1 someh[1 he is v mu* afraid ( y4 ,!n %e w5t on to tell me t :5 !y 7 remov+ f _! late p>i% to :]e !y n[ 71 hav+ s5t all _! furniture on1 !y 7 driv+ 9 _! own c>riage2 & t com+ along ev] a bleak & desolate moor1 ! horse took fright at some?+1 !y knew n :at1 & ran away4 ,because x c\ld n get along fa/ en\gh f its imag9>y object ( fe>1 x began to kick1 & break+ ! c>riage 9 pieces1 made its escape1 leav+ h] & h] husb& on ! gr\nd4 ,he 0 n mu* hurt1 & soon rose1 & came to help h]4 ,%e 0 sev]ely bruis$1 & h] leg 0 brok5 besides4 ,he manag$ to drag h] g5tly to ! side ( ! road1 :]e !re 0 a little bank1 &1 collet+ "s ( ! brok5 pieces ( ! c>riage1 he plac$ !m r\nd h] = protection1 & hurri$ (f 9 ord] to get assi/ance4 ,he _h to g two miles & 0 abs5t ne>ly ?ree h\rs4 ,dur+ t "t %e suff]$ great pa91 b x came to h] m9d all at once t h] s9s 7 p>don$2 %e 0 exce$+ly happy1 & c\ld n help ?ank+ & prais+ ,god4 ,9 ?is /ate h] husb& f\nd h] :5 he return$1 & on he>+ h] talk1 became v unhappy1 because he ?\ght t besides h] leg1 h] head 0 brok5 too2 & t %e 0 go+ out ( h] m9d4 ,%e assur$ him ov] & ov] aga9 t %e 0 wond]fully well1 & really happy2 b he c\ld n be> to he> h] talk l t1 & said t he %\ld g mad also1 if %e did n /op4 ,dur+ ! six weeks %e 0 laid up1 he cont9ually br\ght doctors & cl]gym5 to talk h] out ( h] delusion z he ?\ght x1 b )\t avail4 ,h] happ9ess cont9u$ = sev]al mon?s1 & !n gradually di$ away4 ,%e ask$ me1 ,c y tell me ! mean+ ( ?is8 ,i 0 deeply int]e/$ ) h] exp]i5ce1 & told h] t ,i _h read ( a simil> "o only a few days be=e4 ,my he>t n[ began to *e] up1 = ,i saw :y ,i _h be5 s5t to ?is place4 ,i at once po9t$ h] to passages ( ,scripture1 :]e we are told t we h =giv5ess ( s9s ?r\gh ! blood ( ,jesus1 & ,i put ,*ri/ crucifi$ be=e h] z ! object ( fai?4 ,i told h]1 t z c]ta9ly z ! blood ,jesus _h be5 %$1 !re 0 m]cy & =giv5ess = h]4 ,i said1 ,i believe x1 & h =giv5ess3 & y may h x too2 n because y feel happy1 b because ,jesus di$4 ,%e did believe1 & we rejoic$ toge!r4 ,%e exclaim$1 ,oh t ! ,"l w\ld *ange my husb&'s he>t1 & br+ y "h = a revival6 ,v well1 ,i said1 let u ask ,him1 & we did s4 ,i !n rode home rais+ ,god4 ,be=e leav+1 ,i promis$ to come aga9 on ! foll[+ ,w$nesday4 ,i kept my ^w1 & _h an int]view ) h] husb&2 b x 0 n enc\rag+4 ,he said he c\ld n agree to ask = m]cy z a s9n]1 because he _h be5 baptiz$4 ,"s mon?s aft]w>ds 8 mans]vant came to me on horseback at ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+1 to say t 8 ma/] 0 v bad1 & w\ld ,i come z soon z possible & see him4 ,i ask$1 ,:at is ! matt]8 ,oh1 bless ! ,"l1 said ! man1 x'll all ab\t 8 s\l6 4444,t is "r ,i repli$1 ?ank+ ,god2 ,i w g ) y at once1 & imm$iately ,i saddl$ my horse1 & rode back ) him4 ,i f\nd my fri5d 0 "u deep conviction1 & 9 ! greate/ mis]y2 he n[ ?\ght t he 0 a mo/ uncommon s9n]1 & t !re 0 no m]cy = him1 !re c\ld n be any6 ,aft] a "t he ackn[l$g$ ! p[] ( ,god to =give s91 & decl>$ t he believ$ 9 ,*ri/1 & ,i 0 l$ to say he t believe? ha? ev]la/+ life4 ,^u ?is text he f\nd peace1 & we all prais$ ,god toge!r4 ,! ,sunday foll[+1 he ask$ ! congregation to ?ank ,god ) him = hav+ sav$ 8 s\l2 & 9 8 s]mon told !m some?+ ( 8 exp]i5ce4 ,subsequ5tly 8 *ur* became ! c5tre ( a "w ( ,god1 z ,mr4 ,aitk5's *ur* & m9e 7 9 our respective neighb\rhoods4 ,! p[] ( ! ,"l ov]%ad[$ ! place1 & !re 0 z usual a simultane\s melt+ ( he>ts all ov] ! p>i%1 & a runn+ toge!r ( ! p to he> ! ,^w1 & :at is bett] to obey x4 ,!n foll[$ a true ,corni% revival ) full manife/ations1 & ,mr4 ,aitk5 came to prea*4 ,! fire 0 burn+ & %9+ be=e2 b :5 ?is mighty man /irr$ x1 x rose to a trem5d\s height4 ,! excitem5t ( ! p>son & p 0 int5se1 & hundr$s ( s\ls 7 add$ to ! ,*ur*1 :o _h be5 br\ght f ! dea? ( s9 into ! life ( righte\sness :i* all ! previ\s prea*+ on ,baptism & ! ,"l's ,supp] _h fail$ to produce4 ,,*apt] #ah ,a ,visit to ,v]yan1 #ahec4 ,next1 ,i w tell ( a cl]gyman :o 0 altoge!r diff]5t to ! o!rs ,i h m5tion$4 ,he 0 "o to :om ,i 0 mu* atta*$1 al?\gh we 7 diametrically oppos$ to "o ano!r1 especially 9 my ,puseyite days4 ,he 0 ,evangelical2 ,i 0 ,high ,*ur*2 consequ5tly1 we fell out m or less1 at e meet+1 ?\gh we nev] really qu>rell$4 ,aft] my conv]sion ,i made sure ?is fri5d w\ld sympa?ize ) me2 b ,i f\nd to my disappo9tm5t he 0 9 reality m oppos$ n[ ?an be=e1 because ,i _h become1 z he call$ x1 a diss5t]4 ,he w\ld sc>cely speak to me1 & said1 he 0 n s sure ( my conv]sion z ,i 01 t he w\ld give me sev5 ye>s to prove x1 & !n pron\nce4 ,i said1 ,y are an old ba*elor1 & "k no?+ ab\t ! treatm5t ( babies2 we d n put our babies out on ! lawn = sev5 days be=e we decide :e!r !y are born or n6 ,he c\ld n resi/ jo9+ 9 ! laugh aga9/ 8 inexp]i5ce 9 ?is respect1 al?\gh he 0 n ov]-pleas$4 ,) all 8 head-k ( ,gospel tru?1 he _h n se5 any?+ ( ! "w ( ! ,_s1 & moreov]1 l too _m o!rs1 c\ld n di/+ui% betwe5 dea? & grave-clo!s4 ,because ,i ann\nc$ "s sacram5tal views aft] my conv]sion1 he fanci$ t ,i mu/ be dead /ill2 :]eas ^! 7 only ! grave-clo!s 9 :i* ,i us$ to be wrapp$4 ,we %all speak m ( ?is h]eaft]4 ,"o day1 he came to me & said1 ,i h be5 ?9k+ = "s "t t ,i %\ld l to come to y\r *ur* "o ,sunday1 & see y\r "w4 ,i agre$ to ?is ) ?anks1 z ! fir/ sign ( sympa?y ,i _h f\nd 9 him1 & said1 ,%all ,i g & take y\r s]vices 9 ex*ange8 ,oh no1 c]ta9ly n2 ,i wi% y to be pres5t 9 y\r own *ur*4 ,i w prea* 9 ! morn+2 & 9 ! ev5+ ,i w be !re to see & he> y4 ,we soon fix$ ^u ! day4 ,he came to d9n] ) u ! previ\s ,saturday1 b be=e he w\ld sit d[n he mu/ ne$s g into ! ,*ur*1 & adju/ ! height ( ! pulpit1 & see t all o!r ?+s 7 to 8 ta/e4 ,he ask$ me if ,i w\ld remove ! c&le/icks f ! communion table1 & let him prea* 9 a black g[n4 ,^! 7 all matt]s ( indiff]5ce to me n[1 s ,i readily acc$$ to 8 wi%es4 ,hav+ complet$ 8 arrangem5ts1 we sp5t a v pleasant ev5+ toge!r1 talk+ ov] ! "w 9 ! place1 & !n w5t to ! weekly pray]-meet+2 b he took no "p4 ,on ,sunday morn+ ! s]vice 0 conduct$ at 8 reque/1 9 ! usual mann]1 except+ t he /ood away 9 ! ea/]n corn] ( ! nor? side ( ! table1 scroot*+ away l a ,papi/1 z ! p describ$ x4 ,!y _h be5 accu/om$ to see me /& at ! we/]n or outside corn] ( ! nor? side4 ,he 0 mu* amus$ at ?is criticism4 ,!n he w5t into ! ve/ry1 hav+ ask$ = an int]lude on ! organ be=e ! la/ v]se ( ! ,psalms 7= we sang ! metrical v]sion 9 ^? days71 & :ile ?is 0 be+ play$ he came sail+ out aga91 & swept up ! /eps into ! pulpit4 ,he gave u an excell5t s]mon--prea*$1 z ! ,corni% p say1 to a =m1 t is ) a manuscript be=e him2 ?\gh he did n look at x mu*4 ,he %[$ x to me aft]w>ds2 x c]ta9ly 0 a curi\s ?+1 done 9 cyph]s & hi]oglyphics ( 8 own2 aga9 & aga9 !re appe>$ a figure ) two horns & a tail2 ?is1 he told me1 /ood = ,satan2 !re 7 also _m o!r /rik+ signs4 ,he prea*$ ) f> m animation ?an 0 8 wont1 & t[>ds ! end ( 8 s]mon seem$ to =get 8 manuscript altoge!r1 & lean$ ov] ! front ( ! pulpit1 ge/iculat+ ) 8 h&s1 & look+ at ! p4 ,!y got v excit$1 & foll[$ e s5t5ce ) "s response1 till he became excit$ also4 ,:5 he came d[n f ! pulpit1 he said t he _h nev] prea*$ ) su* help be=e2 he _h q enjoy$ 8 own s]mon1 & t n[ he ?\ght he und]/ood ! secret ( :at ,i call$ be+ conv]t$4 ,he came 9 ! aft]noon to ! cate*is+ ( ! *ildr51 & express$ himself v pleas$ ) _! behavi\r1 & read9ess 9 answ]+ que/ions4 ,9 ! ev5+1 he sat 9 a "p ( ! *ur* :]e he c\ld see ! congregation1 & ! prea*]1 & s make 8 desir$ obs]vations4 ,! s]vice 01 p]haps1 a little m animat$ ?an usual1 & ! s]mon may h be5 ! same4 ,aft] ?is 0 ov]1 he w5t ) me into ! s*ool-room1 :]e he he>d ! p pray1 & also ?ank ,god = ! morn+ s]mon4 ,sev]al s\ls 7 br\ght 9 t ev5+4 ,ab\t t5 o'clock at night we return$ home1 :5 my fri5d decl>$ he _h nev] kn[n a day l ?is 9 all 8 m9i/ry1 & nev] he>d ( su* ?+s z he _h se54 ,y\r congregation1 he said1 is l ! waves ( ! sea1 & m9e l a glassy mill-pond4 ,n[ ,i mu/ h y come & prea* 9 my *ur*4 ,i wond] :at ! effect w be4 ,i agre$1 & we fix$ ^u ! second ,sunday1 z he want$ a week to ann\nce my com+4 ,i 0 q eag] = ! "t1 & :5 ,saturday arriv$1 ,i set (f1 int5d+ to /ay = sev]al days4 ,on ,sunday morn+ ! *ur* 0 fill$ f end to end1 ! p be+ on ! tip-toe ( expectation4 ,_m anxi\s ones rema9$ aft] ! s]mon to be spok5 )1 ab\t _! s\ls4 ,! *ur* 0 sc>cely cle>$1 be=e ! m5 came to r+ ! bells = ! aft]noon s]vice4 ,?is "t1 ! passages1 *ancel1 pulpit-/airs1 & e available corn] 7 cr[d$1 & ! congregation c]ta9ly did n look l a mill-pond1 b m l ! waves ( ! sea4 ,at ! close ( ?is s]vice1 ! p begg$ = ano!r 9 ! ev5+4 ,! vic> said1 ,oh1 t is impossible1 = ,i d9e at six o'clock4 ,b1 ,i involunt>ily add$1 d n m9d ! d9n]2 ,i c come1 if y l4 ,he gave me su* a look6 ,i cont9u$1 ,i h _h d9n] en\gh = to-day4 ,i c take ! s]vice alone1 if y are agreeable4 ,b we h no lamps = ! *ur*4 ,x _c be4 ,i 0 sil5c$ n[1 & gave up ! po9t2 :5 ! *ur*w>d5 came =w>d & said he w\ld be responsible = light+ ! *ur*4 ,! vic> at la/ cons5t$1 on condition t he 0 all[$ to h 8 d9n] 9 peace4 ,z ! "t approa*$1 h[ev]1 he put (f t important meal1 & jo9$ me 9 a cup ( tea1 aft] :i* we w5t toge!r to ! ?ird s]vice4 ,?is "t x 0 z mu* z we c\ld d to get x1 & :5 we did succe$ a mo/ /rik+ sight pres5t$ itself4 ,! :ole *ur* 0 light$ f ! pews4 ,"s ( ! weal?i] p _h lamps1 b ! o!rs _h c&les1 "o1 two1 or m 9 _! respective comp>tm5ts4 ,f ! pulpit x look$ m l a m>ket sc5e ?an a *ur* congregation4 ,i _h lib]ty 9 prea*+1 & ! p 7 greatly mov$1 "s ( !m greatly agitat$-inde$1 s mu* s1 t ! vic> ?\ght he w\ld n h ano!r s]vice 9 ! *ur*1 & accord+ly ann\nc$ t ! ,monday ev5+ meet+ w\ld be held 9 a build+ :i* he nam$1 9 a village ab\t two miles (f4 ,?is 0 a l>ge b>n-l /ructure1 :]e !y cur$ fi% 9 ! season1 b at o!r times x 0 unoccupi$4 ,! next day happ5$ to be v wet1 &1 add$ to ?is1 9 ! ev5+ x began to bl[ z well4 ,not)/&+ ?is inclem5cy1 :5 we arriv$ at ! fi%-cell>1 z x 0 call$1 we f\nd x cramm$ ) p1 ! wom5 & *ildr5 occupy+ ! gr\nd1 & sitt+ !re on /raw1 :i* _h be5 provid$ = ! occasion1 ! m5 & boys 7 sitt+ on ! cross-beams ( ! ro(4 ,! heat 9 ! place 0 /ifl+ beyond all description1 = besides be+ d5sely cr[d$ bel[ & above1 ! wood5 %utt]s 7 %ut1 on acc\nt ( ! w9d & ra91 ! p's wet clo!s 7 /eam+1 & !re 0 a /rong smell ( /ale fi%4 ,at fir/ we felt z if x w\ld be impossible to be> x1 b aft] a little "t we became us$ to ! disagreeables1 & _h o!r ?+s to ?9k ab\t4 ,i gave out a hymn1 & aft] a %ort pray] comm5c$ ! address1 speak+ z l\d z ,i c\ld1 t all ! congregation might he> me4 ,dur+ ! s]mon1 ! responses 7 mo/ vocif]\s & he>ty1 & ! att5tion v enc\rag+4 ,aft] speak+ = ab\t ?irty m9utes1 ,i obs]v$ a tall1 f9e-look+ fi%]man1 9 l>ge high boots1 :o _h come 9 late4 ,he 0 /&+ 9 ! little vacant space be=e ! table1 on :i* 7 plac$ two c&les & a glass ( wat]4 ,i saw1 z ! address w5t on1 t ?\gh he 0 v quiet1 8 brea/ 0 heav+ ) emotion1 z if some?+ 0 pass+ 9 8 m9d4 ,all at once1 )\t a mom5t's notice1 he fell on ! gr\nd1 & bell[$ out a l\d pray] = ,god's m]cy--,i want ,god's m]cy6 ,besides upsett+ ! table--c&les1 wat]1 & all--:i* w5t d[n ) a great cra%1 he fell on "o or two wom51 :o scream$1 9 _! fright & con/]nation1 z only wom5 c4 ,if ?is _h be5 a preconc]t$ signal1 x c\ld n h be5 m effectual1 = !re 0 in/antly a simultane\s z well z an univ]sal outcry4 ,! :ole place 0 fill$ ) a confus$ d9 ( voices2 "s 7 pray+1 "s s++1 "s %\t+1 & o!rs exhort+1 & t at ! top ( _! voices1 9 ord] to be he>d4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is ,i began to s+ a hymn1 hop+ to re/ore ord]1 & _m jo9$ me2 b x only add$ m s\nd to ! upro>4 ,! good vic> 0 ov]:elm$ ) fe> & dismay1 z well he might be1 at ?is tumultu\s sc5e4 ,x 0 bad en\gh to /& & look at ! waves ( ! sea2 b :5 !y rose & broke1 z x 71 on ! %ore :]e he 0 /&+1 & surr\nd$ him1 x 0 altoge!r too mu*4 ,he made = ! door1 &1 wait+ !re1 beckon$ me to him4 ,:5 ,i came he sudd5ly op5$ x1 & drew me out1 say+1 ,!re w be no peace till y are out ( ?is place4 ,! extreme *ange f ! hot cell> into ! cold & pitiless w9d & ra9 0 s great1 t we fl$ precipitately to ! cottage :i* /ood opposite4 ,happily1 ! door 0 on ! lat*1 & we w5t 94 ,i felt ab\t 9 ! d>k = a *air1 b n f9d+ "o1 sat on ! table1 li/5+ to ! noise & d9 ( ! meet+4 ,! vic> va9ly ?\ght t ! tumult w\ld subside z soon z ,i 0 gone1 = he said t ,i made z mu* noise1 if n m1 ?an any ( !m6 ,he w5t back into ! /orm to get my hat & coat1 & also ! inevitable umbrella1 )\t :i* no "o c get on 9 ,cornwall4 ,he 0 a long "t abs5t1 dur+ :i* a man ) heavy boots came into ! d>k cottage :]e ,i 0 sitt+1 & tumbl+ d[n on a seat some:]e1 heav$ a heavy sigh4 ,he evid5tly did n suspect t any "o 0 !re4 ,aft] sigh+ & groan+ sev]al times1 he said to himself1 ,:at %all ,i d8--:at %all ,i d8 ,! man is "r1 sure en\gh2 he is "r1 ,i'm sure on x--t he is4 ,i disguis$ my voice1 & ask$1 ,:at man8 ,oh1 he said1 are y !re1 neighb\r8 ,c\ldn't y] get 98 ,:y1 ,i mean ! man :at's be5 speak+ inside4 ,:at did he say8 ,:y1 said he1 '! devil's no fool6' & ( c\rse he a9't4 ,he has hooks 9 all 8 baits1 & ,i h swall[$ lots o' !m4 ,oh1 :at %all ,i d8 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,!n ,i he>d him %uffl+ to 8 knees1 groan+ & pray+4 ,i sat /ill on ! table1 say+1 ,am56 am56 e n[ & !n1 to 8 pray]1 till he became t]ribly 9 e>ne/1 & at la/ got into a :i* ! ,corni% call wra/l+ 9 pray]4 ,9 ?is condition he 0 q pa/ he$+ any "o's pres5ce4 ,i help$ & guid$ him to ! ,crucifi$ & !n he f\nd peace1 & began to praise4 ,on com+ to himself1 he recogniz$ my voice4 ,y are ! v man1 he cri$1 & putt+ great heavy arms r\nd my neck1 he ne>ly /rangl$ me6 ,! vic> 7:o ,i did n "k 0 9 ! room71 "h int]pos$1 & got my release4 ,"h y are1 he said1 at x aga91 & !y are gett+ worse & worse 9 ! b>n--:at ev] is to be done8 ,we _c g home ?r\gh ?is ra91 & ! c>riage w n be "h = at lea/ an h\r4 ,:at am ,i to d8 ,i said1 ,let u g !n to ! b>n = a %ort "t1 j to see h[ !y are gett+ on4 ,aft] "s hesitation1 he w5t 9 ) me1 & f\nd ! p pray+ & rejoic+2 b1 z ,i expect$1 f> too mu* absorb$ to obs]ve our pres5ce4 ,aft] a "t1 "s ( ! lads notic$ me & cri$ out lu/ily1 ,! p>son is "h6 ,! p>son is "h6 & 9 a mom5t we 7 surr\nd$ by a numb] ( happy p1 :o 7 s demon/rative t !y made ! poor vic> tremble 7z he told me aft]w>ds7 ) a /range fe>4 ,!y said1 ,y w come aga9 to-morr[8 ,c]ta9ly1 ,i repli$4 ,oh1 no1 rejo9$ ! vic>2 on no acc\nt4 ,"o night ( ?is "w is q en\gh--m ?an en\gh4 ,i 0 v lo? to give up2 b a man said1 ,nev] m9d1 we w c>ry x on4 ,?is revival w n /op = a week or =tnight1 = c]ta94 ,?is 0 t]rify+ news = ! vic>1 :o turn$1 & look+ at me ) a/oni%m5t1 said1 reproa*fully1 ,h[ did y d x8 ,i repli$1 ,?is is n my "w4 ,i did n beg9 x1 nei!r c ,i /op x2 nor w\ld ,i1 ev5 if ,i c\ld4 ,i d>e n4 ,i h kn[n p]sons br\ght "u heavy judgm5t = h9d]+ a revival4 ,take my advice1 & d n h9d] ?is4 ,let ^! m5 g on2 !y "k :at !y are ab\t4 ,soon ! c>riage came1 & we return$ to ! vic>age2 b ! de> man 0 mu* put out1 & evid5tly v sorry t he _h ask$ me to come & di/urb 8 mill-pond4 ,inde$1 he said z mu*2 s ,i conclud$ my visit ! next morn+4 ,go+ ?r\gh ! village1 ,i he>d t ! meet+ on ! previ\s ev5+ 0 cont9u$ until two o'clock 9 ! morn+1 & t x 0 ann\nc$ !re w\ld be "o 9 ! *apel t ev5+4 ,z ! ,*ur* refus$ ! bless+1 !re 7 o!rs :o 7 happy to receive x4 ,i return$ home soon] ?an ,i 0 expect$1 & told my p1 at ! ev5+ meet+1 ! ?+s ,i _h se5 & he>d2 & !y glorifi$ ,god4 ,,*apt] #ai ,a ,mission 9 ! ,%ires4 #ahec4 ,at ! "t ( :i* ,i am writ+1 tw5ty-six or tw5ty-sev5 ye>s ago1 special s]vices = prea*+ 7 n call$ by ! "n ( ,missions4 ,i ?9k t ^w has be5 d]iv$ f "s ,roman ,ca?olic p]v]ts1 :o made aggressive ef=ts 9 ,london1 :i* !y call$ ,ca?olic ,missions4 ,f !m x has be5 adopt$ by "s :o love to copy ,rome & ,romi% phrases4 ,/range infatuation1 by :i* ^! ,romaniz]s 9 va9 c\rt a ,*ur* :i* despises !m1 & gives !m nei!r place nor qu>t]6 ,h[ev]1 ! ^w is n[ well und]/ood1 & its mean+ is pla9] ?an any def9itions ( m9e c\ld make x4 ,my fir/ j\rney to =eign p>ts 7z ! ,corni% call x7 0 to a t[n 9 ,devon%ire1 :]e ,i /opp$ ?ree or f\r days4 ,! day ,i arriv$ ,i prea*$ 9 ! *ur*1 because x 0 ! regul> ev5+ s]vice2 special s]vices 7 n !n kn[n1 unless x 0 = "s ,mission>y ,society1 or o!r su* advocacy4 ,! idea ( prea*+ to awak5 s\ls1 0 consid]$ v /range & fanatical4 ,! *ur* ,i prea*$ 9 _h high pews1 :i* prev5t$ my see+ ! occupants4 ,i 0 told t x 0 full1 & c]ta9ly !re 7 faces visible "h & !re2 b ! :ole congregation 0 s /ill1 t ! dropp+ ( ! prov]bial p9 might h be5 he>d4 ,x 0 all v *ill+ & dead1 no ,am5s6 or ,glory6 z 9 ,cornwall2 inde$1 ! /illness _h su* an effect ^u me1 t ,i f\nd x difficult to get on4 ,aft] mak+ two or ?ree h>d appeals1 & meet+ ) no?+ b sil5ce = a response1 ,i conclud$1 & came away mu* disappo9t$ & di%e>t5$4 ,h[ev]1 ! next morn+1 ! vic> %[$ me "s beads1 lea!rs1 & fl[]s :i* _h be5 left 9 ! pews ( ! *ur*4 ,s ,i f\nd t ! %ots _h hit some:]e1 or some?+4 ,walk+ ?r\gh ! t[n 9 ! c\rse ( ! day1 a tall mason1 ) a l>ge :itewa% bru% 9 8 h&1 came runn+ aft] me 7n to :itewa% me7 b to ask ! "q1 :i* he did mo/ eag]ly1 ,are y ! man t prea*$ la/ night8 ,i said1 ,yes1 ,i am4 ,oh1 he repli$1 w y prea* tonight8 ,i answ]$ him some:at d\btfully1 ,i suppose n1 = ! vic> did n "k :at excuse !re c\ld be = my prea*+ a second "t4 ,he cont9u$1 ,w y come to my h\se & prea* ?is ev5+8 ,i h a good l>ge room at y\r s]vice1 & c promise y a congregation4 ,i ass5t$2 s we fix$ ! "t1 & made all o!r necess>y arrangem5ts4 ,on com+ d[n 9 ! ev5+1 ,i f\nd my mason fri5d _h invit$ 8 neighb\rs1 & f9d+ m _h promis$ to come ?an 8 room w\ld hold1 he _h op5$ ! fold+ doors betwe5 two rooms up/airs1 tak5 d[n ?ree l>ge b$/eads1 & hav+ borr[$ =ms & *airs1 he 0 able to accommodate sev5ty p4 ,z _m z ?is came1 & m1 = m5 & wom5 /ood on ! /airs & l&+ besides4 ,we sang he>tily1 & aft] pray]1 ,i felt a little m at home ?an ,i _h done on ! previ\s ev5+'2 b x 0 n up to ,cornwall yet6 ,9 my address ,i _h lib]ty & p[] to hold ! p1 & we _h "s conv]sions t ev5+1 & ! foll[+ "o also4 ,my mason fri5d 0 greatly *e]$ & reviv$1 & f ?is "t began rea*+ himself1 c>ry+ on meet+s 9 v>i\s cottages & f>m places4 ,f !re ,i w5t on into ,dorset%ire1 & arriv$ at ! vic>age to :i* ,i 0 go+1 r late on ,saturday night1 v tir$2 s mu* s1 t ,i 0 glad to g to b$ z soon z possible4 ,on ,sunday morn+ ,i w5t to *ur* & prea*$ to a l>ge congregation1 ! words :i* ,god gave me4 ,on com+ out1 ! vic>'s wife said1 ,if ,i _h sat up all night tell+ y ab\t ! p1 y c\ld n h prea*$ m appropriately2 inde$1 ,i am sure t "s ( !m w ?9k t ,i told y :at to say4 ,x 0 s1 = ?is same lady 0 *>g$ ) tell+ me to put be=e "s ( ! congregation ?+s :i* h] husb& d>$ n6 ,9 ! ev5+ ! *ur* 0 cramm$ to excess1 & ! p 7 mo/ att5tive & eag]4 ,"s ( !m c\ld sc>cely re/ra9 _! feel+s1 s p[]fully did ! ,^w come home to !m4 ,at ! conclusion ( ! s]vice1 ,i ann\nc$ t ,i _h come !re to prea* e night = ! week1 & w\ld visit !m dur+ ! day4 ,accord+ly 9 ! morn+ ,i call$ at sev]al cottages1 9 "o ( :i* ,k+ ,george ! ,?ird us$ to att5d a pray]-meet+ ) ! c\ntry p4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i w5t to ! convict prison at ,portl&4 ,x 0 sad to look ^u ! prison]s clank+ ab\t 9 _! *a9s1 _m ( :om 7 employ$ 9 mak+ a road to ! sea4 ,i c\ld n help say+ to ! *apla91 :o 0 walk+ ) me1 ,:at a picture is t6 ,x is exactly h[ ,satan employs unbeliev]s to make _! own road to hell4 ,z su*1 !y are condemn$ already1 because !y d n believe 9 ,*ri/2 & = ! same reason1 _! s9s n be+ p>don$1 !y are b\nd 9 *a9s4 ,well1 said ! *apla9 drily1 t seems all cle> & scriptural4 ,w\ld y l to speak to !m8 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i %\ld4 ,he !n made a sign to ! w>d]1 :o comm&$ t ! convicts %\ld give att5tion1 & ! ord] 0 at once obey$4 ,/&+ on ! bank1 ,i spoke to !m z !y 7 assembl$ be=e me2 b in/ead ( tell+ !m ( ! devil & *a9s1 z ! *apla9 expect$1 ,i spoke ( ,god's love to s9n]s1 & said t *a/isem5t & sorr[s 7 n s5t 9 ang]1 b 9 k9dness4 ,god is angry :5 ! wick$ are all[$ to g on unpuni%$2 b :5 puni%$ 9 ?is _w1 x is n = expiation ( s9 7= only ! blood ( ,jesus c d t71 b = ! purpose ( awak5+ & humbl+ ! transgressor1 t he may ) contrite he>t return to ! ,"l1 :o alone is able to deliv] u f s9 & f ,satan's p[]4 ',x is good1' said ! ,psalmi/1 't ,i h be5 afflict$3 be=e ,i 0 afflict$ ,i w5t a/ray1 b n[ h ,i kept ,?y ^w4' ,_m ( ! m5 7 s affect$1 t !y sobb$ al\d1 & ,i c\ld sc>cely refra9 f do+ ! same ?+ myself4 ,aft] ?is ,i pray$ t ! ^w spok5 might be bless$ to ^? :o _h he>d x1 & !n took my leave4 ,x 0 n easy to dismiss ?is sad sc5e f my m9d1 nor h ,i ev] lo/ ! impression x made ^u me4 ,we _h a v good "t t ev5+ 9 ! *ur*1 & !re 0 mu* p[] & bless+4 ,at ! close ( ! s]vice1 ,i gave out t ,i w\ld prea* aga9 ! foll[+ ev5+1 & hav+ no opportunity = an aft]-meet+1 ! ^w prea*$ 0 left ) pray] = a bless+ on x4 ,! next morn+ !re came an unexpect$1 z well z a mo/ abrupt1 opposition to ! "w2 & no wond]1 = x 0 n likely t ,satan w\ld p]mit x to g on smoo?ly4 ,a vic> f ! neighb\rhood1 :o _h =m]ly be5 a milit>y man1 & _h /ill ! comm&+ mann] ( su*1 pres5t$ himself1 & tri$ to t]rify my good & k9d fri5d1 ! vic>4 ,he told him t he _h he>d a great deal ab\t me2 t ,i 0 j l ,/>kie199 & prea*$ ! same doctr9es2 & t he 0 deput$ by o!r cl]gym5 to come & ask t my prea*+ be /opp$4 ,!n he w5t on to say t ,i 0 no?+ less ?an a ,jesuit 9 disguise2 & turn+2 to me1 he said1 ,sir1 y "k y are6 ,i repli$1 begg+ 8 p>don1 ,i c assure y ,i am n4 ,y mu/ be altoge!r mis9=m$4 ,b he said1 aga9 turn+ r\nd1 & /]nly look+ at me1 ,y "k ,i am n mi/ak5 or mis9=m$2 y\r c\nt5ance betrays y6 ,i smil$ at ?is1 n kn[+ h[ my c\nt5ance look$4 ,he 0 q satisfi$ ) himself1 & r m s because he ?\ght he _h succe$$ 9 extract+ a promise f ! vic> t ! s]vices 9 "q %\ld be /opp$4 99 ,a cl]gyman :o _h associat$ himself ) ,h4 ,j4 ,pr9ce & "s o!rs1 & f\nd$ ! ,agapemone at ,spaxton1 ne> ,bridgewat]4 ,?is (fic]-cl]gyman !n w5t away1 say+ t he 0 q conv9c$ 9 8 m9d t ,i 0 a ,jesuit1 & no?+ %\ld ev] dissuade him2 ?is int]view _h confirm$ 8 ?\ghts on ! subject4 ,my de> good fri5d 0 s afraid ( t l\d1 ov]be>+ man1 t he cons5t$ to give up ! s]vices aft] t night4 ,pres5tly ano!r cl]gyman1 evid5tly 9 conc]t ) ! =m]1 call$ on ! same err&4 ,8 m g5tle mann] & plausible words _h great] effect1 s t ! vic> m ?an half decid$ to h no s]vice1 ev5 on t ev5+4 ,be=e he _h fully made up 8 m9d1 x s happ5$ t !re came on a trem5d\s ?und]/orm1 accompani$ ) hail & vivid fla%es ( lightn+4 ,?is 0 consid]$ by him q provid5tial1 & an indication t ,god wi%$ ! s]vices /opp$4 ,:5 ! sexton came ov] to ! vic>age1 a little be=e ! s]vice "t1 ! vic> said1 ,don't r+ ! bell = *ur* tonight2 x is ( no use3 no "o c possibly come out ?is wea!r6 ,:y1 sir1 said ! sexton1 ! *ur* h be5 cramm$ full ?is half-h\r4 ,x's no use r++ ! bell1 sure1 = we a9't got no room = no m p4 ,n[1 t is rem>kable1 said ! vic>4 ,i d ?9k1 aft] all1 ! ,"l w\ld h u g on4 ,:at d y ?9k8 he said1 turn+ to me4 ,i repli$1 ,)\t d\bt ,i ?9k s4 ,i _c suppose t ! ,"l w\ld s5d su* m51 9 su* a tone1 to /op ,8 "w4 ,well1 !n1 said ! vic>1 we w g on till ! end ( ! week4 ,b ?is c\ld n be2 = 9 ! morn+1 z soon z he _h decid$ to /op ! s]vices1 ,i sat d[n & wrote to a c\s9 ( m9e1 9 ! neighb\rhood 7& ! lett] _h gone71 to get me ! p>i% *ur* = ! next ev5+1 & said1 ,i w\ld come to h] on a visit = a few days1 z my prea*+ 9 ?is place 0 br\ght to an end4 ,i spoke t ev5+1 & ann\nc$ t ,i w\ld d s aga9 on ,?ursday4 ,on ! foll[+ day ,i w5t on ?is promis$ visit to ano!r "p ( ! c\nty1 & 0 n long 9 ! company ( my c\s91 be=e ,i f\nd out t %e _h be5 br\ght up 9 ,evangelical doctr9es1 & hat$ ,puseyism2 b t %e _h nev] be5 conv]t$4 ,9 ! ev5+1 we w5t to ! ,m9/] ,*ur*1 ! use ( :i* %e _h obta9$ = me4 ,!re1 ,i prea*$ f ! words1 ,behold1 ,i /& at ! door & knock4 7,i did n "k !n1 z ,i old n[1 t ?is is a text = believ]s47 ,accommodat+ x = my purpose1 ,i made out t _m p ass5t$ to evangelical doctr9es1 )\t yield+ to !m3 t is1 !y he>d ! knock+1 b did n op5 ! door & receive ! ,savi\r2 !re=e1 !y rema9$ unsav$2 & if !y di$ l t1 w\ld be lo/ = ev]6 ,:5 ,i fir/ asc5d$ ! pulpit1 :i* /ood outside ( a high *ancel scre51 ,i look$ t[>ds ! nave1 & saw x fill$ ) high pews1 :i*1 z ,i ?\ght1 7 = ! mo/ "p empty2 :]eas1 ,i c\ld see t ! *oir & *ancel1 :i* 0 brightly light$1 0 full ( *oir-m5 & boys1 besides _m p2 s in/ead ( turn+ my back ^u ! _m 9 ! light$ *ancel1 & address+ myself to ! unse5 few 9 ! l>ge d>k nave1 ,i turn$ r\nd 9 ! pulpit1 &1 look+ ?r\gh ! scre51 ,i prea*$ to ^? ,i c\ld see4 ,! p 9 ! nave1 h[ev]1 7 mo/ att5tive to he>2 & aft] ! s]mon came up & ask$ me :y ,i _h turn$ my back on !m1 = !y c\ld n he> all ,i said4 ,evid5tly !y _h he>d some?+ :i* _h int]e/$ !m4 ,see+ s _m 7 anxi\s1 we invit$ ^? :o wi%$ = fur!r help1 or in/ruction1 to come home ) u4 ,_m did s1 & we held a k9d ( aft]-meet+1 9 :i* my c\s9 & sev]al o!rs f\nd peace4 ,i c\ld n promise to /ay !re any long]1 hav+ settl$ to return on ,?ursday to resume s]vices 9 ! *ur* previ\sly ref]r$ to4 ,accord+ly ,i w5t back to a neighb\r+ t[n1 :]e my good vic> _h appo9t$ to meet me4 ,he did s1 &1 )\t delay1 comm5c$ tell+ me1 t he _h _h a long talk ) "s ( 8 bro!r cl]gym51 & _h giv5 8 ^w t ! s]vices 7 positively to be discont9u$ aft] t night2 he also told me he _h tak5 my place by ! coa*1 & t ,i 0 to />t = ,exet] ! next morn+1 on my way home4 ,!n he w5t on to say t he f\nd x w\ld be dang]\s to keep me any long]1 = he %\ld h ! :ole neighb\rhood up ab\t x4 ,9 8 timidity1 he w\ld r let ! "w /op1 ?an be embroil$ ) ! neighb\rhood6 ,! ev5+ s]vice 0 cr[d$1 & ! p 7 v disappo9t$ t ,i 0 n all[$ to rema94 ,h[ev]1 ,i told !m x c\ld n be1 & t ,i mu/ g--s took leave ( !m4 ,! next morn+ we rose e>ly1 & breakfa/$ at six o'clock1 !n drove out to ! turnpike road1 to meet ! coa* at an appo9t$ corn]1 at sev54 ,x arriv$ 9 due "t1 pil$ up high into ! air ) pass5g]s & luggage2 b hav+ an inside place secur$ = me1 we 7 n dismay$ at ! outside appe>ance4 ,! coa*man got (f ! box1 &1 in/ead ( op5+ ! coa* door z we expect$1 put "s money into my h&1 &1 ) a gr9n+ c\nt5ance1 said1 ,!re's y\r money1 sir4 ,sorry to say c't take y today2 ha9't got a crevice ( room any:]e4 ,good morn+1 sir4 ,9 a mom5t m he 0 up on 8 box1 ) re9s 9 h&4 ,take y tomorr[1 sir1 same "t4 ,good morn+4 ,& (f he w5t'4 ,imag9e our surprise at be+ left on ! roadside 9 ?is unc]emoni\s way4 ,my good little vic> 0 mo/ indignant at be+ ?us treat$4 ,i'll make him pay = t1 he said4 ,i'll puni% him--x's aga9/ ! law4 ,& !n1 z if a new ?\ght _h sudd5ly come to him1 he said1 ,ah1 ,i "k :at we w d6 ,jump into ! c>riage aga92 & putt+ my luggage 91 he got up1 & drove me to ! next t[n4 ,he said1 ,we w take a po/-*aise1 & make ! coa* p pay = x2 t's x--t's :at we w d4 ,i sugge/$ t ,i did n ?9k we c\ld d t1 hav+ receiv$ ! money back4 ,ah1 t's no?+1 he said2 t's no?+4 ,we w take a po/-*aise4 ,?is s*eme 0 prev5t$2 = on arriv+ at ! hotel1 !re 0 n a c>riage ( any k9d to be _h4 ,are y sure ( t8 said ! vic> 7z if all ! _w 0 9 league ) ! coa* proprietor74 ,are y q sure8 ,y _h bett] come & see = y\rself1 said ! o/l]1 9 a surly tone4 ,we w5t into ! y>d1 & f\nd ! coa* h\ses q empty4 ,t's v rem>kable1 said ! vic>2 b ^! p are connect$ ) t coa*--x *anges horses "h4 ,we w g to ! next inn4 ,!re !y did n let out c>riages at all6 ,well n[1 said ! vic>1 ?is is v rem>kable1 & 0 sil5t4 ,p]haps ! ,"l does n mean me to g today1 ,i said meekly4 ,x seems s1 c]ta9ly4 ,i mu/ say x is v rem>kable4 ,i sugge/$ t ,i w\ld /ay at ! inn till ! next morn+1 z !re 0 no means ( gett+ on4 ,%all ,i d s8 ,oh1 no2 c]ta9ly n--c]ta9ly n1 said ! k9d man4 ,n at all--n at all4 ,we w g back aga94 ,b1 ,i said1 :at w !y ?9k :5 !y see me8 ,poor de> man1 l _m o!rs he 0 dreadfully fright5$ at ! ?\ght ( :at w !y ?9k8 ,z if !y did n g on ?9k+ :e!r "o gives !m occasion or n4 ,9 due c\rse1 we arriv$ aga9 9 sight ( ! vic>age gate1 & !re we saw ! vic>'s wife1 ) h] h&s up 9 a/oni%m5t4 ,%e exclaim$1 ,:at6 are y come back8 ,yes1 we are inde$6 said ! vic>1 & he 0 go+ to tell h] h[ x 01 b %e 0 too impati5t to li/51 hav+1 z %e ?\ght1 some?+ m important to communicate4 ,%e said1 ,aft] y w5t away ?is morn+1 ! wea!r be+ s f9e1 ,i ?\ght t ,i w\ld g into ! village1 & see "s ( ! p :o 7 at *ur* la/ ev5+4 ,9 pass+ by wid[ ,s4's cottage1 on my way to ano!r1 ,i saw h] door & w9d[ op51 & he>d h] pray+ v e>ne/ly1 ',"l1 br+ him back6 br+ him back6' ,i ?\ght %e 0 pray+ ab\t h] husb&1 :o _h rec5tly di$2 & t ,i w\ld g 9 & try to com=t h]4 ,s ,i knelt d[n by h] side1 & repeat$ ! words1 ',i %all g to him1 b he %all n return to me1' :5 %e turn$ r\nd' & said1 ',oh1 ,i don't mean t6' & !n1 z if %e grudg$ e brea? :i* 0 sp5t 9 o!r words1 %e w5t on repeat+1 ',"l1 br+ him back6 ,"l1 br+ him back6' ',:o d y mean8' ,i said1 ':at c y mean8' ,%e w5t on1 ',o ,"l1 ,i saw him g away4 ,i saw !m take him away4 ,"l1 br+ him back6 br+ him back6' ,i aga9 said1 ',:o d y mean8' ,%e took no he$1 b w5t on1 ',o ,"l1 :5 ,i op5$ ! w9d[ ,i saw him com+ out ( ! vic>age gate4 ,"l1 br+ him back6 d br+ him back6' ,at la/ ,i und]/ood t %e 0 pray+ = y to be br\ght back4 ,!n ,i said to h]1 ',de> woman1 d get f y\r knees1 & let me talk to y4' ,no1 %e w\ld n get up4 ,no1 ,i c't get up4 ,"l1 br+ him back6 br+ him back6' ,x _c be1' ,i said2 'he is on ! coa* by ?is "t--a long way (f4' ,! woman became frantic at ! ?\ght4 ',oh1 :at %all ,i d8 :at %all ,i d8 ,"l1 br+ him back6' ,see+ t ,i c\ld d no?+ 9 ! matt]1 ,i w5t to call on "s o!r p1 & com+ back f\nd ! wid[ /ill on h] knees1 urg+ ! same petition )\t /opp+4 ,well1 t is rem>kable1 int]pos$ ! vic>4 ,)\t a mom5t's pause1 ,i set (f to %[ myself to ! wid[4 ,n[6 !re y are1 %e said2 ! ,"l has s5t y back4 ,i laid awake be/ "p ( ! night1 ?9k+ ( "s que/ions ,i wi%$ to ask y2 & :5 ,i saw y g away l t1 s e>ly 9 ! morn+1 x gave me q a turn4 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld be lo/ = ev]6 ,h] que/ions conc]n$ h] s\l's condition4 ,on my putt+ ,*ri/ & ,8 salvation be=e h] = h] acceptance1 %e f\nd peace2 & aft]w>ds became a good help] 9 ! p>i%4 ,!re 7 "s o!r anxi\s ones %e urg$ me to visit1 :i* ,i did4 ,on ref]r+ to my lett]s1 writt5 at ! "t1 ,i f9d a record ( five p]sons :o pr(ess$ to f9d peace t morn+4 ,9 ! ev5+1 we _h a k9d ( s]vice 9 ! s*ool-room1 ) z _m z we c\ld get toge!r1 & sp5t a v happy "t 9 pray] & praise4 ,! next morn+ ,i />t$ = home1 :i* ,i rea*$ late on ,saturday night1 or r e>ly on ,sunday morn+1 & appe>$ q unexpect$ly among my p aga94 ,i gave !m an acc\nt ( ! /ate ( ?+s 9 ! %ires4 ,?is1 my fir/ exp]i5ce ( =eign missions1 0 n enc\rag+4 ,ev] s9ce my conv]sion1 ,i _h be5 ov] head & e>s 9 conv]sion "w1 &1 z a loyal "y conv]t1 ?\ght at t "t !re 0 no?+ else 9 ! _w to live1 or "w =6 ,h[ surpris$ ,i 0 :5 ,i f\nd t ?is 0 n by any means ! fir/ ?+ 9 ! m9ds ( my ,evangelical bre?r52 & m s /ill :5 ,i saw t ev5 prea*+ = ! salvation ( s\ls 0 put aside altoge!r1 if 'x did n fit 9 ) ! /at$ s]vice-day ( ! week1 or public op9ion4 ,if p came to *ur*1 or bett] /ill1 to ! communion table1 !y 7 consid]$ q satisfactory en\gh1 ev5 ?\gh !y 7 dead 9 trespasses & s9s4 ,i did n1 ( c\rse1 expect any?+ f my own neighb\rs1 = ,i knew !m ( old2 b f accr$it$ /&>d be>]s1 ,i did expect some?+ & got no?+4 ,:ile ,i 0 /ill feel+ sore & disappo9t$1 int5d+ n to g out on su* err&s any m1 ,i f\nd myself promis$ to ano!r mission 9 a mo/ unexpect$ mann]2 b ?is did n happ5 to be out ( ,cornwall1 & !re=e prosp]$ bett]1 z we %all see4 ,,*apt] #bj ,a ,/rang] f ,london1 #ahec4 ,a lady 9 ,london1 read+ 9 ! ,corni% newspap]s ab\t our revivals1 became mu* int]e/$1 & hav+ a /rong desire to witness su* a movem5t p]sonally1 propos$ a visit to h] uncle 9 ,truro1 :o _h s5t h] ^? pap]s4 ,be+ accept$1 %e came d[n a long way 9 ^? days1 :5 railway communication 0 n s complete z x is n[4 ,?is same lady 0 pres5t at my *ur* on ,sunday morn+2 & express+ a wi% to att5d ! aft]noon s]vice1 we gladly welcom$ h] to ! p>sonage4 ,9 c\rse ( conv]sation1 %e spoke ( *ur*es 9 ,london :]e ! ,gospel 0 prea*$ 9 its fullness2 & ,i naturally ask$ h] :e!r !y _h aft]-meet+s4 ,%e said1 %e did n "k :at ,i meant4 ,pray] meet+s1 = conv]sion "w1 ,i mean4 ,:at is t8 %e inquir$4 ,is n conv]sion ,god's "w8 ,yes1 ,i answ]$1 inde$ x is2 b s is ! h>ve/ yond] 9 ! corn-fields3 x is all ,god's "w1 b m5 h to pl\gh ! gr\nd & s[ ! se$4 ,oh1 is t :at y call revival "w8 ,i h read ( x2 &1 to tell ! tru?1 ,i h come all ! way f ,london to see x4 ,%e evid5tly _h an idea t revivals 7 some?+ l ?und]-/orms1 :i* come ( !mselves1 no "o kn[s h[ or :y2 or some?+ t is v5t$1 l an occasional eruption ( ,m\nt ,vesuvius4 ,i said1 ,revivals--t is1 ! refre%5+ ( believ]s & ! awak5+ ( s9n]s--ought to take place :]ev] ! ,gospel is prea*$ 9 fai? & p[]4 ,%e c\ld n und]/& x1 & said1 ,x is n s 9 *ur*es1 is x8 ,yes1 ,i repli$1 9 *ur*es z well z 9 cottages1 halls & *apels too4 ,i am sure ,mr4 ---- 9 ,london prea*es a full ,gospel1 b ,i h nev] he>d ( a revival !re2 inde$1 ,i feel conv9c$ !y w\ld n all[ x4 ,is he conv]t$8 ,i ask$4 ,%e smil$ at ! "q1 & said1 ,i suppose he is4 ,i mean1 does he prea* ab\t ! =giv5ess ( s9s8 &1 m ?an ?is1 does he expect p to h =giv5ess8 ,%e said %e c\ld n und]/& my ,corni% way ( talk+--,!y d n speak l t 9 ,london4 ,y\r s9s are p>don$1 ,i said1 by way ( explanation1 9 ord] to get h] to compreh5d my mean+ f h] own exp]i5ce4 ,y\r s9s are p>don$4 ,%e got v confus$4 ,y "k1 ,i cont9u$1 t x is a happy day :5 ,jesus takes our s9s away4 ,?is only made matt]s worse4 ,%e became greatly emb>rass$4 ,:ile we spoke ( ,london & ,gospel prea*+ %e 0 free en\gh2 b ! mom5t ,i made a p]sonal application ( ! subject1 %e 0 altoge!r bewild]$4 ,at la/1 ) a k9d ( =c$ ef=t1 %e said1 ,i h be5 a *ild ( ,god = elev5 ye>s4 ,?ank ,god6 ,i said1 mu* reliev$2 t is :at ,i mean4 ,y h be5 conv]t$ & p>don$ = elev5 ye>s4 ,x is all "r1 !n4 ,i did n int5d to p]plex y1 & am sorry ,i did n convey ray mean+ 9 a bett] mann]4 ,b ,i c\ld n smoo? d[n h] ruffl$ fea!rs s easily1 & 0 glad :5 ! five m9utes' bell began r++ to summon u to *ur*4 ,we got ready1 & w5t4 ,x happ5$ to be a *ildr5's s]vice1 & our subject t aft]noon 0 ,joseph's reconciliation ) 8 bre?r54 ,?ree que/ions1 among o!rs1 7 ask$ & dwelt ^u4 ,fir/1 ,0 ,joseph reconcil$ ) 8 bre?r5 :ile !y 7 self-convict$ be=e him1 & condemn$ !mselves z v]ily guilty conc]n+ _! bro!r8--,no4 ,second1 ,0 he reconcil$ :5 he fea/$ ) !m1 & made m]ry8--,no4 ,?ird1 ,:51 !n1 0 he reconcil$8--,:5 !y surr5d]$ !mselves1 & all ! elev5 7 pro/rate at 8 feet1 l ! elev5 %eaves :i* b[$ to ,joseph's %eaf 9 ! h>ve/ field2 !n he made himself kn[n to !m1 & =gave !m4 ,x is n :5 a s\l is "u condemnation1 nor yet :5 x is happy1 t x is sav$2 b :5 x is actually1 once = all1 surr5d]$ to ,*ri/ = salvation1 !n x is ,he makes himself kn[n to !m1 ev5 z ,joseph did to 8 bre?r54 ,! lady w5t away4 ,i did n asc]ta9 :o %e 01 nor :]e %e came f2 ,i 0 n mu* tak5 ) h]1 nor 0 %e ) me4 ,h]s 0 evid5tly a k9d ( religion :i* ,i _h n met ) be=e1 & did n c>e to meet ) aga94 ,! next day ,i w5t = a few h\rs' re/ & *ange to ! sea-side at ,p]ran1 b !re 0 a burd5 ( pray] on my s\l4 ,i c\ld n ?ank ,god = t unkn[n lady1 b ,i c\ld pray = m]cy = h]4 ,! impression on my m9d 0 v cle>3 ,i felt t %e 0 n sav$4 ,! day foll[+ ! burd5 0 heavi] /ill1 & ,i 0 on my knees pray+ = h] = sev]al h\rs 9 ! day4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i 0 q 9 di/ress4 ,! next day ,i 0 mo/ anxi\s = h]1 & c\ld d no?+ b pray1 ev5 ) te>s4 ,?is la/$ till ! foll[+ day 7,?ursday71 :5 ,i happ5$ to g into ! draw+-room = some?+1 & !re ,i obs]v$ a /range ,bible ly+ on ! table4 ,i rememb]$ t ,i _h se5 t same book 9 ! lady's h& on ,sunday4 ,i took x up1 & saw a "n1 & on mak+ inquiry ( ! s]vants ,i f\nd out t %e came 9 ,mr4 --'s c>riage on ,sunday4 ,?is 0 en\gh4 ,i wrote a note imm$iately1 & s5t ! ,bible1 say+ t ,i 0 greatly burd5$ = h] s\l1 & %\ld mu* l to see h]4 ,%e s5t me a k9d lett] 9 reply1 appo9t+ ! foll[+ ,monday = my visit4 ,on t day ,i call$1 & f\nd h] v k9d1 & seem+ly ?ankful = ! int]e/ ,i express$ 9 h] welf>e4 ,i said t %e _h no?+ really to ?ank me =1 = ,i c\ld n help myself2 ! burd5 _h be5 laid ^u me4 ,!n ,i ask$ h] if %e w\ld tell me h[ %e became a *ild ( ,god4 ,%e did s readily1 & told me t once %e 0 9 ! _w1 & z fond ( danc+ & pleasure z o!rs ) :om %e associat$2 t 9 ! mid/ ( h] gaiety %e 0 call$ to ! dea?-b$ ( a c\s91 :o 0 j su* a lov] ( pleasure z h]self4 ,h] c\s9 said1 ,oh1 ,m>y1 give up ! _w = my sake4 ,i am lo/6 ,oh1 ,m>y1 give x up6 ,soon %e di$1 poor girl1 j awak5$ en\gh to see & feel h]self hopelessly lo/--a dy+ worldl+4 ,no "o 0 ne> to po9t h] to ! ,savi\r1 s %e dep>t$ z %e _h lik$ to live1 )\t salvation4 ,m>y wept at ! remembrance ( t solemn sc5e1 & said %e c\ld nev] =get x4 ,well1 ,i said1 & :at did y d !n8 ,%e answ]$ firmly1 ,i knelt d[n !n & !re1 by ! side ( ! b$ :]e my poor c\s9 _h j di$1 & ,i call$ ,god to witness t ,i w\ld give up ! _w4 ,i did s2 & h nev] _h any incl9ation to g back into its gaieties & pleasures s9ce4 ,i began f t "t to pray1 & read my ,bible1 & g to *ur*2 & ,i love ^! ?+s n[ bett] ?an ,i did ! ?+s ( ! _w be=e4 ,at ! "t ( ?is *ange1 %e 0 l$ to a *ur* :]e ,evangelical tru? 0 prea*$ simply & pla9ly2 & ?us became di/9ctly enlight5$ z to ! way ( salvation4 ,%e fully ass5t$ & cons5t$ to :at %e he>d1 & !re=e became a v e>ne/ disciple1 en?usia/ic ab\t ! sov]eignty ( ,god & ! doctr9es ( grace1 & all su* matt]s4 ,%e und]/ood ! mean+ ( ! ,levitical types & (f]+s2 c\ld speak ( disp5sational tru? & prophecy2 0 v zeal\s ab\t missions to ! hea!n1 & 0 also e>ne/ly devot$ to _m *>itable works at home4 ,!re 01 h[ev]1 "o little suspici\s ?+ 9 ! mid/ ( all ?is manife/ goodness4 ,%e _h n mu* pati5ce ) elem5t>y ,gospel s]mons1 or mu* int]e/ 91 or sympa?y )1 ef=ts made to br+ 9 p]i%+ s\ls2 %e lov$ r to be f$ ) high doctr9es1 & ! my/]ies ( grace ) its deep] tea*+s4 ,!re are "s m5 :o love to prea* exclusively ab\t ^! ?+s1 ev5 be=e mix$ congregations1 address+ !m z if !y 7 all real ,*ri/ians4 ,x is surpris+ h[ _m p !re are j l ,m>y1 :o seem to c>e m = doctr9es ?an = ,cod ,himself--m = fav\rite tru?s ?an = s\ls4 ,a simple1 elem5t>y ,gospel address1 ) "s cle> illu/rations1 0 j ! v ?+ ,m>y want$ = h] own s\l's good1 m ?an any?+2 b1 un=tunately1 ?is 0 ! ?+ aga9/ :i* %e 0 prejudic$1 = %e abhorr$ anecdotal s]mons4 ,aft] he>+ h] /ory1 ,i said1 ,x is v int]e/+2 b !re is "o great defici5cy 9 x4 ,y h n told me any?+' ab\t ,*ri/2 h y no?+ to say ab\t ! blood ( ,jesus1 & ab\t y\r s9s8 ,h y _h no real transaction ) ',god ab\t !m8 ,%e said %e did n "k :at ,i meant4 ,did y nev] come z a s9n]1 & obta9 ! =giv5ess ( y\r s9s8 ,no1 %e repli$2 t is :at ,i d n und]/& ab\t y\r tea*+4 ,i %[$ h]1 z pla9ly z ,i c\ld1 t %e _h n told me ab\t conv]sion1 b re=mation4 ,y h only turn$ ov] a new leaf1 & kept y\r resolutions pray]fully & well = elev5 ye>s2 b ?is is n turn+ back ! old leaves ( y\r pa/ life1 & gett+ !m wa%$ 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ',he t cov]s 8 s9s' 9 ?is way1 'c nev] prosp]4' ,if a man owes a debt = :i* he is v sorry1 & det]m9es t 9 future he w pay = ev]y?+ he gets--?is w n pay 8 pa/ debts4 ,%e w5t on to ju/ify h]self1 & said1 t %e knew a great _m good ,*ri/ian p1 & t none ( !m _h ev] suspect$ h] z ,i did4 ,i endeav\r$ to assure h] t ,i 0 dreadfully al>m$ ab\t h] condition1 & 0 c]ta9 t if %e di$ l t1 !re w\ld be no m hope = h] salvation ?an = h] c\s9's4 ,?is seem$ to r\se h] ho/ility1 & ,i saw t ,i _h lo/ influ5ce4 ,h[ev]1 ,i c\ld n blame myself1 = ,i _h only said :at ,i felt to be true4 ,i return$ home & pray$ = m wisdom4 ,all t night ,i c\ld n sleep1 & mo/ ( x 0 sp5t 9 plead+ ) ,god4 ,i felt z if a re/less bird 0 fly+ ab\t ! room1 & some?+ 0 say+1 ,%e w be lo/ =ev]4 ,i urg$ my petition aga9 & aga94 ,! next day ,i call$1 & f\nd ?is lady q brok5 d[n1 & ready to pray & li/5 to my tea*+4 ,i 0 mo/ ?ankful1 & greatly reliev$ aft] ! night's re/lessness4 ,i _h mu* happ9ess 9 po9t+ out ! way ( salvation z an exp]im5tal ?+4 ,%e knew1 be=e ,i did1 ! doctr9e ( ! ,a t5em5t1 b %e _h _h no exp]i5ce ( its real efficacy4 ,n[ t h] eyes 7 op5$1 %e 0 9 "r e>ne/ to "k ! reality ( s9s =giv54 ,soon %e f\nd ?is1 ?\gh n yet ! joy ( deliv]ance2 %e knew ! peace & %elt] ( ! spr9kl$ blood 7,exod4 #ab3ac71 b n yet ! joy & lib]ty ( be+ on ! rock on ! o!r side ( ! ,r$ ,sea 7,exod4 #ae3 #b74 ,i 0 sure t x w\ld all come 9 due "t1 & !re=e 0 able to take com=t1 & also to com=t h]4 ,i saw a good deal ( h] at t "t1 & "o day %e told me t a relation ( h]s1 a cl]gyman1 0 com+ to h x out ) me = say+ t %e 0 n conv]t$ be=e4 ,c]ta9ly1 ,i repli$1 ,i %all be happy to meet him1 & hope y w be 9 ! room4 ,:5 ! dread$ man arriv$1 we 7 introduc$ to "o ano!r4 ,well1 he said1 y are a v diff]5t-look+ ?an to :at ,i imag9$4 ,i h he>d a deal ab\t y4 ,s y are a ,puseyite turn$ ,evangelical1 eh8 ,i h (t5 he>d ( p go+ ! o!r way1 b ,i mu/ say ,i h nev] met a man :o _h come 9 ?is direction4 ,he !n ask$ ab\t ! results ( my indu/ry4 ,i told him :at 0 ! effect 9 my *ur* & p>i%1 & t ! same signs foll[$ ! prea*+ ( ! ,gospel :]ev] ,i w5t4 ,i wi%1 he said1 y w\ld come & prea* 9 my p>i%4 ,y "k a great fri5d ( m9e at ,v]yam & h prea*$ 9 8 pulpit4 ,w y d ! same = me8 ,oh1 yes1 ,i said1 c]ta9ly1 ) pleasure4 ,n[1 look at me1 = ,i am a man ( bus9ess3 :5 w y come8 ,"n y\r day4 ,i look$ at my pocket-book1 & fix$ ^u a c]ta9 ,monday4 ,!n he arrang$ t we %\ld h a k9d ( mission>y meet+1 ,9 ! c\rse ( :i*1 he said1 y c prea* z mu* ,gospel z y l4 ,if x goes well1 we w h a lecture ! next ev5+ on ',he>t ,conv]sion1' & ano!r ! ev5+ foll[+1 on some?+ else4 ,he 0 q sure noone w\ld come to he> a s]mon only4 ,x mu/ be a mission>y meet+1 or some?+ ( ! k9d1 to br+ ! p out4 ,on ! day appo9t$1 ! b>n :]e we 7 assembl$ 0 well fill$1 & see+ t ! p 7 int]e/$1 ! vic> gave out1 ,mr ,haslam w lecture tomorr[ ev5+ on ,he>t ,conv]sion4 ,! next ev5+1 :5 we arriv$1 we f\nd ! b>n q full1 & numb]s /&+ outside2 besides1 !re 7 _m m :om we pass$ on ! road4 ,s x 0 det]m9$ t we %\ld g into ! *ur* & h a %ort s]vice4 ,! edifice 0 soon light$1 & fill$1 & aft] a few collects & hymns 7= !y _h a hymn-book 9 t *ur*71 ,i w5t up into ! pulpit1 & prea*$ ^u ! absolute necessity ( conv]sion--no salvation )\t x4 ,z to he>t conv]sion1 :at is conv]sion at all if ! he>t is n t\*$8 ,!n ,i treat$ my subject f ano!r po9t ( view4 ,e conv]t$ p]son "h kn[s :at he>t conv]sion is2 & if any "o does n1 x is cle> he is n conv]t$4 ,if he dies 9 t /ate1 he wilt be lo/ = ev]6 ,i conclud$ ! s]mon ) pray]2 & :ile ,i 0 pray+ 9 ! pulpit1 "o aft] ano!r ( ! p 9 ! pews began to cry al\d = m]cy4 ,my fri5d ,m>y lik5$ x to a battle-field1 & me to a surgeon go+ f "o w\nd$ "o to ano!r to help !m4 ,at elev5 o'clock we clos$ ! s]vice1 promis+ to hold ano!r ! next day4 ,on ,w$nesday morn+ ,m>y awoke f h] sleep ) a voice say+ to h]1 ,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :i* take? away ! s9 ( ! _w4 ,!n all my s9s are gone4 ,he has borne !m4 ,he ',himself bore our s9s 9 ,8 own body on ! tree4' ,%e 0 fill$ ) joy unspeakable1 & came to breakfa/ rejoic+4 ,! lady ( ! h\se 0 9 te>s1 ! s]vants 7 tr\bl$1 & ! vic> alt]nately glad & sorry1 = he 0 n sure :e!r x 0 excitem5t or ! "w ( ,god1 & did n "k :at to make ( x4 ,h[ev]1 9 ! ev5+ he broke d[n 9 8 read+-desk 9 ! middle ( ! s]mon1 & bur/ out1 ,"l1 save me6 ,9 an in/ant ! :ole congregation 0 up1 & ! p ev]y:]e ei!r cry+ = m]cy1 or rejoic+4 ,! p[] ( ! ,"l 0 pres5t to heal !m1 & _m s\ls 7 sav$ t night2 & besides ^!1 !re 7 o!rs :o 7 tr\bl$4 ,among/ ?is numb] 0 ! "y squire ( ! p>i%4 ,he 0 aft]w>ds decid$ly conv]t$ to ,god1 & took great int]e/ 9 ! "w4 ,:5 twitt$ on ! b5* by 8 bro!r magi/rates ab\t ! revival1 he /ood 8 gr\nd manfully1 & gave good te/imony4 ,he cont9ues to ?is day a bold *ampion = ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus4 ,,*apt] #ba ,golant ,mission1 #ahed4 ,x is a good plan to /rike :ile ! iron is hot2' & z ! p at ,colant 7 9 an int]e/$ & receptive /ate1 ,i put (f o!r ?+s :i* _h be5 appo9t$1 & made arrangem5ts to return to ! battle-field z soon z possible4 ,my p 7 mu* excit$ to he> :at ,i 0 able to tell !m ( my ?ree days' visit1 & !y wi%$ me ,god spe$ = my next v5ture1 pray+ mo/ he>tily = great bless+4 ,accord+ly1 on ! foll[+ ,monday ,i w5t back to ,colant1 & f\nd ! place 7an unusually quiet c\ntry village71 toge!r ) ! :ole neighb\rhood r\nd1 includ+ two or ?ree small t[ns all a/ir4 ,z a rule1 9 ord] to insure success 9 a mission1 !re ne$s prep>ation1 visitation1 & pray]2 & ,i h obs]v$ t :5 !re has be5 no prep>ation 9 ! way ( public ann\ncem5ts ( s]vices1 ! p h n come out1 & ! mission has be5 a failure4 ,:]e !re has be5 a regul> sy/em ( visitation1 )\t pray]1 ! congregations h be5 abundant1 b ! s]vices h be5 dry & h>d2 b 9 places :]e prep>ation & visitation h be5 made ) mu* pray]1 !re has ev] be5 a mo/ unmi/akable bless+4 ,s mu* = human ag5cies1 :i* are necess>y to u1 ?\gh ,god is n b\nd to !m4 ,!re _h be5 no prep>ation = ! mission ,i am ab\t to tell (1 no visitation1 nor any special pray]2 & yet x pleas$ ! ,"l to give 9 ?is little village su* an outp\r+ ( ,8 ,_s & demon/ration ( ,8 ,p[] z is r>ely kn[n4 ,!re 0 a great runn+ toge!r ( ! p1 not)/&+ ! difficulties ( access to ! *ur*4 ,"s _h to come sev]al miles f ! t[ns by road1 "s by sea1 & o!rs across a tidal riv] :]e mud ab\nd$2 & aft] l&+1 !y _h to climb a /eep hill4 ,none ( ^! ?+s1 h[ev]1 det]r$ or disc\rag$ !m2 !y came1 & !y w\ld come1 9 spite ( ev]y?+ :i* 0 urg$ at o!r times z an excuse = /ay+ away1 ev5 on d>k nights4 ,x 0 ! day ( ! ,"l's p[]1 & ,he made !m will+2 s mu* s1 t 9 "s places "w 0 susp5d$1 & p came ev5 ?ree times a day4 ,on ! ,monday ev5+1 :5 ,i arriv$1 ,i f\nd t ! *ur* w\ld sc>cely hold ! p :o bad ga!r$ to he> ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,x 0 a "t ( mu* bless+1 & we rema9$ !re h>d at "w till elev5 o'clock1 :51 hav+ f\r miles to g 9 ord] to get home1 ,i clos$ ! s]vice1 (f]+ to meet any anxi\s s\ls !re at half-pa/ t5 ! next morn+4 ,?is ,i did1 & 0 surpris$ to f9d a numb] ( p]sons wait+1 ev5 at ?is e>ly h\r4 ,!re 7 too _m to speak to individually1 s ,i address$ !m collectively1 giv+ ! ord9>y in/ruction to seek+ s\ls4 ,9 ! aft]noon we _h a /ill l>g] numb]1 & 9 ! ev5+ a cr[d$ congregation2 9 ?is way ! "w cont9u$1 ) ?ree s]vices a day ?r\gh\t ! week1 accompani$ ) rem>kable conv]sions e day4 ,among ! numb] ( ^? :o att5d$ 0 a surgeon1 8 wife & bro!r1 & ! wife ( a respectable yeoman4 ,^!1 toge!r ) sev]al m f ! village on ! o!r side ( ! riv]1 7 conv]t$ to ,god4 ,_! rector 0 amaz$ to see !m s *ang$1 & wond]$ by :at process ?is 0 accompli%$4 ,he att5d$ an aft]noon s]vice1 & 0 a/oni%$ to see s _m p pres5t on a week-day4 ,aft]w>ds introduc+ himself1 he ask$ me v politely1 ,:at is ! secret ( all ?is8 ,he /ud1 ,i h he>d y prea*1 & c]ta9ly d n agree ) mo/ "p ( :at y said1 nor d ,i see any?+ ei!r 9 y\r mann] or matt] :i* c acc\nt = ?is effect & "w among/ ! p4 ,i mu/ say1 ,i _c ask y to my pulpit1 b ,i %\ld mu* l a talk ) y4 ,w y come ov] to lun*eon ) me8 ,i lik$ ! c&\r & g5tlemanly be>+ ( ! man1 & wi%$ to g1 b c\ld n fix a "t :ile ,i 0 s mu* occupi$2 s ,i promis$ ,i w\ld write1 & (f] him a visit :5 ,i _h m leisure4 ,9 addition to ! ?ree s]vices 9 *ur*1 we _h ano!r 9 ! morn+ at sev5 o'clock1 9 ! t[n :]e ,i slept4 ,!re we ga!r$ ! anxi\s ones :o _h be5 at ! *ur* ! night be=e1 & _h come away e>ly on acc\nt ( ! di/ance4 ,! little t[n 0 all 9 a commotion1 & ! vic> 9 ?is place 0 beg9n+ to get furi\s ab\t my hold+ ?is meet+ 9 8 p>i%2 8 daught]1 9 p>ticul>1 w5t ab\t w>n+ ! p aga9/ att5d+ x4 ,"s "y m5 hir$ a f\r-o>$ boat to come to ! ev5+ s]vice1 int5d+ to di/urb ! congregation4 ,!y arriv$ 9 good "t1 b1 = all t1 !y 7 too late to get a seat4 ,"o "y man1 ! r+lead] ( ! p>ty1 in/ead ( caus+ a di/urbance1 /ood /ill & li/5$ mo/ att5tively4 ,i prea*$ t ev5+ f ! words1 ,& ! door 0 %ut1 ref]r+ to ! ark1 & ! awful desolation & doom ( ^? :o 7 %ut out4 ,all ! "t ,i 0 prea*+1 ,i c\ld see ?is same man /&+ be=e ! pulpit1 ) 8 elb[ lean+ on ! end ( a high pew4 ,he ma9ta9$ ?is position ?r\gh\t ! s]vice1 & at ! end ( ! s]mon 0 /ill !re1 rigid & /iff1 look+ at ! pulpit z if 9 a trance4 ,he w\ld n move or speak2 !re he /ood1 till we fe>$ he _h gone out ( 8 m9d4 ,8 companions 7 aw$ & took him away z well z !y c\ld1 b did n emb>k on _! return j\rney till aft] midnight1 & !n ! tide 0 aga9/ !m4 ,soon aft] !y _h />t$1 ! w9d rose1 & !re came on a great /orm2 ! ?und] 0 l\d1 & ! fla%es ( lightn+ awful4 ,! w9d became s /rong & viol5t1 t1 9 spite ( all _! ef=ts1 ! boat 0 /r&$2 !y manag$1 h[ev]1 to get out & pull x out ( ! wat]1 & took refuge = a "t "u ov]hang+ rocks on ! %ore4 ,! "y man cont9u$ z "o /unn$1 & said no?+4 ,!re !y rema9$ till betwe5 f\r & five o'clock 9 ! morn+1 :5 ! /orm abat$1 & !y 7 able to set out aga94 ,at la/ !y succe$$ 9 rea*+ home4 ,:ile ^! un=tunate "y m5 7 battl+ ) ! elem5ts1 we w5t home by l& & _h a night's re/1 ?\gh x 0 b a %ort "o4 ,i rose & w5t to my meet+ at sev5 o'clock1 & on arriv+ f\nd ! room q full1 !re be+ only "o *air unoccupi$4 ,z ,i /ood to 'speak1 ?is seat rema9$ vacant1 s ,i beckon$ a "y man :o 0 /&+ at ! door to come & take x4 ,he look$ worn & sad1 & ,i ?\ght ,i recogniz$ 9 him ! same "y man ,i _h notic$ ! previ\s night1 & :o1 ,i 0 told1 0 ! r+lead] ( ! p>ty :o came 9 ! boat ) ! purpose ( di/urb+ ! meet+4 ,he sat d[n1 sigh+ heavily sev]al times4 ,almo/ directly a man came =w>d & :isp]$ to me1 ,y h a wolf ne> y--take c>e6 ,all1 "r1 ,i said1 he is tame en\gh n[2 !re is no m bite 9 him4 ,yes1 yes1 said ! "y man1 ov]he>+ u1 no m wolf4 ,o ,god1 *ange me to a lamb6 ,poor fell[6 he 0 9 great tr\ble all day1 & fa9t$ away sev]al times be=e he f\nd peace1 :i* he did v de>ly4 ,he came to ! ev5+ meet+1 %\t+ ,hallelujah6 & /irr$ u all greatly4 ,sev]al o!rs ( ! same p>ty 7 also conv]t$4 ,! news ( ?is made "s ( ! t[n's p furi\s2 &1 be+ ! fif? ( ,novemb]1 !y consol$ !mselves by mak+ a /raw effigy to repres5t me4 ,!y put on x a %eet 9 place ( a surplice1 ) a pap] mitre on its head1 &1 sett+ x on a donkey1 c>ri$ x ?r\gh ! t[n1 accompani$ by a cr[d ( m5 & boys1 :o %\t$ at ! top ( _! voices1 ,"h goes ! ,puseyite revivali/6 ,"h goes ! ,puseyite revivali/6 ,hurrah6 ,hurrah6 ,9 ?is complim5t>y sport ! curate & "o ( ! *ur*w>d5s took "p4 ,t same night ?is *ur*w>d5 7:o1 ,i %\ld say1 _h be5 "o ( ! boat+ p>ty two nights be=e7 _h a dream4 ,he dreamt t 8 h\se 0 full ( p1 j l ! *ur* he _h be5 92 all ! rooms1 ! /aircase1 & ev5 8 own b$room1 7 fill$ ) p /&+4 ,!re 0 a trem5d\s /orm ( w9d & ra92 ! ?und] roll$1 & ! lightn+ fla%$4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is a voice said to him1 ,?is is all ab\t y1 y s9n]6 ,he awoke up out ( 8 sleep 9 a t]rible fright1 & began to cry to ! ,"l to h m]cy on 8 s\l4 ,i 0 s5t = be=e five o'clock 9 ! morn+ to come & see him1 = 8 fri5ds said t !y ?\ght he w\ld g out ( 8 m9d4 ,in/ead ( ?is1 he came to 8 "r m9d1 = ! ,"l he>d & answ]$ 8 pray]1 & br\ght him f d>kness into light1 & f ! p[] ( s9 & ,satan unto ,god4 ,he w5t ) me to ! e>ly morn+ meet+2 !re we _h ! two *ief lead]s ( ! riot\s p>ty 9 a *ang$ condition1 = :i* we he>tily ?ank$ ,god4 ,_! fri5d1 ! curate1 0 v excit$ & angry ab\t ?is1 & did n q "k :o to blame4 ,he said t he w\ld write to ! ,bi%op & tell him :at 0 go+ on2 & ,i believe he did n fail to c>ry out 8 int5tion4 ,z !re 7 _m :o1 f v>i\s causes1 7 unable to g f\r miles to an ev5+ s]vice1 ,i manag$ to secure ! ,t[n ,hall = a c\rse ( lectures on ! ,pilgrim's ,progress4 ,! curate came to ! fir/1 &1 aft] he>+ ! lecture1 /ood up to speak1 & gave w5t to 8 feel+s by say+ a great _m v angry ?+s4 ,! p 7 s indignant1 t ,i c\ld sc>cely re/ra9 !m f lay+ h&s on him to turn him out4 ,"s ( ! old =ms & seats 9 ! ,t[n ,hall 7:i* 0 n accu/om$ to be s cr[d$7 broke d[n ) ! weight ( p4 ,! vic>'s daught] sugge/$ t mo/ likely !y %\ld he> next t ! =ms & seats 7 conv]t$1 = %e _h be5 told already t !y 7 brok5 d[n4 ,?is little /raw w %[ :i* way ! w9d blew 9 t qu>t]1 & :at 0 ! drift ( ?is lady's m9d4 ,my fri5d ) :om ,i 0 /ay+ 0 evid5tly mu* p]plex$1 & f\nd himself let 9 = f> m ?an he _h calculat$ :5 he invit$ me4 ,he c]ta9ly w\ld nev] h ask$ me _h he =ese5 su* an upset z !re 0 ev]y:]e1 especially 9 ! t[n 9 :i* he liv$1 & ! c\ntry p>i% ( :i* he 0 vic>4 ,at la/ he made up 8 m9d to take me ) him to consult a cl]ical neighb\r1 ^u ^: judgm5t he greatly reli$4 ,on our way a sudd5 ?\ght ( misgiv+ came ov] him2 he all at once turn$ to me & said4 ,i say1 my fri5d1 ,i'll be done ) y altoge!r if y say ,mr4 ---- is n conv]t$6 ,!n1 ,i repli$1 y may be sure ,i w n say x4 ,b suppose y ?9k s8 ,well1 ,i mu/ confess ,i ?9k s already1 & n )\t good reason 7at lea/1 to my m9d71 = he has tak5 no int]e/ :atev] 9 ?is rem>kable "w ( ,god1 nor has he %[n ! lea/ sympa?y 9 ! spiritual welf>e ( _m ( 8 p>i%ion]s1 :o h receiv$ bless+ at ! meet+s4 ,8 ,high ,*ur* neighb\r1 :o does n pr(ess to be conv]t$1 c\ld n help com+ ov] to ask ab\t x1 :ile y\r fri5d has nev] be5 ne>1 nor ev5 s5t to make inquiry4 ,besides ?is1 "o ( 8 own p told me t he 0 mu* put out1 & v angry ) y = ask+ me4 ,ah1 said my fri5d1 we are n all revivali/s l y1 rememb]4 ,well1 ,i said1 let me hope y are a deal bett] ?an ,i am4 ,he seem$ v uneasy at tak+ me on aft] ?is conv]sation2 b z he _h writt5 to say we 7 com+1 he ?\ght we mu/ g =w>d4 ,9 ord] to ease 8 m9d1 ,i made an agreem5t ) him t dur+ lun*eon ,i w\ld tell ab\t ! conv]sion ( "o ( ,mr4 --'s p>i%ion]s1 & said1 ,:ile ,i d s1 y wat* 8 face4 ,if he is at all int]e/$1 ,i w conclude t ,i am wrong1 & t he is conv]t$2 b if he is n1 ,i w leave y to judge = y\rself4 ,i mu/ say1 ,i _c und]/& a conv]t$ man n int]e/$ 9 ! conv]sion ( o!rs1 ev5 if x does no?+ m ?an rem9d him ( 8 own4 ,my fri5d agre$ to ?is1 & seem$ some:at reliev$ 9 8 m9d4 ,on our arrival1 ,mr4 -- receiv$ u c\rte\sly1 & ask$ aft] ! family--inde$1 ab\t ev]y?+ he c\ld ?9k ( b ! "w4 ,my fri5d1 aft] a little pause1 said1 ,h y n he>d ( ! revival8 ,revival6 he said1 calmly4 ,:at is t8 ,! special s]vices 9 my *ur*4 ,:at s]vices8 ,?is evid5tly 0 en\gh4 ,he w5t out ( ! room to try & hurry ! lun*eon4 ,my fri5d look$ v ?\ghtful1 & said no?+1 b 0 cle>ly beg9n+ to suspect t ! judgm5t ,i _h =m$ 0 n f> wrong4 ,9 c\rse ( ! lun*eon ,i told my /ory1 b n )\t be+ int]rupt$ ov] & ov] aga9 by ! ho/'s att5tions1 & importunities to take m vegetables4 ,h y any salt8 4444 ,w y take "s bread8 4444 ,w y n take a glass ( w9e8 ,x 0 q evid5t he wi%$ ! /ory at an end4 ,my fri5d said1 ,t is "o ( y\r p>i%ion]s he is talk+ ab\t4 ,i suspect$ s1 he repli$4 ,all ,i c say is1 t if ,mr4 ,haslam _h only kn[n t man z long z ,i h1 he w\ld nev] speak ( him z he does4 ,?is is n ! fir/ pr(ession he has made4 ,he has be5 re=m$ & *ang$ sev]al times be=e ?is1 & has always become worse aft]w>ds4 ,t is j ! v ?+ ,haslam says1 said my fri5d--t "s re=mations are all fle%1 & n ! "w ( ,god2 &1 z su*1 c nev] /&4 ,i believe ! man to be conv]t$ by ,god ?is "t4 ,we w see--we w see1 said our ho/1 quietly help+ himself to a glass ( w9e4 ,= my own "p1 ,i don't believe 9 ^! ?+s4 ,my fri5d & ,i ex*ang$ looks4 ,i 0 sil5t1 b he cont9u$1 ,i am b\nd to say t ,i 0 nev] conv]t$ be=e1 nor yet my wife1 my daught]1 or my si/]4 ,:at6 said ! vic>1 />t+1 y mean y\r si/] ,m>y8 ,well1 t is en\gh6 ,i don't wi% to he> ano!r ^w ab\t y\r conv]sions aft] t6 ,i c only say t if ,i 7 half z good z ,mrs4 ,s---1 ,i %\ld be well satisfi$4 ,well1 n[1 repli$ my fri5d1 d come ov] & see h]1 & he> :at %e has to say ab\t x h]self4 ,no1 ?ank y1 he repli$2 ,i h no desire to int]f]e 9 su* matt]s4 ,!re ! conv]sation /opp$1 leav+ a wall ( sep>ation betwe5 ! two cl]ical bro!rs1 :o _h toge!r pr(ess$ to be ,evangelical1 & cordially hat$ sacram5tal religion4 ,!y _h also pr(ess$ to believe 9 salvation by fai? only2 b = all ?is !y nev] urg$ ^u _! p to p]=m any acts ( fai?--!y only expect$ !m to receive ! doctr9e4 ,i f\nd t su* p oppos$ me & my "w a great deal m ?an ev5 ,high ,*ur* m54 ,my fri5d & ,i return$ home1 & he told 8 wife & si/] ! result ( our visit4 ,!y said t !y 7 n surpris$1 = !y _h made up _! m9ds on ! subject1 & 7 q sure t ,mr4 -- _h no p]sonal exp]i5ce1 ?\gh he 0 s intellig5t ab\t ! doctr9e ( salvation by fai?4 ,! "w1 9 ! meantime1 w5t on & spread4 ,"s ( ! p came ov] f ,mr4 --'s p>i% to ask me to come & prea* to !m 9 a l>ge sail-l(t1 :i* !y _h prep>$ = ! purpose4 ,my fri5d w\ld n cons5t to my go+1 & ,i 0 oblig$ to give !m a refusal4 ,! next day !y s5t aga91 n to ask me to prea*1 b if ,i w\ld j come ov] to visit a sick man :o 0 anxi\s ab\t 8 s\l4 ,my fri5d hesitat$ at ?is also4 ,i said1 ,:y d y object to my go+ to see ! poor fell[8 ,y took me to ! vic>age to talk to ! vic> himself2 surely y c let me g & d ! same ?+ to "o ( 8 p>i%ion]s4 ,no1 he said1 ,i _c2 t is q a diff]5t ?+4 ,see+ t he 0 unwill+1 & t x w\ld displease him1 ,i gave x up1 & w5t to ! mess5g]s & said1 ,i _c g4 ,!y 7 n satisfi$1 & ask$ if ! ladies w\ld please to g2 mean+ my late de> wife & ,mrs4 ,s4 7,m>y71 :om !y _h se5 work+ 9 ! aft]-meet+s4 ,my fri5d did n see any objection to ! ladies go+1 & ! m5 seem$ bett] pleas$ ?an if ,i _h gone4 ,!y visit$ ! sick man ! next day1 & aft] t 7 ask$ j to come & speak to a few p up "h t 01 9 ! adjo9+ sail-l(t4 ,on ent]+ ! place1 to _! a/oni%m5t1 !y saw ab\t ?ree hundr$ p sitt+ quietly wait+4 ,:at is ?is8 ask$ my wife4 ,! man said1 ,i only ask$ a few1 b all ^? p are come4 ,d give !m j a ^w4 ,%e _h nev] yet v5tur$ on address+ a l>ge company l t1 & ,m>y 0 %ock$ at ! idea2 b /ill1 !y 7 afraid to refuse2 s !y m\nt$ ! c>p5t]'s b5*1 :i* 0 plac$ !re ) two *airs on x2 & aft] a hymn & pray]1 ,mrs4 ,h4 gave an address1 :i* ,m>y told me aft]w>ds 0 f> bett] ?an any?+ ,i ev] prea*$4 ,!y _h an aft]-meet+1 & "s conv]sions1 & promis$ to come ov] aga94 ,?us ! "w spread to ano!r "p1 & ,i _h to g !re also4 ,poor ,mr4 -- 0 v excit$ ab\t ?is1 & said t he ?\ght x mo/ ung5tlemanly4 ,i d>e say x 01 & t ,i 0 some:at unc\?2 b ,i nev] /op to consid] prejudices & fancies :5 ! ,"l's "w is 9 ! way4 ,x 0 a widespread & rem>kable awak5+1 & "o n )\t mu* opposition & jeal\sy4 ,i happ5$ to say f ! pulpit1 t at "o "t be=e ,i knew ! tru? ,i us$ to be q a popul> man3 p lik$ me1 & cl]gym5 let me prea* 9 _! pulpits2 b n[ t ,i _h some?+ to tell = ! good ( s\ls1 !y seem$ to agree to keep me out4 ,v few 7 s bold z ! vic> ( ?is p>i%1 :o _h n only invit$ me1 b /ood by me also4 ,a neighb\r+ cl]gyman1 :o 0 an important man--a preb5d>y1 & :at n--wrote to ! vic> to ask if x 0 true t ,i _h said 9 ! pulpit t my cl]ical bre?r5 sc\t$ me1 & w\ld n let me prea* = !m4 ,! vic> v wisely h&$ ! indignant preb5d>y's lett] ov] to me to answ]1 :i* ,i did4 ,9 my reply1 ,i took ! opportunity to put 9 "s ,gospel tea*+1 :i* 0 suppos$ to be v irrelevant matt]1 & c\nt$ evasive4 ,i did n d5y t ,i _h said some?+ to ! effect ( :i* he compla9$1 b ,i plead$ 9 ext5uation t ,i 0 ju/ifi$ 9 do+ s4 ,he 0 m enrag$ by my lett] ?an by ! report he _h he>d1 & ?reat5$ to publi% ! correspond5ce4 ,?is he did1 ) a lett] to 8 p>i%ion]s1 9 :i* he w>n$ !m aga9/ revivals 9 g5]al1 & me 9 p>ticul>4 ,he told !m t ,i 0 infatuat$2 t ,i _h usurp$ ! judgm5t seat ( ,*ri/2 t ,i 0 ! accus] ( ! bre?r52 t ,i act$ ! devil's "p n[1 & 0 to be 8 companion h]eaft]4 ,i ?\ght ( giv+ m *oice extracts f ?is publication1 b on second ?\ghts ,i consid] x bett] to pass x ov]4 ,,*apt] #bb ,! ,high ,*ur* ,rector1 #ahed ,let bygones be bygones4 ,i am ?ankful to say times are *ang$1 b ! lett] ref]r$ to 9 ! la/ *apt]1 ?\gh express+ ! s5tim5ts ( "o man1 yet %[$ ! feel+ ( _m o!rs4 ,i d n compla9 ( x1 = ,i mu/ say ,i r l ! outspok5 opposition ( ! natural he>t2 x is f> bett]1 & mu* less try+1 ?an smil+ indiff]5ce or holl[ ass5t4 ,! "w :i* began 9 ?is "p w5t on & spread4 ,! refusal ( ! cl]gy to take x up s5t x to ! *apels1 :]e x 0 cont9u$ = miles r\nd4 ,= ?is reason ,i 0 *>g$ !n1 & h be5 s9ce1 ) enc\rag+ ,diss5t1 b ! accusation sits v lightly on me1 = ,i "k :at ,i w\ld r h4 ,no?+ w\ld please me s well z to h ! cl]gy conv]t$1 & tak+ up ! "w2 b if !y w n1 !n ,i w\ld r t ! ,diss5t]s _h ! b5efit1 ?an t x %\ld die out & be lo/4 ,diss5t makes division1 b x is necess>y = vitality1 "u pres5t circum/ances1 & c\nt]acts ! great evil ( spiritual dea?4 ,! light ( ,god ought to be 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 = x is ! ,"l's c&le/ick 9 ?is l&2 b :5 ! tru? is n repres5t$1 & ! ,*ur* is d>k1 x is a m]cy t ,god has be5 pleas$ to raise up witnesses = ,himself 9 o!r bodies4 ,! ,calv9i/1 ) a ne$less bitt]ness1 holds up ,god's sov]eignty1 z if man's w 7 n free2 ! ,arm9ian is equally en]getic = man's responsibility1 z if ,god 7 n sov]eign2 & ! ,quak] is a witness = ! "w ( ! ,_s4 ,^!1 & sev]al o!rs1 ea* ma9ta9 _! p>ticul> doctr9e4 ,!y are rais$ up to %[ respectively _! own portion ( ! light1 because ! ,*ur*1 :i* has 9 h] =mul>ies all ^! great tru?s1 is remiss 9 h] duty4 ,! full blaze ( light :i* ought to be emitt$ f h] to all sides1 is %$ ^u h] 9 detail f o!rs2 & h] memb]s are too (t5 light$ f )\t1 & n f )94 ,9 _m p>i%es !re 0 no light1 & no life or te/imony 9 ! ,*ur*2 & _h x n be5 = ! *apels1 m5 & wom5 might h p]i%$ 9 ignorance & error4 ,imp]fect & errone\s z is "s ( ! ,gospel :i* is prea*$ 9 *apels & rooms1 !re 0 m vitality 9 x1 & also m sav+ p[]1 ?an 9 ! ref9$ & critical tea*+ :i* emanat$ f _m ( ! accr$it$ & accept$ prea*]s ( ! l&4 ,:]e ! ,*ur* 0 ris+ up into en]getic action1 9 too _m cases x _h a sect>ian1 & n a ca?olic object--t is to say1 x 0 aim+ to make ,*ur*m5 & communicants1 or memb]s ( guilds1 in/ead ( proclaim+ ! ,gospel = ! salvation ( s\ls4 ,! sov]eignty ( ,god1 ! responsibility ( man1 & ! "w ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 7 frequ5tly altoge!r ov]look$1 al?\gh ?is is ! true ca?olic tea*+4 ,9 ?is ,i compreh5d n only ! br++ ( s\ls f ! p[] ( ,satan to ,god1 t !y may receive ! =giv5ess ( s9s1 b also t believ]s might g on to h an inh]itance among !m t are sanctifi$ by fai? 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,*ur*ism1 ) its sacram5talism1 is z sect>ian z any =m ( ,diss5t1 ,romanism includ$2 = x falls %ort ( ,god's object1 z decl>$ 9 ! ,^w4 ,:5 ! "w at ,golant *ur* abat$1 ,i _h m "t = look+ ab\t2 s ,i pr(f]$ a visit to ! ,high ,*ur* rector1 :o _h ask$ me to come ov] & tell him ! secret ( my success4 ,he readily fix$ ^u a day1 s ,i w5t ov] to lun*eon2 aft] :i* we began to talk4 ,! curate1 :o 0 pres5t1 & :o _h he>d "s rant]s %\t+ & scream+ 9 ! %ires1 kept on e n[ & !n putt+ 9 a ^w ( caution to re/ra9 ! rector f admitt+ too mu*2 = little by little he 0 yield+ to me4 ,i spoke ( lett+ d[n ! nets = a draught1 & cat*+ m51 n to smo!r & kill !m 9 "s ,*ur* sy/em1 or by "s errone\s tea*+1 b to keep !m alive4 ,?is1 ,i said1 is ! mean+ ( ! ^w 9 ! orig9al2 & we look$ x out 9 ! ,greek4 ,x 0 v int]e/+4 ,we !n talk$ ov] ! diff]5ce betwe5 ! ,*ur* sy/em & t ( ! ,bible4 ,! "o1 ,i said1 makes apo/olic succession & ! sacram5ts ! *annel ( salvation2 ! o!r ! ,^w ( ,god1 z appli$ by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,we _h a great battle on ?is po9t1 two aga9/ "o2 b hav+ ! ,^w ( ,god on my side1 ,i /ood by my exp]i5ce4 ,i _h myself be5 on ! o!r side1 & 0 !n t5 times m zeal\s & e>ne/ ?an ^! two 74 ,i said1 ,i us$ to prea* salvation by ,*ur* & sacram5ts once1 b ,i 0 n sav$ t way4 ,i us$ also to tea* t ! new bir? 0 by ,baptism2 b ,i 0 n born aga9 :5 ,i 0 baptiz$4 ,7 y8 ,are y q sure t1 ) all y\r fai? 9 ,baptismal ,reg5]ation1 y are born aga9 ( ! ,_s8 ,are y satisfi$ t y are n[ sav$ because y are 9 ! ,*ur*8 ,!y 7 dumb4 ,s ,i w5t on to say1 ,i h no p>ty or sect>ian object 9 my "w2 my only desire is to br+ s\ls to ,*ri/ ,himself = salvation4 ,i us$1 z a prie/1 to ?9k ,i 0 m$iator betwe5 ,*ri/ & ! s9n]1 & t ,i _h receiv$ by delegation "s p[] = ?is purpose2 b n[ t ,i h be5 ov] ! gr\nd exp]im5tally1 ,i w\ld z soon blaspheme ,god 9 y\r pres5ce1 z d>e to absolve a s9n]1 or come betwe5 ,*ri/ & him4 ,my ord]s are to br+ !m f ! p[] ( ,satan to ,god1 & to ,*ri/ crucifi$1 = =giv5ess ( s9s4 ,at ?is po9t ! rector br\ght out a pr9t$ s]mon by ,dr4 ,pusey1 on ,ju/ification by ,fai?1 :i* he _h be5 c>efully read+4 ,i ask$ him to read x to me4 ,! fir/ few pages conta9$ /atem5ts ( ! doctr9e 9 ,new ,te/am5t words1 ) a fair exposition ( !m2 b :5 ! au?or same to 8 own ?\ghts ab\t ! subject1 he said t ,baptism 0 ! cause ( ju/ification4 ,"h ,i *all5g$ ! /atem5t1 & said1 ,h y any ref]5ces !re--any '/>s' or 'dagg]s' to t8 ,yes1 he answ]$1 ref]5ces to ! ,fa!rs4 ,i repli$1 t ! ,fa!rs 7 n inspir$1 ,!re is no su* ?+ z ',ju/ification by ,baptism' 9 ! ,scriptures2 x is by fai? only1 z y w see 9 ! fif? *apt] ( ! ,epi/le to ! ,romans4 ,yes1 he said1 t is j :at ,dr4 ,pusey means--,fai?1 z %[n 9 ,baptism4 ,!n1 ,i said1 accord+ to t1 9 y\r ,baptism y 7 ju/ifi$ by ,fai?2 & z a consequ5ce y h peace ) ,god1 & h access into grace1 & rejoice 9 ! hope ( ! glory ( ,god4 ,y w see t ,/4 ,paul connects ?is exp]i5ce ) :at he calls ,ju/ification by ,fai?4 ,evid5tly he did n expect s mu* f ,baptism z y d1 or = a c]ta9ty he w\ld h baptiz$ e "o he c\ld rea*2 b1 in/ead ( ?is1 he ?ank$ ,god t he _h only baptiz$ a few p]sons :om he nam$ 7#a ,cor4 #a3 #ad-ag74 ,he _h gone ab\t = ?ree ye>s1 tea*+ ! ,ephesian ,*ri/ians1 ev5 ) te>s1 & he call$ !m to witness1 n t he _h adm9i/]$ ! sacram5ts1 & done prie/ly "w among !m1 b t he _h ceas$ n to tea*1 & to prea*1 'rep5tance t[>d ,god & fai? t[>d our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/' 7,acts #bj3ba74 ,my two ,high ,*ur* fri5ds 7 n conv9c$1 ?\gh !y c\ld n answ] me4 ,x 0 a "q 9 _! m9ds :o 0 "r1 ,dr4 ,pusey1 or ?is ,fanatical ,revivali/4 ,come1 ,i said1 !re is y\r man-s]vant outside 9 ! g>d52 he 0 conv]t$ two weeks ago2 & ?\gh he _c read1 ,i feel sure he kn[s m ab\t ?is ?an ! au?or ( t le>n$ s]mon4 ,let u call him 9 & read a few pages4 ,we did1 & told him to sit d[n :ile we read a little :ile4 ,! rector began1 &1 z he w5t on1 ,sam's face lit up ) joy1 until ! rector came to ! sacram5tal passages2 ?an any "o c\ld see ,sam's int]e/ 0 gone4 ,he became v re/less1 & at la/ int]rupt+1 said1 respectfully1 ,if y please1 sir1 is !re mu* m ( t8 ,:y1 ,sam1 said 8 ma/]1 don't y l x8 ,no1 sir1 he said2 t man a9't conv]t$ at all6 ,well1 t is /range1 said ! rector2 ,i saw 8 int]e/ w5t (f j at ! v po9t :]e y took exception to ! s]mon4 ,y & ,sam "u /& some?+ t ,i d n "k4 ,?us our s]mon-read+ conclud$1 &1 besides ?is1 my witness _h giv5 8 te/imony4 ,i _h /ay$ already two h\rs long] ?an ,i int5d$1 & 0 tir$ ( talk+4 ,! rector ask$ me to rema91 & d9e ) him1 & promis$ t he w\ld s5d me to *ur* 9 ! ev5+ 9 "t = ! s]vice4 ,i agre$ to ?is2 s he k9dly took me up/airs to wa% & re/4 ,com+ into ! room ) me1 he %ut ! door1 & said 9 confid5ce1 ,i "k y are "r2 my "m taught me all ?is :5 ,i 0 "y6 ,!n1 ,i said1 we _h bett] kneel d[n & pray ab\t x4 ,we did s4 ,9 8 pray] he entreat$ v e>ne/ly t ! scales might fall f 8 eyes1 & t ^! tru?s :i* he lov$ :5 he 0 "y might be br\ght to him aga94 ,he 0 only pray+ = tru?1 & n = p>don & salvation2 s ,i po9t$ ?is out to him4 ,yes--yes1 he said2 ,"l1 save me6 ,"l1 save me6 ,p>don me6 ,i believe he f\nd peace be=e he came d[n2 b x is m difficult to pron\nce 9 ! case ( educat$1 ?an 9 t ( un$ucat$ p4 ,9 ! latt]1 ! transition f d>kness to light & life is (t5 v manife/2 :]eas 9 ! case ( ! educat$1 ! effect is n s cle>4 ,h[ev]1 he came d[n to d9n]1 & x 0 n long be=e he r\s$ ! ang] & contempt ( 8 wife & curate1 by say+1 ,i am conv]t$4 ,!y tri$ h>d to laugh him out ( x1 & ask$ him :i* ( ! *apels he w\ld jo98 ,!y sugge/$ he _h bett] be a ,bryanite2 ,mr4 ,haslam is k+ ( ! ,bryanires2 & s on6 ,i 0 happy to he> all ?is1 & c\ld n help tell+ !m s3 fir/1 because ! rector 0 c\nt$ wor?y ( su* taunts2 &1 secondly1 because _! natural enmity 0 rais$4 ,i said t ,i hop$ !y w\ld bo? be conv]t$ also1 & t v soon4 ,:5 ,i 0 leav+ = my s]vice1 ! rector1 9 bidd+ me good-bye1 said1 t he 0 sorry he c\ld n g ) me2 b w\ld ,i come & prea* 9 8 pulpit on ,sunday8 ,i promis$ t ,i w\ld4 ,on ! way1 ,sam1 :o 0 driv+ me to *ur*1 became mu* excit$1 & seem$ beside himself = joy4 ,putt+ up 8 arms all ( a sudd51 ) re9s & :ip 9 ei!r h&1 9 ! act ( prais+ ,god1 he fright5$ ! horse1 s t x ran away at full spe$4 ,oh1 nev] m9d---nev] m9d6 he said1 don't be fright5$6 ,no d\bt ! old devil 'ud l to upset bo? on u2 b ,i am sure ! de> ,"l w take c>e ( u1 don't fe>4 ,c]ta9ly !re 0 ne$1 = ! horse w5t headlong d[n a long n>r[ hill1 & if any?+ else _h be5 on ! road1 we mu/ h come into disa/r\s collision4 ,we 71 h[ev]1 c>ri$ safely d[n1 & rea*$ ! *ur* 9 good "t4 ,sam's joy1 ,i ne$ sc>cely say1 0 all ab\t ! ma/]'s conv]sion1 & ! fact t ,i 0 to prea* 9 _! *ur* on ,sunday--two circum/ances he did n fail to ann\nce to e "o he met4 ,he put up 8 horse1 & /ay$ = ! s]vice4 ,9 ! aft]-meet+1 :5 he pray$1 he s5t up 8 pray] ) a ?anksgiv+ = ^! two ?+s1 :i* set ! congregation prais+ ,god also4 ,?us ! revival1 :i* began on "o side ( ! riv]1 pass$ ov] to ! o!r1 & br\ght out p f ano!r t[n1 & also villages beyond4 ,!re 0 a great awak5+ 9 t "p ( ! c\ntry4 ,! curate f\nd peace on ! ,sunday1 & _m m2 b n ! rector's wife4 ,%e cont9u$ h] opposition mo/ vigor\sly4 ,! wisdom ( ! s]p5t is se5 9 captur+ ! wife fir/2 b /ill ,i am sure 9 ?is case t ! s]p5t's wisdom 0 outwisdom$1 = h] p]secution made h] husb& pray & "w all ! m e>ne/ly4 ,p 9 ^! days did n reg>d missions s complac5tly z !y d n[4 ,! v idea ( prea*+ night aft] night1 n = "s ,mission>y ,society1 or = collections1 b simply = ! conv]sion ( s\ls & ! salvation ( s9n]s1 seem$ to ca/ a slur ^u ord9>y prea*]s1 z if !y did n aim at su* a ?+2 & ^u p g5]ally1 z if we meant to imply t !y ne$$ x4 ,mo/ c]ta9ly !y did4 ,i believe ord9>y prea*]s 9 ! *ur*es ( t neighb\rhood did n expect conv]sions2 & mo/ ( ! p 7 unconv]t$4 ,i c\ld n help tell+ !m s1 :i* only r\s$ _! wra? s mu* ! m4 ,f ?is place ,i return$ home2 = my prolong$ abs5ce1 ,i f\nd1 0 likely to br+ me into tr\ble4 ,o!r cl]gym5 might g away = mon?s1 travell+ or salmon fi%+2 b if ,i 0 abs5t = a few weeks1 ,i 0 suppos$ to be neglect+ my p>i%4 ,on my return1 ,i _h mu* to tell1 & did n expect to be invit$ out aga9 9 a hurry2 = v few cl]gym5 w\ld will+ly desire to be drawn into su* a :irlw9d ( /orm & tr\ble1 z my visits usually involv$4 ,,*apt] #bc ,a ,mission 9 ,/af=d%ire1 #ahed4 ,,! "w at ,baldhu1 :i* _h be5 go+ on almo/ incessantly = ?ree ye>s1 0 n[ beg9n+ to flag2 t is to say1 !re 0 n t ard5t & eag] att5dance at ! s]vices & meet+s1 to :i* we _h be5 accu/om$ 9 ! revival "t4 ,we _h _h occasional lulls l ?is be=e1 b !y did n la/ m ?an a few weeks2 & !n ! swall[s return$1 & ! bright hot summ] ( "w came aga9 ) its l\d songs & pleasant fruits4 ,?is dullness 0 cont9u+ long] ?an usual2 ! cr[d$ congregations 7 fall+ (f2 /rang]s did n come f a di/ance2 ! p at home 7 n s lively4 ,h[ev]1 ! classes 7 cont9u$1 z also ! s]vices at ! *ur*1 & ! numb] ( communicants did n decrease4 ,/ill any "o c\ld see t ! revival 0 ov]4 ,x 0 r disc\rag+ to me1 & a cause ( triumph to "s outsid]s2 b we 7 occasionally *e]$ by "w among/ visitors1 & ) sick-b$ cases4 ,! majority ( ! p 7 complac5tly wait+ = ano!r tide ( revival2 ?is 0 _! cu/om1 b x sat v uneasily ^u me4 ,i did n l x1 nor agree to x2 b at t "t ,i knew n :at else to d1 b wait z o!rs did4 ,i said t we look$ l vessels :i* _h come s f> up ! riv] ) ! tide2 & n[ t x _h turn$ we 7 /r&$ & fa/ 9 ! mud4 ,sometimes ,i *ang$ ! figure to "o n s ignoble1 & lik5$ ourselves to ! /ately vessels an*or$ 9 ,falm\? h>b\r1 :i* 7 !re because ! w9d 0 contr>y4 ,we 7 w9d-b\nd too1 & dep5d5t on circum/ances2 b my idea ( true religion 0 t we ought n to be l ?is4 ,i r took = our type ! great /eam]s :i* are propell$ by p[]ful eng9es1 & come 9 & g out1 & proce$ on _! voyage )\t reg>d to w9d or tide4 ,we ought to be con/ra9$ ,i said1 f )9 by ! love ( ,god & ?us be enabl$ to %[ ! p[] ( grace by rid+ ov] all ob/acles & triumph+ 9 ! mid/ ( disc\ragem5ts4 ,he give? songs 9 ! night4 ,any bird c s+ 9 ! sun%9e4 ,! self-re/ra9t & self-control ,i _h ex]cis$ 9 my *ur*y days1 & :i* ,i suppos$ 0 d]iv$ f sacram5ts1 ,i f\nd want+ 9 my new "w4 ,we requir$ some?+ ) au?ority1 su* z *ur* & prie/ supply4 ,i c\ld n1 h[ev]1 consci5ti\sly g back to t legal sy/em1 nor did ,i ?9k !re 0 any ne$1 = ,i 0 sure !re 0 some?+ some:]e1 to be _h1 :i* %\ld & w\ld supply our want1 if ,i c\ld b discov] x4 ,x appe>$ to me t my p1 )\t ?is1 7 subject to impulse1 & consequ5tly 9 bondage to _! feel+s4 ,9 ?is "t ( lull ,i f\nd t ! /eadfa/ness ( "s 0 %ak52 b ,i _h kn[n o!rs1 :o _h gone fur!r back ?an ^!1 return at a revival "t ) new vig\r4 ,9 ?is way1 "s ( ! ,corni% p pr(ess$ to be conv]t$ scores ( times4 ,:ile rum9at+ on ^! ?+s & pray+ ov] !m1 ,i 0 surpris$ by receiv+ a lett] press+ me v mu* to come at once & prea* 9 a p>i% 9 ,/af=d%ire1 ne> ,birm+ham4 ,mr4 ,aitk5 _h be5 on a mission 9 ! nor?1 & on 8 return _h /opp$ a night at ?is place1 & prea*$ "o ( 8 al>m+ & awak5+ s]mons4 ,! effect 0 s great t ! p1 toge!r ) _! cl]gyman 7a curate 9 sole *>ge7 7 9 mu* tr\ble & anxiety ab\t _! s\ls2 !re 0 a gloom hang+ ov] !m1 z if !y _h be5 s5t5c$ to "s dreadful doom1 & did n "k :at to d1 or h[ to av]t x4 ,x is a good ?+ to w\nd1 b x %\ld be ) ! object ( mak+ :ole2 x is a bless$ ?+ to %[ s9n]s _! lo/ condition1 b only = ! purpose ( gett+ !m to lay hold ( ! great salvation :i* is provid$ = su*4 ,9 8 p]plexity ! curate w5t to see ! ,bi%op 7,lonsdale7 ( ,li*field4 ,:5 8 lord%ip _h asc]ta9$ ! cause ( ! tr\ble1 he took up a pamphlet :i* 0 ly+ on ! table1 & said1 ,if y _c get ,mr4 ,aitk5 back1 s5d = ?is g5tleman1 & pay 8 exp5ses4 ,?is g5tleman1 meant ! au?or ( ! pamphlet1 :i* 8 lord%ip held 9 8 h&1 namely1 myself2 8 "n & address are "h4 said ! ,bi%op2 take ! book & read x c>efully2 he seems to h bo? k & exp]i5ce 9 su* matt]s4 ,i 0 writt5 to =?)1 & ! lett] urg$ me to come at once4 ,9 compliance1 ,i />t$ (f t night1 & rea*+ ! place on ,saturday aft]noon1 op5$ a mission ! same ev5+ )\t fur!r notice4 ,on ,sunday ,i prea*$ ?ree times1 & w5t to ! s*ool-room = ! aft]-meet+4 ,!re we _h a sc5e :i*1 = noise & confusion 0 q ,corni%4 ,m5 & wom5 cri$ al\d = m]cy1 :ile "s believ]s :o 7 !re %\t$ = joy4 ,! curate 9 *>ge 0 completely bewild]$1 b felt he c\ld d no?+2 & see+1 z he rem>k$1 t ,i appe>$ to und]/& x & "k :at ,i 0 ab\t1 he ?\ght he _h bett] rema9 /ill1 till ! noisy meet+ 0 ov]4 ,t same night1 be=e he retir$1 he gave 8 he>t to ,god4 ,! "w w5t on 9 ?is place ) ! =ce z ( an explosion2 j z if hungry desires _h be5 p5t up a long "t1 & n[ !y _h v5t & opportunity to be satisfi$4 ,! *ur* 0 cr[d$3 e day1 ev5 9 ! week2 & we 7 kept 9 ! s*oolroom night aft] night till twelve & "o o'clock4 ,! t[n 0 a d>k1 smoky1 sulphury place1 & ! air fill$ ) exhalations & iron fil+s f ! v>i\s works4 ,x 0 a dreadful atmosph]e1 & ev]y?+ 0 black & dirty2 ! r$ fires f ! furnaces ar\nd gl>$ all night long & pres5t$ an awful appe>ance4 ,to come f ! pure air & beautiful sc5]y ( ,cornwall into su* a place z ?is1 0 mo/ try+ & uncom=table2 b ! rew>d 0 great4 ,! "w 0 deeply int]e/+1 & scores ( m5 & wom5 ( all classes1 besides five cl]gym51 pr(ess$ to be conv]t$ t week4 ,! devil did n leave u alone2 he 0 v angry1 & rais$ up a great opposition4 ,! rector ( ! old *ur*1 :o us$ to be mo/ b5evol5t & smil+1 sudd5ly *ang$1 & made x 8 bus9ess to call on ! curate 9 *>ge ( ! *ur*1 to tell him t he 0 q sure t 8 fri5d ! vic> 7:o 0 away at ! "t 9 ill heal?7 w\ld nev] h sanction$ ?is excitem5t4 ,! curate said t ! ,bi%op _h bid him invite ,mr4 ,haslam1 & t he _h done s1 n kn[+ any?+ fur!r ab\t me or my "w4 ,! rector w5t (f to write to ! ,bi%op =?)1 & 9 ! meantime ord]$ bills to be po/$ all ov] ! t[n1 w>n+ p aga9/ ! ,corni% fanaticism at ,/4 ,james's1 :i*1 ( c\rse1 _h ! effect ( draw+ out a great] conc\rse ( p4 ,:at ) excessive "w & bad air1 by ,friday ev5+ ,i 0 q exhau/$4 ,i came out ( ! pulpit to ! ve/ry1 & rememb]+ t ,corni% m9]s1 9 ord] to recov] !mselves aft] climb+ ladd]s1 (t5 f\nd x necess>y to lie d[n flat on ! gr\nd1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld try ! same plan = a few mom5ts :ile ! p 7 go+ out to ! s*oolroom4 ,i did s2 & :ile ,i 0 9 ?is position a cl]gyman came 9 & ask$ me if ,i 0 ill4 ,no1 ,i said1 ,i am only re/+ = a %ort "t4 ,v well1 he said1 re/ on2 b li/5 to me4 ,! ,bi%op has s5t me "h to see & he> y1 & ?is is my report to 8 lord%ip4 ,op5+ out a pap] he held 9 8 h&1 he read3 ,/4 ,james's cramm$ to excess ) a mo/ ord]ly & devotional congregation2 _! att5tion to ! s]mon m>k$ & rivet$2 s]mon f ,/4 ,luke xv1 v]se #b1 ',?is ,man receive? s9n]s1 & eate? ) !m4' ,! exposition ( *apt] mo/ vivid & in/ructive2 nev] he>d bett]1 or s good2 ! application f]v5t & po9t$2 altoge!r1 mo/ edify+ s]vice4 ,!re1 t is my report1 s y ne$ n be afraid ( any?+ y he>4 ,i w tell ! ,bi%op all ab\t x4 ,?ank y v mu* = :at ,i h he>d4 ,god bless y4 ,good-night6 ,oh1 ,i said1 spr++ up f ! gr\nd1 d n g yet6 ! be/ "p is to come4 ,y h only se5 me let d[n ! nets2 come n[ & see !m pull$ up4 ,:at is t8 he said1 ,:]e am ,i to come8 ,to ! s*oolroom1 ,i repli$1 dive/+ myself ( my g[n & b&s1 & putt+ on my coat ) all ha/e4 ,come ) me6 ,he seem$ a little afraid1 & ask$ _m que/ions4 ,:5 we rea*$ ! place we c\ld sc>cely get 91 & ! noise c]ta9ly 0 trem5d\s4 ,:at is all ?is confusion ab\t8 he ask$4 ,i ?9k ,i _h bett] n g 9 to-night4 ,oh1 come 91 come 96 ,i said2 d n fe>4 ,b someh[ he slipp$ (f 9 ! d>k1 & ,i did n see him aga94 ,:5 ,i ent]$1 almo/ ! fir/ ?+ ,i notic$ 0 ! two curates ( ! p>i% *ur*1 tak+ notes4 ,h[ev]1 ,i did n he$ !m1 or ask to see :at !y _h writt52 = ,i w\ld always r h real "w1 ?\gh ) a noise1 ?an ord]ly1 respectable /illness1 & spiritual dea?4 ,on ,saturday ,i re/$1 b 0 v unwell all day1 & did n "k h[ ,i %\ld be able to "w on ,sunday4 ,:5 ! morn+ arriv$1 my /r5g? & voice 7 gone2 x 0 impossible to prea*4 ,! p met toge!r & _h a pray] meet+ be=e ! s]vice1 ask+ ! ,"l to re/ore me4 ,! curate 0 s mu* *e]$1 t he came to me & said1 ,if y only get up & try1 we feel sure y w be able to prea*4 ,i got up1 b _h to g to b$ aga91 = ,i 0 v ill4 ,j be=e elev5 o'clock a visitor arriv$1 a v que]-look+ little man1 9 a black suit ( ,quak] cut1 & a college cap )\t a tassel1 ) ! corn]s ( ! squ>e bo>d r\nd$ (f4 ,/&+ by my b$-side 9 ?is co/ume1 he said t he 0 a conv]t ( ,mr4 ,aitk5's1 & _h come all ! way f ,birm+ham to he> me4 ,moreov]1 he said1 ,i am a h]bal doctor4 ,please let me feel y\r pulse4 ,he did s1 & look+ grave1 s\nd$ my lungs1 put 8 e> to my *e/ & !n ask$1 ,:at is ! matt] ) y\r left lung8 ,i repli$1 ,i don't "k4 ,?ree doctors told me1 m ?an f\rte5 ye>s ago1 t x 0 all gone4 ,well1 he said1 y /ay quietly 9 b$ till ,i come aga9 at half-pa/ elev54 ,:5 he return$1 he bade me get up & dress1 & !n gave me a cupful ( some?+ v hot ) cay5ne1 at ! same "t tell+ me t ,i %\ld be q /rong en\gh to prea* by twelve o'clock4 ,s ,i 04 ,i prea*$ t morn+1 & aga9 9 ! aft]noon2 aft] t ,i w5t to b$ till six o'clock1 :5 ,i took ano!r dose1 & 9 ! /r5g? ( x prea*$ a long1 l\d s]mon to a cr[d$ congregation2 aft] :i* ,i att5d$ ! aft]-meet+1 & 0 !re till twelve o'clock at night4 ,i !n set (f to ! /ation1 accompani$ by at lea/ two hundr$ p1 & left by ! "o o'clock tra9 = ,birm+ham1 to ! h\se ( my new fri5d ! h]bal doctor4 ,he nurs$ me l a "m1 & let me g on my way home to ,cornwall ! next day4 ,i nev] he>d any m ( ! rector ( ! p>i%1 or ( ! ,bi%op1 b 0 frequ5tly *e]$ by lett]s say+ t ! "w ?us begun 0 go+ on week aft] week 9 ! same place4 ,"s ye>s aft]1 :5 ,i 0 pass+1 ,i /opp$ !re = a few days1 & gave !m a lift1 z !y call$ x2 & ,i !n saw ) half a glance t !y _h become practis$ work]s--t bo? cl]gym5 & p 7 fitt$ to missionize ! :ole c\ntry side4 ,"o's great object 9 ?is mission "w is n only to save s\ls1 b to enc\rage believ]s to d _! "p2 t s ! effect ( a mission may be cont9u$ & ext5d$4 ,god has a tw(old bless+ = u4 ,he says ,i w bless !e & make !e a bless+2 & x is well to rememb] t ! b5efits we receive are n s mu* to be kept = self1 z to be imp>t$ & transmitt$ to o!rs1 ev5 z !y 7 transmitt$ to u4 ,,*apt] #bd ,sanctification4 ,!n ,i return$ f ! f>-(f mission 9 ,/af=d%ire1 :e!r f ov] fatigue or o!r causes1 ,i 0 mu* depress$ 9 m9d z well z body1 & q out ( he>t ) ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&4 ,x is true ,i f\nd ! conv]t$ p 9 ,/af=d%ire 7 n s leav5$ ) ,diss5t z 9 ,cornwall1 & t !re 0 "s atta*m5t to ! ,*ur*2 b /ill ,i c\ld see t ,*ur*m5 !re1 z else:]e1 di/ru/$ spirituality1 & pref]r$ to "w on _! own ecclesia/ical or sacram5tal l9es2 !y *ose to draw wat] to qu5* _! ?ir/1 r ?an to ask1 & receive 7directly f ,*ri/7 ! liv+ wat]4 ,if a bi%op accid5tally invit$ me1 ( if a cl]gyman cordially did s1 !y 7 m>k$ exceptions4 ,i felt myself to be obnoxi\s to ! majority ( my cl]ical bre?r5 :o pr(ess$ to repres5t ! ,*ur*2 b someh[1 ,i 0 conv9c$ t1 z a conv]t$ cl]gyman1 ,i repres5t$ ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& m truly ?an !y1 & t ! pr9ciples ( ! ,re=mation 7 ! pr9ciples ,i 0 work+ ^u4 ,?is 0 trial f outside1 :i*1 h[ev] try+ to fle% & blood1 is by no means s bad z misgiv+ f )94 ,i 0 disc\rag$ also ab\t ! "w 9 :i* ,i _h be5 engag$2 = !re 0 evid5tly an imp]fection ab\t x4 ,i obs]v$ t "s p ov] :om ,i rejoic$ z conv]t$1 w5t back to _! =m] worldl9ess1 :i* p]plex$ & tr\bl$ me m ?an ,i c describe4 ,i knew f my own exp]i5ce t conv]sion 0 necess>y to salvation & a new life2 b :5 p pr(ess$ to be sav$1 & did n live a new life1 ,i 0 sure !re 0 some?+ wrong4 ,my de> fri5d1 ,mr4 ,aitk51 said1 ,my bro!r1 ?is "w is ! ,"l's2 y mu/ g to ,him & ask :at is wrong4 ,lie on y\r face be=e ,him till ,he %[s y ,8 w ab\t ! matt]6 ,?is ,i did2 =1 %utt+ myself up 9 ! *ur*1 ,i cri$ to ! ,"l till ,i felt t an answ] w\ld come 9 due "t4 ,soon aft]1 ,i 0 l$ to prea* f ! text1 ,?r\gh ?is ,man is prea*$ unto y ! =giv5ess ( s9s2 & by ,him all t believe are ju/ifi$ f all ?+s 7,acts #ac3ch1 #ci74 ,?is op5$ my eyes to see t ! proclamation 0 tw(old-t ?r\gh ,*ri/ ,jesus1 p>don 0 (f]$ to any & e s9n] z su*1 & moreov]1 t by ! same ,*ri/ ,jesus1 e believ]--t is1 e "o :o _h receiv$ ! =giv5ess ( 8 s9s--0 ju/ifi$ f all ?+s4 ,^? :o "k h[ old famili> texts fla% ^u ! m9d ) new mean+1 w und]/& my surprise4 ,god 0 speak+ to me 9 answ] to my inquiry4 ,i _h be5 prea*+ =giv5ess & salvation ?r\gh ! blood-%$d+ & dea? ( ,*ri/2 & conf9+ myself to ?is1 z if salvation 7 all4 ,i n[ saw t ,i _h n prea*$ ab\t ,ju/ification to believ]s1 z fully z ,i _h dwelt on ! subject ( p>don to s9n]s2 inde$1 t ,i _h prea*$ to believ]s ! same ,gospel :i* ,i prea*$ to !m be=e !y 7 conv]t$2 t is1 t ,*ri/ di$ = _! s9s1 b n ! yea r1 t is ris5 aga94 ,no wond] !y did n /&1 if _! /&+-place be=e ,god _! ,fa!r 0 n simply & pla9ly put be=e !m4 ,believ]s hav+ be5 br\ght f dea? unto life1 f ! cross to ! resurrection-side ( ,*ri/'s grave1 %\ld be l$ to ! ,?rone ( ,grace1 :]e ,*ri/ sits at ! "r h& ( ,god1 mak+ int]cession = !m4 ,once enlight5$ on ! subject1 x 0 easy to see t ?is tru? 0 set =? all ?r\gh ! ,bible4 ,= in/ance1 :5 ! prodigal son receiv$ p>don1 imm$iately 8 fa!r call$ ! s]vants & said unto !m1 ,br+ =? ! be/ robe & put x on him1 & put a r+ on 8 h& & %oes on 8 feet4 ,"h1 besides p>don1 is /&+--union--/r5g?2 & ov] & beyond ^!1 ! fea/ ( rejoic+4 ,:5 ! *ildr5 ( ,israel 7 br\ght out ( ,egypt1 x 0 n t !y %\ld escape f bondage only1 b t !y %\ld be l$1 & ev5 c>ri$1 by ,god ?r\gh ! wild]ness4 ,moses illu/rat$ ?is 9 a simple yet compreh5sive figure1 :5 he wrote1 ,z an eagle /irre? up h] ne/1 flutt]e? ov] h] "y1 spreade? abroad h] w+s1 take? !m1 be>e? !m on h] w+s3 s ! ,"l alone did lead him1 & !re 0 no /range god ) him 7,deut4 #cb3aa1 #ab74 ,! ?\s&s :o p]i%$ 9 ! wild]ness 7 p]sons ( :om x may be said t !y pr(ess$ to come up out ( ,egypt1 & did s 9 act2 b ,god1 :o looks ^u ! he>t1 saw t !y 7 /ill l+]+ 9 t place2 = :5 !y 7 9 tr\ble1 !y said1 ,w\ld ,god t we _h di$ 9 ! l& ( ,egypt6 or w\ld ,god we _h di$ 9 ! wild]ness6 ,let u make a capta91 & let u return into ,egypt 7,num4 #ad3b-d74 ,?is is "o secret ( ! go+ back :i* ,i h notic$4 ,p came out z conv]t$1 ^: he>ts 7 /ill entangl$ 9 ! ?+s ( ?is _w1 or 9 "s besetm5ts ) :i* !y 7 fett]$4 ,^? :o are really conv]t$ %\ld come out1 z ,caleb & ,jo%ua did4 ,!y left ,egypt beh9d !m altoge!r1 & f9ally1 9 _! trials & tr\bles 9 ! wild]ness1 !y look$ = deliv]ance1 n 9 go+ back1 b 9 go+ =w>d1 assur$ t if lions 7 be=e1 !re 7 dragons beh9d4 ,ano!r lesson :i* we may le>n f ^! two1 is1 t !y comp>$ difficulties & giants1 n ) !mselves1 b ) ! ,"l4 ,x 0 true t !y 7 n able to conqu] _! enemies or take _! cities1 b1 z !y said1 ! ,"l is able to give u ! victory4 ,9 ?is ,i saw h[ ,jo%ua tru/$ ,god1 also h[ ,god wr\ght a great deliv]ance4 ,i urg$ ! p to consid] t we 7 n creat$ & r$eem$ to be sav$1 b sav$ to glorify ,god 9 our lives2 b ,i grieve to say1 ?is tea*+ did n meet ) ! acceptance ,i hop$ =4 ,i wond]$ at _! sl[ness ( he>t to believe 9 ! ris5 ,*ri/1 & 0 sure t ?is 0 reason en\gh = _! in/ability2 & ,i felt t !re w\ld be no?+ else :ile !y cont9u$ to receive only a "p ( ! ,gospel in/ead ( ! :ole4 ,"o ?+ leads to ano!r4 ,:ile ,i 0 ?us mak+ discov]ies1 my att5tion 0 drawn to a hymn :i* spoke ( ,jordan's /ream1 & dea?'s cold flood1 z if !y 7 ! same ?+4 ,n[1 ,i _h always reg>d$ ,jordan z dea?2 b ! "q 9 my m9d 0--,:at is all t fight+ & conqu]+ 9 ! l& ( ,canaan1 if ,canaan repres5ts heav58 ,i obs]v$1 moreov]1 t ! ,israelites 7 on ! def5sive 9 ! wild]ness1 & on ! aggressive on ! o!r side ( ,jordan2 t !y 7 l$ by ! cl\d on ! "o1 & by a liv+ ,p]son on ! o!r2 t !y 7 daily su/a9$ ) manna1 z *ildr51 on ! "o side1 & ate ! old corn ( ! l&1 z m5 ( ,israel1 on ! o!r1 besides s[+ & reap+ = !mselves4 ,^! /rik+' m>ks ( contra/ excit$ mu* inquiry1 & n obta9+1 ) suffici5t def9it5ess1 ! satisfaction ,i s\ght1 ,i w5t to ! ,"l ab\t ?is1 z be=e4 ,i confess$ my %ortcom+s1 & ! defectiv5ess ( my tea*+1 & plead$ e>ne/ly1 ,"l1 :at w\ld/ ,?\ h me to d8 ,:at ,i "k n1 tea* ,?\ me6 ,!n ,i 0 br\ght into ! deepe/ di/ress & p]plexity ( s\l1 to ?9k t aft] my exp]i5ce ( conv]sion1 & all ,i _h done = ! conv]sion ( o!rs1 ,i 0 /ill su* a vile1 self-condemn$ s9n]4 ,i ev5 began to ?9k t ,i _h nev] be5 conv]t$2 x appe>$ to me t my :ole life 0 no?+ b int5se selfi%ness2 t ,i avail$ myself ( ! blood ( ,*ri/ = my salvation & happ9ess1 & l$ o!rs to d ! same1 rejoic+ ) !m 9 ?us mak+ use ( ,god = ! purpose ( gett+ quit ( hell & ga9+ heav54 ,x 0 a cle> case ( mak+ ,god s]ve me1 in/ead ( my s]v+ ,him4 ,_m o!r ?+s came to my m9d1 by :i* ,i knew !re 0 an imm5se gap betwe5 my exp]i5ce & ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,i c see x all n[2 b at ! "t x 0 v d>k & griev\s4 ,:5 ,i _h be5 "u conviction be=e1 at ! "t ( my conv]sion1 x 01 z x 71 ) my eyes %ut2 b n[ !y 7 op53 !n ,i saw my s9s1 & ! p5alty :i* 0 due to !m2 n[ ,i saw my unrighte\sness1 & ! corruption ( my nature4 ,i felt z if ,i 7 two p]sons1 & t !re 0 a law 9 my memb]s w>r+ aga9/ ! law ( my m9d1 ! fle% cont5d+ aga9/ ! ,_s4 ,o wret*$ man t ,i am6 :o %all deliv] me f ! body ( ?is dea?8 ,= a :ole week ,i 0 9 great di/ress ( m9d1 especially dur+ ! la/ ?ree days4 ,on ,sunday morn+1 z ,i 0 go+ to ! e>ly ,communion1 my s\l 0 set at lib]ty4 ,i felt z if a great cl\d 0 lift$ up2 ! light %one into my s\l2 & ,i _h deliv]ance4 ,i 0 exce$+ly happy 9 ! k t ! ris5 ,*ri/ ,himself 0 my help---t ,he :o _h hidd5 ,8 pres5ce 9 a pill> ( cl\d & fire1 n[ 0 ,himself pres5t 9 p]son1 my omnipot5t ,fri5d & lead]6 ,?is 0 q a new exp]i5ce1 & "o ,i _h n kn[n be=e4 ,i ?\ght t ,i _h n ev5 he>d or read ( x1 & !re=e began to suspect :e!r x 0 a temptation4 ,i det]m9$ to be wise1 & n commit myself too soon1 s made up my m9d t ,i w\ld n ref] to x 9 ! pulpit4 ,b at ! close ( ! s]vice a /rang] came into ! ve/ry to ?ank me = my s]mon2 & :5 we 7 alone he put ! "q to me1 ,h[ long h y kn[n ,sanctification8 ,i repli$1 ,d ,i "k x n[8 ,yes1 he said1 y prea*$ x exp]im5tally ?is morn+2 & ,i %all be v mu* surpris$ if y h n "s inquiries on ! subject be=e ! day is out4 ,i felt reprov$ be=e ?is /rang]'s /eady gaze1 & confess$ t ,i _h receiv$ ! bless+ t v morn+2 b ?9k+ t x might be a temptation1 ,i _h det]m9$ to say no?+ ab\t x4 ,he said1 ,t 0 a temptation f ! devil1 sure en\gh1 to h9d] y2 = ! ,"l spoke on ?is subject ?r\gh y\r s]mon z de>ly z ev] ,i h he>d4 ,d n be afraid1 b g on & tell o!rs4 ,s 9 ! ev5+ ,i prea*$ on ,sanctification1 & we _h an aft]-meet+ 9 ! s*oolroom4 ,_m believ]s /ay$ beh9d to ask que/ions ^u ! subject ( my s]mon4 ,i d n rememb] h[ ,i repli$ to !m2 b imp]fect z my /atem5ts mu/ h be51 x nev]!less l$ o!rs to desire to ent] into ! exp]i5ce ( ?is same bless+4 ,! foll[+ morn+1 ,i happ5$ to take up a tract by ,john ,flet*]1 ( ,madeley1 9 :i* ,i read1 t at a breakfa/ p>ty on ! occasion ( a w$d+1 to :i* he 0 invit$1 j 9 ! middle ( idle & frivol\s conv]sation :i* 0 go+ on1 he 0 con/ra9$ to rise up & say1 ,i h ?ree times _h an exp]i5ce ( joy & lib]ty1 :i* ,i believe to be ,sanctification1 & x has pass$ away2 n[ t x has return$ aga91 ,i take ?is opportunity to te/ify4 ,! company 7 all /ruck ) amazem5t2 ! p[] ( ,god 0 pres5t2 & ! fe/ive ga!r+ 0 turn$ into a meet+ = pray] & praise4 ,i took w>n+ f ?is tract nev] to )hold my te/imony on ?is subject4 ,soon aft] ?is1 ,i 0 hold+ an aft]noon ,bible class 9 ano!r "p ( ! p>i%2 we 7 go+ ?r\gh ,/4 ,luke's gospel1 & _h come to ! fif? *apt]2 ,i said ) ref]5ce to ! miracul\s draught ( fi%es1 t ! fi% _h be5 swimm+ ab\t 9 _! native elem5t 9 all quietness & fre$om1 till !y came 9 contact ) a net1 & x came 9 contact ) ?orn4 ,obs]ve1 ,i said1 ?ree ?+s3 #a4 ,!y are caught 9 ! net4 #b4 ,!y are drawn out ( _! native elem5t4 #c4 ,!y are laid 9 ! boat at ! feet ( ,*ri/4 ,s x is1 :]e p are caught 9' ! ,gospel net--?is is conviction2 !y are drawn out ( ! /ate 9 :i* !y 7--?is is conv]sion2 b !y are n yet 9 ! /ate 9 :i* !y %\ld be1 ?is is :y x is s h>d to hold !m3 !y ought to be drawn to ,*ri/ ,himself1 = ?is is ! ultimate object ( cat*+ s\ls2 ! "o ?+ ne$ful is to be br\ght to ! feet ( ,*ri/4 ,i int5tionally ab/a9$ f us+ ! ^w ,sanctification1 ?\gh ,i 0 endeav\r+ to typify ! exp]i5ce ( x1 & to contra/ x ) conv]sion4 ,z ,i w5t on speak+1 a woman 9 ! small assemble put up h] h&s & began to %\t & praise ,god1 ,t is ,sanctification6 %e cri$2 ,i h x6 ,i "k x6 ,praise ! ,"l6 ,!re 0 a great /ir ! class2 "s cri$1 & "s ask$ que/ions4 ,"o woman1 :o 0 m advanc$ 9 g5]al k & exp]i5ce ?an mo/ ( ! o!rs decl>$1 t %e did n believe 9 ,sanctification1 = %e _h kn[n s _m :o pr(ess$ to h x1 & _h lo/ x4 ,lo/ :at8 ,i said1 y _c lose an exp]i5ce2 ! joy ( x may dep>t1 & c]ta9ly does :]e p re/ on _! feel+s in/ead ( ! fact1 on ! effect1 in/ead ( ! cause4 ,%e confus$ ! sanctification ( ! believ]1 ) ! effect x produc$ on him4 ,! ,_s :i* works sanctification 9 our s\ls c keep u 9 x1 if we cont9ue to look to ,him1 in/ead ( look+ at ,8 "w1 ,i said to h]1 :at ,i h said ev] s9ce to all :o are incl9$ to argue on ! subject3 ,believ]s too (t5 dispute ab\t ,sanctification1 9 ! same mann] z ! unconv]t$ d on ! subject ( ,ju/ification4 ,x is n wor? :ile = ^? :o "k1 to cont5d ) ^? :o only ?9k4 ,i told h] to g home & pray ab\t x & ask ! ,"l if ,he _h any?+ m to give1 to let h] h x4 ,%e 0 sull51 & h>d to p]suade2 b aft] a little m conv]sation & pray]1 %e cons5t$ to lay aside h] prejudice & d z ,i _h told h]4 ,%e did s1 & came aga9 ! next morn+ to see me4 ,=tunately1 ,i 0 n 9 my h\se1 b %ut up1 z my cu/om 0 9 ! *ur* = m$itation & pray]4 ,%e foll[$ me ?i!r1 b be+ engag$ ) my ,ma/]1 ,i answ]$ no knocks or taps1 :e!r at ! doors or w9d[s2 ev5 on ?is occasion ,i did n respond1 al?\gh ,i he>d "s "o walk+ r\nd & r\nd ! *ur* & knock+ impati5tly = admittance4 ,:5 ,i came out1 ,i he>d t ,hannah--_h call$ & wi%$ v mu* to see me2 = %e want$ 7to use h] own expression7 to hug ! de> head ( him1 if %e c\ld cat* him4 ,%e 0 happy beyond expression1 = %e _h _h a dream2 & :at is m %e said t %e _h ent]$ into ! second bless+4 ,9 h] dream %e saw a well ( wat] z cle> z cry/al2 x 0 beautiful1 & ! clean pebbles at ! bottom q gli/5$ ) brightness1 s t %e c\ld c\nt !m4 ,!re1 !re1 %e said1 ,:at does any "o want cle>] & clean] ?an t8 ,z %e look$ into ?is cle> well1 my voice said to h]1 ,?r[ a pebble into x1 :5 %e did s2 9 an in/ant ! wat] became ?ick & dirty4 ,ah1 said my voice aga91 ,! wat] ( grace is always cle> z cry/al1 b ! well 9 :i* x is--t is y\r he>t is mo/ unclean4 ,! ,"l c give y a clean he>t1 & r5ew a "r _s )9 y 7,ps4 #ea3aj74 ,%e woke up f h] sleep1 & imm$iately began to pray1 ask+ ! ,"l = a clean he>t1 until %e obta9$ x4 ,"s may say1 ,b :at did %e obta98 ,?is "q is seldom if ev] ask$ by p]sons :o "k ! exp]i5ce ( ?is bless+2 b to ^? :o d n1 x is v difficult to convey an idea ( :at x is by def9itions4 ,let x be en\gh to und]/& t !re is some?+ desirable to be _h1 :i* may be obta9$ by do+ z ! woman did4 ,z 9 wat] face answ]e? to face1 s ! he>t ( man to man 7,prov4 #bg3ai74 ,^? :o "k x1 und]/& "o ano!r & rejoice toge!r4 ,!re is no su* mutual sympa?y & joy z t :i* bre?r5 h :o are p>tak]s ( ?is high] bless+4 ,aft] ?is1 ,hannah became a re/ful1 peaceful s\l2 & _m o!rs1 ) h]1 f\nd t quiet confid5ce :i* c only belong to ^? :o c & d tru/ a ris5 & liv+ ,*ri/4 ,x 0 q a new era 9 ! "w1 & call$ out fre% en]gies2 b l e new ?+1 x absorb$ too mu* att5tion1 to ! exclusion ( ! simple ,gospel = ! unsav$4 ,*ri/ di$ = our s9s1 is only "p ( ! ,gospel1 ?\gh a v important "p4 ,*ri/ rose aga9 ! ?ird day accord+ to ! ,scriptures 7#a ,cor4 #ae3c1 #d71 is also a "p1 :i* %\ld n be omitt$ 9 its due "t & place4 ,^! two important tru?s1 ,i am sure1 are ne$ful = scriptural "w1 & !y %\ld bo? be sy/ematically prea*$4 ,,*apt] #be ,! ,removal1 #ahee4 ,:5 ,i 0 on ! eve ( leav+ ,p]ranzabuloe1 & be=e ,i knew t ,i 0 to g1 ,i felt !re 0 a gulf betwe5 ! p & myself4 ,:atev] else !y held !y 7 q ignorant ( ecclesia/ical antiquities1 ,*ur* hi/ory1 & ,ca?olic tru?2 :at is m1 !y 7 unwill+ to le>n ab\t su* matt]s4 ,n[ ,i began to feel t ano!r gulf 0 op5+ betwe5 my pres5t p & myself4 ,x 0 n z be=e1 ab\t ecclesia/ical ?+s2 b on ano!r score altoge!r4 ,i want$ !m to believe 9 a liv+ ,savi\r3 !y 7 try+ to cont5t !mselves ) salvation in/ead4 ,i want$ !m to tru/ ! ,giv]3 !y pref]r$ to rejoice 9 ! gift4 ,i long$ to lead !m on to tru/ ,*ri/ z ! object ( fai?1 & f ?is to g on to devote !mselves to ,8 s]vice1 = v love ( ,him--to be loos$ f ! pres5t _w1 by ! hope ( ! ,"l's com+4 ,i c\ld n get ! p to receive ?is tea*+1 ?\gh x 0 ,god's tru?1 & c\ld be v]ifi$ by ! ,^w4 ,i confess t ?is ?reefold tru? 0 n s satisfy+ to my own s\l z ,i expect$ x w\ld be4 ,i rememb]$ t ,i _h n le>n$ x f m5 or books1 b exp]im5tally1 by ,god's tea*+1 9 answ] to pray]4 ,i c\ld n imag9e :at 0 want+1 & did n discov]1 = sev]al ye>s aft]1 t ! m]e k ( a tru? by itself1 ev5 ?\gh x is ab\t ,*ri/1 _c deliv]4 ,x is n ! tru? ( ,*ri/ t deliv]s1 b ! ,*ri/ ( ! tru?4 ,9 itself1 x is b an in/rum5t 9 ! h& ( ! ,_s2 & our expectation %\ld be n f x1 b f ! ,div9e ,p]son1 ^: x is4 ,i h f\nd t ! p[] is ,*ri/ ,himself2 t :]e ,he is really ! object ( fai?1 ,he keeps ! believ] 9 peace2 & t if !re is no peace1 x is only because !re is a defici5cy ( tru/3 t ,he1 z ! object ( love1 con/ra9s u to "w = ,8 ,fa!r's glory2 & t ,he1 z ! object ( hope1 c & does sep>ate u f ! _w & its entanglem5ts1 by draw+ our affections to ?+s above & beyond ! pres5t4 ,n hav+ discov]$ ?is simple yet important tru?1 ,i 0 re/less2 & f ,god's ,^w came d[n to read ! words' & ?\ghts ( m54 ,i fell 9 ) ! ,life ( ,madame ,guyon4 ,"h ,i f\nd mu* sympa?y1 b someh[ n t peace ,i 0 look+ =4 ,!n ,i read ! writ+s ( ! ,port ,royal s*ool1 ! ,jans5i/s1 ,butl]'s ,lives ( ! ,sa9ts1 & o!r su* books4 ,^! div]t$ my m9d1 employ$ & int]e/$ x2 b ,i _c say !y satisfi$ me4 ,i 0 crav+ = some?+ :i* ,i _h n f\nd yet1 & _h to wait ?ree ye>s or m be=e ,i did s4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,i 0 invit$ to g to a p>i% 9 ,plym\?1 to a *ur* :]e sacram5tal tea*+ 0 ! rule4 ,! incumb5t 0 evid5tly z mu* dissatisfi$ ) ! /ate ( 8 congregation z ,i 0 ) m9e4 ,he want$ some?+ new1 & ,i ?\ght ,i did likewise4 ,accord+ly ,i w5t & prea*$ 9 8 pulpit1 & ! ^w spok5 produc$ a m>k$ s5sation4 ,my s]mon br\ght to ! vic>'s m9d _m tru?s he _h he>d & lov$ 9 e>ly days1 & = ?is reason he urg$ me to /ay & prea* aga94 ,!n1 to my surprise4 ,he invit$ me to leave ,cornwall & come to ,plym\?4 9 ord] to take a di/rict 9 8 p>i%1 t ,i might help him occasionally 9 8 *ur*4 ,?is 0 altoge!r su* an uns\ght-= ?+1 & s unexpect$1 t ,i took "t to consid]4 ,! next day ,i told him t ,i c\ld n ent]ta9 8 proposition1 & t = ?ree reasons3-- #a4 ,i said1 ,i am sure t ! ,bi%op w\ld n cons5t4 #b4 ,i h a debt laid on me by my patron = ne>ly #c1jjj l41 :i* ,i sp5t 9 build+ ! *ur* = him4 #c4 ,i am responsible = a debt ( #cjj l4 z security4 ,he /ill urg$ x1 & said he w\ld g & see ! ,bi%op1 & speak ) him on ! subject4 ,9 8 zeal he set (f t v morn+4 ,! ,bi%op at fir/ said flatly1 ,no2 & !n1 ^u fur!r inquiry1 recall$ ! ^w1 & said1 ,y may try x if y w4 ,he return$ 9 ! ev5+ ) ?is in=mation1 :i* surpris$ me greatly4 ,b :at made me wond] /ill m1 0 ! receipt ( two lett]s ! next morn+ by ! same po/--"o f ,london & ! o!r f ,p>is1 releas+ me f ! responsibility ( ! two debts2 & ?is )\t any reque/ on my "p4 ,! ?ree difficulties1 :i* 7 l m\nta9s be=e me only ?ree days be=e1 7 n[ remov$4 ,i did n "k :at to say1 & !re=e det]m9$1 9 all ha/e1 to g home & consid] ! /ep4 ,:5 ,i _h relat$ ^! a/oni%+ circum/ances to my de> wife1 we agre$ to g toge!r to consult ) ,mr4 ,aitk54 ,on arriv+ ,i said to him1 ,y mu/ please to sit /ill & he> all be=e y speak4 ,!n ,i told him ( ! invitation to g to ,plym\?1 ! result ( ! prea*+1 ! unexpect$ proposal to remove ?i!r1 ! ,bi%op's answ]1 & ! remission ( ! #c1cjj l4 ,n[1 ,i cont9u$1 :at d y say8 ,y mu/ g1 my bro!r1 he repli$2 = y w nev] make ,ca?olics ( ! ,corni% p3 ! ,me?odi/ m9d is f> too deeply root$ 9 !m4 ,our fri5d's decision 0 firm2 & s !re rema9$ no?+ = u to d b to foll[ x4 ,! novelty ( ! proposition1 & ! surpris+ circum/ances connect$ ) x 7 excit+1 & took away our ?\ghts = ! "t f ! place :i* 0 to be left4 ,:5 ! decision 0 giv5 & accept$1 !n ,baldhu seem$ to lift up its voice1 & urge its claims4 ,c]ta9ly x 0 a /rong tie :i* b\nd u to ?is place2 b nev]!less1 on our return home1 ,i wrote to ! ,bi%op1 &' propos$ to resign my pres5t incumb5cy1 9 ord] t ,i might take a di/rict 9 ,plym\?4 ,he repli$ 9 due c\rse1 t he w\ld accept my resignation4 ,aft] ,i 0 ?us pl$g$1 my wife's m9d ve]$ f h] cons5t to g2 & ,mr4 ,aitk5 *ang$ 8 tone also1 & said t ! text _h come to him1 ,ca/ ?yself d[n1 & t ,i 0 tempt+ ,god4 ,yet all ! /eps ,i _h tak5 _h be5 9 pray]1 & _h be5 tak5 v reluctantly1 = ,i 0 mu* atta*$ to ,baldhu4 ,= ne>ly ?ree mon?s ,i 0 torn ) di/ractions2 sometimes hope lift$ up ! mi/ f ! horizon1 & !n let x d[n aga94 ,i did n "k :at to d2 ! "w at home _h come to a /&2 b !re 0 "o ?+1 my successor 0 n yet appo9t$1 nor _h ,i sign$ my resignation2 !re=e e n[ & !n ! ?\ght came ov] me1 t ,i w\ld /ay4 ,!n a lett] came f ,plym\?1 urg+ me to come away at once1 = ! iron 0 hot = /rik+4 ,sometimes p came 9 & said1 ,y _h bett] g2 !n o!rs w\ld come 9 & say1 ,y w d no good if y d g4 ,x 0 desolat+1 z well z di/ract+ beyond description4 ,i _h a family ( six *ildr5 & ?ree s]vants2 x 0 a great exp5se to move !re2 & yet1 if ,god 0 call+1 x 0 q z easy = ,him to move elev5 p z "o2 & ,i _h t5 claims ^u ,him4 ,at la/1 susp5se 0 ov]2 my successor 0 appo9t$1 & ! day fix$ = our go+4 ,i sign$ my resignation1 hav+ to pay f\r p\nds t5 %ill+s = x2 !n1 susp5se 0 *ang$ into unmitigat$ sorr[4 ,i _h design$ & built t *ur* & h\se1 & _h se5 !m rise2 _h made ! g>d51 & _h _h _m happy & wond]ful days 9 ?is place4 ,i f\nd x _h tak5 a deep root 9 my he>t1 & !re=e x 0 l te>+ "o up altoge!r to g away4 ,b x 0 done n[1 & ! fri5ds :o _h advis$ me n to resign1 seem$ to h _! triumph2 & ^? :o advis$ to g1 7 disc\rag$ & griev$ at my sorr[ful /ate4 ,my de> wife *e]$ up :5 %e saw me d[n1 & rose to ! occasion2 %e began to pack up z if delight$ at go+1 & w5t ab\t ev]y?+ mo/ *e]fully4 ,i told ! p t ,i c\ld n be> a leave-tak+1 b !re w\ld be a s]vice 9 ! *ur*1 & ,holy ,communion1 at sev5 o'clock on ! morn+ we 7 to leave4 ,_m came1 b ! majority c\ld n sum up ! c\rage to d s4 ,i put my resignation on ! (f]tory plate1 & gave x to ,god ) _m te>s4 ,a k9d neighb\r came to (ficiate = me1 s t ,i did n take any "p 9 ! s]vice1 be+ exce$+ly deject$ & ov]:elm$ ) sorr[4 ,x 0 *iefly = fe>1 le/ ,i 0 do+ t :i* ,god w\ld n h me d1 & tak+ my family out f a com=table home1 ,i knew n :i!r1 or to :at discom=ts4 ,"o ?+ ,i c]ta9ly saw pla9ly en\gh1 t my affections 7 too deeply root$ 9 e>?ly ?+s4 ,i _h no idea till !n1 t t place ( my own creation _h tak5 su* a hold ^u me4 ,x 0 well to be loose f t1 & free = my ,ma/]'s s]vice4 ,aft] breakfa/ we left ! old place2 _m p /ood weep+ by ! roadsides2 "s v5tur$ to speak1 & o!rs only ?ru/ _! h&s into ! c>riage w9d[s = a he>ty grasp1 )\t say+ a ^w4 ,x 0 inde$ a sorr[ful day1 ! remembrance ( :i* ev5 n[ makes my he>t s9k1 ?\gh x is m ?an tw5ty-five ye>s s9ce4 ,9 ! ev5+ we arriv$ at ! h\se ( "s fri5ds1 :o _h k9dly invit$ u to break our j\rney1 & rema9 ! night ) !m2 & 9 ! morn+ we proce$$ on our way to ,plym\?4 ,:5 we rea*$ ! h\se1 we f\nd our furniture unpack$1 & di/ribut$ 9 ! v>i\s rooms1 & ! table spread ready = u to take "s refre%m5t4 ,! ^w ,welcome 0 done 9 fl[]s ov] ! door1 besides _m o!r demon/rations ( k9dness2 b ,i am afraid we 7 all too sorr[ful at ! "t to %[ our appreciation (1 or to enjoy !m4 ,we nev] settl$ 9 t h\se1 & did n c>e to unpack any?+ m ?an necess>y1 or hang up ! pictures or texts4 ,my "w did n prosp] "h1 = ,i f\nd ,i 0 unequally yok$ ) /rang]s1 & accord+ly felt dry & wret*$4 ,i s5t my resignation ( ,baldhu to ,bi%op ,phillpotts1 & ) x my nom9ation & o!r necess>y pap]s1 say+ t ,i w\ld wait on 8 lord%ip = in/itution on a c]ta9 day4 ,at ! appo9t$ "t ,i w5t to him1 :5 to my great surprise1 he v calmly said he c\ld n appo9t me to t di/rict4 ,i c\ld n und]/& ?is1 = z ,i _h told him1 ,i _h only resign$ conditionally1 & rem9d$ him t ,i _h ask$ 8 p]mission to resign1 = ! purpose ( tak+ ?is di/rict4 ,h[ c ,i consci\sly appo9t or lic5se y to any?+ 9 my diocese8 he said1 look+ me full 9 ! face1 & !n 9 8 c\rte\s way he laid 8 comm&s on me to /ay to lun*eon1 say+ he w\ld be oblig$ if ,i w\ld d him ?is hon\r2 he bade me walk 9 ! g>d51 z he 0 busy1 & w\ld be occupi$ till lun*eon4 ,i felt t ,i ne$$ a little quiet & fre% air to get ov] ?is climax ( my tr\bles--out ( "o liv+1 & n into ano!r2 & t ) a wife1 six *ildr51 & ?ree s]vants1 ) v little to live on4 ,"h 0 a /ate ( ?+s6 ,i _h pl5ty to occupy my ?\ghts & pray]s4 ,i fe>$ & m\rn$1 above ev]y?+1 le/ ,god %\ld be angry ) me4 ,oh1 if ,i c\ld only "k ?is is ! w ( ,god1 !n ,i %\ld n c>e a fig = all ! bi%ops on ! b5*1 & w\ld n ask "o ( !m = any?+6 ,i 0 soon r\s$ f my rev]ie1 by ! pres5ce ( ,miss ,c4 ,p41 ! ,bi%op's daught]1 :o _h come out at h] fa!r's reque/ to %[ me ! g>d5 & ! view4 ,i _h kn[n ?is lady slightly = sev]al ye>s1 & s %e 0 n altoge!r a /rang] to me1 or ,i to h]4 ,%e talk$ s *e]fully & pleasantly1 t x came to my m9d1 ,p]haps aft] all1 ! ,bi%op is only try+ me4 ,he w n appo9t me to ?is b>e di/rict1 because he has some?+ bett] ) :i* he means to surprise me4 ,?is sangu9e ?\ght *e]$ me up greatly4 ,at lun*eon he 0 z k9d & happy z if he _h nei!r done any?+ di%on\rable1 or _h any int5tion ( do+ s2 s t ,i felt q sure some?+ good 0 com+4 ,i began to wond] at int]vals1 ,:at "p ( ! diocese ,i 0 to be s5t to8--,:]e is !re a vacancy8 & s on4 ,! ,bi%op 0 z fri5dly to me z he us$ to be 9 o!r days4 ,aft] ! repa/1 he summon$ me to 8 /udy aga94 ,n[1 ,i ?\ght1 ,i %all he> :]e ,i am to g2 b in/ead ( ?is1 he said t he 0 mu* engag$1 & mu/ take leave ( me4 ,i 0 m ?an a/oni%$ at ?is1 & said1 ,i c sc>cely believe t y refuse to appo9t me6 ,i d !n1 mo/ positively4 ,b ,i h a copy ( my lett] to y\r lord%ip1 & y\r answ]4 ,!n y may urge y\r claim by law1 if y please4 ,no1 inde$1 my "l1 ,i d n ?9k ,i w d t4 ,& !n1 aft] a %ort pause1 ,i said1 ,y h done = me :at ,i c\ld n d>e d = myself1 ?\gh ,i h (t5 be5 tempt$ to d x4 ,& pray1 :at is t8 he inquir$4 ,to give up p>o*ial m9i/ration1 t ,i may be free to prea* :]ev] ,i am l$4 ,c\ld y d t8 ,i c\ld n d x consci5ti\sly myself2 b n[ t y h /ripp$ me ( h>ness1 ,i w put on no m4 ,! ,bi%op made 8 b[1 & ,i made m9e2 & t 0 ! end ( our int]view4 ,9 my unconv]t$ days ,i us$ to be an ard5t & en?usia/ic admir] ( ?is man2 8 *>ges1 8 spee*es1 & especially 8 )]+1 s>ca/ic lett]s to ,"l ,john ,russell & o!rs1 :o came "u 8 trem5d\s la%1 to my m9d made him a great h]o4 ,8 /raight =w>d mann] also comm&$ my respect1 =1 g5]ally speak+1 ,i _h f\nd bi%ops v smoo? & two-sid$1 or r bo?-sid$2 b 9 8 ease !re 0 no mi/ake4 ,x us$ to be a pr\d "t = me :5 ?is ,bi%op came into ,cornwall1 & ,i 0 p]mitt$ to accompany him1 & to act z 8 *apla9 at ! consecration ( a *ur* or burial gr\nd1 or to att5d him :5 he w5t to a ,confirmation4 ,sometimes ,i _h ! happy privilege ( r[+ him 9 a boat on ! sea4 ,he seem$ to take su* an affectionate & intellig5t int]e/ 9 my p>i% & my *ur* "w4 ,he ask$ v>i\s que/ions ab\t my neighb\rs1 j z if he liv$ among !m & knew all _! circum/ances4 ,he /ruck me z a wond]ful man1 & ,i 0 8 *ampion ^u all occasions 9 my unconv]t$ days4 ,not)/&+ ?is1 he 0 too hone/ to 8 own views to fav\r me aft] my conv]sion4 ,on my return home )\t a lic5se1 ,i _h b a poor acc\nt to give1 & ! future prospect look$ v gloomy4 ,,*apt] #bf ,plym\?1 #ahee4 ,i occasionally prea*$ 9 ! p>i% *ur*1 & w5t to ! daily ,communion & ! daily s]vice4 ,my sp>e "t ,i occupi$ 7x 0 l go+ back to brick-mak+ 9 ,egypt7 9 pa9t+ ! *ur*4 ,i lab\r$ = h\rs & h\rs to try & make ?is great *alk-pit ( a place look some:at ecclesia/ical4 ,all r\nd ! *ur* ,i pa9t$ a diap] patt]n1 surm\nt$ ) a bord]1 :i* w5t ov] ! doors & "u ! w9d[s4 ,!n on ! b>e wall at ! end ,i pa9t$ a life-siz$ figure ( our ,"l1 z a ,%eph]d lead+ ,8 %eep1 tak5 f ,ov]beck's picture4 ,?is1 toge!r ) a few o!r pictures ( ,*ri/1 w>m$ up ! build+ v well4 ,!n = ! *ancel ,i _h a mo/ elaborate design4 ,fir/1 !re 0 a beautiful gild$ patt]n ov] ! v l(ty *ancel ar*1 :i* ,i manag$ to rea* by means ( a ladd]4 ,pr(essional p ne$ scaffold+ & plat=ms1 :i* ,i disp5s$ )1 & accompli%$ ! :ole space 9 less "t ?an x w\ld take to put up all _! ne$ful erections4 ,inside ! *ancel ,i _h twelve ni*es1 ) tab]nacle "w above !m1 = ! twelve apo/les2 & ^! 7 all duly repres5t$ aft] a true m$iaeval patt]n4 ,! local newspap] made great fun ( ^! pa9t+s2 & ! report] w\ld h x1 t ^! lively sa9ts look$ v consci\s ( be+ put up !re1 & t !y 7 con/antly 'cran+' _! necks to look at "o ano!r--z if !y w\ld inquire1 ',i say1 h[ d y l be+ !re8' ,my fav\rite figure1 ,/4 ,john1 ^u :i* ,i be/[$ extra pa9s1 ! provok+ man w\ld h x1 0 ,/4 ,m>y ,magdal5e1 le]+ at ! apo/le next to h]1 or at ! "o opposite--x did n seem q cle> to him :i*2 b h] head 0 d[n on "o side 9 a bewit*+ attitude4 ,9 ! middle ( ! great und]tak+ ,i 0 call$ away = a few weeks4 ,dur+ ?is "t ! report] came aga9 & aga91 b saw no progress2 he !re=e put an adv]tisem5t into 8 pap] to ?is effect3-- ,/ol5 or /ray$1 a monki% prie/1 :o pa9ts apo/les4 ,he is n to be f\nd4 ,any p]son or p]sons :o c give in=mation conc]n+ ?is abs5t p]sonage1 w greatly oblige4 ,my prea*+ 0 n acceptable 9 ?is *ur*1 nei!r 0 my connection ) x2 & my apo/les 7 no bett] appreciat$1 = !y 7 soon aft] :itewa%$ ov]1 & disappe>$ l a dream4 ,sometimes1 9 damp wea!r1 !y 7 /ill to be se5 cran+ _! necks z h]et(ore 7mu* to ! amusem5t ( ! *ori/] boys7 ?\gh ) a k9d ( veil ^u !m4 ,d\btless1 9 a future g5]ation1 :5 ! pla/] beg9s to bli/]1 "s antiqu>ian w discov] ?is wond]ful m$iaeval fresco1 & call ! att5tion ( ! public to x4 ,my ideas & dreams ab\t ca?olic advancem5t 7 ?us br\ght to a calamit\s end4 ,?is *ur* to :i* ,i _h come 0 "o 9 high cr$it = mu* private & public devotion2 b1 alas6 ,i f\nd :at ,i might easily h expect$1 t )\t spiritual vitality ev]y?+ mu/ be dry & dead6 ,dry & dead inde$ x 04 ,! conv]sation ( ^! suppos$ ascetics 0 = ! mo/ "p secul>1 & at ! highe/ only ecclesia/ical4 ,_! wor%ip1 on :i* a great am\nt ( pa9s & co/ 0 be/[$1 0 b a =m c>efully prep>$ & c>efully execut$1 z if critics 7 pres5t2 yet x did n1 & c\ld n1 rise to spirituality4 ,a lady presid$ at ! organ1 & _h ! tea*+ & tra9+ ( ! *oir4 ,mu* ( h] own p]sonal & religi\s "* 7 imp>t$ to ! p]=mances1 :i* 9 tone & mann] 7 admirable & precise4 ,%e made ! boys und]/& ! s5se ( ! words !y sang1 till ,i h se5 !m ev5 9 te>s dur+ ! s++4 ,! *a/e old v]g] 7z our report] call$ him71 :o head$ ! procession at lea/ f\r times a day1 up & d[n ! *ur*1 0 a v important & successful "p ( ! ma*9]y1 & f him1 up to ! highe/ (ficial1 ev]y?+ 0 c>ri$ out ) exact precision4 ,b oh1 h[ unsatisfy+ & disappo9t+ x 06--to a degree :i* ,i 0 a%am$ to own6 ,h[ c\ld ,i be s fooli%1 to give up a liv+1 :]e !re 0 vitality1 ?\gh x 0 r\gh1 = a sup]ficial & artificial semblance ( religion8 ,9 ! book ( ,ecclesia/es we read1 t a liv+ dog is bett] ?an a dead lion2 & ?\gh ,i _h (t5 quot$ ?is say+1 ,i nev] felt ! tru? ( x s deeply z n[4 ,! dead lion & ! dead elephant are q immovable ?+s = a live dog to b>k at or fret ab\t4 ,x 0 a h>d & try+ "t to me 9 t place4 ,i c\ld n see my way1 or und]/& at all :at 0 ! ,"l's w t[>ds me4 ,:ile 9 ?is /ate ( m9d ,i _h a vivid dream4 ,i ?\ght t ! ornam5tal iron grat+1 :i* 0 = v5tilat+ ! space "u ! floor ( ! *ur*1 0 all gl[+ ) fire1 z if a great furnace 7 rag+ !re4 ,i tri$ to cry ,fire6 b c\ld n4 ,!n ,i ran into ! *ur*1 & saw x full ( p rev]5tly absorb$ 9 _! devotions4 ,i tri$ aga9 to give ! al>m1 & cry ,fire6 fire6 b ,i c\ld n utt] a s\nd4 ,:5 ,i look$ up1 ,i saw ?91 long1 wav+ /r+s ( fire com+ up among ! p ?r\gh ! jo9ts ( ! floor4 ,i call$ att5tion to ?is1 b no "o else c\ld see x4 ,!n ,i became frantic 9 my ge/iculation1 & at la/ 0 able to tell "s ( ! congregation ( ! great fire :i* 0 "u !m2 b !y look$ at "o ano!r1 smil+1 & told me to g ab\t my bus9ess--t ,i 0 mad6 ,i woke out ( my tr\bl$ sleep 9 a v agitat$ & p]turb$ /ate4 ,s9ce t1 :5ev] ,i h se5 or he>d ( *ur*es1 :]e ,*ur* & ,sacram5ts are prea*$1 in/ead ( ,*ri/1 z ! "o way ( salvation1 ,i long to w>n ! p ( ! fire rag+ und]nea?1 & to %[ !m ! way ( ! ,"l m p]fectly4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i 0 feel+ m despond+ & wret*$ ?an be=e1 a lady call$1 & said %e want$ to speak to me--w\ld ,i come to h] h\se = ?is purpose8 ,i w5t1 & %e 0 n long be=e %e op5$ ! conv]sation by *>g+ me ) be+ un*>itable4 ,y say we are all unconv]t$4 ,i repli$1 ,( c\rse1 z *ildr5 ( ,adam we are1 till conv]sion takes place2 !re c be no mi/ake ab\t t6 ,b :5 did ,i say t y 7 unconv]t$8 ,is x n y\r own consci5ce t tells y t8 ,:5 we prea* to p z unconv]t$1 ^? :o are *ang$1 & br\ght f dea? into life1 "k z well z possible t we d n mean !m2 & !y pray = a bless+ on ! ,^w1 t x may rea* o!rs1 z x once rea*$ !m4 ,!y d n sit !re & res5t ! *>ge1 = !y "k :at has pass$ betwe5 ,god & _! s\ls1 & are anxi\s = o!rs to %>e ! same bless+4 ,%e 0 sil5t2 s ,i cont9u$1 ,may ,i ask y ! "q4 ,are y conv]t$8 ,c y tell me t y are8 ,%e repli$1 ,i d n "k :at y mean4 ,well1 !n1 :y d y suppose t ,i mean some?+ un*>itable or bad8 ,because ,i "k v well x is n a good ?+ to be unconv]t$4 ,b1 %e add$1 x seems su* an unk9d ?+ to put u all d[n = 'lo/1' :ile y suppose y\rself to be sav$4 ,y may "k m ab\t ?is "s day1 p]haps2 b 9 ! meantime w y all[ me to ask y "o ?+3 ,d y believe 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/8 ,%e repli$ indignantly1 ,( c\rse ,i d4 ,n[1 ?is is ! v want ( *>ity ,i compla9 (-! idea ( ask+ me su* a "q6 ,%e 0 "o ( ! ,rev4 --'s1 7! confessor's7 fav\rite devotees1 & _h be5 absolv$ by him = sev]al ye>s2 ! v idea ( ask+ h] if %e believ$ 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 made h] q impati5t1 z well z indignant4' ,i said1 ,d n be angry ) me1 b :at d y believe ab\t ,him8 ,believe ev]y?+1 ( c\rse6 ,i believe ! cre$4 ,yes1 ,i d n d\bt t1 = a mom5t4 ,b d y believe t ,jesus di$ = y8 ,:y1 yes1 c]ta9ly3 h[ c\ld ,i d o!rwise2 ,he di$ = u all4 ,t is n ! po9t4 ,i mean1 d y believe t ,he di$2 & t y h a p]sonal int]e/ 9 ,8 dea?8 ,%e hesitat$1 & !n look+ at me said1 ,d y mean objectively1 or subjectively8 ,may ,i ask :at ,i am to und]/& by ^! words8 ,dr4 -- taught me t1 ',*ri/ di$4' is objective1 & t ',*ri/ di$ = me4' is subjective4 ,v good inde$1 ,i answ]$1 ,i l t v mu*2 x is q true4 ,b x is "o ?+ to "k ab\t subjective fai?1 & q ano!r ?+ to h x4 ,n[ ,i w come back to my "q4 ,d y believe t ,*ri/ di$ = y8 ,y evid5tly mean some?+ t ,i d n und]/&1 %e said1 9 a p]plex$ mann]4 ,!n look+ at ! crucifix on h] table1 ,i said1 ,:at does t rem9d y (8 ,oh1 ,i pray be=e t e day1 & ask ! ,"l to take my s9s away4 ,!n y d n ?9k y\r s9s are =giv5 yet4 ,h[ c y ask = =giv5ess1 & h x at ! same "t8 ,d y mean to say !n1 %e repli$1 ) surprise1 t y h no s9s8 ,yes1 ,i mean to say t my s9s 7 aton$ =1 once = all1 on ! cross2 & t1 believ+ ?is1 ,i h peace & remission ( s9s4 ,my pa/ s9s are ca/ l a /one into ! deep2 & z to my daily s9s ( omission & commission1 ,i d n take !m to ! cross l a ,romani/1 b to ! ?rone ( grace1 :]e ! ris5 & liv+ ,*ri/ is n[ mak+ int]cession = me4 ,%e 0 sil5t2 & s 0 ,i1 inw>dly pray+ = h]4 ,pres5tly %e look$ up & said1 ,i d ?ank ,him = dy+ = me4 ,is t :at y want me to say8 ,?anksgiv+ is an indication ( liv+ fai?4 ,h[ c ,i believe t ,jesus di$ = me1 & n ?ank ,him8 ,b ,i d ?ank ,him1 & x is v un*>itable ( y to say1 we d n ?ank ,him2 we all ?ank ,him6 ,%e 0 gone aga91 & ,i wond]$ :e!r ,i %\ld ev] br+ h] back6 ,y rem9d me1 ,i said1 ( ?ree ladies ( good position1 :om ,i met la/ ye>4 ,!y all pr(ess$ to ?ank ,god = ,*ri/'s dea?2 b yet !y _h no peace1 & 7 n satisfi$4 ,see+ !y 7 9 real e>ne/1 ,i propos$ to g ov] ! ,g5]al ,?anksgiv+ 9 ! ,pray]-book ) !m4 ,!y did s1 & ?ank$ ,god = creation1 pres]vation1 & all ! bless+s ( ?is life1 b above all--!n z ,i emphasiz$ ?is 'above all1' !y said1 almo/ toge!r1 ',t is :]e we are wrong4 ,we h n 'put ! r$eem+ love ( ,god z %[n 9 ,*ri/'s dea?1 above all4' ,^! ?ree ladies f\nd peace & p>don t same ev5+4 ,t has be5 my mi/ake too1 said ! lady1 int]rupt+ me4 ,i h nev] put ,jesus above all2 b ,i d desire to d s1 & t ) all my he>t4 ,!n d s1 ,i said1 & ?ank ,him = ,8 love 9 dy+ 9 y\r /ead1 & %$d+ ,8 blood to wa% y\r s9s away4 ,he %all h all my he>t6 %e exclaim$4 ,s say+1 %e knelt be=e ! crucifix1 & b[+ gracefully & mo/ rev]5tly1 %e reproa*$ h]self = n putt+ ,jesus fir/1 & said1 ,?\ art wor?y6 ,glory be to ,!e1 = ,?y great love to me4 ,!n %e rose f h] knees1 & once m tun+ to me1 said1 ,?ank y s mu*6 ,god bless y = y\r k9dness & pati5ce ) me6 ,i _c tell y h[ mu* ,i ?ank y4 ,d y rememb] once prea*+ ab\t ,abraham (f]+ up 8 son ,isaac8 ,y said1 ',god ! ,fa!r has done m ?an ?is = u2 & yet h[ few cry to ,him & say1 ,by ?is ,i "k t ,?\ love/ me6' ,i ?\ght1 & felt !n1 t y knew some?+ :i* ,i %\ld l to "k2 & ,i h be5 long+ to speak to y ev] s9ce4 ,oh1 ,i d ?ank y s mu*6 ,de> fri5d1 ,i _c refuse y\r ?anks1 b ,i %\ld l to see y ?ank+ ,god m ?an y ?ank me4 ,i knew t %e c\ld s+ & play1 s1 po9t+ to ! piano1 ,i ask$ h] if %e w\ld s+ a hymn4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i w4 ,:at %all ,i s+8 ,f9d ',:5 ,i survey ! wondr\s cross1' ,i said4 ,%e did n ne$ to f9d ! music1 = %e knew x )\t2 s1 sitt+ d[n1 %e began to s+1 till ! te>s came into h] eyes1 & h] voice broke d[n4 ,i nev] knew ! mean+ ( ^! words be=e1 %e said2 ',sorr[ & love fl[ m+l$ d[n4' ,h[ c\ld ,i be s bl9d & ignorant8 ',love s amaz+1 s div9e1' does 'dem& my life1 my s\l1 my all6' ,o ,"l1 take x6 ,aft] ?is1 ,i _h a few p>t+ words ) h]1 & po9t+ to ! crucifix ,i said1 ,rememb] ,*ri/ is n on ! cross n[4 ,he di$2 t is pa/4 ,he is ris51 & has asc5d$ up on high4 ,! ?rone ( grace is n ! crucifix or ! confessional1 b :]e ,*ri/ sits--at ! "r h& ( ,god2 & we1 z believ]s1 may 9 he>t & m9d ?i!r asc5d1 & ) ,him cont9ually dwell4 ,h done1 !n1 ) ?is dead ,pop]y2 y "k bett] n[4 ,te/ify = ! glory ( ,god4 ,?is lady's conv]sion vex$ h] husb& greatly1 & br\ght d[n ! fr[ns & disapprobation ( ! rev]5d doctor2 altoge!r1 x did a deal ( mis*ief 9 ! camp4 ,! ,si/]s ( ,m]cy ) :om %e 0 connect$ 7 kept alo( f h] contam9at+ influ5ce1 & soon aft]w>ds 7 altoge!r remov$ f ! place4 ,!re 0 "o1 h[ev]1 a p>ticul>ly h>d-head$ look+ individual1 :o us$ to />e at me ?r\gh h] r\nd spectacles :5ev] ,i met h]1 z if ,i 7 an ogre4 ,i he>d t %e 0 a great ma!matician4 ,%e look$ l x2 & evid5tly !re 0 no fe> ent]ta9$ ( h] be+ conv]t$4 ,%e & "o o!r 7 left beh9d2 b o!rwise ! h\se1 :i* _h be5 built at great co/1 0 empty4 ,! lady 0 n all[$ to speak to me any m2 b ,i hope %e cont9u$ to g to ! true ?rone ( grace1 & n to ! crucifix to a liv+1 n a dead ,*ri/4 ,all ?is1 d\btless1 0 int5d$ to sick5 me ( my rev]5ce = ! ,ca?olic !ory4 ,i 0 evid5tly "u an infatuation on ! subject1 :i*1 = ! "t1 no?+ c\ld dispel4 ,i _h "s poetic or imag9>y fancy ( spiritual ca?olicity be=e my m9d1 :i* ,i suppos$ 0 some?+ bett] ?an ! fle%y spirituality ( ,me?odism1 to :i* ,i _h tak5 a great dislike2 b :]e to f9d ?is ,utopia1 or h[ to embody x1 ,i knew n4 ,^! specim5s ( ca?olic p ,i c]ta9ly _h no sympa?y )2 nor _h ,i any pati5ce ) _! holl[ devotion & _! /udi$ imitation ( ,pop]y4 ,i pla9ly saw t light c\ld h no fell[%ip ) d>kness1 or life ) dea?4 ,i 0 m & m conv9c$ t :5 a man has m sympa?y ) dead ,ca?olics ?an ) liv+ ,diss5t]s1 he is n a liv+ s\l at all4 ,!re is no necessity to g to "o extreme or ! o!r4 ,i believe ! re=m$ ,*ur* ( ,engl& 79 h] pr9ciples1 at lea/7 occupies ! middle pa? betwe5 ^! two extremes1 ) ! excell5ces ( bo?1 & ! faults ( nei!r4 ,i ?9k ,i 0 p]mitt$ to be ?us unsettl$ 9 my m9d1 because ,i did n keep to my "w ) a s+le eye to ,god's glory4 ,,*apt] #bg ,devonport1 #ahee4 ,i 0 at ?is "t invit$ to prea* 9 a *ur* 9 ,devonport1 :]e x pleas$ ! ,"l to give bless+ to ,8 ^w4 ,) ?is exception1 my "w 01 g5]ally speak+ conf9$ to individual cases4 ,i w give an acc\nt ( a few :i* pres5t ! mo/ in/ruction & int]e/4 ,! fir/ ,i w m5tion is t ( "o ( ! curates ( ! *ur* 9 :i* ,i 0 ask$ to prea*4 ,at ?is "t he 0 prep>+ = confession1 & 8 self-exam9ation _h br\ght him to see & feel t he 0 a s9n]4 ,"u ?is c\rse ( prep>ation1 ! prea*+ ( ! ,gospel _h mu* effect ^u him1 & he came to tell me ( 8 /ate4 ,i 0 able to %[ him f ! ,^w ( ,god t he 0 9 a worse condition ?an he suppos$--t actually1 by nature1 we are lo/ s9n]s n[4 ,"u ! op]ation ( ! ,holy ,_s he 0 br\ght to feel ?is also1 & 0 v mis]able4 ,"o day1 :ile (ficiat+ at a fun]al1 ! ,"l spoke peace to 8 s\l2 s great 0 8 joy1 t1 he said1 he c\ld sc>cely refra9 f %\t+ al\d 9 ! middle ( ! s]vice4 ,aft] x 0 ov] he w5t ab\t ev]y:]e1 tell+ ( 8 conv]sion1 & ! ,"l's deal+s ) 8 s\l4 ,! result ( ?is 0 t 8 fell[-curate 7:o 0 also prep>+ = confession7 0 awak5$1 & came to me 9 great di/ress ( m9d1 decl>+ he c\ld n say he 0 conv]t$1 & t he 0 v unhappy4 ,he ackn[l$g$ t he %\ld n l to die z he 01 & !re=e knew he ought n to be satisfi$ to live 9 t /ate4 ,h[ev]1 :5 ,i got to close deal+ ) him ab\t 8 s\l1 he said t ?\gh he c\ld n say he 0 sav$1 he c]ta9ly ?\ght t he 0 be+ sav$ by cont9ual absolution & ! sacram5t4 ,^u ?is1 ,i 0 enabl$ to %[ him t he did n g to ! means ( grace1 or ev5 to ! ,"l's table1 because he 0 sav$1 b 9 ord] to be sav$2 & t he 0 work+ = life1 & n f life4 ,he gave up disput+1 & 0 n long be=e he too f\nd peace 9 believ+4 ,! "t 0 approa*+ = ^! two curates to g1 z usual1 to confession4 ,!y came toge!r to ask me ab\t x4 ,i c\nsell$ !m to g1 by all means1 to ! rev]5d doctor1 :o usually receiv$ _! confession1 & to tell him 9 _! own words h[ ! ,"l _h convict$ & conv]t$ !m4 ,i said t ,bilney1 "o ( ! fir/ m>tyrs ( ! ,re=mation1 :5 he 0 conv]t$1 w5t imm$iately to make confession to ,latim]1 & by do+ s he became ! means ( 8 conv]sion4 ,g1 by all means2 y d n "k :at use ! ,"l may make ( y\r te/imony4 ,!y w5t accord+ly1 b did n meet ) ! happy success ( ,bilney1 = !y 7 s5t indignantly away "o aft] ! o!r = say+ _! s9s 7 p>don$ & _! s\ls save1 & t by direct & p]sonal fai? 9 ,*ri/1 )\t ! int]v5tion ( a prie/4 ,! rev]5d confessor1 unlike ! hone/ ,latim]1 said ^! "y m5 _h come to mock him4 ,not)/&+ ^! in/ances ( usefulness & enc\ragem5t1 ,i cont9u$ to be v unhappy1 = want ( m g5]al "w1 & felt z if ,god _h ca/ me (f4 ,i c n[ see t ?is te/+ & p]plex+ disp5sation ?r\gh :i* ,i 0 pass+1 0 n altoge!r su* a b>r5 des]t z ,i felt x to be at ! "t4 ,x 0 fraught ) _m lessons1 :i* h /ood by me ev] s9ce1 ?\gh ,i mu/ confess ,i nev] rev]t to ?is p]iod )\t _m unhappy memories4 ,i w record "o m lesson :i* ,i 0 taught 9 ?is place1 & !n g on to o!r subjects4 ,"o w>m spr+ day1 :ile ,i 0 sitt+ 9 my h\se ) ! doors & w9d[s op51 a g5tleman came runn+ into x 9 great ha/e1 some:at to my surprise1 he be+ a p]fect /rang] to me1 & ,i to him4 ,/&+ 9 ! passage1 & look+ into ! room :]e ,i 0 seat$1 he said1 ,sir1 are y a cl]gyman8 ,i repli$1 ,yes1 ,i am4 ,= ,god's sake1 come2 foll[ me6 ,s say+1 he w5t away4 ,i imm$iately took up my hat1 & ran aft] him d[n ! side ( ! squ>e1 & notic+ ! gate :]e he turn$ 91 ,i walk$ leisurely to ! same place1 & f\nd him 9 ! passage ( 8 h\se pant+ = brea?4 ,he _h run s fa/ t he c\ld n speak1 b made a sign to me to g up/airs2 !n po9t+ to a door1 he bade me g 94 ,on do+ s1 ,i saw at once x 0 a sick-*amb]1 & f\nd myself alone 9 ! pres5ce ( a lady1 :o 0 sitt+ up 9 ! b$4 ,i b[$ to h]1 & said1 ,c ,i help y8 ,%e said1 ,oh1 no6 x is too late6 ,too late = :at8 ,i am dy+2 ,i am lo/6 ,i am lo/6 ,x is too late--too late6 ,b ,*ri/ came1 & is pres5t1 to-save ! lo/4 ,oh1 yes6 ,i "k all t4 ,i taught x to o!rs1 b ,i nev] believ$ x myself4 ,& n[ x is too late3 ,i am lo/6 ,!n believe x n[6 ,:y n 'n['8 ,because x is too late6 ,:ile !re is life !re is hope6 ,lose no m "t4 ',god s lov$ ! _w1 t ,he gave ,8 only-begott5 ,son1 t :osoev] believe? on ,him %\ld n p]i%' 7,john #c3af74 ,t is n = me4 ,i "k t text v well1 b x w n d = me4 ,i am lo/6 ,i am lo/6 ,x is too late6 ,:ile ,i 0 speak+ ,i saw h] fall+ ov] ! side ( ! b$4 ,spr++ =w>d1 ,i put out my arm1 &1 ) h] head re/+ on x1 & h] despair+ eyes look+ into my face1 %e expir$4 ,i c\ld sc>cely believe x1 :5 ,i saw t flu% on h] face fade away unto ! pallor ( dea?4 ,%e 0 gone6 ,i plac$ h] poor head on ! pill[1 & rang ! bell = assi/ance4 ,h] "m & si/] came 91 say+1 ,is x n dreadful8 ,i said1 ,look at h]4 ,%e is gone4 ,%e said x 0 too late1 & t %e 0 lo/ = ev]4 ,oh1 exclaim$ ! "m1 x is mo/ dreadful6--mo/ dreadful6 ,?is poor "y lady us$ to be a ,sunday-s*ool tea*] & di/rict visitor2 b %e 0 nev] conv]t$1 & %e knew x4 ,%e _h full head-k1 b no he>t exp]i5ce1 & ?us %e di$ 9 un=giv5 s9s4 ,lo/---= ev] lo/6 ,not)/&+ ?is1 & o!r solemn lessons :i* ! ,"l 0 tea*+ me at ?is "t1 ,i 0 /ill re/less & unhappy4 ,i felt z if my life1 ) its "w1 0 cut (f 9 ! v beg9n+ ( its usefulness1 & t !re 0 no m = me to d4 ,z ! wea!r became hot ) ! advanc+ summ]1 ,i 0 m & m deject$ 9 m9d & body4 ,i liv$ n[ among /rang]s1 & _h no settl$ occupation1 nor c\ld ,i apply myself to /udy4 ,"o v hot & du/y aft]noon1 z ,i 0 sl[ly toil+ up a /eep hill1 two wom5 ov]took me2 & z !y 7 pass+1 ,i he>d "o say to ! o!r1 9 a v sad & di%e>t5$ tone1 ,i wi% ,i _h nev] be5 born2 & ! o!r respond$ mu* 9 ! same _s1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n he> :at %e said4 ,a fell[-reel+ makes u wondr\s k9d1 & has ! effect ( draw+ out our sympa?ies4 ,i foll[$ ^! poor wom51 & :5 we 7 on ! top ( ! hill1 ,i spoke to !m1 & !n add$1 ,y seem v we>y4 ,w y come 9 & take a cup ( tea & re/ a little8 ,!y ?ank$ me1 & cons5t$4 ,s ,i took !m into ! h\se1 & ask$ = "s tea4 ,:ile x 0 be+ prep>$1 ,i said to !m1 ,i ov]he>d y talk+ on ! road z y pass$ me4 ,d y really wi% y _h nev] be5 born8 ,! poor woman :o _h utt]$ ^! words bur/ into te>s2 & z soon z %e c\ld comm& h] feel+s suffici5tly1 %e told me h] sad tale ( sorr[ & tr\ble4 ,%e 0 a soldi]'s wife1 z 0 also ! o!r1 & !y 7 bo? 9 ! same di/ress4 ,well1 ,i said1 tr\ble does n spr+ out ( ! gr\nd2 & we may be equally sure t ,god1 :o s5ds1 or at lea/ p]mits x1 does s = our good4 ,"o ?+ is c]ta91 t if we humble ourselves "u ! mighty h& ( ,god1 ,he c & w lift u up1 = ,he has promis$ to d s4 ,he w make all ?+s "w toge!r = our good1 if we tru/ ,him4 ,i !n ask$ !m if !y _h giv5 _! he>ts to ,god4 ,"o ( !m said1 ,ah1 t is :at ,i ought to h done long ago2 ,i "k a deal bett] ?an ,i d4 ,i 0 br\ght up well1 no mi/ake2 b ,i 0 giddy1 & w5t aft] ! r$-coats1 & m>ri$ an ungodly man1 & n[ ,i am suff]+ = x4 ,de> woman1 ,i said1 y may ?ank ,god = h$g+ up y\r pa?4 ,he might h giv5 y ov] to prosp]ity & a false happ9ess1 or left y altoge!r4 ,?ank ,god t x is n worse ) y2 & give ,him y\r he>t4 ,d y believe t ! ,"l ,jesus di$ = y8 ,%e w\ld n speak4 ,!n ,i turn$ to ! o!r1 :o 0 also cry+1 & said1 ,d y believe8 ,i did once1 %e said1 9 a deject$ tone2 b ,i h gone back f ev]y?+4 ,by ?is "t _! tea 0 ready1 s ,i refre%$ !m ) x2 & aft] t we resum$ our conv]sation & unit$ 9 pray]4 ,!y bo? gave _! he>ts to ,god4 ,i f\nd t !y liv$ n f> (f1 s ,i _h ! opportunity ( see+ !m f "t to "t1 & 0 able to in/ruct & *e] !m on _! way4 ,i c see n[ h[ ,god 0 speak+ to me ?r\gh ^! wom52 b someh[ ,i did n he> or recognize ,8 voice !n4 ,ab\t ?is "t1 my de> wife became v pro/rate 9 heal? & spirits--s mu* s1 t we felt anxi\s ab\t h]4 ,i w5t to a fam\s physician1 :o 0 9 ! neighb\rhood1 & ask$ him to come & see h]4 ,he did s1 & aft] c>eful exam9ation1 said t !re 0 really no?+ ! matt] m ?an t %e 0 "o ( ^? p]sons :o c\ld n live 9 t lime/one t[n 9 ! summ]4 ,he said1 ,%e w be p]fectly well if y take h] away into ! c\ntry4 ,y mu/ d ?is at once1 = ! long] %e rema9s "h1 ! weak] %e w be4 ,he refus$ to take any fee1 & said he w\ld s5d a c>riage at two o'clock1 & t we mu/ be ready to />t by t "t4 ,?is 0 m easily said ?an done2 = :]e c\ld ,i take ! *ildr51 or h[ c\ld ,i leave !m at home8 ,h[ev]1 z ! doctor 0 v p]emptory1 we pray$ ab\t x1 & consid]$ h[ we 7 to accompli% ! task4 ,at ?is critical mom5t a fri5d arriv$ 9 8 c>riage1 & said he _h driv5 9 f ! c\ntry to br+ "s relatives ( 8 to ! tra91 & did n c>e to g back alone4 ,w\ld "o ( u1 or bo?1 take pity on him1 & give him our company8 ,z soon z he he>d ( our position he greatly rejoic$1 & said1 ,come1 all ( y2 ,i h pl5ty ( room6 ,he took ! invalid1 ) "s ( ! *ildr54 ,i %ut up ! h\se1 & foll[$ ) ! o!rs & ! nurse1 9 ! fly1 :i* duly arriv$ at two o'clock4 ,by five o'clock we 7 all out 9 ! gre5 fre% c\ntry1 & our pati5t 0 already reviv$1 & walk+ ab\t ! g>d54 ,!re happ5$ to be a f>m-h\se vacant1 :i* we took1 & remov+ "s ( ! furniture1 made x com=table = ! pres5t4 ,?is we call$ home = a little "t dur+ my unsettl$ /ate4 ,,*apt] #bh ,a ,mission to ! ,nor?1 #ahee4 ,:5 my family 7 all com=tably settl$ & surr\nd$ by k9d fri5ds1 ,i w5t (f to ! nor? ( ,engl&1 on a visit to a cl]gyman1 :o _h invit$ me4 ,he _h already suff]$ = do+ ?is on a previ\s occasion1 9 ! diocese ( ,ox=d2 :]e ! bi%op took away 8 lic5ce1 because he _h me to prea* = him4 ,! real cause ( (f5ce 01 t !re 0 a revival 9 ! p>i%2 & compla9t 0 made to ! bi%op1 t p 7 kept up till all h\rs ( ! night1 h[l+ & pray+4 ,8 lord%ip s5t =?) = my fri5d's lic5ce2 ,i advis$ him to s5d x1 say+1 ,he w be sure to return x to y2 b p]haps ) a reprim&4 ,in/ead ( ?is1 ! bi%op kept x1 & said t he w\ld c\nt]sign 8 te/imonials to g to ano!r diocese4 ,my fri5d 0 at fir/ disgu/$ & dispos$ to rebel2 b in/ead ( ?is1 he bore ! treatm5t pati5tly2 & w5t to ano!r position & *>ge at ,g--1 9 ! nor? ( ,engl&4 ,?i!r1 no?+ afraid1 he invit$ me to come4 ,9 ?is "p ( ! c\ntry ,i f\nd a he>ty lively p1 some?+ l ! ,corni%4 ,"h ,i soon rega9$ my spirits1 & got to "w 9 "r e>ne/4 ,9 ?is place a revival began at once2 & e day we _h p cry+ = m]cy1 v mu* 9 ! way !y did 9 ,cornwall4 ,among o!rs1 !re came to ! *ur* on ,sunday aft]noon1 a tall ,york%ireman1 9 8 work+ clo!s4 ,he /ood "u ! gall]y1 9 8 %irt sleeves1 ) a clay pipe /ick+ out ( 8 wai/coat pocket1 & a little cap on 8 head4 ,i fancy ,i c see him n[1 /&+ erect1 look+ e>ne/ly at me :ile ,i 0 prea*+1 ) 8 h& on "o ( ! iron supports ( ! gall]y4 ,z ! s]mon proce$$ he became deeply int]e/$1 & /ep by /ep drew ne>] to ! pulpit4 ,he seem$ to be altoge!r unconsci\s t he 0 n dress$ = a ,sunday congregation1 or t he 0 ! object ( any special notice4 ,aft] ! s]mon he knelt d[n 9 ! aisle1 & !re he rema9$4 ,i 0 call$ out ( ! ve/ry to g to him1 b c\ld n get him to say a ^w4 ,i pray$ by 8 side1 & aft] "s "t he groan$ out an ,am51 !n he got up1 & w5t t[>ds ! door4 ,i foll[$ him1 & saw t in/ead ( go+ along ! pa?1 he made across ! graves 9 ! *ur*y>d1 to a p>ticul> "o2 & !n he ?rew himself on ! gr\nd1 9 vehem5t & convulsive emotion4 ,he said some?+ ab\t ,edw>d1 b we c\ld n di/+ui% :at x 04 ,! sexton said t ?is 0 8 son ,edw>d's grave4 ,poor man6 he 0 9 great sorr[2 b he kept x all to himself4 ,he !n w5t home1 & %ut himself up 9 8 own room4 ,8 daught] c\ld d no?+ ) him 9 8 di/ress4 ,we call$ sev]al times to see him 9 ! c\rse ( ! ev5+1 b 9 va94 ,! next morn+ ,i call$ aga91 :5 8 daught] told me t he _h gone out e>ly1 & _h n return$ to breakfa/4 ,%e appe>$ to be 9 a good deal ( tr\ble1 & said %e _h be5 to 8 m9e to inquire = him1 b t he 0 n !re4 ,all day long we se>*$ = him4 ,"s look$ 9 ! woods1 half-expect+ !y might f9d 8 body on ! gr\nd1 or hang+ f a tree2 :ile o!rs inquir$ 9 e direction1 ) increas+ anxiety1 till ! ev5+4 ,!n1 z we 7 return+ home 9 despair & disappo9tm5t1 :om %\ld we see 9 ! gre5 lane betwe5 ! vic>age & ! *ur*1 b our fri5d4 ,he 0 look+ into ! %rubs z if wat*+ some?+2 & :5 we came up to him1 he turn$ to u ) a radiant smile1 & said1 ,! ,"l is 'gude4' ,i said1 ,y are "r1 ,he is s4 ,yes1 ,i am "r1 all "r6 ?ank ,god6 ,?9k ( t6 ,he sav$ me ?is day6 ,are y com+ to *ur* to-night8 ,oh yes1 c]ta9ly ,i w be !re4 ,b1 ,i said1 h y be5 home yet8 ,oh yes1 sir1 ?ank y2 my girl kn[s all ab\t me4 ,t man 0 s manife/ly *ang$1 & s fill$ ) ! ,_s1 t 8 old worldly companions 7 afraid ( him4 ,! publican ( ! inn he us$ to frequ5t 0 p>ticul>ly s1 & said he 0 fright5$ to be 9 ! same room ) him4 ,!re 0 a great /ir among ! p 9 ?is place2 = ! fe> ( ! ,"l _h fall5 on !m1 s t !y 7 solemniz$ exce$+ly1 & _m 7 conv]t$4 ,! vic> be+ some:at timid1 began to be afraid ( :at 0 go+ on2 & wrote to ask c\nsel ( a cl]ical neighb\r at ,c--1 :o answ]$ 8 lett] by invit+ him to come ov]1 & br+ me ) him4 ,he said t he want$ me to prea* 9 8 *ur* on ! foll[+ ,friday ev5+1 add+1 ,i h already giv5 notice1 & also read p>ts ( y\r lett] 9 *ur*4 ,i am sure ! p w come & he> ?is man2 ,i expect a l>ge congregation4 ,be sure & br+ him ov]2 d n disappo9t me on any acc\nt6 ,accord+ly1 on ! ,friday we appe>$ !re1 & 9 ! ev5+ ,i prea*$ to a l>ge & att5tive assembly4 ,_m 7 awak5$1 & "s rema9$ beh9d to be spok5 )2 o!rs1 :o 7 too %y to d s1 w5t home2 & we he>d ! next morn+ t sev]al _h _h no sleep or re/ all night4 ,?ree m51 :om we saw 9 ! morn+1 _h f\nd peace4 ,aft] ?is1 we drove sl[ly back to ,g--1 b a mess5g] _h arriv$ be=e u1 & said t ,i mu/ come back aga9 ) him1 = ! bills 7 already out t ,i w\ld prea* on ,sunday & foll[+ days at ,c----4 ,! vic> 0 mo/ reluctant to let me g1 b "u ^! circum/ances1 he at la/ cons5t$2 s ,i w5t back 9 ! c>riage ! mess5g] _h br\ght = t purpose4 ,at ! ,sunday morn+ s]vice1 ! mann] & tone ( ! p1 & _! eag] att5tion1 impli$ t some?+ 0 go+ to happ54 ,!re 0 a deeply solemn feel+ 9 ! *ur*1 bo? morn+ & ev5+1 :i* made x v easy to prea*4 ,9 ! c\rse ( my s]mon1 ,i "k n :y1 ,i 0 l$ to ,speak ab\t ! endless mis]y ( hell2 & "s :o 7 pres5t said ,i ass]t$1 ,t !re 0 a great clock 9 hell1 ) a l>ge dial1 b no h&s to m>k ! progress ( "t3 x _h a p5dulum :i* swung sull5ly & sl[ly f side to side1 cont9ually say+1 ',ev]6 nev]6' ',ev]6 nev]6' 99 99 ,bo? ,brida9e & ,krumma*] h express$ some:at ! same idea4 ,?is seem$ to make a pr(\nd s5sation among ! p3 _m /ay$ to ! aft]-meet+-!y w\ld n g away until !y _h be5 spok5 )4 ,among o!rs1 ! *ur*w>d5 came to me 9 a v excit$ /ate1 & said1 ,:at ev] made y say1 ',n[ or nev]6--n[ or nev]6'8 ,he 0 l "o beside himself ) emotion :5 he ?\ght ( ! p5dulum :i* ,i _h describ$4 ,n[ or nev]6--n[ or nev]6 he kept on repeat+ to himself1 till at la/ he w5t away4 ,he 0 f> too excit$ to talk ( any?+ else1 or to li/5 ei!r4 ,lat] on 9 ! ev5+1 we 7 s5t = to come 9 all ha/e to 8 h\se4 ,!re we f\nd him 9 great tr\ble ( m9d1 & afraid to g to b$4 ,aft] talk+ to him = a %ort "t1 he w5t on to say t he _h a /range ?+ to tell u--t t v morn+ he 0 ly+ 9 b$ 7he ?\ght he 0 q awake71 & look+ at a little picture ( ! crucifixion :i* 0 hang+ ov] ! fireplace4 ,:ile do+ s he saw z pla9ly z possible "s black figures ( imps & devils walk+ along ! mantelpiece ) a ladd]1 :i* !y plac$ aga9/ ! wall1 evid5tly = ! purpose ( remov+ ?is picture f its place4 ,he wat*$ !m int5tly1 & notic$ t !y seem$ mu* tr\bl$ & p]plex$ z to h[ !y 7 to accompli% _! task3 ,"s ( ! imps put _! %\ld]s to ! "u side ( ! frame1 :ile o!rs w5t up ! ladd]2 "o1 9 p>ticul>1 m\nt$ to ! top ) great dext]ity1 to get ! cord (f ! nail1 b )\t success4 ,enrag$ at ?is1 !y made v>i\s o!r attempts1 b all 9 va91 & at la/ !y gave up 9 despair1 if n some?+ worse2 = by ?is "t !y appe>$ furi\s1 & da%$ ! ladd] d[n to ! gr\nd1 z if x 7 ! fault ( x1 & n ( !mselves4 ,9 rage & disappo9tm5t1 !y pass$ (f ! sc5e4 ,pres5tly ! b$room door op5$1 z he ?\ght1 & :o %\ld pres5t himself b ,paul ,pry 7t 0 ! "n he _h giv5 to a ,diss5t+ prea*] 9 ! village1 :o 0 a portly man1 & always w5t ab\t ) a ?ick umbrella "u 8 arm7--! v]itable ,paul ,pry1 umbrella & all1 /&+ at ! door4 ,he said to 8 visitor1 ,:at d y want "h8 ,! phantom po9t$ to ! picture ov] ! mantelpiece1 & said1 9 a quiet1 confid+ way1 ,n[ or nev]6 ,d y he>1 man8 ,n[ or nev]6 ,! man 0 indignant at ?is untimely intrusion1 & bade 8 visitor begone2 b1 = all t1 he /ill /ood at ! door1 & said1 ,n[ or nev]6--n[ or nev]6 ,he got out ( b$1 & w5t t[>ds ! door1 b ! figure disappe>$1 say+1 ,n[ or nev]6--n[ or nev]6 ,!n he got into b$ aga91 & all 0 /ill = a little :ile1 :5 sudd5ly ! door op5$ a second "t1 & ! vic> appe>$1 j z ,paul ,pry _h done1 & came t[>ds ! b$1 z if ) a fri5dly & affectionate conc]n = 8 welf>e1 & said1 ,my de> fell[1 be p]suad$ x is 'n[ or nev]6' ,!n1 tak+ a seat at ! corn] ( ! b$1 ) 8 back lean+ aga9/ ! po/1 he w5t on talk+1 & say+1 aga9 & aga91 ,n[ or nev]6 ,! poor *ur*w>d5 remon/rat$ 9 va9 aga9/ be+ visit$ 9 ?is mann]1 & ?\ght x v h>d2 b ! vic> sat !re1 & p]si/5tly1 said1 ,n[ or nev]6 ,he became v angry1 & bade him g out ( ! room imm$iately2 b ! vic> said1 ,n[ or nev]6 ,i w 'n[' y1 he said1 if y d n be (f2 & s say+ he rose up 9 8 b$2 :ile ! vic> glid$ to ! door1 repeat+1 ,n[ or nev]6 & w5t away4 ,! poor man1 9 great di/ress ( m9d1 turn$ to 8 wife1 & ask$ h] :at c\ld be ! mean+ ( all ?is2 b %e only cri$1 & said no?+4 ,!n1 :o %\ld come next b ,mr4 ,f----1 a quiet man ( few words4 ,he _h ?\ghts1 no d\bt1 b kept !m all to himself4 ,he came glid+ into ! room1 z ! vic> _h done1 sat on ! same corn] ( ! b$1 leant aga9/ ! same po/1 & 9 '! quiete/ way possible repeat$ ! same words1 ,n[ or nev]6 ,d y he> him8 said ! poor di/ract$ man to 8 wife--d y he> him8 ,he> him8 ,he> :at8 ,no6 nons5se6 ,:at does he say8 ,my de>1 !re6 li/56 ,n[ or nev]6 said ! quiet man4 ,!re1 did y n he> t8 ,no1 %e said1 ,i c he> no?+1 & began to cry m copi\sly4 ,he got up1 & said he w\ld take ! pok] & puni% e "o ( !m--t he w\ld4 ,! /range visitor made = ! door1 &1 l all ! re/1 said1 z he disappe>$1 ,n[ or nev]6 ,! poor *ur*w>d5 cont9u$ 9 a mo/ di/ract$ /ate1 & dur+ ! day met all 8 ?ree visitors :o _h caus$ him s mu* anxiety--,paul ,pry1 ! vic>1 & ! quiet g5tleman1 none ( :om look$ at him or spoke to him z if any?+ _h happ5$2 b :5 he he>d me say ov] & ov] aga9 9 ! pulpit1 ,n[ or nev]6 po9t+1 z x 71 to ! gho/ly p5dulum sw++ !re say+1 ,ev]6--nev]6 & inquir+ ( ! p ,d y see x8 d y he> x8 x seem$ to br+ matt]s to a climax4 ,he said he turn$ & look$ at ! wall to :i* ,i po9t$1 & almo/ expect$ to see t solemn clock4 ,i did n wait to he> m1 b kneel+ d[n1 ,i begg$ him to close ) ! (f] ( salvation n[4 ,no1 he said1 ) a sigh1 ,i am afraid ,i h refus$ too long6 ,don't say s6 take x at once1 'n[2' or p]haps x w be 'nev]' ) y4 ,a man does n (t5 get su* a pla9 w>n+ z y h _h4 ,y _h bett] take c>e :at y are do+4 ',n[6' :y n 'n['8 ,he did accept salvation1 & yield+ himself to ,god1 receiv$ =giv5ess ( 8 s9s2 & aft] t became a v diff]5t man4 ,he _h1 z may h be5 suspect$ f ! above n>rative1 ! besetm5t ( dr9k1 be=e 8 conv]sion1 & x rema9$ a tr\ble to him aft]4 ,conv]sion & =giv5ess ( s9s d n put away pres5t bad habits4 ,su* a ma/] habit z ?is requires a direct deal+ )4 ,zac*eus 0 a man :o _h be5 l$ a/ray by ! love ( money2 :5 he 0 sav$1 he put 8 idol away f him at a /roke4 ,?is is ! fir/ ?+ to be done2 & if x is done 9 ! p[] ( "o's fir/ love1 x is a m easy task ?an aft]w>ds4 ,b x mu/ be done ) a firm & :ole he>t2 n ,"l1 %all ,i give ! half ( my goods to fe$ ! poor8 b1 ,"l4 behold1 ! half ( my goods ,i d give4 ,behold1 ,"l1 ,i d give up ! _w "h1 n[4 ,behold1 ,"l1 ,i d "h1 & n[1 give up dr9k1 anti w totally ab/a9 f x h5ce=?4 ,?is is ! fir/ /ep2 & ! next is n less important1 & t is to c>ry out ! det]m9ation 9 ! ,"l's p[]1 & n 9 our own4 ,! resolution & det]m9ation once made1 mu/ be giv5 ov] to ! ,"l to be kept by ,him2 n by our own ef=t & en]gy1 b ) p]fect di/ru/ ( self & 9 dep5d5ce ^u ,him to enable u to keep x4 ,)\t ?is1 !re is no security :atev] = any?+ m ?an tempor>y success1 too (t5 succe$$ by a sorr[ful fall4 ,! fle% is too /rong = u1 & ev5 if x 7 n s1 ! devil is2 ^! two toge!r1 besides ! lax example ( ! _w1 are sure to ov]p[] ! weak "o4 ,"y ,*ri/ians ne$ to put away at once ! s91 :atev] x is1 t s easily besets !m1 or !y w be entangl$ by x4 ,!re is no real & ?or\gh deliv]ance1 except by r5\nc+ s91 & self too1 giv+ up & yield+ to ! ,"l4 ,t s\l 0 sav$2 b x 0 a mis]able bondage ( fe> 9 :i* he liv$ & di$4 ,he 0 br\ght home at la/1 l a wreck$ %ip into h>b\r1 :o might h come 9 ) a good freight1 a happy welcome1 & an abundant entrance4 ,! next day1 ,monday1 we he>d ( o!r cases :i* 7 ord9>y 9 _! "*1 & !re=e ne$ n be detail$2 b 9 ! ev5+ !re 0 "o :i* x w be in/ructive to m5tion4 ,x 0 t ( a cl]gyman ( private means :o came to ?is p>i% z a curate2 b he _h giv5 up tak+ duty1 because1 he said1 x 0 all humbug read+ pray]s1 & all t4 ,he drove a t&em1' & smok$ all day in/ead2 nev]!less1 he 0 ! object ( mu* & e>ne/ pray]4 ,he also happ5$ to be at *ur* ! day ,i prea*$ ab\t ! clock2 & decl>$ likewise t ,i said !re 0 a clock 9 hell4 ,! s]mon _h evid5tly made a great impression ^u him4 ,he came to *ur* aga9 ! next day1 & he>d some?+ else t he 0 unable to =get4 ,aft] ! s]vice1 z soon z ,i 0 free1 he ask$ me to walk ) him1 to :i* ,i ass5t$1 ?\gh ,i 0 feel+ v tir$4 ,we rambl$ on ! bea*1 & talk$ ab\t _m ?+s4 ,i tri$ 9 va9 to br+ up ! subject ( my disc\rse4 ,:5 ,i spoke ab\t x he 0 sil5t2 & :5 ,i 0 sil5t1 he w5t (f into o!r matt]s4 ,he talk$ ab\t ,j]usalem & ! s&s ( ! des]t1 & ! p>tridges1 :i*1 he said1 7 ( ! same col\r z ! s&4 ,0 x f look+ at s& always t !y became t col\r8 ,d p become alike :o look mu* at "o ano!r8 ,is t :y husb&s & wives s (t5 resemble ea* o!r8 & s on4 ,^! que/ions made an impression on me1 s t !y always come up to my memory 9 connection ) t ev5+'s walk4 ,c]ta9ly1 ! apo/le says t1 ,behold+ ! glory ( ! ,"l1 we are *ang$ into ! same image f444glory to glory2 !re=e !re may be some?+ 9 my companion's idea4 ,b1 h[ev] int]e/+ ! subject might be to consid]4 ,i 0 f> too tir$ = any?+ else b real s\l-to-soil6 "w1 & !re=e propos$ t we %\ld return home4 ,we did s2 & :5 my fri5d left me at ! vic>age door1 he said abruptly1 ,w y let me write to y8 ,c]ta9ly1 ,i repli$4 ,i w write to-night2 b d n tr\ble to answ] 9 p]son2 s5d me a writt5 reply4 ,i said ,i w\ld4 ,9 a few m9utes aft] ,i receiv$ a %ort note1 ! purport ( :i* 01 ,h[ c ,i be sav$8 ,x is a v simple "q1 yet "o n s easily answ]$ to a p]son :o already knew ! scriptural answ]4 ,h[ev]1 ,i _h a lett] by me :i* ,mr4 ,aitk5 _h writt5 to "s "o "u simil> circum/ances2 s1 tak+ t = a model1 ,i wrote accord+ to promise1 adapt+ & alt]+ s5t5ces to meet ! pres5t case4 ,i s5t ! note1 ) a message t ,i w\ld call 9 ! morn+4 ,i did s1 b f\nd my fri5d 0 n at home4 ,! l&lady said1 ,mr4 ,f--- w5t out la/ night soon aft] he receiv$ a lett]1 & has n be5 home s9ce4 ,%e became al>m$ :5 %e he>d t we _h n se5 him4 ,we too 7 tak5 by surprise1 & did n "k :i* way to g 9 se>* ( him1 or :at to d4 ,pres5tly we met ! cl]k ( ! *ur*1 :o inquir$ if we _h se5 any?+ ( ,mr4 ,f--2 he _h call$ ! night be=e = ! keys ( ! *ur*1 & _h n return$ !m2 s he 7! cl]k7 c\ld n get into ! *ur* to r+ ! bell or admit ! congregation4 ,?is ?rew "s light on ! matt]2 s we w5t imm$iately to ! *ur*1 & ) ! vic>'s keys ent]$ by ! ve/ry door4 ,look+ ab\t 9 all directions1 we f\nd our fri5d on 8 knees 9 ! nave1 :]e he _h be5 all night4 ,i w5t up to him2 &1 z he did n speak1 ,i ask$ if ,i might pray ) him4 ,he said1 ,yes4 ,:at %all ,i pray =8 ,i don't "k4 ,%all ,i ask ! ,"l to come d[n f heav5 aga9 & die on ! cross = y8 ,no4 ,d y believe t ,he has done t8' ,yes1 ,i d4 ,y d believe t ,he has di$ = y-= y8 ,i inquir$1 lay+ ! emphasis on y--= y1 z if y 7 ! only p]son = :om ,he di$8 ,yes2 ,i believe ,he di$ = me4 ,d y ?ank ,him = x8 ,no1 ,i d n2 ,i d n feel any?+4 ,t may be2 b d y n ?9k y ought to ?ank ,him = :at ,he did = y8 ,he did n reply4 ,h[ c y feel any?+ till y h x8 ,or h[ c ,he give y any feel+s till y ?ank ,him = :at ,he has already done = y8 ,make "s ackn[l$gm5t4 ,?ank y1 he repli$2 & )\t ano!r ^w he rose f 8 knees & w5t away4 ,! bell 0 rung1 ! p assembl$1 & we _h ! s]vice2 b he did n rema94 ,aga9 he disappe>$ = ! :ole day1 until ! ev5+1 :5 he came into ! ve/ry1 & said1 ,w y let me read pray]s ?is ev5+8 ,to ?is ! vic> gladly ass5t$2 s he put on ! surplice = ! fir/ "t aft] sev]al mon?s1 & w5t into *ur* ) u4 ,! fact ( 8 read+ pray]s aga91 & m especially ! mann] 9 :i* he did x1 attract$ att5tion4 ,! e>ne/ tone & mean+ he ?rew into ! words ( ! pray]s1 & m p>ticul>ly into ! psalm1 p5etrat$ mu* deep]4 ,"o lady knelt d[n & began to pray = h]self 9 ! pew2 o!rs 7 rivet$ z by ! p[] ( ! ,_s4 ,all ?r\gh ! s]mon1 ,i felt t ! ,"l 0 work+ among ! p1 & at ! close !y 7 lo? to g4 ,_m m rema9$ 9 ! aft]-meet+ ?an we c\ld speak to2 manife/ 0 ! p[] ( ! ,_s1 & mu* good 0 done4 ,!re 0 great joy 9 ! little village t night1 & = sev]al days foll[+ ! ,"l wr\ght among ! p4 ,_m la/+ mem5tos rema9 ( ?is week's m9i/ry1 & ( ! weeks :i* foll[$4 ,our retic5t fri5d 0 *ang$ inde$1 & imm$iately gave up ! t&em & ! pipes4 ,i d n ?9k he has ev] smok$ s9ce2 he has _h some?+ bett] to d4 ,smok+ is an idle cu/om1 & too (t5 enslaves its vot>ies2 & ev5 if x does n become a dom9ant habit1 x c]ta9ly tea*es no lesson ( self-d5ial4 ,a ,*ri/ian man ne$s n to seek relief 9 any su* way4 ,x is said to be v soo?+ :5 a man is 9 any tr\ble or anxiety2 if s1 9 ?is respect x may be said to be next door to ! be]-b>rel1 or to ! use ( spirits4 ,if "o man may soo! 8 feel+s ) ?is n>cotic1 ano!r may /imulate !m1 :5 he is l[ & *e]less1 ) alcohol4 ,! ,apo/le ,james says1 ,is any m]ry1 let him s+ psalms4 ,he does n say1 ,is any afflict$ or l[1 let him smoke & dr9k6 ,no2 let him pray1 & dep5d ^u ,god4 ,_m a lesson :i* might be le>n$ f ,god on our knees1 is let slip altoge!r because we ?9k !re is no ham 9 reliev+ ourselves by self-indulg5ce4 ,! fle% is a mon/] :i* is nev] appeas$1 mu* less subdu$1 by gratification4 ,our fri5d put away ! smok+1 & sold 8 pipes ( v>i\s k9ds1 :i* mu/ h co/ a consid]able sum1 = he realiz$ eighty p\nds by !m4 ,) ?is am\nt1 & "s addition1 he 0 able to put /a9$ glass w9d[s into ! already beautiful *ur* 9 :i* he receiv$ 8 bless+4 ,?is suitable ?ank-(f]+ 0 a la/+ memorial ( 8 gratitude1 besides be+ an example to o!rs1 n only to give _! he>ts to ,god1 b also to give up _! besetm5ts1 :atev] !y might be1 & 9 do+ s be free = ,god's s]vice4 ,?is "y man soon aft] 0 remov$ to a m ardu\s sph]e1 & c>ri$ great bless+ ?i!r2 z he did also :5 he w5t f !nce to a yet m influ5tial & important place4 ,?\gh n[ laid aside by ill heal?1 he s5ds tracts & writes lett]s to _m1 & s cont9ues to be1 9 ! h& ( ! ,"l1 ! means ( w9n+ s\ls2 & 9 addition to ?is1 sets an example ( a holy & godly life4 ,ano!r little incid5t ,i mu/ notice "h4 ,:ile ,i 0 /ill work+ 9 ?is place1 ,i receiv$ a lett] f home1 tell+ me t !y 7 all well1 & v happy 9 ! c\ntry1 b t !y want$ me back aga91 & ?\ght ,i _h be5 away q long en\gh4 ,besides ?is1 x 0 "t to be gett+ summ] ?+s1 = :i* !y w\ld want at lea/ t5 p\nds4 ,i _h no money to s5d2 & ?\gh ,i might h ask$ _m k9d fri5ds1 ,i felt a difficulty ab\t x4 ,i d n ?9k x 0 pride4 ,i _h put myself & all my affairs into ,god's h&s2 & ?\gh ,i 0 n a%am$ to tell our circum/ances to any "o :o ask$ me1 ,i made x a rule n to m5tion my tr\bles or wants to any b ! ,"l4 ,i read ! *e]ful p>ts ( my lett] at breakfa/1 & kept ! o!r till ,i w5t up/airs4 ,!re ,i spread ! lett] on ! b$ at :i* ,i knelt1 & read to ! ,"l ! "p t tr\bl$ me4 ,i 0 pray+ ab\t x1 :5 !re came a knock at ! door1 & be=e ,i _h "t to say ,come 91 my fri5d ,f--- ent]$4 ,see+ me on my knees1 he apologiz$ = intrud+1 & 9 8 %y way put a t5-p\nd note into my h&1 say+1 ,i am a%am$ x is n m2 b w y accept t8 ,) ?is1 he made = ! door2 b ,i deta9$ him1 9 ord] to %[ him ! "p ( my lett] ,i _h n read 9 ! morn+4 ,i said1 ,i 0 j read+ x to ! ,"l2 & look1 :ile ,i 0 /ill on my knees1 ,he has s5t y ) ! answ]4 ,x is ! exact sum ,i want1 s d n apologize = x4 ,i ?ank ,god & ?ank y4 ,i w s5d ?is (f at once4 ,,*apt] #bi ,tregoney1 #ahee4 ,x 0 "t n[ to be return+ s\?w>d & homew>d2 :i* ,i did by sev]al /ages1 /opp+ to prea* 9 v>i\s places on ! way4 ,at l5g? ,i rea*$ ! village 9 ,cornwall1 :]e my family 7 lodg+ 9 ! f>mh\se ,i h already m5tion$4 ,"h1 ! two cl]gym5 7 r afraid ( me1 & avoid$ ask+ me to prea* 9 ! *ur*4 ,!y _h bo? be5 conv]t$ 7or1 at lea/1 s !y said7 m ?an a ye>2 b in/ead ( work+ = ,god1 !y 7 b5t on ,romaniz+4 ,"o ( !m said t !re 0 no salvation 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&2 & ! o!r %[$ me a seal$ lett] he _h 9 8 desk1 :i*1 he said1 he d>$ n op54 ,x 0 f a bro!r ( 81 :o w5t to ,rome1 & conta9$ 8 reasons = s do+4 ,ah1 he said1 if ,i op5 t lett]1 ,i feel sure t ,i %all h to g too4 ,?is fasc9at+ dread 0 ^u him till he really did g1 six mon?s aft]w>ds4 ,i tri$ to det] ^! m5 f ! errone\s /ep !y 7 contemplat+1 by gett+ !m into active "w = ! ,"l4 ,sometimes ,i prea*$ 9 ?is *ur*1 b m (t5 9 ! op5 air4 ,i am sorry to say my fri5ds 7 b half-he>t$ 9 _! coop]ation1 s t aft] a few weeks ,i left1 & w5t to ! we/4 ,on my way ?i!r1 a cl]gyman1 :o happ5$ to be inside ! coa*1 gave me 8 c>d1 & !n came outside = ! purpose ( talk+ ) me4 ,he ask$ me if ,i w\ld take *>ge ( 8 *ur* & p>i% = six weeks4 ,i said ,i w\ld1 b c\ld n g = a week or two4 ,we agre$ z to "t1 & on ! promis$ ,saturday ,i arriv$ at ! place4 ,i walk$ !re f a neighb\r+ t[n1 hav+ sev]al calls to make on ! way1 & left my luggage to foll[ by ! van4 ,9 ! ev5+1 ab\t eight o'clock1 ,i w5t d[n to meet ?is conveyance1 & tell ! man :]e to deliv] my bag4 ,i f\nd a cr[d ( p 9 front ( ! inn :]e ! van /opp$1 & he>d ! driv] say1 9 reply to "s "q1 ,i've n got him1 b ,i've got 8 bag4 ,:]e is he8 said a voice4 ,i don't "k1 "o said1 b ,i saw a que] little *ap g into ,mrs4 ,m--'s h\se4 ,t's ! place1 said ! driv]2 t's :]e ,i'm a-go+ to take 8 bag4 ,come on1 & let's see if he'll h x4 ,i w5t 9 & out among ! cr[d1 z x 0 d>k1 ask+ que/ions1 & f\nd out t !y w\ld l to duck ! fell[ if !y c\ld cat* him2 !y did n want any su* ,revivali/ *ap z t among/ !m1 & s =?4 ,!y 7 greatly excit$1 & wond]$ :i* road he 0 likely to come1 = !y w\ld g to meet him4 ,"s "o ask$1 :at is he l 8 ,"o answ]$1 ,oh1 he is a rum-look+ little fell[ t /oops4 ,i %\ld "k him aga9 any:]e4 ,he>+ ?is1 ,i held up my head l a soldi]1 9 ord] to look z l>ge z possible1 & wait$ ab\t till !y disp]s$4 ,!n ,i jo9$ a "y man1 &1 talk+ ) him1 asc]ta9$ :at x 0 all ab\t4 ,i pass$ ! h\se :]e ,i 0 to lodge1 = ,i saw t ! p 7 wat*+ ! door4 ,i came back among !m1 &1 po9t+ to ! door1 said1 ,is t :]e he /ops8 ,yes1 "o repli$1 he is !re4 ,! man br\ght 8 bag & left x2 he is !re1 sure en\gh4 ,i said1 ,let u g 9 & see him2 come along--come6 ,s say+1 ,i made = ! door & knock$1 beckon+ to ! o!rs to foll[ me2 b !y w\ld n d s4 ,z soon z ! door 0 op5$ ,i w5t 91 & ! l&lady spe$ily clos$ x aft] me1 say+1 ,i am glad y are come4 ,h[ did y manage to get "h8 ,i h s5t ^w to ! con/able to look out = y1 & he is /ill wat*+ some:]e4 ,:y1 ,i ask$1 :at is x all ab\t8 ,:at is ! matt]8 ,:y1 "s ( ! lads "h say1 t if !y c\ld cat* y1 !y w\ld give y a good duck+ 9 ! pond4 ,inde$6 ,i said4 ,!n ,i don't ?9k ,i w give !m t pleasure tonight4 ,s1 sitt+ d[n by ! fire1 ,i made myself com=table1 & aft] supp] w5t to b$4 ,9 ! morn+1 :ile at breakfa/1 ,i saw a numb] ( m5 play+ 9 ! op5 space 9 front ( ! h\se4 ,"s 7 toss+ p5ce1 "s play+ at ball & o!r games1 :ile _m 7 /&+ ab\t smok+1 ) _! h&s 9 _! pockets4 ,!re1 t's ! way !y sp5d _! ,sundays 9 ?is place1 said ! l&lady4 ,aft] wat*+ !m f ! w9d[ = a little "t1 ,i put on my hat & w5t out1 & told !m x 0 "t to g home & get ready = *ur*2 t w\ld be f> bett]1 ,i said1 ?an play+ l ?is on ,sunday4 ,x is a disgrace to m5 l y--m>ri$ m51 too1 ) families6 ,x w\ld be bad en\gh if y 7 a p>cel ( boys4 ,i am q a%am$ ( y6 ,!y slunk away "o by "o1 & ,i walk$ d[n ! /reet to look ab\t me1 & to see ! s*ool-room :]e !re 0 no s*ool2 b ,i int5d$ to h a pray]-meet+ !re 9 ! ev5+1 aft] ! s]vice4 ,i put up a notice to ?is effect1 & !n came back to my lodg+s1 till x 0 ne> *ur*-"t1 :5 ,i set out1 array$ 9 my g[n & b&s1 = ! sacr$ edifice4 ,on ! way !re ,i obs]v$ /ones fly+ pa/ me 9 e direction2 b ,i walk$ on1 till at la/ ,i 0 /ruck on ! *eek ) a pat* ( muddy clay :i* 0 ?r[n at me4 ,!re 0 a univ]sal %\t ( laught] :5 ! m5 & boys saw t ,i _h be5 hit4 ,i put my h& to ! place1 & f\nd t ! pat ( clay 0 /ick+ to my *eek1 s ,i press$ x !re1 hop+1 by ! help ( my :isk]s1 t x w\ld rema94 ,i said to ! cr[d1 :o 7 laugh+ at me1 ,t 0 n a bad %ot4 ,n[1 if y come to *ur* y %all see x !re2 ,i w keep x on z long z ,i c4 ,s say+1 ,i walk$ on amid/ ! je]s ( ! p4 ,:5 ,i arriv$ at ! ve/ry1 ! cl]k 0 9 great tr\ble :5 he knew :at _h happ5$4 ,he said1 ,d let me wa% ! mud (f1 sir4 ,oh1 no1 ,i repli$1 ,i mean to %[ t all day1 if ,i c4 ,dur+ ! morn+ s]vice1 at :i* !re 7 ab\t fifty pres5t1 ,i succe$$ 9 keep+ on my mud-pat*1 & return$ to d9n] ) ! same4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i said t ,i w\ld h a s]vice = *ildr51 z !re 0 no ,sunday s*ool1 to :i* ab\t tw5ty came4 ,be=e address+ !m1 see+ t !y 7 int5tly look+ at ! pat* on my *eek1 ,i told !m h[ x came !re1 & t ,i int5d$ to keep x on all ?r\gh ! ev5+ s]vice4 ,?is news spread all ov] ! :ole place1 & ! consequ5ce 0 t su* numb]s ( p came out ( curiosity1 t ! *ur* 0 fill$ to ov]-fl[+4 ,i prea*$ )\t any ref]5ce to :at _h tak5 place1 & succe$$ 9 ga9+ ! att5tion ( ! p2 s t aft] ! s]vice ,i said ,i w\ld h a pray]-meet+ 9 ! s*oolroom4 ,we _h ! place cramm$1 & n a few f\nd peace4 ,i ann\nc$ t ,i w\ld prea* aga9 ! next ev5+4 ,a revival soon broke out 9 t place1 & ! cr[ds :o came to ! meet+s 7 s great1 t we _h z _m p outside ! l>ge s*ool-room z !re 7 94 ,at ! end ( ! six weeks ! new vic> return$1 & ,i 0 able to h& ov] ! p>i% to him1 ) a full *ur*1 ?ree ,bible-classes1 & a l>ge ,sunday-s*ool4 ,?is ,i did1 ?ank+ ,god = ! measure ( success & bless+ ,he _h giv5 to my ef=ts 9 t popul\s & wick$ place4 ,aft] ,i _h left ,i receiv$ a lett] f "s ( ! p>i%ion]s1 ask+ me :at ,i %\ld l to h z a te/imonial ( _! gratitude & reg>d2 hat !y _h _h a p5ny collection among/ !mselves1 :i* am\nt$ to sev]al p\nds1 & n[ !y 7 wait+ to "k :at ,i %\ld l6 ,i wrote to tell !m t no?+ w\ld please me bett] ?an a s]vice ( plate = communion ) ! sick4 ,!y b\ght ?is1 & _h a suitable inscription engrav$1 & !n plac$ x "u a glass %ade 9 ! ,t[n ,hall1 on a c]ta9 day = inspection4 ,hundr$s ( p came to see ! result ( _! p5ny contribution4 ,aft] ?is public exhibition1 ! communion s]vice 0 s5t to me ) a lett]1 writt5 by a lead+ man 9 ! place1 say+1 ,i 0 "o ( ! in/igators ( ! opposition to y\r "w "h2 b ! v fir/ ev5+ y spoke 9 ! s*ool-room ,i 0 outside li/5+1' & 0 %ot ?r\gh ! w9d[4 ,! ^w hit my he>t l a hamm]1 )\t break+ a pane ( glass4 ,scores & scores ( p w bless ,god to all et]nity t y ev] came among/ u4 ,! revival 9 ?is prov]bially wick$ place1 creat$ su* a /ir t ! newspap]s took x up1 & ?\ght = once t ,i 0 9 ! "r place1 & do+ a good "w6 ,! memb] = ! bor\gh s5t me tw5ty-five p\nds1 begg+ my acceptance ( ! trifle4 ,:o ask$ him1 or :y he s5t x1 ,i d n "k2 b ! ,"l knew t we ne$$ help4 ,m ?an ?is1 ! vic> ( ! adjo9+ p>i%1 :o us$ to be v fri5dly ) me 9 my unconv]t$ days1 b :o _h decl>$ 8 opposition pretty freely s9ce t "t1 s5t me a lett] "o ,sunday morn+ by private h&1 to be deliv]$ to me p]sonally4 ,?is ,i duly receiv$1 b expect+ t x 0 "o ( 8 usual lett]s1 & kn[+ t ,i _h visit$ "s p]sons 9 8 p>i% :o 7 anxi\s1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld n op5 x until ,monday1 & s plac$ x on ! mantelpiece4 ,a fri5d :o happ5$ to come 91 notic+ x !re1 said1 ,i see y h a lett] f ! ,preb5d>y2 ,i d>e say he is angry ) y4 ,i suppose he is1 ,i said2 b x w keep till tomorr[2 & ,i d n c>e to be tr\bl$ ) 8 ?\ghts to-day4 ,oh1 d let me op5 x1 said my visitor2 ,i %all n be "h to-morr[1 & ,i %\ld l to he> :at he has to say4 ,) my cons5t he op5$ x & read1 ,de> old ,haslam1 y h done m good 9 t "p ( my p>i% :]e y are work+1 9 a few weeks1 ?an ,i h done = ye>s4 ,i enclose y a *eque = ! am\nt ( ti!s com+ f !re4 ,! ,"l bless y m & m6 ,pray = me6 ,x 0 a *eque = ?irty-sev5 p\nds4 ,! next morn+ ,i w5t ov] to see my old fri5d newly-f\nd1 & to ?ank him 9 p]son = 8 g5]\s gift4 ,poor man1 ,i f\nd him v l[ & depress$1 & q ready & will+ t ,i %\ld talk & pray ) him4 ,i s9c]ely hope t he became *ang$ be=e ,i left ! neighb\rhood1 b ,i nev] he>d t he decl>$ himself4 ,by ?is "t1 :ile ,i 0 /ill 9 ,tregoney1 ,mr4 ,aitk5 _h f\nd 8 way to ! village :]e my family 7 lodg+1 & he 0 prea*+ at ! *ur* ) 8 usual p[] & effect4 ,night aft] night s\ls 7 awak5$ & sav$4 ,! vic>'s wife 0 9 a t[]+ rage ( opposition4 ,poor woman6 %e decl>$ t %e w\ld r g to ,rome ?an be conv]t$ 2 & to ,rome %e w5t1 b rema9$ z worldly z ev]4 ,x matt]s v little :e!r unconv]t$ p jo9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome or n2 !y are sure to be lo/ = ev] if !y die 9 _! unconv]t$ /ate3 = no?+ avails = et]nal salvation b fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,,*apt] #cj ,secessions1 #ahef4 ,aft] mission :i* ,mr4 ,aitk5 _h held1 p came out s decid$ly1 t ! vic> & curate1 :o _h all along kept alo(1 d\bt+1 fell back into a k9d ( revulsion1 & began to read & l5d ,romi% books4 ,ev5tually1 !y !mselves decid$ to jo9 ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,:e!r !y 7 ev] really conv]t$ or n1 ,i _c tell4 ,i ?\ght & hop$ !y 71 b !y seldom /ood out on ! ,"l's side4 ,!y c]ta9ly _h light1 & may h _h "s exp]i5ce4 ,at any rate1 !y *ose su* a h>lot z ! ,*ur* ( ,rome = ! object ( _! love1 in/ead ( ,*ri/ ,himself4 ,i lov$ ! curate4 ,he 0 ! man :o _h ! unop5$ lett] 9 8 desk199 ( :i* he h>b\r$ su* a dread4 ,sad to say1 he end$ by fall+ away at la/4 ,poor man6 he w5t ov] to ,rome1 & nev] held up 8 head any m4 ,evid5tly disappo9t$1 & a%am$ to come back1 he l+]$ on = "s mon?s1 & !n di$4 99 ,see page #bef4 ,n long aft] 8 secession1 we accid5tally met 9 a quiet lane1 9 ano!r "p ( ! c\nty1 :]e ,i 0 walk+ = m$itation4 ,p]haps he 0 l$ !re = ! same purpose4 ,meet+ s unexpect$ly1 !re 0 no opportunity to evade "o ano!r4 ,i felt a trembl+ come ov] me at see+ him1 & he 0 none ! less mov$4 ,we held ea* o!r's h&s 9 sil5ce1 till at la/ ,i said1 ,h[ are y8 ,i love y /ill4 ,i _c /& x6 he said2 & snat*+ 8 h& out ( m9e1 he ran away4 ,i nev] saw him aga91 b m\rn$ = him till he di$4 ,i _c help ?9k+ t he is safe1 & t he di$ 9 a fai? m scriptural ?an t ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,:y d m5 sec$e2 & break _! own he>ts1 & ! he>ts ( ^? :o love !m8 ,rome seems to ca/ a k9d ( spell ^u ! consci5ce1 fasc9at+ its victims mu* z ! gaze ( ! s]p5t is said to hold a bird1 till x falls into its p[]2 or z a light attracts a mo?1 till x flies into x1 to its own de/ruction4 ,su* sec$]s m\rn & dread ! /ep2 pray ab\t x1 ?9k & ?9k1 till !y are bewild]$ & h>ass$2 & !n1 9 a fit ( desp]ation1 g (f to "s ,romi% prie/ to be receiv$4 ,a man :o _h an hon\rable position1 a "w & responsibility1 sudd5ly becomes a non5tity1 b>ely welcom$1 & c]ta9ly suspect$4 ,romi% p compass sea & l& to make proselytes2 & aft] !y h ga9$ !m1 !y are afraid ( !m1 = _! respective antec$5ts are s diff]5t1 t x is impossible = !m to ?9k toge!r4 ,!y get ! submission ( a poor delud$ p]v]t1 b he gets no?+ 9 return f !m b a fictiti\s salvation4 ,!y ga9 him2 b he 0 lo/ ! k9d reg>d & sympa?y ( fri5ds he _h be=e1 & ) x all t once 0 de> to him2 & he volunt>ily =feits all ?is ^u ! b>e self-ass]tion ( a sy/em :i* claims 8 implicit ob$i5ce4 ,! poor p]v]t is requir$ to give ov] 8 w1 8 consci5ce1 & 8 deepe/ feel+s to ! keep+ ( 8 s-call$ prie/ or to ! ,*ur*1 & is expect$ to g away unburd5$ & at peace4 ,"s !re are1 x is true1 :o actually decl>e t !y h peace by ?is means2 b :at peace x is1 & ( :at k9d1 ,i "k n4 ,suppos+ t ,i 0 9 debt & anxiety1 & a man :o _h no money1 b pl5ty ( assurance & brass1 came to me & sympa?iz$ 9 my tr\ble1 say+1 ,d n fe>---tru/ me2 ,i w be> y\r burd51 & pay (f y\r debt--if ! mann] ( ! man 0 suffici5tly assur+1 x w\ld lift up ! cl\d ( anxiety & di/ress2 b1 = all t1 ! p5niless man w\ld net1 & c\ld n1 pay my debt4 ,i might fancy he _h done s or w\ld d s2 & !n1 :5 x 0 too late1 ! debt1 ) accumulat$ int]e/1 w\ld fall on me1 to my ov]-:elm+ ru91 ev5 ?\gh ,i _h be5 ev] s free f anxiety be=e4 ,s x is ) ^! delud$ ones1 :o g to ! prie/ in/ead ( to ,*ri/1 & take 8 absolution in/ead ( ,*ri/'s =giv5ess4 ,any "o :o c>efully reads ! ,^w ( ,god may see t ! ,*ur* ( ,rome has no su* prie/hood z %e claims1 nor p[] to =give s9s1 z %e pr(esses to d4 ,! :ole supposition is bas$ on a misund]/&+ ( ! text1 ,^: soev] s9s ye remit1 !y are remitt$ unto !m2 & :osesoev] s9s ye reta91 !y are reta9$ 7,john #bj3bc74 ,! disciples 7"s ( !m n apo/les7 :o receiv$ ?is commission or privilege1 nev] und]/ood t !y 7 by ^! words 7m5 & wom5 toge!r7 emp[]$ to be absolv+ prie/s4 ,ev5 ! v apo/les nev] knew t !y _h any su* p[]2 & x is c]ta9 !y nev] ex]cis$ x4 ,!y 7 p]fectly innoc5t ( be+ prie/s aft] ! ,romi% type1 & nev] dream$ ( (f]+ a propitiatory sacrifice4 ,!y simply believ$ t ,*ri/ _h complet$ ! "w ( propitiation once = all2 & t !re is n[ no m sacrifice = s9--t ,*ri/ only c =give s9s4 ,!re=e 9 ! words ( ,/4 ,john we are told1 t if any man s9 7apo/les & p alike71 we h an advocate ) ! ,fa!r1 ,jesus ,*ri/ ! righte\s2 & ,he is ! propitiation = our s9s 7#a ,john #b3a1 #b74 ,! apo/les & e>ly ,*ri/ians nev] und]/ood t ! p[] ( ! keys meant ! ex]cise ( m]e prie/ly au?ority1 nei!r 0 ! doctr9e kn[n = sev]al c5turies aft] _! "t2 !re=e we may be sure t ! peace :i* p]v]ts h1 if x pr(esses to come f t s\rce1 is a delusion4 ,no true remission or peace is1 or c be giv51 b by direct & p]sonal transaction ) ,*ri/ ,himself4 ,i am p]fectly conv9c$ t ! ,epi/les to ! ,romans & ! ,galatians are ! answ] to all ! pret5ces ( ! ,*ur* ( ,rome1 & t a man :o w n read & foll[ !m des]ves to be misl$4 ,god is p]fectly ju/ifi$ & cle> on ?is po9t4 ,dur+ t w9t] six ( my fri5ds jo9$ ! ,*ur* ( ,rome4 ,"o ,i h already told ab\t1 :o di$1 ,i am sure1 f grief & disappo9tm5t499 ,ano!r became bigot$1 & ) a sull51 dogg$ p]t9acity1 set himself to "w = ,rome1 look+ v mis]able all ! "t1 al?\gh he us$ once to be happy 9 ! ,"l's "w4 ,! o!rs1 )\t exception1 w5t back into ! _w1 & made no secret ( _! con=mity ) x1 its ways1 & fa%ions4 99 ,see page #bfc4 ,?is 0 a "t ( tr\ble 9 m respects ?an "o4 ,^! secessions to ,rome br\ght great discr$it ^u ! "w1 & especially on ! ef=t to promote ,ca?olic tru?1 & high] ,*ur* life4 ,i f\nd my own refuge & com=t 0 9 work+ = ,god1 & !re=e w5t out on mission "w :5ev] & :]ev] ,i c\ld4 ,e>ly 9 ! spr+ ( ?is ye> ,i w5t on a mission to ,worce/]%ire1 & !re ! ,"l v\*saf$ a great bless+1 :i* has m or less cont9u$ to ?is day2 ?\gh ,i grieve to say ! pres5t vic> has no sympa?y ) x4 ,! "w is /ill c>ri$ on 9 an ,iron ,room1 out ( *ur* h\rs1 by p :o cont9ue to g to *ur*4 ,! vic> ( t "t ask$ me to g & visit a f>m]'s wife1 :o 0 "u deep conviction1 & wi%$ to see me4 ,i did s1 & z we approa*$ ! door 7:i* 0 op57 ! fir/ ?+ we he>d 0 ?is individual say+1 9 a v high-pit*$3 voice1 ,conf\nd444 ,see+ u1 %e sudd5ly /opp$4 ,g on ) y\r text1 said ! vic>1 quietly1 ',conf\nd$ be all !y t s]ve grav5 images2' is t :at y mean8 ,no1 %e repli$2 come 91 ,i am s wret*$ t ,i don't "k :at to d ) myself2 x has made me cross4 ,d come 9 & pray ) me4 ,we at once cons5t$2 & on po9t+ h] to ,jesus1 %e f\nd peace4 ,n cont5t ) prais+ ,god alone1 %e op5$ h] h\se = a meet+ = ! p 9 ! neighb\rhood4 ,?is be+ situat$ on ! conf9es ( ! p>i%1 br\ght u into collision ) ! rector ( ! next p>i%4 ,he 0 mo/ indignant at our com+ 7z he said71 to entice 8 p away4 ,i tri$ my be/ to conciliate ?is g5tleman1 b no?+ w\ld d1 p>ticul>ly :5 he he>d t ,i 0 ?9k+ ( settl+ d[n 9 ! di/rict4 ,?is plan 0 h[ev] fru/rat$ 9 an unexpect$ mann]1 & ,i 0 n p]mitt$ to rema9 !re4 ,"o day1 :5 ,i 0 pray+ ab\t ! matt]1 a lett] 0 put into my h& f a lady :o _h be5 ask+ ! ,"l = ne>ly six mon?s t ,i might be appo9t$ to h] late husb&'s *ur*4 ,%e _h appli$ to ,"l ,palm]/on1 :o 0 ! patron1 & ?\gh %e _h receiv$ no answ]1 yet %e _h cont9u$ to pray4 ,at la/ !re came a c\rte\s lett] f 83 lord%ip1 apologiz+ = hav+ delay$ 8 reply1 add+ t he _h mislaid ! application ( h]1 nom9ee2 if %e w\ld oblige him ) ! "n & address ( ?is p]son1 ! appo9tm5t %\ld be made out imm$iately4 ,%e gave my "n & address1 & s5t 8 lett] on to me4 ,i imm$iately wrote to 8 lord%ip1 say+ t ,i _h n appli$ = ! liv+1 nor did ,i want x2 b1 = all t1 ,i receiv$ by return po/ ! nom9ation2 & actually1 x 0 to g back to ! diocese ( ,exet]6 ,i did n ?9k ! ,bi%op w\ld in/itute me1 z ,i _h committ$ a great _m irregul>ities s9ce 8 lord%ip _h tak5 (f my h>ness4 ,b he did4 ,someh[ ,i 0 unwill+ to g to ?is liv+1 b 0 put into x 9 spite ( myself4 ,"h ,i _h a good h\se1 g>d51 & *ur*1 provid$ = me1 ) s mu* a ye>4 ,i wond]$ :e!r ,god 0 tir$ ( me6 ,he _h provid$ = me & my family dur+ ! pa/ ye> wondr\sly1 & ,i began to l liv+ by fai?1 & tru/+ 9 ,him only4 ,i h great d\bts :e!r ?is appo9tm5t 0 altoge!r 9 accordance ) ,god's w4 ,anyway1 ,i _h v little success or lib]ty 9 prea*+1 & c\ld n settle d[n to "w ) any en]gy4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( ! summ]1 z usual1 ,i _h my attack ( hay fev]1 :i* completely incapacitat$ me1 9 ?is place ( mu* grass4 ,if ,i w5t to a t[n or ! sea-side1 x 0 well2 b ! mom5t ,i return$ to ! c\ntry ,i 0 ill aga94 ,altoge!r1 x 0 a dull & di/ress+ "t2 b ,god 0 prep>+ me = a special "w4 ,,*apt] #ca ,hayle1 #aheg-eh4 ,:ile m$itat+ ^u my pres5t position1 & wond]+ :at ,i 0 to d next1 ,i receiv$ an invitation to take *>ge ( a di/rict 9 ano!r "p ( ! c\nty1 ne> ! sea1 :i* suit$ my heal?4 ,"h !re 0 a l>ge population1 :i* gave scope = en]getic action2 &1 moreov]1 ! p 7 c>eless & ,godless1 &1 z su*1 7 n preoccupi$ ) o!r sy/ems4 ,s ,i ?\ght x 0 ! v place 9 :i* ,i c\ld beg9 to prea*1 & g on to prove ! p[] ( ! ,gospel4 ,) ! invitation1 ,i receiv$ an exagg]at$ acc\nt ( ! wick$ness ( ! p1 & 0 told t ! ?9k+ "p ( !m leant t[>ds infidelity1 & t "s ( !m 7 actually b&$ toge!r 9 an infidel club4 ,all ?is1 h[ev]1 did n det] me f go+1 b r /irr$ me up s mu* ! m to try my lance aga9/ ?is gigantic foe4 ,i _h le>n$ be=e n[ to reg>d all difficulties 9 my "w z ! ,"l's1 & n m9e2 & t1 ?\gh !y might be great] ?an ,i c\ld surm\nt1 !y 7 n too great = ,him4 ,!re 7 two l>ge iron factories "h1 besides %ipp+4 ,_m ( ! p employ$ 7 drawn f o!r p>ts ( ,engl&1 & 7 :at ! ,corni% call =eign]s4 ,!y _h no love = *apel s]vices1 or revivals1 & no sympa?y ) ,corni% views & cu/oms2 s n hav+ a *ur* to g to1 !y 7 left pretty mu* to !mselves4 ,) ?is attractive sph]e be=e me1 ,i gave up my liv+ & "w 9 ! c\ntry1 & accept$ ! curacy at l4 #abj a ye>1 ) a h\se r5t-free4 ,my rector 0 a dry ,*ur*man1 :o _h no sympa?y ) me2 b he seem$ glad to get any "o to come & "w among/ su* a r\gh1 & 9 "s respects unmanageable1 set4 ,he _h b\ght a *apel f ! ,primitive ,me?odi/s = ,div9e s]vice1 & _h erect$ s*ools = upw>ds ( ?ree hundr$ *ildr54 ,^! he (f]$ me z my gr\nd ( op]ation1 promis+1 ) a writt5 gu>antee1 t if ,i succe$$1 he w\ld build me a *ur*1 & end[ x ) all ! ti!s ( t portion ( ! p>i%4 ,"h 0 a field ( lab\r :i* requir$ mu* pray] & tact1 z well z en]getic action4 ,9 accordance ) ,scriptural tea*+1 ,i det]m9$ to "k no?+ b ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,him crucifi$4 ,i made up my m9d t ,i w\ld n beg9 by hav+ temp]ance addresses = drunk>ds1 or lectures on ! ,evid5ces ( ,*ri/ianity = ! infidel1 b simply ) prea*+ ! ,gospel4 ,"o ?+ t simplifi$ my "w v mu* 0 ! fact1 t ! p 7 spiritually dead4 ,i us$ to tell !m1 t 9 ?is free c\ntry e man is acc\nt$ innoc5t till he is prov$ to be guilty1 b t 9 ! ,bible e man is guilty be=e ,god till he is p>don$1 & dead till he is br\ght to life4 ,9 "o s5se x does n matt] v mu* :e!r a man is an infidel1 a drunk>d1 or any?+ else1 if he is dead 9 trespasses & s9s4 ,x is ( v little consequ5ce 9 :at col\r$ raim5t a corpse is %r\d$2 x rema9s a corpse /ill4 ,tak+ ?is position positively1 ,i avoid$ mu* religi\s controv]sy1 to ! disappo9tm5t ( _m eag] disputants1 :o long$ to v5tilate _! views4 ',i told !m pla9ly1 t :e!r !y 71 "r or wrong1 my bus9ess 0 ) ! salvation3 ( s\ls1 & my "o desire 0 to rescue ! lo/3 by br++' !m to ,*ri/4 ,hi!rto ,i _h be5 to places :]e ! ,"l _h previ\sly prep>$ ! he>ts ( ! p1 & !re=e x _h be5 my joy to see a revival spr+ up1 z if spontane\sly2 t is1 )\t ! ord9>y prep>ation by ! p ( ! place4 ,^! extraord9>y manife/ations ( ,god's p[] & love2 & !y %[$ me :at ,he c\ld & d4 ,n[ t ,i 0 some:at m intellig5t on ! subject1 ,he s5t me =? to prep>e & "w = simil> results4 ,hayle 0 to all appe>ances a v b>r5 soil1 & ! p ,i _h to lab\r among/ 7 great] & mighti] ?an myself4 ,!y already _h possession ( ! gr\nd1 & 7 p]fectly cont5t ) _! own way4 ,moreov]1 !y did n desire any *ange1 & 7 ready ev5 to resi/ & oppose e ef=t :i* 0 design$ to ameliorate _! condition1 or to *ange _! lives4 ,9 ?is und]tak+ ,i knew & und]/ood t )\t pray] & dep5d5ce ^u ,god to "w 9 me & by me1 my mission w\ld be altoge!r unavail+1 ,i !re=e look$ ab\t1 & f\nd "s ,*ri/ians :o cons5t$ to unite 9 plead+ = an outp\r+ ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,we agre$ to pray 9 private1 & also met toge!r frequ5tly dur+ ! week = unit$ pray]4 ,f9d+ t _m ( ! petitions (f]$ 7 vague & diffuse1 ,i endeav\r$ to set be=e ^? assembl$ a def9ite object ( pray]4 ,i told !m t ! "w 0 n ours b ! ,"l's1 & t ,he 0 will+ & ready to accompli% x1 b t ,he mu/ be inquir$ ( conc]n+ ! "w ( ,8 h&s4 ,also1 9 ord] t our pray]s %\ld be intellig5t & unit$1 ,i put be=e !m ! fact1 t ! p we _h to "w among/ 7 lo/2 n t !y w\ld be lo/ by-&-by if !y di$ 9 _! s9s2 b t !y 7 actually lo/ n[4 ,x is true t _m 7 q ignorant ( ! way ( salvation1 & 7 also unconsci\s ( ! p[] ( ! enemy :o held !m captive2 & besides1 !y lov$ _! captivity too well2 b all ?is w\ld be ov]come 9 a mom5t1 :5 !y 7 once enlight5$ by ! ,_s 79 answ] to pray]7 to see & feel !mselves lo/4 ,no "o c\ld be m ignorant ?an ! jailor at ,philippi1 b z soon z he 0 awak5$ he cri$ out1 ,:at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8 7,acts #af3cj74 ,i %[$ !m t ! "w we _h to d 0 cle>ly set =? 9 ,scripture 7,acts #bf3ah71 & t ! ord] 9 :i* x 0 to be done 0 also made manife/4 ,we mu/ n beg9 ) giv+ in/ruction z if ! p 7 m]ely ignorant2 b r by awak5+ or op5+ _! eyes to see t !y 7 9 a lo/ & ru9$ condition4 ,!n !y w\ld appreciate be+ turn$ f d>kness to light1 & f ! p[] ( ,satan unto ,god1 t !y may receive =giv5ess ( s9s 7,acts #bf3ah74 ,i /rove e>ne/ly to %[ !m t until p _h receiv$ =giv5ess ( s9s1 our "w 0 n complete4 ,we made ?is our def9ite aim1 & pray$ ab\t x ) cle> expectation4 ,"u ! %ad[ & influ5ce ( ?is pray]1 ,i began to prea* to ! p2 n to believe1 b to awake & see _! lo/ condition2 t is1 to rep5t1 t !y might believe ! ,gospel4 ,at fir/ !re 7 v few p 9 my congregation1 b by degrees m came1 & li/5$ att5tively to ! ,^w4 ,aft] prea*+ = f\r or five ,sundays1 ,i ask$ ! p dur+ my s]mon1 :at 9 ! _w !y 7 made (2 = ,i 0 surpris$ at !m6 ,!y came & li/5$ to ,god's tru?1 & yet did n yield !mselves to ,him4 ,are y wood1 or lea!r1 or /one8 ,:at are y\r he>ts made (1 t ,god's love _c t\* or ,8 ,^w break !m8 ,i !n invit$ ! anxi\s to rema9 = an aft]-meet+1 :5 ,i said t ,i w\ld conv]se ) !m m famili>ly2 b !y e "o w5t away4 ,i return$ to ! ve/ry1' feel+ some:at deject$1 b /ill hop+ = bett] days4 ,z ,i op5$ ! door to g home1 two m5 ran away l fright5$ boys1 b x 0 too d>k = me to di/+ui% :o !y 74 ,t next morn+ x came to my m9d t ,i mu/ g r\nd to ! p & ask !m :at !y 7 ?9k+ ab\t8 ,i _h done s f ! pulpit2 n[ ,i w\ld g f h\se to h\se & d ! same4 ,i w5t fir/ to ! s*ool1 & f9d+ t sev]al *ildr5 7 abs5t1 ,i took _! names & det]m9$ to g aft] !m1 9 ! hope ( rea*+ _! p>5ts4 ,! fir/ h\se ,i call$ at 0 a mi/ake1 & yet x 0 n4 ,i knock$ at ! door1 & said1 ,does ,mrs4 ,w-- live "h8 ,! woman :o op5$ x said1 ,no1 %e lives next door4 ,i apologiz$ = di/urb+ h]1 & 0 go+ away1 :5 %e said1 ,w y n come 9 = a few m9utes8 ,i ass5t$1 & go+ 91 took a seat4 ,!n ,i ask$ h] "n1 & :e!r %e w5t to *ur*4 ,%e repli$1 ,to be sure ,i d4 ,don't y see me !re e ,sunday8 ,!n1 ,i said1 did y he> my "q la/ ev5+4 ,yes1 %e said1 b ,i 0 afraid1 & a%am$ to /ay beh9d4 ,b ,i d wi% to be sav$2 ,i h be5 wret*$ = m ?an a week4 ,x 0 v easy to lead to ! ,savi\r ( s9n]s "o ^: he>t 0 s prep>$4 ,%e soon f\nd peace1 & became "o ( my mo/ useful & /eadie/ help]s4 ,h] neighb\r next door1 0 by no means s ready to receive ! tru?1 & ,i _h to supply ano!r argum5t altoge!r4 ,ev5tually1 %e also f\nd peace 9 believ+2 ?\gh n = "s weeks4 ,f ?is h\se1 ,i visit$ sev]al o!rs1 & 9 all ( !m _h s]i\s deal+ ) individuals ab\t _! 's\ls' salvation4 ,!n ,i set (f to see a man ,i _h (t5 obs]v$ 9 *ur*2 hav+ notic$ ! anxi\s look ) :i* he always reg>d$ me dur+ ! s]mon4 ,i f\nd him at home1 &1 on ent]+ 8 h\se1 he said1 at once1 ,i "k :at y are come =4 ,wait a little1 sir1 please to sit d[n2 & be=e ,i _h "t to say a ^w1 he w5t up/airs4 ,9 a few m9utes he return$1 ) a %ill+ 9 8 h&4 ,!re1 he said1 !re x is2 t is my contribution = ! ,indian ,mut9y ,fund4 ,i ?ank$ him = 8 (f]+1 & promis$ t x %\ld be giv5 to ! treasur]4 ,b1 ,i add$1 to tell ! tru?1 ,i h n come ab\t t1 b to see y4 ,i want to speak to y ab\t y\r s\l4 ,he sat d[n1 look+1 z ,i ?\ght1 mo/ unhappy4 ,!n he said1--,la/ night my mate & ,i made up our m9ds to speak to y 9 ! ve/ry2 b1 j z we 7 com+ to ! door1 y op5$ x1 & we ran away4 ,yes1 ,i said1 ,i he>d y4 ,well1 aft] t1 we came home1 & pray$ ! ,"l to s5d y to u3 & "h y are6 ,?ank ,god = ! answ] to pray]4 ,n[ !n1 :at c ,i d = y8 ,he told me t he 0 born ( respectable p>5ts 9 ,g]many2 b t1 = 8 bad ways & bad habits1 !y _h s5t him to ?is c\ntry to "w = 8 bread2 t he _h tak5 ! pl$ge sev]al times1 & brok5 x aga9 & aga91 ?\gh he _h pray$ & done all he c\ld ?9k (2 b x 0 to no propose4 ,if y _h /ay$ la/ night1 ,i said1 ,i might h help$ y4 ,h[ did y come to break y\r pl$ge8 ,oh1 he said1 x came to my m9d t :5 ,i sign$1 ,i 0 only ?9k+ ( be] & spirits1 n w9e2 s ,i took "s1 & x flew to my head2 & soon ,i 0 z bad z ev]4 ,n[1 ,i said1 y h r5\nc$ w9e & all2 h y8 ,yes1 ,i h4 ,well !n1 w y give y\r he>t to ,god also8 ,9 c\rse ( conv]sation x came out1 t ?is man's fir/ impressions 7 effect$ "s ye>s be=e1 by a dream1 or vision ( ,*ri/ on ! cross4 ,he 0 pass+ by1 b1 someh[1 turn$ to look at x2 :51 to 8 surprise1 he saw t ! eyes ( ! figure 7 look+ at him4 ,z he approa*$1 ! figure appe>$ to be /&+ on ! gr\nd1 & beckon+1 :5 a sudd5 fe> came ov] him2 he /opp$1 & ! vision fad$ away4 ,ev] s9ce t "t1 he _h felt t ,jesus 0 ! ,fri5d he ne$$2 & t no?+ less w\ld satisfy him4 ,un=tunately1 too _m1 l ?is man1 /op at a critical po9t ( _! hi/ory2 &1 (t51 ! crisis is n prolong$ = !m1 z x 0 = him4 ,a long "t ago !re 0 a s9n] arre/$ by a simil> vision4 ,he says1 9 a hymn :i* he wrote1 giv+ a description ( x3-- ,i saw ,"o hang+ on a tree1 ,9 agony & blood1 ,:o fix$ ,8 languid eyes on me ,z ne> ! cross ,i /ood4 ,he cont9ues1 ,my consci5ce felt & own$ its guilt2 & :5 he did s1 he receiv$ a second look1 :i* spoke =giv5ess to him1 z di/9ctly z ! fir/ look br\ght him "u conviction4 ,i *>g$ ?is man to make 8 surr5d]1 & to own or ackn[l$ge himself ! s9n] = :om ,jesus di$4 ,on do+ s1 he obta9$ =giv5ess & peace1 & has s9ce1 by grace1 be5 enabl$ to live a happy1 consi/5t1 & devot$ life1 & has be5 a bless+ to _m s\ls4 ,no soon] _h he f\nd ! ,savi\r1 ?an imm$iately he began to plead = & ) 8 fri5d ,james4 ,i "k n :at pass$ betwe5 !m2 b t same ev5+ he br\ght him to me ) a he>t prep>$ to receive ,*ri/4 ,we _h only to po9t him to ,jesus1 & enc\rage him to ?ank ,god1 :5 he realiz$ ! tru? 9 8 own exp]i5ce4 ,s t ,monday ,i rejoic$ ov] five p br\ght to ! ,"l2 & !n ! "w began 9 real e>ne/4 ,e week aft] t1 rem>kable conv]sions took place1 besides _m ord9>y ones4 ,"s ( ^!1 includ+ ! "o j m5tion$1 are describ$ at l5g? 9 tracts1 & are also publi%$ 9 a volume entitl$ ,build+ f ! ,top1 & o!r ,/ories2 b1 not)/&+ ?is1 a brief allusion to !m 9 ?is n>rative may n be out ( place1 be+ s p>ticul>ly connect$ ) ! "w "h4 ,a woman call$ me into h] cottage "o morn+ z ,i 0 pass+ by1 & told me ( h] son1 a /eady "y man1 ?\gh /ill unconv]t$1 = :om %e _h pray$ cont9ually ev] s9ce 8 bir?4 ,%e said1 :5 he 0 a v little *ild1 %e he>d him "o night sobb+ & pray+ 9 8 room--,o ,"l1 save me up = a good boy6 ,%e ?\ght ?is 0 9 answ] to h] supplication2 b z he grew up he became ?\ghtless & c>eless1 l too _m o!rs ( 8 age4 ,"s five or six mon?s ago1 %e said1 he _h a dream or vision1 & saw y s pla9ly t he po9t$ y out to me1 among o!r cl]gym51 & said1 ',"m1 t man is to be our m9i/] "o ,i saw him a little "t ago1 9 a dream1 z pla9ly z ,i see him n[2 ,i "k t is ! man4' ,we did n "k :o y 7 !n1 or :]e y came f1 & nev] saw y aga9 till y came lately to ?is p>i% to be our m9i/]4 ,la/ night1 cont9u$ ! "m1 aft] he return$ f *ur*1 my ,william 0 v unhappy & re/less2 & 9 ! night ,i he>d him cry+ & pray+ al\d = m]cy1 9 great di/ress4 ,he told me ?is morn+1 :5 ,i ask$ him ab\t x1 t he dreamt t ! la/ day 0 come1 & t ! _w 0 on fire3 & he began imm$iately to try to pray1 b c\ld n2 yet he w5t on try+ till he he>d "s "o laugh out at him1 & say1 ',ho6 ho6 my boy1 y are too late6--ho6 ho6--too late6 ,i h got y n[---y are too late6' ,?is fright5$ him s mu* t he woke up1 & gett+ out ( b$1 began on 8 knees to pray 9 e>ne/ = ! ,"l to h m]cy on 8 s\l4 ,be+ mu* int]e/$ 9 ! "y man1 ,i begg$ h] to s5d him to me 9 ! ev5+4 ,%e did s2 & :5 he arriv$ ,i frankly told him :at ,i _h he>d ab\t him1 & p>ticul>ly ab\t 8 di/ress & pray] ! night be=e4 ,y\r "m has pray$ = y = ye>s2 & :5 y 7 a little boy y pray$ ! ,"l to save y3 la/ night1 aga91 y 7 con/ra9$ to cry = m]cy4 ,^! are all tok5s ( ,god's good int5tions & purposes t[>ds y4 ,c y tru/ ,him8 ,z he hesitat$ 7= s _m l to feel some?+ be=e !y make ! v5ture ( fai?71 ,i cont9u$1 ,^! tok5s are bett] ?an feel+s1 = !y are facts & sure signs by :i* y may "k t ! ,"l is call+ y4 ,we may well und]/& t x 0 n long be=e ! ,"l1 :o _h s m>vell\sly op5$ 8 eyes to see 8 s9s1 enabl$ him by ! same ,_s to see ,jesus z ,8 ,savi\r1 & to rejoice 9 ! =giv5ess ( 8 s9s4 ,!n ,i ask$ him to sit d[n aga91 = ,i 0 curi\s to he> ab\t ! dream or vision :i* he _h _h "s mon?s be=e he ev] saw me4 ,william1 ,i said1 did y ev] see me be=e ,i came to ?is p>i%8 ,yes1 he repli$1 ,i saw y once 9 a vision1 m ?an six mon?s ago6 ,d y m9d tell+ me ab\t x8 ,aft] a little hesitation1 he answ]$1 ,i (t5 dream ?+s4 ,"o night ,i dreamt t ,i 0 walk+ on a wild b>r5 common2 !re 7 _m b>e places :]e p _h cut turf1 & !re 7 prickly furze-bu%es ab\t4 ,i knew !re 7 "s did op5 m9e-%afts !re1 = p sometimes fell into !m at night2 b ,i 0 walk+ along )\t ?9k+ ( dang]1 & 0 n afraid1 ?\gh x 0 d>k1 & ,i 0 alone4 ,i don't "k h[ long ,i w5t on l ?is1 b next ,i f\nd ,i 0 walk+ ) y4 ,i c\ld see y v pla9ly1 j z if x _h n be5 d>k1 & y 7 talk+ ab\t ,jesus & ,8 love to s9n]s4 ,i lik$ y\r words v mu*1 & 0 s tak5 up ) !m t ,i d n "k :5 x became light2 = n[ ,i c\ld see ! r\gh common1 & a pa?1 & we 7 walk+ 9 x4 ,go+ along ?is pa?1 we came to a wall1 & ,i c\ld n g any fur!r2 b y walk$ on z if !re 7 no wall4 ,pres5tly y /opp$1 &1 turn+ to me1 said1 ',:y don't y come on8' ,i answ]$1 ',i _c4' ,:y n8 ,because !re is a wall "h4 ,no1 y said1 !re is no wall--x is an op5 door4 ,i 0 surpris$ at y say+ t1 = ,i feel ! wall & see x4 ,:at w\ld y d if !re 0 no wall8 ,d t4 ,x is n a wall1 b a door1 y said2 walk =w>d6 ,:5 ,i v5tur$ =w>d ,i f\nd y\r 7 true4 ,x 01 inde$1 an op5 way1 lead+ into a beautiful g>d54 ,i 0 v happy1 & said1 ',^: g>d5 is ?is8' ,y answ]$1 ',x is ! ,"l's1 & y are to dress x & "w 9 x4 ,!n ,i saw ! ,"l ,himself4 ,he came =w>d1 & bidd+ me welcome1 said t y %\ld tea* me = ?ree ye>s4 ,!n ,i awoke4 ,f ?is extraord9>y n>ration ,i ga!r$ ?ree ?+s = myself4 ,fir/1 t ,god int5d$ me to come to ?is place4 ,secondly1 t ,i 0 to lab\r "h = ?ree ye>s4 ,?irdly1 t ,i 0 to tea* ! p n to wait = feel+s1 b to act ^u ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,?is la/ intimation 0 s cle>ly signifi$ by ,william's dream1 t x came ^u me ) /rik+ =ce4 ,i _h be5 speak+ on ?is v subject m ?an once1 & _h v5tur$ s f> z to say t ,i ?\ght ?is delusion ab\t wait+ = feel+s 0 f ! devil1 to h9d] ! "w ( ,god 9 ! s\l4 ,x c]ta9ly did h9d] u1 v mu*2 &1 moreov]1 x 0 mo/ di/ress+ to see p1 :o 7 manife/ly impress$ "u ! p[] ( a pres5t ,god1 wait+ = ,him2 because !y did n feel "s tok51 :i* !y _h set _! m9ds ^u4 ,day by day s\ls 7 be+ giv5 9 ! ,*ur*1 & also 9 ! cottage meet+s2 s t ,i c\ld n help see+ t ! ,"l _h begun to use me aga94 ,"s came to ! meet+s :o _h be5 awak5$ "u ! ord9>y prea*+ ( ! ,gospel2 "s because o!rs br\ght !m2 & "s out ( curiosity4 ,"o ( ! latt] cases ,i w m5tion4 ,a m>ri$ woman1 ,n4 ,r--1 he>d p talk+ ( ! "w :i* 0 go+ on4 ,x seem$ to h] to be su* a /range ?+ 9 connection ) a ,*ur* m9i/]1 t %e came to a cottage meet+ to judge = h]self1 )\t ! remote/ idea ( be+ conv]t$4 ,god's ways are n z ours2 :ile %e 0 li/5+1 ! ^w rea*$ h] ) p[]1 s t %e 0 convict$ & conv]t$1 & came out ( t cottage a rejoic+ believ]1 lo/ 9 wond]1 love & praise4 ,%e 0 inde$ /rik+ly & manife/ly *ang$1 & did n hide x4 ,x 0 su* a joy & surprise to h] t %e c\ld n help tell+ e "o4 ,out ( ! abundance ( h] he>t h] lips spoke to tell ( ! lov+ k9dness ( ! ,"l4 ,,*apt] #cb ,bible ,read+s1 #aheh-ei4 ,! *ur* 7s-call$7 9 :i* ,i n[ m9i/]$ _h be5 built by p]sons :o int5d$ to accommodate ! l>ge/ numb] ( p = ! smalle/ am\nt ( money4 ,x 0 scantily built1 & almo/ squ>e1 ) gall]ies on ?ree sides4 ,on ! rema9+ "o !re us$ to be a pulpit1 conspicu\sly plac$ 9 ! middle ( ! wall4 ,?is important portion ( ! edifice 0 n[ remov$ to "o side1 to make room = a ,communion table1 ! seats 9 front be+ arrang$ *ancel-wise1 fac+ "o ano!r1 = ! *oir4 ,?is 0 q a damp] to my ecclesia/ical ta/es2 besides be+ ugly 9 ! extreme4 ,i tri$ by putt+ ornam5tal scrolls ov] ! w9d[s1 & by /a9+ ! glass 9 !m1 to make "s improvem5t4 ,i also pa9t$ a diap] patt]n r\nd ! side walls2 & ^u ! high blank wall beh9d ! ,communion table ex]cis$ all ! skill ,i possess$1 b fe> x 0 some:at 9 va91 ?\gh ,i lab\r$ h>d4 ,! designs look$ v well on pap]1 b :5 display$ on ! wall gave no satisfaction2 s "o aft] ano!r !y disappe>$1 till my dissolv+ views1 z !y 7 call$1 end$ 9 a l>ge floriat$ cross ( gold1 ) a monogram int]-tw9$ 9 x1 on a d>k backgr\nd4 ,:5 once1 h[ev]1 ! ,"l began to bless ! ,^w1 & s\ls 7 awak5$1 despite all anti-ecclesia/ical appe>ances1 my he>t 0 drawn t[>ds ! ugly place1 & ,i lov$ x greatly4 ,i c\ld nev] h believ$ t my =m] ta/es & t5d5cies c\ld h be5 s completely *ang$ z !y 74 ,9 ^? days x 0 a /range ?+ to hold an aft]-meet+ 9 a *ur*2 x 0 nev] done1 ev5 by ! few :o _h su* meet+s4 ,!re=e1 ,i took ! anxi\s ones & o!rs to my own h\se = ! inquiry meet+1 aft] ! ev5+ s]vice4 ,hav+ tak5 up ! c>pet 9 ! draw+-room1 we fitt$ x up ) *airs & =ms to accommodate n9ety p1 :ile half z _m m occupi$ ! hall1 & (t5 numb]s /ood outside ! w9d[s4 ,9 ?is h\se x pleas$ ,god to give u v _m s\ls1 :o 7 br\ght 9 week by week = sev]al mon?s4 ,i believe e room 9 t h\se1 l ! rooms at ,baldhu ,p>sonage1 0 consecrat$ z ! bir?-place ( "o or m ( ,god's *ildr54 ,! numb] ( ^? :o att5d$ ! aft]-meet+ became s great1 t we f\nd x necess>y to g to ! l>ge s*oolroom4 ,?is place w also be rememb]$ 9 et]nity1 & _m a s\l w say ( x1 ,i 0 born !re6 ,"o night1 :5 ,i return$ home f a di/ant meet+1 ,i 0 call$ to see a p]son 9 ,feat di/ress ( s\l4 ,z ,i w5t d[n ! /reet at elev5 o'clock1 ,i 0 surpris$ to see lights 9 almo/ all ! h\ses1 & :at 0 m1 to he> voices 9 urg5t & importunate pray]1 z also ! voice ( ?anks-giv+4 ,! :ole /reet 0 alive1 & inde$ !re 0 a mo/ joyful noise on e side4 ,i 0 pray+ or rejoic+ 9 "o h\se or ano!r all ?r\gh ! night1 :i* 0 "o nev] to be =gott54 ,a glori\s "w ( salvation 0 go+ on )\t ! extravagant noise & excitem5t we us$ to h 9 =m] ye>s4 ,i 0 exce$+ly ?ankful = ?is also1 & began next to consid] :at 0 to be done ) ^! new conv]ts4 ,besides invit+ !m to ! *ur* s]vices1 = :i* !y ne$$ no press+1 ,i urg$ !m to read _! ,bibles at home1 bidd+ !m to m>k any passages :]e !y wi%$ = explanation1 t ,i might h some?+ good & pr(itable to speak ab\t :5 ,i visit$ !m4 ,!n ,i invit$ !m to ,bible-classes2 in/ead ( to exp]i5ce meet+s1 :i* ,corni% p rely ^u s mu*4 ,on ^! occasions ,i endeav\r$ to in/ruct ! p f ,god's ,^w1 & put ,*ri/ be=e !m z ! object ( fai?1 hope1 & love4 ,aft] pray] ,i enc\rag$ !m to ask que/ions1 :i* made ^! ga!r+s int]e/+ & also in/ructive on ! v po9ts ^u :i* !y requir$ in=mation4 ,i f\nd t ^! ,bible-classes 7 a great bless+ to ^? :o att5d$ !m1 b m ?an all1 p]haps1 to myself2 wat]+ o!r s\ls ) ! wat] ( life ,i 0 m abundantly wat]$4 ,! que/ions ( ! p drew my att5tion to di/9ctions & diff]5ces ,i _h n notic$ be=e1 & help$ to take (f ! col\r$ glasses ?r\gh :i* ,i _h hi!rto read ! ,^w4 ,i obs]v$ t ! ?ird1 six?1 & tw5tie? *apt]s ( ,/4 ,john's ,gospel _h be5 held & int]pret$ by me 9 a way t ,i n[ saw to be altoge!r wrong4 ,i _h tak5 ! fir/ ( ^! z be>+ on ,baptism1 ! second on ! ,holy ,communion1 & ! ?ird on ,prie/ly ,absolution4 ,i pond]$ mu* ov] ^! *apt]s1 & m>vell$ h[ !y c\ld h be5 s div]t$ f _! orig9al & obvi\s mean+2 &1 m wond]ful /ill1 t c\ntless millions 9 ,*ri/5dom _h s receiv$ !m = _m g5]ations4 ,x 0 a bold ?+1 & seem+ly presumptu\s to suppose t ,i 0 "r & all ,*ri/5dom wrong2 b ,i soon f\nd t m9e 0 no new discov]y1 & t if millions :o foll[$ traditions )\t comp>+ !m ) ! ,bible1 ?\ght on "o side1 !re 7 also millions :o did read _! ,bibles1 & ?\ght on ! o!r4 ,x 0 p]fectly cle>1 moreov]1 t "o obvi\s motive or policy _h dictat$ ! false application ( ! ?ree *apt]s4 ,x w be obs]v$ t prie/ rule is e/abli%$ 9 !m2 =1 accord+ to ?is tea*+1 no "o c ent] ! k+dom ( ,god ')\t prie/ly op]ation 9 baptism2 no "o abide or be f$ 9 x )\t ! same 9 ,holy ,communion2 nor any "o receive absolution f s91 & f9al release f hell to heav51 ap>t f sac]dotal action4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,i saw spiritual m51 z sure z !y 7 ( _! own exi/5ce t _! new bir? took place1 n at baptism1 b at _! conv]sion4 ,!re=e !y 7 conv9c$ t ! ?ird *apt] ( ,/4 ,john1 9 :i* our ,"l's conv]sation ) ,nicodemus is record$1 ref]s to t spiritual *ange :i* takes place at conv]sion1 & n to baptism1 :i* 0 n ev5 in/itut$ = two or ?ree ye>s aft]w>ds 7,matt4 #bh3ai74 ,aga91 z to ! six? *apt]4 ,a spiritual man kn[s t he fe$s cont9ually on ! body & blood ( ,*ri/1 x is ! ,bread :i* came d[n f heav5 = him4 ,! ,"l said1 ,he t eate? ,me1 ev5 he %all live by ,me 7,john #f3eg74 ,!y "k h[ !y receiv$ spiritual life1 & also h[ x is cont9ually ma9ta9$2 !re=e !y c\ld n all[ !mselves to be c>ri$ away ) su* a palpable fiction z transub/antiation1 or any o!r doctr9e k9dr$ to x4 ,! six? *apt] does n ref] to ! ,"l's supp]1 b ! ,"l's ,supp] ref]s to ! reality :i* is m5tion$ 9 x4 ,la/ly1 z to ! tw5tie? *apt] ( ,/4 ,john1 on ! au?ority ( :i* x is suppos$ & ass]t$ t ,*ri/ left p[] ) ,8 ,*ur* & prie/s to =give s9s4 ,( ?is we may say1 ,he has n delegat$ any su* p[]s at all4 ,:5 ,he gave commissions to ,8 disciples 7n exclusively to ! apo/les71 ,he said1 ,lo1 ,i am ) y4 ,our p[] is n imp>t$ to u f ,him1 b is 9 ,him4 ,we h no p[] at all1 b 9 ,him1 & no grace b 't :i* is 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus 7#b ,tim4 #b3a74 ,x is ,8 pres5ce1 ,8 real1 promis$ pres5ce by ! ,holy ,gho/1 :i* is spiritual p[]2 & ?is is giv5 directly to individuals by ,god ,himself1 & is n transmitt$ ?r\gh o!r *annels4 ,! ,"l ,jesus1 on ,8 resurrection day1 said to ,8 disciples1 9 ! upp] room--&1 be x rememb]$1 t all ! elev5 7 n !re 7& "s wom5 may h be57--,peace be unto y4 ,receive ye ! ,holy ,gho/3 ,^: soev] s9s ye remit1 '!y are remitt$ unto !m2 & ^: soev] s9s ye reta91 !y are reta9$ 7,john #bj3bc74 ,is x possible or reasonable to suppose t our ,"l int5d$ by ^! words to con/itute all t assembly absolv+ prie/s8 ,! apo/les & e>ly ,*ri/ians 7bo? m5 & wom57 nev] ?\ght s1 ei!r be=e or ev5 aft] ! day ( ,p5teco/1 :5 !y 7 taught & l$ by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,! apo/les did n ex]cise any s-call$ prie/ly functions2 !y all prea*$ ! ,gospel1 & z m9i/]s & witnesses1 decl>$1 ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! =giv5ess ( s9s4 ,_! te/imony 0 !n1 z su* te/imony w ev] be1 ! sav\r ( life or ! sav\r ( dea?4 ,x 0 ?us !y remitt$ & reta9$ s9s2 & yet n !y1 b ,god by !m4 ,:ile ,i 0 ?us rum9at+1 a book came into my h&s :i* int]e/$ me greatly4 ,?is ,i read & re-read1 & made an ab/ract ( x4 ,x 0 ! ,life ( ,adelaide ,newton4 ,:at /ruck me 9 x s mu* 01 to f9d t ?is lady 0 able to hold spiritual communion ) ,god by means ( a ,bible only4 ,is x possible1 ,i ?\ght1 to h su* close communion ) ,god1 ap>t f ! ,*ur* & h] m9i/rations8 ,i d n hesitate to say t ?is 0 ! means1 "u ,god1 ( /ripp+ (f "s rema9s ( my grave-clo!s1 & enabl+ me to walk 9 spiritual lib]ty1 in/ead ( legal & sacram5tal bond age4 ,human reason+ w\ld say1 ,:at1 !n1 is ! use ( m9i/ry & sacram5ts8 ,let u disp5se ) !m1 & be indep5d5t ( !m altoge!r4 ,?is is no bett] ?an say+ t we w cont9ue 9 s9 t grace may ab\nd2 & ! same answ] :i* ! apo/le gives w d = ?is also3 ,god =bid6 ,x does n foll[1 because "s p make too mu* ( m9i/ry & sacram5ts1 mak+ !m absolutely necess>y to salvation1 t we %\ld1 on ! o!r h&1 disreg>d !m4 ,!re is ano!r & happi] alt]native1 & t is1 to realize !y 7 made = u1 n we = !m2 !re=e we %\ld n be subject to !m1 b r !y %\ld be subject to u1 & be us$ by u1 n 9 ord] to obta9 ,god's grace & salvation1 b to %[ t we h already done s4 ,9 our ob$i5ce to ,god's ord9ances1 we ackn[l$ge our allegiance to ,him1 & our submission to ,8 w4 ,= fe> t my p %\ld g (f1 z too _m d1 into disreg>d ( ! means ( grace1 because sacram5tal p make too mu* ( !m1 ,i began a class = exposition & explanation ( ! ,pray]-book4 ,i comm5c$ by %[+ !m t ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& is ! ,"l's c&le/ick 9 ?is c\ntry1 n ! c&le1 & c]ta9ly n ! light1 b ! c&le/ick :i* ! ,"l set up "h1 possibly ev5 z 'e>ly z ! days ( ! apo/les1 to %[ ! true light1 :i* is ,*ri/4 ,& ?\gh1 ,romi% corruptions sup]v5$1 x pleas$ ,god1 at2 ! "t ( ! ,re=mation1 to raise up m5 to deliv] u f !m1 & to re/ore true ,bible tea*+4 ,?us ,i endeav\r$ to %[ !m1 t ! sy/em ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& 0 "o :i* %\ld comm5d itself to _! reg>d1 z q agreeable to ,scripture2 & if x is n c>ri$ out accord+ to its int5tion1 t is n ! fault ( ! sy/em1 b r ( ^? :o adm9i/] x4 ,next1 z to wor%ip4 ,! object ( our assembl+ 9 ! h\se ( ,god is n1 ,i said1 s mu* to he> s]mons1 or get in/ruction1 z 9 ,bible1 or o!r classes1 b r to r5d] ?anks = ! great b5efits we h receiv$ at ,god's h&s1 to set =? ,8 mo/ wor?y praise1 to he> ,8 mo/ holy ^w1 & to ask ^? ?+s :i* are requisite & necess>y z well = ! body z ! s\l4 ,t wor%ip is devotion t[>ds ,god2 x consi/s m 9 giv+ ?an 9 gett+4 ,"s ( ! p 7 greatly int]e/$ :5 ,i po9t$ out to !m1 t ! ord] ( our ,s]vice 0 exactly ! same z ! ord] ( !ft spiritual exp]i5ce1 9 conviction1 conv]sion1 & ,*ri/ian life4 ,= example1 ! ,morn+ ,s]vice beg9s ) a s5t5ce su* z1 ,to ! ,"l our ,god belong m]cies & =giv5esses1 ?\gh we h rebell$ aga9/ ,him2 !n comes ! exhortation1 :i* moves u to surr5d] ourselves2 !n ! confession1 :i* is ! act ( surr5d]4 ,imm$iately aft] ?is is decl>$ ! absolution & =giv5ess ( s9s1 to all :o truly rep5t1 & unfeign$ly believe ! ,gospel4 ,!n comes ! ,"l's ,pray]1 :i* leads u1 at once1 into ! place ( *ildr51 accept$ 9 ! ,belov$3 !n foll[ acts ( ?anksgiv+3-- ,op5 ,?\ my lips1 & my m\? %all %[ =? ,?y praise4 ,oh1 come let u s+ unto ! ,"l1 let u he>tily rejoice 9 ! /r5g? ( our salvation4 ,^!1 & su*-l explanations1 help$ to enli/ ! int]e/ ( ! p2 & :51 z be=e1 !y only us$ to endure ! pray]s1 :ile wait+ = ! s]mon1 n[ !y engag$ 9 !m intellig5tly1 & ev5 ) m delight ?an 9 extempore pray]4 ,z to ! ,communion ,s]vice ,i bade !m notice t x beg9s ) ! ,"l's ,pray]1 9 :i* we draw ne> to our ,fa!r1 n z s9n]s1 b z ,8 *ildr52 ask+ = a clean he>t & = grace to live accord+ to ,8 w2 !n1 we approa* ! table1 unwor?y1 inde$1 to take ev5 ! crumbs "u x1 b tru/+ 9 ,8 m]cy4 ,we d n g !re to (f] a sacrifice ( ,*ri/'s body1 b ( our own z a ?anksgiv+ to ,god1 (f]+ & pres5t+ ourselves--_s1 s\l1 & body--a liv+ sacrifice to ,8 s]vice4 ,e week we took "s subject f ! ,pray]-book1 notic+ ! special seasons 9 _! ord]1 su* z ,adv5t1 ,*ri/mas1 ,epiphany1 ,l5t1 ,ea/]1 ,asc5sion1 & ,:itsuntide1 ea* ) _! respective tea*+4 ,i 0 n[ happy 9 my "w2 b x did n1 ( c\rse1 g on z sweetly z ! !ory sets x =?4 ,we made1 h[ev]1 z /raight a c\rse z we c\ld1 "u cont5d+ w9ds & curr5ts4 ,! intellig5t "p ( my congregation1 h[ev] int]e/$ !y 7 9 ! "w outside ! *ur* & ! wor%ip )91 nev]!less1 _h _! misgiv+s & d\bts :i* !y did n hide4 ,!y said1 ,?is tea*+ seems all true & scriptural2 b :at w become ( u if y g away1 & ano!r man comes :o ?9ks o!rwise8 ,we h no security z 9 ! *apels1 t conv]sion "w w g on1 & liv+ s\ls be f$ & enc\rag$4 ,v few *ur*es h su* a "w z ! ,"l is do+ "h6 ,?is1 inde$1 0 ! sad "p ( work+ 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& !n4 ,ev5 /ill1 !re is mu* disc\ragem5t on ?is head2 & too _m liv+ s\ls1 :o w\ld n will+ly g1 are driv5 away f _! own ,*ur*1 to seek tea*+ 9 o!r communions2 b !y _c take _! *ildr5 & s]vants to witness prie/ly c]emonials1 or to he> sacram5tal1 z oppos$ to spiritual tea*+2 nei!r c !y consci5ti\sly give c\nt5ance to ^! ?+s1 by go+ !mselves4 ,h[ev]1 ,i endeav\r$ to pacify ! p by begg+ !m to be ?ankful = pres5t privileges1 & to tru/ ,god to lead !m = ! future4 ,x is an awful ?+ to see & "k t p come = bread1 & get a /one2 = fi%1 & !y get a s]p5t2 & = an egg1 !y are (f]$ a scorpion 7,luke #aa3aa1 #ab74 ,exce$+ly try+ x is to be fr[n$ ^u by cl]ical bre?r5 9 ! pres5ce ( ,diss5t]s1 :o1 to say ! lea/1 d "k ! diff]5ce betwe5 life & dea?4 ,9 "o *ur* we h ! s]vice elaborately r5d]$1 & ! s]mon is no?+2 9 ano!r ! s]mon is ev]y?+1 & ! s]vice mo/ slov5ly2 &1 too (t51 s\ls rema9 unawak5$1 & p]i%+ on all sides4 ,,*apt] #cc ,! ,"w ,cont9u$1 #ahei4 ,:ile ,i 0 at ,hayle1 ,i _h s mu* to d among ! p1 & s _m meet+s1 t ,i seldom _h leisure to g out = prea*+ else:]e2 nor d ,i rememb] t ,i _h _m invitations to d s4 ,occasionally ,i w5t to prea* at ,p5zance1 :]e a good "w 0 /eadily progress+ at ,/4 ,paul's ,*ur*2 b o!rwise4 ,i seldom left my pulpit4 ,ev]y?+ 0 n[ go+ on 9 a way :i* satisfi$ me1 aft] all my toss+s to & fro4 ,i 0 surr\nd$ ) a happy p1 :o 7 liv+ & work+ = ! ,"l4 ,all ! week !y 7 busy1 & also on ! wat* = s\ls4 ,on ,sunday !y came regul>ly to *ur*1 ) an intellig5t idea ( wor%ip1 & jo9$ he>tily 9 ! s]vices ( ! day4 ,at eight o'clock 9 ! morn+ !y assembl$ 9 l>ge numb]s = ! ,holy ,communion2 !n we _h ! usual morn+ & ev5+ s]vices 9 ! *ur*1 conclud+ ) a pray] meet+4 ,9 ! aft]noon we _h some?+ else4 ,!re 0 ! ,sunday s*ool = "s ( our work]s2 tract di/ribution = o!rs3 _m w5t out to prea* 9 ! villages2 & o!rs w5t ) me ei!r to ! s&s1 ! common1 or on bo>d "s %ip1 = an evangeli/ic s]vice4 ,! day ( re/ 0 n "o ( inactivity1 b ( useful & happy occupation = ! ,"l4 ,_m a =m] ,sabba?-break]1 n[ *ang$ & rejoic+ 9 ,god1 0 among/ u1 delight+ 9 ! ,*ri/ian privilege ( work+ = ! ,ma/]4 ,x 0 a day t _m ( !m look$ =w>d to & sp5t ) int5se delight2 & on ,monday ev5+ we met to tell :at we _h se5 & he>d ( ! ,"l's goodness to ourselves & o!rs4 ,:5ev] ! good %ip ,cornwall 0 9 h>b\r1 x 0 expect$ !re w\ld be a prea*+ on bo>d ( h]1 "u ! well-kn[n ,be!l flag4 ,! mate ( ?is vessel _h be5 a t]ribly wick$ man1 & a mo/ d>+ blasphem]4 ,x pleas$ ,god to conv]t 8 s\l 9 a rem>kable mann]2 & n[ no?+ w\ld d b he mu/ "w = ,god4 ,"o ,sunday1 :5 he 0 at ,c>diff1 he he>d t a vessel :i* _h left t port on ! previ\s ,friday morn+ _h gone d[n ) all h&s4 ,he 0 greatly griev$ ab\t ?is2 = "o ( ! seam5 ( ! vessel 0 9 =m] times a fri5d & companion ( 84 ,he _h pray$ = 8 s\l1 b hi!rto )\t any success1 & ?is add$ to 8 grief4 ,to 8 amazem5t1 he saw 8 fri5d /&+ on ! quay4 ,hallo6 he said1 ,i am glad to see y4 ,h[ is x y are "h8 ,h y he>d t y\r vessel has gone d[n ) all h&s8 ,has %e1 inde$6 he exclaim$1 bur/+ out into te>s2 !n x is all my fault1 = ,i let h] g %ort-h&$4 ,aft] we set sail ,i _h words ) ! capta91 s he dismiss$ me1 & ,i came back 9 ! pilot boat4 ,x is all my fault6 ,?is is ! ?ird "t1 !n1 t ! ,"l has giv5 y y\r life1 said ,sam4 ,y _h bett] call on ,him to h m]cy on y\r s\l4 ,s say+1 he fell on 8 knees1 & began to pray = him4 ,8 companion soon foll[$1 cry+ al\d = m]cy4 ,?\gh a cr[d ( p quickly assembl$ & /ood r\nd1 he took no he$1 b cont9u$ 8 supplication until he obta9$ m]cy1 & c\ld praise ,god4 ,see+ t "s ( ! by-/&]s 7 look+ anxi\s1 ,sam invit$ !m on bo>d 8 %ip & _h a meet+1 at :i* he told !m h[ ! ,"l _h sav$ 8 s\l4 ,hav+ receiv$ mu* enc\ragem5t t day1 he det]m9$1 if possible1 t he w\ld get a ,be!l flag1 & hold s]vices :5ev] & :]ev] he c\ld4 ,on 8 arrival at ,hayle f ,c>diff1 he w5t at once to see ! wife ( ! own] ( ! %ip1 kn[+ t %e took a great int]e/ 9 ! welf>e ( sailors4 ,he told h] 8 plans1 & made 8 reque/ = a ,be!l flag1 :i* ?is lady k9dly & g5]\sly gave him p]mission to get4 ,on obta9+ x1 ,sam came & ask$ me if ,i w\ld prea* at ! fir/ hoi/+ ( x4 ,?is ,i cons5t$ to d1 & on ! foll[+ ,sunday aft]noon we _h a l>ge conc\rse ( p on bo>d1 & also on ! quay alongside4 ,i gave out ! hymn3-- ,o ,god ( ,be!l1 by ^: h& ,?y p /ill are f$4 ,:ile ,i 0 giv+ x out1 ,sam ran 8 flag up to ! ma/head 9 ! %ape ( a ball4 ,s x rema9$ :ile we 7 s++2 & dur+ ! pray] :i* foll[$2 & :5 ,i gave out my text 7,g54 #bh3ai71 ,he call$ ! "n ( t place ,be!l1 ,sam pull$ ! haly>d1 & ! flag1 "s eighte5 or tw5ty feet long1 'flew out 9 all its gr&eur4 ,be=e ! s]mon 0 f9i%$1 "s ( ! p began to cry = m]cy1 & de> ,sam 0 9 an ec/asy ( delight1 & rejoic$ al\d4 ',?us 8 flag 0 inaugurat$ ) bless+ f on high1 & ,_m is ! "t s9ce1 said #c;am1 :5 s\ls h be5 bless$ "u x1 bo? at ,c>diff & at ,hayle4 ,i h said no?+ ab\t ! infidels ,i _h to "w among/ :5 ,i fir/ came to ?is place4 ,"s ( !m rag$ & oppos$ !mselves aga9/ u = a "t1 b "o by "o ! r+lead]s ( ?is p>ty 7 br\ght to ,god1 & ev5tually _! club dw9dl$ away4 ,! hi/ory conc]n+ "s ,i h already publi%$ 9 tracts2 b !re is "o case ,i feel ,i mu/ ins]t "h1 = besides be+ a rem>kable hi/ory1 !re is mu* tea*+ 9 x4 ,x is ! /ory ( a man :o pr(ess$ to be an infidel1 & us$ to speak v freely ( ?+s :i* he said he did n believe4 ,= in/ance1 he boa/$ t he did n believe 9 ,god or ! ,bible1 ,*ri/ or devil1 heav5 or hell2 ?\gh ,i mu/ say he seem$ to believe 9 himself v consid]ably4 ,x 0 v difficult to deal ) a man :o took 8 /& ^u no?+ b negatives4 ,he 0 well kn[n among 8 neighb\rs1 dread$ by "s & q a my/]y to o!rs4 ,he 0 cont9ually to be se5 ab\t ) a gun1 especially on ,sundays1 :5 he 0 n a%am$ to be ?us desecrat+ ,god's holy day2 on ! contr>y1 he r prid$ himself on n %ift+ 8 work+-day clo!s1 :5 o!r p 7 dress$ 9 _! be/4 ,x 0 sad to see a man ( su* intellig5ce & capacity defy+ public respect & op9ion1 & trampl+ ^u e s5se ( "r & propriety4 ,!re is g5]ally a reason1 if we c only discov] x1 :y p outrage public op9ion1 & break out ( ! /ream & pa? ( _! fell[-m54 ,"o ,sunday ev5+1 h[ev]1 aft] a day sp5t z usual1 9 idl+ ab\t & %oot+ little birds1 our fri5d ,john 0 obs]v$ by a woman /&+ outside a *ur*1 "u ! w9d[ ne>e/ to ! pulpit4 ,he /ood !re1 li/5+ v att5tively to ! s]mon1 till x 0 ov]2 & !n1 be=e ! congregation c\ld come out1 he made (f /eal?ily & ha/ily1 to escape obs]vation4 ,b pass+ ne> ! woman :o _h be5 wat*+ him1 %e he>d him say1 ) a look ( di/ress on 8 c\nt5ance1 ,x's no use--! devil's sure to h me6 ,x doesn't matt]6 ,?is woman told me on ,monday morn+ :at %e _h se5 & he>d2 s ,i det]m9$ to g at once & see ! man4 ,x 0 n 8 d9n]-"t yet2 b ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld h a little conv]sation ) 8 wife be=e he came home4 ,to my surprise1 h[ev]1 ,i f\nd him !re4 ,:at1 n work+ today1 ,john8 ,i said4 ,:at's ! matt]8 ,i a9't v well1 he answ]$4 ,i got no sleep la/ night2 b ,i mean to "w 9 ! aft]noon1 = all t1 he cont9u$1 ) an air ( det]m9ation & defiance4 ,:at's ! matt]8 ,h y got any?+ on y\r m9d8 ,i inquir$4 ,m9d8 he repeat$1 z if 9 contempt at ! ?\ght4 ,!re is n mu* t ev] tr\bles my m9d4 ,he !n w5t on to give me a long acc\nt ( 8 bodily ailm5ts4 ,b d y nev] ?9k ab\t y\r s\l1 ,john8 ,i ask$2 nev] ?9k ab\t ano!r _w & et]nity8 ,s\l & et]nity6 ,i don't believe 9 ei!r ! "o or ! o!r ( !m6 ,n believe y h a s\l6 ,come1 ,john1 ,i am sure y "k bett] ?an t4 ,& ,i w5t on to speak ( ! joys ( heav5 & ! bitt] torm5ts ( hell2 ( ! love ( ,god1 :o wille? n ! dea? ( ! s9n]1 b r t he %\ld turn & live2 & !n ,i proce$$ to tell him ( ! atonem5t :i* ,jesus ,*ri/ f9i%$ on ! cross1 & t n[ !re is p>don = ! vile/ s9n] ?r\gh ! efficacy ( ! blood :i* has be5 %$ once = all4 ,y "k1 ,john1 ,i cont9u$1 t ,i d n c>e to argue ab\t ^! ?+s4 ,!re is m]cy = y1 if y w h x4 ,we c br+ wat] to ! horses1 b we _c make !m dr9k4 ,my bus9ess is to put ! way ( p>don & salvation pla9ly be=e y2 & aft] t1 if y reject x1 x w be y\r own fault if y p]i%4 ,d y "k h[ to get =giv5ess ( s9s8 ,he seem$ v uneasy all ! "t ,i 0 speak+2 & at l5g?1 aft] a pause1 he look$ me 9 ! face ) a h>d5$ expression1 & said1 ,!re's no p>don = me--,i "k x4 ,t _c be1 ,i said2 ,i d n believe x4 ,no1 he cont9u$1 !re's no p>don = me4 ,i h kn[n t = f\rte5 ye>s4 ,i inw>dly resolv$ to get ?is dreadful secret f him1 :i* 0 driv+ him to su* evid5t desp]ation4 ,a few days aft]w>ds an opportunity occurr$1 & ,i press$ ^u him = 8 own sake to tell me1 or "s "o else1 :at _h happ5$ f\rte5 ye>s ago2 & :at special communication he _h _h ) ano!r _w4 ,oh1 he said1 ,i nev] told anybody2 b ,i w\ld z soon tell y z any "o else4 ,i _h a dream once---d y ev] h dreams8 ,i h _m ?+s told me 9 dreams4 ,!n he 0 sil5t2 b ,i 0 m curi\s ?an ev] n[1 & begg$ him to tell me :at _h happ5$4 ,at la/ he began1 ,i dreamt t ,i 0 walk+ along a broad smoo? road1 :]e ev]y?+ 0 mo/ lovely2 ! wea!r 0 f9e1 & ! sc5]y gr&2 !re 7 beautiful g>d5s1 *ur*es1 *apels1 !atres1 h\ses1 & inde$ ev]y?+ y c\ld ?9k (4 ,! p all seem$ to be delight+ 9 x1 & z ?\gh !y 7 out = a holiday4 ,"s 7 walk+1 "s s++1 "s danc+1 & 9 "o way or ! o!r !y all appe>$ to be enjoy+ !mselves beyond b\nds4 ,see+ a workman 9 a field close by1 ,i call$ to him1 & ask$ ',:]e does ?is road lead to8' ,he answ]$1 ',to hell1 /raight on2 y _c miss6' ',hell6' ,i 0 surpris$2 ',hell1' ,i said to myself1 '?is is v diff]5t to :at ,i ?\ght4 ,is ! way to hell z pleasant z ?is8 & are p s unconc]n$ ab\t x8' ,i 0 amaz$2 b ?\gh ! man told me ?is pleasant road l$ to hell1 ,i did n /op2 ,i w5t on & on1 seem+ly z pleas$ z o!rs 74 ,h[ev]1 x did n cont9ue l ?is long1 = soon ,i came to a r\gh "p1 all up & d[n1 :]e ! atmosph]e 0 ?ick & sulphury1 & x 0 almo/ d>k4 ,i did n l x1 & wi%$ v mu* to get out ( ! place1 b ,i c\ld n4 ,see+ "s p 9 ! di/ance1 ,i w5t ne> to ask !m ! way out4 ,!y 7 busy ) long rakes rak+ c9d]s ab\t on ! dry gr\nd1 & w\ld n answ] my urg5t inquiries4 ,z ,i approa*$ !m ,i saw t !y did n look l 'humans1' & t e n[ & !n fire appe>$ f "u gr\nd1 ov] :i* !y rak$ c9d]s to keep x out ( sight4 ,!y 7 s absorb$ 9 _! "w t !y did n he$ my "q1 ?\gh ,i plead$ m & m e>ne/ly4 ,at la/1 ,i obs]v$ t "o ( !m ceas$ f 8 /range "w1 & look$ at me2 :]eupon ,i address$ myself to him1 begg+ him to %[ me ! way out ( ! place4 ,john add$1 ,if ,i ev] pray$ 9 my life ,i pray$ !n2 b he %ook 8 head z if he piti$ me1 & said m\rnfully1 ',! way y came 91' ,i repli$1 ',i _c f9d x'2 !n aga9 he %ook 8 head z if to say1 ',y nev] w4' ,i 0 oblig$ to rise f my knees1 = ! gr\nd 0 s hot1 & 9 my despair ,i ran ,i "k n :i!r4 ,z ,i pass$ along 9 ha/e1 ,i came to cracks 9 ! gr\nd full ( fire2 ,i /epp$ ov] !m "o aft] ano!r1 & ran on till ,i came to su* a l>ge *asm1 t ,i c\ld n jump ov] x4 ,i turn$ & w5t 9 ano!r direction1 leap+ & runn+1 9 a /ate ( t]ror1 till at la/ ,i came ^u a %eet ( gl[+ fire1 into :i* ,i fell4 ,!n ,i awoke4 ,= f\rte5 ye>s ?is has foll[$ me2 !re is no hope = me6 ,by ?is "t he became v mu* excit$ & agitat$3 seiz+ 8 cap he ran out ( ! h\se1 leav+ 8 wife & myself 9 mute a/oni%m5t at 8 /range tale4 ,i w5t home pond]+ ov] ! mean+ ( ?is dream1 & 0 /ruck at ! am\nt ( tru? 9 x4 ,i ?\ght--,h[ fair are ! promises ( ! _w to beg9 )1 & h[ delusive & disappo9t+ !y are at ! end6 ,( c\rse1 ,satan1 ! god ( ?is _w1 w make ! way to hell z bright & pleas+ z he possibly c2 & if p take outw>d circum/ances & pleas+ prospects = indications ( safety1 !y wilfully lay !mselves op5 to ?is deadly delusion4 ,:at a numb] !re are :o "k1 or might "k1 t !y are on ! road to hell2 t !y _c miss2 & yet !y g on6 ,& !n h[ _m p !re are :o rake c9d]s2 t is1 :5 ?\ghts ( dea?1 or judgm5t1 or hell1 obtrude !mselves1 h[ readily !y cov] !m ov] ) hopes ( escape1 or "s good int5tions to be bett]1 be=e x is too late6 ,h[ (t5 p>5ts d ! same = _! *ildr51 = !y _c be> to ?9k ( _! be+ lo/ =ev]2 s !y hope t someh[ !y w be *ang$ be=e !y die6 ,h[ (t5 prea*]s rake c9d]s also1 by address+ _! he>]s z if !y 7 all safe1 & only want$ a little tea*+ n[ & !n2 & x may be a little w>n+ occasionally6 ,!y _c be> to tell !m pla9ly t !y are lo/ n[1 & may be lo/ = ev]1 if !y d n rep5t & believe ! ,gospel2 !y w\ld r be p]suad$ bett] ?+s ( !m1 & ?+s :i* accompany salvation1 ?\gh !y "k = c]ta9 t !re are _m unsav$ ones 9 _! congregation4 ,!y ent]ta9 !m ) good he>ty s]vices & pleas+ s]mons1 & !n let !m g on _! way to ! solemn end1 p]fectly unconsci\s ( any dang]4 ,! ,"l ,jesus _h no su* false *>ity z ?is4 ,he has told u pla9ly t we are all p]i%+ creatures1 & t !re is no hope = any "o ( u :ile we are /ill on ! broad road to ru9 & 9 an un*ang$ /ate2 t we mu/ be born aga9 or we _c see ! k+dom ( ,god2 t we mu/ believe on ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o di$ 9 our /ead on ! cross1 or p]i% = ev]4 ,prea*]s !re=e ought to be m fai?ful1 because life is s unc]ta91 & ! w>n+s ( ,god s sure4 ,well did ,john dream t !y did n look l human be+s1 :o 7 rak+ c9d]s to keep ! fire out ( sight4 ,aft] "s days ,i got light on ! subject ( ?is awful dream1 & ha/5$ to tell ,john t ,i _h f\nd ! way out ( t fe>ful place = him4 ,he w\ld n he> me = "s "t2 b ,i told him1 t ! prodigal son said1 ,i w arise & g to my ,fa!r1 & say unto ,him1 ,i h s9n$4 ,y see1 ,john1 ,i cont9u$1 he came back ! way he w5t1 & he f\nd p>don2 t is ! way = y4 ,i !n knelt d[n & pray$1 & he knelt ) me at 8 table4 ,!re he rema9$ = f\r h\rs1 )\t speak+ a ^w1 until ,i 0 ?or\ghly exhau/$ & oblig$ to g4 ,no soon] _h ,i gone1 ?an ,john's he>t fail$ him1 & he bur/ out cry+ al\d1 & said to 8 wife1 ,oh1 ,m>y1 :at %all ,i d8 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,take ! book & read1 %e said1 pu%+ ! ,bible along ! table to him4 ,x 0 op5 at ! fifte5? *apt] ( ,/4 ,luke1 :]e he read ! words al\d1 ,i w arise & g to my ,fa!r & w say unto him1 ,fa!r1 ,i h s9n$4 ,! spell 0 brok5 & ! /r+ ( 8 tongue loos$1 s t he cri$ al\d = m]cy4 ,?is 0 no unusual ?+ 9 "o h\se or ano!r2 b 9 ?is p>ticul> dwell+ x 0 wond]ful4 ,8 next-door neighb\r1 :o _h (t5 he>d ! s\nd ( curs+ & swe>+ !re1 b nev] ! voice ( pray]1 0 s a/oni%$1 t he rose & came to ! door to assure himself ( ! a/oni%+ fact4 ,x 0 q true2 surely x 0 ,john's own voice pray+4 ,s1 lift+ ! lat*1 he w5t 9 & %\t$1 ,glory to ,god6 ,! l\d] ,william %\t$1 ! l\d] ,john cri$ = m]cy4 ,:5 li/5+ to 8 fri5d1 :o po9t$ him to ! ,lamb ( ,god1 :o take? away ! s9 ( ! _w1 he f\nd t ,!re is life = a look at ! ,crucifi$ ,"o2 & !n !y %\t$ & prais$ ,god toge!r4 ,x 0 a joyful meet+ :5 ,i saw him aga91 & ?ank$ ,god ) him = ! m>vell\s *ange :i* _h be5 wr\ght 9 8 s\l4 ,8 v face 0 alt]$2 & in/ead ( ! re/less & defiant gl>e !re us$ to be 9 8 c\nt5ance1 !re 0 re/ & *e]fulness4 ,i po9t$ out to him1 f t same portion ( ! ,^w ( ,god :i* _h be5 bless$ to 8 s\l1 t !re 0 some?+ m to be _h ?an ! p>don t he _h already receiv$2 t !re 0 also ! be/ robe1 ! r+1 ! %oes1 & ! fea/ ( rejoic+4 ,! ,fa!r's arms r\nd ! neck ( ! prodigal son is a tok5 ( =giv5ess---! robe1 ( righte\sness div9e :i* is imput$ to u2 ! r+1 ( our union ) ,*ri/2 ! %oes1 ( /r5g?1 ev5 grace1 ) :i* we walk2 & ! fea/ ( rejoic+1 ! believ]'s privilege ( joy & ?anksgiv+4 ,john's conv]sion 0 a rem>kable ev5t1 & caus$ a great s5sation2 cr[ds ( 8 fell[-"w-mates us$ to /& r\nd him :ile he told 8 wond]ful /ory4 ,oh1 he said1 ,i us$ to say !re 0 no hell1 :5 all ! "t ,i _h x burn+ 9 my he>t2 b1 glory be to ,god1 ,i am sav$ f hell to heav56 ,he seldom pray$ 9 public aft] ?is1 )\t begg+ ! ,"l to loose ! /r+ ( ! tongue2 =1 z he said 7speak+ f exp]i5ce71 s _m are held captive by t dumb devil4 ,he became a true mission>y = s\ls1 & 0 v zeal\s 9 8 te/imony1 especially among/ 8 old companions1 :o work$ 9 ! same factory3 he _h ! joy ( see+ _m ( !m br\ght to ! ,"l4 ,john seem$ to realize unse5 ?+s 9 an unusually /rik+ way4 ,he 0 a man :o 9 8 sleep _h vivid dreams1 & :o 9 8 wak+ h\rs pond]$ mu* ^u et]nal realities1 s t he spoke z "o :o liv$ 9 sight ( ano!r _w4 ,,*apt] #cd ,! ,dismissal1 #ahfj-fa ,( ?is "w at ,hayle 0 n a success1 9 e s5se ( ! ^w1 ,i d n yet "k :at success 9 p>o*ial m9i/ry is4 ,if l>ge congregations may be c\nt$2 _m communicants tak5 into reckon+2 ) frequ5t s]vices1 & s*ools full ( *ildr5--we c]ta9ly _h ^!4 ,b above all1 we _h a cont9ual +a!r+ ( s\ls1 :o w te/ify ?r\gh\t et]nity ( ! bless$ness & reality ( ! "w ( ,god dur+ ! "t ,i 0 !re4 ,x s happ5$ t z we approa*$ ! t]m ( ?ree ye>s1 ( :i* ,i _h be5 premoni%$ :5 ,i fir/ came1 t my de> fri5d1 ,mr4 ,aitk51 came to pay u a visit4 ,he prea*$ ) m amaz+ p[] ?an ev]4 ,8 appeals 7 altoge!r ov]:elm+1 & ,i d n wond] t ! p fell on _! knees1 z !y did !n & !re1 & cri$ al\d = m]cy4 ,a newspap] report] :o came to he> ?is great man prea*1 0 at fir/ obs]v$ to be writ+ v dilig5tly2 !n he paus$1 & 8 h& fell2 !n 8 p5cil & book w5t f 8 grasp2 pres5tly he himself fell on 8 knees1 & began to cry = m]cy4 ,we 7 curi\s aft]w>ds to read 8 report4 ,9 x ! grateful man ackn[l$g$ 8 indebt$ness1 & ! bless+ he _h receiv$4 ,z to ! s]mon1 he lik5$ x to "o ( ! /orms ( ! great ,atlantic4 ,he said4 ,at su* a "t x is int]e/+ to /& on ! %ore & wat* ! sea1 & to note ! p[] ( w9d & waves :ile ! /orm is rag+4 ,ev5 !n x is sometimes t]rific en\gh2 b h[ mu* m s :5 ! w9d ve]s & ! mighty waves come roll+ 9 "o aft] ano!r1 & break+ ) trem5d\s =ce ^u ! rocks on :i* we /&6 ,s x 0 ) ?is prea*]4 ,all eyes 7 fix$ on him :5 he gave out 8 text1 & proce$$ ) 8 usual introduction4 ,n[ & !n he al>m$ & r\s$ u ) ! p[] ( 8 oratory2 b :5 he turn$ to apply 8 subject to ! consci5ces ( ! p1 he became irresi/ible4 ,imm$iately1 !re 0 he>d on all sides a cry = m]cy4 ,! /5torian voice ( ! prea*] 0 audible above all o!rs z he w5t on to apply ! ,^w ) unrel5t+ =ce1 till v few he>ts1 h[ev] h>d1 rema9$ unbrok54 ,?is 0 a memorable day ) u4 ,twice 0 ! *ur* fill$ & empti$2 & aga9 a ?ird "t1 9 ! ev5+1 ! p cr[d$ 9 & fill$ ! place4 ,f> into ! night we wr\ght among/ ! anxi\s & brok5-he>t$1 bidd+ !m to look at ! ,crucifi$ ,"o & live4 ,mr4 ,aitk5 0 n a man :o rak$ c9d]s ov] ! fire1 b r rak$ !m (f & t 9 true k9dness & love2 b ) t]rible & awful pla9ness he %[$ ! dang] ( trifl+ ) ! ,gospel1 & presum+ ^u ,god's love & =be>ance4 ,on ,monday ev5+ we invit$ ! p to assemble 9 ! l>ge s*oolroom1 :i* 0 fill$ to excess4 ,"h ,i ?\ght t ! s*oolma/]'s desk w\ld h be5 demoli%$ "u ! trem5d\s en]gy & =ce1 bo? m5tal & physical1 ( ?is prea*]4 ,at ! fir/ sign ( a breakd[n among ! p1 ! great1 tall man1 9 8 long coat or cassock1 came maje/ically /rid+ out f beh9d ! desk4 ,t 0 en\gh4 ,a h>d r\gh-look+ sailor1 :o 0 sitt+ by1 ) 8 eyes fix$ on ,mr4 ,aitk5 = a long "t1 fell on 8 knees & began to ro> al\d = m]cy1 & v _m o!rs foll[$ 8 example4 ,i ask$ ?is man aft]w>ds :at x 0 t _h _h su* an effect ^u him8 ,oh1 he repli$1 draw+ 8 brea?1 z if he _h sc>cely yet recov]$ f ! %ock1 t big man 0 bad en\gh ! o!r side ( ! desk1 b :5 he came =? to ! front1 ,i didn't "k :at w\ld happ5 to me4 ,i 0 oblig$ to cry out = m]cy2 ,i c\ldn't help x4 ,! big man1 l ! ,/ormy ,petrel1 0 j 9 8 elem5t 9 su* a sc5e4 ,9 ! gladness & joy ( 8 he>t he rejoic$ & %\t$1 ,glory--glory be to ,god6 9 a way :i* no "o else c\ld imitate or foll[4 ,9 ! mid/ ( ?is sc5e ( confusion 7z x mu/ h appe>$ to an outside obs]v]1 if su* an "o 0 !re71 sat a woman1 look+ on at ! p pray+ & prais+ ,god1 :5 all at once ,mr4 ,aitk5 turn$ sudd5ly ^u h] & said1 ,& y1 my si/]6 ,imm$iately %e gave a scream1 & 0 d[n on h] knees 9 a mom5t1 cry+ = m]cy z l\d z ! l\de/4 ,if ,corni% p l a noise1 !y c]ta9ly _h x t ev5+ to _! he>ts' cont5t4 ,z ,i h said be=e1 :5 !re is a real p[] ( ! ,_s pres5t1 ! outp\r+ ( ! he>t ) noisy demon/ration is joy\s to ^? :o g ) ! /ream1 & are 9 sympa?y ) x2 b if ^? pres5t /op to d\bt ! propriety ( su* an outcry1 & beg9 to rebuke ^? :o make x1 !n ,i ?9k ! answ] t ! ,"l gave ! ,ph>isees w\ld /ill be applicable3 ,i tell y t1 if ^! %\ld hold _! peace1 ! /ones w\ld imm$iately cry out 7,luke #ai3dj74 ,x 0 a great triumph1 & ! rams' horns did m execution 9 ^! two days ?an ! silv] trumpets _h done 9 z _m ye>n4 ,! next day1 z soon z ,mr4 ,aitk5 _h gone1 ! rector came to see me4 ,he appe>$ to be some:at emb>rass$ at fir/1 b aft] a little "t said 7look+ on ! gr\nd71 ,y "k ,i am no revivali/4 ,i d n l all ?is upro>4 ,i _c h x4 ,he !n w5t on to say t he wi%$ me to leave1 = ?\gh he _h giv5 a gu>antee t if ,i succe$$1 he w\ld build me a *ur* & end[ x1 he c\ld n d any?+ ( ! k9d n[1 = he did n consid] my "w any success :atev]--q ! contr>y4 ,^! conv]t$ p 7z y call !m7 are no *ur*m56 ,i repli$1 t ,i _h tak5 8 voice z f ,god 9 invit+ me1 & ,i suppos$ t ,i mu/ take ! same = my dismissal1 if he really int5d$ x2 b ,i urg$ ^u him to consid] ! matt] well be=e he broke up ! "w :i* 0 go+ on !re1 = :atev] he ?\ght ab\t x1 x 0 und\bt$ly a "w ( ,god1 ?\gh "o c]ta9ly n v common 9 *ur*es4 ,)\t say+ ano!r ^w he took up 8 hat & w5t away4 ,8 dep>ture 0 s abrupt t ,i c\ld n believe he int5d$ me to receive ?is z six mon?s' notice4 ,consequ5tly1 ,i w5t on ) my "w z usual1 f9d+ pl5ty to d1 m especially aft] ,mr4 ,aitk5's en]getic visit4 ,!re 7 _m new conv]ts to add to our classes2 anxi\s ones to be guid$ & l$ to ,*ri/2 & brok5-he>t$ & despair+ ones to be com=t$ & built up4 ,! "w "u su* a prea*] is by no means f9i%$ ) 8 visit1 h[ev] long or %ort x may be2 b1 on ! contr>y1 x may r be said to beg9 !re4 ,aft] "s mon?s1 ! rector came aga9 to rem9d me t he _h giv5 me notice m ?an five mon?s be=e1 & t he wi%$ me to leave at ! beg9n+ ( ! ye>1 z he _h secur$ ! s]vices ( a cl]gyman ^: views 7 9 accordance ) 8 own4 ,i 0 mu* griev$ at ?is & c\ld only lay x be=e ! ,"l1 & beg ( ,him to ord] all accord+ to ,8 w4 ,! foll[+ morn+1 )\t any seek+ on my "p1 ,i receiv$ an invitation f ,ba?1 ask+ me to come & take *>ge ( ! di/rict ( ,/4 ,paul's1 9 ! p>i% ( ,holy ,tr9ity4 ,?us 0 ! door %ut beh9d me1 & ano!r op5$ 9 front4 ,?is 0 s unmi/akable1 t ,i c\ld n b be satisfi$1 & acquiesce 9 ! manife/ w ( ,god2 ?\gh1 naturally1 ,i felt great sorr[ at hav+ to leave ! p & ! "w ,i lov$ s well4 ,i said no?+ ab\t my dismissal1 b w5t on ) my v>i\s engagem5ts z usual1 ?\gh ,i _h only a little m ?an ?ree weeks left me4 ,by "s means x appe>$ 9 ! newspap]s1 t ,i 0 appo9t$ to a di/rict 9 ,ba?1 & ano!r cl]gyman 0 nam$ z my successor at ,/4 ,john's1 ,hayle4 ,?is fell z a great bl[ ^u my p1 :o 7 bo? griev$ & angry2 b ,i c\ld n com=t !m1 any m ?an ,i c\ld help myself4 ,! la/ ,*ri/mas-day came & w5t1 a sad & sorr[ful day x 02 !n ! la/ day ( ! ye>1 & ! la/ night4 ,we held our wat*-night s]vice z usual1 ?ank+ ,god = ! m]cies ( ! pa/1 & ent]$ ^u ! new ye> ) ?anksgiv+ & pray]4 ,?us end$ my "w1 & ev5tful soj\rn at ,hayle1 a little m ?an ?ree ye>s aft] x began4 ,a v sorr[ful trial x 01 & "o ( bitt] disappo9tm5t2 b ! ,"l's lead+ 0 cle>1 & ,i h s9ce prov$ t x 0 all "r1 ?\gh at ! "t x 0 mo/ my/]i\s & v d>k4 ,a few weeks be=e leav+ ,hayle1 z ,i 0 sitt+ by ! fire "o wet aft]noon1 my eyes fell on a little col\r$ picture on ! mantle-piece1 :i* _h be5 ! companion ( my j\rneys = all ! tw5ty ye>s ( :i* ,i h be5 writ+4 ,x 0 a qua9t m$iaeval illu/ration ( ,moses lift+ up ! s]p5t 9 ! wild]ness1 copi$ f a valuable manuscript 7,book ( ,pray]s7 9 ! ,bodleian ,libr>y at ,ox=d4 ,z ,i look$ at ! engrav+ be=e me1 ,i began to suspect = ! fir/ "t t !re 0 a design 9 ! arrangem5t ( ! figures1 & t x 0 really int5d$ to convey "s p>ticul> tea*+4 ,i took x 9 my h& & /udi$ x1 :5 ,i obs]v$ t ! cross or pole on :i* ! s]p5t 0 elevat$ /ood 9 ! c5tre1 divid+ two sets ( *>act]s1 & t !re 7 s]p5ts on "o side1 & none on ! o!r4 ,beh9d ! figure ( ,moses1 is a man /&+ ) 8 arms cross$ on 8 brea/1 look+ at ! braz5 s]p5t4 ,he has evid5tly obta9$ life & heal+ by a look4 ,on ! o!r side1 ,i obs]v$ t !re 7 f\r k9ds ( p]sons repres5t$1 :o 7 n do+ z ?is heal$ "o did to obta9 deliv]ance4 ,fir/1 !re is "o :o is kneel+ 9 front ( ! cross1 b he is look+ t[>ds ,moses1 & n at ! s]p5t1 & app>5tly confess+ to him z if he 7 a prie/4 ,next beh9d him is "o ly+ on 8 back1 z if he 0 p]fectly safe1 ?\gh he is evid5tly 9 ! mid/ ( dang]2 = a s]p5t may be se5 at 8 e>1 possibly :isp]+ ,peace1 peace1 :5 !re is no peace4 ,/ill fur!r back f ! cross !re is a man ) a sad face do+ a "w ( m]cy1 b9d+ up ! w\nds ( a fell[-suff]]1 & little suspect+ t he himself is involv$ 9 ! same dang]4 ,beh9d !m all1 on ! backgr\nd1 is a valiant man :o is do+ battle ) ! s]p5ts1 :i* may be se5 ris+ aga9/ him 9 unabat+ p]si/5cy4 ,i obs]v$ t none ( ^! m5 7 look+ at ! braz5 s]p5t z !y 7 comm&$ to d4 ,i _c describe h[ excit$ & int]e/$ ,i became2 = ,i saw 9 ?is illu/ration a picture ( my own life4 ,"h 0 ! way ( salvation cle>ly set =?1 & f\r ways :i* are n ! way ( salvation1 all ( :i* ,i _h tri$ & f\nd unavail+4 ,?is 0 ! sil5t b speak+ te/imony ( "s unkn[n d5iz5 ( a cloi/]1 :o liv$ 9 ! beg9n+ ( ! fifte5? c5tury1 9 ! days ( ignorance & sup]/ition4 ,b not)/&+ ?is d>kness1 he 0 br\ght out into ! m>vell\s light ( ! ,gospel1 & has left ?is int]e/+ record ( 8 exp]i5ce4 ,l him1 ,i also _h f\ght ) s]p5ts1 = ,i began 9 my own /r5g? to combat ) s91 & /rove by my own resolutions to ov]come4 ,f ?is1 ,i w5t on to d good works1 & works ( m]cy1 9 ! va9 hope ( ?us obta9+ ! same = myself4 ,!n1 ,i reli$ 9 ! ,*ur* = salvation1 z ,god's appo9t$ ark ( safety2 b n feel+ secure1 ,i took ano!r /ep beyond1 & s\ght =giv5ess ?r\gh ! p[] ( ! prie/4 ,?is ,i f\nd 0 z ineffectual z all my previ\s ef=ts4 ,at la/1 ,i 0 br\ght 7by ! ,_s ( ,god7 z a w\nd$ & dy+ s9n]1 to look at ! ,crucifi$ ,"o4 ,!n 7z ,i h relat$71 ,i f\nd p>don & peace4 ,ev] s9ce x has be5 my joy & privilege 7l ,moses po9t+ to ! s]p5t7 to cry1 ,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god :i* take? away ! s9 ( ! _w 7,john #a3bi74 ,i h det]m9$ to "k no?+ b ,jesus ,*ri/ & ,him crucifi$2 t is1 to tell only ( ! p]son & (fice ( ,jesus ,*ri/ our ,"l4 ,ne>ly tw5ty ye>s h elaps$ s9ce ! p]iod at :i* ?is book closes199 &1 dur+ all t "t ,i h v]ifi$ ! tru? & reality ( ! tea*+ & exp]i5ce ,i h record$ 9 ?is volume4 ,all ^! ye>s1 ) _! mon?s1 weeks1 & days h pass$ by1 & h f\nd me cont9ually rejoic+ 9 ! "w ( ! ,"l--(t5 we>i$ 9 x1 b nev] ( x--(t5 tempt$ to falt]1 b al ways enabl$ to p]sev]e4 ,i h se5 _m rise & />t well1 :o h collaps$ or retir$2 _m :o h blaz$ l a meteor = a %ort "t1 & !n disappe>$ f ! sc5e4 99 ,i may1 p]haps1 at "s future "t1 give an acc\nt ( ^! latt] tw5ty ye>s4 ,may ,i "h1 9 a few p>t+ words to ! read]1 tell h[ x is t ,i h be5 kept4 ,i believe x is--fir/1 ,because ,i h nev] fail$ to insi/ ^u ! absolute necessity ( conv]sion1 say+ 9 ! words ( ! ,ma/]1 ,m>vel n1 ,ye mu/ be born aga9 7,john #c3g74 ,secondly1 ,because ,i h prea*$ no?+ b :at is tak5 f ! ,^w1 & requir$ no?+ to be believ$ = ,salvation & ,edification1 b :at c be prov$ !reby4 ,?irdly1 because ,i h exhort$ liv+ s\ls ) purpose ( he>t to cleave unto ! ,"l2 firmly believ+ t ,he :o di$ to save1 rose aga9 f ! dead1 & lives to keep ,8 p4 ,:5 we are sav$1 we are debtors to ,god1 to devote ourselves to ,8 s]vice1 & = ,8 glory3 besides ?is1 we are debtors to m51 to make kn[n to !m ! grace :i* we h receiv$2 & we1 z fai?ful /ew>ds ( ,god %\ld be ev] ready 7& n a%am$7 to prea* ! ,gospel1 =1 ,x is ! p[] ( ,god unto salvation to ev]yone t believe? 7,rom4 #a3af74 ,brockville1 ,canada3 ,! ,/&>d ,book ,room4