,,religion ,,9 ,,e>ne/4 ,a ,,memorial ,,( ,,mrs4 ,,m>y ,,ly?1 ,,( ,,york4 ,,by ,,h] ,,son ,,john ,,ly?4 #ahfa4 ,,d$icat$ ,,to ,,! ,,memory ,,( ,,my ,,belov$ ,,si/] ,,eliza ,,hill1 ,,^: ,,r>e ,,& ,,uno/5tati\s ,,virtues ,,%$ ,,fragrance ,,on ,,e>?1 ,,b ,,are ,,only ,,record$ ,,9 ,,heav54 ,,preface4 ,9 compil+ ! foll[+ %eets1 ! ,au?or has dis*>g$ :at he felt to be an act1 n m]ely ( filial affection1 b ( ,*ri/ian duty4 ,to 8 deceas$ & v5]at$ ,"m he owes m ?an words c express2--a ,"m ^: consi/5t example1 e>ne/ piety & frequ5t effectual pray]s1 p]haps ev5 m ?an h] (t-repeat$ c\nsels1 produc$ ^u 8 m9d1 :ile yet a *ild1 ! settl$ conviction t religion is ! "o bus9ess ( life4 ,b be believes x also due to ! cause ( ,*ri/1 t an example ( ,religion 9 ,e>ne/1 s pre-em95t1 %\ld n pass unrecord$ & unimprov$4 ,^? :o ?9k ! *>m ( biography consi/s 9 />tl+ incid5t2 or :o seek = mat]ial to gratify a lit]>y ta/e1 w discov] "h little to meet _! respective views4 ,we h only to (f] !m a simple record ( "o1 ^: hi/ory possess$ no romantic int]e/1 & :o made no pret5sion to intellectual atta9m5ts4 ,b su* z love to trace ! developm5t ( ,div9e grace 9 ! human he>t1 & to see its p[] uni=mly exemplifi$ 9 ! sev]al phases ( e-day life2--:o are will+ to le>n h[ mu* may be accompli%$ by decision1 simplicity ( purpose1 & undeviat+ consi/5cy2--9 a ^w1 h[ e ,*ri/ian ev5 9 private life1 may become a c5tre ( happ9ess1 life & p[]1 are 9 ?is volume pres5t$ ) no common illu/ration4 ,! me?od ( arrangem5t :i* ! writ] has adopt$ has be5 det]m9$1 p>tly by 8 mat]ials1 & p>tly by ! desire to r5d] 8 subject practical z well z int]e/+4 ,h[ f> he has succe$$ mu/ be decid$ by ! impression made ^u ! m9d ( ! read]4 ,he n[ comm5ds 8 "w to ,god1 :o alone c give success to e good purpose1 e>ne/ly pray+ t ,*ri/1 :o 0 magnifi$ 9 ! life ( 8 n[ sa9t$ "m1 may be yet m abundantly magnifi$ 9 h] dea?4 ,j4,l4 ,/ett51 ,o4,a4 ,cann/att1 ,wrttemb]g4 ,decemb] #bg?1 #ahfj4 ,,cont5ts4 ,,*ap4 ,i4--,,antec$5ts ,,ii4--,,e>ly ,,dawn ,,iii4--,,gold5 ,,opportunities ,,iv4--,,! ,,holy ,,e/ate ,v4--,,%[] ,,& ,,sun%9e ,,vi4--,,gr[? ,,9 ,,grace ,,vii4--,,temple ,,s]vice ,,viii4--,,pass+ ,,cl\ds ,,ix4--,,mid-,,day ,,toil ,x4--,,works ,,( ,,m]cy ,,xi4--,a ,,dy+ ,,sc5e ,,xii4--,,c\ntry ,,life ,,xiii4--,,! ,,r$emption ,,( ,,! ,,promise ,,xiv4--,,p[] ,,) ,,god ,,xv4--,,! ,,return ,,xvi4--,,! ,,sacrifice ,,xvii4--,,! ,,"m ,,9 ,,israel ,,xviii4--,,light ,,9 ,,d>kness ,,xix4--,,! ,,inw>d ,,monitor ,,xx4--,,! ,,/orm ,,xxi4--,,! ,,wid[ ,,xxii4--,,! ,,lights ,,& ,,%ad[s ,,( ,,ev5+ ,,xxiii4--,,sleep ,,9 ,,jesus ,,xxiv4--,,pleasant ,,memories ,i4 ,,antec$5ts4 ,a ,,good ,,man ,,leave? ,,an ,,inh]itance ,,to ,,8 ,,*ildr5',s ,,*ildr54 ,prov4 xiii4 #bb4 ,)9 ! gr\nds atta*$ to ! mansion ( ! ,e>l ( ,h>ewood1 9 ! ,we/ ,rid+ ( ,york%ire1 is a sub/antial & well-built f>m h\se1 furni%$ ) suitable outbuild+s1 & surr\nd$ by a f9e clu/] ( fruit-trees4 ,x /&s on ! side ( a hill1 :i* slopes g5tly d[n to ! riv] ,:>fe1 & comm&s a prospect1 :i*1 ?\gh n ext5sive1 is s+ul>ly picturesque4 ,9 front1 a little to ! "r1 ! ru9$ =tress ( ,h>ewood peeps out ( a scatt]$ wood1 :i* cr[ns ! summit ( ! hill1 & %elt]s "o ( ! neate/ & trimme/ villages 9 ,engl&4 ,on ! left fl[s ! beautiful ,:>fe b soon loses itself among ! adjac5t heights4 ,beh9d1 t[]s ! logan ( ,arlmes cliff1 an int]e/+ relic ( druidical skill & sup]/ition2 :ile ,riffa wood & ,ottley ,%ev9 complete ! beauty ( ! l&scape4 ,a r[ ( trees1 protect$ by a l(ty wall1 effectually conceals ! h\se we h m5tion$1 f ! highroad1 :i* = "s di/ance runs at ! foot ( ! hill & almo/ p>allel to ! riv]4 ,=m]ly !re 0 only a s&y lane1 :i* pass$ imm$iately 9 front ( ! h\se1 & w9d+ up ! hill1 ent]$ ! village betwe5 ! ca/le & ! *ur*4 ,f ?is circum/ance ! adjo9+ f>m 0 call$ ,s&ygate1 b ) ! *anges t h tak5 place1 ! appellation is n[ almo/ =gott51 al?\gh ! h\se /ill reta9s ! "n ( its orig9al occupant1 & is kn[n 9 ! neighb\rhood z ',/ables ,h\se4' ,j a hundr$ ye>s ago1 ?is h\se 0 built = ! accommodation ( ,wm4 ,/ables1 a weal?y yeoman1 :o resid$ at ,hea!rwick 7n[ ,/anke71 ab\t a mile f ,h>ewood2 & :o1 successful 9 ! cultivation ( 8 pat]nal acres1 s\ght to ext5d 8 int]e/s by r5t+ ! f>m ( ,s&ygate4 ,8 removal 0 h[ev] unpropiti\s to 8 dome/ic happ9ess2 = ent]+ ! new h\se be=e x 0 fully fit = occupation1 8 wife1 already 9 a delicate /ate ( heal?1 took cold & di$2 leav+ him ) f\r *ildr51 ! elde/ ( :om 0 six ye>s old1 & ! y\nge/ b an infant4 ,mr4 ,s4 is said to h be5 a %rewd & s5sible man1 ( /rict morals & unb5d+ integrity2 b )al /]n & inflexible 9 disposition1 ph>isaic1 & a bigot$ *ur*man4 ,8 punctuality 9 ! p]=mance ( outw>d religi\s duties1 & ! regul> paym5t ( 8 dues1 ) n[ & !n a fat %eep giv5 to ! poor1 secur$ him among 8 neighb\rs ! reputation ( be+ a good ,*ri/ian4 ,z might be suppos$1 8 *ildr5 7 tra9$ ) great sev]ity1 & educat$ 9 ! /raite/ sect ( _! religion4 ,collect & cate*ism 7 duly committ$ to memory1 pray]s regul>ly read 9 ! family1 ! ,sabba? rigor\sly obs]v$1 a /iff & precise ord] reign$ ?r\gh ! :ole h\sehold2 b x want$ ! *>m & life ( spiritual feel+4 ,z ! *ildr5 grew up to maturity1 ?is /ate ( ?+s 0 de/9$ to be *ang$ by ! introduction ( a new & unwelcome elem5t1 :i* s]i\sly di/urb$ ! nev] too pr(\nd tranquillity ( ! old man4 ,m>y1 ! y\nge/ *ild1 ^: m9d _h gradually op5$ to ! tru?1 al?\gh s defectively communicat$1 became deeply conv9c$ ( s9 "u ! m9i/ry ( ,mr4 ,jackson1 ! p>i% cl]gyman2 & s pa9ful & vivid 7 h] views ( h] mis]able condition1 t %e cri$ al\d = m]cy 9 ! *ur*4 ,h] fa!r 0 deeply conc]n$ = h]1 b1 z he 0 ignorant ( spiritual religion1 he 0 utt]ly at a loss to und]/& h] feel+s4 ,z a la/ res\rce he s5t = ! m9i/]1 b ) no bett] result1 = he too1 frankly confess$ t he did n und]/& ! sorr[ ( :i* he _h be5 ! unwitt+ occasion4 ,a specim5 ( ?is g5tleman's ability to adm9i/] spiritual c\nsel & direction is record$ 9 ! *>act]i/ic autobiography ( ,ri*>d ,burdsall4 ,visit+ ,mr4 ,/ables 9 8 la/ illness ,mr4 ,jackson ask$ him h[ he did4 ,mr4 ,s4 repli$1 ',sir1 ,i am a mis]able s9n]4' ',d n say y are a mis]able s9n]1' repli$ ! ,rev]5d g5tleman1 '= y are a good man4' ,mr4 ,s4 answ]$1 ',o1 ,mr4 ,jackson1 ,i am a mis]able s9n]4' ,to ?is ! p>son repli$1 'if y w be a mis]able s9n] y are l to be a mis]able s9n]1' & s came no m4 ,m>y 0 ?us left to seek relief & com=t :]e %e c\ld2 & hav+ he>d ( ! ,me?odi/s1 :o held a meet+ e ,sabba? 9 a h\se ab\t a mile di/ant f ,h>ewood1 %e secretly resolv$ to att5d1 if possibly1 %e might f9d ! hidd5 peace1 :i* %e _h hi!rto s\ght 9 va94 ,"h %e met ) a few humble b s9c]e p]sons1 :o c\ld sympa?ise ) h] /ate ( m9d2 & f :om %e receiv$ su* in/ruction & enc\ragem5t1 t1 n long aft] :ile plead+ ) ,god 9 ! secrecy ( h] *amb]1 %e obta9$ 'r$emption ?r\gh ! blood ( ,*ri/1 ev5 ! =giv5ess ( s9s4' ,mu* to ! *agr9 ( h] fa!r1 %e n[ became an av[$ ,me?odi/2 & 0 subject$ to ! petty p]secution1 :i* usually awaits ! fir/ 9 a family t embraces vital godl9ess4 ,on "o occasion1 h] fa!r lock$ h] out ( ! h\se2 &1 on ano!r1 ?reat5$ to %oot h]1 b %e rema9$ firm to h] pr(ession2 until at l5g?1 h] consi/5t & /eady deportm5t 0 rew>d$ by ! conv]sion ( h] two bro!rs1 ,john & ,william1 & also ( two ( ! s]vants4 ,! increas$ displeasure ( ! old g5tleman 0 signally exhibit$4 ,afraid le/ ,elizabe? 8 elde/ daught] %\ld also become a ,me?odi/1 he resolv$ at once to free 8 h\se f all possibility ( infection4 ,! two s]vants 7 dismiss$ )\t c]emony2 & ! ?ree del9qu5ts bani%$ to a f>m1 :i* he _h pur*as$1 at ,kirkby ,ov]bl[1 a few miles di/ant4 ,^! precautions 7 useless4 ,! removal ( h] si/] & bro!rs1 toge!r ) ! occasion ( _! bani%m5t1 s mu* affect$ ,elizabe?1 t 9 fact x contribut$ to ! result x 0 int5d$ to prev5t4 ,s fooli% & va9 are ! ?\ghts ( m5 :5 !y attempt to arre/ ! op]ations ( ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,isolat$ & fre$ f control1 ! "y conv]ts 7 n[ left to obey ! dictates ( consci5ce )\t fur!r opposition4 ,9 _! new home !y 7 ?r[n m directly 9 contact ) ! ,me?odi/s1 & especially =m$ acqua9tance ) ,ri*>d ,burdsall1 ) ^: class !y at once connect$ !mselves4 ,ri*>d ,burdsall 0 "o ( ^? bold & di/9ctive *>act]s1 ^: /]l+ piety & ard5t zeal %9+ =? f "u a rude ext]ior1 gave su* peculi> lu/re to ! age ( e>ly ,me?odism2 & indicat$ an ag5cy1 specially rais$ by ,god1 to break up ! fall[ gr\nd & cle> away ! ?orns1 t ! incorruptible se$ ( tru? might f9d a soil cong5ial to its g]m9ation & gr[?4 ,8 conv]sion1 :i* occurr$ at ! age ( tw5ty1 0 accompani$ by indubitable pro(s ( its reality2 & in/antly foll[$ up by entire consecration to ,god4 ,! pa? ( usefulness soon op5$ out be=e him2 & 9 spite ( 'fight+s )\t & fe>s )91' he pursu$ x ) undeviat+ integrity to ! close ( a protract$ life4 ,8 %rewdness & orig9ality ( ?\ght1 qua9t & po9t$ me?od ( expression1 comb9$ ) su* an intimate acqua9tance ) ! ^w ( ,god1 t "s said he _h ! scriptures at 8 f+]s' ends1 & o!rs nicknam$ him 'old *apt] & v]se2' & above all1 8 kn[n integrity & uncompromis+ zeal = ! glory ( ,god1 amply comp5sat$ = ! want ( cultivation1 & r5d]$ him z a lay prea*] s exce$+ly popul> & useful1 t he 0 repeat$ly solicit$ to ent] a high] sph]e1 & devote himself to ! "w ( ! m9i/ry4 ,he 0 twice appo9t$ by ,mr4 ,wesley to ! ,york circuit1 9 :i* he 0 resid5t2 & 9 six diff]5t in/ances1 invit$ to take *>ge ( indep5d5t congregations2 b1 al?\gh he s f> yield$ to ! reque/ ( ! =m] z to make ! exp]im5t = n9e mon?s1 he volunt>ily retir$1 "u ! conviction t he 0 call$ to occupy an humbl] b n less useful sph]e4 ,8 lab\rs1 :i* 7 ext5d$ ov] a consid]able "p ( ,york%ire & ,l9coln%ire1 7 bless$ by ,god to ! salvation ( ?\s&s4 ,by day toil+ at ! vice or ! anvil1 & by night prea*+ ! glad tid+s ( ! ,gospel1 8 life 0 sp5t1 ',twixt ! m\nt & multitude ,do+ & receiv+ good until1 )9 a =tnight ( 8 dea?1 at ! advanc$ age ( eighty-eight1 he deliv]$ 8 la/ disc\rse1 & di$ %\t+ ,victory1 ,victory1 ?r\gh ! blood ( ! ,lamb4 ,at ! p]iod ( o> n>rative ,mr4 ,b4 resid$ at ,ke>by1 ab\t a mile f ! ,kirkby f>m1 :]e he soon became a frequ5t & welcome visitor2 & by 8 c\nsels & example1 contribut$ mu* to confirm ! fai? & piety ( its inmates4 ,! two bro!rs became useful local prea*]s1 & rema9$ fai?ful unto dea?2 & ) ,m>y comm5c$ an intimacy1 :i*1 not)/&+ consid]able diff]5ce ( age & circum/ances1 0 ultimately consummat$ 9 m>riage4 ,! /ory ( ! c\rt%ip is amus+ & *>act]i/ic4 ,m>y 0 fair to look ^u1 & hav+ moreov] ! prospect ( a h&some =tune1 comm&$ _m admir]s4 ,"o day :5 sev]al ( ^! aspirants = h] h& 7 pres5t1 ,mr4 ,b4 /epp$ 91 &1 p]ceiv+ h[ matt]s 7 go+1 quietly slipp$ beh9d h] & :isp]$1 ',i mean to h !e myself'4 ,?is abrupt av[al _h ! desir$ effect4 ,! bloom+ damsel pref]r$ ! wid[] ) f\r *ildr51 ?\gh twice h] own age1 to y\ng] b n m wor?y suitors2 a decision %e nev] _h occasion to regret4 ,! engagem5t ?us /rangely br\ght to a crisis1 0 n ent]$ into )\t mu* s]i\s =e?\ght & pray]4 ,! pa? ( ,provid5ce 0 di/9ctly indicat$1 & !re rema9$ b "o ob/acle 9 ! way ( ! propos$ union1 & t 0 to secure ! cons5t ( ,mr4 ,/ables2 :i*1 to quote ,mr4 ,burdsall's own words1 'to me appe>$ l ask+ him = 8 life'4 ,i 0 h[ev] provid5tially help$ out ( ?is difficulty2 = z ,i 0 return+ f prea*+ "o morn+1 ,i met him 9 a n>r[ lane at "s di/ance f 8 own h\se4 ,:5 he saw me1 he turn$ r\nd z ?\gh he w\ld n meet me4 ,! lane be+ /rait1 he took hold ( my m>e & said1 ',:at are y a rid+ prea*] n['8 ,i answ]$1 ',to be sure ,i am1 = y see ,i am ^u my m>e'4 ,he !n said1 ',are my sons "r1 ?9k y1 :5 !y c g to a public h\se & dr9k ) p & pay no?+'8 ,i repli$1 ',y are n to give cr$it to :at ! _w says ( u ,me?odi/s1 or ( y\r sons4 ,i believe y\r sons fe> ! ,"l1 & are wi%ful to d :at is "r'4 ,he said1 ',well1 he t endure? to ! end ! same %all be sav$'4 ,i repli$1 ',t is ,god's ^w1 b x w n suit e "o'4 ,he !n wi%$ to "k :om x w\ld n suit4 ,i answ]$1 ',x w n suit ! unreg5]ate1 = 7 ,i to tell s9n]s1 t if !y endur$ to ! end 9 _! s9s !y %\ld be sav$1 ,i %\ld lie2 = !y _c be sav$ if !y d3 nei!r w x suit ! self-righte\s1 = ! ^w ( ,god says1 ',except y\r righte\sness exce$ ! righte\sness ( ! scribes & ph>isees1 ye %all 9 no case ent] into ! k+dom ( heav5'4 ,:at ,i said1 seem$ to c>ry conviction to 8 m9d4 ,he said1 ',!y say y are a good prea*]1 ,i %all come & he> y'4 ',i %\ld be glad to see y'1 repli$ ,i1 'b ,i fe> y\r ma/] w n let y come'4 ,we !n proce$$ t[>ds 8 h\se 9 fri5dly conv]sation1 & :5 we 7 j go+ to "p he said1 ',!y say y are go+ to m>ry my daught]4' ,i answ]$1 ',i d\bt !y grieve y )1 x4' ,he said1 ',nay1 n at all1 = my daught] %all m>ry :om %e likes4' ',y speak v hon\rably1' said ,i1 'if y only /& to y\r ^w4' ,to ?is he repli$1 ',i w1 %e %all m>ry :om %e likes4' ,i said to him1 ',i w make y ?is promise1 t ,i w n m>ry y\r daught] = ! sake ( h] =tune1 = ,i d n believe y w give me any ) h]4 ,if ,i c be assur$ t x is ( ! ,"l1 ,i w m>ry h] ?\gh y turn h] into ! /reet de/itute2 &1 )\t ?is p]suasion1 ,i w\ld n m>ry h] ?\gh y 7 to give h] y\r :ole e/ate to d s3 !re=e d n blame me4' ,he said1 ',i _c1' & we p>t$4 ,not)/&+ ?is pla9 conv]sation1 ,mr4 ,/ables 0 highly displeas$ ) ! mat*1 & (f]$ to give 8 daught] an additional portion on condition t %e w\ld n prosecute x2 add+1 ,if y d1 ,i'll give y sixp5ce a-week1 & y may g ab\t s++ ,me?odi/ songs4 ,on _! m>riage1 :i* took place %ortly aft]1 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,burdsall remov$ to ,york4 ,! (f5d$ fa!r1 true to 8 ^w1 s5t 8 daught] =? lit]ally de/itute2 n ev5 p]mitt+ h] to take h] p]sonal app>el4 ,x 0 n until twelve mon?s _h elaps$1 t any fur!r communication took place4 ,! int]view is ?us relat$ by ,mr4 ,burdsall 9 8 own qua9t /yle4 ,i happ5$ to be pass+ ne> 8 h\se z he 0 go+ f x2 on my call+ to him1 he ask$ :at ,i want$ ) him4 ,i said1 ',i want to "k :at place y mean me to h 9 heav58' ,he smil$1 & ask$1 ',d y mean to g !re8' ',i hope s1' said ,i4 ,he !n ask$ me :y ,i _h m>ri$ 8 daught]4 ,i told him1 because ,i lov$ h] & ?\ght %e w\ld make me a good wife4 ,i add$1 ',y "k1 sir1 t ,i told y be=e ,i m>ri$ h]1 t ,i w\ld n m>ry h] = ! sake ( h] =tune2 nei!r h ,i1 ,i d n expect any1 ! ,"l blesses u )\t any1 & he w /ill cont9ue to bless u4' ,he ackn[l$g$ ! tru? ( :at ,i said1 & we p>t$4 ,! fire ( wra? 0 /ill sm\ld]+ 9 ! he>t ( ! old man1 & awak5$ 9 ! m9d ( ,mrs4 ,burdsall feel+s ( pa9ful anxiety1 especially1 z x 0 app>5t1 t life 0 ebb+ fa/ to its close4 ,mr4 ,b4 !re=e1 a %ort "t aft]1 address$ a k9d b fai?ful lett] to him on ! great subject ( salvation1 & conclud$ ) ^! rem>kable & expressive words1 ,i h no o!r reason = writ+ to y1 t ,i "k (1 ?an ?is1 t ! sun is go+ d[n4 ,?is produc$ no imm$iate effect1 only1 :5ev] !y met1 ,mr4 ,/ables w\ld say1 ,y write p>ables to me4 ,! allusion h[ev] s appositely & wisely put1 l an arr[ direct$ to ! m>k1 _h fa/5$ ^u 8 consci5ce1 & 0 secretly und]m9+ ! /r5g? ( long & ob/9ately-*]i%$ res5tm5t4 ,! m>ksman 0 skilful1 b /ill bett]1 a man ( f]v5t effectual pray]4 ,z a ,pr9ce he _h p[] ) ,god & ) m51 & prevail$1 = :5 a man's ways please ! ,"l ,he make? ev5 8 enemies to be at peace ) him4 ,s x turn$ out4 ,mr4 ,burdsall says1 ,"o "t1 z ,i 0 return+ home f prea*+ at a di/ant place 9 a v wet cold & hungry /ate1 & z night 0 com+ on1 hav+ to pass 8 resid5ce1 ,i ?\ght ,i w\ld call & see if he w\ld receive me4 ,i knock$ at ! door1 & he himself op5$ x4 ,see+ me he call$ 8 elde/ daught] & said1 ',"h is ?y bro!r1 come & take 8 horse4' ,i alight$ & w5t 94 ,he !n acco/$ me z he _h done once be=e1 ask+1 ',:at are y a rid+ prea*] n[8' ,i answ]$1 ',to be sure ,i am2 = ,i h ridd5 f ,york to ,seacr(t1 & f !nce to y\r h\se4' ',well1' said he1 ',i "k y live well4' ,i repli$1 ',we d2 b ,i h n liv$ s well to day z ,i might h done2 = ,i feel r hungry4' ,he smil$1 & bid 8 daught] put on ! tea kettle4 ,we !n ent]$ into conv]sation1 9 :i* he said1 ',y write p>ables to me1 = y told me ! sun 0 go+ d[n4' ,i answ]$1 ',i did s1 & my reason = x 01 ,i knew ,i _h /irr$ up y\r wra? 9 m>ry+ y\r daught] aga9/ y\r m9d1 & 0 fe>ful le/ ! sun %\ld g d[n ^u x4' ,he bur/ into a flood ( te>s1 & 0 s melt$ d[n1 t = ?ree h\rs1 ,i 0 prompt$ bo? by 8 feel+s & my own to speak ( ! love ( ,*ri/ to poor s9n]s4 99 99 99 ,?is 0 a night to be rememb]$ z my reconciliation ) ,mr4 ,/ables 0 at ?is "t effect$4 ,! und]/&+ ?us happily br\ght ab\t 0 nev] aft] int]rupt$2 & ,mr4 ,/ables practically ev9c$ ! s9c]ity ( 8 feel+s by secur+ to 8 daught] an annuity = life4 ,9 8 la/ illness1 :i* occurr$ a few ye>s lat]1 ,mr4 ,burdsall1 by 8 own reque/1 frequ5tly visit$ him1 & m9i/]$ to 8 spiritual wants4 ,he di$ 9 peace on ! #ac? ( ,june1 #aghg4 ,! fir/ fruits ( ! union ( ,ri*>d ,burdsall & ,m>y ,/ables1 0 ,m>y1 ! subject ( ! pres5t memoir--! /ep-si/] ( ! ,rev4 ,john ,burdsall1 :o /ill survives4 ,%e 0 born at ,york1 )\t ,boo?am b>1 ,june #ai?1 #aghb4 ,! h\se :i* no long] exi/s1 /ood j "u ! %ad[ ( ! old gateway1 ne>ly opposite ! mod]n cresc5t1 kn[n z ,/4 ,leon>d's ,place4 ,! =ego+ facts1 :i* to "s may appe> sup]flu\s1 are "h introduc$ n m]ely ) ! view ( mak+ ! read] acqua9t$ ) ! antec$5ts ( my hon\r$ "m2 b ! mu* high] object ( illu/rat+ ! sov]eign m]cy ( ,god1 & trac+ ! gr[? ( ! religi\s elem5t 9 ! family4 ,_m a page deeply int]e/+ & in/ructive might be writt5 :i* w\ld unfold ! grace ( ,god 9 ! hi/ory ( p>ticul> families1 fl[+ z a /ream ( light f g5]ation to g5]ation1 or diffus+ itself 9 ! collat]al bran*es2 "h swell+ z broad riv]s & /reams1 & !re n>r[$ d[n to a s+le *annel4 ,! causes ( su* alt]nations might be pr(itably inve/igat$1 & record$4 ,! inquiry into "o's ance/ry w\ld ?us answ] a nobl] purpose ?an ! gratification ( human vanity1 or ! recov]y ( an ali5at$ inh]itance2 x w\ld exhibit ! influ5ce ( ! pa/ ^u ! pres5t1 af=d important lessons ( enc\ragem5t or admonition1 & discov] our claim p]haps1 to some?+ bett] ?an gold or silv] = ! good man ev5 ?\gh he is poor1 leave? an inh]itance to 8 *ildr5's *ildr54 ,h[ f> ! moral "* z well z ! physical con/itution ( a p>5t may affect ! happ9ess & control ! de/9y ( 8 *ildr51 is a "q1 :i* may be incapable ( an exact & satisfactory solution2 b ! g5]al fact1 not)/&+ "s /range exceptions1 7:i* h[ev] may n be altoge!r incapable ( explanation17 is suffici5tly e/abli%$1 t examples ( s+ul> excell5ce1 or notori\s pr(ligacy may usually he trac$ to se$s s[n 9 a =m] g5]ation4 ,!y are n !re=e to be altoge!r reg>d$ 9 ! light ( isolat$ ph5om5a1 b z ! result ( causes1 :i* may be m or less accurately det]m9$4 ,at all ev5ts1 ,god reveals himself z a jeal\s ,god1 visit+ ! iniquity ( ! fa!rs ^u ! *ildr5 unto ! ?ird & f\r? g5]ation ( !m t hate him1 & ,,%ew+ ,,m]cy ,,unto ,,?\s&s ,,( ,,!m ,,t ,,love ,,him ,,& ,,keep ,,8 ,,comm&m5ts4 ,,ii4 ,,e>ly ,,dawn4 ,,?\ ,,ha/ ,,hid ,,^! ,,?+s ,,f ,,! ,,wise ,,& ,,prud5t ,,& ,,ha/ ,,reveal$ ,,!m ,,unto ,,babes4 ,matt4 xi4 #be4 ,:at solemn int]e/ surr\nds ! dawn ( immortal exi/5ce1--t preci\s portion ( human life1 ! fir/ f\r or five ye>s1 :i* may be t]m$ ! p]ceptive p]iod1 too (t5 treat$ z a m]e blank1 9 :i* no?+ is to be attempt$2 :5 ! s\l is all eye1 all e>1 cont9ually /or+ up 9 an almo/ faultless memory1 impressions1 :i* g f> to m\ld ! future "*1 & :i* reason1 s soon z x is able1 w c]ta9ly use z "p ( ! mat]ial out ( :i* x mu/ =m its conclusions6 ,h[ mu* ( ! future dep5ds ^u ! k9d ( influ5ce to :i* ! infant m9d is subject$6 ,happily = ,m>y ,burdsall ^! e>ly ye>s 7 c>efully wat*$ & gu>d$4 ,! bold & uncompromis+ "* ( h] fa!r1 & ! g5tle piety ( h] "m1 secur$ to h] a comb9ation ( influ5ces p>ticul>ly fav\rable to ! developm5t ( moral & religi\s feel+4 ,lessons ( tru? & love1 z yet beyond ! compreh5sion ( ! *ild1 7 effectively taught by means ( bright & liv+ examples2 & h5ce grace began to op]ate ) ! fir/ unfold+s ( reason4 ,h] e>lie/ recollections 7 associat$ ) ! f>m at ,s&ygate4 ,:5 ab\t f\r ye>s old1 h] gr&fa!r ,/ables1 n[ reconcil$ to 8 daught]1 propos$ to und]take ! *>ge ( ,m>y's tra9+ & education4 ,?is arrangem5t 0 ov]rul$1 provid5tially z x w\ld seem2 = ,mr4 ,s41 al?\gh /rictly moral & religi\s 9 8 way1 0 a /rang] to exp]im5tal godl9ess1 & only obta9$ ! k ( ! tru? 9 8 la/ mom5ts4 ,! occasion ( h] return to h] p>5ts 0 probably 8 increas+ age & infirmity1 z ! only impression %e reta9$ ( him 9 aft] life 0 t ( a some:at cru/y & ill-temp]$ old man1 ) a huge bobwig1 :o always laid 9 b$4 ,8 la/ words to h]1 :i* 7 vividly impress$ ^u h] m9d1 71 t x 0 a pity %e %\ld g home to be spoil$ by ,me?odism4 ,! few mon?s %e sp5t at ,s&ygate 7 n h[ev] )\t "s good & p]man5t result4 ,h] aunt ,elizabe?1 :o 0 scripturally enlight5$1 & 9 a great measure free f o!r engagem5ts1 solicit\sly occupi$ h]self 9 endeav\r+ to impress h] t5d] he>t ) div9e tru?4 ,f h] lips %e le>n$ to lisp ! ,"l's pray]1 ! ,apo/les' cre$1 sev]al ( ,watts' div9e songs1 & 9 p>ticul> ! hymn comm5c+ ,h[ va9 are all ?+s "h bel[4 ,) ref]5ce to ?is p]iod %e says 9 h] j\rnal3--,! _s ( ,god /rove ) me :5 b a little *ild4 ,"o "t1 ,i rememb]1 :ile repeat+ my pray]s to my aunt1 ! grace ( ,god %one s sweetly ^u me1 ,i 0 melt$ d[n into t5d]ness be=e ! ,"l2 & x seem$ z if ! glory ( ! ,"l %one r\nd ab\t me1 :ile ,i repeat$ ! well-kn[n hymn ',glory to ,!e1 my ,god1 ?is night4' ,at ano!r "t1 ! ,_s ( pray] 0 s p\r$ ^u me my sleep = a season fl$4 ,?us ! ,"l brood$ ^u my infant m9d4 ,glory be to 8 adorable "n6 ,%ortly aft] h] return to ,york %e he>d ! v5]able f\nd] ( ,me?odism prea* 9 ,peaseholm ,gre5 ,*apel2 & ?\gh at t e>ly age incompet5t to reta9 any recollection ( ! s]mon1 8 sa9tly appe>ance made on h] imag9ation a vivid impression1 :i* 0 p]petuat$ ?r\gh life1 & (t5 m5tion$ 9 ! family circle ) ! livelie/ feel+s ( pleasure4 ,on ?is occasion1 ! la/ on :i* he prea*$ 9 ,york1 ,mr4 ,wesley appe>s to h be5 9 "o ( 8 happie/ moods1 z he rem>ks 9 8 j\rnal1 ,! ^w 0 z fire1 & all t he>d x seem$ to feel ! p[] !re(2 a circum/ance :i* no d\bt greatly contribut$ to fix ! memory ( 8 features ^u ! m9d ( a *ild s "y4 ,& /ill m s1 z ! v5]able man1 on desc5d+ f ! pulpit1 plac$ 8 h& ^u h] head1 & gave h] 8 bless+4 ,! ,rev4 ,j4 ,burdsall1 :o 0 also pres5t1 once communicat$ to ! writ] an amus+ & int]e/+ incid5t1 t happ5$ 9 c\rse ( ! s]vice1 :i* illu/rates ,mr4 ,wesley's love ( h>mony1 ev5 :51 he _h lo/ ! p[] to create x4 ,x is well kn[n t he delight$ to he> ! m5 & wom5 ea* take _! prop] "p 9 congregational s++2 b x seems 9 ?is in/ance1 ! m5 9 ! w>m? ( _! feel+s _h transgress$ ! limits assign$ !m4 ,mr4 ,w41 ^: e> 0 (f5d$ by ! slighte/ discord1 some:at %>ply rebuk$ !m4 ,z ?is fail$ to produce ! desir$ am5dm5t1 he /opp$ aga91 & said1 ,li/5 to bro!r ,ma/]man1 :o 0 at t "t ! lead+ s+]4 ,/ill dissatisfi$1 he /opp$ a ?ird "t1 & said1 ,li/5 to me1 at ! same "t tak+ up ! /ra91 b z 8 voice 0 crack$1 & brok5 ) age1 x af=d$ su* a mis]able example z to excite a g5]al titt]4 ,z a *ild ,m>y 0 di/+ui%$ by unusual vivacity ( disposition1 & h] fondness = fun & frolic (t5 betray$ h] into tr\ble4 ,at times %e 0 wilful & passionate1--a _s wisely *eck$ by h] "m1 ^: discipl9e 0 equally /rict & judici\s4 ,su* ebullitions 7 transi5t1 & inv>iably foll[$ by feel+s ( regret & sorr[4 ,adv]t+ to ?is subject 9 aft] life %e said ) deep gratitude1 ,i _h a good "m & fa!r to keep me 91 & re/ra9+ grace4 ,on sev]al occasions h] life 0 plac$ 9 imm95t p]il1 &1 b = t m]ciful provid5ce1 :i* specially wat*es ov] ! little ones1 %e mu/ h fall5 a victim to h] ?\ghtlessness4 ,"o ( ^! occurr$ :5 %e 0 at s*ool2 :]e1 by "s means h] dress caught fire2 happily ! smoke & smell ( burn+ attract$ ! att5tion ( h] tea*] :o ru%$ to h] rescue1 & succe$$ 9 ext+ui%+ ! flames1 b n until h] out] g>m5ts 7 completely consum$4 ,h] education 0 v sl5d]1 be+ conf9$ to ! simple/ rudim5ts ( human k1--a circum/ance %e (t5 regrett$1 al?\gh 9 aft] life ! disadvantage 0 9 a great measure ov]come by dilig5t & select read+4 ,:5 ab\t eight ye>s ( age1 ! developm5t ( h] e>ly religi\s feel+s receiv$ a p>tial *eck ?r\gh ! p]nici\s influ5ce ( a s]vant girl1 :o p]ceiv+ h] love = s++1 taught h]1 )\t ! k ( h] p>5ts1 a numb] ( fooli% songs4 ,two ye>s lat] %e gave decid$ indications ( s]i\s ?\ght4 ,%e began to take pleasure 9 be+ alone1 & acquir$ a rem>kable love ( solitude1 :i* *>act]iz$ h] ?r\gh life1--a feel+ :i* 0 /r5g!n$ by read+ an article 9 "o ( ! e>ly ,arm9ian ,magaz9es4 ,sometimes %e w\ld /eal (f to ! cottage ( a pi\s old *ur*woman ( ! "n ( ,halifax1 :o liv$ at a %ort di/ance f h] fa!r's h\se2 & li/5$ ) delight1 :ile ! good old lady read to h] out ( ! ,psalms1 & talk$ ab\t heav5ly ?+s4 ,on "o ( ^! occasions %e 0 s deeply affect$ by a s5se ( h] s9fulness & acc\ntability1 t po9t+ to ! cat :i* lay by ! fireside1 %e exclaim$1 ,i wi% ,i 0 t cat2 & :5 ask$ :y1 repli$1 ,because x has n a s\l to save4 ,! old lady g5tly rebuk$ ! fooli% ?\ght1 &1 %ew+ h] its wick$ness1 endeav\r$ to lead h] to ,him1 :o said1 ,suff] ! little *ildr5 to come unto me4 ,n long aft] %e began to meet 9 h] fa!r's class1 & receiv$ h] fir/ ticket at ! h&s ( ! ,rev4 ,francis ,wrigley1 at t "t ,sup]9t5d5t ( ! ,york circuit4 ,by weekly int]c\rse ) ! p ( ,god1 h] aspirations aft] div9e s\rces ( happ9ess gradually /r5g!n$ until %e 0 twelve ye>s old1 :5 !y assum$ a m def9ite =m2 al?\gh1 9 consequ5ce ( h] t5d] age1 h] views ( evangelical tru? 7 necess>ily crude & defective2 = %e /ill spake z a *ild1 und]/ood z a *ild1 reason$ z a *ild1 ,x 0 dur+ a few days' visit to h] aunt ,elizabe?1 :o n[ resid$ 9 ! suburbs ( ,york1 hav+ m>ri$ ,mr4 ,j4 ,hawk9s ( t city %ortly aft] h] fa!r's dea?1 t %e became s unhappy on acc\nt ( h] s9ful & mis]able condition1 t %e c\ld n refra9 f mu* weep+4 ,! ?\ght ( ent]+ et]nity )\t a *ange ( he>t fill$ h] ) al>m4 ,e loom+ cl\d _h a voice :i* spoke ( ! judgm5t to come2 e unpropiti\s ev5t awak5$ pa9ful =ebod+s4 ,h] fe>s1 :i* 7 ! g5u9e fruits ( div9e influ5ce1 7 fur!r aggravat$ by ! popul> excitem5t ( ! times4 ,france 0 ?reat5+ w> ) ,engl&1 & ! prevail+ appreh5sions ( ! multitude communicat$ !mselves ) d\ble =ce to ! he>t ( ! sorr[+ *ild4 ,:at1 ?\ght %e1 if !y %\ld come n[1 & ,i %\ld be kill$ 9 my s9s4 ,inde$ h] tr\ble increas$ to su* a degree t h] aunt 0 griev$1 imag9+ t h] "m w\ld ?9k %e _h be5 unk9dly treat$4 ,%e !re=e resolv$ to take h] home4 ,on ! way a numb] ( circum/ances occurr$ :i* to ,m>y's *ildi% imag9ation 7 pregnant ) evil1 & progno/icat$ no?+ less ?an ! day ( g5]al doom4 ,! city 0 9 a /ate ( unusual commotion1 a report _h ga9$ gr\nd t ! invad] 0 at h&1 "s fooli% p]son _h caus$ ! massive portcullis ( ! city gate to be let d[n1 sev]al recruit+ p>ties 7 p>ad+ ! /reets1 two ( ^! %e met1 & ! %rill bla/s ( a few m\nt$ trumpet]s1 toge!r ) a d5se & port5t\s cl\d1 :i* j at ! mom5t spread itself ^u ! horizon1 complet$ h] dismay4 ,%e rea*$ home 9 te>s4 ,h] "m1 ^: solicitude 0 awak5$1 inquir$ ! cause4 ,%e repli$1 ,"m1 ,i c't tell y1 b no?+ 9 ?is _w w make me happy4 ,suspect+ ! real /ate ( h] feel+s1 h] "m conv]s$ k9dly ) h]1 & adm9i/]$ suitable consolation1 b 9 va94 ,aft] committ+ h]self to ,god 9 e>ne/ pray]1 %e retir$ to re/ ) ! conviction1 t %e 0 ! greate/ s9n] 9 ! _w2 b ! next morn+1 :i* 0 ! holy ,sabba?1 broke ^u h] ) heal+ 9 its w+s4 ,%e awoke ) ! words 9 h] m9d1 ,:at a bless+ to "k t my ,jesus is m9e4 ,h] s\l 0 imm$iately fill$ ) a calm sweet joy1 :i* %e 0 unable to describe4 ,%e arose f h] b$1 & w5t to ! h\se ( ,god1 h] he>t /ill gl[+ ) ^! newly awak5$ emotions2 & :ile on h] way ?\ght )9 h]self1 ,o t ,i _h a voice t w\ld rea* to all ! _w1 ,i w\ld tell !m h[ happy ,i am4 ,?is occurr$ on ! #ab? ( ,febru>y1 #agie4 ,b ! transport ( h] feel+s1 aft] endur+ = a season1 at l5g? subsid$2 yet n )\t leav+ a p]man5t ?\gh p]haps n easily def9$ impression4 ,x may be ask$ 0 ?is conv]sion8 0 x g5u9e8 & 9 a *ild s "y8 ,we answ] x w\ld be v difficult to prove t x 0 n4 ,"o ?+ is c]ta91 t f ?is "t !re 0 a settl$ purpose to s]ve ! ,"l1 :i* spite ( fluctuat+ feel+ & p]iods ( w9try coldness 0 /eadily kept 9 view2 ev] & anon ga!r+ /r5g? until x rip5$ into maturity4 ,! sapl+1 because x b5ds to ! breeze is n !re=e de/itute ( life2 unless x be torn up by ! roots1 or scor*$ & )]$ by ! noon-day sun1 or absolutely froz5 by ! w9t]'s cold1 x w gradually wax & gr[ until its massive trunk is able to bid defiance to ! /orm4 ,conv]s+ on ?is subject ) "o ( h] *ildr5 at a late p]iod 9 life1 :5 h] judgm5t 0 matur$1 & h] views ( div9e tru? r5d]$ m cle> by h] approximation to a bett] _w1 %e said1 ,i lo/ my peace because ,i griev$ ! ,"l by a trifl+ disposition1 b ! ,"l did n leave me2 !n1 employ+ ! language ( ! lam5t$ ,david ,/on]1 %e add$1 ,i h be5 conv]t$ a hundr$ times4 ,to ano!r ( h] *ildr51 aft] us+ simil> language %e said ) peculi>1 emphasis1 ,i h be5 aim+ to please ,god all my life1 ,i c say t4 ,h] conviction 0 t ! "w 0 real1 b t at ! "t1 %e did n und]/& ! nature ( x2 & h5ce f causes cle>ly asc]ta9able1 x 0 z 9 _m simil> cases1 soon ov]%ad[$ by circum/ances ( d\bt4 ,! tru? is1 *ildr5 are j z capable ( exp]i5c+ ! grace ( ,god z p]sons ( rip] ye>s2 b !y are n capable ( def9+ _! feel+s1 or ( und]/&+ ! great doctr9es ( salvation1--& = ?is v reason1 !y are m liable to be subject$ to fluctuations bo? ( feel+ & purpose4 ,x w\ld be well if "s old] p1 :o d n take ! pa9s to obta9 a cle> & intellig5t view ( ! religion !y pr(ess1 7 n equally un/able & f ! same cause2 if !re 0 no occasion = ! apo/olic admonition1 ,be n *ildr5 9 und]/&+2 h[beit 9 malice be ye *ildr51 b 9 und]/&+ be m54 ,! feel+s ( *ildr51 :5 employ$ ab\t ! great subjects ( religion & et]nity1 are n lightly to be disc\rag$1 ev5 :5 mix$ up ) mu* t a matur] judgm5t mu/ condemn2 !y %\ld be fo/]$ ) solicit\s c>e4 ,! t5d] plant requires g5tle culture2 t\* x n too rudely le/ y *eck its developm5t2 wat* x c>efully2 support its weak & fragile /em2 t5d]ly remove :at is injuri\s2 & give x pl5ty ( scope1 t x may put =? its "y fre% leaves2 & x w bloom by & by ) all ! ri*] fragrance & beauty4 ,=bid !m n1 cries ! ,savi\r4 ,let !m come ) _! fir/ fruits1 & lay ! (f]+ ( _! *ildhood unsulli$ by unholy communion ) ! _w at ! ,ma/]'s feet4 ,let !m come ) _! *]ry lips1 & sp>kl+ eyes1 & lov+ he>ts4 ,let !m come be=e age has curdl$ _! blood1 & ! pleasures ( life h blunt$ ! ke5ness ( _! susceptibilities4 ,let !m come1 let !m come4 ,! ,savi\r welcomes _! approa*4 ,! fragrance ( ! sacrifice !y br+ is preci\s 9 8 sight1 & :ile he folds ! little ones 9 8 arms1 he lifts 8 eyes to heav51 & rejoic+ 9 _s1 says1 ,i ?ank !e ,o ,fa!r1 ,"l ( heav5 & e>?1 t ?\ ha/ hid ^! ?+s f ! wise & prud5t1 & ha/ reveal$ !m unto babes1 ev5 s ,fa!r1 = s x seem$ good 9 ?y sight4 ,provid5tially ,m>y ,burdsall 0 "u judici\s direction1 & reta9$ h] religi\s purpose al?\gh %e lo/ ! sweetness ( h] enjoym5t4 ,h] exp]i5ce assum$ t unsettl$ phase :i* (t5 *>act]ises ! e>li] /ages ( y\?ful piety4 ,n[ mis]able f a consci\sness ( hav+ griev$ ! ,_s ( ,god1 & aga9 hopeful1 confid5t1 & happy4 ,sometimes %e 0 driv5 ev5 to despair1 & admitt$ ! ?\ght t ! day ( grace 0 pa/ = ev]4 ,"o day :ile 9 ?is /ate ( feel+ %e ov]he>d h] fa!r conv]s+ ) a fri5d on ! awful case ( ,francis ,spira1,footnote3 ,francis ,spira an advocate ( ,padua1 ,ann4 #aede1 t be+ desp]ate1 by no c\nsell ( le>n$ m5 c\ld be com=t$2 he felt1 z he said1 ! pa9s ( hell 9 8 s\le1 9 all o!r ?+s he disc\rs$ aright2 b 9 ?is mo/ mad4 ,frismelica1 ,bullovat1 & "s o!r excell5t physicians1 c\ld nei!r make him eat1 dr9k or sleep2 no p]suasion c\ld ease him4 ,nev] plead$ any man s well = himself1 z ?is man did aga9/ himself2 & s he desp]ately di$4 ,spr+]1 a lawy]1 ha? writt5 8 life4--,burton's ,anatomy ( ,melan*olie4 h] m9d 0 fill$ ) great horror1 & %e 0 con/ra9$ to seek refuge 9 pray]4 ,:ile %e 0 plead+ ) ,god ! words 7 appli$1 ,turn ye at my repro(1 & ! sn>e 0 brok54 ,dur+ ?is p]iod ( m5tal conflict %e /eadfa/ly ma9ta9$ h] connexion ) ! *ur*2 & ?us escap$ t total loss ( spiritual feel+1 into :i* _m1 9 simil> circum/ances1 plunge !mselves by )draw+ f ! circle ( religi\s influ5ce4 ,h] exce$+ volatility ( temp]1 :i* 0 ! cause ( h] in/ability1 (t5 occasion$ h] bitt] reflections2 & z x 0 a s\rce ( tr\ble to h]self1 excit$ ! anxiety ( h] "m1 :o frequ5tly said to h]1 ,!re's a wide _w w tame !e4 ,h] own words 9 ref]5ce to ?is /age ( h] hi/ory 71 ,!y nev] turn$ me out ( class1 b f my ?\ghtlessness & gidd9ess1 ,i am sure1 ,i 0 n a prop] ,me?odi/4 ,/ill ! /ruggle betwe5 grace & nature 0 secretly go+ on2 & e new pro( ( h] own weakness b contribut$ to /r5g!n & e/abli% h] resolves4 ,ab\t ?is "t %e became acqua9t$ ) ,miss ,b>rett1 aft]w>ds ,mrs4 ,ze*4 ,taft1 f ^: c\nsels & example %e d]iv$ mu* advantage4 ,h] fir/ introduction to ?is excell5t woman occurr$ :ile on a visit to h] uncle ,mr4 ,wm4 ,/ables1 :o _h succe$$ to 8 fa!r's f>m at ,s&ygate4 ,x seems h] uncle & aunt 7 invit$ to meet ,miss ,b4 at a social p>ty at ,h>ewood1 b be+ o!rwise engag$1 x 0 agre$ t ,m>y %\ld g 9 _! /ead1 accompani$ by h] aunt's si/]4 ,z %e left ! h\se h] uncle said1 ,i hope !y'll conv]t !e4 ,on arriv+ at ! place :]e ! p>ty 0 assembl$ %e f\nd a room full ( /rang]s1 & among !m ,miss ,b41 to :om %e 0 specially introduc$ z ,ri*>d ,burdsall's daught]4 ,?is secur$ h] a k9d & he>ty reception4 ,aft] tea foll[$ a ,pray]-meet+ 9 :i* petitions 7 p>ticul>ly (f]$ on h] behalf4 ,h] pride 0 w\nd$ & %e ?\ght )9 h]self1 ,if !y w\ld b pray = !mselves x w\ld be all v well2 b not)/&+ ?is revulsion ( feel+ ! impression made by ?is int]view 0 n only salut>y1 b indelible4 ,%e felt & wept mu*1 & f ?is "t gave h]self m dilig5tly to ! /udy ( ! ^w ( ,god & pray]4 ,subsequ5tly %e _h _m opportunities ( meet+ ) ,miss ,b4 9 ,york1 & ! spiritual b5efit :i* %e d]iv$ f ^! int]views l$ to a p]man5t fri5d%ip4 ,,iii4 ,,gold5 ,,opportunities4 ,,9 ,,! ,,morn+ ,,s[ ,,?y ,,se$4 ,eccles4 xi4 #f4 ,h y ev] witness$ a glori\s sunrise8 ,h y ev] se5 ! orb ( day g =? z a bridegroom to run 8 race1 array$ 9 robes ( crimson1 & purple1 & gold8 ,!n nature has taught y ! lesson t e>ly opportunities are ! brighte/ & be/4 ,gold5 are ! e>ly h\rs ( morn+1 :5 ! m9d is mo/ vigor\s1 & ! p[]s ( nature1 refre%$ by sleep1 are 9 full play4 ,gold5 too are ! days ( e>ly y\?1 be=e ! he>t is sadd5$ by vanity1 & ! _s press$ d[n by ! accumulat+ c>es & responsibilities ( life4 ,let !m be dilig5tly improv$1 & !y _c fail to br+ a ri* & pr(itable return4 ,!re=e 9 ! morn+ s[ ?y se$4 ,m>y ,burdsall 0 n indiff]5t to ^! opportunities4 ,9 ! beg9n+ ( life %e =m$ ! habit ( e>ly ris+4 ,%e rose ) ! l>k & sang z m]rily4 ,%e cultivat$ a ta/e = read+ & reflection2 & al?\gh ! natural vivacity ( h] disposition 0 a con/ant sn>e 9 h] pa?1 %e nev] lo/ sight ( ! purpose %e _h =m$ ( liv+ = ,god4 ,9 secret %e commun$ ) h] own he>t1 &1 ! bett] to secure h] gr[? 9 grace1 comm5c$ a di>y1 :i*1 ) two or ?ree %ort int]missions1 occasion$ by sickness1 0 cont9u$ until )9 a week ( h] dea?4 ,un=tunately a consid]able portion ( ^! manuscripts1 includ+ a p]iod ( sev]al ye>s j prec$+ & foll[+ h] m>riage1 7 de/roy$ by h] own h&s4 ,:at rema9s1 is h[ev] no small pro( ( h] dilig5ce & p]sev]ance1 z !y ext5d to tw5ty qu>to volumes conta9+ ab\t #e1jjj pages4 ,!y conta91 besides ! record ( h] inn] & out] life1 copi\s summ>ies ( ! disc\rses %e he>d2 num]\s extracts f books1 especially ( passages calculat$ to impress ! he>t or direct ! life2 & an extraord9>y am\nt ( orig9al v]se2 = f ! fir/ %e appe>s to h adopt$ ! practice ( putt+ h] ?\ghts into rhyme1--a practice :i* :5 unaccompani$ by true g5ius is g5]ally a pr(itless wa/e ( "t2 b :i* 9 h] case 0 made a valuable means ( p]sonal edification1 z well z ( adm9i/]+ c\nsel1 consolation or admonition to o!rs4 ,few ev5ts ( public or private int]e/1 9 h] own family or 9 ! circle ( h] acqua9tance1 c\ld pass )\t provok+ h] ready p54 ,subjects poetical & unpoetical 7 alike con/ra9$ into measur$ l9es2 :i*1 if n always rem>kable = rhy?m1 7 at lea/ ri* 9 evangelical s5tim5t1 & p]vad$ by deep spirituality ( ?\ght4 ,"s ( ^! productions are ins]t$ 9 ?is volume1 9 ! ord] 9 :i* !y occur 9 h] di>y1 n because !y possess any lit]>y m]it1 b z em95tly *>act]i/ic ( h] habits ( ?\ght & feel+4 ,9 fact !y are transcripts ( h] own he>t1 & %e seems (t5 to h pref]r$ ?is me?od ( express+ h] f]vid emotions to ! use ( cool] prose4 ,a few examples ( ! entries made :5 %e 0 fifte5 w suffice to %[ :at 7 ! aspirations ( h] e>ly y\?3-- ,?is is ! la/ day ( #agig4 ,o may ,i ?is day put (f ! works ( d>kness1 & put on ! arm\r ( light3 & beg9 a new life ) a new ye>1--,"l1 help me ?is day to live to ,!e4 ,let ,?y love be %$ abroad 9 my he>t4 ,inspire ! _s ( pray]4 ,let my few days be sp5t 9 prais+ ,!e1 ! ,giv] ( all good gifts4 ,loose my he>t f e e>?ly object1 & let my affections be set ^u ,!e & ?+s above4 ,"l1 p>don my coldness1 & help me 9 future to d\ble my dilig5ce to make my call+ & election sure4--,dur+ s]vice my m9d 0 v mu* tr\bl$2 b glory be to ,god1 ,he gave me1 9 a measure1 a pray+ _s2 & ,i tru/ ,he w answ] ,8 own4 ,_s's pray]4 ,"l1 speak ! answ] to my he>t n[4--,w5t ) ,miss ,b>rett to ! ,poor-h\se4 ,%e exhort$ f1 ',i believe 9 ! communion ( sa9ts1 & 9 ! =giv5ess ( s9s4' ,aft] t ,i w5t ) h] to ! select b&2 %e !n came home1 & slept ) me4 ,! ,"l bless$ my s\l 9 h] company4--,my m9d is tr\bl$2 b d ,?\1 :o 9 e temptation make/ a way = ,?y p to escape1 deliv] my s\l out ( prison1 t ,i may praise ,!e4--,i w5t ) ,miss ,b4 to see "s sick p4 ,"o man 0 m\rn+ = r$emption 9 ! blood ( ! ,lamb2 b1 be=e we came away1 he rejoic$ 9 ! ,god ( 8 salvation4--,"l1 keep me f ! vanity ( ?is allur+ _w4 ,may ,i love ,!e supremely4 ,! ,"l blesses my s\l greatly4 ,bless$ be ,8 "n1 ,he reproves me2 may ,i take ! repro(4--,a gleam ( love 0 let into my s\l at ! meet+2 b aft]1 ,i felt v dull & /upid4--,i ?9k ,i am will+ to be any ?+1 or no?+1 only give me to feel ,?y love 9 my he>t4 ,d1 ,jesus1 increase my fai?1 b let x be n[4 ,help me1 ,i pray ,!e1 to live z 9 ,?y sight all ! day long4--,call$ to see ,ann ,f4 ,we w5t up-/airs & pray$ toge!r4--,i h _h m ( ! pres5ce ( ,god ! la/ few days4 ,! ,"l be prais$4 ,i want to h my evid5ce made v cle>4 ,o %9e on my s\l1 & make ! d>kness light be=e me2 t ,i may greatly triumph 9 ! ,god ( my salvation4--,i he>d ,mr4 ,simeon at ,belfrey ,*ur*2 x 0 a graci\s "t ( refre%+ f ! pres5ce ( ! ,"l4--,miss ,b>rett spoke at ,clifton4 ,! p[] ( ! ,"l 0 evid5tly felt4 ,z x 0 a v wet night we w5t into a b>n1 b x fill$ s fa/1 we return$ into ! op5 air4 ,miss ,b4 pray$ t ,god w\ld /op ! bottles ( heav5 = a few m9utes2 &1 glory be to ,8 "n1 ,he answ]$ h] reque/4 ,! ,pray]-meet+ cont9u$ "s "t1 & sev]al s\ls 7 br\ght into lib]ty4--,i gave way to a light _s1 :i* has done me mu* hurt4--,"l1 p>don me = giv+ way to lightness ( _s2 help me 9 future to r$eem ! "t1 & to take due c>e to prep>e myself = ! great day4--,o1 ,jesus1 r\se me f my s9s1 & give me to wake up aft] ,?y lik5ess4 ,d fill me ) ,?y love4 ,let x fl[ into my poor disconsolate s\l1 t ,i may s]ve ,!e ) all my ransom$ p[]s4--,o let n my he>t be set on ! creature m ?an ,!e2 b let me give myself to ,!e )\t res]ve4 ,i g to s*ool2 ,"l1 help me to le>n ! lessons ( ,?y grace z well z ari?metic4 ,drive ?is dulness1 bo? ( body & s\l away2 t ,i may le>n ) spe$ & delight4--,?\ kn[e/1 ,"l1 t ,i h n liv$ adorn+ my pr(ession2 let ! "t pa/ suffice1 & let me beg9 to glorify ,?y "n4 ,"l1 save me f flatt]y1 = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,am54--,janu>y1 #agii4 ,began to meet 9 b& ) ,s>ah ,b4 ,o ,"l1 give u "o _s ) ,?yself4 ,i want1 ,o ,"l1 to love ,!e supremely above all beside2 give me1 ,i pray ,!e1 ! victory ov] myself4 ,^! extracts be>1 no d\bt1 ! impress ( *ildi% ?\ght2 yet !y indicate t %e _h already =m$ l>ge views ( ! nature ( inw>d religion4 ,9 h] e/imation x 0 a bless$ reality ( :i* %e might h a cle> evid5ce1 & :i* c\ld only rea* its p]fection 9 ! lik5ess ( ,god4 ,its pr9ciple 0 love1 controll+ ! mo/ secret motions ( ! he>t1 & regulat+ ! m9ute/ details ( daily practice4 ,?is religion %e propos$ to h]self z ! purpose ( life4 ,= ?is %e e>ne/ly pray$1 & to help h] resolutions1 %e s\ght & cultivat$ ! society ( su* z 7 excell5t 9 ! e>?4 ,! select "* ( ! associations %e =m$ 01 p]haps1 "o ma9 cause :i* contribut$ to h] aft] pr(ici5cy4 ,%e once m5tion$ to ! writ]1 z a matt] ( pr(\nd gratitude to ,god1 t %e _h always m+l$ among religi\s p1 & only rememb]$ "o week 9 h] :ole life :i* _h be5 sp5t among p]sons n pr(ess+ godl9ess4 ,%e liv$ & brea!d 9 ! pure atmosph]e ( pray] & love1 :]e ! ,holy ,_s loves to dwell1 until %e became "o _s ) ,him4 ,! *os5 companions ( h] y\? 7 su* z already enjoy$1 or l h]self 7 seek+1 ! exp]i5ce ( div9e tru?4 ,among o!r e>ly acqua9tance 0 ,miss ,nodes ( ,skelton ,hall1 aft]w>ds ! wife ( ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,newton4 ,?is lady _h rec5tly become a ,me?odi/1 & burn+ ) all ! f]v\r ( fir/ love frequ5tly came to ,mr4 ,burdsall = c\nsel & enc\ragem5t3 ,h] fir/ int]view ) ,mr4 ,newton occurr$ at ,mr4 ,burdsall's h\se 9 ! foll[+ mann]4 ,dur+ ! sitt+s ( ! ,di/rict-meet+1 ,mr4 ,b4 _h invit$ ! ,revds4 ,messrs4 ,ne$ham & ,newton1 ) "s o!rs1 to d9n]2 & s5t an invitation to ,miss ,nodes to come & jo9 !m3 to ?is ,mrs4 ,nodes object$2 b promis$ to call ! next day & apologize4 ,%e did s 9 company ) h] daught]1 j z ! p>ty 7 ab\t to kneel d[n to pray]1 & !y 7 consequ5tly invit$ 94 ,aft] pray] a hymn 0 propos$1 :i* 0 sung by ,mr4 ,newton & ,miss ,burdsall1 :o _h a cle> & melodi\s voice ( consid]able compass4 ,miss ,nodes !n rem>k$1 t at ,skelton !y _h to live by begg+1 z !y only _h prea*+ occasionally2 & if "o ( !m w\ld g ov] & give !m a s]mon1 x w\ld be a great *>ity4 ,mr4 ,n4 imm$iately promis$ to accompany ,mr4 ,burdsall ! foll[+ day2 & f t "t comm5c$ an acqua9tance :i* result$ 9 _! union4 ,9 _m cases1 & v commonly 9 ! case ( "y p]sons1 :o h be5 religi\sly tra9$1 ! process by :i* ! m9d rea*es ! assurance ( fai? is v sl[4 ,! go+ =? ( ! ,_s is prep>$ z ! morn+4 ,! fir/ /reaks ( dawn br+ a degree ( com=t1 = !re is promise ( day2 b ! cle> & uncl\d$ light ( ! ,div9e fav\r is yet di/ant4 ,! d\btful twilight1 h[ev]1 cont9ues to exp& & bright51 until at l5g? ! sun peeps above ! di/ant hills1 or bur/s ?r\gh ! morn+ cl\d1 & all unc]ta9ty is bani%$ 9 a mom5t4 ,x 0 ?us ) ,m>y ,burdsall4 ,two ye>s lat] we f9d h] /ill seek+ ! indubitable witness ( ! ,_s4 ,! "w ( grace 0 sl[ & deep4 ,%e writes3-- ,fa!r met our class2 :5 he spoke to me ,i c\ld n =be> weep+4 ,o t ,i c\ld weep my s9s away4 ,j4,t4 & ,b4,m4 pray$ & m5tion$ me by "n4 ,?is t\*$ my pride4 ,oh6 = simplicity6--,9 ! =5oon ,i w5t to ,pavem5t *ur* to he> de> ,mr4 ,emm+ton4 ,8 text 01 ',sirs1 :at mu/ ,i d to be sav$8'--,a se>*+ disc\rse4 ,o ,"l1 revive ,?y "w 9 my s\l2 probe me to ! bottom4--,i feel a v h>d he>t2 b1 ,"l1 a t\*1 a look f ,!e1 c break my he>t ( /one4 ,o melt me into love4--,alas = me6 ,i seem q b>r51 b is !re n a cause8 ,yes4 ,lightness ( _s1 love ( ! creature1 pride1 & dislike1 are s9s t s easily beset me4 ,i am ov]come by !m4 ,b1 ,o ,god1 ,?\ ha/ all p[]1 n[ resume ,?y "r4 ,let ! p[]s ( hell no m prevail4--,9 ! class fa!r ask$ me1 if ,i ev] w5t to pray2 ,i answ]$ 9 ! affirmative2 b1 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ ,i am n s mu* 9 e>ne/ z ,i 0 "s weeks ago4--,fa!r call$ ^u me to pray2 ,i did n refuse1 b h s9ce be5 tempt$ to believe ,i %\ld be a great] hypocrite4 ,"l1 make me a ,*ri/ian inde$ 9 :om !re is no guile4--,"l give me to enjoy ! reality ( ,*ri/ianity1 ,i want to be ?9e4 ,god help me to give up my own w4 ,bless him :om ,i h giv5 up ) a v great gr[? 9 grace4 ,?is entry ref]s to an atta*m5t :i* met ) ! disapproval ( h] p>5ts & 0 rel9qui%$ 9 ! _s ( filial ob$i5ce4 ,j be=e tea1 ,mr4 ,sp5ce ask$ me if my he>t 0 "r2 ,i c\ld n =be> weep+4 ',god be m]ciful to me a s9n]4' ,:at an enemy is a light & trifl+ _s6--,i 0 griev$ because ,i _h disoblig$ my "m4 ,o = a meek & quiet _s4 ,! p>ticul>s ( ! next two or ?ree ye>s are only to be ga!r$ f a few scanty notes atta*$ to a small pocket ,bible1 9 :i* %e _h c>efully not$ ! s]mons %e he>d ) ! impressions made on h] own m9d4 ,! great] "p ( ^! are writt5 9 %ort-h&1 & consequ5tly useless4 ,b su* z are intelligible prove t %e 0 9 ! habit ( weigh+ ! words ( ! prea*] & apply+ !m to h] own he>t4 ,"s expressions seem to indicate t ! cl\ds :i* _h s long ov]%ad[$ h] _s 7 beg9n+ to disp]se & give place to a s]5e & sunny sky4 ,we quote a few examples4 ,oh6 h[ happy 0 ,i6--,i did n he> to pr(it1 ,i 0 tr\bl$ 9 m9d4 ,i felt x4--,i long to f9d my all 9 ,god4--,i felt ! love ( ,jesus preci\s4--,i am answ]$4--,bless$1 he>t se>*+ doctr9e6--,a tell+ s]mon b ,i 0 unmov$2 h[ h>d am ,i4--,he l "s ( 8 bre?r5 h>ps at ! g[n & cassock4--,i felt mu* s(t5$4--,memorable6--,alas6 ,i pr(it little by all ,i he>2 surely x is because my fai? is small4 ,ah4 me6 h[ long8 h[ long8--,a preci\s disc\rse to me4 ,he prea*$ my exp]i5ce4--,! solution ( ! text 0 a gratification1 :ile ,i he>d pr(itably4 ,he made a v droll rem>k :5 describ+ ^? ':o make _! belly _! ,god2' he said '!y make _! kit*5 _! temple1 _! cook & but*] _! prie/s1 & _! belly _! ,god4'--,i felt my s\l bless$ & enc\rag$ :ile he>+ ( s9 be+ de/roy$1 ) an e>ne/ long+ = its accompli%m5t4 ,i felt ! burd5 ( indwell+ s9 v heavy2 ,o :5 %all ! happy p]iod comm5ce t ,god %all be all 9 all4--,i /aid ! communion = ! fir/ "t2 h[ solemn6 ,i 0 humbl$ & melt$ d[n exce$+ly4--,o h[ inf9itely %ort ,i fall ( walk+ ) ,god6 ,! love-fea/ 0 imm$iately aft]2 ! ma/] ( ! fea/ 0 !re3 ,i felt 8 pres5ce & spoke4--,mr4 ,sutcliffe's f>ewell s]mon2 may ! ,"l bless & rew>d 8 lab\rs 9 ?is place4 ,! mo/ important memor&um is a collection ( rules = ! regulation ( h] own conduct1 adopt$ ab\t ! ye> #ahje2 & ^!1 we d n hesitate to add1 7 writt5 n m]ely ) p5 & ink1 b impress$ by ! ,_s ( ,god ^u h] memory & he>t1 = ^? :o knew h] w be able to recognize 9 !m ! key ( h] aft] life4 ,!y are z foll[3-- #a4 ,let me rise e>ly4 #b4 ,nev] let me trifle ) a book ) :i* ,i h no pres5t conc]n2 9 apply+ myself to any book1 let me endeav\r to recollect :at ,i may le>n by x1 & !n beg suitable assi/ance f ,god4 #c4 ,nev] let me lose "o m9ute ( "t1 nor incur any unnecess>y exp5se1 t ,i may h ! m to sp5d = ,god4 ,:5 ,i am abroad let me be desir\s ( do+ good2 let me h 9 read9ess "s subject ( contemplation & endeav\r to improve my "t z ,i g along4 #d4 ,let me endeav\r to r5d] myself agreeable & useful to all ar\nd me2 by a t5d] compassionate fri5dly behavi\r2 avoid+ all trifl+ & imp]t95t /ories2 rememb]+ t imprud5ce is s94 #e4 ,nev] let me delay any?+1 unless ,i c prove t ano!r "t w be m fit ?an ! pres5t2 or t "s m important duty requires my imm$iate att5tion4 #f4 ,o may ,i nev] ent] into any long s*emes ab\t future ev5ts1 b 9 g5]al ref] myself to ,god's c>e4 ,direct me virtue's happy c\rse to run1 ,& let me be in/ruct$ by ?y ,son1 ,9 e /ation say ?y w be done4 #g4 ,o t ,i may be deliv]$ f ! lea/ incl9ation to judge my neighb\rs2 & t h5ce=? ,i may f9d fault ) none s mu* z myself4 ,to ^! are add$ sev]al extracts f ! g5]al rules ( ! ,me?odi/ ,societies2 p>ticul>ly ^? :i* ref] to ! use ( "t1 ! gov]nm5t ( ! tongue1 read+ ! ,scriptures1 private pray]1 & ab/95ce4 ,! /&>d ( ,*ri/ian "* at :i* %e aim$ 0 high2 & p]haps ?is v circum/ance contribut$ to delay ! happy exp]i5ce %e s\ght4 ,%e look$ at h]self in/ead ( look+ directly to ,*ri/4 ,%e contra/$ h] own defici5cies ) ! exact ob$i5ce requir$ by a p]fect law1 in/ead ( simply ca/+ h]self ^u ! blood :i* ju/ifie? n ! righte\s b ! s9n]1 :i* believe? 9 ,jesus4 ,! simplicity ( salvation by fai? 0 long ov]look$1 b at la/ ! sn>e 0 brok52 & ab\t ! close ( ! ye> #ahje %e obta9$ ! deliv]ance %e s e>ne/ly desir$4 ,we "h quote h] own words4 ,:ile alone at ,mrs4 ,t4's1 ! ,"l 0 graci\sly pleas$ to visit me ) a manife/ation ( 8 love2 increas+ my fai?1 & apply+ ^! words ) p[] to my m9d2 ',! ^w is nigh !e1 ev5 9 ?y m\? & 9 ?y he>t4' ,i _h su* a view ( ! will+ness ( ,*ri/ to save by fai? z ,i nev] _h be=e4 ,not)/&+1 ,i ?9k1 if ,i _h be5 bett] acqua9t$ ) ! way ( salvation1 ,i %\ld e'er n[ h be5 able to claim ! bless+ ?r\gh ! m]its ( ,*ri/4 ,b x is s simple ,i ov]look$ x2 & ?\ght myself wis] ?an ,i 04 ,n[ ,i beg9 to see ) ! ,psalmi/ h[ ignorant ,i am1 ev5 'z a bea/' be=e ! ,"l2 b bless$ be ,8 glori\s "n1 ,i feel my confid5ce is 9 ,8 m]cy3 yet ,i feel myself ! mo/ unpr(itable ( all ,8 h&s h made1 & wond] :y to me ?is b\ndless love4 ,,iv4 ,,! ,,holy ,,e/ate4 ,,& ,,!y ,,twa9 ,,%all ,,be ,,"o ,,fle%4 ,matt4 xix4 #e4 ,w$d$ life1 p]haps m ?an any o!r1 is a te/ ( "*2 b :5 ent]$ ^u rev]5tly1 discreetly1 sob]ly1 advis$ly1 & 9 ! fe> ( ,god1 contributes 9 a high] degree n m]ely to e>?ly enjoym5t1 b to t :i* is ! great end ( life1 human salvation4 ,! con/ant action ( two wills1 ?us intimately br\ght into contact ) ea* o!r1 mu/ ei!r inflame or m\ld ! _s1 j 9 ! degree 9 :i* x is subject$ or n to ! influ5ce ( div9e grace2 & :]e bo? p>ties are gov]n$ by ,*ri/ian pr9ciple1 ! effect is mutual happ9ess & advantage4 ,nature is subdu$1 & grace br\ght into full play4 ,! sorr[s1 difficulties1 & temptations ( life are light5$ by reciprocal help & affection2 ! inh]itance 9 heav5 is pursu$ ) great] ze/ because ( unit$ ef=t & enc\ragem5t2 :ile ! con/ant dis*>ge ( ! respective duties ( husb& & wife s]ves = ! developm5t ( ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/4 ,h5ce ! ,apo/le ,paul speaks ( ! m>riage /ate z a great my/]y1 repres5t+ ! union ( ,*ri/ & 8 *ur*4 ,b m>riage has ref]5ce to ano!r & n less important object1 ! tra9+ ( a holy se$4 ,! union ( p>5ts is int5d$ to secure bless+s ^u1 _! *ildr51 & :]e ! div9e requirem5t is pray]fully att5d$ to1 !re may be expect$ to be a fulfilm5t ( ! graci\s promise1--,i w p\r my ,_s ^u ?y se$1 & my bless+ ^u ?9e (fspr+4 ,9 ! prospect ( assum+ ! responsible relation ( wife1 ,miss ,burdsall ?\ght & felt deeply4 ,h] fir/ anxiety 01 t %e might f9d 9 h] husb& "o :o w\ld help h] 9 ! way to heav52 & ! next t %e might be able to dis*>ge ! duties ( h] new /ation ) effici5cy & fidelity4 ,! pr$om9at+ desire ( h] he>t 0 to f9d h] happ9ess 9 ,god1 & to be con=m$ 9 all ?+s to 8 w4 ,two days be=e m>riage %e writes3-- ,i feel ?is day my s\l aspires heav5w>d1 & my greate/ bliss is d]iv$ f ,emanuel's side4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i feel ,i love him1 b long = m con=mity to 8 w4 ,mr4 ,ly?1 :o _h solicit$ & won h] affections1 0 ! son ( a respectable f>m] resid+ 9 ! neighb\rhood ( ,york4 ,orig9ally design$ = agricultural life1 he _h =sak5 ! pl\gh to und]take a fl\ri%+ bus9ess1 :i* _h be5 comm5c$ by an eld] bro!r lately deceas$3 & be+ e>ly conv]t$ to ,god1 "u ! m9i/ry ( ! v5]able ,sutcliffe1 ! propos$ union 0 e way propiti\s4 ,! m>riage 0 solemniz$ on ! #ah? ( ,febru>y1 #ahjf1 9 ! p>i% *ur* ( ,holy ,tr9ity1 ,york2 & s f> z ! pr9cipal p>ties 7 conc]n$ ) int5sely religi\s feel+s4 ,inde$ ,mr4 ,burdsall's l\d & he>ty responses to ! pray]s sup]s$$ ! functions ( ! cl]k1 & some:at a/oni%$ ! (ficiat+ m9i/]4 ,! w$d+ d9n] 0 spic$ ) ! pres5ce ( ! ,rev4 ,samuel ,b>dsley1 ^: portly p]son1 & beautiful simplicity contribut$ n a little to ! amusem5t ( ! y\ng] gue/s3 & ! same ev5+1 ! good old man prea*$ an appropriate s]mon1 select+ = 8 subject1 ! m>riage fea/ 9 ,cana ( ,galilee4 ,mrs4 ,ly?'s own feel+s 9 relation1 to ?is ev5t1 & dur+ ! fir/ few ye>s ( w$d$ life1 are be/ express$ by h]self4 ,memorable day6 ,i gave my h& to ,john ,ly? at ,hym5's sacr$ alt>4 ,i endeav\r$ to d x by fai?1 z well z ,i c\ld2 b felt extremely /upifi$4 ,we w5t to sp5d ! day at ,newton ^u ,d]w5t4 ,) me x pass$ m pleasantly t[>ds ! close1 inde$1 :ile we 7 conv]s+ ab\t ,god on our way home1 ,i f\nd x truly good2 b :5 we came 9 sight ( lay new habitation1 ! s5sations t seiz$ my m9d are bett] felt ?an ,i c describe4 ,x is n[ six weeks s9ce ,i began to we> ! matrimonial *a94 ,i h clasp$ x )\t "o ?\ght ( regret1 & ?r\gh grace ,i hope ,i ev] %all2 yet am consci\s ( my own incompet5cy to fill up ! sph]e ,i h ent]$4 ,oh6 my ,god1 help me1 help me4 ,i bless ,god my m9d is drawn to seek my heav5 9 ,jesus1 al?\gh my e>?ly com=ts are ready to ensn>e me3 yet hav+ be5 taught to "k ! unc]ta9ty ( all transitory ?+s1 & t ',! faire/ ?+s bel[ ! sky ,give b a flatt]+ light1' ,i w\ld1 ?r\gh grace /r5g!n+ me1 give ,god my undivid$ he>t4 ,"l1 "h ,i am1 take me1 & possess me :olly4--,glory be to ,god my s\l lives4 ,i feel 'drawn by ! lure ( /rong desire' to *oose ,god = my portion4 ,! la/ week has be5 "o ( trial1 b ,i am con/ra9$ to believe ! ,"l doe? all ?+s well4--,we arriv$ 9 ,sc>bro' aft] be+ mu* fav\r$ dur+ a %[]y day2 b praise belongs to our heav5ly ,b5efactor4--,we took a walk to ! *ur* & ca/le2 :]e my de> ,john un=tunately lo/ 8 wat*4 ,aft] se>*+ = x 9 va9 = ne>ly an h\r1 & ?9k+ ( return+ home1 provid5ce l$ him to ! place :]e he _h dropp$ x4 ,surely x c be e/eem$ no o!r ?an ! gift ( heav51 s9ce x _h la9 an h\r expos$ to ! public cr[ds t resort$ ?i!r4--,! day 0 f9e1 & we sp5t x 9 sitt+ a little 9 ! h\se1 & 9 walk+ ^u ! s&s & among ! rocks1 seek+ = %ells1 ! beauty ( :i*1 ) ! wide ocean1 & surr\nd+ prospect1 made me wi% = ! p5 ( a scribe & ! imag9ation ( a poet2 b ,i f\nd wi%+ to be a va9 employm5t4 ,ab\t a qu>t] pa/ eight 9 ! morn+ my ,eliza 0 born4 ,bless$ be ,god he graci\sly support$ me 9 ! trial4 ,o t "m & *ild may be devot$ to ,!e1 ?\ ,god ( inf9ite compassion4 ,give me m grace t ,i may walk unblameable 9 ?y sight1 & be=e ^? ov] :om ?y provid5ce has place me4 ,tea* me to ord] my conv]sation aright1 & to keep myself unspott$ f ! _w4 ,o my ,god1 ,i h no?+ to (f] = all ! bless+s ask$2 b help me to be ?y devot$ s]vant f ?is mom5t4 #ahjg4 ,my de> husb& has made a pur*ase1 :i* is to me a s\rce ( anxiety2 b ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/1--,?\ rule/ ov] all1 help & direct4 ,o let u 9 all our ways ackn[l$ge ,!e1 t ?\ maye/ direct our /eps4 ,keep1 ,o keep u f be+ a discr$it to ,?y cause2 & 9 ?is p>ticul> set u "r4--,i am left alone ) my infant1 :o beg9s to /eal my affections m ?an ,i ev] ?\ght (4 ,o ,god1 take my poor he>t1 lo/ a creaturely atta*m5t be too /rongly root$ )9 my brea/4 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ me altoge!r1 & ! secret spr+s ( my affection1 cleanse me f all defilem5t2 purify me f all my s9s1 & let me ?is mom5t yield myself entirely to ,!e2 & z ,?\ deigne/ to visit du/1 visit me4--,"t glides away2 et]nity approa*es2 & yet1 alas6 my m9d fluctuates z ! w9d4 ,o my ,god1 %all ,i nev] be firmly gr\nd$ ^u ,?yself4 ,come1 ',desire ( nations1' save me f anxiety respect+ worldly ?+s2 let all our temporal affairs be "u ,?y managem5t1 & our happ9ess c5tre 9 do+ ?y w4 ,h[ va9ly h ,i s\ght 9 ?+s b5ea? ,to place a confid5ce1 :i* fai?less e>? ,c nev] recomp5ce6 ,o firmly fix ,my s\l on joys above ! smil+ skies2 ,let ,jesus' love inspire1 & fill my he>t4 ,god bless my de> companion4 ,settle & fix 8 affections on ,?yself1--! supreme good4 ,let e faculty ( 8 m9d be at ,?y comm&4 #ahjh4 ,twelve o'clock at night4 ,"l1 my m9d aspires heav5w>d4 ,let heav51 ,i besee* ,!e1 come into my s\l4 ,let ! radiance ( ,?y love fill me ) light & life div9e4 ,give me s5sibly to feel & "k1 t ,?\ art reconcil$ to me1 )\t ,?y grace1 effectually undone4 ,i feel some?+ )9 my he>t1 is x ! effect ( ,?y love8 ,if x is1 let x m p[]fully affect my s\l1 t ,i may live 9 con/ant read9ess to take my flight to yon bright realms above4 ,b is t bliss prep>$ = me8 ,o let me feel x4 ,?is aft]noon my bro!r ,ri*>d di$4 ,alas6 h[ unc]ta9 are all sublun>y ?+s6 ,he 0 j ent]+ life1 & lo6 he is snat*$ away4 ,surely ! all-wise ',i ,,am' saw evil ga!r+1 & k9dly remov$ him to a happi] clime1 safe f imp5d+ dang]4 ,well1 my ,ri*>d is gone2 :ile ,i1 f\r ye>s old]1 am yet alive4 ,m]cy1 t took him1 sp>es me ) ! same graci\s design2 'n will+ t any %\ld p]i%1 b t all might h ev]la/+ life4' ,may t bless$ end be answ]$ 9 my poor s\l1 :i* )\t ,?y enliv5+ pres5ce feels an 'a*+ void' :i* ! :ole _w _c fill4 ,?is day has be5 a day ( affliction1 b x drives me to ! ,"l4 ,my de> husb& & *ildr5 are entw9$ ab\t my he>t4 ,"l1 help me to give !m freely up1 & d ,?\ take1 & possess me :ole4 ,! foll[+ l9es 7 address$ to a valu$ fri5d3-- ,:itehead1 awake6 & sweep ! lyre aga9 ,) t\* s]aphic to a ,savi\r sla92 ,a ,savi\r1 wor?y ( sublime/ v]se1 ,a ,savi\r's love too mighty to rehe>se2 ,! pure/ !me t ev] fir$ ! tongue1 ,gave life to g5ius1--h>mony to song2 ,fill ?y enraptur$ s\l ) ?\ght div9e1 ,& p\r its fulness on ! gl[+ l9e4 #ahji4--;,h _h a too? drawn4 ,o t ! dire root ( s9 7 z effectually tak5 away1 nev] m to di/urb my happ9ess2 & t pure p]5nial peace might succe$1--,i h be5 visit+ ! sick3 b oh6 h[ inadequate to ! responsible task6 ,o my ,god awake my dr[sy p[]s1 & fit me = e sph]e ,i h to fill 9 life4--,i feel m he>tfelt joy 9 lean+ ^u ,*ri/ ?an any?+ else2 yet x is h>d "w to keep ! m9d dis5tangl$ f worldly c>es4 ,?+s ne$ful to me1 seem ! mo/ dang]\s1 & :at ,i am mo/ liable to be ensn>$ by4 ,9 visit+ "s infirm p my s\l 0 deeply affect$1 :5 ,i consid]$ _! age1 & ignorance1 & my own inability to in/ruct !m4 ,h[ great is ! ignorance ( mank9d6 ,o t ,god w\ld apply "s ^w spok5 by 8 poor du/4 ,dur+ ! "t ! ,rev4 ,a4,e4 ,f>r> 0 /ation$ 9 ,york1 h] aspirations aft] purity ( he>t rea*$ a crisis1 & %e 0 enabl$ by fai? to claim ! promise2 ,fai?ful is he t calle? y1 :o also w d x4 ,= "s "t h] convictions 7 s cle> & di/9ct1 t to use h] own words %e dur/ n say %e _h n receiv$ ! bless+4 ,b ?is happy exp]i5ce--! ,*ri/ian's highe/ privilege on e>?--0 soon int]rupt$ by d\btful reason+s2 /ill h] consci5ce 0 ,quick1 z ! apple ( an eye1 ,! slighte/ t\* ( s9 to feel4 ,z an in/ance ( h] consci5ti\sness we m5tion a circum/ance :i* took place some:]e ab\t ?is "t4 ,a f>m]1 :o ow$ my fa!r a consid]able sum ( money1 _h be5 repeat$ly importun$ = paym5t1 b )\t effect2 & x 0 at l5g? giv5 up1 z a bad debt4 ,"o ,sabba? morn+1 :ile %e 0 sitt+ alone1 he unexpect$ly call$ to settle 8 acc\nt4 ,%e said1 ,we h no?+ to d ) receiv+ money on a ,sunday2 x is ! ,"l's day1 & we d n ?9k x "r4 ,well1 repli$ ! man1 hold+ ! money 9 8 h&1 y might z well take x :ile y h ! *ance ( x4 ,b nei!r argum5t1 nor expo/ulation1 c\ld induce h] to t\* ! =bidd5 notes4 ,! man !re=e pocket$ ! money1 & w5t away2 b n )\t an admonition on keep+ holy ! ,sabba? day4 ,no "o ev5tually loses any?+ by ! ma9t5ance ( pr9ciple1 & ! debt 0 hone/ly dis*>g$ ! foll[+ week4 ,! solit>y record ( ! ye> #ahaj1 is conta9$ 9 ! foll[+ l9es1 :i* may be reg>d$ z expressive ( h] own feel+s4 ,jesus1 ,?y glori\s "n %all /ill ,my mus+ ?\ght & tongue employ2 ,^: pres5ce do? creation fill4 ,be ,?\ my portion & my joy4 ,jesus6 ble/ s\rce ( all my hope1 ,9 :om my _s f9ds its re/2 ,^: preci\s blood1 inspir+ ?\ght6 ,ha? pur*as$ heav5 to make me ble/4 ,:]e c a mortal language f9d1 ,to tell su* love :5 angels fail8 ,god did s love ! _w1 & di$1 ,t love by ju/ice might prevail4 ,drawn by ?is love1 a witness ,i1 ,t ,god to all ! ,savi\r gave2 ,:o will+ are1 may te/ify1 ,he c unto ! utmo/ save4 #ahaa4--;,i ?ank ,god = ! bless$ privilege ( he>+ ! m9i/]s ( righte\sness1 b lam5t _! ^w makes s little impression ^u my he>t4 ,i seem a =getful he>]1 or z "o t he>s ! ^w ) joy1 b little fruit appe>s to p]fection4 ,ye/]day1 irritat$ by "s frivol\s cause1 ,i 0 ?r[n (f my gu>d1 & griev$ ! _s ( ,god4 ,?is occasion$ a s5se ( condemnation1 & ?\gh n[ ! ,"l blesses me1 ,i _c =give myself4 ,o t ,i aga9 enjoy$ ! sanctify+ influ5ces ( ,8 ,holy ,_s6 ,until ?is is ! case1 ,i %all be :irl$ ab\t by my enemies )94 ,"l make me m 9 e>ne/1 t ,i may nev] re/ till aga9 ! sweet p[] ( sov]eign love has possession ( my he>t4--,i rose e>ly to att5d ! pray]-meet+1 & receiv+ grace f ,him ^: bir? we commemorat$1 ,i fanci$ my hill /ood /rong2 & t ,i %\ld be able to rise above ev]y?+ ,i might h to try me3 b alas6 ,i aga9 prov$ my own weakness4 ,my little *>ge 7 "s ( !m sick1 o!rs cross1 all want$ me2 s t all my graces 7 put to ! te/4 ,o t ,i _h m pati5ce1 t ,i might sit 'calm on tumult's :eel4' ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ me altoge!r1 ,i w\ld n be a hypocrite1 nei!r w\nd ,?y cause by impati5ce2 ,?\ ha/ promis$ /r5g? = ! day1 & ,i am det]m9$ to ca/ my :ole s\l on ,!e2--to h ,!e = my ,savi\r4 ,at ! lovefea/ mu* 0 said respect+ family pray]4 ,i bless ,god4 ,?is duty is my delight4 ,to a fri5d slight$ 9 love1 %e writes-- ,alas my fri5d6 :at c ,i say to *e]8 ,:at s\nd is sweet to a di/ract$ e>8 ,turn f ! creature1 disappo9t$1 turn3 ,lam5t y\r folly1--deeply humbl$ m\rn1 ,y\r disreg>d ( ,him1 :o di$ to ga9 ,y\r wor?less he>t1 & bid y love aga94 ,o6 turn to him1 :o gave himself = y1 ,y\r love1 y\r he>t1 y\r life1 are all 8 due2 ,no fickl5ess or *ange 9 him is kn[n1 ,he loves & w = ev] love 8 own2 ,"h place y\r treasure1 & "h f9d y\r re/1 ,make ,god y\r all1 & be = ev] ble/4 #ahab4--,?r\gh grace ,i am resolv$ on ! side ( virtue4 ,i h peace 9 ,god1 & a gr[+ desire to imitate him 9 my daily walk2 b no m>vel if all my be/ actions ne$ purg+ f _! dross4 ,i seem all pollution2 yet my s\l lays hold ^u ! ,savi\r1 :o alone is able to purify my nature4 ,on ,febru>y #crd1 my si/] ,anna di$1 elev5 ye>s old4 ,i 0 call$ to witness ! pleas+1 pa9ful1 awful sc5e4 ,:ile kneel+ by h] b$1 aft] a p>oxysm ( extreme agony1 z %e _h a mom5t's respite1 my "m said2 ',ask h] if %e is happy to lift up h] h&4' ,%e did in/antly & said1 ',a kiss1' & s turn$ recollect$ly to ea*1 ) a smil+ c\nt5ance1 :ile h] dy+ lips 7 b j s5sible ( ! impression2 !n aft] ano!r %ort /ruggle %e sweetly fell asleep 9 ,jesus4 ,s ,i alone am left to tell x4 #ahac4--;,aft] adv]t+ to a numb] ( pa9ful circum/ances1 %e adds3--,praise ,god1 ! seizure ( my own body1 ?\gh by f> ! mo/ pa9ful ( ^! occurr5ces1 has be5 ! greate/ bless+4 ,on ! fir/ attack ,i 0 /upifi$--b ! ,"l lib]at$ me & suppli$ grace 9 ! h\r ( ne$4 ,?us h ,i exp]i5c$ h[ sudd5ly ! ,"l c take away ! *oice/ ( all bless+s1 heal?4 ,be+ ?r\gh m]cy aga9 re/or$1 my s\l d]ives its happ9ess f ,god4 ,i see be=e me broad riv]s & /reams spr++ f t f\nta91 :5ce all solid com=t fl[s2 b great weakness1 mu* unfai?fulness1 _m omissions & errors 9 myself4 ,"l increase my fai?1 t ,i may ent] ! holie/ by ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,= "s "t ,i h met 9 b& ) ,mrs4 ,w4 ,we h _h _m preci\s seasons toge!r4--,a circum/ance occurr+ :i* 0 miscon/ru$1 put me sudd5ly out ( temp]1 & caus$ me mu* pa9 ( m9d1 besides displeas+ o!rs toge!r ) my de> p>tn]4 ,o my ,god1 b = ,?y blood1 ,i %\ld lose all hope ( et]nal happ9ess2 yet blot n1 ,i besee* ,!e1 my "n out ( ! book ( life2 b if ev] my he>t w5t ) my words1 ,i entreat ,!e1-- ,*ase ?is self-w ?r\gh all my he>t1 ,?r\gh all its lat5t mazes !re4 #ahad4--,reflect+ on ! pa/--my m]cies & +ratitude1 my w>n+s & neglect1 my privileges & non-improvem5ts1 my affliction & re/oration to heal?1 ,?y love1 ,o ,god1 9 t5 ?\s& in/ances1 & my small affection1 ,i wond] :y ,i am /ill ! object ( ,?y c>e1 b ,i see ! cause 9 ,jesus' blood4 ,!re ! reason lies4 ,o might ,i "h my nature lose1 & ga9 ! ,inf9ite4 ,mus+ on ! loss ( h] *ildr51 ?ree ( :om _h di$ 9 infancy1 %e writes3-- ,ble/ "m6 ?us to yield to ,god ,! gifts s lately giv52 ,ble/ babes ,i = y h cross'd ! flood1 ,& safely 'scap$ to heav54 ,i h be5 v mu* h>ass$ ) temptation ( an awful k9d1--to blaspheme ! bless$ ,_s4 ,my ,god1 pres]ve me4 ,i %udd] at ! ?\ght1 & h necess>ily be5 driv5 to ,god 9 pray]4--,i h to praise ,god = temptation2 = seek+ refuge 9 ,jesus1 my only def5ce aga9/ my enemy1 ,i h a firm] confid5ce 9 ,him z my ,savi\r4 ,:i!r1 ,o :i!r1 %\ld ,i g8 ,to ,?y ble/ w\nds ,i flee2 ,no refuge c ,i f9d bel[1 ,my help is all 9 ,!e4 ,! illum9ation6 a cr[d$ city6 _m devices6 ,! face ( ! p seems to speak peace1 b ,?\1 ,"l1 see/ ! he>t4 ,set my he>t "r4--,z ! clock /ruck ?ree ,i 0 awoke ) ! words2 ',put on ! helmet ( salvation & ! weapon ( all pray]4' ,= a "t fe> crept ov] me1 le/ my husb& & *ild1 bo? f home1 %\ld return ill2 b z ,i m$itat$1 ! passage occurr$2 ',all ?+s "w toge!r = good to !m t love ,god4' ,i 0 in/antly deliv]$2 & all ,i c\ld titt] 01 ,glory be to ,god4 ,z ,i lay prais+ & pray+1 ^! l9es arose 9 my m9d4 ,if "t is s preci\s1 & dea? on ! w+1 ,oh6 %elt] me1 ,jesus1 secure f 8 /+2 ,n[ op5 ! f\nta91 & wa% out my /a91 ,t to live may be ,*ri/1 & to die may be ga94 ,?is1 ?is is ! hon\r to :i* ,i aspire1 ,! grace to atta9 x is all ,i desire2 ,oh6 fill me ) heav51 ?r\gh fai? 9 ,?y blood1 ,!n cr[n me ) glory1 & lift me to ,god4 ,i h _h a preci\s morn+--arose a little be=e five1 & sp5t an h\r alone4 ,god 0 ) me4 ,glory6 ,glory6 ,h[ "t hurries on6 ,ano!r ye> has almo/ /ol5 away4 ,:]e am ,i8 ,:at am ,i8 ,?us mu* ( "t is gone2 h[ mu* fitt] am ,i = heav58 ,i pause1--am alone1--b ',?\ ,god see/ me4' ,on my knees1 ,i ask ,?y m]cy1 & implore ,!e to be m9e = ev]4 ,preci\s ,jesus6 ,i feel ,!e will+ to save me1 & a sweet confid5ce ,?\ wilt save me4 ,o6 ! sweetness ( union ) ,god6--,my m9d is tr\bl$ ab\t ! future4 ,s5sible ( my own weakness1 my *ildr5's welf>e awak5s my conc]n4 ,o my ,god1 take *>ge ( my little ones4 ,:ile attempt+ to in/ruct !m to-day1 my two little girls seem$ affect$4 ,o let ?is be ! beg9n+ ( ,?y fe> 9 _! he>ts1 t %all nev]1 nev]1 dep>t4 ,h] anxiety on behalf ( ! salvation ( h] *ildr5 0 int5se4 ,h] ef=ts 7 comm5c$ ) ! fir/ dawn ( intellig5ce1 & cont9u$ ) unremitt+ ard\r until !y 7 rew>d$ ) success4 ,by timely in/ruction & caution1 by c\nsel & expo/ulation1 by w>n+ & repro(1 by a godly discipl9e1 by frequ5t lett]s 9 :i* ! "o ?+ 0 nev] =gott52 by pray]s & supplications m+l$ ) te>s1 z !y knelt alone at h] side2 by int]cessions (f]$ day & night 9 secret on _! behalf2 by en=c+ ! punctual obs]vance ( religi\s duties1 su* z read+ ! ^w1 family devotion1 & public wor%ip2 & by h] own pure example1 %e nev] ceas$ to tra9 !m 9 ! way t !y %\ld g4 ,b h] *ief /r5g? lay 9 ceaseless & effectual pray]1 :i* 0 urg$ 9 ! _s ( him :o said1 ,i w n let ,!e g1 except ,?\ bless me4 ,is x wond]ful1 if h] *ildr5 & gr&*ildr5 are f\nd walk+ 9 ! tru?8 ,= _m successive ye>s1 %e 0 accu/om$ to address to ea* a few l9es on ! anniv]s>y ( _! bir?4 ,^! 7 always replete ) godly c\nsels1 & wisely suit$ to ! age & circum/ances ( ! individual4 ,! p]iodical effusion 0 anxi\sly look$ =1 & highly priz$4 ,to our "y imag9ations1 ! productions ( h] p5 gl[$ ) all ! fire ( ,milton1 & fl[$ ) all ! s(tness & melody ( ,sp5s]2 & if a rip] judgem5t has robb$ u ( ! pleas+ fancy1 x has be5 at lea/ replac$ by ! grateful conviction t !y 7 ! ov]fl[+s ( a "m's he>t1 & by ! bless+ ( ,god1 contribut$ 9 a great measure to give an e>ly bias 9 fav\r ( religi\s tru?4 ,a specim5 writt5 at ?is "t is "h ins]t$4 ,,to ,,my ,,ri*>d4 ,unutt]$ feel+s gl[ )9 my he>t1 ,ah6 9 :at language c ,i pa9t !m be/8 ,t y1 my d>l+ boy1 may "k a "p1 ,unconsci\s ( :at fills a "m's brea/4 ,*ildlike & innoc5t y\r actions are1 ,no ?\ght ( guile z yet )9 y\r brea/2 ,alas6 ! wily foe1 n lurk+ f>1 ,may soon corrupt & desecrate y\r re/4 ,might ,i unveil ! sn>es1 t scatt]$ r\nd1 ,beset y\r pa? f *ildhood to old age2 ,b ,love allwise1 9 my/]y pr(\nd1 ,has hid 9 d>kness all ! v>i$ page4 ,be x suffici5t1 grace is ev] nigh2 ,if 9 ! pa? ( rectitude y tread1 ,no ill %all h>m y2 y w soon descry ,! tempt]'s sn>e1 h[ev] deeply laid4 ,*oose virtue1 ,ri*>d1 %un ! pa? ( vice1 ,let n ungodly y\? y\r m9d ensn>e2 ,take ?is wise caution1 ,if !y w\ld entice1 ,cons5t ?\ n2 be sure t s9 is !re4 ,walk ) ! wise1 t y may wis] gr[2 ,let age tea* wisdom1 he> x ) respect2 ,x c 9 "t =w>n1 & dang] %[1 ,:]e y no secret mis*ief may suspect4 ,9 useful le>n+ all y\r y\? engage2 ,f simple k ( y\r "m tongue1 ,proce$ to figures2 !n1 f /age to /age ,pursue ea* sci5ce1 ?\gh ! way be long4 ,by k le>n y\r ignorance to "k1 ,nor dream y h ! height ( wisdom ga9$2 ,no great] pro( ( ignorance bel[1 ,?an l\d to boa/ ( :at we h atta9$4 ,read useful books--! ,bible mo/ pref]1 ,9 x y\r ,mak]'s w is cle>ly %[n2 ,!n b5d y\r humble knee 9 secret pray]1 ,t fai? may make its preci\s tru?s y\r own4 ,if tales ( fiction %\ld !mselves pres5t1 ,too (t injuri\s to ! m9d ( y\?1 ,?r[ !m aside2 & sacr$ly int5t ,on y\r improvem5t1 foll[ aft] tru?4 ,:5 y require relief1 be hi/ory true ,( y\r own l&1 & o!r l&s p]us$2 ,?is w in/ruct1 give ent]ta9m5t too1 ,:ile nei!r "t nor tal5ts are abus$4 ,?us1 9 y\r y\?1 r$eem ! fleet+ h\r1 ,t y 9 future life may useful be2 ,by ^w & de$ z f> z 9 y\r p[]1 ,to /em ! torr5t ( impiety4 ,rememb]1 z y\r pres5t life is sp5t1 ,future rew>d or puni%m5t is due2 ,oh6 !n improve ! preci\s mom5ts l5t1 ,& ev]la/+ life %all wait on y4 ,praise ,god1 ,i h a p>tn] desir\s ( jo9+ he>tily 9 ! ,*ri/ian w>f>e2 (t5 are we ble/ :ile we p\r out our s\ls toge!r be=e ! ,"l1 ,o = a clos] walk ) ,god4 ,v4 ,,%[] ,,& ,,sun%9e4 ,,n[ ,,m5 ,,see ,,n ,,! ,,bright ,,light ,,:i* ,,is ,,9 ,,! ,,cl\ds2 ,,b ,,! ,,w9d ,,passe?1 ,,& ,,cleanse? ,,!m4 ,job xxxvii4 #ba4 ,t /age ( life :i* imm$iately prec$es a ripe age1 :5 man is 9 ! full vig\r ( 8 /r5g?1 is n unfrequ5tly l an ,april day m+l$ ) sun%9e & %[]4 ,! c>e ( a ris+ family1 & ! accumulat+ int]e/s ( bus9ess & society1 br+ con/ant alt]nations ( joy & sorr[2 design$ by ,god to s(t5 & fructify ! he>t1 :i* might o!rwise become too call\s "u ! scor*+ blaze ( ! _w4 ,happy is x1 :5 ^! k9dly work+s ( a sublim] provid5ce1 cause ! graces ( 8 _s to %oot =? l ! t5d] grass spr++ up out ( ! e>? by cle> %9+ aft] ra92 & :5 ! exp]i5ce acquir$ 9 seasons ( vicissitude1 is treasur$ up 9 ! he>t = future use4 ,mrs4 ,ly? _h h] ,april wea!r prep>atory to ! summ] ( h] usefulness1 z w appe> by fur!r extracts f h] j\rnal4 #ahae--,my fa!r ,ly? left u to jo9 ! disembodi$ ?rong4 ,! la/ =tnight ( 8 life 0 *iefly sp5t 9 pray]4 ,i believe he di$ p5it5t4 ,?\ be/ ( ,be+s6 prep>e me = ! approa*+ trial4 ,9 ! fire may ,i lose no?+ b s94 ,=tify my m9d1 & let pati5ce h its p]fect "w1 t by no pa9 ,i may fall f ,!e4 ,"h ,i call to m9d1 t ,?\ ha/ br\ght me ?r\gh six tr\bles2 ,o leave me n 9 ! sev5?4 ,let me aga9 prove ,?y fai?fulness4 ,i sc>cely "k h[ ! la/ =tnight has escap$4 ,o ! rapidity ( "t6 well might "o say1 ',o "t ?an gold m preci\s1 m a load ?an lead to fools4' ,i am ?ankful1 all my solid happ9ess is d]iv$ f ,god2 & ?\gh ,i h _m e>?ly com=ts ,i c say1 ',all my spr+s are 9 ,!e4' ,i long to dr9k m freely ( ^? liv+ f\nta9s1 & to draw con/ant supplies f ! inexhau/ible fulness ( ! ev]-bless$ & adorable ,jesus4 ,oh6 x is sweet to m$itate on ?is lov$ !me4 ,ris+ into ,god we lose ourselves1 & seem$ wrapp$ up 9 ,deity4--,hav+ met ) a little disappo9tm5t1 my m9d is 9 "s degree unh+$2 ,i h be5 begg+ ( ,god to und]take ! matt]1 & ov]rule all = ! be/1 :i* ,i hope has be5 ! case2 yet ,i f9d x h>d to give up my own w4 ,"l1 help me4 ,i accompani$ my fa!r & "m to see c\s9 ,hannah1 :o is app>5tly decl9+4 ,h] prospects 9 life 7 exce$+ly bright1 b happ9ess is n 9 !m1 z !re c be no enjoym5t )\t heal?4 ,:at a m]cy1 afflictions spr+ n out ( ! du/3 ,i am aga9 call$ to exp]i5ce x4 ,our appr5tice1 s]vant maid1 & ,eliza1 are all 9 ! sc>let fev]4 ,bett] ?an ,i c\ld expect consid]+ ! pressure ^u me1 ,i am con/ra9$ to say1 judgm5t is mix$ ) love4 ,may we lose no?+ b dross1 & %9e bright] = be+ 9 ! furnace4--,i am in=m$ by lett] t c\s9 ,hannah is no m1--x says no?+ h[ %e left ?is _w4 ,i long to "k--w to-morr[ in=m me8 ,i purpose to be at h] fun]al1 if ,god give leave4 ,o ,?\1 :o wa/ to ! ,israelites bo? a pill> & a cl\d1 if ,?\ g n up ) u1 suff] u n to j\rney2 = ,?\ kn[e/ my he>t1 ,i wi% to please ,!e4--,we w5t to ,kirkby to ! int]m5t ( my late ,c\s91 :o1 ,i am in=m$1 di$ happily4 ,ne>ly h] la/ intelligible words 71 ',bless$ are ! pure 9 he>t1 = !y %all see ,god4' ,s %e clos$ ?is mortal sc5e1 & left h] bloom+ prospects1 fair e/ates1 & all ! bright anticipations ( y\?1 = ! lone sil5ce ( ! tomb4--,i feel m ende>$ ?an ev] to ! invisible _w1 be+ w>n$ z ,i believe1 by "s dep>t$ fri5d1 to give dilig5ce4 ,i am also rem9d$ by ! dea? ( my c\s9 h[ va9 are all ?+s "h bel[4 ,p]haps x 0 h] k9d _s--:o c tell8 ,a ,,"q ,,ask$4 ,does m>riage1 l ! features ( a fair & lovely face1 ,lose all its sweet attractions1 :5 age comes on apace8 ,d soo?+ acts ( k9dness & words ( com=t g1 ,:5 tr\bles are assail+1 & pleasure's cup is l[8 ,no1 surely heav'n design'd x m to ameliorate ,! lonely /ate ( humank9d1 :5 fir/ ,he =m'd a mate4 #ahaf4--;,i w5t to ! ,s*ool-room2 & nev] did my eyes behold a sc5e s pleas+3--boys & girls 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! room cry+ = m]cy2 :ile o!rs 7 rejoic+ 9 ,god4 ',out ( ! m\? ( babes & suckl+s ,?\ ha/ orda9$ praise4' ,i long$ = ! salvation ( my ?ree *ildr5 :o 7 all !re1 b ,i _h no p[] to take any active "p2 my m9d seem$ p>aliz$4--,9 ! mid/ ( our afflictions ,god has n =gott5 u4 ,our ,wall] an appr5tice has obta9$ m]cy1 & ,eliza's he>t is t\*$4 ,o t ,god w\ld save all our family4 ,i h _h "s 'seasons ( refre%+2' b n enjoy+ ! sanctify+ influ5ces ( ,god's ,_s1 ,i h felt a disposition to be discont5t$ ) ! arrangem5ts ( ,provid5ce respect+ ! heal? ( my *ildr54 ,i daily m\rn ?is inbr$ corruption b n suffici5tly1 or ,i %\ld be m 9 e>ne/ to get rid ( x4 ,at pres5t ,i feel a long+ = ! bless$ lib]ty :i* _m express4 ,o may ,i %>e 9 ! baptism :i* is n[ s glori\sly %$ ^u ?is city4--,! fif? day ,i h sp5t 9 my new habitation2 all is confusion1 & mu/ rema9 s = "s "t to come4 ,?is w\ld be a matt] ( little mom5t1 if my m9d 7 n di/ress$ by ! affliction ( my ,eliza4 ,s ,i f9d e joy has its sorr[4 ,"l1 z ,?\ kn[e/ :at is be/ = me & m9e1 give me pati5ce1 & let e disp5sation ( ,?y provid5ce be sanctifi$4--,we op5$ our new %op4 ,! fir/ cu/om] dem&$ cr$it1 & ! second took up h] money ) h] goods1 & w5t away ) bo?4 ,provid5tially x 0 re/or$4 ,we h n[ made a =tnight's trial1 & h great cause ( ?ankfulness = ! prospect ( success4 ,! la/ few mon?s h be5 full ( toil & anxiety1 b ?ank ,god1 ,i c say3 ',:ile ble/ ) a s5se ( ,8 love ,a palace a toy w\ld appe>2 ,& prisons w\ld palaces prove1 ,if ,jesus b dwelt ) me !re4' ,i h be5 aim+1 ?\gh feebly1 to give ,god my he>t4 ,x is good to come to ! ,"l 9 private2 x is !re ,i f9d my greate/ enjoym5t4--,= sev]al nights ,i h suff]$ mu* pa92 z mu* ,i ?9k1 z my pati5ce c\ld endure4 ,9 "o ( ! p>oxysms1 ! passage 0 cont9ually 9 my m9d1 ',! wise %all inh]it glory4' ,?r\gh\t ye/]day f\nd x v sweet4 ,i am 9 "p depriv$ ( ! public ord9ances1 b f9d solid happ9ess 9 brea?+ my wi%es to ! ,?rone1 & d]ive sweet solace f ,him1 ^: smile creates my day4--,f9d 9 private ) my ,god1 ,i ga9 ! mo/ sub/antial peace2 at lea/ ,i h n le>n$ ! noble art ( be+ ''mid/ busy multitudes alone4'--,our s]vant 0 tak5 dang]\sly ill4 ,i ?9k ,i did n feel any disposition to murmur2 b want firm] reliance on ! p[] ( ,god1 ^: promise nev] fails4 ,h lately _h "s bless$ meet+s ) my ,god1 p]haps prep>atory to ?is trial4 #ahag4 ,to-morr[1 two crim9als are to suff] dea? = ! crime ( murd]4 ,h[ awful f an e>?ly judge to receive ! la/ s5t5ce ( ! law6 b h[ mu* m s to he> f ,!e t f9al s5t5ce1 ',dep>t ye curs$6' ,o1 my ,god1 let ! cry ( ! prison]s come up be=e ,!e4 ,9 pity b[ ,?y graci\s e>1 ,incl9e ! s9n]'s he>t to pray]1 ,& draw him to ,?y ,son1 ,?r\gh :om1 ?\gh vile he is1 ,?\ wilt ,remove ! blackness ( 8 guilt2 ,oh6 let x n[ be done4 ,?\ ,fri5d ( s9n]s1 if ,i may ,approa*1 ,o give a he>t to pray1 ,& let ,?y ,_s plead4 ,b few ! h\rs he has to live1 ,o give rep5tance & =give1 ,=give ! bloody de$4 ,at int]vals h f\nd x good1 yea v good1 :ile ^u my knees2 inde$ ,i mu/ say my happie/ mom5ts h be5 !re4 ,:y am ,i ev] remiss 9 ?is duty1 :i* br+s me m solid peace ?an any?+ beside8 ,!re1 ,i conv]se ) ,god2 !re1 behold ,8 glory2 !re1 =get self2 !re1 get love to cov] faults2 !re1 assimilate to ! image ( ,god4 ,?is week has be5 m>k$ by ! affliction ( my two y\nge/ *ildr54 ,h[ pa9ful to a "m to see !m suff]6 yet ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/1 ,i w\ld r see !m droop & ev5 die1 ?an t !y %\ld live to rebel aga9/ ,!e1 & %ut !mselves out ( ,?y k+dom4 ,o my ,god1 on my knees1 ,i pres5t !m all to ,!e4 ,bless !m ) grace & und]/&+1 & save !m = ev]4--,i h _h to grapple ) rheumatism4 ,x is pa9ful1 b :at 9 duration1 :5 comp>$ ) et]nity8 ,no?+4 ,may my s\l1 ev]more fly upw>d4 ,:at ne$ 9 heal? to prep>e = sickness6 ,!re is !n pl5ty to d to hold fa/ :]eunto we h atta9$4--,c\s9 ,john ,/ables has ex*ang$ life = immortality4 ,8 la/ words 71 ',i am go+ to heav51 ,i "k ,i am4' ,ble/ k 9 ! h\r ( dea?6 b m exalt$1 !y :o daily live ) ! assurance ',i am ,?9e'1 c5t]+ 9 ,god _! hope & wi%1--,my de> little ,hannah di$1 ag$ tw5ty weeks4 ,a sweet smile re/$ ^u h] c\nt5ance4 ,o ,dea?6 h[ art ?\ robb$ ( ?y t]rors1 :5 infancy smiles 9 ?y pres5ce6 ,h n be5 at my class = a long "t 9 consequ5ce ( ill-heal?3 to-day ,i might h gone1 b ) %ame confess1 ,i =got ! "t4 ,o ,"l lay n ?is s9 to my *>ge4 ,my he>t w\ld n displease ,!e2 my s\l delights 9 ,!e1 & d]ives its happ9ess & peace f ,god my ,savi\r3 no m]it 9 myself1 b ,*ri/ is all 9 all4--,i w\ld ?is ev5+ (f] ,!e my he>t2 give me s9c]ity ,o ,god1 & let me "k ! sacrifice is accept$4 ,i am "u deep obligation to ,!e = hav+ s f> remov$ ! pa9 f :i* ,i suff]$ ,may ease be gratefully ackn[l$g$ by me1 & let my life %[ =? ,?y praise4 ,i bless ! ,"l = all ! good ,i possess1 & am con/ra9$ to say1 x is all div9e4 ,h begun to read ,locke on ! ,und]/&+4 ,"l enl>ge my capacity4--,enjoy bett] heal? ?an = sev]al mon?s2 = ?is may my s\l be truly ?ankful4 ,x is good = me t ,i h be5 afflict$2 ,i h le>n$ to value my m]cies z ! gift ( heav54 ,my an*or is 9 ,jesus2 f him my peace p]petually spr+s4 ,i n[ feel he is my ,god4 ,yet ! secret motions ( my he>t concur ) ! enemy ( my s\l to br+ me into bondage1 ,i long = victory4 ,:5 w ! happy mom5t arrive8 ,h lately ?\ght ! ,"l has some?+ = me to d2 ,i w\ld n bury my tal5ts 9 ! e>?2 b d ,?\ ,"l1 :o kn[e/ my insuffici5cy1 direct my way4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i am ble/ :ile call+ to m9d 8 innum]able m]cies4 ,x is l lift+ up ! lid ( a casket to expose ! jewels conta9$ !re9 to ! light ( ! sun1 ^: radiance !y reflect1 & ^: heat !y attract4--,h[ sweet to be at ! ?rone ( grace6 ,h _h great fre$om ) ! ,"l :ile int]c$+ = a fall5 fri5d1 ov] :om ,i lam5t4 ,o t ,god w\ld reclaim ! w&]]4 ,my s\l is sweetly drawn out aft] m ( ! image ( ,god1 = to ! pres5t ,i h b little imitat$ my ,"l4 ,god help me 9 my life to display e feature ( 8 "*4 ,my de> c\s9 ,ann is1 ,i fe>1 s9k+1 s true is x1 ',man come? up z a fl[]1' & is cut d[n2 b %e is happy 9 ,god4 ,?is is cause ( ?anksgiv+4 ,_m ( ! excell5t ( ! e>? are retreat+ beh9d ! veil4 ,may ,i "w :ile x is day4 ,:at a poor slo?ful s\l ,i h be51 :5 heav5 %9es s bright above me4 ,n[ ,i feel resolv$ to "w4 ,jesus1 ,?\ see/ my he>t1 aid me t ,i loit] no m4 ,a full salvation is :at my s\l aims at2 b ah6 h[ grovell+ & l[ are my desires6 language is too poor to express my pov]ty1 :5 se5 9 ! light ( ! ,sun ( righte\sness4 ,o6 :5 %all ,i f s9 set free1 ,bask 9 ! light ( ,deity8 ,exp& my he>t & fill ! wide expanse4--,:ile ,mr4 ,haswell 0 prea*+1 a woman cri$ out1 ',bless ! ,"l2 bless ! ,"l ,o my s\l4' ,i tru/ %e 0 "u div9e influ5ce4 ,mr4 ,h4 gave out2 ',praise ,god f :om1' c4 ,i began to suspect ! p[] ( ,god 0 m em95tly pres5t ?an ,i imag9$3 ?is l$ me to seek aft] x 9 my own brea/1 & to long = a m p[]ful manife/ation4 ,praise ,god1 ,i c\ld say1 ',lo6 ,god is "h1 let u adore4' ,on my return home1 ,i met ! judge ) 8 ret9ue return+ f c\rt1 light$ by tor*es4 ,h[ solemn6 ,b :at1 :5 ! ,judge ( all ! e>? %all desc5d f heav5 ) a %\t & ) ! trump ( ,god6 ,at ,8 b> mu/ ,i appe>1 & consci5ce t /aun* witness1 give its unimpea*able evid5ce = or aga9/ me1 ,o t ,jesus1 ! s9n]'s fri5d1 may !n su/a9 my cause4 ,prais$ be ,8 "n2 fai? spr+s up 9 my he>t1 & enc\rages me to believe t ,i %all receive ! cr[n ( life4 ,bless$ hope6--,mrs4 ---- breakfa/$ ) me4 ,we _h a truly bless$ morn+--our conv]sation 0 9 heav54 ,dur+ ! day ,i h be5 tr\bl$ ) evil reason+4 ,:5 %all ?is body ( dea? be de/roy$1 & ,*ri/ be all 9 all8 ,visit$ ,miss ,d4 9 ! asylum4 ,%e seems 9 d>k despair2 ,i got h] to h] knees1 & f\nd x preci\s to my own s\l4--,glory be to ,god ,i d>e believe4 ,keep me till ,i am fully sav$4 ,am wat*+ my ,william 9 ! measles2 ,ri*>d has j recov]$4 ,:at a m]cy ,i am 9 heal? to att5d !m2 yet am afraid my too anxi\s c>e = !m has *eck$ my zeal4 ,?r\gh m]cy my s\l lives to-day2 ,i feel a div9e appetite1 & am look+ = ! appe>ance ( my ,"l to ! de/ruction ( all ! c>nal m9d4--,at ,/ockton lovefea/1 ! ,"l op5$ my m\?1 bo? 9 ! ,*apel1 & at a neighb\r+ h\se2 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to speak4 ,may ! imp]fect h9ts ?r[n out be z bread ca/ ^u ! wat]s1 & :at ,i said amiss ! ,"l =give4 ,! peace ( ,god rul$ my he>t4--,! m\rnful tid+s ( ,c\s9 ,m>y's dea? has rea*$ u4 ,! day be=e1 %e 0 up sew+4 ,h[ sudd5 a transition f "t to et]nity6 ,al?\gh at ! fun]al1 ,i _c le>n h[ %e di$4 ,h[ my he>t is oppress$6 ,%e has left a f9e smil+ boy unconsci\s ( 8 loss1 & h] fa!r1 ^: displeasure %e _h incurr$ by h] m>riage1 unreconcil$4 ,h[ my feel+s are pl\gh$ up6 ,! tra9+ ( my *ildr5 occasions me great solicitude4 ,h[ %all ,i safely /e]1 :]e s _m make %ipwreck8 ,)\t ,?y direction & influ5ce1 ,i too %all miss my way4 ,come !n1 ?\ heav5ly ,wisdom1 tea* me to imbue _! t5d] m9ds ) tru?1 t ! impression may rema9 9 rip] ye>s4--,ano!r p>liam5t>y election4 ,o my ,god elect me '?r\gh sanctification ( ,?y ,_s4'--,my m9d suff]s ke5ly 9 consequ5ce ( a conv]sation ) ----4 ,?\1 ,"l1 kn[e/ exactly :]e ! error lies2 let x be discov]$4 ,if ,i am 9 ! wrong make me will+ to retract4 ,i want to be a ,*ri/ian 9 de$ & tru?4--,x 0 impress$ ^u my m9d to call ^u ,miss ,m4 ,h41 & urge h] to seek salvation1 hav+ long be5 a he>] ( ! ,gospel4 ,i sc>cely knew h[ to break ?r\gh1 z ,i _h no p>ticul> acqua9tance ) h]4 ,h[ev]1 pass+ by ! same day1 provid5ce s ord]$ x1 t %e sat fac+ ! door4 ,i pass$1 b rememb]+ my impression1 mu/]$ c\rage & return$4 ,aft] inquir+ ab\t h] heal? ,i told h] my err&4 ,%e 0 affect$1 & said %e _h a v h>d he>t4 ,i repli$1 ',x is n too h>d = ,god to s(t54' ,) mu* fe> ,i und]took ! *>ge ( ,miss ,b5tley's class1 9 consequ5ce ( h] indisposition1 b tru/ ! ,"l w soon re/ore h] to active usefulness4 ,! m will+ly ,i (f] myself to ! ,"l1 ! sweet] communion ,i f9d ) ,him4--,repeat$ my visit to ,miss ,m4 ,h41 ,i believe 9 ob$i5ce to ! influ5ce ( ! ,_s :i* con/ra9$ me--n int5d+ to call at t "t4 ,i f\nd h] s9c]ely seek+ salvation1 & endeav\r$ to po9t h] to ! ,lamb ( ,god4 ,my own s\l 0 bless$ :ile ?us engag$4 ,h[ %all ,i praise ,god = ,8 love to a worm8--,call$ aga91 :5 %e told me %e _h receiv$ a visit f ! ,"l4 ,%e dur/ n say h] s9s 7 =giv51 b felt enc\rag$4--,hav+ to pass ?r\gh "s ?+s ( a try+ nature1 ,i felt fully resign$1 & ! ?rone ( grace easy ( access4 ,keep me at ,?y feet1 ,o ,god1 t ,i may rise 9 ,?y lik5ess & 9 all ?+s d ,?y w4--,mr4 ,moore rem>k$ 9 8 s]mon1 ',happy is ! man ( "o book2' my he>t repli$1 ,s he is1 = 9 all ,i read1 ,i f9d no book s sweet z ! ,bible2 yet !re are "s :i* are preci\s1 & :i* ,i value z a treasure4--,ano!r di/+ui%$ m]cy4 ,aft] ano!r attack ( cramp ! ,"l has be5 pleas$ to re/ore to me ! use ( my h&s1 :i* h be5 lock$ f ?ree o'clock 9 ! morn+ until ev5+4 ,may ,i nev] =get ! ,"l's m]cy t[>ds me1 b /udi\sly lab\r to be f\nd ( ,him 9 peace1 t :5 ! awful crisis arrives1 ,i may be ready4 #ahai4 ,i am /ill 9 a weak /ate ( body1 unable to att5d to my family4 ,o ,"l1 support my m9d4 ,feel resolv$ to ca/ my s\l on ,jesus2 & al?\gh ,i h to /ruggle to reta9 my hold1 w hang on ! ,crucifi$4 ,?is ye> 0 "o ( sev]e p]sonal affliction1 :i* cont9u$ = sev]al mon?s4 ,at "o "t little hope 0 ent]ta9$ ( h] recov]y1 & none t %e w\ld ev] aga9 be re/or$ to active life4 ,m$ical aid seem$ utt]ly unavail+2 b ! ,"l _h *os5 h] 9 ! furnace ( affliction1 & by ^! means1 inscrutable at ! "t1 0 ref9+ & fitt+ h] = rem>kable usefulness4 ,at l5g? :5 ! process 0 complete1 contr>y to ! pr$ictions ( physicians1 & beyond ! expectations ( h] fri5ds1 %e 0 giv5 back aga9 to h] family1 & ! *ur*4 ,9 ref]5ce to ?is affliction1 %e says1 9 a lett] to "o ( h] daught]s3-- ,y\r bro!r ,samuel is put out to nurse2 he is a delicate little boy4 ,i am at ,mrs4 ,f4's out ( ,walmgate ,b>1 = ! b5efit ( my heal?2 if x please ,god to sanctify ! means4 ,9 "s respects1 ,i am bett]1 b yet v feeble2 h[ev]1 ,i am 9 ! ,"l's h&s1 & h be5 = a long "t 8 prison]4 ,i wi% to keep my cause 9 8 h&4 ,poor ,samuel6 ,i e day expect to he>1 t he has escap$ to glory4 ,my weakness reconciles me to 8 loss1 = ! righte\s ,judge ( all ! e>? _c b d "r4 ,de> ,m>y w discov] f my writ+1 !re is an alt]ation 9 me4 ,to tell y ! tru?1 ,i c sc>cely recollect h[ to spell2 my memory is s mu* impair$ by ?is affliction4 ,b ?ank ,god1 ,i h ! full use ( my reason1 & my s\l longs to awake aft] ! image ( ,god4 ,fri5ds are v k9d 9 visit+ me :i* makes ! days pass m pleasantly4 ,i ride out :5 ! wea!r is f9e1 b am able to walk v little4 ,on h] recov]y %e writes3-- ,i w\ld raise my song ( gratitude to my ,god1 :o1 ,i am confid5t has re/or$ me 9 answ] to pray]1 ?\gh ,i am /ill v weak4 ,dur+ my affliction my m9d has be5 v>i\sly ex]cis$2 sometimes ,i c\ld ca/ myself ) all my conc]ns ^u ,god2 at o!r times 0 mu* depress$2 once 9 ! multitude ( my ?\ghts )9 me1 x 0 sugge/$1 z if a voice spoke to me1 ',:at ?+s soev] ye desire1 :5 ye pray1 believe t ye receive !m1 & ye %all h !m4' ,i ?ank ,!e = ! com=t giv51 ,:5 agoniz$ ) pa92 ,! love infus$--! ta/e ( heav51 ,t *e]$ my he>t aga92 ,9 answ] to ! fai?ful pray]s ,( _m a f]v5t s\l1 ,disease retir$--= m]cy sp>es1 ,& makes ! s9n] :ole4 ,,vi4 ,,gr[? ,,9 ,,grace4 ,,z ,,! ,,t5d] ,,grass1 ,,spr++ ,,out ,,( ,,! ,,e>?1 ,,by ,,cle> ,,%9+ ,,aft] ,,ra94--#b ,sam4 xxiii4 #d4 ,god doe? no?+ 9 va94 ,cl\d & sun%9e1 /ormy w9ds1 & /eep+ ra9s1 h ea* _! appo9t$ purpose2 & 9 _! season contribute to bless1 & refre% ! e>?2 t x may br+ =? its increase = ! s]vice ( man & bea/4 ,y h (t5 se51 h[ aft] a %[] 9 ! *e]ful spr+-"t1 ! gre5 mead[s h sudd5ly put on a fre%] & liveli] hue2 & ! t5d] grass seem$ to gr[ be=e y\r eyes4 ,j s1 9 ! high] economy ( grace1 seasons ( trial & affliction h _! def9ite design2 only "h ! effect is n det]m9$ by an irresi/ible law2 b susp5d$ ^u ! conduct ( man4 ,! he>t mu/ be op5 to receive ! g5ial influ5ces1 :i* are ?us my/]i\sly communicat$2 ! w mu/ submissively b[ "u ! disp5sations ( an allwise ,provid5ce2 &1 especially1 seasons ( affliction %\ld be seasons ( e>ne/ pray]4 ,!n w !y be foll[$ by a m>k$ increase ( spiritual life & p[]4 ,mrs4 ,ly? b5efitt$ by h] afflictions2 & al?\gh %e m frequ5tly m\rns ov] h] own unpr(itabl5ess1 h] gr[? 9 grace is cle>ly app>5t 9 h] j\rnal1 :i* we resume4 #ahbj4--;,al?\gh ,i h ! victory ,i _c yet say ! old man is dead2 "s se$s ( peevi%ness yet rema9 to be de/roy$4 ,praise ,god1 ,i hate ! g>m5t spott$ by ! fle%4 ',all peace1 all love1' is ! desire ( my he>t1 & ! long+ ( my s\l4--,a day ( fa/+ & pray]2 b sep>ation f e ?+ t defile? is :at is pleas+ to ! ,"l4 ,may ?is be my cont9ual ab/95ce4 ,am54--,n able to procure a sub/itute to meet my husb&'s class1 ,i v5tur$ myself1 s5sible ( my own unfitness1 & e>ne/ly begg+ ,god to speak by me4 ,"o p]son w5t out1 b :atev] 0 ! cause1 ?ank ,god1 ,i felt t my "w 0 ) ! ,"l4--,w5t to see poor old ,s>ah2 f\nd h] conf9$ to h] b$ b happy 9 ! ,"l3 nature 0 fa/ s9k+4 ,i wi%$ h] to h a nurse1 b %e ?\ght %e c\ld d alone1 z %e _h a c&le1 & ! ,"l 0 ) h]3 left h]1 b f\nd means to procure a nurse = ! night4--,a few days ago ,i 0 awoke ) ! words1 ',:at %all ,i d = !e8' ,my answ] 01 ',"l1 t ,i may live m fully to ,!e1 & = ,!e4' ,unutt]able sweetness fill$ my s\l1 & n[1 :ile ,i write1 ,i feel x /ill4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,8 love is ev] new4 ,to walk ) ,him1 transc5ds all e>?ly enjoym5t4--,dur+ ! la/ week ,i h le>n$ my own weakness4 ,unaid$ by div9e grace1 ,i h no p[] to *eck trifl+ conv]sation among pr(essors2 especially su* z are old] ?an myself4 ,tea* me h[ to act1 :5 to speak1 & :5 to be sil5t4 ,to-day felt x my duty to visit a neighb\r1 & met ) a m fav\rable reception ?an ,i expect$4 ,he has long be5 ill1 & is n[ 9 tr\ble4 ,i told him t ,i _h come to br+ him good news1 t ',*ri/ ,jesus came into ! _w to save s9n]s2' & :ile conv]s+ ) him on ! necessity ( an int]e/ 9 ! ,r$eem]'s blood1 9 ord] to =giv5ess1 he seem$ to li/5 ) att5tion4 ,may ! ,"l make him a witness ( ! sav+ p[] ( ! ,gospel1 ,"s little matt]s1 :i* require a pati5t & =giv+ _s1 h occurr$ to fill up my "* z a ,*ri/ian4 ,"l1 help me & give me t _s :i* 9 ,?y sight is ( great price4--,?irty-eight ye>s old6 ,h[ %ort ! "t appe>s6 yet h[ v>i$ ! sc5es ?r\gh :i* ,i h pass$6 & h[ diff]5t ! views ,i h _h4 ,praise ! ,"l4 ,) respect to ! s\l1 ,i h cle>] views ?an ev]4 ,my feet are ^u ! rock4 ,:5 ,i look ov] my life1 h[ blott$ x appe>s6 am lo/ 9 a/oni%m5t1 t ,god1 :o made all ?+s1 & upholds all ?+s by ! ^w ( 8 p[]1 %\ld /oop to su* a wret* z ,i4 ,o ! dep? ( ! ri*es ( ,8 m]cy to me6--,i h receiv$ a lett] f ,c\s9 ,ann1 9 :i* %e boldly confesses ! cleans+ blood4 ,hope x w prove a la/+ bless+ to me2 feel a%am$ t ,i h n m op5ly ackn[l$g$ :at ! ,"l has done = my s\l4 ,by ?is omission1 h clipp$ ! w+s ( my fai?1 & enc\rag$ a diffid5ce1 :i* ,i long to h remov$2 h hesitat$ ^u ! plea1 t ,i w\ld wait & see :e!r ! "w 0 g5u9e or no4 ,o my ,savi\r =give1 & condesc5d to tea* "o ( ! dulle/ s*ol>s 9 ,?y s*ool4--,h f\nd ! five o'clock pray]-meet+s v pr(itable1 & _c be ?ankful en\gh t ,i h heal? to g4 ,at ! pray]-lead]s' ,lovefea/1 said ,i c\ld give up all = ,god1 b h s9ce ask$ myself1 ,is ?is true8 ,"l1 ,?\ kn[e/ x is ! desire ( my he>t to give myself to ,!e )\t res]ve3 accept ! (f]+4 ,i feel ,!e n[ p\r+ 9 ,?y ineffable peace4 ,my s\l has b "o object1 inw>d & outw>d hol9ess4 ,o make me q cle>4--,! int]c\rse is op5 betwe5 my s\l & ,god1 b yet ,i h _h to /ruggle = x4 ,o save me fully4 ,?is is :at ,i want4 ,la/ ,tuesday ,i felt ,i c\ld n d\bt4 ,/amp me1 ,savi\r1 ) ,?y seal1 & keep me ev] ,?9e4 ,i aga9 met ,mrs4 ,g4's class4 ,i feel myself m fit to sit at _! feet & be taught2 b ,o ,?\1 :o us$/ clay to op5 ! eyes ( ! bl9d1 use me = ,?y glory4--,"s ke5 ?+s utt]$ by a relative h w\nd$ me to ! quick4 ,i feel innoc5t1 yet1 ,"l1 h[ little ,i c he>6 ,give me ! love t hope? all ?+s1 endure? all ?+s1 :i* rejoice? n 9 iniquity1 b rejoice? 9 ! tru?4--,kirkby4 ,i am read+ ,flet*]'s ,life4 ,h[ x excites holy desire6 ,my e>ne/ aspiration is aft] p]fect love4 ,:5 %all x once be8 ,come1 ,"l ,jesus1 come quickly4--,we w5t to ,rib/one to see ,mrs4 ,r4 b did n pray at ! close ( ! visit2 my m9d 0 w\nd$ on ?is acc\nt4 ,! ,"l p>don all my (f5ces4--,c\s9 & ,i f\nd x good to p\r out our s\ls be=e ,god1 alone4 ,at fir/ my m9d felt h>d2 b by & by1 ! veil 0 drawn aside1 & ,i enjoy$ a sweet manife/ation ( ! ,"l2--a settl$ peace b no ov]fl[+ joy4 ,my e>ne/ wi% is to be q cle>1 = ,i am m ?an ev] conv9c$ ( ! reality ( ! bless+4 ,! cleans+ p[] ( ,god puts u 9 a capacity to 'gr[ 9 grace1' & live to ! glory ( ,god4--,we walk$ to ,b>r[by1 & took tea ) ,miss ,h4 ,%e is a fri5dly girl1 possess+ ! advantage ( a polite education1 b wants ! ma9 accompli%m5t--vital godl9ess3 %e wept :ile ,i talk$ ) h]4 ,o t x may n pass away z ! morn+ cl\d6 ,on our return we _h a bless$ meet+ ) our ,god4 ,i felt ! p[] to ca/ myself by fai? ^u ! ,"l2 b /ill d n p]ceive ! direct witness ( ! cleans+ blood3 am resolv$ n to give up ! po9t until ,i obta9 my suit4--,i left ,kirkby1--a place s cong5ial to my incl9ations1 seclud$ f sc5es ( noise & excitem5t1--& _h a pleasant j\rney home1 :]e ,i f\nd all well4 ,praise ,god4--,return+ f ! ,"l's h\se1 a beautiful ra9b[ attract$ my att5tion1 & prea*$ a second s]mon to me2 putt+ me 9 m9d ( ! cov5ant :i* ! ,"l _h made ) ,8 p4--,i am aim+ to keep ! prize 9 view4 ,i see l5g?s & bread?s be=e me2 & my he>t1 ?ank ,god1 is b5t to pursue t :i* to me is mo/ desirable1 viz41 hol9ess4 ,b ,i ne$ /rong] fai? to ent] 9 by ! blood ( ,jesus4 ,union ) ,him is sweet4 ,?is makes "o ?ir/ = m4 ,_m temptations assault me1 b ! read+ ( ,flet*]'s ,polemical ,essay on ,*ri/ian ,p]fection has be5 ( advantage to me4 ,i am le>n+ ! me?od ( br++ to ,god ^? evils & besetm5ts1 :i* seem to be ! ma9 h9drances to my progress4 ,i h mu* cause ( humiliation be=e ! ,"l1 & wi% to atta9 t sweet _s ( abasem5t1 :i* n only confesses its unwor?9ess1 b feels will+1 t o!rs %\ld be pref]r$ be=e me4 ,i h ne$ ( vigilance2 my enemy is ready to seize ^u ! lea/ advantage4 ,to ,!e1 ,o ,god1 my s\l looks up4--,a dream1 ,i _h ?is week1 p[]fully impress$ me ) ! necessity ( be+ fai?ful ) our relatives1 & ( liv+ ne> to ,god ourselves4 ,private pray] has be5 pr(itable1 b d n "k t ,i 0 ev] s mu* beset ) peculi> temptation4 ,s9ce ,i h become acqua9t$ ) ! devices ( ! enemy1 h f\nd ano!r err& to ! ,"l4--,sp5t ! =5oon ) "s ( ! fri5ds ( ,god1 & ! poor4 ,on att5d+ "o ( ! wom5's pray]-meet+s1 f9d my "n1 has be5 omitt$1 b believe x is = ! be/4 ',make me little & unkn[n1 ,priz$ & lov$ by ,god alone4' ,la/ night ,i 0 tr\bl$ 9 my sleep1 b x 0 sweetly sugge/$2 ',god is our refuge--a v pres5t help 9 tr\ble4' ,glory be to ,god = ,8 promises2 may ,i hang ^u !m m firmly ?an ev]4 ,to-day my s\l has be5 drawn aft] ,god2 b :5 %all ,i be able to say ) ,mr4 ,wesley1 ',n[ ,i h liv$ a day4'--,f9d pati5ce a grace4 ,i especially ne$1 bo? ) respect to myself1 my *ildr51 my dome/ics1 & ! _w4 ,_h n ! sacr$ ,scriptures decl>$ 'ye h ne$ ( pati5ce1' ,i %\ld be m ready to reason ) ! enemy ?an ,i am4 ,b ! ^w ( ,god is a /rong t[] aga9/ ! assaults ( ! devil2 "h ! righte\s f9d a refuge & a hid+-place4--,:at a poor unpr(itable creature ,i am6 ,"l1 ,i ca/ myself ^u ,!e4 ,save a helpless s\l1 t feels no m]it b 9 ,jesu's aton+ blood4 #ahba4 ,am a%am$ to ackn[l$ge ,i h felt a little impati5ce1 because my h&s ?r\gh /iffness1 occasion$ by cramp1 h refus$ to p]=m _! ord9>y duty4 ,=give me1 ,o my ,god2 nor ev] let me rep9e at any ( ,?y disp5sations to a worm1 load$ ) b5efits z ,i am4 ,i seem a poor piece ( useless lumb]1 b ,?\ be>e/ ) me4 ,let me ev] live to ,!e4--,al?\gh ,i usually sleep well1 la/ night ,i lay awake = "s "t1 b my m$itations 7 sweet2 !y turn$ ^u ,pet]'s advice to ^? :o _h receiv$ l preci\s fai?1 viz42 ',add to y\r fai? virtue1 & to virtue k1 & to k temp]ance1 & to temp]ance ,,pati5ce1' c4 ,i h felt its influ5ce to-day4 ,praise ! ,"l = s div9e an admonition2 my s\l ne$s x4--,! debt ( gratitude ,i owe to ,!e1 ',o ,?\ ,pres]v] ( m51' ,i feel glad to ackn[l$ge1 ?\gh ,i am unable to pay4 ,glory be unto ,!e = ,?y r5ew$ m]cy to a worm4 ,help me to repeat my v[s to ,!e1 :o ha/ graci\sly protract$ my life1 & ?r\gh ano!r seem+ dea? deliv]$ me4 ,let ! babe1 ?y love has giv5 me1 be unres]v$ly d$icat$ to ,?yself4 ,b oh6 h[ %all ,i tell ( ,?y unb\nd$ love to a wor?less creature6 ,my s\l longs to be :olly ,?9e4 ,help my feebl5ess2 let me turn nei!r to ! "r h& nor ! left1 b tea* me all ,?y w4--,i am bless$ ) heal?1 surr\nd$ by fri5ds1 & encompass$ by m]cies4 ,h[ inf9itely poor is my gratitude to ! ,"l1 :5 all ^! are consid]$6 ,h[ is x1 ,"l1 t my affection = ,!e is s cold1 & my fai? 9 ,?y infallibility s weak8 ,quick5 me1 animate my droop+ p[]s1 & let me e mom5t live 9 ,!e4--,i h ! witness )9 me1 b daily feel my own weakness4 ,all my good comes f heav51 & requires con/ant r5ewal4 ,i h fai? 9 ,god1 b ?ir/ = m4 ,i want to be delug$ ) ! love ( ,god4--,a trivial circum/ance has be5 a s\rce ( m5tal ex]cise2 b ?ank ,god1 h _h p[] to keep my tongue4 ,let ! issues ( my he>t be kept by ,!e4 ,,on ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,,napoleon ,,buonap>te1 ,,may #e,,?1 #ahba4 ,he falls6 ,napoleon ,buonap>te is gone3 ,:o conqu]$ ?\s&s1 conqu]$ n[ by "o3 ,8 /r5g? dim9i%$1 & 8 glory fl$2 ,8 k+dom tak51 & 8 hon\r dead4 ,?\gh clad 9 w>like /ate1--)\t comm&2 ,a captive buri$ 9 a =eign l&3 ,oh6 might we hope ! captive n[ is free1 ,escap$ f bondage into lib]ty4 ,9 private ,i h be5 greatly bless$2 b1 oh6 ! s5se ( ignorance ,i feel makes me a%am$3 yet ,i "k n t ,i ev] felt a deep] ?ir/ = all t ,god c give4 ,come1 ,"l1 & diffuse ,?y pres5ce ?r\gh my s\l4 ,i h be5 read+ ,bramwell's ,memoir2 h[ desirable 8 life6 ,h[ enviable 8 dea?6 ,help me1 ,"l1 to foll[ aft]1 & to walk 9 close communion ) ,!e2 t ,i may appreh5d t1 = :i* ,i am appreh5d$ 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus4--,at4 ,/ ,mi*ael's ,*ur* ! ,rev4 ,john ,graham improv$ ! dea? ( ! ,rev4 ,william ,ri*>dson1 :o = half a c5tury has lab\r$ 9 ,york1 & be5 mu* e/eem$ on acc\nt ( 8 m9i/]ial usefulness4 ,he gave a concise acc\nt ( ,mr4 ,r4's lit]>y & spiritual atta9m5ts4 ,8 ,*ri/ian "* 0 excell5t4 ,8 *ief joy 0 9 ,*ri/ crucifi$2 & 8 con/ant pray]1 t he might n live long] ?an he c\ld be useful4 ,8 lab\rs cont9u$ up to 8 la/ illness1 :i* la/$ only a week1 & 8 la/ words 71 ',my pleasures are to come4' ,?us di$ ?is em95t m9i/] ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 ag$ #gf4 ,to me x 0 a season ( especial pr(it2 angels seem$ hov]+ ar\nd4 ,,reflections4 ,return+ seasons bid reflection wake1 ,& o'er ! pa/ a w9d+ passage take3 ,ah6 :at a sc5e ( *ange arre/s ! m9d1 ,)9 ! compass ( five mon?s beh9d6 ,9 _m a home is hu%$ ! voice ( mir?1 ,& sorr[1 z a flood1 o'erfl[s ! e>?4 ,"h "o1 by sad mis=tune foll[$ fa/1 ,9 hopeless indig5ce is plung$ at la/4 ,ano!r1 by disa/] ?r[n aside1 ,has got a crippl$ limb to prop 8 side4 ,!re1 dea? has made a brea*1 & left =lorn ,! wid[$ "m1 & ! babe unborn4 ,"h1 weeps ! fa!r o'er 8 orphan *ild1 ,:o ?9ks x /range1 = =m]ly he smil$3 ,oh6 :o c tell ! sorr[s ( 8 brea/8 ',tis sad exp]i5ce mu/ reveal ! re/4 ,a few days s9ce1 a m\rnful cr[d appe>$1 ,9 sable g>b1 & to ! *ur* repair$2 ,ask y ! reason ( _! measur$ pace1 ,:y sil5t all1 & te>s on e face4 ,alas6 ! ,pa/or's dead1 :o1 fifty ye>s1 ,! ,gospel tid+s s\nd$ 9 _! e>s3-- ,a man ( ,god1 endu$ ) purpose /rong1 ,:o liv$ ! tru? he taught1 & hat$ wrong1 ,full ?irty ye>s1 ! s*ools enjoy$ 8 c>e2 ,! sick1 ! poor1 ! ,missions claim$ a %>e4 ,b n[1 we he> 8 fri5dly voice no m2 ,8 c\rse is f9i%$1 & ! fight is o'er4 ,come1 he> ! acc5ts ( 8 fly+ lips1 ,my pleasures are to come2--! curta9 slips1 ,& hides :at foll[s f our curi\s eyes3 ,en\gh6 he jo9s ! *orus ( ! skies4 ,ano!r sc5e1 & melan*oly too2 ,! bridegroom wid[$1 ere he pleasure knew2 ,8 hopes ( bliss _h so>$ unduly high1 ,& little dreamt he !re 0 dang] nigh2 ,b see6 ! ?roes ( dea? 8 bride arre/1 ,! b>b$ arr[ /rikes h] beat+ brea/3 ,8 h&s h t\*$ ! cup1 b ere he sips1 ,! w9e is hurri$ f 8 burn+ lips4 ,su* are ! sorr[s :i* ar\nd ,i f9d1 ,div]se1 & manifold z human k9d4 ,let ^! suffice my gratitude to fire1 ,& ) unfeign$ praise my tongue inspire4 ,t ,i1 s undes]v+1 /ill possess ,unnumb]'d m]cies1 ?r\gh r$eem+ grace4 ,let ea* vicissitude my s\l prep>e1 ,by pati5ce "h1 = endless glory !re2 ,:]e sickness ceases1 & :]e sorr[s end1 ,:]e no mis=tune c ! bliss susp5d2 ,:]e dea? is bani%$1 = ! curse is o'er1 ,& love unrivall'd reigns = ev]more4 ,i h great] pleasure 9 visit+ ! sick1 & ! poor1 ?an 9 visit+ ^? :o1 z f> z ?is _w is conc]n$1 are bett] circum/anc$2 9 ! =m] case1 my object is simply to d or get good1 b 9 ! latt]1 ,i f9d x is 9 dang] ( be+ mix$ ) o!r motives4 ,*ri/ is ! end z well z ! s\rce ( my happ9ess4 ,oh6 to be sav$ 9 e ^w & ?\ght1 ?is is :at my s\l covets4 ,i feel ,i am gett+ firm] hold ( ,*ri/4--,i h be5 tempt$ to a _s ( fretfulness & ill-nature2 praise ! ,"l = ! victory4 ,i 0 enabl$ to come to him = help1 & p[]2 & by ejaculatory pray]1 f\nd sweet access to ! ,?rone4 ,i c say x is my *ief /udy to live to please ,god1 & to obta9 a complete victory ov] myself1 :i* ,i f9d is no small conque/4--,! prospect ( my *ildr5's return f s*ool has suppli$ me ) ano!r subject ( pray]4 ,i h ask$ = pati5ce1 p]sev]ance1 & firmness to guide !m aright4 ,by simply com+ to ! ,"l1 ,i obta9 help2 & am sure1 t :ile ,i cont9ue to act fai? 9 ,8 p[]1 ,i %all be help$4 ,!n help ,?y s]vant ev]more to tru/ 9 ,!e4--,_h purpos$ go+ to ! ,pray]-meet+1 b 0 prev5t$2 ,i believe ,provid5ce guid$ me1 & appo9t$ me ano!r "w4 ,9 talk+ to my family at home1 ,i felt great lib]ty2 ! ,"l loos5$ my tongue4 ,oh6 t ! se$ may spr+ up1 & be> fruit4 ,i endeav\r to p\r out all my grievances be=e ! ,"l4 ,i "k t ,he he>s my pray]1 & am resolv$ to tell ,him ! wor/ ( myself1 z f> z ,8 grace enables me to discov] x4 ,i am decid$ly resolv$ to be ! ,"l's1 = ,i c obta9 solid happ9ess f no o!r s\rce2 b ! "n ( ,jesus is a cordial to my s\l4 ,m fai?1 & m love1 is all ,i want4--,h[ frail ,i am6 ,conv]s+ ) a fri5d z ,i return$ f ! h\se ( ,god1 ,i utt]$ an unnecess>y ^w1 & imm$iately felt t ,i _h griev$ ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,z soon z an opportunity ( retir+ pres5t$ itself1 ,i p\r$ out my s\l be=e ! ,"l1 a%am$ t ,i %\ld s (t5 (f5d ,him1 :om ,i desire to love & obey above all ?+s4--,9 my class ,i pr(ess$ ! enjoym5t ( ! sanctify+ influ5ces ( ! ,holy ,_s2 &1 bless$ be ,god1 ?\gh ,i hold ! bless+ feebly1 ,i d hold x2 b ! cry ( my s\l is1 fill me ) all ! life ( ,god4 ,! foll[+ l9es1 writt5 aft] read+ a piece 9 fav\r ( snuff & tobacco1 w be edify+ to smok]s4 ,:ile "s pref] ! quid1 & "s ! smell2 ,!re are :o ?9k t smoke do? bo? excel1 ,i smile to see ^! vot>ies s misl$1 ,& ?9k _! sev]al ta/es are idly br$4 ,p]*ance "o1 "h & !re1 may virtue f9d1 ,9 'bacco' fumes1 :5 mu* p]plex$ ) w9d4 ,b sure1 ! human frame1 frail z x is1 ,is n s subject to ! qualms z ?is2 ,?ree times a day to ne$ ! burn+ h]b1 ,to cure ! evils :i* s mu* di/urb4 ',tis s9ce ! fall1 an idol demon tries1 ,by sophisms deep1 to close ! wise man's eyes4 ,:ile mus+ on ! sacr$ ^w1 !y plead ,! bless+ ( ! m9d compos+ we$2 ,?us jo9 _! idol ) ,div9ity1 ,^: m&ate is1 ,no o!r ,god b ,me4 ,b he> !m plead _! fail+ cause aga92 ,x recreates ! p[]s to "w ama91 ,dispels ! phlegm1 :i* on ! /oma* lay1 ,& fits u = ! lab\rs ( ! day4 ,b w n pray]1 & read+ recreate1 ,mu* m ?an smok+ ?us 9 idle /ate8 ,& ex]cise effect m la/+ good1 ,if !y compla9 ( undige/$ food ,i ,o be resolv$1 ye smok+ s9n]s1 d ,=sake y\r idol1 & y\r ,god pursue3 ,d5y y\rselves1 & nobly be> ! cross1 ,e/eem+ all = ,*ri/ b dung & dross4 ,at ! ,pray]-meet+ ,mr4 ,sp5ce gave a %ort address on ! subject ( entire sanctification3 my fai? 0 s mu* enc\rag$1 ,i c\ld sc>cely refra9 f speak+ al\d2 & :ile on my knees ,i exclaim$1 _m times1 be=e ! ,"l1 ',i w believe' ,on my way home ! words 7 appli$1 ',n[ ye are clean ?r\gh ! ^w :i* ,i h spok5 unto y'--,at ! ,acomb lovefea/1 ,i confess$ t ,i c\ld n[ give ,god all my he>t4 ,i did n feel any d\bt 9 s do+1 al?\gh ! enemy sugge/$1 'y are deceiv$' ,"l1 if ,i am deceiv$1 speak = ,?yself2 = ,i am det]m9$ to be ,?9e4 ,"h1 9 ,?y pres5ce1 ,i humbly besee* ,!e to set ! seal ^u ,?y own "w4 ,i d>e believe4 ,let ! transaction be ratifi$ 9 heav54 ,i am set ap>t = ,!e4 ,newton4 ,hav+ a little "t to wait = ! coa*1 ,i saunt]$ into ! *ur*y>d4 ,! solemnity ( ! place sugge/$ ! foll[+ l9es1 :ile ,i /ood & pond]$4 ,/ill solit>y place6 ,"h sil5ce reigns2 ,"h griefs are hu%$2 none ev] "h compla9s4 ,"h no ambition agitates mank9d1 ,)9 ! limits ( a vault conf9$1 ,ar\nd ! :isp'r+ breeze1 impressive1 /eals1 ,& on my li/5+ s\l in/ruction seals4 ,! solemn tru? s9ks deep )9 my brea/2 ,i1 mortal n[1 immortal soon1 %all re/4 ,end$ my j\rney1 ) its hopes & fe>s1 ,my deep solicitudes1 & sil5t te>s4 ,"u "s neighb\r+ sod1 my bones w lie1 ,& wait ! summons f ! flam+ sky3 ,:5 ocean1 trembl+ 9 its br9y b$1 ,& e>?1 upheav+1 %all re/ore h] dead4 ,r\s$ by ! voice1 t heav5 & e>? %all %ake1 ,at t mom5t\s p]iod1 ,i mu/ wake1 ,among my fell[ clay unkn[n be=e1-- ,mu/ wake ) horror1 or ) joy adore4 ,oh1 wondr\s sc5e6 mo/ awful6 mo/ augu/6 ,?' ev5t is c]ta91 & ! purpose j4 ,! ,judge's eye w pi]ce ! inmo/ s\l1 ,ea* hidd5 record ( ! pa/ unroll2 ,no ^w1 no motive1 no m9ut] ?\ght ,escape exposure1 into judgm5t br\ght4 ,oh6 t ^! solemn tru?s1 ) equal =ce1 ,might rule my s\l1 ?r\gh\t its e>?ly c\rse2 ,t e sc5e1 & e h\r1 may give ,true witness !n1 to ,god alone ,i live6 ,s ) ! sa9ts 9 glory %all ,i rise1 ,to he> ! welcome plaudit f ! skies1 ,well done4 ,unb\nd$ love6 no tongue c tell ,:at transports !n my ravi%$ he>t %all swell4 ,a worm6 an atom6 less ?an no?+ ,i6 ,by love r$eem$ f dea?1 & rais$ on high4 ,wrote a few l9es to ,miss ,b4 conc]n+ h] s\l's welf>e4 ,%e is v oblig+1 b de/itute ( ! '"o ?+ ne$ful4'--,call$ ^u ,mrs4 ,f>r>--we pray$ toge!r4 ,h[ mu* happi] %\ld we live if ! "t1 s (t5 wa/$ 9 *it-*at1 7 occupi$ 9 pray]4 ,help me1 ,o ,god1 aga9/ ?is s\l-robb+ evil4 ,i f\nd x pr(itable4--,! ,"l is tea*+ me ! happy lesson ( tell+ all my he>t to ,him4 ,) respect to dome/ic grievances1 ,i d n feel !m to be s great a burd5 z =m]ly4 ,my consci5ce feels t5d]1 & ?\gh n always equally happy1 ,i f9d pray] sweet1 & ! ,bible my delightful /udy4 ,?is is ,?y do+1 to ,!e be all ! praise4--,pass+ a p]son1 :o 0 /&+ at 8 own door1 ,i felt prompt$ to speak to him ab\t 8 s\l4 ,i turn$ back1 & did s1 invit+ him to g to ! ,*apel3 b1 alas6 ,i seem$ z "o t told an idle tale4--,i took tea ) ,mr4 ,t4 ,:ile he 0 at pray]1 my s\l 0 s lift$ up1 ,i c\ld sc>cely help express+ my feel+s al\d4 ,:at a heav51 is ! enjoym5t ( ,god6 ,pray] is ! life ( my s\l1 & ! delight ( my he>t2 yet ,i h to m\rn ov] my weakness 9 cons5t+ to conv]sation1 :i* "s may ?9k v prop]2 b :i* does n t5d to edification4 ,i want to d all = et]nity4--,we receiv$ a turkey & a basket ( fruit f a fri5d4 ,i note ?is1 z x w\ld appe>1 ! ,"l is resolv$1 we %all lose no?+ by ent]ta9+ 8 s]vants2--a prea*] ) 8 wife & ?ree *ildr51 /rang]s to u1 hav+ come1 z !y _h no o!r place ( refuge1 to /ay ) u till ,monday4 ',be n =getful to ent]ta9 /rang]s1 = "s h ent]ta9$ angels unaw>es4'--,a v /ormy day2 b :]e ,?y pres5ce is h[ delightfully calm4 ,! ,"l does n leave me not)/&+ all my fail+s4 ,i am no?+2 ,i c d no?+2 yet1 ?ank ,god1 ,he has turn$ ! b5t ( my he>t to 8 te/imonies1 & x is ! delight ( my s\l to obey ,him4--,on my return f ! ,"l's h\se1 ,i d$icat$ myself afre% to ,god2 fully surr5d]+ my s\l & body1 my "t & tal5ts1 to ,8 s]vice4 ,prais$ be ,8 "n1 ,he ratifies ! surr5d] 'on ! mean alt> ( my he>t4' ,i feel ! inw>d witness1 ',ye are clean ?r\gh ! ^w :i* ,i h spok5 unto y4' ,o ,god1 ,i accept ,!e z my ,sanctifi]1 my ,sov]eign1 to gov]n & direct4--,i h _m m]cies to record1 among :i* heal? is n ! lea/2 b ( high] value ?an t1 are ! fav\r & ! peace ( ,god4 ,lately ,i h exp]i5c$ solid happ9ess 9 ,*ri/1 sweet access to ! ?rone1 & delight 9 ! ways ( ,god4 ,9 visit+ ! poor1 & also 9 act+ 9 ! capacity ( pray]-lead]1 ,i h _h "s d\bts :e!r ,i 0 9 ! pa? ( duty4 ,i laid ! matt] be=e ,god1 will+ to "w = ,him1 or to be laid aside = ,him4 ,on op5+ my bible1 j be=e ,i retir$ to re/1 my att5tion 0 arre/$ by ^! words1 ',!y %all n lab\r 9 va91 nor br+ =? = tr\ble2 = !y are ! se$ ( ! bless$ ( ! ,"l1 & _! (fspr+ ) !m4 ,& x %all come to pass1 t be=e !y call1 ,i w answ]2 & :iles !y are yet speak+1 ,i w he>4' ,bless$ promises6 ,!y appe>$ v applicable4--,by ! midnight mail1 my husb& 0 unexpect$ly call$ f home1 on v prec>i\s bus9ess4 ,may he be pres]v$ f ev]y?+ injuri\s to 8 s\l1 h[ev] unfav\rable to 8 heal?4 ,a day ( mu* excitem5t1 sc>cely "t = reflection2 b 9 private x 0 sweet to p\r out my s\l be=e ,god4 ,i am desir\s to "k h[ my husb& proce$s ) ! bus9ess he has 9 h&4 ,to "k t ! ,"l keeps him1 & gives him heal?1 w\ld be a cause ( ?anksgiv+4 ,he is 9 ,?y h&s1 ,?\ ,pres]v] ( m51 save him fully4 ,= "s weeks pa/1 ,i h be5 reckon+ myself 'dead inde$ unto s92' b ! la/ few days my *ildr5 h be5 v noisy2 ,i h ?us be5 "u ! necessity ( speak+ l\d1 & sometimes felt a little ha/y 9 reprov+ !m4 ,?is has awak5$ d\bts ( ! reality ( my exp]i5ce4 ,unfold to me1 ,o ,"l1 ,?y tru?1 = to ! te/ ( ,?y ^w1 w\ld ,i subject my life & practice4 ,,vii4 ,,temple ,,s]vice4 ,,hol9ess ,,become? ,,?9e ,,h\se1 ,o ,,"l1 ,,= ,,ev]4--,ps1 xciii4 #e4 ,be ye clean t be> ! vessels ( ! ,"l4 ,! comm& appli$ n only to ! prie/1 :o s]v$ at ! alt>1 b to ! ,levite1 to :om ! *>ge ( ! sacr$ vessels 0 especially committ$4 ,! inf]5ce is1 t ! humble/ (fic] 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ ought to possess1 above e o!r1 ?is ess5tial qualification1 hol9ess4 ,purity is ! secret ( ! ,*ur*'s p[]4 ,weal?1 tal5t1 le>n+1 hon\r1 are b in/rum5ts1 :i* %e c use2 b ?is is h] life1 because x is ! brea? ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 giv+ vitality to h] memb]s1 & en]gy to h] action4 ,god c use ! weak ?+s1 & ! fooli%1 & ?+s t are despis$1 yea1 & ?+s t are n2 b he _c use ! ?+s t are unclean1 unless x be = purposes ( %ame & di%on\r4 ,:5 w ! ,*ur* le>n ?is lesson8 ,& :5 w %e adopt ! div9e /&>d ( judgm5t1 & e/imate m5 accord+ to _! resemblance to ,*ri/8 ,s soon z %e %akes h]self f ! du/1 %e %all g =? 9 ! maje/y ( h] /r5g?1 & become ! admiration ( ! e>?4 ,mrs4 ,ly? aim$ at purity4 ,%e _h pass$ ! region ( %ad[s1 & ent]$ ! uncl\d$ light ( ! ,div9e pres5ce2 b t v light1 by its int5sity1 only reveal$ m di/9ctly ! s9fulness ( h] nature2 & creat$ an absorb+ desire aft] p]fect hol9ess3 %e 0 ?us prep>$ by ,god = ! s]vice ( ,8 temple4 #ahbb4--;,9 our private b&-meet+1 ,mrs4 ,w4 m5tion$ a s+ul> circum/ance4 ,be+ re/less dur+ ! night1 & tr\bl$ ) w&]+ ( ?\ght1 %e entreat$ ! ,"l to impress ^u h] m9d t :i* might be pr(itable4 ,%e fell asleep1 & 9 a little "t awoke ) ! words1 ',! ,"l gave1 & ! ,"l ha? tak5 away2 bless$ be ! "n ( ! ,"l4' ,sleep+ a second "t1 %e awoke1 ) ',preci\s 9 ! sight ( ! ,"l1 is ! dea? ( 8 sa9ts4' ,a ?ird "t %e slept1 & ! words1 sugge/$ on awak+1 7 ',bless$ are ! dead :i* die 9 ! ,"l f h5ce=?3 yea1 sai? ! ,_s1 = !y re/ f _! lab\rs1 & _! works d foll[ !m4' ,a f\r? "t %e awoke1 & ! passage pres5t$ to h] m9d 01 ',! end ( all ?+s is at h&2 be ye !re=e sob] & wat* unto pray]4'--,my s\l is especially excit$ to pray]4 ,9 myself ,i see no good ?+1 b _m imp]fections1 & mu* weakness2 yet ,i hang ^u ! ,"l ,jesus1 & ?ir/ = a deep] baptism ( ! ,_s4 ,a few l9es f ,c\s9 ,e4 in=m me1 t de> ,ann1 giv5 up by h] m$ical att5dants1 is rejoic+ 9 ! prospect ( et]nal glory4 ,praise ! ,"l4 ,?\gh sep>ation is pa9ful1 we _c b rejoice 9 ! bless$ anticipation ( see+ ea* o!r aga94 ,x only rema9s = me to be fai?ful4--,my pati5ce has be5 ex]cis$ by "o ( my *ildr54 ,i sc>cely "k h[ to act1 s z nei!r to be too indulg5t1 nor too sev]e4 ,o ,?\1 :o ha/ promis$1 t crook$ ?+s %all be made /raight1 & ! r\gh1 places pla91 give e> to my supplication1 & 9 ?is matt] po9t out ! pa? ( duty1 t at ! la/1 ,i may pres5t my :ole family & say1 ',none t ,?\ gave/ me are lo/4'--,:ile engag$ 9 pray]1 my s\l 0 bless$ 9 su* a mann]1 t = "s "t ,i c\ld say no?+ b ,glory1 ,glory4 ,surely ?is 0 a =eta/e ( ! bliss1 :i* %all nev] end4--,a lett] in=m$ me t c\s9 ,ann wi%$ to see me2 s on ! foll[+ morn+1 putt+ myself "u ! protection ( ,god1 :o k9dly took c>e ( me1 ,i left home4 ,:ile travell+ ! _s ( pray] on behalf ( ^?1 :om ,i _h left beh9d1 0 sweetly p\r$ ^u me4 ,i f\nd my de> c\s9 suff]+ f great debility2 b liv+ by fai? on ! ,son ( ,god4 ,a sweet smile play$ ^u h] face1 l ! s(t radiance ( ! sett+ sun4 ,grace %one 9 e feature ( h] fad$1 b /ill lovely c\nt5ance4 ,%e tells me1 x is twelve ye>s next ,octob]1 s9ce ! ,"l spoke peace to h] s\l4 ,we 7 kneel+ 9 company ) h] si/]1 & ! s]vant1 by h] b$side4 ,i 0 engag$ 9 pray] at ! "t1 & = ?is reason %e wi%$ p>ticul>ly to see me4 ,surely ?is is ! m>k :]eby ! _w kn[e? u1 'because we love "o ano!r4'--,z ,i 0 di/ribut+ tracts1 my he>t 0 pa9$ )9 me to see h[ _m 7 employ$ on ! ,sabba? morn2 & on my return1 ,i wept to ?9k t1 9 ! face ( day1 !y c\ld break a well-kn[n comm& ( ,god4 ,"l1 op5 _! eyes t !y may see4 ,! _s ( my ,ann has tak5 its flight to ! p>adise ( ,god1 leav+ _m sorr[+ fri5ds4 ,our loss is h] ga92 b nature feels4--,9 company ) ,mrs4 ,r4 ,i collect$ = ! ,missions4 ,we 7 we>i$2 b :5 ,i recollect1 h[ mu* m we>isome ! "w ( ! ,mission>y1 *e]fully w ,i und]take ?is lab\r ( love2 ) a view to alleviate _! toil1 & facilitate _! success4 ,i propos$ to ,mrs4 ,w4 & ,mrs4 ,r4 to meet me at ! ?rone ( grace1 e morn+ ! foll[+ week1 to pray = ! outp\r+ ( ! ,holy ,_s3 we all agre$4 ,! appo9t$ h\r has be5 bless$ to me2 ,i h dwelt "u ! %ad[ ( ! ,almighty1 & felt su* a resignation to ! w ( ,god1 z ,i nev] felt be=e4--,i 0 provid5tially l$ to see ,miss ,b4 ,9 our y\ng] days we 7 companions2 b 9 ! c\rse ( "t we h become e/rang$4 ,%e is n[ on ! b$ ( affliction1 & wept :ile "m & ,i pray$4 ,%e reque/$ me to g aga92 if ,i c be useful to h]1 ,o ,"l1 op5 ! way1 & speak by me4 --,i w5t to see a man walk ^u ! riv]1 :i* occasion$ ! foll[+ l9es3-- ,i saw ! man1 ) wondr\s skill4 ,walk on ! yield+ /ream at w1 ,su/a9$ by human art3 ,n s did ,pet]1 :5 to ,!e ,he /epp$ ^u ! roll+ sea2 ,fai? did ! p[] imp>t4 ,s :ile on life's tempe/u\s wave1 ,) timid /eps ,i walk2 ,o6 save1 ,rea* out ,?y h& to me3 ,my c\rage swells1 :ile ,?\ art ne>1 ,nor foe nor accid5t ,i fe>1 ,?\gh wild ! bill[s be4 ,b safely on ?r\gh p]il glide1 ,support$ on ! dang]\s tide1 ,by look+ unto ,!e3 ,impossibilities %all yield1 ,& fai? a solid pa?way build4 ,across ! /ormy sea4 ,i h _h "s family ex]cises2--sc>ce wor? a ?\ght1 if ,i _h m ( ! m9d ( ,*ri/2 yet ,i h be5 able to tell my c>e to ,god1 & at 8 foot/ool1 ,i h got rid ( my burd54 ,i enjoy ! s\l's calm sun%9e4--,:5 ,i consid] h[ "t slips away1 & h[ little ,i effect = my own improvem5t1 & t ( o!rs1 ,i am a%am$4 ,my life appe>s s blott$1 ,i c only say1 ',god be m]ciful to me a s9n]2' b praise ,god1 ,i c rely ) great] confid5ce ?an =m]ly ^u 8 promises4 ,i "k ,i am 8 *ild1 & my happ9ess is 9 do+ ! w ( my ,fa!r4--,mrs4 ,taft is ) u4 ,o t ! disappo9tm5t %e has met )1 7! refusal ( ! *apel17 may turn out r to ! fur!rance ( ! ,gospel1 & m especially = ! b5efit ( my family4--,i und]/& %e spoke 9 ! s*ool-room ) en]gy & p[]2 & at ! pray]-meet+ :i* foll[$1 my ,eliza 0 re/or$ to ! fav\r ( ,god4 ,?us ! ,"l out ( seem+ evil has br\ght good to my *ild4--,! "o ?+ is daily ! object ( my desires & ef=ts4 ,i want m cle>ly to exhibit ! fruits ( righte\sness 9 my ord9>y conv]sation4 ,be+ naturally ( a ha/y temp]am5t1 ,i ne$ con/antly to be baptiz$ ) ! meek1 & l[ly _s ( ,jesus4 ,grant me1 ,o ,"l1 my he>t's desire4 ,i d feel ,?y sanctify+ pres5ce1 b ,o h[ ,i long = m4--,! ,"l is work+ among/ ! *ildr54 ,my ,ri*>d1 at ! new ,s*ool ve/ry1 felt ! draw+s ( ! ,_s2 & ,william1 ,i am told1 cri$ out al\d4 ,o t ^! e>ly impressions may come to maturity4 ,my s\l1 praise ! ,"l = ^! beg9n+s4 ,h[ %all ,i be/ fo/] ^! t5d] plants3 ,"l1 tea* me to *]i% ! good1 & to correct ! errors ( y\?ful feel+4 ,my fa!r & "m h ent]$ ! h\se we h built = !m adjo9+ our own4 ,we _h a pray]-meet+ on ! occasion1 :i* 0 a bless$ season to my s\l4 #ahbc4--;,= ! la/ "t1 ,i visit$ ,jane ,s4 ,%e 0 sc>cely recollect$2 b aft] a little "t %e reque/$ me to pray4 ,%e seem$ v mu* 9 e>ne/4 ,i endeav\r$ to po9t h] to ,jesus4 ,= a mom5t %e reviv$2 b 9 ! night %e di$4 ,s 9 "o %ort week1 two are gone out ( my husb&'s class4--,?is morn+ ,i felt great p[] 9 pray]1 & an ard5t desire = full deliv]ance f e besetm5t4 ,9 ?is _s ,i ent]$ into my family1 resolv+ to wat* ) all dilig5ce2 b alas6 imp]fection is /amp$ ^u all ,i d1--s _m w&]+s1 useless words1 & deviations f ! p]fect law ( ,god1 t1 7 x n = ! blood ( ,jesus1 all hope ( heav5 w\ld be exclud$4 ,yet 9 private ,i _h sweet communion ) ,god4 ,i h d]iv$ pr(it f ! p]usal ( ,lady ,maxwell's ,j\rnal4 ,"s po9ts ( h] exp]i5ce correspond ) my own3 ?is enc\rages me4 ,no?+ seems s desirable1 no?+ s amiable1 z mom5t>y liv+ to ,god4--,mr4 ,mc,kitrick br\ght me ,mrs4 ,k+'s class-pap]1 reque/+ me to take *>ge ( ! class until %e recov]$4 ,i dur/ n refuse x1 al?\gh ,i felt my inability v great4 ,my m5tal /ruggles s9ce h be5 _m4 ,x is sugge/$ ,i am influ5c$ by pride2 t ,i imag9e ,i c d bett] ?an ano!r2 only by ca/+ myself ^u ,god1 & resolv+ to leave myself 9 ,8 h&s1 ,i f9d help4 ,o t ,i 7 satisfi$1 ,i am call$ to ?is "w6 ,by any means discov] ?is to me1 & fit me by ,?y grace2 !n gladly w ,i be sp5t = ,!e1 :o gave/ ,?yself an (f]+ = me4--,i w5t 9 mu* fe> to meet ,mrs4 ,k's little flock1 among :om ,i felt lib]ty2 b aft]w>d1 my uneasy /ate ( m9d return$4 ,o ,god1 s9ce all ?+s are possible to ,!e1 subdue my he>t2 let all )9 & all )\t submit to ,?y sov]eign sway4 ,"o ( ! memb]s reque/$ me to read ! la/ *apt] ( ! fir/ ,epi/le ( ,pet]1 :i* ,i h done sev]al times1 & f\nd x sweet4 ,z ,mrs4 ,k4 nev] recov]$1 & inde$ di$ %ortly aft]1 ,mrs4 ,ly?'s appo9tm5t to ! (fice ( lead] 0 confirm$2 an arrangem5t1 :i*1 not)/&+ h] deep s5se ( h] own insuffici5cy1 met ) ! cordial approbation ( ! class4 ,"o ( ! olde/ memb]s1 :o 0 pres5t on ! occasion ( h] fir/ meet+ !m1 says1 ,i well recollect1 ) :at pr(\nd humility1 & ) :at fe> & trembl+1 %e und]took ! (fice ( class-lead]4 ,:ile %e 0 confess+ to u1 t %e felt utt]ly unwor?y1 & unfit = su* a responsibility1 my he>t rejoic$1 t we 7 privileg$ ) ! appo9tm5t ( "o1 possess$ ( s _m excell5cies4 ,%e said1 if ! ,"l _h any?+ = h] to d1 %e dur/ n refuse2 t ,he _h (t5 employ$ v weak in/rum5ts to c>ry on ,8 "w2 & add$1 ,oh6 t ,he may use me = ,8 glory6 ,fri5ds1 y mu/ pray t ! ,"l may give me a d\ble portion ( ,8 _s1 = ,i feel my own helplessness4 ,!n1 on h] knees1 %e p\r$ out h] s\l to ,god ) great e>ne/ness1 t ,he w\ld fully qualify h] = ! "w :i* _h be5 impos$ ^u h]4 ,h] own conviction ( duty 0 h[ev] n s easily atta9$1 & sev]al entries occur l ! foll[+3-- ,i aga9 met ,mrs4 ,k's class1 & f\nd x v pr(itable to my own s\l3 yet ,i am n q satisfi$ ,i am "r4 ,o make x fully kn[n1 &1 if ?is is ! pa? ( duty1 cr[n my feeble ef=ts4--,none b ! true ,*ri/ian kn[s ! sweets ( communion ) ! ,fa!r1 & ! ,son1 ?r\gh ! bless$ ,_s4 ',!m t hon\r me ,i w hon\r1 came sweetly to my m9d ye/]day2 by :i* ,i 0 l$ to see1 if ,i fai?fully walk 9 ,8 comm&m5ts1 ,he w hon\r me ) ,8 pres5ce1 & clo! me ) ,8 free ,_s4 ,:ile p\r+ out my s\l 9 secret1 ! ne>ness ,i felt to ,jesus is bett] felt ?an express$2--unusual p[] to give my all to ,him )\t any res]ve1 z f> z ,i c judge ( myself4 ,is ?is ! "w ( entire sanctification8 ,set to ,?y seal1 ,o my ,god1 let ! enemy no m rob me ( ?is jewel2 b be> directly to my he>t1 ! witness ( ,?y love4--,i h _h _m visits f above1 b n )\t int]ruptions4 ,! use ( m words ?an necess>y has1 on reflection1 occasion$ feel+s ( pa94 ,oh6 :5 w all my p[]s be br\ght into captivity to ! ob$i5ce ( ,*ri/4--,my w$d+ day6 ,sev5te5 ye>s ,i h worn ! silk5-*a92 dur+ ! la/1 ,i h enjoy$ m ( ! life & p[] ( ,god1 & n[ ! sacr$ flame burns brightly on my he>t4 ,) respect to my m>riage1 ,i believe x 0 solemniz$ 9 ! fe> ( ,god2 & an increas+ union exi/s betwe5 me & my de> companion4 ,we h _m a bless$ int]view ) ,god1 :5 %ut 9 f all beside4 ,oh ! goodness ( ,god to me6 ,8 m]cies h f> exce$$ my trials1 & ev5 out ( my sev]al sorr[s ,he has br\ght my greate/ bless+s4--,at ,mrs4 ,k4's class ! ,"l graci\sly su/a9$ me ) ,8 pres5ce2 my d\bts respect+ ?is "w seem n[ to disp]se1 & unless ,i am deceiv+ myself1 ,i am 9 ! way ( provid5ce4 ,i inquir$ ( "o ( ! fri5ds1 if any "t 0 fix$ to pray = ! revival ( ! "w ( ,god1 & am told1 e ,friday--fa/+2 h\rs ( pray]2 six1 n9e1 & twelve 9 ! morn+1 & ?ree & six 9 ! aft]noon4 ,by ! help ( ,god1 ,i am resolv$ to jo9 !m4 ,! ,"l is bless$ly )1 me ?is ev5+4 ,,to ,,my ,,hon\r$ ,,fa!r ,,ent]+ ,,on ,,8 ,,eighty-,,eigh? ,,ye>4 ,b5d+ ) ! weight ( ye>s1 ,see ! ho>y head$ sa9t1 ,rise above torm5t+ fe>s2 ,suff]1 b )\t compla9t1 ,ready1 z a %ock ( corn1 ,= ! ,p>adise above2 ,gold5 fruits 8 age adorn1-- ,fruits ( hol9ess1 & love4 ,?\gh ! outw>d man decay1 ,inw>d /r5g? is daily giv52 ,no?+ c 8 s\l dismay1 ,succ\r$ by ! ,god ( heav54 ,he1 ! wise man's laurel1 we>s2 ,9 ! pa? ( wisdom f\nd1 ,lo6 8 ho>y head appe>s ,) une>?ly glory cr[n$4 ,borne on "t's untir+ w+1 ,homew>d fa/ 8 _s flies2 ,n[ ! city ( ! ,k+1 ,flames ^u 8 long+ eyes4 ,bright]1 z ! cl\ds rec$e1 ,blaze its walls ( spotless :ite2 ,deep]1 f ! ?rone proce$1 ,dazzl+ floods ( pur] light4 ,e bir?day1 ne>] hies ,t unkn[n b welcome h\r2 ,:5 ! sa9t 9 triumph cries1 ,i1 ?r\gh ,*ri/1 am conqu]or4 ,i w5t1 by reque/1 to visit a p]son :o has long be5 conf9$ to h] b$4 ,%e kn[s some?+ ( ,god2 b ah6 h[ slight is ! k ( ev51 pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians6 ,aft] read+1 & conv]s+ ) h]1 ,i propos$ pray]2 b ! ma/] ( ! h\se sat /ill4 ,:5 we arose f our knees1 ,i spoke freely & pla9ly to him ( 8 s9ful condition4 ,o my ,god1 if ,i 0 mov$ by ,!e1 fa/5 conviction ^u 8 consci5ce4--,i accompani$ ,mrs4 ,k4 to collect = ! ,clo?+ ,society1 & :ile our b5evol5t fri5ds be/[$ ^u u ! mammon ( unrighte\sness1 ! ,"l bless$ me ) ! true ri*es4--,hav+ tak5 a little cold1 ,i 0 dull ( he>+1 & afraid t ,i %\ld n be able to he> ! memb]s ( my class 9 ! ev5+4 ,i betook myself to pray]1 & ! ,"l graci\sly he>d1 & s f> re/or$ me1 t ,i _h no difficulty4 ,my s\l 0 l wax be=e ! sun1 :ile ,jesus %one ^u x4--,my m9d has be5 reprov$ = reprov+4 ,"l1 ,i ?ank ,!e = ,?y secret admonitions2 =give1 & take all my p[]s "u ,?y control4 ,i call$ to see ,mr4 ,sp5ce2 8 natural p[]s decl9e1 b heav5 beams on 8 c\nt5ance4 ,he said1 :ile he 0 putt+ on 8 neckclo?1 9 ! morn+1 he _h be5 /ruck ) ! meagre & gha/ly appe>ance he pres5t$ 9 ! glass2 b ! sweet s]5ity ( 8 s\l compell$ him to exclaim1 ',welcome old man6 welcome decl9+ age6 welcome dea?6'--,i spoke at ! ,pray] ,lead]s' lovefea/1 b ! enemy tr\bl$ me mu* aft]w>d3 h[ev]1 ?is mu* ,i w affirm--to ! grace ( ,god ,i owe my all4 ,i feel decid$ 9 my *oice1 hate s91 h ! witness t ,i am a *ild ( ,god1 & enjoy ! com=ts ( ! ,holy ,gho/2 b ! cle> evid5ce ( entire sanctification ,i d n hold1 ?\gh ,i believe ,i h _m times receiv$ x1 & = a %ort "t held x2 b1 = want ( boldly confess+ ! fai?1 h lo/ ! bless$ pe>l4 ,o = ! baptismal flame4 ,9 ! summ] ( ?is ye> %e visit$ ! ,rev4 ,john ,nelson1 !n /ation$ 9 ,%effield1 to :om %e 0 mu* atta*$4 ,z 0 h] con/ant practice1 :5 releas$ f ! claims ( dome/ic duty1 %e avail$ h]self ( e opportunity ( do+1 & gett+ good4 ,e day 0 a sabba? ( religi\s privilege4 ,! *ur*1 & ! *apel1 ! social p>ty & ! sick b$1 7 made subs]vi5t to purposes ( spiritual improvem5t4 ,) ref]5ce to a p>ty ( fri5ds1 :o 7 invit$ to meet h]1 %e says1 ',aft] tea ! females be+ left alone1 ea* ( u pray$2 ?is is a bless$ way to cut (f religi\s *it-*at4' ,qu>t]ly ,fa/4 ,mr4 ,haswell call$ ^u me to pray1 :5 ! ,"l 0 pleas$ to humble me2 = :i* ,i w\ld be truly ?ankful4 ,make me will+ any way1 only let my s\l be br\ght into con=mity ) ,?y w2--will+ to be little1 t ,?\ alone maye/ be exalt$4 ,my nature is n will+ to be ?\ght little4 ,dur+ ! day ,i felt a humble dep5dance ^u ,jesus4 ,,on ,,obs]v+ ,a ,,sign ,,9 ,,%effield ,,word$1 ,,bride ,,cakes ,,& ,,fun]al ,,biscuits4 ,ah6 is ! bridal-day1 ,:5 fe/ive pleasures meet1 ,! presage1 b ( swift decay1 ,)9 ! w9d+ %eet8 ,:at !n is man at be/8 ,a bloom+1--fad+ fl[]2 ,immortal1 9 a mortal ve/1 ,! creature ( an h\r4 ,well !n may dea? be jo9$ ,unto our fe/al days2 ,well may our pleasures limit f9d ,)9 s %ort a space4 ,to seek et]nal bliss ,)9 "t's n>r[ span1 ,is man's be/ int're/2--only ?is ,c =m ! future man4 ,let dy+ mortals !n ,_! fooli% dreams =sake2 ,unto _! re/ return aga91 ,& ,*ri/ _! refuge make4 ,!n1 ev5 timid y\? ,may smile ^u ! tomb2 ,& fe/ive mom5ts welcome tru?1 ,?\gh clad 9 robes ( gloom4 ,by ,jesus' dea?1 is broke ,dea?'s d>k & p[]ful spell2 ,&1 :ile to ,him by fai? we look1 ,we "k t all is well4 ,:ile meet+ ! little company my s\l 0 ble/4 ,o = spiritual disc]nm5t & grace1 t ,i may be truly helpful to !m1 & deal fai?fully4 ,visit$ a dy+ p]son :o says1 %e d>e n re/ on ,jesus2--yet ,,he is a t[]4 ,,on ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,,pope ,,pius ,,xiii4 ,8 ,hol9ess1 ! ,pope1 ,ha? yield$ up 8 brea?2 ,he1 :o c\ld s9s =give1 ,ha? no comm& o'er dea?2 ,h[ wond]ful6 su* p[] to h1 ,& yet to s9k into ! grave6 ,if s91 ! /+ ( ,dea?1 ,8 ,hol9ess c\ld draw2 ,:y r5d] up ,8 brea? ,unto a conqu]$ foe8 ,ei!r1 he fallible mu/ be1 ,or s9 ha? ga9$ ! victory4 ,i am ?ankful = ! decision ( "* ,i feel4 ,my daily want is m ( ! love 't conqu]s all1 & e m\nta9 moves4'--,my private commun+s ) ,god are my mo/ preci\s seasons4 ,!re ,i c tell all my wants1 unbosom all my griefs1 reveal all my secrets1 expose all my temptations1 & !re ! ,"l graci\sly condesc5ds to visit me ) fre% manife/ations ( ,8 love & p[]4 ,^! visits humble me1 & give me to see1 :]e my /r5g? lies4 ,come1 ,"l1 & dwell 9 me1 t e mom5t ,i may h ! witness t all ,i d is "r4--,i call$ to see my de> afflict$ fri5d ,w41 ^: elde/ daught] is sl[ly s9k+ into ! tomb4 ,z x 0 ! h\r we usually meet 9 b&1 we retir$ to p\r out our s\ls be=e ! ,"l4 ,my fri5d seem$ will+ to give up h] daught]1 if only %e c\ld be assur$1 t a div9e *ange _h tak5 place4 ,! ,"l gave u ! ,_s ( pray] to plead on ?is acc\nt1 & glory be to ,god1 9 t same h\r1 ,he imp>t$ peace to ! dy+ *ild4--,! night 0 awfully tempe/u\s4 ,i rose twice to p\r out my s\l to ,him1 :o rules ! /orm1 & f\nd sweet calm )94--,aft] tea1 ,mr4 ,sp5ce ask$ me1 :y ,i _h invit$ my fri5ds4 ,i repli$1 x 0 my desire1 t we %\ld help ea* o!r to heav54 ,a conv]sation on hol9ess ( he>t ensu$1 :i* to me1 & ,i tru/ to all pres5t1 0 pr(itable4 ,?is conv]sation w leave no pa9ful reflection4 ,i av[$ t ,i held1 ?\gh ) a trembl+ h&1 ! p[] to love ,god ) all my he>t1 & felt ! sweet assurance at ! "t2 b ! next morn+ :5 ,i awoke1 x 0 sugge/$1 ,i knew n :at ,i _h av[$4 ,! satisfactory evid5ce 0 = a mom5t )drawn2 yet by fai? ,i /ill resolv$ to hang ^u ! ,savi\r4 ,i did n long rema9 9 d\bt1 my peace ( m9d return$2 & 9 ! ev5+1 :ile engag$ 9 pray] 7,eliza be+ ) me71 ! div9e influ5ce sweetly ov]:elm$ my s\l1 & n m9e only1 my ,eliza felt its p[]4 ,glory be to ,god4--,i took tea ) ,mrs4 ,e41 ! p]son ) :om ,i lodg$ dur+ my affliction4 ,a s5se ( gratitude = pa/ m]cies /irr$ my he>t to praise2 & ! "t1 :i* might o!rwise h be5 sp5t 9 conv]sation to no pr(it1 0 sp5t 9 pray]4--,i daily ne$ ! spr9kl$ blood1 & ! cle> assurance ( ! p]fect love :i* 'ca/e? out fe>4' ,i d>e n d\bt t ,i possess1 9 a measure1 its bless$ fruits2 b ,i long to rise high]1 t no scruple may rema94 ,,viii4 ,,pass+ ,,cl\ds4 ,,c ,,any ,,und]/& ,,! ,,spread+s ,,( ,,! ,,cl\ds4--,job xxxvi4 #bi4 ,:o c expla9 ! involunt>y emotions ( human m9d8 ,h[ /range1 t (t51 on ! eve ( "s great mis=tune1 a s5sible cl\d %\ld spread ov] ! _s2 b :5ce x comes1 or :y1 we _c tell6 ,to say x is a co9cid5ce is only an ackn[l$gm5t ( ignorance4 ,ought we n r to ref] x to ! secret ag5cy ( ! _s-_w by :i* we are surr\nd$2 b ( :i* we "k s little8 ,p]haps ,god w\ld ?us timely w>n u to seek refuge "u ! %ad[ ( 8 w+1 j z we seek %elt] f ! /orm1 :i* ! cl\d1 t spreads itself ^u ! face ( heav51 tells u is at h&4 ,at lea/1 x _c be )\t advantage1 :5 su* monitions occur1 to betake ourselves to m e>ne/ pray]2 !n1 come :at may1 we %all f9d a safe asylum 9 ,him1 to :om belonge? ev]la/+ /r5g?4--,"o ( ! fir/ entries ( ! ye> #ahbd1 is ,,! ,,cl\d ,,w ,,soon ,,bl[ ,,ov]4 ,?\gh f>1 & wide above my head1 ,! dull port5t\s cl\d is spread2 ,) _m a d>k & massive fold1 ,love decks x ) a rim ( gold4 ,! sun is %9+ /ill beh9d1 ,! promise ( a purpose k9d2 ,&1 soon unveil$ aga91 w d>t ,8 *e]+ rays ^u my he>t4 ,f> bright] w ,8 face appe>1 ,?an if no cl\d _h ga!r$ ne>4 ,!n1 till ! cl\d is ov]pa/1 ,my an*or1 hope1 on ,god ,i'll ca/2 ,assur$ :ile ,he is ?ron$ above1 ,! cl\d is only s5t 9 love4 ,ab\t a =tnight aft] p5n+ ^! l9es1 h] fa!r1 ^: cont9u$ life %e _h1 e spr+1 hail$ ) a new song ( gratitude1 0 sudd5ly seiz$ ) a fit ( p>alysis1 :i* 9 a few days t]m9at$ 8 e>?ly c>e]4 ,a premonitory attack _h occurr$ 9 ! prec$+ autumn1 :i* at ! "t affect$ 8 spee*1 b on recov]+ a little1 he express$ 8 confid5ce 9 ,god 9 ^! rem>kable words3 ,x is roll$ up2 x is roll$ up4 ,i am satisfi$2 ,i am q satisfi$4 ,i am ready2 :5 ! ,"l pleases1 ,i am ready4 ,! ,"l ha? giv5 me et]nal life4 ,i "k ! ,"l2 ,i %all n p]i%4 ,i %all n p]i%1 = ,i am ! ,"l's4 ,dur+ ! w9t] he _h ralli$ aga91 & resum$ 8 lab\rs 9 8 ,ma/]'s cause4 ,hopes began to be ent]ta9$1 t he might yet be sp>$ a little long]2 b ^! 7 sudd5ly cut (f4 ,ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ,febru>y he 0 seiz$ aga91 & x 0 soon app>5t t ?is attack w\ld prove fatal4 ,8 la/ te/imony to ! tru? 0 /rong & cle>1 & cont9u$ to be borne until ! p[] ( language fail$4 ,to ! ,rev4 ,w4 ,mc,kitrick1 :o came to visit him %ortly be=e 8 dep>ture1 he said1 9 almo/ ! same words ! amiable ,addison us$ to ,"l ,w>wick1 ,y are come to see a ,*ri/ian1 die2 & !n add$1 ,glory be to ! ,fa!r1 & to ! ,son1 & to ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,i us$ to s+ t 9 ! ,*ur*1 :5 ,i knew n :at x meant2 b n[ ,i d4 ,n a %ad[ ( a cl\d re/$ ^u ! valley2 x 0 full ( light3 & on ! #bd? ( ! mon? he di$1 9 ! full triumph ( fai?1 e/eem$ & lam5t$ by p]sons ( e %ade ( op9ion4 ,?is day 9 =m] ye>s1 ,i h hail$ my de> fa!r's /ay among u2 b n[1 he has left our d>k abode to jo9 8 fri5ds above2 & ?is day1 8 dea? is to be improv$ by ,mr4 ,hopk9s ,new ,/reet1 & ,mr4 ,mc,kitrick1 9 ,albion ,/reet ,*apel4 ,= "s weeks ,i h be5 "u ! *a/5+ h& ( ,god4 ,my pati5ce has be5 sev]ely te/$2 b ,i am ?ankful1 9 ! mom5ts ( sev]e/ trial1 ,i h felt confid5t t n a /roke w\ld be laid ^u me m ?an w\ld conduce to my real good4 ,?\gh ! waves roll ar\nd me1 ,i c v5ture myself on ,jesus4 ,"h ,i f9d firm foot+2 "h is my re/+-place2 & 9 ! preci\s atonem5t ( ! ,r$eem]1 my s\l enjoys sweet repose4--,i h be5 suff]+ f sickness1 b h _h _m preci\s mom5ts :ile mus+ ^u my b$4 ,?r\gh m]cy1 ,i am aga9 able to sit up1 b am v deaf4 ,?is has occasion$ a tra9 ( reason+4 ,i h be5 l$ to inquire1 :e!r ! ,"l 9 ,8 provid5ce int5ds to depose me f meet+ ,8 p4 ,b 9 ?is1 & 9 e ?+ else1 ,i w\ld resign$ly say1 ',?y w be done4'--,! m]cy ( ! ,"l is aga9 repeat$4 ,! deafness1 f :i* ,i h suff]$1 is greatly remov$4 ,bless ! ,"l1 :o c n only make ! deaf to he>1 b ! he>t to praise4--,my little ,anna1 aft] be+ l5t to me = sev5te5 days1 & f9d+ no?+ on e>? to c\rt h] /ay1 has clos$ h] eyes on "t1 & op5$ !m ^u heav54 ,s unc]ta9 is e>?ly happ9ess4 ,p]haps my heav5ly ,fa!r1 m securely to engage my he>t1 has k9dly resum$ ! gift2 & transplant$ to a bett] soil ! fl[]1 ^: *>ms 7 ins5sibly /eal+ my affections4 ,i anticipat$ ! delightful task ( re>+ ?is t5d] plant to be a future com=t2 b ,?\1 ,o ,"l1 art righte\s 9 all ,?y ways4 ,my feel+s h be5 peculi>ly acute1 b to ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 my he>t is kn[n4 ,tea* me due submission to ,?y w2 & z1 by ?is b]eavem5t1 ,i %all1 if re/or$ to heal?1 h m leisure1 may ,i d$icate x to ,!e4--,:ile ,miss ,o4 0 pray+ ) me1 ,i _h su* a bless$ view ( ! inhabitants ( ! _w above1 t = a mom5t ,i seem$ to be !re4 ,at ! ,class ,i 0 l$ to see ! privilege ( liv+ by fai? e mom5t4 ,s9ce !n1 ,i h be5 able to realize pres5t bless+s4 ,! p]usal ( "o ( ,mr4 ,flet*]'s lett]s has be5 ( s]vice to me2 also ! recollection ( :at my fa!r us$ to say2 ',i ask 9 fai?1 & br+ ! bless+ away ) me4' ,surely ?is is our ,*ri/ian bir?right4 ,fai? hon\rs ,god1 & ')\t fai? x is impossible to please ,god4' ,?anks be unto ,!e1 ,i c n[ live by fai?2 b ,i want to lose myself 9 ,!e1 ,?\ va/ unfa?omable sea ( love6 ,cov]$ ) imp]fections1 ,i want to be plung$ 9 ! preci\s blood ( ,jesus4 ,preci\s ,"n6 ,preci\s blood6 ! sweete/ cordial ( ! s\l4 ,i h _h su* a view ( ! way ( fai? z ,i _c express2 s simple1 yet s div9e6 ,su* a sweet deliv]ance f d\bt6 ,:ile ,i feel myself no?+1 ,i h p[] to appreh5d ,god z my sanctify+ ,savi\r4 ,:at has ! _w to comp>e ) ?is8--,i rose be=e six to hold communion ) my ,god4 ,art ,?\ my ,god8 ,yes2 by t exalt$ "n1 ,i feel ,?\ art m9e4 ,my s\l longs = ,!e4 ,:5 %all ,i wake up aft] ,?y lik5ess8 ,i h ?is ev5+ met ! preci\s *>ge committ$ to my c>e4 ,! responsibility seems great] ?an ev]4 ,o may ,i wat* z "o hav+ to give acc\nt4 ,s9n+ton4 ,nature n[ resumes its beauty1 b ! removal ( my belov$ ,ann1 & ! abs5ce ( my de> ,elizabe?1 make a mighty *asm4 ,well2 soon ^! sep>ations w cease1 & my fre$ _s so> to mansions ( uncl\d$ bliss4 ,i h be5 tempt$ by ! enemy2 b hold fa/ my confid5ce3 may ! fai?1 :i* purifies ! he>t1 sanctify my lips1 t ,i may tell ( all ,?y wondr\s love4--,i visit$ ,mrs4 ,b4 a second "t2 %e is enc\rag$ to believe ! ,"l w save h]1 = ,*ri/'s sake-)\t any m]it ( h] own4 ,h] husb& 0 m cordial ?an ,i expect$ f ! acc\nt ,i _h he>d ( him2 ! te>s />t$ 9 8 eyes :ile ,i conv]s$ ) him4 ,i feel ,i am employ$ z ,i ought to be1 :5 9 ?is way ,i r5d] ! lea/ s]vice to a fell[-creature2 b ,o h[ poor & feeble are my ef=ts6 ,s9ce ,i came "h my m9d has be5 v>i\sly affect$2 sometimes cle>1 sometimes cl\d$2 sometimes 9 pray] ,i h exp]i5c$ unusual lib]ty1 & aga9 a degree ( coldness2 b always a s5se ( ! approbation ( ,god1 ) a desire to be entirely con=m$ to ,8 w4--,"p ( ! day 0 sp5t 9 bidd+ ! fri5ds f>ewell1 & 9 visit+ "s ( ! poor2 & n[ ,i h f9i%$ my visit to ?is place1 ,i c say1 ,i h be5 endeav\r+ to please ,god1 & 9 "s measure1 b5efit my fell[ creatures2 b my p]=mances h be5 s mix$1 t ,i am a%am$ be=e ! ,"l4 ,no?+ b ! blood ( spr9kl+ c wa% away my defilem5t4--,i w5t to ! ve/ry aft] ! ev5+ s]vice1 & select$ a place1 :]e ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld n be obs]v$2 b ! ?\ght ( ! curse ( ,m]oz1 con/ra9$ me to leave my retir$ position4 ,i resolv$1 if any opportunity pres5t$ itself1 to engage 9 pray]2 & truly ,god p\r$ ^u me ! _s ( grace & supplication4--,?is week ,i h paid a social visit bo? to ,mrs4 ,r4 & ,mrs4 ,w4 ,praise ! ,"l1 ,i came away uncondemn$ on acc\nt ( any?+ ,i _h said4 ,?is has n always be5 ! case4 ,i am ?ankful = ! inw>d tea*+ ( ! ,_s2 = ! desire t e p[] ( my body1 z well z e affection ( my s\l1 may be :olly consecrat$ to ,god4 ,?is is n[ my pray]4--,i h be5 mu* affect$ to he> t an old man1 :om ,i _h int5d$ to visit1 di$ ye/]day4 ,o ,god1 =give ! omission & help me to be fai?ful4 ,i took an opportunity ( see+ ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,g41 to conv]se ) !m on ! necessity ( salvation3 let ,?y _s "w4 ,! ,"l has be5 %[+ me :at a poor empty creature ,i am2 b gives me confid5ce 9 ,8 promise4 ,i c ca/ myself entirely ^u ,him1 :o is will+ to save me to ! utt]mo/4 ,glory be to ,god1 my s\l d>es lay hold on ,jesus1 z my full1 & all-suffici5t ,savi\r4--,?is morn+ ,i gave ,wm4 ,b4 an invitation to *apel2 call$ on ,m4,t4,s41 :o is 9 tr\ble1 & advis$ him to read ! #aab? ,psalm2 saw ,e/h] ,s41 :o is fa/ decl9+1 b seems to desire no?+ s mu* z union ) ,god2 also visit$ ,j4,c41 :o is sick1 b happy 9 ,god4--,! means ( grace are refre%+1 b ^! are n ! only occasions on :i* ,i get bless$4 ,no2 :ile my h&s are engag$ ) my ord9>y duties1 ,i c look up & call ,god ,fa!r4--,my husb& pres5t$ me ) a new visit+ book1 ! old ones hav+ be5 call$ 9 aft] ! dea? ( ,mr4 ,sp5ce2 & ! :ole conc]n plac$ 9 ! h&s ( a committee4 ,hav+ =m]ly felt my insuffici5cy1 ,i h s\ght help at ! ?rone ( grace1 & entreat$ ! ,"l1 z ! committee h ?\ght prop] to s5d me a book1 t ,he w\ld give me a ^w 9 season1 & ,8 bless+ ) my ef=ts4--,! s\ls committ$ to me h be5 laid v ne> my he>t4 ,consci\s ( my own weakness1 ,i ask$ ! ,"l to put ,8 ^w into my m\?1 & br+ x to my remembrance2 & to ,8 hon\r ,i "h record x1 t ,i h nev] exp]i5c$ great] lib]ty4--,9 ! pray]-meet+ ,i 0 sil5t1 & felt condemn$ 9 consequ5ce2 & on ,saturday night ! conviction ( duty 0 /ill deep]1 b /ill resi/$1 ,h[ mu* ,i ne$ =giv5ess6 ,z ! result1 b>r5ness came ov] my s\l1 :i* cont9u$ "p ( ! next day4 ,! recollection ( hav+ petition$ ,god to take my s\l & body's p[]s1 & !n to refuse to employ my tongue 9 ,8 s]vice1 al?\gh ,he _h promis$ to put words into my m\?1 fills me ) %ame & humiliation4--,= "s days ,i h be5 hang+ on ,*ri/ by nak$ fai?1 )\t mu* s5sible com=t2 yet h felt z fully resolv$ to live to ! glory ( ,god z :5 ba?+ 9 ! beams ( ,8 love4 ,to-night ! sacr$ fire burns brightly 'on ! mean alt> ( my he>t4'--,i h _m m]cies to be ?ankful =1 ?\gh n rec\nt$ "h4 ,a mod]ate %>e ( heal? is n ! lea/2 my class increases1 my family is well2 ,i am surr\nd$ ) fri5ds2 & above all1 ,i enjoy peace ( m9d4 ',:at %all ,i r5d] to ! ,"l = all ,8 b5efits8' ,! rapid mom5ts fleet away2 ,& on _! tireless w+s1 ,dea? rides1 maje/ic 9 8 sway1 ,subject+ ,popes & ,k+s4 #ahbe4--,my daught] be+ out to tea1 ,i call$ to take h] to *apel2 b ! solicitations ( h] fri5ds _h induc$ h] to rel9qui% h] int5tion3 s ,i left h]4 ,b my m9d 0 mu* pa9$2 ! case ( ,eli =cibly impress$ my m9d4 ,i ?9k ,i too easily yield$ to :at my bett] judgm5t condemn$4 ,i ne$ ! =be>ance ( my heav5ly ,fa!r1 & wisdom to direct my *ildr5 aright4 ,i see great dang] 9 mix+ ) ! _w1 & ! company ( outw>d pr(essors is equally p]il\s4--,:ile ,mr4 ,/on] 0 describ+ ! "* ( ^?1 :o h receiv$ ,*ri/1 my s\l respond$ to ! tru?3 ,i felt ! reality ( ! *ange 9 my own he>t4 ,! evid5ce ( ! sanctify+ grace ( ,god has ( late be5 m di/9ct2 yet nev] h ,i be5 m deeply conv9c$ ( my own no?+ness1 nor ( ! exce$+ ri*es ( ! div9e grace4--,?is ev5tful mon? 7,febru>y7 is ?is ye> u%]$ 9 by answ]s to pray]4 ,hav+ a cold1 & be+ dull ( he>+1 ,i entreat$ ! ,"l1 if he _h call$ me to meet 8 p1 to give me p[] to he>4 ,he graci\sly condesc5d$ to my reque/ & bless$ me among !m4 ,f\r new conv]ts /epp$ 94 ,o = wisdom to in/ruct !m4--,i _h a v pleasant visit at ,miss ,c4's4 ,mr4 ,/on]1 ,sammy ,hick1 & two or ?ree female fri5ds 7 !re4 ,we got to "k "o ano!r's he>ts ^u our knees1 & ! ,"l l5t an att5tive e>4--,my body is feeble1 b my s\l pants aft] ,god4 ,i want totally to ab&on self1 t ,*ri/ may be all 9 all4 ,he is ! *ief object ( my affection1 b ,i want to lay firm] hold ^u ,8 omnipot5t /r5g?4 ,x is fai? t br+s ! p[] to exhibit ! graces ( ! ,_s1 & to act acceptably 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,,*ri/ian ,,fri5d%ip4 ,fri5d%ip hails ! ris+ joy1 ,& %>es ! fall+ te>2 ,brea!s ! sympa!tic sigh1 ,& swells ! common pray]4 ,h[ x soo!s ! tr\bl$ brea/6 ,?is *>ity div9e ,brea!s ! balm ( heav5ly re/4 --,may su* a fri5d be m9e4 ,aft] my morn+ duties are dis*>g$1 ,i int5d to devote ! ,?ursday ( e week to ! ,"l1 s long z heal? & opportunity are af=d$ me2 especially 9 visit+ ! memb]s ( my class1 m9i/]+ to ! sick1 & att5d+ ! s*ool4 ,i w5t out feel+ t ,i 0 ! engag$ s]vant ( ! ,l>d1 & he has graci\sly bless$ my endeav\rs4 ,"o :om ,i visit$ is e>ne/ly seek+ ! ,"l2 & ano!r1 :o has long be5 indebt$ to my husb&1 gave me a sov]eign t[>ds ! am\nt-uns\ght1 unask$1 & unexpect$6 ,fa!r ( all1 & ,god ( grace1 ,^: ev] wat*ful eye ,surveys ! dep? & bread? ( space2 ,yet sees ! sp>r[ fly3 ,behold my he>t--x pants = ,!e2 ,! temple = ,?yself prep>e2 ,!re let ,?y ?rone e/abli%$ be1 ,?y "n engrav5 !re4 ,mu* aga9/ my incl9ation1 ,i paid a =mal visit to ----2 provid5tially ,i 0 seat$ ne> a fri5d1 :o 0 will+ to conv]se on ?+s conduc+ to hol9ess4--,among ! ,"l's poor my s\l is (t5 bless$4 ,?is day1 ! day ,i h set ap>t = ,god1 ,i wrote to ,miss ,b4 respect+ ! ,sunday class2 &1 aft] arrang+ my dome/ic affairs1 set =? to visit ,mrs4 ,d41 !n ,m>y ,h41 :o 0 sitt+ up read+ h] ,bible4 ,z soon z ,i ent]$1 %e began to tell me1 t a great *ange _h tak5 place 9 h] views & feel+s2 & t pray] & read+ ! ^w1 7 h] greate/ delight4 ,i ask$ h] h[ long %e _h exp]i5c$ ?is2 %e repli$1 ',ab\t a mon?4 ,y _h be5 pray+ ) me2 _m ?+s y said fa/5$ ^u my m9d3' !n1 lay+ h] h& ^u h] he>t1 %e add$1 ',i felt su* a weight "h1 ,i knelt d[n to pray2 & aft] gett+ into b$ aga91 x seem$ z if a voice spoke to me1 ',m>y1 ! door is op53' f t "t ,i h felt su* peace ( m9d1 & pleasure 9 read+ ! ,bible1 z ,i nev] did be=e4' ,"l1 ,?\ art able to judge ( ?is /atem5t1 & br+e/ m5 to ,?yself1 by ways & means unkn[n to human s5se4 ,?is occurr$ on ! fir/ ,?ursday ,i devot$ to ,god4 ,"l1 make me fai?ful 9 ! dis*>ge ( ! tru/ repos$ 9 me4--,i am ?is morn+ left alone2 yet n alone4 ,i feel a bless$ s5se ( ! div9e pres5ce1 :i* enables me to anticipate my heav5ly inh]itance2 b n = any m]it 9 me3 oh no6 on ,jesus hangs my hope4 ,to me belonge? %ame & confusion ( face2 = my be/ do+s are pollut$1 & all my good is f ,himself4 ,prais$ be ,8 "n = ! *ange effect$ 9 my m9d4 ,! sa9ts ( ,god are my delight1 ! ^w ( ,god my treasure1 & communion ) ,god my greate/ joy4--,?r\gh m]cy1 al?\gh feeble 9 body1 ,i am bett] ?an dur+ la/ week4 ,yet ev5 !n ,i enjoy$ peace1 & :5 weake/1 my fai? has be5 /ronge/2 ,i c\ld commit all into ,8 h&s2 /ill ,i see myself a poor empty creature4 ,x is all ( grace1 ?r\gh ,jesus4 ,preci\s "n6 ,afflictions1 f ,?y graci\s h&1 ,unm+l$ bless+s prove2 ,! rod1 prep>$ at ,?y comm&1 ,displays a ,fa!r's love4 ,b5ea? its weight1 submissive1 ,"l1 ,upw>d to ,!e ,i look2 ,expect accord+ to ,?y ^w1 ,a bless+ 9 ! /roke4 ,may e pa9 be sanctifi$2 ,& e grace improve2 ,till fre$ f dross1 l silv] tri$1 ,my s\l is only love4 ,no te> %all !n b$ew my eyes1 ,no grief my bosom swell2 ,! note ( gratitude %all rise1 ,?\ ha/ done all ?+s well4 ,my de> "m has _h a fall1 & has be5 mu* indispos$ 9 consequ5ce4 ,i am ?ankful to h h] s ne> me1 z x is a pleasure to p]=m my duty z a *ild4 ,9 ?is1 & e o!r relation1 may ,i be f\nd fai?ful4--,i rose v e>ly1 z ,i felt conc]n$ ab\t my de> "m2 & w5t to h] room-door1 betwe5 ?ree & f\r o'clock2 b z ,m>y _h fa/5$ x )91 ,i c\ld n obta9 admittance4 ,h[ev]1 ,i betook myself to pray]1 & comm5d$ h] to ! ,"l4 ,?is passage 0 /rongly impress$ ^u my m9d3 ',! ,"l w /r5g!n him ^u ! b$ ( langui%+2 ,?\ wilt make all 8 b$ 9 8 sickness4'--,i sp5t ! day at ,h41 9 ! company ( "s fri5ds n decid$ly devot$ to ,god4 ,! ,"l kept me1 & ,i am ?ankful ,i came home )\t condemnation4 ,i 0 fav\r$ ) an opportunity ( speak+ ) ea* ( !m respect+ _! spiritual /ate1 & ! ?+s ( et]nity4--,= "s "t ,i h be5 surr\nd$ by hurry & excitem5t1 & long+ = a little retirem5t4 ,at l5g?1 9 a way ,i did n expect1 ,i am 9 "p seclud$ f my family4 ,9 ?is ,i am con/ra9$ to ackn[l$ge ! m]cy ( ,god to an undes]v+ worm4 ,br\ght app>5tly to ! grave's edge1 ,i h be5 refre%$ ) ,8 pres5ce1 & _h p[] to ca/ myself ^u ,8 fa!rly love4 ,! enemy assaults me2 b aw>e ( my own weakness ,i v5ture1 p[]less z ,i am1 ^u ! b\ndless m]its ( ,jesus4 ,h[ sweet is /ill retirem5t6 ,h[ x calms ,! m9d1 & aids reflection6 ,"h my s\l1 ,unfett]'d1 so>s to conv]se ) its ,god4 ,i he> 8 ,_s :isp'r+ r\nd me n[2 ,& love1 & gratitude subdue my he>t4 ,yes1 ,solitude6 ,i love !e1 & enjoy ,9 ?y seque/]'d dep?s1 ! bliss1 9 cr[ds ,i seek 9 va94 ,my ,god6 my only joy6 ,yet1 ,o ble/ ,savi\r1 :5 ,?y voice is he>d1 ,amid ! tumult spr+s a sudd5 calm1 ,& heav5-born peace p]vades my happy s\l4 ,a situation has (f]$ = ,ri*>d1 :i* we h hesitat$ to accept or refuse1 wi%ful to d "r1 & afraid ( do+ wrong4 ,9 ?is dilemma1 we ca/ ourselves at ! foot/ool ( m]cy1 my husb& & "m unit+ ) me1 & 7 fully enabl$ to roll our c>e ^u ,god1 :o wond]fully und]took = u4 ,i believe we h done "r4 ,,ix4 ,,mid-,,day ,,toil4 ,,seek ,,t ,,ye ,,may ,,excel ,,to ,,! ,,edify+ ,,( ,,! ,,*ur*4 #a ,cor4 xiv4 #ab4 ,true religion is reproductive4 ,a conv]t$ man w try to conv]t 8 neighb\r2 & ! value ( 8 own exp]i5ce may 9 g5]al be te/$ by ! mann] 9 :i* he uses 8 opportunities ( do+ good4 ,s true is ?is1 t ! ,savi\r said1 ,he1 t is n ) me1 is aga9/ me2 & he1 t ga!re? n ) me1 scatt]e? abroad4 ,an inactive ,*ri/ian is a contradiction 9 t]ms2 = he is no copy ( 8 div9e ,ma/]1 :o1 morn+1 noon1 & night1 w5t ab\t do+ good4 ,all ! ,scriptural symbols ( ! k+dom ( ,god are expressive ( en]getic action4 ,! little cl\d attracts to itself ! moi/ p>ticles ( ! atmosph]e1 until x cov]s ! :ole heav5s4 ,! se$ g]m9ates1 & gr[s1 till x br+s =? ?irty1 sixty1 or a hundr$ fold4 ,! leav51 :i* is b a m9ute =m ( vegetable life1 developes itself 9 e direction by means ( little cells2 :i* aga9 =m o!rs1 & ?us by cont9ual reproduction1 leav5s ! :ole mass4 ,:at ,is ! lesson8 ,e he>t 9 :i* ! k+dom ( ,god is set up1 becomes a c5tre ( life & action1 ex]t+ a heal+ influ5ce ^u ! corrupt+ masses ( society ar\nd4 ,& oh6 if e ,*ri/ian pr(essor 7 ?us endu$ ) p[] f on high1 :at c\ld h9d] ! progress ( ! tru?8 ,h[ w\ld x spread & prevail1 until ! :ole _w submitt$ to its sway6 ,mrs4 ,ly? 0 imbu$ ) ! true _s ( ,*ri/ian zeal4 ,by lett]1 z well z by direct appeal2 by secret int]cessions ) ,god1 z well z by p]sonal ef=t2 %e s\ght to w9 s\ls to ,*ri/4 ,in/ant 9 season & out ( season1 few came 9 contact ) h] )\t feel+ ! =ce ( h] religi\s "*2 & h] dilig5ce 9 visit+ ! sick1 ! ne$y1 & ! c>eless1 sup]add$ to ! fai?ful dis*>ge ( home duties1 (t5 affect$ h] own heal?4 ,9 ! ,autumn ( #ahbe1 %e sp5t "s weeks at ,hov+ham1 a small wat]+-place 9 ! we/ ( ,york%ire2 b1 ?\gh only delicate ?r\gh rec5t sickness1 %e s\ght h] relaxation 9 do+ good4 ,on ! ,sabba? %e w5t r\nd ! village to invite ! p to ! ,*apel1 & on ! week-day visit$ ! afflict$ & infirm4 ,"o case occurr$ "h1 :i* well illu/rates h] p]sev]+ *>ity1 ev5 "u circum/ances ( disc\ragem5t4 ,a "y g5tleman1 educat$ = ! legal pr(ession1 & ! son ( "o1 :o at an e>li] p]iod _h met ) h] 9 ! same class1 _h come to seek relief 9 an advanc$ /age ( consumption4 ,%e s\ght him out at a neighb\r+ village2 b :5 ann\nc$1 he refus$ to see h]1 & s5t ! n ov] polite message1 t if x _h be5 a cl]gyman1 x w\ld h be5 ano!r ?+4 ,h[ev] ! ho/ess1 :o 0 a ,me?odi/1 said1 if %e w\ld come at su* an h\r1 %e w\ld be able to obta9 an int]view1 z he w5t out rid+ e day1 & 0 oblig$ to pass ?r\gh h] sitt+-room4 ,%e w5t at ! "t specifi$1 & = ! purpose ( introduction took ) h] a book1 :i* %e (f]$ to l5d him4 ,he j turn$ ov] a few ( ! leaves1 & n f9d+ x to 8 ta/e1 return$ x1 say+1 %e might take x back4 ,no?+ di%e>t5$1 %e talk$ ) him ab\t 8 "m1 & h] anxiety = 8 salvation2 until at l5g? %e prevail$ ^u him1 ?\gh n )\t a degree ( reluctance1 to all[ h] to pray ) him4 ,9 a few days he 0 tak5 s mu* worse1 t he 0 oblig$ to return home2 & ) ! view ( obta9+ ano!r int]view1 %e wrote a lett]1 :i* %e took to him1 ) ! reque/ t he w\ld k9dly =w>d x1 z soon z he arriv$ 9 ,york4 ,?is he c\rte\sly engag$ to d4 ,on p>t+ %e said1 ,well1 sir1 z y are go+ to return1 ,i mu/ say f>ewell2 p]haps we %all nev] see ea* o!r aga94 ,:at1 he repli$1 d y ?9k ,i am go+ to die8 ,no sir1 %e return$1 b nei!r y nor ,i seem likely to live v long4 ,! nail 0 fa/5$ 9 a sure place4 ,imm$iately on h] return to ,york he s5t = h]1 say+ to 8 "m1 ,y "k :om ,i want2 %e mu/ come e day4 ,! acc\nt ( ! visit is giv5 9 h] own words4 ,i call$ ^u ,mr4 ----2 & am ?ankful to f9d a bless$ *ange 9 8 _s4 ,i read to him ! eigh? *apt] ( ,romans4 ,he cri$ al\d1 & reque/$ me to pray ) him1 :i* ,i did2 !n 8 "m1 !n ,i1 !n a /rang]4 ,truly x 0 a bless$ "t2 su* z !y pr(ess$ nev] to h exp]i5c$ be=e4 ,my s\l felt ! div9e influ5ce4 ,^! visits 7 cont9u$1 until1 9 a few weeks1 he ex*ang$ mortality = life4 ,! la/ notice ( him is1 ,i saw ,mr4----1 :om ,i f\nd 9 a bless$ /ate ( m9d4 ,z 8 outw>d /r5g? decays1 8 inw>d man is r5ew$ day by day2 8 hope blooms ) immortality4 ,:5 ,i 0 com+ away1 & bidd+ him f>ewell1 9 hope ( meet+ him aga9 9 heav51 he repli$1 ',i h n a d\bt ( x4' ,i ent]ta9$ ! hope ( see+ him aga9 on e>?1 b on ,saturday night he di$3 s ,i mu/ n[ urge my way to meet him at ! "r-h& ( ,god4 ,we cont9ue our extracts3 ,i f9d1 t unnecess>y conv]sation1 ev5 ) religi\s p]sons1 & on lawful subjects1 has a t5d5cy to de/roy ! f]v\r ( my _s4--,mrs4 ,r1 met ! de> little company2 ! p[] ( ,god 0 g5]ally felt4 ,i propos$ t we %\ld meet e day at ! ?rone ( grace1 to pray especially = ! salvation ( "s among/ u1 z well z = our own prosp]ity2 & desir$ z _m z approv$ to signify x by lift+ ! h&1 :i* 0 done by all4 ,i h _h "s bless$ seasons :ile int]c$+ on ?is acc\nt4--,i 0 press$ 9 _s to visit ! spee*less man4 ,aft] po9t+ him to ! s9n]'s only refuge1 ,i knelt d[n2 :5 ! ,"l %$ ^u me su* an unusual degree ( ! _s ( grace & supplication1 t ,i 0 fully conv9c$ ! man 0 bless$4 ,on ris+1 ,i ask$ him1 if he believ$ ! ,"l w\ld save him1 to lift up 8 h&1 :i* he did4 ,i ask$ him to repeat ! sign1 if he felt happy4 ,?is he also did4 ,i am ! m enc\rag$1 z1 on a =m] occasion1 ,i _h solicit$ ! sign 9 va94 ,my s\l prais$ ! ,"l on 8 acc\nt1 & ,i came home rejoic+4 ,f>ewell dep>t$ day6 f>ewell = ev]6 ,f e>? alone1 ?y flight1 my s\l c sev]4 ,my hope is an*or$ on ! ',rock ( ages2' ,! /orm 9 va9 ) fury r\nd me rages4 ,f>ewell ye pass+ c>es6 ?\gh pa9 & sorr[ ,may be my lot to-day1 joy beams to-morr[3 ,)9 ! veil1 my so>+ fai? has ent]$2 ,& all my happ9ess 9 ,*ri/ is c5t]$4 ,a preci\s day to me4 ,! ,"l enabl$ me to witness to ! tru? be=e ! great congregation4--,i paid ,mr4 ,/on] & 8 bride a visit4 ,he w\ld h me pray a bless+ on _! union2 b ,i did n feel ! same lib]ty ,i f\nd 9 pray+ ) ! spee*less man a little aft]4 ,he aga9 lift$ up 8 h& :5 ask$ if he believ$ ! ,"l w\ld save him4 ,i w5t to see an afflict$ p]son 9 ! hospital2 a fri5d 0 read+ to h]2 b :5 ,i ent]$1 %e ceas$1 seem+ wi%ful to he> :at ,i _h to say4 ,z ! ,"l enabl$ me ,i urg$ ^u !m ! necessity ( salvation4 ,be=e ,i came away ! numb] ( li/5]s 0 increas$ to sev54 ,! ,"l gave me lib]ty ( utt]ance1 & !y e>ne/ly press$ me to r5ew my visit4 ,if ?is is f ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 op5 my way4 ,! afflict$ p]son1 :om ,i h visit$ sev]al times be=e1 pr(esses to h f\nd peace m ?an a week ago4 ,ano!r ( !m wept1 because %e f\nd out %e want$ some?+ %e did n possess4 ,^u ! :ole ! ,"l appe>s to h direct$ my visit4 ,may x be foll[$ by a p]man5t bless+4 #ahbf4 ,?is aft]noon 0 employ$ 9 seek+ out ! necessities ( ! poor4 ,on my return home ,i felt ,i _h done my duty1 b no?+ m4 ,i c tru/ 9 no?+ b ,*ri/ = salvation4--,all ,i d & say1 seems poor & insignificant4 ,i want great] p[] to live to ,god2 wat*+ aga9/ ! assaults ( ! enemy1 gu>d+ aga9/ self1 repell+ va9 ?\ghts1 liv+ a mom5t at a "t1 pray+ always4 ,i "k ?is is possible2 = 'all ?+s are possible to him t believe?4' ,oh = liv+ fai?4--,visit$ a poor afflict$ wid[4 ,aft] read+ & pray+1 %e began to pray ( h] own accord2 & %ortly broke out into praise1 9 a mann] t a/oni%$ me2 b x 0 ! ,"l's do+4 ,%e express$ h] confid5ce 9 su* t]ms t ,i c\ld n d\bt ! tru? ( h] confession4--,mr4 ,slack divid$ ,miss ,b5tley's class4 ,:at w be ! result8 ,9 consequ5ce ( ,miss ,b4's indisposition1 ! class _h be5 met by ,mrs4 ,ly? = "s "t2 & _h s mu* increas$ t division became necess>y4 ,if ,i live till next ,sunday ,i mu/ take my %>e ( x4 ,b :o is suffici5t = ^! ?+s8 ,ano9t me1 ,o ,"l1 ) fre% oil4 ,make fre% discov]ies ( ,?y love4 ,brea! ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,inspire ! liv+ fire4 ,furni% me out ( ,?y treasury ) argum5ts to defeat ! devil1 & plead ! cause ( tru?4 ,arm$ ) ,?y p[]1 ,i feel will+ to be ! h&1 or ! foot1 only s\ls are sav$1 & ,?\ art glorifi$4 ,i 0 s5t = by a memb] ( ,miss ,b4's class1 :o 0 v ill4 ,! ,"l 0 pleas$ to bless h] :ile ,i 0 ) h]2 s t clasp+ h] h&s %e %\t$1 sev]al times1 ',glory be to ,god4' ,z ,i return$ home x 0 sweetly br\ght to my m9d1 ',inasmu* z ye did x to ! lea/ ( ^! my bre?r51 ye did x unto ,me4' ,! inf9ite fulness ( ,god surpasses all my ?\ght2--a bread? )\t a limit1 a l5g? )\t a t]m9ation1 a height )\t a summit1 & a dep? )\t a bottom4 ,h[ ,i grieve t any?+ else %\ld occupy my ?\ght6 = sure ,i am1 ,he is ! only bliss on e>? design$ = man to "k4 ,two days ,i h be5 begg+ = ! new ,*apel1 & /ill ,i am reque/$ to canvass ! opposite side ( ,walmgate4 ,"l1 if ?is is ! way ,?\ *oose/ to humble my pride1 make me will+ to be ! h&1 or ! foot1 to help on ,?y cause4--,at ! close ( ! class1 ,e4 came to me1 & by h] sil5t1 yet expressive1 c\nt5ance said1 'pray = me4' ,we cont9u$ a little "t long]1 b %e did n obta9 h] he>t's desire4 ,"l1 =give our little fai?4--,my "m & ,i />t$ = ,s9n+ton4 ,dur+ ! j\rney my s\l re/$ 9 ,jesus2 & s9ce our arrival ,i h _h p[] to look up ?r\gh nature to nature's ,god2 a gift n af=d$ to e "o because ( bl9dness ( he>t4 ,:ile c\s9 ,elizabe? & ,i 7 unit$ 9 pray]1 ! ,"l p\r$ ^u me su* a bless+1 ) ! words1 ',ask :at ye w1 & x %all be done unto y1' z ,i _c express4 ,i e>ne/ly long = ! salvation ( ! inhabitants ( ?is village4 ,took tea ) ,mr4 ,b4 ,_m da9ties1 yet ,i h great] satisfaction 9 visit+ ! sick ?an 9 gratify+ ! palate4 ,h[ mu* ne$ h we to wat* 9 e ?+6 ,o keep me ev] on my gu>d1 & wat*+ unto pray]4--,my bir?day4 ,?ree ye>s ago ,i 0 9 ,%effield1 & !re resolv$ to devote myself to ,god2 & ev] s9ce1 ,i h be5 endeav\r+ to d x4 ,/ill ,i am b a dw>f 9 gr[?1 yet w ,i n be un?ankful = :at ,i am4 ,i feel ! peace ( ,god 9 my s\l1 ) an increase ( ^? fruits t spr+ f inw>d religion4 ,to ,god be all ! glory4 ,! m ,i possess ( ?is div9e p[]1 ! less ,i see 9 myself4 ,o h[ great is ! love ( ,god6 ,to-day ,i w\ld r5ew my cov5ant ) ,him4 ,"h is my he>t1 ,o take & seal x2 & let x be ,?9e = ev]4 ,sc>bro'4 ,i took up my cross1 & spoke to "s old wom52 b oh6 ! d>kness ( ! human m9d6 ,my m$ical advis] gives me p]mission to ba!4 ,o ,"l1 give ,?y bless+4 ,i _h a delightful view ( ! sea f ! ,spa4 ,no?+ on e>? is to my m9d a m /rik+ image ( ,almighty p[] ?an ?is uncontrollable mass ( wat]s1 to :i* ,he only c say1' ,peace be /ill1' & x obeys ,him4--,:5 ,i w5t to ! ,*apel1 ,i felt consid]able dr[s9ess1 & 0 afraid ,i %\ld fall asleep2 b ,i lift$ up my he>t1 & entreat$ ! ,"l to remove x1 :i* ,he graci\sly did1 & ,i sat "u ,8 %ad[ ) great delight4--,aft] fir/ giv+ myself into ! h&s ( ! ,"l1 & ask+ ,8 bless+1 ,i ba!d 9 company ) ,miss ,b----t4 ,aft]w>d1 dur+ pray]1 :ile 9 ! ma*9e1 ! ,"l graci\sly wat]$ our s\ls4 ,to me x 0 a refre%+ season4 ,i 0 truly ov]:elm$ ) ! preci\s love ( ,jesus2 s t1 :5 we p>t$1 ,i w5t on my way rejoic+1 & prais+ ,god = ! ri* baptism be/[$ on ,8 wor?less du/4--,my ,ri*>d 0 articl$ to ,wm4 ,matt]son1 ,esq41 ,surgeon4 ,?is has made me _m err&s to ! ,"l2 & n[1 ,o ,god1 ,i leave him 9 ,?y h&s3 /ill (f]+ up my e>ne/ pray] t ,?\ wilt be 8 director & guide4 ,i feel m anxiety = 8 s\l ?an 8 e>?ly int]e/s4 ',! ways ( a good man are ord]$ ( ! ,"l4' ,i d>e re/ ^u ,?y ^w2 !re=e my e>ne/ pray] is1 t he may be a man ( ,god4 ,o bless$ ,savi\r1 let my f]v5t petition be he>d4 ,save him1 & fit him = ,?y w4--,?is morn+ my wak+ ?\ght 03 ,rises ! sun1 8 c\rse to run1 ,9 robes ( gold5 light2 ,s may ,i put ! ,savi\r on4 ,& walk ) ,him 9 :ite4 ,z fl[]s adorn ! br[ ( morn1 ,& sc5t ! fre%'n+ air2 ,new graces1 9 my _s born1 ,diffuse _! fragrance !re4 ,) feel+s ( gratitude1 ,i resume my p51 :i* has be5 laid aside = "s weeks1 9 consequ5ce ( dome/ic & p]sonal affliction4 ,god has once m re/or$ u2 & ,i w\ld !re=e ackn[l$ge 8 lov+-k9dness4 ,! rod has be5 ne$ful1 & ! desire ( my he>t is1 t x may be sanctifi$ to me & m9e4 ,my de> "m cont9ues ill1 & mu* h>ass$ by ! enemy4 ,o6 = fai? to take hold ^u ! ,savi\r3 ?r\gh ,him we tread d[n our foes4 ,i c v5ture ^u 8 aton+ blood4 ,h[ va/ my obligations1 & h[ unpr(itable my s]vices1 language fails to tell4--,mr4 ,b\rne1 an old fri5d ( my hon\r$ fa!r1 came & conv]s$ a:ile ) u on ! ?+s p]ta9+ to ! ,k+dom2 !n gave out a v]se or two & pray$4 ,on leav+1 he said1 ',well1 ,m>y1 ,i %all rememb] y1 & y\r family1 & pray = y2 & if ,i live to come to ,york aga91 ,i w come & see y4 ,i felt m pleas$ ?an if he _h giv5 me gold & silv]4--,a day l spr+2 s cle>1 & w>m1 & sunny4 ,i ent]$ ^u x ) /rong desires aft] ,god1 & a sweet s5se ( 8 fav\r4 ,8 pres5ce *e]s my pa?1 & smoo?s my way4 ,visit$ a man app>5tly ne> dea?2 awak5$1 b ,o h[ dang]\s to delay rep5tance until ! la/ h\r6 ,aft] meet+ my class1 ,i call$ ^u ,m>y ,d41 to :om ! ,"l has graci\sly reveal$ himself2 we rejoic$ toge!r :ile %e spoke ( ! ,"l's goodness4 #ahbg4--,:ile int]c$+ on behalf ( my de> "m1 ,i 0 enc\rag$ by ! application ( sev]al suitable promises1 p>ticul>ly1 ',at ev5+ "t x %all be light4' ,! morn+ foll[+ %e told me ( ! com=t %e _h exp]i5c$ dur+ ! night4 ,?is mu/ su/a9 my fai? 9 future4--,my husb& has ?is week decl9$ bus9ess4 ,?\ ,god ( love1 /ill guide our pa?4 ,let u n 'miss our provid5tial way2' b draw u ne>] to ,?yself4--,tak+ tea ) a neighb\r1 ^: salvation ,i h long desir$1 ,i felt x my duty to speak pla9ly ) h] on ! subject2 & 0 greatly enc\rag$ by ! inw>d voice ( ! ,_s1 z also abundantly bless$ :ile engag$ 9 pray]4 ,:e!r ,i 0 ( any use1 ,i "k n1 b my "w is ) ! ,"l4--,i w5t =? to visit ! poor1 n kn[+ :i!r to direct my /eps4 ,i begg$ guidance f above1 & believe ! ,"l he>d me2 =1 q accid5tally ,i 0 l$ to ! b$side ( a woman1 :o _h w&]$ f ,god2 b 9 h] affliction _h f\nd out h] error4 ,%e appe>$ mu* affect$1 & wi%$ me to g aga94--,call$ ^u ,m4,h41 upw>ds ( eighty4 ,%e quot$ _m promises1 :i* 7 especially sweet to h]4 ,x is delightful to visit su*2 ano!r :om ,i saw1 has be5 a p]secutor1 b is n[ seek+ salvation4--,i call$ to see ,mrs4 ,fettes1 :o has long be5 a "m 9 ,israel4 ,my _s 0 refre%$1 :ile %e spoke ( h] exp]i5ce ( ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,aft]w>ds ,i saw ,mrs4 ,r42 ) :om ,i _h a bless$ int]view1 especially at ! ?rone ( grace4 ,my s\l ?ir/s aft] ,god4 ,i feel ,i am sav$1 b ,i want m4--,mr4 ,jos4 ,mortim] conduct$ a meet+ at ,/4 ,george's ,*apel1 9 :i* sixte5 or sev5te5 p]sons obta9$ ! =giv5ess ( s9s4 ,"o man1 :o _h be5 /ruggl+ ab\t two h\rs1 witness$ a good confession be=e _m witnesses4 ,:5 ask$ h[ he felt1 he said1 ',i feel z if ,i 7 9 heav53' & inde$ 8 c\nt5ance te/ifi$ ! happy *ange t _h be5 effect$4 ,my two sons1 ,ri*>d & ,william1 7 mu* ^u my m9d2 b !y rema9 9 good desires4 ,"l1 fa/5 conviction ^u _! he>ts4--,! p[] ( ,god 0 em95tly pres5t 9 ! b&-meet+4 ,my two daught]s1 w5t to ! p5it5t =m1 seek+ a full salvation2 & !re1 glory be to ,god1 !y f\nd x4 ,o t !y may hold fa/ _! confid5ce4 ,my he>t b\nd$ at ! glad news1 :ile te>s gu%$ f my eyes4--,9 ,fossgate s*ool-room a great numb] 7 made happy 9 ,god2 ,i am told ab\t fifty1 & among !m ?ree memb]s ( my class4 ,mrs4 ,r----e & ,mrs4 ,r----n jo9$ me1 at ! 'eve ( ev5+1' to pray = !m4 ,:e!r x is 9 answ] to our pray]s or no1 ?ankful ,i am1 pray] has be5 he>d & answ]$4--,?is ev5+ tw5ty-?ree "y p]sons1 :o h receiv$ spiritual b5efit1 came to my little class4 ,i felt myself v inadequate to in/ruct !m2--complete pov]ty4 ,"l1 help me4 ,mr4 ,mortim] accompani$ me to visit a sick man1 :o1 be=e we left1 pr(ess$ fai? 9 ,jesus4 ,o ! unb\nd$ m]cy ( ,god6 ,i want m ( x4 ,x is e/imat$ t1 dur+ ! week1 n less ?an ?ree hundr$ h be5 br\ght to ,god3 & among !m my ,ri*>d4 ,keep him1 ,o ,"l1 ne> ,?y side1 & tea* him all ,?y w4--,i feel cause ( gratitude to ,god = ,8 m]cy to my family4 ,william has ?is night be5 br\ght "u div9e influ5ce2 glory be to ,god2--a *ild ( _m pray]s & _m fe>s1 b ,god has f\nd him out4 ,o keep him1 bless$ ,jesus4 ,n[ all my family are br\ght to "k ,god except+ little ,john2 = :om ,i pray1 & believe ,god he>s4--,mr4 ,slack divid$ my little company 7ab\t sev5ty72 allott+ ?irty ( !m to ,miss ,g4 ,o ,"l1 s5d u bo? prosp]ity4--,i h lately felt ! con/ant p[] to pray2 &1 ?\gh ,i h no?+ 9 h&1 ,i come to ,jesus1 & receive 'out ( ,8 fulness1 & grace = grace4' ,on ,?ursday ,i wrote to my de> uncle1 endeav\r+1 ?\gh feebly1 to urge him to ! pursuit ( inw>d hol9ess4 ,o ,"l1 bless him1 = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,i ?9k ,i nev] felt a great] desire = ! salvation ( o!rs4 ,9 ?is city ! ,"l /ill cont9ues to c>ry on ,8 "w4--,i accompani$ ,mr4 ,m4 to ,hesl+ton2 we _h a bless$ little meet+4 ,?ree obta9$ ! =giv5ess ( s9s4 ,surely ^! are ! latt] days1 :5 times ( refre%+ are promis$4 ,e day s\ls are sav$1 & set ap>t = ,god4 ,9 our p>l\r la/ ,tuesday1 ,mrs4 ,f4 f\nd lib]ty1 z also h] daught] a few weeks ago4--,mr4 ,mortim] has be5 our gue/ ! la/ mon?1 & w rema9 ano!r week4 ,he is a man ( ,god4 ,next week we expect ,mr4 ,is4 ,clayton4 ,i e/eem x an hon\r conf]r$ ^u u to ent]ta9 ! m9i/]s ( ! ,"l2 b a mu* great] hon\r1 t ! ,"l condesc5ds to dwell 9 my he>t4 ,o may ,i ev] walk1 & dwell 9 ,him4--,aft] a week ( indisposition1 m+l$ ) mu* excitem5t1 ,i feel solid re/ 9 ,god4 ,we _h a bless$ "t 9 ! b&-meet+4 ,i ?9k ,i 0 nev] m fully deliv]$ f ! creature4 ,h[ sweet to live above ! _w6 ,z ,i return$4 ,miss ,c4 jo9$ me1 & in=m$ me :at ! ,"l has done = h] s\l4 ,%e believes ,he has tak5 full possession ( h] he>t4 ,i rejoic$ :ile %e imp>t$ ! bless$ news4 ,%e expresses h]self cle>ly4 ,o may %e ev] hold x fa/4 ,i gave ! foll[+ l9es to ,miss ,a4 ,a4 on h] bir?day2 may !y be made a bless+ to h]4 ,h[ important ! season6 ,big ) et]nal results6--born = et]nity6 ,let x be a day ( reflection1 d$ication1 & pray]2 & if ! foll[+ l9es prove any assi/ance to y1 ,i %all be amply repaid4 ,aga9 ! happy morn appe>s2 ,& nature1 clo!d 9 beauty1 we>s ,h] wont$ col\rs2 & ! rose ,9 all its pride ( lu/re gl[s2 ,emblem ( frail mortality6 ,x buds & blossoms b to die3 ,too soon its glory fades away1 ,! pass+ pageant ( a day4 ,9 ?is fair fl[]1 y\r image trace2 ,:ile y\? sits smil+ on y\r face1 ,secure ^? virtues1 :i* p]fume ,! life1 :5 beauty fails to bloom-- ,! ri* adorn+ fir/ design$1 ,! ve/ure ( a humble m9d4 ,be y\rs1 9 ri* abundance giv51 ,! treasure ( an inw>d heav54' ,h5ce virtue takes its deepe/ root1 ,& scatt]s fragrance 9 ! %oot2 ,blossoms :5 y\? ha? pass$ away1 ,matur+ = et]nal day4 ,reflect2 ! mom5t flies6 'tis gone6 ,! ye> its rapid c\rse ha? run6 ,:at tid+s h be5 w+$ to heav51 ,s9ce fir/ ! preci\s boon 0 giv58 ,exam9e well2 nor fe> to "k1 ,:at tru? may 9 its mirror %[4 ,is ?is1 y\r tw5tie? bir?day1 ble/ ,) m ( wisdom 9 y\r brea/8 ,are y\r affections m div9e8 ,d y 9 ,jesus' image %9e8 ,m dead unto ! _w & s91 ,?an :5 y did ! ye> beg98 ,if fraught ) tru? our mom5ts are1 ,& swift to heav5 ! tid+s be>2 ,h[ %\ld we weigh ea* act & ^w1 ,& wisely ?9k1 = ?\ghts are he>d6 ,at ?is important p]iod pause1 ,& unto ,god commit y\r cause2 ,) firm resolve & e>ne/ pray]1 ,to meet ,him 9 ! cl\ds1 prep>e4 ,him fir/1 ,him la/1 9 all ?+s own1 ,^: wisdom guides 9 pa?s unkn[n2 ,!n1 z ! w+$ h\rs asc5d1 ,%all bless+s fall ^u my fri5d2 ,till1 full ( ye>s1 matur$ y rise ,to claim y\r bir?right 9 ! skies4 ,x4 ,,works ,,( ,,m]cy4 ,i ,,desir$ ,,m]cy1 ,,& ,,n ,,sacrifice4--,hosea vi4 #f4 ,m]cy is ! brightness ( ! glory ( ,god2--! ra9b[ r\nd ab\t ! ?rone2 :]e9 ! pure light ( ,deity1 too effulg5t = ! eye ( s9ful man1 is refract$1 & pres5t$ "u an aspect1 :i* n only reveals 8 manifold wisdom1 & p]fections1 b bl5ds !m 9 "o bright manife/ation ( beauty1 :i* ev5 s9n]s may d>e to contemplate1 ) wond]1 admiration & love4 ,jesus ,*ri/ is ! embodim5t ( ! picture1 be+ ! brightness ( ! ,fa!r's glory1 full ( grace & tru?4 ,:ile ,he ent]s ! l[ly abodes ( humanity1 to contemplate its sorr[s1 & m9i/] to its relief2 ! dazzl+ effulg5ce ( div9e maje/y is veil$ "u a cov]+ ( fle%4 ,nev]!less1 x is ,,god :o weeps ) ,m>?a1 & ,m>y2 :o wipes away ! wid['s te>1 & speaks words ( com=t to ! outca/4 ,incompreh5sible ,my/]y6 ,x is ,,god inc>nate1 :o suff]s & dies ^u ! cross to pur*ase life = ,8 enemies4 ,:at a picture is ?is6 ,s f> z x is capable ( be+ reproduc$1 ,god loves to see x reviv$ 9 ,8 *ildr52 & nev] does a man become m truly great1 or m fai?fully repres5t 8 ,ma/]1 ?an :51 putt+ on b[els ( m]cies1 he seeks by e means to alleviate ! sorr[s & suff]+s ( 8 fell[s4 ,bless$ are ! m]ciful1 = !y %all obta9 m]cy4 ,at ?is p]iod1 ,mrs4 ,ly?'s j\rnal ab\nds ) in/ances ( h] b5evol5t ex]tions1 b a few ( :i* we c transf] to ^! pages2 yet !y are ev] record$ ) an humble consci\sness ( h] own unwor?9ess4 ,%e proce$s3-- ,i want to improve all my mom5ts = ,god1 b1 on review+ ! pa/1 ,i f9d ,i ne$ ev]y:]e ! blood ( spr9kl+4 ,i am ,?9e1 save me4 ,i feel ,*ri/ is preci\s n[4 ,he has my :ole he>t1 yet ,i want an increase ( e grace1 especially ( pati5ce1 & meekness4--,i feel my own pov]ty is great2 be x s1 let me only receive m l>gely out ( ,?y fulness4 ,humble1 ,o humble me to ! du/1 b let ,?y image %9e 9 me4 ,:ile ,i write ,i am aw$ by ! pres5ce ( ,deity4 ,oh let x cont9ually surr\nd me4 ,jona?an ,saville met my de> little flock2 ,i felt my own littl5ess1 :ile he spoke to u4--,i accompani$ my husb& to ,b>nb[1 to invite ,mr4 ,dawson to come & prea* ,dr4 ,mc,allum's fun]al s]mon2 :i* he cons5t$ to d4 ,to me x 0 a day ( ri* enjoym5t1 = my s\l 0 happy 9 ,god4 ,i recogniz$ ,8 pres5ce 9 ! heav5s above1 & ! e>? b5ea?2 inde$ ev]y?+ spoke ( ,him4 ,i took tea ) ,mrs4 ,r----n1 :o desir$ me to pay a little att5tion to ! moral & religi\s "* ( h] son1 resid5t = a "t 9 ,york4 ,o :at a responsibility6 ,i write x "h t ,i may rememb]4--,mrs4 ,r----n has come to /ay a few days ) u4 ,on ,tuesday1 we breakfa/$ ) a few pray+ fri5ds at ,mrs4 ,f4's4 ,:ile plead+ ) ,god a bless$ influ5ce re/$ ^u all4 ,i felt z if let into ,god4 ,:at w x be :5 pray] is turn$ to praise8 ,to-day we _h ano!r baptism at ,miss ,c4's4 ,! same fri5ds 7 pres5t4 ,surely ,*ri/ian fri5d%ip is "o s\l 9 _m bodies2 :o c express ! unity8--',jesus is br++ lo/ s9n]s to ,god2' ,glory be to ,god6 ,i feel x my duty to pay m att5tion to my boys2 pray+ = !m is n en\gh4 ,i mu/ w>n1 & daily inculcate _! duty & privilege4 ,"l help me4--,i visit$ ,mrs4 ,f41 & f\nd x pr(itable to conv]se ) an ag$ sa9t2 we 7 com=t$ toge!r4 ,%e said ! ,"l _h s5t me4 ,x is true ,i pray$ = direction1 & ! promise is1 if we ackn[l$ge ,him1 ,he w direct our /eps4 ,ev]more guide me4--,mr4 ,mortim] & 8 bro!r breakfa/$ ) u4 ,:ile at family-pray] ! latt]1 :o _h backslidd51 began to cry al\d = m]cy2 ! ,"l spe$ily came to 8 deliv]5ce1 & pray] 0 turn$ to praise4--,i w5t to ! ,sabba? ,s*ool tea-meet+2 b d\bt$ :e!r ,i 0 9 my prop] place4 ,h[ev]1 ,i resolv$ to s5d ,william & ,john to ! ,s*ool1 simply ) ! hope t _! m9ds might be impress$ ) div9e tru?4--,?ursday4 ,a day devot$ to works ( m]cy1 bo? to ! bodies & s\ls ( m52 9 :i* ,i pray$ to be sav$ f self1 & direct$ aright2 b h[ feeble & imp]fect my ef=ts6 ,i feel myself a poor no?+4--,:ile visit+ ,mr4 ,s41 :o is 9 a dy+ /ate1 ,i 0 mu* enc\rag$4 ,he has long be5 a he>]1 b neglect$ to embrace salvation4 ,:ile ,i 0 plead+ = him1 he exclaim$1 ',i believe1 ,i believe4' ,i saw him aga9 ! next day1 & on ask+ him if he felt ,*ri/ preci\s1 he said1 aft] a %ort pause1 ',preci\s1 q preci\s4'--,i 0 mu* affect$ by a circum/ance relat$ by ! ,rev4 ,rob]t ,wood1 ( an em95tly pi\s man 9 ----2 :o has n be5 se5 to smile = f\r ye>s1 & :5 ask$ ! reason1 uni=mly replies1 ',! ^w ( ,god is true2 ! wages ( s9 is dea?2 my son di$ 9 8 s9s1 & is n[ 9 hell4 ,h[ c ,i be *e]ful8' ,may ?is make me m ?an ev] 9 e>ne/ 9 plead+ = my sons4--,i am aim+ to h a consci5ce void ( (f5ce 9 ! sight ( ,god & man2 b1 on exam9+ my do+s1 ,i am a%am$ ( !m4 ,i might h us$ great] dilig5ce1 evid5c$ m love1 spok5 ) great] propriety1 cultivat$ a m affable _s4 ,i might h be5 m po9t$ 9 address1 m con/ant1 m humble1 & 9 _m ways h act$ ) great] ,*ri/ian consi/5cy2 b ,jesus is my refuge4 ,prais$ be ,8 "n1 ,i love ,him6--,at ! lovefea/ ,mr4 ,w4 /at$1 t a man 9 ,l---- _h five sons1 = ^: salvation he _h importunately pray$1 f ! "t ( _! bir? until he di$2 b )\t success4 ,!y all foll[$ 8 rema9s to ! grave2 &1 z !y 7 tak+ _! la/ look at ! c(f9 aft] ! usual s]vice1 "o ( !m clasp$ 8 h&s & exclaim$3--',i once _h a pray+ fa!r2 b !re he lies2 & n[ ,i mu/ pray = myself4' ,f t mom5t he comm5c$ a new life1 & 0 soon br\ght to ! k ( ! tru?4 ,)9 two ye>s ! re/ 7 all truly conv]t$ to ,god3 enc\ragem5t = p>5ts4--,i pray$ t ! ,"l w\ld direct my /eps 9 visit+ ! poor1 & 9 ?is ,he answ]$ me3 = q unexpect$ly ,i 0 s5t = to ! b$side ( a woman app>5tly dy+1 & :o1 be+ awak5$ to h] lo/ condition1 lam5t$ ! neglect ( pa/ opportunities4 ,:ile a fri5d 0 pray+ %e began to pray = h]self1 fai? in/antly sprang up 9 h] he>t1 & %e cri$ out1 ',i w believe1 ,"l help me1 ,i nev] felt x s ) me be=e4'--,glory be to ,god1 ,i am /ill a witness ( ,8 sav+ grace2 ?\gh buffet$ by ! enemy )91 & expos$ to temptation f )\t4 ,i see ! pa? lies /raight be=e me1--'look+ unto ,jesus1' :o is yet alive4 ,if ,i proce$1 ,i feel confid5t ( conque/ ov] all my enemies4--,mr4 ,b>nabas ,%aw met my ,sunday class & said1 t once :5 prea*+ 9 ,africa1 he exclaim$3--',:at is x makes ! ,gospel s sweet8' ,"o ( ! natives in/antly arose & said1 ',jesus4' ,truly x is s4 ,my s\l tangs on ,jesus2 "h ,i f9d re/4 ,! la/ few days ,i h be5 endeav\r+ to live 9 ! w ( ,god1 ) "s p[] to d x4 ,to ,god be all ! glory = ! "w ,he has wr\ght4 ,ye/]day ,i took ! sacram5t ) poor ,m>y ,f41 :o is prais+ ,god = ! grace manife/$ to h] on a dea?-b$4 ,h[ quickly "t flies6 ,well1 let x g-- ,if ,jesus my companion be1 ,my words & actions %all agree1 ,! index ( my s\l2 ,meekness1 b5evol5ce1 & love1 ,%all e secret purpose move4 ,& sanctify ! :ole4 ,! foll[+ lett] 0 s5t1 ) ! articles specifi$1 to "s unkn[n p]son 9 ,nott+ham2 & ! subject ( x rema9$ a secret 9 h] own bosom1 until ! copy 0 f\nd among h] pap]s4 ,de> ,sir1--,hav+ a little matt] to put into y\r h&s 9 aid ( ! ,me?odi/ ,missions1 ,i take ! lib]ty ( address+ a few l9es to y4 ,! approa* ( y\r ,annual ,meet+ at ,nott+ham rem9ds me ( :at ,i h se5 & he>d on su* occasions2 viz41 t small donations1 & comp>atively trivial incid5ts1 9 ! h&s ( y\r +5i\s & able speak]s1 h (t5 be5 turn$ to good acc\nt1 & produc$ a v happy impression4 ,?is consid]ation induces me to m5tion a few p>ticul>s relative to myself1 :i* o!rwise w\ld be imp]t95t4 ,:5 v "y1 a k9d fri5d ( m9e1 = :om ,i _h a great affection1 gave me a piece ( silv] newly co9$1 ) :i* ,i 0 s well pleas$1 t ,i 0 resolv$ to keep x = ! sake ( ! giv]2 or1 z ! common phrase is1 to make a keepsake ( x3 & ?is resolution ,i held s sacr$1 t nei!r *ildi% toy1 or y\?ful pleasure1 c\ld wre/ ! treasure f me4 ,:5 9 my tw5tie? ye>1 x pleas$ ,god to br+ me to ! k ( ,8 salvation2 :i* s rejoic$ my he>t1 t ! natural consequ5ce 0 a read9ess on all occasions to contribute my mite to promote ! cause ( ! ,r$eem]1 ?r\gh :om ,i _h exp]i5c$ su* unspeakable happ9ess4 ,on "o occasion x happ5$1 t ,i _h no money ab\t me b ?is piece1 :i* ,i _h s long & sacr$ly kept 9 remembrance ( my fri5d4 ,z ! collectors 7 h&+ ! boxes r\nd to ! diff]5t pews1 ,i began to argue 9 my m9d ! propriety ( giv+ away my piece1 z ! be/ way ( keep+ x4 ,! ?\ght ( lay+ x out ^u myself ,i c\ld n ent]ta9 = a mom5t2 & 0 aw>e !re w\ld come a "t :5 ,i c\ld no long] reta9 x4 ,at l5g?1 to te/ ! propriety ( giv+ x1 ,i suppos$ ,i _h done s2 & aft]w>ds met my mu*-lov$ fri5d 9 ! _w ( spirits4 ,i imag9$ %e 0 well acqua9t$ ) :at ,i _h done2 b1 on consult+ h] c\nt5ance1 ,i c\ld n p]ceive ! lea/ m>k ( displeasure3 on ! contr>y1 ,i ?\ght %e gave me a smile ( approbation4 ,?is det]m9$ me2 accord+ly1 :5 ! box 0 pres5t$ to me1 ,i dropp$ my piece into x2 & f t mom5t to ! pres5t1 :5ev] ! circum/ance has occurr$ to me1 ,i h always felt p]fectly satisfi$ ) my decision4 ,at ! pres5t ,i h a few *oice ?+s1 bequea!d to me by a de> fri5d1 n[1 ,i tru/1 9 heav52 & ,i wi%1 z 9 ! =m] in/ance1 to keep !m = ! sake ( ! giv]2 b ,i c ?9k ( no means s satisfactory z t to :i* ,i h adv]t$4 ,i !re=e s5d !m z specifi$ 9 ! m>g92 ,footnote3 ,! articles 7--a silv] c(fee-pot & /&1 a silv] plat$ tea-pot1 a silv] cream-jug1 d4 fi%-knife1 & half-a-doz5 d4 dess]t spoons4 & reque/ !y may be appropriat$ to ! fur!rance ( ! ,gospel ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,p]haps "s may be dispos$ to "q ! propriety ( su* a mode ( pres]v+ _! treasure2 b1 ,i ?9k1 ,i _c d bett] ?an put ! preci\s ?+s to ^? :i* are mo/ preci\s4 ,) mo/ f]v5t pray] = ! prosp]ity ( ,zion1 ,i rema91 ,de> ,sir1 ,y\rs mo/ respectfully4 ,my "m cont9ues v ill2 h[ x w t]m9ate ,i "k n4 ,h] affliction b[s h] d[n to ! du/2 & ?\gh %e ca/s h]self ^u ! ,"l1 %e seems to h no joy\s feel+4 ,i h be5 ) h] night & day4 ,sometimes sorr[ ov]comes me2 b ! promise1 :i* ,i receiv$ "s mon?s s9ce1 :5 ,i 0 pray+ = h]1 foll[s me daily3 ',at ev5+ "t x %all be light1'--,at ! ,wat*-night s]vice ,mr4 ,wood desir$ u1 on our return home1 to take p5 & pap]1 & te/ify :om we w\ld s]ve4 ,to ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 ,i plight my v[s2 9 ! /r5g? ( ,?y grace1 ,i ,,w ,,s]ve ,,!e4 ,?\1 :o see/ me1 ratify ! decision 9 heav54 ,help me to p]=m :at ,?\ require/ ( me4 ,my tal5ts1 my "t1 my body1 my s\l2 be :olly ,?9e4 ,am51 & am54 ,,m>y ,,ly?4 ,"h ) ! clos+ ye>1 ,i w\ld my v[s r5ew2 ,humbly be=e ,?y ?rone appe>2 ,9 m]cy d ,?\ deign to he>1 ,desc5d1 & bless me n[4 #ahbh4--,:5 ,i awoke1 ?is bless$ admonition 0 giv5 me = a morn+ repa/2 ',abide ye 9 ,my love2' & sweet x 0 to my ta/e4 ,a ,,bir?day ,,?\ght4 ,no cold wi% d ,i express1-- ,_m bir?day's happ9ess2 ,b 9 he>t s9c]ely pray1 ,god may dwell 9 y ea* day2 ,e day1 a bir?day prove1 ,born anew 9 ,jesus' love4 ,i 0 s5t = to visit ,l4,g41 b %e did n come to see me4 ,oh6 :at a deplorable case6 )\t ,god6 )\t hope6 & )\t desire6 ,h] fri5ds1 :o _h come = me1 seem$ conc]n$ on h] acc\nt4 ,"l1 lay to ,?y mighty h&2 ! "w is ,?9e4 ,prais$ be ,?y "n1 = op5+ my eyes1 once equally bl9d1 ?\gh at a mu* e>li] p]iod4 ,i am a mu* great] debtor to grace1 because ( its long cont9uance1 great =be>ance1 & incessant ef=ts to w9 my wor?less he>t4 ,,my ,,w$d+ ,,day4 ,,l9es ,,address$ ,,to ,,my ,,husb&4 ,full ?rice sev5 ye>s ,i've %>$ y\r home & "n1 ,nor yet ext+ui%$ is affection's flame3 ,by reason temp]$1 n[ ) /eady heat1 ,x bright] gl[s1 f$ by ende>m5ts sweet4 ,hail !n ! day1 t made u "o on e>?1 ,yet n ) pipe1 & song1 & fooli% mir?2 ,ba!r to ,god let u our v[s repay ,) he>ts unit$2--at ,8 foot/ool say ,we w be ,?9e2 call u ,?y love1 ,?y bride1 ,& let u %elt] 9 ,?y ble$+ side4 ,s :5 dissolv$ ! matrimonial *a91 ,we die1 to live2 & live1 to meet aga94 ,transport+ ?\ght6 ?r\gh our ,r$eem]'s love1 ,we h ! promise ( a h\se above2 ,dea? disappe>s1 ) all 8 sable tra91 ,& light1 & life1 & love = ev] reign4 ,come !n1 my love1 let u toge!r rise1 ,=get ! ?+s beh9d1 & seek ! prize2 ,by f]v5cy ( _s daily %[ ,we pilgrims are1 & soj\rn]s bel[3 ,& %\ld "s /orm ( fi]ce affliction come1 ,port5d+ %ipwreck 9 ! sight ( home2 ,9 ,jesus an*or$1 /r5g? %all be suppli$1 ,till we ! fury ( ! /orm outride2 ,& rea* ! hav5 ( s]5e repose1 ,:]e all our sorr[s %all = ev] close4 ,am51 s be x1 let our he>ts reply1-- ,9 ,*ri/ made "o1--9 ,him to live & die2 ,9 life1 our happ9ess unit$ be1 ,9 dea?1 divid$ n1--et]nally4 ,i h giv5 my husb& a copy ( ^! l9es ?is morn+1 propos+ t we devote "o h\r = ! special purpose ( d$icat+ ourselves to ! ,"l4 ,may we d x ) unfeign$ he>ts4 ,i feel humbl$ on acc\nt ( ! pa/2 resolv$ at ! pres5t2 & enc\rag$ = ! future4--,hav+ occasion to adm9i/] repro(1 ,i spoke ) great] sev]ity ?an ! circum/ances requir$4 ,o :5 %all ,i possess t self-gov]nm5t1 :i* temp]s e ^w & action4 ,?\gh suff]+ f indisposition1 my m9d is kept 9 peace4 ,unwor?y z ,i am1 ,*ri/ is preci\s4 ,,address$ ,,to ,,my ,,little ,,john1 ,,?is ,,day ,,sev5 ,,ye>s ,,old4 ,l9k$ ) ! memories ( ! day1 ,y\r "n ! fir/ appe>s2 ,a little /rang]1 did !y say1 ,a transi5t visit comes to pay1 ,& /ill we hail y\r long] /ay ,?\gh n[ 'tis full sev5 ye>s4 ,my lovely boy1 y\r soj\rn "h1 ,awak5s anxi\s c>e2 ,y\r t5d] m9d aright to re>2 ,y\r /eps to gu>d f dang] ne>2 ,oh6 might ! ,god ( m]cy he>1 ,& bless a "m's pray]4 ,"k !n1 my *ild1 ,god speaks to-day1 ,my son1 give me ?y he>t4 ,oh6 w y n )\t delay1 ,9 secret g to ,god & pray1 ,t he w\ld take y\r s9s away1 ,& ,8 pure love imp>t8 ,i'm sure ,he loves to he> y pray2 ,to-day !n1 d beg92 ,he'll he>k5 unto :at y say1 ,& nev] turn ,8 e> away1 ,b answ] y f day to day1 ,if y w give up s94 ,i love y1 ,john1 y "k ,i d2 ,god loves y m ?an ,i2 ,z once on ,samuel1 n[ on y ,he calls1 ,o may y answ] too2 ,speak1 ,"l1 ,?y s]vant's he>t r5ew1 ,= at ,?y feet ,i lie4 ,good *ildr5 ev] are incl9$ ,ob$i5tly to live2 ,humble1 & tea*able1 & k9d1 ,!y wi% to "k ! ,savi\r's m9d1 ,& (t5 seek t !y may f9d1 ,:at ,god alone c give4 ,z ,i w5t to meet my class x 0 sugge/$1 z x 0 also ! la/ "t1 ',:o ha? reaquir$ ?is at y\r h&s8' ,is x f an enemy8 or am ,i 9 a wrong position8 ,! p seem to prosp]1 & ! ,"l gives me lib]ty among !m2 b (t5 has a cl\d ga!r$ ov] my _s :5 ,i h be5 go+ to meet !m4 ,o ,"l1 remove my d\bts1 & guide me by ,?y c\nsel4 ,i wi% to s9k into ,?y w2 use me or lay me aside2 only let ,?y w be done4--,! la/ week has be5 to _m a season ( high enjoym5t2 b = myself1 al?\gh ,i rejoice 9 ! success ( missions1 my s\l has n yet le>n$ to pres]ve its c5tre 9 ! mid/ ( ! excitem5t1 :i* on su* occasions (t5 falls to my lot4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,isaac 7 ) u f ,monday till ,w$nesday2 & on ,friday aft]noon1 ! ,york%ire b>d1 ,james ,montgom]y1 ,esq41 ) sev]al o!r fri5ds1 0 ) u at tea4 ,my m9d 0 kept 9 peace1 & dur+ s++ & pray] ,i f\nd x pr(itable4 ,mr4 ,montgom]y presid$ at ! ,mission>y ,meet+1 :i* by "s is pron\nc$ ! be/ !y ev] att5d$4 ,surely x 0 ! pres5ce ( ! ,great ,head ( ! ,*ur*1 :i* made x s4--,we _h a bless$ season at ! class4 ,aft]w>ds ,i w5t to ,albion ,/reet ,s*ool4 ,a class ( girls retir$ ) me into ! little room1 = ! purpose ( conv]sation & pray]3 :ile !y li/5$ ! te>s />t$ 9 _! eyes4 ,i feel deeply conc]n$ = _! salvation4 ,! "w is ,?9e2 ^! s\ls are ,?9e2 help me1 ,"l1 to d ,?y "w fai?fully2 t success may foll[4 ,?is morn+ ,i 0 mu* ex]cis$4 ,afflictions sanctifi$ ,are bless+s k9dly giv52 ,!y1 :o ! fi]y te/ abide1 ,receive an inw>d heav54 ,t ,k+dom1 ,"l1 be m9e1 ,j z ,?y goodness wills2 ,a he>t r5ew$1 a w resign$1 ,a s\l1 t ,jesus fills4 ,!n1 e grace %all gr[2 ,its fruits 9 beauty %9e2 ,f love %all e action fl[1 ,& all ! praise be ,?9e4 ,i h be5 to see aft] two ( my memb]s1 ov] :om ,i fe> ,i h cause to m\rn4 ,"o 0 gone out1 yet c\ld n come to class6 ,! o!r 0 9 b$6 ,i fe> !re is a de>? ( spiritual feel+4 ,"l1 give me wisdom & fai?fulness4--,aft] collect+ = ! ,missions1 ,i visit$ a memb] ( m9e 9 ! hospital1 & pray$ ) sev]al ( ! afflict$ 9 ! w>d4 ,! p]son1 :om ,i w5t to see "s "t ago1 is recov]+1 & wi%es to jo9 ) u4 ,kirkby4 ,i arriv$ "h ye/]day ab\t t5 o'clock1 aft] a delightful j\rney2 & am resolv$1 t *ange ( sc5e %all make no diff]5ce 9 my religi\s feel+s2 unless1 by ! opportunity ( retirem5t1 ,i get clos] to ! ,"l4 ,my he>+ is a little dull1 b my pray] is1 t ?is affliction may be sanctifi$2 & remov$1 :5 ! ,"l pleases4 ,*ri/ 9 me is ! s\rce ( my happ9ess4 ,i hung] aft] righte\sness2 m fai?--humility--meekness--love4 ,o h[ beautiful are ! fruits ( grace6 ,! ri* clu/]s ( ! heav5ly v9e1 invite my long+ ta/e4--,sp5t two nights at ,follifoot1 ) ,miss ,b4 ,i w5t ) ! resolution ( conv]s+ ) h] on ! necessity ( a *ange ( he>t2 & on reflection h no gr\nd ( condemnation2 only1 ,i might h us$ great] e>ne/ness4 ,my "t has pass$ m pleasantly ?an ,i anticipat$4 ,we took a walk ?r\gh ! p>k to ! late resid5ce ( a g5tleman1 :o has be5 oblig$ to leave ! c\ntry1 9 consequ5ce ( 8 own extravagance1 & imprud5ce4 ,8 beautiful mansion is s9k+ 9 ru9s2 & loa?some reptiles are its only occupants4 ,su* is e>?ly gr&eur2 & su* ! man1 t makes n ,god 8 refuge4 ,! gr\nds are delightful2 b = want ( prop] cultivation1 beg9 to %[ evid5t m>ks ( ! curse3--?orns & ?i/les spr++ up 9 abundance4 ,molly accompani$ me back ) ! grey pony2 &1 z %e walk$ by my side1 ,i w>n$ h] to flee f ! wra? to come4--,walk$ to ,pannal2 "h ,i f\nd ne$ ( wat*fulness1 & c\rage2 all--9 nature's night2 bless$ ) e>?ly good2 b de/itute ( heav5ly peace4 ,i pray$ ) ! family ea* ev5+2 & spoke to ea* memb]1 ) ! exception ( ,mr4 ----1 on ! ne$ ( prep>ation = ano!r _w2 b my ef=ts 7 feeble4 ,my happie/ h\rs h be5 sp5t 9 retirem5t1 & solit>y walks2 "o ( :i*1 0 extremely delightful4 ,! picturesqu5ess ( ! sc5]y1 comb9$ ) smil+ heav5s1 conspir$ to raise my m9d to ,him1 ^: =m+ h& has adorn$ all nature1 & has rais$ my s\l f dea? to life4 ,! sc5e vividly call$ to remembrance my belov$ c\s9 ,ann2 ) :om on ?is v spot1 ,i _h pass$ "s ( ! happie/ mom5ts ( my life4 ,i felt :at ,i _c put into words4 ,on my return to ,york1 ,i f\nd ,eliza1 ba?+ h] face aft] ! application ( lee*es2 & ,m>y1 putt+ ,john to b$1 9 ! measles4 ,su* is life6 ,x is ! ,"l1 & to ,8 w1 ,i w\ld pati5tly submit4 ,,xi4 ,a ,,dy+ ,,sc5e4 ,,preci\s ,,9 ,,! ,,sight ,,( ,,! ,,"l ,,is ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,,8 ,,sa9ts4--,psalm cxvi4 #ae4 ,h[ solemn1 & in/ructive1 is ! sc5e ( dea?6 ,:at a satire ^u ! pride1 pomp1 & vanity ( ! _w6 & yet1 :5 reliev$ by ! *e]+ exp]i5ce ( div9e tru?1 :at a bless$ confirmation ( all t ! ,bible tells u6 ,! utt]ances ( ! dy+ ,sa9t1 come home to our he>ts ) peculi> =ce4 ,x is z if ! _s ( ! dep>t+1 hav+ rea*$ ! b\nd>y ( "t1 & look+ =? on ! uncl\d$ sc5e beyond1 %\t$ back to its companions yet envelop$ ) ! mi/s & gloom ( e>?3 ,x is all true1 y h only to foll[ on a little fur!r1 & ! glori\s prospect w bur/ ^u y4 ,mrs4 ,ly? seems to h c>efully treasur$ ! la/ words ( ^?1 :o1 )9 ! circle ( h] acqua9tance1 di$ 9 ! ,"l2 & 9 ! case ( p>ticul> fri5ds1 ^! notices sometimes ext5d to sev]al pages3 z if %e delight$ to l+] on ! bord]s ( ano!r _w1 & to cat* a mom5t>y glimpse ( its happ9ess1 & ! di/ant s\nd ( ! h>p]s1 h>p+ ) _! h>ps4 ,an example occurs 9 ! c\rse ( ! foll[+ extracts4 ,at ! two o'clock class1 _m 7 9 te>s2 :ile o!rs te/ifi$ ( ! ,"l's goodness4 ,we 71 z "o ( ! little hills ( ,zion1 refre%$ by ! dew f above4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i rema9$ at home1 int5d+1 if ! way op5$1 to g & see my c\s9 ,elizabe?1 :o is v ill4 ,john is recov]+2 ,eliza is /ill unwell1 b ,i w leave !m 9 ! ,"l's h&s4--,a little be=e six1 ,i left my c\s9 ,elizabe? mu* bett]1 & happy 9 ,god4 ,%e told me t 9 ! night %e c\ld sc>cely refra9 f s++3-- ',"h we raise our voices high]1 ,%\t 9 ! ref9]'s fire1 ,clap our h&s amid ! flame1 ,glory give to ,jesus' "n4' ,on analys+ ! feel+s ( my he>t1 ,i f9d a disposition to brood ov] trifl+ grievances2 ?is robs my peace1 & enc\rages an unfav\rable op9ion ( ^? :o occasion !m4 ,?is is surely "s ( ! fil?9ess ( ! _s f :i* ,i mu/ be cleans$3 ,i feel a%am$ ( x2 ,"l1 deliv] me4--,h be5 to see ,fanny ,mc,d4 ,%e is v ill 9 body1 b :5 ask$ respect+ h] s\l1 %e said1 ',i h _h a fea/ to-day :ile alone ) ,jesus1 my ,r$eem]4' ,%e is "o ( ! ,"l's jewels1 l ,laz>us1 enclos$ 9 a casket ( rags4 ,aft] he>+ ,mr4 ,vev]s prea* f 'we mu/ all appe> at ! judgm5t-seat ( ,*ri/1' ,i dreamt ,i saw ! heav5s melt+ ) f]v5t heat4 ,i felt no condemnation1 b began to pray e>ne/ly4 ,! impression1 :i* ?is has made on my m9d1 has awak5$ increas$ e>ne/ness--,a /rang] came into ! class1 :o 0 mu* affect$2 gladly w\ld ,i h travell$ 9 bir? = h]1 until ,*ri/ 0 =m$ 9 h] he>t2 b our "t 0 limit$1 & %e w5t m\rn+ away4 ,f !nce ,i w5t to ,albion ,/reet ,s*ool1 to conv]se ) "s ( ! *ildr52 sev]al ( !m wept4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i att5d$ ,/4 ,john's ,*ur*4 ,i c enjoy a ,gospel m9i/ry 9 ! *ur*1 z well z ! *apel3 true religion de/roys e wall ( p>tition4--,i receiv$ a v affect+ lett] f c\s9 ,p5elope4 ,elizabe? is 9 a v afflict$1 b happy /ate4 ,dur+ ! night ,i h be5 wakeful1 & mu* drawn out 9 pray]2 b felt reprov$ = hav+ pur*as$ some?+ :i* ,i c\ld h done )\t4 ,i ackn[l$ge my weakness4 ,may ! ,"l give me a deep] s5se ( my responsibility1 z ! /ew>d ( ,8 manifold gifts4--,retir$ f ! bu/le ( ! city to ,ea/field ,h\se4 ,i took a walk to ! village1 & call$ to see ,miss ,h4 on my way to ! class-meet+4 ,we jo9$ 9 social pray]1 :5 my fri5d exclaim$1 ',i w believe1 ,i d believe4' ,x 0 a bless$ season2--a "t ( ! break+ ( bonds4--,c\s9 ,samuel came ) a gig1 to convey me to ,s9n+ton4 ,i f\nd my de> c\s9 ready to take h] flight to a bett] _w2 or z %e h]self says3 ',gladly w\ld ,i flee away1 ,loos$ f e>?1 no long] /ay4' ,%e has giv5 up all1 & is n[ pati5tly wait+ h] dismissal4 ,x is a privilege to sit by ! b$side ( "o ?us fully prep>$1 & sanctifi$ ?r\gh ! m]its ( ,*ri/4 ',glory be to ,god1' %e exclaim$1 '?\gh x has co/ me _m te>s = my unfai?fulness1 ! ,"l has =giv5 me3 yet ,i believe x w lesson t et]nal weight ( glory ,i might h _h4' ,be+ ask$ if %e _h no wi% = e>?1 %e repli$1 ',o no1 n "o3 ,i h b "o wi%1 & t is1 to be fully ripe = glory3' & add$1 ',i %\ld l to talk to y ( ! preci\sness ( ,jesus1 b ,i _c4' ,:ile we 7 alone1 %e /ret*$ out h] )]$ arms1 & drew me to h] side2 !n hold+ me fa/1 %e said1 ',let me reque/ ( y1 my de> c\s91 t y w /ay a little ) my si/]s :5 ,i am gone3 x is my dy+ reque/4' ,i promis$ ,i w\ld1 if possible4 ,c\ld ,i d less8 ,%e add$1 '!y h no "o to com=t !m1 &1 :5 !y are l[1 !y are v l[ inde$3 x w relieve my m9d if y w4' ,o ,?\1 ^: ,i am1 & :om ,i s]ve1 direct my way4 ,i h said1 place me :]e ,?\ wilt1 only let ,?y provid5ce guide my /eps4--,i left my ,william poorly1 & am hop+ soon to he> f home3 mean:ile1 ,i am enc\rag$ :ile br++ !m to ! ?rone ( grace4 ,?ank ,god1 = ! privilege ( ca/+ my c>e ^u ,him6 ,i feel ,he c>es = me4 ,pray] by ! side ( my afflict$ c\s9 has be5 a bless+ to my s\l4 ,surely ,i am privileg$3-- ',! *amb]1 :]e ! good man meets 8 fate1 ,is privileg$ beyond ! common walk ,( virtu\s life1 q on ! v]ge ( heav54' ,?is morn+1 :5 ask$ h[ %e 01 %e repli$1 ',?is has be5 a preci\s night2 ! ,"l has promis$ me1 ,he w be ) me to ! end4' ,h] c\gh 0 v tr\blesome1 b %e said1 ',i feel no disposition to murmur1 b ,i _c help moan+4 ,! ,"l is v preci\s4' ,"p ( ! day %e lay greatly compos$1 ) h] h&s clasp$4 ,on ent]+ ! room %e acco/$ me )3 ',i am h>d toil+ to make ! ble/ %ore4 ,i h be5 mu* h>ass$ by ! enemy1 :o tells me ,i %all be ca/ away2 b ,i re/ on ! blood & righte\sness ( ,*ri/3 ,i h no?+ else to tru/ 94' ,aft] a sev]e fit ( c\gh+ %e said1 ',! toil ( life w !re be o'er3' & aga91 ',?ankful ,i take ! cup f ,!e1' c4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i visit$ old ,m>?a ,h41 :om ,i f\nd 9 a happy1 & ?ankful frame ( m9d2 all h] cry is1 ',bless ! ,"l6 bless ! ,"l6' ,s1 at bo? ends ( ! village1 ,god is fitt+ up ,8 jewels4 ,i walk$ on to ! *ur*y>d1 & !re f\nd z _m ( my old acqua9tances1 z are n[ liv+ 9 ! village4 ,i felt ! solemn influ5ce ( association ) ! dead4--,he>+ ( a poor afflict$ s9n]1 ,i w5t to see him2 he appe>$ to welcome my visit1 b ins5sible to 8 condition4 ,dur+ ! night ,i c\ld n sleep1 b got ^u my knees1 & e>ne/ly bes\ght ! ,"l to give me a cle> witness ( ,8 sanctify+ p[]4 ,he bless$ me ) a humble1 settl$ confid5ce1 & sweet peace4--,c\s9 _h a re/less night2 ! enemy 0 aga9 p]mitt$ to try h] sorely2 b dur+ ! day1 %e 0 enabl$ to tread him d[n "u h] feet4 ',i'll tru/ ,him ) my all1' %e said1 ',i'll tru/ ,him ) my all4'--,! poor man above-m5tion$1 s5t = me1 app>5tly 9 an agony = ! salvation ( 8 s\l2 b :e!r x is ! fe> ( dea? & its consequ5ces1 or sorr[ = 8 s91 h[ difficult to det]m9e6 ,i endeav\r$ to %[ him t he 0 a helpless1 undone s9n]2 & t all 8 hope 0 9 ! m]its ( ,*ri/3 /aid ) him ne>ly two h\rs1 dur+ :i* he seem$ e>ne/ly seek+ m]cy4 ,i saw him aga9 9 ! aft]noon1 b he 0 n 9 su* agony4 ,he ?9ks ! ,"l w n ca/ him (f4 ,! ?\ght ( ! dy+ ?ief1 alone1 gives me room to hope4 ,oh6 w\ld'/ ,?\1 ,"l1 ! veil remove1 ,& manife/ ,?y p>don+ love4 ,b h[8 ,only ?r\gh ,*ri/1 wilt ,?\ exalt ! ri*es ( ,?y m]cy by prep>+ ?is poor s9n]'s he>t1 & snat*+ him z a br& f ! burn+4--,visit$ ! poor man aga91 & came home ?ankful1 t ,i _h ! opportunity to d x4 ,he n[ resolves on ! side ( virtue4 ,oh6 t 8 decision may be su/a9$ by ! /r5g? ( ! ,"l6--,c\s9 0 oppress$ ) sickness dur+ ! night1 b h] cry 02 ',help me to suff] z a ,*ri/ian4'--,:5 ,i ask$ h[ %e 01 %e said1 ',i h _h a sweet night-s _m preci\s promises br\ght to my m9d4 ,praise ! ,"l2 'to !m t believe1 ,he is preci\s4'--,mu* worse1 able to say little4 ,9 ! ev5+ %e desir$ me to pray2 x 0 truly a bless$ season4 ,:5 ,i rose1 %e exclaim$3 ',we'll %\t by turns ! bur/+ joy1 ,& all et]nity employ ,9 songs ar\nd ! ?rone6' ',glory be to ,god1 c\s91 we %all2 yes1 we %all4'--,?is morn+ ,i awoke a little be=e ?ree1 & got ^u my knees4 ,he1 :o slumb]s n1 0 pres5t to bless me4 ,at t5 ,i accompani$ my fri5ds to *apel3 a bless$ s]mon6 ,i 0 s mu* affect$ :ile ,mr4 ,c4 0 speak+ ( ! ,"l's ability to deliv] u f our spiritual foes1 t ,i c\ld d no?+ b weep = joy4 ,my enemies seem$ all vanqui%$1 by ! revelation :i* my fai? realiz$ ( ! p[] ( ,god4 ',fai?1 mighty fai?1 ! promise' saw4 ,o may ,i nev] d\bt aga94 ,i feel all peace1 & tranquility1 b no p>ticul> joy3 ,i p]ceive myself no?+2 b ?r\gh ! blood ( ,jesus1 ,i claim salvation4 ,elizabe? is increas+ly weak1 b enjoys great peace4 ,%e 0 unable to turn h]self2 b aft] an ineffectual attempt1 upheld by ! p[] ( ,god1 %e exclaim$1 ',praise ! ,"l6 ,i _c praise ,him en\gh3 ?\gh ,he slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him4' ,?is ev5+ ,i ov]he>d1 ',preci\s ,god1' ',salvation1' ',my ,jesus4' ,!n turn+ h] head1 %e said1 ',s9ce ,i h be5 afflict$1 ! enemy has tri$ _m ways to take away my %ield2 b ! ,"l has /ood by me1 & ,i believe ,i %all come (f m ?an conqu]or4'--,ab\t two o'clock we ?\ght %e 0 dy+2 %e /ret*$ out h] h& to ea* ( u1 & drew u ne>1 to kiss h]2 !n %\t$ z l\d z %e c\ld1 ',glory be to ,god6 ,i am go+ to glory2 glory be to ,god6' ,ab\t five %e reviv$ aga94 ,"o said1 ',jesus is ne>1' %e respond$1 ',glory1 ,he is1 ,he is'--,i 0 ) h] f two 9 ! morn+2 %e 0 re/less1 & 9 mu* pa91 until ab\t n9e o'clock2 :5 %e *ang$ = dea?4 ,consci\s t %e 0 dy+1 %e desir$ to be plac$ 9 a *air1 & %\t$ ) all ! /r5g? %e _h1 inde$ l\d] ?an we c\ld h suppos$ h] capable (1 ',glory be to ,god6' ',glory be to ,god6' _m times1 until h] /r5g? 0 exhau/$4 ,%e brea!d till elev51 & !n1 )\t mov+ h& or foot2 )\t a sigh or a groan2 h] happy _s took its flight to ! p>adise ( ,god4 ,?us di$ ,elizabe? ,/ables1 9 ! ?irty-fif? ye> ( h] age4 ,x _h be5 = "s "t my pray]1 t ! ,"l1 if x pleas$ ,him1 w\ld grant h] an easy passage1 & p]mit h] to dep>t 9 ! day-"t4 ,9 ?is ,he has m]cifully he>d me4 ,be=e ! crisis arriv$1 ,i felt a degree ( timidity2 & !re=e1 :5 ,i rose f my b$1 ,i b[$ myself be=e ! ,"l1 be=e ent]+ ! room4 ,he graci\sly disp]s$ my fe>s1 & fill$ my he>t ) peace4 ,to me ! sc5e ( dissolution 0 exce$+ly solemn4 ,may my la/ end be l h]s6--,i foll[$ ! rema9s ( de> ,elizabe? to ! grave1 to :i* we consign$ !m '9 sure & c]ta9 hope ( a joyful resurrection4' ,surely ?is hope has pres]v$ me f yield+ to useless te>s1 z on =m] occasions2--= ,i lov$ h]4 ,h5ce=? may x be my con/ant /udy to be f\nd ready1 t1 l h]1 ,i may triumph 9 ! prospect ( dissolution4--,visit$ two or ?ree afflict$ p]sons 9 ! village1 p]haps = ! la/ "t3 may ,i f9d !m all aga9 9 ! day ( et]nity4 ,took tea ) ,mrs4 ,b4 & h] daught]1 :om ,i w\ld gladly h p]suad$ to accept ! (f]s ( m]cy2 b ! grace ( ,god alone c affect ! he>t4--,aft] an abs5ce ( six weeks ,i return$ home3 ! day 0 f9e4 ,truly m]cy foll[s me4 ,?r\gh c\rtesy to a fri5d1 ,i w\nd$ my own s\l by yield+ to conv]se on subjects1 :i* no way t5d$ to promote f]v5cy ( _s4 ,i felt humbl$ 9 consequ5ce1 & z if ,i c\ld n lift my he>t to ,god2 b be=e ! close ( ! s]vice1 :i* ,i aft]w>ds att5d$1 ! ,"l graci\sly s(t5$ my h>dness d[n--melt+ me into te>s4--,i close ! ye> fully b5t ^u giv+ myself to ,god4 ,:ile ,i write1 ,i enjoy peace4 ,o ,?\ t see/ me1 ,?yself unse51 direct my p51 & guide me to ,?yself4 ,"h on my knees ,i surr5d] myself to ,!e2 if ,?\ discov]e/ any guile 9 me1 reveal x to me1 & make me :olly ?9e4 ,surr\nd$ ) ,?y pres5ce1 ,o fill me ) ,?y love6 ,f h5ce=?1 may ,i dwell 9 ! secret place ( ! mo/ ,high1 & abide "u ! %ad[ ( ! ,almighty4 ,if fleet+ mom5ts sil5tly report ,ea* action1 motive1 & unutt]$ ?\ght2 ,may ?is fair page no add$ witness br+ ,( "t mis-us$1 z mus+ ?\ght may spr+4 ,no1 r let my muse ab/ract$ turn2 ,=get to muse1 & ( my ,savi\r le>n ,t r>e humility1 s highly priz$ ,by ,him1 :o sees ! he>t all undisguis$4 ,f ,him my subject come1 my ?\ght proce$2 ,to ,him my motive t5d1 my action lead3 ,9 all1 ,i h5ce=? ?9k1 or speak1 or d1 ,! glory ( my ,god be kept 9 view4 #ahbi4--;,i am p]mitt$ to ent] ano!r ye>1 b :o c tell ! ev5t8 ,suffice x2 ,i c n[ say1 ,i am ,?9e1 & am resolv$ to =m my life1 :e!r long or %ort1 by ,?y precepts4 ,?is morn+ an al>m is spread ?r\gh ! city--',! ,m9/] on fire4' ',%all !re be evil 9 ! city1 & ! ,"l ha? n done x8' ,o ,?\1 :o can/ alone educe good out ( seem+ evil s5d1 =? ,?y light & tru?4--,visit$ ,mrs4 ,f----s1 we _h a bless$ int]view3 ,heav5 %$ its rays ar\nd u4 ,"h ,i prov$ t 9 ,jesus diff]5ce ( age is lo/3 all ages & sects c 9 ,him unite4--,! great] "p ( ?is day has be5 sp5t 9 read+1 pray+1 visit+ ! sick1 & ! public means ( grace3 all ( :i* h be5 s\rces ( pr(it to my s\l4 ,h[ great are my privileges6 ,i ?9k ,i am /ripp$ ( all dep5dance ^u !m2 b fe> ,i d n make t improvem5t ( !m :i* ,i ought4 ,?ankful ,i am = ! decision ,i feel2 b /& 9 d\bt ( myself1 %\ld a /orm ( p]secution arise1 :e!r ,i %\ld be able to endure ! fi]y te/4 ,cl\ds ga!r r\nd ab\t2 ! signs ( ! times port5d a season ( trial2 my he>t1 :ile ,i write1 says1 ',i w be ,?9e3' b ,?\ kn[e/ h[ un/able ,i am1--,?ree /rang]s came to ! class2 two ( !m 7 mu* affect$4 ,i want to feel m deeply = s\ls1 & to d e ?+ ) a s+le eye4 ,i h sev]al times be5 to visit an afflict$ neighb\r1 :o has (t5 be5 w>n$ to put away 8 s9s2 b is yet unsav$4 ,nev] did ,i see fri5ds m solicit\s = ! conv]sion ( a relative2 8 poor afflict$ wife prays1 & entreats mo/ e>ne/ly1 ) te>s3 x has to me be5 an affect+ sc5e4 ,o may h] pray]s be answ]$6--,ano!r week gone2 a week ( m]cy1 w>n+1 bless+1 inw>d ex]cise1 & peace4 ,on ,tuesday night1 ,i witness$ ! dea?b$ sc5e ( a neighb\r3 dy+ is h>d "w4 ,at ! fun]al on ,friday ^! l9es 7 mu* impress$ ^u my m9d3-- ',s live1 t1 :5 ?\ tak'/ ?y la/ long sleep4 ,dy+1 may'/ smile1 :5 all ar\nd !e weep3' ,i quot$ !m among/ ! fri5ds ( ! deceas$1 & add$ su* words z 7 giv5 me at ! "t4 ,!re 0 a deep sil5ce3 :at 0 ! impression ,i leave2 ,i only dis*>g$ a duty1 & c\ld only rea* ! e>1 b d ,?\1 ^: in/rum5t ,i am1 effectually t\* ea* he>t1 & save !m all4 ,p5elope in=ms me1 t ! poor man ,i visit$ :5 9 ,s9n+ton1 has begun to att5d ! h\se ( ,god4 ,may 8 good desires end 9 s\nd conv]sion4--,i visit$ poor ,fanny2 ) te>s ( joy />t+ 9 h] eyes1 %e said1 ',glory be to ,god1 ,i feel my s\l s happy1 t ,i w\ld fly if x 7 possible4' ,truly 9 ?is home ( pov]ty1 ! p[] ( div9e grace is exemplifi$4 ,i h also se5 neighb\r ,g4 = ! f\r? "t2 x is delightful to visit h]3 %e appe>s fully s5sible ( h] /ate1 & has receiv$ a little com=t2 b n ! cle> witness ( h] acceptance4--,9 consequ5ce ( sickness1 ,i laid a little long] ?an usual2 b my m$itations 7 sweet4 ,= a "t my m9d 0 borne z on eagles' w+s1 f> above ! ?+s ( e>?2 ,i seem$ to brea! ! atmosph]e ( heav51 & to commune ) ,jesus 9 heav5ly places3 ?is baptism delightfully su/a9$ my m9d ?r\gh ! trials ( ! day4--,probably ?is is ! la/ ,sabba? ( my resid5ce 9 ,york4 ,"s ?9k we are miss+ ! pa? ( provid5ce3 ,i d n "k2 b ?is ,i c say1 ,i am will+ to /ay1 or will+ to g1 & e>ne/ly desire1 t ! w ( ,god may be done 9 me & by me1 :e!r 9 public or retirem5t4 ,9 sil5ce1 lo6 ,i sit ,to he> ,?y g5tle voice2 ,& l[ly at ,?y feet1 ,%>e ,m>y's nappy *oice3 ,speak z ,?\ wilt1 b speak )91 ,& make my nature :olly clean4 ,?is day ( hall[$ joy1 ,! day ! ,"l arose1 ,?y glori\s p[] employ1 ,& vanqui% all my foes2 ,to me ! p[] ( fai? imp>t1 ,& reign triumphant 9 my he>t4 ,ano!r week has elaps$1 & we are /ill 9 ,york4 ,o ,"l1 direct our pa?1 & guide u by ,?y c\nsel4 ,i w\ld leave all 9 ,?y h&s3 ,i ?9k ,i d4 ,,xii4 ,,c\ntry ,,life4 ,,come1 ,,my ,,belov$1 ,,let ,,u ,,g ,,out ,,into ,,! ,,field2 ,,let ,,u ,,lodge ,,9 ,,! ,,villages4--,cant4 vii4 #aa4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahbi1 ,mr4 ,ly? retir$ to a c\ntry resid5ce1 :i* he _h built ^u a small e/ate1 betwe5 ?ree & f\r miles f ! city4 ,! propriety ( ?is /ep1 z x seem$ to involve ! sacrifice ( _m religi\s advantages1 0 by "s intimate fri5ds reg>d$ ) grave suspicion2 & x may fairly be d\bt$1 h[ f> a ,*ri/ian man1 ) ! view ( enjoy+ ! fruits ( 8 indu/ry1 has a "r to )draw himself & 8 family f a sph]e ( usefulness1 & privilege1 to "o ( comp>ative retirem5t4 ,c he be equally useful8 ,w 8 family enjoy equal privileges8 ,if n let him pause1 = he is "u a high] law ?an t ( self-gratification1 or worldly policy3 besides1 8 v object may be fru/rat$2 x may turn out1 t ! *ange f an active to an idle life1 may br+ disquiet in/ead ( repose4 ,b 9 ! pres5t in/ance1 ! disadvantage 0 ov]come by ! =ce ( *ri/ian pr9ciple4 ,mrs4 ,ly? did n rel9qui% h] ex]tions 9 ! city1 :ile a new sph]e ( usefulness op5$ itself 9 ! village1 ne> :i* !y came to reside4 ,twice a week1 z (t5 z heal? p]mitt$1 %e visit$ ! city to meet h] classes2 sometimes walk+ ! :ole di/ance !re & back4 ,! day 0 g5]ally sp5t 9 see+ h] abs5t memb]s1 visit+ ! sick1 or avail+ h]self ( public1 or social means ( edification4 ,! effect ( ^! ex]tions ^u h] own delicate frame1 0 pa9ful2 &1 comb9$ ) o!r causes1 occasion$1 dur+ h] f\r ye>s' resid5ce at ,ea/field ,h\se1 frequ5t & sev]e attacks ( sickness4 ,b we resume h] own notes4 ,i came to ,ea/field ,h\se1 :i* is n[ to be my home dur+ my pilgrimage on e>?4 ,?ank ,god1 ,i feel ,i am b a /rang] & a soj\rn]4 ,a v>iety ( circum/ances h engag$ my att5tion1 & int]rupt$ my quiet2 b :5 %ut 9 f ! _w1 to hold conv]se ) ,god1 ,i h ta/$ sup]ior pleasure4--,i w5t e>ly to ,york1 & sp5t ! day 9 see+ ! sick1 & o!r memb]s ( my classes2 visit+ ! s*ool1 att5d+ my b&1 & meet+ my class4 ,mo/ ( ^! engagem5ts 7 pr(itable to me1 & ,i hope to o!rs4 ,i w5t out ) ! conviction t ,i 0 ! ,"l's lab\r]4--,my niece1 ,hannah1 is app>5tly ne> et]nity4 ,%e tells me %e is happy1 & ,i _c d\bt x2 = la/ ev5+ :ile pray+ ) h]1 my fai? acquir$ su* /r5g?1 & ,i 0 s fill$ ) love & confid5ce1 t :5 ,i rose f my knees1 ,i c\ld n help say+1 ',! ,"l has bless$ y4' ,%e answ]$1 ',yes3' b :e!r at t mom5t1 or e>li] 9 ! day1 ,i _c tell4 ,! "w is ! ,"l's4--,aft] an affliction1 ( "s mon?s1 & a =tnight's conf9em5t to b$1 ,hannah has left u4 ,= two days %e 0 ins5sible1 b ! la/ %e 0 rem>kably tranquil1 ) a v pleas+ expression ( c\nt5ance4--,my greate/ joy is 9 communion ) ! ,"l & ,8 sa9ts3 ?is has be5 a high1 day2 ,i h be5 unusually assi/$ 9 speak+ to ! ,"l's p2 & _m appe>$ to feel ! p[] ( ,god4 ,at ! close ( ! meet+1 ,mrs4 ,b4 call$ ^u me1 & we w5t to ,mrs4 ,vev]s'1 :]e we unit$ 9 pray]2 & f !nce to ,miss ,h4's1 :]e we held our little b&-meet+1 ,mrs4 ,e4 0 mu* affect$1 b n able to lay hold ( ! great bless+3 ,o = m fai?4--,! qu>t]ly fa/ 0 obs]v$ 9 ,haxby = ! fir/ "t3 ,i f\nd x good to unite ) !m4--,dur+ ! la/ week we h be5 fav\r$ ) ! company ( ,mr4 ,mortim]1 return$ f ! ,%etl& ,isl&s4 ,he reta9s ! same ,*ri/ian simplicity1 & ,i feel x a privilege to ent]ta9 su* a man "u our ro(4 ,i 0 b5efitt$ among ! de> p2 b my body 0 mu* we>i$ :5 ,i return$ home1 & ! folio w+ day ,i 0 v unwell3 yet my m9d 0 peaceful4 ,at ! entreaty ( my husb&1 ,i rema9 at home to-day2 be+ only v feeble4 ,o %ut me n out f ,?y pres5ce2 b fe$ me ) heav5ly manna4--,i hail ! return+ ,sabba?1 ,glory1 glory be to ,god1 ! sacr$ fire is k9dl$ 9 my he>t4 ,well might ! ,psalmi/ say1 ',i w\ld r be a door-keep] 9 ! h\se ( my ,god1 ?an dwell 9 ! t5ts ( wick$ness' ,! ,"l does c>ry on ,8 "w 9 my s\l4 ,love de/roys fe>4 ,god is my portion1 & 9 ,him w ,i tru/4 ,! week has be5 mix$ ) trial & bless+4 ,monday3 ,p5elope left u1 aft] a visit ( t5 days4 ,tuesday3 ,felt x good :ile ,mr4 ,cr[!r admoni%$ u to look to ,jesus4 ,w$nesday3 ,our s]vant left u3 ,i _h p[] to pray = h] aft] %e 0 gone4 ,?ursday3 ,! ,"l 0 ) u at our little meet+4 ,friday3 ,i spoke unadvis$ly ) my tongue1 :i* occasion$ pa9 ( m9d2 b apply+ to ,jesus1 ,i f\nd access4 ,o ! condesc5sion ( ! ,savi\r6 ,! pray]-meet+ 0 a bless$ season4 ,saturday3 ,a day ( toil1 b ! ,"l 0 ) me3 yet ,i want a con/ant m9d1 t ,i may e mom5t hold conv]se ) my ,god4 ',keep ?yself pure' 0 ! admonition ( ! ,_s "o morn+ ?is week4 ,may ,i ev] rememb] x4 ,! foll[+ 0 ! dy+ compla9t ( ! ,miscellany1 a little family p]iodical1 :i* _h a brief1 b happy exi/5ce4 ,confid5t1 on airy w+1 ,my vanity so>$ high2 ,l ! night+ale ,i'd s+1 ,& ) ! eagle fly4 ,soon my sad mi/ake ,i f\nd2 ,i w>bl+ notes _h none1 ,& sc>cely rose above ! gr\nd1 ,be=e my plumes 7 gone4 ,flatt'ry :isp]$ s(t & l[1 ,( wisdom1 fame1 & lore2 ,woe is me6 neglect$ n[1 ,! pleasant dream is o'er4 ,pity1 !n1 my humble /ate1 ,& if y c be/[ ,te>s ^u my hapless fate2 ,pray let !m freely fl[4 ,i h ar\nd me "s :o ex]cise my pati5ce1 & !re=e ne$ ! wisdom ( ! s]p5t1 & ! meekness ( ! dove1 t ,i may be pres]v$ f (f5d+4 ,la/ ,sabba?1 ,i 0 tempt$ to mi/ru/ ,provid5ce1 z ,i _h n se5 a ra9b[ s9ce ! ra9s comm5c$2 b ! foll[+ ev5+--accompany+ my husb& to ,york 9 a v heavy %[]--on our left1 we saw ! broade/ & mo/ beautiful b[ ,i ev] beheld4 ,i c\ld n help ?9k+ x inf9ite condesc5sion 9 ! great ,i ,,am ?us to remove my scruples4--,i walk$ to ,york alone3 b surr\nd$ by pro(s ( div9e wisdom & p[]1 my solitude 0 sweet2 my ?\ghts me&]$ l ! riv]1 t swept at my side4 ,rev]t+ to pa/ sc5es & circum/ances1 ,i wrote ) my p5cil3 ,if1 ?r\gh sc5es ( tribulation1 ,lies ! pa?way to ! skies2 ,let me yield ) resignation1 ,sure1 ,?y ways are always wise4 ,a fri5d has made application = my ,sunday-class4 ,9 ?is matt]1 ,i d n see my way cle>2 h[ev]1 z ,i 0 reque/$ to seek ano!r place = x--! old "o be+ requir$ = ano!r purpose--,i began to ?9k x 0 an intimation t ,i ought to resign1 & !re=e m5tion$ ! subject to my memb]s1 & left x4 ,b call+ on a fri5d1 z ,i return$ home1 %e said1 '%e 0 reque/$ to tell me1 t ,mr4 ,h4 w\ld be glad if ,i w\ld meet ! class at 8 h\se' ,s ?is difficulty is remov$1 & !re ! matt] re/s4 ,o ,"l1 direct me by ,?y c\nsel4--,provid5ce seems to ?w>t my purposes3 yet ev]y?+ appe>s ei!r to po9t1 urge1 allure1 or draw me to ! skies4 ,i f9d ! b5eficial effect ( ^! pa9ful disp5sations2 b nature /ruggles /ill1 & ! cry ( my he>t is1 make me :olly ,?9e4 ,two p]sons1 :om ,i h visit$ ?is week1 are no m4 ,"o1 ,i d\bt n1 is gone to ,abraham's bosom2 ! o!r ,i mu/ leave1 & pr(it by ! admonition to prep>e to meet my ,god4 ,i h be5 accus$ ( do+ z ,i w\ld n be done by2 b my consci5ce be>s we witness to ! contr>y4 ,help me1 ,o ,god1 ev] to act z 9 ,?y sight4--,aft] ! toils ( ,saturday1 ,i 0 privileg$ ) be+ at ! b&-meet+2 b :5 ,i rea*$ ,miss ,b's1 ,i fa9t$1 ?r\gh weakness & fatigue4 ,praise ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l6 ,is n e /roke ( ,?y rod a pro( ( love1 admoni%+ me t ,i am b a t5ant-at-w1 & may be remov$ at a mom5t's notice8 ,"l1 make me fully ready4--,i f\nd x good 9 our little village pray]-meet+1 & rema9$ ) my husb& at ! ,sabba?-s*ool committee4 ,he engag$ to assi/2 & ,i 0 con/ra9$ to (f] my s]vices once a mon? to conv]se ) ! female s*ol>s1 :i* 7 readily accept$4--,9 ,york1 ,i _h ! opportunity ( visit+ sev]al afflict$ p]sons3 "o poor man 0 mu* afflict$3 x 0 a bless$ day4 ,i h be5 to ,wigg9ton to visit ! afflict$ ,miss ,b41 to :om ,i tri$ to %[ ! necessity ( a *ange ( he>t1 & ! suffici5cy ( ! rem$y1 ) ! dang] ( delay4 ,come1 heav5ly ,_s1 fill my brea/1 ,) holy1 ard5t love inflame2 ,brea! 9 my s\l ! p]fect re/ ,reveal$ 9 ,jesus' lovely "n4 ,ble/ c5tre6 :]e ,i f9d repose2 ,my succ\r1 :5 9 deep di/ress2 ,! only refuge f my foes2 ,jesus1 ,?y feeble/ foll[] bless4 ,?y con/ant pres5ce1 ,?9e alone ,c satisfy my long+ s\l2 ,supply ! good = :i* ,i groan2 ,?y pres5ce1 ,"l1 %all make me :ole4 ,j z ! ye> closes1 ,i take my p54 ,h[ solemn6 unse5 by all b ,god6 ,h[ %all ,i proce$8 ,i am a s9n]2 b ?\ art a ,savi\r--my ,savi\r6 ,o praise ,god6 unwor?y z ,i am1 unpr(itable z ,i h be51 ,?y peace fills my he>t3 ,i am surr\nd$ ) ,god4 ,glory6 glory6 glory6 a wor?less worm6 du/ & a%es6 a pot%]d ( ! e>?6 yet ,jesus di$ = me4 ,o1 live 9 me2 fit me = ,?y s]vice1 t ,i may be will+ to d or to suff] ,?y w4 ,let me be a :ole sacrifice4 ,jesus is ne>2 ,he is preci\s2 ,he has my he>t3 let ! union subsi/ = ev]4 ,nev] let me leave ,!e m2 b ?r\gh all ! vicissitudes ( life1 keep me2 & if ,i am ent]+ ^u my la/ ye>1 let x be ! be/ ( all4 ,let ! od\rs ( ! cele/ial _w waft ^u me1 & invigorate my s\l4 #ahcj4--,midnight4 ,! pa/ ye> has be5 "o ( m+l$ trial1 affliction1 & m]cy2 wisely bl5d$ to br+ me ne>] to ,god4 ,i ?9k ! end has be5 answ]$3 ,i feel loos] f ! _w1 & my w is m fully subdu$4 ,?is is ! ,"l's do+3 bless$ be ,8 "n6 ,i rose e>ly1 & %ut myself up 9 my closet1 & !re ! ,"l glori\sly reveal$ himself3 x 0 a bless$ day1 especially1 9 walk+ to ! city2 & among ! de> p4--,ano!r piece ( enc\ragem5t3 our s]vant1 :o has be5 br\ght "u s]i\s impressions s9ce %e came to u1 0 la/ ,tuesday enabl$ to believe unto salvation4 ,o may ,i walk z ,god's viceg]5t "h2 t my husb&1 "m1 *ildr51 & s]vants1 may all be l$ to give !mselves m fully to ,!e4--,our s]vant man cri$ al\d = m]cy 9 ! *apel4 ,h[ & :]e1 %all ,i beg9 to praise ,!e = ,?y goodness to my family8 ,i am con/ra9$ to ackn[l$ge1 t _m ?+s1 :i* appe>$ to be aga9/ me1 are n[ work+ = good4 ,e bitt] has its sweet1 & e affliction its bless+2 wisely comp\nd$1 to br+ me m fully to ,god4 ,la/ night we _h a pray]-meet+ 9 our kit*53 ! _s ( pray] 0 p\r$ out ^u u4 ,"o s\l obta9$ peace3 & ano!r rema9$ ^u 8 knees upw>ds ( ?ree h\rs1 b did n break ?r\gh2 yet is det]m9$ n to re/ )\t ! p>don+ m]cy ( ,god3 a ?ird 0 seek+ purity ( he>t4--,visit$ ,s4,h41 fa/ s9k+ 9 decl9e4 ,:5 ask$ ! /ate ( h] m9d1 %e said1 ',*ri/ is m9e1 & ,i am ,84' ,bless$ assurance6 ,i spoke freely ) h] "m1 :om ,i f\nd unacqua9t$ ) true religion4 ,two p]sons came to seek ! ,"l at ! pray]-meet+ held 9 our kit*5--"o obta9$ salvation3 truly ! ,"l is among u3 a l>g] numb] att5d$ ?an usual4--,we _h a num]\sly att5d$ pray]-meet+1 9 :i* ?ree bore te/imony to ! sav+ p[] ( ,*ri/2 !y prais$ ,god ) a glad he>t1 & a l\d voice3 may !y become pill>s 9 ,god's temple4--,_m sweet mom5ts h ,i enjoy$1 :ile engag$ 9 dome/ic affairs4 ,?is morn+1 ,i rose to ! e>ly pray]-meet+2 all nature seem$ to congratulate me1 & ! fea!r$ *ori/]s 7 s++ _! mat9 song ( praise4 ,my walk to ,york aft]w>ds1 seem$ too %ort1 :ile mus+ on ! love ( ,jesus4--,9 ! /ill h\r ( night ,i h _h "s bless$ seasons2 b my walk is n equal3 ,i want to live a mom5t at a "t1 & all = ,god4 ,ano!r ( my memb]s has pass$ into et]nity1 to jo9 ! *ur* above4 ,j be=e %e expir$1 %e exclaim$1 ',:at d ,i see8 ,glory4'--,i am n go+ to meet my class to-day1 my "m is s unwell2 yet ,i feel a /ruggle z to ! pa? ( duty3 b surely 9 ?is case duty & affection are "o4 ,"l1 ,i aim to please ,!e2 ,o help me = ,?y "n's sake4 ,,sitt+ ,,by ,,my ,,"m4 ,o w\ld'/ ,?\1 ,"l1 desc5d1 ,my "m's he>t to *e]2 ,?is unbelief to r5d1 ,& dissipate h] fe>3 ,?\ glori\s ,sun1 unveil ! skies2 ,) heal+ 9 ,?y w+s arise4 ,?y promise1 ,"l1 ,i hold1 ',! ev5+ %all be light1'-- ,! cl\d its p9ions fold1 ,& vani% out ( sight3 ,o ,jesus1 come1 ,?y face display4 ,& ev5tide is turn$ to day4 ,proclamation ( ,william ! #d?4 ,9 company ) "s fri5ds1 ,i climb$ to ! top ( ,clif=d's ,t[]1 9 hope ( see+ ! procession2 b aft] wait+ m ?an an h\r1 ,i w5t away disappo9t$1 & griev$ at ! loss ( my "t4 ,let me le>n f ?is1 always to d :at ,i believe to be mo/ ne$ful2 = my m9d 0 dissipat$1 & ,i fail$ to recov] 9 ! class :at ,i _h enjoy$ 9 ! e>ly h\rs ( ! day4 ,o h[ ne$ful to keep ! pa? ( duty1 & retire f ! multitude4--,! ,rev4 ,joseph ,ag> has dies happily1 at ,portsm\?3 ( bra9 fev]4 ,an unusual feel+ oppress$ my m9d on ! aft]noon ( 8 dep>ture2 :y1 ,i "k n4--,! ,rev4 ,e4 ,batty took tea ) u1 & sugge/$ a me?od ( usefulness1 :i* has = "s "t be5 ! subject ( my ?\ghts2 b to *oose1 or refuse are ,?9e3 ',?y w be done4'--,i walk$ to ,acomb to visit a fri5d1 & on ! way ask$ myself1 :y ,i %\ld g2 & n be+ able to answ] = myself1 put ! case into ! h&s ( ,god1 besee*+ him to make my way pla9 be=e me2 to bless me1 & make me a bless+4 ,i met ) a k9d reception--slept well--& rose ab\t six ) a desire to give myself to ! ,"l4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i accompani$ ,mrs4 ,r4 to h] class3 x 0 ! second "t ( _! meet+4 ,mrs4 ,r4 read ! rules2 & aft]w>ds1 ,i endeav\r$ to speak a little to !m4 ,:5 address+ ! ?ird1 %e bur/ into te>s ?r\gh ! disquietude ( h] s\l4 ,we knelt d[n to pray2 & :ile ,mrs4 ,r4 0 plead+1 ! woman began to praise ,god = :at ,he _h done = h] s\l1 & said %e _h be5 unhappy = ye>s--b t n[ ! ,"l _h giv5 h] peace4 ,we cont9u$ on our knees1 & 9 a little :ile ano!r p]son1 :o ?r\gh unwat*fulness _h gone a/ray1 pr(ess$ t ! ,"l _h re/or$ h] s\l4 ,! ?ird 7= !re 7 b ?ree7 w5t away1 resolv$ n to re/ until %e _h f\nd ! ,"l4--,we w5t to invite ! p to ! pray]-meet+ 9 ! ev5+1 & !n visit$ ! *ur*y>d4 ,!re1 ! solemn sil5ce1 dwell+ among sepul*ral /ones & ! fall+ leaves1 mov$ my s\l to ! consid]ation ( my own mortality4 ,may ,i s live1 t ,i may he> ! welcome words1 ',well done4' ,i feel deeply on acc\nt ( my own no?+ness4 ,! pray]-meet+ to-night is propos$ because ,i am "h4 ,i am humbl$ at ! ?\ght4 ,:at am ,i8 a poor worm4 ,oh6 w\lde/ ,?\ use a ?+ ( n\ght8 prep>e ! p1 prep>e me1 & p\r out ,?y holy _s4 ,i 0 surpris$ at ! numb] ( p ga!r$ toge!r on s %ort a notice4 ,! pres5ce ( ! ,"l ov]%ad[$ u1 & ! woman1 :o 0 seek+ m]cy at ! class1 0 fill$ ) peace & joy ?r\gh believ+4 ,i felt humbl$ "u ! s5se ( my own unpr(itabl5ess4--,i h f\nd retirem5t v bless$3 ! ,"l p\r$ into my s\l a heav5ly tranquility4 ,i hope t my visit "h w be b5eficial to me2 & t ,i %all le>n "s lessons f ! k9d family1 "u ^: ro( ,i /ay3 !re is su* a sweet submission to ea* o!r's w1 & su* a disposition to pref] o!rs to !mselves1 z is amiable1 & wor?y ( imitation4--,my inw>d aspiration is1 make me all glori\s )91 t f ?is pure well-spr+1 all my ?\ghts & actions may fl[4 ,i enjoy ! peace ( ,god1 & = "s "t pa/1 7to ! glory ( ,god ,i speak x17 ,i h _h con/ant int]c\rse ) heav54 ,my w is m fully subdu$1 & ,i h increas+ p[] to take up my cross2 b ! duties ( life press ^u me1 & ,i am 9 dang] ( be+ ov]:elm$ ) c>e4 ,i ?ank ,!e1 ,o my heav5ly ,fa!r1 = ?is discov]y2 & humbly b confid5tly1 ask ,?y protection f my foe4--,a day ( unusual ne>ness to ,god3--9 ! ,"l's h\se2 9 visit+ ! poor2 read+ ! rules ( society2 & social pray]3 al?\gh dissatisfi$ ) my p]=mances1 ,i feel ,i h done :at ,i ought4--,my spiritual /r5g? has be5 increas$ by m frequ5tly engag+ 9 secret pray]4 ,by appo9tm5t1 ,i h daily met two fri5ds at ! ?rone ( grace1 to int]c$e on behalf ( our neighb\rs3 ?is has be5 made a bless+ to my own s\l4--,= ! fir/ "t1 my :ole family 0 assembl$ at ,ea/field2 b :o c tell ! emotions ( my m9d1 z ,i gaz$ on "o & ano!r8 ,i ?\ght unutt]able ?+s2 b wisely is ! future hidd5 f our view4 ,o my ,god1 be ,?\ _! ,god4 ,i feel ! solemnity ( ! clos+ ye>3 its toils & c>es are fl$ = ev]2 only its com=ts w be repeat$1 if ,i hold fa/ ! bless$ hope ( ev]la/+ life4 ,,ne> ,,midnight4 ,! ye> ebbs apace1 ,its sorr[s are gone6 ,l "o 9 a race1 ,its c\rse x ha?1 run3 ,its ev5ts1 once important1 n[ all disappe>1 ,& "t wafts u on to ano!r new ye>4 ,!n let u beg91 ,to aim at ! prize2 ,leave e>?1 self1 & s91 ,= our home 9 ! skies3 ,expect+ ! ,bridegroom w %ortly appe>1 ,let z wat* 8 arrival--! com+ new ye>4 ,,xiii4 ,,! ,,r$emption ,,( ,,! ,,promise4 ,,be ,,n ,,afraid1 ,,only ,,believe4--,m>k v4 #cf4 ,all ! promises ( ,god are 9 ,him1 yea2 & 9 ,him1 am52 unto ! glory ( ,god2 !n1 :y d\bt !m8 s9ce ,god's own hon\r1 & fai?fulness1 :i* are de>] to ,him ?an aught beside1 are conc]n$ 9 _! fulfilm5t4 ,! *ri/ian believ] has no?+ to d ) ! difficulties1 or seem+ delay ( ! accompli%m5t2 b only ) ! unfail+ ^w ( ,god4 ,if y f9d ! promise1 take x1 hold x fa/2 &1 accord+ to ?y fai?1 x %all be done unto !e4 ,mrs4 ,ly? believ$ ! ^w ( ,god2 & :5 a promise 0 appli$ to h] m9d1 %e did n lose sight ( x2 b pati5tly wait$ until x 0 r$eem$4 ,m ?an "o in/ance occurs 9 h] j\rnal1 9 :i* %e ref]s back to "s promise1 :i* %e _h previ\sly receiv$2 & ! fulfilm5t ( :i*1 %e 0 expect+4 ,?is 0 p>ticul>ly ! case ) ref]5ce to h] "m's exp]i5ce1 :o1 ?\gh n =sak51 pass$ h] latt] days 9 m\rn+1 be+ press$ d[n by con/ant affliction1 & ! weight ( ye>s4 ,mrs4 ,ly? felt acutely on ?is acc\nt2 b1 ! promise giv5 9 answ] to pray]1 ,at ev5+ "t x %all be light1 0 held fa/1 ?r\gh a p]iod ( five ye>s4 ,! p]iod ( its r$emption 0 at h&4 #ahca4--',let ,?y /atutes be my delight 9 ! h\se ( my pilgrimage4' ,z my j\rney %ort5s1 may ! assurance ( a happy reception at ! end1 increase3 ,i ?9k x does4 ,i h a bless$ conviction t1 ?r\gh ! m]its ( my ,r$eem]1 ,i %all see ,him )\t a veil betwe54 ,?is hope makes my _s rejoice1 :5 no?+ ext]nal excites me4 ,mus+ on my way to ! city1 ^u ! '*>ity' t 'nev] faile?1' & its _m excell5t attributes2 ,i f\nd myself defici5t 9 t1 :i* '?9ke? no evil4' ,"u "s circum/ances1 ,i am apt to draw ha/y conclusions4 ,o =give1 & help ,?y du/ to be m gu>d$4--,a fri5d call+ 91 ,i took up my cross1 7= x 0 "o17 to g to ! pray]-meet+2 ! night be+ d>k1 ! roads dirty1 & ! place di/ant3 b ,i 0 well repaid4 ,a goodly numb] 7 pres5t1 & ! ,"l 0 !re4--,my husb& 0 at ,york ) ! gig4 ,mr4 ,h4 call$ to in=m u1 t 9 consequ5ce ( ! w9d1 & drift$ sn[1 he ?\ght x w\ld be impossible = him to return home4 ,conc]n$ = 8 safety1 ,i s5t a man & horse to meet him1 & betook myself to pray]2 :i* ! ,"l condesc5d$ to he>1 & answ]3 = aft] my husb& _h =c$ 8 way ?r\gh _m sn[-drifts1 ! h>ness broke1 j z ! man met him2 & he c\ld n h proce$$ fur!r )\t assi/ance3 s 9 ! "t ( ne$ !re 0 help4 ,i c\ld n b reg>d x z provid5tial1 t ,mr4 ,h4 call$2 & also t ! man arriv$ at ! mom5t he 0 requir$4 ,my obligations to ! ,"l increase daily4--,! tw5ty-fif? anniv]s>y ( my w$d+ day4 ,,!n1 my husb& tells me1 ! bloom ( ! rose sat on my *eek2 ,,n[1 ,i am %r9k+ into an old woman1 hair grey1 tee? gone1 bloom fad$1 & my eyes dim3 b1 ?r\gh ! m]cy ( ,god1 ?\gh my outw>d tab]nacle is ?us s9k+ 9 decay1 my spiritual /r5g? is daily r5ew$2 ! vig\r ( my m9d is n abat$2 my und]/&+ is cle>]1 & my fai? /rong] ?an ev]4 ,& ?\gh1 by ! light t %9es ^u my s\l1 ,i discov] m ( my natural depravity2 ! ,"l1 by 8 ,_s1 graci\sly draws me to himself1 ! true rem$y2 & blesses me ) a s5se ( 8 pres5ce4 ,glory be to ,8 "n = an int]e/ 9 ! blood ( spr9kl+4 ,"h is ! s\rce ( my happ9ess1 & all ,i want is "h4 ,,!n--,i _h a fa!r & "m :o lov$ & c>$ = me3 ,,n[--my fa!r is gone to 8 rew>d1 & my "m is sunk 9 decrepitude1 daily wait+ h] release2 & ,i1 myself a "m1 h re/+ ^u me ! c>e & anxiety ( a family2 b ,i h inh]it$ ! promise1 :i* desc5ds f g5]ation to g5]ation4 ,,!n--,i look$ =w>d to :at might be my future portion3 ,,n[--,i look back ?r\gh five & tw5ty ye>s1 9 :i* goodness & m]cy h foll[$ me until n[2 al?\gh my passage ?r\gh ! wild]ness has all along be5 m>k$ ) unfai?fulness4 ,"h my he>t fills ) gratitude4 ,:at %all ,i r5d] to ! ,"l = all 8 goodness t[>ds me8 ,,!n--,i _h _m fri5ds1 :o are ,,n[ pass$ away2 b ,jesus is my nev]-fail+ ,fri5d1 & ?r\gh ,8 grace1 ,i hope soon to meet aga9 ^?1 :o '?r\gh fai? & pati5ce h inh]it$ ! promises4' ,,!n--,i _h mu* to endure & suff]2 b ,,n[--five & tw5ty ye>s ( trial & suff]+ are ov]1 ) only "o regret1 t ,i h n suff]$ m pati5tly1 & expect$ m l>gely f ,him1 :o ord]s all ?+s = ! be/4 ,:at /ill awaits me is only kn[n to ,!e2 b prep>e me = ! ev5t1 & let ,?y w be done4 ,?is is my he>t's desire1 utt]$ ,i believe1 9 ! _s ( resignation2 b x is ,?y do+1 & to ,!e be all ! glory4 ,& n[1 ,i pres5t to ,!e my de> husb&1 & my five *ildr53 let u all be ,?9e--,?9e to guide1 ,?9e to save1 ,?9e to gov]n1 & ,?9e to cr[n4 ,sev5 ye>s ago my de> fa!r ent]$ into re/4 ,?is day1 replete ) memories de>1 ,! well-kn[n image br+s to view ,( him1 ^: "n ,i /ill rev]e2 ,^: wor? till lo/1 ,i nev] knew4 ,my fa!r1 7/ill ! "n is sweet67 ,n[ 9 a fair] region dwells3 ,him gladly w ,i g to meet1 ,?\gh wild betwe5 u ,jordan swells4 ,my de> "m cont9ues v feeble1 & mu* ( my "t1 night & day1 is devot$ to h]4 ,%e suff]s f manifold temptations2 yet ,i am enc\rag$ to believe %e w be deliv]$4 ,make no long t>ry+1 ,o my ,god1--,ye/]day & to-day ,i h be5 sev]ely & pa9fully ex]cis$ on acc\nt ( my "m3 /ill ,i hang ^u ! ^w ( ! promise1 ',9 ! ev5tide x %all be light4 ,ye/]day %e said1 ',! w ( ! ,"l be done4'--,%e tells me ?is morn+ %e enjoys peace4 ,h] memory is mu* impair$4 ,my m9d is mu* di/ress$1 b f9ds its re/ 9 ,god4 ,x seems1 z if by div]sity ( trial1 ! ,"l wills to purge my affections4 ,o let ,?y w be done4 ,help me1 h[ev] nature rebels1 fully to give up my own w4 ,bless$ be ,god1 my s\l enjoys peace4 ',i tru/ 9 ,him1 :o /&s betwe5 ! ,fa!r's wra? & me4' ,my de> "m's weakness increases2 b %e says ?is morn+1 %e d>e n d\bt ( go+ to heav54--,i sat up ) my de> "m4 ,ab\t half-pa/ twelve %e 0 convuls$1 & felt sick2 !n1 %e dos$ a little2 !n sick aga91--call$ = ,ri*>d1--w&]$1--evid5tly *ang$ = dea?1 & _h a sev]e /ruggle1 (t5 say+1 ',d help me1 d4' ,h] suff]+s 7 acute4 ,once %e said1 ',"l1 help me2' & aga91 ',hope ?\ 9 ,god1 = ,i %all yet pr----2' b ! words 7 int]rupt$ by h] suff]+s1 ,my angui% ( m9d is kn[n to ,!e4 ,z ,i /ood by ! fire ! words 7 sugge/$1 ',?y w>f>e's pa/1 ?y m\rn+'s o'er2 ,look up1 = ?\ %alt weep no m4' ,i 0 com=t$4 ,my de> husb&1 c\s91 & ,m>y1 f\nd great consolation 9 pray] j be=e h] dep>ture4 ,h] la/ words 71 ',pray1 pray2' ',"l1 ,"l4' ,?us1 ab\t half-pa/ "o on ! #bcrd ( ,m>*1 my de> "m 'fell asleep1' ag$ sev5ty-two ye>s & ?ree weeks4 ,& ?\gh 9 ru9 n[ h] body lies1 ,a peaceful smile ^u h] face is spread3 ,! /ruggle o'er--h] _s upw>d flies1 ,to jo9 ! spirits ( ! bless$ dead4 ,my de> dep>t$ "m 0 int]r$ 9 ,/4 ,lawr5ce *ur*y>d1 by ! side ( my belov$ fa!r2 leav+ ! impressive admonition--'prep>e to foll[4' ,i feel x--my he>t det]m9es--my w submits--,i h set ab\t x4 ,"l help me to p]sev]e4 ,,look ,,upw>d4 ,oh6 h[ unc]ta9 all bel[6 ,our com=ts cause u pa92 ,smil+1 !y /+ u z !y g1 ,ne'er to return aga94 ,!n upw>d turn ?y weep+ eye2 ,nor1 l yon droop+ tree1 ,b5d d[nw>d to ! e>?2 on high ,see ,jesus looks on !e4 ,jesus6 :at balm is 9 t s\nd6 ,x bids our te>s away2 ,spreads life & happ9ess ar\nd2 ,conv]ts ! night to day4 ,to feel ,?y dy+ love1 be m9e2 ,to he> ,?y *>m+ voice2 ,! ceaseless :isp]1 ',i am ,?9e1' ,%all bid my he>t rejoice4 ,de>] ?an sons or daught]s2 ,?\2 ,de>] ?an "m's love2 ,gladly = ,!e ,i all =ego1 ,& seek my bliss above4 ,i w5t to ,wigg9ton to visit a "y woman1 :om ,i f\nd prais+ ,god = hav+ afflict$ h]1 & br\ght h] to ! k ( ! tru?4 ,to "s o!rs1 ,i 0 p[]fully con/ra9$ to speak respect+ _! s\ls4--,miss ,b5tley came = a few days4 ,we visit$ _m ( ! villag]s1 to put !m 9 m9d to prep>e = et]nity4--,mr4 ,hope ann\nc$ f ! pulpit1 t x 0 8 wi% ,i %\ld comm5ce a class 9 ,haxby on ,monday ev5+1 at sev5 o'clock4 ,! words occurr$ to me1 ',by :om %all ,jacob arise1 = he is small8' ,o my ,god1 to ,!e my obligations are great1 & my weaknesses are all kn[n2 b if ?is is f ,!e1 br+ x to pass2 let !re be "s tok5 = good1 "s r5d+ ( he>t among ! p4--,accord+ to appo9tm5t ,i w5t to ,haxby1 to meet any :o 7 desir\s ( flee+ f ! wra? to come4 ,?ree p]sons came2 two ( !m backslid]s1 & "o :o has nev] met be=e4--,visit$ sev]al ( ! villag]s4 ,at "o place ,i felt mu* :ile b[$ at ! ?rone ( grace4 ,a little boy1 to :om ,i aft]w>ds address$ a few words1 bur/ into te>s4 ,o t ! ,"l w\ld poor out ,8 ,_s1 & b[ _! he>ts to ,8 sway6 ,o ,"l1 let n my unfai?fulness h9d] ,?y "w4--,aft] meet+ my class 9 ! city1 ,i w5t on to ,hesl+ton to see ,mr4 ,k41 :o is app>5tly on 8 dea?-b$4 ,i endeav\r$ to speak fai?fully2 b unless ! ,_s ( ,god apply ! tru?1 va9 is ! help ( man4 ,i feel mu* out ( love ) myself4--,walk$ aga9 to see ,mr4 ,k41 :o appe>s z tea*able z a little *ild4 ,i feel enc\rag$ to hope t he w lay hold ^u ,jesus4 ,b ,o h[ dang]\s to delay until dea? />es u 9 ! face6--,w5t to ,haxby1 & f\nd only "o to meet me !re3 b ! ,"l met h]1 :i* 0 bett] ?an numb]s )\t ,him4 ,o ,god1 keep ?is preci\s s\l--?is ask$-= tok5 ( ,?y love4 ,:ile sitt+ "u ! ^w1 ! ,"l made x z a broad riv] to my s\l4 ',bless$ are ! pure 9 he>t1' 0 ! subject4 ,te>s ( love & gratitude roll$ d[n my *eeks1 & love fill$ my he>t2 = ,i felt myself a p>tak] ( ?is great salvation4 ,?us may ,i ev] live1 ,& feel ! p[] div9e2 ,taught by ,?y ,_s to believe ,?is full salvation m9e4 ,) a pa9ful heada*e ,i walk$ to ,york2 b ! satisfaction ( m9d ,i felt 9 keep+ ! pa? ( duty1 amply repaid me4 ,i ?9k a g5]al bless+ 0 exp]i5c$4--,:ile plead+ ) ,god1 ^! words 7 appli$1 ',i am ,?y salvation4' ,i felt confid5ce1 b n all ,i want4 ,i seem only on ! edge ( liv+2 ,i want to be 'plung$ 9 ! ,godhead's deepe/ sea4'--,six mon?s s9ce my de> "m dep>t$6 ,%e is daily ! subject ( my ?\ghts1 & h] memory becomes increas+ly de> to me4 ,well1 x is b a %ort sep>ation--a ?9 p>tition2 my e>?ly tab]nacle feels ! =ce ( "t--x crumbles & decays2 b by fai? ,i look = a m durable habitation1 :]e ,i %all meet ^? :o are gone be=e4 ,"t rolls away--yet fre% ! sc5e appe>s ,:5 my de> "m left ?is vale ( te>s2 ,!n1 sorr[ /amp$ its seal ^u my he>t2 ,nature recoil$--b grace reliev$ ! sm>t4 ,mr4 ,r41 disc\rs+ on ! necessity ( ex]cis+ a =giv+ _s1 illu/rat$ 8 subject by ! foll[+ anecdote3--,an (fic] 9 ! army ly+ on 8 dea?b$1 s5t = "o ( ! prea*]s to visit him4 ,on 8 ent]+ ! room1 ! sick man ask$ him1 if he rememb]$ t he 0 once insult$ by a company ( (fic]s :ile he 0 prea*+ 9 ,dubl94 ,! prea*] rememb]$ x well4 ,he !n told him1 t he _h be5 "o ( ! wor/ ( !m2 & _h s5t to ask him to pray = him1 & to tea* him :at he mu/ d to be sav$1--z he believ$ he 0 a dy+ man1 & 0 unprep>$ = ano!r _w4 ,! m9i/] po9t$ him to ! ,savi\r2 & aft] pray+ ) him sev]al times1 0 ab\t to dep>t1 :5 ! (fic] (f]$ him a h&some pres5t = 8 s]vices4 ,?is he refus$1 & took 8 leave4 ,on pass+ ?r\gh ! hall1 "o ( ! s]vants acco/$ him1 ,:at a pity my ma/] won't see 8 son1 & has cut him (f ) a %ill+1 al?\gh he w\ld gladly see 8 fa!r4 ,! m9i/] imm$iately return$ to ! sick man1 & repeat$ to him ! ,"l's pray] until he came to ! words1 'z we =give !m t trespass aga9/ u2' he !n /opp$1 & ask$ him if he =gave e "o4 ,! (fic] paus$ a mom5t & repli$1 ',!re is "o :om ,i d n =give1 & _c4' ',!n1' said ! m9i/]1 'nei!r w y\r heav5ly ,fa!r =give y y\r trespasses4' ,aft] "s delib]ation1 x 0 agre$ t ! son %\ld be s5t =4 ,he came1 fell on 8 knees at ! b$side1 & ) te>s 9 8 eyes1 press$ 8 fa!r's h& to 8 lips1 & begg$ 8 =giv5ess4 ,! fa!r's rel5t+s 7 k9dl$3 ^u :i* ! m9i/] sung-- ',! op'n+ heav5s ar\nd me %9e1 ,) beams ( sacr$ bliss2 ,:5-- ',:56' cri$ ! (fic]1 'nay ,n[1 ,jesus %[s ,8 m]cy m9e4 ,& :isp]s ,i am ,84' ,call$ ^u ,mr4 & ,miss ,k4 ,!y _h company3 ,i 0 pres]v$ f unpr(itable conv]sation1 & d>$ to speak = ,god4 ,on my return1 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ! *ur*y>d1 :]e ! rema9s ( my de> p>5ts are deposit$4 ,x 0 a beautiful moonlight night2 & ,i /opp$ to %$ a sil5t te> ov] ! mu*-lov$ du/1 9 hope ( jo9+ !m aga9 9 ! realms above4 ,"l1 help me on my way4--,i w5t to see a backslid]1 :om ! ,"l _h made will+ to return4 ,aft] conv]s+ a little1 we knelt d[n to pray]4 ,h] husb& pray$2 !n %e began1 & :ile confess+ h] s9s & plead+ = m]cy1 ! ,"l look$ ^u h] 9 compassion1 & heal$ h] backslid+s4 ,! same aft]noon1 %e came & jo9$ h]self ) ! p ( ,god4 ,alone 9 ! room :]e my v5]at$ "m brea!d h] la/4 ,?\gh no fam$ eulogy proclaims h] wor?1 ,nor ) h] fell[-pilgrims rank$ on e>?1 ,a high] record do? h] hi/ory trace2 ,9 heav5's high regi/] %e claims a place4 ,retir+1 & unkn[n or b to few1 ,h] latt] days 7 hid f public view2 ,b ,i h (t5 witness'd1 :5 alone-- ,! pray] uplift$1 & ! sigh unkn[n4 ,:5 no eye saw h]1 b ) ,god %ut 91 ,%e p\r'd h] pla9t to ,him1 :o saw1 unse52 ,!n f ! sacr$ ^w %e succ\r drew1 ',to ho>y hairs ,i be>1 ,i c>ry y4' ,?is promise /ill h] droop+ _s *e]$1 ,& %$ its />light :5 ! night appe>$4 ,bold1 9 h] weakness1 close ! foe pursu$1 ,& (t ! bitt] conflict 0 r5ew$2 ,conqu'ror at la/1 %e calmly so>$ away1 ,& left a smile ^u ! passive clay4 ,i he>d ,mr4 ,dawson1 f ',pet] foll[$ af> (f'--a season1 ,i hope1 nev] to be =gott52 = !n ,ri*>d made up 8 m9d to accept ! invitation1 & 'come ne>1' z ,mr4 ,d4 express$ x4 ,?is to me is matt] ( joy & ?anksgiv+2 = s9ce ,i knew t ,mr4 ,d4 0 com+1 x has be5 my pray]1 t 8 visit might be made a bless+ to "s1 n p>ticul>ly ?9k+ ( my son4 ,?us1 beyond my expectation1 has ! ,"l condesc5d$ to my pray]4 ,,aft] ,a ,,fit ,,( ,,sickness4 ,:ile ?\s&s 9 ,?y c\rts are f\nd1 ,wait+ on b5d$ knee2 ,behold1 9 solitude1 a worm1 ,t d>es approa* to ,!e1 ,to me ! heav5ly gift imp>t1 ,?y ,holy ,_s s5d2 ,to fill & sanctify my he>t1 ,& bid its w&'r+s end4 ,!n heal? or sickness let me %>e1 ,z wills et]nal love2 ,= all is well1 if ,?\ art ne>1 ,?y creature to approve4 ,my grateful ?anks = ease ,i br+1 ,& e com=t giv52 ,nor less = sorr[s1 s5t to w+ ,my grov'll+ s\l to heav54 ,great ,god6 to ,!e my wi%es fl[1 ,:o do/ my life prolong2 ,?y witness let me live bel[1 ,?y /atutes be my song4 ,ere ! day broke1 ! ,"l broke 9 ^u my s\l ) ! words1 ',?y sun %all no m g d[n1 nor ,?y moon )draw itself1 = ! ,"l %all be ?y ev]la/+ light1 & ! days ( ?y m\rn+ %all be end$4' ,su* light %one ^u ! :ole *apt]1 z fill$ my s\l ) gratitude = ! ri* promises giv5 to ! p ( ,god4--,call$ to see a man & 8 wife1 bo? sick1 to :om ! ,"l has bless$ affliction4 ,! man 0 rejoic+ 9 ! ,"l1 & ! woman is resolv$ n to re/ %ort ( salvation4 ,:ile we unit$ 9 pray] %e receiv$ "s enc\ragem5t4 ,,xiv4 ,,p[] ,,) ,,god4 ,,= ,,:5 ,i ,,am ,,weak1 ,,!n ,,am ,i ,,/rong4--#b ,cor4 xii4 #aj4 ,d y ev] receive answ]s to y\r pray]s8 ,we d n speak to ^?1 :o look ^u pray] simply z an act ( homage done to a sup]ior be+2 !y d n expect any3 b to ^?1 :o believe t pray] has p[] ) ,god4 ,:y are s _m pray]s ineffectual1 ev5 ( ^? :o really expect an answ]8 ,"s lack e>ne/ness2 !y are too diffusive1 l ! lett] ( ! "y maid51 9 :i* %e asks a hundr$ que/ions1 :i* are =gott5 z soon z %e has atta*$ ! seal4 ,o!rs want w>m?2 !y are too =mal1 l a petition to a sov]eign2 :i* may1 or may n1 receive a graci\s & condesc5d+ reply4 ,o!rs are importunate1 & e>ne/ en\gh1 l ! begg>'s appeal = relief1 b )\t mu* hope ( success4 ,b h[ few1 l ! cry ( a *ild1 :o runs to 8 fa!r ) 8 "o1 = ! mom5t1 all-absorb+ reque/1 nev] dream+ ( a refusal1 & importunately urg$ till he succe$s4 ,yet su* is ! _s ( filial affection & confid5ce we are privileg$ to use be=e ,god4 ,= ,?is is ! confid5ce we h 9 ,him2 t if we ask any ?+ accord+ to ,8 w1 ,he he>e? u2 & if we "k t ,he he> u1 :atsoev] we ask1 we "k t we h ! petitions1 t we desir$ ( ,him4 ,mrs4 ,ly?'s di/+ui%+ feature1 0 h] love ( pray]4 ,x 01 to use h] own words1 ! life ( h] s\l1 h] delight1 h] greate/ joy2 & h] practice bore out ! tru? & s9c]ity ( h] words4 ,besides h] own /at$ h\rs ( private devotion1 :i* 7 frequ5t1 x 0 h] practice = _m ye>s to conduct family wor%ip ?ree times a-day4 ,b beyond ?is1 innum]able occasions pres5t$ !mselves1 :i* /imulat$ h] ?ir/+ s\l4 ,! call ( a fri5d1 or ! arrival ( a lett]2 ! prospect ( a j\rney1 or a safe return3 ! recollection ( a promise1 or ! reception ( a bless+2 a wakeful night1 or a sunny day2 9 a ^w1 :atev] /rongly impress$ h] _s z a subject ( ?anksgiv+1 or an object ( desire1 0 to h] ! signal = pray]4 ,& n unfrequ5tly1 engagem5ts 7 ent]$ into ) h] intimate fri5ds1 to (f] at giv5 times1 special int]cessions = p>ticul> objects2 engagem5ts1 :i* 7 fai?fully fulfill$4 ,?is ceaseless _s ( pray] 0 ! s\rce ( /r5g?2 =1 ?\gh naturally ( a timid & retir+ disposition1 ,z a pr9ce %e _h p[] ) ,god & man1 & prevail$4 ,^! rem>ks1 a c>eful read] w f9d fully su/a9$ by h] own j\rnal4 #ahcb4--,s5t a lett] to ,m4,w4,o may x be ble/ to h]6 ,m4,w4 0 at ! class1 & seem$ ?ankful = ! admonition4--,i w5t to ! village on ! ,"l's err&1 pray+ ,he w\ld make my go+ prosp]\s2 ,he graci\sly incl9$ "o fri5d to accompany me to ,mr4 ,b4's class--,i am enc\rag$ to hope !re is a "w ( grace ^u h] he>t3 ,o t x may prove la/+6 ,9 visit+ "o ( my memb]s1 ,i f\nd !re 0 no family-pray]4 ,we pray$ toge!r1 & on h] knees %e appe>$ deeply to m\rn h] neglect1 & promis$ ! ,"l to d bett]4 ,9 two or ?ree o!r little visits1 ,i f\nd ! ,"l among ,8 p4--,_h a preci\s int]view ) ,mrs4 ,b5jam9 ,a43 our s\ls 7 melt$ be=e ! ,"l4 ,o h[ ! _w 0 eclips$1 :ile our full he>ts 7 aspir+ aft] ,god6 ,i feel ! effect /ill4--,h[ l a dream is life6 we view ! sc5e1 & ere we are aw>e1 x is gone = ev]2 b to e mom5t is atta*$ ! importance ( et]nity4 ,aft] a %>p fit ( sickness1 h[ sweet is ease6 yet ^! seasons are bless$ to me1 inasmu* z !y lead me to look m closely into scripture decl>ations1 respect+ ! bless+s associat$ ) pati5t endurance4 ,my s\l seeks %elt] 9 ! secret place ( ! ,mo/ ,high4--,he>d a fai?ful s]mon f ,mr4 ,r43 ,i always pr(it "u he>t-se>*+ s]mons1 z !y discov] ! secret lurk+s ( nature4 ,i feel ! importance ( endeav\r+ to enl>ge ! p[]s ( my m9d1 s9ce ,i am acc\ntable to ,god = _! improvem5t4 ,i regret1 t ,i h sp5t s mu* "t to su* little purpose4 ,:i!r %all ,i g8 ,to :om %all ,i flee8 ,my he>t says1 ',m\ld z ?\ wilt ?y passive clay2' prep>e my "w1 & by ,?y grace help+ me1 ,i w put my neck "u ,?y yoke4 ,give me ,?y abid+ ,_s1 t 9 my age ,i may br+ =? fruit to ,?y glory2 enl>ge & f]tilize ! p[]s ( my m9d2 & tea* me to cultivate ! tal5ts ,?\ ha/ giv5 me4 ,to aid my recollection1 ,i "h write !m d[n3 "t1 heal?1 p[]s ( m9d--z memory1 und]/&+1 c42 p[]s ( body--z tongue1 h&s1 & feet2 money4--,i w5t to see a dy+ man1 b 0 d5i$4 ,h[ev]1 ,i knelt d[n ) 8 wife1 & sev]al o!rs :o 7 pres5t1 feel+ deeply conc]n$ = _! s\ls4--,my body is v feeble1 yet ,i wi% to be fully resign$ to ! w ( ,god1 ev5 %\ld ,i be entirely laid aside2 =1--?ank ,god1--,i feel no disposition to rep9e at ! deal+s ( provid5ce4 ,i only regret t ,i h s little improv$ my heal? & opportunities1 = my own b5efit & ! good ( my fell[-creatures4--,increas+ symptoms ( weakness2 b ! joy ( ! ,"l is my /r5g?3 my s\l longs aft] ,him4--,to-day ,i s5t a note to ! *apel1 to ann\nce t our h\se w\ld he op5 = pray] at two o'clock2 e>ne/ly reque/+ ! pray+ fri5ds to come1 & br+ ) !m any ( _! neighb\rs1 :o 7 desir\s ( flee+ f ! wra? to come4 ,at ! appo9t$ "t n9e p]sons came2 & :ile we 7 unit$ 9 pray]1 ,i enjoy$ ! s(t5+ p[]4 ,! *e]ful breeze1 & sunny ray1 ,p\r on ! e>? ! sweets ( day2 ,! blu%+ rose1 & lily vie ,) ! c>nation's deep] dye2 ,! dappl$ cl\d1 & welk9 blue1 ,) lights & %ad[s ev] new1 ,9 language l\d to me decl>e1 ,lo6 ,god is "h6 & ,god is !re6 ,"h--9 ,8 h&y "w1 ,i see ,8 wisdom1 skill1 & maje/y2 ,!re--,8 sublim] glories %9e-- ,god ov] all1 9 all1 div9e6 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,isaac came4 ,! ravages ( disease 7 pa9fully evid5t 9 him2 & on ! foll[+ morn+ :ile breakfa/+ ) u1 he _h ano!r attack ( p>alysis4 ,s unc]ta9 is all on e>?4--,on my return f ,s9n+ton1 z ,i 0 saunt]+ 9 ! /reets ( ,malton1 expect+ to meet my husb&1 a p]son tapp$ me on ! %\ld]1 & ask$ me if ,i 0 n ,ri*>d ,burdsall's daught]1 & be+ answ]$ 9 ! affirmative1 press$ me to d9e ) him4 ,s '! memory ( ! j is bless$4' ,i h enjoy$ a sweet calm1 & pray]ful _s4 ,acomb4--,visit$ "s ( ! de> p1 among :om ,i 0 mu* enc\rag$4 ,at ! pray]-meet+ ,mr4 ,r4 reque/$ me to speak to a p]son1 :om he believ$ to be seek+ ! ,"l4 ,) "s reluctance ,i did s4 ,:5 ,i address$ him1 he said1 ',o ,i am mis]able1 !re is no m]cy = me4' ,i bid him pray2 imm$iately he began to cry al\d1 & obta9$ "s com=t1 b n confid5ce4--,_h a v pr(itable int]view ) ,mrs4 ,c41 & f !nce w5t to ! *apel4 ,!re ! glori\s ,"l 0 z 'broad riv]s & /reams' to u4 ,i felt ! ov]:elm+ p[] ( sav+ grace4 ,ab\t half-pa/ t5 ,i retir$ to re/2 & :ile engag$ 9 pray]1 0 drawn out on behalf ( sev]al fri5ds1 & especially = ! "y man1 :o 0 s deeply di/ress$ on ,friday ev5+4 ,?us ! ,"l puts u 9 m9d ( our fell[-pilgrims1 & tea*es u to c>e = ea* o!r4--,?is morn+ ! "y man s5t = ,mr4 ,r41 wi%+ to see him1 & to in=m him ( ! happy *ange wr\ght 9 8 he>t by ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,mr4 ,r4 be+ out1 an int]view 0 fix$ = ! aft]noon4 ,he came1 & ! rapture he 0 9 exce$$ any?+ ,i ev] witness$4 ,he /at$1 t on ! prec$+ night he retir$ to 8 own room ab\t t5 o'clock2 took 8 ,bible1 & on 8 knees at 8 b$side1 0 pray+ till ab\t elev54 ,:5 he came to ! la/ v]se1 ',he t believe? on ! ,son ( ,god ha? life1' c41 he resolv$ )9 himself1 ,i w believe3 & imm$iately ! p[] 0 giv5 him4 ,he rose f 8 knees 'rejoic+ ) a joy unspeakable1 & full ( glory2' & w5t d[n /airs to tell 8 fell[-s]vants1 t he _h f\nd ! pe>l ( great price1 & h[ easy x 0 to believe3 wi%+ !m to %>e 9 ! bless$ness he felt4 ,he add$1 ',o praise ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l6' ',my s\l do? magnify ! ,"l1 & my _s rejoice? ,9 ,god my ,savi\r6'--,aft] meet+ my class 9 ! city1 ,i />t$ home1 n int5d+ to visit ! abs5t memb]s3 b be+ deeply press$ 9 _s ,i return$1 & call+ ^u "o & ano!r1 f\nd "o 9 deep sorr[4 ,i feel ?ankful ,i obey$ ! inw>d impulse4--,saw old ,fanny1 laid on ! b$ ( affliction1 & surr\nd$ ) pov]ty2 b prais+ ! ,"l4 ,%e said1 ',praise ! ,"l1 ,i feel ,him preci\s6 ,glory be to ,god1 my prospect is z cle> z noonday6 ,i c m$itate ^u ,8 goodness1 :5 ,i am by myself1 9 ! night season3 yet ! enemy tempts me sometimes4'--,dur+ ! la/ week family duties h be5 privileges4 ,:ile he>+ ! ^w read1 & address+ my heav5ly ,fa!r 9 pray]1 ! /reams fl[+ f ! ,rock ,*ri/1 h refre%$ my _s4--,prev5t$ f meet+ ) ! de> p1 ,i betook myself to pray]4 ,"h ,i felt humbl$1 & melt$ d[n :ile plead+ = !m1 myself1 & m9e4 ,?us to be %ut 9 ) ,god is sweet2 b :at mu/ x be to enjoy ! uncl\d$ glories ( ,8 pres5ce8--be+ '*ang$ f glory to glory4'--,o my ,god1 give me a full] discov]y ( ,?yself2 & ?\gh outw>dly dull ( he>+1 let me he> ,?y inw>d voice cont9ually :isp] 9 my he>t1 ',i am ,?y ,god1 ,?y %ield1 & ,?y exce$+ great rew>d4' ,i h twice to-day jo9$ ) ,8 wor%ipp+ p1 b 9 nei!r case exp]i5c$ :at ,i h felt to-night1 :ile p\r+ out my s\l be=e ! ,"l4 ,/ripp$ ( e plea1 ,i hang ^u ,jesus4 ,?r\gh ,him alone my succ\r comes4--,?\gh weak 9 body1 ! morn+ damp1 & ! roads dirty1 ,i got to *apel1 :]e ,i 0 amply repaid by a discov]y ( my obligations to ! ,"l1 = hav+ be5 tak5 to ! h\se ( ,god f ! e>lie/ p]iod ( my life2 ! privilege be+ cont9u$1 )1 a few int]vals ( necess>y correction1 until n[4 ,i felt myself m indebt$ to ,god1 & m culpable ?an any pres5t = ! little improvem5t ,i h made ( my privileges2 b my he>t 0 melt$ d[n 9 gratitude & love4--,on ! v]ge ( ! old1 & ! ?re%old ( ! new ye>4 ,solemn ?\ght6 p]haps ,i n[ /& on ! v]ge ( et]nity6 ,h[ /&s my case 9 ! sight ( ,god8 ,on :at d ,i build my hope1 & :at is my confid5ce8 ,aft] close exam9ation ,i c say1 ,i re/ on no?+ b ! aton+ m]its ( ,jesus4 ,i feel ,8 m]cy n[4 #ahcc4 ,aga9 f sickness rais$1 to ,!e ,afre% my v[s ,i plight2 ,:ile ,god 9 ev]y?+ ,i see1 ,sickness or heal? is "r4 ,?\ can/ n err2 ',?y w be done1' ,be full submission m9e2 ,subject$ to ,?y w alone1 ,my w be lo/ 9 ,?9e4 ,^! k9d corrections f ,?y h&1 ,%all bless$ ordeals prove2 ,to b[ me to ,?y mild comm&1 ,& melt me into love4 ,my s\l %all bless ,!e = ! pa/1 ,& re/ ^u ,!e n[2 ,! future--on ,?y promise ca/1 ,& wait ,?y w to "k4 ,i h be5 kept at home to-day ?r\gh indisposition2 b h endeav\r$ to improve my "t to ! ,"l by pray]1 ! ex]cise ( my memory1 writ+1--read+ ! ,^w1 & also ',bick]/e?'s ,/ud5t's ,guide3' b imp]fection is /amp$ ^u all ,i d4--,! la/ night 0 v tempe/u\s1 & awoke me f sleep4 ,i got ^u my knees & f\nd my security 9 ,him1 :o holds !1 w9ds 9 ,8 fi/s4--,i h receiv$ lett]s f my ?ree sons4 ,h[ pleasant are su* communications6 ,h[ my he>t w\ld embrace !m all6 & w\ld n ,god embrace u all8 ,yea1 h[ mu* m8 ,o my sl[ness ( he>t to believe6 ,a fri5d f ! village call$2 & conv]s+ on ! l[ /ate ( spiritual feel+ among u1 we agre$ to make ! case kn[n to ,god e =5oon at half-pa/ t54--,at ! appo9t$ h\r ,i felt ! ?rone accessible1 & my s\l 0 reviv$ & /irr$ up3 z to ! village1 ,i "k n :at to say4--,praise ,god1 my s\l is happy--happy /ill4 ,my appo9tm5t 0 br\ght to my recollection v ne> ! mom5t3 my own s\l 0 refre%$1 b ,i exp]i5c$ little feel+ = my neighb\rs4--,half-pa/ t53 a bless$ s(t5+ season2 felt ! village laid z a burd5 ^u me1 = :i* ,i _h p[] to plead4 ,^! memor&a are cont9u$1 & ! voice ( int]cession 0 n 9 va92 = )9 a %ort "t1 ?irty new memb]s 7 add$ to ! little village society4 ,,to ,,my ,,m>y4 ,:y does my ,m>y look s sad1 ,& we> a p5sive air8 ,:]e c ! antidote be _h ,to bani% gloomy c>e8 ,say1 :y y\r spirits s9k & droop2 ,w ,jesus n return8 ,arise1 ,he calle? y1 look up2 ,o'er y ,8 b[els ye>n4 ,no sorr[ c ! bosom feel1 ,b ,jesus' love c cure2 ,! w\nd$ _s ,he c heal1 ,! fa9t+ he>t assure4 ,! humble1 contrite s9n] %>es ,8 k9d1 obs]v+ eye2 ,he sees y\r te>s1 ,he he>s y\r pray]s1 ,& w reg>d y\r cry4 ,arise1 & %ake y f ! du/1 ,arise1 ',he calle? y2' ,) filial boldness d>e to tru/1 ,& f9d ,8 promise true4 ,s gloom & sadness %all retreat1 ,& peace & joy return2 ,= :ile y sit at ,jesus' feet1 ,y\r he>t ) love w burn4 ,saw a lett] f de> little ,john1 in=m+ 8 si/] t he1 ) o!rs ( 8 s*ool-fell[s1 has ent]$ ! ,me?odi/ ,society4 ,he is j ab\t ! same age ,i 01 :5 ,i receiv$ my fir/ ticket2 & f connexion ) ?is p my "n has nev] be5 eras$1 ?\gh hundr$s ( times ,i h n des]v$ ! privilege ( memb]%ip2 b ! p h borne ) me1 & m ?an ?is1 ,god has borne ) me1 ev5 till n[4 ,glory be to ,god = ev]6--,"s /ruggle ?r\gh life1 & ?r\gh successive ye>s1 are toss$ on /ormy seas2 o!rs m calmly pass _! appo9t$ "t2 b su* z die 9 infancy1 fly z a bird to its re/1 & are privileg$ ) an e>ly entrance into glory4 ,s happy 0 ,james ,r41 :o c>eless ( all bel[1 smil$1 & bid ! _w adieu4--,_h an int]view ) ,mrs4 ,b4,a4 ,we f\nd x good to be at ! feet ( ,jesus4 ,i told h] t ,i ?\ght ( resign+ my ,sabba? class1 t ,i might turn my att5tion m fully to ! village4 ,we agre$ to br+ x be=e ! ,"l = a =tnight1 to ask 8 direction4--,i h writt5 eight copies ( ,mr4 ,/on]'s ',rules = ,pray]-,meet+s4' & giv5 !m to our pray]-lead]s4 ,at ! "t ( di/ribution1 a circum/ance occurr$1 :i*1 ?\gh di/9ct f !m1 yet happ5+ at ! same "t1 w possibly be connect$ ) !m 9 my future recollections1 & occasion m+l$ feel+s4--,deliv]$ my ,sabba? class-book to ,mrs4 ,a41 :o1 9 connexion ) ,mrs4 ,c41 has k9dly reliev$ me1 = ! pres5t1 ( a responsibility1 :i*1 "u exi/+ circum/ances1 ,i feel x "r to decl9e4 ,acomb4--,accompani$ ,mrs4 ,e----n to see sev]al ( ! fri5ds1 :o 7 sick4 ,call$ ^u ,mr4 ,m41 ^: h\sekeep] di$ sudd5ly ! night ,i came2 he seem$ pleas$ )1 our visit1 & promis$ to jo9 ! p ( ,god4 ,"l1 help him to p]=m 8 promise1 by tak+ possession ( 8 he>t4--,i got to ! morn+ pray]-meet+1 & 0 unusually drawn out 9 pray] z ,i w5t1 t ! ,"l w\ld he ) u & bless u2 & n 9 va94 ,x 0 a bless$ season1 & ,i believe o!rs felt x also4 ,o t ! ,_s f on high may be p\r$ out1 t ,satan's k+dom may h a mighty %ake ?is ,:itsuntide6--,i felt x my duty to call ^u a neighb\r or two1 :o1 z ,i am in=m$1 ?9k !mselves insult$ by "s1 :o wi%$ fai?fully to dis*>ge _! duty1 9 a matt] ( *ur* discipl9e4 ,i w5t 9 ! "* ( a peacemak]1 & aft] conv]s+ ) !m on ! necessity ( seek+ a high] /ate ( feel+1 we pray$ toge!r1 & felt lib]ty4 ,o t 9 good e>ne/1 !y may beg9 to seek ! ,"l6 ,i told !m t1 9 my poor way1 ,i %\ld rememb] !m4 ,"l1 lay !m ^u my he>t1 t ,i may n =get4 ,to-night my s\l is truly happy 9 ,god4 ,i feel mu* drawn out 9 pray] t ,satan's k+dom may fall1 & ! religion ( ,jesus prevail 9 ?is village4--,i felt x unusually sweet to b[ be=e ! ,"l 9 secret1 & be> up my neighb\rs at ,8 ?rone1 ,i felt ',! spee*less awe t d>es n move1 ,& all ! sil5t heav5 ( love4' ,my be/ seasons h be5 9 retirem5t4 ,call$ ^u "s ( my sick neighb\rs1 & aim$ to please ,god 9 all my visits4 ,o ,"l1 foll[ ) ,?y bless+ my weak ef=ts6 ,quick5 ! lukew>m1 & p>don ! guilty4 ,i 0 glad to see "s new faces at ! ev5+ prea*+4--,met ) my fri5ds 9 b&1 & propos$ meet+ e day at two clock1 to entreat ! ,"l to deep5 ,8 "w 9 our s\ls2 & especially1 to he> u on behalf ( our fri5ds4--,my s\l 0 bless$1 :ile b[$ be=e ! ,"l ) my little ,john4 ,surely ! ,_s ( pray] 0 p\r$ ^u u4--,w5t to ,j4,s4 to tell him ( 8 faults1 :i*1 ,i am sorry to f9d by 8 own confession1 supply j gr\nd = c5sure1 ?\gh exagg]at$ by report4 ,yet ,i did n feel t sweet ,*ri/ian pity1 :i* ,i h felt to o!rs 9 simil> circum/ances4 ,o = t ye>n+ *>ity1 t endeav\rs to draw out ( ,satan's sn>e ! s\ls entangl$ by him6--,call$ to see my mu* e/eem$ fri5d1 ,miss ,c41 :o is s9k+ ?r\gh decay ( nature4 ,%e says1 ',i look = ! accompli%m5t ( ! promise n[2' & speak+ ( ! ,"l's ,supp]1 %e said1 ',i d n ?9k any p>ticul> prep>ation is necess>y2 because1 if we d n always live ready to communicate1 we are n liv+ z we ought4' ,:5 pray] 0 propos$1 %e said1 ',pray t ,i may h increase ( fai?1 pati5ce1 & resignation4'--,i address$ a note to ,ri*>d on ! subject ( salvation1 & plac$ x :]e he might f9d x accid5tally4 ,ask$ ,mrs4 ,r4 to let me h a pray]-meet+ 9 h] h\se on ,sabba? aft]noon2 %e readily cons5t$4 ,o t ,god w\ld meet u !re6--,) a feeble body1 ,i set =w>d to ! pray]-meet+2 invit+ z ,i w5t "s1 :o seldom att5d4 ,met ) "o :om ,i _h nev] se5 be=e1 :o seems desir\s ( salvation1 & 0 glad to accompany me4 ,!re ! ,"l met ) u4 ,"o s\l 0 made truly happy1 & ano!r rejoic$ 9 ! ,"l1 hav+ receiv$ good ! week be=e4 ,x 0 inde$ a bless$ season2 b my poor body 0 press$ d[n ) pa91 :i* r5d]$ x necess>y = me to lie 9 b$ till ,monday ev5+4--,! two :o h lately f\nd peace1 came to our h\se2 we conv]s$1 pray$ ) !m1 read ! rules1 & gave !m ea* a copy4 ,o bless my feeble ef=ts6--,9 answ] to pray]1 ,i awoke at five o'clock & arose1 & ?\gh my body is weak1 my _s is alive4--,i am ?is day go+ to attempt ! =mation ( a new class1 hav+ secur$ a place 9 ! village to meet 94 ,i leave ! result ) ! ,"l1 :o kn[s my he>t1 & ! he>ts ( ! p4 ,empty me ( self1 & if ,?\ can/1 use me = ,?y glory1 & give me a pro( t ,i am n go+ a w>f>e at my own *>ge4 ,visit+ "s ( ! villag]s1 ,i felt t ,i 0 on ! ,"l's err&1 & ?9k ,i lo/ sight ( self4 ,o might x nev] m /eal 96 ,at half-pa/ ?ree1 ,i w5t to fri5ds ,r41 :o h k9dly (f]$ a room to meet 91 & h also giv5 9 _! names to meet ) u4 ,! two "y wom51 :o h lately witness$ a good confession1 also jo9$ ) u1 mak+ f\r 9 all4 ,o write ea* "n 9 heav56--,?is ev5+ ?irty new memb]s 7 admitt$ on trial4 ,:at a privilege to be numb]$ ) ,god's p6 ,b :5 ,i rememb] t ! ,"l is a wall ( fire r\nd ab\t !m1 ,i wond] t ,i am n m 9 e>ne/4--,i f\nd ! ?rone easy ( access4 ,i believe ! influ5ce 9 our little meet+ 0 g5]al4 ,:at enjoym5t has ! _w to equal communion ) ,god8--,increas$ communion ) ,god4 ,i 0 at ! pray]-meet+ 9 ! morn+1 & aft]w>ds call$ ^u sev]al p]sons1 to :om ,i endeav\r$ to speak fai?fully2 b :o reg>ds x8 ,"l1 ,i leave my feeble ef=ts ) ,!e4 ,i write1 & :y8 because ! review ( ,god's m]cies proves a /imulus2 & (t51 :ile committ+ to pap] ! ,"l's deal+s ) me1 ,8 love flames bright] on my he>t4 ,,all ,,%all ,,be ,,well4 ,if ,jesus be ) me1 :5 sorr[s assail1 ,& floods ( affliction aga9/ me prevail2 ,8 c\nt5ance lift$1 my passions %all /ill1 ,& all %all be well1 :ile ,i suff] ,8 w4 ,if crosses p]plex me1 & p]ils surr\nd1 ,repose 9 my ,savi\r1 my foes %all conf\nd2 ,no weapon %all prosp]1 or cause me to fe>1 ,b all %all be well1 :ile ,8 pres5ce is "h4 ,i repair$ to ,mrs4 ,r4's to meet ! de> p2 e "p ( my way seem$ d\btful1 b ! ,"l 0 graci\sly ) me4 ,we 7 eight assembl$1 & a bless$ influ5ce re/$ on u4 ,"s 7 e>ne/ly seek+ p>don4--,_h a deeply int]e/+ int]view ) ,mrs4 ,b41 :o is depress$ on acc\nt ( worldly circum/ances1 & wants confid5ce 9 ,him1 :o has comm&$ u to ca/ 'all our c>e ^u ,him4' ,i felt a _s ( sympa?y1 & ! ,"l p\r$ ^u u ! _s ( pray]2 our he>ts melt$1 & our mon?s 7 fill$ ) argum5ts4--,pray] has be5 v sweet to me2 ,i h increas$ p[] to re/ ^u ! promises1 & ?r\gh ,*ri/ to claim !m4 ,yet 9 myself1 ,i discov] su* a dep? ( vil5ess1 t1 :5 ,i ?9k ( ! amaz+ love ( ,god to me1 my s\l is humbl$ & adores4 ,te>s ( gratitude ov]fl[ my eyes1 t ,god--! ,god ( ,gods1 %\ld condesc5d to su* a worm z ,i4--,by a lett] f my ,ri*>d to 8 fa!r1 ,i am enc\rag$ to believe ! ,"l is aga9 work+ ^u 8 m9d4 ,x caus$ te>s ( joy to run d[n my *eeks1 & on our knees we unit$ toge!r to ?ank ! ,"l4 ,may ! good be p]man5t4--,at my own b$side ! _s ( pray] 0 s abundantly giv51 t ,i c\ld sc>cely cease plead+ = my *ildr51 especially ,ri*>d1--,i welcome ! return ( ! ,sabba?4 ,nature1 ev5 at ?is advanc$ season ( ! ye>1 exhibits an unusual degree ( v]dure2 & invites me to adore ! ,rul] ( times & seasons1 :o conf]s su* ri* & ceaseless bless+s on rebelli\s man1--ev5 ^u me1 ! mo/ undes]v+2 = by div9e light ,i see t ev]y?+ ,i d is defective2 yet1 by simply v5tur+ ^u ,*ri/ 9 pray] & fai?1 ,i receive peace & p[]4 ,i h receiv$ a v pleas+ communication f ,ri*>d1 describ+ ! angui% ( m9d ?r\gh :i* he has pass$ on acc\nt ( s92 & in=m+ me1 t he has come to ! cross & obta9$ deliv]ance ?r\gh believ+4 ,he says1 ',:]eas ,i 0 once bl9d1 n[ ,i see4' ,on ?is acc\nt my s\l rejoices4 ',o = a he>t to praise my ,god4' ,our removal to ,york is n[ fix$ to take place 9 ?ree mon?s 7,god will+74 ,s unc]ta9 is ev]y?+ ^u e>?4 ,fix ,?\ ! b\nds ( our habitation1 & encamp r\nd ab\t our abode1 & all %all be well4 ,,xv4 ,,! ,,return4 ,,to ,,see ,,?y ,,p[] ,,& ,,?y ,,glory1 ,,s ,,z ,i ,,h ,,se5 ,,!e ,,9 ,,! ,,sanctu>y4--,psalm lxiii4 #b4 ,( all deprivations1 none is s great1 or z pa9fully felt by a truly dev\t s\l1 z ! loss ( religi\s ord9ances4 ,) :at deep pa?os does ! ,psalmi/ lam5t 8 long exile f ! sc5e ( solemn rites & holy sacrifice6 ',h[ amiable are ,?y tab]nacles1 ,o ,"l ( ,ho/s6 ,my s\l longe?1 yea1 ev5 fa9te? ,= ! c\rts ( ! ,"l2 ,my he>t & my fle% crie? out ,= ! liv+ ,god4' ,he envies ! birds ( ! air1 t free & unfett]$1 build _! ne/s h>d by ! temple ( 8 ,god1 :ile he1 a bani%$ man1 mu/ seek a refuge 9 ! wild]ness4 ',yea ! sp>r[ ha? f\nd an h\se1 ,& ! swall[ a ne/ = h]self1 ,:]e %e may lay h] "y2 ,ev5 ?9e alt>s1 ,o ,"l ( ,ho/s1 ,my ,k+ & my ,god4' ,mrs4 ,ly? lov$ ! habitation ( ! ,"l's h\se1 & deprecat$ ! prospect ( sep>ation f its privileges1 :i* 0 r5d]$ extremely probable by h] increas+ weakness4 ,ea/field ,h\se 0 ab\t a mile f ! village1 & betwe5 ?ree & f\r f ,york4 ,9 case ( decid$ failure ( heal?1 %e w\ld n only h be5 cut (f f active usefulness 9 :i* %e delight$1 b entirely exclud$ f *ri/ian ord9ances4 ,) ! view ( a little relief1 %e _h already rel9qui%$ "o ( h] classes 9 ! city1 & turn$ h] att5tion m exclusively to ! village2 b n[ !re 0 e likelihood t %e mu/ soon give up ! o!r4 ,^! circum/ances1 ) "s o!rs ( less mom5t1 det]m9$ ! propriety ( a removal back to ,york4 ,%ortly be=e ?is took place1 9 "o ( h] walks ?i!r1 = ! purpose ( meet+ h] class1 a circum/ance transpir$ :i* is wor? relat+4 ,%e met on ! road an odd old man1 ^: extraord9>y appe>ance made him1 at t "t1 well kn[n 9 ,york & its vic9ity4 ,at "o "t above ! av]age /ature1 he 0 n[ b5t ne>ly d\ble ) age1 & hobbl$ along ) two /icks4 ,a huge bun* ( ! old fa%ion$ mat*es1 atta*$ by a /r+ to 8 neck1 hung d[n be=e him1 & 0 suffici5t sign ( 8 occupation2 :ile a long :ite be>d1 rea*+ well nigh to ! gr\nd1 complet$ ! s+ul>ity ( 8 appe>ance4 ,?is latt] app5dage 01 h[ev]1 conv5i5tly made to take (f & on at pleasure4 ,he 0 fabul\sly report$ to be a hundr$ & tw5ty ye>s old2 & !re 0 little d\bt t he1 & also 8 wife :o sometimes accompani$ him1 7 on ! eve ( celebrat+ _! c5t5>y1 if !y _h n already done s4 ,:5 ,mrs4 ,ly? met him1 %e 0 /rongly impell$ to speak to him on ! subject ( religion2 b be+ alone1 & a little timid1 %e pass$ on4 ,:5 %e _h proce$$ ab\t a hundr$ y>ds1 %e felt s mu* pa9$ ) ! omission ( h] duty1 t %e ha/5$ back1 & fai?fully dis*>g$ h] consci5ce4 ,we ne$ only add1 t ! old man & 8 wife began to att5d ! *apel1 & ultimately became memb]s ( ,mr4 ,ly?'s class4 ,! old man got rid ( 8 be>d & 8 s9s toge!r1 &1 ab\t two or ?ree ye>s lat]1 bo? di$ 9 ! hope ( et]nal life4 #ahcd4--;,able to g to ! village4 ,call$ to see ,mrs4 ,b41 :o seems to h a desire to be sav$1 b has to cont5d ) great affliction4 ,ano!r pro( ( ! importance ( seek+ ! ,"l 9 heal?4 ,poor old ,mrs4 ,l4 is mu* alt]$1 & did n recollect me4 ,s mutable & p]i%+ is man4 ,on review+ ! day1 ,i ?9k ,i h be5 aim+ to please ,god2 b my p]=mances are s poor1 t ,i h ne$ to humble myself be=e ,god4--,i got to see ,mrs4 ,r41 mo/ probably = ! la/ "t4 ,%e is app>5tly ne> ! close ( life1 & pati5tly wait+ ! w ( ,god4 ,f !nce ,i w5t to visit ,m4,h4 9 ! c\nty hospital1 b z d9n] came 91 ,i left h] to see ,mrs4 ,w41 :o is 9 a prec>i\s /ate1 & mu* encumb]$ ) worldly c>e4 ,"h ! ,"l gave me p[] ( utt]ance1 & ! _s ( pray]4--,aft] six days sp5t at ,acomb1 ,i return$ home mu* out ( love ) myself4 ,my visit on ! :ole has be5 pleasant4 ,) & )\t my fri5ds1 ,i h visit$ _m ( ! inhabitants4 ,9 "s cases ,i h d]iv$ pr(it2 b 9 o!rs1 ,i h _h to take up my cross3 yet ,i h _h b "o aim--to d1 & get good4--,i w5t to meet ! de> p1 b ,i 0 s ov]:elm$ by a dull pa9 9 my head--accompani$ ) dr[s9ess1 t ,i ?\ght1 h[ %all ,i speak to !m8 b ! ,"l graci\sly remov$ ! indisposition1 & ble/ my s\l4--,! ,rev4 ,daniel ,isaac dep>t$ ?is life1 aft] a l+]+ illness4 ,he prea*$ 8 la/ s]mon 9 ,haxby1 & paid 8 la/ visit to our h\se2 b ! place t knew him %all "k him no m = ev]4 ,s w x soon be said ( me4--,jesus ha? broke ! b>s ( dea?1 & op5$ p>adise4 ,9 visit+1 ,i 0 mu* refre%$4 ,te>s ( contrition roll$ d[n ! face ( ,mrs4 ,l4 & ,mrs4 ,e4 ,"o 0 add$ to ! little class4 ,all 7 pres5t1 & ,i felt loa? to take leave ( !m2 b s x mu/ be4 ,?os4 ,y4 w n[ take *>ge ( !m4 ,?us ends my c>e] 9 ,haxby4 ,& aft] ! toil & tr\ble ( remov+1 ,i am n[ com=tably seat$ at ,grove ,t]race4 ,to ,!e1 ! bless$ ,donor ( all ,i enjoy1 w\ld ,i r5d] ?anks4 ,i h writt5 an address to my ,haxby memb]s4--,! division ( my little class seems n[ to be work+ well4 ,o ,"l behold & come1 visit ?is v9e2 let its "y & t5d] bran*es tw9e r\nd ab\t ,!e2 yea1 let ! :ole be baptiz$ ) ! ,holy ,gho/6--,! la/ mom5ts ( ?is beautiful mon? 7,may7 w soon h pa/ = ev]2 b ! record w rema91 :5 ! angel %all /&1 '"o foot on ! sea & ! o!r on ! l&1 & swe> t "t %all be no long]4' ,solemn ?\ght6 ,i feel ! importance ( x1 & ! necessity ( be+ clo!d ^u1 ) ! righte\sness ( ,*ri/4 ,well1 ,i h got into ! /ripp+-room4 ,o = a full ab&onm5t ( self1 a full giv+ up6 ,praise ,god1 my he>t yields1 & di/ru/+ itself1 lays hold ( ,jesus by fai?4 ,i feel solicit\s = ! spiritual & temporal welf>e ( my family1 especially my two elde/ sons4 ,my resolve is to ca/ my c>e ^u ,god4 ,i feel p[] to leave !m 9 ,8 h&s1 & believe ,he w "w on _! behalf4--,i op5$ my ,bible1 & my eye 0 caught by ! words1 ',c ,god furni% a table 9 ! wild]ness8 ,behold ,he smote ! rock1 t ! wat]s gu%$ out1 & ! /reams ov]fl[$4 ,c ,he give bread8 ,c ,he provide fle% = ,8 p8' ,x appe>$ a broad answ] to a conv]sation we _h ! night prec$+4 ,i 0 enc\rag$ to lay hold on x4--,only indispos$1 b made myself worse by go+ to ! lead]s' meet+1 z x came on ra94 ,9 ?is1 ,o ,"l1 =give my ra%ness1 = su* x 01 ano!r hav+ k9dly (f]$ to g = me4--,q laid aside ) sickness & pa91 yet sav$ f murmur+1 & j pati5ce en\gh4 ,! ,"l is wise1 & long-suff]+ 9 all ,8 deal+s ) me4 ,i h to-day rea*$ my fifty-second ye>1 & ?\gh 9 ! s*ool ( affliction1 am pati5tly wat*$ ov] by ! k9de/ ( in/ructors4 ,oh6 ! unb\nd$ love ( my unwe>i$1 ?\gh (t (f5d$ ,god6 ,s9n+ton4 ,x is a week s9ce my husb& br\ght me f ,sc>bro' to ?is place1 :]e my heal? is improv+1 & my opportunities ( retirem5t are less int]rupt$4 ,my m9d has be5 m /ay$ & recollect$1 & ,i enjoy great] peace4 ,i am le>n+ to come direct to ,jesus1 :o is ready to he> ! cry ( ^?1 :o ne$ ,8 help4 ,be+ seclud$ f ! _w1 ,i want to secure "s advantage1 t w appe> 9 aft] "t4 ,i am read+ ,mr4 ,watson's ,life1 "s p>ts ( :i* ,i f9d pr(itable4--,9 consequ5ce ( pa9 9 my head1 x has be5 ?\ght advisable to call 9 a physician2 b ,i w\ld n tru/ 9 man1 nor make fle% my arm2 nev]!less x is "r to use ! means1 & ,god c give ,8 bless+4 ,s9ce my return f ! c\ntry1 _m c>es & ex]cises h be5 my portion2 b1 kn[+ !y are ! appo9tm5ts ( my heav5ly ,fa!r1 x is 9 my he>t to pray1 ',?y w be done4'--,my two fri5ds1 ,b4 & ,r41 :o enjoy great ne>ness to ,god1 came to jo9 ) me 9 int]c$+ = my de> family1 ?ree ( :om are ab\t to leave home1 & g into ! _w4 ,!y 7 9 a bless$ frame ( m9d4--,my ,m>y gave h] h& to ,mr4 ,jackson4 ,! night previ\s1 press$ ) ! solicitude ( a "m1 my sleep dep>t$ f me4 ,i 0 deeply pray]ful2 my spiritual feel+ increas$1 & ,i 0 truly bless$1 :ile ,i frequ5tly repeat$ ) my he>t ! foll[+ l9es3-- ,jesus1 ,savi\r1 condesc5d ,at ?is m>riage to att5d2 ,= ,?yself ea* he>t prep>e1 ,grant t all ,?y love may %>e4 ,come1 ?\ great expect$ gue/1 ,come1 & ent] e brea/2 ,le/ ! subtle foe /eal 91 ,scre5 u ) ,?y gu>dian w+4 7,e>ly 9 ! morn+ h] daught] ent]$ ! room1 & begg$ h] to pray = h]4 ,%e readily cons5t$1 & embrac+ h]1 said1 ',i h be5 pray+ = y f retir+ until daybreak4'7 ,! morn+ 0 propiti\s2 & :ile ,mr4 ,c4 read ! twelf? ( ,romans & pray$1 ! pres5ce ( ! ,"l 0 among u4--,william />t$ = ,%effield to seek a new situation1 ,i tru/ "u ! c>e ( ,god1 hav+ ! night be=e comm5d$ him1 by unit$ pray]1 to ! k9d ,provid5ce ( our heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,= _m days ,i h enjoy$ ! s\l's calm sun%9e2 yet1 ,i feel x is ( m]cy1 n ( works4 ,jesus' blood is all my plea4 ,praise ,god1 :o1 ?r\gh ! vicissitudes ( ?is ev5tful mon?1 gives me tranquillity ( m9d4 ,n[1 ,i am anticipat+ ! return ( ,ri*>d to ,london1 to secure 8 diploma2 s t ?ree out ( f\r leave ! pat]nal ro( ?is mon?4 ,) respect to ,ri*>d1 my m9d is impress$ ) f> m *e]+ hopes1 ?an :5 he w5t la/ ye>4 ,!n1 fall5 f 8 /eadfa/ness1 he 0 w&]+ ^u ! d>k m\nta9s2 b n[1 return$ to ! ,"l1 he is s5sible ( 8 obligations1 & wi%es to make "s return4 ,"l make me grateful = ?is pro( ( ,?y love1 & make my ,ri*>d a burn+ & %9+ lum9>y1 wise to w9 s\ls4--,w5t to ! ,haxby ,mission>y ,meet+2 b to me all 0 disappo9tm5t4 ,"s :o pr(ess$ mu* fri5d%ip :5 ,i left !m1 look$ v cool2 "s ,i wi%$ to see1 ,i saw n2 ! *apel n full2 no mission>y-boxes1 al?\gh ,i "k ( f\r 9 ! place2 ! collection n half ! am\nt ( la/ ye>2 ! spee*es did n pr(it me2 p]haps ,i did n keep ! pa? ( duty1 = ,i left my class to be met by ano!r1 & neglect$ see+ "o :o expect$ me4 ,i 0 griev$ ) myself2 &1 ) a burd5$ m9d1 b[$ my knees & p\r$ out my compla9ts be=e ,god1 :o li/5$ to my cry & s5t me help1 melt+ me d[n be=e ,him1 & mak+ me will+ to be m ob$i5t 9 future4--,visit$ ,mrs4 ,c4 aga92 %e said1 ',i feel happy4 ,la/ ,?ursday1 aft] y 7 "h1 ,i plead$ ) ,god1 until ! words 7 appli$-- ',believe1 & all y\r s9s =giv51 ,only believe1 & y\r's is heav54' ,i ?\ght surely ?is is = me1 & felt ,i c\ld believe x 02' & !n came ! words1 ':5 ?\ passe/ ?r\gh ! valley ( ! %ad[ ( dea?1 ,i w be ) !e2' & ,i believe x4' ,my he>t rejoic$ ) h]4--,be+ indispos$1 ,i comm5c$ a lett] to my fri5ds 9 ,acomb1 :51 j z ,i complet$ "o side1 ,mrs4 ,r4 & little ,*>les came 91 & glad ,i 0 to see !m4 ,%e told me1 t a fri5d ( h] y\? :o moves 9 high life1 hav+ be5 awak5$ to a s5se ( h] s9ful condition1 _h s5t to h] repeat$ly = advice4 ,feel+ int]e/$ = h]1 %e reque/$ me to unite ) h] 9 plead+ at ! ?rone ( grace2 to :i* ,i acc$$1 kn[+ t x is n a va9 ?+ to call ^u ,god4 ,! appo9t$ times are e ,tuesday1 at half-pa/ n9e 9 ! morn+1 & half-pa/ n9e 9 ! ev5+4 ,?is is record$ to aid my memory4 ,aid u by ,?y ,_s1 or our ef=ts w be va94--,! engagem5t1 ?\gh n at ! exact "t1 0 rememb]$1 & ,i ent]$ a little into ! bus9ess4 ,miss ,c4 came to reque/ me to meet a lady at _! h\se1 :o is conv9c$ ( h] lo/ condition4 ,) "s diffid5ce1 f a s5se ( my own unfitness1 ,i accompani$ h]1 & conv]s$ ) ! lady on ! dawn & progress ( a "w ( grace 9 ! he>t2 l5t h] ',flet*]'s ,address1' & aft] ,mrs4 ,c4 & ,i _h pray$1 we p>t$4 ,b kn[+ ! good t is done on ! e>?1 ! ,"l doe? x1 ,i h made x matt] ( e>ne/ pray]1 = %e is mu* laid ^u my m9d4 ,?is1 ,i believe1 is pleas+ to ,god1 & ! r1 z ?is morn+ on op5+ ! ^w ( ,god1 ,i saw h[ ,ezekiel 0 humbl$ be=e ! ,"l = ! p ( ,israel & ,judah4--,be+ 9 heal?1 ,i w5t =?1 pray+ = direction & ! bless+ ( ,god4 ,"s k9d fri5ds gave me tw5ty-two %ill+s to help a poor memb]4 ,?is ,i took2 %e receiv$ x ?ankfully4 ,visit$ ,mrs4 ,c41 %e is able to re/ 9 ,god4 ,call$ on ,mr4 ,s41 & left ',flet*]'s ,address2' also ^u ,mrs4 ,d41 & left a copy ( ! same4 ,o t ! ,_s may d 8 (fice6 ,:y d ,i speak ?us8 ,he waits to ent]3 may !y be will+ to yield4--,w5t to ,pockl+ton to see ,mrs4 ,p4 ,!re ,i met ) ,e4 ,brookes1 ,esq4 ,8 private walk bespeaks him a devot$ man4 ,i e/eem$ x a privilege to lodge "u ! same ro(4 ,my j\rney has be5 ble/ to bo? body & s\l2 hav+ ackn[l$g$ ,god1 my way 0 made pla91 & ,8 pres5ce has com=t$ me4 ,i return$ home 9 ,mr4 ,b4's gig4 ,i _h n arriv$ _m m9utes1 be=e ,miss ,h4 came to conv]se on spiritual ?+s2 ,i ?\ght x provid5tial t ,i came at ! "t3 b :o is suffici5t = ^! ?+s8 ,o bless ! de> "y disciple6 ,mrs4 ,d4 has receiv$ good1 inde$ h] c\nt5ance indicat$ ! *ange4 ,%e told me %e purpos$ comm5c+ family-pray] 9 ! ev5+3 "o m>k ( g5u9e conv]sion4--,i _h a v pr(itable int]view ) a lady1 :o came to conv]se on div9e ?+s4 ,h[ _m opportunities h ,i miss$1 :i* might h ?us be5 employ$ to advantage4 ',my m\? z 9 ! du/ ,i hide4' #ahce4 ,able to meet my class3 sev5te5 pres5t4 ,a fre% memb] turn$ 91 & appe>$ s5sible ( h] lo/ condition4 ,my s\l felt t pa9ful /ruggl+ ) ! p[]s ( d>kness1 :i* ,i h (t5 exp]i5c$ :5 knelt by ! side ( a seek+ s9n]4 ,z ! p )drew1 a little girl 0 wait+ = me to g & see h] "m1 :o is mu* worse4 ,i f\nd h] support$ 9 b$ by a neighb\r1 ! p]spiration /ream+ d[n h] face4 ,%e held out h] h& to me1 & told me ,*ri/ 0 preci\s4 ,by-&-bye a :isp] 0 he>d1 ',i'll praise my ,mak] :ile ,i've brea?4' ,h] voice fail$4 ,:ile ,i pray$1 angels seem$ hov]+ ar\nd4 ,i said1 y d n feel any d\bt2 %e repli$1 ',no2 ,i re/ ^u ! promise4' ,%e di$ ! next day4--,my m9d 0 deeply impress$ ) ! ?\ght ( et]nity1 occasion$ by ! s\nd ( ! pass+ bell4 ,h[ lead5 falls ! deep-ton$ s\nd6 ,! he>t is ) its weight oppress'd2 ,a s\l has cross'd life's n>r[ b\nd1 ,a s\l--= ev] lo/ or ble/4 ,= ev]6 :at a ^w is ?is6 ,ye c>eless mortals1 be x kn[n2 ,9 ev]la/+ woe or bliss1 ,?is ^w1 = ev]6 is y\r own4 ,mom5t\s ?\ght6 ,i feel x n[2 ,?is long et]nity is m9e3 ,my s\l %all ?is duration "k1-- ,a qu5*less sp>k ( life div9e6 ,:5 ,i retir$1 ,i bes\ght ! ,"l to awake me1 & give me heal? to g to ! six o'clock pray]-meet+4 ,9 ?is1 ,he condesc5d$ to answ] me2 b my body incl9$ to re/4 ,= a mom5t1 ,i li/5$2 b my pray] & promise occurr$ to me1 & dur/ ,i ?us (f5d ! ,"l8 ,i rose1 conf]r+ no long] ) fle% & blood1 & 0 abundantly repaid4 ,! peace ( ,god ov]fl[$ me z a riv]1 & :ile ,i write ! effect rema9s4 ,my s\l 0 mu* drawn out on behalf ( "s ( my unconv]t$ relatives4 ,a little aft] we _h ris5 f our knees1 "o ( !m came 91 & ,i seiz$ ! opportunity ( press+ ^u him ! necessity ( a *ange ( he>t4--,! _s ( pray] 0 giv5 to me 9 an unusual degree1 especially on behalf ( my de> son1 :o believes himself call$ to ! "w ( ! m9i/ry1 & has ?is day engag$ to supply ! place ( "o :o has gone to 8 rew>d4 ,h[ important6 ,may ! ,"l g ) him4--,= "s "t ,i h ?\ght ( invit+ ,miss ,m4,b4 to class2 b1 n kn[+ :e!r %e _h any conc]n = salvation1 ,i demurr$4 ,/ill ! impression foll[$ me1 & to-day ,i told h] ( x4 ,! te>s />t$ 9 h] eyes1 & %e confess$ ) great frankness1 t %e 0 conv9c$ %e mu/ h ! peace ( ,god to be happy2 b %e _h nev] m5tion$ ! subject to any b h] "m4 ,surely ?is impression 0 f ! ,"l1 & 9 answ] to pray]3 = "s "t s9ce1 h] "m & ,i agre$ to plead = our *ildr5 e ,w$nesday aft]noon4 ,my affections1 divid$ to e memb] ( my family1 meet 9 "o po9t at ! ?rone ( grace2 :]e _m a "t my expectations are rais$1 & my s\l bless$4 ,to-day my husb& takes a class2 may x be made an abundant bless+ to 8 own s\l4--,! qu>t]-day3 mu* excitem5t1 le/ a r5t %\ld be made among u2 my de> *ri/ian fri5ds1 ,a4 & ,b41 came to my h\se to lay ! matt] be=e ! ,"l1 :ile ! meet+ 0 be+ held4 ,!re1 inde$1 we did p\r out our cause2 buffet$1 b mu* enc\rag$ by ! promise1 especially z x 0 giv5 to two ( u1 ',i1 ! ,"l1 d keep x2 le/ any hurt x1 ,i w keep x night & day4' ,we believ$ ! ,"l w\ld int]pose1 & s x 04 ,we 7 told ! case 0 wond]fully ov]rul$4 ,o ! condesc5sion ( our m]ciful ,high ,prie/6--,mrs4 ,a4 br\ght me a sick visit+-book1 :i* ,i did n refuse3 = al?\gh ,i feel my disqualification1 yet am will+ to d :at ,i c1 only let me h heav5ly aid4 ,at twelve at noon1 six ( u op5$ a weekly meet+ = int]cession3 to me x 0 a bless$ season4 ,i h at times great enl>gem5t1 b abas+ views ( my own depravity1 ) exp&$ p]ceptions ( ! love & p[] ( ,god--great 9 wisdom1 great 9 love1 great 9 hol9ess1 & yet ,he deigns to visit me4 ',fai?1 l5ds its realis+ light1 ! cl\ds disp]se1' & let a ray ( ! ,inf9ite into my s\l4 ,?us1 9 ! mid/ ( _m ?+s t are pa9ful1 ,i am com=t$4--,h be5 out to tea aga9/ my incl9ation1 & yet x 0 among my fri5ds4 ,endeav\r$ to give a religi\s tone to ! conv]sation1 b "s1 :o ought to h come =w>d1 7 sil5t2 & to o!rs )\t ! lea/ int5tion ,i fe> ,i h giv5 (f5ce4 ,f ?is cause my m9d is tr\bl$2 b on reflection1 ?9k1 ,i ought n to yield to su* a feel+1 be+ consci\s t my aim 0 to d "r4 ,to ,!e1 ,oh ,savi\r1 w ,i look to ov]rule 'my e weak1 ?\gh good1 design4' ,:ile ,i write my s\l is happy4 ,glory be to ,god4--,i am n[ ent] ! la/ h\r ( #ahce1 mu* abas$ on ! review ( my own unfai?fulness1 yes e>ne/ly desir+ to comm5ce anew1 if p]mitt$ a little long] to soj\rn on e>?4 ,oh6 take possession ( my he>t1 ,& let x h5ce ,?y temple be2 ,will+1 ,?\ see/ me1 n[ to "p ,) all1 t is unlike to ,!e2 ,o let ! ,_s's seal be giv5 ,! e>ne/ ( my future heav56 ,to ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 ,i w\ld pres5t ,my life1 & heal?1 & tal5t1 n[2 ,let no?+ m> ! pure int5t ,& purpose ( my solemn v[2 ,b n[ ! cov5ant blood apply1 ,my feeble act to ratify4 ,come1 sway ! sceptre 9 my s\l1 ,its secret spr+s adju/ & move2 ,model ea* ^w1 ea* ?\ght control1 ,& fill me ) ! light ( love2 ,s %all ,i d ,?y p]fect w1 ,z angels1 :o ,?y ^w fulfil4 ,t5 m9utes pa/ midnight4--,to put me 9 remembrance1--my two fri5ds at a qu>t] be=e two e day4 ,my "o fri5d at ?ree e ,w$nesday4 #ahcf4 ,awoke )1 ',reckon y\rselves to be dead inde$ unto s91 b alive unto ,god2' & ',be ye n ( a d\btful m9d4' ,i feel resolv$ h5ce=?1 ?us 'to reckon4' ,i h be5 too long dy+--n dead1 & di%on\r+ ,god by 'a d\btful m9d4' ,i n[ enjoy peace1 ) a firm det]m9ation to keep ,8 comm&m5ts1 :i* are n griev\s2 b ,i feel my weakness su*1 t ,i _c tru/ myself4 ,o my ,god1 help me to keep my cov5ant v[s6 ,look high1 look l[1 look f> & ne>1 ,*anges 9 e sc5e appe>2 ,! blossom fades1 ! day is gone1 ,& night succe$s ! morn+ sun4 ,! cle> blue firmam5t is se54 ,b ga?'r+ cl\ds soon int]v5e2 ,! sun1 respl5d5t1 ha/es away1 ,to give to o!r l&s ! day4 ,! vig'r\s y\? to manhood gr[n1 ,becomes a ho>y sire anon2 ,! bloom+ maid becomes a bride1 ,a lov+ consort by h] side1 ,! z5i? po9t ( e>?ly bliss1-- ,b ah6 a *ang+ sc5e is ?is3 ,! faire/ prospects e>? c boa/1 ,are poor1 & transi5t at ! mo/2 ,& close/ ties ( fri5d%ip fail ,to /ay ! bliss1 we smile to hail4 ,aft] a =tnight's suff]+1 my de> little gr&son1 ,edw>d1 left our d>k abode = ev]la/+ day4 ,sep>ation is pa9ful1 b ! prospect ( et]nal happ9ess br+s sweet consolation4 ,a little be=e dea? he said1 'kneel d[n4' ,he 0 ?ree ye>s & t5 mon?s old--a *ild ( mu* promise--b is n[ safely transplant$ to n\ri% 9 a heal?i] clime4--,dea? /rikes aga9--! infant1 & only surviv+ *ild ( my ,eliza1 has escap$ to glory4 ,sev]al o!r afflictive occurr5ces h be5 p]mitt$1 ,i am confid5t = my good3 yet ,i h bett] heal? ?an usual1 & ! consolations ( my ,god are n )held4 ,! ,"l c make h>d ?+s easy1 & m+le ! bitt] cup ) sweetness4 ,o t ,i c\ld make bett] returns6--,?irty ye>s ago1 ,i gave myself to my husb& ) m+l$ feel+s ( hope & fe>4 ,! words1 '?y ,mak] is ?y husb&1' h be5 impress$ ^u my m9d4 ,ende>+ title6 wilt ,?\ be ,a husb&1 ,o my ,god1 to me8 ,!n1 let me nev] grieve ,?y love1 ,nor ev] disob$i5t prove2 ,wat*ful ,?y pleasure to obey1 ,?y precepts /udy night & day2 ,?y w at all times gladly d3 ,i w4 ,"l help me to be true4 ,_h all ! prea*]s to breakfa/ ) a fri5d or two beside1--hop+ ! h\r might be spiritually improv$4 ,s++ & pray] 7 sweet1 b ,i 0 disappo9t$ 9 ! conv]sation1 :i* 0 turn$ by two individuals ^u a po9t t pr(it$ little2 "o ?+ ,i le>n$1 to expect pr(it 9 ! creature is n "r1--,tri$ to br+ ab\t1 & by means ( ano!r1 effect$ a reconciliation betwe5 two oppos+ p>ties4--',:o w ?is day consecrate 8 s]vices to ! ,"l8' 0 a "q put to me ?is morn+ be=e ,i awoke1 & has be5 urg$ ^u me s9ce4 ,?ank ,god1 my he>t responds--,i w4 ,z ,i 0 walk+1 mus+1 & pray+1 x 0 :isp]$ to my s\l1 ',my ,god %all supply all y\r ne$4' ,x is en\gh4--,aga9 privileg$ to he> ! ,rev4 ,rob]t ,newton4 ,i sat 9 my ,fa!r's banquet+-h\se ) delight1 & ,8 bann] ov] me 0 love4--,fifty-f\r ye>s ?is day1 ,i h prov$ ! su/a9+ p[] ( ,god2 & =ty-two or ne>ly s1 h enjoy$ ,8 r$eem+ love4 ,o :at a debt] am ,i6 ,"h w ,i give myself away--'tis all ,i c d4 ,?is day ( consecrat$ re/1 ,proclaim )9 my long+ brea/ ',i am ! ,"l ?y ,god2' ,"h dwell & reign )\t control1 ,sole mon>* ( my will+ s\l1 ,accord+ to ,?y ^w4 ,,xvi4 ,,! ,,sacrifice4 ,i ,,h ,,l5t ,,him ,,to ,,! ,,"l2 ,,z ,,long ,,z ,,he ,,live?1 ,,%all ,,he ,,be ,,l5t ,,unto ,,! ,,"l4--#a ,sam4 i4 #bh4 ,nei!r w ,i (f] burnt-(f]+s to ! ,"l ( t :i* co/ me no?+1 said ,david1 :5 he pur*as$ ! ?re%+-floor1 & ! ox5 ( ,araunah ! ,jebusite1 t he might re> & alt>1 & (f] sacrifices1 & peace-(f]+s3 & yet x 0 a nobl] act ( sacrifice1 :5 he p\r$ out be=e ! ,"l ! cry/al draught :i* ?ree ( 8 mighty m5 _h procur$ f ! well t 0 by ! gate ( ,be?lehem1 at ! p]il ( _! lives1 & = :i* he _h s e>ne/ly long$4 ,9 ! "o case he gave :at he c\ld well af=d2 9 ! o!r1 he consecrat$ :at 8 s\l desir$4 ,! preci\sness ( ! gift is to be e/imat$1 n by its intr9sic value1 b by ! am\nt ( sacrifice :i* x requires2 h5ce1 "s :o br+ mu*1 (f] little1 & "s :o give b little1 (f] mu*4 ,g5u9e love to ,god br+s ( its *oice/ & de>e/1 & ! sacrifice is accept$ accord+ly4 ,to give money z f> z %e _h ability1 0 to ,mrs4 ,ly? no sacrifice4 ,?r\gh life %e practis$ a rigid economy1 t %e might h ! m to employ = ,god2 & dur+ ! la/ few ye>s1 :5 %e _h an ample income at h] own disposal1 aft] h] few & extremely mod]ate wants 7 met1 ! :ole 0 sacr$ly consecrat$ to public & private *>ities4 ,%e sav$ no?+4 ,h] e/imate ( ! ri*es ( ?is _w may be collect$ f ! foll[+1 communicat$ by a fri5d3--,%e 0 mu* sav$ f ! love ( money4 ,i call$ ^u h] "o day = advice & sympa?y1 :5 ,i 0 9 great tr\ble 9 consequ5ce ( a loss :i* ,i _h su/a9$4 ,%e v affectionately enc\rag$ me to be> up "u ! trial1 & said1 ! ,"l _h "s bett] ?+ 9 /ore = me2--t ,i mu/ set my affections on ?+s above1 & !n1 to %[ t ,i 0 n alone1 told me t a ?\s& p\nds _h be5 left to h] "m by a deceas$ relative1 :i* %e _h fully expect$ w\ld rev]t to h]1 z x 0 ! int5tion ( ! te/atrix2 b x prov$ to be a laps$ legacy4 ,%e add$1 ',! ,"l s graci\sly su/a9$ me1 t ! loss nev] depriv$ me ( a s+le h\r's sleep4 ,he kn[s :at is good = u1 & ,if x _h be5 ,8 w1 ,i %\ld h _h x4' ,mr4 ,ly?1 :o 0 9 company ) u at ! "t1 said1 ',s y see my wife turns all to gold1' :i* x is well kn[n %e did4 ,oh6 ,i wi% ,i 0 l h]4 ,b if %e e/imat$ worldly weal? only s f> z x af=d$ h] ! pure gratification ( do+ good1 & x 0 !re=e no sacrifice to h] to give ( h] e>?ly sub/ance2 %e also gave t :i* co/ h] some?+4 ,h] elde/ son1 ,ri*>d1 :om %e priz$ above gold1 & all ! m1 because ( ! te>s & solicitude :i* %e _h exp5d$ ^u him z a sickly & delicate infant1 0 at ! ,conf]5ce ( #ahcf appo9t$ to a di/ant & p]il\s sph]e ( mission>y lab\r4 ,?is 0 a dem& ^u h] feel+s1 :i* sev]ely te/$ h] love to ,*ri/ & ,8 *ur*2 b ! _s 9 :i* %e made ! sacrifice1 is be/ display$ by h] own private record4 #ahcf4 ,a lett] f bro!r ,john ,burdsall1 :o is at ! ,conf]5ce1 in=ms me1 t he _h "s conv]sation ) ,dr4 ,bunt+ respect+ my ,ri*>d & ! ,fri5dly ,isl&s4 ,i feel z a "m1 yet assur$ t ,god is alike 9 e place1 my pray] is = resignation4--,oh6 ! rapidity ( "t1 conf]5ce has comm5c$ & w1 ,i suppose1 appo9t my ,ri*>d some:]e2 only be x ! place assign$ by ,provid5ce--my w submits1 ?\gh nature w\ld rebel4--,my desires t5d upw>d1 b oh6 my wayw>d he>t /ill cl+s to ! creature--my *ildr5 lie ne> my he>t4 ,b1 d ,i wi% to )hold my son f ,!e8 no2 my he>t says no2--only let hol9ess be /amp$ ^u 8 he>t & "*3 s5d him :]e hol9ess w be ! mo/ e>ne/ly s\ght1 & w make ! mo/ p[]ful impression4 ,my w does yield1 b nature feels4 ,! solicitude ,i feel = my *ildr5 depresses my _s3 yet am com=t$ by ! promises ( ,god1 & increas+ly resolv$ to roll my e c>e at ! foot ( ! ,cross2 :]e1 l pilgrim1 ,i (t5 f9d ! /r+s ( my burd5 unloos$1 & by fai? behold+ my unfail+ ,fri5d1 am enc\rag$ to believe ! ,god :o c>es = me1 w c>e = m9e4 ,9 ! face ( my fe>s1 ,o ,"l1 ,i tru/ 9 ,!e4 ,my ,ri*>d is appo9t$ to ! ,fri5dly ,isl&s4--,! cases ( my ?ree sons press ^u my _s2 b ,?y aid1 ,o ,"l1 ,i seek & ask & h4--,x is ! ,sabba? morn4 ,i am fully b5t to give myself & my family to ,god4 ,b n[ x is come to ! po9t1 h[ weak ,i feel6 ,well1 b ,i w resign--,ri*>d is ,?9e2 ,i w ?r\gh grace1 give him up to ,!e4 ,! "t ( 8 dep>ture is at h&2 tid+s h rea*$ u t he is expect$ to sail 9 ! ',royal ,george1' on ! fir/ ( ,octob]4 ,o may ,he :o sitte? above ! wat] floods1 & reigne? a ,k+ = ev]1 take *>ge ( him2 & s succe$ 8 err&1 t ?\s&s may add lu/re to 8 cr[n6--,at half-pa/ six ,miss ,b4 & ,mrs4 ,a4 met me1 & ,hannah ,s4 :o 0 seek+ p>don4 ,aft] we _h plead$ = a "t1 ! ,"l came d[n 9 p[]1 & %e cri$ al\d1 ',i c believe1 ,i d believe4' ,we all %>$ ! baptism4 ,my de> family all took tea toge!r1 p]haps = ! la/ "t4 ,?ank ,god1 we are a unit$ family1 ?\gh we may sep>ate wide f ea* o!r 9 our pilgrimage ?r\gh ! _w4--,:ile p\r+ out my s\l = my de> ,ri*>d1 ,i felt ! hall[+ p[]2 ,i believe ! ,"l w be ) him & ! p also4 ,?+s v pa9ful to nature are n[ my frequ5t lot2 b ?r\gh ^!1 ! ,"l seeks to purge1 & knit me clos] to himself4 ,"l give me grace to be> ! sacrific+ knife1 & let ',?y w be done1'--,_h a few fri5ds to breakfa/ to comm5d my de> ,ri*>d to ,god3 x 0 a pr(itable h\r1 b ,i %\ld h lik$ m pray]4--,my s\l 0 mu* refre%$1 especially 9 class4 ,:at a fulness is treasur$ up 9 ,jesus3 & yet ,i only sip4 ,9 visit+ ! sick1 & seek+ out ! w&]]s1 feel ,i am "r1 b seem to h little "t = ?is "w4 ,app]ly ,bridge4 ,my ,ri*>d's w$d+-day4 ,:ile ! bridal c\ple w5t to *ur*1 ,i retir$ to plead a bless+ on _! union4 ,on _! return1 ,i met !m ) l9es :i* 7 on my m9d-- ',ble/ 9 ,*ri/ y\r union be1 ,ble/ to all et]nity4' ,& s x w be1 :ile !y cleave to ,jesus4 ,aft] breakfa/ we proce$$ to ,le$s1 :]e we d9$1 & took an affectionate leave ( ea* o!r4 ,i !n retir$ ) ! female "p ( ! company to comm5d !m to ,god4 ,h] p>t+ c\nsels1 :i* 7 inscrib$ 9 my bro!r's album1 7 z foll[s3-- ,my de> son1--',be /rong ?r\gh ! grace1 :i* is by ,jesus ,*ri/1 & ! ?+s1 :i* ?\ ha/ he>d be=e _m witnesses1 commit to fai?ful m51 :o w be able to tea* o!rs also4 ,endure affliction z a good soldi] ( ,jesus ,*ri/1 & ! ,"l give !e und]/&+ 9 all ?+s4 ,god is my witness1 h[ ,i long = y1 t y\r love may ab\nd m & m1 9 all k & spiritual und]/&+2 t y may try ! ?+s t are excell5t2 t y may be s9c]e1 & )\t (f5ce1 unto ! day ( ,*ri/1 be+ fill$ ) ! fruits ( righte\sness1 :i* are ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/1 to ! praise & glory ( ,god4 ,& :5 ! ,*ief ,%eph]d %all appe>1 y %all receive ! cr[n ( glory :i* fade? n away4' ,?is is ! e>ne/ pray] ( y\r truly affectionate "m4 ,mr4 ,burr[s came1 & talk$ sweetly to me ( my privilege z a *ri/ian 9 giv+ all to ,god1 & pray$ ) u2 else1 dur+ ?is week sorr[ & joy h m+l$ 9 my brea/1 b n[ ,i feel to rise4--,mrs4 ,r4 hav+ agre$ to meet ) me to int]c$e = my de> ,ri*>d & ,m>y ,ann1 ,i w5t up accompani$ by ,mrs4 ,w4--! ,"l bless$ u toge!r4--,i feel enc\rag$4--,a v /ormy morn+4 ,?is l$ me to my knees1 to p\r out my s\l = my son & daught]3 ,o keep !m 9 ! holl[ ( ,?y h&s6 ,william has n yet return$ f see+ ,ri*>d (f2 ,i want to he> & "k--yet am enc\rag$ to hope all w be well4--,days ( susp5se--b ! ?\ght1 'all is well1' enc\rag$ me2 ?is 0 realis$1 :5 ,william return$ 9 ! aft]noon4 ',bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l1' & praise ,8 adorable "n4 ,my de> ,ri*>d s5t me a lett]1 writt5 :5 sail+ d[n ! ,?ames1 9 :i* he says1 ',! ,"l is ) u1 we w n fe>4' ,s9n+ton4 ,aft] ! morn+ pray]-meet+1 ,i call$ ^u sev]al ( ! villag]s1 :o k9dly welcom$ our visit4 ,pray$ ) e family b "o1 & 9 ea* case felt ! s(t5+ p[]4 ,spoke pla9ly ) ,mr4 ,b4 respect+ ! ali5ation exi/+ betwe5 him & ----4 ,o t !y w\ld s]i\sly resolve6--,a v /ormy day1 b brav+ ! bla/1 ,i visit$ two or ?ree fri5ds1 to h a la/ int]view ) !m2 9 "o case to invite a p]son to jo9 ! p ( ,god2 9 ano!r1 to urge ! necessity ( family-pray]2 a ?ird 0 a "y p]son app>5tly 9 dy+ circum/ances1 & a f\r? 0 a quak] fri5d1 ^: dis9t]e/$ fri5d%ip ende>s h] to me4--,visit$ ! ,lady ,mayoress at ! ,mansion ,h\se1 & felt q at ease4 ,_h an opportunity ( dropp+ a ^w 9 h] e>1 :i* %e seem$ to receive k9dly4 ,! noontide h\r is wont to be ,a bless$ means ( grace to me2 ,:5 met1 ! hall[+ p[] to %>e1 ,9 ! sweet int]c\rse ( pray]4 ,0 drawn out 9 pray] = myself & o!rs until a late h\r1 & 0 mu* ble/4 ,aft] ,i _h retir$ & _h be5 asleep1 ,i awoke ) ^! l9es3 ',s(t & easy is ,?y pill[1 ,co>se & h>d ! ,savi\r lay2 ,s9ce ,8 bir?place 0 a /able1 ,& ,8 s(te/ b$ 0 hay4' ,my pill[ seem$ s(t] ?an usual1 & my s\l 0 happy4--,v /ormy4 ,su* notes ( ! wea!r repeat$ly occur at ?is p]iod1 b no?+ m3 h] ?\ghts 7 aft] ,ri*>d1 b h] feel+s 7 too int5se = expression4 ,to a fri5d %e rem>k$1 t = six mon?s aft] h] son's dep>ture1 %e d>$ n t\*1 ! subject4 ',i _c write ^u x1' %e said1 ',i am oblig$ to leave x4' #ahcg4 ,took tea ) ,mrs4 ,d41 ) sev]al *ri/ian fri5ds2 our visit 0 bless$1 all %>$ 9 ! heav5ly influ5ce3 if all visits 7 equally pr(itable1 ,i %\ld regret to refuse an invitation4--,paid a visit n s b5eficial1 ?\gh _m good p 7 !re1 & hon\rable too4--,rose too e>ly by mi/ake1 b det]m9$ to pr(it by x1 s ,i b[$ myself at ! feet ( ,him to :om ,i c mo/ freely unbosom myself & told ,him all my c>es1 :i* seem$ to multiply z ,i spread !m out be=e ,him2 f\nd a little access1 b want ! mighty fai? t 'c ! m\nta9 move4'--,wm4 ,b4's two daught]s & daught]-9-law took tea ) me1 :i* af=d$ me an opportunity ( conv]s+ ) !m on ! necessity ( salvation4 ,pres5t$ ea* ( !m ) a pocket companion4 ,provid5tially ,mrs4 ,r4 /epp$ 91 & pray$ ) u4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i met ! de> p1 deeply feel+ my own unfitness1 & greatly disc\rag$ by _! /ate4 ,to increase my difficulty1 a "y /rang] came 9 to he> 9 sil5ce2 c\ld get none to pray4 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,resolv$ z soon z alone to roll my burd5 ^u ! ,"l1 :i* ,i did1 & felt enc\rag$4--,five mon?s to-day s9ce my la/ lett] f ,ri*>d4 ,two days aft] %e writes4 ,! ev5+ po/ br\ght me a lett]1 & 'all is well4' ,:5 we _h read x1 we b[$ be=e ! ,"l to ackn[l$ge our gratitude4 ,my de> fri5ds1 ,b4 & ,a41 came to meet ,mrs4 ,b4 to plead ) ! ,"l on h] behalf3 %e obta9$ p[] to say1 ',i love ,him because ,he fir/ lov$ me2' b dur/ n affirm t h] s9s 7 =giv54--,s9ce ! ,mission>y ,meet+1 ! recollection t ,i1 ) ! re/ ( ! assembly1 lift$ my h& & pl$g$ myself to increas$ ex]tion1 has press$ ^u my m9d4 ,i am will+2 ,"l1 direct my ef=ts6 ,?is resolution 0 n ineffective1 = %ortly aft]1 %e initiat$ ! ,york ,ladies' ,mission>y ,sew+ ,meet+1 :i* = _m ye>s prov$ an important s\rce ( income1 & /ill exi/s1 "u ! "n ( ! ',ladies' ,repository4' ,hull4 ,call$ ^u ,mrs4 ,h41 & met !re a lady1 :o ackn[l$ges my fa!r z ! in/rum5t ( h] conv]sion4 ,%e 0 on "o occasion introduc$ into 8 class1 & be+ a memb] ( ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur*1 he ask$ h] if1 :5 repeat+ ! ,cre$1 %e believ$ '9 ! communion ( sa9ts1 & ! =giv5ess ( s9s4' ,! arr[ hit ! m>k1 & %e nev] re/$ till %e obta9$ ! fav\r ( ,god4 ,call$ also ^u ,mr4 ,e41 :om we f\nd indispos$1 b awak5$ to a s5se ( 8 lo/ condition4 ,0 glad to he> him speak ( 8 h>d1 unfeel+ he>t1 z ,i felt conv9c$ ! ,_s ( ,god 0 work+ ^u him1 & 0 enc\rag$ to pray ) & = him4--,aft] an agreeable j\rney1 we return$ to ,york--s swiftly "t passes1 h[ ,i long to improve x6 ,9 ! cab9 ( ! packet1 ,i took up a book :i* lay on ! table--writt5 by ,baxt]--on ',liv+ = ,et]nity1' & :ile read+1 deeply felt ! necessity ( s do+4 ,two "y g5tlem5 sat at my left h& play+ at a game ( "s sort1 & ,i 0 prompt$ to speak to !m ^u ! importance ( improv+ _! y\?ful opportunities4 ,!y receiv$ ! admonition 9 a good _s & said1 !y wi%$ !y (t5] met ) k9d repro(s4--,miss ,b4 & ,i collect$ = ! infant s*ool3 "s ( our visits 7 pr(itable--pray] sweet5$ our employm5t4 ,s9n+ton4 ,my de> uncle is evid5tly fail+4 ,he has suff]$ mu*1 b ! /ate ( 8 m9d is improv+1 & he is m accessible4 ,he goes to b$ v e>ly1 & e night ,i h sat & pray$ ) him4 ,my own m9d is 9 a compos$ frame4 ,all ar\nd me exhibits ! f+] ( ,god4 ,! /illness ( nature impresses me ) ,8 pres5ce2 ,i he> 8 voice1 & all )9 me ackn[l$ges ,him ,"l ( all4 ,i h visit$ sev]al ( ! villag]s2 "s wept1 b to o!rs ,i seem to tell an idle tale4--,f\r o'clock 9 ! morn+3-- ,midnight /illness6 ,o6 h[ solemn6 ,n[ surr\nd$ by my ,god2 ,h[ ,i long to brea! ,8 fulness6 ,h[ ,i long to walk ) ,god6 ,?\ ^: eyes1 unse51 behold me1-- ,m>k my inmo/ ris+ ?\ght2 ,9 ?is mus+ mom5t prompt me1 ,let my works 9 ,!e be wr\ght4 ,aid1 ,o aid my contemplation6 ,to ,?y cross my _s lead2 ,humble1 :ile ,i view ,?y passion1 ,me1--t caus$ ,?y he>t to ble$4 ,let x melt me1 ,o my ,savi\r1 ,melt me into love aga92 ,by ,?y dea? to life re/ore me1 ,9 my s\l = ev] reign4 ,br+ me into full salvation1 ,e secret ?\ght control2 ,help my nature's imp]fection1 ,sway ,?y sceptre 9 my s\l4 ,let all nature po9t to ,jesus1 ,e sc5e reveal ,him !re1 ,e>?ly good1 ?r\gh ,him1 be preci\s1 ,voices *aunt ,him ev]y:]e4 ,all ,i "k1 or ta/e1 or h&le1 ,be subs]vi5t to ,8 w2 ,sun t %9e?--/>s t glitt]-- ,fla% ,8 glory r\nd me /ill4 ,z ,i came out ( ! *apel1 a p]son came to me ) te>s 9 h] eyes & reque/$ me to pray = h]1 t ! ,"l w\ld cleanse h] he>t3 ,i 0 humbl$ b enc\rag$4--,my bir?day3 rose be=e five1 & consecrat$ my body & s\l to ! ,"l4 ,at an e>ly h\r 0 s5t = by ! "y p]son ,i saw a few days ago1 :o is /ill v mu* afflict$4 ,inquir+ :at ,i %\ld pray =1 %e said1 ',t ,god may p>don my s9s4' ,i ?\ght ?is a good sign1 z %e 0 9 mu* pa92 & left h]1 believ+ ,god w\ld save h]4 ,?is ^w has be5 my motto = "s days1 ',if ye keep my comm&m5ts1 ye %all abide 9 my love2' & my he>t is b5t on x4--,awoke e>ly2 my m$itations 7 sweet4 ,visit$ ,s4,p41 :ile pray+ ) h] %e wept mu*4 ,o may ^! melt+s ( a brok5 he>t end 9 conv]sion6 ,9 ! ev5+ w5t to ,j4,b4's to break ! ice = !m 9 comm5c+ family-pray]1 b he 0 out1 s aft] "s close conv]sation ) 8 wife on ! subject1 we pray$ toge!r4 ,"l1 help h] to take up h] cross4 ,on my return ,i w5t & pray$ ) uncle2 ,i want to say to him ev]y?+ ,i ought--,"l help me4--,i />t$ e>ly t ,i might invite "s ( ! villag]s to ! *apel3 :ile ?us engag$ my he>t 0 lift$ up to ,god = a bless+ on my endeav\rs4--,miss ,c4 came to in=m me1 t la/ ev5+ aft] return+ f *apel1 feel+ h] ne$ ( ju/ify+ grace1 %e retir$ to h] closet--h] si/]s1 & ! "y ladies hav+ rema9$ at ! pray]-meet+4 ,on _! return1 sev]al ( !m be+ deeply conv9c$ ( s91 unit$ 9 pray]2 & s p[]fully did ! ,_s "w1 t six 7 cry+ = m]cy at once3 ?us !y cont9u$ to pray & wre/le until two 9 ! morn+1 :5 five ( !m 7 made happy4 ,on my way to ,acomb1 ,i call$ 9 to rejoice ) !m1 & 0 introduc$ to a "y lady :o has be5 = "s "t "u religi\s impression2 :il/ ,mrs4 ,r4 & ,i engag$ 9 pray]1 %e f\nd com=t2 glory be to ,god4--,a ye> s9ce my de> ,ri*>d left ! l& ( 8 bir?1 to prea* ! gospel 9 ! isl&s ( ! seas4 ,to commemorate ! ev5t1 we _h ab\t tw5ty fri5ds to tea2 aft] :i* we _h a pray]-meet+ on behalf ( my de> son1 & ! cause ( missions4--,! words ( a ,m9i/] %\ld be z a /ream f ! liv+ f\nta91 & !mselves z conduits1 ?r\gh :i* ! /ream runs4 ,h[ ne$ful !n1 t we %\ld be> !m up be=e ! ?rone1 t !re may be writt5 ^u !m1 ',hol9ess unto ! ,"l4'--,h be5 to see "s ( my memb]s4 ,two 7 out1 "o ill1 a f\r? indispos$1 & a fif? 9 a v unhappy frame ( m9d1 :om ,i purposely left )\t pray]1 n kn[+ h[ to pray = h]--nev] left h] be=e )\t b[+ ! knee4 ,on arriv+ at home1 ,i pres5t$ h] case to ,god4--,h be5 put into ! (fice ( ,treasur] = ! ,clo?+ ,society2 ,"l help me fai?fully to dis*>ge ?is lab\r ( love = ! poor ( ,*ri/'s flock4--,saw ,j4,p4 on 8 dy+ b$4 ,! enemy 0 mak+ 8 la/ assault ^u him4 ,i repeat$ sev]al promises to :i* he li/5$ ) att5tion1 & !n pray$ ) him4 ,9 ab\t half an h\r ! ,"l broke 9 ^u 8 s\l s glori\sly1 t he desir$ 8 wife to come & tell me :at ! ,"l _h done = him4 ,my s\l rejoic$ ) him4--,?is solemn mom5t ,i give myself to ,!e4 ,o let me h5ce=? be ,?y devot$ s]vant1 will+ at all times to yield my w to ,?9e6 ,do/ ,?\ say to me1 ',i w /r5g!n !e2 yea1 ,i w help !e2 yea1 ,i w uphold !e ) ! "r h& ( my righte\sness8' ,!n x is en\gh4 ,i am ! ,"l's1 & ,he is m9e4 ,bless$ union6 ,god is love2 ,i feel x n[4 #ahch4 ,9 conv]se ) my fri5ds1 ,i h endeav\r$ to keep a consci5ce void ( (f5ce1 & to walk 9 simplicity be=e ! ,"l2 b ,oh6 :5 view$ 9 ! glass ( ,god's law1 h[ defici5t6 ,yet w ,i aim at ! p]fect model4--,?is morn+1 a "y man nam$ ,calv]t1 :o is go+ z a mission>y to ! ,s\? ,seas1 call$ ^u u4 ,) him ,i s5t a lett] to my ,ri*>d1 hav+ sat up ! previ\s night writ+1 & little ?9k+ ,i %\ld h su* an opportunity ( s5d+ x4 ,old feel+s reviv$ 9 my brea/2 b aft] he 0 gone1 :ile mus+ ab\t my son & ! p]ils ( mission>y life1 ^! words 7 sweetly appli$3 ',x is n ! w ( y\r ,fa!r 9 heav51 t "o ( ^! little ones %\ld p]i%4'--,! box s5t to ,ri*>d1 :i* has be5 lo/ = ?ree mon?s1 is j f\nd 9 prop] "t to g ) a mission>y b\nd = ! same isl&s4 ,!re is a provid5ce unse5 by u1 ^: wat*ful eye protects ! m9ute/ int]e/s ( ,8 own2 ',ev5 ! v hairs ( y\r heads are all numb]$4'--,in=m$ t poor ,mrs4 ,w4 0 fa/ s9k+1 ,i ha/5$ to see h]2 %e 0 /ruggl+ ) h] la/ enemy1 b smil+ 9 ,8 grasp4 ,:5 told t %e w\ld soon jo9 9 s++ ',hallelujah1' %e smil$ & said4 ',yes2' & %ortly aft] ex*ang$ mortality = life4 ,,my ,,fri5d',s ,,dep>ture4 ,h[ solemn 0 ! room6 ,h[ /ill t sc5e ( dea?6 ,my fri5d 'mid twilight gloom1 ,lay gasp+ h>d = brea?2 ,! dea? dews on h] temples /ood2 ,%e smil$ adieu1 & cross$ ! flood4 ,angels 7 hov'r+ r\nd1 ,& brea?+ inc5se !re2 ,almo/ ,i he>d ! s\nd ,( w+s ^u ! air2 ,light z ! breeze1 & cle> z light1 ,h] happy _s took its flight4 ,back on t solemn h\r ,my ?\ghts are (t5 ca/2 ,be m9e su* fai? & p[] ,to triumph at ! la/2 ,) smiles to meet my late/ foe1 ,& die et]nal life to "k4 ,i am l ,noah's dove4 ,! _w is a dre>y wa/e ( wat]s )\t any?+ ^u :i* ,i c set my foot4 ,my fri5ds are dy+1 & disappo9tm5ts common4--,wrote to ,mr4 ,b4 on ! importance ( prep>+ to meet ,god2 & enclos$ ?ree s]mons on et]nity4--,f\r p]sons1 :om ,i h visit$ ?is week1 h pass$ into et]nity4 ,^! ,i h w>n$1 urg$1 & po9t$ to ,jesus4 ,( ?ree ( !m ,i ent]ta9 hope2 b ,oh6 ! dang] ( delay1 & ! responsibility ( visit+ sick b$s6--,i h be5 mu* tr\bl$ ) ! inatt5tion & neglect ( a s]vant4 ,?is is p]mitt$ = ! trial ( my fai? & pati5ce1 & my e>ne/ pray] is1 t ,i may secure ! good int5d$4 ,) respect to my inw>d exp]i5ce1 ,i h access to ,god1 & c m implicitly p\r my wants into ! e>s ( ,him1 :o waits to answ]4 ,i n[ enjoy1 ?r\gh ,*ri/1 solid peace4 ,_m preci\s seasons = want ( opportunity to record !m pass unnotic$1 & "s pa9ful ex]cises1 9 :i* ,i h to s+ my deliv]]'s praise4 ,s9n+ton4 ,i h enjoy$ sweet communion ) my be/ fri5d1 & 9 p\r+ out my s\l among my de> relations4 ,mr4 ,b4 has read ! little book ,i s5t him1 & c>ries x ab\t ) him 9 8 pocket4 ,) me he appe>s m social2 b x is ! "w ( ,god to *ange ! he>t4 ,/ill1 he is laid ^u my m9d to rememb] him be=e ! ,"l4 ,my de> uncle1 al?\gh 9 app>5t heal? = 8 ye>s 7eighty-"o71 is increas+ly deaf1 & almo/ cut (f f int]c\rse ) society1 s t he seeks to be alone4 ,9 a conv]sation ,i _h ) him1 he told me h[ ! ,"l bless$ him1 & h[ he m$itat$ 9 ! night season4 ,9 ?is place ,i am seclud$ f my usual c>e4 ,"l help me to improve ! opportunity4 ,i c truly say1 ,i long to s9k1 to rise1 & gr[ 9 all ! image ( ,god4--,i felt mu* 9 p>t+ ) my fri5ds1 especially my de> uncle1 :o said he %\ld p]haps see me no m4 ,i rem9d$ him ( our meet+ above1 & endeav\r$ to urge ^u him a prep>ation = x4--,on review+ ! week1 ,i h endeav\r$ to walk circumspectly1 r$eem+ ! "t1 & enjoy$ union ) ,god1 bo? 9 private1 & at ! family alt>2 b yet ,i want m uni=mity 9 my walk ) ,god4 ,mrs4 ,h4 accompani$ me to see two poor wid[s2 &1 invit+ "s ( ! neighb\rs 91 we read & conv]s$1 & pray$ ) !m4 ,i felt incl9$ to g aga94--,a good class-meet+--aft] :i* ,i w5t to visit ! wid[s2 f\r m p]sons came 94 ,my he>t 0 enl>g$ :ile ,i endeav\r$ to exhort !m to flee f ! wra? to come1 & pray$ ) !m4--,i h return$ to sp5d ! la/ h\r ( ! ye> at home4 ,i feel a pray]ful frame1 & a det]m9ation to give myself & all my p[]s to ,god4 ,?\gh buffet$ by ! enemy1 my he>t is fully resolv$4 ,i w be ,?9e1--save me4 ,oh6 ,?\1 :o do/ 9 secret see ,my lift$ he>t1 & b5d$ knee2 ,:ile n[ my s\l p\rs out ! pray]1 ,o let x f9d acceptance !re3 ,come n[1 & claim me = ,?y own1 ,& make my he>t ,?y glori\s ?rone4 ,twelve o'clock4 ,ano!r ye> is gone4 ,,xvii4 ,,! ,,"m ,,9 ,,israel4 ,,! ,,ho>y ,,head ,,is ,a ,,cr[n ,,( ,,glory1 ,,if ,,x ,,be ,,f\nd ,,9 ,,! ,,way ,,( ,,righte\sness4--,prov4 xvi4 #ca4 ,!re are "s c\nt5ances :i* ev5 9 advanc$ life are s+ul>ly beautiful2 lit up ) a heav5ly lu/re :i* rivals ! fre%ness & bloom ( y\?4 ,su* 0 ! c\nt5ance ( my v5]at$ "m1 on ! eve ( ?reescore ye>s4 ,h] expressive features discov]$ ! ri* adornm5t ( h] s\l4 ,x 0 ! outbeam+ ( hidd5 glory )92--! reflection ( beauty caught by con/ant & secret communion ) ,god2--! bright halo ( love1 joy & peace 9 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,?\gh 9 ! middle p]iod ( life ! subject ( frequ5t & sev]e attacks ( pa9 9 ! head1 :i*1 = ! "t1 greatly enfeebl$ h]1 %e _h1 by ! bless+ ( ,god ^u ! use ( suitable means 9 connection ) h] ab/emi\s habits1 ov]come ! =ce ( disease1 & recov]$ a degree ( /r5g? & vig\r :i* 0 rem>kable4 ,h] /ep 0 light & active2 h] gait erect2 & z1 9 consequ5ce ( ! removal ( h] *ildr5 into active life1 %e 0 n[1 to a great ext5t1 fre$ f dome/ic duties1 %e might (t5 be se5 9 ! /reets ( ! city ha/+ ^u h] err&s ( m]cy4 ,! c>e ( ?ree classes1 two ( :i* 7 l>ge1 toge!r ) h] num]\s engagem5ts 9 e dep>tm5t ( usefulness1 :i* ! *ur* op5$ out to h]1 furni%$ h] ) cont9ual employm5t1 & h5ce1 at ?is p]iod1 h] di>y is a detail r ( ,*ri/ian activity ?an ( inw>d exp]i5ce4 #ahci4--,! ,cov5ant-s]vice 0 a solemn season2 yet ,i did n feel s mu* s5sible com=t z firmness ( purpose to consecrate myself to ,god2 see+ h[ greatly x conc]n$ my int]e/1 & :at condesc5sion x impli$1 on ! "p ( ,god1 to accept ( "o s unwor?y4--,ent]$ ^u subscriptions = ! new *apel4--,poor ,fanny ,mc,d4 has a second "t be5 sev]ely burnt4 ,i saw h] ?is morn+2 %e 0 j able to say 'yes1' :5 ask$1 if %e 0 happy4 ,ab\t twelve %e expir$4 ,i am ?ankful ,i _h ! opportunity ( comm5d+ h] s\l to ,god4 ,x 0 good to g to ! h\se ( m\rn+4 ,= t5 ye>s ,i h collect$1 or giv5 h]1 ! am\nt ( h] r5t2 & = "o ye> provid$ a woman to wait ^u h]4--,z ,i 0 go+ to ,fanny's fun]al1 ,i 0 acco/$ by a "y woman1 :o seem$ to "k me3 b ( :om ,i _h no recollection1 until %e told me t %e _h =m]ly met ) me1 b _h w&]$ f ,god1 & 0 n[ made will+ to return4 ,! next day be+ my class1 ,i invit$ h] to come4 ,%e did s2 & said1 t z %e 0 go+ out ! day be=e1 %e 0 /rongly impress$ to pray = a bless+1 & ?\ght )9 h]self1 ',:y %\ld ,i8 ,i am n go+ to *apel4' ,%e conclud$ t our meet+ 0 provid5tial4 ,god grant %e may aga9 get into ! "r way4--,a bless$ ,sabba? to me2 x 0 good at ! morn+ pray]-meet+2--good 9 ! =5oon2--good to visit ! h\se ( m\rn+2--& good to po9t to ,jesus "s old wom5 :o desir$ to behold ,him4--,i h ?is day surr5d]$ my ,sabba? class into ! h&s ( ,mrs4 ,h41 dur+ h] /ay 9 ,york1 hav+ latt]ly _h s little "t = read+1 & %e desires employm5t4--,! p]usal ( "s ( my old ,,ms4,s4 has be5 ! means ( r\s+ my _s4 ,save me1 ,o ,god1 f spiritual slo?2 ,i see ! dang]2 may ,i fe> x m ?an ev]1 nev] look+ at o!rs1 b always look+ unto ,!e4--,! mon? ( my nativity4 ,my obligations to ,god are twelve mon?s deep]1 & myself a bankrupt--dep5dant ^u ! b\nty ( provid5ce1 & abas$ "u a s5se ( my +ratitude1 nev]!less my purpose is to live = ,god alone3 my fai? /r5g!ns1 & ,i h a little love-- ',tis b a drop1 ,o might x gr[4 ,& all my happy s\l o'erfl[6 ,i accompani$ my husb& to ,h>rogate1 :]e ,i n[ write1 hav+ secur$ a quiet retir$ spot :i* j suits me4 ,help me1 ,"l1 to improve ! opportunity :i* ?is quietude af=ds4 ,i c truly say my s\l longs = ,god2 yea1 = ! liv+ ,god4--,mu* lib]ty 9 family pray]4 ,i 0 drawn out on behalf ( ! visitors :o 7 ab\t to leave 9 ! =5oon4 ,! old g5tleman seem$ affect$4 ,te>s came into 8 eyes :5 ,i bade him f>ewell4 ,he ?ank$ u = all our fav\rs1 :i* c\ld only ref] to our pres5t+ him at ! ?rone ( grace--a duty we owe to all m54 ,o ,"l1 help me m fai?fully to dis*>ge x6--,w5t to ,goldsbro'2 & accompani$ ,mrs4 ,d4 to see a neighb\r1 :o 0 deeply affect$ "u ! s]mon ! previ\s ,sabba?4 ,our visit 0 welcom$1 & aft] a little conv]sation we got ^u our knees1 :5 ! ,"l 0 v pres5t4 ,mrs4 ,w41 ! p]son ^u :om we call$1 press$ u mu* to g aga91 :i* we did aft] tea1 be=e we left ! place4 ,%e !n express$ h] confid5ce 9 ,god1 & det]m9$ to ca/ 9 h] lot among ! p ( ,god4 ,s9n+ton4 ,i 0 mu* press$ 9 _s to visit a c]ta9 family 9 ! village1 & got c\s9 ,p4 to accompany me4 ,my err& 0 to urge ! p>5ts to seek ! ,"l4 ,x 0 a s(t5+ "t4 ,! ,"l op5$ my m\?1 & enl>g$ my he>t4 ,bo? ! ma/] & mi/ress wept4 ,oh6 t x may n be z ! morn+ cl\d & e>ly dew4 ,i feel hope4 ,! message ( m]cy came wrapp'd 9 disease1 ,de/roy+ my com=t1 & spoil+ my ease2 ,enclos$ 9 ! fold+s a jewel ,i f\nd1 ,& a circlet ( diamonds encompass'd x r\nd2 ,i eag]ly seiz'd x1 & read on ! seal ,a "n newly grav51 ,i _c reveal2 ,b1 :]e x is pres5t1 no sorr[ c dwell1 ,affliction is welcome1 & all mu/ be well4 ,return+ f *apel1 ,i met ) a p]son :o 0 a /rang] to sav+ grace1 & invit$ h] into a h\se1 :]e ,i 0 go+ to see a sick p]son4 ,!re ,i pray$ ) !m4 ,! woman seem$ mu* affect$1 & to me x 0 a season ( refre%+4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i saw sev]al afflict$ p1 among :om ,i 0 enc\rag$ & humbl$1 ?ankful1 & almo/ ov]:elm$ ) ! tr\bles ,i 0 made acqua9t$ )4 ,aft] ! ev5+ s]vice1 9 company ) ,mrs4 ,r4 ,i visit$ ano!r woman4 ,!re is no hope ( h] recov]y4 ,%e is q ignorant ( salvation1 b exce$+ly desir\s ( in/ruction4 ,we _h mu* p[] 9 pray]1 & reluctantly left h]4 ,i det]m9$ to g aga9 9 ! morn+1 b1 be=e ,i set (f1 %e s5t = me1 ,i f\nd h] p]fectly s5sible1 b ! h& ( dea? 0 ^u1 h]4 ,i po9t$ h] to ,*ri/1 &1 :ile engag$ 9 pray]1 ! p[] ( fai? 0 sweetly giv54 ,:54 ask$ by h] husb& if %e 0 happy1 %e said ) emphasis1 ',yes'4--,ano!r half h\r1 & ! ye> #ahci is gone = ev]6 ,h[ preci\s ^! mom5ts seem6 ,b to ! la/1 my h&1 mov$ by ! feel+s ( my s\l1 %all write ,?y preci\s "n--,,jesus6--my ,savi\r6 my ,god6 my all6 ,i n[ /& on ! br9k ( ano!r important division ( "t4 ,:at x w develope4 ,god only kn[s2 b my firm det]m9ation is to live = ,god4 ,on my knees--surr\nd$ by ! unse5 ,deity--,i give myself to ,!e1--to reign 91 & rule ov] me = ev]4 ,! mom5t is fl$4 #ahdj4 ,saw ,mrs4 ,h41 :om ,i f\nd 9 dy+ circum/ances4 ,%e 0 at class on ,new ,ye>'s ,eve1 :5 ,i urg$ h] to lay hold ^u ,*ri/1--caution+ h] n to rema9 unsav$1 & express+ my fe>s le/ %e %\ld d s4 ,%e appe>$ mu* affect$1 & rema9$ at ! bottom ( ! /airs to kiss me1 ere we p>t$4 ,little did ,i ?9k x w\ld be ! la/ "t3 b su* is ! frailty ( our nature4--,at ! reque/ ( a lady1 :om ,mrs4 ,r4 & ,i 7 provid5tially call$ to visit1 we w5t to =m a class 9 h] h\se4 ,x 0 a bless$ season1 al?\gh we _h only h]self to beg9 )4 ,?is lady %e cont9u$ to visit weekly = a consid]able "t1 until dea? r5d]$ h] visits unnecess>y4 ,x is long s9ce ,i he>d f ,ri*>d1 b ! promise has be5 repeat$3 ',?\gh x t>ry1 wait = x1 because x w surely come1 x w n t>ry4' ,s = "s days ,i h be5 hop+4 ,two days aft] %e writes4 ,j z we 7 ab\t to comm5ce family-wor%ip1 ! po/man br\ght two lett]s1--"o f ,ri*>d1 & "o f ,m>y ,ann4 ,! tid+s are affect+1 & /rongly exhibit ! gu>dian c>e ( ,provid5ce4--,)\t a s]vant1 b 9 no wise discont5t4--,i visit$ ,miss ,rosetta ,w41 :o is decl9+ fa/1 & has = "s "t be5 "u consid]able depression4 ,! ,"l 0 pleas$ to remove ! cl\d4 ,! *ange 0 p]ceptible 9 h] c\nt5ance4--,a memorable day 9 consequ5ce ( ! fire at ! we/-end ( ! ,ca!dral--occasion$1 x is suppos$1 by ! c>elessness ( a workman1 :o 0 employ$ to repair ! clock2 at lea/1 no?+ fur!r has be5 elicit$4 ,! spectacle 0 awfully gr&1 & suppli$ me ) an err& to ! ?rone4 ,! burn+ p>ticles flew ov] sev]al /reets1 & desc5d$ l flakes ( sn[4 ,surely ! ,provid5ce ( ,god pres]v$ u4 ,visit$ a lady1 by h] own reque/1 :o is desir\s ( salvation4 ,%e has att5d$ ,mrs4 ,c4's class s9ce x has be5 committ$ to my c>e4--,call$ on ,mr4 ,w41 & look$ ^u ! rema9s ( de> ,rosetta1 :o left ?is suff]+ _w 9 triumph1 wav+ h] h&1 & endeav\r+ to %\t victory1 ! morn+ aft] ,i saw h] la/4--,:ile m$itat+ on ! #ae? *apt] ( ,john1 ! ^w 0 convey$ ) p[] to my he>t2 b ,i want a con/ant _s1 nev] to be we>y 9 ! se>*1 ( tru?4 ,i 0 l$ to see h[ ! ,savi\r's words1 ',)\t me ye c d no?+1' are (t5 improp]ly appli$1 & made an excuse = spiritual slo?2 s9ce x is our own fault1 if we h n /r5g?1 because ,he has comm&$ u to abide 9 ,him4--,mrs4 ,c4's class 0 met by ,mr4 ,e4 ,f ?is "t ,i suppose ,i am to be recogniz$ z ! lead]4 ,9 accept+ ?is additional responsibility1 ,i am affect$ by a s5se ( my own unfitness = ! "w1 & ! hon\r :i* ! ,"l puts ^u me2 = ,i look n at second causes1 9 ?us plac+ me to wat* ov] ,8 p4 ,x is1 & may x ev] be1 a /imulus to seek a clos] walk ) ,god1 t ,i may "k ,8 w1 & act 9 con=mity ) x4 ,walk+ d[n ,high ,ousegate ab\t half-pa/ eight 9 ! ev5+1 9 company ) my daught]1 ,i _h my pocket pick$ ( a small silv] box1 giv5 me by a c\s94 ,i c1 & h pray$ = ! miscreant :o did x2 b wi% to h my box aga93 ,i fe> ?is is wrong2 x is n l ,paul1 :o suff]$ ! loss ( all ?+s )\t regret4--,sev]al ladies comm5c$ cutt+ out clo?+ = ! poor4 ,may we be clo!d ) humility4 ,our int]view 0 pleasant4--,on return+ f my b&1 ,i f\nd a note f our l&lord1 giv+ u notice to quit 9 six mon?s1 9 consequ5ce ( "s propos$ build+s 9 connexion ) ! railway /ation4 ,= a mom5t ,i 0 />tl$1 z we hop$ our resid5ce 0 fix$ = ! t]m ( life2 b my m9d soon fell into a pr(itable tra9 ( reflection4 ,i ?\ght1 ere ?is t]m has expir$1 a high] m&ate may be s5t to quit my clay t5em5t1 :5 ,i mu/ give up my acc\nt4 ,my he>t feels x is well1 & w be well4--,?is morn+ ,i trav]s$ ! haunts ( ! 'navvies' to give tracts to z _m z ,i c\ld4 ,x has be5 my purpose ?is day to surr5d] ! p[]s ( my body & s\l to ,god2 & ,i h /eadily kept x 9 view4 ,/ill1 ,i ne$ ! 'blood ( spr9kl+' ?r\gh :i* alone ,i c be accept$4--,f9i%$ my mon?'s visitation to ! s*ool4 ,i might h bett] improv$ ! opportunity2 b imp]fection *>act]ises all ,i d4--,_h ! hon\r ( breakfa/+ ) a few ( ! ,"l's s]vants1 & 0 mu* gratifi$ ) ! firmness ( "o1 :o /ood almo/ alone 9 an op9ion cle>ly "r1 respect+ a book call$ ',! ,c5t5>y ,tak+s4' #ahda4--;,i _h ! junior memb]s ( my classes to tea1 to sew = ! poor4 ,mrs4 ,a4 & ,mrs4 ,r4 came to assi/ 9 mak+ our meet+ a pr(itable "o4--,my m9d has be5 deeply impress$ ) ! solemn occurr5ces ( ?is day4 ,= "s "t ,i h be5 wont to visit ,mrs4 ,b4 e ,saturday1 to conv]se & pray ) h]4 ,i f\nd h] v ill2 & aft] rubb+ h] back = "s "t1 to relieve ! pa9 f :i* %e 0 suff]+1 ,i knelt d[n & pray$ ) h]1 be+ p>ticul>ly drawn out = a pres5t bless+4 ,:5 ,i rose1 ,i press$ ^u h] ! necessity ( tak+ hold ( ,*ri/2 %e repli$1 ',i h no?+ else4' ,?us ,i left h]1 little ?9k+ t ,i %\ld see h] no m2 b s x is1 = a %ort "t aft] ,i _h left1 %e expir$4--,my de> daught] ,m>y comm5c$ a class ) two memb]s4 ,mrs4 ,a41 ,miss ,b41 ,mrs4 ,m41 & myself1 assi/$ at ! comm5cem5t4 ,h[ simple are ! unadult]at$ tru?s ( ! ,gospel6 ',he 0 made an (f]+ = s9' ,amaz+ love6 ',x pleas$ ! ,"l to bruise him4' ,b[ d[n1 my s\l1 9 humble a/oni%m5t & adoration2 & see 9 ! cross ! malignity ( s91 & ! maje/y ( love1 ,o bless$ cross6 t po9ts u to ! sky1 ,loos5s f e>?1 t we may so> on high4 ,?us suff]+ is our pa?way up to bliss1 ,to dwell = ev] :]e our ,patron is4 ,o bless$ cross6 :]e ,jesus b[$ ,8 head1 ,baptiz$ ) preci\s blood1 = s9n]s %$3 ,happy are !y :o keep ! words he br\ght1 ,& be> ! cross by _! great ,patt]n taught4 ,w5t to ,bi%op?orpe & saw ! ,ar*bi%op's ,palace4 ,! gr\nds are beautiful2 & nature1 at ?is season ( ! ye> 9 its spl5d\r1 %ew$ !m to advantage4 ,b :at a responsible (fice does he fill6 ,h[ does 8 flock ?rive8 ,o t he may be able to r5d] 8 acc\nt ) joy6--,n )\t ?\ght & pray]1 ,i set (f = ,s9n+ton4 ,all nature smil$ ar\nd me1 & ,jesus :isp]$ peace )94 ,my de> uncle b[s "u ! weight ( ye>s2 c\s9 looks pal]1 & m feeble2 b ,i 0 welcom$ z usual4 ,,ea/] ,,day4 ,! ,sun ( righte\sness appe>s1 ,to set 9 blood no m3 ,hail ,him6 :o wipes away y\r te>s1 ,y\r ris+ ,god adore6 ,! sa9ts1 :5 ,he resign$ ,8 brea?1 ,unclos$ _! sleep+ eyes2 ,behold6 he breaks ! b&s ( dea?1 ,& bids ! dead arise4 ,alone1 ! dreadful c\rse ,he ran1 ,alone1 ! w9epress trod2 ,he di$1 & suff]$ z a man2 ,he rises z a ,god6 ,9 va9 ! wat*1 ! /one1 ! seal ,=bid ! ,conqu'ror rise2 ,ris+1 ,he breaks ! gates ( hell1 ,& op5s p>adise4 ,mrs4 ,r41 9 b&1 fai?fully told me ( my faults1 :i*1 by ,god's help1 ,i w try to am5d4 ,a meet+ ( ,mission>y ,collectors 0 held to di/ribute ! books1 & to con/itute a ,ladies' ,association4 ,i left to meet my class4 ,mrs4 ,c4 0 elect$ ,treasur]1 ,mrs4 ,r4,w4 ,secret>y1 & myself1 ) all my unfitness1 ,presid5t4 ,h[ev]1 be+ on my knees be=e ,i w5t to ! meet+1 my cov5ant engagem5ts 7 br\ght to my remembrance3 ',place me :]e ,?\ wilt2 make me ! h& or ! foot2 a hew] ( wood1 or a draw] ( wat]4' ,!re=e1 by ,god's help1 ,i am det]m9$ to d my be/1 admoni%$ by ano!r s5tim5t ( ,holy writ1 ',let n him t putte? on ! h>ness boa/ z he t putte? x (f4'--,*ri/mas morn4 ,rose ab\t f\r o'clock2 a beautiful />light morn+4 ,x seem$ to me z if '! morn+ />s sang toge!r = joy' at ! ,savi\r's bir?4 ,glory6 ,glory be to ,god6 #ahdb4--,ne>ly =ty pres5t at ! sew+ meet+4 ,i endeav\r$ to draw out ! sympa?ies ( ! ladies pres5t 9 behalf ( ^? ^: welf>e we _h met to promote4--,"u ! ^w ! ,"l made su* a discov]y ( myself to myself1 z completely /ripp$ me ( self-confid5ce1 & all hope1--except 9 ! ,savi\r's m]its1 ^u :i* ,i _h p[] to lay hold4 ,oh ! m]cy ( ,god to me1 a poor wor?less worm6 ,aft] ! pray]-meet+1 two ( ! fri5ds begg$ me 9 future to engage occasionally 9 public pray]4 ,i h n done s latt]ly1 because x is a mighty ef=t to me4 ,b ,god =bid t my sil5ce %\ld be a /umbl+-block to any4 ,at ! morn+ pray]-meet+1 unask$1 b n unmov$1 ,i feebly op5$ my m\?1 believ+ x to be my duty2 & 0 ble/ 9 s do+4--,?is morn+ ,i awoke ) ',give unto ! ,"l ( ,?y sub/ance4' ,be+ ab\t to pur*ase we>+ app>el1 ,i resolv$ to mod]ate my exp5diture4 ,9 ?is1 z 9 ev]y?+ else1 my he>t's desire is to act 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,my son1 f> di/ant1 is daily pres5t ) me4 ,i rejoice t he is gone on ! ,"l's err& to ! d>k places ( ! e>?2 & f9d "h an additional motive to br+ him daily be=e ! ,"l1 ^: he is1 & :om he s]ves4 ,i h be5 mu* drawn out 9 pray] = ! ,fijian *iefs4--,call$ ^u ,mrs4 ,k4 at h] own reque/4 ,i _h previ\sly met h] at a fri5d's h\se2 &1 9 c\rse ( conv]sation1 _h inquir$ aft] h] "m1 :om ,i _h frequ5tly visit$1 b ( ^: /ate ( m9d ,i ent]ta9$ consid]able d\bt1 believ+ t %e 0 re/+ %ort ( s\nd conv]sion2 & :om inde$1 at our la/ int]view1 ,i _h w>n$ n to deceive h]self4 ,^! fe>s ,i express$ to ,mrs4 ,k4 ,! same ev5+ %e saw h] "m1 & repeat$ :at ,i _h said1 ) "s degree ( conc]n4 ,! next "t %e call$1 h] "m said1 ',m>y1 y mu/ get somebody to pray ) me1 or ,i am lo/ = ev]4' ,h[ev]1 be+ unwell1 %e w5t home to b$2 b c\ld n sleep1 9 consequ5ce ( :at h] "m _h said3 s %e rose at five ! foll[+ morn+1 & w5t to see h] "m aga94 ,%e f\nd t %e _h be5 9 su* di/ress ( m9d1 t at midnight %e _h ar\s$ a neighb\r to pray ) h]1 & n 9 va92 = ! ,"l graci\sly s5t 'deliv]ance out ( ,zion1' & spoke peace to h] tr\bl$ _s4 ,%e liv$ ab\t ?ree weeks aft] my la/ visit1 & di$ rejoic+ 9 ! ,"l4 ,^! circum/ances h s deeply affect$ ,mrs4 ,k4 z to lead h] to seek ! ,"l1 & %e is n[ pursu+ h] way to heav54 ,glory be to ,god on high6--,9 consequ5ce ( my uncle's decl9+ heal?1 ,i return$ aga9 to ,s9n+ton2 & am n[ sat by 8 side4 ,he is re/less1 b says no?+4 ,x is ! midnight h\r2 yet ',he t keepe? ,israel nei!r slumb]s nor sleeps4' ,no s\nd salutes my e> b ! p5dulum ( ! clock1 :i*1 ) e /roke1 admoni%es me t "t flies4--,alone ) uncle4 ,he sleeps4 ,all is tranquillity & peace2 my s\l is fix$ on ,*ri/1 & enjoys undi/urb$ repose4 ,surr\nd$ by ,him1 9 :om ,i live1 move1 & h my be+1 all nature1--! balmy air1--! ri* v]dure1--! gr[+ beauties ( spr+ enliv5$ by ! great lum9>y ( heav51 conspires to raise ?is (t5 w&]+ he>t to ,him1 :om ,i desire above all ?+s to love & obey4--,i ask$ uncle if 8 prospect 0 bright2 he repli$1 ',aye1 ,i've no d\bt4'--,i wond] at myself ,i make s little progress 9 k1 or increase 9 hol9ess4 ,i purpose1 aim1 attempt1 yet daily h cause to m\rn my unpr(itabl5ess2 b ) "o ^: memoir ,i h lately look$ into1 ',i mu/ come ! %ort way to ,god1 ?r\gh ! aton+ blood ( ,jesus4' ,8 "n is preci\s n[4 ,i feel its balmy p[]4 ,o = ability to praise ,him 9 language adequate to ! glori\s task6 ,god is love4 ,creation ) its ?\s& tongues proclaims ,him ',wond]ful1 ,c\nsellor1 ! ,mighty ,god2' & millions ( intellig5t creatures extol ,him1 '! ,ev]la/+ ,fa!r1 & ,pr9ce ( ,peace' ,i h writt5 a lett] to be read 9 ! ,tuesday class4 ,visit$ ,mr4 ,m4--,my s\l goes out aft] ,god1 & my fai? claims ,him m9e4 ,o :at an exalt+1 & yet humbl+ ?\ght6 ,fai? unites b love adores4--,h[ quickly "t wa/es away6 ,i h be5 "h a mon? to-day2 n suppos+ uncle c\ld live _m days4 ,no?+ solid has pass$ 8 lips = m ?an t p]iod2 & yet1 ?\gh c]ta9ly weak]1 8 /r5g? is wond]ful4 ,i beg9 to feel anxi\s ab\t home1 & ! de> folks among :om ,i meet4 ,may ! ,"l bless !m4--,my uncle evid5tly *ang$ = ! worse1 & s cont9u$ = two days1 until--on ! #ba/ ( ,june1 ab\t five m9utes pa/ five1 he expir$4 ,x is a week to-day s9ce he spoke1 & six s9ce he took 8 b$4 ,i h (t5 be5 sweetly drawn out 9 pray] by 8 b$side1 & enjoy$ peculi> lib]ty ! day he di$4 ,i w5t aga9 to see ,mrs4 ,m41 :o is also dy+1 h] fri5ds weep+ ar\nd h]4--,return$ to ,york4 ,! sew+ meet+ 0 b ?9ly att5d$2--*iefly "y p]sons1 to :om ,i felt prompt$ to speak on _! s\ls' welf>e4 ,! result ,i leave4 ,,:]e ,,is ,,! ,,"l ,,god ,,( ,,elijah8 ,9 ! /orm1 t sweeps along2 ,blaz+ fire1 & e>?quake /rong2 ,9 ! lightn+'s trackless flight2 ,ga!r+ cl\d1 & curta9'd night6 ,9 ! fragrant pass+ breeze2 ,?und]s l\d1 or rag+ seas4 ,/ormy worlds1 or g5tle fl[]1 ,god proclaims ,8 sov]eign p[]4 ,b ! /ill small voice ( love ,s(tly brea?+ f above1 ,speaks 9 _s tones )9-- ',jesus suff]$ = my s92' ,till my s\l--,8 hall[$ %r9e-- ,melts 9 melody div9e4 ,let me he> its :isp] /ill2 ,melt1 & m\ld me to ,?y w4 ',i w greatly rejoice 9 ! ,"l' is my motto ?is day4 ,i enjoy settl$ peace1 & am /riv+ aft] ! fulness (f]$ 9 ! ^w ( ,god3 ',fill$ ) ,god2' ',seal$ ) ! _s ( ,promise2' ',dead to s942' ',holy4'--,di/urb$ 9 ! night by a p]son :o _h a qu>rel ) h] o!r self4--,my ,john occupi$ ! pulpit4 ,at ! pray]-meet+ aft]1 a p]son cri$ al\d = m]cy4 ,! ,"l spoke peace to h] s\l on h] return home4 ,%e c\ld n sleep dur+ ! night = prais+ ,god4 ,%e came to ! ,?ursday class4 ,we 7 rejoic$ to he> h] /atem5t4 ,,xviii4 ,,light ,,9 ,,d>kness4 ,,= ,,we ,,walk ,,by ,,fai?1 ,,n ,,by ,,sight4--#b ,cor4 v4 #g4 ,9 ! wisdom ( ,god1 & 9 h>mony ) ! highe/ purposes ( grace1 life is s con/ruct$1 z to make man feel 8 own weakness1 & 8 dep5dance ^u ,div9e p[]4 ,! recurr5ce ( seasons ( tr\ble & sorr[1 makes a p]petual dem& ^u our fai?4 ,reason tries 9 va9 to dis5tangle ! intricate disp5sations ( ,provid5ce1 & nature s9ks "u ! =ce ( innum]able trials1 :i*1 l successive waves beat incessantly ^u x4 ,! only res\rce is fai? 9 ,god2 & :5 once we grasp ! sure promise1 'all ?+s "w toge!r = good to !m t love ,god2' light spr+s up 9 ! d>kness3 & all t com=t1 :i* might arise f a cle> discov]y ( ! processes ( ,provid5ce1 is realiz$ 9 ! assurance t all %all be well1--an assurance giv5 by ,him :o _c lie1 confirm$ by an oa?1 seal$ ) ! blood ( ,*ri/1 & v]ifi$ by ! exp]i5ce ( ,god's p 9 all ages4 ,x is ?us ! *ri/ian's privilege to rejoice always1 if n 9 ,8 afflictions :i* are griev\s1 yet 9 ! ,"l1 :o rule? all ?+s well4 ,mrs4 ,ly? knew ?is to be possible1 %e aim$ at x1 & ?\gh n always ) equal success1 %e walk$ by 'fai? & n by sight4' #ahdc4--;,i h be5 privileg$ to att5d ! h\se ( ,god1 aft] an abs5ce ( "s weeks ?r\gh affliction2 b ) grief ,i confess1 t :5 ,i fir/ got out to see my daught]1 :o has also be5 ill1 ,i neglect$ ! opportunity ( social pray] & ?anksgiv+1 t we 7 aga9 p]mitt$ to see ea* o!r4 ,my +ratitude />es me 9 ! face4 ,aga9/ ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 aga9/ ,!e only1 h ,i s9n$4--,my ,john is prea*+ 8 trial s]mon4 ,my husb& & s]vant are he>+ him2 & ,i h be5 alone1 pray+ = him1 t he may nei!r g be=e1 nor /ay beh9d ! call ( ,god4 ,i feel ! ,"l is pres5t1 & my he>t goes out aft] ,him4--,i 0 call$ up a little aft] five to att5d ^u my daught]-9-law4 ,a beautiful morn+4 ,i reproa*$ myself = s (t5 los+ ! sweet p]fume ( ! morn+ air4 ,:5 ,i arriv$ ! babe 0 born4 ,s ano!r immortal _s is add$ to my family4 ,praise ,god1 ! promise rea*es to !m all4--,collect+ = ! missions 9 "o ( ! poore/ di/ricts1 we peep$ into a com=tless spot1 :]e liv$ a poor wid[ ) five *ildr54 ,we did n wi% to ask = any?+1 b 7 oblig$ to give a reason = our /epp+ 94 ,! woman said h[ev]1 t x 0 a good cause1 & %e w\ld give u some?+4 ,?is 0 truly ! wid['s mite1 & w n pass unrew>d$4--,z soon z ,i rose f my b$1 ^! l9es 7 ^u my tongue be=e ,i 0 aw>e-- ',m]cy's full p[]1 ,i !n %all prove1 ,lov'd ) an ev]la/+ love4' ,:ile repeat+ !m x occurr$1 ?is is an answ] to pray] la/ night4--,i f9d x difficult to reta9 ! tru?s ,i he>2 b1 hav+ ! law writt5 9 my he>t1 ,i desire 9 all ?+s to obey4--,! cases ( sev]al memb]s ( my family press heavily ^u my _s4 ,eliza cont9ues v weak1 & ,john is 9 susp5se2 my only refuge is 9 tak+ !m to ! ?rone ( grace3 = x is writt51 ',ca/ ?y burd5 ^u ! ,"l1 & ,he w su/a9 !e4'--,! cl\d beg9s to break1 & ,i feel abas$ be=e ! ,"l1 t ,i %\ld h _h s little confid5ce4 ,my daught] is bett]1 & ,john has receiv$ satisfactory in=mation2 s ,i am confid5t1 t 9 bo? cases ! ,"l is m9dful ( u4 ,ye/]day1 :ile b[$ by my daught]'s b$side1 ! light broke 9 ^u my s\l1 & ,i believe ^u h]'s too4 ,i felt p[] to re/ ^u ! ,"l1 & leave h] 9 ,8 h&s3 v diff]5t f :at ,i h felt be=e1 al?\gh ,i h _m times approa*$ ! ?rone1 & sometimes caught a glimpse ( hope2 b ?is 0 ! broad light ( fai?4 ,h>rogate4 ,:at %all ,i r5d] unto ! ,"l = all ,8 m]cies t[>ds me8 ,i am liv+ 9 ! enjoym5t ( peace ( m9d2 desir+ m ( ,god2 di/ru/ful ( myself2 griev$ t ,i love ,god no m1 & aim+ to d bett]4 ,o ,"l1 ! p[] imp>t4--,we return$ home great] debtors to ! ,"l ?an ev]1 = ! m]cies bo? ( ! upp] & ne!r spr+s4 ,my husb& welcom$ me ) ! class-book 9 8 h&1 :i* at fir/1 ,i felt reluctant to take1 b f\nd a bless+ 9 tak+ up ! ,cross4--,:5 ,i retir$ to re/1 ,i ?\ght1 if ! ,"l w condesc5d to give me "s passage f ,himself1 :i* is n famili> to me1 x w /r5g!n my fai?4 ,my reque/ 0 grant$1 & ! words ',z "o1 :om 8 "m com=te?1' occupi$ my ?\ghts mu* ( ! night1 & 7 fir/ ^u my tongue 9 ! morn+4 ,i saw my ,john (f by tra9 to ,col*e/]4 ,i feel deeply conc]n$ = 8 heal?1 & = 8 spiritual welf>e1 & = 8 prosp]ity 9 ! "w 9 :i* he is engag$3 b if a "m may be he>d = h] *ild1 7& ,i believe x17 my poor petitions %all be cont9ually urg$ at ! ?rone ( grace1 t he may be all ,god requires4--,a week ( toil is pa/4 ,my husb& is "u m$ical advice4 ,i am tri$ ) my s]vant2 my words & actions are miscon/ru$1 b ,i h be5 aim+ to speak & act z 9 ! sight ( ,god1 h[ev] imp]fectly4--,alone4 ,9 two h\rs ! ye> closes1--a ye> ( unnumb]$ m]cies4 ,backw>d ,i turn1 & view ! /ream ,( m]cy roll+ ri* & free2 ,"h1 fla%+ ) a silv] gleam2 ,!re1 t+$ ) hues ( my/]y4 ,?r\gh heal? & sickness1 hope & fe>2 ,9 griefs imag9$1 nev] kn[n1 ,its curr5t fl[$1 my he>t to *e]2 ,& light ^u my pa?way %one1 ,b ah6 :at poor returns are m9e6 ,h[ weak my fai?6 my love1 h[ cold6 ,yet w ,i praise ,!e1 ',i am ,?9e1' ,?y fai?ful promise /ill ,i hold3 ,di/ru/+ self1 ,i come to ,!e1 ,my vil5ess 9 ,?y w\nds to hide2 ,:5 foes assail1 to ,!e ,i flee1 ,& 9 ,?y *angeless love confide4 ,!n spe$1 ye fleet+ ye>s1 y\r flight2 ,i w n m\rn ! p]iod gone2 ,b ha/5 to my home 9 light3 ,ev5tful1 rapid ye>s1 roll on6 ,elev5 o'clock4 ,i desire mo/ unres]v$ly to surr5d] myself to ! ,"l2 to be :olly ,84 ,am54 #ahdd4 ,9 my walks ?r\gh ! city1 ,i met ) ! ,rev4 ,?omas ,ri*>dson1 :o1 k9dly acco/+ me1 inquir$ aft] my husb&'s heal? & reque/$ me to tell him1 'to be c>eful = no?+1 b 9 ev]y?+ by pray]1 & supplication1 ) ?anksgiv+1 to make kn[n 8 wants & reque/s unto ,god4' ,he add$1 ',i rememb] :at y once said to me1 ',:at ?y h& f9de? to d1 d x ) ?y might2 b ! *ildr5 ( ?is _w are wis] ?an ! *ildr5 ( light2 & ,i fe> ?is is sadly neglect$2'--) additional k9d advice4 ,to my m9d x 0 a ^w 9 season1 & my he>t w>m$ ) ! k9d admonition4--,i w5t to see ,mrs4 ,l41 & 0 mu* surpris$ to f9d h] daught]1 :o is 9 att5dance ^u h]1 ly+ ill on a b$ by ! side ( h] "m's4 ,aft] a little conv]sation ) h] ,i pray$1 & !n turn$ & spoke a few words to ! "m1 & aga9 we unit$ 9 pray]4 ,i ask$ ! "y woman if %e f\nd x good1 &1 ?\gh sc>cely able to speak1 %e clasp$ h] h&s & said1 ',v--v4' ,a little aft] sev5 ! same ev5+1 %e expir$1 9 ! bloom ( y\?4--,! ,presid5t1 ! ,rev4 ,john ,scott1 & ,dr4 ,newton came to ,york to advocate ! cause ( education4 ,a tea 0 provid$4 ,i 0 "o ( ! ,committee1 & hop$ to h _h ! opportunity ( he>+ ^? hon\r$ s]vants ( ! ,"l2 b ah6 we are du/4 ,my de> husb&1 aft] ris+ f d9n]1 0 prep>+ to g1 :5 he 0 seiz$ ) an attack ( p>alysis4 7,?is be+ ! second74 ,i imm$iately s5t = m$ical aid1 & ! ,"l graci\sly bless$ ! means1 & n[1 ,i hope1 ! /roke is turn$ aside4 ,s ! purpose ( meet+ our fri5ds 0 fru/rat$2 b ?is is = our good4 ,my m9d 0 kept 9 peace4--,visit$ ,m>y ,r41 :o is fa/ s9k+1--%e said ) rapture1 ',jesus is "h1 ,jesus is "h4' ,i am s9ce in=m$1 t %e has triumph$ ov] h] la/ enemy1 wav+ h] h&1 & %\t+1 ',glory6'--,a v blu/]+ night4 ,wak+ a little aft] ?ree1 ,i rose to pray1 & f\nd ! wat*ful ,keep] ( ,israel ready to li/5 to my e>ly cry4 ,i begg$ ,him1 if x pleas$ ,him1 to give me sleep1 & wake me at five4 ,i laid d[n1 slept1 & :5 ,i awoke1 look$ at my wat*1 :i* 0 j five m9utes to five4 ,i felt1 & /ill feel my obligations to ! ,"l1 & am resolv$ to commit myself to ,8 guidance4--,my bir?day4 ,i awoke a little aft] ?ree1 & arose at half-pa/ f\r1 ) ^! words ^u my m9d1 ',:o w consecrate 8 s]vices ?is day unto ! ,"l8' ,my he>t responds1 ',i w4' ,yes1 ,"l1 ,?\1 :o see/ ! brea?+ desires ( my he>t1 & only kn[e/ its w&]+s1 discov] to me if !re is any secret iniquity lurk+ !re4 ,z f> z ,i "k1 ,i am s9c]e1 & w\ld be :olly ,?9e4 ,my s\l is happy4 ,i am ,?9e4 ,saw ,mrs4 ,n4 aga94 ,:5 ,i ent]$ ! room %e seem$ q exhau/$1 b recov]+ a little said1 ',o1 ,i h _h su* a deliv]ance s9ce ,i saw y6 ,aft] a sev]e /ruggle ) ! enemy1 ,i c\ld n help say+ al\d1 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,i c believe )\t a d\bt or fe>2 ,i ?r[ myself ^u ,*ri/4' ,b y w ?9k me bett] ?an ,i am4 ,i h be5 a poor loit]]4 ,i h n let my light %9e z ,i ought4 ,:at did ,i say8' ',i repeat$ all ,i c\ld recollect4' ',yes1' %e said1 'x is all true2 give my love to my de> si/]s 7mean+ h] classmates71 & tell !m to make mu* ( _! religion4 ,i love !m all4'--,my m9d is solemnly impress$4 ,dea? is tak+ away my fri5ds on all h&s4 ,well1 a little :ile1 & we %all see ! end4 ,may we be bless$ z !y are1 & z free4 ,happy am ,i to le>n t ,mrs4 ,n41 :5 conv]s+ ) h] husb&1 an h\r or two be=e h] dep>ture1 said1 ',i %all soon be ) ,*ri/2 g to b$1 & ,i w try to g to sleep4' ,%e did s1 & woke no m1 lit]ally fall+ asleep 9 ,jesus4--,i h ?is morn+ felt depress$ ) ! ?\ght ( be+ clos$ up 9 ! e>?2 surely ?is is f an enemy1 = :5 dea? has done its "w1 :at matt]s :]e ! body is8 ,!re is no?+ ,i desire s mu* z to live & die a ,*ri/ian4 ,i hold fa/ ! hope ?r\gh ,*ri/2 yet ,i _c p]ceive improvem5t1 al?\gh ,i h at times be5 mu* l$ out 9 pray]4 ,la/ night1 :ile m$itat+ on my /ate1 ) e>ne/ pray] = ! direct witness ( ! r5ewal ( my nature1 ! assurance 0 giv51 ',i h grav5 !e on ! palms ( my h&s4' ,i want n to sp5d1 b to r$eem ! "t ) ,mrs4 ,d4 ,call$ to see ,mrs4 ,t41 :o is v weak 9 body1 b tru/+ 9 ! ,"l4 ,i knelt d[n to pray1 & _h n utt]$ _m words be=e %e broke out 9 pray] & praise1 expressive ( h] firm confid5ce 9 ! ,"l ,jesus4 ,x 0 a melt+ season4 ,x is enc\rag+ to see ! p[] ( grace ?us manife/$ 9 ! mid/ ( pa9 & weakness1 & be>+ up ! subjects ( x4--,we met to make fre% arrangem5ts = ! ,clo?+ ,society1 :51 mu* aga9/ my own w1 ,i 0 reappo9t$ ,treasur]3 b1 z x is a cross1 ,i w try to take x up4--,took tea ) my daught]4 ,all ! prea*]s & _! wives 7 pres5t4 ,i 0 bo? pa9$ & pr(it$1--pr(it$ 9 s++ & pray]1 & pa9$ :il/ endeav\r+ to def5d an abs5t bro!r4--,resign$ my (fice 9 connexion ) ! sew+-meet+ ) peace ( m9d4 ,yet1 on review+ ! ?ree ye>s dur+ :i* ,i h held x1 ,i c only say1 unpr(itable s]vant2 =1 al?\gh ,i h endeav\r$ to please ,god 9 ! fai?ful dis*>ge ( my duty1 my do+s h be5 mix$ ) mu* imp]fection4 ,call$ to see a "y woman 9 ! small-pox1 :o is cry+ = m]cy4 ,i h visit$ h] sev]al times4 ,h] cry cont9ues1 m+l$ ) ! hope t ,god w save h]4 ,i am sure gratitude ought cont9ually to burn ^u ! alt> ( my he>t4 ,ev5 :5 pass+ ?r\gh d>kness1 light has sprang up to illum9e ! pa?2 b :5 ,i consid] my returns1 ,i am fill$ ) humiliation4 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,i w try to d bett]2 ,"l1 help me1 ,i am ,?9e4 ,i am ,?9e by pur*ase great1 ,made1 r$eem$1 su/a9$ by ,!e2 ,by surr5d]1 n[ ,i wait ,all ,?y pleasure ^u me4 #ahde4 ,took tea ) ,mrs4 ,w41 & _h ! opportunity ( urg+ h] husb& to seek ! salvation ( 8 s\l4--,my de> ,eliza 0 ?is morn+ aga9 made a "m4 ,ano!r little boy to put 9 ! cov5ant grant4 ,j z ,i write ! promise is giv51 ',?y *ildr5 %all be all taught ( ,god1 & great %all be ! peace ( ?y *ildr54' ,s may x be2 ,i desire no?+ m4 ,?is aft]noon ,i h _h a fall1 & 0 miracul\sly pres]v$ f injury4 ,i record x z an ackn[l$gm5t ( ! k9d c>e :i* provid5ce has ex]cis$ ov] me4 ,:at w be ! end ( ^! /ruggles respect+ ,maynoo? ,college8 ,w ,romanism or ,prote/antism prevail8--,i saw ,mrs4 ,r4 ?ree times today2 ! second %e express$ hope 9 ,god2 ! ?ird ! p[] ( spee* 0 gone4 ,awful crisis6 ,/&+ on ! edge ( two worlds6 ,x 0 a solemn mom5t4 ,:ile engag$ 9 pray] ,i felt access4 ,h[ ne$ful to be ready6--,ne> midnight4 ,i h ?is week be5 endeav\r+ 'to reckon myself dead inde$ unto s91 b alive unto ,god4' ,my fai? is sometimes /rong1 at o!rs feeble2 b my purpose to hold fa/ ! bless+ 0 nev] m fix$4 ,?\1 :o at ?is mom5t beholde/ ! inmo/ recesses ( my he>t1 & :o1 by ,?y ,_s1 give/ me inw>d peace1 keep me f ?is h\r2 & help me confid5tly1 ?r\gh ! m]its ( ,*ri/1 to confess ) my m\? :at my he>t believes--t '! blood ( ,jesus ,*ri/ ,?y ,son cleanse? me f all s94'--,aga9 visit$ ,mrs4 ,b4 ,! la/ "t ,i saw h] %e wept1 & appe>$ to feel mu*2 b ,i 0 afraid %e 0 imag9+ %e _h atta9$ :at %e _h n1 & resolv$ to call aga9 at ! fir/ opportunity4 ,i f\nd ! ,"l _h be5 p[]fully work+ on h] m9d4 ,%e felt x su* a m]cy t ! ,"l _h n cut h] (f 9 h] s9s1 t %e _h wre/l$ ) ! ,"l until ,he remov$ h] load ( mis]y1 & communicat$ peace3 ?is is ! ,"l's do+4--,all is /ill2 only ! moan ( my afflict$ c\s91 9 h] slumb]s1 falls ^u my e>4 ,! cl\ds ( ev5+ are ri*ly t9t$ z ! %ad[s ( night draw on4 ,my s\l enjoys sweet tranquillity4 ,jesus' m]its be+ ! only refuge ( my s\l4 ,:5 ,i ask$ c\s9 ! /ate ( h] m9d1 %e said1 ',sometimes ,i h no d\bt1 at o!rs ,i am p]plex$2' & !n add$1 ) te>s1 ',?\gh ,he slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him4' ,oh6 :at is life8 a pass+ cl\d1 ,t+$ ) a ra9b[ light2 ,b let ! sun 8 glory %r\d1 ,:]e is ! vision bright8 ',tis pa/ & gone1 & 9 its place1 ,n\ght b ! cl\d appe>s3 ,x is ! ,sun ( righte\sness ,mu/ gild ?is vale ( te>s4 ,fulfill$ "s err&s on ! ,"l's acc\nt4 ,pass+ a spot :]e a p]son once a memb] resid$1 ,i call$ to see h[ h] m9d 0 affect$ n[4 ,%e 0 mu* pleas$1 & said ! ,"l _h s5t me1 z %e 0 wi%+ to see me1 hav+ _h h] desires aft] et]nal life reviv$4 ,"s o!rs1 to :om ,i 0 direct$1 7 equally dispos$ to unite !mselves ) ! p ( ,god4--,two days ago c\s9 evid5tly alt]$ = ! worse2 %e has spok5 little1 b be5 rem>kably pati5t1 ?r\gh h] protract$ affliction4 ,?is morn+ %e express$ h] confid5ce 9 ,god2 & a few m9utes aft] elev5 h] happy _s return$ to ,god4 ,we sorr[1 b n )\t hope1--,h] rema9s 7 convey$ to ,s9n+ton = int]m5t4 ,pa/ recollections seem$ to dr9k up my _s2 only "o survivor--^u ! spot--( all ^? :om long association has ende>$ to me4 ,we call$ ^u ,mr4 ,b42 b ah6 h[ *ang$6 completely p>alyz$1--app>5tly incapable ( mu* impression1 & yet1 ,i fe>1 unsav$6 ,i spoke to him1 & also 8 son1 on ! necessity ( mak+ _! peace ) ,god1 & !n pray$ ) !m2 b my m9d 0 aft]w>d pa9$ because ,i _h done ! "w s ineffici5tly4--,! la/ =tnight ,i h sev]al times visit$ a little boy1 s9k+ 9 decl9e4 ,:5 fir/ ,i saw him1 he appe>$ q ignorant ( 8 s9ful condition2 b div9e light has gradually beam$ ^u 8 s\l4 ,! la/ "t1 he express$ a confid5ce ,i _h n obs]v$ be=e4 ,8 "m tells me1 %e has (t5 he>d him engag$ 9 e>ne/ pray]2 & once1 p]ceiv+ him mu* worse1 %e said1 ',bill1 ?\'s v ill4' ',yes1' he repli$1 'b ,i %all soon be bett]4' ,:5 ne> dea?1 he ask$1 ',d y see :o's come = me8' %e said1 ',no1 :o is x8' ,he answ]$1 ',jesus2' & clasp+ 8 h&s1 said repeat$ly1 ',"l1 help me6' !n plac+ !m toge!r1 "u 8 head1 g5tly pass$ away4--,:ile endeav\r+ to d my ,ma/]'s w1 ,i c>ry my heav5 ab\t ) me4 ,my s\l enjoys peace1 ) a deep s5se ( my own no?+ness4 ',*ri/ is all2 o!r refuge h ,i none4' ,all praise to ,god1 ^: sleepless eye1 ,obs]v$ my t5d] ye>s2 ,& bless$ me ) p>5tal love1 ,p>5tal pray]s & te>s4 ,?r\gh e lane ( life ,i trace ,8 provid5tial c>e2 ,9 _m a "t ( ne$1 ,8 grace ,& gu>dian h& 7 !re4 ,8 /ill small voice ( love ,i he>d1 ,:5 9 ! blu% ( y\?2 ,i paus$1 & li/5$ to ! ^w ,( ev]la/+ tru?4 ,resolv$ ,i 01 & re-resolv$1 ,b _m a conflict knew2 ,till ,god1 9 ,*ri/1 my s9s absolv$1 ,& unbelief o'er?rew4 ,:at %all ,i r5d] to ! ,"l8 ,:at c a s9n] d8 ,i'll re/ ^u ,8 preci\s ^w1 ,& take ,8 grace anew4 ,,xix4 ,,! ,,inw>d ,,monitor4 ,,! ,,"l ,,%all ,,guide ,,!e ,,cont9ually4--,isaiah lviii4 #aa4 ,:o1 t is consci\s ( ! solemn responsibility ( life1 & ( ! p]ils by :i* x is beset1 b feels ! necessity ( cont9ual direction8 ,h[ _m em]g5cies daily arise1 9 :i* !re is ne$ ( wisdom sup]ior to our own8 ,oh = a ,m5tor1 ^: con/ant pres5ce & un]r+ c\nsels might always guide u aright6 ,! aspiration is n 9 va94 ,god himself1 (f]s to be ! guide ( ,8 p4 ,he w put ,8 ,_s 9 !m1 :o %all abide ) !m always1 & guide !m 9 ! way ( all tru?4 ,b h[8 ,n by "s irresi/ible impulse1 :i* ov]p[]s ! action ( human w1 or by "s new revelation1 :i* w\ld r5d] unnecess>y ! ord9>y means ( religi\s in/ruction2 b by ! lessons ( ,8 holy ^w1 :i* is br\ght to ! m9d 9 ! mom5t ( requirem5t2 = ! ,holy ,_s br+s to our remembrance :atsoev] is !re reveal$ = our com=t & in/ruction4 ,?is %[s ! importance1 n only ( ! con/ant & dilig5t /udy ( ! ,^w ( ,god1 b ( /or+ ! memory1 :ile x is yet fre% & vigor\s1 ) ,scripture tru?3 = x is obvi\s1 t _c be br\ght to our remembrance1 :i* 0 nev] kn[n4 ,fur!r1 we mu/ ask = direction1 committ+ all our ways to ,him2 & :5 ,he graci\sly indicates ! pa? ( duty1 at once obey4 ,he :o acts ^u ^! pr9ciples w nev] ',full direction ne$4 ,or miss 8 provid5tial way4' ,god w guide him cont9ually1 & (t51 9 a mann] mo/ wond]ful1 supply light & c\nsel1 9 times ( p]plexity1 or ne$4 ,mrs4 ,ly? _h 9 e>ly life committ$ to memory l>ge portions ( ! ,^w ( ,god2 ! ,bible 0 ! book ( h] *oice--h] daily /udy2 & h] love = x became m impassion$ z life roll$ on to its close4 ,h5ce1 z %e 0 9 ! habit ( pray]fully seek+ direction 9 all h] movem5ts1 its preci\s tru?s 7 con/antly br\ght to remembrance4 ,inde$1 9 "s p>ts ( h] di>y1 sc>cely a day passes )\t ! record ( "s scripture ?us appli$1 mo/ commonly z h] fir/ morn+ ?\ght1 :i* furni%$ pr(itable reflection = ! day4 #ahdf4--;,call$ to see "o ,i saw on ,saturday1 b %e is no m4 ,:i!r is %e gone8 ,pursu$ my way to visit ano!r sick fri5d4 ,:5 ,i approa*$ h] b$side1 %e said %e 0 v ill 9 body1 & v mis]able 9 m9d4 ,aft] a few words we knelt d[n4 ,! ,"l 0 graci\sly pleas$ to give ! _s ( pray]2 & fai? realiz$ ! bless+4 ,%e cri$ out1 ',i am ,?9e1 glory be to ,god6' ,h[ good x is :5 ,god comes d[n1 & melts our froz5 nature6--,i h comm5c$ read+ ,mat!w ,h5ry's ,comm5t>y2 h[ f> ,i %all live to read1 ,i "k n2 b ,i h comm5c$ x ) pray]1 & by ,god's help int5d s to cont9ue4--,invit$ ! ,clo?+ ,committee to tea4 ,= "s days be=e1 ,i pray$ t we might be direct$ into ! love ( ,god4 ,be+1 z ,i believe1 ! olde/1 ,i v5tur$ to take ! lead1 & we _h a little b&-meet+4 ,all spoke & pray$4 ,aft]w>d ,i 0 pa9fully ex]cis$2 b ,i ca/ myself1 ) all my imp]fections1 ^u ,god4--,9 visit+ ! ,s*ool ,i felt prompt$ to speak a few words to ! *ildr51 & made ! attempt4 ,! words impress$ ^u my m9d 7 ',ev5 a *ild is kn[n by 8 do+s4'--,s\ght out ,mrs4 ----1 to :om ,i spoke pla9ly2 also call$ ^u ano!r *ri/ian fri5d1 "o1 :o is plac$ 9 slipp]y places 9 public life2--pray$ ) !m3 & n[ my "w is be=e ,!e1 wilt ,?\ be pleas$ to ackn[l$ge my feeble endeav\rs to help ,?y p on8--,i h today be5 engag$ 9 obta9+ ,ladies' signatures to memorialize ! ,que5 = ! suppression ( h\ses ( ill fame4--,a pleasant drive to ,h>rogate4 ,came1 resolv$ to give myself to pray]1 & h felt x good to draw nigh to ,god4--,:ile sitt+ at my "w ab\t ?ree o'clock1 ! ?\ght occurr$1 ',look into ! little book ly+ on ! table4' ,i did s1 & on op5+ x1 read1 ',rise & pray4' ,i 0 ?us rem9d$ ( my engagem5t ) a fri5d1 & 0 ?ankful = ! admonition4--,i felt reprov$ = utt]+ a matt] :i*1 ?\gh true1 w\ld h be5 bett] unsaid4 ,:5 w my tongue be br\ght into due subjection8 ,clee?orpes4 ,mu* ( ! day pass$ ^u ! t]race4 ,_h a conv]sation ) a ,*ur* lady1 to :om ! ,"l enabl$ me to speak ( ! ?+s ( ,god2 & h s9ce be5 pray+ t conviction may fa/5 ^u h] consci5ce4--,0 s5t = to visit a lady ^u a sick b$1 ) :om ,i _h a free conv]sation4 ,i h n[ se5 h] ?ree or f\r times1 & %e seems really 9 e>ne/ to save h] s\l4 ,%e has kn[n some?+ ( ! tru? = fifte5 ye>s2 b is mu* depress$ by a n]v\s affection4 ,i h be5 l$ to admire ! h>monies & adaptations ( nature4 ,c x be t ,god %\ld ?us provide = man 9 8 fall5 condition1 & w ,he =get to provide = ,8 own8 ,nev]6 ,inf9ite ,p[]1 is inf9ite love4--,call$ to see a p]son :o is sick1 b 0 disappo9t$4 ,h[ev]1 ,i conv]s$ & pray$ ) h] "m1 & aft]w>d w5t to read to a poor bl9d woman :o is 9 ! way to heav54--,call$ to see a p]son ) :om ,i conv]s$ a few days ago2--he>d h] groan+ 9 great pa91 b did n see h]4 ,! daught]1 :o is also ill & mu* h>ass$ ) att5d+ ^u h] "m1 said1 !y _h n[ no "t = religion1 z affliction put e ?+ else out ( _! ?\ghts2 yet %e admitt$ its importance4 ,i gave h] a few words ( c\nsel1 & :5 ,i left1 told h] ,i %\ld pray = !m4 ,%e look$ at me ) surprise1 & we p>t$1 probably to meet no m till we meet at ! b> ( ,god4 ,bo? ( !m knew some?+ ( religion ye>s ago4 ,"l1 save me f trifl+4--,left ,clee?orpes at six4 ,! ,grimsby packet 0 cr[d$1 & !re 7 _m wick$ p on bo>d4 ,i 0 glad :5 we rea*$ ,hull4--,two ( my memb]s lie at ! po9t ( dea?2 "o1 above eighty1 is p]haps already gone4 ,%e has n be5 able to att5d h] class = "s ye>s1 b ,i h regul>ly visit$ h]2 & (t5 be5 enc\rag$ :ile pray+ ) h]4 ,a wick$ son has be5 a great tr\ble to h]1 &1 ,i am in=m$1 (t5 us$ h] ill4 ,to ! la/ %e express$ confid5ce 9 ,god4 ,i h se5 h] sev]al times s9ce ! comm5cem5t ( ?is la/ affliction1 :i* has only be5 ( a week's duration4 ,la/ night %e 0 j ent]+ ! valley1 & ! p[] ( recollection 0 ne>ly gone4 ,! o!r1 :om ,i also saw la/ night1 is ag$1 & ) a happy expression ( c\nt5ance decl>$ h] tru/ 9 ,god1 & hope ( heav54 ,two o!rs t ,i saw1 bo? above eighty1 7 joyfully wait+ _! release4 ,exil$ f my ,fa!r's home1 ,a pilgrim "h bel[2 ,look+1--long+1 lo6 ,i come ,m ( ,?y love to "k4 ,let me "h1 l ,m>y1 sit2 ,claim ,!e e mom5t m9e2 ,will+ always to submit1 ,& lose my w 9 ,?9e4 ,i reta9 ! e>ne/ desire aft] full d$ication to ,god1 ,sp>$ to see ! la/ mom5ts ( ano!r ye>2 ,i am resolv$ t ,god %all h my he>t4 ,wor?less en\gh6 ,b ! atonem5t6 ,"h is my hope & consolation4 ,yes1 my all c5tres "h4 #ahdg4--;,a fri5d came to reque/ me to write to a si/]1 :o is 9 tr\ble ?r\gh b]eavem5t4 ,nev] did ,i s cle>ly appreh5d ! responsibility ( act+ = ! ,"l4 ,may ! attempt be bless$4--,visit$ ! ,s*ool1 & 0 glad to f9d t "s ( ! *ildr5 rememb]$ :at ,i said to !m a ye> ago4 ,?is %[s ! importance ( /or+ ! y\?ful m9d ) :at is wor? rememb]+4 ,i reque/$ !m to commit to memory ! #bcrd ,psalm4 ,six or eight h done s1 & repeat$ x correctly4 ,address$ & pray$ ) !m4 ,?is f9i%es my mon? ( visitation4--,i h to record ! m]ciful int]position ( ,provid5ce1 beyond my expectation1 9 a matt] :i* has occasion$ me mu* pa94 ,on ?is acc\nt ,i wi% to be ?ankful4 ,surely ! ,"l has he>d my pray]4 ,let ?is induce me to ex]cise a firm] reliance ^u ,8 promise1 be+ 'c>eful = no?+1 b 9 ev]y?+ by pray] & supplication ) ?anksgiv+1 mak+ my reque/s kn[n unto ,god4'--,9 visit+ "s ( ! ,"l's p1 ,i ?9k ,i 0 direct$ aright4 ,i w\ld1 9 e foot/ep1 move ,to meet ! ,savi\r :om ,i love4 ,call$ ^u ,mrs4 ,w41 9 dy+ circum/ances4 ,i h se5 h] twice1 & feel enc\rag$4 ,! _w becomes m empty4 ,*ri/ is all4--,believ+ x to be my duty1 ,i visit$ ! surviv+ sons ( ,mrs4 ,w41 to urge !m to foll[ _! deceas$ p>5t4 ,!y seem$ to welcome my visit1 & invit$ me to call aga94 ,s9n+ton4--,visit$ sev]al ( ! villag]s1 ) an anxi\s desire t ,i might be useful to !m4 ,visit$ my dep>t$ fri5ds 9 ! *ur*y>d2 ,i hope to jo9 !m soon4 ,on "o ( ! grave/ones ,i read ',! grave has eloqu5ce1 its lectures tea* ,9 language l\d]1 ?an div9es c prea*4' ,i 0 aga9 solicit$ to take ! presid5cy ( ! sew+ meet+2--a position1 :i* to me appe>s increas+ly important4 ,want ( punctuality1 & o!r evils1 are creep+ 94 ,"l1 ,i am ,?9e1 ,i w\ld d t :i* is "r 9 ,?y sight1 tea* me2 &1 by ! control ( ,?y provid5ce1 let ?is organization be plac$ on ! be/ foot+1 t x may contribute to ,?y glory4--,mrs4 ,wilson f ,fiji1 came to sp5d ! day ) u be=e %e return$ home4 ,h[ sweet is ! cem5t ( pray]6 ,h[ x knits u to "o ano!r6 ,my he>t fill$ :5 ,i saw h]4 ,i c\ld h wept4 ,%e br+s pleas+ tid+s f my son4--,aft] mu* delib]ation we det]m9$ to g to ,h>rogate4 ,i believe x is ! "r "t4 ,:ile on my knees be=e ! ,"l1 x 0 sugge/$1 ',he %all bless ?y go+ out & ?y com+ 9 f ?is "t =?1 & = ev]more4' ,i felt x 0 f ! ,"l1 & believ$ x4 ,we _h an agreeable j\rney1 & on our arrival a p]son acco/$ u1 & ask$ if we requir$ lodg+s4 ,we w5t ) h] to look at !m1 & f\nd !m cong5ial to our wi%es4 ,! p>ties are memb]s ( our society3 ano!r pro( ( our heav5ly ,fa!r's c>e4--,?is ev5+ ,i _h ! opportunity ( speak+ to "o ( ! cavalry g5tlem54 ,he ?ank$ me1 & said he w\ld ?9k ab\t x4--,a day ( sev]e ex]cise4 ,i 0 con/ra9$ to g to ! ?rone ( grace1 :]e ,i f\nd help1 & 0 enabl$ to rise above :at o!rwise w\ld h griev$ me mu*4 ,! gr& secret1 ,i believe1 0 ! giv+ up my own w4 ,may ,i ev] h p[] to d x4--,9 my sleep1 ! words 7 cont9ually runn+ 9 my m9d1 ',belov$1 ?9k x n /range conc]n+ ! fi]y trial1 :i* is to try y1 z ?\gh "s /range ?+ happ5$ unto y4' ,only enable me to endure2 let ,?y righte\s w be done4 ,glori\s ,"l1 appe>1 appe> ,to ,?y feeble foll[] "h2 ,by ,?y grace my he>t prep>e1 ,all ,?y righte\s w to be>4 ,! words1 ',i w be ) him 9 tr\ble1' h greatly com=t$ me4 ,fai? makes !m m9e2 glory be to ,god6--,at ! sew+ meet+ ,i read ! fir/ section ( ,bramwell's ,memoir4 ,dur+ tea ,i took ! opportunity ( speak+ ( ! propriety ( improv+ our "t :ile toge!r1 admoni%$ z we 7 by ! sudd5 removal ( s _m ar\nd u2 also ( ! necessity ( punctuality 9 our att5dance1 t we might n (f] a blemi%$ sacrifice4 ,! sequel w %[ ) :at effect4--,z f> z opportunity & /r5g? p]mitt$1 ,i h occupi$ ^! two days 9 visit+ my memb]s1 & my afflict$ fri5d1 ,miss ,b5tley4 ,%e knew me1 & desir$ me to pray2 b soon fell into a slumb]4 ,?is 0 ! la/ "t %e spoke to me4--,saw h] aga92 ab\t half-pa/ f\r %e di$--to live = ev]4--,x is n[ ! la/ h\r ( #ahdg4 ,i enjoy peace ( m9d & hung] aft] righte\sness4 ,i long to fill up my "t accord+ to ! w ( ,god1 & if ,i live1 to be m useful ?an ,i h ev] be54 ,oh6 let ,?y /ill small voice ,say to my inmo/ s\l1 ',i am ?y ,god2 believe1 rejoice1 ,i make ! contrite s9n] :ole4' ,s be x4 ,i am only ,?9e1 ,& feel1 ?r\gh ,*ri/1 t ,?\ art m9e4 #ahdh4--;,a :ole week ,i h be5 a prison]1 9 consequ5ce ( a swoll5 foot2 b ,i am sure x is p]mitt$ 9 love4 ,i see x to be my privilege pati5tly to submit1 & ?9k ,i feel will+ to d s2 b !re are _m intricacies 9 ! human he>t1 & ,i see no fur!r ?an div9e light p]mits4 ,advanc+ "t is sl[2 ,b ah6 h[ swiftly gone6 ,to m>k its flight1 & %[ ,h[ 'vantage may be won1 ,is wisdom only few atta91 ,b wisdom yield+ greate/ ga94 ,call$ to see ! ,rev4 ,?omas ,walk]1 & f\nd x good :ile pray+ ) him4 ,he reque/$ me1 :5ev] ,i b[$ ! knee1 to rememb] him4 ,he is daily br\ght to my recollection4--,memorable day6 ,my ,ri*>d's bir?day4 ,h[ little d we anticipate ! ev5ts ( life6 n[ among cannibals1 prea*+ ! ev]la/+ ,gospel4 ,glori\s "w6 ,?us highly hon\r$ ( ! ,"l1 may he prove fai?ful4 ,?an ?is1 ,i c h no great] joy4--,call$ a ?ird "t to see ,miss ,w41 :o seems to be seek+ ! ,"l 9 real e>ne/4 ,i f\nd h] read+ ! ,bible1 & weep+4 ,saw h] aga94 ,%e told me h[ happy %e _h be5 all ,?ursday night2 & said %e felt z if ,i _h cur$ bo? body & s\l4 ,s9ce !n %e has be5 v ill1 b is /ill foll[+ on to "k ! ,"l4 ,h] ,bible seems h] greate/ treasure4 ,aft]w>d ,i _h a happy int]view ) ,mrs4 ,isaac2--decl9+ 9 body b alive to ,god4 ,%e pray$ sweetly4--,helmsley ,mission>y ,meet+4 ,we 7 hurri$ f ! d9n] table to ! *apel1 :i* preclud$ ! prep>ation ,i l4 ,fri5ds are s k9d 9 mak+ ample provision = ! body1 t our s\ls are 9 dang] ( suff]+ loss 9 consequ5ce4--,call$ to see ,miss ,w4 ,dea? 0 pa9t$ 9 h] c\nt5ance2 b %e r\s$ up1 :ile ,i po9t$ h] to ! ,savi\r1 & urg$ h] to accept ,8 m]cy n[4 ,aft] pray] %e said1 ) te>s1 ',i d believe 9 ,jesus4' ,i read a psalm1 to :i* %e li/5$ ) deep att5tion1 & !n pray$ aga94 ,:5 ,i rose to dep>t %e said1 ',y'll come aga92' :i* ,i purpos$ to d1 b %e di$ ! foll[+ morn+4 ,:ile at ! committee = ! di/ribution ( clo?+1 ! ,"l bless$ me ) su* a calm s]5ity ( m9d1 t x 0 obs]v$ by "o ( my fri5ds4 ,0 x 9 answ] to pray]8 ,x is true1 be=e ,i left home1 my pray] 0 = a meek & quiet _s2 also ! prec$+ ev5+1 my fri5d ,b4 & ,i _h unit$ly agre$ to pray t we might m evid5tly1 9 our diff]5t sph]es1 approve ourselves ,god's witnesses4 ,s9ce !n ,i h be5 endeav\r+1 b n always ) equal success4--,/ill conf9$ to ! h\se4 ,rose betwe5 six & sev51 & f\nd ! advantage ( pray]4 ,i feel my unpr(itabl5ess1 b 0 nev] m resolv$ to cleave to my be/ ,fri5d ?an n[4 ,dur+ ! week ,i h be5 mu* drawn out 9 pray] = ! de> p committ$ to my c>e4 ,b ah6 ,i h n pray$ half en\gh2 = ?is ,i feel humbl$4 ,o ,"l1 impress _! spiritual welf>e m deeply ^u my he>t4 #ahdi4--;,"h1 ,i d$icate anew ,my ransom'd p[]s to ,!e2 ,a wor?less (f]+1 x is true2 ,yet deign to look on me4 ,! ,rev4 ,a4 ,bell call$ to say he wi%$ ,mrs4 ,d4 to take my ,?ursday class1 z he want$ female lead]s on t side ! bridge4 ,is x my unfai?fulness t w cause ^! de> p to be tak5 f me8 ,my de> husb& says x is provid5tial1 on acc\nt ( my heal?4 ,well1 ,i wait ! issue4--,n long ago1 a man1 :o 0 cru%$ on ! railway1 cri$ out1 z 8 companions 7 c>ry+ him away ^u a hurdle1 ',/op6' :5 ask$ if !y hurt him1 he repli$1 ',no2' & pull+ 8 hymn-book out ( 8 bosom1 add$1 ',i want to s+'-- ',happy if ) my late/ brea?1 ,i may b gasp ,8 "n2 ,prea* ,him to all1 & cry 9 dea?1 ,behold1 behold ! ,lamb4' ,he 0 convey$ to a neighb\r+ inn1 & m$ical aid imm$iately obta9$4 ,! doctor felt 8 pulse1 & %ook 8 head1 on :i* ! suff]] inquir$ h[ long he %\ld live4 ',p]haps till twelve1' 0 ! answ]4 ,he !n repeat$ ! v]se comm5c+ ',no room = mir? or trifl+ "h1' c4 add+1 ',i %all be 9 heav5 be=e twelve4' ,ne> t "t1 he lift$ up 8 h&s1 & %\t+ victory1 victory1 expir$4--,! practice1 :i* ,i h = "s "t adopt$1 ( retir+ imm$iately aft] breakfa/ to pray = myself1 & ^? :o are associat$ ) me 9 *ur* fell[%ip1 ,i f9d truly pr(itable4--,we set (f e>ly 9 ! morn+ = ,gl\ce/]1 to visit our son & daught]2 & _h a pleasant & peaceful j\rney1 f> beyond my expectation4 ,a lady1 :o sat beside me1 gave me an acc\nt ( h] conv]sion to ,god4 ,! conv]sation 0 orig9at$ by "s tracts1 :i* %e c>ri$ = di/ribution4 ,ab\t sev5 we arriv$1 & f\nd our *ildr5 look+ out = u4 ,?us pa/ ! la/ day ( my sixty-six? ye>--an epitome ( my life--cont9ual *ange4--,return$ to ,york4 ,mrs4 ,j4 accompani$ me 9 se>* ( ,rosamond ,j4 ,we f\nd h] 9 v poor circum/ances1 ) f\r *ildr51 & h] husb& gone (f to seek "w4 ,%e in/antly recognis$ me1 & bur/ into te>s4 ,we pray$ ) h]4 ,aft] tea ,i met ,mrs4 ,j4's class4 ,! ,"l 0 ) u2 sev]al 7 9 te>s1 consci\s ( _! di/ance f ,god4 ,! ,"l assi/$ me 9 speak+ to !m1 & bless$ my own s\l4--,dea? is common4 ,! *ol]a prevails4 ,may ?is awful visitation be sanctifi$ to u6 ,i 0 s5t = to see ,mrs4 ,p42 %e express$ h] confid5ce 9 ,god1 & ?is morn+ di$ ( *ol]a4--,i felt impress$ to visit ! adjo9+ neighb\rs1 & hav+ b[$ be=e ! ,"l1 to ask 8 bless+ & help1 ,i w5t2 &1 z ! ,"l enabl$ me1 conv]s$ & pray$ ) two families4 ,9 "o ( !m1 ! wife1 :o is mu* afflict$1 press$ me to g aga91 & h] husb& second$ ! reque/4--,sev]al circum/ances :i* h occurr$ 9 our ,society1 pa9ful 9 !mselves1 h turn$ out to my b5efit1 de/roy+ my dep5dance on man1 & po9t+ me to ! ,rock :i* is high] ?an ,i4 ,9 an unexpect$ trial ,i 0 div9ely support$4 ,i w5t to see ----1 & !re ,i met ) 8 fri5d1 to :om ,i spoke pla9ly2 my he>t 0 pa9$4--,in/ead ( go+ to ! h\se ( ,god1 ,i 0 pa9fully ex]cis$ at home4 ,oppre/1 ,i lift my he>t to ,!e1 ,?\ soo!r ( my c>e2 ,oh6 let ,?y e> att5tive be1 ,to ?is my he>tfelt pray]4 ,?\ see/ my he>t's desire1 to live ,ob$i5t to ,?y w2 ,help me1 to ,!e1 my all to give1 ,) love my bosom fill4 ,:ate'er 9 me is wrong remove1 ,:ate'er is d>k illume2 ,se>*1 try1 & purge me1 b 9 love1 ,le/ ,?\ ,?y du/ consume4 ,to ,!e is all my sorr[ kn[n1 ,no secret w\ld ,i hide2 ,! enemy 8 t>es ha? s[n1 ,oh6 let him n divide4 ,?\ only can/ my burd5 move1 ,! w(ul brea* repair2 ,oh6 s5d u succ\r f above1 ,& he> my in/ant pray]4 ,i am resolv$1 ?r\gh grace1 to seek a clos] walk ) ,god1 & sweet] communion by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,i want con/ancy1 & m fai?4 ,i am conv9c$ ( my c[>dice 9 n confess+ ! sanctify+ grace ( ,god :i* ,i enjoy2 & ?us ins5sibly lose sight ( x4 ,i desire cont9ually to be l$ by ! ,_s4 ,i w5t to conv]se ) a neighb\r ab\t hav+ family-pray]4 ,! "m is an old ,me?odi/4 ,saw ano!r p]son1 :o is a wid[1 & 9 tr\ble2 bo? he>t-t\*+ visits4--,9 visit+1 ,i met ) ! son ( "o ( my memb]s1 :om ,i reque/$ to read six v]ses ( scripture e day2 got ! :ole family toge!r1 & pray$ ) !m4 ,!re 0 consid]able feel+ among !m4--,i am n[ ent]$ ^u ! la/ h\r ( ?is ev5tful ye>1 9 :i* ?\s&s h be5 swept away by *ol]a1 & _m by sudd5 dea?2 b x has n come nigh me4 ,i began x ) ! fix$ purpose ( liv+ to ,god2 b ,?\1 ,"l1 kn[e/ h[ (t5 & :]e9 ,i h fail$4 ,i feel ,i c plead no?+ b ! blood ( atonem5t1 to :i* ,i come2 ,i want /rong] fai?1 & m love4 ,! unhappy divisions 9 our ,connexion h r done me good2 = ,i feel a hung]+ aft] ,bible ,*ri/ianity1 & m ( t love :i* 'nev] faile?1' & :i* '?9ke? no evil4' ,,xx4 ,,! ,,/orm4 ,,! ,,"l ,,ha? ,,8 ,,way ,,9 ,,! ,,:irlw9d ,,& ,,! ,,/orm1 ,,& ,,! ,,cl\ds ,,are ,,! ,,du/ ,,( ,,8 ,,feet4 ,nahum i4 #c4 ,! /orm1 t spreads ru9 & deva/ation 9 its pa?1 is no less a pro( ( a wise & ov]rul+ ,provid5ce ?an ! g5tl] ph5om5a ( nature1 :i*1 ) su* con/ant & unv>y+ regul>ity1 refre% & bless ! e>?4 ,x cleanses ! atmosph]e1 & sweeps away ! poison\s miasmata1 :i* h be5 eng5d]$ dur+ a p]iod ( quiesc5ce1 & :i* mu/1 if n remov$1 prove prejudicial to human life4 ,a simil> effect is ex]t$ by ^? pa9ful diss5sions :i* too (t5 arise 9 religi\s communities4 ,god p]mits !m = ! purification ( ,8 *ur*4 ,:at is useless or injuri\s is swept away2 :at is good is confirm$2 & if unhappily _m1 t are weak1 are injur$1 x is because !y d n seek %elt] 9 ,him1 :o is a hid+-place f ! w9d1 & a cov]t f ! tempe/4 ,dur+ ! fi]ce agitation1 :i* swept z a :irlw9d ov] ! ,me?odi/ societies 9 #ahdi & #ahej1 ,mrs4 ,ly? nev] lo/ sight ( ! great purpose ( life4 ,%e /ood fai?ful & unmov$ at h] po/2 & m$dl$ no fur!r ) matt]s ( /rife ?an positive duty requir$4 ,! que/ions :i* _m lov$ to discuss1 & ?\ght !mselves q compet5t to settle1 7 nev] will+ly ! topic ( h] conv]sation4 ,!y 7 ! subjects ( h] pray]s4 ,%e retir$ to h] closet2 %e wept 9 secret ov] ! brea*es ( ,zion2 %e s\ght h] refuge f ! surr\nd+ excitem5t 9 ! secret place ( ! ,mo/ ,high1 & h5ce t1 :i* 9 itself 0 a s]i\s evil1 became to h] a s\rce ( p]sonal b5efit4 ,happy w\ld x h be5 = _m1 :o ne$lessly expos$ !mselves to ! fury ( ! /orm1 if !y _h be5 l m9d$4 #ahej4--,sev]al p]plex+ circum/ances h conspir$ to di/urb ! quiet ( my m9d1 h[ev]1 !y c\ld only ruffle ! surface4 ,?r\gh ,*ri/1 ,i enjoy settl$ peace4--,9 ! c\rse ( discussion 9 ! ,lead]s' ,meet+ ,i 0 giv5 to see ! amiabl5ess ( ! meekness ( wisdom1 :i* 0 exhibit$ by "o ( our lead]s4 ,i came home pray+ = m ( x1 feel+ great] love = ! ,"l's p1 & ?ankful t ,i am unit$ ) !m4 ,o :at a privilege6--,tw5ty-sev5 ye>s s9ce my de> fa!r ent]$ into re/2 & ,i am yet alive1 to see & he> ( m discord among ! pr(ess$ foll[]s ( ,jesus ?an ev] ,i saw4 ,nev]!less1 ! ',^w ( ,god is sure1 ! ,"l kn[e? !m t are ,84' ,i praise ,god my he>t is fix$1 let o!rs d z !y may2 yet x is pa9ful to me to see !m leav+ ! p ( ,god4 ',i "k 9 :om ,i h believ$1' & 9 ,jesus ,i h peace4 ,copy ( a lett] writt5 to a memb]1 late ( my class3-- ,,my ,,de> ,,mrs4 ----1 ,my he>t ye>ns ov] y2 &1 hav+ be5 y\r ,lead]1 ,i feel a responsibility re/+ ^u me1 ( :i* ,i _c acquit myself1 )\t w>n+ y ( ! dang]1 to :i* y are expos+ y\r own s\l1 by giv+ place to a _s n ( love4 ,y h be5 (f5d$2 g to ! (f5d]1 t ! brea* may be heal$2 d n make ! r5t wid]4 ,read c>efully & ) pray]1 our ,savi\r's directions 9 ,matt4 #ah?2 & submit y\rself at ! feet ( ,jesus1 :o has said1 ',le>n ( me1 = ,i am meek & l[ly 9 he>t4' ,o my de> fri5d1 an enemy has ga9$ an advantage ov] y2 & on cool reflection y w h cause to m\rn4 ,suff] n ?is evil to rankle 9 y\r brea/2 b g directly to ,jesus = p[] to =give1 t y may be =giv54 ,my love = y\r et]nal welf>e1 prompts me ?us to write to y1 & ,i rema91 ,y\r s9c]e fri5d1 c4 ,my husb& is gone to ,new ,/reet ,*apel1 ! ,tru/ees hav+ be5 summon$ on ! ',delegate' affair4 ,! ,"l reigne?4--,! pa/ has be5 a week ( pa9ful disunion & insubord9ation 9 o> ,society4 ,alas6 ,yet1 ?r\gh m]cy1 my peace ( m9d cont9ues4 ,my resolve to live = ,him1 :o gave himself = me1 is m firmly fix$ ?an ev]4 ,:ile sitt+ "u ! ^w1 my m9d 0 impress$ to g & speak ) ,m4,r42 ,i sc>cely indulg$ ! ?\ght1 b :5 ,i return$ home1 x /ill pursu$ me4 ,i took x to ! ,"l1 & ask$ = wisdom1 c\rage1 & a pla9 pa?2 & !n set =?4 ,my pa? 0 made pla91 c\rage 0 giv51 & ! _s ( meekness & love re/$ ^u me4 ,! ^w ( admonition 0 k9dly receiv$2 may x be z a nail fa/5$ by ! ,ma/] ( assemblies4--,! adj\rn$ ,mission>y ,meet+ 0 held 9 ! ,c5t5>y ,*apel1 & conclud$ ! annual s]vices4 ,! collection 0 ne>ly #aj 9 excess ( la/ ye>4 ,messrs4 ,e4 & ,g4 7 pres5t4 ,?ree *e]s1 accompani$ by ! wav+ ( hats1 c41 7 giv5 by c]ta9 p]sons = ! 'expell$4' ,! l ,i nev] saw be=e1 nor ev] wi% to see aga94--,my son prea*$ 9 ,new ,/reet4 ,9 8 fir/ pray] he 0 mu* drawn out4 ,! div9e p[] rea*$ my he>t4 ,i felt x truly preci\s1 glory be to ,god1 :o 9 m]cy has call$ my *ildr5 to spread ! sav\r ( 8 grace4 ,o t ! pray] ,i h (t5 pres5t$ = ?is son1 may be answ]$1 t he may be bless$ to ?\s&s :o may sit "u 8 m9i/ry4--,collect$ = ! ,missions4 ,sev]al refus$ to give2 b a wid[ increas$ h] subscription f two to t5 %ill+s4 ,h>rogate4--,a pleasant walk alone2 my m$itations 7 sweet4 ,endeav\r$ to induce a few to g to ! ,pray]-meet+1 b only prevail$ ^u f\r4 ,call$ on ,mrs4 ,b4 ,our conv]sation turn$ ^u ! pres5t unhappy divisions4 ,h[ mu* are we 9 dang] ( gett+ wrong6 ,o ,"l1 let me be guid$ by ,?y ,_s1 & if ,i err put me "r4 ,9 family pray] ,i 0 drawn out = ea* by "n4 ,aft] retir+ to re/ my little gr&son ,david got up1 & came to my b$side to ask me to pray = him4 ,may ! ,"l make him a man aft] 8 own he>t2 &1 if he live1 a prea*] ( righte\sness4 ,i dreamt ,i 0 tak+ a long j\rney1 & felt ! roll+ ( r\gh wat]s "u me1 b 0 fe>less4 ,:5 ,i awoke1 ?is /anza 0 on my lips1 ',:]e all is assurance & peace1 ,& sorr[ & s9 are no m4' ,my s\l is happy4--,on leav+ = home1 ,i 0 inw>dly mov$ to pray ) ! family ) :i* we _h lodg$4 ,! ,_s ( ! ,"l assi/$ me4--,dur+ ! week ,i h be5 l$ out 9 pray] = my son ,john1 & = ! ,conf]5ce4 ,if ! enemy rages1 ! m5 ( ,god h access by fai? to omnipot5t ,p[]1 & un]r+ ,wisdom4 ,may ea* be clo!d ) humility1 & claim ! grace !y ne$1 t !y may be wisely direct$4 ,s9n+ton4 ,:5 we rea*$ ,pick]+1 we _h a v awful /orm1 accompani$ ) ?und] & lightn+4 ,my s\l 0 kept 9 peace4 ,"s wom51 :o 7 deta9$ z well z ourselves1 seem$ mu* afraid4 ,i 0 prompt$ to speak to !m on ! necessity ( prep>+ to meet ,god4--,c\s9 ,samuel took me to ,:itby4 ,we climb$ "o hundr$ & n9ety /eps to ! *ur*1 & f\nd _m grave/ones ( little note2 b "o attract$ my att5tion1 z x bore my own & my husb&'s names4 ,h[ soon x w be said ov] u1 ',du/ to du/1' ,i "k n2 may we be f\nd ready4--,call$ ^u a sick neighb\r1 b z x 0 n conv5i5t to see h]1 ,i retir$ into ! draw+-room ) a fri5d :o 0 pres5t1 to p\r out our s\ls on h] behalf4--,i h got a new s]vant1 :o makes no pr(ession ( religion1 & feel desir\s = h] salvation4 ,ye/]day morn+ on awak+1 ! words 7 impress$ ^u my m9d1 ',let him "k1 t he :i* conv]te? a s9n] f ! error ( 8 ways1 %all save a s\l f dea?1 & hide a multitude ( s9s4' ,f ?is ,i d]ive enc\ragem5t4--,amid ! conflict+ elem5ts afloat1 our bus9ess is to make ,*ri/ our patt]n & our guide4 ,i am try+ to take up my daily cross1 & to wat* ! motions ( my m9d2 b ah6 h[ fitful4 ,i am no?+2--helpless & undone )\t ,*ri/1 my only hope is 9 8 atonem5t4 ,preci\s refuge6 ,come ,"l1 come n[2 ,i ?ir/1 ,i long = ,?y com+4 ,n[ baptize1 & ov]p[] me ) ,?y love4 ,if !re is lurk+ 9 my s\l1 any secret & undiscov]$ evil1 te> x away4 ',%[ me ,?y glory6' #ahel4--,my s\l is drawn heav5w>d4 ,! sew+ meet+ is mu* laid ^u my m9d1 t x may improve 9 spirituality1 & t ,i may fill ! po/ assign$ me accord+ to ! w ( ,god4 ,i long to spread ! sav\r ( ,*ri/ among ! de> p1 & make religion appe> m lovely4--,f9i%$ my visitation at ! ',s*ool ( ,indu/ry2' ! *ildr5 repeat$ ! #ajd? & #aai? ,psalms1 also ! #ab? ( ,romans1 & ! #bbnd ( ,revelation4 ,i spoke a few words1 & pray$ ) !m2 giv+ !m a few small books1 & "o = ! libr>y4--,a fri5d br\ght me h] album1 reque/+ me to write 9 x4 ,i ?\ght pray]fully on ! subject1 & begg$ direction ( ! ,"l1 n kn[+ :o might look ^u x4 ,dur+ my sleep+ h\rs & ! foll[+ morn+1 ! subject ( ! la/ ,sabba?'s ,s]mon 7,psalm #a47 0 impress$ ^u my m9d ) su* =ce & sweetness1 & ,i felt x to be s suitable to my fri5d1 t ,i det]m9$ to ins]t x4 ,my he>t's desire is1 t x may be bless$ to all :o read x4--,z ,i pass$ ! ,c5t5>y ,*apel ?is ev5+1 a g5tleman ?us acco/$ me3 ',y don't "k me4' ,i answ]$1 ',no sir4' ,he rejo9$1 ',i sat 9 y\r pew ab\t n9e ye>s ago4 ,mr4 ,curnock prea*$ ab\t ,noah's ,ark2 & a ^w y spoke to me aft]w>d1 =cibly impress$ my m9d4 ,y said1 ',get into ! ,ark1' & n[ ,i h got into ! ,ark4' ,i _h no remembrance ( ! circum/ance1 b am ?ankful he has got 94 ,to ,god be all ! glory6--,sitt+ by ! fire ?is ev5+1 ,i fa9t$4 ,s graci\sly does my heav5ly ,fa!r deal ) me1 t he blesses & *a/5s me 9 love2 = ?is1 my he>t's desire is to praise ,him3 ,i ?ir/ = a deep] baptism1 & m intimate communion ) ,him4 ,,my ,,sixty-,,n9? ,,bir?day4 ,n[ ! ev5+ %ad[s l5g!n1 ,nature's feebl5ess appe>s2 ,e grace )9 me /r5g!n1 ,to su/a9 increas+ ye>s4 ,p]fect 9 me all ,?y pleasure1 ,:ile ,i soj\rn "h bel[2 ,e fruit1 9 ri*] measure1 ,?r\gh my dy+ ,"l be/[4 ,by ! ev5+ tra9 a family p>ty1 consi/+ ( ?irte5 ( u1 safely arriv$ 9 ,se>bro'4 ,five w5t to ! b&-meet+1 :i* 0 v ?9ly att5d$4 ,"o ( ! five spoke1 hav+ be5 upw>ds ( fifty ye>s a memb]4 ,i w5t to ,mr4 ,f4's class1 & ?\gh ,i c\ld n he> :at ! memb]s said1 ,i he>d ! lead]1 :o made "s v appropriate rem>ks4 ,:5 address+ me1 he relat$ an anecdote ( ,r[l& ,hill1 :o1 go+ to prea* at a village1 0 reque/$ to visit a good1 b poor half-witt$ man4 ,he w5t accord+ly1 & acco/$ poor ,ri*>d ) ! "q1 ',d y int5d to g to heav58' ',yes1' he repli$1 'don't y8' ',b heav5 is a long way (f1' said ,mr4 ,hill4 ',i don't ?9k s1' 0 ! reply4 ',!n :at d y ?9k8' ',i ?9k1' said ! man1 'x is only ?ree /eps4' ',well1 ,ri*>d1 :at are !y8' ',! fir/ /ep is out ( self2 ! second into ,*ri/2 & ! ?ird into ,glory4' ,s ,mr4 ,hill w5t back1 & told 8 fri5ds t he _h be5 to prea* to ,ri*>d1 b ,ri*>d _h prea*$ to him4--,i v5tur$ to speak to a fri5d1 :o sat beside me 9 ! ,*apel1 ab\t com+ to class4 ,to my surprise1 %e said %e _h = "s "t ?\ght ( speak+ to me on ! subject4 ,surely ?is 0 ! sugge/ion ( ! ,_s4 ,! ,cry/al ,palace has great attractions j n[6 ,i hope to see ! palace ( angels & ( ,god4--,qu>t]ly fa/4 ,x 0 good to be at ! pray]-meet+ 9 ! morn+2 bett] at noon2 be/ ( all at night4--,aft] a v re/less night1 my husb& rose v poorly & feeble4 ,i pray$ ) him be=e he got up1 & n[ ,i feel x good to pray = him4 ,ab\t noon he _h ano!r attack ( p>alysis1 :i* la/$ ab\t two h\rs1 & at tea "t he 0 seiz$ aga94 ,?r\gh m]cy1 he is bett]4 ,by look+ to ! ,rock t is high] ?an ,i1 my m9d has be5 su/a9$4 ,:ile kneel+ by ! b$side ( my afflict$ husb&1 ,i h be5 bless$1 & f\nd t z my day s has be5 my /r5g?4--,my husb& & daught] are bo? bett]2 ?anks be to ,god6 ,i _c b ackn[l$ge t ,he afflicts 9 love4--',because ,i live ye %all live also1' 0 a portion 9 "o ( my dreams ?is week4 ,i ?9k ( x ) pleasure1 & believe x w be s2 my he>t aspires aft] ?is inh]itance1 b n ) s mu* f]v\r z x ought4--,i purpose1 ,god will+1 to comm5ce ano!r aft]noon class next ,tuesday1 at ?ree o'clock1 = ! b5efit ( "s :o may f9d x m conv5i5t3 ,i tru/ x is ) ! approval ( ,god1 ^: bless+ ,i implore4--,! dy+ ye> has be5 m>k$ by _m bless+s to me & m9e2--mu* ne>ness to my heav5ly ,fa!r2 b x has also se5 _m w&]+s4 ,i h j n[ be5 endeav\r+ to surr5d] myself freely & fully unto ! ,"l1 ^: ,i am1 & :om ,i desire fai?fully to s]ve4 ,i seem surr\nd$ by ,8 pres5ce4 ,x is n[ elev5 o'clock2 b h[ _m w dep>t be=e twelve6 ,happy ev5t to ^? :o are prep>$1 hav+ built ^u ,*ri/6 ,"h re/s my hope3 ',o!r refuge h ,i none4' ,glory be to ,god on high6 #aheb4--;,al?\gh ,i h be5 suff]+ f cold1 ! ,"l deals v g5tly ) me4 ,o!rs ( my de> family are n[ "u ! rod4 ,^! ?+s are pa9ful2 b look+ at !m 9 ! light ( et]nity1 ,i f9d love is m+l$ ) !m all4 ,oh6 t f ^! disp5sations we may d]ive all ! good our heav5ly ,fa!r designs4 ,we _c believe ,he will+ly afflicts ! *ildr5 ( m51 especially ,8 own *ildr51 b = our own pr(it1 t we may be made 'p>tak]s ( ,8 hol9ess4' ,i am read+ ',angel ,james on ,*ri/ian ,*>ity4' ) pr(it4--,i am aga9 disappo9t$ ( meet+ ! ,"l's p4 ,?\gh ,i am bett] ?an ,i h be51 x is n deem$ prud5t = me to g out4 ,?is is tak+ up my cross1 b :e!r 9 ! "r way1 ,?\ kn[e/4 ,i want 9 e ?+ to d "r4--,:5 ,i rose ,i f\nd x 0 only five o'clock1 b resolv$ to give myself to pray]4 ,aft] breakfa/ ,i w5t to see my daught] ,m>y1 ^: husb& is v ill4 ,my s\l 0 bless$ 9 pray] ) him4 ,he reque/$ me to pray e>ne/ly4 ,"l1 help me to pray 9 fai?4 ,:ile endeav\r+ to d s ,i am ble/ 9 my own s\l4--,?is is a day ( tr\ble & rebuke4 ,my daught] ,eliza is v ill2 ,mr4 ,jackson is also worse2--! m$ical man giv+ little or no hope respect+ him4 ,9 su* cases1 h[ va9 is ! help ( man6 ,! feel+s ( my m9d are indescribable4 ,o ,"l1 und]take ,?\ = u4 ,i feel ,!e ne> to me1 be ne> to my de> family2 &1 :ile ?us ,?\ art *a/5+ u1 ,o sanctify ! rod4--,mr4 ,jackson has _h a v re/less night1 & is mu* weak]1 b q recollect$4 ,:ile ,i pray$1 he respond$4 ,i left him a little aft] elev52 & aft] call+ ^u ,eliza1 w5t to ! ,s*ool ( ,indu/ry4 ,betwe5 "o & two a mess5g] came = me to g to ,mr4 ,jackson's imm$iately2 b be=e ,i c\ld arrive1 ! lamp ( life 0 ext+ui%$4 ,he _h 'f\nd ! re/ we toil to f9d4'--,a week ( pa9ful ex]cise is pa/ away2 b ,i see n ! end4 ,?r\gh m]cy ,i c look to ,god1 & f9d refuge !re4 ,ye/]day :5 ,i awoke1 x 0 sweetly sugge/$1 ',because ,i live ye %all live also4' ,?is rais$ my droop+ _s2 & n[ ,i take my p5 to ackn[l$ge ! lov+-k9dness ( ,god1 manife/$ to u z a family2 ev5 "u ! mo/ pa9ful ev5ts1 m]cy is mix$ 9 ! cup4--,! la/ week--be=e ,i rea* my sev5tie? ye>4 ,life has pass$ away z a dream6 ,! pleas+ & ! pa9ful are bo? gone6 ,b f ! e>lie/ dawn ( recollection1 ! ,_s ( ,god has mov$ ^u my m9d4 ,mu* love1 & mu* pati5ce1 h be5 %[n to me by my heav5ly ,fa!r2 & n[1 :ile ! sun %9es )\t1 ,i feel ! *e]+ beams ( ! ,sun ( righte\sness ^u my s\l4 ,"t ha/5s me on2 ,x soon w be gone1 ,& ! t]m ( my /ay ,gr[s %ort] & %ort]1 z life we>s away4 ,"o ?+ ,i desire1 ,to ?is ,i aspire1 ,to live 9 ,8 w1 ,^: m]cy has sp>$ me1 & blesses me /ill4 ,no m]it ,i boa/2 ,9 ,him is my tru/4 ,:o gives me a place1 ,& a lot1 ) ,8 own1 ?r\gh ,8 inf9ite grace4 ,to-day ,i atta9$ ! t]m ( life allott$ to man4 ,rose a little be=e six1 & resolv$ to d$icate myself afre% to ,god4 ,wrote a few l9es1 read a little1 & p]=m$ my cu/om>y duties4 ,work$ till d9n]1 aft] :i* ,i visit$ ?ree poor wid[s1--reliev$1 & pray$ ) !m2 !n collect$ subscriptions to assi/ ,g4,b4 ,call$ on ,mrs4 ,w41 :o k9dly welcom$ me2 also ,mrs4 ,isaac1 ) :om ,i f\nd x good to engage 9 pray]4 ,w5t to ! pray]-meet+1 :]e ,i endeav\r$ to give myself unres]v$ly to ,god4 ,rema9$ to ! b&-meet+1 9 :i* ! p[] ( ,god 0 manife/ly reveal$4 ,?r\gh\t ! day ,i h enjoy$ a calm repose1 & a fix$ resolve to consecrate my s]vices1 s long z ,i am sp>$1 to ! ,"l4 ,h>rogate4--,return+ f ,*apel1 ,i obs]v$ a numb] ( g5tlem5 sitt+ "u a tree read+ newspap]s4 ,on ! spur ( ! mom5t1 ,i /epp$ up to !m1 & said1 ',g5tlem51 p]haps y _h bett] lay aside ! pap]s1 & read y\r bibles to-day4' ,"o answ]$ v r\ghly1 ',y g home & say y\r pray]s4' ,i turn$ away1 & he cont9u$ talk+ z long z ,i 0 )9 he>+4 ,:5 ,i got home my s\l 0 drawn out 9 pray] t ,god w\ld h m]cy ^u !m4--,?r\gh a cont9u$ ra9 ,i w5t to meet ! ,"l's p2 b s+ul> to relate1 ?\gh ,i wait$ t5 m9utes1 no "o came4 ,j z ,i 0 ab\t to return1 a /rang] came 9--desir\s ( flee+ f ! wra? to come4 ,we sp5t ! h\r 9 pray]4 ,my fri5d f\nd enc\ragem5t1 b n ! p[] ( fai?4 ,x 0 a "t to be rememb]$4 ,my he>t ye>n$ ov] h] :ile1 9 a l[ tone--m+l$ ) te>s--%e p\r$ out h] s\l be=e ! ,"l4 ,,old ,,age4 ,does no bright /> arise to *e] ,! ,pilgrim's d[nw>d way8 ,:5 age & feebl5ess appe>1 ,& wrapt 9 cl\d1 ! night draws ne>1 ,c n\ght enfeebl$ nature *e]1 ,& save x f dismay8 ,jesus1 ,?y promis'd aid is sure ,to all :o tru/ 9 ,!e2 ,?y /r5g? 9 weakness %all assure ,frail trembl+ nature1 & secure ,! grace 9 pati5ce to endure1 ,till dea? %all set me free4 ,dur+ ! la/ =tnight1 two p]sons--:om ,i h (t5 visit$ 9 =m] afflictions--h pass$ away4 ,n[--_! k f> surpasses m9e4 ,i am n at ! ,"l's h\se1 z my husb& desir$ me to rema9 at home ) him4 ,yet ',i h lov$ ! habitation ( ,?y h\se4' ,age br+s infirmity2 b ,i see a dang] ( yield+ too mu* to increas+ weakness4 ,"l1 save me f spiritual slo?4 ,:ile ,i write1 let inw>d religion be communicat$4 ,,xxi4 ,,! ,,wid[4 ,,%e ,,t ,,is ,a ,,wid[ ,,inde$ ,,tru/e? ,,9 ,,god2 ,,& ,,cont9ue? ,,9 ,,supplications1 ,,& ,,pray]s1 ,,night ,,& ,,day4--#a ,tim4 v4 #e4 ,h[ (t5 does x happ51 t :5 dea? fir/ ent]s a family circle1 & creates a brea*2 x is ! signal ( its spe$y dissolution6 "o falls1 !n ano!r1 & ano!r1 until ! c5tral po9t ( attraction is remov$2 & ! individuals :o are left1 are by ! =ce ( circum/ances1 ea* made to feel !mselves ! c5tre ( a new circle ( int]e/s1 :i* 9 "t w melt away z =m] ones h done4 ,! occurr5ce ( su* an ev5t is to ^? imm$iately conc]n$ a season ( solemn admonition4 ,! "q in/9ctively arises1 :o next w fall8 & ea* may put x to 8 own he>t1 ,"l1 is x ,i8 ,! dea? ( ,mr4 ,jackson 0 ! fir/ brea* 9 a family1 :i* by ,god's bless+ _h = _m ye>s enjoy$ a happy1 & undi/urb$ unity4 ,twelve mon?s _h j elaps$1 :5 ,mrs4 ,ly? 0 call$ to m\rn ! loss ( a husb&2 & we a fa!r1 ^: retir+ & uno/5tati\s wor?1 0 be/ kn[n )9 ! sacr$ prec9cts ( home4 ,_! union1 at fir/ ent]$ into 9 ! fe> ( ,god1 _h be5 ma9ta9$ ?r\gh ! *equ]$ sc5es ( life 9 un9t]rupt$ peace2 ye>s _h only m /rongly cem5t$ ! bonds1 by :i* !y 7 unit$1 & = ne>ly half a c5tury ! v[1 ,until dea? u d "p _h be5 annually r5ew$4 ,a ye> or two be=e dea? dissolv$ ! contract1 x 0 f\nd necess>y to pur*ase a new w$d+ r+2 & ! ag$ c\ple1 ) an affect+ simplicity1 solemnly repeat$ ! m>riage c]emony 9 tok5 ( _! un*ang$1 & unabat$ atta*m5t3 b ! h\r ( sep>ation 0 at h&4 #ahec4--;,dur+ ! la/ six weeks1 _m circum/ances h occurr$ = ! trial ( our fai? & pati5ce2 :i*1 ?r\gh grace1 ,i recognize z ! appo9tm5ts ( m]cy = my b5efit4 ,!y h l$ me to re/ m simply on ,*ri/ by fai?1 :i* 'is ! evid5ce ( ?+s n se51 & ! sub/ance ( ?+s hop$ =4' ,my s\l pants aft] ,god4 ,he is my c5tre1 my joy1 my cr[n4 ,nev]!less1 my own unpr(itabl5ess w\ld disc\rage me2 !re=e1 /ripp$ ( all1 ,i hang ^u ,jesus1 my ,savi\r & my all4--,our highly e/eem$ fri5d ,mr4 ,:itehead has pass$ f e>? to heav54 ,twelve days ago he call$ ^u u1 & conv]s$ & pray$ sweetly ) my husb&4 ,little did ,i ?9k x w\ld be 8 f>ewell visit4--,my husb& & myself are bo? invalids4 ,he has _h sev]al attacks ^u 8 *e/1 & mu* difficulty ( brea?+4 ,at ^! times h[ev]1 8 expressions ( confid5ce 9 ,god are unwav]+4 ,= myself1 ,i want no o!r refuge1 ,i only want m fai?4 ,i w\ld be all ! ,gospel requires2--will+ to live1 ready to die1 b oh6 ,i see mu* imp]fection4--,^! words are (t5 runn+ 9 my m9d1-- ',until he do? ! cl\d remove ,he only *a/5s :om he loves4' ,my de> husb& is increas+ly ill4 ,he told ! ,rev4 ,g]vase ,smi?1 :o call$ 9 to see him1 t fifty ye>s ago1 ^! words 7 bless$ to him1 ',by grace are ye sav$ ?r\gh fai?2 & t n ( y\rselves1 x is ! gift ( ,god4' ,mr4 ,b\rne visit$ u 9 our affliction4 ,my s\l truly rejoic$ 9 ! ,"l1 :ile ,8 s]vant spake ( ! ?+s ( ,god1 & pray$ ) u4 ,i am mu* com=t$ by my husb&'s /ate ( m9d4 ,al?\gh ?is is a pa9ful ordeal1 ?r\gh :i* ,i am pass+1 ,god is ) me1 & ,8 grace supports me4--,my husb& is no bett]4 ,:5 ,mr4 ,ea/wood inquir$ ! /ate ( 8 m9d1 he answ]$1 ',= ev] "h my re/ %all be4 ,close to ,?y ble$+ side2 ,?is all my hope1 & all my plea1 ,= me ! ,savi\r di$4' ,he ca/ ^u me an expressive look--,i ?\ght he want$ some?+1 & inquir$4 ,he repli$1 ',bless y1 bless y4'--,suff]$ mu* f oppression on ! *e/4 ,8 m$ical advis] promis$ to s5d him some?+1 :i* w\ld give him relief4 ,he seem$ v desir\s ( its arrival4 ,9 ! meantime1 we b[$ our knees to pres5t our case be=e ,god1 & to ask ,8 bless+ ^u ! expect$ rem$y2 :5 9 a few m9utes ! oppression1 9 a great measure1 ceas$4 ,?is 0 ! ,"l's do+1 & to ,him we he>tily ascribe ! praise4--,! m$ic9e cont9u$ ! relief4--,! ,"l wond]fully supports my feeble frame1 & ,i h increas+ p[] to claim ! promises made to ,8 p1 & by fai? discov] 9 !m a great] fulness ?an ev]4 ,my fri5d ,r4 in=ms me %e has se5 ,j4,h41 :o _h s5t to reque/ me to visit h]4 ,%e wi%$ to tell me ! ,"l _h bless$ h] s\l4 ,may %e be made fully meet = glory4--,my husb& /ill cont9ues v ill4 ,_h a di/ress+ night4 ,! enemy assault$ him4 ,my fai? seems to h no w+s4--,enabl$ to rise4--,i ask$ him if ,*ri/ 0 preci\s8 ,he repli$1 ',yes4' ,he is app>5tly ne> dea?4 ,hi!rto my m9d has be5 graci\sly support$ ?\gh sometimes pa9fully ex]cis$4 ,he ralli$ aga91 & slept calmly = a:ile4 ,aft] tea1 ! difficulty ( brea?+ return$4 ,! ,rev4 ,david ,hay came 91 & pray$ ) him2 also ,mr4 ,?ompson1 a little aft]4 ,x 0 evid5t ! h& ( dea? 0 ^u him4 ,he c\ld sc>cely be> u to speak4 ,once he said ',m>y'--p]fectly recollect$4 ,mr4 ,hill ask$ him1 ',is ,*ri/ preci\s8' to :i* he repli$ 9 ! affirmative1 & %ortly aft] inquir$1 ',:at o'clock is x8' ,! answ] 0 giv5 ',ab\t t52' & at elev5 ! 'we>y :eels ( life /ood /ill1' & my belov$ husb& left me to m\rn 8 abs5ce4 ,i sorr[1 b n )\t hope2 & he> a :isp] 9 my he>t1 ',?y ,mak] is ?y husb&1 ! ,"l ( ,ho/s is ,8 "n4' ,my m9d is com=t$2 my resolutions are quick5$2 b my s5se ( abasem5t is great1 at ! little improvem5t ,i h made ( su* l5g!n$ privileges4 ',ent] n into judgm5t ) ,?y s]vant1 ,o ,"l4' ,h] feel+s "u ?is pa9ful b]eavem5t 7 deep1--too deep = expression2 b %e ma9ta9$ "u x a calm _s ( resignation1 :i* "s might h mi/ak5 = indiff]5ce4 ,! writ] sees h] yet1 z %e /ood = "s m9utes1 pale & motionless1 lean+ on ! side ( ! c(f91 j be=e x 0 clos$2 & gaz+ 9 ! face ( ! dead4 ,!re 0 no te>2 %e did n ev5 impr9t a kiss on ! inanimate clay1 = x 0 b ! image ( him :om %e _h lov$4 ,h] ?\ghts 7 9 heav54 ,at l5g? /rok+ ! face1 n[ ins5sible to h] t\*1 %e said1 ,poor ,john1 ,i %all soon meet y aga94 ,my de> ,john 0 consign$ to 8 b$ ( du/1 to wait until ! resurrection morn4 ,mr4 ,b\rne came home ) u4 ,8 conv]sation help$ to *e] ! gloom ( p>t+ = a little season4 ,my m9d 0 consol$ ) ! joyful hope ( be+ guid$ ?r\gh ! wild]ness by ,him1 :o s condesc5ds to a worm ( e>? z to say1 ',?y ,mak] is ?y ,husb&4' ,amaz+ love6 ,i 0 aga9 p]mitt$ to tread ! c\rts ( ! ,"l's h\se4 ,visit$ ,j4,h4 9 ! aft]noon1 & spoke pla9ly to h] husb&4--,met ! de> p1 b 0 f> f be+ satisfi$ ) myself4 ,i want a /rong] fai?1 & m ard5t love to ! s\ls ( ^? :o are committ$ to my c>e4 ,my preci\s husb& has n[ be5 f\rte5 days 9 ! et]nal _w4 ,& c ,i wi% him back1 ,aga9 to suff] "h8 ,no6 foll[+ on ! track1 ,i ha/e to meet him !re4 ,my s\l goes out aft] ,!e1 ,o ,god4 ,?\ art my treasure 9 ?is vale ( te>s--my fri5d1 my husb&1 my ,god1 & my all4--,able to meet bo? my classes1 & felt en]gy ( _s :ile urg+ on ! memb]s ! necessity ( keep+ up communion ) ,god2 ,i reque/$ !m to give a qu>t] ( an h\r e day1 to pray = ! prosp]ity ( _! class1 & ( _! own s\ls4 ,9 ! midnight ( my grief1 ,up to ,!e1 ,i lift my eye2 ,grant1 ,o grant me sweet relief1 ,let me feel ,?y pres5ce nigh2 ,no?+ else c succ\r br+1 ,"h alone ,i re/ my hope2 ,to ,?y ble$+ cross ,i cl+1 ,lift ! droop+ s9n] up4 ,i *ang$ my resid5ce = "o 9 ,/4 ,savi\rgate1 ne> ! h\se ( ,god2 = ?is ,i desire to be ?ankful1 & to d$icate myself to ! ,"l2 hav+ s9c]ely s\ght ,8 c\nsel & direction1 ,i feel satisfi$4 ,eas+wold4 ,we 7 mu* l$ out 9 pray]1 t ! ,"l w\ld ?is day br+ "s "o to seek ,him4 ,9 ! ev5+ ?ree p]sons came 91 "o evid5tly desir\s ( salvation2 may ?is enc\rage ! ef=ts ( ?y h&maid to seek ! b5efit ( ! p 9 ?is place4--,i feel mu* ! abs5ce ( my de> dep>t$ husb&4 ,8 memory is de>4 ,o ,"l1 help me to quick5 my /eps to meet him 9 heav54 ,my body is trembl+ & feeble2 b my s\l is vigor\s4 ,i h to-day resign$ my (fice ( ,treasur] to ! ,clo?+ ,society1 :i* ,i h held ne>ly sixte5 ye>s4--,six mon?s s9ce my husb& ent]$ into re/4 ,he is daily 9 my ?\ghts2 b ,i see him n4 ,i d n wi% him back aga92 a little "t w br+ me to him1 & ,i %all be z le>n$ z he4 ,"t ha/5s on6--,at t5 o'clock ,mr4 ,c4 *ang$ worlds4 ,solemn h\r6 ,all ! morn+1 ,i "k n :y1 he 0 /rongly impress$ ^u my m9d4--,i am alone1 all is /ill1 my s\l feels aft] ,god4 ,?is day fe$ me ) ! ri*es ( ,?y grace1 t ,i may abide 9 ,!e1 brea! ,?y ,_s1 live 9 ,?y smile1 &1 l ,apollos1 be 'approv$ 9 ,*ri/4' #ahed4--;,i w\ld "h gratefully record ! m]cy ( ,god to me4 ,i h be5 br\ght l[--v l[1 b ! ,"l help$ me4 ,i felt no condemnation1 yet b little s5sible com=t4 ,_m promises 7 con/antly pass+ ?r\gh my m9d4 ,?us ! ,"l has be5 lead+ me by a pa? ,i _h n kn[n4--,i h n be5 to ! ,sanctu>y yet1 nor w\ld ,i re/ 9 ! means2 b ,i want a cle>] manife/ation4 ,i see ! scriptures hold =? m ?an ,i possess2 ,i want to be clos] knit to ,jesus1 t ,i may br+ =? fruit4 ,h decl9$ ! presid5cy ( ! sew+ meet+4 ,on ?is resignation a lett]1 num]\sly sign$ by ! ladies compos+ ! meet+1 0 s5t to h]1 ackn[l$g+ h] s]vices1 & regrett+ t increas+ age & infirmities _h r5d]$ x necess>y4 ,?is docum5t is n =?com+1 b ! foll[+ is h] own reply4 ,,my ,,de> ,,mrs4 ,,holgate1--,i sit d[n to ackn[l$ge ) gratitude ! k9d note y pres5t$ me )1 sign$ by s _m k9d fri5ds1 9 ackn[l$gm5t ( my poor s]vices 9 a cause :i* lies ne> my he>t4 ,?ankful ,i am1 t f a small beg9n+ 9 our p>l\r1 ab\t sev5te5 ye>s ago1 ?is ef=t = ! glori\s cause ( missions has fl\ri%$ to ?is day2 & t n[ s _m he>ts & h&s are engag$ 9 its op]ations & success4 ,i /ill feel int]e/$ 9 its prosp]ity1 & if ,i h "o desire above ! re/1 x is t e "o :o assi/s 9 ?is good "w may n only h h] h&s employ$ 9 x1 b h] he>t enri*$ by ! bless$ gospel %e wi%es to s5d to hea!n l&s1 & t e ef=t may h ,god's approv+ smile4 ,i am1 c4 ,i ?9k ,i nev] felt m free to leave ! _w ?an n[2 & yet q will+ to wait ! ,"l's "t1 t ,i may be fully prep>$4 ,acomb4 ,mrs4 ,r4 took me to see "s sick p]sons1 also "s wayside he>]s2 'b :o is suffici5t = ^! ?+s8' ,speak ,"l1 & let !m he> ,?y voice6--,at ! pray]-meet+ aft] ! s]vice1 a backslid] 0 re/or$ to ! fav\r ( ,god2 ,i 0 knelt by h] side1 & a holy calm p]vad$ my he>t1 :5 sudd5ly my s\l1 z by an electric %ock1 0 fill$ ) confid5ce 9 ! will+ness & p[] ( ,god to save4--,w5t to see "s ( my abs5t memb]s2 & pass+ by ,mrs4 ,o4's1 ^: husb& di$ ab\t a =tnight s9ce1 ,i call$ to inquire aft] h]1 & to my surprise & grief1 f\nd h] 9 dy+ circum/ances4 ,%e di$ ! same ev5+4 ,i fe> = h]2 yet %e us$ to weep1 & = a "t seem$ 9 e>ne/4 ,h visit$ h] _m times 9 h] afflictions4--,call+ 9 at a neighb\r's %op = a trifl+ article1 ,i le>n$ t ! daught] 0 depress$ 9 m9d2 ,i felt a desire to see h]1 & ask$ p]mission1 :i* 0 grant$4 ,aft] say+ :at 0 giv5 me1 ,i pray$ ) h]1 feel+ sweetly assi/$3 :5 we arose f our knees %e unbur!n$ h] m9d1 & told me %e _h 'griev$ ! ,_s' & n[1 n feel+ ,8 /riv+s1 %e _h ceas$ to pray1 & _h giv51 up all4 ,o t ! ,"l may br+ h] out ( ?is sn>e ( ! devil6 ,h>k1 h[ !y /rike _! h>ps ( gold ,9 yond] _w above6 ,i wond] :at its sc5es unfold1-- ,= n a ?\s&? "p is told1 ,( ^? bright l&s ( love1 ,n long-ere wond] %all expire1 ,9 sweet fruition lo/2 ,my _s1 borne on w+s ( fire1 ,%all m\nt1 & revel1 & admire1 ,) all ! heav5ly ho/4 #ahee4--;,a lett] rea*$ u f my belov$ ,ri*>d1 br++ tid+s ( heal?1 bo? ( body & s\l1 & ( 8 int5d$ removal to ,auckl&2 b hold+ out little prospect ( 8 return to ,engl&1 by ! words 'if ev]4' ,?us is long *]i%$ hope cut (f1 :5 ,i ?\ght x ab\t to be realiz$4 ,ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ?is ye> %e _h a sev]e attack ( bron*itis1 & all hope ( h] recov]y seem$ cut (f4 ,al?\gh able to say little1 %e ma9ta9$ a calm & settl$ confid5ce 9 ,god1 & 0 evid5tly long+ aft] home4 ,! morn+ aft] ! crisis 0 pa/1 ! doctor said to h]1 ',well1 ,mrs4 ,ly?1 ,i h "s hope ( y4' ,%e repli$1 ',s h ,i1 b x is ! o!r way4' ,aft] a sudd5 & sev]e attack ( affliction1 ,i w\ld mo/ gratefully ackn[l$ge ! m]ciful c>e ( my heav5ly ,fa!r1 :o has n left me1 b com=t$ me by ,8 ^w & ,_s4 ,my fri5ds also h n =gott5 me2 ,i h e com=t dur+ ?is inclem5t season4 ,! e>? is cov]$ ) sn[1 ! cold pi]c+1 & ! day gloomy2 b m]cy folds me 9 on e side1 & my _s re/s on ,jesus1 my aton+ ,savi\r4 ,:ile ,i write1 my he>t w>ms & k9dles at ,8 love4--,i am left alone ?is eighte5? ( ,febru>y1 :i*1 =ty-five ye>s ago1 0 s important4 ,well1 x is writt51 ',?y ,mak] is ?y husb&1 ! ,"l ( ho/s is ,8 "n4' & to ,him w ,i plight my v[s4 ,alone1 on my knees1 ,i aga9 surr5d] to ,!e my poor he>t1 & aga9 take ! pl$ge ( ,?y love4 ,f ?is "t =? may ,i sw]ve f ,!e no m1 b walk my few rema9+ days ) ,!e2 hav+ ! te/imony t ,eno* _h1 t ,i please ,god4 ,& n[ ,i am ,?9e by solemn ties1 9 ! solemn sil5ce ( ,?y pres5ce1 all praise be unto ,!e1 :o do/ ?us condesc5d to ,?y du/4--,h j return$ f a drive4 ,! air is v sweet1 & nature puts =? h] lovel9ess4 ,my s\l 0 l$ out to ,him :o has prep>$ great] ?+s ?an ^! = ^? t love ,him4 ,my _s is reviv$4 ',bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l4'--,rid+ out ye/]day1 ,i call$ to see my de> fri5d ,isaac1 :o1 l myself1 is wait+ until h] *ange come2--a t\*+ little int]view4 ,%e told me :ile %e 0 pray+ = me 9 my affliction1 x 0 impress$ ^u h] m9d1 ',my p[] is unlimit$4' ,o may x be ex]t$ 9 my full prep>ation = et]nal glory1 to meet my de> fri5d !re4 ,i sometimes get transi5t glimpses ( x4 ,i feel myself a helpless worm1 b ! "n ( ,jesus is sweet4 ,!re is none ,i desire 9 comp>ison ( ,him4 ,?\gh ,i _c get out ,i am able to read1 & ! ^w ( tru? is my con/ant companion4--,a beautiful day3 ! sun %9es 9 spl5d\r1 b s9 spoils all ! beauty4 ,:ile my eyes are *e]$ ) :at ,i see1 my he>t is sadd5$ ) :at ,i he>4 ,"o has fall5 into s91--"o ,i h highly e/eem$ 9 "t pa/4 ,:at ne$ to put on '! :ole arm\r ( ,god1' & wat*6--,i felt m vigor\s 9 my classes to-day1 & spoke v pla9ly1 = ,i feel a great love = ^! s\ls4 ,?\ art1 ,o ,god1 ! life & light ,( all ?is wondr\s _w we see2 ,its gl[ by day1 its smile by night1 ,are b reflections caught f ,!e2 ,:]e'er we turn ,?y glories %9e1 ,& all ?+s fair & bright are ,?9e4 ,i feel decay+ nature2 b my s\l does n lose its appetite = div9e ?+s4 ,9 ! mid/ ( =getfulness1 & o!r infirmities1 my only c5tre is 9 ,*ri/4--,z ! day 0 f9e1 ,i walk$ to ,hewor? 9 se>* ( an abs5t memb]1 & aft] _m inquiries1 f\nd out h] abode2 b %e 0 n at home4 ,i got "s important in=mation ab\t h]4 ,my walk 0 a mo/ impressive "o1--on a lovely road1 on ei!r side ov]hung ) foliage--b1 be+ autumn1 ! way 0 /rew$ ) )]$ leaves1 :ile e breeze1 ?\gh s(t1 waft$ o!rs to ! gr\nd 9 %[]s2--fit emblem ( my own decay6 ,i 0 mu* we>i$4--,! ,rev4 ,rob]t ,"y1 :o has rec5tly be5 on a deputation to ! ,s\? ,sea ,missions1 select$ ,fiji z ! topic ( 8 spee* at ! ,mission>y ,meet+1 & gave a v *e]+ acc\nt ( my ,ri*>d1 9 ! mid/ ( cannibalism4 ,i w5t into ! ve/ry to speak ) him2 b 0 ov]:elm$ ) my feel+s4 ,h be5 laid aside by affliction2 b ! ,"l has be5 intimately ne>4 ,my fai? has be5 /r5g!n$1 & ,i cl+ m closely to my be/ ,fri5d4 ,_m bless$ promises h be5 br\ght to remembrance1 :i* h *e]$ me1 & creat$ sweet peace4--,my fai? wants to borr[ ! p9ions ( ! eagle4 ,"l help me1 ,i am ,?9e2 ,i d>e tru/ 9 ,!e2 unpr(itable z ,i am1 ,?\ art my ,god4--,my ?\ght be=e ,i rose ?is morn+ 03-- ,d[n life's declivity1 ,borne by ! surge1 ,on to et]nity1 ,swiftly ,i urge2 ,n )\t *e]+ hope1 ,:5 ,i am gone1 ,jesus w be> me up1 ,/raight to ,8 ?rone4 #ahef4--;,a few l9es writt5 at ! comm5cem5t ( ?is ye>1 conta9 ! foll[+ ref]5ce to a circum/ance1 :i*1 trivial z x 0 9 itself1 _h ne>ly occasion$ ! loss ( h] sight4 ,"t ru%es on6 ,ano!r sc5e appe>s6 ,9 spr+tide ?\ght1 ,i /ood ^u ! he>?2 ,:5 9 a mom5t1 f ! crackl+ flame ,a piece ( burn+ ore flew 9 my eye1 ,& sudd5ly eclips$ ! light ( day4 ,b ,he :o op5$ bl9d m5's eyes ( old1 ,re/or$ my sight4 99 99 99 99 ,i am s5sible ( ! want ( gratitude = ! sight ,i h2 ?\gh x is b imp]fect1 ,i c1 by close att5tion1 read my ,bible1 :i* at fir/ 0 all ,i desir$4--,visit$ two ( my memb]s1 ea* ( :om has _h a fit1 "o be+ depriv$ ( ! left h&1 & ! o!r ( ! "r2--humbl+ cause ( gratitude t ,i c use m9e4 ,y\? ) all its hopes is pa/1 ,& middle life-) c>e2 ,n[1 9 feeble age1 ,i ca/ ,my all on ,god by pray]4 ,exil$ yet a little :ile1 ,b guid$ by ,8 eye2 ,happy ,i live b5ea? ,8 smile1 ,& happi] /ill--%all die4 ,my m$itations ?is morn+ h be5 sweet1 on ! words1 ',?\ %alt also be a cr[n ( glory 9 ! h& ( ! ,"l1 & a royal diadem 9 ! h& ( ?y ,god4' ,i _c increase ,god's glory2 b ,i--a worm--9 ! h& ( my ,god1 become cr[n$ ) glory4--,my niece ,c>ol9e has dep>t$ ?is life4 ,9 a lucid mom5t1 "o ask$1 if ,*ri/ 0 preci\s2 %e answ]$1 ',yes' ,x 0 add$1 ',j su* a ,savi\r z y ne$8' ',exactly1' 0 ! reply4--,i h giv5 up my own h\se1 & remov$ to my daught] ,eliza's hop+ ! bless+ ( ! ,"l w att5d ! *ange4 ,my m9d has1 beyond my expectation1 be5 pres]v$ 9 peace4--,came ) my daught] to ,haxby1 = ! b5efit ( a *ange4 ,o t ,?\ w\ld/ bless my com+ to "o s\l6--,call$ ^u ,mrs4 ,s41 & 0 glad to f9d h] desir\s ( kn[+ ! tru?1 z also h] daught]4 ,i feel peculi>ly drawn out 9 pray]1 on behalf ( ! inhabitants ( ?is village4 ,oh6 t a glori\s revival may break out "h4--,! means ( grace are n s pl5tiful 9 ,haxby z 9 ! city2 b "h ,i enjoy ! quiet ( retirem5t1 & brea! a pur] atmosph]e4 ,(t5 ! ,_s wafts me on to ! bett] l&1 & ,i contemplate ) pleasure my ev]la/+ home4 ,:o c tell :at %all be on ! morr[8 ,b a few weeks elaps$ aft] ?is visit to ,haxby1 :5 h] daught] ,eliza1 ^: lov+ & g5tle _s ende>$ h] to all :o knew h]1 0 tak5 away at a /roke4 ,on ! day on :i* ! foll[+ entry is dat$1 %e _h exhibit$ an unusual degree ( vivacity2 & ) great confid5ce borne te/imony 9 ! class to ! p[] ( ! grace ( ,god4 ,a goodly numb] at ! class4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,eliza read to ,mrs4 ,c4 & myself ! int]e/+ adieu ( ! ,fr5* ,prote/ant ,m9i/]1 ,adolphe ,monod1 introduc$ into ! ,novemb] numb] ( ! ,me?odi/ ,magaz9e = #ahef4 ,we sat d[n to supp]1 & m\rnful to relate6 %e 0 seiz$ ) a fit ( apoplexy1 :i* la/$ until ne>ly ?ree 9 ! morn+1 :5 h] _s calmly took its flight4 ,h[ ne$ful to be ready6--,my de> daught] 0 c>ri$ to ! cemet]y1 !re to re/ until ! resurrection morn4 ,:ile pass+ ?r\gh ?is pa9ful disp5sation1 ,i h enjoy$ ! sweet consolations ( ! ,_s ( ,god1 & be5 able to recognize m]cy m+l$ ) judgm5t4 ,! same ev5+ my ,eliza pass$ into ! skies1 my son ,william 0 appo9t$ to meet a few ( ! ,"l's p4--,! ye> heaves its la/ sigh1 z ,i review ! way 9 :i* ,god has l$ me4 ,v pa9ful ev5ts h occurr$4 ,sc5es pleasant1 & sad1 h pass$ be=e me2 b ar\nd1 & ov] all1 m]cy has spread a cl\d ( light2 & "h w ,i raise my he>t1 & say1 ',hi!rto ! ,"l ha? help$ me4' ,,xxii4 ,,! ,,lights ,,& ,,%ad[s ,,( ,,ev5+4 ,,! ,,day ,,goe? ,,away1 ,,= ,,! ,,%ad[s ,,( ,,ev5+ ,,are ,,/ret*$ ,,=?4--,j]4 vi4 #d4 ,h y ev] obs]v$ ! effect produc$ ^u ! eye by ! rapid decrease ( light1 :i* takes place z night draws on1 dur+ t season ( ! ye> 9 :i* ! twilight is %orte/8 ,= "s m9utes !re appe>s a rapid succession ( light & %ade1 ea* succe$+ %ad[ deep5+ 9 gloom1 until ! night sets 94 ,?is ph5om5on arises f ! necessity :i* ! pupil ( ! eye f9ds ( adapt+ itself to ! dim9ution ( light2 & x has h>dly done s1 be=e ! increas+ d>kness requires a /ill fur!r expansion ( ! visual ap]ture4 ,j s 9 human life1 :5 its brightness has dep>t$1 & ! night is at h&2 !re is (t5 a rapid succession ( pa9ful occurr5ces1 :i* fall l %ad[s ^u ! s\l1 & x has cont9ually to adapt itself to its alt]$ circum/ances4 ,! eye ( fai? c sc>ce keep pace ) ! dem&s made ^u x1 & ! effect is a s5se ( occasional depression1 :i* ev5 ! ,*ri/ian _c altoge!r resi/4 ,9 ! la/ two or ?ree ye>s ( h] life1 ,mrs4 ,ly? exp]i5c$ :at x 0 to be 9 heav9ess ?r\gh manifold temptations2 & al?\gh %e wore ! same happy smile1 exhibit$ ! same unwav]+1 & ev5 triumphant confid5ce 9 ,god1 & to all ar\nd h]1 x 0 evid5t %e 0 fa/ rip5+ = h] glori\s rew>d2 h] di>y %[s t %e 01 9 "s ( h] solit>y h\rs1 subject to mom5t>y depression2 :i*1 z %e made no all[ance = alt]$ circum/ances1 & increas+ infirmities1 %e 0 9 dang] ( attribut+ to a wrong cause4 ,x 0 n until aft] ! dea? ( h] husb& t !re 0 any p]ceptible decl9e ( h] physical en]gies2 ! sn[ ( age fell lightly1 s t %e /ill cont9u$ = "s "t to dis*>ge h] accu/om$ duties 9 ! *ur*1 until increas+ weakness compell$ h] to rel9qui%1 "o by "o1 h] visit+ di/rict = ! ,b5evol5t ,society2 h] collect+ books = v>i\s ,in/itutions2 ! ,visitation ( ! s*ool2 ! ,treasur]%ip ( ! ,poor ,clo?+ ,society2 ! ,presid5cy ( ! ,sew+ meet+2 & la/1 & to h] ! mo/ pa9ful ( all--h] ,class2 = l h] ,"l1 hav+ lov$ h] own1 :i* 7 9 ! _w1 %e lov$ !m to ! end4 ,?is unavoidable cessation f h] m abundant lab\rs1 & ! life ( passive suff]+ %e 0 n[ call$ to endure1 p]haps m ?an any?+ else1 0 sometimes a s\rce ( pa9ful reflection1 & became an occasion ( p[]ful temptation4 ,%e c\ld n1 h[ev]1 be inactive2 mu* ( h] "t pass$ 9 read+ & pray]4 ,h] p5 & h] knitt+-ne$le 7 9 con/ant requisition1 & a f9e day1 or a little r5ewal ( /r5g?1 (t5 induc$ h]1 at ! p]il ( h] own heal?1 to visit an unconv]t$ neighb\r1 or an afflict$ fri5d4 ,! sudd5 removal ( h] daught] 0 acutely felt1 & elicit$ sev]al ef=ts ( h] muse1 two ( :i* are "h giv54 #aheg4--;,gone6 gone6 gone6 ,! empty *air ,i see1 ,b ah6 no smile1 z once1 alights on me4 ,9 :at bright region do? ?y _s re/8 ,s9ce all are liv+1 ?\ art surely ble/4 ,i ask no m1 ! veil w soon remove1 ,& ,i %all come to dwell ) !e above4 ,j be=e ,i awoke1 ,i dream$ ,i 0 read+2 & x 0 writt51 ',he w receive !e to ,himself1 & give unto !e a k+dom4' ,x 0 repeat$ ?rice4 ,,lone ,,mus+4 ,do? h] _s hov] ne>6 ,do? %e ev] wat* o'er me8 ,am ,i /ill to h] z de> ,z :5 9 fle% %e c>$ = me8 ,if %e n[1 ) wi/ful eyes1 ,/rives1 unse51 to draw me high]2 ,let me wisdom d\bly prize1 ,m & m to heav5 aspire4 ,lo6 ! ,_s & ! ,bride ,lov+ly invite me on1-- ,seek my w&]+ he>t to guide ,to ! ,fa!r1 ?r\gh ! ,son4 ,i w answ] to ! call2 ,?\ my portion1 ,i ,?y *ild2 ,"h 9 self-abasem5t fall1 ,tru/+ 9 ,?y m]cy mild4 ,i am glad to he> t 9 ,haxby ! ,"l has be5 giv+ '%[]s ( bless+4' ,mr4 ,mc,owan has giv5 tw5ty-n9e notes on trial4 ,i am ! ,"l's prison]2 look+ up1 yet ,i feel my lonely position4--,x 0 sugge/$1 ',i am ?y salvation4' ,i paus$ & ask$1 f :at8 ,f ! _w1 s91 self1 & ?y deadly foes4 ',i am ?y salvation1' f all ?y inw>d evils2 pride1 unbelief1 love ( ! creature1 f e ?+ contr>y to love4 ,?is salvation is all m9e1 ?r\gh ,*ri/1 by fai?4--,rose a little aft] six2 v feeble2 ne>ly read ?r\gh ! book ( ,ezra1 & saw h[ ,god helps ! good 9 times ( difficulty4 ,i feel depress$3 ,"l1 help me6--,i rode to ! ,cemet]y to see ! spot :]e my ,eliza lies4 ,well1 a little :ile1 & ,i hope to jo9 h] among ! spirits ( ! j made p]fect4 ,i proce$$ f !nce to my bro!r's 9 ,dove ,/reet4--,h be5 a week 9 ,dove ,/reet4 ,?r\gh m]cy ,i h be5 able to rise e morn+ at six2 & :ile read+ ,dr4 ,cl>ke's ,!ology1 my spiritual /r5g? has be51 r5ew$4 ,i h enjoy$ _m bless+s f ! ,"l1 & my "t has pass$ pleasantly1 b my poor bro!r is v1 v infirm4 ,i h call$ on sev]al fri5ds 9 ! /reet1 & _h ! opportunity ( pray+ 9 two families4--,latt]ly1 dur+ ! night season1 ! enemy has afflict$ my m9d ) pa9ful temptations2 b ,i am n left to myself1 ! ,"l is my help]4--,to-day ,i 0 mu* drawn out 9 pray] = "o ( my gr&sons4 ,surely ! ,_s mov$ me4 ,aft] tea1 f\r ( my gr&sons1 & my daught]1 b[$ ) me be=e ! ,"l4 ,x 0 a "t to be rememb]$4 ,! ,"l drew ne>1 & ,i 0 melt$ d[n be=e ,him4--,weak yet pursu+4 ,my daught] ,m>y unexpect$ly read to me ! words1 ',lo6 ,i am ) y alway ev5 to ! end ( ! _w4' ,! tru? ?rill$ ?r\gh my he>t1 z a fla% ( lightn+4--,sweet peace4 ,?is ev5+ a /rang]1 br\ght by ,e4,f41 came to conv]se on spiritual subjects4 ,we pray$ toge!r1 & ! ,"l drew ne>4--,alone2 b graci\sly mov$ by my heav5ly ,fa!r to p\r out my s\l 9 pray]2 ,i enjoy$ sweet access by ! ,holy ,_s1 on behalf ( _m de> ones4 ,glory be to ,god1 t to a worm ,he manife/s ,8 pres5ce1 & reveals ,8 love4 ,m>y _h a note f ,ri*>d1 in=m+ u ( a *ange ( purpose respect+ 8 return to ,engl&4 ,well2 if !y commit _! way unto ! ,"l1 !y w n err f>4 ,?is %all be my pray] = !m1 :ile /r5g? is cont9u$4--,awoke by a fit ( c\gh+1 ,i he>d z if a voice spoke to me1 ',union ) ,jesus gives ! p[] ( pati5ce4' ,i feel x4--,met ! ,"l's p 9 great weakness1 b ) great long+ = _! spiritual heal?4 ,miss ,r4 read me a lett] f ,miss ,k41 in=m+ h] ( ! happy *ange1 :i* _h tak5 place 9 h] m9d4 ,my s\l rejoic$ to he> ! news1 p>ticul>ly z %e _h be5 = "s "t laid ^u my m9d :5ev] ,i approa*$ ! ?rone ( grace4 #aheh4--,my ,john sp5t a few days ) u4 ,i h enjoy$ 8 company m ?an ev] be=e2 p]haps ,i pray$ m1 t x might be s4 ,i ?9k ,i feel m deeply ! hall[+ influ5ce ( pray]4 ,my s\l fe$s on ,jesus4 ,glory be to ,god = a ,savi\r4 ,:ile midnight %ad[s bl5d$1 ,& nature seem'd to sleep1 ,me1 angel wat*]s t5d$1 ,:o always vigil keep2 ,i felt !m hov'r+ o'er me1 ,?\gh hidd5 f my view2 ,a veil 0 spread be=e me1 ,b is ! ?\ght less true8 ,wat*'d by ^! heav5ly /rang]s1 ',:o all my pa?s att5d1' ,& (t f foes & dang]s1 ,my progress w\ld def5d2 ,o give me circumspection ,to gu>d aga9/ ! foe1 ,!n1 sure ( _! protection1 ,i on to conque/ g4 ,only n9e pres5t at ! class4 ,i spoke to !m1 b felt ! effect ^u my feeble body = two days aft]w>d2 yet x 0 good to talk to !m ( ! love ( ,jesus4--,i h be5 ex]cis$ by ! common foe2 depress$ 9 feel+1 b nev] left )\t ! p[] to draw ne> to ,god 9 pray]4 ,?ank ,god1 = "s days pa/ my _s has be5 reviv$2 & ?is morn+ my he>t is tru/+ 9 ! ,"l1 ,glori\s news f ,am]ica6 ,! ,"l is sav+ by ?\s&s4 ,o t ! brea? ( heav5 may rea* our own %ores6 ,o "t h[ preci\s ,i :at a load misus$6 ,to cat* its flight is wise2 to wa/e or loit]1 folly4 ,read]1 & writ]1 m>k6 ,?y "t escapes3 ,to give x n[ a "n is gold51 ga94 ,oh6 ) true wisdom pr9t ?y pass+ h\rs1 ,s %all et]nity proclaim ?y fame4 ,my two sons1 ,william & ,john1 set =? to welcome _! bro!r ,ri*>d1 j return$ by ! %ip ',duncan ,dunb>'--aft] an abs5ce ( m ?an tw5ty-"o ye>s--) a family ( six *ildr5--a graci\s provid5ce hav+ wat*$ ov] him2 & n[ ! happy bro!rhood w1 ,i tru/1 be p]petuat$1 until consummat$ 9 heav54--,my son ,ri*>d1 ) 8 lovely wife & family1 h arriv$4--,i am n[ sev5ty-six ye>s old4 ,h[ mu* cause ( humiliation6 ,h[ mu* cause ( gratitude6 ,"h ^u my knees ,i give myself to ,!e2 ,i am ,?9e4 ,let ,?y pres5ce be communicat$ ) fre% p[] to my s\l4 ,i d ?ank ,!e = peace1 & a full b5t to please ,!e4--,my son ,ri*>d conduct$ me to my new resid5ce on ,hewor? ,road4 ,(t5 h ,i *ang$ my abode1 suppos+ ea* w\ld be ! la/ remove3 yet ,i t>ry4 ,all ,i want is to move "u ! smile ( my heav5ly ,fa!r1 & to feel myself "u 8 guid+ eye4--,poorly4 ,inw>d conflicts4 ,w5t to see a p]son1 :o 0 once a memb] ( my class2 %e is /ill 9 ! way to heav54 ,we pray$ toge!r4 ,"h1 at ! ?rone ( grace1 ,i f9d myself at home4 ,i 0 at my class1 p]haps = ! la/ "t4 ,god bless ! de> memb]s4 ,grav5 on ! h& div9e1 ,bid me on ,?y /r5g? lay hold1 ,look1 believe1 = ,?\ art m9e2 ,jesus makes me humbly bold4 ,?\gh ,?y c\rts ,i may n tread1 ,?\ art 9 my m\?1 & he>t2 ,9 ,?y holy book ,i read1 ,god 9 e place ,?\ art4 ,) m love inflame my s\l1 ,) m f]v5t zeal inspire2-- ,fai?1 t c all p[] control1 ,fill ! grasp ( my desire4 ,let ,?y ^w ( m]cy spread ,freely1 all ! village r\nd3 ,speak to-day1 & wake ! dead1 ,let ! lo/ 9 ,!e be f\nd4 ,my fri5ds are gone to ! ,sanctu>y4 ,look+ at myself 9 ! light ( ! div9e pres5ce1 ,i see imp]fection /amp$ ^u all my do+s2 & yet1 ?r\gh m]cy1 ,i h an int]e/ 9 ! preci\s blood ( atonem5t1 & long t all ar\nd me may enjoy ! same salvation4 ,:ile n[ my p5 moves ^u ! pap]1 move ,?\ ^u ! he>ts ( ! p1 :o h long be5 fav\r$ ) he>+ ! voice ( ,?y m9i/]s4 ,ar\se ! c>eless2 /ir up ,?y p2 & ?is day p\r out ,?y ,_s ^u u all2 & n[1 :ile alone2 help my infirmities2 visit me1 & give me increase ( fai?4--,inw>d conflicts & w&]+ ( m9d h br\ght me to my knees4 ,to ,god ,i tell my utmo/ c>e1 ,& f9d my place ( refuge !re4 ,by ! help ( ! s]vant's arm ,i got to ,hewor? ,*apel1 & he>d a little1 b imp]fectly4 ,my son ,ri*>d came1 & conduct$ me home4 ,v fa9t & sick aft] ,i return$2 b ,i "k n t ,i ev] enjoy$ a m refre%+ s5se ( ,god's pres5ce4 ,glory be to ! ,fa!r1 & to ! ,son1 & to ! ,holy ,gho/4--,cl\ds d>k--ra9y--trees fad+--leaves fall+--all ?+s *ang+ "h2 b1 ',?\ art ! same1 & ,?y ye>s %all n fail4' ,o1 :ile ,i hold my p5 9 my h&1 let me feel ,?y pres5ce 9 my he>t6 ,i h 9 ,!e a *angeless fri5d4 ,glory be to ,?y "n1 ,?\ ev]-bless$ ,god6 ,give me m love1 & knit me m closely to ,?yself4--,! day f9e4 ,i got to ,*apel1 & ?r\gh m]cy 0 no worse4 ,a /rang] k9dly accompani$ me home1 :o seems to be an inquir] aft] tru?4 ,my s\l ye>n$ ov] h]1 :ile ,i spoke a few words to h]4 ,o may !y s9k deep6 ,9 ! c\rse ( read+1 ! words1 ',let ! peace ( ,god rule 9 y\r he>ts' especially /ruck me4 ,to rule implies gov]nm5t2 ,i may dwell :]e ,i h no p[] to rule2 & ! peace ( ,god mu/ n only be felt1 b br+ into subjection ev]y?+ 9 my he>t1 t w\ld oppose itself to ! w ( ,god4 ,praise ,god1 my _s longs = ?is complete subjection4 ,a /> 9 its spl5d\r attract$ my eye1 ,z s(tly f slumb] ,i woke2 ,i ?\ght--z ,i saw ! bright spot 9 ! sky-- ',twas an angel ( m]cy :i* spoke-- ,( ! hope1 t br+s peace to ! lab\r+ brea/1 ,& raises ! sorr[ful m9d4 ,! sweet'n] ( life1 & ! solace ( re/1 ,9 ,jesus1 ! ,savi\r1 we f9d4 ,:5 tr\bles oppress u1 & nature decays1 ,8 light 9 ! d>kness is giv53 ,bright /> ( ! morn+1 ,o l5d me ?y rays6 ,& guide me safe homew>d to heav56 ,,sitt+ ,,by ,,myself1 ,,& ,,?\ghtful4 ,alone8 no nev]6 t broad eye1 ,:i* fills all space1 is "h2 ,my secret ?\ghts & actions he1 ,reveal'd z daylight cle>4 ,i w\ld n f ,?y pres5ce fly1 ,!e only1 w\ld ,i love2 ,) great] circumspection try ,9 ,?y comm&s to move4 ,if 9 my he>t ,i aught disguise1 ,! lurk+ evil slay2 ,if aught ?an ,!e m highly prize1 ,o take x1 ,"l1 away6 #ahei4--;,i conclud$ ! ye> by read+ ! ,epi/le to ! ,philippians1 & pray]4 ,my s\l longs = a ri*] baptism ( love1 ,i am z well z usual1 & my s\l pants aft] ,god4 ,i feel ! ^w preci\s :ile ,i read1 & ?ir/ = a full] manife/ation ( ,god4 ,:ile ?us employ$1 ,i enjoy sweet peace ?r\gh ,jesus4 ,"h hangs my hope ( heav52 & ?\gh ,i h _m a conflict ) unbelief1 my he>t is fix$4 ,,?\ghts ,,on ,,ezekiel',s ,,vision1 ,,*apt]s #dc ,,& #dh4 ,,ezekiel ,,xlviii4 #ce4 ',! ,"l is !re6' ,o happy place6 ,:]e ,god 9 ,*ri/ unveils ,8 face2 ,! city & ! p be> ,8 glori\s "n--',! ,"l is !re4' ,! h\se all symmetry )91 ,! wor%ipp]s all :ite & clean2 ,h[ lu/r\s is ! sc5e1 & r>e6 ,x mu/ be s--',! ,"l is !re4' ,!re1 f b5ea? ! ?re%old1 teems ,! tide ( tru? 9 liv+ /reams2 ,& ^? :o dr9k ! wat]s1 %>e ,et]nal life--',! ,"l is !re4' ,! cry/al waves spread deep & wide2 ,salvation rolls ^u ! tide2 ,s copi\s is ! flood1 we d>e ,no long] d\bt--',! ,"l is !re4' ,! heal+ virtue nev] fails2 ,= all ':o w1' x /ill avails2 ,)9 ! city br\ght1 !y we> ,a k+ly cr[n--',! ,"l is !re4' ,! glory ( ! ,"l is se51 ,8 voice is he>d by all )92 ,! tribes ( ,israel are ,8 c>e1 ,:o reigns1 ! ,"l = ev] !re4 ,:ile read+ & m$itat+ on ,ezekiel's vision1 my _s 0 refre%$2 & 9 ! ev5+1 :ile pray+ ) my s]vant1 my s\l rejoic$ 9 ,god my ,savi\r4 ,te>s ( joy ran d[n my eyes1 & my s\l ov]fl[$4--,six ye>s my de> ,john has be5 9 p>adise1 & ,i am /ill endeav\r+ to urge on my way2 feeble1 yet pursu+4 ,praise ,god = ! enc\ragem5t ,i feel4 ,jesus is all ! _w to me2 !re is no?+ 9 my e/imation equal to ,him2--no?+ ,i desire 9 comp>ison ( ,him4--,9 ! _w !re appe>s to be a glori\s movem5t t[>ds ,god4 ,! latt]-day glory ha/5s on4 ,india is quiet1 & ,*9a op5s h] arms to ! tru?4 ,9 ,am]ica1 ,scotl&1 & ,wales1 ! ,_s is desc5d+ pl5te\sly4 ,o praise ! ,"l1 = ,he %all reign2 '! gov]nm5t %all be ^u ,8 %\ld]4'--,walk$ z f> z ,hewor? ,*apel1 & call$ ^u ,miss ,c42 %e ask$ me to pray ) h]1 be+ h]self an invalid4 ,cause ( gratitude1 be+ my longe/ walk ?is ye>4 ,! pres5t circum/ances ( my *ildr5 call = e>ne/ p]sev]+ pray]4 ,let ,?y ,_s help me4--,! beauties ( inanimate nature h ?is week exhibit$ ! f+] ( ,god 9 ! ris+ bud1 & op5+ fl[]4 ,may ,i1 to :om is giv51 an intellig5t m9d1 :ile behold+ ^! works ( ,?9e1 be drawn into clos] union ) ,?yself4 ,yea1 :ile my h& directs ! p51 let my s\l assimilate to ,?y lik5ess3 make me "o ) ,!e4 ,glory be to ,god1 ,i feel !re is union1 = ,god is love3 b enl>ge & fill my s\l ) all ,?y fulness4--,?is aft]noon ! "y cl]gyman visit$ me1 & made inquiries aft] my spiritual welf>e4 ,my he>t clave unto him2 & aft] he _h pray$1 ,i he>tily wi%$ him success 9 8 m9i/ry4 ,tid+s h rea*$ me1 t my son ,john is go+ z a ,mission>y to ,g]many3 may x be ( ! ,"l4 ,my s\l is exce$+ly drawn out 9 pray] t x may be s2 & t x may be a bless+ bo? to him & ! p among :om he is ab\t to lab\r4--,i am ?is day sev5ty-sev5 ye>s old4 ,h[ quickly "t dep>ts6 ,i lack words to express ! manifold m]cies ( my heav5ly ,fa!r dur+ ! pa/ ye>4 ,"o above all1 is ! return ( my ,mission>y son1 aft] tw5ty-"o ye>s' abs5ce2 & 81 & 8 family's k9dness4 ,bless ! ,"l1 ,o my s\l4--,felt impress$ to g & visit ,mrs4 ,m--1 :om ,i visit$ once la/ ye>2 w5t1 & _h a happy int]view4 ,hall['d is ! h\r ( pray]1 ,:5 ! ,_s helps me !re2 ,:5 ! s\l is drawn above1 ,borne on w+s ( fai? & love2 ,!n1 releas$ f e>?1 ,i rise ,f> beyond ! />ry skies2 ,see1 9 ,*ri/'s atonem5t free1 ,life = all mank9d1 & me4 ,mrs4 ,c4 call$1 & k9dly took me to ,class4 ,i gave out ! hymn my ,eliza sang ! day be=e %e di$1 & pray$ ) !m4--,i h be5 l$ by ! ,_s ( ,god to my knees1 & f9d x no va9 ?+ to wait ^u ! ,"l4 ,i am urg$ to look aft] my petitions1 & feel x good to be ?us rem9d$4--,mrs4 ,h>tley call$ to bid me good-bye4 ,i felt x v good :ile we pray$ toge!r4 ,on h] return to ! city %e 0 tak5 v ill1 & s5t a reque/ by my daught]1 t ,i w\ld pray = h]4 ,i w4 ,felt ble/ 9 do+ s4--,my two sons are go+ to widely di/ant localities1 b 9 _! ,ma/]'s field4 ,oh6 h[ my he>t longs t !y may be ri*ly endu$ ) p[] f on high1 & made abundantly useful among ^? ) :om !y m+le1 & t _m may be ! sav$ ( ! ,"l4 ,john ,ar?ur & ,david are also1 ?is day1 go+ on ! ,"l's err&4 ,o bless ! lads6 ,make !m wise to w9 s\ls to ,jesus4 ,my s\l longs = _! prosp]ity4--,n9e ( my de> gr&*ildr5 took tea ) u4 ,= ^! & all ! re/ my s\l e>ne/ly longs1 t we may be an undivid$ family above4 ,i 0 ble/ :ile pray+ ) !m4--,my de> son ,john & 8 wife1 ) five *ildr51 left u on _! way to ,g]many1 hop+ to rea* ,london ?is ev5+4 ,o ,"l1 prosp] ,?\ 8 j\rney to yond] l&6 ,i feel deeply = him4 ,o bless him1 ,"l6 ,oh6 :at a _w ( c>e1 ,anxiety & grief6 ,h[ multipli$ our sorr[s are6 ,:]e %all we f9d relief8 ,our lov'd ones come1 & glad we are ,to see _! smil+ face2 ,b brief ^! transi5t visits are1 ,& !n1 ! la/ embrace4 ,mrs4 ,night+ale came to meet two wom5 9 di/ress = _! s\ls4 ,!y wept sore1 & f\nd enc\ragem5t4 ,i felt x good to m+le my petitions ) _!'s4 ,?is 0 ! comm5cem5t ( a class at h] own resid5ce1 conduct$ by ,mrs4 ,n41 & =m$ especially = my "m's accommodation4 ,up to ?is "t %e 0 nom9ally a lead]1 b s9ce h] removal to ,hewor?1 %e _h b v occasionally be5 able to ride d[n to ! city1 & m+le 9 ! communion ( sa9ts1 a privilege1 ! loss ( :i* %e _h deeply felt4 ,! provision ?us made 0 !re=e a s\rce ( unspeakable com=t4 ,mrs4 ,night+ale says1 ,we f\nd h] at ! appo9t$ "t1 b (t5] be=e1 sitt+ 9 pray]ful sil5ce1 wait+ ^u ,god4 ,at su* times h] c\nt5ance 0 mo/ heav5ly2 lit up ) a light & glory1 :i* bespoke h] relation to1 & hidd5 life )1 h] div9e ,"l4 ,x 0 our privilege1 :5 %e 0 able1 to li/5 to ! words ( wisdom & in/ruction :i* fell f h] lips4 ,h] deep acqua9tance ) ! ^w ( ,god1 & ! holy unction ) :i* %e spoke1 caus$ ^? pres5t to say1 ',?is is none o!r b ! h\se ( ,god1 & ?is is ! gate ( heav54' ,love to ,god & ! s\ls ( m5 burn$ brightly on ! alt> ( h] he>t4 ,?is 0 se5 9 ! deep int]e/ %e took 9 ea* memb] ( ! class1 & 9 h] pray]ful conc]n = ! memb]s ( h] own family4 ',god is giv+ me answ]s to my pray]s bo? on behalf ( my *ildr5 & gr&*ildr51' %e w\ld say4 ,b !re 7 aspirations ( s\l aft] high] =ms ( spiritual life1 :i* c\ld only be realiz$ 9 ! fruition ( ! div9e pres5ce4 ,= increase ( ye>s %e made b little all[ance1 s t1 :il/ h] love to ,god & heav5ly meekness became increas+ly app>5t to o!rs1 h] dim9i%$ en]gy 0 sometimes to h]self ! occasion ( pa9ful conflict & introspection4 ,be=e ,i awoke ,i ?\ght a lett] 0 put into my h&s1 ! cont5ts ( :i* 7 ',?r\gh mu* tribulation ye %all ent] ! k+dom4 ,! ,"l giv+ me p[]1 ,i w fight my passage ?r\gh4--,?r\gh ! int5sity ( ! wea!r1 & my own increas+ indisposition1 ,i h be5 compell$ to keep my b$2 b pray] has be5 ! life ( my s\l2--! only sure refuge 9 tr\ble4 ,mu* drawn out = my de> ,john1 :o1 we expect1 is ?is day hold+ an important meet+4--,! ye> is quickly pass+ into et]nity4 ,x t>ries n1 nor waite? ! hurri$ "o to free4 ,def] n1 = ! mom5t w soon pass away4 ,n[ t\* ! gold5 sceptre :ile x is call$ to-day4 ,believe1 believe 9 ,jesus1 :o gave ,8 life = y4 ,accept ! ri* gratuity1 = ,he ha? pur*as$ y4 #ahfj4--;,al?\gh n able to sit up to welcome ! new ye>1 x broke ^u me ) ^! words-- ,jesus %all all my p[]s possess1 ,my hopes1 my fe>s1 my joys3 & ?us my he>t resolves4 ,yes1 ,"l1 ! dy+ emb]s ( my life are ,?9e4 ,i ?ank ,!e1 ,?\ do/ n ca/ me (f 9 my old age4 ',my s\l %all magnify ! ,"l1 & my _s rejoice 9 ,god my ,savi\r4'--,a few days ago1 my m9d 0 fill$ ) unc]ta9ty respect+ two memb]s ( my family2 h[ev]1 ,i laid ! case be=e ! ,"l1 &1 to my surprise & grateful ackn[l$gm5t1 9 a day or two !re 0 an op5+ 9 ea* case4 ,read] or writ]1 ?9k n highly ( ?yself1 o!rs 7 pray+ z well z !e4--,my fir/ ?\ght ?is morn+1 ',i h lov$ !e ) an ev]la/+ love1 !re=e ) lov+ k9dness h ,i drawn !e4' ,a v *e]+ lett] f my son ,ri*>d4 ,praise ! ,"l = su* in=mation1 bo? f heav5 & e>?4--,a beautiful sunny morn+4 ,grant t ! ,sun ( righte\sness may rise ^u me ) heal+ 9 ,8 w+s4 ,let ,him heal1 & =m my s\l anew4 ,?is is my *ief desire4 ,i d ?ank ,!e = peace1 b ,o enl>ge my he>t1 & fully fit me to behold ,?y glory6--,a quiet ,sabba? morn+4 ,i am sitt+ alone4 ,! sun %9es brightly ^u me1 & all nature seems to jo9 9 hall[$ h>mony4 ,may my s\l1 capable ( f> great] p[]s1 be exp&$ to receive f> ri*] influ5ces f ! great s\rce ( my be+--! inexhau/ible f\nta9 ( all bless$ness4 ,my s\l dr9ks ( ! liv+ /ream4 ,praise ,god = ^! small draughts4 ,enl>ge & fill1 & enl>ge = ev]6 ,,man',s ,,frailty4 ,see a fl[] ( lovely hue1 ,dipp'd 9 beauty bright1 at ,spr+1 ,bla/$ by a w9d t blew1 ,ere x pass$ its blossom+4 ,su* is man1 9 be/ e/ate2 ,l a fl[] he budde? =?1 ,till "s unexpect$ fate ,br+s him to 8 "m e>?1 ,su* a %ad[ ( a %ade1 ,human life1 a mom5t1 is3 ,n[ we live1 b soon convey$ ,pa/ all life's unc]ta9ties4 ,bloom+ y\? & )]'d age1 ,infant *>ms & rip5$ ye>s1 ,dea? assaults ) equal rage1 ,unappeas'd by pray]s or te>s3 ,!n1 ! closely w$d$ pair1 ,s\l & body sadly "p2 ,yet to meet aga9--b :]e8 ,seek ! answ] 9 ?y he>t4 ',look+ unto ,jesus6' ,?is is ! po/ure ( my s\l4 ,yea1 ,i long aft] ,god4 ,i h be5 peculi>ly drawn out ,9 pray] = sev]al memb]s ( my family1 ) great sweetness ,9 my own s\l4 ,glory be to ,god6 ,,xxiii4 ,,sleep ,,9 ,,jesus4 ,,weep ,,n2 ,,%e ,,is ,,n ,,dead ,,b ,,sleepe?4--,luke viii4 #fb4 ,:5 ! %ad[s ( ev5+ beg9 to fall1 x is n difficult to progno/icate t ! night is at h&2 &1 admoni%$ by ! increas+ gloom1 man1 we>i$ by ! tolls ( ! day1 gladly looks =w>d to ! h\r ( repose4 ,univ]sal nature %>es 9 ! feel+ ( pres5tim5t4 ,! cattle seek ! %$2 ! birds fly back to _! ne/s2 & ! g5tle fl[] folds its delicate petals1 z if = sleep4 ,is ,x wond]ful t z life closes 91 especially :5 protract$ to a good old age1 ! human _s %\ld feel an in/9ctive consci\sness ( approa*+ dissolution8 or t ! ag$ ,*ri/ian1 aft] long & pati5t endurance 9 8 ,ma/]'s s]vice1 %\ld joyfully anticipate ! h\r ( re/8 ,yes1 ,,re/1 n dea?2 ,= :osoev] live?1 & believe? 9 me1 sai? ! ,savi\r1 %all nev] die4 ,*ri/ has ta/$ dea? = him1 & ! bitt]ness1 :i* is ! reality ( dea?1 is pass$ away4 ,8 /$fa/ fai? prev5ts ! dawn ( a bright] day1 & :at matt]s x1 :e!r 8 sleep cont9ue b a few h\rs1 or be protract$ ?r\gh a p]iod ( c5turies8 ,! body c be s5sible ( no diff]5ce1 & ! _s1 transport$ f> beyond ! regions ( dream-l&1 enjoys a happy & consci\s exi/5ce 9 ! pres5ce ( ,him1 :o di$1 ,t :e!r we wake or sleep1 we might live toge!r ) ,him4 ,mrs4 ,ly? look$1 nay long$ = ! "t ( h] dep>ture2 & z ! h\r drew on1 seems to h _h "s pleasant premonitions ( its approa*4 ,ab\t a mon? be=e x occurr$1 %e writes1 ,my fir/ ?\ght ?is morn+ 01 ',we soon %all be l&$1 = dea? is 9 view1 ,almighty protection %all com=t u ?r\gh2 ,releas$ f our prisons1 to heav5 we fly1 ,ex*ang+ all sorr[s = mansions on high4' ,a few days ( beautiful spr+ wea!r p]mitt$ h] to enjoy an occasional walk1 :i* 0 g5]ally made subs]vi5t to "s high] purpose ?an t ( m]e refre%m5t4 ,?rice h] /eps 7 direct$ to ! ,sanctu>y1 opportunities :i* %e ri*ly enjoy$4 ,( "o ( ^! %e says1 ,i enjoy$ ! privilege ( meet+ my fri5ds at ! lovefea/1 & he>+ !m speak ( ! p[] ( grace to save2 b my poor body is v feeble4 ,?is %ort respite1 h[ev]1 excit$ 9 h] m9d no fallaci\s expectation ( a mu* long] reprieve2 & m ?an once %e express$ h] conviction1 t1 z ! summ] advanc$ %e w\ld be no bett]4 ,! wea!r sudd5ly *ang$2 & ! preval5ce ( nor? & ea/]ly w9ds1 accompani$ ) ra91 conf9$ h] to ! h\se4 ,to use h] own expressive language1 ,june ent]s weep+1 & yet 7#aj?7 rema9s 9 te>s4 ,?is circum/ance elicit$ almo/ ! la/ ef=t ( h] poetic p54 ,faire/ mon? ( summ]'s ,tr9e1 ,:y do/ ?\ rema9 9 te>s8 ,ask n4 ',tis ! w div9e2 ,?is %all dissipate my fe>s4 ,he1 :o rule? 9 ! sky1 ,kn[e? :at ,8 creatures ne$2 ,he c e want supply1 ,tru/ ,him1 & ,8 promise plead4 ,cl\ds may we> a fr[n+ br[1 ,bla/+ w9ds may sweep ar\nd1 ,he1 :o reigns above1 kn[s h[ ,be/ to make 8 love ab\nd4 ,!n1 ,i'll ca/ my e c>e ,on my promise-keep+ ,god2 ,hon\r ,him by fai? & pray]2 ,re/ ^u ,8 fai?ful ^w4 ,%\ld ! cl\d cont9ue /ill1 ,?\ = ev] art ! same1 ,all ! work+s ( ,?y w ,b proclaim ,?y glori\s "n4 ,! la/ entries ( h] di>y1 :i* ) a solemn significance j fill up ! volume1 we give 9 full4 ,june #aa?4--,i expect$ to h receiv$ my ticket1 b no "o came1 ,i cle>ly see no dep5dance c be plac$ ^u ! creature4 ,on ,!e1 ,o ,"l1 let all my confid5ce re/6 ,glory be to ,god1 ?\gh ,i am an isolat$ "o1 ,i am n left alone4 ,i d feel drawn1 aft] ,god1 ,i h giv5 myself to ,him1 & ,he is *ief 9 my affection4 #ai?4--,my sev5ty-eigh? bir?-day4 ,i _h int5d$ writ+1 b ! ,"l saw o!rwise4 ,i 0 9 b$ ?ree p>ts1 ( ! day1 & on ! #bj? v ill1 hav+ tak5 cold4 #ba/4--,?ursday ! longe/ day4 ,i am v feeble1 b h tak5 my p5 to ackn[l$ge ! goodness ( ,god to me = s long a p]iod4 ,at noon we _h an awful ?und]/orm1 dur+ :i* my s\l 0 calm & peaceful4 ,?is is ! ,"l's do+4 ,i felt sweet tru/ & confid5ce 9 my ,almighty ,savi\r4 ,aft]w>ds ,i receiv$ my ticket at ! h&s ( ! ,rev4 ,?os4 ,night+ale4 ,on ! ticket !re is writt51 ',i h lov$ !e ) an ev]la/+ love1 !re=e ) ev]la/+ k9dness h ,i drawn !e4' #bd?4 ,,! ,,sabba?4 ,peaceful is ! ,sabba? morn1 ,glad ,i welcome its return2 ,n[ ,?y pres5ce ,i implore1 ,come1 & nev] leave me m4 ,x 0 hop$ by h] fri5ds t1 ) ! return ( mild] wea!r1 h] /r5g? w\ld rally2 b f ?is "t x gradually decl9$4 ,h] occupations 7 pursu$ z usual1 b h] weakness became daily m app>5t2 &1 e n[ & !n1 intimations fell f h] lips1 t h] "t 0 %ort1 & h] "w ne>ly done4 ,to ^? ar\nd h] x 0 evid5t t %e 0 /&+ ready1 & wait+ = ! com+ ( h] ,"l4 ,?is 0 p>ticul>ly obs]vable 9 ! promptitude & fidelity ) :i* %e address$ all :o came to ! h\se1 9 t]ms ( exhortation or w>n+1 z if %e 0 afraid ( los+ a s+le opportunity ( speak+ = h] ,ma/]4 ,e>? ) its comp>ative trifles 0 fa/ rec$+ f h] view1 & h] spiritual vision occupi$ ) ! solemn & mom5t\s sc5es into :i* %e 0 s soon to ent]4 ,h] daught]1 :o1 = ! purpose ( m9i/]+ to h] requirem5ts1 occupi$ ! same b$-room1 0 (t5 awoke1 9 ! /illness ( night1 by ! voice ( ?anksgiv+ & pray]2 =1 n cont5t ) mak+ melody to ! ,"l 9 h] he>t1 %e gave v5t to h] ov]fl[+ feel+s 9 s++ & praise4 ,on ,?ursday1 ! #bh?1 ! decrease ( h] /r5g? 0 su* t1 al?\gh no dang] 0 appreh5d$1 x 0 deem$ advisable to call 9 m$ical aid1 :i* af=d$ h] a mom5t>y relief4 ,b disease 0 insidi\sly work+ to an unfav\rable issue1 & t day %e pli$ h] ne$le = ! la/ "t4 ,on ,saturday ! doctor in/itut$ a m9ute exam9ation ( h] lungs1 & pron\nc$ ! case "o ( ! wor/ =ms ( bron*itis2 yet /ill held out ! hope ( recov]y1--a hope 9 :i* %e ev9c$ no sympa?y1 =1 ?\gh f ! nature ( ! compla9t able to talk b little1 %e spoke ( h] affliction1 n only )\t appreh5sion1 b ) joyful anticipation4 ,to ! doctor1 :5 he in=m$ h] ( h] dang]1 %e express$ h] confid5ce t to die w\ld be ga91 & urg$ ^u him ! importance ( liv+ always 9 a /ate ( prep>ation = dea?4 ,he _h no soon] left ! room ?an1 turn+ to h] daught]1 ) a look ( ec/acy1 %e said1 ,i am go+ home1 ,m>y4 ,9 consequ5ce ( h] extreme debility1 ! difficulty ( h] brea?+ & expectoration occasion$ h] mu* suff]+1 :i* %e bore ) exempl>y pati5ce2 & :5 x 0 ref]r$ to1 repli$1 ,x is all "r4 ,at ano!r "t :5 an allusion 0 made to h] suff]+s1 h] reply 01 ,pati5t ! appo9t$ race to run4 ,h] daught] read to h] ! beautiful hymn1 comm5c+1 ,! ,god ( ,abraham praise1 to :i* %e li/5$ ) great att5tion1 & on com+ to ! l9es1 ,he calls a worm ,8 fri5d1 ,he calls ,himself my ,god1 ,& ,he %all save me to ! end1 ,?r\gh ,jesus' blood2 %e exclaim$1 ) h] eyes rais$ to heav51 & h] h&s uplift$1 ,glory6 glory6 ,dur+ ! night h] daught]1 :o wat*$ by h] side1 ov]he>d h] say1 ,my he>t & my fle% faile?1 b ,god is ! /r5g? ( my he>t1 & my portion = ev]1 emphasiz+ ! la/ words4 ,x 0 :isp]$-- ,& above ! re/ ?is note %all swell1 :5 %e in/antly took up ! words1 & ) a heav5ly smile complet$ ! /anza1 ,my ,jesus ha? done all ?+s well4 ,! same t5d] solicitude = o!rs1 especially ^? ( h] own family1 :i* _h ev] *>act]iz$ h]1 0 /ill manife/ 9 h] utmo/ weakness4 ,twice1 says h] daught]1 dur+ ^? few anxi\s days1 :ile ,i 0 /&+ by h] b$-side1 %e look$ at me t5d]ly1 & said1 ',! ,"l bless !e1 & keep !e2 ! ,"l make ,8 face to %9e ^u !e1 & be graci\s unto !e2 ! ,"l lift up ,8 c\nt5ance ^u !e1 & give !e peace4' ,on tell+ h] ,i 0 go+ to write to my bro!r ,john1 %e repli$1 ',give my k9de/ love to him & ,susie1 & tell !m to keep ! "o po9t 9 view4 ,to "o :o 0 m9i/]+ to h] wants %e said1 ) great e>ne/ness1 ',oh6 :5 "o comes to ! v]ge ( ano!r _w1 ( :at avail are all ?+s else1 if we are n on ! sure f\ndation8 ,my :ole c>e is to be ready--q ready4' ,! rapid decay ( h] /r5g? seem$ to produce no correspond+ impression ^u h] m9d1 :i*1 up to )9 a few h\rs ( h] dep>ture1 reta9$ its wont$ vig\r & cle>ness ( p]ception4 ,h] utt]ances 7 c>efully weigh$1 & %e grasp$ ! full =ce ( ! words :i* 7 spok5 to h]2 h5ce1 :5 h] daught] ask$ if %e c\ld say ,n a cl\d do? arise ,to d>k5 ! skies1 ,& hide = "o mom5t ! ,"l f my eyes2 %e repli$1 ,i c't say t4 ,b1 "m1 y c tru/ ,him 9 ! d>k8 ,h] ready answ] 01 ,i c d t4 ,on ,tuesday morn+1 ,july #crd1 ! day prec$+ h] removal1 = "s h\rs %e appe>$ r bett]1 & on be+ lift$ up 9 b$1 %e ask$ = h] spectacles1 ! ,bible1 & also ! hymn-book1 f :i* %e read ! hymn beg9n+ ,h[ d ,?y m]cies close me r\nd1 :i* 0 "o ( h] fav\rites4 ,z ! day advanc$ h] disease ga9$ gr\nd1 b1 beyond ! difficulty %e exp]i5c$ 9 brea?+1 !re 0 no evid5ce ( suff]+4 ,%e express$ a fe> %e 0 impati5t1 b x 0 f> o!rwise4 ,n a murmur1 nor a brea? ( compla9t pass$ h] lips2 %e possess$ h] s\l 9 pati5ce1 & h] language 0 praise & pray]4 ,once1 :ile gasp+ = brea?1 %e repeat$ at int]vals1 ! v]se ,o may ,i ?us be f\nd1 ,ob$i5t to ,8 ^w2 ,att5tive to ! trumpet's s\nd1 ,& look+ = my ,"l4 ,9 ! aft]noon h] son ,ri*>d arriv$ f ,torquay1 provid5tially 9 "t to witness ! la/ solemn & m\rnful sc5e1 & to adm9i/] words ( com=t & enc\ragem5t4 ,! valley 0 fall ( light1 & a mom5t>y cl\d :i* skirt$ ! horizon1 occasion$ by ! deep s5se %e felt ( h] own unpr(itabl5ess1 melt$ away at ! pres5ce ( ,him :om1 hav+ n se51 %e lov$1 & ^: "n 0 la/ ^u h] lips4 ,my bro!r says1 ,i f\nd h] v ill1 b mo/ delight$ & ?ankful = my arrival4 ',praise ! ,"l1 ,i am glad to see y1' 0 h] *>act]i/ic salutation4 ,well1 ,"m1 ,i f9d y re/+ on ,jesus8 ,yes1 0 ! reply1 b ,i h be5 s unfai?ful4 ,y h no?+ to d ) t n[2 y mu/ look only to ,jesus4 ,y believe ,8 atonem5t is suffici5t to cov] all y\r unfai?fulness8 ,oh6 yes1 ,i d4 ,y "k t ,paul1 & ,mr4 ,wesley _h no?+ else to plead b ?is1-- ',i ! *ief ( s9n]s am1 ,b ,jesus di$ = me4' ,f t mom5t1 look+ (f f h]self1 %e tru/$ 9 ,*ri/ alone1 & 0 fully sav$ & su/a9$ by div9e grace4 ,lean+ on h] ,belov$1 %e 0 n[ ready to pass ov] ,jordan2--n its swell+s1 ! /ream 0 n>r[1 & nei!r deep nor tr\bl$4 ,a little "t & %e 0 on ! opposite pla9s2 b be=e %e l&$1 %e utt]$ words ( triumph1 ! s\nds ( :i* fell fa9tly on our e>s4 ,9 ! devotions ( ! ev5+1 :i* we conduct$ 9 h] room1 %e p>ticipat$ ) holy delight1 & li/5$ to ! =m] "p ( ! #ad? *apt] ( ,/4 ,john's ,gospel1 ) an evid5t appreciation ( its ov]fl[+ fulness ( consolation4 ,9 ,jesus %e contemplat$ ! reveal$ glory ( ! ,fa!r1 & h] believ+ ,am5 made ! bless$ness ( ! revelation all h] own4 ,aft] giv+ me "s f9al directions1 especially ) respect to h] manuscripts & lett]s2--directions :i* 7 %ort & cle>2 & giv5 ) h] wont$ happy expression ( c\nt5ance1 & *e]fulness ( mann]2 %e gradually yield$ to ! =ce ( disease4 ,= ?ree h\rs & a half %e lay quiet1 occasionally slumb]+1 b brea?+ heavily4 ,x 0 ?us ,i f\nd h] 9 ! morn+ at half-pa/ two4 ,%e 0 q consci\s & recollect$1 & gave pleas+ signs ( recognition1 b ! p[] ( spee* 0 almo/ gone4 ,%e _h rea*$ ! middle ( ! /ream1 b h] head 0 lift$ up above ! fl[+ wat]s1 = h] feet 7 ^u ! ,rock4 ,m>y quot$ ,! ,"l is good2 a /ronghold 9 ! day ( tr\ble2 & ,he kn[e? !m t tru/ 9 ,him1 & %ortly aft]1 ,bright angels are f glory come1 ,!y're r\nd my b$1 & 9 my room1 ,!y come to waft my _s home3 ,all is well4 ,%e caught ! idea2 :isp]$ ,bright ,angels1 & tri$ to say m4 ,i add$ ! preci\s words1 ,hav+ lov$ ,8 own1 ,he lov$ !m to ! end1 also ! l9es ( our own sweet s+]2-- ,& ,god ,himself our ,fa!r is1 ,& ,jesus is our ,fri5d4 ,ano!r ef=t 0 made to speak1 & at int]vals we caught ! words1 ,praise1 ,glory1 ,my ,fa!r1 ,my ,r$eem]4 ,^! 7 ! la/ s\nds we c\ld he>2 ! full expression ( triumph 0 lo/ 9 ! g5tle murmurs ( ! riv]4 ,!re 0 yet ano!r signal ( happy & exult+ confid5ce4 ,= sometime1 %e gaz$ int5tly upw>d1 & !n ar\nd1 ) a look ( delight$ surprise2 z if %e saw sc5es we c\ld n see1 or he>d s\nds we c\ld n he>2 & !n gradually sunk into a /ate ( unconsci\sness4 ,a few m h\rs t]m9at$ h] mortal pant+ aft] immortality2 & at tw5ty m9utes pa/ eight1 j z we comm5d$ h] to ,god1 )\t an ef=t or a /ruggle1 %e brea!d h] ransom$ _s into ! bosom ( h] ,"l4 ,:at 0 mortal rema9$ ) ! m\rn]s1--! _s 0 ) ,god4 ,?us1 on ! #d? ( ,july1 #ahfj1 aft] ! toils & /ruggles ( life1 protract$ to a p]iod ( sev5ty-eight ye>s1 & a few weeks2 my belov$1 & v5]at$ "m fell asleep4 ,%e re/s 9 ! cemet]y ab\t a mile f ! city1 by ! side ( h] lov$ ,eliza4 ,ri* & poor unit$ to pay ! la/ tribute ( affection & e/eem2 & m+l$ _! te>s at ! place ( h] repose4 ,a few weeks lat]1 on a ,monday ev5+1 9 ! ,new-,/reet ,*apel1 ! ,rev4 ,?omas ,night+ale1 to a cr[d$ audi5ce1 improv$ ! ev5t1 n ( h] dea?1 b ( h] entrance into heav51 f ! words1 ,& x came to pass1 z !y /ill w5t on1 & talk$1 t1 behold1 !re appe>$ a *>iot ( fire1 & horses ( fire1 & p>t$ !m bo? asund]2 & ,elijah w5t up by a :irlw9d into heav54 ,,h] ,,*ildr5 ,,arise ,,up ,,& ,,call ,,h] ,,bless$4--,prov4 xxxi4 #bh4 ,%all we weep or rep9e at ! ?\ght %e is gone8 ,%all we m\rn = ! _s at re/8 ,no6 h] *ildr51 ?\gh _m1 unit$ z "o ,n[ arise to ackn[l$ge h] ble/4 ,n ! tongue ( ! _w1 or ! praises t dwelt ,on ! lips ( report are ! te/2 ,9 ! home1 :]e ! w>m? ( h] pres5ce 0 felt1 ,mu/ y ask if a "m 0 ble/4 ,we arise6 we arise 9 ! "n ( ! ,"l1 ,:o gave u ! good we possess'd2 ,) "o he>t1 & "o voice1 we unite to record ,our ?anks = ! "m ,he bless'd4 ,n a joy b 0 sweet] :5 %e 0 9 sight1 ,n a grief b we hid 9 h] brea/2 ,& %e seem$ unto u z an ,angel ( ,light3 ,s happy ! circle %e ble/4 ,we rememb] h] c\nsels1 (t m+l$ ) te>s2 ,! tru?s by example express'd2 ,an inh]itance ri*1 is ! weal? ( h] pray]s3 ,is ! *ild or ! "m m ble/8 ,by ! light 9 h] eye1 & ! smile on h] face2 ,by h] song 9 ! night1 :5 oppre/6 ,by a ?\s& impressions we love to retrace3 ,we "k t our "m 0 ble/4 ,b ! s\l ( h] joy1 & its fulness %e drew ,f ! s\rce ( all o!rs ! be/2 ,= %e tru/$ 9 ,him1 :o is fai?ful & true1 ,%e delight$ 9 ,god1 & 0 ble/4 ,!n1 :y %\ld we weep at ! ?\ght %e is gone1 ,s9ce we "k %e ha? ent]'d h] re/8 ,no6 h] *ildr5 w foll[1 unit$ z "o1 ,9 h] /eps to ! home ( ! ble/1 ,j4,l4 ,,xxiv4 ,,pleasant ,,memories4 ,,! ,,memory ,,( ,,! ,,j ,,is ,,bless$1 ,prov4 x4 #g4 ,al?\gh ! prec$+ pages w enable ! read] to =m a g5]al e/imate ( ,mrs4 ,ly?'s religi\s "*1 ! writ] deems x necess>y to add a conclud+ sket*1 p>tly = ! purpose ( record+ "s p>ticul>s :i* c\ld n s well be introduc$ else:]e1 & p>tly to supplem5t 8 own rem>ks1 :i* might o!rwise be liable to ! *>ge ( p>tiality1 ) a selection f ! num]\s te/imonies ) :i* he has be5 fav\r$ by ,m9i/]s & o!r fri5ds4 ,9 p]son ,mrs4 ,ly? 0 ( middle /ature1 sl5d]1 &1 be=e ye>s _h subdu$ h] physical /r5g?1 /raight z an arr[4 ,h] complexion 0 fair1 & h] features1 r po9t$ ?an full1 7 regul> & well =m$4 ,! eyes1 ( light blue1 g5]ally wore a calm & g5tle expression1 b k9dl$ ) an une>?ly light :5 conv]s+ on div9e subjects4 ,!n h] :ole s\l fla%$ 9 h] c\nt5ance1 & h] features1 lit z ) sun%9e1 indicat$ h[ deeply h] _s _h drank ( t /ream :i* make? glad ! city ( ,god4 ,h] hair1 :i* 9 y\? 0 ( a ri* auburn1 turn$ grey at ! e>ly age ( ?irty1 & at l5g? its silv]y hue 0 sup]s$$ by a sn[y :ite1 :i* gave additional impressiv5ess to a c\nt5ance ^u :i* happ9ess1 purity & peace sat cont9ually en?ron$4 ,h] dress1 ! p]fection ( neatness1 0 modell$ aft] ! mo/ approv$ /yle ( ! ,society ( ,fri5ds1 n z n[1 modifi$ & robb$ ( its int]e/ by all-p[]ful fa%ion1 b z x exi/$ 9 its orig9al simplicity fifty ye>s ago4 ,?\gh n gift$ ) any rem>kable p[]s ( m9d1 %e possess$ a s\nd & vigor\s und]/&+1 :i* h[ev]1 0 r quick ?an p5etrat+4 ,?is %e improv$ by a consid]able am\nt ( good read+4 ,h] *oice ( books 0 9 h>mony ) ! set purpose ( h] life1 & seldom surpass$ ! b\nds ( religi\s lit]ature3 = :ile %e _h no sympa?y ) ^? little m9ds t1 on ! pret5ce ( great] religi\sness despise human k1 %e /eadily kept 9 view ! rule %e adopt$ 9 e>ly life1 nev] to trifle ) any book ) :i* %e _h no imm$iate conc]n1 & consequ5tly pref]r$ ^? :i*1 :ile !y in=m$ ! judgm5t1 7 also calculat$ to impress ! he>t4 ,)9 ?is limit h] read+ 0 widely v>i$4 ,to ! bett] class ( biography1 %e add$ poetry1 hi/ory1 philosophy1 & div9ity4 ,h] fav\rite poet 0 ,"y1 f :om %e (t5 quot$ at l5g?2 h] fav\rite div9e1 ,wesley2 & h] fav\rite book ! ,bible4 ,?is la/ %e n uncommonly read ^u h] knees1 seek+ ! assi/ance & bless+ ( ! ,holy ,_s1 :o is ! be/ expositor ( ,8 own ^w4 ,h] k ( scripture 0 rem>kable1 & h] appreh5sion ( its great doctr9es di/9ct & cle> z noonday4 ,) increas+ ard\r %e cont9u$ to dig 9 ?is inexhau/ible m9e ( tru?1 until ! close ( life1 & )9 ! la/ ?ree or f\r ye>s wad$ ?r\gh ! great] "p ( ,h5ry's ,comm5t>y4 ,h] /udy ( div9e tru? 0 ma9ly prosecut$ ) a view to its exp]i5ce & practice2 & h5ce h] piety assum$ t r>e & exalt$ "* :i* develops itself ev5ly 9 all ! v>i\s relations ( life4 ,9 h]1 ! image ( ,*ri/ 0 n1 z 9 too _m in/ances1 c>icatur$2 b pres5t$ 9 its j & fair proportions2 &1 z a necess>y consequ5ce1 ,impress$ all :o came 9 contact ) h] ) ! c]ta9 conviction ( its g5u95ess4 ,zeal\s 9 ! *ur*1 %e 0 equally active & fai?ful at home4 ,little duties 7 n neglect$ on ! pretext ( p]=m+ o!rs ( a high] "*4 ,by a /rict economy ( "t1 :i* %e priz$ m ?an1 gold2 by e>ly ris+1 me?od & punctuality1 %e f\nd "t = ev]y?+2 s t h] h\se 0 a patt]n ( neatness & ord]1 & h] family 0 z well provid$ = z ?\gh %e _h no public duties to p]=m4 ,%e look$ well to h] own h\sehold1 & ate n ! bread ( idl5ess4 ,naturally ( an active temp] ( m9d1 %e 0 always employ$2 &1 f an habitual consci\sness ( h] responsibility1 well employ$4 ,h] h& 0 ready at e turn1 & knew no?+ ( t silly squeami%ness :i* leads a woman to suppose t %e demeans h]self by m$dl+ ) h\sehold affairs4 ,fond ( s++1 & possess$ ( a good voice1 %e light5$ h] daily toil ) ! voice ( song1 & dis*>g$ ! humble/ duties z a sacrifice well-pleas+ to ,god4 ,h] consci5ti\sness 9 little ?+s 0 rem>kable4 ,%e 0 a det]m9$ enemy ( all trifl+ & tittle-tattle1 z n only unbecom+ ! ,*ri/ian "*1 b de/ructive ( religi\s feel+2 & ! consci\sness ( hav+ utt]$ a useless ^w1 or engag$ 9 unpr(itable conv]sation1 always occasion$ h] pa94 ,among o!r peculi>ities %e display$ a s+ul> av]sion to debt1 & if by any means su* an obligation1 h[ev] small1 0 incurr$1 %e nev] re/$ until x 0 dis*>g$4 ,! writ] rememb]s on "o occasion walk+ a c\ple ( miles to pay ! trifl+ sum ( sixp5ce to a p>ty1 :o 0 at ! "t indebt$ to 8 fa!r z _m p\nds4 ,not)/&+ ! sev]ity ) :i* %e judg$ h] own actions1 h] piety 0 entirely free f asceticism2--x 0 always *e]ful1 recollect$1 & h]oic2 & 9 h] int]c\rse ) o!rs1 *>act]is$ by great humility & *ri/ian c\rtesy4 ,9 pray] %e 0 simple & e>ne/1 zeal\s )\t passion1 & (t5 p>ticul>iz$ 9 ! devotions ( ! family ! special cases ( its individual memb]s4 ,h]'s 0 ! cry ( a *ild to its fa!r1 ! appeal = help1 t felt confid5t ( success4 ,h] pray]s1 :i* 7 (f]$ cont9ually1 day & night1 might truly be said to be mighty2 & h] *ildr51 ev5 :5 di/ant f h]1 h (t5 felt consci\s t h] int]cessions 7 go+ up on _! behalf4 ,b !y 7 urg$ = _m1--= all2 & 9 p>ticul> = ! prosp]ity ( ,zion1 & ! m9i/]s ( div9e tru?4 ,! ,rev4 ,john ,h>tley writes1 ,i feel t 9 y\r "m's removal ,i suff] loss4 ,i h seldom be5 m affect$ ?an :5 %e told me1 on ! la/ occasion ( my see+ h]1 t n a day pass$ )\t h] plead+ ) ,god = me4 ,:o am ,i1 ,i ?\ght1 t ?is sa9t ( ,god %\ld ?us rememb] me 9 h] pray]s8 ,h] zeal 9 ! cause ( ,god 0 con/ant1 pati5t & p]sev]+2 n z we sometimes see1 n[ bur/+ into a furi\s blaze1 & !n dy+ away2 x burnt ) a bright & /eady flame1--be+ f$ by ! secret supplies %e obta9$ ?r\gh con/ant communion ) ,god4 ,al?\gh ready = e good "w1 & glad to take h] %>e 9 ! m]e ma*9]y ( ! ,*ri/ian *ur*1 h] *ief aim 0 ! salvation ( s\ls4 ,?is %e nev] lo/ sight (1 & g5]ally1 :5 collect+ = ,missions or o!r b5evol5t objects1 avail$ h]self ( ! opportunity ( w>n+1 exhortation1 or pray]4 ,"o :o frequ5tly accompani$ h] on su* excursions says1 ,we call$ at e h\se 9 ! di/rict4 ,"s ( ! p 7 exce$+ly poor4 ,at "o door ,i said1 ',mrs4 ,ly?1 y w n beg "h4' ,h] reply 01 ',x is my duty to ask !m1 if !y give u b a p5ny1 x w n lose its rew>d4' ,9 ano!r case ! p 7 ,roman ,ca?olics2 %e at once exhort$ !m to come direct to ,*ri/1 & n all[ ! prie/ to come betwixt !m & ! ,savior4 ,9 a ?ird1 :]e a memb] ( ! family 0 sick1 we w5t 91 & ,mrs4 ,ly? pray$4 ,ano!r writes1 ,i fir/ became acqua9t$ ) h] ab\t #ahbc1 & h always f\nd h] ! same consi/5t "*4 ,%e assi/$ me 9 ! =mation ( my class 9 ,acomb4 ,h] visits to u 7 always welcome & pr(itable4 ,h] eye 0 s+le4 ,%e _h light 9 h] own s\l1 & x %one 9 e society 9 :i* %e 0 ca/4 ,_m a r\nd we h _h toge!r among ! villag]s1 to besee* !m to be reconcil$ to ,god4 ,9 ?is "w %e w5t1 p]haps1 ev5 beyond h] /r5g?1 t s9n]s might be br\ght into ! fold ( ,*ri/4 ,%e rejoic$ to l5d a help+-h& to ! seek+ s\l2 w>n+ ! unruly1 com=t+ ! feeble-m9d$1 & enc\rag+ believ]s to seek aft] a full devotion ( he>t & life to ! s]vice ( ,*ri/4 ,h] fai?fulness 9 ! adm9i/ration ( repro( 0 exempl>y2 & ?\gh naturally ( a retir+ disposition1 9 ! def5ce ( tru? & ! cause ( h] ,ma/] %e became bold & fe>less4 ,h] ready p51 = to ! la/ %e wrote a cle> & /eady h&1 0 (t5 9 requisition to adm9i/] c\nsel1 enc\ragem5t1 or consolation4 ,:atev] might be said ( h] bodily pres5ce1 h] lett]s 7 p[]ful1 &1 z !y 7 accompani$ ) believ+ effectual pray]1 seldom fail$ to produce a happy effect4 ,! writ] mu* regrets t ! prescrib$ limits ( ?is volume precludes ! introduction ( extracts f ! volum9\s correspond5ce plac$ 9 8 h&s4 ,x is suffici5t to say "h t h] lett]s /rik+ly exhibit h] on5ess ( purpose4 ,9 all )\t exception1 ! "o ?+ is prom95t1 & al?\gh ord9>y topics are n ov]look$1 !y are inv>iably turn$ to good acc\nt1 & made ! basis ( apposite & pr(itable reflection4 ,"o ( h] correspond5ts obs]ves3 ,h] lett]s 7 always refre%+ to me1 & br\ght my m9d 9 imm$iate contact ) "o :o liv$ 9 ! _s ( pray] & g5]al devot$ness4 ,i nev] knew "o1 s f> z my obs]vation w5t1 :o m con/antly exhibit$ a on5ess ( aim to glorify ,god1 & promote ! welf>e ( ^? ) :om %e came 9 contact4 ,"s might object1 "s might smile1 b !re 0 a holy =ce ( spiritual life 9 h]1 :i* c\ld n be conceal$1 & :i* made itself felt ev]y:]e ,my de> fri5d 0 z att5tive to family duties z ?\gh ! *ur* _h no claim ^u h]2 & ,i h (t5 dwelt ^u h] "* :5 f>1 f> away4 ,i h he>d h] regret t %e did n m fully manife/ t5d] affection1 :5 h] he>t 0 fall ( love4 ,i ne$ n say h[ r\s+ ,i f\nd h] rem>ks1 utt]$ 9 an humble g5tle tone & mann]2 & h[ (t5 ,i h be5 tak5 into h] closet to pray = _m1 p>ticul>ly h] di/ant son4 ,ano!r says3 ,i h be5 p]us+ "s ( h] lett]s1 :i* ,i value above gold4 ,?r\gh !m all1 brea!s ! same _s ( ard5t love to ,jesus1 ) a deep s5se ( h] own helplessness4 ,h] "* 0 t ( an humble s\l con/antly liv+ t9d] ! rays ( ! ,sun ( righte\sness4 ,i h (t5 he>d h] express fe>s conc]n+ h]self1 b nev] d\bt+ ! fai?fulness ( ,jesus1 9 :om %e tru/$4 ,s9ce ,i _h ! happ9ess ( kn[+ h]--:i* is m ?an ?irty ye>s--,i h se5 no?+ b :at ,i c\ld love & admire4 ,i h (t5 be5 ?ankful t my lot 0 ca/ s ne> h] 9 ye>s gone by4 ,"s ( my mo/ hall[$ mom5ts h be5 :5 b[$ ) h] at ! ?rone ( grace4 ,"u all circum/ances %e prov$ h]self my fri5d2 by h] /rong fai? 9 ,god %e enc\rag$ me to tru/1 :]e ,i c\ld n trace1 ! disp5sations ( ,provid5ce2 (t5 com=t$ my m9d by an appropriate passage ( ,god's ^w1 & by h] simple & e>ne/ plead+s at ! ?rone ( grace1 l$ me ne>] to ! m]cy-seat4 ,i owe mu* to ! memory ( my preci\s fri5d2 & h] example has (t5 /imulat$ me to increas$ dilig5ce4 ,h[ =cibly did %e rem9d o!rs ( ! treasures ( religion6 ,pla9 9 repro(1 %e 0 yet s transp>5t1 t none c\ld be (f5d$ ) h] fai?ful deal+s4 ,! dep>tm5t ( usefulness 9 :i* %e *iefly delight$1 & = :i* %e 0 pre-em95tly qualifi$1 01 p]haps1 ! class-meet+2 ^u ?is s]vice %e ent]$ at fir/ ) consid]able hesitation1 b ev5tually conduct$ ?ree l>ge classes1 besides =m+ sev]al o!rs4 ,dur+ my some:at l5g!n$ m9i/]ial life1 says ! ,rev4 ,john ,ratt5bury1 ,i h met ) no female class-lead]1 t surpass$1 & ) b few t equall$1 y\r sa9t$ "m4 ,h] religi\s "* 0 beautifully m\ld$ by ! ,div9e ,_s4 ,tranquil1 f]v5t1 spiritual1 devot$2 %e 0 a patt]n to h] p3 %e 0 successful 9 attract+ p to ! ,society1 & :at is ( m importance1 & p]haps m difficult1 %e 0 successful 9 reta9+ !m4 ,h] classes1 ?\gh l>ge1 7 well pres]v$1 & seldom did ! column = backslid]s ga9 addition f !m4 ,%e 0 ( ! e>li] s*ool ( ,me?odi/s1 & comb9$ ! simplicity1 pla9ness1 & f]v\r ( ! pa/ age1 ) ! g5]\s & m aggressive _s ( ! pres5t4 ,"o ( h] memb]s says3 ,x 0 my privilege to be a memb] ( h] class ab\t eight ye>s4 ,%e 0 bo? deep & cle> 9 h] own exp]i5ce1 & nev] fail$ to impress ^u h] memb]s ! necessity ( daily gr[? 9 grace2 & 0 especially fai?ful1 9 w>n+ !m aga9/ worldl9ess & trifl+4 ,9 h] we _h a patt]n wor?y ( imitation4 ,z respects ! improvem5t ( "t & tal5t1 %e 0 always well employ$1 & ev] _h = h] object1 ! good ( o!rs4 ,ano!r writes3 ,z a class-lead]1 ,mrs4 ,ly? appe>$ to /& almo/ alone--tal5t$1 punctual1 humble1 & fai?ful4 ,once %e reprov$ a "y p]son 9 my pres5ce = frequ5tly neglect+ ! class4 ,:5 %e _h f9i%$ speak+ & ! p>ty 0 gone1 %e turn$ to me & said1 ',i ?9k ,i 0 fai?ful ) ,elizabe?1' ',yes1 ',i repli$1 '& r %>p2' %e answ]$1 ',i don't want to h ! blood ( any ( y on my skirt1' ,z to h] g5]al ,*ri/ian "* & usefulness1 ! foll[+ te/imonies by ! p5s ( well-kn[n & e/eem$ ,m9i/]s1 w be read ) int]e/4 ,! fir/ is f ! v5]able ,wm4 ,naylor1 & ref]s to a p]iod ( m ?an =ty ye>s ago4 ,?\gh _m ye>s h pass$ ov] s9ce ,i 0 /ation$ 9 ,york1 ! remembrance ( y\r e/eem$ "m is v refre%+ to my m9d4 ,i place h] among ! mo/ excell5t ( ! pi\s females ( our ,society1 t x has be5 my privilege & happ9ess to numb] among/ my intimate fri5ds4 ,h] piety 0 g5u9e1 & h] exp]i5ce ri* 9 ! enjoym5t ( close & con/ant communion ) ,god4 ,i admir$ h] on5ess ( "* & disposition--ev] ! same2 9 sickness & trial1 calm & submissive1 confid+ 9 ! love ( ! ,savi\r2 & 9 heal?1 delight+ to d good to ! ne$y & sick2 h] religion 0 n ! excitem5t ( mom5t>y feel+1 x 0 ! habitual pr9ciple & p[] ( grace4 ,9 disposition %e 0 k9d & *e]ful2 b x nev] deg5]at$ into levity1 & few h m fully exemplifi$ ! ,*ri/ian rule ( rejoic+ ) ^? t d rejoice1 & weep+ ) ^? t weep4 ,! ,rev4 ,luke ,wiseman writes3 ,my acqua9tance ) y\r "m 0 dur+ ! la/ ?ree ye>s ( h] life4 ,on arriv+ 9 ! ,york ,circuit1 %e 0 among ! fir/ :o 7 m5tion$ to me z pill>s 9 ! ,*ur*1 & ',mo!rs 9 ,israel4' ,i he>d h] "n m5tion$ ) respect by _m1 :o are !mselves entitl$ to ! highe/ reg>d1 sad 0 ?us prep>$1 be=e be+ introduc$ to h]1 to meet ) a v5]able1 & lively disciple ( our common ,"l4 ,nor 0 ,i disappo9t$4 ,:at %e 0 9 h] ye>s ( maturity o!rs c relate4 ,9 h] days ( bodily decl9e1 & feebl5ess1 ,i saw 9 h] a beautiful specim5 ( a *ild ( grace ne>+ ! heav5ly home4 ,h] appe>ance1 worn1 & some:at %rivell$1 yet reta9$ m>k$ traces ( uncommon en]gy4 ,h] features %>p5$ by age1 equally indicat$ p5etration1 & b5evol5ce4 ,h] voice 0 /ill good1 h] utt]ance rem>kably di/9ct1 & :5 %e spoke ( ! ?+s ( ,*ri/1 x 0 ) no subdu$ or half-aba%$ tone1 b ) ! same full1 cle>1 *e]ful voice4 ,x 0 impossible to d\bt t h] he>t 0 full ( heav5ly treasure f h] v mann] ( speak+ ( div9e ?+s1--easy1 en]getic1 un=c$1 graceful4 ,i am afraid1 t be+ s f> bel[ h] 9 div9e k1 my visits may h be5 ( b little b5efit to h]3 b h[ev] ?is may be1 !y 7 ( great b5efit to myself4 ,%e %ew$ an ard5t love = ! cause ( ,*ri/1 = ,8 m9i/]s1 & = all ,8 p4 ,%e appe>$ to feel be+ laid aside f active "w1 & among/ h] _m inquiries ab\t ! ,society1 %e w\ld n[ & !n utt] an expression ( regret1 t %e 0 n[ no m among/ !m z =m]ly4 ,%e _h a v cle> conception ( *ri/ian doctr9e1 & ,i believe an equally cle>1 & satisfy+ joy & peace ?r\gh be+ consci\sly accept$ 9 ,*ri/4 ,i nev] pass$ by h] h\se1 s f> z ,i c recollect1 )\t "s su* ?\ght z ?is :ile go+ by1 ',)9 ^! doors dwells "o :om ,jesus loves4' ,= ! foll[+ we are indebt$ to ! c\rtesy ( ! ,rev4 ,p4 ,mc,owan4 ,mrs4 ,ly? 0 9 ! decl9e ( life be=e x 0 my happ9ess to =m h] acqua9tance2 & consequ5tly ,i am b ill able to d ju/ice to h] *ri/ian "*1 or to po9t out ! v>i\s modes ( fai?ful pity+ love1 by :i* %e endeav\r$ 9 h] ye>s ( prime to glorify ,god1 & s]ve h] g5]ation4 ,x 0 impossible1 h[ev]1 to visit h]1 ev5 9 h] invalid /ate1 )\t be+ impress$ ) h] m5tal p[]1 em95t piety1 & scriptural intellig5ce2 )\t disc]n+ t %e 0 a '"m 9 ,israel4' ,9 my own case1 ^! impressions 7 s deep1 t1 ?\gh 9 my int]c\rse ) h] ,i _h to su/a9 ! ,pa/or's "p1 ,i (t51 f *oice1 occupi$ ! seat ( ! le>n]4 ,h] fav\rite !mes ( disc\rse1 7 ! love ( ,god 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 ! grace & wisdom ( ,div9e ,provid5ce1 ! great & preci\s promises1 *ri/ian exp]i5ce1 missions to ! hea!n1 & ! revival & ext5sion ( ! "w ( ,god 9 ! e>?4 ,i frequ5tly propos$ que/ions to elicit h] views on ^! & k9dr$ topics2 & :51 drawn out 9 conv]sation1 %e (t5 gave utt]ance to weighty & discrim9at+ ?\ghts1 judici\s c\nsels1 animat+ recollections ( ! pa/1 & bright anticipations ( ! future4 ,int]c\rse ) h] 0 truly a means ( grace2 & ,i g5]ally left h] glorify+ ,god on h] acc\nt1 & long+ = a d\ble portion ( h] _s4 ,mrs4 ,ly?1 l all :o excel 9 piety1 0 a dilig5t & dev\t /ud5t ( ! book ( ,god4 ,%e n only read ! scriptures1 b %e se>*$ !m2 %e pond]$ _! import1 & m$itat$ 9 !m day & night4 ,! result 01 ! ^w ( ,god dwelt 9 h] ri*ly1 9 all wisdom1 s t %e 0 able to tea* & admoni% o!rs ) s+ul> propriety & p[]4 ,h] accurate & ext5sive acqua9tance ) ! scriptures gave a ri*ness & impressiv5ess to h] conv]sation1 :i* aw$ ! trifl]1 edifi$ ! ?\ghtful1 & %$ light & com=t ^u ! m9ds ( anxi\s inquir]s4 ,_m ( h] own sex resort$ to h] = c\nsel z to an oracle2 & z %e g5]ally jo9$ 9 pray] ) h] inquir+ fri5ds1 h] advices & cautions became 9 num]\s in/ances1 z a nail fa/5$ 9 a sure place4 ,h] love = ! ,sanctu>y am\nt$ almo/ to a passion4 ,9 h] inn] life x /ood id5tifi$ ) vivid views ( sav+ tru?2 ri* manife/ations ( ,div9e love1 & trans=m+ effusions ( sanctify+ grace4 ,:5 9 heal?1 nei!r wea!r1 nor company1 nor any surm\ntable ob/acle1 c\ld keep h] at home1 :5 x 0 op5 = wor%ip2 & :5 enfeebl$ by age1 %e s\ght to improve ea* gleam ( sun%9e1 & ea* int]val ( return+ /r5g?1 by pay+ ano!r visit to ! sacr$ %r9e1 z if %e ?\ght ea* "o might be ! la/4 ,hav+ yield$ up h] son at ! call ( ! ,*ur* to ! p]ils ( a ,mission>y life1 9 a l& ( cannibals1 %e nev] revok$ ! gift1 nei!r grudg$ ! sacrifice4 ,h] mat]nal ye>n+s 7 (t5 excit$ by ! n>ration ( 8 suff]+s & privations2 b !y 7 nev] suff]$ to rise 9 mut9\s rebellion aga9/ ! ,div9e w4 ,= ne>ly tw5ty-two ye>s %e n only submitt$ to 8 abs5ce ) uncompla9+ meekness1 b %e ab\nd$ 9 ?anksgiv+s on 8 acc\nt1 & glori$ 9 ! sacrificial s]vices he 0 enabl$ to r5d] to ! cause ( ! ,r$eem]1 9 ! high places ( ! field4 ,mrs4 ,ly?'s religion made h] habitually happy4 ,fully assur$ ( h] acceptance 9 ! ,belov$1 walk+ daily 9 ! lib]ty ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god1 & ex]cis+ h]self to h always a consci5ce void ( (f5ce1 ! smile ( cont5tm5t re/$ on h] c\nt5ance2 b5ignity beam$ 9 h] eye2 ! law ( love regulat$ h] spee*1 :ile k9dness1 c\rtesy1 & a *e]ful urbanity1 m>k$ ! :ole ( h] deportm5t4 ,9 h] dress %e 0 simple1 neat & economical4 ,9 h] habits1 %e 0 a patt]n ( ord]1 e>ly ris+1 dilig5ce1 promptitude1 & punctuality4 ,possess+ inw>d peace1 %e 0 calm1 self-possess$1 firm1 & full ( tru/ 9 ! provid5ce ( ,god4 ,do+ "o ?+ at a "t1 & always int5t ^u do+ t ?+ well1 %e accompli%$ a great am\nt ( holy s]vice2 0 seldom 9 a hurry1 & always 9 "t at ! ,sanctu>y & ,class-meet+4 ,) su* traits ( "*1 & modes ( action1 x w n excite surprise t %e became a c5tre ( religions influ5ce 9 ! community to :i* %e belong$4 ,! sick s\ght h] pray]s1 p]sons 9 spiritual di/ress1 & temporal p]plexity1 appli$ to h] = advice2 ! poor appeal$ to h] = relief1 ! "y li/5$ to h] c\nsels1 & ^? :o 7 int5t ^u obta9+ a full salvation1 covet$ h] fri5d%ip1 /rove to imbibe h] _s1 & to imitate h] example4 ,9 age & feebl5ess extreme1 %e 0 div9ely support$ by h] ,savi\r's might2 & 0 *e]$ by ,8 love1 & ! hope ( behold+ ,8 glory4 ,no murmur+ ^w escap$ h] lips1 no sign ( impati5ce 0 visible 9 h] appe>ance & mann]2 b expressions ( gratitude1 praise1 & ?anksgiv+1 fl[$ f h] tongue1 & indicat$ ! peacefulness & purity ( h] m9d4 ,on h] dea?-b$ ,i f\nd h] calmly re/+ on ! m]its ( h] ,r$eem]4 ,h] c\nt5ance 0 full ( int]e/1 a placid smile re/$ ^u x1 & b = h] labori\s brea?+1 & int]rupt$ utt]ances1 hopes might h be5 ent]ta9$ t %e w\ld yet be sp>$1 %e 0 h]self hopefully wait+ ! h\r ( h] dismissal2 yet !re 0 "o e>?ly wi%1 :i* %e brea!d out 9 meek submission to h] heav5ly ,fa!r1 n yet gratifi$2 t 01 t %e might once m see h] ,mission>y son1 be=e %e quitt$ ! clay tab]nacle4 ,pray] 0 (f]$1 & among o!r petitions x 0 urg$1 t h] mat]nal desire might be grant$4 ,%e l+]$ on ! bord] l&1 till he arriv$1 & soon aft] hav+ kiss$ him1 & bless$ all pres5t1 %e fell asleep 9 ,jesus2 ! la/ acc5ts ( h] lips be+ ^? ( praise1 adoration1 & filial confid5ce4 ,we conclude ^! notices by ! foll[+ k9d words ( condol5ce f ! ,rev4 ,m4,c4 ,taylor4 ,i _c resi/ say+ h[ mu* ,i 0 affect$ by ! tid+s ( ! pass+ away ( y\r sa9t$ "m2 n t ,i c\ld m\rn = h]1 b ,i felt depriv$ & b]eav$ ( "o ( ! mo/ lovely & t\*+ pictures ( grace ,i h ev] se52 & ,i m\rn$ = myself4 ,h] "n & memory are an inh]itance inde$4 ,to h kn[n h] w be an hon\r & joy = ev]1--to h belong$ to h] is m ?an great ri*es4 ,hundr$s are ?is week glorify+ ,god 9 h]4 ,,london3 ,,pr9t$ ,,by ,,george ,,palm]1 ,,br[nl[ ,,/reet1 ,,high ,,holborn4 ,by ! same ,au?or1 ,,! ,,liv+ ,,sacrifice2 ,,or1 ,a ,,biographical ,,notice ,,( ,,s>ah ,,b5tley1 ,,( ,,york4 ,publi%$ by ,,john ,,mason1 #ff1 ,,pat]no/] ,,r[1 & may be _h ( all ,booksell]s4