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"n ( h] fa!r has be5 a h\sehold ^w among ! *ur*es n ( ,new ,engl& only1 b ?r\gh\t ! l& & ev5 beyond ! sea4 ,x is among ! mo/ belov$ & honor$ 9 ! annals ( ,am]ican piety4 #a ,he belong$ to a v old ,puritan /ock1 & to a family not$ dur+ two c5turies = ! numb] ( m9i/]s ( ! ,gospel :o h sprung f x4 ,! fir/ 9 ! l9e ( 8 ance/ry 9 ?is c\ntry 0 ,edw>d1 :o came ov] 9 ! brig ,hopewell1 ,william ,burdeck1 ,ma/]1 9 #afce-f1 & settl$ 9 ! t[n ( ,roxbury4 ,he 0 a native ( ,nas+1 ,essex ,co41 ,engl&4 ,among 8 fell[-pass5g]s 9 ! ,hopewell 0 ,m>y ,eliot1 !n a "y girl1 si/] ( ,john ,eliot1 ! illu/ri\s ,apo/le to ! ,indians4 ,"s ye>s lat] %e became 8 wife4 ,_! y\nge/ son1 ,samuel1 0 fa!r ( ! ,rev4 ,phillips ,payson1 :o 0 born at ,dor*e/]1 ,massa*usetts1 #agje1 & settl$ at ,walpole1 9 ! same ,/ate1 9 #agcj4 ,he _h f\r sons 9 ! m9i/ry1 all1 l himself1 graduates ( ,h>v>d ,college4 ,! y\nge/ ( ^!1 ! ,rev4 ,se? ,payson1 ,d4,d41 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' gr&fa!r1 0 born ,septemb] #cj1 #ageh1 0 orda9$ & settl$ at ,r9dge1 ,new ,hamp%ire1 ,decemb] #d1 #aghb1 & di$ !re1 aft] a pa/orate ( ?irty-sev5 ye>s1 ,febru>y #bf1 #ahbj4 ,8 wife 0 ,grata ,payson1 ( ,pomfret1 ,conn4 ,he 0 a man widely kn[n 9 8 day & ( mu* weight 9 ! community1 n only 9 8 own pr(ession b 9 civil life1 also1 hav+ sev]al times fill$ ! (fice ( ,/ate s5ator4 ,:5 9 #ahai a plan 0 =m$ to remove ,williams ,college to a m c5tral location1 & sev]al t[ns compet$ = ! honor1 ,dr4 ,payson 0 associat$ ) ,*ancellor ,k5t ( ,new ,york1 & ,gov]nor ,john ,cotton ,smi? ( ,connecticut1 z a committee to decide ^u ! rival claims4 ,he is describ$ z possess+ a %>p1 vigor\s intellect1 a lively imag9ation1 a v ret5tive memory1 & 0 univ]sally e/eem$ z an able & fai?ful m9i/] ( ,*ri/4 #b ,edw>d1 ! elde/ son ( ,se? & ,grata ,payson1 0 born at ,r9dge1 ,july #be1 #aghc4 ,8 "m 0 not$ = h] piety1 h] womanly discretion1 & h] p]sonal & m5tal graces4 ,edw>d 0 h] fir/-born1 & f 8 infancy to ! la/ ye> ( 8 life %e lavi%$ ^u him h] love & h] pray]s4 ,! relation betwe5 !m 0 v beautiful4 ,8 lett]s to h] are models ( filial devotion1 & h] lett]s to him are full ( t5d]ness1 good s5se1 & pi\s wisdom4 ,he inh]it$ "s ( h] mo/ /rik+ traits1 & ?r\gh him !y pass$ on to 8 y\nge/ daught]1 :o (t5 said t %e ow$ h] passion = ! use ( ! p5 & h] fondness = rhym+ to h] gr&mo!r ,grata4 #c ,edw>d ,payson 0 9 all respects a highly-gift$ man4 ,8 g5ius 0 z m>k$ z 8 piety4 ,!re is a *>m ab\t 8 "n & ! /ory ( 8 life1 t is n likely soon to pass away4 ,he belong$ to a class ( m5 :o seem to be *os5 ( ,heav5 to illu/rate ! sublime possibilities ( ,*ri/ian atta9m5t--m5 ( s]aphic f]vor ( devotion1 & ^: "o ov]ma/]+ passion is to w9 s\ls = ,*ri/ & to become :olly l ,him !mselves4 ,into ?is goodly fell[%ip he 0 e>ly initiat$4 ,!re is some?+ />tl+ 9 ! dep? & int5sity ( 8 religi\s emotions1 z record$ 9 8 j\rnal & lett]s4 ,nor is x to be d5i$ t !y are (t5 m>r$ by a v morbid elem5t4 ,l ,david ,bra9]d1 ! mission>y sa9t ( ,new ,engl&1 to :om 9 c]ta9 features ( 8 "* he bore no little resemblance1 ,edw>d ,payson 0 ( a melan*oly temp]am5t & subject1 !re=e1 to sudd5 & %>p alt]nations ( feel+4 ,:ile he _h great capacity = enjoym5t1 8 capacity = suff]+ 0 equally great4 ,nor 7 ^! native traits suppress$1 or always ov]rul$1 by 8 religi\s fai?2 on ! contr>y1 !y affect$ & modifi$ 8 :ole ,*ri/ian life4 ,9 its e>li] /ages1 he 0 apt to lay too mu* /ress by f> ^u fugitive frames1 & to mi/ake m]e we>9ess1 torpor1 & ev5 diseas$ action ( body or m9d1 = coldness t[>d 8 ,savi\r4 ,& almo/ to ! end ( 8 days he 01 occasionally1 visit$ by seasons ( spiritual gloom & depression1 :i*1 no d\bt1 7 *iefly1 if n solely1 ! result ( physical causes4 ,x 0 an error t grew readily out ( ! brood+ introspection & self-anatomy :i* m>k$ ! religi\s habit ( ! times4 ,! close connection betwe5 physical causes & morbid or abnormal conditions ( ! spiritual life1 0 n z well und]/ood !n z x is n[4 ,_m ?+s 7 ascrib$ to ,satanic influ5ce :i* %\ld h be5 ascrib$ r to un/rung n]ves & loss ( sleep1 or to a violation ( ! laws ( heal?4 #d ,! di/urb+ influ5ce ( n]v\s & o!r bodily or m5tal disord]s ^u religi\s exp]i5ce des]ves a full] discussion ?an x has yet receiv$4 ,x is a subject :i* bo? mod]n sci5ce & mod]n ?\ght1 if guid$ by ,*ri/ian wisdom1 might help greatly to elucidate4 ,! morbid & melan*oly elem5t1 h[ev]1 0 only a pa9ful incid5t ( 8 "*4 ,x t+$ 8 life ) a ve9 ( deep sadness & l$ to undue sev]ity ( self-discipl9e2 b x did n s]i\sly impair ! /r5g? & beauty ( 8 ,*ri/ian manhood4 ,x r s]v$ to br+ !m into full] relief1 & ev5 to r5d] m /rik+ ^? bright natural traits--! sportive humor1 ! ready "m wit1 ! faceti\s pleasantry1 ! ke5 s5se ( ! ridicul\s1 & ! wondr\s /ory-tell+ gift--:i* made him a mo/ delightful companion to "y & old1 to ! wise & ! unlett]$ alike4 ,x s]v$1 moreov]1 to imp>t peculi> t5d]ness to 8 pa/oral int]c\rse1 especially ) memb]s ( 8 flock tri$ & tempt$ l z he 04 ,he _h le>n$ h[ to c\nsel & com=t !m by ! ?+s :i* he also _h suff]$4 ,he may h be5 too exact+ & h>% 9 deal+ ) himself2 b 9 deal+ ) o!r s\ls no?+ c\ld exce$ ! g5tl5ess1 wisdom1 & soo?+ influ5ce ( 8 m9i/rations4 ,z a prea*] he 0 ! imp]sonation ( simple1 e>ne/1 & impassion$ utt]ance4 ,al?\gh n an orator 9 ! ord9>y s5se ( ! t]m1 he t\*$ ! he>ts ( 8 he>]s ) a p[] beyond ! rea* ( any oratory4 ,"s ( 8 pr9t$ s]mons are models 9 _! k9d2 t e4g4 on ,s9s e/imat$ by ! ,light ( ,heav51 & t address$ to ,seam54 ,8 !ology 0 a mild type ( ! old ,new ,engl& ,calv9ism1 modifi$1 on ! "o h&1 by ! influ5ce ( 8 favorite au?ors--su* z ,?omas ,kempis1 & ,f5elon1 ! ,puritan div9es ( ! sev5te5? c5tury1 ,john ,newton & ,ri*>d ,cecil--& on ! o!r1 by 8 own pr(\nd exp]i5ce & s]aphic love4 ,( 8 !ology1 8 prea*+ & 8 piety alike1 ,*ri/ 0 ! liv+ c5tre4 ,8 expressions ( p]sonal love to ! ,savi\r are surpass$ by no?+ 9 ! writ+s ( ! old my/ics4 ,"h is a passage f a lett] to 8 "m1 writt5 :ile he 0 /ill a "y pa/or3 ,i h sometimes he>d ( spells & *>ms to excite love1 & h wi%$ = !m1 :5 a boy1 t ,i might cause o!rs to love me4 ,b h[ mu* d ,i n[ wi% = "s *>m :i* %\ld lead m5 to love ! ,savi\r6444 ,c\ld ,i pa9t a true lik5ess ( ,him1 me?9ks ,i %\ld rejoice to hold x up to ! view & admiration ( all creation1 & be hid beh9d x =ev]4 ,x w\ld be heav5 en\gh to he> ,him prais$ & ador$4 ,b ,i c n pa9t ,him2 ,i c n describe ,him2 ,i c n make o!rs love ,him2 nay1 ,i c n love ,him a ?\s&? "p s mu* z ,i ought myself4 ,o1 = an angel's tongue6 ,o1 = ! tongues ( t5 ?\s& angels1 to s\nd ,8 praises4 ,he _h a rem>kable famili>ity ) ! ^w ( ,god & 8 m9d seem$ sur*>g$ ) its p[]4 ,y c\ld n1 9 conv]sation1 m5tion a passage ( ,scripture to him b y f\nd 8 s\l 9 h>mony ) x--! mo/ apt illu/rations w\ld fl[ f 8 lips1 ! fire ( devotion w\ld beam f 8 eye1 & y saw at once t n only c\ld he deliv] a s]mon f x1 b t ! ord9>y "t allott$ to a s]mon w\ld be exhau/$ be=e he c\ld p\r out ! fullness ( mean+ :i* a s5t5ce f ! ^w ( ,god pres5t$ to 8 m9d4 #e ,he 0 wond]fully gift$ 9 pray]4 ,"h all 8 intellectual1 imag9ative1 & spiritual p[]s 7 fus$ into "o & p\r$ !mselves =? 9 an unbrok5 /ream ( p5it5tial & ador+ affection4 ,:5 he said1 ,let u pray1 a div9e influ5ce seem$ to re/ ^u all pres5t4 ,8 pray]s 7 n m]e pi\s m5tal ex]cises1 !y 7 dev\t inspirations4 ,no "o c =m an adequate conception ( :at ,dr4 ,payson 0 f any ( ! productions ( 8 p54 ,admirable z 8 writt5 s]mons are1 8 extempore pray]s & ! gu%+s ( 8 he>t 9 famili> talk 7 altoge!r high] & m t\*+ ?an any?+ he wrote4 ,x 0 my cu/om to close my eyes :5 he began to pray1 & x 0 always a lett+ d[n1 a sort ( rude fall1 to op5 !m aga91 :5 he _h conclud$1 & f9d myself /ill on ! e>?4 ,8 pray]s always took my _s into ! imm$iate pres5ce ( ,*ri/1 amid ! glories ( ! spiritual _w2 & to look r\nd aga9 on ?is famili> & comp>atively mi/y e>? 0 almo/ pa9ful4 ,at e pray] ,i he>d him (f]1 dur+ ! sev5 ye>s 9 :i* he 0 my spiritual guide1 ,i nev] ceas$ to feel new a/oni%m5t1 at ! wond]ful v>iety & dep? & ri*ness & ev5 novelty ( feel+ & expression :i* 7 p\r$ =?4 ,?is 0 a feel+ ) :i* e he>] sympa?is$1 & x is a fact well-kn[n1 t ,*ri/ians tra9$ "u 8 influ5ce 7 g5]ally rem>kable = _! devotional habits4 #f ,dr4 ,payson possess$ r>e conv]sational p[]s & lov$ to wield !m 9 ! s]vice ( 8 ,ma/]4 ,:5 9 a g5ial mood--& ! mild excitem5t ( social int]c\rse g5]ally put him 9 su* a mood--8 famili> talk 0 equally delightful & in/ructive4 ,he 01 9 tru?1 an improvisatore4 ,quick p]ception1 an almo/ intuitive insight into "*1 an inexhau/ible fund ( fre%1 orig9al ?\ght & incid5t1 ! happie/ illu/rations1 & a memory t nev] falt]$ 9 recall+ :at he _h once read or se51 easy self-control1 & ard5t sympa?ies1 all conspir$ to give him ?is preem95ce4 ,)\t ef=t or any appe>ance ( incongruity he c\ld 9 turn be grave & gay1 playful & s]i\s4 ,?is came ( ! utt] s9c]ity & g5u95ess ( 8 "*4 ,!re 0 no?+ artificial ab\t him2 nature & grace _h full play &1 s to say1 con/antly ran into ea* o!r4 ,a ke5 obs]v]1 :o knew him well1 bo? 9 private & 9 public1 te/ifies3 ,8 faceti\sness inde$ 0 ev] a ne> neighbor to 8 piety1 if x 0 n a "p ( x2 & 8 mo/ *e]ful conv]sations1 s f> f putt+ 8 m9d out ( tune = acts ( religi\s wor%ip1 seem$ b a happy prep>ation = ! ex]cise ( devotional feel+s4 #g ,?is coexi/5ce ( s]i\s ) playful elem5ts is (t5 f\nd 9 natures ( unusual dep? & ri*ness1 j z tragic & comic p[]s sometimes co-exi/ 9 a great poet4 ,! same qualities t r5d]$ him su* a ma/] ( conv]sation1 l5t a pot5t *>m to 8 famili> religi\s talks 9 ! pray]-meet+1 at ! fireside1 or 9 ! social circle4 ,always eag] to speak = 8 ,ma/]1 he knew h[ to d x ) a wise skill & a t5d]ness ( feel+ t dis>m$ prejudice & sometimes won ! mo/ det]m9$ foe4 ,ev5 9 adm9i/]+ repro( or rebuke !re 0 ! happie/ union ( tact & g5tl5ess4 ,:at makes y blu% s8 said a reckless fell[ 9 ! /age1 to a pla9 c\ntry girl1 :o 0 receiv+ ! mail-bag at a po/ (fice f ! h& ( ! driv]4 ,:at makes y blu% s1 my de>8 ,p]haps1 said ,dr4 ,payson1 :o sat ne> him & 0 unobs]v$ till n[1 ,p]haps x is because "s "o spoke rudely to h] :5 ! /age 0 along "h ! la/ "t4 ,edw>d ,payson 0 graduat$ at ,h>v>d ,college 9 ! class ( #ahjc4 ,9 ! autumn ( t ye> he took *>ge ( an academy !n rec5tly e/abli%$ 9 ,portl&4 ,resign+ ?is position 9 #ahjf1 he return$ home & devot$ himself to ! /udy ( div9ity "u 8 fa!r's c>e4 ,he 0 lic5s$ to prea* 9 ,may1 #ahjg1 & a few mon?s lat] receiv$ a unanim\s call to ,portl&1 :]e he 0 orda9$ 9 ,decemb] ( ! same ye>4 ,on ! #h? ( ,may1 #ahaa1 he 0 m>ri$ to ,ann ,l\isa ,%ipman1 ( ,new ,hav51 ,conn4 ,an extract f a manly lett] to ,miss ,%ipman1 writt5 a few weeks aft] _! engagem5t1 w %[ ! _s :i* inspir$ him bo? z a lov] & a husb&3 ,:5 ,i wrote my fir/ lett] aft] my late visit1 ,i felt almo/ angry ) y & q s ) myself4 ,& :y angry ) y8 ,because ,i began to fe> y w\ld prove a dang]\s rival to my ,"l & ,ma/]1 & draw away my he>t f ,8 s]vice4 ,my ,l\isa1 %\ld ?is be ! case1 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly hate y4 ,i am ,*ri/'s2 ,i mu/ be ,*ri/'s2 ,he has pur*as$ me de>ly1 & ,i %\ld hate ! "m :o bore me1 if %e prov$ ev5 ! innoc5t occasion ( draw+ me f ,him4 ,i fe>$ t y w\ld d ?is4 ,= a little "t ! conflict ( my feel+s 0 dreadful beyond description4 ,= a few mom5ts ,i wi%$ ,i _h nev] se5 y4 ,_h y be5 a "r h&1 or a "r eye1 _h y be5 ! life-blood 9 my ve9s 7& y are de> to me z ei!r7 ,i mu/ h giv5 y up1 _h ,i cont9u$ to feel z ,i did4 ,b bless$ be ,god1 ,he has %[n me my weakness only to /r5g!n me4 ,i n[ feel v diff]5tly4 ,i /ill love y de>ly z ev]1 b my love leads me to ,*ri/ & n f ,him4 ,dr4 ,payson receiv$ repeat$ invitations to important *ur*es 9 ,bo/on & ,new ,york1 b decl9+ !m all1 cont9u$ 9 ! ,portl& pa/orate until 8 dea?1 :i* occurr$ ,octob] #bb1 #ahbg1 9 ! =ty-fif? ye> ( 8 age4 ,! clos+ mon?s ( 8 life 7 r5d]$ memorable by an extraord9>y triumph ( ,*ri/ian fai? & pati5ce1 z well z ( ! p[] ( m9d ov] matt]4 ,8 bodily suff]+ & agonies 7 indescribable1 b1 l "o ( ! old m>tyrs 9 ! mid/ ( ! flames1 he seem$ to =get !m all 9 ! greatness ( 8 spiritual joy4 ,9 a lett] writt5 %ortly aft] 8 dea?1 ,mrs4 ,payson gives a t\*+ acc\nt ( ! t5d] & ?\ghtful conc]n = h] happ9ess :i* m>k$ 8 la/ illness4 ,kn[+1 = example1 t %e w\ld be compell$ to "p ) h] h\se1 he 0 anxi\s to h a small] "o pur*as$ & occupi$ at once1 s t 8 pres5ce 9 x = a little :ile might make x seem m home-l to h] & to h] *ildr5 aft] he 0 gone4 ,to tell y 7%e adds7 :at he 0 ! la/ six memorable weeks w\ld be altoge!r beyond my skill4 ,all :o beheld him call$ 8 c\nt5ance angelic4 ,%e !n repeats "s ( 8 f>ewell words to h]4 ,begg+ t1 %e w\ld n dwell ^u 8 poor1 %att]$ frame1 b foll[ 8 bless$ _s to ! realms ( glory1 he bur/ =? into an exultant song ( delight1 z if already he saw ! ,k+ 9 ,8 beauty6 ,! well-kn[n lett] to 8 si/] ,eliza1 dat$ a few weeks be=e 8 dep>ture1 brea!s ! same _s4 ,"h is an extract f x3 ,7 ,i to adopt ! figurative language ( ,bunyan1 ,i might date ?is lett] f ! l& ( ,beulah1 ( :i* ,i h be5 = "s weeks a happy inhabitant4 ,! cele/ial city is full 9 my view4 ,its glories beam ^u me1 its breezes fan me1 its odors are waft$ to me1 its s\nds /rike ^u my e>1 & its _s is brea!d into my he>t4 ,no?+ sep>ates me f x b ! riv] ( dea?1 :i* n[ appe>s b z an insignificant rill1 t may be cross$ at a s+le /ep1 :5ev] ,god %all give p]mission4 ,! ,sun ( ,righte\sness has be5 gradually draw+ ne>] & ne>]1 appe>+ l>g] & bright] z ,he approa*$1 & n[ ,he fills ! :ole hemisph]e1 p\r+ =? a flood ( glory1 9 :i* ,i seem to float l an insect 9 ! beams ( ! sun1 exult+ yet almo/ trembl+ :ile ,i gaze on ?is excessive brightness1 & wond]+1 ) unutt]able wond]1 :y ,god %\ld deign ?us to %9e ^u a s9ful worm4 ,a s+le he>t & a s+le tongue seem altoge!r inadequate to my wants2 ,i want a :ole he>t = e sep>ate emotion1 & a :ole tongue to express t emotion4 ,b :y d ,i speak ?us ( myself & my feel+s8 :y n speak only ( our ,god & ,r$eem]8 ,x is because ,i "k n :at to say--:5 ,i w\ld speak ( !m my words are all swall[$ up4 ,& ?us1 gaz+ already ^u ! ,beatific ,vision1 he pass$ on into glory4 ,:at is writt5 conc]n+ 8 ,"l & ,ma/] might ) almo/ lit]al tru? h be5 inscrib$ ov] 8 grave3 ,! zeal ( ,?y h\se ha? eat5 me up4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,bir? & ,*ildhood ( ,elizabe? ,payson4 ,e>ly ,traits4 ,devotion to h] ,fa!r4 ,8 ,influ5ce ^u h]4 ,lett]s to h] ,si/]4 ,removal to ,new ,york4 ,rem9isc5ces ( ! ,payson ,family4 ,elizabe? ,payson 0 born ab\t ?ree o'clock--s h] fa!r records x--on ,tuesday aft]noon1 ,octob] #bf1 #ahah4 ,%e 0 ! fif? ( eight *ildr51 two ( :om di$ 9 infancy4 ,all good influ5ces seem to h encircl$ h] natal h\r4 ,9 a lett] to 8 "m1 dat$ ,octob] #bg1 ,dr ,payson enum]ates six special m]cies1 by :i* ! happy ev5t _h be5 cr[n$4 ,"o ( !m 0 ! gratification ( ! "m's wi% = a daught] r ?an a son4 ,ano!r 0 ,god's goodness to him 9 sp>+ bo? ! "m & ! *ild 9 spite ( 8 fe> t he %\ld lose !m4 ,?is fe>1 /rangely en\gh1 0 occasion$ by ! unusual religi\s peace & com=t :i* he _h be5 enjoy+4 ,he _h a pres5tim5t t 9 ?is way ,god 0 =e>m+ him = "s extraord9>y trial2 & ! loss ( 8 wife seem$ to him mo/ likely to be t trial4 ,god has be5 s graci\s to me 9 spiritual ?+s1 t ,i ?\ght ,he 0 prep>+ me = ,l\isa's dea?4 ,inde$ x may be s /ill1 & if s ,8 w be done4 ,let ,him take all--& if ,he leaves u ,himself we /ill h all & ab\nd4 ,! next day he writes3 ,/ill ,god is k9d to u4 ,l\isa & ! babe cont9ue z well z we c\ld desire4 ,truly1 my cup runs ov] ) bless+s4 ,i c /ill sc>cely help ?9k+ t ,god is prep>+ me = "s sev]e trial2 b if ,he w grant me ,8 pres5ce z ,he does n[1 no trial c seem sev]e4 ,oh1 c\ld ,i n[ drop ! body1 ,i w\ld /& & cry to all et]nity )\t be+ we>y3 ,god is holy1 ,god is j1 ,god is good2 ,god is wise & fai?ful & true4 ,ei!r ( ,8 p]fections alone is suffici5t to furni% matt] = an et]nal1 unwe>i$ song4 ,c\ld ,i s+ ^u pap] ,i %\ld break =? into s++1 = day & night ,i c d no?+ b s+ ,let ! sa9ts be joyful1 etc41 etc4 ,b ,i mu/ close4 ,i c n s5d s mu* love & ?ankfulness to my p>5ts z !y des]ve4 ,my pres5t happ9ess1 all my happ9ess ,i ascribe "u ,god to !m & _! pray]s4 ,surely1 a home inspir$ & rul$ by su* a _s 0 a sweet home to be born into6 ,! notices ( ,elizabe?'s *ildhood depict h] z a d>k-ey$1 delicate little creature1 ( sylph-l =m1 res]v$ & %y 9 ! pres5ce ( /rang]s1 ( a sweet disposition1 & v int5se 9 h] sympa?ies4 ,until ,i 0 ?ree ye>s old "m says ,i 0 a little angel1 %e once wrote to a fri5d4 ,h] con/itution 0 feeble1 & %e inh]it$ f h] fa!r 8 high-/rung n]v\s temp]am5t4 ,i nev] knew :at x 0 to feel well1 %e wrote 9 #ahdj4 ,sev]e pa9 9 ! side1 fa9t+ turns1 ! sick heada*e1 & o!r ailm5ts tr\bl$ h]1 m or less1 f infancy4 ,%e _h an eye wide op5 to ! _w ab\t h]1 & quick to cat* its v>y+ aspects ( light & beauty1 :e!r on l& or sea4 ,! %ips & :>ves n f> f h] fa!r's h\se1 ! obs]vatory & =t on ! hill ov]look+ ,casco ,bay1 ! ,:ite ,m\nta9s f> away 9 ! di/ance1 ,de]+'s oaks1 ! rope-walk1 & ! anci5t bury+-gr\nd--^! & o!r famili> objects ( ! de> old t[n1 commemorat$ by ,longfell[ 9 8 poem entitl$ ,my ,lo/ ,y\?1 7 indelibly fix$ 9 h] memory & foll[$ h] :]ev] %e w5t1 to ! end ( h] days4 ,9 h] movem5ts %e 0 light-foot$1 v5turesome to ra%ness1 & at times wild ) fun & frolic4 ,h] :ole be+ 0 s impressionable t ?+s pleasant & ?+s pa9ful /amp$ !mselves ^u x z ) ! po9t ( a diamond4 ,:atev] %e did1 :atev] %e felt1 %e felt & did z = h] life4 ,allusion has be5 made to ! int5sity ( h] sympa?ies4 ,! sight or tale ( suff]+ w\ld set h] 9 a tremor ( excitem5t2 & 9 h] eag]ness to give relief %e seem$ ready = any sacrifice1 h[ev] great4 ,?is trait arre/$ ! obs]vant eye ( h] fa!r1 & he express$ to ,mrs4 ,payson 8 fe> le/ x might "s day prove a real mis=tune to ! *ild4 ,%e w be 9 dang] ( m>ry+ a bl9d man1 or a helpless cripple1 out ( pure sympa?y1 he once said4 ,b by f> ! /ronge/ ( all ! impressions ( h] *ildhood relat$ to h] fa!r4 ,8 pres5ce 0 to h] ! happie/ spot on e>?1 & any special expression ( 8 affection w\ld ?r[ h] into an ec/asy ( delight4 ,:5 he 0 away %e p9$ = 8 return4 ,! *ildr5 all s5d a great deal ( love1 & ,elizabe? says1 ,d tell ,papa to come home1 wrote h] "m to him1 :5 %e 0 six ye>s old4 ,h] recollections ( h] fa!r 7 s+ul>ly vivid4 ,%e c\ld describe m9utely 8 dome/ic habits1 h[ he look$ & talk$ z he sat by ! fireside or at ! table1 8 delight 9 & skillful use ( c>p5t]s' tools1 8 +5i\s devices = amus+ h] & div]t+ 8 own we>9ess z he lay sick 9 b$1 e4g41 te>+ up %eets ( :ite pap] into t9y bits1 & !n lett+ h] p\r !m out ( ! w9d[ to make believe x sn[$1 or c\nt+ all ! bri/les 9 a clo!s-bru%1 & !n z %e came 9 f s*ool1 hold+ x up & bidd+ h] guess _! numb]--8 coolness & effici5cy 9 ! wild excitem5ts ( a conflagration1 ! calm delib]ation ) :i* he walk$ pa/ ! horror-/rick5 look]s on & cut ! rope by :i* a suicide 0 susp5d$2 ^! & o!r incid5ts %e w\ld recall a ?ird ( a c5tury aft] 8 dea?1 z if %e _h j he>d ( or j witness$ !m4 ,to h] *ild's imag9ation 8 memory seem$ to be inve/$ ) ! triple halo ( fa!r1 h]o1 & sa9t4 ,a little picture ( him 0 always ne> h]4 ,%e nev] m5tion$ 8 "n )\t t5d] affection & rev]5ce4 ,nor is ?is at all /range4 ,%e 0 almo/ n9e ye>s old :5 he di$2 & 8 influ5ce1 dur+ ^! ye>s1 p5etrat$ to h] inmo/ be+4 ,%e once said t ( h] fa!r's virtues "o only--punctuality--_h desc5d$ to h]4 ,b "h %e 0 surely wrong4 ,n only did %e owe to him "s ( ! mo/ /rik+ peculi>ities ( h] physical & m5tal con/itution1 b h] piety itself1 if n inh]it$1 0 l>gely inspir$ & %ap$ by 84 ,9 ! :ole tone & expression ( h] e>li] religi\s life1 at lea/1 "o sees him cle>ly reflect$4 ,8 devotional habits1 9 p>ticul>1 left ^u h] an indelible impression4 ,once1 :5 f\r or five ye>s old1 ru%+ by mi/ake into 8 room1 %e f\nd him pro/rate ^u 8 face--completely lo/ 9 pray]4 ,a %ort "t be=e h] dea?1 speak+ ( ?is sc5e to a fri5d1 %e rem>k$ t ! remembrance ( x _h influ5c$ h] ev] s9ce4 ,:at somebody said ( ,s>a ,col]idge might inde$ h be5 said ) no less tru? ( ,elizabe? ,payson3 ,h] fa!r _h look$ d[n into h] eyes & left 9 !m ! light ( 8 own4 ,! only records ( h] *ildhood f h] own p5 consi/ ( ! foll[+ lett]s1 writt5 to h] si/]1 :ile ! latt] 0 pass+ a ye> 9 ,bo/on4 ,%e 0 !n n9e ye>s old4 ,,portl&1 ,may #ah1 #ahbh4 ,my de> si/]3--,i ?ank y = writ+ to su* a little girl z ,i am1 :5 y h s little "t4 ,i 0 go+ to /udy a little cate*ism :i* ,miss ,m>t9 has got1 b %e said ,i c\ld n le>n x4 ,i want to le>n x4 ,i d n l to /ay s long at s*ool4 ,we h to write composition by dictation1 z ,miss ,m>t9 calls x4 ,%e reads to u out ( a book a s5t5ce at a "t4 ,we write x & !n we write x aga9 on our slates1 because we d n always get ! :ole2 !n we write x on a piece ( pap]4 ,miss ,m>t9 says ,i may say my ,sunday-s*ool lesson !re4 ,mr4 ,mit*ell has _h a great _m new books4 ,i h be5 sick4 ,doctor ,cumm+s has be5 "h & says ,e4 is bett] & he ?9ks he w n h a fev]4444 ,g4 goes to s*ool to ,miss ,libby1 & ,h4 goes to ,ma/] ,jackson4 ,h4 s5ds 8 love4 ,good-bye4 ,y\r affectionate si/]1 ,e4 ,,payson1 ,septemb] #bi1 #ahbh4 ,my de> si/]3--,i ?9k y 7 v k9d to write to me1 :5 y h s little "t4 ,i began to g to ,mrs4 ,petrie's s*ool a week ago ye/]day4 ,i /ay at home ,mondays 9 ! morn+ to assi/ 9 tak+ c>e ( ,*>les or su* little ?+s z ,i c d4 ,g4 goes ) me4 ,:5 "m put ,*>les & him to b$1 z soon z %e _h done pray+ ) !m1 ,g4 said1 ,"m1 w ?is _w be all burnt up :5 we are dead8 ,%e said1 ,yes1 my de>1 x w4 ,:at1 & all ! di%es too8 w !y melt l lead8 & w ! gr\nd be burnt up too8 ,o :at a na/y fire x w make4 ,i saw ! ,nor!rn lights la/ night4 ,i sleep 9 a v l>ge pleasant room 9 ! b$ ) "m4444 ,i h a v pleasant room = my baby-h\se ov] ! por* :i* has two w9d[s & a fireplace 9 x1 & a little cupbo>d too4 ,e4 ,wood & ,i are z intimate z ev]4 ,i suppose y "k t ,mr4 ,wood is build+ him a brick h\se4 ,mrs4 ,m]ril's little baby is dead4 ,x 0 buri$ ye/]day aft]noon4 ,mr4 ,mussey lives across ! /reet f u4 ,he has a great _m elm trees 9 8 front y>d4 ,8 h\se is ?ree /ories high & ! trees rea* to ! top4 ,we h he>d two or ?ree times f ,e4 s9ce he w5t away4 ,ye/]day all ! ,sabba?-s*ools walk$ 9 a procession & !n w5t to our meet+-h\se & ,mr4 ,william ,cutt] address$ !m4 ,i am y\r affectionate si/]1 ,e4 ,payson4 ,h] feeble con/itution expos$ h] to sev]e attacks ( disease1 & 9 ,may1 #ahcj1 %e 0 br\ght to ! v]ge ( ! grave by a viol5t fev]4 ,h] "m 0 deeply mov$ by ?is ev5t1 & :ile record+ 9 h] j\rnal ,god's goodness 9 sp>+ ,elizabe?1 wond]s :e!r x is to ! end t %e may "o day devote h]self to h] ,savi\r & d some?+ = ! honor ( religion4 ,9 ! latt] "p ( #ahcj ,mrs4 ,payson remov$ to ,new ,york1 :]e h] elde/ daught] op5$ a s*ool = girls4 ,x 0 dur+ ?is resid5ce 9 ,new ,york t ,elizabe?1 at ! age ( twelve ye>s1 made a public confession ( ,*ri/ & came to ! ,"l's table = ! fir/ "t4 ,%e 0 receiv$ into ! ,bleeck] /reet--n[ ! ,f\r? av5ue--,presbyt]ian *ur*1 !n "u ! pa/oral c>e ( ! ,rev4 ,ersk9e ,mason1 ,d4,d41 ,may #a1 #ahca4 ,t[>d ! close ( ! same ye> ! family return$ to ,portl&4 ,9 a lett] address$ to h] husb&1 "o ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' olde/ fri5ds n[ liv+1 ,miss ,julia ,d4 ,willis1 has furni%$ ! foll[+ rem9isc5ces ( h] e>ly ye>s4 ,:ile !y confirm :at has be5 said ab\t h] *ildhood1 !y are especially valuable = ! glimpses !y give ( h] fa!r & "m & si/]4 ,! ,willis & ,payson families 7 v intimate & w>mly atta*$ to ea* o!r4 ,mr4 ,na?aniel ,willis1 ! fa!r ( ,n4 ,p4 ,willis ! poet1 0 well kn[n 9 connection ) ,! ,bo/on ,record]1 ( :i* he 0 = _m ye>s ! conductor & proprietor4 ,bo? ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,willis *]i%$ ! mo/ affectionate v5]ation = ! memory ( ,dr4 ,payson4 ,s long z %e liv$ _! h\se 0 a home to ,mrs4 ,payson & h] daught]s1 :5ev] !y visit$ ,bo/on4 ,z a prea*] ,dr4 ,payson c\ld n fail to make a /rong impression ev5 on a *ild4 ,ye>s ago 9 ,new ,york ,i once told ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 :o 0 too "y1 at h] fa!r's dea?1 to rememb] him well 9 ! pulpit1 t ! only public speak] :o ev] rem9d$ me ( him1 0 ,edw9 ,boo? 9 ,hamlet4 ,i surpris$1 &1 ,i am afraid1 a little %ock$ h]1 b x 0 q true4 ,! sl5d] figure1 ! d>k1 brilliant eyes1 ! deep e>ne/ness ( tone1 ! rapid utt]ance comb9$ ) p]fect di/9ctness ( enunciation1 9 spite ( surr\nd+s ! be/ calculat$ to repel su* an association1 recall$ him vividly to my memory4 ,my fa!r's connection ) ! religi\s press aft] 8 removal f ,portl& to ,bo/on1 br\ght _m cl]gym5 to our h\se1 :o (t51 9 ! k9dness ( _! he>ts1 requit$ hospitality by religi\s conv]sation ) ! *ildr51 n *ur* memb]s1 & presumably1 !re=e1 imp5it5t4 ,i did n always appreciate ?is k9dness z x des]v$1 & (t5 ex]cis$ consid]able +5uity to avoid be+ alone ) !m4 ,9 ,dr4 ,payson's case1 ,i soon le>n$1 on ! contr>y1 to seek su* occasions4 ,i 0 sure t be=e long he w\ld look up f 8 book1 or 8 manuscript1 & h some?+ pleasant or playful to say to me4 ,8 g5]al conv]sation1 h[ev]1 0 (t5] on religi\s ?an on any o!r subjects1 b x 0 s evid5tly f ! fullness ( 8 he>t1 & 8 vivid imag9ation af=d$ him su* a weal? ( illu/ration1 t x 0 delightful ev5 to an imp5it5t *ild4 ,ye>s aft]w>d :5 ,i read 9 8 ,memoir ( 8 despond+ temp]am5t1 ( 8 seasons ( gloom1 ( ! s5se ( s9 "u :i* he 0 b[$ d[n1 x seem$ impossible to me t x c\ld be my ,dr4 ,payson4 ,i visit$ ,portl& & 0 an inmate ( 8 family1 at ! comm5cem5t ( ! illness t f9ally prov$ fatal4 ,he 0 n conf9$ to 8 b$1 or to 8 room1 b he 0 =bidd51 inde$ unable1 to prea*1 unable to write or /udy2 he c\ld only read & ?9k4 ,/ill he did n %ut himself up 9 8 /udy ) 8 sad ?\ghts4 ,i rememb] him z usually seat$ ) 8 book by ! side ( ! fire1 surr\nd$ by 8 family1 z if he w\ld enjoy _! society z long z possible1 & ! *ildr5's play 0 nev] hu%$ on 8 acc\nt4 ,nor did he =get ! "y visitor4 ,:5 ! eld] daught]1 to :om my visit 0 made1 0 at s*ool1 he w\ld c>e = my ent]ta9m5t by tell+ a /ory1 or prop\nd+ a riddle1 or provid+ an ent]ta9+ book to beguile ! "t till ,l\isa's return4 ,among ! gr\p 9 t *e]ful room1 ,i rememb] ,lizzy well1 a beautiful *ild1 sl5d]1 d>k-ey$1 light-foot$1 v quiet1 evid5tly obs]vant1 b say+ little1 affectionate1 yet n demon/rative4 ,"o ev5+ dur+ my visit1 ,mrs4 ,payson n be+ q well1 ! eld]s _h retir$ e>ly1 leav+ ,l\isa & myself by ! side ( ! fire1 %e prep>+ h] s*ool lesson & ,i occupi$ 9 read+4 ,! lesson f9i%$1 ,l\isa propos$ retir+1 b ,i 0 too mu* int]e/$ 9 my book to leave x & promis$ to foll[ soon4 ,%e left me r reluctantly1 & ,i read on1 too mu* absorb$ 9 my book to notice ! "t1 till ne> midnight1 :5 ,i 0 />tl$ by he>+ ,dr4 ,payson's /ep ^u ! /airs4 ,i expect$ ! repro( :i* ,i c]ta9ly des]v$1 b ?\gh evid5tly surpris$ at see+ me1 he m]ely said1 ,y "h8 y mu/ be cold4 ,:y did y let ! fire g out8 ,br++ 9 "s wood he soon rek9dl$ x1 & began to talk to me ( ! book ,i 0 read+1 :i* 0 "o ( ,walt] ,scott's poems4 ,he !n spoke ( a poem :i* he _h be5 read+ t day1 ,s\!y's ,curse ( ,kehama4 ,he relat$ to me ) p]fect cle>ness ! long & r involv$ /ory1 ) t wond]ful memory ( 81 nev] once =gett+ or confus+ ! /range ,ori5tal names1 & repeat+ ^w = ^w ! curse3 ,i *>m ?y life1 f ! weapons ( /rife1 ,f /one & f wood1 f fire & f flood1 ,f ! s]p5t's too?1 & ! bea/s ( blood1 ,f sickness ,i *>m !e1 & "t %all n h>m !e1 etc41 etc4 ,i li/5$1 int5t1 fasc9at$1 =got to ask :y he 0 !re in/ead ( 9 8 b$1 =got t x 0 midnight in/ead ( mid-day4 ,x 0 n till on bidd+ me good night he add$1 ,i hope y w h a bett] night ?an ,i %all1 t x occurr$ to me t he mu/ be suff]+4 ,! next day ,i le>n$ f 8 wife t :5 unable to sleep on acc\nt ( 8 rack+ c\gh1 he (t5 left 8 b$ at night1 ! c\gh be+ m endurable :5 9 a sitt+ po/ure4 ,i nev] saw ,dr4 ,payson aft] t visit1 nor = sev]al ye>s any ( ! family1 except ,l\isa1 :o sp5t a ye> ) u :ile att5d+ s*ool 9 ,bo/on to fit h]self z a tea*] to aid 9 ! support ( h] y\ng] bro!rs & si/]4 ,:5 ,i 0 next ) !m1 ,l\isa 0 already at ! head ( a s*ool 9 :i* h] "y si/] 0 ! brighte/ pupil1 & to ! pr(its ( :i* %e laid no p]sonal claim1 all go+ unt\*$ into ! family purse4 ,sev]al "y girls1 ,l\isa's pupils1 _h be5 receiv$ z bo>d]s 9 ! family1 & occasionally a cl]gyman 0 add$ to ! numb]4 ,x 0 dur+ ?is visit t ,i fir/ le>n$ to appreciate ,mrs4 ,payson4 ,n[ t %e /ood alone at ! head ( ! h\sehold1 ei!r h] f9e qualities 7 9 bold] relief1 or ,i be+ old]1 0 bett] able to e/imate !m4 ,! s+ul> vivacity ( h] intellect made h] a delightful companion4 ,!n h] y\? _h be5 pass$ 9 ! lit]>y circles ( ,new ,hav5 & ,&ov]1 & %e _h mu* to tell ( di/+ui%$ p kn[n to me only by reputation4 ,i admir$ h] firm yet g5tle rule1 s skilfully adapt$ to ! v>y+ natures "u h] *>ge2 h] consci5ti\s /udy ( t homely virtue economy1 s di/a/eful to "o ( h] naturally lavi% temp]1 always ready to give to ^? 9 ne$ to an ext5t :i* call$ =? con/ant remon/rances f m prud5t fri5ds2 h] alacrity also 9 all h\sehold labors1 :i* ! m excit$ my wond]1 kn[+ ! little opportunity %e c\ld h _h to practise !m amid ! weal? ( h] fa!r's h\se be=e ! ,emb>go1 :i* lat] wreck$ 8 =tune ) ^? ( s _m o!r ,new ,engl& m]*ants4 ,%e 01 inde$1 ( a mo/ noble nature1 hat+ all meanness & inju/ice1 & full ( helpful k9dness & sympa?y4 ,no woman ev] _h w>m] or m devot$ fri5ds4 ,bo? at ?is "t & 9 subsequ5t visits1 z %e advanc$ f *ildhood to girlhood1 ,i rememb] ,lizzy well2 al?\gh my att5tion 0 *iefly absorb$ by ! eld] si/] ( my own age1 my pr9cipal companion :5 pres5t1 & correspond5t :5 abs5t4 ,! two si/]s 7 /rongly contra/$4 ,l\isa1 z a *ild1 0 afflict$ ) a s5sitive1 almo/ morbid %yness & res]ve1 & an incapacity = enjoy+ ! society ( o!r *ildr5 ^: ta/es 7 uncong5ial ) h] own4 ,! %yness pass$ ) h] *ildhood1 b ! s5sitiv5ess & exclusiv5ess nev] q left h]4 ,h] love ( books 0 a passion1 & %e w\ld res5t an unfair criticism ( a favorite au?or z w>mly z if x 7 an attack on a p]sonal fri5d4 ,to ,lizzy1 on ! contr>y1 a fri5d 0 a book :i* %e lov$ to read4 ,human nature 0 h] favorite /udy4 ,!re seem$ to be no "o 9 :om %e c\ld n f9d some?+ to int]e/ h]1 none ) :om !re 0 n "s po9t ( sympa?y4 ,comb9$ ) ?is wide & g5ial sympa?y 0 ano!r quality :i* help$ to ende> h] to h] companions1 viz41 an entire abs5ce ( all attempt to %[ h] be/ side1 or put ! be/ face on any?+ t conc]n$ h]4 ,an +5u\s frankness ab\t h]self & h] affairs--ev5 ab\t h] little weaknesses--0 "o ( h] mo/ /rik+ traits4 ,no "o1 inde$1 c\ld "k h] )\t le>n+ to love h] de>ly4 ,yet if ,i %\ld say t 9 my visits to ,portl&1 ,lizzy always appe>$ to me pre-em95tly ! life & *>m ( ! h\sehold1 x w\ld n be exactly true1 ?\gh %e w\ld h be5 s ( almo/ any o!r h\sehold4 ,! ,payson family 0 a delightful "o to visit1 all 7 s bright1 & 9 ! conte/ ( wits t took place (t5 betwe5 ,lizzy & h] m]ry bro!rs1 x 0 sometimes h>d to tell :i* bore (f ! palm4 ,i d n "k t ,i ev] ?\ght ( h] at t "t z an au?or4 ,if anybody _h pr$ict$ to me t "o ( t gr\p w\ld be ! writ] ( books1 :i* w\ld n only h a wide circulation at home1 b be translat$ into =eign languages1 ,i %\ld c]ta9ly h select$ ,l\isa1 & ,i ?9k mo/ p]sons :o knew !m w\ld h done ! same4 ,! eld] si/]'s passion = books1 h] great p[]s ( acquisition1 ! range ( h] atta9m5ts--embrac+ n only mod]n languages & _! lit]ature1 b ,lat91 ,greek & ,hebrew--h] ability to ma9ta9 discussions on ,g]man metaphysics & !ology ) le>n$ ,pr(essors1 all seem$ to po9t h] out z ! "o likely to a*ieve di/9ction 9 ! lit]>y _w4 ,i d n rememb] :e!r x 0 ,lizzy's e>ly contributions to ,! ,y\?'s ,companion1 %[+ already ! g]m ( ! creative p[] 9 h]1 or h] lett]s to h] si/]1 :i* fir/ sugge/$ to me t ! pleasure h] fri5ds f\nd 9 h] conv]sation might yet be enjoy$ by ^? :o w\ld nev] see h]4 ,l\isa _h giv5 up h] s*ool = ! m cong5ial employm5t ( contribut+ to magaz9es & reviews & ( writ+ *ildr5's books4 ,& z ! great] lit]>y res\rces ( ,bo/on drew h] ?i!r1 %e 0 (t5 = mon?s a welcome gue/ at our h\se1 :]e %e fir/ met ,pr(essor ,hopk9s ( ,william/[n1 & :om %e aft]w>d m>ri$4 ,! lett]s :i* ,lizzy wrote to h] at ^? times 7 nev] all[$ to be ! monopoly ( "o p]son2 we all claim$ a "r to read !m4 ,! ease ) :i* 9 ^! %e seem$ to talk ) h] p51 ! m+l$ pa?os & humor ) :i* %e w\ld relate all ! little joys & sorr[s ( daily life1 leav+ h] read]s betwe5 a smile & a te>1 %[$ ! same *>act]i/ics :i* aft]w>d made h] publi%$ writ+s s mu* m g5]ally attractive ?an ! grav] ones ( h] eld] si/]4 ,b ,l\isa's fail+ heal? soon aft] h] m>riage1 & ! long ye>s ( suff]+ :i* foll[$1 prev5t$ h] ev] do+ ju/ice to ! expectations h] fri5ds _h =m$ = h]4 ,! occasion ( my next visit to ,portl& 0 a lett] f ,mrs4 ,payson to my "m1 :o 0 h] con/ant correspond5t1 9 :i* %e spoke sadly ( an indisposition %e fe>$ 0 ! precursor ( s]i\s illness1 b :i* *iefly tr\bl$ h] on acc\nt ( ,lizzy's di/ress t h] s*ool prev5t$ h] be+ con/antly ) h] "m4 ,an (f] on my "p to come & take h] place1 9 h] h\rs ( necess>y abs5ce1 0 at once accept$4 ,mrs4 ,payson's illness prov$ less s]i\s ?an _h be5 fe>$1 & once m ,i pass$ sev]al pleasant weeks 9 t h\se2 b ! pleasante/ h\rs ( ! day 7 ^? 9 :i* ,lizzy1 return+ f s*ool1 sat d[n at h] "m's b$side & amus$ h] ) h] talk ab\t h] pupils1 _! v>i\s *>act]s & ! progress !y _h made 9 _! /udies1 or relat$ little incid5ts ( ! s*ool-room--) h] usual frankness n omitt+ ^? :i* reveal$ "s fault1 or :at %e consid]$ su*1 on h] "p1 especially h] impulsiv5ess t l$ h] (t5 to say ?+s %e aft]w>d regrett$4 ,z an example1 "o ( h] pupils 0 read+ ,fr5* to h] & com+ to ! expression ,mon ,dieu6 s common 9 ,fr5* n>ratives1 _h pron\nc$ x s badly t ,lizzy exclaim$1 ,mon ,doo8 ,he w\ld n "k himself :at y meant6 ,! laugh :i* x 0 impossible to repress1 did n dim9i% h] compunction at :at %e fe>$ h] pupils w\ld reg>d z irrev]5ce on h] "p4 ,i believe ,i always *]i%$ suffici5t affection = my tea*]s1 & yet ,i 0 n a little a/oni%$ on accompany+ ,lizzy to s*ool "o day1 to see z we turn$ ! corn] ( a /reet a ru% ( girls ) unbonnet$ heads1 to greet _! "y tea*] = :om !y _h be5 wat*+1 & escort h] to h] ?rone 9 ! s*ool-room1 & evid5tly 9 _! he>ts4 ,= a ye> or two aft] ?is visit ,i h no recollection ( h]1 or inde$ ( any ( ! ,payson family4 ,dea?1 mean:ile1 _h be5 busy 9 my own home1 & my memory is a blank = any?+ beyond t sad circle4 ,s9ce t date y h kn[n h] bett] ?an ,i4 ,i wi% t ^! recollections ( a "t :5 ,i knew h] bett] ?an y1 7 n s meagre4 ,if we 7 n ?\s&s ( miles ap>t1 & ,i c\ld talk ) y1 in/ead ( writ+ to y1 p]haps !y w\ld n appe> q s unsatisfy+4 ,yet1 trivial z !y are1 ,i s5d !m1 9 ! p]suasion t any trifle t conc]n$ h] or h]s is ( int]e/ to y4 ,,g5eva1 ,switz]l&1 ,feb4 #a1 #ahgi4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,recollections ( ,elizabe?'s ,girlhood by an e>ly ,fri5d & ,s*oolmate4 ,h] own ,picture ( ,h]self be=e h] ,fa!r's ,dea?4 ,favorite ,resorts4 ,:y ,god p]mits s mu* ,suff]+4 ,lit]>y ,ta/es4 ,lett]s4 ,:at are ,little ,babies ,=8 ,op5s a ,s*ool4 ,religi\s ,int]e/4 ,x is to be regrett$ t ! lett]s ref]r$ to by ,miss ,willis1 & inde$ ne>ly all ( ,elizabe?'s family lett]s1 writt5 be=e %e left h] "m's ro(1 h disappe>$4 ,b ! foll[+ recollections by ,mrs4 ,m4 ,c4 ,h4 ,cl>k1 ( ,portl&1 w 9 "p supply _! place & s]ve to fill up ! outl9e1 already giv51 ( ! fir/ tw5ty ye>s ( h] life4 ,9 ! volume ( sket*es entitl$1 ,only a ,d&elion1 y w f9d1 9 ! /ory ( ,anna & ,emily1 "s v pleas+ incid5ts relat+ to ! e>ly life ( de> ,elizabe?4 ,anna 0 ,lizzy ,wood1 h] e>lie/ playmate & fri5d4 ,miss ,wood 0 a sweet girl1 ! only si/] ( ,dr4 ,william ,wood1 ( ,portl&4 ,%e di$ at an e>ly age4 ,emily 0 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss h]self4 ,i rememb] h] once tell+ me ab\t ! visit at ,aunt ,w4's1 & believe t ne>ly all ! details ( ! /ory are f\nd$ 9 fact4 ,x is h] own picture ( h]self z a little girl1 drawn to ! life4 ,sev]al traits ( ! "* ( ,emily1 z giv5 9 ! sket*1 are on ?is acc\nt wor?y ( special note4 ,"o is h] v int5se desire n only to be lov$1 b to be lov$ alone1 or mu* m ?an any "o else2 & to be assur$ ( x ov] & ov] aga94 ,:5 ,anna return$ f h] j\rney1 %e br\ght ! same pres5ts to ,susan ,morton z to ,emily4 ,on discov]+ ?is fact ,emily 0 greatly di/ress$4 ,i ?\ght y w\ld be s glad to get all ^! ?+s6 said ,anna4 ,& s ,i am1 said ,emily1 ,i only want y to love me bett] ?an any o!r little girl1 because ,i love y bett]4 ,well1 & s ,i d1 return$ ,anna2 ,i love y t5 times z well z ,i love ,susan ,morton4 ,?is satisfi$ ,emily1 & = _m days h] re/less little he>t 0 z quiet & happy z a lamb's4 ,ano!r trait is br\ght out 9 ! incid5t t occurr$ on h] return+ home f ,anna's4 ,%e _h writt51 or r scrat*$1 ! ^w ,anna1 ov] "o :ole side ( h] room1 :ile odd l9es ( :at purport$ to be poetry fill$ ! o!r4 ,b ?is 0 n all4 ,h] si/] produc$ ! beautiful ,bible :i* _h be5 giv5 ,emily by h] ,aunt ,lucy1 on h] sev5? bir?day1 & %[$ h] fa!r h[ all its blank leaves 7 cov]$ ) ,annas4 ,h] fa!r took ! book ) rev]5ce1 & ,emily und]/ood & felt ! s]i\sness ) :i* he exam9$ h] idle scrawls4 ,x 0 a look t w\ld h ris5 up be=e h] & made h] /ay h] h&1 %\ld %e ev] aga9 9 h] life-long h be5 tempt$ ?us to misuse ! ^w ( ,god2 j z ! angel /ood be=e ,balaam 9 ! n>r[ pa? he 0 /ruggl+ to pu% ?r\gh4 ,b ,emily nev] aga9 0 ?us tempt$2 & ev] aft] h] ,bible 0 sacr$ly kept free f blot1 or wr9kle1 or any su* ?+4 ,h] fa!r n[ took h] ) him to 8 /udy1 & gave h] a great _m pieces ( pap]1 "s l>ge & "s small1 on :i* he told h] ) a smile1 %e c\ld write ,anna's "n to h] he>t's cont5t4 ,emily felt v grateful2 ?is little k9dness on h] fa!r's "p did h] m good ?an a mon?'s lecture c\ld h done1 & made h] resolve nev] to d any?+ t c\ld possibly grieve him aga94 ,%e w5t away to h] own little baby-h\se & wrote on "o ( ! bits ( pap]1 "s v]ses1 9 :i* %e said %e _h ! be/ fa!r 9 ! _w4 ,:5 !y 7 done1 %e read !m ov] once or twice1 & admir$ !m exce$+ly2 aft] :i*1 ) a v my/]i\s air1 %e w5t & ?rew !m into ! kit*5 fire4 ,?is incid5t1 s prettily relat$1 illu/rates ! int5sity ( h] fri5d%ips1 %[s t %e _h begun to write v]ses :5 a m]e *ild1 & gives a v pleasant glimpse ( h] fa!r & ( h] devotion to him4 ,my intimate acqua9tance ) h] comm5c$ 9 #ahcb1 :5 we 7 memb]s ( ,miss ,tyl]'s ,sabba?-s*ool class4 ,miss ,tyl] 0 a daught] ( ,rev4 ,dr4 ,b5nett ,tyl]1 h] fa!r's successor4 ,%e 0 greatly pleas$ :5 ,i told h] ,i 0 go+ to att5d h] si/]'s s*ool1 :i* 0 op5$ 9 ! spr+ ( #ahcc1 on ! corn] ( ,middle & ,lime /reets4 ,my seat 0 next to h]s & we 7 plac$ 9 ! same classes4 ,our homes 7 ne> ea* o!r on ,frankl9 /reet1 & we always walk$ back & =? toge!r4 ,%e 0 at ?is "t a prolific writ] ( notes4 ,sometimes %e w\ld meet me on ,monday morn+ ) n less ?an f\r1 writt5 s9ce we _h p>t$ on ,saturday aft]noon4 ,%e us$ to compla9 n[ & !n1 t ,i wrote h] only "o to f\r or five ( h]s to me4 ,9 ! pleasant summ] aft]noons we lov$ to take long walks toge!r4 ,"o 0 d[n by ! %ore beh9d ! ea/]n prom5ade4 ,"h we w\ld f9d a %elt]$ nook1 & ) our backs to ! _w & our faces t[>d ! isl&s & ! ocean1 w\ld sit 9 rapt enjoym5t ( ! sc5e1 speak+ sc>cely a ^w1 until "o or ! o!r exclaim$ ) a long-drawn sigh3 ,well1 x is "t = u to g home4 ,ano!r ( our places ( resort 0 ! old cemet]y on ,congress /reet1 :i* 9 ^? days 0 v retir$4 ,our favorite spot "h 0 ! summit ( a tomb1 :i* /ood on ! highe/ po9t 9 ! gr\nds4 ,x 0 ! old /yle ( tomb--a broad m>ble slab1 support$ by six small /one pill>s on a /one f\ndation1 & surr\nd$ by two /eps rais$ above ! soil4 ,x 0 a v quiet retreat4 ,we c\ld he> ! di/ant hum ( ! city & at ! same "t enjoy a view ( ! wat] & %ipp+1 z ! l& slop$ d[n t[>d ! h>bor4 ,i rememb] well t "o d>k spr+ day1 z we sat !re cuddl$ up "u ! broad slab1 ,lizzy gave me an acc\nt ( a book %e _h j be5 read+4 ,x 0 ! ,memoir ( ,miss ,susanna ,an?ony1 by old ,dr4 ,hopk9s1 ( ,newport4 ,%e told me :at a good & holy woman ,miss ,an?ony 01 h[ mu* %e suff]$ & h[ beautifully %e bore h] suff]+s4 ,my sympa?y 0 /rongly excit$ & ,i exclaim$1 ,i d n see h[ x is "r = ,god1 :o c control all ?+s1 to p]mit su* suff]+6 ,lizzy repli$ v sweetly1 ,well1 ,c>rie1 we c't und]/& x1 b ,i h be5 ?9k+ t ?is might be ,god's way ( prep>+ ,8 *ildr5 = v high degrees ( s]vice on e>?1 or happ9ess 9 heav54 ,i 0 deeply impress$ ) ?is rem>k2 someh[ x seem$ to /& by me1 & ,i ?9k x 0 a corn]-/one ( h] fai?4 ,?is summ]--t ( #ahcc--;h] "m fitt$ up = h] exclusive use a small room call$ ! ,blue ,room1 :]e %e _h all h] books & treasures--among !m a writ+ desk :i* _h be5 h] fa!r's4 ,"h all h] leisure h\rs 7 sp5t4 ,x 0 my privilege to be admitt$ to ?is sanctu>y1 & _m pleasant h\rs we pass$ toge!r !re4 ,i ?9k ,elizabe? 0 always religi\s4 ,%e knew a great deal !n ab\t ! ,bible & (t5 talk$ ) me ( div9e ?+s4 ,%e seem$ to feel a deep int]e/ 9 my spiritual welf>e4 ,%e lov$ to %>e ) me h] favorite books4 ,to h] ,i 0 indebt$ = my acqua9tance ) ,george ,h]b]t1 & ) ,wordswor?4 ,%e induc$ me to read ,ow5 on ! #acc;d ,psalm1 & ,flavel's ,f\nta9 ( ,life4 ,9 #ahcd we bo? began to att5d ! ,free /reet ,sem9>y1 ( :i* ! ,rev4 ,solomon ,adams 0 !n ,pr9cipal4 ,h] si/] _h become assi/ant tea*] ) him4 ,our desks adjo9$ ea* o!r & we 7 toge!r a great deal4 ,%e 0 an admirable s*ol>1 v /udi\s1 prompt & ready at recitation4 ,h] influ5ce & example1 add$ to h] fri5d%ip & sympa?y1 7 invaluable to me at ?is p]iod4 ,"o day1 ab\t ?is "t1 %e told me ( h] engagem5t ) ,mr4 ,willis1 to become a contributor to ,! ,y\?'s ,companion4 ,?is pap] 0 "o ( ! fir/1 if n ! fir/1 ( its class publi%$ 9 ?is c\ntry1 & _h a wide circulation among ! *ildr5 ?r\gh\t ,new ,engl&4 ,mo/ ( ! pieces 9 ,only a ,d&elion1 fir/ appe>$1 ,i ?9k1 9 ! ,y\?'s ,companion1 among ! re/ sev]al 9 v]se4 ,!y are writt5 9 a sprightly /yle1 are full ( bright fancies z well z s\nd feel+ & excell5t s5se1 & =etok5 pla9ly ! au?or ( ! ',susy' books4 ,9 #ahce ,lizzy w5t to ,ipswi* & sp5t ! summ] 9 ! s*ool !re4 ,x 0 !n "u ! c>e ( ,miss ,grant1 & 0 ! mo/ not$ in/itution ( its k9d 9 ,new ,engl&4 ,a ye> or two lat]1 ,mr4 ,n4 ,p4 ,willis return$ f ,europe1 & ) 8 ,engli% bride made a %ort visit at ,mrs4 ,payson's4 ,miss ,payson talk$ ) him ( ,elizabe?'s ta/e = writ+ poetry & %[$ him "s ( h] pieces4 ,he prais$ & enc\rag$ h] w>mly1 & ?is 01 ,i ?9k1 "o ( ! influ5ces t /r5g!n$ h] 9 ! purpose to become an au?or4 ,^u my tell+ h] "o day h[ mu* ,i lik$ a c]ta9 ,sunday-s*ool book ,i _h j read1 %e smil+ly ask$1 ,:at w\ld y ?9k if "s day ,i %\ld write a book z good z t8 ,i saw a good deal ( h] home life at ?is "t4 ,x 0 full ( filial & si/]ly love & devotion4 ,amid/ ! h\sehold c>es by :i* h] "m 0 (t5 weigh$ d[n & worri$1 %e 0 an ev]-ne> fri5d & sympa?iz]4 ,to h] bro!rs1 too1 %e ende>$ h]self exce$+ly by h] helpful1 *e]y ways & ! /rong ve9 ( fun & mir?fulness :i* ran ?r\gh h] daily life4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahcg ,mrs4 ,payson sold h] h\se on ,frankl9 /reet & r5t$ "o 9 ! upp] "p ( ! city4 ,lizzy us$ to call x ! pumpk9 h\se1 because x 0 old & ugly2 b its situation & ! opportunity to indulge h] rural ta/es made am5ds = all its defects4 ,9 a lett] to h] fri5d ,miss ,e4 ,t4 ( ,brooklyn1 ,n4 ,y41 dat$ ,may #ba1 #ahcg1 %e ?us ref]s to x3 ,s9ce y\r la/ lett] arriv$ we h left our pleasant home = an old yell[ "o above ,john ,neal's4 ,n[ don't imag9e x to be a delicate /raw-color1 nei!r ! smil+ hue ( ! e>ly d&elion4 ,no1 x once %one =? 9 all ! glories ( a deep pumpk92 b "t's effac+ f+]s h sadly m>r$ its beauty4 ,mr4 ,neal's ,aunt ,ru?1 a quiet old ,quak]ess1 occupies a "p ( x & we ,paysons be/[ ourselves 9 ! rema9d]4 ,?is comes to y f its great g>ret4 ,"h ,i sit e night till aft] d>k z m]ry z a grig4 ,! m9d is its own place4 ,) all ! inconv5i5ces ( ! h\se ,i w\ld n ex*ange x at pres5t = any o!r 9 ! city4 ,! situation is p]fectly delightful4 ,casco ,bay & "p ( ,de]+'s ,oaks lie 9 full view4 #h ,! ,oaks are )9 a few m9utes' walk4 ,back-,cove is se5 beyond1 & ris+ f> above ! blue ,:ite ,m\nta9s4 ,! ,ars5al />es u 9 ! face1 if we look out ! end w9d[s & ! ,we/brook meet+-h\se is ne>] ?an ,mr4 ,vail's by a qu>t] ( a mile4 ,i nev] believ$ !re 0 any?+ half s f9e 9 ?is region4 ,i ?9k no?+ ( walk+ any:]e n[4 ,"o day1 aft] v>i\s dome/ic duties1 ,i work$ 9 my t9y g>d5 f\r h\rs1 & 9 ! aft]noon a p>ty ( girls came up = me to g ) !m to ,bramhall's hill4 ,we walk$ f ?ree till half pa/ six1 came back & ate a ha/y1 ) "s ( u a furi\s supp]1 & !n all p>ad$ d[n to second p>i% to s++-s*ool4 ,i expect to live out 9 ! air mo/ ( ! summ]4 ,i mean to h z pleasant a "o z possible1 because we %all nev] live s ne> ! ,oaks & o!r pretty places ano!r summ]4 ,if y 7 n s timid ,i %\ld wi% y 7 "h to run ab\t ) me1 b :o ev] he>d ( ,e4 ,t4 runn+8 ,n[1 ,ell51 ,i nev] 0 meant to be dignifi$ & sometimes--yea1 (t5--,i run1 skip1 hop1 & once ,i did climb ov] a f5ce6 ,v unladylike1 ,i "k1 b ,i am n a lady4 ,9 ! fall ( #ahcg ,mrs4 ,payson mov$ aga94 ,! incid5t des]ves m5tion1 z x br\ght ,lizzy into daily int]c\rse ) ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,fr5* & 8 wife4 ,mr4 ,fr5* 0 rector ( ! ,episcopal *ur* 9 ,portl&1 & aft]w>d ,pr(essor & ,*apla9 at ,we/ ,po9t4 ,he 0 a man ( f9e lit]>y culture & ,mrs4 ,fr5* 0 a v attractive woman4 ,9 a lett] dat$ ,night be=e ,?anksgiv+1 & address$ to ! e>ly fri5d already m5tion$1 ,lizzy ref]s to ?is removal & also gives a glimpse ( h] active home life3 ,i h be5 busy all day & am s tir$ ,i c sc>cely hold a p54 ,amid/ ! beat+ ( eggs1 ! p\nd+ ( spices1 ! furi\s roll+ ( pa/ry ( all degrees ( %ortness1 ! fill+ ( pies ) pumpk9s1 m9ce-meat1 apples1 & ! l1 ! /on+ ( rais9s & wa%+ ( currants1 ! beat+ & bak+ ( cake1 & all ! o!r +s1 79 all ( :i* ,i h _h my %>e7 ?\ghts ( y\r lady%ip h someh[ squeez$ !mselves 94 ,we h really bidd5 adieu to ,pumpk9 ,place1 z ,mrs4 ,willis calls x1 & e/abli%$ ourselves 9 a h\se =m]ly occupi$ by old ,p>son ,smi?--& v snug & com=table we are1 ,i assure y4 ,9 ! mid/ ( our mov+1 aft] ,i _h pack$ & /[$ & lift$1 & be5 elb[$ by all ! %>p corn]s 9 ! h\se1 & _h my h&s all torn & scrat*$1 ,i spi$ ! new ,knick]bock] 'mid a heap ( rubbi% & 0 tempt$ to peep into x4 ,lo & behold1 ! fir/ ?+ t met my eye 0 ! ,lam5t ( ! ,la/ ,pea*4 #i ,i didn't c>e to read m & =?) return$ to fitt+ ( c>pets & arrang+ tables & *airs & bureaus--b all ! :ile m$itat+ h[ ,i %\ld be rev5g$ ^u y4 ,z to ----'s reque/ ,i am sorry to answ] nay2 = ,i feel x w\ld be ! greate/ presumption 9 me to ?9k ( writ+ = a magaz9e l t4 ,i d n wi% to publi% any?+1 any:]e1 ?\gh x w\ld be q z wise z to entru/ my scraps to y\r c>e4 ,my "m (t5 urges me to s5d little ?+s :i* %e happ5s to fancy1 to ?is & t p]iodical4 ,)\t h] int]f]5ce no?+ ( m9e w\ld ev] h f\nd its way into pr9t4 ,b mammas look ) rose-color$ spectacles on ! actions & p]=mances ( _! (fspr+4 ,h y laugh$ ov] ! ,pickwick ,pap]s8 ,we h almo/ laugh$ ourselves to dea? ov] !m4 ,i h n se5 ,lizzy ,d4 = a long "t1 b he> %e is gett+ along rapidly4 ,if ,i c\ld g to s*ool two ye>s m1 ,i %\ld be glad1 b ( c\rse t is out ( ! "q4444 ,x is easi] = y to write (t5 ?an x is = me4 ,y h n ?ree te>+1 gr[+ bro!rs to m5d & make =4 ,i am become q exp]t 9 ! arts ( pat*+ & d>n+4 ,i am go+ to get "s pies & cake & rais9s & o!r goodies to s5d to our girl's sick bro!r4 ,if ,i _h n s de> & happy a home1 ,i %\ld envy y y\rs4 ,y say y d n rememb] :e!r ,i love music or n4 ,i love x extravagantly sometimes--b h n ! k to enjoy sci5tific p]=mances4 ,! simple melody ( a s+le voice is my delight4 ,mrs4 ,fr5*1 ! ,episcopal m9i/]'s wife1 :o is a great fri5d ( ours & lives next door 7s ne> t %e & si/] talk toge!r out ( _! w9d[s71 has a baby two days old ) black curly hair & black eyes1 & ,i %all h a nice "t ) x ?is w9t]4 ,d y love babies8 ,! "q ) :i* ?is lett] closes1 sugge/s "o ( ,lizzy's mo/ /rik+ & lovelie/ traits4 ,%e _h a p]fect passion = babies1 & revel$ 9 t5d+1 kiss+1 & play+ ) !m4 ,"h are "s pretty l9es 9 "o ( h] girli% contributions to ,! ,y\?'s ,companion1 :i* express h] feel+ ab\t !m3 ,:at are little babies =8 ,say6 say6 say6 ,are !y good-=-no?+ ?+s8 ,nay6 nay6 nay6 ,c !y speak a s+le ^w8 ,say6 say6 say6 ,c !y help _! mo!rs sew8 ,nay6 nay6 nay6 ,c !y walk ^u _! feet8 ,say6 say6 say6 ,c !y ev5 hold !mselves8 ,nay6 nay6 nay6 ,:at are little babies =8 ,say6 say6 say6 ,are !y made = u to love8 ,yea6 ,,yea66 ,,yea666 ,9 ! fall ( #ahch ,mrs4 ,payson pur*as$ a h\se 9 ,cumb]l& /reet1 :i* cont9u$ to be h] resid5ce until ! family 0 brok5 up4 ,y rememb] ! *>m+ little room ,lizzy _h fitt$ up ov] ! hall 9 ?is h\se1 h[ nicely %e kept x1 & h[ happy %e 0 9 x4 ,"o ( ! w9d[s look$ out on a little fl[] g>d5 & at ! close ( ! long summ] days ! sunset c\ld be enjoy$ f ! we/ w9d[4 ,%e _h _h "s f9e books giv5 h]1 :i*1 add$ to ! previ\s /ore1 made a some:at r>e collection = a "y girl 9 ^? days4 ,ab\t ?is "t1 hav+ be5 reliev$ ( h] "p ( dome/ic s]vice by ! com+ into ! family ( a "y relative--^: devotion to h] 0 unb\nd$--%e op5$ 9 ! h\se a s*ool = little girls4 ,x consi/$ at fir/ ( p]haps eight or t51 b _! numb] increas$ until ! h\se c\ld sc>cely hold !m4 ,%e 0 a born tea*] & h] "y pupils fairly idoliz$ h]4 #aj ,9 ?is ye>1 too1 %e took a class 9 ! ,sabba?-s*ool compos$ ( ne>ly ! same gr\p :o surr\nd$ h] on ! week-days1 & !y rema9$ "u h] c>e z long z %e liv$ 9 ,portl&4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,vail hav+ retir$ f ! pa/orate ( ! second p>i% 9 ! autumn ( #ahcg1 ,cyrus ,haml91 j f ! ,!ological ,sem9>y at ,bangor1 became ! /at$ supply = "s mon?s4 ,8 prea*+ attract$ ! "y p & dur+ ! w9t] & spr+ !re 0 mu* int]e/ 9 all ! ,congregational *ur*es4 ,foll[+ ! example ( ! o!r pa/ors1 ,mr4 ,haml9 invit$ p]sons s]i\sly dispos$ to meet him = religi\s conv]sation4 ,elizabe? bes\ght me1 ) all possible e>ne/ness & affection1 to g to ,mr4 ,haml9's meet+4 ,"o day %e came to see me a %ort "t be=e ! h\r1 say+ t ,i 0 ev] on h] m9d & 9 h] pray]s1 t %e _h talk$ ) ,mr4 ,haml9 ab\t me1 nor w\ld %e leave me until ,i _h promis$ to att5d ! meet+4 ,i did s2 & f t "t we 7 unit$ 9 ! /rong bonds ( ,*ri/ian love & sympa?y4 ,:at a spiritual help] %e 0 to me 9 ^? days6 ,:at preci\s notes ,i 0 all ! "t receiv+ f h]6 ,! memory ( h] t5d]1 fai?ful fri5d%ip is /ill fre% & delightful1 aft] ! lapse ( m ?an =ty ye>s4 #aa ,9 ! summ] ( #ahch ! ,rev4 ,jona?an ,b4 ,condit1 ,d4,d41 0 call$ f 8 *air 9 ,amh]/ ,college & in/all$ pa/or ( our *ur*4 ,he 0 a man ( v graceful & w9n+ mann]s & wond]fully magnetic4 ,he at once became almo/ an object ( wor%ip ) ! en?usia/ic "y p4 ,! s]vices ( ! ,sabba? & ! weekly meet+s 7 delightful4 ,! "y ladies _h a pray+ circle :i* met e ,saturday aft]noon1 full ( life & sun%9e4 ,inde$1 ! exclusive int]e/ ( ! season 0 religi\s2 our read+ & conv]sation 7 religi\s2 well-nigh ! sole subject ( ?\ght 0 le>n+ some?+ new ( our ,savi\r & ,8 bless$ s]vice4 ,all ,lizzy's fri5ds & sev]al ( h] own family 7 rejoic+ 9 hope4 ,& %e h]self 0 radiant ) joy4 ,= a little :ile x seem$ almo/ z if ! %ad[s 9 ! ,*ri/ian pa? _h fl$ away1 & ! crosses vani%$ out ( sight4 ,! w9t] & spr+ ( #ahdj witness$ ano!r p]iod ( g5]al religi\s int]e/ 9 ,portl&4 ,l>ge numb]s 7 ga!r$ into ! *ur*es4 ,lizzy 0 greatly impress$ by ! "w1 h] own ,*ri/ian life 0 deep5$ & wid5$1 %e 0 bless$ 9 guid+ sev]al memb]s ( h] belov$ ,sunday-s*ool class to ! ,savi\r1 & 0 ?us prep>$1 also1 = ! %>p trial await+ h] 9 ! autumn ( ! same ye>1 :5 %e left h] home & "m = a long abs5ce 9 ,ri*mond4 ,f h] e>lie/ ye>s %e 0 9 ! habit ( keep+ a j\rnal1 & %e mu/ h fill$ sev]al volumes4 ,i wond] t %e did n pres]ve !m z mem5tos ( h] *ildhood & y\?4 ,p]haps because h] aft]life 0 s happy t %e nev] ne$$ to ref] to su* rem9isc5ces ( days gone by4 ,i h ?us giv5 y1 9 a v in=mal mann]1 "s recollections ( h] e>li] ye>s4 ,i h be5 a/oni%$ to f9d h[ vividly ,i recall$ sc5es1 ev5ts & conv]sations s long pa/4 ,i 0 />tl$ & %ock$ :5 ! news came ( h] sudd5 dea?4 ,b ,i c n feel t %e 0 call$ to h] re/ too soon4 ,%e seem$ to me s+ul>ly happy 9 all ! relations ( life2 & !n z an au?or1 h]s 0 an exceptional case ( full appreciation & success4 ,i h ev] reg>d$ h] z favor$ among wom5--bless$ 9 do+ h] ,ma/]'s w & te/ify+ = ,him1 bless$ 9 h] home1 9 h] fri5ds1 & 9 h] "w1 & bless$ 9 h] dea?4 ,,portl&1 ,decemb] #ca1 #ahgh4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,! ,dom9ant ,type ( ,religi\s ,life & ,?\ght 9 ,new ,engl& 9 ! ,fir/ ,half ( ?is ,c5tury4 ,lit]>y ,influ5ces4 ,lett] ( ,cyrus ,haml94 ,a ,/range ,co9cid5ce4 ,a brief notice ( ! g5]al type ( religi\s life & ?\ght1 :i* prevail$ at ?is "t 9 ,new ,engl&1 w ?r[ light ^u bo? ! prec$+ & foll[+ pages4 ,elizabe?'s e>ly ,*ri/ian "*1 al?\gh l>gely %ap$ by t ( h] fa!r1 0 also1 l 81 vitally affect$ by ! religi\s _s & me?ods !n dom9ant4 ,sev]al di/9ct elem5ts ent]$ into ! piety ( ,new ,engl& at t p]iod1 7#a47 ,!re 01 fir/ ( all1 ! old ,puritan elem5t :i* ! ,pilgrim ,fa!rs & _! imm$iate successors br\ght ) !m f ! "m-c\ntry1 & :i* _h be5 n\ri%$ by ! writ+s ( ! great ,puritan div9es ( ! sev5te5? c5tury--su* z ,baxt]1 ,h[e1 ,bunyan1 ,ow51 ,mat!w ,h5ry1 & ,flavel--by ! ,imitation ( ,*ri/1 & ,bi%op ,taylor's ,holy ,liv+ & ,dy+1 & by su* writ]s z ,doddridge1 ,watts1 & ,jona?an ,edw>ds ( ! la/ c5tury4 ,?is lay at ! f\ndation ( ! :ole /ructure1 giv+ x /r5g?1 solidity1 e>ne/ness1 & p[]4 7#b47 ,b x 0 modifi$ by ! s-call$ ,evangelical elem5t1 :i* m>k$ l>ge sections ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl& & mo/ ( ! ,diss5t+ bodies 9 ,great ,brita9 dur+ ! la/ half ( ! eighte5? & ! e>ly "p ( ! n9ete5? c5tury4 ,! writ+s ( ,john ,newton1 ,ri*>d ,cecil1 ,hannah ,m1 ,?omas ,scott1 ,c[p]1 ,wilb]=ce1 ,leigh ,ri*mond1 ,john ,fo/]1 ,&rew ,full]1 & ,rob]t ,hall--n to m5tion o!rs--7 widely circulat$ 9 ,new ,engl& & _h great influ5ce 9 its pulpits & its ,*ri/ian homes4 ,_! admirable _s infus$ itself into ?\s&s ( lives1 & help$ 9 _m ways to improve ! g5]al tone bo? ( !ological & devotional s5tim5t4 7#c47 ,b ano!r elem5t /ill 0 ! new ,evangeli/ic _s1 :i* inaugurat$ & /ill in=ms ^? great movem5ts ( ,*ri/ian b5evol5ce1 bo? at home & abroad1 t are ! glory ( ! age4 ,dr4 ,payson's m9i/ry began j be=e ! =mation ( ! ,am]ican ,bo>d ( ,commission]s = ,=eign ,missions1 & be=e 8 dea? mission-"w _h come to be reg>d$ z q ess5tial to ! piety & prosp]ity ( ! ,*ur*4 ,! ,lives ( ,david ,bra9]d1 ,h5ry ,m>tyn1 ,h>riet ,newell1 & o!rs l !m1 7 h\sehold books4 7#d47 ,nor %\ld ! revival elem5t be omitt$ 9 enum]at+ ! =ces t !n %ap$ ! piety & religi\s ?\ght ( ,new ,engl&4 ,! gr[? ( ! ,*ur* & ! advancem5t ( ! cause ( ,*ri/ 7 reg>d$ z insep>able f ?is influ5ce4 ,a revival 0 ! con/ant object ( pray] & ef=t on ! "p ( e>ne/ pa/ors & ( ! m dev\t among ! p4 ,f> m /ress 0 laid ^u special seasons & measures ( spiritual int]e/ & activity ?an n[--less ^u ,*ri/ian nurture z a means ( grace1 & ^u ! /eady1 normal developm5t ( *ur* life4 ,_m ( ! mo/ em95t1 devot$1 & useful s]vants ( ,*ri/1 ^: names1 dur+ ! la/ half c5tury1 h adorn$ ! annals ( ,am]ican fai? & zeal1 ow$ _! conv]sion1 or1 if n _! conv]sion1 "s ( _! noble/ & /ronge/ ,*ri/ian impulses1 to revivals ( religion4 7#e47 ,to all ^! %\ld p]haps1 be add$ ano!r elem5t--namely1 t ( ! new _s ( re=m & ! new e?ical tone1 :i*1 dur+ ! ?ird & f\r? decades ( ?is c5tury especially1 wr\ght ) su* p[] 9 ,new ,engl&4 ,( ?is influ5ce & ( ! philan?ropic idea t inspir$ x1 ,dr4 ,*ann+ may be reg>d$ z ! mo/ em95t repres5tative4 ,x br\ght to ! front ! humanity & moral tea*+ ( ,*ri/1 z at once ! patt]n & rule ( all true progress1 :e!r individual or social2 & x 0 widely felt1 ev5 :]e x 0 n di/9ctly recognis$ or und]/ood4 ,:atev] errors or imp]fections may h belong$ to x1 ?is influ5ce did mu* to s(t5 ! dogmatism ( op9ion1 to ar\se a m g5]\s1 ca?olic type ( s5tim5t1 to %[ t ! piety ( ! ,new ,te/am5t is a pr9ciple ( univ]sal love to man1 z well z ( love to ,god1 & to emphasise ! sov]eign claims ( p]sonal virtue & social ju/ice4 ,^! tru?s1 to be sure1 7 n new2 b 9 ! great moral-re=m movem5ts & conflicts--to a c]ta9 ext5t ev5 9 !ological discussions--t m>k$ ! times1 !y 7 ass]t$ & appli$ ) extraord9>y cle>ness & en]gy ( conviction2 &1 z ! ev5t has prov$1 !y 7 h>b+]s ( a new era ( ,*ri/ian ?\ght1 culture & conduct1 bo? 9 private & public life4 ,su* 7 "s ( ! religi\s influ5ces :i* surr\nd$ ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss dur+ ! fir/ tw5ty ye>s ( h] life1 & :i* help$ to =m h] "*4 ,%e 0 also /rongly affect$1 especially :ile pass+ f girlhood into e>ly womanhood1 by ! lit]>y influ5ces ( ! day4 ,poetry & fiction 7 h] delight4 ,%e 0 v fond ( ,wordswor?1 ,t5nyson1 & ,longfell[2 :ile ! successive volumes ( ,dick5s 7 read by h] ) ! utmo/ avidity4 ,mrs4 ,payson's h\se 0 a good deal visit$ by s*ol>s & m5 ( culture4 ,h] elde/ daught] _h already become some:at widely kn[n by h] writ+s4 ,9 ! ext5t1 v>iety & "* ( h] atta9m5ts %e 01 9 tru?1 a m>vel4 ,inde$1 %e q ov]%ad[$ ! y\ng] si/] by h] le>n+ & h] highly intellectual conv]sation4 ,& yet ,elizabe? also attract$ no little att5tion f "s :o _h be5 fir/ drawn to ! h\se by _! fri5d%ip = ,l\isa4 #ab ,among h] w>me/ admir]s 0 ,mr4 ,john ,neal1 !n well kn[n z a man ( lett]s2 he pr$ict$ = h] a bright c>e] z an au?or4 ,/ill1 x 0 h] p]sonal "* t mo/ int]e/$ ! visitors at h] "m's h\se4 ,?is may be illu/rat$ by an extract f a lett] ( ,mr4 ,haml9 to a fri5d ( ! family 9 ,new ,york1 writt5 9 ,april1 #ahch1 :ile he 0 _! tempor>y pa/or4 ,mr4 ,haml9 has s9ce become kn[n ?r\gh\t ! ,*ri/ian _w by 8 rem>kable c>e] z a mission>y 9 ,turkey1 & z organis] ( ,rob]t ,college4 ,a few mon?s aft] ! lett] 0 writt5 he set sail = ,con/ant9ople1 accompani$ by 8 wife1 ^: e>ly dea? 0 ! cause ( s mu* grief among all :o knew h]4 #ac ,i %\ld l to write a long lett] ab\t de> ,elizabe?4 ,i h se5 h] m s9ce ,l\isa left & ,i love h] m4 ,%e has a peculi> *>m = me4 ,i ?9k %e has a quick & excell5t judgm5t1 ref9$ s5sibilities1 & an in/9ctive p]ception ( :at is fit & prop]4444 ,x seems to me !re is a great deal ( purity--( ! spirituelle--ab\t h] feel+s4 ,b ,i c n tell y exactly :at x is t makes me ?9k s highly ( h]4 ,x is a nameless some?+ result+ f h] :ole self1 f h] sweet face & m\?1 h] eye full ( love & s\l1 h] =m & motion4 ,i d n ?9k %e likes me mu*1 ,i h paid s mu* att5tion to ,l\isa & s little to h]self4 ,yet %e is n "o ( ^? :o claim att5tion1 b r %r9ks f x4 ,%e may h faults ( :i* ,i h no k4 ,b ,i am *>m$ ) ev]y?+ ,i h se5 ( h]4 ,h[ /range are ! *ance co9cid5ces ( human life6 ,9 ano!r lett] to ! same fri5d 9 ,new ,york1 9 :i* ,mr4 ,haml9 ref]s 9 a simil> mann] to ,elizabe?1 occur ^! words3 ,9 a few weeks ,i hope to be 9 ,dorset1 among ! ,gre5 ,m\nta9s1 :]e my ?\ghts & feel+s h _! c5tre above all places on ?is e>?4 ,i wi% y c\ld be pres5t at my w$d+ !re on ! ?ird ( ,septemb]4 ,h[ little did he dream1 :5 p5n+ ^! words1 or did 8 fri5d dream :ile read+ !m1 t1 aft] ! lapse ( m ?an =ty ye>s1 ! de> ,elizabe? w\ld f9d h] grave ne> by ! old p>sonage 9 :i* t w$d+ 0 to be celebrat$1 :ile ! du/ ( ! lovely daught] ( ,dorset w\ld be sleep+ on ! di/ant %ores ( ! ,bosphorus6 #a ,= _m ye>s aft] ! publication ( 8 ,memoir1 x 0 s (t5 giv5 to *ildr5 at _! baptism t at "o "t ^? :o bore x1 9 & out ( ,new ,engl&1 7 to be numb]$ by hundr$s1 if n ?\s&s4 ,i once saw ! dea?s ( ?ree little ,edw>d ,paysons 9 "o pap]1 wrote ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 9 #ahcb4 #b ,he 0 ! au?or ( a curi\s "w entitl$1 ,pro(s ( ! real ,exi/5ce1 & dang]\s ,t5d5cy1 ( ,illum9ism4 ,*>le/[n1 #ahjb4 ,by ,illum9ism he means an organis$ attempt1 or conspiracy1 to und]m9e ! f\ndations ( ,*ri/ian society & e/abli% ^u its ru9s ! sy/em ( a!ism4 #c ,i sp5t "p ( la/ ev5+ read+ ov] "s old lett]s ( my gr&mo!r's & nev] realis$ be=e :at a rem>kable woman %e 0 bo? z to piety & tal5t4--,f a lett] ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 writt5 9 #ahfd4 #d ,9 a lett] to 8 "m1--writt5 :5 ,elizabe? 0 ?ree ye>s old1 he says3 ,e4 has a t]rible abscess1 :i* we fe>$ w\ld prove too mu* = h] sl5d] con/itution4 ,we 7 almo/ worn out ) wat*+2 &1 j z %e began to m5d1 ,i 0 seiz$ ) a viol5t ague 9 my face1 :i* gave me incessant angui% = six days & nights toge!r1 & depriv$ me almo/ entirely ( sleep4 ,?ree nights ,i did n close my eyes4 ,:5 well nigh di/ract$ ) pa9 & loss ( sleep1 ,satan 0 let loose ^u me1 to buffet me1 & ,i v]ily ?\ght w\ld h driv5 me to desp]ation & madness4 #e ,! late ,presid5t ,wayl&4 #f ,pr(4 ,calv9 ,e4 ,/[e1 ,d4,d4 #g ,! late ,rev4 ,absalom ,pet]s1 ,d4,d4 #h ,i c see ! breezy dome ( groves1 ,! %ad[s ( ,de]+'s ,woods2 ,& ! fri5d%ips old & ! e>ly loves ,come back ) a ,sabba? s\nd1 z ( doves ,9 quiet neighborhoods4 ,& ! v]se ( t sweet old song1 ,x flutt]s & murmurs /ill3 ,a boy's w is ! w9d's w1 ,& ! ?\ghts ( y\? are long1 long ?\ghts4 --,,longfell[',s ,my ,lo/ ,y\?4 #i ,! ,lam5t ( ! ,la/ ,pea* _h be5 writt5 by h] a ye> be=e :5 9 ,brooklyn1 & h] fri5d's bro!r _h s5t x to ,! ,knick]bock]1 ! popul> ,magaz9e ( t day4 ,"h x is3 ,,lam5t ,,( ,,! ,,la/ ,,pea*4 ,9 solemn sil5ce "h ,i live1 ,a lone1 des]t$ pea*2 ,s high t none b birds & w9ds ,my quiet b\gh c rea*4 ,& m\rnfully1 & hopelessly1 ,i ?9k ^u ! pa/2 ,^u my de> dep>t$ fri5ds1 ,& ,i1 ! la/--! la/4 ,my fri5ds6 oh1 daily "o by "o ,i've se5 !m drop away2 ,unhe$+ all ! te>s & pray]s ,t va9ly bade !m /ay4 ,& "h ,i hang alone1 alone-- ,:ile life is flee+ fa/2 ,& sadly sigh t ,i am left ,! la/1 ! la/1 ! la/4 ,f>ewell1 !n1 ?\ my little _w ,my home ^u ! tree1 ,a sweet retreat1 a quiet home ,?\ may/ no long] be2 ,! will[ trees /& weep+ nigh1 ,! sky is ov]ca/1 ,! autumn w9ds moan sadly by1 ,& say1 ! la/--! la/6 #aj ,de> ,lizzy is 9 h] little s*ool4 ,h] pupils love h] de>ly4 ,%e w h ab\t ?irty 9 ! summ]4--,lett] ( ,mrs4 ,payson1 ,m>* #bh1 #ahci4 #aa ,?ree ye>s lat] ,elizabe? ?us ref]r$ to ?is p]iod 9 ! life ( h] fri5d3--,dur+ ! "t 9 :i* %e 0 seek+ ! ,savi\r ) all h] he>t1 ,i 0 mu* ) h] & _h an opportunity to see e v>iety ( feel+ z %e daily set ! :ole be=e me4 ,! affection ?us acquir$ is1 ,i believe1 nev] lo/4 ,if ,i live =ev]1 ,i %all n lose ! impressions :i* ,i !n receiv$--! deep anxiety ,i felt le/ %e %\ld f9ally come %ort ( salvation1 & !n ! happ9ess ( hav+ h] lo/ 9 contemplation ( ! "* ( ,him :om %e _h s (t5 decl>$ x impossible to love4 #ab ,old fri5ds ( h] fa!r also became mu* int]e/$ 9 h]4 ,among !m 0 ,simon ,gre5leaf1 ! em95t writ] on ! law ( evid5ce1 & ,judge ,/ory's successor at ,h>v>d4 ,on remov+ to ,cambridge1 9 #ahcc1 he gave h] ) 8 autograph a little volume entitl$1 ,h\rs = ,heav52 a small b *oice selection ( pray]s1 f em95t ,div9es ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 :i* long cont9u$ to be "o ( h] books ( devotion4 #ac ,see ! t\*+ memorial ( h]1 ,light on ! ,d>k ,riv]1 prep>$ by h] e>ly fri5d1 ,mrs4 ,lawr5ce4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,! ,,new ,,life ,,9 ,,*ri/4 #ahdj-ahda4 ,i4 ,a ,memorable ,exp]i5ce4 ,lett]s to h] ,c\s94 ,goes to ,ri*mond z a ,tea*]4 ,mr4 ,p]sico's ,s*ool4 ,lett]s4 ,miss ,payson 0 n[ 9 h] tw5ty-fir/ ye>1 a p]iod :i* %e always look$ back to z a turn+-po9t 9 h] spiritual hi/ory4 ,! dome/ic influ5ces t encompass$ h] *ildhood1 h] e>ly associations1 & ! books ( devotion :i* %e read1 all conspir$ to imbue h] ) an e>ne/ s5se ( div9e ?+s1 & :ile yet a "y girl1 z we h se51 %e publicly devot$ h]self to ! s]vice ( h] ,god & ,savi\r4 ,= sev]al ye>s h] piety1 if m>k$ by no special features1 0 /ill reg>d$ by h] "y fri5ds1 & by all :o knew h]1 z ( a decid$ "*4 ,b dur+ ! g5]al religi\s int]e/ 9 ! w9t] ( #ahcg-h1 ev5 :ile absorb$ 9 solicitude = o!rs1 %e began h]self to "q its reality4 ,= "s mon?s ,i _h no hope t ,i 0 a ,*ri/ian1 & pride made me g on j z if ,i felt myself p]fectly safe4 ,no?+ c\ld at t "t h made me will+ to h any eye a witness to my daily /ruggles4 ,& yet %e (t5 long$ = ! sympa?y & assi/ance ( ,*ri/ian fri5ds1 & to h] unwill+ness to confide 9 !m %e aft]w>ds attribut$ mu* ( ! suff]+ t foll[$4 ,i d n "k exactly h[ ,i pass$ out ( t season1 b my s*ool comm5c$ 9 ,april1 & ,i became s int]e/$ 9 x t ,i _h less "t to ?9k ( & to wat* myself4 ,! next w9t] mo/ ( my s*ol>s 7 deeply impress$ by div9e ?+s1 &1 ( c\rse1 ,i c\ld n look on )\t hav+ my own he>t t\*$4 ,x 0 my privilege to sp5d _m delightful weeks 9 wat*+ ! progress ( m9ds e>ne/ly seek+ ! way ( life & e>ly consecrat+ !mselves to _! ,savi\r4 #a ,b aft] a :ile a sev]e reaction set 9 & 9 ! c\rse ( ! summ] %e became c>eless 9 h] religi\s habits1 %rank f ! ,"l's table z a place ( absolute torture1 & :ile sp5d+ a =tnight 9 ,bo/on 9 ! fall1 entirely omitt$ all ex]cises ( private devotion4 ,%e _h n[ rea*$ a crisis :i* 0 to decide h] c\rse = life4 ,dur+ ! w9t] ( #ahci-dj1 %e pass$ ?r\gh v deep & h>r[+ ex]cises ( s\l4 ,h] spiritual nature 0 %ak5 to its f\ndation1 & %e c\ld say ) ! ,psalmi/1 ,out ( ! dep?s h ,i cri$ unto ,!e1 ,o ,"l4 ,= sev]al mon?s %e 0 9 a /ate simil> to t :i* ! old div9es depict s vividly z be+ "u conviction4 ,h] s5se ( s91 & ( h] own unwor?9ess 9 ! sight ( ,god1 grew m & m int5se & oppressive4 ,at times %e ab&on$ all hope1 accus$ h]self ( hav+ play$ ! hypocrite1 & fanci$ %e 0 giv5 ov] to h>dness ( he>t4 ,at l5g? %e s\ght c\nsel ( h] pa/or & confid$ to him h] tr\ble1 b he did n "k exactly :at to d ) me4 ,9 ! mid/ ( h] di/ress1 & z its effect1 no d\bt1 %e 0 tak5 ill & conf9$ to h] room1 :]e 9 solitude %e pass$ sev]al weeks seek+ re/ & f9d+ none4 ,sometimes ,i tri$ to pray1 b ?is only increas$ my di/ress & made me cry out = annihilation to free me f ! agony :i* seem$ insupportable4 ,) a s+le int]val ( comp>ative indiff]5ce1 ?is /ate ( m9d cont9u$ = ne>ly f\r mon?s4 ,%e ?us describes x3 ,x 0 9 va9 t ,i s\ght ! ,"l 9 any ( ! l(ty pa?ways ?r\gh :i* my he>t wi%$ to g4 ,at la/ ,i f\nd x impossible to c>ry on ! /ruggle any long] alone4 ,i w\ld gladly h put myself at ! feet ( a little *ild1 if by s do+ ,i c\ld h f\nd peace4 ,i felt s guilty & ! "* ( ,god appe>$ s p]fect 9 its purity & hol9ess1 t ,i knew n :i* way to turn4 ,! s9 :i* di/ress$ me mo/ ( all 0 ! rejection ( ! ,savi\r4 ,?is haunt$ me con/antly & made me fly fir/ to "o ?+ & !n ano!r1 9 ! hope ( f9d+ some:]e ! peace :i* ,i w\ld n accept f ,him4 ,x 0 at ?is "t t ,i kept read+ ov] ! fir/ twelve *apt]s ( ,doddridge's ,rise & ,progress1--! re/ ( ! book ,i abhorr$4 ,s great 0 my agony t ,i c only wond] at ! goodness ( ,him :o held my life 9 ,8 h&s1 & w\ld n p]mit me 9 ! height ( my despair to ?r[ myself away4 ,x 0 9 ?is height ( despair t ?\ghts ( ! inf9ite grace & love ( ,*ri/1 :i* %e says %e _h hi!rto repell$1 began to irradiate h] s\l4 ,a s]mon on ,8 ability to save unto ! utt]mo/ deeply affect$ h]4 #b ,:ile li/5+ to x my we>y _s re/$ itself1 & ,i ?\ght1 'surely x c n be wrong to ?9k ( ! ,savi\r1 al?\gh ,he is n m9e4' ,) ?is conclusion ,i gave myself up to admire1 to love & to praise ,him1 to wond] :y ,i _h nev] done s be=e1 & to hope t all ! great congregation ar\nd me 7 jo9+ ) me 9 ackn[l$g+ ,him to be *ief among t5 ?\s& & ! ,"o altoge!r lovely4 ,on go+ home %e c\ld at fir/ sc>cely believe 9 h] own id5tity1 ! feel+ ( peace & love to ,god & to all ! _w 0 s unlike ! turbul5t emotions t _h long agitat$ h] s\l4 ,f ?is "t my m9d w5t sl[ly onw>d1 exam9+ ! way /ep by /ep1 trembl+ & afraid1 yet fill$ ) a calm cont5tm5t :i* made all ! deal+s ( ,god ) me appe> j "r4 ,i "k myself to be p]fectly helpless4 ,i c n promise to d or to be any?+2 b ,i d want to put ev]y?+ else aside1 & to devote myself entirely to ! s]vice ( ,*ri/4 ,h] acc\nt ( ?is memorable exp]i5ce is dat$ ,augu/ #bh1 #ahdj4 ,:ile writ+ x1 %e adds1 ,i h (t5 laid aside my p51 to sit & ?9k ov] 9 sil5t wond] ! way 9 :i* ! ,"l has l$ me4 ,h[ 9 lat] ye>s %e reg>d$ c]ta9 features ( ?is exp]i5ce1 is n fully kn[n4 ,! record pass$ at once out ( h] h&s1 & until aft] h] dea? 0 nev] se5 by anyone1 except+ ! fri5d = ^: eye x 0 writt54 ,_m ( its details _h1 probably1 fad$ entirely f h] memory4 ,x c n be d\bt$1 h[ev]1 t %e w\ld h judg$ h] previ\s /ate mu* less sev]ely1 w\ld h>dly h *>g$ x ) hypocrisy1 or d5i$ t ! ,savi\r _h be5 graci\sly lead+ h]1 & t %e _h "s real love to ,him1 be=e z well z aft] ?is crisis4 ,s mu* may be inf]r$ f ! record itself & f ! n>rative 9 ! prec$+ *apt]4 ,h] t5d] int]e/ 9 ! spiritual welf>e ( h] fri5ds & pupils1 ! high tone ( religi\s s5tim5t t m>ks h] e>ly writ+s1 ! books %e delight$ 91 h] filial devotion1 ! absolute s9c]ity ( h] "*1 all =bid any o!r conclusion4 #c ,! indications1 too1 are v pla9 t h] morbidly-s5sitive1 melan*oly temp]am5t _h mu* to d ) ?is exp]i5ce4 ,h] acc\nt ( x %[s1 also1 t h] m9d 0 unhappily affect$ by c]ta9 false notions ( ! ,*ri/ian life & ord9ances !n1 & /ill1 m or less preval5t--notions bas$ ^u a too n>r[ & legal conception ( ! ,gospel4 ,h5ce1 h] %r9k+ f ! ,"l's table z a place ( torture1 in/ead ( reg>d+ x 9 its true "*1 z in/itut$ on purpose to fe$ hungry s\ls1 l h] own1 ) bread f heav54 ,b = all t1 ! exp]i5ce 0 a bless$ reality &1 z ^! pages w atte/1 wr\ght a la/+ *ange 9 h] religi\s life4 ,no d\bt ! ,_s ( ,god 0 lead+ h] ?r\gh all its d>k & t]rible mazes4 ,x virtually end$ a conflict :i* ! int5sely pr\d elem5ts ( h] nature r5d]$ inevitable1 if %e 0 to become a true h]o9e ( fai?--! conflict betwe5 h] ,ma/]'s w & h] own4 ,h] ,ma/] conqu]$1 & h5ce=? to h] dy+ h\r ,8 w 0 ! sov]eign law ( h] exi/5ce1 & its sweete/ joy also4 ,! foll[+ extracts f lett]s to h] c\s91 ,george ,e4 ,%ipman1 ( ,new ,york1 n[ widely kn[n z ! f\nd] ( a ,f\ndl+ ,home at ,*icago1 w ?r[ additional light ^u h] /ate ( m9d at ?is p]iod4 ,mr4 ,%ipman 0 ! fri5d to :om ! acc\nt ( h] exp]i5ce already m5tion$ 0 address$4 ,he _h j sp5t sev]al weeks 9 ,portl&1 & to 8 ,*ri/ian sympa?y1 k9dness1 & c\nsels :ile !re & dur+ ! two foll[+ ye>s1 %e felt h]self v deeply indebt$4 #d ,,portl&1 ,augu/ #bb1 #ahdj4 ,i am always wond]+ if any body 9 ! _w is ! bett] (f = my be+ 9 x4 ,& s if ,i 0 ( any com=t to y1 ,i am v glad ( x4 ,i d want1 ,i confess1 ! privilege ( (f]+ y sometimes ! w9e & oil ( consolation1 & if ,i d x 9 su* a way z to cause pa9 ) my unskilful h&1 :y1 y mu/ =give me4444 ,mr4 ---- talk$ to me z if he imag9$ me a blue-/ock+4 ,j because my si/] we>s spectacles1 folks take x = grant$ t ,i also am lit]>y4 ,aug4 #be?4--,y ask if ,i f9d x easy to engage 9 religi\s m$itation1 ref]r+ 9 p>ticul> to t on our f9al re/4 ,?is is ano!r ( my trials4 ,i c n m$itate ^u any?+1 except inde$ x be some?+ q ! opposite ( :at ,i wi% to occupy my m9d4 ,y "k t "s ,*ri/ians are able 9 _! solit>y walks & rides to hold1 all ! "t1 communion ) ,god4 ,i c v seldom d ?is4 ,ye/]day ,i 0 oblig$ to take a long walk alone1 & x 0 made v delightful 9 ?is way2 s t ,i q =got t ,i 0 alone4444 ,i am beg9n+ to feel1 t ,i h en\gh to d )\t look+ out = a great1 wide place 9 :i* to "w1 & to appreciate ! simple l9es3 ,! trivial r\nd1 ! common task1 ,w\ld furni% all we ought to ask2 ,room to d5y ourselves2 a road ,to br+ u daily ne>] ,god4 ,^? words daily ne>] ,god h an inexpressible *>m = me4 ,i long = su* ne>ness to ,him t all o!r objects %all fade into comp>ative insignificance1--s t to h a ?\ght1 a wi%1 a pleasure ap>t f ,him %all be impossible4 ,sept4 #ab?4--,at ,sabba?-s*ool ?is morn+1 :ile talk+ ) my s*ol>s ab\t ! ,"l ,jesus1 my he>t1 :i* is (t5 s cold & s /upid1 seem$ completely melt$ )9 me1 ) su* a view ( ,8 wond]ful1 wond]ful love = s9n]s1 t ,i almo/ believ$ ,i _h nev] felt x till !n4 ,su* a bless+ is wor? toil+ & wre/l+ = a :ole life4 ,if a glimpse ( our ,savi\r "h ^u e>? c be s refre%+1 s delightful1 :at w x be 9 heav56 ,sept4 #ag?4--,i h be5 read+ to-day "s passages f ,nev9s' ,practical ,?\ghts4 #e ,p]haps y h se5 !m2 if s1 d y rememb] two articles head$1 ,i mu/ pray m1 & ,i mu/ pray diff]5tly8 ,!y int]e/$ me mu* because 9 "s measure !y express my own feel+s4 ,i h less & less confid5ce 9 frames1 z !y are call$4 ,i am glad t y ?9k x bett] to h a few books & to read !m ov] & ov]1 = my own incl9ation leads me to t4 ,"o gets atta*$ to !m z to ,*ri/ian fri5ds4 ,d n hesitate to direct me ov] & ov] aga91 to g ) difficulties & temptations & s9 to ! ,savi\r4 ,i love to be l$ !re & left !re4 ,sometimes :5 ! exce$+ s9fulness ( s9 becomes pa9fully app>5t1 !re is no?+ else = ! s\l to d b to lie 9 ! du/ be=e ,god1 )\t a ^w ( excuse1 & t feel+ ( abasem5t 9 ,8 sight is wor? m ?an all ! pleasures 9 ! _w4444 ,y w believe me if ,i own myself tir$1 :5 ,i tell y t ,i made f\rte5 calls ?is aft]noon4 ,b ev5 ! unpleasant bus9ess ( call-mak+ has _h "o com=t4 ,"s ( ! fri5ds ( :om ,i took leave1 spoke s t5d]ly ( ,him ^: "n is s preci\s to ,8 *ildr5 t my he>t w>m$ t[>ds !m in/antly1 & ,i ?\ght x wor? :ile to h p>t+ h\rs1 sad ?\gh !y may be1 if ) !m came s naturally ?\ghts ( ! ,savi\r4 ,besides1 ,i h be5 ?9k+ s9ce ,i came home1 t if ,i did n love ,him1 x c\ld n be s refre%+ to he> unexpect$ly ( ,him4444 ,i did n "k t "m _h any?+ to d ) y\r fa!r's conv]sion1 & :5 ,i m5tion$ x to h] %e seem$ mu* surpris$ & said %e did n "k x h]self4 ,pray tell me m ( x1 w y8 ,i h felt t if1 9 ! c\rse ( my life1 ,i %\ld be ! means ( lead+ "o s\l to ! ,savi\r1 x w\ld be wor? /ay+ 9 ?is _w = no matt] h[ _m ye>s4 ,did y ev] read ,miss ,taylor's ,display8 ,si/] says ! "* ( ,emily !re is l m9e4 ,i ?9k s myself save 9 ! be/ po9t4 ,we come n[ to an important *ange 9 h] outw>d life4 ,%e _h accept$ an invitation to become a tea*] 9 ,mr4 ,p]sico's s*ool at ,ri*mond1 ,virg9ia4 ,mr4 ,p]sico 0 an ,italian1 a bro!r ( ! sculptor ( t "n1 a numb] ( ^: works are se5 at ,wa%+ton4 ,he e>ly became int]e/$ 9 our in/itutions1 & z soon z he 0 able1 came to ?is c\ntry & settl$ 9 ,philadelphia z an arti/4 ,he m>ri$ a lady ( t city1 & aft]w>d on acc\nt ( h] heal? w5t to ,ri*mond1 :]e he op5$ a bo>d+ & day s*ool = girls4 ,!re 7 f\r sep>ate dep>tm5ts1 "o ( :i* 0 "u ! sole c>e ( ,miss ,payson4 ,h] lett]s to h] family1 writt5 at ?is "t1 h all be5 lo/1 b a full record ( ! l>g] portion ( h] ,ri*mond life is pres]v$ 9 lett]s to h] c\s91 ,mr4 ,%ipman4 ,! foll[+ extracts f ^! lett]s %[ ) :at zeal %e devot$ h]self to h] new call+ & h[ absorb$ h] he>t 0 /ill 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,!y also ?r[ light ^u "s m>k$ features ( h] "*4 ,,bo/on1 ,septemb] #bc4 ,i _h1 aft] leav+ home1 an attack ( t t]rible pa91 ( :i* ,i h told y1 & believ$ myself v ne> dea?4 ,x became a s]i\s "q :e!r1 if ,god %\ld s please1 ,i c\ld feel will+ to die !re alone1 = ,i 0 among entire /rang]s4 ,i nev] enjoy$ m ( ,8 pres5ce ?an t night :51 sick & sad & full ( pa91 ,i felt x sweet to put myself 9 ,8 h&s to be dispos$ ( 9 ,8 own way4 ,! attack ref]r$ to 9 ?is lett] resembl$ ang9a pectoris1 a disease to :i* = _m ye>s %e 0 l$ to consid] h]self liable4 ,:atev] x may h be51 its effect 0 excruciat+4 ,"m 0 tell+ me ! o!r day1 %e wrote to a fri5d1 t 9 h] long life %e _h nev] se5 an individual suff] m sev]e bodily pa9 ?an %e _h (t5 tri$ to relieve 9 me4 ,i rememb] scores ( su* h\rs ( real agony4 ,9 ! pres5t in/ance ! attack 0 d\btless br\ght on1 9 "p at lea/1 by m5tal agitation4 ,no words1 %e wrote a few mon?s lat]1 c describe ! angui% ( my m9d ! night ,i left home2 x seem$ to me t all ! agony ,i _h ev] pass$ ?r\gh 0 cond5s$ into a small space1 & ,i c]ta9ly believe t ,i %\ld die1 if left to a high] degree ( su* pa94 ,,ri*mond1 ,septemb] #cj1 #ahdj4 ,ab\t twelve o'clock1 :5 x 0 z d>k z pit*1 we 7 all ord]$ to prep>e = a %ort walk4 ,9 s+le file !n out we w5t4 ,x seems t a bridge _h be5 burn$ lately1 & s we 7 all to g r\nd on foot to ano!r tra9 ( c>s4 ,!re 7 doz5s ( bright1 crackl+ bonfires light$ at %ort int]vals all along1 & z we w\nd d[n n>r[1 /eep & rocky pa?ways1 !n up /eps :i* _h be5 rudely cut out 9 ! side ( ! elevat$ gr\nd1 & z f> z we c\ld see be=e u c\ld wat* ! long l9e ( mov+ figures 9 all v>ieties ( =m & color1 my spirits rose to ! v tiptop ( enjoym5t4 ,i wi%$ y c\ld h a picture ( ! :ole sc5e1 :i*1 ?\gh "o ( real life1 0 to me at lea/ exce$+ly beautiful4 ,we rea*$ ,ri*mond at "o o'clock4 ,mr4 ,p]sico 0 wait+ = u & receiv$ u cordially4444 ,:5 ,i awoke at eight o'clock1 ,i felt =lorn en\gh4 ,imag9e1 if y c1 ! room 9 :i* ,i op5$ my eyes4 ,x is 9 ! attic1 is v l[ & has two w9d[s4 ,my fir/ ?\ght 01 ,i nev] c be happy 9 ?is mis]able hole2 b 9 a second ?is wick$ feel+ took flight1 & ,i reproa*$ myself = my +ratitude to ,him :o _h pres]v$ me ?r\gh all my j\rney1 _h made mu* ( x s delightful & pr(itable1 & :o /ill promis$ to be ) me4 ,oct4 #b4--;,i w try to give y "s acc\nt ( our do+s1 al?\gh we are n fully settl$4 ,we h ris5 at six s f>1 b int5d to be up by five if we c wake4 ,z soon z we are dress$ ,i take my ,bible out into ! entry1 :]e is a w9d[ & a quiet corn]1 & read & ?9k until ,l\isa #f is ready to give me our room & take my place4 ,at n9e we g into s*ool1 :]e ,miss ,"l #g reads a pray]1 & f t h\r until twelve we are engag$ ) our respective classes4 ,at twelve we h a recess ( ?irty m9utes4 ,?is ov]1 we return aga9 to s*ool1 :]e we /ay until ?ree1 :5 we are to d9e4 ,all day ,saturday we are free4 ,?is "t we are to h ,monday1 too1 z a special holiday1 because ( a great ,:ig conv5tion :i* is turn+ ! city upside-d[n4 ,!re is "o pleasant ?+1 pleasant to me at lea/1 ( :i* ,i want to tell y4 ,z ,mr4 ,p]sico is n a religi\s man1 ,i suppos$ we %\ld h no bless+ at ! table1 & 0 afraid ,i %\ld get into ! habit ( fail+ to ackn[l$ge ,god !re4 ,b ,i 0 mu* affect$ :51 on go+ to d9e ! fir/ day ,i came1 he /ood lean+ sil5tly & rev]5tially ov] 8 *air1 z if to all[ all ( u "t = t quiet lift+ up ( ! he>t :i* is ev] acceptable 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,x is v impressive4 ,miss ,"l reads pray]s at night1 & :5 ,mrs4 ,p]sico comes home we are to h s++4444 ,t passage 9 ! #aai? ,psalm1 ( :i* y speak1 is inde$ delightful4 ,i w tell y :at 7 "s ( my m$itations on x4 ,i ?\ght to myself t if ,god cont9u$ ,8 fai?fulness t[>d me1 ,i %all h afflictions su* z ,i n[ "k no?+ m ( ?an ! "n1 = ,i ne$ !m con/antly4 ,i h trembl$ ev] s9ce ,i came "h at ! ho/ ( new difficulties to :i* ,i am expos$4 ,surely ,i did aga9 & aga9 ask ,god to decide ! "q = me z to :e!r ,i %\ld leave home or n1 & believ$ t ,he _h *os5 = me4 ,x c]ta9ly 0 aga9/ my own incl9ations4444 ,oct4 #ab?4--,?is morn+ ,i _h a new s*ol>1 a pale1 ?9 little girl :o /amm]s1 & :5 ,i spoke to h]1 & %e 0 oblig$ to answ]1 ! color spread ov] h] face & neck z if %e suff]$ ! utmo/ mortification4 ,i 0 glad :5 recess came1 to draw h] close to my side & to tell h] t ,i _h a fri5d afflict$ 9 ! same way1 & t consequ5tly1 ,i %\ld "k h[ to und]/& & pity h]4 ,%e held my h& fa/ 9 h]s & ! te>s came /eal+ d[n "o aft] ano!r1 z %e lean$ confid+ly ^u my %\ld]1 & ,i c\ld n help cry+ too1 ) m+l$ feel+s ( gratitude & sorr[4 ,c]ta9ly x w be delightful to soo! & to console ?is poor little ?+4444 ,y d n l poetry & ,i h sp5t ! be/ "p ( my life 9 read+ or try+ to write x4 ,n4 ,p4 ,willis told me "s ye>s ago1 t if my husb& _h a s\l1 he w\ld love me = ! poetical 9 me1 & advis$ me to save x = him4 ,oct4 #bg?4--,sometimes :5 ,i feel almo/ sure t ! ,savi\r has accept$ & =giv5 me & t ,i belong to ,him1 ,i c only walk my room repeat+ ov] & ov] aga91 ,h[ wond]ful6 ,& !n :5 my m9d /rives to take 9 ?is love ( ,*ri/1 x seems to /ruggle 9 va9 ) its own littl5ess & falls back we>y & exhau/$1 to wond] aga9 at ! heights & dep?s :i* surpass its compreh5sion4444 ,if !re is a sp>k ( love 9 my he>t = anybody1 x is = ?is de> bro!r ( m9e1 & ! desire to h 8 education ?or\gh & complete has gr[n ) my gr[?4 ,y1 :o are n a si/]1 c n und]/& ! feel+s ) :i* ,i reg>d him1 b !y are su* z to call =? unb\nd$ love & gratitude t[>d ^? :o %[ k9dness to him4 ,nov4 #c;d4--,i h always felt a peculi> love = ! passage t describes ! walk to ,emmaus4 ,i h tri$ to analyse ! feel+ ( pleasure :i* x inv>iably %$s ov] my he>t :5 dwell+ ^u x1 especially ^u ! words1 ,jesus ,himself drew ne> & w5t ) !m1 & ^!1 ,he made z ?\gh ,he w\ld g fur!r1 b yield$ to _! urg5t1 ,abide ) u4 444 ,?is is "o ( ! com=ts ( ! ,*ri/ian2 ,god und]/&s him fully :e!r he c expla9 8 tr\bles or n4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k all ( a sudd5 t ,i d n love ! ,savi\r at all1 & am ready to believe t all my pret5d$ anxiety to s]ve ,him has be5 b a matt] ( feel+ & n ( pr9ciple2 b ( late ,i h be5 less di/urb$ by ?is imag9ation1 z ,i f9d x ext5ds to e>?ly fri5ds :o are de> to me z my own s\l4 ,i ?\ght once ye/]day t ,i didn't love anybody 9 ! _w & 0 p]fectly wret*$ 9 consequ5ce4 ,nov4 #ab?4--,! m ,i try to und]/& myself1 ! m ,i am puzzl$4 ,t ,i am a mixture ( contradictions is ! op9ion ,i h long _h ( myself4 ,i call x a comp\nd ( s9c]ity & res]ve4 ,unless y see j :at ,i mean 9 y\r own consci\sness1 ,i d\bt :e!r ,i c expla9 x 9 words4 ,) me x is bo? an op5 & a %ut he>t--op5 :5 & :]e & z f> z ,i please1 & %ut z tight z a vise 9 ! same way4 ,i 0 probably born ) ?is same mixture ( frankness & res]ve1 hav+ inh]it$ ! "o f my "m & ! o!r f my fa!r4444 ,i h (t5 ?\ght t1 humanly speak+1 x w\ld be a /range1 & surely a v sad ?+ if we none ( u inh]it any ( our fa!r's piety2 = :5 he pray$ = 8 *ildr5 x 01 und\bt$ly1 t we might be v peculi>ly ! ,"l's4 ,h4 0 to be ! mission>y2 b if he c n g himself1 & is prosp]$ 9 bus9ess1 ,i hope he w be able to help s5d o!rs4 ,i h be5 fright5$1 ( late1 9 ?9k+ h[ little good ,i am do+ 9 ! _w4 ,& yet ,i believe t ^? :o love to d good always f9d opportunities en\gh1 :]ev] !y are4 ,:e!r ,i %all d any "h1 ,i d>e n try to guess4 ,dec4 #c;d4--,h[ ,i ?ank y = ! int]e/ y take 9 my ,bible class4 ,!y are s att5tive to e ^w ,i say t x makes me deeply feel ! importance ( seek+ ea* ( ^? words f ! ,holy ,_s4 ,_m ( !m _h n ev5 a ,bible ( _! own until n[1 nor 7 !y 9 ! habit ( read+ x at all4 ,among o!rs !re are two gr&-daught]s ( ,patrick ,h5ry4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld give y a picture ( !m1 z !y sit on ,sabba? ev5+ ar\nd ! table ) _! eyes fix$ s eag]ly on my face1 t if ,i did n feel t ! ,"l ,jesus 0 pres5t1 ,i %\ld be ov]:elm$ ) confusion at my unwor?9ess4444 ,mr4 ,p]sico is a que] man4 ,la/ ,sabba? ,miss ,l4 ask$ him if he _h be5 to *ur*4 ,oui1 ,mlle41 said he2 v\s tiez l'glise de l'homme--moi1 j'tais l'glise de ,dieu--dans les bois4 ,!re is ! bell = pray]s2 x is an h\r s9ce ,i began to write1 b ,i h sp5t a great "p ( x ) my eyes %ut because ,i happ5$ to feel m l m$itat+ ?an writ+1 if y "k :at sort ( a feel+ t is4 ,oh1 t we might be enabl$ to g onw>d day by day--& upw>d too4 ,i h be5 mak+ viol5t ef=ts = ye>s to become meek & l[ly 9 he>t4 ,at pres5t ,i d hope t ,i am less irritable ?an ,i us$ to be4 ,x 0 no small com=t to me :5 si/] 0 home la/ summ]1 to le>n f h] t ,i _h succe$$ some:at 9 my ef=ts4 ,b ?\gh ,i h n (t5 ! la/ ye> be5 guilty ( h>% spee*es1 ,i h felt my pride tugg+ ) all its might to k9dle a great fire :5 "s unexpect$ trial has caught me (f my gu>d4 ,i am p]suad$ t real meekness dwells deep )9 ! he>t & t x is only to be ga9$ by communion ) our bless$ ,savi\r1 :o :5 ,he 0 revil$1 revil$ n aga94 ,sabba? ,ev5+1 #h?4--,i want$ to write la/ ev5+ b _h a worse pa9 9 my side & left arm ?an ,i h _h s9ce ,i came "h4 ,:ile x la/$1 :i* 0 an h\r & a half1 ,i _h su* pleasant ?\ghts = companions z w\ld make any pa9 endurable4 ,i 0 ask+ myself if1 suppos+ ,god %\ld please sudd5ly to take me away 9 ! mid/ ( life1 :e!r ,i %\ld feel will+ & glad to g1 & oh1 x did seem delightful to ?9k ( x1 & to feel sure t1 soon] or lat]1 ! summons w come4 ,^? pieces :i* y m>k$ 9 ! ,obs]v] ,i h read & l !m exce$+ly1 especially ^? ab\t gr[? 9 grace4444 ,y speak ( ! goodness ( ,god to me 9 grant+ me s mu* ( ,8 pres5ce1 :ile ,i am "h away f all e>?ly fri5ds4 ,inde$ ,i want to be able to praise ,him z ,i nev] yet h done1 & ,i don't "k :]e to beg94 ,i h felt m pa9 9 ?is sep>ation f home on "m's acc\nt ?an any o!r1 z ,i feel t %e ne$s me at home to com=t & to love h]4 ,s9ce %e lo/ h] be/ e>?ly fri5d ,i h be5 h] con/ant companion4 ,i once _h a secret desire = a mission>y life1 if ,god %\ld see fit to prep>e me = x1 b :5 ,i spoke ( x to "m %e 0 s utt]ly ov]come at its b>e m5tion t ,i in/antly promis$ ,i w\ld nev] = any inducem5t leave or =sake h]4 ,i want y to pray = me t if poor "m's "r h& is made =ev] useless1 #h ,i may aft] ?is ye> be a "r h& = h]1 & be enabl$ to make up some:at to h] = ! loss ( x by affection & t5d]ness & sympa?y4444 ,i don't rememb] feel+ any way 9 p>ticul>1 :5 ,i fir/ began to write = ! press1 z y call x4 ,i nev] c\ld realise t m ?an half a doz5 p w\ld read my pieces4 ,besides1 ,i h no desire ( ! sort y express1 = fame4 ,i c>e a great deal too mu* = ! approbation ( ^? ,i love & respect1 b n a fig = t ( ^? ,i don't l or don't "k4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,h] ,"* z a ,tea*]4 ,lett]s4 ,incid5ts ( ,s*ool-,life4 ,religi\s ,/ruggles1 ,aims1 & ,hopes4 ,oppressive ,heat & ,we>9ess4 ,miss ,payson _h be5 9 ,ri*mond b a %ort "t be=e %e became greatly ende>$ to ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,p]sico1 & to ! :ole s*ool4 ,%e _h a r>e natural gift = tea*+4 ,fond ( /udy h]self1 %e knew h[ to inspire h] pupils ) ! same feel+4 ,h] me?od 0 excell5t4 ,x aim$ n m]ely to imp>t k b to elicit lat5t p[]s1 & to remove difficulties out ( ! way4 ,:ile decid$ & ?or\gh1 x 0 also v g5tle1 helpful1 & sympa!tic4 ,%e _h a quick p]ception ( m5tal div]sities1 saw z by intuition ! weak & ! /rong po9ts ( individual "*1 & 0 skillful 9 adapt+ h] influ5ce1 z well z h] in/ructions1 to ! peculi>ities ( e "o "u h] c>e4 ,! girls 9 h] own special dep>tm5t almo/ idolis$ h]4 ,! p>5ts also ( "s ( !m1 :o belong$ to ,ri*mond & its vic9ity1 see+ :at %e 0 do+ = _! daught]s1 s\ght h] acqua9tance & %[$ h] ! mo/ grateful affection4 ,al?\gh h] s*ool labors 7 exact+1 %e c>ri$ on a l>ge correspond5ce1 sp5t a good deal ( "t 9 h] favorite religi\s read+1 & toge!r ) ,miss ,susan ,"l1 ! s5ior tea*] & an old ,portl& fri5d1 pursu$ a c\rse ( /udy 9 ,fr5* & ,italian4 ,at ! table ,mr4 ,p]sico spoke ,fr5*1 & 9 ?is way %e 0 enabl$ to p]fect h]self 9 ! practice ( t language4 ,( h] spiritual hi/ory & ( incid5ts ( h] s*ool life dur+ ! new ye>1 "s extracts f lett]s to h] c\s9 w give h] own acc\nt4 ,,ri*mond1 ,janu>y #c1 #ahda4 ,if ,i tell y t ,i am go+ to take "u my especial c>e & protection "o ( ! family--a little girl ( elev5 ye>s :om nobody c manage at all1 y may wond] :y4 ,i f\nd on my plate at d9n] a note f ,mrs4 ,p]sico say+ t if ,i want$ an opportunity ( do+ good1 "h 0 "o2 t if ,nannie c\ld sleep 9 my room1 etc41 x might be ( great b5efit to h]4 ,! only reason :y ,i hesitat$ 0 ! fe> t %e might be 9 ! way ( our be/ h\rs4 ,b ,i h ?\ght all along t ,i 0 liv+ too mu* at my ease1 & want$ a place 9 :i* to d5y myself = ! sake ( ! ,"o :o yield$ up e com=t = my sake4 ,nannie has a f9e "* b has be5 mismanag$ at home1 & s9ce com+ "h4 ,%e (t5 comes & puts h] arms ar\nd me & says1 ,!re is "o 9 ?is h\se :o loves me1 ,i d "k4 ,i receive h] z a tru/ f ,god1 ) e>ne/ pray] to ,him t we may be enabl$ to be ( use to h]4 ,f morn+ to night %e is f\nd fault )1 & ?is is spoil+ h] temp] & tea*+ h] to be deceitful4444 ,i h be5 read+ lately ! ,memoir ( ,m>tyn4 ,i h1 ( c\rse1 read x m ?an once be=e1 b ev]y?+ appe>s to me n[ 9 su* a diff]5t light4 ,i rejoice t ,i h be5 l$ to read ! book j n[4 ,x has put )9 me new & peculi> desires to live :olly = ! glory ( ,god4 ,jan4#ac?4--,i und]/& ! feel+ ab\t wi%+ "o's self a dog1 or an animal )\t a s\l4 ,i h sat & wat*$ a little kitt5 frisk+ ab\t 9 ! sun%9e till ,i c\ld h>dly help kill+ x 9 my envy--b oh1 h[ diff]5t x is n[6 ,i h felt lately t p]haps ,god has some?+ = me to d 9 ! _w4 ,i am satisfi$1 inde$1 t 9 call+ me ne>] to ,himself ,he has int5d$ to prep>e me = ,8 s]vice4 ,:]e t is to be is no conc]n ( m9e z yet4 ,i only wi% to belong to ,him & wait = ,8 w1 :atev] x may be4 ,jan4 #ad?4--,i us$ to g ?r\gh ) pray] m]ely z a duty1 b n[ ,i look =w>d to ! regul> "t = x1 & hail opportunities = special seasons ) su* delight z ,i once knew no?+ (4 ,sometimes my he>t feels ready to break = ! long+ x ha? = a ne>] approa* to ! ,"l ,jesus ?an ,i c obta9 )\t ! use ( words1 & !re is n a corn] ( ! h\se :i* ,i c h to myself4 ,i ?9k sometimes t ,i %\ld be ?ankful = ! meane/ place 9 ! univ]se4 ,y ask if ,i ev] dream ( see+ ! ,"l4 ,no--,i nev] did1 nei!r %\ld ,i ?9k x desirable2 b a few days ago1 :5 ,i woke1 ,i _h fre% 9 my remembrance "s preci\s words :i*1 z ,i _h be5 dream+1 ,he _h spok5 to me4 ,x left an indescribable feel+ ( love & peace on my m9d4 ,i seem$ 9 my dream to be v ne> ,him1 & t ,he 0 enc\rag+ me to ask ( ,him all ! ?+s ( :i* ,i felt ! ne$4 ,jan4 #ag?4--,i did n mean to write s mu* ab\t myself1 = :5 ,i took out my lett] ,i 0 ?9k+ ( ?+s & be+s f> above ?is _w4 ,i 0 ?9k+ ( ! h\r :5 ! ,*ri/ian fir/ ent]s into ! joy ( 8 ,"l1 :5 ! fir/ note ( ! new song is borne to 8 e>1 & ! fir/ view ( ! ,lamb ( ,god is grant$ to 8 eye4 ,x seems to me z if ! bliss ( t "o m9ute w\ld fully comp5sate = all ! toils & /ruggles he mu/ g ?r\gh "h2 & !n to rememb] ! ages ( happ9ess t beg9 at t po9t6 ,oh1 if ! unse5 pres5ce ( ,jesus c make ! he>t to s+ = joy 9 ! mid/ ( its sorr[ & s9 "h1 :at w x be to dwell ) ,him =ev]6 ,my ,bible class1 :i* consi/s n[ ( eighte51 is e week m de> to me4 ,i am glad t y ?9k poor ,nannie well (f4 ,%e has an inquir+ m9d1 & ?\gh be=e com+ "h %e _h receiv$ no religi\s in/ruction & _h n ev5 a ,bible1 %e is n[ con/antly ask+ me que/ions :i* prove h] to be a fir/-rate ?9k] & reason]4 ,%e w5t to ! !atre la/ night & came home q disgu/$1 say+ to h]self1 ,i %\ldn't l to die 9 ! mid/ ( su* gayeties z ^!4 ,%e urg$ me to tell h] if ,i ?\ght x wrong = h] to g1 b ,i w\ld n1 because ,i did n want h] to /ay away = my sake4 ,i want h] to settle ! "q fairly 9 h] own m9d & to be guid$ by h] own consci5ce r ?an m9e4 ,%e is s grateful & happy t1 if ! sacrifice _h be5 great]1 we %\ld be glad t we _h made x4 ,& !n if we c d h] any good1 h[ mu* reason we %all h to ?ank ,god = hav+ plac$ h] "h6 ,feb4 #aa?4--,my ?\ghts ( s]i\s ?+s %\ld1 p]haps1 be call$ pray]s1 r ?an any?+ else4 ,i h con/ant ne$ ( look+ up to ,god = help1 s utt]ly weak & ignorant am ,i & s dep5d5t ^u ,him4 ,sometimes 9 my walks1 especially ^? ( ! e>ly morn+1 ,i take a v]se f ! ,daily ,food to ?9k ^u2 at o!rs1 if my m9d is :]e ,i want x %\ld be1 ev]y?+ seems to speak & sugge/ ?\ghts ( my ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 & :5 x is o!rwise ,i feel z if t "t _h be5 wa/$4 ,?is is n keep+ ! m9d on ! /ret*1 & is delightfully refre%+4 ,all ,i wi% is t ,i 7 always ?us favor$4 ,z to a ha/y temp]1 ,i "k t anybody :o ev] liv$ ) me1 until )9 ! la/ two or ?ree ye>s1 c\ld tell y ( _m in/ances ( outbreak+ passion4 ,i am a%am$ to say h[ rec5tly ! la/ real tempe/ occurr$1 b ,i w n sp>e myself4 ,x 0 9 ! spr+ ( #ahch1 & ,i did n eat any?+ = s long t ,i 0 ill 9 b$ & b>ely escap$ a fev]4 ,"m nurs$ me s t5d]ly t1 ?\gh %e =gave me1 ,i nev] %all =give myself4 ,s9ce !n ,i %\ld n wi% y to suppose t ,i h be5 p]fectly amiable1 b = ! la/ ye> ,i ?9k ,i h be5 enabl$ 9 a measure to control my temp]1 b ( t y "k m ?an ,i d1 z y _h a fair specim5 ( :at ,i am :5 ) u la/ summ]4 ,x has (t5 be5 a s\rce ( enc\ragem5t to me t ev]ybody said ,i 0 g5tle & amiable till my fa!r's dea?1 :5 ,i 0 n9e ye>s old4444 ,:ile read+ to-night t *apt] 9 ,m>k1 :]e x speaks ( ,jesus z walk+ on ! sea1 ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 ?9k+ h[ frequ5tly su* sc5es occur 9 our spiritual passage ov] ! sea :i* is f9ally to l& u on ! %ores ( ! home = :i* we long4 ,:ile !y 7 toil+ 9 r[+1 ,jesus w5t to !m ^u ! wat] & w\ld h pass$ by till ,he he>d _! cries1 & !n ,he manife/$ ,himself unto !m say+1 ,x is ,i4 ,& :5 ,he came to !m1 ! w9d ceas$ & !y wond]$4 ,surely we h (t5 f\nd 9 our toil+ t ,jesus 0 pass+ by & ready at ! fir/ trembl+ fe> to speak ! ^w ( love & ( consolation & to give u ! ne$$ help1 & !n to leave u wond]+ inde$ at ! inf9ite t5d]ness & k9dness s unexpect$ly v\*saf$ = our relief4 ,feb4 #ac?--,i d n ?9k we %\ld make our enjoym5t ( religion ! greate/ end ( our /ruggle aga9/ s94 ,i nev] once _h su* an idea4 ,i ?9k we %\ld fight aga9/ s9 simply because x is some?+ hateful to ,god1 because x is some?+ s utt]ly unlike ! _s ( ,*ri/1 :om x is our privilege to /rive to imitate 9 all ?+s4 ,on all po9ts connect$ ) ! love ,i wi% to give my ,savi\r1 & ! s]vice ,i am to r5d] ,him1 ,i feel t ,i want tea*+ & am glad to obta9 assi/ance f any s\rce4 ,i h>dly "k h[ to answ] y\r "q4 ,i d n h t con/ant s5se ( ! ,savi\r's pres5ce :i* ,i _h "h = a long "t1 nei!r d ,i feel t ,i love ,him z ,i ?\ght ,i did1 b x is n always be/ to judge ( ourselves by our feel+s1 b by ! g5]al pr9ciple & guid+ desire ( ! m9d4 ,i d ?9k t my prevail+ aim is to d ! w ( ,god & to glorify ,him 9 ev]y?+4 ,( ?is ,i h ?\ght a great deal ( late4 ,i h n a v ext5sive sph]e ( action1 b ,i want my conduct1 my e ^w & look & motion1 to be fully "u ! influ5ce ( ?is desire = ! honor ( ,god4 ,y c h no idea ( ! con/ant obs]vation to :i* ,i am expos$ "h4 ,feb4 #ba/4--,i sp5t ?ree h\rs ?is aft]noon 9 tak+ c>e ( a little black *ild 7belong+ to ! h\se71 :o is v ill1 & z ,i am n mu* us$ to su* ?+s1 x excit$ & worri$ me into a viol5t n]v\s heada*e4 ,i f9i%$ ,bra9]d's ,life ?is aft]noon1 amid _m d\bts z to :e!r ,i ev] lov$ ! ,"l at all1 s diff]5t is my piety f t ( ?is bless$ & holy man4 ,! book has be5 a favorite ) me = ye>s1 b ,i nev] felt ! influ5ce ( 8 life z ,i h :ile read+ x ( late4 ,%e alludes repeat$ly 9 h] correspond5ce to ! delight :i* %e f\nd on ! ,sabba? 9 li/5+ to t em95t prea*] & div9e1 ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,wm4 ,s4 ,plum]1 :o 0 !n settl$ 9 ,ri*mond4 ,9 a lett] to h] c\s9 %e writes3 ,i h become mu* atta*$ to him2 he seems m ?an half 9 heav51 & e ^w is full ( solemnity & feel+1 z if he _h j held ne> int]c\rse ) ,god4 ,i wi% t y c\ld h li/5$ ) me to 8 s]mons to-day4 ,!y h be51 ,i ?9k1 bless$ messages f ,god to my s\l4 ,all h] lett]s at ?is "t gl[ ) religi\s f]vor4 ,h[ wond]ful is our div9e ,ma/]6 %e seem$ to be always say+ to h]self4 ,x has become s delightful to me to speak ( ,8 love1 ( ,8 hol9ess1 ( ,8 purity1 t :5 ,i try to write to ^? :o "k ,him n1 ,i h>dly "k :at is wor?y ( ev5 a m5tion1 if ,he is to be =gott54 ,& sev]al ye>s aft]w>ds %e ref]s to ?is p]iod z a "t :5 %e %rank f ev]y?+ t 9 ! slighte/ degree int]rupt$ h] consci\sness ( ,god4 ,! foll[+ lett] to a fri5d1 ^: "n w (t5 recur 9 ^! pages1 well illu/rates h] /ate ( m9d dur+ ! entire w9t]4 ,to ,miss ,anna ,s4 ,pr5tiss4 ,ri*mond1 ,feb #bf1 #ahda4 ,y\r v welcome lett]1 my de> ,anna1 arriv$ ?is aft]noon1 &1 z my labors = ! week are ov]1 ,i am glad ( a quiet h\r 9 :i* to ?ank y = x4 ,i d n ?ank y simply because y h s soon answ]$ my lett]1 b because y h told me :at no "o else c\ld d s well ab\t y\r own v de> self4 ,:5 ,i wrote y ,i d\bt$ v mu* :e!r ,i might ev5 allude to ! subject ( religion1 al?\gh ,i wi%$ to d s1 s9ce t almo/ exclusively has occupi$ my m9d dur+ ! la/ ye>4 ,i saw y 9 ! mid/ ( temptations to :i* ,i h ev] be5 a /rang]1 b :i* ,i conceiv$ to be decid$ly unfavorable to gr[? 9 any ( ! graces :i* make up ,*ri/ian "*4 ,x 0 n )\t hesitation t ,i v5tur$ to yield to ! prompt+s ( my he>t1 & to ref] to ! only ?+s :i* h at pres5t mu* int]e/ = x4 ,i c n tell y h[ ,i d rejoice t y h be5 l$ to come out ?us ^u ! ,"l's side1 & to consecrate y\rself to ,8 s]vice4 ,my own views & feel+s h )9 ! la/ ye> und]gone su* an entire *ange1 t ,i h wi%$ ,i c\ld take n[ "s su* /& 9 ! pres5ce ( all :o h kn[n me 9 days pa/1 z ?is :i* y h tak54 ,my fir/ & only wi% is h5ce=? to live b = ,him1 :o has graci\sly drawn my w&]+ affections to ,himself4444 ,y speak ( ! fa9tness ( y\r he>t--b !y :o wait ^u ! ,"l %all r5ew _! /r5g?1 & ,i d believe ! tru? ( ^! preci\s words2 n only because !y are ^? ( ,god1 b also because my own exp]i5ce adds happy witness to !m4 ,i h liv$ _m ye>s ) only j en\gh ( hope to keep me f actual despair4 ,! lea/ brea? 0 suffici5t to scatt] x all & to leave me1 fe>ful & afraid1 to g ov] & ov] aga9 ! same gr\nd2 ?us all[+ nei!r "t nor /r5g? = progress 9 ! ,*ri/ian c\rse4 ,i tru/ t y w n g ?r\gh ye>s ( su* unnecess>y d>kness & despond5cy4 ,!re is c]ta9ly en\gh 9 our ,savi\r1 if we only op5 our eyes t we may see x1 to solve e d\bt & satisfy e long+ ( ! he>t2 & ,he is will+ to give x 9 full measure4 ,:5 ,i contemplate ! "* ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 ,i am fill$ ) wond] :i* ,i c n express1 & ) unutt]able desires to yield myself & my all to ,8 h&1 to be dealt ) 9 ,8 own way2 & ,8 way is a bless$ "o1 s t x is delightful to resign body & s\l & _s to ,him1 )\t a w oppos$ to ,81 )\t a c>e b to love ,him m1 )\t a sorr[ :i* ,8 love c n sanctify or remove4 ,9 foll[+ aft] ,him fai?fully & /eadfa/ly1 ! feeble/ hopes may be /r5g!n$2 & ,i tru/ t y w f9d 9 y\r own happy exp]i5ce t joy & peace g h& 9 h& ) love--s t 9 proportion to y\r devotion to ! ,savi\r w be ! bless$ness ( y\r life4 ,:5 ,i beg9 ,i h>dly "k :]e to /op1 & n[ ,i f9d myself almo/ at ! end ( my %eet be=e ,i h begun to say :at ,i wi%4 ,?is w only assure y t ,i love y a ?\s& times bett] ?an ,i did :5 ,i did n "k t y\r he>t 0 fill$ ) hopes & affections l my own1 & t ,i e>ne/ly desire1 if ,provid5ce p]mits u to enjoy int]c\rse 9 ?is or 9 any o!r way1 we may nev] lose sight ( ! "o great tru? t we are n our own4 ,i pray y sometimes rememb] me at ! ?rone ( grace4 ,! m ,i see ( ! ,savi\r1 ! m ,i feel my own weakness & helplessness & my ne$ ( ,8 con/ant pres5ce1 & ,i c n help ask+ assi/ance f all ^? :o love ,him4444 ,oh1 h[ sorry ,i am t ,i h come to ! end6 ,i wi% ,i _h any faculty = express+ affection1 s t ,i might tell y h[ mu* ,i love & h[ (t5 ,i ?9k ( y4 ,h] c\s9 hav+ gone abroad1 a break 9 ! correspond5ce ) him occurr$ ab\t ?is "t & cont9u$ = sev]al mon?s4 ,9 a lett] to h] fri5d1 ,miss ,?ur/on1 dat$ ,april #ba/1 %e ?us ref]s to h] s*ool3 ,!re are six ( u tea*]s1 five ( !m born 9 ,ma9e--:i* is r funny1 z t is consid]$ by mo/ ( ! folks "h z ! place :]e ! _w comes to an end4 ,al?\gh ! ,s\? lifts up its w+s & cr[s ov] ! ,nor?1 x is glad en\gh to get its tea*]s !re1 & m9i/]s too1 & treats !m v well :5 x gets !m1 into ! b>ga94 ,we h 9 ! s*ool ab\t "o hundr$ & tw5ty-five pupils ( all ages4 ,i nev] knew till ,i came "h ! influ5ce :i* e>ly religi\s education ex]ts ^u ! :ole future age4 ,!re is su* a wond]ful diff]5ce betwe5 mo/ ( ^! "y p & ^? 9 ! ,nor?1 t y might almo/ believe !m ano!r race ( be+s4 ,mrs4 ,p]sico is beautiful1 intellig5t1 int]e/+1 & pi\s4 ,mr4 ,p]sico is j z mu* l ,john ,neal z diff]5ce ( education & ( circum/ances c p]mit4 ,mr4 ,n4's /rong s5se ( ju/ice1 8 en?usiasm1 8 fun & wit1 8 indep5d5ce & self-e/eem1 8 ta/es1 too1 z f> z ,i "k !m1 all exi/ 9 l degree 9 ,mr4 ,p]sico4 ,! e>ly spr+1 ) its pr(usion ( fl[]s ( e hue1 s f> 9 advance ( ! spr+ 9 h] native ,/ate1 gave h] ! utmo/ pleasure2 b z ! summ] approa*$1 h] heal? began to suff]4 ,! heat 0 v int5se1 & hot wea!r always affect$ h] unhappily4 ,i feel1 %e wrote1 z if ,i 7 9 an ov5 ) hot melt$ lead p\r$ ov] my bra94 ,h] old tr\ble1 too--organic disease ( ! he>t x 0 n[ suspect$ to be--caus$ h] mu* discom=t4 ,:ile writ+1 %e says 9 "o ( h] lett]s1 ,i am suff]+ excruciat+ pa92 ,i c't call x any?+ else4 ,h] physical condition naturally affect$ m or less h] religi\s feel+s4 ,"u date ( ,july #ab?1 %e writes3 ,! ^w conflict expresses bett] ?an any o!r my g5]al /ate f day to day4 ,i h seem$ ( late l a /raw float+ ^u ! surface ( a great ocean1 bl[n hi!r & ?i!r by e w9d1 & toss$ f wave to wave )\t ! re/ ( a mom5t4 ,x 0 a mi/ake ( m9e to imag9e t ,god ev] int5d$ man to re/ 9 ?is _w4 ,i see t x is "r & wise 9 ,him to appo9t x o!rwise4444 ,:ile suff]+ f my ,savi\r's abs5ce1 no?+ int]e/s me4 ,b ,i 0 some:at enc\rag$ by read+ 9 my fa!r's memoir1 & 9 reflect+ t he pass$ ?r\gh f> great] spiritual conflicts ?an w probably ev] be m9e4444 ,i see n[ t x is n always be/ = u to h ! light ( ,god's c\nt5ance4 ,d n sp5d y\r "t & /r5g? 9 ask+ = me t bless+1 b ?is--t ,i may be trans=m$ into ! image ( ,*ri/ 9 ,8 own "t1 9 ,8 own way4 ,e>ly 9 ,augu/ %e left ,ri*mond & flew homew>d l a bird to its ne/4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,extracts f h] ,ri*mond ,j\rnal4 ,7 h] lett]s to h] c\s9 ! only record ( ,miss ,payson's ,ri*mond life1 "o might inf] t !y give a complete picture ( x2 = !y 7 writt5 9 ! fre$om & confid5ce ( ,*ri/ian fri5d%ip1 ) no ?\ght t a ?ird eye w\ld ev] see !m4 ,b x _h ano!r & hidd5 side1 ( :i* h] lett]s conta9 only a p>tial record4 ,h] e>ly habit ( keep+ a j\rnal has be5 already ref]r$ to4 ,%e kept "o at ,ri*mond1 & 0 prev5t$ sev]al ye>s lat] f de/roy+ x1 z %e _h de/roy$ o!rs1 by ! entreaty ( ! only p]son :o ev] saw x4 ,?is j\rnal depicts _m ( h] mo/ secret ?\ghts & feel+s1 bo? e>?w>d & heav5w>d4 ,"s passages 9 x are ( too p]sonal a nature = publication1 b ! foll[+ extracts seem fairly entitl$ to a place "h1 z !y br+ out sev]al features ( h] "* ) sunlike cle>ness1 & s w help to a bett] und]/&+ ( ! ensu+ n>rative3 ,,ri*mond1 ,octob] #c1 #ahdj4 ,h[ funny x seems "h6 ,ev]y?+ is s diff]5t f home6 ,i =esee t ,i %an't live ne>ly a ye> "u ^! new influ5ces )\t *ang+ my old self into some?+ else4 ,heav5 =bid t ,i %\ld gr[ old because p treat me z if ,i 7 gr[n up6 ,i hate old "y folks4 ,well6 :oev] %\ld see me & my s*ol>s w\ld be at a loss to "k :]e9 consi/s ! diff]5ce betwe5 !m & me4 ,i am only a little girl aft] all1 & yet folks d treat me z if ,i 7 z old & z wise z ,me?usaleh4 ,& ,mr4 ,p]sico says1 ,oui1 ,madame4 ,oh6 oh6 oh6 ,x makes me feel s a%am$ :5 ^! tall girls1 ^! damsels ^: he>ts are develop$ z m9e won't be ^! half doz5 ye>s 7to say no?+ ( _! m9ds71 ask me if !y may g to b$1 if !y may walk1 if !y may g to ,mr4 ,s-&-s's1 & ,miss ,su*-a-"o's to buy--a /ick ( c&y = aught ,i "k4 ,oh1 oh1 oh6 ,i %all h to take airs ^u myself4 ,i %all h to leave (f little words & use big ones4 ,i %all h to leave (f sitt+ curl$ up on my feet1 turkey-fa%ion4 ,i %all h to make wise spee*es 7,b a ^w 9 y\r e>1 ,miss--,i won't74 ,oct4 #bg?--,?is ,ri*mond is a que] sort ( a place & ,i %\ld be z mis]able 9 x z a fi% out ( wat]1 only !re is sun%9e en\gh 9 my he>t to make any old hole bright4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ?is d[dy *amb] is 9 "o view a p]fect d5--no c>pet1 :itewa%$ walls1 loose w9d[s t h ! %ak+ palsy1 fire-r$ he>?1 blue pa9t in/ead ( :ite1 or r a suspicion t !re 0 once "s blue pa9t "h4 ,b :at d ,i c>e8 ,i'm z m]ry z a grig f morn+ till night4 ,! little wit*es d[n-/airs love me de>ly1 ev]ybody is k9d1 &--&--&--:5 ev]ybody is lock$ out & ,i am lock$ into ?is same room1 ?is l[ attic1 !re's n a k+ on ! e>? s ri*1 s happy z ,i6 ,"h is my little pet desk1 "h are my books1 my pap]s4 ,i c write & read & /udy & moralise1 ,i don't pret5d to say ?9k--& !n besides1 e morn+ & e night1 )9 ^! f\r walls1 heav5 itself refuses n to ent] 9 & dwell--& ,i may gr[ bett] & bett] & happi] & happi] 9 bless$ness ) :i* no?+ may int]m$dle4 ,mr4 ,p]sico is a man by himself1 & q int]e/+ to me 9 "o way1 t is1 9 giv+ me some?+ to puzzle out4 ,i l him = 8 exquisite ta/e 9 ! picture l9e & = hav+ adorn$ 8 rooms ) su* f9e ones--at lea/ !y're f9e to my inexp]i5c$ eye2 = :5 ,i'm 9 ! mood1 ,i c g & sit & dream z x seeme? me good ov] !m1 & z ,i dream1 won't good ?\ghts come into my he>t8 ,z to ,mrs4 ,p41 ,i h]eby return my ?anks to ,nature = mak+ h] s beautiful4 ,%e has a face & figure to fall 9 love )4 ,k4 has also a f9e face & a delicate little figure4 ,miss ---- ,i %all avoid z f> z ,i c d s4 ,i d n ?9k h] op9ions & feel+s w\ld d me any good4 ,%e has a f9e m9d & likes to cultivate x1 & = t ,i respect h]1 b %e has no?+ natural & girli% 9 h]1 & ,i am p]suad$1 nev] _h4 ,%e hates little *ildr52 says %e hates to he> !m laugh1 ?9ks !m little fools4 ,:y1 h[ odd all ?is is to me6 ,i c\ld z soon hate ! angels 9 heav5 & hate to he> !m s+4 ,t1 to be sure1 is my way1 & ! o!r way is h]s--b someh[ x doesn't seem good-he>t$ to be s v1 v sup]ior to *ildr5 z to %un ! little lov+ beautiful creatures4 ,i don't believe ,i ev] %all gr[ up6 ,b1 ,miss ----1 ,i don't want to d y inju/ice1 & ,i'm mu* oblig$ to y = all ! flatt]+ ?+s y've said ab\t me1 & if y l my eyes & ?9k !re is cong5iality ( feel+ betwe5 u1 :y1 ,i ?ank y4 ,b oh1 don't tea* me t ! wisdom ( ! _w consi/e? 9 =swe>+ ! simple beauties ) :i* life is full4 ,don't make me fe> my own happy girlhood by talk+ to me ab\t love--oh1 don't6 ,dec4 #a4--;,i wond] if all ! girls 9 ! _w are j alike8 ,seems to me !y might be s sweet & lovable if !y'd leave (f *att]+ =ev] & ev] ab\t lov]s4444 ,if mo!rs w\ld keep _! little unfl$g$ birds "u _! own w+s1 w\ldn't !y make bett] "m- birds8 ,n[ "s girls d[n-/airs1 :o ought to be ?9k+ ab\t all ! beautiful ?+s 9 life b j lov]s1 are read+ novels1 love-/ories & poetry1 till !y c't c>e = any?+ else4444 ,n[1 ,lizzy ,payson1 :]e's ! use ( frett+ s8 ,g "r to "w read+ ,leighton & y'll =get t all ! _w isn't z wise z y ?9k y are1 y little va9 ?+1 y6 ,alas & alas1 b ?is is su* a nice _w1 & ! girls don't "k x6 ,dec4 #b4--,:at a pleasant walk ,i _h ?is morn+ on ,ambl]'s ,hill4 ,! sun rose :ile ,i 0 !re & ,i 0 s happy6 ,! little valley1 clo!d ) :ite h\ses & completely encircl$ by hills1 rem9d$ me ( ! v]se ab\t ! m\nta9s r\nd ab\t ,j]usalem4 ,nobody 0 awake s e>ly & ,i _h all ! great hill to myself1 & x 0 s beautiful t ,i c\ld h ?r[n myself d[n & kiss$ ! e>? itself4 ,oh1 sweet & good & lov+ ,"m ,nature6 ,i *oose y = my own4 ,i w be y\r little lady-love4 ,i w hunt y out :5ev] y hide1 & y %all com=t me :5 ,i am sad1 & laugh ) me :5 ,i'm m]ry1 & take me by ! h& & lead me onw>d & upw>d till ! image ( ! heav5ly =ce? out t ( ! e>?ly f my :ole he>t & s\l4 ,oh1 h[ ,i pray$ = a holy he>t on t hillside & h[ sure ,i am t ,i %all gr[ bett]6 & :at companionable ?\ghts ,i've _h all day = t bless$ walk6 #h?4--,my life is a nice little life j n[1 z regul> z clockwork4 ,we walk & we keep s*ool1 & our s*ol>s kiss & love u1 & we kiss & love !m1 & we read ,lam>t9e & ,i wor%ip ,leighton1 good1 wise1 holy ,leighton1 & we disc\rse ab\t ev]y?+ toge!r & dispute & argue & argue & dispute1 & ,i'm q happy1 s ,i am6 ,z to ,lam>t9e1 he's no great ?+s1 z ,i "k (1 b ,i want to keep up my k ( ,fr5* & s we read tw5ty pages a day4 ,& z to our disc\rses1 my fidgety1 moralis+ sort ( m9d wants to comp>e its doctr9es ) ^? ( o!r p1 ?\gh x's z /iff z a pok] 9 its own op9ions4 ,y're a v consi/5t little girl6 y call y\rself a *ild1 are afraid to op5 y\r m\? be=e folks1 & yet y're z ob/9ate & pr\d z a little man1 d>+ to ?9k = y\rself & act accord+ly at ! risk ( be+ call$ odd & incompreh5sible4 ,i don't c>e1 ?\gh6 ,run on & break y\r neck if y w4 ,y're no?+ especial aft] all4 #i?4--,to-night1 9 unroll+ a bundle ( "w ,i f\nd a little note !re9 f "m4 ,:ew1 h[ ,i kiss$ x6 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld fly out ( my s5ses1 ,i 0 s glad4 ,b ,i c't fly n[-a-days1 ,i'm gr[+ s une!rial4 ,:y1 ,i take up a lot ( room 9 ! _w & my frocks won't hold me4 ,t's because my he>t is s quiet1 ly+ z /ill z a m\se1 aft] all its toss+s ab\t & try+ to be happy 9 ! ?+s ( ?is life4 ,oh1 ,i am s happy n[ 9 ! o!r life6 ,b z = tell+ o!r p s--z = talk+ religion--,i don't see h[ ,i c4 ,x doesn't come natural4 ,is x because ,i am pr\d8 ,b ,i pray to be s holy1 s truly a ,*ri/ian1 t my life %all speak & g5tly p]suade all :o see me to look = ! hidd5 spr+ ( my p]petual happ9ess & quietness4 ,! only "q is3 ,d ,i live s8 ,i'm afraid ,i make religion seem too grave a ?+ to my wat*+ maid5s d[n-/airs2 b1 oh1 ,i'm afraid to ru% into _! pleasures4 #be?4-- 444 ,i've be5 our ,lizzy all my life & h n _h to display my own private feel+s & op9ions be=e folks1 b h sat /ill & li/5$ & mus$ & liv$ )9 myself1 & %ut myself up 9 my corn] ( ! h\se & speculat$ on life & ! ?+s !re( till ,i've got a set ( notions ( my own :i* don't fit into ! notions ( anybody ,i "k4 ,i don't op5 myself to anybody on e>?2 ,i c n2 !re is a _w ( some?+ 9 me :i* is n kn[n to ^? ab\t me & p]haps nev] w be2 b sometimes ,i ?9k x w\ld be delici\s to love a m9d l m9e 9 "s ?+s1 only bett]1 wis]1 nobl]4 ,i d n q und]/& life4 ,p don't live z !y 7 made to live1 ,i'm sure 444 ,i want s\l4 ,i want ! graci\s1 glad _s t f9ds ! good & ! beautiful 9 ev]y?+1 jo9$ to ! manly1 exalt$ intellect--r>e unions1 ,i am sure1 yet possible ones4 ,little girl6 ,d y suppose su* a s\l w\ld f9d any?+ 9 y\rs to satisfy x8 ,no--no--no--,i d n4 ,i "k ,i am a poor little goose :i* ought to be cont5t ) "s equally poor little g&]1 b ,i won't4 ,i'll nev] give up "o in* ( ^! ! dem&s ( my reason & ( my he>t = all ! tru?s y tell me ab\t myself--nev]6 ,b desc5d f y\r elevation1 oh speculat+ *ild ( mortality1 & g d[n to s*ool4 ,oh1 no1 no s*ool = a week1 & ,i guess ,i'll sp5d ! week 9 fancies & follies4 ,x won't hurt me4 ,i've done x be=e & got back to ! _w z satisfi$ z ev]1 inde$ ,i h4 ,jan4 #a1 #ahdl4--,we've be5 busy all ! week gett+ our pres5ts ready = ! s]vants1 & a nice "t ,i've _h ?is morn+1 see+ !m %[ _! ivory !reat4 ,james made a little spee*1 ! am\nt ( :i* 01 he hop$ ,i w\ldn't get m>ri$ till ,i'd done be5 "h two or ?ree ye>s1 because my face 0 s pleasant x 0 good to look at x6 ,i 0 z pr\d z ,lucif] at ?is complim5t1 & %all c]ta9ly look pleasant all day to-day1 if ,i nev] did be=e4 ,monsieur & ! re/ wi%$ me1 ,i won't say h[ _m1 good wi%es1 ru%+ at me z ,i w5t 9 to breakfa/--& ,milly privately in=m$ ,lucy t %e lik$ ,miss ,payson a heap bett] ?an %e did any body else1 & !n came & begg$ me to buy h]6 ,i buy h]6 ,heav5 bless ! poor little girl4 ,i _h "s pres5ts & affectionate notes f diff]5t memb]s ( ! family & f my s*ol>s--also lett]s f si/] & ,n$1 :i* delight$ me inf9itely m ?an ,i'm go+ to tell y1 old j\rnal4 ,took tea at ,mr4 ,p4's & ,mrs4 ,p4 laugh$ at h] husb& because he _h once an idea ( go+ to ,new ,engl& to get my little lady%ip to wife 7= ! sake ( my fa!r1 ( c\rse74 ,mr4 ,p4 blu%$ l a boy & fidget$ t]ribly1 b ,i didn't c>e a snap--,i am n old en\gh to be wife to anybody1 & ,i'm n go+ to m9d if p d joke ) me ab\t x4 ,i've _h bett] ?+s to ?9k ( on ?is ,new ,ye>'s day--good1 heav5w>d ?\ghts & pray]s & hopes1 & if ,i d n become m & m trans=m$ into ! ,div9e1 !n are pray]s & hopes ?+s ( n\ght4 ,oh1 h[ dissatisfi$ ,i am ) myself4 ,h[ ,i long to be l unto ,him into ^: image ,i %all "o day be *ang$ :5 ,i see ,him z ,he is6 ,i believe nobody und]/&s me on religi\s po9ts1 = ,i c n1 &1 x seems to me1 ne$ n p>ade my private feel+s be=e ! _w4 ,c\s9 ,g41 ,god bless him6 kn[s en\gh1 & yet my lett]s to him d n tell ! hundr$? "p ( t :i* ^! f\r walls might tell1 if !y w\ld4 ,i d n "k t ,i am n wrong1 b ,i d dislike ! pres5t /yle ( talk+ on religi\s subjects4 ,let p pray--e>ne/ly1 f]v5tly1 n simply morn+ & night1 b ! :ole day long1 mak+ _! lives "o cont9u$ pray]2 b1 oh1 don't let !m tell o!rs (1 or let o!rs "k half h[ mu* ( communion ) ,heav5 is kn[n to _! own he>ts4 ,is x n true t ^? :o talk mo/1 g mo/ to meet+s1 run hi!r & ?i!r to all sorts ( societies & all sorts ( read+s--is x n true t su* p w\ld n f9d peace & cont5tm5t--yes1 bless$ness ( bless$ness--9 solit>y h\rs :5 to ! ,se>*] ( he>ts alone are kn[n _! aspirations & _! love8 ,i d n "k1 ,i am puzzl$2 b ,i may say "h1 :]e nobody w ev] see x1 :at ,i d ?9k1 & ,i say x to my own he>t z well z ov] ! he>ts ( o!rs--!re is n en\gh ( real1 true communion ) ,god1 n en\gh ne>ness to ,him1 n en\gh he>t-se>*+ be=e ,him2 & too mu* p>ade & bu/le & noise 9 do+ ,8 "w on e>?4 ,oh1 ,i d n "k exactly :at ,i mean--b s9ce ,i h he>d s _m app>5tly ,*ri/ian p own t ( ?is s5se ( ne>ness to ,god !y "k absolutely no?+--t !y pray because x is _! habit )\t ! lea/ expectation ( meet+ ! great yet lov+ ,fa!r 9 _! closets--s9ce ,i h he>d ?is ,i am tr\bl$ & p]plex$4 ,:y1 is x n inde$ true t ! ,*ri/ian believ]1 ,god's own adopt$1 *os51 belov$ *ild1 may speak face to face ) 8 ,fa!r1 humbly1 rev]5tly1 yet z a man talke? ) 8 fri5d8 ,is x n true8 ,d n ,i "k t x is s8 ,oh1 ,i sometimes want ! wisdom ( an angel t ,i may n be ?us di/urb$ & we>i$4 #ad?4--,n[ ei!r ,miss ----'s religion is wrong & m9e "r1 or else x's j ! o!r way4 ,i wrote "s v]ses1 funny ones1 & s5t h] to-day1 & %e return$ = answ] t v]se 9 ,prov]bs ab\t v9eg> on nitre1 & seem$ di/ress$ t ,i ev] _h su* worldly & funny ?\ghts4 ,i told h] ,i %\ld l h] bett] if %e ev] _h any b solemn ones1 :5ce we ru%$ into a discussion ab\t proprieties & ,i ma9ta9$ t a m9d 0 n 9 a /ate ( religi\s heal?1 if x c\ld n safely indulge 9 ?\ghts funny z funny c\ld be4 ,%e %ook h] head & look$ z glum z %e c\ld1 & ,i'm really sorry t ,i vex$ h] righte\s s\l1 ?\gh ,i'm sure ,i feel funny ev] s mu* ( ! "t1 c n help say+ funny ?+s & cutt+ up cap]s n[ & !n4 ,i'll take c>e n to m>ry a glum man1 anyh[2 n t ,i want my future "l & ma/] to be a tell] ( /ories1 a wit1 or a p>ticul>ly funny man--b he %an't we> a long face & make me we> a long "o1 ?\gh he may be z pi\s z ! day is long & mu/ be1 :at's m4 ,oh1 my6 ,i don't ?9k ,i 0 s v naughty4 ,i saw ,miss ---- laugh+ privately at ^! same v]ses1 & %e ru%$ 9 to ,mrs4 ,p4 & read !m to h]1 & !n copi$ !m = h] aunt & paid tw5ty-five c5ts po/age on ! lett]4 ,i %\ld l to "k h[ %e d>$ wa/e s mu* "t 9 unholy employm5ts6 ,z ,i 0 say+1 & am always ?9k+1 x's r que] t p are s oddly diff]5t 9 _! ideas ( religion4 ,heav5 =bid ,i %\ld trifle ) s]i\s & holy ?\ghts ( my head & he>t--b if my religion is wor? a /raw1 su* v]se-writ+ w n di/urb x4 ,janu>y #af?4--,i wond] :at's got into me to-day--,i feel cross1 )\t ! lea/ bit ( reason = s feel+4 ,i guess ,i'm n well1 = ,i'm sure ,i've felt l "o great long sunbeam1 ,i don't "k h[ _m mon?s1 & x doesn't come natural to be fretful4 #ag?4--,i knew ,i wasn't well ye/]day & to-day am half sick4 ,we got ?r\gh breakfa/ at tw5ty m9utes to elev51 & z ,i 0 up at sev51 ,i got k9d o' hungry & out ( sorts4 ,?is aft]noon w5t to *ur* & he>d "o ( ,dr4 ,e4's argum5tative s]mons4 ,b !re's some?+ 9 ^? ,pray]-book pray]s1 c]ta9ly1 if m5 won't or c't put any grace into _! s]mons4 ,i wi% ,i _h a p]fect ideal ,sunday 9 my head or he>t1 or bo?4 ,if ,i'm v good ,i'm tir$ at night1 & if ,i'm bad my consci5ce smites me--s any way ,i'm n v happy j n[ & ,i'm sick & mean to g to b$ & s6 #ah?4--,_h a talk ) ,nannie4 ,%e has a ?\ghtful m9d & :o kn[s b we may d h] "s good4 ,i love to h h] "h1 & = once 9 my life l to feel a little bit--j ! lea/ bit--old2 t is1 old en\gh to give a little sage advice to ! poor ?+1 :5 %e asks x4 ,%e says %e won't read any m novels & w read ! ,bible & de> kn[s :at else %e said ab\t f9d+ an angel = me to m>ry1 :i* heav5 =bid %e %\ld d1 s9ce ,i'm too fond ( be+ a little mite naughty1 to desire any?+ ( t sort4 ,aft] %e 0 9 b$ %e began to say h] pray]s mo/ vehem5tly & among o!r ?+s1 pray$ = ,miss ,payson4 ,i _h ! /range/ s5sation1 & yet an almo/ heav5ly "o1 if ,i may say s4 ,may x please ,heav5 to li/5 to h] pray] = me1 & m9e = h]1 de> *ild4 ,b suppose ,i d h] no good :ile %e lives s "u my w+8 #ai?4--,up e>ly--walk$ & read ,leighton4 ,mr4 ,p4 amus$ u at d9n] by giv+ a funny acc\nt 9 8 funny way1 ( a mi/ake ( ,e4---- ,h4----'s4 ,%e ask$ me ! ,fr5* = z4 ,aussi quo? ,i4 ,!reupon %e tuck$ a great ,o4 ,c4 into h] ex]cise & took x to him & !y jabb]$ & sputt]$ ov] x1 & %e insi/$ t ,miss ,payson said s & he put 8 face "r into h]s & said1 ,w y try to prove t ,miss ,payson is a fool1 y little goose8 & at la/ ,miss ,a4 und]/ood & expla9$4 ,read ,leighton aft] s*ool & ?irty-two pages ( ,lam>t9e--!n ,mr4 ,p4 call$--!n ,miss ---- teas$ me to love h] & kept me 9 h] paws till ! bell rang = tea4 ,:y c't ,i l h]8 ,i %\ld be s a%am$ if ,i %\ld f9d out aft] all t %e is z good z %e seems1 b ,i nev] did get *eat$ yet :5 ,i tru/$ my own "m wits1 my in/9ct1 or :atev] x is by :i* ,i "k folks--& %e is f\nd want+ by ?is some?+4 #bh?4--,mrs4 ,p]sico has com=t$ me to-day4 ,%e says ,mr4 ,t4 came to ,mr4 ,p4 ) te>s 9 8 eyes 7c\ld su* a man %$ te>s87 & told him t ,i %\ld be ! salvation ( 8 *ild--t %e 0 already ! happie/ & mo/ alt]$ creature1 & begg$ him to tell me s4 ,i 0 a%am$ & happy too--b ,i ?9k ,mr4 ,p4 %\ld h told him t if good has be5 done to ,nannie1 x is z mu*--to say ! lea/--ow+ to ,l\isa z to me4 ,l4 always jo9s me 9 ev]y?+ ,i d & say = h]1 & ,i w\ld n h ev5 an accid5t deprive h] ( h] j rew>d = any?+4 ,nannie sat on ! floor to-night 9 h] night-g[n1 ?9k+4 ,at la/ %e said1 ,miss ,payson8 ,well1 little wit*8 ,y w\ldn't c>e mu* if y %\ld die to-night1 %\ld y8 ,no1 ,i ?9k n4 ,nor ,i1 said %e4 ,:y1 d y ?9k y %\ld be bett] (f ?an y are "h8 ,yes1 9 heav51 said %e4 ,:y h[ d y "k y'll g to heav58 ,%e look$ at me s]i\sly & said1 ,oh1 ,i don't "k--,i don't "k--,i don't ?9k ,i %\ld l to g to ! o!r place4 ,we _h !n a long talk ) h] & x seems %e's a regul> little believ] 9 ,purgatory--b ,i w\ldn't dispute ) h]4 ,i guess !re's a way ( gett+ at h] he>t bett] ?an t4444 ,:y is x t ,i h su* a s5sitiv5ess on religi\s po9ts1 su* a dread ( hav+ my own private aims & emotions kn[n by ^? ab\t me8 ,is x "r8 ,i %\ld l to be j :at ! ,*ri/ian ought to be 9 ^! relations4 ,miss ---- expects me to make spee*es to h]1 b ,i c n4 ,if ,i ?\ght ,i knew ev] s mu*1 ,i c\ld n1 & %e annoys me s4 ,oh1 ,i wi% x didn't hurt my s\l s to t\* x6 ,x's j l a butt]fly's w+--p c't help te>+ (f ! v invisible d[n s to speak1 = :i* !y take a fancy to x1 if !y get x betwe5 f+]s & ?umb1 & s ,i h to suff] = _! curiosity's sake4 ,am ,i b\nd to reveal my he>t-life to ev]ybody :o asks8 ,mu/ ,i n believe t ! heav5ly love may1 9 "o s5se1 be hidd5 f outw>d eye & outw>d t\*8 or am ,i wrong8 ,feb4 #a1 #ahdl4--,rose lat] ?an usual--cold1 dull1 ra9y morn+4 ,read 9 ,life ( ,wilb]=ce4 ,def5d$ ,nannie ) m valor ?an discretion4 ,?is ev5+ ! /orm dep>t$ & ! moonlight 0 m beautiful ?an ev]2 & ,i 0 s sad & s happy1 & ! life beyond & above seem$ s beautiful4 ,oh1 h[ ,i h long$ to-day = heav5 )9 my own s\l6 ,!re has be5 mu* unspok5 pray] 9 my he>t to-night4 ,i don't "k :at ,i %\ld d if ,i c\ld h my room all to myself--& n h p "k x if ev5 a good ?\ght comes into my m9d4 ,i %all be happy 9 heav51 ,i "k ,i %all--= ev5 "h pray] & praise are s inf9itely m delightful ?an any?+ else4 #c;d4--,woke ) heada*e1 got ?r\gh s*ool z be/ ,i c\ld1 !n came & curl$ myself up 9 a ball 9 ! easy-*air & didn't move till n9e1 :5 ,i crept d[n to say good-bye to poor ,mrs4 ,p]sico4 ,miss ,l4 & ,miss ,j4 receiv$ me 9 _! room s t5d]ly & affectionately t ,i 0 a%am$4 ,:at makes !m love me8 ,i am sure ,i %\ld n ?9k !y c\ld4 #aj?4--,i wond] :o folks ?9k ,i am1 & :at !y ?9k8 ,sally ,r---- s5t me up h] book ( autographs ) a reque/ t ,i w\ld add m9e4 ,i look$ x ov] & f\nd v great names1 & did n "k :e!r to laugh or cry at h] funny reque/1 :i* ,i c\ldn't h made up my m\? to grant4 ,h[ que] x seems to me t p won't let me be a little girl & w act z if ,i 7 an old maid or matron ( n9ety-n9e6 ,poor ,mr4 ,p]sico is t]ribly unhappy & walks up & d[n p]petually ) su* a /ep4 #ab?4-- 444 ,i am sure t 9 ^! little ?+s ,god's h& is j z cle>ly to be se5 z 9 ,8 wond]ful works ( p[]1 & tri$ to make ,miss ---- see ?is1 b %e ei!r c\ldn't or w\ldn't4 ,x seems to me t ,god is my ,fa!r1 my own ,fa!r1 & x is s natural to turn "r to ,him1 e m9ute almo/1 ) ei!r ?ank-(f]+s or petitions1 t ,i nev] once /op to ask if su* & su* a matt] is suffici5tly great = ,8 notice4 ,miss ---- seem$ q a/oni%$ :5 ,i said s4 #af?4-- 444 ,i've be5 in/itut+ an inquiry into myself to-day & h be5 wor?ily occupi$ 9 comp>+ myself to an onion1 ?\gh 9 view ( ! fragrance ( t highly useful vegetable1 ,i hope ! comp>ison won't g on all f\rs ,b ,i h z _m natures z an onion has--:at d'ye call 'em--coats8 ,fir/ ! outside sk9 or nature--k9d o' t\gh & ugly2 anybody may see t & welcome4 ,!n comes my next nature--a little s(t]--a little m remov$ f curi\s eyes2 !n my inn] "o--myself--t 'ere little r\nd ball :i* nobody ev] did or ev] w see ! :ole (--at lea/1 s'pose n4 ,n[ mo/ p see only ! out] r9d--a br[n1 r$1 yell[1 t\gh sk9 & t's all2 b ,i ?9k !re's some?+ inside t's bett] & m truly an onion ?an might at fir/ be guess$4 ,& s ,i'm an onion & t's ! end4 #ag?4--,mrs4 ,p4's bir?day1 9 honor ( :i* cake & w9e4 ,mr4 ,p4 0 angry ) u because we took no w9e4 ,if he _h ask$ me civilly to dr9k 8 wife's heal?1 ,i %\ld probably h done s1 b ,i am n to be fright5$ into any?+4 ,i made a funny spee* & got him out ( 8 be>i% mood1 & !n we all proce$$ to ! portico to see if ! new ,presid5t _h arriv$--by :i* means we obta9$ a satisfactory view ( two c[s1 ?ree geese1 "o big boy 9 a :ite apron & "o small "o 9 a blue apron1 ?ree d>kies ( fem99e g5d] & "o old horse2 b ,h>rison himself we saw n4 ,mr4 ,p]sico says x's ,tyl]'s luck to get into (fice by ! dea? ( 8 sup]ior1 & decl>es ,h>rison mu/ infallibly die to secure ,john ,tyl]'s fate4 ,x's to be hop$ ?is won't be ! case4 #i ,m>* #f?4--,miss ,l4 read to u to-day "s sprightly & amus+ little notes writt5 h] ye>s ago by a fri5d ) :om %e /ill corresponds4 ,i 0 /ruck ) ! contra/ betwe5 ^! y\?ful & light-he>t$ fragm5ts & h] pres5t lett]s1 n[ t %e is a wife & "m4 ,i wond] if !re is always ?is diff]5ce betwe5 ! girl & woman8 ,if s1 heav5 =bid ,i %\ld ev] cease to be a *ild6 #ah?4--,heada*e--,nannie sick2 held h] 9 my arms two or ?ree h\rs2 _h a great fuss ) h] ab\t tak+ h] m$ic9e1 b at la/ out came my ^w mu/1 & ! little wit* knew x meant all x said & d[n w5t ! oil 9 a jiffy1 :ile ,i /ood by laugh+ at myself = my pret5sion ( dignity4 ,! poor *ild c\ldn't g to sleep till %e _h ?ank$ me ov] & ov] = mak+ h] m9d & = tak+ c>e ( h]1 & w\ldn't let g my h&1 s ,i _h to sit up until v late--& !n ,i 0 sick & sad & re/less1 = ,i c\ldn't h my room to myself & ! day didn't seem f9i%$ )\t x4 ,x is a p]fect my/]y to me h[ folks get along ) s little pray+4 ,_! he>ts mu/ be bett] ?an m9e1 or some?+4 ,:at is x8 ,b if ,god sees t ! desire ( my :ole he>t is to-night--has be5 all day--t[>ds ,himself1 w ,he n "k ?is z pray]1 answ] x z su*8 ,yes1 pray] is c]ta9ly some?+ m ?an b5d+ ( ! knees & e>ne/ words1 & ,i d believe t goodness & m]cy w desc5d ^u me1 ?\gh ) my lips ,i ask n4 #bd?4--,_h a long talk ) ,mr4 ,p]sico ab\t my /yle ( gov]n+4 ,he seem$ int]e/$ 9 :at ,i _h to say ab\t appeals to ! consci5ce1 b said my y\?ful en?usiasm w\ld get cool$ d[n :5 ,i knew m ( ! _w4 ,i told him1 v p]tly1 t ,i hop$ ,i %\ld nev] "k ! _w !n4 ,he laugh$ & ask$1 ,y expect to make out ( ^! /upid *ildr5 su* *>act]s1 su* he>ts z y\rs8 ,no--b bett] ones4 ,he %ook 8 head & said ,i _h put him into good humor4 ,i don't "k :at he meant4 ,i've be5 act+ l ,san*o to-day--ru%+ up /airs two at a "t1 frisk+ ab\t1 cat*+ up ,miss ,j---- 9 all h] maid5 dignity & toss+ h] "r into ! mid/ ( our b$4 ,:o's go+ to be s*oolma'am out ( s*ool8 ,n ,i6 ,i mean to be j z funny z ,i please1 & :at's m ,i'll make ,miss ---- funny1 too1--t ,i w6 ,%e'd h s mu* m heal?--,*ri/ian heal?1 ,i mean--if %e w\ld leave (f try+ to get to heav5 9 su* a dreadful bad way4 ,i c't ?9k religion makes su* a long1 gloomy face4 ,x mu/ be t %e is wrong1 or else ,i am4 ,i wond] :i*8 ,:y x's all sun%9e to me--& all cl\ds to h]6 ,poor ,miss ----1 y might be s happy6 ,april #i?4--,holiday4 ,we all took a long walk1 :i* ,i enjoy$ highly4 ,i 0 9 a half moralis+ mood all ! way1 want$ to be by myself v mu*4 ,we talk$ m ?an usual ab\t home & ,i grew s sad4 ,oh1 ,i wond] if anybody loves me z ,i love6 ,i wond]6 ,i long = "m1 & if ,i c\ld j see h] & "k t %e is happy & t %e w be well aga96 ,x is really a curi\s "q ) me1 :e!r provid$ ,i ev] fall 9 love 7= ,i'll fall 9 love1 else n g 9 at all7 ,i %all leave (f lov+ "m be/ ( anybody 9 ! _w8 ,i suppose ,i %all be 9 love sometime or o!r1 b t's no?+ to d ) me n[ nor ,i ) x4 ,i've got my h&s full to take c>e ( my naughty little self4 #ag?4--,mrs4 ,p]sico got home to-night #aj & :at a meet+ we _h6 :at rejoic+6 ,h[ beautiful %e look$ z %e sat 9 h] l[ *air1 & we /ood & knelt 9 a happy circle ab\t h]6 ,a que5--an angel--c\ld n h receiv$ love & homage ) a sweet] grace4 ,sue ,irv9e cri$ an h\r = joy & ,i wi%$ ,i 7 "o ( ! cry+ sort1 = ,i'm sure ,i 0 glad en\gh to d almo/ any?+4 ,beautiful woman6 ,we sang to h] ! ,welcome ,home1 ,miss ,f4 s++ z mu* ) h] eyes z ) h] voice1 & ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,p]sico bo? cri$1 he l a little *ild4 ,oh1 t su* ev5+s z ?is came (t5] 9 "o's life6 ,all t 0 beautiful & good 9 ea* ( our hidd5 natures came danc+ out to greet h] at h] com+1 & all petty jeal\sies 7 s quiet$ &--:y1 :at a rhapsody ,i'm writ+6 ,& to-morr[1 our good bett] natures tuck$ away1 de> kn[s :]e1 we %all desc5d ) bus9ess-l airs to breakfa/1 wi% ea* o!r good morn+1 pret5d t we hav5't any he>ts4 ,oh1 is ?is life6 ,i won't believe x4 ,our good g5ius has come back to u2 n[ all ?+s w aga9 g on smoo?ly2 once m ,i c be a little girl & frolic up "h in/ead ( play+ ,miss ,dignity d[n-/airs4 ,may #g?4--,?is ev5+ ,i pass$ unavoidably ?r\gh ,miss ----'s room4 ,%e 0 read+ ,byron z usual & look$ s wret*$ & re/less1 t ,i c\ld n help yield+ to a lov+ impulse & putt+ my h& on h]s & ask+ :y %e 0 s sad4 ,%e told me4 ,x 0 j :at ,i suppos$4 ,%e is try+ to be happy1 & c n f9d out h[2 reads ,byron & gets sickly views ( life2 sits up late dream+ ab\t love & lov]s2 !n1 too tir$ to pray or ?9k good ?\ghts1 tosses h]self d[n ^u h] b$ & wi%es h]self dead4 ,%e did n tell me ?is1 to be sure1 b ,i ga!r$ x f h] /ory4 ,i allud$ to h] religi\s hi/ory & pres5t hopes4 ,%e said %e did n ?9k cont9u$ acts ( fai? 9 ,*ri/ necess>y2 %e _h believ$ on ,him once1 & n[ ,he w\ld save h] :atev] %e did2 & %e 0 n go+ to torm5t h]self try+ to live s v holy a life1 s9ce1 aft] all1 %e %\ld get to heav5 j z well ?r\gh ,him z if %e _h be5 p>ticul>ly good 7z %e t]m$ x74 ,i don't "k :e!r a good or a bad _s mov$ me at t m9ute1 b ,i =got t ,i 0 a m]e *ild 9 religi\s k1 & talk$ ab\t my doctr9e & made x a v beautiful "o to my m9d1 ?\gh ,i don't ?9k %e ?\ght x s4 ,oh1 = :at w\ld ,i give up ! happ9ess ( pray+ = a holy he>t--( /riv+1 /ruggl+ = x6 ,yes1 x is inde$ true t we are to be sav$ simply1 only1 ap>t f our own goodness1 ?r\gh ! love ( ,*ri/4 ,b :o c believe himself ?us *os5 ( ,god--:o c ?9k ( & hold communion ) ,inf9ite ,hol9ess1 & n long = ! ,div9e image 9 8 own s\l8 ,x is a my/]y to me--^! /range doctr9es4 ,is n ! fruit ( love aspiration aft] ! holy8 ,is n ! act ( ! new-born s\l1 :5 x passes f dea? unto life1 t ( desire = assimilation to & on5ess ) ,him :o is its all 9 all8 ,h[ c love & fai? be "o act & !n cease8 ,i d>e n believe--,i w\ld n = a univ]se believe--t my v s5se ( safety 9 ! love ( ,*ri/ is n to be j ! s5se t %all b9d me 9 grateful self-r5unciation :olly to ,8 s]vice4 ,let me be sure ( f9al re/ 9 heav5--sure t at ?is mom5t ,i am really ,god's own adopt$ *ild2 & ,i believe my pray]s1 my rep5t+s1 my we>9ess ( s91 w\ld be j :at !y n[ are2 nay1 m deep1 m abundant4 ,oh1 x is because ,i believe--fully believe t ,i %all be sav$ ?r\gh ,*ri/--t ,i want to be l ,him "h ^u e>? ,x is because ,i d n fe> f9al mis]y t ,i %r9k f s9 & defilem5t "h4 ,oh1 t ,i c\ld put into t poor bewild]$ he>t ( h]s j ! sweet repose ^u ! ev] pres5t ,savi\r :i* ,he has giv5 unto me6 ,! quietness ) :i* my :ole s\l re/s ^u ,him is su* bless$ quietness6 ,i %all n soon =get ?is /range ev5+4 #a ,%e ref]s to ?is1 d\btless1 9 a note to ,mr4 ,haml91 dat$ ,m>* #bh1 #ahci4 ,mr4 ,h4 0 !n 9 ,con/ant9ople4 ,x seems z if a lett] to g s f> ought to be a good "o1 s ,i am afraid to write to y4 ,b we '?9k to y' e day1 & hope y ?9k ( u sometimes4 ,i h be5 s happy all w9t] t ,i h "s happ9ess to sp>e1 & if y ne$ any y %all h z mu* z y want4 #b ,! s]mon 0 prea*$ by h] pa/or1 ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,condit1 ,april #ai?4 #c ,!re is "o ?+ ,i recall z %[+ ! v e>ly religi\s t5d5cy ( ,lizzy's m9d4 ,x 0 a little pray] meet+ :i* %e held ) a few little fri5ds1 z long ago z h] si/] kept s*ool 9 ! l>ge p>lor ( ! h\se on ,middle /reet1 be=e ! dea? ( h] fa!r4 ,x assembl$ at odd h\rs & 9 odd places4 ,i also rememb] h] int]e/ 9 ! spiritual welf>e ( h] "y companions1 aft] ! return ( ! family f _! soj\rn 9 ,new ,york4 ,%e %[$ ?is by accompany+ "s ( u1 9 ! way ( enc\ragem5t1 to ,dr4 ,tyl]'s inquiry-meet+4 ,!n dur+ ! special religi\s int]e/ ( #ahch1 %e felt /ill m deeply & ent]$ he>tily into ! rejoic+ ( ^? ( u :o at t "t f\nd peace 9 believ+4 ,! next ye> ,i accompani$ my eld] si/] ,susan to ,ri*mond1 & dur+ my abs5ce %e gave up h] ,*ri/ian hope & pass$ ?r\gh a season ( great d>kness & despond5cy1 em]g+1 h[ev]1 into ! light ^u a high] plane ( religi\s exp]i5ce & enjoym5t4 ,%e sometimes ?\ght ?is ! v beg9n+ ( ! life ( fai? 9 h] s\l4 ,b z ,i us$ to say to h] :5 ! next ye> we 7 toge!r at ,ri*mond1 x seem$ to me q impossible t any "o :o _h n already receiv$ ! grace ( ,god1 c\ld h felt :at %e _h felt & express$4 ,i d n d\bt 9 ! lea/ t = ye>s %e _h be5 a true foll[] ( ,*ri/4--,lett] f ,miss ,ann ,l\isa ,p4 ,"l1 dat$ ,portl&1 ,decemb] #cj1 #ahgh4 #d ,x may be prop] to say "h1 t :ile b few ( h] lett]s are giv5 entire1 x has n be5 deem$ ne$ful specially to indicate all ! omissions4 ,9 "s in/ances1 also1 :]e two lett]s1 or passages ( lett]s1 relate to ! same subject1 !y h be5 comb9$4 #e ,an excell5t little "w by ,rev4 ,william ,nev9s1 ,d4,d4 ,dr4 ,nev9s 0 pa/or ( ! fir/ ,presbyt]ian ,*ur* 9 ,baltimore1 :]e he di$ 9 #ahce1 at ! age ( ?irty-sev54 ,he 0 "o ( ! be/ prea*]s & mo/ popul> religi\s writ]s ( 8 day4 #f ,miss ,ann ,l\isa ,p4 ,"l4 #g ,miss ,susan ,"l4 #h ,ref]r+ to a s]i\s accid5t1 by :i* h] "m 0 = "s "t depriv$ ( ! use ( h] "r h&4 #i ,b1 s+ul>ly en\gh1 x 04 ,presid5t ,h>rison di$ ,april #d1 #ahda1 j a mon? aft] 8 inauguration1 & ,mr4 ,tyl] succe$$ him4 #aj ,f ,philadelphia1 :]e %e _h und]gone a surgical op]ation4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,pass+ ,,f ,,girlhood ,,into ,,womanhood4 #ahda-ahde4 ,i4 ,at ,home aga94 ,m>riage ( h] ,si/]4 ,ill-,heal?4 ,lett]s4 ,spiritual ,aspiration & ,conflict4 ,p]fectionism4 ,v1 v ,happy4 ,"w = ,*ri/ :at makes ,life attractive4 ,passages f ,h] ,j\rnal4 ,a ,po9t ( ,difficulty4 ,n long aft] ,elizabe?'s return f ,ri*mond1 h] si/] 0 m>ri$ to ! ,rev4 ,alb]t ,hopk9s1 ,pr(essor 9 ,williams ,college4 ,! w$d+ _h be5 delay$ = h] com+4 ,i w\ld r wait six ye>s ?an n h y pres5t1 h] si/] wrote4 ,?is ev5t br\ght h] into intimate relations ) a rem>kable man2 a man mu* belov$ 9 8 day1 & ^: "n w (t5 reappe> 9 ^! pages4 ,! next two or ?ree mon?s %[$ t h] ,ri*mond life1 al?\gh s full ( happy exp]i5ces1 _h yet drawn heavily ^u h] /r5g?4 ,!y 7 m>k$ by sev]e n]v\s excitem5t & fits ( depression4 ,?is1 h[ev]1 pass$ away & %e settl$ d[n aga9 into a busy home life4 ,b x 0 no long] ! home life ( ! pa/4 ,! ye> ( abs5ce _h left a pr(\nd impression ^u h] "*4 ,h] m9d & he>t _h und]gone a rapid developm5t4 ,%e 0 only tw5ty-two on h] return1 & _h /ill all ! fre%1 artless simplicity ( a "y girl1 b !re 0 jo9$ to x n[ ! maturity ( womanhood4 ,( ! re/ ( ! ye> a record is pres]v$ 9 lett]s to h] c\s94 ,^! lett]s give _m little details respect+ h] daily tasks & ! life %e l$ 9 ! family & 9 ! _w2 b !y are *iefly int]e/+ = ! light !y %$ ^u h] progress heav5w>d4 ,h] :ole s\l 0 /ill absorb$ 9 div9e ?+s4 ,at times h] delight 9 !m 0 sweet & undi/urb$2 !n aga91 %e f\nd h]self toss$ to & fro ^u ! waves ( spiritual conflict4 ,p]fectionism 0 j !n mu* discuss$1 & ! "q tr\bl$ h] n a little1 z x did aga9 ?irty ye>s lat]4 ,b :e!r agitat$ or at re/1 h] ?\ghts all c5t]$ 9 ,*ri/1 & h] con/ant pray] 0 = m love to ,him4 ,,portl&1 ,sept4 #ae1 #ahda4 ,! ,"l ,jesus is inde$ de> to me4 ,i c n d\bt x4 ,8 "n is exce$+ly preci\s4 ,oh1 help me1 my de> c\s91 to love ,him m1 to atta9 ,8 image1 to live only = ,him6 ,i blu% & am a%am$ :5 ,i consid] h[ inadequate are ! returns ,i am mak+ ,him2 yet ,i c praise ,him = all t is pa/ & tru/ ,him = all t is to come4 ,i c n tell y h[ delightful pray] is4 ,i feel t 9 x ,i h communion ) ,god--t ,he is "h--t ,he is m9e & t ,i am ,84 ,i long to make progress e day1 ea* m9ute seems preci\s1 & ,i con/antly tremble le/ ,i %\ld lose "o 9 return+1 in/ead ( press+ =w>d ) all my /r5g?4 ,no1 n my /r5g?1 = ,i h none1 b ) all :i* ! ,"l gives me4 ,h[ c ,i ?ank y en\gh t y pray = me6 ,sept4 #ah?4--,i am all ! "t s n]v\s t life w\ld be insupportable if ,i _h n ! com=t ( com=ts to rejoice 94 ,i (t5 ?9k "m w\ld n tru/ me to c>ry ! di%es to ! closet1 if %e knew h[ /rong an ef=t ,i h to make to avoid da%+ !m all to pieces4 ,:5 ,i am at ! head ( ! /airs ,i c h>dly help ?r[+ myself d[n1 & ,i believe x a great] degree ( j su* a /ate z ?is :i* induces ! suicide to put an end to 8 exi/5ce4 ,x 0 nev] s bad ) me be=e4 ,d y "k any?+ ( su* a feel+ z ?is8 ,to-night1 = in/ance1 my head began to feel all at once z if x 7 enl>g+ till at la/ x seem$ to fill ! room1 & ,i ?\ght x l>ge en\gh to c>ry away ! h\se4 ,!n e object ( :i* ,i ?\ght enl>g$ 9 proportion4 ,:5 ?is goes (f ! s5se ( ! contraction is equally s+ul>4 ,my head felt ab\t ! size ( a p9's head2 our *ur* & ev]ybody 9 x appe>$ ab\t ! bigness ( a cup1 etc4 ,^! /range s5sations t]m9ate inv>iably ) "o /ill m s+ul> & p>ticul>ly pleasant4 ,i c n describe x--x is a s5se ( smoo?ness & a little ( dizz9ess4 ,if y nev] _h su* feel+s ?is w be all nons5se to y1 b if y h & c expla9 !m to me1 :y ,i %all be inde$ ?ankful4 ,i h be5 subject to !m ev] s9ce ,i c rememb]4 ,i nev] met ) a physician yet :o seem$ to "k :at is ! matt] ) me1 or to c>e a fig :e!r ,i got well or n4 ,all !y d is to roll up _! eyes & %ake _! heads & say1 ,oh6 444 ,z to ! w$d+1 we _h a regul> fuss1 s t ,i h>dly knew :e!r ,i 0 9 ! body or out ( x4 ,! ,pr(essor 0 "h only two days4 ,he is v em95tly holy1 8 fri5ds say1 & f :at ,i saw ( him1 ,i %\ld ?9k x true4 ,?is 0 ! po9t :i* int]e/$ si/] 9 him4 ,z soon z ! w$d+ 0 ov] my spirits dep>t$ & fl$4 ,x is true en\gh t m>riage involves "o union1 b _m sep>ations4 ,oct4 #ag?4--,we _h a mo/ preci\s s]mon ?is aft]noon f ! ,bapti/ m9i/] on ! words1 ,*ri/ is all & 9 all4 ,i long$ to h y he> ! ,savi\r ?us dwelt ^u4 ,i did n "k h[ full ! ,apo/les 7 ( ,8 praise--h[ con/antly !y dwelt ^u ,him1 till x 0 spread be=e me ?us 9 "o delightful view4 ,oh1 may ,he become our all--our beg9n+ & our end+--our fir/ & our la/6 ,i d love to he> ,him ?us honor$ & ador$4 ,let u1 de> c\s91 look at our ,savi\r m4 ,let u nev] all[ aught to come betwe5 our he>ts & our ,god4 ,speak to me z to y\r own s\l1 urg+ me onw>d1 & if y d n see ! fruits ( y\r fai?fulness "h1 may y see :5 s[+ is turn$ to reap+4 ,oct4 #bd?4--,i mu/ call ^u y to rejoice ) me t ,i h to-day got back my old ,sunday-s*ool class4 ,i wond]$ at _! be+ s e>ne/ ab\t hav+ me aga91 yet ,i tru/ t ,god has giv5 me ?is hold ^u _! affections = "s good purpose4444 ,i d n "k exactly h[ to discrim9ate betwe5 ! sugge/ions ( ,satan & ^? ( my own he>t1 b = a week pa/1 ev5 :ile my incl9ations & my w 7 set ^u ,*ri/1 some?+ foll[$ me 9 my d[n-sitt+s & my upris+s1 urg+ me to hate ! ,"l ,jesus2 ask+ if ,8 /rict requirem5ts 7 n too /rait to be endur$2 & x has griev$ me deeply t su* a ?\ght c\ld f9d its way into my m9d4 ,i h pray$ = !e t ?y fai? fail n is my la/ refuge4 ,h[ graci\sly did ,jesus provide a sep>ate consolation = ea* difficulty :i* ,he =esaw c\ld meet ,8 disciples on _! way4 ,nov4 #h?4--,"m has be5 sick4 ,! doctor fe>$ inflammation ( ! bra92 b %e is bett] n[4 ,i h _h my fir/ exp]i5ce z a nurse1 & ,dr4 ,mighels says ,i am a good "o4 ,:5ev] ,i ?9k ( ,god's wond]ful1 wond]ful goodness to me & ( my own s9fulness1 ,i want to f9d a place l[ at ! foot ( ! cross :]e ,i may cov] my face 9 ! du/1 & yet g on prais+ ,him4 ,y d n "k h[ all ?+s h be5 made new to me )9 less ?an two ye>s4 ,/ill1 ,i /ruggle fi]cely e h\r ( my life4 ,= in/ance1 my desire to be mu* belov$ by ^? de> to me1 is a s\rce ( con/ant grief4 ,"s weeks ago1 a p]son1 :o probably did n "k ?is1 told me t ,i 0 rem>kably lovable & t ev]ybody said s4 ,i 0 s fooli%1 s wick$1 z to be m pleas$ by ?is ?an ,i d>e to tell--b en\gh s to give me aft]-h\rs ( bitt] sorr[4 ,sometimes x seems to me t ,i gr[ pr\d] e day1 & ,i want$ to ask "m if %e did n ?9k s2 b ,i ?\ght p]haps ,god is %[+ me my pride z ,i _h nev] se5 x t ,i may wage w> aga9/ ?is1 ,8 enemy & m9e4 ,i d n believe anybody else has su* an evil nature z ,i4 ,b let u nev] re/ till we are satisfi$ ) be+ c\nt$ z no?+1 t our ,savi\r may be all 9 all4 ,x seems no small portion ( ! joy ,i long = 9 heav51 to be ?us self-=getful 9 love to ,*ri/4 ,h[ /range t we d n n[ supremely love ,him4 ,h[ ,i d long to live ) ^? :o praise ,him4 ,i long to h e ,*ri/ian ) :om ,i meet speak ( ,him ) love & exalt ,him4 #a ,nov4 #ab?4--,i h be5 v unwell & l[-spirit$4 ,! cause ( ?is1 folks seem to agree1 0 ov]-ex]tion dur+ "m's sickness4 ,to tell ! tru?1 ,i 0 s anxi\s ab\t h] t ,i did n try to save my /r5g? at all1 & excitem5t kept me up1 s t ,i 0 n consci\s ( any special fatigue till all 0 ov] & ! reaction came1 :5 ,i j w5t into a dead-&-alive /ate & _h ! blues outrage\sly4 ,x seem$ z if ,i c\ld d no?+ b fold my h&s & cry4 ,si/] is com+ home ?is w9t]4 ,i w\ld l y to see ?is lett] ( h]s4 ,%e is z ne>ly a p]fectioni/ n[ z y\r fa!r is4 ,%e begs me to read ! ,new ,te/am5t & to pray = a k ( ! tru?4 ,& s ,i h = a ye> & a half1 & ?is is :at ,i le>n !reby3 ,! he>t is deceitful above all ?+s & desp]ately wick$--at lea/ su* ,i f9d m9e to be4 ,to be sure1 t ,i am n p]fect is no pro( t ,i may n become s2 h[ev]1 ,i feel mo/ sympa?y ) ^? :o1 l ,m>tyn1 ,bra9]d1 & my fa!r1 _h to fight _! way ?r\gh4 ,yet h] rem>ks ?rew my m9d into great confusion at fir/ & ,i knew n :at to d2 !reupon ,i w5t at once ) my difficulties to ! ,"l & tri$ to seek ! tru?1 :atev] x might be1 f ,him4 ,x seems to me t ,i am safe :ile 9 ,8 h&s1 & t if ^? ?+s are ess5tial1 ,he w n )hold !m f me4 ,truly1 if !re is a royal road to hol9ess1 & if 9 "o mom5t ( "t s9 may be cru%$ & =ev] sla91 ,i ( all o!rs %\ld "k x2 = at pres5t ! way is ?rong$ ) difficulties4 #b ,x seems to me t ,i am made ( wants--,i ne$ ev]y?+4 ,at ! same "t1 h[ great is ! goodness ( ,god to me6 ,i long to h my he>t s fill$ ) ! "o s+le image ( my ,r$eem]1 t x %all ev] fl[ 9 spontane\s adoration4 ,su* a ,savi\r6 ,i am pa9$ to ! v dep?s ( my s\l because ,i love ,him s little4444 ,if ,i am only purifi$ & made entirely ! ,"l's1 let ,him take ,8 own c\rse & make ! ref9+ process ev] s pa9ful4 ,:5 ! %ore is won at la/1 ,:o w c\nt ! bill[s pa/8 ,dec4 #af?4--,d y rememb] :at fa!r said ab\t los+ 8 w :5 ne> ! close ( 8 life8 ,t rem>k has always made ! subject ( a lo/ w int]e/+ to me4 ,!re is ano!r place :]e he wi%es he _h kn[n ?is bless$ness tw5ty ye>s be=e4 #c ,dec4 #ah?4--,i am v1 v happy2 & yet x is h>dly a happ9ess :i* ,i c describe4 ,y "k :at x is to rejoice 9 ! sweet consci\sness t !re is a ,savi\r--a ne> & a pres5t ,savi\r2 & ?us am ,i n[ rejoic+2 grateful to ,him = ,8 holy nature1 = ,8 p[] ov] me1 = ,8 deal+s ) me1 = a ?\s& ?+s :i* ,i c only try to express to ,him4 ,oh1 h[ excell5t above all treasures does ,he n[ appe>6 ,"o m9ute ( ne>ness to ! ,"l ,jesus conta9s m ( delight ?an ye>s sp5t 9 int]c\rse ) any e>?ly fri5d4 ,i c\ld n b own to-night t ,god c make me happy )\t a "r h& or a "r eye4 ,"l1 make me ,?9e1 & ,i w *e]fully give ,!e all4 ,dec4 #bb;d4--,z to my ,italian & ,tasso1 ,i am a%am$ to tell y h[ sl[ ,i h be54 ,betwe5 company & h\sework & sew+ ,i h my h&s ab\t full1 & preci\s little "t = read+ & /udy4 ,/ill1 ,i feel t ,i live a life ( too mu* ease4 ,i %\ld love to sp5d ! re/ ( my exi/5ce 9 ! actual s]vice ( ! ,"l1 )\t a "q z to its ease & com=t4 ,read+ ,bra9]d ?is aft]noon made me long = 8 loose hold on e>?ly ?+s4 ,i d n "k h[ to atta9 to su* a _s4 ,is x by pray] alone & ! consequ5t s5se ( ! wor? ( ,div9e ?+s t ?is deadness to ! _w is to be ga9$--or1 by giv+ up1 ca/+ away ! treasures :i* )draw ! he>t or h a t5d5cy to )draw x f ,god8 ,?is is q an int]e/+ "q to me n[1 & ,i %\ld really l x settl$4 ,! ?\ght ( liv+ ap>t f ,god is m dreadful ?an any affliction ,i c ?9k (4 ,"h are "s passages f two leaves ( h] j\rnal :i* escap$ ! flames4 ,!y t\* ^u ano!r side ( h] life at ?is p]iod4 ,decemb] #a1 #ahdl4--,i w5t to ! sew+-circle ?is aft]noon & _h su* a /upid "t6 ,en\gh gossip & nons5se 0 talk$ to make "o sick1 & ,i'm sure x wasn't ! fault ( my head t my hair didn't /& on end4 ,n[ my "m is a v s5sible "m1 b :5 %e urges me into company & exhorts me to be m social1 %e runs ! risk ( hav+ me become z silly z ! re/ ( 'em4 ,%e fe>s ,i may be h>m$ by read+1 /udy+ & /ay+ ) h]1 b heav5 =bid ,i %\ld f9d ?+s 9 books worse ?an ?+s out ( !m4 ,i c't ?9k ! girls are ! silly creatures !y make !mselves appe>4 ,!y want an aim 9 life1 "s wor?y object2 give !m t1 & ! good & excell5t :i*1 ,i am sure1 lies hidd5 9 _! nature1 w develop itself at once4 ,:5 ! "y m5 ru%$ 9 & ! girls began look+ unutt]able ?+s1 ,i ru%$ out & came home4 ,i c't & won't talk nons5se & flirt ) ^? boys6 ,oh1 :at is x ,i d want8 ,somebody :o feels z ,i feel & ?9ks z ,i ?9k2 b :]e %all ,i f9d ! somebody8 #g?4--,frolick$ ) ,g41 ru%$ up /airs ) a glass-lamp 9 my h&1 w5t full tilt aga9/ ! door1 sma%$ ! lamp1 got ! oil on my dress1 on two c>pets1 besides spatt]+ ! wall4 ,fir/ consequ5ce1 a horrible smell ( lamp-oil2 ,second1 great quak+s1 %ak+s1 & wond]+s :at my ma w\ld say :5 %e came home2 ,?ird1 ablutions1 groan+s1 iron+s2 ,f\r?1 a /ory = ! ,companion long en\gh to pay = t 'ere old lamp4 ,lett+ alone t1 ,i've be5 a v good girl to-day2 /udi$1 made a call1 w5t to see ,h4 ,r4 ) books1 cakes1 apples1 & :at's m1 my preci\s tongue :]e) ,i disc\rs$ to h]4 #ad?4--,busy all day4 ,c>ri$ a basket full ( wittles to old ,ma'am ,burns1 he>d an orig9al acc\nt ( ! deluge f ! poor woman1 wi%$ ,i 0 z ne> heav5 z %e seems to be1 /udi$1 sew$1 taught ,t4 & ,e41 tri$ to be a good girl & didn't h ! blues once4 #bj?4--,sp5t mo/ ( ! aft]noon ) ,lucy1 :o is sick4 ,%e held my h& 9 h]s & kiss$ x ov] & ov]1 & express$ s mu* love & gratitude & int]e/ 9 ! ,sunday-s*ool t ,i felt a%am$4 #bd?--,help$ "m bake all ! morn+1 /udi$ 9 ! aft]noon1 got into a frolic1 & w5t out aft] d>k ) ,g4 to %ovel sn[1 & !n paddl$ d[n to ,l----'s ) a ,*ri/mas-pudd+1 :]eby ,i got a real backa*e1 lega*e1 necka*e1 & all-ov]a*e1 :i* is j good en\gh = me4 ,i 0 9 ! funnie/ /ate ( m9d ?is aft]noon6 ,i guess anybody1 :o _h se5 me1 w\ld h ?\ght s6 #be?1 ,saturday4--,got up e>ly & ran d[n to ,sally ,johnson's ) a big pudd+1 consequ5ce :]e( a horrible pa9 9 my side4 ,i don't c>e1 ?\gh4 ,i d love to c>ry pudd+s to good old grannies4 ,jan4 #a1 #ahdb4--;,began ! ,new ,ye> by go+ to see ,lucy1 fa9t+1 tumbl+ d[n flat on ! floor & sc>+ ev]ybody half out ( _! wits4 ,i don't ?9k p ought to l me1 on ! :ole1 b :5 !y d1 a9t ,i glad8 ,i wond] if p]fectly hone/-he>t$ p want to be lov$ bett] ?an !y des]ve1 z 9 "o s5se ,i1 ) yet a pretty hone/ he>t1 d8 ,i wond] h[ o!r folks ?9k1 feel inside8 ,wi% ,i knew6 ,mo/ ( ! ye> #ahdb 0 pass$ at home 9 h\sehold duties1 9 /udy1 & 9 try+ to d good4 ,nev] _h %e be5 busi]1 or m helpful to h] "m2 & nev] m int]e/$ 9 ! ?+s ( ,god4 ,x 0 a ye> ( g5u9e spiritual gr[? & also ( %>p discipl9e4 ,! true ideal ( ! ,*ri/ian life reveal$ itself to h] m & m di/9ctly1 :ile at ! same "t %e _h opportunity bo? to le>n & to practise "s ( its h>de/ lessons4 ,a few extracts f lett]s to h] c\s9 w give an inkl+ ( its "*4 ,m>* #ai1 #ahdb4--,sometimes ,i h ?\ght my desire to live = my ,savi\r & to labor = ,him _h increas$4 ,x c]ta9ly seems wond]ful to me n[ t ,i c\ld ev] h wi%$ to die1 z ,i us$ to d1 :5 ,i _h done no?+ = ,god4 ,! way ( life :i* appe>s mo/ attractive1 is t sp5t 9 p]sev]+ & unwe>y+ toil = ,him4 ,!re 0 a w>m? & a f]v5cy to my religi\s feel+s ! fir/ ye> aft] my true hope :i* ,i d n f9d n[ & (t5 sigh =2 b ,i ?9k my m9d is m s]i\sly det]m9$ = ,god ?an x 0 !n1 & t my pr9ciples are m fix$4 ,/ill ,i am less ?an ! lea/ ( all4444 ,i h read n q five cantos ( ,tasso4 ,y w ?9k me r indol5t1 b ,i h _h a great deal to d1 :i* has h9d]$ /udy & read+4 ,may #c;d--,! ,*ri/ian life 0 nev] de>] to me ?an x is n[1 b x ?rongs ) daily increas+ difficulties4 ,y1 :o h become a believ] 9 p]fection1 may say t ?is conflict is n ess5tial1 & inde$ ,i h be5 s we>y1 ( late1 ( /ruggl+ t ,i am almo/ ready to fly to ! doctr9e myself4 ,i h c]ta9ly be5 made m will+ to seek k on ?is po9t f ! ,holy ,_s4 ,sept4 #cj?--,y speak ( indulg+ unusually1 ( late1 9 y\r natural vivacity & f9d+ x prejudicial4 ,"h is a po9t on :i* ,i am completely bewild]$4 ,i f9d t if = a mon? or two ,i /eadily set myself to ! unwe>i$ pursuit ( spirituality ( m9d & entire wean$ness f ! _w1 a sad reaction w foll[4 ,my ef=ts slightly relax1 ,i indulge 9 mir?ful or worldly 79 ! s5se ( n religi\s7 conv]sation1 delight 9 x1 & f9d my heal? & spirits bett] = x4 ,b !n my spiritual appetites at once become less ke51 & f conv]sation ,i g to read+1 f read+ to writ+1 & !n comes ! "q3 ,am ,i n go+ back8--& ,i turn f all to foll[ h>d aft] ! ,"l4 ,is ?is a "p ( our poor humanity1 above :i* we c n rise8 ,?is is a h>d _w to live 92 & x w prove a try+ "o to me or ,i %all love x de>ly4 ,i h _h temptations dur+ ! la/ six mon?s on po9ts :]e ,i ?\ght ,i /ood s safely t !re 0 no dang] ( a fall4 ,p]haps x is good = u to be all[$ to g to c]ta9 l5g?s1 t we may see :at wond]ful supplies ( grace our ,"l gives u e h\r ( our lives4 ,octob] #a/--,i h _h two or ?ree s+ul> h\rs ( excitem5t s9ce ,i left writ+ to y la/ ev5+4 ,if y 7 "h ,i %\ld be glad to read y a late passage 9 my hi/ory :i* has come to its crisis & is ov] )--?anks to ,him1 :o s wond]fully guides me by ,8 c\nsel4 ,if ,i ev] saw ! h& ( ,god di/9ctly held =? = my help1 ,i h se5 x "h1 com+ 9 ! "r "t1 9 ! "r way1 all "r4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,returns to ,ri*mond4 ,trials !re4 ,lett]s4 ,illness4 ,s*ool ,exp]i5ces4 ,to ! ,ye> #ahdc4 ,glimpses ( h] daily ,life4 ,:y h] ,s*ol>s love h] s4 ,homesick4 ,a ,black ,w$d+4 ,:at a ,wife %\ld be4 ,a ,pres5tim5t4 ,notes f h] ,di>y4 ,9 ,novemb] ( ?is ye>1 at ! urg5t solicitation ( ,mr4 ,p]sico1 ,miss ,payson return$ to ,ri*mond1 & aga9 became a tea*] 9 8 s*ool4 ,b ev]y?+ 0 n[ *ang$1 & t = ! worse4 ,mr4 ,p]sico1 no long] "u ! influ5ce ( 8 wife1 :o _h fall5 a prey to cruel disease1 lo/ he>t1 fell heavily 9 debt1 & became at l5g? hopelessly insolv5t4 ,lat]1 he is said to h be5 lo/ at sea on 8 way to ,italy4 ,! :ole p]iod ( ,miss ,payson's second resid5ce 9 ,ri*mond 0 "o ( %>p trial & disappo9tm5t4 ,b x br\ght out 9 a v vivid mann] h] dis9t]e/$ness & ! g5]\s w>m? ( h] sympa?ies4 ,at ! p]il ( h] heal? %e rema9$ f> into ! summ] ( #ahdc1 fai?fully p]=m+ h] duties1 al?\gh1 z %e well knew1 x 0 d\btful if %e w\ld receive any comp5sation = h] s]vices4 ,z a matt] ( fact1 only a pittance ( h] sal>y 0 ev] paid4 ,( ?is second resid5ce 9 ,ri*mond no o!r record is ne$$ ?an a few extracts f lett]s writt5 to a belov$ fri5d :o 0 pass+ ! w9t] at ! ,s\?1 & ^: "n has already be5 m5tion$4 ,a s5t5ce 9 ! fir/ ( ^! lett]s des]ves to be not$ z af=d+ a key to "o side ( h] "*1 namely3 ! depress+ s5se ( inf]iority :i* 0 born ) me4 ,all h] e>li] ye>s 7 %ad[$ by ?is morbid feel+2 nor 0 %e ev] q free f its influ5ce4 ,x 01 probably1 at once a cause & an effect ( ! s5sitive %yness t clung to h] to ! la/4 ,p]haps1 too1 x grew 9 "p out ( h] irrepressible crav+ = love1 c\pl$ ) utt] incr$ulity ab\t h]self possess+ ! qualities :i* r5d]$ h] s lovable4 ,x is "o ( ! faults ( my "*1 %e wrote1 to fancy t nobody c>es = me4 ,:51 de> ,anna1 ,i _h tak5 my la/ look at ! la/ famili> face 9 ,portl& 7,i fancy y "k ^: face x 07 ,i became q z melan*oly z ,i ev] desire to be1 ev5 on ! pr9ciple t by ! sadness ( ! c\nt5ance ! he>t is made bett]4 ,i d>e say y nev] _h a *ance to feel1 & !re=e w n be able to und]/&1 ! depress+ s5se ( inf]iority :i* 0 born ) me1 :i* grew ) my gr[? & /r5g!n$ ) my /r5g?1 & :i*1 ?\gh some:at repress$ ( late ye>s1 gets ! ma/]y v frequ5tly & makes me believe myself ! mo/ unlovable ( be+s4 ,x 0 ) ?is feel+ t ,i left home & j\rney$ hi!r1 wond]+ :y ,i 0 made1 & if anybody on e>? w ev] be a bit ! happi] = x1 & :e!r ,i %all ev] le>n :]e to put myself 9 ! scale ( be+4 ,?is is n humility1 please take notice--= humility is cont5t$1 ,i ?9k1 ) su* ?+s z x ha?4 ,to ,miss ,anna ,s4 ,pr5tiss4 ,ri*mond1 ,nov4 #bf1 #ahdb ,:5 ,i rea*$ ,ri*mond la/ night1 tir$ & du/y & /upefi$1 ,i felt a good deal l crawl+ away into "s cranny & /ay+ !re ! re/ ( my life2 b ?is morn+1 :5 ,i _h rememb]$ "m's exi/5ce & y\rs & t ( "s "o or two o!rs1 ,i felt m dispos$ to write ?an any?+ else4 ,y\r note 0 a great com=t to me dur+ two & a half h\rs at ,portsm\?1 & :ile on my j\rney4 ,i ?\ght pages to y 9 reply4 ,h[ ,i %\ld love to h y "h 9 ,ri*mond1 ev5 if ,i c\ld only see y once a mon?1 or "k only t y 7 "h & nev] see y6 ,) _m mo/ k9d fri5ds ab\t me1 ,i /ill %all feel v ke5ly ! sep>ation f y4 ,!re is nobody "h to :om ,i c speak confid+ly1 & my hidd5 _s w h to sit ) fold$ w+s = eight mon?s to come4 ,to :om %all ,i talk ab\t y1 pray8 ,on ! way hi!r ,i fell 9 love ) a little girl :o also fell 9 love ) me1 & z ,i sat ) h] ov] our lonely fire at ,philadelphia & 9 ,wa%+ton1 ,i c\ld n help speak+ ( y n[ & !n1 till at la/ %e sudd5ly look$ up & ask$ me if y hadn't a bro!r1 :i* "q effectually %ut my m\?4 ,9 a religi\s po9t ( view ,i am sadly (f "h4 ,!re is a diff]5t atmosph]e 9 ! h\se f :at !re us$ to be1 & ,i look =w>d ) "s anxiety to ! future4 ,! little girl ref]r$ to receiv$ soon aft] a lett] f ,miss ,payson4 ,9 enclos+ x to a fri5d1 m ?an ?irty-sev5 ye>s lat]1 %e wrote3 ,i cri$ bitt]ly :5 %e left u = ,ri*mond4 ,%e 0 out & out good & true4 ,:5 my fa!r 0 tak+ leave ( u1 ! la/ night 9 ,wa%+ton1 %e propos$ t z we _h enjoy$ s mu* toge!r1 we %\ld n sep>ate )\t a pray] ( ?anks & bless+-seek+1 a proposal to :i* my fa!r mo/ he>tily respond$4 ,"h is an extract f ! lett]3 ,:5 ,i look ov] my s*ool-room ,i am frequ5tly rem9d$ ( y1 = my ?irty-six pupils are1 mo/ ( !m1 ab\t y\r age4 ,i h "s v lovable girls "u my w+4 ,i %\ld be too happy if !re 7 no unruly memb]s among ^! good & g5tle ones2 b 9 ! little _w :]e ,i %all sp5d ! great] "p ( ! next eight mon?s1 z well z 9 ! great & busy "o1 :i* z yet nei!r y or ,i "k mu* ab\t1 ,i fancy !re are mixtures ( ! j & ! unju/1 ( ! evil & ! good4 ,we h a v pleasant family ?is ye>4 ,! y\nge/ 7= ,i omit ! black baby 9 ! kit*57 we call ,lily4 ,%e is my pet & play?+1 & is q z affectionate z y are4 ,!n comes a damsel nam$ ,beatrice1 :o has tak5 me ^u tru/ j z y did4 ,y may be ?ankful t y\r p>5ts are n l h]s1 = %e is to be educat$ = ! _w2 music1 ,fr5* & ,italian cr[d almo/ ev]y?+ else out ( place1 & z = religi\s influ5ces1 %e is "u !m "h = ! fir/ "t4 ,h[ ?ankful ,i feel :5 ,i see su* cases z ?is1 t ,god gave me pi\s p>5ts1 :o taught me f my v bir?1 t ,8 fe> is ! beg9n+ ( wisdom6 ,my room-mate we call ,kate4 ,%e is pi\s1 intellig5t1 & v w>m-he>t$1 & ,i love h] de>ly4 ,%e is an orphan--,mrs4 ,p]sico's daught] 444 ,i am r affectionate by nature1 if n 9 practice1 & ?\gh ,i "k t ne>ness to ! ,fri5d1 :om ,i hope ,i h *os51 c\ld make me happy 9 any circum/ances1 ,i d n pret5d to be above ! desire = e>?ly fri5ds1 provid$ ,he sees fit to give !m to me4 ,i believe my fa!r us$ to say t we c\ld n love !m too mu*1 if we only gave ,him ! fir/ place 9 our he>ts4 ,let u e>ne/ly seek to make ,him our all 9 all4 ,x is delightful1 9 ! mid/ ( adv]sities & trials1 to be able to say ,!re is none ^u e>? t ,i desire besides ,!e1 b x requires m grace1 ,i ?9k1 to be able to use su* language :5 ! _w is bright ab\t u4 ,y h kn[n little ( sorr[ z yet1 b if y h giv5 y\r :ole1 undivid$ he>t to ,god1 y w n ne$ affliction1 or to h y\r life made s desolate t we>9ess mu/ toss y to ,8 brea/4 ,!re is a bright side to religion1 & ,i love to see ,*ri/ians walk+ 9 ! sun%9e4 ,i tru/ y h f\nd ?is out = y\rself1 & t y\r hope 9 ,*ri/ makes y happy 9 ! life t n[ is1 z well z gives y promise ( bless$ness 9 t :i* is to come4 ,be=e %e _h be5 long 9 ,ri*mond %e 0 seiz$ ) an illness :i* caus$ h] _m pa9ful1 we>isome days & nights4 ,ref]r+ to ?is illness1 9 a lett] to ,miss ,pr5tiss1 %e writes3 ,x is dull music be+ sick away f "o's "m1 b ,i h a knack at submitt+ myself to my fate2 s my _s 0 a cont5t$ "o1 & ,i 0 n = a mom5t unhappy1 except = ! tr\ble :i* ,i gave ^? :o _h to nurse me4 ,i ?\ght ( y1 at lea/ two-?irds ( ! "t4 ,z my little pet1 ,lily ,l41 said to me la/ night1 :5 %e _h v ne>ly squeez$ ! brea? out ( my body1 ,i love y a great deal h>d] ?an ,i hug y2 s ,i say to y--,i love y h>d] ?an ,i tell1 or c tell y4 ,a happy ,new-,ye> to y1 de> ,anna4 ,h[ mu* & h[ little 9 ^? few old words6 ,consid] y\rself kiss$ & good-night4 ,! ,new ,ye> 0 de/9$ to be a v ev5tful "o alike to h] fri5d & to h]self4 ,%e seem$ to h a pres5tim5t ( x1 at lea/ 9 h] own case1 z "s l9es writt5 on a blank leaf ( h] almanac = t ye> atte/3 ,) m+l+ hope & tru/ & fe> ,i bid !e welcome1 untri$ ye>2 ,! pa?s be=e me pause to view2 ,:i* %all ,i %un & :i* pursue8 ,i read my fate ) s]i\s eye2 ,i see de> hopes & treasures fly1 ,behold !e on ?y op5+ w+ ,n[ grief1 n[ joy1 n[ sorr[ br+4 ,god grant me grace my c\rse to run ,) "o ble/ pray]--,8 w be done4 ,a little j\rnal kept by h] dur+ ! foll[+ mon?s gives bright glimpses ( h] daily life4 ,! entries are v brief1 b !y %[ t :ile devot$ to ! s*ool1 %e also sp5t a good deal ( "t among h] books1 kept up a lively correspond5ce ) abs5t fri5ds1 & contribut$ h] full %>e to ! ent]ta9m5t ( ! h\sehold by hold+ soirees 9 h] room1 read+ to ! girls1 writ+ /ories = !m1 & help+ to play goose & o!r games4 ,to ,miss ,anna ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 ,ri*mond1 ,feb4 #bb1 #ahdc4 ,?anks to ! ,fa!r ( 8 ,c\ntry = *oos+ to be born 9 ,virg9ia6 = x gives u a holiday1 & ,i c write to y1 de>e/ ( ,annas4 ,y don't "k h[ delight$ ,i 0 to get y\r long-wat*$-= lett]4 ,y v k9dly express ! wi% t y c\ld be> "s ( my s*ool drudg]y ) me4 ,i w\ld n give y t1 b y %\ld h love f "s ( ^! w>m-he>t$ damsels1 :i* w\ld make y happy ev5 9 ! mid/ ( toil & vexation4 ,i c't ?9k :at makes my s*ol>s love me s4 ,i'm sure x is a gift = :i* ,i %\ld be grateful1 z com+ f ! same s\rce ) all ! o!r bless+s :i* are ab\t me4 ,i believe my way ( gov]n+ is a m fatigu+ "o ?an t ( scold+1 frett+1 & puni%+4 ,!re is a little bit ( a tie betwe5 ea* ( ^! he>ts & m9e--& ! lea/ mi/ake on my "p sev]s x =ev]2 s ,i h to be exce$+ly c>eful :at ,i d & say4 ,?is keeps me 9 a con/ant /ate ( excitem5t & makes my pulse fly r fa/] ?an1 z a pulse arriv$ at ye>s ( discretion1 x ought to d4 ,i come out ( s*ool s happy1 ?\gh half tir$ to dea?1 wi%+ ,i 7 bett]1 & hop+ ,i %all become s2 = ! m my s*ol>s love me1 ! m ,i am a%am$ t ,i am n ! p9k ( p]fection !y seem to fancy me4 ,ev5+4--,i h j come up "h to my lonely room 7:i*1 if ,i hadn't ! happie/ k9d ( a he>t 9 ! _w1 w\ld look "r gloomy7 & h read = ! ?ird "t y\r de>1 good lett]1 & all ,i wi% is t ,i c\ld tell y h[ ,i love y1 & h[ angry ,i am ) myself t ,i did n "k & love y soon]4 ,x seems s odd t we %\ld h be5 born & rais$ s ne> ea* o!r & yet ap>t4 ,y say y are a believ] 9 de/9y4 ,s am ,i--p>ticul>ly 9 affairs ( ! he>t2 & ,i hope t we are made fri5ds n[ = some?+ m ?an ! satisfaction :i* we f9d 9 lov+4 ,i am 9 dang] ( =gett+ t ,i am to /ay 9 ?is _w only a little :ile & !n g home4 ,w y help me to be> x 9 m9d8444 ,h[ mu/ ! ,pilgrim's ,progress int]e/ a m9d t has nev] le>n$ ! :ole book by rote 9 *ildhood4 ,i h (t5 wi%$ ,i c\ld read x z a fir/-told tale1 & s ,i wi% ab\t ! xiv4 ( ,john & "s o!r *apt]s 9 ! ,bible4 ,y\r incid5tal m5tion t y h family pray]s e ev5+ produc$ a ?\s& /range s5sations 9 my m9d4 ,i h>dly "k :y4 ,did ,i ev] tell y h[ ,i love & admire ! new ,bi%op ,johns8 ,& h[ if ,i am a good ,presbyt]ian1 z !y say "h1 ,i g to he> him :5ev] & :]ev] he prea*es4 ,i don't ?9k him a great man1 b he has t s9c]ity & tru?fulness ( mann] :i* w9 y\r love at once4 #d 444 ,:at nice times y mu/ h /udy+ ,g]man6 ,i dream$ ! night ,i read y\r acc\nt ( x t ,i 0 ) y1 & t y said ,i 0 z /upid z an owl4 ,i h ! que]e/ m9d someh[4 ,x won't "w l ^? ( o!r p1 b goes ! f>!/ way r\nd :5 x wants to g home1 & ,i nev] c\ld d any?+ ) x b j let x h its own way1 & live ! long]4 ,!y are hav+ a nice "t d[n 9 ! p>lor wor%ipp+ ,miss ,=d1 ! light & sun%9e ( ! h\se1 :o leaves to-morr[ = ,nat*ez1 & ,i am go+ d[n to help !m4 ,s1 good-night4 ,to ! same4 ,april #bd4 ,s9ce ,i wrote y la/ we h all _h a good deal to put our pati5ce & philosophy & fai? to ! te/1 & ,i mu/ own t ,i h be5 = "s weeks ab\t z uncom=table z mortal damsel c\ld be4 ,ev]y?+ w5t wrong ) ,mr4 ,p]sico1 & 8 gloom ext5d$ to all ( u4 ,i nev] sp5t su* melan*oly weeks 9 my life1 & became s homesick t ,i c\ld h>dly drag myself into s*ool4 ,9 ! mid/ ( x1 h[ev]1 ,i made fun = ! re/1 z ,i believe ,i %\ld d 9 a dungeon2 & n[ x is all ov]1 ,i look back & laugh /ill4 ,we _h a black w$d+--a v black "o--9 my s*oolroom ! o!r night2 our cook hav+ decid$ to take to h]self a "l & ma/]4 ,x 0 ! funnie/ affair ,i ev] saw4 ,su* comical dresses6 su* heaps ( cake1 w9e1 c(fee1 & c&y6 su* kiss+s & hugg+s6 ,! man :o p]=m$ ! c]emony pray$ t !y might obey ea* o!r1 :]e9 ,i ?9k he %[$ 8 orig9ality & good s5se1 too4 ,!n he held a book upside d[n & pret5d$ to read1 de> kn[s :at6 b ! ,pr(essor--t is to say1 ,mrs4 ,p4--laugh$ s l\d :5 he said1 ,w y take ?is wo-man to be y\r w$d$ husb& t we all jo9$ 9 full *orus1 :]eupon ! poor prie/ 7:o 0 only ! sexton ( ,/4 ,james'7 0 s confus$ t he m>ri$ !m ov] twice4 ,i nev] saw a c\ple 9 _! /ation 9 life provid$ ) a t5? "p ( ! luxuries ) :i* !y ab\nd$4 ,we work$ all day ,saturday 9 ! kit*51 mak+ & ic+ cake = !m1 & a nice frolic we _h ( x1 too4 ,d y love babies8 ,we h a black "o 9 ! lot :om ,i pet = want ( some?+ on :i* to exp5d my love4 ,:5 ,i f9d any?+ t w int]e/ ! :ole family1 ,i read x al\d = g5]al edification4 ,! girls p]suad$ me into writ+ a /ory to read to !m1 & lock$ me into my room till x 0 done4 ,x 0 ! fir/ love-/ory ,i ev] wrote1 = hi!rto ,i h n kn[n en\gh ab\t su* ?+s to be able to d x4 ,?is rem9ds me t y ask$ if ,i int5d =gett+ y aft] ,i am m>ri$4 ,i h no sort ( idea :at ,i %all d1 provid$ ,i ev] m>ry4 ,b if ,i ev] fall 9 love ,i d>e say ,i %all d x s madly & absorb+ly z to become1 9 a measure & = a season1 =getful ( ev]y?+ & ev]ybody else4 ,/ill1 ?\gh ,i hate pr(essions1 ,i don't see h[ ,i c ev] cease to love y1 :atev] else ,i =get or neglect4 ,!re is a re/lessness 9 my affection = y t ,i don't und]/&--a half wi% to avoid enjoym5t n[1 t ,i may 9 "s future "t %>e x ) y4 ,& yet ,i h a pres5tim5t t we may h sympa?y 9 trials ( :i* ,i n[ "k no?+4 ,i am a%am$ ( myself1 ( late1 t ^! subjects ( love & matrimony f9d a place 9 my ?\ghts :i* ,i nev] h be5 9 ! habit ( giv+ !m1 b p "h talk ( little else & ,i am borne on ) ! curr5t4 ,i ?9k t to give happ9ess 9 m>ri$ life a woman %\ld possess oceans ( self-sacrific+ love & ,i1 = "o1 hav5't half ( t self-=gett+ _s :i* ,i ?9k ess5tial4 ,i am glad y l ! ,*ri/ian ,ye>1 & ,i see y are q an ,episcopalian4 ,well1 if y are l ! good old ,engli% div9es1 nobody c f9d fault ) y\r *oice4 ,mr4 ,p]sico 0 br\ght up a ,ca?olic b pr(esses to be a no?+>ian n[4 ,= myself1 ?is only ,i "k t ,i e>ne/ly wi% all ! t5d5cies ( my he>t to be heav5w>d1 & ,i believe t ! s9c]e inquir] aft] tru? w be guid$ by ! ,inf9ite ,m9d4 ,& s on t fai? ,i v5ture myself & feel safe z a *ild may feel1 :o holds 8 fa!r's h&4 ,life seems full ( my/]ies to me ( late--& ,i am tempt$ to /range ?\ghtfulness 9 ! mid/ ( its gaye/ sc5es4 ,h[ true 0 ! pres5tim5t describ$ 9 ?is lett]1 w appe> 9 h] correspond5ce ) ! same fri5d m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury lat]4 ,to ,anna ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 ,ri*mond1 ,june #a1 #ahdc ,i believe y & ,i 7 int5d$ to "k ea* o!r bett] ,i h f\nd a c]ta9 some?+ 9 y t ,i h be5 want+ all my life4 ,:ile ,i wi% y to "k me j z ,i am1 faults & all1 ,i c t be> to ?9k ( ev] see+ any?+ b ! good & ! beautiful 9 y\r "*1 de> ,anna1 & ,i believe my he>t w\ld break outright %\ld ,i f9d y to be o!rwise ?an j t :i* ,i imag9e y are4 ,i don't "k :y ,i am say+ ?is2 b ,i h le>n$ m ( ! _w dur+ ! la/ ye> ?an 9 any previ\s half doz5 ( my life1 & ! result is dissatisfaction & al>m at ! ?+s ,i see ab\t me4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld always live1 z ,i h hi!rto done1 "u ! %elt] ( my "m's w+4444 ,i ought to ask y\r p>don = writ+ 9 ?is horrid /yle1 b ,i 0 born to d ?+s by /eam1 ,i believe1 & c't d !m mod]ately4 ,z ,i write to1 s ,i love y1 de> ,anna1 ) all my int]e/s & en]gies t5d+ to t "o po9t4 ,i 0 amus$ ! o!r day ) a "y lady :o came & sat on my b$ :5 ,i 0 sick 7= ,i am j gett+ well f a q s]i\s illness71 & aft] "s half doz5 sighs1 wi%$ %e 7 ,anna ,pr5tiss t %e might be lov$ z int5sely z %e desir$4 ,?is is a r\ndab\t way ( say+ h[ v de> y are to me4 ,:at *att]-boxes girls are6 ,i wond] h[ _m times ,i've /opp$ to say ,my de>1 don't talk s mu*--= ,i am writ+ 9 s*ool4 ,june #bg?--,mr4 ---- br\ght ,! ,home to me & ,i h laugh$ & cri$ ov] x to my he>t's cont5t4 ,out ( pure self-love1 because !y said %e 0 l me1 ,i lik$ poor ,petra ) ! big nose1 be/ ( ! bun*--?\gh1 to be sure1 !y lik5 me to somebody or o!r 9 e book we read till ,i beg9 to ?9k myself q a bundle ( contradictions4 ,i h a ?\s& & "o ?+s to say to y1 b ,i wond] if z soon z ,i see y ,i %all /raightway turn into a pok]1 & play ! /iffy1 z ,i always d :5 ,i h be5 sep>at$ f my fri5ds4 ,i am writ+ 9 a little bit ( a d5 :i*1 by a new arrangem5t1 ,i h all to myself4 ,:at if !re's no table "h & ,i h to write ^u ! bureau1 sitt+ on "o foot 9 a *air & /ret*+ upw>ds to rea* my pap] l a monkey8 ,:at d ,i c>e8 ,i am writ+ to y1 & y\r _s1 invok$ :5 ,i took possession ( ! premises1 comes "h sometimes j betwe5 daylight & d>k1 & talks to me till ,i am ready to put =? my h& to f9d y\rs4 ,oh6 ,anna1 y mu/ be ev]y?+ t is pure & good1 ?r\gh to ! v dep?s ( y\r he>t1 t m9e may n a*e 9 f9d+ x has lov$ only an imag9>y be+4 ,n t ,i expect y to be p]fect--= ,i %\ldn't love y if y 7 immaculate--b pure 9 aim & int5tion & desire1 :i* ,i believe y to be4 #bi?4--,d y want to "k :at mis*ief ,i've j be5 at8 ,!re lay poor ,miss ----1 alias ,weaky z we call h]1 tak+ h] sie/a 9 ! mo/ innoc5t mann] imag9able1 ) a babe-9-!-wood k9d ( air1 :i* prov$ s highly attractive t ,i c\ld d no less ?an pick h] up 9 my arms & pop h] 7,i don't "k b x 0 head fir/71 "r into ! ba?+-tub :i* happ5$ to be fill$ ) fre% cold wat]4 ,poor1 good little ,weaky6 ,!re %e sits %ak+ & %iv]+ & laugh+ ) su* p]fect sweet humor1 t ,i am positively tak+ a v[ nev] to d s aga94 ,well1 ,i _h some?+ q s5tim5tal to say to y :5 ,i began writ+1 b z ! _s mov$ me to ! above p]petration ( nons5se1 ,i've no?+ left 9 me b fun1 & = t y've no reli%1 h y8 ,i made out to cry ye/]day & !reby h s refre%$ my s\l z to be 9 ! be/ possible humor j n[4 ,! :y & :]e=e ( my te>s1 :i* by ! way ,i don't %$ once 9 an age1 0 briefly ! )drawal f s*ool ( "o ( my s*ol>s1 "o :o _h s atta*$ h]self to me z to h become almo/ a "p ( myself1 & :om ,i _h taught to love y1 de> ,anna1 t ,i might h ! exquisite satisfaction ( talk+ ab\t y e day--a sort ( sweet int]lude betwe5 gramm> & ari?metic :i* made ! dull h\rs ( s*ool gr[ h>moni\s4 ,%e _h a pres5tim5t t h] life 0 to close ) our s*ool session1 f :i* ,i c\ldn't move h] ev5 :5 h] heal? 0 good1 & %e says t %e prays e day1 n t h] life may be l5g!n$1 b t %e may die be=e ,i am gone4 ,i am sup]/iti\s en\gh to feel t ! pray] may h its answ]1 n[ t ,i see h] droop+ & fad+ away )\t p]ceptible disease4 ,! only "t ,i ev] witness$ ! rite ( confirmation 0 :5 ! h&s ( ! good bi%op re/$ ^u h] head1 & no wond] if ,i h half tak5 up arms 9 def5se ( ?is lay+-on ( h&s1 out ( ! abundance ( my he>t if n f ! wisdom ( my head4 ,well1 ,i've lo/ my mir?ful mood1 speak+ ( h]1 & don't "k :5 x w come aga94 ,i h tak5 x into my head t y w visit ,niag>a on y\r way home f ! ,s\? & h half a m9d to g !re myself4 ,did y\r bro!r br+ home ! poems ( ,r4 ,m4 ,milnes8 ,i half hope t he did n1 s9ce ,i want to see y enjoy !m = ! fir/ "t1 p>ticul>ly a c]ta9 ,h\sehold ,br[nie /ory1 ) :i* ,i fell 9 love :5 ,presid5t ,woods s5t u ! volume4 ,"h foll[ a few entries 9 h] di>y3 ,may #a4---;,holiday4 ,into ! c\ntry all ( u1 :ite1 black1 & gray4 ,sue ,empie devot$ h]self to me l a lov] & s did ,sue ,lewis1 s ,i 0 n at a loss = society4 ,my girls made a b[]1 :]e9 ,i 0 ensconc$ & oblig$ to tell /ories to ab\t =ty li/5]s till my tongue a*$4 ,july #ah?4--,left ,ri*mond4 ,aug4 #bnd4--,left ,read+ = ,philadelphia4 #e?4--,william/[n & saw "m1 si/] & baby4 #af?4--,presid5t ,hopk9s' spl5did address be=e ! ,alumni--also t ( ,dr4 ,robb9s4 #ah?4--,left ,william/[n & rea*$ ,nonantum ,h\se at night4 ,saw ,aunt ,willis1 ,julia1 ,s>ah1 ,ell51 etc4 #bbnd4--,came home1 oh s v happy6 ,de>1 good home6 #bcrd4--,call]s all day1 ! second ( :om 0 ,mr4 ,p4 ,!re h be5 n9ete5 p "h & ,i'm tir$6 #be?4--,:at didn't ,i he> f ,anna ,p4 to-day6 #ca/4--,rode ) ,anna ,p4 to ,sacc>appa to see ,rev4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,h4 ,b4 ,smi?--took tea at ! ,p4s & w5t ) !m to ! ,prep>atory ,lecture4 ,i d no?+ b g ab\t f place to place4 ,sept4 #a/4--,j z cold z cold c\ld be all day4 ,sp5t ev5+ at ,mrs4 ,b4's1 talk+ ) ,neal ,d[4 #i?4--,cold & bl[y & disagreeable4 ,w5t to see ,c>rie ,h4 ,came home & f\nd ,mr4 ,p4 "h2 he /ay$ to tea--read u "s int]e/+ ?+s--told u ab\t ,m>y & ,william ,h[itt4 #aj?4--,our *ur* 0 re-op5$ to-day4 ,mr4 ,dwight prea*$ 9 ! morn+ & ,mr4 ,*ick]+ 9 ! aft]noon4 ,septemb] #aa? %e m>k$ ) a :ite /one & kept ev] aft] z "o ( ! *ief fe/al days ( h] life1 b ( ! reason :y !re is "h no record4 ,! di>y = ! re/ ( ! ye> is blank ) ! exception ( a s+le leaf :i* conta9s ^! s5t5ces3 ,celle qui a beso9 d'admir] ce qu'elle aime1 celle1 don't le jugem5t e/ pntrant1 bi5 que son imag9ation exalte1 il n'y a p\r elle qu'un objet dans l'univ]s4 ,celui qu'on aime1 e/ le v5geur des fautes qu'on a commis sur cette t]re2 la ,div9it lui prte son p\voir4 ,,mad4 ,,de ,,/ael4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,h] ,views ( ,love & ,c\rt%ip4 ,visit ( h] ,si/] & ,*ild4 ,lett]s4 ,sickness & ,dea? ( ,fri5ds4 ,ill-,heal?4 ,und]goes a ,surgical ,op]ation4 ,h] ,=titude4 ,/udy ( ,g]man4 ,f5elon4 ,! records ( ! next ye> & a half are v abundant1 9 ! =m ( notes1 lett]s1 v]ses & j\rnals2 b !y are mo/ly ( too private a "* to furni% mat]ials = ?is n>rative1 belong+ to :at %e call$ ! deep /ory ( my he>t4 ,!y brea! ! sweetness & sp>kle ) ! morn+ dew ( ! affections2 & :ile "s ( !m are full ( fun & playful humor1 o!rs gl[ ) all ! impassion$ e>ne/ness ( h] nature1 & o!rs /ill ) deep religi\s feel+4 ,%e wrote3 ,my he>t seems to me some:at l a v full *ur* at ! close ( ! s]vices--! great congregation ( my affections try+ to f9d _! way out & cr[d+ & h9d]+ ea* o!r 9 ! g5]al ru% = ! door4 ,don't y see !m--! "y ones scamp]+ fir/ d[n ! aisle1 & ! old & grave & /ately ones com+ ) pr\d dignity aft] !m8444 ,i feel n[ t dans les my/res de notre nature aim]1 encore aim]1 e/ ce qui n\s e/ re/ de notre h]itage cle/e1 & oh1 h[ ,i ?ank ,god = my bless$ portion ( ?is cele/ial end[m5t6 ,love 9 a ^w 0 to h]1 aft] religion1 ! holie/ & mo/ wond]ful reality ( life2 & 9 ! pres5ce ( its my/]ies %e 0--to use h] own comp>ison--l a *ild /&+ ^u ! sea%ore1 wat*+ = ! onw>d ru% ( ! waves1 v5tur+ himself close to ! wat]'s edge1 hold+ 8 brea? & woo+ _! approa*1 & !n1 z !y come da%+ 91 retreat+ ) laught] & mock fe>1 only to return to tempt !m anew4 ,h] only solicitude 0 le/ ! new int]e/ %\ld draw h] he>t away f ,him :o _h be5 its *ief joy4 ,9 a lett] to h] c\s91 %e t\*es on ?is po9t3 ,y "k h[ by circum/ances my affections h be5 repress$1 & n[1 hav+ f\nd lib]ty to love1 ,i am tempt$ to seek my heav5 9 s lov+4 ,b1 my de> c\s91 !re is no?+ wor? hav+ ap>t f ,god2 ,i feel ?is e day m & m & ! fe> ( satisfy+ myself ) some?+ %ort ( ,him--?is is my only anxiety4 ,?is drives me to ! ?rone ( ,8 grace & makes me refuse to be left "o mom5t to myself4 ,i believe ,i desire fir/ ( all to love ,god supremely & to d some?+ = ,him1 if ,he sp>es my life4 ,e>ly 9 ,decemb] h] si/]1 ,mrs4 ,hopk9s1 ) an infant boy1 came to ,portl& & pass$ a "p ( ! w9t] "u ! mat]nal ro(4 ,! arrival ( ?is boy--h] "m's fir/ gr&*ild--0 an ev5t 9 ! family hi/ory4 ,"h is h] own picture ( ! sc5e3 ,x 0 a cold ev5+1 & gr&mamma1 :o _h be5 sitt+ by ! fire1 knitt+ & read+1 _h at la/ let h] book fall f h] lap1 & _h dropp$ to sleep 9 h] *air4 ,! f\r uncles sat ar\nd ! table1 two ( !m play+ *ess1 & two look+ on1 :ile ,aunt ,fanny1 ) h] cat on h] knees1 /udi$ ,g]man a little1 look$ at ! clock v (t51 & />t$ at e noise4 ,i h said1 all along1 t !y w\ldn't come1 %e cri$ at la/4 ,! clock has j /ruck n9e1 & ,i am n go+ to expect !m any long]4 ,i knew ,h]b]t w\ld n let ,laura und]take su* a j\rney 9 ! dep? ( w9t]2 or1 at any rate1 t ,laura's c\rage w\ld tail at ! la/ mom5t4 ,%e _h h>dly utt]$ ^! words1 :5 !re 0 a r+ at ! doorbell1 !n a /amp+ ( feet on ! mat1 to %ake (f ! sn[1 & 9 !y ,came1 ,l\1 & ,l\'s papa1 & ,l\'s mamma1 br++ ev] s mu* fre%1 cold air ) !m4 ,gr&mamma woke up1 & rose to meet !m ) /eps z lively z if %e 7 a "y girl2 ,aunt ,fanny toss$ ! cat f h] lap1 & seiz$ ! bundle t held ! baby2 ! f\r uncles cr[d$ ab\t h]1 eag] to get ! fir/ peep at ! little wond]4 ,!re 0 su* a laugh+1 & su* a tumult1 t poor ,l\1 com+ out ( ! d>k night into ! bright room1 & see+ s _m /range faces1 did n "k :at to ?9k4 ,:5 8 cloaks & %awls & capes 7 at la/ pull$ (f by 8 auntie's eag] h&s1 !re came into view a s]i\s little face1 a pair ( bright eyes1 & a head z smoo? z ivory1 on :i* !re 0 n a s+le hair4 ,8 sleeves 7 loop$ up ) corals1 & %[$ 8 plump :ite arms1 & he sat up v /raight1 & took a good look at ev]ybody4 ,:at a p]fect little beauty6 ,:at spl5did eyes6 ,:at a lovely sk96 ,he's ! p]fect image ( 8 fa!r6 ,he's exactly l 8 "m6 ,:at a de> little nose6 ,:at fat little h&s1 full ( dimples6 ,let me take him6 ,come to 8 own gr&mamma6 ,let 8 uncle toss him--s he w6 ,:at does he eat8 ,is he tir$8 ,n[1 ,fanny6 y've _h him ev] s9ce he came2 he wants to come to me2 ,i "k he does6 ,^!1 & nobody kn[s h[ _m m exclamations ( ! sort1 greet$ ! e>s ( ! little /rang]1 & 7 receiv$ by him ) unruffl$ gravity4 ,aunt ,fanny devot$ h]self dur+ ! foll[+ weeks to ! c>e ( h] little nephew4 ,h] lett]s writt5 at ! "t--"s ( !m ) him 9 h] arms--are full ( 8 pretty ways2 & :51 m ?an a score ( ye>s lat]1 he _h giv5 8 "y life to 8 c\ntry & 0 sleep+ 9 a soldi]'s grave1 8 say+s & do+s =m$ ! subject ( "o ( h] mo/ attractive juv5ile books4 ,a few extracts f h] lett]s w give glimpses ( h] /ate ( m9d dur+ ?is w9t]1 & %[ also h[ ! ?\ghtful _s1 :i* f ! fir/ temp]$ ! excitem5ts ( h] new exp]i5ce1 0 deep5$ by ! loss ( v de> fri5ds4 ,,portl&1 ,decemb] #i1 #ahdc4 ,la/ ev5+ ,i sp5t at ,mrs4 ,h4----'s ) ,abby & a cr[d ( o!r p4 ,john ,neal told me ,i _h a great bump ( love ( approbation1 & consci5ti\sness v l>ge1 & self-e/eem h>dly any2 & t he hop$ :oev] _h mo/ influ5ce ov] me w\ld rem$y t evil4 ,he !n w5t on to pay me ! mo/ extravagant complim5ts1 & said ,i c\ld become di/+ui%$ 9 any way ,i pleas$4 ,?9ks ,i to myself1 ,i %\ld l to be ! be/ little wife 9 ! _w1 & t's ! height ( my ambition4 ,don't imag9e n[ t ,i believe all he says1 = he has be5 say+ j su* ?+s to me s9ce ,i 0 a doz5 ye>s old1 & ,i don't see z ,i am any great ?+s yet4 ,d y8 ,jan4 #c;d1 #ahdd4--,si/] is /ill "h & w /ay ) u a mon? or two yet4 ,h] husb& has gone home to prea* & pray himself into cont5tm5t )\t h]4 ,?\gh he 0 "h only a week1 8 quiet ,*ri/ian excell5ce made u all long to gr[ bett]4 ,x is always ! case :5 he comes1 ?\gh he r lives ?an talks 8 religion4 ,i nev] saw1 z f> z piety is conc]n$1 a m p]fect specim5 ( a man 9 8 e-day life4 ,d y pray = me e night & e morn+8 ,don't =get h[ ,i com=t myself ) ?9k+ t y e day ask = me ^? graces ( ! ,_s :i* ,i s long =4 ,inde$1 ,i h _h lately su* heav5w>d ye>n+s6444 ,:y d y ask if ,i pray = y1 z if ,i c\ld love y & help pray+ = y cont9ually & always4 ,i h no light s5se ( ! hol9ess a ,*ri/ian m9i/] %\ld possess4 ,i half wi% !re 7 no veil ^u my he>t on ?is po9t1 t y might see h[1 f ! v fir/ h\r ( y\r return f abroad1 my int]e/ 9 y w5t h&-9-h& ) ?is look+ upw>d4 ,jan4 #bb;d4--,we h all be5 sadd5$ by ! repeat$ trials ) :i* our fri5ds ! ,willises are visit$ ?is w9t]4 ,mrs4 ,willis is /ill v ill1 & !re is no hope ( h] recov]y2 & ,ell51 ! pet ( ! :ole h\sehold--! always happy1 lov+1 beautiful "y ?+--:o _h be5 full ( delight 9 ! hope ( becom+ a "m1 lies n[ at ! po9t ( dea?2 hav+ lo/ h] infant1 & ) x h] bright anticipations4 ,= f\rte5 ye>s !re _h n be5 a physician 9 _! h\se1 & y may imag9e h[ !y are all n[ tak51 z x 71 by surprise by ! fir/ break dea? has ?reat5$ to make 9 _! peculi>ly happy circle4 ,our love = all ! family has gr[n ) our gr[? & /r5g!n$ ) our /r5g?1 & :at t\*es !m we all feel4 ,feb4 #h?4--,h[ is x t p :o h no refuge 9 ,god live ?r\gh ! loss ( ^? !y love8 ,i am v sad ?is morn+1 & almo/ wi% ,i _h nev] lov$ y or anybody4 ,la/ night we he>d ( ! dea? ( ,julia ,willis' si/]1 & ?is morn+ le>n t a de> little girl 9 :om we all 7 mu* int]e/$1 & :om ,i saw on ,saturday only slightly unwell1 is tak5 away f h] p>5ts1 :o h no mann] ( consolation 9 los+ ?is only *ild4 ,!re is a great cl\d ?r\gh\t our h\se1 & we h>dly "k :at to d ) ourselves4 ,:5 ,i met "m & si/] ye/]day on my return f y\r h\se1 ,i saw t some?+ 0 ! matt] ( :i* !y hesitat$ to tell me2 & ( :om %\ld ,i naturally ?9k b ( y--y 9 :om my life is b\nd up2 &1 :5 "m f9ally came to put h] arms ar\nd me1 ,i suff]$ = ! mom5t t int5sity ( angui% :i* ,i %\ld feel 9 kn[+ t some?+ dreadful _h befall5 y4 ,%e told me1 h[ev]1 ( poor ,ell5's dea?1 & ,i 0 s lo/ 9 recov]+ y aga9 t ,i c>$ = no?+ else all ! ev5+1 & until ?is morn+ _h sc>cely ?\ght ( ! a*+1 a*+ he>ts %e has left beh9d4 ,h] poor "y husb&1 :o lov$ h] s t5d]ly1 is half-di/ract$4 ,oh1 ,i h bless$ ,god to-day t until ,he _h giv5 me a sure & c]ta9 hold ^u ,himself1 ,he _h n suff]$ me to love z ,i love n[6 ,x is a my/]y :i* ,i c n und]/&1 h[ ! he>t c live on ?r\gh ! mom5t :i* r5ds x asund] f t ( :i* x has become a "p1 except by hid+ itself 9 ,god4 ,i h felt ,ell5's dea? ! m1 because %e & h] husb& 7 associat$ 9 my m9d ) y4 ,i h>dly "k h[ or :y2 b %e told me mu* ( ! hi/ory ( h] he>t :5 ,i saw h] la/ summ] on my way home f ,ri*mond1 at ! same "t t %e spoke mu* ( y4 ,%e _h se5 y at our h\se be=e y w5t abroad1 & seem$ to h a sort ( pres5tim5t t we %\ld love ea* o!r4 ,b ,i ought to beg y to =give me = s5d+ y ?is gloomy page2 yet ,i 0 re/less & want$ to tell y ! ?\ghts t h be5 9 my he>t t[>ds y to-day--! s]i\s & sadd5$ love ) :i* ,i love y1 :5 ,i ?9k ( y z "o :om ,god may take f me at any mom5t4 ,i d n "k t x is unwise to look ?is tru? 9 ! face sometimes--= if ev] !re 0 he>t tempt$ to idolatry1 to giv+ itself up fully1 utt]ly1 ) p]fect ab&onm5t ( e o!r hope & int]e/1 to an e>?ly love1 s is m9e tempt$ n[4 ,feb4 #ac?4--,"m is go+ to ,bo/on ) si/] on ,saturday1 provid$ ,i am well en\gh 7:i* ,i mean to be71 z ,mrs4 ,willis has express$ a /rong wi% to see h] once m4 ,we he>d f !m ye/]day aga94 ,poor ,ell5's c(f9 0 plac$ j :]e %e /ood z a bride1 less ?an eight mon?s ago1 & h] little infant re/$ on h] brea/4 ,!re is r>ely a dea? s univ]sally m\rn$ z h]s2 %e 0 ! mo/ w9n+ & attractive "y creature ,i ev] saw4 ,feb4 #ba/4--,are y 9 e>ne/8 ,are y 9 e>ne/8 ,are y really com+ home 9 ,m>*8 ,i am afraid to believe1 afraid to d\bt x4 ,i am cry+ & laugh+ & writ+ all at once4 ,y w\ld n tell me s unless y really 7 com+1 ,i "k 444 ,& y are com+ home6 7,h[ madly my he>t is beat+6 lie /ill1 w y87 ,i almo/ feel t y are "h & t y look ov] my %\ld] & read :ile ,i write4 ,are y sure t y w come8 ,oh1 don't rep5t & s5d me ano!r lett] to say t y w wait till x is pleasant] wea!r2 x is pleasant n[4 ,i walk$ out ?is morn+1 & ! air 0 a spr+ air1 & g5tlem5 g ?r\gh ! /reets ) _! cloaks hang+ ov] _! arms1 & !re is a con/ant pla%+ aga9/ ! w9d[s1 ( wat] dripp+ d[n f ! melt+ sn[2 yes1 ,i v]ily believe t x is w>m1 & t ! birds w s+ soon--,i d1 ^u my ^w 444 ,i w\ldn't h ! doctor come & feel my pulse ?is aft]noon = any?+4 ,he w\ld prescribe fev] p[d]s or fev] drops1 or some?+ ( ! sort1 & ble$ me & s5d me to b$1 or to ! insane hospital2 ,i don't "k :i*4 ,i c\ld cry1 s+1 dance1 laugh1 all at once4 ,oh1 t ,i knew exactly :5 y w be "h--! day1 ! h\r1 ! m9ute1 t ,i might "k to j :at po9t to gov]n my impati5t he>t--= x w\ld be a pity to puni% ! poor little ?+ too sev]ely4 ,i h be5 read+ to-day some?+ :i* delight$ me v mu*2 d y rememb] a little poem ( ,goe!'s1 9 :i* an imprison$ c\nt s+s ab\t ! fl[] he loves be/1 & ! rose1 ! lily1 ! p9k1 & ! violet1 ea* 9 turn fancy !mselves ! objects ( 8 love4 #e ,y see ,i put y 9 ! place ( ! prison] at ! outset1 & ,i 0 to be ! fl[] ( 8 love1 :atev] x might be4 ,well1 x 0 ! ,=get-me-n4 ,if !re 7 a fl[] call$ ! ,always-lov+1 maybe ,i might f9d out to :at ord] & class ,i belong4 ,de> me2 !re's ! old clock /rik+ twelve1 & ,i v]ily meant to g to b$ at t51 s z to sleep away z mu* ( ! "t z possible be=e y\r com+1 b ,i fell into a fit ( lov+ m$itation1 & =got ev]y?+ else4 ,y %\ld h se5 me p\r out tea to-night6 ,:y1 ! fir/ ?+ ,i knew1 ,i _h p\r$ x all out into my own cup till x ran ov]1 & half fill$ ! wait]1 :i* is ! fir/ "t ,i ev] did su* a ridicul\s ?+ 9 my life4 ,b1 de>e/1 ,i bid y good night1 pray+ y may h sweet dreams & an inw>d prompt+ to write me a long1 long1 bless$ lett]1 su* z %all make me dance ab\t ! h\se & s+4 ,feb4 #bb;d4--,oh1 ,i am fright5$ at myself1 ,i am s happy6 ,x seems z if ev5 ?is :ole folio w\ld n 9 ! lea/ convey to y ! gladness ) :i* my he>t is danc+ & s++ & mak+ m]ry4 ,! doctor seems q satisfi$ ) my %\ld]1 & says x's fir/-rate2 s set y\r he>t at re/ on t po9t4 ,i hope !re'll be nobody )9 two miles ( our meet+4 ,suppose y /op 9 "s out ( ! way place j out ( t[n1 & let me trot out !re to see y8 ,oh1 are y really com+8 ,to ,g1 ,e4 ,s4 ,m>* #d1 #ahdd4 ,i mu/ write a few l9es to tell y1 my de> c\s91 t ,i am ?9k+ ( & pray+ = y on y\r bir?day4 ,i h b "o reque/ to (f] ei!r = y or = myself1 & t is = m love to our ,r$eem]4 ,i bless ,god t ,i h no o!r want4444 ,i d n "k :y x is1 b ,i nev] h ?\ght s mu* ( dea? & ( ! c]ta9ty t ,i1 soon] or lat]1 mu/ die1 z )9 a few mon?s pa/4 ,i am n exactly sup]/iti\s1 b ?is daily & h\rly half-pres5tim5t t my life w n be a long "o1 is s+ul>ly subdu+1 & seems to lay a re/ra9+ h& ^u future plans4 ,i am n sorry1 :atev] may be ! ev5t1 t x is s4 ,i dread cl++ to ?is _w & seek+ my re/ 9 x4 ,i am n afraid to die1 or afraid t any?+ ,i love may be tak5 f me2 ,i only h ?is s]i\s & ?\ghtful s5se ( dea? ^u my m9d4 ,y "k h[ we h lov$ ! ,willis family1 & c imag9e h[ we felt ! dea? ( _! y\nge/ daught]1 :o 0 de> to ev]ybody4 ,& ,mrs4 ,willis is1 probably1 n liv+4 ,?is has add$ to my previ\s feel+ on ! subject1 :i* 01 p]haps1 fir/ occasion$ by ! sudd5 & t]rible loss ( my poor fri5d1 ,mr4 ,?at*]1 a ye> ago ?is mon?4 #f ,god =bid ,i %\ld ev] =get ! lessons ,he saw ,i ne$$1 & d>e to feel t !re is a ?+ ^u e>? :i* dea? may n t\*4 ,oh1 9 h[ _m ways ,he has s\ght to w9 my :ole he>t = ,8 own6 ,m>* #bb;d4--,i 0 int]rupt$ la/ night by ! arrival ( ,g4 ,l4 ,p41 aft] 8 f\r mon?s' abs5ce 9 ,mississippi1 improv$ 9 heal?1 & 9 looks1 & 9 spirits1 & q z glad to see me1 ,i believe1 z ev5 y1 9 y\r goodness ( he>t1 say my lov] ought to be4 ,b ,i w tell y ! tru?1 my de> c\s91 ,i am afraid ( love4 ,!re is no o!r m$ium1 save t ( ! happ9ess ( lov+ & be+ lov$1 by :i* my affections c\ld be effectually turn$ f div9e to e>?ly ?+s4 ,am ,i n !n on dang]\s gr\nd8 ,yet ,god m]cifully %[s me t x is s1 & :5 ,i ?9k h[ ,he has sav$ me hi!rto ?r\gh %>p temptations1 x seems wick$1 di/ru/ ( ,him1 n to feel t ,he w save me ?r\gh ^? to come4 ,i "k n[ !re are "s ( ! great lessons ( life yet to be le>n$2 ,i believe ,i mu/ suff] z long z ,i h an e>?ly exi/5ce4 ,w n !n ,god make t suff]+ b z a bless$ reprov] to br+ me ne>] ,himself8 ,i hope s4 ,dur+ ! w9t] h] heal? _h become s mu* impair$1 t great anxiety 0 felt z to ! issue4 ,9 a lett] to h] fri5d1 ,miss ,ell5 ,?ur/on1 dat$ ,april #bj1 #ahdd1 %e writes3 ,y rememb]1 p]haps1 t on ! aft]noon y 7 s good z to come & sp5d ) me1 ,i 0 mak+ a fuss ab\t a little ?+ on my %\ld]4 ,well1 ,i _h at la/ to h x remov$1 & ?\gh ! op]ation 0 n 9 itself v pa9ful1 its effects on my :ole n]v\s sy/em h be5 mo/ p[]ful4 ,i h lo/ all regul> habits ( sleep--= a week ,i d n "k t ,i slept two h\rs--& am ready to fly into a fit at ! b>e ?\ght ( sitt+ /ill long en\gh to write a common lett]4 ,i h1 h[ev]1 ! consolation ( be+ piti$ & consol$ )1 z !re's some?+ 9 ! idea ( cutt+ at ! fle% :i* t\*es ! he>t1 a ?\s& times m ?an "s sev]] suff]+s w\ld d4 ,i am gett+ q ?9 & weak ^u x1 & ,i believe "m firmly expects me to %r9k into no?+1 ?\gh ,i am a pretty b\nc+ girl /ill4 ,ow+ to "s mi%ap ! heal+ process 0 entirely ?w>t$1 & aft] a v try+ summ]1 ! op]ation _h to be repeat$4 ,?is "t x 0 p]=m$ by t em95t surgeon & admirable ,*ri/ian man1 ,dr4 ,john ,c4 ,w>r5 ( ,bo/on1 assi/$ by 8 son1 ,dr4 ,j4 ,m4 ,w4 ,dr4 ,w>r5 told ,miss ,payson's fri5d1 :o _h accompani$ an invalid si/] to ,new ,york1 t he ?\ght x w\ld require ab\t five m9utes2 b x prov$ to be mu* m s]i\s ?an he _h anticipat$4 ,miss ,willis1 9 h] lett] f ,g5eva already quot$1 ?us ref]s to x3 ,my next meet+ ) ,lizzy reveal$ a /rik+ trait ( h] "*1 :i* hi!rto ,i _h _h no opportunity ( obs]v+--h] wond]ful =titude "u suff]+4 ,i 0 at ! sea%ore ) my si/] & family :51 h] little *ild be+ tak5 sudd5ly v ill 9 ! night1 ,i w5t up to ,bo/on by an e>ly tra9 to br+ d[n z soon z possible our family physician4 ,on arriv+ at 8 h\se ,i 0 disappo9t$ at be+ told t he c\ld n come at once1 be+ engag$ to p]=m an op]ation t morn+4 ,:ile wait+ = ! return tra91 ,i call$ at my fa!r's (fice & 0 surpris$ to he> t ,lizzy 0 ! pati5t4 ,a pa9ful tumor _h develop$ itself on ! back ( h] neck1 & %e _h come up ) h] "m to ,bo/on to consult ,dr4 ,w>r51 :o _h advis$ its imm$iate removal4 ,i w5t at once to see h]4 ,%e greet$ me ) ev5 m ?an h] usual w>m? & aft] /at+ 9 a few words ! object ( h] com+ to ,bo/on & t %e 0 expect+ ! doctors e mom5t1 %e add$3 ,y w /ay ) me1 ,i am sure4 ,"m insi/s on be+ pres5t1 b %e c n be> x4 ,%e w be sure to fa9t4 ,if y w promise to /ay1 ,i c p]suade h] to rema9 9 ! next room4 ,see+ ! di/ress 9 my face at ! reque/1 %e said1 ,i w be v good4 ,y w h no?+ to d b sit 9 ! room1 to satisfy "m4 ,x 0 impossible to refuse & ,i rema9$4 ,!re 0 no *lor(orm !n to give bless$ unconsci\sness ( suff]+ & e pang _h to be endur$1 b %e m ?an kept h] promise to be good4 ,n a s\nd or a movem5t betray$ suff]+4 ,%e spoke only once4 ,aft] ! knife 0 laid aside & ! ?read$ ne$le 0 pass$ ?r\gh ! quiv]+ fle% to draw ! gap+ edges ( ! w\nd toge!r1 %e ask$1 aft] ! fir/ /it* _h be5 complet$1 9 a l[1 almo/ calm tone1 ) only a slight tremul\sness1 h[ _m m 7 to be tak54 ,:5 ! op]ation 0 ov]1 & ! surgeons 7 prep>+ to dep>t1 %e que/ion$ !m m9utely z to ! m>k :i* w\ld be left aft] heal+4 ,i 0 surpris$ t %e c\ld ?9k ( x at su* a mom5t1 kn[+ h[ little value %e _h always set on h] p]sonal appe>ance1 b h] "m expla9$ x aft]w>d by ref]r+ to h] betro?al to y1 & ! fe> t y w\ld f9d ! sc> disfigur+4 #g ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 #h %e h]self writes1 ,sept4 #f3 ,i _h no idea ( ! suff]+ :i* await$ me4 ,i ?\ght ,i %\ld get (f z ,i did ! fir/ "t4 ,b ,i h a great deal to be ?ankful =4 ,on ,w$nesday1 to my inf9ite surprise & gladness1 ,george p\nc$ d[n ^u me f ,new ,york1 hav+ be5 q cut to ! he>t by ! acc\nt "m gave him4 ,ev]ybody is s k9d1 & ,i h _h s _m lett]s1 & se5 s _m sympa?is+ faces1 & de> ,lizzy s\nds s sweet to my insatiable e>s2 & yet--& yet--,i w\ld r die ?an live ?r\gh ! =ty-eight h\rs aga9 :i* began on ,monday morn+4 ,somebody mu/ h pray$ = me1 or ,i nev] %\ld h got ?r\gh4 ,an extract f ano!r ( h] lett]s1 dat$ ,portl&1 ,septemb] #aa?1 belongs "h3 ,i mu/ tell y1 too1 ab\t ,dr4 ,w>r5 7! old "o74 ,:5 "m ask$ him conc]n+ ! am\nt he 0 to receive f h] = 8 pr(essional s]vices1 he smil$ & said3 ,i %all n *>ge y mu*1 & z = ,miss ,payson1 :5 %e is m>ri$ & ri*1 %e may pay me & welcome--b n till !n4 ,i told him ,i nev] expect$ to be ri*1 & he repli$1 ) :at "m ?\ght an air ( cont5tm5t t said he knew all ab\t x3 ,well1 we c be happy )\t ri*es1 & su* a good1 happy smile %one all ov] 8 face z ,i h seldom be5 s =tunate z to see 9 an old man4 ,z = ! "y "o1 he seem$ z glad :5 ,i 0 dress$ on ,sunday ) a clean frock & no %awl1 z if x 7 really a matt] ( consequ5ce to him to see 8 pati5ts look+ com=table & well4 ,i am gett+ along f9ely2 !re is only "o spot on my %\ld] :i* is tr\blesome1 & !y ord]$ me on a v /rict diet = t--s ,i am half-/>v$ ?is bless$ m9ute4 ,we w5t to ,newburyport on ,monday1 & /ay$ !re ) ,anna till ye/]day aft]noon4 ,i ?9k ! motion ( ! c>s hurt me some:at1 b by ! "t y get "h ,i d hope ,i %all be q well4 ,ev5+4-- 444 ,i h _h su* happy ?\ghts & pray]s to-night6 ,y %\ld c]ta9ly h knelt ) me 9 my little room1 :]e1 = ! fir/ "t a ye> ago ?is ev5+1 ,i ask$ ,god to bless u2 & y too1 p]haps1 !n began fir/ to pray = me4 ,oh1 :at a wond]ful "t x 06444 ,i hope y h pray$ = me to-day--,i don't mean z y always d1 b ) new pray]s :]e) to beg9 ! new ye>4 ,god bless y & love y6 ,b ?is p]iod 0 also "o ( l>ge m5tal gr[?4 ,x 0 m>k$ especially by two ev5ts t _h a %ap+ influ5ce ^u bo? h] intellectual & religi\s "*4 ,"o 0 ! /udy ( ,g]man4 ,%e 0 acqua9t$ already ) ,fr5* & ,italian2 %e n[ devot$ h] leisure h\rs to ! language & works ( ,s*ill] & ,goe!4 ,^! op5$ to h] a new _w ( ?\ght & beauty4 ,h] correspond5ce conta9s frequ5t allusions to ! progress ( h] ,g]man read+4 ,"h is "o 9 a lett] to h] c\s93 ,i h read ,george ,h]b]t a good deal ?is w9t]4 ,i h also read sev]al ( ,s*ill]'s plays--,william ,tell & ,don ,c>los among ! re/--& got a great deal m excit$ ov] !m ?an ,i h ov] any?+ = a long :ile4 ,george has a l>ge ,g]man libr>y1 b ,i don't suppose ,i %all be mu* ! wis] = x1 unless ,i turn to /udy+ !ology4 ,did y read 9 ,goe!'s ,wilhelm ,mei/]1 ! ,bek5ntnisse e9] s*n5 ,seele8 ,i d ?9k x did my s\l good :5 ,i read x la/ ,july4 ,! acc\nt %e gives ( h] religi\s hi/ory rem9d$ me ( m9e 9 "s po9ts v /rongly4 ,! o!r incid5t 0 h] introduction to ! writ+s ( ,f5elon--an au?or :om1 9 lat] ye>s1 %e came to reg>d z an oracle ( spiritual wisdom4 ,9 ! lett] j quot$1 %e writes3 ,i am read+ ,f5elon's ',maximes des ,sa9ts1' & _m ( 8 ideas please me exce$+ly4 ,"s ( 8 ',lettres ,spirituelles' are delici\s--s heav5ly1 s *ild-l 9 _! _s4 #i #a ,jan1 #a1 #ahde4--;,i us$ nev] to confide my religi\s feel+s to any "o 9 ! _w4 ,i w5t on my toilsome1 com=tless way q by myself4 ,b :5 at ! end ( ?is long1 gloomy way1 ,i saw & knew & rejoic$ 9 ,*ri/1 !n ,i =got myself & my pride & my res]ve1 & 0 glad if a little *ild w\ld he> me say ,i love ,him6--glad if ! mo/ ignorant1 ! mo/ hi!rto despis$1 w\ld speak ( ,him4 #b ,lat] %e writes3 ,i h _h a long talk ) si/] to-day ab\t ,leighton4 ,%e claims him1 z all ! ,p]fectioni/s d1 z "o ( _! numb]2 ?\gh1 by ! way1 9 ! common acceptation ( ! ^w1 %e is n a ,p]fectioni/ h]self1 b only on ! b\nd>y-l9e ( ! en*ant$ gr\nd4 ,i am completely puzzl$ :5 ,i ?9k on su* subjects4 ,i d\bt if si/] is "r1 yet "k n :]e %e is wrong4 ,%e does n obtrude h] peculi> op9ions on any "o1 & ,i began ! conv]sation ?is aft]noon myself4 #c ,oh1 :at a bless$ ?+ x is to lose "o's w6 ,s9ce ,i h lo/ my w ,i h f\nd happ9ess4 ,!re c be no su* ?+ z disappo9tm5t to me1 = ,i h no desires b t ,god's w may be accompli%$4 ,*ri/ians might avoid mu* tr\ble if !y w\ld only believe :at !y pr(ess1 viz43 t ,god is able to make !m happy )\t any?+ b ,himself4 ,!y imag9e t if su* a de> fri5d 7 to die1 or su* & su* bless+s to be remov$1 !y %\ld be mis]able2 :]eas ,god c make !m a ?\s& times happi] )\t !m4 ,to m5tion my own case3 ,god has be5 depriv+ me ( "o bless+ aft] ano!r2 b z e "o 0 remov$1 ,he has come 9 & fill$ up its place2 & n[1 :5 ,i am a cripple & n able to move1 ,i am happi] ?an ev] ,i 0 9 my life be=e or ev] expect$ to be2 & if ,i _h believ$ ?is tw5ty ye>s ago1 ,i might h be5 sp>$ mu* anxiety4 #d ,! ,"r ,rev4 ,john ,johns1 ,bi%op ( ! ,prote/ant ,episcopal ,*ur* ( ,virg9ia1 0 a man ( apo/olic simplicity & zeal1 & univ]sally belov$4 ,an almo/ ideal fri5d%ip exi/$ betwe5 him & ,dr4 ,*>les ,hodge1 ( ,pr9ceton4 ,de>1 bless$1 old ,john1 ,dr4 ,h4 call$ him :5 he 0 sev5ty-n9e ye>s old4 ,see ,life ( ,dr4 ,hodge1 pp4 #efd-efi4 ,bi%op ,johns di$ 9 #ahgf4 #e ,das ,blmle9 ,wund]s*n4 ,li$ des gefang55 ,graf51 is ! title ( ! poem4 ,goe!'s ,samtli*e ,w]ke4 ,vol4 ,i41 p4 #aea4 #f ,see app5dix ,a1 p4 #ecc4 #g ,! horrible op]ation is ov]1 ,heav5 be prais$6 ,x 0 f> m horrible ?an we _h anticipat$4 ,!y 7 an h\r & a qu>t]1 be=e all 0 done4 ,i 0 v brave at fir/ & w\ldn't leave ! room1 b ,i f\nd myself s fa9t t ,i fe>$ fall+ & _h to g4 ,lizzy behav$ l a h]o9e inde$1 s t ev5 ! doctors admir$ h] =titude4 ,%e nev] spoke1 b 0 deadly fa9t1 s t !y 7 oblig$ to lay h] d[n t ! dreadful w\nd might ble$2 !n !re 0 an art]y to be tak5 up & ti$2 !n six /it*es to be tak5 ) a great big ne$le4 ,mo/ provid5tially de> ,julia ,willis came 9 ab\t t5 m9utes be=e ! doctors & ?\gh %e 0 greatly di/ress$1 %e nev] fa9ts1 & /aid till ,lizzy 0 laid 9 b$4444 ,%e 0 j l a m>ble /atue1 b ev5 m beautiful1 :ile ! blood /a9$ h] %\ld]s & bosom4 ,y c\ldn't h look$ on su* suff]+ )\t fa9t+1 man t y are4--,f a lett] ( ,mrs4 ,payson1 dat$ ,bo/on1 ,sept4 #b1 #ahdd4 #h ,h] fri5d1 ,miss ,pr5tiss1 _h be5 m>ri$1 9 ! previ\s autumn1 to ! ,rev4 ,jona?an ,f4 ,/e>ns1 ( ,newburyport4 #i ,explication des ,maximes des ,sa9ts sur la ,vie ,intrieure is ! full title ( ! fam\s little "w fir/ nam$4 ,x appe>$ 9 ,janu>y1 #afig4 ,if measur$ by ! /orm x rais$ 9 ,france & at ,rome1 or by ! att5tion x attract$ ?r\gh\t ,europe1 its publication may be said to h be5 "o ( ! mo/ important !ological ev5ts ( t day4 ,! eloqu5ce ( ,bossuet & ! p[] ( ,l\is ,,xiv4 7 toge!r ex]t$ to ! utmo/ 9 ord] to br& its illu/ri\s au?or z a h]etical ,quieti/2 &1 ?r\gh _! almo/ frantic ef=ts1 x 0 at la/ condemn$ 9 a papal brief4 ,b1 = all t1 ! little "w is full ( ! noble/ ,*ri/ian s5tim5ts4 ,x pu%es ! doctr9e ( pure love1 p]haps1 to a p]il\s extreme1 b /ill an extreme t leans to ! side ( ! highe/ virtue4 ,aft] its condemnation ! ,pope1 ,innoc5t ,,xii41 wrote to ! ,fr5* prelates1 :o _h be5 mo/ prom95t 9 d5\nc+ ,f5elon3 ,peccavit excessu amoris div9i1 s$ vos pecca/is defectu amoris proximi--i4e41 ,he has err$ by too mu* love ( ,god1 b ye h err$ by too little love ( y\r neighbor4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,! ,,"y ,,wife ,,& ,,"m4 #ahde-ahej4 ,i4 ,m>riage & ,settlem5t 9 ,new ,b$=d4 ,rem9isc5ces4 ,lett]s4 ,bir? ( h] ,fir/ ,*ild4 ,dea? ( h] ,si/]-9-,law4 ,lett]s4 ,on ! #af? ( ,april1 #ahde1 ,miss ,payson 0 m>ri$ to ! ,rev4 ,george ,lewis ,pr5tiss1 !n j orda9$ z pa/or ( ! ,s\? ,tr9it>ian *ur* 9 ,new ,b$=d1 ,mass4 ,"h %e pass$ ! next five & a half ye>s2 ye>s r5d]$ memorable by preci\s fri5d%ips =m$ 9 !m1 by ! bir? ( two ( h] *ildr51 by ! dea? ( h] "m1 & by o!r deep joys & sorr[s4 ,new ,b$=d 0 !n kn[n1 ! _w ov]1 z ! mo/ important c5tre ( ! :ale-fi%]y4 ,9 que/ ( ! levia?ans ( ! deep its %ips trav]s$ all seas1 f ! tumbl+ iceb]gs ( ! ,arctic ,ocean to ! ,s\!rn ,pacific4 ,b x 0 also kn[n ne>] home = ! f9e social qualities ( its p4 ,_m ( ! orig9al settl]s ( ! t[n 7 ,quak]s1 & its "* _h be5 l>gely %ap$ by _! fri5dly influ5ce4 ,husb&s & wives1 :e!r "y or old1 call$ ea* o!r ev]y:]e by _! ,*ri/ian names1 & a *>m+ simplicity m>k$ ! daily int]c\rse ( life4 ,into ?is attractive society ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 at once welcom$4 ,! ,arnold family 9 p>ticul>--a family repres5t+ alike ! fri5dly _s1 ! ref9em5t & ta/e1 ! weal?1 & ! g5]\s hospitality ( ! place--"h des]ve m5tion4 ,_! k9dness 0 unwe>i$2 fl[]s & fruit came (t5 f _! spl5did g>d5 & gre5h\ses2 &1 9 v>i\s o!r ways1 !y contribut$ f ! mom5t ( h] com+ to r5d] ,new ,b$=d a pleasant home to h]4 ,b x 0 9 h] husb&'s p>i% t %e f\nd h] *ief int]e/ & joy4 ,8 p at fir/ welcom$ h] 9 ! w>me/ mann] on h] sa9t$ fa!r's acc\nt1 b !y soon le>n$ to love h] = h] own sake4 ,%e e>ly began to manife/ among !m t wond]ful sympa?y1 :i* made h] pres5ce l sun%9e 9 sick rooms & 9 ! h\se ( m\rn+1 &1 9 lat] ye>s1 ende>$ h] ?r\gh h] writ+s to s _m he>ts4 ,:ile h] natural %yness & res]ve caus$ h] to %r9k f ev]y?+ l publicity1 & ev5 f t lead]%ip 9 ! m private activities ( ! *ur* :i* prop]ly belong$ to h] sex & /ation1 any k9d ( tr\ble in/antly ar\s$ & call$ into play all h] en]gies4 ,! sickness & dea? ( little *ildr5 wr\ght ^u h] ) s+ul> p[]2 &1 9 m9i/]+ aid & com=t to b]eav$ mo!rs1 %e seem$ l "o specially ano9t$ ( ! ,"l = ?is g5tle (fice4 ,n[1 aft] ! lapse ( m ?an a ?ird ( a c5tury1 !re are ^? 9 ,new ,b$=d & its vic9ity :o bless h] memory1 z !y recall sc5es ( %>p affliction *e]$ by h] pres5ce & h] lov+ sympa?y4 ,! foll[+ rem9isc5ces by "o ( h] ,new ,b$=d fri5ds1 writt5 n long aft] h] dea?1 belong "h3 ,oh1 t ,i _h ! p5 ( a ready writ]6 ,h[ gladly w\ld ,i depict h] j z %e came to ,new ,b$=d1 a y\?ful bride & our pa/or's wife1 m ?an a ?ird ( a c5tury ago6 ,my remembrances ( h] are /ill fre% & delightful2 b !y h be5 = s _m ye>s sil5t memories t ,i feel q unable fully to express !m4 ,& yet ,i w try to give y a few simple details4 ,sev]al ?+s /rike me z ,i recall h] 9 ^? days4 ,our e>ly exp]i5ces 9 ! /ruggle ( life _h be5 some:at simil> & ?is drew u ne> to ea* o!r4 ,%e 0 naturally v %y & 9 ! pres5ce ( /rang]s1 or ( uncong5ial p]sons1 h] res]ve 0 almo/ pa9ful2 b ) h] fri5ds--especially ^? ( h] own sex--all ?is vani%$ & %e 0 full ( animat$ talk4 ,h] conv]sation ab\nd$ 9 bright1 po9t$ say+s1 9 f9e little t\*es ( humor1 9 amus+ anecdotes & incid5ts ( h] own exp]i5ce1 :i* %e relat$ ) a/oni%+ ease & flu5cy1 sometimes also 9 d[nright girli% fun & droll]y2 & all 0 r5d]$ d\bly attractive by h] l[1 sweet woman's voice & h] m]ry1 fitful laugh4 ,yet ^! ?+s 7 b ! sp>kle ( a v deep & s]i\s nature4 ,ev5 !n h] religi\s "* 0 to me wond]ful4 ,%e seem$ always to "k j :at 0 prompt+ h]1 :e!r1 nature or grace2 & h] p]ception ( ! work+s ( ! two pr9ciples 0 l an in/9ct4 ,:ile ,i1 ?\gh *]i%+ a ,*ri/ian hope1 0 /ill /ruggl+ 9 bondage "u ! law1 %e appe>$ to enjoy to ! full ! glori\s lib]ty ( ! *ildr5 ( ,god4 ,& :5 ,i w\ld say to h] t ,i 0 con/antly do+ t :i* ,i ought n & leav+ undone s mu* t ,i ought to d1 %e w\ld try to com=t me & to enc\rage me to ex]cise m fai? by respond+1 ,oh1 y don't "k :at a great s9n] ,i am2 b ,*ri/'s love is great] /ill4 ,!re 0 a helpful1 assur+1 sun%9y influ5ce ab\t h] piety :i* ,i h r>ely se5 or felt 9 any o!r human be+4 ,& almo/ daily1 dur+ all ! ye>s ( sep>ation1 ,i h be5 consci\s ( ?is influ5ce 9 my own life4 ,i rememb] h] z v retir+ 9 company1 ev5 among our own p4 ,b if !re 7 *ildr5 pres5t1 %e w\ld ga!r !m ab\t h] & hold !m spell-b\nd by h] talk4 ,oh1 %e 0 a m>vell\s /orytell]6 ,h[ (t5 h ,i se5 h] 9 ! mid/ ( a little gr\p1 :o1 all eyes & e>s1 gaz$ into h] face & eag]ly swall[$ e ^w1 :ile %e1 int5t on amus+ !m1 seem$ q unconsci\s t anybody else 0 9 ! room4 ,mr4 ,h---- us$ to say1 ,h[ ,i envy ^? *ildr5 & wi% ,i 7 "o ( !m6 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss receiv$ mu* att5tion f p]sons outside ( our congregation1 & :o1 f _! position & weal?1 7 pretty exclusive 9 _! habits4 ,b !y c\ld n resi/ ! attraction ( h] r>e gifts & accompli%m5ts4 ,new ,b$=d at t "t1 z y "k1 _h a good deal ( intellectual & social culture4 ,?is 0 p>ticul>ly ! case among ! ,unit>ians1 ^: m9i/]1 :5 y came to u1 0 t excell5t & v sup]ior man1 ! ,rev4 ,ephraim ,peabody1 ,d4,d41 aft]w>ds ( ,k+'s ,*apel 9 ,bo/on4 ,"o ( ! lead+ families ( 8 flock 0 ! ,arnold family1 ^: g>d5 & gr\nds 7 !n among ! f9e/ 9 ! ,/ate & at ^: h\se su* m5 z ,ri*>d ,h4 ,dana1 ! poet1 ! late ,pr(essor ,agassiz1 & o!rs em95t = _! lit]>y & sci5tific atta9m5ts1 7 (t5 to be se54 ,?is :ole family 7 w>mly atta*$ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 & aft] y left ,new ,b$=d1 (t5 ref]r$ to _! acqua9tance ) h] 9 ! mo/ affectionate mann]4 ,& ,i believe ,mr4 ,arnold & 8 daught] us$ to visit y 9 ,new ,york4 ,! fa!r1 "m1 daught]1 & aunt are all gone4 ,& :at a *ange h all ^! vani%$ ye>s wr\ght 9 ! ,s\? ,tr9it>ian society6 ,i c ?9k ( only six families !n wor%ipp+ !re1 t are wor%ipp+ !re n[4 ,b s long z a s+le "o rema9s1 ! memory ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w /ill be preci\s 9 ! old *ur*4 ,! /ory ( ! ,new ,b$=d ye>s may be told1 ) slight additions "h & !re1 by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' own p54 ,mo/ ( h] lett]s to h] own family are lo/2 b ! lett]s to h] husb&1 :5 occasionally sep>at$ f h]1 & o!rs to old fri5ds1 h be5 pres]v$ & af=d an almo/ cont9u\s n>rative ( ?is p]iod4 ,a few extracts f "s ( ^? writt5 9 #ahde1 w %[ 9 :at temp] ( m9d %e ent]$ ^u h] new life4 ,! fir/ is dat$ ,portl&1 ,janu>y bo?1 j aft] ,mr4 ,pr5tiss receiv$ ! call to ,new ,b$=d3 ,i h wi%$ all along1 beyond any?+ else1 n s mu* t we might h a pleasant home1 pleasant sc5]y & circum/ances1 good society & ! l1 z t we might h good1 holy influ5ces ab\t u1 & ,god's grace & love )9 u4 ,& = y1 de> ,george1 ,i did n s mu* desire ! intellectual & o!r attractions1 ab\t :i* we h talk$ sometimes1 z a dwell+-place among ^? :om y might tra9 heav5w>d or :o w\ld n be a h9drance 9 y\r j\rney ?i!r4 ,?r\gh ?is :ole affair ,i "k ,i h ?\ght inf9itely m ( y ?an ( myself4 ,& if y are happy at ! ,nor? ,pole %an't ,i be happy !re too8 ,i %all be he>tily ?ankful to see y a pa/or ) a p to love y4 ,only ,i %all be jeal\s ( !m4 ,to h] fri5d1 ,miss ,?ur/on1 %e writes f ,new ,b$=d1 ,april #bh?3 ,i ?ank y ) all my he>t = y\r lett] & = ! v pretty gift1 :i* ,i suppose to be ! "w ( y\r own h&s4 ,i c n tell y h[ inexpressibly de> to me are all ! expressions ( affection ,i h receiv$ & am receiv+ f old fri5ds4 ,we h be5 "h t5 days1 & v happy days !y h be5 to me1 not)/&+ ,i h _h to see s _m /range faces & to talk to s _m new p4 ,& bo? my si/] & ,anna tell me t ! fir/ mon?s ( m>ri$ life are succe$$ by f> happi] ones /ill2 s ,i %all g on my way rejoic+4 ,z to :at y\r bro!r says ab\t disappo9tm5t1 nobody believes 8 doctr9e bett] ?an ,i d2 b life is z full ( bless+s z x is ( disappo9tm5ts1 ,i conceive1 & if we only "k h[1 we may (t51 out ( m]e w1 get ! =m] in/ead ( ! latt]4 ,i h _h "s exp]i5ce ( ! conflict & dismay ( ?is pres5t evil _w2 b !n ,i h also _h "s ( its smiles4 ,nei!r ( ^! ev] made me angry ) ?is life1 or 9 love ) x4 ,i believe ,i am pretty cool & philosophical1 b x won't d = me at ?is e>ly day to be boa/+ ( :at is 9 me4 ,i %all h to wait till circum/ances br+ x out4 ,i c only answ] = ! pa/ & ! pres5t--! "o hav+ be5 bless$ & gladd5$ & ! o!r be+ made happy & *e]ful by lov] & husb&4 ,i'll tell y truly1 z ,i promis$ to d1 if my he>t s+s ano!r tune on ! #ag? ( ,april1 #ahdh4 ,i only hope ,i %all ent] sob]ly & ?ankfully on my new life1 expect+ sun%9e & ra91 dr\ght & pl5ty1 heat & cold--& adapt+ myself to alt]nations cont5t$ly--b :o kn[s8 ,we are bo>d+ at a hotel1 :i* is n ov] pleasant4 ,h[ev]1 we h two good rooms & h home ?+s ab\t u4 ,i l to sit at "w :ile ,mr4 ,pr5tiss writes 8 s]mons & he likes to h me--s1 = ! pres5t1 a /udy c be disp5s$ )4 ,9 a few weeks we hope to get to h\sekeep+4 ,i l ,new ,b$=d v mu*4 ,to h] husb& %e writes1 ,june #ah3 ,i c n help writ+ y aga91 ?\gh ,i did s5d y a lett] la/ night4 ,x is a v pleasant morn+1 & ,i ?9k ( y all ! "t & love y ) ! happie/ te>s 9 my eyes4 ,i h j be5 mak+ "s nice crispy g+]bread to s5d ,mrs4 ,h----1 z %e has no appetite1 & ,i ?\ght any?+ f home w\ld ta/e good to h]4 ,i hope ?is w please y4 ,"m call$ ) me to see h] ye/]day4 ,%e looks v ill4 ,i h no idea %e w ev] get well4 ,we _h a nice "t at ! g>d5 la/ night4 ,mr4 & ,miss ,arnold came out & walk$ ) u ne>ly an h\r1 ?\gh tea 0 wait+ = !m1 & ,miss ,a4 0 v p>ticul>ly att5tive to me 7= y\r de> sake671 & gave me fl[]s1 beautiful ones1 & spoke ) mu* int]e/ ( y\r s]mons4 ,oh1 ,i am ready to jump = joy1 :5 ,i ?9k ( see+ y home aga94 ,d please be glad z ,i am4 ,i suppose y\r "m wants y too2 b !n %e c't love y z ,i d--,i'm sure %e c't--) all ! *ildr5 among :om %e has to divide h] he>t4 ,give my be/ love to h] & ,abby4 ,h[ ,i wi% ,i 7 9 ,portl&1 help+ y pack y\r books4 ,b ,i c't write any m z we are go+ to ,mrs4 ,gibbs' to tea4 ,"m is read+ ,hamlet 9 h] room4 ,%e is enjoy+ h]self v mu*4 ,mrs4 ,gibbs1 ^: "n occurs 9 ?is lett]1 0 "o ( ^? ine/imable fri5ds1 :o fulfill ! (fice ( "m1 z x 71 to ! "y m9i/]'s wife4 ,%e 0 t5d]ly atta*$ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & h] lov+-k9dness1 :i* 0 new e morn+ & fre% e ev5+1 ceas$ only ) h] life4 ,h] husb&1 ! late ,capt4 ,rob]t ,gibbs1 0 l h] 9 unwe>i$ devotion to bo? ! pa/or & ! pa/or's wife4 ,! summ] 0 pass$ 9 gett+ settl$ 9 h] new home1 & receiv+ visits f old fri5ds4 ,e>ly 9 ! autumn %e sp5t sev]al weeks 9 ,portl&4 ,aft] h] return1 ,nov4 #b1 %e writes to ,miss ,?ur/on3 ,i 0 9 ,portl& aft] y _h left1 & got q re/$ & recruit$ aft] my summ]'s fatigue1 s t ,i came home ) heal? & /r5g?1 if n to lay my h& to ! pl\gh1 to apply x to ! broom-h&le & o!r articles ( dome/ic w>f>e4 ,j :at ,i expect$ w\ld befall me has happ5$4 ,i h got imm]s$ 9 ! :irlpool ( petty c>es & conc]ns :i* swall[ up s _m o!r & high] int]e/s1 & talk z anxi\sly ab\t good help & bad1 z ! re/ ( 'em d4 ,i sometimes feel really a%am$ ( myself to see h[ virtu\sly ,i fancy ,i am sp5d+ my "t1 if 9 ! kit*51 & h[ x seems to be wa/$ if ,i v5ture to take up a book4 ,i take x t wives :o h no love & en?usiasm = _! husb&s are m to be piti$ ?an blam$ if !y settle d[n into m]e cooks & good manag]s4444 ,we h _h "r pleasant times s9ce com+ home2 nev] pleasant] ?an :51 = a day or two1 ,i 0 )\t help1 & my husb& gr\nd c(fee & drew wat] = me1 & ?\ght ev]y?+ ,i made ta/$ good4 ,"o ( ! deacons ( our *ur*--a v old man--prays = me once a week at meet+1 especially t my husb& & ,i may be mutual com=ts & enjoym5ts ( ea* o!r1 :i* makes u laugh a little 9 our sleeves1 ev5 :ile we say ,am5 9 our he>ts4 ,we h be5 read+ al\d ,m>y ,h[itt's ,au?or's ,daught]1 :i* is a v good /ory inde$--don't ask me if ,i h read any?+ else4 ,my m9d has become a complete mummy1 & !re=e incapable ( ei!r receiv+ or orig9at+ a new idea4 ,i did wade ?r\gh a sea ( words1 & nons5se on my way home 9 ! %ape ( two works ( ,pr(4 ,wilson--,! ,=e/]s & ,m>g>et ,l9dsay--:i* ,i fancy he wrote be=e he 0 out ( 8 "m's arms or soon aft] leav+ !m4 ,! girls 9 ,portl& are m>ry+ (f l all possess$4 ,x rem9ds me ( a %ovel full ( popcorn1 :i* ! m y wat* x ! m x won't pop1 till at la/ x all goes racket+ (f at once1 pop1 pop1 pop2 )\t y\r hav+ "t to say ,jack ,rob9son betwe54 ,my position z wife ( a m9i/] secures = me _m affectionate att5tions1 & op5s to me _m little *annels ( happ9ess1 :i* conspire to make me feel cont5t$ & at home "h4 ,i d n "k h[ a /rang] w\ld f9d ,new ,b$=d p1 b ,i am incl9$ to ?9k society is h>d to get into1 ?\gh its he>t is w>m :5 y once d get 94 ,we are v pleasantly situat$1 & our m>ri$ life has be5 abundantly bless$4 ,i d\bt if we c\ld fail to be cont5t$ any:]e if we _h ea* o!r to love & c>e =4 ,we w5t to he> ,templeton s+ la/ night4 ,i 0 p]fectly *>m$ ) 8 hunt+ song & ) "s o!rs1 & bett] judges ?an ,i 7 equally delight$4 ,i _h a lett] f ,abby la/ week4 ,%e is 9 ,vicksburg & 9 f9e spirits1 & fa/ return+ heal?4 ,h] lett]s dur+ #ahdf gl[ ) ! sun%9e ( dome/ic peace & joy4 ,9 its e>li] mon?s h] heal? 0 unusually good & %e depicts h] happ9ess z some?+ wond]ful4 ,all ! day long h] he>t1 %e says1 0 runn+ ov] ) a love & delight %e c\ld n beg9 to express4 ,b h] lett]s also %[ t already %e 0 hav+ =eta/es ( t baptism ( suff]+1 :i* 0 to fit h] = do+ h] ,ma/]'s "w4 ,9 ,janu>y %e revisit$ ,portl&1 :]e %e _h ! pleasure ( meet+ ,pr(1 & ,mrs4 ,hopk9s ) _! little boy1 & ( pass+ sev]al weeks 9 ! society ( h] own & h] husb&'s family4 ,b ,portl& _h n[ lo/ = h] mu* ( its attraction4 ,i've se5 all ! folks1 %e wrote1 & we've said ab\t all we've got to say to ea* o!r1 & ?\gh ,i love to be at home1 ( c\rse1 x is n ! home x us$ to be be=e y _h made su* ano!r de>1 de> home = me4 ,oh1 d y miss me8 d y feel a little bit sorry y let me leave y8 ,d say1 yes4444 ,b ,i c't write1 ,i am s happy6 ,i am s glad ,i am go+ home6 ,e>ly 9 ,decemb] h] fir/ *ild 0 born4 ,writ+ a few weeks lat] to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 %e ?us ref]s to ?is ev5t3 ,:at a _w ( new s5sations & emotions come ) ! fir/ *ild6 ,i 0 q unprep>$ = ! ru% ( /range feel+s--/ill m s = ! sadd5+ & *a/5+ effect4 ,:y %\ld ! _w seem m ?an ev] empty :5 "o has j ga9$ ! treasure ( a liv+ & d>l+ *ild8 ,! sadd5+ effect 9 h] own case 0 ow+ 9 "p1 no d\bt1 to anxiety occasion$ by ! fatal illness ( h] husb&'s elde/ si/]1 to :om %e 0 t5d]ly atta*$4 ,! foll[+ lett] 0 writt5 "u ! pressure ( ?is anxiety3 ,to ,miss ,?ur/on1 ,new ,b$=d1 ,jan4 #ca1 #ahdg ,i d>e say ! idea ( ,lizzy ,payson ) a baby seems q funny to y1 z x does to _m ( ! ,portl& girls2 b ,i assure y x doesn't seem 9 ! lea/ funny to me1 b z natural z life & ,i may add1 z wond]ful1 almo/4 ,%e is a nice little plump creature1 ) a f9e head ( d>k hair :i* ,i take "s com=t 9 bru%+ r\nd a quill to make x curl1 & a pair ( intellig5t eyes1 ei!r black or blue1 nobody kn[s :i*4 ,i f9d ! c>e ( h] v we>+1 & h cri$ ev] s _m times f fatigue & anxiety1 b n[ ,i am gett+ a little bett] & %e pays me = all ,i d4 ,%e is a sweet1 good little ?+1 h] *ief fault be+ a t5d5cy to dissipation & sitt+ up late o' nights4 ,! ladies ( our *ur* h made h] a beautiful little w>drobe1 =tunately = me4 ,i _h a lot ( company all summ]2 my si/]1 h] husb& & boy1 ,mr4 ,/e>ns & ,anna1 ,"m ,pr5tiss1 ,julia ,willis1 etc4 ,i _h also my la/ visit f ,abby1 :om ,i little ?\ght !n ,i %\ld nev] see aga94 ,our happ9ess 9 our little "o has be5 *eck$ by our con/ant anxiety ) reg>d to ,abby's heal?1 & x is v h>d n[ = me to give up "o :o has become 9 e s5se a si/]1 & n ev5 to h ! privilege ( bidd+ h] f>ewell4 ,george w5t d[n ab\t a week s9ce & w rema9 till all is ov]4 ,i d n ev5 "k t :ile ,i write %e is yet liv+4 ,%e _h only "o wi% rema9+ & t 0 to see ,george1 & %e 0 q h]self ! day ( 8 arrival1 z also ! day foll[+1 & able to say all %e desir$4 ,s9ce !n %e has be5 r unconsci\s ( :at 0 pass+1 & ,i f]v5tly tru/ t by ?is "t h] suff]+s are ov] & t %e is :]e %e long$ & pray$ to be4 #a ,y c h no idea h[ alike are ! emotions occasion$ by a bir? & a dea? 9 ! family4 ,!y seem equally solemn to me & ,i am full ( wond] at ! my/]i\s new _w into :i* ,i h be5 ?r[n4 ,i us$ to ?9k t ! *ange ,i saw 9 "y1 giddy girls :5 !y became mo!rs1 0 ow+ to suff]+ & c>e we>+ ^u ! spirits1 b ,i see n[ t its true s\rce lies f> deep]4 ,my bro!r ,h4 has be5 m>ri$ a c\ple ( mon?s1 s ,i h "o si/] m4 ,i %all be glad :5 !y are all m>ri$4 ,"s si/]s seem to feel t _! bro!rs are lo/ to !m on _! m>riage1 b if ,i may judge by my husb&1 !re is fully z mu* ga9 z loss4 ,i am sure no son or bro!r c\ld be m devot$ to "m & si/]s ?an he is4 ,( c\rse ! baby is 8 p]fect com=t & delight2 b ,i ne$ n enl>ge on ?is po9t1 z ,i suppose y h se5 papas ) _! fir/ babies4 ,a great suck+ ( a v small ?umb admoni%es me t ! little lady 9 ! crib m$itates cry+ = supp]1 s ,i mu/ hurry (f my lett]4 ,abby ,lewis ,pr5tiss di$ on ,saturday1 ,janu>y #cj1 #ahdg1 at ! age ( ?irty-two4 ,long & we>isome suff]+s1 su* z usually att5d pulmon>y disease1 prec$$ ! f9al /ruggle4 ,x 0 t[>d ! close ( a /ormy w9t]'s day1 t %e g5tly fell asleep4 ,a little :ile be=e %e _h imag9$ h]self 9 a v beautiful region :i* h] tongue 9 va9 attempt$ to describe1 surr\nd$ by ^? %e lov$4 ,among h] la/ half-consci\s utt]ances 0 ! "n ( h] bro!r ,se>g5t4 ,! next morn+ witness$ a sc5e ( su* wondr\s spl5dor & lovel9ess z made ! pres5ce ( ,dea? seem almo/ incr$ible4 ,! sn[-fall & mi/ & gloom _h ceas$2 & z ! sun rose1 cle> & respl5d5t1 e visible object--! e>?1 trees1 h\ses--%one z if enamel$ ) gold & pe>ls & preci\s /ones4 ,x 0 ! ,"l's day2 & well did ! aspect ( nature symbolise ! glory ( ,him1 :o is ! ,resurrection & ! ,life4 ,on receiv+ ! news ( 8 si/]'s dea?1 h] bro!r ,se>g5t1 writ+ to 8 "m1 ?us depict$ h] "*3 ,my he>t ble$s to ! core1 z ,i sit d[n to m+le my te>s ) y\rs1 my de>1 belov$ "m4 ,i c n realise t x is all ov]2 t ,i %all nev] aga91 9 ?is _w1 see our de>1 de> ,abby4 ,gladly w\ld ,i h giv5 my own life to pres]ve h]s4 ,b we h consolation1 ev5 9 our extreme grief2 = %e 0 s good t we "k %e is n[ 9 heav51 & fre$ f all c>e1 unless x be t h] affectionate he>t is /ill tr\bl$ = u1 :om %e lov$ s well4 ,we c dwell ) satisfaction1 aft] we h ov]come ! fir/ %>pness ( our grief1 ^u h] angel-l qualities1 :i* made h]1 long be=e %e di$1 fit = ! heav5 :]e %e n[ is4444 ,y h lo/ ! pure/1 noble/1 & be/ ( daught]s2 ,i1 a si/]1 :o nev] to my k did a selfi% act or utt]$ a selfi% ?\ght4 ,) ! exception ( y\rself1 de> "m1 %e 01 ( all our family circle1 ! be/ prep>$ to ent] h] ,fa!r's h\se4 ,"s extracts f lett]s writt5 at ?is "t1 w %[ ! t5d]ness ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' si/]ly love & sympa?y1 & give a glimpse also ( h] ?\ghts & occupations z a "y "m4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,new ,b$=d1 ,feb4 #ag1 #ahdg ,if ,i lov$ y less1 my de> ,anna1 ,i c\ld write y tw5ty lett]s :]e ,i n[ c h>dly get c\rage to und]take "o4 ,h[ v de>ly ,i d love y ,i nev] knew1 till x ru%$ ^u my m9d t we might sometime lose y z we h lo/ de> ,abby4 ,h[ my/]i\sly y\r & ,m>y's & my baby are giv5 u j at ?is v "t1 :5 our he>ts are s sore t we are almo/ afraid to expose !m to new suff]+s by tak+ 9 new objects ( affection6 ,b x does seem to me a great m]cy t1 try+ z x is 9 _m respects1 ^! bir?s & ?is dea? come almo/ h& 9 h&4 ,surely we ?ree "y mo!rs h le>n$ lessons ( life t mu/ influ5ce u =ev] 9 relation to ^! little ones6 ,i h be5 l "o 9 ! mid/ ( a great cl\d1 s9ce ! bir? ( our baby1 entirely unconsci\s h[ mu* ,i love h]2 b ,i am j beg9n+ to take com=t 9 & feel s5sible affection = h]4 ,i long to %[ ! de> little good creature to y4 ,b ,i c h>dly give up my long-*]i%$ plans & hopes 9 reg>d to ,abby's see+ & lov+ our fir/ *ild4 ,almo/ z mu* z ,i dep5d$ on ! sympa?y & affection ( my own "m 9 relation to ?is baby1 ,i 0 dep5d+ on ,abby's4 ,b ,i rejoice t %e is :]e %e is1 & w\ld n h h] back aga9 9 ?is _w ( s9 & conflict & labor1 = a ?\s& times ! com=t h] pres5ce c\ld give4 ,b y don't "k h[ ,i dread go+ home next summ] & n f9d+ h] !re6 ,x 0 a great m]cy t y c\ld g d[n aga91 de> ,anna4 ,& inde$ !re are manifold m]cies 9 ?is affliction--h[ _m we may nev] "k1 till we get home to heav5 ourselves & f9d1 p]haps1 t ?is 0 "o ( ! invisible p[]s t help$ u on our way ?i!r4 ,i _h a sweet little note f y\r "m to-day4 ,i w\ld give any?+ if ,i c\ld g "r home1 & make h] adopt me z h] daught] by a new adoption1 & be a real bless+ & com=t to h] 9 ?is lonely1 d>k "t4 ,eddy ,hopk9s calls my baby 84 ,h[ *ildr5 want to use ! possessive case 9 reg>d to e object ( int]e/6 ,i f9d ! blanket t ,mrs4 ,gibbs knit = me s inf9itely pref]able1 f its ela/icity1 to common flannel1 t ,i c\ld n help knitt+ "o = y4 ,if ,i say t ,i h ?\ght z _m affectionate ?\ghts to y1 :ile knitt+ x1 z x conta9s /it*es1 ,i fancy ,i speak no?+ b tru? & sob]ness--= ,i love y n[ ) ! love ,i h return$ on my he>t f ,abby1 :o no long] is 9 want ( e>?ly fri5ds4 ,de> little baby ?\ght ,i 0 knitt+ = h] special pleasure1 = h] bright eyes w\ld always foll[ ! ne$les z %e lay ^u my lap1 & %e w\ld smile n[ & !n z if ?ank+ me = my tr\ble4 ,! ladies h giv5 h] an elegant cloak1 & ,miss ,arnold has j s5t h] a little :ite sat9 bonnet t 0 made 9 ,engl&1 & is q unlike any?+ ,i ev] saw4 ,only to ?9k1 ,i walk$ d[n to *ur* la/ ,sunday & he>d ,george prea* once m6 ,m>* #c;d4--,we c\ld ) difficulty1 & by tak+ turns1 get ?r\gh read+ y\r lett]--n only because y s accurately describe our own feel+s 9 reg>d to de> ,abby1 b because we feel s ke5ly = y4 ,i (t5 detect myself ?9k+1 ,n[ ,i w sit d[n & write ,abby a nice long lett]2 or imag9+ h[ %e w act :5 we g home ) our baby2 & z y say1 ,i dream ab\t h] almo/ e night4 ,i us$ always to dream ( h] z suff]+ & dy+1 b n[ ,i see h] j z %e 0 :5 well1 & he> h] advis+ ?is & sugge/+ t1 j z ,i did :5 %e 0 "h la/ summ]4 ,life seems s diff]5t n[ f :at x did6 ,x seems to me t my y\? has be5 t\*$ by ,abby's dea?1 & t ,i c nev] be s *e]ful & light-he>t$ z ,i h be54 ,b1 de> ,anna1 ?\gh ,i d\bt n ?is is /ill m ! case ) y1 & t y see f> deep] into ! realities ( life ?an ,i d1 we h bo? ! consolations t are to be f\nd 9 ,*ri/--& ^! w rema9 to u :5 ! buoyancy & ! y\?ful _s h gone f our he>ts4 ,m>* #ab?4 444 ,i _h be5 read+ a m>riage s]mon to ,george f ,m>tyria1 & we 7 hav+ a nice conjugal talk j z y\r little /rang] 0 com+ into ! _w4 ,g4 is s hurri$ & driv5 t he c n get a mom5t 9 :i* to write4 ,he has a fun]al ?is aft]noon1 t ( ,mrs4 ,h41 a lady :om he has visit$ = two ye>s1 & a "p1 if n all1 ( t "t once a week4 ,i h made sev]al calls s9ce ,i wrote y la/--two ( !m to see babies1 "o ( :om took ! %9e q (f ( m9e ) 8 great blue-black eyes & eyela%es t lay halfway d[n 8 *eeks4 ,! latt] "p ( ,april %e visit$ ,portl&2 :ile !re %e wrote to h] husb&1 ,april #bg3 ,j z ,i _h ! baby to sleep & ?is lett] dat$1 ,i 0 call$ d[n to see ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,dwight & _! little ,willie4 ,! baby woke be=e !y _h f9i%$ _! call1 & behav$ z prettily & look$ z bright & lovely z he>t c\ld wi%4 ,dr4 ,dwight held h] a long "t & kiss$ h] he>tily4 #b ,i got y\r lett] soon aft] d9n]1 & f ! ha/e & ! je ne sais quoi ) :i* x 0 writt51 ,i fe>$ y 7 n well4 ,alas1 ,i am full ( love & fe>4 ,h[ came y to walk to ,d>tm\? to prea*8 ,wasn't x by f> too long a walk to take 9 "o day8 ,i he>d ,dr4 ,c>ru!rs on ,sunday aft]noon4 ,he made ! f9e/ allusion to my fa!r ,i ev] he>d & "m ?\ght ( x z ,i did4 ,to-day ,i h _h a good _m call]s--among ! re/ ,deacon ,l9coln4 #c ,:5 he saw ! baby he said1 ,oh1 :at a homely creature4 ,d tell if ! ,new ,b$=d babies are s ugly8 ,mrs4 ,s41 ?9k+ him 9 e>ne/1 rose up 9 high dudgeon & said1 ,:y1 we ?9k h] beautiful1 ,deacon ,l9coln4 ,well1 ,i don't wond]1 said he4 ,i expect %e w get measles & ev]y?+ else1 = lots ( *ildr5 come to see h] & eat h] up4 ,"m1 baby & ,i sp5d to-morr[ at y\r "m's4 ,d up a lot ( sleep+ & gr[ fat1 pray d6 ,& oh1 love me & ?9k ,i am a d>l+ little wife1 & write me lov+ words 9 y\r next lett]4 ,w$nesday4--,we h a f9e day = go+ up to y\r "m's4 ,& ! baby is bright z a button & full ( fun4 ,ar5't y glad8 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,portl&1 ,may #bb1 #ahdg ,we h j be5 hav+ a little quiet ,saturday ev5+ talk ab\t de> ,abby1 z we sat "h be=e ! light+ ( ! lamps1 & ,i d>e say ,i 0 n ! only "o :o wi%$ y "h too4 ,i came up "h f my "m's on ,monday morn+ & h _h a delightful week4 ,i c n beg9 to tell y h[ glad ,i am t we are go+ to make y a little visit on our way home4 ,i d s want to see y & y\r *ildr51 & %[ y our d>l+ little baby t ,i c h>dly wait till ! "t comes4 ,i suppose y h got y\r little folks (f to b$1 & s if y w take a peep into ! p>lor "h y w see h[ we are all occupi$--"m 9 h] rock+-*air1 ) h] specs on1 /udy+ my ,dewees on ,*ildr52 ,george toe to toe ) h]1 read+ "s old ,g]man book1 & ,l9a #d curl$ ^u ! s(a1 asleep ,i fancy1 :ile ,i sit 9 ! corn] & write y f de> ,abby's desk ) h] p54 ,m]cy & ,sophia wat* ov] ! cradle 9 ! d9+-room1 :]e "m's fifte5? gr&*ild reposes1 unconsci\s ( ! honor ( sleep+ :]e honorables1 rev]5ds1 & rev]5desses h slumb]$ be=e h]4 ,h[ /range x seems t my baby is "o ( ?is family--bone ( _! bone1 & fle% ( _! fle%6 ,i ne$ n say h[ ,i miss de> ,abby1 = y w see at once t t :i* 0 mon?s ago a reality to y1 has j become su* to me4 ,x pa9s me to my he>t's core to he> h[ %e suff]$4 ,de>1 de> ,abby6 h[ ,i did love h]1 & h[ ?ankful ,i am = h] example to imitate & h] excell5cies to rejoice 96 ,y\r uncle ,james ,lewis #e sp5t la/ night "h1 & ?is morn+ he pray$ a delightful pray]1 :i* really s(t5$ my :ole s\l4 ,i d n "k :5 ,i h _h my own wants s f]v5tly express$1 or be5 m edifi$ at family wor%ip1 & 8 allusion to ,abby 0 v t\*+4 ,! foll[+ extracts f lett]s writt5 to h] husb&1 :ile he 0 abs5t 9 ,ma9e1 may be ?\ght by "s to g a little too mu* into ! trifl+ details ( daily life & feel+1 b d n su* details aft] all =m no small "p ( ! moral w>p & wo( ( human exp]i5ce8 ,to h] husb& ,new ,b$=d1 ,augu/ #bg?4 ,i he>d ?is morn+ t old ,mrs4 ,k5drick 0 ?reat5$ ) typhus fev]1 & w5t d[n soon aft] breakfa/ to see h[ %e did1 &1 z ,i f\nd ,mrs4 ,h5rietta _h wat*$ ) h] & 0 look+ all worn out1 ,i begg$ h] to let me h h] baby ?is aft]noon1 t %e might h a *ance to re/2 s1 aft] d9n]1 ,sophia w5t d[n & got h]4 ,at fir/ %e set up a lam5table scream1 b we huddl$ on h] cloak & put h] ) our baby into ! c>riage & gave !m a ride4 ,%e is a prop] heavy baby1 & my legs a*e well ) trott+ r\nd ! /reets aft] ! c>riage4 ,?9k ( me z (t5 z y c & pray = me1 & ,i w ?9k ( y & pray = y all ! "t4 ,tuesday ,ev5+4--,y see ,i am writ+ y a sort ( little j\rnal1 z y say y l to "k all ,i d :ile y are away4 ,our sweet baby makes y\r abs5ce f> less intol]able ?an x us$ to be be=e %e came to com=t me4444 ,i h felt all s\l & z if ,i _h no body1 ev] s9ce y\r preci\s lett] came ?is morn+4 ,i h s pleas$ myself ) imag9+ h[ funny & nice x w\ld be if ,i c\ld creep 9 unp]ceiv$ by y1 & he> y\r oration6 ,i long to "k h[ y got ?r\gh1 & :at ,mr4 ,/e>ns & ,mr4 ,smi? ?\ght ( x4 ,i always pray = y m :5 y are away ?an ,i d :5 y are at home1 because ,i "k y are int]rupt$ & h9d]$ ab\t y\r devotions m or less :5 j\rney+4 ,i h _h call]s a great "p ( to-day1 among !m ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,mrs4 ,g54 ,?ompson1 ,mrs4 ,r&all1 & ,capt4 ,cl>k4 #f ,capt4 ,c4 ask$ = nobody b ! baby4 ,! little creature almo/ sprang into 8 arms4 ,he 0 mu* gratifi$ & held h] a long :ile1 kiss+ & c>ess+ h]4 ,i ?9k x 0 pretty "w = y to g to read+ y\r oration to y\r "m & old ,mrs4 ,coe1 :5 y hadn't read x to me4 ,i felt a t]rible pang ( jeal\sy :5 ,i came to t 9 y\r lett]4 ,i am go+ n[ to call on ,miss ,arnold4 ,friday1 ,sept1 #c;d4--,ye/]day =5oon ,i 0 p]fectly wret*$4 ,x came ov] me1 z ?+s w 9 spite ( u1 ,suppose he didn't get safely to ,brunswick6 & = sev]al h\rs ,i c\ld n %ake x (f4 ,x _h all ! p[] ( reality1 & made me s fa9t t ,i c\ld d no?+ & fairly _h to g to b$4 ,i suppose x 0 v silly1 & if ,i _h n tri$ 9 e way to rise above x might h be5 ev5 wick$1 b x fright5$ me to f9d h[ mu* ,i am "u ! p[] ( m]e feel+ & fancy4 ,b d n laugh at me4 ,sometimes ,i say to myself1 ,:at ,,madness to love any human be+ s int5sely6 ,:at w\ld become ( y if he 7 snat*$ f y8 & !n ,i ?9k t ?\gh ,god ju/ly d5ies u com=t & support = ! future1 & bids u lean ^u ,him n[ & tru/ ,him = ! re/1 ,he c give u /r5g? = ! endurance ( ,8 mo/ t]rible *a/isem5ts :5 _! h\r comes4 ,saturday4--,i am a m]e baby :5 ,i ?9k ( y\r gett+ sick 9 ?is "t ( almo/ univ]sal sickness & sorr[ & dea?4444 ,ye/]day ,mrs4 ,gibbs & ,mrs4 ,leon>d took me1 ) ,sophia & baby1 to ! cemet]y1 & on a long ride ( ?ree h\rs--all ( :i* 0 delightful4 ,9 ! aft]noon baby _h an ill-turn :i* al>m$ me excessively1 because s _m *ildr5 are sick1 b ,i gave h] m$ic9e & ?9k %e w soon be well aga94 ,mrs4 ,gibbs & ,mrs4 ,r&all & o!rs s5t me ye/]day a doz5 l>ge pea*es1 two melons1 a lot ( %ell-beans & tomatoes1 a di% ( blackb]ries & "s fri$ corn-cakes--n an atom ( ! :ole ( :i* %all ,i t\*1 ta/e1 h&le1 or smell2 s y ne$ n fe> my kill+ myself4 ,mrs4 ,capt4 ,delano1 :]e ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,brock f ,engl& /ay$1 has j lo/ two *ildr5 aft] a few days' illness4 ,!y 7 buri$ 9 "o c(f94 ,old ,gideon ,h[l&1 ! ri*e/ man "h1 is also dead4 ,! pap]s are full ( dea?s4 ,our de> baby is n9e mon?s old to-day1 & may ,god1 if ,he sees be/1 sp>e h] to u z _m m2 & if ,he does n1 ,i feel z if ,i c\ld give h] up to ,him--b we don't "k :at we c d till ! "t comes4 ,i he> h] sweet little voice d[n /airs & x s\nds happy1 s ,i guess %e feels pretty com=table4 ,sabba? ,ev5+4--,! baby is bett]1 & ,i d>e say x is my imag9ation t says %e looks pale & puny4 ,%e is n[ asleep 9 y\r /udy1 :]e too ,i am sitt+ 9 y\r *air4 ,i came d[n z soon z ,i c\ld ?is morn+1 & h /ay$ "h all day4 ,x is s quiet & pleasant among y\r books & pap]s1 & x 0 s dull up-/airs6 ,i ?\ght be=e y\r lett] came1 :ile /&+ ov] ! gre51 grassy graves ( ,lizzie ,read1 ,m>y ,rodman1 & ,mrs4 ,cadwell1 #g h[ ,i %\ld love to h de> ,abby 9 su* a gre51 sweet spot1 :]e we c\ld sometimes g toge!r to talk ( h]4 ,i mu/ own ,i %\ld l to be buri$ "u grass & trees1 r ?an cold /one & heavy m>ble4 ,%\ld n y8 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,bir? ( a ,son4 ,dea? ( h] ,"m4 ,h] ,grief4 ,lett]s4 ,eddy's ,illness & h] own ,c>es4 ,a ,family ,ga!r+ at ,newburyport4 ,extracts f ,eddy's ,j\rnal4 ,pass+ ov] ano!r ye>1 :i* 0 m>k$ by no incid5ts requir+ special m5tion1 we come aga9 to a bir? & a dea? 9 close conjunction4 ,on ! #bb;d ( ,octob]1 #ahdh1 h] second *ild1 ,edw>d ,payson1 0 born4 ,on ! #ag? ( ,novemb]1 h] "m di$4 ,( ! life ( ?is *ild %e h]self has left a m9ute record1 portions ( :i* w be giv5 lat]4 ,9 a lett] to 8 si/]1 dat$ ,new ,b$=d1 ,novemb] #ba/1 h] husb& ?us ref]s to h] "m's dep>ture3 ,we h j receiv$ ! sad intellig5ce ( ,"m ,payson's dea?4 ,%e pass$ away v peacefully1 z if go+ to sleep1 at half-pa/ five on ,friday aft]noon4 ,de> ,lizzy 0 at fir/ q ov]:elm$1 z ,i knew %e w\ld be--= h] atta*m5t to h] "m 0 uncommonly t5d] & devot$2 b %e is n[ p]fectly tranquil & w soon1 ,i tru/1 be able to ?9k ( h] irrep>able loss ) a melan*oly pleasure ev54 ,!re is mu* 9 ! case t is peculi>ly fitt$ to produce a *e]ful resignation4 ,mrs4 ,payson has be5 a sev]e suff]]2 & s9ce ! break+ up ( h] home 9 ,portl&1 %e has felt1 ,i ?9k1 an increas+ deta*m5t f ! _w4 ,i 0 exce$+ly /ruck ) ?is dur+ h] visit "h la/ w9t]4 ,%e seem$ to me to be fa/ rip5+ = heav54 ,x is su* a com=t to u t %e 0 able to "n our little boy6 #h ,mrs4 ,payson di$ 9 ! #fe? ye> ( h] age4 ,%e 0 a woman ( mo/ attractive & admirable qualities1 full ( *e]ful life & en]gy1 & a :ole-he>t$ disciple ( ,jesus4 ,a few extracts f ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' lett]s w %[ h[ deeply %e felt h] loss4 ,to h] y\nge/ bro!r %e writes3 ,h[ gladly ,i w\ld g1 if ,i c\ld1 to see y all1 & talk ov] ) y ! ?\s& ?+s t are fill+ our m9ds & he>ts6 ,we c n dra9 ?is bitt] cup at "o draught & !n g on our way z ?\gh x _h nev] be54 ,! loss ( a "m is nev] made up or aton$ =2 & ours 0 su* a "m2 s peculi> 9 h] devotion & t5d]ness & sympa?y6 ,i c n m\rn t h] sorr[ful pilgrimage is ov]1 c n ?9k = a mom5t ( wi%+ %e 7 /ill on e>?1 weep+ & pray+ & suff]+--b = myself & = y & = all ,i m\rn ) h\rly te>s4 ,%e has sacrific$ h]self = u4 ,to h] fri5d1 ,miss ,"l1 %e writes1 ,jan4 #ca3 ,x seems to me t e day & h\r ,i miss my de> "m m & m1 & ,i feel m & m pa9fully h[ mu* %e suff]$ dur+ h] la/ ye>s & mon?s4 ,de> ,l\ise1 ,i ?\ght ,i knew t %e c\ld n live long1 b ,i nev] realis$ x1 & ev5 n[ ,i keep try+ to hope t %e has n really gone4 ,j 9 ?is v spot :]e ,i n[ sit writ+1 my de> "m's great easy-*air us$ to sit1 & "h1 only a ye> ago1 %e 0 pray+ = & lov+ me4 ,o1 if ,i _h only kn[n %e 0 dy+ !n1 & c\ld h talk$ ) h] ab\t heav5 till x _h gr[n to seem+ l a home to :i* %e 0 go+1 & :i!r ,i %\ld foll[ h] soon] or lat]6 ,b x is all ov] & ,i w\ld n h h] "h aga91 if ! %ad[ ( a wi% c\ld re/ore h] to u4 ,i only e>ne/ly long to be fitt+1 day by day1 to meet h] aga9 9 heav54 ,god has m+l$ _m great m]cies ) ?is affliction1 & ,i d n "k t ,i ev] 9 my life s felt ! delight ( pray+ to & ?ank+ ,him4 ,:5 ,i beg9 to pray ,i h s mu* to ?ank ,him =1 t ,i h>dly "k h[ to /op4 ,i h always ?\ght ,i w\ld n = ! univ]se be left un*a/is$--& n[ ,i feel ! sm>t1 ,i /ill c say s4 ,lotty's visit 0 a great com=t & s]vice to me1 b ,i 0 v selfi% 9 talk+ to h] s mu* ab\t my own loss1 :ile %e 0 s great a suff]] "u h]s4 ,s9ce %e left my little boy has be5 worse ?an ev] & p9$ away la/ week v rapidly4 ,y c =m no idea1 by any description ( 8 suff]+s1 ( :at ! de> little creature has und]gone s9ce 8 bir?4 ,i feel a p]fect long+ to see ,portl& & "m's _m de> fri5ds !re1 especially y\r "m & a few l h]4 ,i am v tir$ z ,i h writt5 a great "p ( ?is ) baby 9 my lap--s ,i c write no m4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,feb4 #ag1 #ahdi4 ,de> little ,eddy has f\nd life altoge!r unk9d ?us f>1 & ,i h _h _m h\rs ( he>ta*e on 8 acc\nt b ,i hope he may wea!r ! /orm & come out safely yet4 ,! doctor exam9$ him all ov] ye/]day1 p>ticul>ly 8 head1 & said he c\ld n make him out a sick *ild1 b t he ?\ght 8 want ( fle% ow+ p>tly to 8 suff]+s b m to ! great loss ( sleep occasion$ by 8 suff]+s4 ,in/ead ( sleep+ twelve h\rs out ( ! tw5ty-f\r1 he sleeps b ab\t sev5 & t by means ( laudanum4 ,isn't x a m]cy t ,i h be5 able to be> s well ! fatigue & c>e & anxiety ( ^! f\r h>d mon?s8 ,i feel t ,i h no?+ to compla9 (1 & a great deal to be ?ankful =4 ,on ! :ole1 not)/&+ my grief ab\t my de> "m's loss1 & my p]plexity & di/ress ab\t baby1 ,i h _h z mu* real happ9ess ?is w9t] z x is possible = "o to glean 9 su* unfavorable circum/ances4 ,by f> ! greate/ trial ,i h to cont5d )1 is t ( los+ all p[] to control my "t4 ,a little room all ( my own1 & a regul> h\r1 morn+ & night1 all ( my own w\ld enable me1 ,i ?9k1 to say1 ,n[ let life d its wor/6 ,i am no /rang]1 ,i assure y1 to ! misgiv+s y describe 9 y\r la/ lett]2 ,i ?9k !m ! result ( ! wi% )\t ! w to be holy4 ,we pray = sanctification & !n are afraid ,god w sanctify u by /ripp+ u ( our idols & feel di/ress$ le/ we c n h !m & ,him too4 ,read+ ! life ( ,madame ,guyon gave me great pa9 & anxiety1 ,i rememb]4 ,i ?\ght t if su* spiritual d>kness & trial z %e 0 9 = _m ye>s1 0 a necess>y att5dant on em95t piety1 ,i c\ld n summon c\rage to try to live su* a life4 ,( all ! angui% 9 ! _w !re is no?+ l ?is--! s5se ( ,god1 )\t ! s5se ( ne>ness to ,him4 ,i wi% y w\ld always ?9k al\d :5 y write to me4 ,i long to see y & ! *ildr5 & ,mr4 ,s41 & s does ,george4 ,poor ,g4 has _h a v h>d "t ( x ev] s9ce little ,eddy's bir?--s mu* c>e & worry & sleeplessness & labor1 & h[ he is ev] to get any re/ ,i don't see4 ,^! are ! times t try our s\ls4 ,let nobody condole ) me ab\t our bodies4 ,x is ! /ruggle to be pati5t & g5tle & *e]ful1 :5 press$ d[n & worn ^u & di/ract$1 t co/s u s mu*4 ,i ?9k :5 ,i h _h all my *ildr51 if !re is any?+ left ( me1 ,i %all write ab\t ! ,battle ( ,life m eloqu5tly ?an ,dick5s has done4 ,i _h a pleasant dream ab\t "m & ,abby ! o!r night4 ,!y came toge!r to see me & bo? seem$ s well & s happy6 ,i feel p]fectly happy n[1 t my de> "m has gone home4 ,to ! ,same1 ,may #g1 #ahdi4 ,i us$ to ?9k x h>d to be sick :5 ,i _h de> "m hang+ ov] me1 do+ all %e c\ld = my relief1 b x is h>d] to be d5i$ ! poor com=t ( be+ let alone & to h to drag "o's self out ( b$ to take c>e ( a baby4 ,mr4 ,/e>ns mu/ "k h[ to pity me1 = my real sick heada*es are v l 81 & :5 rack$ ) pa91 dizzy1 fa9t & exhau/$ ) suff]+1 />vation & sleeplessness1 x is t]rible to h to walk ! room ) a cry+ *ild6 ,i ?\ght z ,i lay1 worn out ev5 to *ildi%ness1 oblig$ = ! baby's sake to h a bright sunlight /ream+ into ! *amb]1 & to keep my eyes & e>s on ! al]t = ! same cause1 h[ /ill we us$ to ?9k ! h\se mu/ be left :5 my fa!r _h ^! heada*es & h[ "m busi$ h]self all day long ab\t him1 & h[ nice 8 little plate ( hot /eak us$ to look1 z he sat up to eat x :5 ! sickness _h gone--& h[ ,i am suff]+ "h all alone ) nobody to give me ev5 a look ( enc\ragem5t4 ,george 0 out ( t[n on my sicke/ day4 ,:5 he 0 at home he did ev]y?+ 9 ! _w he c\ld d to keep ! *ildr5 /ill1 b "h !y mu/ be & ,i mu/ direct ab\t e trifle & h !m on ! b$ ) me4 ,i am gett+ desp]ate & feel dispos$ to run furi\sly 9 ! traces till ,i drop dead on ! way4 ,don't ?9k me v wick$ = say+ s4 ,i am jad$ 9 s\l & body & h>dly "k :at ,i d want4 ,if ,t4 comes1 ,george1 at all ev5ts1 w get relief & t w take a burd5 f my m9d4444 ,i want ,l9a to come ?is summ]4 ,!re is a spl5did sw+ on iron hooks "u a tree1 at ! h\se we are go+ to move into4 ,won't t be nice = ,jeanie & ,m>y's o!r *ildr51 if !y come8 ,i wi% ,i _h a little =tune1 n = myself b to ga!r my folks toge!r )4 ,i %all n write y1 my de>1 ano!r compla9+ lett]2 d excuse ?is4 ,?is lett] %[s ! extremity ( h] tr\ble2 b x is a picture1 m]ely4 ,! reality 0 some?+ beyond description2 only "y mo!rs1 :o "k x by exp]i5ce1 c und]/& its full mean+4 ,n[1 h[ev]1 ! /orm = a :ile abat$4 ,! "y relative1 ^: lov+ devotion _h m9i/]$ to ! com=t ( h] dy+ "m1 came to h] own relief & pass$ ! next six mon?s at ,new ,b$=d1 help+ take c>e ( ,eddy4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! spr+1 too1 8 wor/ symptoms disappe>$ & hope took ! place ( fe> & despond5cy4 ,ref]r+ to ?is p]iod1 8 "m writes 9 ,eddy's j\rnal3 ,on ! ,saturday succe$+ 8 bir?1 we he>d ( my de> "m's s]i\s illness1 &1 :5 he 0 ab\t ?ree weeks old1 ( h] dea?4 ,we 7 n surpris$ t 8 heal? suff]$ f ! %ock x ?us receiv$4 ,he began at once to be affect$ ) di/ress+ colic1 :i* gave him no re/ day or night4 ,8 fa!r us$ to call him a little m>tyr1 & su* inde$ he 0 = _m long1 t$i\s mon?s4 ,on ! #af? ( ,febru>y1 ! doctor came & sp5t two h\rs 9 c>efully inve/igat+ 8 case4 ,he said x 0 a mo/ try+ condition ( ?+s1 & he w\ld gladly d some?+ to relieve me1 z he ?\ght ,i _h be5 ?r\gh en\gh to kill t5 m54 444 ,:5 ,eddy 0 ab\t eight mon?s old1 ! doctor det]m9$ to discont9ue ! use ( opiates4 ,he 0 n[ a f9e1 heal?y baby1 bright-ey$ & beautiful1 & 8 colic 0 r$uc+ itself to c]ta9 seasons on ea* day1 in/ead ( occupy+ ! :ole day & night z h]et(ore4 ,we w5t ?r\gh fire & wat] almo/ 9 try+ to procure = him natural sleep4 ,we swung him 9 blankets1 :eel$ him 9 little c>ts1 walk$ ! room ) him by ! h\r1 etc41 etc41 b x 0 wond]ful h[ little sleep he obta9$ aft] all4 ,he always look$ wide awake & z if he did n ne$ sleep4 ,8 eyes _h gradually become black1 & :51 aft] a day ( fatigue & c>e ) him he w\ld at la/ close !m1 & we w\ld flatt] ourselves t n[ we too %\ld snat* a little re/1 we w\ld see !m %9+ ^u u 9 ! mo/ amus+ mann] ) an expression ( cont5t & ev5 m]rim5t4 ,ab\t ?is "t he 0 baptiz$4 ,i well rememb] h[ 9 8 fa!r's /udy1 & be=e tak+ him to *ur*1 we gave him to ,god4 ,he 0 v good :ile 8 papa 0 p]=m+ ! c]emony1 & look$ s bright & s well1 t _m :o _h nev] se5 him 9 8 /ate ( feebl5ess1 f\nd x h>d to believe he _h be5 aught save a vigor\s & heal?y *ild4 ,my own heal? 0 n[ s brok5 d[n by long sleeplessness & fatigue1 t x became necess>y = me to leave home = a season4 ,dr4 ,mayhew promis$ to run 9 e day to see t all w5t well ) ,eddy4 ,8 auntie 0 m ?an will+ to take ?is c>e ^u h]self1 & _m ( our neighbors (f]$ to g (t5 to see him1 promis+ to d ev]y?+ = 8 safety & com=t if ,i w\ld only g4 ,n aw>e h[ mis]able a /ate ,i 0 91 ,i resolv$ to be abs5t only "o week1 b 0 away = a :ole mon?4 ,a "p ( ! mon?1 ) h] husb& & little daught]1 %e pass$ at ,newburyport4 ,8 bro!r1 ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss--^: "n 0 !n r5[n$ all ov] ! l& z an orator & patriot--_h come ,nor? = ! la/ "t1 br++ 8 wife & *ildr5 ) him4 ,x 0 a nev]-to-be-=gott5 family ga!r+ "u ! ag$ "m's ro(4 ,on my return 7%e cont9ues 9 ,eddy's j\rnal7 ,i f\nd him look+ f9ely4 ,he _h _h an ill-turn ow+ to tee?+ :i* !y _h kept f me1 b _h recov]$ f x & look$ really beautiful4 ,8 fa!r & uncle ,s4 ,s4 _h be5 to see him once dur+ our vacation1 & we 7 n[ expect+ !m aga9 ) 8 ,aunt ,m>y & h] ?ree *ildr5 & 8 gr&mo!r4 ,we dep5d$ a great deal on see+ ,eddy & ,una toge!r1 z %e 0 8 tw9 c\s9 & only a few h\rs old] ?an he4 ,b on ! v ev5+ ( _! arrival he 0 tak5 sick1 &1 al?\gh !y all saw him t night look+ l himself1 by ! next morn+ he _h *ang$ sadly4 ,he grew ill & lo/ fle% & /r5g? v fa/1 & no rem$ies seem$ to h ! lea/ effect on 8 disord]1 :i* 0 "o induc$ by tee?+4444 ,= myself ,i did n believe any?+ c\ld n[ save my preci\s baby1 & _h giv5 him to ,god s unres]v$ly1 t ,i 0 n consci\s ( ev5 a wi% = 8 life4444 ,:5 at la/ we saw evid5t tok5s ( return+ heal? & /r5g?1 we felt t we receiv$ him a second "t z f ! grave4 ,to me he nev] seem$ ! same *ild4 ,my d>l+ ,eddy 0 lo/ to me & ano!r--& yet ! same--fill$ 8 place4 ,i (t5 said aft]w>d t a little /rang] 0 runn+ ab\t my nurs]y1 n m9e1 b ,god's4 ,inde$1 ,i c't describe ! peculi> feel+s ) :i* ,i always reg>d$ him aft] ?is sickness1 nor h[ ! ?\ght con/antly met me1 ,he is n m9e2 he is ,god's4 ,e night ,i us$ to ?ank ,him = sp>+ him to me "o day long]2 ?us truly enjoy+ him a day at a "t4 ,an extract f a lett] to ,miss ,"l1 writt5 on ! anniv]s>y ( h] "m's dea?1 w close ! acc\nt ( ?is ye>4 ,if ,i 7 9 ,portl& n[1 ,i %\ld g "r d[n to see y4 ,i feel j l hav+ a de>1 old-fa%ion$ talk ) y4 ,i 0 ?9k+ h[ _m times dea? _h ent]$ t old ,ri*mond circle ( :i* y & ,i once =m$ a "p2 ,mrs4 ,p]sico1 ,susan1 ,*>lotte ,=d1 ,kate ,k5n$y1 & n[ our own de>e/ ,lotty1 all gone4 ,i c n tell y h[ mu* ,i miss & grieve = ,lotty4 #i ,i c n be ?ankful en\gh t ,i w5t to ,portl& 9 ! summ] & _h t la/ week ) h]1 nor = h] mo/ preci\s visit "h la/ w9t]4 ,:5ev] y ?9k ( any little ?+ %e said1 ,i want y to write x d[n = me1 no matt] :e!r x seems wor? writ+ or n4 ,i "k by exp]i5ce h[ preci\s su* ?+s are4 ,?is is a sad day to me4 ,inde$1 all ( ?is mon? has be5 s1 recall+ z x has done1 all ,i 0 suff]+ at ?is "t la/ ye>1 & all my de> "m 0 !n suff]+4 ,i c h>dly realise t %e has be5 9 heav5 a :ole ye>1 & t ,i feel h] loss z vividly z if x 7 b ye/]day--inde$1 m s4 ,i d n feel t ?is affliction has done me ! good t x ought to h done & t ,i hop$ x w\ld4 ,z f> z ,i h any excuse x lies 9 my mis]able heal?4 ,i want s mu* to be m ( a ,*ri/ian2 to live a life ( con/ant devotion4 ,d tell me1 :5 y write1 if y h su* tr\bl$ ?\ghts1 & su* difficulty 9 be+ /eadfa/ & unmovable8 ,oh1 h[ ,i sigh = ! sort ( life ,i l$ 9 ,ri*mond1 & :i* 0 m or less ! life ( ! succe$+ ye>s at home6 ,my husb& tries to p]suade me t ! diff]5ce is m 9 my way ( life1 & t !n be+ my "t = contemplation1 n[ is my "t = action4 ,b ,i "k1 myself1 t ,i h lo/ gr\nd4 ,y mu/ be> me 9 m9d :5 y pray1 my de> ,l\ise1 = ,i nev] _h s mu* ne$ ( pray+ nor s little "t or /r5g? = x4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,fur!r ,extracts f ,eddy's ,j\rnal4 ,ill-heal?4 ,visit to ,new>k4 ,dea? ( h] ,bro!r-9-law1 ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss4 ,8 ,"*4 ,removal to ,new>k4 ,lett]s4 ,! record ( ! new ye> op5s ) ?is entry 9 ,eddy's j\rnal3 ,janu>y1 #ahej4--;,eddy is n[ f\rte5 mon?s old1 has six tee?1 & walks well1 b ) timidity4 ,he is1 at times1 really beautiful4 ,he is v affectionate1 & w run to meet me1 ?r[ 8 little arms r\nd my neck & keep pat-pat-patt+ me1 ) delight4 ,miss ,arnold s5t him1 at ,new ,ye>'s1 a pretty ball1 ) :i* he is highly pleas$4 ,he rolls x ab\t by knock+ x ) a /ick1 & w %\t = joy :5 he sees x mov+4 ,he is crazy to give ev]ybody some?+1 & :5 he is br\ght d[n to pray]s1 hurries to get ! ,bible = 8 fa!r1 8 little face all smiles & exultation1 & 8 body 9 a quiv] ) emotion4 ,he is l lightn+ 9 all 8 movem5ts1 & is nev] /ill = an in/ant4 ,x is wor? a good deal to see 8 face1 x is s brimful ( life & sun%9e & gladness4 ,h] lett]s1 writt5 dur+ ! w9t] & spr+1 %[ h[ 9 ! mid/ ( bodily suff]+1 depression1 & sorr[ h] views ( life 7 *ang+ & h] fai? 9 ,god gr[+ /rong]4 ,?ree ( h] bro!rs 7 n[ 9 ,cali=nia1 seek+ _! =tunes 9 ! newly-discov]$ gold m9es4 ,to "o ( !m %e writes1 ,m>* #aj?3 ,i 0 delight$ ye/]day by ! reception ( y\r lett]4 ,i d n wond] t ,lotty's dea? affect$ y z x did--b h[ev] %>p ! in/rum5ts by :i* ^! lessons come to u1 !y are full ( good :5 !y d come4 ,z ,i look back to ! "t :5 ,i did n "k :at dea? 0 do+ & c\ld d1 ,i seem to myself l a *ild :o has n yet be5 to s*ool4 ,! dea?s ( our de> "m & ( ,lotty h tak5 fa/ hold ( me4 ,life is entirely *ang$4 ,i d n say ?is 9 a melan*oly or rep9+ temp]1 = ,i w\ld n h life appe> o!rwise ?an 9 its true light4 ,all my sickly1 wick$ disgu/ ) x has be5 put to ! blu% & driv5 away4 ,i see n[ t to live = ,god1 :e!r "o is all[$ ability to be actively useful or n1 is a great ?+1 & t x is a wond]ful m]cy to be all[$ to live & suff] ev51 if !reby "o c glorify ,him4 ,i desire to live if x is ,god's w1 ?\gh ,i confess heav5 looks mo/ attractive :5 ei!r s91 sorr[1 or sickness we>y me4 ,b ,i mu/ n g on at ?is rate1 = ,i c\ld n 9 writ+ beg9 to tell y h[ diff]5t ev]y?+ looks z ,i advance into a k ( life & see its awful sorr[s & suff]+s & *anges & "k t ,i am subject to all its laws1 soon to take my turn 9 its my/]i\s close4 ,my de> bro!r1 let u le>n by he>t ! lessons we are le>n+1 & g 9 _! /r5g? & wisdom all our days4444 ,our *ildr5 are well4 ,eddy has gone to be weigh$ 7he weigh$ tw5ty-f\r p\nds74 ,he is a f9e little fell[4 ,i h 8 nurse /ill1 & ought to be 9 excell5t heal?1 b am a n]v\s old ?+1 z sk9ny & bony z ,i c be4 ,i c ?9k ( no?+ b birds' claws :5 ,i look at my h&s4 ,b ,i h s mu* to be ?ankful = 9 my de> husb& & my sweet little *ildr51 & love all ( y s de>ly1 t ,i believe ,i am z ri* z if ,i _h ! fle% & /r5g? ( a giant4 ,i am go+ ?is week to he> ,miss ,arnold read a manuscript novel4 ,?is w give spice to my life4 ,w>me/ love to y all4 ,aga91 ,may #aj?1 %e writes3 ,x w\ld be a great pleasure to me to keep a j\rnal = y if ,i 7 well en\gh1 b ,i am n4 ,i h my sick heada*e n[ once a week1 & x makes me really ill = ab\t ?ree days4 ,t[>ds night ( ! ?ird day ,i beg9 to bright5 up & to eat a morsel1 b h>dly recov] my /r5g? be=e ,i h ano!r pull-d[n1 j z ,i _h got to ?is po9t ! door-bell rang1 & lo6 a beautiful ,may-basket hang+ on ! lat* = ,annie1 full ( pretty & good ?+s4 ,i c h>dly wait till morn+ to see h[ h] eyes w %9e & h] little feet fly :5 %e sees x4 ,george has be5 greatly di/ress$ ab\t ,s4 ,s41 & has1 ,i ?9k1 v little1 if any1 hope t he w recov]4 ,dr4 ,tappan #aj sp5t ,tuesday night "h4 ,we _h a really delightful visit f him4 ,he spoke highly ( y\r classmate1 ,craig1 :o is j go+ to be m>ri$4 ,he told u a numb] ( pleasant anecdotes ab\t fa!r4 ,eddy has got big en\gh to walk 9 ! /reet4 ,he looks l a little picture1 ) 8 great =ehead & bright eyes4 ,he is 9 e way z l>ge z mo/ *ildr5 are at two ye>s4 ,8 supreme delight is to tease ,a4 by mak+ believe /rike h] or 9 "s o!r real boy's hateful way4 ,%e & he play toge!r on ! grass-plat1 & ,i feel q matronly z ,i sit wat*+ !m ) _! balls & :eel-b>r[s & :atnots4 ,?is little scamp has1 ,i fe>1 brok5 my con/itution to pieces4 ,x makes me crawl all ov] :5 ,i ?9k ( y ?ree fagg+ all day at su* dull & unpr(itable labor4 ,b ,i am sure ,provid5ce w d :at is really be/ = y all4 ,we ?9k & talk ( & pray = y e day & m ?an once a day1 &1 9 all my ill-heal? & suff]+s1 ! remembrance ( y is pleasant & 9 great measure refre%+4 ,i dep5d m ^u he>+ f y all ?an ,i c describe4 ,:at an unconqu]able ?+ family affection is6 ,%e ?us writes1 ,may #cj?1 to h] old ,portl& fri5d1 ,miss ,"l3 ,i h writt5 v few lett]s & n a l9e ( any?+ else ! pa/ w9t]1 ow+ to ! confusion my m9d is 9 mo/ ( ! "t f di/ress 9 my head4 ,?ree days out ( e sev5 ,i am z sick z ,i well c be--! re/ ( ! "t languid1 feeble1 & exhau/$ by frequ5t fa9t turns1 s t ,i c't d ! smalle/ ?+ 9 my family4 ,i h>dly "k :at x is s mu* z to put a clean apron on to "o ( my *ildr54 ,to me ?is is a con/ant pa9 & we>9ess2 = our exp5se 9 ! way ( s]vants is great] ?an we c af=d & ev]y?+ is go+ to de/ruction "u my face & eyes1 :ile ,i d>e n lift a f+] to rem$y x4 ,i live 9 con/ant alt]nations ( hope & despond5cy ab\t my heal?4 ,:5ev] ,i feel a little bett]1 z ,i d to-day1 ,i am sangu9e & *e]ful1 b ! next ill-turn depresses me exce$+ly4 ,i don't ?9k !re is any special dang] ( my dy+1 b !re is a good deal ( my gett+ run d[n beyond ! p[] ( recov]y1 & ( dragg+ out t useless exi/5ce ( :i* ,i h a p]fect horror4 ,b ,i w\ld n h y ?9k ,i am n happy2 = ,i c truly say t ,i am1 mo/ ( ! "t1 z happy z ,i believe "o c be 9 ?is _w4 ,all my trials & suff]+s %ut me up to ! "o great ,s\rce ( peace1 & ,i "k !re has be5 ne$ ( e "o ( !m4 ,i h n yet made my plans = ! summ]4 ,our doctor urges me to g away f ! *ildr5 & f ! salt wat]1 b ,i d n believe x w\ld d me a bit ( good4 ,i want y to see my de> little boy4 ,he is n[ n9ete5 mon?s old & z fat & well z c be4 ,he is a beautiful little fell[1 we ?9k1 & v int]e/+4 ,he is z gallant to ,a4 z y please1 & runs to get a cu%ion = h] :5 _! supp] is c>ri$ 91 & won't eat a morsel himself till he sees h] nicely fix$4 ,george has gone to ,bo/on1 & ,i am lonely en\gh4 ,i w\ld write ano!r %eet if ,i d>$1 b ,i don't d>e4 ,:at %e "h says ( h] happ9ess1 amid/ ! trials ( ! previ\s w9t]1 is repeat$ a little lat] 9 a lett] to h] husb&3 ,i c truly say ,i h n sp5t a happi] w9t] s9ce our m>riage1 9 spite ( all my sickness4 ,x seems to me ,i c nev] recov] my spirits & be z ,i h be5 9 my be/ days1 b :at ,i lose 9 "o way p]haps ,i %all ga9 9 ano!r4 ,j ?9k h[ my ambition has be5 cru%$ at e po9t by my ill-heal?1 & ev5 ! ambition to be useful & a com=t to ^? ab\t me trampl$ und]foot1 to tea* me :at ,i c\ld n h le>n$ 9 any o!r s*ool6 ,9 ! mon? ( ,june %e w5t on a visit to ,new>k1 ,new ,j]sey1 :]e h] husb&'s "m & si/] n[ resid$2 ,dr4 ,/e>ns hav+ 9 ! fall ( #ahdi accept$ a call to ! ,fir/ ,presbyt]ian *ur* 9 t city4 ,:ile %e 0 9 ,new>k news came ( ! dang]\s illness1 &1 soon aft]1 ( ! dea? at ,nat*ez ( h] bro!r-9-law1 ,mr4 ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss4 ,! ev5t 0 a great %ock to h]1 & %e knew t x w\ld be a cru%+ bl[ to h] husb&4 ,h] lett]s to him1 writt5 at ?is "t1 are full ( ! t5d] love & sympa?y t infuse solace into sorr[-/rick5 he>ts4 ,"h is an extract f "o ( !m1 dat$ ,july #aa?3 ,i c't tell y h[ x grieves & di/resses me to h _h ?is long-dread$ affliction come ^u y :5 y 7 alone4 ,?\gh ,i c\ld d s little to com=t y1 x seems z if ,i mu/ be ne> y4444 ,b ,i "k ,i am do+ "r 9 /ay+ "h--do+ z y w\ld tell me to d1 if ,i c\ld h y\r direct wi%1 & y don't "k h[ ?ankful ,i am t x has pleas$ ,god to let me be ) de> "m at a "t :5 %e s ne$$ con/ant affection & sympa?y4 ,yes !re are wond]ful m]cies ) ?is heavy affliction1 & we all see & feel !m4 ,poor "m has borne all ! dreadful susp5se & !n ! second bl[ ( to-day f> bett] ?an any ( u d>$ to hope1 b %e weeps incessantly4 ,anna is ) h] all %e c possibly be1 & ,mr4 ,/e>ns is an angel ( m]cy4 ,i h pray$ = y a great deal ?is week1 & ,i "k ,god is ) y1 com=ts y1 & w enable y to be> ?is great sorr[4 ,& yet ,i c't help feel+ t ,i want to com=t y myself4 ,oh1 may we all reap its bless$ fruits z long z we live6 ,let u )draw a :ile f ev]y?+ else1 t we may press ne>] to ,god4 ,we 7 9 a /ate ( t]rible susp5se all day ,tuesday1 all day ,w$nesday1 & until noon to-day2 />t+ at e footfall1 expect+ telegraphic intellig5ce ei!r f y or f ! ,s\?1 & deplorably ignorant ( ,se>g5t's al>m+ condition1 not)/&+ all ! w>n+ we _h _h4 ,) "o cons5t we _h put f> (f ! evil day4444 ,& n[ ,i mu/ bid y good-night1 my de>e/ husb&1 pray+ t y may be ! belov$ ( ! ,"l & re/ 9 safety by ,him4 ,! e>ly ye>s ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' m>ri$ life 7 9 v>i\s ways closely connect$ ) t ( ?is lam5t$ bro!r2 s mu* s t he may be said to h =m$ "o ( ! mo/ pot5t1 z well z "o ( ! sunnie/1 influ5ces 9 h] own dome/ic hi/ory4 ,n only 0 he v highly gift$1 intellectually1 & widely kn[n z a great orator1 b he 0 also a man ( extraord9>y p]sonal attractions1 ende>$ to all 8 fri5ds by ! sweetness ( 8 disposition1 by 8 w9n+ ways1 8 wit1 8 playful humor1 8 c\rage1 8 b\ndless g5]osity1 8 frat]nal & filial devotion1 & by ! *>m ( 8 conv]sation4 ,8 dea? at ! e>ly age ( =ty-"o call$ =? expressions ( pr(\nd sorr[ & regret f ! fir/ m5 ( ! nation4 ,aft] ! lapse ( ne>ly a ?ird ( a c5tury 8 memory is /ill fre% & bright 9 ! he>ts ( all1 :o once knew & lov$ him4 #aa ,not)/&+ ! %ock ( ?is great affliction1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss return$ to ,new ,b$=d mu* refre%$ 9 body & m9d4 ,9 a lett] to h] fri5d ,miss ,"l1 dat$ ,septemb] #ad?1 %e writes3 ,i sp5t six mo/ pr(itable weeks at ,new>k2 w5t out v little1 saw v few p1 & _h ! quiet & retirem5t ,i _h long hung]$ & ?ir/$ =4 ,s9ce ,i h _h *ildr5 my life has be5 s di/ract$ ) c>e & sickness t ,i h sometimes felt l giv+ up 9 despair1 b ?is six weeks' re/ gave me fre% c\rage to />t anew4 ,i h got "s delightful books--,mann+'s ,s]mons4 #ab ,!y are 7lett+ ! ,high-*ur*ism g7 mo/ delightful2 ,i ?9k ,susan w\ld h fea/$ on !m4 ,b %e is fea/+ on angels' food & has ne$ ( none ( ^! ?+s4 ,9 ,octob] ( ?is ye> ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss bade adieu to ,new ,b$=d1 nev] to revisit x1 & remov$ to ,new>k2 h] husb& hav+ become associate pa/or ( ! ,second ,presbyt]ian *ur* 9 t place4 ,9 ! spr+ ( ! foll[+ ye> he accept$ a call to ! ,m]c] /reet ,presbyt]ian *ur* 9 ,new ,york1 & t city became h] home ! re/ ( h] days4 ,al?\gh %e t>ri$ s %ort a "t 9 ,new>k1 %e receiv$ mu* k9dness & =m$ w>m fri5d%ips :ile !re4 ,%e cont9u$ to suff] mu*1 h[ev]1 f ill-heal? & almo/ entirely susp5d$ h] correspond5ce4 ,a few lett]s to ,new ,b$=d fri5ds are all t relate to ?is p]iod4 ,9 "o to ,mrs4 ,j4 ,p4 ,all51 dat$ ,novemb] #b;d1 %e ?us ref]s to an accid5t1 :i* came ne> prov+ fatal3 ,ye/]day we w5t d[n to ,new ,york to he> ,j5ny ,l9d2 a pleasure to rememb] = ! re/ ( "o's life4 ,if any?+1 %e surpass$ our expectations4 ,9 com+ home a slight accid5t to ! c>s oblig$ u to walk ab\t a mile1 & ,i mu/ ne$s fall into a hole 9 ! bridge :i* we 7 cross+1 & bruise & scrape "o knee q badly4 ,! wond] is t ,i did n g into ! riv]1 z x 0 a l>ge hole1 & pit* d>k4 ,i ?9k if ,i _h be5 walk+ ) ,mr4 ,pr5tiss ,i %\ld n only h gone 9 myself1 b pull$ him 9 too2 b ,i _h ! arm ( a /rong] man1 :o held me up till ,i c\ld extricate myself4 ,y c't ?9k h[ ,i miss y1 nor h[ (t5 ,i wi% y c\ld run 9 & sit ) me1 z y us$ to d4 ,i h always lov$ y1 & %all rememb] y & y\rs ) ! utmo/ int]e/4 ,we _h a pleasant call ! o!r day f ,capta9 ,gibbs4 ,see+ him made me homesick en\gh4 ,i c\ld h>dly keep f cry+ all ! "t he /ay$4 ,x seems to u bo? z if we _h be5 gone f ,new ,b$=d m mon?s ?an we h days4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss said ye/]day t he %\ld expect if he w5t back directly1 to see ! boys & girls gr[n up & m>ri$4 ,to ,mrs4 ,reub5 ,nye1 ,new>k1 ,feb #ab1 #ahea4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss & ,mr4 ,poor h j tak5 ,annie & ,eddy out to walk1 & ,i h be5 mop+ ov] ! fire & ?9k+ ( ,new ,b$=d fri5ds1 & wi%+ "o or m w\ld happ5 94 ,i am j n[ gett+ ov] a sev]e attack ( rheumatism1 :i* on leav+ my back intr5*$ itself 9 ,mr4 ,p4's %\ld]4 ,i dislike ?is climate & am v suspici\s ( x4 ,ev]ybody has a horrible cold1 or ! rheumatism1 or fev] & ague4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss says if ,i get ! latt]1 he %all be (f = ,new ,engl& 9 a tw9kl+4 ,i ?9k he is z well z c be expect$ :ile ! dea? ( 8 bro!r cont9ues s fre% 9 8 remembrance4 ,all ! old *e]fulness1 :i* us$ to su/a9 me amid sickness & tr\ble1 has gone f him4 ,b ,god has ord]$ ! iron to ent] 8 s\l1 & x is n = me to resi/ t w4 ,our *ildr5 are well4 ,we h _h mu* com=t 9 !m bo? ?is w9t]4 ,"m ,pr5tiss is r5ew+ h] y\?1 x is s pleasant to h] to h u all ne> h]4 7,eddy & ,a4 are hov]+ ab\t me1 mak+ su* a noise t ,i c h>dly write4 ,eddy says1 ,:5 ,i 0 tir$1 ,poor t>ri$ me47 ,mr4 ,poor c>ries all be=e him4 #ac ,he is v popul> ?r\gh\t ! city1 & ,i believe ,mrs4 ,p4 is mu* admir$ by _! p4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss is prea*+ e ,sabba? ev5+1 z ,dr4 ,condit is able to prea* e morn+ n[4 ,i feel z mu* at home z ,i possibly c\ld any:]e 9 ! same "t1 b in/ead ( m\rn+ less = my ,new ,b$=d fri5ds1 ,i m\rn m & m e day4 ,to ,mrs4 ,all5 %e writes1 ,feb4 #ba3 ,i "k all ab\t ^? depress$ moods1 :5 x co/s "o z mu* to smile1 or to give a pleasant answ]1 z x w\ld at o!r times to make a _w4 ,:at a *ange x w be to u poor sickly1 feeble1 disc\rag$ ones1 :5 we f9d ourselves :]e !re is nei!r pa9 or lassitude or fatigue ( ! body1 or sorr[ or c>e or despond5cy ( ! m9d6 ,i miss y m & m4 ,p "h are k9d & excell5t & fri5dly1 b ,i c n make !m1 z yet1 fill ! places ( ! famili> faces ,i h left 9 ,new ,b$=d4 ,i am all ! "t walk+ ?r\gh our neighborhood1 dropp+ into ,deacon ,b>k]'s or y\r h\se1 or welcom+ "s ( y into our old h\se on ! corn]4 ,eddy is pretty well4 ,he is a sweet little boy1 g5tle & docile4 ,he le>ns to talk v fa/1 & is crazy to le>n hymns4 ,he says1 ,t9kle1 t9kle leetleev]ybody1 & give 'tatoes to begg> boys4 ,"m ,pr5tiss seems to ?rive on hav+ u all ab\t h]4 ,%e lives s f> (f t ,i see h] seldom1 b ,mr4 ,p4 goes e day1 except ,sundays1 :5 he c't g--ra9 or %9e1 tir$ or n tir$1 conv5i5t or n conv5i5t4 ,s9ce my "m's dea? he has felt t he mu/ d quickly :atev] he has to d = 8 own4 #a ,i f\nd de> ,abby /ill alive & rejoic$ beyond expression to see me4 ,%e _h _h a v feeble night1 b bright5$ up t[>ds noon & :5 ,i arriv$ seem$ entirely l h] old self1 smil+ sweetly & exclaim+1 ,?is is ! la/ bless+ ,i desir$6 ,oh1 h[ good ! ,"l is1 isn't ,he8 ,x 0 v delightful4 ,! doctor has j be5 9 & he says %e may g any in/ant1 & yet may live a day or two4 ,"m is wond]fully calm & happy1 & ! h\se seems l ! v gate ( heav54444 ,i s wi% y c\ld h se5 ,abby's smile :5 ,i ent]$ h] room4 ,& !n %e inquir$ s affectionately = y & baby3 ,n[ tell me ev]y?+ ab\t !m4 ,%e longs & prays to be gone4 ,!re is some?+ p]fectly *ildlike ab\t h] expressions & feel+s1 especially t[>d "m4 ,%e c't be> to h h] leave ! room & holds h] h& a good deal ( ! "t4 ,%e s5ds ev] s mu* love4-- ,extract f a lett]1 dat$ ,portl&1 ,janu>y #bg1 #ahdg4 #b ,! late ,rev4 ,william ,t4 ,dwight1 ,d4,d41 pa/or ( ! ,?ird ,*ur* 9 ,portl&4 ,he 0 a son ( ,presid5t ,dwight1 an accompli%$ man1 a noble ,*ri/ian citiz51 & "o ( ! able/ prea*]s ( 8 day4 ,= _m ye>s 8 h\se almo/ adjo9$ ,mrs4 ,payson's1 & bo? he & ,mrs4 ,dwight 7 among h] mo/ *]i%$ fri5ds4 #c ,a devot$ fri5d ( h] fa!r's1 "o ( 8 deacons1 & a g5ial1 w>m-he>t$1 good man4 #d ,a niece ( h] husb&1 a lovely *ild1 :o di$ a few ye>s lat] 9 ,georgia4 #e ,rev4 ,james ,lewis1 a v5]at$ eld] & local prea*] ( ! ,me?odi/ ,episcopal ,*ur*1 !n ne>ly eighty ye>s ( age4 ,he di$ 9 #ahee1 univ]sally belov$ & lam5t$4 ,he ent]$ ^u 8 "w 9 #ahjj4 ,dur+ mo/ ( ^? fifty-five ye>s he 0 wont to prea* e ,sabba?1 (t5 ?ree times1 r>ely los+ an appo9tm5t by sickness1 & /ill m r>ely by /orms 9 summ] or w9t]4 ,he liv$ 9 ,gorham1 ,ma9e1 & 8 labors 7 pretty equally divid$ among all ! t[ns )9 fifte5 miles r\nd4 ,8 rides out & back1 (t5 ov] ! r\ghe/ roads or ?r\gh heavy sn[s1 av]ag$1 probably1 f fifte5 to tw5ty miles4 ,x 0 e/imat$ t he _h (ficiat$ at n less ?an #a1ejj fun]als1 sometimes rid+ = ! purpose =ty miles4 ,8 fun]al & camp-meet+ s]mons includ$1 he c\ld n h prea*$ less ?an f #h1jjj to #i1jjj times4 ,he nev] receiv$ a doll> ( comp5sation = 8 m9i/]ial s]vices4 ,?\gh a h>d-work+ f>m]1 8 hospitality to 8 it9]ant bre?r5 0 unb\nd$4 ,9 sev]al t[ns ( ,cumb]l& & adjo9+ c\nties1 he 0 ! rev]$ patri>*1 z half a c5tury e>li] he _h be5 ! y\?ful pione] ( ,me?odism4 ,:5 he dep>t$ to be ) ,*ri/1 !re 0 no bett] man 9 all ! ,/ate to foll[ aft] him4 #f ,"o ( a numb] ( old :al+ capta9s 9 h] husb&'s congregation1 9 :om %e 0 int]e/$ greatly4 ,!y belong$ to a class ( m5 sui g5]is--m5 :o _h trav]s$ all oceans1 _h visit$ _m l&s1 & 7 z rem>kable = _! jovial l>ge-he>t$1 social qualities1 :5 at home1 z = _! indomitable en]gy1 ,yankee pu%1 & adv5tur\s seaman%ip1 :5 hunt+ ! mon/]s ( ! deep on ! o!r side ( ! globe4 #g ,two bright girls & a "y "m1 :o _h di$ n long be=e4 #h ,h] sickness la/$ six weeks1 dat+ f ! day ( h] be+ entirely conf9$ to b$4 ,h] life 0 prolong$ mu* beyond :at h] physicians or any "o else :o saw h]1 _h believ$ possible4 ,dur+ ! la/ week h] suff]+s 7 less1 & %e lay quiet "p ( ! "t4 ,friday morn+ %e _h an attack ( fa9tness1 9 ! c\rse ( :i* %e rem>k$ ,i am dy+4 ,%e recov]$ & be=e noon sank into a somnol5t /ate f :i* %e nev] awoke4 ,h] brea?+ became s(t] & fa9t] till x ceas$ at half-pa/ five 9 ! aft]noon4 ,oh1 :at a transition 0 t6 f pa9 & we>9ess & woe to ! _w ( light6 to ! pres5ce ( ! ,savi\r6 to uncl\d$ bliss6 ,i felt1 & s ,i believe did all assembl$ r\nd h] b$1 t x 0 "t = exultation r ?an grief4 ,we c\ld n ?9k ( ourselves1 s absorb$ 7 we 9 contemplation ( h] happ9ess4 ,%e 0 able to say sc>cely any?+ dur+ h] sickness1 & left n a s+le message = ! abs5t *ildr51 or directions to ^? :o 7 pres5t4 ,h] extreme weakness1 & ! di/ress+ effect ( e attempt to speak1 made h] ab&on all su* attempts except 9 answ] to que/ions4 ,b ! t5or ( h] replies to all inquiries 0 uni=m1 express+ entire acquiesc5ce 9 ! w ( ,god1 confid5ce 9 ,him ?r\gh ,*ri/1 & a desire to dep>t z soon z ,he %\ld p]mit4 ,tranquillity & peace1 uncl\d$ by a s+le d\bt or fe>1 seem to h fill$ h] m9d4 ,!re 7 sev]al reasons :i* l$ u to decide t ! int]m5t %\ld take place "h2 b on ! foll[+ ,saturday a g5tleman arriv$ f ,portl&1 s5t by ! ,second ,p>i% to remove ! rema9s to t place1 if we made no objection4 ,z we made none1 ! body 0 dis9t]r$ & tak5 to ,p41 my bro!r ,g4 accompany+ x4 ,s t h] mortal rema9s n[ re/ ) ^? ( my de> fa!r4--,lett] f ,mrs4 ,hopk9s to h] aunt 9 ,new ,hav51 dat$ ,william/[n1 ,dec4 #a1 #ahdh4 #i ,! wife ( h] bro!r1 ,mr4 ,h5ry ,m4 ,payson4 #aj ,! ,rev4 ,b5jam9 ,tappan1 ,d4,d41 an old fri5d ( h] fa!r's & "o ( ! patri>*s ( ! ,ma9e *ur*es4 #aa ,see app5dix ,b1 p4 #ecd1 = a brief sket* ( 8 life4 #ab ,s]mons by ,h5ry ,edw>d ,mann+1 ,ar*deacon ( ,*i*e/] 7n[ ,c>d9al ,mann+71 #a/1 #b;d1 & #c;d ,s]ies4 #ac ,! ,rev4 ,d4 ,w4 ,poor1 ,d4,d41 n[ ( ,philadelphia4 ,he _h be5 settl$ at ,fair ,hav51 ne> ,new ,b$=d1 & 0 !n a pa/or 9 ,new>k4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,9 ,,! ,,s*ool ,,( ,,suff]+4 #ahea-aheh4 ,i4 ,removal to ,new ,york & fir/ ,summ] !re4 ,lett]s4 ,loss ( ,sleep & ,anxiety ab\t ,eddy4 ,extracts f ,eddy's ,j\rnal1 describ+ 8 la/ ,illness & ,dea?4 ,l9es entitl$ ,to my ,dy+ ,eddy4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' removal to ,new ,york 0 an important l9k 9 ! *a9 ( outw>d ev5ts :i* prep>$ h] = h] special life-"w4 ,x introduc$ h] at once into a circle unsurpass$1 p]haps1 by any o!r 9 ! c\ntry1 = its intellig5ce1 its dome/ic & social virtues1 & its e>ne/ ,*ri/ian _s4 ,! ,m]c] /reet ,presbyt]ian *ur* conta9$ at t "t _m memb]s ^: names 7 kn[n & honor$ ! _w ov]1 9 ! sph]es ( bus9ess1 pr(essional life1 lit]ature1 philan?ropy1 & religion2 & among its homes 7 "s t seem$ to h atta9$ almo/ ! p]fection ( beauty4 ,9 ^! homes ! new pa/or's wife soon became an object ( t5d] love & devotion4 ,"h %e f\nd h]self surr\nd$ by all cong5ial influ5ces4 ,h] m9d & he>t alike 7 refre%$ & /imulat$ 9 ! heal?ie/ mann]4 ,& to add to h] joy1 sev]al de> old fri5ds liv$ ne> h] & sat 9 adjo9+ pews on ! ,sabba?4 ,b happy z 7 ! auspices t welcom$ h] to ,new ,york1 ! exp]i5ce ( ! pa/ two ye>s _h taught h] n to expect too mu* f any outw>d conditions4 ,%e ent]$1 !re=e1 ^u ?is new p]iod ( h] life 9 a v sob] mood4 ,nor _h _m mon?s elaps$ be=e %e began to he> premonitory murmurs ( an incom+ sea ( tr\ble4 ,mo/ ( ! summ] ( #ahea %e rema9$ 9 t[n ) ! *ildr54 ,an extract f a lett] to h] y\nge/ bro!r1 dat$ ,augu/ #a1 w %[ h[ %e :il$ away _m a we>y h\r3 ,x has be5 v hot ?is summ]2 our h\se is l>ge & cool1 & above all1 ,i h a nice ba?+-room op5+ out ( my *amb]1 ) hot & cold wat] & a %[]-ba?1 :i* is a _w ( com=t4 ,we sp5t "p ( la/ week at ,rockaway1 ,l4 ,i41 visit+ a fri5d4 #a ,i ne>ly froze to dea?1 b ,george & ! *ildr5 7 mu* b5efit$4 ,i h improv$ fa/ 9 heal? s9ce we came "h4 ,ye/]day ,i walk$ two & a half miles ) ,george1 & a ye> ago at ?is "t ,i c\ld n walk a qu>t] ( a mile )\t be+ sick aft] x = "s days4 ,:5 ,i feel mis]ably ,i j put on my bonnet & get into an omnibus & g rattlety-bang d[n t[n2 ! air & ! %ak+ & ! jolt+ & ! sight-see+ make me feel bett] & s ,i get along4 ,if ,i c\ld safely leave my *ildr5 ,i %\ld g ) ,george4 ,he hates to g alone & surely ,i hate to be left alone2 9 fact in/ead ( lik+ ea* o!r's society less & less1 we e day get m & m dep5d5t on ea* o!r1 & take sep>ation h>d] & h>d]4 ,our *ildr5 are well4 ,to h] husb&1 :o _h gone to visit an old fri5d1 at ,h>pswell1 on ! coa/ ( ,ma9e1 %e writes a few days lat]3 ,on ,saturday v e>ly ,pr(essor ,smi? call$ ) ! ,h\se ( ,sev5 ,gables4 ,i read ab\t half ( x 9 ! ev5+4 ,"o sees ! h& ( ! arti/ z cle>ly 9 su* a "w z 9 pa9t+1 & ! h& ( a skilful "o1 too4 ,i h read _m books ) m int]e/1 b nev] "o 9 :i* ,i 0 s div]t$ f ! /ory to a /udy ( ! au?or himself4 ,s f> !re is no?+ excit+ 9 x4 ,i don't "k :o suppli$ ! pulpit on ,sunday morn+4 ,! s]mon 0 to "y m51 :i* 0 n s appropriate z x might h be51 consid]+ !re 7 no "y m5 pres5t1 unless ,i except our ,eddy & o!r sprigs ( humanity ( 8 age4 ,i suppose y w wond] :at 9 ! _w ,i let ,eddy g =4 ,well1 ,i took a fancy to let ,m>g>et try him1 z nobody w\ld "k him 9 ! gall]y & he coax$ s prettily to g4 ,he 0 highly excit$ at ! p]mission1 & z ,i 0 putt+ on 8 sacque1 ,i direct$ ,m>g>et to take x (f if he fell asleep4 ,ho6 ,i %an't g to sleep1 quo? he2 ,*ri/ doesn't h rock+-*airs 9 ,8 h\se4 ,he set (f 9 high spirits1 & dur+ ! long pray] ,i he>d him laugh l\d2 soon aft] ,i he>d a rattl+ z ( a p>asol & ,eddy say+1 ,!re x is6 by :i* "t ,m>g>et1 f9d+ he 0 go+ to beg9 a regul> frolic1 sagely took him out4 ,augu/ #g?--,! five girls f ,brooklyn all sp5t ye/]day "h4 ,!y _h a regul> frolic t[>ds night1 ba?+ & %[]-ba?+4 ,aft]w>ds we all w5t on top ( ! h\se4 ,x 0 v pleasant up !re4 ,i took ! *ildr5 to ,b>num's ,museum1 z ,i propos$ do+4 ,!y 7 delight$1 p>ticul>ly ) ! ,happy ,family1 :i* consi/$ ( cats1 rats1 birds1 dogs1 rabbits1 monkeys1 etc41 etc41 dwell+ toge!r 9 unity4 ,i obs]v$ t ?\gh ! cats =bore to lay a paw ^u ! rats & mice ab\t !m1 !y yet took a melan*oly pleasure 9 look+ at ^! da9ty morsels1 f :i* no?+ c\ld p]suade !m to turn (f _! eyes4 ,i am glad t y got away f ,new ,b$=d alive & t y did n /ay long]1 b he>+ ab\t our fri5ds !re made me q long to see !m myself4 ,d h j ! be/ "t 9 ! _w at ,h>pswell1 & don't let ! ,rev4 ,elijah dr[n y = ! sake ( cat*+ y\r mantle z y g d[n4 ,i d>e n tell y h[ mu* ,i miss y1 le/ y %\ld ?9k ,i d n rejoice 9 y\r hav+ ?is vacation4 ,may ,god bless & keep y4 ,dur+ ! autumn %e suff]$ mu* aga9 f feeble heal? & incessant loss ( sleep4 ,i h (t5 ?\ght1 %e wrote to a fri5d1 t :ile s /upefi$ by sickness ,i %\ld n be glad to see my own "m if ,i _h to speak to h]4 ,b nei!r sick days nor sleepless nights c\ld qu5* ! ,brightness ( h] _s or :olly spoil h] enjoym5t ( life4 ,a little di>y :i* %e kept conta9s _m gleams ( sun%9e1 record+ pleasant visits f old fri5ds1 happy h\rs & walks ) ! *ildr51 excursions to ,new>k1 & h[ amaz+ly %e enjoy$ ! boys 7h] bro!rs7 on _! return f ! pursuit ( gold5 dreams 9 ,cali=nia4 ,9 ! mon? ( ,novemb] ! di>y %[s t h] wat*ful eye obs]v$ 9 ,eddy signs ( disease1 :i* fill$ h] ) anxiety4 ,be=e ! close ( ! ye> h] wor/ fe>s began to be realis$4 ,%e wrote1 ,dec4 #ca3 ,i am "u a con/ant pressure ( anxiety ab\t ,eddy4 ,h[ little we "k :at ! ,new ,ye> w br+ =?4 ,e>ly 9 ,janu>y1 #aheb1 8 symptoms assum$ a fatal type1 & on ! #af? ( ! same mon? ! beautiful boy 0 releas$ f 8 suff]+s1 & f\nd re/ 9 ! k+dom ( heav51 t sweet home ( ! little *ildr54 ,a few extracts f ,eddy's j\rnal w tell ! /ory ( 8 la/ days3 ,on ! #ai? ( ,decemb] ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,poor 0 "h4 ,on he>+ ( x1 ,eddy said he want$ to see him4 ,z he took n[ s little int]e/ 9 any?+ t w\ld co/ him an ef=t1 ,i 0 surpris$1 b told ,annie to lead him d[n to ! p>lor2 on rea*+ x !y f\nd ,mr4 ,poor n !re1 & !y !n w5t up to ! /udy4 ,i he>d _! fa!r's joy\s greet+ z he op5$ 8 door = !m1 & h[ he welcom$ ,eddy1 9 p>ticul>1 ) a p]fect %[] ( kisses & c>esses4 ,?is 0 ! la/ "t ! de> *ild's own feet ev] took him !re2 b 8 fa!r aft]w>ds frequ5tly c>ri$ him up 9 8 arms & amus$ him ) pictures1 especially ) :at ,eddy call$ ! be> books4 #b ,"o morn+ ,ell5 told him %e 0 go+ to make a little pie = 8 d9n]1 b on 8 next appe>ance 9 ! kit*5 told him %e _h let x burn all up 9 ! ov51 & t %e felt dreadfully ab\t x4 ,nev] m9d1 ,ellie1 said he1 mamma does n l to h me eat pie2 b :5 ,i get well ,i %all h z _m z ,i want4 ,on ! #bd? ( ,decemb] ,mr4 ,/e>ns & ,anna 7 "h4 ,i 0 out ) ! latt] mo/ ( ! day2 on my return ,eddy came to me ) a little flag :i* 8 uncle _h giv5 him1 & aft] !y _h left u he ran up & d[n ) x1 & z my eye foll[$ him1 ,i ?\ght he look$ happi] & bright] & m l himself ?an ,i _h se5 him = a long "t4 ,he kept say+1 ,mr4 ,/e>ns gave me ?is flag6 & !n w\ld correct himself & say1 ,i mean my ,uncle ,/e>ns4 ,on ?is night he hung up 8 bag = 8 pres5ts1 & aft] go+ to b$1 survey$ x ) a *uckle ( pleasure peculi> to him1 & f9ally fell asleep 9 ?is happy mood4 ,i took great delight 9 arrang+ 8 & ,a4's pres5ts1 & gett+ !m safely into _! bags4 ,he enjoy$ ,*ri/mas z mu* z ,i _h reason to expect he w\ld1 9 8 /ate ( heal?1 & 0 busy among 8 new play?+s all day4 ,he _h tak5 a fancy )9 a few weeks to kneel at family pray]s ) me at my *air1 & w\ld ?r[ "o little arm r\nd my neck1 :ile ) ! o!r h& he s prettily & s]i\sly cov]$ 8 eyes4 ,z _! heads t\*$ my face z !y knelt1 ,i obs]v$ t ,eddy's felt hot :5 comp>$ ) ,a4's2 j en\gh s to increase my uneas9ess4 ,on ent]+ ! nurs]y on ,new ,ye>'s morn+1 ,i 0 /ruck ) 8 appe>ance z he lay 9 b$2 8 face be+ spott$ all ov]4 ,on ask+ ,m>g>et ab\t x1 %e said he _h be5 cry+1 & t ?is occasion$ ! spots4 ,?is did n seem probable to me1 = ,i _h nev] se5 any?+ ( ?is k9d on 8 face be=e4 ,h[ little ,i knew t ^! 7 ! la/ te>s my d>l+ w\ld ev] %$4 ,on ,sunday morn+1 ,janu>y #d1 n be+ able to come himself1 ,dr4 ,buck s5t ,dr4 ,watson 9 8 place4 ,i told ,dr4 ,w4 t ,i ?\ght ,eddy _h wat] on ! bra92 he said x 0 n s1 & ord]$ no?+ b a w>m ba?4 ,on ,?ursday1 ,janu>y #h1 :ile ,m>g>et 0 at d9n]1 ,i knelt by ! side ( ! cradle1 rock+ x v g5tly1 & he ask$ me to tell him a /ory4 ,i ask$ :at ab\t1 & he said1 ,a little boy1 on :i* ,i said some?+ l ?is3 ,mamma kn[s a de> little boy :o 0 v sick4 ,8 head a*$ & he felt sick all ov]4 ,god said1 ,i mu/ let t little lamb come into my fold2 !n 8 head w nev] a*e aga91 & he w be a v happy little lamb4 ,i us$ ! words little lamb because he 0 s fond ( !m4 ,(t5 he w\ld run to 8 nurse ) 8 face full ( animation & say1 ,m>get6 ,mamma says ,i am h] little lamb6 ,:ile ,i 0 tell+ him ?is /ory 8 eyes 7 fix$ intellig5tly on my face4 ,i !n said1 ,w\ld y l to "k ! "n ( ?is boy8 ,) eag]ness he said1 ,yes1 yes1 mamma6 ,tak+ 8 de> little h& 9 m9e1 & kiss+ x1 ,i said1 ,x 0 ,eddy4 ,j !n 8 nurse came 9 & 8 att5tion 0 div]t$1 s ,i said no m4 ,on ,sunday1 ,janu>y #aa1 at noon1 :ile !y 7 all at d9n]1 ,i 0 left alone ) my d>l+ = a few mom5ts1 & c\ld n help kiss+ 8 unconsci\s lips4 ,to my utt] amazem5t he look$ up & pla9ly recognis$ me & w>mly return$ my kiss4 ,!n he said feebly1 b di/9ctly twice1 ,i want "s meat & potato4 ,i d n ?9k ,i %\ld h be5 m delight$ if he _h ris5 f ! dead1 once m to recognise me4 ,oh1 x 0 su* a com=t to h "o m kiss1 & to be able to gratify "o m wi%6 ,on ,friday1 ,janu>y #af?1 8 little we>y sighs became m pr(\nd1 &1 z ! day advanc$1 m l groans2 b appe>$ to indicate extreme fatigue1 r ?an sev]e pa94 ,t[>ds night 8 brea?+ became quick & labori\s1 & betwe5 sev5 & eight slight spasms agitat$ 8 little feeble frame4 ,he utt]$ cries ( di/ress = a few m9utes1 :5 !y ceas$1 & 8 lov+ & g5tle _s asc5d$ to t _w :]e ?\s&s ( holy *ildr5 & ! bless$ company ( angels & our bless$ ,"l ,jesus1 ,i d\bt n1 joyfully welcom$ him4 ,n[ we 7 able to say1 ,x is well ) ! *ild6 ,oh1 said ! g>d5]1 z he pass$ d[n ! g>d5-walk1 :o pluck$ t fl[]8 ,:o ga!r$ t plant8 ,8 fell[-s]vants answ]$1 ,! ,,ma/]6 ,& ! g>d5] held 8 peace4 ,! feel+s ( ! "m's he>t on ,friday f\nd v5t 9 "s l9es entitl$ ,to ,my ,dy+ ,eddy2 ,janu>y #af?4 ,"h are two /anzas3 ,ble/ *ild6 de> *ild6 ,= !e is ,jesus call+2 ,& ( our h\sehold !e--& only !e6 ,oh1 ha/5 h5ce6 to ,8 embraces ha/56 ,sweet %all ?y re/ & safe ?y %elt] be4 ,?\ :o ungu>d$ ne'er ha/ left our ?re%old1 ,alone mu/ v5ture n[ an unkn[n way2 ,yet1 fe> n6 ,footpr9ts ( an ,infant ,holy ,lie on ?y pa?4 ,?\ can/ n g a/ray4 ,9 a lett] to h] fri5d ,mrs4 ,all51 ( ,new ,b$=d1 dat$ ,janu>y #bh1 %e writes3 ,dur+ our de> little ,eddy's illness we 7 surr\nd$ ) k9d fri5ds1 & _m pray]s 7 (f]$ = u & = him4 ,no?+ t c\ld alleviate our affliction 0 left undone or un?\ght (1 & we feel t x w\ld be mo/ un*ri/ian & ungrateful 9 u to ev5 wond] at t ,div9e w :i* has b]eav$ u ( our only boy--! light & sun%9e ( our h\sehold4 ,we miss him sadly4 ,i ne$ n expla9 to y1 :o "k all ab\t x1 h[ sadly2 b we rejoice t he has got away f ?is tr\bl\s life1 & t we h _h ! privilege ( giv+ s de> a *ild to ,god4 ,:5 he 0 well he 0 "o ( ! happie/ creatures ,i ev] saw1 & ,i am sure he is well n[1 & t he is z happy z 8 joy\s nature makes him susceptible ( becom+4 ,god has be5 mo/ m]ciful to u 9 ?is affliction1 &1 if a b]eav$1 we are /ill a happy h\sehold & full ( ?anksgiv+4 ,give my love to bo? ! *ildr5 & tell !m !y mu/ n =get u1 & :5 !y ?9k & talk ( _! de> bro!r & si/]s 9 heav51 !y mu/ sometimes ?9k ( ! little ,eddy :o is !re too4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,bir? ( h] ,?ird ,*ild4 ,rem9isc5ce ( a ,sabba?-,ev5+ ,talk4 ,/ory ( ! ,baby's ,sudd5 ,illness & ,dea?4 ,summ] ( #aheb4 ,l9es entitl$ ,my ,nurs]y4 ,! %ock ( ,eddy's dea? prov$ almo/ too mu* = ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' enfeebl$ frame4 ,%e bore x1 h[ev]1 ) sweet submission1 & on ! #ag? ( ! foll[+ ,april h] sorr[ 0 *ang$ to joy1 & ,eddy's empty place fill$1 z %e ?\ght1 by ! bir? ( ,elizabe?1 h] ?ird *ild1 a picture ( infant9e heal? & beauty4 ,b1 al?\gh ! *ild seem$ p]fectly well1 ! "m h]self 0 br\ght to ! v]ge ( ! grave4 ,= a week or two h] life wav]$ 9 ! balance1 & %e 0 q 9 ! mood to foll[ ,eddy to ! bett] c\ntry4 ,h] husb&1 record+ a long & mo/ int]e/+ conv]sation ) h] on ,sabba? ev5+1 ,may #b;d1 speaks ( ! dep? & t5d]ness ( h] religi\s feel+s1 ( h] s5se ( s9 & ( ! grace & glory ( ! ,savi\r1 & !n adds1 ,h] old ,ri*mond ex]cises seem ( late to h return$ ) _! =m] /r5g? & beauty increas$ _m-fold4 ,on ! #ad? ( ,may %e 0 able to write 9 p5cil ^! l9es to h] si/]1 ,mrs4 ,hopk9s3 ,i little ?\ght t ,i %\ld ev] write to y aga91 b ,i h be5 br\ght ?r\gh a great deal1 & n[ h reason to expect to get well4 ,i nev] knew h[ mu* ,i lov$ y till ,i gave up all hope ( ev] see+ y aga91 & ,i h n /r5g? yet to tell y all ab\t x4 ,poor ,george has suff]$ mu*4 ,i hope all w be bless$ to him & to me4 ,i am /ill conf9$ to b$4 ,! doctor ?9ks !re may be an abscess ne> ! hip-jo9t1 &1 till t is cur$1 ,i c nei!r lie /raight 9 b$ or /& on my feet or ride out4 ,ev]ybody is k9d4 ,our cup has run ov]4 ,x is a sore trial n to be all[$ to nurse baby4 ,%e is kept 9 ano!r room4 ,i only see h] once a day4 ,%e beg9s to smile1 & is v bright-ey$4 ,i hope y\r j\rney w d y good4 ,if y c1 d write a few l9es--n m4 ,b1 good-by4 ,h>dly _h %e p5n$ ^! l9es1 :51 l a ?und]bolt f a cle> sky1 ano!r /unn+ bl[ fell ^u h]4 ,on ! #ai? ( ,may1 aft] an illness ( a few h\rs1 ,bessie1 too1 0 fold$ =ev] 9 ! arms ( ! ,good ,%eph]d4 ,"h is ! "m's own /ory ( h] loss3 ,our d>l+ ,eddy di$ on ! #af? ( ,janu>y4 ,! baby he _h s (t5 spok5 ( 0 born on ! #ag? ( ,april4 ,i 0 too feeble to h any c>e ( h]4 ,nev] _h h] 9 my arms b twice2 once ! day be=e %e di$ & once :ile %e 0 dy+4 ,i nev] saw h] little feet4 ,%e 0 a beautiful little creature1 ) a great quantity ( d>k hair & v d>k blue eyes4 ,! nurse _h to keep h] 9 ano!r room on acc\nt ( my illness4 ,:5 %e 0 a mon? old %e br\ght h] to me "o aft]noon4 ,?is *ild is p]fectly beautiful1 said %e2 to-morr[ ,i mean to dress h] up & h h] lik5ess tak54 ,i ask$ h] to get me up 9 b$ & let me take h] a m9ute4 ,%e object$1 & ,i urg$ h] a good deal1 till at la/ %e cons5t$4 ,! mom5t ,i took h] ,i 0 /ruck by h] une>?ly1 absolutely angelic expression2 &1 n hav+ /r5g? en\gh to help x1 bur/ out cry+ bitt]ly1 & cri$ all ! aft]noon :ile ,i 0 /ruggl+ to give h] up4 ,h] fa!r 0 at ,new>k4 ,:5 he came home at d>k ,i told him ,i 0 sure t baby 0 go+ to die4 ,he laugh$ at me1 said my weak heal? made me fancy x1 & ask$ ! nurse if ! *ild 0 n well4 ,%e said %e 0--p]fectly well4 ,my pres5tim5t rema9$1 h[ev]1 9 full =ce1 & ! fir/ ?+ next morn+ ,i ask$ ,m>g>et to g & see h[ baby 04 ,%e came back1 say+1 ,%e is v well4 ,%e lies !re on ! b$ scold+ to h]self4 ,i cri$ out to h h] in/antly br\ght to me4 ,m4 refus$1 say+ ! nurse w\ld be displeas$4 ,b my anxieties 7 excit$ by ! use ( ! ^w scold+1 z ,i knew no baby a mon? old did any?+ ( t sort1 & insi/$ on its be+ br\ght to me4 ,! in/ant ,i t\*$ x ,i felt its head to be ( a burn+ heat1 & s5t = ! nurse at once4 ,:5 %e came1 ,i said1 ,?is *ild is v sick4 ,yes1 %e said1 b ,i want$ y to h y\r breakfa/ fir/4 ,at "o o'clock 9 ! night ,i f\nd a little swell+4 ,i d n "k :at x is1 b ! *ild is c]ta9ly v sick4 ,on exam9ation ,i knew x 0 erysipelas4 ,don't say t1 said ! nurse1 & bur/ into te>s4 ,i made !m get me up & p>tly dress me1 z ,i 0 s excit$ ,i c\ld n /ay 9 b$4 ,dr4 ,buck came at t5 o'clock2 he express$ no anxiety1 b prescrib$ = h] & ,george w5t out to get :at he ord]$4 ,! nurse br\ght h] to me at elev5 o'clock & begg$ me to obs]ve t ! spot _h turn$ black4 ,i knew at once t ?is 0 fe>ful1 fatal disease1 & entreat$ ,george to g & tell ! doctor4 ,he w5t to please me1 ?\gh he saw no ne$ ( x1 & gave ! wrong message to ! doctor1 to ! effect t ! swell+ 0 increas+1 to :i* ! doctor repli$ t x naturally w\ld d s4 ,! little creature1 ^: moans ,m>g>et _h t]m$ scold+1 n[ 0 he>d all ov] t floor2 e brea? a moan t tore my he>t 9 pieces4 ,i begg$ to h h] br\ght to me b ! nurse s5t ^w %e 0 too sick to be mov$4 ,i !n begg$ ! nurse to come & tell me exactly :at %e ?\ght ( h]1 b %e said %e c\ld n leave h]4 ,i !n crawl$ on my h&s & knees into ! room1 be+ unable !n & = a long "t aft] to be> my own weight4 ,:at a sc5e our nurs]y pres5t$6 ,ev]y?+ upset & toss$ ab\t1 m$ic9es "h & !re on ! floor1 a fire l a fi]y furnace1 & ,miss ,h4 sitt+ hopelessly & ) fall+ te>s ) ! baby on a pill[ 9 h] lap--all its boa/$ beauty gone =ev]4 ,! sight 0 appall+ & its moans he>t-r5d+4 ,george came & got me back to my s(a & said he felt z if he %\ld jump out ( ! w9d[ e "t he he>d t dreadful s\nd4 ,he _h to g out & made me promise n to try to g to ! nurs]y till 8 return4 ,i fooli%ly promis$4 ,mrs4 ,:ite #c call$1 & ,i told h] ,i 0 go+ to lose my baby2 %e 0 v k9d & w5t 9 to see x b ,i believe express$ no op9ion z to its /ate4 ,b %e repeat$ an expression :i* ,i repeat$ to myself _m times t day1 & h repeat$ ?\s&s ( times s9ce--,god nev] makes a mi/ake4 ,m>g>et w5t soon aft] %e left to see h[ ! poor little creature 01 & did n come back4 ,h\r aft] h\r pass$ & no "o came4 ,i lay rack$ ) cruel torture1 bitt]ly regrett+ my promise to ,george1 li/5+ to ^? moans till ,i 0 ne>ly wild4 ,!n 9 a fr5zy ( despair ,i pull$ myself ov] to my bureau1 :]e ,i _h arrang$ ! da9ty little g>m5ts my d>l+ 0 to we>1 & :i* ,i _h promis$ myself s mu* pleasure 9 see+ h] we>4 ,i took out ev]y?+ %e w\ld ne$ = h] burial1 ) a sort ( wild pleasure 9 do+ = h] "o little s]vice1 :]e ,i _h hop$ be=e to r5d] s _m4 ,%e x 0 :om we expect$ to fill our lo/ ,eddy's vacant place2 we ?\ght we _h _h our sorr[ & t n[ our joy _h come4 ,z ,i lay back exhau/$1 ) ^! g>m5ts on my brea/1 ,l\isa ,%ipman #d op5$ ! door4 ,"o glance at my pite\s face1 = oh1 h[ glad ,i 0 to see h]6 made h] bur/ into te>s be=e %e knew :at %e 0 cry+ =4 ,oh1 g br+ me news f my poor dy+ baby6 ,i almo/ scream$1 z %e approa*$ me4 ,& see1 "h are h] grave-clo!s4 ,oh1 ,lizzy1 h y gone crazy8 cri$ %e1 ) a fre% bur/ ( te>s4 ,i bes\ght h] to g1 told h] h[ my promise b\nd me1 made h] li/5 to ^? t]rible s\nds :i* two doors c\ld n %ut out4 ,z %e left ! room %e met ,dr4 ,b4 & !y w5t to ! nurs]y toge!r4 ,%e soon came back1 quiet & compos$1 b v sorr[ful4 ,yes1 %e is dy+1 said %e1 ! doctor says s2 %e w n live an h\r4 444 ,at la/ we he>d ! s\nd ( ,george's key4 ,l\ise ran to call him4 ,i crawl$ once m to ! nurs]y1 & snat*$ my baby 9 fi]ce triumph f ! nurse4 ,at lea/ once ,i w\ld hold my *ild1 & nobody %\ld prev5t me4 ,george1 pale z dea?1 baptiz$ h] z ,i held h] 9 my trembl+ arms2 !re 7 a few m ( ^? t]rible1 nev]-to-be-=gott5 s\nds1 & at sev5 o'clock we 7 once m left ) only "o *ild4 ,a %ort1 %>p conflict1 & our baby 0 gone4 ,dr4 ,b4 came 9 lat] & said ! :ole ?+ 0 to him l a ?und]clap--z x 0 to h] poor fa!r4 ,to me x foll[$ closely on ! pres5tim5t t 9 "s measure prep>$ me = x4 ,"h ,i sit ) empty h&s4 ,i h _h ! little c(f9 9 my arms1 b my baby's face c\ld n be se51 s rudely _h dea? m>r$ x4 ,empty h&s1 empty h&s1 a worn-out1 exhau/$ body1 & unutt]able long+s to flee f a _w t has _h = me s _m %>p exp]i5ces4 ,god help me1 my baby1 my baby6 ,god help me1 my little lo/ ,eddy6 ,b al?\gh ! dea? ( ^! two *ildr5 tore ) angui% ! "m's he>t1 %e made no %[ ( grief1 & to ! eye ( ! _w h] life soon appe>$ to move on z a=etime4 ,nev] aga91 h[ev]1 0 x exactly ! same life4 ,%e _h ent]$ into ! fell[%ip ( ,*ri/'s suff]+s1 & ! new exp]i5ce wr\ght a great *ange 9 h] :ole be+4 ,a "p ( ! summ] & ! e>ly autumn ( #aheb 7 pass$ among k9d fri5ds at ,newport1 9 ,portl&1 & at ! ,ocean ,h\se on ,cape ,elizabe?4 ,%e return$ mu* refre%$1 & gave h]self up *e]fully to h] accu/om$ duties4 ,b a cl\d re/$ /ill ^u h] home1 & at times ! old grief came back aga9 ) r5ew$ poignancy4 ,"h are a few l9es expressive ( h] feel+s4 ,!y 7 writt5 9 p5cil on a little scrap ( pap]3 ,,my ,,nurs]y4 #aheb4 ,i ?\ght t prattl+ boys & girls ,w\ld fill ?is empty room2 ,t my ri* he>t w\ld ga!r fl[]s ,f *ildhood's op5+ bloom4 ,"o *ild & two gre5 graves are m9e1 ,?is is ,god's gift to me2 ,a ble$+1 fa9t+1 brok5 he>t-- ,?is is my gift to ,!e4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,summ] at ,:ite ,lake4 ,sudd5 ,dea? ( h] ,c\s91 ,miss ,%ipman4 ,qu>ant9$4 ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days4 ,h[ %e wrote x4 ,! ,fl[] ( ! ,family4 ,h] ,motive 9 writ+ x4 ,lett] ( ,sympa?y to a b]eav$ ,"m4 ,a ,summ] at ! ,seaside4 ,h5ry & ,bessie4 ,! ye> #ahec 0 pass$ quietly & 9 bett] heal?4 ,9 ! e>ly summ] %e made a delightful visit at ,! ,isl&1 ne> ,we/ ,po9t1 ! home ( ! au?or ( ,! ,wide1 ,wide ,_w4 ,%e 0 w>mly atta*$ to ,miss ,w>n] & h] si/]1 & h>dly less s to _! fa!r & aunt1 ^: pres5ce !n adorn$ t pleasant home ) s mu* light & sweetness4 ,e>ly 9 ,augu/ %e w5t ) h] husb& & *ild to ,:ite ,lake1 ,sullivan ,co41 ,n4 ,y41 :]e1 9 company ) sev]al families f ! ,m]c] /reet *ur*1 %e sp5t six weeks 9 brea?+ ! pure c\ntry air1 & 9 heal?ful outdoor ex]cise4 #e ,ab\t ! middle ( ,octob] %e 0 greatly di/ress$ by ! sudd5 dea? ( ! "y c\s91 already m5tion$1 :o 0 /ay+ ) h] dur+ h] husb&'s abs5ce on a visit to ,new ,b$=d4 ,miss ,%ipman 0 a bright1 attractive girl1 & en?usia/ic 9 h] devotion to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,! latt]1 9 a lett] to h] husb&1 dat$ ,saturday morn+1 ,octob] #ae?1 #ahec1 writes3 ,i imag9e y enjoy+ ?is f9e morn+1 & c't rejoice en\gh1 t y are hav+ su* wea!r4 ,a4 is bright & well & is play+ 9 h] baby-h\se & s++4 ,l\ise is /ill q sick1 & ,i see no prospect ( h] n rema9+ s = "s "t4 ,! morn+ aft] y left ,i ?\ght to be sure %e _h ! small-pox4 ,! doctor1 h[ev]1 calls x a ra%4 ,x makes h] look dreadfully & feel dreadfully4 ,%e gets h>dly a mom5t ( sleep & takes next to no n\ri%m5t4 ,arr[root is all ! doctor all[s4 ,he comes twice a day & seems v k9d & full ( compassion4 ,%e crawl$ d[n ?is morn+ to ! nurs]y1 & seems to be asleep n[4 ,mrs4 ,bull v k9dly (f]$ to come & d any?+ if ,l\ise %\ld ne$ x1 b ,i d n ?9k %e w be sick en\gh = t4 ,i feel well & able to d all t is necess>y4 ,! la/ pro(-%eets came la/ night1 s t job is (f my h&s4 #f ,& n[1 d>l+1 ,i c't tell y h[ ,i miss y4 ,i nev] miss$ y m 9 my life1 if z mu*4 ,i hope y are hav+ a nice visit4 ,give my love to ,capt4 & ,mrs4 ,gibbs & all our fri5ds4 ,y\r mo/ lov+ little wife4 ,on ! foll[+ ,w$nesday1 ,octob] #ai?1 %e writes to h] husb&'s "m3 ,y w be %ock$ to he> t ,l\isa ,%ipman di$ on ,sunday night & 0 buri$ ye/]day4 ,h] disease 0 spott$ fev] ( ! mo/ malignant "*1 & rag$ ) great fury4 ,%e dropp$ away mo/ unexpect$ly to u1 be=e ,i _h kn[n five m9utes t %e 0 9 dang]1 & ,i came ne> be+ entirely alone ) h]4 ,dr4 ,m4 happ5$ to be "h & also h] "m-9-law2 b ,i _h be5 alone 9 ! h\se ) h] all day4 ,x is a dreadful %ock to u all1 & ,i feel p]fectly /upefi$4 ,george got home 9 "t = ! fun]al1 b ,dr4 ,sk9n] p]=m$ ! s]vices4 ,anna w g home to-morr[ & tell y all ab\t x4 ,%e & ,mr4 ,s4 slept away1 z ! upp] "p ( ! h\se is air+2 & to-night !y w sleep at ,pr(4 ,smi?'s4 ,! case 0 ev5 m fe>ful ?an %e suppos$ :ile writ+ ?is lett]4 ,^u h] describ+ x to ,dr4 ,buck1 :o call$ a few h\rs lat]1 he exclaim$1 ,:y1 x 0 malignant small-pox6 ,y mu/ all be vacc9at$ in/antly & h ! b$d+ & h\se dis9fect$4 ,?is 0 done2 b x 0 too late4 ,h] little daught] _h ! disease1 ?\gh 9 a mild =m2 & "o ( h] bro!rs1 :o 0 pass+ ! autumn ) h]1 _h x s sev]ely z b>ely to escape ) 8 life4 ,%e h]self became a nurse to !m bo?1 & pass$ ! next two mon?s qu>ant9$ )9 h] own walls4 ,to h] husb&'s "m %e wrote3 ,i am n all[$ to see anyone--am v lonesome1 & hope ,anna w write & tell me e little ?+ ab\t y all4 ,! sc5es ,i h lately pass$ ?r\gh make me tremble :5 ,i ?9k :at a fatal malady lurks 9 e corn] ( our h\se4 ,& speak+ aft] ! mann] ( m51 does x n seem almo/ incr$ible t ?is *ild1 wat*$ f h] bir? l ! apple ( our eyes1 %\ld yet fall into ! jaws ( ?is loa?some disease8 ,i see m & m t p>5ts mu/ leave _! *ildr5 to ,provid5ce4 ,9 ! e>ly "p ( ?is ye> ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss wrote ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days1 ! book t has giv5 s mu* delight to t5s ( ?\s&s ( little *ildr51 :]ev] ! ,engli% tongue is spok54 ,l mo/ ( h] books1 x 0 an inspiration & 0 compos$ ) ! utmo/ rapidity4 ,%e read ! diff]5t *apt]s1 z !y 7 writt51 to h] husb&1 *ild & bro!r1 :o all ) "o voice express$ _! admiration4 ,9 ab\t t5 days ! "w 0 f9i%$4 ,! manuscript 0 9 a cle>1 delicate h& & )\t an erasure4 ,^u its publication x 0 at once recognis$ z a production ( real g5ius1 inimitable 9 its k9d1 & nei!r ! popul> v]dict nor ! v]dict ( ! *ildr5 z to its m]its has ev] *ang$4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 z has be5 /at$ already1 began to write = ! press at an e>ly age4 ,b f ! "t ( h] go+ to ,ri*mond till #ahec--;a p]iod ( ?irte5 ye>s--h] p5 0 well nigh idle1 except 9 ! way ( correspond5ce4 ,:51 !re=e1 %e gave h]self aga9 to lit]>y labor1 x 0 ) a l>gely increas$ fund ( k & exp]i5ce ^u :i* to draw4 ,^! ?irte5 ye>s _h taught h] ri* lessons1 bo? 9 lit]ature & 9 life4 ,!y _h be5 especially fruitful 9 reveal+ to h] ! he>t ( *ildhood & quick5+ h] sympa?y ) its joys & sorr[s4 ,& all ^! lessons prep>$ h] to write ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days & ! o!r ,susy books4 ,! ye> #ahed 0 m>k$ by ! bir? ( h] f\r? *ild1 & by ! publication ( ,! ,fl[] ( ! ,family4 ,?is "w 0 receiv$ ) great favor bo? at home & abroad4 ,x 0 soon translat$ into ,fr5* "u ! title1 ,la ,fleur de la ,famille1 & lat] into ,g]man "u ! title1 ,die ,p]le d] ,familie4 ,9 bo? languages x receiv$ ! w>me/ praise4 ,9 a lett] to h] fri5d ,mrs4 ,cl>k1 ( ,portl&1 %e ?us ref]s to ?is book3 ,i long to h x do+ good4 ,i nev] _h su* desires ab\t any?+ 9 my life2 & ,i nev] sat d[n to write )\t fir/ pray+ t ,i might n be suff]$ to write any?+ t w\ld d h>m1 & t1 on ! contr>y1 ,i might be taught to say :at w\ld d good4 ,& x has be5 a great com=t to me t e ^w ( praise ,i ev] h receiv$ f o!rs conc]n+ x has be5 x w d good1 & ?is ,i h _h f s _m s\rces t amid mu* trial & sickness ev] s9ce its publication1 ,i h _h rays ( sun%9e creep+ 9 n[ & !n to *e] & su/a9 me4 ,to ! same fri5d1 j b]eft ( h] two *ildr51 %e writes a few mon?s lat]3 ,is x possible1 is x possible t y are made *ildless8 ,i feel di/ress$ = y1 my de> fri5d2 ,i long to fly to y & weep ) y2 x seems z if ,i mu/ say or d some?+ to com=t y4 ,b ,god only c help y n[1 & h[ ?ankful ,i am = a ?rone ( grace & p[] :]e ,i c comm5d y1 aga9 & aga91 to ,him :o doe? all ?+s well4 ,i nev] realise my own affliction 9 ! loss ( my *ildr5 z ,i d :5 dea? ent]s ! h\se ( a fri5d4 ,!n ,i feel t ,i c't h x s4 ,b :y %\ld ,i ?9k ,i "k bett] ?an my ,div9e ,ma/] :at is good = me1 or good = ^? ,i love6 ,de> ,c>rie1'6 tru/ t 9 ?is h\r ( sorr[ y h ) y t ,pres5ce1 be=e :i* alone sorr[ & sigh+ flee away4 ,god is left2 ,*ri/ is left2 sickness1 accid5t1 dea? c n t\* y "h4 ,is n ?is a blissful ?\ght8444 ,z ,i sit at my desk my eye is attract$ by ! r[ ( books be=e me1 & :at a comm5t on life are _! v titles3 ,songs 9 ! ,night1 ,light on ,little ,graves1 ,! ,night ( ,weep+1 ,! ,dea? ( ,little ,*ildr51 ,! ,fold$ ,lamb1 ,! ,brok5 ,bud1 ^! h /ray$ "o by "o into my small enclosure1 to speak p]adv5ture a ^w 9 season unto my we>9ess4 ,& yet1 de> ,c>rie1 ?is is n all ( life4 ,y & ,i h ta/$ "s ( its highe/ joys1 z well z its deepe/ sorr[s1 & x has 9 res]ve = u only j :at is be/ = u4 ,may sorr[ br+ u bo? ne>] to ,*ri/6 ,i c almo/ fancy my little ,eddy has tak5 y\r little ,maymee by ! h& & l$ h] to ! bosom ( ,jesus4 ,h[ /range our *ildr51 our own little infants1 h se5 ,him 9 ,8 glory1 :om we are only yet long+ = & /ruggl+ t[>ds6 ,if x w n fright5 y to own a ,unit>ian book1 !re is "o call$ ,*ri/ian ,consolation by ,rev4 ,a4 ,p4 ,peabody1 t ,i ?9k y w\ld f9d v pr(itable4 ,i see no?+1 or next to no?+1 ,unit>ian 9 x1 :ile x is full ( ri*1 holy exp]i5ce4 ,"o s]mon on ,cont+5t ,ev5ts & ,provid5ce t\*es y\r case exactly4 ,no ev5t ( special importance m>k$ ! ye> #ahee4 ,%e sp5t ! mon? ( ,july among h] fri5ds 9 ,portl&1 & ! next six weeks at ! ,ocean ,h\se on ,cape ,elizabe?4 ,?is 0 "o ( h] favorite places ( re/4 ,%e nev] tir$ ( wat*+ ! waves & _! multitud9\s laught]1 ( li/5+ to ! ro> ( ! break]s1 or climb+ ! rocks & w&]+ along ! %ore 9 que/ ( %ells & sea-grasses4 ,9 ga!r+ & press+ ! latt]1 %e pass$ _m a happy h\r4 ,9 ,augu/ ( ?is ye> appe>$ "o ( h] be/ *ildr5's books1 ,h5ry & ,bessie2 or1 ,:at !y ,did 9 ! ,c\ntry4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,a ,memorable ,ye>4 ,l9es on ! ,anniv]s>y ( ,eddy's ,dea?4 ,extracts f h] ,j\rnal4 ,little ,susy's ,six ,tea*]s4 ,! ,tea*]s' ,meet+4 ,a ,new ,york ,waif4 ,summ] 9 ! ,c\ntry4 ,lett]s4 ,little ,susy's ,little ,s]vants4 ,extracts f h] ,j\rnal4 ,alone ) ,god4 ,! records ( ! ye> #ahef are s+ul>ly full & int]e/+4 ,x 0 a ye> ( poignant suff]+1 ( %>p conflicts ( s\l1 & ( great peace & joy4 ,its e>li] mon?s1 especially1 7 %ad[$ by a d>k cl\d ( anxiety & di/ress4 ,& h] feeble bodily /ate caus$ by c>e-worn days & sleepless nights1 add$ to ! tr\ble4 ,old sorr[s1 too1 came back aga94 ,on ! #af? ( ,janu>y1 ! anniv]s>y ( ,eddy's dea?1 %e gave v5t to h] feel+s 9 "s pa!tic v]ses1 ( :i* ! foll[+ l9es =m a "p3 ,f\r ye>s1 f\r we>y ye>s1 my *ild1 ,f\r ye>s ago to-night1 ,) p>t+ cry ( angui% wild ,?y _s took its flight2 ah me6 ,took its et]nal flight4 ,& 9 t h\r ( mortal /rife ,i ?\ght ,i felt ! ?roe1 ,! bir?-pang ( a grief1 ^: life ,mu/ soo! my te>less woe1 mu/ soo! ,& ease me ( my woe4 ,yet fold$ f> ?r\gh all ^! ye>s1 ,fold$ f mortal eyes1 ,ly+ alas too deep = te>s1 ,unborn1 unborn x lies1 )9 ,my he>t ( he>t x lies4 ,my s9less *ild6 ^u ?y knees ,be=e ! ,ma/] pray2 ,me?9ks ?y infant h&s might seize ,& %$ ^u my way sweet peace2 ,sweet peace ^u my way4 ,"h foll[ "s extracts f h] j\rnal4 ,jan #c;d4 #ahef4--;,_h no "t to write on ,new ,ye>'s day1 z we _h a ho/ ( call]s4 ,x 0 a v h>d day1 z ,i 0 q unwell1 & _h at la/ to give up & g to b$4 #ae?--,am q uneasy ab\t baby1 z x seems almo/ impossible %e %\ld long endure su* sev]e pa9 & want ( sleep4 ,my life is a v anxi\s "o4 ,i feel e day m & m long+ = my home 9 heav54 ,sometimes ,i fe> x am\nts almo/ to a s9ful long+--= surely ,i ought to be will+ to live or die1 j z ,god pleases4 ,feb4 #a/4--,i h _h no he>t to make a record ( :at has befall5 u s9ce ,i la/ wrote4 ,& yet ,i may1 sometime1 want to recall ?is exp]i5ce1 pa9ful z x is4 ,de> little baby _h be5 improv+ 9 heal?1 & on ,w$nesday we w5t to d9e at ,mrs4 ,wa9right's4 ,we w5t at f\r4 ,ab\t eight1 ^w came t %e 0 ill4 ,:5 ,i got home ,i f\nd h] ins5sible1 ) h] eyes wide op51 h] brea?+ t]rific1 & h] condition 9 e respect v al>m+4 ,j z ,dr4 ,buck 0 com+ 91 %e r\s$ a little1 b soon relaps$ into ! same /ate4 ,he told u %e 0 dy+4 ,i felt l a /one1 ,9 a mom5t ,i seem$ to give up my hold on h]4 ,%e appe>$ no long] m9e b ,god's4 ,x is always s 9 su* great em]g5cies4 ,!n1 my w t /ruggles s ab\t trifles1 makes no ef=t4 ,b z we sat h\r aft] h\r wat*+ ! alt]nations ( color 9 h] purple face & li/5+ to t t]rible gasp+1 rattl+ s\nd1 ,i said to myself ,a few m nights l ?is1 & ,i d believe my body & s\l w\ld yield to su* angui%4 ,oh1 :y %\ld ,i try to tell myself :at a night x 04 ,god kn[s1 ,god only6 ,h[ ,he has smitt5 me by means ( ?is *ild1 ,he well kn[s4 ,%e rema9$ ?us ab\t twelve h\rs4 ,twelve h\rs ( m>tyrdom to me su* z ,i nev] _h kn[n4 ,!n to our unspeakable amazem5t %e r\s$ up1 nurs$1 & !n fell into a sweet sleep ( "s h\rs4 ,sunday1 ,feb4 #c;d4--,! /upor1 or :atev] x is1 9 :i* t dreadful night has left me1 is on me /ill4 ,i h no m s5se or feel+ ?an a /one4 ,i kneel d[n be=e ,god & d n say a ^w4 ,i take up a book & read1 b get hold ( no?+4 ,at *ur* ,i felt afraid ,i %\ld fall ^u ! p & te> !m4 ,i c\ld wi% no "o to pity me or ev5 "k t ,i am smitt54 ,x does seem to me t ^? :o c sit d[n & cry1 "k no?+ ( mis]y4 ,feb4 #d?4--,at la/ ! ice melts & ,i c get ne> my ,god--my only com=t1 my only joy1 my ,all 9 all6 ,?is morn+ ,i 0 able to op5 my he>t to ,him & to ca/ "s ( ?is burd5 on ,him1 :o alone kn[s :at x is4444 ,i see t x is sweet to be a pilgrim & a /rang]1 & t x matt]s v little :at befalls me on ! way to my bless$ home4 ,if ,god pleases to sp>e my *ild a little long]1 ,i w be v ?ankful4 ,may ,he take ?is season1 :5 e>?ly com=t fails me1 to turn me m ?an ev] to ,himself4 ,= "s mon?s ,i h enjoy$ a great deal 9 ,him4 ,pray] has be5 v sweet & ,i h _h "s glimpses ( joys indescribable4 #f?4--,%e /ill lives4 ,i "k n :at to ?9k4 ,"o mom5t ,i ?9k "o ?+ & ! next ano!r4 ,x is h>d] to submit to ?is susp5se ?an to a real1 decid$ bl[4 ,b ,i desire to leave x to my ,god4 ,he kn[s all h] hi/ory & all m9e4 ,he ord]s all ^! aggravat+ circum/ances & ,i w\ld n *ange !m4 ,my d>l+ has n liv$ 9 va94 ,= eighte5 mon?s %e has be5 ! little rod us$ by my ,fa!r = my *a/isem5t & n1 ,i ?9k1 q 9 va94 ,oh my ,god6 /ay n ,?y h& till ,?\ ha/ p]fect$ t :i* conc]ne? me4 ,s5d any?+ r ?an unsanctifi$ prosp]ity4 ,feb4 #aj?4--,to help div]t my m9d f su* incessant brood+ ov] my sorr[s1 ,i am writ+ a new book4 ,i _h j begun x :5 baby's ill-turn arre/$ me4 ,i tru/ x may d "s little good2 at lea/ ,i w\ld n d>e to write x1 if x c\ld d none4 ,may ,god bless x6 ,feb4 #ad?4--,want$ to g to ! pray]-meet+ b conclud$ to take ,a4 to he> ,g\gh at ! ,tab]nacle4 ,see+ su* a cr[d always makes me long to be 9 t happy cr[d ( sa9ts & angels 9 heav51 & he>+ *ildr5 s+ s sweetly made me pray = an entrance into ! s++1 prais+ multitude !re4 ,oh1 :5 %all ,i be "o ( t bless$ company :o s9 n6 ,my book is done2 may ,god bless x to "o *ild at lea/--!n x w n h be5 wa/$ "t4 ,! book ref]r$ to 0 ,little ,susy's ,six ,tea*]s4 ,x 0 publi%$ 9 ! spr+1 & at once took its place beside ! ,six ,bir?days 9 ! he>ts ( ! *ildr52 a place x /ill cont9ues to hold4 ,! six tea*]s are ,mrs4 ,love1 ,mr4 ,pa91 ,aunt ,pati5ce1 ,mr4 ,ought1 ,miss ,joy1 & ! angel ,fai?4 ,at ! end ( six ye>s !y hold a meet+ & report to little ,susy's p>5ts :at !y h be5 do+4 ,! clos+ *apt]1 h]e) quot$1 gives an acc\nt ( ?is meet+1 & may s]ve z a specim5 ( ! /yle & _s ( all ! ,little ,susy books4 ,if ,mr4 ,pa9 is to be at ! meet+1 ,i c't g1 said ,miss ,joy4 ,%e /ood on tip-toe be=e ! glass1 dress+ h]self 9 holiday clo!s4 ,p]haps he w\ld be will+ to leave 8 rod beh9d him1 said ,mrs4 ,love4 ,i w ask him at all ev5ts4 ,mr4 ,pa9 ?\ght he %\ld n feel at home )\t 8 rod4 ,he said he always lik$ to h x 9 8 h&s1 :e!r he 0 to use x or n4 ,miss ,joy 0 full ( fun & mis*ief ab\t ?is "t1 s %e slipp$ up slyly beh9d ,mr4 ,pa9 :ile he 0 talk+ & snat*$ away ! rod be=e he c\ld turn r\nd4 ,mrs4 ,love smil$ on see+ ?is little trick1 & !y all w5t d[n to ! p>lor & seat$ !mselves ) mu* gravity4 ,little ,susy sat 9 ! mid/ 9 h] own l[ *air look+ wide awake1 y may dep5d4 ,h] papa & mamma sat on ea* side l two judges4 ,mrs4 ,love rock$ h]self 9 ! rock+-*air 9 a cont5t$1 easy way2 & ,aunt ,pati5ce1 :o lik$ to d su* ?+s1 help$ ,miss ,joy to f9d ! leaves ( h] report--:i* might h be5 rose-leaves1 !y 7 s small4 ,mr4 ,ought look$ v good inde$1 & ! angel ,fai? %one across ! room l a sunbeam4 ,susy w be six ye>s old to-morr[1 said h] papa4 ,y h all be5 tea*+ h] ev] s9ce %e 0 born4 ,we w n[ li/5 to y\r reports & he> :at y h taught h]1 & :e!r y h done h] any good4 ,!y 7 all sil5t1 b ev]ybody look$ at ,mrs4 ,love z mu* z to say %e %\ld beg94 ,mrs4 ,love took out a little book ) a sky-blue cov] & began to read3 ,i h n done mu* = ,susy1 b love h] de>ly2 & ,i h n taught h] mu*1 b to love ev]ybody4 ,:5 %e 0 a baby ,i tri$ to tea* h] to smile1 b ,i don't ?9k ,i c\ld h taught h] if ,miss ,joy _h n help$ me4 ,& :5 %e 0 sick1 ,i 0 always sorry = h]1 & tri$ to com=t h]4 ,y h done h] a great deal ( good1 said ,susy's papa1 we w engage y to /ay six ye>s long]1 %\ld ,god sp>e h] life4 ,!n ,mr4 ,pa9 took up 8 book4 ,x _h a black cov]1 b ! leaves 7 gilt-edg$ & ! cov] 0 spangl$ ) />s4 ,i h puni%$ ,susy a good _m times1 said ,mr4 ,pa94 ,sometimes ,i slapp$ h] ) my h&2 sometimes ,i /ruck h] ) my rod2 sometimes ,i made h] sick2 b ,i nev] did any ( ^! ?+s because ,i 0 angry ) h] or lik$ to hurt h]4 ,i only came :5 ,mrs4 ,love call$ me4 ,y h taught h] excell5t lessons1 said ,susy's papa1 if x _h n be5 = y %e w\ld be gr[+ up disob$i5t & selfi%4 ,y may /ay six ye>s long]4 ,!n ,mr4 ,pa9 made a l[ b[ & said he 0 ?9k+ ( go+ away & s5d+ 8 bro!r1 ,mr4 ,sorr[1 & 8 si/]1 ,mrs4 ,disappo9tm5t1 to take 8 place4 ,oh1 no6 cri$ ,susy's mamma1 n yet1 n yet6 ,susy is /ill s little6 ,!n ,mr4 ,pa9 said he w\ld /ay )\t a rod1 z ,susy 0 n[ too old to be :ipp$4 ,!n ,miss ,joy took up h] book ) its ra9b[ cov] & tri$ to read4 ,b %e laugh$ s he>tily all ! "t1 & h] leaves kept fly+ out ( h] h&s at su* a rate1 t x 0 n possible to und]/& :at %e 0 say+4 ,x 0 all ab\t clapp+ h&s & runn+ races1 & pick+ fl[]s & hav+ a good "t4 ,ev]ybody laugh$ j because %e laugh$1 & ,susy's papa c\ld h>dly keep 8 face grave long en\gh to say3 ,y h done m good ?an tongue c tell4 ,y h made h] j su* a m]ry1 happy1 laugh+ little creature z ,i want$ h] to be4 ,y mu/ c]ta9ly /ay six ye>s long]4 ,!n ,mr4 ,ought drew =? 8 book4 ,x _h silv] cov]s & its leaves 7 ( ! mo/ delicate tissue4 ,i h taught little ,susy to be good1 said he4 ,nev] to t\* :at is n h]s2 nev] to speak a ^w t is n true2 nev] to h a ?\ght %e w\ld n l ! great & holy ,god to see4 ,if ,i /ay six ye>s long] ,i c tea* h] a great deal m1 = %e beg9s n[ to und]/& my fa9te/ :isp]4 ,%e is su* a little girl z ,i love to live )4 ,!n ,susy turn$ rosy-r$ ) pleasure1 & h] papa & mamma got up & %ook h&s ) ,mr4 ,ought & begg$ him nev]1 nev] to leave _! d>l+ *ild z long z %e liv$4 ,x 0 n[ ! turn ( ,aunt ,pati5ce4 ,h] book _h cov]s wr\ght by h] own h&s 9 grave & gay colors well m+l$ toge!r4 ,:5 ,i fir/ came "h1 %e said1 ,susy us$ to cry a great deal :5ev] %e 0 hurt or puni%$4 ,:5 %e 0 sick %e 0 v h>d to please4 ,:5 %e sat d[n to le>n to sew & to read & to write1 %e w\ld break h] ?read 9 ang]1 or ?r[ h] book on ! floor1 or decl>e %e nev] c\ld le>n4 ,b n[ %e has left (f cry+ :5 %e is hurt1 & tries to be> ! pa9 quietly4 ,:5 %e is sick %e does n fret or compla91 b takes h] m$ic9e )\t a ^w4 ,:5 %e is sew+ %e does n twit* h] ?read into knots1 & :5 %e is writ+ %e writes sl[ly & c>efully4 ,i h rock$ h] to sleep a ?\s& times4 ,i h be5 %ut up 9 a closet ) h] aga9 & aga91 & ,i hope ,i h done h] "s good & taught h] "s useful lessons4 ,inde$ y h1 ,aunt ,pati5ce1 said ,susy's papa1 b ,susy is n yet p]fect4 ,we %all ne$ y six ye>s long]4 ,& n[ ! little angel ,fai? op5$ 8 gold5 book & began to read3 ,i h taught ,susy t !re is ano!r _w besides ?is1 & h told h] t x is h] real home1 & :at a beautiful & happy "o x is4 ,i h told h] a great deal ab\t ,jesus & ! holy angels4 ,i d n "k mu* myself4 ,i am n v old1 b if ,i /ay "h six ye>s long] ,i %all gr[ wis] & ,i w tea* ,susy all ,i le>n1 & we w pray toge!r e morn+ & e night1 till at la/ %e loves ! ,"l ,jesus ) all h] he>t & s\l & m9d & /r5g?4 ,!n ,susy's papa & mamma look$ at ea* o!r & smil$1 & !y bo? said3 ,oh1 beautiful angel1 nev] leave h]6 ,& ! angel answ]$3 ,i w /ay ) h] z long z %e lives1 & w nev] leave h] till ,i leave h] at ! v door ( heav54 ,!n ! tea*]s began to put up _! books1 & ,susy's papa & mamma kiss$ h]1 & said3 ,we h _h a great deal ( com=t 9 our little daught]2 &1 ) ,god's bless+1 we %all see h] gr[ up a lov+1 pati5t1 & ob$i5t *ild--full ( joy & peace & ri* 9 fai? & good works4 ,s !y all bade ea* o!r good-night & w5t ?ankfully to b$4 ,! next entry 9 ! j\rnal notes a trait ( "*1 or r ( temp]am5t1 :i* (t5 excit$ ! wond] & also ! anxiety ( h] fri5ds4 ,x caus$ h] no little discom=t1 b %e c\ld nev] )/& its p[]4 ,m>* #ba/4--,i h be5 busy ) a sew+ fit & f9d ! lea/ int]e/+ piece ( "w ,i c get hold (1 z great a temptation z ! mo/ *>m+4 ,= if its *>m does n absorb my "t & ?\ghts1 ! eag] ha/e to f9i% & get x out ( ! way1 does4 ,?is is my life4 ,i ei!r am /upefi$ by ill-heal? or sorr[1 s z to feel no int]e/ 9 any?+1 or am absorb$ 9 :atev] bus9ess1 "w or pleasure ,i h on h&4 ,b nei!r anxiety ab\t h] *ild1 h\sehold c>es1 or any "w %e _h 9 h&1 s absorb$ h] ?\ghts z to r5d] h] ins5sible to ! sorr[s & trials ( o!rs4 ,on ! contr>y1 !y s]v$ r to call =? & int5sify h] k9dly sympa?ies4 ,a s+le case w illu/rate ?is4 ,a poor little girl--"o ( ^? waifs ( humanity 9 :i* a great city ab\nds--_h be5 comm5d$ to h] by a fri5d4 ,9 a lett] to ?is fri5d1 dat$ ,m>* #ag1 #ahef1 %e writes3 ,t little girl came1 petticoat & all2 we gave h] "s breakfa/1 & ,i !n w5t d[n ) h] to ,av5ue ,a4 ,on ! way1 %e told me t y gave h] "s money4 ,to my great sorr[ we f\nd1 on rea*+ ! s*ool1 t !y c\ld n take ano!r "o1 z !y 7 already ov]fl[+4 ,z we came out1 ,i saw t ! poor little s\l 0 j ready to bur/ into te>s1 & said to h] ,n[ y're disappo9t$1 ,i "k6 :]eupon %e actually look$ up into my face & smil$4 ,y "k ,i 0 afraid ,i nev] %\ld make h] smile1 %e look$ s =lorn4 ,i br\ght h] home to get "s books1 z %e said %e c\ld read1 & %e is to come aga9 to-morr[4 ,a lady to :om ,i told ! :ole /ory1 s5t me "s /ock+s t w\ld ab\t g on to h] big toe2 h[ev]1 !y w be nice = h] little si/]4 ,! wea!r has be5 s mild t ,i ?\ght x w\ld n be wor? :ile to make h] a cloak or any?+ ( t sort2 b next fall ,i %all see t %e is com=tably clad1 if %e behaves z well z %e did ! day %e 0 "h4 ,oh1 de>6 :at a drop 9 ! great bucket ( ,new ,york mis]y1 "o su* *ild is6 ,yet somebody mu/ look out = ! drops1 & ,i am only too ?ankful to seize on ?is "o4 ,9 ,june %e w5t1 ) ! *ildr51 to ,we/port1 ,conn41 :]e 9 rural quiet & seclusion %e pass$ ! next ?ree mon?s4 ,"h are "s extracts f h] lett]s1 writt5 f t place3 ,we/port1 ,june #be1 #ahef4 ,we _h a mo/ com=table "t gett+ "h2 bo? ! *ildr5 enjoy$ ! ride1 & baby seem$ unusually bright4 ,judge ,betts 0 v att5tive & k9d to u4 ,mrs4 ,g4 gr[s m & m pleasant e day4 ,we h pl5ty ( good food1 b %e worries because ,i d n eat m4 ,y "k ,i nev] 0 fam\s = eat+ meat1 & c\ntry d9n]s are n tempt+4 ,y c't ?9k h[ we enjoy see+ ! p\ltry f$4 ,!re are a hundr$ & eighty h5s & *ick5s1 & y %\ld see baby ?r[ h] little h& full ( corn to !m4 ,we w5t /rawb]ry+ ye/]day1 all ( u1 & ! way %e 0 pok$ ?r\gh b>s & lift$ ov] /one-walls w\ld h amus$ y4 ,%e is already q sunburnt2 b ,i ?9k %e is look+ sweetly4 ,i f9d myself all ! "t peep+ out ( ! w9d[1 ?9k+ e /ep is y\rs1 or t e wagon holds a lett] = me4 ,to ,miss ,a4 ,h4 ,woolsey1 ,we/port1 ,june #bg4 ,mr4 ,p4 enclos$ y\r k9d note 9 "o ( 8 own1 aft] fir/ read+ x himself1 if y ev] he>d ( su* a man4 ,i _h to laugh all alone :ile read+ x1 :i* 0 n a little provok+4 ,we are hav+ v nice times "h inde$4 ,breakfa/ at eight1 d9n] at half-pa/ twelve1 & tea at half-pa/ six1 giv+ u an aft]noon ( unprec$5t$ l5g? = su* l\ng+1 /rawb]ry+ or egg-hunt+ z happ5s to be on ! c>pet4 ,! air is p]fectly load$ ) ! fragrance ( clov] blossoms & fre% hay4 ,i nev] saw su* clov] 9 my life2 roses are no?+ 9 comp>ison4 ,i only want an old nag & a wagon1 s z to drive a load ( *ildr5 ab\t ^! lovely regions1 & t ,i hope e mom5t to atta94 ,to be sure1 x w\ld be amaz+ly conv5i5t if ,i _h a table1 & didn't h to sit on ! floor to write ^u a trunk2 b !n "o c't h ev]y?+1 & ,i am almo/ too com=table ) :at ,i h4 ,a4 is busy read+ ,s\!y to h] *ildr52 baby is (f se>*+ = eggs1 & h] felicity rea*$ its height :5 %e f\nd an ambiti\s h5 _h laid two 9 h] c>riage1 :i* little ?\ght :at x 0 com+ to ! c\ntry =4 ,i ?9k ! de> *ild already looks bett]2 %e lives 9 ! op5 air & enjoys ev]y?+4 ,mrs4 ,buck lives ab\t half a mile bel[ u1 & we run back & =? _m times a day4 ,i h already caught ! c\ntry fa%ion ( ru%+ to ! w9d[s ! mom5t a :eel or an op5+ gate is he>d4 ,i fancy ev]ybody is br++ me a lett] or else want to s5d "o to ! (fice1 & ! only way to d t is to scream at pass]s-by & ask !m if !y are go+ t way4 ,if y he> t ,i am (t5 se5 driv+ a flock ( geese d[n ! road1 or climb+ /one walls1 or creep+ ?r\gh b> f5ces1 y ne$n't believe a ^w ( x1 = ,i am a patt]n ( propriety1 & pride myself on my dignity4 ,i hope1 n[ y h begun s *>m+ly1 t y w write aga94 ,y "k :at lett]s are 9 ! c\ntry4 ,to h] ,husb&1 ,we/port1 ,june #bg4 ,i wond] :]e y are ?is lovely morn+8 ,hav+ a nice "t some:]e1 ,i d hope1 = x is too f9e a day to be lo/4 ,if y want to "k :]e ,i am1 :y ,i'm sitt+ at ! w9d[ writ+ on a trunk t ,i h j lift$ into a *air1 9 ord] to make a table4 ,= table !re1 is none 9 ?is room1 & h[ am ,i to write a book )\t "o8 ,if ev] ,i get d[n to ! village1 ,i hope to buy1 beg1 borr[ or /eal "o1 & until t "t am putt+ (f beg9n+ my new ,little ,susy4 #g ,t note f ,miss ,w>n]1 by ! by1 spoke s en?usia/ically ( ! ,six ,tea*]s t ,i felt comp5sat$ = ! mortification ( he>+ -------- call x a nice book4 ,y w be sorry to he> t ,i h no prospect ( gett+ a horse4 ,i am q disappo9t$1 z besides ! pleasure ( driv+ our *ildr51 ,i hop$ to give ,mrs4 ,buck & ! boys a %>e 9 x4 ,only to ?9k ( h] br++ up f ! city a beef/eak = baby1 & propos+ t ! doctor %\ld s5d a small piece = h] e day6 ,?ank y1 d>l+1 = y\r proposal ab\t ! ,ocean ,h\se4 ,i tru/ no su* *ange w be ne$ful4 ,we are all com=table n[1 ! wea!r is delici\s1 & !re are s _m pretty walks ab\t "h1 t ,i am only afraid ,i %all be too well (f4 ,ev]y?+ ab\t ! c\ntry is *>m+ to me1 & ,i nev] get tir$ ( x4 ,! fir/ few days nurse seem$ a good deal out ( sorts2 b ,i mu/ expect "s su* little vexations2 ( c\rse1 ,i c n h p]fection1 & = de> baby's sake ,i %all try to ex]cise all ! prud5ce & =be>ance ,i c4 ,sunday4--,we w5t to *ur* ?is morn+ & he>d a mo/ in/ructive &1 ,i ?\ght1 sup]ior s]mon f ,mr4 ,burr ( ,we/on1 on progress 9 religi\s k4 ,he us$ ! v illu/ration ab\t ! cav]n & ! po9t ( light t y did4 ,july #g?4--,we all drove to ! bea* on ,saturday4 ,x 0 j ! v day = su* a trip1 & baby 0 en*ant$4 ,%e sat "r d[n & began to ga!r /ones & %ells1 z if %e _h ! week be=e h]4 ,we 7 gone ?ree h\rs & came home by way ( ! village1 q 9 ! mood = supp]4 ,ye/]day we _h a pleasant s]vice2 ,mr4 ,atk9son appe>s to be a truly dev\t1 heav5ly man to :om ,i felt my he>t knit at ! outset on ?is acc\nt1 ,i am tak+ great delight 9 read+ ! ,memoir ( ,miss ,allibone4 #h ,h[ ,i wi% ,i _h a fri5d ( s heav5ly a temp]6 ,i fe> my new ,little ,susy w come out at ! little end ( ! horn4 ,i am sure x won't be s good z ! o!rs4 ,x is m ?an "o qu>t] done4 ,july #ba/4--,:at d y ?9k ,i did ?is =5oon8 ,:y1 ,i f9i%$ ,little ,susy & %all lay x aside = "s days1 :5 ,i %all read x ov]1 correct1 & pack x (f out ( ! way4 ,yes1 ,i wi% y w\ld br+ my ,g]man ,hymn ,book4 ,i am s glad y lik$ ! hymns ,i _h m>k$6 #i ,& d get well s z n to h to leave (f prea*+ ! ,gospel4 ,my he>t dies )9 me :5ev] ,i ?9k ( y\r leav+ ! m9i/ry4 ,e day ,i live1 x appe>s to me t ! (fice ( a ,*ri/ian pa/or & tea*] is ! be/ 9 ! _w4 ,i %all n be able to write y a ^w to-morr[1 z we are to g to ,gre5field ,hill to ,miss ,murray's1 & y mu/ take to-morr['s love to-night--if y ?9k y c /& s mu* at once4 ,god be ) y & bless y4 ,july #cj?4--,baby & ,i h j be5 hav+ a great frolic4 ,%e 0 s pleas$ ) y\r message t %e caught up y\r lett] & kiss$ x1 :i* ,i ?9k v rem>kable 9 a *ild :o1 ,i am sure1 nev] saw su* a ?+ done4 ,a4 seems well & happy1 & is z good z ,i ?9k we ought to expect4 ,i see m & m e day1 t if !re ev] 0 su* a ?+ z human p]fection1 x 0 z long ago z ,david's "t :51 z he says1 he saw ! end ( x4 ,h[ v k9d ! ,w4's h be56 ,augu/ #c;d4--,i got hold ( ,dr4 ,bo>dman's ,bible 9 ! ,family1 at ! ,bucks ye/]day1 & br\ght x home to read4 ,i l x v mu*4 ,!re is a ve9 ( humor runn+ ?r\gh x :i*1 subdu$ z x is1 mu/ h awak5$ a good _m smiles4 ,he quotes "s l9es ( ,col]idge1 :i* ,i wond] ,i did n h z a motto = ,susy's ,tea*]s3 ,love1 ,hope & ,pati5ce1 ^! mu/ be ?y graces1 ,& 9 ?9e own he>t let !m fir/ keep s*ool4 ,to ,miss ,m>y ,b4 ,%ipman1 ,we/port1 ,augu/ #aa4 ,dr4 ,buck1 :o has se5 h] twice s9ce we came "h1 ?9ks baby wond]fully improv$1 & says e day %e lives increases h] *ance ( life4 ,i h be5 exce$+ly enc\rag$ by all he has said1 & feel a great load (f my he>t4 ,la/ ,friday1 on fifte5 m9utes' notice1 ,i pack$ up & w5t home1 tak+ nurse & biddies1 ( c\rse4 ,i 0 s re/less & s p]fectly possess$ to g to meet ,george1 t ,i c\ld n help x4 ,we w5t 9 ! six o'clock tra91 z x 0 aft] five :5 ,i 0 tak5 ) ! fit t />t$ me (f2 got home 9 a s(t ra91 & to our great surprise & delight f\nd ,g4 !re1 he hav+ got homesick at ,s>atoga1 & j ru%$ to ,new ,york on 8 way "h4 ,we _h a great rejoic+ toge!r1 y may dep5d1 & ,i _h a *>m+ visit ( ne>ly ?ree days4 ,we got back on ,monday night1 r tir$1 b none ( u at all ! worse = ! exp$ition4 ,mr4 ,p4 sits "h read+ ! ,tribune1 & ,a4 is read+ ,fremont's ,life4 ,%e is z br[n z an ,indian & ab\t z wild4 ,a few passages f h] j\rnal w also ?r[ light ^u ?is p]iod3 ,june #cj?4--,i am f9d+ ?is solitude & leisure v sweet & preci\s2 ,god grant x may be> ! ri* & abundant fruit x ought to d6 ,communion ) ,him is su* a bless+1 "h at home 9 my own room1 & out 9 ! sil5t woods & on ! wayside4 ,saturday1 especially1 ,i _h a long walk full ( blissful ?\ghts ( ,him :om ,i d believe ,i love--oh1 t ,i lov$ ,him bett]6--& 9 ! ev5+ ,mrs4 ,buck came & we _h "s v sweet beg9n+s ( :at w1 ,i tru/1 rip5 into mo/ pr(itable ,*ri/ian communion4 ,my he>t delights 9 ! society ( ^? :o love ,him4 ,ye/]day ,i _h a m ne> access to ,god 9 pray] ?an usual1 s t dur+ ! :ole s]vice at *ur* ,i c\ld h>dly repress te>s ( joy & gratitude4 ,july #g?4--,i d tru/ ,god's bless$1 bless$ ,_s is deal+ fai?fully ) my s\l--se>*+ & sift+ x1 reveal+ x some:at to itself & prep>+ x = ! indwell+ ( ,*ri/4 ,?is ,i d he>tily desire4 ,oh1 ,god6 se>* me & "k me1 & %[ me my own guilty1 poor1 meagre s\l1 t ,i may turn f x1 humbl$ & a%am$ & p5it5t1 to my bless$ ,savi\r4 ,h[ v1 v ?ankful ,i feel = ?is seclusion & leisure2 ?is quiet room :]e ,i c seek my ,god & pray & praise1 unse5 by any human eye--& :i* sometimes seems l ! v gate ( heav54 ,july #bc;d4--,?is is my de> little baby's bir?day4 ,i 0 n able to sleep la/ night at all1 b at la/ got up & pray$ specially = h]4 ,god has sp>$ h] two ye>s2 ,i c h>dly believe x6 ,preci\s ye>s ( discipl9e !y h be51 = :i* ,i d ?ank ,him4 ,i h pray$ mu* = h] to-day1 & ) "s fai?1 t if h] life is sp>$ x w be = ,8 glory4 ,h[ f> r w\ld ,i let h] g ?is mom5t1 ?an gr[ up )\t lov+ ,him6 ,preci\s little creature6 #bg?4--,?is has be5 "o ( ! mo/ oppressive days ,i ev] knew4 ,i w5t to *ur*1 h[ev]1 & enjoy$ all ! s]vices unusually4 ,z we rode along & ,i saw ! gra9 ripe = ! h>ve/1 ,i said to myself1 ,god ga!rs 9 ,8 h>ve/ z soon z x is ripe1 & if ,i devote myself to ,him & pray mu* & turn entirely f ! _w ,i %all rip51 & s ! soon] get :]e ,i am all ! "t ye>n+ & long+ to g6 ,i fe> ?is 0 a m]ely selfi% ?\ght1 b ,i d n "k4 ,?is _w seems less & less homelike e day ,i live4 ,! m ,i pray & m$itate on heav5 & my ,savi\r & sa9ts :o h cross$ ! flood1 ! /rong] gr[s my desire to be bidd5 to dep>t h5ce & g up to t s9less1 bless$ abode4 ,n t ,i =get my com=ts1 my m]cies "h2 !y are manifold2 ,i "k !y are4 ,b ,*ri/ appe>s s preci\s2 s9 s dreadful6 s dreadful6 ,to-day ,i gave way to pride & irritation1 & my agony on acc\nt ( x outweighs weeks ( m]ely e>?ly felicity4 ,! idea ( a ,*ri/ian z he %\ld be1 & ! reality ( mo/ ,*ri/ians--p>ticul>ly myself--:y1 x almo/ makes me %udd]2 my only com=t is1 9 heav51 ,i c n s96 ,9 heav5 ,i %all see ,*ri/1 & see ,him z ,he is1 & praise & honor ,him z ,i nev] d & nev] %all d "h4 ,& yet ,i "k my de> little ones ne$ me1 poor & imp]fect a "m z ,i am2 & ,i pray e h\r to be made will+ to wait = _! sakes4 ,= at ! longe/ x w n be long4 ,oh1 ,i d believe x is ! s9 ,i dread & n ! suff]+ ( life--b ,i "k n2 ,i may be delud$4 ,my love to my ,ma/] seems to me v %all[ & contemptible4 ,i am a/oni%$ t ,i love any?+ else4 ,oh1 t ,he w\ld ?is mom5t come d[n into ?is room & tell me ,i nev]1 nev]1 %all grieve ,him aga96 ,"s v]ses entitl$ ,alone ) ,god1 belong "h3 ,into my closet flee+1 z ! dove ,do? homew>d flee1 ,i ha/e away to pond] o'er ,?y love ,alone ) ,!e6 ,9 ! dim wood1 by human e> unhe>d1 ,joy\s & free1 ,"l6 ,i adore ,!e1 fea/+ on ,?y ^w1 ,alone ) ,!e6 ,amid ! busy city1 ?rong$ & gay1 ,b ,"o ,i see1 ,ta/+ sweet peace1 z unobs]v$ ,i pray ,alone ) ,!e6 ,oh1 sweete/ life6 ,life hid ) ,*ri/ 9 ,god6 ,s mak+ me ,at home1 & by ! wayside1 & abroad1 ,alone ) ,!e6 ,,we/port1 ,augu/ #bb1 #ahef4 99 99 99 99 99 ,v4 ,ready = new ,trials4 ,dang]\s ,illness4 ,extracts f h] ,j\rnal4 ,visit to ,gre5wood4 ,sabba? ,m$itations4 ,bir? ( ano!r ,son4 ,h] ,husb& resigns 8 pa/oral ,*>ge4 ,voyage to ,europe4 ,! summ] at ,we/port 0 s b5eficial to ! baby & s full bo? ( bodily & spiritual refre%m5t to h]self1 t on return+ to t[n1 %e resum$ h] home tasks ) unwont$ ease & com=t4 ,! next entry 9 h] j\rnal alludes to ?is3 ,novemb] #bg?4--,two mon?s1 & n a ^w 9 my j\rnal6 ,i h done f> m ) my ne$le & my feet ?an ) my p54 ,"o comes home f ! c\ntry to a good _m c>es1 & !y are worldly c>es1 too1 ab\t eat+ & ab\t we>+4 ,i hope ! wor/ ( m9e are ov] n[ & t ,i %all h m leisure4 ,b no1 ,i =get t n[ comes ! dread$1 dread$ exp]i5ce ( wean+ baby4 ,b :at !n8 ,i h _h a good re/ ?is fall4 ,h slept unusually well2 :y1 only ?9k1 "s nights n wak+ once--& "s nights only a few times2 & !n we h _h no sickness2 baby bett]--all bett]4 ,n[ ,i ought to be will+ to h ! trials ,i ne$ s mu*1 see+ ,i h _h su* a re/4 ,& heav56 heav56 let me re/ on t preci\s ^w4 ,heav5 is at ! end & ,god is !re4 ,e>ly 9 ,m>*1 #aheg1 %e 0 tak5 v ill & cont9u$ s until ,may4 ,= "s weeks h] recov]y seem$ h>dly possible4 ,%e felt assur$ h] h\r _h come & 0 eag] to g4 ,all ! ye>n+s ( h] he>t1 dur+ _m ye>s1 seem$ on ! po9t ( be+ gratifi$4 ,! next entry 9 h] j\rnal ref]s to ?is illness3 ,sunday1 ,may #bd?1 #aheg4--;,j read+ ov] ! la/ record h[ a%am$ ,i felt ( my fai?lessness6 ,to see de> baby s improv$ by ! v *ange ,i dread$1 & to he> h] pretty1 *e]ful prattle1 & to f9d 9 h] su* a s\rce ( joy & com=t--:at undes]v$1 :at unlook$-= m]cies6 ,b l a physician :o *anges 8 rem$ies z he sees occasion1 & :o =be>s us+ all 8 sev]e ones at once1 my ,fa!r fir/ reliev$ me f my we>+ c>e & pa9 ab\t ?is de> *ild1 & !n put me "u new discipl9e4 ,x is n[ ne>ly six mon?s s9ce ,i h be5 9 usual heal?1 & eight weeks ( great pro/ration & suff]+ h be5 tea*+ me _m ne$$ lessons4 ,n[1 contr>y to my hopes & expectations1 ,i f9d myself almo/ well aga94 ,at fir/1 hav+ got my he>t set t[>d heav5 & aft] fancy+ myself almo/ !re1 ,i felt disappo9t$ to f9d its gates /ill %ut aga9/ me4 #aj ,b ,god 0 v good to me & taught me to yield 9 ?is po9t to ,8 wis] & bett] w2 ,he made me1 z f> z ,i "k1 z peaceful 9 ! prospect ( liv+ z joyful 9 ! prospect ( dy+4 ,heav5 did1 inde$1 look v attractive :5 ,i ?\ght myself s ne> x2 ,i pictur$ myself z no long] a s9n] b a blood-wa%$ sa9t2 ,i ?\ght ,i %all soon see ,him :om my s\l love?1 & see ,him z ,he is2 ,i %all nev] w\nd1 nev] grieve ,him aga91 & all my companions w be !y :o wor%ip ,him & adore ,him4 ,b n yet am ,i !re6 ,alas1 n yet a sa9t6 ,my s\l is oppress$1 n[ t heal? is return+1 to f9d old habits ( s9 return+ too1 & ?is mon/] ,self usurp+ ,god's place1 z ( old1 & pride & love ( ease & all ! infirmities ( ! fle% ?ick ^u me4 ,aft] be+ encompass$ ) m]cies = two mon?s1 hav+ e com=t ?is _w c\ld (f] = my alleviation1 ,i wond] at myself t ,i c be any?+ b a meek1 docile *ild1 pr(it+ by ! ,ma/]'s discipl9e1 s5sible ( ! t5d]ness t w5t h&-9-h& ) e /roke1 & walk+ s(tly be=e ,god & man6 ,b ,i am inde$ a wayw>d *ild & 9 ne$ ( _m m /ripes4 ,may ,i be made will+ & ?ankful to be> !m4 ,inde$1 ,i d ?ank my de> ,ma/] t ,he does n let me alone1 & t ,he has let me suff] s mu*2 x has be5 a ri* exp]i5ce1 ?is long illness1 & ,i d tru/ ,he w s sanctify x t ,i %all h cause to rejoice ov] x all ! re/ ( my life4 ,n[ may ,i return pati5tly to all ! duties t lie 9 my sph]e4 ,may ,i n =get h[ mom5t\s a ?+ dea? appe>$ :5 se5 face to face1 b be ev] mak+ ready = its approa*4 ,& may ! glory ( ,god be1 z x nev] yet has be51 my *ief end4 ,my love to ,him seems to me s v feeble & fluctuat+4 ,satan & self keep up a cont9ual /ruggle to get ! victory4 ,b ,god is /rong] ?an ei!r4 ,he mu/ & w prevail1 & at la/1 & 9 a "t f> bett] ?an any ,i c sugge/1 ,he w op5 ^? clos$ gates & let me ent] 9 to g no m out1 & !n ,i %all nev]1 nev] s94 ,z might be inf]r$ f ?is record1 %e 0 at ?is "t 9 ! sweete/ mood1 full ( t5d]ness & love4 ,! "t ( ! s++ ( birds _h n[ come1 & all nature 0 clo!d ) t wondr\s beauty & v]dure :i* m>k ! transition f spr+ to summ]4 ,! drives1 :i* %e 0 n[ able to take into ! c\ntry1 on ei!r side ( ! riv]1 gave h] ! utmo/ delight4 ,on ! #cj? ( ,may--! day t has s9ce become consecrat$ to ! memory ( ! ,nation's h]oic dead--%e w5t1 ) h] husb& & elde/ daught]1 to visit & place fl[]s ^u ! graves ( ,eddy & ,bessie4 ,nev] is ,gre5wood m lovely & impressive ?an at ! mom5t :5 ,may is j pass+ into ,june4 ,x is z if ,nature 7 9 a transfiguration & ! glory ( ! ,"l %one ^u ! graves ( our belov$6 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss made no record ( ?is visit1 b on ! foll[+ day ?us wrote 9 h] j\rnal3 ,may #ca/4--,ano!r peaceful1 pleasant ,sunday1 ^: only drawback has be5 ! want ( /r5g? to get d[n on my knees & praise & pray to my ,savi\r1 z ,i long to d4 ,= well z ,i am & a/oni%+ly improv$ 9 e way1 a v few m9utes' use ( my voice1 ev5 9 a :isp]1 9 pray]1 exhau/s me to su* a degree t ,i am ready to fa9t4 ,?is seems s /range :5 ,i c g on talk+ to any ext5t--b !n x is talk+ )\t emotion & 9 a desultory way4 ,ah well6 ,god kn[s be/ 9 :at mann] to let me live1 & ,i desire to ask = no?+ b a docile1 acquiesc5t temp]1 ^: only petition %all be1 ,:at wilt ,?\ h me to d8 n h[ c ,i get mo/ enjoym5t along ! way4 ,i c n believe if ,i am ,8 *ild1 t ,he w let any?+ h9d] my progress 9 ! div9e life4 ,x seems dreadful t ,i h gone on s sl[ly1 & backw>d s _m times--b !n ,i h be5 ?9k+ ?is is to humble & to prove me1 & to d me good 9 ! latt] end4 444 ,i ?ank my ,god & ,savi\r = e fa9t desire ,he gives me to see ,him z ,he is1 & to be *ang$ into ,8 image1 & = e /ruggle aga9/ s9 ,he enables me to make4 ,x is all ( ,him4 ,i d wi% ,i lov$ ,him bett]6 ,i d wi% ,he 7 nev] out ( my ?\ghts & t ! aim to d ,8 w swall[$ up all o!r desires & /riv+s4 ,satan :isp]s t w nev] be4 ,b x %all be6 ,"o day--oh1 long$-=1 bless$1 blissful day6--,*ri/ w become my ,all 9 all6 ,yes1 ev5 m9e6 ,?is is ! la/ entry 9 h] j\rnal = m ?an a ye>2 h] lett]s1 too1 dur+ ! same p]iod are v few4 ,9 ,augu/ ( #aheg1 %e 0 made glad by ! bir? ( ano!r son1 h] fif? *ild4 ,h] own heal? 0 n[ mu* bett] ?an x _h be5 = a long "t2 b t ( h] husb& _h become s enfeebl$ t 9 ,april1 #aheh1 he resign$ 8 pa/oral *>ge & by ! advice ( 8 physician det]m9$ to g abroad1 ) 8 family1 = a c\ple ye>s2 ! munific5t k9dness ( 8 p hav+ furni%$ him ) ! means ( do+ s4 ,! t5d] sympa?y & support :i* %e gave him 9 ?is h\r ( extreme weakness & trial1 m ?an ev]y?+ else1 aft] ! bless+ ( ,heav51 upheld 8 fa9t+ spirits & help$ to re/ore him at l5g? to 8 *os5 "w4 ,!y set sail = ! old _w 9 ! /eam%ip ,arago1 ,capt4 ,l9es1 ,june #bf?1 amid/ a cl\d ( fri5dly wi%es & b5$ictions4 #a ,! fri5d 0 ,mr4 ,wm4 ,g4 ,bull1 :o _h a summ] cottage at ,rockaway4 ,he 0 a lead+ memb] ( ! ,m]c] /reet *ur* & "o ( ! be/ ( m54 ,! poor & un=tunate bless$ him all ! ye> r\nd4 ,to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & h] husb& he 0 indefatigable 9 k9dness4 ,he di$ at an advanc$ age 9 #ahei4 #b ,godman's ,am]ican ,natural ,hi/ory4 #c ,mrs4 ,norman ,:ite1 "m ( ! ,rev4 ,ersk9e ,n4 ,:ite1 ,d4,d41 ( ,new ,york4 #d ,h] c\s91 ^: sudd5 dea? occurr$ "u ! same ro( 9 ,octob] ( ! next ye>4 #e ,we 7 all weigh$ soon aft] com+ "h1 %e wrote1 & my lady%ip weigh$ #if1 :i* makes me out by f> ! leane/ ( ! ladies "h4 ,:5 ?irte5 ye>s old ,i weigh$ b #ej p\nds4 #f ,ref]r+ to ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days4 #g ,little ,susy's ,little ,s]vants4 #h ,a ,life bid ) ,*ri/ 9 ,god1 be+ a memoir ( ,susan ,allibone4 ,by ,alfr$ ,lee1 ,bi%op ( ! ,prote/ant ,episcopal ,*ur* 9 ,delaw>e4 #i ,see app5dix ,c1 p4 #eci4 #aj ,_m ye>s aft]w>d1 speak+ to a fri5d ( ?is illness1 %e relat$ ! foll[+ incid5t4 ,"o day %e lay1 z 0 suppos$1 entirely unconsci\s & 9 articulo mortis4 ,repeat$ b va9 attempts _h be5 made to adm9i/] a m$ic9e ord]$ by ! doctor to be us$ 9 case ( extremity4 ,h] husb& urg$ "o m attempt /ill2 x might possibly succe$4 ,%e he>d di/9ctly e ^w t 0 spok5 & in/antly reason$ )9 h]self1 :e!r %e %\ld cons5t or refuse to swall[ ! m$ic9e4 ,fancy+ h]self j ent]+ ! et]nal city1 %e long$ to refuse b decid$ x w\ld be wrong & s cons5t$ to come back aga9 to e>?4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,9 ,,retreat ,,among ,,! ,,alps4 #aheh-ahfj4 ,i4 ,life abroad4 ,lett]s ab\t ! ,voyage & ! ,j\rney f ,havre to ,switz]l&4 ,*ateau d',oex4 ,lett]s f !re4 ,! ,*let ,rosat4 ,! ,free ,*ur* ( ! ,canton de ,vaud4 ,pa/or ,pan*aud4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss pass$ m ?an two ye>s abroad1 mo/ly 9 ,switz]l&4 ,!y 7 ye>s burd5$ ) heavy c>es1 ) ill-heal? & ke5 solicitude conc]n+ h] husb&4 ,b !y 7 also ye>s hall[$ by signal m]cies ( ,provid5ce1 bright e n[ & !n ) floods ( real sun%9e1 & sweet5$ by _m dome/ic joys4 ,al?\gh q seclud$ f ! _w a l>ge portion ( ! "t1 h] solitude 0 *e]$ by ! con/ant arrival ( lett]s f home4 ,dur+ ^! ye>s also %e 0 fir/ initiat$ into full communion ) ,nature2 & :at exquisite pleasure %e ta/$ 9 ?is new exp]i5ce1 h] own p5 w tell4 ,inde$1 ?is p]iod af=ds little ( int]e/ except t :i* blossom$ out ( h] dome/ic life1 h] fri5d%ips1 & h] love ( nature4 ,%e travell$ sc>cely at all & caught only fugitive glimpses ( society or ( ! treasures ( ,european art4 ,a few simple records1 !re=e1 ( h] retir$ home-life & ( ! impressions made ^u h] by ,alp9e sc5]y1 z conta9$ 9 h] lett]s1 mu/ =m ! pr9cipal "p ( ?is *apt]4 ,h] correspond5ce1 :ile abroad1 w\ld make a l>ge volume by itself2 9 select+ f x :at foll[s1 ! aim has be5 to pres5t1 z f> z possible1 a cont9u\s picture ( h] ,european soj\rn1 drawn by h]self4 ,7 a fai?ful picture ( its quiet yet v>i$ sc5es to be drawn by ano!r h&1 x w\ld include features :olly omitt$ by h]2 features radiant ) a light & beauty n ( e>?4 ,x w\ld reflect a sweet pati5ce1 a h]oic =titude1 a t5d] sympa?y1 a fai? 9 ,god & an uphold+1 com=t+ influ5ce1 :i* 9 %>p exig5cies ! ,*ri/ian wife & "m kn[s s well h[ to ex]cise1 & :i* are inspir$ only by ! ,"l ,jesus ,himself4 ,! fri5d to :om ! foll[+ lett] 0 address$ ye>s ago pass$ away f e>?4 ,b h] "n is /ill en%r9$ 9 _m he>ts4 ,! /ory ( h] g5]\s & affectionate k9dness1 z also t ( h] *ildr51 w\ld fill a :ole *apt]4 ,y w nev] "k h[ we h lov$ & honor$ y all1 /raight ?r\gh wrote ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss to "o ( !m1 _m ye>s lat]4 ,to ,mrs4 ,*>les ,w4 ,woolsey1 ,havre1 ,july #aa1 #aheh4 ,h[ _m times dur+ our voyage we _h occasion to ?9k ( & ?ank y & y\rs1 a doz5 %eets l ?is w\ld fail to tell y4 ,( all y\r k9d arrangem5ts = our com=t n "o fail$ ( its object4 ,:e!r ! *air or my sacque _h mo/ admir]s ,i d n "k1 b ,i c't imag9e h[ p ev] get across ! ocean )\t su* consolations on ! way4 ,z to ! grapes !y kept p]fectly to ! la/ day & prov$ delici\s2 ! box !n became a conv5i5t receptacle = ! *ildr5's toys2 :ile ! cake-box has turn$ into a m$ic9e-*e/4 ,we _h n s pleasant a voyage z is usual at ?is season1 x be+ cold & ra9y & foggy mu* ( ! "t4 ,h[ev]1 none ( u suff]$ mu* f sea-sickness--,mr4 ,pr5tiss n 9 ! lea/2 8 *ief discom=t 0 f want ( sleep4 ,on ! :ole1 we _h a less dre>y "t ?an we anticipat$1 & p]haps ! /upidity 9 :i* we 7 engulf$ = two weeks 0 a :olesome refuge f ! excitem5t ( ! mon? previ\s to our dep>ture4 ,we l&$ 9 a deluge ( ra91 & ! only article 9 our possession t al>m$ ! (fic]s ( ! ,cu/om ,h\se 0 n ! sew+-ma*9e1 :i* 0 h>dly v\*saf$ a look1 b y\r cake-box4 ,we 7 ?ankful to tumble pell-mell into a c>riage1 & soon to f9d ourselves 9 a com=table room1 be=e a blaz+ fire4 ,we g r\nd ) a phrase-book & talk out ( x1 s if anybody ev] asks y :at sort ( p ! ,pr5tiss family are & :at are our conv]sational p[]s1 y may safely & v]aci\sly answ]1 ,!y talk l a book4 ,m4 already asks ! ,fr5* names ( almo/ ev]y?+ & is v glad to "k t we h got at ,europe1 & :5 ask$ h[ %e likes ,france1 decl>es1 ,me likes t4 ,we g (f to ,p>is 9 ! morn+4 ,i w let ,mr4 ,pr5tiss tell 8 own /ory4 ,mean:ile we s5d y ev]yone our w>me/ love & ?anks4 ,aft] a few days 9 ,p>is ! family ha/5$ to ,*ateau d',oex1 :]e ,new ,york fri5ds await$ !m4 ,*ateau d',oex is a m\nta9 valley 9 ! canton ( ,vaud1 on ! "r bank ( ! ,s>9e1 tw5ty-two miles ea/ ( ,lausanne1 & is "o ( ! lovelie/ spots 9 ,switz]l&4 ,aside f its natural beauties1 x has "s hi/orical int]e/4 ,x 0 once ! home ( ! ,c\nts ( ,gruy]e1 & ! ru9s ( _! anci5t *ateau are /ill se5 !re4 ,! ,free *ur* ( ! village 0 at ?is "t "u ! c>e ( ,pa/or ,pan*aud1 a favorite pupil & fri5d ( ,v9et4 ,he 0 a man ( great simplicity & sweetness ( "*1 an excell5t prea*]1 & :olly devot$ to 8 little flock4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & h] husb& c\nt$ 8 society & m9i/rations a smile ( ,heav5 ^u _! soj\rn 9 ,*ateau d',oex4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?1 ,*ateau ,d',oex ,july #be1 #aheh4 ,our ride f ,havre to ,p>is 0 *>m+4 ,we _h "o ( ^? luxuri\s c>s1 to u unkn[n1 :i* is int5d$ to hold only eight p]sons1 b :i* has room = t52 ! wea!r 0 p]fect1 & ! sc5]y all ! way v lovely & q novel4 ,a4 & ,i kept m\rn+ = y & ,m4 to enjoy x ) u1 & bo? agre$ t we w\ld gladly see only half !re 0 to see1 & g half ! di/ance we 7 go+1 if we c\ld only %>e ) y our pleasures ( e k9d4 ,on rea*+ ,p>is & ! hotel we f\nd we c\ld n get pleasant rooms bel[ ! fif? /ory4 ,!y 7 directly opposite ! g>d5 ( ! ,tuil]ies1 :]e birds 7 fly+ & s++1 & x 0 h>d to realise t we 7 9 ! mid/ ( t great city4 ,we w5t sight-see+ v little4 ,a4 & ,i /roll$ ab\t "h & !re1 did a little %opp+1 />$ 9 at ! %op w9d[s1 wi%$ ,m4 _h ?is & y _h t1 & !n /roll$ home & pant$ & toil$ & groan$ up our five flights1 & wrote 9 our j\rnals1 or re/$1 or made believe /udy ,fr5*4 ,we w5t to ! ,j>d9 des ,plantes 9 ord] to let ! *ildr5 see ! ,zoological ,g>d54 ,we also drove ?r\gh ! ,bois de ,b\logne1 & sp5t "p ( an ev5+ 9 ! g>d5 ( ! ,palais ,royal1 & wat*$ ! p dr9k+ _! tea & c(fee1 & hav+ all sorts ( good times4 ,we f\nd ,p>is f> m beautiful ?an we expect$1 & c]ta9ly z to cleanl9ess x puts ,new ,york ages beh9d4 ,we 7 f\r days 9 com+ f ,p>is to ?is place4 ,we w5t up ! lake ( ,g5eva on "o ( ! f9e/ days t c\ld be ask$ =1 & !n ! real joy ( our j\rney began2 ,p>is & all its spl5dors fad$ away at once & =ev] be=e ^! m\nta9s1 & z ,george _h nev] visit$ ,g5eva1 or se5 any ( ?is sc5]y1 my pleasure 0 d\bl$ by 84 ,imag9e1 if y c1 h[ we felt :5 ,mt4 ,blanc appe>$ 9 sight6 ,we rea*$ ,vevay j aft] sunset1 & 7 soon e/abli%$ 9 neat rooms ( q novel fa%ion4 ,! floors 7 ( unpa9t$ :ite wood1 *eck$ (f ) black walnut2 ! /airs 7 all ( /one1 ! /ove 0 ( porcela91 & e article ( furniture 0 odd4 ,b we _h n mu* "t to sp5d 9 look+ at ?+s )9 doors1 = ! lake 0 9 full view1 & ! m\nta9 tops 7 roseate ) ! la/ rays ( ! sett+ sun1 & ! moon soon rose & add$ to ! :ole sc5e all x want$ to make u half believe ourselves 9 a pleasant dream4 ,i (t5 ask$ myself1 ,c ?is be ,i6 ,& if x be ,i1 z ,i hope x be-- ,e>ly next morn+1 :i* 0 de> little ,m4's bir?day1 we set (f 9 gr& /yle = ,*ateau d',oex4 ,we hir$ a mon/r\s voiture :i* _h seats inside = f\r1 & on top1 ) squeez+1 seats = ?ree1 besides ! driv]'s seat2 _h five black horses1 & da%$ =? 9 all our spl5dor1 t5 preci\s s\ls & all agog4 ,i made a s&wi* betwe5 ,mr4 ,s4 & ,george on top1 & ! bonnes & *ildr5 7 pack$ inside4 ,?is 0 our great day4 ,! wea!r 0 indescribably beautiful2 we felt ourselves approa*+ a place ( re/ & a welcome home2 ! sc5]y 0 magnific5t1 & already ! m\nta9 air 0 beg9n+ to revive our exhau/$ s\ls & bodies4 ,we sat all day h& 9 h&1 lit]ally lo/ 9 wond]4 ,) all ,i _h he>d ev] s9ce ,i 0 born ab\t ^! m\nta9s1 ,i _h n ! fa9te/ idea ( _! real gr&eur & beauty4 ,we arriv$ "h j aft] sunset1 & soon f\nd ourselves among our fri5ds4 ,mrs4 ,buck br\ght u up to our new home1 :i* we rea*$ on foot 7z our voiture c\ld n asc5d s high7 by a little w9d+ pa?1 by ! side ( :i* a little brook kept runn+ along to make music = u4 ,x is a regul> ,swiss *let1 mu* l ! little models y h se51 only ( a d>k] br[n1 & on ei!r side ! m\nta9s /& rang$1 s t look :]e we w we are fea/$ to our utmo/ capacity4 ,we h f\r small1 b v neat1 pretty rooms4 ,our floors are ( unpa9t$ p9e1 z :ite & clean z possible4 ,! room 9 :i* we sp5d our "t1 & :]e ,i am n[ writ+1 ,i mu/ fully set be=e y4444 ,our c5tre table has _h a nice new r$ cov] put on x to-day1 ) a vase ( fl[]s2 x holds all our books1 & is ! ornam5t ( ! room4 ,9 front ( ! s(a is a r$ rug on :i* we say our pray]s4 ,ov] x is a picture1 & ov] ,g4's table is ano!r4 ,out ( ! w9d[ y see fir/ a pretty little fl[] g>d51 !n ! valley dott$ ) br[n *lets1 !n ! backgr\nd ( m\nta9s4 ,beh9d ! h\se y g up a little w9d+ pa?--& c g on =ev] )\t /opp+ if y *oose--along ! sides ( :i* fl[]s su* z we cultivate at home gr[ 9 pr(usion2 y c't help pick+ !m & ?r[+ !m away to snat* a new h&ful4 ,! brook takes its rise on ?is side1 & runs musically along z y asc5d4 ,ye/]day we all w5t to *ur* at n9e & a half o'clock1 & _h our fir/ exp]i5ce ( ,fr5* prea*+1 & ,i 0 reliev$ to f9d myself und]/&+ :ole s5t5ces "h & !re4 ,& n[ ,i ne$ n1 ,i suppose1 w9d up by say+ we are 9 a *>m+ spot4 ,all we want1 z f> z ?is _w goes1 is heal? & /r5g? ) :i* to enjoy all ?is beauty & all ?is sweet retirem5t1 & ^!1 ,i tru/1 x w give u 9 "t4 ,isabella we>s l gold4 ,%e is ev]y?+ ,i hop$ =1 & f h] !re has n be5 ev5 a tone ( discom=t s9ce we left4 ,b my back a*es & my pap] is full4 ,we all s5d heaps ( love to y all & long to he>4 ,augu/ #aj?4--,we breakfa/ at eight on bread & honey1 :i* is ! univ]sal ,swiss breakfa/1 d9e at "o1 & h tea at sev54 ,i usually sew & read & /udy all ! =5oon4 ,aft] d9n] we take our ,alp5- /ocks & g up beh9d ! h\se--a bit ( m\nta9-climb+ :i* makes me realise t ,i am no long] a "y girl4 ,i get only s high1 & !n h to come back & lie d[n4 ,george & ,annie beat me all to pieces ) _! exploits4 ,i d n believe we c\ld h f\nd any:]e 9 ! _w a spot bett] adapt$ to our ne$s4 ,h[ y w\ld enjoy x6 ,i p]fectly ye>n to %[ y ^! m\nta9s & all ?is gre5 valley4 ,! views ,i s5d w give y a v good idea ( x1 h[ev]4 ,! small] *let 9 ! pr9t is ours4 ,9 a little summ] h\se opposite ,isabella n[ sits at "w on ! sew+-ma*9e4 ,my be/ love to all ?ree ( y\r de> *icks1 & to y\r husb& if he's will9'4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h4,b4 ,wa%burn1 ,*ateau d',oex1 ,augu/ #ba1 #aheh4 444 ,we slipp$ (f )\t any leave-tak+1 :i* ,i 0 n sorry =4 ,i did n want to bid y good-bye4 ,we _h to say x f> too (t5 z x 01 &1 :5 we fairly set sail we _h n an emotion left1 b sank at once into a /ate ( entire exhau/ion & /upidity4444 ,we ?\ght ,p>is v beautiful until we came 9 view ( ! ,lake ( ,g5eva1 ,mt4 ,blanc1 & o!r h&iworks ( ,god1 :5 /raightway all its palaces & monum5ts & f\nta9s fad$ into insignificance4 ,i began to feel t x 0 wick$ = a few ( my fri5ds1 :o 7 born to enjoy ! l& ( lakes & m\nta9s1 n to be "h enjoy+ x1 & y 7 "o ( !m1 y may dep5d4 ,h[ev]1 :5ev] ,i h _h any su* pangs ( regret 9 relation to y1 ,i h consol$ myself ) ! reflection t ) y\r en?usia/ic temp]am5t1 arti/ eye1 & love ( nature1 y nev] w\ld survive ev5 a glimpse ( ,switz]l&2 ! l& ( ,william ,tell w\ld be ! dea? ( y4 ,:5 y are ab\t eighty ye>s old1 h cool$ d[n ab\t t5 degrees bel[ z]o1 h got a little dim ab\t ! eyes1 & a little /iff ab\t ! knees1 x may possibly be safe = y to come & break y\rself 9 gradually4 ,i h n =gott5 h[ y felt & :at y did at ! ,:ite ,m\nta9s1 y see4 ,well1 jok+ ap>t1 we are 9 a spot t w\ld j suit y 9 e respect4 ,we are n 9 a /reet or a road or any ( ^? abom9ations y l to %un1 b our little *let1 h>dly accessible save on foot1 is j tuck$ d[n on ! side ( ! g5tle slope lead+ up ! m\nta94 ,x is remote f all sights b ^? magnific5t ones af=d$ by ! range ( m\nta9s1 ! gre5 ri* valley1 & ! ev]-v>y+ sky & cl\dl&1 & all s\nds save t ( a brook :i* runs hurry+ d[n its rocky little *annel & keeps u company :5 we want x4 ,i ought1 h[ev]1 to add t my view ( ?is p>ticul> valley is t ( a novice4 ,p say ! sc5]y "h is tame 9 comp>ison ) :at may be se5 else:]e2 b look :i* way ,i w1 f front w9d[s or back w9d[s1 at home or abroad1 ,i am z "o at a cont9ual fea/2 & :at m c "o ask8 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss feels t ?is seclud$ spot is j ! place = him1 & z x is a good po9t f :i* to make excursions on foot or o!rwise1 he & ,mr4 ,/e>ns h already made sev]al trips & se5 spl5did sights4 ,h[ mu* we h to be grateful =6 ,= my "p1 ,i w\ld r--f> r--h come "h & /ay$ "h bl9dfold1 ?an n to h come ) my de> husb&4 ,s all ,i h se5 & am exp]i5c+ ,i reg>d z beauty & felicity ?r[n 94 ,to ,mrs4 ,abigail ,pr5tiss1 ,*ateau d',oex1 ,sept4 #e1 #aheh4 ,i wi% we _h y1 my de> "m1 "h among ^! m\nta9s1 = ! cool1 brac+ air w\ld help to build y up4 ,bo? ,mr4 ,/e>ns & ,george h come back f ,g]many look+ bett] ?an :5 !y />t$ on _! trip two weeks ago4 ,x has be5 v cold2 ! !rmomet] "s morn+s at eight o'clock /&+ at #df1 & ! m\nta9s be+ all cov]$ ) sn[4 ,we slept ) a c\ple ( bottles ( hot wat] at our feet1 & two blankets & a com=t] ( eid]d[n ov] u1 aft] go+ to b$ e>ly to get w>m4 ,my sew+-ma*9e is a great com=t1 & ! peasants enjoy com+ d[n f ! m\nta9s to see x4 ,besides1 ,i f9d some?+ to d on x e day4 ,i (t5 wi% ,i c\ld set y d[n 9 ! mid/ ( ! *ur* to :i* we g e ,sunday1 if only to %[ y h[ ! p dress4 ,a bonnet is h>dly se5 !re2 ev]ybody we>+ a black silk cap or a bloom]4 ,i we> a bloom]2 a br[n "o trimm$ ) br[n ribbon4 ,an old lady sits 9 front ( me :o we>s a :ite cap mu* aft] ! fa%ion ( y\rs1 & on top ( t is p]k$ a mon/r\s bloom] trimm$ ) black gauze ribbon4 ,h] dress is l9sey-woolsey1 & = outside g>m5t %e we>s a black silk half-h&k]*ief1 z d all ! re/4 ,no light dress or ribbon is se54 ,i mu/ tell y n[ some?+ t amus$ ,a4 & me v mu* ye/]day at d9n]4 ,a ,fr5* g5tleman1 :o m>ri$ a ,spani% lady f\r ye>s ago1 sits opposite u at ! table1 & he & 8 wife are q fasc9at$ ) ,m41 wat* all h] motions1 & :isp] toge!r ab\t all %e does4 ,ye/]day !y got to tell+ u t ! lady _h be5 m>ri$ :5 only twelve ye>s old to a g5tleman ( ?irty-two1 _h two *ildr51 & 0 a gr&mo!r1 ?\gh n yet ?irty-six ye>s old4 ,%e said %e c>ri$ h] doll ) h] to h] husb&'s h\se1 & he made h] le>n a geography lesson e day till %e 0 f\rte51 :5 %e _h a baby ( h] own4 ,i ask$ h] if %e lov$ h] husb&1 & %e said ,oh1 yes1 only he 0 v grave & scold$ h] & %ut h] up :5 %e w\ldn't le>n h] lessons4 ,%e said t h] own "m :5 ?irty-six ye>s old _h f\rte5 *ildr51 all ( :om are n[ liv+1 twelve ( !m boys1 & t ! laws ( ,spa9 all[ ! fa!r ( six sons to ask a favor = !m ( ! ,k+1 b ! fa!r ( twelve may ask a favor = ea* "o2 s e "o ( h] bro!rs _h an (fice "u ! ,gov]nm5t or 0 an (fic] 9 ! army4 ,i don't "k :5 ,i h be5 m amus$1 = %e1 l all =eign]s1 0 full ( life & ge/ure1 & %[$ u h[ %e tore h] hair & ?rew d[n h] books :5 angry ) h] husb&4 ,! *ildr5 are all bright & well4 ,! fir/ "t we took ! c>s aft] l&+1 ,m4 0 greatly delight$4 ,n[ we're go+ to see gr&ma1 %e cri$4 ,mrs4 ,buck got up a picnic = h]1 & _h a treat ( raspb]ries & sponge-cake--fro/$4 ,! cake _h ,m4 on ! top 9 r$ lett]s4 ,baby is full ( life & mis*ief4 ,! day we l&$ he said ,papa1 & n[ he says ,mamma4 ,isabella #a is ev]y?+ we c\ld ask4 ,%e is try+ to le>n ,fr5*1 & ,a4 he>s h] recite e night4 ,george f\nd "s furni%$ rooms at ,montreux1 :i* he has tak5 = six mon?s f ,octob]1 & we %all ?us be keep+ h\se4 ,a4 has j ru%$ 9 & snat*$ h] ,fr5* ,bible1 z %e is go+ to ! ev5+ s]vice ) "s ( ! ,engli% family4 ,y w soon he> all ab\t u f ,mr4 ,/e>ns4 ,! foll[+ lett] w %[ h[ little p[] ei!r h] own c>es1 or ! *>ms ( nature ar\nd h]1 _h to qu5* h] sympa?y = fri5ds 9 sorr[3 ,to ,miss ,a4 ,h4 ,woolsey1 ,*ateau ,d',oex1 ,sept4 #aa1 #aheh4 ,we receiv$ y\r k9d lett] ?is morn+4 ,we _h already _h our sympa?ies excit$ 9 behalf ( y all1 by see+ a notice ( ! dea? ( ! de> little *ild 9 a pap] l5t to u by ,mrs4 ,buck1 & 7 mo/ anxi\s to he> all ! p>ticul>s y h be5 s good z to give u4 ,?is day1 :i* fifte5 ye>s ago we m>k$ ) a :ite /one1 & :i* we 7 to celebrate ) all our he>ts1 has pass$ q we>ily & dre>ily4 ,!re is some?+ indescribably sad 9 ! details ( ! fir/ b]eavem5t :i* has fall5 )9 ! circle ( ^? we love2 p]haps1 too1 old sorr[s ( our own clamor$ = a he>+2 & !n1 too1 !re 0 ! conviction1 ,?is is n all dea? w d :ile ! ocean sev]s y f k9dr$ & fri5ds4 ,we long$ to speak to y _m words ( affectionate sympa?y & ,*ri/ian *e]2 b long be=e we c make !m rea* y1 ,i tru/ y w h felt sure t y 7 at lea/ rememb]$ & pray$ =4 ,x is a com=t t no ocean sep>ates u f ,him :o has afflict$ y4 ,! loss to y ea* & all is v great1 b to ! "m ( su* a *ild x is beyond description4 ,fai? alone c be> h] ?r\gh x1 b fai? c4 ,:at a wond]ful little creature ! sweet ,ellie mu/ h be56 ,we 7 greatly t\*$ by y\r acc\nt ( h] s++ t beautiful hymn4 ,x mu/ h be5 div9ely ord]$ t %e %\ld leave su* a preci\s legacy beh9d h]4 ,& ?\gh h] lovel9ess makes h] loss ! great]1 ! loss ( an unlovely wayw>d *ild w\ld surely be a heavi] grief4 ,i nev] "k :]e to /op :5 ,i beg9 to talk ab\t ! dea? ( a little "o2 b be=e ,i /op ,i want to ask y to tell ,mrs4 ,h4 "o ^w f me1 :i* w n surprise & w p]haps com=t h]4 ,x is ?is4 ,nei!r 8 fa!r nor myself w\ld be will+ to h ,god n[ b]eave u ( ! ri* exp]i5ce ( sev5 ye>s ago1 :5 our noble little boy 0 tak5 away4 ,we h (t5 said ?is to ea* o!r1 & (t5] said x to ,him1 :o if ,he took1 also gave mu*4 ,b aft] all1 we c n say mu* to com=t ei!r ,mrs4 ,h4 or y4 ,we c only truly1 he>tily & always sympa?ise ) y4444 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss & ,mr4 ,/e>ns h sp5t a =tnight 9 jaunt+ ab\t2 beg9n+ at ,?un & end+ at ,muni*4 ,!y bo? came home look+ fre%] & bett] ?an :5 !y left1 b ,mr4 ,p4 is n at all well n[1 & w h 8 ups & d[ns1 ,i suppose1 = a long "t to come4444 ,we c /ep out at any mom5t into a beautiful pa?1 &1 turn :i* way we w1 meet some?+ *>m+4 ,ye/]day he came back = me1 hav+ f\nd a new walk1 & we took our /icks1 & w5t to enjoy x toge!r till we got1 z x 71 fairly lock$ 9 by ! m\nta9s1 & c\ld g no fur!r4 ,only to ?9k ( hav+ su* ?+s z gorges & wat]-falls & ro>+ brooks1 "r at y\r back door6 ,! seclusion ( ?is :ole region is1 h[ev]1 its great *>m to u1 & to tell ! tru?1 ! primitive simplicity ( /yle ( dress1 etc41 is q z *>m+ to me z its natural beauty4 ,we took tea "o night la/ week ) ! pa/or ( ! ,free *ur*2 he lives 9 a h\se = :i* he pays ?irty doll>s a ye>1 & we 7 q t\*$ & pleas$ ) 8 /yle ( liv+2 :ite p9e walls & floors1 unpa9t$1 & ev]y?+ else to mat*4 ,we took our tea at a p9e table1 & ! draw+-room to :i* we retir$ f x1 0 a corn] ( ! same room1 :]e 0 a little mite ( a s(a & a few books1 & a *e]ful lamp burn+4 ,all ?is "t ,i h n answ]$ y\r "q ab\t ! ,f\r? ( ,july4 ,we _h great do+s1 ,i assure y4 ,mr4 ,p4 made a spee*1 & ran up & d[n ! saloon l a w> horse4 ,he 0 s excit$ & pale t ,i did n enjoy x mu*1 ?9k+ any in/ant he w\ld fa9t & fall4 ,mr4 ,cleavel& 0 ! orator ( ! day & acquitt$ himself v well1 !y all said4 ,i 0 9 my b]? at ! "t ( its deliv]y1 sav+ myself = ! d9n] & toa/s1 & s did n he> x4 ,! :ole affair is to be pr9t$4 ,!re 0 a great cry ( ,pr5tiss6 ,pr5tiss6 aft] ! ,capta9's d9n]1 & at la/ ! poor man _h to respond 9 a %ort spee* to a toa/ to ! ladies4 ,i suppose y "k t he consid]s all wom5 z angels4 ,mr4 ,/e>ns left u on ,?ursday to set 8 face homew>ds4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,montreux4 ,! ,swiss ,autumn4 ,ca/le ( ,*illon4 ,dea? & ,sorr[ ( ,fri5ds at ,home4 ,twilight ,talks4 ,spr+ ,fl[]s4 ,e>ly 9 ,octob] ! family remov$ to ,montreux1 at ! upp] end ( ! lake ( ,g5eva1 :]e ! next six mon?s 7 pass$ 9 :at 0 !n kn[n z ! ,maison des ,ba9s4 ,montreux 0 at ?is "t ! c5tre ( a gr\p ( pleasant villages1 scatt]$ along ! %ore ( ! lake1 or ly+ back ( x among ! hills4 ,"o ( ^! villages1 ,cl>5s1 0 r5d]$ fam\s 9 ! la/ c5tury by ! p5 ( ,r\sseau1 & e>ly 9 ?is by ! p5 ( ,byron4 ,! grave ( ,v9et1 ! noble lead]1 & !ologian ( ! ,free ,*ur* ( ! canton ( ,vaud1 n[ r5d]s ! spot sacr$ to ! ,*ri/ian s*ol>4 ,montreux 0 !n a favorite resort ( invalids 9 que/ ( a mild] climate4 ,at _m po9ts x comm&s f9e views ( ! lake1 & ! :ole region ab\nds 9 picturesque sc5]y4 ,! ,maison des ,ba9s is said to h long s9ce disappe>$2 b 9 #aheh1 x seem$ to hang ^u ! side ( ! ,montreux hill & 0 "o ( ! mo/ noticeable features ( ! l&scape1 z se5 f ! pass+ /eam]4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?1 ,montreux1 ,octob] #ca1 #aheh4 ,y\r lett] 0 a real com=t & ,i am s ?ankful to ! man t inv5t$ lett]-writ+ t ,i don't "k :at to d4 ,we fea/ on ev]y?+ we he> f home1 h[ev] sick1 or weak2 x is a sort ( sea-air appetite4 ,y\r lett]s are n a ?\s&? "p long en\gh1 b if y wrote all ! "t ,i suppose !y w\ldn't be4444 ,y see ,i am exp]im5t+ ) two k9ds ( ink1 hop+ my lett]s may be m easy to read4 ,george tri$ x ! o!r day by writ+ me a little note1 tell+ me fir/ h[ he lov$ me 9 black ink & !n h[ he lov$ me 9 blue1 aft] :i* he tore x up2 wasn't t a %ame8 ,anna writes t y seem$ mis]able ! day %e 0 at y\r h\se4 ,! fact is1 p ( su* re/less m5tal activity z y & ,i1 my de>1 nev] ne$ expect to be well long at a "t--=1 z soon z we get a little heal? we consume x j z *ildr5 d c&y4 ,george & ,i are bo? able1 h[ev]1 to take long walks1 & ! o!r day we w5t to see ! ca/le ( ,*illon4 ,i 0 mu* impress$ ) all ,i saw4 ,"u ,byron's "n1 :i* ,i saw on "o ( ! columns1 !re 7 ! initials ,h4 ,b4 ,s4--,h4 ,b4 ,smi?1 says ,i4 ,y don't say s6 cries ,george1 :]e8 let me see--oh1 ,i don't ?9k x c be 81 = "h are "s m lett]s1 :i* ,i knew all ! "t1 b = all t ,h4 ,b4 ,s4 does /& = ,h4 ,b4 ,smi?4 ,!re are ev] s _m *>m+ walks ab\t "h & f "s po9ts ! sc5]y is wond]fully picturesque4 ,i nev] 0 9 ! c\ntry s late z to see ! trees aft] a fro/1 & al?\gh ! foliage "h is less brilliant1 x is said1 ?an t ( ,am]ican =e/s1 ,i f9d x h>d to believe t !re c be any?+ m beautiful ?an ! wood$ m\nta9s cov]$ ) ! s(te/ t9ts ( e %ade & color+ int]sp]s$ ) sn[capp$ peaks & b>e1 gray rocks4 ,! glory has dep>t$ some:at )9 two days1 z we h _h a little sn[-/orm1 & ! leaves h fall5 sadly4 ,we began to h a fire ye/]day & to put on "s ( our w9t] clo?+2 yet roses bloom j outside our door1 & mignonette1 na/urtiums1 & a v>iety ( o!r fl[]s adorn e h\se4 ,! ,swiss love = fl[]s is really beautiful4 ,i wi% y w\ld let ! *ildr5 g to ! hot-h\se :i* !y pass on ! way f s*ool & get me "s fl[]-se$s1 z x w be pleasant to me to h ! means ( giv+ pleasure4 ,i presume ! g>d5] w\ld be able to select a doz5 or s ( ,am]ican v>ieties :i* w\ld be a treasure "h4 ,i amuse myself ) mak+ fl[]-pictures1 ) :i* to enliv5 our p>lor1 & assure y t ^! works ( art are rem>kable specim5s ( g5ius4 ,i d n "k :]e ! "t goes1 b ,i d n h half en\gh ( x1 or else d n und]/& ! art ( mak+ ! mo/ ( x4 ,we h j subscrib$ to a libr>y at a franc a mon?1 & hope to read a little ,fr5*4444 ,i suppose ,z4 w be a regul> "y lady by ! "t we come home1 & t ,i %all be afraid ( h]1 z ,i am ( all "y ladies4 ,h[ nicely %e & ,m4 w\ld look 9 ! jaunty little hats !y all we> "h4 ,i wond] if ! fa%ion w /ret* across ! ocean8 ,i d>e say x w4 ,nev] 0 !re any?+ s becom+ 9 ! _w4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,montreux1 ,nov4 #ba1 #aheh4 ,we 7 glad to he> f y\r la/ lett] t y are all s well1 & especially to he> su* good acc\nts ( ,mr4 ,/e>ns4 ,x is a real com=t to u to f9d t 8 little trip has done him s mu* good4 ,i 0 sorry to he> ( ! loss ( t fri5d ( ! ,?ur/ons 9 ! ,au/ria1 = ,i he>d ,ell5 speak ( h] 9 ! mo/ raptur\s mann]4 ,?is _w is full ( my/]ies4 ,only to ?9k ( ! %ock ,george receiv$ :5 expect+ to meet ,mr4 ,butl] 9 ,p>is & p]haps sp5d sev]al weeks ) him !re1 he he>d at ,g5eva ! news ( 8 sudd5 dea?6 #b ,he lov$ & honor$ ,mr4 ,b4 mo/ w>mly & truly4 ,y w rememb] t ! latt] came abroad on acc\nt ( ! heal? ( 8 daught]2 h] y\ng] si/] accompani$ !m1 & !y 7 all full ( ! brighte/ anticipations4 ,b ! same /eam] :i* br\ght !m ov]1 c>ri$ home 8 rema9s on ! next trip1 & ^? two poor "y girls are left 9 a /range l&1 afflict$ & disappo9t$ & alone4 ,mr4 ,butl] di$ a mo/ peaceful & happy dea?1 & ,george 0 v glad to be 9 ,p>is 9 "t to com=t ! "y ladies1 :o 7 p]fectly delight$ to see him4 ,he got back ye/]day v mu* exhau/$ & has sp5t mo/ ( ! day on ! s(a4 ,a4 has a tea*] :o comes ?ree times a week f ,vevay1 & sp5ds mo/ ( ! day4 ,%e is a "y lady ( ab\t tw5ty-five1 well educat$ & accu/om$ to tea*+1 & has tak5 hold ( ,a4 ) no little en]gy4 ,%e c n speak a ^w ( ,engli%4 ,tell y\r ,a4 we c't get ov] x t ! horses1 dogs & cats "h all und]/& ,fr5*4 ,i h be5 ev] s busy fix+ & fuss+ = w9t]1 :i* has come ^u u all 9 a ru%4 ,isabella has be5 bewit*$ = ab\t a week1 hav+ got at la/ a lett] f h] beau1 & e speck ( "w %e has done on ! sew+ ma*9e 0 ei!r wrongside out or upside d[n4 ,:ile ,george 0 gone ,i made up a lot ( fl[]-pictures to adorn ! walls ( our p>lor2 he is walk+ ab\t admir+ !m1 & ,i wi% y w\ld drop 9 & help him4 ,he _h a real homesick fit to see y all to-day1 feel+ s tir$ aft] 8 j\rney2 b seems bright] to-night1 & promises fai?fully to get well n[1 "r (f4 ,dec4 #e?4--,! dea? ( ,s>ah ,p4 mu/ h excit$ all y\r sympa?ies4 ,! loss ( a little *ild--& ,i %udd] :5 ,i recall ! pangs ( su* a loss6--c be no?+ 9 comp>ison ) su* an affliction z ?is4 ,i well rememb] :at a bright "y ?+ %e 04 ,h] poor "m's grief & amazem5t mu/ be all ! great] = ! fact ( ! p]fect vigor & s\nd heal? :i* _h1 z x 71 assur$ h] ( long life & happ9ess & usefulness4 ,i _h an inexpressible sadness ^u me z soon z ,i he>d t %e 0 dang]\sly ill2 (t5 9 su* mom5ts "o bitt]ly realises t all ?is _w's idols are likewise p]i%able4 ,a4's tea*] gives lessons also 9 a family half an h\r f ,vevay1 :o are go+ to ,g]many to sp5d a ye>1 & %e gave su* an acc\nt ( ! place1 t ,george let h] p]suade him into go+ to see x1 z ! own] desir$ to r5t x dur+ 8 abs5ce4 ,he took ,a4 ) him1 z ,i c\ld n g4 ,!y came back 9 ec/asies1 & h bo? set _! he>ts s on tak+ x t ,i %\ld n at all wond] if t %\ld be ! end4 ,we left "s ( our ?+s at ,*ateau d',oex1 fully expect+ to return !re1 b ?is ,vevay c\ntry seat ) its *]ry1 apple & pe> trees1 its seclusion1 its vic9ity to read+-room & libr>y1 has q disgu/$ ,george ) ! idea ( sp5d+ ano!r summ] en p5sion4 ,! family ent]ta9$ ,g4 & ,a4 v hospitably1 gave !m a lun* ( bologna sausage1 bread & butt]1 cake1 w9e & grapes1 & above all1 ! little girls gave ,a4 two little ,gu9ea pigs1 :i* y may imag9e fill$ h] ) delight4 ,! :ole affair 0 v agreeable to h]1 z %e _h n spok5 to a *ild 7save ,m47 s9ce we came to ,montreux4 ,janu>y #c;d1 #ahei4--,we read y\r lett]1 writt5 at ,b$=d1 ) no little int]e/ & sympa?y4 ,:ile we c\ld n b rejoice t "o m sa9t _h got safely & )\t a /ruggle home1 we felt ! exce$+ disappo9tm5t y mu/ h _h 9 los+ ! la/ smile y came s ne> receiv+4 #c ,i ?9k y _h a sort ( pres5tim5t la/ w9t] :at ?is "o might br+ =?1 = ,i rememb] y\r say+ x w\ld probably be ! la/ visit to y1 & t y want$ to make x z pleasant z possible4 ,& pleasant ,i d n d\bt y & ! :ole h\sehold made x to h]4 ,/ill !re always w be regrets & va9 wi%es aft] ! dea? ( "o we love4 ,:at a pity t we c n be to our fri5ds :ile !y live all we wi% we _h be5 aft] !y h gone6 ,george & ,i feel an almo/ *ildi% cl++ to "m1 :ile we hope & believe %e w live to bless u if we ev] return home4 ,jan4 #bc;d4--,we h be5 afflict$ 9 ! sudd5 dea? ( our de> fri5d1 ,mrs4 ,wa9wright4 ,! news came ^u u )\t prep>ation--= %e 0 ill only a few days--& 0 a great %ock to u4 ,y & "m "k :at %e 0 to u dur+ ! :ole "t ( our acqua9tance ) h]2 ,i lov$ h] mo/ he>tily4 ,i c n get ov] ! sadd5+ impression :i* su* dea?s cause1 by receiv+ new ones2 our lives "h are s quiet & unev5tful1 t we h full leisure to m$itate on ! brea*es already made 9 our circle ( fri5ds at home1 & to =ebode _m m su* sorr[ful tid+s4 ,mrs4 ,wa9wright 0 l a "m to me1 & ,i am too old to take up a new fri5d 9 h] place4 #d ,i d n "k :e!r ,i m5tion$ ! afflictions ( my c\s9 ,h4 ,!y h be5 v great1 & h excit$ my sympa?ies ke5ly4 ,h] fir/ *ild di$ :5 eighte5 mon?s old1 aft] a feeble1 suff]+ life4 ,!n ! second *ild1 an amiable1 lov+ creature--,i almo/ see h] n[ sitt+ up s /raight ) h] morsel ( knitt+ 9 h] h&s6--%e 0 tak5 sick & di$ 9 five days4 ,h] si/]1 ab\t eight ye>s old1 came ne> dy+ ( grief2 %e nei!r play$1 ate or slept1 & !y wrote me t h] wails ( angui% 7 beyond description4 ,j z %e 0 gett+ a little ov] ! fir/ %ock1 ! little boy1 !n ab\t ?ree ye>s old1 di$ sudd5ly ( cr\p4 ,poor ,h4 is almo/ brok5-he>t$4 ,i h felt dreadfully at be+ away :5 %e 0 s afflict$2 !y _h n be5 long en\gh 9 ,new ,york to h a m9i/] ( _! own1 & !y all said1 oh1 if ,george & ,i _h only be5 !re6 ,h] lett]s dur+ ! re/ ( ! w9t] are t+$ ) ! sadness caus$ by ^! & o!r di/ress+ afflictions among fri5ds at home4 ,h] sympa?ies 7 kept "u a con/ant /ra94 ,b h] lett]s conta9 also _m gleams ( sun%9e4 ,al?\gh v quiet & seclud$1 & (t5 tr\bl$ by tortur+ neuralgic pa9s1 z well z by sudd5 %ocks ( grief1 h] life at ,montreux 0 n )\t its own peculi> joys4 ,"o ( ! greate/ ( ^! 0 to :ile away ! twilight or ev5+ h\rs 9 long talks ) h] husb& ab\t home & =m] days4 ,di/ance1 toge!r ) ! /range ,alp9e sc5es ab\t h]1 seem$ to h ! effect ( a score ( ye>s 9 sep>at+ h] f ! pa/1 & ?r[+ ov] x a my/ic veil ( t5d]ness & grace4 ,old times & old fri5ds1 :5 ?us view$ f ! beautiful %ores ( ,lake ,leman1 appe>$ to ! memory 9 a s(t5$ light & inve/$ ) some?+ ( t ideal lovel9ess :i* ! grave itself imp>ts to ! objects ( our affections4 ,_m ( ^! old fri5ds1 inde$1 _h pass$ ?r\gh ! ,grave--"s1 long be=e1 "s rec5tly--& to talk ( !m 0 sweet talk ab\t ! bless$ home above1 z well z ! home beyond ! ocean4 ,ano!r joy t help$ to relieve ! monotony & we>9ess ( ! ,montreux life1 0 9 h] *ildr52 especially z1 on ! approa* ( spr+1 %e w&]$ ) !m ov] ! hill-sides 9 que/ ( fl[]s2 !n h] delight knew no b\nds4 ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,wa%burn1 dat$ ,m>* #ai1 %e writes3 ,m4 & ,g4 cat* ,a4's & my en?usiasm1 & come ) _! little h&s full ( d&elions1 butt]cups & daisies1 & _! hats full ( primroses4 ,ev5 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss conies 9 ) 8 h&s full ( crocuses1 purple & :ite1 & lots ( an extremely pretty fl[]1 la fille avant la mre1 :i* he ga!rs on ! m\nta9s :]e ,i c n climb4444 ,i (t5 ?9k ( y & ,mrs4 ,b----1 :5 ,i revel among ! beautiful pr(usion ( fl[]s ) :i* ?is c\ntry is adorn$4 ,s e>ly z x is1 ! hills & fields are cov]$ ) primroses1 daisies1 c[slips1 violets1 lilies1 & ,i don't "k :at n2 9 five m9utes we c ga!r a basketful4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,! ,campagne ,g5evri]4 ,vevay4 ,beauty ( ! ,region4 ,lett]s4 ,bir? ( a ,son4 ,visit f ,pr(essor ,smi?4 ,excursion to ,*am\ni4 ,:oop+-c\gh & ,sc>let-fev] among ! ,*ildr54 ,doctor ,cur*od4 ,lett]s4 ,at ! end ( ,m>* ! family remov$ to ! campagne ,g5evri]1 ab\t two miles back ( ,vevay1 9 ! direction ( ,/4 ,leg]4 ,at "o po9t x ov]look$ ! t[n & ! lake1 & comm&$ a f9e view ( ! m\nta9s ( ,savoy & ( ! di/ant ,jura range4 ,on ! opposite %ore ( ! lake is ! village :]e ,"l ,byron pass$ "s "t 9 #ahaf1 & :]e he is said to h writt5 ! wond]ful description ( a ?und]-/orm1 9 ! ?ird canto ( ,*ilde ,h>old4 ,at all ev5ts ! v sc5e1 s vividly depict$ by him1 0 witness$ f ,g5evri]4 #e ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,g5evri]1 ,april #e1 #ahei ,y\r lett] describ+ h[ nicely y\r p>ty w5t (f1 foll[$ u f ,montreux1 to enliv5 u "h 9 our new home4 ,we only wi% we c\ld h be5 !re4 ,y ne$ n h apologis$ = giv+ s _m details1 = x is j su* little ev5ts ( y\r daily life t we want to he> ab\t4 ,my m\? q wat]s = a bit ( ! cake !y s5t y2 ,i rememb] ,mrs4 ,dr4 ,j4 & o!rs us$ to s5d u big loaves :i* 7 delici\s1 & su* z ,i nev] ta/$ out ( ,new>k4 ,we came "h la/ ,?ursday 9 a great sn[-/orm1 :i* 0 *e]less & cold en\gh aft] ! w>m wea!r we _h _h = s _m weeks4 ,i d n suppose m sn[ fell on any day ?r\gh ! w9t]1 & we all %iv]$ & lam5t$ & huddl$ ov] ! fire at a great rate4 ,yet ,i h j be5 driv5 indoors by ! heat ( ! sun1 hav+ begun to write at a little table j outside ! h\se1 & fires & sn[ h disappe>$4 ,george has gone to t[n ) ,jules 9 ! wagon to buy sug>1 oil1 oats1 buttons1 & ,i d n "k :at n1 & is no d\bt ?9k+ ( y all2 = we d no?+ b cry out h[ we wi% y 7 "h ) u to enjoy ?is beautiful spot4 ,we are entirely surr\nd$ by m\nta9s 9 ! di/ance1 & ) gre5 fields1 v9ey>ds1 & cultivat$ gr\nds ne>] home4 ,h[ y\r *ildr5 w\ld delight 9 ! fl[]s1 ! :ite doves1 ! sev5 little t9y gu9ea pigs1 no bigg] ?an y\r ,annie's h& %ut up1 & ! ample1 neat play-places all ab\t u4 ,i c't tell y h[ ,george & ,i enjoy see+ ,m4 trott+ ab\t1 s eag] & s happy1 & ga!r+ up1 z we hope1 heal? & /r5g? e h\r6 ,we f9d ! h\se1 on ! :ole1 v conv5i5t1 & x is c]ta9ly z pleasant z c be2 e room *e]ful & e w9d[ comm&+ a view :i* is ravi%+4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,g5evri]1 ,april #g1 #ahei4 ,y w be surpris$1 ,i d>e say1 to he> t ,i am writ+ out ( doors2 ,i c h>dly1 myself1 believe t x is possible to d s ) com=t & safety at ?is season1 b x is p]fectly *>m+ wea!r1 nei!r cold or hot1 & ) a small %awl & my bloom] on1 ,i am out a l>ge "p ( ! day4 ,y w\ld fly "h 9 a balloon if y knew :at a beautiful spot we are 94 ,we are surr\nd$ ) magnific5t views ( bo? ! lake & ! m\nta9s1 & c n turn 9 any direction )\t be+ ravi%$4 ,! h\se is pretty1 & 9 mo/ respects well & ev5 h&somely furni%$2 damask curta9s1 a ,titian1 a ,rembr&t1 & a ,murillo 9 ! p>lor2 ! floors are wax$ & c>petless1 to be sure1 b ,mrs4 ,buck has giv5 u lots ( l>ge pieces ( c>pet+ su* z are us$ 9 ?is c\ntry to cov] ! middle ( ! rooms1 & ^! w make u com=table next w9t]4 ,b ! w9t]s "h are s %ort t "o h>dly gets fix$ to meet !m1 :5 !y are ov]4 ,we h q a nice g>d51 f :i* we h already eat5 lettuce1 sp9a*1 & p>sley2 our potatoes 7 plant$ a day or two ago1 & our peas are j up4 ,"o corn] ( ! h\se1 unconnect$ ) our "p1 is occupi$ by a f>m] :o r5ts "p ( ! l&2 he is oblig$ to d our m>ket+1 etc41 & we get milk & cream f him4 ,i wi% ! latt] 0 z easy to dige/ z x is palatable & *eap4 ,!y beat x up "h till x looks l pure :ite la!r & eat x ) sug>4 ,! gr\nds ab\t our h\se are v neat & we %all h oceans ( fl[]s ( all sorts2 sev]al k9ds are 9 full bloom n[4 ,! wild fl[]s are s pr(use1 s beautiful & s v>i\s t ,a4 & ,i are almo/ dem5t$ on ! subject4 ,f ! w9d[s ,i see fir/ ! wide1 gravell$ walk :i* runs r\nd ! h\se2 !n a little bit ( a gre5 lawn 9 :i* !re is a little bit ( a pond & a t9y jet d'eau :i* falls agreeably on ! e>2 beyond ?is ! l& slopes g5tly upw>d till x is n l& b b>e1 rugg$ m\nta91 "h & !re spr9kl$ ) sn[ & int]sp]s$ ) p9e-trees4 ,! slop+ l& is pl\gh$ up & m5 & wom5 are busy s[+ & plant+2 too f> (f to di/urb u ) noise1 b look+1 ! wom5 at lea/1 r picturesque 9 _! %ort blue dresses & /raw hats4 ,on ! "r h& ! ,d5t du ,midi is se5 to great advantage2 x is n[ cov]$ ) sn[4 ,! little village ( ,/4 ,leg] lies (f 9 ! di/ance2 y c j see its ro(s & ! qua9t spire ( a v old *ur*2 o!rwise y see next to no h\ses1 & ! /illness is v sweet4 ,n[ won't y come8 ,! *ildr5 seem to enjoy _! lib]ty greatly1 & are runn+ ab\t all ! "t4 ,!y h ea* a little g>d5 & ,i hope w live out ( doors all summ]4 ,! /ate ( h] heal? dur+ ! next ?ree mon?s 0 a s\rce ( con/ant & sev]e suff]+1 b c\ld n qu5* h] joy 9 ! wond]s ( nature ar\nd h]4 ,my drives ab\t ?is lovely place1 %e wrote 9 ,june1 h begun to give me an imm5se am\nt ( pleasure2 inde$1 my faculty = enjoym5t is s great1 t ,i sometimes ?9k "o day's felicity pays = weeks ( mis]y1 & t if x hadn't be5 = my poor heal?1 ,i %\ld h be5 too happy "h4 ,nor did h] suff]+ weak5 9 ! lea/ h] sympa?y ) ! tr\bles ( h] fri5ds at home4 ,:ile = ! mo/ "p sil5t z to h] own peculi> trials1 h] lett]s 7 full ( *e]+ words ab\t !irs4 ,to "o ( ^! %e wrote at ?is "t3 ,god has tak5 c>e t we %\ld n enjoy s mu* ( ?is _w's com=t s9ce we left home z to re/ 9 x4 ,y\r lett]s are s sad1 t ,i h fanci$ y p]haps ov]e/imat$ our situation1 feel+ t y & y\r feeble husb& 7 be>+ ! burd5 & heat ( ! day :ile we 7 /&+ idle4 ,my de> ----1 !re are trials ev]y:]e & 9 e sph]e1 & e he>t kn[e? its own bitt]ness1 or else physical burd5s are s5t to take ! place ( m5tal depression4 ,aft] all1 x w n ne$ m ?an an h\r 9 heav5 to make u a%am$ ( our want ( fai? & c\rage "h on e>?4 ,d *e] up1 de> *ild1 & look al(t6 ,poor ,mr4 ----6 ,i "k 8 "w is h>d & up ! hill1 b x w n be lo/ "w & c n la/ =ev]4 ,x seems to me ,god might accept ) special favor ! s]vices ( ^? :o toil 9 r[+4 ,aft] all1 x is n ! am\nt ( "w ,he reg>ds1 b ! _s ) :i* x is done4 ,e>ly 9 ,july %e 0 made glad by ! bir? ( h] six? *ild--h] ,swiss boy1 z %e lik$ to call him4 ,h] gladness 0 n a little increas$ by a visit soon aft] f ,pr(essor ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?1 ( ! ,union ,!ological ,sem9>y4 ,?is visit 0 "o ( ! memorable ev5ts ( h] life abroad4 ,pr(essor ,smi? 0 n m]ely a great !ologian & s*ol>2 he 0 also a man ( mo/ attractive p]sonal qualities4 ,&1 :5 unb5d+ among fri5ds f 8 exact+ lit]>y labors1 ! *>m ( 8 pres5ce & conv]sation 0 p]fect4 ,8 spirits ran high1 & he ent]$ ) equal ze/ into ! amusem5ts ( "y or old4 ,8 laugh 0 z m]ry z t ( ! m]rie/ girl2 no boy took "p m eag]ly 9 any innoc5t sport2 nobody c\ld beat him 9 climb+ a m\nta94 ,he 0 a ke5 obs]v]1 & 8 humor--sometimes v dry1 sometimes fre% & bright z ! e>ly dew--r5d]$ 8 companion%ip at once delightful & in/ructive4 ,8 le>n+ & culture 7 s mu* a "p ( himself1 t 8 mo/ famili> talk ab\nd$ 9 ! happie/ t\*es ab\t books & art & life4 ,all 8 f9e/ traits 7 9 full play :ile he 0 at ,g5evri]1 &1 :5 he left1 8 visit seem$ l a pleasant dream4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,g5evri]1 ,july #be?4 ,i am only too glad ( ! *ance y\r husb& gives me to write y ano!r bit ( a note4 ,we are enjoy+ 8 visit amaz+ly4 ,!re are only two drawbacks to its felicity2 "o is t he won't /ay all summ]1 & ! o!r t y are n "h4 ,! *ildr5 7 en*ant$ ) ! pres5ts he br\ght !m4 ,:5 ,i %all be on my feet & well & /rong aga9 "t only c tell4 ,a4 has devot$ h]self to me 9 ! sweete/ way4 ,:at %e has be5 to me all w9t] & up to ?is "t1 tongue c\ld n tell4 ,my doctor is z k9d z a bro!r4 ,he 0 a p]fect /rang] to me1 & 0 br\ght to my b$side :5 ,i 0 wri?+ 9 agony2 b 9 t5 m9utes 8 t5d]ness & sympa?y made me =get t he 0 a /rang]1 &1 ?r\gh t long night ( di/ress & ! long day t foll[$1 he did e ?+ t mortal c\ld d to relieve & com=t me4 ,he br\ght 8 wife up to see me ! o!r day1 & ,i begg$ h] to tell him h[ grateful ,i felt4 ,he is k9d1 %e answ]$1 b !n he loves y s6 7,!y bo? speak ,engli%47 ,i am s puff$ up by 8 praises6 ,i am sure ,i ?\ght ,i groan$1 b he says pas une gemissem5t4 ,augu/ #ad?4--,our two husb&s h gone to ,lausanne = ! day1 tak+ ,a4 ) !m4 ,!y seem to be hav+ real nice times toge!r1 & if1 z y\r husb& says1 8 old wife 7 "h1 8 felicity & ours w\ld be too great4 ,!y l\nge ab\t1 talk1 dr9k soda-wat]1 & view ! prospect4 ,dr4 ,buck came up f ,g5eva on ,?ursday & sp5t ! night & "p ( ,friday ) u1 & x w\ld h done y good to he> him & y\r husb& laugh4 ,he 0 q en*ant$ ) ! place1 & says we nev] %all want to g home4 ,augu/ #bc;d4--,y\r husb& has giv5 me leave to write y a little bit ( a note out ( my little bit ( a he>t on ?is little bit ( pap]4 ,he & ,a4 h j gone (f to get "s pretty grass = y4 ,he w tell y :5 he gets home h[ he baptiz$ 8 namesake on ,sunday4 ,we h enjoy$ 8 visit m ?an tongue c tell4 ,george says he has enjoy$ x z mu* z he ?\ght he %\ld1 & ,i am sure ,i h enjoy$ x a great deal m1 z ,i h be5 s mu* bett] 9 heal? ?an ,i expect$4 ,b h[ y mu/ miss him6 ,on ! #ab? ( ,septemb]--a faultless autumn day--%e set out ) h] husb& & elde/ daught] = ,*am\ni4 ,x 0 h] fir/ excursion = pleasure s9ce com+ to ,switz]l&4 ,a visit to ?is great & m>vel\s h&iwork ( ,god is an ev5t 9 ! dulle/ life4 ,9 h] case ! exp]i5ce 0 s full ( delight1 t x seem$ almo/ to comp5sate = ! c>es & disappo9tm5ts ( ! :ole previ\s ye>4 ,! plan 0 to return to ,g5evri] & !n pass on to ! ,b]nese ,ob]l&1 b ! visit to ,*am\ni prov$ to be h] la/ z well z h] fir/ pleasure excursion 9 ,switz]l&4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,g5evri]1 ,octob] #b1 #ahei4 ,i h1 be5 s absorb$ ) anxiety ab\t ! *ildr5 s9ce we got back f our j\rney1 t ,i h n felt l writ+ y a description ( x4 ,george told y1 ,i suppose1 t ! news await+ u :5 we rea*$ ,vevay 0 ( ! baby's hav+ :oop+-c\gh4 ,x 0 a great %ock to u1 = ! wea!r 0 dismally cold1 & x did n seem z if ! little ?+ c\ld get safely ?r\gh ! disease at s unfavorable a "t ( ye>4 ,!n !re 7 ! o!r two to h x also4 ,on ,friday la/ baby's cry _h become a sad sort ( wail1 & he 0 s pale & weak1 t ,i did n see h[ he 0 go+ to rally2 b he is bett] to-day1 s t ,i beg9 to take brea?4444 ,to g back to ,*am\ni1 x seems a m]cy t we w5t :5 we did4 ,we enjoy$ ! :ole trip4 ,we made ! excursion to ! ,m] de ,glace 9 a p\r+ ra91 )\t injury to any ( u1 & 7 well repaid = our tr\ble by ! novelty ( ! :ole exp$ition & ! extraord9>y sights we saw4 ,george int5d$ tak+ u to ! ,ob]l& if we f\nd ! *ildr5 well on our return1 b all hope ( accompli%+ ano!r j\rney 0 de/roy$ :5 we f\nd :at diff]5t bus9ess 0 be=e u4 ,x is a real disappo9tm5t1 = ! wea!r is n[ mild & v f9e1 j adapt$ to j\rney+1 & s _m ?+s h conspir$ to conf9e me to ?is spot1 t ,i h f\nd x q h>d to be z pati5t & *e]ful z ,i am sure ,i ought to be4 ,alas & alas6 :at an insatiable ?+ human nature is6 ,h[ x craves e ?+ ! _w c (f]1 in/ead ( cont5t+ itself ) :at ought to cont5t x4 ,h[ev]1 ,i %all soon get ov] my fidgets1 & z to ,george1 ( c\rse he is only disappo9t$ = me & ,a41 z he has visit$ ! ,ob]l&1 & 0 only go+ to give u pleasure4 ,&1 if ,i mu/ *oose betwe5 ! two1 ,i'd r h ! little/ baby 9 ! _w ?an see all ! bigge/ m\nta9s 9 x4 ,we are ?ankful to he> t "m /ill cont9ues to be s well4 ,we long to see h]1 & ,i ?9k a look at h] or a smile f h] w\ld d ,george good l a m$ic9e4 ,octob] #ag?4--,i w5t to *ur* ye/]day = ! fir/ "t 9 t5 mon?s2 we came out at half-pa/ t51 s y see we h a tol]ably long day be=e u :5 *ur* is done4 ,x is n at all l go+ to *ur* at home2 y n only f9d x pa9ful to li/5 ) su* /rict att5tion z ! =eign tongue requires1 b y miss ! neat1 well-ord]$ sanctu>y1 ! picture ( family life 7= !re are no little *ildr5 pres5t67 & ! agreeable array ( dress4 ,! flapp+1 mon/r\s bloom]s tire y\r eyes1 & s d ! grotesque1 co>se clo!s & ! tok5s ( extreme pov]ty4 ,i gr[ m & m patriotic e day1 & am a/oni%$ at :at ,i see & he> ( life 9 ,europe4 ,i snat*$ "o aft]noon :5 ! baby 0 bett] ?an usual to g to ,vill5euve ) ,george to call on ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,h4 & ! si/] ( ,mrs4 ,h41 :o is "o ( our ,m]c] /reet "y ladies4 ,!y 7 at ! ,hotel ,byron1 :]e y /ay$4 ,:at a beautiful spot x is6 ,mr4 ,h4 aft]w>ds came & d9$ ) u1 & 0 s *>m$ ) ! place t he 0 tempt$ to take x :5 we leave2 8 wife1 h[ev]1 _h set h] he>t on go+ home at t "t1 z %e _h left "o *ild !re4 ,! v9tage is go+ on "h at ,g5evri] to-day1 & we are all invit$ to g & eat our fill4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?1 ,g5evri]1 ,oct4 #bj1 #ahei4 ,y ask h[ ,i f9d "t to make fl[]-pictures4 ,:y1 ,i h be5 conf9$ to ! h\se a good deal by ! baby's sickness1 & c\ld h>dly set myself ab\t any?+ else :5 ,i 0 n wat*+ & worry+ ab\t him4 ,:5 we got home f ,*am\ni we f\nd him ) :at prov$ to be a v s]i\s disease 9 ! case ( s "y a *ild4 ,x has %ak5 8 little frame ne>ly to pieces1 leav+ him aft] weeks ( suff]+ n mu* bigg] ?an a doll1 & all eyes & bones4 ,x 0 a pretty h>d /ruggle = life1 & ,i h>dly "k h[ he has wea!r$ ! /orm4 ,! idea ( leav+ our de> little ,swiss baby 9 a little ,swiss grave1 in/ead ( tak+ him home ) u1 0 v di/ress+ to me1 & ,i c n help e>ne/ly desir+ t dea? may n assail u 9 ?is =eign l&4 ,our trip to ,*am\ni 0 v pleasant & did me a deal ( good4 ,if ,i c\ld h kept on ! mule-rid+ & m\nta9-view+ a few weeks ,i %\ld h got q built up1 b ! *ildr5's c\ghs made x impossible to take any m j\rneys4 ,mr4 de ,palzieux1 our l&lord1 call$ ,monday to see if ,i w\ld sell him my sew+-ma*9e1 z 8 wife 0 crazy to h "o1 & didn't feel z if %e c\ld wait to get "o f ,new ,york4 ,i told him ,i w\ld1 & all night c\ld n sleep = tea*+ him h[ to use x--= 8 wife is 9 ,g]many1 & he _h to le>n = h]4 ,i invit$ him to come to d9n] on ,w$nesday & take 8 lessons4 ,on ,tuesday ,george said he want$ me to make a pair ( sleeves = ,mrs4 ,?oluck be=e ! ma*9e w5t (f1 s ,i w5t to t[n to get ! /uff1 at ?ree o'clock began ! sleeves & work$ l a lion = a little ov] two h\rs1 :5 !y 7 done1 beautifully4 ,?is morn+ ,i made f\r coll>s1 :i* ,i %all want = ,*ri/mas pres5ts1 & a %irt = ,jules 7our old hir$ man71 :o nev] _h "o made ( l951 & w g (f ! h&le :5 he gets x4 ,s ,i am tol]ably us$ up1 & %all be almo/ glad to s5d away ! tempt] to-morr[1 ?\gh ,i d>e say ,i %all miss x4 ,i wi% y c\ld look out ( my w9d[ ?is m9ute1 & see h[ beautiful ! autumnal foliage is already beg9n+ to look4 ,b my poor old head1 :at %all ,i d ) x6 ,y ask ab\t my heal?2 ,i am z well z ,i c be )\t sleep4 ,i h _h only "o really good night s9ce ! baby came1 to say no?+ ( ^? be=e2 "s worse ?an o!rs1 to be sure2 b all wakeful to a degree t tries my fai? n a little4 ,i don't see :at is to h9d] my go+ crazy "o ( ^! days4 ,h[ev]1 ,i won't if ,i c help x4 ,george goes to ,g]many ?is week4 ,well1 my de>1 good-bye4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,dec4 #ab?4 ,george got home a =tnight ago1 aft] 8 ?ree weeks' abs5ce2 look+ nicely1 & m l himself ?an ,i h se5 him 9 a long "t4 ,he _h a mo/ refre%+ "t 9 ,g]many among 8 old fri5ds4 ,x does my he>t good to see him s *e]y & hopeful4 ,i h j se5 ! ?ree babies safely 9 b$1 aft] no little scamp]+ & c>ry+-on1 & n[ am ready = a little *at ) y & de> "m4 ,george sits by me1 pi\sly read+ ,adam ,b$e4 ,i 0 disappo9t$ 9 ! ,m9i/]'s ,woo+1 :i* he br\ght f ,g]many1 & c n ?9k ,mrs4 ,/[e came up to h]self ?is "t1 :atev] ! newspap]s may say ab\t x2 & z = ! plot1 ,i don't see :y %e c\ldn't h let ,m>y m>ry good old ,dr4 ,hopk9s1 :o 0 va/ly m ( a man ?an t h>um-sc>um ,james4 ,z to ,adam ,b$e1 ,i ?9k x a wond]ful book1 beyond praise4 ,i hope ^! lit]>y obs]vations w be bless$ to y1 my de>4 ,mrs4 ,?oluck s5t me a v pretty wor/$ cape to we> ab\t h\se1 or "u a cloak4 ,we w5t to ,lausanne la/ ,w$nesday 7,george1 ,a4 & ,i7 to d a little %opp+ = ,*ri/mas1 & _h q a good "t1 only z life is always m+l$ 9 sweet & bitt]1 bitt] & sweet1 we _h ! melan*oly exp]i5ce ( f9d+1 :5 we got ready to come home1 t ,jules _h tak5 a drop too mu*1 & 0 9 a /ate ( ineffable sill9ess1 :i* made ,george pref] to drive himself4 ,we beg9 n[ to ?9k & talk ab\t ,p>is4 ,we h be5 buy+ ?is aft]noon "s ,swiss *lets & o!r ?+s1 br\ght to ! door by two wom51 & ,i _h h>d "w to keep ,george f tak+ a bu%el or two4 ,he got leaf-cutt]s en\gh to /ab all 8 fri5ds to ! he>t4 ,mo/ ( our lady fri5ds w receive a salad-spoon & =k f "o or ! o!r ( u4 ,9 fact1 ,i h no d\bt we %all be seiz$ at ! ,cu/om-h\se z m]*ants 9 disguise4 ,well1 ,i mu/ bid y good night4 ,! latt] "p ( ,decemb] h] husb& 0 reque/$ to g to ,p>is & take ! tempor>y *>ge ( ! ,am]ican *apel !re4 ,he decid$ to d s1 ) ! und]/&+ t %e & ! *ildr5 %\ld soon foll[ him4 ,b sc>cely _h he left ,g5eva1 :5 fir/ "o & !n ano!r ( ! *ildr5 0 seiz$ ) sc>let fev]4 ,"h are a few extracts f h] lett]s on ! subject3 ,dec4 #ca/4--,jules _h h>dly gone to ! (fice1 :5 ,i became satisfi$ t ,g4 _h sc>let fev] beyond a d\bt1 & !re=e s5t ,jeanette in/antly to t[n to tell ! doctor s1 & to ask him to come up4 ,he came1 & said at once ,i 0 q "r4444 ,z to our leav+ "h1 he said decid$ly t x c\ld n be "u less ?an =ty days4 ,i c n tell y1 my d>l+1 h[ griev$ ,i am = y to he> ?is news4 ,n[ ,i "k y\r fir/ impulse w be to come home1 & p]haps to r5\nce ! *apla9cy1 b ,i beg y to ?9k twice--?rice be=e y decide to d s4444 ,h[ "o ?+ hurries on aft] ano!r6 ,b x is ! univ]sal cry1 ev]y:]e2 ev]ybody is groan+ & travail+ 9 pa9 toge!r2 & we %all d\btless le>n1 9 et]nity1 t our lot 0 n peculi>1 b t we _h millions ( unkn[n fell[-suff]]s on ! way4 ,don't be too disappo9t$1 b let u r be ?ankful1 t if our poor *ildr5 mu/ be sick1 x 0 "h & n 9 ,p>is1 & n[1 good night4 ,betake y\rself to y\r knees1 :5 y h read ?is1 & pray = u ) all y\r might4 ,jan4 #e1 #ahfj4--,! doctor has be5 "h & says ! o!r *ildr5 mu/ n meet ,g4 till ! end ( ?is mon?1 unless !y are tak5 sick meantime4 ,poor ,m4 melt$ l a sn[-flake 9 ! fire1 :5 %e he>d t2 %e beg9s to miss h] little playmate1 & keeps runn+ to say ?+s to him ?r\gh ! key-hole1 & to s]5ade him ) s++1 accompani$ ) a rattl+ ( knives4 ,i see b "o ?+ to be done2 = y to /ay & prea* & me to /ay & nurse1 ea* 9 ! place ,god has assign$ u4444 ,y mu/ pray = me1 t ,i may be pati5t & will+ to h my com+ to ,europe turn out a failure z f> z my special enjoym5t ( x is conc]n$4 ,!re are bett] ?+s ?an go+ to ,p>is1 be+ ) y & he>+ y prea*2 pray t ,i may h !m 9 full measure4 ,i c't be> to /op writ+--good-bye1 my de>e/ love6 ,jan4 #ae?--,if y c\ld look 9 ^u u ?is ev5+1 y w\ld be n a little surpris$ to see me writ+ 9 ! corn] ( my room1 close to ! wa%-/& :]e my lamp is plac$2 b y w\ld see at a glance t ! curta9 ( ! b$ is let d[n to %ade our d>l+ little ,m4's eyes1 z %e lies close at my side4 ,h[ sorry ,i am1 z y c n see all ?is1 to h to tell x to y6 ,i h let h] decide = me1 & %e wants de> papa to "k t %e is sick4 ,oh1 :y ne$ ,i add ano!r c>e to ^? y already suff] on our acc\nt6444 ,z to baby1 we are dispos$ to ?9k t he has _h ! fev]4 ,( c\rse we d n "k1 b x is pleasant to hope ! be/4444 ,& n[1 my preci\s d>l+1 y see !re is m pray+ "w to d1 z ,i h9t$ 9 my ,saturday's note :5 my he>t 0 pretty heavy )9 me4 ,i ne$ n tell y :at to ask = ! de> *ild2 b = me d pray t ,i may h no w ( my own4 ,all ^! trials & disappo9tm5ts are s purely ,provid5tial t x fright5s me to ?9k ,i may h mu* secret discont5t ab\t !m1 or may l to plan = myself 9 ways diff]5t f ,god's plans4 ,yet 9 ! mid/ ( s mu* c>e & fatigue ,i h>dly "k h[ ,i d feel2 ,i am l a fea!r bl[n "h & !re by an unexpect$ :irlw9d & ,i suppose ,i ought n to expect mu* ( myself4 ,?\gh ,he slay me yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him1 ,i keep say+ ov] & ov] to myself1 & if y are go+ to write a new s]mon ?is week1 suppose y take t = y\r text4 ,i h n _h "o regret t y w5t to ,p>is1 & z to y\r com+ on1 ,i d hope y w n ?9k ( x1 unless y are s5t =4 ,y c\ld d no?+ & w\ld be v lonely & uncom=table4 ,! doctor told me to tell y to /ay :]e y 71 & t y ought to rejoice t ! *ildr5 are n sick 9 ,p>is4 ,i d tru/ t 9 ! end we %all come =? f ?is tr\bl\s "t l gold f ! furnace4 ,s f> ,i h be5 able to d all t 0 necess>y & ,i tru/ ,i %all cont9ue s4 ,god bless y1 & br+ u to a happy meet+ 9 ,8 own good "t6 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,g5evri]1 ,jan4 #ba1 #ahfj4 444 ,boil+ ov] does "o good ( itself1 & ,i am sure y feel ! bett] = hav+ done s4 ,i d n "k :y m5 seem to get along )\t su* reliefs z wom5 almo/ always seek 9 ?is way2 :e!r !re is less wat] 9 _! kettles or :e!r _! kettles are bigg] ?an ours & boil ) m safety4 ,x is a com=t to believe t1 :atev] our tr\bles1 9 ! end all w "w toge!r = our good4 ,! new ye> has op5$ ^u u "h at ,g5evri] pretty gloomily1 z ,george has told y4 ,y w n be surpris$1 !re=e1 to he> t ,m4 is also q sick1 mu* sick] ?an ,g4 ,%e is "o ( ^? meek1 preci\s little d>l+s :om x is pa9ful to see suff]1 & ,i h h>dly kn[n :at ,i 0 ab\t1 or :]e ,i 01 s9ce %e 0 tak5 d[n4 ,my baby is des]t$ by u all2 ,i h only se5 him 9 mom5ts = ?ree weeks4 ,y c n ?9k h[ lonely poor ,a4 is2 half ! "t %e eats alone 9 ! big solit>y d9+-room2 nobody has any "t to walk out ) h]1 :at few *ildr5 %e knew are afraid to come "h or to h h] come nigh !m1 & ,i feel z if ,i %\ld fly1 :5 ,i ?9k ( x--= %e is n /rong or well & h] life "h 9 ,switz]l& has be5 a s]ies ( disappo9tm5ts & anxieties4 ,! only leisure mom5ts ,i c snat* 9 ! c\rse ( ! tw5ty-f\r h\rs ,i h to sp5d 9 writ+ to ,george2 b ! la/ few ev5+s ,m4 has slept1 s t ,i c\ld play a game ( *ess ) h] & try to *e] & brace h] up aga9/ next day's dre>9ess4 ,all h] spl5did dreams ( gett+ (f f ?is solitude to ! life & /ir ( ,p>is h be5 dissipat$1 b %e has nev] utt]$ "o ^w ( compla9t2 ,i h n he>d h] say z mu* z ,isn't x too bad6 ,& inde$ we ought none ( u to say s or to feel s1 = ! doctor assures me t = ?ree su* delicate *ildr5 z he consid]s ours1 to pass safely ?r\gh :oop+-d\gh & sc>let-fev]1 is a p]fect wond] & t he is sure x is ow+ to ! pure c\ntry air4 ,& :5 ,i ?9k h[ diff]5t a sc5e our h\se might pres5t if our ?ree little ones _h be5 snat*$ away1 z ?ree or f\r ev5 h be5 f o!r families1 ,i am a%am$ ( myself t ,i d>e to sigh1 t ,i am lonely & fri5dless "h1 or t ,i h any?+ to compla9 (4 ,x has be5 no small trial1 h[ev]1 to pass ?r\gh su* anxieties 9 s remote a place1 ) ,george gone2 :ile on ! o!r h& ,i h be5 mo/ ?ankful t he has be5 sp>$ all ! details ( ! *ildr5's ailm5ts1 & p]mitt$ once m to feel himself ab\t 8 ,ma/]'s bus9ess4 ,provid5ce mo/ pla9ly call$ him to ,p>is1 & ,i tru/ he w /ay !re & get good till we c jo9 him4 ,b ,i feel uneasy ab\t him1 too1 le/ 8 anxiety ab\t ! *ildr5 %\ld hang z a dead weight on 8 n q re/$ head & he>t4 ,at any rate1 ,i %all be tol]ably glad to see him aga9 at ! end ( our two mon?s' sep>ation4 ,h[ ,i %\ld love to drop 9 on y to-night6 ,doesn't x seem z if "o c\ld if "o tri$ h>d en\gh6 ,well1 good night to y4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,g5evri]1 ,jan4 #bi1 #ahfj4 ,i believe ,george has writt5 y ab\t our private hospital4 ,he _h n be5 gone to ,p>is =ty-eight h\rs :5 ,g4 0 tak5 sick2 t 0 a mon? ago1 & ,i h only ta/$ ! air twice 9 all t "t4 ,g4 _h ! disease lightly4 ,m41 poor little d>l+1 0 mu* sick] ?an he 04 ,x is a =tnight s9ce %e 0 tak5 & %e h>dly sits up at all2 an old] *ild w\ld be 9 b$1 b little ones nev] w give up if !y c help x2 ,i suppose x is because !y c be held 9 ! arms & rock$1 & c>ri$ ab\t4 ,i h pass$ ?r\gh "s mo/ anxi\s h\rs on acc\nt ( ,m41 & x seems little less ?an a miracle t %e is /ill alive4 ,! baby is well1 & he is a nice little rosy fell[4 ,x 0 a dreadful disappo9tm5t to u to be deta9$ "h in/ead ( go+ to ,p>is4 ,i felt t ,i c\ldn't live long] 9 su* entire solitude2 & j !n1 lo & behold1 ,george 0 :isk$ (f & ,i 0 %ut up clos] ?an ev]4 ,x is a great com=t to me t he got (f j :5 he did1 & has _h grace to /ay away2 on ! o!r h&1 ,i ne$ n say h[ 8 abs5ce has aggravat$ my c>es1 h[ solit>y ! season ( anxiety has be51 & h[1 at times1 my fai? & c\rage h be5 put to _! utmo/ /ret*4 ,! :ole ?+ has be5 s evid5tly ord]$ & plann$ by ,god t ,i h n d>$ to compla92 b1 my de> *ild1 if y _h come 9 n[ & !n ) a little ( y\r /r5g!n+ talk1 ,i c't d5y ,i %\ld h be5 mo/ ?ankful4 ,x has be5 pretty try+ = ,george to he> su* doleful acc\nts f home1 b ,i hope ! wor/ is ov]1 & t we %all be ! wis] & ! bett] = ?is new lesson ( life4 ,dr4 ,cur*od's rule is ! same z ,dr4 ,buck's--=ty days conf9em5t to "o room2 s we h a mon? m to sp5d "h4 ,i am afraid ,i am writ+ a gloomy lett]4 ,if ,i am1 y mu/ try to excuse me & say1 ,poor *ild1 %e isn't well1 & %e hasn't _h any good sleep lately1 & %e's tir$1 & ,i don't believe %e means to grumble4 ,d s mu* = me1 & ,i'll d z mu* = y sometime4 ,i he> y\r husb& has tak5 up a ,bible-class4 ,x is p]fectly %ock+4 ,does he want to kill himself1 or :at ails him8 ,! pleasante/ remembrance we %all h ( ?is place is 8 visit4444 ,our doctor & 8 family /& out z bright lights 9 ?is picture2 he has be5 l a bro!r 9 sympa?y & k9dness4 ,we %all nev] =get x4 ,god has be5 s good to y & to me 9 sp>+ our *ildr5 :5 assail$ by s fe>ful a disease1 t we ought to love ,him bett] ?an we ev] did4 ,i d s want my we>y solitude to be> t fruit4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,p>is4 ,sight-see+4 ,a sick ,fri5d4 ,london & its ,environs4 ,! ,que5 & ,pr9ce ,alb]t4 ,! ,isle ( ,wight4 ,homew>d4 ,on ! #bj? ( ,febru>y ! family gladly bade adieu to ,switz]l& & set out = ,p>is1 arriv+ !re on ! morn+ ( ! #bb;d4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 ov]joy$ to f9d h]self once m 9 ! _w4 ,on ! #bc;d %e wrote to ,mrs4 ,smi?3 ,we h got "h safe & s\nd ) our little bat* ( invalids4 ,!y bore ! j\rney v well & are he>tily glad to get into ! _w aga94 ,i am *ock-full ( worldl9ess4 ,all ,i ?9k ( is dress & fa%ion1 &1 on ! :ole1 ,i don't "k t y are wor? writ+ to1 z y 7 nev] 9 ,p>is & don't "k ! modes1 & h p]haps fooli%ly left (f hoops & op5 sleeves4 ,i long1 h[ev]1 to he> f y & y\r new babby1 & w try to keep a small spot swept cle> ( f9]y 9 my he>t ( he>ts1 :]e y c sit d[n :5 y've a m9d4 ,our little fell[ is gett+ to be a sweet-look+ baby1 ) :at 8 nurse calls a mo/ gracieuse smile--if y c guess :at k9d ( a smile t is4 ,b he is gett+ tee? & is look+ delicate & s(t1 & y\r ,h]cules w knock him d[n1 ,i "k4 ,b ,p>is 0 f> f fulfill+ to h] or to ! *ildr5 ! bright anticipations ) :i* x _h be5 look$ =w>d to f lonely ,g5evri]4 ,! wea!r c\ld h>dly h be5 worse2 ! h\se soon became ano!r hospital2 & sight-see+ 0 a task4 ,fri5ds1 h[ev]1 soon ga!r$ ab\t h]1 & by _! hospitality & little k9dnesses1 reliev$ ! t$ium ( ! we>y days4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,p>is1 ,m>* #bg1 #ahfj4 ,we pass _m lonely h\rs 9 ?is big city1 & (t5 long = y & ,mr4 ,/e>ns to drop 91 or = a *ance to run 9 to see de> "m4 ,gett+ ne>] home makes x attractive4 ,x works 9 ! natural life j z x does 9 ! spiritual 9 t respect4 ,! wea!r is dreadful & has be5 = five mon?s--sc>cely "o *e]y day 9 t :ole "t4 ,:at ) ?is & ! *ildr5's ill-heal?1 ,i %\ld n wond] if we left ,p>is z ignorant ( its beauties z :5 we came4 ,b ,i hope we %all n let t worry u too mu*1 b r be ?ankful t1 bad z ?+s are1 !y are n s bad z !y might be4 ,our sympa?ies are greatly excit$ n[ = ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,little1 =m]ly ( ,bangor1 :o is 9 ,p>is--alone1 fri5dless1 & sick4 ,if we c\ld by any miracul\s p[] /ret* our scanty accommodations1 we %\ld c]ta9ly take him home & nurse him till 8 wife c\ld be got "h4 ,y "k1 p]haps1 t ,mrs4 ,little is a daught] ( ,dr4 ,cornelius2 &1 :5 ,i recall ! love & honor ,i 0 taught to feel t[>ds him :5 ,i 0 a little girl1 my he>t q ye>ns t[>ds h]1 especially 9 ?is "t ( fe>ful anxiety ab\t h] husb&4 ,h[ insignificant my own trials look to me1 :5 ,i ?9k ( ! sorr[ :i* is probably be=e h]4 ,april #bf?4--,our pati5ce is /ill tri$ by ! cold1 damp1 & mo/ un:olesome wea!r1 :i* prev5ts ! *ildr5 f go+ to see any?+4 ,b we d n c>e s mu* = ourselves or = !m z = poor ,mr4 ,little1 :o is exce$+ly feeble1 *iefly conf9$ to 8 room1 & s =lorn 9 ?is /range1 homeless l&4 ,:ile ,george 0 ) him la/ ev5+1 he _h a bad fit ( c\gh+1 :i* result$ 9 ! rais+ ( a gill or s ( blood4 ,i "k y w feel int]e/$ to he> ab\t him1 & w n wond] t our he>ts are s full ( sympa?y = him & = 8 poor wife1 t we c h>dly talk ( any?+ else4 ,he expects h] 9 ab\t a week4 ,:at a com+ to ,europe = h]6 ,h[ little ^? :o /& on ! %ore to wat* ! dep>ture ( a =eign /eam]1 "k :at !y d :5 !y envy its pass5g]s6444 ,we buckl$ on our armor & began sight-see+ ! o!r day1 go+ to see ! ,sa9te ,*apelle & ! gall]ies & museum ( ! ,l\vre among ! re/4 ,! ,sa9te ,*apelle is q unlike any?+ ,i ev] saw & delight$ u extremely4 ,z to ! ,l\vre1 "o ne$s sev]al entire days to d ju/ice to x1 besides an am\nt ( y\?ful en?usiasm & bodily /r5g? :i* we d n possess2 =1 amid midnight wat*+s ov] our sick *ildr5 & ! l1 ! oil ( gladness has ab\t burnt out1 & we f9d sight-see+ a we>y task4 ,may #be?4--,x does seem z if ,george's prea*+ 0 li/5$ to ) m & m s]i\s att5tion1 & x may be se5 long aft] he has re/$ f 8 labors on e>?1 t he has done a good "w "h4 ,we bo? are mu* int]e/$ 9 ,pr(essor #f ,hunt+ton's s]mons1 #g s5t u by ,miss ,w4 ,?is is a great deal = me to say1 because ,i d n l to read s]mons4 ,dur+ ! la/ ?ree weeks1 be=e ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,little left1 we accompli%$ v little4 ,x 0 n t we did or c\ld d s v mu* = !m1 b !y _h nobody to dep5d on b u1 & ,george 0 con/antly go+ back & =? try+ to make !m com=table1 arrang+ all _! affairs1 etc4 ,%e _h a we>y1 anxi\s two weeks "h1 & n[ has set h] face homew>ds1 n kn[+ b ,mr4 ,l4 may s9k be=e rea*+ ,am]ica4 ,x is a great com=t to u to h be5 able to soo! !m some:at z long z !y /ay$ 9 ,p>is4 ,george says x 0 wor? com+ "h = t alone4 ,i say we1 b ,i mean ,george1 = :at 0 done he did4 ,! mo/ ,i c\ld d 0 to feel dreadfully = !m4 #h ,we are n[ to beg9 sight-see+ aga91 & d all we c z spe$ily z possible1 = only two weeks rema94 ,! *ildr5 are n[ pretty well4 ,! baby is at t dang]\s age :5 !y are =ev] gett+ ^u _! feet & tumbl+ ov] backw>d on _! heads4 ,m4 is ! odde/ little s\l4 ,belle says %e w\ld r g to a fun]al ?an see all ! %ops 9 ,p>is1 &1 :5 !y are out1 %e c h>dly keep h] f foll[+ e su* procession !y meet4 ,i ask$ h] ! la/ "t !y w5t out if %e _h _h a nice walk4 ,%e said n v nice1 z %e _h only se5 "o pretty ?+1 & t 0 a police-(fic] tak+ a man to jail4 ,! idea ( go+ to ,engl& is v pleasant1 &1 if we only keep tol]ably well1 ,i ?9k x w d u all good4 ,:at is de> "m do+ ab\t ^! times8 ,i always ?9k ( h] z sitt+ by ! little "w-table 9 h] room1 knitt+ & wat*+ ! *ildr54 ,give lots ( love & kisses to h]1 & tell h] we long to see h] face to face4 ,kiss all ! *ildr5 = u--,i suppose !y'll let y6 boys & all--& y may d z mu* = ,mr4 ,s4 if y want to4 ,good-bye4 ,on ! #g? ( ,june ! family left ,p>is = ,london4 ,a fir/ visit to ,engl&-- ,t preci\s /one set 9 ! silv] sea-- is always an ev5t full ( int]e/ to *ildr5 ( ! ,new ,engl& ,puritans4 ,! scept]$ isle is /ill 9 a s5se _! "m-c\ntry1 & a ?\s& ance/ral ties attract !m to its %ores4 ,!re is no o!r spot on e>? :]e s _m l9es ( _! hi/ory1 dome/ic & public1 meet4 ,& 9 ,london1 :at famili> memories are = !m associat$ ) almo/ e old /reet & lane & build+6 ,! w9t] & spr+ ( #ahfj _h be5 cold1 wet & *e]less well-nigh beyond endurance2 & ! summ] prov$ h>dly less dre>y4 ,x ra9$ ne>ly e day1 sometimes all day & all night2 ! sun came out only at long int]vals1 & !n (t5 b = a mom5t2 ! atmosph]e1 mu* ( ! "t1 0 l lead2 ! moon & />s seem$ to h left ! sky2 ev5 ! ,engli% l&scape1 9 spite ( its mat*less v]dure & beauty1 put on a =bidd+ aspect4 ,all nature1 inde$1 0 "u a cl\d4 ,?is1 add$ to h] frail heal?1 made ! summ] a v try+ "o to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 & yet x af=d$ h] n a little real delight4 ,"s ( h] pleasante/ days 9 ,europe 7 sp5t 9 ,engl&4 ,! foll[+ extracts are f a little j\rnal kept by h] 9 ,london3 ,june #aj?4--,we w5t ?is morn+ to he> ,dr4 ,hamilton1 & 7 greatly edifi$ by ! s]mon1 :i* 0 on ! text3 ,hi!rto ha? ! ,"l help$ u4 ,9 ! aft]noon we decid$ to g to ,we/m9/] ,abbey4 ,x began to ra9 soon aft] we got out1 & we _h a two miles' walk ?r\gh ! mud4 ,! old abbey look$ z mu* l its picture z x c\ld1 b pictures c n give a true idea ( ! gr&eur ( su* a build+4 ,we 7 a little late1 & e seat 0 full & _m 7 /&+1 z we _h to d ?r\gh ! :ole s]vice4 ,! s]mon /ruck me z a v ord9>y affair1 ?\gh x 0 deliv]$ by a "l4 ,b ! music 0 s sweet1 p]=m$ = aught ,i "k by angel--= ! *oir 0 invisible--& we /ood surr\nd$ by su* monum5ts & cov]$ by su* a ro(1 t we 7 n q ?r[+ away our "t4 ,alb]t ,b---- d9$ ) u1 & 9 ! ev5+1 ) "o accord1 we w5t to he> ,dr4 ,hamilton aga94 ,we _h good seats & he>d a mo/ beautiful z well z edify+ disc\rse on ! fir/ v]ses ( ! #ajc;d ,psalm4 ,"s ( ! images 7 v f9e1 & ! :ole tone ( ! s]mon 0 mod]ate1 s5sible1 & s]i\s4 ,i use ^! words advis$ly1 = ,i _h an impression t he 0 a fl[]y1 popul> man :om ,i %\ld n reli%4 ,at ! close ( ! s]vice a little pray]-meet+ ( half an h\r 0 held1 & we came home satisfi$ ) our fir/ ,engli% ,sunday1 feel+ "s ( our re/less crav+s already quiet$ z only contact ) ,god's own p c\ld quiet !m4 #aa?4--,w5t to see ! ,cry/al ,palace4 ,x prov$ a f9e day1 & we took ,m4 ) u4 ,none ( u felt q well1 b we enjoy$ ?is new & beautiful sc5e = all t4 ,x is a little fairy l&4 #ad?4--,w5t to ,we/m9/] ,abbey1 & sp5t "s "t !re4 ,on com+ out we made a rapid1 b q amus+ passage ?r\gh sev]al c\rts :]e we saw num]\s great p]sonages 9 /iff little gray wigs4 ,to my untra9$1 irrev]5t eyes !y all look$ p]fectly funny4 ,george 0 greatly int]e/$ & edifi$4 ,x has be5 ra9+ & %9+ by turns all day1 & is ?is ev5+ v cold4 #ae?4--,ano!r ( ^? days :i* ! ,engli% s euphoni\sly t]m na/y4 ,n kn[+ :at else to d ) x1 we set (f 9 se>* ( ,no4 #e ,s]mon ,lane1 a h\se connect$ ) a /]eoscopic e/abli%m5t 9 ,p>is1 :i* we rea*$ aft] _m evolutions & convolutions1 & f\nd x to be a :olesale conc]n only4 ,pity+ u = ! tr\ble we _h be5 at 9 seek+ !m1 !y let u h :at views we want$1 b at high] prices ?an !y sell !m at ,p>is4 ,we !n w5t to ! ,tract ,h\se1 & :ile select+ ,fr5* & o!r tracts1 a g5tleman came & ask$ = a quantity ( ! ,la/ ,h\rs ( ,dr4 ,payson4 #af?4--,w5t to ! ,t[]1 & _h a mo/ int]e/+ visit !re4 ,we 7 p>ticul>ly /ruck by "s spots %[n u by "o ( ! w>d5s1 aft] ! regul> r\nd _h be5 gone ?r\gh )1 & ! o!r visitors disp]s$--namely1 ! cell :]e prison]s 7 conf9$ ) ?umbscrews atta*$ to elicit confession1 & ! floor :]e ,lady ,jane ,grey 0 imprison$4 ,we look$ f ! w9d[ :]e %e saw h] husb& c>ri$ to execution1 & ,a4 0 lock$ up 9 ! room s z to be able to say %e _h be5 a prison] 9 ! ,t[]4 #ag?4--,he>d ,dr4 ,hamilton aga94 ,met ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,adams ( ,new ,york !re1 & _h a mo/ k9d & cordial greet+ f !m4 ,dr4 ,a4 introduc$ u to ,dr4 ,hamilton4 ,9 ! ev5+ we w5t to he> ,dr4 ,adams at ,dr4 ,h4's *ur*1 & came home q pr\d ( our c\ntryman1 :o gave u a mo/ excell5t s]mon4 ,at ! close ( ! s]vice ,dr4 ,h4 invit$ u to take tea ) him next week1 & introduc$ u to 8 wife2 a "y1 quiet little lady1 look+ z unlike mo/ ( u ,am]ican p>sonesses z possible1 h] p>o*ial c>es be+1 p]haps1 less weighty ?an ours4 #ah?4--,two ?+s made ?is day op5 pleasantly4 ,"o 0 a decid$ attempt on ! "p ( ! sun to come out & %9e4 ,! second 0 ,dr4 ,adams' dropp+ 9 & tak+ breakfa/ ) u4 ,we also got lett]s f home1 & ! news t ,mr4 ,little _h rea*$ ,new ,york 9 safety4 ,aft] lun*1 ,george w5t (f 9 glory to ! ,h\se ( ,commons1 h9t+ t he might /ay !re till to-morr[ morn+1 & begg+ = a night-key to let himself 94 ,! re/ ( u w5t to ! ,zoological ,g>d51 :i* is mu* m ample & int]e/+ ?an ! ,j>d9 des ,plantes4 #bj?4--,ye/]day x p\r$ 9 torr5ts all day1 s t go+ out 0 n possible4 ,to-day we w5t out 9 ! drops & betwe5 ! drops1 to d a little %opp+ 9 ! way ( razors1 scissors1 knives1 ne$les1 & su* l %>p & po9t$ ?+s4 ,we /epp$ into ,nesbit's & took a view ( ,little ,susy1 :o look$ z usual1 b\ght a few books1 subscrib$ to a libr>y1 covet$ our neighbor's prop]ty1 & came home cov]$ ) mud & mire4 #bb;d4--,w5t out to ,b>net to call on ,miss ,bird4 ,on rea*+ ! /ation1 we f\nd ,miss ,b4 await+ u ) phaeton & pony4 ,we 7 driv5 ov] a pretty ?ree miles r\te to ,hur/ ,cottage1 :]e we 7 introduc$ to ,mrs4 ,bird & a y\ng] daught]1 & ,i _h a nice little lun*1 toge!r ) pleasant *at ab\t ,am]ica 9 g5]al & ,e4 ,l4 ,s4 9 p>ticul>4 ,miss ,bird said %e %[$ h] lik5ess to a g5tleman1 :o is a great physiognomi/1 & ask$ 8 op9ion ( h]4 ,he repli$1 ,%e is a g5ius1 a poetess1 a ,*ri/ian1 & a true wife & "m4 ,we !n w5t up-/airs1 & look$ at ,miss ,b4's little /udy1 aft] :i* %e took u to see ! *ur* 9 ,hadley1 a v old build+ dat+ back to #adid4 ,x has be5 repair$ & re/or$ & is a beautiful little *ur*4 ,on leav+ x ,miss ,bird came ) u a "p ( ! way to ! /ation & we got home 9 good season = d9n]4 ,! wea!r1 true to its rule1 c\ld n la/ f9e1 & s ?is ev5+ x is ra9+ aga94 #i #bd?4--,no ra9 all day6 ,c x be true8 ,george w5t 9 ! morn+ to he> ,mr4 ,b9ney1 & ,a4 & ,i to ,dr4 ,hamilton's1 :o prea*$ a v good s]mon on a favorite text ( m9e1 ,i besee* ,!e %[ me ,?y glory4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,dr4 ,patton1 ( ,new ,york1 induc$ u to g ) himself & wife to a meet+ at a !atre ?ree miles (f4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,graham prea*$4 ,x 0 an int]e/+1 b t\*+ & sadd5+ sight to look ^u ! congregation2 to wond] :y !y came1 & :e!r !y w\ld come aga91 & :e!r "u ^? /olid & h>d5$ faces !re yet lay humanity4 ,_m came ) babies 9 _! arms1 :o made !mselves v mu* at home2 "s 7 9 dirty week-day clo!s2 "s 9 rags & "s 9 jags4 ,com+ home we pass$ ! spot :]e ,john ,rog]s 0 burn$1 & t :]e 9 "t ( ! plague dead bodies 7 ?r[n 9 frightful heaps into "o grave4 #be?4--,we took tea at ,dr4 ,hamilton's1 :]e we _h a v pleasant ev5+1 meet+ ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,adams1 z well z all ,dr4 ,h4's session4 ,dr4 ,h4 /rikes "o mo/ agreeably1 & seems z g5ial & z full ( life z a boy4 #bf?4--,visit$ ,w9dsor ,ca/le ) ,dr4 ,adams & 8 p>ty1 t5 ( u 9 all4 ,we drove aft]w>d to see ! c\ntry *ur*-y>d1 :]e ,grey wrote 8 elegy & :]e he n[ lies buri$4 ,?is 0 a mo/ *>m+ little trip & we all enjoy$ x exce$+ly4 ,! "y folks ga!r$ leaves & fl[]s = _! books4 #bi?4--,la/ ev5+ we _h a nice "t & a cup ( tea ) ! ,adamses4 ,to-day--ano!r na/y day--!y lun*$ ) u1 :i* broke up its gloom & we w5t ) !m to see ,sloan's museum1 a mo/ int]e/+ collection4 ,we all enjoy$ its novelty z well z its beauty4 ,%e also records ! pleasure ) :i* %e visit$ ! ,national ,gall]y1 ,madame ,tussaud's ,collection1 ! ,briti% ,museum1 ,ri*mond1 ! ,kew ,g>d5s1 & ,bunhill ,fields ,bury+-,gr\nd1 &1 9 p>ticul>1 ! grave ( ,mr4 ,john ,bunyan4 ,n long be=e leav+ ,london %e att5d$ a ,sunday ev5+ s]vice = ! p 9 ,we/m9/] ,abbey1 :i* int]e/$ h] deeply4 ,x sugge/$--or r 0 ! orig9al (--! sc5e 9 ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told3 ,:5 we fir/ got into t gr& place1 ,i 0 sc>$1 & ?\ght !y w\ld drive u poor folks out4 ,b :5 ,i look$ r\nd1 mo/ ev]ybody 0 poor too4 ,at la/ ,i saw "s ( !m get d[n on _! knees1 & "s %ut _! eyes1 & "s took (f _! hats & held !m ov] _! faces4 ,fa!r c\ldn't1 because he _h me 9 8 arms2 & s ,i took x (f1 & held x = him4 ,:at's x =8 says ,i4 ,hu%1 says fa!r1 ! p>son's pray+4 ,:5 ,i %[$ ,,x to ,god1 ! room seem$ full ( ,him4 ,b t's a small room4 ,! *ur* is a million & a billion times z big1 isn't x1 ma'am8 ,b :5 ! m9i/] pray$1 t big *ur* seem$ j z full z x c\ld hold4 ,!n1 all ( a sudd51 !y bur/ out a-s++4 ,fa!r %[$ me ! c>d ) l>ge lett]s on x1 & says he1 ,s+1 ,lizzie1 ,s+6 ,& s ,i did4 ,x 0 ! fir/ "t 9 my life4 ,! hymn said1 ,jesus1 lov] ( my s\l1 ,let me to ,?y bosom fly1 & ,i :isp]$ to fa!r1 ,is ,jesus ,god8 ,yes1 yes1 said he1 ,s+1 ,lizzie1 s+6 ,aft] ! pray+ & ! s++1 came ! prea*+1 ,i he>d e ^w4 ,x 0 a beautiful /ory4 ,x told h[ sorry ,jesus 0 = u :5 we did wrong1 bad ?+s1 & h[ glad ,he 0 :5 we 7 good & happy4 ,x said we mu/ tell ,him all our tr\bles & all our joys1 & feel sure t ,he knew j h[ to pity u1 because ,he _h be5 a poor man ?ree & ?irty ye>s1 on purpose to see h[ x seem$4 ,! mo/ /irr+ sight by f> :i* %e witness$ :ile 9 ,london1 0 a review ( #bj1jjj volunte]s by ! ,que5 9 ,hyde ,p>k1 on ! #bc;d ( ,june4 ,%e wait$ = x sev]al h\rs1 /&+ mu* ( ! "t ^u a camp-/ool4 ,z h] ,maje/y appe>$1 accompani$ by ,pr9ce ,alb]t1 ! curiosity ( ! imm5se cr[d rose to su* a pit* t e conceivable me?od 0 resort$ to1 to cat* a glimpse ( ! field4 ,m5 climb$ on ea* o!r's %\ld]s1 gave 'fabul\s prices' = *airs1 boxes1 & baskets1 rais$ _! wives & swee!>ts high 9 ! air1 & s by degrees our view 0 q ob/ruct$4 #aj ,! sc5e did n1 p]haps1 9 numb]s or 9 ! brilliant array ( fa%ion1 rank1 & beauty surpass1 nor 9 milit>y pomp & circum/ance did x equal1 a gr& review %e _h witness$ n long be=e 9 ! ,*amp de ,m>s2 b 9 o!r respects x 0 f> m impressive4 ,among ! volunte]s 7 ?\s&s ( "y m5 9 ^: ve9s ran ! be/ & mo/ preci\s blood 9 ,engl&4 ,& !n to an ,am]ican wife & "m1 ,que5 ,victoria 0 a million times m int]e/+ ?an ,l\is ,napoleon4 ,%e /ood !n1 z happily %e /ill /&s1 at ! head ( ! ,*ri/ian womanhood ( ! _w2 & t 9 virtue n solely ( h] exalt$ position & influ5ce1 b ( h] r>e p]sonal & dome/ic virtues z well4 ,%e 0 !n also at ! v height ( h] felicity4 ,h[ little %e or any "o else 9 t ?rong+ multitude dream$1 t be=e ! close ( ! com+ ye> ! =m ( ! noble ,pr9ce1 :o rode by h] side we>+ an aspect ( su* manly beauty & cont5t1 & :o 0 s wor?y to be h] husb&1 w\ld lie m\ld]+ 9 ! grave6 #aa ,ab\t ! middle ( ,july ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss ) h] husb& & *ildr5 left ,london = ,v5tnor on ! ,isle ( ,wight1 :]e1 9 spite ( cold & ra9y wea!r1 %e pass$ two happy mon?s4 ,) ! exception ( ,*ateau d',oex1 no place 9 ,europe _h prov$ to h] su* a hav5 ( re/4 ,miss ,scott1 ! ho/ess1 0 k9dness itself4 ,! ,isle ( ,wight 9 summ] is a little p>adise2 & 9 ! vic9ity ( ,v5tnor are "s ( its lovelie/ sc5es4 ,h] enjoym5t 0 enhanc$ by ! society ( ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,jacob ,abbott1 :o 7 !n soj\rn+ !re4 ,an excursion tak5 ) ,mr4 ,abbott 0 d\bly attractive2 =1 z might be inf]r$ f 8 books1 he 0 "o ( ! mo/ g5ial & in/ructive ( companions1 :e!r = "y or old4 ,a pilgrimage to ! home & grave ( ! ,dairyman's ,daught] & to ! grave ( ,little ,jane1 & a day & night at ,alum ,bay1 7 among ! pleasante/ incid5ts ( ! summ] at ,v5tnor4 ,( ! visit to ,little ,jane's grave %e gives ! foll[+ acc\nt 9 h] j\rnal3 ,aug4 #aj?4--,to-day be+ unusually f9e1 we und]took our long-talk$-( exp$ition to ,brad+4 ,on rea*+ ! *ur*y>d we ask$ a little boy :o foll[$ u 9 if he c\ld po9t out ,little ,jane's grave2 he said he c\ld & l$ u at once to ! spot4 ,h[ little %e dream$ t pilgrimages w\ld be made to h] grave6 ,our pigmy guide next conduct$ u to ! grave-/ones1 :]e h] task 0 le>n$4 ,h[ old are y1 little fell[8 ,i ask$4 ,gett+ an to five1 he repli$4 ,& does ev]ybody :o comes "h give y some?+8 ,"s don't4 ,t's v naughty ( !m1 ,i cont9u$2 aft] all y\r tr\ble !y ought to give y some?+4 ,a %rewd smile 0 8 answ]1 & ,george !n gave him "s p5nies4 ,:at d y d ) y\r p5nies8 ,i ask$4 ,i puts !m 9 my pocket4 ,& !n :at d y d8 ,i saves !m up4 ,& :at !n8 ,my "m buys %oe's :5 ,i get en\gh4 ,%e is go+ to buy me "s soon ) nails 9 !m6 ,^! are dropp+ to pieces 7no su* ?+74 ,if t is ! case1 quo? ,george1 ,i ?9k ,i mu/ give y "s m p5nies4 ,?ank y1 said ! boy4 ,d y see my sword8 ,george !n ask$ him if he w5t to *ur* & to ,sunday-s*ool4 ,oh1 yes1 & !re 0 an organ1 & !y le>n$ to s+ psalms4 ,& to love ,god8 ask$ ,george4 ,yes1 yes1 he answ]$1 b n ) mu* unction1 & s we turn$ ab\t & came home4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,v5tnor1 ,aug4 #bd1 #ahfj4 ,z ?is is to be our la/ lett] home1 x ought to be a v brilliant "o1 b ,i am sure x won't2 & :5 ,i look back ov] ! pa/ two ye>s & ?9k h[ _m /upid ones ,i h writt5 y1 ,i feel almo/ a%am$ ( myself4 ,b on ! o!r h& ,i wond] ,i h writt5 no dull] ones1 = our /ay+ s long at a "t 9 "o place has giv5 small *ance = v>iety & description4 ,x is ra9+ & bl[+ at a rate t y1 :o are roa/+ at home1 c h>dly conceive2 we agre$ ye/]day t if y 7 bl9dfold$ & sudd5ly set d[n "h & told to guess :at season ( ! ye> x 01 y w\ld judge by y\r feel+s & ! w9d ro>+ d[n ! *imney1 t x 0 ,decemb]4 ,h[ev] disagreeable ?is may be x is m invigorat+ ?an hot wea!r1 & ,george & ! *ildr5 h all improv$ v mu*4 ,george enjoys ba?+ & climb+ ! d[ns & ! *ildr5 are out ne>ly all day :5 x does n ra94 ,y may rememb] t ! twilight is late 9 ,engl&1 & ev5 ! baby is (t5 out till half-pa/ eight or n9e4444 ,i j keep my head above wat] by hav+ no c>es or fatigue at night4 ,i feel dreadfully t ,i am s helpless a creature1 b ,i believe ,god keeps me s = my mortification & improvem5t1 & t ,i ought to be will+ to lead ?is good-=-no?+ life if ,he *ooses4 ,we h _h ! pleasure ( meet+ ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,abbott "h4 ,!y h gone n[ to sp5d ! w9t] 9 ,p>is4 ,mrs4 ,a4 s5t h] love to y aga9 & aga91 & ,i 0 v glad to meet h] = y\r sake z well z h] own1 & to "k ,mr4 ,a4 bett] ?an ,i did be=e1 & x 0 v pleasant to ,george to *at ) him4 ,we walk$ toge!r to see ,%ankl9 ,*9e4 ,a4 w5t ) u1 & ,mr4 ,abbott amus$ h] s on ! way t %e came home q dissatisfi$ ) h] /upid papa & mamma4 ,we are talk+ ( little else n[ b gett+ home1 & x is a pity y c\ld n take d[n ! walls ( our hidd5 s\ls & see ! v>i\s wi%es & feel+s we h on ! subject4 ,i =got to say h[ glad we 7 t y f\nd ,george ,pr5tiss su* a nice boy4 #ab ,i always lov$ him = ,abby's sake & he c]ta9ly 0 wor?y ( ! affection %e felt = him z ! mo/ engag+ *ild ,i ev] knew2 he is a ?or\gh ,pr5tiss /ill1 x seems4 ,:at is he go+ to be8 ,y mu/ feel que] to h a boy 9 college2 x is l a /range dream4 ,our boys are two spunky little toads :o ne$1 or w ne$1 all our en]gies to br+ up4 ,i h q got my h& out1 ,m4 is s good--& hate to beg94 ,b good-bye1 ) love to "m1 ,mr4 ,s4 & ! *ildr54 ,! family emb>k$ at ,c[es on ! magnific5t /eam%ip ,adriatic1 ,septemb] #ac?1 &1 aft] a r\gh voyage1 rea*$ ,new ,york on ! #bd? ( ! same mon?4 ,old fri5ds await$ _! com+ & welcom$ !m home aga9 ) op5 arms4 ,x 0 a happy day = ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 & 9 ! abundance ( its joy %e =got ! anxi\s & solit>y mon?s ?r\gh :i* %e _h j be5 pass+4 ,%e came back ) f\r *ildr5 in/ead ( ?ree2 h] husb& 01 p>tially at lea/1 re/or$ to heal?2 & %e brea!d once m h] native air4 #a ,a mo/ fai?ful s]vant1 to :om ,mrs4 ,p4 0 greatly atta*$4 #b ,! ,hon4 ,b5jam9 ,f4 ,butl]1 ( ,new ,york1 0 "o ( ! mo/ honor$ memb]s ( ! ,m]c] /reet *ur*4 ,he 0 kn[n ?r\gh\t ! c\ntry z an em95t lawy] & patriotic citiz54 ,9 ! circle ( 8 fri5ds he 0 admir$ & belov$ = 8 s+ul> purity ( "*1 8 s*ol>ly ta/es1 ! k9dness ( 8 he>t1 & all ! o!r f9e qualities t g to =m ! ,*ri/ian g5tleman4 ,dur+ a portion ( ,presid5t ,jackson's adm9i/ration ,mr4 ,butl] 0 ,attorney-,g5]al ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,he di$ 9 ! sixty-?ird ye> ( 8 age4 #c ,ref]r+ to ! dea? ( ,dr4 ,/e>ns' "m1 ,mrs4 ,abigail ,/e>ns1 ( ,b$=d1 ,mass4 #d ,mrs4 ,wa9wright & h] husb&1 ! late ,eli ,wa9wright1 7 memb]s ( ! old ,m]c] /reet ,presbyt]ian *ur*1 & bo? ( !m unwe>i$ 9 _! k9dness to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & h] husb&4 #e ,f> along1 ,f peak to peak1 ! rattl+ crags among1 ,leaps ! live ?und]6 ,n f "o lone cl\d1 ,b e m\nta9 n[ ha? f\nd a tongue1 ,& ,jura answ]s1 ?r\gh h] mi/y %r\d1 ,back to ! joy\s ,alps1 :i* call to h] al\d6 #f ,n[ ,bi%op ( ! ,p4 ,e4 ,*ur* ( ,c5tral ,new ,york4 #g ,*ri/ian ,believ+ & ,liv+4 #h ,! ,rev4 ,george ,b4 ,little 0 born 9 ,ca/9e1 ,ma9e1 ,decemb] #ba1 #ahba4 ,he 0 graduat$ at ,b[do9 ,college 9 #ahdc4 ,hav+ /udi$ !ology at ,&ov]1 he 0 orda9$ 9 #ahdi pa/or ( ! ,fir/ ,congregational *ur* 9 ,bangor1 ,me4 ,9 #ahej he m>ri$ ,s>ah ,edw>ds1 daught] ( t admirable & :ole-s\l$ s]vant ( ,*ri/1 ! ,rev4 ,elias ,cornelius1 ,d4,d4 ,9 ,novemb]1 #aheg1 ,mr4 ,little 0 in/all$ z pa/or ( ! ,congregational *ur* 9 ,we/ ,newton1 ,mass4 ,e>ly 9 ,m>*1 #ahfj1 he w5t abroad = 8 heal?1 b return$ home aga9 9 ,may1 & di$ among 8 own p1 ,july #bj1 #ahfj4 ,! la/ words he litt]$ 71 ,i %all soon be ) ,*ri/4 ,mr4 ,little 0 a man ( sup]ior gifts1 full ( s*ol>ly en?usiasm1 & devot$ to 8 ,ma/]'s "w4 #i ,miss ,bird is kn[n to ! _w by h] rem>kable books ( travel 9 ,japan & else:]e4 #aj ,an acc\nt ( ! ,volunte] ,review 9 ,hyde ,p>k is giv5 9 ,sir ,!odore ,m>t9's admirable ,life ( ! ,pr9ce ,consort1 ,vol4 ,v41 pp4 #aje-f1 ,am4 ,ed4 ,! ,pr9ce himself1 9 respond+ to a toa/ ! same ev5+1 speaks ( x z a sc5e :i* w nev] fade f ! memory ( ^? :o _h ! good =tune to be pres5t4 #aa ,x is h>dly possible to allude to ! great affliction ( ?is illu/ri\s lady )\t ?9k+ also ( ! p]si/5t acts ( womanly sympa?y by :i*1 dur+ ! angui% & susp5se ( ! pa/ two mon?s1 %e has tri$ to m9i/] com=t to ! /rick5 wife ( our suff]+ & n[ sa9t$ ,presid5t4 ,c]ta9ly1 ! :ole case is unique 9 ! hi/ory ( ! _w4 ,by ?is mo/ t5d] & ,*ri/-l sympa?y1 %e has ende>$ h]self 9 a wond]ful mann] to ! he>t ( ! ,am]ican p4 ,god bless ,que5 ,victoria6 !y say ) "o voice4--,new ,york1 ,septemb] #bd1 #ahha4 #ab ,! elde/ son ( h] bro!r-9-law1 ,mr4 ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 a y\? ( r>e promise1 & :o _h especially ende>$ himself to 8 ,aunt ,abby4 ,he di$ ( fev] at ,tallahoma1 ,t5nessee1 dur+ ! w>4 ,,*apt] ,,vii ,,! ,,/ruggle ,,) ,,ill-,,heal?4 #ahfa-ahfe4 ,i4 ,at ,home aga9 9 ,new ,york4 ,! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,increas+ ,ill-heal?4 ,! ,summ] ( #ahfa4 ,dea? ( ,l\isa ,payson ,hopk9s4 ,extracts f h] ,j\rnal4 ,summ] ( #ahfb4 ,lett]s4 ,despond5cy4 ,we come n[ to a new phase ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' exp]i5ce z a pa/or's wife4 ,be=e h] husb& resign$ 8 ,new ,york *>ge1 dur+ ! w9t] ( #aheg-h1 ! "q ( hold+ a s]vice 9 ! upp] "p ( ! city1 ) ! view to ano!r congregation1 0 e>ne/ly discuss$ 9 ! session & among ! lead+ memb]s ( ! *ur*1 b no?+ !n came ( x4 ,soon aft] 8 return f ,europe1 h[ev]1 ! project 0 reviv$1 & result$ at l5g? 9 ! =mation ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ! great civil w>1 :i* 0 !n rag+1 ! und]tak+ enc\nt]$ difficulties s =midable1 t no?+ b extraord9>y zeal1 lib]ality1 & wise c\nsel on ! "p ( 8 fri5ds & ! fri5ds ( ! movem5t c\ld ov]come !m4 ,= two or ?ree ye>s ! new congregation held s]vice 9 :at 0 !n call$ ,dodwor?'s ,/udio ,build+ at ! corn] ( ,fif? av5ue & ,tw5ty-six? /reet1 b 9 #ahfd x ent]$ ! *apel on ,?irty-fif? /reet1 & 9 #ahfe occupi$ ! /ately edifice on ,p>k av5ue4 ,9 ! manifold labors1 trials1 & disc\ragem5ts connect$ ) ?is "w1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss %>$ ) h] husb&2 &1 :5 f9ally cr[n$ ) ! happie/ success1 x ow$ p]haps z mu* to h] z to him4 ,?is brief /atem5t seems ne$ful 9 ord] to def9e & r5d] cle> h] position1 z a pa/or's wife1 dur+ ! next twelve ye>s4 ,aft] sp5d+ "s weeks 9 ,new>k & ,portl&1 %e f\nd h]self once m 9 ,new ,york 9 a home ( h] own & surr\nd$ by fri5ds1 bo? old & new4 ,! records ( ! foll[+ f\r or five ye>s are some:at meagre & furni% few incid5ts ( special significance4 ,! w>1 ) its t]rible excitem5t & anxieties1 absorb$ all m9ds & left little sp>e "t = ?\ght or feel+ ab\t any?+ else4 ,dome/ic & p]sonal int]e/s 7 entirely ov]%ad[$ by ! "o supreme int]e/ ( ! h\r--t ( ! imp]il$ ,national life4 ,x 0 = ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss a p]iod also ( almo/ cont9u\s ill-heal?4 ,! sleeplessness f :i* %e _h already suff]$ s mu* assum$ m & m a *ronic "*1 &1 aggravat$ by o!r ailm5ts & by ! frequ5t illness ( h] y\ng] *ildr51 s und]m9$ h] /r5g?1 t life became at times a heavy burd54 ,%e felt (t5 t h] days ( usefulness 7 pa/4 ,b ! ,ma/] _h yet a great "w = h] to d1 &-- ,9 ways v>i\s1 ,or1 might ,i say1 contr>i\s-- ,he 0 tra9+ h] = x dur+ ^! ye>s ( bodily infirmity & suff]+4 ,! summ] ( #ahfa 0 pass$ at ,newport4 ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 dat$ ,july #bh?1 %e writes3 ,we f9d ! ,cliff ,h\se delightful1 )9 a few m9utes' walk ( ! sea1 :i* we h 9 full view f "o ( our w9d[s4 ,& we h no lack ( society1 = ! ,bancr(ts1 ,miss ,asp9wall & h] si/]1 z well z ! ,sk9n]s1 are v fri5dly4 ,b ,i am s c>eworn & out ( sorts1 t ?is beautiful ocean gives me little com=t4 ,i seem to be all ! "t tot+ "o *ild or ano!r ab\t1 or giv+ somebody p>egoric or rhub>b1 or putt+ somebody to sleep1 or scold+ somebody = wak+ up papa1 :o is mis]able1 & 8 oration unt\*$4 ,!re1 don't m9d me2 x's at ! end ( a *ur*less ,sunday1 & ,i d>e say ,i am only peevis'1 z ! little boy said4 ,b 9 a few weeks ! *ildr5 7 well aga9 & h] own heal? s mu* improv$1 t %e 0 able to indulge 9 surf-ba?+1 :i* %e enjoy$ trem5d\sly1 & e>ly 9 ! fall ! :ole family return$ to t[n greatly refre%$ by ! summ]'s re/4 ,on ! #bd? ( ,janu>y1 #ahfb1 h] si/]1 ,mrs4 ,hopk9s1 di$4 ,?is ev5t t\*$ h] deeply4 ,%e hurri$ (f to ,william/[n1 :5ce %e wrote to h] husb&1 :o 0 unable to accompany h]3 ,if y _h kn[n t ,i %\ld n get "h till half-pa/ n9e la/ night1 & t 9 an op5 sleigh f ,nor? ,adams1 y w\ld n h let me come4 ,b s f> ,i am none ! worse = x2 &1 :5 ,i came 9 & f\nd ! ,pr(essor & ,t4 & ,eddy sitt+ "h all alone & s =lorn 9 _! unaccu/om$ leisure1 ,i c\ld n be ?ankful en\gh t a k9d ,provid5ce _h all[$ me to come4 ,x is a v great gratification to !m all1 especially to ! ,pr(essor1 & ev5 m s ?an ,i _h anticipat$4 ,9 view ( ! dang] ( be+ block$ up by ano!r sn[-/orm1 ,i %all probably ?9k x be/ to return by ano!r r\te1 :i* !y all say is ! be/4 ,i hope y & my preci\s *ildr5 keep well4 ,no picture ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' life w\ld be complete1 9 :i* h] si/]'s influ5ce 0 n di/9ctly visible4 ,to ?is influ5ce %e ow$ ! be/ "p ( h] e>li] intellectual tra9+2 & x did mu* to m\ld h] :ole "*4 ,mrs4 ,hopk9s 0 "o ( ! mo/ le>n$1 z well z mo/ gift$1 wom5 ( h] day2 & _h n ill-heal? e>ly disabl$ h] = lit]>y labors1 %e might1 p]haps1 h won = h]self an endur+ "n 9 ! lit]ature ( ! c\ntry4 ,!re 7 /rik+ po9ts ( resemblance betwe5 h] & ,s>a ,col]idge2 ! same e>ly intellectual bloom2 ! same r>e union ( fem99e delicacy & s5sibility ) mascul9e /r5g? & bread? ( und]/&+2 ! same ta/e = ! beautiful 9 poetry1 9 art1 & 9 nature1 jo9$ to simil> fondness = metaphysical /udies2 ! same delight 9 books ( devotion & 9 books ( !ology2 & ! same v>i$ erudition4 ,only "o ( !m seems to h be5 an accompli%$ ,hebrai/1 b bo? 7 good ,lat9 & ,greek s*ol>s2 & bo? 7 famili> ) ,italian1 ,spani%1 ,fr5*1 & ,g]man4 ,ev5 9 ,s>a ,col]idge's admiration & rev]5ce = h] fa!r1 ,mrs4 ,hopk9s 0 9 full sympa?y ) h]4 ,%e lack$1 inde$1 t poetic fancy :i* belong$ to ! au?or ( ,phantasmion2 nor did %e possess h] m5tal self-poise & firmness ( w2 b 9 o!r respects1 ev5 9 physical organization & c]ta9 features ( c\nt5ance1 !y 7 s+ul>ly alike4 ,& !y bo? di$ 9 ! fiftie? ye> ( _! age4 ,l\isa ,payson 0 born at ,portl&1 ,febru>y #bd1 #ahab4 ,ev5 z a *ild %e 0 ! object ( t5d] int]e/ to h] fa!r on acc\nt ( h] rem>kable intellectual promise4 ,he took ! utmo/ pa9s to aid & enc\rage h] 9 le>n+ to /udy & to ?9k4 ,! impression he made ^u h] may be se5 9 ! popul> little volume entitl$ ,! ,pa/or's ,daught]1 :i* consi/s l>gely ( conv]sations ) him1 writt5 out f memory aft] 8 dea?4 ,%e 0 !n 9 h] sixte5? ye>4 ,! records ( ! next eight ye>s1 :i* 7 mo/ly sp5t 9 tea*+1 are v meagre2 b a sort ( lit]>y j\rnal1 kept by h] betwe5 #ahce & #ahdj1 %[s some?+ ( h] m5tal quality & "*1 z also ( h] c\rse ( read+4 ,%e 0 tw5ty-?ree ye>s old :5 ! j\rnal op5s4 ,"h are a few extracts f x3 ,,bo/on1 ,nov4 #ah1 #ahce4 ,la/ ev5+ ,i pass$ 9 company ) ,mr4 ,dana4 #a ,i conv]s$ ) him only = a few mom5ts ab\t ,mr4 ,alcott's s*ool1 & _h n "t to ask "o ( ! t5 ?\s& que/ions ,i wi%$ to ask4 ,i h be5 try+ to analyse ! feel+ ,i h = m5 ( g5ius1 ,col]idge1 ,wordswor? & ,dana1 = example4 ,i c und]/& :y ,i feel = !m unb\nd$ admiration1 rev]5ce & affection1 b ,i h>dly "k :y !re %\ld be s mu* excitem5t--pa9ful excitem5t--m+l$ ) ^! emotions4 ,next to possess+ g5ius myself w\ld be ! pleasure ( liv+ ) "o :o possess$ x4 ,nov4 #ai?4--,i h read to-day "o canto ( ,dante's ,inf]no & eight or t5 pages ( ,cic]o de ,amicitia4 ,9 ?is1 z well z 9 de ,s5ectute :i* ,i h j f9i%$1 ,i am mu* int]e/$4 ,i confess ,i am n a little surpris$ to f9d h[ l>gely ! mod]ns are indebt$ to ! anci5ts2 h[ _m wise obs]vations on life1 & dea?1 ! s\l1 "t1 et]nity1 etc1 h be5 repeat$ by ! sages ( e g5]ation s9ce ! days ( ,cic]o4 ,jan4 #ad?1 #ahcf4--;,i sp5t la/ ev5+ ) ,mr4 ,dana1 & ! conv]sation 01 ( c\rse1 ( great int]e/4 ,we talk$ ( "s ( ! lead+ ,reviews ( ! day1 & !n ( ! "* ( our lit]ature z connect$ ) our political in/itutions4 ,?is l$ to a long discussion ( ! latt] subject1 b z ! same views are express$ 9 ,mr4 ,d4's article on ,law1 ,i %all pass x ov]4 #b ,i diff]$ f him 9 reg>d to ! ,fr5* com$ies1 especially ^? ( ,moli]e2 h[ev]1 he all[$ t !y conta9 g5u9e humor1 b !y are conf9$ to ! exhibition ( "o ridicul\s po9t 9 ! "*1 in/ead ( giv+ u ! :ole man z ,%akespe>e does4 ,sept1 #bb;d4--,?is morn+ ,i h _h "o ( ! p]iods ( insight1 :5 ! highe/ spiritual tru?s p]ta9+ to ! div9e & human natures1 become _! own light & evid5ce1 z well z ! evid5ce ( o!r tru?s4 ,no speculations1 no ridicule c %ake my fai? 9 t :i* ,i ?us see & feel4 ,i 0 p>ticul>ly int]e/$ 9 ?9k+ ( ! reg5]ation ( ! _s & ! "p :i* ,fai?1 ,hope1 & ,love1 h 9 effect+ x4 ,sab4 #bc;d4--,x seems to me t ?is tru? alone1 !re is a ,god1 is suffici5t1 rightly believ$1 to make e human be+ absolutely & p]fectly happy4 ,jan4 #ad?1 #ahci4--,w$nesday ev5+ att5d$ ,mr4 ,em]son's lecture on ,g5ius1 ( :i* ,i %all attempt to say no?+ except t x 0 mo/ delightful4 ,?ursday morn+ ,mr4 ,em]son #c call$ to see me & gave me a ticket = 8 c\rse4 ,aft]w>ds ,mr4 ,dana call$4 ,x seems to me t ,i h liv$ backw>ds2 9 o!r words1 ! faculties ( my m9d :i* 7 e>lie/ develop$1 7 ^? :i* 9 o!r m9ds come la/--reflection & solidity ( judgm5t2 :ile fancy & imag9ation1 9 s f> z ,i h any at all1 h foll[$4 ,sat4 ,jan4 #bf?4--,my occupations 9 ! way ( books at pres5t1 consi/ 9 read+ ,antigone1 ,guizot's ,hi/ory1 ,lockh>t's ,scott1 & sundries4 ,i am also translat+ l>ge extracts f ,claudius1 ) a view to writ+ an article ab\t him1 if ! fates %all s w x4 #d ,?urs4 ,jan4 #a/4--,mr4 ,em]son's lecture la/ night 0 on ,com$y4 ,he pr(ess$ to ent] on ! subject ) reluctance1 z consci\s ( a defici5cy 9 ! organ ( ! ludicr\s--a pr(ession1 h[ev]1 t 0 n sub/antiat$ v well by ! lecture itself1 :i* convuls$ ! audi5ce ) laught]4 ,he spoke 9 ! comm5cem5t ( ! sil5t hi/ory writt5 9 ! faces ( an assembly1 mak+ !m z int]e/+ to a spectator z if _! lives 7 writt5 9 _! features4 #be?4--,i began ye/]day ,s*lei]ma*]'s ,*ri/li*e ,glaube--a pr(\nd1 le>n$1 & difficult "w1 ,i am told--,j\ffroy's ,philosophical ,writ+s1 ,l&or's ,p]icles & ,aspasia1 & ,! ,gurney ,pap]s4 ,consid]+ t ,i 0 already 9 ! mid/ ( sev]al books1 ?is is r too mu*1 b ,i c\ld n help x2 ! books 7 l5t me & mu/ be read & return$ spe$ily4 ,i h be5 all ! morn+ employ$ 9 writ+ an ab/ract ( ! ,report ( ! ,prison ,discipl9e ,society1 & am we>i$ & /upefi$4 ,jan4 #g?1 #ahdj4--,w5t to ,mr4 ,ripley's :]e ,i met ,dr4 ,*ann+1 & li/5$ to a discussion ( ,sp9oza's religi\s op9ions4 ,?is aft]noon ,mr4 ,d4 came aga92 talk$ ab\t ! ,tr9ity & o!r !ological po9ts4 ,?is ev5+1 he>d ,pr(4 ,silliman4 ,i h ne>ly f9i%$ ,fi*te1 & l him on ! :ole exce$+ly1 ?\gh ,i ?9k he errs 9 plac+ ! roots ( ! speculative 9 ! practical reason4 ,x seems to me t nei!r gr[s out ( ! o!r1 b t !y are co9cid5t sph]es4 ,/ill1 !re is a tru?1 a great tru?1 9 :at he says4 ,x is true t action is (t5 ! mo/ effectual rem$y aga9/ speculative d\bts & p]plexities4 ,:5 y are 9 ! d>k ab\t ?is or t po9t1 ask :at comm& does consci5ce impose ^u me at ?is mom5t--obey x & y w f9d light4 ,^! extracts w suffice to %[ ! quality & ext5t ( h] read+4 ,:at sort ( fruit h] read+ & /udy bore may be se5 by h] articles on ,claudius & ,goe!1 9 ! ,new ,york ,review4 ,no abl] discussion ( ! g5ius & writ+s ( ,goe! _h at t "t appe>$ 9 ?is c\ntry2 :ile ! article on ,claudius 0 probably ! fir/ to make him kn[n to ,am]ican read]s4 ,dur+ _m ( ! lat] ye>s ( h] life ,mrs4 ,hopk9s 0 a m>tyr to ill-heal?4 ,! /ory ( h] suff]+s1 bo? physical & m5tal1 z artlessly told 9 little di>ies :i* %e kept1 is wondr\s pitiful2 no p5 ( fiction c\ld equal its simple pa?os4 ,aga9 & aga91 z %e h]self knew1 %e 0 on ! v v]ge ( insanity2 no?+1 probably1 sav+ h] f x b ! devotion ( h] husb&1 :o ) untir+ pati5ce & a "m's t5d]ness m9i/]$1 9 season & out ( season1 to h] relief4 ,(t5 w\ld he /eal home f 8 belov$ ,obs]vatory1 :]e he _h be5 tea*+ 8 /ud5ts h[ to wat* ! />s1 & pass a sleepless night at h] b$side1 read+ to h] & by all sorts ( g5tle appliances try+ to soo! h] irritat$ n]ves4 ,& ?is devotion ran on1 )\t v>iabl5ess or %ad[ ( turn+1 ye> aft] ye>1 giv+ itself no re/ until h] eyes 7 clos$ 9 dea?4 #e ,let u n[ resume our n>rative4 ,a portion ( ! summ] ( #ahfb 0 pass$ by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss at ,newport4 ,h] season ( re/ 0 aga9 invad$ by sev]e illness among h] *ildr54 ,"u date ( ,augu/ #c;d1 %e writes to ,mrs4 ,smi?3 ,i c see t our l&lady1 :o has good s5se & exp]i5ce1 ?9ks ,g4 w n get well4 ,sometimes1 9 awful mom5ts1 ,i ?9k s too2 b !n ,i *e] up & get q elat$4 ,la/ night z ,i lay awake1 too we>y to sleep1 ,i he>d a h>%1 rasp+ s\nd l a l>ge saw4 ,i ?\ght "s animal unkn[n to me mu/ be mak+ x1 x 0 s regul> & frequ5t4 ,b aft] a "t ,i f\nd x 0 a dy+ "y soldi] :o lives f>!r f ?is h\se ?an ,miss ,h4 does f our h\se 9 ,new ,york4 ,8 fe>ful c\gh6 ,oh1 ?is w>6 ?is w>6 ,i nev] hat$ & revolt$ aga9/ x z ,i did !n4 ,i _h he>d "s "o say su* a "y man lay dy+ ( consumption 9 ?is /reet1 b till !n 0 too absorb$ ) my own incessant c>es to he> ! c\gh1 z ! re/ _h done4 ,i nev] realis$ h[ ,i felt ab\t our c\ntry till ,i f\nd ! t]ror ( los+1 a l9k out ( t little gold5 *a9 t encircles my sweete/ joys1 0 a k9dr$ suff]+4 ,h ! times ev] look$ s black z !y d n[8 ,we seem to be drift+ r\nd )\t *>t or pilot4 ,two weeks lat]1 ,augu/ #ag?1 %e writes to h] c\s91 ,miss ,%ipman3 ,g4 is really up & ab\t1 look+ ?9 & :ite1 & feel+ hungry & weak2 b little ,h4 has be5 sick ) ! same disease ^! t5 days pa/4 ,i got y\r lett] & ! little cat1 = :i* ,g4 & ,i ?ank y v mu*4 ,i %\ld ?9k x w\ld ab\t kill y to cook all day ev5 = our soldi]s1 b on ! :ole c n blame any "o :o wants to get kill$ 9 _! s]vice4 ,i am impress$ m & m ) _! claims ^u u1 :o confront e dang] & und]go e suff]+1 :ile we sit at home at our ease4 ,h[ev]1 ! ease ,i h enjoy$ dur+ ! la/ five weeks has n be5 ( a v luxuri\s k9d1 & ,i h felt almo/ disc\rag$1 z day aft] day ( conf9em5t & night aft] night ( sleeplessness has pull$ d[n my /r5g?4 ,b1 :at am ,i do+8 ,compla9+1 in/ead ( rejoic+ t ,i am n left un*a/is$4 ,aft] a c>eworn summ] at ,newport1 %e w5t ) ! *ildr5 to ,william/[n1 :]e a mon? 0 pass$ ) h] bro!r-9-law1 ,pr(essor ,hopk9s4 ,! foll[+ lett]s relate to ?is visit3 ,to h] ,husb&1 ,william/[n1 ,sept4 #ai1 #ahfb4 ,i am glad to f9d t y place reliance on ! reports ( our late victory1 = ,i h be5 9 great susp5se1 see+ only ,! ,_w1 :i* 0 ?r[+ up its hat & decl>+ ! w> virtually end$4 ,i h no fai? 9 su* premature ass]tions1 ( :i* we h _h s _m1 b 0 mo/ anxi\s to "k y\r op9ion4 ,d n fail to keep me in=m$ ( :at is go+ on4 ,! *ildr5 are all out ( doors & enjoy+ !mselves4 ,! ,pr(essor has gone on horseback to see ab\t 8 buck:eat4 ,he took me up !re ye/]day aft]noon1 & ,i crawl$ ?r\gh =ty f5ces 7m or less7 & got a va/ am\nt ( ex]cise1 :i* did n result 9 any bett] sleep1 h[ev]1 ?an no ex]cise does4 ,c>o4 ,h4 read me ye/]day a mo/ int]e/+ lett] f h] bro!r ,h5ry1 describ+ ! sc5e at ,bull ,run :5 he w5t !re five days aft] ! battle4 ,x is v pa9ful to f9d su* mismanagem5t z he deplores4 ,he gave a mo/ t\*+ acc\nt ( a "y fell[ :o lay mortally w\nd$1 :]e he _h la9 unc>$-= ) 8 companions ! five days1 & :om !y 7 oblig$ to decl9e remov+1 z !y _h only room = a portion ( ! hopeful cases4 ,aft] besee*+ ,mr4 ,h4 to see t he 0 remov$1 & entreat+ to "k :5 & h[ he 0 ev] to get home if !y left him1 he 0 told t x 0 n possible to make room = him 9 ?is tra9 ( ambulances4 ,z ,mr4 ,h4 tore himself away1 he he>d him say1 ,"h1 ,"l1 ,i give myself away2 ',tis all t ,i c d4 ,! torture ( ! w\nd$ m5 9 ! ambulances 0 s frightful1 t ,mr4 ,h4 gave ea* ( !m morph9e en\gh to kill ?ree well m54 ,!y cri$ = x l dogs & lick$ my h&s le/ !y %\ld lose a drop1 he adds4 ,z a contra/ to ?is lett]1 "s ( ! new recruits came into ! ,pr(essor's gr\nds ye/]day to get b\quets1 & ?\ght if _! folks _h a y>d s gayly deck$ ) fl[]s !y w\ld feel set up4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,william/[n1 ,sept4 #be1 #ahfb4 ,i h be5 feel+ languid1 or lazy1 ev] s9ce ,i came "h1 & = a few days pa/ h be5 mis]able2 b ,i am bett] to-day4 ,?is place is p]fectly lovely & gr[s ^u me e day4 ,b ! ,pr(essor is entirely absorb$ 9 8 loss4 ,he does n "k x1 or else ?9ks he does n %[ x1 = he makes no compla9t1 b x is 9 e tone & ^w & look4 ,x is pla9 t ,l\isa's ill-heal?1 :i* might h wean$ a selfi% man f h]1 only ende>$ h] to him2 %e 0 s entirely 8 object day & night1 t he misses h] & ! c>e ( h]1 z a "m does h] sick *ild4 ,if we ride out he says1 ,"h ,i (t5 came ) h]2 if a bird s+s1 ,t is a note %e us$ to love2 if we see a fl[]1 ,t is "o ( ! fl[]s %e lov$4 ,he has an a/oni%+ am\nt ( j\rnal manuscripts1 & ,i ?9k may 9 "t prep>e some?+ f !m4444 ,isn't x frightful h[ cotton goods h run up6 ,i gave tw5ty c5ts = a y>d ( silicia 7is t ! way to spell x87 & suppose ev]y?+ else has ru%$ up too4 ,i hope y are prep>$ to tell me exactly :at to buy & in/ruct me 9 ! way ,i %\ld g4 ,to h] ,husb&1 ,william/[n1 ,sept4 #bf4 ,i sp5t ye/]day =5oon look+ ov] ,l\isa's pap]s & f\nd an enorm\s mass ( manuscript2 j\rnals1 extract books1 translations1 & "w en\gh plann$ & begun = _m lifetimes4 ,x 0 v depress+4 ,"o's only refuge is fai? 9 ,god1 & 9 ! c]ta9ty t h] l+]+ illness 0 m acceptable to ,him ?an ye>s ( active usefulness1 & su* extraord9>y usefulness ev5 z %e 0 s fitt$ =4 ,i read ov] "s ( my own lett]s writt5 _m1 _m ye>s ago2 & ! s5se ?is gave me ( lo/ y\? & vivacity & en]gy1 01 = a "t1 mo/ pa9ful4444 ,i h felt = a long :ile greatly disc\rag$ & depress$1 yes1 we>y ( my life1 because x seems to me t brok5 d[n & worn out z ,i am1 & full ( faults "u :i* ,i groan1 be+ burd5$1 ,i c\ld n make y happy4 ,b y\r la/ lett] com=t$ me a good deal4 ,i see little = u to d b :at y sugge/3 to *e] ea* o!r up & we> out r ?an ru/ out4 ,x is m & m cle> to me1 t pati5ce is our *ief duty on e>?1 & t we c n re/ "h4 ,i am anxi\s to "k :at y ?9k ( ! ,presid5t's ,proclamation4 #f ,! ,pr(essor likes x4 ,he seems able to ?9k ( little b 8 loss4 ,ev5 :5 speak+ 9 ! mo/ *e]ful way1 te>s fill 8 eyes1 & ! o!r day putt+ a lett] into my h&s to read1 he _h to run out ( ! room4 ,! lett] /at$ t fifty "y p]sons ow$ _! conv]sion to ,l\isa's books2 x 0 writt5 "s ye>s ago4 ,8 "m sp5t ,saturday "h4 ,%e is v bright & *e]ful & full ( sly humor2 he did ev]y?+ to amuse h] & %e enjoy$ h] visit amaz+ly4 ,i long to see y4 ,lett]s are m & m unsatisfactory1 delusive ?+s4 ,m4 is go+ to h a p>ty ?is aft]noon1 & is go+ to "o ?is =5oon4 ,! o!rs are bright & busy z bees4 ,good-bye4 ,a t+e ( sadness is p]ceptible 9 mo/ ( h] lett]s dur+ ?is ye>4 ,h] si/]'s dea?1 ! fe>ful /ate ( ! c\ntry1 protract$ sickness among h] *ildr51 & h] own frequ5t ill-turns & increas+ s5se ( feebl5ess1 all conspir$ to produce ?is effect4 ,b 9 tru? h] he>t 0 /ill z "y z ev] & a t\* ( sympa?y1 or an appeal to h] love ( nature1 in/antly made x manife/4 ,an extract f a lett] to ,miss ,anna ,w>n]1 dat$ ,new ,york1 ,decemb] #af?1 may s]ve z an in/ance3 ,i want$ to write a book :5 ! trunk came ?is aft]noon2 t is1 a book full ( ?anks & exclamation m>ks4 ,y c\ld n h b\ght ) money any?+ = my ,*ri/mas pres5t1 t c\ld give half ! pleasure4 ,i %ut myself up 9 my little room up-/airs 7,i decl>e ,i don't believe y saw t room6 did y871 & !re ,i spread out my mosses & my twigs & my cones & my leaves & admir$ !m till ,i _h to g out & walk to compose myself4 ,!n ! *ildr5 came home & !y all admir$ too1 & among u we upset my big "w-basket & my little "w-basket1 & didn't any ( u c>e4 ,my only fe> is t ) all y _h to d y did too mu* = me4 ,^? little r$ moss cups are too lovely6 & z to all ^? leaves h[ ,i %all leaf out6 ,g4 ask$ me :o s5t me all ^? beautiful ?+s4 ,miss ,w>n]1 quo? ,i abs5tly4 ,didn't ,miss ,anna s5d any ( !m8 he exclaim$4 ,s y see y twa9 d n pass z "o fle% "h4 ,i h read all ! ,books ( ,bless+ #g save ,g]trude & h] ,cat--b ?\gh ,i l !m all v mu*1 my favorite is /ill ,! ,pr9ce 9 ,disguise4 ,if y come across a little book call$ ,e>ne/1 #h publi%$ by ,r&olph1 d read x4 ,x is "o ( ! few real books & ought to d good4 ,i h outdone myself 9 picture-frames s9ce y left4 ,i got a pair ( nipp]s & "s wire1 :i* 7 ( great use 9 ! op]ation4 ,i am n[ busy on ,mr4 ,bull1 = ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' /udy4 ,to "o ( h] si/]s-9-law %e wrote1 "u ! same date3 ,i d n "k z ,i ev] 0 s disc\rag$ ab\t my heal? z ,i h be5 ?is fall4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k my con/itution is q brok5 d[n1 & t ,i nev] %all be good = any?+ aga94 ,h[ev]1 ,i d n worry "o way or ! o!r b try to be z pati5t z ,i c4 ,i h be5 a good deal bett] = "s days1 & if y c\ld see our h\se y w\ld n believe a ^w ab\t my n be+ well1 & w\ld "k my say+ s 0 all a %am4 ,to tell ! tru?1 x does look l a g>d51 & :5 ,i am sick ,i l to lie & look at :at ,i did :5 ,i wasn't2 my wrea?s1 & my crosses1 & my v9es1 & my toad/ools1 & o!r fix9s4 ,ye/]day ,i made a bonnet ( :i* ,i am ju/ly pr\d2 to-morr[ ,i expect to g into mosses & twigs1 ( :i* ,miss ,anna ,w>n] has j s5t me a lot4 ,%e & h] si/] 7 "h ab\t a =tnight4 ,!y gr[ good s fa/ t !re is no keep+ track ( !m4 ,does any body 9 ,portl& take _! pap]8 #i ,! *ildr5 are all look+ =w>d to ,*ri/mas ) great glee4 ,x is a m]cy !re are any *ildr5 to keep up "o's spirits 9 ^! times4 ,0 !re ev] any?+ s dreadful z ! way 9 :i* our army has j be5 driv5 back6 #aj ,b if we _h _h a brilliant victory p]haps ! p w\ld h clamor$ aga9/ ! emancipation project1 & any?+ is bett] ?an ! p]petuation ( slav]y4 ,our congregation is full] ?an ev]1 b !re is no *ance ( build+ ev5 a *apel4 ,%opp+ is pleasant bus9ess n[-a-days1 isn't x8 ,we %all h to /op sew+ & use p9s4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,ano!r c>e-worn ,summ]4 ,lett]s f ,william/[n & ,rockaway4 ,hymn on ,lay+ ! ,corn]-/one ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,! records ( #ahfc are conf9$ mo/ly to h] lett]s writt5 dur+ ! summ]4 ,9 ,june %e w5t aga9 ) ! y\ng] *ildr5 to ,william/[n1 :]e %e rema9$ a mon?4 ,! family !n proce$$ to ,rockaway1 ,long ,isl&1 & sp5t ! re/ ( ! season !re 9 a cottage1 k9dly plac$ at _! disposal by ,mrs4 ,william ,g4 ,bull4 ,!y pass$ ?r\gh ,new ,york b>ely 9 "t to escape ! t]rible riots1 :i* rag$ !re ) su* fury 9 ! e>ly "p ( ,july4 ,a few extracts f h] lett]s belong+ to ?is p]iod foll[3 ,to h] ,husb&1 ,troy1 ,june #aj4 ,i hope y'll n be fright5$ to get a lett] mail$ "h2 anyh[ ,i c't resi/ ! temptation to write1 ?\gh /&+ up 9 a little newspap] (fice4 ,we 7 r\t$ up at half pa/ five ?is morn+ by p\nds & yells ab\t tak+ ! ,nor!rn ,railroad4 ,on rea*+ ,troy ! capta9 bid u hurry or we %\ld lose ! tra91 & we did hurry1 ?\gh ,i pretty well =esaw our fate1 & aft] a runn+ walk ( a qu>t] ( a mile1 we _h ! felicity ( f9d+ ! tra9 _h left & t ! next "o w\ld n />t till twelve4 ,! little d>l+s are be>+ ! disappo9tm5t sweetly4 #d ,p4,m4--,aft] deposit+ my note 9 ! ,po/-(fice1 we /roll$ ab\t a:ile & !n came across to a hotel1 :]e ,i ord]$ a lun*-d9n]4 ,we got ?r\gh at twelve & m>*$ to ! /ation1 expect+ to />t at once1 :5 ,m4 came runn+ up to me decl>+ !re 0 no tra9 to ,william/[n till five o'clock4 ,my he>t fairly turn$ ov]2 h[ev]1 ,i did n believe x1 b on mak+ inquiries x prov$ to be only too true4 ,= a m9ute ,i sat 9 sil5t despair4 ,j !n ! l&lord ( ! hotel drew nigh & said to me1 ,y don't look v heal?y1 ,mrs42 if y'll walk ov] to my h\se1 ,i w give y a b$room free ( *>ge & y c lie d[n & re/ a:ile4 ,ov] to 8 h\se we w5t1 we>y en\gh4 ,aft] a:ile1 f9d+ !m all =lorn1 ,i got a c>riage & we drove out2 on com+ back ,i ord]$ "s ice-cream1 :i* built u all up amaz+ly4 ,! *ildr5 are n[ c\nt+ ! m9utes till five4 ,"o ( ! boys is p]*$ on a wa%-/& ) 8 feet dangl+ d[n ?r\gh ! hole :]e ! b[l %\ld be2 ! o!r is eat+ crack]s2 ! l&lord is anxi\s ,i %\ld take a glass ( w9e2 & ,m4 is ev]y:]e at once1 hav+ ne>ly worn out my wat*-pocket to see :at "t x 04 ,monday1 ,june #ba/4--,x is n[ go+ on a =tnight s9ce we left home4 ,oh1 if x 7 ,god's w1 h[ ,i %\ld love to get well1 pay y back "s ( ! debts ,i owe y1 be a bett] "m to my *ildr51 write "s m books1 & make y love me s y w\ldn't "k :at to d ) y\rself6 ,j to see h[ x w\ld seem to be well1 & to %[ y :at a spl5did creature ,i c\ld be1 if once out ( ! h>ness6 ,a mode/ little li/ y w say6444 ,i said to myself1 ,is x aft] all su* a curse to suff] & to be a s\rce ( suff]+ to o!rs8 ,isn't x wor? :ile to pay some?+ = w>m human sympa?ies & some?+ = ri* exp]i5ce ( ,god's love & wisdom8 ,& ,i felt1 t = y to h a radiant1 *e]ful1 heal?-happy wife 0 n1 p]haps1 s good = y1 z a m9i/] ( ,*ri/'s gospel1 z to h ! poor feeble creature ^: infirmities keep y anxi\s & (f ! top ( ! wave4 ,saturday aft]noon ! ,pr(essor took me (f /rawb]ry+ aga94 ,c y believe t till ?is ,june ,i nev] w5t /rawb]ry+ 9 my life8 ,i don't eat !m1 s ! fun is 9 ! pick+4 ,d y realise h[ k9d ! ,pr(essor is to me8 ,i am afraid ,i don't4 ,he works v h>d1 too h>d1 ,i ?9k2 b p]haps he does x z a refuge f 8 lonel9ess4 ,8 he>t seems /ill full ( t5d]ness t[>d ,l\isa4 ,ye/]day he took me aside & told me1 ) mu* emotion1 t he dream$ ! night be=e t %e float$ t[>ds him ) a leaf 9 h] h&1 on :i* %e wrote ! words ,sabba? peacefulness4 ,i love him mu*1 b am afraid ( him1 z ,i am ( all m5--ev5 ( y2 y ne$ n laugh1 ,i am4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi? %e writes f ,rockaway1 ,july #bd?3 ,we 7 glad to he> t y 7 safely settl$ at ,pr\t's ,neck1 f> f riots1 if n f rumors !re(4 ,we h z conv5i5t & roomy & closetty a cottage z possible4 ,we are )9 ?ree m9utes or s ( ! bea*1 & g back & =?1 ba!1 dig s&1 & />e at ! ocean accord+ to our v>i\s ages & ta/es4 ,i really d n "k h[ else we sp5d our "t4 ,i sew a little1 & am go+ to sew m :5 my ma*9e comes2 read a little1 doze a little1 & eat a good deal4 ,! but*] calls e morn+1 & s does ! bak] ) excell5t bread2 twice a week clams call at ?irty c5ts ! hundr$2 we get milk1 butt]1 & eggs )\t mu* tr\ble2 & ice & v>i\s vegetables )\t any1 z ,mrs4 ,bull s5ds !m to u e day1 ) spr9kl+s ( fruit1 pit*]s ( cream1 h]r+ & :atev] is go+4 ,we ei!r sit on ! bea* look+ & li/5+ to ! waves1 e ev5+1 or we run 9 to ,mrs4 ,bull's2 or ga!r ab\t our p>lor-table read+4 ,by t5 we are all (f to b$4 ,george does no?+ b race back & =? to ,new ,york on ,sem9>y bus9ess2 he has gone n[4 ,i w5t ) him ! o!r day4 ,! city looks p9*$ & wo-begone4 ,we 7 caught 9 t tornado & ne>ly pull$ to pieces4 #bg?4--,y w be sorry to he> t our la/ summ]'s siege ) dys5t]y bids fair to be repeat$4 ,ye/]day1 :5 ! disease decl>$ itself1 ,i mu/ own t = a few h\rs ,i felt ab\t he>t-brok54 ,my own /r5g? is next to no?+1 & h[ to face su* a calamity ,i knew n4 ,ah1 h[ mu* easi] x is to pray daily1 ,oh1 ,jesus ,*ri/us1 wa*s 9 mir6 ?an to cons5t to1 yea rejoice 91 ! t]ms ( ! grant6 ,well1 ,george w5t = ! doctor4 ,8 qu>t]s at ?is season are "r opposite2 he is a ,g]man & bro!r ( ! au?or ,au]ba*4 ,we br\ght ,g4's cot into our room & ,george & ,i took c>e ( him till ?ree o'clock1 :5 = ! fir/ "t s9ce we _h *ildr51 ,i gave out & left ! poor man to get along z nurse z he be/ c\ld4 ,i c tell y x comes h>d on "o's pride to resign "o's (fice to a half-sick husb&4 ,i ?9k ,i h let ! boys play too h>d 9 ! sun4 ,i long to h y see ?is pretty cottage & ?is bea*4 ,aug4 #c;d4--,! *ildr5 are out ( ! doctor's h&s & ,i d ab\t no?+ at all4 ,i hope y are z lazy z ,i am4 ,today ,i ba!d1 read ! pap] & f9i%$ ,john ,halifax4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld write su* a book6 ,to ,miss ,gilman %e writes1 ,augu/ #aj?3 ,we h ! nice/ ( cottages1 ne> ! sea4 ,i (t5 ?9k ( y z ,i sit wat*+ ! waves ru% 9 & ! ba!rs ru%+ out4 ,i h n yet ?ank$ y = ! hymns y s5t me4 ,! travell]'s hymn s\nds l ,george ,)]s4 ,mr4 ,p4 borr[$ a volume ( 8 poems :i* delights u bo?4 ,i am glad y are ask+ y\r "m que/ions ab\t y\r fa!r4 ,i am amaz$ at myself = n ask+ my de> "m _m a score ab\t my fa!r1 :i* no human be+ c answ] n[4 ,i d n l to ?9k ( y all leav+ ,new ,york4 ,few families w\ld be s miss$ & m\rn$4 ,i c sympa?ise ) y 9 reg>d to y\r pres5t ,sunday privileges4 ,we h a long walk 9 gl>+ sun%9e1 sit on b>e bo>ds1 live ?r\gh ! :ole 7or ne>ly ! :ole7 ,pray]-book1 & !n li/51 if we c1 to a s]mon ?ree-qu>t]s ( an h\r long1 its l5g? n be+ its *ief fault4 ,i am utt]ly unable to be> su* fatigue1 & sp5d my "t *iefly at home1 ) "s hope ( m pr(it1 at any rate4 ,h[ true x is t our ,ma/]'s be/ treasures are kept 9 e>!n vessels6 ,humanly speak+1 we %\ld decl>e x to be = ,8 glory to commit ! prea*+ ( ,8 gospel to ! be/ & wise/ h&s4 ,b ,8 ways are n z our ways4444 ,i feel su* a long+1 :5 ,sunday conies1 to sp5d x ) good p1 "u ! guidance ( a heav5-taught man4 ,a m9i/] has su* wond]ful opportunity = do+ good6 ,x seems dreadful to see ! opportunity m ?an wa/$4 ,! tru? is1 we all ne$1 m9i/]s & all1 a clos] walk ) ,god4 ,if a man comes d[n /raight f ! m\nt to speak to ^? :o h j come f ! same place1 he mu/ be 9 a /ate to edify & !y to be edifi$4 ,f ,new ,york %e writes to ,miss ,%ipman1 ,octob] #bd?3 ,y\r lett] came j z we />t$ = ,p\ghkeepsie4 ,! ,synod met !re & ,i 0 invit$ to accompany ,george1 &1 q contr>y to my usual habits1 ,i w5t4 ,we _h a nice "t4 ,i feel t y are 9 ! be/ place 9 ! _w4 ,next to dy+ & go+ home "o's self1 x mu/ be sweet to accompany a ,*ri/ian fri5d d[n to ! v banks ( ! riv]4 ,isn't x /range t aft] su* exp]i5ces we c ev] aga9 h a worldly ?\ght1 or ev] lose ! s5se ( ! reality ( div9e ?+s6 ,b we are l little *ildr5--ev] le>n+ & ev] =gett+4 ,/ill1 x is well to be le>n+1 & ,i envy y y\r frequ5t visits to ! h\se ( m\rn+4 ,y w miss y\r de> fri5d v mu*4 ,i "k h[ y love h]4 ,h[ _m belov$ ones y h already lo/ = a season6444 ,don't set me to mak+ brackets4 ,i am z worldly n[ z ,i c be1 & my head full ( "w on all sorts ( ?+s4 ,i made two cornucopias ( y\r patt]n & fill$ !m ) grasses & autumn leaves1 & !y 7 magnific5t4 ,i got v l>ge grasses 9 ! ,rockaway m>%es4 ,! *ildr5 are all well & z gay z l>ks4 ,e>ly 9 ,novemb] ! corn]-/one ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant 0 laid4 ,%e wrote ! foll[+ hymn = ! occasion3 ,a temple1 ,"l1 we raise2 ,let all its walls be praise ,to ,!e alone4 ,draw nigh1 ,o ,*ri/1 we pray1 ,to lead u on our way1 ,& be ,?\1 n[ & aye1 ,our corn]-/one4 ,9 humble fai? array$1 ,we ^! f\ndations laid ,9 w>'s d>k day4 ,oppression's reign o'er?r[n1 ,sweet peace once m our own1 ,d ,?\ ! topmo/ /one ,securely lay4 ,& :5 ea* e>?-built wall ,crumbl+ to du/ %all fall1 ,our "w /ill own4 ,be to ea* fai?ful he>t ,t "h ha? wr\ght its "p1 ,:at 9 ,?y ,*ur* ,?\ art-- ,! ,corn]-/one4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,happ9ess 9 h] ,*ildr54 ,! ,summ] ( #ahfd4 ,lett]s f ,hunt]4 ,affliction among ,fri5ds4 ,9 ! e>ly "p ( #ahfd %e 0 m ?an usually afflict$ ) neuralgic tr\bles & t horrid calamity1 z %e calls x1 sleeplessness4 ,i "k j h[ "o feels :5 "o c't eat or sleep or talk4 ,i decl>e1 a good deal ( ! "t pull+ words out ( me is l pull+ out tee?4 ,/ill 7%e writes to a si/]-9-law1 ,jan4 #ae?71 we are a happy family 9 spite ( our ailm5ts4 ,i suff] a great deal & cause anxiety to my husb& by x1 b !n ,i enjoy a great deal & s does he1 & our y\ng] *ildr5--to say no?+ ( ,a4--are s\rces ( con/ant felicity4 ,d n y miss ! he>+ little feet patt]+ r\nd ! h\se8 ,x seems to me t ! s\nd ( my six little feet is ! v pleasante/ s\nd 9 ! _w4 ,(t5 :5 ,i lie 9 b$ rack$ ) pa9 & exhau/$ f want ( food--= my dige/ive organs seem p>alys$ :5 ,i h neuralgia--he>+ ^! little d>l+s ab\t ! h\se comp5sates = ev]y?+1 & ,i am inexpressibly happy 9 ! m]e s5se ( possession4 ,i hate to h !m gr[ up & to lose my pets1 or ex*ange !m = big boys & girls4 ,i suppose y\r boys are a great help to y & company too1 b ,i feel = y t y h n also a c\ple ( girls4444 ,poor ,l\isa6 ,x is v pa9ful to ?9k :at %e suff]$4 ,h] dea? 0 su* a %ock to me1 ,i c h>dly say :y1 t ,i h nev] be5 s9ce :at ,i 0 be=e4 ,i suppose my n]v\s sy/em 0 s %att]$1 t s unexpect$ a bl[ w\ld naturally "w unk9dly4 ,e>ly 9 ! foll[+ summ] %e 0 di/ress$ by ! sudd5 b]eavem5t ( de> fri5ds & by ! dea? ( h] nephew1 :o fell 9 "o ( ! battles ( ! ,wild]ness4 ,9 a lett] to ,miss ,gilman1 dat$ ,june #ah?1 %e ref]s to ?is3 ,y\r de> little fl[]s came 9 excell5t condition1 b at a mom5t :5 ,i c\ld n possibly write to tell y s4 ,! dea? ( ,mrs4 ,r4 ,h4 broke my he>t4 ,i only knew h] by a sort ( in/9ct1 b ,i sorr[$ 9 h] "m's sorr[ & 9 t ( h] si/]s4 ,dea? is a bless$ ?+ to ! "o :om x leads to ,*ri/'s k+dom & pres5ce1 b oh1 h[ t]rible = ^? x leaves fa9t+ & weep+ beh9d6 ,we expect to g (f = ! summ] on next ,?ursday4 ,we g to ,hunt]1 ,n4 ,y41 9 ! region ( ! ,catskills4 ,my husb&'s "m has be5 ) me dur+ ! la/ six weeks & has j gone home1 & ,i h n[ to d up ! la/ ?+s 9 a great hurry4 ,y may n "k t my ,a4 & ,m4 ,s41 & a numb] ( o!r "y p ( _! age1 jo9$ our *ur* on la/ ,sunday4 ,i c h>dly realise my felicity4 ,i seem to myself to h a new *ild4 ,y\r si/] may h told y ( ! loss ( ,pr(essor ,hopk9s' son4 ,he 0 ! fir/ gr&*ild 9 our family & 8 fa!r's all4 ,we may nev] he> :at 8 fate 01 b ! susp5se has be5 dreadful4 ,h] int]e/ 9 ! national /ruggle 0 int5se & h] conviction ( its ,provid5tial "* unwav]+4 ,to a fri5d1 :o seem$ to h] a little lukew>m on ! subject1 %e wrote at ?is "t3 ,= my "p1 ,i am sometimes afraid ,i %all die ( joy if we ev] ga9 a complete & f9al victory4 ,y c call ?is spunk if y *oose4 ,b my spunk has got a backbone ( its own & t is deep-seat$ conviction1 t ?is is a holy w>1 & t ,god himself sanctions x4 ,he sp>es no?+ preci\s :5 ,he has a "w to d4 ,no life is too valuable = ,him to cut %ort1 :5 any ( ,8 designs c be fur!r$ by do+ s4 ,b ,i c\ld talk a mon? & n h done1 y wick$ unbeliev]4 ,to h] ,husb&1 ,hunt]1 ,june #bg1 #ahfd4 ,?is morn+1 aft] breakfa/1 ,i salli$ out ) six *ildr5 to take a mo/ *>m+ walk1 scramble1 climb1 etc4 ,we put on our wor/ old duds1 tuck up our skirts ,june #bg1 knee-high1 & h a regul> good "t ( x4 ,if y 7 awake s e>ly z eight o'clock--,i don't believe y 76 y might h se5 u ) a good spy-glass1 & x w\ld h made y\r righte\s s\l leap = joy to see h[ we cap]$ & laugh$1 & :at /rawb]ries we pick$1 & h[ mu* ( a *ild ,a4 turn$ into4 ,!y all six play$ run till !y _h c\nt$ twelve & !n !y tumbl$ d[n & roll$ 9 ! grass1 till ,i wond]$ :at _! bones 7 made (4 ,i d n see t we c\ld h f\nd a bett] place = ! *ildr54 ,:at ) ! sev5 calves1 ! c[s1 ! %eep1 ! two pet lambs1 ! dogs1 h5s1 *ick5s1 horses1 etc41 !y are p]fectly happy4 ,j n[ !y h be5 to see ! butt] made & to get a dr9k ( butt]milk4 ,we h lots ( /rawb]ries & cream1 pot-*eese1 ,johnny-cakes1 & !re are always eggs & milk at our s]vice4 ,f diplomatic motives ,i advise y n to say too mu* ab\t ,hunt] to p ask+ que/ions4 ,x w\ld entirely spoil its only great *>m if a ru% ( silly city folks %\ld sc5t x out4 ,x is really a primitive place & t y c say4 ,mr4 ,coe prea*$ an excell5t s]mon on ,sunday morn+4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,hunt]1 ,july #d1 #ahfd4 ,i h j be5 (f1 all alone1 =ag+1 & h come home br++ my %eaves ) me3 gr\nd p9e & r$ b]ries1 ) :i* ,i h made a beautiful wrea?4 ,i h also adorn$ ! picture ( ,g54 ,grant ) fe/oons ( ev]gre5s1 conjur+ him ! :ile n to disappo9t our hopes1 b to take ,ri*mond4 ,alas6 y may "k1 by ?is "t1 t he c't2 b 9 lack ( news s9ce a week ago1 ,i c b hope = ! be/4 ,i've tak5 a pew & we contrive to squeeze into x 9 ?is wise3 fir/ a *ild1 !n a "m1 !n a *ild1 !n an ,annie1 !n a *ild1 ! little ones be+ /[$ 9 ! cracks left betwe5 u big ones4 ,mr4 ,r41 ! p>son1 look+ fit to g /raight into 8 grave1 0 up "h to get a wagon z he 0 go+ = a load ( *ips4 ,8 wife 0 at home sick1 )\t any s]vant1 _h *urn$ ?ree h\rs & ! butt] w\ldn't come1 & has a pew full ( little ones4 ,oh1 my poor si/]s 9 ! m9i/ry6 my he>t a*es = !m4 ,mr4 ,r4 gave u a sup]ior s]mon la/ ,sunday4444 ,i "k next to no?+ ab\t :at is go+ on 9 ! _w4 ,b ,george writes t he feels decid$ly pleas$ ) ! look ( ?+s4 ,he has be5 c>ry+ on l all possess$ s9ce ,i left1 hav+ company to breakfa/1 lun*1 d9n]1 & f9ally w5t & _h ,*i ,alpha all himself4 ,july #be?4--,we w5t "o day la/ week on a mo/ delightful excursion1 tw5ty-"o ( u 9 all4 ,our drive 0 spl5did & ! sc5]y sublime2 ev5 we di/+ui%$ ,swiss travell]s ?\ght s6 ,we came to "o spot :]e ice always is f\nd1 cut out big pieces1 ate x1 drank x1 ?rew x at ea* o!r & c>ri$ on ) x g5]ally4 ,we _h our d9n] on ! grass 9 ! woods4 ,we br\ght home a small c>tload ( natural brackets2 "s ( !m beautiful4 ,augu/ #a/4--,y h inde$ _h a ri* exp]i5ce4 #aa ,we all read y\r lett] ) ! deepe/ int]e/ & feel t x w\ld h be5 good to be !re4 ,y\r acc\nt ( ,c>o %[s :at =ce ( "* %e possess$1 z well z :at ,god's grace c d & d quickly4 ,?is is n ! fir/ "t ,he has rip5$ a s\l into full ,*ri/ian maturity ) almo/ miracul\s rapidity4 ,a vet]an sa9t c\ld n h laid d[n 8 armor & adju/$ himself to meet dea? ) m calmness ?an did ?is "y disciple4 ,i d n wond] h] family 7 borne1 = ! "t1 above _! sorr[1 b alas6 _! bitt] pangs ( angui% are yet to meet !m4 ,h] poor "m6 ,h[ mu* %e has suff]$ & has yet to suff]6 all ! m because %e be>s x s h]oically4 ,to ,miss ,emily ,s4 ,gilman1 ,hunt]1 ,aug #a1 #ahfd4 ,y mu/ h wond]$ :y ,i did n answ] y\r lett] & y\r book1 = bo? ( :i* ,i ?ank y4 ,well1 x has be5 su* dry1 w>m wea!r1 t ,i h n felt l writ+2 besides1 = nurse ,i h only a little ,g]man girl f\rte5 ye>s old1 :o nev] 0 out ( ,new ,york be=e1 & :om ,i h be5 s det]m9$ on spoil+ t ,i c\ldn't be> to take h] (f f h] play to m5d1 pat*1 d>n1 wa% faces1 necks1 feet1 etc41 & unconsci\sly did e ?+ !re 0 to d = ! *ildr5 & a little m besides4 ,i l ! little book v mu*4 ,y h ! greate/ knack1 y girls1 ( light+ on nice books & nice hymns4 ,we are "r 9 ! mid/ ( mo/ *>m+ walks4 ,"h is a grove & !re is a brook2 "h is a creek1 almo/ a riv] 7big en\gh at any rate to get on to ! map7 & !re a m\nta94 ,z to f]ns & mosses = y\r poetical side1 & z = raspb]ries & blackb]ries = y\r t'o!r side1 "t w\ld fail me if ,i %\ld beg9 to speak ( !m4 ,i ?9k a great deal ( y & y\r si/]s :5 (f on =ag+ exp$itions1 & wi% y 7 "h not)/&+ y are mossy & f]ny !re4 ,we h z yet made only "o excursion4 ,t 0 delightful & gave u our fir/ true idea ( ! ,catskills4 ,be=e ,mr4 ,p4 came ,i usually w5t (f on my =5oon walk alone1 unless ! *ildr5 troop$ aft]1 & came home a m9iature ,birnam wood1 ) all sorts ( ?+s except creep+ ?+s & fly+ f[l4 ,i h j f9i%$ read+ to ,m4 & a little girl ne> h] age1 a little ,fr5* book y w\ld l1 call$ ,augu/94 ,i nev] met ) a sweet] picture ( a lov+ *ild any:]e4 ,well1 ,i may z well /op writ+4 ,rememb] me lov+ly to all y\r de> h\sehold4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns %e writes1 ,sept4 #af3 ,h[ mu* fai? & pati5ce we poor invalids d ne$6 ,! burd5 ( life sits h>d on our we>y %\ld]s4 ,i ?9k ! m\nta9 air has agre$ ) our *ildr5 bett] ?an ! seaside has done1 b ,george craves ! ocean & ! ba?+4 ,he sp5t ?is =5oon1 z he has a good _m o!rs1 9 climb+ ! side ( ! m\nta9 = ex]cise1 views1 & blackb]ries4 ,i g ) him sometimes4 ,we _h a few days' visit f ,pr(4 ,hopk9s4 ,he has he>d confirmation ( ! rumors ( poor ,eddy's dea? & burial4 ,he means to g to ,a%l& z soon z ! /ate ( ! c\ntry makes x practicable1 b has little hope ( id5tify+ ,e4's rema9s4 ,x is a great sorr[ to him to lose all he _h 9 ?is horrible way1 b he be>s x ) wond]ful fai? & pati5ce1 & says he nev] pray$ = 8 son's life aft] he w5t into action4 ,"s lett]s receiv$ by him1 give a pleasant idea ( ! ,*ri/ian /& ,e4 took aft] ent]+ ! army4 ,i believe ?is is ,lizzie ,p----'s w$d+ day4 ,!re is a beautiful ra9b[ smil+ on x f our m\nta9 home1 & ,i hope a real "o is glorify+ h]s4 ,to ,miss ,gilman1 ,hunt]1 ,sept4 #ag4 ,oh1 ,i wi% y 7 "h on ?is glori\s day6 ,! foliage has begun to turn a little1 & ! m\nta9s are 9 a /ate bord]+ on p]fection4 ,x is wick$ = me /ay 9-doors ev5 to write ?is1 b x seems z if a lett] f "h w\ld c>ry ) x a savor ( m\nta9 air1 & mu/ d y m good ?an "o f ! city c\ld4 ,i wi% ,i _h ?\ght soon] to ask y if y w\ld l "s ( our mosses4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h se5 mosses be=e1 b f\nd ,i _h n4 ,i w enclose "s dri$ specim5s4 ,i ?\ght1 :ile ,i 0 9 ! woods ?is morn+1 t ,i nev] _h ?ank$ ,god half en\gh = mak+ ^! lovely ?+s & giv+ u ta/es :]e) to enjoy !m4 ,y ask if ,i h spill$ ink all d[n ! side ( ?is :ite h\se4 ,yes1 ,i h1 wo be unto me4 ,i 0 sick ab$ & got up to write to ,mr4 ,p41 n want+ him to "k ,i 0 sick1 & "o ( ! *ildr5 came 9 & ,i snat*$ him up 9 my lap to hug & kiss a little1 & he1 ( c\rse1 hit ! p5 & upset ! ink/& & bur/ out cry+ at my dismay4 ,!n might h be5 se5 a heada*y woman cat*+ ! apoplexy by lean+ out ( ! w9d[ & scrubb+ pa9t1 sacrific+ all h] nice rags 9 ! process1 & dreadfully mortifi$ into ! b>ga94444 ,ye/]day we 7 all caught 9 a p\r+ ra9 :5 sev]al miles f home on ! side ( ! m\nta91 blackb]ry+4 ,we ea* took a *ild & came roll+ & te>+ d[n ?r\gh ! bu%es & ov] /ones1 ,h4's little legs fly+ z little legs r>ely fly4 ,we ne>ly di$ ) laugh+1 & if ,i only knew h[ to draw1 ,i c\ld make y laugh by giv+ y a picture ( ! sc5e4 ,y w judge f ?is t we are all great walk]s2 s we are4 ,i take ! *ildr5 almo/ ev]y:]e1 & !y walk miles e day4 ,well1 ,i w g n[ & get y "s scraps ( press$ mosses4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,! ,dea? ( ,presid5t ,l9coln4 ,d$ication ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,gr[+ ,insomnia4 ,resolves to try ! ,wat]-cure4 ,its b5eficial ,effects4 ,summ] at ,newburgh4 ,rem9isc5ce ( an ,excursion to ,paltz ,po9t4 ,dea? ( h] ,husb&'s ,"m4 ,fun]al ( h] ,nephew1 ,edw>d ,payson ,hopk9s4 ,two ev5ts r5d]$ ! mon? ( ,april1 #ahfe1 especially memorable to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,"o 0 ! assass9ation ( ,presid5t ,l9coln on ! ev5+ ( ,good ,friday4 ,%e _h be5 v ill1 & h] husb&1 on le>n+ ! dreadful news f ! morn+ pap]1 ?\ght x advisable to keep x f h] = a :ile2 b "o ( ! *ildr51 go+ into h] *amb]1 bur/ into te>s & ?us betray$ ! secret4 ,h] /ate ( n]v\s pro/ration & h] pr(\nd1 affectionate admiration = ,mr4 ,l9coln1 made ! bl[ ! mo/ /unn+ by f> %e ev] receiv$ f any public calamity4 ,x 0 su*1 no d\bt1 to t5s ( ?\s&s2 inde$1 to ! ,am]ican p4 ,no ,ea/] morn+ ev] be=e dawn$ ^u !m amid su* a cl\d ( horror1 or f\nd !m s b[$ d[n ) grief4 ,! y\ng] g5]ation c h>dly conceive ( ! dep? & int5sity1 or ! /range1 unnatural "*1 ( ! impression made ^u ! m9ds ( old & "y alike1 by ?is mo/ f\l murd]4 #ab ,! o!r ev5t 0 ( a v diff]5t "* & fill$ h] ) great joy4 ,x 0 ! d$ication1 on ! la/ ,sunday 9 ,april1 ( ! new *ur* edifice1 ^: gr[? %e _h wat*$ ) s mu* int]e/4 ,9 ! spr+ ( #ahfe %e 0 induc$1 by ! entreaty ( fri5ds :o _h !mselves te/$ 8 skill1 to consult ,dr4 ,s*ief]deck]1 a not$ hydropa?i/1 & lat] to place h]self "u 8 c>e4 ,9 a lett] to h] c\s91 ,miss ,%ipman1 %e writes3 ,i want to tell y1 b d n want y to m5tion x to anyone1 t ,i h be5 to see ,dr4 ,s*ief]deck] to "k :at he ?\ght ( my case4 ,he says t ,i might g on diet+ to ! end ( my days & n get well1 b t 8 sy/em c\ld & w\ld cure me1 only x w\ld take a long "t4 ,i h n decid$ :e!r to try 8 process1 b h no d\bt he und]/&s my disease4 ,dr4 ,s*ief]deck] _h be5 a pupil & 0 an en?usia/ic disciple ( ,priesnitz4 ,he _h unb\nd$ fai? 9 ! heal+ prop]ties ( wat]4 ,he 0 v impulsive1 op9ionat$1 self-confid5t1 & accu/om$ to speak contemptu\sly ( ! old m$ical sci5ce & ^? :o practis$ x4 ,b = all t1 he possess$ a rem>kable sagacity 9 ! diagnosis & treatm5t ( *ronic disease4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w5t ?r\gh ! cure ) indomitable pati5ce & pluck1 & 0 rew>d$ by ! mo/ b5eficial results4 ,h] sleeplessness _h become too deep-root$ to be ov]come1 b x 0 greatly mitigat$ & h] g5]al condition va/ly improv$4 ,%e nev] ceas$ to feel v grateful to ,dr4 ,s*ief]deck] = ! relief he _h af=d$ h]1 & = tea*+ h] h[ to manage h]self2 = aft] pass+ f "u 8 c>e1 %e /ill cont9u$ to foll[ 8 directions4 ,no tongue c tell h[ mu* ,i am indebt$ to him1 %e wrote 9 #ahfi4 ,i am l a %ip t aft] pok+ along tw5ty ye>s ) a heavy load on bo>d1 at la/ gets into port1 unloads1 & spr+s to ! surface4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,s4 ,gilman1 ,new ,york1 ,feb4 #bc1 #ahfe4 ,x is said to be an ill w9d t bl[s nobody good1 & z ,i am /ill idl+ ab\t1 do+ absolutely no?+ b receive visits f neuralgia1 ,i h leisure to ?9k ( poor ,miss ----4 ,i wrote to ask h] if !re 0 any?+ %e want$ & c\ld n get 9 h] region2 ye/]day ,i receiv$ h] lett]1 9 :i* %e m5tions a book1 b says any?+ t is useful = body or m9d w\ld be gratefully receiv$4 ,n[ ,i got ! impression f t article 9 ! ,indep5d5t1 t %e c\ld take next to no n\ri%m5t4 ,d y "k :at %e does take1 & c y sugge/1 f :at y "k1 any?+ %e w\ld l8 ,:at's ! use ( my be+ sick1 if x isn't = h] sake or t ( "s o!r suff]+ s\l8 ,i want1 v mu*1 to get "s ?+s toge!r & s5d h]2 nobody kn[s :o hasn't exp]i5c$ x1 h[ delightfully su* ?+s break 9 on ! monotony ( a sick-room4 ,j yet ,i am n /rong en\gh to d any?+2 my h&s tremble s t ,i c h>dly use ev5 a p52 yet y ne$ n ?9k ,i am mu* amiss1 = ,i g out e pleasant day1 to ride1 & "s days c take q a walk4 ,! tr\ble is t :5 ! pa9 returns1 z x does sev]al times a day1 x knocks my /r5g? out ( me4 ,i hope :5 all p>ts ( my frame h be5 visit$ by ?is erratic sprite1 x may f9d x wor? :ile to beat a retreat4 ,only to ?9k1 we are go+ to move to ,no4 #gj ,ea/ ,tw5ty-sev5? /reet1 & y h all be5 & gone away6 ,! r5t is enorm\s1 #a1jjj hav+ be5 j add$ to an already high price4 ,our p h tak5 t matt] 9 h& & no burd5 ( x w come on u4 ,i receiv$ y\r lett] & am mu* oblig$ to y = writ+ to ,miss ----1 = me2 ! reason ,i did n d x 01 t x seem$ l hurry+ h] up to ?ank me = ! little drop ( com=t ,i s5t h]4 ,de> me6 x's h>d to be sick :5 p s5d y quails & jellies1 & fre% eggs1 & all su* ?+s--b to be sick & suff] = necess>ies mu/ be t]rible4 ,to ! ,same1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #i1 #ahfe4 ,i ?ank y = ! details ( ,miss ----'s case1 z ,i wi%$ to describe !m to "s fri5ds4 ,i s5t h] t5 doll>s ye/]day = two ( my fri5ds4 ,i also s5t (f a box by express1 = ! cont5ts ( :i* ,i _h help4 ,! ?+s 7 su* z ,i _h p]suad$ h] to m5tion2 a new k9d ( f>9a1 figs1 two portfolios 7( c\rse %e didn't ask = two1 b ,i _h "o ,i ?\ght %e w\ld1 p]haps1 l bett] ?an ! "o ,i b\ght71 a few crack]s1 & sev]al books4 ,mr4 ,p4 add$ "o ( ^? beautiful l>ge-pr9t editions ( ! ,psalms :i* w1 ,i ?9k1 be a com=t to h]4 ,i %all also s5d ,adelaide ,newton by-&-by2 ,i ?\ght %e _h h] h&s full ( read+ = ! pres5t1 & ! great ?+ is n to heap com=ts on h] all at once & !n leave h] to h] fate1 b keep up a /ream ( su* little alleviations z c be provid$4 ,%e said1 %e _h poor accommodations = writ+1 s ,i greatly enjoy$ fitt+ up ! portfolio :i* 0 none ! worse = we>1 ) pap] & envelopes1 a p5cil ) rubb] at ! end1 a cunn+ little knife1 "s /amps1 = :i* !re 0 a small box1 a few p5s1 etc4 ,i "k x w please y to he> ( ?is1 & z ! money 0 furni%$ me = ! purpose1 y ne$ n set x d[n to my cr$it4 ,i meant to g to see y\r si/]1 b my head is /ill 9 su* a weak /ate t ?\gh ,i g to walk ne>ly e day1 ,i c n make calls4 ,x is five weeks s9ce ,i w5t to *ur*1 = ! same reason4 ,x is a "p ( ,god's discipl9e ) me to keep me %ut up a good deal m ?an ! old ,adam 9 me fancies2 b ,8 way is absolutely p]fect1 & ,i hope ,i w\ldn't *ange x 9 any p>ticul>1 if ,i c\ld4 ,h y ,pusey's tract1 ,d all to ! ,"l ,jesus8 ,if n1 ,i mu/ s5d x to y4 ,x seems z if ,i _h a lot ( ?+s ,i want$ to say1 b aft] writ+ a little my h&s & arms beg9 to tremble s t ,i c h>dly write pla9ly4 ,y nev] saw su* a lazy life z ,i lead n[-a-days2 ,i c't d any ?+4 ,i advise y to d :at y h to d = ,*ri/ n[2 by ! "t y are z old z ,i am p]haps y w h ! w & n ! p[]4 ,well1 good-bye till next "t4 ,! summ] ( ?is ye> 0 pass$ at ,newburgh 9 company ) ! ,misses ,butl]--n[ ,mrs4 ,kirkbride1 ( ,philadelphia1 & ,mrs4 ,boo?1 ( ,liv]pool--& ! families ( ,mr4 ,william ,all5 ,butl]1 ,mr4 ,b4 ,f4 ,butl]1 & ,mr4 ,john ,p4 ,crosby1 to all ( :om ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 /rongly atta*$4 ,! late ,mr4 ,daniel ,"l1 ! em95t lawy]1 ) a portion ( 8 family1 _h also a cottage ne> by & 0 full ( hospitable k9dness4 ,9 spite ( ! exact+ hydropa?ic treatm5t1 %e f\nd con/ant refre%m5t & delight 9 ! society ( s _m de> fri5ds4 ,! only ?+ ,i h to compla9 ( %e wrote1 is ev]ybody be+ too good to me4 ,h[ diff]5t x is be+ among fri5ds to be+ among /rang]s6 ,9 a lett] to h] husb&1 dat$ ,new ,york1 ,sept4 #ae1 #ahgi1 ,mr4 ,william ,all5 ,butl] gives ! foll[+ rem9isc5ce ( an excursion to ,paltz ,po9t & an ev5+ at ,newburgh3 ,f ! date y1 give 9 y\r note 7to :i* ,i h j recurr$7 ( our trip to ,paltz ,po9t1 x seems t 9 writ+ y to-day ,i h unwitt+ly fall5 on ! anniv]s>y ( t pleasant excursion4 ,)\t ?is rem9d] ,i c\ld n h told ! day or ! ye>1 b ( ! excursion itself ,i h always _h a vivid & delightful recollection2 &1 if ,i am n mi/ak51 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss enjoy$ x z fully z any "o ( ! m]ry p>ty4 ,x 0 only on t jaunt & 9 our summ] home at ,newburgh t ,i _h ! opportunity ( kn[+ h] read9ess to ent] into t k9d ( enjoym5t1 :i* dep5ds ^u ! co-op]ation ( e memb] ( a circle = ! ent]ta9m5t ( all4 ,! elem5ts ( our gr\p 7 well comm+l$1 & ! bright ?+s evok$ by _! contact & friction 7 nei!r few nor f> betwe54 ,! game to :i* y allude ( ,inspiration or ,rhapsody 0 a favorite4 ,! ev5+ at ,paltz ,po9t call$ out "s clev] sallies1 ( :i* ,i h no record or special recollection2 b ,i "k t !n1 z always1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss seem$ to h at h] p5cil's po9t = in/ant use ! wit & fancy s *>m+ly exhibit$ 9 h] writ+s4 ,%e publi%$ some:]e an acc\nt ( "o ( our inspir$ or rhapsodical ev5+s1 b greatly to my regret fail$ to include 9 x h] own contribution :i* 0 ! be/ ( all4 ,i di/9ctly rememb] ! "t & sc5e--! ,septemb] ev5+--! big1 squ>e sitt+-room ( ! old ,sem9>y build+ 9 :i* y bo>d$--! bright faces ^: radiance made up 9 "p = ! limitations ( artificial light--! puzzl$ air :i* e "o took on :5 pres5t$ ) ! li/ ( unmanageable words1 to be reproduc$ 9 _! consecutive ord] 9 prose or v]se composition )9 ! next qu>t] or half h\r--! /illness :i* sup]v5$ :ile ! en=c$ pleasures ( poetic pa9s or prose agony 7 be+ und]gone--! s5se ( relief :i* supplem5t$ ! completion ( ! bat* ( extempore effusions--& ! fun :i* _! read+ provok$4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss _h contriv$ out ( ! odd & incoh]5t jumble ( words a *oice bit ( poetic humor & pa?os1 :i* ,i nev] q =gave h] = omitt+ 9 ! publication ( ! nons5se writt5 by o!r h&s4 ,^! trifles z !y seem$ at ! "t1 & z 9 fact !y 71 become less insignificant 9 ! retrospect1 z we associate !m ) ! :ole "* & be+ we in/9ctively love to place at ! f>!/ remove f gloom or sadness1 & z !y r$iscov] to u 9 ! di/ance ! native vivacity & grace ( :i* !y 7 ! *ance expression4 ,s9ce t summ] ( #ahfe1 hav+ liv$ away f ,new ,york1 ,i saw little ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 b ,i h a special remembrance ( "o little visit y made at our home 9 ,yonk]s :i* %e seem$ v mu* to enjoy--say+ ( ! reunion :i* made x s pleasant to ! memb]s ( our family & all :o happ5$ to be toge!r at ! "t1 t x 0 l heav54 #ac ,dur+ ! summ] ( #ahfe ! sympa?ies ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 7 mu* wr\ght ^u by ! sickness & dea? ( h] husb&'s "m1 :o ent]$ into re/ on ! #i? ( ,augu/1 9 ! eighty-f\r? ye> ( h] age4 ,on ! #ab? ( ! previ\s ,janu>y1 %e ) ! :ole family _h gone to ,new>k to celebrate ! eighty-?ird bir?day ( ?is ag$ sa9t4 ,_h !y kn[n x 0 to be ! la/1 !y c\ld h wi%$ no?+ *ang$4 ,x 0 a p]fect w9t]'s day1 & ! sc5e 9 ! old p>sonage 0 p]fect too4 ,!re1 surr\nd$ by *ildr5 & *ildr5's *ildr51 sat ! v5]able gr&mo!r ) a b5ignant smile ^u h] face & ! peace ( ,god 9 h] he>t4 ,z %e receiv$ 9 bir?day gifts & kisses & congratulations _! lov+ homage1 ! measure ( h] joy 0 full1 & %e seem$ ready to say h] ,nunc dimittis4 ,%e belong$ to ! numb] ( ^? holy wom5 ( ! old "t :o tru/$ 9 ,god & adorn$ !mselves ) ! ornam5t ( a meek & quiet _s1 & ^: *ildr5 to ! late/ g5]ation rise up & call !m bless$4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ?is ye> h] sympa?ies 7 also deeply t\*$ by repeat$ visits f h] bro!r-9-law1 ,pr(essor ,hopk9s1 on 8 way to & f ,virg9ia4 ,allusion has be5 made already to ! dea? ( h] nephew1 ,lieut5ant ,edw>d ,payson ,hopk9s4 ,he 0 kill$ 9 battle :ile gallantly lead+ a cavalry *>ge at ,a%l&1 9 ,virg9ia1 on ! #aa? ( ,may1 #ahfd4 ,9 ,june ( ! foll[+ ye> 8 fa!r w5t to ,a%l& ) ! hope ( recov]+ ! body4 ,five comrades _h fall5 ) ,edw>d1 & ! negroes _h buri$ !m )\t c(f9s1 side by side1 9 two tr5*es 9 a desolate swampy field & "u a v %all[ cov]+ ( e>?4 ,! place 0 readily discov]$1 b x 0 f\nd impossible to id5tify ! body4 ,! disappo9t$ fa!r1 almo/ brok5-he>t$1 turn$ 8 we>y /eps homew>d4 ,:5 he rea*$ ,william/[n 8 fri5ds said1 ,he has gr[n t5 ye>s old] s9ce he w5t away4 ,sev]al mon?s lat] he le>n$ t !re 7 means ( id5tification :i* c\ld n fail1 ev5 if ! body _h already turn$ to du/4 ,accord+ly he aga9 visit$ ,a%l&1 att5d$ ?is "t by soldi]s1 a surgeon1 & ,gov]nm5t (ficials4 ,8 se>* prov$ successful1 &1 to 8 joy1 n only 0 ! body id5tifi$1 b1 ow+ to ! swampy nature ( ! gr\nd1 x 0 f\nd to be 9 an almo/ complete /ate ( pres]vation4 ,!re 0 some?+ wond]fully impressive 9 ! grave aspect & calm1 g5tle tone ( ! v5]able man1 z ) 8 preci\s *>ge he pass$ ?r\gh ,new ,york on 8 way home4 ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 dat$ ,janu>y #b;d1 #ahff1 he himself tells ! /ory ( ! re-int]m5t at ,william/[n3 444 ,aft] /opp+ a m9ute at my door ! wagon pass$ at once to ! cemet]y1 & ! rema9s 7 deposit$ 9 ! tomb4 ,?is 0 on ,?ursday4 ,aft] consult+ ) my bro!r & 8 son 7! *apla97 ,i det]m9$ to wait till ! ,sabba? be=e ! int]m5t4 ,accord+ly1 at #c o'clock--aft] ! aft]noon s]vice--! rema9s ( my de> boy 7 plac$ beside ^? ( 8 "m4 ,! s]vices 7 simple1 b solemn 9 a high degree4 ,!y 7 op5$ by an address f ,h>ry4 ,pray] foll[$ by ,rev4 ,mr4 ,noble1 n[ supply+ ! desk "h4 ,he prefac$ 8 pray] by say+ t he nev] saw ,edw>d b once1 :5 he prea*$ at ,william/[n at a communion & saw him sitt+ beside me & p>tak+ ) me4 ,s++ !n foll[$ by ! *oir ( :i* ,eddy 0 = a long "t a memb]4 ,! words 7 ^? /rik+ l9es ( ,montgom]y3 ,g to ! grave 9 all ?y glori\s prime1 etc4 ,aft] :i* ! c(f9 0 l[]$ to its place by "y m5 :o 7 fri5ds ( ,edw>d 9 8 e>li] ye>s4 ,! /ate ( ! elem5ts 0 exce$+ly favorable to ! hold+ ( su* an ex]cise 9 ! op5 air at a season g5]ally s inclem5t4 ,! night be=e !re 0 e appe>ance ( a heavy ,n4 ,e4 /orm4 ,b ,sabba? morn+ x 0 calm4 ,z ,i w5t to *ur* ,i notic$ t ! sun re/$ on ! ,v]mont m\nta9s j nor? ( u1 ?\gh ) a mell[$ light z if a veil _h be5 ?r[n ov] !m4 ,9 ! aft] "p ( ! day ! op5 sky _h spread s\?w>d--s t ! int]m5t took place :5 ! air 0 z mild & s]5e z spr+1 j z ! la/ sun ( ! ye> 0 s9k+ t[>ds ! m\nta9s4 ,almo/ ! entire congregation 7 pres5t4444 ,?us1 de> si/]1 ,i h giv5 y a brief acc\nt ( ! solemn b peaceful w9d+ up ( :at has be5 to me a %>p & long trial1 & ,i "k to y\rself & family also4 ,9 et]nity we %all m cle>ly read ! lesson :i* ev5 n[1 9 ! light ( op5+ sc5es1 we are beg9n+ to int]pret4 #a ,ri*>d ,h4 ,dana1 ! poet4 #b ,! article ref]r$ to appe>$ 9 ,! ,biblical ,repository & ,qu>t]ly ,obs]v] = ,janu>y1 #ahce4 ,vol ,v41 pp4 #a-cb4 ,x is entitl$1 ,:at =m ( ,law is be/ suit$ to ! individual & social nature ( man8 #c ,mr4 ,ralph ,waldo ,em]son4 #d ,! article appe>$ 9 ! ,new ,york ,review = ,july1 #ahci4 #e ,"s passages f ! little di>ies ref]r$ to1 toge!r ) fur!r extracts f h] lit]>y j\rnal1 w be f\nd 9 app5dix ,d1 p4 #eda4 #f ,! ,proclamation ( ,emancipation4 #g ,by ,anna ,w>n]4 #h ,by h] fri5d1 ,mrs4 ,fr$]ick ,g4 ,burnham4 #i ,! ,little ,corporal4 #aj ,at ,fr$]icksburg4 #aa ,ref]r+ to ! sudd5 dea? ( a "y niece ( ,mrs4 ,s4 #ab ,?is 0 writt5 be=e ! assass9ation ( ,presid5t ,g>field4 #ac ,! ,rhapsody1 ref]r$ to by ,mr4 ,butl] 0 pres]v$ by a "y lady ( ! p>ty1 & w be f\nd 9 app5dix ,e1 p4 #eee4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,,! ,,pa/or',s ,,wife ,,& ,,daught] ,,( ,,consolation4 #ahff-ahfh4 ,i4 ,happ9ess z a ,pa/or's ,wife4 ,visits to ,newport & ,william/[n ,lett]s4 ,! great ,portl& ,fire4 ,fir/ ,summ] at ,dorset4 ,! new ,p>sonage occupi$4 ,second ,summ] at ,dorset4 ,little ,l\'s ,say+s & ,do+s4 ,project ( a ,cottage4 ,lett]s4 ,! ,little ,prea*]4 ,illness & ,dea? ( ,mrs4 ,edw>d ,payson & ( ,little ,francis4 ,we n[ ent] ^u ! mo/ int]e/+ & happie/ p]iod ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss's exp]i5ce z a pa/or's wife4 ,! congregation ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant _h be5 sl[ly =m+ 9 tr\bl\s times2 x 0 compos$ ( cong5ial elem5ts1 be+ ( "o he>t & "o m9d2 "s ( ! mo/ cultivat$ families & family-circles 9 ,new ,york belong$ to x2 & ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 mu* belov$ 9 !m all4 ,:at a help-meet %e 0 to h] husb& & ) :at zeal & delight %e fulfill$ h] (fice1 especially t ( a daught] ( consolation1 among 8 p1 w soon appe>4 ,h[ ignorant we (t5 are1 at ! "t1 ( ! turn+-po9ts 9 our life6 ,we inquire = a summ] bo>d+-place & decide ^u x )\t any ?\ght beyond ! few weeks = :i* x 0 engag$2 & yet1 p]haps1 our :ole e>?ly future or t ( ^? mo/ de> to u1 is to be vitally affect$ by ?is seem+ly trifl+ decision4 ,s x happ5$ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 9 #ahff4 ,e>ly 9 ,may h] husb& & 8 bro!r-9-law1 ,dr4 ,/e>ns1 w5t1 at a v5ture1 to ,dorset1 ,vt41 & !re secur$ rooms = _! families dur+ ! summ]4 ,b little did ei!r %e1 or !y1 dream t ,dorset 0 to be h5ce=? h] summ] home & h] re/+-place 9 dea?6 #a ,! ,portl& fire1 to :i* ref]5ce is made 9 ! foll[+ lett]s1 occurr$ on ! #d? ( ,july1 & consum$ a l>ge portion ( ! city4 ,to ,miss ,m>y ,b4 ,%ipman1 ,dorset1 ,july #be1 #ahff4 ,nev] 9 my life did ,i live ?r\gh su* a spr+ & e>ly summ] z ?is6 ,z to bus9ess & bu/le1 ,i mean4 ,y mu/ h giv5 me up z a lo/ case6 ,b ,i h ?\ght ( y e day & long$ to he> h[ y 7 gett+ on1 & :e!r y liv$ ?r\gh t dreadful wea!r4 ,annie w5t ) ! *ildr5 to ,william/[n ab\t ! middle ( ,june2 ,i ne>ly kill$ myself ) gett+ !m ready to g & c\ld see ! fle% drop (f my bones4 ,george & ,i w5t to ,newport on :at ,mrs4 ,bronson call$ our bridal trip1 & /ay$ elev5 days4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,mc,curdy 7 k9dness p]sonifi$4 ,we came home & prea*$ on ! fir/ ,sunday 9 ,july1 & !n w5t to ,gre5field ,hill to sp5d ! ,f\r? ) ,mrs4 ,bronson4 #b ,t ne>ly f9i%$ me1 & !n ,i w5t to ,william/[n on t hot ,friday & 0 q f9i%$ on rea*+ !re1 to he> ab\t ! fire 9 ,portl&4 ,did y ev] he> ( any?+ s dreadful8 ,i did n "k = sev]al days b ,h4 & ,c4 7 burnt out ( h\se & home2 mo/ ( my o!r fri5ds ,i knew 71 & c !re be any calamity l be+ left nak$1 hungry & homeless1 ev]y?+ gone =ev]4444 ,b let no "o say a ^w t has a ro( ov] 8 head4 ,all my fa!r's s]mons 7 burn$1 ! h\se :]e mo/ ( u 7 born1 8 *ur*1 etc4 ,fancy ,new ,hav5 /ripp$ ( its %ade-trees1 & y c =m "s idea ( ! loss ( ,portl& 9 t respect4 ,well1 ,i might g on talk+ =ev]1 & n h said any?+4 #c ,! heat upset ,g4 & we h be5 fight+ (f sickness = a week1 ,i gett+ wild ) loss ( sleep4 ,we are en*ant$ ) ,dorset4 ,we are s ne> ! woods & m\nta9s t we g e day & sp5d h\rs w&]+ ab\t among !m4 ,if !re is any diff]5ce1 ,i ?9k ?is place ev5 m beautiful ?an ,william/[n2 x suits u bett] z a summ] retreat1 f its great seclusion4 ,i am1 t is we are1 mean en\gh to want to keep x z quiet & seclud$ z x is n[1 by n lett+ p "k h[ nice x is2 a v few fa%ionably dress$ p w\ld j spoil x = u4 ,s keep our c\nsel1 y de> *ild4 ,a few days lat] %e writes to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 !n 9 ,europe3 ,on ! six?1 a day ( fe>ful heat1 ,i w5t to ,william/[n1 :]e ,i f\nd all ! *ildr5 z well z possible1 b he>d ! news ( ! ,portl& fire :i* almo/ kill$ me4 ,all my fa!r's manuscripts are de/roy$2 we always meant to divide !m among u & ought to h done x long ago4 ,i he>d ( any numb] ( injudici\s babies z tak+ ! inopportune day succe$+ ! fire to ent] on ! sc5e ( desolation2 all born 9 t5ts4 ,i am sorry my *ildr5 w nev] see my fa!r's *ur*1 nor ! h\se :]e ,i 0 born2 b private griefs are no?+ :5 comp>$ ) a calamity t is s appall+ & t mu/ s5d _m a he>t homeless & a*+ to ! grave4 ,i sp5t two weeks at ,william/[n1 :5 ,george came = me1 & ! wea!r cool+ (f1 we _h a com=table j\rney "h4 ,we are p]fectly delight$ ) ,dorset2 ! sweet seclusion is mo/ soo?+1 & ! h\se is v pleasant4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,f4 are intellig5t1 agreeable p1 & d all !y c to make u com=table4 ,! m\nta9s are s ne> t ,i he> ! cr[s caw+ 9 ! trees4 ,we are mak+ pretty ?+s & press+ an unhe>d-( quantity ( f]ns4 ,we g to ! woods regul>ly e morn+ & /ay ! :ole =5oon4 ,9 ! aft]noon we re/1 read1 write1 etc42 sometimes we drive & always aft] tea ,george walks ) me ab\t two miles4 ,i hope ! w> is n imp$+ y\r movem5ts4 ,i suppose y w call ?is a %ort lett]1 b ,i ?9k x is z long z is good = y4 ,all my de> n9e p\nds ga9$ at ,newburgh h gone by ! bo>d4 ,augu/ #bj?4--,i am sorry y _h su* hot wea!r 9 ,p>is1 b hope x pass$ (f z our heat did4 ,dr4 ,haml9's two y\nge/ daught]s h be5 "h1 & came to see me2 !y are bo? int]e/+ girls1 & ! eld] ( ! two really brilliant4 ,!y _h nev] be5 "h be=e1 & 7 c>ri$ away ) ! beauties ( _! "m's bir?place4 ,i wi% y c\ld see my room4 ,e pretty ?+ gr[s "h & has come to *e] & beautify x4 ,! woods are ev]y:]e1 & z = ! views1 oh my *ild6 ,h[ev]1 ,i d n suppose any?+ %ort ( ,mt4 ,blanc w suit y n[4 ,9 ,april1 #ahfg1 ! p>sonage on ,?irty-fif? /reet 0 occupi$4 ,x _h be5 built m especially = h] sake1 & 0 furni%$ by ! g5]osity ( h] fri5ds4 ,h] joy 9 ent]+ x 0 complet$ by a h\se-w>m+1 at ! close ( :i* a passage ( ,scripture 0 read by ,pr(4 ,smi?1 ,all hail ! p[] ( ,jesus's "n sung1 & !n ! bless+ ( ,heav5 invok$ ^u ! new home by t holy man ( ,god1 ,dr4 ,?omas ,h4 ,sk9n]4 ,"h %e pass$ ! next six ye>s ( h] life4 ,"h %e wrote ! l>g] portion ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,& "h ! cup ( h] dome/ic joy1 & ( joy 9 h] ,god & ,savi\r (t5 ran ov]4 ,"h1 too1 "s ( h] de>e/ ,*ri/ian fri5d%ips 7 =m$ & enjoy$4 ,! summ] ( #ahfg 0 pass$ at ,dorset4 ,9 less ?an a mon? ( x %e wrote "o ( h] be/ *ildr5's books1 ,little ,l\'s ,say+s & ,do+s2 & mu* ( ! rema9d] 0 sp5t 9 discuss+ ) h] husb& ! project ( build+ a cottage ( _! own4 ,9 a lett] to h] c\s91 ,miss ,%ipman1 dat$ ,sept4 #ba1 %e writes3 ,we h _h our heads full all summ]1 ( build+ a little cottage "h4 ,we are hav+ a plan made1 & h ab\t fix$ on a lot4 ,we are r tir$ ( bo>d+2 ,george hates x1 & ,dorset suits u z well1 ,i presume1 z any village w\ld4 ,x is a lovely spot1 & ! p are z intellig5t z 9 o!r p>ts ( ,new ,engl&4 ,! ,pr(essor is disappo9t$ at our *oos+ ?is r ?an ,william/[n1 b x w\ld be no re/ to u to g !re4 ,we h n decid$ to build2 x may turn out too exp5sive2 b we h tak5 lots ( com=t 9 talk+ ab\t x4 ,we h be5 on sev]al excursions1 "o ( !m to ! top ( ,equ9ox4 ,x is a h>d trip1 fully six miles walk+ & climb+4 ,i h amus$ myself ) writ+ "s little books ( ! ,susy sort3 f\r 9 less ?an a mon?1 ,a4's sickness tak+ a good piece ( "t out ( t p]iod4 ,!y are to appe>1 or a "p ( !m1 9 ! ,riv]side next w9t]1 & !n to be issu$ 9 book-=m by ,hurd & ,h\ghton4 ,?is w a good deal m ?an furni% our cottage & :at trees & %rubs we want1 s t ,i feel ju/ifi$ 9 und]tak+ t exp5se4 ,we _h two weeks at ,newport be=e we came "h1 & ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,mc,curdy ov]:elm$ u ) k9dness1 pay+ our travel+ exp5ses1 etc41 & keep+ up "o /eady /ream ( su* favors ! :ole "t4 ,i nev] saw su* p4 ,h[ delightful x mu/ be to be able to express su* b5evol5ce6 ,well2 y & ,i c be fai?ful 9 t :i* is lea/1 at any rate4 ,we h all _h pl5ty to read all summ]1 & h sat out ( doors & read a good deal4 ,i am go+ n[ to c>ry a little wrea? to a mission>y's wife :o is sp5d+ ! summ] "h2 a nice little woman2 ?is w give me a ?ree miles walk & ab\t use up ! re/ ( ! =5oon4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i h promis$ to g to ! woods ) ! *ildr51 all ( :om are z br[n z ,indians4 ,my room is all aflame ) two great trees ( maple2 ,i nev] saw su* a beautiful velvety color z !y h4 ,we h j _h a v pleasant excursion to a m\nta9 call$ ,hay/ack1 & ate our d9n] sitt+ r\nd 9 ! grass 9 view ( a spl5did prospect4444 ,i h ?us giv5 y ! hi/ory ( our summ]1 z f> z its hi/ory c be writt54 ,its ec/atic joys h n be5 want+1 nor its h\rs ( %ame & confusion ( face2 b ^! are ?+s t c n be describ$4 ,:at a my/]y life is1 & h[ we g up & d[n1 glad to-day & sorr[ful to-morr[6 ,i took real solid com=t ?9k+ ( y & pray+ = y ?is morn+4 ,i love y de>ly & always %all4 ,good-bye1 de> *ild4 ,! f\r little books af=d a good illu/ration ( ! ease & rapidity ) :i* %e compos$4 ,:5 once %e _h fix$ ^u a subject1 h] p5 almo/ flew ov] ! pap]4 ,sc>cely ev] did %e hesitate = a ?\ght or = ! "r words to express x4 ,h] manuscript r>ely %[$ an erasure or any *ange :atev]4 ,%e g5]ally wrote on a portfolio1 hold+ x ^u h] knees4 ,h] p5 seem$ to be a v]itable "p ( h]self2 & ! in/ant x began to move1 h] face gl[$ ) eag] & pleasurable feel+4 ,a kitt5 7%e wrote to a maid5 fri5d7 a kitt5 )\t a tail to play )1 a m>9] )\t a compass1 a bird )\t w+s1 a woman )\t a husb& 7& fifty-five at t67 furni% fa9t images ( ! desolation ( my he>t )\t a p54 ,b al?\gh %e wrote v fa/1 %e nev] began to write )\t c>eful /udy & prem$itation :5 h] subject requir$ x4 ,ab\t ?is "t ,! ,little ,prea*] appe>$4 ,! sc5e ( ! /ory is laid 9 ! ,black ,=e/4 ,be=e writ+ x %e sp5t a good deal ( "t 9 ! ,a/or ,libr>y1 read+ ab\t peasant life 9 ,g]many4 ,9 a lett] f a lit]>y fri5d ?is little "w is ?us ref]r$ to3 ,i want to tell y :at a ,g]man g5tleman said to me ! o!r day ab\t y\r ,little ,prea*]4 ,he 0 talk+ ) me ( ,g]man peasant life1 & inquir$ if ,i _h read y\r *>m+ /ory4 ,he 0 delight$ to f9d ,i knew y1 & exclaim$ en?usia/ically3 ,i wi% ,i knew h]6 ,i w\ld s l to ?ank h] = h] p]fect picture4 ,x is a miracle ( g5ius1 he add$1 to be able ?us to portray ! life ( a =eign p4 ,he is v intellig5t1 & s ,i "k y w be pleas$ ) 8 appreciation ( y\r book4 ,he said if he 7 n s poor1 he w\ld buy a :ole edition ( ! ,little ,prea*] to give to 8 fri5ds4 ,dur+ ! autumn ( ?is ye> h] si/]-9-law1 ,mrs4 ,edw>d ,payson1 di$ aft] a l+]+1 pa9ful illness4 ,! foll[+ lett]1 dat$ ,octob] #bh1 0 writt5 to h] %ortly be=e h] dep>ture3 ,i h be5 s engross$ ) sympa?y = ,edw>d & y\r *ildr51 t ,i h b j begun to realise t y are ab\t ent]+ on a /ate ( felicity :i* ought1 = ! "t1 to make me =get !m4 ,de> ,nelly1 ,i congratulate y ) all my he>t4 ,d n let ! ?\ght ( :at ^? :o love y mu/ suff] 9 y\r loss1 dim9i% ! peace & joy ) :i* ,god n[ calls y to ?9k only ( ,himself & ! home ,he has prep>$ = y4 ,try to leave !m to ,8 k9d1 t5d] c>e4 ,he loves !m bett] ?an y d2 ,he c be to !m m ?an y h be52 ,he w he> y\r pray]s & all ! pray]s (f]$ = !m1 & z "o :om 8 "m com=te?1 s w ,he com=t !m4 ,we1 :o %all be left "h )\t y1 c n conceive ! joys on :i* y are to ent]1 b we "k en\gh to g ) y to ! v gates ( ! city1 long+ to ent] 9 ) y to g no m out4 ,all y\r te>s w soon be wip$ away2 y w see ! ,k+ 9 ,8 beauty2 y w see ,*ri/ y\r ,r$eem] & realise all ,he is & all ,he has done = y2 & h[ _m sa9ts :om y h lov$ on e>? w be /&+ ready to seize y by ! h& & welcome y among !m6 ,z ,i ?9k ( ^! ?+s my s\l is 9 ha/e to be gone2 ,i long to be set free f s9 & self & to g to ! fell[%ip ( ^? :o h done ) !m =ev]1 & are p]fect & entire1 want+ no?+4 ,de> ,nelly1 ,i pray t y may h z easy a j\rney homew>d z y\r ,fa!r's love & compassion c make = y2 b ^! suff]+s at ! wor/ c n la/ long1 & !y are only ! mess5g]s s5t to loos5 y\r la/ tie on e>?1 & conduct y to ! sweete/ re/4 ,b ,i d>e n write m le/ ,i we>y y\r poor worn frame ) words4 ,may ! v ,god ( peace be ) y e mom5t1 ev5 unto ! end1 & keep y\r he>t & m9d /ay$ ^u ,him6 ,mrs4 ,payson _h be5 an intimate fri5d ( h] *ildhood1 & 0 ende>$ to h] by uncommon lovel9ess & excell5ce ( "*4 ,! b]eav$ husb&1 ) 8 little boy1 pass$ a portion ( ! ensu+ w9t] at ! p>sonage 9 ,new ,york4 ,!re 0 some?+ ab\t ! *ild1 a sweetness & a cl++1 almo/ wild1 devotion to 8 fa!r1 :i*1 toge!r ) 8 mo!rless /ate1 t\*$ 8 aunt to ! quick & call$ =? h] t5d]e/ love4 ,_m a page ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d 0 writt5 ) ?is *ild 9 h] arms2 & p]haps t is "o secret ( its p[]4 ,:51 n v long aft]w>ds1 he w5t to 8 "m1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss wrote to ! fa!r3 ,only ?is morn+ ,i 0 try+ to inv5t "s way ( fram+ my little picture ( ,francis1 s z to see x e day be=e my eyes4 ,& n[ ?is ev5+'s mail br+s y\r lett]1 & ,i am try+ to believe :at x says is true4 ,if grief & pa9 c\ld com=t y1 y w\ld be com=t$2 we all lov$ ,francis1 & ,a4 has always said he 0 too lovely to live4 ,h[ are y go+ to be> ?is new bl[8 ,my he>t a*es z x asks ! "q1 a*es & trembles = y4 ,b p]haps y lov$ him s1 t y w come to be will+ to h him 9 8 de> "m's safe keep+2 w be> y\r own pa9 9 future because ?r\gh y\r angui% y\r lamb is %elt]$ =ev]1 to "k no m pa91 to suff] no m = lack ( womanly c>e1 & is already develop+ into ! r>e "* :i* made him s preci\s to y4 ,oh d try to rejoice = him :ile y c n b m\rn = y\rself4 ,at ! longe/ y w n h long to suff]2 we are a %ort-liv$ race4 ,b :ile ,i write ,i feel t ,i want "s "o to speak a com=t+ ^w to me2 ,i too am b]eav$ 9 ! dea? ( ?is preci\s *ild1 & my sympa?y = y is 9 itself a pang4 ,de> little lamb6 ,i c n realise t ,i %all nev] see t sweet face aga9 9 ?is _w2 b ,i %all see x 9 heav54 ,god bless & com=t y1 my de> afflict$ bro!r4 ,i d>e n we>y y ) words :i* all seem a mock]y2 ,i c only assure y ( my t5d]e/ love & sympa?y1 & t we all feel ) & = y z only ^? c :o "k :at ?is *ild 0 to y4 ,i am go+ to b$ ) an a*+ he>t1 pray+ t light may spr+ out ( ?is d>kness4 ,give love f u all to ,n$ & ,w4 ,p]haps ,n$ w k9dly write me if y feel t y c n1 & tell me all ab\t ! de> *ild's illness4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,la/ ,visit f ,mrs4 ,/e>ns4 ,visits to old ,fri5ds at ,newport & ,ro*e/]4 ,lett]s4 ,goes to ,dorset4 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me4 ,lett]s4 ,! life ( a pa/or's wife is pass$ 9 ! mid/ ( m+l$ gladness & sorr[4 ,:ile somebody is always rejoic+1 somebody1 too1 is always sick or dy+1 or else weep+4 ,h[ (t5 %e goes ) h] husb& f ! w$d+ to ! fun]al1 or hurries ) him f ! fun]al to ! w$d+4 ,& !n1 p]haps1 9 h] own family circle ! same process is repeat$4 ,! ye> #ahfh 0 m>k$ = ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 9 an unusual degree by ! sorr[ful exp]i5ce4 ,! latt] "p ( ,may ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 !n suff]+ f an exhau/+ disease1 came to ,new ,york & sp5t sev]al weeks 9 hopes ( f9d+ "s relief f *ange ( sc5e4 ,b h] case grew m al>m+2 %e pass$ ! summ] at ,cornwall on ! ,hudson 9 great pa9 & feebl5ess1 & 0 !n c>ri$ home to lie d[n on h] dy+ b$4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,newport1 ,july #g1 #ahfh4 ,we _h a dreadful "t gett+ "h2 ,i did n sleep a w9k2 !re 7 #a1bej pass5g]s on bo>d1 almo/ pil$ on ea* o!r1 & su* scream+ ( babies x w\ld be h>d to equal4 ,!re are lots ( p "h we "k2 ev] s _m /opp$ to speak to u aft] *ur*4 ,we are 9 ! mid/ ( a p]fect _w ( %[ & glitt]4 ,b h[ _m empty he>ts drive up & d[n 9 ?is gay procession ( weal? & fa%ion6 ,i %all ?9k ( y a good deal to-day1 z sett+ =? on y\r j\rney & rea*+ y\r new home4 ,i d hope y w f9d x refre%+ to g up ! riv]1 & t y\r rooms w be pleasant & airy4 ,we %all be anxi\s to he> all ab\t x4 ,x is a con/ant lesson to be ) ,mrs4 ,mc,curdy4 ,i ?9k %e is a true ,*ri/ian 9 all h] views ( life & dea?4 ,h] sweet pati5ce1 *e]fulness & cont5tm5t are a cont9ual repro( to me4 ,"h %e is s lame t %e c g n[h]e--a lam5ess ( ov] tw5ty ye>s--re/rict$ to ! pla9e/ food1 liable to die at any mom5t1 yet ! v happie/1 sunnie/ creature ,i ev] saw4 ,%e says1 ) te>s1 t ,god has be5 too good to h] & giv5 h] too mu*2 t %e sometimes fe>s ,he does n love h] because ,he gives h] su* prosp]ity4 ,i rem9d$ h] ( ! f\r lovely *ildr5 %e _h lo/4 ,yes1 %e says1 b h[ _m lovely ones ,i h left6 ,%e says t ! long h\rs %e has to sp5d alone1 on acc\nt ( h] physical infirmities1 are nev] lonely or sad2 %e s+s hymns & ?9ks ov] to h]self all ! pleasures %e has enjoy$ 9 ! pa/1 9 h] husb& & *ildr5 & devot$ s]vants4 ,%e goes up to b$ s++1 & ,i he> h] s++ :ile %e dresses4 ,%e said1 ! o!r day1 t at h] fun]al %e hop$ ! only s]vices w\ld be pray]s & hymns ( praise4 ,i ?9k ?is v rem>kable f "o :o enjoys life z %e does4 #d ,to ! ,same1 ,newport1 ,july #bj4 ,george & ,i w5t to ,ro*e/]1 tak+ ,m4 ) u1 la/ ,w$nesday & got back ,friday night4 ,we _h "o ( ^? visits t make a m>k 9 "o's life2 see+ ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 & ,mrs4 ,r&all1 & ,miss ,deborah1 #e s fond ( u1 & all toge!r we 7 /irr$ up z we r>ely are1 & refre%$ beyond description4 ,we r[$ on ,mr4 ,leon>d's beautiful1 nameless lake1 fi%$1 ga!r$ wat]-lilies1 ate black ,hamburg grapes & broil$ *ick5s1 & wi%$ y _h !m 9 our place4 ,mr4 ,l4's "m is a sweet1 calm old lady1 ) :om ,i want$ to h a talk ab\t ,*ri/ian p]fection1 9 :i* %e believes2 b !re 0 no "t4 ,x 0 a great re/ to unb5d ! b[ /rung s high "h at ,newport1 :]e !re is s mu* ( receiv+ & pay+ visits4 ,i h be5 read+ a delightful ,fr5* book1 ! hi/ory ( a sa9tly ,ca?olic family ( great tal5t & culture1 six ( :om1 9 ! c\rse ( sev5 ye>s1 di$ ! mo/ beautiful1 happy dea?s4 ,i am go+ to make an ab/ract ( x1 = ,i want ev]ybody ,i love to get ! cream ( x4 ,y w\ld enjoy x2 ,i d n "k :e!r x has be5 translat$4 ,to ! ,same1 ,dorset1 ,july #bf4 ,"h beg9s my fir/ lett] to y f y\r old room1 :5ce ,i hope to write y regul>ly e week4 ,t is ! "o only little ?+ ,i c d to %[ h[ truly & con/antly ,i sympa?ise ) y 9 y\r sore /raits4 ,x di/resses me to he> h[ mu* y are suff]+1 & at ! same "t n to be ne> en\gh to speak a ^w ( good *e]1 or to d any?+ = y\r com=t4 ,x grieves me to f9d h[ insecure my heal? is1 = ,i _h promis$ to myself to be y\r lov+ nurse1 %\ld any turn 9 y\r disease make x desirable4 ,miss ,lyman bo>ds "h1 b rooms at ! ,sykes'1 & h] fri5d ,miss ,w>n] is also "h1 b rooms out4 ,miss ,w4 is 9 delicate heal?1 takes no tea or c(fee1 & is full ( humor4 ,we h run at & run ^u ea* o!r1 ea* try+ to get ! measure ( ! o!r1 & %all probably end 9 becom+ v good fri5ds4 ,x is a spl5did day1 & we feel p]fectly at home1 only miss+ y & f9d+ x que] to be occupy+ y\r room4 ,:at a nice room x is6 ,h[ ,i wi% y 7 sitt+ "h ) me beh9d ! %ade ( ^! maple trees1 & t ,i c\ld "k f y\r own lips j h[ y are 9 body & m9d4 ,b ,i suppose ! we>y1 a*+ body has ! s\l pretty well en*a9$4 ,nev] m9d1 de>1 x won't be s always2 by & by ! tables w be turn$1 & y w be ! conqu]or4 ,i l to ?9k t f> less ?an a hundr$ ye>s h5ce we %all all be free f ! law ( s9 & dea?1 & happi] 9 "o mom5t ( our new exi/5ce1 ?an ?r\gh a :ole life-"t "h4 ,re/ mu/ & w come1 soon] or lat]1 to y & to me & to all ( u1 & x w be glori\s4 ,y may h se5 a notice ( ! dea? ( ,pr(4 ,hopk9s' "m at ! age ( n9ety-five4 ,b = ?is t]ribly hot wea!r1 ,i presume %e might h liv$ to be "o hundr$4 ,i %all n write y su* a long lett] aga91 z x w tire y1 & if y w\ld r h two %ort ones a week1 ,i w d t4 ,let me "k if ,i tire y4 ,n[ good-bye1 de> *ild2 may ,god bless & keep y & give y all ! fai? & pati5ce y ne$4 ,to ,miss ,m>y ,b4 ,%ipman1 ,dorset1 ,aug4 #b1 #ahfh4 ,we sp5t r m ?an two weeks at ,newport1 tak+ two or ?ree days to run to ,ro*e/]1 ,mass41 to see "s ( our old ,new ,b$=d fri5ds4 ,we _h a *>m+ "t ) !m1 z !y took u up j :]e !y left u ne>ly tw5ty ye>s ago4 ,oh1 h[ our tongues did fly6 ,we left ,newport = home on ,tuesday night ab\t two weeks ago4 ,i w5t on bo>d & w5t to b$ z well z usual1 toss$ & turn$ a few h\rs1 grew fa9t & began to be sick1 z ,i always am n[ if ,i lose my sleep2 got out ( b$ & c\ld n get back aga91 & s lay on ! floor all ! re/ ( ! night )\t a pill[1 or any?+ ov] me & ne>ly froz54 ,! boys 7 asleep1 & anyh[ x nev] cross$ my m9d to let !m call ,george1 :o 0 9 ano!r /ate-room4 ,he says t :5 he came 91 9 ! morn+1 ,i look$ z if ,i _h be5 ill six mon?s1 & ,i am sure ,i felt s4 ,imag9e ! family picture we pres5t$ driv+ f ! boat all ! way home1 ,george rubb+ me ) cologne1 ,a4 fann+ me1 ! re/ cry+6 ,on ,saturday m dead ?an alive ,i />t$ = ?is place1 & by /opp+ at ,troy f\r or five h\rs1 gett+ a room & a b$1 ,i got "h )\t mu* damage4 ,our h\se is v pretty1 & ,i suppose x w be done by next ye>4 ,oh1 h[ !y d poke6 ,george is s happy 9 wat*+ x1 & 9 work+ 9 8 woods1 t ,i am p]fectly delight$ t he has und]tak5 ?is project4 ,x may add ye>s to 8 life4 ,imag9e my surprise at receiv+ f ,scribn] a *eck = "o hundr$ & sixty-f\r doll>s = six mon?s ( ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me4 ,! little ?+ has done well1 hasn't x8 ,i feel n[ z if ,i %\ld nev] write1 any m2 lett]-writ+ is only talk+ & is an amusem5t1 b book-writ+ looks =midable4 ,excuse ?is horrid lett]1 & write & let me "k h[ y are4 ,mean:ile collect grasses1 dip !m 9 hot wat]1 & sift fl\r ov] !m4 ,good-bye1 de>4 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me fir/ appe>$ anonym\sly 9 ! ,h\rs at ,home1 9 #ahfe4 ,x _h be5 writt5 sev]al ye>s be=e1 &1 )\t ! k ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 0 (f]$ by a fri5d to :om %e _h l5t ! manuscript1 to ! ,atlantic ,mon?ly & to "o or two o!r magaz9es1 b !y all decl9$ x4 ,%e h]self ?us ref]s to x 9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,july #ac3 ,i h j got hold ( ! ,h\rs at ,home4 ,i read my article & 0 disgu/$ ) x4 ,my pride fell bel[ z]o1 & ,i wi% x w\ld /ay !re4 ,b ! /ory attract$ in/ant att5tion4 ,aunt ,av]y 0 especially admir$1 z depict+ a v qua9t & int]e/+ type ( ,new ,engl& religi\s "* 9 ! e>li] half ( ! c5tury4 ,su* m5 z ! late ,dr4 ,horace ,bu%nell & ,dr4 ,william ,adams 7 un/9t$ 9 _! praise4 ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 dat$ a few mon?s lat]1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss writes3 ,poor old ,aunt ,av]y6 ,%e doesn't "k :at to make ( x t folks make s mu* ( h]1 & has to keep wip+ h] spectacles4 ,i feel entirely indebt$ to y = ?is ?+ ev] see+ ! light4 ,:5 publi%$ z a book1 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me 0 receiv$ ) great favor1 & _h a wide circulation4 ,9 #ahgd a ,g]man translation appe>$4 #f ,al?\gh no attempt is made to reproduce ! ,yankee idioms1 mu* ( ! peculi> _s & flavor ( ! orig9al is pres]v$ 9 ?is v]sion4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h4 ,b4 ,smi?1 ,dorset1 ,augu/ #d1 #ahfh4 ,miss ,lyman says ,i h no idea ( :at ,miss ,w4 really is2 %e looks z if %e w\ld drop to pieces1 c n drive out1 f> less walk1 & e ^w %e speaks co/s h] an ef=t4 ,miss ,lyman is n well ei!r2 & :at ) _! heal? & m9e1 & ,a4's1 ,i see little ( !m4 ,b :at ,i d see is delightful1 & ,i feel x to be a real privilege to get :at scraps ( _! society ,i c4 ,our h\se proves to be f> pretti] & m ta/eful ?an ,i suppos$4 ,i am writ+ up lots ( lett]s1 & if ,i ev] get well en\gh1 %all try to beg9 on my ,katy once m4 ,b s9ce read+ ! ,rcit d'une ,soeur1 ,i am disgu/$ ) myself & my writ+s4 ,i a*e to h y read x4 ,miss ,lyman & ,miss ,w>n] s5d love to y4 ,i d n l ,miss ,l4's hack+ c\gh1 & %e says %e does n believe ,miss ,w4 w live ?r\gh ! w9t]4 ,among u we contrive to keep up a va/ am\nt ( laught]2 s we %all probably live =ev]4 ,augu/ #ah?4--,i h enjoy$ ,miss ,lyman wond]fully1 b want to get ne>] to h]4 ,i see t %e is "o :o does n f9d x easy to express h] deepe/ & mo/ sacr$ feel+s4 ,i read ,katy to h] & ,miss ,w41 z !y 7 k9d en\gh to propose ,i %\ld1 & !y made "s valuable sugge/ions to :i* ,i %all att5d if ,i ev] get to feel+ able to beg9 to write aga94 ,i am z well z ev] save 9 "o respect1 & t is my sleep2 ,i d n sleep z ,i did be=e ,i left home1 :ile ,i ought to sleep bett]1 z ,i "w sev]al h\rs a day 9 ! woods1 9 fact d almo/ lit]ally no?+ else4444 ,b aft] all1 we are hav+ ! nice/ "t 9 ! _w4 ,i h n se5 ,george s l himself = _m ye>s2 he lives out ( doors1 pulls d[n f5ces1 picks up bru%wood1 & keeps happy & well4 ,i feel x a real m]cy t 8 ?\ghts are agreeably occupi$ ?is summ]1 z o!rwise he w\ld be incessantly worri$ ab\t ,anna4 ,we "w toge!r a good deal2 ?is morn+ ,i spoil$ a new hat*et 9 cutt+ d[n milkwe$ :]e our kit*5 g>d5 is to be & we are lit]ally rais+ our ,eb5ez]1 :i* we mean to conceal ) v9es 9 due season4 ,george is j z pr\d ( our woods z if he creat$ e tree himself4 ,! m9ute breakfa/ is ov] ! boys d>t d[n to ! h\se l arr[s f ! b[1 & !re !y are till d9n]1 aft] :i* !re is ano!r d>t & x is z mu* z ,i c d to get !m to b$2 ,i wond] !y don't sleep d[n !re on ! %av+s4 ,! fact is ! :ole ,pr5tiss family has got h\se on ! bra94 ,!re1 ?is old lett] is done1 & ,i am go+ to b$1 all black & blue :]e ,i h tumbl$ d[n1 & z tir$ z tir$ c be4 ,aug4 #bh?4--,i made a fire 9 ,,my woods ye/]day1 & ano!r to-day1 :5 ,i melt$ glue1 & work$ at my ru/ic basket1 & felt extremely happy & amiable4 ,sept4 #ac?4--,miss ,w>n] told me to-night t %e ?\ght my ,katy /ory commonplace at ! beg9n+1 b t %e *ang$ h] m9d aft]w>d4 ,( c\rse ,i wrote a /ory ab\t t m>igold ( ,g---- ,w----'s & ,i am dy+ to inflict x on y4 ,!n if y l x1 hurrah6 ,to ,miss ,woolsey1 ,dorset1 ,aug4 #ac1 #ahfh4 ,i 0 "r glad to get y\r lett] ye/]day1 & to le>n a little ( y\r :]eab\ts & :atab\ts4 ,y may imag9e him z seat$1 spectacles on nose1 read+ ,! ,nation at "o end ( ! table1 & h] z e/abli%$ at ! o!r4 ,?is table is homely1 b has a lit]>y look1 got up to give an air to our room2 books & pap]s are arti/ically scatt]$ ov] x2 we h two bottles ( ink apiece1 & a box ( /amps1 a pap] cutt] & a p5-wip] betwe5 u4 ,two inevitable vases conta9+ f]ns1 grasses1 butt]cups1 etc41 rem9d u t we are 9 ! c\ntry1 & a natural bracket regales our augu/ noses ) an odor ( its own4 ,a c ( pea*es )\t any pea*es 9 x1 holds a specim5 ( lycopodium1 & a m>vel\s lant]n t folds up into no?+ by day & gr[s big at night1 br+s up ! re>4 ,b ! mo/ wond]ful article 9 ?is room is a bookcase made by him1 all himself1 9 :i* may be se5 a big volume ( ,f5elon1 ,taylor's ,holy ,liv+ & ,dy+1 ! ,rcit d'une ,soeur1 :i* h y read8 ,les ,soires de ,sa9t ,pet]sb\rg1 ,pray]s ( ! ,ages1 a volume ( ,goe!1 ,ari/otle's ,e?ics & "s o!r ,greek books2 ! ,life ( ,mrs4 ,fry1 etc4 etc4 ,su* a que] hodge-podge ( books z we br\ght ) u1 & su* a book-case6 ,! fir/ ?+ he ev] made = h] 9 8 mortal life4 ,our h\se isn't done1 & :at fun to wat* x gr[1 to discuss its m]its & dem]its1 to grab e *eck t comes 9 f magaz9e & else:]e1 & turn x into *airs & tables & b$s & blankets6 ,!n = !m boys1 :at treasures 9 ! way ( bits ( bo>ds1 & :at feats ( climb+ & leap+6 ,above all1 ?9k ( him 9 an old bang$-9 hat1 & h] 9 a pat*$ old g[n1 ga!r+ bru%wood 9 _! woods1 mak+ x up into heaps1 & w>m+ !mselves by ! fires x is ago+ = to make4 ,/ick aft] /ick did ,goody pull6 ,mr4 ,p4 is unusually well4 ,8 h\se is ! apple ( 8 eye1 & he is r5ew+ 8 y\?4 ,?us f> ! project has done him a _w ( good4 ,to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns1 ,dorset1 ,septemb] #ac1 #ahfc4 ,ye/]day ,mr4 ,f4 & ,george drove some:]e to look at s& = mort>1 & ! horse took fright & :eel$ r\nd & pit*$ ,george out1 bruis+ him 9 sev]al places1 b do+ no s]i\s h>m4 ,b ,i %udd] :5 ,i ?9k h[ ! mean+ might be tak5 out ( ev]y?+ 9 ?is _w1 = me1 at lea/1 by su* an accid5t4 ,he prea*$ all day to-day2 9 ! aft]noon at ,rup]t4 ,i f9d my mission-s*ool a good deal ( a tax on "t & /r5g?1 & x is disc\rag+ bus9ess1 too4 ,"o ( ! boys1 f\rte5 ye>s old1 f\nd ! idea t ,god lov$ him s irresi/ibly ludicr\s1 t 8 face 0 a p]fect /udy4 ,i (t5 ?9k ( y z ^! active limbs ( m9e take me ov] woods & fields1 & rem9d myself t ! supreme happ9ess ( my fa!r's life came to him :5 he call$ himself :at y call y\rself--a cripple4 ,if x is n an exp5sive book1 ,i ?9k y _h bett] buy ,a ,si/]'s ,/ory1 ( :i* ,i wrote to y1 z x w\ld be a nice ,sunday book to la/ "s "t2 ! ,ca?olicism y w\ld n m9d1 & ! cultivat$1 high-ton$ ,*ri/ian "* y w\ld enjoy4 ,! boys compla91 z ,george & ,i d1 t ! days are n half long en\gh4 ,!y h got _! b$/eads & wa%/&s done1 & are n[ go+ to make c\*es = ,george & myself1 & an indef9ite numb] ( o!r articles4 ,sept4 #bj?4--,i am greatly reliev$1 my de> ,anna1 to he> t y h got safely into y\r new home1 & t y l x1 & long to see y face to face4 ,george has no d\bt told y :at a happy summ] we h _h4 ,x has n be5 unm+l$ happ9ess--t is n to be f\nd 9 ?is _w--b 9 _m ways x has be5 pleasant 9 spite ( :at infirmities ( ! fle% we c>ry ) u ev]y:]e1 our anxiety ab\t & sympa?y ) y1 & ! o!r c>es & solicitudes t are insep>able f humanity4 ,i _h a great deal ( com=t 9 see+ ,miss ,lyman :ile %e 0 "h1 & 9 kn[+ h] bett]1 & n[ ,i am f9d+ myself q 9 love ) h] intimate fri5d1 ,miss ,w>n]1 :o has be5 "h all summ]4 ,a g5tl]1 t5d]] _s c n exi/4 ,mrs4 ,f4's bro!r 0 "h ) 8 wife1 "s weeks ago1 & !y 7 summon$ home to ! dea?-b$ ( _! la/ surviv+ *ild4 ,mrs4 ,f4 read me a lett] ye/]day describ+ h] la/ h\rs1 :i* 7 really t\*+ & beautiful1 especially ! di/ribut+ among h] fri5ds ! v>i\s pretty ?+s %e _h made = !m dur+ h] illness1 z p>t+ gifts4 ,i suppose ?is w be my la/ lett] f ,dorset & f y\r old room4 ,well1 y & ,i h pass$ "s happy h\rs "u ?is ro(4 ,good-bye1 de>1 ) love to ea* & all ( y\r belov$ ones4 ,to ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,dorset1 ,sept4 #bg1 #ahfh4 ,i 0 s ne>ly frantic1 my de> ,fanny1 f want ( sleep1 t ,i c\ld n feel any?+4 ,i 0 p]fectly /upid1 & all ! way home f ,ea/ ,dorset h>dly spoke a ^w to my de> ,john1 nor did he to me4 #g ,! next day he said su* lovely ?+s to me t ,i h>dly knew :e!r ,i 0 9 ! body or out ( x1 & !n came y\r lett]1 z if to make my cup run ov]4 ,i long$ = y la/ night1 & x is lucky = y\r frail body t c be> s little1 t y 7 n 9 y\r little room at ,mrs4 ,g4's2 b n at all lucky = y\r he>t & s\l4 ,i hope ,god w bless u to ea* o!r4 ,x is n en\gh t we f9d 9 our mutual affection some?+ *e]+ & com=t+4 ,x mu/ make u m p]fectly ,84 ,:at a wond]ful ?+ x is t com+ "h entire /rang]s to ea* o!r1 we "p z if we _h kn[n ea* o!r half a c5tury6 ,i am n afraid t we %all get tir$ ( ea* o!r4 ,! great po9t ( union is t we h gone to our ,savi\r1 h& 9 h&1 on ! supreme err& ( life1 & h n come away empty4 ,all my m$itations br+ me back to t po9t2 or1 ,i %\ld r say1 to ,him4 ,i came "h pray+ t 9 "s way ,i might d some?+ = ,him4 ,! summ] has gone1 & ,i am griev$ t ,i h n be51 f its beg9n+ to its end1 s l ,him1 s full ( ,him1 z to con/ra9 ev]ybody ,i met to love ,him too4 ,isn't !re su* p[] 9 a holy life1 & h n "s liv$ su* a life8 ,i h>dly "k :e!r to rejoice mo/ 9 my love = ,him1 or to m\rn ov] my meagre love2 s ,i d bo?4 ,:5 ,i ?9k t ,i h a new fri5d1 :o w be indulg5t to my imp]fections1 & is det]m9$ to f9d some?+ 9 me to love1 ,i am glad & ?ankful4 ,b :51 add$ to t1 ,i "k %e w pray = me1 & s help my poor s\l heav5w>d1 x does seem z if ,god _h be5 too good to me4 ,y c d x ly+ d[n or sitt+ up1 or :5 y are among o!r fri5ds4 ,x is true1 z y say1 t ,i d n ?9k mu* ( ly+-d[n pray] 9 my own case1 b ,i h n a weak back & d n ne$ su* an attitude4 ,& ! pray+ we d by ! wayside1 9 c>s & /eamboats1 9 /reets & 9 cr[ds1 p]haps keeps u m ne> to ,*ri/ ?an long pray]s 9 solitude c\ld )\t ! help ( ^! little mess5g]s1 t h>dly ev] /op runn+ to ,him & com+ back ) ! grace e mom5t ne$s4 ,y c put me into "s ( ^! sil5t petitions :5 y are too tir$ to pray = me o!rwise4 ,i h be5 writ+ ?is 9 my %awl & bonnet1 expect+ e in/ant to he> ! bell toll = *ur*1 & n[ x is "t to g4 ,good-bye1 de>1 till by & by4 ,well1 ,i h be5 & come1 &--wond] ( wond]s6--,i h _h a little t9y bit ( a v mu* ne$$ nap4 ,mr4 ,pratt gave u a really good s]mon ab\t liv+ to ,*ri/1 & ,i enjoy$ ! hymns4 ,we h _h a talk1 my ,john & ,i1 ab\t dea?1 & ,i ask$ him :i* ( u _h bett] g fir/1 &1 to my surprise1 he said he ?\ght ,i %\ld4 ,i am sure t 0 noble & unselfi% 9 him4 ,b ,i am n go+ to h ev5 a wi% ab\t x4 ,god only kn[s :i* _h bett] g fir/1 & :i* /ay & suff]4 ,"s ( ,8 *ildr5 mu/ g into ! furnace to te/ify t ! ,son ( ,god is !re ) !m2 ,i d n "k :y ,i %\ld insi/ on n be+ "o ( !m4 ,sometimes ,i almo/ wi% we 7 n build+ a h\se4 ,x seems z if x might /& 9 ! way1 if x %\ld happ5 ,i _h a *ance to g to heav54 ,i %\ld almo/ feel mean to d t1 & disappo9t my husb& :o expects to see me s happy !re4 ,b oh1 ,i d s long to be p]fect$ myself1 & to live among ^? ^: "o ?\ght is ,*ri/1 & :o only speak to praise ,him6 ,i l y to tell me1 z y d 9 y\r ,ea/ ,dorset lett]1 h[ y sp5d y\r "t1 etc4 ,i h an insatiable curiosity ab\t ev5 ! out] life ( ^? ,i love2 & ( ! inn] "o y c n say too mu*4 ,good-bye4 ,we %all h pl5ty ( "t 9 heav5 to say all we h to say to ea* o!r4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,return to ,t[n4 ,dea? ( an old ,fri5d4 ,lett]s & ,notes ( ,love & ,sympa?y4 ,an ,old ,ladies' ,p>ty4 ,sc5es ( ,tr\ble & ,dy+ ,b$s4 ,fifty ,ye>s old4 ,lett]s4 ,h] return to t[n br\ght ) x a multitude ( c>es4 ,! foll[+ mon?s drew heavily ^u h] /r5g? & sympa?ies2 b = all t !y 7 lad5 ) unwont$ joy4 ,! summ] at ,dorset _h be5 a v happy "o4 ,:ile !re %e _h f9i%$ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d & on com+ back to h] city home1 ! *e]y1 lov+ _s ( ! book seem$ /ill to possess h] :ole be+4 ,katy's words at its close 7 evid5tly an expression ( h] own feel+s3 ,yes1 ,i love ev]ybody6 ,t cr[n+ joy has come to me at la/4 ,*ri/ is 9 my s\l2 ,he is m9e2 ,i am z consci\s ( x z t my husb& & *ildr5 are m9e2 & ,8 ,_s fl[s =? f m9e 9 ! calm peace ( a riv]1 ^: banks are gre5 ) grass1 & glad ) fl[]s4 ,to ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #e1 #ahfh ,?is is ! fir/ mom5t s9ce we rea*$ home1 9 :i* ,i c\ld write to y1 b ,i h _h y 9 my he>t & 9 my ?\ghts z mu* z ev]4 ,we _h a prosp]\s j\rney1 b ! ride to ,rup]t 0 fe>fully cold4 ,i nev] rememb] be+ s cold1 unless x 0 ! night ,i rea*$ ,william/[n1 :5 ,i w5t to my de> si/]'s fun]al4444 ,i h told y ?is long /ory to try to give y a glimpse ( ! di/ract$ life t meets u at our v ?re%old z we return home4 ,& n[ ,i'm go+ to trot d[n to see ,miss ,lyman1 :om ,i %all j take & hug1 = ,i am s brimful ( love to ev]ybody t ,i mu/ break somebody's bones1 or bur/4 ,john prea*$ delightfully ye/]day2 ,i want$ y !re to he>4 ,b all my treasures are 9 e>!n vessels2 he seems all us$ up by 8 ,sunday & sc>cely t\*$ 8 breakfa/4 ,i don't see h[ 8 or my race c be v long1 if we live 9 ,new ,york4 ,all ! m reason = runn+ x well4 ,& :at a bless$1 bless$ life x is1 at ! wor/6 ,c5tral peace subsi/+ at ! he>t ( endless agitation4 ,good-bye1 de>2 consid] y\rself embrac$ by a he>ty s\l t he>tily loves y1 & t s\l lives 9 ,e4 ,p4 ,on ! #be? ( ,octob] ,mr4 ,*>les ,h4 ,leon>d1 an old & highly e/eem$ fri5d1 di$ v sudd5ly at 8 summ] home 9 ,ro*e/]1 ,mass4 ,he 0 a man ( /]l+ wor?1 g5]\s1 l>ge-he>t$1 & ende>$ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & h] husb& by _m acts ( k9dness4 ,he 0 "o ( ! f\nd]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant & _h also aid$ lib]ally 9 build+ its pleasant p>sonage4 ,to ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #bf1 #ahfh4 ,i am rem9d$ z ,i write my date1 t ,i am fifty ye>s old to-day4 ,my ,john says x is no su* ?+1 & t ,i am only ?irty2 b ,i beg9 to feel antiquat$1 dilapidat$1 & ant$iluvian1 etc41 etc4 ,i write to let y "k t we are go+ to ,ro*e/]1 ,mass41 to att5d ! fun]al ( a de> fri5d !re4 ,x seems be/ = me to risk ! we> & te> ( ! go+ & ! com+1 if ,i c !reby give ev5 a little com=t to "o :o loves me de>ly1 & :o is n[ left )\t a s+le relative 9 ! _w4 ,= tw5ty-f\r ye>s ^! h be5 fai?ful fri5ds1 lov+ u bett] e ye>1 memb]s ( our *ur* 9 ,new ,b$=d1 ,m]c] /reet1 & !n "h4 ,!y liv$ at ,ro*e/] dur+ ! summ] & we visit$ !m !re 7y may rememb] my speak+ ( x7 j be=e we w5t to ,dorset4 ,mrs4 ,leon>d 0 !n feel+ v uneasy ab\t h] husb&1 b he got bett] & seem$ ab\t z usual1 till la/ ,tuesday1 :5 he 0 /rick5 d[n ) p>alysis & di$ on ,saturday4 ,somebody said t sp5d+ s l>ge a portion ( my "t z ,i d 9 sc5es ( sorr[1 %e wond]$ ,god did n give me m /r5g?4 ,b ,i ?9k ,he kn[s j h[ mu* to give4 ,i h be5 to ,new>k twice s9ce ,i wrote y4 ,mrs4 ,/e>ns is 9 a v suff]+ condition2 ,i 0 appall$ by ! sight2 appall$ at ! weakness ( human nature 7its physical weakness74 ,b ,i got ov] t1 & _h a sweet glimpse at lea/ ( ! et]nal felicity t is to be ! end ( :at at longe/ is a brief p]iod ( suff]+4 ,i write h] a little bit ( a note e few days4 ,i feel l a ball t n[ is toss$ to ,sorr[ & toss$ back by ,sorr[ to ,joy4 ,= mix$ 9 ) e day's exp]i5ce ( suff]+ are su* great1 su* unm]it$ m]cies4 ,two or ?ree ( ! little notes foll[3 ,,my ,,de>e/ ,,anna 3-,i long to be ) y ?r\gh ! h\rs t are be=e y1 & to help *e] & su/a9 y 9 ! trial ( fai? & pati5ce to :i* y are call$4 ,b unless y ne$ me ,i w n g1 le/ ,i %\ld be ! "o too _m 9 y\r /ate ( excitem5t & susp5se4 ,we all feel anxiety z to ! result ( ! incision1 b take com=t 9 ca/+ our c>e ^u ,god4 ,may ,*ri/ ,jesus1 our de> ,savi\r1 :o loves & pities y inf9itely m ?an any ( u d1 be v ne> y 9 ?is season ( susp5se4 ,i w\ld gladly ex*ange positions ) y if ,i might1 & if x 7 be/2 b z ,i may n1 & x is n be/1 because ,god wills o!rwise1 ,i e>ne/ly comm5d y to ,8 t5d] sympa?y4 ,if ,he means t y %all be re/or$ to heal?1 ,he w make y happy 9 liv+2 if ,he means to call y home to ,himself1 ,he w make y happy 9 dy+4 ,de> ,anna1 /ay y\rself on ,him3 ,he has /r5g? en\gh to support y1 :5 all o!r /r5g? fails4 ,rememb]1 z ,lizzy ,smi? said1 y are encompass$ ) pray]s4 ,friday ,aft]noon1 ,,my ,,de> ,,anna 3-,i s5d y a lullaby = next ,sunday1 :i* ,i met ) at ,dorset1 & hope x w speak a little ^w & s+ a little song to y :ile ! re/ are at *ur*4 ,h[ ,i d wi% ,i c\ld see y e day6 ,i feel re/less ) long+2 b y are h>dly able to take any com=t 9 a long visit & x is su* a j\rney to make =-a %ort "o6 ,b1 z ,i said ! o!r day1 if at any "t y feel a little /rong] & x w\ld com=t y ev5 a little bit to see me1 ,i w drop ev]y?+ & run "r ov]4 ,x seems h>d to h y suff] s & d no?+ = y4 ,b don't be disc\rag$2 pa9 c't la/ =ev]4 ,i "k n ! way ,i am go+ ,b well d ,i "k my ,guide6 ,) a *ildlike tru/ ,i give my h&1 ,to ! mighty ,fri5d at my side4 ,! only ?+ t ,i say to ,him ,z ,he takes x1 is1 ',hold x fa/4 ,suff] me n to lose my way1 ,& br+ me home at la/6' ,,my ,,de> ,,anna3-,i feel su* t5d] love & pity = y1 b ,i "k y are too sick to read m ?an a few words4 ,9 ! furnace ,god may prove !e1 ,!nce to br+ !e =? m bright ,b c nev] cease to love !e3 ,?\ art preci\s 9 ,8 sight6 ,y\r ev] affectionate ,,lizzy4 ,to ,mrs4 ,l5>d1 ,friday1 ,oct4 #cj1 #aheh4 ,we got home safely la/ ev5+ be=e any ( ! *ildr5 _h gone to b$1 & !y all came runn+ to meet u mo/ joyfully4 ,?is morn+ ,i am re/less & c n set ab\t any?+4 ,x di/resses me to ?9k h[ little human fri5d%ip c d = su* a sorr[ z y\rs4 ,:5 a suff]] is on ! rack he c>es little = :at is said to him ?\gh he may feel grateful = sympa?y4 ,i f\nd x h>d to te> myself away f y s soon1 b all ,i c\ld d = y !re ,i c\ld d all along ! way home & s9ce ,i h got "h3 love y1 be sorry = y1 & con/antly pray = y4 ,i am sure t ,he :o has s sorely afflict$ y accepts ! pati5ce ) :i* y be> ! rod1 & t :5 ?is fir/ t]rible amazem5t & bewild]m5t are ov]1 & y c ent] into communion & fell[%ip ) ,him1 y w f9d a joy 9 ,him t1 h>d z x is to ! fle% to say s1 transc5ds all ! sweete/ & be/ joys ( human life4 ,y w h no?+ to d n[ b to fly to ,him4 ,i h se5 ! "t :5 ,i c\ld hide myself 9 ,him z a little *ild hides 9 its "m's arms1 & s h ?\s&s ( a*+ he>ts4 ,9 all our afflictions ,he is afflict$4 ,b ,i mu/ n we>y y ) words4 ,may ,god bless & keep y1 & fully reveal ,himself unto y6 ,to ,miss4 ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,nov4 #b1 #ahfh4 ,i h be5 ly+ on ! s(a 9 my room1 half asleep1 & feel+ r guilty at ! lot ( gas ,i 0 wa/+1 b too lazy or too tir$ to get up to turn x d[n4 ,y\r little spray hangs "r ov] ! head ( my b$1 an x 0 x 0 slightly dilapidat$ by its j\rney hi!r1 ,i h tuck$ 9 a bit ( gre5 f]n ) x to rem9d me t ,i 0 n always 9 ! s]e & yell[ leaf1 b _h a spr+-"t once4 ,to ?9k ( y\r go+ = to g & write v]ses to me 9 my old age6 ,i h j be5 read+ !m ov] & ?9k x 0 real good ( y to up & say su* nice ?+s 9 su* a nice way4 ,i'd no idea y c\ld6 ,we did n come home f ,ro*e/] ?r\gh ,bo/on2 if we _h done s ,i meant to g & see y4 ,i made x up 9 _m lov+ ?\ghts to y on our twelve h\rs' j\rney4 ,poor ,mrs4 ,l4 met me ) op5 arms1 & ,i 0 ?ankful inde$ t ,i w5t1 ?\gh e ^w ,i said 9 ! pres5ce ( h] t]rible grief1 s\nd$ flat & cold & dead4 ,h[ little ! t5d]e/ love & sympa?y c d1 9 su* sorr[s6 ,%e 0 s bewild]$ & appall$ by h] sudd5 b]eavem5t1 t x 0 almo/ a mock]y to say a ^w2 & yet ,i kept say+ :at ,i "k is true1 t ,*ri/ 9 ! s\l is bett] ?an any e>?ly joy4 ,bo? ,mr4 ,pr5tiss & myself feel ! reaction :i* mu/ inevitably foll[ su* a /ra94 ,y ask if ,i look ov] ! pa/ on my bir?days4 ,i suppose ,i us$ to d x & feel dreadfully at ! pitiful review1 b s9ce ,i h _h ! *ildr5's to celebrate1 ,i hav5't ?\ght mu* ( m9e4 ,b ?is "t1 be+ fifty ye>s old1 did set me ^u ?9k+1 & ,i _h s _m m]cies to rec\nt & to ?ank ,god =1 t ,i h>dly felt pangs ( any sort4 ,i suppose ,he controls our moods 9 su* seasons1 & ,i h done try+ to =ce myself into ?is or t tra9 ( ?\ght4 ,i am sure t a good deal ( :at us$ to seem l rep5tance & sorr[ = s9 on su* occasions1 0 really no?+ b w\nd$ pride t wi%$ x c\ld appe> bett] 9 its own eyes4 ,god has be5 s good to me6 ,i wi% ,i c\ld beg9 to realise h[ good6 ,i ?9k a great _m ?\ghts to y t ,i c't put on pap]4 ,life seems tea*+ "s new1 or deep5+ ! impression ( "s old1 lesson1 all ! "t4 ,y ?9k ,a4 may h look$ scornfully at y\r little spray4 ,well1 %e didn't2 %e said1 ,:at's t funny little ?+ p]*$ up !re8 ,well1 x's pretty anyh[4 ,among ! ru% ( visitors to-day 7 ,miss ,ha9es & ! ,w----s4 ,i fell ^u ,miss ,w4 & told h] ab\t y1 furi\sly2 !n we got ^u ,miss ,lyman1 & x did my v s\l good to he> ,miss ,ha9es praise & magnify h]4 ,nev] %all ,i cease to be ?ankful = be+ ) h] at ,dorset1 to say no?+1 de>1 ( y6 ,d y "k t !re are twelve cases ( typhoid fev] at ,vass>8 & t ,miss ,lyman is n z well z %e 08 ,i feel greatly conc]n$ ab\t h]1 n to say tr\bl$4 ,i don't suppose ,i %all ev] he> h] pray4 ,b ,i %all he> h] & help h] praise4 ,i don't believe a ^w ab\t !re be+ diff]5t grades ( sa9ts 9 heav54 ,"s p ?9k x mode/ to say t !y don't expect to get any:]e ne> s & s1 !y are s--etc41 etc4 ,b ,i expect to be mix$ all up ) ! sa9ts1 & to take p]fect delight 9 _! te/imony to my ,savi\r4 ,c y put up ) ?is mis]able lett]8 ,folks c't ru% to ,new>k & to ,ro*e/] & agonise 9 e n]ve at ! suff]+s ( o!rs1 & be q coh]5t4 ,i h s5se en\gh left to "k t ,i love y de>ly1 & t ,i long to see y & to take sweet c\nsel ) y once m4 ,don't fail to give me ! help+ h&4 ,! foll[+ 0 writt5 to ,mrs4 ,/e>ns on h] silv]-w$d+ day1 ,nov4 #ae3 ,,my ,,de>e/ ,,anna3 ,i h ?\ght ( y all day ) ! t5d]e/ sympa?y1 kn[+ h[ y _h look$ =w>d to x1 & :at a contra/ x (f]s to y\r bridal day tw5ty-five ye>s ago4 ,b ,i hope x has n be5 :olly sad4 ,y h a ri* pa/ t c n be tak5 f y1 & a ri*] future lies be=e y4 ,= ,i c see1 ?\gh ?r\gh y\r te>s y c n1 t ! ,son ( ,god walks ) y 9 ?is furnace ( affliction1 & t ,he is s sanctify+ x to y\r s\l1 t ages h5ce y w look on ?is day z bett]1 sweet]1 ?an ! day ( y\r esp\sals4 ,x is h>d n[ to suff]1 b aft] all1 ! light affliction is no?+1 & ! weight ( glory is ev]y?+4 ,y may n fully realise ?is or any o!r tru?1 9 y\r enfeebl$ /ate1 b tru? rema9s ! same :e!r we appreciate x or n2 & s does ,*ri/4 ,y\r despond5cy does n prove t ,he is n j z ne> to y z ,he is to ^? :o see ,him m cle>ly2 & x is bett] to be despond5t ?an to be self-righte\s4 ,don't y see t 9 afflict+ y ,he means to prove to y t ,he loves y1 & t y love ,him8 ,don't y rememb] t x is ,8 son--n ,8 enemy--t ,he sc\rge?8 ,! greate/ sa9t on e>? has got to rea* heav5 on ! same t]ms z ! greate/ s9n]2 unwor?y1 unfit1 good-=-no?+2 b sav$ ?r\gh grace4 ,d *e] & com=t y\rself ) ^! ?\ghts1 my de>e/ ,anna1 & y\r sick-room w be ! happie/ room 9 y\r h\se1 z ,i con/antly pray x may be6 ,y\r ev] affectionate ,lizzy4 ,to ,miss ,e4,a4,w41 ,new ,york1 ,nov4 #ag1 #ahfh ,y ask h[ ,i sleep4 ,i always sleep bett] at home ?an else:]e2 ?is is "o great reason :y we decid$ to h a home all ! ye> r\nd4 ,i h to walk f\r or five miles a day1 :i* takes a good deal ( "t1 ^! %ort days1 b !re is no help = x4 ,i d n ?9k ! "t is lo/ :5 ,i am out ( doors2 ,i suppose ,*ri/ may g ) u1 does g ) u1 :]ev] we g4 ,b ,i am too eag] & vehem5t1 too anxi\s to be work+ all ! "t4 ,:y1 no1 ,i don't ?9k x wrong to want to be at "w provid$ ,god gives u /r5g? = "w2 ! great ?+ is n to rep9e :5 ,he disables u4 ,i don't ?9k1 my de>1 t y ne$ tr\ble y\rself ab\t my dy+ at pres5t2 x is n at all likely t ,i %all4 ,i feel z if ,i _h got to be te/$ yet2 ?is sweet peace1 ( :i* ,i h s mu*1 almo/ />tles me4 ,i keep ask+ myself :e!r x is n a /up5d\s delusion ( ,satan & my own wick$ he>t4 ,h[ ,i wi% ,i c\ld see y to-night6 ,!re is s mu* "o does n l to put on pap] t "o w\ld love to say4 ,?ursday1 #d ,p4,m4--,well1 my lun*-p>ty is ov]1 & my sew+ society is re-organis$1 & be=e ,i g =? to tea1 let me f9i% & s5d (f ?is epi/le4 ,we _h ! ,rev4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,wa%burn1 ( ,con/ant9ople1 ,dr4 ,*ick]+1 & ,pr(1 & ,mrs4 ,smi?2 gave !m cold turkey1 cold ham1 cold ice-cream & hot c(fee2 t 0 ab\t all1 = society 9 ,new ,york is j ab\t r$uc$ d[n to eat+ & dr9k+ toge!r1 aft] :i* y g ab\t y\r bus9ess4 ,i am re-read+ ,leighton on #a/ ,pet]2 ,i wond] if y l x z mu* z my ,john & ,i d6 ,i hope y\r murd]\s book goes on well2 !n y c take y\r re/ next summ]4 ,n[ ,i mu/ get ready = my long walk d[n & ov] to ,n9? /41 to see a t9y little woman1 & ,engli% at t4 ,h] pray] at our meet+ ye/]day mov$ u all to te>s4 ,to ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,nov4 #be1 #ahfh ,mr4 ,pr5tiss compla9$ ye/]day t no lett]s came1 an unhe>d-( ev5t 9 our family hi/ory1 & ?is morn+ f\nd twelve /ick+ 9 ! top ( ! box2 among !m 0 y\rs1 b ,i 0 j go+ (f to my ,pray]-meet+1 & _h to put x into my pocket & let x g too4 ,i am glad y s5t me ,mrs4 ,field's lett] & poem2 %e is a g5ius1 & writes beautifully4 ,& h[ glad y mu/ be to he> ab\t y\r books4 ,i c't imag9e :at bett] "w y want ?an writ+4 ,9 :at o!r way c\ld y rea* s _m m9ds & he>ts8 ,y mu/ always s5d me su* lett]s4 ,be=e ,i =get x1 let me tell y ( a real ,?anksgiv+ pres5t we h j _h2 ?ree b>rels ( potatoes1 "s apples1 "s dri$ apples1 cranb]ries1 cel]y1 cann$ corn1 cann$ /rawb]ries1 & two big *ick5s4 ,aft] *ur*1 ,?ursday4--,i mu/ indulge myself ) go+ on ) my lett]1 = aft] d9n] ,i want to play ) ! *ildr51 & make ?is day mean some?+ to !m besides pies4 ,= ev]ybody spoke = pies ?is ye> 7y "k we almo/ nev] make su* s9ful ?+s7 & !y all said ice-cream w\ldn't d at all1 s ye/]day ,i made f\rte5 ( ^! enormities1 & mean to /uff !m 7! *ildr51 n ! pies67 s t !y won't want any m = a ye>4 ,i want to tell y ab\t "s pretty co9cid5ces2 we w5t to *ur* 9 a dismal ra91 & ,mr4 ,pr5tiss prea*$ on ! beauty ( hol9ess1 & e "t he said any?+ t made sun%9e p>ticul>ly appropriate1 ! sun came 9 9 floods1 !n disappe>$ till ! next occasion4 ,= in/ance1 he spoke ( ! sun%9e ( a happy home z s mu* bright] ?an t ( ! natural sun1 & ! :ole *ur* 0 in/antly illum9at$2 !n he said t if we _h ea* come !re ) t5 million sorr[s1 ,*ri/ c\ld give u light1 :51 lo1 ! *ur* gl[$ aga92 & s on half-a-doz5 times1 till at la/ he quot$ ! v]se ,& ! ,lamb is ! light !re(1 :5 a p]fect blaze ( effulg5ce made ^? my/]i\s1 words almo/ />tl+4 ,& !n he w\nd up by describ+ ! ,tyrolese cu/om on :i* ,mrs4 ,field's poem is f\nd$1 :i* he _h himself se5 & enjoy$1 & ( :i*1 x seems1 he spoke at ,ea/ ,dorset la/ summ] at ! ,sunday-s*ool4 #h ,i read ! poem & lett] to him ! in/ant we got home1 & he admir$ !m bo?4 ,x 0 a little s+ul> t h] poem & 8 s]mon came to me at almo/ ! id5tical mom5t1 wasn't x8 ,i mu/ tell y ab\t an old ladies' p>ty giv5 by ,mrs4 ,cumm+s1 wife ( him :o prep>$ my fa!r's memoir4 #i ,%e _h _h a =tune left to h] & 0 all ! "t do+ good ) x1 & x ent]$ h] head to get up a v nice supp] = tw5ty-six old ladies1 ! y\nge/ ( :om 0 sev5ty-five 7! ,portl& p r>ely die till !y're n9ety or s74 ,%e s5t c>riages = all :o c\ldn't walk1 & :5 !y all got toge!r1 ! lady :o describ$ ! sc5e to me1 said x 0 indescribably beautiful1 all congratulat+ ea* o!r t !y 7 s f> on 9 _! pilgrimage & s ne> heav56 ,lovely1 wasn't x8 ,i wi% ,i c\ld sp5d ! re/ ( my life ) su* p6 ,!n %e spoke ( ,mrs4 ,c4's face dur+ ! la/ six mon?s ( h] life1 :5 x _h an expression s ble/1 s s]aphic1 t x 0 a delight to look ^u x--& h[ %e _h all ! memb]s ( ! ladies' pray]-meet+ come & kiss h] good-bye aft] %e 0 too weak to speak4 ,& n[ ! *ildr5 h got toge!r aga91 & ,i mu/ g & /ay ) !m till _! b$-"t1 :51 p>tly = ! sake ( ! walk1 p>tly because !y ask$ u1 we twa9 are go+ to see ! ,smi?s4 ,i r ?9k1 my de>1 t if1 z y say1 y c\ld see all my ?\ghts1 y w\ld drop me z y w\ld a hot potato4 ,y w\ld see _m good ?\ghts1 ,i won't d5y t1 & "s lov+ ones2 b y w\ld also see an abom9able lot ( elat$1 conceit$1 horrid ones2 self-laudation ev5 at good plann$ to d1 & admir$ be=e done4 ,b ,god c endure :at no mortal eye c\ld2 ,he does n love u because we are s lovely1 b because ,he always loves :at ,he pities4 ,i fall back ^u ?is ?\ght :5ev] ,i feel disc\rag$2 ,i 0 go+ to say sad1 b t isn't ! ^w1 = ,i nev] d feel sad except :5 ,i've be5 eat+ some?+ ,i'd no bus9ess to6 ,good-bye1 de>ie4 ,to ! ,same1 ,new ,york1 ,dec4 #c1 #ahfh4 ,i ?9k ,i mu/ indulge myself1 my de>1 9 writ+ to y to-night1 x be+ really ! only ?+ ,i want to d1 unless x be to lie half asleep on ! s(a4 ,& t ,i c't d1 = !re's no s(a 9 ! room6 ,! cold wea!r has made x agreeable to h a fire 9 ! d9+-room grate1 & ?is makes x a *e]ful resort = ! *ildr51 especially z ! long table is v conv5i5t = _! books1 map-draw+1 etc4 ,& :]ev] ! re/ are ! "m mu/ be2 ,i suppose t is ! law ( a happy family1 9 ! w9t] at lea/4 ,! reason ,i am s tir$ to-night is t ,i h be5 unexpect$ly to ,new>k4 ,i w5t1 z soon z ,i c\ld aft] breakfa/1 to m>ket1 & !n on a walk ( ov] two miles to prep>e myself = our sew+-circle6 ,i met our sexton z ,i 0 com+ home1 & ask$ him to see :at ail$ "o ( ! draw]s ( my desk t w\ldn't %ut4 ,we _h a t]rible "t ) x1 & ,i _h to take ev]y?+ out1 & turn my desk topsy-turvy1 & y\r lett]s & all my o!r pap]s got rav+ di/ract$1 & all mix$ up ) bits ( seal+-wax1 old p5s1 & de> kn[s :at n1 :5 d[n comes ,a4 f ! s*ool-room1 to say t ,mrs4 ,/e>ns _h s5t = me to come "r out1 ?9k+ %e 0 dy+4 ,i knew no?+ ab\t ! tra9s1 always tru/+ to ,mr4 ,pr5tiss ab\t t1 b 9 five m9utes ,i 0 (f1 & on rea*+ ! depot f\nd ,i _h lo/ a tra9 by t5 m9utes1 & t !re w\ldn't be ano!r = an h\r4 ,!n ,i _h leisure to rememb] t ,mr4 ,p4 0 to get home f ,dorset1 t ,i _h left no message = him1 _h hid away all ! lett]s t _h come 9 8 abs5ce1 :]e he c\ldn't f9d !m2 t if x 0 necess>y = me to /ay at ,new>k all night he w\ld be dreadfully fright5$1 etc41 etc4 ,someh[ ,i felt v blue1 b at la/ conclud$ to get rid ( a "p ( ! "t by hunt+ up "s d9n] at a re/aurant4 ,:5 ,i at la/ got to ,new>k1 ,i f\nd t ,mrs4 ,/e>ns' disease _h sudd5ly develop$ sev]al unfavorable symptoms4 ,%e _h made up h] m9d t all hope 0 ov]1 _h tak5 leave ( h] family1 & n[ want$ to bid me good-bye4 ,%e held my h&s fa/ 9 bo? h]s1 begg+ me to talk4 ,i spoke freely to h] ab\t h] dea?2 %e po9t$ up once to an illum9ation ,i gave h] la/ spr+3 ,,simply ,,to ,,?y ,,cross ,i ,,cl+4 ,t1 %e said1 is all ,i c d4 ,i said all ,i c\ld to com=t h]1 b ,i d n "k :e!r ,god gave me ! "r ^w or n4 ,on my return1 z ,i got out ( ! /age ne> ! corn] ( our /reet1 :om %\ld my we>y eyes light on b my de> good man1 j got home f ,dorset2 h[ surpris$ & delight$ we 7 to meet s unexpect$ly6 ,m4 ru%$ to meet u1 & aft]w>d said to me1 ,i h ?ree great reliefs2 y h got home2 papa has got home2 & ,aunt ,anna is /ill alive4 ,my *ildr5 7 nev] s lovely & lov+ z !y are ?is w9t]2 my home is almo/ too luxuri\s & happy2 su* ?+s don't belong to ?is _w4 ,we h j he>d ( ! dea? 9 ,switz]l& ( ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' successor at ,new ,b$=d1 classmate ( "o ( my bro!rs1 & "s "o has s5t a pla9tive1 sweet little dy+ song writt5 at ,flor5ce by him4 ,n[ ,i am too fagg$ to say ano!r ^w4 ,dec4 #d?4--,i d n get any "t to write2 ea* day br+s its own special "w t c't be done to-morr[2 z to lett]s1 ,i scrat* !m (f at odd mom5ts1 :5 too tir$ to d any?+ else4 ,:at a res\rce !y are6 ,!y d in/ead ( cry+ = me4 ,& h[ _m ,i get e week t are lov+ & pleasant6 ,:at d y ?9k ( ?is8 ,i hope x w make y laugh--a lady told me %e nev] confess$ h] s9s al\d 79 pray]7 le/ ,satan %\ld f9d out h] weak po9ts & tempt h] m effectually6 ,& ,i want to ask y if y ev] (f] to pray ) p8 ,i nev] d1 & yet !re are cases :5 no?+ else seems to answ]4 ,oh1 h[ _m que/ions ( duty come up e h\r1 & h[ _m reasons we h e h\r to be a%am$ ( ourselves6 ,monday morn+4--,x 0 a %ame to write to y1 :5 ,i 0 s tir$ t ,i c\ld n write legibly1 b my he>t 0 full ( love1 & ,i long$ to be ne> y4 ,n[ ,monday has come1 a l[]+1 =bidd+ day1 yet all is sun%9e 9 my s\l1 & ,i hope t may make my home light to my belov$ ones1 & ev5 rea* y1 :]ev] y are4 ,i am go+ to run out to see h[ ,mrs4 ,/e>ns is4 ,our plan is = me to make arrangem5ts to /ay ) h]1 if ,i c be ( any use or com=t4 ,i lit]ally love ! h\se ( m\rn+ bett] ?an ! h\se ( fea/+4 ,all my long1 long ye>s ( suff]+ & sorr[ make sorr[-/rick5 homes homelike1 & ,i c n b feel1 because ,i "k x f exp]i5ce1 t ,*ri/ loves to be 9 su* homes4 ,s y may congratulate me1 de>1 if ,i may be p]mitt$ to g :]e ,he goes4 ,i wi% y c\ld h he>d ye/]day's s]mon ab\t ,god's hav+ z *>act]i/ic1 individual a love to ea* ( u z we h to our fri5ds4 ,?9k ( t1 de>1 :5 y rememb] h[ ,i lov$ y 9 ,mrs4 ,g4's little p>lor6 ,c y realise t y\r ,"l & ,savi\r loves y inf9itely m8 ,i confess t su* conceptions are h>d to atta94444 ,c't y d ,m---- ,s---- up 9 y\r next lett]1 & s5d h] to me on approbation8 ,in/ead ( be+ satisfi$ t ,i've got y1 ,i want h] & ev]ybody else :o is really good1 to fill up "s ( ! empty rooms 9 my he>t4 ,?is is a rambl+1 scrambl+ lett]1 b ,i don't c>e1 & don't believe y d4 ,well1 good-bye2 ?ank y\r />s t ?is bit ( pap] hasn't got any arms & c't hug y6 ,to ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,new ,york1 ,dec4 #ac1 #ahfh4 ,!re is half an h\r be=e b$-"t1 & ,i h be5 ?9k+ ( & pray+ = y1 till ,i feel t ,i mu/ write4 ,i =got to tell y1 h[ ! v]ses 9 my ,daily ,food1 on ! day ( y\r de> husb&'s dea?1 seem meant = y3 ,?\ art my refuge & portion4--,ps4 cxliii4 #e4 ',tis ,god t lifts our com=ts high1 ,or s9ks !m 9 ! grave2 ,he gives1 & bless$ be ,8 "n6 ,he takes b :at ,he gave4 ,! ,"l gave & ! ,"l ha? tak5 away4--,,job i4 #ba4 ,i h _h ?is little book ?irty-?ree ye>s1 x has travell$ ) me :]ev] ,i h be51 & x has be5 inde$ my song 9 ! h\se ( my pilgrimage4 ,?is has be5 our communion ,sunday1 & ,i h be5 v glad ( ! re/ & peace x has af=d$1 = ,i h done little dur+ ! la/ t5 days b fly f "o sc5e ( sorr[ to ano!r1 f "h to ,new>k & f ,new>k to ,brooklyn4444 ,s ,i h alt]nat$ betwe5 ! two dy+ b$s2 ye/]day ,j5nie ,p4 w5t into a convulsion j z ,i ent]$ ! room1 & did n fully come out ( x = an h\r & a half1 :5 ,i _h to come away 9 ord] to get home be=e pit* d>k4 ,:at a t]rible sight x is6 ,!y use *lor(orm1 & t has a v m>k$ effect1 controll+ all viol5ce 9 a few seconds4 ,:e!r ! poor *ild came out ( t attack alive ,i d n "k2 ,i _h no d\bt %e 0 dy+ till j be=e ,i came away1 :5 %e appe>$ easi]1 ?\gh /ill unconsci\s4 ,! family seem ne>ly frantic1 & ! si/]s are s upset by witness+ ^! turns1 t ,i %all feel t ,i mu/ be !re all ,i c4 ,i am 9 cruel d\bt :i* h\sehold to g to1 b hope ,god w direct4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss is a good deal )]$ & worn by 8 si/]'s /ate2 he _h nev]1 by any means1 ceas$ to hope1 & he is mu* afflict$4 ,%e & ,j5nie may live a week or m1 or g at any mom5t4 ,9 my long h\rs ( sil5t mus+ & pray]1 z ,i g f place to place1 ,i ?9k (t5 ( y4 ,i ?9k "o reason :y we d n get all ! love & fai? we sigh = is t we try to =ce !m to come to u1 in/ead ( realis+ t !y mu/ be ,god's free gifts1 to be won by pray]4444 ,& n[ ,mr4 ,p4 has come up-/airs roll$ up 9 y\r afghan1 & we h decid$ to g to bo? ,new>k & ,brooklyn to-morr[1 s ,i "k ,i ought to g to b$4 ,y mu/ take ?is lett] z a great pro( ( my love to y1 ?\gh x does n say mu*1 = ,i am bewild]$ by ! sc5es ?r\gh :i* ,i am pass+1 & h>dly fit !re=e to write4 ,:at ,i d n say ,i truly feel1 real1 deep1 con/ant sympa?y ) y 9 y\r sorr[ & lonel9ess4 ,may ,god bless y 9 x4 #a ,dorset is situat$ 9 ,b5n+ton c\nty1 ab\t sixty miles f ,troy & tw5ty-five miles f ,rutl&4 ,its ea/]n portion lies 9 a deep-cut valley along ! we/]n slope ( ! ,gre5 ,m\nta9 range1 on ! l9e ( ! ,b5n+ton & ,rutl& railroad4 ,its we/]n "p--! valley 9 :i* ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss pass$ h] summ]s--is sep>at$ f ,ea/ ,dorset by ,mt4 ,aeolus1 ,owl's ,head1 & a succession ( maple-cre/$ hills1 all belong+ to ! ,taconic sy/em ( rocks1 :i* conta9s ! ri* m>ble1 slate1 & lime/one qu>ries ( ,we/]n ,v]mont4 ,9 ! nor? ?is range sweeps r\nd t[>d ! ,equ9ox range1 enclos+ ! beautiful & f]tile upl& region call$ ,! ,holl[4 ,dorset belong$ to ! s-call$ ,new ,hamp%ire ,grants1 & 0 organis$ into a t[n%ip %ortly be=e ! ,revolution>y ,w>4 ,its fir/ settl]s 7 l>gely f ,connecticut & ,massa*usetts4 ,!y 7 a h>dy1 intellig5t1 lib]ty-lov+ race1 & impress$ ^u ! t[n a moral & religi\s "*1 :i* rema9s to ?is day4 #b ,mrs4 ,ar?ur ,bronson1 ( ,new ,york4 ,a life ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w\ld sc>cely be complete )\t a grateful m5tion ( ?is devot$ fri5d & true ,*ri/ian lady4 ,%e 0 ! c5tre ( a wide family circle1 to all ( ^: memb]s1 bo? "y & old1 %e 0 greatly ende>$ by ! beauty & excell5ce ( h] "*4 ,%e di$ %ortly aft] ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 #c ,:ile suppos+ t h] bro!rs _h be5 burnt out & _h1 p]haps1 lo/ ev]y?+1 %e wrote to h] husb& ) *>act]i/ic g5]osity3 ,if !y did n kill !mselves work+ at ! fire1 !y w kill !mselves try+ to get on _! feet aga94 ,e c5t ,i h ,i ?9k %\ld be giv5 !m4 ,my fa!r's *ur* & ev]y?+ associat$ ) my y\?1 gone =ev]6 ,i c't ?9k ( any?+ else4 #d ,mrs4 ,mc,curdy di$ at h] home 9 ,new ,york 9 ,decemb]1 #ahgf4 ,a few s5t5ces f a brief address at ! fun]al by h] old pa/or w n be "h out ( place4 ,h] natural "* 0 "o ( ! lovelie/ ,i h ev] kn[n4 ,its lead+ traits 7 z simple & cle> z daylight1 :ile its *e]+ effect ^u ^? :o came "u its influ5ce 0 l t ( sun%9e4 ,%e 0 n only v happy h]self--enjoy+ life to ! la/ 9 h] home & h] fri5ds--b %e 0 gift$ ) a disposition & p[] to make o!rs happy su* z falls to ! lot ( only a select few ( ! race4 ,h] dome/ic & *ur* ties br\ght h] into relations ( intimate acqua9tance & fri5d%ip ) "s ( ! be/ m5 ( h] times4 ,i w v5ture to m5tion two ( !m3 h] uncle1 ! late ,!odore ,frel+huys51 "o ( ! noble/ m5 our c\ntry has produc$1 em95t alike z /atesman1 s*ol>1 & ,*ri/ian philan?ropi/2 & ! sa9t$ ,?omas ,h4 ,sk9n]1 h] =m] pa/or4 ,h] sick-room--if sick-room is ! prop] "n--9 :i*1 dur+ ! la/ sev5te5 ye>s1 %e pass$ s mu* ( h] "t1 0 t+$ ) no sort ( gloom2 x seem$ to h two doors1 "o ( !m op5+ into ! _w1 ?r\gh :i* h] family & fri5ds pass$ 9 & out1 le>n+ lessons ( pati5ce & love & sweet cont5tm5t3 ! o!r op5+ heav5w>d1 & ev] aj> to admit ! mess5g] ( h] ,"l1 9 :atev] wat* he %\ld come to summon h] home4 ,! place 0 l t upp] *amb] fac+ ! sunris+1 & ^: "n 0 ,peace1 9 :i* ,bunyan's ,pilgrim 0 lodg$ on ! way to ! cele/ial city4 ,h[ _m pleasant & hall[$ memories lead back to t room6 #e ,old ,new ,b$=d fri5ds4 #f ,fritz und ,m>ia und ,i*4 ,von ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,deuts*e autorisirte ,ausgabe4 ,von ,m>ie ,morg5/]n4 ,itz*oe1 #ahgd4 #g ,%e gave me ! pet-"n ( ,fanny because %e did n l m9e1 & !re 0 an old joke ab\t ,john4--,e4 ,a4 ,w4 #h ,! cu/om relat$ to a pi\s salutation1 ) :i* two fri5ds1 or ev5 /rang]s1 greet ea* o!r1 :5 meet+ on ! m\nta9 highways & passes 9 c]ta9 di/ricts ( ,tyrol4 ,gelobt sei ,jesu ,*ri/6 cries "o2 ,9 ,ewigkeit1 ,am56 answ]s ! o!r 7i4e41 ,prais$ be ,jesus ,*ri/6 ,= ev]more1 ,am567 ,! foll[+ l9es are f ,mrs4 ,f4's ,poem3 ,:5 ! poor peasant1 alp5/ock 9 h&1 ,toils up ! /eep1 ,& f9ds a fri5d ^u ! dizzy height ,amid 8 %eep1 ,!y d n greet ea* o!r z 9 our ,k9d ,engli% way1 ,ask n = heal?1 nor wi% 9 *e]ful phrase prosp]\s day2 ,inf9ite ?\ghts alone spr+ up 9 t ,great solitude1 ,no?+ seems wor?y or significant ,b heav5ly good2 ,s 9 ?is rev]5t & sacr$ =m ,_! s\ls outp\r1-- ,bless$ be ,jesus ,*ri/'s mo/ holy "n6 ',= ev]more6' #i ,rev4 ,asa ,cumm+s1 ,d4,d41 ( ,portl&1 = _m ye>s editor ( ! ,*ri/ian ,mirror2 "o ( ! weightie/1 wise/ & be/ m5 ( 8 g5]ation4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,/epp+ ,,heav5w>d4 #ahfi4 ,i4 ,dea? ( ,mrs4 ,/e>ns4 ,h] ,"*4 ,dang]\s ,illness ( ,pr(4 ,smi?4 ,dea? at ! ,p>sonage4 ,lett]s4 ,a ,visit to ,vass> ,college4 ,lett]s4 ,gett+ ready = ,g5]al ,assembly4 ,gates ,aj>4 ,a little pa/ ?ree o'clock on ,saturday aft]noon1 ,janu>y #b1 #ahfi1 ,anna ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 wife ( ! ,rev4 ,jona?an ,f4 ,/e>ns1 ,d4,d41 fell asleep 9 ,jesus4 ,! prec$+ pages %[ :at /rong ties b\nd ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss to ?is belov$ si/]4 ,_! fri5d%ip dat$ back ?irty ye>s2 x 0 cem5t$ by common joys & common sorr[s 9 "s ( _! deepe/ exp]i5ces ( life2 & x _h be5 kept fre% & sweet by frequ5t int]c\rse & correspond5ce4 ,mrs4 ,/e>ns 0 a woman ( uncommon attractions & en]gy ( "*4 ,%e impress$ h]self /rongly ^u all :o came )9 ! sph]e ( h] influ5ce2 ! he>ts ( h] husb&'s p1 z well z 8 own & ^? ( h] *ildr51 tru/$ 9 h]2 & ! :ole community :]e %e dwelt m\rn$ h] loss4 ,%e _h be5 especially ende>$ to h] bro!r ,se>g5t1 ) :om %e sp5t sev]al w9t]s 9 ! ,s\? prior to h] m>riage4 ,h] influ5ce ov] him1 at a critical p]iod ( 8 life1 0 alike pot5t & happy2 _! relation to ea* o!r 01 9 tru?1 full ( ! elem5ts ( romance2 & "s ( 8 lett]s to h] are exquisite effusions ( frat]nal confid5ce & affection4 #a ,h] lett]s to him1 beg9n+ :5 %e 0 a "y girl & end+ only ) 8 life1 w\ld =m a l>ge volume4 ,y excel any "o ,i "k1 he wrote to h]1 9 ! k9d & g5tle art ( lett]-writ+4 ,9 ! mid/ ( 8 e>ly pr(essional triumphs he writes3 ,y d n "k :at obligations ,i am "u to y2 ,i owe all my success 9 ?is c\ntry to ! fact ( hav+ s k9d a "m & su* sweet affectionate si/]s z ,abby & y\rself4 ,x has be5 my only motive to ex]tion2 )\t x ,i %\ld long s9ce h ?r[n myself away4 ,ev5 n[1 :51 z is frequ5tly ! case1 ,i feel p]fectly reckless bo? ( life & =tune1 & look ) contempt ^u !m bo?1 ! recollection t !re are two or ?ree he>ts t beat = me ) real affection1 ev5 ?\gh f> away--comes ov] me z ! music ( ,david did ov] ! d>k _s ( ,saul4 ,i /ill feel t ,i h some?+ wor? liv+ =4 ,= ye>s h] lett]s help$ to *]i% & deep5 ?is feel+4 ,he ?us ref]s to "o ( !m3 ,i c n tell h[ mu* ,i ?ank y = x4 ,i cri$ l a *ild :ile read+ x1 & ev5 n[ ! te>s /& 9 my eyes1 z ,i ?9k ( its expressions ( affection1 sympa?y1 & good s5se4444 ,i wi% y 7 "h n[--oh1 h[ ,i d wi% x6 ,b y w come next fall1 won't y8 & be to me ,! antelope ^: feet %all bless ,) h] light /ep my lonel9ess4 ,b my c&le burns l[1 & x is pa/ ! wit*+ h\r ( night4 ,:e!r sleep+ or wak+1 ,god bless y & our de> "m1 & all ( y4 ,good-night--good-night4 ,my love loads ?is la/ l9e4 ,to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & h] husb&1 ! dea? ( ,mrs4 ,/e>ns 0 an irrep>able loss4 ,x took out ( _! life "o ( its greate/ e>?ly bless+s4 ,! new ye> op5$ ) ano!r pa9ful %ock--! sudd5 & dang]\s illness ( h] husb&'s bosom fri5d1 ,h5ry ,boynton ,smi?4 ,pr(4 ,smi? 0 to h made "o ( ! addresses at ! fun]al ( ,mrs4 ,/e>ns2 b in/ead ( do+ s1 he 0 oblig$ to take to 8 b$1 &1 soon aft]w>ds1 to flee = 8 life beyond ! sea4 ,to ?is affliction ! read] is indebt$ = ! lett]s to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 conta9$ 9 ?is *apt]4 ,on ! #af? ( ,febru>y ano!r niece ( h] husb&1 a sweet *ild ( sev5te51 0 br\ght to ! p>sonage v ill & di$ !re be=e ! close ( ! mon?4 ,h] lett]s w %[ h[ %e 0 affect$ by ^! tr\bles4 ,to ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #i1 #ahfi4 ,s _m unansw]$ lett]s lie pil$ on my desk t ,i h>dly "k :i* to take up fir/1 b my he>t ye>ns ov] y1 & ,i c n help writ+ y4 ,no wond] y gr[ sadd] z "t passes & ! belov$ "o comes n1 & comes n4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld help y be> y\r burd51 b all ,i c d is to be sorry = y4 ,! peaceable fruits ( sorr[ d n rip5 at once2 !re is a long "t ( we>9ess & heav9ess :ile ?is process is go+ on2 b ,i d n1 w n d\bt1 t y w ta/e ^! fruits1 & f9d !m v sweet4 ,"o ( ! h>d ?+s ab\t b]eavem5t is ! physical pro/ration & li/lessness :i* make x next to impossible to pray1 & q impossible to feel ! lea/ int]e/ 9 any?+4 ,we mu/ be> ?is z a "p ( ! pa91 believ+ t x w n la/ =ev]1 = no?+ b ,god's goodness does4 ,h[ ,i wi% y 7 ne> u1 & t we c\ld meet & talk & pray toge!r ov] all t has sadd5$ our lives1 & made heav5 su* a bless$ reality6 ,!re is n mu* to tell ab\t ! la/ h\rs ( our de> si/]4 ,%e _h ralli$ a good deal1 & !y all ?\ght %e 0 gett+ well2 b ! day aft] ,*ri/mas typhoid symptoms began to set 94 ,i saw h] on ! ,monday foll[+1 f\nd h] greatly depress$1 & did n /ay long4 ,on ,saturday morn+1 we got a dispat* we %\ld h receiv$ e>ly on ,new ,ye>'s day1 say+ %e 0 s9k+4 ,we hurri$ out1 f\nd h] flu%$ & bright1 b ne> h] end1 hav+ no pulse at ei!r wri/1 & h] h&s & feet cold4 ,%e _h _h a di/ress+ day & night1 b n[ seem$ p]fectly easy2 knew u1 gave u a glad welcome1 rem9d$ me t ,i _h promis$ to g ) h] to ! end1 & kiss$ u he>tily4 ,e "t we w5t ne> h] %e gave u su* a glad smile t x 0 h>d to believe %e 0 go+ s soon4 ,%e talk$ incessantly1 ) no signs ( debility1 b x 0 ! re/lessness ( approa*+ dea?4 ,at ?ree 9 ! aft]noon !y all came into ! room1 z !y always did at t h\r4 ,%e said a few ?+s1 & evid5tly began to lose h] sight1 = z ,lewis 0 ab\t to leave ! room1 %e said1 ,good-night1 ,l41 & !n to me1 ,:y1 ,lizzy de>1 y are n go+ to /ay all night8 ,i said1 ,oh yes1 don't y "k ,i promis$ to /ay ) ,a41 :o w be s lonely8 ,%e look$ pleas$1 b greatly surpris$1 h] m9d be+ s weak1 & 9 a few seconds %e laid h] re/less h&s on h] brea/1 h] eyes became fix$1 & ! la/ g5tle brea?s began to come & g4 ,is ! doctor "h8 %e ask$4 ,we told h] no1 & !n ,mr4 ,s4 & ! nurse1 :o 7 close ea* side ( h]1 began to repeat a v]se or two ( ,scripture2 !n see+ %e 0 app>5tly too f> gone to he>1 ,mr4 ,s4 lean$ ov] & :isp]$1 ,my d>l+6 ,%e made no response1 on :i* he said1 ,%e c make no response1 & %e said1 ,b ,i he>1 gave "o or two m g5tle little brea?s1 & 0 gone4 ,i =got to say t aft] h] eyes 7 fix$1 he>+ ,mr4 ,s4 groan1 %e /opp$ dy+1 turn$ & gave a p>t+ look6 ,i nev] saw an easi] dea?1 nor su* a bright face up to ! v la/4 ,"o ( ! doctors com+ 91 9 ! morn+1 0 app>5tly ov]come by ! extraord9>y smile %e gave him1 = he turn$ away imm$iately )\t a ^w1 & left ! h\se4 ,i /aid1 z !y wi%$ me to d1 till ,monday night1 :5 ,i came home q us$ up4 ,y\r sorr[1 & ! sorr[ at ,brooklyn1 & n[ ?is "o1 h come "o aft] ano!r until x seem$ z if !re 0 no end to x2 su* is life1 & we mu/ be> x pati5tly1 kn[+ ! end w be ! m joyful = all t sadd5$ ! way4 ,i %all always let y "k if any?+ ( special int]e/ occurs 9 ! *ur* or among ourselves4 ,aft] lov+ y s _m ye>s1 ,i am n likely to =get y n[4 ,! addresses at ,mrs4 ,s4's fun]al w probably be publi%$1 & we w s5d y a copy4 ,mr4 ,p4 is be>+ up bravely1 b feels ! li/lessness ( :i* ,i spoke1 & f9ds s]monis+ h>d "w4 ,he jo9s me 9 love to y4 ,d write (t54 ,to ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,feb4 #af1 #ahfi4 ,on com+ home f *ur* on ,sunday aft]noon ,i f\nd "o ( ! ,brooklyn family wait+ to tell u t ano!r ( ! girls 0 v ill1 t !y 7 all worn out & ne>ly frantic1 & ask+ if %e might be br\ght "h to be put "u ! c>e ( "s ,g]man doctor1 z ,dr4 ,smi? _h giv5 h] up4 ,9 ! mid/ ( my sorr[ = ! poor "m1 ,i ?\ght ( myself4 ,h[ c\ld ,i1 :o _h n be5 all[$ to invite ,miss ,lyman "h1 und]take ?is t]rible c>e8 ,y "k :at a fe>ful disease x is--h[ _m convulsions !y h2 b y don't "k ! h>m x did me j see+ poor ,j5nie ,p4 9 "o4 ,ye/]day ,i tri$ h>d to let ,god manage x1 b ,i "k ,i wi%$ ,he w\ld manage x s z to sp>e me2 x takes s little to pull me d[n1 & s little to de/roy my heal?4 ,b ,i wasn't 9 a good frame1 c\ldn't write a ,p]cy = ! ,obs]v]1 got a lett] f "s h\se d[n t[n1 ask+ me to write !m ,susy books1 got a ,london ,daily ,news conta9+ a nice notice ( ,little ,l\1 b n\ght consol$ me4 #b ,9 fact1 ,i dawdl$ s long ov] ,h4's lessons1 :i* ,i always he> aft] breakfa/1 t ,i _h n my usual "t to pray2 & t1 ( itself1 w\ld spoil any day4 ,aft] d9n] came two ( ! ,pr5tiss si/]s to say t ,dr4 ,horatio ,smi? said ,eva's "o *ance ( gett+ well 0 to come "h = *ange ( air & sc5e--w\ld ,i take h] & h] "m8 ,( c\rse ,i w\ld4 ,!y !n told me t ,dr4 ,smi? _h said 8 bro!r's case 0 p]fectly hopeless4 ,?is upset me4 ,my feet turn$ into ice & my head into a ball ( fire4 ,z soon z !y left1 ,i _h ! sp>e room arrang$1 & !n w5t out & walk$ till d>k to cool (f my head1 b to s little purpose t ,i _h a bad night2 ! news ab\t ,pr(4 ,s4 0 s dreadful4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 appall$1 too4 ,i _h to make ?is a day ( re/--n d>+ to "w aft] su* a night4 ,got up at sev5 or s1 took my ba?1 rung ! bell = pray]s at tw5ty m9utes ( eight4 ,aft] breakfa/ he>d ,h4's lessons1 !n read ! #bj? *apt] ( ,mat!w2 & mus$ long on ,*ri/'s com+ to m9i/]--n to be m9i/]$ unto4 ,pray$ = poor ,mrs4 ,smi? & a good _m we>y s\ls1 & felt a little bit bett]4 ,!n w5t d[n to ,r&olph's at ! reque/ ( a lady1 :o want$ him to sell "s books %e _h got up = a b5evol5t object4 ,he said he'd take twelve4 ,!n to ! ,smi?s1 burd5$ ) my sad secret4 ,got home tir$ & depress$4 ,tri$ to get to sleep & c\ldn't1 tri$ to read & c\ldn't4 ,at la/ !y came ) ! sick girl1 & "o look at ! poor1 half- fa9t+ *ild1 & h] "m's ,nobody 9 ! _w b y w\ld h let u come1 made !m welcome2 & ,i h rejoic$ ev] s9ce t ,god let !m come4 ,"o ( ! fir/ ?+s !y said took my wor/ burd5 (f my back2 ! :ole /ory ab\t ,pr(4 ,smi? 0 a dream6 ,c y conceive my relief8 ,we _h d9n]4 ,eva ate m ?an %e _h done = a long "t4 ,we _h a long talk ) h] "m aft] d9n]2 !n ,i w5t up to ! sick-room & /ay$ an h\r or s2 !n _h a call2 !n ran out to c>ry a book to a wid[$ lady1 t ,i hop$ w\ld com=t h]2 !n home1 & ) ,eva till tea-"t4 ,!n _h "s com=t 9 lay+ all ^! c>es & int]e/s 9 ^? lov+ ,arms t are always s ready to take !m 94 ,i enjoy pray+ 9 ! morn+ be/1 h[ev]--p]haps because less tir$2 b sometimes ,i ?9k x is ow+ to a sort ( night-prep>ation = x2 ,i mean1 9 ! wakeful times ( night & e>ly morn+4 ,w$nesday1 #ag?--,:ile ,i 0 writ+ ! above all ! ,brooklyn ,pr5tisses w5t to b$1 & we ,new ,york ,pr5tisses w5t to ! ,sunday- s*ool rooms next door to a *ur*-ga!r+4 ,!re are ?ree rooms t c be ?r[n toge!r1 & !y 7 bright & fragrant ) fl[]s1 mo/ ( :i* ! "y m5 s5t me aft]w>ds1 exquisite ?+s4 ,i _h a preci\s talk ) ,dr4 ,abbot1 "o ( ^: feet1 to say ! lea/1 is already on ! topmo/ r\nd4 ,i only wi% he 0 a woman4 ,! *ur* 0 op51 & we all w5t 9 & li/5$ to "s f9e music4 ,com+ out ,i said to a g5tleman :o approa*$ me1 ,h[ is little baby8 ,:i* little baby8 ,:y1 ! y\nge/4 ,oh1 we hav5't any baby4 ,& lo6 ,i _h mi/ak5 my man6 ,imag9e h[ he felt & h[ ,i felt6 ,we got home at elev5 ,p4,m41 & s end$ my day ( re/4 ,i h #edj ?+s to say1 b !re is s mu* go+ on t ,i %all defraud y ( !m--ar5't y glad8 ,h y read ! ,gates ,aj>8 ,i h1 ) real pa94 ,i d n ?9k y w be s %ock$ at x z ,i am1 b hope y don't l x4 ,x is full ( tal5t1 b has next to no ,*ri/ 9 x1 & my heav5 is full ( ,him4 ,i h f9i%$ ,fab]4 ,h[ que] he is ) 8 #c's & #e's & #f's & #g's6 ,i feel all done up into little sums 9 addition1 & t's ab\t all ,i "k ( myself--he's bewild]$ me s4 ,!re are f9e ?+s 9 x1 & ,i took ! lib]ty ( mak+ a wee cross aga9/ "s ( !m1 :i* y c rub out4 ,miss ,l4 s5t me ano!r ( 8 books1 :i* ,i am read+ n[--,all = ,jesus4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #bb1 #ahfi ,we 7 gladd5$ e>ly ?is morn+ by ! arrival ( y\r lett]1 & ! good news x conta9$4 ,i _h a dreadful fright on ! day y rea*$ ,s\?ampton4 ,mr4 ,moore s5t up a cable dispat* ann\nc+ ! fact1 & z x came direct$ to bo? ( u1 & ,i suppos$ x to be f y1 ,i ?\ght "s t]rible ?+ _h happ5$4 ,i p>ad$ d[n to ,m4 ) y\r lett]1 & %e1 at ! same "t1 p>ad$ up "h ) ! "o to h] & ! re/4 ,s we got all ! news !re 01 & long$ = m4 ,i hope ! wor/ is n[ ov]4 ,i h j got home f a visit ( f\r days & nights to ,miss ,lyman4 ,i enjoy$ x exce$+ly1 & wi% ,i c\ld tell y all ab\t x1 b c't 9 a lett]4 ,%e has turns ( look+ absolutely ag$1 & seems a good deal ( ! "t 9 a p]fect worry1 ,i don't "k :at ab\t4 ,o!rwise %e is bett] ?an la/ summ]4 ,i nev] saw h] :5 at "w be=e1 & p]haps %e always appe>s s4 ,we _h two or ?ree good r\s+ laughs1 h[ev]1 & t did u bo? good4 ,i did n "k %e 0 s fond ( fl[]s2 %e buys !m & keeps loads ( !m ab\t h] p>lors1 libr>y1 & b$room4 ,:at a _w x is !re6 ,i only wi% %e 0 happi] 9 h] "w1 b p]haps if we c\ld get beh9d ! sc5es1 we %\ld f9d all human work]s h _! sorr[s & misgiv+s & fa9t+s4 ,accord+ to h] ,i _h an inquiry meet+ once or twice2 believe x if y c & d>e4 ,x 0 c]ta9ly v pleasant to get into su* an intellig5t ,*ri/ian atmosph]e1 & on ! :ole ,i've got r conv]t$ to ,vass>4 ,i h be5 greatly delight$ ) a pres5t ( "o ( my fa!r's cuff- buttons 7:i* ,i well rememb]71 & a lock ( 8 hair4444 ,i hav5't got any?+ m to say4 ,oh1 ,mrs4 ---- left t on h] c>d "h ! o!r day1 & we call$ on h] ?is aft]noon4 ,:at a jolly old lady %e is6 ,( c\rse1 anybody c\ld believe 9 p]fection :o 0 z fat & well z %e6 ,to ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,new ,york1 ,april #e1 #ahfi ,if ,i %\ld s5d y a lett] e "t ,i s5d y a ?\ght1 y w\ld be q ov]:elm$ ) !m4 ,n[ t ,mrs4 ,s4 has gone away1 & "s ( my press+ c>es are ov]1 ,i miss y m ?an ev]4 ,we h _h a good deal to sadd5 u ?is w9t]1 beg9n+ ) y\r sorr[1 :i* 0 also ours2 & ,eva ,p4's dea?1 occurr+ z x did 9 our h\se1 0 a di/ress+ "o4 ,%e 0 "h ab\t a =tnight1 & ! fir/ week came d[n to h] meals1 ?\gh %e kept 9 h] room ! re/ ( ! "t4 ,on ,tuesday night ( ! second week %e 0 at ! tea-table1 & play$ a duet ) ,a4 aft] tea4 ,soon aft] %e 0 tak5 ) di/ress = brea?1 & 0 nev] 9 b$ aga91 b sat ne>ly d\ble 9 a *air1 ) "o ( u support+ h] head4 ,x 0 agoniz+ suff]+ to witness1 & ! c>e ( h] 0 m labori\s ?an anyone c conceive1 :o did n witness or p>ticipate 9 x4 ,we _h at la/ to h six on h& to relieve ea* o!r4 ,%e di$ on ,saturday1 aft] f\r t]rible days & nights4 ,we knew %e w\ld die "h :5 !y fir/ propos$ h] com+1 b did n l to refuse h] la/ desire1 & are v glad we _h ! privilege ( m9i/]+ to h] la/ wants4444 ,= y ,i desire b "o ?+--a full possession ( ,*ri/4 ,let u turn away our eyes f ev]y?+ t does n directly exalt ,him 9 our affections2 we are poor )\t ,him1 no matt] :at our worldly advantages are2 ri* ) ,him :5 /ripp$ ( all besides4 ,/ill ,i "k y are pass+ ?r\gh deep wat]s1 & at times mu/ well nigh s9k4 ,b y\r lov+ ,savi\r w n let y s9k1 & ,he nev] lov$ y s well z ,he does n[4 ,h[ (t5 ,i long to fly to y 9 y\r lonely h\rs6 ,b ,i c n1 & s ,i turn ^! long+s into pray]s4 ,i hope y pray = me1 too4 ,y c\ld n give me any?+ ,i %\ld value s mu*1 & x is a great com=t to me to "k t y love me4 ,i c>e m to be lov$ ?an to be admir$1 don't y8 ,i hope t by next w9t] y may feel t y c come & see u2 ,i want to see y1 n m]ely to write to y & get answ]s4 ,i s5d y a picture ( our ne/ at ,dorset4 ,good-bye4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,april #bj1 #ahfi ,i op5$ y\r lett] 9 ! /reet1 & 0 at once confront$ ) a worldly-look+ bit ( silk6 ,h[ c y6 ,:y don't y foll[ my example & dress 9 sackclo? & a%es8 ,i ?9k h[ev]1 if y w be worldly y h done x v prettily1 & on ! :ole don't "k t x is any wick$] ?an ,i h be5 9 translat+ a dramatic poem 9 five acts f ! ,g]man1 only y've got y\r dress done & ,i'm only half ?r\gh my play2 & !re's no kn[+ h[ bad ,i %all get be=e ,i am ?r\gh4 ,i wond] if y are sitt+ by an op5 w9d[1 z ,i am1 & roa/+ at t8 ,i _h a drive ) ,a4 & ,m4 ?r\gh ! ,p>k ye/]day1 & saw /acks ( hyac9?s 9 bloom1 & tulips & violets & d&elions2 a will[-tree n f> f my w9d[ has put on its t5d] gre51 & summ] seems close at h&4 ,i h be5 to an auction & got *eat$1 z ,i might h kn[n ,i %\ld2 & ! o!r day ,i _h my pocket pick$4 ,z to ,gates ,aj>1 mo/ p are en*ant$ ) x2 b ,miss ,lyman reg>ds x z ,i d1 & s d "s o!r elect ladies4 ,i h j writt5 to see if %e w come d[n & get a little re/1 n[ ! wea!r is s f9e4 ,mr4 ,p4 has gone to ,dorset to be gone all ! week1 & ,i am buy+ up :at is to be b\ght1 begrudg+ e c5t6 mean wret* t ,i am4 ,i h look$ ?r\gh & read p>ts ( ,pati5ce ,/rong's ,out+s--an ugly title1 & a transc5d5tal /yle1 b beautiful 9 conception1 & tak5 (f ! /ilts1 9 execution4 ,i d n l ! cant ( ,unit>ians any bett] ?an !y l ours1 b ,i l :at is elevat+ 9 any sect4 ,i h _h a pres5t ( a lot ( table-l951 t[els1 etc41 = ,dorset1 & feel a good deal l a "y h\sekeep]4 ,i wond] h[ soon y g back to ,nor?ampton8 ,h[ que] x mu/ be to be able to float r\nd6 ,x is a pity y c\ld n float to ,new ,york1 & get a good hugg+ f ?is old woman4 ,we expect #bej m9i/]s "h 9 ,may at g5]al assembly 7,i ought to h spelt x ) a big ,g & a big ,a74 ,my de> *ild1 :at makes y get blue8 ,i don't mu* believe 9 any blue devils save ^? t live 9 ! body & s5d sallies into ! m9d4 ,p]haps ,i %\ld1 ?\gh1 if ,i _h n a husb& & *ildr5 to look aft]2 h[ little "o c judge = ano!r6 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,h[ %e e>n$ h] ,sleep4 ,writ+ = "y ,conv]ts ab\t speak+ ! ,tru?4 ,meet+ ( ! ,g5]al ,assembly 9 ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,reunion4 ,d4,d4s & ,/rawb]ry ,%ort-cake4 ,enact+ ! ,tig]4 ,gett+ ready = ,dorset4 ,lett]s4 ,?is ye> 0 "o ( ! busie/ ( h] life2 & x 7 h>d to say :i* 0 busie/1 h] body or m9d2 h] h&1 he>t1 or bra94 ,?is rel5tless activity 0 caus$ 9 "p by ! increas+ difficulty ( obta9+ sleep4 ,incessant "w seem$ to be1 9 h] case1 a sort ( sub/itute = natural re/ & a solace = ! loss ( x4 ,%e alludes to ?is con/ant /ruggle ) insomnia 9 a lett] to ,miss ,w>n]1 dat$ ,may #i?3 ,if y knew ! :ole /ory y w\ld n envy my p[] ( driv+ ab\t s mu*4 ,y c lie d[n & sleep :5 y please2 ,i mu/ e>n my sleep by h>d "w1 :i* uses up s mu* "t t ,i wond] ,i ev] accompli% any?+4 ,i believe t ,god arranges our v>i\s burd5s & fits !m to our backs1 & t ,he sets (f a loss aga9/ a ga91 s t :ile "s seem m favor$ ?an o!rs1 ! m]e aspect deceives4 ,i h to make x my /eady object ?r\gh\t ea* day1 s to sp5d "t & /r5g? z to obta9 sleep en\gh to c>ry me ?r\gh ! next2 x is ?us ,i h acquir$ ! habit ( tak+ a l>ge am\nt ( ex]cise1 :i* keeps me out ( doors :5 ,i am long+ to be at "w )94 ,y say ,i seem to be always 9 a flood ( joy2 well1 t too is seems4 ,i ?9k ,i "k :at joy 9 ,god means1 ?\gh p]haps ,i only beg9 to "k2 b ,i am a weak creature2 ,i fall into sn>es & get entangl$--n ne>ly s (t5 z ,i us$ to d1 b /ill d get into !m4 ,i h a p]fect horror ( !m2 ! ?\ght ( hav+ any?+ come betwe5 ,god & my s\l makes me s re/less & uneasy t ,i h>dly "k :i* way to turn4 ,i h be5 v mu* absorb$ ( late 9 v>i\s int]e/s1 & am sure !y h contriv$ to occupy me too mu*2 press+ c>es d sometimes1 & oh1 h[ a%am$ ,i am6 ,d write = "y inquir]s1 if y\r he>t prompts y to d x4 ,i don't "k :at to ?9k ( y\r sugge/ion t 9 writ+ = "y conv]ts ,i %\ld impress x ^u !m to speak ! tru?4 ,x seems to me j l tell+ !m n to commit murd]2 & t w\ld be absurd4 ,d ,*ri/ians *eat & tell lies8 ,i h a great av]sion to writ+ ab\t su* ?+s2 if *ildr5 are n tra9$ at home to be upright & full ( integrity1 x c't be t books c rectify t loss4 ,y may reply t home-tra9+ is defective 9 ?\s&s ( cases2 yes1 t is true1 b ,i h a feel+ t tru? & hone/y mu/ spr+ f a soil e>ly prep>$ = !m1 & t a "y p]son :o is 9 ! habit ( falsehood is n a ,*ri/ian & ne$s to g back to fir/ pr9ciples4 ,i c't endure subt]fuges1 misrepres5tation1 & ! l2 ! :ole f\ndation looks wrong :5 p indulge !mselves 9 !m1 & to say to a ,*ri/ian1 ,i hope y are tru?ful1 is to my m9d z if ,i %\ld say to him1 ,i hope y wa% y\r face & h&s e day4 ,n[ if y\r obs]vation says ,i am wrong1 let's "k2 ,i am op5 to conviction4 ,to ,mrs4 ,h4 ,b4 ,smi?1 ,new ,york1 ,may #bd1 #ahfi4 ,x has j come to me t ! true way to enjoy writ+ & to h y enjoy he>+1 is to keep a sort ( j\rnal1 :]e little ?+s w h a *ance to speak = !mselves4 ,we are n[ 9 ! mid/ ( ,g5]al ,assembly4 ,mr4 ,/e>ns is "h1 & we h spr9kl+s ( m9i/]s to d9e & to tea at all sorts ( odd h\rs4444 ,i c't help lov+ :at is ,*ri/like 9 p1 :e!r ,i l _! natural *>act]s or n2 aft] all1 :at else is !re 9 ! _w wor? mu* love8 ,my ,katy seems to be pl\gh+ h] way ) m or less success1 & mak+ fri5ds & foes4 ,y1 :o help$ me fa%ion h]1 w\ld be int]e/$ 9 ! lett]s ,i get f wives1 %[+ t ! want ( demon/ration 9 m5 is a wide-spread evil1 "u :i* wom5 d groan be+ burd5$4 ,entre n\s1 ,mrs4 ,dr4 ---- is "o1 & ,i got a lett] to-day f ,mi*igan to ! same effect4 ,we are hav+ delightful wea!r = ! meet+s4 ,ye/]day morn+ ,dr4 ,john ,hall prea*$ 9 our *ur*1 & x 0 cramm$ full to ,ov]fl[+4444 ,lew4 ,s4 #c has decid$ to /udy !ology4 ,we are all glad4 ,he & ,i h got q acqua9t$ ( late & talk mo/ le>n$ly toge!r4 ,did ,i tell y ,i h translat$ a ,g]man dramatic poem 9 five acts8 ,miss ,anna ,nev9s says ,i h done x extremely well4 ,i don't "k ab\t t1 b my :ole s\l got into x someh[1 & ,i did n "k :e!r ,i 0 9 ! body or out ( x = two or ?ree weeks4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld d ?+s dec5tly & 9 ord]4 ,!re is to be a great p>ty at ,apollo ,hall ?is ev5+ = bo? ,assemblies4 ,i am go+ & expect to get tir$ to dea?4 #bf?--,x 0 a brilliant sc5e at ,apollo ,hall4 ,ev]ybody 0 !re1 & ! hall 0 f9ely adapt$ to ! purpose ( accommodat+ ! #b1jjj p pres5t4 ,! spee*es 7 v poor4 ,i w5t to ! pray]-meet+ ?is morn+4 ,! *ur* 0 full1 gall]ies & all1 & ! _s 0 excell5t4 ,_m m5 %$ te>s 9 speak+ = reunion1 &1 f :at ,mr4 ,/e>ns reports ( ! meet+ ( ! ,committee la/ night1 union may be consid]$ z good z re/or$4 ,y w he> no?+ else f me2 x is all ,i he> talk$ ab\t4 ,monday1 #cl4--,hot z ne$ be4 ,dr4 ,b41 ( ,brooklyn1 d9$ ) u2 said he nev] ate /rawb]ry %ort-cake be=e1 & 0 read+ ,katy4 ,x is awful to ?9k h[ _m ,d4,d4s are do+ x 7eat+ %ort-cake1 ,i mean1 ( c\rse67 ,hope ! ,assembly w w9d up to-night4 ,june #e4--,we are s glad y h got to ,la ,t\r & f9d x s pleasant !re1 & t y h met ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,gu?rie1 & t !y h met y in/ead ( ! bl[sy-t[sy ,am]ican wom51 :o make "o s a%am$ ( !m4 ,if ,i wasn't go+ to ,dorset1 ,i %\ld wi% ,i 7 go+ :]e y are2 b !n1 y see1 ,i am go+ to ,dorset6444 ,i h be5 to ! ,c5tral ,p>k ) ,mrs4 ---1 :o talk$ 9 "o /eady /ream all ! way4 ,i 0 sleepy & ! c>riage v noisy2 & take x altoge!r1 :at a f>ce life is sometimes6 ! int]c\rse ( human be+s outsides t\*+ outsides1 ! he>t & s\l ly+ to all int5ts & purposes z dead z a door-nail4 ,d y ev] feel m5tally & spiritually alone 9 ! _w8 ,p]haps ev]ybody does4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,june #d1 #ahfi4 ,i conclud$ y _h gone & di$ & got buri$ )\t lett+ me "k1 :5 y\r lett] rea*$ me via ,dorset4 ,:at possess$ y to s5d x !re :5 y knew1 y naughty ?+6 t ,i 0 hav+ ,g5]al ,assembly1 ,i c't imag9e2 b ,i suppose1 be+ a ,congregationali/1 y ?\ght ,g5]al ,assembly wasn't no?+1 & t ,i c\ld ent]ta9 squads ( ,d4,d4s = a =tnight m or less1 j z well at ,dorset z ,i c\ld "h4 ,my de>1 read ! pap]s & g 9 ! way y %\ld g1 & behave y\rself6 ,z if #bej m9i/]s hav5't worn /reaks 9 ! grass r\nd ! *ur*1 hav5't 7"s ( 'em7 be5 "h to d9n] & eat5 my /rawb]ry %ort-cake & cottage pudd+s & prais$ my c(fee & drank two cups apiece all r\nd1 & z if ,i hadn't be5 set up on end = ^? ( 'em to look at :o are read+ ,katy1 & z if go+ furi\sly to "w1 aft] !y'd all gone1 didn't use me up & s5d me lopp+ d[n on s(as1 sigh+ l a :at's-its-"n4 ,well1 well2 ! ignorance ( y c\ntry folks & ! wisdom ( u city folks6 ,we hope to get to ,dorset by ! #ag? ( ?is mon?2 x dep5ds ^u h[ _m int]ruptions ,i h & h[ _m days ,i h to lie by4 ,i c't imag9e :y ,i break d[n s1 = ,i don't "k :5 ,i've be5 s well z dur+ ?is spr+2 b ,mr4 ,p4 & ,a4 say ,i "w l a tig]1 & ,i s'pose ,i d )\t kn[+ x4 ,i am s glad y _h a pleasant ,sunday4 ,no d\bt y _h m bodily /r5g? ) :i* to enjoy spiritual ?+s4 ,a weak body h9d]s pray] & praise :5 ! he>t w\ld s+1 if x 7 n 9 fett]s t cramp & exhau/ x4 ,monday--,to-day ,i h be5 enact+ ! tig] aga91 & work$ furi\sly4 ,a4 half scolds & half entreats1 b ,i c't help x2 if ,i "w ,i "w1 & s !re x is4 ,i h b\ght a d9n]-set1 & _h a long visit f my old ,m>y1 :o wept ov] & kiss$ me1 & am go+ out to call on ,mrs4 ,woolsey ?is ev5+4 ,to-morr[ ,a4's s*ol>s are to come & make an address to h] & give h] a picture4 ,%e is n to "k x till !y arrive4 ,x is really cold aft] ! v hot wea!r1 & "s are freez+ & "s h int]nal pa9s4 ,i wi% y c\ld h se5 me ?is =5oon at "w 9 ! attic--a mass ( du/1 fea!rs1 & p]plexity4 ,i got hold ( "o ( my ,john's innum]able trunks ( pap]s1 & f\nd among !m ! ,,mss4 ( sev]al ( my books laid up 9 lav5d]1 :i* ,i pit*$ into ! a%-b>rel4 ,i suppose he ?9ks ,i may di/+ui% myself "s "t1 & t ! disc]n+ _w w be aft] a scrat* ( my gift$ p56 ,h y read ,gates ,(f ! ,h+es8 ,! next ?+ w be1 ,!re ,a9t no ,gates4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,! new ,home 9 ,dorset4 ,:at x became to h]4 ,lett]s f !re4 ,a notable incid5t ( ?is ye> 0 ! ent]+ ^u h\sekeep+ at ,dorset "u h] own ro(4 ,z is usual 9 su* cases1 ! process 0 some:at we>isome & try+1 b ! result 0 mo/ happy4 ,all ! bright anticipations1 ) :i* ! ev5t _h be5 s long look$ =w>d to1 7 m ?an realis$4 ,= ! next t5 summ]s ! ,dorset home 0 to h] a sweet hav5 ( re/ f ! agitations1 c>es1 & turmoil ( ,new ,york life4 ,x seem$ at ! "t a v5turesome1 almo/ a ra% ?+1 to build x2 b :5 %e left x = h] home above1 ! build+ ( ! h\se seem$ to h be5 an inspiration ( ,provid5ce4 ,:ile contribut+ greatly to h] happ9ess1 x probably add$ sev]al ye>s to h] life4 ,! f\r mon?s :i* %e pass$ ea* season at ,dorset 7 sp5t l>gely 9 ! op5 air1 & 9 su* v>i$ & pleasant ex]cise z ex]t$ ! mo/ heal?ful1 soo?+ influ5ce ^u bo? body & s\l4 ,x 0 j ?is fruit h] husb& hop$ might1 by ! bless+ ( ,heav51 blossom out ( ! new home1 & 9 lat] ye>s he us$ (t5 to say to h]1 t if ! place %\ld be ( a sudd5 annihilat$1 he %\ld /ill feel t x _h paid = itself _m times ov]4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,dorset1 ,july #ai1 #ahfi4 ,h[ _m times dur+ ! la/ mon? ,i h be5 rem9d$ ( y\r say+ y _h liv$ ?r\gh ! agony ( gett+ y\r h\se ready to r5t4 ,i c sum up all ,i h be5 ?r\gh by say+ t almo/ ev]y?+ has turn$ out ! rev]se ( :at ,i expect$4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,i broke d[n j z we 7 to />t to come "h1 & _h to be left beh9d to pick up life en\gh to und]take ! j\rney2 !n ! c> we *>t]$ did n get "h = a week1 & nobody b ,a4 _h any?+ to we>1 & all my fl[]s di$ = want ( wat]4 ,! c>1 too1 0 brok5 into & my idols ( t9 pans all tak51 ) "s o!r ?+s1 & :5 x did arrive x 0 unpack$1 & our goods br\ght "h1 9 a regul> deluge1 ! l ( :i* has n be5 se5 s9ce ! days ( ,noah4 ,= days ev]y?+ 0 9 dire confusion2 b = all t our own home 0 delightful1 & we _h ! mo/ outrage\s appetites y ev] he>d (4 ,george is 9 ec/asies ) 8 h\se1 8 l&1 8 pig1 & 8 horse4444 ,i hope y are n sick & tir$ ( all ?is rigm>ole2 x isn't 9 human nature to move into a h\se ( its own & talk ( any?+ else4 ,i got a w>m-he>t$ lett] a few days ago f ! city ( ,milwaukee1 f an unkn[n we/]n si/]1 beg9n+1 ,:om n hav+ se5 ,i love1 & go+ on to say t ,katy describes h]self & h] lot exactly1 only %e _h no ,m>?a on h&4 ,i get s _m su* te/imonies4 ,i am go+ to sp>e y\r eyes & bra9s by w9d+ up ?is epi/le & go+ to b$4 ,i d n ?9k y\r husb& ought to come home till he has recov]$ 8 p[] ( sleep+4 ,i "k h[ to pity him1 if anybody does1 & ,i "k h[ loss ( sleep cripples4 ,good-night1 de> *ild4 ,god bless me & my wife2 ,y & y\r wife1 ,u f\r ,& no m4 ,to ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,dorset1 ,augu/ #c1 #ahfi4 ,y\r la/ lett] ende>$ y to me m ?an ev]1 & ,i h long$ to answ] x1 b we h be5 9 su* a /ate ( confusion t writ+ has be5 a task4 ,! :ole h\se has be5 pa9t$ inside & out s9ce we ent]$ x1 & ,i d>e say y "k :at endless upro> ! flitt+ f room to room to accommodate pa9t]s1 causes4 ,we h j be5 admitt$ to our p>lor1 b x is 9 no ord]1 & ! d9+-room is /ill pil$ ) trunks4 ,b ! h\se is lovely1 & we %all feel well repaid = ! sev]e labor x has co/ u1 :5 x is done & we c settle d[n 9 x4 ,i write to ask y to s5d me by express :at numb]s ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d y h on h&4 ,i w\ld n give y ! tr\ble to d ?is if ,i c\ld get !m 9 any o!r way1 b ,i c n1 z all back numb]s are gone1 & ! copy ,i h has be5 borr[$ & worn1 s z to be illegible 9 _m places4 ,r&olph is to publi% ! "w & says he wants x soon4 ,i am con/antly receiv+ te/imonies z to its usefulness1 & hope x w d good to _m :o h n se5 x 9 ! ,advance4 ,h[ ,i d long to see y6 ,i ?9k ( y _m times e day1 & ?ank ,god t ,he enables y to glorify ,him 9 be>+ y\r great sorr[4 ,sometimes ,i feel z if ,i mu/ see ,mr4 ,l4's k9d face once m1 b ,i rem9d myself t by pati5tly wait+ a little :ile1 ,i %all see x & ! faces ( all ! sa9t$ ones :o h gone be=e4 ,next to fai? 9 ,god comes pati5ce2 ,i see t m & m1 & few possess en\gh ( ei!r to enable !m to meet ! day ( b]eavem5t )\t dismay4 ,we are con/antly gett+ lett]s f afflict$ s\ls t c n see "o ray ( light1 & keep reit]at+1 ,i am n reconcil$4 ,h[ fe>ful x mu/ be to kick ?us aga9/ ! pricks1 already %>p en\gh6 ,i believe fully ) y t !re is no happ9ess on e>?1 z !re is none 9 heav51 to be comp>$ ) t ( los+ all ?+s to possess ,*ri/4 ,i look back to two po9ts 9 my life z /&+ out f all ! re/ ( x z seasons ( peculi> joy1 & !y are ! po9ts :]e ,i 0 cru%$ "u ! weight ( sorr[4 ,h[ wond]ful ?is is1 h[ incompreh5sible to ^? :o h n le>n$ ,*ri/6 ,d write me (t5]2 y are v de> to me1 & y\r lett]s always welcome4 ,i love y = magnify+ ! ,"l 9 ! mid/ ( y\r di/ress2 y c\ld n get s into my he>t 9 any o!r way4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,dorset1 ,augu/ #h1 #ahfi4 ,half ( y\r *ick5s are safely "h1 well & bright1 & settl$ ,i hope1 = ! summ]4 ,a41 & ,m41 :o seems z joy\s z a l>k1 are l ,siamese tw9s1 ) ! advantage ( unty+ at night & sleep+ 9 diff]5t b$s4 ,i h n be5 well1 & did n g to *ur* to-day2 b ,pr(4 ,rob9son ( ,ro*e/]1 ,n4 ,y41 prea*$ a v sup]ior s]mon1 ,george says4 ,!y h gone to our woods toge!r4 ,we took tea a few nights ago at ! ,pratts1 be+ invit$ to meet him & ,mrs4 ,r4 ,!y ask$ _m que/ions ab\t y & y\r husb&4 ,we f9d ! ,pratts *>m+ neighbors 9 _! way1 mode/1 k9d1 & good4 ,!y take ! ,advance1 read ,katy1 & l x4 ,aug4 #ba/--,z we h only _h sixte5 9 our family ( late1 ,i h n _h mu* to d4 ,ye/]day we made up a p>ty to ! qu>ry & _h j got seat$1 tw5ty-n9e 9 all1 to eat a v nice d9n]1 :5 x began to ra9 9 floods4 ,ea* grabb$ 8 plate1 if he c\ld1 & ru%$ to a blacksmi?'s %op n f> (f2 tw5ty or ?irty workm5 ru%$ !re too1 & !re we 71 coop$ up 9 ! dirt1 to f9i% our meal z we be/ c\ld4 ,x soon /opp$ p\r+ & we _h a delightful drive home4 ,mr4 ,b4 ,f4 ,b41 ) two ( 8 boys1 0 ) u4 ,he is *>m$ ) our h\se & its views4 ,katy has made h] la/ appe>ance 9 ! ,advance1 b ,i keep gett+ lett]s ab\t h] f all qu>t]s1 & ! editors say !y h _h hundr$s4 #d ,h4 has caught up ) ,hal & !y are exactly ( a height1 & ,i feel z if ,i _h a de> little pair ( tw9s4 ,la/ ,sunday ev5+ ! ?ree boys laid _! heads 9 my lap toge!r1 all alike cont5t4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,return to ,t[n4 ,dome/ic ,*anges4 ,lett]s4 ,my ,he>t sides ) ,god 9 ev]y?+4 ,visit+ among ! ,poor4 ,conflict isn't ,s94 ,publication ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,h] ,misgiv+s ab\t x4 ,h[ x 0 receiv$4 ,rem9isc5ces by ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]4 ,lett]s4 ,! ,rev4 ,:eelock ,craig4 ,e>ly 9 ,octob] %e return$ to t[n & began to make ready = ! dep>ture ( h] elde/ daught] to ,europe1 :]e %e 0 to pass ! next ye> ) ! family ( ,pr(4 ,smi?4 ,! y\ng] *ildr5 _h ?us f> be5 taught by _! si/]1 & h] leav+ home 0 fraught ) no little trial bo? to !m & to ! "m4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,new ,york1 ,octob] #ab4 ,i c fully sympa?ise ) ! sad toss y are 9 ab\t /ay+ abroad ano!r ye>1 b we feel t !re is no d\bt y h decid$ wisely & well4 ,b ! b>e m5tion ( y\r settl+ d[n at ,vevay has driv5 u all wild4 ,:at halluc9ation c\ld y h be5 labor+ "u8 ,:y1 y\r husb& w\ld g (f ! h&le 9 a week6 ,to be sure x is beautiful = situation z ,m\nt ,zion itself1 b "o c't live on beauty2 "o mu/ h life & action1 & /imulus2 9 o!r words1 human be+s4 ,!y're all horrid 7except y71 b we c't d )\t 'em4 ,:at ,i w5t ?r\gh at lonely ,g5evri]6 ,oh ,solitude1 :]e are ! *>ms ,t sages h se5 9 ?y face6 ,we took x = grant$ t y w\ld settle 9 "s ,g]man city1 ne> old fri5ds2 x is true1 !y mayn't be all y want1 b any?+ is bett] ?an no?+1 & y w\ld /agnate & m\ld] all away at ,vevay4 ,:at is !re !re8 ,:y1 a lake & "s m\nta9s1 & y c't sp5d a ye> />+ at !m4 ,well1 ,i d>e say light w be let 9 ^u y4 ,i hope ,a4 w behave h]self2 y mu/ rule x ov] h] ) a rod ( iron 7z if y c\ld671 & make h] /& r\nd4 ,h] go+ plunges u into a new _w ( c>e & anxiety & tribulation2 we h ?ru/ our *ildr5 out into1 or on to1 ! great ocean1 & are ab\t ready to s9k ) !m4 ,if ,i c\ld sit d[n & cry1 x w\ld d me lots ( good1 b ,i c't4 ,!n h[ am ,i to sp>e my tw9-boy1 & my ,a4 & my ,m48 ,:o is to keep me well snubb$8 ,:o is to tell me :at to we>8 ,:o is to keep ,d>by & ,joan f settl+ d[n into two fe>ful old pokes8 ,y\r husb& sugge/s t if ,i h a husb&1 etc4 ,i h _h "o ) a v5geance4 ,he has work$ l sev5te5 mad dogs all summ]1 & ,i h h>dly laid eyes on him4 ,:5 ,i h1 x has be5 to fight ) him2 he w\ld come 9 ) a hoe or a rake or a spade 9 8 h&1 & f9d me ) a broom1 a %ovel1 or a pair ( tongs 9 m9e1 & )\t a ^w we w\ld pit* 9 & h an enc\nt]4 ,( all ! aggravat+ creatures1 hasn't he be5 aggravat+6 ,sometimes ,i ?\ght he _h run rav+ di/ract$1 & sometimes ,i d>e say1 he ?\ght ,i _h gone melan*oly mad4 ,he p]si/s to ?is day t ! "w did him good1 & t he enjoy$ 8 summ]4 ,well1 maybe he did2 ,i suppose he kn[s4 ,h[ glad ,i am = y t y are to h ! *ildr5 g to y4 ,x seems to be exactly ! "r ?+4 ,i hope to get a copy ( ,katy to s5d by ! girls1 b c't ?9k ( any?+ else4 ,z ,a4 is to be :]e y are1 y w probably be kept well po/$ 9 ! do+s ( our family4 ,i d hope %e w n be a great addition to y\r c>es1 b h "s misgiv+s z to ! effect s long abs5ce f home may h ^u h]4 ,:at a _w ?is is = %ift+s & sift+s6 ,to ,g4 ,s4 ,p4 ,octob]1 #ahfi4 ,i always ?\ght ,george ,mc,donald a little audaci\s1 ?\gh ,i l him 9 ! ma94 ,!re is a fallacy 9 ?is cavil1 y may dep5d4 ,"s ye>s ago1 :5 ,i 0 a little befogg$ by plausible talk1 ,dr4 ,sk9n] came to our h\se1 got into "o ( 8 be/ moods1 & prea*$ a regul> s]mon on ! glory ( ,god1 t set me all "r aga94 ,i am n skill$ 9 argum5t1 b my he>t sides ) ,god 9 ev]y?+1 & my conception ( ,8 "* is su* a beautiful "o t ,i feel t ,he c n err4 ,i d n l ! expression1 ,he's aye ?9k+ ab\t 8 own glory 7,i quote f memory72 x belittles ! real fact1 & almo/ puts ! ,supreme ,be+ on a level ) u poor mortals4 ,! m "t we sp5d ^u our knees1 9 real communion ) ,god1 ! bett] we %all compreh5d ,8 wond]ful nature1 & h[ impossible x is to submit t nature to ! rules by :i* we judge human be+s4 ,e turn 9 life br+s me back to ?is--m pray]4444 ,i %all g ) mu* pleasure to see ,mrs4 ,g4 & may ,god give me "s good ^w to say to h]4 ,i almo/ envy y y\r sph]e ( usefulness1 b unless ,i give up m9e1 c n get fully into x4 ,i want y to "k t next to be+ ) my ,savi\r1 ,i love to be ) ,8 suff]]s2 s t y c be sure to rememb] me1 :5 y h any on y\r he>t4444 ,p4 ,s4 ,i h hunt$ up ,mrs4 ,g4 & _h su* an int]e/+ talk ) h] t %e has h>dly be5 out ( my m9d s9ce4 ,x is a v unusual case1 & ! fact t h] husb& is a ,jew1 & loves h] ) su* real romance1 is an ob/acle 9 h] way to ,*ri/4 ,:5 y c get a little sp>e "t ,i wi% y w\ld run 9 & let u talk h] case ov]4 ,i'm ev] s glad t ,i'm gr[+ old e day1 & s becom+ bett] fitt$ to be ! de> & lov+ fri5d to "y p ,i want to be4 ,i wi% we bo? lov$ our ,savi\r bett]1 & c\ld d m = ,him4 ,! days 9 :i* ,i d no?+ specifically = ,him seem su* meagre1 su* lo/ days4 ,y seem$ to ?9k1 ! la/ "t ,i saw y1 t y 7 n s ne> ,him z y 7 la/ ye>4 ,i ?9k we c't always "k our own /ate4 ,x does n foll[ t a season ( sev]e conflict is a sign ( e/rangem5t f ,god4 ,p]haps we are nev] de>] to ,him ?an :5 we hate ourselves mo/1 & fancy ourselves intol]able 9 ,8 sight4 ,conflict isn't s94 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,octob] #aa1 #ahfi4 ,i he> ) great conc]n t ,miss ,lyman's heal? is s mu* worse1 t %e is ab\t to leave ,vass>4 ,is ?is true8 ,i c n say ,i %\ld be v sorry if ,i %\ld he> %e 0 go+ to be call$ up high]4 ,x seems su* a bless$ ?+ to f9i% up "o's "w :5 ! ,ma/] says we may1 & go+ to be ) ,him4 ,i c fully sympa?ise ) ! feel+ t made ,mrs4 ,graham say1 z %e clos$ h] daught]'s eyes1 ,i wi% y joy1 my d>l+6 ,b ,i %\ld want to see h] be=e %e w5t2 t w\ld be next be/ to see+ h] aft] %e got back4 ,if y meet ) a de> little book call$ ,! ,melody ( ! #bc;d ,psalm1 d read x2 x is by ,miss ,anna ,w>n]1 & %[s great k (1 & love =1 ! ,bible4 ,9 a few weeks ,i %all be able to s5d y a copy ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,we h be5 home r m ?an a week & ! h\se is all upside d[n1 outw>dly & inw>dly4 ,= ,a4 sails = ,europe on ! #ba/ ) ,m4 & ,hal ,smi?1 to be gone a ye>1 & ?is involves s5d+ ! o!r *ildr5 to s*ool1 & v>i\s try+ *anges ( ! sort4 ,toss+ my long %elt]$ lambs into ! _w has co/ me inexpressible pa92 only a "m c und]/& h[ mu* & :y2 & !y1 on _! "p1 g into x %r9k+ & quiv]+ 9 e n]ve4 ,to _! fa!r1 z well z to me1 ?is has be5 a "t ( sore trial1 & we are do+ our be/ to keep ea* o!r up amid ! disc\ragem5ts & temptations t confront u4 ,= ea* new phase ( life br+s m or less ( bo?4 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d 0 publi%$ t[>d ! end ( ,octob]1 hav+ appe>$ already z a s]ial 9 ! ,*icago ,advance4 ,! fir/ numb] ( ! s]ial 0 pr9t$ ,febru>y #d1 #ahfi4 ,! "w 0 plann$ & ! l>g] "p ( x compos$ dur+ ! w9t] & spr+ ( #ahfg-h4 ,ref]r+ m especially to ?is "p ( x1 %e once said to a fri5d3 ,e ^w ( t book 0 a pray]1 & seem$ to come ( itself4 ,i nev] knew h[ x 0 writt51 = my he>t & h&s 7 full ( some?+ else4 ,by some?+ else %e _h 9 m9d ! c>e ( little ,francis4 ,! ensu+ summ] ! manuscript 0 tak5 ) h] to ,dorset1 c>efully revis$ & f9i%$ be=e h] return to ! city4 ,9 revis+ x %e _h ! advantage ( sugge/ions made by h] fri5ds1 ,miss ,w>n] & ,miss ,lyman1 bo? ( !m ,*ri/ian ladies ( ! be/ culture & ( r>e good s5se4 ,not)/&+ ! favor ) :i* ! "w _h be5 receiv$ z issu$ 9 ,! ,advance1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss _h great misgiv+ ab\t its success--a misgiv+ t _h haunt$ h] :ile engag$ 9 writ+ x4 ,b all d\bt on ! subject 0 soon dispell$3 ,! response to ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d 0 in/ant & g5]al4 ,o!rs ( h] books 7 enjoy$1 prais$1 laugh$ ov]1 b ?is "o 0 tak5 by tir$ h&s into secret places1 por$ ov] by eyes dim ) te>s1 & its lessons pray$ out at _m a ,jabbok4 ,x 0 "o ( ^? books :i* sorr[+1 ,m>y-l wom5 read to ea* o!r1 & :i* lur$ _m a bu/l+ ,m>?a f ! frett+ ( h] c>e-cumb]$ life to pond] ! new lesson ( re/ 9 toil4 ,x 0 "o ( ^? books ( :i* p kept a l5d+ copy1 t !y might enjoy ! un9t]rupt$ companion%ip ( _! own4 ,! circulation ( ! book 0 v l>ge4 ,n to speak ( ! ?\s&s :i* 7 sold "h1 x w5t ?r\gh num]\s editions 9 ,engl&4 ,f ,engl& x pass$ into ,au/ralia4 ,x fell into ! family ( an afflict$ ,swiss pa/or1 & ! com=t :i* x br\ght to t /rick5 h\sehold l$ to its translation into ,fr5* by "o ( ! pa/or's daught]s4 ,x pass$ ?r\gh ,i "k n h[ _m editions 9 ,fr5*4 #e ,9 ,g]many x came into ! h&s ( an invalid lady :o begg$ ! privilege ( translat+ x4 ,! fir/ ^w ( a favorite ,g]man hymn1 ,heav5w>d do? our j\rney t5d2 ,we are /rang]s "h on e>?1 furni%$ ! title = ! ,g]man translation--,himmelan4 ,x appe>$ j aft] ! ,fr5* w>1 & w5t z a com=t] into scores ( ! homes :i* w> _h desolat$1 & frequ5t te/imony came back to h] ( ! deep int]e/ excit$ by ! book1 & ( ! affectionate gratitude call$ out t[>d ! au?or4 ,%e seem$ to h inspir$ h] translator1 ^: lett]s to h] brea! ! w>me/ affection & ! mo/ en?usia/ic admiration4 ,x w\ld be easy to fill up ! "t t rema9s ) grateful te/imonies to ! "w ( ?is book4 ,f among a multitude ,i select only "o3 ,a manufactur] 9 a ,new ,engl& t[n1 a /rang]1 wrote to h] express+ 8 high appreciation ( ! book1 & say+ t he _h f\r ?\s& p]sons 9 8 employ1 & a circulat+ libr>y ( six ?\s& volumes = _! use1 9 :i* 7 two copies ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,he adds1 ,i he> 9 e direction ( ! good x is do+1 & a weal?y fri5d has writt5 to me say+ t %e means to put a copy into ! h& ( e bride ( h] acqua9tance4 #f ,sev]al *apt]s might be fill$ ) lett]s receiv$ by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 express+ ! gratitude ( ! writ]s = ! spiritual help & com=t ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d _h giv5 !m4 ,^! lett]s came f all p>ts ( ?is c\ntry1 f ,europe1 & ev5 f ! ends ( ! e>?2 & !y 7 writt5 by p]sons belong+ to e class 9 society4 ,among !m 0 "o1 writt5 on co>se br[n groc]y pap]1 f a poor crippl$ boy 9 ! int]ior ( ,p5nsylvania1 :i* %e especially priz$4 ,x l$ to a fri5dly correspond5ce t cont9u$ = sev]al ye>s4 ,! book 0 read ) equal delight by p]sons n only ( all classes1 b ( all cre$s also2 by ,calv9i/s1 ,arm9ians1 ,high ,*ur*m51 ,evangelicals1 ,unit>ians1 & ,roman ,ca?olics4 #g ,x 01 h[ev]1 :olly unnotic$ by mo/ ( ! organs ( lit]>y op9ion 9 ?is c\ntry2 al?\gh abroad x attract$ at once ! att5tion ( m5 & wom5 well kn[n 9 ! _w ( lett]s1 & 0 prais$ by !m 9 ! highe/ t]ms4 #h ,miss ,eliza ,a4 ,w>n]1 9 ! foll[+ ,rem9isc5ces1 gives "s int]e/+ incid5ts 9 ref]5ce to ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,t summ] 9 ,dorset--! summ] ( #ahfh--;is "o full ( bright & pleasant memories :i* x is delightful to recall4 ,i _h he>d mu* ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss f mutual fri5ds1 & be5 exce$+ly int]e/$ 9 h] books1 s t :5 ,i f\nd we 7 to be fell[-bo>d]s = ! summ] ,i 0 greatly pleas$2 yet ,i felt a little %y at meet+ "o ( ^: sup]iority 9 _m l9es ,i _h he>d s mu*4 ,h[ well ,i rememb] t bright morn+ 9 ,july on :i* we fir/ met on our way to ! breakfa/-table6 ,i c he> n[ ! frank1 *e]y voice ) :i* %e greet$ me1 & see h] l>ge d>k eyes1 s full ( animation & k9dly int]e/1 :i* a mom5t aft] sp>kl$ ) fun z %e recall$ an old joke famili> to my fri5ds1 &1 x seem$1 to h] also4 ,i 0 put at my ease at once1 & f t mom5t onw>d felt ! wond]ful fasc9ation ( a mann] s peculi>ly h] own2 x 0 a frank1 :ole-s\l$1 s9c]e mann]1 ) a c]ta9 indescribable piquancy & sprightl9ess bl5d+ ) ! e>ne/ness :i* made h] v individual & v *>m+4 ,= ! next two mon?s we 7 a good deal toge!r4 ,i ?9k x 0 a v happy summ] to h]4 ,y 7 build+ ! h\se 9 ,dorset = a summ] home1 & ! plann+ = ?is & wat*+ its progress 0 a pleasant occupation4 ,& %e 0 su* an en?usia/ic lov] ( nature t ! out-(-door life %e l$ 0 a con/ant enjoym5t4 ,%e w\ld sp5d h\rs rambl+ 9 ! woods1 collect+ f]ns1 mosses1 trail+ v9es1 & e lovely bit ( blossom & gre5]y t met h] eye--& no?+ pretty escap$ x--& !re 0 always an add$ fre%ness & brightness 9 h] face :5 %e came home lad5 ) ^! treasures1 & eag] to exhibit !m4 ,oh1 y don't g crazy ov] su* ?+s z ,i d1 %e w\ld say z %e held !m up = our admiration4 ,%e fill$ h] room ) ^! woodl& beauties1 & press$ quantities ( !m to c>ry to h] city home4 ,9 t beautiful valley among ! ,gre5 ,m\nta9s1 "s ( ^: ne> summits rise to ! height ( ?ree ?\s& feet1 h] en?usiasm = f9e sc5]y _h full scope4 ,%e w\ld wat* ) delight ! sunset gl[ z x spread & deep5$ along ^? m\nta9 peaks1 suffus+ !m ) a glory :i* we lik5$ to t ( ! ,new ,j]usalem2 & z we sat & wat*$ ?is glory sl[ly fade1 t9t by t9t1 into ! gray twilight1 h] talk w\ld be ( heav5 & hol9ess & ,*ri/4 ,:atev] %e felt1 %e felt int5sely1 & %e ?rew h] :ole he>t & s\l into all %e said or did2 ?is 0 "o great secret ( ! p[] ( h] p]sonal pres5ce2 %e felt s ke5ly h]self1 %e made o!rs feel4 ,^? summ] days 7 long & bright & beautiful1 b none too long = h]4 ,%e 0 "o ( ! mo/ indu/ri\s p]sons ,i h ev] kn[n1 & h] writ+1 read+ & sew+1 & ! c>e ( h] *ildr51 ov] ! =mation ( ^: *>act]s %e wat*$ closely & wisely1 occupi$ e mom5t ( h] "t1 except :5 %e 0 out ( doors1 try+ by ex]cise 9 ! op5 air to secure a good night's sleep2 n an easy ?+ = h] to d 9 ^? days4 ,e>ly 9 ,augu/ we 7 jo9$ by ,miss ,hannah ,lyman1 ( ,vass> ,college1 a mutual fri5d & a mo/ delightful addition to our little p>ty4 ,we knew ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss sp5t a "p ( e day 9 writ+1 b %e said no?+ ( ! nature ( h] "w4 ,d y rememb] com+ into ! p>lor "o morn+1 :]e ,miss ,lyman & ,i 7 sitt+ by ourselves1 & tell+ u t %e 0 writ+ a /ory1 b _h become s disc\rag$ %e ?reat5$ to ?r[ x aside z n wor? f9i%+8 ,i l x myself1 y add$1 x really seems to me "o ( ! be/ ?+s %e has ev] writt51 & ,i am try+ to get h] to read x to y & see :at y ?9k ( x4 ,( c\rse1 bo? ,miss ,lyman & myself 7 eag] to he> x1 & promis$ to tell h] frankly h[ we lik$ x4 ,! next morn+ %e came to our room ) a little gre5 box 9 h] h&1 say+1 ) h] m]ry laugh1 ,n[ y've got to d p5ance = y\r s9s1 y two wick$ wom56 &1 sitt+ d[n by ! w9d[1 :ile we took our sew+1 %e began to read u 9 manuscript ! "w :i* 0 de/9$ to t\* & /r5g!n s _m he>ts--:i*1 to use ! words ( ano!r1 has become a "p ( ! s\l-hi/ory ( _m ?\s&s ( ,*ri/ian wom5--"y & old--at home & abroad4 ,x 0 a r>e treat to li/5 to x1 ) comm5ts f h] int]sp]s$2 "s ( !m droll & witty1 o!rs full ( pr(\nd religi\s feel+4 ,n[ & !n1 z we qu]i$ if some?+ 0 n improbable or unnatural1 %e w\ld give u bits ( hi/ory f h] own exp]i5ce or t ( h] fri5ds1 go+ to %[ t /rang] ?+s _h occurr$ 9 real life4 ,i ne$ n say we insi/$ on its be+ f9i%$1 feel+ sure x w\ld d great good2 ?\gh ,i mu/ confess t ,i d n ?9k ei!r ( u1 mu* z we enjoy$ x1 0 fully aw>e ( its great m]its4 ,i 0 mu* impress$ by h] s+l5ess ( purpose2 h] "o great desire s evid5tly be+ t h] writ+s %\ld help o!rs to "k & to love ,*ri/ & ,8 tru?1 t %e ?\ght little or no?+ ( h] own reputation4 ,%e w5t on ) h] "w1 occasionally read+ to u :at %e _h add$4 ,9 ^? days %e always spoke ( x z h] ,katy book1 no o!r title hav+ be5 giv5 to x4 ,b "o morn+ %e came to ! breakfa/-table ) h] face all light$ up4 ,i've got a "n = my book1 %e exclaim$2 x came to me :ile ,i 0 ly+ awake la/ night4 ,y "k ,wordswor?'s ,/epp+ ,we/w>d8 ,i am go+ to call x ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d--don't y l x8 ,i d4 ,we all felt x 0 exactly ! "r "n1 & %e add$1 ,i ?9k ,i w put 9 ,wordswor?'s poem z a preface4 ,( ! he>t-commun+s on sacr$ ?+s t made t summ] s memorable to me ,i c n speak2 & yet1 m ?an any?+ else1 ^! gave a di/9ctive "* to our int]c\rse4 ,h] fai? & love 7 s ard5t & p]suad+1 s mu* a "p ( h]self1 t no "o c\ld be ) h] )\t recognis+ _! p[] ov] h] life4 ,%e 0 int]e/$ 9 ev]y?+ ab\t h]1 )\t a p>ticle ( cant1 full ( playful humor & bright fancies2 b ! love ( ,*ri/ 0 ! absorb+ int]e/ ( h] life--almo/ a passion1 x might be call$1 s f]v5t & raptur\s 0 h] devotion to ,him1 s great h] long+ = communion ) ,him & = a m complete con=mity to ,8 p]fect w4 ,z ,i h said1 all h] emotions 7 int5se & h] religi\s affections _h ! same w>m? & gl[4 ,believ+ 9 ,*ri/ 0 to h] n s mu* a duty z ! deepe/ joy ( h] life1 height5+ all o!r joys1 & %e 0 n satisfi$ until h] fri5ds %>$ ) h] 9 ?is exp]i5ce4 ,%e believ$ x to be atta9able by all1 f\nd$ on a complete submitt+ ( ! human to ! ,div9e w 9 all ?+s1 great & small4 ,truly ( h] x might be said1 if ( any human be+1 %e ha? lov$ mu*4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,new ,york1 ,nov4 #af1 #ahfi4 ,y\r arrangem5ts at ,heidelb]g seem to me to be z delightful z any?+ c be 9 a _w :]e no?+ is ideal4 ,be sure to let ,a4 be> h] full %>e ( ! exp5se1 & be a "m to h] if y c4 ,! gaye/ outside life has an und]tone ( sadness1 & ,i d n d\bt %e w h h\rs ( unre/ :i* %e w h>dly "k h[ to acc\nt =4 ,i am afraid ,heidelb]g w be r n>r[ b\nds = y\r husb&1 & hope he may decide to g to ,egypt 9 case 8 e> gets q well4 ,h[ =tunate t he is ne> a really good auri/4 ,i am always n]v\s ab\t e>-tr\bles4 ,fancy y\r hav+ to %\t y\r love to him6 ,9 a lett] writt5 ab\t two weeks ago1 ,miss ,lyman says1 ,h[ am ,i8 ,long+ = a corn] 9 :i* to /op try+ to live1 & lie d[n & die1 & adds t %e is n[ too feeble to travel4 ,i suppose %e is liable to break d[n at any mom5t1 b ,i d hope %e won't be left to g abroad4 ,i judge f :at y say ( ,mr4 ,h4 t he is slipp+ (f4 ,i always look at p :o are go+ to heav5 ) a sort ( curiosity & envy2 x is next be/ to see+ "o :o has j come !nce4 ,get all ! good out ( him y c2 !re is none too mu* sa9tl9ess on e>?4 ,i wond] h[ y sp5d y\r "t8 ,d1 "s "t1 write ! hi/ory ( "o day2 :at y said to t funny cook1 & :at %e said to y2 :at y ?\ght & :at y did2 & :at y didn't ?9k & didn't did4 ,friday1 #ai?4--,?anksgiv+ has come & gone beautifully4 ,x 0 a p]fect day z to wea!r4 ,our congregation jo9$ ,dr4 ,murray's1 & he gave u an excell5t s]mon4 ,! f\r ,/e>nses came 9 to d9n] & seem$ to enjoy x4 ,i suppose y all celebrat$ ! day 9 ,yankee fa%ion & got up ^? abom9ations--m9ce pies4 ,:5 ,i told ,l4 ab\t ----'s f\r? m>riage1 he said x rem9d$ him ( a place he _h se51 :]e a man lay buri$ 9 ! mid/ ( a lot ( wom51 ! sole inscription on 8 grave/one be+ ,our ,husb&4 ,mrs4 ---- says ! tiffs betwe5 my ,katy & h] husb& are exactly l ^? %e _h ) h]s1 & ,mrs4 ---- said v mu* ! same ?+--aft] he>+ :i*1 ,i gave up4 ,tell ,a4 ,i _h a call ye/]day f ,mrs4 ,s----1 :o came to t[n to sp5d ,?anksgiv+ at h] fa!r's1 & fell ^u my neck & ate me up ?ree sev]al times4 ,i tell y :at x is1 x's nice to h p love y1 :e!r y des]ve x or n1 & ?is w>m-he>t$1 en?usia/ic creature really did me good4 ,dr4 ,sk9n] s5t u an extraord9>y book to read call$ ,god's ,furnace4 ,!re is a good deal ( egotism 9 x & self-consci\sness1 & a good deal ( g5u9e ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce4 ,i read x ?r\gh f\r times1 &1 :5 ,i c>ri$ x back & 0 discuss+ x ) him1 he said he _h too4 ,x seems almo/ incr$ible t a :olly sanctifi$ "* c\ld publi% su* a book1 made up z x is ( ! au?or's own lett]s & j\rnal & mo/ sacr$ joys & sorr[s2 b p]haps :5 ,i get sanctifi$ ,i %all g to pr9t+ m9e--x really seems to be a way !y h4 ,! ,hit*cocks sail$ ye/]day1 & x mu/ h *e]$ !m to set =? on s v f9e a day4 ,give my love to ev]ybody /raight ?r\gh f ,hal up to y\r husb& & ,mr4 ,h4 ,lat]4--,( c\rse1 my lett]s to ,a4 are virtually to y1 too1 z f> z y c be int]e/$ 9 ! little details ( :i* !y are made up4 ,r&olph %[$ ,george a lett] ab\t ,katy1 :i* he says beats any?+ we h he>d yet1 :i* is say+ a good deal4 ,"o lady said ,e>ne/ 0 exactly l h] husb&1 ano!r t he 0 pa9fully s2 inde$1 _m sore he>ts are mak+ su* confessions4 ,s ,i beg9 to ?9k !re is ev5 m sorr[fulness & unre/ 9 ! _w ?an ,i ?\ght !re 04 ,y w\ld get sick unto dea? ( ! book if ,i %\ld tell a qu>t] ( :at we he> ab\t x1 good & bad4 ,x q refre%$ me to he> t a "y lady want$ to pun* me4 ,craig's ,life is v t\*+4 ,8 delight 9 ,*ri/ & 9 close fell[%ip ) ,him is beautiful2 b x is pa9ful to see t dy+ man w&]+ ab\t ,europe alone1 :5 he ought to h be5 brea?+ out 8 life 9 ! arms he lov$ s well4 ,h[ did poor ,mrs4 ,c4 live ?r\gh ! week ( susp5se t foll[$ ! telegram ann\nc+ 8 illness8 = "o mu/ love su* a man v deeply1 ,i ?9k4 ,well1 he doesn't c>e n[ :]e he di$ or :51 & he has gone :]e he belong$4 ,i miss y all ev] s mu*1 & ,george keeps up "o con/ant h[l = y\r husb&4 ,x is a my/]y to me :at any ( y f9d 9 my lett]s1 !y d seem s flat to me4 ,:at fun x w\ld be if y w\ld all write me a r\nd lett]6 ,i w\ld write a r\s] = x4 ,lots ( love4 ,! ,rev4 ,:eelock ,craig1 ^: ,life is ref]r$ to by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 9 ! prec$+ lett]1 0 h] husb&'s successor 9 ! pa/orate ( ! ,s\? ,tr9it>ian *ur*1 ,new ,b$=d4 #i 99 99 99 99 99 ,v4 ,recollections by ,mrs4 ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?4 ,! foll[+ ,recollections f ! p5 ( ,mrs4 ,smi? may fitly close ! pres5t *apt]3 ,,nor?ampton1 ,janu>y #b1 #ahgi4 ,,my ,,de> ,,dr4 ,,pr5tiss3--,i h be5 try+ ?is beautiful sn[y day1 :i* %uts u 9 to our own ?\ghts1 to recall "s ( my impressions ( y\r de> wife1 b ,i f9d x v difficult2 !re 0 su* v>iety to h]1 & s mu* ( h]1 & ! ?+s :i* 7 mo/ *>act]i/ic are s h>d to be describ$4 ,i read ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d 9 ,,ms4 be=e we w5t to ,europe 9 #ahfi4 ,i rememb] %e us$ to say t ,i 0 ,katy's ,aunt1 because we talk$ h] ov] ) s mu* int]e/4 ,%e s5t me a copy to ,heidelb]g1 :]e ,i began at once translat+ x into ,g]man z my regul> ex]cise4 ,i 0 delight$ to give my copy to ,mrs4 ,pr(4 ,k4 9 ,leipsic1 z ! ,am]ican /ory :i* ,i 0 will+ to h h] translate into ,g]man1 z %e _h ask$ = "o4 ,!re is no ne$ ( tell+ y ab\t ! en?usiasm :i* ! book creat$4 ,wom5 ev]y:]e said1 ,x seems to be myself t ,i am read+ ab\t2 & ! feel+ t !y1 too1 ) all _! imp]fections1 might be really /epp+ heav5w>d1 0 "o great secret ( its inspiration4 ,"o little incid5t may int]e/ y4 ,my niece1 ,mrs4 ,pr(4 ,em]son1 0 driv+ alone t[>d ,amh]/1 & took into h] c>riage a poor color$ woman :o 0 walk+ ! same way4 ,! woman soon said1 ,i h be5 ?9k+ a good deal ( y1 ,mrs4 ,e41 & ( y\r little *ildr51 & ,i h be5 read+ a book :i* ,i ?\ght y w\ld l4 ,x 0 some?+ ab\t walk+ t[>ds heav54 ,0 x ',/epp+ ,heav5w>d'8 ,yes1 t 0 x4 ,h[ naturally1 mode/ly1 almo/ indiff]5tly1 %e receiv$ ! tributes :i* p\r$ 9 ^u h]6 ,yet1 ?\gh %e c>$ little = praise1 %e c>$ mu* = love1 & = ! consci\sness t %e 0 a help] & com=t] to o!rs4 ,on read+ ! book aga9 ?is la/ summ]1 ,i 0 /ruck by see+ h[ true a transcript ( h]self1 9 m ?an "o respect1 0 giv5 9 ,katy4 ,:y c n ,i make a jacket = my baby )\t ?r[+ into x ! ardor ( a soldi] go+ into battle8 ,h[ ard5tly %e ?rew h]self into ev]y?+ %e did6 ,9 fri5d%ip & love & religion ?is outp\r+ ( h]self 0 mo/ /rik+4 ,h] e>li] books %e always read or submitt$ to me 9 manuscript1 & %e %[$ s little self-int]e/ 9 !m1 & ,i s mu*1 t !y seem$ a sort ( common prop]ty4 ,i ?9k t ,i _h q z mu* pleasure 9 _! success & f> m pride1 ?an h]self4 ,! ,susy books ,i always consid]$ q z sup]ior 9 _! way z ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,!y are /ill pe]less among books = little *ildr54 ,h5ry & ,bessie1 too1 conta9s "s ( ! mo/ beautiful religi\s tea*+ ev] writt54 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me %e us$ to talk ab\t almo/ z if ,i _h writt5 x1 = no o!r reason ?an t ,i lik$ x s mu*4 ,my si/] says t h] daught] ,nettie read ,little ,susy ?r\gh twelve times1 gett+ up to read x be=e breakfa/4 ,%e pr9t$ 7be=e %e c\ld write7 a little lett] ( ?anks to y\r wife1 :o s5t h] ! foll[+ pretty note 9 reply3 ,,new ,,york1 ,janu>y #aj1 #ahed4 ,,my ,,de> ,,nettie3--,:at a nice little lett] y wrote me6 ,x pleas$ me v mu*4 ,i %all keep x 9 my desk1 & :5 ,i am an old woman1 ,i %all buy a pair ( spectacles1 & sit d[n 9 ! *imney-corn]1 & read x4 ,:5 y le>n to write ) y\r own little f+]s1 ,i hope y w write me ano!r lett]4 ,y\r fri5d1 ) love1 ,,aunt ,,susan4 ,%e did no?+ = effect1 & made little or no ef=t m]ely to please2 %e 0 almo/ too c>eless ( ! impression :i* %e made ^u o!rs1 &1 on ?is acc\nt1 /rang]s sometimes ?\ght h] cold & unsympa!tic4 ,b t\* h] at ! "r po9t & ! "r mom5t1 & !re 0 no measure to h] int]e/ & w>m?4 ,%e hat$ all pret5se & display1 & ! slighte/ symptom ( !m 9 o!rs %ut h] up & kept h] grave & sil5t1 & ?is1 n f a sev]e or ,ph>isaic _s1 b because ! atmosph]e 0 s =eign to h] t %e c\ld n live 9 x4 ,i pity p t h any %am ab\t !m :5 ,i am by1 %e said "o day4 ,i am dreadfully afraid ( "y ladies1 %e said at ano!r "t4 ,%e c\ld n adapt h]self to ! artificial & conv5tional4 ,yet ) "y ladies :o lov$ :at %e lov$ %e 0 peculi>ly free & playful & =?-giv+1 & su* 7 among h] de>e/ & mo/ lov+ly admir+ fri5ds4 ,:5 we met1 !re 7 no prelim9>ies2 %e plung$ at once into ! subject :i* 0 int]e/+ h]1 ! book1 ! p]son1 ! case ( sickness or tr\ble1 ! plan1 ! la/ %opp+1 ! game1 ! g>m5t1 ! new prep>ation = ! table--9 a way peculi>ly h] own4 ,"o c\ld nev] be ) h] _m m9utes )\t he>+ "s bright fancy1 "s quick /roke ( rep>tee1 "s ludicr\s way ( putt+ a ?+4 ,b :e!r %e told ( ! grumbl] :o c\ld f9d no?+ to compla9 ( 9 heav5 except t 8 halo didn't fit1 or said 9 h] quick way1 :5 ! pla9ness ( a lady's dress 0 comm5d$1 ,:y1 ,i didn't suppose t anybody c\ld g to heav5 n[-a-days )\t an ov]skirt1 or wrote h] sp>kl+ impromptu rhymes = our *ildr5's games1 h] mir? 0 all 9 h>mony ) h] e>ne/ life4 ,h] quick p]ceptions1 h] droll comp>isons1 h] read9ess ( expression1 unit$ ) h] r>e & t5d] sympa?ies1 made h] ! mo/ fasc9at+ ( companions to bo? "y & old4 ,our little ,saturday te>1 ) our *ildr51 :ile our husb&s 7 at ,*i ,alpha1 7 r>e times4 ,my *ildr5 enjoy$ ,aunt ,lizzy almo/ z mu* z ,i did4 ,%e 0 usually 9 h] be/ mood at ^! times4 ,:5 y & ,h5ry came 91 on y\r return f ,*i ,alpha1 y look$ 9 ^u1 or1 r1 y complet$ a happi] circle ?an ?is impov]i%$ e>? c ev] %[ u aga94 ,h] acquisitions 7 s rapid1 & %e made s little %[ ( !m1 t "o might h d\bt$ _! ?or\ghness1 :o _h no occasion to te/ !m4 ,h] beautiful translation ( ,griselda 0 a surprise to _m4 ,i rememb] h] eag] en?usiasm :ile translat+ x4 ,! writ+ ( h] books 0 almo/ an inspiration1 s rapid1 )\t copy+1 almo/ )\t alt]ation1 runn+ on 9 h] cle>1 pure /yle1 ) "h & !re a radiant sp>kle above ! full dep?s4 ,x sometimes seem$ z if %e 7 int]e/$ only 9 ^? :om %e knew %e c\ld b5efit4 ,if s1 x 0 f h] ev]-pres5t consci\sness ( a consecrat$ life4 ,%e con/antly s\ght = ways ( %[+ h] love to ,*ri/1 especially to ,8 sick & suff]+ & sorr[+ ones4 ,life ) h] 0 peculi>ly int5se & e>ne/2 %e look$ ^u x m z a discipl9e & a h>d pa?1 & yet no "o _h a quick] or m admir+ eye = ! fl[]s by ! wayside4 ,i always ?\ght t h] great =te 0 ! /udy ( "*4 ,%e laid b>e & dissect$ ev]ybody1 ev5 h] ne>e/ fri5ds & h]self1 to f9d :at 0 9 !m2 & :at %e f\nd1 reproduc$ 9 h] books1 0 :at gave !m _! peculi> *>m ( reality4 ,! gr[? ( ! religi\s life 9 ! he>t 0 ! "o mo/ int]e/+ subject to h]4 ,i nev] c\ld fully und]/& ! deep sadness :i* 0 ! gr\ndwork ( h] nature4 ,x c]ta9ly did n prev5t ! mo/ int5se enjoym5t ( h] ri* temporal & spiritual bless+s1 :ile x indicat$ dep?s :i* h] fri5ds did n fa?om4 ,x 0 p>tly con/itutional1 d\btless1 & p>tly1 ,i suppose1 f h] ke5] s5sitiv5ess1 h] l>g] grasp1 h] /rong] convictions1 h] m vivid vision1 & m ard5t desires4 ,ev5 ! gl[+1 almo/ s]aphic love ( ,*ri/ :i* 0 ! *ief *>act]i/ic ( h] lat] life 01 9 h] words1 b long+ & seek+4 ,%e 0 an exile ye>n+ = h] home1 /epp+ heav5w>d1 & kn[+ bett] ?an ! re/ ( u :at x meant4 ,^! ?+s come to me n[1 & yet h[ mu* ,i h omitt$--h] indu/ry s v>i$ & untir+1 h] g5]osity 7s _m gifts ( =m] days are ar\nd me n[71 h] int]e/ 9 my *ildr51 h] delight 9 fl[]s & colors & all beautiful ?+s1 h] ready sympa?y--b x is an almo/ inexhau/ible subject4 ,%e comes vividly be=e me n[1 seat$ on ! floor 9 h] room1 ) h] "w ar\nd h]1 mak+ some?+ = su* & su* a p]son4 ,:at ! void 9 y\r life mu/ be ^? :o knew mo/ ( h] manifold1 exalt$1 inspir+ life c b imag9e4 ,nay1 ,hope may :isp] ) ! dead ,by b5d+ =w>d :]e !y are2 ,b ,memory1 ) a backw>d tread1 ,communes ) !m af>6 ,! joys we lose are b =eca/1 ,& we %all f9d !m all once m2 ,we look beh9d u = ! pa/1 ,b1 lo6 'tis all be=e6 #a ,see ,memoir ( ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 edit$ by 8 ,bro!r1 & publi%$ by ,*>les ,scribn]'s ,sons4 ,new ,edition4 #ahgi4 #b ,! foll[+ is "p ( ! notice 9 ! ,london ,daily ,news3 ,we are1 un=tunately1 ignorant ( ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days1 b if t book be any?+ l z good z ! *>m+ volume be=e u by ! same au?or1 yclep$ ,little ,l\'s ,say+s & ,do+s1 x des]ves an extraord9>y popul>ity4444 ,little ,l\4 is "o ( ! mo/ natural /ories 9 ! _w1 & reads m l a "m's record ( h] *ild's say+s & do+s ?an l a fictiti\s n>rative4 ,little ,l\1 be x rem>k$1 is a true baby ?r\gh\t1 in/ead ( be+ a precoci\s little prig1 z s _m good *ildr5 are 9 pr9t4 ,! *ild's love = 8 "m & 8 "m's love = him is describ$ 9 ! prettie/ way possible4 #c ,n[ ,pr(essor ( ,!ology at ,bangor4 #d ,! foll[+ is an extract f a lett] ( "o ( ! editors ( ,! ,advance1 ,mr4 ,j4 ,b4 ,t4 ,m>%1 dat$ ,*icago1 ,augu/ #aj1ahfi3--,y w notice t ! /ory is complet$ ?is week2 ,i wi% x c\ld h cont9u$ six mon?s long]4 ,i h sev]al times be5 on ! po9t ( writ+ y to express my own p]sonal satisfaction--& m ?an satisfaction--9 read+ x1 & to acqua9t y ) ! great unanimity & volume ( praise ( x1 :i* has rea*$ u f our read]s4 ,i d n ?9k any?+ s9ce ! ,national ,era & ',uncle ,tom's ,cab9' times has be5 m he>tily receiv$ by newspap] read]s4 ,i am sure x w h a great sale if rightly br\ght be=e ! public4 ,a publi%] f ,london 0 9 our (fice ! o!r day1 signify+ a desire to make "s arrangem5t to br+ x out !re4 ,i h he>d almo/ no unfavorable criticism ( ! /ory--no?+ :i* y c\ld make s]viceable 9 its revision4 ,i h he>d ,dr4 ,p4 criticise ,erne/--( c\rse ! "* & n y\r portrayal4 ,= myself ,i consid] ! "* a natural & consi/5t "o4 ,p]haps few m5 are f\nd :o are q s bl9d to a wife's wants & yet s devot$1 b--,i don't "k :at ! wives might say4 ,we h _h hundr$s ( lett]s ( :i* ! expression has be51 ',we qu>rel to see :o %all h ! fir/ read+ ( ! /ory4' ,i congratulate y mo/ he>tily ^u its great success & ! great good x has done & w yet d4 ,i ?9k if y %\ld ev] come ,we/ my wife w\ld ov]turn almo/ any /one = ! sake ( welcom+ y to ! hospitality ( our cottage on ! ,lake ,mi*igan %ore4 #e ,m>*ant v]s le ,ciel is ! title ( ! ,fr5* translation4 #f ,memorial disc\rse by ! ,rev4 ,m>v9 ,r4 ,v9c5t1 ,d4,d4 #g ,! foll[+ is an extract f a lett]1 dat$ ,new ,orleans1 & writt5 aft] ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' dea?3 ,we call$ "o day to see a poor dressmak] :o 0 dy+ ( consumption4 ,%e 0 an educat$ woman1 a dev\t ,roman ,ca?olic1 & a p]son :om we _h long respect$ & e/eem$ = h] integrity1 h] love ( indep5d5ce1 & h] extraord9>y p[]s ( endurance4 ,h] husb&1 a prosp]\s m]*ant1 _h di$ sudd5ly1 & 8 affairs be+ mismanag$1 %e 0 oblig$1 al?\gh a con/ant invalid1 to e>n a support = _m ye>s by ! mo/ unremitt+ labor4 ,we f\nd h] read+2 ',/epp+ ,heav5w>d1' :i* %e spoke ( 9 ! w>me/ t]ms4 ,we told h] ab\t ! au?oress1 ( h] suff]+ f ill-heal?1 & ( h] rec5t dea?4 ,%e li/5$ eag]ly & ask$ que/ions :i* %[$ ! deepe/ int]e/ 9 ! subject4 ,soon aft] %e left ! city1 & a few weeks lat] we he>d ( h] dea?4 #h ,"o ( !m--said to h be5 an em95t ,g]man !ologian--us$ ?is /rong language respect+ x3 ,s*on man*e gute1 edle1 seg5srei*e ,gabe i/ uns aus ,nordam]ika gekomm51 ab] wir /eh5 ni*t au1 diese als die be/e zu bezei*n5 unt] all51 die uns von dort zu ,gesi*te gekomm54 #i ,see ,a ,memorial ( ! ,"*1 ,"w1 & ,clos+ ,days ( ,rev4 ,:eelock ,craig1 ,new ,b$=d4 ,mr4 ,craig 0 born 9 ,augu/a1 ,ma9e1 ,july #aa1 #ahbd4 ,he ent]$ ,b[do9 ,college 9 #ahci1 & 0 graduat$ ) honor 9 ! class ( #ahdc4 ,he !n ent]$ ! ,!ological ,sem9>y at ,bangor1 :]e he graduat$ 9 #ahdg4 ,aft] prea*+ a c\ple ( ye>s at ,new ,ca/le1 ,me41 he accept$ a call to ,new ,b$=d1 & 0 in/all$ !re ,decemb] #d1 #ahej4 ,9 #ahei he receiv$ a call to ! *air ( ,mod]n ,languages 9 ,b[do9 ,college1 :i* he decl9$4 ,aft] an e>ne/ & fai?ful m9i/ry ( m ?an sev5te5 ye>s1 he w5t abroad = 8 heal? 9 ,may1 #ahfh4 ,he visit$ ,irel&1 ,engl&1 ,scotl&1 & !n pass+ ov] to ! ,cont95t1 travell$ ?r\gh ,belgium1 ,holl&1 ,switz]l&1 & s s\?w>d z f> z ,naples1 :]e he arriv$ ! la/ ( ,septemb]4 ,"h he 0 tak5 s]i\sly ill1 & advis$ to ha/5 back to ,switz]l&4 ,9 great weakness he pass$ ?r\gh ,rome1 ,flor5ce1 ,tur91 ,g5eva1 & rea*$ ,neu*atel on ! #d? ( ,novemb] 9 a /ate ( utt] exhau/ion4 ,!re1 encompass$ by newly-made fri5ds & t5d]ly c>$ =1 he g5tly brea!d 8 la/ on ! #bh? ( ,novemb]4 ,two names1 9 p>ticul>1 des]ve to be gratefully m5tion$ 9 connection ) ,mr4 ,craig's la/ h\rs1 viz43 t ( 8 c\ntryman1 ,mr4 ,w4 ,c4 ,cabot1 & t ( ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,godet1 ( ,neu*atel4 ,( ! =m] he said ! day be=e 8 dea?3 ,he saw me com+ f ,g5eva a p]fect /rang]--ly+ sick1 helpless1 wret*$1 & mis]able 9 ! e>s--& spoke to me1 inquir$ :o ,i 01 & took c>e ( me4 ,anybody else w\ld h gone by on ! o!r side4 ,he br\ght me to ?is hotel1 & rema9$ ) me1 & did ev]y?+ = me2 &1 fe>+ t ,i might be ill "s "t1 & uneasy ab\t money matt]s1 he s5t me a lett] ( cr$it = two hundr$ p\nds4 ,su* noble & g5]\s conduct to an entire /rang] 0 nev] he>d (4 ,to ,dr4 ,godet he _h a lett] f ,pr(4 ,h5ry ,b4 ,smi?1 ( ,new ,york4 ,b he ne$$ no o!r introduction to t w>m- he>t$ & em95t s]vant ( ,god ?an 8 sad condition & 8 love to ,*ri/4 ,f ! fir/ qu>t] ( an h\r1 wrote ,dr4 ,godet to ,mrs4 ,craig1 we 7 l two bro!rs :o _h kn[n ea* o!r f infancy4 ,he knew n a great deal ( ,fr5*1 & ,i n m ( ,engli%2 b ! ,"l 0 betwe5 him & me4 ,pr(4 ,godet & family are l ! v angels ( ,god1 wrote ,mr4 ,craig to 8 wife4 ,8 la/ days 7 fill$ ) inexpressible joy 9 8 ,god & ,savi\r4 ,%ortly be=e 8 dep>ture he said to ,dr4 ,godet & ! o!r fri5ds :o 7 by 8 b$side1 ,!re %all be no night !re1 b ! ,lamb :i* is 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone %all be _! light4 ,mr4 ,craig _h a highly poetical nature1 ref9$ spiritual s5sibilities1 & a s\l gl[+ ) love to 8 ,ma/]4 ,he 0 also a vigor\s & orig9al ?9k]4 ,"s passages 9 8 lett]s & j\rnal are z racy & /rik+ z any?+ 9 ,john ,newton or ,cecil4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss greatly enjoy$ read+ !m to h] fri5ds4 ,"s ( !m %e copi$ & _h publi%$ 9 ! ,association ,mon?ly4 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,on ,,! ,,m\nt4 #ahgj4 ,i4 ,a happy ,ye>4 ,madame ,guyon4 ,:at sweet5s ! ,cup ( e>?ly ,trials & ! ,cup ( e>?ly ,joy4 ,dea? ( ,mrs4 ,julia ,b4 ,cady4 ,h] ,usefulness4 ,sickness & ,dea? ( o!r ,fri5ds4 ,my ,cup runne? ov]4 ,lett]s4 ,m ,love to ,!e1 ,o ,*ri/4 ,9 e e>ne/ life !re usually comes a "t :5 x rea*es its highe/ po9t1 :e!r ( p[] or ( enjoym5t2 a "t :5 x is 9 --! bright1 consumate fl[]4 ,! ye> #ahgj =m$ su* a p]iod 9 ! life ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,none t w5t be=e1 or t foll[$ aft]1 equall$ x1 z a :ole1 9 ri*1 v>i$ & happy exp]i5ces4 ,x 0 full ( ! g5ial1 lov+ _s :i* inspir$ ! ,little ,susy books & ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d2 full1 too1 ( ! playful humor :i* runs ?r\gh ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me2 & full1 also1 ( ! int5se1 ov]fl[+ delight 9 h] ,god & ,savi\r t brea!s 9 ! ,gold5 ,h\rs4 ,f its op5+ to its close %e 0--to borr[ an expression f h] ,ri*mond j\rnal--"o great long sunbeam4 ,ev]y:]e1 9 h] home1 ) h] fri5ds1 by sick & dy+ b$s1 9 ! h\se ( m\rn+1 9 ! cr[d$ /reet or among h] fl[]s at ,dorset1 %e seem$ to be attir$ ) con/ant brightness4 ,( c\rse1 !re 7 n want+ h\rs ( sadness & he>t-s9k+2 nor 0 h] consci\sness ( s9 or h] long+ to be fre$ f x1 p]haps1 ev] ke5] & m pr(\nd2 b /ill ! ma9 curr5t ( h] exi/5ce fl[$ on1 untr\bl$1 to ! music ( its own lov+1 grateful & ador+ ?\ghts4 ,(t5 %e w\ld say t ,god 0 too good to h]2 t %e 0 satisfi$ & _h no?+ m to ask ( life2 h] cup ( dome/ic bliss ran ov]2 & z to h] religi\s joy1 x 0 at times too mu* = h] frail body1 & %e begg$ t x might be transf]r$ to o!r s\ls4 ,h] lett]s give a vivid picture ( h] /ate ( m9d dur+ ?is memorable ye>2 & yet only a picture4 ,! sweet reality 0 beyond ! p[] ( words4 ,9 ! e>ly "p ( ?is ye> ! correspond5ce ( ,madame ,guyon & ,f5elon fell into h] h&s1 & 0 eag]ly read by h]4 ,! p]usal ( ?is correspond5ce l$1 some:at lat]1 to a c>eful /udy ( ! ,select ,works1 ,autobiography1 & ,spiritual ,lett]s ( ,madame ,guyon1 ?us =m+ an important incid5t 9 h] religi\s hi/ory4 ,h]et(ore %e _h kn[n ,madame ,guyon *iefly ?r\gh ! ,life by ,pr(4 ,upham & ! little treatise entitl$ ,a ,%ort & v ,easy ,me?od ( ,pray]2 & bo? seem r to h repell$ h]4 ,9 #ahfg %e wrote to a fri5d3 ,!re is a book ,i w\ld be glad to h y read1 & :i* ,i ?9k y w\ld wi% to own2 ',?\ghts on ,p]sonal ,religion1' by ,g\lburn4 ,i nev] read a mod]n religi\s book t _h 9 x s mu*1 t really edifi$ me4 ,i take = grant$ y h ,?omas ,kempis2 on t & on ,f5elon ,i h fea/$ = ye>s e day2 ,i l /r5g!n+ food & :atev] deals a bl[ at ?is mon/] ,self4 ,madame ,guyon ,i d n und]/&4 ,b n[ %e began to feel1 z s _m e>ne/ seek]s aft] hol9ess _h felt be=e h]1 ! /rong attraction ( ?is rem>kable woman4 ,:ile nev] becom+ to h] :at ,f5elon 01 ,madame ,guyon = sev]al ye>s ex]t$ a decid$ influ5ce ^u h] views ( ! ,*ri/ian life2 nor is !re reason to ?9k t ?is influ5ce 0 n1 on ! :ole1 salut>y4 ,not)/&+ h] grave errors & ! extravagances :i* m>r$ h] c>e]1 ,madame ,guyon 0 no d\bt "o ( ! holie/1 z %e 0 c]ta9ly "o ( ! mo/ gift$1 wom5 ( h] own or any o!r age4 #a ,to ,mrs4 ,j ,elliot ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #b1 #ahgj4 ,x has be5 a real disappo9tm5t n to see y4 ,h[ quickly we le>n to lean on e>?ly ?+s6 ,i am afraid ,i prize ,*ri/ian fell[%ip too mu*1 & t ,i am behav+ 9 a mis]ly way ab\t all div9e gifts1 %utt+ myself up "h 9 ?is room1 :i* (t5 seems l ! gate ( heav51 & luxuriat+ 9 x1 in/ead ( go+ ab\t prea*+ ! glad tid+s to o!r s\ls4 ,yet "w = ,*ri/1 :5 ,he gives x1 is sweet1 too1 & if answ]+ y\r note is ! little t9y bit ,he (f]s me at ?is mom5t1 h[ glad ,i am4 ,?\gh ,i am n1 j n[1 9 ! furnace z y are1 !re is no kn[+ h[ soon ,i %all be1 & ,i rememb] well en\gh h[ ! furnace feels1 to h deep sympa?y ) y 9 y\r trials4 ,sympa?y1 b n regret2 ,i c't make myself be v sorry = ,*ri/'s disciples :5 ,he takes !m 9 h&--,he does x s t5d]ly1 s wisely1 s lov+ly2 & x c h>dly be true1 c x8 t ,he is j z ne> & de> to me :5 my cup is z full ( e>?ly bless+s z x c hold1 z ,he is to y ^: cup ,he is empty+8 ,i h always ?\ght !y knew & lov$ ,him be/ :o knew ,him 9 ,8 "* ( ,*a/is]2 b p]haps "o nev] loses ! memory ( ,8 revelations ( ,himself 9 t =m1 & p]haps t t5d] memory sadd5s & hall[s ! day ( prosp]ity4 ,at any rate1 y & ,i seem to be 9 full sympa?y ) ea* o!r2 y\r empty cup isn't empty1 & my full "o w\ld be bitt] if love to ,*ri/ did n sweet5 x4 ,x matt]s v little on :at pa?s we are walk+1 s9ce we f9d ,him 9 e "o4 ,h[ a%am$ we %all be :5 we get to heav51 ( our talk ab\t our trials "h6 ,:y don't we s+ songs in/ead8 ,we "k h[1 = ,he has put ! songs into our m\?s4 ,i ?9k ,i "k some?+ ab\t ! l& ( ,beulah1 b ,i don't q live 9 x yet2 & yet :at is ?is joy if x isn't beatitude1 if x is n a =eta/e ( t :i* is to come8 ,x isn't joy 9 :at ,he has done = me1 a s9n]1 b ador+ joy = :at ,he is1 ?\gh ,i d n beg9 to "k :at ,he is4 ,x w take an et]nity to le>n t lesson4 ,d y really mean to say t ,miss ,k4 is go+ to pray = me8 ,h[ delightful6 ,i am gre$y = pray]2 nobody is ri* en\gh to give me any?+ ,i s long =2 inde$ :5 my husb& begg$ me to tell him :at ,i want$ at ,*ri/mas1 ,i c\ldn't ?9k ( a ?+2 b oh1 :at unutt]able long+ ,i h = m ( ,*ri/4 ,:y %\ld we n speak freely to ea* o!r ( ,him8 ,don't apologise = x aga94 ,! wond] is t we h ! he>t to speak ( any?+ else4 ,sometimes ,i am almo/ fright5$ at ! expressions ( love ,i p\r out ^u ,him1 & wond] if ,i am really 9 e>ne/2 if ,i really mean all ,i say4 ,is x ev5 s ) y8 ,x is n fooli%1 is x8 ,p]haps ,he likes to he> our poor /amm]+s1 :5 we c n get our emotions & our ?\ghts into words4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #g1 #ahgj4 ,i f9d lett]s m & m unsatisfactory4 ,h[ little ,i "k ( y\r real life1 h[ little y "k ( m9e6 ,s mu* is go+ on all ! "t t ,i %\ld run & tell y ab\t if y liv$ "h1 b :i* x w\ld take too long to write4 ,i h v preci\s ,*ri/ian fri5ds )9 six mon?s1 :o take1 or r to :om ,i give1 m "t ?an ,i c\ld or w\ld sp>e = any ord9>y fri5d%ip2 "o ( !m has sp5t f\r h\rs 9 my room ) me at a "t1 & we _h wond]ful commun+s toge!r4 ,!n two de> fri5ds h di$4 ,"o ( ! two1 ( :om y h he>d me speak1 0 ! mo/ useful woman 9 our *ur*2 my husb& & ,i bo? wept ov] h] dea?4 ,! o!r direct$ 9 dy+ t a copy ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d %\ld be giv5 to ea* ( h] ,sunday s*ol>s2 a lifelong fe> ( dea? 0 tak5 away1 & %e decl>$ x pleasant] & easi] to die ?an to live2 h] la/ words1 five m9utes be=e %e drew h] la/ g5tle brea?1 came ) ! upw>d1 dy+ look1 ,wond]ful love6 ,y c't ?9k h[ sweet x is to be a pa/or's wife2 to feel ! "r to sympa?ise ) ^? :o m\rn1 to fly to !m at once1 & jo9 !m 9 _! pray]s & te>s4 ,x w\ld be pleasant to sp5d "o's :ole "t among suff]]s1 & to keep te/ify+ to !m :at ,*ri/ c & w become to !m1 if !y w only let ,him4444 ,no1 ,i nev] ,dial$ or 0 transc5d5tal4 ,i don't ?9k k w come to u by intuition 9 heav51 ?\gh k en\gh to get />t$ !re1 w4 ,b ,i don't mu* c>e h[ x w be4 ,i "k we %all le>n ,*ri/ !re4 ,i h read lately ,pr(4 ,phelps on ! ,solitude ( ,*ri/2 x is a sugge/ive little book :i* ,i l mu*4 ,h y ev] read ! ,life ( ,mrs4 ,hawkes8 ,x is int]e/+ because %e records s _m ( ,cecil's wond]ful rem>ks--su*1 e4g41 z ^!3 a humble1 k9d sil5ce (t5 utt]s mu*4 ,to-morr[ y & ,i %all walk toge!r 9 a g>d51 :5 ,i hope to talk ) y ab\t ev]y?+ b sadness4 ,i am go+ to ask a favor ( y1 ?\gh ,i hate to put y to ! tr\ble4 ,9 writ+ a telegram 9 great ha/e & sorr[1 ,i accid5tally us$ & cut into ! l9es y copi$ = me--,sabba? hymn 9 sickness4 ,x 0 a real loss1 & if y ev] feel a little /rong] ?an usual1 w y make me ano!r copy8 ,i s (t5 want to com=t sick p]sons ) x4 ,i h half promis$ to write a s]ial = a magaz9e1 ! organ ( ! ,"y ,m5's ,*ri/ian ,association1 ?\gh ,i "k no?+ ( "y m5 & hate to write s]ials4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld hide 9 "s hole4 ,i get bright lett]s f ,a41 :o is hav+ a v nice "t4 ,i write h] e day2 wret*$ lett]s1 :i* %e ?9ks delightful1 =tunately4 ,we h a quiet "t ?is w9t]1 b su* nice ?+s c't la/1 & ,i am afraid ( ?is _w anyh[4 ,i "k y pray = me1 z ,i d = y & ,miss ,l4 e day4 ,i h a ?\s& ?+s to say t ,i %all h to put (f till ,i see y4 ,good-bye1 de>ie4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,sunday1 ,m>* #f1 #ahgj4 ,i h _h "s really sweet days1 %ut up ) my de> little boy4 ,he is bett]1 & ,i am comp>atively at leisure aga91 & s happy 9 m$itat+ on ! "* ( my ,savi\r1 & 9 ! s5se ( ,8 ne>ness1 t ,i a*e1 & h _h to beg ,him to give me no m1 b to c>ry ?is joy to y & to ,miss ,k4 & to two fri5ds1 :o1 langui%+ on dy+ b$s1 ne$ x s mu*4 #b ,if ,i c\ld %$ te>s ,i %\ld n h to tell y ?is1 & inde$ x is no?+ new2 b "o mu/ h v5t 9 "s way4 ,& ?is rem9ds me to expla9 to y :y to ?ree de> ,*ri/ian fri5ds ,i n[ & !n s5d v]ses2 !y are my te>s ( joy or sorr[1 & :5 ,i feel mo/ deeply x is a relief to v]sify1 & a pleasure to op5 my he>t to ^? :o feel z ,i d4 ,i h be5 9 pr9t ev] s9ce ,i 0 sixte5 ye>s old1 & admiration is an old /ory2 ,i c>e v little = x2 b ,i d crave & value sympa?y ) ^? :o love ,*ri/4 ,& x is su* a new ?+ to op5 my he>t ?us6 ,i h writt5 any numb] ( v]ses t no human be+ has ev] se51 because !y came f ! v bottom ( my he>t4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld put into words all ! bless$ ?\ghts ,i _h la/ week ab\t ,god's de> w3 x 0 a week ( su* sweet cont5t ) ! "w ,he gave me to d2 naturally ,i hate nurs+1 & los+ ! air makes me feel unwell2 b :at c't ,god d ) u8 ,i love1 de>ly1 to h a ,ma/]4 ,i fancy t ^? :o h /rong wills1 are ! ones to enjoy ,god's sov]eignty mo/4 ,i wond] if y realise :at a v happy creature ,i am8 & h[ mu* too good ,god is to me8 ,i don't see h[ ,he c heap su* m]cies on a poor s9n]2 b t only %[s h[ little ,i "k ,him4 ,b !n1 ,i am le>n+ to "k ,him1 & %all g on do+ x =ev] & ev]2 & s w y4 ,i am n sure t x is be/ = u1 once safe & secure on ! ,rock ( ,ages1 to ask ourselves too closely :at ?is & t exp]i5ce may signify4 ,is x n bett] to be ?9k+ ( ! ,rock1 n ( ! feet t /& ^u x8 ,x seems to me t we ought to be unconsci\s ( ourselves1 & t ! ne>] we get to ,*ri/1 ! m we %all be tak5 up ) ,him4 ,we %all be l a sick man :o1 aft] he gets well1 =gets all ! old symptoms he us$ to ?9k s mu* (1 & /ops feel+ 8 pulse1 & j enjoys 8 heal?1 only po9t+ out 8 physician to all :o are diseas$4 ,y w see t ?is is 9 answ] to a portion ( y\r lett]1 9 :i* y say ,miss ,k4 int]prets to y c]ta9 exp]i5ces4 ,if ,i am wrong ,i am will+ to be set "r2 p]haps ,i h n said cle>ly :at ,i meant to say4 ,i c]ta9ly mean no criticism on y or h]1 b am only ?9k+ al\d & qu]y+4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #bg1 #ahgj4 ,y ask if ,i revel 9 ! ,pilgrim's ,progress4 ,yes1 ,i d4 ,i ?9k x an amaz+ book4 ,x seems to me almo/ z mu* an inspiration z ! ,bible itself4 #c ,i am glad y lik$ t hymn4 ,i write 9 v]se :5ev] ,i am deeply /irr$1 because1 ?\gh z full ( te>s z o!r p1 ,i c n %$ !m4 ,b ,i nev] %[$ any ( ^! v]ses to any "o1 n ev5 my husb&1 till ?is w9t]4 ,b if ,i 7 m ) y no d\bt ,i %\ld v5ture to let y run ov] "s ( !m1 at lea/ ^? my de> husb& has se5 & likes4 ,i h felt ab\t hymns j z y say y d1 z if ,i lov$ !m m ?an ! ,bible4 ,b ,i h got ov] t2 ,i pray$ myself out ( x1 n lov+ hymns ! less1 b ! ,bible m4 ,i wond] if y s+2 ,i c't rememb]2 if y d1 ,i w s5d y1 sometime1 a hymn to s+ = my sake1 call$ ,m love to ,!e1 ,o ,*ri/4 ,only to ?9k1 our silv] w$d+ comes next mon?1 & ,a4 & ! ,smi?s away6 ,i h be5 int]rupt$ by call]s1 & mu/ h be5 9 ! p>lor sev]al h\rs4 ,y c't ?9k :at a sweet1 peaceful w9t] ?is has be51 nor h[ good ! *ildr5 are4 ,my cup has j run ov]1 & at times ,i am too happy to be com=table1 if y "k :at t means2 n hav+ a /rong body1 ,i suppose y d4 ,mrs4 ,b4 has be5 9 a v critical /ate ( late1 b %e is rally+1 & ,i may1 p]haps1 h ! privilege ( see+ h] aga94 ,i h _h "s preci\s times ) h] 9 h] sick-room2 la/ ,friday1 a week ago1 %e pray$ ) me 9 ! sweete/ temp] ( m9d1 & came ) me :5 ,i took leave1 to ! head ( ! /airs1 full ( love & smiles4 ,to a ,"y ,fri5d1 ,april #e1 #ahgj4 ,i wi% t hymn = ! sick-room 7 m9e1 b x is n4 ,i w enclose "o t is1 :i* my de> husb& has k9dly _h pr9t$2 p]haps y w l to s+ x to ! tune ( ,ne>]1 my ,god1 to ,!e4 ,!re is n mu* 9 x1 b y c put ev]y?+ into x z y make x y\r pray]4 ,i c't help feel+ t e s\l ,i meet1 ( :om ,i c ask1 ,:at ?9k y ( ,*ri/8 & get ! glad answ]1 ,he is ! *iefe/ among t5 ?\s&1 ! ,"o altoge!r lovely--is a bless+ z well z a com=t to m9e2 & :5ev] y c & d say x1 y w become m de> to me4 ,y\r ,god & ,savi\r won y z an easy victory1 b ,he _h to fight = me4 ,x seems to me n[ t ,he ought to h all !re is ( me--:i*1 to be sure1 isn't mu*--& ,i hope ,he is tak+ x4 ,8 ways ) me h be5 p]fectly beautiful & inf9ite 9 long-suff]+ & pati5ce4 ,april #aa?4--,y\r note has reawak5$ a "q ,i h (t5 _h occasion to ask myself be=e4 ,:y d my fri5ds speak ( my lett]s z giv+ m pleasure or pr(it ?an any?+ t goes to !m f me 9 pr9t8 ,is human nature s selfi%8 ,mu/ ev]ybody h ev]y?+ to himself8 ,x might seem s at fir/ blu%1 b ,i ?9k !re are two sides to ?is "q4 ,may x n be possible t ,god s5ds a message directly f "o he>t to ano!r z ,he does n to ! _m8 ,does ,he n speak ?r\gh ! liv+ voice & ! p5 t is t voice1 z ,he does n d 9 ! less uncon/ra9$ =m ( pr9t8 ,at any rate1 ,i love to believe t ,he directs ea* ^w & look & tone2 inspires r1 ,i %\ld say4 ,i %\ld l y to (f] a special pray] = u on ,saturday4 ,t day completes tw5ty-five ye>s ( m>ri$ life to u1 &1 ?\gh x has its %ades z well z its lights1 ,i d n ?9k ,i c d bett] = y ?an ask t y may h su* ye>s1 ,= :o ! backw>d sc5e ha? scann$ ,b bless$ ! ,fa!r's guid+ h&8 ,i c m truly ?ank ,him = ,8 *a/isem5ts ?an = ,8 worldly indulg5ces2 ! latt] urge f1 ! =m] drive to ,him4 ,i am say+ a great ?+ 9 a feeble way1 & y may multiply x by t5 ?\s&1 & x w /ill be weak4 ,! hymn1 ,m ,love to ,!e1 ,o ,*ri/1 belongs1 probably1 z f> back z ! ye> #ahef4 ,l mo/ ( h] hymns1 x is simply a pray] put into ! =m ( v]se4 ,%e wrote x s ha/ily t ! la/ /anza 0 left incomplete1 "o l9e hav+ be5 add$ 9 p5cil :5 x 0 pr9t$4 ,%e did n %[ x1 n ev5 to h] husb&1 until _m ye>s aft] x 0 writt52 & %e wond]$ n a little t1 :5 publi%$1 x met ) s mu* favor4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,h] ,silv] ,w$d+4 ,i h ,liv$1 ,i h ,lov$4 ,no ,joy c put h] out ( ,sympa?y ) ! ,trials ( ,fri5ds4 ,a ,glance backw>d4 ,la/ ,int]view ) a dy+ ,fri5d4 ,m ,love & m ,lik5ess to ,*ri/4 ,fun]al ( a little ,baby4 ,lett]s to ,*ri/ian ,fri5ds4 ,if #ahgj 0 ! cr[n+ ye> 9 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' life1 ! #af? ( ,april 0 t ye>'s mo/ preci\s jewel4 ,z ! "t drew nigh1 a gl[ ( t5d]1 grateful recollection suffus$ h] c\nt5ance4 ,h] eyes are homes ( sil5t pray]4 ,%e talk$ ( ! pa/1 l "o lo/ 9 wond]1 :ile ! light & beauty ( ! vani%$ ye>s appe>$ /ill to re/ ^u h] _s4 ,! day itself1 :i* _h be5 kept f ! k ( mo/ ( h] fri5ds1 0 full ( sweet cont5t1 rehe>s+1 z x 71 all ! days ( h] m>ri$ life2 &1 at its close1 ! measure ( h] e>?ly joy seem$ to be p]fect & entire1 want+ no?+4 ,to ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,new ,york1 ,april #af1 #ahde-ahgj4 ,d y "k t x is j tw5ty-five ye>s s9ce we fir/ met8 ,h[ gladly w\ld ,i sp5d ! day ( our silv] w$d+ ) y6 ,y w see t ,i am ne> 9 _s1 at all ev5ts4 ,my ?\ghts h be5 busy ! pa/ week ) review+ ! ye>s ?r\gh :i* ,i h travell$1 h& 9 h&1 ) my de> husb&2 ye>s full ( s91 full ( suff]+1 full ( joy2 brimful ( ! lov+-k9dness & t5d] m]cy t smote (t5 & smote surely4 ,y\r la/ lett] only confirms :at ,i already knew1 b am nev] tir$ ( he>+ repeat$1 ! fai?fulness ( ,god to ^? :om ,he afflicts4 ,:5 we once f9d out :at ,he is to an a*+1 empty he>t1 we want to make ev]ybody see j :at we see1 &1 until we try 9 va91 ?9k we c4 ,i _h v peculi> feel+s 9 relation to y :5 y\r de> husb& 01 = a "t1 p>t$ f y4 ,i knew ,god w\ld nev] afflict y s1 if ,he _h n some?+ beautiful & blissful to give 9 place ( :at ,he took4 ,& :at c we ask = t comp>es = "o in/ant ) ! almo/ con/ant felt pres5ce ( our ,savi\r's sympa?y & support8 ,our human nature w\ld l to h ! e>?ly & ! div9e fri5d%ip at once2 b1 if we mu/ *oose betwe5 ! twa91 surely y & ,i w\ld *oose ,*ri/ )\t "o mom5t's hesitation4 ,i hope y m5tion my "n e day to ,him z ,i d y\rs1 z ,i love to d4 ,i enclose1 & want y1 :5 by y\rself1 to s+ = my sake a little hymn t ,i am sure is ! language ( y\r he>t4 ,my de> husb& _h a few copies /ruck (f to give fri5ds4 ,write soon & (t54 ,oh1 t y liv$ "h or at ,dorset4 ,good-bye1 ) w>me/ love1 n[ tw5ty-five ye>s old6 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,april #bj1 #ahgj4 ,la/ ,saturday 0 ! tw5ty-fif? anniv]s>y ( our m>riage1 & a v happy day to u bo?4 ,my de> husb& wrote me a lett] t made me tremble1 le/ he %\ld get su* hold ( me z no human be+ mu/ h4 ,i h a v curi\s feel+ ab\t life2 a satisfi$ "o1 & z if x c\ld n possibly give me mu* m ?an ,i n[ h4 ,i h liv$1 ,i h lov$4 #d ,p (t5 say !y h s mu* to live =2 ,i c't feel s1 ?\gh ,i am n only will+1 b glad to live :ile my husb& & *ildr5 ne$ me2 & yet--& yet--to h ?is problem solv$1 & to be =ev] ) ! ,"l6 ,i want to see y4 ,i c no long] see my de> ,mrs4 ,b42 %e is too ill1 & t makes me miss y ! m4 ,i hope t little ,,ms4 ( m9e did n task y\r sympa?ies2 ,i don't want y to pity me1 b to magnify ,him :o took su* pa9s ) me1 & is c>ry+ on j su* "w 9 ?\s&s ( he>ts & lives4 ,:at goodness6 ,:at condesc5sion6 ,! lea/ we c d :o h suff]$ mu* is to love mu*4444 ,i h be5 /udy+ ! ,bible on ! subject ( giv+ p]sonal te/imony1 & ?9k x makes ?is a pla9 duty4 ,!re is no?+ l ! influ5ce ( "o liv+ s\l on ano!r4 ,!n :y %\ld we n naturally speak to ev]ybody :o w li/51 ( :at fills our ?\ghts2 our ,savi\r1 ,8 beauty1 ,8 goodness1 ,8 fai?fulness1 ,8 wisdom6 ,i don't believe a full he>t c help runn+ ov]4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,april #ba1 #ahgj4 ,i 0 "r sorry to lose y\r ,saturday's call4 ,x 0 a happy day to me1 b ,i c conceive ( no enjoym5t ( any sort t w\ld put me out ( sympa?y ) ! trials ( fri5ds3 ,old & "y are br++ tr\bles1 ,great & small1 = me to he>2 ,i h (t5 bless$ by sorr[s ,t drew o!r's grief s ne>4 ,i ?\ght ,i 0 say+ a v ord9>y ?+ :5 ,i spoke ( ?ank+ ,god = ,8 long ye>s ( discipl9e1 b v likely life did n look to me at y\r age z x does n[4 ,i 0 r />tl$ ! o!r day1 to f9d x writt5 9 ,g]man1 9 my own h&1 ,i c n say ! w is !re1 ref]r+ to a hymn :i* says1 ,d] ,w i/ da1 die ,kraft i/ kle91 ,do* wird dir ni*t zuwid] seyn4 ,i suppose !re 0 "s great /ruggle go+ on :5 ?is fooli% he>t said t1 j z if ,god did n inv>iably d = u ! v be/ t c be done4 #e ,y speak ( hav+ y\r love to ,jesus int5sifi$ by int]views ) me4 ,x c h>dly be o!rwise1 :5 ^? meet toge!r :o love ,him1 & x is a rule t works bo? ways2 acts & reacts4 ,i %\ld be ?ankful if no human be+ c\ld ev] meet me1 ev5 9 a *ance way1 & n g away clasp+ ,him ! clos]1 & if ,i c\ld meet no "o :o did n s /ir & move me4 ,x is my con/ant pray]4 ,i h su* insatiable long+s to "k & love ,him bett] t ,i g ab\t hung]+ & ?ir/+ = ! fell[%ip ( ^? :o feel s too2 :5 ,i meet !m ,i call !m my b5$ictions4 ,next be/ to be+ ) ,*ri/ ,himself1 ,i love to be ) ^? :o h ,8 _s & are ye>n+ = m ( ,8 lik5ess4 ,y speak ( putt+ deep & d>k *asms betwe5 y\rself & ,*ri/4 ,he lets u d ?is t we may le>n our no?+ness1 our weakness1 & turn1 disgu/$1 f ourselves to ,him4 ,may ,i v5ture to assure y t ! *asms occur less & less frequ5tly z "o presses on1 till f9ally !y turn into m\nta9s ( light4 ,get & keep a w = ,god1 & ev]y?+ t w is ready = w come4 ,?is is ab\t a t5? "p ( :at ,i might say4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,april #be1 #ahgj4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld describe to y my la/ int]view ) ,mrs4 ,b4 ,%e _h alt]$ s 9 two weeks 9 :i* ,i _h n se5 h]1 t ,i %\ld n h kn[n h]4 ,%e spoke ) difficulty1 b by gett+ close to h] m\? ,i c\ld he> all %e said4 ,%e w5t back to ! fir/ "t %e met me1 told me h] he>t !n knitt$ itself to m9e1 & h[ %e _h lov$ me ev] s9ce1 etc41 etc4 ,i !n ask$ h] if %e _h any p>t+ c\nsel to give me3 ,no1 n a ^w44444 ,"s "o came 9 & wet h] lips1 gave h] a sprig ( citronatis1 & pass$ out4 ,i cru%$ x & let h] smell ! bruis$ leaves1 say+1 ,y are j l ^! cru%$ leaves4 ,%e smil$1 & repli$1 ,well1 ,i hav5't _h "o pa9 too _m1 n "o4 ,b ! agony has be5 dreadful4 ,i won't talk ab\t t2 ,i j want to see y\r sunny face4 ,i ask$ if %e 0 rejoic+ 9 ! hope ( meet+ lo/ fri5ds & ! sa9ts 9 heav54 ,%e said1 ) an expressive look1 ,oh1 no1 ,i hav5't got s f> z t4 ,i h only got z f> z ,*ri/4 ,= all t1 ,i said1 y'll see my fa!r & "m !re4 ,:y1 s ,i %all1 ) ano!r bright smile4 ,b h] lips 7 gr[+ :ite ) pa91 & ,i came away4 ,did ,i tell y x 0 our silv] w$d+-day on ! #af?8 ,we _h a v happy day1 & if ,i c\ld see y ,i %\ld l to tell y all ab\t x4 ,b x is too long a /ory to tell 9 writ+4 ,i don't see b ,i've _h ev]y?+ ?is life c give1 & h a curi\s feel+ z if ,i _h got to a /opp+-place4 ,i he>d ye/]day t two ( ,m4's tea*]s _h said !y look$ at h] ) p]fect awe on acc\nt ( h] goodness4 ,i really nev] knew h] to d any?+ wrong4 ,to a "y ,fri5d ,new ,york1 ,may #a1 #ahgj4 ,i c\ld write =ev] on ! subject ( ,*ri/ian *>ity1 b ,i mu/ say t 9 ! case y ref] to1 ,i ?9k y accuse y\rself unduly4 ,we are n to "p company ) our common s5se because we want to clasp h&s ) ! ,love t ?9ke? no evil1 & we c n help see+ t !re are few1 if any1 on e>? )\t beams 9 _! eyes & foibles & s9s 9 _! lives4 ,! fact t y\r fri5d rep5t$ & confess$ 8 s91 entitl$ him to y\r =giv+ love1 b n to ! ignor+ ( ! fact t he 0 guilty4444 ,temptations come sometimes 9 sw>ms1 l bees1 & runn+ away does no good1 & fight+ only exasp]ates !m4 ,! only help mu/ come f ,him :o und]/&s & c control ! :ole sw>m4 ,y ask = my pray]s1 & ,i ask = y\rs4 ,i long ago =m$ ! habit ( pray+ at night individually1 if possible1 = all :o _h come to me ?r\gh ! day1 or :om ,i _h visit$2 b y contrive to get a mu* l>g] %>e ?an t4 ,i love to ?9k ( y\r future hol9ess & usefulness z ev5 9 ! v lea/ l9k$ to my pray]s4 ,oh1 ,i ought to "k h[ to pray a great deal bett] ?an ,i d1 = =ty ye>s ago1 save "o1 ,i ?is day publicly d$icat$ myself to ,*ri/4 ,i write to y because ,i l to d s1 recognis+ no diff]5ce betwe5 writ+ & talk+4 ,:5 no bett] "w comes to me1 ,i am glad to give ! little pleasure ,i c1 9 notes & lett]s4 ,he :o kn[s h[ poor we are1 h[ little we h to give1 does n disda9 ev5 a note l ?is1 s9ce x is writt5 9 love to ,him & to "o ( ,8 own de> ones4 ,may #bc;d4--,y\r la/ lett] 0 l a fragrant brea? ( c\ntry air1 r$ol5t ( fl[]s1 & all t makes rural sc5es s sweet4 ,b bett] /ill1 x 0 fragrant ) love to ,him :o is ! bond betwe5 u1 9 ^: "n & = ^: sake we are fri5ds4 ,i wi% ,i lov$ ,him bett] & 7 m l ,him2 p]haps t is ab\t z f> z we get 9 ?is _w1 = no matt] h[ f> we advance1 we are nev] satisfi$2 !re is always some?+ ahead2 ,i d\bt if any "o ev] said1 ev5 9 a :isp] & to himself1 ,n[ ,i love my ,savi\r z mu* z a human s\l c4 ,y speak ( my hav+ giv5 y c\nsels4 ,h ,i _h ! presumption to d t8 ,two-?irds ( ! "t ,i feel z if ,i want$ somebody to c\nsel me2 ! only ?+ ,i really "k t y d n1 is :at x is to be beat5 ) p]si/5t1 ceaseless /ripes1 ye> aft] ye>1 ye> aft] ye>1 ) sc>cely brea?+ "t betwe54 ,i don't "k :e!r ?is is mo/ an argum5t aga9/ me1 or = ,god2 on ! :ole x is mo/ = ,him1 :o 0 s good & k9d z nev] to sp>e me = my wri?+ & groan+4 ,truly z ,i value ?is discipl9e1 ,i want y to give y\rself to ,him s unres]v$ly t y w n ne$ su* %>p treatm5t4 ,i am n go+ to keep writ+ & gett+ y 9 debt4 ,all ,i ask is if y ev] feel a little "u ! wea!r & want a specially lov+ or *e]+ ^w1 to give me ! *ance to speak or write x4 ,a *apt] might be writt5 ab\t ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' love = little *ildr51 ! en?usiasm ) :i* %e /udi$ all _! artless ways1 h] delight 9 _! beauty1 & ! rev]5ce ) :i* %e reg>d$ ! my/]y ( _! infant be+4 ,h] fai? 9 _! real1 complete humanity1 _! susceptibility to spiritual influ5ces1 &1 :5 call$ f e>?1 _! bless$ immortality 9 & ?r\gh ,*ri/1 0 v vivid2 & x 0 untr\bl$ by any ( ^? di/ress+ d\bts1 or misgiv+s1 t are eng5d]$ by ! mat]iali/ic _s & sci5ce ( ! age4 ,contempt = !m %ock$ h] z an (f5ce aga9/ ! ,holy ,*ild ,jesus1 _! ,k+ & ,savi\r4 ,h] v look & mann] z %e took a "y infant1 especially a sick or dy+ infant1 9 h] arms & gave x a lov+ kiss1 seem$ to say3 ,sweet baby1 little z ?\ art1 ,?\ art a human :ole2 ,?\ ha/ a little human he>t1 ,?\ ha/ a dea?less s\l4 #f ,! foll[+ lett] to a ,*ri/ian "m1 dat$ ,may #ac?1 w %[ h] feel+ on ?is subject3 ,?is morn+ we att5d$ ! fun]al ( a little baby1 eight mon?s old4 ,my husb&1 9 8 rem>ks1 said t ?\gh born & ev] cont9u+ to be a suff]]1 x 0 nev] sadd5$ by ?is fell[%ip ) ,*ri/2 & t he believ$ x 0 a p>tak] ( ,8 hol9ess1 & glad ?r\gh ,8 indwell+1 ev5 ?\gh unconsci\s ( x4 ,dur+ ! la/ days ( its life1 aft] ea* p>oxysm ( c\gh+1 x w\ld look fir/ at its "m1 !n at its fa!r1 = sympa?y1 & !n look upw>d ) a face radiant beyond description4 ,i c't tell y h[ x t\*$ me to ?9k t ,i _h 9 t baby a little ,*ri/ian si/]--n m]ely r$eem$1 b sanctifi$ f its bir?--& ,i "k x w t\* & /r5g!n y to he> ( x4 ,i felt a rev]5ce = t t9y1 lifeless =m1 t ,i c n put into words4 ,&1 inde$1 :y %\ld x be h>d] = ,god to ent] into ! s\l ( an infant ?an into our unlikelie/ ones8 444 ,i see m & m t if we h )9 u ! m9d ( ,*ri/1 we mu/ be> ! burd5 ( o!r griefs ?an our own2 ,he did n m]ely pity suff]+ humanity2 ,he bore our griefs1 & 9 all our afflictions ,he 0 afflict$4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,june #f1 #ahgj4 ,if y c get hold ( ! ,april numb] ( ! ,biblio!ca ,sacra1 read an article 9 x call$ ,psy*ology 9 ! ,life1 ,"w & ,tea*+s ( ,jesus4 ,i ?9k x v /rik+ & v true4 ,pray+ = ,dr4 ---- ?is morn+1 ,i _h su* a peaceful feel+ t he 0 safe4 ,d y feel s ab\t him8 ,i _h a v diff]5t exp]i5ce ab\t ano!r man :o has be5 to see me s9ce ,i began ?is lett]1 & :o said ,i 0 ! fir/ happy p]son he ev] met4 ,may ,god lay t to 8 he>t6444 ,rummag+ among du/y ?+s 9 ! attic ?is =5oon ) great repugnance1 ,i f\nd su* a beautiful lett] f my husb&1 writt5 = my solace 9 ,switz]l& :5 he 0 9 ,p>is 7he wrote me e day1 sometimes twice a day1 dur+ ! two mon?s ( our en=c$ sep>ation7 t ev5 ! drudg]y ( gett+ my h&s soil$ & my back brok5 0 sweet5$4 ,t's ! way ,god keeps on spoil+ u2 "o good ?+ aft] ano!r till we are a%am$4 ,well1 let u /ep onw>d1 h& 9 h&4 ,i wond] :i* ( u w outrun ! o!r & /ep 9 fir/8 ,i am s glad ,i'm will+ to live4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ?is spr+ ,! ,p]cys 0 publi%$4 ,! /ory fir/ came out z a s]ial 9 ! ,new ,york ,obs]v]4 ,x 0 translat$ into ,fr5* "u ! title ,la ,famille ,p]cy4 ,9 #ahgf a ,g]man v]sion appe>$ "u ! title ,die ,familie ,p]cy4 ,x 0 also republi%$ 9 ,london4 #g 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,l9es on go+ to ,dorset4 ,a ,cl\d ov] h]4 ,fab]'s ,life4 ,lov+ ,fri5ds = "o's own sake & lov+ !m = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,! ,bible & ! ,*ri/ian ,life4 ,dorset ,society & ,occupations4 ,c\nsels to a "y ,fri5d 9 ,tr\ble4 ,don't /op pray+ = y\r ,life6 ,cure = ! ,he>t-sickness caus$ by a ,sight ( human ,imp]fections4 ,f5elon's ,tea*+ ab\t ,humiliation & be+ pati5t ) ,ourselves4 ,! foll[+ l9es1 f\nd among h] pap]s aft] h] dea?1 %[ 9 :at _s %e w5t to ,dorset3 ,once m ,i *ange my home1 once m beg9 ,life 9 ?is rural /illness & repose2 ,b ,i h br\ght ) me my he>t ( s91 ,& s9 nor quiet nor cessation kn[s4 ,ah1 :5 ,i make ! f9al1 bless$ *ange1 ,i %all leave t beh9d1 %all ?r[ aside ,e>?'s soil$ & soil+ g>m5ts1 & %all range ,?r\gh pur] regions l a y\?ful bride4 ,?rice welcome be t day6 ,d ?\1 mean:ile1 ,my s\l1 sit ready1 un5cumb]$ wait2 ,! ,ma/] bides ?y com+1 & ,8 smile ,%all bid !e welcome at ! gold5 gate4 ,,dorset1 ,june #ae1 #ahgj4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,dorset1 ,june #ah1 #ahgj4 ,i w\ld love to h y "h ) me 9 ?is de> little d5 ( m9e & see ! m\nta9s f my w9d[4 ,my husb& has gone back to t[n1 & my only society is t ( ! *ildr51 s y w\ld be mo/ welcome if y %\ld come 9 ei!r smil+ or sigh+4 ,i h _h a cl\d ov] me ( late4 ,d y "k ab\t ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' appo9tm5t by ,g5]al ,assembly to a pr(essor%ip at ,*icago8 ,8 go+ w\ld involve n only our te>+ ourselves out ( ! he>t ( our belov$ *ur*1 b ( my los+ y & ,miss ,k41 & ( our all los+ ?is de> little home4 ,( c\rse1 he does n want to g1 & ,i am %ock$ at ! ?\ght ( 8 leav+ ! m9i/ry2 b1 on ! o!r h&1 !re is a "r & a wrong to ! "q1 & we ought to want to d :atev] ,god *ooses4 ,! ?\ght ( giv+ up ?is home makes me "k bett] h[ to sympa?ise ) y if y h to "p ) y\rs4 ,i d ?9k x is good = u to be empti$ f vessel to vessel1 & !re is some?+ awful 9 ! ?\ght ( hav+ our own way ) leanness 9 ! s\l4 ,i am greatly pa9$ 9 read+ ,fab]'s ,life & ,lett]s1 at ! %ock+ way 9 :i* he speaks ( ,m>y1 call+ h] 8 mamma1 & pray+ to h] & to ,joseph1 & nobody kn[s :o n4 ,x seems almo/ incr$ible t ?is is ! man :o wrote ^? beautiful /r5g!n+ hymns4 ,x sets "o to pray+ ,hold ,?\ me up & ,i %all be safe4 444 ,i %\ld h =gott5 ! l9es ( m9e y quote if y _h n copi$ !m4 ,god give to y & to me a ?\s&fold m ( ! _s !y brea!1 & make u :olly1 :olly ,8 own6 ,my repugnance to g to ,*icago makes me feel t p]haps t is j ! wr5* ,i ne$4 ,well1 good-bye2 at ! longe/ we h n long to /ay 9 ?is sph]e ( discipl9e & correction4 ,to ,mr4 ,g4 ,s4 ,p41 ,dorset1 ,july #ac1 #ahgj4 ,i _h j come home f a delici\s little tramp ?r\gh our own woods :5 y\r lett] came1 & n[1 if y knew :at 0 good = y1 y w\ld drop 9 & take tea & sp5d ! ev5+ ) u4 ,i %\ld l y to see our h\se & our m\nta9s1 & our cup t runs ov] till we are a%am$4 ,_h ,i n kn[n y w\ldn't come ,i %\ld h giv5 y a *ance1 especially z my husb& 0 gone & ,i 0 r lonely2 ?\gh to be sure he always writes me e day4 ,on ! way up "h ,i 0 glad ( "t to ?9k out c]ta9 ?+s ,i _h be5 wait+ = leisure to att5d to4 ,"o _h "s connection ) y1 z well z "o or two o!r fri5ds4 ,i _h long felt t !re 0 a real1 ?\gh subtle1 diff]5ce betwe5 human--&1 %all ,i say div9e8--affection1 b did n see j :at x 04 ,turn+ x ov] 9 my m9d t day1 x sudd5ly came to me z ?is4 ,human fri5d%ip may be entirely selfi%1 giv+ only to receive 9 return1 or may be p>tially s--yet /ill selfi%4 ,b ! love t gr[s out ( ! love ( ,*ri/1 & t delights 9 ,8 image :]ev] x is se51 claims no response2 loves because x is its v nature to d s1 because x c n help x1 & ?is )\t reg>d to :at its object gives4 ,i d>e n pret5d t ,i h fully rea*$ ?is /ate1 b ,i h ent]$ ?is l&1 & "k t x is "o to be desir$ z a home1 an abid+ place4 ,i h ?\ght pa9fully ( ! n>r[ qu>t]s & ! hot nights endur$ by s _m 9 ,new ,york1 dur+ ?is unusually w>m wea!r--especially ( ,mrs4 ,g4 ) ?ree re/less *ildr5 9 b$ ) h] & h] poor lonely he>t4 ,i c n b believe t ,*ri/ has real purposes ( m]cy to h] s\l4 ,i feel int]e/$ 9 ,mr4 ,h4's summ] "w 9 a h>d field4 ,9 place ( av]sion to "y m51 ,i am beg9n+ to realise h[ true "w = ,*ri/ "o may d by pray+ p]si/5tly = !m1 especially ^? consecrat$ to ! m9i/ry ( ,8 gospel4 ,i d hope ,*ri/ w h ! :ole ( y1 & t y w h ! :ole ( ,him4 ,:5 y write1 let me "k h[ y l my belov$ ,f5elon4 ,/ill1 y may n l him4 ,"s ,*ri/ians nev] get to fe$+ on ^! my/ical writ]s1 & get on )\t !m4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,dorset1 ,july #ah1 #ahgj4 ,i 0 greatly /ruck ) ^! words ye/]day3 ,z = ,god ,8 way is p]fect2 ?9k ( read+ ! ,bible ?r\gh f\r times 9 "o ye>1 & nobody kn[s h[ _m times s9ce1 & nev] re/+ on ^! words4 ,someh[ !y *>m$ me4 ,& ^! words h be5 r++ 9 my e>s1 ,e>? looks s little & s l[1 :ile consci\s t :5 ,i c get f]ns & fl[]s1 x does n look s little or s l[1 z x does :5 ,i c't4 ,my cook1 :o is a ,romani/1 has be5 prev5t$ f go+ to h] own *ur* sev5 miles (f1 by ! wea!r1 ev] s9ce we came "h1 & la/ ,sunday said %e meant to g to ours4 ,mr4 ,p4 prea*$ on ,god's "* z our ,physician1 & %e 0 delight$4 ,i ?9k x 0 he>+ "o ( 8 little lett]s to ! *ildr5 t made h] realise1 t he 0 a ,*ri/ian man :om %e might safely he>2 at any rate1 ,i feel greatly pleas$ & com=t$ t %e c\ld appreciate su* a subject4 ,i fe> y are suff]+ f ! wea!r2 we nev] knew any?+ l x "h4 ,we d n suff]1 b wake up e morn+ ba!d 9 a breeze t refre%es = ! day2 ,i mean we d n suff] :ile we keep /ill4 ,i am a/oni%$ at ,god's goodness 9 giv+ u ?is place2 n ,8 goodness itself1 b t[>ds u4 ,if ,mrs4 ,br9smade #h left mu* ( su* mat]ial z ! extract y s5t me1 ,i wond] ,dr4 ,b4 did n write h] memoir4 ,! m ,i read ( :at ,*ri/ said ab\t fai?1 ! m impress$ ,i am4 ,j n[ ,i am on ! la/ *apt]s 9 ! gospel ( ,john1 & feel z if ,i _h nev] read !m be=e4 ,!y are j wond]ful4 ,we h to read ! ,bible to und]/& ! ,*ri/ian life1 & we mu/ p5etrate f> into t life 9 ord] to und]/& ! ,bible4 ,h[ beautifully ! "o int]prets ! o!r6 ,i want y to let me "k1 )\t tell+ h] t ,i ask$ y1 if ,miss ,k4 c\ld make me a visit if x 7 n = ! exp5se8 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,dorset1 ,july #bj1 #ahgj4 ,did y ev] use a f\nta9 p58 ,i h _h "o giv5 me1 & l x s mu* t ,i s5t = "o = my husb&1 & "o = ,mr4 ,pratt4 ,:5 "o wants to write 9 "o's lap1 or out ( doors1 x is delightful4 ,mrs4 ,field came ov] f ,ea/ ,dorset on ,sunday to h h] baby baptiz$4 ,!y _h him !re 9 ! *ur* ?r\gh ! :ole morn+ s]vice1 & he 0 z quiet z any ( u4 ,! next day ,mrs4 ,f4 came d[n & sp5t ! morn+ ) me1 sweet]1 m ?\ghtful ?an ev]1 if *ang$ at all4 ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 ( ,philadelphia1 are pass+ ! summ] "h at ! tav]n1 & we sp5d mo/ ( our ev5+s !re1 or !y come "h4 ,mrs4 ,h4 is a v sup]ior woman1 & ?\gh ,i 0 det]m9$ n to l h]1 because ,i h s _m p on h& already1 ,i f\nd ,i c\ld n help x4 ,%e is z furi\s ab\t mosses & li*5s & all su* ?+s z ,i am1 & ! o!r day took home a bu%el-basket ( !m4 ,%e is an e>ne/ ,*ri/ian1 & has pass$ ?r\gh deep wat]s2 ,i ought to h rev]s$ ! ord] ( ^? clauses4 ,excuse ?is r ha/y lett]2 ,i fe>$ y might fancy y\r book lo/4 ,if y are alive1 let me "k x1 also if y are dead4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,dorset1 ,aug4 #h1 #ahgj4 ,i d>e n answ] y\r lett]1 j receiv$1 9 my own /r5g?1 b mu/ pray ov] x long4 ,x is a great ?+ to le>n h[ f> our d\bts & despond5cies are ! direct result ( physical causes1 & ano!r great ?+ is1 :5 we c n trace any su* connexion1 to be> pati5tly & quietly :at ,god p]mits1 if ,he does n au?orise4 ,i h no m d\bt t y love ,him1 & t ,he loves y1 ?an t ,i love ,him & t ,he loves me4 ,y h be5 daily 9 my pray]s4 ,temptations & conflict are insep>able f ! ,*ri/ian life2 no /range ?+ has happ5$ to y4 ,let me com=t y ) ! assurance t y w be taught m & m by ,god's ,_s h[ to resi/2 & t true /r5g? & holy manhood w spr+ up f ?is pa9ful soil4 ,try to take he>t2 !re is m ?an "o foot-pr9t on ! s&s ( "t to prove t "s =lorn & %ipwreck$ bro!r has trav]s$ !m be=e y1 & come (f conqu]or ?r\gh ! ,belov$4 ,don't /op pray+ = y\r life4 ,be z cold & emotionless z y please2 ,god w accept y\r nak$ fai?1 :5 x has no gl[ or w>m? 9 x2 & 9 ,8 own "t ! lov+1 glad he>t w come back to y4 ,i deeply feel = & ) y1 & h no d\bt t a week among ^! m\nta9s w\ld d m t[>ds unit+ y to ,*ri/ ?an a mile ( lett]s w\ld4 ,y c't compla9 ( any folly to :i* ,i c\ld n plead guilty4 ,i h put my ,savi\r's pati5ce to e possible te/1 & h[ ,i love ,him :5 ,i ?9k :at ,he w put up )4 ,y ask if ,i ev] feel t religion is a %am8 ,no1 nev]4 ,i "k x is a reality4 ,if y ask if ,i am ev] /agg]$ by ! inconsi/5cies ( pr(ess+ ,*ri/ians1 ,i say yes1 ,i am (t5 made he>tsick by !m2 b he>tsickness always makes me run to ,*ri/1 & "o good look at ,him pacifies me4 ,?is is 9 fact my panacea = e ill2 & z to my own s9fulness1 t w\ld c]ta9ly ov]:elm me if ,i sp5t mu* "t 9 look+ at x4 ,b x is a mon/] ^: face ,i d n love to see2 ,i turn f its hide\sness to ! beauty ( ,8 face :o s9s n1 & ! sight ( yon lovely ,man ravi%es me4 ,b at y\r age ,i did ?is only by fits & />ts1 & suff]$ z y d4 ,s ,i "k h[ to feel = y1 & :at to ask = y4 ,god purposely sick5s u ( man & ( self1 t we may le>n to look long at ,jesus4 ,& ?is br+s me to :at y say ab\t ,f5elon's go+ too f>1 :5 he says we may judge ( ! dep? ( our humility by our delight 9 humiliation1 etc4 ,no1 he does n g a bit too f>4 ,paul says1 ,i w glory 9 my infirmities--,i take pleasure 9 infirmities1 9 reproa*es1 9 necessities1 9 p]secution1 9 di/resses = ,*ri/'s sake2 = :5 ,i am weak1 !n am ,i /rong4 ,i ?9k ?is a great atta9m5t2 b t ,8 disciples may rea* x1 ?\gh only ?r\gh a humbl+1 pa9ful process4 ,!n z to ,god's glory4 ,we say1 ,man's *ief end is to glorify ,god & enjoy ,him =ev]4 ,n[1 c we enjoy ,him till we d glorify ,him8 ,c we enjoy ,him :ile liv+ = ourselves1 :ile indulg+ 9 s91 :ile pray]less & cold & dead8 ,does n ,god directly seek our highe/ happ9ess :5 ,he /rips u ( va+lory & self-love1 embitt]s ! poison\s draught ( m]e human felicity1 & makes u fall d[n be=e ,him lo/ 9 ! s5se ( ,8 beauty & desirabl5ess8 ,! connexion betwe5 glorify+ & enjoy+ ,him is1 to my m9d1 p]fect--"o foll[+ z ! necess>y sequ5ce ( ! o!r2 & facts be> me out 9 ?is4 ,he :o has let self g & lives only = ! honor ( ,god1 is ! free1 ! happy man4 ,he is no long] a slave1 b has ! lib]ty ( ! sons ( ,god2 = him :o honors me1 ,i w honor4 ,satan has befogg$ y on ?is po9t4 ,he dreads to see y rip5 into a sa9tly1 devot$1 useful man4 ,he hopes to ov]:elm & ru9 y4 ,b he w n prevail4 ,y h solemnly giv5 y\rself to ! ,"l2 y h *os5 ! "w ( w9n+ & fe$+ s\ls z y\r life-"w1 & y c n1 mu/ n g back4 ,^! conflicts are ! lot ( ^? :o are tra9+ to be ! ,"l's true yoke-fell[s4 ,*ri/'s sweete/ consolations lie beh9d crosses1 & ,he res]ves ,8 be/ ?+s = ^? :o h ! c\rage to press =w>d1 fight+ = !m4 ,i entreat y to turn y\r eyes away f self1 f man1 & look to ,*ri/4 ,let me assure y1 z a fell[-travell]1 t ,i h be5 on ! road & "k x well1 & t by & by !re won't be su* a du/ on x4 ,y w meet ) h9drances & trials1 b w fight quietly ?r\gh1 & no human e> he> ! d9 ( battle1 no human eye p]ceive fa9t+ or halt+ or fall4 ,may ,god bless y1 & become to y an ev]-pres5t1 joyful reality6 ,inde$ ,he w2 only wait pati5tly4 ,9 glanc+ ov] ?is1 ,i see t ,i h "h & !re repeat$ myself4 ,d excuse x4 ,i believe x is ow+ to ! way ! flies h>ass & di/ract me4 ,augu/ #ag?4--,i feel truly grateful to ,god if ,i h be5 ( any com=t to y4 ,i "k only too well ! %ock ( see+ pr(essors ( ev5 s9less p]fection guilty ( :at ,i consid] s9ful s91 & my :ole s\l 0 s /agg]$ t = "s days ,i c\ld n pray1 b c\ld only say1 ,o ,god1 if !re be any ,god1 come to my rescue4 444 ,b ,god loves bett] ?an ,he kn[s u1 & =esaw e infidelity be=e ,he call$ u to ,himself4 ,no?+ 9 u takes ,him1 !re=e1 by surprise4 ,f5elon tea*es :at no o!r writ] does--to be pati5t ) ourselves1 & ,i ?9k z y p5etrate into ! ,*ri/ian life1 y w agree ) him on e po9t z ,i d4 ,augu/ #ai?4--,i h _h a c\ple ( r sicki% days s9ce writ+ ! above1 b am all "r aga9 n[4 ,hot wea!r does n agree ) me4 ,i us$ to reproa* myself = religi\s /upidity :5 n well1 b see n[ t ,god ,is my k9d ,fa!r--n my h>d taskma/]1 expect+ me to be full ( life & zeal :5 physically exhau/$4 ,x takes long to le>n su* lessons4 ,"o has to p5etrate deeply into ! he>t ( ,*ri/ to beg9 to "k its t5d]ness & sympa?y & =be>ance4 ,y c't imag9e h[ ,miss ,k4 has luxuriat$ 9 h] visit1 nor h[ good %e ?9ks we all are4 ,%e holds views to :i* ,i c n q respond1 b ,i d n condemn or reject !m4 ,%e is a mode/1 pray+1 devot$ woman2 n dispos$ to obtrude1 mu* less to urge h] op9ions2 full ( ,*ri/ian *>ity & =be>ance2 & ,i am truly ?ankful t %e prays = me & m9e2 9 fact1 %e loves to pray s1 t :5 %e gets hold ( a new case1 %e acts z "o does :o has f\nd a treasure4 ,i wi% y 7 look+ out ) me on ! beautiful array ( m\nta9s to be se5 f e w9d[ ( our h\se & brea?+ ?is delici\s air4 ,septemb] #be?4--,we expect n[ to g home on ,friday next1 ?\gh if ,i _h kn[n h[ e>ly ! foliage 0 go+ to turn ?is ye>1 ,i %\ld h plann$ to /ay a week long] to see x 9 all its glory4 ,x is look+ v beautiful ev5 n[1 & our eyes h a p]petual fea/4 ,we h _h a *>m+ summ]1 b "o does n want to play all ! "t1 & ,i hope ,god has "w ( "s sort = me to d at home dur+ ! w9t]4 ,mean:ile1 ,i wi% ,i c\ld s5d y a photograph ( ! little d5 :]e ,i am n[ writ+1 & ! ru/ic adorn+s :i* make x sui g5]is1 & ! bit ( woods to be se5 f its w9d[s1 t1 tak+ ! lead ( all o!r ,dorset woods1 h put on floral colors1 j because !y are ours & "k we want !m look+ _! be/ be=e we g away4 ,b ?is wi% mu/ yield to fate1 l _m ano!r2 &1 z ,i h come to ! end ( my pap]1 ,i w love & leave y4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told4 ,c\ntry & ,city4 ,! ,law ( ,*ri/ian ,progress4 ,lett]s to a ,fri5d b]eft ( ?ree ,*ildr54 ,sudd5 ,dea? ( ano!r ,fri5d4 ,g on2 /ep fa/]4 ,f5elon & 8 ,influ5ce ^u h] religi\s ,life4 ,l9es on h] ,indebt$ness to him4 ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told 0 publi%$ ab\t ?is "t4 ,x _h already appe>$ 9 ! ,riv]side ,magaz9e4 ,! occasion ( ! /ory 0 a passage 9 a lett] f ,london writt5 by a fri5d1 :i* describ$ 9 a v graphic & t\*+ way ! ye>ly exhibition ( ! ,society = ! ,promotion ( ,w9d[ ,g>d5+ among ! ,poor4 ,! exhibition 0 held at ! ,dean's close at ,we/m9/] & ! ,e>l ( ,%aftesbury gave ! prizes4 #i ,no "o ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss's small] works1 p]haps1 has be5 s mu* admir$ z ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told4 ,x 0 writt5 at ,dorset 9 ! c\rse ( a s+le day1 if n at a s+le sitt+2 & s real 0 ! sc5e to h] imag9ation t1 on read+ x 9 ! ev5+ to h] husb&1 %e _h to /op aga9 & aga9 f ! viol5ce ( h] emotion4 ,:at a little fool ,i am6 %e w\ld say1 aft] a fre% bur/ ( te>s4 #aj ,to ,mrs4 ,leon>d1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #af1 #ahgj4 ,y\r lett] came 9 ! mid/ ( ! we> & te> ( ,a4's return to u4 ,we 7 kept 9 susp5se ab\t h] f ,monday1 :5 %e 0 due1 till1 ,friday :5 %e came1 & x is ye>s s9ce ,i h got s excit$ & wr\ght up4 ,!y _h a dreadful passage1 b %e 0 n sick at all4 ,pr(4 ,smi? is look+ bett] ?an ,i ev] saw him1 & we are all mo/ happy 9 be+ toge!r once m4 ,i c truly re-e*o y\r wi% t y liv$ half way betwe5 u & ,dorset1 = !n we %\ld see y once a ye> at lea/4 ,i miss y & long to see y4 ,h[ true x is t ea* fri5d has a place ( 8 own t no "o else c fill6 ,i d n d\bt t ! #ac? ( ,octob] 0 a silv]y w$d+-day to y\r de> husb&4 ,8 loss has made ,*ri/ de>] to y1 & s has made y\r union m p]fect4 ,i suppose y 7 nev] s mu* "o z y are n[4 ,we h _h a delightful summ]1 n really suff]+ f ! heat2 ?\gh1 ( c\rse1 we felt x m or less4 ,all our nights 7 cool4444 ,i c n tell y h[ ,mr4 ,p4 & myself enjoy our c\ntry home4 ,x seems z if we _h slipp$ into our prop] nook4 ,b if we are go+ to d any m bra9work1 we mu/ be :]e !re is /imulus1 su* z we f9d "h4 ,:at a mix$-up lett]6 ,i h almo/ =gott5 h[ to write1 9 adorn+ my h\se & s[+ my se$s & ! l4 ,to ,mrs4 ,fr$]ick ,field1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #ai?1 #ahgj4 ,i deeply appreciate ! ,*ri/ian k9dness t prompt$ y to write me 9 ! mid/ ( y\r sorr[4 ,i 0 prep>$ = ! sad news by a dream only la/ night4 ,i fanci$ myself see+ y\r de> little boy ly+ v re/lessly on 8 b$1 & propos+ to c>ry him ab\t 9 my arms to relieve him4 ,he made no objection1 & ,i walk$ up & d[n ) him a long1 long "t1 :5 "s "o ( ! family took him f me4 ,in/antly 8 face 0 illum9$ by a wondr\s smile ( delight t he 0 to leave ! arms ( a /rang] to g to ^? famili> to him--su* a smile1 t :5 ,i awoke ?is morn+ ,i said to myself1 ,eddy ,field has gone to ! arms ( 8 ,savi\r1 & gone gladly4 ,y c imag9e h[ y\r lett]1 an h\r or two lat]1 t\*$ me4 ,b y h bett] consolation ?an dreams c give2 9 ! belief t y\r *ild w develop1 )\t spot or wr9kle or any su* ?+1 into ! p]fect lik5ess ( ,*ri/1 & 9 y\r own submission to ! un]r+ w ( ,god4 ,i sometimes ?9k t pati5t suff]]s suff] mo/2 !y make less outcry ?an o!rs1 b ! grief t has little v5t we>s sorely4 ,grace does n /eel ! fai?ful he>t ,t x %\ld feel no ill1 & y h _m a pang yet be=e y4 ,x mu/ be s v h>d to see tw9 *ildr5 "p company1 to h _! pa?s div]ge s soon4 ,b ! %ad[ ( dea? w n always re/ on y\r home2 y w em]ge f its obscurity into su* a light z !y :o h nev] sorr[$ c n "k4 ,we nev] "k1 or beg9 to "k1 ! great ,he>t t loves u be/1 till we ?r[ ourselves ^u x 9 ! h\r ( our despair4 ,fri5ds say & d all !y c = u1 b !y d n "k :at we suff] or :at we ne$2 b ,*ri/1 :o =m$1 has p5etrat$ ! dep?s ( ! "m's he>t4 ,he p\rs 9 ! w9e & ! oil t no human h& possesses1 & z "o :om 8 "m com=te?1 s w ,he com=t y4 ,i h liv$ to see t ,god nev] 0 s good to me z :5 ,he seem$ mo/ sev]e4 ,?us ,i tru/ & believe x w be ) y & y\r husb&4 ,mean:ile1 :ile ! peaceable fruits are gr[+ & rip5+1 may ,god help y ?r\gh ! griev\s "t t mu/ pass--a griev\s "t 9 :i* y h my w>m sympa?y4 ,i "k only too well all ab\t x4 ,i "k my griefs2 b !n my consolations1 ,my joys1 & my immortal hopes ,i "k-- joys unkn[n to ! prosp]\s1 hopes t spr+ f se$ long buri$ 9 ! du/4 ,i %all read y\r books ) great int]e/1 ,i am sure1 & :o kn[s h[ ,god means to prep>e y = future usefulness along ! pa? ( pa98 ,e bran* t be>e? fruit ,he purge? x1 t x may br+ =? m fruit4 ,:at an epitaph y\r boy's own words w\ld be--,x is beautiful to be dead6 ,to ! ,same1 ,new ,york1 ,nov #cj?1 #ahgj4 ,i ?ank y s mu* = y\r lett] ab\t y\r preci\s *ildr54 ,i rememb] !m well1 all ?ree1 & d n wond] t ! dea? ( y\r fir/-born1 com+ ^u ! v foot/eps ( sorr[1 has s ne>ly cru%$ y4 ,b :at beautiful consolations ,god gave y by 8 dy+ b$6 ,all safe at ,god's "r h&6 ,:at m c ! fonde/ "m's he>t ask ?an su* safety z ?is8 ,i am sure t !re w come to y1 soon] or lat]1 ! s5se ( ,*ri/'s love 9 ^! repeat$ sorr[s1 t 9 y\r pres5t bewild]$1 amaz$ /ate y c h>dly realise4 ,let me tell y t ,i h tri$ ,8 he>t 9 a long /orm--n s v diff]5t f y\rs--& t ,i "k some?+ ( its dep?s4 ,i w enclose y "s l9es t may give y a mom5t's light4 ,please n to let !m g out ( y\r h&s1 = no "o--n ev5 my husb&--has ev] se5 !m4 ,i am go+ to s5d my la/ book to y\r lonely little boy4 ,y w n feel l read+ x n[1 b p]haps ! #cc;d *apt]1 & "s t foll[1 may n j> ^u y z ! e>li] "p w\ld4 ,to g back aga9 to ! subject ( ,*ri/'s love = u1 ( :i* ,i nev] tire1 ,i want to make y feel t ,8 suff]]s are ,8 happie/1 mo/ favor$ disciples4 ,:at !y le>n ab\t ,him---,8 pitifulness1 ,8 unwill+ness to hurt u1 ,8 ha/e to b9d up ! v w\nds ,he has inflict$---ende> ,him s1 t at la/ !y bur/ out into songs ( ?anksgiv+1 t ,8 donation ( bliss includ$ 9 x su* donation ( pa94 ,p]haps ,i h already said to y1 = ,i am fond ( say+ x1 ,! love ( ,jesus---:at x is1 ,only ,8 suff]]s "k4 ,y ask if y\r he>t w ev] be lightsome aga94 ,nev] aga9 ) ! lightsom5ess t _h nev] kn[n sorr[1 b light ev5 to gayety ) ! new & high] love born ( tribulation4 ,j z f> z a heav5ly is sup]ior ev5 to mat]nal love1 w be ! elevation & beauty ( y\r new joy2 a joy wor? all x co/s4 ,i "k :at sorr[ means2 ,i "k x well4 ,b ,i "k1 too1 :at x is to pass out ( t prison-h\se into a peace t passes all und]/&+2 & ?\s&s c say ! same4 ,s1 my de> suff]+ si/]1 look on & look up2 lay hold on ,*ri/ ) bo? y\r poor1 empty h&s2 let ,him d ) y :at seeme? ,him good2 ?\gh ,he slay y1 /ill tru/ 9 ,him2 & ,i d>e 9 ,8 "n to promise y a sweet]1 bett] life ?an y c\ld h kn[n _h ,he left y to dr9k ( ! full1 dang]\s cups ( unm+l$ prosp]ity4 ,i feel su* real & liv+ sympa?y ) y1 t ,i w\ld love to sp5d weeks by y\r side1 try+ to b9d up y\r brok5 he>t4 ,b = ! gospel ( ,*ri/1 to he> ( su* b]eavem5ts z y\rs w\ld appall1 w\ld madd5 "o4 ,yet1 :at a halo surr\nds t ^w b6 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,dec #ad1 #ahgj4 ,i h n behav$ accord+ to my wont1 & visit$ ! sick ev5 by way ( a lett]4 ,& by ?is "t ,i hope y are q well aga91 & d n ne$ gho/ly c\nsels4444 ,i h felt v badly ab\t ,miss ,lyman's dy+ at ,vass>1 b s9ce ,mrs4 ,s4's visit & le>n+ h[ belov$ %e is !re1 h *ang$ my m9d4 ,:at does x matt]1 aft] all1 f :at po9t ( "t or space we g home2 h[ we %all smile1 aft] we get !re1 t we ev] gave x "o mom5t's ?\ght6 ,y ask :at ,i am do+2 well1 ,i am tak+ a vacation & n writ+ any?+ to speak (1 yet j z busy z ev]2 n "o mom5t 9 :i* to dawdle1 ?\gh ,i d>e say ,i seem to ! folks "h at home to be sitt+ r\nd do+ no?+4 ,i mu/ give y a picture ( "o day & y mu/ photograph "o ( y\rs1 z we h done be=e4 ,got up at sev5 & w5t ?r\gh ! usual =ms2 _h pray]s & breakfa/1 & />t$ (f to s*ool ) ,m4 ,came home & _h a nice quiet "t read+1 etc42 at elev5 w5t to my meet+1 :i* 0 a te>ful "o1 z "o ( our memb]s :o knelt ) u only a week be=e1 0 ?is day to be buri$ out ( our sight4 ,%e 0 at *ur* on ,sunday aft]noon at f\r ,p4,m41 to pres5t h] baby 9 baptism1 & at half-pa/ two ! foll[+ morn+ 0 9 heav54 ,we all w5t toge!r to ! fun]al aft] ! meet+1 & ga!r$ r\nd ! c(f9 ) ! feel+ t %e belong$ to u4 ,:5 ,i got home ,i f\nd a despat* f ,miss ,w41 say+ !y %\ld be "h "r away4 ,i _h let "o ( my wom5 g out ( t[n to a sick si/]1 s ,i mu/ turn *amb]-maid & make ! b$1 du/1 cle> out closet1 cupbo>d1 & bureau =?)4 ,?is done1 !y arriv$1 :i* took ! "t till half-pa/ sev51 :5 ,i excus$ myself & w5t to an ev5+ meet+1 kn[+ x w\ld be devot$ to special pray] = ! husb& & *ildr5 ( h] :o _h gone4 ,got home half an h\r beh9d "t & f\nd a "y man await+ me :o 0 conv]t$ la/ ,june1 z he hopes1 :ile read+ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,i _h j got seat$ by him :5 our doctor 0 ann\nc$2 he _h lo/ 8 only gr&*ild & _h come to talk ab\t x4 ,he /ay$ till half-pa/ n9e1 :5 ,i w5t back to my "y fri5d1 :o /ay$ till half-pa/ t5 & gave a v int]e/+ hi/ory :i* ,i h n "t to put on pap]4 ,he writes me s9ce1 h[ev]1 ab\t 8 ,*ri/ian life t x gets sweet] & sweet]1 & ,i "k y w be glad = me t ,i h ?is joy4 ,saturday ,morn+4--,i 0 int]rupt$ !re1 _h visitors1 _h to g to a fair1 company aga91 s t ,i _h n "t to eat ! food ,i ne$$1 w5t to see a poor sick girl1 _h m visitors1 & at la/1 at elev5 ,p4,m41 scrambl$ into b$4 ,n[ ,i am f9i%+ ?is1 & if nobody h9d]s1 am go+ to mail x1 & !n g aft] a block ( ice-cream = t sick girl 7isn't x nice1 we c get x n[ done up 9 little boxes1 j ab\t z mu* z an invalid c eat at "o "t74 ,!n ,i am go+ to see a poor afflict$ s\l t c't get any light on h] sorr[4 ,"h comes my de> old man to read 8 s]mon1 s good-bye4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,dec4 #bj1 #ahgj4 ,i h be5 l$1 dur+ ! la/ mon? or two1 to a new love ( ! ,holy ,_s1 or p]haps to m consci\sness ( ! sil5t1 bless$ "w ,he is do+ 9 & = u8 & = ^? ^: s\ls lie z a heavy & yet a sweet burd5 ^u our own4 ,& jo9+ ) y 9 y\r pray]s1 seek+ also = myself :at ,i s\ght = y1 ,i f\nd myself almo/ />tl$ by su* a response z ,i c n describe4 ,x 0 n joy1 b a deep solemnity :i* enfold$ me z ) a g>m5t1 & if ,i ev] pass out ( x1 :i* ,i nev] want to d1 ,i hope x w be ) a he>t m ?an ev] consecrat$ & set ap>t = ,*ri/'s s]vice4 ,! m ,i reflect & ! m ,i pray1 ! m life n>r[s d[n to "o po9t--,:at am ,i be+ = ,*ri/1 :at am ,i do+ = ,him8 ,:y d ,i tell y ?is8 ,because ! voice ( a fell[-travell] always /imulates 8 bro!r-pilgrim2 :at "o f9ds & speaks ( & rejoices ov]1 sets ! o!r ^u det]m9+ to f9d too4 ,god has be5 v good to y1 z well z to me1 b we ought to :isp] to ea* o!r n[ & !n1 ,g on1 /ep fa/]1 /ep sur]1 lay hold on ! ,rock ( ,ages ) bo? h&s4 ,y nev] ne$ be afraid to speak su* words to me4 ,i want to be pu%$ on1 & pull$ on1 & coax$ on4 ,! allusion to h] belov$ ,f5elon1 9 sev]al ( ! prec$+ lett]s1 r5d]s ?is a suitable place to say a ^w ab\t him & 8 influ5ce ^u h] religi\s "*4 ,f5elon ,i lean on1 %e wrote4 ,h] delight 9 8 writ+s dat$ back m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury1 & cont9u$1 unabat$1 to ! end ( h] days4 ,%e reg>d$ him ) a sort ( p]sonal affection & rev]5ce4 ,h] copy ( ,spiritual ,progress1 compos$ l>gely ( selections f 8 works1 is cr[d$ ) p5cil-m>ks expressive ( h] sympa?y & approval2 n ev5 h] ,imitation ( ,*ri/1 ,sacra ,privata1 ,pilgrim's ,progress1 ,sa9ts' ,ev]la/+ ,re/1 or ,leighton on ! ,fir/ ,epi/le ( ,pet]1 conta9 s _m4 ,^! p5cil-m>ks are sometimes v emphatic1 und]scor+ or inclos+ n[ a s+le ^w1 n[ a phrase1 anon a :ole s5t5ce or p>agraph2 & x requires b little skill to deciph]1 9 ^! rude hi]oglyphics1 ! secret hi/ory ( h] s\l = a ?ird ( a c5tury-- "o side1 at lea/1 ( ?is hi/ory4 ,:at %e s\ght ) ! greate/ eag]ness1 :at %e mo/ lov$ & mo/ hat$1 h] spiritual aims1 /ruggles1 trials1 joys & hopes1 may "h be read betwe5 ! l9es4 ,& a beautiful te/imony !y give to ! moral dep?1 purity & nobl5ess ( h] piety6 ,! /ory is n1 inde$1 complete2 h] religi\s life _h o!r elem5ts1 n f\nd1 or only p>tially f\nd1 9 ,f5elon2 elem5ts c5t]+ directly 9 ,*ri/ & ,8 gospel1 & :i* _h _! inspiration 9 h] ,daily ,food & h] ,new ,te/am5t4 ,:at attract$ h] to ,f5elon 0 n ! doctr9e ( salvation z taught by him--%e f\nd x bett] taught 9 ,bunyan & ,leighton--x 0 8 m>vell\s k ( ! human he>t1 8 ke5 insight into ! prop] work+s ( nature & grace1 8 deep spiritual wisdom1 & ! sweet my/ic tone ( 8 piety4 ,& !n ! two great pr9ciples p]vad+ 8 writ+s--t ( pure love to ,god & t ( self-crucifixion z ! way to p]fect love--fell 9 ) "s ( h] own favorite views ( ! ,*ri/ian life4 ,9 ! /udy ( ,f5elon1 z ( ,madame ,guyon1 h] aim 0 a purely practical "o2 x 0 n to e/abli%1 or v]ify1 a !ory1 b to get aid & com=t 9 h] daily c\rse heav5w>d4 ,:at ,f5elon 0 to h] 9 ?is respect %e has h]self record$ 9 ! foll[+ l9es1 f\nd1 aft] h] dea?1 writt5 on a blank page ( h] ,spiritual ,progress3 ,oh wise & ?\ghtful words6 oh c\nsel sweet1 ,guide 9 my w&]+s1 spurs unto my feet1 ,h[ (t5 y h met me on ! way1 ,& turn$ me f ! pa? t l$ a/ray2 ,tea*+ t fault & folly1 s9 & fall1 ,ne$ n ! we>y pilgrim's he>t appall2 ,yea m1 in/ruct+ h[ to snat* ! /+ ,f timid consci5ce1 h[ to /ret* ! w+ ,f ! l[ plane1 ! level dead ( s91 ,& m\nt immortal1 my/ic joys to w94 ,"o h\r ) ,jesus6 ,h[ its peace outweighs ,! ravi%m5t ( e>?ly love & praise2 ,h[ de>] f>1 empti$ ( self to lie ,l[ at ,8 feet1 & cat*1 p]*ance1 ,8 eye1 ,alike cont5t :5 ,he may give or take1 ,! sweet1 ! bitt]1 welcome = ,8 sake6 #a ,john ,wesley1 aft] hav+ po9t$ out :at he consid]$ ! gr& s\rce ( all h] mi/akes2 namely1 ! be+ guid$ by inw>d impressions & ! light ( h] own _s r ?an by ! writt5 ,^w1 & also h] error 9 tea*+ t ,god nev] purifies a s\l b by inw>d & outw>d suff]+--!n adds3 ,& yet ) all ?is dross h[ mu* pure gold is mix$6 ,s did ,god w9k at involunt>y ignorance4 ,:at a dep? ( religion did %e enjoy6 ,h[ mu* ( ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus6 ,:at heights ( righte\sness1 & peace1 & joy 9 ! ,holy ,gho/6 ,h[ few su* in/ances d we f9d ( exalt$ love to ,god1 & our neighbor2 ( g5u9e humility2 ( inv9cible meekness & unb\nd$ resignation6 ,s t1 ^u ! :ole1 ,i "k n :e!r we may n se>* _m c5turies to f9d ano!r woman :o 0 su* a patt]n ( true hol9ess4 #b ,see ! l9es ,,my ,,cup ,,runne? ,,ov]1 ,gold5 ,h\rs1 p4 #dc4 #c ,i "k ( no book1 ! ,bible except$ z above all comp>ison1 :i* ,i1 accord+ to my judgm5t & exp]i5ce1 c\ld s safely recomm5d z tea*+ & en=c+ ! :ole sav+ tru? accord+ to ! m9d t 0 9 ,*ri/ ,jesus1 z ! ,pilgrim's ,progress4 ,x is1 9 my conviction1 incomp>ably ! be/ summa !ologi evangelic ev] produc$ by a writ] n miracul\sly inspir$4 ,i read x once z a !ologian--& let me assure y1 !re is great !ological acum5 9 ! "w--once ) devotional feel+s1 & once z a poet4 ,i c\ld n h believ$ be=eh& t ,calv9ism c\ld be pa9t$ 9 su* exquisitely delightful colors4--,,col]idge4 #d ,! allusion is to ,!kla's song 9 ,"p ,i41 ,act iii41 sc4 #g ( ,s*ill]'s ,wall5/e94 ,du ,heilige1 rufe de9 ,k9d zurck6 ,i* habe g5oss5 das irdis*e ,glck1 ,i* habe gelebt und gelibet4 #e ,! hymn ref]r$ to is ,paul ,g]h>dt's1 beg9n+3 ,wir s+5 dir1 ,immanuel1 ,du ,leb5sfr/ und ,gnad5quell4 ,x 0 "o ( h] favorite ,g]man hymns4 ,! l9es %e quotes belong to ! t5? /anza2 ,i* kann ni*t sag5 ,d] ,w i/ da1 are ! words p5cill$ 9 ! m>g94 #f ,h>tley ,col]idge's ,poems4 ,vol4 ,,ii41 p4 #aci4 #g ,b greatly to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' annoyance1 ) ! title *ang$ to ,ev] ,heav5w>d--z if to make x appe> to be a sequel to ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 #h ,wife ( ! late ,rev4 ,horatio ,br9smade1 ,d4,d41 ( ,new>k1 ,n4 ,j4 #i ,polly 0 p>ticul>ly happy2 six ye>s old1 ,i %\ld say1 %abby1 ?\gh evid5tly wa%$ up = ! occasion1 & v pretty & all p9k ) excitem5t4 ,polly1 ,i kn[$ y'd get a prize1 ,i he>d a "y woman1 tir$ out ) c>ry+ h] own big baby1 say4 ,& !n %e came ^u h] own g]anium ) ?ree blossoms on x & m>k$ ,second ,prize1 & said1 ,i c't believe x1 :5 !y told h] t t meant six %ill+s4 ,b ! plant :i* my companion & myself bo? cri$ ov]1 0 a little bit ( a we$y m>igold1 ! "o poor little fl[] on x c>efully fa/5$ ab\t ) a pap] r+1 su* z high & mighty gre5h\se m5 sometimes put r\nd a *oice rose 9 bud4 ,t 0 all2 j ?is "o common1 v s+le little fl[]1 ) ,lizzie ,some?+'s "n atta*$ & ! "n ( h] /reet4 ,all ! /reets 7 put ^u ! tickets & add$ greatly to ! pa!tic effect2 j ! poore/ lanes & alleys 9 ,london4 ,nobody seem$ to claim ! m>igold4 ,p]haps x 0 ! great treasure ( "s sick *ild :o c\ldn't come to look at x4 ,x 0 c]ta9 n to get a prize1 b ! *ild has f\nd some?+ by ?is "t tuck$ d[n 9 ! pot & c>efully cov]$ ov] by ,f41 :5 no "o 0 look+1 ) a p9* ( e>? tak5 f a m prosp]\s plant alongside4 #aj ,miss ,w4 %[$ me a v pleasant lett] ( ,lady ,augu/a ,/anley1 ! wife ( ,dean ,/anley1 to a ,miss ,c41 ?r\gh :om %e receiv$ f ,miss ,w4's little niece a copy ( ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told4 ,lady ,/anley is h]self1 ,i believe1 at ! head ( ! ,society :i* holds ! annual ,fl[] ,%[4 ,%e says 9 h] lett] t %e _h j return$ f ,scotl&1 rea*+ home q late 9 ! ev5+4 ,be=e retir+1 h[ev]1 %e _h read y\r /ory ?r\gh4 ,%e praises x v w>mly1 & wond]s h[ anybody b a ,london] c\ld h writt5 x4--,lett] to ,mrs4 ,p41 dat$ ,new ,york1 ,septemb]1 #ahgb4 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,9 ,,h] ,,home4 ,! lett]s 9 ! prec$+ *apt]s give a glimpse1 "h & !re1 ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' home1 b relate *iefly to ! religi\s side ( h] "*4 ,:at 0 h] mann] ( life among h] *ildr58 ,h[ 7 h] temp] & habits z a "m affect$ by ! ardor & int5sity ( h] ,*ri/ian feel+8 ,a p>tial answ] to ^! que/ions is conta9$ 9 lett]s writt5 to h] elde/ daught]1 :ile ! latt] 0 abs5t 9 ,europe4 ,^! lett]s %[ ! natural side ( h] "*2 & al?\gh f> f reflect+ all its light & beauty--no words c\ld d t6--!y depict "s ( its mo/ int]e/+ traits4 ,!y are frankness itself & betray n ! lea/ respect ( p]sons2 b if %e speaks h] m9d 9 !m )\t mu* let or h9drance1 x is always done 9 ! pleasante/ way4 ,9 ! portions select$ = publication ! aim has be5 to let h] be se51 s f> z possible1 j z %e appe>$ 9 h] daily home-life1 bo? 9 t[n & c\ntry4 ,i4 ,home-life 9 ,new ,york4 ,new ,york1 ,octob] #bb1 #ahfi4 ,i h promis$ to walk to s*ool ) ,m4 ?is morn+1 & :ile ,i am wait+ = h] to get ready1 w beg9 my lett] to y4 ,we got home f see+ y (f all tir$ out1 & ,i lay on ! s(a all ! "t till ,i w5t to b$1 except :ile eat+ my d9n]1 & ,i ?9k papa did pretty mu* ! same4 ,! mom5t we _h done d9n]1 ,h4 & ,jane appe>$1 c>ry+ y\r bureau draw] betwe5 !m1 & we _h a great "t ov] ! pres5ts y 7 ?\ghtful en\gh to leave beh9d y4 ,my little sacque makes me look l #ejj angels in/ead ( "o1 & ,i am ev] s glad ( x1 & ! *ildr5 7 all delight$ ) _! ?+s4 ,well1 ,i h escort$ ,m4 to s*ool1 come home & read ! ,advance1 & ,he>? & ,home1 & x is n[ elev5 o'clock & ! door-bell has only rung twice6 ,papa says y are out ( sight ( l&1 & z x is a w>m day & we are com=table1 we hope y are4 ,b x is dreadful to h to wait s long be=e he>+4 #bc;d4--,papa says ?is mu/ be mail$ by n9e o'clock2 s ,i h hurri$ up f breakfa/ to f9i% x4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,s4 sp5t mo/ ( la/ ev5+ ) u4 ,!y %\t$ ov] my f]rotypes4 ,mr4---- also call$ & express$ z mu* surprise at y\r hav+ gone to ,europe z if ! sky _h fall54 ,i read my sea-j\rnal to ! *ildr5 la/ ev5+1 & ?\gh x is v flat & meagre 9 itself1 ,h41 to :om x 0 all br& new1 ?\ght x ought to be publi%$ =?)4 ,no "t = ano!r ^w b love to all ! ,s4's1 big & little1 high & l[1 great & small4 ,y\r affectionate ,mammy4 ,oct4 #bh?4--,i c h>dly believe t x is only a week today t we saw y & y\r big /eam] disappe> f view4 ,h4 said la/ night t x seem$ to him "o hundr$ ye>s ago1 & we all said am54 ,s h[ d y suppose x w seem t5 mon?s h5ce8 ,i hope y d n f9d ! "t s long4 ,i take turns wait+ ^u ! *ildr5 to s*ool1 :i* !y are v /rict ab\t1 & !y enjoy _! tea*]s amaz+ly4 ,i receiv$ ?is morn+ a v beautiful & t\*+ lett] f a "y lady 9 ,engl& ab\t ! ,susy books4 ,!y are associat$ 9 h] m9d & ^? ( h] family ) a ,little ,pe>lie ^: cunn+ little photograph %e enclos$1 :o taught h]self to read 9 a =tnight f "o ( !m1 & 0 read to f x on h] dy+ b$1 & aft] %e became spee*less %e made signs to h h] head wet z ,susy's 04 ,i nev] receiv$ su* a lett] among all ,i h _h4 ,r&olph s5t me twelve copies ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 & ,i h _h my h&s full pack+ & s5d+ !m4 ,m4 is read+ al\d to ,h4 a *>m+ /ory call$ ,alone 9 ,london4 ,i am sure ,i c\ld n read x al\d )\t cry+4 ,! foll[+ is ! lett] f ,engl&3 ,to ,,! ,,au?or ,,( ,,little ,,susy3 ,i feel z if ,i _h a p]fect "r to call y ,my de> fri5d1 s mu* h ,i ?\ght ( y ?is la/ ye> & a half4 ,be> ) me :ile ,i tell y :y4 ,a ye> ago la/ ,*ri/mas we 7 a l>ge family--fa!r1 "m1 & eight *ildr51 ( :om ,i1 :o address y1 am ! elde/4 ,! y\nge/ 0 ( c\rse ! pet1 our bright little d>l+1 r m ?an five4 ,t ,*ri/mas morn+1 ( c\rse1 !re 7 gifts = all2 & among ! treasures 9 ! smalle/ /ock+ 0 a copy ( ,little ,susy's ,six ,tea*]s1 = :i* ,i desire to ?ank y n[4 ,_m times ,i h tri$ to d s1 b ,i c\ld n2 ! tr\ble :i* came ^u u 0 too great & awful 9 its sudd5ness4 ,little ,pe>l1 s fir/ call$ 9 ! days ( a fragile babyhood--,dora ,m>g>et 0 h] real "n--taught h]self to read f h] ,little ,susy1 dur+ ! fir/ =tnight %e _h x4 ,& %e w\ld sit = h\rs1 lit]ally1 amus+ & int]e/+ h]self by x4 ,%e talk$ con/antly ( ! ,six ,tea*]s1 & a ^w ab\t !m 0 en\gh to quell any ris+ naught9ess4 ,pe>lie1 :at w\ld ,mr4 ,ought say8 or ,don't grieve ,mrs4 ,love1 0 always suffici5t4 ,d y "k :at x is to h "o ! y\nge/ 9 a l>ge family8 ,my d>l+ 0 sev5te5 ye>s y\ng] ?an ,i4 ,i left s*ool :5 %e 0 born to take ! ov]sight ( ! nurs]y1 :i* de> mamma's illness & always delicate heal? prev5t$ h] f do+4 ,i _h nurs$ h] 9 h] illnesses1 dress$ h]1 made ! little frocks--n[ laid s sadly by--& to all ! re/ ( u %e _h be5 m l a *ild ?an a si/]4 ,fri5ds us$ to say1 ,x is a wond] t *ild is n spoil$2 b !y c\ld nev] say %e 04 ,m]ry1 full ( life & fun %e always 01 quick & intellig5t1 full ( droll say+s :i* recur to u n[ ) su* a pa94 ,f ,*ri/mas to ! end ( ,febru>y we (t5 rem>k$ to "o ano!r h[ good t *ild 06 laugh+ & play+ f morn+ to night1 yet nev] unruly or wild4 ,t ,febru>y we _h illness 9 ! h\se4 ,jessie1 ! next y\nge/1 _h diph!ria1 b %e recov]$1 & we tru/$ all dang] 0 pass$1 :5 "o ,monday ev5+--! la/ 9 ! mon?--our d>l+ seem$ ill4 ,! next day we recognis$ ! symptoms we _h se5 9 ,jessie1 & ! doctor 0 call$ 94 ,tuesday & ,w$nesday he came & gave no h9t ( dang]1 b on ,w$nesday night we p]ceiv$ a *ange & on ,?ursday came ! s5t5ce3 ,no hope4 ,oh fri5d1 de> fri5d6 h[ c ,i tell y ( ! long h\rs :5 we c\ld n help our d>l+--( ! d>k night :51 =bidd5 ! room f ! malignity ( ! case1 we w5t to b$ to coax mamma to d s--( ! grey ,febru>y dawn :5 !re came ! words1 ,our d>l+ is q well n[--q well1 =ev] tak5 f ! evil to come4 ,! ,sunday night be=e1 %e came into ! p>lor ) ,susy "u h] arm & petition$ = "s "o to read ! ,tea*]s' meet+4 ,:y1 y read x twice ?is aft]noon1 said "o4 ,yes1 ,i "k--b x's s nice1 0 ! reply4 ,pe>lie w be six 9 ,septemb]1 said ! g5tle "m2 we mu/ h a ,tea*]s' meet+ = h]1 ,i ?9k4 ,b p]haps ,i %a'n't ev] be six1 said ! little "o4 ,oh ,pe>lie1 :y d y say s8 ,well1 p don't all be six1 y "k1 affirm$ our d>l+ ) solemn eyes & two dimples 9 ! rosy *eeks1 t 7 hid =ev] f u be=e ! next ,sabba? day4 ,on ! ,w$nesday we borr[$ f a little fri5d ! o!r books ( ! s]ies1 ?9k+ !y might af=d "s amusem5t = ! we>y h\rs ( illness1 & ,annie1 my next si/]1 read f\r ( ! bir?days to h] & !n wi%$ to /op1 fe>+ %e might be too fatigu$4 ,no1 read "o m1 0 ! reque/1 & ,t w d--,i'm five1 read ! la/ to-morr[1 %e said1 :5 x 0 compli$ )4 ,ah me6 ) h[ _m te>s we took up t book aga94 ,t ,w$nesday %e sat up 9 b$1 a glass ( m$ic9e 9 h] h&4 ,mamma1 %e said1 ,miss ,joy has gone q away & only left ,mr4 ,pa94 ,%e c't come back till my ?roat is well4 ,b ,mrs4 ,love is "h1 is %e n8 ,oh1 yes1 & ! de> heavy eyes turn$ f "o to ano!r4 ,9 ! night1 :5 %e lay dy+1 came int]vals ( consci\sness2 9 "o ( ^! %e took h] h&k]*ief & gave x to papa1 :o wat*$ by h]1 ask+ him to wet x & put x on h] head4 ,:5 he told u1 we recollect$ ! incid5t :5 ,susy 9 ! favorite book 0 ill4 ,& c y und]/& h[ our he>ts felt v t5d] t[>d y & we said y mu/ be ?ank$4 ,i %\ld we>y y if ,i told y all ! incid5ts t pres5t$ !mselves ( h[ sweet & good %e 0 9 h] illness2 h[ 9 ! agony ( ^? la/ h\rs1 :5 no fe> ( infection c\ld re/ra9 ! passionate kisses papa 0 %[]+ on h]1 ! de> voice said ) a /op & an ef=t betwe5 ea* ^w1 ,don't kiss me on my m\?1 papa2 y may cat* x2 h[ ev]y?+ %e ask$ = 0 prefac$ by please1 h[ self 0 always la/ 9 h] ?\ghts4 ,i'm keep+ y awake1 y d>l+4 ,don't /& !re--y'll be s tir$--sit d[n or g d[n-/airs1 if y l4 ,i w s5d y a photograph ( little ,pe>lie2 x is ! be/ we h1 b 0 tak5 :5 %e 0 only two ye>s old4 ,%e 0 v small = h] age & _h be5 v delicate until ! la/ ye> ( h] life4 ,9 writ+ ?us to ?ank y ,i am n only do+ an act ( ju/ice to y\rself1 b fulfill+ wi%es n[ r5d]$ b9d+4 ,(t5 & (t5 my de> mamma said1 ,h[ ,i wi% we knew ! lady :o wrote ,little ,susy6 ,h] heal?1 always delicate1 nev] recov]$ f ! %ock ( ,pe>lie's dea?1 & sudd5ly1 on ! morn+ ( ! fir/ ( ,may1 ! ,angel ( ,dea? d>k5$ our dwell+ ) ! %ad[ ( 8 w+s4 ,n long did he l+]--only two h\rs--& our "m _h left u4 ,%e 0 ) h] treasure & ! ,savi\r1 :o said s lov+ly on e>?1 ,come unto ,me4 ,b words c n express su* tr\ble z t4 ,we h n realis$ x yet4 ,=give me if my lett] is abrupt & confus$4 ,i h only desir$ to tell y simply ! simple tale--if by any *ance x %\ld make y ?ank ,god m e>ne/ly = ! great gift ,he has giv5 y--a holy gift inde$2 = c y ?9k ! lessons f ,susy1 s useful & s lov$ on e>?1 c\ld be sudd5ly =gott5 :5 ! glories ( heav5s op5$ on our d>l+'s view8 ,i c n myself4 ,i ?9k1 p]haps1 our ,fa!r's home may be m l our human ones1 :]e ,8 love reigns1 ?an our wild he>ts all[ !mselves to imag9e2 & ,i ?9k ! two1 on ^: behalf ,i ?ank y n[1 may "o day "k y & ?ank y !mselves4 ,de> ,aunt ,susan1 believe me to be1 y\r unkn[n yet grateful fri5d1 ,,lizzie ,,wrai? ,l----4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss at once answ]$ ?is lett]1 & n long aft] receiv$ ano!r f ,miss ,l----1 dat$ ,janu>y #i1 #ahgj1 brea?+ ! same grateful feel+ & full ( int]e/+ details4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f x3 ,i 0 s surpris$1 de> unkn[n fri5d1 to receive y\r k9d lett] s soon4 ,inde$1 ,i h>dly expect$ a reply at all4 ,:5 ,i wrote to y1 ,i did n "k t ,i 0 address+ a daught] ( ! ,edw>d ,payson ^: "n is fragrant ev5 on ?is side ( ! ,atlantic4 ,_h ,i kn[n x ,i ?9k ,i %\ld n h v5tur$ to write--s ,i am glad ,i did n4 ,if y %\ld be able to write aga91 & h a c>te-de-visite to sp>e1 may ,i beg x1 t ,i may =m "s idea ( ! fri5d1 old en\gh to be my "m8 ,are y little & slight1 l my real "m1 ,i wond]1 or /ately & tall8 ,i w s5d y a photograph ( ! monum5t :i* ! ladies ( papa's *ur* & congregation h erect$ to de> mamma1 9 our beautiful cemet]y1 :]e ! sn[drops w be already peep+1 & :]e roses bloom = t5 mon?s out ( ! twelve4 ,nov4 #c;d4--,"h beg9ne? lett] ,no4 #c4 ,we he>d ( y\r arrival at ,s\?ampton by a telegram la/ ev5+4 ,we long to get a lett]4 ,be=e ,i =get x let me tell y t ,alice ,h4 & ,julia ,w4 h bo? got babbies4 ,we are gett+ nicely settl$ = ! w9t]2 ! *ildr5 are all behav+ beautifully4 ,saturday1 #f?4--,well1 ,i h j be5 to see ,mrs4 ,f41 & f\nd h] a bright1 frank "y ?+1 fre% & simple & v pleas+4 ,h] complexion is l ,m----'s1 & ! l[] "p ( h] face is %ap$ l h]s1 d>k eyebr[s1 light hair1 spl5did tee?1 & ,i suppose w\ld be call$ v pretty by y girls4 ,take h] altoge!r ,i lik$ h] v mu*4 ,we he> next to no?+ f ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 & beg9 to ?9k x is go+ to fall dead4 ,monday1 #ad?4--,y\r ,s\?ampton lett] has j come & we are delight$ to he> t y _h su* a pleasant voyage1 & f\nd s _m agreeable p on bo>d4444 ,ye/]day aft]noon 0 devot$ to he>+ a deeply int]e/+ description f ,dr4 ,hatfield1 foll[$ by ,mr4 ,dodge1 ( ! re-union ( ! two ,assemblies at ,pittsburgh4 ,dr4 ,h4 made u all laugh by say+ t z ! ,new ,s*ool ent]$ ! *ur* :]e !y 7 to be receiv$ & unit$ to ! ,old ,s*ool1 ! latt] rose & sang ,return1 ye ransom$ s9n]s1 home6 ,oh1 ,i don't "k b x 0 j ! o!r way2 x makes no great diff]5ce1 = z ,dr4 ,h4 rem>k$1 we're all ransom$ s9n]s4 ,nov4 #cj?4--,mr4 ,abbot d9$ "h on ,sunday4 ,he came 9 aga9 9 ! ev5+1 & x w\ld h done y good to he> :at he said ab\t ! *ildr54 ,!y are all well & happy1 & give me v little tr\ble4 ,i d n feel s well on ! late d9n]1 & h awful dreams4----,i 0 pass+ ! ,c----s1 aft] writ+ ! above1 & %e call$ me 9 to see h] new p>lors4 ,!y are beautiful2 a great deal ( bright1 ri* color+1 & v>i\s articles ( furniture ( 8 own design+4 ,?ursday4----,y & ,m4 w be %ock$ to he> t ,julia ,w4 di$ la/ night4 ,z ,mr4 ,w4 0 at *ur* on ,sunday1 we suppos$ all dang] 0 ov]4 ,we he>d x ?r\gh a telegram s5t to y\r fa!r4 ,decemb] #d1 #ahfi4--;,i ne$ n tell y t we all rememb] t ?is is y\r bir?day1 de> *ild1 & t ! remembrance br+s y v ne>4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld s5d y1 = a bir?day pres5t1 all t ,i h1 ?is morn+1 ask$ ,god to give y4 ,y may dep5d ^u x1 t :ile "s p may get along ?r\gh life at a c]ta9 di/ance f ,him1 y are n "o ( t sort4 ,y may f9d a fev]i% joy1 b nev] abid+ peace1 out ( ,him4 ,rememb] ?is :5ev] y feel ! oppression ( t vague s5se ( unre/1 ( :i*1 ,i d\bt n1 y h a great deal und]nea? a c>eless outside2 ?is is ! ?ir/ ( ! s\l = ! only f\nta9 at :i* x is wor? :ile to dr9k4 ,y nev] w be really happy till ,*ri/ becomes y\r de>e/ & mo/ intimate fri5d4 #g?4--,we h _h a trem5d\s fall ( sn[1 & ,culy] says ,m4 ought to wait an h\r be=e />t+ = s*ool1 b %e is n will+ & ,i am go+ ) h] to see t %e is n buri$ alive4 ,good-bye aga91 de>ie6 ,w beg9 a new lett] "r away4 ,dec4 #i?--,we w5t to see ,mrs4 ,w4 ?is aft]noon4 ,julia _h typhoid fev]1 :i* ran tw5ty-"o days1 & 0 deliri\s a good deal ( ! "t4 ,%e got ready to die be=e h] conf9em5t1 ?\gh %e said %e expect$ to live4 ,aft] %e became s v ill ,mrs4 ,w4 he>d h] pray+ = some?+ = ,*ri/'s sake1 = ! sake ( ,*ri/'s suff]+s1 & once ask$ h] :at x 0 %e 0 ask+ = s e>ne/ly4 ,oh1 to get well = ,edw>d's sake & ! baby's1 %e repli$4 ,a few days be=e h] dea? %e call$ ,mrs4 ,w4 to come close to h]1 & said1 ,i am go+ to die4 ,i did n ?9k s :5 baby 0 born1 de> little ?+--b n[ x is impress$ ^u me t ,i am4 ,mrs4 ,w4 said !y hop$ n1 b add$1 ,yet suppose y %\ld die1 :at !n8 ,oh ,i h pray$1 day & night1 to be reconcil$1 & ,i am1 p]fectly s4 ,god w take c>e ( ,edw>d & ( my baby4 ,p]haps x is bett] s ?an to run ! risk-- ,%e did n f9i% ! s5t5ce4 ,! baby looks l h]4 ,mrs4 ,w4 told h] y _h gone to ,europe ) ,m41 & %e express$ great pleasure2 b if %e _h kn[n :]e %e 0 go+1 & to :at1 all %e w\ld h done w\ld h be5 to give ?anks = ,*ri/'s sake4 ,i d n blame h]1 h[ev]1 = cl++ to life2 x 0 natural %e %\ld4 #aj?--,we w5t1 la/ ev5+1 to he> ,fa!r ,hyac9! lecture on ,*>ite at ! ,academy ( ,music4 ,i did n expect to und]/& a ^w1 b 0 agreeably disappo9t$1 z he spoke v di/9ctly4 ,/ill ,i did n enjoy he>+ z well z ,i did read+ x ?is morn+--= ,i lo/ "s ( ! be/ ?+s 9 a really f9e address4 ,x 0 a brilliant sc5e1 ! v elite ( intellectual society ga!r$ ar\nd "o mode/1 unpret5ti\s little man4 ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,crosby 7 9 ! box ) u1 & %e1 =tunately1 _h an op]a glass ) h]1 s t we _h a *ance to /udy 8 really good face4 ,! only book ,i expect to write ?is w9t] is to y2 ,i am dreadfully lazy s9ce y left1 & don't d any?+ b haze ab\t4 ,!re is a good deal ( lively talk at ! table2 ! *ildr5 are wak$ up by go+ to s*ool1 & !re is "s rivalry among !m1 ea* ma9ta9+ t 8 & h]s is ! be/4 ,dec4 #ae?4--,we h c>ds = a ,soiree musicale at ,mrs4 ----'s1 :i* is to be a great sma%-up4 ,%e call$ "h to-day & wept & wail$ ov] & kiss$ me4 ,i h be5 to see h[ ,mrs4 ,c4 is4 ,%e is a little worse to-day1 & he & h] fa!r sc>cely leave h]4 ,he wrung my h& all to pieces1 poor man4 ,h] illness is excit+ great sympa?y 9 our *ur*1 & nobody seems will+ to let h] g4 ,dr4 ,adams sp5t la/ ev5+ "h4 ,he is spl5did company2 ,i really wi% he w\ld come once a week4 ,ev]ybody is ask+ if ,i meant 9 ,katy to describe myself4 ,i h no d\bt t if ,i %\ld cat* an old toad1 put on to h] a %ort g[n & petticoat & "o ( my caps1 ev]ybody w\ld walk up to h] & say1 ,oh1 h[ d y d1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 y look m l y\rself ?an common2 ,i recognise ! picture y h drawn ( y\rself 9 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d & 9 ! ,p]cys1 etc41 etc41 etc41 ad nauseam4 ,! next book ,i write ,i'll make my h]o9e black & ev]ybody w say1 ,oh1 "h y are aga91 black to ! life6 ,dec4 #ah?4--,y & ,m4 w n be surpris$ to he> t ,mrs4 ,c4's suff]+s are ov]4 ,%e di$ ?is morn+4 ,papa & ,i are greatly %ak54 ,) mu* hesitation ,i decid$ to g ov] !re to see h] "m1 & ! welcome ,i got f h] & f ,mr4 ,c4 are ?+s to rememb] = a life-"t4 ,i w nev] hesitate aga9 to fly to p 9 tr\ble4 ,if y 7 "h ,i w\ld tell y all ab\t my visit1 b ,i c't write x d[n4 ,x seems s sad1 j z !y _h got into _! lovely new home--sad = him1 ,i mean2 z = h] ,i c only wi% h] joy t %e is n weep+ "h bel[ z he is4 ,i /ay$ till x 0 "t = *ur*1 & :5 ,i ent]$ x ,i 0 met by _m a te>ful face2 papa ann\nc$ h] dea? f ! pulpit1 & is go+1 ?is aft]noon1 to ?r[ aside ! s]mon he int5d$ to prea*1 & extemporise on ! fir/ ,sunday 9 heav54 ,! *ildr5 are go+ 91 ?is noon1 to s+2 z to ! ,mission fe/ival1 t is to be virtually giv5 up2 ! *ildr5 are m]ely to walk 91 receive _! pres5ts1 & g sil5tly out4 ,x is a beautiful day to g to heav5 94 ,mrs4 ,c4 did n "k %e 0 go+ to die1 b t is ( no consequ5ce4 ,only "o week ago ye/]day %e 0 at ! ,indu/rial s*ool1 unusually bright & well1 !y all say4 ,well1 ,i see ev]y?+ d\ble & _h bett] /op writ+4 ,monday1 #bj?4--,y\r nice lett] 0 9 ! lett]-box z ,i />t$ = s*ool ) ,h42 ,i call$ to papa to let him "k x 0 !re & w5t (f1 begrudg+ him ! pleasure ( read+ x be=e ,i did4 ,:5 ,i got home !re 0 no papa & no lett] to be f\nd2 ,i look$ 9 e room1 on 8 desk & on m9e1 po/$ d[n to ! lett]-box & into ! p>lor1 9 va94 ,at la/ he came ru%+ home ) x1 hav+ c>ri$ x to m>ket1 le/ ,i %\ld get & read x alone6 ,s we sat d[n & enjoy$ x toge!r4444 ,i take out y\r picture n[ & !n1 :51 lo1 a big lump 9 my ?roat1 not)/&+ :i* ,i am glad we let y g2 we enjoy y\r enjoym5t1 & ?9k x w make ! old ne/ pleasant] to h be5 vacat$ = a :ile4 ,papa & ,i agre$ be=e we got up ?is morn+ t ! only fault we _h to f9d ) ,god 01 t ,he 0 too good to u4 ,i c't get ov] ! welcome ,i got f ,mr4 ,c4 ye/]day4 ,he said ,i seem$ l a "m to him1 :i* made me feel v old on ! "o h&1 & v happy on ! o!r4 ,if ,i 7 y ,i w\ldn't m>ry anybody b a m9i/]2 x gives "o su* lots ( p to love & c>e =4 ,old ,mrs4 ,b4 is fail+1 & lies !re z peaceful & cont5t$ z a little baby4 ,i nev] got sweet] smiles f anybody4 ,i h got ea* ( ! s]vants a pretty dress = ,*ri/mas2 ,i feel t ,i owe !m a good deal = giv+ me su* a peaceful1 untr\bl$ home4 ,dec4 #bc;d4--,x ra9$ v h>d all day ye/]day till j ab\t ! "t ( ! fun]al1 half-pa/ ?ree1 :5 ! *ur* 0 well fill$1 ! ,mission-s*ool occupy+ seats by !mselves & ! tea*]s by !mselves4444 ,i ?\ght z ,i li/5$ to ! address t x w\ld reconcile me to see+ y ly+ !re 9 y\r c(f91 if su* a record /ood aga9/ y\r "n4 ,papa read1 at ! close1 a sort ( prophetic poem ( ,mrs4 ,c4's1 :i* %e wrote a ye> or m ago1 ( :i* ,i %\ld l to s5d y all a copy1 x is s good 9 e s5se4 ,he wants me to s5d y a few ha/y l9es ,i scribbl$ (f on ,sunday noon1 ) :i* he clos$ 8 s]mon t aft]noon1 & repeat$ aga9 at ! fun]al1 b x is n wor? ! ink4 ,aft] ! s]vice ! mission *ildr5 w5t up to look at ! rema9s1 & pass$ out2 !n ! re/ ( ! congregation4 ,"o ( ! mission *ildr5 fa9t$ & fell1 & 0 c>ri$ out 9 ,mr4 ,l4's arms4 ,aft] ! re/ disp]s$ papa took me 91 & !re we saw a mo/ t\*+ sight2 a doz5 poor wom5 & *ildr5 weep+ ab\t ! c(f91 (f]+ a tribute to h] memory1 sweet] ?an ! opul5t display ( fl[]s did4 ,ev5+4--,! int]m5t took place to-day1 at ,woodlawn4 ,mr4 ,c4 wi%$ me to g1 & ,i did4 ,on ! way home a g5tlemanly-look+ man /epp$ up to y\r fa!r1 & tak+ 8 h& said1 ,i nev] saw y till to-day1 b ,i love y2 yes1 !re is no o!r ^w6 ,wasn't x nice ( him8 ,dec4 #bd?4--,papa w5t 9 la/ ev5+1 = a half h\r1 to see ---- & 8 bride1 at _! great reception1 drank two glasses ( c(fee sang>ee1 & br\ght me news t ov]came me q1--namely1 t ---- 0 delight$ ) my book4 ,nesbit ,co4 s5t me a copy ( _! repr9t ( x4 ,!y h got x up beautifully ) six color$ illu/rations1 mo/ ( !m v good2 little ,e>ne/ is z cunn+ z he c be1 & ! old gr&pa is p]fect4 ,katy1 h[ev]1 has h] hair 9 a wat]fall 9 ! ye> #ahce & ev5 aft]1 we>s long dresses1 & always has on a sontag or some?+ l "o4 ,%e goes to see ,dr4 ,cabot 9 a r$ sacque1 & a r$ hat1 & has a muff 9 h] lap4 ,mrs4 ---- 0 "h ! o!r day to say t ,i _h drawn h] husb&'s portrait exactly 9 ,dr4 ,elliot4 ,i h be5 out ) ,m4 all ! morn+1 do+ up our la/ %opp+4 ,we came home half froz51 & _h lun* toge!r1 :5 lo1 a magnific5t basket ( fl[]s f ,mrs4 ,d4 & "s c&y f ! p>ty2 papa & ,g4 came home & we all fell to mak+ ourselves sick4444 ,i h b\ght lots ( c&y & little fancy cakes to put 9 ! *ildr5's /ock+s4 ,i "k x is v improp]1 b "o c't be good always4 ,dr4 ,p4 is sick ) pneumonia4 ,mrs4 ,p4 has j s5t me a basket ( fre% eggs1 & an illu/rat$ edition ( ,longfell['s ,build+ ( ! ,%ip4 #be?4--,i wi% y a ,m]ry ,*ri/mas1 d>l+1 & wond] :at y are all do+ to celebrate ?is day4 ,we h _h great times ov] our pres5ts4444 ,i got a note f ,mr4 ,abbot say+ t a fri5d ( 8 9 ,bo/on _h giv5 away f\rte5 ,katies1 all he c\ld get1 & t ! booksell] said he c\ld h sold ! la/ copy ?irty times ov]4 ,nei!r papa nor ,i feel q up to ! m>k to-day2 we probably got a little cold at ,mrs4 ,c4's grave1 z ! w9d blew furi\sly1 & ! hymn1 & pray]1 & b5$iction took q a "t4 #bf?4--,dr4 ,p4 is worse4 ,papa has be5 to see him s9ce *ur*1 & ,dr4 ,b41 :o 0 !re1 said t ,dr4 ,murray quot$ f ,katy 9 8 s]mon to-day1 & !n paus+ long en\gh to attract ev]ybody's att5tion1 he said he wi%$ ea* ( !m to procure & read x4 ,i hope y & ,mrs4 ,smi? won't get sick he>+ ab\t x2 ,i assure y ,i don't tell y half ,i might4 ,ev5+4--,mr4 ,c4 has be5 "h ?is ev5+ to %[ u a poem by 8 wife1 j come out 9 ! ,janu>y numb] ( ! ,sabba? at ,home1 9 :i* %e asks ! ,new ,ye> :at x has 9 /ore = h]1 & says if x is dea?1 x is only go+ home ! soon]4 ,nei!r he1 or anyone1 _h se5 x or he>d ( x1 & x came to !m ) ov]:elm+ p[] & consolation z ! la/ utt]ance ( h] ,*ri/ian fai?4 #a ,dec4 #cj?1 #ahfi4--,y\r lett] came ye/]day morn+1 aft] breakfa/1 & 0 read to an admir+ audi5ce ( ,pr5tisses by papa1 :o occasionally call$ = c\nsel z to ?is ^w & t4 ,we l ! plan made = ! w9t]1 & hope x w suit all r\nd4 ,y _h su* a gr& bir?-day t ,i don't see :at !re 0 left = ,*ri/mas1 & hope y got no?+ b a lea!r button4 ,my ,p]cys end to-day1 & ,i am %ock$ at ! wret*$ way 9 :i* ,i end$ !m4 ,i wi% y w\ld buy a copy ( ,griseldis = me4 ,:y don't y tell :at y are read+8 ,i got = ,m4 ,a ,si/]'s ,bye ,h\rs1 by ,jean ,+el[1 & f9d x a delightful book2 su* lots ( quiet humor & s mu* good s5se & good feel+2 y girls w\ld enjoy read+ x al\d toge!r4 ,jan4 #c;d1 #ahgj4--,y w want to he> all ab\t ,new ,ye>'s day1 & :]e %all ,i beg9 unless at ! end !re(1 :5 y\r & ,mrs4 ,smi?'s lett]s came1 & :i* caus$ papa ungraci\sly to leave me to ent]ta91 :ile he gre$ily dev\r$ !m & 8 d9n]4 ,9 spite ( ra9 we _h a /eady fl[ ( visitors4 ,i w enclose a li/ = y\r delectation1 = z read+ a cook-book sort ( fe$s "o1 read+ famili> names sort ( com=ts "o4 ,mr4 ---- 0 s(t] & m langui%+ ?an ev]1 & appe>$ l a man :o _h be5 f$ on honey (f ! tips ( a can>y bird's fea!r4444 ,papa & ,i agre$1 talk+ x ov] la/ ev5+1 t x is a bad plan = husb&s & wives n to live & die toge!r1 z ! "o :o is left is apt to cut up4 ,he h9t$ t ,i 0 s fond ( admiration t he 0 afraid ,i %\ld1 if he di$4 ,on que/ion+ him z to :at he meant by ?is abom9able spee*1 he said he meant to pay me a complim5t666 t he ?\ght me v susceptible :5 p lov$ me & v fond ( be+ lov$--:i* ,i am by him2 all o!r m5 ,i hate4 ,my c\s9 ,g4 d9$ ) u on ,friday & took me to ! meet+ held annually at ,dr4 ,adams' *ur*4 ,i l him ev] s mu*1 ?\gh he is a man4 ,g4 has br\ght me 9 "s d&elions f ! *ur*-y>d4 ,we h n _h "o day ( sev]e cold yet1 & !re is a great deal ( sickness ab\t 9 consequ5ce4 ,friday4--,i sp5t a "p ( la/ ev5+ 9 writ+ an article ab\t ,mrs4 ,c4's poem = ! ,sabba? at ,home1 & h a little fit ( indige/ion z my rew>d4 ,h be5 to see my sick woman ) jelly & consolation1 & f !re to ,mrs4 ,d41 :o gave me a beautiful acc\nt ( ,mrs4 ,com+'s la/ days & ( h] read9ess & gladness to g4 ,i 0 at ! meet+ at ,dr4 ,rog]s' ye/]day aft]noon & he>d old ,dr4 ,tyng = ! fir/ "t1 & he spoke beautifully4444 ,well1 ,*i ,alpha #b is ov]2 we _h a v l>ge att5dance & ! oy/]s 7 burnt4 ,x is dreadfully try+ :5 ,m>ia nev] once fail$ be=e to h !m s extra nice4 ,dr4 ,hall came & told me he _h be5 s5d+ copies ( ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me to fri5ds 9 ,irel&4 ,m>?a & ,jane1 & ,m4 & ,h4 7 all /&+ 9 a r[ toge!r :5 ! p>sons come out to tea1 & "o ( !m m>*$ up to ! r[1 say+ to papa1 ,are ^! y\r *ildr58 :5 ,m>?a & ,jane made a precipitate retreat into ! pantry4 ,good-night1 d>l+2 lots ( love to ,mrs4 ,smi? & all ( !m4 ,y\r affectionate ,m>m-er4 #aa?4--,y\rs came to-day1 & papa & ,i _h a brief duel ) hair-p9s & p5-knives z to :i* %\ld read x al\d to ! o!r1 & ,i beat4 ,i %\ld h enjoy$ ,eig5s9n1 ,i am sure2 y "k ,i h read x 9 ,g]man4444 ,! *ildr5 all ?ree are lovely1 & :at ) !m & papa & o!r ?+s my cup is runn+ ov] trem5d\sly4 ,i h j he>d t a poor woman ,i h be5 to see a few times1 di$ ?is morn+4 ,i always came away f h] cre/fall51 ?9k+ ,i 0 ! bigge/ poke 9 a sick-room !re ev] 01 b %e s5t me a dy+ message t q com=t$ me4 ,%e _h once liv$ 9 pl5ty1 b 0 fe>fully de/itute1 & ,i fe> %e & h] family suff]$ = want ( common necess>ies4 ,?ursday4--,i _h an e>ly & a long call f "o ( our *ur*1 :o want$ to tell me1 among o!r ?+s1 t h] husb& scold$ h] = bump+ h] head 9 ! night2 %e wept & ,i condol$2 %e w5t away at la/ smil+4 ,!n ,i w5t to ! sew+ circle & idl$ ab\t till "o2 !n ,i _h sev]al calls4 ,!n papa & ,i w5t out to make a lot ( calls4 ,!n came a note f a sick lady1 :om ,i %all g to see 9 spite ( my horror ( /rang]s4 ,papa got a lett] f ,pr(4 ,smi? :i* gave u great pleasure4 ,z4 0 "h ye/]day2 ,i ask$ h] to /ay to lun*1 brib+ h] ) a cup ( tea1 & s %e /ay$ & we _h a real nice "t2 :5 %e w5t away ,i told h] ,i 0 dead 9 love ) h]4 ,friday ,ev5+4--,! *ildr5 h all gone to b$2 ,m4 & ,g4 h be5 read+ all ! ev5+2 ,m4 busy on ,miss ,alcott's ,little ,wom51 & ,g4 %ak+ 8 sides ov] old numb]s ( ! ,riv]side4 ,papa says our h\se ought to h a sign put out1 ,s\ls cur$ "h2 because s _m p come to tell _! tr\bles4 ,p us$ to d j s to my "m1 & ,i suppose always d to p>sons' wives if !y'll let 'em4 ,monday4--,papa prea*$ delightfully ye/]day4 ,mr4 ,b4 took a pew & ,mr4 ,i don't "k :o took ano!r4 ,y\r lett] came ?is morn+ & 0 full ( int]e/+ ?+s4 ,i hope ,mrs4 ,s4 w s5d me h] own & ,jean ,+el['s v]ses4 ,:at fun to get into a correspond5ce ) h]6 ,i h _h an int]e/+ "t to-day4 ,dr4 ,sk9n] l5t me "s mon?s ago a little book call$ ,god's ,furnace2 ,i didn't l x at fir/1 b read x ?r\gh sev]al times & lik$ x bett] & bett] ea* "t4 ,& to-day ,mrs4 ---- br\ght ! au?or to sp5d a few h\rs 7%e lives out ( t[n71 & we ?ree black-ey$ wom5 _h a rem>kable "t toge!r4 ,!re is c]ta9ly su* a ?+ z a heav5 bel[1 only x doesn't la/ z ! real heav5 w4 ,we _h ,mr4 ,c4 to tea la/ night2 aft] tea he read u ?ree poems ( 8 wife1 & papa 0 weak en\gh to g & read him "s v]ses ( m9e1 :i* he ought n to h done till ,i am dead & gone4 ,!n he play$ & sang ) ! *ildr51 & we _h pray]s1 & ,i read scraps to him & papa f ,fab]'s ,all = ,jesus & ,craig's ,memoir4 ,m4 is ly+ on ! s(a /udy+1 papa is 9 8 /udy1 ! boys are haz+ ab\t2 x sn[s a little & melts z x falls1 & s1 ) love to all1 bo? great & small1 ,i am y\r lov+ ,,eld]ly ,,lady ,,) ,,grey ,,puffs4 ,febru>y #h?1 #ahgj4--,we are hav+ a trem5d\s sn[-/orm = a wond]4 ,i />t$ out ?is morn+ ) ,g41 & :5 we got to ! ,fif? av5ue clock he f\nd he %\ld be late unless he ran1 & ,i 0 glad to let him g & turn back to meet ,m41 :o _h heavy books besides h] umbrella4 ,! w9d blew furi\sly1 my umbrella broke & flew (f 9 a tang5t1 & :5 ,i got x1 x turn$ wrong side out & ,i came ne> asc5d+ z 9 a balloon2 ,m4 soon came 9 sight & ,i convoy$ h] safely to s*ool4 ,mrs4 ---- told a fri5d ( ours t ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss really enjoy$ ,mrs4 ,c----'s dea?1 & !y seem$ de/itute ( natural affection2 & t z = ,mrs4 ,p4 x 0 pla9 %e _h nev] suff]$ 9 any way4 ,consid]+ ! te>s we bo? %$ ov] ,mrs4 ,c41 & "s o!r little items 9 our pa/ hi/ory1 we mu/ set ,mrs4 ---- d[n z wis] ?an ! anci5ts4 ,sunday ,ev5+4--,ye/]day ,lizzy ,b4 came to say t h] "m 0 9 a gully & want$ me to come & pull h] out4 ,i w5t & f\nd h] greatly depress$1 & felt sure x 0 all physical1 & n a case = special spiritual pull+4 ,s ,i coax$ h]1 laugh$ at h]1 & *e]$ h] all ,i c\ld4 ,%e said %e _h be5 a solemn pig = a week1 9 allusion to "s pictures ,dr4 ,p4 _h drawn = h] & = me illu/rat+ ! solemn pig & ! jolly pig4 ,mr4 ,r&olph has s5t up a lett] f a man 9 ,nice ^: wife wants to translate ,katy into ,fr5*4 ,i s5t ^w !y might translate x into ,hott5tot = all me4 ,good-night1 my de>1 ,i am s\nd asleep4 ,y\r affectionate ,"m ,,pr5tiss4 ,tuesday4--,on ,sunday papa prea*$ a s]mon 9 behalf ( ! ,mission1 ask+ = #ce1jjj to build a *apel1 = :i* ,mr4 ,cady _h made a plan4 ,i got greatly /irr$ up1 z ,i hope ev]ybody did4 ,mr4 ,dodge w give "o-qu>t] ( ! sum ne$$4 ,x is ,wa%+ton's bir?day1 & ! *ildr5 are all at home f s*ool1 & are at ! d9+-room table draw+ maps4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,g4 call$1 b ,i 0 out see+ a poor woman1 ^: romance ( love & sorr[ ,i %\ld l to tell y ab\t if x w\ld n fill a book4 ,%e says ,bi%op ,s4 has support$ h] & h] ?ree *ildr5 = sev5 mon?s out ( 8 own pocket4 ,saturday1 ,feb4 #bf?4--,y\r two la/ lett]s1 toge!r ) ,mrs4 ,smi?'s1 7 all 9 ! box z ,i 0 />t+ ) ,m4 = h] music4 ,my *ildr5 pull$ 9 opposite directions1 b ,i pu%$ on1 & papa sav$ ! lett]s to read to me :5 ,i got back4 ,he reads !m awfully1 & w puzzle ov] a ^w long en\gh = me to h leisure to g crazy & recov] my sanity4 ,h[ev]1 nobody %all make fun ( him save myself2 s look out4 ,! boys h gone skat+ to-day = ! ?ird "t ?is w9t]1 !re has be5 s little cold wea!r4 ,sunday ,ev5+4--,i did n mean to plague y ) ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d any m1 b we h _h a sc5e to-day :i* w amuse y & ,mrs4 ,smi?4 ,j be=e s]vice began1 an ari/ocratic-look+ lady seat$ 9 front ( ,mrs4 ,b4 began to talk to h]1 :]eupon ,mrs4 ,b4 turn$ r\nd & ann\nc$ to ! congregation t ,i 0 ! subject ( x by po9t+ me out1 & !n gett+ up & br++ h] to our pew4 ,once !re1 %e seiz$ me by ! h& & said1 ,i am ,mrs4 ----4 ,i h j read y\r book & be5 c>ri$ away ) x4 ,i knew y\r husb& ?irty-?ree ye>s ago1 & h come "h to see y bo?1 etc41 etc4 ,f9d+ %e c\ld get no?+ out ( me1 %e fell ^u ,m41 & ask$ h] if ,i 0 h] si/]1 :i* ,m4 decl>$ ,i 0 n4 ,aft] *ur* ,i invit$ h] to /ep into ! p>sonage1 & %e /epp$ 9 = an h\r & told ?is /ory3 ,%e _h _h ! book l5t h]1 & ye/]day1 lun*+ at ,mrs4 ,a4's1 ask$ h] if %e _h read x1 & f9d+ %e _h n1 made h] promise to get x4 ,%e !n ask$ :o ?is ,e4 ,pr5tiss 01 & a lady pres5t enlight5$ h]4 ,:at6 my si/]'s belov$ ,miss ,payson1 & m>ri$ to ,george ,pr5tiss1 my old fri5d66 ,i'll g !re to *ur* to-morr[ & see = myself4 ,s x turns out t %e 0 a ,miss ----1 ( ,mississippi2 t y\r fa!r gallant$ h] to ,l\isville1 :5 %e 0 go+ !re to be m>ri$ at sixte5 ye>s ( age2 t %e 0 liv+ 9 ,ri*mond at ! "t ,i 0 tea*+ !re1 h] si/] bo>d+ 9 ! h\se ) me4 ,su* talk+1 su* life & en?usiasm y nev] saw 9 a woman ( =ty-eight6 ,well1 %e w9ds up at la/1 ,i've f\nd two treasures1 & y ne$n't ?9k ,i'm go+ to let y g4 ,i'll g home & tell ,mr4 ---- all ab\t x4 ,papa & ,i h call$ ea* o!r two treasures ev] s9ce %e w5t away4 ,! :ole sc5e work$ him up & did him good1 = he always loves to h 8 ,s\!rn fri5ds drum him up & talk to him ( y\r ,uncle ,se>g5t & ,aunt ,anna4 ,mr4 ---- is "o ( our millionaires1 & %e m>ri$ him a ye> ago aft] ?irte5 ye>s ( wid[hood4 ,%e says %e /ill has #bjj negroes1 :o won't g away & won't "w1 & %e has !m to support4 ,%e talk$ v rationally ab\t ! w>1 & says n a s\l at ! ,s\? w\ld h slav]y back if !y c\ld4444 ,i call$ at ,mrs4 ,b4's ye/]day--at exactly ! "r mom5t1 %e said2 = five surgeons _h j decid$ t ! op]ation _h be5 a failure1 & t %e mu/ die4 ,h] husb& look$ z :ite z ?is pap]1 & ! girls 7 9 great di/ress1 b ,mrs4 ,b4 look$ p]fectly radiant4 ,saturday1 ,m>* #e?4--,ye/]day ,i w5t to make a gho/ly call on ,mrs4 ,b41 & kept h] & ! girls scream+ ) laught] = an h\r1 :i* did me lots ( good1 & ,i hope did n hurt !m4 ,i h writt5 ! #djc;d page ( my s]ial to-day1 & hope x is ! la/4 ,x w soon be "t to ?9k ( ! spr+ %opp+4 ,i don't "k :at any ( u ne$1 & nev] notice :at p are we>+ unless ,i notice by go+ =? on a t\r ( obs]vation4 ,sunday ,ev5+4--,aft] *ur* ?is aft]noon ,mrs4 ,n4 & ,mrs4 ,v4 came 9 to tell u ab\t ! dea? ( t s]vant ( !irs1 :om !y nurs$ 9 _! own h\se1 :o has be5 dy+ = sev5 mon?s1 ( canc]4 ,%e di$ a mo/ fe>less1 happy dea?1 & ,i wi% ,i knew ,i %\ld be z pati5t 9 my la/ illness z !y repres5t h] z be+4 ,y\r lett]s to ! *ildr5 came ye/]day aft]noon to _! great delight4 ,9 an evil mom5t ,i told ! boys t ,i _h se5 x /at$1 9 "s pap]1 t b5zole w\ld make pap] transp>5t1 & aft]w>ds evaporate & leave ! pap] un9jur$4 ,!y drove me rav+ di/ract$ ) que/ions ab\t x1 s t ,i _h to be put 9 a /rait-jacket4 ,! +5uity & p]si/5ce ( ^! que/ions1 ask$ by ea*1 9 sep>ate int]views1 0 beyond description4 ,tuesday4--,= once ,i h be5 caught napp+1 & h n mail$ my weekly lett]4 ,b y w be expect+ "s irregul>ity ab\t ! "t ( y\r flight to ,b]l94 ,i call$ at ,mrs4 ,m4's to-day1 & ran on at su* a rate t ,mrs4 ,woolsey1 :o 0 !re1 gave me t5 doll>s = poor folks1 & said %e wi%$ ,i'd /ay all day4 ,aft]w>ds ,i w5t d[n t[n to get ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d = ,mr4 ,c41 & z he want$ me to write some?+ 9 x1 h j writt5 ?is3 ,mr4 ,c4 f ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 9 lov+ memory ( "o :o 'did outrun' u1 & /epp$ into heav5 fir/4 ,mr4 ,bates %[$ me a half-column notice ( x 9 ! ,lib]al ,*ri/ian1 #c ( all places6 by v f> ! w>me/ & be/ ( all t h appe>$4 ,papa is at ,dr4 ,mc,clintock's fun]al4 ,i decl>e1 if x isn't sn[+ aga91 & ! sun is %9+6 ,n[ comes a lett] f ,uncle ,*>les1 say+ t y\r ,uncle ,h4 has lo/ t spl5did little girl ( 82 ! only girl he ev] _h1 & ! *ild ( 8 he>t ( he>ts4 ,mrs4 ,w4 says %e nev] saw papa & myself look s well1 b "s g5tleman told ,mr4 ,brace1 :o told 8 wife1 :o told me1 t ,i 0 kill+ myself ) long walks4 ,i c n answ] y\r que/ions ab\t ,mr4 ----'s call4 ,s mu* is all ! "t go+ on t "o ev5t spe$ily effaces ! impression ( ano!r4 ,m>* #ab?4--,julia ,willis sp5t ! ev5+ "h n long ago1 & made me laugh well4 ,%e took me on ,friday to see ,fanny ,f]n1 :o hugg$ & kiss$ me1 & :om x 0 r pleasant to see aft] ne>ly1 if n q1 ?irty ye>s' sep>ation4 ,%e says nobody b a ,payson c\ld h writt5 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 :i* is absurd4 ,m>* #ag?4--,i w5t to ! sew+ circle #d & help$ tuck a quilt1 _h a talk ) ,mrs4 ,w41 got home at a qu>t] ( "o & ate two apples1 & h be5 s9ce !n read+ ! secret correspond5ce ( ,madame ,guyon & ,f5elon 9 old ,fr5*4 ,saturday1 #ai?4--,h j se5 ,m4 to ! ,cons]vatory2 met ,dr4 ,sk9n] on ! way home1 :o said he _h be5 read+ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 & he hop$ he %\ld /ep all ! fa/] = x4 ,z4 has (t5 invit$ u to come to see h] new home1 & z ! #af? comes on a ,saturday1 we are talk+ a little ( all go+ up to lun* ) h]4 ,ev5+4--,x has be5 su* a nice w>m day4 ,i _h a pleasant call f ,mrs4 ,dr4 ----4 ,%e ask$ me if ,i did n get ! !ology ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d out ( my fa!r's ,?\ghts1 b z ,i h n read !m = ?irty ye>s1 ,i d\bt if ,i did1 & z ,i am old] ?an my fa!r 0 :5 he utt]$ ^? ?\ghts1 ,i h a "r to a !ology ( my own4 ,monday4--,ye/]day1 9 ! aft]noon1 we _h ! ,sunday-s*ool anniv]s>y1 :i* w5t (f v well4 ,mr4 ,c4 came to tea2 aft] x & pray]s1 we sat r\nd ! table & ,i read scraps f ,madame ,guyon & ,f5elon1 & we talk$ !m ov]4 ,papa 0 greatly pleas$ at ! latt]'s say+ he (t5 /opp$ 9 ! mid/ ( 8 devotions to play4 ,qu& je suis seul1 je j\e quelquefois comme un petit enfant1 mme en faisant oraison4 ,il m'arrive quelquefois de saut] et de rire t\t seul comme un f\ dans ma *ambre4 ,avant-hi]1 tant dans la sacri/ie et rpondant une p]sonne qui me que/ionnait1 p\r ne la po9t sc&alis] sur la "q1 je m'emb>rassai1 et je fis une espce de m5songe2 cela me donna quelque rpugnance dire la ,messe1 mais je ne laissai pas de la dire4 ,i d n advise y to /op to play 9 ! mid/ ( y\r pray]s1 or to tell une espce de m5songe6 till y are z mu* ( a sa9t z he 04 #e ,saturday1 #bf?4--,y\r lett] & ,mrs4 ,smi?'s came toge!r ?is aft]noon4 ,x is pleasant to he> f papa's old fri5ds at ,halle1 & he w be delight$1 :5 he comes home f ,*i ,alpha1 :]e he is n[4 ,lizzy ,b4 call$ ?is aft]noon2 %e want$ to op5 out h] poor sick he>t to me4 ,%e quot$ to me sev]al ?+s %e says ,i wrote h] a few weeks ago1 b ,i h n ! fa9te/ recollection ( writ+ !m4 ,t %[s :at a h>um-sc>um life ,i lead4 ,m>* #ca/4--,we sp5t ,tuesday ev5+ at ! ,sk9n]s4 ,we _h a *>m+ visit2 no "o !re b ,mrs4 ,sampson & h] si/]1 & ,dr4 ,s4 wide awake & full ( en?usiasm4 ,we did n get to b$ till midnight4 ,mrs4 ---- came ?is morn+ & begg$ me to l5d h] "s money1 z %e _h got beh9dh&4 ,i let h] h five doll>s1 ?\gh ,i d n feel sure t ,i %all see x aga91 & %e wept a little weep1 & w5t away4 ,a lady told c\s9 ,c4 %e _h he>d ,i 0 s %y t once hav+ promis$ to g to a lun* p>ty1 my c\rage fail$ at ! la/ mom5t1 s t ,i c\ld n g4 ,i %all expect to le>n next t my hair is r$4 ,monday1 ,april #d?4--,y\r pres5ts came ,saturday :ile ,i 0 out4 ,we are all delight$ ) !m1 b ,i 0 mo/ s1 = two su* d>l+ little vases 7 surely nev] be=e se54 ,m4 _h ,maggie to sp5d ,saturday aft]noon & take tea4 ,%e ask$ me if ,i did n make a di/9ction betwe5 tal5t & g5ius1 :i* papa ?\ght v sm>t ( h]4 ,i read al\d to !m all ! ev5+ "o ( ! ,g]man /ories by ,julius ,horn4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,c4 came 9 aft] *ur* & ,i ask$ !m to /ay to tea1 :i* !y did4 ,aft] x 0 ov]1 & we _h _h pray]s1 we _h a little s+1 ,mrs4 ,c4 play+1 & among o!r ?+s1 sang a little hymn ( m9e :i* ,i wrote ,i "k n :51 b :i* papa lik$ well en\gh to h pr9t$4 ,if copies come to-day1 z promis$1 ,i w enclose "o or two4 ,aft] ! s++ papa & ,i took turns1 z we c\ld snat* a *ance f ea* o!r1 9 read+ to !m f favorite books1 :i* !y enjoy$ v mu*4 ,april #i?4--,we call$ on ,mrs4 ,h4 ,m4 ,field ye/]day1 & ,i nev] saw 7or r he>d7 h] s brilliant4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i read al\d to ! *ildr5 a real live1 wide-awake ,sunday-s*ool book1 call$ ,old ,/ories 9 a ,new ,dress2 ,bible /ories1 head$ ?us3 ,! ,h&some ,rebel1 ,! ,"y ,volunte]1 ,! ,+5i\s ,me*anics4 ,april #af?4--,i c n g to b$1 my de> *ick51 till ,i h told y :at a *>m+ day we h _h4 ,to g back to ye/]day1 my heada*e entirely disappe>$ by ! "t ! ,sk9n]s got "h1 & we _h a pleasant cosy ev5+ ) !m1 & at ! end made ,dr4 ,sk9n] pray ov] u4444 ,ev]y?+ w5t (f nicely4 ,! *ildr5 enjoy$ ! trip trem5d\sly1 & hat$ to come away4 ,we pick$ a lot ( filles avant la mre & !y came home 9 good condition4 ,mr4 ,woolsey & ,z4 gave me a little silv] figure hold+ a cup1 on blue velvet1 :i* is ev] s pretty4 ,we got home at half-pa/ six4 ,lat] 9 ! ev5+ ,presid5t ,hopk9s call$ to (f] 8 congratulations4 ,& n[ ,i am tir$1 ,i c tell y4 ,x is outrage\s = y & ! ,smi?s to be away2 ,i don't see h[ y c h ! he>t4 ,y ought to come by dispat* z telegrams4 #ag?4--,dr4 ,hopk9s prea*$ a spl5did s]mon #f = u ?is morn+1 & came 9 aft] x = a call4 ,he ask$ me la/ night if ,i felt conceit$ ab\t my book2 s ,i said to him1 ,i l to give p z good z !y s5d--don't y feel a little conceit$ aft] t s]mon8 on :i* he gave me a good %ak+4 #ah?4--,i h be5 writ+ notes ( ?anksgiv+1 ea* ( :i* de> papa reads ?r\gh rose-color$ spectacles & says1 ,y d beat all6 ,i h enjoy$ writ+ !m1 in/ead ( f9d+ x a bore4 ,we %all be curi\s to he> h[ y celebrat$ our w$d+-day4 ,well1 good-bye1 old *ild4 ,i %all beg9 ano!r lett] to-day1 z l z n4 ,monday1 ,april #be?4--,friday morn+1 9 ! mid/ ( my plans = help+ ,aunt ,e4 %op1 came a message f ,mrs4 ,b4 t %e want$ to see me4 ,i _h n expect$ to see h] aga91 & ( c\rse 0 glad to g4 ,%e _h alt]$ s t ,i %\ld n h kn[n h]1 & x 0 h>d to he> :at %e _h to say1 %e is s feeble4 ,%e w5t back to ! fir/ "t %e saw me1 told me :at ,i _h on1 & h[ h] he>t 0 knitt$ to me4 ,%e !n spoke ( h] approa*+ dea?2 said %e _h no ec/asies1 no revelations1 b _h be5 9 p]fect peace1 suff]+ agonies ( pa91 yet n "o pa9 too _m4 ,i ask$ h] if %e _h any p>t+ c\nsel to give me4 ,no1 n a ^w2 ,i only want$ to see y\r sunny face once m1 & tell y :at a com=t y h be5 to me 9 ?is sickness4 ,?is all came at int]vals1 %e 0 s weak4 ,%e aft]w>d said1 ,i feel z if ,i nev] 0 acqua9t$ ) ,*ri/ till n[4 ,i tell my sons to become ,,intimately ,,acqua9t$ ) ,him4 ,i ask$ h] if %e took pleasure 9 ?9k+ ( meet+ fri5ds 9 heav54 ,) a sweet1 some:at comical smile1 %e said1 ,no1 ,i hav5't got s f> z t4 ,i ?9k only ( meet+ ,*ri/4 ,= all t1 ,i said1 y w soon see my fa!r & "m & o!r k9dr$ s\ls4 ,h] face light$ up aga94 ,:y1 s ,i %all6 ,h] lips 7 gr[+ :ite ) pa9 :ile ?is bright smile 0 on !m1 & ,i came away1 ?\gh ,i %\ld gladly h li/5$ to h] by ! h\r1 ev]y?+ 0 s natural1 s\nd1 &-heav5ly4 ,%opp+ aft] x did n prove p>ticul>ly cong5ial2 b we mu/ %op1 z well z die4 ,april #bi?4--,y\r fir/ ,dresd5 lett] has j come2 yes1 x 0 long en\gh1 ?\gh y did n tell u h[ ! cat did4 ,y speak z if y 7 go+ to ,p>is1 b papa is positive y are n4 ,ye/]day 0 a lovely day1 ?\gh v hot4 ,dr4 ,adams came & drove papa to ! ,p>k4 ,late 9 ! aft]noon ,i w5t to see ,mrs4 ,g41 ! woman ^: husb& is 9 jail4 ,%e is usually all 9 a muss1 b ?is "t 0 z nice z c\ld be1 ! floor clean & ev]y?+ 9 ord]4 ,! baby1 a ye> old1 _h le>n$ to walk s9ce ,i 0 la/ !re1 & came & plant$ h]self 9 front ( me1 & />$ at me out ( two great bright eyes mo/ ( ! "t4 ,i _h a nice visit1 z ,mrs4 ,g4 seems to be mak+ a good use ( h] tr\bles4 ,aft] ,i got home1 ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,c4 arriv$ & we _h d9n] & a trem5d\s ?und] %[]1 aft] :i* he w5t out to make =ty-'lev5 calls4 ,he 0 pleas$ to say t he want$ 8 wife to see ! lovely family picture we make6 ,x is a glum1 cold1 l[]+ morn+1 b ! ,c4's are go+ to see ! ,fr5*es at ,we/ ,po9t1 & ,miss ,lyman at ,vass>4 ,monday4--,i w5t to ,miss ,c4's 7! dressmak]7 aga9 to-day1 & f\nd h] mu* out ( heal?1 & ab\t r$uc+ h] bus9ess & mov+4 ,"o ( ! old si/]s _h be5 read+ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 & almo/ ate me up4 ,i got a pleasant ^w ab\t x la/ night1 f ,mrs4 ,g5]al ,upton1 :o has j di$ at ,nassau4 ,i h se5 ,mrs4 ,b4 to-day2 %e did n op5 h] eyes1 b bes\ght me to pray = h] release4 ,%e c't la/ long4 ,! boys are (f roll+ hoop aga91 & ,m4 is out walk+ ) ,ida4 ,papa in=m$ me la/ night t ,i _h got a v pretty bonnet4 ,! bonnets n[ consi/ ( a little fuss & a good _m fl[]s4 ,papa has gone to ,dorset1 & has _h a spl5did day = 8 j\rney4 ,?ursday1 ,may #ab?4--,ye/]day ,miss ---- came to tell me ab\t ! kill+ ( h] bro!r on ! railroad1 & to cry h] v he>t out on my %\ld]4 ,9 ! mid/ ( x came a note f ,lizzy ,b41 say+ h] "m _h j dropp$ away4 ,i call$ !re e>ly ?is morn+4 ,we !n w5t to ! ,p>k ) y\r uncle & aunt2 aft] :i* !y left & ,i ru%$ out to get cap & coll> to we> at ,mrs4 ----'s d9n]4 ,i got back 9 "t to g to ! fun]al at f\r ,p4,m4 ,dr4 ,murray made an excell5t1 appreciative address2 papa !n read extracts f a pap] ( m9e 7?+s %e _h said71 ! pray] foll[$1 & !n h] sons sang a hymn4 #g ,i came home tir$ & laid me d[n to re/2 at half-pa/ six x popp$ into my head t ,i 0 n dress$1 & ,i did x spe$ily4 ,we suppos$ we 7 only to meet ! ,rev4 ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ----1 ( ,brooklyn1 b1 lo6 a lot ( p 9 full dress4 ,we _h a regul> /ate d9n]1 c\rse aft] c\rse4 ,dr4 ---- sat next me & made himself v agreeable1 except :5 he said ,i 0 ! mo/ subtle satiri/ he ev] met 7,i did run him a little74 ,mrs4 ---- is a picture4 ,%e _h a way ( look+ at me ?r\gh h] eyeglass till %e put me out ( c\nt5ance1 & !n smil+ 9 a sweet1 satisfi$ mann]1 & lay+ d[n h] glass4 ,we came home z soon z ! g5tlem5 left ! table1 & got "h j z ! clock 0 /rik+ twelve4 ,friday4--,we began ?is day by go+ at t5 ,a4,m4 to ! fun]al ( ,mrs4 ,w4's poor little baby1 & ! fir/ words papa read1 ,x is bett] to g to ! h\se ( m\rn+ ?an to ! h\se ( fea/+1 etc41 expla9$ 8 & my /ate ( m9d aft] la/ night's dissipation4 ,he made a v t\*+ address4 ,lat] 9 ! day we w5t out to see ,miss ----1 z we _h promis$ to d4 ,we w5t ?r\gh ! ,p>k1 l+]$ !re a :ile1 & !n w5t on & made a long call4 ,:5 we rose to come away1 %e said %e nev] let p g away )\t lun* & made u g d[n to ! foll[+3 buns1 ?ree k9ds ( cake1 pies1 d\ghnuts1 *eese1 lemonade1 apples1 oranges1 p9e-apples1 a s\p ture5 ( /rawb]ries1 a qu>t ( cream1 two cu/>d pudd+s1 "o hot & "o cold1 home-made w9e1 cold corn$ beef1 cold roa/ beef1 & = aught ,i "k #dj o!r ?+s4 ,we came away awfully tir$1 & papa compla9$ ( want ( appetite at d9n]66 ,good-bye1 de>ie4 ,i =got to tell y ! boys h got a dog4 ,he came ( 8 own accord & has made !m v happy4 ,we hav5't let papa see him1 y may dep5d4 ,w$41 ,may #ah?4--,papa is pack+ 8 trunk = ,philadelphia1 & ,i am sitt+ at my new libr>y table to write on my lett]4 ,i w5t ye/]day to see t lady :o has fits4 ,%e _h "o 9 ! morn+ t la/$ ov] an h\r & a half4 ,%e is a v bright1 animat$ creature & does n look old] ?an y4 ,?ursday4--,papa got (f ye/]day at elev5 = ! ,g5]al ,assembly & ,i w5t to ,mrs4 ,d4's & /ay$ f\r h\rs4 ,%e s5t = ,mr4 ,s4's baby1 :o does n creep1 b walks 9 ! qua9te/ little way4 ,i %all write a note to ,mr4 ,s41 :o feels anxi\s at its n creep+1 fe>+ its limbs w n be /rong1 to tell him t ,i hit*$ along exactly s4 ,n[ let me give y ! hi/ory ( ?is busy day4 ,we got up e>ly & ,miss ,f4 call$ ) ,m4's two dresses4 ,aft] pray]s & breakfa/ ,i wrote to papa1 w5t to s*ool ) ,h41 & m>ket$4 ,came home & f\nd a lett] f ,c9c9nati1 urg+ = two hymns "r away = a new hymn-book4 ,!y _h sev]al ( m9e already4 ,i said1 ,g to1 let u make a hymn 7,pr(4 ,smi? 9 8 ,review7 & made & s5t !m4 ,!n ,i wrote to ,mr4 ,s4 & to ,mrs4 ,*>les ,w----4 #h ,!n ,mrs4 ,c4 came & /ay$ till ne>ly f\r1 :5 %e left & ,i w5t d[n to ,tw5ty-second /reet to call on a lady at ! ,wat] ,cure4 ,!n ,i w5t to see ,mrs4 ,c4 7! wife ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,c474 ,i ?9k ,i told y %e _h lo/ h] little ,flor5ce4 ,i d n rememb] ev] see+ a p]son s brok5 d[n by grief2 %e seem$ absolutely he>t-brok54 ,i c\ld n get away till five1 & !n ,i took two /ages & got home z soon z ,i c\ld1 kn[+ ! *ildr5 w\ld be fami%+4 ,s n[ c\nt up my v>i\s pr(essions1 *apla91 m>ket]1 hymni/1 consol] ( ,mr4 ,s41 ,mrs4 ,w41 ,mrs4 ,c41 & let me add1 ( ,dr4 ,b41 :o came & made a long call4 ,i am n[ go+ to lie d[n & read till ,i get re/$1 = my bra9 has be5 on ! /eady /ret* = ?irte5 h\rs1 "o ?+ /epp+ on ! heels ( ano!r4 #i ,may #bc;d4--,if y\r eyes 7 bright en\gh y might h se5 me & my c\s9 ,george ,p---- te>+ d[n ,broadway ?is aft]noon1 z if mad dogs 7 aft] u4 ,he want$ me to h a f\nta9 p51 & ! only way to accompli% x 0 to take me d[n to ! place :]e !y are sold1 bel[ ! ,a/or ,h\se4 ,i want$ to walk1 & s did he1 b he _h got to be on a boat = ,norwi* at five ,p4,m4 & pack up betwe5 :ile2 h[ev]1 he conclud$ to risk x1 h5ce ! way we rac$ 0 a caution4 ,i h j writt5 him a long lett] 9 rhyme ) my new p51 & n[ beg9 "o 9 prose to y4 ,i h j got a lett] f an anonym\s admir] ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 enclos+ t5 doll>s to give away2 ,i wi% x 0 a ?\s&6 ,! *ildr5 are 9 tribulation ab\t _! kitt51 :o committ$ suicide by knock+ ! iron+-bo>d on to h]self4 ,h4 made a diagram ( ! position ( ! bo>d t ,i might fully compreh5d ! situation1 & !n %[$ me h[ ! corpse lay4 ,!y 7 n will+ to "p ) ! rema9s1 & buri$ !m 9 ! y>d4 ,saturday4--,i w5t to ,yonk]s ) ,m4 & ,h4 to sp5d ! day ) ,mrs4 ,b4 ,h] *ildr5 are sweet & int]e/+ z ev]2 b little ,maggie1 n[ ?ree ye>s old1 is ! que5 ( ! h\se4 ,%e is a p]fect specim5 ( :at a *ild %\ld be--gladsome1 well1 bright1 & engag+4 ,h] *eeks are rosy & %9+1 & %e keeps up an incessant *att]4 ,!y are all wild ab\t h]1 f papa & mamma d[n to ! y\nge/ *ild4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,home-,life 9 ,dorset4 ,,dorset1 ,june #aj1 #ahgj4 ,"h we are aga9 9 de> old ,dorset4 ,we got "h ab\t t5 on ,w$nesday ev5+1 expect+ to f9d ! h\se d>k & =lorn1 b ,mrs4 ,f4 _h be5 d[n & light$ x up1 & put on ! d9+-table bread1 biscuits1 butt]1 cakes1 eggs1 etc41 en\gh to la/ = days4 ,?ursday 0 hott] ?an any day we _h _h 9 ,new ,york1 & n v good1 !re=e1 = ! h>d "w ( unpack+1 & ! yet h>d] "w ( s[+ our fl[]-se$s 9 a huge b$ %ap$ l a palm-leaf4 ,b1 ) ,m4's help1 x 0 done be=e "o o'clock to-day--a h]culean task1 z ! gr\nd _h to be ?or\ghly dug up ) a tr[el2 /ones1 /icks1 & roots got out1 & ! e>? sift$ 9 our h&s4 ,! back ( my neck & my e>s are ne>ly bli/]$4 ,m4 is /&+ beh9d me n[ ano9t+ me ) cocoa butt]4 ,our place looks beautifully4 ,"s ( ! trees set out are twelve or fifte5 feet high1 & :5 fully leav$ w make q a %[4 ,papa is to be "h ab\t t5 days1 z he greatly ne$s ! re/2 he w !n g home till ,july #a/1 :5 he w br+ ,jane & ,m>?a4 ,i told ,m>?a ,i ?\ght x v good ( ,m>ia to be will+ to come ) me1 & %e said %e did n ?9k x ne$$ mu* goodness1 & t anybody w\ld g ) me any:]e4 ,! boys h a little black & tan dog :i* ,culy] gave !m1 & ,m4's bird is a f9e s+]4 ,our family circle n[ consi/s ( ,pa ,pr5tiss1 ,ma ,m94 ,geo4 ,h54 ,m>ia 7horse7 ,coco 7c[7 ,sukey 7dog7 ,nep 7bird7 ,*]ry ,we nev] saw ,dorset s e>ly1 & :5 ! foliage 0 9 su* p]fection4 ,la/ ,tuesday ,i rea*$ our door p]fectly & disgracefully load$ ) p>cels1 & said to myself1 ,i wond] :at ,mr4 ,m4 w\ld say if he saw me ) ?is load8 :5 in/antly he op5$ ! door to let me 96 ,acc\nt = ?is if y c4 ,:y %\ld ,i h ?\ght ( him among all ! p ,i "k8 ,did 8 m9d t\* m9e ?r\gh ! clos$ door8 ,x makes me almo/ %udd] to ?9k su* ?+s c be4 ,well1 ,i mu/ love & leave y4 ,i am go+ to h a small basket on ! table 9 ! hall ) f]ns1 mosses1 & %ells 9 x4 ,!y all s5d love f ,pa ,pr5tiss d[n to ,sukey4 ,:at a pity y c\ld n come home = ! summ] & g back aga96 ,i believe ,i'll g to y\r b$room door & say1 ,i wond] :e!r ,annie w\ld %riek out if %e saw me 9 ?is old sacque1 in/ead ( h] pretty "o8 & p]haps y'll op5 & let me 94 ,w y or won't y8 ,n[ ,i'm go+ to ride4 ,i've be5 & ,i've got back1 & ,i'm froz5 solid1 & am glad ,i've got back to my d54 ,g4 & ,h4 are n[ 9 ! kit*5 mak+ biscuits4 ,good-bye1 *ick54 ,mamma ,,pr5tiss4 ,june #ab?4--,ev]ybody is 9 b$ save ,d>by & ,joan4 ,we slept la/ night "u f\r blankets & a silk com=t]1 :i* w give y a fa9t idea ( ! wea!r4 ,x has be5 beautiful to-day1 & we h sat out ( doors a good deal4 ,papa & ! boys w5t out to our hill aft] tea la/ ev5+ & pick$ two qu>ts ( /rawb]ries1 s z to h a %ort-cake to-day4 ,m4 took me ye/]day to see a ne/ 9 ! or*>d :i* 0 full ( birds p>t$ into f\rs--n a crack betwe51 & "o ( !m s cr[d$ t x fill$ ab\t no space at all4 ,! hymn says1 ,birds 9 _! little ne/s agree1 & ,i %\ld ?9k !y w\ld1 = !y h no room to disagree 94 ,!y all f\r />$ at u ) awful1 almo/ emb>rass+ solemnity1 & ea* _h a little yell[ m\/a*e4 ,i _h no idea !y liv$ pack$ 9 s--no wond] !y look$ melan*oly4 ,! sight ( !m1 especially ( ! "o :o _h no room at all1 made me q l[-spirit$4 ,w$nesday4--,y\r lett] rea*$ u on ,monday1 & we all w5t out & sat 9 a r[ on ! upp] /ep1 l birds on a telegraph wire1 & papa read x al\d4 ,i am ly+ by to-day--writ+1 read+1 l\ng+1 & enjoy+ ! sc5]y4 ,y ought to see papa eat /rawb]ries666 ,!y are v pl5tiful on our hill4 ,! grass on ! lawn is prick+ up l ne$les2 easy to see if y kneel d[n & />e h>d1 b absolutely invisible o!rwise2 yet papa keeps call+ me to look out ( ! w9d[ & admire x1 & %\ts to p driv+ by to d ! same4 ,he has j come 91 & ,i told him :at ,i 0 say+ ab\t him1 on :i* he gave me a good beat+1 d\bl$ up 8 fi/ at me1 & !n kiss$ me to make up4444 ,don't sew ,isn't x en\gh t ,i h ne>ly kill$ myself ) do+ x8 ,we h j he>d ( ! dea? ( ,dick5s & ! s5sation x is mak+ 9 ,engl&4 ,?ursday4--,?is bird ( ours is spl5did4 ,i h j fram$ ! two be/ lik5esses ( y & hung !m up 9 front ( my table4 ,y w\ld laugh at papa's ways ab\t c(fee4 ,he compla9s t he drank too mu* at ,philadelphia1 & says t ) /rawb]ries we don't ne$ x1 & t ,i may tell ,m>ia s4 ,i tell h]1 & lo6 ! next morn+ !re x is4 ,i ask ! mean+1 & %e says he came d[n say+ ,i did n feel v well & ne$$ x6 ,! next day x appe>s aga94 ,:y8 ,he _h be5 d[n & ord]$ x because x 0 good4 ,! next day he ord]s x because x is 8 la/ day "h b "o1 & to-morr[ x w be on ! table because x is ! la/6 ,dreadful man6 & yet ,i hate to h him g4 ,friday4--,i drove papa to ,man*e/]1 & z usual1 ?is exploit br\ght on a ?und] %[]1 ) a mu* ne$$ deluge ( ra94 ,i _h a h>d "t gett+ home1 & got wet to ! sk94 ,i _h n only to drive1 b keep a roll ( matt+ f slipp+ out1 hold up ! boot & ! umbrella1 & keep /opp+ to get my hat out ( my eyes1 :i* kept knock+ ov] !m4 ,!n ,coco goes l ! w9d ?is summ]4 ,=tunately ,i _h my wat]pro( ) me & got home safely4 ,! wor/ ( x is t1 9 my bewild]m5t1 ,i refus$ to let a woman get 9 :o 0 walk+ to ,s\? ,dorset4 ,i %all die ( remorse44 ,well1 well1 h[ x is ra9+1 to be sure4 ,monday4--,i he> t papa s5t a dispat* to somebody to "k h[ ,i got "h f ,man*e/]4 ,i d n wond] he is worri$4 ,i am su* a poor driv]1 & x ra9$ s dreadfully4 ,m4 foll[s me r\nd l a little dog2 if ,i g d[n cell> %e goes d[n2 if ,i pick a /rawb]ry %e picks "o2 if ,i /op pick+ %e /ops4 ,%e is ! sweete/ lamb t ev] 01 & ,i am ! ,m>y t's got h]4 ,i don't believe anybody else 9 ! _w loves me s well1 unless x possibly is papa1 & he doesn't foll[ me d[n cell>1 & goes (f & picks /rawb]ries all by himself1 & t on ,sunday1 too1 :5 ,i _h =bidd5 b]rypick+6 ,we are riot+ 9 /rawb]ries1 j z we did la/ summ]4 ,we live a good deal at sixes & sev5s1 b nobody c>es4 ,?is aft]noon ,i h be5 arrang+ a basket = ! hall table1 ) mosses1 f]ns1 %ells & :ite coral2 ev] s pretty4 ,w$nesday4--,x is a spl5did day & ,i expect papa4 ,! *ildr5 h n said a ^w ab\t _! food1 ?\gh p>tly ow+ to no but*] & p>tly to ! heat1 ,i h _h = two days next to no?+2 pick$ fi% "o day & fi% pick$ ! next4 ,we reg>d$ to-day's d9n] z a mo/ sumptu\s "o1 & ,i am sure ,victoria's won't ta/e s good to h]4 ,lett]s keep p\r+ 91 urg+ papa to accept ! ,pr(essor%ip at ,*icago1 & decl>+ ! vote ( ! ,assembly to be ! voice ( ,god4 ,( c\rse1 if he mu/ accept1 we %\ld h to give up our de> little home "h4 ,b to me 8 leav+ ! m9i/ry w\ld be ! wor/ ?+ ab\t x4 ,aft] d9n] ! boys c>ri$ me (f bodily to see /rawb]ries & o!r plants2 !n !y made me g to ! mill1 & by t "t ,i _h no hair-p9s on my head1 to say no?+ ( hair4 ,! boys are work+ away l all possess$4 ,a little bird1 probably "o ( ^? hat*$ "h1 has j come & p]*$ himself on ! piazza1 rail+ 9 front ( me1 & is mak+ me an address :i*1 un=tunately1 ,i d n und]/&4444 ,y h inh]it$ f me a want ( rev]5ce = relics & ! l4 ,i w\ldn't g z f> z our b>n to see ! fig-leaves ,adam & ,eve wore1 or all ! hair ( all ! apo/les2 & :5 p are n born h]o-wor%ipp]s1 !y c't ev5 wor%ip !mselves z h]oes4 ,fancy ,dr4 ,s*aff s5d+ me back ! ,,ms4 ( a hymn ,i gave him1 f a ,london pr9t+-(fice6 ,:at c\ld ,i d ) x8 cov] jelly ) x8 ,he s5t me a beautiful copy ( 8 book1 ,*ri/ 9 ,song4 ,?ursday1 ,june #cj?4--,papa1 ) ,j4 & ,m41 came late la/ night1 & we all made z great a "t z if ! ,great ,mogul _h come4 ,!y give a mo/ t]rific acc\nt ( ! heat 9 ! city4 ,y ask h[ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d is sell+4 ,s f> #ad1jjj4 ,nidwor? has be5 a complete failure1 ?\gh ! publi%]s write me t x is a gem4 #aj ,monday1 ,july #d?4--,m4 is s absorb$ 9 ! /udy ( ,vick's floral catalogue t %e speaks ( see+ su* a ?+ 9 ! ,bible or ,diction>y1 :5 %e means t %e saw x 9 ,vick4 ,i did ! same ?+ la/ night4 ,%e & ,i get d[n on our knees & look solemnly at ! b>e gr\nd & po9t out up-spr++ we$s z bett] ?an no?+4 ,i _h a long call ?is morn+ f ,mrs4 ,f4 ,field1 ( ,ea/ ,dorset4 ,!y _h a de> little bright-ey$ baby baptiz$ ye/]day1 :i* sat ?r\gh all ! morn+ s]vice & behav$ ev5 bett] ?an ,i did1 = x _h no w&]+ ?\ghts4 ,mrs4 ,f4 said "s fri5ds ( h]s 9 ,brooklyn receiv$ lett]s f ,france & f ,japan simultane\sly1 urg+ !m to read ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 :i* 0 ! fir/ !y he>d ( x4 ,we h celebrat$ ! glori\s ,f\r? by mak+ & eat+ ice-cream4 ,papa br\ght a new-fa%ion$ freez]1 t pr(ess$ to freeze 9 two m9utes4 ,we screw$ x to ! wood-h\se floor--or r ,h4 did--put 9 ! cream1 & ! :ole family /ood & wat*$ papa :ile he turn$ ! h&le4 ,at ! end ( two m9utes we unscrew$ ! cov] & gaz$ inside1 b !re 7 no signs ( freez+1 & to make a long /ory %ort1 in/ead ( writ+ a book z ,i said ,i %\ld1 !re we all 7 f half-pa/ twelve to ne>ly two o'clock1 :5 we decid$ to h d9n] & leave ! s]vants to f9i% x4 ,x came on to ! table at la/1 0 v ri* & r good4 ,! boys sp5t ! aft]noon 9 ! woods fir+ (f crack]s4 ,m4 w5t visit+ & papa took me to drive1 x be+ a delightful aft]noon4 ,! boys h a few ,roman c&les :i* !y are go+ to s5d (f z soon z x gets d>k en\gh4 ,july #ac?4--,?is is a real ,dorset day1 aft] a mo/ refre%+ ra91 & ,m4 & ,i h kept out ( doors ! :ole morn+1 g>d5+ & 9 ! woods4 ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,humphrey came d[n & sp5t la/ ev5+4 ,%e is bright & wide awake1 & admir$ ev]y?+ f ! sc5]y out ( doors to ! matt+ & *9tzes )94 ,i told h] !re 0 no?+ 9 ! h\se to be comp>$ ) ^? :o liv$ 9 x4 ,"h comes a woman ) f\r qu>ts ( black raspb]ries & a fuss to make *ange4 ,papa & ! boys are gett+ 9 ! la/ hay ) ,alb]t4 ,m4 has j br\ght 9 y\r lett]4 ,we are glad y h se5 ^? rem>kable sc5es at ,ob]-,amm]gau4,"o w\ld fancy x w\ld become an old /ory4 ,i %\ld n l to see ! crucifixion2 x mu/ be en\gh to turn "o's hair :ite 9 a s+le night4 ,saturday4--,ye/]day ,i w5t ) ! *ildr5 to walk r\nd ,rup]t4 ,we turn$ (f ! road to please ! boys1 to a brook ) a s&y bea*1 :]e all ?ree fell to digg+ wells1 & ,i fell to collect+ wild grape-v9e & roots = my ru/ic "w1 & fell into ! brook besides4 ,we all enjoy$ ourselves s mu* t we wi%$ we _h our d9n]s & c\ld /ay all day4 ,on ! way home1 j z we got ne> ,col4 ,sykes'1 we spi$ papa ) ! phaeton1 & all got 94 ,we mu/ h cut a pretty figure1 driv+ ?r\gh ! village2 ,m4 9 my lap1 ,g4 9 papa's1 & ,h4 ev]y:]e 9 g5]al4 ,july #ad?4--,miss ,vance 0 9 la/ ev5+ aft] tea1 & says our lawn is gett+ on extremely well & t our se$s are com+ up beautifully4 ,?is greatly soo!d ,m4's & my own uneasy he>t1 z we _h r suppos$ ! lawn ought to be a ?ick velvet1 & ! se$s we s[$ two weeks ago up & bloom+4 ,if vegetable correspond$ to animal life1 ?is w\ld be ! case4 ,fancy t :at 7 eggs long aft] we came "h1 & !n nak$ birds1 are n[ full-fl$g$ creatures on ! w+1 all (f gett+ to h\sekeep+1 ea* on 8 own hook6 ,july #ah?4--,m4 & ,i w5t on a tramp ?is =5oon & :ile we 7 gone ,mrs4 ,m4 ,o4 ,r4 & ,m>y & ,mrs4 ,van ,w4 call$4 ,!y br\ght news ( ! com+ w>4 ,papa %[$ !m all ov] ! h\se1 n except+ y\r room1 :i* ,i ?9k a p]fect %ame--= ! room looks =lorn4 ,i ?9k m5 ought to be suppress$1 or some?+ done to !m4 ,m>ia told me %e ?\ght papa's s]mon ,sunday 0 ilegant4 #ba/4--,i feel greatly tr\bl$ le/ ?is dreadful w> %\ld cut u (f f ea* o!r4 ,mr4 ,butl] writes t he does n see h[ p are to get home1 & we d n see ei!r4 ,papa says x w probably be impossible to h ! ,evangelical ,alliance4 ,& h[ prices ( f9]y w g up6 ,july #bg?4--,m4's & my own p]sev]ance at our fl[]-b$ is beg9n+1 at la/1 to be rew>d$4 ,we h portulaccas1 mignonette1 :ite c&y-tuft1 na/urtiums1 eutocas1 etc42 & ! morn+-glories1 :i* are all beh9dh&1 are j beg9n+ to bloom4 ,nev] 7 fl[]s s f\ght =4 ,x is ! lion & ! unicorn ov] aga94 ,i h ne>ly f9i%$ ,soll und ,hab51 & feel m l talk+ ,g]man ?an ,engli%4 ,! ,riv]side ,magaz9e has j come & complet$ my d[nfall1 z x has a syllable left out ( "o ( my v]ses1 z has be5 ! case ) a hymn 9 ! hymn-book at ,c9c9nati & "o 9 ! ,association ,mon?ly4 ,i am n[ fairly entitl$ to ! reputation ( be+ a jolty rhym/]4 ,x has be5 a trifle cool] to-day & we are all refre%$ by ! *ange4 ,friday4--,papa read me la/ ev5+ a nice ?+ ab\t ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d f ,dr4 ,rob9son 9 ,p>is & a lady 9 ,zuri*1 & ,i w5t to b$ & slept ! sleep ( ! j--till daylight1 :5 five hundr$ flies began to flap into my e>s1 up my nose1 take nips (f my face & h&s1 & drove me di/ract$4 ,!y woke papa1 too1 b he goes to sleep betwe5 ! pecks4 ,augu/ #d?4--,tuesday ,i w5t on a tramp ) ,m4 & br\ght home a gigantic bracket4 ,we met papa z we ne>$ ! h\se1 & he _h _h 8 fir/ ba? 9 8 new tank at ! mill1 & 0 wild ) joy1 z 7 also ! boys4 ,aft] d9n] ,i made a picture frame ( mosses1 li*5s1 & r$ & yell[ toad/ools1 ev] s pretty2 !n pro(s came1 !n we _h tea1 & !n w5t & made calls4 ,ye/]day on a tramp ) ,m41 :o want$ mosses1 !n home ) ab\t a bu%el ( gr\nd-p9e4 ,e m9ute ( ! aft]noon ,i sp5t 9 trimm+ ! grey room ) ! p9e & gett+ up my bracket1 & n[ ! room looks l a b[] ( bliss4 ,i 0 to g ) ,m4 on ano!r tramp to-day1 b x ra9s1 & ra9 is greatly ne$$4 ,! heat 9 ,new ,york is said to exce$ any?+ 9 ! memory ( man1 some?+ absolutely appall+4 ,friday4--,"h ,i am on ! piazza ) ,miss ,k4 by my side1 read+ ! ,life ( ,fab]4 ,%e got "h la/ night 9 a beautiful moonlight1 & z ,i _h n told h] ab\t ! sc5]y1 %e 0 s en*ant$ ) x on op5+ h] bl9ds ?is morn+1 t %e bur/ into te>s4 ,i drove h] r\nd ,rup]t & took h] into ,*5ey's woods1 & ! boys invit$ u d[n to _! work%op2 s we w5t1 & ,i 0 a/oni%$ to f9d t ! ba?-h\se is really a p]fect affair1 ) two dress+-rooms & ev]y?+ z neat z a p9k4 ,miss ,k4 is *>m$ ) ev]y?+1 ! cornucopias1 natural brackets1 crosses1 etc41 & h] delusion z to all ( u1 :om %e fancies sa9ts & angels1 is q *>m+1 only x won't la/4 #ac?4--,!re is a good deal ( sickness ab\t ! village4 ,i made w9e-jelly = f\r diff]5t p ye/]day1 & ! re/ ( ! morn+ ,miss ,k41 ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 & myself sat on a %awl 9 our woods1 talk+4 ,we h _h a trem5d\s ra91 to our great delight1 & ! air is cool]1 b ! gras%opp]s1 :i* are l ! frogs ( ,egypt1 are n dim9i%$1 & are dev\r+ ev]y?+4 ,i got a lett] f c\s9 ,m>y ye/]day1 :o says %e has no d\bt we %all get ! ocean up "h1 someh[1 & raise our own oy/]s & clams4 #af?4--,papa & ,i w5t to ,man*e/] to-day to make up a lot ( calls1 & among o!r p]sons1 we saw ,mrs4 ,c4 ( ,troy1 a bright-ey$ old lady :o 0 a s*oolmate ( my "m's4 ,%e c\ld n tell me any?+ ab\t h] except t %e 0 v bright & animat$1 & t ,i knew be=e4 ,mrs4 ,wickham ask$ me to write "s lett]s = a fair to be held = _! *ur* to-morr[2 s ,i wrote ?ree 9 rhyme1 n v good4 ,augu/ #bj?4--,aft] d9n] papa w5t to ,man*e/]1 tak+ bo? boys1 & ,i w5t (f ) ,m4 to ,*5ey's woods1 :]e we got baskets full ( moss1 etc41 & _h a good "t4 ,! *ildr5 are all wild on ! subject ( fl[]s & sp5d ! ev5+ /udy+ ! catalogues1 :i* !y ought to "k by he>t4 ,i wond] if ,i h told y h[ our dog hates to rememb] ! ,sabba? day to keep x holy8 ,! mom5t ! *ur*-bell beg9s to r+1 no matt] :]e he is1 or h[ s\ndly asleep1 he runs out & gazes 9 ! direction ( ! *ur*1 & z ! la/ /roke /rikes1 lifts 8 nose high 9 ! air & sets up ! mo/ awful wails1 h[ls1 groans1 despair+ remon/rances y c imag9e4 ,no games ) ! boys to-day--no romps1 no go+ to ,man*e/]1 ev]ybody tell+ me to get (f _! ,sunday clo!s--a[6 a[6 a[6 ,dr4 ,adams' h\se has be5 brok5 into & robb$1 & s has ,dr4 ,field's4 ,mrs4 ,h4 gave u ! hi/ory ( a conflict 9 ,*icago betwe5 h] husb& & a desp]ate burgl> arm$ ) a dirk1 :o want$1 b did n get a l>ge sum ( money "u 8 pill[2 also1 ( 8 be+ g>rot$ & robb$1 & hav+ next day s5t him a purse ( #aej1 two pi/ols1 a slug1 a load$ cane1 & a wat*man's rattle4 ,imag9e him z go+ ab\t load$ ) all ^! ?+s6 ,i nev] knew p :o _h met ) su* bewit*+ adv5tures1 & %e has ! brighte/ way ( tell+ !m4 ,papa has got a telegram f ,dr4 ,s*aff ask+ him to come on to 8 little ,johnny's fun]al4 ,?is dea? mu/ h be5 v sudd51 z ,dr4 ,s*aff wrote la/ ,tuesday t 8 wife 0 sick1 b said no?+ ( ,johnny4 ,he is ! y\nge/ boy1 ab\t n9e ye>s old1 ,i ?9k1 & y w rememb] !y lo/ ,philip1 a beautiful *ild1 born ! same day z our ,g41 ! summ] we 7 at ,hunt]4 ,:5 ! despat* came papa & ,m4 ?\ght x 0 bad news ab\t y1 & ,i only ?\ght ( ,mr4 ,/e>ns6 ,!re is no acc\nt+ = ! way 9 :i* ! human m9d works4 ,& n[ = b$1 y sleepy head4 ,monday4--,a spl5did day1 & we h all be5 z busy z bees1 if n z useful1--,h4 mak+ a :ip to *a/ise ! c[ )1 ,m41 ,nep & myself collect+ mosses & toad/ools2 ( ! latt] ,i br\ght home #ahe6 ,we 7 out till d9n]-"t1 & aft] d9n] ,i *ang$ ! mosses 9 my baskets & j>d9et1 no small job1 & ,m4 spread out h] treasures4 ,%e has at la/ f\nd h] en?usiasm1 & ,i am s glad n only to h f\nd a mate 9 my tramps1 b to see su* a s\rce ( pleasure op5+ be=e h] z woods1 fields & g>d5s h always be5 to me4 ,we light$ ?is morn+ on :at ,i suppos$ to be a horn$-head$1 f]oci\s snake1 & !re=e took great pleasure 9 kill+4 ,x turn$ out to be a common /rip$ snake t _h got a frog p>tly swall[$1 & its legs /ick+ out s t ,i took !m to be horns4 ,nep reliev$ 8 m9d by b>k+ at x4 ,i ann\nc$ at d9n] t ,i 0 go+ to s5d = ,vick's catalogue ( bulbs1 :i* news 0 receiv$ ) acclamation4 ,! fact is1 we all seem to be born f>m]s or flori/s2 & unless y br+ u home some?+ 9 ! agricultural l9e1 ,i don't "k t y c br+ u any?+ we w\ld condesc5d to look at4 ,x is awful to read ( ! c>nage go+ on 9 ,europe4 ,aug4 #bg?4--,papa got home ,tuesday night4 ,johnny ,s*aff's dea? 0 f a fall2 he left ! h\se full ( life & heal?1 & 9 a few m9utes 0 br\ght 9 ins5sible1 & only liv$ half an h\r4444 ,i take no pleasure 9 writ+ y1 because we feel t y are n likely to get my lett]s4 ,/ill1 ,i c n make up my m9d to /op writ+4 ,nev] 0 a busi] set ( p ?an we4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,i read to ! *ildr5 f ! ,g]man books y s5t !m2 am n[ on ,!lka ,von ,grump]t's1 :i* is a really nice book4 ,i tell papa we are mak+ an idol out ( ?is place1 b he says we are n4 ,tuesday4--,we all set out to climb ! m\nta9 ne> ,deacon ,kellogg's4 ,we snat*$ :at we c\ld = our d9n]1 & :5 we 7 ready to eat x1 x prov$ to be eggs1 bread & meat1 cake1 guava jelly1 cid] & wat]4 ,we enjoy$ ! spl5did view & ! d9n]1 & !n papa & ! boys w5t home1 & ,m41 ,nep & myself proce$$ to climb high]1 ,nep s affectionate t he tir$ me out hugg+ me ) 8 arms1 z ,h4 calls !m1 & ne>ly eat+ me up1 :ile ,m4 0 %ak+ ) laught] at 8 silly ways4 ,we 7 gone f #aj ,a4,m4 to ne>ly #f ,p4,m41 & br\ght home 9 baskets1 bags1 pockets & bosom1 ab\t ?irty natural brackets1 "s v l>ge & fe>fully heavy4 ,"o 0 s heavy t ,i br\ght x home by kick+ x d[n ! m\nta94 ,i h j got "s fl[] se$s = fall plant+1 & ! *ildr5 are look+ !m ov] z "s w\ld gems f ! m9e4 ,?ursday1 ,septemb] #a/4--,y\r lett] has come1 & we judge t y h q giv5 up ,p>is2 :at a pity to h to d x6 ,we sp5t ye/]day at ,hag] brook ) ,mrs4 ,humphrey & h] daught]s2 papa drove u ov] 9 ! /raw wagon & came = u ab\t #f ,p4,m4 ,we _h lob/] salad & m>malade1 bread & butt] & cake1 & we roa/$ potatoes & corn1 & ! ,h4's _h a pie & ?+s ( t sort4 ,:5 !y saw ! salad !y set up su* %\ts ( joy t papa came to see :at 0 ! matt]4 ,we _h a nice "t4 ,today ,i h _h pro(s to correct & lett]s to write1 & b]ries to dry1 b n a m9ute to sit d[n & ?9k1 ev]ybody ne$+ me at once4 ,all are busy z bees & s5d lots ( love4 ,give ev] s mu* to ! ,smi?s4 ,septemb] #h?4--,"h we are all sitt+ r\nd ! p>lor table4 ,! la/ ?ree days h ea* br\ght a lett] f y1 & to-day "o came f ,mrs4 ,s4 to me1 & "o f ,pr(4 ,s4 to papa4 ,i h no d\bt t ! decision = y to return is a wise "o & hope y w fall 9 ) x *e]fully4 ,dr4 ,s*aff is "h1 & ye/]day papa took him to ,hag] brook1 & to-day to ! qu>ries2 spl5did wea!r = bo? excursions1 & ,dr4 ,s4 seems to h enjoy$ !m extremely4 ,la/ ev5+ he read to u "s private lett]s ( ,bism>ck1 :i* 7 v int]e/+ & did him great cr$it 9 e way4 ,i _h a long call f ,m4 ,h4 to-day2 %e look$ z sweet z possible & ,i load$ h] ) fl[]s4 ,papa is writ+ ,mr4 ,b4 to ?ank him = a basket ( spl5did pea*es he s5t u to-day4 ,h4 has j pres5t$ me ) ?ree pockets full ( toad/ools4 ,m4 walk$ ) me r\nd ,rup]t squ>e ?is aft]noon1 & we met a crazy woman :o said %e wond]$ ,i did n g into fits1 & ask$ me :y ,i didn't4 ,9 return ,i ask$ h] :]e %e liv$1 to :i* %e repli$1 ,9 ! _w4 ,we are all on ! qui vive ab\t ! w> news1 especially ,l\is ,napoleon's d[nfall1 & y may dep5d we are glad he has us$ himself up4 ,y c n br+ any?+ to ! *ildr5 t w please !m z se$s w\ld4 ,x delights me to see !m s int]e/$ 9 g>d5 "w4 ,p]haps ?is w be my la/ lett]4 ,y\r lov+ ,mammie4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,fur!r ,glimpses ( h] ,dorset ,life4 ,! foll[+ ,recollections ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss by h] fri5d1 ,mrs4 ,fr$]ick ,field1 n[ ( ,san ,jose1 ,cali=nia1 af=d additional glimpses ( h] home life 9 ,dorset4 ,! picture is drawn 9 fair colors2 b x is z tru?ful z x is fair3 ,x 0 ! fir/ ,sunday 9 ,septemb]1 #ahff4 ,a quiet1 p]fect day among ! gre5 hills ( ,v]mont2 a sacram5tal ,sabba?1 & we _h come sev5 miles ov] ! m\nta9 to g up to ! h\se ( ! ,"l4 ,i _h br\ght my little two-mon?s-old baby 9 my arms1 int5d+ to leave h] dur+ ! s]vice at our bro!r's home1 :i* 0 ne> ! *ur*4 ,i knew t ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 a summ]-bo>d] 9 ?is home1 t %e 0 ! wife ( a di/+ui%$ cl]gyman1 & a lit]>y woman ( decid$ ability2 b x 0 be=e ! ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d epo* ( h] life1 & ,i _h no v deep int]e/ 9 ! prospect ( meet+ h]4 ,we w5t 9 at ! hospitably op5 door1 & meet+ no "o1 sat d[n 9 ! pleasant family liv+-room4 ,x 0 ab\t noon1 & we c\ld he> *e]ful voices talk+ ov] ! lun*-table 9 ! d9+-room4 ,pres5tly ! door op5$1 & a slight1 delicate-featur$ woman1 ) beautiful l>ge d>k eyes1 came ) rapid /ep into ! room1 go+ across to ! hall door2 b h] quick eye caught a glimpse ( my little bundle ( flannel1 & n paus+ = an introduction or ^w ( prep>atory spee*1 %e came t[>ds me ) a beam+ face & out/ret*$ h&s3-- ,o1 h y a baby !re8 ,h[ delightful6 ,i hav5't se5 "o = su* an age1--please1 may ,i take x8 ! d>l+ t9y creature6--a girl8 ,h[ lovely6 ,%e took ! baby t5d]ly 9 h] arms & w5t on 9 h] eag]1 quick1 in=mal way1 b ) a bright little blu% & smile1--,i'm n v polite--pray1 let me introduce myself6 ,i'm ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 & y are ,mrs4 ,f---1 ,i "k4 ,aft] a little m sweet1 mo!rly comm5t & "q ov] ! baby1--a t\* ( nature :i* at once made u ak91 %e ask$1 ,h y br\ght ! baby to be *ri/5$8 ,i said1 ,no1 ,i ?\ght x w\ld be bett] to wait till %e 0 a little old]4 ,o1 no6 %e plead$1 d let u take h] ov] to ! *ur* n[4 ,! y\ng] ! bett]1 ,i ?9k2 x is s unc]ta9 ab\t our keep+ su* treasures4 ,i /ill object$ t ,i _h n dress$ ! little "o = s public an occasion4 ,o1 nev] m9d ab\t t1 %e said4 ,%e is really loveli] 9 ?is simple fa%ion ?an to be load$ ) lace & embroid]y4 ,!n1 h] sweet face gr[+ m e>ne/1--,!re w be m ( u "h to-day ?an at ! next communion--m ( u to pray = h]4 ,! little lamb 0 tak5 into ! fold t day1 & ,i 0 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' w>m fri5d =ev]more4 ,h] :ole beautiful "* _h reveal$ itself to me 9 t little int]view1--! quick p]ception1 ! :olly frank1 unconv5tional mann]1 ! sweet mo!rl9ess1 ! cordial int]e/ 9 ev5 a /rang]1 ! f]v5t piety :i* c\ld n be> delay 9 duty1 & ev5 ! qua9t1 orig9al1 =cible ?\ght & way ( express+ x1 ,!re'll be m ( u "h to pray = h] to-day4 ,= sev5 successive summ]s ,i saw m or less ( h] 9 ?is ,e>?ly ,p>adise1 z %e us$ to call x1 & once ,i visit$ h] 9 h] city home4 ,i h be5 favor$ ) _m ( h] sp>kl+1 vivaci\s lett]s1 & h read & re-read all h] publi%$ writ+s2 b t fir/ meet+ held 9 x = me ! key-note ( all h] wond]fully beautiful & symmetrical "*4 ,%e br\ght to t little hamlet among ! hills a sweet & :olesome & p[]ful influ5ce4 ,:ile h] "t 0 too valuable to be wa/$ 9 a g5]al sociability1 %e yet f\nd leisure = an ext5sive acqua9tance1 = a k9dly int]e/ 9 all h] neighbors1 & = ,*ri/ian "w ( _m k9ds4 ,probably ! weekly meet+ = ,bible-read+ & pray]1 :i* %e conduct$1 0 h] close/ l9k ) ! wom5 ( ,dorset2 b ^! meet+s 7 e/abli%$ aft] ,i _h bidd5 good-bye to ! de> old t[n1 & ,i leave o!rs to tell h[ _! he>ts burn$ )9 !m z %e op5$ to !m ! ,scriptures4 ,%e _h 9 a rem>kable degree ! lovely fem99e gift ( home-mak+4 ,%e 0 a true decorative arti/4 ,h] room :5 %e 0 bo>d+1 & h] home aft] x 0 complet$1 7 b[]s ( beauty4 ,e walk ov] hill & dale1 e ramble by brookside or ?r\gh wildwood1 gave to h] "s fre% home-adornm5t4 ,"s %y wildfl[] or f]n1 or brilliant-t9t$ leaf1 a bit ( moss1 a curi\s li*51 a des]t$ bird's-ne/1 a /range fragm5t ( rock1 a %9+ pebble1 w\ld cat* h] pass+ glance & reveal to h] quick arti/ic s5se possibilities ( use :i* 7 qua9t1 orig9al1 *>act]i/ic4 ,"o saw f af> t h]s 0 a poet's home2 &1 if p]mitt$ to ent] its graci\s portals1 ! fir/ impression deep5$ into c]ta9ty4 ,!re 0 z /rong an individuality ab\t h] home1 & especially ab\t h] own little /udy1 z !re 0 ab\t h]self & h] writ+s4 ,a *e]ful1 sunny1 hospitable ,*ri/ian home6 ,f> & wide its pot5t influ5ces rea*$1 & x 0 a beautiful ?+ to see h[ _m ano!r home1 humble or /ately1 grew emul\s & blossom$ into a new lovel9ess4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 naturally a %y & res]v$ woman1 & necess>ily a pre-occupi$ "o4 ,!re=e %e 0 sometimes misund]/ood4 ,b ^? :o--knew h] be/1 & 7 ble/ ) h] r>e intimacy1 knew h] z a p]fect woman nobly plann$4 ,h] conv]sation 0 *>m+4 ,h] close /udy ( nature taught h] a ?\s& happy symbols & illu/rations1 :i* made bo? :at %e said & wrote a mosaic ( exquisite comp>isons4 ,h] /udies ( "* 7 equally con/ant & p5etrat+4 ,no?+ escap$ h]2 no peculi>ity ( m9d or mann] fail$ ( h] quick obs]vation1 b x 0 always a k9dly int]e/4 ,%e did n ridicule t :i* 0 simply ignorance or weakness1 & %e saw ) ke5 pleasure all t 0 qua9t1 orig9al1 or /rong1 ev5 :5 x 0 hidd5 b5ea? ! homelie/ g>b4 ,%e _h ! true arti/'s lik+ = t :i* 0 simple & g5re4 ,! common ?+s ( common life appeal$ to h] sympa?ies & call$ out all h] att5tion4 ,x 0 a real1 he>ty int]e/1 too--n feign$1 ev5 9 a s5se g5]ally ?\ght praisewor?y4 ,inde$1 no "o ev] _h a m int5se scorn ( e sort ( feign+4 ,%e 0 hone/1 tru?ful1 g5u9e to ! highe/ degree4 ,x may h sometimes l$ h] into seem+ lack ( c\rtesy1 b ev5 ?is 0 a fail+ :i* lean$ to virtue's side4 ,i *anc$ to "k ( h] once call+ ) a fri5d on a c\ntry neighbor1 & f9d+ ! good h\sewife busy ov] a rag-c>pet4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 :o _h nev] *anc$ to see "o ( ^! bits ( rural manufacture 9 its elem5t>y processes1 0 full ( que/ions & int]e/1 !reby q evid5tly pleas+ ! unassum+ arti/ 9 assort$ rags & home-made dyes4 ,:5 ! visitors 7 safely outside ! door1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' fri5d turn$ to h] ) ! exclamation1 ,:at tact y h6 ,%e really ?\ght y 7 int]e/$ 9 h] "w6 ,! quick blood sprang into ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' face1 & %e turn$ ^u h] fri5d a look ( amazem5t & rebuke4 ,tact6 %e said1 ,i despise su* tact6--d y ?9k ,i w\ld look or act a lie8 ,%e 0 an exce$+ly practical woman1 n a dream]4 ,a sy/ematic1 ?or\gh h\sekeep]1 ) z exalt$ ideals 9 all ! affairs :i* p]ta9 to good h\sewif]y z 9 ^? matt]s :i* are g5]ally ?\ght to transc5d ^! humble occupations4 ,l ,solomon's virtu\s woman %e look$ well aft] ! ways ( h] h\sehold4 ,me?odical1 c>eful ( m9utes1 simple 9 h] ta/es1 ab/emi\s1 & !re=e enjoy+ ev5ly good heal? 9 spite ( h] delicate con/itution--?is is ! secret ( h] accompli%+ s mu*4 ,yet all ?is f\ndation ( exactness & dilig5ce 0 s r\nd$ ) leafy gracefulness t %e nev] seem$ angul> or unyield+4 ,) h] *ildr5 %e 0 a model discipl9>ian1 exce$+ly /rict1 a wise law-mak]2 yet )al a t5d]1 devot$1 self-sacrific+ "m4 ,i h nev] se5 su* exact ob$i5ce requir$ & giv5--or a m idoliz$ "m4 ,mamma's ^w 0 inde$ ,law1 b--,o1 happy comb9ation6--x 0 also ,gospel6 ,h[ w>m & true h] fri5d%ip 06 ,h[ little ( selfi%ness 9 all h] int]c\rse ) o!r wom56 ,h[ well %e lov$ to be ( s]vice to h] fri5ds6 ,h[ anxi\s t ea* %\ld rea* h] highe/ possibilities ( atta9m5t6 ,i record ) deepe/ s5se ( obligation ! cordial1 g5]\s1 sympa!tic assi/ance ( _m k9ds ext5d$ by h] to me dur+ our :ole acqua9tance4 ,to e e>ne/ work] 9 any field %e gladly l5t a h&1 rejoic+ 9 all ! successes ( o!rs z if !y 7 h] own4 ,b if weakness1 or tr\ble1 or sorr[ ( any sort or degree ov]took "o %e /raightway became z "o ( ,god's own m9i/]+ spirits--an angel ( /r5g? & consolation4 ,always m eag]1 h[ev]1 t s\ls %\ld gr[ ?an t pa9 %\ld cease4 ,volumes c\ld be made ( h] lett]s to fri5ds 9 sorr[4 ,"o t5d] monotone /eals ?r\gh !m all1-- ',come unto me1 my k9dr$1 ,i enfold y ,9 an embrace to suff]]s only kn[n2 ,close to ?is he>t ,i t5d]ly w hold y1 ,suppress no sigh1 keep back no te>1 no moan4 ,?\ ,man ( ,sorr[s1 tea* my lips t (t5 ,h told ! sacr$ /ory ( my woe1 ,to speak ( ,!e till /ony griefs ,i s(t51 ,till he>ts t "k ,!e n le>n ,!e to "k4 ,till peace takes place ( /orm & agitation1 ,till ly+ on ! curr5t ( ,?y w ,!re %all be glory+ 9 tribulation1 ,& ,*ri/ ,himself ea* empty he>t %all fill4 ,few h ! gift or ! c\rage to deal fai?fully yet lov+ly ) an err+ s\l1 b %e did n %r9k back ev5 f ?is s]vice to ^? %e lov$4 ,i c be> witness to ! wisdom1 p5etration1 skill1 & fidelity ) :i* %e prob$ a t]ribly w\nd$ _s1 & !n said ) t5d] solemnity1 ,i ?9k y ne$ a great deal ( good pray+4 ,o1 vani%$ h&1 /ill beckon to u f ! ,et]nal ,heights6 ,o1 voice t is /ill1 speak to u yet f ! ,%9+ ,%ore6 ,/ill let ?y mild rebuk+ /& ,betwe5 u & ! wrong1 ,& ?y de> memory s]ve to make ,our fai? 9 goodness /rong4 #a ,see ! poem 9 ! app5dix to ,gold5 ,h\rs1 ) ! ,reply ( ! ,new ,ye>1 writt5 by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 #b ,a cl]ical circle ( ,new ,york4 #c ,a ,unit>ian pap]1 publi%$ 9 ,new ,york4 #d ,an association ( ladies = provid+ g>m5ts & o!r ne$$ articles 9 aid ( families ( ,home & ,=eign mission>ies1 especially ( ^? connect$ 9 any way ) _! own congregation4 ,su* a circle is f\nd 9 mo/ ( ! ,am]ican *ur*es4 #e ,! passage occurs 9 a lett] to ,madame ,guyon1 dat$ ,june #i1 #afhi4 ,= ano!r extract f ! same lett] see app5dix ,f1 p4 #eeg4 #f ,on ! ,resurrection ( ,*ri/4 #g ,hel5 ,rog]s ,blakeman1 wife ( ,w4 ,n4 ,blakeman1 ,m4,d41 0 born on ! #bj? ( ,decemb]1 #ahaa1 9 ! city ( ,new ,york4 ,%e 0 a gr&daught] ( ! ,rev4 ,james ,caldwell1 ( ,elizabe?t[n1 ,new ,j]sey1 ! ,revolution>y patriot4 ,! tragical fate ( h] gr&mo!r has pass$ into hi/ory4 ,:5 ! ,briti% =ces rea*$ ,connecticut ,f>ms1 on ! #g? ( ,june1 #aghj1 & began to burn & pillage ! place1 ,mrs4 ,caldwell1 :o 0 !n liv+ !re1 retir$ ) h] two *ildr5--"o an infant 9 h] arms--to a back room 9 ! h\se4 ,"h1 :ile engag$ 9 pray]1 %e 0 %ot ?r\gh ! w9d[4 ,two bullets /ruck h] 9 ! brea/ & %e fell dead ^u ! floor4 ,! infant 9 h] arms 0 ,mrs4 ,blakeman's "m4 ,on ! fa!r's side1 too1 %e 0 ( an old & ,god-fe>+ family4 #h ,y\r preci\s lamb 0 v ne> my he>t2 few knew s well z ,i did all y suff]$ = & ) h]1 = few h be5 ov] j ! gr\nd ,i h4 ,b t is little to ! purpose2 :at ,i 0 go+ to say is ?is1--',god nev] makes a mi/ake4' ,y "k & feel x1 ,i am sure1 b :5 we are brok5 d[n ) grief1 we l to he> simple words1 (t repeat$4 ,on ?is anniv]s>y ( my *ild's dea?1 ,i feel drawn to y4 ,x 0 a great bl[ to u because x came to he>ts already sore ) sorr[ = our boy1 & because x came s l a ?und]clap1 & because %e suff]$ s4 ,y\r baby's dea? br\ght x all back4--,f ! ,lett] to ,mrs4 ,w4 #i ,i mu/ tell y :at a busy day ,i _h ye/]day1 be+ *apla91 m>ket]1 "m1 au?or1 & consol] f e>ly morn+ till n9e at night4444 ,a lett] came f ,c9c9nati f ! editor ( ! hymn-book ( ! ,y4,m4,c4,a41 say+ he _h "s ( my hymns 9 x1 & _h /opp$ ! press 9 ord] to h two m1 :i* he want$ '"r away4' ,i 0 exactly 9 ! mood2 x 0 our little ,bessie's anniv]s>y1 %e _h be5 9 heav5 eighte5 ye>s2 ?9k :at %e has already ga9$ by my "o ye> ( suff]+6 & ,i want$ to sp5d x = o!rs1 n = myself4--,lett] to h] ,husb&1 ,may #bj4 #aj ,nidwor?1 & ,8 ,?ree ,magic ,w&s1 publi%$ by ,rob]ts ,bro!rs4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,! ,,trial ,,( ,,fai?4 #ahga-ahgb4 ,i4 ,two ,ye>s ( ,suff]+4 ,its ,nature & ,causes4 ,spiritual ,conflicts4 ,ill-heal?4 ,fai? a ,gift to be won by ,pray]4 ,dea?-b$ ( ,dr4 ,sk9n]4 ,visit to ,philadelphia4 ,daily ,food4 ,h[ to read ! ,bible s z to love x m4 ,lett]s ( ,sympa?y & ,c\nsel4 ,pray] = ,hol9ess br+s ,suff]+4 ,p]ils ( human ,fri5d%ip4 ,if 9 ! life ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss ! ye> #ahgj 0 m>k$ ) a :ite /one z "o ( great happ9ess1 ! two foll[+ ye>s 7 m>k$ by unusual & v acute suff]+4 ,p]haps some?+ ( ?is 01 soon] or lat]1 to h be5 look$ = 9 ! exp]i5ce ( "o ^: organization1 bo? physical & m5tal1 0 s int5sely s5sitive4 ,tragical elem5ts are lat5t 9 e human life1 especially 9 ! life ( woman4 ,& ! f9] qualities ( h] nature1 h] va/ capacity ( lov+ & ( self-sacrifice1 h] peculi> c>es & trials1 z well z outw>d ev5ts1 are always t5d+ to br+ ^! elem5ts into action4 ,:at sc5es surpass+ fable1 sc5es bo? bright & sad1 belong to ! secret hi/ory ( _m a quiet woman's he>t6 ,!n our mod]n civilization1 :ile plac+ woman high] 9 "s respects ?an %e ev] /ood be=e1 at ! same "t makes h] pay a heavy price = h] advantages4 ,9 ! v process ( enl>g+ h] sph]e & opportunities1 :e!r intellectual or practical1 & ( educat+ h] = _! duties1 does x n also expose h] to moral %ocks & tr\bles & lac]ations ( feel+ almo/ peculi> to our times8 ,nor is religion :olly exempt f ! _s t rules ! age or ! h\r4 ,!re is a close1 ?\gh (t5 v subtle1 connexion betwe5 ! two2 j z !re is betwe5 ! work+ ( nature & grace 9 ! individual s\l4 ,! phase ( h] hi/ory ^u :i* ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 n[ ent]+ c n be fully und]/ood )\t consid]+ x 9 ?is light4 ,! melan*oly t 0 deep-root$ 9 h] temp]am5t1 & h] t5d]1 all-absorb+ sympa?ies1 made h] v quick to feel :atev] ( pa9 or sorr[ p]vad$ ! social atmosph]e ab\t h]4 ,! ?\ght ( :at o!rs 7 suff]+ w\ld intrude ev5 ^u h] rural retreat among ! m\nta9s1 & r5d] h] jeal\s ( h] own re/ & joy4 ,& !n1 9 all h] lat] ye>s1 ! my/]y ( exi/5ce weigh$ ^u h] he>t m & m heavily4 ,9 a nature s deep & s f9ely /rung1 great happ9ess & great sorr[ are divid$ by a v ?9 p>tition4 ,b spiritual trials & conflict gave its ke5e/ edge to ! suff]+ ( ^! ye>s4 ,su* trials & conflict inde$ 7 n want+ 9 ! e>lie/ /ages ( h] religi\s life1 nor _h !y be5 want+ all along its c\rse2 b !y came n[ ) a p[] & 9 a mann] almo/ :olly new2 &1 :ile n ess5tially diff]5t f ^? :i* h afflict$ ,god's *ildr5 9 all ages1 !y are yet traceable1 9 no small degree1 to special causes & circum/ances 9 h] own case4 ,e>ly 9 #ahgj %e _h fall5 9 ) a book entitl$ ,god's ,furnace1 & a few mon?s lat] _h made ! acqua9tance ( its au?or--a rem>kable woman1 ( great /r5g? ( "*1 ( deep religi\s exp]i5ce1 & full ( zeal = ,god4 ,h] book 0 introduc$ to ! ,*ri/ian public by a di/+ui%$ ,presbyt]ian cl]gyman1 & 0 highly recomm5d$ by o!r em95t div9es4 ,by means ( ?is "w1 z well z by correspond5ce & an occasional visit1 %e ex]t$ = a "t a good deal ( influ5ce ov] ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,at fir/ ?is influ5ce seem$ to be /imulat+ & heal?ful1 b x 0 n s 9 ! end4 ,! po9ts ( sympa?y & ! po9ts ( diff]5ce betwe5 !m w come out s pla9ly 9 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' lett]s t !y ne$ n be indicat$ "h4 ,x w\ld n be easy to imag9e two wom5 m utt]ly dissimil>1 except 9 love to ,god1 devotion to _! ,savi\r1 & delight 9 pray]4 ,^! =m$ ! tie betwe5 !m4 ,miss ----'s la/ days 7 sadly cl\d$ by m5tal tr\ble & disease4 ,a little book call$ ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?1 publi%$ ab\t ?is "t1 0 ano!r di/urb+ influ5ce 9 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' religi\s life4 ,?is "w & o!rs ( a simil> "* pres5t$ a some:at novel !ory ( sanctification--a !ory zeal\sly taught1 & :i* excit$ consid]able att5tion 9 c]ta9 circles ( ! ,*ri/ian community4 ,x 01 9 brief1 ?is3 ,z we are ju/ifi$ by fai? )\t ! de$s ( ! law1 ev5 s are we sanctifi$ by fai?2 9 o!r words1 z we obta9 =giv5ess & acceptance ) ,god by a simple act ( tru/ 9 ,*ri/1 s by simple tru/ 9 ,*ri/ we may atta9 p]sonal hol9ess2 x is z easy = div9e grace to save u at once f ! p[]1 z f ! guilt1 ( s94 ,= m ?an ?irty ye>s ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss _h made ! ,*ri/ian life a matt] ( e>ne/ ?\ght & /udy4 ,! subject ( p]sonal hol9ess 9 p>ticul> _h occupi$ h] att5tion4 ,:atev] promis$ to %$ new light ^u x %e eag]ly read4 ,h] own convictions1 h[ev]1 7 positive & decid$2 &1 al?\gh at fir/ incl9$ to accept ! doctr9e ( ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?1 fur!r reflection satisfi$ h] t1 z taught by its special advocates1 x 0 contr>y to ,scripture & exp]i5ce1 & 0 fraught ) mis*ief4 ,c]ta9 unhappy t5d5cies & results ( ! doctr9e1 bo? at home & abroad1 z %[n 9 "s ( its tea*]s & disciples1 also =c$ h] to ?is conclusion4 ,folly ( "s sort is inde$ "o ( ! fatal rocks ^u :i* all ov]/ra9$ !ories ( sanctification are almo/ c]ta9 to be wreck$2 & 9 excitable1 crude natures1 ! evil is apt to take ! =m ei!r ( m5tal extravagance1 p]haps d]angem5t1 or ( silly1 if n /ill worse1 conduct4 ,b1 :ile deeply impress$ ) ! mis*ief ( ^! ,p]fectioni/ !ories1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss felt ! he>tie/ sympa?y ) all e>ne/ seek]s aft] hol9ess1 & 0 griev$ by :at seem$ to h] h>% or unju/ criticisms ^u !m4 ,:at 7 h] own matur$ views on ! subject w appe> 9 ! sequel4 ,x is en\gh to say "h t ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai? & o!r works1 9 advocacy ( ! same or simil> doctr9es1 meet+ h] z !y did :5 "u a sev]e m5tal /ra91 & t\*+ h] at a mo/ s5sitive po9t--= hol9ess 0 a passion ( h] :ole s\l--_h = a "t a m or less bewild]+ effect4 ,%e kept pond]+ ! que/ions !y rais$1 until ! native hue ( h] piety--hi!rto s resolute & *e]ful--became sickli$ o'er ) ! pale ca/ ( ?\ght4 ,! inw>d conflict :i* has be5 ref]r$ to %e describ$ sometimes1 9 ! language ( ! old div9es1 z ! want ( ,god's s5sible pres5ce1 or ( consci\s ne>ness to & communion ) ,*ri/2 sometimes1 z a /ate ( spiritual deprivation or aridity2 & !n aga91 z a "w ( ! ,evil ,"o4 ,%e laid mu* /ress ^u ?is la/ po9t4 ,h] belief 9 ! exi/5ce ( ,satan & 8 influ5ce ov] human s\ls 0 z vivid z t ( ,lu!r2 %e did n hesitate to accuse him ( be+ ! fom5t] &1 9 a s5se1 ! au?or ( h] di/ress2 ! w>n+s ( ! ,bible aga9/ 8 wiles %e accept$ z 9 full =ce /ill2 & %e c\ld (f] ) all h] he>t1 & ) no d\bt z to ! lit]al mean+ ( its clos+ words1 ! petition ( ! old ,litany3 ,t x may please ,!e to /r5g!n su* z d /&1 & to com=t & help ! weak-he>t$1 & to raise up ^? :o fall1 & f9ally to beat d[n ,satan "u our feet4 ,! com+ tr\ble seems to h ca/ its %ad[ across h] pa? ev5 be=e ! close ( #ahgj4 ,e>ly 9 #ahga x 0 ^u h] 9 p[]4 ,h] lett]s conta9 v int]e/+ & pa!tic allusions to ?is exp]i5ce4 ,b !y d n expla9 x4 ,nor is x easy to expla94 ,9 ! abs5ce ( c]ta9 incit+ causes f )\t1 x w\ld nev]1 p]haps1 h assum$ a s]i\s =m4 ,b ^! %>p spiritual trials are g5]ally complicat$ ) ext]nal causes1 or occasions2 ill-heal?1 morbid con/itutional t5d5cies1 loss ( sleep1 we>+ c>es & responsibilities1 sudd5 calamities1 worldly loss or disappo9tm5t1 & ! l4 ,x is 9 ! mid/ ( su* conditions t pi\s s\ls are mo/ apt to be assail$ by gloom & despond5cy4 ,& yet di/ress+ inw>d /ruggles & depression arise sometimes 9 ! mid/ ( outw>d prosp]ity & ev5 ( unusual religi\s enjoym5t4 ,9 tru?1 among all ! ph5om5a ( ! ,*ri/ian life none are m obscure or h>d] to seize ?an ^? connect$ ) spiritual conflict & temptation4 ,!y belong l>gely to t t]ra incognita1 ! d>k back-gr\nd ( human consci\sness1 :]e are ! primal =ces ( ! s\l & ! mu/]+-place ( good & evil4 ,a c]ta9 my/]y en%r\ds all pr(\nd religi\s emotion2 :e!r ( ! peace ( ,god t passe? all und]/&+1 or ( ! angui% t comes ( spiritual des]tion4 ,^? :o are 9 ! mid/ ( ! battle1 or be> its sc>s1 w in/antly recognise an exp]i5ce l _! own2 to all o!rs x mu/ ne$s rema9 inexplicable4 ,ev5 9 ! natural life our deepe/ joys & sorr[s are mo/ly in>ticulate2 ! great poets come ne>e/ to giv+ !m utt]ance2 b h[ mu* ! reality always surpasses ! descriptions ( ! poet's p51 ev5 ?\gh x be ! p5 ( a ,%akespe>e1 or a ,goe!6 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss nev] aft]w>d ref]r$ to ?is fi]y trial )\t /rong emotion4 ,x t]rifi$ h] to ?9k ( anyone %e lov$ z expos$ to x2 &--n to speak ( o!r classes--%e seem$ to reg>d ^? z specially expos$ to x1 :o _h j pass$1 or 7 pass+1 ?r\gh an unusually ri* & happy religi\s exp]i5ce4 ,"o ( h] la/ lett]s1 address$ to a de> ,*ri/ian fri5d1 relat$ to ?is v po9t4 ,"h are a few s5t5ces f x3 ,i want to give y ,,emphatic w>n+ t y 7 nev] 9 su* dang] 9 y\r life4 ,?is is ! language ( bitt]1 bitt] exp]i5ce & is n m9e alone4 ,leighton says ! great ,pirate lets ! empty %ips g by & robs ! full ones4 #a 444 ,i d hope y w g on y\r way rejoic+1 unto ! p]fect day4 ,hold on to ,*ri/ ) y\r tee? #b if y\r h&s get crippl$2 ,he1 alone1 is /rong] ?an ,satan2 ,he1 alone1 kn[s all sore temptations mean4 ,?is1 c]ta9ly1 is /rong language & w s\nd v /range & extravagant 9 _m e>s2 & yet is x really /rong] language ?an t (t5 us$ by inspir$ prophets & apo/les8 or ?an t ( ,augu/9e1 ,b]n>d1 ,lu!r1 ,hook]1 ,f5elon1 ,bunyan1 & ( _m sa9tly wom51 ^: names adorn ! annals ( piety8 ,/rong z x is1 x w f9d an e*o 9 he>ts t h be5 assail$ by ! fi]y d>ts ( ! adv]s>y1 & h le>n$ to cry unto ,god out ( ! dep?s ( m5tal angui% & gloom2 :ile o!rs /ill 9 ! mid/ ( ! conflict1 w1 p]haps1 be help$ & com=t$ to read ( ! mann] 9 :i* ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss pass$ ?r\gh x4 ,no?+ 9 ! /ory ( h] religi\s life is m /rik+ & beautiful4 ,h] fai? nev] fail$2 %e glorifi$ ,god 9 ! mid/ ( x all2 %e ?ank$ h] ,"l & ,ma/] = tak+ h] 9 h&1 & begg$ ,him n to sp>e h] = h] cry+1 if s be %e might ?us le>n to love ,him m & gr[ m l ,him6 ,&1 :at is especially notewor?y1 h] own suff]+1 in/ead ( p>alys+1 z sev]e suff]+ sometimes does1 active sympa?y ) ! sorr[s & trials ( o!rs1 _h j ! contr>y effect4 ,h[ soon1 %e wrote to a fri5d1 our de> ,"l presses our exp]i5ces into ,8 own s]vice6 ,h[ _m lessons ,he tea*es u 9 ord] to make u 'sons' 7or daught]s7 '( consolation6' ,to ano!r fri5d %e wrote3 ,i did n p]ceive any selfi%ness 9 y dur+ our int]view1 & y ne$ n be afraid t ,i am s tak5 up ) my own affairs z to feel no sympa?y ) y 9 y\rs4 ,:at are we made =1 if n to be> ea* o!r's burd5s8 ,& ?is ought to be ! effect ( trial ^u u2 to make u1 9 ! v mid/ ( x1 unusually int]e/$ 9 ! int]e/s ( o!rs4 ,?is is ! s(t5+1 sanctify+ t5d5cy ( tribulation1 & he :o lacks x ne$s h>d] bl[s4 ,at no p]iod ( h] life 0 %e m helpful to afflict$ & tempt$ s\ls4 ,9 visits to sick-rooms & dy+ b$s1 & 9 lett]s to fri5ds 9 tr\ble1 h] he>t l ! noble tree t is w\nd$ itself :5 x gives ! balm1 p\r$ itself =? 9 ! mo/ t5d]1 soo?+ m9i/rations4 ,x seem$ at times fairly sur*>g$ ) love4 ,mean:ile %e kept h] pa9 to h]self2 only a few intimate fri5ds1 ^: pray]s %e solicit$1 knew :at a /ruggle 0 go+ on 9 h] s\l2 to all o!rs %e appe>$ v mu* z 9 h] happie/ days4 ,x is a little curi\s1 %e wrote to a "y fri5d1 t suff]+ z ,i really am1 nobody sees x4 ',always bright6' p say to me to my amazem5t4444 ,i c add no?+ b love1 ( :i* ,i am s full t ,i keep giv+ (f 9 ?und] & lightn+4 ,! prec$+ acc\nt w\ld be incomplete )\t add+ t ! /ate ( h] heal? dur+ ?is p]iod1 comb9$ ) a sev]e pressure ( v>i$ & p]plex+ c>es1 s]v$ to deep5 ! di/ress caus$ by h] spiritual trials4 ,:atev] view may be tak5 ( ! orig9 & nature ( su* trials1 x is c]ta9 t physical depression & ! m5tal /ra9 t comes ( anxi\s1 c>e-worn ?\ghts1 if n _! s\rce1 yet t5d always greatly to int5sify !m4 ,9 ! pres5t case ! trials w\ld1 p]haps1 n h exi/$ )\t ! c>es & ! ill-heal?2 :ile ! latt]1 ev5 9 ! entire abs5ce ( ! =m]1 w\ld h occasion$ sev]e suff]+4 ,to ,mrs4 ,fr$]ick ,field1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #h1 #ahga4 ',if ,i ne$ make any apology = writ+ y s (t51 x mu/ be ?is--,i c n help x4 ,hav+ dwelt long 9 an obscure1 (t5times d>k valley1 & !n pass$ out into a bright plane ( life1 ,i am full ( t5d] ye>n+s ov] o!r s\ls1 & w\ld gladly sp5d my :ole "t & /r5g? = !m4 ,i long1 especially1 to see y\r feet e/abli%$ on an immovable ,rock4 ,x seems to me t ,god is prep>+ y = great usefulness by ! fi]y trial ( y\r fai?4 ,!y le>n 9 suff]+ :at !y tea* 9 song4 ,oh h[ true ?is is6 ,:o is s fitt$ to s+ praises to ,*ri/ z he :o has le>n$ ,him 9 h\rs ( b]eavem5t1 disappo9tm5t & despair8 ,:at y want is to let y\r intellect g ov]bo>d1 if ne$ be1 & to take :at ,god gives j z a little *ild takes x1 )\t money & )\t price4 ,fai? is ,81 unbelief ours4 ,no process ( reason+ c soo! a "m's empty1 a*+ he>t1 or br+ ,*ri/ into x to fill up all t great wa/e room4 ,b fai? c4 ,& fai? is ,8 gift2 a gift to be won by pray]--pray] p]si/5t1 pati5t1 det]m9$2 pray] t w take no d5ial2 pray] t if x goes away "o day unsatisfi$1 keeps on say+1 ,well1 !re's to-morr[ & to-morr[ & to-morr[2 ,god may wait to be graci\s1 & ,i c wait to receive1 b receive ,i mu/ & w4 ,?is is :at ! ,bible means :5 x says1 ! k+dom ( heav5 suff]e? viol5ce & ! viol5t take x by =ce4 ,x does n say ! eag]1 ! impati5t take x by =ce1 b ! viol5t--!y :o decl>e1 ,i w n let ,!e g except ,?\ bless me4 ,?is is all he>t1 n head "w4 ,d ,i "k :at ,i am talk+ ab\t8 ,yes1 ,i d4 ,b my intellect is ( no use to me :5 my he>t is break+4 ,i mu/ get d[n on my knees & own t ,i am less ?an no?+1 seek ,god1 n joy2 cons5t to suff]1 n cry = relief4 ,& h[ transc5d5tly good ,he is :5 ,he br+s me d[n to t l[ place & !re %[s me t t self-r5\nc+1 self-despair+ spot is j ! "o :]e ,he w /oop to meet me6 ,my de> fri5d1 don't let ?is great trag$y ( sorr[ fail to d ev]y?+ = y4 ,x is a dreadful ?+ to lose *ildr52 b a lo/ sorr[ is ! mo/ fe>ful exp]i5ce life c br+1 ,i feel ?is s /rongly t ,i c\ld g on writ+ all day4 ,x has be5 said t ! int5t ( sorr[ is to toss u on to ,god's promises4 ,alas1 ^! waves too (t5 toss u away out to sea1 :]e nei!r sun or />s appe> = _m days4 ,i pray1 e>ne/ly1 t x may n be s ) y4 ,among ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' mo/ belov$ & honor$ fri5ds 9 ,new ,york 0 ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,?omas ,h4 ,sk9n]1 ! fir/ pa/or ( ! ,m]c] /reet *ur*1 & !n1 = ne>ly a qu>t] ( a c5tury1 ,pr(essor 9 ! ,union ,!ological ,sem9>y4 ,8 atta*m5t to h]1 z also t ( 8 family1 0 v /rong4 ,dr4 ,sk9n] _h be5 among ! lead]s ( ! s-call$ ,new ,s*ool bran* ( ! ,presbyt]ian ,*ur*4 ,he 0 a prea*] ( great spiritual p[]1 an able1 l>ge-he>t$ !ologian1 & a man ( mo/ attractive p]sonal & social qualities4 ,he 0 artless z a little *ild1 full ( en?usiasm = ! be/ ?+s1 & a patt]n ( sa9tly goodness4 ,x us$ to be said t e /one & raft] 9 ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant _h felt ! t\* ( 8 pray]s4 ,?is v5]able s]vant ( ,god ent]$ into 8 re/ on ! #a/ ( ,febru>y1 #ahga1 9 ! #hj? ye> ( 8 age4 ,9 a lett] to h] c\s91 ,rev4 ,george ,s4 ,payson1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss ?us ref]s to 8 la/ h\rs3 ,y w he> at de> ,dr4 ,sk9n]'s fun]al to-morr[ 8 dy+ te/imony1 & ,i want y to "k t x 0 :isp]$ 9 my enraptur$ e>1 t ,i 0 privileg$ to sp5d ! :ole ( ,tuesday & all he liv$ ( ,w$nesday1 at 8 side1 & t m9e 7 ! h&s t clos$ 8 eyes & compos$ 8 features 9 dea?4 ,:at blissful mom5ts 7 m9e1 z ,i saw 8 sa9t$ s\l fly home2 h[ ne> heav5 seem$ & /ill seems6 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,s4 ,gilman1 ,new ,york1 ,feb4 #g1 #ahga4 ,i am glad to he> t y h su* an int]e/+ class1 & yet m glad t y see h[ mu* ,*ri/ian culture !y ne$4 ,i am a/oni%$ e day by confessions made to me by "y p z to _! w(ul /ate be=e ,god1 & d hope t all ?is is to prep>e me to write some?+ = !m4 ,i began a s]ies ( articles 9 ! ,association ,mon?ly1 call$ ,twilight ,talks1 :i* may p]haps prove to be 9 a degree :at y want1 b /ill !re is mu* l& untrav]s$4 ,mean:ile ,i want to enc\rage y 9 y\r "w1 by lett+ y feel my deep sympa?y ) y 9 x1 & to assure y t no?+ w be s bless$ to y\r s*ol>s z p]sonal hol9ess 9 y\rself4 ,we mu/ practise :at we prea*1 & give ourselves :olly to ,*ri/ if we want to p]suade o!rs to d x4 ,i am say+ feebly :at ,i feel v deeply & con/antly4 ,y w rejoice ) me t ,i _h ! r>e privilege ( be+ ) de> ,dr4 ,sk9n] dur+ 8 la/ h\rs4 ,if y h a copy ( ,watts & ,select hymns1 read ! #ajf? hymn ( ! #b;d book1 beg9n+ at ! #b;d v]se1 ,"l1 :5 ,i quit ?is e>?ly /age1 & fancy1 if y c1 ! awe & ! delight ) :i* ,i he>d him repeat ^? n9e v]ses1 z expressive ( 8 dy+ love to ,*ri/4 ,i feel t ,god is always too good to me1 b to h ,him make me witness ( t inspir+ sc5e1 humbles me greatly4 ,9 h[ _m ways ,he seeks u1 n[ smil+1 n[ c>ess+1 n[ reprov+1 n[ ?w>t+1 & always do+ ! v be/ ?+ = u t inf9ite love & goodness c6 ,let u love ,him bett] & bett] e day1 & c\nt no "w = ,him too small & unnotic$ to be wr\ght ?ankfully :5ev] ,he gives ! opportunity4 ,i hope ,i am le>n+ to honor ! day ( small ?+s4 ,to ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #ad1 #ahga4 ,s y h at la/ brok5 ! ice & made out1 aft] almo/ a ye>1 to write t promis$ lett]6 ,well1 x 0 wor? wait+ =1 & welcome :5 x came1 & awak5$ 9 me an en?usiasm ab\t see+ ! de> creature1 ( :i* ,i h>dly ?\ght my old he>t 0 capable 7t /atem5t is an affectation2 my he>t isn't old1 & nev] w be74 ,our plan n[ is1 if all prosp]s1 to g to ,philadelphia on ,friday aft]noon1 sp5d ! night ) y1 ,saturday ) ,mrs4 ,kirkbride1 & ,sunday & "p ( ,monday ) y4 ,i hope y mean to let u h a quiet little "t ) y1 unbekn[n to /rang]s1 :om ,i dread & %r9k f4444 ,m>* #bh?4--,:at a que] way we wom5k9d h ( confid+ 9 ea* o!r ) p]fectly reckless disreg>d ( consequ5ces6 ,x is a m]cy t m5 are1 = ! mo/ "p1 m prud5t1 ?\gh n half s delightful6444 ,well1 ,i'm ev] s glad ,i've se5 y 9 y\r home1 only ,i f\nd y m frail 79 ! way ( heal?7 ?an ,i f\nd y fair4 ,we he> t y\r husb& prea*$ spl5didly1 z ( c\rse we knew he w\ld1 & ! next ex*ange ,i %all be !re to he> z well z to see4 ,com+ out ( ! c>s ye/]day1 ,i pick$ up a ,daily ,food1 dropp$1 ,i suppose1 by its own]1 ,s>ah ----1 ( ,philadelphia1 giv5 h] by ,miss ,h4 9 #ahec4 ,x has travell$ all ov] ,europe1 & is !re=e no d\bt preci\s to h] :o ?us made x h] fri5d4 ,n[ h[ %all ,i get x to h]8 ,c y le>n h] address1 or %all ,i write to h] at a v5ture1 )\t "o8 ,i "k h[ ,i felt--:5 ,i once lo/ m9e2 x 0 giv5 me 9 #ahce1 & has gone ) me ev] s9ce :5ev] ,i h j\rney$ 7z ,i 0 s happy z to f9d x aga974 #c ,i ?9k if ,i h ! pleasure ( re/or+ x to its own]1 %e w feel glad t x did n fall into pr(ane h&s4 ,i ?\ght x "r to look ?r\gh x1 9 ord] to get "s clue1 if possible1 to its de/9ation2 ,i fancy x 0 ! sil5t com=t] ( a wife :o w5t abroad ) h] husb& = 8 heal?1 & came home a wid[2 ,god bless h]1 :oev] %e is1 = %e evid5tly believes 9 & loves ,him4 ,:at sort ( a _w c x be to ^? :o don't8 #d ,rememb] me affectionately to y\rself & y\r de> ones1 & n[ we've got a-go+1 let's g ahead4 ,april #a/4--,:at a pity x is t "o c't h a sep>ate language ) :i* to address ea* belov$ "o6 ,x seems s mean to use ! same words to two or ?ree or f\r p "o loves s diff]5tly6 ,n[ ab\t my visit to y4 ,"o reason :y ,i did n /ay long] 0 y\r look+ worn out4 ,:5 ,i am feel+ s dragg$1 visitors are a great we> & te> to me4 ,b ,i am afraid my selfi%ness w\ld h got ! upp]h& ( me if t 7 ! :ole /ory4 ,i c't put into words ! p]fect horror ,i h ( be+ made into a somebody2 x fairly hurts me1 & if ,i _h /ay$ a week ) y & ! ho/ ( p y _h ab\t y1 ,i %\ld h %rivel$ up into ! size ( a pea4 ,i c't d5y hav+ /reaks ( conceit1 b ,i "k en\gh ab\t myself to make my rational mom5ts bid me keep 9 ! backgr\nd1 & x excruciates me to be set up on a p9nacle4 ,s don't blame me if ,i fl$ 9 t]ror1 & t ,i am look+ =w>d to y\r visit1 :5 ,i hope to h delightful p[-w[s ) y all by ourselves4 ,i am glad t little book c be return$1 & ,i w mail x to y4 ,i c\ldn't s5d x )\t a lov+ ^w2 x seem$ to fall s provid5tially into my h&s & knock s at ! door ( my he>t4 ,9 :at /range ways p get introduc$ to ea* o!r1 & h[ subtle are ! influ5ces t excite a bond ( sympa?y6444 ,:at d y d ) girls :o fall madly & desp]ately 9 love ) y8 ,d y laugh at !m1 or scold !m1 or love !m1 or :at8 ,i us$ to d j su* crazy ?+s1 & am n sure ,i nev] d !m n[4 ,did y ev] live 9 a que]] _w ?an ?is is8 ,to ,miss ,e4,s4 ,gilman1 ,new ,york1 ,april #bi1 #ahga4 ,! subject ( y\r lett] is "o t greatly int]e/s me1 & ,i %\ld be glad to get m light ^u x myself4 ,z f> z ,i "k1 ^? :o live ap>t f ! _w1 commun+ ) ,god & work+ = ,him *iefly 9 pray]1 h lea/ temptation to w&]+ & di/ract$ ?\ghts1 & are m dev\t & spiritual ?an ^? ( u :o live m 9 ! _w4 ,b x /&s to reason t we c't all live s4 ,! outside "w mu/ g on1 & somebody mu/ d x4 ,b ( c\rse we h ! h>de/ "t1 s9ce :ile 9 ! _w we mu/ n be ( x4 ,i h come1 ( late1 to ?9k t bo? classes are ne$$1 ! contemplative & ! active1 & ,god does c]ta9ly take ! latt] aside n[ & !n z y sugge/1 by sickness & 9 o!r ways1 to set !m ?9k+4 ,hol9ess is n a m]e ab/raction2 x is pray+ & lov+ & be+ consecrate1 b x is also ! do+ k9d de$s1 speak+ fri5dly words1 be+ 9 a cr[d :5 we ?ir/ to be alone1 & s on & s on4 ,! /udy ( ,*ri/'s life on e>? reveals ,him to u z incessantly busy1 yet tak+ special seasons = pray]4 ,x seems to me t we %\ld imitate ,him 9 ?is respect1 & :5 we f9d ourselves p>ticul>ly press$ by outw>d c>es & duties1 break %ort (f & )draw f !m till a spiritual tone returns4 ,= we c d no?+ well unless we d x consci\sly = ,*ri/1 & ?is consci\sness sometimes gets jo/l$ out ( u :5 we und]take to d too mu*4 ,! m p]fectly ,he is =m$ 9 u ! m light we %all get on e pa? ( duty1 ! less likely to g a/ray f ! happy m$ium ( n all contemplation1 n all activity4 ,& to h ,him ?us to dwell 9 u we are l$ to pray by ,8 own la/ pray] = u on e>?1 :5 ,he ask$ = ! ,i 9 !m4 ,let u pray = ea* o!r t ?is may be our bless$ lot4 ,no?+ w fit u = life b ?is4 ,9 ourselves we d no?+ b err & s94 ,9 ,him we are complete4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,h] ,husb& call$ to ,*icago4 ,l9es on go+ to ,dorset4 ,lett]s to "y ,fri5ds1 on ! ,*ri/ian ,life4 ,n>r[ ,escape f ,dea?4 ,feel+ on return+ to ,t[n4 ,h] ,pray+ ,circle4 ,! ,*icago ,fire4 ,! true ,art ( ,liv+4 ,god our only safe ,tea*]4 ,an easily-besett+ ,s94 ,c\nsels to "y ,fri5ds4 ,lett]s4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' lett]s relat+ to h] husb&'s call to ,*icago require p]haps an explanatory ^w4 ,%e _h "s v pleasant associations ) ,*icago4 ,x 0 ! home ( a bro!r & si/]-9-law1 to :om %e 0 deeply atta*$1 & ( o!r de> relatives4 ,!re ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d _h fir/ appe>$1 & _m unkn[n fri5ds--grateful = ! good x _h done !m--7 eag] to =m h] acqua9tance & bid h] welcome to ! great city ( ! ,int]ior4 ,& yet ! ?\ght ( remov+ !re fill$ h] ) ! utmo/ di/ress4 ,_h h] husb&'s call be5 to "s di/ant po/ 9 ! field ( ,=eign ,missions1 h] language on ! subject c\ld h>dly h be5 /rong]4 ,b ?is language 9 reality expresses simply ! dep? ( h] devotion to h] *ur* & h] fri5ds 9 ,new ,york1 h] morbid %yness & %r9k+ f ! pres5ce ( /rang]s1 &1 especially1 h] vivid s5se ( physical inability to make ! *ange )\t risk+ ! loss ( :at heal? & p[] ( sleep /ill rema9$ to h]4 ,misgiv+ on ?is la/ po9t caus$ h] husb& to hesitate long be=e accept+ ! call1 & to feel 9 aft] ye>s t 8 decision to accept x1 al?\gh consci5ti\sly made1 _h be5 a grave mi/ake4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,june #c1 #ahga4 ,i knew t y w\ld r he> f me ?an ?r\gh ! pap]s1 ! fact t ,mr4 ,pr5tiss has be5 once m unanim\sly elect$ by ! ,g5]al ,assembly to ! ,*icago ,pr(essor%ip4 ,he has come home greatly p]plex$ z to 8 duty1 & prep>$ to d x1 at any reasonable co/1 if he c only f9d out :at x is4 ,we built our ,dorset h\se n z a m]e luxury1 b ) ! hope t ! easy summ] !re w\ld s build up our heal? z to increase & prolong our usefulness2 b go+ to ,*icago w\ld deprive u ( t1 besides cutt+ u (f f all our fri5ds4 ,b we want to "k no w b ,god's 9 ?is "q1 & ,i am sure y & ,miss ,k4 w jo9 u 9 ! pray] t we may n s mu* z sugge/ to ,him :at pa? ,he w lead u into4 ,! exp]i5ce ( ! pa/ w9t] w\ld impress ^u me ! fact t place & position h next to no?+ to d ) happ9ess2 t we c be wret*$ 9 a palace1 radiant 9 a dungeon4 ,mr4 ,p4 said ye/]day t x broke 8 he>t to he> me talk ( giv+ up ,dorset2 b p]haps ?is he>tbreak+ is exactly :at we ne$ to rem9d u ( :at = _m ye>s we nev] _h a *ance to =get1 t we are pilgrims & /rang]s on ! e>?4 ,two l9es ( my own keep runn+ 9 my head3 ,oh fooli% he>t1 oh fai?less he>t1 oh he>t on ru9 b5t1 ,build n ) too mu* c>e ?y ne/1 ?\ art 9 bani%m5t4 ,i h se5 ! "t :5 ! s5se ( be+ a pilgrim & a /rang] 0 v sweet2 & ,god c sweet5 :atev] ,he does to u4 ,s ?\gh p]plex$ we are n 9 despair1 & if we feel t we are ?is summ] liv+ 9 a t5t t may soon bl[ d[n1 x is j :at y are do+1 & 9 ?is po9t we %all h fell[%ip4 ,i am sure x is good = u to h ,god take up ! rod1 ev5 if ,he lays x d[n aga9 )\t inflict+ a bl[4 ,i "k we are go+ to pray till light comes4 ,i feel v diff]5tly ab\t x f :at ,i did la/ summ]4 ,! m5tal conflicts ( ! pa/ w9t] h creat$ a good deal ( indiff]5ce to ev]y?+4 ,)\t consci\s union & ne>ness to my ,savi\r ,i c't be happy any:]e2 = ye>s ,he has be5 ! mean+ ( ev]y?+1 & :5 ,he only seems gone 7,i "k x is only seem+7 ,i don't mu* c>e :]e ,i am4 ,i am j try+ to be pati5t till ,he makes ,satan let g ( me4 ,excuse ?is selfi% lett]1 & write me "o j z bad6 ,on ! #g? ( ,june %e w5t to ,dorset ) h] husb& & ! y\ng] *ildr54 ,! foll[+ l9es1 f\nd among h] pap]s1 w %[ 9 :at temp] ( m9d %e w5t4 ,x is wor? not+ t !y 7 writt5 on ,monday1 & express a week-day1 n m]ely a pass+ ,sabba? feel+3 ,once m at home1 once m at home-- ,= :at1 de> ,"l1 ,i pray8 ,to seek enjoym5t1 please myself1 ,make life a summ]'s day8 ,i %r9k1 ,i %udd] at ! ?\ght2 ,= :at is home to me1 ,:5 s9 & self en*a9 my he>t1 ,& keep x f> f ,!e8 ,!re is b "o abid+ joy1 ,nor place t joy c give2 ,x is ,?y pres5ce t makes home1 ,t makes x life to live4 ,t pres5ce ,i invoke2 naught else ,i v5ture to entreat2 ,i long to see ,!e1 he> ,?y voice1 ,to sit at ,?y de> feet4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,dorset1 ,june #ab1 #ahga4 ,i tru/ x is an om5 ( good t ! fir/ lett]s ,i h receiv$ s9ce com+ "h ?is summ]1 h be5 full ( ! !mes ,i love be/4 ,i 0 mu* /ruck ) ! s5t5ce y quote1 ,!y c n g back1 etc41 #e & believe x is true ( y4 ,be+ absorb$ 9 div9e ?+s w n make y selfi%2 y w be a/oni%$ to f9d h[ lov+ y w gradually gr[ t[>d ev]ybody1 h[ int]e/$ 9 _! int]e/s1 h[ happy 9 _! happ9ess4 ,& if y want "w = ,*ri/ 7& ! m y love ,him ! m y w long = x71 t "w w come to y 9 all sorts ( ways4 ,i d n believe mu* 9 duty-"w2 ,i ?9k t "w t tells is ! spontane\s expression ( ! love )94 ,p]haps y h n be5 sick en\gh y\rself to be skilful 9 a sick-room2 p]haps y\r "t = t sort ( "w hasn't come4 ,i meant to get y a little book call$ ,! ,life ( ,fai?2 9 fact1 ,i w5t d[n t[n on purpose to get x1 & pass$ ! ,episcopal ,sunday-s*ool ,union inadv]t5tly4 ,i ?9k t little book tea*es h[ e?+ we d may be done = ,*ri/1 & ,i "k by :at little exp]i5ce ,i h _h ( x1 t x is a bless$1 ?rice bless$ way to live4 ,a great deal is meant by ! cup ( cold wat]1 & few ( u wom5 h great de$s to p]=m1 & we mu/ unite ourselves to ,him by little ones4 ,! life ( con/ant self-discipl9e ,god requires is a happy "o2 y & ,i1 & o!rs l u1 f9d a wild1 absorb+ joy 9 lov+ & be+ lov$2 b sweet1 abid+ peace is ! fruit ( /eady *eck on affections t mu/ be tam$ & kept "u4 ,is ?is consi/5t ) :at ,i h j said ab\t gr[+ m lov+ z we gr[ m ,*ri/like8 ,yes1 x is2 = t love is absolutely unselfi%1 x gives mu* & asks no?+1 & !re is no?+ re/less ab\t x4444 ,i h be5 v h>d at "w ev] s9ce ,i came "h1 ) my d>l+ ,m4 z my con/ant1 joy\s comrade4 ,we h be5 busy ) our fl[]-b$s1 s[+ & transplant+1 & half ! *9a closet has tumbl$ out ( doors to s]ve z protection f ! sun4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss says we d ! "w ( ?ree days 9 "o1 :i* is true1 = we c]ta9ly h p]=m$ great feats4 ,! night we got "h we f\nd ! h\se light$ up1 & ! d9+-table cov]$ ) good ?+s4 ,p seem glad to see u back4 ,i don't "k :i* ( my ,dorset titles w\ld /rike y z mo/ appropriate2 "o man calls me a bran*1 ano!r a *ild ( nature1 & ano!r ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' woman1 ) ! consol+ reflection t ,i %a'n't ru/ out4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,dorset1 ,augu/ #f1 #ahga4 ,i don't "k :5 ,i h writt5 s few lett]s z ,i h ?is summ]4 ,my "r h& has =got its cunn+ "u ! p>alysis1 "u :i* my he>t has suff]$1 & :i* is n[ beg9n+ to affect my heal? q unfavorably4 ,x seems z if body & s\l1 jo9ts & m>r[1 7 rudely sep>at+4 ,poor ,george is half-di/ract$ ) ! weight ( ! que/ions conc]n+ ,*icago1 & ,i ?9k almo/ any?+ w\ld be bett] ?an ?is crucify+ susp5se4 ,b ,i try n to make a fuss4 ,mrs4 ,d---- c tell y t ,i h said to h] _m times1 dur+ ! la/ few ye>s1 t1 accord+ to ! ord9>y run ( life1 ?+s w\ld n long rema9 ) u z !y 72 !y 7 too good to la/4 ,i h read & re-read ,spiritual ,dislodgm5ts1 & rememb] x well4 ,i c]ta9ly wi% = su* dislodgm5ts 9 me & m9e1 if we ne$ !m4 ,george has got hold ( a book ( ,a4's1 :i* delights him1 ,lett]s ( ,william ,von ,humboldt4 #f ,i suppose y recomm5d$ x to h]4 ,y mu/ make y\r plans to come "h ?is summ]2 ,i don't seem fully to h a ?+ till y've se5 x4 ,to ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 ,dorset1 ,aug4 #h1 #ahga4 ,x took y a good :ile to answ] my la/ lett]1 & ,i h be5 equally lazy ab\t writ+ s9ce y\rs /ray$ ?is way4 ,lett]-writ+ has always be5 a res\rce & a pa/ime to me2 a refuge 9 head-a*y & ra9y days1 & a t9y way to give pleasure or d good1 :5 o!r pa?s 7 h$g$ up4 ,b ?is summ] ,i h left almo/ ev]ybody 9 ! lur*1 p>tly f be+ m or less unwell & out ( spirits1 p>tly because ! ,*icago "q1 rema9+ unsettl$1 has be5 su* a damp] t ,i hadn't mu* he>t to speak ei!r ( x or ( any?+ else4 ,we are p]plex$ beyond measure :at to d2 ! ?\ght ( los+ my m9i/] & hav+ him turn into a pr(essor1 agonizes me2 on ! o!r h&1 :o kn[s b he ne$s ! re/ t *ange ( labor & ! five mon?s' vacation w\ld give him8 ,8 *ief worry is ! effect ! att5d+ fun]als all ! "t has already _h on my heal?4 ,"o day ,i "p ) & bury 79 imag9ation67 n[ ?is fri5d1 n[ t1 & ?is m\rnful "w does n %>p5 "o's appetite or invigorate "o's frame4 ,i don't "k h[ we've /ood ! conflict2 & x seems r selfi% to allude to my "p ( x2 b wom5 live m 9 _! fri5d%ips ?an m5 d1 & ! ?\ght ( te>+ up all our roots is m pa9ful to me ?an to my husb&1 & he w n lose :at ,i mu/ lose 9 addition1 & z ,i h said be=e1 my m9i/]1 :i* is ! h>de/ "p ( x4 ,i want y to "k :at /raits we are 91 9 ! hope t y & y\rs w be /irr$ up to pray t we may make no mi/ake1 b g or /ay z ! ,"l w\ld h u4 ,we h f\nd our little home a nice refuge = u 9 ! /orm2 ,mr4 ,p4 says he %\ld h gone di/ract$ 9 a bo>d+-h\se4 ,i d n envy y ! ,conway cr[d4 ,b ,i fancy x is a good region = collect+ mosses & l treasures4 ,i ?9k ! prettie/ ?+ 9 our h\se is a flatti% bracket1 fa/5$ to ! wall & fill$ ) fl[]s2 x looks l a graceful1 me&]+ lett] ,s & is "o ( ! idols ,i b[ d[n to4444 ,i h ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?2 ! fir/ "t ,i read x at ,mr4 ,r----'s reque/1 ,i said ,i believ$ e ^w ( x1 b ?is summ]1 read+ x 9 a diff]5t mood1 x puzzles me4 ,! idea is plausible2 if ,god tells u to be holy1 z ,he c]ta9ly does1 is x n = ,him to provide ! way = our be+ s1 & is x likely ,he ne$s our :ole lives be=e ,he c accompli% ,8 own design8 ,i talk$ ) ,mr4 ,pr5tiss ab\t x1 & at fir/ he reject$ ! ?\ght ( hol9ess ?r\gh fai?1 b la/ night we got ^u ! subject aga9 & he 0 int]e/$ 9 "s s5t5ces ,i read to him & said he mu/ exam9e ! book4 ,:5 are y com+ to sp5d t week 9 ,dorset8 ,love to ea* & all4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,kau9fels1 ,sept4 #i1 #ahga4 ,i h _h _m lett]s to write to-day1 = to-day our fate is seal$1 & we are to g4 ,b ,i mu/ say a few words to y be=e go+ to b$1 = ,i want to tell y h[ v glad ,i am t y h be5 enabl$ to take a /ep #g :i* w1 ,i am sure1 lead ! way to o!r /eps1 increase y\r hol9ess1 y\r usefulness1 & y\r happ9ess4 ,may ,god bless y 9 ?is attempt to honor ,him1 & op5 out be=e y new fields :]e9 to glorify & please ,him4 ,?is has n be5 a sorr[ful day to me4 ,i hope ,i am (f]+ to a pati5t ,god a pati5t he>t4 ,i d n want to make ! wor/ ( ! sacrifice ,he requires1 or to fancy ,i am only to be happy on my own conditions4 ,he has be5 mo/ ( ! "t = ye>s ! spr+ ( all my joys1 ! life ( my delights4 ,:]e ,he is1 ,i want to be2 :]e ,he bids me g1 ,i want to g1 & to g 9 c\rage & fai?4 ,any?+ is bett] ?an too /rong cleav+ to ?is _w4 ,z ,i 0 situat$ 9 ,new ,york1 ,i lack$ n a s+le e>?ly bless+4 ,i _h a delightful home1 fre$om f c>e1 & a circle ( fri5ds :om ,i lov$ ) all my he>t1 & :o lov$ me 9 a way to satisfy ev5 my rapacity4 ,only "o ?+ 0 want+ to my p]fect felicity--a he>t absolutely holy2 & 0 ,i likely to get t :5 my e>?ly cup 0 s full8 ,at any rate ,i am cont5t4 ,n[ & !n1 z ! reality ( ?is com+ sep>ation ov]:elms me1 ,i feel a spasm ( pa9 at my he>t 7,i don't suppose we are expect$ to cease to be human be+s or to lose our s5sibilities71 b if my ,"l & ,ma/] w g ) me1 & keeps on mak+ me m & m l ,himself1 ,i c be happy any:]e & "u any conditions1 or be made cont5t n to be happy4 ,all ?is is ( little consequ5ce 9 itself1 b p]haps x may make me m ( a bless+ to o!rs1 :i*1 next to p]sonal hol9ess1 is ! only ?+ to be s\ght v e>ne/ly4 ,z to my relation to y1 ,he :o br\ght y "u my w+ = a season has some?+ bett] = y 9 /ore4 ,t's ,8 way4 ,& :]ev] ,i am1 if x is ,8 w & ,8 ,_s dictates ! pray]1 ,i %all pray = y1 & t is ! be/ s]vice "o s\l c r5d] ano!r4 ,ab\t ?is "t %e & h] husb& _h an almo/ miracul\s escape f in/ant dea?4 ,!y _h be5 call+ ^u fri5ds 9 ,ea/ ,dorset & 7 return+ home4 ,n f> f t village is a v dang]\s railroad cross+2 &1 z ! sight or s\nd ( c>s s affright$ ,coco z to r5d] him uncontrollable1 special pa9s _h be5 tak5 n to arrive at ! spot :ile a tra9 0 due4 ,b j z !y rea*$ x1 an irregul> tra91 ^: approa* 0 mask$ beh9d high bu%es1 came ru%+ along unann\nc$1 & _h !y be5 only a few seconds lat]1 w\ld h cru%$ !m to atoms4 ,s sev]e 0 ! %ock & s vivid ! s5se ( a ,provid5tial escape1 t sc>cely a ^w 0 spok5 dur+ ! drive home4 ,! next morn+ %e gave h] husb& a v int]e/+ acc\nt ( ! ?\ghts t1 l lightn+1 fla%$ ^u h] m9d :ile feel+ h]self 9 ! jaws ( dea?4 ,!y relat$ exclusively to h] *ildr5--h[ !y w\ld receive ! news1 & :at w\ld become ( !m4 #h ,late 9 ,septemb] %e return$ to t[n1 /ill oppress$ by ! ?\ght ( go+ to ,*icago4 ,9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,condict1 dat$ ,octob] #b;d1 %e writes3 ,we got home on ,friday night1 & v e>ly on ,saturday 7 settl$ d[n into ! old r\t9e4 ,b h[ diff]5t ev]y?+ is6 ,at *ur* te>ful1 cl\d$ faces2 at home1 w>mhe>t$ fri5ds look+ ^u u z = ! la/ "t4 ,x is all "r4 ,i w\ld n v5ture to *ange x if ,i c\ld2 b x is h>d4 ,at times x seems z if my he>t w\ld lit]ally break to pieces1 b we are m]cifully kept f realis+ our sorr[s all ! "t4 ,! waves da% 9 & almo/ ov]:elm1 b !n !y sweep back & are /ay$ by an almighty1 k9d h&4444 ,x is l te>+ (f a limb to leave our de> pray]-meet+4 ,next to my closet1 x has be5 to me ! sweete/ spot on e>?4 ,i nev] expect to f9d su* ano!r4 ,to ano!r fri5d %e writes a day or two lat]3 ,my he>t fairly collapses at times1 at ! ?\ght ( te>+ myself away f ^? :om ,*ri/ian ties h made de>] to me ?an my k9dr$ aft] ! fle%4 ,& !n comes ! preci\s privilege & relief ( tell+ my yet de>] & bett] ,fri5d all ab\t x1 & ! sweet peace begott5 ( yield+ my w to ,84 ,i want to be ( all ! use & com=t to y & to ! o!r de> ones ,he w let me be dur+ ^! few mon?s4 ,d pray = me t ,i may s live ,*ri/ z to be> o!rs along ) me on a resi/less tide4 ,^? l9es y copi$ = me are a great com=t3 ,r walk+ ) ,him by fai?1 ,?an walk+ alone 9 ! light4 ,( ! little pray+ circle1 allud$ to 9 h] lett] to ,mrs4 ,c41 "o ( its memb]s writes3 ,x 0 unique ev5 among meet+s ( its own class4 ,held 9 an upp] *amb]1 nev] l>gely att5d$ & sometimes only by ! two or ?ree1 x 0 almo/ unkn[n except to ! few1 :o reg>d$ x z among _! *iefe/ religi\s privileges4 ,all ! o!r memb]s w\ld gladly h _h ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss assume its entire lead]%ip2 b %e assum$ no?+ & 0 no d\bt q unconsci\s z to h[ l>ge an ext5t %e 0 ! life & s\l ( ! meet+4 ,9 ! famili> conv]sation ( ! h\r no?+ fell f h] lips b su* simple words z1 com+ f a gl[+ he>t1 /r5g!n$ & deep5$ ! spiritual life ( all :o he>d !m4 ,%e _h1 9 a degree ,i nev] knew equall$1 ! gift ( lead+ ! devotions ( o!rs4 ,b !re 0 n ! slighte/ approa* to p]=mance 9 h] pray]s2 %e abhorr$ ! v ?\ght ( x4 ,^? :o knelt ) h] c nev] =get ! pure devotion :i* brea!d itself =? 9 simple exquisite language2 b x 0 some?+ beyond ! p[] ( description4 ,ano!r memb] ( ! circle writes3 ,h] pray]s 7 s simple1 s e>ne/1 s *ildlike4 ,we all felt we 7 9 ! v pres5ce ( our lov+ ,fa!r4 ,"o ?+ especially always impress$ me dur+ t sacr$ h\r--x 0 h] quietness ( mann]4 ,%e 0 v cordial & affectionate 9 h] greet+s ) ea* "o1 z we assembl$1 & !n a holy awe1 a solemn hu%1 came ov] h] _s & %e seem$ l "o :o saw ! ,"l6 ,o h[ we all miss h]6 ,!re is nev] a meet+ b we keep h] 9 remembrance & talk toge!r lov+ly ab\t h]4 ,to a ,fri5d1 ,oct4 #ba1 #ahga4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss s5t 9 8 resignation la/ ev5+1 & ! *ur* refus$ unanim\sly to let him g4 ,praise ,god f :om all bless+s fl[ p5etrat$ ! walls ( ! p>sonage1 z !y sang x :5 ! decision 0 made1 & s we knew our fate be=e a :ole p>lorful ru%$ 9 to %ake h&s1 kiss1 & congratulate4 ,y w\ld h be5 delight$ _h y be5 "h4 ,pr(4 ,smi?1 :o took /rong gr\nd 9 favor ( 8 go+1 takes j z /rong gr\nd 9 favor ( 8 /ay+4 ,i feel t all ?is is ! result ( pray]4 ,i nev] got any light on ! ,*icago "q :5 ,i pray$ ab\t x2 nev] c\ld see t x 0 our duty to g2 b ,i yield$ my judgm5t & my w1 because my husb& ?\ght t he mu/ g4 ,i ?9k our v reluctance to x made u %r9k f evad+ x2 we 7 s afraid ( oppos+ ,god's w4 ,n[ ! matt] is tak5 out ( our h&s & we h only to resume our "w "h4 ,god grant t ?is baptism ( fire may purge & purify u & prep>e u to be a great bless+ to ! *ur*4 ,x is a mo/ awe-inspir+ provid5ce1 ,god's burn+ u out ( ,*icago1 & we feel l putt+ our %oes f (f our feet & ador+ ,him 9 sil5ce4444 ,pray t ! lessons we h be5 le>n+ ?r\gh s _m try+ mon?s may help u to be help+ h&s to ^? :o may pass ?r\gh simil> /raits4 ,"o ( my bro!rs 0 burnt out1 & 8 own & 8 wife's lett]s drew te>s ev5 d[n to ! kit*54 ,= two days & a night !y lo/ _! baby1 five mon?s old1 9 addition to all ! o!r horrors4 ,b !y f\nd refuge ) a de> c\s91 :o has fill$ 8 h\se to ov]fl[+4 ,i may h spok5 ( ?is c\s9 to y3 he has a f\ndl+ home on ,mll]'s tru/ sy/em4 ,be=e tak+ leave ( ! call to ,*icago a ^w %\ld be add$ to :at %e says conc]n+ x 9 h] lett]s4 ,! prospect ( h] husb&'s accept+ ! call r5d]$ ! summ] a v try+ "o2 b x 0 f> f be+ all gloom4 ,%e _h a m>vell\s p[] ( extract+ amusem5t out ( ! mo/ unt[>d situation4 ,9 #ahdc %e wrote f ,ri*mond1 ref]r+ to ,mr4 ,p]sico's tr\bles3 ,i nev] sp5t su* melan*oly weeks 9 my life2 9 ! mid/ ( x1 h[ev]1 ,i made fun = ! re/1 z ,i believe ,i %\ld d 9 a dungeon4 ,x 0 s 9 ! pres5t case4 ,%e reliev$ ! we>9ess ( _m an anxi\s h\r by mak+ fun = ! re/4 ,z an illu/ration1 "o ev5+ at ,dorset1 :ile sitt+ at ! p>lor-table ) h] *ildr5 & a "y fri5d :o 0 visit+ h]1 %e seiz$ a p5cil & wrote = _! ent]ta9m5t a ludicr\s v]sion ( ! ,*icago affair 9 two p>ts4 ,! pap] :i* 0 pres]v$ by h] "y fri5d1 illu/rates also ano!r trait :i* %e ?us describes at ! close ( a frolicsome lett] to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]3 ,x is "o ( ! peculi> peculi>ities ( ?is woman t %e usually c>ries on1 :5 %e wants to hide h] feel9s4 ,"p ,i4 beg9s ?us3 ,:]e are ! ,pr5tisses8 ,gone to ,*icago1 ,gone bag & baggage1 ! :ole crew & c>go4 ,well1 !y w\ld g1 n[ let's talk 'em ov]1 ,& see :at comp5sation we c discov]4 ,!y are all talk$ ov] & !n 9 ,"p ,,ii4 ! sc5e *anges to ,*icago itself3 ,s+ a song ( sixp5ce1 a pocket full ( rye1 ,"h's ! tribe ( ,pr5tisses j ago+ by2 ,dr4 ,pr5tiss he1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss %e1 ,& a lot ( "y ones t all beg9 ) ,p4 ,well1 let u view !m ) our eyes1 ,& !n beg9 to criticise4 ,& fir/ ! doctor1 :at ( him8 ,! doctor hav+ be5 fully discuss$1 ! criticism proce$s3 ,n[ = 8 wife2 well1 :o w\ld guess ,%e _h set up z au?oress6 ,:y1 %e looks j l all ( u1 ,in/ead ( be+ 9 a muss ,l o!r lit]>y folks4 ,!y say %e likes h] little jokes1 ,z well z ^? :o've less to say ,( /epp+ on ! heav5w>d way4 ,mrs4 ,p4 hav+ be5 dispos$ (3 ,next comes ,miss ,p42 h[ %e w make ,! he>ts ( all ! /ud5ts quake6 ,%e'll w9d !m r\nd h] f+]s' ends1 ,& f9d 9 !m "o hundr$ fri5ds4 ,!y'll sit on b5*es 9 a r[ ,& wat* h] come1 & wat* h] g2 ,b !y'll be safe1 ! preci\s rogues1 ,s9ce %e don't c>e = !ologues4 ,! o!r *ildr5 next pass 9 review & ! :ole closes ) ! rem>k3 ,"t1 & ,"t only1 w make cle> ,:y ! poor geese came cackl+ "h4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,new ,york1 ,nov41 #ahga4 ,my he>t is z "y & fre% z any girl's1 & ,i am almo/ z prone to make idols out ( ^? ,i love1 z ,i ev] 02 & ?is is inconsi/5t ) ! devotion ow$ to ,god4 ,i d n mean t ,i really love anybody bett] ?an ,i d ,him1 b t human fri5d%ips tempt me4 ,?is easily-besett+ s9 ( m9e has co/ me m angui% ?an tongue c tell1 & ,i deeply feel ! ne$ ( m love to ,*ri/ because ( my e>?ly t5d5cies4 ,i "k ,i w\ld sacrifice e fri5d to ,*ri/1 b ,i am n always dis5tangl$4 ,h[ /range ?is is1 h[ pass+ /range6444 ,9 a religi\s way ,i f9d myself mu* bett] (f "h ?an at ,dorset4 ,b !re is yet some?+ app>5tly f> (f1 unatta9$ & dim t ,i once ?\ght ,i _h caught by ! w+1 & enjoy$ = a season1 b :i* has fl[n away4 ,i am afraid ,i am "o :o has got to be a religi\s en?usia/1 or else dissatisfi$ & re/less4 ,:5 ,i give way to an impulse to ! fir/1 ,i c>e = no?+ worldly1 & am at peace4 ,b ,i am unfitt$ = daily life1 = secul> talk & read+4 ,is x s ) y8 ,does x run 9 our blood8 ,i d long & pray = m light2 & ,i w pray = m love1 co/ :at x may4 ,sometimes ,i long to get to heav51 :]e ,i %all n h to be curb+ my he>t ) bit & bridle1 & c be z lov+ z ,i want to be--z ,i am4 ,to a "y ,fri5d abroad--,new ,york1 ,dec4 #h1 #ahga4 ,!re nev] w come a "t 9 my life :5 ,i %all n ne$ all my ,*ri/ian fri5ds c d = me 9 ! way ( pray]4 ,i am glad y are mak+ su* special ef=t to oppose ! iceb]gs ( =eign life2 ,god w meet & bless y 9 x4 ,let u1 if ne$ be1 =sake all o!rs to cleave only unto ,him4 ,i don't "k ( any real mis]y except coldness betwe5 myself & ,him4 ,i feel w>m & t5d] sympa?y ) y 9 all y\r /ruggles1 temptations1 joys1 hopes & fe>s4 ,z y gr[ old] y w settle m2 y\r tr\bles1 y\r ups & d[ns1 belong *iefly to y\r y\?4 ,yes1 y are "r 9 say+ t ,mr4 ,p---- c\ld g ?r\gh m5tal conflicts 9 sil5ce2 he does n p9e = sympa?y z y & ,i d4 ,y & ,i are l ,david1 ?\gh ,i =get1 at ! mom5t1 :at he said happ5$ to him :5 he kept sil5ce4 7,on ! :ole1 ,i don't ?9k he said any?+67 ,i ?9k ! prop] attitude to take :5 re/less & lonesome & homesick = want ( ,god's s5sible pres5ce1 is j :at we take :5 we are miss+ e>?ly fri5ds = :om we ye>n1 & ^: lett]s1 ?\gh bett] ?an no?+1 d n half fe$ our hungry he>ts1 or fill our long+ arms4 ,& t attitude is pati5t wait+4 ,we are su* _m-sid$ creatures t ,i d n d\bt y are gett+ pleasure & pr(it out ( ?is ,european trip1 al?\gh x is alloy$ by s mu* m5tal suff]+4 ,b su* is life4 ,x has 9 x no?+ p]fect1 no?+ ideal4 ,& ?is conviction1 deep5$ e n[ & !n by "s new exp]i5ce1 tosses me anew1 aga9 & aga91 back on to t ,rock ( ,ages t ev] /&s sure & /eadfa/1 & on :om our feet may re/4 ,x is well to h ! waves & bill[s ( temptation beat ^u u2 if only to magnify ?is ,rock & tea* u :at a refuge ,he is4 ,i w5t1 la/ night1 ) ,mr4 ,pr5tiss & mo/ ( ! *ildr51 to he> ! fre$m5 & wom5 9 a conc]t at ,/e9way ,hall4 ,x 0 pack$ ) a brilliant1 delight$ audi5ce1 & x 0 mo/ int]e/+ to see ^! "y p1 simple1 dignifi$1 e>ne/1 full ( love to ,*ri/1 & prep>+1 by education1 to "w = ,him4 ,!y sang ,keep me f s9k+ d[n mo/ sweetly & t\*+ly4 ,i see y h ! blues z ,i us$ to d1 at y\r age1 & hope y w outgr[ !m z ,i h done4 ,i suff] )\t be+ depress$ 9 ! s5se 9 :i* ,i us$ to be2 x is h>d to make ! di/9ction1 b ,i am sure !re is "o4 ,i d n "k h[ f> ?is *ange has come to me z a happy wife & "m1 or h[ f> x is religi\s4 ,aunt ,jane's ,h]o 0 publi%$ 9 #ahga4 ,x is h>dly inf]ior to ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d 9 its pictures ( life & "*1 or 9 ! wisdom ( its tea*+4 ,! object ( ! book is to depict a home ^: happ9ess fl[s f ! liv+ ,rock1 ,*ri/ ,jesus4 ,x prote/s also aga9/ ! extravagance & o!r evils ( ! times1 :i* t5d to *eck ! gr[? ( su* homes1 & aims to %[ t !re are /ill treasures ( love & peace on e>?1 t may be b\ght )\t money & )\t price4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,hol9ess & ,usefulness g h&-9-h&4 ,no two ,s\ls dealt ) exactly alike4 ,visits to a /rick5 ,home4 ,ano!r ,side ( h] ,life4 ,visit to a ,hospital4 ,*ri/ian ,fri5d%ip4 ,lett]s to a b]eav$ ,"m4 ,submission n inconsi/5t ) ,suff]+4 ,?\ghts at ! ,fun]al ( a little ,wee ,davie4 ,assurance ( ,fai?4 ,fun]al ( ,pr(4 ,hopk9s4 ,8 ,"*4 ,%e ent]$ ! new ye> ) we>y /eps1 b ) a he>t full ( t5d]ness & sympa?y4 ,a circle ( "y fri5ds1 liv+ 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! c\ntry1 look$ eag]ly to h] at ?is "t = c\nsel1 & %e 0 deeply int]e/$ 9 _! spiritual progress4 ,%e wrote to "o ( !m1 ,janu>y #f1 #ahgb3 ,y\r lett] has fill$ my he>t ) joy4 ,:at a ,fri5d & ,savi\r we h1 & h[ ,he comes to meet u on ! sea1 if we attempt to walk !re 9 fai?6 ,i tru/ y\r pa? n[ w be ! ev] bright5+ "o t %all %9e m & m unto ! p]fect day4 ,hol9ess & usefulness g h& 9 h&1 & y w h new "w to d = ! ,"l2 pray+ "w especially4 ,pray = me1 = "o ?+2 ,i ne$ a great deal ( grace & /r5g? j n[4 ,& pray = all ! s\ls t are /ruggl+ t[>d ! light4 ,o t ev]ybody liv$ only = ,*ri/6 ,a few weeks lat]1 writ+ to ! same fri5d1 %e ?us ref]s to ! fi]y trials ?r\gh :i* %e 0 pass+3 ,?is season ( temptation came "r on ! heels1 if ,i may use su* an expression1 ( great spiritual illum9ation4 ,( all ! ye>s ( my life1 #ahfi-gj 0 ! brighte/1 & x seems z if ,satan c\ld n endure ! sight ( s mu* love & joy1 & s took me 9 h&4 ,i h n lik$ to say mu* ab\t ?is to "y p1 le/ x %\ld disc\rage !m2 b ,i hope y w n all[ x to affect y 9 t way1 = y mu/ rememb] t no two s\ls are dealt ) exactly alike1 & t ! fact t _m are look+ up to me may h made x necess>y = our de> ,"l to let ,satan h>ass & tr\ble me z he has done4 ,no1 let u n be disc\rag$1 ei!r y or ,i1 b rejoice t we are call$ ( our ,god & ,savi\r to give ,him all we h & all we are4444 ,if we sp5t m "t 9 ?ank+ ,god = :at ,he has done = u1 ,he w\ld d m4 ,malignant sc>let fev] & o!r diseases1 _h invad$ & isolat$ ! h\sehold m5tion$ 9 ! foll[+ lett]4 ,_! gratitude to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 mo/ t\*+2 x 0 z if %e _h be5 to !m an angel f heav54 ,! /ory ( h] visits & lov+ sympa?y became a "p ( _! family hi/ory4 ,to ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #bf1 #ahgb4 ,i came home half froz5 f my e>ly walk ?is morn+1 to get w>m n only at ! fire1 b at y\r lett]1 :i* ,i f\nd await+ me4 ,i am glad if y got any?+ out ( y\r visit "h4 ,i r ?9k y & ,i %all rattle on toge!r aft] we get to heav54444 ,y say1 ,h[ skilfully ,god does fa%ion our crosses = u6 ,yes1 ,he does4 ,& = my "p1 ,i don't want to re/ & be happy )\t crosses--= ,i c't d )\t !m4 ,p :o set !mselves up to be pa/ors & tea*]s mu/ le>n 9 suff]+ :at !y tea* 9 s]mon & book4 ,i felt a good deal reprov$ = mak+ s mu* ( m9e1 h[ev]1 by my fur!r visits to ! h\se ( m\rn+ ( :i* we spoke to y4 ,! little boy di$ e>ly on ! next day1 & be=e 8 fun]al 8 poor "m1 neglect$ by ev]ybody else1 f\nd x "s com=t to get into my arms & cry !re4 ,x made no diff]5ce t tw5ty ye>s _h pass$ s9ce ,i _h _h a sorr[ ak9 to h]s2 we mo!rs may cease to grieve1 outw>dly1 b we nev] =get :at has gone out ( our sight1 or ev] gr[ unsympa!tic because "t has soo!d & quiet$ u4 ,b ,i ne$ n say ?is to y4 ,?is 0 on ,saturday2 all day ,monday ,i 0 !re wat*+ a mo/ lovely little girl1 ab\t six ye>s old1 wri?+ 9 agony2 %e di$ e>ly next morn+4 ,! next elde/ has be5 9 a critical /ate1 b w probably recov] a c]ta9 degree ( heal?1 b z a helpless cripple4 ,well1 ,i felt t dea? alone 0 inexorable--o!r enemies we may hope & pray & fight aga9/--& t :ile my *ildr5 liv$1 ,i ne$ n despair4 ,! tax on my sympa?ies 9 ! case ( ^? half-di/ract$ p>5ts has be5 t]rible1 & yet ,i w\ldn't accept a cold he>t if ,i _h ! (f] ( x4 ,to give y ano!r side ( my life1 let me tell y ( a pleasant d9n] p>ty "o night la/ week1 :5 we met ,gov4 & ,mrs4 ,c----1 ( ,massa*usetts1 & ,i fell 9 love ) h] !n & !re4444 ,well1 ?is is a que] _w1 full ( que] ?+s & que] p4 ,w ! next "o be m commonplace8 ,i "k n4 ,good-bye4 ,^w has come f t afflict$ h\sehold t ! gr&fa!r has di$ sudd5ly ( he>t disease4 ,8 wife di$ a few weeks ago4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss saw him on ,saturday 9 vigor\s heal?4 ,to ,miss ,rebecca ,f4 ,morse1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #e1ahgb4 ,c y tell me :]e ! blott+-pads c be obta9$8 ,i h got into a hospital ( sp9es2 9 o!r words1 ( p :o c only write ly+ on _! backs1 "o ( !m an au?oress1 & ,i ?9k x w\ld be a m]cy to !m if ,i c\ld furni% !m ) ! means ( writ+ ) m ease ?an !y d n[4 ,i 0 sorry y c\ld n come la/ ,friday1 & hope y w be able to jo9 u ,saturday1 :5 ! club meets "h4444 ,h[ y w\ld h enjoy$ ye/]day aft]noon ) me6 ,i w5t to call on a lady f ,v]mont1 :o is "h = sp9al treatm5t1 & f\nd 9 h] room ano!r ( ! pati5ts4 ,two su* bright creatures ,i nev] met at once1 & we got a-go+ at su* a rate t ?\gh ,i _h nev] se5 ei!r ( !m be=e1 ,i /ay$ ne>ly ?ree h\rs6 ,i mean to h ano!r dose ( !m be=e long1 & give !m ano!r dose ( ,e4 ,p4 ,i h be5 read+ a book call$ ,! ,pres5ce ( ,*ri/ #i--:i* ,i lik$ s well t ,i got a copy to l5d4 ,x is n a great book1 b ,i ?9k x w be a useful "o4 ,x says we are all idolat]s1 & rem9ds me ( my besett+ s9s 9 t direction4 ,i feel ov]:elm$ :5 ,i ?9k h[ _m "y p are look+ to me = light & help1 kn[+ h[ mu* ,i ne$ bo? myself4444 ,e n[ & !n "s ,provid5tial ev5t occurs t wakes u up1 & we f9d t we h be5 asleep & dream+1 & t :at we h be5 do+ t made u fancy ourselves awake1 0 me*anical4 ,i mu/ be (f n[ to my sew+ society1 :i* is a great f>ce1 s9ce ,i c e>n ?irty or =ty times z mu* ) my p5 z ,i c ) my ne$le1 & if !y w\ld let me /ay at home & write1 ,i w\ld give !m ! results ( my morn+'s "w4 ,b ! m9ute ,i /op go+ ev]ybody else /ops4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,april #g1 #ahgb4 ,h[ ,i %\ld love to sp5d ?is ev5+ ) y6 ,?is has be5 our ,communion ,sunday1 & ,i am sure ! s]vice w\ld h be5 v soo?+ to y\r poor1 sore he>t4 ,& yet :y d ,i say poor :5 ,i "k x is ri*8 ,oh1 y might h ! same sorr[ )\t fai? & pati5ce ) :i* to be> x1 & ?9k h[ dreadful t w\ld be6 ,y\r little lamb has be5 sp5d+ 8 fir/ ,sunday ) ! ,good ,%eph]d & o!r lambs ( ! flock1 & has be5 z happy z ! day is long4 ,p]haps y\r two *ildr5 & m9e are claim+ k9%ip toge!r4 ,if !y met 9 a =eign l& !y w\ld surely claim x = our sakes2 :y n 9 ! l& t is n =eign1 & n f> (f8 ,b /ill ^! are n ! ?\ghts to br+ y special com=t4 ,?y w be done6 does ! :ole4 ,& yet my he>t a*es = y4 ,"s "o1 :o _h nev] _h a real sorr[1 told ,mrs4 ,n4 t if %e submitt$ to ,god's w z %e ought1 %e w\ld cease to suff]4 ,:at a fallacy ?is is6 ,mrs4 ,n4 0 com=t$ by he>+ t y\r little "o 0 tak5 away by ! consequ5ces ( ! fev]1 z h] ,nettie 01 = %e _h reproa*$ h]self ) hav+ neglect$ h] to see to ,johnny1 :o di$ fir/1 & ?\ght ?is neglect _h all[$ h] to take cold4 ,i feel v sorry :5 mo!rs torture !mselves 9 ?is ne$less way1 z if ,god c\ld n av]t ill consequ5ces1 if ,he *ose4 ,i h %$ m ?an "o te> to-day4 ,i he>d la/ night t my de>ly-lov$ bro!r1 ,pr(4 ,hopk9s1 is on 8 dy+-b$4 ,i nev] ?\ght ( 8 dy+1 he comes ( su* a long-liv$ race4 ,i expect to g to see him1 & if ,i f9d ,i c be ( any use or com=t1 /ay a week or two4 ,8 dea? w come v ne> to me1 b he is a sa9tly man1 & ,i am glad = him t he c g4 ,h[ ?ankful we %all be :5 our turn comes6 ,! ladies at our little meet+ 7 deeply int]e/$ 9 :at ,i _h to tell !m ab\t y\r de> boy1 & pray$ = y ) mu* feel+4 ,may our de> ,"l bless y abundantly ) ,8 sweet pres5ce6 ,i "k ,he w4 ,& yet ,he has will$ x t y %\ld suff]4 ,himself ha? done x6 ,oh h[ glad ,he w be :5 ! disp5sation ( suff]+ is ov]1 & ,he c ga!r ,8 belov$ r\nd ,him1 te>less1 free f sorr[ & c>e1 & all =ev] at re/4 ,may #e?4--,ye/]day1 ! fri5d at ,ea/ ,dorset ^: ?ree *ildr5 di$ )9 a few weeks ( ea* o!r1 s5t me "s v]ses1 ( :i* ,i copy "o = y3 ,! eye ( fai? beholds ,a gold5 /air1 l t ( old1 :]eon ,fair spirits g & come2 ,god's angels com+ d[n on err&s sweet1 ,our angels go+ home4 ,i hope ?is gold5 /air1 up :i* y\r de> boy climb$ ) %\t & song1 is cov]$ ) ,god's angels com+ d[n to bless & com=t y4 ,"o ( ! mo/ t\*+ passages 9 ! ,bible1 to my m9d1 is t :i* describes angels z com+ to m9i/] to ,jesus aft] ,8 temptations 9 ! wild]ness4 ,x gives "o su* an idea ( ,8 helplessness6 ,j z ,i 0 go+ out to *ur* ?is morn+1 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss told me ( ! dea? ( a *>m+ baby-boy1 "o ( our lambs1 & ,i c\ld sc>cely help bur/+ into te>s1 ?\gh ,i _h only se5 him once4 ,y c h>dly und]/& h[ ,i feel1 z a pa/or's wife1 t[>d our p4 ,_! sorr[s come "r home4 ,i h a fri5d also hang+ 9 agoniz+ susp5se ov] a little "o :o has be5 injur$ by a fall2 %e is sweetly submissive1 b y "k :at a "m's he>t is4 ,i h yet ano!r fri5d1 :o has _h to give up h] baby4 ,%e is a "y "m1 & f> f h] family1 b says %e has p]fect peace4 ,s f all sides ,i he> sorr[ful s\nds1 b s mu* fai? & ob$i5ce m+l$ ) ! sighs1 t ,i c only wond] at :at ,god c d4 ,to ,miss ,morse1 ,may #g1 #ahgb4 ,h[ true & h[ /range x is t our deepe/ sorr[s1 spr+ f our sweete/ affections2 t z we love mu*1 we suff] mu*4 ,:at in/rum5ts ( torture our he>ts are6 ,! passage y quote is all true b p are apt to be impati5t 9 affliction1 eag] to dr9k ! bitt] cup at a draught r ?an drop by drop1 & fa9 to dig up ! se$ z soon z x is plant$1 to see if x has g]m9at$4 ,i am fond ( quot+ t passage ab\t ! peaceable fruit ( righte\sness com+ aft]w>d4 ,i h j come f ! fun]al ( a little ,wee ,davie2 all ! crosses ar\nd 8 c(f9 7 t9y ones1 & he _h a small floral h>p 9 8 h&4 ,i ?\ght z ,i look$ ^u 8 face1 /ill beautiful1 ?\gh worn1 t ev5 babies h to be introduc$ to ! cross1 = he _h a week ( fe>ful /ruggle be=e he 0 releas$4444 ,i enclose an extract ,i made = y f a "w on ! baptism ( ! ,holy ,_s4 ,?is 0 all ! pap] ,i _h at h& at ! mom5t4 ,! recipe = curry ,i h copi$ into my recipe-book1 & ! two l9es at ! top ( ! page ,i address$ to ,m4 ,a que] mixture ( ! spiritual & ! practical1 b no /rang] ?an life's mixtures always are4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,new ,york1 ,may #bj?1 #ahgb4 ,z to assurance ( fai?1 ,i ?9k we may all h t1 & 9 my own d>ke/ h\rs ?is fai? has n be5 di/urb$4 ,i h j come home f a brief visit to ,miss ----1 ) :om ,i _h "s int]e/+ discussions4 ,i use ! ^w discussions advis$ly1 = we love ea* o!r 9 con/ant disagreem5t4 ,%e believes 9 hol9ess by fai?1 :ile d5y+ t %e has h]self atta9$ x4 ,i ?9k h] life1 z f> z ,i c see x1 v true & beautiful4 ,we sp5t a :ole ev5+ talk+ ab\t temptation4 ,n long ago ,i met ) a passage1 9 ,fr5*1 to ?is effect--,i quote f memory only3 ,god has "s s\ls :om ,he c n afflict 9 any ord9>y way1 = !y love ,him s t !y are ready = any outw>d sorr[ or b]eavem5t4 ,he !re=e sc\rges !m ) inw>d trials1 va/ly m pa9ful ?an any outw>d tribulation c\ld be2 ?us crucify+ !m to self4 ,i c n b ?9k t ?is expla9s ,mrs4 ----'s exp]i5ce1 & p]haps my own2 at any rate ,i feel t we are all 9 ! h&s ( an un]r+ ,physician1 :o w br+ u1 ?r\gh v>y+ pa?s1 home to ,himself4 ,i _h a call ! o!r day f an intellig5t ,*ri/ian woman1 :om ,i _h n se5 = eighte5 ye>s4 ,%e said t "s "t ago h] att5tion 0 call$ to ! subject ( p]sonal hol9ess1 & z %e is a great read]1 %e dev\r$ ev]y?+ %e c\ld get hold (1 & f9ally became a dogmatic p]fectioni/4 ,b exp]i5ce modifi$ ^! views1 & %e fell back on ! ,bible doctr9e ( an indwell+ ,*ri/1 ) ! conviction t j 9 proportion to ?is indwell+ w be ! hol9ess ( ! s\l4 ,?is is precisely my own belief4 ,?is is ! doctr9e ,i prea*$ 9 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d & ,i h s f> se5 no?+ to *ange ^! views1 :ile ,i desire & pray to be taught any o!r tru? if ,i am wrong4 ,i believe ,god does reveal ,himself & ,8 tru? to ^? :o are will+ to "k x4 ,to ,miss ,morse1 ,new ,york1 ,may #ca1 #ahgb4 ,i got home ye/]day f ,william/[n1 :]e ,i w5t1 ) my husb&1 to att5d ! fun]al ( my de>ly belov$ bro!r1 ,pr(essor ,hopk9s4 ,he lit]ally />v$ to dea?4 ,he di$ z he _h liv$1 beautifully1 ?9k+ ( & s5d+ messages to all 8 fri5ds1 & on 8 la/ day repeat+ passages ( ,scripture & ev51 weak z he 01 jo9+ 9 hymns sung at 8 b$side4 ,! day ( ! fun]al 0 a pretty try+ "o = me1 z !re 0 n only 8 loss to m\rn1 b !re 7 traces ( my d>l+ "m & si/]1 :o bo? di$ 9 t h\se1 all ov] x2 "s ( my "m's silv]1 a :ite quilt %e made :5 a girl1 my si/]'s libr>y1 h] collection ( %ells & m9]als1 h] pa9t+s1 h] little cons]vatory1 ! portrait ( h] only *ild1 dress$ 9 8 uni=m 7he 0 kill$ 9 "o ( ! battles ( ! ,wild]ness74 ,!n1 ow+ to ! ra91 none ( u ladies 7 all[$ to g into ! cemet]y1 & ,i _h ?\ght mu* ( visit+ my si/]'s grave & see+ h] boy ly+ on "o side & h] husb& on ! o!r4 ,b our disappo9tm5ts are z c>efully plann$ = u z our sorr[s1 s ,i h n a ^w to say4 ,aft] s]vices at ! h\se1 we walk$ to ! *ur*1 :i* we ent]$ ?r\gh a d\ble file ( uncov]$ /ud5ts4 ,"o ( ! mo/ t\*+ ?+s ab\t ! s]vice 0 ! sight ( f\r /ud5ts /&+ 9 *>ge ( ! rema9s1 two at ! head & two at ! foot ( ! c(f94 ,8 poor folks came 9 cr[ds1 ) _! h&s full ( fl[]s to be ca/ into 8 grave4 ,my bro!r said he nev] saw s _m m5 %$ te>s at a fun]al1 & ,i am sure ,i nev] did2 "s sobb+ z convulsively z wom54 ,i c\ld n help ask+ myself :5 my he>t 0 swell+ s ) pa91 :e!r love paid4 ,love is sweet :5 all goes well1 b oh h[ fe>fully exact+ x is :5 sep>ation comes6 ,h[ _m ti!s x takes ( all we h & are6 ,a wor?y "y woman 9 our *ur* has be5 driv5 into hy/]ics by read+ ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?4 ,i w5t to see h] z soon z ,i got home f ,w4 ye/]day1 b %e 0 asleep "u ! influ5ce ( an opiate4 ,!re is no d\bt t too mu* self-scrut9y is p]nici\s1 especially to weak-m9d$1 ignorant "y p4 ,x 0 said ( ,pr(4 ,hopk9s t he w\ld h be5 a my/ic b = 8 love to s\ls1 & ,i am afraid ^! new doctr9es t5d too mu* to ! seek+ = peace & joy1 too little to seek+ ! salvation ( ! c>eless & worldly4 ,b ,i hesitate to criticise any class ( good p1 feel+ t ^? :o live 9 mo/ habitual communion ) ,god receive light directly & con/antly f on high2 & ( t communion we c n seek too mu*4 #aj 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,*ri/ian ,p>5ts to expect ,piety 9 _! ,*ildr54 ,p]fection4 ,p make too mu* ,p>ade ( _! ,tr\bles4 ,high] ,life ,doctr9es4 ,lett] to ,mrs4 ,wa%burn4 ,la/ ,visit to ,william/[n4 ,e>ly 9 ,june %e w5t to ,dorset4 ,! summ]1 l t ( #ahga1 0 %ad[$ by anxiety & inw>d conflict2 b h] c>e-worn ?\ghts 7 greatly soo!d by h] rural occupations1 by visits f "y fri5ds1 & by ! ev]-fre% *>ms ( nature ar\nd h]4 ,to a ,*ri/ian ,fri5d1 ,dorset1 ,june #i1 #ahgb4 ,i 0 oblig$ to give up my mu*-desir$ visit to y4 ,we w5t on to ! fun]al ( ,pr(4 ,hopk9s1 & t took ?ree days out ( ! busy "t j be=e com+ "h4 ,i p>ticul>ly want$ y to "k at ! "t t my ?ree y\ng] *ildr5 unit$ ) ! *ur* on ,sunday la/1 b _h n a mom5t 9 :i* to write y4 ,x 0 a t\*+ sight to our p4 ,mr4 ,p4 look$ d[n on 8 *ildr5 s lov+ly1 & kiss$ !m :5 ! cov5ant _h be5 read4 ,he said ---'s face 0 s full ( s\l t he c\ld n help x1 & 8 he>t ye>n$ ov] !m all4 ,someone said !re 0 n a dry eye 9 ! h\se4 ,i felt n elat$1 n ca/ d[n1 b at peace4 ,i ?9k x pla9 t ,*ri/ian p>5ts are to expect piety 9 _! *ildr51 & expect x e>ly4 ,9 m9e x is inde$ fir/ ! blade1 & !y w1 no d\bt1 h _! trials & temptations4 ,b x seems to me ,i mu/ leave !m 9 ,god's h&s & let ,him lead !m z ,he w4 ,x 0 v sweet to h ! elem5ts pass$ to me by _! "y h&s4 ,(f] "o e>ne/ pray] = !m at lea/1 t !y may prove true soldi]s & s]vants ( ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,no d\bt y\r two little sa9t$ ones look$ on & lov$ ! *ildr5 ( _! "m's fri5d4 ,! foll[+ te/imony ( "o ( ,presid5t ,g>field's classmates & intimate fri5ds may fitly be add$ "h3 ,= him !re 0 b "o ,m>k ,hopk9s 9 all ! _w2 b = ,pr(essor ,alb]t ,hopk9s also1 or ',pr(4 ,al41' z he 0 call$ 9 ^? days1 ! ,g5]al--n only :ile at college1 b all ?r\gh life-- ent]ta9$ ! highe/ reg>d1 bo? z a man & a s*ol>4 ,8 intellectual atta9m5ts 7 ?\ght by ,g54 ,g4 to be ( an unusually f9e ord]1 rivall+ ^? ( 8 bro!r1 & (t5 elicit+ ! admiration n only ( himself1 b ( all ! o!r /ud5ts4 ,9 speak+ ( 8 ,william/[n life1 ,g54 ,g>field always ref]r$ to ,pr(4 ,hopk9s 9 ! mo/ affectionate mann]2 &1 bo? f 8 own /atem5ts & my p]sonal obs]vation1 ,i "k t _! mutual college relations 7 ( ! pleasante/ nature possible4 ,on ! subject ( p]fection1 y say ,i am look+ = angelic p]fection4 ,i see no diff]5ce 9 k9d4 ,p]fection is p]fection to my m9d1 & ,i h always ?\ght x a dang]\s ?+ = a s\l to fancy x _h atta9$ x4 ,yet1 9 h] la/ lett]s to me1 ,miss ---- virtually pr(esses to h become free f s94 ,%e says self & s9 are ! same ?+1 & t %e is entirely dead to self4 ,:at is ?is b complete sanctification8 ,:at c an angel say m8 ,i feel pa9fully bewild]$ amid conflict+ te/imonies1 & sometimes long to flee away f ev]ybody4 ,miss ----'s la/ lett] sadd5$ me1 ,i w own4 ,y say1 ,i am 9 dang] ( becom+ morbid1 or /upid1 or wild1 or some?+ ,i ought n4 ,:y 9 dang]8 ,accord+ to y\r own doctr9e y are safe2 be+ entirely sanctifi$ f mom5t to mom5t4 ,at any rate ,i c say no?+ to quick5 y1 = ,i am morbid & /upid1 ?\gh j n[ n wild4 ,^? %>p temptations h ceas$1 ?\gh p]haps only = a season2 b ,i h be5 physically weak5$ by !m1 & h got to take c>e ( myself1 g to b$ e>ly1 & vegetate all ,i c--& ?is :5 ,i ought to be h>d at "w m9i/]+ to o!r s\ls4 ,! fact is1 ,i don't "k any?+ & don't d any?+1 b j get ?r\gh ! day someh[1 wond]+ :at all ?is /range1 unfamili> /ate ( ?+s w end 94 ,poor ,m---- has gone crazy on ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?1 & w probably h to g to an asylum4444 ,our little home looks & is v pleasant4 ,i take "s com=t 9 x1 & try to realise ! goodness t gives me su* a luxury4 ,b a s\l t has kn[n :at x is to live to ,*ri/ c be happy only 9 ,him4 ,may ,he be all 9 all to y1 & consci\sly s to me 9 ,8 own good "t4 ,to ,miss ,woolsey1 ,dorset1 ,june #bc1 #ahgb4 ,i wi% y c\ld come & take a look at u ?is quiet aft]noon4 ,n a s\l is to be se5 or he>d2 ! m\nta9s are cov]$ ) ! s(t haze t says ! day is w>m b n oppressive1 & "h & !re a brilliantly color$ bird flies by1 sett+ ,twe$le ,dum1 our taciturn can>y1 into tune4 ,m4 & ,i h driv5 at our out-door "w l a pair ( /eam-eng9es1 & y c imag9e h[ dignifi$ ,i am f ! fact t an old fuddy-duddy :o does occasional jobs = me1 summons me to my w9d[ by a ,hullo6 b5ea? x1 :ile ,g4 says to u1 ,:]e are y girls go+ to sit ?is aft]noon8 ,y\r si/]'s allusion to ,watts & ,select ,hymns rem9ds me ( ages long pa/1 :5 ,i us$ to s+ ! :ole book ?r\gh z ,i m>*$ night aft] night ?r\gh my room1 c>ry+ a colicky baby up & d[n = fifte5 mon?s1 till ,i became a liv+ skeleton4 ,we d contrive to live ?r\gh que] exp]i5ces4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,dorset1 ,aug4 #c1 #ahgb4 ,! l9es y k9dly copi$ = me h ! r+ ( ! true metal & ,i l !m exce$+ly4 ,p make too mu* p>ade ( _! tr\bles & too mu* fuss ab\t !m2 ! fact is we are all born to tribulation1 z we also are to innum]able joys1 & !re is no s5se 9 be+ too mu* depress$ or elat$ by ei!r4 ,! sadde/ birds a season f9d to s+4 ,few if any lives fl[ 9 unm+l$ curr5ts4 ,z to myself1 my rural ta/es are s /rong1 & ,i h s mu* to absorb & gratify me1 t ,i ne$ a mixture ( exp]i5ce4 ,two roses t bloom$ 9 my g>d5 ?is morn+1 made my he>t leap ) delight1 & :5 ,i get (f 9 ! woods ) ,m41 & we collect mosses & f]ns & sc>let b]ries1 ,i am consci\s ( great enjoym5t 9 !m4 ,at ! same "t1 if ,i ?\ght x be/ to tell ! o!r side ( ! /ory1 ,i %\ld want "s v black ink ) :i* to d x4 ,we mu/ take life z ,god gives x to u1 )\t murmur+s & disput+s1 & ) ! *ecks on our natural eag]ness t keeps u m9dful ( ,him4 ,y speak ( ! ,high] ,life p4 ,i /ill hold my judgm5t 9 susp5se 9 reg>d to _! doctr9es1 read+ pretty mu* all !y s5d me1 & ask+ daily = light f on high4 ,i h _h "s talks ?is summ] ) ,dr4 ,/e>ns on ^! subjects1 & he urges me to keep :]e ,i am1 b ,i try n to be too mu* influ5c$ = or aga9/ doctr9es ,i d n1 by exp]i5ce1 und]/&4 ,let u d ! w ( ,god 7& suff] x7 & we %all le>n ( ! doctr9e4 ,to ,mrs4 ,wa%burn1 ,kau9fels1 ,friday ,ev5+1 7,septemb]1 #ahgb74 ,i h done no?+ b te> my hair ev] s9ce y left1 to ?9k ,i let y g4 ,x w\ld h be5 s easy to s5d y to ,man*e/] to-morr[ morn+1 aft] a night "h1 & an ev5+ ov] our little wood-fire1 b we 7 s glad to see y bo?1 s bewild]$ by y\r sudd5 appe>ance1 t nei!r ( u ?\ght ( x till y 7 gone4 ,& n[ y are /ill )9 rea*1 & we want y to reconsid] y\r resolution to turn y\r backs ^u u aft] su* a long1 fatigu+ j\rney1 & eat+ no salt ) u4 ,i did n urge y\r /ay+ because ,i d s hate to be urg$ myself4 ,b ,i want y to feel :at a great pleasure x w\ld be to u if y c\ld make up y\r m9ds to /ay at lea/ ov] ,sunday1 or if to-morr[ & ,sunday are unpleasant1 j a day or two m1 to take our favorite drives ) u1 & give u :at y may nev] h a *ance to give u aga94 ,i decl>e ,i %all ?9k y are crazy1 if y don't /ay a few days1 n[ t y are "h4 ,we h be5 long+ to h y come1 & only wait+ = our place to be a little less nak$ 9 ord] to lay viol5t h&s on y2 b n[ y h se5 ! nak$ness ( ! l&1 we don't c>e1 b want y to see m ( x4 ,?is is ! 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"t1 :5 we h no?+ to d b to enjoy our visitors1 & next ye> ! h\se may be runn+ ov]4 ,& if y don't come n[1 y'll h ! plague ( hav+ to come "s o!r "t1 & x is a long1 =midable j\rney4 ,:y didn't we j take & lock y up :5 we _h hold ( y6 ,well1 n[ ,i've torn out all my hair1 & p w be say+1 ,g up1 ?\ bald-head4 ,besides--y left !m bun*-b]ries6 & d y suppose y c g home )\t !m8 ,:y1 x w\ldn't be safe4 ,y w\ld be run (f ! track1 & scald$ by /eam1 & brok5 all to pieces1 & caught on ! c[-cat*]1 & get lo/1 & be run away )1 & ev5 /ruck by lightn+1 ,i %\ldn't wond]4 ,& n[ if y g 9 to-morr['s tra9 y'll cat* ! small-pox & ! measles & ! sc>let fev] & ! yell[ fev]1 & all ! colors-9-!-ra9b[ fev]1 & g into a consumption & h ! pleurisy1 & ! jaundice & ! too?-a*e & ! heada*e1 &1 above all1 ! consci5ce-a*e4 ,& y nev] ate any ( our corn or our beans6 ,y nev] s mu* z ask$ ! receipt = our ironclads6 ,y hav5't se5 our c[4 ,y hav5't be5 d[n cell>4 ,y hav5't fi%$ 9 our brook4 ,y hav5't be5 "h at all1 n[ ,i come to ?9k ( x4 ,i dream$ y flew ?r\gh1 b x 0 no?+ b a dream4 ,& ! h\ses h a habit ( burn+ d[n1 & ours is go+ to d z ! re/ d1 & !n h['ll y feel 9 y\r m9ds8 ,& :5 folks set !mselves up aga9/ u1 & won't let u h our own way1 :y !n ,i tell my daught] ,:at makes folks d z !y'd ought] n1 ,& :y don't !y d z !y'd ought]8 ,& we all p9e away & die l ! babes 9 ! woods1 & nobody's left to cov] u up ) leaves4 ,s5d all ^! argum5ts home by telegram1 & y\r folks w %oot y if y d>e to g4 ,i c\ld write ano!r %eet if x w\ld d any good4 ,n[ d lay my words to he>t1 & come "r back4 ,to ,miss ,morse1 ,dorset1 ,oct4 #g1 #ahgb4 ,i s5t home my s]vants a mon? ago1 & !y h be5 gett+ ! p>sonage to rights1 :ile ,i h 9 _! places two de> old s\ls :o came to live ) me tw5ty ye>s ago4 ,"o /ay$ t5 ye>s & !n got m>ri$1 ! o!r ,i p>t$ ) :5 my *ildr5 di$ because ,i did n ne$ h]4 ,x has be5 a gre5 spot 9 ! summ] to h ^! affectionate1 devot$ creatures 9 ! h\se4 ,we h _h only "o slight fro/1 b ! woods h be5 gradually *ang+1 & are 9 spots v beautiful4 ,we 7y "k :at t ^w means7 h be5 (f ga!r+ bright leaves = ourselves & ! s]vants1 :o c>e = pretty ?+s j z we d4 ,yet n a fl[] has gone2 we h _h a ho/ ( v]b5as & gladioli1 "s ,japanese lilies1 & s on1 & h be5 able to give "s pleasure to ^? :o h n "t to cultivate !m = !mselves4 ,x has be5 a dreadful season = sickness "h1 & fl[]s h be5 want$ 9 _m a sick-room1 & at "s fun]als4 ,s9ce ,i wrote y la/ we h be5 to ,william/[n4 ,i want$ to get possession ( my si/]'s private pap]s4 ,ev]y?+ pass$ (f nicely2 ,i burn$ a l>ge am\nt & br\ght away a trunk full1 a "p ( :i* ,i h be5 read+ ) deep int]e/4 ,h] j\rnals date back to ! age ( fifte51 ?\gh to read ! e>ly ones y w\ld nev] dream ( h] be+ less ?an tw5ty or ?irty4 ,%e 0 a wond]ful woman1 & z ,i f\nd su* ample mat]ial = a memorial ( h] life1 ,i felt half tempt$ to c>ry out h] husb&'s wi%es & complete "o4 ,b on ! :ole ,i d n ?9k ,i %all4 ,y c imag9e h[ my s\l has be5 /irr$ by ! :ole ?+2 ! f>ewell to ! famili> objects ( my *ildhood1 ! s5se ( a new race tak+ possession ( h] cons]vatory1 h] %ells1 h] m9]als1 h] pictures1 h] ,g]man1 ,fr5*1 ,italian1 ,spani%1 ,lat91 ,hebrew & ,greek libr>y--de> me6 b ,i ne$ n enl>ge on x to y4 ,& h[ /upid x is n to =get x all alongside ( h] t5 ye>s 9 heav56 #a ,especially aft] a "t ( "s special seasons ( grace1 & "s special new supplies ( grace1 receiv$ 9 su* seasons1 7z aft] ! holy sacram5t71 !n w he set on mo/ eag]ly1 :5 he kn[s ( ! ri*e/ booty4 ,! pirates t let ! %ips pass z !y g by empty1 wat* !m well1 :5 !y return ri*ly lad52 s do? ?is great ,pirate4--,ar*bi%op ,leighton1 on ,i ,pet]1 v4 #h4 #b ,cynegvius1 a valiant ,a!nian1 be+ 9 a great sea-fight aga9/ ! ,m$es1 espy+ a %ip ( ! enemy's well mann$1 & fitt$ = s]vice1 :5 no o!r means w\ld s]ve1 he grasp$ x ) 8 h&s to ma9ta9 ! fight2 & :5 8 "r h& 0 cut (f1 he held close ) 8 left2 b bo? h&s be+ tak5 (f1 he held x fa/ ) 8 tee?4 #c ,! foll[+ l9es f\nd on "o ( its blank pages 7 writt5 p]haps at ?is "t3 ,preci\s companion6 r5d]$ de> ,by trial-h\rs ( _m a ye>1 ,i love !e ) a t5d]ness ,:i* words h nev] yet def9$4 ,:5 tir$ & sad & com=tless1 ,) a*+ he>t & we>y m9d1 ,h[ (t ?y words ( promise /eal+ ,l ,gilead's balm-drops--s(t & l[4 ,h t\*$ ! he>t ) p[] ( heal+1 ,& soo!d ! %>pe/ h\r ( woe4 #d ,a fri5d writ+ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 "u date ( ,septemb] #bd1 #ahgb1 ref]s to ,lady ,/anley's high praise ( ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told1 & !n adds3 ,y mu/ be s accu/om$ to fri5dly 'notices'--s almo/ bor$ by !m--t ,i hesitate to tell y ( meet+ ano!r admir] ( y\rs 9 ! p]son ( ,mrs4 ----1 ( ,philadelphia1 :o 0 indebt$ to y = ! return ( a little text-book4 ,%e means to call on y "s day1 if %e is ev] 9 ,new ,york1 to ?ank y 9 p]son = t act ( k9dness ( y\rs1 & = y\r ',/epp+ ,heav5w>d4' ,%e is a daught] ( ! late ,*ief ,ju/ice ( ,p5nsylvania4 ,h] "m1 a /aun* old ,scot* lady ov] #hj1 has j return$ f ,europe4 ,mrs4 ---- is a v int]e/+ woman1 ( w>m religi\s feel+s & v outspok54 ,%e 0 ! companion ( ! fam\s ,mrs4 ,h41 ( ,philadelphia1 all ?r\gh ! w>1--z "o ( ! indep5d5t work]s1 or p]haps 9 connection ) ! ,*ri/ian ,commission4 ,%e witness$ ! battle ( ,*ancellorsville--a "p ( x at ,m>y's ,heights1 & has told me a great deal t 0 ?rill+--told z %e tells x--ev5 at ?is late day4 ,%e has ! pr(\nde/ belief 9 :at is call$ ! '"w ( fai?' by pray] & ,i don't believe %e w\ld %r9k f accept+ ,pr(4 ,tyndall's *all5ge4 #e ,f ! ,p[] ( ! ,cross ( ,*ri/4 #f ,briefe an e9e ,freund91 a rem>kable little book1 full ( light & sweetness4 #g ,pray+ be=e o!rs4 #h ,s9ce ! w>n+ we _h ! o!r day t we may be snat*$ f our *ildr51 ought we n to try to =m "s plan = !m 9 case ( su* an em]g5cy8 ,i c't acc\nt = x1 t 9 ^? fe>ful mom5ts ,i ?\ght only ( !m4 ,i %\ld h said ,i ought to h _h "s ?\ght ( ! _w we seem$ to be hurry+ to4 ,i suppose !re 0 ! in/9ctive yet bl9d s5se t ! prep>ation = ! next life _h be5 made = u by ! ,"l1 & t1 z f> z t life 0 conc]n$1 we _h no?+ to d b to ent] x4 ,i %udd] :5 ,i ?9k :at a desolate home ?is might be to-day4 ,poor ?+s6 !y've got ev]y?+ be=e !m1 )\t "o exp]i5ce & discipl9e6--,f a lett] to h] husb&1 dat$ ,dorset1 ,sept4 #ag1 #ahga4 #i ,! ,pres5ce ( ,*ri/4 ,lectures on ! ,,xxiii4 ,psalm4 ,by ,an?ony ,w4 ,?orold1 ,"l ,bi%op ( ,ro*e/]4 ,a4 ,d4 ,f4 ,r&olph ,co4 #aj ,alb]t ,hopk9s 0 born 9 ,/ockbridge1 ,mass41 ,july #ad1ahjg4 ,he 0 graduat$ at ,williams ,college 9 ! class ( #ahbf1 & ?ree ye>s lat] became ,pr(essor ( ,ma!matics & ,natural ,philosophy 9 ! same in/itution4 ,a/ronomy 0 aft]w>d add$ to 8 *air4 ,9 #ahcd he w5t abroad4 ,9 ! summ] ( #ahce he organis$ & conduct$ a ,natural ,hi/ory exp$ition to ,nova ,scotia1 ! fir/ exp$ition ( ! k9d 9 ?is c\ntry4 ,two ye>s lat] he built at 8 own exp5se1 & 9 "p by ! labor ( 8 own h&s1 ! a/ronomical obs]vatory at ,william/[n4 ,9 ?is also1 x is said1 9 advance ( all o!rs erect$ exclusively = purposes ( in/ruction4 ,he 0 a devot$ & pr(\nd /ud5t1 z well z an accompli%$ tea*]1 ( natural sci5ce4 ,b he 0 /ill m di/+ui%$ = 8 piety & 8 religi\s influ5ce 9 ! college4 ,hundr$s ( /ud5ts 9 successive classes le>n$ to love & rev]e him z a holy man ( ,god--_m ( !m z _! spiritual fa!r4 ,! hi/ory ( ,am]ican colleges af=ds probably no in/ance ( a happi]1 or m rem>kable1 union ( true sci5ce ) t p]sonal hol9ess & zeal = ,god1 by :i* he>ts are won = ,*ri/4 ,full ( fai? & ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 he did ! "w ( an evangeli/ = m ?an =ty ye>s--n 9 ! college only1 b all ov] ! t[n4 ,dur+ ! la/ six ye>s ( 8 life he devot$ himself especially to ! ,:ite ,oaks--a di/rict 9 ! nor?-ea/ "p ( ,william/[n-:i* _h long be=e excit$ 8 sympa?y on acc\nt ( ! pov]ty1 vice1 & degradation :i* m>k$ ! neighborhood4 ,he id5tifi$ himself ) ! population by buy+ & c>ry+ on a small f>m among !m4 ,he also e/abli%$ a ,sunday-s*ool1 & !n he built ) ! aid ( fri5ds a ta/eful *apel1 :i* 0 d$icat$ 9 ,octob]1 #ahff4 ,lat] ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/ 9 ! ,:ite ,oaks 0 organis$1 & "h1 z 8 fail+ /r5g? all[$1 he prea*$ & labor$ ! re/ ( 8 days4 ,pr(4 ,hopk9s 0 an en?usia/ic lov] ( nature4 ,a few ye>s be=e 8 dea? he organis$ a society call$ ,! ,alp9e ,club1 compos$ *iefly ( "y ladies1 ) :om1 z _! *os5 lead]1 he made excursions summ] aft] summ]--camp+ out (t5 among ! hills4 ,he took !m to _m a picturesque nook & retreat1 ( :i* !y _h nev] he>d1 9 ! m\nta9s ne> by4 ,he also explor$ ) !m o!r int]e/+ & remot] portions ( nor!rn ,b]k%ire1 & int]pret$ to !m on ! spot ! ?\ghts ( ,god1 z !y appe>$ 9 ! inf9itely v>i$ & beautiful details ( ,8 works4 ,9 ^! excursions he seem$ z "y z any ( 8 "y companions1 ) feel+s z fre% & joy\s z !irs4 ,9 e>li] ye>s he 0 a v grave man1 ) some?+ ( ! old ,puritan /]nness 9 8 looks & ways1 & he bore /ill ! aspect ( a homo gravis2 b 8 g5tl5ess1 8 t5d] devotion to ! gay "y companions :o surr\nd$ him1 & ! almo/ boyi% delight ) :i* he %>$ 9 _! pleasures1 took away all its /]nness & light$ up 8 /rongly-m>k$ c\nt5ance ) s+ul> grace & beauty4 ,9 ^! clos+ ye>s ( 8 life he 01 inde$1 ! ideal ( a ripe & noble ,*ri/ian manhood4 ,8 "n is embalm$ 9 ! memory ( a great company ( 8 old pupils1 n[ scatt]$ f> & wide1 f ! ,:ite ,h\se at ,wa%+ton to ! remote/ corn]s ( ! e>?4 ,p4,s4--,?is 0 writt5 soon aft] ! inauguration ( ,g54 ,g>field1 to :om allusion is made4 ,8 high reg>d = ! v5]able ex-,presid5t ( ,williams ,college--! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,m>k ,hopk9s--he made kn[n to ! :ole c\ntry1 b ! y\ng] bro!r 0 also ! object ( 8 w>me/ e/eem & love1 & ! feel+ 0 he>tily reciprocat$4 ,ne>ly a score ( ye>s ago1 :5 he 0 j em]g+ into public notice f ! bloody field ( ,*ickamauga1 ,pr(4 ,hopk9s spoke ( him to ! writ] 9 t]ms s full ( praise & s prophetic ( 8 future c>e]1 t !y seem 9 p]fect h>mony ) ! s5tim5t at once ( admiration & poignant grief :i* to-day moves ! he>t ( ! :ole ,am]ican p--yea1 "o might almo/ say1 :i* is inspir+ all ,*ri/5dom4--,saturday1 ,sept4 #bd1 #ahha4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,peaceable ,,fruit4 #ahgc-ahgd4 ,i4 ,effect ( spiritual ,conflict ^u h] religi\s ,life4 ,ov]fl[+ ,affections4 ,h] ,husb& call$ to ,union ,!ological ,sem9>y4 ,baptism ( ,suff]+4 ,! ,"* ( h] ,fri5d%ips4 ,no p]fect ,life4 ,pray]4 ,only ,god c satisfy a ,woman4 ,:y human ,fri5d%ip is a ,sn>e4 ,lett]s4 ,! tr\ble :i* _h s long weigh$ ^u h] he>t1 cross$ ) h] ! ?re%old ( #ahgc1 b long be=e ! close ( ! ye> x _h 9 l>ge measure pass$ away4 ,su* suff]+1 h[ev]1 always leaves its m>ks beh9d2 & :5 complicat$ ) ill-heal? or bodily weakness1 (t5 l+]s on aft] its ma9 cause has be5 remov$4 ,x 0 s 9 h] case2 %e 01 p]haps1 nev] aga9 consci\s ( t con/ant spiritual delight :i* %e _h once enjoy$4 ,b if less full ( sun%9e1 h] religi\s life 0 all ! "t gr[+ deep] & m fruitful1 0 c5t]+ itself m entirely 9 ,*ri/ & ris+ fa/] heav5w>d4 ,its sympa?ies also became1 if possible1 /ill m t5d] & lov+4 ,h] :ole be+1 inde$1 seem$ to ga!r new light & sweetness f ! %>p discipl9e %e _h be5 pass+ ?r\gh4 ,ev5 :5 mo/ tri$ & tempt$1 z has be5 said1 %e _h kept h] tr\ble to h]self2 few ( h] mo/ intimate fri5ds knew ( its exi/5ce2 to ! _w %e appe>$ a little m ?\ghtful & some:at c>eworn1 b o!rwise z bright z ev]4 ,b n[1 at l5g?1 ! old vivacity & playfulness & m]ry laugh began to come back aga94 ,nev] did h] he>t gl[ ) fre%]1 m ard5t affections4 ,9 a lett] to a "y c\s91 :o 0 mov+ ab\t f place to place1 %e says3 ,i %all feel m free to write (t51 if y c tell me t ! po/ma/] at ,c4 =w>ds y\r lett]s f ! (fice at no exp5se to y1 z he ought to d4 ,x is v silly 9 me to m9d y\r pay+ ?ree c5ts = "o ( my love-lett]s1 b x's a ,payson trait1 & ,i c't help x1 ?\gh ,i %\ld be provok$ en\gh if y did m9d pay+ a doll> apiece = !m4 ,!re's consi/5cy = y6 ,well1 ,i "k1 & ,i'm awfully pr\d ( x1 t y'll get v few lett]s f z lov+ a f\nta9 z my he>t is4 ,i've got en\gh to dr[n a small army--& sometimes :5 y're homesick1 & c\s9-,lizzy-sick1 & fri5d-sick1 ,i %all come to y1 done up 9 a %eet ( pap]1 & set y all 9 a breeze4 ,h] lett]s dur+ ! fir/ half ( ?is ye> 7 few1 & relate *iefly to ^? aspects ( ! ,*ri/ian life ) :i* h] own exp]i5ce 0 /ill mak+ h] s famili>4 ,god's plan ) mo/ ( u1 %e wrote to ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 appe>s to be a design to make u flexible1 twi/+ u ?is way & t1 n[ giv+1 n[ tak+2 b always at "w = & 9 u4 ,almo/ e fri5d we h is go+ ?r\gh "s peculi> discipl9e4 ,i fancy !re is no p]iod 9 our hi/ory :5 we d n ne$ & get ! %>p rod ( correction4 ,! ?+ is to gr[ /rong "u x1 & yet to walk s(tly4 ,i d n c>e h[ mu* ,i suff]1 %e wrote to a fri5d1 if ,god w purge & purify me & fit me = great] usefulness4 ,:at are trials b angels to beckon u ne>] to ,him6 ,& ,i d hope t m9e are to be a bless+ to "s o!r s\l1 or s\ls1 9 ! future4 ,i c't ?9k suff]+ is meant to be wa/$1 if fragm5ts ( bread creat$ miracul\sly1 7 n4 ,%e /udi$ ab\t ?is "t ) great int]e/ ! tea*+ ( ,scripture conc]n+ ! baptism ( ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,! "w ( ! ,_s _h n be=e specially occupi$ h] ?\ghts4 ,9 h] e>li] writ+s %e _h laid b little /ress ^u x--n because %e d\bt$ its reality or its necessity1 b because h] m9d _h n be5 l$ 9 t direction4 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d is full ( ,god & ( ,*ri/1 b !re is 9 x little express m5tion ( ! ,_s & ,8 peculi> (fice 9 ! life ( fai?4 ,:5 ?is fact 0 br\ght to h] notice %e h]self appe>$ to be surpris$ at x1 & w\ld gladly h suppli$ ! omission4 ,to be sure1 !re is no m5tion at all ( ! ,holy ,_s 9 sev]al ( ! ,epi/les ( ! ,new ,te/am5t2 b a c>efully-drawn picture ( ,*ri/ian life & progress1 l ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 w\ld1 c]ta9ly1 h be5 r5d]$ m complete & attractive by full] ref]5ce to ! ,bless$ ,com=t] & ,8 inspir+ influ5ces4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #h1 #ahgc4 ,i feel v sorry = y t y are "u temptation4 ,i h be5 l$1 = "s "t1 to pray specially = ! tempt$1 = ,i h le>n$ to pity !m z great] suff]]s ?an ^? afflict$ 9 any o!r way4 ,=1 9 proportion to our love to ,*ri/1 w be ! agony ( t]ror le/ we %\ld s9 & fall1 & s grieve & we>y ,him4 ,"o s9ful wi% c\ld make a hell ( heav52 /rong language1 b n too /rong1 to my m9d4 ,i c only say1 suff]1 b d n yield4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k t sil5t1 submissive pati5ce is bett] ?an /ruggle4 ,x is sweet to be 9 ! sun%9e ( ! ,ma/]'s smile1 b ,i believe our s\ls ne$ w9t] z well z summ]1 night z well z day4 ,p]haps n to ! end2 ,i h n come to t yet1 & s d n "k2 ,i speak f my own exp]i5ce1 z f> z x goes4 ,temptation has ?is "o good side to x3 x keeps u d[n2 we are a%am$ ( ourselves1 we see we h no?+ to boa/ (4 ,i told y1 y w p]haps rememb]1 t y 7 go+ to ent] ! valley ( humiliation 9 :i* ,i h dwelt s long1 b ,i tru/ we are only tak+ x 9 our way to ! l& ( ,beulah4 ,& h[ we pant to be !re6 ,:at a curi\s fri5d%ip ours has be56 & x is "o t c nev] sev]--unless1 inde$1 we fall away f ,*ri/1 :i* may ,he 9 m]cy =bid6444 ,i d pray = y twice e day1 & hope y pray = me4 ,i d long s to "k ! tru? & to ent] into x4 ,c]ta9ly ,i h got "s new light dur+ ! la/ ye>1 9 ! mid/ ( my trials1 bo? )9 & )\t4 ,to ano!r "y fri5d %e writes a few days lat]3 ,i rememb] :5 ,i 01 religi\sly1 at y\r age ,i 0 long+ = hol9ess1 b my fai? /agg]$ at "s ( ! conditions = x4 ,i _h no conception1 mu* z ,*ri/ 0 to me1 :at ,he 0 go+ to become4 ,b ,i wi% ,i c\ld make y a bir?-day pres5t ( my exp]i5ce s9ce !n1 & y c\ld h ,him n[1 in/ead ( le>n+1 z ,i _h to le>n ,him1 9 mu* tribulation4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,jan4 #ae1 #ahgc4 ,i h be5 mean+1 = "s days1 to write y ab\t ! ,pr(essor%ip4 #a ,x is a new "o1 & is call$ ! ,sk9n] & ,mc,alpine *air1 & ,mr4 ,pr5tiss says !re c\ld n be a m agreeable field ( usefulness4 ,x is mo/ likely t he w feel x to be 8 duty to accept4 ,z to myself1 ,i am ab\t apa!tic on ! subject4 ,my w has be5 brok5 ov] ! ,ma/]'s knee1 if ,i may use su* an expression1 by s mu* suff]+1 t ,i look ) indiff]5ce on su* outw>d *anges4 ,we c be made will+ to be burnt alive1 if ne$ be4 ,= f\r or five ye>s to come ,i %all n be oblig$ to leave ! *ur* ,i love s de>ly2 if ! ,sem9>y is mov$ out to ,h>lem1 x w be diff]5t2 b x is n wor? :ile to ?9k ( t n[4 ,x seems to me t ,mr4 ,p4 has rea*$ an age :51 nev] be+ v /rong1 a *ange l ?is may be salut>y4 ,febru>y #c;d4--,y w be sorry to he> t de> ,mrs4 ,c4 is q sick4 ,h] daught]s are all worn out ) ! c>e ( h]4 ,i 0 !re all day ,saturday1 b ,i c d no?+ 9 ! way ( night wat*+2 nor mu* at any "t4 ,a v little ov]-ex]tion knocks me up ?is w9t]4 ,x is j z mu* z ,i c d to keep my head above wat]4444 ,sometimes ,i ?9k t ! dreadful exp]i5ce ,i h be5 pass+ ?r\gh is ,god's way ( baptiz+ me2 "s h to be baptiz$ ) suff]+4 ,c]ta9ly ,he has be5 sitt+ z ! ,ref9]1 br++ d[n my pride1 empty+ me ( ?is & t1 & n leav+ me a foot to /& on4 ,if x all ends 9 sanctification ,i don't c>e :at ,i suff]4 ,?\gh ca/ d[n1 ,i am n 9 despair4 ,x is an enc\ragem5t to he> ,mahan comp>e /ates ( ! s\l to h\se-clean+ "t4 #b ,x is j s ) me4 ,e *air & table1 e broom & bru% is out ( place1 topsy-turvy4444 ,b ,i c't believe ,god has be5 wa/+ ! la/ two ye>s on me2 ,i c't help hop+ t ,he is answ]+ my pray]1 my cry = hol9ess--only 9 a /range way4 ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,abbot sp5t ,sunday & ,monday ) u a week ago1 & ,i read to !m ,dr4 ,/eele's ?ree tracts & l5t !m ,mahan4 ,!y 7 mu* int]e/$1 b ,i d n "k h[ mu* /ruck4 ,i c n smile1 z "s d1 at ,dr4 ,/eele's te/imony4 ,i believe 9 x fully & he>tily4 ,if ,i d n "k :at x is to f9d ,god real1 ,i d n "k any?+4 ,nev] 0 my fai? 9 ! /ronge/ doctr9es ( ,*ri/ianity /rong] ?an x is n[4 ,feb4 #ac?4--,i sp5t "p ( ye/]day 9 read+ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d6 ,y w ?9k t v /range till ,i add t x 0 9 ,g]man2 &1 z ! translator has all my books1 ,i want$ to "k :e!r %e _h done ?is "w satisfactorily be=e au?oris+ h] to proce$ ) ! re/4 ,%e has omitt$ s mu*1 t x is r an abridgm5t ?an a translation2 o!rwise x is well done4 ,b %e has s purg$ x ( vivacity1 t ,i am afraid x w plod on lead5 feet1 if x plods at all1 heav5w>d4 ,& n[ ,i mu/ hurry (f to my sew+-circle4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,april #d1 #ahgc4 ,i want to correct any mi/ak5 impression ,i h made on y 9 conv]sation4 ,! utmo/ ,i meant to say 01 t ,i _h got new light intellectually1 or !ologically1 on ! subject ( ! work+ ( ! ,_s4 ,9 ! s5se 9 :i* ,i use ! words baptism ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 ,i c]ta9ly d n consid] t ,i h receiv$ x4 ,i ?9k x means p]fect consecration4444 ,?us f>1 no matt] :at p pr(ess1 ,i h nev] come into close contact ) any life t ,i did n f9d m or less imp]fect4 ,i f9d1 9 o!r words1 ! be/ human be+s fallible1 & v fallible4 ,! be/ ,i c say ( myself is1 t ,i see ! ne$ ( imm5se advances 9 ! div9e life4 ,i f9d x h>d to be pati5t ) myself :5 ,i see h[ f> ,i am f rea*+ ev5 my own poor /&>d2 b if ,i d n love ,*ri/ & long to please ,him1 ,i d n love anybody or any?+4 ,& if ,i h talk$ less to y on ^! sacr$ subjects ?is w9t]1 x has be5 p>tly ow+ to my see+ less ( y1 & an impalpable b real b>ri] betwe5 u :i* ,i h n kn[n h[ to acc\nt =1 b :i* made me cauti\s 9 pu%+ religion on y4 ,"y p usually h _! ups & d[ns & fluctuations ( feel+ be=e !y settle d[n on to fix$ pr9ciples1 pay+ no reg>d to feel+1 & old] ,*ri/ians %\ld be> ) !m1 make all[ance = ?is1 & nev] obtrude _! own views or exp]i5ces4 ,i ?9k y w come out all "r4 ,satan w fight h>d = y1 & p]haps = a "t get ! upp] h&2 b ,i believe ! ,"l & ,ma/] w prevail4 ,p]haps we are nev] de>] to ,him ?an :5 ! w+s on :i* we once flew to ,him1 hang droop+ & brok5 at our side1 & we h to make our we>y way on foot4 ,i am always ?ankful to h my he>t /irr$ & w>m$ by ,*ri/ian lett]s or conv]sation2 always glad to see any signs ( ! pres5ce ( ! ,holy ,_s at "w 9 a human s\l4 ,b nev] =ce y\rself to write or talk ( spiritual ?+s2 try r to get s full ( ,*ri/ t m5tion ( ,him %all be natural & spontane\s4 ,to ! ,same1 ,april #ae1 #ahgc4 ,i h j be5 read+ ! s]mon ( ,dr4 ,hopk9s on pray] y s5t me4 ,x s\nds j l him4 ,i ?9k 8 bro!r & m9e 7by m>riage7 w\ld h treat$ ! subject j z logically & f> m practically2 /ill1 "u ! circum/ances1 t 0 n desirable4 ,z to myself1 ,i w\ld r h ! simple te/imony ( "s unkn[n pray+ woman1 :o is 9 ! habit ( wait+ on ,god1 ?an all ! !ological discussions 9 ! _w4 ,! subject1 z y "k1 is "o ( deep int]e/ to me4 ,i h n answ]$ y\r lett]1 because ,i 0 n q sure :at x 0 be/ to say4 ,dur+ ! w9t] ,i 0 n sure :at _h come betwe5 u1 & ?\ght x be/ to let "t %[2 & ,i h be5 h>ass$ & p]plex$ by c]ta9 anxieties1 ) :i* x did n seem necess>y to tr\ble y1 to a degree t may h giv5 me a preoccupi$ mann]4 ,!re h be5 po9ts :]e ,i want$ a div9e illum9ation :i* ,i did n get4 ,i want$ to he>1 ,?is is ! way1 walk 9 x2 b t ^w has n come yet1 & almo/ all my spiritual life has be5 runn+ 9 t "o l9e1 keep+ me1 necess>ily1 out ( sympa?y ) ev]ybody4 ,z f> z ?is has be5 a fault1 x has react$ ^u y1 to :om ,i ought to h be5 m ( a help4 ,b ,i c say t x delights me to see y ev5 try+ to take a /ep onw>d1 & to "k t :ile /ill "y1 & ) ! temptations ( y\? ab\t y1 y h set y\r face heav5w>d4 ,y\r temptations1 l m9e1 are ?r\gh ! affections4 ,only ,god c satisfy a woman2 & yet we try1 e n[ & !n1 to see if we c't f9d somebody else wor? lean+ on4 ,we nev] %all1 & x is a great pity we c n always realise x4 ,i nev] delib]ately make ?is attempt n[1 b am /ill liable to fall into ! temptation4 ,i am sure t ,i c nev] be really happy & at re/ out ( or f> f ,*ri/1 nor d ,i want to be4 ,gett+ new & w>m fri5ds is all v well1 b ,i em]ge f ?is sn>e into a deep5+ conviction t ,i mu/ le>n to say1 ,none b ,*ri/4444 ,n[1 de> ----1 x is a dreadful ?+ to be cold t[>ds our be/ ,fri5d'2 a calamity if x comes ^u u ?r\gh ,satan2 a s9 & folly if x is ! result ( any fault or omission ( our own4 ,!re is b "o refuge f x1 & t is 9 j go+ to ,him & tell+ ,him all ab\t x4 ,we c n =ce ourselves to love ,him1 b we c ask ,him to give u ! love1 & soon] or lat] ,he w4 ,he may seem n to he>1 ! answ] may come gradually & imp]ceptibly1 b x w come4 ,he has giv5 y "o fri5d at lea/ :o prays = y\r spiritual advance e day4 ,i hope y pray ?us = me4 ,fri5d%ip t does n d t is n wor? ! "n4 ,april #ag?4--,( c\rse1 ,i'll take ! w = ! de$ & consid] myself cov]$ ) orange blossoms1 l a babe 9 ! wood4 ,& x is equally ( c\rse t ,i 0 m>ri$ ) lots ( !m among my lovely auburn locks1 & wore a veil 9 po9t lace tw5ty feet long4 ,i h _h sev]al titles giv5 me 9 ,dorset--among o!rs1 a *ild ( nature--& la/ night ,i 0 %[n a lett] 9 :i* 7,i hope x is n wick$ to quote x 9 su* a connexion7 ,i am /yl$ a ,pr9cess 9 ,*ri/'s ,k+dom4 ,c y cap ?is climax8 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,goes to ,dorset4 ,*ri/ian ,example4 ,at ,"w among h] ,fl[]s4 ,dang]\s ,illness4 ,h] ,feel+ ab\t ,dy+4 ,dea? an ,invitation f ,*ri/4 ,! ,"u-curr5t be>s ,home4 ,m ,love1 ,m love6 ,a ,trait ( ,"*4 ,special ,m]cies4 ,:at makes a sweet ,home4 ,lett]s4 ,e>ly 9 ,june1 accompani$ by ! ?ree y\ng] *ildr51 %e w5t to ,dorset4 ,?is *ange always put h] into a gl[ ( pleasurable emotion4 ,once out ( ! city1 %e 0 l a bird let loose f its cage4 ,9 a lett] to h] husb&1 dat$ ,some:]e on ! road1 five o'clock ,p4,m41 %e wrote3 ,m4 is laugh+ at me because1 ,paddy-l1 ,i propos$ in=m+ y 9 a ,p4 ,s4 t we _h rea*$ ,dorset2 z if ! fact ( mail+ a lett] !re c\ld n prove x4 ,s ,i w take h] advice & close ?is n[4 ,i feel t our cup ( m]cies is runn+ ov]4 ,we ought to be ev] s good6 ,& ,i am ev] s lov+6 ,we are all z gay z l>ks1 %e wrote a few days lat]2 & 9 spite ( heat1 dr\ght1 ov]-"w & sickness1 %e cont9u$ 9 ?is mood mo/ ( ! summ]4 ,b :ile gay z a l>k1 %e 0 also grave & ?\ghtful4 ,h] delight 9 nature seem$ only to increase h] int]e/ 9 div9e ?+s & h] long+ to be l ,*ri/4 ,9 a lett] to "o ( h] "y fri5ds1 hav+ spok5 ( pray] z ! greate/ favor "o fri5d c r5d] ano!r1 %e adds3 ,b p]haps ,i may put "o beyond x--,*ri/ian example4 ,i ought to be s sa9tly1 s consecrat$1 t y c\ld n be ) me & n cat* ! v _s ( heav52 nev] get a lett] f me t did n quick5 y\r /eps 9 ! div9e life4 ,b :ile ,i believe ! pr9ciple ( love to ,*ri/ is entr5*$ 9 ! dep?s ( my s\l1 ! emotion ( love is hot always 9 t full play ,i want x to be4 ,no d\bt ,he judges u by ! pr9ciple ,he sees to exi/ 9 u1 b we c't help judg+ ourselves1 9 spite ( ourselves1 by our feel+s4 ,at *ur* ?is morn+ my m9d kept w&]+ to & fro2 ,i ?\ght ( y ab\t tw5ty times2 ?\ght ab\t my fl[]s2 ?\ght ( #eja o!r ?+s2 & !n got up & sang ,i love ,?y k+dom1 ,"l1 z if ,i c>$ = t & no?+ else4 ,:at ,he has to put up ) 9 me6 ,b ,i believe 9 ,him1 ,i love ,him1 ,i hate ev]y?+ 9 my s\l & 9 my life t is unlike ,him4 ,i hope ! confession ( my %ortcom+s won't disc\rage y2 x is no pro( t at my age y w n be f> beyond su* weakness & folly z (t5 c>ry me away captive4444 ,z f> z e>?ly bless+s g ,i am z ne> p]fect happ9ess z a human be+ c be2 ev]y?+ is heap$ on me4 ,:at ,i want is m ( ,*ri/1 & t is :at ,i hope y pray t ,i may h4 ,to ano!r "y fri5d %e writes1 ,june #ab?3 ,we h v>i$ exp]i5ces1 sick or well1 & ! discipl9e ( a he>t n p]fectly satisfi$ ) :at x gets f ,god1 (t5 alt]nates ) ! peace ( :i* y speak z j n[ y\rs4 ,:at a bless$ ?+ ?is v peace ( ,god is6 ,!re is no e>?ly joy to be comp>$ ) x4 ,b to g pati5tly on )\t x1 :5 x is n giv51 is1 ,i ?9k1 a great a*ievem5t2 = in/ance1 if ,i held no communication ) y = a ye>1 w\ld x n be a wond]ful pro( ( y\r love to & fai? 9 me1 if y kept on writ+ me & tell+ me y\r joys & trials8 ,to g back--,i h be5 a good deal confus$ by ! contradictory te/imony ( diff]5t ,*ri/ians1 & am driv5 m & m to a conviction t human be+s1 at ! be/1 are v fallible4 ,we mu/ get our light directly f on high4 ,at ! same "t we influ5ce ea* o!r = "r or = wrong1 & "o :o is ?or\ghly upright & true1 w1 unconsci\sly1 influ5ce & help ^? ab\t him4444 ,i am enjoy+1 z ,i always d1 hav+ ! ?ree y\ng] *ildr5 close ab\t me "h1 & all sleep+ on my floor4 ,we are really l f\r *ildr51 cont9ually frolick+ toge!r4 ,we are all cr[d$ n[ into my d51 & ,i wi% y 7 "h ) u to be ! fif? kitt54 ,did y ev] read t /ory8 ,to ,mrs4 ,ca!r9e ,g4 ,le$s1 ,dorset1 ,july #ab1 #ahgc4 ,x 0 ev] s k9d 9 y to let u %>e 9 y\r relief & pleasure1 & we unite 9 affectionate congratulations to y all4 ,i d hope ?is new & preci\s treasure w be sp>$ to 8 de> "m1 & gr[ up to be h] /ay & /aff ye>s h5ce4 ,x is ! nice/ ?+ 9 ! _w to h a baby4 ,:at m>vels !y are 9 e respect1 b especially 9 _! royal p[] ov] u6 ,9 spite ( ! dry wea!r we h _h a pleasant summ]1 s f>4 ,j be=e we entirely burn$ up & turn$ to t9d]1 %[]s came to our relief1 & our g>d5s are putt+ on "s fa9t smiles & mak+ "s promises4 ,i did n all[ a drop ( wat] to be wa/$ = weeks2 di%-wat]1 soap-suds1 dairy wat]1 ev]y?+ w5t to my fl[]-b$s1 & ea* night1 aft] ,mr4 ,pr5tiss came1 a b>rel-full 0 c>t$ up f ! pond = me2 h[ _m ! re/ us$ ,i don't "k4 ,dispos+ ( su* a load has n be5 bless$ to my heal?1 & ,i h _h to draw 9 my horns a little1 b ,m4 & ,i "w g5]ally l two day-labor]s = ! wages we get1 & ^? wages are fl[]s "h1 !re & ev]y:]e1 to say no?+ ( f]ns1 brakes1 mosses1 sc>let b]ries1 & ! l4 ,& :5 fl[]s fail we fall back on diff]5t %ades ( gre52 ! ,g]man ivy be+ reliev$ by a backgr\nd ( d>k foliage1 or light grasses aga9/ grave ones2 & :5 we hit on any new comb9ation1 ea* summons ! o!r to be lo/ 9 admiration4 ,& :5 we are too sore & /iff f we$+1 grass-%e>+ or wat]+1 we fall to fram+ little pictures1 or to d>n+ /ock+s1 :i* %e does s beautifully t x has become a f9e art ) h]1 or ,i betake myself to ! sew+-ma*9e & /it* = legs t seem to gr[ long by ! m9ute4 ,:at ! re/ ( ! family are ab\t mean:ile1 ,i c n exactly say4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss sits 9 a *air ) an umbrella ov] 8 head1 & pulls up a we$ n[ & !n1 & !n /rolls (f ) a /raw 9 8 m\?2 he also drives (f sometimes on =ag+ exp$itions1 & comes back ) butt]1 eggs1 etc41 & on hot days takes a ba? :]e a /ream ( cold wat] da%es ov] him2 spl5did he says1 & horrid ,i say4 ,! boys are up to ev]y?+2 !y are c>p5t]s1 & plumb]s1 & tr\t]s1 & h>ness]s1 & driv]s2 ,h4 has j le>n$ to sold]1 & saves me no little tr\ble & exp5se by /opp+ leakages2 h]et(ore e holey vessel _h to be s5t out ( t[n4 ,bo? boys h g>d5s & sell vegetables to _! fa!r at extraord9>y prices1 & !y are n[ fill+ up a deep dit* #ejj feet long at a ,york %ill+ an h\r--m5 get a long %ill+ & d ! "w no bett]4 ,) ! money ?us made !y buy tools ( all sorts1 se$s & fruit trees1 b no nons5se4 ,?ree happi] *ildr5 ?an ^! ?ree c n be f\nd4444 ,y may be int]e/$1 too1 to "k :at are ! fam\s works ( art we are fram+1 z above ref]r$ to4 ,well1 photographs ( our k9dr$ & fri5ds = "o ?+3 my bro!rs1 my husb&'s "m & o!r relatives ( 81 ,pr(4 & ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,b4 ,b41 & s on1 a good deal z x has happ5$1 = ev]ybody hasn't be5 photograph$2 & "s bodies h n giv5 u _! pictures--y1 = in/ance1 & if y want to be hung z high z ,haman 9 my d51 n9e feet squ>e1 :]e ,i write1 :y1 y c4 ,la/ summ] ,i _h a mania = illum9at+1 & made ab\t a cord ( texts & mottoes2 ,i c't pa9t1 s ,i cut lett]s out ( r$1 blue & black pap]1 & deceiv$ !reby ! v elect1 = ev5 ,mrs4 ,wa%burn 0 tak5 91 & said !y 7 pa9t$ nicely4 ,y\r little note has drawn l>ge int]e/1 hasn't x8 ,well1 x des]v$ its fate4 ,h>dly _h %e f9i%$ ?is lett] :5 %e 0 tak5 v ill4 ,= a :ile x seem$ z if ! "t ( h] dep>ture _h come4 ,at h] reque/ ! *ildr5 7 call$ to h] b$side1 & %e gave !m 9 turn h] dy+ c\nsels1 bade !m live = ,*ri/ z ! only true1 abid+ good1 & !n kiss$ ea* ( !m good-bye4 ,%e 0 mu* disappo9t$ on f9d+ t h] sickness1 aft] all1 0 n an invitation f ! ,ma/]4 ,y don't get away ?is "t1 said h] husb& to h]1 half playfully1 half exult+ly1 ref]r+ to h] eag]ness to g4 ,& "h x may n be amiss to say a ^w z to h] /ate ( m9d respect+ dea?4 ,aft] h] release h] husb& ?us describ$ x to a fri5d3 ,h] feel+ ab\t dy+ seem$ to me to be almo/ unique4 ,9 all my pa/oral exp]i5ce1 at lea/1 ,i d n recall ano!r case q l x4 ,h] fai? 9 a bett] _w1 t is1 a heav5ly1 0 q z /rong z h] fai? 9 ,god & 9 ,*ri/2 %e reg>d$ x z ! true home ( ! s\l2 & ! t5d5cy ( a good deal ( mod]n culture to put ?is _w 9 its place z man's highe/ sph]e & end1 /ruck h] z a mock]y ( ! holie/ in/9cts at once ( humanity & religion4 ,dea? 0 associat$ 9 h] m9d ) ! in/ant realisation ( all h] sweete/ & mo/ preci\s hopes4 ,%e view$ x z an invitation f ! ,k+ ( ,glory to come & be ) ,him4 ,dur+ ! m ?an ?ree-&-?irty ye>s ( our m>ri$ life ,i d\bt if !re 0 ev] a "t :5 ! summons w\ld h f\nd h] unwill+ to g2 r>ely1 if ev]1 a "t :5 %e w\ld n h welcom$ x ) great joy4 ,on putt+ to h] ! "q1 ,w\ld y be ready to g n[8 %e w\ld answ]1 ,:y1 yes1 9 a tone ( calm assurance1 r ( visible delight1 :i* ,i c nev] =get4 ,& dur+ all h] lat] ye>s h] answ] to su* a "q w\ld imply a sort ( a/oni%m5t1 t anybody c\ld ask x4 ,s /rong1 inde$1 0 h] own feel+ ab\t dea? z a real boon to ! ,*ri/ian1 t %e 0 sc>cely able1 ,i ?9k1 fully to sympa?ise ) ^? :o reg>d$ x ) misgiv+ or t]ror4 ,! po9t may be illu/rat$1 p]haps1 by ref]r+ to h] p]fect fe>lessness & repose 9 ! mid/ ( ! mo/ t]rific ?und]-/orm4 ,no matt] h[ vivid ! lightn+'s fla%es or h[ ne> & l\d ! claps t foll[$1 !y affect$ h] n]ves z little z any summ] breeze--sc>cely ev] awak+ h] if asleep1 or h9d]+ h] f go+ to sleep if awake4 ,& s x 0 ) reg>d to ! t]rors ( dea?4 ,b n m]ely 0 !re an abs5ce ( all app>5t dread ( dea?1 b an exult+ joy 9 ! ?\ght ( x4 ,!re is a passage 9 ,! ,home at ,greylock1 :i* 0 evid5tly inspir$ by h] own exp]i5ce4 ,x is :]e old ,m>y1 :5 h] fir/ wild bur/ ( grief 0 ov]1 said3 ,sure %e's got h] wi% & di$ sudd54 ,%e 0 always ready to g1 & n[ %e's gone4 ,(t5's ! "t ,i've he>d h] talk ab\t dy+1 & ,i m9d a "t :5 %e ?\ght %e 0 go+1 & !re 0 a light 9 h] eye1 & ,:at d'ye ?9k ( t8 says %e4 ,i decl>e x 0 j z %e look$ :5 %e says to me1 ,m>y1 ,i'm go+ to be m>ri$1 & :at d'ye ?9k ( t8 says %e4 ,?is feel+ ab\t dea? is ! m notewor?y 9 h] case because ( h] v deep1 poignant s5se ( s9 & ( h] own unwor?9ess4 ,to a ,fri5d1 ,dorset1 ,july #bg1 #ahgc4 ,?is is my ?ird ,sunday home f *ur*4 ,i h be5 conf9$ to my b$ only ab\t a week1 b x took me "s days to run d[n to t po9t1 & n[ x is tak+ "s to run me up aga94 ,i _h two or ?ree v suff]+ days & nights1 & ! doctor 0 "h ne>ly all ( "o day & night1 b 0 v k9d1 und]/ood my case & manag$ x admirably4 ,he is f ,man*e/] & is son ( a mission>y4 #c ,y speak 9 y\r lett] ( be+ oppress$ by ! heat1 & we>i$ by visitors1 & say t pray] is little m ?an utt]+ ! "n ( ,jesus4 ,i h ask$ myself a great _m times ?is summ] h[ mu* t means4 ,all ,i c utt] sometimes is ,?y "n6 ,?is l9e expresses my /ate = a good :ile4 ,( c\rse gett+ out ( "o h\se into ano!r & com+ up "h1 all 9 ! space ( "o mon?1 0 a great tax on "t & /r5g?1 & all my regul> habits _h to be brok5 up4 ,!n be=e ! ram 0 put 9 ,i ov]-ex]t$ myself1 unconsci\sly1 c>ry+ too heavy pails ( wat] to my fl[]-b$s1 & s broke d[n4 ,= "s h\rs ! end look$ v ne>1 b ,i d n "k :e!r x 0 /upidity or fai? t made me s cont5t to g4 ,i am afraid t a good deal ( :at passes = ! "o is really ! o!r4 ,=tunately = u1 our fai? does n entitle u to heav5 any m ?an our /upidity %uts u out ( x2 :5 we get !re x w be ?r\gh ,him :o lov$ u4 ,b if ,i may judge by ! exp]i5ce ( ?is little illness1 our he>ts are n s ti$ to or 9 love ) ?is _w z we fe>4 ,we make ! mo/ ( x z long z we mu/ /ay 9 x2 b ! "u-curr5t be>s home4 ,! foll[+ extract f a lett] to a "y relative1 dat$ ,sept4 #bc;d1 furni%es at once a key to sev]al m>k$ traits ( h] "* & a practical comm5t ^u h] own hymn1 ,m love to ,!e1 ,o ,*ri/6 ,i _h no "r to leave my fri5d undef5d$4 ,i pray$ to d x aright4 ,if ,i did n ,i am n a%am$ to say ,i am sorry = x1 & ask y to =give me4 ,& if ,i 7 twice z old z ,i am1 & y twice z "y1 ,i w\ld d x4 ,i w n tol]ate any?+ wrong 9 myself4 ,i hate1 ,i hate s9 aga9/ my ,god & ,savi\r1 & s9 aga9/ ! e>?ly fri5ds :om ,i love ) su* a passionate int5sity t !y are able to wr+ my he>t out1 & always w be1 if ,i live to be a hundr$4444 ,p :o feel /rongly express !mselves /rongly2 vehem5ce is "o ( my faults4 ,let u pray = ea* o!r4 ,we h great capacities = enjoym5t1 b we suff] m ke5ly ?an _m ( our race4 ,i h be5 an int5se suff]] 9 _m ways2 ! /ory w\ld pa9 y2 nobody c g ?r\gh ?is _w ) a he>t & a s\l1 & jog along smoo?ly long at a "t4444 ,i d n rememb] ev] hav+ a discussion on pap] ) my husb&2 we %\ld n d>e to run ! risk4 ,b ,i "k ,i said some?+ once 9 a lett]1 ,i =get :at1 t made him snat* ! fir/ tra9 & ru% to set ?+s "r1 ?\gh x co/ him a two days' j\rney4 ,we are trem5d\s lov]s /ill4 ,write & tell me we've kiss$ & made up6 ,we bo? mean well2 we don't want to hurt ea* o!r2 b ea* has "o million po9ts t are v vuln]able4 ,& nei!r c "k ^! po9ts 9 ! o!r by intuition2 a cry ( pa9 w (t5 be ! fir/ intimation t ! "o c hurt ! o!r j !re4 ,we mu/ t\* ea* o!r ) ! tips ( our f+]s4444 ,to love ,*ri/ m--?is is ! deepe/ ne$1 ! con/ant cry ( my s\l4 ,d[n 9 ! b[l+-alley1 & out 9 ! woods1 & on my b$1 & out driv+1 :5 ,i am happy & busy1 & :5 ,i am sad & idle1 ! :isp] keeps go+ up = m love1 m love1 m love6 ,to a ,*ri/ian ,fri5d1 ,dorset1 ,oct4 #c1 #ahgc4 ,i d hope y w be 9 ,new ,york ?is w9t] & y\r "m1 too4 ,:at a bless+ to h a "m ) :om "o c hold ,*ri/ian communion6 ,y ne$ "s trials z a set-(f to x4 ,y say few live up to :at light !y h2 x is true2 ,i ?9k we get light j z fa/ z we are ready = x4 ,at ! same "t ,i mu/ own t ,i h n all ! light ,i ne$4 ,i am /ill puzzl$ z to ! true way to live2 h[ f> to *]i% a _s t makes "o sit v lightly to all e>?ly ?+s1 :5 t _s unfits "o1 to a great ext5t1 to be an agreeable1 ?or\ghly sympa?is+ companion to "o's *ildr51 = in/ance4 ,my *ildr5 h a real horror ( ,miss ----1 because %e ?9ks & talks on only "o subject2 ( c\rse x nev] w\ld d = me to d z %e does1 z f> z !y are conc]n$4 ,p]haps ! problem may be solv$ by a resort to ! fact t we are n call$ to ! same exp]i5ce4 ,& yet an exp]i5ce ( z p]fect love & fai? z is ev] v\*saf$ to a s\l on e>?1 is :at ,i long =4 ,at times my he>t dies )9 me :5 ,i realise h[ mu* ,i ne$4 ,z y say1 no d\bt ! m5tal /ra9 ,i _h be5 pass+ ?r\gh prep>$ ! way = my break-d[n 9 heal?2 z ,i lay1 z ,i ?\ght1 dy+1 ,i said s to myself4 ,t /ra9 is ov]2 ,i am 9 a s5se at re/2 b n satisfi$4 ,i h be5 too ne> to ,*ri/ to be happy 9 any?+ else2 ,i don't mean by t1 h[ev]1 t ,i nev] try to be happy 9 o!r ?+s--alas1 ,i d4 ,z to ! m9or trials1 no life is )\t !m4 ,b :at m]cies we get e n[ & !n6 ,! o!r day ?ree lett]s came to me by "o mail1 ea* ( :i* 0 important1 & came f exactly ! qu>t] :]e ,i 0 tr\bl$1 & disp]s$ ! tr\ble to a great degree4 ,9 fact ,i am ov]:elm$ ) m]cies1 & dreadfully /upid & un?ankful = !m4 ,i h _h also "s exp]i5ces ( late ( ! smallness & meanness1 ( :i* y h _h specim5s4 ,"o has to betake oneself to pray] to get a sight ( ,"o1 :o is l>ge-he>t$ & noble & good & true4 ,oh1 h[ n>r[ human n>r[ness mu/ look to ,him6 ,i don't "k h[ _m times ,i h smil$ at y\r rem>k ab\t ,miss ----3 ,%e seems to h su* a h>d "t to le>n h] lessons4 ,i feel sorry = h] 9 "o s5se1 b if %e belongs to ,*ri/1 isn't ,he home en\gh = h]8 ,i ?9k x always a v d\btful exp]im5t to (f] o!r p a home ) y2 & equally d\btful :e!r su* an (f] is wisely accept$4 ,be+ a sa9t does n1 ,i am sorry to say1 necess>ily make "o an agreeable addition to ! family circle z ,god has =m$ x2 if ,8 h& s5ds ?is new elem5t into ! h\se1 ( c\rse "o may expect grace to be> x2 b volunt>ily to seek x argues ei!r want ( exp]i5ce or an imm5se p[] ( self-sacrifice4 ,i %\ld pref] ,miss ----'s fri5ds agree+ to give h] an indep5d5t home1 z f> z a bo>d+-h\se c furni% a home4 ,& if x provides a place 9 :i* to pray1 z sweet a home may be f\nd !re z any:]e4 ,we g to t[n on ! n9? ( ?is mon?4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss has be5 gone "s "t1 & has ent]$ ^u 8 new duties ) great delight4 ,i mu/ confess t if ,i 7 go+ to *oose my "w 9 life1 ,i c\ld ?9k ( no?+ m cong5ial ?an to tra9 "y ,*ri/ians4 ,x has come ov] me lately t all ^? :om he n[ in/ructs1 h m or less ( ! new life 9 !m4 ,i am sorry1 h[ev]1 to add t "s "y !ological fri5ds ( m9e d5y ?is4 ,!y say t _m "y m5 prep>+ = ! m9i/ry give no o!r sign ( piety4 ,"y p judge ha/ily & sev]ely4 ,z soon z ,i get ov] my fir/ hurry1 aft] rea*+ home1 ,i hope y w come & see me4444 ,y speak ( my exp]i5ce on my sick-b$ z a preci\s "o4 ,to tell y ! tru?1 x does n seem s to me2 ,i mean1 no?+ extraord9>y4 ,n to want to g1 if invit$1 w\ld be a contradiction to mo/ ( my life4 ,b z ,i 0 n invit$ ,i realise t ,i am ne$$ "h2 & ,i am afraid x 0 selfi% to be s delight$ to g1 horribly selfi%4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,*ange ( ,home & ,life 9 ,new ,york4 ,a ,book ab\t ,robbie4 ,h] ,sympa?y ) "y ,p4 ,i h 9 me ,two diff]5t ,natures4 ,:at ,dr4 ,de ,witt said at ! ,grave ( 8 ,wife4 ,! ,way to meet little ,trials4 ,faults 9 ,pray]-,meet+s4 ,h[ special ,!ories ( ! ,*ri/ian ,life are =m$4 ,sudd5 ,illness ( ,pr(4 ,smi?4 ,publication ( ,gold5 ,h\rs4 ,h[ x 0 receiv$4 ,h] return f ,dorset br\ght ) x a new ord] ( life4 ,! transf] ( h] husb& to a !ological *air 0 almo/ z great a *ange to h] z to him4 ,9 ceas+ to be a pa/or's wife %e gave up a position1 :i* = m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury _h be5 to h] a spr+ ( con/ant joy1 & :i*1 not)/&+ its c>es1 %e reg>d$ z "o ( ! mo/ favor$ on e>?4 ,:ile 9 ! p>sonage1 too1 %e 0 9 ! mid/ ( h] fri5ds2 ! removal to ,sixty-fir/ /reet left ! mo/ ( !m at a di/ance2 & di/ance 9 ,new ,york is no slight h9drance to ! full enjoym5t ( social intimacy & fell[%ip4 ,sev]al weeks aft] ! return to t[n 7 devot$ to ! cong5ial task ( fitt+-up & adorn+ ! new home4 ,!n = ! fir/ "t 9 _m ye>s %e f\nd h]self at leisure2 & "o ( its e>lie/ fruits 0 a selection ( /ray religi\s v]ses = publication2 :i*1 h[ev]1 soon gave way to a volume ( h] own4 ,%e 0 able also to give special att5tion to h] favorite religi\s read+4 ,! %>p trials & suff]+ ( ! previ\s ye>s %[$ _! effect 9 deep5$ spiritual convictions1 humility & t5d]ness ( feel+1 b n 9 repress+ h] natural playfulness4 ,at times h] spirits 7 /ill buoyant ) fun & laught]4 ,an extract f a lett] to h] y\nge/ daught]1 :o ) h] si/] 0 on a visit at ,portl&1 w give a glimpse ( ?is gay mood4 ,su* mi%aps z %e rec\nts are liable to occur 9 ! be/-regulat$ h\seholds1 especially on a *ange ( s]vants2 b !y 7 r>e 9 h] exp]i5ce & s ! m amus$ h]3 ,i und]took to get up a nice d9n] = ,dr4 & ,mrs4 ,v----1 ab\t :i* ,i mu/ n[ tell y4 ,fir/ ,i 0 to h raw oy/]s on ! %ell4 ,blund] #a/1 small tea-plates laid = !m4 ,ord]$ (f1 & big ones laid4 ,blund] #b;d1 five oy/]s to be laid on ea* plate1 in/ead ( :i* five 7 plac$ on platt]s at ea* end1 mak+ t5 9 all = ! :ole p>ty6 ,ord]$ a *ange to ! orig9al ord]4 ,result1 a t]rific s\nd 9 ! p>lor ( ru%+ feet & bomb>dm5t ( oy/]-%ells4 ,d9n] 0 ann\nc$ f ,dr4 ,p41 :o ask$1 helplessly1 :]e he %\ld place ,mrs4 ,v----4 ,blund] #d? by ,mrs4 ,p41 :o rem>k$ t %e _h got fifty pieces ( %ell 9 h] m\?4 ,blund] #e? by ,dr4 ,p41 :o fail$ to p]ceive t ! boil$ *ick5s 7 g>ni%$ ) a /unn+ w9e-jelly & reg>d+ x z gizz>ds1 pres5t$ x only to ! boys6 ,blund] #f?4 ,cranb]ry-jelly ord]$4 ,cranb]ry z a d>k1 inky fluid in/ead2 gaz$ ^u suspici\sly by ! gue/s1 & ta/$ sp>+ly by ! family4--,& n[ prep>e = blund] ,no4 #g1 be>+ 9 m9d t x is ! ?ird c\rse4 ,f\r prairie h5s in/ead ( two6 ,! effect on ! ,rev4 ,mrs4 ,e4 ,pr5tiss 0 a resort to h] h&k]*ief1 & suppression ( te>s on f9d+ none 9 h] pocket4 ,blund] #h?4 ,iau*'s biscuit glac /uff$ ) hide\s orange-peel4 ,delight #a/1 delici\s dess]t ( f>9a smo!r$ 9 cu/>d & de> to ! he>t ( ,dr4 ,v----4 ,blund] #i?4 ,no hot milk = ! c(fee1 delay 9 scald+ x1 & at la/ s]v+ x 9 a huge crack$ pit*]4 ,blund] #aj?4 ,bananas1 grapes1 apples1 & oranges =gott5 at ! "r mom5t & pass$ aft] ! c(fee & ( c\rse decl9$4 ,b he>+ t ,miss ,h4 ,v4 0 fond ( bananas1 ,i seiz$ ! fruit-basket & p\r$ its cont5ts into "o napk91 & a lot ( *ocolate-cake into ano!r1 & s5t !m to ! "y pr9cesses 9 ! p>sonage1 :o are1 no d\bt1 dy+ ( indige/ion1 ?is morn+4 ,give my love to ,c4 & ,f41 & a judici\s portion to ! old birds4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,oct4 #ai1ahgc4 ,i am sorry t we play$ hide-&-g-seek ) ea* o!r :5 y 7 9 t[n4 ,i h se5 all my mo/ intimate fri5ds s9ce ,i came home2 ,i mean all :o live "h4 ,!re are j eight ( !m1 b !y fill my he>t s t ,i %\ld h said1 at a guess1 !re 7 eighty6 ,try ! exp]im5t on y\rself & tell me h[ _m su* fri5ds y h4 ,x is v curi\s4 ,i h j got hold ( "s leaves ( a j\rnal rescu$ f ! flames by my 7future7 husb&1 writt5 at ! age ( #bb1 9 :i* ,i describe myself z "o great long sunbeam4 ,x recall$ ! sweet life 9 ,*ri/ ,i 0 !n lead+1 & made me feel t if ,i _h got s f> on z a girl1 ,i ought to be inf9itely f>!r on z a woman4 ,/ill1 9 spite ( all %ame & regrets1 ,i _h a long li/ ( m]cies to rec\nt at ! communion-table to-day4 ,among o!r ?+s ,i feel t ,i "k & love y bett] ?an h]et(ore1 & x is pleasant to love4 ,i mu/ n =get to answ] y\r little niece's que/ions4 ,i rememb] h] fa!r's call+ ) y\r si/]1 b ,i don't rememb] any little girl z be+ ) !m1 mu* less kiss+ h] because %e lik$ ! ,susy books4 ,z to writ+ m ab\t ,robbie1 ,i c't d t till ,i get to heav51 :]e he has be5 ev] s _m ye>s4 ,give my love to ! wee maid51 & tell h] ,i %\ld love to kiss h]4 ,no trait 9 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 m /rik+ ?an h] sympa?y ) "y p1 especially ) "y girls1 & h] desire to be religi\sly helpful to !m4 ,b h] int]e/ 9 !m 0 n conf9$ to ! spiritual life4 ,%e delight$ to jo9 !m 9 _! h>mless amusem5ts1 & to take h] "p 9 _! playful conte/s1 :e!r ( wit or k4 ,h] fri5d1 ,miss ,morse1 ?us recalls ?is feature ( h] "*3 ,9 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' life ! wise man's say+1 ,a m]ry he>t doe? good l a m$ic9e1 0 beautifully exemplifi$4 ,yet few 7 ?or\ghly acqua9t$ ) ?is phase ( h] "*4 ,^? :o knew h] only ?r\gh h] books1 or h] lett]s ( ,*ri/ian sympa?y & c\nsel--_m ev5 :o came into ne> & t5d] p]sonal relations to h]--fail$ to see ! frolicsome side ( h] nature :i* made h] an eag] p>ticipant 9 ! fun ( "y p--9 a m]ry gr\p ( girls ! m]rie/ girl among !m4 ,9 conte/s :]e playful rhymes 7 to be compos$ at comm&1 on a mom5t's notice1 %e %>p5$ ! wits ( h] companions by h] own ze/1 b 9 mo/ cases h]self bore (f ! palm4 ,%e always ent]$ into su* conte/s ) an unmi/akable desire to w94 ,i rememb] "o ev5+ 9 h] own home 9 ,dorset1 :5 f\r ( u 7 engag$ 9 a game ( v]b>ium1 two aga9/ two--! opposite p>ty 7 ga9+ rapidly4 ,%e sudd5ly turn$ to h] p>tn] ) a comical air ( *agr9 & exclaim$3 ,:y is x !y are w9n+ ! game8 ,y & ,i are a great deal bright] ?an !y6 ,! fir/ "t ,i ev] saw ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 ?r\gh an invitation to h] home to meet ab\t half a doz5 "y p]sons ( my own age4 ,%e 0 9 "o ( h] m]rie/ moods4 ,games ( wit 7 play$ & %e took "p ) g5u9e int]e/4 ,%e at once impress$ me ) ! feel+ t %e 0 "o ( u1 & t ?is arose f no ef=t to be sympa!tic1 b 0 simply "p ( h] nature4 ,?is brightness wond]fully attract$ "y p to h]1 & gave h] an influ5ce ) !m t %e c\ld n o!rwise h ex]cis$4 ,%e recognis$ x 9 h]self z a p[]1 & us$ x1 z %e did all h] p[]s1 = ! s]vice ( h] ,ma/]4 ,"y ,*ri/ians1 see+ t h] deeply religi\s life did n int]f]e ) h] ke5 enjoym5t ( all innoc5t pleasures1 realis$ t !re ne$ be no gloom9ess = !m1 ei!r1 9 a life consecrat$ to ,god4 ,j z h] l9e ( ?\ght w\ld (t5 lie absorb+ly 9 "s "o direction = q a p]iod ( "t1 s h] fun ran 9 /reaks1 z %e w\ld h be5 likely to express x4 ,"o w9t] %e amus$ h]self & h] fri5ds by a great numb] ( *>ades & enigmas1 _m ( :i* ,i copi$ & /ill possess4 ,!y 7 da%$ (f ) an ease & rapidity q rem>kable4 ,& ,i believe ! same ?+ 0 true ( mo/ ( h] books4 ,i h wat*$ h] :5 %e 0 writ+ "s funny piece ( rhyme1 & z h] p5 lit]ally flew ov] ! pap]1 ,i c\ld h>dly believe t %e 0 actually compos+ z %e wrote4 ,"o day two "y girls 7 translat+ "o ( ,he9e's %ort] poems4 ,!y _h agre$ to s5d _! sev]al v]sions to an abs5t fri5d1 :o on 8 "p 0 to return 8 own to !m4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss ent]$ he>tily into ! plan & 9 an h\r _h writt5 z _m z a doz5 translations1 all 9 ,engli% rhyme & diff]+ entirely "o f ! o!r4 ,! /imulat+ effect on ! g5ius ( h] companions 0 su* t ov] ?irty translations 7 produc$ 9 t "o aft]noon4 ,9 ?9k+ ( ! ease ) :i* ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w\ld sudd5ly turn f grave to gay & ! rev]se1 ,i (t5 recall h] answ] :5 ,i "o day rem>k$ on ?is trait 9 h]4 ,yes1 ,i h 9 me two v diff]5t natures4 ,did y ev] he> ! /ory ( ! dog1 :o by an accid5t 0 cut 9 two1 & 0 jo9$ toge!r by a wond]ful heal+ salve8 ,un=tunately1 ! pieces 7 n put toge!r prop]ly1 s two ( 8 legs /ood up 9 ! air4 ,at fir/ 8 ma/] ?\ght x a great mis=tune1 b he f\nd t ! dog1 :5 a little accu/om$ to 8 /range new =m1 w\ld run until tir$ on two legs1 & !n by turn+ himself ov] he w\ld h a fre% unus$ pair to />t )1 & s he did d\ble duty6 ,i am l t dog4 ,:5 ,i am tir$ ( runn+ on "o nature1 ,i c turn ov] & run on ! o!r1 & x re/s me4 #d ,i want to sp5d a few m9utes ( ?is my bir?day 9 talk+ ) y 9 reply to y\r lett]4 ,to a ,*ri/ian ,fri5d1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #bf1 #ahgc4 ,i want to tell y h[ ,i love y1 because y le>n y\r lessons s easily1 & h[ ?ankful ,i am t 9 y\r great trials & afflictions y h be5 enabl$ to glorify ,god4 ,h[ small tr\ble is :5 set ov] aga9/ t6 ,is n ,*ri/ en\gh = a human s\l8 ,does x really ne$ any?+ else = its happ9ess8 ,y w rememb] t :5 ,madame ,guyon 0 n only homeless1 b depriv$ ( h] lib]ty1 %e 0 p]fectly happy4 ,a little bird am ,i4 #e ,x seems to me t :5 ,god takes away our e>?ly joys & props1 ,he gives ,himself mo/ g5]\sly2 & is !re any joy on e>? to be comp>$ = a mom5t ) su* a gift8444 ,my husb& has j come 9 & describ$ ! sc5e at ,mrs4 ,de ,witt's fun]al1 #f :5 h] husb& said1 ,good-bye1 de> wife1 y h be5 my greate/ bless+ next to ,*ri/2 & he add$1 & t ,i c say ( y4 ,?is 0 v sweet to me1 = ,i h faults ( mann] t (t5 annoy him--,i am s vehem5t1 s positive1 & lay d[n ! law s6 ,b ,i believe ! grace ( ,god c cure faults ( all sorts1 be !y deep-seat$ or ext]nal4 ,& ,i ought to be "o ( ! be/ wom5 9 ! _w1 if ,i am good 9 proportion to ! gifts ) :i* ,i am ov]:elm$4 ,i c\nt x n ! lea/ ( y\r & my m]cies1 t we h be5 p]mitt$ to add f\r little *ildr5 to ! happy company above4 ,no wond] y miss y\r d>l+ boy1 b ,i am sure y w\ld n call him back4 ,h y any *oice religi\s v]ses n 9 any book1 t y w\ld l to put into "o ,i am go+ to get up8 ,to ! ,same1 ,nov4 #ab?4 ,i want y & y\r "m to "k :at ,i am n[ busy ab\t1 hop+ x may set y to pray+ ov] x4 ,:5 ,i ask$ y = bits ( poetry1 ,i meant pieces glean$ f "t to "t f newspap]s4 ,my plan 0 to make a compilation1 int]sp]s+ v]ses ( my own anonym\sly4 ,b ,mr4 ,r&olph has conv9c$ me t x is my duty & privilege to h ! little book all orig9al1 & to appe> z m9e2 & 9 unexpect$ ways my w ab\t x has be5 brok51 & ,i h ceas$ f all morbid %yness ab\t x1 & am only too ?ankful t ,god is will+ ?us to use me = ,8 own glory4 ,( c\rse1 ,i %all meet ) a good deal ( misappreh5sion & disgu/ f "s qu>t]s1 b n f y or y\rs4 ,x is a com=t1 on ! o!r h&1 to ?9k ( once m m9i/]+ to long+ or afflict$ s\ls1 z ,i hope to d 9 ^! l9es1 writt5 = no human eye4 ,y say ,jesus is pa9$ :5 ,8 de> ones suff]4 ,i h>dly ?9k t c be4 ,t5d] sympa?y ,he no d\bt feels1 b n pa94 ,if ,he did1 ,he w\ld be mis]able all ! "t1 ! _w is s full ( mis]y4 ,:5 ,i look back ov] my own life1 ! preci\s times 7 g5]ally seasons ( great suff]+2 s mu* s1 t ! idea ( discipl9e has become a hobby4 ,b "o c only le>n all ?is by exp]i5ce4 ,mrs4 ---- says %e nev] s+s ! v]se conta9+ ,e'en ?\gh x be a cross t raise? me1 & t little *ildr5 nev] talk 9 t way to _! mo!rs1 &1 !re=e1 we ought n to talk s to ,god6 ,i did n argue ) h] ab\t x1 b ,i felt ?ankful t ,i c\ld s+ & say t l9e v e>ne/ly1 & _h be5 taught to d s by ! ,_s ( ,god4 ,to a ,fri5d 9 ,texas1 ,new ,york1 ,dec4 #a1 #ahgc4 ,i am glad y l ,fab] bett] on a clos] acqua9tance4 ,he c]ta9ly has said "s wond]ful ?+s among _m weak & fooli% ones4 ,:at y quote f him ab\t ?anksgiv+ is v true4 ,our gratitude be>s no sort ( comp>ison ) our petitions or our sighs & groans4 ,x is contemptible 9 u to be su* ?ankless begg>s4 ,z to dome/ic c>es1 y "k ,mrs4 ,/[e has writt5 a beautiful little tract on ?is subject--,e>?ly ,c>e a ,heav5ly ,discipl9e4 ,god nev] places u 9 any position 9 :i* we c n gr[4 ,we may fancy t ,he does4 ,we may fe> we are s imp$$ by frett+1 petty c>es t we are ga9+ no?+2 b :5 we are n s5d+ any bran*es upw>d1 we may be s5d+ roots d[nw>d4 ,p]haps 9 ! "t ( our humiliation1 :5 ev]y?+ seems a failure1 we are mak+ ! be/ k9d ( progress4 ,god delights to try our fai? by ! conditions 9 :i* ,he places u4 ,a plant set 9 ! %ade %[s :]e its he>t is by turn+ t[>ds ! sun1 ev5 :5 unable to rea* x4 ,we h s mu* to di/ract u 9 ?is _w t we d n realise h[ truly & deeply1 if n always w>mly & consci\sly1 we love ,*ri/4 ,b ,i believe t ?is love is ! /ronge/ pr9ciple 9 e reg5]ate s\l4 ,x may slumb] = a "t1 x may falt]1 x may freeze ne>ly to dea?2 b soon] or lat] x w decl>e itself z ! rul+ passion4 ,y %\ld reg>d all y\r discont5t ) y\rself z negative devotion1 = t x really is4 ,madame ,guyon said boldly1 b truly1 ,o mon ,dieu1 plutot pe*eur que sup]be1 & t is ! consol+ ^w ,i feel l s5d+ y to-day4 ,i "k all ab\t ^! little dome/ic foxes t spoil ! v9es1 & sympa?ise ) y 9 y\rs4 ,b if "s o!r trial w\ld s]ve ,god's purpose1 ,he w\ld sub/itute x4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,new ,york1 ,dec4 #c1 #ahgc4 ,i 0 int]e/$ 9 :at y wrote ab\t ,miss ,g4 & ( ,dr4 ,c4's meet+4 ,y say %e sp5ds h] "t 9 "y works ( b5evol5ce4 ,?is %[s t h] piety is ( ! g5u9e sort4 ,x is h>d to h fai? 9 m]e talk4 ,x is a great my/]y to me1 t1 :ile we meet ) negative faults 9 ord9>y pray]-meet+s1 we f9d s _m positive faults 9 m e>ne/ ones4 ,p]haps !re is less ( self 9 ^? :o conduct !m ?an we imag9e4 ,i always regret to see talk to ea* o!r supplant address to ,god 9 su* meet+s--always4 ,z to ,miss ---- & o!rs mak+ a cre$ z y say out ( _! exp]i5ce1 ,i ?9k x may be acc\nt$ = 9 ?is way3 ,!y come sudd5ly into possession ( ?\ghts & emotions to :i* o!rs are l$ gradually2 !y are />tl$ & ov]:elm$ by ! novelty ( ! revelations1 & at once =m a !ory on ! subject2 &1 hav+ =m$ ! !ory1 !y fall to s int]pret+ ! ,bible z to support x4 ,^? :o rea* ! po9t !y h rea*$ m sl[ly are n />tl$1 & d n ne$ to =m !ories or seek = unscriptural expressions ) :i* to decl>e :at !y h le>n$4 ,!y are probably less self-consci\s1 because !y h n be5 aim+ to ent] any s*ool =m$ by man1 b h be5 simply foll[+ aft] ,*ri/2 h>dly kn[+ :at !y expect w be ! result1 b gett+ a great deal ( sweet peace on ! way4 ,& !y also acquire1 gradually1 a c]ta9 k9d ( heav5-taught wisdom1 ^: access comes n ) obs]vation2 bless$ tru?s reveal$ by ! ,holy ,_s1 full ( /r5g? & consolation4 ,at any rate1 ?is is z f> z ,i h come to2 !re may be oceans ( k ,i h yet to acquire1 :i* w modify or :olly *ange my range ( ?\ght4 ,&1 accord+ to :at light ,i h1 ,i am incl9$ to advise y n to confuse y\rself ) try+ to believe 9 or exp]i5ce ?is or t because o!rs d1 b to get z close to ,*ri/ z y c e day ( y\r life2 feel+ sure t if y d1 ,he by ,8 ,_s w tea* y all y ne$ to "k4 ,!re has be5 to my m9d1 dur+ ! la/ few weeks1 some?+ awe-inspir+ 9 ! s5se ,i h _h ( ! way 9 :i* ,god in/ructs ,8 ignorant1 =getful1 /upid *ildr54 ,su* goodness1 su* pati5ce1 su* love6 ,&1 on ! o!r h&1 our amaz+ coldness & +ratitude4 ,to ,mrs4 ,smi?1 ,new ,york1 ,dec4 #ba1 #ahgc4 ,i want$ to see y be=e y left1 b x w\ld h be5 cruel to add to ! c>es & di/ractions amid :i* y 7 hurry+ (f4 #g 444 ,i am read+1 ) great int]e/1 ! lett]s ( ,s>a ,col]idge4 ,:at /rikes me mo/ 9 h] is1 t kn[+ s mu* ( h]1 "o /ill feels :at lots !re is m to h] "o does n "k4 #bb;d4--,/rangely en\gh1 9 writ+ y la/ ev5+1 ,i =got to tell y h[ mu* pray] is be+ (f]$ = y & y\r husb&1 & :at int5se sympa?y is express$4 ,dr4 ,v9c5t said he c\ld n be> to he> ano!r ^w ab\t 8 suff]+s4 ,mrs4 ,l---- said1 ,i d love t man4 ,mrs4 ,d41 h]self all knott$ up ) rheumatism1 w\ld h>dly speak ( h]self :5 %e he>d he 0 s ill2 & ?is is only a specim5 ( ! deep feel+ express$ on all sides4444 ,i am glad y f9d any?+ to l 9 my poor little book4 ,i he> v little ab\t x1 b its publication has br\ght a bless+ to my s\l1 :i* %[s t ,i did "r 9 ?us mak+ kn[n my te/imony = ,*ri/4 ,my w 9 ! matt] 0 q ov]turn$4 ,! poor little book appe>$ "u ! title ( ,religi\s ,poems1 aft]w>ds *ang$ to ,gold5 ,h\rs2 ,hymns & ,songs ( ! ,*ri/ian ,life4 ,9 a lett] ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss to a fri5d1 writt5 9 #ahgj1 occurs ?is passage3 ,mo/ ( my v]ses are too mu* my own p]sonal exp]i5ce to be put 9 pr9t n[4 ,aft] ,i am dead ,i hope !y may s]ve z language = "s o!r he>ts4 ,aft] ,i am dead6 ,t means1 oh ravi%+ ?\ght6 t ,i %all be 9 heav5 "o day4 ,until ! fall ( #ahgc h] husb& & two or ?ree fri5ds only knew ( ! exi/5ce ( ^! v]ses1 & _! publication _h n cross$ h] m9d4 ,b %ortly aft] h] return f ,dorset %e 0 p]suad$ to let ,mr4 ,r&olph read !m4 ,%e soon receiv$ f him ! foll[+ lett]3 ,! poems mu/ be pr9t$1 & at once6 ,we--t is1 ! firm liv+ at ,yonk]s--read al\d all ! pieces1 except ^? 9 ! book1 at "o sitt+1 & w\ld h gone on to ! end b t ! eyes gave out4 ,out ( ! lot ?ree or f\r pieces 7 laid aside z n up to ! /&>d ( ! o!rs4 ,! female memb] ( ! firm said t ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w\ld d a wrong if %e )held ! poems f ! public4 ,?is memb] said he %\ld give up writ+1 or try+ to write1 religi\s v]ses4 ,i am n jok+4 ,! book mu/ be pr9t$4 ,we 7 *>m$ ) ! poems4 ,"s ( !m h all ! qua9tness ( ,h]b]t1 "s ! simple subjective f]vor ( ! ,g]man hymns1 & "s ! gl[ ( ,wesley4 ,!y are1 z ,mrs4 ,r4 said1 out ( ! beat5 way1 & all true4 ,s !y diff] f ! conv5tional poetry4 ,if publi%$1 !re may be "h & !re "s s5tim5tal s\l1 or "s s\l )\t s5tim5t1 or "s critic :o doats on ,robt4 ,br[n+ & don't und]/& him1 or on ,morris1 or ,rossetti1 because !y are high arti/s1 :o may snub ! book4 ,v well2 = comp5sation y w h ! fact t ! poems w w9 = y a liv+ place 9 ! he>ts ( ?\s&s--9 a sanctu>y :]e few are p]mitt$ to ent]4 ,a day or two lat] ,mr4 ,r&olph wrote 9 reply to h] misgiv+s3 ,if ,i _h ! slighte/ ?\ght t y w\ld make ev5 a slight mi/ake 9 publi%+1 ,i w\ld say s4 ,z ,i h already said1 ,i am sure t ! book w\ld prove a bless+ 9 t5 ?\s& ways1 & at ! same "t add to y\r reputation z a writ]4 ,%e c\ld n resi/ ?is appeal4 ,! assurance t ! v]ses w\ld prove a bless+ to _m s\ls dis>m$ h] scruples & %e cons5t$ to _! publication4 ,! mo/ ( !m1 un=tunately1 bore no date4 ,b all1 or ne>ly all ( !m1 belong to ! previ\s tw5ty ye>s1 & !y depict "s ( ! deepe/ exp]i5ces ( h] ,*ri/ian life dur+ t p]iod2 !y are h] te>s ( joy or ( sorr[1 h] cries ( angui%1 & h] songs ( love & triumph4 ,"s ( !m 7 ha/ily writt5 9 p5cil1 ^u torn scraps ( pap]1 z if %e 7 on a j\rney4 ,7 !y all accompani$ ) ! exact "t & circum/ances ( _! composition1 !y w\ld =m1 9 connection ) o!rs unpubli%$1 h] spiritual autobiography f ! dea? ( ,eddy & ,bessie1 9 #aheb1 to ! autumn ( #ahgc4 #h ,z %e anticipat$1 ! volume met 9 "s qu>t]s ) any?+ b a cordial reception2 ! criticisms ^u x 7 curt & depreciatory4 ,its repres5tation ( ! ,*ri/ian life 0 c5sur$ z gloomy & false4 ,x 0 ev5 intimat$ t 9 h] expressions ( pa9 & sorr[1 !re 0 m or less poetical affectation4 ,allud+ to ?is 9 a lett] to a fri5d1 %e writes3 ,i h spok5 ( ! deepe/1 sore/ pa92 n ( trials1 b ( sorr[1 n ( discom=t1 b ( suff]+4 ,& all ,i h spok5 (1 ,i h felt4 ,nev] c\ld ,i h kn[n ,*ri/1 _h ,i n _h l>ge exp]i5ce ( ,him z a *a/is]4444 ,y little "k ! long /ory ( my life1 nor is x necess>y t y %\ld2 b y mu/ take my ^w = x t if ,i d n "k :at suff]+ means1 !re is n a s\l on e>? t does4 ,x has n be5 my habit to say mu* ab\t ?is2 x has be5 a matt] betwe5 myself & my ,god2 b ! results ,i h told1 t ,he may be glorifi$ & t o!rs may be l$ to ,him z ! ,f\nta9 ( life & ( light4 ,i ref]1 ( c\rse1 to ! book ( v]ses2 ,i nev] call$ !m poems4 ,y may dep5d ^u x ! _w is brimful ( pa9 9 "s %ape or o!r2 x is a hurt _w4 ,b no ,*ri/ian %\ld g ab\t groan+ & weep+2 ?\gh sorr[+1 he %\ld be always rejoic+4 ,dur+ tw5ty ye>s ( my life my k9d & wise ,physician 0 prep>+ me1 by _m bitt] rem$ies1 = ! "w ,i 0 to d2 ,i c nev] ?ank or love ,him en\gh = ,8 unfl9*+ discipl9e4 ,ev5 ! favorable notices ( ! volume1 ) two or ?ree exceptions1 ev9c$ little sympa?y ) its _s1 or appreciation ( its lit]>y m]its4 #i ,b :ile fail+ to make any public impression1 ! little book soon f\nd its way into ?\s&s ( closets & sick-rooms & h\ses ( m\rn+1 c>ry+ a bless+ ) x4 ,t\*+ & grateful te/imonies to ?is effect came f ! ,ea/ & ! f>!/ ,we/ & f beyond ! sea4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f1 a lett] to ,mr4 ,r&olph1 writt5 by a lady ( ,new ,york em95t = h] social influ5ce & ,*ri/ian "*3 ,! book ( he>t-hymns is wond]ful1 z ,i expect$ f ! specim5s :i* y read to me f ! little scraps ( pap] f y\r desk4 ,d y "k t ,i liv$ on !m 7,! ,s*ool & ,my ,expectation is f ,!e7 & 0 gre$y to get ! book t ,i might read !m aga9 & aga94 ,& behold1 ! volume is full ( ! ?+s ,i h felt s (t51 express$ z no "o ev] express$ !m be=e4 ,i am ov]:elm$ e "t ,i read x4 ,mr ---- & ! *ildr5 h q laugh$ at ,mamma's en?usiasm ov] a book ( poems1 z ,i am consid]$ v prosaic4 ,i made ,c4 read two or ?ree ( !m & he surr5d]s4 ,n4 too1 :o is full ( appreciation ( poetry z well z ( ! be/ ?+s1 is equally delight$4 ,i c>ri$ ! volume to a sick fri5d & read to h] out ( x4 ,i wi% y c\ld h se5 h[ %e 0 com=t$6 ,i d n "k ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 b if y ev] get a *ance1 ,i w\ld l y to tell h] :at %e has done = me4 ,a highly cultivat$ ,swiss lady wrote f ,g5eva3 ,:at a preci\s1 preci\s book6 & :at m]cy 9 ,god to enable u to und]/&1 & say ,am5 f ! he>t to e l9e6 ,x 0 ,he :o caus$ y to s5d me a book ,i s mu* ne$$--& ,i ?ank ,him z mu* z y4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,incid5ts ( ! ,ye> #ahgd4 ,pray]4 ,/>ts a ,bible-,read+ 9 ,dorset4 ,beg9s to take ,lessons 9 ,pa9t+4 ,a ,lett] f h] ,tea*]4 ,publication ( ,urbane & 8 ,fri5ds4 ,design ( ! ,"w4 ,h] views ( ! ,*ri/ian ,life4 ,! ,my/ics4 ,! ,indwell+ ,*ri/4 ,an ,allegory4 ,dur+ ! w9t] & e>ly spr+ ( #ahgd ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss f\nd mu* delight 9 att5d+ a weekly ,bible-read+1 held by ,miss ,susan ,w>n]4 ,%e 0 deeply impress$ ) ! advantages ( su* a mode ( /udy+ ! ,^w ( ,god1 & 9 ! c\rse ( ! summ] 0 l$ to />t a simil> ex]cise 9 ,dorset4 ,h] lett]s w %[ h[ mu* satisfaction x gave h] dur+ all ! re/ ( h] life4 ,ano!r incid5t1 t left its m>k ^u ?is ye>1 0 ! sudd5 & dang]\s illness ( h] husb&4 ,8 life 0 b>ely sav$ by an imm$iate surgical op]ation4 ,he convalesc$ v sl[ly & x 0 _m mon?s be=e %e recov]$ f ! %ock4 ,to a ,*ri/ian ,fri5d1 ,jan4 #be1 #ahgd4 ,i d n p]fectly und]/& :at y say ab\t pray]1 b x rem9ds me ( ,mrs4----'s express+ surprise at my pray+4 ,%e said %e did n1 because ,*ri/ 0 all r\nd h]4 ,b x is no less a fact t ,*ri/ ,himself sp5t h\rs 9 pray]1 us+ language :5 ,he did s4 ,t does n prove1 h[ev]1 t ,he did n hold sil5t1 my/ical communion ) ! ,fa!r4 ,x seems to me t communion is "o ?+1 & int]cessory pray] ano!r2 my own pray]s are *iefly ( ! latt] class2 ! sweet s5se ( communion ( :i* ,i h _h s mu*1 has be5 greatly want+2 ,i d>e n ask = x2 ,i mu/ pray z ! ,_s gives me utt]ance4 ,no d\bt y\r exp]i5ce is beyond m9e2 ,i c conceive ( a sil5ce t unites1 n sep>ates1 z exi/+ betwe5 ,*ri/ & ! s\l4 ,z to h] ( :om we sadly spoke1 ,i am s absolutely lo/ 9 confusion ( ?\ght t ,i feel z if *>t & compass _h gone ov]bo>d4 ,i believe !re c be falls f ! highe/ /ate ( grace1 & t sometimes a fall is ! be/ ?+ t c happ5 to "o2 b x is an appall+ ?\ght4 ,h[ w>y all ?is %\ld make y & me6444 ,?\gh ,i h felt ! greate/ respect = ,miss ----1 ,i h (t5 wond]$ :y ,i did n love h] m4 ,well1 we h a new reason = flee+ to ,*ri/ 9 ?is p]plexity & disappo9tm5t4 ,i _h let h] be 9 _m ?+s my oracle1 & p]haps no human be+ ought to be t4 ,%all we ev] le>n to put no confid5ce 9 ! fle%8 ,my husb& ?9ks ,miss ---- insane4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,jan #bg1 #ahgd4 ,! com=t ,i h _h z ! fruit ( close acqua9tance ) a sick-room6 ,i see m & m h[ wise ,god 01 z well z h[ good1 9 hid+ me away dur+ all ! ye>s t might h be5 v tempt+1 _h ,i _h my fre$om4 ,my publi%+ ?is book #aj 0 a sort ( miracle2 ,i nev] meant to d x1 b my w 0 tak5 away & x 0 done 9 "o %ort mon?4 ,i %\ld n expect a girl z "y z y\rself to respond to mu* ( x1 b ,i am glad y f\nd any?+ to :i* y c\ld4444 ,:5 ,i receiv$ my own great bless+ ?irty-five ye>s ago1 ,i 0 y\ng] ?an y are n[1 & hadn't half ! light y h1 nor did ,i "k exactly :at to aim at1 b blund]$ & suff]$ n a little4444 ,x seems to me t x is em95tly fitt+ t we %\ld g to ! ?rone ( grace toge!r1 & expect1 9 s do+1 a diff]5t k9d ( bless+ f t s\ght alone1 9 ! closet4 ,i nev] feel any emb>rassm5t 9 pray+ ) ^? old] & bett] ?an myself2 ! bett] !y are1 ! less dispos$ !y w be to look d[n ^u me4 ,! tru? is1 we are all alike 9 be+ poor & ne$y1 & x is a good ?+ to get toge!r & confess ?is to our ,fa!r1 9 ea* o!r's he>+4 ,i c unite cordially ) anyone1 man1 woman or *ild1 :o really prays4 ,a v illit]ate p]son c\ld w9 my he>t if ,i knew he truly lov$ ! ,"l ,jesus1 no matt] h[ clumsily he express$ t love2 & 8 pray]s w\ld edify me4 ,p]haps y c n look at ?is matt] exactly z ,i d4 ,i "k ,i suff]$ = ye>s1 :5ev] ,i pray$ ) o!rs1 old or "y2 b ,i p]sev]$ 9 :at ,i believ$ to be a duty1 until1 n s v long ago1 ! duty became a pleasure1 all fe> ( man be+ tak5 away4 ,i nev] ?9k any?+ ab\t :at sort ( a pray] ,i make2 9 fact ,i make no pray]2 we h to speak z ! ,_s gives u utt]ance4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,kau9fels1 #aa ,aug4 #af1 #ahgd4 ,ye/]day ,miss ,h4 came d[n & ask$ me if ,i w\ld />t a ,bible-read+ at h] h\se4 ,i told h] ,i w\ld ) pleasure4 ,?is morn+ ,i decid$ to op5 ) ! ,s]mon on ! ,m\nt1 & h be5 /udy+ ! fir/ promise4 ,d take y\r ,bible & /udy t v]se by read+ ! ref]5ces4 ,i am delight$ t our de> ,"l has at la/ po9t$ out my mission to ?is village4 ,i h long pray$ t ,he w\ld op5 a way ( access to he>ts "h4 ,pray next ,w$nesday aft]noon t ,i may be a witness = ,him4 ,!re are a numb] ( families bo>d+ 9 t[n1 :o w jo9 ! read+4 ,miss ,h4 want$ to give notice f ! pulpit1 b ,i c\ld n cons5t to t4444 ,y say y\r "m asks ab\t my book4 ,x is a que] "o1 & ,i am n satisfi$ ) x2 b my husb& is1 & ?9ks x w d good4 ,god grant x may4 ,i entitle x ,pa?s ( ,peace2 or1 ,*ri/ian ,fri5ds 9 ,c\ncil4 #ab ,aft] ! mo/ e>ne/ pray] = light1 ,i c n prea* s9less p]fection4 ,i ?9k ,god has provid$ a way to p]fection1 & t t is1 look+ unto ,jesus4 ,if ! high] life means utt] s9lessness !n ,i %all h to own t ,i h nev] _h any exp]i5ce ( x4 ,mr4 ,p4 has giv5 me a _w ( anxiety4 ,he w g r\nd ev]y:]e1 ev5 on jolt+ /raw-rides2 8 w\nd is ne>ly heal$1 h[ev]4 ,he is look+ ! picture ( heal?1 b feels uncom=table & sleeps re/lessly4 ,i w5t up to ! tav]n lately z a great piece ( self-d5ial to call on a lady bo>d+ !re1 & f\nd ,i _h ?us /umbl$ on to f9e gold2 ! gold y & ,i love4 ,%e is ! wife ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,r41 ( ,flu%+4 ,soon aft] return+ to t[n %e began to take lessons 9 oil pa9t+4 ,h] tea*] 0 ,mrs4 ,julia ,h4 ,be]s--n[ ,mrs4 ,kempson--a lady gift$ ) mu* ( ! arti/ic p[] belong+ to h] di/+ui%$ bro!rs1 ,william & ,james ,m4 ,h>t4 ,9 ?is new pursuit ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss pass$ _m v busy & happy h\rs4 ,! foll[+ lett] to h] husb& gives ,mrs4 ,kempson's recollections ( !m3 ,,firtree ,,cottage1 ,,metu*51 ,jan4 #bg1 #ahhj4 ,my de> ,dr4 ,pr5tiss3--,:5 ! news came ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' dea? ,i felt t ,i _h lo/ a fri5d ^: place c\ld n be fill$4 ,i nev] _h a pupil 9 :om ,i 0 s mu* int]e/$1 or "o t ,i lov$ s de>ly4 ,%e has told me _m times t ! days sp5t ) me 7 r$-lett] days 9 h] life4 ,!y c]ta9ly 7 9 my own4 ,i %all nev] =get h] fir/ visit to my /udio on ! corn] ( ,fif? av5ue & ,tw5ty-six? /reet4 ,we _h n met be=e1 & ,i felt some:at aw$ 9 ! pres5ce ( an au?oress4 ,b 9 a few m9utes we 7 fa/ fri5ds4 ,tak+ "o ( my portfolios 9 h] arms %e ask$1 ,may ,i sit d[n on ! floor & take ?is 9 my lap8 ,( c\rse ,i ass5t$4 ,%e por$ ov] ! cont5ts ) ! delight ( a *ild4 ,!n turn+ to me %e said1 ,?is is :at ,i h _h a crav+ = all my life4 ,!re has always be5 a want unsuppli$2 ,i knew n :at x 02 b n[ ,i "k4 ,x 0 a rea*+ out = ! beautiful4 ,look at my :ite hair & tell me if x w\ld be possible = me to le>n4 ,i repli$1 ,yes1 if y desire to d s4 ,w y take me = a pupil8 %e ask$4 ,i d n "k :i* end ( ! bru% to use4 ,no matt]1 ,i said2 ,i c tea* y4 ,%e became my pupil & y "k ! result4 ,b y c n "k1 z ,i d1 ! delight %e took 9 h] /udies4 ,my ord9>y pupils 7 limit$ to two h\rs4 ,b ,i said to h]1 ,come at t5 & /ay z long z y please4 ,punctual to ! mom5t %e came1 seat$ h]self at h] easel1 & r>ely left x :ile ! light la/$4 ,i nev] saw su* en?usiasm or su* appreciation4 ,at fir/ h] progress 0 sl[1 b z %e ga9$ k ( ! mat]ials1 x became v rapid4 ,9 my op9ion %e _h rem>kable tal5t1 &1 if sp>$1 might ev5 h made h]self a "n z an arti/4 ,i h _h hundr$s ( pupils1 b n "o ( !m ev] made su* progress4 ,:at a delight x 0 to tea* h]6 ,all h] qua9t say+s & h] beautifully express$ ?\ghts ,i treasur$ up z preci\s ?+s4 ,%e always br\ght brightness to ! /udio ) h]4 ,i c see h] s pla9ly ?is mom5t z %e came 9 "o morn+4 ,well1 %e said1 ,i ?\ght :5 ,i comm5c$ pa9t+ if ev] ,i pa9t$ a daisy t did n ne$ to be label$1 ,i %\ld be pr\d1 & ,i h done x4 ,i wi%1 de> ,dr4 ,pr5tiss1 ,i c\ld recall ! ?\s& & "o pleasant ?+s t e n[ & !n h occurr$ to me1 :ile ,i 0 ?9k+ ( h]4 ,i tri$ to write to y :5 ,i he>d ( y\r great loss1 b my he>t fail$ me4 ,i c\ld n1 nor c ,i1 imag9e y liv+ )\t h]4 ,9 h] la/ lett] to me %e says1 speak+ ( my daught]'s m>riage3 ,i hope ?irty ye>s h5ce ! twa9 w be z mu* 9 love ) ea* o!r z two old codg]s ( my acqua9tance1 :o g on talk+ heav5ly nons5se to ea* o!r aft] ! mo/ approv$ fa%ion4 ,h[ little ,i !n dream$ t we %\ld nev] meet aga96 ,i %\ld mu* l to see y all4 ,i h n =gott5 t pleasant summ] at ,dorset 9 #ahge1 nor ! great pan ( blackb]ries y pick$ = me ) y\r own h&s4 ,) k9de/ reg>ds1 v s9c]ely1 ,,julia ,h4 ,,kempson4 ,to ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 ,new ,york1 ,dec4 #ahgd4 ,aft] le>n+ h[ to manage a ,bible-read+ by att5d+ ,miss ,w>n]'s once a week = f\r or five mon?s1 ,i got my tongue s loos$ t ,i h held "o by reque/ at ,dorset4 ,! int]e/ 9 x did n flag all summ]1 & ladies1 "y & old1 came f all directions1 n only to ! read+s1 b ) te>s to op5 _! he>ts to me4 ,"s hi!rto worldly ones 7 among ! numb]4 ,i h also help$ to />t "o at ,elizabe?1 ano!r at ,orange1 ano!r at ,flu%+4 ,my husb& says if "o 7 held 9 e *ur* 9 ! l& ! c\ntry w\ld be revolutionis$4 ,x is j su* "w z y w\ld delight 94 ,d =give ! blots2 ,i am te>+ away on ?is lett] s t ,i =get myself & dip up too mu* ink4 ,i h be5 urg$ to hold ?ree read+s a week 9 diff]5t p>ts ( ! city1 b t is n possible4 ,y c't imag9e h[ ?ankful ,i am t ,i h at la/ f\nd a sph]e ( usefulness 9 ,dorset4 ,we _h a great %ock la/ spr+ :5 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 /rick5 d[n2 ,i d n d>e to ?9k h[ h>d x w\ld h be5 to become husb&less & homeless at "o bl[4 ,b ,i well "k t no e>?ly circum/ances ne$ really de/roy our happ9ess 9 t :i* is1 aft] all1 our ,life4 ,ev5 if x is only = ! few ye>s be=e our boys leave home1 nev] to return p]man5tly to x1 ,i %all be ?ankful to h x left z x is--if t is be/4 ,if ,i _h n kn[n :at my husb&'s tr\ble 01 & summon$ aid 9 ! tw9kl+ ( an eye1 ,dr4 ,buck says he w\ld h di$4 ,he w\ld c]ta9ly h di$ if he _h be5 at ,dorset4 ,he has nev] recov]$ 8 /r5g?1 b is able to give 8 lectures4 ,al?\gh ,i did v little nurs+1 ,i got a good deal run d[n1 especially f los+ sleep1 & h _h to g to b$ at half-pa/ eight or n9e all summ] & ?us f> 9 ! w9t]4 ,i am tak+ lessons ?is w9t] 9 oil-pa9t+ ) ,a4 ,%e has ! advantage ( me 9 hav+ _h lessons 9 draw+1 :ile ,i h _h none4 ,my tea*] says %e nev] _h a beg9n] d bett] ?an ,i1 s ,i ?9k beg9n]s v awkw>d mortals1 :o get pa9t all ov] _! clo!s1 h&s & faces1 & :o1 if !y get a pretty picture1 "k 9 ! secrecy ( _! guilty consci5ces x 0 done by a compassionate arti/ :o w\ld fa9 p]suade "o into ! fancy t ! "w 0 "o's own4 ,:at y say ab\t my hav+ done y good surprises me4 ,:atev] treasure ,god has 9 me is hidd5 9 an e>!n vessel & unse5 by my own eyes4444 ,i feel e day h[ mu* !re is to le>n1 h[ mu* to unle>n1 & t no g5u9e exp]i5ce is to be despis$4 ,"s p r\ndly b]ate ,*ri/ians = want ( fai? 9 ,god's ^w1 :5 x is want ( fai? 9 _! own private int]pretation ( ,8 ^w4 ,i ?9k t :5 ! v be/ & wise/ ( mank9d get to heav51 !y'll get a /&>d ( hol9ess t might make !m blu%2 only x is n likely !y w blu%4 ,9 ! latt] "p ( ?is ye> ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds appe>$4 ,urbane is an ag$ pa/or & 8 ,fri5ds are memb]s ( 8 flock1 :om he _h invit$ to meet him f week to week = ,*ri/ian c\nsel & fell[%ip4 ,"s ( _! names1 ,antio*us1 ,h]mes1 ,junia1 ,claudia1 ,apelles & ! l1 s\nd r /range1 b1 toge!r ) ^? m famili>1 !y are all borr[$ f ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds is ! only book ( a didactic sort writt5 by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,x is n1 h[ev]1 :olly didactic1 b conta9s also t\*es ( n>rative & "* t add to its int]e/4 ,among ! topics discuss$ are3 ,! ,bible1 ,temptation1 ,fai?1 ,pray]1 ! ,my/ics1 ,! ,high] ,*ri/ian ,life1 ,s]vice1 ,pa9 & ,sorr[1 ,peace & ,joy1 & ! ,indwell+ ,*ri/4 ,%e 0 dissatisfi$ ) ! "w & requir$ "s p]suasion be=e %e w\ld cons5t to its be+ publi%$4 ,b its spiritual tone1 its t5d]ness1 its sweet reasonabl5ess1 & ! bright little pictures ( ,*ri/ian tru? & life1 :i* enliv5 its pages1 h l$ "s to prize x m ?an any o!r ( h] writ+s4 ,& "h x may n be out ( place to ins]t ! foll[+ lett] ( h] husb&1 writt5 sev]al mon?s aft] h] dea?4 ,x gives h] matur$ views on c]ta9 po9ts relat+ to ! ,*ri/ian life1 ab\t :i* !re has be5 no little diff]5ce ( op9ion3 ,,new ,,york1 ,april #af1 #ahgi4 ,,my ,,de> ,,fri5d3--,_m ?anks = y\r k9d words ab\t ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds4 ,s f> at lea/ z ! aim & _s ( ! book are conc]n$1 no praise c\ld exce$ its m]its4 ,x 0 writt5 ) a s+le desire to honor ,*ri/ by aid+ & *e]+ "s ( ,8 disciples on _! way heav5w>d4 ,at t "t1 z y "k1 !re 0 a good deal ( discussion ab\t ! ,high] ,*ri/ian ,life & ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?4 ,%e h]self _h felt "s ( ! difficulties connect$ ) ! subject1 & 0 anxi\s to rea* out a help+ h& to o!rs simil>ly p]plex$4 ,i d n ?9k h] m9d 0 specially adapt$ to ! didactic /yle1 nor 0 x mu* to h] ta/e4 ,:5 writ+ 9 t /yle h] p5 did n seem to be entirely at ease1 or to move q at its own sweet w4 ,c>eful /atem5t & nice !ological di/9ctions 7 n h] =te4 ,& yet h] m5tal grasp ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e 9 its vital sub/ance 0 v firm1 & h] p[] ( obs]v+1 z well z depict+1 ! mo/ delicate & v>y+ ph5om5a ( ! spiritual life 0 l an in/9ct4 ,a pur] or m :ole-he>t$ love ( ! tru? z x is 9 ,jesus1 ,i nev] witness$ 9 any human be+4 ,at ! same "t %e 0 v mode/ & di/ru/ful ( h] own judgm5t :5 oppos$ to t ( o!rs :om %e reg>d$ z exp]i5c$ ,*ri/ians4 ,i wi% y c\ld enjoy a ti! ( ! happ9ess t 0 m9e dur+ ! w9t] & spr+ ( #ahgc-d1 z1 ev5+ aft] ev5+1 %e talk$ ov] ) me ! v>i\s po9ts discuss$ 9 h] book1 & !n read to me :at %e _h writt54 ,^? 7 gold5 h\rs inde$--h\rs 9 :i* 0 fulfill$ ! say+ t is writt5--,& x came to pass t :ile !y commun$ toge!r & reason$1 ,jesus ,himself drew ne>4 ,z ,i look back to ! ,sabba? ev5+s pass$ ) h] 9 su* conv]se1 !y seem to me radiant /ill ) ! glory ( ! ris5 ,*ri/4 ,nor am ,i able to imag9e :at else ?an ,8 pres5ce c\ld h r5d]$ !m1 at ! "t1 s soo?+ & blissful4 ,y ref] to h] fondness = ! my/ics4 ,%e ?\ght t ,*ri/ian piety owes a l>ge debt ( gratitude to su* writ]s z ,?omas ,kempis1 ,madame ,guyon1 ,f5elon1 ,leighton1 ,t]/eeg51 & o!rs l !m 9 e>li] & lat] times1 to :om ! secret ( ! ,"l seem$ 9 a peculi> mann] to h be5 reveal$1 & :o ) s]aphic zeal trod z well z taught ! pa?s ( peace & hol9ess4 ,:ile %e 0 writ+ ! *apt] on ! ,my/ics1 ,i %[$ h] ,col]idge's tribute to !m 9 8 ,biographia ,lit]>ia1 :i* greatly pleas$ h]4 ,x is h] own exp]i5ce t %e puts into ! m\? ( ,urbane1 :]e he says1 aft] quot+ ,col]idge's tribute1 ,i h no recollection ( ev] read+ ?is passage till today1 b _h toil$ out its tru? = myself1 & n[ set my h& & seal to x4 #ac ,x is = h]1 too1 z well z = himself1 t ,urbane speaks1 :]e1 9 answ] to ,h]mes' "q1 ,:o are ! ,my/ics8 he says3 ,!y are ! m5 & wom5 kn[n to e age ( ! ,*ur*1 :o usually make _! way ?r\gh ! _w completely misund]/ood by _! fell[-m54 ,_! v virtues sometimes appe> to be vices4 ,!y are (t5 ! scorn & contempt ( _! "t1 & are ev5 p]secut$ & ?r[n into prison by ^? :o ?9k !y ?us d our ,"l s]vice4 ,b n[ & !n "o arises :o sees1 or ?9ks he sees1 "s clue to _! lives & _! spee*4 ,?\gh n ( !m1 he feels a my/]i\s k9%ip to !m t makes him %r9k ) pa9 :5 he he>s !m spok5 ( unju/ly4 ,n[1 ,i happ5 to be su* a man4 ,i h n built up any pet !ory t ,i want to su/a92 ,i am n 9 any way b\nd to fight = any s*ool2 b ,i %\ld be mo/ ungrateful to ,god & man if ,i did n ackn[l$ge t ,i owe mu* ( ! sum & sub/ance ( ! be/ "p ( my life to my/ical writ]s--aye1 & my/ical ?9k]s1 :om ,i "k 9 ! fle%4444 ,i use ,*ri/ z a magnet1 & say to all :o cleave to ,him--ev5 :5 ,i c n p]fectly agree ) !m on e po9t ( doctr9e3 ,y love ,*ri/1 !re=e ,i love y4 ,closely alli$ to h] fondness = ! ,my/ics 0 h] delight 9 ! doctr9e ( ! indwell+ ,*ri/4 ,= m ?an ?irty ye>s x 0 a favorite subject ( our ,sunday & week-day talk4 ,! clos+ *apt]s ( ! ,gospel ( ,john1 ! ,epi/le to ! ,ephesians1 & o!r p>ts ( ! ,new ,te/am5t1 9 :i* ?is mo/ preci\s tru? is en%r9$1 7 especially de> to h]4 ,s too1 & = ! same reason1 0 ,lavat]'s hymn beg9n+1 ,o ,jesus ,*ri/us1 wa*s 9 mir-- a hymn ) :i* we became acqua9t$ soon aft] our m>riage1 & :i* ,i d n d\bt %e repeat$ to h]self _m ?\s&s ( times4 #ad ,! sure/ way1 z %e ?\ght1 ( ris+ above ! bondage ( frames & ent]+ into ! glori\s lib]ty ( ! sons ( ,god1 is to become fully consci\s ( our actual union to ,*ri/ & ( :at is involv$ 9 ?is ?rice-sacr$ union4 ,x is n en\gh t we tru/ 9 ,him z our ,savi\r & ! ,"l our ,righte\sness2 ,he mu/ also dwell 9 our he>ts by fai? z our spiritual life4 ,! union is inde$ my/ical & indescribable1 b none ! less real or less joy-inspir+ = all t4 ,we want no metaphor & no m]e ab/raction 9 our s\ls2 we want ,*ri/ ,himself4 ,we want to be able to say 9 sublime contradiction1 ,i live1 yet n ,i1 b ,*ri/ live? 9 me4 ,& ?is1 too1 is ! way ( sanctification1 z well z ( re/ ( consci5ce4 ,= j 9 proportion z ,*ri/ lives 9 ! s\l1 self goes out & ) x s94 ,j 9 proportion z self goes out1 ,*ri/ comes 91 & ) ,him righte\sness1 peace1 & joy 9 ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b z1 9 h] view1 ! doctr9e ( an indwell+ ,*ri/ did n supplant ! doctr9e ( an aton+ & int]c$+ ,*ri/1 s nei!r did x supplant t ( ,*ri/ z our ,example or annul ! great law ( self-sacrifice by :i*1 foll[+ 9 ,8 /eps1 we also are to be made p]fect ?r\gh suff]+4 ,su* is a brief outl9e ( h] tea*+ on ?is subject 9 ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds4 ,& f its publication until h] dea?1 h] !ory ( ! way ( hol9ess r$uc$ itself m & m to ^! two simple po9ts3 ,*ri/ 9 ! fle% %[+ & tea*+ u h[ to live1 & ,*ri/ 9 ! ,_s liv+ 9 u4 ,& ?is pres5ce ( ,*ri/ 9 ! s\l %e reg>d$1 ,i repeat1 z an actual1 z well z actuat+1 pres5ce2 m$iat$ inde$1 l ,8 sacrifice ^u ! cross1 by ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,b1 z ?r\gh ! ,et]nal ,_s ,he (f]$ ,,himself )\t spot unto ,god1 ev5 s 9 & ?r\gh ! same ,et]nal ,_s1 ,he ,,himself comes & takes up ,8 abode 9 ! he>ts ( ,8 fai?ful disciples4 ,8 indwell+ is n a m]e metaphor1 n a b>e moral relation1 b ! mo/ bless$ reality--a v]itable union ( life & love4 ,%e ?\ght t mu* ( ! mean+ & com=t ( ! doctr9e 0 sometimes lo/ by n keep+ ?is po9t 9 m9d4 ,9 a lett] writt5 n long be=e h] dea?1 %e reit]at$ v /rongly h] conviction on ?is subject1 appeal+ to our ,"l's tea*+ 9 ! sev5te5? *apt] ( ,john4 #ae ,& ?is br+s me to :at y say ab\t ! *apt] entitl$ ,! ,my/ics ( ,to-day2 or1 ,! ,high] ,*ri/ian ,life1 & to y\r inquiry z to h] lat] views on ! "q4 ,y are q "r 9 suppos+ t :ile writ+ ?is *apt] %e _h a good deal ( sympa?y ) "s ( ! advocates ( ! ,high] ,life doctr9e4 ,%e he>tily agre$ ) !m 9 believ+ t x is ! privilege ( ,*ri/'s disciples to rise to a mu* high] /ate ( holy love1 assurance1 & re/ ( s\l ?an ! mo/ ( !m seem ev] to rea* 9 ?is _w2 & fur!r1 t su* a spiritual uplift+ may come1 & sometimes does come1 9 ! way ( a sudd5 & extraord9>y exp]i5ce4 ,b x is nev] )\t a hi/ory4 ,%e gives a beautiful picture ( su* an exp]i5ce 9 ! case ( ,/ephanas1 :o 0 z gay z any boy1 & !n adds3 ,n[1 ! desc5t ( ! bless+ 0 sudd5 & lift$ him at once into a new _w1 b ! prep>ation = x _h be5 go+ on ev] s9ce he le>n$ to pray4 ,b :ile agree+ ) ! advocates ( ! ,high] ,life doctr9e 9 "s po9ts1 %e 0 f> f agree+ ) !m 9 all4 ,& h] disagreem5t increas$ & grew m decid$ 9 h] lat] ye>s4 ,! subject is (t5 allud$ to 9 h] lett]s to ,*ri/ian fri5ds2 & %\ld ^! lett]s ev] be publi%$1 !y w answ] y\r inquiry mu* bett] ?an ,i c d4 ,! po9ts 9 ! ,high] ,life & ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai? views :i* %e mo/ /rongly diss5t$ f1 relat$ to ! "q ( p]fection4 ,! ,*ri/ian life--?is 0 h] view--is subject to ! great law ( gr[?4 ,x is a process1 an education1 & n a m]e volition1 or s]ies ( volitions4 ,its progress may be rapid1 b1 ideally consid]$1 ea* new /age is condition$ by ! "o t w5t be=e3 fir/ ! blade1 !n ! e>1 aft] t ! full corn 9 ! e>4 ,x embraces ! :ole _s & s\l & body2 & its p]fect developm5t1 !re=e1 is a v compreh5sive ?+1 t\*+ ! l5g? & bread?1 ! dep? & height ( our entire be+4 ,x is also1 9 its v nature1 conflict z well z gr[?2 ! =ces ( evil mu/ be vanqui%$1 & ^! =ces1 :e!r act+ ?r\gh body1 s\l1 or _s1 are v subtle1 trea*]\s1 & (t5 occult1 z well z v pot5t2 ! be/ man on e>?1 if left to himself1 w\ld fall a prey to !m4 ,no fact ( religi\s exp]i5ce is m /rik+ ?an ?is1 t ! high] m5 rise 9 real goodness--! ne>] !y come to ,god1 ! m ke5-ey$ & di/ress$ are !y to detect evil 9 !mselves4 ,_! s5se ( s9 seems to be 9 a sort ( inv]se ratio to _! fre$om f its p[]4 ,& we meet ) a simil> fact 9 ! natural life4 ,! f9] & m exalt$ ! s5tim5t ( purity & honor1 ! m s5sitive w "o be to ! slighte/ approa* to :at is impure or di%onorable 9 "o's own "* & conduct4 ,su* is sub/antially h] gr\nd ( diss5t f ! ,high] ,life !ory4 ,h] own s5se ( s9 0 s pr(\nd & vivid t %e %udd]$ at ! ?\ght ( claim+ p]fection = h]self2 & x seem$ to h] a v sad delusion = anybody else to claim x4 ,true hol9ess is nev] self-consci\s2 x does n look at itself 9 ! glass2 & if x did1 x w\ld see only ,*ri/1 n itself1 reflect$ !re4 ,?is 0 h] way ( look+ at ! subject2 & %e came to reg>d all !ories1 /ill m all pr(essions1 ( entire sanctification z fallaci\s & full ( p]il--n a help1 b a s]i\s h9drance to real ,*ri/ian hol9ess4 ,= sev]al ye>s %e n only read b c>efully /udi$ ! mo/ not$ writ]s :o advocat$ ! ,high] ,life & ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai? doctr9es1 & h] te/imony 0 t !y _h done h] h>m4 ,i f9d myself spiritually injur$ by !m1 %e wrote to a fri5d less ?an two ye>s be=e h] dea?4 ,h[ d y expla9 ! fact1 %e add$1 t truly good p are left to produce su* an effect8 ,is x n to %ut u up to ,*ri/8 ,:at a relief x w be to get beyond our own weaknesses1 & ^? ( o!rs6 ,i long = t day4 ,i h j allud$ to h] deep1 vivid consci\sness ( s94 ,x w\ld h be5 an intol]able burd51 _h n h] feel+ ( ,god's inf9ite grace & love 9 ,*ri/ be5 /ill m vivid & pr(\nd4 ,! little allegory 9 ! n9? *apt] ( ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds expresses v happily ?is feel+4 ,!re are sev]al o!r po9ts 9 h] !ory ( ! ,*ri/ian life1 to :i* %e atta*$ mu* importance4 ,"o is ! close connexion betwe5 suff]+ 9 "s =m & hol9ess1 or gr[? 9 grace4 ,! cross ! way to ! cr[n--?is ?\ght runs1 l a gold5 ?read1 ?r\gh all ! records ( h] religi\s hi/ory4 ,%e express$ x :ile a little girl1 z %e sat "o day ) a "y fri5d on a tomb/one 9 ! old bury+-gr\nd at ,portl&4 ,x occurs aga9 & aga9 9 h] e>ly lett]s2 9 "o writt5 9 #ahdj %e says3 ,i ?\ght to myself t if ,god cont9u$ ,8 fai?fulness t[>ds me1 ,i %all h afflictions su* z ,i n[ "k no?+ m ( ?an ! "n2 9 ano!r writt5 f\r ye>s lat]1 9 ! mid/ ( ! sweete/ joy3 ,i "k !re are "s ( ! great lessons ( life yet to be le>n$2 ,i believe ,i mu/ suff] z long z ,i h an e>?ly exi/5ce4 ,& 9 aft] ye>s1 :5 x =m$ s l>ge an elem5t 9 h] own exp]i5ce1 %e came to reg>d suff]+1 :5 sanctifi$ by ! ^w ( ,god & by pray]1 z ! ,k+'s highway to ,*ri/ian p]fection4 ,?is po9t is (t5 ref]r$ to & illu/rat$ 9 h] v>i\s writ+s--m especially 9 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d & ,gold5 ,h\rs4 ,possibly %e c>ri$ h] !ory a little too f>2 p]haps x does n appe> to be always v]ifi$ 9 actual ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce2 b1 c]ta9ly1 no "o c d5y t x is 9 h>mony ) ! g5]al tea*+ ( inspir$ ,scripture & ) ! _s ( ca?olic piety 9 all ages4 #af ,ano!r po9t1 :i* also f\nd illu/ration 9 h] books1 is ! vital connexion betwe5 ! habit ( dev\t communion ) ,god 9 ,*ri/ & all ! daily virtues & *>ities ( religion2 ano!r /ill is ! close aff9ity betwe5 dep? 9 piety & ! highe/1 sweete/ enjoym5t ( e>?ly good4 ,h] own ,*ri/ian life 0 to me a /udy f ! beg9n+4 ,x _h heights & dep?s ( its own1 :i* aw$ me & :i* ,i c\ld n fully p5etrate4 ,jona?an ,edw>ds' exquisite description ( ,s>ah ,pi]repont at ! age ( ?irte51 ,mrs4 ,edw>ds' own acc\nt ( h] religi\s ex]cises aft] h] m>riage1 & ,goe!'s ,confessions ( a ,beautiful ,s\l1 always rem9d$ me ( "s ( its *>act]i/ic features4 ,if my pa/oral m9i/rations gave any aid & com=t to o!r s\ls1 ,i c truly say x 0 all l>gely due to h]4 ,& z = myself1 my debt ( gratitude to h] z a spiritual help] & fri5d 9 ,*ri/ 01 & is1 & ev] w be1 unspeakable4 ,! in/ant ,i began to "k h]1 ,i began to feel ! *e]+ influ5ce & uplift+ p[] ( h] fai?4 ,= m ?an a ?ird ( a c5tury x 0 ! mo/ con/ant & by f> ! /ronge/ human =ce t wr\ght 9 my religi\s life4 ,nor 0 x a human =ce alone2 = surely fai? l h]s is 9 real contact ) ,*ri/ ,himself & is an inspiration ( ,8 ,_s4 ,%e long$ s to live & move & h h] be+ 9 love to ,*ri/1 t nobody c\ld come ne> h] )\t be+ /raightway rem9d$ ( ,him4 ,%e seem$ to be always say+ to h]self1 9 ! words ( an old ,iri% hymn3 #ag ,*ri/ ) me1 ,*ri/ be=e me1 ,*ri/ beh9d me1 ,*ri/ )9 me1 ,*ri/ b5ea? me1 ,*ri/ above me1 ,*ri/ at my "r1 ,*ri/ at my left1 ,*ri/ 9 ! he>t ( e man :o ?9ks ( me1 ,*ri/ 9 ! m\? ( e man :o speaks to me1 ,*ri/ 9 e eye t sees me1 ,*ri/ 9 e e> t he>s me4 ,su* 0 h] con/ant pray]2 & x 0 answ]$ 9 ! exp]i5ce ( _m s\ls1 ^: fai? 0 k9dl$ into a bright] flame by ! int5se ardor ( h]s4 ,s long & s closely1 9 my own m9d1 0 %e associat$ ) ,*ri/1 t ! ?\ght ( h] /ill rem9ds me ( ,him z naturally z does read+ ab\t ,him 9 ! ,new ,te/am5t4 ,! allegory ref]r$ to above is "h giv53 ,a b5evol5t man f\nd a half-/>v$1 homeless1 bl9d begg>-boy 9 ! /reets ( a great city4 ,he took him1 j z he 01 to 8 own h\se1 adopt$ him z 8 own son1 & began to educate him4 ,b ! boy le>n$ v sl[ly1 & 8 face 0 (t5 sad4 ,8 fa!r ask$ him :y he did n fix 8 m9d m ^u 8 lessons1 & :y he 0 n *e]ful & happy1 l ! o!r *ildr54 ,! boy repli$ t 8 m9d 0 con/antly occupi$ ) ! fe> t he _h n be5 really adopt$ z a son1 & might at any mom5t le>n 8 mi/ake4 ,fa!r4 ,b c y n believe me :5 ,i assure y t y are my own de> son8 ,boy4 ,i c n1 = ,i c see no reason :y y %\ld adopt me4 ,i 0 a poor1 bad boy2 y did n ne$ any m *ildr51 = y _h a h\se full ( !m1 & ,i nev] c d any?+ = y4 ,fa!r4 ,y c love me & be happy1 & z y gr[ old] & /rong] y c "w = me4 ,boy4 ,i am afraid ,i d n love y2 t is :at tr\bles me4 ,fa!r4 ,w\ld y n be v sorry to h me d5y t y are my son1 & turn y out ( ! h\se8 ,boy4 ,oh1 yes6 ,b p]haps t is because y take good c>e ( me1 n because ,i love y4 ,fa!r4 ,suppose1 !n1 ,i %\ld provide "s "o else to take c>e ( y1 & %\ld !n leave y4 ,boy4 ,t w\ld be dreadful4 ,fa!r4 ,:y8 ,y w\ld be tak5 good c>e (1 & h e want suppli$4 ,boy4 ,b ,i %\ld h no fa!r4 ,i %\ld lose ! be/ ?+ ,i h4 ,i %\ld be lonely4 ,fa!r4 ,y see y love me a little1 at all ev5ts4 ,n[1 d y ?9k ,i love y8 ,boy4 ,i don't see h[ y c4 ,i am su* a bad boy & try y\r pati5ce s4 ,& ,i am n half z ?ankful to y = y\r goodness z ,i ought to be4 ,sometimes1 = a m9ute1 ,i ?9k to myself1 ,he is my fa!r & he really loves me2 !n ,i d some?+ wrong1 & ,i ?9k nobody w\ld want su* a boy1 nobody c love su* a boy4 ,fa!r4 ,my son1 ,i tell y t ,i d love y1 b y c n believe x because y d n "k me4 ,& y d n "k me because y h n se5 me1 because y are bl9d4 ,i mu/ h y cur$ ( ?is bl9dness4 ,s ! bl9d boy _h ! scales remov$ f 8 eyes & began to see4 ,he became s int]e/$ 9 us+ 8 eyesight t1 = a "t1 he p>tially lo/ 8 old habit ( despond5cy4 ,b "o day1 :5 x began to creep back1 he saw 8 fa!r's face light up ) love z "o aft] ano!r ( 8 *ildr5 came to him = a bless+1 & said to himself3 ,!y are 8 own *ildr51 & x is n /range t he loves !m1 & does s mu* to make !m happy4 ,b ,i am no?+ b a begg>-boy2 he c't love me4 ,i w\ld give any?+ if he c\ld4 ,!n ! fa!r ask$ :y 8 face 0 sad1 & ! boy told him4 ,fa!r4 ,come into ?is picture gall]y & tell me :at y see4 ,boy4 ,i see a portrait ( a poor1 ragg$1 dirty boy4 ,& "h is ano!r4 ,& ano!r4 ,:y1 ! gall]y is full ( !m6 ,fa!r4 ,d y see any?+ amiable & lovable 9 any ( !m8 ,boy4 ,oh1 no4 ,fa!r4 ,d y ?9k ,i love y\r bro!rs8 ,boy4 ,i "k y d6 ,fa!r4 ,well1 "h !y are1 j z ,i took ! poor fell[s out ( ! /reets4 ,boy4 ,out ( ! /reets z y did me8 ,!y are all y\r adopt$ sons8 ,fa!r4 ,e "o ( !m4 ,boy4 ,i don't und]/& x4 ,:at made y d x8 ,fa!r4 ,i lov$ !m s t ,i c\ld n help x4 ,boy4 ,i nev] he>d ( su* a ?+6 ,y lov$ ^? mis]able begg>- boys8 ,!n y mu/ be made ( ,love6 ,fa!r4 ,i am4 ,& t is ! reason ,i am s griev$ :5 "s su* boys refuse to let me become _! fa!r4 ,boy4 ,refuse8 ,oh1 h[ c !y8 ,refuse to become y\r own de> sons8 ,refuse to h su* a de>1 k9d1 pati5t fa!r8 ,refuse love8 ,fa!r4 ,my poor bl9d boy1 don't y n[ beg9 to see t ,i d n wait = ^! adopt$ sons ( m9e to wa% & clo! !mselves1 to become good1 & ob$i5t1 & affectionate1 b lov$ !m because !y 7 su* de/itute1 wick$1 lo/ boys8 ,i did n g out into ! /reets to look = well-dress$1 well-c>$-=1 faultless *ildr51 :o w\ld adorn my h\se & %9e 9 x l jewels4 ,i s\ght = outca/s2 ,i lov$ !m z outca/s2 ,i knew !y w\ld be ungrateful & disob$i5t1 & nev] love me half z mu* z ,i did !m2 b t made me all ! m sorry = !m4 ,see :at pa9s ,i am tak+ ) !m1 & h[ beautifully "s ( !m are le>n+ _! lessons4 ,& n[ tell me1 my son1 9 see+ ?is picture gall]y1 d y n beg9 to see me8 ,c\ld any?+ less ?an love take 9 su* a company ( poor begg>s8 ,boy4 ,yes1 my fa!r1 ,i d beg9 to see x4 ,i d believe t ,i "k y bett] n[ ?an ,i ev] did be=e4 ,i believe y love ev5 me4 ,& n[ ,i "k t ,i love y6 ,fa!r4 ,n[1 !n1 my de> son1 let t vex+ "q drop =ev]1 & beg9 to act z my son & heir %\ld4 ,y h a great deal to le>n1 b ,i w myself be y\r tea*]1 & y\r m9d is n[ free to att5d to my in/ructions4 ,d y f9d any?+ to love & admire 9 y\r bro!rs8 ,boy4 ,inde$ ,i d4 ,fa!r4 ,y %all be taught ! lessons t h made !m :at !y are4 ,mean:ile ,i want to see y look *e]ful & happy1 rememb]+ t y are 9 y\r fa!r's he>t4 ,boy4 ,de> fa!r1 ,i w6 ,b oh1 help me to be a bett] son6 ,fa!r4 ,de> boy1 ,i w4 #a ,9 ,union ,!ological ,sem9>y1 ,new ,york4 #b ,! ,baptism ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 by ,rev4 ,asa ,mahau1 ,d4,d41 p4 #aah4 #c ,dr4 ,l4 ,h4 ,hem5way4 #d ,"s ( ! *>ades ref]r$ to w be f\nd 9 app5dix ,e1 p4 #eef4 #e ,ref]r+ to ! foll[+ hymn compos$ by ,madame ,guyon 9 prison3 ,a little bird ,i am1 ,%ut out f fields ( air1 ,& 9 my cage ,i sit & s+ ,to ,him :o plac$ me !re4 ,well-pleas$ a prison] to be1 ,because1 my ,god1 x please? ,!e4 ,naught h ,i else to d2 ,i s+ ! :ole day long2 ,& ,he1 :om mo/ ,i love to please1 ,do? li/5 to my song4 ,he caught & b\nd my w&]+ w+1 ,b /ill ,he b5ds to he> me s+4 #f ,mrs4 ,de ,witt 0 ! wife ( ! ,rev4 ,?omas ,de ,witt1 ,d4,d41 a man ( deep le>n+1 an able prea*] 9 ! ,dut* language z well z ! ,engli%1 & univ]sally rev]$ = 8 exalt$ ,*ri/ian virtues4 ,he 0 a m9i/] ( ! ,collegiate ,*ur*1 ,new ,york1 = ne>ly half a c5tury4 ,he di$ ,may #ah1 #ahgd1 9 ! eighty-?ird ye> ( 8 age4 ,"h are o!r s5t5ces utt]$ by him at ! grave ( 8 wife3 ,f>ewell1 my belov$1 honor$1 & fai?ful wife6 ,! tie t unit$ u is sev]$4 ,?\ art ) ,jesus 9 glory2 ,he is ) me by ,8 grace4 ,i %all soon be ) y4 ,f>ewell6 #g ,pr(4 ,smi? _h be5 sudd5ly /rick5 d[n by sev]e illness & ) difficulty remov$ to ! well-kn[n ,sanit>ium at ,clifton ,spr+s4 #h ,ref]r+ to ! book 9 a lett] to a fri5d1 writt5 %ortly aft] its publication1 %e says3 ,( c\rse x w meet ) r\gh treatm5t 9 "s qu>t]s1 z inde$ x has already done4 ,i d\bt if any "o works v h>d = ,*ri/ :o does n h to be misund]/ood & p]haps mock$4 #i ,"o ( ! be/ notices appe>$ 9 ,! ,*ur*man1 an ,episcopal newspap] !n publi%$ at ,h>t=d1 b s9ce transf]r$ to ,new ,york4 ,"h is a "p ( x3 ,= purity ( ?\ght1 e>ne/ness & spirituality ( feel+1 & smoo?ness ( diction1 !y are all1 )\t exception1 good--if !y are n great4 ,if no "o rises to ! height :i* o!r poets h occasionally rea*$1 !y are1 nev]!less1 always free f ^? defects :i* sometimes m> ! p]fectness ( f> great] productions4 ,ea* portrays "s human ?ir/ or long+1 & s t\*es ! he>t ( e ?\ghtful read]4 ,!re is a sweetness runn+ ?r\gh !m all :i* comes f a high] ?an e>?ly s\rce1 & :i* human wisdom c nei!r produce nor enjoy4 #aj ,gold5 ,h\rs4 #aa ,! "n giv5 to ! ,dorset home4 #ab ,aft]w>ds *ang$ to ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds4 #ac ,! passage f ,col]idge is z foll[s3 ,! feel+ ( gratitude :i* ,i *]i% t[>ds ^! m5 has caus$ me to digress fur!r ?an ,i _h =ese5 or propos$2 b to h pass$ !m ov] 9 an hi/orical sket* ( my lit]>y life & op9ions1 w\ld h seem$ l ! d5ial ( a debt1 ! concealm5t ( a boon2 = ! writ+s ( ^! my/ics act$ 9 no slight degree to prev5t my m9d f be+ imprison$ )9 ! outl9e ( any dogmatic sy/em4 ,!y contribut$ to keep alive ! he>t 9 ! head2 gave me an indi/9ct1 yet /irr+ & work+ pres5tim5t t all ! products ( ! m]e reflective faculty p>took ( ,,dea?1 & 7 z ! rattl+ ( twigs & sprays 9 w9t]1 into :i* a sap 0 yet to be propell$ f "s root to :i* ,i _h n p5etrat$1 if !y 7 to af=d my s\l ei!r food or %elt]4 ,if !y 7 too (t5 a mov+ cl\d ( smoke to me by day1 yet !y 7 always a pill> ( fire ?r\gh\t ! night1 dur+ my w&]+s ?r\gh ! wild]ness ( d\bt1 & enabl$ me to skirt1 )\t cross+1 ! s&y des]t ( utt] unbelief4 #ad ,see h] translation ( ! hymn 9 ,gold5 ,h\rs1 p4 #abc4 ,! orig9al w be f\nd 9 app5dix ,c1 p4 #edj4 #ae ,i 9 !m & ,?\ 9 me1 t !y may be made p]fect 9 "o4--,v4 #bc4 #af ,!re %\ld be no great] com=t to ,*ri/ian p]sons1 ?an to be made l unto ,*ri/1 by suff]+ pati5tly adv]sities1 tr\bles1 & sicknesses4 ,= ,he himself w5t n up to joy1 b fir/ ,he suff]$ pa92 ,he ent]$ n into ,8 glory1 be=e ,he 0 crucifi$4 ,s truly our way to et]nal joy is to suff] "h ) ,*ri/4--7,! ,book ( ,common ,pray]47 #ag ,ascrib$ to ,/4 ,patrick1 on ! occasion ( 8 appe>+ be=e ,k+ ,laoghaire4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,,"w ,,& ,,play4 #ahge-ahgg4 ,i4 ,a ,bible-read+ 9 ,new ,york4 ,h] ,pa9t+4 ,grace = ,grace4 ,dea? ( a "y ,fri5d4 ,! ,summ] at ,dorset4 ,bible-read+s !re4 ,encompass$ ) ,k9dr$4 ,typhoid ,fev] 9 ! ,h\se4 ,wat*+ & ,wait+4 ,! ,return to ,t[n4 ,a ,day ( ,family ,rejoic+4 ,life a ,battle-field4 ,h] "t & ?\ghts dur+ #ahge 7 mo/ly tak5 up by h] ,bible- read+s1 h] pa9t+1 ! society ( k9sfolk f ! ,ea/ & ! ,we/1 gett+ h] elde/ son ready = college1 & by ! dang]\s illness ( h] y\nge/ daught]4 ,"s extracts f ! few lett]s belong+ to ?is ye> w give ! ma9 incid5ts ( its hi/ory4 ,to a "y ,fri5d1 ,jan4 #ac1 #ahge4 ,i h _h two ,bible-read+s1 & !y bid fair to be m l ^? ( la/ w9t] ?an ,i _h d>$ to hope4 ,!re are e>ne/1 ?\ghtful1 pray+ s\ls pres5t1 :o help me 9 conduct+ ! meet+1 & y w\ld be a/oni%$ to see h[ mu* bett] ,i c d :5 n "u ! ke5 emb>rassm5t ( deliv]+ a lecture1 z at ,dorset4444 ,i h a "y fri5d ab\t y\r age :o is dy+ ( consumption1 & x is v delightful to see h[ happy %e is4 ,%e us$ to att5d ! ,bible-read+s la/ w9t]4 ,ab\t ! pa9t+8 ,well1 ,i h dug away1 & ,mrs4 ,be]s pa9t$ out & pa9t$ 91 till ,i h got a beautiful great picture almo/ entirely done by h]4 ,!n ,i und]took ! old f5ce ) ! clematis on x "h at home1 & made a horrid daub4 ,%e pa9t$ mo/ ( t out1 & is hav+ me d x at ! /udio4 ,mean:ile1 ,i h work$ on ano!r %e l5t me1 & f9i%$ x to-day1 & !y all say t x is a success4 ,9 my la/ two lessons ,mrs4 ,b4 contriv$ to let "s light into my bewild]$ bra91 & says t if ,i pa9t ) h] ?is w9t] & next summ] ,i %all be able to d :at ,i please4 ,my mo/ disc\rag+ "t1 %e says1 is ov]4 ,n t ,i h be5 disc\rag$ an atom6 ,i h great fai? 9 a /rong w & a pati5t p]sev]ance1 & h _h no idea ( say+ die4444 ,"s lady 9 ,philadelphia b\ght =ty copies ( ,urbane4 ,x 0 v discrim9at+ 9 y to see h[ com=t+ to me w\ld be t passage f ,rob]tson4 ,god only fully kn[s h[ ,i h got my education4 ,! s*ool has at times be5 too awful to talk ab\t to any be+ save ,him4 #a ,to ,mrs4 ,humphrey1 ,new ,york1 ,april #f1 #ahge4 ,my po9t ab\t ,grace = ,grace #b is ?is3 ,i believe 9 gr[? 9 grace1 b ,i also believe 91 because ,i h exp]i5c$ x & f9d my exp]i5ce 9 ! ,^w ( ,god1 a "w ( ! ,_s subsequ5t to conv]sion 7n necess>y 9 all cases1 p]haps1 b 9 all cases :]e ,*ri/ian life beg9s & cont9ues feebly71 :i* puts ! s\l into new conditions ( gr[?4 ,if a plant is sickly & droop+1 y mu/ *ange its atmosph]e be=e y c cure x or make x gr[4 ,a great _m ye>s ago1 disgu/$ ) my spiritual life1 ,i 0 l$ into new relations to ,*ri/ to :i* ,i c\ld give no "n1 = ,i nev] _h he>d ( su* an exp]i5ce4 ,:5 we mov$ into ?is h\se1 ,i f\nd a pap] t _h long be5 buri$ among rubbi%1 9 :i* ,i said1 ,i am "o great long sunbeam2 & ,i don't "k any words1 t1 on ! :ole1 c\ld bett] cov] mo/ ( my life s9ce !n4 ,i h be5 a great suff]]1 too2 b t has1 9 ! ma91 no?+ to d ) "o's relation to ,*ri/1 except t mo/ =ms ( pa9 br+ ,him ne>]4 ,n[1 "o c n read ,grace = ,grace )\t lov+ & sympa?is+ ) ! au?or1 because ( 8 deep-seat$ long+ =1 & f9al atta9m5t (1 hol9ess2 b x seem$ to me !re 0 a good deal ( ne$less grop+1 :i* m look+ to ,*ri/ might h sp>$ him4 ,x is1 z y say1 curi\s to see h[ p :o agree 9 s _m po9ts diff] s 9 o!rs4 ,i suspect x is because our degrees ( fai? v>y2 ! "o :o believes mo/ gets mo/4 ,! subject ( s9 v]sus s9lessness is ! vex$ "q1 on :i*1 z fa/ z mo/ p get or ?9k !y get light1 somebody comes along & snuffs out _! c&les ) unc]emoni\s f+] & ?umb4 ,a de>ly-belov$ woman sp5t a mon? ) me la/ spr+4 ,%e ?9ks %e is kept f s91 & c]ta9ly ! *ange f a mo/ e/imable b dogmatic "* is absolutely wond]ful4444 ,!re 0 ?is discrepancy betwe5 h] exp]i5ce & m9e1 )1 on all o!r po9ts1 ! mo/ entire h>mony4 ,%e _h _h no special1 joyful revelations ( ,*ri/ to h] s\l1 & ,i _h _h !m till x seem$ z if body & s\l w\ld fly ap>t4 ,on ! o!r h& %e _h a sweet s5se ( fre$om f s9 :i* transc5d$ any?+ ,i _h ev] _h consci\sly2 al?\gh ,i really ?9k t :5 "o is look+ unto ,jesus1 "o is n likely to fall into mu* noticeable s94 ,talk+ ) ,miss ,s4 ab\t ! two exp]i5ces ( my de> fri5d & myself1 %e said t x c\ld be easily expla9$ by ! fact t all ! gifts ( ! ,_s 7 r>ely1 if ev]1 giv5 to "o s\l4 ,%e is v 7prop]ly7 retic5t z to :at %e has h]self receiv$1 b %e behav$ 9 su* a beautiful1 ,*ri/like way on a po9t :]e we diff]$1 a po9t ( practice1 t ,i c n d\bt %e has be5 unusually ble/4 ,e>ly 9 ,may ( ?is ye> %e 0 afflict$ by ! sudd5 dea? 9 ,p>is ( a v de> fri5d ( h] elde/ daught]1 ,miss ,virg9ia ,s4 ,osborn4 #c ,dur+ ! previ\s summ] ,miss ,osborn _h pass$ sev]al weeks at ,dorset & ende>$ h]self1 :ile !re1 to all ! family4 ,! foll[+ is f a lett] ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss to ! b]eav$ "m3 ,i feel mu* m l sitt+ d[n & weep+ ) y ?an attempt+ to utt] words ( consolation4 ,n[h]e out ( h] own home 0 ,virg9ia m belov$ & admir$ ?an 9 our family2 we feel afflict$ pa9fully at :at to our human vision looks l an unmitigat$ calamity4 ,b if x is s h>d = u to be>1 to :om 9 no s5se %e belong$1 :at a he>tr5d+ ev5t ?is is to y1 h] "m6 ,:at an amazem5t1 :at a my/]y4 ,b x w n d to look ^u x on ?is side4 ,we mu/ n associate any?+ s unnatural z dea? ) a be+ s em95tly =m$ = life4 ,we mu/ look beyond1 z soon z our te>s w let u1 to ! sph]e on :i* %e has be5 honor$ to ent] 9 h] brilliant y\?2 to ! society ( ! noble/ & ! be/ human be+s e>? has ev] kn[n2 to ! fulness ( life1 ! p]fection ( e gift & grace1 to cong5ial employm5t1 to ! welcome ( ,him :o has conqu]$ dea? & br\ght life & immortality to light4 ,if we ?9k ( h] z 9 ! grave1 we mu/ own t h]s 0 a h>d lot2 b %e is n 9 a grave2 %e is at home2 %e is well1 %e is happy1 %e w nev] "k a b]eavem5t1 or a day's illness1 or ! infirmities & trials ( old age2 %e has got ! secret ( p]petual y\?4 ,b :ile ^! ?\ghts assuage our grief1 !y c n :olly allay x4 ,we h no reason to d\bt t %e w\ld h giv5 & receiv$ happ9ess "h ^u e>?1 _h %e be5 sp>$2 & we c n help miss+ h]1 m\rn+ = h]1 long+ = h]1 out ( ! v dep?s ( our he>ts4 ,! only real com=t is t ,god nev] makes mi/akes2 t ,he w\ld n h snat*$ h] f u1 if ,he _h n _h a reason t w\ld satisfy u if we knew x4 ,i c n tell y ) :at t5d] sympa?y ,i ?9k ( y\r return to y\r desolate home2 ! agoniz+ meet+ ) y\r b]eav$ boys2 ! days & nights t h to be liv$ ?r\gh1 face to face ) a great sorr[4 ,may ,god bless & keep y all4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,dorset1 ,july #aa1 #ahge4 ,i h be5 sitt+ at my w9d[1 enjoy+ ! cle> blue sky1 & ! liv+ gre5 ( ! fields & woods1 & wi%+ y 7 "h to %>e x all ) me4 ,b z y are n1 ! next be/ ?+ is to write y4 ,y seem to h be5 waft$ into t /range sea-side spot1 to d "w !re1 & ,i hope y w h heal? & /r5g? = x4 ,"o ( ! signs ( ! times is ! way 9 :i* ! h& ( ,provid5ce scatt]s city folks all ab\t 9 wa/e places1 !re to s[ se$ t 9 ,8 own "t %all spr+ up & be> fruit = ,him4 ,i 0 %ock$ at :at y said ab\t ,miss ---- n recognis+ y4 ,x seem$ almo/ incr$ible4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss has p]suad$ me to h a family ,bible-read+ on ,sunday aft]noon1 z we h no s]vice1 & /udy+ up = x ?is morn+ ,i came to ?is prov]b :i* orig9at$ ) ,huss1 ^: "n 9 ,bohemian signifies goose4 ,he said at ! /ake3 ,if y burn a goose a swan w rise f its a%es2 & ,i ?\ght--,well1 ,miss ----'s usefulness is at an end1 b ,god c1 & no d\bt w1 raise up a swan 9 h] place4 ,ab\t =ty n[ att5d my ,bible-read+4 ,we h my elde/ bro!r "h & he is a p]fect en?usia/ ab\t ,dorset1 & has enjoy$ 8 visit imm5sely4 ,he said ye/]day t he _h laugh$ m t aft]noon ?an 9 ! previ\s t5 ye>s4 ,we expect ,dr4 ,/e>ns & 8 daught] on ! #bj?1 & :5 !y leave ,mr4 ,p4 int5ds to g to ,ma9e & try a *ange ( air & sc5e4 ,i hate to h him g2 8 tr\ble ( la/ ye> keeps me uneasy1 if he is long out ( my sight4 ,to ! ,same1 ,dorset1 ,aug41 #ahge4 ,i h j writt5 a lett] to my husb&1 f :om ,i h be5 sep>at$ a :ole day4 ,he has gone to ,ma9e1 p>tly to see fri5ds1 p>tly to get a little sea air4 ,he want$ me to g ) him1 b x w\ld h end$ 9 my gett+ d[n sick4 ,?is summ] ,i am encompass$ ) relatives2 two ( my bro!rs1 a nephew1 a c\s91 a second c\s91 & 9 a day or two "o bro!r's wife & *ild1 & two m second c\s9s are to come2 n to our h\se1 b to bo>d next door4 ,!re is a troop ( arti/s sw>m+ ! tav]n2 all ladies1 "s ( !m v cong5ial1 cultivat$1 excell5t p]sons4 ,!y are all delight$ ) ,dorset1 & x is pleasant to /umble on little gr\ps ( !m at _! "w4 ,a4 has be5 out sket*+ ) !m & succe$s v well4 ,i h giv5 up pa9t+ l&scapes & tak5 to fl[]s4 ,i h j _h a visit "h 9 my room f ?ree humm+-birds4 ,!y are attract$ by ! fl[]s444 ,"o ( ! c\s9s is j n[ rid+ on ! lawn4 ,h] spl5did hair has come d[n & cov]s h] %\ld]s2 & ) h] color1 always lovely1 height5$ by ex]cise & pleasure1 %e makes a beautiful picture4 ,:at is nic] ?an an unsophi/icat$ "y girl8 ,i h no "t = read+ ?is summ] among ! cr[d2 b "o c n help ?9k+ :]ev] "o is1 & ,i h come to ?is conclusion3 happ9ess 9 its /ricte/ s5se is f\nd only 9 ,*ri/2 at ! same "t !re are _m s\rces ( enjoym5t indep5d5tly ( ,him4 ,x is gett+ d>k & ,i c n see my l9es4 ,i am m & m puzzl$ ab\t good p mak+ su* mi/akes4 ,dr4 ,/e>ns says t ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ---- has be5 lay+ 8 h&s on p & say+1 ,receive ! ,holy ,gho/4 ,su* excesses give me great d\bt & pa94 ,to ! ,same1 ,sept4 #c1 #ahge4 ,y\r lett] came to f9d me 9 a sorr[ful & we>y spot4 ,my de> ,m4 lies "h ) typhoid fev]1 & my he>t & s\l & body are 9 less ?an a =tnight ( x pretty well us$ up1 & my husb& is 9 almo/ z bad a case ) d\ble anxiety1 he & ,a4 expect+ e h\r to see me break d[n4 ,x has be5 an awful pull = u all1 = n "o ( u has an atom ( heal? to sp>e1 & only keep ab\t by avoid+ all ! we> & te> we c4 ,dr4 ,buck has s5t u an excell5t ,engli% nurse2 %e came ye/]day & insi/$ on sitt+ up ) ,m4 all night & we all dropp$ into our b$s l s _m %ot birds4 ,i he>d h] g d[n = ice ?ree times1 s ,i knew my preci\s lamb 0 n neglect$1 & slept 9 peace4 ,we are encompass$ ) m]cies2 ! physician :o drives ov] f ,man*e/] is z skilful z he is consci5ti\s2 ?is h\se is admirably adapt$ to sickness1 ! /airway only n9e feet high1 pl5ty ( wat]1 & my room1 :i* ,i h giv5 h]1 admits ( h] ly+ 9 a draught z ! doctor wi%es h] to d4 ,:ile ! nurse is sleep+1 z %e is n[1 ,a4 & ,i take turns sitt+ out on ! piazza1 :]e !re is a delici\s breeze almo/ always bl[+4 ,! ladies "h are disappo9t$ t ,i c no long] hold ! ,bible- read+s1 b x is n s mu* matt] t ,i am put (f "w if y are put on x2 ! field is "o1 & ! ,ma/] kn[s :om to use & :5 & :]e4 ,we h be5 read+ ) great delight a little book call$ ,miracles ( ,fai?4 ,i am call$ to ,m41 :o has _h a slight *ill1 & ( c\rse high fev] aft] x4 ,x seems pa9fully unnatural to see my sunbeam turn$ into a d>k cl\d1 & x di/resses me s to see h] suff] t ,i don't "k h[ ,i am go+ to /& x4 ,b ,i won't plague y ) any m ( ?is1 nor mu/ ,i =get h[ (t5 ,i h said1 ,?y w be done4 ,y ne$ n d\bt t ,god's w looks s mu* bett] to u ?an our own1 t no?+ w\ld tempt u to decide our *ild's future4 ,to h] elde/ ,son1 ,dorset1 ,sept4 #ai1 #ahge4 ,y\r lett]s are a great com=t to u1 & ! way to get _m is to write _m4 ,m4's fev] ran tw5ty-"o days1 z ! doctor said x w\ld1 & began to break ye/]day4 ,on ,friday x ran v high2 h] pulse 0 #abj & h] temp]ature #aje--;bad1 bad1 bad4 ,%e is v1 v weak4 ,we h s5t away ,ph>aoh & ! kitt52 ,pha w\ld b>k1 & ,kit w\ld come 9 & />e at h]1 & bo? made h] cry4 ,! doctor has ! h\se kept /ill z ! grave2 he ev5 br\ght ov] 8 slipp]s le/ 8 /ep %\ld di/urb h]4 ,%e is n yet out ( dang]2 s y mu/ n be too elat$4 ,we f\r are sitt+ 9 ! d9+-room ) a hot fire2 papa is read+ al\d to ,a4 & ,h42 x is ev5+1 & ,m4 has _h h] opiate1 & is gett+ to sleep4 ,i h n mu* mat]ial ( :i* to make lett]s1 sitt+ all day 9 a d>k room 9 almo/ total sil5ce4 ,! arti/s are rigg+ up ! *ur* beautifully ) my fl[]s1 etc41 ,mr4 ,palm] & ,mr4 ,lawr5ce l5d+ _! aid4 ,y\r fa!r is read+ ab\t ,hans ,&]s52 y mu/ read ! article 9 ! ,liv+ ,age1 ,no4 #a1fca2 x is ev] s funny4 ,i _h su* a que] dream la/ night4 ,i dream$ t ,maggie plagu$ u s t y\r fa!r w5t to ,new ,york & br\ght back two cooks4 ,i said ,i only want$ "o4 ,oh1 b ^! are s r>e1 he said2 come out & see !m4 ,s he l$ me into ! kit*51 & !re sat at ! table1 eat+ d9n] v solemnly1 two o/ri*es6 ,n[ :at t dream 0 made ( ,i c n imag9e4 ,n[ ,i mu/ g to b$1 pretty tir$4 ,:5 y are lonely & blue1 ?9k h[ we all love y4 ,goodnight1 de> old fell[4 ,sept4 #ba/4--,x cuts me to ! he>t1 my preci\s boy1 t y\r college life beg9s "u su* a %ad[4 ,b ,i hope y "k :]e to g 9 bo? lonel9ess & tr\ble4 ,y may get a telegram be=e ?is rea*es y2 if y d n y _h bett] pack y\r valise & h x ready = y to come at a m9ute's w>n+4 ,! doctor gives u h>dly a hope t ,m4 w live2 %e may drop away at any mom5t4 ,:ile %e does live y are bett] (f at ,pr9ceton2 b :5 %e is gone we %all all want to be toge!r4 ,we %all h h] buri$ "h 9 ,dorset2 o!rwise ,i nev] %\ld want to come "h aga94 ,a4 said ?is 0 h] day to write y1 b %e _h no he>t to d x4 ,! only ?+ ,i c d :ile ,m4 is asleep1 is to write lett]s ab\t h]4 ,good-night1 de> boy4 #bb;d--,! doctor 0 "h f eight to n9e la/ night & said %e w\ld suff] little m & sleep h] life away4 ,%e says %e is nicely & ! nurse says s4 ,y\r fa!r & ,i h _h a good cry ?is morn+1 :i* has done u no little s]vice4 ,de> boy1 ?is is a bad lett] = y1 b ,i h done ! be/ ,i c4 ,to ,mrs4 ,george ,payson1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #ca1 #ahge ,i hope y receiv$ ! po/al ann\nc+ our safe arrival home4 ,i h be5 want+ to answ] y\r la/ lett]1 b n[ t ! awful /ra9 is ov] ,i beg9 to flag1 am tir$ & lame & sore1 & any ex]tion is an ef=t4 ,b aft] all ! dismal lett]s ,i h _h to write1 ,i want to tell y :at a delightful day ye/]day 0 to u all2 ,g4 home f ,pr9ceton1 all six ( u at ! table at once1 eat+ our meat ) gladness2 ! pleasante/ family day ( our lives4 ,m4's recov]y dur+ ! la/ week has be5 little %ort ( miracul\s4 ,we got h] home1 aft] mak+ su* a bugbe> ( x1 9 p]fect com=t4 ,we left ,dorset ab\t noon 9 a close c>riage2 ! doctor & 8 wife 7 at ! /ation & weigh$ ,m41 :5 we f\nd %e _h lo/ ?irty-six p\nds4 ,! coa*man took h] 9 8 arms & c>ri$ h] into ! c>1 :5 :o %\ld meet u b ! ,w>n]s4 ,on rea*+ ! ,new ,york depot1 ,george ru%$ into ! c> 9 su* a /ate ( wild excitem5t t he took no notice ( any "o b ,m42 he !n flew out & a man flew 91 & )\t say+ a ^w snat*$ h] up 9 8 arms1 :ipp$ h] into a recl9+-*air1 & he & ano!r man scamp]$ ) h] to ! c>riage & seat$ h] 9 x2 ,i _h to run to keep up ) !m1 & ne>ly knock$ d[n a gigantic policeman :o 0 gu>d+ x4 ,! ,w>n]s sp5t ! night "h & left next morn+ be=e ,i 0 up1 s afraid ( mak+ tr\ble4444 ,a fri5d has put a c>riage at our disposal1 & ,m4 is to drive e day :5 & :]e & z long z %e pleases4 ,& n[ ,i hope ,i %all h some?+ else to write ab\t4444 ,z to ! ,bible-read+s1 ,i d n f9d comm5t>ies ( mu* use4 ,exp]i5ce ( life has be5 my *ief e>?ly tea*]1 & "o ga9s t e day4 ,y mu/ n write me su* long lett]s2 x is too mu* = y4 ,h[ ,i d wi% y w\ld d some?+ desp]ate ab\t gett+ well6 ,at any rate1 don't1 any ( y1 h typhoid fev]4 ,x is ! v meane/ old snake ( a fox ,i ev] he>d (1 mak+ its way l a mask$ burgl>4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,nov #g1 #ahge4 ,we came home on ! #bg? ( ,octob]2 ,m4 bore ! j\rney wond]fully well1 & has improv$ s fa/ t %e drives all r\nd ! ,p>k e day1 ,miss ,w4 hav+ put a c>riage at our disposal4 ,h[ delightful x is to get my family toge!r once m no tongue c tell1 nor did ,i realise all ,i 0 suff]+ till ! /ra9 0 ov]4 ,i am long+ to get physical /r5g? = "w1 b my husb& is v timid ab\t my und]tak+ any?+4444 ,dr4 ,ludl[ #d 0 "h "o day la/ week to ask me to give a talk1 9 8 /udy1 to "s ( 8 "y ,*ri/ians2 b my husb& told him x 0 out ( ! "q at pres5t4 ,i %all be delight$ to d x2 mu* ( my exp]i5ce ( life has co/ me a great price1 & ,i want to use x = ! /r5g!n+ & com=t+ ( o!r s\ls4 ,no d\bt y feel s too4 ,:atev] may be said to ! contr>y by o!rs1 to me life has be5 a battle-field1 & ,i believe always w be2 b is ! soldi] necess>ily unhappy & disgu/$ because he is fight+8 ,i tr[ n4 ,i am read+ ! hi/ory ( ! ,ox=d ,conf]5ce2 #e !re is a great deal 9 x to l1 b :at d y ?9k ( ?is say+ ( its lead]8 ,did x ev] /rike y1 de> ,*ri/ian1 t if ! poor _w c\ld "k :at we are 9 ,*ri/1 x w\ld wor%ip u8 #f ,i say ,p%aw6 ,:at a fallacy6 ,:y %\ld x wor%ip u :5 x rejects ,*ri/8 ,well1 we h to take ev5 ! be/ p z !y are4 ,a few weeks lat] %e met a company ( ! "y ladies ( ,dr4 ,ludl['s *ur* & gave !m a famili> talk on ! ,*ri/ian life4 ,! foll[+ lett] f ,dr4 ,l4 w %[ h[ mu* !y 7 int]e/$3 ,,de> ,,mrs4 ,,pr5tiss3--,i f9d t y h s tak5 hold ( ! "y ladies ( my *ur* t x w be h>d = y to relieve y\rself ( !m4 ,!y insi/ on meet+ y aga94 ,! hesitancy to ask y que/ions la/ ,?ursday 0 due to ! l>ge numb] pres5t4 ,i h ask$ only ! y\ng] ones to come ?is week--^? :o are ei!r seek+ ! way1 or are j at its beg9n+4 ,five ( ^? y address$ la/ week h ann\nc$ _! purpose ( confess+ ,*ri/ at ! com+ ,communion4 ,sev]al que/ions h come f ^? sil5t lips :i* ,i am reque/$ to submit to y3 ,:at is x to believe8 ,h[ mu* feel+ ( love mu/ ,i h be=e ,i c c\nt myself ,jesus' disciple8 ,i am tr\bl$ ) my lack ( feel+4 ,i "k t s9 is he9\s1 b d n feel deep abhorr5ce ( x4 ,i "k t ,jesus w save me1 b ,i h no en?usiasm ( gratitude4 ,am ,i a ,*ri/ian8 ,i am afraid to confess ,*ri/ le/ ,i %\ld n honor ,him 9 my life1 = ,i am naturally impulsive & easily fall into religi\s ?\ghtlessness4 ,%\ld ,i wait = an inw>d assurance ( /r5g?1 or beg9 a ,*ri/ian life tru/+ ,him to help me8 ,any ( ^! topics w be v p]t95t4 ,i tru/ t no?+ w prev5t y f be+ pres5t on ,?ursday aft]noon4 ,i w call = y4 ,! limit$ numb] :o w be pres5t w give y a bett] work+ basis ?an y _h la/ week4 ,! old] "y ladies h ass5t$ to _! exclusion ?is week on ! condition t at "s "t !y too c come4 ,v gratefully y\rs1 ,,james ,m4 ,,ludl[4 ,9 a lett] dat$ ,may #c1 #ahhj1 ,dr4 ,ludl[ ?us ref]s to ^! meet+s3 ,i regret t ,i c n speak m def9itely ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' conv]sations ) ! "y ladies ( my *>ge1 z x 0 my cu/om to )draw f ! room aft] a few introductory words1 s t %e c\ld speak to !m ) ! famili>ity ( a "m4 ,i "k t all t gr\p felt ! w>m? ( h] int]e/ 9 !m1 ! *>m ( h] "* :i* 0 s ref9$ by h] love ( ,*ri/ & /r5g!n$ by h] exp]i5ce ( ne$$ grace1 z well z ! wisdom ( h] words4 ,i 0 impress$1 f s mu* z ,i did he> ( h] rem>ks1 ) h] ability to comb9e r>e/ beauty & highe/ spirituality ( ?\ght ) ! utmo/ simplicity ( language & ! pla9e/ illu/rations4 ,h] conv]sation 0 l ! my/ic ladd] :i* 0 set up on ! e>?1 & ! top ( x rea*$ to heav54 ,h] mo/ solemn c\nsel 0 giv5 9 su* a way z nev] to repress ! buoyant feel+ ( ! "y1 b r to direct x t[>d ! true joy ( ! ,"l4 ,%e seem$ to reg>d ! *e] ( to-day z mu* ( a religi\s duty z ! hope = to-morr[1 & ^? ) :om %e conv]s$ p>took ( h] own peace4 ,i %all always rememb] ^! meet+s z among ! happie/ & mo/ useful associations ( my m9i/ry 9 ,new ,york4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,! ,moody & ,sankey ,meet+s4 ,h] ,int]e/ 9 !m4 ,mr4 ,moody4 ,publication ( ,griselda4 ,goes to ! ,c5t5nial4 ,at ,dorset aga94 ,h] ,bible-read+4 ,a ,moody-,meet+ ,conv]t4 ,visit to ,montreal4 ,publication ( ,! ,home at ,greylock4 ,h] ,!ory ( a happy ,home4 ,m>ry+ = ,love4 ,h] ,sympa?y ) "y ,mo!rs4 ,lett]s4 ,! e>ly mon?s ( #ahgf 7 v busily sp5t 9 pa9t+ pictures = fri5ds1 9 att5dance ^u ,mr4 ,moody's memorable s]vices at ! ,hippodrome1 & 9 writ+ a book = "y mo!rs4 ,be=e go+ to ,dorset = ! summ] %e pass$ a week at ,philadelphia1 visit+ ! ,c5t5nial ,exhibition4 ,h] lett]s dur+ ! w9t] & spr+ ( ?is ye> relate *iefly to ^! topics4 ,to a ,*ri/ian ,fri5d1 ,feb4 #bb1 #aigf4 ,y gave me a good deal ( a *ill by y\r long sil5ce1 & ,i f9d x a little h>d to be tak5 up & dropp$ & !n tak5 up2 /ill1 almo/ ev]ybody has ^! fitful ways1 & v likely ,i myself among t numb]4 ,y\r little boy mu/ take a _w ( "t1 & op5 a new _w ( ?\ght & feel+4 ,b don't spoil him2 ! be/ *ild c be made hateful by mismanagem5t4 ,i am try+ to write a book = mo!rs & f9d x a disc\rag+ "w1 because ,i f9d1 on scrut9y1 su* awfully radical defects among !m4 ,& yet su* a book w\ld h help$ me 9 my y\?ful days4 ,y ask if ,i h be5 to he> ,moody2 yes1 ,i h & am deeply int]e/$ 9 him & 8 "w4 ,ye/]day aft]noon he _h a meet+ = ,*ri/ian work]s1 9 :i* 8 s\nd common-s5se creat$ great m]rim5t4 ,"s object$ to ?is1 b ,i lik$ x because x 0 s g5u9e1 &1 to my m9d1 n un-,*ri/like4 ,s _m fancy religion & a long face synonym\s4 ,h[ /upid x is6 ,i wond] !y don't object to ! sun = %9+4 ,i am glad y ?9k ,urbane may be useful1 = ,i he> little f x4 ,junia's /ory is true z f> z ! laudanum & ! bl9dness g2 x happ5$ ye>s ago4 ,i d n "k :at religi\s effect x _h4 ,z to ! fri5d ( :om y speak1 %e w\ld n love y z y say %e does if h] case 0 hopeless2 at lea/ ,i don't ?9k s4 ,i am oppress$ ) ! case ( "o :o wants me to help him to ,*ri/1 :ile unwill+ to confide to me 8 difficulties4 ,h[ little !y "k h[ we c>e = _! s\ls6 ,to ,mrs4 ,george ,payson1 ,feb #bh1 #ahgf4 ,i h be5 try+ to d m ?an any mortal c1 & n[ mu/ /op to take brea? & write to y4 ,9 ! fir/ place1 ,m4's illness cut out ?ree mon?s2 !n fitt+ up ,g4's room at ,pr9ceton took a l>ge "p ( ! next ?ree2 !n ev] s _m p want$ me to pa9t !m pictures2 !n ,i began a book2 !n ,moody & ,sankey appe>$1 & ,i want$ to he> !m1 & 0 ne$$ to "w 9 co-op]ation ) !m4 ,i don't "k h[ y feel ab\t ,moody1 b ,i am 9 full sympa?y ) him1 & la/ ,friday ! te/imony ( f\r ( ! cur$ g9-pigs 7_! own language7 0 ! mo/ in/ructive1 int]e/+ language ,i ev] he>d f human lips4 ,9 talk+ to ^? he has drawn into ! inquiry rooms1 ,i f9d ! mo/ bitt]ly wret*$ ones are back-slid]s2 !y are n )\t hope1 & expect to be sav$ at la/2 b !y h be5 try+ :at ! _w c\ld d = !m & f\nd x a failure4 ,_! angui% 0 h>r[+2 "o aft] ano!r tri$ to help !m1 & gave up 9 despair4 ,i _h a vase giv5 me at ,*ri/mas some:at l y\rs1 b a trifle l>g]1 & %ap$ l a fi%4 ,! fl[]s nev] fell out b once4 ,i _h two little tables giv5 me on :i* to set my majolica vases1 ) ,india-rubb] plants1 :i* w gr[ :]e no?+ else w2 also a desk & bookcase1 & two spl5did specim5s ( grass :i* grew 9 ,cali=nia1 & _h be5 blea*$ to a creamy :ite4 ,!y are m beautiful ?an ,pampa1 or ev5 fea!r-grass4 ,a4 is driv5 to dea? ab\t a fair = ! ,"y ,wom5's ,*ri/ian ,association4 ,i h giv5 x a ,g]man trag$y :i* ,i translat$ a few ye>s ago4 #g ,!y expect to make #a1fjj on x1 b ,r&olph says if !y make half t !y may ?ank _! />s4 ,i h sp5t all my ev5+s ( late 9 revis+ x1 & x goes to ! pr9t]s to-day4 ,george is go+ to deliv] a lit]>y lecture = ! same object ?is ev5+1 ?is be+ ! age ( ob$i5t p>5ts4 ,no1 ,i nev] saw & nev] pa9t$ any w9d[-scre5s4 ,! be/ ?+s ,i h done are trail+ arbutus & apple-blossoms4 ,a4 invit$ me to d apple-blossoms = h]1 & said %e %\ld h to own t ,i _h m arti/ic p[] ?an h]self4 ,i don't agree ) h]1 b x is a matt] ( no consequ5ce1 anyh[4 ,x is a %ame = y to buy ,little ,l\2 ,i meant to s5d y "o & ?\ght ,i _h done s4 ,! bright spee*es are mo/ly g5u9e1 made by ,eddy ,hopk9s & ,n$ & ,*>ley ,p4 ,h[ came y to h bloom+ hepaticas8 ,x is outrage\s4 ,my plants d bett] ?is w9t] ?an ev] be=e4 ,i h _h hyac9?s 9 bloom1 & a plant giv5 me1 cov]$ ) r$ b]ries1 has held its own4 ,x hangs 9 a glass basket ! boys gave me & has a :ite dove brood+ ov] x4 ,let me in=m y t ,i h lo/ my m9d4 ,a fri5d d9$ ) u on ,sunday1 & ,i ask$ him :5 ,i saw him la/4 ,:y1 ye/]day1 he said1 :5 ,i met y at ,r&olph's by appo9tm5t4 ,!re1 ,i mu/ /op & g to "w on "o ( my num]\s irons4 ,! ,g]man trag$y ref]r$ to fell into h] h&s 9 ! spr+ ( #ahfi1 & h] lett]s1 writt5 at ! "t1 %[ h[ x delight$ h]4 ,x is1 inde$1 a lit]>y gem4 ,! works ( its au?or1 ,b>on ,mn*- ,bell+haus5--= ,fri$]i* ,halm is a pseudonym--are mu* less kn[n 9 ?is c\ntry ?an !y des]ve to be4 ,he is "o ( ! mo/ gift$ ( ! m9or poets ( ,g]many1 a ma/] ( vivid /yle & ( impressive1 v>i$1 & beautiful ?\ght4 ,griselda fir/ appe>$ at ,vi5na 9 #ahce4 ,x 0 en?usia/ically receiv$ & soon pass$ ?r\gh sev]al editions4 ,! sc5e ( ! poem is laid 9 ,wales1 9 ! days ( ,k+ ,ar?ur4 ,! plot is v simple4 ,p]cival1 c\nt ( ,wales1 :o _h m>ri$ ,griselda1 ! daught] ( a *>coal burn]1 appe>s at c\rt on occasion ( a great fe/ival1 9 ! c\rse ( :i* he is *all5g$ by ,g9evra1 ! ,que51 to give an acc\nt ( ,griselda1 & to tell h[ he came to w$ h]4 ,he readily cons5ts to d s1 b has h>dly begun :5 ! ,que5 & ladies ( ! c\rt1 by _! mock+ air & que/ions1 provoke him to su* ang] t swords are at l5g? drawn betwe5 him & ,sir ,lancelot1 a fri5d ( ! ,que51 & only ! sudd5 int]position ( ! ,k+ prev5ts a bloody conflict4 ,! feud ends 9 a wag]1 by :i* x is agre$ t if ,griselda's love to ,p]cival endure c]ta9 te/s1 ! ,que5 %all kneel to h]2 o!rwise1 ,p]cival %all kneel to ! ,que54 ,! te/s are appli$1 & ! "y wife's love1 al?\gh p]plex$ & tortur$ 9 ! extreme1 triumphantly endures !m all4 ,! "* ( ,griselda1 z maid51 daught]1 wife1 "m1 & woman1 is wr\ght ) exquisite skill1 & betok5s 9 ! au?or r>e delicacy & nobility ( s5tim5t1 z well z deep k ( ! human he>t4 ,! foll[+ extract gives a "p ( ,p]cival's description ( ,griselda3 ,,p]cival4 ,plague take ^! wom5's tongues6 ,,g9evra 7to h] p>ty74 ,control y\r wit & mir?1 compose y\r faces1 ,t long] yet ?is pa/ime may amuse u6 ,n[1 ,p]cival1 proce$6 ,,p]cival4 ,:at 0 ,i say+8 ,i h x n[6 ,beside ! brook %e /ood2 ,h] dusky hair hung rippl+ r\nd h] face4 ,& p]*$ ^u h] %\ld]s sat a dove2 ,"r home-l sat %e !re1 h] w+s sc>ce mov+4 ,n[ sudd5ly %e /oops--,i mean ! maid5-- ,d[n to ! spr+1 & lets h] little feet ,s9k 9 its wat]s1 :ile h] color$ skirt ,cov]$ ) c>e :at !y did n conceal2 ,& ,i )9 ! %ad[ ( ! trees1 ,inly admir$ h] graceful mode/y4 ,& z %e sat & gaz$ into ! brook1 ,pla%+ & sport+ ) h] sn[-:ite feet1 ,%e ?\ght n ( ! old5 times1 :5 girls ,pleas$ to behold _! faces smil+ back ,f ! smoo? wat]1 us$ x z _! mirror ,by :i* to deck !mselves & plait _! hair2 ,b l a *ild %e sat ) droll grimaces1 ,delight$ :5 ! brook gave back to h] ,h] own di/ort$ *>ms2 s !n ,i said3 ,conceit$ is %e n4 ,,k5ne?4 ,! *>m+ *ild6 ,,ell9or4 ,:at is a colli]'s *ild to y6 ,by heav56 ,don't make me fancy t y "k h]1 ,sir6 ,,p]cival4 ,& n[ res\nd+ ?r\gh ! m\nta9 f>1 ,f ! *ur*-t[] rang =? ! vesp]-bell1 ,& %e grew grave & /ill1 & %ak+ quickly ,f (f h] face ! hair t fell ar\nd x1 ,%e ca/ a ?\ghtful & angelic glance ,upw>d1 :]e cl\ds _h caught ! ev5+ r$4 ,& h] lips g5tly mov$ ) :isp]$ words1 ,z rose-leaves tremble :5 ! s(t w9ds brea!4 ,o %e is sa9tly1 fla%$ x ?r\gh my s\l2 ,%e m>k+ on h] br[ ! holy cross1 ,lift$ h] face1 bright ) ! sunset's flu%1 ,:ile holy long+ & devotion's gl[1 ,moi/5$ h] eye & hung l glory r\nd h]4 ,!n to h] brea/ ! little dove %e clasp$1 ,embrac$1 c>ess$ x1 kiss$ its sn[-:ite w+s1 ,& laugh$2 :51 ) its rose-r$ bill1 x peck$1 ,z if ) long+ = h] fre% "y lips4 ,h[ %e'd c>ess x1 said ,i to myself1 ,7 ?is h] *ild1 ! (fspr+ ( h] love6 ,& n[ a voice res\nd$ ?r\gh ! woods1 ,& cri$1 ,griselda1 cri$ x1 ,come1 ,griselda6 ,:ile %e1 ! di/ant voice's s\nd di/+ui%$1 ,sprang quickly up1 & sc>cely l+]+ ,h] feet to dry1 ran up ! dewy bank ,) lightn+ spe$1 h] dove 9 circles o'er h]1 ,till 9 ! dusky ?icket disappe>$ ,= me ! la/ edge ( h] flutt'r+ robe4 ,ob$i5t is %e1 said ,i to myself2 ,& _m ?+s revolv+1 turn$ ,i home4 ,,g9evra4 ,by heav56 ,y tell y\r tale s *>m+ly1 ,& ) su* w>m? & tru? to life1 ! he>] ,out ( y\r words c %ape a human =m4 ,:y1 ,i c see ?is lovelie/ ( maid5s ,sit by ! brook-side mak+ h] grimaces2 ,!y are "r pretty faces spite ( coal-smut4 ,is x n s1 ,sir ,p]cival8 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' translation is bo? spirit$ & fai?ful--fai?ful 9 foll[+ ev5 ! irregul>ities ( metre :i* m>k ! orig9al4 ,x won ! praise & admiration ( "s ( ! mo/ accompli%$ judges 9 ! c\ntry4 ,! foll[+ extract f a lett] ( ! late ,rev4 ,h5ry ,w4 ,bell[s1 ,d4,d41 may s]ve z an in/ance3 ,i read x ?r\gh at "o sitt+ & enjoy$ x exce$+ly4 ,:at a lovely1 pure1 & exalt+ /ory x is6 ,i confess t ,i pref] x to ,t5nyson's rec5t dramas or to any ( ! plays ^u ! same or k9dr$ !mes t h lately appe>$ f ,leighton & o!rs4 ,! translation is melodi\s1 easy1 natural1 & h>dly be>s any m>ks ( ! fett]s ( a tongue =eign to its au?or4 ,h[ admirable mu/ h be5 ! k ( ,g]man & ! skill 9 ,engli% ( ! translator6 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,may #b1 #ahgf4 ,i d n "k b ,i h be5 on too mu* ( a drive all w9t]1 = besides writ+ my book ,i h be5 pa9t+ pictures = fri5ds1 & am n[ at "w on "s wild roses = ,mrs4 ,d4's gold5 w$d+ next ,monday1 & ye/]day ,i wrote h] "s v]ses = ! occasion4 ,! "w at ! ,hippodrome took a great deal ( my "t1 & !re is a poor homeless fell[ n[ at "w 9 my g>d51 :om x 0 my privilege to lead to ,*ri/ !re1 & :o t\*$ me n a little ?is morn+ by br++ me ?ree plants out ( 8 scanty e>n+s4 ,he has connect$ himself ) our ,mission & has made fri5ds !re4 ,i d n "k :at ,fab] says ab\t ! sil5ce ( ,*ri/1 b ,i "k t z f> z our own consci\sness goes1 ,he (t5 answ]s nev] a ^w1 & t ! griev$ & disappo9t$ he>t mu/ cl+ to ,him m firmly ?an ev] at su* times4 ,we live 9 a my/]y1 & %all nev] be satisfi$ till we see ,him z ,he is4 ,i am enjoy+ a great deal 9 a great _m ways1 b ,i am afraid ,i %\ld run 9 if ! gates op5$4 ,if ,i g to ! ,c5t5nial x w be to please "s ( ! family1 n myself4 ,y ask ab\t my book2 x is a sort ( /ory2 _h to be to get read2 ,i c\ld f9i% x 9 two weeks if ne$ful4 ,:5 ,i wrote x no mortal kn[s2 ,i %\ld say t ab\t all ,i _h done ?is w9t] 0 to hold my ,bible-read+1 pa9t1 & "w 9 ! revival4 ,i h s few int]ruptions comp>$ ) my previ\s life1 t ,i h>dly h le>n$ to adju/ myself to !m4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,philadelphia1 ,may #cj1 #ahgf4 ,we came "h on a hospitable invitation to sp5d a week 9 ! ,c5t5nial gr\nds1 & ye/]day pass$ sev]al h\rs 9 w&]+ ab\t1 bewild]$ & amaz$ at ! ho/s ( ?+s we saw1 & ! ho/ we didn't see4 ,we f\nd ourselves totally ignorant ( ,norway1 = in/ance1 ^: contributions are full ( arti/ic grace & beauty2 & ,i suppose we %all g on mak+ simil> discov]ies ab\t o!r nations4 ,z to ! ?irty-two art gall]ies we h only glanc$ at !m4 ,:at int]e/$ me mo/ 0 gr\ps ( ,norwegians1 ,lapps & o!r ,nor!rn]s1 s life-l t !y 7 repeat$ly address$ by visitors--wond]ful reproductions4 ,! ext5t ( ?is ,exhibition is simply beyond description4 ,! only way to get any conception ( x is to make a railroad circuit ( ! gr\nds4 ,i h _h a v busy w9t]2 held a ,bible-read+ once a week1 writt5 a book1 pa9t$ lots ( pictures to give away1 & really ne$ re/1 only ,i hate re/4444 ,we f9d out :]e our he>ts really are :5 we get ^! fanci$ invitations homew>d4 ,i look ^u ,*ri/ians :o are1 at su* times1 reluctant to g1 ) unfeign$ amazem5t4 ,! spectacle1 too (t5 se51 ( %r9k+ f ! pres5ce ( ,*ri/1 is "o ,i c n beg9 to und]/&4 ,i %\ld ?9k x w\ld h be5 a t]rible disappo9tm5t to y to get s f> on & !n h to come back2 b we c be made will+ = any?+4 ,i am glad y lik$ ,griselda2 ,i knew y w\ld4 #h ,! extreme heat & h] unusually enfeebl$ /ate r5d]$ ! summ] a v try+ "o2 b its discom=t 0 9 a measure reliev$ by ! extraord9>y lovel9ess ( ! ,dorset sc5]y ?is season4 ,!re 0 mu* 9 ?is sc5]y to rem9d h] ( ,*ateau d',oex1 :]e %e _h pass$ su* happy weeks 9 ! summ] & autumn ( #aheh4 ,if n m>k$ by any v gr& features1 x is pleas+ 9 ! highe/ degree4 ,9 c]ta9 /ates ( ! atmosph]e ! entire l&scape--,mt4 ,equ9ox1 ,sunset ,m\nta91 ,owl's ,head1 ,gre5 ,peak1 toge!r ) ! int]v5+ hills1 & ! :ole valley--becomes transfigur$ ) ev]-v>y+ =ms ( light & %ade4 ,at su* times %e ?\ght x unsurpass$ by any?+ ( ! k9d %e _h ev] witness$1 ev5 9 ,switz]l&4 ,! f9e/ p>ts ( ?is en*ant+ sc5e 7 ! play ( ! cl\d-%ad[s1 runn+ l wild horses across ! m\nta9s1 & ! wond]ful sunsets2 & bo? 7 9 full view f ! w9d[s ( h] d54 ,h] eyes nev] grew we>y ( fea/+ ^u !m4 ,! cl\d-%ad[s1 9 p>ticul>1 are mu* admir$ by all lov]s ( nature4 #i ,to ,mrs4 ,george ,payson1 ,kau9fels1 ,july #h1 #ahgf4 ,we h be5 "h f\r weeks1 & ought to h be5 "h six1 = ,i c n be> heat2 x takes all ! life out ( me4 ,la/ night :5 ,i w5t up to my room to g to b$1 ! !rmomet] 0 #ij444 ,are y n go+ to ! ,c5t5nial8 ,george & ,i w5t on fir/ & /ay$ at ,dr4 ,kirkbride's4 ,!y 7 z k9d z possible1 & we all enjoy$ a great deal4 ,:at int]e/$ me mo/ 7 wond]ful life-l figures 7"s said wax1 b !y 7 no m wax ?an y are7 ( ,lapl&]s1 ,sw$es1 & ,norwegians1 dress$ 9 clo!s t _h be5 worn by real peasants1 & done by an arti/ic h&4 ,next to ^! came ! ,japanese dep>tm5t2 amaz+ bronzes1 amaz+ scre5s 7#a1jjj a pair1 embroid]$ exquisitely71 lovely fl[]s pa9t$ on lovely vases1 etc41 etc41 etc41 ad inf9itum4 ,! ,norwegian jewelry 0 also a surprise & delight2 ,i don't c>e = jewelry g5]ally1 b ^! silv]y lace-l creations took me by /orm4 ,among o!r pretty ?+s 7 lots ( ,engli% b$rooms1 exquisitely furni%$ & enorm\sly exp5sive4 ,! horticultural dep>tm5t 0 v poor1 except ! rhodod5drons1 :i* drove me crazy4 ,i only took a *air twice4 ,y pay sixty c5ts an h\r = "o ) a man to propel x1 b c h "o = ?ree h\rs & make y\r husb& 7or wife67 :eel y4 ,y d n pay entrance fee = *ildr5 go+ 9 y\r arms1 & ,i saw boys ( eight or n9e lugg$ 9 by _! fa!rs & mo!rs4 ,we ?9k ev]ybody %\ld g :o c af=d x4 ,sev]al c\ntries _h n op5$ :5 we 7 !re2 ,turkey & ,spa91 = in/ance2 & if ,switz]l& 0 ready we did n see x4 ,! m ,i ?9k ( ! gr\ps ,i spoke (1 ! m ,i am lo/ 9 admiration4 ,a "y "m kneel+ ov] a little dead baby1 & ! /]n grief ( ! /rong old gr&fa!r1 br\ght a lump into my ?roat2 ! "y fa!r 0 n capable ( su* grief z !irs1 & sat by1 look+ subdu$ & t5d]1 b no?+ m4 ,! arti/ mu/ be a great /ud5t ( human nature4 ,i w5t1 e day1 to /udy ^! dome/ic gr\ps2 at fir/ !y did n attract ! cr[d2 b lat] x 0 next to impossible to get at !m4 ,e "o 0 tak5 f life1 & y see ! grime on _! knuckles4 ,almo/ e face express$ /rong & agreeable "*4 ,!re 7 v few good & a great _m _h pictures4 ,( /atu>y ,! ,=c$ ,pray] 0 v popul>2 ! *ild has 8 h&s fold$1 b is 9 any?+ b a sa9tly temp]1 & two te>s are on 8 *eeks4 ,i %\ld l to own x4 ,if ,i _h _h any money to sp>e ,i %\ld h b\ght some?+ f ,japan & some?+ f ,d5m>k4 ,i d n ?9k any "o c realise1 :o has n be5 !re1 :at an education su* an ,exposition is4 ,*9a's inf]iority to ,japan ,i knew no?+ ab\t4 ,a4 goes out sket*+ e day4 ,! o!r day ,i f\nd h] pa9t+ a :ite fl[] :i* %e said %e got f ! lawn2 x 0 some?+ l a :ite lockspur1 only v mu* pretti]1 & 01 ( c\rse1 n a wild fl[]1 z %e suppos$1 or1 at any rate1 n indig5\s to ?is soil4 ,%e decl>$ x _h no leaves1 b ,i made h] g out & %[ me ! plant2 x grew ab\t t5 in*es high1 ) leaves l a lily1 & !n came ! pure1 graceful fl[]s4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,dorset1 ,july #i1 #ahgf4 ,!re has be5 a great *ange "h 9 religi\s int]e/1 ! f\ndation ( :i* is ?\ght to h be5 laid 9 ! ,bible-read+s4 ,i am a%am$ to believe x1 all ,i say & d seems s flat2 b our ,"l c ov]rule incompet5ce4 ,! ladies are eag] to h ! read+s resum$1 b ,i c n und]take x unless ,i get /rong]4 ,! ,rev4 ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,re$ are do+ a quiet "w among non-*ur*go]s at ! o!r end ( ! village4 ,%e has be5 to e h\se 9 ! neighborhood & compell$ !m to come 91 hav+ meet+s at h] own h\se4 ,( c\rse ! devil is on h&4 ,he rem9ds me ( a slug t sits on my rose bu%es wat*+ = ! buds to op51 :5 he falls to & dev\rs !m1 in/ant]4 ,i am sure x is z true ( him z ( ! ,almighty1 t he nev] slumb]s or sleeps4 ,8 imp]t95ces increase daily4 ,"o ( ! la/ ?+s ,i did be=e leav+ home 0 to decide to br+ "h "o ( ! ,hippodrome conv]ts1 ab\t :om ,i presume ,i wrote y4 ,we knew next to no?+ ab\t him1 & ,i c\ld ill af=d to support him2 b ,i 0 8 only e>?ly fri5d4 ,he _h no home1 no "w1 & ,i felt ,i ought to look aft] him4 ,we gave him a little room 9 ! old mill1 & he is p]fectly happy2 calls 8 room 8 ca/le1 does n feel ! heat1 takes c>e ( my g>d51 enjoys hay+1 has put ev]y?+ 9 ord]1 is z /rong z a horse1 & a com=t to u all2 be+ will+ to turn 8 h& to any?+4 ,9 ! ev5+s he has made = me a manilla mat1 ( :i* ,i am v pr\d4 ,he has be5 all ov] ! _w & pick$ up all sorts ( in=mation4 ,he w5t to he> ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' c5t5nial address on ! ,f\r? at a picnic1 & ,i 0 a/oni%$ :5 he came back at 8 intellig5t acc\nt ( x4 ,ev]ybody likes him1 & he has prov$ a regul> in/itution4 ,i w\ld n h _h a fl[] b = him1 = ,i c n "w out 9 su* a blaz+ sun z we h _h4 #aj ,my book is to be call$1 ,i believe1 ,! ,home at ,greylock2 b ,i don't "k4 ,my husb& & ,mr4 ,r&olph fuss$ s ov] ! title t ,i said x w\ld end 9 be+ call$ ,mu* ,ado ab\t ,no?+4 ,!y1 be+ m51 look at ! f9ancial "q1 to :i* ,i nev] gave a ?\ght4 ,ev5 ,satan has nev] s mu* z :isp]$1 ,write to make money2 don't be too religi\s 9 y\r books4 ,/ill he may d x1 n[ ,i h put x into 8 head4 ,h[ little any ( u "k :at he won't make u d6 ,i enjoy$ ! ,c5t5nial m ?an ,i expect$ to d1 b got my fill v soon1 & 0 glad to g home4 ,no acc\nt ( ! ,dorset home w\ld be complete )\t "s ref]5ce to ! old mill4 ,x _h be5 dismantl$ dur+ ! w>1 b1 at ! reque/ ( ! neighbors1 0 n[ re/or$ to its orig9al use4 ,x also conta9$ ! boys' work%op1 a ba?+-room1 an ice-h\se1 a ram1 & a b[l+-alley2 =m$1 inde$1 toge!r ) ! pond & ! boat1 "p & p>cel ( ! ,dorset home itself4 ,to ,mrs4 ,james ,donaghe1 ,dorset1 ,july #ae1 #ahgf4 ,i h h>dly put p5 to pap] s9ce ,i came "h4 ,i nev] c\ld endure heat2 x always laid me flat4 ,ye/]day !re 0 a let-up to ! torrid zone1 & to-day x is comp>atively cool4 ,ye/]day ! "m ( our pa/or "h got h] release4 ,i cri$ = joy1 = %e has be5 a great suff]]1 & _h long$ to die4 ,:at a my/]y dea? is6 ,i w5t 9 to see h[ %e 01 & %e _h j brea!d h] la/1 & !re lay h] poor old body1 eighty-two ye>s old1 look+ z r5t & torn z "o might suppose x w\ld aft] a fight ( ?irty ye>s betwe5 ! s\l & itself4 ,i h wond]$ if ! heat1 s dreadful to _m1 _h n be5 good = y4 ,a rheumatic boy1 :o works = u (f & on1 says x has be5 spl5did = him4 ,we he>d ye/]day t ,dr4 ,s*aff _h lo/ 8 elde/ daught] aft] a t5 days' illness ) typhoid fev]4 ,he has be5 greatly afflict$ aga9 & aga9 & aga9 by su* b]eavem5ts1 b ?is mu/ be h>de/ ( all4 #aa ,!re is a diff]5t religi\s atmosph]e "h n[ f any?+ we h ev] kn[n4 ,! ladies hop$ to beg9 ! ,bible-read+s "r (f1 b x 0 out ( ! "q4 ,i expect su* a numb] ( gue/s ?is week t ,i d>e n und]take x4 ,i wi% y 7 com+1 too4 ,h[ y w\ld enjoy sitt+ on ! piazza wat*+ ! %ad[s on ! m\nta9s6 ,we h _h "s magnific5t sunsets ?is season4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss & ,i drive e night aft] tea1 a regul> old ,d>by & ,joan4 ,g5]ally1 ,i pref] work+ 9 ! g>d5 to driv+1 b ?is "t x has be5 too hot1 & we h next to no fl[]s4 ,x q grieves me t ,i h no?+ to lay on ,gr&ma ,pratt's c(f94 ,h[ev]1 %e won't c>e6 ,won't x be nice to get rid ( ^! frail1 tr\blesome bodies ( ours1 & live )\t !m6 ,i hope ,i %all see y 9 heav51 ) pl5ty ( room & no rheumatism4 ,h[ c\ld y make su* a "t ov] t dogg]el6 #ab ,su* ?+s are a drug 9 ?is h\se4 ,i ?\ght ,i _h a long lett] f y1 & x 0 t /uff6 ,my la/ book is all pr9t$4 ,my husb& k9dly correct$ ! pro(-%eets = me2 a ?+ ,i hate to d4 ,he likes ! book bett] ?an ,i d4 ,i always get tir$ ( my books by ! "t !y are done4 ,i read v little2 only "s few devotional books ov] & ov]4 ,i wond] if y h read ,miracles ( ,fai?8 ,x is a rem>kable little book4 ,d write & let me "k h[ y & y\r husb& are4 ,we make great acc\nt ( our aft]noon mail4 ,%e alludes 9 ! prec$+ lett] to ! gue/s %e 0 expect+4 ,! ent]ta9m5t ( fri5ds =m$ a m>k$ feature ( h] ,dorset life2 & x call$ into play ! brighte/ traits ( h] "*4 ,h] visitors always w5t away feel+ l "o :o has be5 gaz+ ^u a beautiful l&scape or li/5+ to sweet music1 s *>m+ 0 h] hospitality4 ,"o ( !m1 writ+ to h] husb& a ye> aft] h] dea?1 ?us ref]s to x3 ,i seem to see ! ,dorset hills n[ ) _! beautiful cl\d-%ad[s & lovely blue4 ,i c see 9 my m9d y\r pleasant home & all ! faces1 includ+ ! de> "o y miss ?is summ]4 ,:at a delightful home %e made6 ,! good *e] %e furni%$ = ! m9ds1 he>ts1 & bodies ( h] gue/s 0 some?+ rem>kable4 ,i %all nev] =get my visits2 ,i 0 9 a /ate ( high ent]ta9m5t f beg9n+ to end4 ,:at ent]ta9+ /ories %e told6 :at practical wisdom %e gave out 9 ! mo/ natural & incid5tal way6 & :at h\sekeep+6 ,common articles ( food seem$ to possess new virtues & ze/4 ,i always w5t away full ( ! m>vels ( ! visit1 z well z load$ d[n ) _m little tok5s ( h] k9dness & ?\ghtfulness4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,dorset1 ,sept4 #i1 #ahgf4 ,:at int]e/$ me mo/ at ! ,c5t5nial 0 9 ! ,ma9 ,build+1 & two ?+s /& out1 prom95tly1 9 my memory4 ,! fir/ is gr\ps ( ,sw$i% figures1 dress$ 9 national co/ume1 & all done by ! h& ( a real arti/4 ,especially exam9e ! dead baby & its weep+ "m & rugg$ old w\nd$ gr&fa!r2 x w rem9d y ( ! words1 ,a little *ild %all lead !m4 ,next 9 int]e/ to me 7 ! ,japanese bronzes & scre5s2 next w>es f ,d5m>k1 butt]flies & fea!rs f ,brazil4 ,9 ! art dep>tm5t a picture call$ ,betty 9 ! ,briti% division1 up 9 a corn]1 & 9 /atu>y ,! ,=c$ ,pray]4 ,bo? my girls agre$ ) me 9 ! ma92 ! boys c>$ mo/ = ,ma*9]y hall1 & my husb& = ,que5sl&1 = :i* ,i did n c>e a fig4 ,la/ ,sunday 0 z p]fect "h z ) y4 ,my husb& prea*$ at ,pawlet1 ab\t six miles f "h1 & ,i w5t ) him4 ,he prea*$ a v e>ne/ s]mon on pray]4 ,my ,bible-read+ is ?rong$1 & ,i c't b hope ! ,holy ,_s is help+ my infirmities & bless+ s\ls4 ,my he>t ye>ns ov] ^! wom51 _m ( :om h faces /amp$ ) c>e4 ,!re is a class "h t nobody has any idea h[ to get at4 ,to meet _! case1 apo/olic "w ne$s to be done4 ,d y "k t ,iri%m5 are buy+ up ! ,new ,engl& f>ms at a great rate8 ,to ,mrs4 ,donaghe1 ,dorset1 ,sept4 #aj1 #ahgf4 ,! extraord9>y heat has work$ unfavorably on bo? my husb& & myself2 he has be5 "u m$ical treatm5t mo/ ( ! "t1 =lorn & depress$4 ,i h j pu%$ ?r\gh z ,i c\ld2 my ,bible-read+1 :i* has be5 wond]fully att5d$1 be+ ! only "w ,i h done4 ,! wea!r is cool n[ & ,i feel /rong]4 ,a p>ty ( "y p1 :o 7 com+ to call on ,a41 7 upset j above u2 two _h brok5 legs1 o!rs bruises & cuts1 & "o _h bo? knee-pans s]i\sly injur$4 ,we got h] "h & put h] to b$1 & !n ,i />t$ (f to get ! re/2 b ! surgeon1 on arriv+1 decid$ !y %\ld be remov$ at once1 & got !m all safely back to ,man*e/]4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #af1 #ahgf4 ,s9ce my la/ lett] ,i h be5 to ,montreal1 fl$ f & settl$ d[n "h4 ,my book is out 9 ,engl&1 & my husb& sat up till midnight1 read+ an ,engli% copy ( x1 al?\gh he _h he>d me read x al\d :5 writt51 & read x twice 9 pro(-%eets4 ,he ?9ks x w be a useful book4 ,i feel sure y w agree ) me 9 its ma9 po9ts4 ,god grant x may s5d _m a bewild]$ "m to h] knees6 ,miss ,s4 call$ "h a few days ago2 %e has writt5 a book call$ ,! ,fullness ( ! ,bless+1--"o object ( :i* is to prove t sanctification is n1 c n be in/antane\s4444 ,i d hope ! book w d good4 ,x seems timely to me1 = ,i %udd] :5 ,i he> t ,a4 & ,b4 pr(ess$ sanctification on su* & su* a day4 ,my visit to ,montreal gave me indignant pa9 :5 ,i saw cr[ds kneel+ to ! ,virg91 & n to ,*ri/1 9 ^? co/ly *ur*es & ca!drals4 ,z to ,miss ---- ,i d n "k en\gh ( h] to =m an op9ion ( h] /ate2 ,i incl9e1 h[ev]1 to ?9k t demoniac possession is sometimes p]mitt$4 ,f5elon1 y "k1 ?9ks we %\ld n be too eag] = spiritual delight4 ,he is entirely "r :5 he says t ! night ( fai? may witness a fai? de>] to ,god ?an t ( s5sible delight4 ,i love ,job :5 he says1 ,?\gh ,he slay me1 yet w ,i tru/ 9 ,him1 m ?an ,i d ,david :5 he is 9 gre5 pa/ures & beside /ill wat]s2 x does n require mu* fai? to be happy !re4 ,nov4 #ab?4--,i am glad ,greylock rea*$ y 9 safety1 & sorry ,i c\ld n correct its num]\s mispr9ts4 ,y\r "q ab\t ,kitty ,i don't q und]/&2 ,i did n mean to say t h] p>5ts _h no m tr\ble ) h]1 b !y _h no m fights gr[+ out ( self-w on bo? sides4 ,i "k t !re is no end to tr\ble ) ob/9ate or o!rwise naughty *ildr51 only if ! "m lives close to ,*ri/ ! fault w be on _! side1 n h]s4 ,y speak1 by-!-bye1 ( my us+ ! ^w ,*ri/ r ?an ! ^w ,jesus4 ,i d s because x means m to my m9d1 & because ! apo/les use x mu* m frequ5tly4 ,i d hope my book w be a com=t & help to _m well-mean+ b inexp]i5c$ mo!rs4 ,& ,i wi% ,i practis$ m p]fectly :at ,i prea*4 ,b ,i h my infirmities & f9d x h>d to be always on my gu>d4444 ,a4 & ,i are tak+ draw+-lessons ( a v sup]ior ,fr5* tea*]1 :o (f]s u ! privilege ( sp5d+ our :ole "t 9 h] /udio1 ) conseil4 ,! ,home at ,greylock 0 publi%$ ! latt] "p ( ,octob]4 ,x embodi$1 z %e said1 ! results ( ?irty ye>s ( exp]i5ce & reflection4 ,its views ( m>riage & ( ! (fice ( a ,*ri/ian "m f\nd frequ5t expression 9 h] o!r writ+s & 9 h] correspond5ce4 ,%e plac$ religion & love alike at ! f\ndation ( a true home2 ! "o to connect x ) heav5 above1 ! o!r to make x a heav5 ^u e>?4 ,%e enjo9$ x ^u h] "y fri5ds1 z !y desir$ endur+ dome/ic felicity1 to m>ry fir/ ( all = love4 ,to "o ( !m1 :o 0 tempt$1 z %e fe>$1 to m>ry out ( gratitude r ?an f love1 %e wrote3 ,we wom5 are exact+ creatures2 & y c n please u unless we h ! :ole ( y4 ,oh1 if y knew ! sacr$ness1 ! beauty1 ! sweetness ( m>ri$ life1 z ,i d1 y w\ld z soon ?9k ( ent]+ heav5 )\t a w$d+ g>m5t1 z ( v5tur+ on its outskirts ev51 save by ! =ce ( a passionate1 ov]:elm+ p[] t is /rong] ?an dea? itself6 ,h[ w>mly %e sympa?is$ ) mo!rs1 especially ) "y mo!rs1 9 _! peculi> exp]i5ces & h[ great %e ?\ght _! privilege to be1 h] writ+s te/ify4 ,! same trait is br\ght out /ill m fully 9 h] lett]s4 ,only a "m1 %e wrote1 kn[s ! v>i$ discipl9e ( hopes & fe>s & joys & sorr[s ?r\gh :i* a "m passes to glory--= ?is is ! "m's pa?way1 & %e r>ely walks on a high] road or "o t may s lead to p]fection4 ,"s ( h] lett]s address$ to b]eav$ mo!rs h already be5 giv54 ,b if h] he>t 0 always t\*$ ) grief by ! dea? ( an infant1 x seem$ to leap = joy :5ev] %e he>d t 9 ! home ( a fri5d a *ild 0 com+ or _h j arriv$4 ,"h are samples ( h] lett]s on su* occasions4 ,to ,mrs4 ----1 ,jan #aj1 #ahgd4 ,y little "k into :at a new _w y are go+ to be introduc$6 ,i w\ldn't be a bit fright5$1 if ,i 7 y2 x is ev] s mu* m likely t y'll get ?r\gh safely1 ?an t y w n2 & !n :at joy6 ,y w be a v lov+1 devot$ "m1 & ,i hope ?is little "o w only be ! beg9n+ ( a h\seful4 ,i spoke = t51 b only _h six2 & our de> ,"l _h to take two ( !m back4444 ,i h j run ov] y\r lett] aga91 & want to reit]ate my *>ge to y to feel no fe> ab\t y\r future4 ,if y live & h a *ild1 y\r joy w be wond]ful1 b if y d n live 7"h7 x w be because y are go+ to dwell ) ,*ri/1 :i* is bett] ?an hav+ a ?\s& *ildr54 ,s ,i see no?+ b bright sides = y4 ,to ! ,same1 ,april #ah #aj1 #ahgd4 ,by ?is "t y ought to be able to receive lett]s2 at any rate ,i am go+ to write "o & y c d z y please ab\t read+ x4 ,well1 isn't a baby an in/itution8 ,i am sure y _h no idea :at a delightful ?+ x is to be a "m1 & t y h _h a mo/ bewild]+ exp]i5ce ( bo? suff]+ & joy4 ,i %all want to he> all ab\t ! "y g5tleman :5 y get /rong en\gh to write an en?usia/ic lett] ab\t him2 nor h ,i any objection to he> h[ 8 "m is behav+ "u ^! new circum/ances4 ,:at does y\r husb& ?9k ( ! upsett+ ( all home cu/oms & ! introduction ( ?is "y h]o !re98 ,?ank him = s5d+ me ! news 9 good season4 ,i %\ld n h lik$ x f a /rang]4 ,& by-!-bye1 don't let y\r *ildr5 say p>p-er & m>m-er1 z n9e *ildr5 out ( t5 d4 ,i d>esay y nev] meant !y %\ld1 hav+ a little mite ( s5se ( y\r own4 ,n[ ?is is all a new "m ought to read at once1 s ) lots ( congratulations & ?anksgiv+s1 good-bye4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f a lett] to ano!r fri5d1 dat$ ,feb4 #bj1 #ahge3 ,y\r la/ lett] 0 s eloqu5t 9 its happ9ess t 9 writ+ an article = a magaz9e on ! subject ( education1 ,i c\ld n help beg9n+ ,! ,k+ is com+1 & depict+ 8 h]alds444 ,i am inde$ rejoic+ 9 y\r joy1 & hope ! little que5 w long sit on ! "r royal ?rone ( y\r he>t4 ,keep me po/$ z to ,miss ,baby's progress4 ,i "k a family :]e ! fir/ son 0 call$ ,boy = ye>s1 ! s]vants address+ him z ,ma/] ,boy4 ,"h are ! op5+ s5t5ces ( ! article ref]r$ to3 ,! ,k+ is at h&4 ,h]alds h be5 ann\nc+ 8 adv5t 9 language incompreh5sible to man1 b :i* woman und]/&s z %e does h] alphabet4 ,a da9ty basket1 fill$ ) my/]ies half hidd51 half display$2 s(t little g>m5ts1 fold$ away 9 ranks & files2 "h delicate lace & cambric2 !re d[n & fea!rs & luxury4 ,! ,k+ has come4 ,limp & p9k1 a no?+ & nobody1 yet welcom$ & treasur$ z ev]y?+ & ev]ybody1 8 wondr\s reign beg9s4 ,8 k+dom is ! _w4 ,8 _w is peopl$ by two human be+s4 ,ye/]day1 !y 7 a boy & a girl4 ,to-day1 !y are man & woman1 & are call$ fa!r & "m4 ,_! new ,k+ is imp]i\s4 ,he has 8 own views z to ! way he %all live & move & h 8 be+4 ,he has 8 own royal table1 at :i* he presides 9 royal pomp4 ,8 wait+-maid is ref9$ & educat$--8 sup]ior 9 ev]yway4 ,he takes 8 meals f h] :5 he sees fit2 if he c n sleep1 he w n all[ h] to d s4 ,8 treasur] is a man :om ?\s&s look up to1 & rev]5ce1 b1 9 ?is little _w1 he is valu$ only = ! supplies he furni%es1 ! equipages he pur*ases1 ! ca/le 9 :i* "y royalty dwells4 ,! picture is n unpleas+1 h[ev]2 ! slaves h ! be/ ( x1 aft] all4 ,! reign is n v long4 ,two ye>s lat]1 !re is a desc5t f ! ?rone1 to make room = ! ,que54 ,%e is a great /udy to him4 ,he puts 8 f+]s into h] eyes to le>n if !y are little blue lakelets4 ,he gr[s *ivalr\s & patroniz+4 ,s ! _w ( home goes on4 ,! ,k+ & ,que5 give place to new ,k+s & ,que5s1 b1 ?\gh de?ron$1 !y are /ill royal2 _! wants are =e/all$1 !y are f$1 clo!d1 in/ruct$1 b above all1 belov$4 ,:5 did _! education beg98 ,at six mon?s8 ,a ye>8 ,two ye>s8 ,no2 x began :5 !y began2 ! mom5t !y ent]$ ! little _w !y call$ !irs4 ,e t\* ( ! "m's h&1 e tone ( h] voice1 educates h] *ild4 ,x nev] rememb]s a "t :5 %e 0 n its devot$ lov]1 s]vant1 vassal1 slave4 ,_m an e> enjoys1 is soo!d by music1 :ile ignorant ( its laws4 ,s ! y\nge/ *ild 9 ! h\sehold is lull$ by uncompreh5d$ h>monies f its v bir?4 ,affections gr\p r\nd & bless x1 l s _m angels2 x c\ld n analyse or compreh5d an angel1 b x c\ld feel ! s(t %elt] ( 8 w+s4 #ac ,! foll[+ 0 address$ to a fri5d1 ^: home 0 already bless$ ) six f9e boys3 ,,dorset1 ,sept4 #af1 #ahfh4 ,de> ,mr4 ,b43--,i am j z glad z ,i c be6 ,i said x 0 a girl1 & ,i knew x 0 a girl1 & t is ! reason x is a girl4 ,give my be/ love to ,mrs4 ,b41 & tell h] ,i hope ?is little damsel w be to h] l a ,sabba? ( re/1 aft] ! six week & "w days %e has _h all along4 ,x is h>d to tell :i* "o loves be/1 "o's girls or "o's boys1 b x is pleasant to h bo? k9ds444 ,i hope y\r place has z appropriate a "n z ours has _h giv5 to x--,sa9ts' ,re/66--& t y w fill x full ( sa9ts & angels2 only let !m be girls1 y h _h boys en\gh4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iii4 ,! ,ye> #ahgg4 ,dea? ( h] ,c\s91 ! ,rev4 ,*>les ,h4 ,payson4 ,illness & ,dea? ( ,pr(4 ,smi?4 ,let u take our ,lot 9 ,life j z x comes4 ,adorn+ "o's ,home4 ,h[ mu* ,"t %all be giv5 to x8 ,god's ,delight 9 ,8 beautiful ,creations4 ,dea? ( ,dr4 ,buck4 ,visit+ ! sick & b]eav$4 ,an ,ill-turn4 ,goes to ,dorset4 ,! ,/rang5ess ( ,life4 ,kau9fels4 ,! ,bible-read+4 ,lett]s4 ,dur+ ! e>ly mon?s ( #ahgg ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' sympa?ies 7 mu* excit$ by sickness & dea? among h] fri5ds4 ,i sp5d a deal ( "t1 %e wrote1 at fun]als & go+ to see p 9 affliction1 & nev] knew any?+ l x4 ,& :]ev] %e w5t1 x 0 z a daught] ( consolation4 ,! :ole ye>1 inde$1 0 m>k$ by a v t5d] & lov+ _s1 z also by unwont$ ?\ghtfulness4 ,b x 0 m>k$ no less by ! happie/1 mo/ untir+ activity ( bo? h&s & bra94 ,dur+ ! mon? ( ,janu>y %e wrote ! l>g] portion ( a new s]ial = ,! ,*ri/ian at ,"w4 ,x w\ld seem z if %e =esaw ! end approa*+ & 0 press+ t[>d x ) eag] /eps & a glad he>t4 ,to h] elde/ ,son1 ,new ,york1 ,jan4 #bh1 #ahgg4 ,! great ev5t ( la/ week 0 c\s9 ,*>les' unexpect$ dea?4 #ad ,y\r fa!r & ,i att5d$ ! fun]al1 9 8 *ur*1 :i* 0 cr[d$ to ov]fl[+ ) a weep+ audi5ce4 ,mo/ ( ! m9i/]s we "k 7 !re4 ,c\s9 ,g4 came on ,friday night & said no?+ w\ld com=t him l he>+ y\r fa!r prea* & he promis$ to d s4 ,i w5t ) him to ,inwood1 & we h j got back4 ,y\r fa!r prea*$ a beautiful s]mon & paid a gl[+ tribute to c\s9 ,*>les 9 x1 & ,i am v glad ,i w5t4 ,aft] ! fun]al ye/]day ,i came home & put up "s *ick5-jelly ,i _h made = ,pr(4 ,smi?1 & c>ri$ x d[n to him2 !re ,i met ,dr4 ,g\ld1 ( ,rome1 :o _h se5 him1 & said he consid]$ 8 case a v critical "o4 ,feb4 #d?4--,y\r fa!r 0 invit$ to repeat 8 lecture on ,recollections ( ,hur/monceux & ,rydal ,m\nt1 & did s1 ye/]day morn+1 9 our lecture-room1 :i* 0 fill$ ) a f9e audi5ce1 mo/ly /rang]s4 ,:at h y on y\r natural bracket8 ,& h y put up y\r leaves on y\r w9d[s8 ,m9e are look+ spl5didly4 ,h4 is burn+ "o ( !m ) a magnify+-glass y\r fa!r gave me at ,*ri/mas4 ,! sun does lie delightfully 9 ?is room4 ,i mu/ n[ g to ! ,smi?s4 ,all s5d love4 ,pr(4 ,smi? pass$ away peacefully 9 ! e>ly morn+ on ! #g? ( ,febru>y4 ,"o ( 8 la/ consci\s utt]ances 0 address$ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss3 ,i h ceas$ to cumb] myself ) ! ?+s ( "t & s5se1 & h _h "s preci\s ?\ghts ab\t dea?4 ,h5ry ,boynton ,smi? 0 "o ( ^? m5 :o enri* life by _! pres5ce1 & seem to r5d] ! :ole _w poor] by _! abs5ce4 ,he 0 /rongly atta*$ to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss2 = m ?an =ty ye>s ! relation betwe5 him & h] husb& resembl$ t ( bro!rs2 ,mrs4 ,smi? 0 "o ( h] olde/ & mo/ belov$ fri5ds1 & = a qu>t] ( a c5tury ! two families _h dwelt toge!r 9 unity4 ,&1 !n1 ) "o ( ! sadde/ & "o ( ! happie/ ev5ts ( h] dome/ic hi/ory--! burial ( h] little ,bessie1 at :i* he m9i/]$ ) ,*ri/like sympa?y1 & at ! baptism ( h] ,swiss boy :o bore 8 "n--he 0 t5d]ly associat$4 ,x is n /range1 !re=e1 t 8 dea?1 z well z ! we>isome ye>s ( invalidism :i* prec$$ x1 t\*$ h] deeply4 ,:at mann] ( man he 02 h[ gift$1 wise & l>ge-he>t$2 h[ devot$ to ! cause ( 8 ,"l & ,savi\r2 :at a lead] & ma/]-workman 9 sacr$ sci5ce & 9 ! ,*ur* ( ,*ri/2 h[ wor?y ( love & admiration--all ?is may be se5 & read else:]e4 #ae ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,feb4 #ad1 #ahgg4 ,be=e ,i g d[n to ! meet+ at ,mrs4 ,d4's ,i mu/ h a little *at ) y1 9 reply to y\r la/ two lett]s4 ,i felt l %riek+ al\d :5 y contra/$ y\r life ) m9e4 ,b x is impossible to /ate fully :y4 ,yet ,i may say "o ?+2 ,i h _h to le>n :at ,i tea* 9 lonel9ess1 suff]+1 conflict1 & dismay1 :i* ,i d n believe y h physical /r5g? to be>4 ,! true /ory ( my life w nev] be writt54 ,b :atev] y d1 don't envy x4 ,& ,i d n mean by t1 t ,i am a disappo9t$1 unhappy woman2 f> f x4 ,b ,i enjoy & suff] int5sely1 & "o insult+ ^w ab\t ,greylock1 = in/ance1 goes on /++ & cutt+ me1 amid =getfulness ( hundr$s ( k9d ones4 #af ,let u take our lot 9 life j z x comes1 c\rage\sly1 pati5tly1 & fai?fully1 nev] wond]+ at any?+ ! ,ma/] does4 ,i am conc]n$ j z y are ab\t my int]e/ 9 ?+s ( "t & s5se4 ,b ,i h n ! fa9te/ d\bt t if we c\ld h all we want 9 ,*ri/1 inf]ior objects w\ld fade & fall4 ,b we live 9 a /range _w1 amid _m claims on "t & ?\ght2 we c n dwell 9 a conv5t1 & mu/ dwell among human be+s1 & fall m or less "u _! influ5ce4 ,we %all get out ( all ?is by & by4 ,feb4 #bg?4--,?is w9t] ,i am draw+ 9 *>coal "u an accompli%$ tea*]2 %e has s l>ge a class t ,i _h to )draw f x & take private lessons4 ,%e has invit$ ,a4 to assi/ h] 9 tea*+ little ones twice a week1 :i* mat]ially curtails h] bill4 ,a4 0 introduc$ to "o y\?1 ag$ five1 z ,monsieur ,s & ,s2 he _h 8 easel1 8 big portfolio1 & *>coal1 9 great /yle1 b only took "o lesson1 he hat$ x s4 ,i don't see :at 8 "m 0 made (4 ,i sympa?ise ) y\r fe> ( sp5d+ too mu* "t adorn+ y\r home1 etc41 etc4 ,x is a nice "q h[ f> to g & h[ f> to /ay4 ,b ,i hone/ly believe t a b>e1 blank1 prosaic h\se makes religion appe> dreadfully homely4 ,we enjoy see+ our *ildr5 enjoy _! "w & _! play2 is our ,fa!r unwill+ to let u enjoy ours8 ,9 a ,g]man book #ag ,i translat$1 a little boy is v happy 9 mak+ a scrap-book = a little fri5d1 & ,god is repres5t$ z be+ glad to see him s happy4 ,& ,i don't believe ,he begrudg$ y\r mak+ me t pretty picture1 or did n wi% me to make y\rs4 7,by-!-bye1 :5 y h "t1 tell me h[ to d x47 ,x seems to me we are meant to use all ! faculties ,god gives u2 to abuse !m is ano!r ?+4 ,i feel t ,i am hav+ a vacation1 & wond] h[ long x is go+ to la/4 ,i d n "k h[ ,i %\ld h /ood ! trem5d\s *ange 9 my life1 ?r\gh my husb&'s *ange ( pr(ession1 if ,i _h n _h ?is res\rce ( pa9t+4 ,o1 h[ ,i d miss 8 prea*+6 ,h[ ,i miss my pa/oral "w6 ,dr4 ,buck is on 8 dy+ b$1 & long+ to g4 #ah ,to h] elde/ ,son1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #aa1 #ahgg4 ,we _h an excell5t s]mon f ,dr4 ,v9c5t ?is morn+1 :i* he repeat$ by reque/4 ,la/ ev5+ we _h ,*i ,alpha1 & z ,i saw ?is body ( m5 ent] ! d9+-room1 ,i wond]$ :e!r ,i _h borne any m9i/] to take up y\r fa!r's & my "w :5 we lay x d[n4 #ah?4--,i ?\ght )9 myself1 z ,i li/5$ to a s]mon on ! union ( ,*ri/ & ! believ]1 :e!r ,i %\ld h ! bliss ( he>+ y prea*4 ,let me see2 h[ old %\ld ,i h to be1 at soone/8 ,sixty-two2 ! age at :i* my ance/ors di$1 unless !y di$ "y4 ,i got a beautiful lett]1 a few days ago1 f a m9i/] 9 ,philadelphia1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,mill]1 :o has #a1cjj memb]s 9 8 *ur*1 & says if he c\ld af=d x he w\ld give a copy ( ,greylock to e "y "m 9 x4 ,i w5t to ,mrs4 ,p4's fun]al on ,friday4 ,%e want$ to die sudd5ly1 & _h h] wi%4 ,%e ate h] breakfa/ on ,tuesday2 !n w5t into ! (fice & arrang$ pap]s !re2 h] husb& w5t out at t51 & %ortly aft]1 %e began to feel sick & ! girls made h] g to b$4 ,"o ( !m w5t out to d "s err&s1 & ! o!r sat 9 ! room2 %e soon he>d a s\nd t made h] ?9k h] "m want$ some?+1 & on go+ to h] f\nd h] dead4 ,dr4 ,p4 got home at twelve1 long aft] all 0 ov]4 ,he told me x 0 ! mo/ extraord9>y dea? he ev] he>d (1 b 8 !ory 0 t a small clot ( blood arre/$ ! circulation1 z %e _h no disease4 ,i _h a talk ) ,c4 ab\t 8 wife's sudd5 dea?4 ,i _h already writt5 him & s5t him a note4 ,i cut f ! ,ev5+ ,po/ ! slip ,i enclose ab\t ,mr4 ,moody's "q-draw]4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld hope = z sudd5 a dea? z ,mrs4 ,p4's4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,april #af1 #ahgg4 ,i am glad y lik$ ! picture4 ,did y "k t y too c get leaves & fl[]s 9 advance ( spr+1 by keep+ twigs 9 w>m wat]8 ,i _h =sy?ia bloom1 & o!r ?+s leaf$ beautifully4 ,x is said t apple & pe> blossoms w come out 9 ! same way1 if plac$ 9 ! sun 9 glass cans4 ,i h be5 ?9k+1 lately1 t if ,i enjoy my imp]fect "w1 h[ ,god1 :o has made s _m beautiful1 z well z useful1 ?+s1 mu/ enjoy ,8 faultless creations4 ,my "w is /ill to g f h\se to h\se :]e sickness & dea? are s busy4 ,mrs4 ,f4 ,g4 has j lo/ h] two only *ildr5 )9 a day ( ea* o!r4 ,nei!r h] "m nor si/] c\ld g ne> h] dur+ _! illness or aft] _! dea?1 because ( ! flock ( little ones 9 _! h\se1 & x 0 n safe to h a fun]al4 ,dr4 ,ha/+s made a pray]2 he said ! sc5e 0 he>t-r5d+4 ,may #c;d4--,dr4 ,/orrs prea*$ = u la/ ,sunday1 & said "o /rik+ ?+ ,i mu/ tell y on ! passage1 ,!y 7 /on$1 7 sawn asund]1 !y 7 tempt$1 etc4 ,he said _m ?\ght ! ^w tempt$ out ( place amid s _m horrors1 b t x held its true position1 s9ce few ?+s c\ld cause su* angui% to a ,*ri/ian he>t z ev5 a sugge/ion ( infidelity to its ,"l4 ,to ?is ,kempis adds ! hell ( n kn[+ :e!r "o _h yield$ or n4 ,may #ag?4--,mis]y loves company2 & s ,i am writ+ to y4 ,p]haps x w be "s consolation to y t ,i too h be5 knock$ up = two weeks1 "o ( :i* ,i sp5t 9 b$4 ,no?+ s]i\s ! matt]1 only put d[n & kept d[n2 n agreeable1 b necess>y4 ,h[ a/\nd$ we %all be :5 we wake up 9 heav5 & f9d our hateful old bodies c\ldn't get 96444 ,m4 is mak+1 & ,h4 has made1 a picture scrap-book = a hospital 9 ,syria4 ,y\r "m might enjoy t4 ,we all crave occupation4 ,imprisonm5t ) h>d labor nev] seems to me s frightful z imprisonm5t & no?+ to d1 does4 ,did y ev] he> ! /ory ( ! man :o sp5t ye>s 9 a d>k dungeon1 idle1 & !n f\nd "s p9s 9 8 coat1 :i* he sp5t ye>s 9 los+1 & crawl+ ab\t & f9d+8 ,well1 ,i h got rid ( a wee morsel ( ?is we>y day 9 writ+ ?is1 & y w get rid ( ano!r morsel 9 read+ x4 ,s we'll pat* ea* o!r up1 & limp along toge!r1 & by & by g :]e !re x no limp+ & no pat*+4 ,! new s]ial1 h] ,bible-read+s1 & pa9t+1 ) visits to sick- rooms & to ! h\se ( m\rn+1 dur+ ! e>ly half ( ?is ye>1 left little "t = correspond5ce4 ,h] lett]s 7 few & brief2 b !y are m>k$1 z 0 h] life1 by unusual quietness & dep? ( feel+4 ,h] delight 0 /ill to speak 9 !m a helpful & *e]+ ^w to s\ls /ruggl+ ) _! own imp]fections1 or ) trials ( ! way4 ,a s+le extract w illu/rate ! g5tle wisdom ( h] c\nsels3 ,i ?9k !re is su* a ?+ z peace ( consci5ce ev5 9 ?is life4 ,i d n mean c>eless peace1 or he$less peace2 ,i mean calm consci\sness ( an und]/&+1 s to speak1 betwe5 ! s\l & its ,"l4 ,a wife1 = in/ance1 may say & d ?+s to h] husb& t %[ %e is human2 yet1 at ! same "t1 ! two may live toge!r loyally1 & be happy4 ,& unless a ,*ri/ian is aw>e ( hav+ on h& an idol1 de>] ?an ,god1 ,i see no reason :y he %\ld n live 9 peace1 ev5 :ile aw>e t he is n yet f9i%$ 7p]fect74 ,we love ,god m ?an we are aw>e2 :5 ,he slays u we tru/ 9 ,him1 :5 ,he /rikes u we kiss ,8 h&4 ,h] own mood at ?is "t 0 s+ul>ly grave & p5sive4 ,%e felt m & m ke5ly ! moral puzzle & contradictions ( exi/5ce4 ,f beg9n+ to end1 9 e aspect1 %e wrote to a fri5d1 life gr[s m my/]i\s to me1 n to say que]--= t is n :at ,i mean4 ,su* /range ?+s are all ! "t happ5+1 & ev5 good p do+ & say+ ?+s t ne>ly drive "o wild4444 ,we live 9 a mix$ /ate1 9 a k9d ( see-saw3 we g up & !n we g d[n2 g d[n & !n fly up4 ,/ill ?is /range1 ev]-*ang+ my/]y ( life1 al?\gh x sometimes p]plex$ h] 9 ! extreme1 did n make h] unhappy4 ,i h great s\rces ( enjoym5t1 %e adds1 & d enjoy a good deal2 inf9itely m ?an ,i des]ve4 ,e>ly 9 ,june %e & ! y\ng] *ildr5 w5t to ,dorset4 ,on rea*+ !re1 %e wrote to h] husb&3 ,"h we are1 sitt+ by ! fire 9 our de> little p>lor4 ,we made a v com=table j\rney to ,man*e/]1 b ! ride f !re "h 0 r *e]less & cold1 z !y =got to s5d wraps4 ,! neighbors _h s5t 9 v>i\s good ?+s1 & ! /rawb]ries look$ v nice4 ,x ra9s1 b ,m4 & ,i h survey$ ! g>d51 & %e says x is look+ bett] ?an usual4 ,i only wi% y 7 "h4 ,y\r love is int5sely preci\s to me1 z ,i "k m9e is to y4 ,h[ ?ankful we ought to be t we h lov$ ea* o!r ?r\gh ?ick & ?96 ,?is is ,god's gift4 ,i c n write legibly ) ?is p5cil1 nor see v well1 z x is a d>k day1 & yet too e>ly = a lamp4 ,! latt] "p ( ,june %e made a %ort visit ) h] husb& to ,montreal4 ,a pleasant incid5t ( ?is j\rney 0 an excursion to ,quebec1 :]e two *>m+ days 7 sp5t 9 see+ ! ,falls ( ,montmor5ci1 ! ,pla9s ( ,abraham1 & o!r objects ( int]e/ 9 & ab\t t rem>kable city4 ,dur+ ! ride 9 ! c>s f ,montreal to ,/4 ,albans1 %e call$ ! att5tion ( h] husb& to a p>agraph f an ,engli% newspap] conta9+ an acc\nt ( ! dea? ( a m9] by an explosion1 on ^: brea/ 0 f\nd a lock ( hair inscrib$ ) ! "n ( ,jessie4 ,%e rem>k$ t ! incid5t w\ld s]ve z an excell5t h9t = a /ory4 ,?is 0 ! orig9 ( ,g5tleman ,jim1 ! pa!tic little tale publi%$ %ortly aft] h] dea?4 ,soon aft] h] return f ,montreal %e began pa9t+ 9 wat]-colors1 :i* af=d$ h] mu* delight dur+ ! re/ ( h] life4 ,! foll[+ note to ,mrs4 ,ell5 ,s4 ,fi%]1 ( ,brooklyn1 dat$ ,july #b;d1 w %[ h[ h] lessons 7 tak53 ,w y k9dly in=m me z to y\r me?od ( tea*+ y\r sy/em ( wat]-colors by mail1 & z to t]ms4 ,i h n _h "t to d any?+ 9 t l9e1 z ,i _h to g to ,canada 7by-!-bye1 y c get delightful ,*9ese :ite pa9t !re 9 tubes74 ,my daught] says %e ?9ks %e he>d y say t y w\ld pa9t a little fl[]-piece reasonably1 or p]haps y h "o to sp>e n[4 ,i %\ld l a few wild fl[]s aga9/ a blue sky4 ,i got half a doz5 ,p>ian vases at ,montreal--ea* a gr\p ( ?ree--& fill$ ) daisies & a few grasses1 !y are exquisite4 ,"s ( !m are 9 imitation ( ! holl[ toad/ools "o f9ds 9 ! woods4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,kau9fels1 ,july #bc1 #ahgg4 ,kau9fels is a ^w we inv5t$1 aft] sp5d+ no little "t1 by ref]r+ to a spot 9 a favorite brook z ! place :]e ! old c[ fell 92 x look$ s ,g]man & pleas$ u s mu* t we conclud$ to give our place t "n4 ,we are fond ( odd names4 ,we h a dog ,ph>aoh & a horse ,%oo ,fly4 ,!n we _h ,%adra*1 ,meseck1 & ,ab$nego = cats4 ,we _h a dog nam$ ,p5elope ,ann--a spl5did creature1 b we _h to "p ) h]4 ,my ,bible-read+ began two weeks ago1 & nei!r ra9 nor %9e keeps p away4 ,= a small village ! att5dance is v l>ge4 ,i d n "k h[ mu* good !y d1 b x is a com=t to try4 ,i c't get ov] ,miss ---'s tragical end4 ,%e mu/ h suff]$ dreadfully4 ,i d n d\bt h] pres5t felicity1 nor t %e c\nts h] life on e>? z any?+ m ?an a mom5t's space4 ,i d n feel sure t %e did me any good4 ,i saw s mu* t 0 morbid :5 %e visit$ me "h1 t ,i nev] enjoy$ h] z ,i did :5 ,i knew h] less4 ,b !re is no?+ morbid ab\t h] n[4 ,to ,mrs4 ,james ,donaghe1 ,dorset1 ,aug4 #bj1 #ahgg4 ,ye/]day 0 ! fir/ f9e day we h _h 9 a long "t1 &1 z ,i sat enjoy+ x on ! front por*1 h[ ,i wi%$ ,i c\ld transport y "h & %>e ^! m\nta9s ) y6 ,to-day is equally f9e1 & h[ gladly w\ld ,i bottle x up & s5d x to y6 ,a score ( times ,i h ask$ myself :y ,i d n br+ y "h1 & !n be5 rem9d$ t y c n leave y\r husb&4 ,i d n write _m lett]s ?is summ]4 ,we h ?ree or f\r gue/s ne>ly all ! "t4 ,?is uses up :at little bra9 ,i h left1 & by half-pa/ eight or n9e ,i h to g to b$4 ,i am unusually well1 b "w h>d 9 ! g>d5 all ! =5oon & get tir$4 ,ye/]day ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,re$1 ( ,flu%+1 prea*$ a mo/ impressive s]mon on ! d5ial ( self4 ,9 ! aft]noon he prea*$ to a neighborhood meet+ at 8 own h\se1 to :i* we ?ree girls g1 namely1 ,m41 h] fri5d ,hatty ,k41 & myself4 ,i give ,?ursdays pretty mu* up to my ,bible-read+--/udy+ = x 9 ! morn+ & hold+ x at ?ree 9 ! aft]noon4 ,utt] unfitness = ?is or any o!r "w = ! ,ma/] makes me v dep5d5t on ,him4 ,! s]vice is l>gely att5d$1 & h[ ,i get c\rage to speak to s _m1 ,i "k n4 ,illu/ration3 ,! ,dorset ,home4 ,a4 is gone to ,portl& & ,pr\t's ,neck4 ,mr4 ,p4 is unusually well ?is summ]1 & has actually work$ a little 9 my g>d54 ,he is go+ to ,s>atoga ?is week to visit ,mrs4 ,bronson4444 ,m4 is a k9d ( supplem5t to h] fa!r2 ,i love 9 h] :at ,i love 9 him1 & %e loves 9 me :at he loves2 we nev] _h a j> 9 our lives1 & are m l tw9-si/]s ?an "m & daught]4 ,hatty ,k4 is l a second ,m4 to me4 ,at ?is mom5t !y are ea* pa9t+ a plate4 ,!y "w all ! morn+ 9 ! g>d51 & 9 ! aft]noon sit 9 my room sew+ = ! poor l two ,dorcases1 or drive1 or r[ on ! pond4 ,!y also /udy _! ,greek ,te/am5t toge!r l a pair ( tw9s4 ,j "h ,mr4 ,p4 came driv+ up to take me out to make calls4 ,we made ?ree toge!r1 & !n ,i made ?ree alone4 ,n[ we are go+ to h tea1 & %\ld be glad if y c\ld take x ) u4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,kau9fels1 ,sept4 #ac1 #ahgg4 ,s9ce y left1 ,i h be5 v busy 9 v>i\s ways2 among o!r ?+s1 help+ ,hatty collect h] la/ trophies1 pack h] v>i\s plants1 & ! l4 ,!n !re is a woman1 close by1 :o is v sick & v poor1 & ! p>son & 8 wife 7mean+ himself & myself7 mu/ ne$s pack a big basket ( bread1 butt]1 tea1 apples1 etc41 = h] wat*]s & family1 ) extract ( beef = h]4 ,t 0 real fun1 z y may suppose4 ,i mean to devote ,?ursdays to su* do+s1 includ+ ! ,bible-read+s4 ,i took = my ,bible-read+ ?is aft]noon1 ! subject ( confession ( s91 & %\ld really l to "k :at p]fectioni/s w\ld say to ! passages ( ,scripture relat+ to x4 ,h[ev]1 ,i "k !y w\ld expla9 !m away or ?r[ !m "u ! table1 z !y d all ! ,bible says ab\t ! discipl9e ( life4 ,our bad ,ph>aoh lift$ up 8 voice 9 e hymn at ,mrs4 ,re$'s la/ ,sunday1 & little ,alb]t fairly %riek$ ) laught]4 ,if next ,sunday is pleasant we are to g to ,pawlet to prea*4 ,good-night4 #ai ,to ,mrs4 ,fi%]1 ,kau9fels1 ,sept4 #ae1 #ahgg4 ,excuse my keep+ y\r pictures s long4 ,x is ow+ to my hav+ s mu* company4 ,we feel x a duty to %>e our delightful home "h ) fri5ds4 ,w y s5d me "s m pictures1 & 9 y\r lett] please tell me h[ to make ! light-gre5 9 ! l>ge arbutus leaf2 ,i tri$ all sorts ( exp]im5ts1 b fail$ to get su* a ton$-d[n t9t4 ,my copy is pretty1 z ,i h improv$ a good deal on ! :ole2 b my "w looks p>v5u4 ,i _h to use a p[]ful magnify+-glass to puzzle out y\r delicate t\*es1 & y\r "w bore ! te/1 x is s well done4 ,my "w1 view$ 9 ! same way1 is horrid4 ,a4 has be5 to ,portl& & f\nd !re "s exquisite placques2 "s ( !m ( a v delicate cream color2 o!rs ( a lea/ suspicion ( p9k4 ,%e began to pa9t ?orn apples on "o2 b a day or two lat]1 f\nd "s ( ! foliage we _h ?r[n away1 turn$ to mo/ delici\s br[ns2 s %e pa9t$ ! leaves 9 ^? %ades1 only--& ! effect is ri*ly & gravely autumnal4 ,i hope y\r eyes are bett]4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,iv4 ,return to ,t[n4 ,recollections ( ?is ,p]iod4 ,ord9>y ,*ri/ians & spiritual ,conflict4 ,a tir$ ,sunday ,ev5+4 ,we may make an ,idol ( our ,joy4 ,publication ( ,pemaquid4 ,kezia ,millet4 ,%e return$ to t[n e>ly 9 ,octob] & began at once to prep>e = ! w9t]'s "w4 ,h] indu/ry 0 a m>vel4 ,! foll[+ ref]5ces to ?is p]iod are f rem9isc5ces1 writt5 by h] husb& aft] h] dea?3 ,%e lo/ n a day1 sc>cely an h\r4 ,! next eight mon?s 7 among ! busie/ ( h] life2 & 9 "s respects1 ,i ?9k1 !y 7 also among ! happie/4 ,%e resum$ h] pa9t+ ) new zeal & delight4 ,x 0 a nev]-fail+ res\rce1 :5 o!r engagem5ts 7 ov]4 ,h\r aft] h\r1 day aft] day1 & week aft] week %e w\ld sit ne> ! we/]n w9d[ ( h] sun%9y *amb]1 absorb$ 9 ?is fasc9at+ occupation4 ,r>ely did ,i fail to f9d h] !re1 on go+ 9 to kiss h] good-bye1 z ,i />t$ = my aft]noon lecture4 ,h[ (t5 ! sc5e comes back aga96 ,7 ,i myself a pa9t] ,i c\ld reproduce x to ! life4 ,h] po/ure & expression ( p]fect cont5tm5t1 h] quick & eag] movem5ts1 all are z vividly pres5t to my m9d1 z if ,i saw & p>t$ f h] !re ye/]day6 ,"o morn+ ea* week 0 devot$ to h] ,bible-read+2 ! o!rs1 :5 pleasant1 7 g5]ally sp5t 9 go+ d[n t[n ) ,m4 9 que/ ( pa9t+ mat]ials1 %opp+1 mak+ calls1 etc41 etc4 ,%e 0 mu* ex]cis$ 9 ! e>ly "p ( ! w9t] by a burgl>y1 :i* robb$ h] ( a beautiful ,fr5* mantel clock giv5 h] on our silv] w$d+-day by a de> fri5d2 & by ! loss ( my wat*1 /ol5 f me 9 ! c>s on my way home f ! ,sem9>y--a beautiful wat* ) a *a9 made ( h] hair & t :i* once cr[n$ little heads laid l[4 ,%e _h ord]$ x ( ,piguet1 :5 we 7 9 ,g5eva 9 #aheh1 & giv5 x to me 9 memory ( our m>riage4 ,b h] grief ov] ! loss ( ! wat* 0 small comp>$ ) m9e1 !n & ev5 s9ce4 ,:at preci\s memories c become associat$ ) su* an object6 ,"o ( ! books :i* %e read dur+ ! w9t] 0 ,les ,mis]ables by ,victor ,hugo4 ,%e read x 9 ! orig9al 9 a copy giv5 h] by ,miss ,woolsey4 ,%e 0 q captivat$ by ?is "w1 & "s ( its mo/ /rik+ sc5es & incid5ts %e repeat$ to me1 dur+ successive morn+s1 be=e we got up4 ,h] p[] ( rememb]+ & reproduc+1 9 all its details1 & ) all ! v>y+ lights & %ades1 any /ory :i* %e _h read 0 some?+ almo/ incr$ible4 ,x always seem$ to me l magic4 ,h] fa!r possess$ ! same p[] & p]haps %e inh]it$ x f him4 #bj ,! foll[+ lett] w %[ t :ile h] m9d 0 /ill ex]cis$ ab\t ! doctr9es taught by writ]s on ! ,high] ,life & ,hol9ess ?r\gh ,fai?1 x 0 9 ! way ( a deep5+ conviction t ^! doctr9es are n 9 h>mony ) ! tea*+ ( ,scripture or ) ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce4 ,ref]r+ to "s ( ^! writ]s1 %e says3 ,to a ,*ri/ian ,fri5d1 ,oct4 #ba1 #ahgg4 ,i h n only no unk9d feel+ t[>ds !m1 b h no d\bt !y h liv$ ne> to ,*ri/4 ,b ?is ,i believe to h be5 _! /ate ( m9d = ye>s1 ?\gh p]haps n consci\sly3 ,mo/ ,*ri/ians are ord9>y4 ,ne>ly all are a set ( mis]able d\bt]s4 ,mo/ ( !m believe ! ,*ri/ian life a w>f>e4 ,mo/ ( !m imag9e x is also a /ate ( discipl9e1 & make mu* ( *a/5+1 ev5 go+ s f> z to ?ank ,god = ,8 /rokes ( ,fa!rly love6 ,/range love1 to be sure6 ,!y also fancy !y c "w out _! own salvation4 ,n[ we are n ord9>y ,*ri/ians4 ,we und]/& ,god's ,^w p]fectly2 & :5 ,he says1 ,"w out y\r own salvation1 ,he means no?+ by x except ?is1 t ,he w "w x 9 y to w & to d1 & y are to d no?+1 b let ,him ?us "w4 ,& fur!rmore1 we "k ,8 m9d beyond dispute2 we c n err 9 judgm5t4 ,!re=e1 if y d\bt our doctr9e1 x is ! same z d\bt+ ,god1 & y %\ld fall on y\r knees & pray to read ,scripture z we d4 ,z to ! ,*ri/ian life be+ a conflict1 :y1 y ord9>y ,*ri/ians are all wrong4 ,satan nev] tempts u1 ?\gh he tempt$ our ,"l2 x comes natural to u to g into ,canaan ) "o b\nd2 ! old-fa%ion$ sa9ts 7 ridicul\s 9 fight+ ! good fight ( fai?4 ,look at ! *>act]s 9 ! ,bible1 resi/+ unto blood1 /riv+ aga9/ s92 :at blund]]s !y 7 to d t6444 ,9 our enlight5$ day nobody is *a/5$2 x us$ to be done to e son ! ,fa!r receiv$ & x 0 a tok5 ( ,8 love4 ,he kn[s bett] n[4 ,he *a/5s no "o2 or if ,he does1 we w cov] x up & ignore x2 religion is all rapture1 & ?is is n a sc5e ( probation4 ,/ill if y insi/ t y h be5 smitt51 x only %[s h[ v ord9>y y are1 & h[ angry ,god is ) y4 ,n[ y may ask :y ,i h tak5 "t to write ?is1 s9ce y are n l$ away by ^! errors4 ,well1 !y are pleasant & v plausible writ]s1 & x has puzzl$ me to le>n j :]e !y 7 wrong4 ,s ,i h be5 ?9k+ al\d1 or ?9k+ on pap]1 & p]haps y may f9d "o or m p]sons entangl$ 9 ?is attractive web1 & be able to help !m out4 ,h[ a good man & a good woman ev] fell into su* mis*iev\s mi/akes1 ,i c n imag9e4444 ,z to y & me1 ,i see no?+ /range 9 ! wean+ f self ,god is giv+ u4 ,x is natural to believe t ,he weans u f ! brea/ ( com=t 9 :i* we _h delight$1 because ,he has /rong meat 9 /ore = u4 ,i "k ,i 0 awfully selfi% ab\t my relation to ,*ri/1 & w5t ab\t = ye>s on tip-toe1 z x 71 = fe> ( di/urb+ & driv+ ,him away2 b ,i d n "k t ,i %\ld d>e to live s aga94 ,& h[ bett] c ,he %[ u our weakness ?an by mak+ x pla9 t we1 :o ?\ght we 7 s /rong 9 pray]1 are almo/ dumb be=e ,him6 ,my de> fri5d1 ,i believe m & m 9 ! deep ?+s ( ,god4 ,,/r5g? is born ,9 ! deep sil5ce ( long-suff]+ he>ts1 ,n amid joy4 ,imag9e soldi]s gett+ ready = w>f>e1 be+ told by _! comm&] t !y _h no ne$ to drill1 & _h no?+ to d b dr9k nect>6 ,z to be+ br\ght l[1 ,i w own t ,i h n be5 entirely left ( ,god to my own devices & desires2 if ,i _h be51 ,i %\ld h gone ov]bo>d4 ,he _h su* a grip ( me t ,he c\ldn't let g4 ,i saw a man apply a magnet to /eel p5s ! o!r day1 & t's ! way ,i clung to ,god2 !re 0 no p[] 9 me to hold on1 ! magnetism 0 9 ,him1 & s ,i hung on4 ,wasn't x s ) y8 ,& n[ to *ange ! subject aga92 if y h any fad$ f]ns1 v9es1 leaves on h&1 y c pa9t & make !m beautiful aga94 ,= a light wall1 pa9t !m ) ,cal$onian br[n1 & !y w h a v ri* effect4 ,i expect a pat5t-"r = ?is inv5tion4 ,! vivid s5se ( human weakness & ( ! %>p discipl9e ( life1 :i* %e expresses 9 ?is lett]1 0 deep5$ by he>+ :at a sea ( tr\ble "s ( h] fri5ds _h be5 sudd5ly engulph$ 94 ,e>ly 9 ,octob] %e wrote to "o ( !m3 ,= "s "t be=e ,i left ,dorset1 y\r image met me ev]y:]e ,i w5t1 & ,i felt sure some?+ 0 happ5+ to y1 ?\gh n kn[+ :e!r y 7 enjoy+ or suff]+4 ,& s9ce !n !re has be5 no?+ ,i c\ld d = y b to pray t y\r fai? may be> ?is te/ & t y may deeply realise t-- ,god is ! refuge ( ,8 sa9ts1 ,:5 /orms ( %>p di/ress invade4 ,! long] ,i live ! m consci\s ,i am ( human frailty1 & ( ! con/ant1 ov]:elm+ ne$ we all h ( ,god's grace4444 ,i c n b hope ?+s w turn out bett] ?an !y seem4 ,b if n1 !re is ,god2 no?+ ( ?is sort c take ,him f y4 ,y h long$ & pray$ = hol9ess2 ?is fe>ful ev5t may br+ ! bless+4 ,may ,god t5d]ly bless & keep y1 de> *ild4 ,b vivid z 0 h] s5se ( human weakness & ( ! imp]fections cleav+ to ! be/ ( m51 :ile yet 9 ! fle%1 %e /ill held fa/ to ! conviction1 utt]$ s (t5 9 ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds & 9 h] o!r writ+s1 t x is ! privilege ( e disciple ( ,jesus to atta91 by fai?1 to high degrees ( ,*ri/ian hol9ess1 & t1 too1 )\t consum+ a :ole lifetime 9 ! process4 ,9 a lett] to a "y fri5d %e says3 ,y\r lett] %[s me t ,i h express$ my views v inadequately 9 ,urbane1 or t y h misund]/ood :at ,i h said !re4444 ,!re is a %ort] way2 a bett] way2 ,god nev] meant u to sp5d a lifetime amid lumb]+ ma*9]y by means ( :i* we haul ourselves labori\sly upw>d2 ! "w is ,81 n ours1 & :5 ,i said ,i believ$ 9 hol9ess ?r\gh fai?1 ,i 0 n ?9k+ ( ! book by t title1 b ( utt]ances made by ! ,*ur* ages be=e its au?or saw ! light ( day4 ,we c n make ourselves holy4 ,we are born s9n]s4 ,a c]ta9 s*ool believe t !y are kept by ! grace ( ,god f all s94 ,i d n say t !y are n4 ,b ,i d say t ,i ?9k x requires sup]human wisdom to "k positively t "o n only keeps all ,god's law1 b leaves no s+le duty undone4 ,?9k a m9ute4 ,law proce$s f an inf9ite m9d2 c f9ite m9d grasp x s z to "k1 ?r\gh its own consci\sness1 t x comes up to ?is /&>d8 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,i d believe t a way has be5 provid$ = u to be set free f an evil consci5ce2 t we may live 9 su* integrity & uprightness z to be at peace ) ,god2 n be+ afraid to let ,8 pure eye range ?r\gh & ?r\gh u1 f9d+ humanity & weakness1 b also f9d+ some?+ on :i* ,8 eye c re/ ) delight--namely1 ,8 own ,son4 ,e day ,i live ,i see t fai? is my only hope1 z p]haps ,i nev] saw x be=e4444 ,read ov] aga9 ! exp]i5ce ( ,antio*us2 he got 9 e>ly life :at de> ,dr4 ---- only f\nd on 8 dea?b$1 & s may y4 ,to ,miss ,e4 ,a4 ,w>n]1 ,new ,york1 ,oct4 #bh1 #ahgg4 ,i am too tir$ on ,sunday ev5+s to f9d mu* pr(it 9 read+1 & h be5 sitt+ idle "s m9utes1 ask+ myself h[ ,i %\ld sp5d ! h\r till b$-"t1 if ,i c\ld pick & *oose among human occupations4 ,i decid$ t if ,i _h j ! "r k9d ( a neighbor1 ,i %\ld l to h h] come 91 or if !re 0 ! "r k9d ( a little pray]-meet+ r\nd ! corn]1 ,i w\ld g to t4 ,!n ,i conclud$ to write to y1 9 answ] to y\r lett] ( ,july #bd4 ,i write few lett]s dur+ ! summ]1 because x seems a pla9 duty to keep out ( doors z mu* z ,i possibly c2 !n we h company all ! "t1 & !y require ab\t all ! social elem5t !re is 9 me4 ,we feel t we owe x to ,him :o gives u our delightful home to %>e x ) o!rs1 especially ^? :o get no m\nta9 breezes save ?r\gh u2 ( "s ,i mu/ pay travell+ exp5ses1 or !y c n come at all4 ,_! enjoym5t is suffici5t pay4 ,my ,bible-read+ takes all ! "t ( two days n sp5t 9 outdoor ex]cise1 z ,i h giv5 up almo/ ev]y?+ ( help 9 prep>ation = x b t :i* is giv5 me 9 answ] to pray] & /udy ( ! ,^w4 ,i am kept1 to use a homely expression1 ) my nose pretty close to ! gr9d/one2 9 o!r words1 am kept l[ & little4 ,b ,god blesses ! "w exactly z if ,i 7 a bett] woman4 ,sometimes ,i ?9k h[ poor ,he mu/ be to use su* in/rum5ts z ,he does4 ,h[ is ! niece y spoke ( z s ill & s happy8 ,= my "p ,i am conf\nd$ :5 ,i see p hurt & di/ress$ :5 invit$ home4 ,h[ a lov+ ,fa!r mu/ feel :5 ,8 *ildr5 %r9k back cry+1 ,i h s mu* to live =6 or1 9 o!r words1 s little to die =4 ,x fright5s me sometimes to recall su* cases4 ,& n[ ,i am go+ to tote my old head to b$4 ,x is #ei ye>s old & has to g e>ly4 ,to ,mrs4 ,fi%]1 ,oct4 #ca1 #ahgg4 ,) "y *ildr51 & arti/ic "w to d1 ! wond] is n t y h to neglect o!r ?+s1 b t y ev] f9d "t to att5d to any "o outside ( h\se & home4 ,i d n want y to make a c>e & tr\ble ( me2 ,i feel x a privilege to try ev5 to copy any?+ f y\r h&1 & am will+ to bide my "t4 ,x is %ock+ to ?9k ( y\r summ]'s "w be+ burn$ up2 no money c comp5sate = su* a loss--,i hate to ?9k ( x4 ,i h _h y\r l&scape fram$1 & x is ! f9e/ ?+ 9 ! h\se4 ,nov4 #i?4--,i h y\r apple-blossoms ready to mail ) ?is4 ,i f\nd ! subject v difficult1 & at "o "t ?\ght ,i %\ld h to give x up2 b y\r directions are s cle> & to ! po9t t ,i h succe$$ 9 gett+ a picture we all ?9k pretty1 ?\gh want+ 9 ! t5d] grace ( y\rs4 ,! picture1 :i* is a g5tle blaze ( beauty1 has j rea*$ me4 ,we h _h burgl>s 9 ! h\se1 & "o ( my songs ( praise is t !y did n take ! little gem ,i got f y la/ summ]4 ,glad y are a woman & n all arti/4 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,nov4 #bd1 #ahgg ,z to ! runn+ f]n1 ,i pa9t x ! color ( black walnut1 & r\nd placques x looks l c>v+4 ,em]ald gre5 ,i hate1 b x is a popul> color1 & ,a4 0 oblig$ to put x into ! fl[] pictures %e pa9t$ on portfolios4 ,i am glad y are /ill int]e/$ 9 y\r pa9t+4 ,i h j f9i%$ ! second read+ ( ,miss ,smiley's book1 & m>k$ passages :i* ,i am sure y w l4 ,i w mail my copy to y4 ,z to joy--! fruits ( ! ,_s come naturally to ^? 9 ! ,_s1 & joy is "o4 ,b we may make an idol ( our joy1 & s h to "p ) x4 ,!re may come a p]iod :5 ,god says1 virtually1 to ! s\l1 ,y clung to ,me :5 ,i smil$ ^u & c>ess$ y2 let ,me see h[ y w behave :5 ,i smile & speak com=tably no m4 ,f5elon says1 ,to be con/antly 9 a /ate ( enjoym5t t takes away ! feel+ ( ! cross1 & to live 9 a f]vor ( devotion t keeps ,p>adise con/antly op5--?is is n dy+ ^u ! cross & becom+ no?+4 #ba ,:5 ,i look at ! subject at a di/ance1 z x 71 rememb]+ t ?is life is m]e prep>ation = ! next1 x seems likely t we %all h religi\s z well z o!r discipl9e2 if we asc5d ! m\nt ( ,transfiguration x is n t we may dwell !re1 ?\gh x is natural to wi% we c\ld4 ,& ! fact is1 no matt] :at pr(essions ( rapture p make1 if !y believe 9 ,*ri/ & love ,him z !y ought to d1 :at !y h enjoy$ w be no?+ :5 comp>$ ) go+ to live ) ,him =ev]1 surr\nd$ by sanctifi$ be+s all unit$ 9 ador+ ,him4 ,:5 ,i ?9k ( ?is my c\rage gr[s apace1 & ,i say to myself1 ,i may nev] live 9 heav5 aga9 "h bel[2 b ,i c]ta9ly %all1 above2 & c't ,i be pati5t till !n8 ,i wond] if y "k t ,i am go+ to beg9 a ,bible-read+ on ! fir/ ,w$nesday 9 ,decemb]8 ,i h a v k9d lett] f ,mr4 ,pet] ,c>t]1 :o says ,kezia w\ld make ! =tune ( any book4 ,kezia is "o ( ! *>act]s 9 ,pemaquid2 or1 a ,/ory ( ,old ,times 9 ,new ,engl&1 !n rec5tly publi%$4 ,%e _h writt5 x ) indescribable ease & pleasure1 to use h] own words1 mo/ly dur+ ! previ\s ,janu>y4 ,! pictures ( ,new ,engl& life--especially its religi\s life--9 old times are vivid & fai?ful2 & ! "* ( ,kezia ,millet = orig9ality1 quiet humor1 & tru? to nature1 surpasses any o!r 9 h] writ+s1 ) ! exception1 p]haps1 ( ,aunt ,av]y 9 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f a lett] ( ,mr4 ,hallock1 ! publi%] ( ,! ,*ri/ian at ,"w1 dat$ ,aug4 #be1 #ahgg1 9 :i* he begg$ h] to gratify its read]s by tell+ !m m ab\t ,ru? & ,juliet4 ,%e accord+ly add$ "s pages to ! la/ *apt]1 al?\gh n q en\gh to satisfy ! curiosity ab\t ,juliet3 ,let me express to y my p]sonal ?anks = y\r mo/ excell5t s]ial4 ,i feel t x has done a real good to ?\s&s4 ,y ne$ to be plac$ 9 my position1 receiv+ hundr$s ( lett]s daily f y\r read]s1 to be able to fully appreciate h[ int5sely int]e/$ !y are 9 ! /ory4 ,x does n seem to satisfy !m to feel assur$ ( ,ru?'s m>riage1 b !y want to be !re & see x4 ,juliet1 too1 is n ) !m1 z ) y1 a m]e imp]sonation1 b a liv+ reality1 & !y w nev] re/ till !y he> f h]4 ,if ,i 0 a bett+ man ,i w\ld bet five to "o t :at y\r husb& /ruck out1 is j exactly :at is want$4 ,:at d we m5 "k ab\t su* ?+s1 anyh[8 ,a lady fri5d1 well qualifi$ to judge1 writes to h]3 ,i h read ,pemaquid1 & h laugh$ till ,i cri$1 !n cri$ & laugh$ toge!r4 ,9 my humble op9ion x is ! brighte/ book y h writt54 ,y "k h[ to make a sa9t & h[ to make a s9n]4 ,z = old ,kezia ,millet1 ) h] great lov+ he>t1 if %e is n a model ( ,*ri/ian consi/5cy & a natural born poet1 :]e w y f9d "o8 ,%e is p]fectly fasc9at+4 ,h[ d y keep y\r wit s ready & s bright8 ,i suppose y'll answ]1 by us+ x4 ,! *apt] :i* conta9s ,mrs4 ,wood=d's int]view ) ,rev4 ,mr4 ,/rong 7! de> old sa9t7 9 h] p5it5tial mood1 is v1 v admirable4 ,to ,mrs4 ,george ,payson1 ,dec4 #bj1 #ahgg4 ,be=e ! ye> q dep>ts1 ,i mu/ tell y1 my de> ,m>g>et1 h[ glad ,i am t y appreciate my de>1 good bad ,kezia4 ,x is n9ete5 ye>s s9ce ,i read ,adam ,b$e1 b ,i rememb] ,mrs4 ,poys5 9 g5]al4 ,kezia is n an imitation ( h]2 ! ma9 po9ts ( h] "* 7 writt5 out long be=e ,adam ,b$e appe>$2 ,i de/roy$ ! book 9 :i* ,i trott$ h] out1 b kept h]1 & once 9 a :ile tri$ h] on my husb&1 b z he did n seem to see x1 put h] away 9 h] gre5 box1 bid+ my "t4 ,z to ,juliet1 my good man loa!s s to read ab\t bad p t he almo/ made me cut out all my la/ m5tion ( h]4 ,i 0 9 an unholy frame :5 ,i did x1 & ) reason1 = !y :o l ,pemaquid be/1 say x 0 a mi/ake n to dispose ( h] 9 "s way4 ,b z to ,mrs4 ,wood=d be+ a model "m1 ,i did n aim to make h] a model any?+4 ,all ,i want$ ( h] 0 to br+ out ! ,new ,engl& pecul>ities z !y w\ld appe> to a worldly /rang]4 ,z to all p>ties seem+ indiff]5t ab\t ,juliet1 y may be "r2 ,i 0 beh9d ! sc5es & knew !y 7 n2 b z ,i say1 :at ,i ?\ght ! be/ "p ( h]1 ,george made me cut out4 ,no1 ,i nev] knew any "o s+ exactly l ,kezia1 b !re are su* cases on record4 ,!re 0 ! ,s++ ,cobbl]1 ^: wife compla9$ ( him 9 c\rt1 & he def5d$ himself s wittily 9 v]se1 t ev]ybody sid$ ) him1 & 8 wife =gave 8 (f5ce1 :atev] x might be4 #bb #a ,! foll[+ is ! passage ref]r$ to3 ,if y aspire to be a son ( consolation2 if y w\ld p>take ( ! prie/ly gift ( sympa?y2 if y w\ld p\r some?+ beyond commonplace consolation into a tempt$ he>t2 if y w\ld pass ?r\gh ! int]c\rse ( daily life ) ! delicate tact t nev] inflicts pa92 if to t mo/ acute ( human ailm5ts--m5tal d\bt1 y are ev] to give effectual succor1 y mu/ be cont5t to pay ! price ( ! co/ly education4 ,l ,him1 y mu/ suff]1 be+ tempt$4 #b ,by ! late ,rev4 ,william ,james1 ,d4,d4 #c ,see app5dix ,g1 p4#eeg4 #d ,!n pa/or ( ! ,collegiate ,re=m$ ,*ur*1 ,fif? av5ue & ,=ty-eigh? /reet1 n[ ( ,brooklyn4 #e ,acc\nt ( ! ,union ,meet+ = ! ,promotion ( ,scriptural ,hol9ess1 held at ,ox=d1 ,augu/ #bi to ,septemb] #g1 #ahgd4 #f ,acc\nt ( ! ,union ,meet+ = ! ,promotion ( ,scriptural ,hol9ess1 held at ,ox=d1 ,augu/ #bi to ,septemb] #g1 #ahgd4 ,p4 #ei4 #g ,,griselda2 ,a ,dramatic ,poem 9 ,five ,acts4 ,translat$ f ! ,g]man ( ,,fri$]i* ,,halm 7,b>on ,mn*-,bell+haus571 by ,mrs4 ,e4 ,pr5tiss4 #h ,h[ glad ,i 0 to see ,griselda's fair face6 ,%e is a gem1 & ,i am sure w prove a bless+ z %e moves ab\t ! _w 9 h] nobl5ess & purity1 s exce$+ly womanly & w9n+4 ,! book is full ( poetry1 & held me spell-b\nd to ! close4 ,x is v musical1 too1 9 its ri*1 pure ,engli%4 ,i don't "k h[ mu* ( its poetic *>m lies 9 ! orig9al or 9 y\r r5d]+1 b z x is1 x is j lovely1 z ! girls say4--,lett] f ,miss ,w>n]4 #i ,9 a lett] writt5 9 #ahgi1 j aft] a visit to ,dorset1 ,dr4 ,haml9 ?us ref]s to !m3 ,n[ t ,i h se5 aga9 ^? lights & %ad[s ( ! ,gre5 ,m\nta9s1 z !y lie ar\nd y\r ,dorset home1 ,i mu/ tell y :y !y awak5$ su* deep emotions4 ,=ty-"o ye>s ago ,i 0 m>ri$ to ,miss ,h5rietta ,jackson1 ! y\nge/ daught] ( ! v5]at$ & belov$ pa/or ( ,dorset1 & we left t lovely valley = our ori5tal home4 ,i _h he>d f h] lips a gl[+ description ( ! magic "w ( light & %ade ^u ^? upl&s & heights t lie we/ ( ! valley1 be=e ,i _h se5 ! place4 ,! fir/ morn+ ( my fir/ visit ,i recognis$ ! tru? & accuracy ( h] description1 & 0 =c$ to confess t1 al?\gh ,i _h always admir$ cl\d-%ad[s1 ,i _h nev] se5 !m 9 su* ri* display & con/ant recurr5ce4 ,!re 7 c]ta9 days1 :i* we call$ field-days1 :5 all _! res\rces 7 call$ out1 & !y seem$ hurry+ 9 swift battalions to "s great conte/ or gr& coronation sc5e4 ,b at o!r times !y re/$ 9 calm repose z ?\gh ! pulse ( nature _h ceas$ to beat444 ,9 our home ^u ! ,bosphorus we 7 sometimes rem9d$ ( ^! sc5es ( h] native valley4 ,:51 occasionally1 ! ,black ,sea cl\ds float$ d[n 9 brok5 masses1 & floods ( light "h & !re p\r$ ?r\gh ! d>kly %ad[$ l&scape1 light+ up fragm5ts ( hill & vale to ! v summits ( ,alem ,dagh1 h] s\l took flight to h] belov$ ,dorset & all o!r ?\ghts vani%$4 #aj ,on he>+ ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' dea?1 ! poor1 homeless fell[ wrote to h] husb& a t\*+ lett] ( sympa?y4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f x3 ,x 01 ,i mu/ ackn[l$ge1 a *]i%$ desire ( y\r de> dep>t$ lady t ,i %\ld walk 9 ! foot/eps ( ! ,"l ,jesus1 &1 to obta9 t grace1 ,i mu/ invoke ,god's ,p[] t ,i may accompli% t great ,result4 ,de> sir1 ,i w\ld l to sugge/ to y t ,i am disgu/$ ) a w&]+ life2 w\ld l to see ,dorset next ,summ] & look on ! grave ( my greate/ fri5d4 ,no?+ c\ld give me great] ,pleasure ?an to be "u ! ,influ5ce ( y\r ,*ri/ian family2 n[1 if ,i _h any ,employm5t1 no matt] h[ simple1 9 t locality = ! w9t]1 !n ,i w\ld feel ,happy to g next season to y\r c\ntry ,resid5ce & (f] my s]vices free4 #aa ,meeta ,sophia ,s*aff di$ ,july #ad1 #ahgf1 9 ! tw5ty-fir/ ye> ( h] age4 ,%e _h j return$ f ! ,c5t5nial4 ,%e 0 a "y lady ( unusual lovel9ess ( "*1 & 0 deeply lam5t$ by a wide circle ( fri5ds1 bo? "y & old4 #ab ,a pr9t$ copy ( ,l9es on h] ,gold5 ,w$d+1 writt5 by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 #ac ,! article is entitl$ ,educat$ :ile ,educat+1 & appe>$ 9 ! ,brooklyn ,j\rnal ( ,education = ,m>*1 #ahge4 #ad ,! ,rev4 ,c4 ,h4 ,payson4 ,see ! int]e/+ ,memoir ( him1 entitl$ ,all = ,*ri/1 edit$ by 8 bro!r ,george1 & publi%$ by ! ,am]ican ,tract ,society4 #ae ,see ,,h5ry ,,boynton ,,smi?2 ,8 ,life & ,"w4 ,edit$ by 8 ,wife4 ,a4 ,c4 ,arm/rong ,son4 #ahhj4 #af ,8 biograph]1 ,mr4 ,moore1 relates ( ,"l ,byron t 9 all ! pl5itude ( 8 fame1 he confess$ t ! depreciation ( ! l[e/ ( mank9d 0 m pa9ful to him ?an ! applause ( ! highe/ 0 pleas+4 #ag ,pet]*5 & ,gret*54 ,%e translat$ x at ,g5evri] dur+ ! illness ( h] *ildr54 #ah ,dr4 ,gurdon ,buck4 ,he di$ %ortly aft]w>ds4 ,= m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury be _h be5 a fai?ful fri5d ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 & z _! family physician _h made bo? h] & h] husb& 8 debtors alike by 8 k9dness & 8 skill4 ,) a g5]osity s *>act]i/ic ( 8 pr(ession1 he refus$1 dur+ all ^! ye>s1 to receive any comp5sation = 8 s]vices4 ,z a surgeon he /ood 9 ! front rank2 "s ( ! op]ations1 p]=m$ by him1 attract$ wide att5tion = !n--novelty & usefulness4 ,he publi%$ an acc\nt ( !m1 ) illu/rations1 :i* greatly int]e/$ ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,%e 0 almo/ z fond ( read+ ab\t rem>kable eases 9 surg]y z ab\t rem>kable crim9al trials4 ,dr4 ,buck 0 "o ( ! f\nd]s & fir/ rul+ eld]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 ,8 gratuit\s labors 9 connection ) ! ,new ,york ,hospital & o!r public in/itutions 7 v great4 ,he 0 a man ( solid wor?1 mode/1 upright1 & devot$ to 8 ,"l & ,ma/]4 #ai ,"o ( my brighte/ recollections ( ?is season at ,dorset is our la/ ,sunday be=e return+ to t[n4 ,we w5t 9 ! phaeton to ,pawlet1 :]e ,i prea*$ = ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,aik54 ,! morn+ 0 pleasant1 ! road lay ?r\gh a lovely m\nta9 valley1 & ! beauty ( nature 0 made p]fect by ! sweet ,sabba? /illness2 & our ?\ghts 7 9 unison ) ! sc5e & ! day4 ,i prea*$ on ,re/ 9 ,*ri/1 & ! s]vice 0 v com=t+ to u bo?4 ,h[ well ,i recall ! same drive & a simil> s]vice e>ly 9 ,septemb] ( #ahgf1 :5 pray] 0 my !me6 ,:at sweet talks & sweet] fell[%ip we _h toge!r by ! way1 go+ & com+6--,recollections ( #ahgg-h4 #bj ,recollections ( #ahgf-g #ba ,bett] is x sometimes to g d[n into ! pit ) him1 :o behold+ d>kness & bewail+ ! loss ( consolation1 crie? f ! bottom ( ! l[e/ hell1 ,my ,god1 my ,god1 :y ha/ ,?\ =sak5 me8 ?an cont9ually to walk arm 9 arm ) angels1 to sit1 z x 71 9 ,abraham's bosom1 & to h no ?\ght1 no cogitation b ?is1 ',i ?ank my ,god x is n ) me z x is ) o!r m54'--,,hook]4 #bb ,a li/ ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' writ+s1 ) brief notices ( "s ( !m1 w be f\nd at ! end ( ! app5dix1 p4 #efh4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,=ev] ,,) ,,! ,,"l4 #ahgh4 ,b a b\nd into home immortal1 ,& bless$1 bless$ ye>s4 ,i4 ,ent]s ^u h] la/ ,ye> on ,e>?4 ,a ,lett] ab\t ,! ,home at ,greylock4 ,h] ,motive 9 writ+ ,books4 ,visit to ! ,aqu>ium4 ,ab\t ,worry4 ,h] ,pa9t+4 ,saturday ,aft]noons ) h]4 ,:at %e 0 to h] ,fri5ds4 ,resemblance to ,madame de ,broglie4 ,recollections ( a ,visit to ,ea/ ,riv]4 ,a ,picture ( h] by an old ,fri5d4 ,goes to ,dorset4 ,second ,adv5t ,doctr9e4 ,la/ ,lett]s4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss cross$ ! ?re%old ( h] la/ ye> on e>? ) h&s & ?\ghts /ill unusually busi$4 ,h] weekly ,bible-read+1 pa9t+ 9 oils & 9 wat]-colors1 ne$le-"w1 & o!r h\sehold duties1 left h] no idle mom5t4 ,my fire is s full ( irons1 %e wrote1 t ,i d n "k :i* "o to take out4 ,nor 0 h] he>t less busy ?an h] h&s & bra94 ,twice 9 ,janu>y1 once 9 ,febru>y1 & aga9 9 ,april1 dea? invad$ ! circle ( h] fri5ds2 & :5 h] fri5ds 7 9 tr\ble %e 0 always 9 tr\ble1 too4 #a ,^! dea?s l$ to e>ne/ talk ) h] husb& on ! my/]y ( e>?ly exi/5ce1 & on ! p[] ( fai? 9 ,*ri/ to su/a9 ! s\l 9 fac+ its great trials4 ,i am fill$ ) ev] fre% wond] at ?is amaz+ p[]1 %e said4 ,su* subjects always int]e/$ h] deeply2 nev] m s ?an at ?is "t1 :51 al?\gh %e knew x n1 h] feet 7 draw+ s ne> to ! pe>ly gates4 ,! keynote ( h] be+ ?r\gh\t ?is la/ w9t] 0 "o ( unwont$ s]i\sness4 ,a c]ta9 />tl+ int5sity ( ?\ght & feel+ %[$ itself e n[ & !n4 ,x 0 pa9fully evid5t t %e 0 "u a sev]e /ra91 bo? physical & m5tal4 ,aga9 & aga91 z spr+ advanc$1 ! anxiety ( h] husb& 0 ar\s$ to ! highe/ pit* by :at seem$ to him indications t ! unre/+1 ev]-active _s 0 fa/ we>+ away ! frail body4 ,at times1 too1 !re 0 a light 9 h] eye & 9 h] face an une>?ly1 absolutely angelic expression--to use h] own words ab\t h] little ,bessie1 six & tw5ty ye>s be=e--t fill$ him ) a /range wond]1 & :i*1 aft] h] dep>ture1 he (t5 recall$ z prophetic ( ! com+ ev5t & ! glory t %\ld foll[4 ,b :ile to 8 e> an und]tone ( unusual s]i\sness1 deep5+ ev] & anon into a /ra9 ( ! sweete/ t5d]ness & pa?os1 ran ?r\gh h] life dur+ all ^! e>ly mon?s ( #ahgh1 !re 0 little *ange 9 its outw>d aspect4 ,%e 0 (t5 gay & full z ev] ( bright1 playful fancies4 ,nev] busi]1 s 0 %e nev] m eag] to be ( s]vice to h] fri5ds--& nev] 0 %e m lov+ to h] *ildr51 or m ?\ghtful ( _! happ9ess4 ,%e propos$ = _! gratification & advantage to write f\r new books1 "o = ea* ( !m1 provid$ only !y & _! fa!r w\ld furni% h] ) subjects4 ,! plan seem$ to please h] greatly1 &1 _h %e be5 sp>$1 w\ld probably h be5 c>ri$ into effect--= x 0 j ! sort ( /imulus %e ne$$ to set h] m9d 9 action4 ,once furni%$ ) a subject1 h] p51 z has be5 said be=e1 always mov$ ) ! utmo/ ease & rapidity4 ,b :ile %e wrote v easily1 %e did n write )\t reflection4 ',%e _h a ke5 s5se ( "* 9 all its phases1 & h] individual portraits1 l ^? ( ,katy1 ,mrs4 ,grey & ,m>g>et1 ,aunt ,av]y & ,kezia ,millet1 7 work$ out ) ! utmo/ c>e1 ! result ( ye>s ( obs]vation & /udy be+ embodi$ 9 !m4 ,& "h1 9 pass+1 x may n be out ( place to dwell = an in/ant ^u h] motives & exp]i5ce z an au?or4 ,f fir/ to la/ %e wrote1 n to get ga9 or to w9 applause1 b to d good2 & h]e9 %e _h h] rew>d1 good measure1 press$ d[n & runn+ ov]4 ,b ( t k9d ( rew>d :i* gratifies lit]>y ta/e & ambition1 %e _h almo/ none4 ,h] books1 ev5 ^? mo/ admir$ by ! be/ judges1 & :i* _h ! wide/ circulation1 bo? at home & abroad1 attract$ b little att5tion f ! press4 ,! organs ( lit]>y intellig5ce & criticism sc>cely notic$ !m at all4 ,nor is x kn[n t any attempt 0 ev] made to analyse any ( h] m /rik+ *>act]s1 or to po9t out ! secret ( h] p[] & success z a writ]4 ,to be sure1 %e _h nev] s\ght or c\nt$ ^u ?is sort ( recognition2 & yet t %e 0 ke5ly alive to a ^w ( discrim9at+ praise1 w appe> f a lett] to ,mrs4 ,condict1 dat$ ,jan4 #bj?3 ,! burgl>y 0 on ?is wise1 z f> z we "k4 ,"o man /ood on ! front /eps1 & ano!r slipp$ ! hasp to "o ( ! p>lor w9d[s1 /epp$ 91 took a v valuable ,fr5* clock1 giv5 me on my silv]- w$d+ day1 & all ! hats & ov]coats f ! hall4 ,?is 0 all !y _h "t to d be=e our night-wat*man came r\nd2 !y left ! w9d[ wide op51 & at #d ,a4,m4 ,pat rang ! bell & in=m$ ,mr4 ,pr5tiss t su* 0 ! case4 ,we feel x a great m]cy t we 7 n attack$ & maltreat$4 ,poor ,a4 0 sitt+ up 9 b$1 he>+ :at 0 go+ on1 b be+ alone on ! ?ird floor1 did n d>e to move4 ,i h j f9i%$ a %ort /ory call$ ,g5tleman ,jim1 :i* ,i am go+ to s5d to ,scribn]'s2 v likely x w get ov]look$ & lo/4 ,i receiv$1 n long ago1 a lett] f ,mr4 ,cady #b ab\t ,greylock1 :i* he _h j read4 ,x 0 a gratification to bo? my husb& & myself1 z ! mo/ discrim9at+ lett] ,i ev] receiv$2 & aft] ! fir/ ru% ( pleasure1 ! ,evil ,"o tr\bl$ me1 (f & on1 = two or ?ree h\rs1 b at la/ ,i rem9d$ him t ,i long ago *ose to ca/ 9 my lot ) ! p ( ,god1 & s be (f ! l9e ( human notice or applause1 & t ,i 0 glad ,i _h be5 enabl$ to d x1 s9ce lit]>y ambition is unbecom+ a ,*ri/ian woman4 ,!re are #ejj o!r ?+s ,i %\ld say1 if y 7 "h6 ,! foll[+ is a "p ( ! lett] ref]r$ to3 ,! day aft] ,new ,ye>'s ,i 0 visit$ ) a sev]e cold & g5]al pro/ration t has kept me 9 my b$--giv+ me "t6 ,z soon z ,i 0 /rong en\gh to read ,i _h ,! ,home br\ght4 ,aft] read+ x ,i felt ,i ought to tell y h[ deeply ,i 0 impress$ ) ! usefulness1 excell5ce1 & _s ( ! book4 ,z to its usefulness1 y are to be envi$2 to h br\ght light1 z ,i believe y h1 to a l>ge numb] ( p ^u ! mo/ preci\s & vital int]e/s ( life1 is some?+ wor? liv+ & suff]+ =4 ,! good s5se1 wisdom1 exp]i5ce1 & ,*ri/ian fai? embodi$ 9 x mu/ make x a /rong help] & fri5d to _m a home 9 tr\ble & to _m p]plex$ & disc\rag$ he>ts1 :o w d\btless rise up "s day to call y bless$4 ,?\gh y c>$ less ab\t ! mann] ?an ! matt]1 ,i 0 impress$ by its lit]>y qualities4 ,! sc5e at ! dea? ( ,mrs4 ,grey & p>t+ ( h]self & ,m>g>et is z highly arti/ic & beautiful z any?+ ,i c ?9k (4 ,! contra/ ( good & bad1 or good & indiff]5t1 is common en\gh2 b ! contra/ ( :at is noble & :at is sa9tly is some?+ inf9itely high] & subtl]4 ,i c't imag9e any?+ m exquisitely t5d] & beautiful ?an ,mrs4 ,grey's dep>ture1 b x is ! m realis$ by ! previ\s action ( ,m>g>et4 ,! few l9es 9 :i* ?is is told br+ _! :ole "*--9 ea* case--vividly be=e y4 ,b ,i see t if ! book _h previ\sly to ?is po9t be5 diff]5tly writt5 x w\ld h be5 impossible to h r5d]$ ?is sc5e s rem>kably impressive4 ,! /ory ( ,eric is extremely qua9t & *>m+2 x is a ve9 ,i am n famili> ) 9 y\r writ+s4 ,x is a little classic4 ,?is qua9t *ild's /ory & ! dea? ( ,mrs4 ,grey affect me z a f9e "w ( art affects "o1 :5ev] ,i recall !m4 ,! trite say+ is /ill true1 ,a ?+ ( beauty is a joy =ev]4 ,y "k *ildr5 compla9 ( "s sweets t !y leave a bad ta/e--& works ( fiction (t5 d ) me4 ,i feel tir$ & dissatisfi$ aft] ,i h pass$ out ( _! excitem5ts2 b ! heav5ly atmosph]e ( ?is book left me bett]2 ,i "k t ! ,bless$ ,_s mu/ h influ5c$ y 9 ! writ+ ( x1 & ,i d\bt n ,8 bless+ w accompany its tea*+s4 ,n[ w y excuse ?is blotty lett]--writt5 9 b$--& accept my ?anks = all ! good y\r book has done me4 ,! foll[+ is h] reply3 ,,de> ,,mr4 ,,cady3--,y\r lett] af=d$ me m satisfaction ?an ,i "k h[ to expla94 ,x is true t ,i made up my m9d1 z a v "y girl1 to keep out ( ! way ( lit]>y p1 s z to avoid lit]>y ambition4 ,nor h ,i regrett$ t decision4 ,yet ! human nature is n dead 9 me1 & my in/9cts /ill crave ! k9d ( recognition y h giv5 me4 ,i h _h heaps ( lett]s f all p>ts ( ?is c\ntry1 ,engl&1 ,scotl&1 ,irel&1 ,g]many1 & ,switz]l&1 ab\t my books1 till ,i h got sick & tir$ ( !m4 ,& ! reason ,i tir$ ( !m 01 t 9 mo/ cases !re 0 no discrim9ation4 ,p lik$ _! religi\s "*1 & ( c\rse ,i want$ !m to d s4 ,b y appreciate & und]/& ev]y?+ 9 ,greylock1 & h1 !re=e1 gratifi$ my husb& & myself4 ,n a s\l out ( ?is h\se1 = in/ance1 has ev] s mu* z allud$ to my little ,eric1 except "o fri5d :o said1 ,we ?\ght t "p ( ! book =c$1 & suppos$ ,a4 wrote x4 ,nobody has ev] allud$ to ,m>g>et1 save y\rself4 ,i hop$ a sequel to ! book might be call$ =1 :5 ,i meant to elaborate h] "*4 ,/ill1 x w\ld h be5 v h>d4444 ,i am n sorry t ,i *ose ! pa? 9 life ,i did *oose4 ,a woman %\ld n live =1 or ev5 desire1 fame4 ,?is is yet m true ( a ,*ri/ian woman4 ,if ,i _h n /eadily suppress$ all su* ambition1 ,i might h become a s\r1 disappo9t$ woman1 see+ my be/ "w unrecognis$4 ,b x has be5 my wi% to ,d>e to be little & unkn[n1 ,se5 & lov$ by ,god alone4 ,y\r lett] = a few h\rs1 did /ir up :at ,i _h always trampl$ d[n2 b only = t brief p]iod1 & !n ,i said to myself1 ,god has only tak5 me at my ^w2 ,i h ask$ ,him1 a ?\s& times1 to make me small] & small]1 & cr[d ! self out ( me by tak+ up all ! room ,himself4 ,!re is s mu* ( t "w yet to be done1 t ,i wond] ,he v5tures to make s _m l9es fall to me 9 pleasant places1 & t ,i h su* a goodly h]itage4 ,i tru/ ,he w bless y = y\r labor ( love to me4 ,i d n l ! idea ( y\r buy+ my books4 ,greylock be+ = mo!rs1 ,i nev] dream$ ( m5 read+ x4 ,h y _h ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told1 ,six ,little ,pr9cesses1 ,! ,little ,prea*]1 & ,nidwor?8 ,nei!r ( ^! is really a *ild's book1 & ! next "t y are sick1 if y h n read !m1 ,i %all love to s5d !m to y4 ,if ?is is conceit1 ,i h ! effront]y n to be a mite a%am$ ( x6 ,! foll[+ notes to ,mrs4 ,fi%] %[ h[ pleasantly %e sympa?is$ ) h] tea*] z a "y "m1 :ile tak+ lessons ( & admir+ h] z an arti/3 ,,new ,,york1 ,febru>y #d1 #ahgh4 ,:at a relief to h ! days come long aga96 ,on ,saturday ,i f\nd 9 ,a4's portfolio a /udy y l5t h]2 exquisite f]ns beh9d ! fall5 trunk ( a tree1 & a t9y gr\p ( orange-color$ toad-/ools4 ,i w s5d x ) its two lovely si/]s1 :5 ,i get ?r\gh ) !m4 ,i wi% y c\ld get "t to come to see me1 or t ,i c\ld get "t to g to see y4 ,b x is my unlucky nature to h a great _m irons 9 ! fire at once4 ,i am glad y\r baby keeps well1 & hope he w gr[ up to be a great com=t to y4 ,feb4 #bc;d4--,i h j receiv$ y\r lett]4 ,i h my h&s full & !re is no ne$ to hurry y4 ,z to worry n be+ ( fai?1 ,i d n suppose x is4 ,b a "y "m c n be all fai?4 ,i d n envy p :o love s lightly t !y h no wr++ out ( ! he>t :5 !y lose _! de> ones2 nor c ,i und]/& h] :o says %e c sit & read ! newspap]1 :ile h] babies are cry+4 ,none are s old z !y :o h outliv$ en?usiasm2 & :o %\ld be en?usia/ic if a "m may n8 ,i don't ?9k ,god has laid x up aga9/ me t ,i ne>ly kill$ myself = ! sake ( my babies1 because :5 ,he took two away )9 ?ree mon?s ( ea* o!r1 my fai? 9 ,him did n falt]4444 ,de> ,mrs4 ,fi%]1 if y love ,god no?+ b ,8 be/ ?+s w ev] come to y4 ,?is is ! exp]i5ce ( a v "y1 old woman1 & ,i hope x w com=t y4 ,april #ba/4--,su* a fight z ,i h _h ) y\r exquisite /udies1 & h[ ,i h be5 beat56 ,i fail$ entirely 9 ! gold5-rod1 & d n get ! brilliant yell[ ( ! mulle9 fl[]2 "o c\ld n easily fail on ! saggit>ius1 & ! clov] 0 tol]able4 ,i ?9k ,i w take no m lessons at pres5t1 z ,i h mu* to d 9 gett+ ano!r boy fitt$ = college4 ,aft] ,i get settl$ at ,dorset ,i want to make a desp]ate ef=t to pa9t f nature1 & if ,i h any success1 s5d to y = criticism4 ,fools ru% 9 :]e angels fe> to tread1 & ,i am afraid y w be disgu/$ ) my "w1 :i* w be 9 ! d>k1 s9ce ,i h _h no in/ruction 9 copy+ nature4444 ,p]haps y may put alongside ( ! rejection ( y\r picture a lady's tell+ me ab\t "o ( my books into :i* ,i _h ?r[n an exp]i5ce ( ! la/ ?irty ye>s ( my life1 ,!re 0 no?+ 9 x4 ,il faut s\ffrir p\r etre belle4 ,z long z memory la/s ,i %all rejoice t ,i h se5 & /udi$ y\r "w4 ,i rememb] :at a spl5did fell[ y\r baby 0 a ye> ago4 ,x w dep5d on y\r mat]nal pray]s & discipl9e :e!r he gr[s up to be y\r com=t4 ,a few extracts f h] lett]s w give fur!r glimpses ( ! mann] 9 :i* %e pass$ ^! clos+ mon?s ( h] life 9 ,new ,york-- especially ( h] delight 9 ! weekly ,bible-read+4 ,"o ( ! ladies :o att5d$ x1 ?us ref]s to t ex]cise3 ,y rememb] t = "o or two ye>s %e 0 a memb] ( a small circle1 t met weekly = ,bible-/udy4 ,:5 ! lead] ( ?is circle remov$ f ! city1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 urg5tly reque/$ to become its tea*]1 & %e cons5t$ to d s4 ,= ! la/ f\r ye>s ( h] life %e ?rew h] :ole s\l into ?is ex]cise4 ,e week ! appo9t$ morn+ f\nd h] surr\nd$ by a little gr\p ( f eight to fifte51 ea* ) an op5 ,bible & all int5t less to analyse ! ^w ( ,god ?an to fe$ ^u x & gr[ !reby4 ,& :at a wond]ful tea*] %e 06 ,n neglectful ( any helps t diction>y or comm5tator might give1 h] *ief s\rce ( light 0 none ( ^!1 b 0 receiv$ 9 answ] to ! promise1 ,if any man w d ! w ( ,god he %all "k ( ! doctr9e4 ,%e wi%$ ! s]vice to be entirely in=mal1 & t ea* "o pres5t %\ld d h] "p to aid 9 ! /udy4 ,?is br\ght out div]se views & diff]5t /&>ds ( op9ion4 ,"h h] ke5 intellect1 h] w>m he>t1 ! ri* /ores ( h] exp]i5ce & h] sanctifi$ common s5se all f\nd play1 & _m ( ! words t fell f h] lips dwell 9 ! memory z little less ?an inspir$4 ,! la/ w9t] ( ?is s]vice %[$ "s m>k$ diff]5ces f previ\s ye>s4 ,z eag] z ev] to h que/ions ask$ & answ]$ by o!rs1 yet f ! mom5t %e comm5c$ to speak %e sc>cely paus$ till ! h\r 0 f9i%$1 h] eyes sp>kl+ & h] :ole mann] int5sely e>ne/4 ,(t5 ^? words ( ! ,psalmi/ pass$ ?r\gh my m9d1 ,! zeal ( ,?y h\se ha? eat5 me up4 ,h] love = h] "w & zeal 9 do+ x 7 visibly consum+ h]4 ,at ! la/ meet+ ,i ask$ h] if %e %\ld comm5ce ! ,bible-read+ at ,dorset imm$iately4 ,%e said no1 %e mu/ re/ a little2 %e w\ld wait till h] g>d5 0 made4 ,:5 next ,i he>d f h] fl[]s & h] ,bible-/udy %e _h made ! b\nd into home immortal4 ,& all :o lov$ h] mu/ rejoice ) h]2 else h we fail$ to le>n "o ( ! cle>e/ lessons ( h] life3 ,= me to live is ,*ri/1 & to die is ga94 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,feb4 #ad1 #ahgh4 ,is x possible ,i _h portire on ! bra9 :5 ,i wrote y la/8 ,i ?\ght ,i _h j caught ! disease4 ,i am v fond ( ne$le-"w1 b = ye>s h ne>ly ab&on$ x1 because ,i c\ld n ?read my ne$le4 ,b ! portire is made ) a l>ge wor/$ ne$le & w give me pleasant "w = ! ev5+4 ,i am gett+ my h& 9 on a contumaci\s closet door t won't /ay op5 9 my b$room4444 ,imitation ,mac>oni1 ,by ! au?or ( ,pemaquid3 ,boil hom9y ov]night4 ,next day's d9n] prep>e l mac>oni1 ) a little milk & grat$ *eese & bake4 ,good = a *ange & *eap]4 ,m>* #i?4--,:at an improvem5t on ! old fa%ion ( read+ ! ,bible is ! pres5t se>* ( ! ,^w6 ,x is1 z y say1 fasc9at+ "w4 ,i h j giv5 ,m4 an admirable book call$ ,emphatic ,diaglott1 be+ ! ,greek ,te/am5t ) a lit]al translation2 /ill ev5 t c be misund]/ood by "o :o has a false !ory to su/a94 ,! spiritual conflicts ,i h pass$ ?r\gh h be5 a bless+1 z ,i am beg9n+ to see2 ,i c und]/& bett] h[ su* conflicts may prep>e "o = "w4 ,?is aft]noon ,i h1 z usual1 be5 gett+ ready = ! ,w$nesday read+1 & z ,i 0 reque/$ to speak ( ! ,holy ,_s1 h be5 por+ ov] ! ,bible & am a/oni%$ at ! frequ5cy & v>iety ( passages 9 :i* ,he is spok5 (4 ,b ,i feel pa9fully unfit to guide ev5 ?is little circle ( wom51 & w\ld be s glad to sit z a le>n]4 ,"s ( ! *ildr5 7 go+1 la/ ,friday night1 to see ! ,aqu>ium1 & "s educat$ horses & dogs !re1 & !y p]suad$ me to g4 ,! p]=mance 0 wond]ful1 b ,i c\ld n help ?9k+ ( all ^! poor animals _h gone ?r\gh 9 le>n+ all ^! incr$ible feats2 ea* horse respond+ to 8 own "n1 ea* dog b>k+ 9 response to 82 two dogs hang+ a ?ird1 cutt+ him d[n1 :5 he lay app>5tly dead1 o!r dogs driv+ 91 9 a c>t1 & c>ry+ away ! body2 o!rs waltz+ on _! h9d legs1 & o!rs jump+ ! rope4 ,two horses play$ see-saw1 & "o roll$ a b>rel up an incl9$ plane ) 8 =e legs2 he hat$ to d x4 ,b ! m>vell\s fi%es & sea-fl[]s *>m$ me mo/4 ,to ,mrs4 ,re$1 ,new ,york1 ,m>* #ac1 #ahgh4 444 ,i h _h a busy w9t]4 ,we _h a v>iety ( losses1 & ,i und]took1 !re=e1 to manufacture ,re$1 mo/ ( my ,*ri/mas gifts1 :i* 71 *iefly1 umbrella racks2 ?is took "t4 ,!n my ,bible-read+ uses up pretty mu* "o day4 ,i nev] felt s unfit = x1 or m det]m9$ to keep x up z long z "o w\ld come4 ,besides t1 ,i h read & pa9t$ m or less & sew$ a good deal2 on ! :ole1 h _h m vacation ?an "w1 at lea/ "o look+ on w\ld say s4 ,b we all lead two lives1 & "o ( !m is p5etrat$ & und]/ood by no mortal eye4 ,i he>d su* a s]mon f ,dr4 ,bevan la/ ,sunday night on ! text1 ,!y saw ,god & did eat & dr9k4 ,he divid$ mank9d into f\r classes3 ,^? :o d eat & dr9k & d n see ,god2 ^? :o d n see ,him & d n eat & dr9k2 ^? :o see ,him & d n eat & dr9k 7he h&l$ !m t5d]ly72 & ^? :o see ,him & yet eat & dr9k4 ,i hope ,i h made its outl9e pla9 to y4 ,x took hold ( me4 ,to ,mrs4 ,donaghe1 ,new ,york1 ,april #bf1 #ahgh4 ,i am liv+ my life among break+s-up2 y gone1 ,mrs4 ,smi? ab\t to flee to ,nor?ampton1 & our neighbor ,miss ,w4 /or+ h] furniture & probably leav+ ,new ,york = good4 ,on ! o!r h&1 ,m4 sp5ds mo/ ( h] "t 9 help+ ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,talbot get to rights 9 ap>tm5ts !y h j tak54 ,mr4 ,t41 z ,i suppose y "k1 is pa/or ( our ,mission & z good z gold4 ,god has be5 pleas$ greatly to bless two ladies1 :o att5d ! ,bible-read+1 & ,i am sure ,he loves to h u /udy ,8 ,^w4 ,! m ,i dig into x ! ri*] ,i f9d x1 & ,i h _h "s delightful h\rs ?is w9t] 9 prep>+ = my ,w$nesday "w4 ,!re is to be a ,wom5's ,ex*ange 9 ?is city1 :]e ev]y?+ manufactur$ by !m 7except und]clo?+7 w be expos$ = sale2 embroid]y1 pickles1 pres]ves1 confection]y1 & articles reject$ by ! ,society ( ,decorative ,art4 ,i hope x w be a success1 & help _m wor?y wom51 all ov] ! l&1 to help !mselves4444 ,i f9d x h>d to cons5t to y\r hav+1 at y\r age1 to flit ab\t f home to home1 b a lov+ ,fa!r has a mansion = y beyond all ! *anges & *ances ( ?is /range complicat$ life4 ,if ,he gives y ,8 pres5ce1 t w be a home4 ,i wi% y c\ld visit u at ,dorset4 ,a visit to ,dorset 0 aft]w>d arrang$1 & "o ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' la/ lett]s 0 address$ to ?is old fri5d1 giv+ h] directions h[ to get !re4 #c ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,new ,york1 ,may #f1 #ahgh4 ,my la/ ,bible-read+1 or r "o ( ! la/1 0 on pray]2 z ,i c\ld n d ju/ice to x 9 "o read+1 ,i conclud$ to make a resum ( ! :ole subject4 ,?\gh ,i devot$ all ! read+s to ?is topic la/ summ]1 yet x loom$ up wond]fully 9 ?is resum4 ,la/ week ! subject 0 ! preci\s blood ( ,*ri/1 & 9 /udy+ up ! ^w preci\s ,i light$ on ^! lovely v]ses1 ,deut4 xxxiii4 #ac-af4 ,s9ce ,i began to /udy ! ,bible1 x (t5 seems l a new book4 ,& t passage ?rill$ ! ladies1 z a novelty4 ,i am to h b "o m read+4 ,! la/ s]mon ,i he>d 0 on ly+4 ,t is n "o ( my besett+ s9s1 b1 on ! o!r h&1 ,i pu% ! tru? too f>1 haggl+ ab\t evils bett] let alone4 ,a4 has j f9i%$ a spl5did placque to ord]2 a ,japanese figure1 ) exquisite foliage 9 black & grey z backgr\nd4 ,i h a wid[ lady e ,saturday to pa9t ) me2 %e has a l>ge family1 limit$ means1 & delicate heal?2 & ,i want to aid h] all ,i c4 ,%e enjoys ^! aft]noons s mu*1 & is do+ s well4 ,! lady h]self ?us recalls ^! aft]noons3 ,h[ de>ly ,i %\ld love to add b "o little fl[] to h] wrea? ( immortelles6 ,i *]i% memories ( h] z among ! pleasante/ ( my life4 ,i recall h] room s bright & *e]y1 j l h]self1 & all ! incid5ts ( ^? ,saturday aft]noons4 ,:5 %e fir/ ask$ me to pa9t ) h]1 ,i ?\ght x v k9d1 b ) h] multiplicity ( c>es1 felt x mu/ be burd5some to h]1 & t possibly %e w\ld ev5 =get ! invitation1 & s ,i hesitat$ ab\t go+4 ,b :5 ! week came r\nd ev]y?+ 0 made ready to give me a cordial welcome4 ,aga9 & aga9 ,i f\nd my *air1 palette & o!r mat]ials wait+ = me1 :ile %e sat 9 h] little nook1 busy z a bee ov] "s pa9t+ ( h] own4 ,"o day1 pass+ ab\t ! room1 ,i saw on h] book-%elves1 arrang$ ) ord] & precision1 n9e little butt] plates 9 ! =m ( pansies4 ,i utt]$ an exclamation ( delight1 & %e f h] corn]1 ) ! artlessness ( a *ild1 said1 ,i put !m !re = y to see4 ,ano!r "t %e sprang up ) h] quick1 light /ep1 & ran to ! y>d to fet* a fl[] = me to copy1 app>5tly ?\ghtless ( two flights ( /airs to tax h] /r5g?4 ,sometimes %e w\ld read to me v]ses ( poetry t pleas$ h]4 ,once ,i rememb] h] ?r[+ h]self at my feet1 & :5 ,i /opp$ to li/5 to ! read+1 %e said1 ,oh1 g "r on ) y\r pa9t+4 ,n[ %e w\ld relate "s amus+ anecdote t almo/ convuls$ me ) laught]1 & !n aga9 speak ( "s s]i\s !me ) su* e>ne/ness ( feel+6 ,%e 0 eag] to give ( h] /ore ( /r5g? & *e] to o!rs1 b ! /ore seem$ inexhau/ible4 ,! m %e gave1 ! m "o felt t !re 0 en\gh & to sp>e4 ,i look$ =w>d to my little weekly visit z to an oasis 9 ! des]t2 n t all else 0 bleak1 b t spot seem$ to me s v refre%+ & attractive4 ,little did ,i ?9k1 :5 %e load$ me d[n t la/ day ) all ,i c\ld c>ry1 !n ran d[n to ! p>lor to %[ me "s *oice articles !re :i* %e knew w\ld give me pleasure--little did ,i ?9k t ,i %\ld see h] aga9 no m6 ,n a day pass$ aft] leav+ h] t %e 0 n an inspiration to me4 ,:ile pa9t+ a wayside fl[] ,i w\ld ?9k1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w\ld l ?is--or1 ,9 ! fall ,i mu/ %[ t to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,ev5 9 my dreams %e 0 pres5t ) me1 & "o morn+1 only a little :ile be=e %e pass$ f u1 ,i wak$ ) a heavy burd5 ^u my spirits--= x seem$ to me z if %e 7 gone4 ,! impression 0 s /rong t ,i spoke ( x at ! "t1 & = days c\ld n ?r[ x (f4 ,b at la/1 say+ to myself1 ,oh1 x is only a dream1 ,i answ]$ h] little note1 mak+1 ( c\rse1 no ref]5ce to my /range feel+s 9 reg>d to h]4 ,h] lett]1 by a s+ul> mi/ake1 is dat$ ,kau9fels1 ,octob] #aj1 #ahgh1 ne>ly two mon?s aft] %e _h fall5 asleep4 ,h[ j l h] is ?is passage 9 x3 ,i wi% y c\ld leave y\r little flock1 & take "s re/ ) u4 ,x w\ld d y good1 ,i am sure4 ,is x impossible8 y d look s tir$4 ,my lett] 9 reply mu/ h be5 "o ( ! v la/ receiv$ by h]4 ,9 x ,i spoke ( hav+ j re-read ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d & ,aunt ,jane's ,h]o1 & ( hav+ enjoy$ !m almo/ z mu* z at ! fir/4 ,?is 01 p]haps1 "o reason :y %e _h be5 s con/antly 9 my ?\ghts4 ,:5 ! news came t %e _h left u1 ,i 0 at fir/ greatly %ock$ & griev$--= ,i felt t ,i _h lo/ no ord9>y fri5d--b :5 ,i consid]$ h[ complete h] life _h be5 9 all t makes life noble & beautiful1 & h[ meet x 0 t1 hav+ borne ! burd5 & heat ( ! day1 %e %\ld n[ re/ f h] labors1 x seem$ selfi% to give way to sorr[ & n r to rejoice t %e _h gone to be ) ,*ri/4 ,scores ( su* grateful te/imonies z ?is might be giv54 ,to all :o knew & lov$ h] well1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 an inspiration4 ,!y delight$ to talk ab\t h] to ea* o!r & ev5 to /rang]s4 ,!y repeat$ h] bright & pi?y say+s4 ,!y associat$ h] ) favorite *>act]s 9 ! books !y read4 ,! v ?\ght ( h] wr\ght ^u !m ) graci\s & *e]+ influ5ce4 ,an extract f a lett] ( "o ( h] old & de>e/ fri5ds1 writt5 to h] husb& aft] h] dea?1 w illu/rate ?is3 ,on ! v morn+ ( h] dep>ture ,i _h be5 conv]s+ ) my physician ab\t h]4 ,he spoke 9 admiration ( h] publi%$ works1 & ,i tri$ to give him a description ( h] p]sonal *>act]i/ics4 ,! night be=e1 9 my h\rs ( sleeplessness1 ,i rec\nt$ ! names ( fri5ds :o ,i ?\ght _h be5 mo/ in/rum5tal 9 m\ld+ my "*1 & ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss l$ ! li/4 ,h[ little did ,i dream t already h] feet _h safely t\*$ ! %9+ %ore6 ,9 all ! ?ree & ?irty ye>s ( our acqua9tance ,i lov$ h] ,,de>ly & rev]5c$ h] mo/ deeply2 b betwe5 u !re 0 su* a gulf t ,i always felt unwor?y to t\* ev5 ! hem ( h] g>m5t4 ,:5ev] ,i did t\* x1 /r5g? & com=t 7 imp>t$ to me4 ,h[ mu* ,i 0 indebt$ to h] mo/ t5d] sympa?y & h] pray]s 9 my own great sorr[1 only ano!r _w w reveal4 ,is x n a little rem>kable t h] la/ lett] to me1 writt5 only a few weeks be=e h] dea?1 clos$ ) a b5$iction8 ,i c\ld g on talk+ ab\t h] )\t end2 = ,i h (t5 said t !re 0 m ( h]1 & to h]1 & 9 h]1 ?an belong$ to any five wom5 ,i ev] knew4 ,h[ exce$+ly lovely %e 0 9 h] own home6 ,i rememb] y once said to me1 ,! greate/ *>m ( my wife is1 aft] all1 h] p]fect naturalness4 ,all :o knew h]1 mu/ h recognis$ ! same w9n+ *>act]i/ic4 ,%e 0 always fre% & always new--= %e _h ! well-spr+ ( wisdom z a fl[+ brook4 444 ,7 y n /ruck1 9 read+ ,?omas ,ersk9e's lett]s on ! dea? ( ,madame de ,broglie1 by ! wond]ful lik5ess betwe5 h] & de> ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss8 ,tw9 si/]s c\ld sc>cely h resembl$ ea* o!r m p]fectly4 ,su* passages z ! foll[+ q />tl$ me3 ,h] fri5d%ip has be5 to me a great gift4 ,%e has be5 a witness to me = ,god1 a voice cry+ 9 ! wild]ness4 ,%e has be5 a w>n] & a com=t]4 ,i h se5 h] cont9ually ?ir/+ aft] a spiritual union ) ,god4 ,i h he>d ! voice ( h] he>t cry+ aft] ,god out f ! mid/ ( all ?+s :i* make ?is life pleasant & satisfy+4444 ,%e _h all ! gifts ( m9d & "*--intellig5ce1 imag9ation1 nobl5ess1 & ?\ghts t w&]$ ?r\gh et]nity4 ,%e _h a he>t fitt$ = fri5d%ip1 & %e _h fri5ds :o c\ld appreciate h]2 b ,god suff]$ h] n to f9d re/ 9 ^! ?+s1 h] e> 0 op5 to ,8 own pat]nal voice1 & %e became ,8 *ild1 9 ! way t ! _w is n & kn[e? n4 ,i see h] be=e me1 h] lov+ _s utt]+ itself ?r\gh e feature ( h] beautiful & animat$ c\nt5ance4444 ,!re 0 an unspeakable *>m ab\t h]4 ,%e _h a tru? & simplicity ( "*1 :i* "o r>ely f9ds ev5 9 ! highe/ ord] ( m54 ,i "k nobody l h] n[4 ,i hope to pass et]nity ) h]4 ,x is wond]ful to ?9k :at a place %e has occupi$ 9 my life s9ce ,i became acqua9t$ ) h]4 ,y "k x is my belief t we become bett] acqua9t$ ) our fri5ds aft] !y h pass$ on )9 ! veil4 ,& may x n be t !y become bett] acqua9t$ ) u1 too1 lov+ u m p]fectly & =giv+ all t has be5 amiss8 #d ,to h] elde/ son1 ,new ,york1 ,may #ab1 #ahgh4 ,?is is y\r fa!r's bir?day1 & ,i h giv5 him1 to 8 great delight1 a ,fairbanks po/al scale4 ,8 tw5ty-ye>s-old "o w\ld n weigh newspap]s or books1 & x is "t = an improvem5t on x4 ,on ,?ursday ev5+ !re 0 a fe/ival at our *ur* 9 aid ( sick mission *ildr54 ,ev]ybody 0 !re ) _! *ildr51 & x 0 ! nice/ affair we ev] _h4 ,m4 & ,i w5t & enjoy$ x ev] s mu*4 ,i took betwe5 f\r & five doll>s to sp5d1 ?\gh ,i _h giv5 betwe5 tw5ty & ?irty to ! mission1 b did n get a *ance to sp5d mu*1 z ,mr4 ,m4 took me 9 *>ge & paid = ev]y?+ ,i ate4 ,y\r fa!r & ,i r expect to g to ,ea/ ,riv]1 ,conn41 tomorr[ to help ,mrs4 ,wa%burn celebrate h] sev5tie? bir?day2 b ! wea!r is s cold he d\bts :e!r ,i _h bett] g4 ,a4 w5t on a long drive on ,friday & br\ght back a ho/ ( wild fl[]s1 :i* ,i tri$ ) "s failure & "s success to pa9t4 ,may #ai?4--,we w5t to ,ea/ ,riv] on ,monday aft]noon & came home on ,?ursday1 mak+ a delightful visit4 ,on ,tuesday ,mrs4 ,w4 & ,i w5t to ,norwi* to see ! ,gilmans4 ,i 0 v tir$ :5 we got back1 & _h to g to b$ at half-pa/ sev54 ,! next day x ra9$2 s ,mrs4 ,w4 & ,i fell to pa9t+4 ,%e became s int]e/$ 9 le>n+ ,mrs4 ,fi%]'s sy/em t %e got up at five ! next morn+ & work$ two h\rs4 ,9 ! ev5+ y\r fa!r gave 8 lecture at a little club-room1 got up *iefly by ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,wa%burn at _! own exp5se4 ,x is j su* a room z ,i %\ld l to build at ,dorset4 ,on ,?ursday morn+ ,mrs4 ,w4 took me out to drive ?r\gh _! own woods & dug up "s wild fl[]s = me4 ,a4 has a ,miss ,crock]1 an arti/ic fri5d f ,portl&1 /ay+ ) h]--a v nice1 plucky girl4 ,%e wants me to let h] take my portrait4 #e ,h4 is full ( a /ory ( a pi\s dog1 :o 0 only fond ( p :o pray$1 w5t to *ur* regul>ly1 &1 :5 n prev5t$1 to all ! neighborhood pray]-meet+s1 :i* 7 *ang$ e week f h\se to h\se2 8 only k ( :]e !y w\ld be held be+ f ,sunday notices f ! pulpit6 ,i believe ?is ! m readily because ( ,ph>aoh's always go+ to my ,bible-read+ at ,dorset & nev] b>k+ !re1 :]eas if ,i w5t to ! same h\se to call he b>k$ dreadfully4 ,we are con/antly wond]+ :at y boys w be4 ,good m51 ,i hope1 at any rate4 ,good-night1 ) a kiss f y\r affectionate "m4 ,! sub/ance ( ! foll[+ lett] ( ,mrs4 ,wa%burn1 giv+ an acc\nt ( ! visit to ,ea/ ,riv]1 z also h] impressions ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 0 writt5 9 response to "o receiv$ by h] f an old fri5d 9 ,turk's ,isl&3 #f ,i am mo/ ?ankful t we _h t la/ visit f de> ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,x 0 a r>e favor to u t %e came4 ,h] heal? 0 v delicate1 & a slight deviation f ! regul> r\t9e ( home life 0 apt to give h] sleepless nights4 ,dr4 ,p4 _h s5t u ^w t he 0 go+ to be 9 ,new ,hav51 & w\ld give u a call be=e return+ to ,new ,york4 ,we' 7 ov]joy$ at ! prospect ( see+ him1 & wrote imm$iately begg+ ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss to come ) him4 ,%e1 ev] ready to sacrifice h] own ease = ! sake ( giv+ pleasure to o!rs1 & kn[+ t ! #ae? ( ,may w\ld be my #gj? anniv]s>y1 & t ,i p]fectly long$ to see h]1 took ! risk ( p]sonal suff]+ ^u h]self to satisfy my e>ne/ desire1 & came4 ,!y arriv$ on ! #ac? 9 ! late aft]noon tra94 ,%e 0 s bright & *e]ful x 0 difficult to notice any traces ( ! we>9ess :i* %e mu/ h felt4 ,we pass$ a delightful ev5+1 & z ,dr4 ,p4 0 to sp5d a "p ( ! next day 9 ,new ,hav51 we =m$ a plan = ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss & me to g to ,norwi* at ! same "t & make a brief visit to our mutual fri5ds1 ! ,misses ,gilman4 ,mr4 ,wa%burn telegraph$ to !m t we 7 com+4 ,on arriv+ at ,new ,london we f\nd1 to our dismay1 t we _h be5 mis9=m$ 9 reg>d to ! tra9s1 & t ! "o we _h tak5 did n connect ) ! "o to ,norwi*1 :i* _h be5 gone two h\rs4 ,s !re we 71 left alone on ! plat=m1 /rang]s 9 ! place1 ) no means ( ei!r go+ on or return+4 ,:at %\ld we d8 ,our fir/ ?\ght 0 to procure1 if possible1 "s conveyance to take u to ,norwi* & back2 b ?is we f\nd c\ld n be done1 = want ( "t1 ! di/ance betwe5 ! two cities be+ f\rte5 miles or m4 ,=tunately = u1 a "y lad appe>$1 :o promis$ to take u to our fri5ds 9 ,norwi*1 all[ u half an h\r to sp5d ) !m1 & drive to ! /ation !re 9 "t = ! return tra9 to ,new ,london & ,ea/ ,riv]4 ,he look$ s hone/ & true t we felt we c\ld tru/ him1 & we acc$$ to 8 t]ms at once4 ,z soon z he c\ld get 8 c>riage ready we />t$ (f on our untri$ way4 ,x began at ! foot ( a long hill1 & cont9u$ up & d[n ov] a succession ( ! same k9d1 ) v r>e exceptions ( a level space betwe5 !m1 ?r\gh ! :ole di/ance4 ,b ! sc5]y 0 s v>i$ & beautiful1 we ?\ght if our only object 9 sett+ out _h be5 a drive1 we c\ld n h *os5 "o m *>m+4 ,! wea!r 0 f9e1 & de> ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 9 h] happie/ mood4 ,z = me1 no?+ m>r$ my enjoym5t b fe> t ! fatigue w\ld be too mu* = h]1 & an und]curr5t ( anxiety le/ by "s mi%ap we %\ld fail to re-arrive at ! home-/ation 9 "t to meet our husb&s :o w\ld be wait+ = u4 ,b if %e _h any su* misgiv+s no?+ 9 ^w or mann] betray$ x4 ,s entire 0 h] self-control1 & s delicate h] tact1 n to ?r[ ! fa9te/ %ad[ across ! wisdom ( my precipitate arrangem5ts4 ,%e 0 z happy z a bird all ! way1 & talk$ delightfully4 ,we f\nd our fri5ds _h be5 9 a /ate ( great excitem5t on our acc\nt1 hav+ receiv$ ! telegram1 & kn[+ t we _h tak5 ! wrong tra92 s t our unexpect$ arrival 0 greet$ ) ev5 m ?an _! usual cordiality2 & !y 7 specially gratifi$ to see ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 :o almo/ )\t look+1 discov]$ a hundr$ beauties 9 & ar\nd _! lovely home1 :i* x w\ld h tak5 ! eyes ( an ord9>y gue/ a week to notice4 ,! v %ortness ( our "t to /ay1 int5sifi$ our enjoym5t :ile x la/$4 ,our half h\r 0 soon ov]1 & we came away ) our h&s full ( fl[]s & our he>ts z full ( love4 ,we arriv$ 9 good "t & met our husb&s wait+ = u at ! /ation4 ,de> ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss did n appe> to be v mu* fatigu$ :ile rec\nt+ 9 h] inimitably pleasant mann] ! v>i\s exp]i5ces ( ! day4 ,a re/ful night prep>$ h] = ! quiet enjoym5ts ( ! next day1 :i* we sp5t mo/ly at home1 m]ely mak+ %ort calls 9 ! morn+ on my two si/]s1 & sl[ly driv+1 or r1 z ,i call x1 tak+ a walk 9 ! buggy1 ?r\gh ! woods1 /opp+ e few m9utes to look at1 or ga!r f]ns or mosses or budd+ wild fl[]s t c\ld n escape h] beauty-lov+ eye4 ,! aft]noon we rema9$ 9 ! h\se1 occupi$ ) our p5cils4 ,%e pa9t$ a spray ( trail+ arbutus1 talk+ :ile %e 0 do+ x1 z nobody else c\ld1 ab\t ?+s belov$ & fair4 ,our d>l+ ,julia 0 ) u1 completely *>m$ ) h]1 & z busy z we1 try+ ) h] little h&s to make pictures z pretty z ours4 ,9 ! ev5+ ,dr4 ,p4 gave 8 mo/ int]e/+ lecture on ,recollections ( ,hur/monceaux 9 our read+-room2 b ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 n able to g1 :i* ,i regrett$ ! m because ,i knew _m ladies w\ld be !re :o came almo/ z mu* to see h] z to he> him4 ,!y 7 greatly disappo9t$1 b enjoy$ e ^w ( ! lecture1 z well !y might4 ,! next day 0 all too %ort4 ,x seem$ to me t ,i c\ld n let !m g4 ,b %e _h m ?an en\gh = h] ev] busy h&s & m9d & he>t to d 9 prep>ation = go+ to h] summ] home1 & we _h to say good-bye4 ,a few %ort1 *>act]i/ic1 lov+ notes came f ! city1 be=e %e left1 & ,i did n he> f h] at ,dorset till ! ov]:elm+ news came ( h] dea?4 ,i c\ld n control my grief4 ,little ,julia tri$ to com=t me ) h] sweet sympa?y4 ,de> gr&ma1 %e said1 ,i am sorry too4 ,i c n feel s bad z y d1 because y lov$ h] s mu*1 & y lov$ h] s long2 b ,i lov$ h] too1 & ,i c ?9k j h[ %e look$ :5 %e sat "r !re by t little table talk+1 & pa9t+ ^? beautiful fl[]s4 ,oh6 ,i am v sorry4 ,& "h ! poor *ild's te>s fl[$ aga9 ) m9e4 ,s w all ! *ildr5 :o knew h] say1 ,we rememb] j h[ %e look$4 ,yes1 !re 0 no mi/ak+ or =gett+ t k9dly1 lov+ look4 ,julia's "m _h felt its influ5ce f h] own e>ly *ildhood till %e left h] preci\s little "o to receive x 9 h] /ead4 ,to ea* ( ^! half-orphan$ ones 9 turn1 ,i _h to read ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days1 & bo? always said to me :5 ,i f9i%$1 ,please read x aga94 ,%e c\ld read & und]/& ! he>t ( *ildr5 ?r\gh & ?r\gh1 z inde$ %e c\ld ev]ybody's4 ,& t 01 p]haps1 h] *iefe/ *>m2 a ke5 eye to see & a true he>t to sympa?ise & love4 ,%e 0 absolutely s9c]e1 & no "o c\ld help feel+ t %e 0 s4 ,we felt ourselves fairly imag$ :5 /&+ be=e h]1 z 9 a cle> plate-glass mirror4 ,!re 7 no di/ort$ l9es caus$ by h] own imp]fections2 = al?\gh %e consid]$ h]self compass$ ) infirmity1 no "o else c\ld take su* a view ( h]1 b only saw ! abundant *>ity :i* c\ld cov] & =give a multitude ( fail+s 9 o!rs4 ,we felt t if !re 0 any good 9 u1 %e knew x1 & ev5 :5 %e saw !m ) all our faults %e lov$ u /ill1 & lov$ to d u good4 ,y w\ld l me to tell y h[ %e look$4 ,y c =m "s idea f h] picture1 b n an adequate "o4 ,h] face defi$ bo? ! photograph]'s & ! pa9t]'s art4 ,! crayon lik5ess1 tak5 %ortly be=e h] dea? by ,miss ,crock]1 a "y arti/ f ,ma9e1 is1 9 "s respects1 excell5t4 ,! eyes & m\?--n to speak ( o!r features--are v happily reproduc$4 ,%e 0 ( m$ium height1 yet /ood & walk$ s erect z to appe> tall] ?an %e really 04 ,h] dress1 always ta/eful1 ) little or no ornam5t t "o c\ld rememb]1 0 ev] suit$ to ! "t & place1 & seem$ ! mo/ becom+ to h] :i* c\ld h be5 *os54 ,%e 0 p]fectly natural1 &1 ?\gh %y & res]v$ among /rang]s1 _h a quiet1 easy grace ( mann]1 t %[$ at once def]5ce = !m & utt] unconsci\sness ( self4 ,h] head 0 v f9e & admirably pois$4 ,%e _h a symmetrical figure1 & h] /ep to ! la/ 0 z light & ela/ic z a girl's4 ,:5 ,i fir/ knew h]1 9 ! flu% & bloom ( "y mat]nity1 h] face sc>cely diff]$ 9 its curv+ outl9es f :at x 0 m ?an a qu>t] ( a c5tury lat]1 :5 ! joys & sorr[s ( full-orb$ womanhood _h /amp$ ^u x indelible m>ks ( ! p]fection !y _h wr\ght4 ,h] hair 0 !n a d>k-br[n2 h] =ehead smoo? & fair1 h] g5]al complexion ri* )\t mu* dep? ( color except ^u ! lips4 ,9 silv]+ h] clu/]+ locks "t only add$ to h] aspect a grav] *>m1 & h>monis$ ! /ill m delicate t9ts ( *eek & br[4 ,h] eyes 7 black1 & at times wond]fully bright & full ( spiritual p[]2 b !y 7 %ad$ by deep1 smoo? lids :i* gave !m :5 at re/ a mo/ dove-l s]5ity4 ,h] o!r features 7 equally /rik+2 ! lips & *9 exquisitely m\ld$ & m>k$ by great /r5g? z well z beauty4 ,h] face1 9 repose1 wore ! habitual expression ( deep ?\ght & a s(t e>ne/ness1 l a ?9 veil ( sadness1 :i* ,i nev] saw 9 ! same degree 9 any o!r4 ,yet :5 animat$ by int]*ange ( ?\ght & feel+ ) cong5ial m9ds1 x light$ up ) a p]fect radiance ( love & intellig5ce1 & a mo/ beam+ smile t no p5 or p5cil c describe--lea/ ( all 9 my h&1 :i* trembles :5 ,i try to sket* ! fa9te/ outl9e4 ,hundr$s ( he>t-/irr+ memories cr[d ^u me z ,i write1 b x is impossible to give !m expression4 ,h] books give y ! true/ transcript ( h]self4 ,%e wrote1 z %e talk$1 f ! he>t4 ,to ^? :o knew h]1 a writt5 page 9 almo/ any "o ( !m recalls h] image ) ! vividness ( a portrait2 & !y c almo/ he> h] musical voice z !y read x !mselves4 ,b1 alas6 9 reality-- ,no m h] l[ sweet acc5ts c we he> ,no m our pla9ts c rea* h] pati5t e>4 ,o6 lov$ & lo/1 oh6 tru/$1 tri$1 & true1 ,o6 t5d]1 pity+ eyes =ev] seal$2 ,h[ c we be> to speak our la/ adieu8 ,h[ to ! grave ! preci\s casket yield1 ,& to ^? old famili> places g ,t knew !e once1 & nev] m %all "k8 ,i he> f heav5 a voice angelic cry1 ,bless$1 ?rice bless$ are ! dead :o lie ,b5ea? ! fl[]y sod & grav5 /one4 ,yea1 sai? ! answ]+ ,_s1 = !y re/ ,=ev] f ! labors !y h done4 ,_! works d foll[ !m to regions ble/2 ,no /a9 h]eaft] c _! lu/re dim2 ,! dead 9 ,*ri/ f h5ce=? live 9 ,him4 ,o6 d\bly de> transfigur$ fri5d on high1 ,we1 ?r\gh our te>s1 behold ?9e eyelids dry4 ,by ,him :o suff]$ once1 & once 0 dead1 ,b live? ev]more ?r\gh endless days1 ,god ha? encircl$ ?y r$eem$ head ,) rays ( glory & et]nal praise1 ,& ) ,8 own k9d h& wip$ e trace ,( te>s1 & pa9 & sorr[ f ?y face4 ,c4 ,w4 ,,wildwood1 ,m>* #g1 #ahhj4 ,"o ( ! notes ref]r$ to is z foll[s3 ,,de> ,,mrs4 ,,wa%burn3--,if y judge by my h&writ+1 y w h to conclude t ,i am #ajj ye>s old4 ,b x all comes ( my c>ry+ a heavy bag too long1 & is all my own fault = try+ to d too _m err&s 9 "o trip4 ,y\r de> little *air1 ! l ( :i* ,i %\ld love to give to #edj p1 only co/ #b4ej1 s ,i enclose my *eck = ! re/ ( y\r #aj4 ,we s5t (f ,mrs4 ,badg]'s p>cel e>ly ?is morn+4 ,i hope digg+ & driv+ & pack+ & climb+ 9 my behalf1 has n q kill$ y4 ,a lot ( fl[]s 9 two boxes came to me f ,matteawan :ile ,i 0 gone1 & z my waitress fanci$ ,i _h be5 %opp+--z if ,i %\ld %op at ,ea/ ,riv]6--%e did n op5 ! boxes or in=m ! *ildr51 s ! spectacle ( )]$ beauty 0 n v agreeable4 ,a4 & ,m4 s5d love & ?anks4 ,! fl[]s y gave me look beautifully4 ,give our love to ,mr4 ,w4 & ,julia1 & write ab\t h]4 ,we %all n soon =get our *>m+ visit to ,ea/ ,riv]6 ,9 ackn[l$g+ ?is note ,mrs4 ,wa%burn alludes to "o ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' mo/ /rik+ traits--! eag] promptitude ) :i* %e w\ld execute little commissions = h] fri5ds4 ,x 0 z if %e _h tak5 a v[ t !re %\ld n be "o in/ant's delay4 ,i d hope y h n be5 made sick by do+ s _m err&s 9 su* a %ort "t4 ,! little *air has come & ,mr4 ,w4 is mu* pleas$ ) x4 ,nobody is s punctual z y4 ,we 7 all amaz$ at receiv+ ! picture s soon4 ,h[ c\ld y possibly h gott5 home & pack$ x & m>k$ ! catalogues & b\ght ! *air & writt5 ! *eck & s5t me ! little package ( ,japanese corn-se$ & writt5 me ! note & h _h a mom5t ev5 to look at ,a4's portrait8 ,x is a my/]y to me4 ,y are a wond] ( a woman6 ,y are a g5ius6 ,y are a belov$ fri5d6 ,i ?ank y aga9 & aga94 ,j ?9k ( ! good y h done u4 ,%all ,i s5d y "s m daisies8 ,i h writt5 9 ! greate/ ha/e4 ,t is ! reason ,i h done no bett] & n because ,i am sev5ty ye>s old4 ,"h is h] la/ note to ,mrs4 ,wa%burn1 dat$ ,june #c3 ,! box ( daisies1 clov]1 & grass came on ,saturday4 ,we set ! plants out 9 ! box 9 :i* !y came1 & mix$ ! grass ) :at cut fl[]s we _h1 9 ! v prettie/ receptacle = fl[]s ,i ev] saw1 j giv5 ,m4 ,! plants look ?is morn+ l a piece ( ,wildwood & a piece ( y1 & w gladd5 e spr+ we live to see4444 ,we are pack+ = ,dorset1 ?\gh we d n mean to g if ?is wea!r la/s4 ,i wond] if y h a daily rose8 ,i h j b\ght "o2 fir/ he>d ( x at ! ,c5t5nial4 ,x is said to bloom e day f ,may to ,decemb]4 ,i am go+ out1 n[1 to d ev] s _m err&s = ,h4's outfit = college4 ,give our de> love to ,mr4 ,wa%burn & ,julia4 ,o1 :at a m]cy x is to h somebody to love4 #g ,on ! #f? ( ,june ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss w5t to ,dorset = ! la/ "t4 ,h] husb&1 aft] h] dep>ture1 ?us ref]r$ to ?is p]iod3 ,= f\r or five weeks aft] com+ "h %e 0 v mu* occupi$ ab\t ! h\se1 & seem$ r we>y & c>e-worn4 ,b ! pressure 0 !n ov] & %e _h leisure = h] fl[]s & h] pa9t+1 = go+ to ! woods ) ! girls1 & = tak+ h] favorite drives ) me4 ,%e spoke repeat$ly ( y & o!r fri5ds4 ,on ! #bc;d ( ,july ,i />t$ = ,monm\? ,bea*4 ,! week prec$+ ?is little j\rney 0 "o ( ! happie/ ( our m>ri$ life4 ,no words c tell h[ sweet & lov+ & bright--9 a ^w1 h[ j l h]self--%e 04 ,! impassion ( t week accompani$ me to ! sea-side & cont9u$ ) me dur+ my :ole /ay !re4 ,z day aft] day ,i sat look+ out ^u ! ocean1 or walk$ alone up & d[n ! %ore1 %e 0 /ill 9 all my ?\ghts4 ,! noise ( ! break]s1 ! b\ndless expanse ( wat]s1 ! pass+ %ips1 go+ out & com+ 91 recall$ simil> sc5es long ago on ! coa/ ( ,ma9e1 be=e & aft] our m>riage--sc5es ) :i* h] image 0 indissolubly bl5d$4 ,!n ,i met old fri5ds & f\nd new ones1 :o talk$ to me ) grateful en?usiasm ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 ,m ,love to ,!e1 ,o ,*ri/1 & o!r ( h] writ+s4 ,9 tru?1 my feel+s ab\t h]1 :ile ,i 0 at ,monm\? ,bea*1 7 q peculi> & excite my wond] /ill4 ,i sc>cely "k h[ to describe !m4 ,!y 7 at times v int5se1 &1 ,i _h almo/ said1 awe-/ruck1 seem$ ba!d 9 a sweet ,sabba? /illness1 & to belong r to ! o!r _w ?an to ?is ( "t & s5se4 ,h[ d y expla9 ?is8 ,0 my _s1 p]haps1 t\*$ 9 "s my/]i\s way by ! com+ ev5t8 ,c]ta9ly1 _h ,i be5 w>n$ t %e 0 s soon to leave me1 ,i c\ld h>dly h pass$ ^? days ( abs5ce 9 a mood bett] attun$ to t 9 :i* ,i n[ ?9k ( h] z =ev] at home ) ! ,"l4 ,! foll[+ are two ( h] la/ lett]s3 ,to ,mrs4 ,condict1 ,kau9fels1 ,july #bb1 #ahgh4 ,to beg9 ) ! mo/ important "p ( y\r lett]4 ,i reply t nei!r ,mr4 ,pr5tiss or myself h ev] _h any sympa?y ) ,second ,adv5ti/s4 ,all ! talk ab\t x seems to u m]e speculation & probable doom to disappo9tm5t4 ,i d n see t x is z p[]ful a /imulant to hol9ess z ! unc]ta9ty ( life is4 ,*ri/ may come any day2 b ,he may n come = ages2 b we mu/ & %all die 9 ! m]e/ fragm5t ( an age1 & see ,him z ,he is4 ,x w be a day ( unspeakable joy1 :5 we meet ,him "h or !re4 ,i %r9k f unpr(itable discussion ( po9ts t1 aft] all1 c only be te/$ by "t & ev5ts4 ,i d n ?9k our expect+ ,*ri/ w br+ ,him a m9ute soon]1 = ! e>ly *ur* expect$ ,him1 yet ,he came n4 ,!re has be5 s mu* wildness 9 !ories on ?is subject t ,i am sore :5 ,i he> new ones advanc$2 none ( ^! !ories h prov$ to be correct1 & ,i d n imag9e any ( !m w4 ,i h be5 busy indoors1 uphol/]+ n only curta9s & c\*es1 b ev] s _m boxes1 z our bureaus are %all[ & our closets small4 ,i made "o = ,a4 l>ge en\gh = h] to get into1 & %e uses x z %e w\ld a room1 susp5d+ objects f ! sides & keep+ all h] arti/ic implem5ts 9 x4 ,i began my ,bible-read+ la/ ,?ursday1 ! hotte/ day we h _h2 b !re 0 a good att5dance4 ,my ,g4 met ) an accid5t f ! circul> saw :i* al>m$ & di/ress$ me s t 8 fa!r _h to h>t%orn & fan me1 :ile ! girls did :at !y c\ld = ,g4 till ! doctor c\ld be got f ,factory ,po9t4 ,8 eyebr[ 0 cut op5 & 8 =ehead ga%$1 b all heal$ wond]fully1 & we h reason to be ?ankful t he did n lose an eye1 z he 0 s ne> do+4 ,at any "t :5 y mu/ h *ange1 let me "k1 z !re are (t5 gaps betwe5 gue/s1 & sometimes ^? we expect$1 fail4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss is1 app>5tly1 b5efit$ by hot wea!r1 & is unusually well4 ,?anks = ! ne$les1 :i* w be a great com=t4 ,h y pa9t$ a horse-%oe8 ,i _h "o giv5 me2 black gr\nd & blue =get-me-nots1 & hung by a blue ribbon4 ,i am go+ to pa9t "o = ,m4 & ,hatty4 ,i feel z if ,i _h left out some?+ ,i want$ to say4 ,to ,mrs4 ,george ,payson1 ,kau9fels1 ,aug4 #a1 #ahgh4 ,i am all alone 9 ! h\se1 ?is ev5+1 & z ?is gives me room at ! table1 ,i am go+ to beg9 to answ] y\r lett]4 ,george is out ( t[n1 & all ! re/1 includ+ ! s]vants1 h gone to see ! ,mi/letoe ,b\gh4 ,x is a/oni%+ h[ sl[ly y get well2 & yet ) su* heat & su* smells z y h 9 ,*icago1 x is yet m a/oni%+ t y live at all4 ,i ?\ght x dreadful to h ! !rmomet] /& at #ij 9 my b$room1 ?ree weeks runn+1 & to sniff a bad sniff n[ & !n f our pond1 :5 ! wat] got l[1 b ,i see ,i 0 wrong4 ,we h next to no fl[]s ?is summ]2 :ite flies de/roy$ ! roses1 fro/ kill$ o!r ?+s1 & !n ! ?ree weeks ( burn+ heat1 ) no ra91 f9i%$ up o!rs4 ,portulacca is our re>-gu>d1 on :i* we fall back1 fill+ empty spaces ) x1 & ,i gr[ m fond ( x e ye>4 ,a good _m v]b5as s[$ !mselves1 b came up too late to be ( any use4 ,we h a spl5did b$ ( pansies1 s[n by a fri5d "h4 ,i h n done mu* indoors b r5ovate ! h\se1 b t has be5 a great job4 ,i br\ght up a ,japanese picture-book to use z a cornice 9 my d51 b ,a4 p]suad$ me to get "s wall pap]1 & use ! pictures z a dado = ! d9+-room4 ,! effect is v unique & pretty4 ,i expect ,george home to-morr[2 he has be5 sp5d+ a delightful week at ,monm\? ,bea*1 visit+ fri5ds4 ,i wi% ,i c\ld s5d y "s ( our delici\s ice-cream4 ,we h x twice a week1 ) ! juices ( :at fruit is go+2 pea*es be+ be/4 ,we h n _h mu* company yet4 ,la/ ,saturday a fri5d ( ,a4's came & goes ) h] to ,pr\t's ,neck to-morr[4 ,we d n c\nt ,hatty ,k4 z company1 b z "o ( u4 ,%e gets ! brighte/ lett]s f ,rob ,s41 son ( ,george4 ,i %\ld bur/ & bl[ up if my boys wrote z well4 ,!y h telephone & microphone on ! bra91 & su* a bawl+ betwe5 ! h\se & ! mill y nev] he>d4 ,x is nice = u :5 we want meal1 or to h a horse h>ness$4 ,h y he>d ( ! *air1 ) a fan ea* side1 t fans y tw5ty-five m9utes f j seat+ y\rself 9 x4 ,x mu/ be delightful1 especially to invalids1 & ought to prolong life = !m4444 ,! clock is /rik+ n9e1 my h\r = flee+ to get ready = b$1 b none ( ! angels h come home f ! ,mi/letoe ,b\gh1 & s ,i suppose ,i %all h to make ha/e sl[ly 9 undress+4 ,love to all4 ,aug4 #c;d4--,i am delight$ t y enjoy$ ! s]ge s mu*2 ,i knew y w\ld4 ,i =got to answ] y\r "q ab\t books4 ,h y read ,noblesse ,oblige8 ,we admire x extremely4 ,!re are two works by ?is title2 "o poor4 ,i read ,les ,mis]ables la/ w9t]1 & got greatly int]e/$ 9 x2 :e!r !re is a good ,engli% translation1 ,i d n "k4 ,t ,lass o' ,l[rie's y h probably read4 ,i saw a ,russian novel highly prais$ ! o!r day2 ,dosea1 translat$ f ! ,fr5* by ,m>y ,neal 7,%]wood72 ,victor ,lasc> is said to be good4 ,i h1 probably1 prais$ ,misund]/ood to y4 ,/range ,adv5tures ( a ,phaeton we lik$2 also ,! ,maid ( ,sk] & ,(f ! ,skelligs2 its sequel is ,fat$ to be ,free4 ,two tongues are runn+ l mill-clapp]s1 s good-night4 99 99 99 99 99 ,,ii4 ,little ,incid5ts & ,details ( h] la/ ,days on ,e>?4 ,la/ ,visit to ! ,woods4 ,sudd5 ,illness4 ,la/ ,bible-read+4 ,la/ ,drive to ,hag]-,brook4 ,rem9isc5ce ( a la/ ,int]view4 ,clos+ ,sc5es4 ,dea?4 ,! ,burial4 ,h] la/ days on e>? 7 n[ close at h&4 ,su* days h 9 !mselves1 ( necessity1 no virtue above o!r days2 & yet a t5d] int]e/ cl+s to !m simply z ! la/4 ,_! conjunction ) dea? & ! ,life beyond seems to inve/ :atsoev] comes to pass 9 !m--ev5 trifles light z air--) unwont$ significance4 ,soon aft] h] sudd5 dep>ture h] husb& not$ d[n1 = ! satisfaction ( abs5t fri5ds1 su* little incid5ts & details z c\ld be recall$ ( h] la/ t5 days on e>?4 ,! foll[+ is a "p ( ?is simple record3 ,sunday1 ,aug4 #d1 #ahgh4--,to-day %e w5t to ! h\se ( ,god = ! la/ "t2 &1 z w\ld h be5 h] wi%1 _h %e kn[n x 0 = ! la/ "t1 he>d me prea*4 ,!re 0 mu* 9 bo? ! tone & matt] ( ! s]mon1 t made x seem1 aft]w>ds1 z if x _h be5 writt5 9 full view ( ! approa*+ sorr[4 ,a good deal ( ! day at home 0 sp5t 9 gett+ ready = h] ,bible-read+ on ! ensu+ ,?ursday4 ,at f\r o'clock 9 ! aft]noon %e & ! girls1 ,m4 & ,h41 usually drove 9 ! phaeton ov] to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,re$'s1 on ! ,we/ road1 to att5d a neighborhood pray]-meet+2 b to-day1 on acc\nt ( a ?reat5+ ?und]-%[]1 !y did n g4 ,%e enjoy$ ?is little meet+ v mu*4 ,monday1 ,aug4 #e?4--,soon aft] breakfa/1 %e & ! girl--we ?ree girls1 z %e us$ to say--/>t$ (f1 c>ry+ ea* a basket1 = ! ,*5ey woods 9 que/ ( f]ns2 x hav+ be5 arrang$ t at t5 o'clock ,i %\ld come ) ! phaeton to fet* h] & ! baskets home4 ,! morn+1 al?\gh w>m1 0 v pleasant & all ?ree 7 9 high spirits4 ,be=e leav+ ! h\se1 %e ran up to h] d5--s %e call$ ! little room :]e %e wrote & pa9t$--to get some?+2 & on pass+ out ( x ?r\gh ! *amb]1 :]e j !n ,i 0 %av+1 %e sudd5ly /opp$1 & po9t+ at me ) h] =ef+]1 h] eye & face beam+ ) love & full ( sweet wit*]y1 %e exclaim$ 9 a tone ( pret5d$ ang]3 ,h[ d>e y1 sir1 to be %av+ 9 my room8 & 9 an in/ant %e 0 gone6 ,a m9ute or two lat] ,i look$ aft] h] f ! w9d[ & saw h]1 ) h] two %ad[s1 hurry+ t[>ds ! woods4 ,at ! "t appo9t$1 ,i w5t = h]4 ,%e await$ me sitt+ on ! gr\nd on ! fur!r side ( ! woods1 ne> ! old sug>-h\se4 ,! ?ree baskets1 all fill$ ) beautiful f]ns1 7 plac$ 9 ! phaeton & we drove home4 ,! ,*5ey woods1 z we call !m1 =m "o ( ! attractions ( ,dorset4 ,!y are q ext5sive1 ab\nd 9 maje/ic sug>-maples1 "s ( :i* h be5 tapp$1 x is said1 = m ?an sixty successive seasons1 & at "o po9t 9 !m is a wat]-%$ divid+ into two little rivulets1 "o ( :i*1 aft] m+l+ ) ! wat]s ( ! ,batt5kill & ! ,hudson1 f9ds its way at la/ into ! ,atlantic ,ocean2 :ile ! o!r rea*es ! same ocean ?r\gh ,pawlet ,riv]1 ,lake ,*ampla9 & ! ,/4 ,lawr5ce ,riv]4 ,^! woods & our own1 toge!r ) ! m\nta9 & wat]fall & groves beyond ,deacon ,kellogg's1 :]e %e (t5 met h] old fri5d ,uncle ,isaac1 #h 7 h] favorite resorts4 ,a little :ile aft] return+ home ,i f\nd h] 9 h] little room1 look+ well & happy1 & busy ) h] bru%4 ,! girls1 also1 on rea*+ ! h\se f\nd h] !re4 ,b some:at lat]1 )\t our k1 %e w5t out & work$ = a long "t on & ab\t ! lawn4 ,!re 0 a breeze1 b ! rays ( ! sun 7 scor*+ly hot & %e d\btless ex]t$ h]self1 z %e 0 always tempt$ to d1 beyond h] /r5g?4 ,i 0 occupi$ until noon at ! mill & lat]1 9 ! field1 wat*+ ! m5 cradl+ oats4 ,on com+ 9 to d9n]1 a little pa/ "o1 ,i 0 />tl$ n to f9d h] at ! table1 ,:]e is mamma8 said ,i to ,m4 ,%e is n feel+ v well1 ,m4 answ]$1 & said %e w\ld n come d[n1 z %e did n want any d9n]4 ,i ran up-/airs1 f\nd h] 9 h] little room1 & ask$ h] :at 0 ! matt]4 ,%e repli$ t %e _h be5 tr\bl$ ) a little nausea & felt weak1 b x 0 no?+ s]i\s4 ,i w5t back to ! table1 b ) a worri$1 anxi\s m9d4 ,some:at lat] %e lay d[n on ! b$ & ! pro/ration became s great1 t ,i rubb$ h] h&s vigor\sly & adm9i/]$ h>t%orn4 ,x occurr$ to me at once t %e _h b>ely escap$ a sun/roke4 ,aft] rally+ f ?is t]rible fit ( exhau/ion1 %e seem$ q l h]self aga91 & li/5$ ) mu* int]e/ :ile ! girls read to h] out ( ,boswell's ,johnson4 ,%e 0 9 a sweet1 g5tle mood all ! aft]noon4 ,i pray$ ?is morn+1 %e said1 t ,i might be a com=t to-day to ev]ybody 9 ! h\se4 ,tuesday1 ,aug4#f?4--,%e pass$ ! day 9 b$2 feeble1 b o!rwise seem+ /ill l h]self4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! morn+ we p]suad$ h] to let ,m>g>et1 ,eddy's old nurse1 make h] "s milk-toa/1 :i* %e enjoy$ s mu* t %e said1 ,i wi%1 ,m>g>et1 y 7 well en\gh to come & be our cook4 ,m4 _h tak5 ! place ( our two s]vants1 :o 7 gone to ,ea/ ,dorset to a ,confirmation1 at :i* _! bi%op 0 to be pres5t4 ,?r\gh\t ! day %e 0 9 a v t5d]1 g5tle mood1 z %e _h be5 on ! previ\s aft]noon4 ,%e 0 mu* ex]cis$ by ! sudd5 dea? ( ! "m ( "o ( our s]vants1 ! news ( :i* came :ile !y 7 away4 ,_h ! case be5 t ( a ne> relative1 %e c\ld h>dly h %[n w>m] sympa?y1 or adm9i/]$ consolation 9 a m consid]ate mann]4 ,dur+ ! day !re 0 m or less talk ab\t ! ,bible-read+ & ,i begg$ h] to give x up4 ,we f9ally agre$ t ! girls %\ld drive ov] to ,mrs4 ,re$'s & ask h] to take *>ge ( x4 ,!y did s2 b at ,mrs4 ,r4's sugge/ion x 0 decid$ n to give up ! meet+1 b to conv]t x1 if ne$ful1 into a little s]vice ( pray] & praise4 ,?is arrangem5t seem$ to please h]4 ,al?\gh feel+ v weak1 %e did n appe> at all depress$ & 0 alive to ev]y?+ t 0 go+ on 9 ! room4 ,! girls hav+ writt5 to a fri5d :o 0 to visit u ! next week1 %e ask$ if !y _h m5tion$ h] illness4 ,!y bo? repli$ no--= ea* suppos$ ! o!r _h done x4 ,!n 7said %e7 y _h bett] add a po/script1 tell+ h] t ,i lie at ! po9t ( dea?4 ,w$nesday1 ,aug4 #g?4--,a beautiful day4 ,%e got up1 put on a dress+-g[n1 & sat mo/ ( ! day 9 ! easy-*air1 or r ! sea-*air1 giv5 u by my de> fri5d1 ,mr4 ,h[l&1 :5 we w5t to ,europe 9 #aheh4 ,%e look$ v lovely & we all enjoy$ sitt+ & talk+ ) h] 9 h] *amb]4 ,! girls arrang$ h] hair to please _! own ta/e1 & !n told h] h[ v *>m+ %e 06 ,%e lik$ to be pett$ by !m2 & !y 7 nev] s happy z 9 pett+ & fuss+ ab\t h]4 ,%e sp5t an h\r or two 9 look+ ov] a package ( old ,agriculturi/s1 t _h belong$ to h] bro!r-9-law1 ,pr(4 ,hopk9s1 ( ,williams ,college4 ,%e delight$ 9 su* read+1 & no?+ curi\s & int]e/+1 or sugge/ive1 escap$ h] notice4 ,%e call$ my att5tion to an article on rais+ tomatoes1 & cut x out = me2 & also cut out _m o!r articles = h] own use4 ,t[>ds night %e dress$ h]self & came d[n to tea4 ,%e rema9$ 9 ! p>lor1 talk+ ) me & ! boys1 & read+ ! pap]1 until ! girls return$ f ! ,w$nesday ev5+ meet+4 ,some?+ _h occurr$ to excite _! mir?1 & !y came home 9 su* a gale t %e playfully rebuk$ !m = be+ s light-m9d$4 ,b at ! same "t %e c\ldn't help jo9+ 9 _! mir?4 ,9 tru?1 %e 0 q z mu* a girl z ei!r ( !m2 & h] laugh 0 z m]ry4 ,?ursday1 ,aug4 #h?4--,%e seem$ to feel mu* bett] ?is morn+4 ,be=e gett+ up we talk$ ab\t h] ,bible-read+1 & %e ask$ me v>i\s que/ions conc]n+ ! passage t 0 to be its !me1 namely1 ,john xv4 #bg4 ,%e ref]r$ p>ticul>ly to our ,"l's say+s1 at ! beg9n+ ( ! sixte5? *apt]1 on ! subject ( p]secution1 & told me h[ v /range & impressive !y seem$ to h]1 com+1 z !y did1 9 ! mid/ ( ,8 la/ conv]sation ) ,8 disciples--a conv]sation s full ( div9e t5d]ness & love4 ,?is 0 almo/ ! la/ ( innum]able & nev]-to-be-=gott5 talks :i* we _h _h toge!r1 dur+ m ?an a ?ird ( a c5tury1 ^u passages ( ,holy ,scripture4 ,aft] breakfa/ %e w5t to h] work%op & pa9t$ six l>ge titles2 & !n w5t d[n to ! piazza & pa9t$ a *air = ,hatty4 ,%e also assi/$ ! girls 9 wat]+ h] fl[]s4 ,%e came r\nd to ! back /oop ,?ursday morn+ 7"o ( ! s]vants told me aft]w>ds7 & ,i said to h]1 ',mis ,pr5tiss1 & h[ d'ye feel8' & %e said1 ',ell51 ,i feel weak1 b ,i %all be all "r :5 ,i get my /r5g?4' ,i /ill felt tr\bl$ ab\t h] hold+ ! ,bible-read+ & tri$ to dissuade h] f attempt+ x4 ,%e _h set h] he>t ^u x1 h[ev]1 & said t ! disappo9tm5t at giv+ x up w\ld be worse ?an ! ex]tion ( hold+ x4 ,h] prep>ation 0 all made2 ! ladies w\ld be !re1 "s ( !m f a di/ance1 expect+ to see h]1 & %e c\ld n be> to lose ! meet+4 ,s ,i yield$4 ,we 7 expect+ ,dr4 ,v9c5t by ! aft]noon tra9 & ,i 0 to g to ! /ation = him4 ,j z ,i 0 seat$ 9 ! c>riage & 0 ab\t to />t1 %e came out on ! por*1 already dress$ = ! ,bible-read+1 & ) an expression ( inf9ite sweetness1 half playful & half solemn1 po9t+ at me ) h] f+]1 said sl[ly3 ,y pray--"o--little--pray] = me4 ,nev] %all ,i =get t ar* expression--s lov+1 s spiritual1 & yet s /amp$ ) m>ks ( suff]+--! peculi> tones ( h] voice1 or t de> little ge/ure6 ,( h] la/ ,bible-read+ ! foll[+ brief acc\nt is prep>$ f ! recollections k9dly furni%$ me by sev]al ( ! ladies :o 7 pres5t3 ,,h] ,,la/ ,,bible-,,read+4 ,!re 0 some?+ v impressive 9 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' ,bible-read+s4 ,%e seem$ n unlike h] gift$ fa!r 9 ! p[] %e possess$ ( captivat+ ^? :o he>d h]4 ,h] mann] 0 p]fectly natural1 quiet1 & ev5 %y2 x evid5tly co/ h] consid]able ef=t to speak 9 ! pres5ce ( s _m li/5]s4 ,%e r>ely look$ r\nd or ev5 look$ up2 b a sort ( magnetic influ5ce attract$ e eye to h] & held all our he>ts 9 brea?less att5tion4 ,h] /yle 0 entirely conv]sational2 h] s5t5ces 7 %ort1 cle> z cry/al1 full ( happy turns1 & always fre% & to ! po9t4 ,! tones ( h] voice 7 peculi>2 ,i sc>cely "k h[ to describe !m2 !y _h su* a f9e1 subtle1 womanly quality1 7 t\*$--especially at ?is la/ read+--) su* t5d]ness & dep? ( feel+2 ,i only "k t z we he>d !m1 x 0 almo/ z if we 7 li/5+ to ! voice ( an angel6 ,& !y are1 ,i am sure1 e*o+ /ill 9 all our memories4 ,! fir/ glance at h]1 z %e ent]$ ! room1 a little be=e ?ree o'clock on ! #h? ( ,augu/1 %[$ t %e 0 n well4 ,h] eyes 7 unusually bright1 b ! m>ks ( rec5t or approa*+ illness 7 /amp$ ^u h] c\nt5ance4 ,x 0 light$ up1 inde$1 ) ev5 unwont$ animation & spiritual beauty2 b x _h also a pale & we>i$ look4 ,! read+ 0 usually op5$ ) a sil5t pray] & clos$ ) two or ?ree %ort oral pray]s4 ,! subject ?is aft]noon 0 ! la/ v]se ( ! fifte5? *apt] ( ! ,gospel accord+ to ,john3 ,& ye also %all be> witness1 because ye h be5 ) me f ! beg9n+4 ,witness+ = ,*ri/1 ?is 0 h] !me4 ,%e began by giv+ a v>iety ( ,scripture ref]5ces illu/rative ( ! nature & diff]5t =ms ( ,*ri/ian witness-be>+4 ,x 0 h] cu/om always to unfold ! topic ( ! read+1 & to v]ify h] own views ( x1 by copi\s & c>efully prep>$ citations f ! ,^w ( ,god4 ,a ,bible-read+1 z %e conduct$ x1 0 n m]ely a /udy ( a text1 or passage ( ,scripture1 by itself1 b /udy ( x 9 its vital relations to ! :ole tea*+ ( ! ,bible on ! subject 9 h&4 ,9 ! pres5t in/ance h] ref]5ces 7 all writt5 out & 7 s num]\s & s skilfully arrang$ t !y mu/ h co/ h] no little labor4 ,feel+1 app>5tly1 too feeble to read !m h]self1 %e turn$ to h] daught]1 :o sat by h] "m's side1 & reque/$ h] to d x4 ,aft] ! ref]5ces _h be5 giv5 & ! passages read1 %e w5t on to express h] own ?\ghts on ! subject4 ,&1 surely1 _h %e be5 fully consci\s t ?is 0 ! la/ opportunity %e w\ld ev] h ( ?us be>+ witness = ,*ri/1 h] words c\ld n h be5 m happily *os54 ,w\ld t !y c\ld be recall$ j z !y issu$ f h] own lips6 ,b x is n possible s to recall !m4 ,"o might z well try to reproduce ! sunset sc5e on ! ev5+ ( h] burial4 ,= ev5 if ! exact words c\ld be repeat$1 :o c\ld br+ back aga9 h] t5d]1 lov+ acc5ts1 or t /range e>ne/ness & unction f ! ,holy ,"o ) :i* !y 7 utt]$8 ,or :o c\ld br+ back aga9 ! awe-/ruck1 responsive emotions t ?rill$ our he>ts8 ,! simple/ outl9e ( ?is f>ewell talk is all t is n[ practicable4 ,_h we kn[n :at 0 com+1 our memories w\ld1 no d\bt1 h be5 r5d]$ !reby sev5fold m ret5tive1 & little t fell f h] lips w\ld h be5 lo/4 ,h] fir/ po9t 0 ! great v>iety ( ways 9 :i* we c be> witness = ,*ri/4 ,we c d x 9 private z well z 9 public2 & x is 9 ! private sph]es & famili> daily int]c\rse ( life t mo/ ( u are call$ to give ?is te/imony1 & to give x by manife/+ 9 ?is int]c\rse & 9 ^! retir$ sph]es ! _s ( our ,ma/]4 ,:at an opportunity does ! family1 = example1 af=d = con/ant & mo/ effective witness-be>+6 ,h[ a "m may honor ,*ri/ 9 :at %e says to h] *ildr5 ab\t ,him & especially by ! mann] 9 :i* %e fulfils h] e-day home duties6 ,h[ a wife may ?us te/ify ( ,*ri/ to h] worldly1 unconv]t$ husb&6 ,& "h %e spoke ( "o =m ( public te/imony :i* ev]ybody might & ought to give4 ,i c n 7%e said7 see all ! faces 9 ?is room b !re may be ^? "h :o h nev] confess$ ,*ri/ be=e m5 by unit+ ) ,8 visible *ur*4 ,let me tell any su* :o may be pres5t t !y are griev+ _! ,savi\r by refus+ to give ,him ?is te/imony ( _! love & devotion4 ,9 ref]r+ to ?is subject %e rem>k$ t "y p]sons1 aft] hav+ unit$ ) ! *ur*1 sometimes felt greatly di%e>t5$ & ?\ght !mselves ! wor/ ,*ri/ians 9 ! _w4 ,b ?is 0 (t5 a v wrong feel+4 ,_! s5se ( _! own weakness & unwor?9ess might come f ! ,holy ,com=t]2 & we %\ld be v c>eful h[ we treat ,him4 ,8 influ5ce is a v t5d]1 sacr$ ?+1 &1 l ! s5sitive plant1 recoils at ! t\* ( a rude h&4 ,i h want$1 %e said1 to speak *e]ful1 com=t+ words to y to-day4 ,x 0 ! p>ticul> desire ( my husb& ?is morn+ t ,i %\ld d s4 ,he ?\ght t "y ,*ri/ians1 especially1 ne$$ mu* enc\ragem5t on ?is po9t4 ,x 0 a great ?+ to lead !m to feel t !y c\ld please _! ,ma/] & be witnesses = ,him 9 quiet1 simple ways1 & t1 too1 e day ( _! lives4 ,our ,"l1 to be sure1 does n really ne$ our s]vices4 ,he c\ld q easily disp5se ) !m4 ,b ,he lets u "w = ,him some:at z a "m lets h] little *ild d ?+s = h]--n because %e ne$s ! *ild's help1 b because %e loves to see ! *ild try+ to please h]4 ,& yet1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 7ask$ "o ( ! ladies71 does !re n come a "t :5 ! *ild is really ( s]vice to ! "m8 ,i ?ank y = ! sugge/ion 7%e repli$72 ,i left my rem>k incomplete4 ,yes1 x is true su* a "t does come4 ,& s1 9 a c]ta9 s5se1 x may be said1 p]haps1 t ,god ne$s ! s]vices ( ,8 *ildr54 ,b h[ easily ,he c disp5se ) ! be/ & mo/ useful ( !m6 ,"o may seem to h a great task to p]=m 9 ! s]vice ( ! ,ma/]1 b 9 ! mid/ ( x he is tak5 away1 &1 :ile he is miss$1 ! "w ( ,god goes "r on4 ,god does n see su* a diff]5ce z we d1 %e said1 betwe5 :at we call great & small s]vices r5d]$ to ,him4 ,a cup ( cold wat] giv5 9 ,*ri/'s "n1 if t is all "o c give1 is j z acceptable z ! ri*e/ (f]+2 & s is a tea-spoonful1 if "o has no m to give4 ,*ri/ loves to be lov$2 & ! smalle/ te/imony ( real love is mo/ pleas+ to ,him4 ,& love %[n to "o ( ,8 suff]+ disciples ,he reg>ds z love to ,himself4 ,s a little *ild1 j c>ry+ a fl[] to "s poor invalid1 may ?us d ,*ri/ honor & become m ende>$ to ,him4 ,!re is no "o1 old or "y1 :o has n ! p[] ( bless+ o!r s\ls4 ,we all h f> m influ5ce1 bo? = good & evil1 ?an we dream (4 ,9 ! c\rse ( h] talk %e allud$ to ! trials ( life & ! %ortness ( !m at ! longe/4 ,we are all pass+ away1 "o aft] ano!r4 ,our intimate fri5ds w m\rn = u :5 we are gone1 b ! _w w move on j ! same4 ,& we %\ld n all[ ourselves to be tr\bl$ le/ :5 our "t comes we may be afraid to die4 ,dy+ grace is n usually giv5 until x is ne$$4 ,dea? to ! disciple ( ,jesus is only /epp+ f "o room to ano!r & f> bett] room ( our ,fa!r's h\se4 ,& h[ little all ! sorr[s ( ! way w seem to u :5 we get to our home above6 ,i suppose ,/4 ,paul1 amid/ ! bliss ( heav51 fairly laughs at ! ?\ght ( :at he suff]$ = ,*ri/ 9 ?is brief mom5t ( "t4 ,& z %e said ?is1 %e g5tly wav$ h] h& 9 ! way ( emphasis4 ,no "o ( u :o saw x w soon =get t little ge/ure6 ,9 "o "p ( h] rem>ks %e caution$ u aga9/ ha/y & h>% judgm5ts4 ,we %\ld cov] ) our *>ity ! faults & imp]fections ( ^? ab\t u1 z nature hides ) h] mossy cov]+ ! unsightly /one4 ,%e ref]r$ to ! case ( *ildr53 a *ild (t5 has a sweet disposition until five or six ye>s ( age & !n becomes v irritable & cross1 caus+ ! p>5ts mu* anxiety--&1 p]haps1 mu* impati5ce4 ,& yet x may n be ! *ild's fault at all2 b only ! effect ( ill-heal?1 too mu* /udy & conf9em5t1 or pure mismanagem5t4 ,a l>ge portion ( ! disob$i5ce & wrong temp] ( *ildr5 comes f improp] food or loss ( sleep1 or some?+ ( t sort4 ,& x is n cross fretful *ildr5 alone t ne$ to be judg$ t5d]ly4 ,a consumptive fri5d ( h]s1 r5d]$ n]v\s & weak by long sickness1 ^u be+ ask$ "o morn+1 z usual1 ab\t h] heal?1 repli$3 ,don't ask me aga9--,i feel z if ,i c\ld ?r[ ?is *air at y4 ,n[ ,i d n ?9k1 said ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 t ?is spee* 0 a s9 9 ! sight ( ,god4 ,he saw 9 x no?+ b ! poor invalid's irritable n]ves1 ,god judges u accord+ to ! ?\ghts & int5tions ( ! he>t2 & we ought1 z f> z possible1 to judge ea* o!r 9 ! same way4 ,& :5 we ourselves are ! ones really at fault1 we ought to confess x4 ,i nev] %all =get h[ humiliat$ ,i felt :5 my "m once came to me & ask$ my =giv5ess--b ,i lov$ h] t5 times z mu* = x4 ,pray] 0 ano!r po9t t\*$ ^u 9 ?is la/ ,bible-read+4 ,%e almo/ always _h some?+ fre% & /rik+ to say ab\t pray]4 ,x 0 "o ( h] favorite topics4 ,i recall two or ?ree ( h] rem>ks at ?is "t4 ,always move ! lips 9 pray]4 ,x helps to keep "o's ?\ghts f w&]+4 ,a "m c pray ) a sick *ild on h] lap m acceptably ?an to leave x alone 9 ord] to g & pray by h]self4 ,accu/om y\rself to turn all y\r wants1 c>es & trials into pray]4 ,if any?+ tr\bl$ or annoy$ my "m %e w5t /raight to ! 'sp>e room1' no matt] h[ cold ! wea!r1 & we *ildr5 knew x 0 to pray4 ,i %all nev] =get its influ5ce ov] me4 ,:5 a "q z to duty comes up1 ,i ?9k we c soon settle x 9 ?is way3 ',am ,i liv+ ne> to ,*ri/8 ,am ,i seek+ ,8 guidance8 ,am ,i r5\nc+ self 9 :at ,i und]take to d = ,him8' ,if we c say yes to ^! que/ions1 we may safely g into any pa? :]e duty lies4 ,we nev] dread to he> p pray :o pray truly & 9 ! ,_s4 ,!y may be unle>n$4 ,!y may be intellectually weak4 ,b if !y pray habitually 9 ! closet1 !y w edify out ( x4 ,su* is a poor1 meagre acc\nt ( ?is la/ preci\s ,bible-read+4 ,possibly "s ( ! ?+s "h record$ belong$ to previ\s read+s--?\gh ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss occasionally repeat$ rem>ks on po9ts to :i* %e atta*$ special importance4 ,"s good 7%e said7 w come ( ^! meet+s1 ,i feel sure4 ,x is impossible t y %\ld take s mu* pa9s1 & "s ( y put y\rselves to s mu* inconv5i5ce1 9 ord] to come "h & /udy toge!r ,god's ,^w--& ,8 bless+ n foll[4 ,! bless+ has already foll[$1 good measure1 press$ d[n & runn+ ov]1 & x w cont9ue to foll[ 9 days to come2 especially ! bless+s ( ?is la/ meet+1 :51 9 a /ra9 s sweet & t5d]--z ?\gh %e _h a new glimpse ( heav5 & ! he>t ( ,god--our belov$ & n[ sa9t$ tea*] urg$ u to be> witness = ,*ri/ & %[$ u s pla9ly h[ to d x4 ,at ! close ( ! meet+ %e look$ v pale & seem$ mu* exhau/$4 ,y are ill1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 said "o ( ! ladies1 di/ress$ by h] appe>ance4 ,yes1 %e said1 ,i am4 ,/ill1 x seem$ a great pleasure to h] to h met u once m4 ,nor c ,i help ?9k+ t1 ev5 if %e h]self _h no pres5tim5t ( :at 0 com+1 %e 0 yet l$ ( ! ,_s1 ! bless$ ,com=t]1 to hold ?is la/ ,bible-read+4 ,x 0 itself j su* a te/imony = ,*ri/ z fitly cr[n$ h] consecrat$ & beautiful life4 ,^u my return f ! /ation ) ,dr4 ,v9c5t %e met u on ! por*1 bade him welcome to ,dorset1 told him ) :at extraord9>y c>e ! girls _h made ready 8 room1 & appe>$ 9 excell5t spirits all ! re/ ( ! day4 ,:ile at tea %e express$ to ,dr4 ,v4 our regret t ,dr4 ,poor c\ld n h made 8 visit at ! same "t2 al?\gh1 to be sure1 !y might1 if toge!r1 h br\ght ! h\se d[n ^u our heads by ! explosions ( _! mir?4 ,%e !n relat$ "s amus+ anecdotes ( a que]1 crot*ety old dome/ic ( ours 9 ,new ,b$=d a ?ird ( a c5tury ago1 & ( h] delight :5 ,dr4 ,poor 7!n settl$ at ,fair ,hav51 opposite ,new ,b$=d7 got m>ri$1 because n[1 x 0 to be hop$1 he w\ld /ay at home ) 8 wife & n be com+ ov] all ! "t & dr9k+ up our tea6 ,on my ask+ h] ab\t ! ,bible-read+1 %e said %e got ?r\gh ) x v well1 express$ surprise at ! l>ge att5dance1 & spoke ( ! deep int]e/ manife/$4 ,aft] tea %e sat ) u 9 ! p>lor = "s "t & !n1 kiss+ ,m4 good-night1 omitt$ ,hatty & ! boys 7a mo/ unusual ?+71 rem>k+1 z %e left = h] *amb]1 ,well1 ,i'm n go+ to kiss all ?is roomful4 ,friday1 ,aug4#i?--,a sev]e ?und]-/orm _h set 9 e>ly la/ night & cont9u$ at %ort int]vals ?r\gh\t ! day4 ,%e 0 v anxi\s t ,dr4 ,v9c5t %\ld enjoy 8 visit1 & on 8 acc\nt 0 di/urb$ by ! wea!r2 o!rwise1 a ?und]-/orm seem$ to exhil>ate h]1 z is said to h be5 ! case ) h] fa!r4 ,%e sp5t mo/ ( ,friday 9 h] d51 f9i%+ a little picture & *att+ f "t to "t ) ! girls :o 7 busy 9 ! adjo9+ room4 ,dr4 ,v9c5t & ,i sat a "p ( ! =5oon on ! piazza "u h] w9d[ & :il$ away ! "t1 he 9 tell+ & ,i 9 li/5+ to any numb] ( amus+ /ories4 ,%e call$ ! att5tion ( ,m4 & ,h4 to our uncl]ical behavior3 ,j he> ^? doctors ( div9ity giggl+ l two s*oolgirls6 ,b nobody enjoy$ m an amus+ /ory1 or told "o ) m ze/ ?an %e did h]self4 ,i =get :e!r x 0 on ,friday1 or an e>li] day1 t %e %[$ me a rem>kable lett] %e _h receiv$1 dur+ my abs5ce at ! sea-side1 f ,london4 ,x 0 writt5 by a "y wife & "m ne>ly relat$ to two ( ! mo/ honor$ families ( ,engl&1 & s\ght h] c\nsel 9 ref]5ce to c]ta9 que/ions ( duty t _h gr[n out ( special dome/ic trials4 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 ! writ] said1 _h =m$ an era 9 h] religi\s life2 %e _h read x ?r\gh f fifty to sixty times2 x _h its place by ! side ( h] ,bible2 & no words c\ld express ! good x _h done h]1 or ! com=t %e _h d]iv$ f its pages4 ,! ,home at ,greylock _h also be5 ( great help to h] z a wife & "m2 & %e c\ld n b hope t "o ^: books _h be5 su* a bless+ to h]1 might be able to r5d] h] /ill great] & m direct aid by p]sonal c\nsel4 ,! lett]1 :i* 0 beautifully writt5 & 0 full ( ! mo/ grateful feel+s1 appeal$ v /rongly to h] sympa?y4 ,b x 0 nev] answ]$4 ,saturday1 ,aug4 #aj?--,%e _h a tol]able night1 b on com+ d[n to breakfa/ said1 9 reply to ,dr4 ,v9c5t's "q1 ,h[ %e felt8 ,i feel l bur/+ out cry+4 ,aft] pray]s1 h[ev]1 :5 ! plans = ! day 7 arrang$ & a drive to ,hag] brook--a picturesque m\nta9 gl5 & wat]fall--0 made ! ord] ( ! =5oon1 %e propos$ to g ) u4 ,i _h almo/ fe>$ to sugge/ x1 & yet 0 greatly reliev$ to f9d t %e felt able to take ! ride4 ,x 0 decid$1 !re=e1 t %e1 ,hatty ,k41 ,dr4 ,v9c5t & ,i %\ld =m ! p>ty4 ,z we drove t[>d ! village ,i notic$ t ,dr4 ,wyman 0 j /opp+ at our next neighbor's4 ,dr4 ,hem5way1 our old physician1 _h remov$ to ,/4 ,paul's1 & ,dr4 ,w4 _h tak5 8 place4 ,i 0 rejoic$ to see him1 bo? on h] acc\nt & my own4 ,i _h n be5 well myself dur+ ! week1 & al?\gh ,i _h repeat$ly propos$ to call 9 ! doctor = h]1 %e /\tly refus$4 ,s1 aft] gett+ a prescription = myself1 ,i said1 ,& n[1 doctor1 ,i want y to d some?+ = my wife1 relat+ to him h] ill-turn on ,monday4 ,c]ta9ly 7! doctor repli$7 %e ne$s "s ars5icum1 :i* he gave h]1 promis+ to call & see u on ! next ,monday4 ,z we rode on ,dr4 ,v9c5t sugge/$1 laugh+ly1 :at a /range /ory might be bas$ ^u ,dr4 ,w4's prescription4 ,i might report1 = example1 t ,i myself saw ! au?or ( ',/epp+ ,heav5w>d' eat+ ars5ic6 ,%e jo9$ he>tily 9 ! laugh & dur+ all ! re/ ( ! drive conv]s$ ) great animation4 ,%e relat$ sev]al anecdotes ( h] e>ly life1 talk$ ) admiration ( ! writ+s & g5ius ( ,mrs4 ,/[e--"o ,( ^: ,new ,engl& /ories %e _h j be5 read+--& seem$ exactly l h]self4 ,^u rea*+ ! brook 9 ,ea/ ,rup]t & />t+ ) ,dr4 ,v9c5t = ! gl51 ,i said to h]1 ,n[ don't walk (f out ( sight1 :]e ,i c't see y :5 we come back4 ,oh yes1 ,i %all1 %e repli$ 9 h] pleasant way4 ,aft] we 7 left alone t ,saturday morn+ 7,hatty writes7 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss ga!r$ q a bun* ( ! wild ag]atum1 & !n dug up ! roots ( ?ree wild clematis v9es ) h] scissors4 ,%e !n call$ my att5tion to ! ?imbleb]ry bu%es along ! edge ( ! brook1 admir+ ! foliage ( ! plant & express+ ! det]m9ation to h "o or m 9 h] g>d5 next ye>4 ,on com+ d[n f ! gl5 ,i f\nd h] sitt+ on ! gr\nd ne> ! brook4 ,tak+ h] by ! h&--= %e seem$ v tir$--,i help$ h] to rise & walk$ back ) h] t[>d ! c>riage4 ,j be=e rea*+ ! road %e saw "s clu/]s ( clematis on ! side ( ! brook1 :i* at h] desire ,i ga!r$4 ,x 0 ! la/ s]vice ( ! k9d ev] p]=m$ = h]1 & ,i am s ?ankful t no h&s b m9e 7 privileg$ to p]=m x6 ,dur+ ! drive home %e said almo/ no?+ & 01 evid5tly1 feel+ v mu* we>i$4 ,we return$ by ! ,we/ road & on pass+ 9 at our gate ,i obs]v$ t ,dr4 ,wyman's gig 0 /ill 9 front ( ,miss ,k5t's4 ,:y1 ,lizzy1 ,dr4 ,wyman is /ill "h1 said ,i4 ,!n1 ,i w\ld l to see him n[ r ?an wait till ,monday1 %e said1 to my surprise4 ,i w5t imm$iately & ask$ him to call4 ,x 01 ,i ?9k1 betwe5 elev5 & twelve o'clock4 ,he came v soon & %e receiv$ him 9 ! p>lor4 ,i notic$ at once t %e 0 extremely n]v\s & agitat$1 :ile expla9+ to him h] symptoms2 & n be+ able to recall "s po9t1 %e rem>k$ t h] m9d _h be5 mu* confus$ all ! week4 ,j !n %e rose ha/ily1 excus$ h]self1 & w5t up to h] room4 ,%e is v ill 7said ! doctor1 turn+ to me7 & mu/ g to b$ in/antly4 ,:ile he 0 prep>+ h] m$ic9es ,judge ,m4 & family f ,new ,york1 :o 7 soj\rn+ at ,man*e/]1 call$2 b le>n+ ( h] illness1 soon left4 ,lat] 9 ! day ,i told h] :o _h call$ & h[ mu* ,mrs4 ,m4 & ! "y ladies admir$ h] fl[]s1 especially ! portulacas4 ,%e seem$ pleas$ & said to me1 ,y _h bett]1 !n1 prep>e two little boxes ( portulacas & s5d !m ov] to ,mrs4 ,m4 to keep 9 h] w9d[s :ile %e /ays at ! ,equ9ox ,h\se4 ,a few days aft] h] dea? ,i did s & receiv$ a t\*+ note ( ?anks f ,mrs4 ,m4 ,z ! doctor direct$1 %e at once took to h] b$4 ,= an h\r or two h] pro/ration 0 extreme1 & %e ne>ly fa9t$4 ,h] head %ook & h] condition v]g$ on a collapse4 ,i rubb$ h] h&s vigor\sly1 gave h] a re/orative1 & gradually h] /r5g? return$4 ,9 speak+ ( ! attack %e said ! s5se ( weakness 0 s t]rible t %e w\ld gladly h di$ on ! spot4 ,9 ! c\rse ( ! aft]noon1 h[ev]1 %e 0 s mu* easi] t ! girls read to h] aga9 out ( ,boswell's ,johnson & %e seem$ to li/5 ) all ! old int]e/4 ,x pleas$ h] greatly to h !m read to h]2 & %e lov$ to talk ) !m ab\t ! books read & especially to discuss ! *>act]s depict$ 9 any ( !m4 ,t[>d ev5+ ,george br\ght 9 "s tr\t1 :i* he _h caught = h] out ( our brook4 ,h] appetite 0 exce$+ly poor1 b %e 0 v fond ( tr\t & ,g4 (t5 caught a little mess = h] supp]4 ,our brook nev] seem$ s de> to me1 nor did its rippl+ music ev] s\nd s sweet1 z :5 ,i did ! same ?+1 be=e he came home f ,pr9ceton & took ! privilege out ( my h&s4 ,:5 he br\ght 9 ! tr\t1 ,ell5 w5t to 8 "m's *amb] & ask$ if !y %\ld n be kept = breakfa/8 ,no1 !y are v nice & y _h bett] h !m = supp]4 ,%an't ,i save "s = y\r breakfa/8 ask$ ,ell51 kn[+ h[ fond %e 0 ( !m4 ,no1 said %e1 ! doctor says ,i mu/ take no?+ b beef-tea4 ,& d'ye feel bett]1 ,mis' ,pr5tiss8 cont9u$ ,ell54 ,oh ,i feel bett]1 ,ell51 b ,i'm v weak--,i %all be all "r 9 a few days4 ,aft] tea %e insi/$ on s5d+ = ,mrs4 ,s>ah ,c4 ,mit*ell1 ( ,philadelphia1 :om %e _h be5 unable to see on ! previ\s ,monday4 ,mrs4 ,m4 0 ! la/ p]son out ( ! family1 ) :om %e conv]s$1 except+ ! doctors & nurse4 #i ,sunday1 ,aug4 #aa?4--,%e slept bett] ?an ,i fe>$1 b awoke v feeble1 tak+ no n\ri%m5t except a little beef-tea4 ,%e lay quiet a "p ( ! "t2 b ! quiet int]vals grew %ort] & 7 foll[$ by mo/ di/ress+ attacks4 ,m4 & ,i sat by h] b$1 b c\ld d no?+ to relieve h]4 ,my fe>s _h n[ become ?or\ghly ar\s$ & ,i await$ ! arrival ( ! doctor ) ! mo/ int5se anxiety4 ,h\r aft] h\r ( ! morn+1 h[ev]1 pass$ sl[ly away & he did n come4 ,at l5g? a mess5g] br\ght ^w f ! ,we/ road1 :]e he _h be5 call$ at midnight1 t an urg5t telegram _h summon$ him to ,arl+ton & t he %\ld n be able to rea* ,dorset be=e "o or two o'clock ,p4,m4 ,! angui% ( ! susp5se dur+ ! next ?ree or f\r h\rs 0 some?+ dreadful4 ,:5 ! bell rang = *ur* %e desir$ t ,m4 %\ld g1 z ,dr4 ,v9c5t 0 to prea*1 & x w\ld give a little relief f ! /ra9 t 0 ^u h]4 ,soon aft] ,m4 _h left1 dur+ an int]val ( comp>ative ease1 %e fix$ h] eyes ^u me ) a mo/ t5d]1 lov+ expression1 & 9 a sort ( besee*+ tone1 said1 ,d>l+1 don't y ?9k y c\ld ask ! ,"l to let me g8 ,p]ceiv+1 no d\bt1 h[ ! "q affect$ me1 %e w5t on to give "s reasons = wi%+ to g4 ,%e spoke v sl[ly1 9 ! mo/ natural1 simple way1 & yet ) an indescribable e>ne/ness ( look & voice1 z if aw>e t %e 0 utt]+ h] dy+ words4 ,i c n recall all t %e said1 b its sub/ance1 & "s ( ! exact expressions1 are indelibly impress$ ^u my memory4 ,= my & ! *ildr5's sake %e _h be5 will+ & ev5 desir$ to live2 & = sev]al ye>s _h made extraord9>y ef=ts to keep up1 al?\gh mu* ( ! "t ! burd5 ( ill-heal?1 z ,i well knew1 _h be5 well-nigh insupportable4 ,s f> z ?is _w 0 conc]n$1 few p]sons 9 x _h su* reasons = wi%+ to live1 or s mu* to r5d] life attractive4 ,b ! feel+ 9 h] he>t _h become ov]p[]+ t no e>?ly happ9ess1 no int]e/1 no di/raction1 c\ld any long] satisfy h]1 or give h] cont5t1 away f ,*ri/2 & %e long$ to be ) ,him1 :]e ,he is4 ,dur+ ! pa/ ?ree mon?s especially1 %e _h pass$ ?r\gh v unusual ex]cises ( m9d ) ref]5ce to ?is subject2 & x seem$ to h] z if %e _h n[ rea*$ a po9t beyond :i* %e c\ld n g4 ,%e evid5tly _h 9 view ! dreadful sleeplessness1 to :i* %e _h be5 s 9 bondage = a qu>t] ( a c5tury1 ^: grasp _h become m & m rel5tless1 & ! effects ( :i* ^u h] n]v\s sy/em 7 su* z words c h>dly describe4 ,no human be+ b myself _h any conception ( h] suff]+1 bo? physical & m5tal1 f ?is cause4 ,to return to h] conv]sation4444 ,9 answ] to a "q :i* ,i put to h] lat]1 ab\t h] view ( heav5 & ( ! relation ( ! sa9ts 9 glory to _! old fri5ds !re & "h1 %e repli$1 9 sub/ance1 t to h] view heav5 is be+ ) ,*ri/ & to be ) ,*ri/ is heav54 ,by ?is %e did n mean1 ,i am sure1 to imply any d\bt respect+ ! immortality ( ,*ri/ian love & fri5d%ip1 or t our individual human affections w survive ! grave4 ,(t5 _h %e delight$ h]self 9 ! ?\ght ( meet+ h] sa9t$ fa!r & "m 9 heav51 ( meet+ !re ,eddy & ,bessie & o!r de> ones :o _h gone be=e2 & c]ta9 ,i am1 too1 %e believ$ t ^? :o are gone be=e reta9 _! peculi> int]e/ 9 ^? :o are toil+ aft]1 only h] m9d 0 s absorb$ 9 ! ?\ght ( ! pres5ce & beatific vision ( ,*ri/ 9 ,8 glory t1 = ! mom5t1 x 0 lo/ to ev]y?+ else4 ,%e !n said t1 9 ! ev5t ( h] dea?1 %e w\ld l to be buri$ 9 ,dorset1 :]e we c\ld easily visit h] grave4 ,b ,i d n expect to g n[1 %e add$4 ,?is meant1 z ,i int]pret x1 t %e reg>d$ s spe$y a dep>ture to be ) ,*ri/ z some?+ too good to be true4 ,repeat$ly1 :5 v ill1 %e _h ?\ght h]self on ! v]ge ( heav5 & _h be5 call$ back to e>?1 & %e fe>$ x w\ld be s n[4 ,h>dly _h ?is nev]-to-be-=gott5 conv]sation come to a close :5 h] feet ent]$ ! swell+ ( ,jordan1 & f\nd no re/ until !y walk$ ! sweet fields beyond4 ,h] disease 7ga/ro-ent]itis7 return$ ) great viol5ce2 ! m$ical appliances seem$ to h little or no effect2 & ! p>oxysms ( pa9 7 excruciat+4 ,a *ill1 also1 began to creep ov] h]4 ,ab\t two o'clock1 to my inexpressible relief1 ! doctor arriv$4 ,h] fir/ ?\ght 0 t he %\ld re/ a little & t "s ice-cream %\ld be br\ght to him4 ,9 answ] to 8 inquiries %e told him t %e _h nev] kn[n agony su* z %e _h endur$ t =5oon1 & he imm$iately appli$ rem$ies adapt$ to ! case4 ,b !y af=d$ only tempor>y relief4 ,a t]rible re/lessness seiz$ ^u h] & w\ld n let g its hold4 ,t[>ds ev5+ %e got into ! sea-*air1 & rema9$ 9 x ne> ! op5 w9d[ until morn+4 ,on leav+ = ! night ,dr4 ,wyman intru/$ h] to ! c>e ( ,dr4 ,slocum1 :o _h rec5tly come to ,dorset4 ,dr4 ,s4 rema9$ ) h] all night & 0 indefatigable 9 try+ to alleviate h] suff]+s4 ,h[ k9d he is6 %e said to me once :5 he _h left ! room4 ,m4 sat up ) me till t[>ds morn+ & assi/$ 9 giv+ ! m$ic9es4 ,h] di/ress c\ld only be assuag$ by inhal+ *lor(orm e few m9utes & by ! con/ant use ( ice4 ,z f "t to "t1 go+ d[n = ! ice1 ,i /epp$ out on ! piazza1 ! sc5e t met my eye 0 9 /range contra/ to ! "o ,i _h j left4 ,)9 ! sick-*amb] x 0 a night d>k ) suff]+ & anxiety2 z ! h\rs pass$ sl[ly away1 my he>t almo/ di$ 9 ! %ad[ ( ! com+ ev5t2 all 0 gloom & agitation except ! sweet pati5ce ( ! suff]]4 ,b ! beauty & /illness ( ! night out ( doors 0 some?+ m>vell\s4 ,! light ( ! great h>ve/ moon 0 l ! light ( ! sun4 ,x flood$ hills & valley ) its spl5dor4 ,! outl9es ( ea* m\nta91 ( e tree1 & ( all visible objects1 f> or ne>1 7 z di/9ct z ^? ( ! />s1 or ( ! moon itself4 ,z ,i /ood & gaz$ ^u ! inf9ite beauty ( ! sc5e1 ,i felt1 z nev] 9 my life be=e1 h[ helpless is ,nature 9 ! pres5ce ( a great tr\ble4 ,! beauty ( ! night 0 fully mat*$ by t ( ! morn+4 ,z ! fir/ rays ( ! sun cross$ ! m\nta9s & %one d[n ^u ! valley1 ,i said to myself1 ev5 :ile my he>t 0 rack$ ) anxi\s =ebod+--,h[ wond]ful6 ,h[ wond]ful6 ,monday1 ,aug4 #ab?4--,= "s h\rs %e seem$ mu* m com=table1 &1 9 ! c\rse ( ! morn+1 ( h] own accord1 0 remov$ f ! *air to ! b$4 ,on ,monday morn+ 7writes ,dr4 ,wyman7 ,i f\nd h] ) temp]ature ne>ly normal1 pulse less ?an #ajj1 & o!r symptoms improv$4 ,?is gave u hope t ! wor/ 0 pass$1 b x 0 only ! lull be=e ! /orm4 ,%e 0 = ! mo/ "p quiet & took little notice ( any?+ t 0 go+ on4 ,dur+ ! =5oon ,m4 tri$ to get "s re/ 9 ! sea-*air by ! w9d[1 :ile ,hatty kept h] place by ! b$4 ,sev]al times ,lizzy look$ r\nd ! room z if 9 que/ ( "s "o4 ,hatty p]ceiv+ ?is & guess+ :at x meant1 /epp$ aside 7%e 0 betwe5 ! b$ & ! *air s z to int]cept ! view71 :5 %e fix$ h] eyes ^u ,m4 & re/$ z if %e _h f\nd :at %e s\ght4 ,hav+ be5 up mo/ ( ! night1 ,i also tri$ to get a little re/ 9 ano!r room1 & lat] w5t out 9 se>* ( a nurse & engag$ an excell5t "o1 ,mrs4 ,c41 :o came e>ly 9 ! aft]noon4 ,not)/&+ my deep anxiety ,i 0 deceiv$ by ! m favorable symptoms1 & did n all[ myself1 dur+ ! day1 to ?9k %e w\ld n recov]4 ,9 ! e>ly ev5+ ,i wrote to ,a41 :o 0 abs5t 9 ,ma9e3 ,i am sorry to say t y\r "m _h a v try+ day ye/]day & has be5 extremely weak & exhau/$ to-day4444 ,n]v\s pro/ration appe>s to be ! great tr\ble4 ,%e has re/$ quietly mu* ( ! "t to-day & ! m$ic9es seem to be do+ _! "w2 & 9 a c\ple ( days1 ,i tru/1 %e may be greatly improv$4 ,y "k h[ ^! ill-turns upset h] & h[ quickly %e (t5 rallies f !m4 ,%e is v anxi\s y %\ld n %ort5 y\r visit on h] acc\nt4 ,soon aft] ?is lett] 0 writt51 ! :ole aspect ( ! case sudd5ly *ang$4 ,! unfavorable symptoms _h return$ ) r5ew$ viol5ce4 ,dr4 ,w4 ask$ h]1 dur+ "o ( ! p>oxysms1 ab\t ! pa94 ,%e answ]$ t x 0 n a pa9--x 0 a di/ress1 an agony4 ,b f fir/ to la/ %e nev] utt]$ a groan--n dur+ ! %>pe/ p>oxysms ( di/ress4 ,%e seem$ to say to h]self1 9 ! words ( two favorite ,g]man mottoes1 :i* %e _h illum9$ & plac$ on ! wall ov] h] b$1 ,g$uld1 ,me9 ,h]z6 7,pati5ce1 ,my ,he>t67--,/ille1 ,me9 ,wille6 7,/ill1 ,my ,w67 ,! pati5t & uncompla9+ mann]1 writes ,dr4 ,wyman1 9 :i* ! mo/ agoniz+ pa9s :i* x has ev] be5 my lot to witness 7 borne--) no rep9+1 no murmur1 no fretfulness1 b quiet1 peaceful submission to endure & suff]--w n soon be =gott54 ,at elev5 o'clock1 :5 ! doctor left1 ,i s5t ! nurse away = a c\ple ( h\rs re/ & took h] place by ! sick-b$4 ,lizzy1 :o _h already begun to feel ! effects ( ! morph9e1 lay motionless1 & brea!d some:at heavily1 b n al>m+ly s4 ,tuesday1 ,aug4 #ac?4--,%ortly aft] "o o'clock ,i call$ ! nurse &1 direct+ h] to summon me at once 9 ! ev5t ( any *ange1 retir$ to ! gre5-room = a little re/4 ,! girls _h be5 p]suad$ be=e ! doctor left1 to ?r[ !mselves on _! b$4 ,ev]y?+ 0 quiet until ab\t ?ree o'clock1 :5 ,hatty knock$ at my door ) a message f ! nurse4 ,i hurri$ d[n & saw at ! fir/ glance z ,i ent]$ ! room1 t a great *ange _h tak5 place4 ,x seem$ z if ,i he>d ! crack ( doom & t ! _w 0 ( a sudd5 go+ to pieces4 ,i w5t to ,g4's room1 woke him1 told him :at ,i fe>$1 & desir$ him to g = ,dr4 ,slocum z quickly z possible4 ,he 0 dress$ 9 an in/ant1 z x 71 & gone4 ,9 ! meantime ,i woke ,h41 & told him 8 "m1 ,i fe>$1 0 dy+4 ,:5 ,dr4 ,slocum arriv$ he felt h] pulse1 look$ at h] & li/5$ to h] brea?+ = a m9ute or two1 & !n1 turn+ sl[ly to me1 said1 ,x is dea?6 ,?is 0 n f> f f\r o'clock4 ,i ask$ if ,i _h bett] s5d at once = ,dr4 ,wyman8 ,he c d no?+ = h]1 0 ! reply1 b y _h bett] s5d4 ,i reque/$ ,g4 to call ,alb]t1 & tell him to g = ,dr4 ,w4 z fa/ z possible4 ,i w saddle ,pr9ce & g myself1 ,g4 said2 & 9 a few m9utes he 0 rid+ rapidly t[>ds ,factory ,po9t4 ,i !n knock$ at ,dr4 ,poor's door4 ,^u op5+ x & be+ told :at 0 com+1 he 0 s completely /unn$ t he c\ld ) difficulty utt] a ^w4 ,he _h arriv$ ! previ\s aft]noon on ! same tra9 by :i* ,dr4 ,v9c5t left4 ,i _h tri$ by telegraph to prev5t 8 com+2 b a k9d ,provid5ce s ord]$ x t my message rea*$ ,burl+ton1 :]e he _h be5 on a visit1 j aft] he _h />t$ = ,dorset4 ,! night1 l t ( ,sunday1 0 z day = brightness4 ,nev] %all ,i =get its wondr\s beauty1 al?\gh x seem$ only a mock]y ( my di/ress4 ,soon aft] ! fir/ rays ( ! sun appe>$1 ,dr4 ,wyman came1 b only to repeat1 ,x is dea?4 ,i ask$ him h[ long %e might be a dy+4 ,p]haps sev]al h\rs2 b %e may drop away at any mom5t4 ,we all ga!r$ ab\t h] b$ & wat*$ ! ebb+ tide ( life4 ,! girls 7 already kneel+ toge!r on ! left side4 ,!y nev] *ang$ _! po/ure = m ?an f\r h\rs2 !y wept1 b made no noise4 ,! boys /ood at ! foot ( ! b$1 deeply mov$1 b calm & self-possess$4 ,! /ra9 0 fe>ful2 & yet x 0 reliev$ by bless$ ?\ghts & consolations4 ,al?\gh ! *amb] ( dea?1 x 0 ! *amb] ( peace1 & a light n ( e>? %one d[n ^u u all4 ,he :o 0 se5 walk+1 unhurt1 9 ! mid/ ( ! fire & ^: =m 0 l ! ,son ( ,god1 seem$ to ov]%ad[ u ) ,8 pres5ce4 ,z ! end drew ne>1 we all knelt toge!r & my old fri5d1 ,dr4 ,poor1 comm5d$ ! dep>t+ _s to ,god & invok$ = u1 :o 7 ab\t to be s heavily b]eav$1 ! solace & support ( ! bless$ ,com=t]4444 ,! brea?+ _h n[ gr[n sl[] & less convulsive1 & at l5g? became g5tle almo/ l t ( "o asleep2 ! di/ress$ look *ang$ into a look ( sweet repose2 ! eyes %ut2 ! lips clos$2 & ! :ole sc5e recall$ h] own l9es3 ,oh1 :]e are words to tell ! joy unpric$ ,( ! ri* he>t1 t brea/+ waves no m1 ,drifts ?us to %ore1 ,lad5 ) peace & t5d+ unto ,*ri/6 ,ab\t half-pa/ sev5 x became evid5t t ! mortal /ruggle 0 on ! po9t ( end+4 ,= sev]al m9utes we c\ld sc>cely tell :e!r %e /ill liv$ or n2 & at tw5ty m9utes be=e eight %e drew "o long brea? & all 0 ov]4 ,aga9 we knelt toge!r1 & 9 our behalf ,dr4 ,poor gave ?anks to ,almighty ,god = ! bless$ sa9t n[ at re/ 9 ,him--& = all %e _h be5 to u & all %e _h done = ,him1 ?r\gh ! grace ( ,*ri/ h] ,savi\r4 ,! foll[+ acc\nt ( ! burial 0 writt5 by ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,v9c5t & appe>$ 9 ! ,new ,york ,evangeli/3 ,,dorset1 ,,vt4 ,augu/ #af1 #ahgh4 ,?is lovely valley has be51 = ! pa/ few days1 a valley ( ! %ad[4 ,x is n ! lea/ significant tribute to "o s widely kn[n z ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss1 t h] dea? has affect$ ) su* real sorr[1 & ) su* a deep s5se ( loss1 ?is little rural community :i* has be5 h] home dur+ a l>ge "p ( ! la/ t5 ye>s4 ,x w\ld h be5 h>d to f9d among all :o ga!r$ at ! fun]al s]vices on ,w$nesday1 a face :i* did n be> ! m>ks ( true sorr[ & ( t5d] sympa?y2 :ile f ! gr\ps ( sunburn$ f>m]s ga!r$ r\nd ! door or walk+ t[>ds ! cemet]y1 7 (t5 he>d ! words a great loss4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! fun]al took place at ! h\se on ,w$nesday aft]noon1 & 0 conduct$ by ! ,rev4 ,p4 ,s4 ,pratt1 pa/or ( ! old ,congregational ,*ur* ( ,dorset2 assi/$ by ,dr4 ,v9c5t1 & ,dr4 ,d4 ,w4 ,poor4 ,mr4 ,pratt read ! tw5ty-?ird ,psalm & a "p ( ! f\rte5? *apt] ( ,john1 :i* 0 foll[$ by ! hymn1 ,o gift ( gifts1 ,o grace ( fai?1 aft] :i* ,dr4 ,poor deliv]$ a mo/ appropriate1 t5d]1 & int]e/+ address4 ,dr4 ,v9c5t !n (f]$ pray]1 & ! hymn ,ne>]1 my ,god1 to ,!e1 0 sung1 clos+ ! s]vices at ! h\se4 ,! l>ge assemblage pass$ 9 succession by ! casket1 :]e lay su* an image ( p]fect re/ z "o is r>ely favor$ to see4 ,all traces ( /ruggle & pa9 _h fad$ f ! expressive face1 & no?+ 0 left b ! sweetness ( et]nal repose4 ,x 0 n[ a little aft] six o'clock1 & ! %ad[s 7 l5g!n+ 9 ! valley at ! close ( "o ( ^? r>e days ( ! ripe summ]1 :i* only ! hill-c\ntries develop 9 _! p]fect lovel9ess4 ,! long procession mov$ f ! h\se1 & at ! di/ance ( ab\t a qu>t] ( a mile ent]$ ! little cemet]y2 & z x m\nt$ ! slope on :i* 0 ! grave1 ! sc5e 0 "o ( mo/ pa!tic beauty4 ,/&+ 9 ! %ad[ ( ! hills :i* b\nd ! valley on ! ea/1 ! eye rang$ s\?w>d to ! long1 undulat+ outl9e ( ! ,gre5 ,m\nta91 com+ r\nd to ! ,equ9ox range on ! we/1 muffl$ ?ick to its v cre/ ) ! gre5 maples & p9es1 & /ill f>!r r\nd to ! bold hills & slop+ upl&s on ! nor?4 ,bel[ lay ! quiet village1 at our feet ,god's acre1 ) ! tra9 ( m\rn]s w9d+ among ! :ite /ones4 ,:o c\ld /& !re1 compass$ ab\t by ! m\nta9s1 & 9 ! %ad[ ( t great sorr[1 & n :isp] ! words ( ! ,pilgrim ,psalm1 ,i w lift up m9e eyes unto ! hills4 ,:5ce %\ld help come to me8 ,my help come? f ,jehovah1 :o made heav5 & e>?4 ,z ! casket 0 borne to ! grave1 ! sett+ sun1 :i* = ! la/ half h\r _h be5 hidd5 by a mass ( cl\ds1 bur/ out 9 full spl5dor1 gild+ ! m\nta9-tops & %$d+ 8 p>t+ rays ^u ! gr\p ar\nd ! tomb1 ! /rick5 family1 ! weep+ neighbors & fri5ds1 especially ! wom5 :om = "s ye>s pa/ %e _h be5 9 ! habit ( meet+ at h] weekly ,bible-read+1 & "s ( :om _h walk$ ea* week = miles along ! m\nta9 roads1 ?r\gh /orm & heat1 to dr9k ( ! liv+ wat]s :i* fl[$ at h] t\*4 ,dr4 ,v9c5t1 hold+ 9 8 h& a little1 well-worn volume1 & /&+ at ! foot ( ! grave1 spoke sub/antially z foll[s3 ,i am glad1 my fri5ds1 t ,i am n "o ( ^? :o "k ,god only z !y f9d ,him id5tifi$ ) ! woods & fields & /reams4 ,if ?is 7 s1 ,i %\ld turn f ! grave ( ?is belov$ fri5d1 & g my way 9 utt] he>t-sickness & hopelessness2 = ,nature w\ld b mock me to-day ) h] fulness ( summ] life4 ,^! =e/-clad m\nta9s1 t wav+ gra91 ^? woods1 pulsat+ ) ! hum ( insects & ) ! song ( birds1 all speak ( life1 :ile we /& "h at ! close ( a preci\s & useful human life1 to lay 9 ! du/ all t rema9s ( :at 0 s de>1 & s fruitful 9 good4 ,b1 ?anks to ,god1 we are n "h z ^? :o face an insoluble riddle4 ,we believe 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 & 9 ! resurrection ( ! dead2 & ) ?is key 9 our h&1 we /& "h at ! grave's m\?1 & look+ backw>d1 int]pret ! lesson ( ?is clos$ life2 & look+ =w>d1 gaze ) hope into ! future4 ,?us ,nature becomes our consol] in/ead ( our mock]2 a type1 & n a contradiction ( human immortality4 ,?us1 & only ?us1 d we f9d ourselves at ! /&po9t f :i* ,*ri/ view$ nature :5 ,he said1 ,except a corn ( :eat fall into ! gr\nd & die x abide? alone2 b if x die1 x br+e? =? mu* fruit2 ! /&po9t f :i* ,paul view$ nature :5 he wrote1 ,t :i* ?\ s[e/ is n quick5$ except x die2 & t :i* ?\ s[e/1 ?\ s[e/ n t body :i* %all be1 b b>e gra91 x may *ance ( :eat1 or ( "s o!r gra92 b ,god give? x a body z ,he wille?1 & to e se$ 8 own body4 ,s also is ! resurrection ( ! dead4 ,x is s[n 9 corruption1 x is rais$ 9 incorruption4 ,x is s[n 9 di%onor1 x is rais$ 9 glory4 ,x is s[n 9 weakness1 x is rais$ 9 p[]4 ,x is s[n a natural body1 x is rais$ a spiritual body4 ,& ?us too we c und]/& ! words :i* ,i read f ?is little volume1 ! daily companion ( our fri5d = _m ye>s1 conta9+ a passage ( ,scripture = e day 9 ! ye>1 & m>k$ ev]y:]e ) h] notes ( special anniv]s>ies & memorable incid5ts4 ,0 x m]ely an accid5tal co9cid5ce t1 on ! morn+ ( ! ?irte5? ( ,augu/1 on :i* %e ex*ang$ e>? = heav51 ! passage = ! day 01 ,i he>d a voice f heav5 say+ unto me1 ,write1 ,bless$ are ! dead :i* die 9 ! ,"l1 f h5ce=?1 yea1 sai? ! ,_s1 t !y may re/ f _! labors1 & _! works d foll[ !m4 ,!re are two ?\ghts 9 ?is v]se :i* seem to me to be fraught ) com=t & hope to u z we ga!r r\nd ?is grave4 ,!re is ! ?\ght ( re/4 ,!y re/ f _! labors4 ,be?9k y ( ! long life m>k$ by ! discipl9e ( sorr[1 & by ^? unwe>i$ labors = o!rs4 ,be?9k y ( ! rack+ agony ( ! la/ two days2 & h[ bless$1 h[ soo?+ ! contra/ introduc$ by ! words--,%e re/s f h] labors4 ,/ill is ! busy h&2 at re/ ! active bra92 complet$ ! discipl9e2 ! pa9 end$ =ev]4 ,! o!r ?\ght is t h] "w is n done1 s f> z its results are conc]n$4 ,_! works d foll[ !m4 ,?9k y t because %e w no long] meet y 9 h] weekly ,bible-read+s1 because h] p5 w no m indite ! ?\ghts :i* h made s _m pati5t "u life's burd5s1 & help$ s _m to make ( _! burd5s /eps on :i* to m\nt heav5w>d--?9k y h] "w is end$8 ,nay4 ,g into yond] field1 & pluck a s+le head ( :eat1 & plant ! gra9s1 & y "k t out ( ea* gra9 :i* falls into ! gr\nd & dies1 !re %all spr+ up an hundr$-fold4 ,%all y recognise s mu* multiply+ p[] 9 a corn ( :eat1 & n disc]n ! inf9itely great] p[] ( multiplication enfold$ 9 a holy life & 9 a holy ?\ght8 ,no4 ,?r\gh ! long ye>s 9 :i* h] mortal rema9s %all be quietly re/+ b5ea? ?is sod1 ! "w ( h] tongue & p5 %all be reproduc+ itself 9 new =ms ( p[]1 ( fai?1 & ( pati5ce4 ,& yet we seem to want some?+ m ?an ^! two ?\ghts give u4 ,x does n satisfy u to contemplate only re/ f labor & ! p]petuat$ fruits ( labor4 ,& t some?+ ?is same little volume gives u 9 ! words appo9t$ = ?is day1 on :i* we commit h] mortal "p to ! grave3 ,= ,god is n unrighte\s to =get y\r "w & labor ( love1 :i* ye h %[$ t[>d ,8 "n1 9 t ye h m9i/]$ to ! sa9ts & d m9i/]4 ,be n slo?ful1 b foll[]s ( !m :o1 ?r\gh fai? & pati5ce1 inh]it ! promises4 ,"h ! veil is lift$1 & we get ! glimpse we want ( h] inh]itance & rew>d 9 heav54 ,%e has inh]it$ ! promises2 su* promises z ^!3 ,if *ildr51 !n heirs1 heirs ( ,god1 & jo9t-heirs ) ,*ri/2 if s be t we suff] ) ,him1 t we may be also glorifi$ toge!r4 ,!y %all hung] no m1 nei!r ?ir/ any m1 nei!r %all ! sun light on !m1 nor any heat2 = ! ,lamb :i* is 9 ! mid/ ( ! ?rone %all fe$ !m1 & %all lead !m to liv+ f\nta9s ( wat]s1 & ,god %all wipe away all te>s f _! eyes4 ,!y %all see ,8 face1 & ,8 "n %all be 9 _! =eheads4 ,to him t ov]come? w ,i grant to sit ) me 9 my ?rone1 ev5 z ,i also ov]came1 & am set d[n ) my ,fa!r 9 ,8 ?rone4 ,?us we commit ?is mortal body to ! gr\nd 9 hope1 & ) assurances ( victory4 ,oh1 x is "o ( ! mo/ wond]ful ( facts1 t at ! grave's v portal1 amid all ! te>s & desolation :i* dea? br+s1 we c /& & s+ hymns ( triumph--ev5 t song :i*1 f ! morn+ :5 ! angels met ,m>y at ! ,"l's empty supul*re1 has be5 s\nd+ ov] ! graves ( ! dead 9 ,*ri/--,o dea?1 :]e is ?y /+8 ,o grave1 :]e is ?y victory8 ,! /+ ( dea? is s92 & ! /r5g? ( s9 is ! law2 b ?anks be to ,god1 :o give? u ! victory ?r\gh our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 ,h[ sweet1 h[ impressive1 is ?is sc5e6 ,no wond] t we l+] "h :ile ,nature1 at ?is ev5+ h\r1 speaks to u s t5d]ly & beautifully ( re/4 ,ev5 z yond] cl\ds break f ! sett+ sun1 & are t+$ ) glory by its p>t+ beams1 s our sorr[ is illum9$ by ?is tru? ( ! ,resurrection4 ,!re is no t]ror 9 dea?1 & reliev$ by su* a fai? & hope1 our ?\ghts are all ( peace1 & fl[ naturally into ! m\ld ( ^? famili> l9es3 ,s fades a summ] cl\d away1 ,s s9ks ! gale :5 /orms are o'er1 ,s g5tly %uts ! eye ( day1 ,s dies a wave along ! %ore4 ,b ?is sc5e is adapt$ also to k9dle aspiration 9 our he>ts-- aspiration to be foll[]s ( !m :o1 ?r\gh fai? & pati5ce1 inh]it ! promises4 ,h] victory ov] dea? is ! victory ( love to ,*ri/2 & t same victory may be y\rs ?r\gh ! same ,*ri/ 9 ^: "n %e conqu]$4 ,%all we n pray t ,8 love may be %$ abroad 9 all our he>ts 9 ri*] measure8 ,& c we bett] frame t pray] ?an 9 ^? l9es :i* %e wrote out ( h] own he>t8 ,let u !n s+ ,,m ,,love ,,to ,,!e1 ,o ,,*ri/4 ,m love1 ,o ,*ri/1 to ,!e6 ,he> ,?\ ! pray] ,i make ,on b5d$ knee3 ,?is is my e>ne/ plea1-- ,m love1 ,o ,*ri/1 to ,!e6 ,m love1 ,o ,*ri/1 to ,!e6 ,m love to ,!e4 ,once e>?ly joy ,i crav$1 ,s\ght peace & re/2 ,n[ ,!e alone ,i seek2 ,give :at is be/6 ,?is all my pray] %all be1-- ,m love1 ,o ,*ri/1 to ,!e6 ,m love to ,!e4 ,let sorr[ d its "w1 ,s5d grief & pa92 ,sweet are ,?y mess5g]s1 ,sweet _! refra91 ,:5 !y c s+ ) me ,m love1 ,o ,*ri/1 to ,!e6 ,m love to ,!e4 ,!n %all my late/ brea? ,:isp] ,?y praise6 ,?is be ! p>t+ cry ,my he>t %all raise1 ,?is /ill its pray] %all be1 ,m love1 ,o ,*ri/1 to ,!e6 ,m love to ,!e4 ,aft] ! s++ ( ^! words1 ,mr4 ,pratt1 accord+ to ! old c\ntry cu/om1 return$ ?anks to ! assembl$ fri5ds 9 ! "n ( ! family1 = _! sympa?y & aid 9 ! burial ( _! dead4 ,! sev]al memb]s ( ! h\sehold ea* laid a floral (f]+ ^u ! casket lid1 & ! body 0 l[]$ into ! grave4 ,dr4 ,v9c5t utt]$ ! solemn words ( committal to ! du/1 & ,dr4 ,poor pron\nc$ ! p>t+ bless+ 9 ! words1 ,! ,god ( peace :o br\ght aga9 f ! dead our ,"l ,jesus1 t ,great ,%eph]d ( ! %eep1 ?r\gh ! blood ( ! ,ev]la/+ ,cov5ant1 make y p]fect 9 e good "w to d ,8 w1 work+ 9 y t :i* is well-pleas+ 9 ,8 sight1 ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/1 to :om be glory =ev] & ev]4 ,am54 ,?us ! valley ( ! %ad[ has be5 irradiat$4 ,to ^? :o h be5 p]mitt$ to p>ticipate 9 ^! clos+ sc5es1 x has seem$ l /&+ at heav5's gate4 ,! valley ( ! %ad[ has become a transfiguration m\nta91 :]e we h se5 ! ,"l4 99 99 99 99 99 ,h>dly _h ! news ( h] dea? left ,dorset :5 !re began to p\r 9 ^u its /rick5 h\sehold a /ream ( ! t5d]e/ ,*ri/ian sympa?y2 nor did ! /ream cease until x _h br\ght lov+ messages f ! remote/ p>ts ( ! l&4 ,h] fri5ds seem$ ov]come ) special wond] t %e c\ld h di$1 s vividly 0 %e associat$ 9 _! ?\ghts ) life & sunlight4 ,= mon?s1 too1 aft] ! return ( ! family to _! city home1 lett]s f f> & ne> cont9u$ to be> witness to ! m+l$ emotions ( sorr[ & ( ?anksgiv+ excit$ by h] sudd5 dep>ture f e>?--sorr[ = a great p]sonal loss2 ?anksgiv+ t %e _h gone to be =ev] ) ! ,"l4 ,a little volume ( selections f ^! v>i$ te/imonies w\ld =m a v t\*+ & preci\s tribute to h] memory4 ,! human he>t1 to use h] own words1 0 made by s delicate1 s cunn+ a h&1 t x ne$s less ?an a brea? to put x out ( tune2 & an invisible t\*1 kn[n only to its own consci\sness1 may set all its silv]y bells to r++ out a joy\s *ime4 ,happy he1 ?rice bless$ %e1 :o is /riv+ to hu% its discords & to awak5 its h>monies by nev] s imp]ceptible a motion6 ,surely1 ! triple b5$iction belong$ to h]4 ,already t5s ( ?\s&s1 bo? "y & old1 :o nev] saw h] face1 b h be5 aid$ & *e]$ by h] writ+s1 gladly call h] ?rice bless$4 ,may ?is /ory ( h] life s]ve to increase _! numb] & s to r5d] h] "n de>] /ill4 ,above all1 may x help to inspire "s o!r s\ls ) h] own impassion$ & ador+ love to our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/4 #a ,%e 0 specially t\*$ by ! sudd5 decease ( ,mrs4 ,h>riet ,woolsey ,hodge1 ( ,philadelphia1 to :om bo? = h] "m's & h] own sake %e 0 w>mly atta*$4 #b ,j4 ,clevel& ,cady1 ! di/+ui%$ ar*itect4 #c ,mrs4 ,anto9ette ,donaghe di$ at ,/aunton1 ,va41 ,april #ad1 #ahhb4 ,h] la/ ye>s 7 pass$ amid great bodily suff]+s1 :i* %e bore ) ! pati5ce ( a sa9t4 ,%e 0 a woman ( uncommon excell5ce1 a true ,*ri/ian lady1 & mu* ende>$ to a wide circle ( fri5ds 9 ,new ,hav51 ,new ,york1 & else:]e4 ,h] husb&1 ,mr4 ,james ,donaghe1 a mo/ wor?y man1 = _m ye>s a prom95t citiz5 ( ,new ,hav51 di$ on ! #a/ ( ,janu>y1 #ahgh4 ,he & ,mrs4 ,donaghe 7 among ! orig9al memb]s ( ! ,*ur* ( ! ,cov5ant4 #d ,! book allud$ to is ,lett]s ( ,?omas ,ersk9e ( ,l9la!n4 ,f #ahjj till #ahdj4 ,edit$ by ,dr4 ,hanna1 & republi%$ by ,g4 ,p4 ,putnam's ,sons4 ,! ,du*ess de ,broglie 0 born 9 ,p>is1 9 #agig1 & di$ 9 ,septemb]1 #ahch1 at ! age ( =ty-"o4 ,%e 0 ! only daught] ( ! celebrat$ ,madame de ,/ael4 ,"s pleasant glimpses ( h] are giv5 9 ! ,life1 ,lett]s1 & ,j\rnals ( ,george ,ticknor4 ,vol4 ,i41 pp4 #abh-aci4 ,vol4 ,,ii41 pp4 #ajc-aci4 #e ,! portrait 9 ?is volume is f a draw+ by ,miss ,crock]1 engrav$ by ,a4 ,h4 ,rit*ie4 ,miss ,c41 aft] pursu+ h] /udies = "s "t 9 ,p>is1 has op5$ a /udio 9 ,new ,york4 #f ,9 ?is lett] %e told me h[ mu* good ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d _h done h] & h[ sorry %e felt on he>+ ( ,mrs4 ,p4's dea?1 t %e _h nev] writt51 z %e long$ to d1 to ?ank h] = x4 ,de> s\l6 7%e add$7 p]haps %e kn[s n[ h[ _m he>ts %e has lift$ up & com=t$ by h] wond]ful words4--,f a lett] ( ,mrs4 ,w4 #g ,mr4 ,wa%burn di$ on ,sunday1 ! #ah? ( ,septemb]1 #ahha1 ag$ #hj ye>s4 ,he 0 born 9 ,f>m+ton1 ,conn4 ,8 fa!r1 ! ,rev4 ,joseph ,wa%burn1 pa/or ( ! ,congregational ,*ur* 9 ,f41 0 cut (f 9 ! prime ( a beautiful & sa9tly manhood4 ,he inh]it$ "s ( 8 fa!r's mo/ attractive traits & 0 a model ( ,*ri/ian fidelity & uprightness4 ,9 a notice :i* appe>$ 9 ! ,new ,york ,evangeli/1 %ortly aft] 8 dea?1 ,presid5t ,port]1 ( ,yale ,college1 ^: fa!r succe$$ ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,wa%burn z pa/or ( ! *ur* 9 ,f>m+ton1 ?us ref]s to 8 life at ,wildwood3 ,"s tw5ty ye>s s9ce he retir$ = a "p ( eight ye>s to ! s+ul>ly beautiful h\se :i* 0 select$ & prep>$ by ! ta/e ( himself & wife1 ne> ,ea/ ,riv]1 a di/rict 9 ,madison1 :i* he has = sev]al ye>s made 8 p]man5t resid5ce4 ,8 life 0 s+ul>ly ev5 9 its c\rse & happy 9 its allotm5ts2 a bless+ to himself & a bless+ to ! _w4 ,8 memory w long be *]i%$ by ! _m :o knew him z "o :om to "k 0 to love & honor4 #h ,mr4 ,isaac ,f>well1 or ,uncle ,isaac1 z ev]ybody call$ him1 0 ! mo/ rem>kable man 9 ,dorset4 ,he di$ 9 #ahha 9 ! #ajb;d ye> ( 8 age4 ,8 c5t5nial 0 celebrat$ on ! #ad? ( ,july1 #ahgi2 ! :ole t[n jo9+ 9 x4 ,he 0 full ( int]e/ 9 life1 reta9$ 8 m5tal p[]s unimpair$1 & w\ld relate incid5ts t occurr$ 9 ! la/ c5tury1 z if !y _h j happ5$4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 fond ( meet+ him3 & aft] h] dep>ture he delight$ to recall 8 talks ) h] & to tell :]e he _h se5 h] creep+ ?r\gh f5ces1 lad5 ) ru/ic trophies1 z %e & h] daught] came home f _! tramps 9 ! fields & ov] ! hills4 #i ,! foll[+ is an extract f a lett] ( ,mrs4 ,m4 giv+ an acc\nt ( ! int]view3 ,x 0 ( h] ,i ?\ght1 z an h\r be=e sunset1 on t day1 ,i pass$ ?r\gh ! gr\nds to ! door ( h] beautiful home4 ,i ?\ght ( h] z ,i _h se5 h] busy at "w among h] fl[]s on ! morn+ ( ! day :5 ! fatal illness began1 we>+ a /raw hat1 ) broad brim to protect h] f ! heat ( ! sun4 ,sev]al ( h] family 7 /&+ ar\nd h]1 & ! pleasant picture we saw z we drove by ! lovely lawn is fre% & gre5 9 my memory n[4 ,once1 aft] ?is1 ,i _h se5 h]1 at our la/ preci\s ,bible-read+ 7?\gh little ?\ght we !n x w\ld be our la/71 :5 %e s e>ne/ly urg$ u to be true witnesses = our ,ma/] & ,"l & g5tly bade u ,god-spe$1 enc\rag+ u also1 z %e express$ x1 by ! p>ticul> desire ( my husb& to-day1 9 ! heav5w>d pa?4 ,i knew t %e 0 n q well1 & z ,i ent]$ ! h\se 0 invit$ to h] *amb]4 ,i f\nd h] attir$ z usual1 b recl9+ on ! b$1 app>5tly only = quiet re/4 ,h] greet+ 0 w>m1 h] eyes bright1 %e 0 v *e]ful1 &1 ,i ?9k1 0 n !n suff]+ f pa94 ,to my inquiries aft] h] heal?1 %e repli$1 t %e _h be5 at fir/ pro/rat$ by ! heat ( ! sun1 rema9+ at "w 9 x too long1 ) no idea ( dang] f ! exposure2 b n[1 %e said1 ,i d n ?9k mu* is ! matt] ) me--?\gh aft]w>ds %e add$1 ,! doctor has said some?+ to my husb& :i* has al>m$ him ab\t me1 & he is anxi\s1 b ,i c n p]ceive any reason = ?is4 ,we talk$ ( _m famili> ?+s1 ev5 ( home-l me?ods ( cook]y1 & %e k9dly s5t = a small manuscript receipt-book ( h] own to l5d me1 look+ x ov] & turn+ d[n ! leaves at "s p>ticul> receipts :i* %e approv$1 & ^? 7 my "m's1 %e said ( sev]al4 ,%e spoke ( h] engagem5ts & ! gue/s %e lov$ to ent]ta91 add+ t %e ?\ght ,god _h giv5 ?is pleasant home1 surr\nd$ by su* beautiful ?+s 9 nature1 t o!rs too might be made happy 9 enjoy+ !m4 ,all ! "t :ile li/5+ to h] rem>ks1 & deeply int]e/$ 9 e "o %e made1 ! /rong desire 0 9 my he>t to speak to h] ( h] works1 ( my appreciation ( _! great usefulness1 & h[ ,god _h bless$ h] 9 p]mitt+ h] to d s mu* to b5efit o!rs4 ,i long$ to say to h]1 ,o _h y only writt5 ! books = ! little ones1 ',little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days1' & its companions1 x w\ld h be5 well wor? liv+ =6 _h y nev] writt5 any?+ b ',! ,fl[] ( ! ,family1' x 7 a bless+ = y to h liv$6 ,& ',/epp+ ,heav5w>d'--:at a privilege to h liv$ to write only t volume6 ,i c\ld sc>cely refra9 f p\r+ out be=e h] ! ?\ghts :i* w>m$ my he>t1 b ,i _h be5 told t %e pref]r$ n to be spok5 to ( h] works1 & ,i refra9$4 ,only once1 :5 we 7 alone1 ,i said1 ) "s emotion1 ,i am s glad to h se5 y2 x 0 because y 7 "h t ,i wi%$ to come to ?is village2 ?is 0 ! /rong attraction4 444 ,?us ,i p>t$ f h]4 ,i %all n look ^u h] aga9 until ! day :5 ^? :o sleep 9 ,jesus %all ,god br+ ) ,him4 ,,app5dix ,a4 ,! allusion is to a "y (fic] ( ! navy1 ,james ,swan ,?at*]--a gr&son ( ,g5]al ,knox1 ! fri5d ( ,wa%+ton1 & a y\ng] bro!r ( ,lieut5ant1 aft]w>ds ! gallant ,re> ,admiral1 ,h5ry ,knox ,?at*]4 ,he _h become deeply int]e/$ 9 ,miss ,payson1 & at l5g? solicit$ h] h&4 ,! /ory ( 8 hopeless atta*m5t to h]1 z disclos$ aft] 8 dea?1 is mo/ t\*+4 ,he w\ld sp5d h\rs toge!r late into ! night 9 walk+ ab\t ! h\se1 :i*1 to borr[ 8 bro!r's expression1 8 love _h plac$ on holy gr\nd4 ,he 0 a "y man ( s+ul> purity & nobl5ess ( "*--"o ( a ?\s&1 to use h] own words--&1 al?\gh %e c\ld n accept him z a lov]1 %e *]i%$ = him a v cordial fri5d%ip4 ,n long aft]1 he 0 lo/ at sea4 ,9 lat] ye>s %e (t5 ref]r$ to him & 8 tragical end ) ! t5d]e/ feel+4 ,! foll[+ is an extract f a lett] ( ,re> ,admiral ,?at*] to h] husb&1 writt5 sev]al mon?s aft] h] dea? & %ortly be=e 8 own3 ,i h read ) great int]e/ y\r ref]5ce to my de> & only bro!r1 ,james ,swan ,?at*]4 ,x c>ri$ me back to "o ( ! sadde/ afflictions ( my life4 ,we _h bo? be5 /ation$ at ,portl& = ! purpose ( recruit+ "s ( ! h>dy sons ( ,ma9e z seam5 = ! ,u4 ,s4 naval s]vice4 ,! wife ( ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,dwight _h advis$ my call+ ^u ,mrs4 ,payson1 ,cumb]l& /reet1 to obta9 qu>t]s4 ,i did s1 & ) my wife remov$ f a noisy hotel to ! quiet ( t mo/ desirable retreat4 ,my bro!r made frequ5t visits to u1 &1 by invitation ( ,mrs4 ,payson1 d9$ ) u on ,sundays1 & pass$ ! h\rs betwe5 meet+s1 accompany+ ! ladies to *ur* 9 ! aft]noons4 ,?is l$ to an acqua9tance betwe5 ,miss ,payson & himself4 ,z !y 7 bo? highly intellectual & 7 bo? /epp+ heav5w>d1 !y naturally fanci$ ea* o!r's conv]sation & =m$ a mutual fri5d%ip4 ,until aft] my de> bro!r's dea? ,i nev] imag9$ t x 0 m ?an a fondness = ,miss ,payson's conv]sational gifts t induc$ him to call s frequ5tly at ,cumb]l& /reet4444 ,james 0 unexpect$ly ord]$ to jo9 ! ,u4 ,s4 s*oon] ,grampus at ,norfolk1 ,va41 = a w9t] cruise on ! ,s\!rn coa/ = relief ( di/ress$ m]*ant vessels4 ,! cruise cont9u$ = "s weeks )\t ent]+ any port1 b ab\t ! #bj? ( ,m>*1 #ahdc1 ! ,grampus appe>$ (f ! b> ( ,*>le/on1 ,s4 ,c41 & s5t 9 a lett]-bag = mail+4 ,t night !re came on a t]rible gale & ! ,grampus disappe>$ =ev]--no ve/ige ( h] ev] hav+ be5 se54 ,%e 0 comm&$ by ,lt4-,comm&] ,alb]t ,e4 ,d[nes1 a good man & a f9e seaman1 & :o z a mid%ipman _h sail$ ) me ?ree ye>s be=e 9 ! ,pacific4 ,my bro!r 0 educat$ = ! law1 & /udi$ 8 pr(ession ) ! ,hon4 ,john ,holmes1 &1 aft] complet+ 8 /udies1 became ,mr4 ,holmes' law-p>tn]4 ,b he be+ my only bro!r1 ,i 0 v desir\s t he %\ld obta9 a commission z a purs] 9 ! navy1 9 ord] t we might be associat$ on duty2 &1 at ,mr4 ,h4's reque/1 he 0 appo9t$ by ,g5]al ,h>rison soon aft] 8 inauguration4 ,my bro!r !n jo9$ me 9 ,portl&4 ,x is a consolation to "k t he liv$ & di$ 9 ! ex]cise ( ^? ,*ri/ian s5tim5ts :i* 7 deeply in/ill$ into 8 m9d by ! society ( y\r angelic wife1 :o has prec$$ y to our home ( re/4 ,god grant t we may all meet !re6 99 99 99 99 99 ,b4 ,s4 ,s4 ,,pr5tiss4 ,"o ( ! be/ in=m$ writ]s on ! hi/ory ( ! ,revolution>y times & ( ! w> = ! ,union ?us introduces a notice ( ,mr4 ,pr5tiss3 ,small 9 /ature2 limp+ 9 gait2 broad-*e/$2 a high intellectual =ehead2 manly beauty 9 e feature2 a voice ( rem>kable sweetness & flexibility2 a mild b deeply p5etrat+ eye2 a mo/ ret5tive memory2 end[$ ) v>i$ k by ext5sive read+2 unrival$ 9 p[] ( oratory2 frank 9 ?\ght1 spee*1 & mann]2 pati5t & =be>+ 9 temp]2 p[]fully gov]n$ by ! affections1 & ) unb\nd$ g5]osity ( disposition1 ,se>g5t ,smi? ,pr5tiss 0 "o ( ! mo/ rem>kable *>act]s 9 our hi/ory4 ,liv+ p]sons :o 7 adults a g5]ation ago w rememb] h[ ! newspap]s betwe5 #ahce & #ahej 7 fill$ ) 8 praises z a citiz5 unapproa*able 9 oratory1 :e!r he spoke z an advocate at ! b>1 a debat] 9 ! halls ( legislation1 or at occasional public ga!r+s4 #a ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss 0 born at ,portl&1 ,ma9e1 ,septemb] #cj1 #ahjh4 ,:ile yet an infant1 he 0 r$uc$ by a viol5t fev] to ! v]ge ( ! grave & depriv$ = sev]al ye>s ( ! use ( 8 limbs1 ! "r leg rema9+ lame & feeble to ! la/4 ,= 8 p>tial recov]y he 0 indebt$ to ! unwe>i$ c>e & devotion ( 8 "m1 h]self 9 delicate heal?4 ,dur+ ! w> ( #ahab 8 fa!r remov$ to ,gorham4 ,at ! academy 9 ?is t[n1 !n "o ( ! be/ 9 ,ma9e1 ,se>g5t 0 fitt$ = ,b[do9 ,college1 :]e he 0 graduat$ 9 ! class ( #ahbf1 at ! age ( sev5te54 ,aft] /udy+ law = a ye> ) ,judge ,pi]ce1 ( ,gorham1 he set out = :at 0 at t day ! ,f> ,we/1 9 que/ ( =tune4 ,hav+ t>ri$ a few mon?s at ,c9c9nati1 he !n made 8 way d[n ! ,mississippi to ,nat*ez1 :]e he obta9$ ! situation ( tutor 9 a private family4 ,"h he complet$ 8 legal /udies2 0 admitt$ to ! b> 9 ,june1 #ahbi1 soon aft]w>ds became ! law-p>tn] ( ,g54 ,felix ,hu/on1 & almo/ at a b\nd /ood 9 ! front rank ( 8 pr(ession 9 ! ,/ate4 ,b\ndless good-nature1 to use ! language ( ,dr4 ,loss+2 ke5 logic2 quickness & aptness at rep>tee2 ov]fl[+ b k9dly wit2 an absolute e>ne/ness & s9c]ity 9 all he und]took to d1 made him a univ]sal favorite 9 e circle4 ,9 #ahcb ,mr4 ,pr5tiss remov$ to ,vicksburg4 ,john ,m4 ,*ilton1 a lead+ memb] ( ! b> ( t place1 ?us describes 8 fir/ appe>ance 9 ! ,circuit ,c\rt ( ,w>r5 c\nty3 ,!re arriv$1 ) o!r memb]s ( ! b>1 f ,nat*ez1 a limp+ y\? 9 pla9 g>b1 b 9 ^: be>+ !re 0 a manly1 inde$ almo/ a haughty1 mi52 9 ^: *eek a ri* gl[1 tell+ ! influ5ce ( m nor!rn climes2 9 ^: eye a ke5 b m$itative expression2 & 9 ^: voice & conv]sation a vivacity & orig9ality t attract$ e "o1 & drew ar\nd him1 :]ev] he appe>$1 a knot ( li/5]s1 ^: curiosity inv>iably yield$ 9 a few mom5ts to admiration & delight4 ,!re 0 !n a buzz ( inquiry1 succe$$ by a pleas$ look ( fri5dly recognition1 & a clos] approa*1 & 9 mo/ in/ances an introduction1 to ! object ( ?is g5]al attraction1 s soon z x 0 told t ! /rang] 0 ,s4 ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 ( ,nat*ez4 ,8 fame _h prec$$ him1 & m5 7 surpris$ to see only be>dless y\? 9 "o ^: spee*es1 & le>n+1 & wit1 & f9e social qualities1 _h already r5d]$ him at ,nat*ez ! obs]v$ ( all obs]v]s4 ,society 9 ! ,s\?we/ at t day 0 full ( p]ils to "y m51 especially to "y m5 ( tal5t & g5]\s1 impressionable natures4 ,dr9k+1 duell+1 & gambl+ widely prevail$4 ,x 0 a p]iod ( flu% times1 & wild1 reckless habits4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss did n :olly escape ! contagion2 b 8 faults & errors 7 v mu* exagg]at$ 9 _m ( ! /ories t f\nd curr5cy conc]n+ him4 ,"o ( 8 fri5ds wrote aft] 8 dea?3 ,i h he>d _m anecdotes ( him1 :i* ,i consid]$ ( d\btful au?ority2 = he is a traditional "* all ov] ,mississippi--_! ,cid1 _! ,wallace1 _! ,coeur de ,lion1 & all ! old /ories are wr\ght ov] aga91 & annex$ to 8 "n4 ,ano!r ( 8 fri5ds1 :o knew him long & intimately1 ! late ,balie ,peyton1 ( ,t5nessee1 te/ifi$3 ,no man ev] left a pur] fame ?an ,se>g5t ,s4 ,pr5tiss1 9 all t con/itutes high honor & spotless integrity ( "*4 ,8 pr9ciples rema9$ z pure1 & 8 he>t cont9u$ z w>m & fre%1 z at ! in/ant he bade f>ewell to 8 "m4 ,f 8 settlem5t at ,vicksburg 8 c>e] z a lawy] 0 "o ( rem>kable success2 & x 7 h>d to say 9 :at dep>tm5t ( 8 pr(ession he mo/ excell$1 :e!r 9 ! v>i$ conte/s ( ! ,nisi ,prius c\rts1 9 an argum5t on a difficult "q ( legal con/ruction1 or 9 discuss+ a fundam5tal pr9ciple ( jurisprud5ce4 ,9 #ahcc1 at ! age ( #bd1 he appe>$ be=e ! ,supreme ,c\rt at ,wa%+ton1 :]e1 9 spite ( 8 y\?1 he at once attract$ ! notice ( ,*ief ,ju/ice ,m>%all4 ,i made a spee* ?ree or f\r h\rs long 7he wrote to 8 "m72 & ,i suppose y w say ,i h acquir$ a great deal ( brass s9ce ,i left home1 :5 ,i tell y t ,i 0 n at all aba%$ or al>m$ 9 address+ s grave a set ( m5 z _! ,honors ! ,judges ( ! ,supreme ,c\rt ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates4 ,9 att5d+ ! circuit c\rts ( ,mississippi he _h exp]i5ces ( ! r\ghe/ sort & _m a hairbread? escape4 ,he wrote3 ,i travel entirely on horseback2 & h _h to swim1 on my horse1 ov] creeks & bay\s t w\ld a/oni% y ,nor!rn]s4 ,beyond ,pe>l riv] ,i _h to ride1 & repeat$ly to swim1 ?r\gh a swamp f\r miles 9 ext5t1 9 :i* ! wat] 0 all ! "t up to ! horse's belly4 ,:at d y ?9k ( t = a lawy]'s life8 ,9 ! w9t] ( #ahcf-g he won ! great ,commons suit1 :i* involv$ a consid]able portion ( ! t[n ( ,vicksburg4 ,?is made him1 z 0 suppos$1 "o ( ! ri*e/ m5 9 ! ,/ate4 ,ab\t ?is "t he 0 induc$ to run = ! legislature ( ,mississippi4 ,he 0 elect$1 & at once took a =emo/ position z lead] ( 8 p>ty4 ,! next summ] he visit$ 8 home1 & by a spee* at a ,:ig political meet+ 9 ,portl&1 on ! ,f\r? ( ,july1 he s electrifi$ 8 he>]s by 8 eloqu5ce t he 0 pron\nc$1 9 ! ,ea/1 ! mo/ f9i%$ orator ( 8 "t2 z he really 04 ,he became a c&idate = a seat 9 ,congress1 & made ! mo/ rem>kable electione]+ canvass ev] record$4 ,travel+ on horseback1 he visit$ =ty-five c\nties 9 a sp>sely-settl$ c\ntry4 ,= t5 weeks he travel$ ?irty miles ea* week-day1 & spoke ea* day two h\rs4 ,he _h ann\nc$ 8 engagem5ts be=eh&1 & nev] miss$ "o4 ,mississippi 0 a /rong ,jackson ,/ate1 b ,mr4 ,pr5tiss c>ri$ x = ! ,:igs4 ,8 seat 0 conte/$ by 8 ,democratic oppon5t1 & 8 spee* 9 ! ,h\se ( ,repres5tatives at ,wa%+ton 9 favor ( 8 claim ga9$ = him a national reputation z ! greate/ orator ( ! age4 ,x occupi$ ?ree days 9 its deliv]y4 ,he _h n spok5 long be=e intellig5ce ( 8 wond]ful oratory rea*$ ! ,s5ate *amb] & drew its memb]s to ! o!r ,h\se4 ,rumors ( 8 spee* ran ?r\gh ! city1 & be=e x 0 conclud$ ! anxiety to he> him became int5se4 ,! gall]ies ( ! ,h\se became d5sely pack$1 *iefly ) ladies1 & ! lobbies 7 cr[d$ ) =eign m9i/]s1 heads ( dep>tm5ts1 judges1 (fic]s ( ! army & navy1 & di/+ui%$ citiz5s4 ,among ! *>m$ auditors 7 ! be/ ,am]ican /atesm5 ( ! "t :o !n occupi$ seats 9 bo? bran*es ( ,congress--,john ,qu9cy ,adams lead+ ^? ( ! ,repres5tatives1 & ,daniel ,web/] & ,h5ry ,clay ( ! ,s5ate4 ,! entire self-possession ( ,mr4 ,pr5tiss1 !n only tw5ty-n9e ye>s ( age1 nev] =sook him 9 su* an augu/ pres5ce4 ,!re 0 no /ra9+ = effect1 no trick ( oratory2 b1 f ! fir/ to ! la/ s5t5ce1 ev]y?+ 9 mann]1 z 9 matt]1 seem$ p]fectly natural1 z if he 7 address+ a jury on an ord9>y "q ( law4 ,?is feature ( 8 spee*--?is evid5ce ( s9c]ity 9 e ^w--) ! almo/ boyi% beauty ( 8 face1 b\nd 8 di/+ui%$ audi5ce z ) a magic spell4 ,:51 at ! conclusion ( ! spee*1 ,mr4 ,web/] left ! hall1 he rem>k$ to a fri5d1 ) 8 compreh5sive brevity1 ,nobody c equal t6 #b ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 reject$ by ! ca/+ vote ( ! ,speak]1 ,mr4 ,polk1 & ! election s5t back to ! p2 :51 aft] ano!r extraord9>y canvass1 he 0 triumphantly return$4 ,aft] ! adj\rnm5t ( ,congress he visit$ 8 "m 9 ,portl&4 ,ab\t ?is "t a great reception 0 giv5 to ,mr4 ,web/]1 z def5d] ( ! ,con/itution1 9 ,faneuil ,hall1 & ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 invit$ to be pres5t & address ! assemblage4 ,8 spee* on ! occasion is /ill fre% 9 ! memory ( all :o he>d x4 ,he 0 call$ ^u late 9 ! ev5+1 & aft] a succession ( v able speak]s2 b h>dly _h ! va/ audi5ce he>d ! tap ( 8 cane1 z he /epp$ =w>d1 & caught ! fir/ s\nd ( 8 m>vell\s voice1 :5 he held !m1 z x 71 spell-b\nd4 ,be=e he _h utt]$ a ^w1 inde$1 he _h tak5 possession ( 8 audi5ce by 8 v look--=1 :5 ar\s$ by a great occasion1 8 c\nt5ance fla%$ l a diamond4 ,gov4 ,ev]ett1 :o presid$ at ! banquet1 himself an orator ( classic p[]1 ?us ref]r$ to ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' address1 9 a lett] writt5 m ?an a doz5 ye>s lat]3 ,x seem$ to me ! mo/ wond]ful specim5 ( s5t5ti\s flu5cy ,i _h ev] witness$4 ,! words p\r$ f 8 lips 9 a torr5t1 b ! s5t5ces 7 correctly =m$1 ! matt] grave & important1 ! tra9 ( ?\ght di/9ctly pursu$1 ! illu/rations wond]fully happy1 drawn f a wide range ( read+1 & aid$ by a brilliant imag9ation4 ,t x 0 a c>efully prep>$ spee*1 no "o c\ld believe = a mom5t4 ,x 0 ! ov]fl[ ( a full m9d1 swell+ 9 ! joy\s excitem5t ( ! fri5dly reception1 k9dl+ ) ! gl[+ !mes sugge/$ by ! occasion1 & n unmov$ by ! g5ius ( ! place4 ,sitt+ by ,mr4 ,web/]1 ,i ask$ him if he _h ev] he>d any?+ l x8 ,he answ]$1 ,nev]1 except f ,mr4 ,pr5tiss himself4 ,political life 0 exce$+ly di/a/eful to ,mr4 ,pr5tiss & he soon ab&on$ x & return$ ) fre% zeal to ! practice ( 8 pr(ession4 ,! applauses ( ! _w seem$ nev] = an in/ant to deceive him4 ,he wrote aft] a great spee* at ,na%ville1 address$1 x 0 e/imat$1 to #dj1jjj p3 ,!y heap complim5ts ^u me till ,i am almo/ cru%$ b5ea? !m4 ,& yet 9 ! mid/ ( su* popul> ovations he wrote to 8 si/]3 ,i laugh at ^? :o look ^u ! unc]ta91 slight1 & *angeable reg>ds ( ! multitude1 z wor?y ev5 ( comp>ison ) ! true affection ( "o w>m he>t4 ,i h ev] ye>n$ = affection2 ,i believe x is ! only ?+ ( :i* ,i am av>ici\s4 ,i nev] _h any p]sonal ambition1 & d n recollect ! "t :5 ,i w\ld n h ex*ang$ ! applause ( ?\s&s = ! love ( "o ( my fell[-be+s4 ,9 #ahdb 8 ye>n+ = affection 0 satisfi$ by 8 m>riage to ,miss ,m>y ,jane ,williams1 ( ,nat*ez2 & h5ce=? 8 life 0 full ( ! sweete/ dome/ic peace & joy4 ,f ! mom5t ( fir/ leav+ home he _h c>ri$ on a con/ant correspond5ce ) 8 "m1 si/]s1 & bro!rs1 9 ! ,nor?2 & he kept x up :ile he liv$4 ,he took a special int]e/ 9 ! education ( 8 y\nge/ bro!r1 & at "o "t _h plann$ to jo9 him 9 ,g]many = purposes ( /udy & travel4 ,all ! lat] ye>s ( 8 life 7 ye>s ( unwe>i$ toil & /ruggle4 ,9 #ahde a case involv+ ! validity ( 8 title to ! ,commons prop]ty1 0 decid$ aga9/ him 9 ! ,supreme ,c\rt ( ! ,unit$ ,/ates2 ?us wre/+ f him at a bl[ t prop]ty & ! co/ly build+s :i* he _h erect$ ^u x4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is mis=tune & ( 8 abhorr5ce ( repudiation1 :i*1 9 spite ( 8 det]m9$ opposition1 _h1 unhappily1 be5 foi/$ ^u 8 adopt$ ,/ate1 he remov$ to ,new ,orleans 9 #ahdf4 ,"h1 not)/&+ t he _h to ma/] a new sy/em ( law1 he at once took 8 natural position z a lead] ( ! b>2 & b = fail+ heal?1 w\ld no d\bt h 9 ! end repair$ 8 %att]$ =tunes & made himself a /ill m brilliant "n among ! rem>kable m5 ( ! c\ntry4 ,he di$ at ,nat*ez1 ,july #a1 #ahej1 9 ! =ty-second ye> ( 8 age1 univ]sally belov$ & lam5t$4 ,he left a wife & f\r "y *ildr51 ?ree ( :om /ill survive4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 a natural orator4 ,ev5 z a boy he attract$ ev]ybody's att5tion by ! read9ess & *>m ( 8 spee*4 ,b all ?is w\ld h contribut$ little t[>d giv+ him 8 m>vell\s p[] ov] ! popul> m9d & he>t1 _h he n add$ to ! r>e gifts ( nature ! mo/ dilig5t culture1 a deep /udy ( life & "*1 & a wond]ful k ( books4 ,! :ole treasury ( g5]al lit]ature--m especially ( ,engli% poetry & fiction--0 at 8 comm&2 ,%akespe>e1 ,milton1 & ,byron he almo/ knew by he>t2 ) ! ,bible1 ,pilgrim's ,progress1 & ,sir ,walt] ,scott1 he seem$ to be equally famili>2 & f all ^! s\rces he drew endless illu/rations 9 aid ( 8 argum5t1 :e!r x 0 address$ to a jury1 to a judge1 to ! p1 or to ! legislative assembly4 ,:51 = example1 he und]took to %[ ! wrongfulness ( ,mississippi repudiation1 he w\ld ref] to ,wordswor? z a poet & philosoph]1 ^: good op9ion 0 capable ( add+ weight ev5 to ! "* ( a nation1 & !n expatiate1 ) ! en?usiasm ( a s*ol>1 ^u ! noble (fice ( su* m5 9 human society4 ,he _h correspond$ ) ,mr4 ,wordswor? & knew t memb]s ( 8 family _h suff]$ heavily f ! di%one/y ( ! ,/ate2 & p]haps no passages 9 8 great spee*es aga9/ repudiation 7 m effective ?an ^? 9 :i* he ?us br\ght 8 f9e lit]>y ta/e & feel+ to ! support ( ! claims ( public hone/y4 ,?is feature ( 8 oratory1 toge!r ) ! l>ge e?ical elem5t :i* ent]$ into x1 01 no d\bt1 a pr9cipal s\rce ( its extraord9>y p[]4 ,x w\ld be h>d to say 9 :at dep>tm5t ( oratory he mo/ excell$4 ,on ?is po9t ! foll[+ is ! te/imony ( ,h5ry ,clay1 himself a great orator z well z a great /atesman1 & "o ( ,mr4 ,p4's mo/ devot$ & admir+ fri5ds3 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 di/+ui%$1 z a public speak]1 by a ri*1 *a/e1 & b\ndless imag9ation1 ! exhau/less res\rces ( :i*1 9 beautiful language & happy illu/rations1 he br\ght to ! aid ( a logical p[]1 :i* he wield$ to a v great ext5t4 ,always ready & prompt1 8 conceptions seem$ to me almo/ intuitive4 ,8 voice 0 f9e1 s(t5$1 &1 ,i ?9k1 improv$1 by a slight lisp1 :i* an att5tive obs]v] c\ld disc]n4 ,! great !atres ( eloqu5ce & public speak+ 9 ! ,unit$ ,/ates are ! legislative hall1 ! =um1 & ! /ump1 )\t adv]t+ to ! pulpit4 ,i h kn[n "s ( my contempor>ies em95tly successful on "o ( ^! !atres1 )\t be+ able to exhibit any rem>kable ability on ! o!rs4 ,mr4 ,pr5tiss 0 brilliant & successful on !m all4 ,( ! attractions ( 8 p]sonal & social "* ! te/imonies are v /rik+4 ,judge ,bull>d1 9 a eulogy pron\nc$ be=e ! b> ( ,new ,orleans1 ?us ref]s to 8 own exp]i5ce3 ,:at c ,i say ( ! noble qualities ( 8 he>t8 ,:o c describe ! *>ms ( 8 conv]sation8 ,old z ,i am1 8 society 0 "o ( my greate/ pleasures--,i became a boy aga94 ,8 conv]sation resembl$ ! ev]-v>y+ cl\ds t clu/] r\nd ! sett+ sun ( a summ] ev5+--_! edges fr+$ ) gold1 & ! noiseless & h>mless fla%es ( lightn+ spread+1 f "t to "t1 ov] _! d>k bosom4 ,9 a simil> /ra9 ,gov4 ,j4 ,j4 ,critt5d51 ( ,k5tucky1 wrote ( him %ortly aft] 8 dea?3 ,x 0 impossible to "k him )\t feel+ = him admiration & love4 ,8 g5ius1 s ri* & r>e2 8 he>t1 s w>m1 g5]\s1 & magnanim\s2 & 8 mann]s1 s graceful & g5ial1 c\ld n fail to impress ^! s5tim5ts ^u all :o approa*$ him4 ,eloqu5ce 0 a "p ( 8 nature1 & ov] 8 private conv]sations z well z 8 public spee*es x scatt]$ its sp>kl+ jewels ) m ?an royal pr(usion4 99 99 99 99 99 ,c4 ,"h are ! fir/ /anzas ( "s ( h] favorite ,g]man hymns1 ref]r$ to 9 ?is lett]3 ,jesus1 ,jesus1 ni*ts als ,jesus ,soll me9 ,wuns* se9 und me9 ,ziel2 ,jetzund ma* i* e9 ,v]bndniss1 ,dass i* w1 0 ,jesus w2 ,d5n me9 ,h]z1 mit ihm erfllt1 ,rufet nur2 ,h]r1 wie du willt4 ,writt5 by ,elizabe?1 ,c\ntess ( ,s*w>tzburg1 #afdj-afgb4 ,gott i/ geg5wrtig6 ,lasset uns anbet51 ,und 9 ,erfur*t vor ihn tret52 ,gott i/ 9 d] mitt56 ,alles 9 uns s*weige ,und si* innig vor ihm beuge2 ,w] ihn k5nt1 w] ihn n5nt1 ,s*lagt die ,aug5 ni$]1 ,kommt1 ergebt eu* wi$]4 ,by ,g]h>d ,t]/eeg51 #afig-agfi4 ,zum ,ern/1 zum ,ern/ ruft ,jesu ,gei/ inw5dig2 ,zum ,ern/ ruft au* die ,/imme se9] ,braut2 ,getreu und ganz1 und bis zum ,tod be/ndig4 ,e9 re9es ,h]z alle9 d5 re95 s*aut4 ,by ! ,same4 ,wir s+5 dir1 ,immanuel1 ,du ,leb5sfr/ und ,gnad5quell1 ,du ,himmelsblum und ,morg5/]n1 ,du ,jungfrausohn1 ,h]r all] ,h]rn4 ,paul ,g]h>d1 #afjf-afgf4 ,su*1 w] da w1 e9 &] ,ziel ,die ,seligkeit zu f9d51 ,me9 ,h]z alle9 b$a*t soll se9 ,auf ,*ri/um si* zu grnd53 ,se9 ,wort i/ wahr1 se9 ,w]k i/ kl>1 ,se9 heilg] ,mund hat ,kraft und ,grund1 ,all ,fe9d z b]w9d54 ,george ,weissel1 #aeij-afce4 ,gott1 me9 e9ziges ,v]trau51 ,gott1 du me9e ,zuv]si*t1 ,de9e ,aug5 zu mir s*au51 ,de9e ,hlf v]sage mir ni*t2 ,lass mi* ni*t v]gebli* s*rei51 ,sond]n hr und lass g$eih52 ,s w i*1 ,gott1 halt5 /ill1 ,gott1 de9 ,w i/ au* me9 ,w4 ,elizabe? ,eleonore1 ,du*ess ( ,sax-,me9+51 #afeh-agbi4 ,o ,dur*bre*] all] ,b&e1 ,d] du imm] bei uns bi/1 ,bei dem ,%ad51 ,spott und ,s*&e ,laut] ,lu/ und ,himmel i/1 ,uebe fem] de9 ,g]i*te ,wid] uns]n ,adamss9n1 ,bis de9 treues ,angesi*te ,uns fhrt aus dem ,k]k5 h94 ,gott]4 ,arnold1 #afff-agad4 99 99 99 99 99 ,lavat]'s ,hymn4 ,,he ,,mu/ ,,increase1 ,,b ,i ,,mu/ ,,decrease4 --,john iii4 #cj4 ,o ,jesus ,*ri/us1 iva*s 9 mir1 ,und alles &re s*w9de6 ,me9 ,h]z sei tgli* nh] dir1 ,und f]n] von d] ,snde4 ,lass tgli* de9e ,huld und ,ma*t ,um me9e ,s*wa*heit s*web56 ,de9 ,li*t v]s*l+e me9e ,na*t1 ,und me95 ,tod de9 ,leb56 ,beim ,sonn5/rahle de9es ,li*ts ,lass j$5 ,wahn v]s*w9d56 ,de9 ,alles1 ,*ri/us1 und me9 ni*ts1 ,lass tgli* mi* empf9d54 ,sei nahe mir1 w]f i* mi* h91 ,we9 i* vor dir 9 /ill52 ,de9 re9] gottgelassn] ,s9n ,beh]rs*e me95 ,will54 ,blick imm] h]rli*] aus mir ,voll ,wei%eit ,huld und ,freude1 ,i* sei e9 leb5d ,bild von dir ,im ,gluck1 und w5n i* leide4 ,ma* alles 9 mir froh und gut1 ,dass /ets i* m9d] fehle2 ,h]r1 de9] ,m5s*5-,liebe ,glut ,dur*glhe me9e ,seele4 ,es wei*e ,/olz1 und ,trgheit wei*2 ,und j$] ,lei*ts9n fliehe1 ,w5n1 ,h]r1 na* dir und de9em ,rei* ,i* r$li* mi* bemhe4 ,me9 eignes1 eitles1 le]es ,i* ,sei j$5 ,tag g]+]4 ,o rd i* j$5 ,tag dur* di* ,de9 wrdig]] ,jung]4 ,von dir erfllt] j$5 ,tag ,und j$5 von mir le]]6 ,o du1 d] ub] ,flehn v]mag1 ,sei me9es ,flehns erhr]6 ,d] ,glaub an di* und de9e ,kraft ,sei ,trieb von j$em ,triebe6 ,sei du nur me9e ,leid5s*aft1 ,du me9e ,freud und ,liebe6 99 99 99 99 99 ,d4 ,a few extracts f ! little di>ies ref]r$ to are "h giv53 ,may #ae1 #aheg4--;,box came f ,mrs4 ,bum/ead--my de>1 k9d fri5d-- conta9+ ev]y?+2 salmon1 tomatoes1 oranges1 pea*es1 prunes1 cocoa & ham1 tea & sug> f h] fa!r4#c ,h[ pleasant ! k9dness ( fri5ds6 #ba/4--,work$ at plant+ a/] se$s & putt+ 9 v]b5a cutt+s--all 9 my room1 ( c\rse4 #bc;d4--,fir/ hepaticas 9 g>d54 ,sweet peas com+ up4 ,br[nie hat*$--"o *ick54 ,june #a/4--,books f de> ,lizzy4 ,sickness1 may x d me good4 #d #bh?4--,s5t fl[]s to ! ,b4's1 fl[]s & /rawb]ries to ,mrs4 ,n41 gre5 peas to ,e4 ,m41 & tr\t to ,"m ,hopk9s4 ,july #b;d4--,cont9ue to s5d /rawb]ries--ye/]day to ! ,b4's--to-day to ,a4 ,b4 & ,miss ,g41 ) rosebuds4 ,oct4 #aa?4--,a beautiful autumn day4 ,c\ld n leave my b$ till ne> noon4 ,!n ,alb]t drove me d[n ! lane & c>ri$ me into ! woods 9 8 arms4 ,eddy has collect$ #cj = ,kansas4 #e #be?4--,my :ole "t1 night & day1 is sp5t 9 sett+ traps = sleep4 ,to-day ! money 0 s5t = ,kansas--#ee1 ( :i* #i 0 f u4 ,nov4 #d?4--,election day4 ,great excitem5t4 #e?4--,wret*$ news2 x is fe>$ t ,bu*anan is elect$4 ,nov4 #ag?4--,! anniv]s>y ( my de> "m's dea?4 ,my own c n be f> di/ant4 ,i e>ne/ly entreat t none ( my fri5ds w we> m\rn+ = me4 ,janu>y #a1 #aheh4--,outw>dly all looks d>k--heal? at ! l[e/--bra9 irritat$ & suff]+ inexpressibly--b und]nea? all1 ?ank ,god1 "s pati5ce1 "s resignation1 "s quiet tru/4 ,if x 7 n = we>+ out my fri5ds6 ,b ?is c>e1 too1 ,i mu/ le>n to ca/ on ,him4 #e?4--,alb]t is read+ ,miss ,bronte's ,life to me1 & oh1 h[ _m *ords vibrate deep 9 my s\l z ,i he> ( h] %yness2 h] dread ( com+ 9 contact ) o!rs2 h] morbid s5sitiv5ess & int5se suff]+ f l[ness ( spirits2 h] ?ir/ = k1 h] consci\sness ( p]sonal defects1 etc41 etc41 etc4 #i?4--,/orms to-day l mad4 ,pres5t f ,julia ,willis4 ,ea* day seems a week long1 b let me be ?ankful t ,i h a *air to sit 91 limbs free f palsy1 books ( all sorts to be read1 & k9d fri5ds to read4 ,oh1 yes2 let me be ?ankful4 ,a4 br\ght ,s*ool-days at ,rugby4 #bb;d4--,eddy began to we> 8 coat6 ,a4 read to me ,tom ,br[n's ,s*ool-days4 #bc;d4--,,love is ! ^w t fills my horizon to-day4 ,god is ,love2 ,i mu/ be l ,him4 ,feb4 #c;d4--,h[ lovely seem ! words ,,duty & ,,kight6 ,h[ ,i long to be spotless--all pure )9 & )\t6444 ,alb]t read f ,adolph ,monod4 ,:at a preci\s book6 #bc;d4--,to-morr[ ,i %all be =ty-six ye>s old4 ,if ,i said "o hundr$ ,i %\ld believe x z well4 #bd?4--,my bir?day4444 ,i feel dispos$ to take z my motto = ?is ye>1 ,i w hope cont9ually1 & w yet praise ,!e m & m ,eddy began ,virgil to-day4 #bg?4--,woke ) a /rong impression t ,i am ,*ri/'s1 ,8 s]vant1 & z su* h no?+ to d = myself--no sep>ate int]e/4 ,oh1 to feel ?is & act ^u x always4 ,& n only a s]vant1 b a *ild2 & !re=e entitl$ to feel an int]e/ 9 ! affairs ( ! ,family4 ,alb]t read f ! ,sil5t ,com=t] ! piece call$ ,we>isome ,nights1 :i* is an exact expression ( my /ate & feel+s4 ,long to d "s good1 at lea/ by pray+ = p4 ,a note f ,mrs4 ,c4 ,/odd>d to my husb& & myself1 :i* 0 truly refre%+4 #bf?4--,?is morn+ ,god assi/$ me out ( great weakness to conv]se & pray ) my belov$ *ild4 ,he also pray$4 ,i c n b ent]ta9 a trembl+ hope t he is inde$ a ,*ri/ian4 ,s great a m]cy w\ld fill me ) transport4 ,april #f?4--,i love ! ,"l because ,he ha? he>d my voice & my supplication 7,ps4 cxvi4 ,i74 ,alb]t read ?is psalm to me ne>ly fifte5 ye>s ago1 ! morn+ ( ! day succe$+ t on :i* ,god _h deliv]$ me out ( great dang] & excruciat+ suff]+s & _h giv5 u a liv+ *ild4 ,our he>ts swell$ ) ?ankfulness !n2 n[ we h receiv$ our *ild a second "t--anew gift4 ,june #h?4--,a4's holiday4 ,fir/ /rawb]ry6 & fir/ rose6 7c9namon74 ,july #c;d4--,oh1 my de>1 de> si/] ,lizzy6 ,%all ,i nev] see y aga9 9 ?is _w8 ,i fanci$ ,i 0 famili> ) ! ?\ght & reconcil$ to x1 b n[ x agonizes me4 #f ,dec4 #bf?4--,i d long to submit to--no1 to accept joyfully--! w ( ,god 9 ev]y?+2 to see only ,love 9 e trial4 ,b to be made a :ip 9 ,8 h& ) :i* to sc\rge o!rs--,i1 :o s passionately desire to give pleasure1 to give only pa9--,i1 :o s hate to cause suff]+1 to inflict no?+ else on my be/ fri5ds--oh1 ?is is h>d6444 ,i write by feel+ ) eyes clos$4 ,x is midnight2 &1 z usual1 ,i am & h be5 sleepless4 ,i am full ( toss+s to & fro until ! dawn4 ,all temporal bless+s seem to be express$ by "o ^w--,sleep4444 ,disease is advanc+ ) rapid /rides2 _m symptoms ( p>alysis2 t or insanity c]ta91 unless ,god 9 m]cy to myself & my fri5ds takes me home fir/4 #ca/4--,"h !n to ,!e ,?9e own ,i leave-- ,m\ld z ,?\ wilt ,?y passive clay2 ,b let me all ,?y /amp receive1 ,b let me all ,?y words obey4 ,s]ve ) a s+le he>t & eye1 ,& to ,?y glory live or die4 ,jan4 #bf1 #ahei4--;,c>s ran ?r\gh f ,adams to ,troy fir/ "t4 ,eddy /udy+ ,greek1 ,lat91 etc41 at s*ool2 ,geology at home4 ,feb4 #c;d4--,mu* ( ! day 9 int5se bodily angui%1 b h _h lately m ( ,*ri/ 9 my he>t4 ,alb]t is read+ me a preci\s s]mon by ,hunt+don on a life hid ) ,*ri/ 9 ,god4 ,oh1 to le>n m ( ,*ri/ & ,8 love6 #e?4--,o ,god1 :o art ri* 9 m]cy1 if ,?\ art look+ = "s creature on :om to be/[ x1 behold ! poore/1 ne$ie/1 emptie/ ( all ,?\ ha/ made1 & satisfy me ) ,?y m]cy4 ,sunday1 #f?4--,h[ ?ankful ,i am = ! _m good books ,i h6 & oh1 h[ ,i /& amaz$ at ! fai? & pati5ce ( ,god's de> *ildr5 7,mrs4 ,c\tts1 e4g471 to read ( ^: suff]+s makes my he>t ble$ & almo/ murmur on _! acc\nt4 ,m>* #ag?4--,s fooli% 0 ,i & ignorant1 ,i 0 z a bea/ be=e ,!e4 ,oh1 h[r x com=ts me t !re is su* a v]se 9 ! ,bible z ?is6 ,x comes ne> describ+ my folly1 /upidity1 ignorance1 & bl9dness4444 ,q ov]come to-day by a mo/ unexpect$ favor f my de> fri5ds ! ,jameses1 #g :o ,i ?\ght _h =gott5 me4 ,april #ab?4--,my love to my de>1 de> si/]4 ,i %all nev] see h]1 nev] write to h]1 b we w sp5d et]nity toge!r4 ,dec #a/4--,alb]t op5$ ! piano1 &1 = ! fir/ "t 9 six ye>s1 ,i t\*$ x4 ,beautiful fl[]-pictures f ,lizzy4 #h ,sunday1 ,jan4 #a1 #ahfj4--,out ( weakness 7 made /rong4 ,?is is ! v]se :i* has be5 giv5 me z a motto = ! ye>4 ,may x be fulfill$ 9 my exp]i5ce6 ,b %\ld x n be s to my appreh5sion1 may ,i be able to say1 ,mo/ gladly1 !re=e1 w ,i glory 9 my infirmities1 t ! p[] ( ,*ri/ may re/ ^u me4 ,m>* #bf?4--,= sev]al days ,i h be5 l$ to pray t ! indwell+ ,_s may indite my petitions4 ,to-day ,he leads me to pray = ! annihilation ( self4 ,my :ole s\l cries out = ?is--to =get my own sorr[s1 wants1 s9s ev51 & lose myself 9 ,*ri/4444 ,o preci\s ,savi\r1 let me see ,!e2 let me behold ,?y beauty2 let me he> ,?y voice2 let me wa% ,?y feet ) te>s2 let me gaze on ,!e =ev]4 ,m>* #ca/4--,a rem>kable day4 #a/4 ,wea!r l ,indian summ]4 #b;d4 ,aft] a v poor night1 expect+ to sp5d ! day 9 b$1 ,i 0 s /r5g!n$ z to ride up to ! m\nta9 ) ,alb]t & to enjoy see+ ! mosses4 ,9 ! ,p4,m4 rode aga9 ) ,eddy4 ,june #cj?4--,= ye>s ,i h be5 con/antly fe>+ insanity or palsy4 ,n[ ,i he> ( ,mrs4 ---- /ruck ) p>alysis & my de> fri5d ---- ) m5tal ali5ation1 :ile ,i am sp>$4 ,june #bg?4--,let a p]son take a delicately-/rung musical in/rum5t & /rike bl[s on x ) a hamm] till ne>ly e /r+ is brok5 & ! :ole in/rum5t trembles & %rieks "u ! infliction--t is :at has be5 done to me4 ,words are entirely inadequate to pa9t :at ,i suff]4 ,june #cj?4--,ano!r great m]cy4 ,a lett] f ,n4 ,p4 ,w4 #i ,"u date ( ,june #d?1 ,i wrote1 ,may ,god bless1 etc41 & ,god has bless$ him4 ,oh1 praise1 praise to ,him :o he>s ev5 be=e we ask4 ,april #bf1 #ahfa4--;,hangs my helpless s\l on ,!e4 ,oh1 h[ _m ?\s& times d ,i repeat ?is l9e dur+ ! sleepless h\rs ( my wret*$ nights6 ,z ! ye> advanc$1 ! entries became few] & few]2 "s ( !m1 by reason ( extreme weakness & suff]+1 hav+ be5 left unf9i%$4 ,b no weakness or suff]+ c\ld :olly repress h] love ( ,nature4 ,imprison$ )9 ! same pages t record h] nights & days ( angui% are exquisite bits ( f]n1 delicate mosses1 rose-leaves1 & o!r fl[]s press$ & plac$ !re by h] own h&4 ,b f> m t\*+ ?an ^! mem5toes ( h] love ( ,nature are ! passages 9 ?is di>y ( h] la/ ye> on e>?1 t express h] love to ,*ri/ & te/ify to ,8 pres5ce & support+ grace 9 :at %e describes z ! fa?omless abyss ( mis]y 9 :i* %e 0 plung$4 ,!y rem9d "o ( ! t9ts ( une>?ly light & beauty t adorn sometimes ! face ( a ?und]cl\d4 ,!y are su* z ! foll[+3 ,june #aa1 #ahfa4--;,bless$ be ,god = com=t4 ,i see my s9s all gone--all set d[n to ,*ri/'s acc\nt2 & n only s1 b--oh1 wond]6--all ,8 m]its transf]r$ to me4 ,well may x be said1 ,let u come boldly to ! ?rone ( grace4 ,:y n be bold ) su*--j l pres5t+ an ord] at a bank4 ,nov4 #f?4--,come1 ,o come1 de> ,"l ,jesus6 ,come to ?is t[n1 ?is *ur*1 ?is family1 & oh1 come to ?is poor long+ fami%$ he>t4 ,sunday1 ,nov4 #aj?4--,a bett] night & "s peace ( m9d4 ,b ,o my ,savi\r1 support me2 let n ! fi]y bill[s swall[ me up6 ,& ,o let me n fail to be ?ankful = ! m]cies m+l$ 9 my cup ( suff]+--a pleasant room adorn$ ) gifts ( love f abs5t fri5ds1 & j n[ ) beautiful mosses br\ght f ! woods by my de> husb&4 ,! next entry conta9s directions respect+ p>t+ gifts to be s5t to h] si/] & o!r abs5t fri5ds aft] h] dea?4 ,!n comes ! la/ entry1 :i* is z foll[s3 ,i ne$ n be afraid to ask to be--fir/1 'holy & )\t blame be=e ,him 9 love'2 second1 'fill$ ) all ! fullness ( ,god'2 ?ird--4 ,"h h] p5 dropp$ f h] h&1 & a little lat] h] we>isome pilgrimage 0 ov]1 & %e ent]$ into ! sa9t's ev]la/+ re/4 99 99 99 99 99 ,fur!r extracts f h] lit]>y j\rnal3 ,tuesday1 ,jan4 #aa1 #ahcf4--,la/ meet+ ( ! class4 ,mr4 ,dana made "s rem>ks int5d$ z a sort ( leave-tak+4 ,he spoke ( ! importance ( hav+ "s fix$ pr9ciples ( criticism4 ,^! pr9ciples %\ld be obta9$ f )9--f ! /udy ( our own m9ds4 ,if we try _m criticisms by ?is /&>d1 we %all turn away f !m dissatisfi$4 ,addison's criticisms on ,milton are (t5 mis]able1 &1 :]e he is "r1 x seems to be by a sort ( accid5t4 ,he con/antly appeals to ! ,fr5* critics z au?orities4 ,ano!r advantage w result f e/abli%+ pr9ciples ( judg+--we %all acquire self-k4 ,we c n ask ourselves1 ,is ?is true8 does x accord ) my own consci\sness8 etc41 )\t ga9+ an acqua9tance ) ourselves4 ,& !n1 9 g5]al1 ! m ! ta/e is cultivat$ & ref9$1 ! m we %all f9d to l4 ,critics by rule1 :o h "o n>r[ /&>d by :i* !y try ev]y?+1 may f9d mu* to condemn & little to approve3 b x is n s 9 nature1 nor ) ^? :o judge aft] nature4 ,! great duty is to le>n to be happy 9 ourselves4444 ,i am surpris$ 7said ,mr4 ,dana7 to f9d h[ mu* my pres5t ta/es & judgm5ts are ^? ( my *ildhood4 ,9 "s respects1 to be sure1 ,i h alt]$2 b1 9 g5]al1 ! au?ors ,i lov$ & sympa?is$ ) !n1 ,i love & sympa?ise ) n[4 ,:5 ,i 0 connect$ ) ! ,nor?-,am]ican1 ,i wrote a review ( ,hazlitt's ,briti% ,poets1 9 :i* ,i express$ my op9ion ( ,pope & ( ,wordswor?4 ,! s5sation x excit$ is inconceivable4 ,"o man said ,i 0 mad & ought to be put 9 a /rait-jacket4 ,h[ev]1 ,i did n m9d x mu*1 s long z !y did n put me 9 "o--t1 to be sure1 ,i %\ld n h lik$ v well4 ,public op9ion has *ang$ s9ce !n4 ,_m ( ! old prose writ]s are v f9e4 ,j]emy ,taylor1 ?\gh ,i admire him exce$+ly1 has be51 ,i ?9k1 r indiscrim9ately prais$4444 ,to come to ! poets aga91 ,"y %\ld be read & ?\ght ^u4 ,he is (t5 anti!tical1 b is a pr(\nd ?9k]4 ,i 0 q a%am$ ! o!r day on tak+ up 8 works to f9d h[ _m ( my ?\ghts he _h express$ bett] ?an ,i c\ld express !m4 ,i am conv9c$ !re is no?+ new "u ! sun4 ,coll9s has writt5 b little1 b he is a mo/ graceful & beautiful creature4 ,= fai?fulness ( portraiture & br++ out e-day *>act]s1 ,crabbe is unrivall$ 9 mod]n days4 ,& ,wordswor?--he & ,col]idge h be5 oblig$ to make m9ds to und]/& !m4 ,:o equals ,wordswor? 9 purity1 9 maje/y1 9 tranquil contemplation1 9 *ildlik5ess8 ,col]idge is ex]t+ a great influ5ce 9 ?is c\ntry1 especially ov] ! m9ds ( "s ( ! "y m54 ,friday4--,to-day by invitation ,i att5d$ ! fir/ meet+ ( ! new class & he>d ! introductory lecture4 ,mr4 ,d4 began by speak+ ( ! object ( ! =mation ( ! class4 ,i %all adopt ! fir/ p]son 9 writ+ :at he said1 ?\gh ,i d n pret5d to give 8 words4 ,i h n invit$ y "h to amuse an idle h\r1 or to af=d y a topic ( conv]sation :5 y meet4 ,"o great design has be5 to *]i% 9 y a love ( home & ( solitude4 ,yet ?is is n all1 = ( :at advantage is x to be at home1 unless home is a place = ! unfold+ ( w>m affections8 & ( :at use is solitude1 unless x be improv$ by pati5t ?\ght1 self-/udy & a communion ) ^? great m9ds :o became great by ?9k+4 ,b x is n m]ely ?9k+ z an op]ation ( ! intellect t is necess>y2 x mu/ be affectionate ?9k+2 !re mu/ be he>tfelt love1 & ?is c be atta9$ only by a habit ( lov+4444 ,i w\ld n imp>t /]nness to ! beautiful c\nt5ance ( ,engli% lit]ature4 ,beautiful inde$ x is1 b n l ! beauty ( ! human face1 t may be discov]$ by all :o h eyes to look ^u x2 ! he>t z well z ! head mu/ engage1 or z ,col]idge says1 ! he>t 9 ! head4 ,let u n approa* ) c>elessness or light-m9d$ness4 ,poetry requires a peculi> /ate ( m9d1 a peculi> comb9ation ( m5tal & moral qualifications to be feel+ly appreh5d$4 ,b !re--,i w n write a ^w m4 ,x is a %ame to spoil any?+ s beautiful4 ,poor ,mr4 ,dana6 ,i hope he w nev] "k to :at he has be5 subject$4 ,w$nesday4--,ev]ybody has set out to invite me to visit !m4 ,i made two visits la/ ev5+1 "o to ,mrs4 ,rob9son1 :]e ,i _h a f9e opportunity to settle "s ( my ,hebrew difficulties ) ,pr(4 ,r41 & saw ,de ,wette's translations ( ,job4 ,?is ev5+ ,i am to make two m1 & to-morr[ ,i sp5d ! day out & receive company 9 ! ev5+4 ,s mu* = dissipation1 & = /udy4 ,,portl&1 ,m>* #a1 #ahcf4 ,i believe !re is sc>cely any bran* ( k 9 :i* ,i am s defici5t z hi/ory1 bo? ecclesia/ical & pr(ane4 ,i h nev] be5 mu* int]e/$ facts1 consid]$ simply z facts1 & t is ab\t all t is to be f\nd 9 mo/ hi/orical works4 ,! relations ( facts to ea* o!r & ( all to reason1 9 o!r words1 ! philosophy ( hi/ory1 are n (t5 to be f\nd 9 books1 & ,i h n hi!rto be5 able to supply ! want f my own m9d4 ,april #af1 #ahcf4--;,if my bump ( combativ5ess does n gr[ x won't be = want ( ex]cise4 ,i h _h ano!r dispute ( two h\rs' l5g? to-day ) ano!r p]son4 ,subjects1 ,c\s9--,locke--innate ideas--idea ( space--( _s-life1 mat]ialism--phr5ology--,upham--w9e--alco hol--etc4 ,june4--,my pati5ce has be5 sorely tri$ ?is aft]noon4 ,i 0 visit+ & ,col]idge 0 dragg$ 91 z x seem$ = ! express purpose ( provok+ me by abus+ him--j z anybody might %[ (f a lunatic4444 ,b ,i did n & nev] w dispute on su* subjects ) ^? :o seek n to "k ! tru?4 ,feb4 #f1 #ahcg4--,:y is x t our desires s inf9itely transc5d our capacities8 ,we grasp at ev]y?+--d s by ! v con/itution ( our natures2 & seize--less ?an no?+4 ,we c n re/ )\t p]fection 9 ev]y?+1 yet ! labor ( a life devot$ to "o ?+1 only %[s u h[ unatta9able x is4 ,i am oppress$ ) gloom--oh1 = light1 light1 light6 ,feb4 #bj?4--,alas6 my feel+s ( disc\ragem5t & despond5cy1 in/ead ( dim9i%+1 /r5g!n e day4 ,i h be5 ill = ! la/ =tnight2 & possibly physical causes h contribut$ to %r\d my m9d 9 ?is ?ick d>kness4 ,yet ,i c n believe t conviction s cle>1 conclusions s irresi/ible z ^? :i* weigh me d[n1 are entirely ! result ( morbid physical action4 ,9 ord] to prove t !y are n1 & to h ! means ( judg+ h]eaft] ( ! rationalness ( my pres5t judgm5ts1 ,i w record ! gr\nds ( my despond5cy4 ,z ne>ly z ,i c recollect1 ! ?\ght :i* (t5e/ press$ itself ^u me1 :5 ^! feel+s ( gloom began1 0 t ,i 0 liv+ to no purpose4 ,i 0 consci\s1 n only ( a conviction t ,i ought to live to d good1 b ( an int5se desire to d good--to "k t ,i 0 liv+ to "s purpose2 & ,i felt p]fectly c]ta9 t ?is k 0 ess5tial to my happ9ess4 ,i began to wond] t ,i _h be5 cont5t$ to seek k all my life = my own pleasure1 or ) an indef9ite idea t x might contribute 9 "s way to my usefulness1--)\t any di/9ct plan4444 ,i !n began to inquire :at results ,i _h ( all my labor :i* ,i h tak5 "u ! sun & ^! are my conclusions3 #a4 ,i h n t m5tal discipl9e1 or t comm& ( my own p[]s1 :i* is "o ( ! mo/ valuable results ( prop]ly direct$ /udy4 ,i c n grasp a subject at once1 & view x 9 all its be>+s4 #b4 ,i h n t self-k :i* is ano!r sure result ( prop] /udy4 ,i d n "k :at ,i am capable (1 nor :at ,i am p>ticul>ly fitt$ =1 nor :at ,i am mo/ defici5t 94 ,i am =ev] p\r+ into my own m9d1 & yet nev] f9d out :at is !re4 #c;d4 ,i h no pr9ciple ( arrangem5t or assimilation :i* might unite all my scatt]$ k4 ,oh1 h[ diff]5t if ,i _h _h "o def9ite object :i*1 l ! l5s1 %\ld conc5trate all ! scatt]$ rays to "o focus4 ,i met ) ?is rem>k ( ,sir ,eg]ton ,bridges to-day2 x applies to me exactly3 ,i h nev] met ) "o :o seem$ to h ! same ov]rul+ passion = lit]ature z ,i h always _h4 ,a ?\s& o!rs h pursu$ x ) m pr9ciple1 reason1 me?od1 fix$ purpose1 & effect2 m9e ,i admit to h be5 pure1 bl9d1 unregulat$ love4 #d?4 ,i h lo/ ! p[] ( ?9k+ = myself4 ,my memory1 :i* 0 orig9ally good1 has be5 s wa%$ away by ! floods ( tra% :i* h be5 p\r$ into x1 t n[ x sc>cely s]ves me at all4 ,a pleasant picture ?is ( a m9d1 :i* ought to be 9 ! full maturity ( its p[]s4 ,& mu* reason h ,i to hope t ) su* an in/rum5t ,i %all leave an impress on o!r m9ds6444 ,h[ ,i envy ! o!r sex6 ,!y h c]ta9 fix$ pa?s m>k$ out = !m--regul> pr(essions & trades--betwe5 :i* !y may make a *oice & "k :at !y h to d4 ,a fri5d1 to :om ,i _h spok5 ( "s ( ^! feel+s1 tri$ la/ night to conv9ce me t !y are ! result ( physical d]angem5t1 & n at all ! expression ( a sane m9d 9 a s\nd body4 ,i laugh$ at him1 b h e n[ & !n a suspicion t he 0 "r4 ,feb4 #be?4--,la/ ev5+ we _h ! company ( "s fri5ds :o are int]e/$ 9 ! subjects :i* ,i love mo/ to talk ab\t4 ,we _h a good deal ( conv]sation ab\t books1 au?ors1 ! laws ( m9d & _s1 etc4 ,my en?usiasm on ^! subjects reviv$2 ,i felt a g5ial gl[ result+ f ! action ( m9d ^u m9d1 & ! delight ( f9d+ sympa?y 9 my mo/ *]i%$ ta/es & pursuits4 ,:e!r x is ow+ to ?is or n1 ,i c n say2 b ,i mu/ confess to a new *ange ( mood1 &1 consequ5tly1 ( op9ion4 ,i mean t my /udies h n only rega9$ _! =m] attractions 9 my eyes1 b t x seems unque/ionably "r & prop] to pursue !m 7:5 !y int]f]e ) no positive duty7 z a means ( exp&+ & /r5g!n+ ! m9d-- ev5 :5 ,i c n po9t out ! precise use ,i expect to make ( su* acquisition4444 ,"o ( my fri5ds tri$ to conv9ce me la/ night t ,i 0 n defici5t 9 inv5tion1 because ,i assign$ ! fact t ,i am s1 z a reason = attempt+ translation r ?an orig9al writ+4 ,sev]al o!rs h labor$ to conv9ce me ( ! same ?+4 ,/range t !y c be s mi/ak56 ,i "k t ,i h no fancy1 f hav+ tri$ to ex]t x2 &1 z ?is is ! l[] p[] & impli$ 9 imag9ation1 ( c\rse ,i h none ( ! latt] faculty4 ,! only two ?+s :i* look l x are my en?usiasm & my reli% = works ( a high imag9ative ord]4 ,feb4 #bh?4--444 ,oh1 h[ transport+--h[ inf9ite w be ! delight :5 all tru? %all bur/ ^u u z ,,"o beautiful & p]fect :ole--ea* di/9ct ray h>monis+ & bl5d+ ) e o!r1 & all toge!r =m+ "o mighty flood ( radiance6444 ,i c n rememb] all ! ?\ghts :i* h giv5 s mu* pleasure ?is ev5+2 ,i only "k t ,i h be5 v happy1 & wond]$ n a little at my late melan*oly4 ,i believe x mu/ h be5 p>tly caus$ by look+ at myself 7& t1 too1 z if ,i 7 a little1 mis]able1 isolat$ wret*71 in/ead ( contemplat+ ^? ?+s :i* h no relation to space & "t & matt]--! et]nal & ! inf9ite--or1 if ,i ?\ght ( myself at all1 feel+ t ,i am "p ( a great & wond]ful :ole4 ,x seems z if a new inn] s5se _h be5 op5$1 reveal+ to me a _w ( beauty & p]fection t ,i h nev] be=e se54 ,i am fill$ ) a /range1 yet sweet a/oni%m5t4 ,sept4 #bd1 #ahcg4--;,i h be5 pr(\ndly int]e/$ 9 ! "* ( ,goe!1 f read+ ,mrs4 ,au/9's ,*>act]i/ics ( him4 ,c]ta9ly1 v few m5 h ev] liv$ ( equally wond]ful p[]s4 ,a ?+ mo/ rem>kable 9 him is :at ! ,g]mans call ,vielseitigkeit1 _m-sid$ness4 ,!re 0 no dep>tm5t ( sci5ce or art ( :i* he 0 :olly ignorant1 :ile 9 v _m ( bo? classes 8 k 0 accurate & pr(\nd4 ,mo/ m5 :o h atta9$ to di/+ui%$ excell5ce1 h done s by conf9+ !mselves to a s+le dep>tm5t--frequ5tly be+ l$ to ! *oice by a /rong1 orig9al bias4 ,ev5 :5 ?is is n ! case1 !re is "s class ( objects or pursuits1 t[>ds :i* a p>ticul> incl9ation is manife/$2 "o loves facts1 & devotes himself to obs]vations & exp]im5ts2 ano!r loves pr9ciples & seeks ev]y:]e to discov] a law4 ,"o *]i%es ! ,ideal1 & neglects & despises ! ,real1 :ile ano!r rev]ses 8 judgm5t4 ,we h become s accu/om$ to ?is "o-sid$ness t x occasions no wond]1 & is reg>d$ z ! natural /ate ( ! m9d4 ,?us we are /ruck ) a/oni%m5t on f9d+ a m9d l ,goe!'s equally at home 9 ! ,ideal & ! ,real2 equally int]e/$ 9 ! laws ( poetical criticism1 & ! !ory ( colors1 equally att5tive to a draw+ ( a new species ( plants1 & to ! plan ( a railroad or canal4 ,9 %ort1 ) ! mo/ delicate s5se ( ! ,beautiful1 ! mo/ accurate conception ( ! mode ( its repres5tation1 & ! mo/ int5se long+ = x 7:i* alone w\ld h suffic$ to make him an ,ideali/7 he unit$ a fondness = obs]vation1 a love ( ! actual 9 nature1 & a susceptibility to deep impressions f & int]e/ 9 ! objects ( s5se1 :i* w\ld h seem$ to m>k him out = a ,reali/4 ,b is n ?is ! true /ale ( ! m9d1 in/ead ( be+2 "o :i* %\ld excite a/oni%m5t8 ,is x n "o-sid$ness r ?an _m-sid$ness t %\ld be reg>d$ z /range8 ,is x n z mu* an evid5ce ( disease z ! prepond]ance ( "o elem5t or function 9 ! physical con/itution8 #bf?4--,i h be5 ?9k+ m ab\t ?is _m-sid$ness ( ,goe!4 ,x is by no means t v]satility :i* di/+ui%es s _m second-rate g5iuses1 :i* incl9es to ! selection ( _m pursuits1 b seldom p]mits ! atta9m5t ( di/+ui%$ excell5ce 9 "o4 ,x 0 "o & ! same pr9ciple act+ ?r\gh\t1 ! /riv+ aft] unity4 ,x 0 ?is :i* made him seek to idealise ! actual1 & to actualise ! ,ideal4 ,! =m] he attempt$ by se>*+ 9 ea* outw>d object = ! law :i* gov]n$ its exi/5ce & ( :i* its outw>d developm5t 0 b an imp]fect symbol1 ! latt] by giv+ =m & consi/5cy to ! creations ( 8 own fancy4 ,?us ! "o 0 ev]-pres5t to him1 & he s\ght x n 9 "o pa?1 among ! objects ( "o sci5ce alone1 b ev]y:]e 9 nature & out4 ,9 all t 0 g5u9e nature he knew t x 0 to be f\nd2 t x 0 n to be f\nd 9 ! acquir$ & ! artificial 0 p]haps ! reason ( 8 av]sion = !m4 ,?is av]sion he c>ri$ s f> t ev5 acquir$ virtue 0 di/a/eful to him4 ,:atev] may be ?\ght ( su* a di/a/e e/hetically1 we mu/ ?9k t1 morally1 x 0 c>ry+ 8 pr9ciple r to an extreme4 ,i h j come across a plan ( /udy :i* ,i =m$ "s mon?s ago & ,i c\ld n b smile to see h[ no?+ ( x has be5 accompli%$4 ,i 0 to divide my att5tion betwe5 philosophy1 language 7n languages71 & poetry4 ,! =m] ,i 0 to /udy by topics2 e4g41 take ! subject ( p]ception1 write out my own ideas ^u x1 if ,i _h any1 & !n read ^? ( o!r p4 ,9 /udy+ language1 or r e?nography1 ,i int5d$--#a4 ,to take ! ,hebrew roots1 trace all ! d]ivatives & relat$ words fir/ 9 t language1 !n 9 o!rs4 #b4 ,to exam9e words relat+ to ! spiritual1 ) a view to discov] _! orig9al picture-mean+4 #c4 ,se>* = a type or symbol 9 nature ( e spiritual fact4 ,"u ! head ( poetry ,i mean1 to /udy ! great ma/]s ( epic & dramatic poetry1 especially ,%akspe>e & ,milton1 & f !m make out a sci5ce ( criticism4 ,alas6 ,april #e1 #ahch4--;,i h be5 ?9k+ ab\t myself--:at a /range1 wayw>d1 incompreh5sible be+ ,i am1 & h[ completely misund]/ood by almo/ ev]ybody4 ,unit+ excessive pride ) excessive s5sitiv5ess1 ! greate/ ardor & passionat5ess ( emotion ) an irresolute w1 a disposition to di/ru/1 9 s f> only z ! affection ( o!rs = me is conc]n$1 ) ! extreme ( confid5ce & cr$ulity 9 ev]y?+ else--an incapability ( express+1 except occasionally z x 7 9 gu%es1 any /rong feel+--a t5d5cy to melan*oly1 yet ) a susceptibility ( enjoym5t almo/ transport+--subject to ! mo/ sudd51 unacc\ntable & irresi/ible *anges ( mood--capable ( be+ melt$ & m\ld$ to any?+ by k9dness1 b z cold & unyield+ z a rock aga9/ h>%ness & compulsion--su* are "s ( ! peculi>ities :i* excell5tly prep>e me = un-happ9ess4 ,x is true t sometimes ,i am consci\s ( none ( !m--:5 = days toge!r ,i pursue my regul> r\t9e ( /udies & employm5ts1 half me*anically--or :5 completely "u ! influ5ce ( ! outw>d1 ,i live = a "t 9 :at is ar\nd me4 ,b ?is nev] la/s long4 ,"o ( ! mo/ pa9ful feel+s ,i ev] "k is ! s5se ( an unappeasable crav+ = sympa?y & appreciation--! desire to be und]/ood & lov$1 unit$ ) ! conviction t ?is desire c nev] be gratifi$4 ,i feel alone1 diff]5t f all o!rs & ( c\rse misund]/ood by !m4 ,! only o!r feel+ ,i h m mis]able ?an ?is is ! s5se ( be+ worse ?an all o!rs1 & utt]ly de/itute ( any?+ excell5t or beautiful4 ,oh6 :at my/]ies are wrapp$ up 9 ! m9d & he>t ( man6 ,:at a developm5t w be made :5 ! light ( ano!r _w %all be let 9 ^u ^! imp5etrable recesses6 ,,bo/on1 ,jan4 #g1 #ahci4--;,i came "h on ! la/ day ( ! la/ ye>1 & h s9ce !n be5 v mu* occupi$ 9 diff]5t ways4 ,ye/]day1 ,i he>d ,presid5t ,hopk9s all day1 & 9 ! ev5+1 a lecture f ,dr4 ,foll5 on ,pan!ism4 ,! mo/ ab/ract ( all pan!i/ic sy/ems he describ$ to be t ( ! ,brahmans1 z taught 9 ! ,v$as & ,v$a%ta1 & also at fir/ by ,s*ell+1 viz41 t ! absolute is ! fir/ pr9ciple ( all ?+s2 & ?is absolute is n to be conceiv$ ( z possess+ any attribute at all--n ev5 t ( exi/5ce4 ,a sy/em a little less ab/ract is t ( ! ,eleatics1 :o believ$ 9 ! absolute z exi/+4 ,!n t ( ,giordano ,bruno1 :o made s\l & matt] ! =mative pr9ciple & ! pr9cipal recipi5t ( =ces--to be ! gr\nd ( ! univ]se4 ,!n ,sp9oza1 :o po/ulat$ ?\ght z ! repres5tative ( ! spiritual1 & ext5sion z t ( ! mat]ial pr9ciple2 & ^! toge!r are 8 orig9aux4 ,f !nce sprang ! spiritual pan!i/s--su* z ,s*ell+1 ,fi*te1 & ,hegel--& ! mat]ial pan!i/s4 ,w$nesday1 ,april #aj?4--,to-morr[ ,i g to ,&ov]4 ,h be5 indescribably hurri$ ( late4 ,h f9i%$ ,claudius--am read+ ,prome!us & ,kant's ,critique4 ,april #ai?4--,am read+ ,s5eca's ,m$ea & ,s\!y's ,life ( ,c[p]4 ,,&ov]1 ,may #ac?4--,dr4 ,woods 0 rem>k+ to-day at d9n] on ! influ5ce ( hope 9 su/a9+ "u ! sev]e/ suff]+s4 ,x recall$ a ?\ght :i* occurr$ to me ! o!r day 9 read+ ,prome!us2 t1 reg>d$ z an example ( unyield+ det]m9ation & unconqu]able =titude he is n equal to ,milton's ,satan4 ,= he has be=e him n only ! hope1 b ! c]ta9ty ( ultimate deliv]ance1 :]eas ,satan be>s himself up1 by ! m]e =ce ( 8 w1 unsu/a9$ by hope1 :i* comes to all1 b n to him4 #ae?4--,x has j occurr$ to me t ! doctr9e ( ! s\l's mortality seems to h no po9t ( contact ) humanity4 ,x surely c n h be5 ent]ta9$ z be+ agreeable to man's wi%es4 ,& :at is !re 9 ! sy/em ( ?+s1 or 9 ! nature ( ! m9d1 to sugge/ x8 ,on ! contr>y1 ev]y?+ looks 9 an opposite direction4 ,h[ is x possible to help see+ t ! s\l is n "h 9 its prop] elem5t1 9 its native air8 ,h[ is x possible to escape ! conviction t all its unsatisfi$ ye>n+s1 its baffl$ aims1 its re/less1 agoniz+ aspir+s aft] a some?+1 cle>ly p]ceiv$ to exi/1 b to be "h unatta9able--t all ^! ?+s po9t to ano!r life1 ! only true life ( ! s\l8 ,!re is su* a manife/ disproportion betwe5 all objects ( e>?ly atta9m5t & ! capacities ( ! _s1 t1 unless man is immortal1 he is va/ly m to be piti$ ?an ! meane/ reptile t crawls ^u ! e>?4 ,s ,i ?\ght z ,i 0 walk+ ?is morn+ & saw a frog swimm+ 9 a puddle ( wat]4 ,i c\ld h>dly help envy+ him :5 ,i consid]$ t 8 condition 0 suit$ to 8 nature1 & t he has no wants :i* are n suppli$4 ,june #ag?4--,i am read+ ,goe!'s ,conv]sations ) ,eck]mann4 ,"o ?+ ,i rem>k is ?is--he does n1 z mo/ m5 d1 make ! degree ( sympa?y he f9ds 9 o!rs ! measure ( 8 int]e/ 9 !m & att5tion to !m4 ,goe! look$ at all z specim5s ( human nature1 &1 !re=e1 all wor?y ( /udy4 ,b1 aft] all1 ?is way ( look+ at o!rs seems to be m suit$ to ! arti/ ?an to ! man2 & ,i c n conceive ( any b a v passionless & immobile p]son :o c\ld d x4444 ,does all nature furni% "o type ( ! s\l8 ,if s1 x might be ! ocean2 ! r\gh1 swell+1 fluctuat+1 uns\nd$ ocean4 ,%all x ev] re/8 ,re/8 ,:at an inf9ite1 m\rnful sweetness 9 ! ^w6 ,h[ p]fectly sure ,i feel t my s\l c nev] re/ 9 itself1 nor 9 any?+ ( e>?2 if ,i f9d peace1 x mu/ be 9 ! bosom ( ,god4 ,july #b;d4--,! vulg> prov]b1 ,x nev] ra9s b x p\rs1 is fully illu/rat$ 9 my case4 ,la/ week ,i w\ld h giv5 half ! _w = a new book2 ye/]day & today h ov]flood$ me4 ,mr4 ,hubb>d has s5t me ,pr(4 ,p>k's ,g]man ,selections1 ,pl9y1 ,he]5's ,anci5t ,greece1 two volumes ( ! ,biblical ,repository1 & two ( 8 own magaz9es2 ,mr4 ,judd has s5t me two volumes ( ,c>lyle1 & ,mr4 ,ripley f\r ( ,less+--all ( ^! mu/ be despat*$ la hte4 ,july #e?4--,la/ ev5+ we sp5t ^u ! ,common witness+ a beautiful exhibition ( fireworks4 ,?is morn+ ,i h be5 to ,union :>f to see ! dep>ture ( "s mission>ies4 ,= a few m9utes1 "t seem$ a speck & et]nity ne>--b h[ transi5t ) me are su* impressions6 ,i am indulg+ myself too mu* ( late 9 a sort ( s5tim5tal rev]ie4 ,life & its *anges1 ! dep?s ( ! s\l1 ! fluctuations ( passion & feel+--^! are ! subjects :i* attract my ?\ghts p]petually4444 ,we sp5t la/ ev5+ at ,ri*>d ,h4 ,dana's4 ,he does n sep>ate 8 intellectual & s5tim5tal ta/es f 8 moral convictions z ,i d--,i mean t nei!r 9 books nor m5 does he f9d pleasure unless !y are su* z 8 consci5ce approves4 ,tuesday1 #i?4--,h visit$ ! ,all/on gall]y & se5 ,rosalie = ! la/ "t be=e go+ home4 ,i c\ld n h believ$ t ,i %\ld feel su* a pang at p>t+ f a picture4 ,i did n succe$ 9 gett+ to ! gall]y be=e o!rs--b1 no matt]4 ,i =got ! pres5ce ( ev]ybody else & sat = an h\r be=e ,rosalie )\t mov+4 ,i took leave ( ! o!r pictures m5tally1 = ,i c\ld n look4 ,f>ewell1 sweet ,beatrice1 lovely ,inez1 beautiful ,ursul9a--de>1 de> ,rosalie1 f>ewell6 ,monday1 #ae?4--,ye/]day ,i 0 happy2 to-day ,i am n exactly unhappy1 b morbid & anxi\s4 ,i feel cont9ually ! pressure ( obligation to write some?+1 9 ord] to contribute t[>d ! support ( ! family--& yet1 ,i c n write4 ,"m wants me to write *ildr5's books2 ,lizzy wants me to write a book ( ,natural ,philosophy = s*ools4 ,i wi% ,i _h a vocation4 ,sabba?4--,/ay$ at home on acc\nt ( ! ra9 & read "o ( ,?oluck's s]mons to ,julia4 ,wrote 9 my o!r j\rnal "s acc\nt ( my ?\ghts & feel+s4 ,burn$ up "p ( an old di>y4 ,?ursday1 ,july #be?4--,my s\l is d>k4 ,:at ) ! s9 ,i f9d )9 me1 & ! d>kness & error1 disputes & p]plexities ar\nd me1 ,i well-nigh despair4 ,:e!r ,i seek to discov] tru? or to live x1 ,i am equally unsuccessful4 ,i grope at noon-day z 9 ! night4 ,b !re is a ,god1 holy & *angeless4 ,he is4 ,f et]nity to et]nity1 ,he ,,is4 ,on ?is ,rock w ,i re/----4 ,i /opp$ a mom5t & my eye 0 caught by ! wav+ trees4 ,:at d !y say to me8 ,h[ sil5t !y are6 & yet h[ eloqu5t6 ,& "h ,i sit--to myself ! c5tre ( ! _w1 wond]+ & speculat+ ab\t ?is same little self4 ,d ! trees s8 ,no2 !y wave & b5d & bloom = o!rs4 ,i am ready to jo9 ) ,h]b]t 9 wi%+ t ,i 7 a tree2 !n ,at lea/ "s bird w\ld tru/ ,h] h\sehold to me1 & ,i %\ld be j4 ,ev5+4--,i read to-day ano!r ( ,less+'s trag$ies--,miss ,s>ah ,sampson1--:i* ,i d n l ne>ly z well z ,m9a von ,b>nhelm4 ,we 7 engag$ to take tea ) ! ,mayor1 & w5t ) _m trembl+s & hesitations on acc\nt ( ! ra94 ,v few !re1 & a mo/ uncommonly /upid "t4 ,saturday ,ev5+4--,i h be5 alone = a little :ile1 &1 z usual1 ?is "t br+s ) x ?rong+ remembrances ( abs5t fri5ds4 ,_! =ms flit be=e me2 _! spirits are ar\nd me2 ,i feel _! pres5ce--almo/2 de> fri5ds1 almo/ ,i clasp y 9 my arms4 ,my s\l ye>ns = love & sympa?y4 ,i d bless & praise my ,god = all ,8 goodness to me 9 ?is respect1 = my _m t5d] & fai?ful & devot$ fri5ds4 ,"p ( ! day ,i sp5t 9 arrang+ %ells 9 my cab9et ( draw]s4 ,?is aft]noon ,i w5t to ,mr4 ,pr5tiss' libr>y & obta9$ ,s*legel's ,lectures on ,dramatic ,art & ,lit]ature4 ,monday ,morn+4--,h be5 try+ to r\se myself to write ,less+1 b c n4 ,x looks s little4 ,:5 x is all done1 :at w x am\nt to8 ,:y1 ,i %all get a few doll>s = "m1 :i* w g to buy bread & butt]--& t's ! end ( x4 ,ev5+4--,s4 ,w4 & ,m4 ,w4 made a call on u & ! =m] play$ & sang4 ,!n we sat up till aft] elev5 nam+ ea* ( our acqua9tances aft] "s fl[]4 ,aug4 #h?1--,oh1 :at a happy half h\r ,i _h la/ ev5+1 look+ at ! sky aft] sunset6 ,we w5t d[n to ! wat]--x 0 smoo? z a cry/al lake4 ,! horizon 0 all 9 a gl[--! s(te/1 mell[e/1 w>me/ gl[1 & above d>k1 heavy cl\ds ( e v>iety ( =m--! cl\ds & ! gl[ alike reflect$ 9 ! answ]+ heav5 bel[--,i 0 almo/ too happy2 b--x fad$4 ,ev5+4--,i _h some?+ to wake me up ?is aft]noon1 viz41 ! arrival ( ! ,july ,no4 ( ! ,new ,york ,review1 conta9+ ,claudius4 ,?is l$ to "s conv]sation ab\t writ+1 its pecuni>y pr(itabl5ess1 subjects = x1 etc4 ,julia wi%$ ,i w\ld take "s o!r topics besides ,g]man au?ors1 b :5 ,i told h] ! alt]native w\ld be metaphysics1 %e laugh$ & retract$ ! wi%4 ,we !n laugh$ ov] sev]al s*emes su* z ^!--t "o ( u %\ld write a review & ano!r make ! book = x aft]w>d2 t ,i %\ld review "s book :i* did n exi/ & give pr(ess$ extracts f x1 etc4 ,soon aft] ,mrs4 ,d4 came 9 & began to talk ab\t ,und9e1 :i* %e & h] husb& h j be5 read+--! new translation4 ,i 0 amus$ at _! op9ion ( x4 ,! mo/ absurd1 ridicul\s /ory1 %e said--) no rationality1 no?+ t "o c und]/& 9 x--& s on1 %[+ t %e _h n ! slighte/ idea ( a "w ( fancy m]ely4 ,i h be5 wi%+1 z ,i (t5 d1 = "s records ( my pa/ life4 ,:at c\ld ,i n give = a daily j\rnal z m9ute z ?is1 beg9n+ f my *ildhood6 ,my pa/ life is mo/ly a blank to me4 ,aug4 #ae?4--,i am beg9n+ to see dimly "s new tru?s--su* ,i believe !m to be--9 !ology4 ,i am incl9$ to ?9k1 b d n feel sure1 t ,r$emption1 in/ead ( be+ m]ely a necess>y rem$y = a great evil1 is 9 itself ! highe/ positive good1 & t ! /ate into :i* x br+s man1 ( union ) ,god1 is a f> nobl] & bett] condition ?an t ( primitive innoc5ce1 & at ! same "t a condition atta9able 9 no o!r way ?an ?r\gh r$emption1 &1 ( c\rse1 ?r\gh s94 ,9 ?is case ! plan ( r$emption1 in/ead ( be+ an aft]?\ght ( ! div9e m9d 7speak+ an?ropomorphically71 is t 9 ref]5ce to :i* ! :ole _w-sy/em 0 contriv$4 ,^! ?\ghts 7 p>tly sugge/$ by read+ ,s*lei]ma*]1 :o1 if ,i und]/& him1 has "s su* notions4 ,if !re is any tru? 9 !m1 d !y n ?r[ light on ! mu*-vex$ "q :y ,god p]mitt$ ! introduction ( moral evil8 ,ano!r po9t :i* ,i feel confid5t is misund]/ood by our !ologians is ! nature ( ! r$emptive act4 ,! "w ( ,*ri/ 9 r$emption is g5]ally expla9$ to be ,8 inc>nation1 suff]+s1 & dea?1 by :i* ,he made atonem5t to ju/ice = ! s9s ( ! _w4 ,?is1 x is true1 is a "p ( :at ,he did2 x is t "p :i* ,he p]=m$ 9 ref]5ce to ,god & ,8 law1 b x is n :at ,col]idge calls ! spiritual & transc5d5t act by :i* ,he made u "o ) ,himself1 & ?us secur$ ! possibility ( our re/oration to spiritual life4 ,aug4 #ag?4--,h devot$ almo/ ! :ole day to ,col]idge's ,lit]>y ,rema9s1 :i* ,mr4 ,dav5port br\ght me4 ,my admiration1 ev5 v5]ation1 = 8 almo/ unequall$ p[] is great] ?an ev]1 b ,i c n help ?9k+ t 8 /udies--"s ( !m--ex]t$ an unfavorable influ5ce ^u him1 especially1 p]haps1 ,sp9oza4 ,aug4 #bb;d--,mr4 ,p>k s5t me ! ,life ( ,mack9to% by 8 son4 ,i rejoic$ mu* too soon ov] x1 = x proves v un9t]e/+4 ,?is is p>tly to be acc\nt$ = f my want ( int]e/ 9 politics1 etc4 ,9 great measure1 h[ev]1 x is ! fault ( ! biograph]1 :o has %[n u ! man at a di/ance1 on /ilts1 or at be/ only 9 8 mo/ outw>d circum/ances1 nev] lett+ u "k1 z ,c>lyle says1 :at sort ( /ock+s he wore1 & :at he ate = d9n]4 ,i don't ?9k ,sir ,james himself has mu* inw>dness to him1 b c]ta9ly 8 son has %[n u only ! out]mo/ %ell4 ,h read ! ,iliad & ,s*lei]ma*] to-day4 ,aug4 #bd?4--,a que] circum/ance happ5$ ?is ev5+4 ,col4 ,k9sman & ,mr4 ,c4 ,s4 ,davies call$4 ,i 0 consid]+ :at unusual occurr5ce c\ld h br\ght ,mr4 ,d4 "h1 :5 he increas$ my wond] /ill m by disclos+ 8 err&4 ,he _h receiv$1 he said1 a lett] f ,pr(4 ,woods1 reque/+ t ,i1 or a lady ^: ta/e 0 z correct 9 dress z 9 lit]ature1 w\ld decide ^u ! fa%ion ( a g[n to be worn by him at 8 inauguration z ,presid5t ( ,b[do9 ,college1 & =?) procure su* a g[n to be made4 ,aug4 #be?4--,i h be5 read+ ! second volume ( ,mack9to%1 :i* is mu* bett] ?an ! fir/1 & gives a high] op9ion ( him4 ,he is c]ta9ly well describ$ by ,col]idge z ! k+ ( m5 ( tal5t4 ,x is curi\s1 by ! way1 to comp>e :at ,m4 says ( ,c43 ,x is impossible to give a /rong] example ( a man1 ^: tal5ts are b5ea? 8 und]/&+1 & :o tru/s to 8 +5uity to atone = 8 ignorance4444 ,%akespe>e & ,burke are1 if ,i may v5ture on ! expression1 above tal5t2 b ,col]idge is n6 ,ah1 well--de gu/ibus1 etc4 ,i h be5 z busy z a bee all day2 wrote notes1 prep>$ = leav+ home1 read ,s*lei]ma*]1 & ,philip von ,artevelde1 :i* delight$ me2 walk$ aft] tea ) ,lizzy1 !n exam9$ my pap]s to see :at is to be burn$4 ,i wi% ,i knew :at ,i 0 made =--,i mean1 9 p>ticul>--:at ,i c d1 & :at ,i ought to d4 ,i c n be> to live a life ( lit]>y self-indulg5ce1 :i* is no bett] ?an ano!r self-indulg5ce4 ,i d want to be ( "s use 9 ! _w1 b ,i am inf9itely p]plex$ z to ! h[ & ! :at4 ,aug4 #bf?4--,hurri$ ?r\gh ! la/ #bjj pages ( ,mack9to% today4 ,on ! :ole1 !re is mu* to l z well z to admire 9 him4 ,"o ?+ puzzles me 9 8 case z 9 o!rs3 ,h[ m5 :o give no signs ?r\gh a long life ( any?+ m ?an ! mo/ cold & di/ant respect = religion--! mo/ unfrequ5t & un9t]e/$ remembrance1 if any at all--( ! ,savi\r1 all at once become s dev\t--,i mean x n disrespectfully--on _! dea?-b$s4 ,:at /range d\bts ?is & o!r l my/]ies sugge/6 ,aft] tea ,i c>ri$ a b\quet to ,mrs4 ,fr5*4 ,saw all ! way a sky s magnific5t t words c d no ju/ice to x--spl5dors pil$ on spl5dors1 till my s\l 0 fairly sick ) admiration4 ,mrs4 ,fr5* ask$ me if life ev] look$ sad & we>isome to me4 ,ev]6 ,,bo/on1 ,saturday morn+1 ,sept4 #h?--,! ra9 keeps me home f *ur*1 b ,i /ill h ! m "t = read+ & reflection4 ,at e *ange 9 my outw>d situation ,i f9d myself =m+ new purposes & plans = ! future4444 ,i w tru/ t1 by ! grace ( ,god1 ! ensu+ w9t] %all be a p]iod ( m vigor\s ef=t & m p]sev]+ self-culture ?an any previ\s season ( my life4 ,above all1 let me rememb] t intellectual culture is wor?less :5 dissociat$ f moral progress2 t true spiritual gr[? embraces bo?2 & ! latt] z ! basis & m\ld ( ! =m]4 ,let me rememb]1 too1 t 9 ! univ]se ev]y?+ may be _h = a price1 b no?+ c be _h )\t price4 ,! price ( successful self-culture is unremitt$ toil1 labor1 & self-d5ial2 am ,i will+ to pay x8 ,i feel t ,i ne$ light & /r5g? & life2 may ,i f9d !m 9 ,*ri/6 ,z to /udies1 ,i mean to /udy ! ,bible mu*2 also dogmatic !ology--:i* ( late has an increas+ int]e/ = me--& ecclesia/ical hi/ory4 ,to ! ,_s ( all ,tru? ,i surr5d] my m9d4 ,monday4--,i h fall5 9 ) ,sw$5borg's writ+s4 ,wond] :e!r ! de/9y :i* seems to br+ to u j :at we *ance to be int]e/$ 9 is a real ord9ance ( fate or only a seem+ "o--because int]e/ 9 a subject makes u obs]vant4 ,am read+ ,greek ) ,julia4 ,we began ! six? book ( ! ,iliad4 ,tuesday4--,fifty l9es 9 ,hom]2 ,companion pro(s2 ,s*lei]ma*]2 ! prologue & fir/ sc5e ( ,t]5ce's com$y ( ,&ria2 two ,nos4 ( ,n4 ,nickleby1 & walk$ r\nd ! ,common ) ,julia twice4 ,w$nesday4--,/udies ! same z ye/]day1 except t ,i read less ( ,s*lei]ma*] & sp5t an h\r or s ^u ,less+4 ,read ,mu* ,ado ab\t ,no?+1 & dislik$ ,beatrice less ?an ev] be=e4 ,b ,i am n satisfi$ ) ,claudio2 he is n half sorry & remorseful en\gh = ! suppos$ dea? ( ,h]o--& !n to ?9k ( 8 be+ will+ to m>ry ano!r "r (f6 ,oh1 x is abom9able6 ,walk$ ov] f\r miles 9 ! morn+1 & out aga9 be=e tea4 ,tuesday1 ,sept4 #ag?--,well4 ,! family are (f--,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,willis1 & ,julia too--& ! ,record] & ,companion #aj are left = a =tnight 9 my *>ge4 ,i h be5 mu* int]e/$ 9 :at ,i h read to-day 9 ,s*lei]ma*]4 ,x is 8 evolution ( ! idea ( ,god--if ,i may s say--f holy1 human consci\sness4 ,x recalls "s ?\ghts :i* ,i _h on ?is subject once be=e1 & :i* ,i began to write ab\t4 ,my notion 0 ?is--t an absolutely p]fect idea ( man implies1 conta9s an idea ( ,god4 ,i h a great m9d to try & make some?+ out ( x1 only ,i am s hurri$ j n[4 ,!y keep s5d+ me pap]s to make selections = ! ,record]1 & ,i h j be5 writ+ an article = ! ,companion4 ,i sp5d half my "t look+ ov] newspap]s4 ,d\ble1 d\ble toil & tr\ble2 mo/ we>isome & pr(itless4 ,w\ld n edit a pap] = ! _w4 ,no tru? c be said to be se5 z x is until x is se5 9 its relation to all o!r tru?s4 ,9 ?is relation only is x true4444 ,no error is und]/ood till we h se5 all ! tru? !re is 9 x1 &1 !re=e1 z ,col]idge says1 y mu/ und]/& an au?or's ignorance1 or conclude y\rself ignorant ( 8 und]/&+4 ,monday1 #cj?4--,i h be5 v happy ?is aft]noon--writ+ all ! "t ) a g5ial fl[ ( ?\ght & )\t ef=t4 ,h[ ,i love to feel t = ?is ,i am indebt$ to ,god4 ,he is my intellectual s\rce1 ! ,fa!r ( my _s1 z well z ! au?or ( ev]y?+ morally good 9 me4 ,friday1 ,oct4 #d?4--,i h be5 too busy read+ & writ+ = ! la/ few days to f9d "t = my j\rnal4 ,i g on ) ,s*lei]ma*] & h resum$ ,less+4 ,i am read+ ! ,memoir ( ,mrs4 ,s4 ,l4 ,smi? & ,tappan's ,review ( ,edw>ds on ! ,w4 ,fifty l9es 9 ! ,iliad ) ,julia4 ,f9i%$ ! ,&ria & to-day began ! ,adelphi4 ,i am amus$ at comp>+ ! com$y ( t day ) ! mod]n ,fr5* s*ool4 ,davus 9 ,&ria is b a r\gh sket* ( ,moli]e's valet1 & ! :ole plot is s bungl+ 9 comp>ison4 ,h _h v few attacks ( melan*oly lately2 because1 ,i suppose1 my heal? is good & ,i am con/antly employ$4 ,ev5+4--,i nev] came ne>] los+ my wits ) delight ?an ?is aft]noon4 ,w5t to call on ,mr4 & ,mrs4 ,ripley1 & saw 8 f9e libr>y ( ,g]man books4 ,! sight 0 en\gh to excite me to ! utmo/1 b to be told t !y 7 all at my s]vice put me into su* an ec/asy t ,i c\ld h>dly behave ) dec5cy4 ,i select$ sev]al imm$iately & promis$ myself full] exam9ation ( ! libr>y v soon4444 ,mr4 ,r4 propos$ to me to translate some?+ = 8 s]ies4 ,%all ,i8 #aa ,sabba? ,ev5+1 ,oct4 #ac?4--,i h j be5 writ+ to my de> bro!r ,g41 = :om z well z = my o!r bro!rs1 ,i feel ! greate/ solicitude4 ,i h sep>ate s\rces ( anxiety = ea* ( !m1 & hope t ! int5s5ess ( ?is anxiety w make me m e>ne/ 9 comm5d+ !m to ,god4 ,oct4 #ad?4--,gave up ! "t usually devot$ to ,less+ to writ+ two articles = ! ,"m's ,magaz9e4 ,read ,hom]1 & ! #adi? & #aej? ,psalms & ! fir/ *apt] ( ,g5esis 9 ,hebrew4 ,read or r /udi$ ,s*lei]ma*]4 ,correct$ pro(4 ,read sev]al articles 9 ! ,biblical ,repository--"o by ,pr(4 ,p>k--al\d to ,julia4 ,on ! :ole1 ,i h be5 pretty indu/ri\s4 ,oh1 h[ _m reasons ,i h = gratitude6 ,heal?1 fri5ds1 books--no?+ is want+ b ! he>t to enjoy ,god 9 all4 ,wrote to "m4 ,oct4 #ag?4--,?is morn+ de> ,lizzy came2 ( c\rse ! day has be5 giv5 up to miscellanies4 ,oct4 #ba/4--,mr4 ,albro #ab call$ & /ay$ till d9n]-"t4 ,aft] d9n] read ,greek ) ,julia & !n wrote a notice ( ,ges5ius' ,hebrew ,gramm>1 & !n set (f = ,lucy's1 :]e ! o!rs 7 already gone4 ,mr4 ,albro has conclud$ to read ,s*lei]ma*] ) me--t is1 to keep along at ! same rate1 t we may talk ab\t x4 ,lett] f "m1 & notes f ,mr4 ,condit & ,mr4 ,haml91 ) a copy ( ,payson's ,?\ghts 9 ,arm5ian4 ,h j f9i%$ read+ ,mr4 ,ripley's ,reply to ,mr4 ,norton4 ,mr4 ,willis is =m+ a ,bible-class = me to tea* on ! ,sabba?--am v glad4 ,nov4 #ad?4--,f9i%$ ,less+ ye/]day1 & hope = a little re/ f hurry4 ,%all resume ,s*lei]ma*] & take up ,fi*te on ! ,de/9ation ( ,man4 ,nov4 #bbnd4--,i am afraid t ,i may h to be resign$ to a v great mis=tune2 namely1 to ! p>tial loss ( eyesight--= a "t at lea/2 s ye/]day ,i resolv$ to give !m a holiday1 ?\gh sorely aga9/ my w1 by n op5+ a book ! :ole day4 ,:e!r ,i %\ld h succe$$ 9 obs]v+ su* a desp]ate resolution )\t ! aid ( circum/ances is q problematical1 b ,mr4 ,gray opportunely came ) a reque/ t ,i %\ld take a ride ) him to ,cambridge1 & visit ! libr>ies !re4 ,?is occupi$ f\r or five h\rs1 & a lyceum lecture provid$ = ! ev5+4 ,i h always congratulat$ myself on be+ s little dep5d5t on o!rs = ent]ta9m5t--b nev] consid]$ h[ entirely ,i am dep5d5t on books4 ,if ,i %\ld be depriv$ ( ! use ( my eyes1 ,i %\ld be a mo/ mis]able creature4 ,?anksgiv+1 ,nov4 #bi?4--,a v pleasant & delightful day--our he>ts full ( gladness &1 ,i hope1 ( gratitude4 ,i hope de> "m & all at home are z happy4 ,dec4 #be?4--,h[ pla9 t all ! creations ( ! anci5t my?ology are b repres5tations ( some?+ 9 ! he>t ( man6444 ,:at is ! end ( man8 ,inf9ite contradictions--all opposites bl5d$ into "o--a mass ( confus$1 brok5 p>ts1 ( disjo9t$ fragm5ts--su* is he4 ,! circum/ances t surr\nd him--! ev5ts t happ5 unto him1 are no less /range4 ,:at %all be ! end8 ,oh !n1 abyss ( futurity1 decl>e x6 unfold ?y d>k dep?s--let a voice come up f ?y cl\dy inf9ite--let a ray p5etrate ?y unfa?omable pr(\nd4 ,if we c\ld b re/ till ! "q is decid$6 if we c\ld b float s(tly on ! curr5t ( "t till we rea* ! hav56 ,b no1 we mu/ act4 ,we mu/ d some?+4 ,i mu/ d some?+ n[--,,:at8 ,ev5+4 ,b z ! morn+4 ,9 ! aft]noon ,i 0 talk+ ) ,l4 ,w4 #ac ) z mu* eag]ness & vivacity z if ,i _h nev] kn[n a cl\d4 ,?is ev5+ ,i 0 go+ to a dance at ! ,insane ,hospital4 ,= me truly x has be5 a day ( opposites--all ! elem5ts ( life h met & m+l$ 9 x4 ,w$nesday1 #bf?4--,! end ( man1 says ,c>lyle1 is an action1 n a ?\ght4 ,?is is p>tly true1 ?\gh all noble action has its root 9 ?\ght4 ,?\ght1 inde$1 9 its true & highe/ s5se1 is action4 ,x is nev] lo/4 ,if utt]$1 x may brea! inspiration into a ?\s& m9ds & become ! impulse to t5 ?\s& good actions4 ,if unutt]$1 & t]m9at+ 9 no s+le outw>d act1 x yet has an emanative influ5ce2 x impregnates ! man & makes itself felt 9 8 life4 ,a man c n d s noble & godlike a ?+ z to ?9k1 )\t be+ ! bett] = x4 ,inde$1 ! di/9ction betwe5 ?\ght & action is n always an accurate "o4 ,_m ?\ghts des]ve ! "n ( activities mu* bett] ?an c]ta9 movem5ts ( ! muscles & *anges ( ! outw>d organization :i* we d5om9ate actions4 ,9 ?is s5se1 x is bett] ( ! two to ?9k )\t act+ ?an to act )\t ?9k+4 ,mrs4 ,hopk9s 0 ! au?or ( ! foll[+ works1 int5d$ mo/ly = ! "y4 ,"s ( !m h _h a wide circulation4 ,!y are writt5 9 an attractive /yle & brea! ! pure/ _s ( ,*ri/ian love & wisdom3 #a4 ,! ,pa/or's ,daught]4 #b4 ,lessons on ! ,book ( ,prov]bs4 #c4 ,! ,"y ,*ri/ian ,enc\rag$4 #d4 ,h5ry ,langdon2 or1 ,:at ,0 ,i ,made ,=8 #e4 ,! ,guid+ ,/>2 or1 ,! ,bible ,god's ,message2 a ,sequel to ,h5ry ,langdon4 #f4 ,! ,sil5t ,com=t]2 a ,companion = ! ,sick-room4 ,a ,compilation4 99 99 99 99 99 ,e4 ,! foll[+ is ! rhapsody ref]r$ to by ,mr4 ,butl]3 7,! words to be us$ 7 ,mosquito1 ,brigadi]1 ,moon1 ,ca!dral1 ,locomotive1 ,piano1 ,m\nta91 ,c&le1 ,lemon1 ,wor/$1 ,*>ity1 & ,success74 ,a w\nd$ soldi] on ! gr\nd 9 helpless languor lay1 ,unhe$+ 9 8 we>9ess ! tumult ( ! day2 ,9 va9 a p]t mosquito buzz$ madly 9 8 e>1 ,8 ?\ghts 7 f> away f e>?--its s\nds he c\ld n he>2 ,nor not$ he ! k9dly glance ) :i* 8 brigadi] ,look$ d[n ^u 8 manly =m :5 *ance _h br\ght him ne>4 ,x 0 a glori\s autumn night on :i* ! moon look$ d[n1 ,calmly %e look$ & h] fair face _h nei!r grief nor fr[n4 ,j z %e gaz$ 9 o!r l&s on "s ca!dral dim1 ,^: aisles res\nd$ to ! /ra9s ( dirges or ( hymn4 ,b n[ ) locomotive spe$ ! soldi]'s ?\ghts took w+3 ,back to 8 home !y bore him1 & he he>d 8 si/]s s+-- ,he>d ! s(te/-ton$ piano t\*$ by h&s he us$ to love4 ,0 x home or 0 x heav58 ,0 t music f above8 ,oh1 = "o place or ! o!r6 ,9 8 m\nta9 air to die1 ,once m ^u 8 "m's brea/1 z 9 infancy1 to lie6 ,! sc5e has *ang$4 ,:]e is he n[8 ,n on ! cold1 damp gr\nd4 ,:5ce came ?is c\*8 & :o are !y :o smil+ /& ar\nd8 ,:at fri5dly h&s h borne him to 8 own free m\nta9 air8 ,& fa!r1 "m1 si/]s--e "o ( !m is !re4 ,n[ g5tle m9i/ries ( love may soo! him 9 8 pa92 ,wat] to cool 8 fev]$ lips he ne$ n ask 9 va94 ,8 "m %ades ! c&le :5 %e /eals across ! room2 ,a face l h]s w\ld radiant make a v des]t's gloom4 ,! fragrant lemon cools 8 ?ir/1 press$ by 8 si/]'s h&-- ,n "o c d en\gh = him1 ! h]o ( _! b&4 ,oh1 happy1 convalesc+ days6 ,h[ full ( pleasant pa96 ,h[ pleasant to take up ! old1 ! de> old life aga96 ,n[1 sitt+ on ! wood5 b5* be=e ! cottage door1 ,h[ _m times !y make him tell ! same old /ory o'er6 ,h[ he f\ght & h[ he fell2 h[ he long$ aga9 to fight2 ,& h[ he w\ld die fight+ yet = ! triumph ( ! "r4 ,8 good old "m sits all day s fondly by 8 side2 ,h[ c %e give him up aga9--h] fir/-born son1 h] pride8 ,8 si/]s ) _! wor/$ 8 /ock+s fa%ion too1 ,9 patriotic colors--! r$1 ! :ite1 ! blue4 ,if he %\ld nev] we> !m1 a *>ity 'twill be ,to give !m to "s soldi]-lad z brave & good z he4 ,!y're dreadful homely /ock+s2 "o c n well say less1 ,b :osoev] we>s 'em--:y1 may he h success6 ,"h are samples ( ! *>ades ref]r$ to by ,miss ,morse3 ,,on ,,return+ ,a ,,lo/ ,,glove ,,to ,a ,,fri5d4 ,,m>*1 #ahgc4 ,a h& ,i am n1 yet h f+]s five2 ,alive ,i am n1 yet 0 once alive4 ,am f\nd 9 e h\se & by ! doz51 ,& am ( fle% & blood a sort ( c\s94 ,n[ cut my head (f4 ,see :at ,i become6 ,no long] am ,i lifeless1 dead1 & dumb4 ,i am ! v sweete/ ?+ on e>?2 ,royal 9 p[] & ( royal bir?4 ,i 9 ! palace reign & 9 ! cot-- ,!re is no place :]e man is & ,i'm n4 ,i am too co/ly to be b\ght & sold2 ,i c n be entic$ by piles ( gold4 ,& yet ,i am s l[ly t a smile ,c woo & w9 me--& s free f guile1 ,t ,i look =? f _m a g5tle face ,9 t5d]ness & tru?fulness & grace4 ,say1 d y "k me8 ,h y kn[n my reign8 ,my joy1 my rapture1 & my sil5t pa98 ,b5ea? y\r pill[ h ,i roses plac$-- ,y\r he>t's glad fe/ival h ,i n grac$8 ,ah me6 ,to "m1 lov]1 husb&1 wife ,i am ! oil & ,i ! w9e ( life4 ,) y1 my de>1 ,i h be5 h& & glove4 ,%all ,i return ! fir/ & keep ! ,love8 ,,*>ade4 ,my fir/ 0 born to rule2 be=e him /& ,! pot5tates & nobles ( ! l&4 ,he loves 8 gr&eur--hopes to be m gr&4 ,my second y w f9d 9 e lass-- ,bo? 9 ! highe/ & ! l[e/ class1 ,& ev5 9 a simple blade ( grass4 ,b add x to my fir/1 & /raightway he ,becomes my :ole--loses id5tity2 ,p>ts ) 8 manhood & becomes a ,%e4 7,pr9ce1 ss41 ,pr9cess74 99 99 99 99 99 ,f4 ,"h is ano!r extract f ! same lett]3 ,j'ai pe9e me mettre l'oraison1 et quelquefois qu& j'y suis il me t>de d'en sortir4 ,je n'y fais1 ce me semble1 presque ri54 ,je me tr\ve mme dans une c]ta9e tideur et une t*et p\r t\tes sortes de bi5s4 ,je n'ai aucune pe9e considrable ni dans mon intrieur1 ni dans mon extrieur1 a9si je ne saurois dire que je passe p> aucune preuve4 ,il me semble que c'e/ un songe1 ou que je me moque qu& je *]*e mon tat tant je me tr\ve hors de t\t tat spirituel1 dans la voie commune des g5s ti$es qui viv5t leur aise4 ,cep5dant cette languor univ]selle jo9te l'ab&on qui me fait acceptes t\t et qui m'emp*e de ri5 re*]*]1 ne laisse pas de m'abattre1 et je s5s que j'ai quelquefois beso9 de donn] mes s5s quelque amusem5t p\r m'gay]4 ,aussi le fais--je simplem5t1 mais bi5 mieux qu& je suis seul que qu& je suis avec mes meilleurs amis4 ,qu& je suis seul1 je j\e quelquefois comme un petit enfant1 etc41 etc4 ,! lett] may be f\nd 9 ,vol4 ,v41 pp4 #daa-ab1 ( ,madame ,guyon's ,,lettres ,,*r,,ti5nes ,,et ,,spirituelles sur div]s ,sujets qui reg>d5t ,la ,vie ,intrieure1 ou ,l'esprit du vrai ,*ri/ianisme--enri*ie de la ,correspondance secrette de ,,mr4 ,,de ,,f5elon avec l',auteur4 ,london1 #agfh4 ,! :ole "w is extremely int]e/+4 99 99 99 99 99 ,g4 ,f ,! ,evangeli/ ( ,may #bg1 #ahge4 ,,9 ,,memoriam4 ,di$ 9 ,p>is1 ,france1 ,may #h1 #ahge1 ,,virg9ia ,s4 ,,osborn1 only daught] ( ,william ,h4 & ,virg9ia ,s4 ,osborn1 ( ?is city1 & gr&daught] ( ! late ,jona?an ,/urges4 ,! sudd5 dea? ( ?is gift$ "y girl has ov]:elm$ ) grief a l>ge social & dome/ic circle4 ,la/ ,febru>y1 9 p]fect heal? & full ( ! brighte/ anticipations1 %e set out1 9 company ) h] p>5ts & a "y fri5d1 on a brief =eign t\r4 ,aft] pass+ sev]al weeks at ,rome & visit+ o!r fam\s cities ( ,italy1 %e _h j rea*$ ,p>is on ! way home :5 a viol5t fev] seiz$ ^u h] bra91 &1 9 defiance ( ! t5d]e/ p>5tal c>e & ! be/ m$ical skill1 hurri$ h] into ! unse5 _w4 ,& yet x is h>dly possible to realise t ?is brilliant "y life has =ev] vani%$ away f e>?1 = %e seem$ =m$ alike by nature & ,provid5ce = l5g? ( days4 ,already h] "* gave ! faire/ promise ( a p]fect woman4 ,x possess$ a /r5g? & maturity beyond h] ye>s4 ,al?\gh n yet tw5ty-"o1 h] v>i$ m5tal culture & h] k ( almo/ e bran* ( ,engli% lit]ature1 hi/ory1 poetry1 fiction1 ev5 physical sci5ce1 7 q rem>kable2 nor 0 %e ignorant ( "s ( ! be/ ,fr5* & ,g]man1 n to speak ( ,lat91 au?ors4 ,we h nev] kn[n "o ( h] age ^: intellectual ta/es 7 ( a high] ord]4 ,%e seem$ to feel equally at home 9 read+ ,%akespe>e & ,goe!2 ,prescott1 ,motley1 & ,fr\de2 ,mrs4 ,au/91 ,scott1 & ,dick5s2 ,ta9e1 ,huxley1 & ,tyndall2 or ! popul> biographies & fictions ( ! day4 ,& yet h] /udi\s habits & devotion to books did n r5d] h] any ! less ! unaffect$1 attractive1 & :ole-he>t$ girl4 ,h] fri5ds1 bo? old & "y1 greatly admir$ h]1 b !y lov$ h] /ill m4 ,z 0 natural 9 "o ( s mu* "*1 %e 0 v decid$ 9 h] ways2 b %e 0 also p]fectly frank1 tru?ful1 & consci5ti\s--resembl+ 9 ?is respect1 z %e did 9 "s o!r excell5t traits1 h] honor$ gr&fa!r1 ,mr4 ,/urges4 ,sev]al ye>s be=e h] dea? %e 0 enroll$ among ! disciples ( ,jesus4 ,h[ vividly ! writ] recalls h] e>ne/ look & tones ( voice :5 %e decl>$ to him h] desire publicly to confess h] ,savi\r & to rememb] ,him at ,8 table6 ,:5 f b5ea? ! deep sea ! news t %e 0 dang]\sly ill & !n soon aft] t %e 0 dead /ole ^u h] fri5ds "h l a ?ief 9 ! night1 almo/ /unn+ !m ) grief2 _! fir/ feel+ 0 "o ( t5d] sympa?y = ! desolate1 sorely-smitt5 p>5ts1 & ( pray] t ,god w\ld be pleas$ to com=t & uphold !m 9 _! affliction4 ,f _m he>ts1 we are sure1 t pray] has be5 (f]$ up (t5times s9ce4 ,if x 7 n = ! relief :i* comes ( fai? & pray]1 :at a cl\d ( hopeless gloom w\ld en%r\d su* an ev5t6 ,bless$ be ,god = ?is exce$+ great & preci\s relief4 ,! d>k cl\d is n inde$ disp]s$ ev5 by fai? & pray]1 b ) :at a silv] l9+ !y are able to inve/ x6 ,if we really believ$ t su* tragical ev5ts are solely ! effects ( *ance or m]e natural law--if we did n believe t ! h& ( inf9ite wisdom & love is also 9 !m1 surely ! grass w\ld turn black b5ea? our feet4 ,! ,"l gave2 ! ,"l ha? tak5 away2 & bless$ be ! "n ( ! ,"l4 ,g4 ,l4 ,p4 99 99 99 99 99 ,h4 ,extracts front ,dr4 ,v9c5t's ,memorial ,disc\rse4 ,! m5 & wom5 :o "k h[ to com=t human sorr[1 & to tea* _! fell[s to turn x to its highe/ uses1 are among ,god's be/ gifts to ! _w4 ,! (fice & ! "n ( ,com=t] h ! highe/ & pure/ associations4 ,x is ! ,holy ,_s ( ,god :o calls ,himself by t "n1 & to be a true com=t] is to be inde$ a co-work] ) ,god4 ,b ev5 z ! ^w com=t goes deep] ?an ^? pity+ commonplaces :i* ev5 nature tea*es u to utt] to ^? :o are 9 any tr\ble1 s ! (fice ( a true com=t] requires o!r qualifications ?an m]e natural t5d]ness ( he>t1 or ev5 ! exp]i5ce ( suff]+4 ,"o mu/ "k h[ to int]pret z well z h[ to feel sorr[2 mu/ "k its lessons z well z its sm>t4 ,h5ce x is t ,god makes ,8 com=t]s by processes ( ,8 own2 by h>d ma/]s (ttimes1 & by lessons n to be f\nd 9 books4 ,x is 9 illu/ration ( ?is tru? t ,i br+ to y to-day "s memorials ( ! exp]i5ce1 "*1 & life-"w ( "o widely kn[n1 deeply belov$1 & greatly honor$ by ,god z an in/rum5t ( ,*ri/ian in/ruction & ( ,*ri/ian com=t4 ,x w\ld1 inde$1 be possible to /rike "s o!r keynote4 ,a "* pres5t+ s _m po9ts ( int]e/ might be /udi$ f m ?an "o ( ^? po9ts ) bo? pleasure & pr(it2 b1 on ! :ole1 x seems to me t ! ?\ght ( a ,*ri/ian com=t] be/ conc5trates ! lessons ( h] life1 & be/ repres5ts h] mission to society2 s t we might aptly *oose = our motto ^? beautiful words ( ! ,apo/le3 ,bless$ be ,god1 ev5 ! ,fa!r ( our ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 ! ,fa!r ( m]cies1 & ! ,god ( all com=t1 :o com=te? u 9 all our tribulation1 t we may be able to com=t !m :i* are 9 any tr\ble by ! com=t :]e) we ourselves are com=t$ ( ,god4 ,9 endeavor+ to depict a life :i* 0 l>gely %ap$ by sorr[1 ,i am n go+ to op5 ! record ( a sorr[ful life1 b r ( a joyful "o2 n ( a />v$ & meag] life1 b ( a v ri* "o1 bo? 9 itself & 9 its fruits2 yet x may be pr(itable = u to see ?r\gh :at k9d ( discipl9e t life became s ri*1 & to /rike "s ( ! spr+s :]e arose ! wat]s :i* refre%$ s _m ( ! *ildr5 ( pa9 & c>e4 ,! daught] ( ,edw>d ,payson might ju/ly h appropriat$ h] fa!r's words3 ,?anks to ! f]v5t1 effectual pray]s ( my righte\s p>5ts1 & ! t5d] m]cies ( my ,god ^u me1 ,i h reason to hope t ! pi\s wi%es brea!d ov] my infant head are 9 "s measure fulfill$4 ,%e might h said ) ,c[p]3 ,my boa/ is n t ,i d$uce my bir? ,f lo9s en?ron$ & rul]s ( ! e>?2 ,b high] f> my pr\d pret5sions rise2 ,! *ild ( p>5ts pass$ into ! skies4 ,! life & "w ( t devot$ m9i/] ( ,jesus ,*ri/ h pass$ into ! religi\s hi/ory ( ,new ,engl&--n to say ( our :ole c\ntry--& no /ud5t ( t hi/ory is unfamili> ) t "* s tri$1 yet s exalt$ by suff]+2 ) t m9i/ry s fai?ful1 s unselfi%1 m>k$ by su* ye>n+ = s\ls1 & ) su* p]si/5ce1 tact1 & success 9 lead+ !m to ,*ri/2 ) t intellect s ri*ly end[$ & s well tra9$2 t devotional _s s rapt1 t consci5ce s acutely s5sitive2 ) t life s fruitful & t dea? s triumphant4444 99 99 99 99 99 ,9 ! summ] ( #ahfi %e f\nd a lovely & peaceful retreat among ! hills ( ,v]mont4 ,!re arose t ta/eful home ) :i*1 p]haps m ?an any o!r spot1 memory loves to associate h]4 ,!re1 = t5 happy summ]s1 %e enjoy$ ! communion ) ,nature's visible =ms1 & he>d h] v>i\s language1 & felt h] heal+ t\* on ! we>i$ bra9 & ov]/rung n]ves2 !re1 z ,i ?9k %e w\ld h wi%$1 %e took leave ( e>? amid ! pomp & flu% ( ! late summ]1 & gladly asc5d$ to ! et]nal sun%9e ( heav52 & !re1 9 ! %ad[ ( ! giant hills :i* br\ght peace to h]1 & ! *ang+ moods ( :i* %e s lov$ to /udy1 h] a%es await ! morn+ ( ! ,resurrection4 ,9 review+ ?is life ( ne>ly sixty ye>s1 we f9d its keynote1 z 0 said at ! outset1 9 ! ?\ght ( ! ,*ri/ian com=t]4 ,we see 9 h] "o :om ,god commission$1 s f> z we c judge1 to br+ light & com=t to multitudes1 & :om ,he prep>$ = t bless$ "w by peculi> & sev]e discipl9e4 ,!re is no?+ 9 :i* ord9>y m9ds are m commonly mi/ak5 ?an 9 _! e/imate ( suff]+4 ,!y seem (t5 unable to conceive x except 9 its association ) appreciable trag$ies1 9 ^? gross] =ms 9 :i* x waits ^u visible calamity4 ,su* d n "k t ! he>t is (t5 ! sc5e ( trag$ies :i* c n be writt51 & t !re are suff]+s m subtle & m acute ?an any :i* torture ! n]ve or wr+ ! br[4 ,take a "* l ?is ) :i* we are deal+2 comb9e ! nature to :i* love 0 a necessity ( be+ ) ^? high & pure ideals ( "* :i* cull$ cauti\sly ! objects ( affection2 add ! int5se s5sitiv5ess )\t ! self- e/eem :i* s (t5 s]ves z a rock ( refuge to ! mo/ s5sitive2 add ! %>ply-cut individuality :i* c\ld only see & d & express 9 its own way1 & :i*1 !re=e1 s frequ5tly expos$ its subject to ! misund]/&+ ( /rang]s or ( unappreciative s\ls2 cr[n all ) ! /]n consci5ti\sness :i* w\ld n compromise ! tru? ev5 = love's sake1 & ! exquisite selfrev]5ce1 if y w all[ ! expression1 :i* held ! region ( religi\s emotion z holy gr\nd1 & :i* reg>d$ ! attempt to op5 or to p5etrate ! inn] %r9es ( ,*ri/ian feel+ z some?+ ak9 to sacrilege--& bl5d all ^! 9 a delicate1 highly-/rung1 n]v\s organization1 & y h ! elem5ts ( a fe>ful capacity = suff]+4 ,besides ?is capacity = suff]+1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss _h a v cle> cognition ( ! sacr$ (fice ( suff]+1 & ( its relation to p]fection ( "*4 ,!re 7 two ideas :i* p]vad$ h] :ole !ory ( religi\s exp]i5ce4 ,! "o 0 t :5ev] ,god has special "w = ,8 *ildr5 to d1 ,he always fits !m = x by suff]+4 ,%e _h ! mo/ int5se conviction ( any "o ,i ev] knew ( ! necessity ( suff]+ to p]fection ( "* or ( "w4 ,d\btless !re h be5 o!rs :o h le>n$ z well z %e its value z a purify+ & exalt+ p[]1 b v few1 ,i ?9k1 :o h s e>ly & s uncompromis+ly tak5 t tru? into _! !ory ( ,*ri/ian education4 ,%e quot$ ) approval ! words ( ,madame ,guyon1 t ,god r>ely1 if ev]1 makes ! educat+ process a pa9less "o :5 ,he wants rem>kable results4 ,su* mu/ dr9k ( ,*ri/'s cup & be baptiz$ ) ,8 baptism4 ,along ) ?is w5t ano!r & a complem5t>y ?\ght1 viz41 t z ,god prep>es ,8 workm5 = great "w by suff]+1 s !re is ano!r class ( ,8 *ildr5 :om ,he does n f9d compet5t to ?is prep>ation2 :o escape mu* ( ! conflict & suff]+1 b nev] atta9 ! highe/ enjoym5ts or fight ! decisive battles ( "t4444 ,9 a volume ( ,f5elon's ,*ri/ian ,c\nsel1 :i* 0 "o ( h] favorite closet companions1 ?is passage is scor$3 ,god attacks all ! subtle res\rces ( self-love )91 especially 9 ^? s\ls :o h g5]\sly & )\t res]ve deliv]$ !mselves up to ! op]ations ( ,8 grace4 ,! m ,he w\ld purify !m1 ! m ,he ex]cises !m int]iorly4 ,& %e has add$ a special note at ! foot ( ! page3 ,he nev] =ces ,himself on ung5]\s s\ls = ?is "w4 ,along ) ?is w5t ! ?\ght t ,god's discipl9e 0 int5d$ to make n only models1 b m9i/]s2 t "o :o _h pass$ ?r\gh ! furnace ) ,*ri/ 0 to em]ge f ! fi]y baptism n m]ely to be gaz$ at1 b to g d[n to 8 bre?r5 tell+ ) p[] ! /ory ( ! =m ( ! ,f\r?4 ,?is is ! s5tim5t ( "s l9es address$ by h] to an afflict$ fri5d3 ,o t ?is he>t ) grief s well acqua9t$ ,might be a f\nta91 ri* & sweet & full1 ,= all ! we>y t h fall5 & fa9t$ ,9 life's p>*$ des]t--?ir/y1 sorr[ful4 ,?\ ,man ( ,sorr[s1 tea* my lips t (t5 ,h told ! sacr$ /ory ( my woe1 ,to speak ( ,!e till /ony griefs ,i s(t5-- ,till ^? t "k ,!e n1 le>n ,!e to "k4 ,at a comp>atively e>ly p]iod ( h] ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce1 ! !me ( h] pray] 03 ,i besee* ,!e1 %[ me ,?y glory2 = 9 ! answ] to t pray] !re seem$1 z %e said1 to be summ$ up ev]y?+ t %e ne$$ or c\ld desire4 ,9 a pap] 9 :i* %e record$ "s ( h] aspirations1 %e wrote3 ,let my life be an all-day look+ to ,jesus4 ,let my love to ,god be s deep1 e>ne/1 & all-p]vad+1 t ,i c n h ev5 ! pass+ emotion ( rebellion to suppress4 ,!re is su* a ?+ z an implicit fai? 91 & consequ5t submission to1 ,*ri/4 ,let me nev] re/ till !y are fully m9e4 ,i d n "k ! precise date1 b ,i ?9k x c\ld n h be5 v late :5 %e receiv$ a mighty answ] to ! pray] to behold ,god's glory4 ,new views ( ,*ri/ian privilege & ( ! relation ( ,*ri/ to believ+ s\ls came ) pray]ful se>*+ ( ! ,scriptures4 ,%e ent]$1 to use h] own words1 ^u a life ( incessant peace & s]5ity--not)/&+ x became1 by degrees1 "o ( p]petual self- d5ial & ef=t4 ,! consci\sness ( ,god nev] left h]4 ,! :ole _w seem$ holy gr\nd4 ,pray] became a p]petual delight4 ,! pride & turbul5ce ( nature grew quiet "u ^! g5tle influ5ces1 & any?+ f ,god's h& seem$ j "r & q good4 ,! secret ( h] peace & ( h] usefulness lay v l>gely 9 ! pray]fulness ( h] life4 ,f h] e>ly ye>s1 pray] 0 h] delight4 ,9 describ+ ! com=ts ( h] *amb] 9 ! s*ool at ,ri*mond1 %e not$ z its cr[n+ *>m ! daily pres5ce ( ! ,et]nal ,k+1 :o condesc5d$ to make x ,8 dwell+-place4 ,) ! deep] exp]i5ces ( :i* we h spok5 came a fre% delight 9 pray]4 ,x 0 v delightful1 %e says1 to pray all ! "t2 all day long2 n only = myself1 b = ! :ole _w--p>ticul>ly = all ^? :o lov$ ,*ri/4 ,h] views ( pray] 7 ,scriptural1 &1 !re=e1 discrim9at+4 ,%e fully accept$ ,paul's /atem5t t we "k n :at we %\ld pray = z we ought )\t ! help ( ! ,_s2 &1 !re=e1 %e always spoke ( pray] z some?+ to be le>n$4 ,if %e believ$ t a ,*ri/ian le>ns to pray :5 fir/ he lives1 %e believ$ also t ! pray] ( ! infant ,*ri/ian life 0 l ! feeble brea? ( infancy4 ,%e und]/ood by pray] some?+ f> m & high] ?an ! m]e pref]r+ ( petitions4 ,x 0 communion2 ,god's ,_s respond+ h>moni\sly to our own4 ,) ,col]idge %e held1 t ! act ( pray+ ) ! total conc5tration ( ! faculties is ! v highe/ en]gy ( :i* ! human he>t is capable4 ,h5ce %e 0 accu/om$ to speak ( le>n+ ! my/]i\s art ( pray] by an appr5tice%ip at ! ?rone ( grace4 ,%e some:]e wrote3 ,i ?9k _m ( ! difficulties att5d+ ! subject ( pray] w\ld disappe> if x c\ld be reg>d$ 9 e>ly life z an art t mu/ be acquir$ ?r\gh daily1 p]si/5t habits ) :i* no?+ %all be all[$ to int]f]e4 ,%e saw t pray] is n to be made dep5d5t on ! v>i\s emotive /ates 9 :i* "o comes to ,god4 ,! "q1 %e said1 is n "o ( m]e delight4 ,! ,roman ,ca?olic poet accurately express$ h] ?\ght on ?is po9t3 ,pray] 0 n meant = luxury1 ,nor selfi% pa/ime sweet2 ,x is ! pro/rate creature's place ,at ! ,creator's feet4 ,%e illu/rat$ 9 h] own qua9t way ! tru? t moods h no?+ to d ) ! duty ( pray]4 ,:5 "o ( y\r little bro!rs asks y to l5d him y\r knife1 d y inquire fir/ :at is ! /ate ( 8 m9d8 ,if y d1 :at reply c he make b ?is3 ,! /ate ( my m9d is1 ,i want y\r knife4 ,) h] natural temp]am5t & inh]it$ t5d5cies %e might1 p]haps1 "u o!r influ5ces h be5 drawn too f> ov] to ! emotional1 or at lea/ to ! contemplative side ( religi\s life4 ,b %e saw & avoid$ ! dang]4 ,%e disc]n$ ! h>mony & j balance betwe5 ! contemplative & ! active ,*ri/ian life1 & felt t !y ought to co-exi/ 9 e g5u9e exp]i5ce4 ,%e atta*$ z little mean+ to a life ( m]e raptures z to "o ( b>e1 loveless duty4 ,*ri/ian life1 %e wrote1 is n all contemplation & pray]2 x is n all muscle & s9ew4 ,x is a p]fect1 practicable union ( ! two4 ,i believe 9 y\r joyful emotions if !y result 9 self-d5y+1 pati5t "w = ,*ri/--,i believe 9 y\r "w if x is w+$ by fai? & pray]4 ,%e _h scor$ ?is passage 9 h] copy ( ,f5elon3 ,to be con/antly 9 a /ate ( enjoym5t t takes away ! feel+ ( ! cross1 & to live 9 a f]vor ( devotion t cont9ually keeps ,p>adise op5--?is is n dy+ ^u ! cross & becom+ no?+4 ,su* exp]i5ce & su* views 7 beh9d ! active side ( h] life1 z repres5t$ by h] p]sonal m9i/ries & by ! "w ( h] p54 ,! "o book 9 :i* %e endeavor$ to embody =mally h] views ( ,*ri/ian doctr9e & exp]i5ce did n1 z might h be5 expect$1 f9d ! same reception or ! same response :i* 7 accord$ to o!r productions4 ,x 0 a book :i* appeal$ to a small] & high] class ( read]s4 ,b1 :5 %e wr\ght ^! same tru?s into pictures ( liv+ m5 & wom5--:5 %e illu/rat$ !m at ! po9ts :]e !y t\*$ ! drudg]y & commonplace ( ?\s&s ( lives--:5 %e op5$ outlooks = hundr$s ( disc\rag$ s\ls ^u ! roads :]e hundr$s m 7 be>+ ! v same burd5s1 & yet /epp+ heav5w>d "u _! pressure--:5 %e1 :o _h walk$ 9 ! fire h]self1 w5t to h] si/]s 9 ! same old furnace & told !m ( h] vision ( ! =m ( ! ,f\r?--:5 %e w5t d[n to ! _m :o 7 sadly work+ out ! mi/akes ( ill-judg$ alliances1 & lift$ ! veil f sorr[s :i* sep>ate _! subject f human sympa?y because !y mu/ be borne 9 sil5ce--:5 %e told su* h[ heav5 might come ev5 into _! life--:5 %e1 ) h] h&s yet ble$+ f ! grasp ( h] own cross1 came to o!r suff]]s1 n to mock !m by ! %[ ( an unatta9able beauty & an impossible peace1 b to (f] !m div9e peace & ! beauty ( ! ,"l 9 ! "n ( h] ,savi\r--!n %e spoke ) a p[] :i* multitudes felt & confess$4 ,i am sure t h]s is1 9 an em95t degree1 ! bless+ ( !m t 7 ready to p]i%4 ,we>y1 ov]tax$ mo!rs2 misund]/ood & unappreciat$ wives1 s]vants1 pale seam/resses1 delicate wom5 =c$ to live 9 an atmosph]e ( drunk5ness & co>se brutality1 wid[s & orphans 9 ! bitt]ness ( _! b]eavem5t1 mo!rs ) _! te>s dropp+ ov] empty cradles--to ?\s&s ( su* %e 0 a mess5g] f heav54 ,( all h] sev5te5 or eighte5 publi%$ volumes1 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d is ! "o :i* be/ repres5ts h] & h] life-"w--n t %e produc$ no?+ else ( value1 nor t _m ( h] o!r books 7 n widely read1 greatly enjoy$1 & truly useful2 b ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d seem$ to meet s _m real1 deep1 in>ticulate crav+s 9 su* a multitude ( he>ts1 t ! response to x 0 in/ant & g5]al4444 ,%e wrote = read]s ( all ages4 ,n ! lea/ fruitful "w ( h] p5 0 be/[$ ^u ! little ones2 & 9 ! numb] ( copies circulat$1 ! ,susy ,books /& next to ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 ,?r\gh ^? little half allegories %e initiat$ ! *ildr5 into ! rudim5ts ( self-control1 discipl9e & consecration1 & taught eyes & h&s & tongue & feet ! noble uses ( ! k+dom ( ,god4 ,ev5 f ^! *ildr5's /ories ! ?\ght ( ! discipl9e ( suff]+ 0 n abs5t1 & ,mr4 ,pa91 z _m mo!rs w rememb]1 figures among ,little ,susy's ,six ,tea*]s4 ,) ! same pure & :olesome lessons1 & ) ! same easy vivacity %e appeal$ to y\? ?r\gh ,! ,fl[] ( ! ,family1 ,! ,p]cys1 & ,nidwor?1 & x w\ld be h>d to say by read]s ( :at age 0 monopolis$ ! int]e/ 9 ,aunt ,jane's ,h]o1 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me1 & ^? two little gems--,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told1 & ,g5tleman ,jim4 ,:ile all h] writ+s 7 religi\s 9 ! be/ s5se1 !y 7 9 no?+ m s ?an 9 _! *e]fulness4 ,!y 7 n only happy & hopeful 9 _! g5]al tone1 b sp>kl$ ) h] delicate & sprightly humor4 ,! *ildr5 ( h] books 7 n religi\s puppets1 mov+ 9 "t to ! measur$ wisdom ( _! eld]s1 b real *ildr5 ( fle% & blood1 act+ & talk+ out _! impi% conceits1 & 9 n[ise conspicu\s by _! precoci\s goodness4 ,i ?9k t ^? :o knew h] be/ 9 h] lit]>y relations1 w agree ) me t no bett] type ( a consecrat$ lit]>y tal5t c be f\nd 9 ! li/s ( au?ors4 ,%e receiv$ en\gh evid5ces ( popul> appreciation to h turn$ ! heads ( _m writ]s4 ,ov] #bjj1jjj b\nd volumes ( h] books h be5 sold 9 ?is c\ntry alone1 to say no?+ ( ! circulation 9 ,engl&1 ,france1 & ,g]many4 ,%e 0 n displeas$ at success1 z ,i suppose no "o is--b success to h] meant do+ good4 ,%e did n write = popul>ity1 & h] av]sion to hav+ h] own lit]>y "w m5tion$ to h] 0 s well kn[n by h] fri5ds1 t ev5 ^? :o wi%$ to express to h] _! gratitude = ! good !y _h receiv$ f h] books 7 con/ra9$ to be sil5t4 ,:ile1 says h] publi%]1 %e 0 v s5sitive to any criticism bas$ on a misconception or a p]v]sion ( h] purpose1 nev]1 9 all my int]c\rse ) h]1 did ,i discov] ! slighte/ evid5ce ( a _s ( lit]>y pique1 or pride1 or ambition4 ,9 attempt+ to sum up ! *>act]i/ics ( h] writ+s1 "t w suff] me only to /ate ! m prom95t features )\t enl>g+ ^u details4 ,fir/1 & mo/ prom95t1 0 _! purpose4 ,h] p5 mov$ always & only "u a s5se ( duty4 ,%e held h] tal5t z a gift f ,god1 & consecrat$ x sacr$ly to ! en=cem5t & diffusion ( ,8 tru?4 ,if ,i may quote once m ! words ( h] publi%] 9 8 tribute to h] memory--h] great desire & det]m9ation to educate 9 ! highe/ & be/ s*ools 0 nev] ov]look$ or =gott54 ,%e nev]1 l _m writ]s ( religi\s fiction1 caught ! _s ( s5sationalism t is 9 ! air1 or s\ght = effects 9 unheal?y portraiture1 corrupt /yle1 or unnatural comb9ations4 ,second1 %e 0 unconv5tional4 ,h] writ+s 7 n religi\s 9 any /]eotyp$1 popul> s5se4 ,h] *>act]s 7 n /5cil$4 ,! holie/ ( !m 7 /rongly & (t5 amus+ly individualiz$4 ,%e did n try to make automatons to repeat religi\s commonplaces1 b actual m5 & wom51 ?r\gh ^: v peculi>ities ! ,holy ,_s reveal$ ,8 pres5ce & "w4 ,?ird1 ,i h already ref]r$ to h] sprightl9ess4 ,%e _h naturally a ke5 s5se ( humor :i* ov]fl[$ bo? 9 h] conv]sation & 9 h] books4 ,%e saw no?+ 9 ! nature ( ! fai? %e pr(ess$ :i* bade h] lay viol5t h&s on ?is prop5sity2 & %e once said t if h] religion c\ld n /& h] say+ a funny ?+ n[ & !n x 0 n wor? mu*4 ,b1 :atev] %e might say or write ( ?is "*1 "o nev] felt t x betray$ any irrev]5t lightness ( _s4 ,! und]tone ( h] life 0 s deeply rev]5tial1 s ?or\ghly p]vad$ ) ador+ love = ,*ri/1 t x made itself felt ?r\gh all h] light] moods1 l ! gr\nd-swell ( ! sea ?r\gh ! sp>kl+ ripples on ! surface4 ,f\r?1 h] /yle 0 easy1 colloquial1 nev] /ilt$ or affect$1 m>k$ at times by an en]gy & incisiv5ess :i* betray$ e>ne/ ?\ght & int5se feel+4 ,%e aim$ to impress ! tru?1 n h] /yle1 & !re=e aim$ at pla9ness & directness4 ,h] h>d common s5se1 ( :i* h] books reveal a goodly %>e1 0 (fset by h] vivid fancy :i* made ev5 ! region ( fable tribut>y to ! s]vice ( tru?4 ,fif?1 h] books 7 int5sely p]sonal2 expressions1 ,i mean1 ( h] own exp]i5ce4 ,_m ( h] *>act]s & sc5es are simple transcripts ( fact1 & mu* ( :at %e taught 9 song1 0 a repetition ( :at %e _h le>n$ 9 suff]+4 ,to g back once m to h] (fice ( consol]4 ,%e ex]cis$ ?is n only ?r\gh h] books1 b also ?r\gh h] p]sonal m9i/ries 9 ^? l>ge & wid5+ circles :i* c5tr$ 9 h] lit]>y & pa/oral life4 ,^? :o 7 favor$ ) h] fri5d%ip 9 times ( sorr[ f\nd h] a com=t] inde$4 ,h] lett]s1 ( :i*1 at su* times1 %e 0 prodigal1 7 to _m sore he>ts z leaves f ! tree ( life4 ,%e did n expect too mu* ( a suff]]4 ,%e recogniz$ human weakness z well z div9e /r5g?4 ,b 9 all h] attempts at consolation1 side by side ) h] deep & true sympa?y1 w5t ! lesson ( ! h>ve/ ( sorr[4 ,%e 0 always po9t+ ! m\rn] pa/ ! floods1 to ! high place above !m--tea*+ him to s+ ev5 amid ! waves & bill[s--! ,"l w comm& ,8 lov+-k9dness2 ,i %all yet praise ,him = ! help ( ,8 c\nt5ance4 ,i knew1 %e wrote to a b]eav$ fri5d1 t ,god w\ld nev] afflict y s1 if ,he _h n some?+ beautiful & blissful to give 9 place ( :at ,he took4 ,! insight :i* h] writ+s reveal$ into _m & subtle aspects ( sorr[1 made h] ! recipi5t ( ho/s ( lett]s f /rang]s1 op5+ to h] _! griefs1 & ask+ h] c\nsel2 & to all %e gave freely & joyfully z f> z h] /r5g? & "t & judgm5t w\ld all[4 ,!re 0 a tonic ve9 m+l+ ) h] com=ts4 ,h] t\* 0 firm z well z t5d]4 ,%e knew ! %oals ( morbid s5tim5tality :i* skirt ! deeps ( tr\ble1 & s\ght to pilot ! sorr[+ pa/ ! %oals to ! %ore4 ,& n[1 hav+ ?us spok5 ( h] prep>ation = ,god's "w1 ! "w itself1 & its fruits1 h[ c we ga!r up & depict ! _m p]sonal traits & associations :i* cr[d ^u ! memory8 ,( su* ?+s h[ _m are incapable ( reproduction1 _! f9e flavor vani%+ ) ! mom5t4 ,h[ (t5 t :i* mo/ comm5ds !m to remembrance lies 9 ! glance ( an eye1 an inflection ( ! voice1 an expression ( ! face1 :i* nei!r p5 nor p5cil c put on record4 ,h[ _m su* recollections1 = example1 gr\p !mselves r\nd t beautiful home among ! hills4 ,h[ x bore h] m>k & 0 p]vad$ ) h] pres5ce1 & seem$1 m ?an any o!r spot1 ! appropriate sett+ ( h] life4 ,n[ %e 0 at h] *amb] w9d[ /udy+ ! ev] %ift+ lights & %ad[s on ! hills2 n[ rambl+ ov] ! fields & ?r\gh ! woods & return+ ) h] h&s lad5 ) fl[]s & grasses2 n[ busy ) h] f]ns 9 h] g>d52 aga9 beguil+ ! h\rs ) h] p5cil1 or /eal+ away to develop "s happy fancy or fre% ?\ght on :i* h] m9d _h be5 work+ = days4 ,& h[ pleasant h] talk4 ,h[ %e w\ld d>t (f sometimes f ! l9e ( ! grave/ !me into "s qua9t1 mir?-provok+ conceit4 ,h[ _m odd ?+s %e _h se52 ( h[ _m /range adv5tures %e _h p>tak51 & h[ graphically & *>m+ly %e told !m4 ,) :at reli% %e w\ld br+ =? "s good ?+ sav$ up to tell to "o :o w\ld appreciate x2 yet1 on ! o!r h&1 h[ e>ne/ly1 h[ intellig5tly1 ) :at simplicity1 ) :at eag] delight w\ld %e pursue ! discussion ( ! deep ?+s ( ,god4 ,nor 0 h] home m]ely a place ( re/ & retirem5t4 ,its doors 7 ev] wide op5 to cong5ial spirits1 & also to "s ( ,*ri/'s poor1 to :om ! heal+ brea? ( ! m\nta9s & ! r>e sights & s\nds ( c\ntry life 7 z gifts f heav54 ,9 t little community %e 0 n cont5t to be a m]e summ] idl]4 ,!re1 too1 %e pursu$ h] m9i/ry ( com=t & ( in/ruction4 ,et]nity alone w reveal ! fruitage ( ! se$s %e s[$ 9 h] weekly ,bible-read+1 to :i* ! wom5 came = miles ov] ! m\nta9 roads1 ?r\gh /orm & ?r\gh sun%9e4 ,& "h ! end came4 ,dea?1 if a surprise at all to h]1 c\ld only be a pleasant surprise4 ,9 "o ( h] /ories an old family s]vant says ( h] dep>t$ mi/ress3 ,(t5's ! "t ,i've he>d h] talk ab\t dy+1 & ,i m9d a "t :5 %e ?\ght %e 0 go+1 & !re 0 a light 9 h] eye1 & x 0 j z %e look$ :5 %e said1 ',m>y1 ,i'm go+ to be m>ri$4' ,x 0 a leaf out ( h] own life4 ,%e _h m>k$ 9 "o ( h] books ( devotion a passage :i*1 ,i imag9e1 summ$ up h] view ( ! :ole matt]3 ,a true ,*ri/ian is nei!r fond ( life nor we>y ( x4 ,%e _h no s5tim5tal disgu/ ) life1 b h] ov]ma/]+ desire 0 to see & be l h] ,"l1 & dea? 0 ! entrance gate to t p]fect vision4 ,only ! op5+ ( t portal c\ld br+ ! full answ] to h] pray] ( ye>s1 ,i besee* ,!e1 %[ me ,?y glory4 ,9 ?is attitude ! mess5g] f\nd h]4 ,i w n dwell on ! clos+ sc5es4444 ,x is pleasant] to turn f t long1 we>y ,sabba?1 :5 nature 9 its p]fect beauty & repose seem$ to mock ! bitt] agony ( ! dea?-*amb]1 to ! h\r :51 ) ! fir/ full brightness ( ! morn+1 ! silv] cord 0 loos$1 & %e 0 pres5t ) ! ,"l4 ,surely x 0 some?+ m ?an an accid5tal co9cid5ce t1 9 ! little ,daily ,food1 :i* = ne>ly =ty ye>s _h be5 h] closet companion1 ! passage = ! #ac? ( ,augu/ 03 ,i he>d a voice f heav5 say+ unto me1 ,write1 bless$ are ! dead :i* die 9 ! ,"l f h5ce=?3 yea1 sai? ! ,_s1 t !y may re/ f _! labors2 & _! works d foll[ !m4 ,t summ] aft]noon :5 %e 0 laid to re/ _h a brightness :i* 0 n all ( ! glories ( ! sett+ sun1 z he bur/ =? f ! encircl+ cl\ds1 & t\*$ ) 8 p>t+ spl5dor ! gates ( ! grave4 ,nature1 ) its fulness ( summ] life1 0 set 9 ! key ( ! resurrection by ! assurance ( h] victory ov] dea?1 & x 0 ) a new & mighty s5se ( _! tru? t we spoke ov] h] a%es ! words ( ! ,apo/le3 ,x is s[n 9 corruption1 x is rais$ 9 incorruption2 x is s[n 9 di%onor1 x is rais$ 9 glory2 x is s[n 9 weakness1 x is rais$ 9 p[]2 x is s[n a natural body1 x is rais$ a spiritual body4 ,o dea?1 :]e is ?y /+8 ,o grave1 :]e is ?y victory8 ,s n[1 z !n1 m ev5 ?an !n1 s9ce ^! mon?s h giv5 u "t to /udy ! lesson ( t life & ! s\rces ( its p[]1 we give ?anks to ,god ?r\gh ,jesus ,*ri/ our ,"l2 ?anks = ! div9e processes :i* m\ld$ a daught] ( consolation2 ?anks = ! f\nta9s ( com=t op5$ by h] along life's highways & :i* cont9ue to fl[ :ile %e sleeps 9 ,jesus2 ?anks = a good & fruitful life end$ 9 ! communion ( ! ,holy ,ca?olic ,*ur*1 9 ! confid5ce ( a c]ta9 fai?1 9 ! com=t ( a reasonable1 religi\s1 & holy hope1 9 *>ity ) all mank9d1 & 9 peace ) ,god4 99 99 99 99 99 ,i4 ,a ,li/ ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' ,writ+s1 ) notices ( "s ( !m & ! dates ( _! publication3 #a4 ,little ,susy's ,six ,bir?days4 #ahec4 #b4 ,only a ,d&elion1 & o!r ,/ories4 #ahed4 ,! fir/ piece1 f :i* ! little book takes its "n1 0 writt5 at ! "t1 & is n excell$ by any?+ ( ! k9d writt5 by ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss4 ,spr+ ,breeze is z fre% & delicate z a ,may fl[]4 ,! o!r /ories are mo/ly a selection f h] e>ly contributions to ,! ,y\?'s ,companion4 #c4 ,h5ry & ,bessie2 or1 ,:at !y did 9 ! ,c\ntry4 #ahee4 #d4 ,little ,susy's ,six ,tea*]s4 #ahef4 #e4 ,little ,susy's ,little ,s]vants4 #ahef4 ,! ?ree ,little ,susy books 7 republi%$ 9 ,engl&1 :]e !y seem to h be5 z popul> among ! *ildr5 z at home4 ,n f> f #ej1jjj copies h be5 sold 9 ?is c\ntry4 #f4 ,! ,fl[] ( ! ,family4 ,a ,book = ,girls4 #ahef4 ,?is "w has _h a wide circulation at home & abroad4 ,"s #ai1jjj copies h be5 sold "h4 ,! foll[+ is ! title-page ( "o ( ! ,fr5* editions3 99 99 99 99 99 ,le ,fleur de ,la ,famille ou ,simple ,hi/oire p\r ,les ,jeunes ,filles4 ,ouvrage ,am]ica94 ,c9quime dition4 ,t\l\se1 ,socit des ,livres ,religieux4 #ahgg4 99 99 99 99 99 ,die ,p]le d] ,familie is ! ,g]man title4 ,"h are a few s5t5ces f a highly laudatory notice 9 ! well-kn[n ,neue ,preuss4 ,zeitung3 ,9 auss]ord5tli*] liebli*] und s9nig] ,weise wird uns e9 husli*es1 s*li*tes1 von edlem ,*ri/li*5 ,s9n getrag5es ,famili5- leb5 =gefhrt1 das dur* se9e treffli*e ,*>act]s*ild]ung uns] lebhafte/es ,int]esse flir j$es ,gli$ des k9d]rei*5 ,hauses 9 ,anspru* nimmt4 ,es i/ im eig5tli*/5 ,s9ne e9 ,bu* fr die ,familie4 ,! ,fl[] ( ! ,family 0 translat$ into ,g]man1--z 7 also ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 ,! ,p]cys1 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me1--by ,miss ,m>ie ,morg5/]n1 ( ,gtt+54 ,"s omissions 9 ! v]sion ( ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d m> a little ! vivacity ( ! book2 b o!rwise h] "w seems to h be5 v c>efully & well done1 & to h met ) ! w>m approval ( ! ,g]man public4 #g4 ,pet]*5 & ,gret*52 or1 ,tales ( ,e>ly ,*ildhood4 #ahfj4 ,?is is a translation f ! ,g]man4 #h4 ,! ,little ,prea*]4 #ahfg4 ,"o ( ! mo/ /rik+ ( h] small] works4 ,x has ?r\gh\t ! flavor ( ,g]man peasant life & ( ! ,black ,=e/4 ,b x seems nev] to h f\nd its way across ! sea4 #i4 ,little ,?reads2 or1 ,tangle ,?read1 ,silv] ,?read1 & ,gold5 ,?read4 #ahfh4 ,! aim ( ,little ,?reads is happily indicat$ 9 its clos+ s5t5ces3 ,if y f9d t y l to h y\r own way a good deal bett] ?an y l y\r mamma to h h]s2 if y p\t & cry :5 y c n d z y please2 if y nev] own t y are 9 ! wrong1 & are sorry = x2 nev]1 9 %ort1 try ) all y\r might to be docile & g5tle1 !n y\r "n is ,tangle ,?read1 & y may dep5d y co/ y\r mamma _m sorr[ful h\rs & _m te>s4 ,& ! be/ ?+ y c d is to g away by y\rself & pray to ,jesus to make y see h[ naughty y are1 & to make y humble & sorry4 ,!n ! old & soil$ ?read t c be se5 9 y\r "m's life w disappe>1 & 9 its place !re w come fir/ a silv]1 & by & by1 ) "t & pati5ce1 & ,god's lov+ help1 a sp>kl+ & beautiful gold5 "o4 ,& d y "k ( any?+ 9 ?is _w y %\ld r be ?an ,somebody's ,gold5 ,?read8--especially ! ,gold5 ,?read ( y\r de> mamma1 :o has lov$ y s _m ye>s1 :o has pray$ = y s _m ye>s1 & :o longs s to see y g5tle & docile l ,him ( :om x 0 said3 ,behold ! ,lamb ( ,god6 ,little ,?reads is bas$ ^u a v ke5 obs]vation ( bo? ! d>k & ! bright side ( *ildhood4 ,! allegory1 9 :i* its lessons are wr\ght1 is1 p]haps1 less simple & attractive ?an t ( ,little ,susy's ,six ,tea*]s1 or t ( ,little ,susy's ,little ,s]vants2 b ! lessons !mselves are full ( ! sweete/ wisdom1 pa?os1 & beauty4 #aj4 ,little ,l\'s ,say+s & ,do+s4 #ahfh4 ,among ! pap]s ( h] si/]1 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss f\nd a j\rnal conta9+ num]\s little incid5ts 9 ! e>ly life ( h] only *ild1 toge!r ) m or less ( 8 boyi% say+s4 ,mu* ( ! mat]ial f\nd 9 ?is j\rnal 0 us$ 9 ! composition ( ,little ,l\2 & t is "o ?+ t gives x su* an air ( p]fect reality4 #aa4 ,fr$ & ,m>ia & ,me4 #ahfh4 #ab4 ,! ,old ,br[n ,pit*]4 #ahfh4 ,?is is a temp]ance tale4 ,x 0 writt5 at ! reque/ ( ! ,national ,temp]ance ,society & issu$ = _! press4 #ac4 ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d4 #ahfi4 ,"s int]e/+ details respect+ ?is "w h be5 giv5 already4 ,its circulation has be5 v l>ge1 bo? at home & abroad2 f> great] ?an t ( any o!r ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' books4 ,m ?an #fg1jjj copies ( x h be5 sold 9 ?is c\ntry2 :ile 9 ,engl& x 0 issu$ by sev]al h\ses1 & t5s ( ?\s&s ( copies h be5 sold !re1 9 ,canada1 9 ,au/ralia1 & 9 o!r p>ts ( ! ,briti% dom9ions4 ,among ! ,engli% h\ses t republi%$ ,/epp+ ,heav5w>d1 7 ,james ,nisbet ,co42 ,w>d1 ,lock ,co42 ,fr$]ick ,w>ne ,co42 ,?omas ,nelson ,sons1 ,london & ,ed9burgh2 ,miln] ,co42 ,weldon ,co4 ,an edition by ! la/-nam$ h\se1 neatly pr9t$ & int5d$ specially = circulation 9 ,canada & ,au/ralia1 z well z at home1 0 sold at fivep5ce1 s t ! v poore/ c\ld buy x4 ,no accurate e/imate c be =m$ ( ! numb] ( copies circulat$ 9 ,great ,brita9 & its dep5d5cies1 b x mu/ h be5 enorm\s4 ,x 0 also issu$ at ,leipsic1 by ,tau*nitz1 9 8 fam\s ,collection ( ,briti% ,au?ors4 ,! ,g]man translation has already pass$ into a f\r? edition--a rem>kable pro( ( its popul>ity4 ,9 ! preface to ?is edition ,miss ,morg5/]n1 ! translator1 says3 ,s mge sie d5n h9auszieh5 9 die ,welt1 diese vi]te ,auflage1 mge wi$]um aufklopf5 an die ,/ub5 und ,h]z5?r51 d] deuts*5 ,lesewelt1 und na*dem ihr aufge?an1 h9e9trag5 9 die ,/ub5 und ,h]z51 0 ihre ,vorgng]9n5 h9e9trug52--,freude und ,ra? und ,tro/4 ,n[h]e has ! "w won high]1 or m discrim9at+1 praise ?an 9 ,g]many4 ,! foll[+ extract f "o ( ! critical notices ( x may s]ve z an in/ance3 ,9 ,=m von ,tagebu*--,aufzei*nung51 somit ,selb/bek5ntniss51 wird uns das ,leb5 e9] ,frau erzlt1 wel*e--ohne &]e uss]e ,s*ickung5 freudig] und trb] ,art1 als sie 9 j$em ,leb5 vorzukomm5 pfleg5--aus e9em zw> gut>tig5 und wohlbegabt5 ab] ,suss]/ reizb>5 und leid5%aftli* erregt5 ,md*5 zu e9] gelut]t5 ,jng]9 des ,h]rn h]anreift4 ,0 ab] dies ,bu* zu e9em wahr5 ,kle9od ma*t1 das i% ni*t die b]aus wahre und tiefe ,analyse j5] m5s*li*5 ,snde1 ,snd5s*wa*heit und ,eitelkeit1 die si* au* 9 die frmm/5 ,regung5 e9us*lei*5 su*t1 sond]n die ,angabe des wahr5 ,heilmittels4 ,d] goldne ,fad5 nmli*1 d] si* dur* das ganze ,bu* zieht1 i/ die ,wahrheit2 ,ni*t uns] ,r5n5 und ,lanf51 sond]n ,se9 ,erb>m56 ,ni*t wir hab5 ,ihn geliebt1 sond]n ,er hat uns geliebt1 und d>an hab5 wir k9dli* zu glaub54 ,si* ,ihm an ,se9 ,h]z w]f5 mit all uns]n ,s*w*51 all uns] ,armu?--das wirkt--ja das i/ ,heilung4444 ,das ,ganze i/ im h*/5 ,grade fesselnd4 ,man lebt si* unwillkrli* 9 dies *ri/li*e ,hauswes5 mit e91 und glaubt 9 viel5 ,zg5 e95 ,spiegel des eig55 zu erk5n54 #ad ,! title-page ( ! ,fr5* translation is z foll[s3 99 99 99 99 99 ,,m>*ant ,,v]s ,,le ,,ciel4 p> ,e4 ,,pr5tiss4 ,auteur de ,la ,fleur de la ,famille1 etc4 ,traduit de ,l',anglais avec ,l',autorization de ,l',auteur4 ,lausanne3 ,georges ,bridel1 ,editeur4 99 99 99 99 99 ,! foll[+ extract f a lett] ( ,madame de ,fress5s1 dat$ ,p>is1 ,july #ah1 #ahhb1 w %[ :at impression ! "w made n only ^u ! gift$ & accompli%$ writ]1 b ^u _m o!r ( ! mo/ cultivat$ ,*ri/ian wom5 ( ,france & ,switz]l&3 ,c'e/ un livre qui fait aim] celle qui y a mis son me1 une tude du coeur huma9 bi5 vraie et bi5 dlicate4 ,l'am\r de ,dieu dborde dans ses pages *>mantes1 dont la lecture r*auffe le coeur4 ,je crois qu'il a t =t apprci dans nos pays de langue franaise4 ,une p]sonne dont t\te la vie e/ un s]vice de ceux qui s\ffr5t me disait l'autre j\r3 ,c'e/ mon livre1 il m'a fait beauc\p de bi54 ,le nombre d'editions qu'a atte9t la traduction franaise temoigne qu'il a eu du succs1 et je suis sre que beauc\p de p]sonnes ont prfr1 avec raison1 le lire dans l'orig9al4 ,je suis heureuse que v\s m'avez donn l'occasion de le relire1 et d'en pr\v] de n\veau la bi5faisante influ5ce4444 ,ce s]ait un vrai privilge de p\voir faire connatre notre public franais cette femme aussi di/+ue p> le coeur que p> l'esprit1 que n\s aimons t\s4 #ad4 ,nidwor?1 & 8 ?ree ,magic ,w&s4 #ahfi4 ,! ?ree ,magic ,w&s are3 ,ri*es1 ,k1 & ,love2 & 9 depict+ _! peculi> & wond]ful virtues ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss has wr\ght into ! /ory ) mu* skill h] own !ory ( a happy life4 ,%e wrote ! book ) int5se delight1 & its /range1 weird-l sc5es & *>act]s--! home 9 ! =e/2 ,dolman1 ! poor woodcutt]2 ,c9da1 8 tall & /rong-m9d$ wife2 ,nidwor?1 _! fir/-born2 w&]+ ,hidda1 bod+ ill-luck2 ! h]mit2 ^! & all ! re/--seem$ to h]1 = a :ile1 almo/ z real z if %e _h copi$ !m f life4 ,its publi%]s 7,rob]ts ,bro!rs7 pron\nc$ ,nidwor? a gem & 7 n a little surpris$ at its failure to /rike ! popul> fancy4 ,x c]ta9ly conta9s "s ( ! au?or's brighte/ pictures ( life & "*4 #ae4 ,! ,p]cys4 #ahgj4 ,?is "w 0 translat$ into ,fr5* & ,g]man1 & won w>m praise 9 bo? languages4 ,x is full ( _s1 depicts real boys & girls & a lov+ ,*ri/ian "m ) equal skill1 & ab\nds 9 ! be/ lessons ( dome/ic peace4 #af4 ,! ,/ory ,lizzie ,told4 #ahgj4 #ag4 ,six ,little ,pr9cesses & :at !y turn$ into4 #ahga4 ,no "o ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' less] works betrays a ke5] insight into "* or a f9] t\* ?an ?is4 ,its aim is to illu/rate ! tru? t all girls are end[$ ) _! own individual tal5ts2 & to en=ce ! tw(old lesson1 t ! dilig5t use ( ^! tal5ts1 on ! "o h&1 c furni% innoc5t pleasures beyond ! rea* ( any outw>d position1 h[ev] brilliant2 &1 on ! o!r1 is ! be/ prep>ation = ! day ( adv]sity4 ,! clos+ s5t5ces ( ! /ory w give an inkl+ ( its aim & quality3 ,i see h[ x is1 said ! ,c\ntess4 ,y mu/ live toge!r4 ,ea* feels h]self incomplete )\t ! o!rs4 ,novella ne$s somebody to take c>e ( h] & somebody to love4 ,9 return1 %e w give love & endless ent]ta9m5t4 ,reima1 too1 ne$s look+ aft]1 & "s "o w wat* ) a fri5dly eye ! gr[? ( h] pa9t+s4 ,our two musicians mu/ n become "o-sid$ by ?9k+ only ( melody & song4 ,!y mu/ enjoy be+ clo!d by ,mo9a's k9d h&s1 li/5+ to ,novella's poems1 & discuss+ ,reima's works4 ,& y mu/ tra9 all y\r e>s to appreciate ! tal5ts ( ^! two m>vell\s creatures :o s+ & play ) su* r>e1 su* exquisite h>mony4 ,& :at %all ,i d8 cri$ ,delicieuse4 ,y %all d a little ( ev]y?+1 de> *ild4 ,y %all help ,mo9a to guide ! h\se1 & ,reima to mix ! colors4 ,y %all take c>e t ! piano is nev] out ( tune1 or ,novella at a loss = p5s & pap]4 ,9 a ^w1 y %all be :at y always h be51 always ready ) ! oil ( gladness1 :]ev] y see friction1 ! sweete/1 ! mo/ lovable creature 9 ! _w4 ,delicieuse smil$1 & ran to embrace all h] si/]s1 h>dly kn[+ :i* %e lov$ be/4 ,x 0 n long be=e ^? royal maid5s1 royal only 9 _! virtues & _! tal5ts1 f\nd !mselves 9 a home 9 a v9e-clad l&1 :]e ea* c\ld live z ,nature _h design$ %e %\ld live4 ,mo9a1 ^: practical skill 0 n conf9$ to h] ne$le1 kept ! h\se ) su* exquisite c>e & neatness1 t h] si/]s pref]r$ x to a palace4 ,%e f\nd happ9ess 9 =gett+ h]self1 9 h] pride 9 !m1 & 9 ! fre$om f petty c>es f :i* %e %ield$ !m4 ,h] calm1 s]5e "* 0 a cont9ual repose to ! v>y+ moods ( ,reima & ,novella2 a balance-:eel to works t1 runn+ fa/1 (t5 ran irregul>ly4 ,reima /udi$ ! old ma/]s ) no ne$ = fur!r travel1 = h] home lay among _! works4 ,mosella & ,papeta compos$ music1 made ,delicieuse li/5 to & admire x :5 o!r he>]s 7 want+1 & 7 satisfi$ ) h] criticisms4 ,novella wrote books1 & _h h] fr5zies4 ,%e _h h] g5tle & h] gay moods1 also1 & made laught] r+ ?r\gh ! h\se at h] w4 ,n "o ( ^! f\r 0 consci\s ( h] p[]s1 or ask$ = fame4 ,nor did _! ari/ocratic bre$+ make !m a%am$ to "w = _! bread4 ,!y ev5 fanci$ t bread ?us won1 ne$$ less butt] to help x d[n1 ?an t ( *>ity4 ,z to ,delicieuse1 %e 0 ! bright1 ! gold5 l9k t b\nd ! h\sehold toge!r 9 peace & h>mony4 ,h] smiles1 h] c>esses1 ! love t fl[$ =? f h] z f a liv+ f\nta91 made _! home glad ) p]petual sun%9e4 ,?ank ,god = ! gifts ( g5ius ,he has scatt]$ abroad ) a b\ntiful h&2 b ?ank ,him also t1 )\t su* gifts1 "o may become a joy & a b5$iction6 #ah4 ,aunt ,jane's ,h]o4 #ahga4 ,?is "w 0 at once republi%$ 9 ,engl& & appe>$ also 9 a ,fr5* v]sion4 #ai4 ,gold5 ,h\rs3 ,hymns & ,songs ( ! ,*ri/ian ,life4 #ahgc4 ,sev]al ( ! pieces 9 ?is volume _h already appe>$2 among !m ,m ,love to ,!e1 ,o ,*ri/4 ,?is hymn has pass$ into mo/ ( ! lat] collections4 ,x 0 translat$ into ,arabic1 & is sung 9 ! l& once trodd5 by ! bless$ feet ( ,him ^: "n x adores1 & ?r\gh\t ! ,ea/4 #bj4 ,urbane & ,8 ,fri5ds4 #ahgd4 ,?is "w 0 repr9t$ 9 ,engl&4 #ba4 ,griselda3 ,a ,dramatic ,poem 9 ,five ,acts4 ,translat$ f ! ,g]man ( ,fri$ri* ,halm 7,b>on ,mn*-,bell+haus574 #ahgf4 ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss suppos$ t h]s 0 ! fir/ ,engli% v]sion ( ?is poem4 ,b !re is a translation by ,sir ,r4 ,a4 ,an/ru!r1 :i* appe>$ 9 ,london z e>ly z #ahdj & 9 a new edition f\r ye>s lat]4 ,all attempts to obta9 a copy ( ?is translation 9 ,new ,york1 or f ,london1 h prov$ futile4 #bb4 ,! ,home at ,greylock4 #ahgf4 ,! foll[+ extract f a lett] ( ! au?or ( ! ,fr5* translation to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss des]ves a place "h3 ,,madame1--,v\s savez sans d\te que1 sans votre autorisation1 une plume1 bi5 h>die peut-tre1 mais ple9e de zle et de respect p\r v\s1 s'e/ mise traduire un de vos ouvrages1 ,! ,home at ,greylock4 ,sans votre autorisation6 ,etait-ce bi58 tait-ce mal8 ,je me le suis dem& plus d'une fois et je v\s l'aurais dem&1 ,madame1 si j'avais su votre adresse assez tt4 ,l'diteur m'a mis la consci5ce l'aise en m'assurant que le droit tait le mme p\r t\s1 et que les auteurs amrica9s ne p\vai5t concd] de privilge qui que ce ft4 ,=te de cette assurance1 je me mis l'oeuvre1 mais j'av\e que j'eus beso9 d'enc\ragem5ts rxrs p\r m5] mon travail bonne f94 ,encore un mot d'explication1 si v\s le p]mittez1 ,madame4 ,je ne suis pas mre1 mais je suis tante2 j'ai vu natre mes neveux et nices1 je les ai b]cs dans mes bras1 j'ai veill sur leurs premi]s pas1 j'ai obs]v le dveloppem5t graduel de leur coeur et de leur intellig5ce1 j'ai s5ti fond combi5 l'oeuvre de l'ducation e/ srieuse et combi5 il importe d'tre discipl9 soi-mme p> le ,seigneur p\r discipl9] les petits confis nos so9s4 ,il n'e/ done pas tonnant que votre livre m'ait vivem5t intresse et que j'aie v\lu le mettre la porte d'un gr& nombre4 ,cela et t fait tt ou t>d p> d'autres1 je ne l'ignore po9t2 mais j'avais envie d'essay] mes =ces1 et4444 l'occasion a fait le l>ron4 ,ne s]iez-v\s pas ma complice1 ,madame8444 ,m'appuyant sur votre bi5veillame et sur la frat]nit qui unit les mes dans le ,seigneur1 je v\s prie1 ,madame1 de ne pas me considr] comme une trangre et d'agrer l'expression de mon e/ime et mes voeux en ,*ri/4 #bc4 ,pemaquid2 a ,/ory ( ,old ,times 9 ,new ,engl&4 #ahgg4 #bd4 ,g5tleman ,jim4 #ahgh4 ,?is little /ory 0 ! la/ production ( h] p5 & appe>$ a few days only aft] h] dea?4 #be4 ,avis ,b5son2 or1 ,m9e & ,?9e1 ) o!r ,sket*es4 #ahgi4 ,?is is a collection ( pieces t _h already appe>$ 9 ! ,*icago ,advance & 9 ! ,new ,york ,obs]v]4 ,x met ) a cordial welcome & has _h a l>ge circulation4 ,"s ( ! read]s ( ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss' books may be glad to see a specim5 ( h] h&writ+4 ,! foll[+ is a fac-simile ( ! clos+ "p ( a lett] to h] c\s91 ,miss ,%ipman1 writt5 at ,dorset 9 #ahfg3 ,illu/ration3 ,h&writ+ ,sample #a ,b4 ,j4 ,loss+1 ,l4,l4,d41 9 ! ,*ri/ian ,union ( ,oct4 #ae1 #ahgi4 #b ,b4 ,j4 ,loss+ 9 ,! ,*ri/ian ,union4 #c ,mr4 ,na?aniel ,willis1 !n 9 8 #gf? ye>4 ,he di$ at ,bo/on1 ,may #bf1 #ahgj1 9 ! #ij? ye> ( 8 age4 #d ,sickness3 its ,trials & ,bless+s4 ,a v wise & com=t+ book4 ,%e bequea!d x back to ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss at h] dea?4 #e ,to aid 9 def5d+ x aga9/ ! ,bord]-,ruffians4 #f ,mrs4 ,pr5tiss 0 on h] way to ,europe4 ,be=e sail+ %e w5t to ,william/[n to say good-bye to h] si/]1 b ! latt] 0 too ill to see h]4 ,!y nev] met aga9 on e>?4 #g ,ref]r+ to ! family ( ,rev4 ,wm4 ,james1 ,d4,d41 ( ,albany4 #h ,s5t f ,g5evri]4 #i ,n4 ,p4 ,willis4 #aj ,! ,bo/on ,record] & ,! ,y\?'s ,companion4 #aa ,! late ,george ,ripley1 ! em95t s*ol> & critic1 is ref]r$ to4 ,9 a lett]1 dat$ ,new ,york1 ,nov4 #bj1 #ahgi1 ,mr4 ,ripley writes3 ,i beg y to accept1 de> ,dr4 ,pr5tiss1 my mo/ cordial ?anks = y\r k9dness 9 s5d+ me ! extract f ,miss ,payson's j\rnal4 ,i rememb] p]fectly ! visits ( ! "y ,g]man en?usia/ to my h\se 9 ,bo/on & ! great pleasure !y always gave to my wife & myself4 ,my acqua9tance ) h]1 ,i ?9k1 0 ?r\gh ,mr4 ,tappan's family1 ( :i* y\r =m] p>i%ion] & my de> fri5d & classmate1 ,?omas ,d5ny1 aft]w>d became a memb]4 ,) my infatuation = ,new ,engl& p & ,new ,engl& biography & g5ealogy & lit]>y endeavor1 x w\ld give me great delight to be p]mitt$ to see ,miss ,payson's j\rnal4 ,! j\rnal 0 s5t to ,dr4 ,ripley & read by him ) great pleasure4 ,! incid5t l$ to ! r5ewal ( an old acqua9tance & to repeat$ visits at 8 resid5ce--"o %ortly be=e 8 dea?--:i* left ^u ! writ] a /rong impression ( 8 deep int]e/ 9 !ological & religi\s tru?1 z well z ( 8 g5ial temp] & rem>kable lit]>y accompli%m5ts4 #ab ,! late ,rev4 ,john ,adams ,albro1 ,d4,d41 ( ,cambridge4 #ac ,leon>d ,woods1 ,jr41 ,d4,d41 !n ,presid5t ( ,b[do9 ,college4 #ad ,allgeme9] lit]>is*] ,anzeig] fr das evangelis*e ,deuts*l&1 ,jan41 #ahgc4 ,illu/ration3 ,dorset ,m\nta9s4 ,illu/ration3 ,a ,view ( ,*ateau d',oex4 ,illu/ration3 ,la ,maison des ,ba9s4 ,illu/ration3 ,! ,old ,mill & ,pond4