,a ,,brief ,,memoir ,,) ,,portions ,,( ,,! ,,di>y1 ,,lett]s1 ,,& ,,o!r ,,rema9s1 ,,( ,,eliza ,,s\?all1 ,,late ,,( ,,birm+ham1 ,,engl&4 #ahfi4 ,= to me to live is ,*ri/1 & to die is ga94--,,phil4 #a4 #ba4 ,,introduction ,! fir/ edition ( ?is volume appe>$ 9 ,engl& 9 #ahee1 :]e x 0 pr9t$ = private circulation only4 ,_m expressions ( ! int]e/ t has be5 felt 9 its p]usal1 & ( ! value t has be5 atta*$ to ! record x conta9s1 h rea*$ ! editor & ! family ( ! dep>t$4 ,sev]al applications to all[ its publication 9 ,am]ica h also be5 receiv$2 &1 aft] s]i\s consid]ation1 ! editor feels t he ought n to )hold 8 cons5t4 ,9 ord] t x may be m int]e/+ & wor?y ( ! l>gely-ext5d$ circulation t x is n[ likely to obta91 additions h be5 made1 & p>ticul>s ins]t$1 :i* a great] lapse ( "t f ! occurr5ce ( ! ev5ts n>rat$1 seems n[ to p]mit4 ,a slight ?read ( biographical notice has also be5 introduc$4 ,b x is n to ?is "p1 :i* m]ely s]ves to r5d] ! volume m complete1 by enabl+ ! read] to und]/& ! circum/ances by :i* ! writ] ( ! ,di>y 0 surr\nd$1 b to ! ,di>y itself1 t ! editor desires to comm5d att5tion1 believ+ t ^? :o enjoy to trace ! op]ations & effects ( ,div9e grace on ! he>t w f9d mu* t is int]e/+ & valuable !re91 & t ! "y may reap in/ruction & enc\ragem5t f ! spiritual hi/ory ( "o :o e>ly & e>ne/ly s\ght ! ,"l4 ,,william ,,s\?all1 ,,jr4 ,,edgba/on1 ,,birm+ham1 #b;d mo4 #ab?1 #ahfa4 ,,brief ,,memoir ,,( ,,eliza ,,s\?all4 ,eliza ,s\?all1 wife ( ,william ,s\?all1 ,jr41 ( ,birm+ham1 ,engl&1 & daught] ( ,john & ,eliza ,all51 0 born at ,liske>d1 on ! #i? ( #f? mon?1 #ahbc4 ,z %e felt a /rong atta*m5t to ! sc5es ( h] *ildhood1 & an int]e/ 9 ! p among :om %e sp5t ! great] "p ( h] %ort life1--an atta*m5t :i* is ev9c$ _m times 9 ! c\rse ( h] memor&a1--x may int]e/ ! ,am]ican read] to "k t ,liske>d is an anci5t b small t[n 9 ,cornwall4 ,! c\ntry ar\nd is brok5 up into hill & dale1 slop+ d[n to ! sea a few miles di/ant1 ! rocky %ores ( :i* are dott$ ) fi%+-villages2 9 an opposite direction x swells into granite hills1 9 :i* are num]\s m9es ( copp] & lead4 ,!re is a good deal ( intellig5ce1 & also ( religi\s feel+1 to be met ) among bo? ! m9]s & fi%]m51 ,cornwall hav+ be5 ! sc5e ( a great revival 9 religion 9 ! "t ( ,john ,wesley1 ! effects ( :i* h n be5 suff]$ to pass away4 ,a meet+ ( ,fri5ds has be5 held at ,liske>d f an e>ly p]iod 9 ! hi/ory ( ! ,society2 b1 z 9 _m o!r c\ntry places 9 ,engl&1 ! numb]s seem gradually to dim9i%1 v>i\s attractions draw+ ! memb]s to ! l>g] t[ns4 ,launce/on ,ca/le1 s well kn[n 9 connection ) ! suff]+s ( ,george ,fox1 is a few miles di/ant4 ,! family-circle1 until brok5 a few ye>s be=e h] own m>riage by t ( an eld] si/]1 consi/$1 9 addition to h] p>5ts1 ( five daught]s1 two ( :om 7 old] & two y\ng] ?an ,eliza4 ,h] fa!r 0 long kn[n & des]v$ly e/eem$ by ,fri5ds 9 ,engl&1 & h] "m is an approv$ m9i/]4 ,john ,all5 0 a man ( s\nd judgm5t & ( lib]al & enlight5$ views1 ev] desir\s ( uphold+ ! tru?1 b at ! same "t ready to li/5 to ! argum5ts ( ^? :o might diff] f him 9 op9ion4 ,mod]ate & cauti\s 9 c\nsel & conduct1 firm1 yet a peacemak]1 he 0 truly a fa!r 9 ! ,*ur*4 ,= _m ye>s he took an active "p 9 ! delib]ations ( ! ,ye>ly ,meet+1 & 0 (t5 employ$ 9 s]vices connect$ ) ! ,society4 ,he 0 kn[n to _m ,fri5ds on ! ,am]ican cont95t1 f hav+ visit$ t c\ntry 9 #ahde by appo9tm5t ( ! ,london ,ye>ly ,meet+4 ,he 0 ! au?or ( a "w entitl$ ,/ate ,*ur*es & ! ,k+dom ( ,*ri/1 & ( sev]al pamphlets on religi\s subjects4 ,he di$ 9 #ahei4 ,john ,all5 retir$ f bus9ess at an e>ly age2 & a prom95t reason = 8 do+ s 0 t he might devote himself m fully to ! education ( 8 daught]s1 :i* 0 conduct$ almo/ entirely at home4 ,hav+ a decid$ ta/e = ! anci5t classics1 he consid]$ t s good a f\ndation ( a s\nd education ought n to be neglect$4 ,! same might be said ( ! old] hi/ory & lit]ature ( 8 own c\ntry1 includ+ its poetry1 9 :i* he 0 well read2 b he fully enc\rag$ 8 pupils to become acqua9t$ also ) ! bett] productions ( ! day1 to ! tone ( :i* _! y\ng] m9ds 7 m easily adapt$4 ,nor 0 education conf9$ to direct in/ruction 9 ! s*ool-room4 ,9 a little memoir ( ,john ,all51 publi%$ 9 ! ,annual ,monitor1 we read1 ,9 ! dome/ic circle1 ! t5d]1 wat*ful c>e & sympa?y ( ! p>5t 7 bl5d$ ) ! con/ant /imulus to self-improvem5t ( ! tea*]2 & ! read9ess to sacrifice p]sonal ease & conv5i5ce1 9 ord] t he might ent] into ! pursuits & amusem5ts ( 8 *ildr51 0 unit$ ) an unremitt+ endeavor to ma9ta9 a high /&>d ( moral & religi\s feel+4 ,?us by example z well z by precept did he ev9ce 8 deep conc]n = _! be/ welf>e4 ,z ye>s pass$ on1 8 cordial sympa?y ) _! int]e/s1 & 8 anxiety z f> z possible to %>e 8 own ) !m1 gave an additional p[] to 8 influ5ce1 n easily e/imat$4 ,su* 7 ! simple & natural means ( education employ$4 ,! aim 0 true enl>gem5t ( m9d2 & ! desire 0 c>efully in/ill$ t ! k acquir$ %\ld be valu$ = its own sake1 n z a possession to be us$ = display4 ,at ! same "t1 c>e 0 tak5 n to de/roy ! balance betwe5 ! intellect & ! affections1 s t1 :il/ ! gr[? ( ! m5tal p[]s 0 enc\rag$1 dome/ic & social duties %\ld n suff]1 & habits ( self-reliance %\ld be =m$4 ,f e>lie/ *ildhood ! great pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ianity 7 in/ill$ into ! op5+ m9ds ( ! *ildr52 & :5 ! reflective p[]s _h come into op]ation1 _! reason+s 7 wat*$ & guid$ into safe pa?s4 ,9 ?is object1 z 9 all ! pursuits ( h] *ildr51 0 ! lov+ influ5ce ( a wat*ful "m g5tly felt4 ,?us by ! unit$ love & example ( ! p>5ts 7 ! affections ( ! *ildr5 direct$ to a ris5 ,savi\r2 & x is ! aim ( ?is volume to %[1 pr9cipally f records p5n$ by h] own h&1 h[ "o belov$ daught] grew 9 grace & 9 ! k ( ! ,"l1 until x pleas$ ,him to take h] to ,himself4 ,eliza ,s\?all possess$ a m9d ( no common ord]2 & h]s 0 a "* 9 :i* simplicity & /r5g?1 orig9ality & ref9em5t1 7 beautifully bl5d$3 diffid5t & retir+1 %e 0 be/ appreciat$ :]e %e 0 kn[n mo/ intimately4 ,9 v e>ly life %e manife/$ an unusual degree ( m5tal p[]4 ,:5 q a little *ild1 h] e>ne/ pursuit ( k 0 rem>kable3 %e delight$ 9 h] lessons1 & *ose = h] own read+ a class ( books f> beyond ! common ta/e ( *ildr54 ,h] ard5t1 impulsive nature 01 to a beautiful degree1 temp]$ & s(t5$ by a dep? ( t5d]ness & int5sity ( feel+1 toge!r ) a w>m? ( affection1 :i* b\nd h] v closely 9 sympa?y1 ev5 z a *ild1 ) ^? ar\nd h]4 ,^! sweet traits ( natural "* 7 s e>ly bl5d$ ) ! unmi/akable evid5ces ( ! fruit ( div9e grace 9 h] he>t1 t x w\ld be difficult to po9t to any "t 9 h] e>lie/ *ildhood :5 !re 0 n an e>ne/ /rife aga9/ evil1 "s sweet pro( ( ! p[] ( ov]com+ grace1 & "s manife/ation ( love to h] ,savi\r4 ,h] own words sweetly describe h] feel+s 9 recall+ ?is p]iod3--,:5 ,i look back to ! ye>s ( my e>ly *ildhood1 ,i _c rememb] ! "t :5 ! ,"l did n /rive ) me2 nei!r c ,i rememb] any precise "t ( my fir/ cov5ant4 ,x 0 ! g5tle draw+ ( ! cords ( 8 love2 x 0 ! sweet impress ( 8 h&2 x 0 ! brea?+ 9 sil5ce ( a w9d t bl[e? :]e x li/e?4 ,! foll[+ in/ances ( ! s]i\s ?\ghtfulness ( h] e>ly *ildhood are fre% 9 h] "m's recollection4 ,on "o ( h] si/]s fir/ go+ to meet+1 ,eliza1 :o 0 y\ng]1 mu* wi%$ to accompany h]2 say+1 ,i "k1 mamma1 t ,r---- & ,i c h meet+s at home2 b ,i d want to g4 ,be+ told t h] go+ mu/ dep5d ^u h] si/]'s behavior1 ,eliza ran to h]1 & putt+ h] arms r\nd h] neck1 said1 mo/ e>ne/ly1 ,d1 de> ,r----1 be a good girl & behave well4 ,! de> *ild's desire to att5d meet+ 0 soon gratifi$2 & t morn+ %e select$1 to commit to memory1 ,jane ,taylor's appropriate hymn on att5d+ public wor%ip1 especially notic+ ! /anza-- ,! trifl]s1 too1 ,8 eye c see1 ,:o only seem to take a "p2 ,!y move ! lip1 & b5d ! knee1 ,b d n seek ,him ) ! he>t1-- say+1 e>ne/ly1 ,oh1 ,i hope ,i %all n be l ^?6 ,at ano!r "t1 :il/ amus+ h]self ) h] toys1 %e ask$1 ,mamma1 :at is x t makes me feel s sorry :5 ,i h done wrong8 ,directly1 mamma3 :at is x8 ,on h] "m's expla9+ t x 0 ! ,holy ,_s put into h] he>t by h] heav5ly ,fa!r1 %e repli$1 ,b h[ v :isp]+ x is1 mamma6 ,nobody else c he> x4 ,yes1 my de>1 said h] "m2 & ?\ may/ sometimes he> x comp>$ to a '/ill small voice1 & !n ?\ wilt "k :at is meant4 ,%e answ]$1 ,yes1 mamma1 & !n cont9u$ to amuse h]self z be=e4 ,! fir/ remembrance ( ,eliza reta9$ by "o ( h] y\ng] si/]s is t ( sitt+ opposite to h] 9 ! nurs]y-w9d[ :ile %e endeavor$1 9 a simple mann]1 to expla9 to h] ! s\rce & object ( h] be+4 ,to ! same si/] %e aft]w>ds address$ "s affectionate l9es ( infantile poetry urg+ ! same subject1 comm5c+1-- ,look1 preci\s *ild1 to ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,! mission>y _s :i* fill$ h] "y he>t 0 also ev9c$ by h] desire to possess a donkey1 t %e might di/ribute ,bibles 9 ! c\ntry places r\nd ab\t2 & ?is 0 aft]w>ds spok5 ( z ! ambition ( h] *ildhood4 ,toge!r ) ! *e]ful sweetness ( h] disposition1 !re 0 an unusual p5siv5ess1 a t5d] c>e = o!rs1 :i* 0 mo/ ende>+1 & (t5 t\*+ to witness4 ,"o day1 p]ceiv+ h] "m mu* affect$ on receiv+ intellig5ce ( ! decease ( a valu$ fri5d & m9i/] at a di/ance f home1 ,eliza ev9c$ h] sympa?y by lay+ on ! table be=e h] "s beautiful l9es on ! dea? ( ,h[>d4 ,on h] "m ask+ if %e ?\ght ! cases simil>1 %e said1 ,n q1 mamma3 ,j---- ,t---- 0 n )\t fri5ds4 ,s e>ne/ 0 h] anxiety = ! good ( h]self & h] si/]s1 t1 :5 any ?+ wrong _h be5 done1 h] feel+s ( di/ress seem$ equally excit$1 :e!r = _! sakes or h] own4 ,aft] any little tr\ble ( ?is sort1 h] "m (t5 obs]v$ h] retire alone1 &1 :5 %e return$ to ! family-gr\p1 a beam+ expression on h] c\nt5ance w\ld %[ :]e %e _h laid h] sorr[s4 ,sometimes 9 h] play-h\rs %e w\ld endeavor to prep>e h] two y\ng] si/]s = ! lessons :i* !y w\ld receive f _! fa!r1 &1 :5 ! "t came = h] to jo9 9 giv+ !m regul> in/ruction1 %e ent]$ into x ) ze/ & int]e/4 ,_m h\rs 7 sp5t dur+ ! summ] 9 ! little plots ( gr\nd allott$ to h]self & si/]s out ( a small plantation skirt+ a mead[ ne> ! h\se1 & _m o!rs 9 read+ "u ! old elm-trees :i* ca/ _! %ade ov] ! g>d5-walk4 ,! sp>e mom5ts dur+ h] dome/ic occupations :i* %e 0 anxi\s n to neglect 7 (t5 beguil$ by le>n+ pieces ( poetry1 a book be+ g5]ally op5 at h] side :ile ?us employ$4 ,e>ne/ness ( purpose & unwe>i$ en]gy 7 *>act]i/ics ( h] m9d4 ,:atev] %e und]took 0 done ?or\ghly & ) an untir+ indu/ry1 :i* (t5 claim$ ! wat*ful c>e ( h] p>5ts f ! fe> le/ %e %\ld ov]tax h] /r5g?4 ,x 0 evid5tly difficult to h] to avoid an unsuitable /ra9 on h] physical p[]s1 :atev] might be ! nature ( h] pursuit1--:e!r h] own private read+ or o!r intellectual occupation4 ,at "o p]iod h] "t & en]gies 7 closely occupi$ = "s mon?s 9 ! =mation ( v elaborate *>ts1 by :i* %e endeavor$ to impress hi/orical & sci5tific subjects on h] m9d4 ,! collection & exam9ation ( objects illu/rat+ ! diff]5t bran*es ( natural hi/ory 0 also a v favorite pursuit1 9 :i* %e delight$ to jo9 h] si/]s4 ,b ! read] w be/ und]/& h[ completely any pursuit 9 :i* %e became deeply int]e/$ took hold ^u h]1 f h] own acc\nt ( h] exp]i5ces respect+ poetry4 ,:ile deeply feel+ h] responsibility = ! "r use ( all ! tal5ts intru/$ to h] c>e1 & e>ne/ly engag$ 9 _! cultivation1 %e 0 equally consci\s ( ! claims ( social duty1 & z solicit\s to fulfil !m1 seek+ 9 e way to contribute to ! happ9ess ( ^? ar\nd h]1 :e!r among ! poor or among ! fri5ds & relatives ( h] own circle4 ,h] j\rnal1 :ile x exhibits an int5se e>ne/ness 9 analyz+ ! /ate ( h] own m9d1 & p]haps r too mu* pron5ess to dwell morbidly ^u x1 also ev9ces ! t5d] joy & peace ) :i* %e 0 (t5 bless$ by ! manife/$ pres5ce ( h] ,"l4 ,x unfolds an advancem5t 9 ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce to :i* h] conduct bore liv+ te/imony1 & proves t 9 humble reliance on ! hope set be=e h] 9 ! gospel1 ) gr[+ di/ru/ ( h]self1 h] fai? increas$ 9 ,god h] ,savi\r1 & ?r\gh 8 grace %e 0 enabl$ to ma9ta9 ! /ruggle ) h] s\l's enemies1 foll[+ on to "k ! ,"l4 ,?us x 01 z %e s\ght prep>ation = a m enl>g$ sph]e ( usefulness on e>?1 h] _s rip5$ = ! p]fect s]vice ( heav52 & six weeks aft] %e left h] fa!r's h\se a bride1 ! summons 0 receiv$ to jo9 t c\ntless multitude :o h wa%$ _! robes & made !m :ite 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb2 !re=e are !y be=e ! ?rone ( ,god1 & s]ve him day & night 9 8 temple4 ,,di>y4 ,! di>y :i* 0 kept by ! belov$ object ( ?is memoir1 & ! extracts f :i* =m ! pr9cipal "p ( ?is volume1 is conta9$ 9 sev]al volumes ( closely-writt5 manuscript1 &1 tak5 z a :ole1 is a mo/ int]e/+ record ( m5tal & spiritual gr[?4 ,at times x 0 cont9u$ ) almo/ daily regul>ity1 b at o!rs1 ei!r f ! pressure ( occupations or f v>i\s causes1 consid]able int]vals occur 9 :i* no?+ 0 writt54 ,x has be5 ! endeavor ( ! editor to make su* selections z may pres]ve a fai?ful picture ( ! :ole4 ,!re is almo/ ( necessity a c]ta9 am\nt ( repetition1 z 9 seasons ( depression1 :5 fai? & hope seem$ to be mu* obscur$1 or1 on ! o!r h&1 :5 *e]ful ?ankfulness & joy ( he>t 7 h] portion2 & 9 su* places x did n seem "r to curtail h] words too mu*4 ,_m entries ref]r$ too closely to p]sonal & family matt]s to be suitable = publication1 & ! unev5tful "* ( h] life does n leave room to supply 9 _! /ead mu* 9 ! way ( n>rative2 b x w be rememb]$ t x is ! heav5w>d j\rney t x is desir$ to trace1 n simply t[>ds ! l& v f> (f1 b t pilgrimage dur+ :i*1 ?\gh on e>?1 ! believ] 9 ,jesus is at times privileg$ to p>take ( ! joys ( heav54 ,! fir/ volume ( ! s]ies is entitl$1 by its au?or1 ,mem5tos ( ,m]cy to ! ,*ief ( ,s9n]s4 ,"s l9es writt5 on h] f\rte5? bir?day--ab\t ! p]iod1 ( its comm5cem5t--may appropriately introduce ! extracts4 #f? ,mo4 #i?1 #ahcg4-- ,c x be true t "o m l9k ,9 t my/]i\s *a91 ,:i* jo9s ! two et]nities1 ,i %all n see aga98 ,et]nity6 t awful ?+ ,?\ght tries 9 va9 to scan2 ,h[ f> beyond ! l(tie/ p[]s ,( little1 f9ite man6 ,e'en d>+ fancy's fe>less flight ,9 va9 w\ld grasp ! :ole1 ,& !n1 ,h[ %ort man's mortal life6 ,exclaims ! wond]+ s\l4 ,a bubble on ! ocean's brea/1 ,a gl[-worm's feeble ray1 ,t loses all its brilliancy ,b5ea? ! orb ( day4 ,c x be joyful1 !n1 to f9d ,t life is ha/5+ fa/8 ,c x be joyful to reflect1 ,?is ye> may be our la/8 ,look on ! firmam5t above1 ,f s\? to nor!rn pole3 ,c we f9d !re a re/+-place ,= ! immortal s\l8 99 99 99 99 99 ,:]e c we se>* to f9d its home8 ,! /ill small voice 9 !e ,answ]s1 z f ! et]nal ?rone1 ,my own %all dwell ) me4 ,& ,i h "o ye> less to seek ,an int]e/ on high2 ,am "o ye> ne>] to ! "t ,:5 ,i myself mu/ die6 ,& :5 t awful "t w come1 ,no human tongue c say2 ,b1 oh6 h[ />tl+ is ! ?\ght ,t x may be to-day6 ,h[ %all my guilty _s meet ,! great1 all-se>*+ eye8 ,consci\s ( my defici5cies1 ,z 9 ! du/ ,i lie4 ,h[ %all ,i jo9 ! ransom'd ?rong ,ar\nd ! ?rone t /&1 ,& ca/ _! cr[ns be=e ?y feet1 ,"l ( ! sa9tly b&8 #ab? ,mo4 #f?1 #ahcf4 ,!re are seasons 9 :i* ,i am favor$ to feel a quiet resignation1 to sp5d & be sp5t 9 ! s]vice ( ,him :o1 ev5 9 my y\?ful days1 has be5 pleas$ to visit me ) ! ov]%ad[+ ( ,8 m]cy & love1 & to require me to give up all my de>e/ secret idols1 & e ?+ :i* exalts self aga9/ ! gov]nm5t ( ! ,pr9ce ( ,peace4 #d? ,mo4 #c;d1 #ahcg4 ,almo/ 9 despair ( ev] be+ :at ,i ought to be4 ,i feel s poor 9 e good ?+1 & s amaz+ly ri* 9 e bad ?+4 ,/ill ?is little sp>k ( love t rema9s1 seems to hope 9 ,him :o w n qu5* ! smok+ flax4 #f? ,mo4 #d?4 ,i h cause to be v wat*ful4 ,satan is at h&3 temptations ab\nd1 & x is no easy matt] to keep 9 ! "r way4 ,to h my affections crucifi$ to ! _w is my desire4 ,! way to ! cele/ial city1 is n only ?r\gh ! valley ( humiliation1 b also ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?4 #f? ,mo4 #aa?4 ,_m ?+s h lately occurr$ :i* h flatt]$ my vanity4 ,i h receiv$ complim5ts & comm5dations3 old ,adam likes ^! ?+s1 & p]suades me t ,i am somebody1 & may well feel complac5cy4 ,h[ ne$ful is wat*fulness6 may ! true light discov] to me ! sn>es t are set on e side4 #g? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,may ,i be enabl$ to give myself up z clay into ! ,pott]'s h&1 )\t mix+ up any ?+ ( my own contriv+2 & 9 ! sil5ce ( all fle%1 wait to h ! true se$ wat]$ & n\ri%$ by heav5ly dew4 #h? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,i feel humbl$ at ! sight ( my _m backslid+s & defici5cies4 ,oh1 may ,he1 :o is t\*$ ) a feel+ ( our infirmities1 9 j judgm5t1 rememb] m]cy4 ,if ,he does n1 !re c be no hope = me2 b oh6 ,i tru/ ,he w4 ,let n ,?y h& sp>e1 nor ,?9e eye pity1 till ,?\ ha/ made me :at ?\ w\ld/ h me to be4 #h? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,utt]ly unwor?y6 ,oh1 my ,fa!r6 if !re be any "r beg9n+1 if !re be ! lea/ sp>k ( good )9 me1 c>ry x on3 oh1 increase x1 t ,i may become z a plant ( ?y "r h& plant+1 t ,i may become a %eep ( ?y fold4 ,assi/ me to pres5t myself be=e !e 9 true sil5ce1 t ,i may wait ^u !e 9 tru?1 & wor%ip !e 9 ! sil5ce ( all fle%1 & "k all my treasure1 all my spr+s1 9 ,!e4 #aj? ,mo4 #ac?4 ,we h j be5 favor$ ) a visit f ,j4,p41 :i* has be5 to me a great com=t4 ,at our ,mon?ly ,meet+ he address$ ! "y2 & x seem$ z ?\gh he spoke ! v ?\ghts ( my he>t2 & ! sweet supplication (f]$ on _! behalf t !y might be pres]v$ f ! sn>es ( ! delusive _w1 may x be answ]$4 #d? ,mo4 #ae?1 #ahch4 ,i want to give up e ?+1 e ?\ght1 e affection1 9 %ort1 my :ole self1 to my (f]$ ,savi\r4 ,!n w\ld ,8 k+dom come1 & ,8 w be done4 ,in/ead ( ! ?orn w\ld come up ! fir-tree1 & in/ead ( ! bri] ! myrtle-tree4 ,h[ preci\s1 h[ holy1 h[ peaceful1 t k+dom6 ,oh6 if ,i may yet hope2 if m]cy is left1 ,i besee* ,!e1 he> & behold me1 & br+ me out ( ! miry clay1 & set my feet ^u ! rock4 #e? ,mo4 #bf?1 #ahci4 ,a beautiful ,fir/-day4 ,e ?+ sweet & lovely2 fulfill+ ! purpose ( its creation z f> z man is n conc]n$4 ,birds & insects =m$ = happ9ess1 are n[ completely happy4 ,b ah6 !y 7 =m$ to give glory to ,god1 by te/ify+ to man ,8 goodness4 ,t5 ?\s& voices call ^u me to employ ! nobl] tal5ts intru/$ = ! same purpose4 ,ne>ly sixte5 ye>s h ,i be5 w>n$1 & sweetly call$ ^u to awake out ( sleep3 ,:at meane/ ?\1 ,o sleep]8 arise1 & call ^u ?y ,god6 ,h[ %all ,i acc\nt1 9 ! la/ day1 = ^! ?+s8 ,x is (t5 />tl+ to ?9k h[ "t is advanc+1 & h[ ill ! day's "w keeps pace ) ! day4 ,= ev5 n[1 poor dr[sy creature t ,i am1 x is b occasional s5sibility1 ) ! int]vals buri$ 9 va9 dreams2 & ev5 at su* times1 my poor w>p$ affections1 & busy imag9ations1 cr[d$ ) a multitude ( images1 refuse to yield to ! comm&1 ,be /ill1 & "k t ,i am ,god4 ,i h1 inde$1 f\nd t 9 :atev] circum/ances ,i may he plac$1 ,i c nev] be really happy )\t ! religion ( ! he>t2 )\t mak+ ! ,"l my habitation2 & oh1 may x be m9e1 ?r\gh ,*ri/'s humbl+ & sanctify+ op]ations1 to "k e corn] ( my he>t made fit = ! dwell+-place ( ,him :o is ) ! meek & contrite ones4 ,!n %all ! rema9+ days ( my pilgrimage be occupi$ 9 ! en]getic employm5t ( ^? tal5ts :i* mu/ o!rwise rise up = my condemnation 9 ! la/ day4 #f? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,x is n = me to say any m ?us f> w ,i g1 b no f>!r1 ei!r 9 ! n>r[ or ! broad way4 ,9 ! =m]1 we _c refuse to proce$ )\t rec$+2 9 ! latt]1 if we w take any /eps1 x is impossible to re/ra9 ourselves4 ,besett+ s9s1 ?\gh app>5tly opposite ones1 sad /umbl+-blocks 9 ! way ( ! cross1 are unre/ra9$ activity ( ?\ght & indol5ce3 ! =m] proce$s f e>?ly-m9d$ness2 & ! latt] z a sure consequ5ce f ! want ( heav5ly-m9d$ness4 ,oh t by keep+ v close to ,jesus1 my w&]+ he>t may receive ! impression ( ,8 h&1 t ! new creation may inde$ be witness$1 :]e9 ,j]usalem is a rejoic+ & h] p a joy2 !n may ,i f9d t quiet habitation :i* no?+ ev] gave me out ( ! fold ( ,*ri/4 #f? ,mo4 #i?4 ,alas6 h[ %all ,i acc\nt = ! sixte5 ye>s :i* h1 ?is day1 complet$ _! c\rse ^u my head8 ,:at %all ,i r5d] unto ! ,"l = all 8 b5efits8 ,%all ,i n1 f ?is "t1 cry unto ,him1 ,my ,fa!r1 ?\ art ! guide ( my y\?8 ,b1 = ! ye> t is pass$1 :at c ,i say8 ,i w lay my h& on my m\? & ackn[l$ge t x has be5 squ&]$4 ,yes1 s f> z x has n be5 employ$ ab\t my ,fa!r's bus9ess4 ,b1 alas6 x has be5 cramm$ ) selfi%ness2 ?\gh n[ & !n ,he1 :om ,i tru/ ,i yet desire to s]ve1 has made me s5sibly feel h[ preci\s is e small d$ication to ,himself4 #f? ,mo4 #af?4 ,! consid]ation ( ! peculi> doctr9es ( ,fri5ds hav+ be5 lately r =c$ on my att5tion1 let me record my increas$ conviction ( ! privilege ( an education )9 ! bord]s ( ! ,society2 ( ! great value & importance ( its spiritual pr(ession1 & ! awful responsibility ( its memb]s to walk s z to adorn its doctr9es1 & %9e z lights 9 ! _w4 ,w>mly z %e 0 atta*$ to ^! pr9ciples1 %e ev] rejoic$ 9 ! conviction t all ! foll[]s ( ,*ri/ are "o 9 ,him1 & t1 by :atev] "n designat$1 ^? :o h atta9$ to ! close/ communion ) ,him are ! ne>e/ to "o ano!r2 & :5 diff]5ces 9 s5tim5t 7 ! topic ( conv]sation1 %e w\ld sometimes rejo9 9 an e>ne/ tone1 ! comm&m5t is exce$+ broad4 #b;d ,mo4 #b;d1 #ahdj4 ,"t passes on1 & :at progress d ,i make1 ei!r 9 usefulness 9 ! e>?1 or prep>ation = heav58 ,self-indulg5ce is ! bane ( godl9ess1 & is1 alas6 m9e4' ,?is _w's goods are sn>es1 & are1 alas6 sn>es to me4 ,c[>d t my he>t is1 :5 pride is piqu$1 ,i h n resolution to conqu] my own _s4 ,pride1 indol5ce1 & worldly-m9d$ness are br++ me into clos] & clos] bondage3 ! fir/ keeps me f true wor%ip by prev5t+ me f seek+ ! help & tea*+ ( ! "o ,_s2 ! second1 by mak+ me yield )\t ef=t or resi/ance to ! uncontroll$ imag9ations :i* ! ?ird pres5ts4 ,& n[ d ^! l9es witness t1 hav+ be5 call$ to an ev]la/+ salvation1 ,god1 ! *ief good1 hav+ manife/$ ,8 "n unto ! lea/ ( ,8 little ones1 my s\l & body are = ,him1 belong to ,him1 to be m\ld$ & fa%ion$ accord+ to ,8 w2 & t if ,i fru/rate ,8 purpose1 ,8 glori\s hol9ess & free grace are unsulli$ & ev]la/+ly wor?y4 #g? ,mo4 #ab?4 ,if ,i ackn[l$ge my own /ate1 x is "o cumb]$ ) _m ?+s4 ,alas6 amid !m h[ little space is !re = ! love ( ,god6 ,i h rememb]$ ! days :5 untold & inexpressible exp]i5ces 7 m9e2 :5 a *ild's te>s & pray]s 7 se5 & he>d be=e ! ?rone6 ,! /raggl+s ( grace & nature h be5 great s9ce !n4 ,i c look back to ye>s ( /ruggles & deliv]ances1 ye>s ( revolt+s & ( m]cies4 ,x is l ?re%+ m\nta9s to m$dle ) ! /rongholds ( s92 b m\nta9s1 ,i sometimes hope1 w be made to skip l rams4 #aj? ,mo4 #e?4 ,h[ long h ,i be5 l ! m]*antman seek+ goodly pe>ls6 ,ev] s9ce reason dawn$ ,i h long$ = a goodly pe>l2 ?\gh dazzl$ & deceiv$ by _m an empty trifle1 ,i _c plead z an excuse t ,i c\ld n f9d ! pe>l4 ,i h se5 x at times1 & felt h[ untold 0 ! price1 & ?\ght ,i 0 ready to sell all & buy x1 sometimes believ$ t all 0 sold2 b :y1 ah1 :y 0 my pl$ge s (t5 r$eem$8 ,i h be5 inde$ l a simple "o1 :o1 hav+ f\nd a pe>l ( great price1 ca/ x f him = an empty1 unsatisfy+ %[4 #a/ ,mo4 #ag?1 #ahda4 ,v preci\s z h be5 ! privileges v\*saf$ ! la/ two days1 ,i c ?is morn+ speak ( no?+ z my pres5t condition1 b ! extreme ( weakness & pov]ty4 ,on #f? day ev5+ ,r4,b4 address$ u 9 su* a way z prov$ to me t ! ,div9e ^w is a disc]n] ( ! ?\ghts & int5ts ( ! he>t4 ,! *ief purport 0 ! necessity ( a will+ness to le>n daily ( ! great ,tea*] meekness & l[l9ess & fai?fulness 9 ! occupation ( ! tal5ts intru/$2 = :]e mu* is giv51 mu* w be requir$4 ,ye/]day 8 p>t+ salutation ( bro!rly love 0 su* z _c be effac$ f my memory2 & oh1 ,i pray t x may n f my he>t4 ,& n[ my pray]1 my desire1 mu/ be = a r5ew$ d$ication4 ,! sep>ation1 z ,r4,b4 said1 f ! "r h& & ! "r eye mu/ be made3 ! sacrifice :i* is acceptable w always co/ some?+4 #c;d ,mo4 #h?4 ,oh1 may ,i become altoge!r a babe & a fool be=e myself1 &1 if x mu/ be1 be=e o!rs6 ,god has be5 v graci\sly deal+ ) me4 #c;d ,mo4 #ai?4 ,words mu/ be mu* m gu>d$1 z well z ?\ghts4 ,?is morn+ ,i am com=t$ ) a preci\s feel+3 ,i w take c>e ( !e4 #c;d ,mo4 #bg?4 ,h[ does my he>t long1 ?is ev5+1 t ! "o ,savi\r may be made unto me wisdom & righte\sness1 sanctification & r$emption6 ,tea* me to keep sil5ce1 ,o ,god6 to m9d my own bus9ess & be fai?ful to x2 to d5y my own w & wisdom2 give me ! _s ( true ,*ri/ian love1 t my :ole life may be 9 ! atmosph]e ( love6 #c;d ,mo4 #bh?4 99 99 99 ,to cease f my own works1 surely 9 a v small degree1 ,i c exp]im5tally say1 ?is is ! only true re/4 ,?is bless$ exp]i5ce seems to me ! height ( enjoym5t to ! truly r$eem$4 ,oh1 a little =eta/e ( ?is sabba? has be5 grant$1 :5 ,i h seem$ to behold ) my own eye1 & to feel = myself 9 mom5ts too preci\s to be =gott51 ! waves ( tumult hu%$ into a1 m ?an e>?ly calm by ,him :o alone c say1 ,peace1 be /ill4 ,my toss+ _s has nev] f\nd su* a calm 9 any ?+ ?is _w c give4 ,dur+ h] fir/ att5dance ( ! ,ye>ly ,meet+ 9 ,london1 9 #ahda1 %e wrote ! foll[+ affectionate l9es 9 a lett] to h] si/]s at home3-- ,,london ,,?\ghts4 ,! cr[ds t pa/ me ceaseless ru% ,/ay n to glance at me1 ,z fall+ wat]s headlong gu% ,into _! native sea4 ,b he>ts !re are t brightly burn1 ,& light ea* k9dl+ eye1 ,& home to !m my ?\ghts return1 ,swift z ! sunbeams fly4 99 99 99 99 99 ,to home1 to home my _s ha/es2 ,= :y8 my treasure's !re2 ',tis !re h] native joys %e ta/es1 ,& brea!s h] native air4 ,oh1 sweete/ ( all preci\s ?+s1 ,:5 ?is wide _w we roam1 ,:5 meets u on its balmy w+s ,a mess5g] f home6 ,f home1 :]e he>ts are w>m & true1 ,& love's lamp brightly burns1 ,& sp>kles ,h]mon's pe>ly dew ,on *ildhood's cry/al urns4 ,oh1 sweet to m>k ! speak+ l9es ,trac$ by a si/]'s h&1 ,& feel ! love t firmly tw9es ,ar\nd our h\sehold b&6 ,to "o ( h] si/]s3-- ,,london1 #f? ,mon?1 #ahda4 99 99 99 99 ,i lay /ill half h\r1 & read ov] ?y t5d]ly int]e/+ & affect+ %eet1 & p\r$ out my full he>t2 b :at c ,i say8 ,h[ ,i d long to be ) y1 & see1 if x might be1 once m1 our belov$ uncle6 ,b p]haps be=e ?is ! conflict may be ov]1 ! victory won1 ! ev]la/+ city ga9$1 none ( ^: inhabitants c say1 ,i am sick4 ,& if s1 d>e we murmur or wi% to recall ! lov$ "o f t home8 ,oh = t *ildlike & humble submission :i* is befitt+ ! *ildr5 ( a ,fa!r ( m]cies1 & ! foll[]s ( ,him :o c & w d all ?+s well6 ,aft] ! ,ye>ly ,meet+1 %e ?us writes 9 h] ,j\rnal3-- #f? ,mo4 #ab?4 ,_m & great h be5 ! favors disp5s$ )9 ! la/ five weeks4 ,! att5dance ( ! ,ye>ly ,meet+ has be5 ! occasion ( _m & solemn w>n+s & advices1 &1 ,i tru/1 ! reception ( "s real in/ruction4 ,b1 truly1 ,i h f\nd t 9 e situation1 ! great enemy c lay 8 sn>es2 & if "o m ?an ano!r has tak5 ) me1 x has be5 to lead me to look outw>d = tea*+1 & to dep5d too mu* ^u x1 neglect+ t "o inw>d adoration = ! want ( :i* no outw>d m9i/ry c atone4 ,b ,i hope ! enemy has n ga9$ m ?an limit$ advantages ( ?is k9d1 & p]haps ev5 ! discov]y ( ^! has _h ! effect ( mak+ me m di/ru/ful ( self4 ,&1 n[1 oh t ! ev]la/+ cov5ant might be ord]$ 9 all ?+s & sure1 & ,he only1 :o is ,k+ ( ,k+s & ,"l ( ,lords1 be exalt$ ov] all1 9 my he>t2 & ! bless$ exp]i5ce ?us describ$1 be m fully realiz$3 ,he t ha? ent]$ into 8 re/ ha? ceas$ f 8 own works z ,god did f 84 #f? ,mo4 #ba/4 ,v e>ly ?is morn+ ! long /ruggle ) dea? t]m9at$1 & ! _s ( our belov$ ,uncle ,e4 0 releas$ f its worn t5em5t4 ,! /ony nature 9 my he>t seems truly w\nd$4 ,may x n be z ! w\nd$ air1 soon to lose ! trace4 ,my heav5ly ,fa!r's t5d] reg>d ,i h1 inde$1 felt ?is ev5+2 b ,i tremble = ! evil t rema9s 9 me4 ,may ,i be bless$ ) ! cont9u$ c>e ( ! good ,%eph]d1 t ,i may be pres]v$ z by ! crook ( ,8 love4 ,& n[1 see+ t mu* is =giv5 me1 may ,i love mu*4 ,i feel t my ,savi\r's reg>d is ( f> m value ?an any e>?ly ?+2 & oh t my eye may be kept s+ly wait+ = ,him6 ,! decease ( h] uncle 0 soon foll[$ by t ( 8 y\nge/ son1 ,joseph ,e4 ,9 ref]5ce to 8 dea?1 %e rem>ks3-- #g? ,mo4 #bb;d4 ,he1 9 ^: sight ! dea? ( ,8 sa9ts is preci\s1 has aga9 visit$ ) ! solemn call our family circle1 & summon$ away ! sweete/1 pure/1 & mo/ heav5ly ( ! gr\p4 ,our de> c\s9 ,joseph la/ night ent]$ t re/ :i* rema9s = ! p ( ,god2 re/ = :i* he _h be5 pant+ ! :ole ( ! day1 & to :i* he 0 enabl$ to look =w>d z 8 happy home4 #g? ,mo4 #bh?4 ,ye/]day 0 "o long to be rememb]$4 ,! la/ sad (fices 7 paid to him :om we s mu* lov$2 & oh t ! mantle ( ! wat*ful1 l[ly disciple might desc5d abundantly ^u u6 ,yet x is only by keep+ ne> to ! div9e p[]1 t ,i c receive any ?+ good2 &1 ?\gh yet f> away1 oh1 may ,i look t[>ds ,8 holy habitation :o is graci\sly (f]+ me a home :]e !re is bread en\gh & to sp>e4 #d? ,mo4 #c;d1 #ahdb4 ,he :o has be5 = ye>s /riv+ ) me1 has lately1 ,i ?9k ,i may say1 manife/$ to me ! light ( ,8 c\nt5ance1 & enabl$ me at seasons to commit ! toil+1 rov+ m9d into ,8 h&4 ,?is morn+1 h[ev]1 ,i feel z if ,i c\ld f9d no safe c5tre4 ,oh t ,i 7 ga!r$ out ( ! false re/1 & f all false dep5d5ce1 to ,god ,himself1 ! only true help]1 & lead]1 & guide6 ,h[ preci\s to recognize1 9 ! light t dawn$ ye/]day & ! day be=e1 ! same glory1 & p[]1 & beauty1 :i* 7 once my *ief joy6 ,b oh1 ,i desire n to be satisfi$ ) atta9+ aga9 to =m] exp]i5ce2 b to give all dilig5ce 9 press+ =w>d to ! m>k = ! prize1 ev5 =gett+ ?+s t are beh9d4 #aj? ,mo4 ,m]cies & favors ( :i* ,i am totally unwor?y h be5 graci\sly be/[$ ?is morn+1 &1 may ,i hope1 a small capacity grant$ to ent] into ! sanctu>y & pray4 ,?is week ,i h be5 unwat*ful1--too mu* cumb]$2 yet1 oh1 ,i hope & tru/1 at times1 my *a9s are break+1 & ?\gh ,i mu/ believe ! bitt]ness w come 9 "t1 ! gospel ( salvation is beg9n+ to be ta/$ 9 its sweetness1 complet5ess1 & joy4 #a/ ,mo4 #ahdc4 ,i desire t ! privilege ( ?is day att5d+ ! ,qu>t]ly ,meet+ at ,plym\?1 may be long held 9 grateful remembrance2 t ! language1 ,i h he>d ( ,!e by ! he>+ ( ! e>1 b n[ m9e eye see? ,!e2 :]e=e ,i abhor myself1 & rep5t 9 du/ & a%es1 may be my increas+ exp]i5ce4 ,consci\s t ! /ate ( my he>t1 long wav]+ betwe5 two op9ions1 has ( late be5 fe>fully 9 dang] ( fix+ to ! wrong "o ( ^!1 ,i w\ld ask ( ,him :o see? 9 secret1 & :o is1 ,i tru/1 at ?is v mom5t r5ew+ a measure ( ! contrition1 :i*1 amid all my desires = x1 did b gleam ^u me ?is morn+1 to d 9 me a ?or\gh "w1 to rema9 h5ce=? & ev]4 #b;d ,mo4 #ab?4 ,ab\t f\r weeks s9ce1 we _h a preci\s visit f ,b4,s41 & x has be5 a sacrifice to me to make no record ( 8 /rik+ communications2 b ,i h be5 fe>ful1 le/ 9 any measure ! weight & fre%ness ( ^! ?+s %\ld vani% 9 words2 & ,i h nev] felt at lib]ty to d s4 ,9 ?is ye>1 %e wrote b little 9 h] ,j\rnal1 & x appe>s to h be5 a "t ( spiritual prov+2 yet "o 9 :i* %e exp]i5c$ t x 0 good = h] to tru/ 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 & to /ay h]self ^u h] ,god4 #f? ,mo4 #af?1 #ahdd4 ,"o week ago 0 ! tw5ty-fir/ anniv]s>y ( my bir?day4 ,9 "s s5se1 ,i c say1-- ,! pa/ is bright1 l ^? de> hills1 ,s f> beh9d my b>k2 ,! future1 l ! ga!r+ night1 ,is om9\s & d>k4 ,"o gaze aga9--"o long1 la/ gaze2 ,*ildhood1 adieu to !e2 ,! breeze ha? hurri$ me away1 ,on a d>k1 /ormy sea4 ,deeply & m deeply1 day by day1 does my und]/&+ f9d ! deceitfulness ( my he>t4 ,well d ,i rememb] ! feel+s ( det]m9ation1 ) :i* ,i resolv$1 two ye>s s9ce1 t ?is p]iod %\ld n f9d me halt+ betwe5 two op9ions1--t ere ?is day ,i w\ld be a ,*ri/ian inde$4 ,& look+ back ^u my alt]nat+ feel+s1 ev] s9ce reason 0 m9e1 ^u ! innum]able resolutions to d good1 :i* h be5 z /aves ( re$1 ,i mu/ want common p]ception n to ass5t to ! tru?1 t ! he>t is deceitful above all ?+s1 & desp]ately wick$3 :o c "k x8 ,b1 oh1 x is n ?is only1 :i* my intellectual consci5ce is burd5$ )3 :5 ,i look at ! visitations ( div9e grace :i* h be5 my unm]it$1 unask$-=1 privilege1 ?r\gh :i* ,i c b feel t 9 days pa/1 a /&+ 0 plac$ 9 my p[] to atta91 :i*1 probably1 n[ ,i %all nev] approa*1 ! "q does pres5t ) an awful importance1 ,h[ mu* owe/ ?\ unto ?y ,"l8 ,see+ we "k n1 nor c "k1 ! value ( an (f] ( salvation1 till salvation is f9ally lo/ or won2 see+ t su* an (f] is pur*as$ only by ! %$d+ ( a ,savi\r's blood1 h[ incompreh5sibly heavy1 yet h[ true1 ! *>ge1 ,ye h crucifi$ to y\rselves ! son ( ,god afre%4 ,i "k well t ( _m n[ p>don$1 = s9s f> deep] 9 ! eyes ( m5 ?an any ,i h committ$1 x might be said t little is =giv5 !m 9 comp>ison ( ! load ( debt t hangs ov] my head2 & ,i h sometimes ?\ght1 t ! comp>ison ( debtors 0 select$ by ! ,savi\r1 purposely to %[ t guilt 9 ! sight ( ,god is *iefly incurr$ by ! neglect ( ,8 own spiritual gifts1 n 9 proportion m]ely to ! ab/ract morality ( man's conduct4 ,x is c]ta9ly :at we h receiv$ t w be requir$ at our h&s3 & oh1 9 ! sight ( ! ,judge ( all ! e>?1 h[ mu* d ,i owe unto my ,"l6 ,?is day1 ?\gh ,i 0 n 9 d>kness ab\t x1 seems almo/ to h ov]tak5 me unaw>es4 ,i 0 n ready = x1 ?\gh ,i knew s well :5 x w\ld come2 &1 oh1 = t day :i* ,i "k n h[ ne> x may be1 :5 ! acc\nt is to be f9ally made up--h[1 h[ %all ,i prep>e8 ,) all ! bless+s1 & invitations1 & helps1 :i* ! good ,god has giv5 me1 ,i am deeply1 deeply involv$4 ,h[1 !n1 c ,i dream ( cle>+ (f ^! debts1 :5 !re c be no d\bt t ,i %all daily incur m8 ,alas1 ,i am too mu* dispos$ to keep a meum & tuum ) heav5 itself 9 m s5ses ?an "o4 99 99 99 ,z to sett+ out anew on a c>te blan*e1 ,i _c4 ,!re lies ! deeply-/a9$ record aga9/ me3 ,i call$1 &1 oh1 h[ deep ! mean+1 ,ye did n answ]4 ,yes1 my he>t did3 b to answ]1 ,i g1 sir1 does b add to ! condemnation t ,i w5t n4 #f? ,mo4 #bc;d4 ,?is morn+1 ,i believe1 ! _s 01 9 measure1 will+1 ?\gh ! fle% 0 weak4 ,i h ?\ght ( ! l9es-- ,:5 fir/ ?\ did/ ?y all commit ,to ,him ^u ! m]cy-seat1 ,he gave !e w>rant f t h\r ,to tru/ 8 wisdom1 love1 & p[]4 ,my desire is to "k t my all is committ$1 & !n1 ,i d believe1 ,he w be kn[n to be fai?ful t ha? promis$4 ,! c>e ( our salvation is n ours2 our weak und]/&+s _c ev5 fa?om ! means :]eby x is effect$2 b ?is we d "k1 t x indisp5sably requires to be wr\ght out ) fe> & trembl+4 ,! ,savi\r w be ours1 only on condition ( our be+ 84 ,religion mu/ n be an acquirem5t1 b a trans=mation2 & surely t _s1 :i* c\ld n make itself1 & :i*1 :5 made by ,god1 has b degrad$ itself1 is unable to create itself anew 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus unto good works4 ,no1 fe> & trembl+ are ! only "p1 & t b negative1 :i* ! _s ( man c h 9 work+ out its own salvation2 b :5 l$ by ! good _s into ?is true fe>1 :5 giv5 to wait1 & held wait+ at ! feet ( ,jesus1 x is made able1 gradually1 to receive ! ess5tial gospel ( salvation2 & s long only is x 9 ! way ( salvation z x is s5sible ( its con/ant dep5d5ce on ! "o ,savi\r ( m54 ,may ,fri5ds1 above all1 :ile di/9ctly ma9ta9+ ! doctr9e ( ! influ5ce ( ! ,_s on ! he>t1 be deeply & p]sonally s5sible t !re is b "o ,savi\r1 ev5 ,jesus ,*ri/1 :o came into ! _w to save s9n]s1 ( :om1 z we are l$ to true rep5tance1 ,i believe ea* "o w be ready to ?9k ,i am *ief4 ,! di/+ui%+ practices ( ,fri5ds1 z to dress1 language1 etc4 are 9 no mann] valuable1 b :5 !y spr+ f ! root ( ess5tial ,*ri/ianity4 ,?is is c]ta9ly ! great ?+4 ,cleanse fir/ ! inside ( ! cup & platt]4 ,i h be5 griev$ to fe> t "s w\ld resolve ! va/ mean+ ( a religi\s life & conv]sation consi/5t ) our ,*ri/ian pr(ession into little m ?an pla9ness ( spee*1 behavior1 & app>el3 !n ,i d ?9k x becomes a m]e idol4 ,! ti! ( m9t1 anise1 & cumm9 is pref]r$ to ! weighti] matt]s ( ! law4 ,b ,i am go+ f ! po9t ( my own condition 9 ! w>m? ( my feel+s1 :i* h be5 deeply tr\bl$ at ^! ?+s ( late4 #aa? ,mo4 #ah?4 ,i believe x is "o & ! same fall5 nature :i*1 at "o "t1 is hold+ me captive to ! _w2 at ano!r1 fill+ me ) impati5ce & anxiety ab\t my spiritual progress2 at ano!r1 ) self-confid5ce1 & at ano!r1 ) despond5cy4 ,oh1 ! enemy kn[s my _m weak sides2 b ,i d hope & tru/ ! ,"l w take c>e ( me4 ,pa/1 pres5t1 future1 calmly leave to ,him :o w d all ?+s well4 ,if ! root be b kept liv+ & gr[+1 !n ,i ne$ n be anxi\s ab\t ! bran*es2 b1 above all1 ! root mu/ be ! husb&man's exclusive c>e4 #aa? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,i believe ,i s9c]ely desire t no spuri\s self-satisfaction may be mi/ak5 = ! peace ( ,god1 t no activity 9 works ( self-righte\sness may be mi/ak5 = do+ ! day's "w 9 ! day4 ,oh1 :o c tell ! sn>es t surr\nd me8 ,yet ,i h be5 com=t$ ?is morn+1 9 ?9k+ ( ! decl>ation1 ,8 m]cies are ov]-all 8 works2 :i* ,i believe may be v especially appli$ to ! "w ( ,8 ,_s 9 ! s\l ( man4 ,ov] ?is ,he does wat*1 & to ?is ,he does disp5se1 day by day1 ,8 m]ciful protection f surr\nd+ dang]s2 ,i ! ,"l d keep x1 ,i w wat] x e mom5t2 le/ any hurt x1 ,i w keep x night & day4 ,oh1 ! bless$ness ( a well-f\nd$1 wat*ful1 humble tru/ 9 ?is keep+6 #ab? ,mo4 #bg?4 ,! mean self-indulg5ce ( sleep+ late has come ov] me aga91 ?\gh ,i f\nd1 a week or two s9ce1 aft] a firm resolve1 ! difficulty vani%4 ,?is morn+ ,i _h no "t = retirem5t be=e breakfa/2 &1 %\ld circum/ances ev] become less "u my control1 ?is habit may prev5t my hav+ any morn+ oblation4 ,! weakness & s9fulness ( my he>t h be5 mak+ me almo/ tremble at ! ?\ght ( ano!r ye>3 h[ %all ,i meet its ?\s& dang]s & n fall8 ,9 religi\s communications 9 our h\se1 ,i am apt to look = any intimation t ,i c\ld appropriate ( a %ort5$ pilgrimage2 b v little ( ! sort has occurr$3 inde$1 ,i expect my selfi% wi% w n be gratifi$1 ( escap+ e>ly f ?is toilsome _w2 b h[ ra% & ungrateful are su* ?\ghts6 h[ mu* bett] all ^! ?+s are 9 my ,fa!r's h&s6 ,oh1 if ,i may be !re too 9 ! =m ( passive clay1 & receive all ,8 tutor+ & ref9+1 ?is w be en\gh3 & %\ld my future way be full ( sorr[s1 heav5 w br+ me sweet] re/ at la/2 :5 ! :ole "w is done1 :5 ! robes are q wa%$1 :5 ! fight is q f\ght1 & ! dea? di$2 :5 ! et]nal life1 :i* %all blossom above1 is br\ght into actual heal? "h1 & real fell[%ip is made ) my la/ h\r4 #a/ ,mo4 #aj?1 #ahde4 ,i am incl9$ to set d[n ! ev5ts ( my little _w = ! pa/ week2 t 9 days to come1 %\ld x prove t ,i h be5 foll[+ cunn+ly devis$ fables1 ,i may bew>e ( su* entanglem5ts aga92 & t if !y be f\nd a guidance f above1 _! contemptibl5ess & seem+ folly may be %[n to be 9 wisdom4 ,i h1 f my *ildhood1 delight$ 9 poetry3 if lonely1 x 0 my companion2 if sad1 my com=t2 if glad1 x gave a voice to my joy4 ,( late1 ,i h enjoy$ writ+ pieces ( a religi\s nature1 ?\gh ,i mu/ confess ! excitem5t1 ! possession :i* ! act ( composition made ( my m9d1 did n always favor ! exp]i5ce ( :at ,i s\ght to express4 ,two pieces ( ?is k9d ,i ask$ my fa!r to s5d to ! ,fri5d3 he lik$ !m1 b propos$ my add+ some?+ to "o4 ,i _h _h a sweet little season by myself j be=e3 !n1 slid+ f feel+ to composition1 ,i ?\ght ( x all ! re/ ( ! ev5+1 & :5 ,i w5t to b$1 /ay$ "s "t writ+ f\r l9es = ! conclusion2 aft] ,i 0 9 b$1 my he>t 0 full ( x1 & ,i compos$ f\r l9es m to prec$e !m1 ) :i* ,i fell asleep4 ,9 ! morn+ ,i resolv$ n to ?9k ( !m till ,i _h _h my sil5t devotions2 !y came ^u me :ile ,i 0 dress+1 &1 hav+ =gott5 "o l9e1 ,i /ay$ long mak+ a sub/itute3 !n ,i retir$ to read1 &1 if possible1 to pray1 b x 0 n possible 9 t condition3 ,i did b sit squ>+ & poli%+ my l9es2 & hav+ f9i%$ !m to my he>t's cont5t1 ,i gave !m to my fa!r ab\t ! middle ( ! day1 consci\s1 ,i c\ld n b be1 t !y _h pass$ z a cl\d betwe5 ! m5tal eye ( fai? & ?+s unse54 ,e "t !y pass$ ?r\gh my m9d1 !y seem$ to s\nd my condemnation4 ,my ev5+ retirem5t 0 d>k & sad2 ,i felt z if any ?+ b ?is ,i c\ld give up = my ,savi\r's love2 all ?+s are lawful1 b all ?+s are n exp$i5t2 & yet ! ta/e & ! p[] 7 giv5 me1 ) all ?+s else1 by ,god4 ,i _h us$ !m too 9 a "r cause1 b !n ! tal5t ( grace is f> bett]4 ,:i* %\ld be sacrific$8 ,:y sacrifice ei!r8 ,i c\ld n d5y t x seem$ impossible to keep bo?4 ,b x might be made useful1 if well employ$4 ,to obey is bett] ?an sacrifice4 ,n[ !y are writt51 !y might j z well be pr9t$2 b ! pr9t+ w probably be ! mo/ haz>d\s "p4 ,i %all be sure to write m1 & n\ri% vanity3 or else ! sight ( !m w cause remorse r ?an pleasure4 ,if ,i %\ld lose my s\l ?r\gh poetry8 ,= ! life ( self seems b\nd up 9 x2 & :osoev] love? 8 life %all lose x4 ,b p]haps x w\ld be a ne$less piece ( au/]ity2 x w\ld be a great /ruggle2 x w\ld be l b9d+ myself = ! future1 n to enjoy my treasur$ pleasure4 ,! sacrifice :i* is acceptable w always co/ some?+4 ,s ,i prevail$ ^u myself to write a note1 & lay x be=e my fa!r1 ask+ him n to s5d !m1 trembl+ le/ he %\ld dislike my *angeabl5ess1 or ,i %\ld *ange aga9 & rep5t x4 ,my fa!r said no?+1 b gave me back ! l9es :5 we 7 all toge!r1 :i* 0 a m\nta9 got ov]4 ,i ?\ght to h _h m peace aft]2 b till ?is ,fir/-day ,i h be5 v desolate1 ?\gh1 ,i believe1 daily desir+ to seek my ,god above all2 & ?9k+1 sometimes1 t t = :i* ,i _h made a sacrifice became !reby de>]4 ,aft] ?is /rik+ & in/ructive acc\nt1 :i* %[s h[ zeal\sly %e endeavor$ to gu>d aga9/ any too absorb+ influ5ce1 h[ev] good & all[able 9 itself ! ?+ might be1 x seems n amiss to rem>k t ,eliza's ta/e = poetry 0 ke5 & discrim9at+2 & t h] love ( ext]nal nature1 & m especially h] deep] & holi] feel+s1 f\nd appropriate expression 9 v]se4 ,if "s ( ^! effusions %[ a want ( c>eful f9i%1 x mu/ be rememb]$ t !y 7 n writt5 = publication1 b = ! sake ( embody+ ! feel+ ( ! occasion1 9 t =m :i* naturally pres5t$ itself4 ,! pieces allud$ to 9 ! =ego+ extracts are ! foll[+3-- ,,:at ,i ,,d ,,?\ ,,kn[e/ ,,n ,,n[4 ,ha/ ?\ long ?y ,"l's abid+ ,va9ly s\ght 'mid %ad[s dim8 ,lo6 ,8 purpose wisely hid+1 ,!e ,he seeks to wor%ip him4 ,%ades ( night1 ?y /ra9'd eye scorn+1 ,h !y2 long enwrapp'd ! skies8 ,he1 ^: ^w comm&s ! morn+1 ,soon %all bid ! day-spr+ rise6 ,are t5 ?\s& fe>s desir+ ,to engulf _! helpless prey8 ,"o fa9t hope1 8 grace inspir+1 ,is a mighti] ?+ ?an !y4 ,has ! foe 8 d>k dom9ion1 ,z ^u ?y ,savi\r1 tri$8-- ,z to ,him ) ha/5+ p9ion1 ,lo6 ! angels at ?y side4 ,is ?y _s all unfeel+1 ,save to s9 t grieves !e !re8 ,!e ,he'll make1 8 face reveal+1 ,joyful 9 ,8 h\se ( pray]6 ,ha/ ?\ se5 ?y build+ falt] ,c ?y ,god ?y griefs despise8 ',mid ! ru9s d>k1 an alt> ,fa%ion'd by ,8 h&s1 %all rise4 ,!e1 to "s lone m\nta9 s5d+1 ,only ) ! wood suppli$2 ,he1 ?y ,god1 ?y wor%ip t5d+1 ,w ,himself a lamb provide4 ,has ,he made x va9 ?y toil+ ,f9e-spun raim5t to prep>e8 ',twas to give--?y labors spoil+-- ,bett] robes ?an mon>*s we>4 ,f ?y b>n & /oreh\se treasure ,did ,he take ?y ho>d$ pelf8 ,yes3 to fe$ !e 0 ,8 pleasure1 ,l ! w+$ f[ls--,himself4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,:at ,,pr(it ,,ha? ,a ,,man ,,( ,,all ,,8 ,,labor ,,t ,,he ,,take? ,,"u ,,! ,,sun8 ,mu/ we =ev] tra9 ! v9ey>d spr\t+s1 ,& pl\gh 9 hope ( h>ve/s yet to come1 ,nor ev] jo9 ! gladsome v9tage %\t+s1 ,& s+ ! happy song ( h>ve/-home8 ,mu/ we =ev] ! r\gh /ones be heap+1 ,& build+ temple walls = ev]more8 ,comes !re no bless$ day = ,sabba?-keep+1 ,no "t )9 ! temple to adore8 ,9 fai?'s long conte/ h life's qu5*less f\nta9s ,bade calm defiance to ! ho/ile sword8 ,b :51 all beautiful ^u ! m\nta9s1 ,%all come ! h]ald ( our peace re/or$8 ,mu/ we =ev] urge ! bra9 ) le>n+1 ,& add to moral1 intellectual woes8 ,nor hold 9 peace ! spoils we h be5 e>n+1 ,& f9d 9 wisdom's self ! m9d's repose8 ,long h we wat*'d1 & ris5 late & e>ly1 ,ris+ to toil1 & wat*+ b to weep2 ,:5 w ! bless+ come l dewdrops pe>ly1 ,on heav5's belov$ ones ev5 :ile !y sleep8 ,s9ce life began1 our life has be5 beg9n+1 ,t ev]-nasc5t future's trea*]\s v[2 ,:5 %all we f9d1 ! we>y conte/ w9n+ ,a pres5t treasure1 an endur+ n[8 ,t5 ?\s& nameless e>?ly aims pursu+1 ,hope we 9 va9 ! recomp5se to see1 ,& mu/ our total life expire 9 do+1 ,& nev] f9d u leisure "t to be8 ,has n our life a g]m ( real p]fection1 ,z holds ! t9y se$ ! =e/'s pride8 ,& %all its ask'd & promis$ resurrection ,9 dreams ( disappo9t$ hope subside8 ,yes1 all is hopeless1 man ) va9 endeavor1 ,may climb e>?'s rugg$ heights1 b climb to fall2 ,ev] p]fect+1 yet imp]fect ev]1 ,e>? has no re/ = man--if e>? be all4 ,yet (t !re dwell1 9 temples frail & mortal1 ,s\ls t p>take immortal life ! :ile2 ,nor wait till dea? unb> heav5's pe>ly portal1 ,= heav5's own ess5ce1 _! ,r$eem]'s smile4 --#ab? ,mon?1 #ahdd4 99 99 99 99 99 ,f ! ,j\rnal relat+ to daily affairs1 at ?is "t1 kept di/9ct f h] spiritual di>y1 ! foll[+1 & a few o!r extracts1 h be5 tak54 ,nev] suspect+ t ?is w\ld see ! light1 %e left x 9 an unf9i%$ /ate4 ,_h x be5 reconsid]$1 portions ( x w\ld probably h be5 alt]$2 b x suffici5tly %[s h] desire to und]/& ! ag5cies ( intellectual action1 & ! philosophy ( kn[+ & acquir+4 ,%e recognizes ! importance ( sy/ematic k1 que/ions ! purpose & use ( e atta9m5t1 & manife/s ?r\gh\t a desire t all ! op]ations ( ! intellig5ce may subs]ve a nobl] aim ?an k 9 itself possesses3-- #e? ,mo4 #af?4 ,t life is a real1 e>ne/ ?+1 & to be employ$ = our own & o!rs' real & e>ne/ good1 is a fact :i* ,i desire may be m deeply engrav5 on my he>t4 ,x is c]ta9ly a matt] ( spiritual duty1 to look well to ! outw>d /ate ( our own h\se4 ,!re are already _m revolutions 9 my m5tal hi/ory1 pass$ beyond ! rea* ( any ?+ b regrets4 ,z a *ild1 play 0 n my *ief pleasure1 b a sort ( m+l$ play & con/ructiv5ess2 !n read+ & le>n+2 ,i well rememb] ! com+ on ( ! desire to "k4 ,9 a tale1 false or true1 ,i _h by no means1 ! common %>e ( pleasure--,smi?'s ,key to ,read+ 0 m to my ta/e4 ,poetry ,i h ev] lov$4 ,hi/ory ,i am v dull at2 a *a9 ( ev5ts is f> m difficult to foll[1 ?an a *a9 ( ideas--causality comes m to my aid ?an ev5tuality4 ,well1 ! age ( le>n+ came3 9 x ,i le>n$ ?is1 t1 & ! o!r2 b1 alas6 ord]1 ! faculty 9 :i* ,i am s defici5t1 0 want+1 ,i _h n an appo9t$ place = ea* fact or idea3 s !y 7 lo/ z !y fell into ! confus$ mass4 ,i am full ( dim appreh5sions on almo/ all subjects1 b "k little ( any4 ,h[ev]1 x may be t ?is favors new comb9ations ( ?+s4 ,i w\ld r h all my ideas 9 a mass1 ?an h !m 9 sep>ate lock$ boxes1 :]e !y mu/ ea* rema9 isolat$2 b x 7 bett] !y 7 on op5 %elves1 & t ,i _h p[] to take !m d[n1 & comb9e at w4 ,! age ( comb9+ has come2 ,i feel s5sibly ! dim9ution ( ! p[] ( acquir+3 ,i c d little 9 t1 b lam5t t ,i h acquir$ s little2 b ,i seem rebuk$ 9 myself at ! incessant wi% to ga9--ga9 = :at8 ,i mu/ d some?+ ) :at1 ,i ga92 =1 z ,i said be=e1 ,i h n[h]e to put x away4 ,i love languages1--above all1 ! expressive ,g]man2 b ,i "k too little to make x expressive = myself4 ,b my own "m-tongue1 ?\gh my tongue is s defici5t to use !e1 can/ ?\ af=d no o!r outlet to ! /ruggl+ ideas t are )92 may ,i n write8 ,i did write poetry sometimes3 is x presumptu\s to call x poetry8 ,x 0 c]ta9ly ! poetry ( my he>t2 ! pieces entitl$ ,! ,compla9t1 & ,:at pr(it ha? a man1 etc4 7 c]ta9ly poetry to me4 ,b ! fate ( my poetry is writt5 be=e4 ,p]haps x 0 a gr\ndless fe>2 b /ill x has giv5 x ! dea?-bl[4 ,b may ,i write prose8 ,i w tell t by-&-by4 ,?is has br\ght d[n my hi/ory 9 ?is respect till n[3-- ,! con/ructive play+ age1 ,! le>n+ age1 ,! comb9+ age1 ,s f> ! intellect4 99 99 99 ,i am consci5ti\s naturally1 r ?an adhesive or b5evol5t4 ,?is natural consci5ti\sness1 indep5d5t ( spirituals1 has be5 l a goad 9 my side all my life1 & its dem&s1 ,i ?9k1 height54 ,x is evid5tly indep5d5t ( religion1 because x is indep5d5t ( ! love ( ,god & ( man4 ,= in/ance1 ,i =m to myself an idea ( my reasonable am\nt ( s]vice 9 visit+ ! poor4 ,h ,i fall5 %ort ( ?is am\nt1 ,i am uneasy1 & feel myself burd5$2 ! ?+ is be=e me1 ,i mu/ d x3 :y8 ,because ,i feel ! love ( ,god con/ra9+ me8 ,sometimes f> o!rwise4 ,because ,i feel b5evol5ce t[>ds ! poor8 ,no2 = ! ?+ itself is a task2 b because x is my duty2 because ,i w\ld ju/ify myself2 because ,i w\ld light5 my consci5ce4 ,i h call$ ?is feel+ indep5d5t ( religion2 b p]haps x is mo/ int5se :5 religion is fa9te/4 ,?is latt] supplies1 evid5tly1 ! only true motive = b5evol5t actions4 ,!n !y are a pleasure3 !n ! div]g5ce ( ! impulse ( duty f ! impulse ( incl9ation is done away2 & ,i believe ! love ( ,god is ! only ?+1 :i*1 ?us r$eem+ ^? t 7 "u ! law1 c place !m "u ! law ( ,*ri/4 ,?\gh x is little ,i c d = ! poor1 ,i ought to feel x bo? a duty & a pleasure to devote "s "t to !m mo/ days4 ,to see ! ag$1 ^: pov]ty we h witness$1 ^: decl9+ days we h tri$ to soo!1 safely ga!r$ home1 is a com=t & pleasure ,i w\ld n =ego2 &1 ?\gh ! real b5efit we r5d] to !m mu/ dep5d on our own spiritual /ate1 _! cottages h (t5 be5 to me places ( deep in/ruction4 ,! useful desire to le>n1 may be c>ri$ too f>2 we may sacrifice ! duties we owe to ea* o!r1 by an eag]ness ( ?is k9d2 nor1 ,i believe1 c we1 )\t culpable neglig5ce1 adh]e t5aci\sly to any plan ( /udy4 ,! moral self-tra9+ :i* is ex]cis$ by giv+ up a book1 to conv]se ) or help ano!r1 is ( m value ?an ! k :i* c\ld h be5 acquir$ f x4 ,inde$1 ,i am conv9c$ we are (t5 9 error ab\t int]ruptions4 ,we h be5 int]rupt$2 9 :at8--9 ! fulfilm5t ( our duty8 ,t _c be2 b 9 ! prosecution ( our favorite plan4 ,if ! int]ruption 0 beyond our control1 x alt]$ our duty1 b c\ld n int]rupt x4 ,duty is ! "r c\rse at a giv5 "t1 & "u giv5 circum/ances4 ,a subject1 :i* has ( late be5 v int]e/+ to me1 is t ( ! ,jews4 ,i am conv9c$ t mu*1 v mu*1 is to be done = !m by ,*ri/ians1 & = ,*ri/ians by !m2 b ,i ?9k ! int]e/ excit$ 9 _! behalf1 9 ! _w at l>ge1 is1 9 _m cases1 n accord+ to k4 ,an hi/orical view ( _! po9ts ( contact ) ! pr(ess+ ,*ri/ian _w1 has long be5 on my m9d2 & ,i ?9k x ne$s to be drawn by an indep5d5t h&1--9 %ort1 by a ,fri5d4 ,t ,he t scatt]$ ,israel w ga!r him1 & fe$ him z a %eph]d do? 8 flock1 is confess$ n[ on all sides4 ,! :51 ! :]e1 & ! h[1 are v>i\sly view$4 ,b :at w ,he ga!r !m to8 is a "q n en\gh ?\ght (4 ,"o wi%es !m to be ga!r$ to ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ano!r to ! ,*ur* ( ,scotl&2 b ,i am p]suad$ _! ga!r+ mu/ be to ! primitive ,*ri/ian fai?4 ,i say n to ,fri5ds2 al?\gh ,i hold ! pr9ciples ( ,fri5ds to be ! pr9ciples ( primitive ,*ri/ianity4 ,= ,i d ?9k a va/ di/9ction is to be made betwe5 ! pr9ciples ( tru? pr(ess$ by ,fri5ds1 & ! p>ticul> l9e ( action1 z a body1 into :i* !y h be5 l$1 7,i d\bt n by ! tru?17 "u ! circum/ances 9 :i* !y 7 plac$4 ,my belief is1 t ! ,jews are to be ga!r$ to none b a ,*ur* built on ! f\ndation ( ! apo/les & prophets1 ( :i* ,jesus ,*ri/ himself is ! *ief corn]-/one2 & t to su* a ,*ur* !y are to be ga!r$ imm$iately & in/rum5tally1 by ! ,_s ( ,god himself4 ,a view ( ! mann] 9 :i* !y h be5 reg>d$ & treat$ by pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians f ! ,*ri/ian era to ! pres5t "t1 & ( _! own feel+s t[>ds ,*ri/ians & ,*ri/ianity1 if well drawn1 w\ld be valuable & useful4 ,?is int]e/ 9 ! ,jews l$ ,eliza to devote mu*1 labor1 dur+ sev]al ye>s1 9 collect+ in=mation relat+ to _! hi/ory s9ce ! ,*ri/ian era4 ,_h h] life be5 sp>$1 %e w\ld probably h made "s def9$ use ( ! l>ge mass ( mat]ial collect$1 :i*1 :il/ valuable z an evid5ce ( deep rese>*1 is n suffici5tly dige/$ to be g5]ally useful4 #g? ,mo4 #c;d4 ,?is ev5+ ,i h f9i%$ copy+ ! =ego+ scraps1 previ\sly on %eets1 into ?is book1 t !y may yet speak to me1 9 days to come1 ( ,8 manifold m]cies1 ^: c&le has (ttimes %one r\nd ab\t me1 & ^: favor has made me glad4 #g? ,mo4 #e?4 ,i desire gratefully to ackn[l$ge ! privilege ( :i* we h ?is week p>tak51 9 ! occurr5ce ( our ,qu>t]ly ,meet+1 & a mo/ sweet visit f ----2 full ( love is ---- to 8 ,ma/]1 & full ( love to ! bre?r51 & ev5 to ! little si/]s 9 ,*ri/4 ,mo/ k9dly & t5d]ly he & 8 wife advis$ u1 & myself1 :5 we happ5$ to be alone1 to wait & wat* at ! feet ( ,jesus1 f :om ! message w come 9 due "t1 ,! ,ma/] calle? = !e4 ,manifold has be5 ! expression ( sympa?y = u all ?is week1 9 ! prospect ( p>t+ ) our de> fa!r on ! ,indiana committee1 9 ab\t five weeks1 & ! com=t+ expectation express$ t 8 abs5ce w be a "t ( sweet refre%+ f ! pres5ce ( ! ,"l4 ,oh1 we h mu* to be ?ankful = 9 ! grace t has be5 be/[$4 #g? ,mo4 #i?4 ,i h be5 mu* bless$ ! la/ few days2 n ) high enjoym5ts1 b ) a calm s5se ( dep5d5ce & tru/ on my ,savi\r1 & assi/ance 9 wat*+ ov] my own he>t4 ,?is morn+ ,i h be5 tri$ ) want ( settlem5t & p[] to get to ! ?rone ( grace2 b fai? mu/ le>n to tru/ ?r\gh all *anges 9 ! un*angeable tru? & love ( ,jesus4 ,i am s5sible t ?is has be5 a "t ( mu* r5ew$ m]cy to my s\l2 & oh t if1 z ---- told me1 ! ,"l has _m ?+s to say unto me1 b ,i _c be> !m n[1 ,i may b be kept 9 ! "r prep>ation1 bo? = he>+ & obey+6 #g? ,mo4 #bg?4 ,i am sometimes a/oni%$ at ! condesc5d+ k9dness ( my ,savi\r1 t he %\ld s g5tly & m]cifully heal my backslid+s & love me freely4 ,i ?9k my *ief desire is to be pres]v$ alive 9 ! tru?1 & gr[+ 9 ! tru?2 b sometimes1 ?r\gh unwat*fulness1 su* a )]+ comes ^u me1 ,i lose all s5se ( good = days toge!r1 & ?is ne!r _w is all ,i seek pleasure 94 ,!n !re is b a cold1 *e]less1 condemn+ feel+1 :5 ,i look t[>ds my ,fa!r's h\se2 b :5 all life seems gone1 & ,i am ready to conclude t ,i h suff]$ s _m ?+s 9 va91 h[ (t5 does ! g5tle /irr+ ( life br+ my s\l into contrition1 into /illness6 & ,he1 :o upbraide? n ! return+ s9n]1 reveals himself z ! repair] ( ! brea*1 ! re/or] ( pa?s to dwell 94 ,! foll[+ l9es describe h] feel+s at su* a "t z ?is3-- ,!n disconsolate ,i w&]'d1 ,:]e my pa? 0 lone & dim1 ,till ,i ?\ght t ,i 0 sund]'d ,ev]more f heav5 & ,him4 ,!n x 0 my ,%eph]d f\nd me1 ,ev5 z ,he _h ( old1 ,?rew ,8 arms ( m]cy r\nd me1 ,plac$ me g5tly 9 ,8 fold4 #g? ,mo4 #bi?4 ,! expression1 ,i ?9k1 ( ,william ,p5n1 ,let ! holy wat* ( ,jesus be ^u y\r _s1 is a fitt+ wat*word = me4 #g? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,oh1 ?is mu/ be ! wat*word /ill4 #h? ,mo4 #aj?4 ,fir/-day morn+4 ,i 0 help$ to ca/ away "s ( ! weight ( worldly ?\ghts la/ ev5+1 & f]v5tly to desire aft] ! ,"l4 ,x is a bless+ to h 8 manife/$ pres5ce & love ) u2 b ?is is n at all times ! ne$ful or ! be/ ?+ = u4 ,to h ! he>t "r ) ,god1 to commit my all to him1 to live 9 ! v _s :i* brea!s1 ,?y w be done1 9 & ?r\gh me1--oh1 ?is is to be alive 9 ,*ri/2 ?is is inde$ ! "w ( ! _s2 ?is is to lose my life1 t ,i may keep x unto life et]nal4 ,at ! ,ye>ly ,meet+ ( #ahde occurr$ ! appo9tm5t previ\sly allud$ to1 "u :i* ,john ,all5 became a memb] ( ! committee :i* visit$ ,indiana ,ye>ly ,meet+4 ,z communication betwe5 ,great ,brita9 & ,am]ica 0 n s easy & frequ5t 9 ^? days z at pres5t1 bo? he & 8 family v /rongly felt ! prospect ( sep>ation4 ,9 allusion to ! appo9tm5t1 ,eliza writes1 ,my fa!r all[$ ! bus9ess ( ! ,ye>ly ,meet+ to proce$1 b at l5g? said t he felt too mu* ov]:elm$ to speak soon]1--t ! subject t\*$ 8 t5d]e/ feel+s1 & t he felt v unfit = su* an engagem5t1 b t ! s5se :i* _h be5 & 01 :ile he 0 speak+1 pres5t ) him1 ( t goodness & m]cy :i* _h foll[$ him all 8 life long & bless$ him1 0 su* t he d>$ n refuse to d any little (fices 9 8 p[] = ^? de> fri5ds ) :om he %\ld be associat$4 ,%e !n gives an acc\nt ( ! receipt at home ( ! unexpect$ intellig5ce ( ?is long j\rney1 & ( ! calmness :i* ev5tually foll[$ ! %ock to ! feel+s :i* x occasion$4 ,aft] he _h set out1 %e wrote an int]e/+ acc\nt1 too long to be giv5 at full l5g?1 ( :at _h pass$ 9 ! int]v5+ "t1--! hopes & fe>s1 ! prep>ations1 h] fa!r's p>t+ ) 8 fri5ds & _! words ( enc\ragem5t to him1 ) 8 own c\nsel & exhortations to 8 *ildr54 ,a few words ( 8 la/ address to !m may n be out ( place3--,i e>ne/ly desire = u all t :5 we %all meet aga9 we may all h made "s progress 9 ! heav5w>d j\rney & be enabl$ to rejoice toge!r 9 ! s5se ( x4 ,= y1 my de> "y p1 especially1 ,i e>ne/ly desire t y may be pref]r+ ! be/ ?+s1 n sett+ y\r affections on trifl+ objects1 b valu+ an inh]itance 9 ! tru? above all ^? ?+s t p]i% ) ! us+4 99 99 99 ,be will+ to be ! ,"l's on 8 own t]ms1 & prize above all ?+s ! s5se t y are 82 & y w be 81 if y are will+ to walk 9 ! n>r[ way--! way ( self-d5ial4 ,x does n p]ta9 to ?is volume to give any fur!r acc\nt ( ?is j\rney or ( ! mission 9 :i* he 0 engag$4 ,! visit ( ! deputation is probably fre% 9 ! remembrance ( _m ,fri5ds 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 #h? ,mo4 #bd?4 ,! great p>t+ is ov]3 ! love & m]cy ( our heav5ly ,fa!r su/a9$ my de>e/ fa!r & "m beyond expectation4 ,on ?is occasion1 :5 ,i h be5 help$ back f a sad1 lone w&]+ on b>r5 m\nta9s1 ,i may le>n1 m deeply ?an ev] be=e1 ! safety1 ! sweetness1 ( dwell+ 9 ! valley ( humiliation4 ,oh1 let me dwell !re long & l[ en\gh4 ,i ask n high enjoym5ts nor raptur\s delights2 b ,i ask1 ,i pray1 :5 ,i c pray at all1 = quiet1 wat*ful1 tru/ful dep5d5ce ^u my ,savi\r4 #h? ,mo4 #bg?4 ,we h _h a ride 9 ! c\ntry ?is aft]noon1 & dur+ a solit>y walk ( a mile & a half ,i _h v sweet feel+s4 ,jesus seem$ s ne> to me & s k9d t ,i c\ld h>dly b accept ( him4 ,b !n !re seem$ "s d>k misgiv+s at ! same "t2 z if ,i _h an acc\nt to settle up fir/1--some?+ ,i mu/ d myself2 ! free full grace seem$ too easy & gratis to accept (4 ,b all ?is ,i f\nd 0 a mi/ake4 ,i ?\ght ( ! l9es-- ,he gives our s9s a full dis*>ge2 ,he cr[ns & saves u too1 & ( a rem>k ,i _h se5 some:]e1 ,look at ,calv>y1 & wilt ?\ say t ?y s9s are easily pass$ by8 ,?is ev5+ 9 my &a*tzimm]1#a ,i wi%$ to pray 9 _s2 b n a petition arose t ,i c\ld (f]4 ,i felt s bl9d1 & yet s peaceful1 t all m]g$ into ! confid+ language1 ,fa!r1 ,?y w be done6 ,footnote #a3 ,devotional retirem5t4 #i? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,on ,fir/-day1 ! tw5ty-fir/1 ,i _h a great /ruggle on ! old poetry-writ+ "q4 ,i _h writt5 none s9ce ! great fight la/ w9t]2 b n[ to my de>e/ fa!r ,i v5tur$ to write1 ?9k+ ,i _h got ov] ! dang] ( x4 ,b :5 all 0 writt51 ,i 0 =c$ to submit to ! mortification ( n s5d+ x4 ,! relief ,i felt 0 indescribable1 & ,i hope to get ?us entoil$ no m4 ,my scruple is n aga9/ poetry1 b ,i _c write x )\t gett+ ov]-possess$ by x4 ,!re=e x is no m ?an a reasonable peace-(f]+ to d5y myself ( x4 99 99 99 ,& n[1 ,"l1 :at wait ,i =8 ,enable me to say1 ,my hope is 9 !e4 ,x seems z if ! pa? w\ld be a n>r[ "o2 b1 oh1 make ?y way /raight be=e my face2 &1 hav+ enabl$ me1 ,i tru/1 to give "s ?+s to ! moles & to ! bats1 leave me n till ,i h le>n$ to c\nt all ?+s b loss1 = ! excell5cy ( ,*ri/ ,jesus my ,"l4 ,! foll[+ is ! unf9i%$ piece j allud$ to3-- ,,to ,,h] ,,fa!r ,,9 ,,am]ica4 ,& ?us x 01 z drew ! mom5ts ne>] ,t /amp'd _! record deep oil e he>t2 ,z day by day ?y pres5ce grew yet de>]1 ,by h[ mu* soon] ?\ %\ld/ h5ce dep>t4 ,love wept inde$1 ?\gh %e might seem a sleep]1 ,long ere desc5d+ te>s ! signs betray'd2 ,& ! he>t's f\nta9 0 b s mu* deep]1 ,! long] 0 its ov]fl[ delay'd4 ,! page my unapt he>t has le>n'd s newly ,9 ! d>k lessons :i* afflictions tea*-- ,oh1 x 7 va9 to try to utt] truly ,9 ! cold language ( unapt] spee*4 ,t he>ts :5 ?us _! v dep?s are burn+ ,alone %\ld "k _! bitt]ness1 is well2 ,b1 oh1 my he>t m joys ?an a*es 9 le>n+ ,ano!r lesson1 w\ld t words c\ld tell4 ,new dep?s ( love 9 measure unsuspect$1 ,ties clos] ?an ,i knew1 7 r\nd my he>t2 ,& half ,i ?ank ! wr5* t has detect$ ,h[ ?or\ghly & deeply de> ?\ art4 ,& 'twas to tell !e ?is t ,i h tak5 ,! tuneless lyre ,i ?\ght to use no m1 ,yet once at ?y return+ may x wak51 ,!n sleep =ev]1 sil5t z be=e4 ,& n m n>r[ ?an ! dome ( e!r ,beams heav5's unb\nd$1 e>?-embrac+ scroll2 ,!n be x ?9e & ours to read toge!r ,( ,him :o loves n less ?an rules ! :ole4 ,& n m sl[ ?an 0 ! b>k t bore !e ,to an untri$ & dimly-di/ant l&-- ,our he>ts' affections ?i!r flew be=e !e1 ,& n[ are ready wait+ on ! /r&4 --#h? ,mon?1 #ahde4 #aj? ,mo4 #a/4 ,mu* /ruck ) ! suitability ( ! expression1 "u ! yoke1 truly subjugat$4 n m]ely (f]+ ?is or t1 b be+ (f]$ a liv+ sacrifice4 ,oh = a ?or\gh "w l ?is6 ,?is is :5 ! yoke ,is easy & ! burd5 light4 ,i "k almo/ no?+ ( x by exp]i5ce1 b ?9k x is n[ ne>] ?an :5 ,i fir/ believ$4 ,= a day or two ,i h be5 giv5 to desire x e>ne/ly4 #aj? ,mo4 #ab?4 ,ev5+4 ,_m ?\ghts ab\t fai? 9 ,*ri/4 ,b oh = ! reality1 ! liv+ ess5ce ( x6 ,we c be ,*ri/ians1 n because we believe t ! blood ( ,*ri/ cleanses f s91 b because we "k ! blood ( ,*ri/ to cleanse u f s94 ,ab\t ?is date1 9 ! di>y ( daily affairs1 is ! foll[+3-- ,a conviction has come ^u me t1 9 all respects1 n[ is ! "t to re=m1 if ev]1 ! c\rse ,i am n[ pursu+4 ,religion1 ! ma9 ?+1 may x ev] m be ! ma9 object2 & !n1 z to moral1 social1 & o!r duty1 oh1 be my :ole c\rse re=m$4 444 ,f ?is "t =? may ,i nightly ask myself ^! five que/ions4 #a4 ,has my employm5t & economy ( "t be5 "r8 #b4 ,has my aim be5 duty--n pleasure8 #c4 ,h ,i be5 quiet & submissive8 #d4 ,h ,i look$ on ! ?+s ( o!rs z my own8 #e4 ,h prop5sities or s5tim5ts rul$8 ,i wi% to give an answ]1 daily1 to ea*2 & n[ say = ye/]day4 #a4 ,"s wa/$ "t be=e d9n]4 #b4 ,pretty cle>1 #c4 ,no temptation4 #d4 ,pretty well4 #e4 ,pretty well except at meals4 ,9 ?is concise & simple mann] are ^! que/ions answ]$1 almo/ daily1 ?r\gh\t ! ye>1 until1 f9d+ t daily records ( employm5t are ( little use1 & t ! intellectual & spiritual c\ld n well be long] sep>at$1 %e discont9u$ ! practice1 & record$ 9 ! same book any ?+ 9 ei!r l9e t seem$ fit to res]ve f oblivion4 ,allud+ to a religi\s magaz9e1 %e writes3-- ,x is always pull+ d[n error--seldom build+ up tru?4 ,surely ,anti*ri/ comes to oppose ,*ri/1 n ,*ri/ to oppose ,anti*ri/4 ,is !re1 !n1 no positive ,*ri/ian duty8 ,are we nev] to re/ 9 pr9ciples & practices ( actual fai? & love8 or are we to be always on ! (f5sive & negative side1 /igmatiz+ all :o act contr>y to our belief ( ! tru? z do]s ( ! "w ( ,anti*ri/8 ,anti*ri/1 ,i fe>1 c>es little = or?odox doctr9es1 b fights aga9/ ! ,*ri/ian _s4 #i? ,mo4 #ac?4 ,conflict+ ?\ghts aga94 ,i long t !re may be no build+ on any s&y f\ndation4 ,b oh1 ! fitness t appe>$ to me ?is ev5+ 9 ! bless$ ,savi\r to supply all my ne$4 ,! "o sacrifice ,he has be51 & ! "o m$iator & way to ,god ,he ev] is1--,8 own _s ! "o lead]1 tea*]1 & sanctifi]2 :]eby ,he consummates 9 ! he>t ! bless$ "w ( br++ all into subjection to ! ob$i5ce ( ,*ri/4 ,oh = a p]sonal exp]i5ce1 a real p>ticipation 9 all ?is1 a k t ,he is my own & t ,i am ,84 #af?4 ,some:at puzzl$ at myself4 ,?is has n be5 a spiritually prosp]\s day--pass$ j to my ta/e1 mu* 9 read+1 b n mu*1 ,i fe>1 ) ! ,"l4 ,yet ,i h _h v lov+ ?\ghts ( ,*ri/ ?is ev5+1 & 0 ready to call ,him my own de> ,savi\r1 ?\gh ,i tru/ on no o!r t]ms ?an ,8 t]ms1 namely1 t ,i %\ld be :olly ,84 ,"s misgiv+s are come up t ,i am tempt$ to ?9k ,him m9e :5 ,i am n 9 a /ate to be ,82 "s fe>s le/ ,satan has put on ! w9n+ smiles ( an angel ( light2 & yet :]e c ,i g b to ,!e1 ,savi\r ( s9n]s8 ,?\ ha/ ! words ( life & salvation2 suff] me n to be delud$1 b at all haz>ds let me be ,?9e4 ,?\ :o breake/ n ! bruis$ re$1 oh1 br+ =? 9 me judgm5t unto tru?1 & let me wait = ! law ( life & peace f ,!e4 #i? ,mo4 #ah?4 ,rode to ,lodge to get f]ns4 ,enjoy$ ?\ghts ( ! beauty ( nature1 imp]fect z x is1 because "o k9d ( beauty necess>ily excludes ano!r4 ,:at1 !n1 mu/ be ! ess5ce ( t glory 9 :i* all p]fection is beauty unit$8 ,?us ^! ?+s mu/ be describ$ to mortal compreh5sion "u contradictory images2 su* z pure gold1 l unto transp>5t glass1 c4 #i? ,mo4 #ai?4 ,i ?9k h>m is done by consid]+ a society su* z ,fri5ds1 a section ( ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur*1 z societies are s (t5 call$4 ,x c be true only by consid]+ ! ,*ri/ian ,*ur* to mean pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians2 b surely its true mean+ is ! *ildr5 ( ,god any:]e4 ,( ?is body1 !re are no sections to be made by man1 or x w\ld foll[ t to unite oneself to ei!r section1 is to be unit$ to ! body1 :i* _c be4 #aj? ,mo4 #a/4 ,i fe> ,i h s long be5 *ildi% & ?\ghtless1 t ,i %all h>dly ev] be *ildlike & ?\ghtful4 ,oh = a little m c>e )\t c>efulness6 #aj? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,mu* /ruck ) ,krumma*]'s doctr9e ( ,once 9 grace1 always 9 grace4 ,aft] ! cov5ant is made1 he says1 ,i c d no?+ condemnable4 ,i may d :at is s9ful or weak1 b my s9s are all laid on my ,surety4 ,true1 if my w-_s humbles itself to be> ! re=m+ judgm5t ( ! ,"l--b ,i ?9k 8 doctr9e utt]ly dang]\s2 8 error is ?is1 t ! cov5ant _c be brok54 ,n[1 suppose a ,*ri/ian1 !re=e1 9 ! cov5ant2 he s9s1 !n ! ,"l w\ld put away 8 s9 by cleans+ him f its pollution & p[]1 by ! blood ( ,*ri/1 :o ha? already borne ! puni%m5t !re(4 ,b he may refuse ?is cleans+1 9 o!r words1 ?is judgm5t1 reveal$ )92 n aga9/ himself1 z x mu/ h be5 except = ,*ri/'s int]cession1 b aga9/ ! evil nature 9 him1 & 9 love to 8 s\l4 ,he may refuse ?is1 because x _c b be pa9ful1 x _c b include rep5tance = 8 transgression1 :]eby he has admitt$ gr\nd to ! enemy4 ,& if he refuse x1 p]si/+ 9 )draw+ 8 he>t f t surr5d]1 :i* mu/ h be5 made on 8 adoption into ! cov5ant1 :o %all say t ! cov5ant is n at an end8 ,:o %all say t ! way ( ! ,"l is n equal1 9 t1 because he 0 once a righte\s man1 made righte\s by ! righte\sness ( ,*ri/1 n[1 ! righte\sness t he ha? _h %all n be m5tion$ unto him1 b 9 8 trespass he %all die8 ,f> be x f me to say h[ long ! ,"l %all be> ) man2 h[ long he may trespass ere he dies =ev]2 b ,i ?9k x mo/ presumptu\s to suppose t ,god _c 9 honor 7= x does come to ?is7 disannul ! cov5ant f :i* man has already retract$ all 8 %>e2 ?\gh ?is1 truly1 is b a passive "o1 a surr5d] ( ! w-_s to ! fai? ( ,jesus4 ,:at good x does me to cle> up my ideas on pray]6 b !re is a limit beyond :i* intellect _c g4 ,no "o c fully expla9 ! admission ( evil into ! he>t4 ,we say x is because ,i li/5 to temptation2 b :y d ,i li/51 to temptation8 ,because ,i did n wat* unto pray]4 ,! ,calv9i/ w\ld say1 p]haps1 ,because ,i am )\t ! cov5ant2 b he all[s t a p]son may s9 :o is 9 x4 ,suppose ,i am "o ( ^!8 ,! orig9 ( evil mu/ ev] be hidd51 b n ( evil only2 ! moral nature ( man mu/ ev] be a my/]y to 8 intellectual nature1 = x is above x4 ,!re is a natural te/imony to ! supremacy ( ! moral 9 man above ! intellectual4 #aj? ,mo4 #h?4 ,! *>m ( book & p5 has be5 beguil+ me ( my rew>d2 b n[ my s\l craves to be (f]$ a liv+ sacrifice4 #aj? ,mo4 #ai?4 ,! _w 0 fe>fully my sn>e ye/]day1--,i mean worldly objects1 innoc5t1 9 !mselves4 ,^! ?+s only %[ ! dep? ( unr5ew$ nature )94 ,?\gh x slumb]$1 x c\ld n be dead4 ,my wild]ness w&]+s1 oh1 ,i fe> !y mu/ be exce$+ly protract$ ere ! ho/s t h come out ( ,egypt ) me fall2 ere ,i c f9d 9 myself t bless$ possession ( ! promis$ inh]itance1 :i*1 ,i believe1 9 ?is life is ! portion ( ! ?or\gh ,*ri/ian3 !y t believe d ent] into re/4 ,:y1 !n1 d n ,i8 ,oh1 x is = want ( believ+2 = want ( fai?2 ,i fe> to tru/ ! ,"l to give me my inh]itance & conqu] my foes1 & w n g up & possess ! l&4 ,!n1 aga91 9 self-confid5ce1 ,i w g up1 :e!r ! ,"l be ) me or n2 & s ,i fall4 ,b surely1 surely x ne$ be s no long]4 ,i might devote myself to ,*ri/1 & ,he w\ld lead me safely ?r\gh all4 ,! %9+ ( ! fire & ! %ad+ ( ! cl\d are yet 9 ! ord]+ ( ! ,capta9 ( ,salvation4 #bj?4 ,exce$+ poor2 & yet ,i rejoice 9 :at ,i tru/ is some:at ( ! pov]ty ( _s :i* is bless$4 ,no?+ 9 my h& ,i br+2 ,simply to ,?y cross ,i cl+2 ,to ! cleans+ f\nt ,i fly3 ,wa% me1 ,savi\r1 or ,i die4 #ba/4 ,i feel myself 9 mu* dang] ( fall+1--manifold temptations all r\nd to love ! _w1 & h[ little /ay )96 #bb;d4 ,yet ! ,"l 0 k9d1 mo/ k9d1 to me 9 ! ev5+1 con/ra9+ me to say )9 my he>t1 ,surely ,i am unit$ to ,*ri/ my ,savi\r4 ,oh1 ! joy ( feel+ t we are 9 any measure ,86 ,may ,i by no means )draw myself f ,8 h&s1 t ,he may d = me all t ,8 m]cy designs1 & :i* ,i am well assur$ is b begun4 ,?is morn+ a crumb ( bread 0 giv5 me1 9 ! %ape ( a s5se t ,*ri/ is yet m9e1 b t ,he w be wait$ on 9 simplicity ( he>t to d ,8 own "w4 ,oh1 ! com=t ( hav+ a f\nta9 to flee to set op5 = s96 h\rly h ,i ne$ ( x4 #aa? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,i h felt deeply ! necessity ( ! ?or\gh subjugation ( ! w to ! ,div9e w3 if x 7 effect$1 all mu/ "w = good to me4 ,little cross-occurr5ces1 in/ead ( excit+ ill temp]s1 w\ld s]ve z occasions = /r5g!n+ my fai? 9 ,god4 ,:5 ,he give? quietness1 :at %\ld make tr\ble8 ',tis wond]ful to ?9k :at long-suff]+ k9dness ! ,"l has %[n me6 ,i c comp>e myself only to ! prodigal son say+1 ,give me my portion ( goods--goods spiritual2 z if ,i ?\ght once furni%$1 nev] aga9 to h rec\rse to a fa!r's compassion4 ,oh1 (t5 h ,i wa/$ ?is sub/ance 9 a v %ort "t2 b ! ,"l has reckon$ bett] ?an ,i 9 my self-confid5ce4 ,he saw h[ ,i %\ld h to come back utt]ly de/itute1 & aga9 & aga9 has _h m]cy4 ,oh t ,i might no m ask = a portion to c>ry away1 b seek to dwell among ! s]vants & ! *ildr5 ( ,8 h\se1 to be f$ h\rly by ,him1 le>n+ 9 :at s5se ,he does say to ^? :o are will+ to h no?+ ( _! own1 ,all t ,i h is ?9e4 #ab? ,mo4 #f?4 ,nice j\rney to ,falm\?4 ,"h we h be5 s9ce ,second-day le>n+ our own manifold defici5cies2 b ?is1 "u a g5ial atmosph]e1 is1 to me1 nev] di%e>t5+1--always an excit+1 enc\rag+ lesson4 ----'s k9d words on intellectual pres5ce ( m9d1 & 8 animat+ example ( x1 h det]m9$ me to make a vigor\s ef=t ov] my own slo? & inanity4 ,i believe ! fir/ ?+ is to be always consci\s ( :at ,i am ?9k+ (1 & nev] to let my m9d run at loose ends 9 s5seless rev]ies4 #ab? ,mo4 #be?4 ,sev5?-day4 ,i tru/1 n[ we are all toge!r = ! w9t]1 !re w be an ef=t on my "p to help to keep up a high] tone ( feel+1 aim1 & conv]sation3 n m]e gossip1 b really to speak to ea* o!r = "s good purpose1 is :at ,i d wi%4 ,:at an eng9e1 = good or evil1 we neglect & almo/ despise6 & if x is n employ$ prop]ly1 :5 at home1 h[ c x be naturally & intellig5tly ex]cis$ :5 abroad8 ,f\r?-day1 #ca/4 ,call$ on a poor sick man1--he quietly wait+1 ,i hope1 = a p>ticipation 9 p]fect peace1 & p5etrat$ ) ! s5se t man c d no?+ ( himself4 ,surely ?is mu/ be a /ep t[>ds kn[+ :at ,god c d4 ,i hope he w be able to see & say some?+ m yet2 b ,i w\ld n ask him = any sort ( confession4 ,x is a fe>ful ?+ to int]f]e ) "o :o seems evid5tly 9 h&s ,div9e4 ,?us end$ #ahde4 ,oh t x _h be5 bett] us$1 m valu$1 m improv$ 9 naturals1 intellectuals1 & spirituals6 ,oh t ,i _h cultivat$ k9dness & dutiful affection 9 ! meekness ( wisdom2 & z an impetus seems to h be5 lately receiv$ to indu/ry 9 /udy1 etc41 oh1 may ,god give me grace to sp5d ano!r ye>1 s f> z ,i live ?r\gh x1 9 indu/ri\s ,*ri/ianity too6 #a/ ,mo4 #g?1 #ahdf4 ,i %\ld gratefully ackn[l$ge ! lov+-k9dness & t5d] m]cy :i*1 aft] all my w&]+s1 has aga9 be5 %[n3 ,i w prep>e _! he>t1 ,i w cause _! e> to he>1 0 sweet to me ?is morn+4 ,?\gh sometimes lam5t+ t ,i he> s little ( ! voice ( p>don & peace1 ,i h felt ?is morn+ t ,i h ev] he>d z mu* z 0 safe = me 9 ! degree ( prep>ation yet kn[n4 #a/ ,mo4 #ai?4 ,"s e>ne/ desires la/ ev5+1 ?is morn+1 & 9 ! night1 to be set "r 9 _s4 ,/ruck ) ! text1 ,8 c\nt5ance do? behold ! upright1--n t ! upright always behold ,8 c\nt5ance3 t is n ! ?+ _! safety consi/s 94 ,?\ mo/ upright do/ weigh ! pa? ( ! j1 t is1 ( ! truly s9c]e & devot$4 ,ah6 h[ bless$ t su* an un]r+ balance %\ld apportion ! way ( a f9ite & bl9d be+6 #c;d ,mo4 #b;d4 ,little ,e4,p4 di$ la/ week1 ag$ ?ree ye>s1--a *ild :om ,god _h taught4 ,i v5tur$ a little poem = 8 mamma1 ,i ?9k )\t h>m4 ,! poetry-conte/1 "s "t s9ce1 0 d\btless useful z a *eck1 b ,i seem to h lo/ ! prohibition1 & enjoy1 ,i hope1 innoc5tly4 ,six?-day4 ,s*ool1 m enc\rag$ ?an sometimes3 got on well ) geography-class2 visit$ v>i\s poor p1--feel+ v useless1 b "s satisfaction4 ,oh1 x 7 a sweet ?+ to d good f ! "r motive1 z a natural effect ( love4 ,i fe> ,i d my poor %>e m to satisfy consci5ti\sness2 & t is a dull ?+4 #c;d ,mo4 #ag?4 ,fai? small1 _w /rong2 b ?is ev5+ some?+ l grasp+ aft] ! *ildly life beyond4 ,a *ildly life ,i want4 ,oh = simplicity1 fai?1 quietness1 self-r5unciation6 ,ye/]day rode alone to ,:eal1 ,si/]'s m9e4 ,gave ,w4,b4 tracts = ! girls4 ,!nce to ,capta9 ,n41 to get 8 daught]s to collect = ,bibles4 ,8 nice wife seem$ int]e/$2 said x 0 v ne$ful4 ,_m families _h n a ,bible !re2 ! place a c5tury beh9d ! ,we/4 ,rode home dripp+1 b glad t ,i _h n be5 turn$ back4 ,le>n$ "p ( ! #db;d ,psalm 9 ,g]man4 #c;d ,mo4 #bg?4 ,:at te/imony ( gratitude c ,i record to t t5d] m]cy :i* has drawn ne> to me ?is ev5+8 ,oh t ! ,anon ) joy reception may n be unit$ ) ! no root 9 myself6 ,i h ?\ght ( ! ,israeliti% w&]+s1 caus$ by fai?less folly 9 refus+ to g up & possess ! l&4 ,oh1 t lack ( liv+ appropriat+ fai? may n ?us protract ! p]iod ere my own passage ?r\gh ! spiritual ,jordan1 ! riv] ( self-r5unciation1 & dea? ( ! old man1 into ! ,beulah ( a ?or\gh introduction to ! %eepfold6 ,x is easy to say t x w\ld be too presumptu\s to v5ture on ! f9al1 full1 *ildlike appropriation ( ,*ri/2 b1 oh1 presumption1 ,i d deeply feel1 is m conc]n$ 9 ! delay4 ,x is presumptu\s to put (f1 till bright] evid5ces & cle>] (f]s ( m]cy1 ! acceptance ( grace to-day4 #d? ,mo4 #ad?4 ,! ,"l has be5 k9d to me beyond expression4 ,n raptur\s feel+1 b calm & peaceful confid5ce1--?\gh sometimes almo/ giv+ way to ! _w1 ! fle%1 & ! devil1 sometimes lett+ g fai?2 b1 oh1 ,he has be5 ne> ?r\gh all2 !n :5 ,8 face has %one ^u me1 h[ h ,i wond]$ t ev] ,i lov$ ! e>?1 m ?an ,himself6 #e? ,mo4 #c;d4 ,bri/ol4 ,on ! way to ! ,ye>ly ,meet+4 ,fir/-day4 ,mo/ int]e/+ meet+4 ,i ?9k ! connection ( evangelical doctr9e ) ,*ri/ian wor%ip is (t5 n en\gh consid]$4 ,! m]e natural unsanctifi$ dread or awe ( ! ,"l's pres5ce is v diff]5t f t wor%ip ( ,god :i* is ?r\gh ,*ri/ our ,"l1 :o has made a way ( access = u to ! ,fa!r1 :o ,himself love? u4 ,if ?is be ov]look$1 !re is little ess5tial di/9ction betwe5 ,*ri/ian wor%ip1 & ,ori5tal gno/icism--! delusion ( rais+ ! s\l above ! natural1 by ab/raction & contemplation ( ! ,div9e4 ,?is is ! di/+ui%+ glory ( ! gospel1 t :]eas ! *ildr5 ( ,israel said to ,moses1 ,speak ?\ to u1 b let n ,god speak to u1 le/ we die1 ,*ri/1 8 antitype1 ha? brok5 d[n = 8 p ! middle wall ( p>tition1 ha? aboli%$ ! enmity1 & speake? to u ,himself z ,god1 & yet z once 9 our fle%4 #e? ,mo4 #aj?4 ,lett] f fa!r1 f ,niag>a4 ,awful spectacle1 & mo/ edify+ emblem ( ,8 un*ang+ ^w ( p[] ^: voice is z ! s\nd ( _m wat]s4 ,?is ev5+ _h a nice meet+2 my s\l long$ = light & life 9 ! assembly4 ,( our de> fa!r's safe arrival 9 ,liv]pool we he>d on our way to ! tra9 9 ! morn+1 & n[ we settl$ 9 to expect him we _h s long lo/6 ,&1 aft] meet+ him 9 ,london & allud+ to conv]sation ) fri5ds :o call$ to see him1 %e says1-- ,b ) fa!r ! fact ( pres5ce1 real meet+1 actual talk1 seem$ m engross+ ?an ! ?+ talk$4 ,oh t ,i _h a really grateful he>t to ! ,"l = ^! ,8 m]cies6 #g?4 ,allud+ to a meet+ at ,devon%ire ,h\se4 ,x is1 inde$1 look+ n at ! ?+s :i* are se51 :5 we really accept ) equal1 nay1 ) great]1 joy1 ,8 w to speak by ! little z by ! great1 or by ,8 ,_s only1 :5 communion ( tru? is pref]r$ to communication ( ! true4 #e? ,mo4 #bi?4 ,& n[ t my ,london exp]i5ce is ov]1 z to meet+s1 prea*+s1 pray]s1 :at1 oh1 :at is ! result on ?is immortal _s ( m9e1 :i* has on ?is occasion be5 br\ght1 z x 71 9 contact ) "s ( ! honorable & ano9t$ mess5g]s1 ) t :i* is good8 ,& yet x is possible t contact may n produce p5etration1 & t p5etration may n produce assimilation4 ,i c unhesitat+ly say1 ! fir/ & second h be5 produc$2 b !n ^! are b transactions ( ! "t1 n abid+ trans=mations2 & if ^! are all8 ,b1 surely1 x _c be2 surely1 :5 my he>t melt$ )9 me1 especially on ,second-day morn+1 & ,i he>d ! ^w & anon ) joy receiv$ x1 "s dep? ( c5tral /one 0 fus$ into s(tness2 "s actual *ange1 effect$1 t ,i might n h altoge!r no root 9 myself4 ,sometimes pr$om9at$ a fe> t intellectual int]e/ int]f]$ ) spiritual simple reception ( good1 t ?is w\ld vani% :5 t 0 ov]2 sometimes ! responsibility ( be+ ?us m9i/]$ to 0 truly a weighty ?\ght2 = nev] m ?an on t morn+ did ,i s und]/&1 ,g prea*1 baptiz+4 ,sometimes ,i ?\ght t ,god _h inde$ br\ght me to ?is ,ye>ly ,meet+ to make me !n & !re 8 own2 & :5 ,i he>d ( pass+ by transgressions z a cl\d1 ,i 0 ready to ?9k my own 7 inde$ dissolv+ z "o4 ,i felt /rongly ! sup]iority ( religion to e o!r ?+1 n m]ely = its ext]nal aim1 ,god1 b = its int]nal p[] on self1 h[ ^! ma/]pieces ( ! human creation 7 n only made ! mo/ ( by religion1 b t x alone c make any ?+ ( ! :ole man4 ,h[ /rongly d we feel1 :5 ) a clev]1 tal5t$1 irreligi\s man1 t he has a lat5t class ( moral p[]s :i* h n be5 call$ into action1 t on ?is po9t he may be inf]ior to ! v]ie/ *ild2 b ,god1 :o has made man = himself1 has made 9 e man a royal *amb]1 = himself spiritually to dwell 92 & if ?is be n reappropriat$ to him1 7:i* is religion17 8 capacity = ! ,div9e is n ex]cis$1 & he is n only n made ! mo/ (1 b 8 be/ nature is n ev5 made use (4 ,:at a privilege to h int]c\rse ) ^? 9 :om ! v rev]se is ! case6 ,:at a /imulus to ! little m9d1 to become n equal to ! great1 b proportionally ,*ri/ianiz$--i4e4 equally devot$6 & ?is is ,*ri/ian p]fection2 n to h arriv$ at ! highe/ atta9m5t ( int]c\rse ) ,god ev] grant$ to man1 b to h ! w ?or\ghly will+ ,god's w4 ,?is is1 inde$1 bett] f> ?an a m]e k ( :at t w is4 ,b 9 "s :om ,i h se51 !re is a beautiful union ( a high degree ( ?is kn[+ & will+2 & ^! are !y to :om x is giv5 to edify ! ,*ur*4 99 99 99 ,h[ %all ,i en\gh praise & ?ank ! ,"l1 :o has s condesc5d$ to my weak & s9ful condition1 t ?\gh my head p]haps knew all be=e1 & my he>t 0 disob$i5t1 ,he has s br\ght me "u ! mighty m9i/ry ( ,8 ,^w ( life1 t = a :ile all seem$ melt$ & subject$1 & my he>t long$ to accept ,him & 8 reconciliation to me on ! bless$ t]ms1 n ! h>% t]ms1 b ! privileg$ t]ms1 ( my be+ reconcil$ to ,him4 ,oh1 :at an error to ?9k any ?+ h>% or h>d 9 ! requirem5ts ( ! gospel6 ,x is a m]cy beyond man's conception1 t we are comm&$1 ,be ye holy1 = ,i am holy4 #f? ,mo4 #ab?4 ,ye/]day my tw5ty-?ird bir?day4 ,9 ! ev5+ a song ( praise seem$ to fill my he>t = ! va/ m]cy %[n me ( late4 ,god1 :o is ri* 9 m]cy = ,8 great love :]e) ,he lov$ me :5 ,i 0 dead 9 s9s1 has truly begun to quick5 my he>t4 #f? ,mo4 #ab?4 ,_h a note f ---- ( k9d spiritual int]e/2 b ,i ?9k %e mi/akes my want1 :i* is m ( practical ?an ( !oretical fai?4 ,h v5tur$ to tell h]1 9 a note1 :at ,i feel & h felt4 ,i ?9k _m :o h left ,fri5ds1 & become m decid$ly s]i\s s9ce1 rememb]+ t :5 ,fri5ds1 ! gospel 0 n preci\s to !m1 fancy x is und]valu$ by ! ,society4 ,my note is z foll[s3-- ,my de> --- w1 ,i hope1 believe t ,i 0 n dispos$ to receive h] affectionate l9es 9 any o!r ?an t _s ( love 9 :i* !y 7 writt51 & 9 :i*1 ,i am p]suad$1 x is ! w ( our bless$ ,savi\r = ,8 disciples t !y all may be "o4 ,yes1 my de> ----1 ,i believe !re is n a s5t5ce 9 ?9e 9 :i* ,i d n he>tily jo92 & :ile we are bo? seek+ to believe1 z ?\ says1 ) ! he>t 9 ,*ri/ our ,savi\r1 9 :om we h r$emption1 ?r\gh ,8 blood1 ev5 ! =giv5ess ( s9s1 let u say n only1 ,"h is a po9t on :i* we c unite1 b "h is ! "o bond ( fell[%ip1 :i* unites ! :ole ransom$ ,*ur*1 ?r\gh\t ! _w1 & especially ^? :o love ea* o!r1 z ,i tru/ we d4 ,if we 7 m will+ to let ,*ri/ be our all 9 all1 surely we %\ld m realize ?is bless$ tru?4 ,disputations on !oretical diff]5ces seem to me l disputes on ! pr9ciples ( a fire-escape among ^? ^: sole rescue dep5ds on at once committ+ !mselves to x1 s9ce ! mo/ p]fect und]/&+ ( its pr9ciples is utt]ly 9 va9 if !y cont9ue m]e look]s-on2 :ile o!rs1 ) p]haps f> less head-k1 are safely l&$4 ,?is1 x seems to me1 is ! di/9ction betwe5 head-k & he>t-k1 betwe5 dead cre$ & liv+ fai?2 & e day1 ,i ?9k1 m conv9ces me t x is ) ! he>t t man believe? unto righte\sness4 ,z ?\ ha/ s k9dly spok5 ( myself1 & ?y k9d int]e/ = me1 may ,i add t :at ,i h kn[n1 small ?\gh x be1 ( ?is fai?1 has be5 all ( grace2 nor d ,i hope or wi% b t x may be1 f fir/ to la/1 ( grace alone4 ,if ,i love ,*ri/1 x is because ,he fir/ lov$ me3 because ,god1 :o is ri* 9 m]cy1 has %[n me ! great love :]e) ,he lov$ me1 :5 ,i 0 dead 9 s9s2 nor %\ld ,i h _h "o glimpse ( ! k ( ! glory ( ,god1 9 ! face ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 _h n ,god1 :o comm&$ ! light to %9e out ( d>kness1 %9$ into my he>t4 ,& d>k & sad has ev] be5 ! view ( myself be/[$ by t grace :i* br+s salvation1 long %9+ z x 7 to make my d>kness visible2 b ?is d ,i e/eem "o ( ,8 ri* m]cies1 :o w h no rival 9 ,8 *ildr5's he>ts1 & tea*es u our own utt] depravity & s9fulness2 t we may1 )\t any res]ve1 fly to ,him1 :o has borne our s9s 9 ,8 own body on ! tree1 t we might be sav$ f wra? ?r\gh ,him4 ,& if x is ( grace1 t :ile we 7 yet s9n]s1 we 7 reconcil$ to ,god by ! dea? ( ,8 ,son1 x is by grace also1 t be+ reconcil$1 we %all be sav$ by ,8 life4 ,x is n by works ( righte\sness :i* we h done1 b accord+ to ,8 m]cy ,he save? u1 by ! wa%+ ( reg5]ation & r5ew+ ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,& "h ,i f9d abundant ne$ to take he$ t ,i receive n ! grace ( ,god 9 va92 = truly ,*ri/ _c be ours1 if we w n be 84 ,b ?\gh ,i h to lam5t _m a revolt1 & _m a backslid+1 & _m a d5ial 9 he>t ( ,*ri/ my ,savi\r1 yet ! ,"l1 :o turn$ & look$ on ,pet]1 has n =sak5 me2 ! f\nta9 set op5 = s9 has be51 ,i believe1 set op5 = me2 & /ill does ,he cont9ue to heal my backslid+s1 & to love me freely4 ,= ! future ,i h sometimes _m a fe>1 because ( ?is deceitful he>t ( m9e2 & at o!rs ,i c tru/ x 9 ,8 h&s1 ^: grace w be suffici5t = me to ! end1--t end1 :5 ,i may realize1 :at ,i n[ assur$ly believe1 t ! gift ( ,god is et]nal life ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/ our ,"l4 ,& n[1 my de> ----1 are we n "o1 ess5tially "o1 bo? "o 9 ,*ri/8 ,i "k t1 unit+ 9 ! ackn[l$gm5t1 &1 above all1 ,i tru/1 9 ! exp]i5ce1 ( ! great tru?s ( ! gospel1 we diff] 9 _! applications & influ5ces on subord9ate po9ts1 & ,i believe ?is mu/ be expect$ to be (t5 ! case :ile we see ?r\gh a glass d>kly2 b we %all1 ,i tru/1 see eye to eye1 :5 ! ,"l %all br+ aga9 ,zion2 & ,he w keep t :i* we h committ$ unto ,him aga9/ t day4 ,! ,"l's comm&m5t is exce$+ broad1 & x is no wond] t our n>r[ m9ds _c adequately appreciate ! :ole1 or t1 :ile we believe ! same ?+s1 we sometimes view !m 9 diff]5t ord] & proportion1 (t5 be+ ne>] ea* o!r ?an we are aw>e4 ,i fe> mu* good is n done by discuss+ diff]5ces2 at lea/1 ,i f9d x calls up feel+s :i* are n good1 & ,i lose m practically ?an ,i get or give !oretically4 ,may ! ,"l bless u bo? 9 our pilgrimage1 & guide u 9 a pla9 pa? to a city ( f9al habitation1 :]e we %all n want sun1 or moon1 or any o!r ?+ ?an ! glory ( ,god & ! ,lamb1 to be our ev]la/+ light4 ,i c\ld n be satisfi$ )\t reply+ to ?y k9d rem>ks & inquiries ab\t myself & my hopes2 b n[1 hav+ said s mu*1 ,i hope ?\ wilt n ?9k x /range t ,i _c argue on ?+s ab\t :i* we diff]4 ,i h n adopt$ op9ions )\t reflection1 & x has fully satisfi$ myself2 b ,i h no?+ to sp5d 9 controv]sy1 :i* ,i always f9d does me a great deal ( h>m4 ,i hope we n[ "k en\gh ( ea* o!r to rejoice 9 ea* o!r's joy4 #f? ,mo4 #af?4 ,la/ ev5+ alone 9 ! plantation4 ,s\ght ! ,"l4 ,x 0 beautiful4 ,0 n nature meant by ,him to "w 9 conc]t ) ,8 _s on our he>ts8 ,or is ! calm+ & soo?+ p[] a ?+ conf9$ to s5se & s5sibility8 ,i suppose ! latt]1 b t religion appropriates ^! z well z all o!r faculties & p>ts ( man's nature1 &1 :]e he w\ld h prais$ nature1 bids him praise ,god1 8 own ,god 9 ,*ri/4 #f? ,mo4 #ah?4 ,i h ?\ght ?is summ] a "t ( critical importance = my s\l1 = et]nity4 ,i h felt1 & sometimes spok51 /rongly1 b always1 ,i believe1 hone/ly1 unless ,i h impos$ ^u myself4 ,?\ght ,i _h accept$ ,*ri/4 ,i ?\ght ,he 0 my salvation & my all4 ,yet once m w ! ,"l %ake n my e>?ly he>t1 b also my heav51 my hopes1 my expectations1 9 ,him4 ,w ,he convict me /ill ( hold+ ! tru? 9 unrighte\sness8 ,h[ else c ,i expla9 to myself ! pride :i* revolts f c5sure1 ! t\*y disposition1 ! self-ju/ify+ _s1 ! jeal\sy ( my reputation1 ! anxiety to keep up my "*8 ,h[ else c ,i expla9 ! inaptitude = ! div9e1 ! unwill+ness to h ! veil q lift$ f my he>t1 to display x ev5 to my own eyes8 ,ah6 is x n t !re is /ill a d\ble m9d & in/ability 9 all my ways1 /ill a want ( t simplicity ( fai?1 t humility1 & pov]ty1 & meekness ( _s1 t c accept ! gospel1 /ill ! self-righte\sness 7worse ?an ,i am ( ,paul7 :i* assumes to itself ,i ( ,*ri/8 ,ah6 if ,i may yet lift my eyes ?r\gh ,him :o ha? borne ev5 ! iniquity ( our holy ?+s1 keep me1 ,o ,"l1 f a wid] w&]+1 till ,?\ br+ me fully into ! fold1 ! little flock1 to :om x is ,?y good pleasure to give ?y k+dom4 #g? ,mo4 #e?4 99 99 99 ,x is useless to conceal f myself t ,i h felt griev$ at "s1 :om we might suppose gr\nd$ 9 ! fai? long s9ce1 appe>+ to keep ! expression ( sole reliance on ! m]cy ( ,god 9 ,jesus ,*ri/1 z a sort ( dea?-b$ confession4 ,i "k full well t religion mu/ be an actual trans=mation ( s\l2 b !n ! gr\nd ( our hope t ?is w be p]fectly effect$ ere we dep>t1 is ! m]cy ( ,god 9 ,*ri/1 q z mu* z our hope ( =giv5ess ( actual s91 & f9al salvation4 ,oh1 "s d sep>ate ?+s too mu*1 z if x 7 possible to err by too full a reliance on ,*ri/2 z if !re 0 a dang] t ,he or we %\ld1 by t means1 =get ! "w ( grace4 ,grace is grace ?r\gh\t1 n ( works1 b ( ,him t calle?4 ,/ill1 ,i believe !re mu/ & w be v>iations 9 our modes ( view+ ! great gospel1 ! exce$+ broad comm&m5t4 ,may we1 z ,s4 ,tuke s beautifully said1 "k "o ano!r 9 ! "o bond ( bro!rhood1 ',"o ,"l1 "o fai?1 "o baptism2' )\t ent]+ into nice di/9ctions & metaphysical subtleties4 ,& may ,i1 to :om temptations ( ?is k9d are naturally s accessible1 be pres]v$ 9 my own _s f ! sn>es ( dea?1 cleans$ f secret faults1 kept f presumptu\s s9s1 & hidd5 9 ! ,"l's pavilion f ! /rife ( tongues4 #g? ,mo4 #i?4 ,i h be5 ?9k+ mu* ( ! "y wom5 at ! ,union1 & ye/]day w5t to see !m4 ,a sad spectacle2 b !y seem$ will+ & glad to be visit$1 & ,i hope to g once a week to read to !m1 & to tea* a few ( !m to read4 ,oh t my life 7 m useful ?an x is6 #g? ,mo4 #ah?4 ,oh1 :y 0 ,i induc$ to all[ ?\ghts & reason+s to supplant wor%ip6 ,h[ !y plead _! own utility1 & h[ l good is ! ?\ght ab\t good6 b !n ! dry1 b>r51 unsatisfi$ unre/ ( s\l t foll[$6 ,/range1 t ?\ght employ$ to s little purpose at o!r times %\ld pret5d to be s edify+ 9 meet+s4 ,rev]ies on probability1 z be+ a m]e relation betwe5 a cause & a spectator1 or by/&]2 n betwe5 cause & effect4 ,?\ght x important t\*+ free w & =ekn[l$ge4 ,god is c]ta9 ( futurity--we are unc]ta94 ,futurity is c]ta9 9 relation to ,god1 unc]ta9 9 relation to u--probable or improbable 9 relation to u1 nei!r 9 relation to ,god2 b nei!r ! c]ta9ty nor ! probability exi/s 9 future non-exi/5t fact1 !re=e ,i take x !y d n influ5ce ! fact4 ,?is1 p]haps1 is pr(itless2 b ,i am glad to f9d t ?\ght on ?is po9t always t5ds to confirm :at ,i believe is ! true scriptural doctr9e 9 opposition to ,calv9ism4 ,?is 0 a natural reaction on ! m9ds ( re=m]s f ! ,romi% doctr9e ( ju/ification by works4 ,!y no soon] f\nd t man _c make 8 own salvation1 ?an !y fanci$ he c\ld n reject x4 ,!y le>n$ t x 0 freely giv5 to "s1 & fanci$ t x c\ld n h be5 freely (f]$ to all4 #g? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,m]e c>nal consci5ti\sness is a poor sub/itute = love ( ,god4 ,! con/ant inquiry1 ,:at mu/ ,i d to keep an easy consci5ce8 is no pro( ( high ,*ri/ian atta9m5t2 r says ! ,*ri/ian1 ,:at c ,i r5d] = all ,8 b5efits8 #g? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,a visit to ,j4 ,h>vey's corpse4 ,a poor man :om %e _h frequ5tly visit$4 ,i h be5 mu* conc]n$ ab\t him 9 days pa/1 & n[ c a little rejoice 9 8 exce$+ joy4 ,an emaciat$1 sall[ c\nt5ance1 b speak+ p]fect re/4 ,he spoke sc>cely at all = "s days4 ,i saw him ?ree days be=e 8 dea?1 & c\ld b comm5d him to "o ( ! _m mansions2 b he c\ld sc>cely answ]4 ,a few passages ab\t ?is p]iod1 record ,eliza's desire = a fri5d%ip ) "s sympa?iz+ m9d out ( h] own family1--"s "o ^: views1 :il/ t5d+ to ! same po9t z h] own1 w\ld yet h ! fre%ness ( an altoge!r diff]5t exp]i5ce4 ,n t %e und]valu$ home affections1 = t w\ld h be5 q contr>y to h] nature1 b1 aft] allud+ to !m w>mly1 %e says1 ,at ! same "t1 we want a fri5d%ip = ! re/ ( our faculties & m9ds2 & x _c be1 ,i believe1 t "o family %\ld supply to any "o ( its memb]s all t x is capable ( appreciat+ & exp]i5c+ 9 ! way ( fri5d%ip4 ,ano!r entry /ates1 ,i h a new fri5d%ip ) ,m4,b41 :i* promises sub/antial com=t4 ,j ! ?+ ,i h wi%$ = all my life4 ,we h ex*ang$ two lett]s on ea* side4 ,?is acqua9tance rip5$ into a connection :i* 0 aft]w>ds /eadily ma9ta9$1--al?\gh ! int]c\rse ( ! two fri5ds 0 pr9cipally by lett]4 ,t circum/ance1 h[ev]1 has caus$ ! pres]vation ( ?\ghts & s5tim5ts :i* o!rwise w\ld h be5 unrecord$2 &1 z ! lett]s (f] mu* ( an int]e/+ "*1 copi\s extracts f !m are h]eaft] giv53 #h? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,surely1 :oev] is n a true fri5d to himself & to 8 own be/ int]e/s _c be su* to ano!r4 ,"h1 inde$1 if ,i may hope to h "p or lot 9 ! matt]1 ! ?+ aim$ at is high2 b ?is does n insure its atta9m5t1 & !re is great cause = c>e t ! humiliat+ discov]y ( ! discrepancy betwe5 ! two1 does n lead u to l[] ! "o r ?an seek to elevate ! o!r4 ,i h a /rong belief ( ! importance ( self-scrut9y & hone/y ) "o's own he>t1 ( real will+ness to "k & feel ! wor/ ( "o's self1 & s9c]ity ( application to ! true means ( rem$y4 ,p]haps ! v s5se ( defici5cy 9 ?is p>ticul>1 makes me believe ! m its value2 b ,i dislike :at ,i ?9k to be ! false humility ( "s p]sons1 :o1 :ile seem+ to claim ! bless+s ( religion1 w\ld ?9k x presumption to pr(ess1 or ev5 expect1 con=mity to its /&>d4 ,! presumption always seems to me on ! o!r side2 & yet :o is free f x altoge!r8 ,v long x takes "s p]sons--( :om ,i am "o--to get ?r\gh ! sev5? *apt] ( ,romans4 ,_m a "t !y get to ! tw5ty-f\r? v]se1 & /ick 9 ! tw5ty-fif?1 look+ wi%fully ov] ! b>ri] :i* divides !m f ! eigh? *apt]2 & yet1 if ?or\ghly will+ to "k ! wor/ ( !mselves1 !y w\ld p]haps f9d t x is because a "p ( a man's nature may g s f>1 :ile x requires ! :ole _s to make ?is la/ transition4 ,i ?9k ,i long = true humiliation 9 ! evid5ce ( my own defici5cy "h4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i did1 inde$1 enjoy ! ,ye>ly ,meet+'s ,epi/le3 x is a :olesome "o 9 ^! days4 ,h[ refre%+ is x 9 ?\ght1 to ab/ract ourselves f ! words & do+s ( m51 & ?9k ( t "o et]nal un*ang+ tru?1 :i* c nev] be inconsi/5t ) itself & :i*1 ?\gh hid f ! wise & prud5t1 is reveal$ to babes6 ,"h ,i ?9k ! belief ( ! id5tity ( our own "* h]eaft]1 comes 9 well1 & %\ld lead u to consid] :e!r we love tru? absolutely1 & n only relatively to ! circum/ances :i* w n exi/ !n2 & :e!r we c be happy 9 a l& :]e righte\sness & peace =ev] kiss ea* o!r4 ,& may ,i1 )\t vanity & j 9 illu/ration1 quote f a rhyme ( my own8-- ,:ile ?us we long1 9 bonds ( clay1 ,= fre$om's adv5t bright1 ,upbraid ! t>dy :eels ( day1 ,& call ! slumb]+ light1 ,d we no will+ fett]s we> ,:i* our own h&s h made1 ,no self-impos$ di/resses be>1 ,& c\rt no ne$less %ade8 ,:ile our dep>t$ fri5ds to meet ,we (t5 va9ly sigh1 ,to hold 9 heav5 communion sweet1 ,communion l>ge & high1 ,d we1 :ile "h on e>? we dwell1 ,^? pure affections %[ ,= :i* we long to bid f>ewell ,to all we love bel[8 ,= no unhall['d foot/ep falls ,^u t floor ( gold2 ,^? pe>ly gates1 ^? cry/al walls1 ,no e>?ly he>ts enfold4 ,& if our voice on e>? be /range ,to notes ( praise & pray]1 ,t voice x is n dea?'s to *ange1 ,w\ld make b discord !re4 #h? ,mo4 #aj?4 ,/range vacillations ( feel+2 at "o "t on ! po9t ( tru/+ ! ,"l = et]nity1 at ano!r1 _c tru/ him ev5 = "t4 ,at "o "t w\ld ca/ my :ole s\l on him2 at ano!r1 w be> ! weight ( e /raw myself1 till ,i become q ov]load$ ) !m4 ,oh1 :at a spectacle ( folly1 & weakness1 & s96 ,a s\l immortal sp5d+ all h] p[]s1 wa/+ h] /r5g? 9 /r5u\s idl5ess6 #h? ,mo4 #af?4 ,v busy mak+ ?+s tidy1 & resolv$1 almo/ religi\sly1 to keep !m s4 ,i ?9k ,i w\ld n1 = any consid]ation1 die ) all my ?+s 9 disord]4 ,disord] mu/ be ! result ( a disord]$ m9d1 & n only s1 x reacts on ! m9d & makes x worse 9 turn4 #h? ,mo4 #ah?4 ,p d n say en\gh ( ! ne$ ( consi/5cy1 :5 !y speak ( tru/+ 9 ,provid5ce in/ead ( arms4 ,x 0 consi/5t 9 ,william ,p5n1 b x w\ld n h be5 consi/5t 9 8 contempor>ies1 :o took ! ,indians' l& = n\ght4 ,provid5ce is n to be made a protector ( inju/ice1 ( :i* arms are ! fitt+ %ield4 ,oh t consi/5cy1 e>ne/ness ( "*1 7 m valu$6 #h? ,mo4 #bc;d4 ,"s true wi%1 may ,i say pray]1 t ,*ri/ may n[1 n[1 blot out z a cl\d my s9s1 ev5 on 8 own t]ms1 :i*1 ,i am m conv9c$1 d n consi/ ( ?+s requir$ ( u to give 9 ex*ange = 8 m]cy1 b are a "p ( t m]cy1 a "p ( t r$emption4 ,yes1 :5 s9 becomes ?or\ghly a burd51 z s91 !n we see t grace w\ld be inde$ imp]fect1 if x 0 n to be a deliv]ance f ! p[]1 z well z ! puni%m5t1 ( s92 & if we ask = grace1 & yet *]i% s91 truly we "k n :at _s we are (1 we wi% n = complete salvation :ile we are ask+ = x4 ,m]cy is a broad] ?+ ?an our mo/ e>ne/ pray]s suppose2 yea1 x is above all t we c ask or ?9k4 #h? ,mo4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,h[ little x avails to "k ! !ory ( wisdom & folly1 "r & wrong1 etc41 j s z to occupy only ! p]ceptive & reason+ faculties6 ,:at we want1 :at ! _w wants1 ,i ?9k1 is ! ,*ri/ian v]sion ( ! pres5t s fa%ionable idea ( e>ne/ness1 or1 z ,i h ?\ght x may imply1 consi/5cy ( "*4 ,we get ideas & op9ions 9 a dead way1 & !n !y d n p]vade our *>act]s2 we h b half le>n$ !m2 !y h influ5c$ n our feel+1 b only our kn[+ faculties1 & !n p]haps x _h be5 bett] n to h kn[n ! way ( tru?4 ,a full response is 9 my he>t to ! difficulty ( keep+ ?+s 9 _! "r places1 nei!r c ,i at all agree to ! idea t :]e ! love ( ! _w p]v]ts "o1 ! fe> ( x p]v]ts t52 at lea/1 und]/&+ ! _w to mean :atev] passes z ,i cl\d betwe5 ! m5tal eye ( fai? & ?+s unse54 ,_m a "t has ! book-%elf & ! writ+-desk be5 made a sub/itute = ! oratory4 ,z to fri5d%ip tak+ ?is place1 surely ! :ole idea ( a ,*ur* is bas$ on t ( ,*ri/ian fell[%ip 9 its /rict s5se4 ,be x ours to "k :at t means1 & !n1 if our love to ,*ri/ is ! ma9 bond ( union1 :ile t cont9ues1 we %all love him ! m r ?an ! less on t acc\nt4 ,b ,i "k t fri5d%ip includes v>i\s o!r elem5ts1 & may we be s5sible t if ^! are made ! ma9 ?+s 9 our e/eem1 n only our fai?1 b our fri5d%ip too1 becomes debas$4 ,respect+ ! sev5? & eigh? *apt] ( ,romans1 a believe ,i agree ) !e2 b lately ,i h _h /rong] feel+s ?an ,i us$ to h ab\t ! di/9ction betwe5 defective religion & infant religion4 ,! full feel+ ( our corruption mu/ c]ta9ly prec$e ! full reception ( ! ,*ri/ian's joy2 & ,i believe we ought n to be too anxi\s to r$uce to regul> !ory :at is s mu* above our f9ite und]/&+s z ! "w ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 ! he>t4 ,/ill1 ,i ?9k !re is1 :5 x goes on z x ought to d1 unob/ruct$1 a complet5ess 9 all its /ages4 ,!re may & ought to be a p]fect infant1 !n a p]fect y\?1 !n a p]fect man1 & ,i don't "k h[ to apply to ! advanc$ /age only2 t bless$ decl>ation :i* ,i sometimes ?9k expresses ! sum ( ,*ri/ian lib]ty1 ,!re is1 !re=e1 n[ no condemnation to !m :i* are 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,/ill1 x w be q "t en\gh to reason ab\t ?is :5 we h atta9$ su* an entirely *ildlike /ate2 nor1 ,i suppose1 %all we be long 9 discov]+ ! privilege ( :i* we %all !n be 9 possession--,( su* is ! k+dom ( heav54 ,!n1 d\btless1 we %all be fur!/ f reason+ at all4 ,we h be5 mu* int]e/$ ) ! la/ volume ( ,d',aubign4 ,! imp]fection ( all ! in/rum5ts is /rik+ly %[n4 ,lu!r's ob/9ate transub/antiation or consub/antiation doctr9es1 ,melanc?on's timid concessions to ! ,papi/s1 & ,zw+le's c>nal w>f>e1 end+ 9 ! trag$y ( ,cappel1 &1 z x seems1 9 ! long delay ( ! e/abli%m5t ( ! ,re=mation 9 ,switz]l&4 ,d',aubign appe>s v s5sible ( ?is inconsi/5cy3 ev5 ! loss ( ,ecolampadius by a peaceful dea? he repres5ts z a happy enc\ragem5t to ! ,*ur* aft] ! bl[ x _h receiv$2 b ,i don't ?9k ,d',aubign a ?or\gh peace advocate4 ,he makes s mu* di/9ction betwe5 ! ,*ur*man & ,/atesman1 t ,i fe> he w\ld all[ ( m]e rul]s & magi/rates tak+ up arms on m]ely secul> affairs1 ?\gh he does n wi% ! ,*ur* to be def5d$ by su*4 ,i %\ld l to "k ?y impression ( ! e>ly ,*ri/ians' op9ion on w>4 ,ne&] all[s t a p>ty object$ to x1 z 9 ! case ( ,maximilian1 ,a4,d4 #bbi2 b says t v s9c]e ,*ri/ians 7 soldi]s 9 ! ,roman army1 till ,gal]ius requir$ all soldi]s to take "p 9 ! hea!n c]emonies4 #h? ,mo4 #bf?4 ,oh1 h[ %all ,i set =? ,8 t5d] compassion1 :o has bless$ me ?is ev5+ )1 ,i 0 go+ to say1 ! abundance ( peace & tru?8 ,oh1 h[ ne> ,he has be51 help+ me to ca/ my all on ,him1 help+ me to leave ! ?+s t are beh9d1 yes1 & ! ?+s t are be=e too1 z f> z self is conc]n$1 & commit my future way & safety to ,him6 ,:5 ,8 love has be5 made kn[n1 h[ h ,i be5 griev$ by fe>s ( future folly1 fe>s1 too1 t h be5 griev\sly fulfill$4 ,:at a prete/ ?is = h>ass+ myself ) fe>s t x w be s aga96 ,b1 oh1 ^! fe>s are v f> f t fe> :i* ! ,"l w put into ,8 *ildr5's he>ts1 t !y %all n dep>t f ,him4 ,!y h no pres]v+ p[] ov] me2 !y are ( ! e>?1 e>?y1 & solely come f di/ru/ ( t grace :i* is ev]-suffici5t2 f a desire to h a %>e myself 9 t victory :i* is ,*ri/'s alone4 ,oh1 if my incessant reg>ds 7 to ,him alone1 ,he w\ld take all c>e on ,himself4 ,he is ! same ye/]day1 to-day1 & =ev]1 & ,8 fai? is ! victory :i* ov]comes ! _w4 ,humility1 true wat*fulness1 & self-di/ru/ are diametrically oppos$ to ?is c>eful _s3 _! language ev] is1 ,i am no?+1 ,*ri/ is all4 #h? ,mo4 #bg?4 ,*ang$ inde$2 n any light to be se5 9 my d>k he>t4 ,yet ,i look up1 ,i tru/ s+ly1 to ,him f :om x came ye/]day2 & ?i!r may ,i look till aga9 ! day break4 ,c ,i say1 9 full s9c]ity1 m ?an !y t wat* = ! morn+8 ,alas t ,i am s v]satile6 ,*ri/ian & worldl+ )9 a day4 ,oh = a deep] s5se t ,i am n my own1--t ,i h no "r to di/urb ! sanctu>y ( my own _s :5 ,god has made x su*1--t !re is no o!r way ?an :ole-he>t$ & hone/-he>t$ ,*ri/ianity to atta9 ! heav5ly k+dom6 #i? ,mo4 #i?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,our wily foe f9ds e ?+ :i* produces /rong emotion & commotion ( m9d a good opportunity = try+ new temptations1 &1 at any rate1 tries h>d to keep u f committ+ all to a bett] h& ?an ours4 ,i feel q a%am$ ( ! measure ( 8 success ) me2 b surely we want a new sanctification e day1--a new recurr5ce to ! grace t w set all dislocat$ bones1 z ,j4 ,flet*] calls unsanctifi$ feel+s & affections4 ,i 0 mu* pleas$ ) ?is comp>ison1 :i* ,i f\nd 9 8 life ! o!r day4 ,i ?9k x is an admirable exemplification ( ! uneas9ess & pa9 ( m9d !y cause4 ,b h[ v unc]ta9 our frames ( feel+ are2 sometimes ?9k+ !re is b "o ?+ :i* we h n q giv5 up to ,god1 & sometimes1 ) p]haps correct] judgm5t1 lam5t+1 all my bones are out ( jo9t4 ,may we1 my de> ,m41 enc\rage ea* o!r 9 seek+ help ( ,him :o receiv$ & heal$ all t _h ne$ ( heal+4 #i? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,f9i%$ mo/ int]e/+ review ( ,john ,fo/]'s life4 99 99 99 ,fo/] 0 a v deep ?9k]4 ,he ?\ght ! b\nd>y ( ! kn[able wid] ?an ! g5]ality d4 ,?is may be2 b ,i fancy he does n always admit suffici5t weight 9 8 argum5ts to ! manife/ relations & act+s ( ! unkn[n ^u ! kn[n4 ,he 0 ,calv9i/ic2 ?is1 jo9$ to a /rong view ( ! moral p]fection & b5evol5ce ( ,god1 l$ him to ! natural result ( d5y+ et]nal puni%m5ts4 ,c\ld he h se5 m ( ! ess5ce ( a human _s1 z he d\btless n[ sees x1 ,i v5ture to ?9k t t my/]i\s p]sonality1 by virtue ( :i* man may be said to *oose 8 de/9y1 i4e4 to embrace de/ruction1 or to submit to be sav$ by ! ,savi\r 9 8 own way1 t ! p]ception ( ?is p]sonal image ( ,god 9 man might v9dicate ! ,div9e p]fection & b5evol5ce1 & make x evid5t t our salvation is ( ,god1 & our de/ruction is ( ourselves4 #aj? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,oh to be p]mitt$ any ta/e ( t grace :i* is free--ev] free2 :i* br+s a s]5e reliance on et]nal love2 :i* impr9ts its own reflection on ! s\l6 ,oh1 be t reflection unbrok5 by re/less disquiets ( m9d2 be t image wat*fully priz$1 & wait$ =1 & wait$ 94 #aj? ,mo4 #e?4 ,"s sweetness 9 ?9k+ h[ mu* ak9 is hav+ no?+ to possess+ all ?+s4 #aj? ,mo4 #ad?4 ,talk ) ,james ,te>e on ! immorality ( dr9k+4 ,qu]y3--,is x p] se a s9 to dr9k a little8 ,he does n affirm x 9 pure ab/ract1 b says t no action c be purely ab/ract2 & t z to uphold an immoral sy/em is immoral1 z ! dr9k+ sy/em is immoral1 z mod]ate draughts uphold ! dr9k+ sy/em1 &1 9 fact1 _c be drunk by ! community )\t giv+ bir? to drunk5ness--ergo1 mod]ate dr9k+ is an immoral practice4 ,he does n at all judge ^? :o d n see x2 only says !y ought to accept light & k1 & he _c d\bt :at w\ld !n be ! result4 #aj? ,mo4 #ag?4 ,! above talk ) ,j4 ,te>e 0 a great satisfaction to me2 we w5t t ev5+ to 8 meet+1 & aft] two h\rs ( deep int]e/ 9 a cr[d$ meet+ ,i sign$ ! pl$ge1 ) a h& trembl+ ) emotion4 ,i c\ld n tru/ myself to tell ,s4 t ! pleasure he express$ 0 b a fa9t reflection ( m9e4 ,i h be5 exp5d+ two days 9 a lett] to ! ,fri5d on ,di/illation1 :i* ,i ard5tly hope to get ins]t$4 #aa? ,mo4 #c;d4 ,la/ ev5+ sweetly realiz$ 9 "s degree be+ 9 ! ,"l's own h&s2 & ?is morn+ aga9 enabl$ to cease f my own va9 attempts & tru/ ! ,"l4 ,oh1 ! folly ( ! long trials ,i h made to d some?+1 :5 ,i come be=e ,him6 ,x is all 9 va94 ,if ,i am ev] sav$ x w be ,8 do+1 ,8 free grace2 & ?is mom5t c ,i call ,jesus my ,savi\r4 ,on ,fif?-day ,i read ,b>clay's fif? ,proposition--pleas$ & satisfi$ almo/ entirely ) x4 #ab? ,mo4 #e?4 ,i h got my lett] ins]t$ 9 ! ,fri5d2 ! editor says my zeal has c>ri$ me too f> z to means2 he agrees z to ! evil ( ! sy/em4 ,oh t x 7 se5 z x des]ves6 ,b h[ talk ( abolition by law1 & keep _s-m]*ants 9 ! ,*ur*8 ,see ,fri5d1 vol4 iv4 page #bcb4 #ab? ,mo4 #aa?4--,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,no?+1 ,i ?9k1 loses by its f\ndation be+ tri$4 ,we see t 9 yet high] ?+s x is ne$ful & "r (t5 to try :e!r pr9ciple is firm2 &1 ?\gh sometimes we may tremble le/ fai? %\ld fall 9 ! trial1 p]haps x w\ld be m j to fe> le/ ! trial %\ld m]ely %[ x already to h fall54 ,:at ?\ saye/ ab\t lay+ aside reason+ is v true2 b h[ h>d to d s6 ,saul's armor d\btless x is1 z says ! little tract4 ,h[ easy1 comp>atively1 to let any want g unsatisfi$1 r ?an t imp]i\s reason :i* urges its claim ) s _m good pret5ces1 :i* tells u tru? w always be> inve/igation1 & t if we _c expla9 by our small faculties exp]i5ces 9 :i* ! highe/ my/]ies are involv$1 ! exp]i5ces mu/ h be5 fallaci\s6 ,h[ diff]5t is ?is sort ( volunt>y & almo/ presumptu\s self-inve/igation f submitt+ all to ! un]r+ t\*/one6 ,x is1 inde$1 v in/ructive to obs]ve t our ,savi\r's rejoic+ 9 _s 0 n ov] ! subjects ( "s wondr\s apocalypse1 or ov] ^? end[$ ) miracul\s p[]1 b ov] babes2 & t 9 ! same way ,8 lam5tation 0 n t ! ,jews _h refus$ ,8 (f]s ( any ?+ ( ?is k9d1 b t !y w\ld n be ga!r$ by ,him z *ick5s "u _! "m's w+4 ,x 0 ! fault ( my obscure expression1 t :5 ,i spoke ( my pa9ful reason ,i did n make x app>5t t ,i meant x ( ! faculty ( reason1 :i* has be5 a v unquiet occupant ( my m9d = "s ye>s pa/1 & :i* has l$ me to ! conclusion t our m5tal atmosph]e1 ! :ole sy/em ( feel+s1 affections1 hopes1 d\bts1 fe>s1 p]plexities1 etc41 is "o :i* x is dang]\s ne$lessly & wilfully to di/urb4 ,:5 once we h c>elessly wr\ght up a /orm x is n 9 our own p[] s quickly to lay x1 & ! poor m9d is almo/ compell$ to endure passively ! di/urbance till ^! unruly elem5ts spontane\sly subside1 or some?+ bett] int]f]es = its help4 ,surely1 if !re has be5 any re/+-place giv5 u1 if our eyes h ev] se5 ! quiet habitation1 we ought to fe> ! excitem5t ( any ?+ :i*1 naturally breaks ! equilibrium4 ,i believe "s p ?9k imag9ation ! unruly memb] among ! m5tal p>ts2 b ) me x is ! a=esaid (f5d] decid$ly4 ,i hope ,i d n tease !e ab\t teetotalism3 x lies ne> my he>t1 & has done s = a long "t2 & ?\gh ,i too f9d x an ef=t sometimes to give up an ev5+ to a meet+ ( t sort1 x is su* a com=t to be able to d any ?+ to %[ on :i* side ,i am1 t ,i ?9k ,i ought n to m9d t4 #a/ ,mo4 #d?1 #ahdg4 ,ye/]day1 & ! day be=e1 g5tly ble/ 9 _s ) hav+ ?+s plac$ m 9 _! "r position 9 my he>t ?an = "s "t be=e4 ,"o ev5+ ,i _h toil$ long 9 va91 c\ld n ov]come a sad s5se ( spiritual defici5cy4 ,x occurr$ to me t ?is might be ! v be/ ?+ = me3 !n ,i op5$ my he>t & welcom$ x2 &1 oh1 h[ did a smile ( compassion beam ^u me1 & ! grace t w\ld n be pur*as$ came 9 full & free6 ,b x is inf9itely important to wat* = m4 ,?us exp]i5c+ bo? h[ to be abas$ & h[ to ab\nd1 %e le>n$ to be satisfi$ ) pov]ty1 & recogniz$ 9 b>r5ness1 z well z 9 ri*ness ( joy & love1 a guid+ & purify+ grace1 lead+ on to ! p]fect life 9 ,*ri/4 #a/ ,mo4 #aj?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,oh = t simple fai? :i* ?\ speaks ( z ma/]+ m\nta9s ( difficulty1 & t n by might or p[]1 b by its intr9sically victori\s nature6 ,i h sometimes be5 /ruck by ! way 9 :i* ?is is ass]t$ 9 ! text1 ,?is is ! victory :i* ov]come? ! _w1 ev5 our fai?4 ,x is tak5 = grant$ t !re w be a conte/ & a victory2 b if !re is true fai? ! _w w c]ta9ly be ov]come3 ,i mean provid$ ! fai? is held fa/4 ,x may be ab&on$1 or foes )9 may betray ! citadel2 b x w n o!rwise yield to pressure f )\t4 ,may we1 if possible1 enc\rage "o ano!r n to let g t small1 &1 x may be1 fami%+ & almo/ expir+ confid5ce1 :i* ha?1 n only is promis$1 great recomp5se ( rew>d4 ,i little ?\ght to come to any ?+ s enc\rag+ :5 beg9n+ a sort ( lam5tation ov] myself4 ,b really !re is s mu* t is deceptive 9 ! deceptive he>t2 s _m ?+s1 ev5 our humility1 t we once ?\ght ( ! "r k9d1 turn out to h be5 "s ref9$ manife/ation ( spiritual pride1 t we may daily f9d1 at lea/ ,i d1 t ! "q ,:o c cure x8 foll[s its judgm5t z desp]ately wick$1 ) emphasis full z great z t ( ,:o c "k x8 is prompt$ by ! discov]y t x is deceitful above all ?+s4 99 99 99 ,job ,?omas's dea?-b$ has long be5 an int]e/+ "o to me2 & ,i ?9k 8 p>t+ address1 especially see+ x is a translation f ,wel%1 conveys rem>kably ! impression ( a m9d beg9n+ to be %one ^u f ! o!r _w4 ,on ! o!r h&1 dea?-b$s ( opposite *>act]s1 su* z ,altamont 9 ,murray's ,p[] ( ,religion1 c>ry a no less conv9c+ evid5ce ( ! d>k realities to come4 ,:5 my fa!r 0 9 ,am]ica he 0 mu* int]e/$ ) he>+ f a fri5d1 a female connection ( :om _h liv$ 9 ! h\se ) ,tom ,payne1 "s acc\nt ( ! la/ h\rs ( t wret*$ man1 :o appe>s to h become s fully s5sible ( 8 fatal errors z to h writt5 a recantation1 :i* "s ( 8 infidel fri5ds de/roy$4 ,! acc\nt !y gave to ,cobbett 0 entirely false2 z ! fri5d relat$ t he express$ to h] ! greate/ sorr[ = ! h>m t he _h done1 &1 on he>+ t %e _h burn$ "s ( 8 books1 he express$ a wi% t all _h done ! same4#b ,footnote #b3 ,= a f>!r acc\nt see ,life ( ,/eph5 ,grellet1 vol4 i4 p4 #afc1 ,am]4 edit4 99 99 99 ,total ab/95ce1 z well z _m o!r good ,causes1 & ! good cause1 h lo/ a noble advocate 9 our honor$ & lam5t$ fri5d ,j4,j4 ,ghirney4 ,x is h>d to reconcile "o's m9d to s sudd5 a summons2 s little "t = 8 sorr[+ fri5ds to receive ^? ev] valuable & preci\s legacies1 dy+ say+s4 ,we h he>d ( no?+ ( t k9d2 & p]haps he 0 n consci\s ( ! approa* ( dea? at all4 ,s mu* ! bright]1 d\btless1 ! glad surprise ( ! transition4 ,oh1 h[ "o longs = p]mission to look 9 at heav5's op5$ door-way aft] ! entrance ( su* s\ls6 #a/ ,mo4 #bc;d4 ,to-day1 writ+ rhym+ ,iri%1 appeal4 ,x got ! upp] h& & made me s9--s unhappy ab\t x4 ,:5 ,i believe s9c]ely desir+ to (f] x up to ! ,"l's1 w1 ,i grew easy to cont9ue x4 ,p]haps x 0 a selfi% & self-pleas+ influ5ce1 b ,i ?9k n s4 ,i felt v glad aft]w>ds to be able to ask to h all my he>t consecrat$ by ! ,"l's _s2 & ,i d believe t to rectify1 n ext+ui%1 ! beat ( o> facilities1 is religion's "w4 ,?is appeal on behalf ( ! poor ,iri% 0 nev] made public4 ,x _h occupi$ h] ?\ghts v deeply1 &1 _h %e se5 fit to publi% x1 might h be5 an auxili>y to ! mat]ial ef=ts on behalf ( ! suff]]s 9 :i* %e1 9 common ) _m o!rs at t p]iod1 0 w>mly engag$4 ,_m visits to poor p4 ,9 "s ,i felt able to talk to !m ( heav5ly ?+s4 ,i believe x is "r to speak 9 love & int]e/1 b nev] to out-/rip our feel+s4 ,i 0 sick1 & ye visit$ me1 ref]s to a duty2 & surely1 :5 we are bless$ ) a k ( ! way ( salvation1 & feel anxi\s = ! salvation ( o!rs1 x is "r to d our endeavors2 at ! same "t well kn[+ t ,god only c t\* ! he>t4 ,i believe t indiff]5ce & indol5ce d mu* %elt] !mselves "u pret5ce ( leav+ ,god's "w to ,himself4 ,i h (t5 le>n$ salut>y lessons 9 do+ my little4 #b;d ,mo4 #ai?4 ,i h be5 mus+ ^u my sorr[ 0 /irr$4 ,c x be t e he>t is a treasury ( sadness :i* has b to be /irr$ up to set u 9 m\rn+8 ,is x proportionate to ! am\nt ( evil8 ,does a c]ta9 am\nt ( evil necess>ily br+ a c]ta9 am\nt ( sorr[ soon or late8 ,d we suff] only by our own fault1 unless a grief is actually inflict$ ^u u8 ,i ?9k n4 ,!re may be m5tal /orms1 ov]-ca/+s ( cl\d 9 ! m9d's hemisph]e1 indep5d5t ( ! exhalations f ! soil4 #b;d ,mo4 #bc;d4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,! tru? is1 t ,i 0 once fond] ( read+ ?an ( almo/ any ?+ else4 99 99 99 ,i don't "k h[ to tell !e ab\t ! /rangely sad impression t has foll[$1 t ?is also is vanity4 ,i "k x is our duty to improve our m9ds1 & ,i wi% mu* t m9e _h be5 bett] cultivat$ ?an x has be51 & yet "s utilit>ian infirmity ( m9d has s (t5 sugge/$1 ,:at use is x8 :ile ,i h be5 read+1 t my ze/ = ! book has be5 almo/ de/roy$1 & ! v ?\ght ( ! volume has be5 sadd5$ by rememb]+ :at ,i felt :ile read+ x4 ,s t :at ,e4 ,b>rett says ( light read+ is true to me ( ,s*ill] & "s o!rs3-- ,m]ry books once read = pa/ime1 ,if we d>$ to read aga91 ,only memories ( ! la/ "t1 ,w\ld swim d>kly up ! bra94 ,i hope ^! feel+s are n infecti\s1 or ,i c]ta9ly w\ld n inflict on !e ! description4 ,b d n take ?is z a g5]al picture ( me4 ,x is a morbid occasional /ate ( ?+s2 consequ5t1 by reaction1 on ! exclusiv5ess ( aim ) :i* ^? ?+s 7 foll[$4 ,i le>n$ soon] ?an ,i suppose _m d1 ! e>ne/ness1 coldness1 reality ( life2 & !re has come an impression ( its be+ too late to prep>e = life1 & q "t to live4 ,h[ev] imp]fectly1 ,i h le>n$ t to live ought to be to prep>e to die2 b1 )\t /opp+ to describe h[ t idea has act$1 a second>y purpose ( be+ ( "s use to o!rs has4 ,i might almo/ say1 torm5t$ my faculty ( consci5ti\sness4 ,don't suppose t ?is is any evid5ce ( religion or love4 ,i believe x r argues ! contr>y4 ,e attempt to d good ought to spr+ naturally f love to ,god & man2 n f a wi% m]ely to atta9 our beau-ideal ( duty4 ,n[1 ?\gh ,i s mu* l read+1 ,i did n seem able to make any use ( x2 = /rangely confus$ 7 long my ideas ( usefulness1 & !re has foll[$ _m a conflict betwe5 ^! two unsanctifi$ t5d5cies4 ,p]haps !y h done "s good 9 *a/5+ ea* o!r & *a/5+ _! own]4 ,d n ?9k ,i prosp]$ 9 ei!r1 = ,i h1 z ,i said1 a poor memory2 & !n ,i want$ to see fruits ( my labors1 & sp5t a great deal ( "t 9 mak+ *>ts2 "o ( ! hi/ory ( empires1 "o ( ! hi/ory ( inv5tions & discov]ies2 ! latt]1 especially1 0 n wor? ! labor4 ,i h _h a ta/e ( _m ?+s1 & yet1 to speak hone/ly1 excel 9 h>dly any ?+3 ! reason ( ?is is p>tly a great want ( ord]4 ,i nev] attempt$ any ?+ l a c\rse ( read+3 b1 :5 ,i began a book1 ! book 0 ! object m ?an my own real improvem5t4 ,i read (t5 ,d4,e4,f41 be=e ,i _h read ,a4,b4,c41 & s grew confus$1 & !n1 if x is to be confess$1 ! *ildi% pride ( hav+ read a book 0 n )\t its influ5ce4 ,poetry 9 mod]n times has c]ta9ly become dilut$ 9 /r5g? & value2 b1 ?\gh ,i h n at all a l>ge acqua9tance1 ,i ?9k !re are _m good mod]n poets4 ,i mu* admire ,wordswor?'s ,intimations ( ,immortality1 z well z _m ( 8 %ort] & simpl] pieces--,! ,longe/ ,day1 = in/ance4 ,!re is a great deal ( good in/ruction1 z well z deep ?\ght1 9 8 poetry2 b !re is n1 ,i ?9k1 v cle>ly an evangelical _s2 inde$1 ! ,excursion1 :i* is beautiful1 is unsatisfactory to me 9 ?is respect4 ,longfell[ ,i ?9k n cle>ly influ5c$ by religi\s pr9ciple1 b ,i d n see any ?+ contr>y to x4 ,"s ( 8 %ort pieces are l little gems1--s beautifully cut1 too4 ,elizabe? ,b>rett's ,br[n+ deep ?\ghts1 ri* poetical ideas1 & ?or\ghly satisfactory pr9ciples1 :5 !y appe>1 #ahdf make h] a great favorite ) me & ) u all4 ,ev5 h] fictions1 ?\gh s well told1 are n wr\ght up1 or full ( romantic incid5t2 b ! tale is pla9ly us$ m]ely z a ?read on :i* to /r+ ri* ?\ghts & lessons4 ,h[ mu* ?is is ! case ) ! ,lay ( ! ,br[n ,ros>y6 ,ev5 ! sad pieces1 su* z ! ,lo/ ,b[]1 end g5]ally ) a gleam ( light1 n f a m]e meteor ( passion or s5tim5t1 b f a day-spr+ ( ,*ri/ian hope4 ,p]haps ,i am too p>tial1 = ,i "k t ta/e1 :i* 9 me is p>ticul>ly gratifi$ ) ,e4 ,b>rett1 w influ5ce our judgm5t4 ,"s ( ,tr5*'s poems1 too1 ,i ?9k1 are wor? le>n+2 8 ,walk 9 ! ,*ur*y>d ,i p>ticul>ly l4 #c;d ,mo4 #be?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,b1 oh1 ,i d believe t if p did b accu/om !mselves to view small ?+s z p>ts ( l>ge1 mom5ts z p>ts ( life1 intellects z p>ts ( m51 lives z p>ts ( et]nity1 religion w\ld cease to be ! m]e adjunct :i* x n[ is to _m4 99 99 99 ,i am conv9c$ t till x be made ! "o object ( our e>ne/ love & endeavors1 till we h an upright he>t1 till ! lead] ( ! fir-tree po9ts direct to heav51 & all lat]al %oots n m]ely refra9 f int]f]+1 b ma9ly gr[ 9 ord] to support1 n\ri%1 & m9i/] to x1 we %all nev] h t p]fect peace1 t re/ ( _s1 t p[] to brea! freely1--consci\s t we are z if n all t we ought to be1--:i* con/itute ! happ9ess ( a ,*ri/ian4 ,b en\gh ( ?is3 don't ?9k ,i pret5d to any su* atta9m5t1 ?\gh ,i c sometimes say1 ,i foll[ aft]4 ,i mu* admir$ t "p ( ,jane ,taylor's ,rema9s :i* describes h] *e]ful & unmurmur+ acceptance ( a humble quiet life1 & h] dislike ( m]e %[ & ma*9]y 9 b5evol5ce4 ,i d n ?9k ! be/ public *>act]s are ^? :o accept =mally1 & = its own sake1 a prom95t /ation1 b ^? :o1 foll[+ _! individual duty1 & occupy+ _! peculi> gifts1 are !reby made honorable 9 ! e>?4 ,to !m1 ,i fancy1 publicity is (t5 an accid5t ( small mom5t2 & !y :o walk 9 ! light ( heav5 m9d little :e!r e>?ly eyes reg>d or disreg>d !m4 ,i d n1 h[ev]1 covet = any "o :om ,i love a conspicu\s pa?4 ,!re mu/ be _m ?orns & sn>es4 #d? ,mo4 #d?4 ,mu* int]e/$ ) ,he/] ,rog]s's life4 ,! ,me?odi/ /&>d ( hol9ess is full z high z ,fri5ds'--viz4 ! gospel /&>d4 ,/ruck ) ! accordance ) ,g4 ,fox's exp]i5ce4 ,he 0 ask$ if he _h no s91 & answ]$1 ,jesus ,*ri/ _h put away 8 s91 & 9 ,him 7,jesus7 is no s94 ,?is 0 a "y man4 ,he grew mu* aft]w>ds1 d\btless1 9 fai? & k4 ,:at w\ld be ?\ght ( a p]son1 especially "y1 :o %\ld pr(ess s mu* n[8 ,is ! gospel *ang$8 ,x is1 or we lack fai? 9 its pr9ciple4 ,we d n p]sev]+ly seek1 det]m9ately seek1 to "k = ourselves :at ?is high atta9m5t is4 ,nice visit at ! ,union on ,fir/-day4 ,congregation enl>g$1 not)/&+ sub/itution ( ,bible = ,tract1 & v quiet4 ,cornelius1 a helpless sick man1 seem+ ne> dea?1 melt$ my he>t ) 8 talk4 ,i felt q unfit to be call$ a si/] by su* a sa9t4 #d? ,mo4 #aj?4 ,to h _h mu* =giv5 is1 ,i c joyfully yet rev]5tly record ?is ev5+1 my bless$ portion2 & 9 ! s5se1 :i* z a cl\d ( w>m? & light n[ dwells 9 my he>t1 ( ! lov+-k9dness & t5d] m]cy ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 ,i h be5 ready to say1 9 effect1 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1 & all t is )9 me1 bless 8 holy "n1 :o =give? all ?9e iniquities1 :o heale? all ?y diseases1 :o r$eeme? ?y life f de/ruction1 :o cr[ne? !e ) lov+-k9dness & t5d] m]cies4 ,h[ is all giv5 me gratis1 )\t money & )\t price6 ,no?+ is m9e b confusion ( face = my (t-repeat$ rebellions4 ,oh1 x is n t we c get salvation = ourselves2 x is t we h9d] n1 refuse n1 turn n f1 b accept1 wait =1 pant = ! free gift ( our ,savi\r's grace4 ,to ,him :o is able to d exce$+ abundantly1 ! "w belongs4 ,he c cause t ev5 z s9 ha? reign$1 s %all grace reign2 & t z dea? ha? triumph$1 s %all spiritual & et]nal life triumph also4 ,am5 & am54 #d? ,mo4 #ag?4 ,h[ %ort-liv$ 7 ! feel+s ,i record$ at ! close ( la/ week6 ,i believe an e>ne/ talk ) a *atty call] on m9or matt]s1 recall$ my he>t t same ev5+ f its happy abid+-place4 ,i h ?\ght ( ! words1 ,jesus ,*ri/ ! end ( y\r conv]sation1 & fe> he is b a by-end ( m9e4 ,x is h>d to analyze our feel+s3 p]haps :5 discom=t f excitem5t & discont5t is greate/1 my s9 is no great] ?an :5 9 li/less apa?y & e>?ly-m9d$ness my ?\ghts are b\nd$ by ! se5 & ! temporal4 #e? ,mo4 #bd?4 ,a solemn w>n+ f ,uncle ,r4 on ,fif?-day did me good4 ,i 0 bless$ ) "s degree ( ability to use ! words1 ,into ,?y h&s ,i commit my _s1 & ?\gh ,i fe>$ to add1 ,?\ ha/ r$eem$ me1 ,o ,"l ( tru?1 9 its full s5se1 yet ,i h felt h[ preci\s 7 ! words1 z unto a fai?ful ,creator4 ,oh1 does ,he n say 9 ^! days1 ,op5 ?y m\? wide1 & ,i w fill x8 ,is ,8 h& %ort5$ at all8 ,c we n h fai? 9 our pr9ciples8 ,! foll[+ l9es 7 writt5 ab\t ?is1 "t1 9 allusion to ! m>riage ( h] elde/1 si/]1 & ! fun]al ( ,john ,wadge1 an old & valu$ fri5d ( ! family4 ,x 0 hop$ t ! cactus :i* _h belong$ to ,j4,w4 w\ld h blossom$ 9 "t = ! w$d+2 b ! fir/ fl[] only op5$ a =tnight aft]w>ds1 on ! morn+ ( 8 own fun]al3 & :51 9 a few ye>s1 ! m>riage ( ! belov$ writ] ( ! l9es 0 s spe$ily foll[$ by h] own decease1 ! /rik+ appropriat5ess ( ^! t\*+ v]ses c\ld n fail to be rememb]$4 ,,to ,a ,,cactus ,,fl[]4 ,fir/l+ blossom6 gayly spread+ ,on a long-nurs$ h\sehold tree1 ,:at unwont$ spell is %$d+ ,?\ght ( grief on bloom ( !e8 ,= a morn+ bright & t5d] ,!y _h nurs$ !e glad & fond2 ,nay1 ! bud res]v$ its spl5dor ,= a fun]al sc5e beyond4 ,:o %all tell u :i* 7 meet]1-- ,m>riage morn1 or fun]al day8 ,:at if nature *ose ! sweet]1 ,:]e h] bloom+ gift to lay8 ,set 9 ?orns t fl[] s t5d]6 ,m>riage days h poignant h\rs2 ,?orny /em1 ?\ ha/ ?y spl5dor6 ,fun]al days h also fl[]s4 ,& ! l(tie/ hopes man nurses1 ,nev] deem !m idly born2 ,nev] ?9k t dea?ly curses ,blight !m on a fun]al morn4 ,buds ( _! p]5nial nature ,ne$ a region :]e to bl[1 ,:]e ! /alk has l(ti] /ature ,?an x rea*es "h bel[4 ,n l u !y dread ! bosom ,( *ill e>?'s sepul*ral gloom2 ,!y w f9d !m :]e to blossom1 ,& p]haps select a tomb4 ,yes1 a tomb2 s ?\ may/ deem x1 ,) regretful feel+s fond2 ,n a tomb1 h[ev]1 seems x1 ,if ?\ "k'/ to look beyond4 #aj? ( #g? ,mon?1 #ahdg4 #h? ,mo4 #h?4 ,we alone4 ,pleasant & quiet s*emes h aris5 7p>tly f read+ ,pyecr(t1 p>tly f hav+ felt s mu* my own defici5cies7 = ?or\ghly indu/ri\s /udy1 & = keep+1 if possible1 ext]nals & m5tals 9 m ord]4 ,ord]1 ,i believe1 w\ld enable me to d mu* m ?an ,i d 9 ?is way1 )\t less5+ ^? little good works :i* my natural1 unsanctifi$ consci5ce requires z a s$ative2 7alas t ?is is s ne>ly all67 b ,i h got su* an impression ( selfi%ness 9 sitt+ d[n to read to myself1 t ?is1 add$ to unsettlem5t f company1 etc41 almo/ puts /udy out ( sight4 #h? ,mo4 #af?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,?\gh n only inability =1 b ev5 natural repugnance to good ?\ghts is (t5 a prom95t feel+1 let u n ?9k ?is a disc\rag+ exp]i5ce4 ,:at w be disc\rag$ by x1 except t self-confid5ce & self-reliance :i* are ! bane1 ! v opposite1 to ! idea ( fai?8 ,surely x is = want ( su* a feel+1 & n because ( x1 t fai? is feeble4 ,x is because we try to make ^? good ?\ghts & holy feel+s ( :i* ,?omas ,*>les says s truly1 we are no m capable ?an we are ( creat+ worlds4 ,i hope ,i d n presume too mu* 9 writ+ ?us4 ,h[ little c ,i say ( ! bless+s ( a contr>y /ate6 ,b h[ mu* w\ld my he>t's hi/ory tell ( ! exce$+ vanity & folly1 & may ,i n add presumption1 ( attempt+ to d :at ,div9e grace alone c d6 ,h[ _m a pa9ful & gloomy h\r might h be5 *e]$ by ! ,sun ( ,righte\sness1 b = my ob/9acy 9 try+ to light f>?+ c&les6 ,b ,i believe !re are g5]ally o!r ob/acles at ! same "t4 ,we w h "s belov$ indulg5ce1 "s pleasures1 ( :i* p]haps ! w is ! *ief s91 & :i*1 if b will+ly resign$1 might be reconsecrat$ = our use & enjoym5t2 & !n d>kness & gloom9ess ( m9d foll[1 & we light mat*es & f>?+ c&les to com=t u1 :ile ^! v res\rces keep u back f seek+ ! radical rem$y4 ,h[ easy x is to write or tell ! diagnosis ( su* a case6 b to be reconcil$ to ! true mode ( treatm5t1 ! prognosis1 z doctors say1 !re is ! difficulty1 :ile ,i d\bt n ,c[p] speaks ! tru?3-- ,7 half ! brea? ?us va9ly sp5t ,to heav5 9 supplication s5t1 ,y\r *e]ful song w\ld (t5] be1 ,he> :at ! ,"l ha? done = me4 ,i h be5 mu* int]e/$ ) ,?omas ,*>les's life2 su* an example ( spiritual-m9d$ness1 fai?1 & love4 ,dr4 ,payson's dea?-b$ is inde$ a deeply int]e/+ hi/ory4 ,h[ we %\ld all l to *oose su* an "o6 & yet1 if b prep>$ to g1 :e!r we dep>t z he did1 or z poor ,c[p]1 h[ true are ! words ( ! latt]1 ,:at c x signify8 ,i h (t5 ?\ght ^! words v significant4 ,( phr5ology ,i h he>d su* conflict+ op9ions t only my own small exp]i5ce w\ld satisfy me ( its g5]al tru?4 ,i ?9k only v weak m9ds ne$ be l$ by x to fatalism4 ,! v fact ( s _m prop5sities & s5tim5ts balanc+ ea* o!r seems to %[ t ! result is to be cont+5t on "s o!r ?+ ?an !mselves1 z ! be/-rigg$ vessel on an unc]ta9 sea1 9 v>y+ w9ds1 is "u ! control ( ! helmsman & capta91 & may be /e]$ "r or wrong2 & surely no vessel is built by an all-wise ,h& :i* _c be /e]$ aright ) grace at ! helm4 #h? ,mo4 #ai?4 ,solemn ?\ghts ye/]day 9 read+ t solemn tract1 ,! ,inconv5i5t ,season4 ,9 visit+ ,i met ) ano!r affect+ illu/ration ( ! unfitness ( old age = beg9n+ religion1 9 ! s5seless self-righte\sness ( poor old ,m>y ,n4 ,%e says e night & morn+ ! pray]s %e le>n$ :5 a *ild1 :i* %e evid5tly ?9ks an abundant supply ( religion1--say+1 if p only d ! be/ !y h be5 br\ght up to1 t is all !y c ne$2 & %e nev] did any h>m to any "o4 ,!n !re 0 poor ,alice1 :o1 not)/&+ h] rank ,calv9ism1 seem$ refre%+ 9 comp>ison4 ,%e knew %e c\ld n d any ?+ = h]self2 x 0 all grace2 b !n1 :atev] ,i am1 or :atev] ,i d1 %e said1 ,i am safe1 unless ,i h committ$ gross s91 :i* ,i nev] %all4 ,!n poor ,m4,l41 ^: only fault1 %e seems to ?9k1 is n hav+ le>n$ to read1 ?\gh %e kn[s %e is a great s9n]1 b !n z good z says %e nev] did any ?+ wrong4 ,x 0 a sweet *ange to ,e4,s41 ) h] ?ankful & tru/ful _s1 & poor ,s41 ) 8 deep exp]i5ce 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,x is a long "t to suff]1 he said1 b ! end mu/ come1 ! "t mu/ we> away4 ,i hope ,i %all h pati5ce to ! end1 & ,i h great ne$ to ask t ! ,"l w h pati5ce ) me4 ,i hope ,i %all be fully purifi$ be=e ,he calls me away4 ,he spoke solemnly on ! t>es & ! :eat1 z %[+ ! mixture ( good & evil gr[+ toge!r2 t our be+ outw>dly among ! righte\s w n secure our n be+ t>es4 #i? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,w5t to see a poor woman at ! ,workh\se2 %e is full ( joy 9 ! hope ( heav51 & possession ( ! pres5t m9d ( ,jesus4 ,i said1 ,_m wi% = x :o h x n2 %e said1 ,p]haps !y are n en\gh 9 e>ne/3 x co/s a few groans1 & /ruggles1 & te>s1 b x is sweet to enjoy x n[4 ,c\ld ! /ony he>t 9 me help melt+1 see+ h] exce$+ great joy8 ,pleas$ ) ! sweet _s t 0 9 poor ,alice1 h] tru/1 ,i ?9k1 9 ,*ri/ alone1 amid all h] 7z ,i ?9k7 mi/ak5 ?\ghts ( ! *ur*1 sacram5t1 c]ta9 p]sev]ance1 c4 c4 ,i did n argue1 b wi%$ = u bo? ! "o f\ndation4 ,( a peculi>ly s5sitive disposition h]self1 ,eliza's he>t ab\nd$ ) sympa?y = ! trials & suff]+s ( ! poor4 ,%e 0 a welcome visitor at _! cottages1 :]e h] k9d & g5tle ?\gh timid mann] g5]ally f\nd access to _! he>ts2 & :il/ h]self receiv+ lessons ( in/ruction at ! b$side ( ! sick & ! dy+1 %e 0 (t5 ! means ( imp>t+ sweet consolation to !m4 ,9 h] desire to promote ! spiritual welf>e ( o!rs1 %e wrote two tracts1 :i* 7 pr9t$ by ! ,york ,fri5ds' ,tract ,association4 ,! fir/ is entitl$ ,ri*>d ,nanc>r[1 or ! ,corni% ,m9]1 & traces ! ,*ri/ian c\rse ( a poor man :om %e _h frequ5tly visit$1 & :o _h claim$ h] anxi\s solicitude z %e wat*$ 8 sl[ decl9e 9 consumption4 ,9 ! second1 entitl$ ,pla9 ,words1 %e endeavor$ to convey ! simple/ gospel tru?s 9 words adapt$ to ! compreh5sion ( ev5 ! lea/ educat$4 ,%e 0 w>mly int]e/$ 9 ! ,bible ,society1 9 connection ) :i*1 = "s ye>s1 %e regul>ly visit$ a neighbor+ village1 besides att5d+ to o!r objects ( a simil> "* ne>] home4 #i? ,mo4 #aj?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,sett+ our affection above is inde$ ! fir/ ?+ ( importance2 & yet h[ utt]ly beyond our own p[]6 ,we are s enslav$ to s5se & sight till ,he1 :o alone is able1 sets u free inde$1 t ?+s ar\nd u c take t disproportionate hold on our he>ts :i* makes "w = ! light ( heav5 to r$uce ?+s to _! prop] proportion 9 our view4 ,i h ?\ght (t5 ( ! text1 ,?y w be done on e>? z x is 9 heav54 ,oh1 h[ mu* t implies1 bo? ( love & joyfulness to be aim$ at 9 our s]vice ( our heav5ly ,fa!r on e>?4 ,h[ high a /&>d6 ,c we hope ev] to atta9 x8 ,surely we are to ask x1 n z a mill5nial glory = ! _w only1 7if at all17 b also z our own individual portion4 ,x is m to be lam5t$ t we d n realize ?is ?an t we d n realize ,fo/]'s idea ( ! _w to come1 9 :i* we1 yes1 we1 our v selves1 w be actually conc]n$4 ,b ,i believe ! two defici5cies are m connect$ ?an we are sometimes aw>e (2 & p]haps ! joys ( a happy dea?-b$1 ! =eta/e ( heav51 ( :i* we sometimes he>1 are z mu* connect$ ) ! complet5ess ( religi\s devot$ness1 (t5 n till !n atta9$1 z ) ! ne>ness 9 po9t ( "t to a _w ( purity & joy4 ,h[ /rik+ is ! e>ne/ness %[n 9 ,john ,flet*]'s ,e>ly ,*ri/ian ,exp]i5ce1 9 seek+ ma/]y ov] s91 n z unc]ta9ly1 or z beat+ ! air1 b z "o resolv$ to conqu] 9 ! might ( t fai? :i* is ! victory2 & h[ wond]fully 0 8 aft]-life an example ( do+ ! ,div9e w z x is 9 heav56 #i? ,mo4 #ag?4 ,di/ress 9 ! c\ntry great4 ,:at w all issue 98 ,surely 9 ?is1 ! ,"l sitte? on ! flood2 yea1 ,he sitte? ,k+ =ev]4 ,oh6 if ,he be ,k+ 9 our he>ts we %all n be greatly mov$4 ,!re is com=t to ! ,*ri/ian1 immovable com=t1 9 hav+ 8 affections1 8 patriotism1 9 heav54 ,my own he>t1 ,i ard5tly hope1 is n a totally deva/at$ l&4 ,!re is a rudim5t /ill !re :i* ,god looke? ^u1 & p]haps1 ?\gh ,i "k x n1 8 eyes & 8 he>t are !re p]petually4 ,x is n meant to rema9 a rudim5t3 oh1 no2 z s9 ha? reign$1 ev5 unto dea?1 s grace %\ld yet reign1 ev5 to et]nal life4 #i? ,mo4 #bg?4 ,p]plex$ ab\t ,iri% knitt+1 because x is slave-gr[n cotton4 ,x does n seem consi/5t to buy x2 & yet ,i don't "k :at to recomm5d4 #i? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,ano!r mon? is at an end4 ,oh t ,i knew :]eab\ts ,i /& 9 ! race6 ',tis a po9t ,i long to "k4 ,sometimes ,i h joy ( he>t1 & !n ,i tremble le/ x be n rightly f\nd$2 sometimes t5d]ness ( he>t1 & !n ,i fe> x is only natural feel+2 sometimes f]v5t desires aft] good1 & !n ,i fe> le/ !y are only ! result ( fe> ( puni%m5t2 sometimes tru/ 9 ! m]its ( ,jesus1 & c look to ,him z a sacrifice = s92 !n ,i fe> le/ x is only z an escape f dang]1 n deliv]ance f pres5t corruption2 sometimes wi% to fulfil actively my duties1 !n ^! same duties h /ol5 away my he>t4 ,oh1 h[ d ,i get cumb]$ ) c>es & _m ?+s1 entangl$ ) p]plexity1 or elat$ ) *e]6 ,i ?9k ,i h hone/ly wi%$ to be f$ ) conv5i5t food4 ,oh to be at ! end ( ! race1 or s ne> x z de> ,e4 ,/eph5s1 by ^: b$ ( pa9 & joy ,i c\ld n b m+le te>s4 ,b :y ?us8 ,surely1 ,o ,"l1 ,?\ ha/ he>d ! desire ( ?y poor creature4 ,?y help mu/ h be5 ) me :5 ,i knew x n1 or life _h be5 q ext9ct ere n[4 ,ext9ct x is n2 & = ?is w ,i bless ,!e1 ev5 t ,i am n yet ca/ out z an abom9able bran*1 ?\gh s unfruitful4 ,i fe> x c be only by mu* tribulation t ! enemy ( my own h\se w ev] be quell$2 & p]haps salut>y pa9s are s5t1 9 ! v p]plexities ( ?+s :i* might be m ensn>+ if all w5t on smoo?ly4 ,i h decl9$ m cotton goods f ,irel&1 & ask$ = wooll51 :i* is "o burd5 gone4 #aj? ,mo4 #g?4 ,i believe /udy & ta/e mu/ be kept v subord9ate to duty4 ,en\gh1 yea1 heav5 is ?is1 to d my ,fa!r's w1 if x 7 b z x is done 9 heav5--all will+1 lov+1 joyful s]vice6 ,oh to be m l my ,savi\r6 ,surely ,i love ,him6 #aj? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,if ,m>?a %\ld n h be5 cumb]$ ) ! outw>d att5tion to ,*ri/ ,himself1 c>es = o!rs on plea ( duty c nev] be en\gh excuse = a peaceless m9d4 ,!y :i* believe d ent] into re/4 ,oh = re/ ?is h\r 9 ,jesus' bosom6 #aj? ,mo4 #ba/4 ,?is book w pres5t no fair acc\nt ( my /ate if ,i write only 9 h\rs ( com=t4 ,i h pass$ ?r\gh d>k & s9ful days--no hope1 no love4 ,i ?\ght ,i mu/ h we>i$ out ! ,savi\r--t ,he _h giv5 me up = lo/4 ,p]haps "s self 0 9 ! feel+s describ$ 9 my la/1 & s ?is fai?less sorr[ came to tea* me :at ,i am4 ,oh t no?+ impure might mix 9 ! consolation :i* has visit$ me la/ ev5+ & ?is morn+1 :5 ! graci\s reg>d ( my all-m]ciful ,savi\r has be5 witness$1 "s bless$ sight ( ! wat] to cleanse & ! blood to atone4 ,oh1 h[ f]v5tly ,i wi% to be kept by fai? 9 ,him1 9 /ill deep5+ humility6 #aa? ,mo4 #bg?4 ,:at w\ld be my pres5t condition b = ! un*angeable fai?fulness ( my ,god & ,savi\r8 ,ah6 h[ well may ,he say1 ,?\ ha/ de/roy$ ?yself1 & yet h[ con/antly add1 b 9 me is ?9e help4 ,yes1 ?\gh we (ttimes believe n1 yet ,he abide? fai?ful1 ,he _c d5y ,himself2 & s1 :]e !re is any ?+ ( ,8 own left 9 a w&]+ he>t1 aga9 & aga9 returns1 upbraid+ n1 or else only 9 acc5ts ( ! t5d]e/ love3 ,o ?\ ( little fai?6 ,(t5 h ,i admir$ n only ,8 great love z %[n 9 ! ma9 features ( r$emption1 b1 if su* a ^w is all[able1 ,8 m9ute lov+ k9dness4 ,k9dness--su* a t5d] reg>d = ! com=t & peace ( ! s\l4 ,oh1 ! spiritual sorr[s are f> m f ourselves1 our own wilful "w1 ?an f ,him ^: language is1 ,i ! ,"l d keep x1 le/ any hurt x4 #ab? ,mo4 #d?4 ,ye/]day1 9 go+ to ,plym\? ) fa!r & "m1 read 9 my ,te/am5t ( ! ,prodigal ,son4 ,_h no "t to read be=e sett+ out1 & 0 dull4 ,?\ght x no use to take out ! book2 b1 oh1 su* a sweet contrition came ov] me1 su* a s5se ( be+ invit$ to return to my ,fa!r's h\se1 su* a s(t & g5tle peace6 #a/ ,mo4 #ae?1 #ahdh4 ,on ! ,fir/-day be=e ,n4 & ,f4 left u1 we _h a sweet address 79 meet+7 f ,uncle ,rundell1 on ! grace :i* _h be5 8 morn+ light1 & :i* he tru/$ w\ld be 8 ev5+ song2 end+ ) 8 hope t all w\ld be will+ to be> ! cross1 t f9ally !y might we> ! cr[n1 = x is ! end t cr[ns ! action4 ,we ?\ght x a f>ewell-s]mon2 & ! joyful assurance 9 :i* x 0 utt]$ is preci\s to ?9k (4 ,on ,?ird-day he walk$ ) me 9 ! mead[1 b on ,f\r?-day sickness conf9$ him to b$1 & on ,fif?-day he _h lo/ all p[] ( /&+4 ,s9ce !n1 he has be5 a pati5t helpless invalid1 & con/ant & mo/ int]e/+ has be5 our occupation by turns1 9 wait+ on him1 ga!r+ up 8 really preci\s words1 & witness+ ! yet m preci\s example & evid5ce ( all-suffici5t grace4 ,nev] may ?is season be =gott5 by me1 ?\gh n privileg$ to witness its close4 ,to visit ,f41 ,i left home 9 ! ,fir/ mon?1 aft] a f>ewell to our preci\s uncle1 :i* is n to be =gott54 ,he ask$ me if ,i 0 go+ ! next day4 ,i said yes1 & t ,i 0 v sorry to leave him4 ,he said1 ,well1 z ?\ art enabl$1 pray = me4 ,i said1 ,& ,i hope ?\ won't =get me4 ,he repli$1 ,x is n likely4 ,9 ! ev5+1 z he sat by ! fire1 & spoke ( my go+ to ,n4 & ,f41 he said1 ,desire !m1 z !y are enabl$1 to pray t ,i may be favor$ ) pati5ce & resignation to ! end4 ,:5 ,i said ,i mu/ try to bid him f>ewell1 h>d z x 01 he said1 ,may ! ,"l g ) !e4 ,keep to ! cross2 despise n ! day ( small ?+s4 ,! ,"l may see meet to employ !e 9 ,8 s]vice1 & ,i wi% t e gift t ,he disp5ses to !e may be fai?fully occupi$ )4 ,a lov+ f>ewell foll[$1 & ,i left--d\btless = ! la/ "t--our honor$ patri>*4 ,at ,nea? ,i sp5t m ?an ?ree weeks1 enjoy+ ! great k9dness ( my bro!r & si/]1 & ! beauty ( ! c\ntry1 !n dress$ 9 its w9t] g>b1 & ! feel+ ( be+ 9 "s measure useful4 ,i 0 also bless$1 at ! beg9n+ ( my visit1 ) m ?an a common portion ( spiritual bless+2 & ,i ?9k ! fir/ meet+ ,i 0 at !re 0 a "t nev] to be =gott5--sil5t2 b my poor s\l seem$ swall[$ up ( joy & peace su* z ,i _h nev] be=e kn[n1 at lea/ s abid+ly4 ,! calmness & peace1 & ! daily bread1 ) :i* ,i 0 bless$ 9 my little daily works & daily retirem5ts = "s days1 make ! "t sweet to look back on1 b griev\s t ,i kept n my portion1 & aga9 w&]$ f m\nta9 to hill1 =gett+ my re/+-place4 ,%e aft]w>ds accompani$ h] bro!r & si/] to _! new home at ,ipswi*4 ,f a lett] to "o ( h] si/]s4 ,ipswi*1 #c;d ,mon?4 ,my m9d has be5 s full ( y to-day t1 ?\gh x is ,fir/-day ev5+1 ,i mu/ sp5d a few m9utes 9 ?is way be=e ,i g to b$4 ,! ?\ght ( fa!r's go+ homew>ds to-morr[ & see+ y all1 seems a /irr+ up & draw+ tight ( ! int]e/s & connect+ bonds ( our scatt]$ race4 ,oh1 ,i d de>ly love y 9 my inmo/ he>t1--?\gh "s ( my lett]s may seem z if ,i _h lo/ "s home affections to root among/ /rang]s2 b surely ! new sc5es ( life :i* ,i h witness$1 s9ce t cold fro/y morn+ :5 ,i left y1 h t5d$ to make me value m ?an ev] t preci\s treasure ( h\sehold love4 ,oh1 :at 7 life )\t x8 a wild]ness inde$6 & well is x wor? all ! pangs :i* x may co/ u 9 ?is cold _w4 ,x is *e]+ to ?9k ( !m z caus$ by contact ( some?+ w>m )91 z ) ! cold )\t2 & f> bett] x is to be>1 ?an to be cool$ d[n to ! temp]ature ( e>?'s raw air4 ,?\ wilt wond] p]haps at my writ+ 9 ?is way2 b ) me1 ?\gh ,i may seem cold & dull 9 ! common way1 !re comes a day1 e n[ & !n1 :5 ,i f9d ,new dep?s ( love1 9 measure unsuspect$1 ,ties clos] ?an ,i knew 7 r\nd my he>t4-- ,& ?\gh !y are sadd5$ by _m a regret = neglects & omissions & commissions t[>d y all1 & t old petrify+ selfi%ness :i* only grace c cure1 ,i w\ld n be )\t su* days1 & almo/ ?ank ea* wr5* :i* has detect$ h[ ?or\ghly & deeply de> y are4 ,i c h>dly tell y :at ! ?\ght ( leav+ ,n4 & ,f4 is to me1 b ?is d>k day beg9s to %ad[ itself4 99 99 99 ,poor de> old ,a4,g46 ,:at a *ange f h] d>k corn] to ev]la/+ day6--b n less f a k+ly palace1 if we knew ! tru?2 & h] %ad[y abode _h m light ?an _m a palace1 if we knew ! tru? ( t too4 ,%e rem>ks 9 h] ,j\rnal1 aft] h] return home3-- ,i /ay$ at ,ipswi* ?ree weeks aft] ! bir? ( my preci\s little niece1 ,frances ,elizabe?2 rejoic+ 9 h] daily gr[?1 & calm tru/ful fe>lessness--a lesson :i* no?+ ev] prea*$ to me s l\dly be=e4 ,respect+ my spiritual /ate at ,ipswi*1 ,i w\ld say t great bless+s1 & ,i w\ld fe> great +ratitude1 mu/ be ackn[l$g$4 ,"s ev5+ h\rs 9 my *amb] 7 exce$+ sweet1 & "s meet+s solemn inde$4 99 99 99 ,i return$ 9 ri* & fl[+ peace4 ,_m a lesson ,i _h ?r\gh my f\r mon?s' abs5ce1 b none l t :i* await$ my return4 ,my fa!r met me at ,plym\?2 we rea*$ home ab\t elev5 o'clock at night1 & w5t at once to ! *amb]1 :]e f\r mon?s previ\sly ,i la/ he>d ! voice ( my uncle1 &1 ?\gh he /ill brea!d1 ,i 0 n to he> x aga94 ,he _h sunk gradually = weeks1 & n[1 ?\gh 8 lips mov$ a little1 a ^w c\ld n be he>d4 ,8 face 0 sunk & pallid1 8 brea?+ uneasy1 & 8 eyes 7 clos$4 ,aft] a %ort "t we left1 & at f\r o'clock 9 ! morn+1 )\t a /ruggle1 8 _s pass$ quietly away to 8 et]nal inh]itance4 ,!y t turn _m to righte\sness %all %9e z ! />s = ev] & ev]4 ,i nev]1 ,i believe1 %all =get h[ =cibly came to my m9d1 z ,i sat beside 8 lifeless =m1 ! words1 ,to ?is end ,*ri/ bo? di$1 & rose1 & reviv$1 t ,he might be ,"l bo? ( ! dead & ! liv+1 & my ?\ghts turn$ on _m a solemn & bless$ tru/ impli$ 9 !m4 ,h] uncle1 ,samuel ,rundell1 di$ on ! #d? ( #e? ,mon?1 #ahdh1 at ! age ( eighty-five4 ,9 ! ,annual ,monitor = ! foll[+ ye> is a %ort ,memoir ( 8 life4 ,x _h be5 = "s ye>s a frequ5t occupation ) ,eliza1 toge!r ) h] si/]s & c\s9s1 to sp5d ! long w9t] ev5+s ) h] ag$ uncle & aunt1 & aft] ! decease ( ! =m] ^! att5tions 7 m con/antly ne$$ by ! survivor4 ,x 0 /rik+ to notice ,eliza's *e]ful alacrity to rel9qui%1 :5 h] turn came r\nd1 h] favorite pursuits1 (t5 = "s weeks toge!r1 9 ord] to com=t & enliv5 ! decl9+ days ( ?is ag$ relative4 #g? ,mo4 --?4 ,my m5tal condition a quiet b n pa9less "o4 ,i _h be5 mu* favor$1 ?\gh 9 pa9 & tr\ble1 amid/ :i* ,i _h a k9d note f ,j4,t41 :o says1 ,:5 at ,liske>d1 & s9ce1 ,i h believ$ t x might be said unto !e1 ',! ,ma/] is come1 & calle? = !e2' & ,i wi%1 if ?\ ha/ be5 made s5sible ( ?is1 x may be ?y v e>ne/ conc]n to sit at ,8 feet 9 great humility ( m9d1 t ?\ may/ he> f season to season ! graci\s words t may proce$ z out ( ,8 m\?4 ,x may be t 9 ! ord]+ ( ,8 graci\s designs1 ,he may see fit1 z ,he has done ) _m o!rs1 to allure !e & br+ !e into ! wild]ness2 b ,i h no d\bt t ,he w also give !e v9ey>ds f !nce1 & ?\ wilt be made s5sible t inde$ x is ,8 own "r arm t has & w br+ salvation unto !e ,?\gh at pres5t incapable ( feel+ z ,i h done1 yet1 be+ desir\s ( f9i%+ up my ,j\rnal1 ,i mu/ ackn[l$ge t great & graci\s h be5 ! deal+s ( my heav5ly ,fa!r ) me1 caus+ me to rejoice 9 ,him :o has done = me exce$+ abundantly above all t ,i c\ld ask or ?9k1 *iefly 9 ! way1 :i* ,i h f\nd a v bless$ way1 ( enabl+ me to give up my own w to ,81 & to be subject 9 ?+s little & great to ,himself4 ,z f> z ,i h kn[n ! yoke ( ,*ri/1 x is inde$ a sweet & easy yoke2 & ! *iefe/ sorr[ :i* ,i h f\nd dur+ my endeavor to be> x has be5 f my aptness to ?r[ x (f4 ,! wor/ ( sn>es are ! mo/ secret4 ,we are n[ quietly & unexcit$ly at home2 & ,i wi% indu/ri\sly to d my little duties1 & foll[ my little call+s3 ( ^! ! ,workh\se wom5 supply "o ( ! mo/ satisfactory to myself4 ,!y are a sad sight2 b ,i feel t my small labors ) !m are n reject$1 b desir$1 & ,i hope to a few at lea/ !y may be ( "s use4 ,on ,fir/-days ,i n[ fir/ read a %ort tract1 !n read 9 ! ,te/am5t two or ?ree *apt]s1 v]se by v]se1 ) ! wom51 !n he> !m say hymns1--:i* ?ree or f\r le>n gladly3 ?is fills ! h\r4 ,& once 9 a week ,i l to g 9 & try to tea* ^? :o _c read4 ,i h mu* felt1 lately1 t x is va9 to try z a m]e satisfaction to consci5ce to d ^! ?+s1 because we ought3 x mu/ be f a bett] motive--true keep+ ( ! fir/ & great comm&m5t1 & ! second1 :i* is l unto x4 ,no busy do+s at home or abroad w ev] d in/ead4 #h? ,mo4 #e?4 #g?-,day4 ,i mu/ 9 ?ankfulness record free & great m]cies ?is week4 ,fir/-day 0 a happy "o4 ,9 ! morn+ ra9 & a c\gh kept me at home4 ,i read ! crucifixion & resurrection 9 diff]5t ,evangeli/s1 & _c tell h[ melt+ly sweet x 04 ,surely ,i did love ,jesus !n because ,he _h fir/ lov$ me4 ,sundry sweet refre%+ brooks h fl[$ by my wayside1 & "s dry lonely pa?s ,i h trodd51 7s9ce17 b ?9k ,he :o is alone ! f\ndation & corn]-/one1 immovable & undeceiv+1 has become m preci\s4 ,oh1 h[ %all ,i be en\gh c>eful to tru/ him alone8 ,i h got on a little ) ,gibbon's ,rise & ,fall1 & h begun ,ne&] on ! ,emp]ors1 f9i%$ "o volume ( ,goe! ) ,l41 & begun ,milton ) ,m41 & ,engli% hi/ory ) ,r4 #i? ,mo4 #b;d4 ,! week tol]ably satisfactory2 b h[ truly may we say1 ,a day 9 ?y c\rts is bett] ?an a ?\s&6 ,?is ev5+'s unexpect$1 uns\ght1 unask$1 free1 gratuit\s m]cy has made ! la/ two h\rs wor? m ?an "s :ole days ( ?is week4 ,oh1 h[ k9d is ,he :o kn[s h[ to w9 back & attract to ,himself by imp>t+ ineffable desires aft] :at is good1 ev5 to a he>t t has gr[n dry & dead & worldly6 ,i h ?\ght t "s measure ( our gr[? 9 grace may be f\nd 9 ! degree 9 :i* our c>nal natural reluctance to receive ,*ri/ back into our vessel1 come h[ ,he may1 is dim9i%$4 ,h[ full ( significance is ! inquiry1 ,to :om is ! arm ( ! ,"l reveal$8 ,bless$ revelation2 & well is x = ^? :o feel ready to adopt ! pray]1 ,awake1 awake1 ,o arm ( ! ,"l1 if !y "k ! way ( its com+4 ,oh1 h[ does its acceptance presuppose an exp]i5ce ( some?+ ( ! k9d1 s awfully set =? z f ,omnipot5ce ,himself6--,i look$1 & !re 0 no man1 !re=e m9e own arm br\ght salvation unto me4 ,yes1 x is :5 ,he sees t we h no human expectance or confid5ce left1 & are1 z x 71 at our wits' end2 x is !n t ,8 own arm br+s salvation1 t ,he says1 ,/& /ill1 & see ! salvation ( ,god2 = ! ,"l %all fight = y1 & ye %all hold y\r peace4 ,oh1 h[ great ! condesc5sion :i* has giv5 me a glimpse ( s great salvation6 ,b ,i h rem>k$ t x nev] has be5 9 answ] to any que/ion+s or se>*+s ( my own4 ,"s great p]plexities ,i h _h lately1 be+ s unable to satisfy myself h[ f> religion or its duties %\ld be ! act ( ourselves--s confus$ ab\t pray]1 etc4 ,difficulties1 h>dly capable to be put into words1 put me 9 real di/ress2 b ! good seems to be reveal$1 if ,i may use su* a ^w1 to ano!r "p ( me2 or1 z ,i4 ,p5n+ton w\ld say1 to ano!r eye & e> ?an ^? :i* are s curi\s to le>n4 ,! ,"l grant t ,i may at la/ become an ob$i5t & truly tea*able *ild2 = t faculty1 :atsoev] x be1 t asks vocif]\sly1 seems n to be ! "o :i*1 z ,i4,p4 says1 grasp+ly receives1 b is r a h9d]ance to its reception4 #aj? ,mo4 #ad?4 ,outw>dly1 ! *ief v>iety 9 my exp]i5ce has be5 an int]e/+ visit ) my "m at ,k+sbridge & ,totness4 ,a solit>y walk 9 ! g>d5 at ,totness1 on ,fir/-day aft]noon1 ,i ?9k ,i c nev] =get4 ,no sun%9e--?\gh n m]e d>kness--0 ^u me dur+ ne>ly all ! week3 yet ,i wond]$ to f9d t at ,k+sbridge1 ?\gh visit+ 0 a con/ant self-d5ial1 9 )draw+ me f ! e>ne/ se>* 9 :i* ,i 0 engag$1 ,i got on m easily ?an common1 & felt mu* m love ?an usual to my fri5ds4 ,! fir/ gleam ( sun%9e did n come ?r\gh any man's help1 b 9 my lone mat9 ! day aft] our return4 ,i tri$ to ca/ my c>e on ,god1 & on ,sev5?-day morn+ 0 favor$ ) a bless$ evid5ce t ,he did c>e = me4 ,s9ce !n x has n be5 repeat$2 b e>ne/ h be5 my cries 9 secret to my heav5ly ,fa!r1 ^: m]cies inde$ are great2 & my lonely h\rs h be5 employ$ mo/ly 9 seek+ ,him1 hav+ little ta/e = read+ ( any g5]al k9d4 ,"o morn+ 9 p>ticul>1 at ,trevelmond1 9 ! plantation1 wait+ = my fa!r1 0 my he>t p\r$ out to ,god4 ,calmness has (t5 succe$$2 & !n ,i dread ! com+ ( indiff]5ce & coolness4 ,oh1 ?is is surely ! wor/ ( /ates6 ,i _h r endure almo/ any am\nt ( angui%4 ,ye/]day1 ! probability t my c\rse on e>? may be %ort occurr$ =cibly4 ,i recurr$ to ! words quot$ by ,j4,t41 ,! /+ ( dea? is s91 ) enc\ragem5t to hope = ! victory4 ,h[ev]1 ! future is n my c>e4 ,may ,i be ! c>e ( ,him ^: c>e ! future is1 & !n---- #aj? ,mo4 #bb;d4 ,at home ) a cold1 & may j record my poor _s's l[ness & pov]ty amid1 z ,i tru/1 its hone/ desires to become :olly ! ,"l's4 ,ye ask1 & h n1 because ye ask amiss1 t ye may consume x ^u y\r lu/s1 is surely true ( spiritual food4 ,we %\ld desire x t we may gr[ !reby1 n f m]e spiritual voluptu\sness2 &1 oh1 9 my own desires = ! w ( ,god to be done1 h[ (t5 h ,i n kn[n :at _s ,i 0 (6 ,h[ (t5 h ,i be5 t5aci\sly /&+ on ! v gr\nd t ,i 0 ask+ to h brok5 up & de/roy$6 ,a %ort lone meet+ 9 ! p>lor1 ble/ *iefly ) humiliation1 & ?is ,i w\ld reg>d z a bless+4 ,lett] to ----4 ,i am tempt$ to sp5d a few lonely m9utes 9 ?ank+ !e = ?y truly k9d salutation1 advice1 & enc\ragem5t2 ?\gh ,i fe> to say mu* 9 reply4 ,i hope & tru/ ?\ art n altoge!r mi/ak5 9 me3 9 "o respect ,i "k ?\ art n1--t ,i h se5 ( ! m]cy & love ( a long-suff]+ ,savi\r1 :om ,i d at times desire to love & s]ve ) all my he>t2 & n ! lea/ ( ,8 bless+s ,i e/eem x t any ( ,8 *ildr5 %\ld c>e = me = ,8 sake4 ,i dread dep5d+ on any1 ev5 ( ^!1 :i*1 z well z ! fe> ( man1 ,i h f\nd does br+ a sn>e2 & z f> z exp]i5ce goes1 ,i seem to h ta/$ m ( ! tree ( ! k ( good & evil ?an ( ! tree ( life2 :i*1 h[ev]1 ,i w\ld fa9 hope1 yield+ its fruit e mon?1 has "s = ! w9try season ( d>kness & ( fro/4 ,yes1 my de> fri5d1 ?\ ha/ rightly judg$ 9 ?is also1 t ! w9t] is sometimes v cold1 & ! night v d>k4 ,may ?y desires = me be accompli%$1 t ^! may inde$ "w = my good2 mu* z ! utt] abs5ce ( feel+ w\ld sometimes tempt me to ?9k x ! result ( t wor/ ( all s5t5ces1 ,let h] alone2 to :i* ! add$ memories ( _m a m]cy ca/ away are v ready to contribute4 ,am ,i 9 ?is rep9+8 ,i hope n2 = e day br+s fre% cause to ackn[l$ge t because my enemies1 ?\gh lively & /rong1 d n q triumph ov] me1 !re=e ,i may /ill tru/ t ,he favore? me4 ,x is seldom t ,i write or speak 9 ?is way ( myself4 ,may we le>n m & m ( ! utt] insuffici5cy ( any e>?ly ?+1 or ( any p[] ( our own to d :at is ess5tial = our salvation1 & !n1 :5 we hang solely & entirely on ! ,"l ,jesus1 we %all be safe4 ,( ?is ,i feel no d\bt or fe>3--! fe> is ( hav+ confid5ce 9 any ?+ besides1 ( spiritual pride1 ( self-suffici5cy4 ,yes1 ,i f9d self has _m lives1 & ! v sorr[s & humiliations ( "o day1 if we d n bew>e1 may become ! idols ( ! next4 ,we h eat5 & drunk 9 ?y pres5ce3 c su* a language ev] be us$ 9 va9-glory1 :ile we rememb] ! wormwood & ! gall1 :i* we n[ see to h be5 adm9i/]$ 9 fulfilm5t ( ,8 own words1 ,ye %all inde$ dr9k ( my cup8 ,inde$1 x seems to me t no?+ is too high1 too good1 or too pure = ,satan to make use (1 if he c b get u & x into 8 h&s4 ,may ! ,"l be pleas$ to rebuke ?is dev\r] = our sakes1 & give at l5g? to ! (t5-despond+ he>t to "k t ,himself ha? promis$1 :5 ! wick$ are cut (f1 ?\ %alt see x1 & t ! ,god ( peace %all bruise ,satan "u our feet4 #ab? ,mo4 #d? ,to ! same4 99 99 99 ,i am sorry = ?y physical /ate1 yet d\btless x is b ! inv]t$ image ( a c\nt]balanc+ m5tal good1 :i* is1 or is ab\t to be1 p]haps to signify t ,god do? n ne$ ,ei!r man's works or ,8 own gifts2 :o be/ ,be> ,8 mild yoke1 !y s]ve ,him be/2 ,!y also s]ve :o only /& & wait4 ,x is surely n = ! value ( ! s]vice itself1 t ,he calls = x s long & s repeat$ly1 till at la/ ! iron s9ew gives way3 no1 b = ! sake ( b5d+ ! iron s9ew itself1 & :5 x is b5t 9 "o direction1 ,i conclude ,he does n mean to /iff5 x !re1 b w\ld h x b5d p]haps back to ! v same position z at fir/ x 0 s h>d to b5d x f1 ) ?is "o wide diff]5ce1 t 9 ! fir/ case x 0 s 9 its own w1 b n[ 9 ,8 w4 ,p]haps ?\ ?9ke/ ,i am d>k5+ c\nsel3 ,i d n wi% to d s1 b write j h[ ?+s h happ5$ to me 9 my small way4 ,ought we n to be will+ to be b5t or unb5t any way8 & if a b[ is to abide 9 /r5g?1 x mu/ be unb5t :5 x is n want$4 ,b z we h all diff]5t places to fill1 & diff]5t dispositions & sn>es1 & besetm5ts1 we mu/ n measure ourselves among ourselves4 ,x is inde$ v good1 z ?\ saye/1 to be sometimes alone1 & at times ,i tru/ ,i h f\nd x s2 b x has its dang]s also1 especially to me1 :o am p]haps m apt to make self ( too mu* importance ?an to %r9k f due responsibility & au?ority4 ,inde$1 ?is latt] ^w belongs n to me at all1 & if ,i may b keep life 9 me1 7or h x kept17 well inde$ w x be4 ,oh1 till we h grace en\gh will+ly to d ! smalle/ matt]s1 ?ankfully to sit 9 ! l[e/ room1 meekly & pati5tly to be put out ( our own way1 & see our plans & int5tions fru/rat$1 & f9d ourselves ( small acc\nt or value 9 ! ,*ur* or 9 ! _w1 yes1 till we h grace en\gh to =get self altoge!r1 cont5t to fill a little space1 s ?\ art glorifi$1 ,i "k n :]e is our claim to be foll[]s ( ,him :o made ,himself ( no reputation4 ,i am v f> f ?is4 ,c\ld/ ?\ h se5 h[ mu* hold ! _m small duties ( my lonely week h tak5 on my m9d1 h[ little "t ,i h f\nd = ! purpose = :i* we bo? value solitude1 & h[ mu* my lightly /irr$ _s has be5 hurri$ ab\t f "o object to ano!r1 ,i fe> ?\ w\ld/ sc>cely ?9k ev5 ?is note o!r ?an presumptu\s4 ,oh1 h[ %\ld ,i be rebuk$ by ! ?\ght1 ,"o ?+ is ne$ful1 & b "o3 ,:y d ?y ?\ghts on _m run8 #ab? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,to-day ends ! week1 & to-morr[ ! ye>4 ,v unfit am ,i to speak ( x z ,i w\ld4 ,i h felt v happy on "s occasions1 yet ,i h fe>$ le/ :at %\ld be on a good f\ndation is yet b built ( hay & /ubble4 ,if s1 :o c tell ! fi]c5ess ( ! fire t burns betwe5 me & my wi%$-= re/8 ,!re is no way to true safety b ?r\gh x2 &1 oh1 to "p ) all combu/ibles is v h>d2 b :y wa/e a ?\ght on ! h>dness1 c\ld x b be spe$ily & simply done8 ,my old difficulty--:at is duty :5 ! s5sible help ( grace is out ( sight--r5ews its /r5g?4 ,d\btless to wait = x1 & p]haps ask = x also2 b h[8 ,oh t ,i _h cross$ ! great gulf f myself to my ,savi\r6 ,oh t ,i 7 9 ,8 h&s & out ( my own6 #b;d ,mo4 #c;d1 #ahdi4 ,i h be5 sorely tri$ ) app>5t des]tion & d>kness2 yet n des]t$ is my /ill /ruggl+ fai?2 & "s consol+ ?\ghts h visit$ me ( days /ill ,i tru/ 9 /ore1 :51 z "o :om 8 "m com=te?1 ! ,"l w com=t me4 ,de> ,j4,t4's c\nsel has seldom be5 abs5t f my ?\ghts2 b1 manifold z h be5 my heav5ly ,fa!r's in/rum5tal m]cies1 ,i nev] 0 m impress$ ) ! absolute ne$ ( ,8 imm$iate pres]v+ c>e4 ,c ,i tru/ a fell[-be+8 ,c ,i tru/ an angel's c>e8 ,o ?\ m]ciful ,all-,see+1 ,beam ar\nd my _s !re4 ,& n less "h1 9 ?is %ady vale ( life1 ?an 9 ! deep ( dea?4 ,oh1 h[ desirable1 h[ inf9itely sweet1 to sleep 9 ,8 arms1 on ,8 bosom6 ,an e>ly translation1 if x 7 ,8 w1 w\ld inde$ be a bless$ portion2 b ,i d n expect su* indulg5ce1 & desire n to wi% x4 ,x is en\gh if ,i may "k t to live is ,*ri/1 & t to die w at l5g? be great ga94 #b;d ,mo4 #ac?4 ,seldom does any appeal to my heav5ly ,fa!r seem m fitt+ ?an ?is1 ,?\ kn[e/ my fooli%ness2 &1 oh1 may ,8 arm ( m]cy & compassion be "o day reveal$4 #c;d ,mo4--?4 ,lett] to ----4 99 99 99 ,oh1 h[ desirable x is to be will+ to be made ( mu* or ( little use6 ,& c>eful less to s]ve !e mu*1 ,?an to please !e p]fectly3 &1 v f> back z ,i feel 9 ! race1 & ins5sible ( advance1 ,i ?9k we may be enc\rag$ to believe t we make "s approa*es to ! m>k = ! prize1 if we h a cle>] & m desir\s view ( ! yet f>-di/ant goal4 ,?9e eyes %all see ! ,k+ 9 8 beauty1 !y %all behold ! l& t is v f> (f1 mu/ h be5 address$ to "o /ill v f> f ! promis$ l&4 ,?us ,i scribble to !e ! mus+s ) :i*1 9 my n[ %ady allotm5t1 ,i try to enc\rage myself to hope2 & :i* p]haps are z incorrect z ! lam5t :i* ! beautiful spr+ w sometimes prompt1 ,) ! ye> seasons return1 b n to me4 ,x w\ld1 h[ev]1 be mo/ ungrateful to compla94 ,to live at all is a great favor--an undes]v$ & unspeakable favor2 & ?\gh x be a life ( pa9 & we>9ess1 & ev5 grief1 may x nev] become a life ( ?ankless +ratitude6 ,we :o h tri$ our heav5ly ,fa!r's pati5ce s long1 d>e we compla9 ( wait+ = ,him8 #d? ,mo4 #ac?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,h[ev] high be ! capacity ( ! m9d1 x is humiliat+ to f9d :at small ?+s c di/ract x1 if its an*or-hold be n truly :at & :]e x ought to be2 & :o does n f9d ! ne$ ( ?is be+ (t5 r5ew$ & made fa/8 ,! little exp]i5ce ,i h _h1 t ev5 a life comp>atively free f trial1 except z reg>ds its highe/ significance1 is b vanity1 & ! belief t x is s inf9itely surpass$ by ano!r1 has mu* modifi$ to me ! feel+ ( witness+ 7might ,i v5ture to say ( anticipat+87 ! transition = o!rs or = myself4 ,i nev]!less _c say mu* f exp]i5ce2 = x has n yet be5 my lot to lose "o ( my own intimate or ne>ly atta*$ fri5ds1 except :]e ! c\rse ( "t _h made x a natural & inevitable ?+2 & ,i "k !re mu/ be dep?s ( sorr[ 9 su* ev5ts only fa?om$ by desc5d+ to !m4 #d? ,mo4--?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 ,:at a privilege x is to be p]mitt$ to expect & look = a bett] guidance ?an our own judgm5t or incl9ation1 ev5 9 ! small ?+s ( our small lives2 small ?\gh !y are1 comp>$ ) ! great ev5ts :i* are rul$ by our heav5ly ,fa!r's w1 h[ mu* is involv$ 9 !m z f> z we are conc]n$6 & we ne$ n measure ! controll+ c>e ( ,provid5ce by ! ab/ract greatness or littl5ess ( any ev5t4 ,comp>$ ) ,8 inf9ity1 ! fate ( an empire w\ld be n m wor?y ( ,8 c>e ?an ! lea/ ev5t ( our lives2 b x is love--! same wond]ful love t c com=t & bless ! dy+-pill[ ( a little "o1 9 :i* we want m practical fai? = our safe conduct ?r\gh ?is unc]ta9 life4 ,did we live 9 su* a fai?1 x w\ld be sweet & easy to die 9 x4 #d? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,bri/ol4 ,ye/]day 0 a memorable day to me2 ! ev5+ meet+ f\nd me v sad & burd5$2 :5 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 made s5sible ( some?+ l an (f] f ,"o :o is inf9ite 9 p[] & love1 to take ?is burd5 away1 to be> x ,himself1 & to d 9 me ,8 own w4 ,!re seem$ some?+ l a cov5ant set be=e me1 t all ?is %\ld be done = me on condition ( my acquiesc5ce ) & subjection to t supreme w1 t ,i %\ld refuse nei!r to suff] ,8 own "w )9 me nor to d ,8 manife/$ w4 ,x may be t ,i /amp too highly :at 0 mo/ g5tly & calmly spread be=e my he>t4 ,x may be t ! relief1 ! peaceful calm1 :i* foll[$ my endeavor to unite ) ?is preci\s proposal1 0 a mi/ak5 ?+2 b ,i believe n4 ,/rik+ly 9 unison ) all ?is 0 ! evangelical & practical s]mon ( ,s4 ,treffry :i* foll[$1 & my feel+s 9 return+ home & sitt+ d[n alone = a few m9utes to seek a confirmation1 7 l a seal to all t ,i _h he>d 9 meet+4 ,?is morn+ ,i am f> f ri* or lively1 b seem b\nd nei!r to d\bt nor to compla92 b only & con/antly to endeavor to submit e ?\ght ( my he>t to my de> ,savi\r's w2 & ?us1 aft] _m a toss+1 ,i h be5 enabl$ to say1 ,i re/ my s\l on ,jesus1-- ,?is we>y s\l ( m9e4 ,!re may ,i ev] be1 ,o ,"l4 #e? ,mo4 #ac?4 ,fir/-day ev5+4 ,oh t "h ,i might once m set up my ,eb5ez]1 & say1 ,hi!rto ,?\ ha/ help$ me1 ,o ,"l4 ,my ,fa!r's arms1 & n my own1 7 ^? t held me fa/4 ,ah6 my own hold 9 ! la/ =tnight has (t5 relax$1 ?\gh _m a he>t-t5d]+ evid5ce h ,i _h t ,he is fai?ful t ha? promis$4 ,ye/]day morn+ :5 ,i awoke1 dead z ev] 9 myself1 "s sweet :isp] ( goodness at h& salut$ my e>1 &1 oh1 x 0 b a s\nd ( ! abundance ( heav5ly ra9 t soon made my he>t ov]fl[4 #h? ,mo4 #d?4 ,lett] to ---- 99 99 99 ,at our ,mon?ly ,meet+1 only a few words f ----1 advis+ "y ones to be pati5t & submissive4 ,& surely we may well be ?ankful to le>n s :olesome a lesson1 see+ h[ _m sorr[s we h (t5 br\ght ^u ourselves by ! contr>y disposition1 & h[ fai?ful is ! promise t ! meek ,he w guide 9 judgm5t & tea* ,8 way4 ,h[ contemptible1 z well z s9ful1 t rebelli\s _s sometimes appe>s 7:5 we hone/ly weigh x7 t wants to make 9 its own special favor exceptions to ! wise managem5t ( our k9d & graci\s heav5ly ,fa!r6 ,oh1 :y %\ld we prolong our woes by su* p]v]sity1 :5 we feel at times z if x w\ld be our highe/ joy to be :at ,he w\ld h u to be1 & our v meat & dr9k to d ,8 w8 #h? ,mo4 #ac?4 ,?is ev5+ we _h a preci\s meet+ inde$4 ,a solemn sil5ce1 9 :i* mu* _h be5 felt1 0 foll[$ by a f]v5t pray] f ----4 ,truly my he>t's response 01 ,let ?9e own "w praise !e4 ,d ,i write too mu* if ,i record ! bless+ ( ability to crave = myself ?is ev5+ an increas$ k ( & ob$i5ce to ! ,%eph]d's voice1 & t no disguise ( ,satan may ev] impose on me = ?is8 #i? ,mo4 #g?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,i (t5 wond] at ! attractions s _m f9d 9 m]ely foll[+ ! multitude 9 _! recreations4 99 99 99 ,d we n sometimes f9d1 if our hone/ wi% is to refre% ourselves = duty1 & n to escape f x1 t ev5 our re/ & recreation is own$ by a bless+ to :i* "o w\ld n = all ! _w be /rang]s8 ,h[ k9d 0 ,he :o _h welcom$ back 8 fai?ful twelve f _! labors = o!rs1 :5 ,he said1 ,come ye y\rselves ap>t into a des]t place1 & re/ a :ile2 = !re 7 _m com+ & go+1 & !y _h no leisure s mu* z to eat4 ,b ev5 !n !y 7 to le>n no selfi% indol5ce1 & re/ 0 quickly laid aside to %>e _! morsels ) ?\s&s4 ,if we 7 always ,8 companions1 did all our hopes ( happ9ess /ay calmly at ,8 side1 h[ w\ld our sitt+ d[n to re/ & ris+ up to toil be alike bless$6 ,& !n1 :5 ! sc5e is *ang$1 & sorr[ & c>e become our portion1 ! same :o 0 our joy 9 prosp]ity w be our refuge 9 adv]sity2 & because ?\ ha/ made ! ,"l ?y habitation1 !re %all no evil befall !e4 ,i write my wi%es = u bo?2 may x be ?us ) !e & me1 & :5 x is well ) !e1 ?9k ( "o :o longs sometimes to "k ^! ?+s = h]self4 ,b h[ well x is t our safety is 9 o!r h&s ?an ours6 h[ (t51 _h x dep5d$ ev5 on our cont9u$ desire = t :i* is good1 _h all be5 ov] ) u6 ,?y p>5ts' arms1 & n ?y own1 ,7 ^? t held !e fa/4 #aa? ,mo4 #d?4 ,hunt$ ) ?\ghts1 z ,j4 ,crook s truly describes x1 up & d[n l a p>tridge on ! m\nta9s1 (t5 feel+ 9 meet+ z if no?+ c\ld be comp>$ ) ! joy ( re/+ 9 ,jesus1 a re/ to :i* ,i am /ill mu* a /rang]2 no m able to comm& ! mob ( unquiet ?\ghts ?an to hu% ! w9ds4 ,at o!r times1 z ?is ev5+ 9 my *amb]1 a sort ( /ra9$ angui% ( s\l1 :]e9 my desire has be5 t my eyes might he ev] t[>d ! ,"l1 t ,he1 9 ,8 own "t1 may pluck my feet out ( ! net4 ,! m5tal pa9 ,i h pass$ ?r\gh makes "s escape seem mo/ desirable4 ,if to lay d[n ! body 7 all ,i ne$$ to escape1 & ,i 7 fit = x1 h[ will+ly w\ld ,i accept su* an invitation6 ,b ,i d>e n ask x1 nor any o!r ?+1 b only t ,he :o alone c1 may make me 9 ,8 own "t :at ,he w\ld h me to be2 & ?is ev5+ ,i h be5 ?9k+ t ! pa9ful feel+s ,i suff]$ might be ! means appo9t$ = free+ me f ! bondage ( ! worldly m9d1 & f ^? torm5t+1 hurry+ ?\ghts4 ,oh1 be x s2 :e!r by means utt]ly incompreh5sible to me1 or n1 be ! ne$ful "w done4 ,i tru/ ! compreh5sion is n ne$$2 & t ! simplicity & submission :i* are ne$$ may be grant$ me2 & t /ill if my enemies be expell$1 z ,i hope !y w be by ,8 own arm1 7z de> ,j4,t4 said17 _! pres5ce w n be laid to my *>ge4 ,alas1 t ,i am s (t5 guilty ( dally+ ) !m6 ,:at wond] t ! wild]ness is s long & tortu\s1 :5 ,i reckon ! molt5 calves1 ! murmur+s1 ! fle%ly desires8 #a/ ,mo4 #ag?1 #ahej4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,can/ ?\ feel any sympa?y or compassion = "o :o pleads guilty to ! folly ( a flurri$ m9d1 wa/+ its /r5g? 9 /r5u\s idl5ess1 & t1 too1 ) op5 eyes1 see+ its own weakness & despis+ x8 ,"o ( ! wor/ ?+s su* a folly includes is t x all[s no leisure to ! m9d2 :]eas1 ,i believe well-ord]$ m9ds1 h[ev] mu* c>e may be plac$ ^u !m1 c ?r[ ?is aside1 :5 n necess>ily engag$1 & repose 9 ! true dignity ( self-comm&4 ,?is is1 ,i believe1 "s p's natural gift2 b x surely ought1 by sup]natural means1 to be )9 e "o's rea* if only ! gov]nm5t 7 on ! %\ld]s ( ! ,pr9ce ( ,peace4 ,oh1 h[ mu* t means6 ,:at delectable m\nta9s6 ,:at gre5 pa/ures6 ,:at /ill wat]s6 ,:at g>d5s enclos$6 ,:at s\? l&s1 & spr+s ( wat]1 are pictur$ 9 t beau-ideal on e>? z x is 9 heav56 ,well my second page has spok5 ( a l& v f> (f f ! haunt$ region describ$ 9 ! fir/2 b to turn ov] a new leaf is easi] 9 a lett] ?an 9 a life4 ,?y idea ( ! next t5 ye>s alt]+ u less ?an ! la/ w p]haps prove true2 b1 oh1 ! pa9ful d\bts t =ce !mselves on me1 :e!r ! pres5t *annel is su* t we c peacefully anticipate x only z deep5+1 & n z hav+ an utt] *ange ( direction6 ,h[ mu* h>d] to live 9 ! _w & n be ( x ?an to =sake x altoge!r6 ,s lazy self says2 &1 9 turn+ f pres5t duty1 tries to ju/ify itself by ! excuse t x w\ld will+ly leave ?is _w = ano!r4 #b;d ,mo4 #d?4 ,fir/-day ev5+4 ,little z ,i h felt incl9$ to put p5 to pap] ( late1 ,i ?\ght ?is ev5+ t "s small mem5to might be left1 z x 71 at ?is po9t ( ! valley1 j to say1 ,"h 7 ! foot/eps ( a we>y halt+ pilgrim at su* a "t--"o t br\ght no /ore ( food or raim5t1 no supply ( wisdom or subtlety1 no provision = ! way1 no?+ b w\nds & weaknesses1 h\sehold images1 secret s9s2 b by favor ( unspeakable long-suff]+1 cont9u+ unto ?is day--&1 z %e w\ld fa9 hope1 n des]t$4 ,a4 troop ( ?\ghts do? griev\sly ov]come h]1 & fa9t is h] hope t %e %all ov]come at ! la/2 yet does %e desire to set up ! ,eb5ez]1 if n ( rejoic+1 :i* z yet _c be1 yet ( humble hope1 9 a cl\dy & d>k day1 t ,he :o has said1 ,light & gladness are s[n = ! upright 93 he>t1 w yet v]ify ,8 promise 9 ! day-spr+ ( ! light ( ,8 c\nt5ance1 if any measure ( integrity rema9 )94 ,oh1 t ,he may keep1 z ! apple ( ,8 eye1 t :i* a troop ( robb]s are wat*+ to spoil1 & may provide x ) a hid+-place 9 ,8 pavilion ( love6 ,& = "o ?+ is my e>ne/ wi% direct$ to ,him1 t1 unable z ,i am to direct my own /eps aright1 ,he w\ld provide a lead] = me1 & a will+ he>t )9 me1 & grant me en\gh ( ,8 guidance to keep me 9 ! way1 & en\gh ( a will+ness to walk !re9 & n /umble4 #c;d ,mo4 #g?1 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,i "k well t impati5ce w sometimes put on ! pret5ce ( some?+ mu* bett]1 & t we %all nev] run to good purpose unless we run ) pati5ce4 ,unhappily1 a sl[ gradual progress is sadly oppos$ to my incon/ant nature1 & aft] "o ( ! _m int]ruptions x meets )1 h[ prone am ,i to wi% = "s fly+ leap to make up = ! pa/6 ,x seems s h>d a ?+ to get trans=m$1 & !re=e--/range inconsi/5cy inde$--"o w\ld be translat$4 ,b truly x might be said1 ,ye "k n :at ye ask4 99 99 99 ,i h be5 int]e/$ ) read+ ! e>ly "p ( ,no ,cross1 no ,cr[n1 & especially ! *apt] on lawful self1 :]e ! receiv+ back aga91 z ,abraham did ,isaac1 ! lawful pleasures :i* _h be5 resign$ to ! ,div9e w1 is s nicely spok5 (2 & ,i d believe x expla9s ! cause ( half ! gloom ( w\ld-be ,*ri/ians4 ,!y d n q refuse1 nor q resign _! he>ts1 & s !y are kept1 n only )\t true peace1 b )\t ! enjoym5t ( ^? e>?ly goods :i* h be5 call$ =1 n to deprive _! own]s ( !m1 b to be re/or$ 9 ?is life an hundr$fold4 ,h[ is x to be wi%$ t ^! half measures 7 ab&on$1 & t if we h put our h& to ! pl\gh1 we might n look back1 z we s (t5 h done1 to ! unfitt+ ourselves = t k+dom :i* is n only righte\sness1 b peace & joy4 ,t y\r joy may be full1 is pla9ly ! purpose ( our ,savi\r t[>ds ,8 *ildr52 & yet h[ _m1 z ,macaulay says1 h j en\gh religion to make !m unhappy :5 !y d wrong1 & yet n en\gh to induce !m to d "r4 #e? ,mo4 #bh?4 ,x is an unspeakable bless+ to be p]mitt$ & enabl$ to pray4 ,h[ c ,i be suffici5tly ?ankful t x has be5 m9e8 ,la/ night my he>t 0 f]v5tly engag$ t[>ds my ,god2 & ?is ev5+1 ?\gh ! s5se ( my utt] de/itution & weakness 0 v pa9ful1 0 x n a bless+ if x l$ me to ,him8 ,i h ?\ght ( ! te/1 ,9 quietness & confid5ce %all be y\r /r5g?4 ,!re is dang] 9 fle%ly confid5ce2 yet !re is no /r5g?1 b a new dang] 9 fle%ly fe>4 ,oh1 ,i w\ld be /ripp$ ( all fle%ly dispositions ( :atev] k9d1 or h[ev] speci\s3 !y w> aga9/ ! s\l2 b because m9e enemy has n q triumph$ ov] me1 may ,i n believe t ,he favore? me 9 ^: favor is life1 & ^: is a fai?ful love8 ,oh = its p]fect dom9ion 9 me6 ,8 w is my sanctification1 my p]fection4 ,x is ,8 good pleasure to give me ! k+dom--ev5 to me4 ,amaz+ grace6 ,:at 9 me b my greate/ foe c\ld h9d] ! full adoption ( ! pray]1 ,?y w be done8 #f? ,mo4 #c;d4 ,! little measure ( fai? ,i h is n worn out1 b r purifi$ & /r5g!n$2 b1 oh1 :5 ,i ?9k ( ! reality1 ! mom5t\s import1 ( ! *ange ( nature f s9 to hol9ess1 :i* has to be effect$1 :at a baptism may ,i n h yet to be baptiz$ )1 & :at p]ils to pass ?r\gh6 ,oh1 if x might please my heav5ly ,fa!r to %ort5 & ha/5 ! process1 & deliv] me f e>? & its dang]s into a *angeless /ate ( safety & peace 9 ,8 de> pres5ce6 ,b ,i d believe ,he w\ld r be glorifi$ by liv+ ,*ri/ians ?an by only dy+ p5it5ts4 ,a wat*ful1 holy life is ,8 delight4 ,oh t ?is high call+ may n be slight$ or ca/ away6 ,! ne> approa* ( my bir?day has l$ me to look back ov] ! brief notes ( twelve mon?s4 ,! int]e/+ details we h receiv$ ( ! ,ye>ly ,meet+ rem9d me ( :at ,i felt at ! conclusion ( ! la/4 ,! ,"l has aga9 be5 ) ! ,*ur*'s ga!r+1 fai?ful z ( old1 &1 :]e seats 7 vacant1 ha? fill$ ,8 p ) joy4 #f? ,mo4 #e?4 ,i wi% simply to record h[ la/ night1 :5 9 b$1 ,i 0 favor$ ) a calm1 wat*ful frame1 & lay enjoy+ ! m5tal repose till long aft] my usual h\r ( sleep4 ,?is morn+ at breakfa/-"t x 0 r5ew$1 ) a sweet s5se ( ! will+ness ( our heav5ly ,fa!r to enable ,8 *ildr5 to s]ve ,him4 ,he made !m = t end3 x is ,8 w t !y %\ld d s4 ,x _c be t ,he w refuse !m ! indisp5sable assi/ance4 ,h[ sweet 0 ?is feel+6 b hurry1 & too mu* c>e ab\t little ?+s1 sadly dissipat$ me 9 ! day4 ,?is ev5+ ,i h _h a graci\s gift ( "s ( ^? ,sabba? feel+s aga91 aft] read+ ! sev5te5? *apt] ( ,j]emiah4 ,! v]ses ref]r+ to ! ,sabba?-day1 & be>+ no burd5 !re91 7 solemnly in/ructive4 ,! utt] inability ( my natural he>t to atta9 or reta9 su* a /ate %[s me ! necessity ( all be+ done = me ?r\gh fai? 9 ,div9e p[]1 ,8 "n1 ?r\gh fai? 9 ,8 "n4 ,oh = wat*fulness unto pray] cont9ually1 & t ! cumb] ( e>? may be ca/ away6 ,take he$ t y\r flight be n 9 ! w9t]1 has be5 my wat*word1 ?\gh h[ imp]fectly obey$6 & if1 ?r\gh inf9ite m]cy1 ! season be *ang+1 if ,he :o has fai?fully kept me f utt] dea? !re-?r\gh is beg9n+ to give me m ( re/1 oh1 let me nev] =get ! solemn addition1 nei!r on ! ,sabba? day4 #f? ,mo4 #ac?4 99 99 99 ,i wi% n[ to record ! v solemn & enc\rag+ visit ( ,james ,jones f ,am]ica to our meet+ ?is day4 ,h[ wondr\sly did he speak ( trials & afflictions1 & ! necessity ( entire resignation ?r\gh all6 ,?\gh oceans ( disc\ragem5t & m\nta9s ( difficulty loom up be=e !e1 ?\ wilt be br\ght ?r\gh ! dep?s dry-%od1 & be enabl$ to adopt ! language1 ,:at ail$ !e1 ,o ?\ sea1 t ?\ fl$de/1 & ye m\nta9s1 t ye skipp$ l rams8 ,?\ wilt be l$ ?r\gh gre5 pa/ures1 & beside /ill wat]s1 speak+ ( ! call to s]vice 9 ! ,*ur*1 :i* he believ$ 0 to "s 9 an especial mann] 9 ! e>ly /ages ( life4 ,i he>d all2 b su* 0 my dejection t ,i seem$ to receive little1 ?\gh ,i c\ld n b feel ! p[]4 ,i seem$ incapable ( tak+ ei!r hope or in/ruction to myself4 ,j4,j4 left u aft] d9n]1 &1 on tak+ leave1 took my h& 9 a v solemn mann]1 &1 aft] a few m9utes sil5ce1 said1 t5d]ly1 b au?oritatively1 ,if ! mantle falls on !e1 we>2 words :i* w long live 9 my he>t4 ,w\ld t ! p[] :i* s5t !m may fulfil !m6 ,none o!r c4 #g? ,mo4 #a/4 ,la/ week at ,plym\? ,qu>t]ly ,meet+4 ,an int]e/+ "t4 ,i tru/ t :i* sil5c$ & solemniz$ my _s 0 some?+ bett] ?an myself4 ,:at c\ld ,i d b endeavor to lie d[n 9 passiv5ess "u x1 & crave t no?+ might int]f]e to m> ! "w ( ! ,"l8 ,mu* 0 said to enc\rage ! hope t ^? :o truly love ! ,"l w at l5g? be br\ght into m peace & lib]ty 9 ,him2 t ,he w qualify !m to fill j t place ,he designs = !m 9 ,8 h\se4 ,oh1 h[ ,i long to become t1 & t only1 :i* pleases ,him1 t nei!r height nor dep? might sep>ate me f ,8 love6 ,& :5 ,i ?9k ( ! deceitfulness ( my he>t1 ! dang] ( be+ lift$ up seems s appall+ t ! =m] deliv]ance seems yet great] ?an ! latt]4 #g? ,mo4 #bc;d4 ,i h be5 glad to be releas$ f "s ( my *>ges & c>es1 z well z to %>e ! lov+ int]e/s ( home ) all my de> si/]s1 & tru/ x is n all laz9ess :i* makes me %r9k f engag+ 9 new ?\gh useful objects4 ,i seem to h mu* ne$ ( quiet1 & h enjoy$ _m h\rs ) de> ,f4's preci\s *ildr54 ,(t51 z n[1 ,i am v de/itute1 & sometimes v sad2 b sometimes1 ?\gh r>ely1 all is peace4 ,long %all ,i rememb] a moonlight half-h\r1 on ,six?-day1 9 ! fields & g>d51 :]e ,i sat d[n to enjoy ! cool ( ! day1 & = a "t all sorr[ 0 f> away1 & ! v ,pr9ce ( ,peace did seem to reign4 ,!n did ,i feel ,i _h n foll[$ a cunn+ly-devis$ fable1 & ! preci\s words did com=t me1 ,if *ildr51 !n heirs4 ,b1 oh1 h[ o!rwise ,i (t5 am6 h[ utt]ly de/itute6 ,?is day we h _h a sweet little visit f ----4 ,8 enc\ragem5t to ! tribulat$ *ildr5 salut$ my be/ life1 ov]borne z x felt ) ! burd5 ( unreg5]ate nature--ready to say1 ,:o %all deliv] me f ! body ( ?is dea?8 &1 amid _m a giv+ way to ! worry+s ( e>?ly ?\ghts1 /ruggl+ to say1 ,"l1 ,i believe3 help ?\ m9e unbelief4 ,(t5 h ,i rememb]$ de> ,s>ah ,tuckett's enc\rag+ words1 ,b ?r\gh all1 & und]nea? all1 w be ! ev]la/+ ,arms4 ,am51 & am54 #h? ,mo4 #d?4 ,/ill1 /ill am51 says my poor weak _s1 9 ! remembrance ( goodness tri$ s long1 ( ! fai?ful love ( my heav5ly ,fa!r1 :i* melt$ my _s on ! morn+ ( ,fif?-day week1 ) ! bless$ hope t ,i _h n foll[$ a cunn+ly-devis$ fable 9 seek+ a ne>] union ) my ,savi\r4 ,i little ?\ght :at 0 await+ me t day--a v important proposal f ----1 put into my h&s by my fa!r4 ,aft] glanc+ at ! cont5ts1 ,i laid x aside1 to seek = a little calmness be=e read+ x1 & ne$$ all t morn+'s manna to /r5g!n my conviction1 ,?\ art my ,fa!r4 ,into ,8 h&s ,i h s\ght to commit myself & my all1 tru/+ t a cov5ant ) ev]la/+ love w n be m>r$ by aught b5ea? ! skies4 ,"s preci\s feel+s h ,i s9ce enjoy$2 ,& "o ( !m %all n fall to ! gr\nd )\t y\r ,fa!r1 ,ye are ( m value ?an _m sp>r[s1 h be5 almo/ daily 9 my he>t4 ,on ,six?-day1 aft] sp5d+ ! aft]noon 9 ! c\ntry ) a *e]ful p>ty1 be=e go+ to b$1 su* a bless$ s5se ( my heav5ly ,fa!r's pres5ce & love 0 v\*saf$ me1 t e uneasy ?\ght 0 swall[$ up 9-! preci\s conviction1 ,i "k 9 :om ,i h believ$4 ,?is love did inde$ appe> ! pe>l ( great price1 & all else z du/ 9 ! balance4 #h? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,la/ week ,i 0 once or twice favor$ ) a preci\s feel+ ( ,div9e love4 ,at "o "t my e>ne/ s5se ( ne$ & desire to seek ,him to :om ,i c\ld appeal amid _m a recollection ( pa/ transgressions1 9 ! words1 ,?\ kn[e/ t ,i love !e1 0 mo/ sweetly foll[$ by ! remembrance ( ! words1 ,i rememb] !e1 ! k9dness ( ?y y\?1 ! love ( ?9e esp\sals2 :5 ?\ w5te/ aft] me 9 ! wild]ness1 9 a l& t 0 n s[n4 ,at ano!r "t ! preci\s promise1 ,because ?\ ha/ made ! ,"l ?y habitation1 !re %all no evil befall !e1 came liv+ly be=e me1 & !n ,i felt h[ f> %ort ( ! t]ms ,i _h fall54 ,oh1 h[ preci\sly did ,i feel ! wor? ( an atonem5t6 h[ my ,savi\r's p>don did n only remove ! burd5 ( guilt1 b really re9/ate me 9 ! privileges :i* my backslid+s _h =feit$1 s t ! promise ( safety 0 /ill m9e6 99 99 99 #i?4 ,mo4 #bj?4 ,allud+ to a visit f "s fri5ds4 ,h[ preci\s are ^! m>ks ( our ,fa!r's love6 ,8 eye is surely on u1 & ,8 h& too1 = good4 ,may we nev]1 may ,i nev]1 d any ?+ to fru/rate ,8 m]ciful designs6 ,v v>i\s has be5 my /ate--s dead & e>?ly1 sometimes1 t ,i may inde$ feel t 9 me dwelle? no good ?+1 b n[ & !n s fill$ ) desires aft] ,god1 t ,i feel assur$ t !y come f ,himself4 #i? ,mo4 #bf?4 ,?is aft]noon1 9 a lonely walk1 my sorr[ 0 /irr$1 & ,i hope ,i pray$ = m]cy2 b x has be5 h>d to keep any hold ( ! an*or4 ,b :at6 %all ,i leave my only ,help] because ( my evil case--my only ,physician because ( my desp]ate disease8 ,i c take com=t 9 ! ?\ght t ,he kn[s ! wor/1 & t ,he has sworn et]nal enmity to s94 ,!n1 if ,he loves me1 a s9n]1 ,he mu/ be will+ & able to save me2 & ,jesus ,*ri/ is ! m$iator betwe5 ,god & man1 t ,he may be ! p]fect divid] betwe5 ! s9n] & 8 s94 ,oh1 :at a "w is ?is--:i* none b ,omnipot5t grace c d6 ,oh1 be x done = me4 #aa? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 ,allud+ to h] prospect ( m>riage4 99 99 99 ,h[ does su* an occasion tea* "o ! weakness ( human nature1 & our utt] dep5d5ce on our heav5ly ,fa!r's pres]v+ c>e1 :o kn[s our frame & rememb]s t we are b du/4 ,& if we c 9 tru? say1 ,if ,?y pres5ce g n ) me1 c>ry me n up h5ce1 & endeavor to decide 9 ,8 fe>4 ,i hope we may tru/1 t if x be n ( ,him1 some?+ w be provid$ = our rescue1 & t if x be1 ,he w rememb] ,8 anci5t promise1 ,my pres5ce %all g ) !e1 & ,i w give !e re/4 #a/ ,mo4 #d?1 #ahea4 ,s v mu* has happ5$ s9ce ,i made my record "h1 t ,i sc>cely "k :]e to beg94 ,nev] did a ye> end ?us ) me4 ,i _h almo/ call$ x ! mo/ important ( my life2 & c]ta9ly x is s z reg>ds "t1 & also a v important "o z reg>ds et]nity4 ,n[ ,i f9d my hopes1 my int]e/s1 my anticipations1 my e feel+ & affection1 h a /rong ref]5ce to ano!r ?an myself--"o :om ,i believe ! ,provid5ce ( a m]ciful1 heav5ly ,fa!r has l$ me to reg>d ) e/eem & love1 z a %>] 9 ! future portion ( ! pa?1 ( life4 ,surely x has be5 a s]i\s ?+1 mu* z ,i h fall5 %ort 9 ! duties ( my pres5t favor$ & %elt]$ lot1 to cons5t to und]take responsibilities s weighty & untri$2 & yet ,i h cause to hope 9 ! m]cy ( ,him :o has help$ me hi!rto1 ^: cov5ant is an ev]la/+ cov5ant1 ev5 a cov5ant ( peace1 t %all nev] be remov$ by any e>?ly *ange4 ,oh t x may nev] be =sak5 by me6 ,oh t e brea* may be =giv5 me6 ,oh t ! wisdom t is f above may be my safegu>d & director6 ,h[ has x com=t$ me1 9 ?9k+ ( leav+ su* de>ly-lov$ ones beh9d1 to feel t "o ,fri5d above all o!rs1 ^: love has be5 ! mo/ preci\s joy ( my life1 w g ) me1 & be ) me =ev]1 &1 ,i tru/1 b9d 9 t bond ( heav5ly love1 ev5 m & m closely1 ! spirits ,he1 ,i tru/1 has br\ght toge!r1 & make u "o ano!r's joy 9 ,him6 ,n[ t we are at home 9 ! quiet r\nd ( duties & employm5ts :i* h fill$ s _m 7outw>dly at lea/7 peaceful ye>s1 & t p]haps my cont9uance among !m reckons b by mon?s1 oh = a truly ob$i5t1 affectionate1 filial _s1 bo? to my heav5ly ,fa!r & ! preci\s gu>dians ( my *ildhood6 ,i h /rongly felt t my highe/ duty t[>ds him ) :om my future lot may be l9k$1 z well z my own highe/ int]e/1 is to live 9 ! love & fe> ( ,god4 ,_m defici5cies ,i %all d\btless be consci\s (6 b if ,i may live1 & we may be unit$ 9 ! love & fe> ( ,god1 all1 all w be well4 ,oh1 !n1 to be wat*ful & pray]ful6 #a/ ,mo4 #be?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,!re is mu*1 v mu*1 connect$ ) any exp]i5ce 9 ^! matt]s calculat$ to tea* u t ?is is n our re/2 & (t5 h ,i ?\ght1 :5 pond]+ ! unc]ta9 future1 t b = ! small degree 9 :i* ! hope ( ?+s beyond1 /eadfa/ & et]nal1 keeps its hold1 ,i %\ld be ready to s9k2 & !n ,i ?9k ( k9d ri* promises on :i* ,i try to lay hold1 ,?y %oes %all be iron & brass1 & ,z ?y day1 s %all ?y /r5g? be4 ,& s1 de> ,m41 ,i tru/ x w be ) u all1 if our tru/ be b rightly plac$2 & 9 ?is ,i fe> ,i h sometimes1 p]haps (t51 be5 mi/ak54 ,i am sure x is well to h ?is sift$ & se>*$ into1 & none ( ! pa9s :i* mu/ att5d su* a process are 9 va94 ,:5 we h le>n$ m fully :at & h[ frail we are1 !n we c bett] appreciate ! help t is (f]$1 & ! abundant bless+ ( peace :5 x does come4 ,! dep? ( our own capacity = suff]+ is kn[n to few ( u2 & :5 we h made a little discov]y ( x1 "s %ort acqua9tance ) ! d>k cold cav]ns ( hopeless woe into :i* x is possible to fall1 ev5 :5 all ext]nally is bright & app>5tly prosp]\s1 h[ ?ankful !n %\ld we feel = ! daylight ( hope6 ,p]haps ,i am us+ /rong language4 ,i w\ld n use x to e "o1 b ,i ?9k ?\ kn[e/ t words are feeble r ?an /rong to express :at may be ! real portion ( "o :om spectators look on z v happy2 & ,i d feel sure t n a grief t c befall u ev5 9 ?is hidd5 _w ( ours1 b may be ! /epp+-/one to a joy ) :i* also a /rang] do? n int]m$dle2 & h[ %all we soon] f9d x ?an by ca/+ all our c>e on ,him :o c>e? = u8 ,he kn[e? our frame1 & rememb]e? t we are du/1 & is t\*$ ) a feel+ ( our infirmities4 #c;d ,mo4 #ad?4--,lett] to ,m4,b4 99 99 99 ,i am abundantly conv9c$ t if we c f9d ! "r place & keep x1 & endeavor to fulfil its duties1 :atev] !y may be1 !re is our safety1 & !re is our greate/ peace2 & :at a bless+ to "k 9 any degree :]e ! k & ! p[] are bo? to be obta9$6 99 99 99 #f? ,mo4 #ba/4 ,aft] a =tnight's visit to my de> aunts1 ,i foll[$ ,l\isa to ,tott5ham4 ,_m an occasion ( deep in/ruction 0 (f]$ to u at ! ,ye>ly ,meet+2 & yet f all ?is :at rema9s8 ,a solemn inquiry = all2 & h[ mu* s = me1 n[ t e pr9ciple ( ! he>t & m9d mu/ prep>e to enc\nt] unwont$ ex]cise & trial1 n[ t ,i daily ne$ all t ,i c h 9 a peculi> mann]1 & n[ t ! future1 amid ! hopeful calm :i* x sometimes assumes1 w sometimes almo/ fr[n ^u me ) l[]+s ( fe>8 ,fe> x is1 n ( o!rs1 b ( myself1 & fe> ( ! ignorance or precipitancy ( my yet b v p>tially regulat$ m9d4 ,oh = t o!r fe> :i* only is a f\nta9 ( life1 pres]v+ f ! sn>es ( dea?6 ,oh = t love :i* ca/e? out ! slavi% fe>1 & make? "o ) :at x loves--fir/ ) t ,god f :om x comes1 & !n ) ^? 9 :om x dwells6 ,dwell1 oh1 t x may1 9 our two he>ts1 _! be/1 _! fir/1 _! /ronge/1 de>e/ bond1 & dwell1 too1 9 ! he>ts ( ^? ,i leave beh9d1 & cause t /ill & h5ce=? we may be toge!r ?\gh ap>t6 ,! responsibility ( hav+ s important an (fice to fulfil t[>ds any fell[-be+ z t ( %>+ 91 influ5c+1 & be+ influ5c$ by all 8 wi%es1 actions1 & t5d5cies1 has felt v s]i\s4 99 99 99 99 ,nev] be=e _h ,i s /rong a s5se ( ! id5tity ( our highe/ duty t[>ds ourselves & t[>ds ea* o!r2 & t to live1 & to be z & :at we ought1 9 ! be/ s5se1 is ! *ief requisite = influ5c+ "o ano!r = good4 #f? ,mo4 #bd?4 ,?\gh ,i h ?is morn+ be5 help$ & com=t$1 ,i mu/ confess mu* unsubdu$ evil has manife/$ itself ev5 )9 ^! few days4 ,! bitt] wat]s )91 ! t5d5cy to :at is evil1 ! corrupt root1 h sadly appe>$4--,oh1 !re is ! "o cause1 n m9d+ en\gh ! good "p :i* %all n be tak5 away1 & s disquiet$ at ! loss or di/urbance ( l[] ?+s4 ,h[ %all we escape if we neglect 7n only reject7 su* great salvation8 ,i 0 made m]cifully s5sible1 la/ night & ?is morn+1 t su* is our ,fa!r's love1 t ,8 aim is *iefly to be/[1 our duty to receive1 t ,he calls & invites2 b x is n t we may "w a p]=mance ( our own1 b receive ,8 own good ?+s4 ,oh1 ! folly1 ! +ratitude1 ( be+ inatt5tive to su* a bless+6 ,oh1 ! rebelli\s pride ( *oos+ our own self-w1 & our own way1 :5 ! privilege may be ours ( becom+ ! ob$i5t & lov+ *ildr5 ( ,god--( receiv+ f ,him ! will+ & ! ob$i5t he>t :i* we may (f] up to ,him aga91 & :i* ,he w accept6 #f? ,mo4 #cj?4 ,lett] to ,m4,b4 ,allud+ to v>i\s engagem5ts4 99 99 99 ,^! fill ! pa/1 pres5t1 & future ( ^! la/ mon?s at home ) _m & v>i\s occupations & m$itations4 ,x is a bless+ n to be m di/urb$ )91 if x be b a safe calmness4 ,oh1 t is a l>ge condition2 b h[ unsafe is all calmness result+ f %utt+ our eyes f ! tru? ( our wor/ side6 ,yet ,i ?9k :5 we c really be glad at ! ?\ght t our wor/ side is se5 & kn[n1 !re is "s hope ( rem$y & ( peace1 & 7may ,i n say87 alliance ) ! ,physician :o has all p[] & skill4 ,!n only c we welcome any ?+1 h[ev] try+1 :i* we c believe comes f ,8 h&1 or may t5d to make u any ne>] ! patt]n we /rive =1 or any m likely to fulfil rightly ! s]i\s "p we h to take 9 life4 #g? ,mo4 #af?4 ,i hope ,i d s9c]ely desire to seek = /r5g? to ca/ my _m burd5s on ,him :o c>e? = me2 &1 oh1 if ,i did b live 9 ! _s1 & walk 9 ! _s1 m fai?fully1 surely ,i %\ld "k m ( :at x is to be c>eful = no?+1 b 9 e ?+ to make kn[n my reque/s unto ,god4 ,quiet is mo/ cong5ial4 ,oh t ! few weeks rema9+ to me "h1 may all be giv5 to ,him :o alone c bless6 ,b ?is desp]ate he>t--might x n well be despair$ (8 ,i tru/ ,i h got to ?is po9t1 ,god be m]ciful to me a s9n]4 ,let me fall n[ into ! h&s ( ! ,"l1 = ,8 m]cies are great1 & n into-human h&s1 nay1 n my own4 ,i ?\ght ,i saw "s sweetness 9 ! words1 ,by ,8 /ripes ye are heal$4 #g? ,mo4 #ag?4 ,:y d ,i n feel t no?+ ,i c d is s important z :at ,i am1 & t ?+s )\t _h bett] be ev] s mu* neglect$1 ?an ?+s )9 set wrong = _! sake8 #g? ,mo4 #ba/4 ,_h v com=table feel+s ye/]day 9 meet+4 ,oh1 x 0 joyful to believe t ,god 0 ne> to bless & to =give4 ,?is ev5+1 ,i h long$ to commit my s\l & its keep+ into my ,fa!r's h&s4 ,oh = a little m fai? 9 ,8 inf9ite1 ev]la/+ m]cy6 ,to come ev5 boldly to ! ?rone ( grace1 is ! high call+ ev5 ( ^? mo/ 9 ne$ ( m]cy4 #g? ,mo #bf?4 ,lett] to ,c4,b4,c4 99 99 99 ,i hope t s f> ,i h be5 favor$ ) a measure ( real help & good hope1 ?\gh (t5 s5sible ( multipli$ difficulties & dang]s1 amid ! desire to ma9ta9 su* a /ate ( m9d & feel+ z ,i ought4 ,p]haps ! /rong light 9 :i* ,i h (t5 p]ceiv$ h[ ! be/ e>?ly hope may be blight$ or bla/$1 ev5 :5 all seems outw>dly favorable1 is a true bless+2 & w\ld t x might lead me (t5] :]e all our wants c be be/ & only suppli$6 ,i "k t self is ! foe to be dread$ mo/1 & t is s ev] ne>1 /icks s close1 t !re c be no rem$y effectual t is n appli$ ) ! p5etrat+ p[] & all-wise discretion :i* are no attributes ( ours4 ,& yet h[ (t5 d we va9ly try to help ourselves6 ,two days aft] ?is1 %e wrote to h] fri5d ,m4,b4 & allud$ v feel+ly to ! prospect ( leav+ h] old home & its associations4 ,ev] tak+ a humble view ( h]self & ( h] fitness = ! duties %e 0 expect+ to assume1 %e writes ( feel+ increas+ly my deep unfitness & lack ( qualification = s v responsible an und]tak+ z %>+ 9 & influ5c+ & be+ influ5c$ by all t conc]ns ano!r4 ,may ,i be p]mitt$ ! privilege ( :i* ?\ ha/ spok51 t ! ,"l's pres5ce may g ) u1 & give u re/1 & be to u a little sanctu>y :]esoev] we may come4 ,!n all w be "r4 99 99 99 ,s ?\ see/ j :]e ,i am1--9 ne$ ( fai? & hope1 & sometimes want+ all ?+s1 ev5 amid circum/ances :i* ,i c f9d no fault )4 ,f>ewell1 de> ,m42 & if ?\ ne>e/ t ,i get on well1 or am 9 any way made happy or useful1 "o conclusion w be v safe1 respect+ ?y unwor?y fri5d1--t x is n 9 me4 ,?is closes a correspond5ce :i* appe>s to h be5 att5d$ ) mu* com=t & pr(it to ! two fri5ds4 #h? ,mo4 #aa?4 ,! "t flies1 & !n ! place t has kn[n me w "k me no m1 except z a soj\rn] & pilgrim to my fa!r's he>?2 & yet ,i _c realize x3 c\ld ,i1 h[ %\ld ,i be> x8 ,?is day1 mu* z be=e1 weak 9 body1 dea?-l 9 m9d2 b ?is ev5+ _h su* a desire = retirem5t--s undesir$ be=e--& su* preci\s feel+s !n4 ,oh1 ,i c\ld g ?r\gh mu* ) ?is to su/a9 me1 b ,i _c comm& x = "o in/ant2 &1 oh1 h[ ,i felt t ,he alone c keep my s\l alive1 ^: is e brea?1 natural & spiritual6 ,oh1 :at a joy to feel ,8 ,_s ne>1 ! ?ick1 heavy wall ( sep>ation melt$ away4 ,w\ld t ! way c\ld1 be kept ?us cle> to ,god--my life1 my /r5g?1 my joy1 my all6 ,mu* t is v int]e/+ has pass$1--*iefly a visit f ,t4,e4 & 8 wife1 ( ,philadelphia4 ,! day !y left u1 we sat 9 sil5ce r\nd ! d9n]-table1 till he said t words seem$ h>dly ne$ful to express ! preci\s feel+ ( union t prevail$4 99 99 99 ,x 0 v sad to lose !m2 & yet ,i nev] felt be=e s /rongly h[ ! individual bless+ to ea* s\l is n a m]ely be+ pres5t1 & recogniz+1 & rejoic+ 9 su* times z ^!4 ,h[ ! words ( "o t ha? a heav5ly _s & a pleasant voice may be he>d 9 va96 #h? ,mo4 #bj?4 ,h[ c ,i describe ^! ev5tful days8 ,"o lesson may !y tea* me1 t ,god is love1 & t :atev] good ?+ ,i am bless$ ) is n 9 me4 ,he has be5 s k9d1 s graci\s1 & ,i s v p]v]se1 frequ5tly s di/ru/ful1 s easily w\nd$2 b ,he1 z if ,he w n take (f5ce1 aga9 & aga9 has pity on me4 ,h[ 0 ,i met & salut$ ) ! words1 ,by ,myself h ,i sworn1 z "p ( "s promise6 ,!n ,i felt & rejoic$ 9 ,8 fai?fulness to all 9 me & 9 all ! univ]se t is ,84 ,by ,himself1 !n ,he w nev] fail2 & ,i hope ,i %all be pres]v$ by ,him4 #h? ,mo4 #ba/4 ,i 0 s griev\sly /upid la/ week1 s unable to realize any ?+--fe>$ :5 ,i %\ld come to myself t x w\ld be t]rible2 b no1 x is n s3 ,i h love = all1 & ,i hope x w gr[ = all & take 9 all4 ,x is n t "o love swall[s up ano!r1 z "o sorr[ does3 yet ,i am v weak1 & ne$ daily help4 ,oh t x may n be )held6 ,) ?is record h] ,j\rnal concludes2 &1 9 reflect+ ^u x z a :ole1 ! read] c sc>cely fail to obs]ve ! evid5ce x gives ( progress 9 ! ,div9e life1 ( gr[?1 z x 71 f ! blade to ! full corn 9 ! e>1 n[ e>ly rip5$ = ! heav5ly g>n]2 & p]haps 9 no?+ is ?is progress m disc]nible ?an 9 ! mann] 9 :i* ?r\gh _m fluctuations %e 0 enabl$ to look away f ! sugge/ions ( unre/+ self1 :i* 7 s pa9ful to h] s5sitive & consci5ti\s _s1 & to /ay h] m9d on h] ,savi\r1 ent]+ into t re/ :i* ! apo/le says is ! portion ( ^? :o believe1--a re/ :i* rema9e? = ! p ( ,god1 & :i* !y only realize 9 its fulness :o h accept$ ,*ri/ z all suffici5t = e ne$ ( ! s\l1 n only p>don ( pa/ s9s1 b also ( daily recurr+ transgressions1 & ^: trials & prov+s ( _s h l$ to ! bless$ result ( increas$ on5ess ) _! heav5ly ,fa!r4 #h? ,mo4 #ba?4 ,to h] si/] ,f4,t4 %e writes1 ! day be=e h] m>riage1-- ,i am /ill a wond] to myself1--s ?ankful = de> "m's *e]fulness1 & = ! k9dness & love ( all ar\nd4 ,i h tak5 leave ( ne>ly all4 ,la/ ev5+ we _h a nice walk4 ,!n = ! fir/ "t ,i felt z if ! claims ( pa/1 pres5t1 & future 7 p]fectly & peacefully adju/$1 to my great com=t4 ,! walk to :i* ?is allusion ref]s is v fre% 9 ! remembrance ( h] si/] & ( h] 7int5d$7 husb&1 :o accompani$ h]4 ,h] mann] 0 /rik+ly calm & affectionate2 & z !y return$ home1 aft] a pause 9 ! conv]sation1 %e said1 tak+ a h& ( ea*1-- ,i h he>d ( "s p :5 !y are dy+ feel+ no /ruggle on go+ f "o _w to ! o!r2 & ,i 0 ?9k+ t ,i felt ! same betwe5 y4 ,i don't "k h[ x may be at la/4 ,/rangely impressive 7 ^! words at ! "t2 & :5 we rememb] t %e nev] saw t si/] aga9 aft] ! morr[1 c we d\bt t ?is prep>ation 0 p]mitt$ to s(t5 ! bitt]ness ( ! "t1 s ne> at h&1 :5 ?is %\ld h prov$ to be ! f9al p>t+ on e>?8 ,9 look+ back to ?is "t1 !re is a sweet conviction ( ! peace :i* 0 !n grant$ h]1 :i* did seem some?+ l a =eta/e ( ! joys ( ! bett] home :i* 0 ev5 !n op5+ be=e h] & ^u :i* h] pure _s _h s lov$ to dwell4 ,%e 0 m>ri$1 at ,liske>d1 to ,william ,s\?all1 ,jr41 on ! #bh? ( #h? mon?1 #ahea4 ,%e 0 anxi\s t ! w$d+-day %\ld be *e]ful2 & h] own c\nt5ance wore a sweet expression ( quiet satisfaction & s]i\sness2 & ! dep? ( feel+ :i* prevail$ 9 ! :ole p>ty dur+ t day 0 aft]w>ds rememb]$ ) satisfaction1 z be+ 9 h>mony ) :at foll[$4 ,9 a t5d]ly affectionate note1 writt5 f ,teignm\? ! same ev5+1 %e says1 ,i c look back )\t any o!r pang ?an ! necess>y "o ( hav+ /ret*$1 ,i mu/ n say brok51 our family bond2 & !n %e adds ! s9c]e desire = h]self & h] husb&1 ,oh t we may be m humble & wat*ful ?an ev] be=e1 & t my daily c>e may be to rememb] ^? sweet l9es :i* help$ me s ?is morn+1-- ,:5 ?\ art no?+ 9 ?yself1 ,!n ?\ art close to me4 ,a =tnight sp5t among ! lakes ( ,we/morel& & ,cumb]l& 0 a "t ( mu* happ9ess4 ,x 0 h] fir/ introduction to m\nta9 sc5]y2 & h] lett]s to ! home circle %e _h j left1 conta9 animat$ descriptions ( ! beauties ar\nd h]4 ,a few extracts f ^!1 %[+ ! heal?y enjoym5t %e exp]i5c$1 & ! *e]ful & com=table /ate ( h] m9d1 p>ticul>s :i* acquire an int]e/ f ! solemn circum/ances s soon to foll[1 may n be unsuitably ins]t$3-- ,,b[ness1 #i? ,mon?1 #a/1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,de> ,l43-- 99 99 99 ,we _h a lovely ride & f]ry+ ov] ,w9d]m]e to ,col?\se meet+ on ,fir/-day4 99 99 99 ,i am almo/ well1 & able to ent] into ^! beauties4 ,w y be satisfi$ ) sev5 sket*es1 su* z !y are1 = ?is day8 ,i ?\ght1 z we pass$ ,doves' ,ne/1 & read 9 ! guide-book ,f4 ,hemans's description ( h] dwell+ !re = twelve mon?s1 & h[ _m sad he>ts1 beside h]s1 _h come ?i!r = a refuge f sorr[1 :at cause we _h to be ?ankful = 7s f>7 ano!r lot2 & yet1 de> ,l41 ) all ,i see ar\nd me1 my he>t is v (t5 ) y1 & turns ,f glassy lakes1 & m\nta9s gr&1 ,& gre5 reposeful isles1 ,to t "o corn] ( ! l& ,beyond ! re/ t smiles4 ,beyond ! re/ x smiles = me1 ,?i!r my ?\ghts w roam-- ,! home belov$ ( infancy1 ,my *ildhood's preci\s home6 ,& yet someh[ x is n ) a reproa*ful smile t x looks on me1 nor ) a regretful he>t t ,i ?9k ^u x4 ,x is delightful to ?9k ( de> fa!r & "m's com+ to ,birm+ham s soon1 & ( meet+ ,r4 ?is day =tnight4 ,to h] ,"m4 ,,grasm]e1 #c;d ( #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,de> ,,"m3-- ,we h _h a lovely day1 & ,i sc>cely "k :]e or h[ to beg9 ! tale ( beauty4 ,if !re be any %ad[ ( tru? 9 ! notion t a ?+ ( beauty is a joy =ev]1 we mu/ h be5 lay+ 9 a /ore ( delight :i* may *e] _m a busy & _m a lonely h\r4 ,truly1 z we h gaz$ ^u ! glori\s m\nta9s2 look$ d[n f ! summit ( ,silv] ,h[1 on ! gre5 vale ( ,grasm]e1 & ! f>-(f ,w9d]m]e2 look$ ) almo/ awful feel+s on ! black %ad[y rocks t encompass ,easdale ,t>n1 7all t ye/]day17 & to-day1 pass$ f wat]fall to wat]fall1 ?r\gh ! solemn & desolate ,langdales1 "u ! tw9 m\nta9 ,pikes1 ?ron$ among ! hills1 div$ into ! awful recess ( ,dungeon ,ghyll1 :]e ! rock1 ) sc>cely a crack to "p x1 /&s high on ea* side ( ! foam+ torr5t1 :i* da%es p]p5dicul>ly d[n ! gorge1 !n out ^u ! sunny vale1 & home ?r\gh ! bro!rhood ( m\nta9s to our quiet dwell+ ( ,grasm]e2 surely all ?is1 & mu*1 mu* m1 has made ! days v preci\s = pres5t enjoym5t & = future recollections4 ,! moon is bright z ev] ,i saw x1 & we h lately return$ f ! smoo?1 /ill ,grasm]e1 :]e !re 0 h>dly ripple en\gh to multiply its image2 & :]e we c\ld h sat = h\rs1 n\ri%+ ! calm & solemn ?\ghts we _h j br\ght f ! quiet corn] ( ! *ur*y>d :]e we _h sat by ,wordswor?'s grave4 ,x 0 gr[+ d>k1 b we c\ld j read on ! pla9 slate head-/one ! sole inscription1 ,william ,wordswor?4 99 99 99 ,b ,i _c make y fully imag9e ^! sc5es1 s v>i$1 s picturesque4 ,h[ little pleasure ,i _h 9 anticipat+ ?is j\rney1 :ile ^? =midable ?+s lay betwe56 ,! ?\ght ( ! m\nta9s seem$ n wor? a /raw1 & n[ look+ back to only ?is day week is wond]ful4 ,home /ill smiles ^u me l a lake t cat*es a sunbeam2 & sometimes ,i feel truly ?ankful t ! way t ,i knew n has l$ me "h4 99 99 99 ,! ?\ght ( see+ y is bright inde$4 ,?y lov+ daught]1 ,,eliza4 ,to h] ,si/]4 ,,lodore ,,inn1 #e? ( #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,belov$ ,m43-- 99 99 99 ,i am glad to say t we /ill h v f9e wea!r4 ,at ,keswick we 7 plann+ h[ we c\ld see ,fr$]ick ,my]s1 b t ev5+ 8 wid[ 0 return+ to ! p>sonage ) h] ?ree fa!rless *ildr51 & we c\ld only look on ! family vault 9 ! lovely *ur*y>d1 ! s*ool-room1 libr>y1 etc41 & ?9k ( 8 anticipations1 n[ no d\bt s happily realiz$1 ( ! 'well done1' :i* x w be heav5 to he>4 ,a f9e black /orm hung ov] ,skiddaw & ,saddleback1 & su* a ra9b[ spann$ x4 ,! we/]n sky 0 full ( ! sunset1 & ! lake lay 9 lovely repose b5ea?4 ,( ! cl\ds we really _c say m ?an t !y are (t5 v beautiful1 & sometimes dress up ! m\nta9s 9 gr&eur n _! own2 b ,i h se5 none t might n be ,corni% cl\ds4 ,i am q well4 99 99 99 ,= my sake be *e]ful & happy4 ,?y v lov+ si/]1 ,e4,s4 ,to h] ,fa!r4 ,,scale ,,hill ,,hotel1 #h? ( #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,belov$ ,,fa!r3-- ,on ,sev5?-day1 aft] breakfa/ at ,lodore1 we set (f = a treat inde$--a cant] up ,borr[dale4 ,! morn+ spl5did4 ,keswick ,lake sp>kl+ beh9d u4 ,! crags ( ,borr[dale 9 ! blue mi/y sun%9e ( morn+ ov]hung by n less beautiful %ades4 ,we 7 q glad to get to ?is sort ( m\nta9 sc5]y aga91 :i* we _h s enjoy$ at ,grasm]e1 & leave smoo?1 b>e1 pyramidal ,skiddaw & its anci5t fell[s beh9d4 ,we at la/ asc5d$ ! /eep zigzag :i* beg9s ,/y ,head ,pass1 confirm+ our resolution n[ & !n by admir+ ! plodd+ indu/ry ( our m\nta9 horses4 ,x 0 inde$ pleasant :5 ! la/ gate 0 op5$ & we 7 safe )9 ! wall ( r\gh /ones :i* head$ ! /eep asc5t1 & we c\ld w9d m at leisure beside ! foam+ beck :i* runs out ( ,/y ,head ,t>n4 ,?is desolate m\nta9 lake 0 soon rea*$1 & ! noble d>k ,scawfell ,pikes--! highe/ m\nta9 9 ,engl&1 7#caff feet7--7 its maje/ic backgr\nd4 ,b t we _h be5 gradually inur$ to su* sc5es1 ?is w\ld inde$ h be5 ! mo/ impressive we h beheld4 ,on we rode till deep %ady ,wa/dale op5$ bel[ u1 & we f\nd ourselves at ! head ( ! ,pass4 ,i h enjoy$ ?is j\rney v mu* m ?an ,i expect$1 & ! wea!r1 on ! :ole1 has be5 favorable4 ,i ?9k ( y all ) d\ble affection1 :i* accept v w>mly f ,?y affectionate daught]1 ,e4,s4 ,to h] ,si/]4 ,,patt]dale1 #aa? ( #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,belov$ ,l43-- 99 99 99 ,?is delightful morn+1 ,ulleswat]1 :i* we admir$ z mu*1 if n m ?an any lake :i* we h se51 0 ( ! brighte/ blue1 & ! valley beh9d z ri* 9 lovel9ess1 :5 we set (f = ,helvellyn4 ,! top is j five miles f ! ,inn4 ,at la/ ! pony 0 ti$ to a /ake1 & we w\nd up ! ,swirrel ,edge4 ,! rocks are almo/ p]p5dicul>1 & /rangely %iv]$1 & we look$ d[n on ! ,r$ ,t>n sp>kl+ 9 ! sun )1 z x 71 ?\s&s ( />s4 ,at la/ we rea*$ ! top1 a b>e smoo? summit1 :5ce ! wide mi/y l&scape /ret*$ all ar\nd u4 ,six lakes %\ld h be5 visible2 b we 7 oblig$ to be cont5t ) ! :ole /ret* ( ,ulleswat]1 eight miles beh9d u1 ,bass5?waite to ! nor?1 & p]haps a bit ( ,keswick2 b ,i w\ld n h miss$ ! sc5e = any reasonable consid]ation4 ,scott1 ( c\rse1 /ood on ! top ( ! hill look+ d[n on ! ,t>n1 ) ,/rid+ ,edge on 8 "r4 ,alas6 no eagles are ev] yell+ on ! m\nta91 nor br[n m\nta9 hea!r is 9 sight--only common m\nta9 grass4 ,on ! top ( ,helvellyn %e wrote ! foll[+ l9es 9 a sket*-book3-- ,h[ s(tly ! w9ds ( ! m\nta9s are say+1 ,no *amb] ( dea? is ,helvellyn's d>k br[2 ,on ! r\gh rocky edge are ! fleecy flocks /ray+1 ,& ,r$ ,t>n gleams bright ) a ?\s& />s n[4 ,! huge nameless rook has no gloom 9 its %ad[2 ,x cat*es ! sun1 x has f\nd x a "n2 ,& ! m\nta9 grass cov]s l ! turf ( ! mead[ ,! arms ( ,helvellyn & ,cat*$ecan4 ,!re is n on e>? a d>k city's enclosure1 ,or va/ m\nta9 wa/e1 :]e ! travell] may roam1 ,t peace may n soo! ) its balmy composure1 ,& love may n bless ) ! joy ( a home6 ,to h] si/]4 ,,ulv]/on1 #ae? ( #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,belov$ ,m43-- ,?y v welcome lett] ye/]day met me soon1 aft] return+ f ,sw>?more1 :]e1 ( c\rse1 we _h a v diff]5t assembly f y\rs4 ,x 0 v int]e/+1 hav+ be5 at ,p>dsey ,crags la/ week1 :]e ! ?\s&s _h li/5$ to ,george ,fox's prea*+1 n[ to see ,sw>?more & rememb] h[ ?+s us$ to be :5 he left ! nor? fre% & gre52 b ,g4 ,fox nev] saw ! meet+-h\se4 ,x 0 built1 ,i believe1 aft] 8 dea?1 ?\gh ! inscription ,ex dono ,g4,f4 is ov] ! por*4 ,8 black-oak *airs /& 9 ! meet+-room1 & 8 two b$-po/s are at ea* side ( ! foot ( ! /airs4 ,sw>?more ,hall is an anci5t-look+1 high f>m-h\se1 ) /one w9d[-frames1 z we h se5 x drawn4 ,! ,hall1 :]e ! meet+s us$ to be held1 looks v antique3 black-oak panels rema9 9 p>ts4 ,judge ,fell's /udy is j inside1 & 8 desk 9 ! w9d[1 :5ce he c\ld he> :at pass$1 ?\gh he nev] w5t to ! meet+s4 ,! h\se is 9 sad repair4 ,x seems /range to lay aside our daily companions1 ! map & ! guide-book1 & t>n our backs :olly on ! m\nta9 l&1 = ! level & busy pla9s ( ,engl&1 ) _! daily r\nd & common task4 ,b ,i "k t ! bright & beautiful m\nta9-sc5es w (t5 come aga9 be=e ! m5tal eye--long-vani%$ beauty t ref9es & pa9ts 9 bright] hues2 & ,i hope ! pleasure w long be gratefully rememb]$4 ,! new home 0 rea*$ on ! #af?1 f :5ce %e writes1-- ,to h] si/]4 ,,edgba/on1 #bj? ( #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,,my ,,belov$ ,l43-- 99 99 99 ,i d n l to end ?is ev5tful week )\t try+ to s5d y a few l9es4 99 99 99 ,please tell "m1 ) my de>1 de> love1 h[ v acceptable h] note 01 & h[ mu* ,i hope t h] k9d good wi%es may be realiz$1 & h[ frequ5t a ?\ght ( pleasure x has be5 :ile we h be5 sett+ ?+s 9 ord]1 t be=e long ,i may enjoy to %[ our little t]ritory to h] & fa!r1--to h h] k9d advice & op9ion ab\t my little h\sehold4 99 99 99 ,i yet feel z /rongly z ev] a daught]'s love to ! home ( my *ildhood4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( y1 ,i c fully %>e 9 ! illusion ?\ spoke (1 fancy+ t be=e long ,i %all be among y j z be=e4 99 99 99 ,to h] si/]1 ,p4 ,tregolles4 ,,yew-,,tree ,,road1 #i? ,mon?1 #ahea4 99 99 99 ,i c\ld n h ?\ght ,i %\ld h felt s easy among/ s _m1 lately1 su* /rang]s2 b e day ,i feel m /rongly t on "o nail fa/5$ 9 a sure place _m ?+s may hang easily2 & truly all treat u ) su* k9dness1 t ,i %\ld be ungrateful n to value highly my connection = its own sake1 :il/ t on :i* x hangs gr[s firm] too4 99 99 99 ,! remembrance ( ! *e]fulness ) :i* ,eliza ,s\?all ent]$ into ! duties & c>es ( h] new position 9 h] adopt$ home has af=d$ cause = mu* gratitude on ! "p ( ^? de> relatives :o welcom$ h] !re4 ,newly made acqua9t$ ) "s ( !m1 %e won _! love & e/eem by h] unaffect$ simplicity & ! g5iality ( h] sympa?ies2 b1 :il/ %e %[$ true conjugal solicitude 9 h] plans = dome/ic com=t & social enjoym5t1 x 0 evid5tly h] fir/ desire to h h] he>t & h] treasure 9 heav54 ,x 0 design$ 9 ! ord]+ ( ,div9e provid5ce t a cl\d %\ld v soon ov]%ad[ ! bright promises ( h] arrival2 & ! foll[+ acc\nt ( ! illness :i* s spe$ily t]m9at$ h] life w1 x is hop$1 convey a correct impression ( ! peacefulness ( its close4 ,x is compil$ f memor&a made v soon aft] h] decease1 b is ( necessity imp]fect2 ! att5tion ( ^? :o contribut$ f memory portions ( h] conv]sation be+ s mu* absorb$ by _! int]e/ 9 ! conflict betwe5 life & dea?1 & by ! ov]:elm+ feel+s ( an h\r ( su* mom5t to "s ( !m4 ,:il/ x is hop$ t no?+ ins]t$ may appe> to g beyond ! simplicity ( ! tru?1 x may be add$ t x seems impossible to convey 9 words a full & fai?ful idea ( ! holy s]5ity ( h] la/ h\rs1 :i* %[$ t ! "w ( religion _h n be5 9 va9 9 h] he>t4 ,) ! exception ( a slight cold1 :i* soon left h]1 %e appe>$ to be 9 h] usual heal? & spirits4 ,b x 0 s = only two weeks1 & on ,?ird-day1 ! #cj? ( #i? ,mon?1 on return+ f a visit at ,woodfield1 %e compla9$ ( n feel+ well4 ,! next day %e 0 m poorly1 & m$ical advice 0 obta9$4 ,! foll[+ morn+ %e suff]$ mu* pa91 b ! rem$ies us$ soon reliev$ h]2 &1 ?\gh %e 0 n able to leave h] b$1 ! symptoms did n cont9ue su* z to excite mu* uneas9ess4 ,%e enjoy$ he>+ ano!r read1 & n unfrequ5tly ,isaac ,p5n+ton's lett]s1 or "s o!r book1 0 9 h] own h&1 & dur+ occasional pa9 & uneas9ess %e w\ld reque/ to h "s *apt] 9 ! ,bible read1 or a hymn ( com=t4 ,!re 0 always an air ( *e]fulness 9 h] *amb]1 & ! affectionate greet+ ) :i* ea* relative :o visit$ h] 0 welcom$ 0 v preci\s4 ,few words pass$ ( a religi\s nature1 or su* z to induce ! supposition t 9 f\r m days e>? w\ld be ex*ang$ = heav51 except "o %ort rem>k to h] husb& 9 ! ev5+3 ,i h be5 ?9k+ ( ! text1 ',!n ^: %all ^! ?+s be :i* ?\ ha/ provid$8' !y may n be m9e mu* long]4 ,?is 0 t\*+ to 8 feel+s1 b 0 view$ z h] wont$ cauti\s mann] ( speak+ ( temporal ?+s4 ,!re 0 no?+ fur!r 9 h] rem>ks :i* %[$ t %e reg>d$ h] case z a critical "o4 ,on ,six? & ,sev5? days %e seem$ decid$ly bett]--ent]+ into ! v>i$ int]e/s ar\nd h]4 ,! ev5+ ( ! latt] day 0 p>ticul>ly bright & *e]+1 :5 %e conv]s$ *e]fully ) h] husb& & si/] & spoke ( h] plans = ! future4 ,%e also li/5$ ) pleasure to "s pieces ( poetry :i* 7 read1 & among/ !m appe>$ to d]ive com=t f ! hymn beg9n+1-- ,ne>]1 my ,god1 to ,!e-- ,ne>] to ,!e6 ,e'en ?\gh x be a cross ,t raise? me2 ,/ill all my song w\ld be1 ,ne>]1 my ,god1 to ,!e-- ,ne>] to ,!e6 ,e>ly on ,fir/-day morn+ %e seem$ r depress$1 & reque/$ h] si/] to repeat ! hymn1 ',tis a po9t ,i long to "k1 ,olney ,hymns4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! morn+ %e wrote a t\*+ note to h] belov$ "m3 x 0 h] la/ ef=t ( ! k9d3-- #e? ( #aj? ,mon?1 #ahea4 ,my belov$ ,"m3-- ,i h got p]mission to use a p5cil 9 ?ank+ !e = ?y k9d sweet l9es :i* ?is morn+'s po/ br\ght me4 ,i am ?ankful = be+ s rememb]$ by my own preci\s "m n[ s f> away4 99 99 99 ,x is a new exp]i5ce to me to lie "h s long2 b1 n[ t ,i am mu* bett]1 & :at pa9 ,i h is transi5t & easy to be borne = ! mo/ "p1 x is my own fault if ! days are pr(itless4 ,i q hope1 by ! "t fa!r comes1 to be able to enjoy 8 visit--& s ,i c\ld n[2 b !n x c\ld only be 9 ?is *amb]1 already become q famili>4 99 99 99 ,we are s ?ankful to he> ( ?y am5dm5t to ?is hopeful /age6 ,i tru/ no?+ w prev5t ?y be+ able to leave home ) fa!r2 & !n h[ soon we %all rejoice to see !e "h6 ,?y ev] lov+1 & try+ to be submissive1 ,,eliza4 ,h] m$ical att5dant /ill took an enc\rag+ view ( h] case1 & %e 0 s nicely 9 ! aft]noon t h] husb& left h] to g to meet+4 ,! ev5+ 0 pass$ pleasantly1 & ! family retir$ to re/ z usual4 ,%e cont9u$ v com=table till ab\t mid-night1 :5 a v sudd5 attack ( viol5t pa9 came on1 :i* cont9u$ )\t int]mission = ab\t ?ree h\rs4 ,v affect+1 dur+ ?is "t1 7 h] e>ne/ cries = pati5ce & /r5g?4 ,oh t ,i _h be5 m fai?ful6 ,x is because ,i h be5 s unfai?ful6 ,%e 0 rem9d$ t ^! suff]+s ought n to be reg>d$ 9 ! light ( puni%m5t1 b t :om ! ,"l love? he *a/5e?4 ,"s texts 7 read at h] reque/4 ,!y are v nice1 %e said1 b ,i _c receive !m all n[4 ,truly ?is 0 a "t :5 all human help 0 felt to be unavail+1 & :5 none b ! ,rul] ( ! waves ,himself c\ld speak a calm2 &1 if we may judge f ! subsequ5t alt]$ & tranquil expression ( h] c\nt5ance1 h] petitions 7 m]cifully grant$4 ,d n cry1 my de>1 %e said2 & !n1 ,oh1 h[ k9d to speak *e]fully6 add+1 ,i hope ?is illness may be made a bless+ to u all 9 "t to come4 ,:5 ! doctor1 :o 0 ha/ily call$1 arriv$1 %e said1 ,i hope ,i %all be able to be> ! pa93 ,i w try to be> x4 ,:il/ 9 mu* suff]+1 %e reque/$ to h ! =ty-six? ,psalm read1 :i* _h always be5 a peculi> favorite ) h]4 ,on h] "m ,s4 ent]+ ! room1 %e greet$ h] ) ! words1 ,de> "m6 say+1 ,:at a com=t x is to h "s "o to call "m6 ,! rem$ies resort$ to1 af=d$ tempor>y relief2 & great 0 h] ?ankfulness = ! alleviation f :at %e describ$ z angui%--angui%--angui%6 ,b h] /r5g? 0 greatly pro/rat$1 & = "s h\rs %e doz$--be+ only occasionally consci\s4 ,ab\t n9e or t5 o'clock on ! morn+ ( ,second-day1 ! pale & exhau/$ expression ( h] c\nt5ance conv9c$ u t ! "t = lett+ g our hold ( ?is v preci\s treasure 0 n f> di/ant4 ,ov]:elm+ z 0 ?is feel+1 ! belief t %e 0 unconsci\s ( h] /ate add$ to our anxiety4 ,we long$ to be p]mitt$ an evid5ce f h] own lips t %e felt accept$ ?r\gh ,*ri/ h] ,savi\r2 ?\gh h] humble walk ) ,god ?r\gh life w\ld h assur$ u1 _h !re be5 no su* expression4 ,our desires 71 h[ev]1 m]cifully grant$1 to our humbl+ admiration ( t grace :i* _h made h] :at %e 04 ,ab\t noon %e r\s$ a little1 &1 "o ( ! m$ical m5 hav+ /at$ t a few h\rs w\ld probably produce a great *ange = bett] or = worse1 h] belov$ husb& conclud$ x be/ to in=m h] t %e 0 n likely to cont9ue long among/ u4 ,%e repli$1 ) /rik+ e>ne/ness1 ,:at6 w x be heav58 ,he ask$ if %e c\ld feel com=table 9 ! prospect1 & %e repli$1 ,i mu/ wait a :ile4 ,a few m9utes ( solemn sil5ce foll[$1 9 :i* x is impossible to convey 9 words ! e>ne/ pray]ful expression ( h] c\nt5ance & uplift$ eyes1 :5 x seem$ z if1 reg>dless ( any ?+ ar\nd h]1 %e held imm$iate communion ) h] ,god4 ,%e !n said1 ,i feel a hope1 b n assurance4 ,h] husb& said1 ,tru/ 9 ?y ,savi\r1 my de>4 ,yes1 %e repli$4 ,soon aft] ?is1 be+ ask$ if %e w\ld l h] m$ical att5dants to come into ! room1 %e answ]$1 ,oh1 any "o :o wi%es4 ,i c\ld speak to ! que54 ,aft] ackn[l$g+ _! k9dness to h]1 %e address$ !m 9 an e>ne/ mann] on ! importance ( devot+ all _! tal5ts to ! glory ( ,god1 s t _! *ief aim 9 _! pr(ession might be to s]ve ,him4 ,%e allud$ to ! insuffici5cy ( human skill & ! empt9ess ( e>?ly atta9m5ts at su* a "t z ?is2 add+1 ,b above all ?+s s]ve ! ,"l4 ,!y 7 deeply impress$ ) h] great calmness & resignation4 ,%e spoke to ^? ar\nd h] 9 a /rik+ mann] on ! unsatisfy+ nature ( all ?+s "h4 ,oh1 !y are no?+--less ?an no?+ & vanity--no?+ to me n[2 e>ne/ly enc\rag+ all to prep>e = heav5--to s]ve ! ,"l2 quot+ v f]v5tly & beautifully our ,savi\r's words1 ',i asc5d unto my ,fa!r & y\r ,fa!r1 unto my ,god & y\r ,god4' 99 99 ,upw>ds6 upw>ds6 upw>ds6--,i hope we may all meet 9 glory4 ,a %ort "t aft]w>ds1 appe>+ a little disc\rag$1 %e ask$1 ,d y feel assur$ = me8 c y tru/ = me8 ,& on be+ told t we felt no d\bt1 h] diffid5t m9d seem$ com=t$2 b1 %e add$1 ,i want assurance3 ,i hope2 b ,i don't feel sure--,i d hope 9 ,*ri/4 ,! text 0 repeat$1 ',"l1 ,i believe3 help ?\ m9e unbelief4' ,%e 0 rem9d$ t ,he di$ = all4 ,%e rejo9$1 ,!n = me2 b ,i h no?+ ( my own--n a ?+ to tru/ 91 only 9 ! m]cy ( ,god4 ,i don't feel any burd5 ( s9--only ( neglect4 ,i hope x is n a false peace4 ,d y ?9k x is8 ,h] aunt repeat$1 ',?\gh ,i walk ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w fe> no evil4' ,oh1 preci\s6 %e exclaim$3 ?\gh ,he hide? ,8 face1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 ! ,"l2 ,i w tru/ 9 ! ,"l1 = ,he is fai?ful--fai?ful--fai?ful6 ,i h a humble tru/1 b no rapture4 ,b ,i don't feel sure t ,i %all die n[2 ,i _c see h[ x may be4 ,aga9 & aga9 7 h] eyes turn$ to heav5 9 e>ne/ pray]1 ,if ,i die1 oh1 receive me to ,?yself4 ,?r\gh\t h] illness a holy feel+ ( s]5ity & love p]vad$ ! sick-*amb]3 %e affectionately ackn[l$g$ e little att5tion1 & frequ5tly express$ a fe> ( giv+ tr\ble1 say+1 "o night1 ,:at won't any "o d = love8 ,no expression ( regret escap$ h] lips at leav+ h] e>?ly prospects4 ,h] possessions 9 ?is _w 7 loosely held1 & !re=e easily rel9qui%$ = ^? endur+ treasures :i* _h long _h ! highe/ place 9 h] he>t4 ,h] he>t ov]fl[$ ) love to all ar\nd h]1 say+1 ,all is love2 & _m 7 ! messages %e s5t to h] abs5t relatives & fri5ds4 ,give my de> love to fa!r & "m3 tell !m h[ glad ,i %\ld h be5 to h se5 !m2 b h[ glad ,i am "m 0 n "h6 ,i "k %e c\ld n h borne x4 ,tell !m h[ ?ankful ,i am !y br\ght me up = heav54 ,tell !m1 n raptures1 b peace4 ,tell !m n to grieve1 n to grieve1 n to grieve6 ,tell !m h[ happy ,i h be5 "h2 t ,i want$ = no?+4 ,to h] si/]s1 ,all love--no?+ b love2 add+ t %e might h _h mu* m to say1 _h %e be5 able1 b ,i mu/ n2 ,i mu/ be quiet4 ,z ! diff]5t memb]s ( h] husb&'s family surr\nd$ h] b$1 %e address$ ea* ) a few appropriate words4 ,tak+ h] "m ,s4's h&1 %e said1 ,?\ ha/ be5 a k9d "m to me3 ,i c nev] repay !e4 99 99 99 ,to h] fa!r ,s41 :o 0 abs5t1 %e s5t h] love4 ,he1 h[ev]1 return$ 9 "t to see h]4 ,f 8 hav+ left h] s mu* bett] on ,sev5?-day1 %e fe>$ he might be al>m$ at ! *ange1 anxi\sly inquir+ :e!r he 0 aw>e ( x1 & affectionately greet$ him :5 he came1 say+1 ,i am s glad to see !e6 ,to "o %e said1 ,de> ----1 seek ! ,"l2 seek ,him & s]ve ,him ) a p]fect he>t4 ',:y %\ld we fe> y\?'s draught ( joy4'#c ,tell h] t v]se f me4 99 99 99 ,%e inquir$ = ,j4,h42 &1 on 8 com+ into ! room1 be+ r ov]come ) h] ex]tions1 %e said1 ,i am too weak to speak n[2 b1 wav+ h] h&1 %e po9t$ h] f+] t[>ds heav5 ) an almo/ angelic smile4 ,aft] a %ort pause1 %e r5ew$ h] leave-tak+1 add+1 at its close1 ,f>ewell--my be/ f>ewell6 n[ ,i h no?+ m to say4 ,f>ewell6 ,& a little aft]1 turn+ to h] si/]1 ,n[1 my de> ,r41 !re seems no?+ to say--no?+ b love--all love6 ,%e !n ask$ = a few m9utes alone ) h] de> husb&1 & took a calm & t5d] leave ( him also4 ,difficulty ( brea?+ n[ became v try+ to h]2 b aga9 & aga9 %e tri$ to *e] u by ! assurance t %e _h no pa9--only oppression3 don't ?9k x pa94 ,! l9es be+ repeat$ ,?\gh pa9ful at pres5t1 ',twill cease be=e long2 ,& !n1 oh1 h[ pleasant ,! conqu]or's song6 %e respond$ ) a sweet smile1 & exclaim$1 ,oh1 glori\s6 ,%e dwelt ) com=t on ! text1 ,:om ! ,"l love? ,he *a/5e?1 & once1 comm5c+ to repeat x h]self1 ask$ h] si/] to f9i% x4 ,no cl\d n[ appe>$ to rema9 be=e h]4 ,i don't see any ?+ 9 ! way1 %e said4 ,h] si/] rem9d$ h] t ! ev]la/+ arms 7 und]nea? & above h]1 wait+ to receive h]4 ,de> ,r41 %e repli$1 %e c tru/ = me4 99 99 ,%e spoke at int]vals until a few m9utes be=e h] dep>ture1 b n always intelligibly4 ,on h] de> husb&'s ask+ h] if %e felt peaceful1 %e ass5t$ ) a beam+ smile1 & soon aft]1 re/+ 9 8 arms1 %e ceas$ to brea!4 ,%e di$ on ,second-day ev5+1 ! #f? ( #aj? mon?1 #ahea4 ,?us1 at ! age ( ab\t tw5ty-eight ye>s1 & )9 six weeks aft] ! happy consummation ( a m>riage union :i* promis$ mu* true enjoym5t1 0 ?is preci\s plant sudd5ly remov$1 to bloom =ev]1 z we humbly tru/1 ?r\gh r$eem+ love & m]cy1 9 a cele/ial p>adise4 ,! fun]al took place at ,fri5ds' burial-gr\nd at ,birm+ham1 on ! foll[+ ,fir/-day2 be+ only ?ree weeks f ! "t %e _h fir/ att5d$ t ,meet+ z a bride4 ,x 0 a deeply solemn "t2 b1 amid/ _! grief1 ! he>ts ( _m respond$ to ! words express$ at ! grave-side3 ,n[1 unto ,him :o ha? lov$ h]1 & wa%$ h] f h] s9s 9 ,8 own blood1 unto ,him be glory & dom9ion1 = ev] & ev]1 ,am54 ,footnote #c3 ,:y %\ld we fe> y\?'s draught ( joy1 ,if pure1 w\ld sp>kle less8 ,:y %\ld ! cup ! soon] cloy ,:i* ,god ha? deign'd to bless8 ,,! ,,end4