,,! ,,life ,,( ,,col4 ,,james ,,g>d9]1 ,,:o ,,0 ,,sla9 ,,at ,,! ,,battle ,,( ,,pre/onpans1 ,,septemb] #ba1 #agde4 ,,by ,p4 ,,doddridge1 ,d4,d4 ',ju/ior alt] ,nec pietate fuit1 nec bello major et armis4'--,,virgil ,,*apt] ,i ,,p>5tage ,,& ,,e>ly ,,days4 ,,ii ,,battle ,,( ,,ramillies4 ,,iii ,,milit>y ,,pref]m5ts4 ,,iv ,,*ecks ,,( ,,consci5ce4 ,v ,,8 ,,conv]sion4 ,,vi ,,lett]s4 ,,vii ,,dome/ic ,,relations4 ,,viii ,,conduct ,,z ,,an ,,(fic]4 ,,ix ,,intimacy ,,) ,,! ,,au?or4 ,x ,,devotion ,,& ,,*>ity4 ,,xi ,,emb>ks ,,= ,,fl&]s4 ,,xii ,,return ,,to ,,engl&4 ,,xiii ,,revival ,,( ,,religion4 ,,xiv ,,appreh5sions ,,( ,,dea?4 ,,xv ,,battle ,,( ,,pre/onpans4 ,,! ,,colonel',s ,,p]sonal ,,appe>ance4 ,,app5dix ,i ,,app5dix ,,ii 99,transcrib]'s ,note3 ,at ! "t ( ?is book1 ,engl& /ill foll[$ ! ,julian cal5d> 7aft] ,julius ,caes>1 #dd ,b4,c471 & celebrat$ ,new ,ye>'s ,day on ,m>* #be? 7,annunciation ,day74 ,mo/ ,ca?olic c\ntries accept$ ! ,gregorian cal5d> 7aft] ,pope ,gregory ,,xiii7 f "s "t aft] #aehb 7! ,ca?olic c\ntries ( ,france1 ,spa91 ,portugal1 & ,italy 9 #aehb1 ,belgium1 ! ,ne!rl&s1 & ,switz]l& )9 a ye> or two1 ,hung>y 9 #aehg1 & ,scotl& 9 #afjj71 & celebrat$ ,new ,ye>'s ,day on ,janu>y #a/4 ,engl& f9ally *ang$ to ! ,gregorian cal5d> 9 #ageb4 ,?is is ! reason = ! d\ble dates 9 ! e>ly mon?s ( ! ye>s 9 ?is n>rative4 ,janu>y #afhg 9 ,engl& w\ld h be5 ,janu>y #afhh 9 ,scotl&4 ,only aft] ,m>* #be? 0 ! ye> ! same 9 ! two c\ntries4 ,! ,julian cal5d> 0 kn[n z ',old ,/yle'1 & ! ,gregorian cal5d> z ',new ,/yle' 7,n4,s474 7,?us a lett] writt5 f ,france on e4g4 ,augu/ #d?1 #agai w\ld be dat$ ,augu/ #d1 ,n4,s47 ,,life ,,( ,,col4 ,,james ,,g>d9]4 ,,*apt] ,i4 ,,p>5tage ,,& ,,e>ly ,,days4 ,:5 ,i promis$ ! public "s l>g] acc\nt ( ! life & "* ( ?is illu/ri\s p]son1 ?an ,i c\ld conv5i5tly ins]t 9 my s]mon on ! sad occasion ( 8 dea?1 ,i 0 secure1 t if ,provid5ce cont9u$ my capacity ( writ+1 ,i %\ld n :olly disappo9t ! expectation2 = ,i 0 furni%$ ) a v>iety ( p>ticul>s :i* appe>$ to me wor?y ( g5]al notice1 9 consequ5ce ( t intimate fri5d%ip ) :i* he _h hon\r$ me dur+ ! la/ six ye>s ( 8 life--a fri5d%ip :i* l$ him to op5 8 he>t to me1 9 repeat$ conv]sations1 ) an unb\nd$ confid5ce1 7z he !n assur$ me1 beyond :at he _h us$ ) any o!r man liv+17 s f> z religi\s exp]i5ces 7 conc]n$2 & ,i _h also receiv$ sev]al v valuable lett]s f him dur+ ! "t ( our abs5ce f ea* o!r1 :i* conta9$ mo/ g5u9e & edify+ traces ( 8 ,*ri/ian "*4 ,b ,i hop$ fur!r to le>n _m valuable p>ticul>s f ! pap]s ( 8 own closet1 & f 8 lett]s to o!r fri5ds1 z well z f :at !y m circum/antially knew conc]n+ him4 ,i !re=e det]m9$ to delay ! execution ( my promise till ,i c\ld enjoy ^! advantages = p]=m+ x 9 ! mo/ satisfactory mann]2 nor h ,i1 on ! :ole1 reason to regret t det]m9ation4 ,i %all n tr\ble ! read] ) all ! causes :i* concurr$ to ret>d ^! expect$ assi/ances = almo/ a :ole ye>4 ,! *ief ( !m 0 ! t$i\s langui%+ illness ( 8 afflict$ lady1 ?r\gh ^: h&s x 0 prop] ! pap]s %\ld pass2 toge!r ) ! confusion into :i* ! rebels _h ?r[n !m :5 !y ransack$ 8 seat at ,bankton1 :]e mo/ ( !m 7 deposit$4 ,b hav+ n[ receiv$ su* ( !m z h escap$ _! rapaci\s h&s1 & c\ld conv5i5tly be collect$ & transmitt$1 ,i set myself ) ! greate/ pleasure to p]=m :at ,i e/eem n m]ely a tribute ( gratitude to ! memory ( my invaluable fri5d1 7?\gh nev] 0 ! memory ( any mortal man m preci\s & sacr$ to me17 b ( duty to ,god1 & to my fell[-creatures2 = ,i h a mo/ *e]ful hope t ! n>rative ,i am n[ to write w1 "u ! div9e bless+1 be a means ( spread+1 :at ( all ?+s 9 ! _w1 e b5evol5t he>t w mo/ desire to spread1 a w>m & lively s5se ( religion4 ,my own he>t has be5 s mu* edifi$ & animat$ by :at ,i h read 9 ! memoirs ( p]sons :o h be5 em95t = wisdom & piety1 t ,i _c b wi% ! treasure may be m & m increas$2 & ,i w\ld hope ! _w may ga!r ! l valuable fruits f ! life ,i am n[ attempt+1 n only z x w conta9 v s+ul> circum/ances1 :i* may excite g5]al curiosity1 b z x comes att5d$ ) "s o!r p>ticul> advantages4 ,! read] is "h to survey a "* ( su* em95t & v>i\s goodness z might dem& v5]ation1 & inspire him ) a desire ( imitat+ x too1 _h x appe>$ 9 ! obscure/ rank2 b x w surely comm& "s peculi> reg>d1 :5 view$ 9 s elevat$ & important a /ation1 especially z x %one1 n 9 ecclesia/ical1 b milit>y life1 :]e ! temptations are s _m1 & ! preval5ce ( ! contr>y "* s great1 t x may seem no inconsid]able praise & felicity to be free f dissolute vice1 & to reta9 :at 9 mo/ o!r pr(essions might be e/eem$ only a m$iocrity ( virtue4 ,x may surely1 ) ! highe/ ju/ice1 be expect$ t ! title & brav]y ( ,colonel ,g>d9] w invite _m ( our (fic]s & soldi]s1 to :om 8 "n has be5 long hon\rable & de>1 to p]use ?is acc\nt ( him ) "s peculi> att5tion2 9 consequ5ce ( :i* x may be a means ( increas+ ! numb]1 & bright5+ ! "* ( ^? :o are already adorn+ _! (fice1 _! c\ntry1 & _! religion2 & ( reclaim+ ^? :o w see :at !y ought to be1 r ?an :at !y are4 ,on ! :ole1 to ! g5tlem5 ( ! sword ,i w\ld p>ticul>ly (f] ^! memoirs1 z !irs by s di/+ui%$ a title2 yet ,i am firmly p]suad$ !re are none ^: (fice is s sacr$1 or ^: pr(ici5cy 9 ! religi\s life is s advanc$1 b !y may f9d some?+ to dem& _! ?ankfulness1 & to awak5 _! emulation4 ,,colonel ,,james ,,g>d9] 0 ! son ( ,capt4 ,patrick ,g>d9] ( ! family ( ,torwoodhead1 by ,mrs499 ,m>y ,hodge ( ! family ( ,gladsmuir4 ,! capta91 :o 0 ma/] ( a h&some e/ate1 s]v$ _m ye>s 9 ! army ( k+ ,william & que5 ,anne1 & di$ abroad ) ! ,briti% =ces 9 ,g]many1 soon aft] ! battle ( ,ho*/ett1 ?r\gh ! fatigues he und]w5t 9 ! duties ( t celebrat$ campaign4 ,he _h a company 9 ! regim5t ( foot once comm&$ by ,colonel ,hodge1 8 valiant bro!r-9-law1 :o 0 sla9 at ! head ( t regim5t 7my memorial f ,scotl& says7 at ! battle ( ,/e5kirk1 :i* 0 f\ght 9 ! ye> #afib4 99,transcrib]'s ,note3 ,mrs4 7,mi/ress71 9 t age1 0 ! normal /yle ( address = an unm>ri$ daught] f a prom95t family1 z well z = a m>ri$ lady4 ,mrs4 ,g>d9]1 our colonel's "m1 0 a lady ( v respectable "*2 b x pleas$ ,god to ex]cise h] ) v uncommon trials2 = %e n only lo/ h] husb& & h] bro!r 9 ! s]vice ( _! c\ntry1 z be=e relat$1 b also h] elde/ son1 ,mr4 ,rob]t ,g>d9]1 on ! day :i* complet$ ! #af? ye> ( 8 age1 at ! siege ( ,namur1 9 #afie4 ,b !re is great reason to believe t ,god bless$ ^! v>i\s & heavy afflictions1 z ! means ( =m+ h] to t em95t degree ( piety :i* w r5d] h] memory hon\rable z long z x cont9ues4 ,h] second son1 ! wor?y p]son ( :om ,i am n[ to give a m p>ticul> acc\nt1 0 born at ,c>rid51 9 ,l9li?g[%ire1 on ! #aj? ( ,janu>y1 ,a4,d4 #afhg-h1--! memorable ye> ( t glori\s revolution :i* he ju/ly e/eem$ among ! happie/ ( all ev5ts2 s t :5 he 0 sla9 9 def5ce ( ^? lib]ties :i* ,god !n1 by s graci\s a provid5ce1 rescu$ f utt] de/ruction1 i4e4 on ! #ba/ ( ,septemb] #agde1 he 0 ag$ #eg ye>s1 #h mon?s1 & #aa days4 ,! annual return ( 8 bir?-day 0 obs]v$ by him 9 ! latt] & bett] ye>s ( 8 life1 9 a mann] v diff]5t f :at is commonly practis$2 =1 in/ead ( mak+ x a day ( fe/ivity1 ,i am told he r di/+ui%$ x z a season ( m ?an ord9>y humiliation be=e ,god--bo? 9 commemoration ( ^? m]cies :i* he receiv$ 9 ! fir/ op5+ ( life1 & "u an affectionate s5se1 z well ( 8 long ali5ation f ! great ,au?or & support ( 8 be+1 z ( ! _m imp]fections :i* he lam5t$ 9 ! be/ ( 8 days & s]vices4 ,i h n met ) _m ?+s rem>kable conc]n+ ! e>ly days ( 8 life1 only t 8 "m took c>e to in/ruct him1 ) great t5d]ness & affection1 9 ! pr9ciples ( true ,*ri/ianity4 ,he 0 also tra9$ up 9 humane lit]ature1 at ! s*ool at ,l9li?g[1 :]e he made a v consid]able progress 9 ! languages4 ,i rememb] to h he>d him quote "s passages ( ! ,lat9 classics v p]t95tly2 ?\gh 8 employm5t 9 life1 & ! v>i\s turns :i* 8 m9d took "u diff]5t impulses 9 succe$+ ye>s1 prev5t$ him f cultivat+ su* /udies4 ,! good effects ( 8 "m's prud5t & exempl>y c>e 7 n s conspicu\s z %e wi%$ & hop$1 9 ! e>li] "p ( h] son's life2 yet !re is great reason to believe !y 7 n entirely lo/4 ,z !y 7 probably ! occasion ( _m convictions :i* 9 8 y\ng] ye>s 7 ov]borne1 s ,i d\bt n1 t :5 religi\s impressions took t /rong hold ( 8 he>t :i* !y aft]w>ds did1 t /ock ( k :i* _h be5 s e>ly laid up 9 8 m9d1 0 f\nd ( consid]able s]vice4 ,& ,i h he>d !m make ! obs]vation1 z an enc\ragem5t to p>5ts1 & o!r pi\s fri5ds1 to d _! duty1 & to hope = ^? good consequ5ces ( x :i* may n imm$iately appe>4 ,c\ld 8 "m1 or a v religi\s aunt1 7( ^: good in/ructions & exhortations ,i h (t5 he>d him speak ) pleasure17 h prevail$1 he w\ld n h ?\ght ( a milit>y life1 f :i* x is no wond] ^! ladies endeav\r$ to dissuade him1 consid]+ ! m\rnful exp]i5ce !y _h ( ! dang]s att5d+ x1 & ! de> relatives !y _h lo/ already by x4 ,b x suit$ 8 ta/e2 & ! ard\r ( 8 _s1 animat$ by ! p]suasions ( a fri5d :o greatly urg$ x199 0 n to be re/ra9$4 ,nor w ! read] wond] t1 ?us excit$ & support$1 x easily ov]bore _! t5d] remon/rances1 :5 he kn[s t ?is lively y\? f\ght ?ree duels be=e he atta9$ to ! /ature ( a man2 9 "o ( :i*1 :5 he 0 b eight ye>s old1 he receiv$ f a boy mu* old] ?an himself1 a w\nd 9 8 "r *eek1 ! sc> ( :i* 0 always v app>5t4 ,! false s5se ( hon\r :i* in/igat$ him to x1 might seem inde$ some?+ excusable 9 ^? unrip5$ ye>s1 & consid]+ ! pr(ession ( 8 fa!r1 bro!r1 & uncle2 b ,i h (t5 he>d him m5tion ?is ra%ness ) t regret :i* ! reflection w\ld naturally give to s wise & good a man 9 ! maturity ( life4 ,& ,i h be5 in=m$ t1 aft] 8 rem>kable conv]sion1 he decl9$ accept+ a *all5ge1 ) ?is calm & truly great reply1 :i*1 9 a man ( 8 exp]i5c$ brav]y1 0 exce$+ly graceful3 ,i fe> s9n+1 ?\gh y "k ,i d n fe> fight+4 99,note3 ,i suppose ?is to h be5 ,brigadi]-,g5]al ,rue1 :o _h f 8 *ildhood a peculi> affection = him4 ,,*apt] ,,ii4 ,,battle ,,( ,,ramillies4 ,he s]v$ fir/ z a cadet1 :i* mu/ h be5 v e>ly2 & !n1 at f\rte5 ye>s old1 he bore an ensign's commission 9 a ,scot* regim5t 9 ! ,dut* s]vice1 9 :i* he cont9u$ till ! ye> #agjb1 :5 7if my in=mation be "r7 he receiv$ an ensign's commission f que5 ,anne1 :i* he bore 9 ! battle ( ,ramillies1 be+ !n 9 ! n9ete5? ye> ( 8 age4 ,9 ?is ev]-memorable action he receiv$ a w\nd 9 8 m\? by a musket-ball1 :i* has (t5 be5 report$ to be ! occasion ( 8 conv]sion4 ,t report 0 a mi/ak5 "o2 b z "s v rem>kable circum/ances att5d$ ?is affair1 :i* ,i h _h ! pleasure ( he>+ m ?an once f 8 own m\?1 ,i hope my read]s w excuse me1 if ,i give him s uncommon a /ory at l>ge4 ,our "y (fic] 0 ( a p>ty 9 ! =lorn hope1 & 0 comm&$ on :at seem$ almo/ a desp]ate s]vice1 to dispossess ! ,fr5* ( ! *ur*-y>d at ,ramillies1 :]e a consid]able numb] ( !m 7 po/$ to rem>kable advantage4 ,!y succe$$ mu* bett] ?an 0 expect$2 & x may well be suppos$ t ,mr4 ,g>d9]1 :o _h be=e be5 9 sev]al enc\nt]s1 & _h ! view ( mak+ 8 =tune to animate ! natural intrepidity ( 8 _s1 0 glad ( su* an opportunity ( signaliz+ himself4 ,accord+ly he _h plant$ 8 col\rs on an advanc$ gr\nd2 & :ile he 0 call+ to 8 m51 7probably 9 t horrid language :i* is s peculi> a disgrace to our soldi]y1 & s absurdly common on su* occasions ( extreme dang]17 he receiv$ into 8 m\? a %ot1 :i*1 )\t beat+ out ( any ( 8 tee?1 or t\*+ ! =e "p ( 8 tongue1 w5t ?r\gh 8 neck1 & came out ab\t an in* & a half on ! left side ( ! v]tebr4 ,n feel+ at fir/ ! pa9 ( ! /roke1 he wond]$ :at 0 become ( ! ball1 & 9 ! wildness ( 8 surprise began to suspect he _h swall[$ x2 b fall+ soon aft]1 he trac$ ! passage ( x by 8 f+]1 :5 he c\ld discov] x 9 no o!r way2 :i* ,i m5tion z "o circum/ance1 among _m :i* occur1 to make x probable t ! great] "p ( ^? :o fall 9 battle by ^! in/rum5ts ( dea?1 feel v little angui% f ! mo/ mortal w\nds4 ,?is accid5t happ5$ ab\t five or six 9 ! ev5+1 on ! #bc;d ( ,may1 #agjf2 & ! army1 pursu+ its advantages aga9/ ! ,fr5*1 )\t ev] reg>d+ ! w\nd$1 7:i* 01 x seems1 ! ,duke ( ,m>lbor\gh's con/ant me?od17 our "y (fic] lay all night on ! field1 agitat$1 z may well be suppos$1 ) a great v>iety ( ?\ghts4 ,he assur$ me1 t :5 he reflect$ ^u ! circum/ance ( 8 w\nd1 t a ball %\ld1 z he !n conceiv$ x1 g ?r\gh 8 head )\t kill+ him1 he ?\ght ,god _h pres]v$ him by a miracle2 & !re=e assur$ly conclud$ t he %\ld live1 ab&on$ & desp]ate z 8 /ate seem$ to be4 ,yet 7:i* to me appe>$ v a/oni%+7 he _h little ?\ghts ( humbl+ himself be=e ,god1 & return+ to him aft] ! w&]+s ( a life s lic5ti\sly begun4 ,b1 expect+ to recov]1 8 m9d 0 tak5 up ) contrivances to secure 8 gold1 ( :i* he _h a good deal ab\t him2 & he _h rec\rse to a v odd exp$i5t1 :i* prov$ successful4 ,expect+ to be /ripp$1 he fir/ took out a h&ful ( t clott$ gore ( :i* he 0 frequ5tly oblig$ to cle> 8 m\?1 or he w\ld h be5 *ok$2 & putt+ x into 8 left h&1 he took out 8 money1 :i* ,i ?9k 0 ab\t #ai pi/oles1 & %utt+ 8 h&1 & besme>+ ! back "p ( x ) blood1 he kept 9 ?is position till ! blood dri$ 9 su* a mann] t 8 h& c\ld n easily fall op51 ?\gh any sudd5 surprise %\ld happ51 9 :i* he might lose ! pres5ce ( m9d :i* t concealm5t o!rwise w\ld h requir$4 ,9 ! morn+ ! ,fr5*1 :o 7 ma/]s ( t spot1 ?\gh _! =ces 7 defeat$ at "s di/ance1 came to plund] ! sla92 & see+ him to appe>ance almo/ expir+1 "o ( !m 0 j apply+ a sword to 8 brea/1 to de/roy ! little rema9d] ( life1 :51 9 ! critical mom5t1 ^u :i* all ! extraord9>y ev5ts ( su* a life z 8 aft]w>ds prov$1 7 susp5d$1 a ,cordeli] :o att5d$ ! plund]]s int]pos$1 7tak+ him by 8 dress = a ,fr5*man7 & said1 ,d n kill t poor *ild4 ,our "y soldi] he>d all t pass$1 ?\gh he 0 n able to speak "o ^w2 &1 op5+ 8 eyes1 made a sign = some?+ to dr9k4 ,!y gave him a sup ( "s spiritu\s liquor :i* happ5$ to be at h&1 by :i* he said he f\nd a m s5sible refre%m5t ?an he c\ld rememb] f any?+ he _h ta/$ ei!r be=e or s9ce4 ,!n signify+ to ! fri> to lean d[n 8 e> to 8 m\?1 he employ$ ! fir/ ef=ts ( 8 feeble brea? 9 tell+ him 7:at1 alas6 0 a contriv$ falsehood7 t he 0 a nephew to ! gov]nor ( ,huy1 a neutral t[n 9 ! neighb\rhood2 & t if he c\ld take any me?od ( convey+ him ?i!r1 he did n d\bt b 8 uncle w\ld lib]ally rew>d him4 ,he _h inde$ a fri5d at ,huy1 :o ,i ?9k 0 gov]nor1 &1 if ,i mi/ake n1 _h be5 acqua9t$ ) ! capta91 8 fa!r1 f :om he expect$ a k9d reception2 b ! relation 0 only pret5d$4 ,on he>+ ?is1 !y laid him on a sort ( h&-b>r[1 & s5t him by a file ( musquete]s t[>ds ! place2 b ! m5 lo/ _! way1 &1 t[>ds ! ev5+1 got into a wood 9 :i* !y 7 oblig$ to cont9ue all night4 ,! poor pati5t's w\nd be+ /ill undress$1 x is n to be wond]$ at t by ?is "t x rag$ viol5tly4 ,! angui% ( x engag$ him e>ne/ly to beg t !y w\ld ei!r kill him outright1 or leave him !re to die )\t ! torture ( any fur!r motion2 & inde$ !y 7 oblig$ to re/ = a consid]able "t1 on acc\nt ( _! own we>9ess4 ,?us he sp5t ! second night 9 ! op5 air1 )\t any ?+ m ?an a common b&age to /aun* ! blood4 ,he has (t5 m5tion$ x z a mo/ a/oni%+ provid5ce t he did n ble$ to dea?1 :i*1 "u ,god1 he ascrib$ to ! rem>kable coldness ( ^! two nights4 ,judg+ x q unsafe to attempt c>ry+ him to ,huy1 f :5ce !y 7 n[ sev]al miles di/ant1 8 convoy took him e>ly 9 ! morn+ to a conv5t 9 ! neighb\rhood1 :]e he 0 hospitably receiv$1 & treat$ ) great k9dness & t5d]ness4 ,b ! cure ( 8 w\nd 0 committ$ to an ignorant b>b]-surgeon :o liv$ ne> ! h\se1 ! be/ %ift t c\ld !n be made1 at a "t :5 x may easily be suppos$ p]sons ( ability 9 _! pr(ession _h _! h&s full ( employm5t4 ,! t5t :i* ?is arti/ appli$1 0 almo/ l a peg driv5 into ! w\nd2 & g5tlem5 ( skill & exp]i5ce1 :5 !y came to he> ( ! mann] 9 :i* he 0 treat$1 wond]$ h[ he c\ld possibly survive su* managem5t4 ,b by ! bless+ ( ,god on ^! applications1 r\gh z !y 71 he recov]$ 9 a few mon?s4 ,! ,lady ,abbess1 :o call$ him h] son1 treat$ him ) ! affection & c>e ( a "m2 & he always decl>$ t e ?+ :i* he saw )9 ^! walls1 0 conduct$ ) ! /ricte/ dec5cy & decorum4 ,he receiv$ a great _m dev\t admonitions f ! ladies !re1 & !y w\ld fa9 h p]suad$ him to ackn[l$ge :at !y ?\ght s miracul\s a deliv]ance1 by embrac+ ! ,ca?olic fai?1 z !y 7 pleas$ to call x4 ,b !y c\ld n succe$2 = ?\gh no religion lay ne> 8 he>t1 yet he _h too mu* ( ! _s ( a g5tleman lightly to *ange t =m ( religion :i* he wore1 z x 7 loose ab\t him2 z well z too mu* good s5se to swall[ ^? mon/r\s absurdities ( ,pop]y :i* imm$iately pres5t$ !mselves to him1 unacqua9t$ z he 0 ) ! niceties ( ! controv]sy4 ,,*apt] ,,iii4 ,,milit>y ,,pref]m5ts4 ,:5 8 lib]ty 0 rega9$ by an ex*ange ( prison]s1 & 8 heal? ?or\ghly e/abli%$1 he 0 f> f r5d]+ unto ! ,"l accord+ to t wond]ful display ( div9e m]cy :i* he _h exp]i5c$4 ,i "k v little ( ! p>ticul>s ( ^? wild1 ?\ghtless & wret*$ ye>s :i* lay betwe5 ! #ai? & #cj? ( 8 life2 except t he frequ5tly exp]i5c$ ! div9e goodness 9 r5ew$ in/ances1 p>ticul>ly 9 pres]v+ him 9 sev]al hot milit>y actions1 9 all :i* he nev] receiv$ s mu* z a w\nd aft] ?is1 =w>d z he 0 9 tempt+ dang]2 & yet t all ^! ye>s 7 sp5t 9 an entire ali5ation f ,god1 & 9 an eag] pursuit ( animal pleasure z 8 supreme good4 ,! s]ies ( crim9al am\rs 9 :i* he 0 almo/ incessantly engag$ dur+ ?is "t1 mu/ probably h af=d$ "s rem>kable adv5tures & occurr5ces2 b ! memory ( !m has p]i%$4 ,nor d ,i ?9k x unwor?y ( notice "h1 t amid/ all ! intimacy ( our fri5d%ip1 & ! _m h\rs ( *e]ful z well z s]i\s conv]se :i* we sp5t toge!r1 ,i nev] rememb] to h he>d him speak ( any ( ^! intrigues1 o!rwise ?an 9 ! g5]al ) deep & solemn abhorr5ce4 ,?is ,i ! r m5tion1 z x seem$ a mo/ g5u9e pro( ( 8 unfeign$ rep5tance1 :i* ,i ?9k !re is great reason to suspect1 :5 p seem to take a pleasure 9 relat+ & describ+ sc5es ( vici\s indulg5ce1 :i* !y yet pr(ess to h disapprov$ & =sak54 ,amid/ all ^! p]nici\s w&]+s f ! pa?s ( religion1 virtue1 & happ9ess1 he approv$ himself s well 9 8 milit>y "*1 t he 0 made a lieut5ant 9 t ye>1 viz4 #agjf2 & ,i am told he 0 v quickly aft] promot$ to a cornet's commission 9 ,"l ,/air's regim5t ( ! ,scots ,greys1 &1 on ! #ca/ ( ,janu>y1 #agad-ae1 0 made capta9-lieut5ant 9 ,colonel ,k]'s regim5t ( dragoons4 ,he _h ! hon\r ( be+ kn[n to ! ,e>l ( ,/air "s "t be=e1 & 0 made 8 aid-de-camp2 & :51 ^u 8 ,lord%ip's be+ appo9t$ ambassador f 8 late ,maje/y to ! c\rt ( ,france1 he made s spl5did an entrance into ,p>is1 ,capta9 ,g>d9] 0 8 ma/] ( ! horse2 & ,i h be5 told t a great deal ( ! c>e ( t admirably well-adju/$ c]emony fell ^u him2 s t he ga9$ great cr$it by ! mann] 9 :i* he conduct$ x4 ,"u ! b5ign influ5ce ( 8 ,lord%ip's fav\r1 :i* to ! la/ day ( 8 life he reta9$1 a capta9's commission 0 procur$ = him1 dat$ ,july #bb1 #agae1 9 ! regim5t ( dragoons comm&$ by ,colonel ,/anhope1 n[ ,e>l ( ,h>r+ton2 & 9 #agag he 0 advanc$ to ! majority ( t regim5t1 9 :i* (fice he cont9u$ till x 0 r$uc$ on ,novemb] #aj1 #agah1 :5 he 0 put out ( commission4 ,b :5 8 ,maje/y1 k+ ,george ,i41 0 ?or\ghly appris$ ( 8 fai?ful & important s]vices1 he gave him 8 sign-manual1 entitl+ him to ! fir/ majority t %\ld become vacant 9 any regim5t ( horse or dragoons1 :i* happ5$1 ab\t five ye>s aft]1 to be 9 ,cr(t's regim5t ( dragoons1 9 :i* he receiv$ a commission1 dat$ #a/ ,june1 #agbd2 & on ! #bj? ( ,july ! same ye>1 he 0 made major ( an old] regim5t1 comm&$ by ! ,e>l ( ,/air4 ,z ,i am n[ speak+ ( s _m ( 8 milit>y pref]m5ts1 ,i w dispat* ! acc\nt ( !m by obs]v+1 t1 on ! #bd? ,janu>y #agbi-cj1 he 0 advanc$ to ! rank ( lieut5ant-colonel 9 ! same regim5t1 long "u ! comm& ( ,"l ,cadogan1 ) ^: fri5d%ip ?is brave & vigilant (fic] 0 also hon\r$ = _m ye>s4 ,& he cont9u$ 9 ?is rank & regim5t till ! #ai? ( ,april1 #agdc1 :5 he receiv$ a colonel's commission ov] a regim5t ( dragoons lately comm&$ by ,brigadi] ,bl&1 at ! head ( :i* he valiantly fell1 9 ! def5ce ( 8 sov]eign & 8 c\ntry1 ab\t two ye>s & a half aft] he receiv$ x4 ,we w n[ return to t p]iod ( 8 life :i* 0 pass$ at ,p>is1 ! sc5e ( su* rem>kable & important ev5ts4 ,he cont9u$ 7if ,i rememb] "r7 sev]al ye>s "u ! ro( ( ! brave & g5]\s ,e>l ( ,/air1 to :om he endeav\r$ to approve himself by e in/ance ( dilig5t & fai?ful s]vice4 ,& 8 ,lord%ip gave no inconsid]able pro( ( ! dep5d5ce :i* he _h ^u him1 :51 9 ! beg9n+ ( #agae1 he entru/$ him ) ! important dispat*es relat+ to a discov]y :i*1 by a s]ies ( admirable policy1 he _h made ( a design :i* ! ,fr5* k+ 0 !n =m+ = invad+ ,great ,brita9 9 fav\r ( ! ,pret5d]2 9 :i* ! ,fr5* appreh5d$ !y 7 s sure ( success1 t x seem$ a po9t ( fri5d%ip 9 "o ( ! *ief c\nsellors ( t c\rt to dissuade a dep5d5t ( 8 f accept+ "s employm5t "u 8 ,britannic maje/y1 :5 propos$ by 8 envoy !re1 because x 0 said t 9 less ?an six weeks !re w\ld be a revolution 9 fav\r ( :at !y call$ ! family ( ! ,/u>ts4 ,! capta9 dispat*$ 8 j\rney ) ! utmo/ spe$2 a v>iety ( circum/ances happily concurr$ to accel]ate x2 & !y :o rememb] h[ soon ! regim5ts :i* t em]g5cy requir$1 7 rais$ & arm$1 w1 ,i d\bt n1 e/eem x a memorable in/ance1 bo? ( ! mo/ cordial zeal 9 ! fri5ds ( ! gov]nm5t1 & ( ! graci\s c>e ( ,div9e ,provid5ce ov] ! h\se ( ,hanov] & ! ,briti% lib]ties1 s insep>ably connect$ ) its int]e/4 ,:ile ,capta9 ,g>d9] 0 at ,london1 9 "o ( ! j\rneys he made ^u ?is occasion1 he1 ) t frankness :i* 0 natural to him1 & :i* 9 ^? days 0 n always "u ! mo/ prud5t re/ra9t1 v5tur$ to pr$ict1 f :at he knew ( ! bad /ate ( ! ,fr5* k+'s heal?1 t he w\ld n live six weeks4 ,?is 0 made kn[n by "s spies :o 7 at ,/4 ,james's1 & came to be report$ at ! c\rt ( ,v]sailles2 = he receiv$ lett]s f "s fri5ds at ,p>is1 advis+ him n to return ?i!r1 unless he c\ld reconcile himself to a lodg+ 9 ! ,ba/ile4 ,b he 0 soon free f t appreh5sion2 =1 if ,i mi/ake n1 be=e half t "t 0 accompli%$1 ,l\is ,,xiv4 di$1 7,sept4 #a1 #agae17 & x is g5]ally ?\ght 8 dea? 0 ha/5$ by a v accid5tal circum/ance1 :i* _h "s ref]5ce to ! capta9's prophecy2 = ! la/ "t he ev] d9$ 9 public1 :i* 0 a v little :ile aft] ! report ( x _h be5 made !re1 he happ5$ to discov] our ,briti% envoy among ! spectators4 ,! p5etration ( ?is illu/ri\s p]son 0 too great1 & 8 atta*m5t to ! int]e/ ( 8 royal ma/] too well kn[n1 n to r5d] him v disagreeable to t crafty & tyrannical pr9ce1 :om ,god _h s long suff]$ to be ! disgrace ( mon>*y1 & ! sc\rge ( ,europe4 ,he at fir/ appe>$ v languid1 z inde$ he 02 b on ca/+ 8 eye ^u ! ,e>l ( ,/air1 he affect$ to appe> be=e him 9 a mu* bett] /ate ( heal? ?an he really 02 & !re=e1 z if he _h be5 awak5$ on a sudd5 f "s deep rev]ie1 he imm$iately put himself into an erect po/ure1 call$ up a lab\r$ vivacity into 8 c\nt5ance1 & ate mu* m he>tily ?an 0 by any means advisable1 repeat+ two or ?ree times to a nobleman1 7,i ?9k ! ,duke ( ,b\rbon7 !n 9 wait+1 ,il me semble que je ne mange pas mal p\r un homme qui devoit m\rir si tot4 ,me?9ks ,i eat v well = a man :o is to die s soon4 ,b ?is inroad ^u t regul>ity ( liv+ :i* he _h = "s "t obs]v$1 agre$ s ill ) him t he nev] recov]$ ?is meal1 b di$ 9 less ?an a =tnight4 ,?is gave occasion = "s humor\s p to say1 t old ,l\is1 aft] all1 0 kill$ by a ,briton4 ,b if ?is /ory be true1 7:i* ,i ?9k !re c be no room to d\bt1 z ! colonel1 f :om ,i h (t5 he>d x1 ?\gh abs5t1 c\ld sc>ce be mis9=m$17 x might m prop]ly be said t he fell by 8 own vanity2 9 :i* view ,i ?\ght x s rem>kable1 z n to be unwor?y ( a place 9 ^! memoirs4 ,! capta9 quickly return$1 & cont9u$1 ) small int]ruptions1 at ,p>is1 at lea/ till #agbj1 & h[ mu* long] ,i d n c]ta9ly "k4 ,! ,e>l's fav\r & g5]osity made him easy 9 8 affairs1 ?\gh he 01 7z has be5 obs]v$ be=e17 "p ( ! "t1 out ( commission1 by break+ ! regim5t to :i* he belong$1 ( :i* be=e he 0 major4 ,?is 0 9 all probability ! gaye/ "p ( 8 life1 & ! mo/ crim9al4 ,:atev] wise & good examples he might f9d 9 ! family :]e he _h ! hon\r to reside1 x is c]ta9 t ! ,fr5* c\rt1 dur+ ! reg5cy ( ! ,duke ( ,orleans1 0 "o ( ! mo/ dissolute "u heav54 ,:at1 by a wret*$ abuse ( language1 h be5 call$ intrigues ( love & gallantry1 7 s entirely to ! major's !n deg5]ate ta/e1 t if n ! :ole bus9ess1 at lea/ ! :ole happ9ess ( 8 life1 consi/$ 9 !m2 & he _h n[ too mu* leisure = "o :o 0 s prone to abuse x4 ,8 f9e con/itution1 ?an :i* p]haps !re 0 h>dly ev] a bett]1 gave him great opportunities ( indulg+ himself 9 ^! excesses2 & 8 good spirits enabl$ him to pursue 8 pleasures ( e k9d 9 s al]t & sprightly a mann]1 t multitudes envi$ him1 & call$ him1 by a dreadful k9d ( complim5t1 ! happy rake4 ,,*apt] ,,iv4 ,,*ecks ,,( ,,consci5ce4 ,yet /ill ! *ecks ( consci5ce1 & "s rema9+ pr9ciples ( s good an education1 w\ld break 9 ^u 8 mo/ lic5ti\s h\rs2 & ,i p>ticul>ly rememb] he told me1 t :5 "s ( 8 dissolute companions 7 once congratulat+ him on 8 di/+ui%$ felicity1 a dog happ5+ at t "t to come into ! room1 he c\ld n =be> groan+ inw>dly1 & say+ to himself1 ',oh t ,i 7 t dog6' ,su* !n 0 8 happ9ess2 & su* p]haps is t ( hundr$s m :o be> !mselves highe/ 9 ! contempt ( religion1 & glory 9 t infam\s s]vitude :i* !y affect to call lib]ty4 ,b ^! remon/rances ( reason & consci5ce 7 9 va92 &1 9 %ort1 he c>ri$ ?+s s f> 9 ?is wret*$ "p ( 8 life1 t ,i am well assur$ "s sob] ,engli% g5tlem51 :o made no great pret5ces to religion1 h[ agreeable soev] he might h be5 to !m on o!r acc\nts1 r decl9$ ?an s\ght 8 company1 z fe>+ !y might h be5 ensn>$ & corrupt$ by x4 ,yet ,i _c f9d t 9 ^! mo/ ab&on$ days he 0 fond ( dr9k+4 ,inde$1 he nev] _h any natural reli% = t k9d ( intemp]ance1 f :i* he us$ to ?9k a manly pride might be suffici5t to pres]ve p]sons ( s5se & _s2 z by x !y give up e ?+ t di/+ui%es !m f ! meane/ ( _! species1 or inde$ f animals ! mo/ bel[ x4 ,s t if ev] he fell into any excesses ( ?is k9d1 x 0 m]ely out ( complaisance to 8 company1 & t he might n appe> /iff & s+ul>4 ,8 frank1 oblig+1 & g5]\s temp] procur$ him _m fri5ds2 & ^! pr9ciples1 :i* r5d]$ him amiable to o!rs1 n be+ "u ! direction ( true wisdom & piety1 sometimes made him1 9 ! ways ( liv+ he pursu$1 m uneasy to himself ?an he might1 p]haps1 h be51 if he c\ld h entirely ov]come !m2 especially z he nev] 0 a sceptic 9 8 pr9ciples1 b /ill reta9$ a secret appreh5sion t natural & reveal$ religion1 ?\gh he did n mu* c>e to ?9k ( ei!r1 7 f\nd$ 9 tru?4 ,&1 ) ?is conviction1 8 notori\s violations ( ! mo/ ess5tial precepts ( bo? c\ld n b occasion "s secret misgiv+s ( he>t4 ,8 cont9ual neglect ( ! great ,au?or ( 8 be+1 ( ^: p]fections he c\ld n d\bt1 & to :om he knew himself to be "u daily & p]petual obligations1 gave him1 9 "s mom5ts ( involunt>y reflection1 inexpressible remorse2 & ?is at times wr\ght ^u him to su* a degree1 t he resolv$ he w\ld attempt to pay him "s ackn[l$gm5ts4 ,accord+ly1 = a few morn+s he did x1 repeat+ 9 retirem5t "s passages out ( ! ,psalms1 & p]haps o!r scriptures :i* he /ill reta9$ 9 8 memory2 & own+1 9 a few /rong words1 ! _m m]cies & deliv]ances he _h receiv$1 & ! ill returns he _h made = !m4 ,i f9d1 among ! o!r pap]s transmitt$ to me1 ! foll[+ v]ses1 :i* ,i h he>d him repeat1 z :at _h impress$ him a good deal 9 8 unconv]t$ /ate2 & z ,i suppose !y did some?+ t[>ds sett+ him on ?is ef=t t[>ds devotion1 & might probably furni% a "p ( ^! orisons1 ,i hope ,i ne$ make no apology to my read] = ins]t+ !m1 especially z ,i d n recollect t ,i h se5 !m any :]e else4 ,att5d1 my s\l6 ! e>ly birds inspire ,my grovell+ ?\ghts ) pure cele/ial fire2 ,!y f _! temp]ate sleep awake1 & pay ,_! ?ankful an!ms = ! new-born day4 ,see h[ ! tuneful l>k is m\nt$ high1 ,&1 poet-l1 salutes ! ea/]n sky6 ,he w>bles ?r\gh ! fragrant air 8 lays1 ,& seems ! beauties ( ! morn to praise4 ,b man1 m void ( gratitude awakes1 ,& gives no ?anks = ! sweet re/ he takes2 ,looks on ! glori\s sun's new k9dl$ flame1 ,)\t "o ?\ght ( ,him f :om x came4 ,! wret* unhall[$ does ! day beg91 ,%akes (f 8 sleep1 b %akes n (f 8 s94 ,b ^! /ra9s 7 too dev\t to cont9ue long 9 a he>t z yet q unsanctifi$2 = h[ readily soev] he c\ld repeat su* ackn[l$gm5ts ( ! ,div9e p[]1 pres5ce1 & goodness1 & own 8 own follies & faults1 he 0 /opp$ %ort by ! remon/rances ( consci5ce z to ! flagrant absurdity ( confess+ s9s he did n desire to =sake1 & ( pret5d+ to praise ,god = 8 m]cies1 :5 he did n endeav\r to live to 8 s]vice1 & to behave 9 su* a mann] z gratitude1 if s9c]e1 w\ld pla9ly dictate4 ,a model ( devotion :]e su* s5tim5ts made no "p1 8 good s5se c\ld n dige/2 & ! use ( su* language be=e a he>t-se>*+ ,god1 m]ely z an hypocritical =m1 :ile ! s5tim5ts ( 8 s\l 7 contr>y to x1 ju/ly appe>$ to him su* d>+ pr(an5ess1 t1 irregul> z ! /ate ( 8 m9d 01 ! ?\ght ( x /ruck him ) horror4 ,he !re=e det]m9$ to make no m attempts ( ?is sort1 & 0 p]haps "o ( ! fir/ :o delib]ately laid aside pray] f "s s5se ( ,god's omnisci5ce1 & "s natural pr9ciple ( hon\r & consci5ce4 ,^! secret debates ) himself & ineffectual ef=ts w\ld sometimes return2 b !y 7 ov]borne aga9 & aga9 by ! =ce ( temptation1 & x is no wond] t 9 consequ5ce ( !m 8 he>t grew yet h>d]4 ,nor 0 x s(t5$ or awak5$ by "s v memorable deliv]ances :i* at ?is "t he receiv$4 ,he 0 9 extreme dang] by a fall f 8 horse1 z he 0 rid+ po/ ,i ?9k 9 ! /reets ( ,calais4 ,:5 go+ d[n a hill1 ! horse ?rew him ov] 8 head1 & pit*$ ov] him2 s t :5 he rose1 ! bea/ lay beyond him1 & almo/ dead4 ,yet1 ?\gh he receiv$ n ! lea/ h>m1 x made no s]i\s impression on 8 m9d4 ,on 8 return f ,engl& 9 ! packet-boat1 if ,i rememb] "r1 b a few weeks aft] ! =m] accid5t1 a viol5t /orm1 t drove !m up to ,h>wi*1 toss$ !m f !nce = sev]al h\rs 9 a d>k night on ! coa/ ( ,holl&1 & br\ght !m into su* extremity1 t ! capta9 ( ! vessel urg$ him to g to pray]s imm$iately1 if he ev] int5d$ to d x at all2 = he conclud$ !y w\ld 9 a few m9utes be at ! bottom ( ! sea4 ,9 ?is circum/ance he did pray1 & t v f]v5tly too2 & x 0 v rem>kable1 t :ile he 0 cry+ to ,god = deliv]ance1 ! w9d fell1 & quickly aft] !y arriv$ at ,calais4 ,b ! major 0 s little affect$ ) :at _h befall5 him1 t :5 "s ( 8 gay fri5ds1 on he>+ ! /ory1 ralli$ him ^u ! efficacy ( 8 pray]s1 he excus$ himself f ! sc&al ( be+ ?\ght mu* 9 e>ne/1 by say+ t x 0 at midnight1 an h\r :5 8 good "m & aunt 7 asleep1 or else he %\ld h left t "p ( ! bus9ess to !m2--a spee* :i* ,i %\ld n h m5tion$1 b z x %[s 9 s lively a view ! wret*$ situation ( 8 m9d at t "t1 ?\gh 8 great deliv]ance f ! p[] ( d>kness 0 !n ne>ly approa*+4 ,he rec\nt$ ^! ?+s to me ) ! greate/ humility1 z %[+ h[ utt]ly unwor?y he 0 ( t miracle ( div9e grace by :i* he 0 quickly aft] br\ght to s true & s p]man5t a s5se ( religion4 ,,*apt] ,v4 ,,8 ,,conv]sion4 ,& n[ ,i am come to t a/oni%+ "p ( 8 /ory1 ! acc\nt ( 8 conv]sion1 :i* ,i _c ent] ^u )\t assur+ ! read] t ,i h sometimes be5 tempt$ to suppress _m circum/ances ( x2 n only z !y may seem incr$ible to "s1 & en?usia/ical to o!rs1 b ,i am v s5sible !y are liable to great abuses2 :i* 0 ! reason t he gave me = conceal+ ! mo/ extraord9>y f _m p]sons to :om he m5tion$ "s ( ! re/4 ,& ,i believe x 0 ?is1 toge!r ) ! desire ( avoid+ e ?+ t might look l o/5tation on ?is head1 t prev5t$ 8 leav+ a writt5 acc\nt ( x1 ?\gh ,i h (t5 entreat$ him to d x1 z ,i p>ticul>ly rememb] ,i did 9 ! v la/ lett] ,i ev] wrote him1 & plead$ ! possibility ( 8 fall+ amid/ ^? dang]s to :i* ,i knew 8 val\r might1 9 su* circum/ances1 naturally expose him4 ,i 0 n s happy z to receive any answ] to ?is lett]1 :i* rea*$ him b a few days be=e 8 dea?2 nor c ,i c]ta9ly say :e!r he _h or _h n compli$ ) my reque/1 z x is v possible a pap] ( ?is k9d1 if x 7 writt51 might be lo/ amid/ ! ravages :i* ! rebels made :5 !y plund]$ ,bankton4 ,! /ory1 h[ev]1 0 s rem>kable1 t ,i _h little reason to appreh5d ,i %\ld ev] =get x2 & yet1 to gu>d aga9/ all cont+5cies ( t k9d1 ,i wrote x d[n t v ev5+1 z ,i he>d x f 8 own m\?2 & ,i h n[ be=e me ! memoirs ( t conv]sation1 dat$ ,aug4 #ad1 #agci1 :i* conclude ) ^! words1 7:i* ,i add$ t if we %\ld bo? h di$ t night1 ! _w might n h lo/ ?is edify+ & affect+ hi/ory1 or h want$ any atte/ation ( x ,i 0 capable ( giv+73 ,n4,b4 ,i h writt5 d[n ?is acc\nt ) all ! exactness ,i am capable (1 & c\ld safely take an oa? ( x z to ! tru? ( e circum/ance1 to ! be/ ( my remembrance1 z ! colonel relat$ x to me a few h\rs ago4 ,i d n "k t ,i _h review$ ?is pap] s9ce ,i wrote x1 till ,i set myself ?us publicly to record ?is extraord9>y fact2 b ,i f9d x punctually to agree ) :at ,i h (t5 relat$ f my memory1 :i* ,i *>g$ c>efully ) s wond]ful & important a fact4 ,x is ) all solemnity t ,i n[ deliv] x d[n to po/]ity z 9 ! sight & pres5ce ( ,god2 & ,i *oose delib]ately to expose myself to ^? sev]e c5sures :i* ! haughty b empty scorn ( infidelity1 or pr9ciples ne>ly approa*+ x1 & effectually do+ its p]nici\s "w1 may v probably dictate ^u ! occasion1 r ?an to smo!r a relation1 :i* may1 9 ! judgm5t ( my consci5ce1 be l to conduce s mu* to ! glory ( ,god1 ! hon\r ( ! gospel1 & ! good ( mank9d4 ,"o ?+ m ,i w only premise1 t ,i hope none :o h he>d ! colonel himself speak some?+ ( ?is wond]ful sc5e1 w be surpris$ if !y f9d "s new circum/ances "h2 because he assur$ me1 at ! "t he fir/ gave me ! :ole n>ration1 7:i* 0 9 ! v room 9 :i* ,i n[ write17 t he _h nev] imp>t$ x s fully to any liv+ be=e2 yet1 at ! same "t1 he gave me full lib]ty to communicate x to :omsoev] ,i %\ld 9 my consci5ce judge x might be useful to d x1 :e!r be=e or aft] 8 dea?4 ,accord+ly ,i did1 :ile he 0 alive1 rec\nt almo/ e circum/ance ,i am n[ go+ to write1 to sev]al pi\s fri5ds2 ref]r+ !m at ! same "t to ! colonel himself1 :5ev] !y might h an opportunity ( see+ or writ+ to him1 = a fur!r confirmation ( :at ,i told !m1 if !y judg$ x requisite4 ,!y glorifi$ ,god 9 him2 & ,i humbly hope _m ( my read]s w also d x4 ,!y w soon p]ceive ! reason ( s mu* caution 9 my introduction to ?is /ory1 = :i*1 !re=e1 ,i %all make no fur!r apology499 99,note3 ,x is no small satisfaction to me1 s9ce ,i wrote ?is1 to h receiv$ a lett] f ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,spe>s1 m9i/] ( ! gospel at ,burntisl&1 dat$ ,jan #ad1 #agdf-g 9 :i* he relates to me ?is :ole /ory1 z he _h x f ! colonel's own m\? ab\t f\r ye>s aft] he gave me ! n>ration4 ,!re is n a s+le circum/ance 9 :i* ei!r ( our n>rations disagrees1 & e "o ( ! p>ticul>s 9 m9e1 :i* seems mo/ a/oni%+1 is atte/$ by ?is1 & sometimes 9 /rong] words1 "o only except$1 on :i* ,i %all add a %ort rem>k :5 ,i come to x4 ,z ?is lett] 0 writt5 ne> ,lady ,frances ,g>d9] at h] desire1 & att5d$ ) a po/script f h] own h&1 ?is is1 9 effect1 a suffici5t atte/ation h[ agreeable x 0 to ^? acc\nts :i* %e mu/ (t5 h he>d ! colonel give ( ?is matt]4 ,?is memorable ev5t happ5$ t[>ds ! middle ( ,july1 #agai2 b ,i _c be exact z to ! day4 ,! major _h sp5t ! ev5+ 7& if ,i mi/ake n1 x 0 ! ,sabba?7 9 "s gay company1 & _h an unhappy assignation ) a m>ri$ woman1 ( :at rank or quality ,i did n p>ticul>ly inquire1 :om he 0 to att5d exactly at twelve4 ,! company broke up ab\t elev52 & n judg+ x conv5i5t to anticipate ! "t appo9t$1 he w5t into 8 *amb] to kill ! t$i\s h\r1 p]haps ) "s amus+ book1 or 9 "s o!r way4 ,b x v accid5tally happ5$ t he took up a religi\s book :i* 8 good "m or aunt _h1 )\t 8 k1 slipp$ into 8 portmanteau4 ,x 0 call$1 if ,i rememb] ! title exactly1 ,! ,*ri/ian ,soldi]1 or ,heav5 tak5 by ,/orm1 & 0 writt5 by ,mr4 ,?omas ,watson4 ,guess+ by ! title ( x t he %\ld f9d "s phrases ( 8 own pr(ession spiritualiz$ 9 a mann] :i* he ?\ght might af=d him "s div]sion1 he resolv$ to dip into x2 b he took no s]i\s notice ( any ?+ he read 9 x2 & yet1 :ile ?is book 0 9 8 h&1 an impression 0 made ^u 8 m9d1 7p]haps ,god only kn[s h[17 :i* drew aft] x a tra9 ( ! mo/ important & happy consequ5ces4 ,!re is inde$ a possibility1 t :ile he 0 sitt+ 9 ?is solitude1 & read+ 9 ?is c>eless & pr(ane mann]1 he might sudd5ly fall asleep1 & only dream ( :at he appreh5d$ he saw4 ,b no?+ c be m c]ta9 ?an t1 :5 he gave me ?is relation1 he judg$ himself to h be5 z broad awake dur+ ! :ole "t z he ev] 0 9 any "p ( 8 life2 & he m5tion$ x to me sev]al times aft]w>ds z :at und\bt$ly pass$1 n only 9 8 imag9ation1 b be=e 8 eyes499 99,note3 ,mr4 ,spe>s1 9 ! lett] m5tion$ above1 :]e he introduces ! colonel tell+ 8 own /ory1 has ^! words ,all ( a sudd5 !re 0 pres5t$ 9 a v lively mann] to my view1 or to my m9d1 a repres5tation ( my glori\s ,r$eem]1 c4 ,& ?is g5tleman adds1 9 a p>5!sis1 ,x 0 s lively & /rik+1 t he c\ld n tell :e!r x 0 to 8 bodily eyes1 or to ^? ( 8 m9d4 ,?is makes me ?9k t :at ,i _h said to him on ! ph5om5a ( visions1 app>itions1 c41 7z be+1 :5 mo/ real1 sup]natural impressions on ! imag9ation1 r ?an att5d$ ) any ext]nal object17 _h "s influ5ce ^u him4 ,yet /ill x is evid5t he look$ ^u ?is z a vision1 :e!r x 0 be=e ! eyes or 9 ! m9d1 & n z a dream4 ,he ?\ght he saw an unusual blaze ( light fall on ! book :ile he 0 read+1 :i* he at fir/ imag9$ might happ5 by "s accid5t 9 ! c&le4 ,b1 lift+ up 8 eyes1 he appreh5d$1 to 8 extreme amazem5t1 t !re 0 be=e him1 z x 7 susp5d$ 9 ! air1 a visible repres5tation ( ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ ^u ! cross1 surr\nd$ on all sides ) a glory2 & 0 impress$ z if a voice1 or some?+ equival5t to a voice1 _h come to him to ?is effect1 7= he 0 n confid5t z to ! v words74 ,oh1 s9n]6 did ,i suff] ?is = !e1 & are ^! ! returns8 ,b :e!r ?is 7 an audible voice1 or only a /rong impression on 8 m9d equally /rik+1 he did n seem v confid5t1 ?\gh1 to ! be/ ( my remembrance1 he r judg$ x to be ! =m]4 ,/ruck ) s amaz+ a ph5om5on z ?is1 !re rema9$ h>dly any life 9 him1 s t he sunk d[n 9 ! arm *air 9 :i* he sat1 & cont9u$1 he knew n exactly h[ long1 ins5sible1 7:i* 0 "o circum/ance t made me sev]al times take ! lib]ty to sugge/ t he might possibly be all ?is :ile asleep17 b h[ev] t 71 he quickly aft] op5$ 8 eyes1 & saw no?+ m ?an usual4 ,x may easily be suppos$ he 0 9 no condition to make any obs]vations ^u ! "t 9 :i* he _h rema9$ 9 an ins5sible /ate1 nor did he1 ?r\gh\t all ! rema9d] ( ! night1 once recollect t crim9al & dete/able assignation :i* _h be=e engross$ all 8 ?\ghts4 ,he rose 9 a tumult ( passions n to be conceiv$1 & walk$ to & fro 9 8 *amb] till he 0 ready to drop d[n 9 unutt]able a/oni%m5t & agony ( he>t1 appe>+ to himself ! vile/ mon/] 9 ! creation ( ,god1 :o _h all 8 lifetime be5 crucify+ ,*ri/ afre% by 8 s9s1 & n[ saw1 z he assur$ly believ$1 by a miracul\s vision1 ! horror ( :at he _h done4 ,) ?is 0 connect$ su* a view ( bo? ! maje/y & goodness ( ,god1 z caus$ him to loa! & abhor himself1 & to rep5t z 9 du/ & a%es4 ,he imm$iately gave judgm5t aga9/ himself1 t he 0 mo/ ju/ly wor?y ( et]nal damnation1 he 0 a/oni%$ t he _h n be5 imm$iately /ruck dead 9 ! mid/ ( 8 wick$ness1 & 7:i* ,i ?9k des]ves p>ticul> rem>k7 ?\gh he assur$ly believ$ t he %\ld ere long be 9 hell1 & settl$ x z a po9t ) himself = sev]al mon?s t ! wisdom & ju/ice ( ,god did almo/ necess>ily require t su* an enorm\s s9n] %\ld be made an example ( ev]la/+ v5geance1 & a spectacle z su* bo? to angels & m51 s t he h>dly dur/ presume to pray = p>don2 yet :at he !n suff]$ 0 n s mu* f ! fe> ( hell1 ?\gh he conclud$ x w\ld soon be 8 portion1 z f a s5se ( t horrible +ratitude he _h %[n to ! ,god ( 8 life1 & to t bless$ ,r$eem] :o _h be5 9 s affect+ a mann] set =? z crucifi$ be=e him4 ,to ?is he ref]s 9 a lett] dat$ f ,d\glas1 ! #a/ ( ,april #agbe1 communicat$ to me by 8 lady199 b ,i "k n to :om x 0 address$4 ,8 words are ^!3 ,"o ?+ relat+ to my conv]sion1 & a rem>kable in/ance ( ! goodness ( ,god to me1 ! *ief ( s9n]s1 ,i d n rememb] t ,i ev] told to any o!r p]son4 ,x 0 ?is1 t aft] ! a/oni%+ sight ,i _h ( my bless$ ,"l1 ! t]rible condition 9 :i* ,i 0 proce$$ n s mu* f ! t]rors ( ! law1 z f a s5se ( hav+ be5 s ungrateful a mon/] to him :om ,i ?\ght ,i saw pi]c$ = my transgressions4 ,i ! r ins]t ^! words1 z !y evid5tly atte/ ! circum/ance :i* may seem mo/ amaz+ 9 ?is affair1 & conta9 s express a decl>ation ( 8 own appreh5sion conc]n+ x4 99,note3 ,:]e ,i make any extracts z f ,colonel ,g>d9]'s lett]s1 !y are ei!r f orig9als1 :i* ,i h 9 my own h&s1 or f copies :i* 7 transmitt$ to me f p]sons ( und\bt$ cr$it1 *iefly by ! ,"r ,hon\rable ! ,lady ,frances ,g>d9]1 ?r\gh ! h&s ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,web/]1 "o ( ! m9i/]s ( ,ed9burgh4 ,?is ,i ! r m5tion1 because "s lett]s h be5 br\ght to me z ,colonel ,g>d9]'s1 conc]n+ :i* ,i h n only be5 v dubi\s1 b morally c]ta9 t !y c\ld n h be5 writt5 by him4 ,i h also he>d ( _m :o h be5 fond ( assur+ ! _w t !y 7 well acqua9t$ ) him1 & 7 ne> him :5 he fell1 ^: reports h be5 mo/ inconsi/5t ) ea* o!r1 z well z contr>y to t te/imony relat+ to ! circum/ances ( 8 dea?1 :i*1 on ! :ole1 appe>$ to me beyond controv]sy ! mo/ natural & au!ntic1 f :5ce1 !re=e1 ,i %all take my acc\nt ( t affect+ sc5e4 ,9 ?is view x may naturally be suppos$ t he pass$ ! rema9d] ( ! night wak+1 & he c\ld get b little re/ 9 sev]al t foll[$4 ,8 m9d 0 cont9ually tak5 up 9 reflect+ on ! div9e purity & goodness2 ! grace :i* _h be5 propos$ to him 9 ! gospel1 & :i* he _h reject$2 ! s+ul> advantages he _h enjoy$ & abus$2 & ! _m fav\rs ( provid5ce :i* he _h receiv$1 p>ticul>ly 9 rescu+ him f s _m imm95t dang]s ( dea?1 :i* he n[ saw mu/ h be5 att5d$ ) su* dreadful & hopeless de/ruction4 ,! privileges ( 8 education1 :i* he _h s mu* despis$1 n[ lay ) an almo/ insupportable weight on 8 m9d2 & ! folly ( t c>e] ( s9ful pleasure :i* he _h s _m ye>s be5 runn+ ) desp]ate eag]ness & unwor?y delight1 n[ fill$ him ) indignation aga9/ himself1 & aga9/ ! great deceiv]1 by :om 7to use 8 own phrase7 he _h be5 s wret*$ly & sc&al\sly befool$4 ,?is he us$ (t5 to express 9 ! /ronge/ t]ms1 :i* ,i %all n repeat s p>ticul>ly1 z ,i _c recollect "s ( !m4 ,b on ! :ole x is c]ta9 t1 by :at pass$ be=e he left 8 *amb] ! next day1 ! :ole frame & disposition ( 8 s\l 0 new-modell$ & *ang$2 s t he became1 & cont9u$ to ! la/ day ( 8 exempl>y & truly ,*ri/ian life1 ! v rev]se ( :at he _h be5 be=e4 ,a v>iety ( p>ticul>s1 :i* ,i am aft]w>ds to m5tion1 w illu/rate ?is 9 ! mo/ conv9c+ mann]4 ,b ,i _c proce$ to !m )\t paus+ to adore s illu/ri\s an in/ance ( ! p[] & fre$om ( div9e grace1 & entreat+ my read] s]i\sly to reflect ^u x1 t 8 own he>t may be suitably affect$4 ,= surely1 if ! tru? ( ! fact be admitt$ 9 ! l[e/ views 9 :i* x c be plac$1 7t is1 suppos+ ! fir/ impression to h pass$ 9 a dream17 x mu/ be all[$ to h be5 little1 if any?+ less ?an miracul\s4 ,x _c 9 ! c\rse ( nature be imag9$ h[ su* a dream %\ld arise 9 a m9d full ( ! mo/ impure ideas & affections1 & 7z he himself (t5 plead$7 m ali5at$ f ! ?\ghts ( a crucifi$ ,savi\r1 ?an f any o!r object t c be conceiv$2 nor c we surely suppose x %\ld1 )\t a mighty en]gy ( ! div9e p[]1 be effectual to produce n only "s transi5t fl[ ( passion1 b s entire & p]man5t a *ange 9 "* & conduct4 ,on ! :ole1 !re=e1 ,i mu/ beg leave to express my own s5tim5ts ( ! matt]1 by repeat+ on ?is occasion :at ,i wrote sev]al ye>s ago1 9 my eigh? s]mon on reg5]ation1 9 a passage dictat$ *iefly by ! circum/antial k :i* ,i _h ( ?is amaz+ /ory1 & me?9ks suffici5tly v9dicat$ by x1 if x /ood entirely alone1 :i* yet1 ,i mu/ take ! lib]ty to say1 x does n2 = ,i hope ! _w w be p>ticul>ly in=m$1 t !re is at lea/ a second t v ne>ly approa*es x1 :5ev] ! e/abli%$ *ur* ( ,engl& %all lose "o ( its brighte/ liv+ ornam5ts1 & "o ( ! mo/ useful memb]s :i* t1 or p]haps any o!r ,*ri/ian communion1 c boa/4 ,9 ! mean "t1 may 8 exempl>y life be long cont9u$1 & 8 zeal\s m9i/ry abundantly prosp]$6 ,i beg my read]'s p>don = ?is digression4 ,! passage ,i ref]r$ to above is rem>kably1 ?\gh n equally1 applicable to bo? ! cases1 "u t head :]e ,i am %[+ t ,god sometimes accompli%es ! great "w ( :i* we speak1 by secret & imm$iate impressions on ! m9d4 ,aft] prec$+ illu/rations1 !re are ! foll[+ words1 on :i* ! colonel's conv]sion w ?r[ ! ju/e/ light4 ,yea1 ,i h kn[n ^? ( di/+ui%$ g5ius1 polite mann]s1 & great exp]i5ce 9 human affairs1 :o1 aft] hav+ out-gr[n all ! impressions ( a religi\s education--aft] hav+ be5 h>d5$1 r ?an subdu$ by ! mo/ s+ul> m]cies1 ev5 v>i\s1 repeat$1 & a/oni%+ deliv]ances1 :i* h appe>$ to !mselves z no less ?an miracul\s--aft] hav+ liv$ = ye>s )\t ,god 9 ! _w1 notori\sly corrupt !mselves1 & lab\r+ to ! utmo/ to corrupt o!rs1 h be5 /opp$ on a sudd5 9 ! full c>e] ( _! s91 & h felt su* rays ( ! div9e pres5ce1 & ( r$eem+ love1 d>t+ 9 ^u _! m9ds1 almo/ l lightn+ f heav51 z h at once r\s$1 ov]p[]$1 & trans=m$ !m2 s t !y h come out ( _! secret *amb]s ) an irreconcilable enmity to ^? vices to :i*1 :5 !y ent]$ !m1 !y 7 ! tame/ & mo/ ab&on$ slaves2 & h appe>$ f t v h\r ! vot>ies1 ! patrons1 ! *ampions ( religion2 & aft] a c\rse ( ! mo/ resolute atta*m5t to x1 9 spite ( all ! reason+s or ! raill]ies1 ! importunities or ! reproa*es ( its enemies1 !y h cont9u$ to ?is day "s ( its brighte/ ornam5ts2 a *ange :i* ,i behold ) equal wond] & delight1 & :i*1 if a nation %\ld jo9 9 d]id+ x1 ,i w\ld adore z ! f+] ( ,god4 ,! m9d ( ,major ,g>d9] cont9u$ f ?is rem>kable "t1 till t[>ds ! end ( ,octob]1 7t is r m ?an ?ree mon?s1 b especially ! fir/ two ( !m17 9 z extraord9>y a situation z "o c well imag9e4 ,he knew no?+ ( ! joys aris+ f a s5se ( p>don2 b1 on ! contr>y1 = ! great] "p ( t "t1 & ) v %ort int]vals ( hope t[>ds ! end ( x1 took x = grant$ t he mu/ 9 all probability quickly p]i%4 ,nev]!less1 he _h su* a s5se ( ! evil ( s91 ( ! goodness ( ! ,div9e ,be+1 & ( ! admirable t5d5cy ( ! ,*ri/ian revelation1 t he resolv$ to sp5d ! rema9d] ( 8 life1 :ile ,god cont9u$ him out ( hell1 9 z rational & z useful a mann] z he c\ld2 & to cont9ue ca/+ himself at ! foot ( div9e m]cy e day1 & (t5 9 a day1 if p]adv5ture !re might be hope ( p>don1 ( :i* all t he c\ld say 01 t he did n absolutely despair4 ,he _h at t "t su* a s5se ( ! deg5]acy ( 8 own he>t1 t he h>dly dur/ =m any det]m9ate resolution aga9/ s91 or pret5d to engage himself by any v[ 9 ! pres5ce ( ,god2 b he 0 cont9ually cry+ to him1 t he w\ld deliv] him f ! bondage ( corruption4 ,he p]ceiv$ 9 himself a mo/ surpris+ alt]ation ) reg>d to ! dispositions ( 8 he>t2 s t1 ?\gh he felt little ( ! delight ( religi\s duties1 he extremely desir$ opportunities ( be+ engag$ 9 !m2 & ^? lic5ti\s pleasures :i* _h be=e be5 8 heav51 7 n[ absolutely 8 av]sion4 ,& inde$1 :5 ,i consid] h[ habitual all ^? crim9al indulg5ces 7 gr[n to him1 & t he 0 n[ 9 ! prime ( life1 & all ?is :ile 9 high heal? too1 ,i _c b be a/oni%$ to reflect ^u x1 t he %\ld be s wond]fully sanctifi$ 9 body1 z well z 9 s\l & _s1 z t1 = all ! future ye>s ( 8 life1 he f t h\r %\ld f9d s con/ant a dis9cl9ation to1 & abhorr5ce (1 ^? crim9al s5sualities to :i* he fanci$ he 0 be=e s inv9cibly impell$ by 8 v con/itution1 t he 0 us$ /rangely to ?9k1 & to say2 t ,omnipot5ce itself c\ld n re=m him1 )\t de/roy+ t body1 & giv+ him ano!r499 99,note3 ,mr4 ,spe>s expresses ?is wond]ful circum/ance 9 ^! rem>kable words ,i 0 7said ! colonel to me7 effectually cur$ ( all incl9ation to t s9 ,i 0 s /rongly addict$ to1 t ,i ?\ght no?+ b %oot+ me ?r\gh ! head c\ld h cur$ me ( x1 & all desire & incl9ation to x 0 remov$1 z entirely z if ,i _h be5 a suck+ *ild1 nor did ! temptation return to ?is day4 ,mr4 ,web/]'s words on ! same subject are ^! ,"o ?+ ,i h he>d ! colonel frequ5tly say1 t he 0 mu* addict$ to impurity be=e 8 acqua9tance ) religion1 b t1 s soon z he 0 enlight5$ f above1 he felt ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/ *ang+ 8 nature s wond]fully1 t 8 sanctification 9 ?is respect seem$ m rem>kable ?an 9 any o!r4 ,on :i* t wor?y p]son makes ?is v reasonable reflection ,s ?or\gh a *ange ( su* a pollut$ nature1 evid5c$ by ! mo/ unblemi%$ walk & conv]sation = a long c\rse ( ye>s1 demon/rates inde$ ! p[] ( ! ,highe/1 & leaves no room to d\bt ( its reality4 ,mr4 ,spe>s says1 ?is happ5$ 9 ?ree days' "t1 b f :at ,i c recollect1 all t ! colonel c\ld mean by t expression1 if he us$ x1 7z ,i conclude he did17 0 t he began to make ! obs]vation 9 ! space ( ?ree days :]eas1 dur+ t "t1 8 ?\ghts 7 s tak5 up ) ! wond]ful views pres5t$ to 8 m9d1 t he did n imm$iately att5d to x4 ,if he _h1 )9 ! fir/ ?ree days1 any temptation to seek "s ease f ! angui% ( 8 m9d1 9 return+ to =m] s5sualities1 x is a circum/ance he did n m5tion to me1 & by :at ,i c recollect ( ! /ra9 ( 8 disc\rse1 he intimat$ if he did n express ! contr>y4 ,nor 0 he only deliv]$ f t bondage ( corruption :i* _h be5 habitual to him = _m ye>s1 b felt 9 8 brea/ s contr>y a disposition1 t he 0 griev$ to see human nature1 9 ^? to :om he 0 mo/ entirely a /rang]1 pro/itut$ to su* l[ & contemptible pursuits4 ,he !re=e ex]t$ 8 natural c\rage 9 a v new k9d ( combat1 & became an op5 advocate = religion 9 all its pr9ciples1 s f> z he 0 acqua9t$ ) !m1 & all its precepts1 relat+ to sobriety1 righte\sness1 & godl9ess4 ,yet he 0 v desir\s & cauti\s t he might n run into extremes1 & made x "o ( 8 fir/ petitions to ,god1 ! v day aft] ^! amaz+ impressions _h be5 wr\ght 9 8 m9d1 t he might n be suff]$ to behave ) su* an affect$ /rictness & precis5ess z w\ld lead o!rs ab\t him into mi/ak5 notions ( religion1 & expose x to reproa* or suspicion1 z if x 7 an unlovely or uncom=table ?+4 ,= ?is reason1 he endeav\r$ to appe> z *e]ful 9 conv]sation z he consci5ti\sly c\ld2 ?\gh1 9 spite ( all 8 precautions1 "s traces ( t deep inw>d s5se :i* he _h ( 8 guilt & mis]y w\ld at times appe>4 ,he made no secret ( x1 h[ev]1 t 8 views 7 entirely *ang$1 ?\gh he conceal$ ! p>ticul> circum/ances att5d+ t *ange4 ,he told 8 mo/ intimate companions freely t he _h reflect$ on ! c\rse ( life 9 :i* he _h s long jo9$ !m1 & f\nd x to be folly & madness1 unwor?y a rational creature1 & mu* m unwor?y p]sons call+ !mselves ,*ri/ians4 ,& he set up 8 /&>d1 ^u all occasions1 aga9/ pr9ciples ( infidelity & practices ( vice1 z det]m9ately & z boldly z ev] he display$ or plant$ 8 col\rs1 :5 he bore !m ) s mu* hon\r 9 ! field4 ,i _c =be> m5tion+ "o /ruggle ( ?is k9d :i* he describ$ to me1 ) a l>ge detail ( circum/ances1 ! fir/ day ( our acqua9tance4 ,!re 0 at t "t 9 ,p>is a c]ta9 lady 7^: "n1 !n well kn[n 9 ! gr& & gay _w1 ,i mu/ beg leave to conceal7 :o _h imbib$ ! pr9ciples ( deism1 & valu$ h]self mu* ^u be+ an av[$ advocate = !m4 ,! major1 ) 8 usual frankness1 7?\gh ,i d\bt n ) t polit5ess ( mann]s :i* 0 s habitual to him1 & :i* he reta9$ ?r\gh\t 8 :ole life17 answ]$ h] l a man :o p]fectly saw ?r\gh ! fallacy ( h] argum5ts1 & 0 griev$ to ! he>t = h] delusions4 ,on ?is %e briskly *all5g$ him to debate ! matt] at l>ge1 & to fix ^u a day = t purpose1 :5 he %\ld d9e ) h]1 att5d$ by any cl]gyman he might *oose1 :e!r ( ! ,prote/ant or ,ca?olic communion4 ,a s5se ( duty w\ld n all[ him to decl9e ?is *all5ge2 & yet he _h no soon] accept$ x1 b he 0 ?r[n into great p]plexity & di/ress le/1 be+1 z ,i rememb] he express$ x :5 he told me ! /ory1 only a ,*ri/ian ( six weeks old1 he %\ld prejudice s good a cause by 8 unskilful mann] ( def5d+ x4 ,h[ev]1 he s\ght 8 refuge 9 e>ne/ & repeat$ pray]s to ,god1 t he :o c orda9 /r5g?1 & p]fect praise1 out ( ! m\? ( babes & suckl+s1 w\ld graci\sly enable him on ?is occasion to v9dicate 8 tru?s 9 a mann] :i* might c>ry conviction along ) x4 ,he !n endeav\r$ to m>%al ! argum5ts 9 8 own m9d z well z he c\ld2 & appreh5d+ t he c\ld n speak ) s mu* fre$om be=e a numb] ( p]sons1 especially be=e su* ^: prov9ce he might seem 9 t case to invade1 if he _h n devolv$ ! pr9cipal "p ( ! disc\rse ^u !m1 he easily admitt$ ! apology ( a cl]gyman or two1 to :om he m5tion$ ! affair1 & wait$ on ! lady alone ^u ! day appo9t$4 ,b 8 he>t 0 s set ^u ! bus9ess1 t he came e>li] ?an he 0 expect$1 & "t en\gh to h two h\rs' disc\rse be=e d9n]2 nor did he at all decl9e hav+ two p]sons1 ne>ly relat$ to ! lady1 pres5t dur+ ! conf]5ce4 ,! major op5$ x1 ) a view ( su* argum5ts = ! ,*ri/ian religion z he _h dige/$ 9 8 own m9d1 to prove t ! apo/les 7 n mi/ak5 !mselves1 & t !y c\ld n h int5d$ to impose ^u u1 9 ! acc\nts !y give ( ! gr& facts !y atte/2 ) ! tru? ( :i* facts1 t ( ! ,*ri/ian religion is mo/ app>5tly connect$4 ,& x 0 a great enc\ragem5t to him to f9d1 t unaccu/om$ z he 0 to disc\rses ( ?is nature1 he _h an unusual comm& bo? ( ?\ght & expression1 s t he recollect$ & utt]$ e ?+ z he c\ld h wi%$4 ,! lady he>d ) att5tion2 & ?\gh he paus$ betwe5 e bran* ( ! argum5t1 %e did n int]rupt ! c\rse ( x till he told h] he _h f9i%$ 8 design1 & wait$ = h] reply4 ,%e !n1 produc$ "s ( h] objections1 :i* he took up & canvass$ 9 su* a mann] t at l5g? %e bur/ into te>s1 all[$ ! =ce ( 8 argum5ts & replies1 & appe>$ = "s "t aft] s deeply impress$ ) ! conv]sation1 t x 0 obs]v$ by sev]al ( h] fri5ds2 & !re is reason to believe t ! impression cont9u$1 at lea/ s f> z to prev5t h] f ev] appe>+ "u ! "* ( an unbeliev] or a sceptic4 ,?is is only "o specim5 among _m ( ! battles he 0 almo/ daily call$ out to fight 9 ! cause ( religion & virtue2 ) relation to :i* ,i f9d him express+ himself ?us 9 a lett] to ,mrs4 ,g>d9]1 8 good "m1 dat$ f ,p>is ! #be? ( ,janu>y foll[+1 t is #agai-bj1 9 answ] to "o 9 :i* %e _h w>n$ him to expect su* trials3 ,i h 7says he7 already met ) !m1 & am oblig$ to fight1 & to dispute e in* ( gr\nd4 ,b all ?anks & praise to ! great ,capta9 ( my salvation4 ,he fights = me1 & !n x is no wond] t ,i come (f m ?an conqu]or3 by :i* la/ expression ,i suppose he meant to ins9uate t he 0 /r5g!n$ & e/abli%$1 r ?an ov]borne1 by ?is opposition4 ,yet x 0 n imm$iately t he ga9$ su* =titude4 ,he has (t5 told me h[ mu* he felt 9 ^? days ( ! emphasis ( ^? well-*os5 words ( ! apo/le1 9 :i* he ranks ! trial ( cruel mock+s1 ) sc\rg+s1 & bonds1 & imprisonm5ts4 ,! cont9ual raill]ies ) :i* he 0 receiv$1 9 almo/ all companies :]e he _h be5 mo/ famili> be=e1 did (t5 di/ress him beyond measure2 s t he sev]al times decl>$ he w\ld mu* r h m>*$ up to a batt]y ( ! enemy's cannon1 ?an h be5 oblig$1 s cont9ually z he 01 to face su* artill]y z ?is4 ,b1 l a brave soldi] 9 ! fir/ action :]e9 he is engag$1 he cont9u$ resolute1 ?\gh %udd]+ at ! t]ror ( ! assault2 & quickly ov]came ^? impressions :i* x is n p]haps 9 nature :olly to avoid2 & !re=e ,i f9d him1 9 ! lett] above ref]r$ to1 :i* 0 writt5 ab\t half a ye> aft] 8 conv]sion1 q a%am$ to ?9k ( ! uneas9ess :i* ^! ?+s once gave him4 ,9 a ^w1 he w5t on1 z e resolute ,*ri/ian by div9e grace may d1 till he turn$ ridicule & opposition into respect & v5]ation4 ,b ?is s5sible triumph ov] ^! difficulties 0 n till 8 ,*ri/ian exp]i5ce _h be5 abundantly advanc$ by ! bless+ ( ,god on ! s]mons he he>d1 7p>ticul>ly 9 ! ,swiss *apel17 & on ! _m h\rs :i* he sp5t 9 dev\t retirem5t1 p\r+ out 8 :ole s\l be=e ,god 9 pray]4 ,he began1 )9 ab\t two mon?s aft] 8 fir/ memorable *ange1 to p]ceive "s secret dawn+s ( m *e]ful hope1 t vile z he saw himself to be1 7& ,i believe no words c express h[ vile t 017 he might nev]!less obta9 m]cy ?r\gh ! ,r$eem]4 ,at l5g? 7if ,i rememb] "r1 ab\t ! end ( ,octob]1 #agai7 he f\nd all ! bur!n ( 8 m9d tak5 (f at once by ! p[]ful impression ( t memorable scripture on 8 m9d1 ,romans iii4 #be1 #bf1 ,:om ,god ha? set =? = a propitiation ?r\gh fai? 9 8 blood1 to decl>e 8 righte\sness 9 ! remission ( s9s1--t he might be j1 & ! ju/ifi] ( him t believe? 9 ,jesus4 ,he _h us$ to imag9e t ! ju/ice ( ,god requir$ ! damnation ( s enorm\s a s9n] z he saw himself to be2 b n[ he 0 made deeply s5sible t ! div9e ju/ice might be n only v9dicat$1 b glorifi$1 9 sav+ him by ! blood ( ,jesus1 ev5 t blood :i* cleanse? u f all s94 ,!n did he see & feel ! ri*es ( r$eem+ love & grace 9 su* a mann] z n only engag$ him ) ! utmo/ pleasure & confid5ce to v5ture 8 s\l ^u x1 b ev5 swall[$ up1 z x 71 8 :ole he>t 9 ! returns ( love1 :i* f t bless$ "t became ?is g5u9e & delightful pr9ciple ( 8 ob$i5ce1 & animat$ him1 ) an enl>g$ he>t1 to run ! way ( ,god's comm&m5ts4 ,?us ,god 0 pleas$ 7z he himself us$ to speak7 9 an h\r to turn 8 captivity4 ,all ! t]rors ( 8 =m] /ate 7 *ang$ into unutt]able joy1 :i* kept him almo/ cont9ually wak+ = ?ree nights toge!r1 & yet refre%$ him z ! noble/ ( cordials4 ,8 expressions1 ?\gh naturally v /rong1 always seem$ to be swall[$ up :5 he w\ld describe ! s]ies ( ?\ght ?r\gh :i* he n[ pass$1 "u ! raptur\s exp]i5ce ( t joy unspeakable & full ( glory1 :i* !n seem$ to ov]fl[ 8 v s\l1 z inde$ !re 0 no?+ he seem$ to speak ( ) great] reli%4 ,& ?\gh ! fir/ ec/asies ( x aft]w>ds subsid$ into a m calm & compos$ delight1 yet 7 ! impressions s deep & s p]man5t1 t he assur$ me1 on ! ^w ( a ,*ri/ian & a fri5d1 wond]ful z x might seem1 t1 = ab\t sev5 ye>s aft] ?is1 he enjoy$ almo/ heav5 ^u e>?4 ,8 s\l 0 s cont9ually fill$ ) a s5se ( ! love ( ,god 9 ,*ri/1 t x knew little int]ruption1 b :5 necess>y conv]se1 & ! duties ( 8 /ation1 call$ (f 8 ?\ghts = a little "t4 ,& :5 !y did s1 z soon z he 0 alone1 ! torr5t return$ into its natural *annel aga92 s t1 f ! m9ute ( awak5+ 9 ! morn+1 8 he>t 0 rais$ to ,god1 & triumph+ 9 him2 & ^! ?\ghts att5d$ him ?r\gh all ! sc5es ( life1 till he lay d[n on 8 b$ aga91 & a %ort p>5!sis ( sleep 7= x 0 b a v %ort "o t he all[$ himself7 invigorat$ 8 animal p[]s1 = r5ew+ !m ) great] int5s5ess & s5sibility4 ,i %all h an opportunity ( illu/rat+ ?is 9 ! mo/ conv9c+ mann] bel[1 by extracts f sev]al lett]s :i* he wrote to intimate fri5ds dur+ ?is happy p]iod ( "t--lett]s :i* brea! a _s ( su* sublime & f]v5t piety z ,i h seldom met ) any :]e else4 ,9 ^! circum/ances1 x is no wond] t he 0 greatly delight$ ) ,dr4 ,watts's imitation ( ! #abf? ,psalm1 s9ce x may be que/ion$ :e!r !re ev] 0 a p]son to :om ! foll[+ /anzas ( x 7 m suitable3-- ,:5 ,god reveal$ 8 graci\s "n1 ,& *ang$ my m\rnful /ate1 ,my rapture seem$ a pleas+ dream1 ,?y grace appe>$ s great4 ,! _w beheld ! glori\s *ange1 ,& did ?9e h& confess2 ,my tongue broke out 9 unkn[n /ra9s1 ,& sung surpris+ grace4 ,great is ! "w1 my neighb\rs cri$1 ,& own$ ! p[] div9e3 ,great is ! "w1 my he>t repli$1 ,& be ! glory ?9e4 ,! ,"l c *ange ! d>ke/ skies1 ,c give u day = night1 ,make drops ( sacr$ sorr[ rise1 ,to riv]s ( delight4 ,let ^? t s[ 9 sadness1 wait ,till ! fair h>ve/ come6 ,!y %all confess _! %eaves are great1 ,& %\t ! bless+s home4 ,i h be5 s happy z to get ! sight ( five orig9al lett]s :i* he wrote to 8 "m ab\t ?is "t1 :i* d1 9 a lively mann]1 illu/rate ! surpris+ *ange made 9 ! :ole curr5t ( 8 ?\ghts & temp] ( 8 m9d4 ,_m ( !m 7 writt5 9 ! mo/ ha/y mann]1 j z ! c\ri] :o br\ght !m 0 p]haps unexpect$ly sett+ out1 & !y relate *iefly to affairs 9 :i* ! public is n at all conc]n$2 yet !re is n "o ( !m 9 :i* he has n ins]t$ "s w>m & g5u9e s5tim5t ( religion4 ,inde$ x is v rem>kable1 t ?\gh he 0 pleas$ to hon\r me ) a great _m lett]s1 & ,i h se5 sev]al m :i* he wrote to o!rs1 "s ( !m on j\rneys1 :]e he c\ld h b a few m9utes at comm&1 yet ,i _c recollect t ,i ev] saw any "o 9 :i* !re 0 n "s trace ( piety2 & ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,web/]1 :o 0 employ$ to review great numb]s ( !m1 t he might select su* extracts z he %\ld ?9k prop] to communicate to me1 has made ! same obs]vation499 99,note3 ,8 words are ^!3 ,i h read ov] a va/ numb] ( ! colonel's lett]s1 & h n f\nd any "o ( !m1 h[ev] %ort1 & writ 9 ! mo/ pass+ mann]1 ev5 :5 po/+1 b :at is expressive ( ! mo/ passionate brea?+s t[>ds 8 ,god & ,savi\r4 ,if ! lett] consi/s b ( two s5t5ces1 religion is n =got1 :i* d\btless des]ves to be c>efully rem>k$1 z ! mo/ unconte/$ evid5ce ( a pi\s m9d1 ev] "u ! w>me/ impressions ( div9e ?+s4 ,! major1 ) great ju/ice1 tells ! good lady 8 "m1 t :5 %e saw him aga9 %e w\ld f9d ! p]son inde$ ! same1 b e ?+ else entirely *ang$4 ,& %e might easily h p]ceiv$ x ( h]self by ! :ole t5or ( ^! lett]s1 :i* e :]e brea! ! unaffect$ _s ( a true ,*ri/ian4 ,!y are tak5 up sometimes ) giv+ advice & directions conc]n+ "s pi\s & *>itable contributions1 "o ( :i*1 ,i rememb]1 am\nt$ to t5 gu9eas1 ?\gh z he 0 !n out ( commission1 & _h n =m]ly be5 v frugal1 x _c be suppos$ he _h mu* to sp>e2 sometimes 9 speak+ ( ! pleasure ) :i* he att5d$ s]mons1 & expect$ sacram5tal opportunities2 & at o!r times 9 exhort+ h]1 e/abli%$ z %e 0 9 religion1 to lab\r aft] a yet m exempl>y "* & conduct1 or 9 recomm5d+ h] to ! div9e pres5ce & bless+1 z well z himself to h] pray]s4 ,:at satisfaction su* lett]s z ^! mu/ give to a lady ( h] di/+ui%$ piety1 :o _h s long wept ov] ?is de> & amiable son z q lo/ to ,god1 & on ! v]ge ( f9al de/ruction1 x is n = me to describe1 nor inde$ to conceive4 ,b ha/ily z ^! lett]s 7 writt51 only = private view1 ,i w give a few specim5s f !m 9 8 own words1 :i* w s]ve to illu/rate z well z confirm :at ,i h h9t$ above4 ,i mu/ take ! lib]ty1 says he1 9 a lett] dat$ on ! fir/ day ( ! new ye>1 or1 accord+ to ! old /yle1 ,dec4 #ba1 #agai1 to entreat y t y w\ld receive no company on ! ,"l's day4 ,i "k y h a great _m good acqua9tance1 ) ^: disc\rses "o might be v well edifi$2 b z y _c keep out & let 9 :om y please1 ! be/ way1 9 my humble op9ion1 w be to see none4 ,9 ano!r1 ( ,jan4 #be1 ,i am happi] ?an any "o c imag9e1 except ,i c\ld put him exactly 9 ! same situation ) myself2 :i* is :at ! _w _c give1 & no man ev] atta9$ x1 unless x 7 f above4 ,9 ano!r1 dat$ ,m>* #cj1 :i* 0 j be=e a sacram5t day1 ,to-morr[1 if x please ,god1 ,i %all be happy1 my s\l be+ to be f$ ) ! bread ( life :i* came d[n f heav54 ,i %all be m9dful ( y all !re4 ,9 ano!r ( ,jan4 #bi1 he ?us expresses t indiff]5ce = worldly possessions :i* he s rem>kably c>ri$ ?r\gh ! rema9d] ( 8 life3 ,i "k ! ri* are only /ew>ds = ! poor1 & mu/ give an acc\nt ( e p5ny2 !re=e1 ! less ,i h1 ! m easy w x be to give an acc\nt ( x4 ,& to add no m f ^! lett]s at pres5t1 9 ! conclusion ( "o ( !m he has ^! compreh5sive & solemn words3 ,n[ t ,he1 :o is ! ease ( ! afflict$1 ! support ( ! weak1 ! weal? ( ! poor1 ! tea*] ( ! ignorant1 ! an*or ( ! fe>ful1 & ! inf9ite rew>d ( all fai?ful s\ls1 may p\r out ^u y all 8 ri*e/ bless+s1 %all always be ! pray] ( him :o is entirely y\rs1 c4 ,to ?is acc\nt ( 8 correspond5ce ) 8 excell5t "m1 ,i %\ld be glad to add a l>ge view ( ano!r1 to :i* %e introduc$ him1 ) t rev]5d & valuable p]son "u ^: pa/oral c>e %e 0 plac$--,i mean ! ju/ly celebrat$ ,doctor ,edmund ,calamy1 to :om %e c\ld n b e>ly communicate ! joyful news ( h] son's conv]sion4 ,i am n s happy z to be possess$ ( ! lett]s :i* pass$ betwe5 !m1 :i* ,i h reason to believe w\ld make a curi\s & valuable collection2 b ,i h _h ! pleasure ( receiv+ f my wor?y & amiable fri5d1 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,edmund ,calamy1 "o ( ! lett]s ! doctor1 8 fa!r1 wrote to ! major on ?is wond]ful occasion4 ,i p]ceive by ! cont5ts ( x t x 0 ! fir/1 &1 inde$1 x is dat$ z e>ly z ! #c;d ( ,augu/1 #agai1 :i* mu/ be b a few days aft] 8 own acc\nt1 dat$ ,augu/ #d1 ,n4,s41 c\ld rea* ,engl&4 ,!re is s mu* true religion & good s5se 9 ?is pap]1 & ! c\nsel x sugge/s may be s reasonable to o!r p]sons 9 circum/ances :i* be> any resemblance to 81 t ,i make no apology to my read] = ins]t+ a l>ge extract f x4 ,de> ,sir1--,i conceive x w n mu* surprise y to und]/& t y\r good "m communicat$ to me y\r lett] to h]1 dat$ ,augu/ #d1 ,n4,s41 :i* br\ght h] ! news y conceive w\ld be s acceptable to h]4 ,i1 :o h (t5 be5 a witness to h] conc]n = y on a spiritual acc\nt1 c atte/ ) :at joy ?is news 0 receiv$ by h]1 & imp>t$ to me z a special fri5d1 :o %e knew w\ld be> a "p ) h] on su* an occasion4 ,&1 inde$1 if 7z our ,savi\r intimates1 ,luke xv4 #g1 #aj17 !re is1 is su* cases1 joy 9 heav5 & among ! angels ( ,god1 x may be well suppos$ t ( a pi\s "m :o has sp5t s _m pray]s & te>s ^u y1 & has1 z x 71 travail$ 9 bir? ) y aga9 till ,*ri/ 0 =m$ 9 y1 c\ld n be small4 ,y may believe me if ,i add1 t ,i also1 z a common fri5d ( h]s & y\rs1 & :i* is mu* m1 ( ! ,pr9ce ( ,light1 :om y n[ decl>e y he>tily fall 9 ) 9 opposition to t ( ! d>k k+dom1 c\ld n b be t5d]ly affect$ ) an acc\nt ( x "u y\r own h&4 ,my joy on ?is acc\nt 0 ! great]1 consid]+ ! importance ( y\r capacity1 int]e/s1 & prospects1 :i*1 9 su* an age z ?is1 may promise mo/ happy consequ5ces1 on y\r he>tily appe>+ on ,god's side1 & emb>k+ 9 ! int]e/ ( our ,r$eem]4 ,if ,i h hi!rto at all rememb]$ y at ! ?rone ( grace1 at y\r good "m's desire1 7:i* y are pleas$ to take notice ( ) s mu* respect17 ,i c assure y ,i %all h5ce=? be l$ to d x1 ) m conc]n & p>ticul>ity bo? by duty & incl9ation2 & if ,i 7 capable ( giv+ y any little assi/ance 9 ! noble design y are engag+ 91 by correspond+ ) y by lett] :ile y are at su* a di/ance1 ,i %\ld d x mo/ *e]fully4 ,& p]haps su* a motion may n1 be altoge!r unacceptable2 = ,i am incl9able to believe1 t :5 "s :om y are oblig$ to conv]se )1 obs]ve y\r behavi\r s diff]5t f :at x =m]ly 01 & bant] y ^u x z mad & fanciful1 x may be "s little relief to correspond ) "o :o w take a pleasure 9 he>t5+ & enc\rag+ y4 ,& :5 a great _m ?+s frequ5tly (f]1 9 :i* consci5ce may be conc]n$ :]e duty may n always be pla91 nor suitable p]sons to advise ) at h&1 x may be "s satisfaction to y to correspond ) "o ) :om y may use a fri5dly fre$om 9 all su* matt]s1 & on ^: fidelity y may dep5d4 ,y may1 !re=e1 comm& me 9 any ( ^! respects1 & ,i %all take a pleasure 9 s]v+ y4 ,"o piece ( advice ,i %all v5ture to give y1 ?\gh y\r own good s5se w make my enl>g+ ^u x less ne$ful--,i mean1 t y w\ld1 f y\r fir/ sett+ out1 c>efully di/+ui% betwe5 ! ess5tials ( real religion1 & ^? ?+s :i* are commonly reckon$ by its pr(essors to belong to x4 ,! want ( ?is di/9ction has _h v unhappy consequ5ces f "o age to ano!r1 & p]haps 9 none m ?an ! pres5t4 ,b y\r daily conv]se ) y\r ,bible1 :i* y m5tion1 may h]e9 give y great assi/ance4 ,i move also1 t s9ce infidelity s mu* ab\nds1 y w\ld n only1 by close & s]i\s consid]ation1 endeav\r to settle y\rself well 9 ! fundam5tal pr9ciples ( religion2 b also t1 z opportunity (f]s1 y w\ld conv]se ) ^? books :i* treat mo/ judici\sly on ! div9e orig9al ( ,*ri/ianity1 su* z ,grot9s1 ,abbadie1 ,baxt]1 ,bates1 ,du ,plessis1 c41 :i* may e/abli% y aga9/ ! cavils t occur 9 almo/ all conv]sations1 & furni% y ) argum5ts :i*1 :5 prop]ly (f]$1 may be ( use to make "s impression on o!rs4 ,b be+ too mu* /rait5$ to enl>ge at pres5t1 ,i c only add1 t if y\r he>ty fall+ 9 ) s]i\s religion %\ld prove any h9d]ance to y\r advancem5t 9 ! _w1 7:i* ,i pray ,god x may n1 unless su* advancem5t w\ld be a real sn>e to y17 ,i hope y w tru/ our ,savi\r's ^w1 t x %all be no disadvantage to y 9 ! f9al issue3 he has giv5 y 8 ^w = x1 ,matt4 xix4 #bi1 ^u :i* y may safely dep5d2 & ,i am satisfi$ none t ev] did s at la/ rep5t$ ( x4 ,may y g on & prosp]1 & ! ,god ( all grace & peace be ) y6 ,i ?9k x v evid5t f ! cont5ts ( ?is lett]1 t ! major _h n imp>t$ to 8 "m ! mo/ s+ul> circum/ances att5d+ 8 conv]sion2 & inde$ !re 0 some?+ s peculi> 9 !m1 t ,i d n wond] he 0 always cauti\s 9 speak+ ( !m1 & especially t he 0 at fir/ mu* on ! res]ve4 ,we may also naturally reflect t !re seems to h be5 some?+ v provid5tial 9 ?is lett]1 consid]+ ! debate 9 :i* our illu/ri\s conv]t 0 s soon engag$2 = x 0 writt5 b ab\t ?ree weeks be=e 8 conf]5ce ) ! lady above m5tion$ 9 ! def5ce ( ,*ri/ianity1 or at lea/ be=e ! appo9tm5t ( x4 ,& z "s ( ! books recomm5d$ by ,dr4 ,calamy1 p>ticul>ly ,abbadie & ,du ,plessis1 7 und\bt$ly )9 8 rea*1 7if our ,engli% advocates 7 n17 ?is might1 by ! div9e bless+1 contribute consid]ably t[>ds arm+ him = t combat 9 :i* he came (f ) su* happy success4 ,z 9 ?is in/ance1 s 9 _m o!rs1 !y :o w obs]ve ! co9cid5ce & concurr5ce ( ?+s1 may be engag$ to adore ! wise conduct ( ,provid5ce 9 ev5ts :i*1 :5 tak5 s+ly & by !mselves1 h no?+ v rem>kable 9 !m4 ,i ?9k x 0 ab\t ?is "t t ?is resolute & exempl>y ,*ri/ian ent]$ ^u t me?odical mann] ( liv+ :i* he pursu$ ?r\gh s _m succe$+ ye>s ( life1 & ,i believe g5]ally1 s f> z ! brok5 /ate ( 8 heal? w\ld all[ x 9 8 latt] days1 to ! v end ( x4 ,he us$ con/antly to rise at f\r 9 ! morn+1 & to sp5d 8 "t till six 9 ! secret ex]cises ( devotion1 read+1 m$itation1 & pray]1 9 :i* la/ he contract$ su* a f]v5cy ( _s z ,i believe few m5 liv+ ev] obta9$4 ,?is c]ta9ly t5d$ v mu* to /r5g!n t firm fai? 9 ,god1 & rev]5t animat+ s5se ( 8 pres5ce1 = :i* he 0 s em95tly rem>kable1 & :i* c>ri$ him ?r\gh ! trials & s]vices ( life ) su* /ead9ess & ) su* activity2 = he inde$ endur$ & act$ z always see+ ,him :o is invisible4 ,if at any "t he 0 oblig$ to g out be=e six 9 ! morn+1 he rose proportionably soon]2 s t :5 a j\rney or a m>* has requir$ him to be on horseback by f\r1 he w\ld be at 8 devotions at fur!/ by two4 ,he likewise secur$ "t = retirem5t 9 an ev5+2 & t he might h x ! m at comm&1 & be ! m fit to use x prop]ly1 z well z be bett] able to rise e>ly ! next morn+1 he g5]ally w5t to b$ ab\t t52 &1 dur+ ! "t ,i 0 acqua9t$ ) him1 he seldom ate any supp] b a m\?ful ( bread1 ) "o glass ( w9e4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is1 z well z ( 8 admirably good con/itution1 & ! long habit he _h =m$1 he requir$ less sleep ?an mo/ p]sons ,i h kn[n2 & ,i d\bt n b 8 uncommon progress 9 piety 0 9 a great measure ow+ to ^! resolute habits ( self-d5ial4 ,a life any?+ l ?is c\ld n1 to be sure1 be ent]$ ^u 9 ! mid/ ( su* company z he _h be5 accu/om$ to keep1 )\t great opposition1 especially z he did n entirely )draw himself f all ! circle ( *e]ful conv]sation2 b1 on ! contr>y1 gave sev]al h\rs e day to x1 le/ religion %\ld be reproa*$ z hav+ made him morose4 ,he h[ev]1 e>ly began a practice1 :i* to ! la/ day ( 8 life he reta9$1 ( reprov+ vice & pr(an5ess2 & 0 nev] afraid to debate ! matt] ) any "o1 "u ! consci\sness ( great sup]iority 9 ! goodness ( 8 cause4 ,a rem>kable in/ance ( ?is happ5$1 if ,i mi/ake n1 ab\t ! middle ( #agbj1 ?\gh ,i _c be v exact z to ! date ( ! /ory4 ,x 01 h[ev]1 on 8 fir/ return to make any consid]able abode 9 ,engl& aft] ?is rem>kable *ange4 ,he _h he>d1 on ! o!r side ( ! wat]1 t x 0 curr5tly report$ among 8 companions at home t he 0 />k mad--a report at :i* no read] :o kn[s ! wisdom ( ! _w 9 ^! matt]s1 w be mu* surpris$1 any m ?an himself4 ,he conclud$1 !re=e1 t he %\ld h _m battles to fight1 & 0 will+ to dispat* ! bus9ess z fa/ z he c\ld4 ,& !re=e1 be+ to sp5d a few days at ! c\ntry-h\se ( a p]son ( di/+ui%$ rank1 ) :om he _h be5 v intimate1 7^: "n ,i d n rememb] t he told me1 nor did ,i ?9k x prop] to inquire aft] x17 he begg$ ! fav\r ( him t he w\ld contrive matt]s s1 t1 a day or two aft] he came d[n1 sev]al ( _! =m] gay companions might meet at 8 lord%ip's table1 t he might h an opportunity ( mak+ 8 apology to !m1 & acqua9t+ !m ) ! nature & reasons ( 8 *ange4 ,x 0 accord+ly agre$ to2 & a pretty l>ge company met on ! day appo9t$1 ) previ\s notice t ,major ,g>d9] w\ld be !re4 ,a good deal ( raill]y pass$ at d9n]1 to :i* ! major made v little answ]4 ,b :5 ! clo? 0 tak5 away1 & ! s]vants retir$1 he begg$ _! pati5ce = a few m9utes1 & !n pla9ly & s]i\sly told !m :at notions he ent]ta9$ ( virtue & religion1 & on :at consid]ations he _h absolutely det]m9$ t by ! grace ( ,god he w\ld make x ! c>e & bus9ess ( life1 :atev] he might lose by x1 & :atev] c5sure & contempt he might incur4 ,he well knew h[ improp] x 0 9 su* company to relate ! extraord9>y mann] 9 :i* he 0 awak5$1 :i* !y w\ld probably h int]pret$ z a demon/ration ( lunacy1 aga9/ all ! gravity & solidity ( 8 disc\rse2 b he cont5t$ himself ) su* a rational def5ce ( a righte\s1 sob]1 & godly life1 z he knew none ( !m c\ld ) any %ad[ ( reason conte/4 ,he !n *all5g$ !m to propose any ?+ !y c\ld urge1 to prove t a life ( irreligion & debau*]y 0 pref]able to ! fe>1 love & wor%ip ( ! et]nal ,god1 & a conduct agreeable to ! precepts ( 8 gospel4 ,& he fail$ n to be> 8 te/imony1 f 8 own exp]i5ce1 7to "o "p ( :i* _m ( !m _h be5 witnesses7 t aft] hav+ run ! wide/ r\nd ( s5sual pleasure1 ) all ! advantages ! be/ con/itution & spirits c\ld give him1 he _h nev] ta/$ any ?+ t des]v$ to be call$ happ9ess1 till he _h made religion 8 refuge & 8 delight4 ,he te/ifi$ calmly & boldly ! habitual s]5ity & peace :i* he n[ felt 9 8 own brea/1 7= ! mo/ elevat$ delights he did n ?9k fit to plead1 le/ !y %\ld be e/eem$ en?usiasm17 & ! composure & pleasure ) :i* he look$ =w>d to objects :i* ! gaye/ s9n] mu/ ackn[l$ge to be equally unavoidable & dreadful4 ,i "k n :at might be attempt$ by "s ( ! company 9 answ] to ?is2 b ,i well rememb] t he told me t ! ma/] ( ! table1 a p]son ( a v frank & c&id disposition1 cut %ort ! debate1 & said1 ,come1 let u call ano!r cause4 ,we ?\ght ?is man mad1 & he is 9 good e>ne/ prov+ t we are s4 ,on ! :ole1 ?is well-judg$ circum/ance sav$ him a great deal ( future tr\ble4 ,:5 8 =m] acqua9tances obs]v$ t he 0 /ill conv]sible & innoc5tly *e]ful1 & t he 0 immovable 9 8 resolutions1 !y desi/$ f fur!r importunity2 & he has assur$ me1 t in/ead ( los+ any "o valuable fri5d by ! *ange 9 8 "*1 he f\nd himself mu* m e/eem$ & reg>d$ by _m :o c\ld n p]suade !mselves to imitate 8 example4 ,i h n any memoirs ( ,colonel ,g>d9]'s life1 or ( any o!r rem>kable ev5t befall+ him 9 x1 f ! "t ( 8 return to ,engl& till 8 m>riage 9 ! ye> #agbf1 except ! extracts :i* h be5 s5t me f "s lett]s1 :i* he wrote to 8 religi\s fri5ds dur+ ?is int]val1 & :i* ,i _c pass by )\t a m p>ticul> notice4 ,x may be recollect$1 t 9 consequ5ce ( ! r$uction ( t regim5t ( :i* he 0 major1 he 0 out ( commission f ,nov4 #aj1 #agah1 till ,june #a1 #agbd2 &1 aft] he return$ f ,p>is1 ,i f9d all 8 lett]s dur+ ?is p]iod dat$ f ,london1 :]e he cont9u$ 9 communion ) ! ,*ri/ian society "u ! pa/oral c>e ( ,dr4 ,calamy4 ,z 8 good "m also belong$ to ! same1 x is easy to imag9e x mu/ h be5 an unspeakable pleasure to h] to h su* frequ5t opportunities ( conv]s+ ) su* a son1 ( obs]v+ 9 8 daily conduct & disc\rses ! bless$ effects ( t *ange :i* div9e grace _h made 9 8 he>t1 & ( sitt+ d[n ) him mon?ly at t sacr$ fea/ :]e ,*ri/ians s frequ5tly enjoy ! div9e/ ent]ta9m5ts :i* !y expect on ?is side heav54 ,i ! r m5tion ?is ord9ance1 because1 z ?is excell5t lady _h a v high e/eem = x1 s %e _h an opportunity ( att5d+ x b ! v ,"l's day imm$iately prec$+ h] dea?1 :i* happ5$ on ,?ursday1 ,octob] #g1 #agbe1 aft] h] son _h be5 remov$ f h] almo/ a ye>4 ,he _h ma9ta9$ h] h&somely out ( t v mod]ate income on :i* he subsi/$ s9ce 8 regim5t _h be5 disb&$2 & :5 %e express$ h] gratitude to him = x1 he assur$ h] 79 "o ( ! la/ lett]s %e ev] receiv$ f him7 t he e/eem$ x a great hon\r t ,god put x into 8 p[] to make :at he call$ a v small ackn[l$gm5t ( all h] c>e = him1 & especially ( ! _m pray]s %e _h (f]$ on 8 acc\nt1 :i* _h already be5 rem>kably answ]$1 & ! b5efit ( :i* he hop$ ev] to enjoy4 ,i appreh5d t ! ,e>l ( ,/air's regim5t1 to ! majority ( :i* he 0 promot$ on ! #bj? ( ,july1 #agbd1 0 !n qu>t]$ 9 ,scotl&2 = all ! lett]s 9 my h&1 f t "t to ! #f? ( ,febru>y1 #agbf1 are dat$ f !nce1 & p>ticul>ly f ,d\glas1 ,/ranra]1 ,hamilton1 & ,ayr4 ,b ,i h ! pleasure to f9d1 f comp>+ ^! ) o!rs ( an e>li] date f ,london & ! neighb\r+ p>ts1 t nei!r ! detrim5t :i* he mu/ suff] by be+ s long out ( commission1 nor ! hurry ( affairs :ile *>g$ ) x1 c\ld prev5t or int]rupt t int]c\rse ) ,heav51 :i* 0 8 daily fea/1 & 8 daily /r5g?4 ,^! 7 mo/ em95tly ! happy ye>s ( 8 life2 = he _h le>n$ to e/imate 8 happ9ess1 n by ! increase ( hon\r1 or ! possession ( weal?1 or by :at 0 mu* de>] to 8 g5]\s he>t ?an ei!r1 ! conv]se ( ! de>e/ & wor?ie/ human fri5ds2 b by ne>ness to ,god1 & by opportunities ( humble conv]se ) him1 9 ! lively ex]cise ( contemplation1 praise1 & pray]4 ,n[ !re 0 no p]iod ( 8 life 9 :i* he 0 m em95tly fav\r$ ) ^!1 nor d ,i f9d any ( 8 lett]s s ov]fl[+ ) transports ( holy joy1 z ^? :i* 7 dat$ dur+ ?is "t4 ,!re are inde$ 9 "s ( !m su* v sublime passages1 t ,i h be5 dubi\s :e!r ,i %\ld communicate !m to ! public or n1 le/ ,i %\ld adm9i/] matt] ( pr(ane ridicule to "s1 :o look ^u all ! elevations ( devotion z contemptible en?usiasm4 ,& x has also giv5 me "s appreh5sions le/ x %\ld disc\rage "s pi\s ,*ri/ians1 :o1 aft] hav+ sp5t sev]al ye>s 9 ! s]vice ( ,god1 & 9 humble ob$i5ce to ! precepts ( 8 gospel1 may n h atta9$ to any su* heights z ^!4 ,b1 on ! :ole1 ,i _c satisfy myself to suppress !m2 n only z ,i numb] "s ( !m1 consid]$ 9 a devotional view1 among ! mo/ extraord9>y pieces ( ! k9d ,i h ev] met )2 b z "s ( ! mo/ excell5t & judici\s p]sons ,i any :]e "k1 to :om ,i h read !m1 h assur$ me t !y felt _! he>ts 9 an unusual mann] impress$1 quick5$1 & edifi$ by !m4 ,,*apt] ,,vi4 ,,lett]s4 ,i w !re=e draw back ! veil1 & %[ my mu* hon\r$ fri5d 9 8 mo/ secret recesses1 t ! _w may see :at ^? spr+s 71 f :5ce issu$ t cle>1 p]man5t & liv+ /ream ( wisdom1 piety1 & virtue1 :i* s evid5tly ran ?r\gh all t "p ( 8 life :i* 0 op5 to public obs]vation4 ,x is n to be imag9$ t lett]s writt5 9 ! intimacy ( ,*ri/ian fri5d%ip1 "s ( !m ) ! mo/ evid5t m>ks ( ha/e1 & amid/ a v>iety ( important public c>es1 %\ld be adorn$ ) any /udi$ elegance ( expression1 ab\t :i* ! greatness ( 8 s\l w\ld n all[ him to be at any "t v solicit\s1 = he g5]ally 7z f> z ,i c\ld obs]ve7 wrote z fa/ z 8 p5 c\ld move1 :i*1 happily bo? = him & 8 _m fri5ds1 0 v freely4 ,yet "h ! gr&eur ( 8 subject has sometimes clo!d 8 ideas ) a language m elevat$ ?an is ord9>ily to be expect$ 9 an epi/ol>y correspond5ce4 ,! pr\d scorn]s :o may d]ide s5tim5ts & enjoym5ts l ^? :i* ?is truly great man s exp]im5tally & pa!tically describes1 ,i pity f my he>t1 & grieve to ?9k h[ unfit !y mu/ be = ! hallelujahs ( heav51 :o p\r contempt ^u ! ne>e/ approa*es to !m2 nor %all ,i ?9k x any mis=tune to %>e ) s excell5t a p]son _! pr(ane d]ision4 ,x w be inf9itely m ?an an equival5t = all t su* ignorance & petulancy c ?9k & say1 if ,i may conv9ce "s1 :o are z yet /rang]s to religion1 h[ real & h[ noble its delights are--if ,i may engage my pi\s read]s to glorify ,god = s illu/ri\s an in/ance ( 8 grace--& f9ally1 if ,i may quick5 !m1 &1 above all1 may r\se my own too indol5t _s to foll[ ) less unequal /eps an example1 to ! sublimity ( :i*1 ,i fe>1 few ( u %all1 aft] all1 be able fully to atta94 ,& t we may n be too mu* disc\rag$ "u ! defici5cy1 let x be recollect$ t few h ! advantage ( a temp] naturally s w>m2 few h an equal comm& ( retirem5t2 & p]haps h>dly any "o :o ?9ks himself mo/ indebt$ to ! ri*es & fre$om ( div9e grace1 c trace int]positions ( x 9 all respects equally a/oni%+4 ,! fir/ ( ^! extraord9>y lett]s :i* h fall5 into my h&1 is dat$ ne> ?ree ye>s aft] 8 conv]sion1 & address$ to a lady ( quality4 ,i believe x is ! fir/ ! major ev] wrote1 s imm$iately on ! subject ( 8 religi\s consolations & conv]se ) ,god 9 dev\t retirem5t2 = ,i well rememb] t he once told me he 0 s mu* afraid t some?+ ( spiritual pride %\ld m+le itself ) ! relation ( su* k9d ( exp]i5ces1 t he conceal$ !m a long "t2 b obs]v+ ) h[ mu* fre$om ! sacr$ writ]s op5 all ! mo/ secret recesses ( _! he>ts1 especially 9 ! ,psalms2 8 consci5ce began to be burd5$1 "u an appreh5sion t1 = ! hon\r ( ,god1 & 9 ord] to engage ! concurr5t praises ( "s ( 8 p1 he ought to disclose !m4 ,on ?is he set himself to reflect :o among all 8 num]\s acqua9tance seem$ at once ! mo/ exp]i5c$ ,*ri/ians1 7to :om1 !re=e1 su* ?+s z he _h to communicate might appe> solid & cr$ible17 & :o ! humble/4 ,he quickly ?\ght ( ! ,lady ,m>*ioness ( ,d\glas 9 ?is view2 & ! read] may well imag9e t x /ruck my m9d v /rongly1 to ?9k t n[1 m ?an tw5ty-f\r ye>s aft] x 0 writt51 ,provid5ce %\ld br+ to my h&s 7z x has done )9 ^! few days7 :at ,i assur$ly believe to be a g5u9e copy ( t v lett]1 :i* ,i _h n ! lea/ reason to expect ,i %\ld ev] h se51 :5 ,i le>n$ f 8 own m\?1 amid/ ! fre$om ( an accid5tal conv]sation1 ! occasion & circum/ances ( x4 ,x is dat$ f ,london1 ,july #ba1 #agbb1 & ! v fir/ l9es ( x relate to a rem>kable circum/ance :i*1 f o!rs ( 8 lett]s1 ,i f9d happ5$ sev]al times2 ,i mean1 t :5 he _h receiv$ f any ( 8 ,*ri/ian fri5ds a few l9es :i* p>ticul>ly affect$ 8 he>t1 he c\ld n /ay till ! /at$ return ( 8 devotional h\r1 b imm$iately retir$ to pray = !m1 & to give v5t to ^? religi\s emotions ( m9d :i* su* a correspond5ce rais$4 ,h[ invaluable 0 su* a fri5d6 & :at great reason h ^? ( u :o once possess$ a l>ge %>e 9 8 he>t1 & 9 ^? retir$ & sacr$ mom5ts1 to bless ,god = s s+ul> a felicity2 & to com=t ourselves 9 a pleas+ hope t we may yet reap future bless+s1 z ! h>ve/ ( ^? petitions :i* he c no m repeat4 ,8 words are ^!3 ,i 0 s happy z to receive y\rs j z ,i arriv$1 & _h no soon] read x b ,i %ut my door1 & s\ght ,him :om my s\l love?4 ,i s\ght him1 & f\nd him2 & w\ld n let him g till he _h bless$ u all4 ,x is impossible to f9d words to express :at ,i obta9$2 b ,i suppose x 0 some?+ l t :i* ! disciples got1 z !y 7 go+ to ,emmaus1 :5 !y said1 ',did n our he>ts burn )9 u1' c42 or r l :at ,paul felt1 :5 he c\ld n tell :e!r he 0 9 ! body1 or out ( x4 ,he !n m5tions 8 dread ( spiritual pride1 f :5ce he e>ne/ly prays t ,god may deliv] & pres]ve him4 ,?is1 says he1 w\ld h h9d]$ me f communicat+ ^! ?+s1 if ,i _h n su* an example be=e me z ! man aft] ,god's own he>t1 say+1 ',i w decl>e :at ,god ha? done = my s\l2' & else:]e1 ',! humble %all he> !re(1 & be glad4' ,n[ ,i am well satisfi$ t y\r lady%ip is ( t numb]4 ,he !n adds3 ,i _h no soon] f9i%$ ?is ex]cise1 t is ( pray] above m5tion$1 b ,i sat d[n to admire ! goodness ( my ,god1 t he w\ld v\*safe to influ5ce by 8 free ,_s s undes]v+ a wret* z ,i1 & to make me ?us to m\nt up ) eagles' w+s4 ,& "h ,i 0 lo/ aga91 & got into an ocean1 :]e ,i c\ld f9d nei!r b\nd nor bottom2 b 0 oblig$ to cry out ) ! apo/le1 ',o ! bread?1 ! l5g?1 ! dep?1 ! height ( ! love ( ,*ri/1 :i* passe? k6' ,b if ,i gave way to ?is /ra9 ,i %all nev] h done4 ,t ! ,god ( hope may fill y ) all joy & peace 9 believ+1 t y may ab\nd 9 hope ?r\gh ! p[] ( ! ,holy ,gho/1 %all always be ! pray] ( him :o is1 ) ! greate/ s9c]ity & respect1 y\r ,lady%ip's1 c4 ,ano!r passage to ! same purpose ,i f9d 9 a memor&um1 :i* he seems to h writt5 = 8 own use1 dat$ ,monday1 ,m>* #aa1 :i* ,i p]ceive1 f _m concurr5t circum/ances1 mu/ h be5 9 ! ye> #agbb-c4 ,?is day1 says he1 hav+ be5 to visit ,mrs4 ,g4 at ,hamp/ead1 ,i came home ab\t two1 & read a s]mon on ^! words1 ,psalm cxxx4 #d1 ',b !re is =giv5ess ) !e1 t ?\ maye/ be fe>$2' ab\t ! latt] end ( :i*1 !re is a description ( ! mis]able condition ( ^? t are slight]s ( p>don+ grace4 ,f a s5se ( ! great obligations ,i lie "u to ! ,almighty ,god1 :o ha? made me to diff] f su*1 f :at ,i 01 & f ! re/ ( my companions1 ,i knelt d[n to praise 8 holy "n2 & ,i "k n 9 my lifetime ,i ev] lay l[] 9 ! du/1 nev] hav+ _h a full] view ( my own unwor?9ess4 ,i nev] plead$ m /rongly ! m]its & int]cession ( ,him :o ,i "k is wor?y--nev] v[$ m s9c]ely to be ! ,"l's1 & to accept ( ,*ri/1 z he is (f]$ 9 ! gospel1 z my ,k+1 ,prie/1 & ,prophet--nev] _h s /rong a desire to dep>t1 t ,i might s9 no m2 b 'my grace is suffici5t1' curb$ t desire4 ,i nev] plead$ ) great] f]v5cy = ! ,com=t]1 :i* our bless$ ,"l ha? promis$ %all abide ) u = ev]4 ,= all :i*1 ,i desire to ascribe glory c4 to ,him t sitte? on ! ?rone1 & to ! ,lamb4 ,!re are sev]al o!rs ( 8 pap]s1 speak+ mu* ! same language1 :i*1 _h he kept a di>y1 w\ld1 ,i d\bt n1 h fill$ _m %eets4 ,i believe my dev\t read]s w\ld n soon be we>y ( read+ extracts ( ?is k9d2 b t ,i may n exce$ 9 ?is "p ( my n>rative1 ,i %all m5tion only two m1 ea* ( !m dat$ "s ye>s aft]2 t is1 "o f ,d\glas1 ,april #a1 #agbe2 & ! o!r f ,/ranra]1 #be? ,may foll[+4 ,! =m] ( ^! relates to ! frame ( 8 _s on a j\rney2 on ! m5tion ( :i*1 ,i _c b recollect h[ (t5 ,i h he>d him say t "s ( ! mo/ delightful days ( 8 life 7 days 9 :i* he travell$ alone1 7t is1 ) only a s]vant at a di/ance17 :5 he c\ld1 especially 9 roads n mu* frequ5t$1 indulge himself 9 ! pleasures ( pray] & praise4 ,9 ! ex]cise ( ?is la/1 he 0 greatly assi/$ by sev]al psalms & hymns :i* he _h treasur$ up 9 8 memory1 & :i* he us$ n only to repeat al\d1 b sometimes to s+4 ,9 ref]5ce to ?is1 ,i rememb] ! foll[+ passage1 9 a lett] :i* he wrote to me _m ye>s aft]1 :51 on m5tion+ my ev] de> & hon\r$ fri5d ! ,rev4 ,dr4 ,watts1 he says1 ,h[ (t51 9 s++ "s ( 8 psalms1 hymns1 or lyrics1 on horseback & else:]e1 has ! evil _s be5 made to flee3 ',:5e'er my he>t 9 tune 0 f\nd1 ',l ,david's h>p ( solemn s\nd6' ,su* 0 ! fir/ ( ,april above m5tion$4 ,9 ! ev5+ ( t day he writes ?us to an intimate fri5d3-- ,:at w\ld ,i h giv5 ?is day1 ^u ! road1 = pap]1 p51 & ink1 :5 ! ,_s ( ! ,mo/ ,high re/$ ^u me6 ,oh = ! p5 ( a ready writ]1 & ! tongue ( an angel1 to decl>e :at ,god ha? done ?is day = my s\l6 ,b1 9 %ort1 x is 9 va9 to attempt x4 ,all t ,i am able to say1 is ?is1 t my s\l has be5 = "s h\rs jo9+ ) ! bless$ spirits above 9 giv+ glory1 & hon\r1 & praise unto ,him t sitte? ^u ! ?rone1 & to ! ,lamb1 = ev] & ev]4 ,my praises began f a r5ew$ view ( ,him :om ,i saw pi]c$ = my transgressions4 ,i summon$ ! :ole hi]>*y ( heav5 to jo9 ) me1 & ,i am p]suad$ !y all e*o$ back praise to ! ,mo/ ,high4 ,yon1 "o w\ld h ?\ght ! v l>ks jo9$ me ) emulation4 ,sure1 !n1 ,i ne$ n make use ( _m words to p]suade y1 t are 8 sa9ts1 to jo9 me 9 bless+ & prais+ 8 holy "n4 ,he concludes1 ,may ! bless+ ( ! ,god ( ,jacob re/ ^u y all6 ,adieu4 ,writt5 9 great ha/e1 late & we>y4 ,sc>cely c ,i "h refra9 f break+ out into m copi\s reflections on ! exquisite pleasures ( true religion1 :5 ris5 to su* em95t degrees1 :i* c ?us fea/ ! s\l 9 its solitude1 & refre% x on j\rneys1 & br+ d[n s mu* ( heav5 to e>? z ?is delightful lett] expresses4 ,b ! rem>k is s obvi\s1 t ,i w n enl>ge ^u x2 b proce$ to ! o!r lett] above m5tion$1 :i* 0 writt5 ! next mon?1 on ! ,tuesday aft] a sacram5t day4 ,he m5tions ! pleasure ) :i* he _h att5d$ a prep>ation s]mon ! ,saturday be=e2 & !n he adds3 ,i took a walk ^u ! m\nta9s t are ov] aga9/ ,irel&2 &1 ,i p]suade myself1 t 7 ,i capable ( giv+ y a description ( :at pass$ !re1 y w\ld agree t ,i _h mu* bett] reason to rememb] my ,god f ! hills ( ,port ,patrick ?an ,david f ! l& ( ,jordan1 & ( ! ,h]monites1 f ! hill ( ,miz>4 ,i suppose he ref]s to ! cle>] discov]ies ( ! gospel ) :i* we are fav\r$4 ,9 %ort1 says he imm$iately aft]w>ds1 9 t scripture phrase :i* _h become s famili> to him1 ,i wre/l$ "s h\rs ) ! ,angel ( ! cov5ant1 & made supplications to him ) floods ( te>s1 & cries--until ,i _h almo/ expir$2 b he /r5g!n$ me s1 t1 l ,jacob1 ,i _h p[] ) ,god1 & prevail$4 ,?is1 adds he1 is b a v fa9t description2 y w be m able to judge ( x by :at y h felt y\rself ^u ! l occasions4 ,aft] su* prep>atory "w1 ,i ne$ n tell y h[ bless$ ! solemn ord9ance ( ! ,"l's supp] prov$ to me2 ,i hope x 0 s to _m4 ,y may believe ,i %\ld h be5 exce$+ glad1 if my graci\s ,"l _h ord]$ x s1 t ,i might h made y a visit1 z ,i propos$2 b ,i am n[ glad x 0 ord]$ o!rwise1 s9ce he ha? caus$ s mu* ( 8 goodness to pass be=e me4 ,7 ,i to give y an acc\nt ( ! _m fav\rs my ,god ha? load$ me )1 s9ce ,i p>t$ f y1 ,i mu/ h tak5 up _m days 9 no?+ b writ+4 ,i hope y w jo9 ) me 9 praises = all ! goodness he has %[n to y\r unwor?y bro!r 9 ! ,"l4 ,su* 7 ! ard\rs & elevation ( 8 s\l4 ,b :ile ,i record ^! memorials ( !m1 ,i am v s5sible t !re are _m :o w be incl9$ to c5sure !m z ! flights ( en?usiasm2 = :i* reason1 ,i mu/ beg leave to add a rem>k or two on ! occasion1 :i* w be illu/rat$ by sev]al o!r extracts1 :i* ,i %all introduce into ! sequel ( ^! memoirs4 ,! "o is1 t he nev] pret5ds1 9 any ( ! passages cit$ above1 or else:]e1 to h receiv$ f ,god any imm$iate revelations :i* %\ld raise him above ! ord9>y me?ods ( in/ruction1 or discov] any ?+ to him1 :e!r ( doctr9es or facts4 ,no man 0 fur!r f pret5d+ to pr$ict future ev5ts1 except f ! moral progno/ications ( causes naturally t5d+ to produce !m1 9 trac+ ( :i* he _h inde$ an admirable sagacity1 z ,i h se5 9 "s v rem>kable in/ances4 ,nei!r 0 he at all incl9able to gov]n himself by secret impulses ^u 8 m9d1 lead+ him to ?+s = :i* he c\ld assign no reason b ! impulse itself4 ,_h he v5tur$1 9 a presumption on su* secret agitations ( m9d1 to tea* or to d any ?+ n w>rant$ by ! dictates ( s\nd s5se & ! ^w ( ,god1 ,i %\ld readily h ackn[l$g$ him an en?usia/1 unless he c\ld h produc$ "s o!r evid5ce ?an 8 own p]suasion to h support$ ! au?ority ( !m4 ,b ^! ard5t expressions1 :i* "s may call en?usiasm1 seem only to ev9ce a he>t deeply affect$ ) a s5se ( ! div9e pres5ce & p]fections1 & ( t love :i* passe? k1 especially z manife/$ 9 our r$emption by ! ,son ( ,god1 :i* did inde$ inflame 8 :ole s\l4 ,& he ?\ght he might reasonably ascribe ^! /rong impressions1 to :i* m5 are g5]ally su* /rang]s1 & ( :i* he _h long be5 entirely de/itute1 to ! ag5cy or influ5ces ( ! ,_s ( ,god ^u 8 he>t2 & t1 9 proportion to ! degree 9 :i* he felt !m1 he might prop]ly say1 ,god 0 pres5t ) him1 & he conv]s$ ) ,god499 ,n[1 :5 we consid] ! scriptural phrases ( walk+ ) ,god1 ( hav+ communion ) ! ,fa!r & 8 ,son ,jesus ,*ri/1 ( ,*ri/'s com+ to !m t op5 ! door ( _! he>ts to him1 & supp+ ) !m1 ( ,god's %$d+ abroad 8 love 9 ! he>t ( ! ,_s1 ( 8 com+ ) ,jesus ,*ri/1 & mak+ 8 abode ) any man t loves him1 ( 8 meet+ him t worke? righte\sness1 ( 8 mak+ u glad by ! light ( 8 c\nt5ance1 & a v>iety ( o!r equival5t expressions1--,i believe we %all see reason to judge mu* m fav\rably ( su* expressions z ^? n[ 9 "q1 ?an p]sons :o1 !mselves /rang]s to elevat$ devotion1 p]haps conv]se b little ) _! ,bible1 are incl9$ to d2 especially1 if !y h1 z _m su* p]sons h1 a temp] t incl9es !m to cavil & f9d fault4 ,& ,i mu/ fur!r obs]ve1 t amid/ all ^? fre$oms ) :i* ?is em95t ,*ri/ian op5s 8 dev\t he>t to ! mo/ intimate ( 8 fri5ds1 he /ill speaks ) pr(\nd awe & rev]5ce ( 8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r & 8 ,savi\r1 & ma9ta9s 7aft] ! example ( ! sacr$ writ]s !mselves17 a k9d ( dignity 9 8 expressions1 suitable to su* a subject1 )\t any ( t fond famili>ity ( language1 & degrad+ meanness ( phrase1 by :i* x is1 especially ( late1 gr[n fa%ionable among "s 7:o nev]!less ,i believe mean well17 to express _! love & _! humility4 99,note3 ,! +5i\s & pi\s ,mr4 ,grove 7:o1 ,i ?9k1 0 z little suspect$ ( runn+ into en?usia/ical extremes z mo/ div9es ,i c\ld "n17 has a noble passage to ?is purpose 9 ! six? volume ( 8 ,po/hum\s ,works1 p4#aj1 #aa1 :i*1 respect to ! memory ( bo? ^! excell5t p]sons1 incl9es me to ins]t "h1 ,h[ (t5 are ! good ?\ghts sugge/$1 7viz4 to ! pure 9 he>t7 heav5ly affection k9dl$ & inflam$6 ,h[ (t5 is ! ,*ri/ian prompt$ to holy actions1 drawn to 8 duty1 re/or$1 quick5$1 p]suad$1 9 su* a mann]1 t he w\ld be unju/ to ! ,_s ( ,god to "q 8 ag5cy 9 ! :ole6 ,yes1 on my s\l6 !re is a ,supreme ,be+1 :o gov]ns ! _w1 & is pres5t ) x1 :o takes up 8 m special habitation 9 good m51 & is nigh to all :o call ^u him1 to sanctify & assi/ !m6 ,ha/ ?\ n felt him1 oh my s\l6 l ano!r s\l1 ,transcrib]'s note3 illegible ?y faculties1 exalt+ ?y views1 purify+ ?y passions1 exalt+ ?y graces1 & begett+ 9 !e an abhorr5ce ( s91 & a love ( hol9ess8 ,is n all ?is an argum5t ( ,8 pres5ce1 z truly z if ?\ did/ see4 ,on ! :ole1 if habitual love to ,god1 firm fai? 9 ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/1 a /eady dep5d5ce on ! div9e promises1 a full p]suasion ( ! wisdom & goodness ( all ! disp5sations ( ,provid5ce1 a high e/eem = ! bless+s ( ! heav5ly _w1 & a s9c]e contempt = ! vanities ( ?is1 c prop]ly be call$ en?usiasm1 !n 0 ,colonel ,g>d9] inde$ "o ( ! greate/ en?usia/s :i* our age has produc$2 & 9 proportion to ! degree 9 :i* he 0 s1 ,i mu/ e/eem him "o ( ! wise/ & happie/ ( mank9d4 ,nor d ,i fe> to tell ! _w t x is ! design ( my writ+ ^! memoirs1 & ( e ?+ else t ,i und]take 9 life1 to spread ?is glori\s & bless$ en?usiasm1 :i* ,i "k to be ! anticipation ( heav51 z well z ! mo/ c]ta9 way to x4 ,b le/ any %\ld possibly imag9e1 t all[+ ! exp]i5ces :i* h be5 describ$ above to h be5 ev] s solid & important1 yet !re may be "s appe>ances ( boa/+ 9 s free a communication ( !m1 ,i mu/ add to :at ,i h h9t$ 9 ref]5ce to ?is above1 t ,i f9d 9 _m ( ! pap]s be=e me v g5u9e expressions ( ! deepe/ humility & self-abasem5t1 :i* inde$ su* holy conv]se ) ,god 9 pray] & praise does1 above all ?+s 9 ! _w1 t5d to inspire & promote4 ,?us1 9 "o ( 8 lett]s he says1 ,i am b z a bea/ be=e him4 ,9 ano!r he calls himself a mis]able hell-des]v+ s9n]4 ,& 9 ano!r he cries out1 ,oh1 h[ good a ma/] d ,i s]ve6 b1 alas1 h[ ungrateful am ,i6 ,:at c be s a/oni%+ z ! love ( ,*ri/ to u1 unless x be ! coldness ( our s9ful he>ts t[>ds su* a ,savi\r8 ,!re 7 _m o!r clauses ( ! l nature1 :i* ,i %all n set myself m p>ticul>ly to trace ?r\gh ! v>iety ( lett]s 9 :i* !y occur4 ,x is a fur!r in/ance ( ?is unfeign$ humility1 t :5 7z 8 lady ) h] usual propriety ( language expresses x 9 "o ( h] lett]s to me conc]n+ him17 ^! div9e joys & consolations 7 n 8 daily all[ance1 he1 ) equal fre$om1 9 ! confid5ce ( ,*ri/ian fell[%ip1 ackn[l$ges & lam5ts x4 ,?us1 9 ! fir/ lett] ,i _h ! hon\r ( receiv+ f him1 dat$ f ,leice/]1 ,july #i1 #agci1 aft] m5tion+ ! bless+ ) :i* x _h pleas$ ,god to att5d my la/ address to him1 & ! influ5ce x _h ^u 8 m9d1 he adds1 ,mu* d ,i /& 9 ne$ ( e help to awak5 me out ( t spiritual deadness :i* seizes me s (t54 ,once1 inde$1 x 0 q o!rwise ) me1 & t = _m ye>s3 ',firm 0 my heal?1 my day 0 bright1 ,& ,i presum$ 't w\ld ne'er be night1 ,fondly ,i said )9 my he>t1 ,pleasure & peace %all ne'er dep>t1 ,b ,i =got1 ?9e arm 0 /rong1 ,:i* made my m\nta9 /& s long2 ,soon z ?y face began to hide1 ,my heal? 0 gone1 my com=ts di$4' ,& "h1 adds he1 lies my s9 & my folly4 ,i m5tion ?is1 t ! :ole matt] may be se5 j z x 01 & t o!r ,*ri/ians may n be disc\rag$ if !y feel "s abatem5t ( t f]v\r1 & ( ^? holy joys :i* !y may h exp]i5c$ dur+ "s ( ! fir/ mon?s or ye>s ( _! spiritual life4 ,b1 ) relation to ! colonel1 ,i h great reason to believe t ^? :i* he lam5ts z 8 days ( spiritual deadness 7 n unanimat$2 & t quickly aft] ! date ( ?is lett]1 & especially ne>] ! close ( 8 life1 he _h fur!r reviv+s1 z ! joyful anticipation 9 res]ve ( ^? bett] ?+s :i* 7 !n ne>ly approa*+4 ,& ?us ,mr4 ,spe>s1 9 ! lett] ,i m5tion$ above1 tells u he relat$ ! matt] to him1 7= he /udies z mu* z possible to reta9 ! colonel's own words73 ,h[ev]1 says he1 aft] t happy p]iod ( s5sible communion1 ?\gh my joys & enl>gem5ts 7 n s ov]fl[+ & s5sible1 yet ,i h _h habitual real communion ) ,god f t day to ?is--! latt] end ( ! ye> #agdc--;& ,i "k myself1 & all t "k me see1 t ?r\gh ! grace ( ,god1 to :i* ,i ascribe all1 my conv]sation has be5 becom+ ! gospel2 & let me die :5ev] x %all please ,god1 or :]ev] x %all be1 ,i am sure ,i %all g to ! mansions ( et]nal glory1 c4 ,?is is p]fectly agreeable to ! mann] 9 :i* he us$ to speak to me on ?is head1 :i* we h talk$ ov] frequ5tly & l>gely4 ,9 ?is connection ,i hope my read] w =give my ins]t+ a little /ory :i* ,i receiv$ f a v wor?y m9i/] 9 ,scotl&1 & :i* ,i %all give 9 8 own words3 ,9 ?is p]iod1 mean+ t :i* foll[$ ! fir/ sev5 ye>s aft] 8 conv]sion1 :5 8 compla9t ( comp>ative deadness & languor 9 religion began1 he _h a dream1 :i*1 ?\gh he _h no turn at all = tak+ notice ( dreams1 yet made a v /rong impression ^u 8 m9d4 ,he imag9$ he saw 8 bless$ ,r$eem] on e>?1 & t he 0 foll[+ him ?r\gh a l>ge field1 foll[+ him :om 8 s\l lov$1 b mu* tr\bl$1 because he ?\ght 8 bless$ ,"l did n speak to him1 till he came up to ! gate ( a bury+-place1 :51 turn+ ab\t1 he smil$ ^u him 9 su* a mann] z fill$ 8 s\l ) ! mo/ ravi%+ joy1 & on aft] reflection animat$ 8 fai? 9 believ+ t :atev] /orms & d>kness he might meet ) 9 ! way1 at ! h\r ( dea? 8 glori\s ,r$eem] w\ld lift up ^u him ! light ( 8 life-giv+ c\nt5ance4 ,my correspond5t adds a circum/ance = :i* he makes "s apology1 z :at may seem :imsical1 & yet made "s impression on ! colonel1--t !re 0 a rem>kable resemblance 9 ! field 9 :i* ?is brave man met 8 dea?1 & t he _h repres5t$ to him 9 ! dream4 ,i did n fully und]/& ?is at fir/2 b a passage 9 t lett] f ,mr4 ,spe>s1 :i* ,i h m5tion$ m ?an once1 has cle>$ x3 ,n[ obs]ve1 sir1 ?is seems to be a lit]al description ( ! place :]e ?is ,*ri/ian h]o end$ 8 sorr[s & conflicts1 & f :i* he ent]$ triumphantly into ! joy ( 8 ,"l2 =1 aft] he fell 9 ! battle1 fight+ glori\sly = 8 k+1 & ! cause ( 8 ,god1 8 w\nd$ body1 :ile life 0 yet rema9+1 0 c>ri$ f ! field ( battle by ! ea/ side ( 8 own enclosure1 till he came to ! *ur*-y>d ( ,tran5t1 & 0 br\ght to ! m9i/]'s h\se1 :]e1 ab\t an h\r aft]1 he brea!d out 8 s\l into ! h&s ( 8 ,"l1 & 0 conduct$ to 8 pres5ce1 :]e !re is fulness ( joy1 )\t any cl\d or int]ruption1 = ev]4 ,i well "k t 9 dreams !re are div]se vanities1 & readily ackn[l$ge t no?+ c]ta9 c\ld be inf]r$ f ?is2 yet x seems at lea/ to %[ :i* way ! imag9ation 0 work+ ev5 9 sleep2 & ,i _c ?9k x unwor?y ( a wise & good man sometimes to reflect ) complac5cy on any images :i*1 pass+ ?r\gh 8 m9d ev5 9 t /ate1 may t5d ei!r to express or to quick5 8 love to ! great ,savi\r4 ,^? em95tly pi\s div9es ( ! ,*ur* ( ,engl&1 ,bi%op ,bull & ,bi%op ,konn1 d bo? intimate x z _! op9ion t x may be a "p ( ! s]vice ( m9i/]+ angels to sugge/ dev\t dreams#a & ,i "k t ! wor?y p]son ( :om ,i speak 0 well acqua9t$ ) t ev5+ hymn ( ! latt] ( ^? excell5t writ]s :i* has ^! l9es3 ,"l le/ ! tempt] me surprise1 ,wat* ov] ?9e own sacrifice6 ,all loose1 all idle ?\ghts ca/ out2 ,& make my v dreams dev\t6 ,nor w\ld x be difficult to produce o!r passages mu* to ! same purpose1#b if x w\ld n be deem$ too great a digression f our subject1 & too lab\r$ a v9dication ( a little incid5t ( v small importance :5 comp>$ ) mo/ ( ^? :i* make up ?is n>rative4#c ,footnote #a3 ,bi%op ,bull has ^! rem>kable words3 ,al?\gh ,i am no doat] on dreams1 yet ,i v]ily believe t "s dreams are monitory1 above ! p[] ( fancy1 & impress$ ^u u by "s sup]ior intellig5ce4 ,= ( su* dreams we h pla9 & und5iable in/ances 9 hi/ory1 bo? sacr$ & pr(ane1 & 9 our own age & obs]vation4 ,nor %all ,i s value ! laught] ( sceptics1 & ! sc(fs ( epicureans1 z to be a%am$ to pr(ess t ,i myself h _h "s conv9c+ exp]im5ts ( su* impressions4 ,bi%op ,bull's ,s]mons & ,disc\rses1 ,vol4 ,,ii1 pp4 #dhi1 #dij4 ,footnote #b3 ,if ,i mi/ake n1 ! same ,bi%op ,konn is ! au?or ( a midnight hymn co9cid+ ) ^! words3 ,may my e!real ,gu>dian k9dly spread ,8 w+s1 & f ! tempt] scre5 my head2 ,grant ( cele/ial light "s pass+ beams1 ,to bless my sleep1 & sanctify my dreams6 ,z he c]ta9ly 0 ( ^! exactly p>allel l9es3 ,oh may my ,gu>dian1 :ile ,i sleep1 ,close to my b$ 8 vigils keep2 ,8 love angelical di/il1 ,/op all ! av5ues ( ill6 ,may he cele/ial joys rehe>se1 ,& ?\ght to ?\ght ) me conv]se6 ,footnote #c3 ,see ,app5dix ,i4 ,,*apt] ,,vii4 ,,dome/ic ,,relations4 ,i meet n ) any o!r rem>kable ev5t relat+ to ,major ,g>d9]1 :i* c prop]ly be introduc$ "h1 till #agbf1 :51 on ! #aa? ( ,july1 he 0 m>ri$ to ! ,"r ,hon4 ,lady ,frances ,ersk9e1 daught] to ! late ,e>l ( ,bu*an1 by :om he _h ?irte5 *ildr51 five only ( :i* surviv$ _! fa!r1 two sons & ?ree daught]s1 :om ,i _c m5tion )\t ! mo/ f]v5t pray]s to ,god = !m1 t !y may always behave wor?y ! hon\r ( be+ desc5d$ f su* p>5ts1 & t ! ,god ( _! fa!r & ( _! "m may make !m p]petually ! c>e ( 8 provid5ce1 & yet m em95tly happy 9 ! con/ant & abundant influ5ces ( 8 grace4 ,z h] lady%ip is /ill liv+199 7& = ! sake ( h] de> (fspr+1 & num]\s fri5ds1 may %e long be sp>$17 ,i %all n "h indulge myself 9 say+ any ?+ ( h]1 except x be t ! colonel assur$ me1 :5 he _h be5 happy 9 ?is intimate relation to h] m ?an f\rte5 ye>s1 t ! greate/ imp]fection he knew 9 h] "* 01 t %e valu$ & lov$ him mu* m ?an he des]v$4 ,little did he ?9k1 9 ! simplicity ( he>t ) :i* he spoke ?is1 h[ high an encomium he 0 mak+ ^u h]1 & h[ la/+ an hon\r su* a te/imony mu/ leave ^u h] "n1 long z ! memory ( x %all cont9ue4 99,note3 ,9 ! ye> #agdf ,z ,i d n int5d 9 ^! memoirs a lab\r$ essay on ! "* ( ,colonel ,g>d9]1 dige/$ "u ! v>i\s virtues & graces :i* ,*ri/ianity requires1 7:i* w\ld1 ,i ?9k1 be a little too =mal = a "w ( ?is k9d1 & w\ld give x su* an air ( panegyric z w\ld nei!r suit my design1 nor be at all likely to r5d] x m useful17 ,i %all n[ m5tion :at ,i h ei!r obs]v$ 9 him1 or he>d conc]n+ him1 ) reg>d to ^? dome/ic relations :i* comm5c$ ab\t ?is "t1 or v soon aft]4 ,& "h my read] w easily conclude t ! resolution ( ,jo%ua 0 f ! fir/ adopt$ & decl>$1 ,z = me & my h\se1 we w s]ve ! ,"l4 ,x w naturally be suppos$1 t z soon z he _h a h\se1 he erect$ an alt> 9 x2 t ! ^w ( ,god 0 read !re1 & pray]s & praises 7 con/antly (f]$4 ,^! 7 n to be omitt$ on acc\nt ( any gue/2 = he e/eem$ x a "p ( due respect to ^? t rema9$ "u 8 ro( to take x = grant$ !y w\ld look ^u x z a v bad complim5t to imag9e !y w\ld h be5 oblig$ by neglect+ ! duties ( religion on _! acc\nt4 ,z 8 family increas$1 he _h a m9i/] /at$ly resid5t 9 8 h\se1 :o dis*>g$ bo? ! (fice ( a tutor to 8 *ildr51 & ( a *apla91 & :o 0 always treat$ ) a becom+ k9dness & respect4 ,b1 9 8 abs5ce1 ! colonel himself l$ ! devotions ( ! family2 & !y 7 happy :o _h an opportunity ( kn[+ ) h[ mu* solemnity1 f]v\r1 & propriety he did x4 ,he 0 con/ant 9 att5dance ^u public wor%ip1 9 :i* an exempl>y c>e 0 tak5 t ! *ildr5 & s]vants might accompany ! heads ( ! family4 ,& h[ he w\ld h res5t$ ! non-att5dance ( any memb] ( x may easily be conjectur$ f a free b lively passage 9 a lett] to "o ( 8 intimate fri5ds1 on an occasion :i* x is n mat]ial to m5tion4 ,oh1 sir1 _h a *ild ( y\rs "u my ro( b once neglect$ ! public wor%ip ( ,god :5 he 0 able to att5d x1 ,i %\ld h be5 ready to conclude he _h be5 di/ract$1 & %\ld h ?\ght ( %av+ 8 head1 & conf9+ him 9 a d>k room4 ,he always treat$ 8 lady ) a manly t5d]ness1 giv+ h] ! mo/ natural evid5ces ( a cordial1 habitual e/eem1 & express+ a mo/ affectionate sympa?y ) h] "u ! infirmities ( a v delicate con/itution1 mu* brok51 at lea/ t[>ds ! latt] ye>s ( _! m>riage4 ,he _h at all times a mo/ fai?ful c>e ( all h] int]e/s1 & especially ^? relat+ to ! /ate ( religion 9 h] m9d4 ,8 conv]sation & 8 lett]s concurr$ to *]i% ^? sublime ideas :i* ,*ri/ianity sugge/s1 to promote our submission to ! w ( ,god1 to tea* u to c5tre our happ9ess 9 ! great ,au?or ( our be+1 & to live by fai? 9 ! invisible _w4 ,^!1 no d\bt1 7 frequ5tly ! subjects ( mutual disc\rse2 & _m lett]s1 :i* h] lady%ip has _h ! goodness to communicate to me1 are mo/ conv9c+ evid5ces ( ! degree 9 :i* ?is noble & mo/ fri5dly c>e fill$ 8 m9d 9 ! days ( _! sep>ation--days :i* s entire a mutual affection mu/ h r5d]$ exce$+ly pa9ful1 _h !y n be5 support$ by su* exalt$ s5tim5ts ( piety1 & sweet5$ by daily communion ) an ev]-pres5t & ev]-graci\s ,god4 ,! necessity ( be+ s _m mon?s toge!r di/ant f 8 family h9d]$ him f _m ( ^? condesc5d+ lab\rs 9 cultivat+ ! m9ds ( 8 *ildr5 9 e>ly life1 :i*1 to a s\l s b5evol5t1 s wise1 & s zeal\s1 w\ld und\bt$ly h af=d$ a v exquisite pleasure4 ,! c>e ( 8 wor?y consort1 :o well knew t x is "o ( ! brighte/ p>ts ( a "m's "*1 & "o ( ! mo/ important views 9 :i* ! sex c be consid]$1 made him ! easi] "u su* a circum/ance2 b :5 he 0 ) !m1 he fail$ n to in/ruct & admoni% !m2 & ! con/ant deep s5se ) :i* he spoke ( div9e ?+s1 & ! real unaffect$ indiff]5ce :i* he always %[$ = :at ?is va9 _w is mo/ ready to admire1 7 excell5t lessons ( daily wisdom1 :i* ,i hope !y w recollect ) advantage 9 e future sc5e ( life4 ,& ,i h se5 su* h9ts 9 8 lett]s relat+ to !m1 z pla9ly %[ ) h[ great a weight !y lay on 8 m9d1 & h[ highly he desir$1 above all ?+s1 t !y might be ! fai?ful disciples ( ,*ri/1 & acqua9t$ betimes ) ! unequall$ pleasures & bless+s ( religion4 ,he ?\ght an excess ( delicacy & ( indulg5ce "o ( ! mo/ dang]\s faults 9 education1 by :i* he ev]y:]e saw great numb]s ( "y p undone2 yet he 0 solicit\s to gu>d aga9/ a sev]ity :i* might t]rify or disc\rage2 & ?\gh he endeav\r$ to take all prud5t precautions to prev5t ! commission ( faults1 yet1 :5 !y _h be5 committ$1 & !re seem$ to be a s5se ( !m1 he 0 always ready to make ! mo/ c&id all[ances = ! ?\ghtlessness ( unrip5$ ye>s1 & t5d]ly to *]i% e purpose ( a m prop] conduct = ! "t to come4 ,x 0 to p]ceive t ! op5+s ( g5ius 9 ! "y bran*es ( 8 family gave him great delight1 & t he _h a secret ambition to see !m excel 9 :at !y und]took4 ,yet he 0 greatly cauti\s ov] 8 he>t1 le/ x %\ld be too fondly atta*$ to !m2 & z he 0 "o ( ! mo/ em95t pr(ici5ts ,i ev] knew 9 ! bless$ sci5ce ( resignation to ! div9e w1 s !re 0 no effect ( t resignation :i* appe>$ to me m admirable ?an :at relat$ to ! life ( 8 *ildr54 ,an exp]i5ce1 :i* no l5g? ( "t w ev] efface out ( my memory1 has s s5sibly taught me h[ difficult x is fully to support ! ,*ri/ian "* "h1 t ,i hope my read] w p>don me 7,i am sure1 at lea/1 ! he>t ( w\nd$ p>5ts w17 if ,i dwell a little long] ^u s int]e/+ a subject499 99,note3 ,see ,app5dix ,,ii4 ,:5 he 0 9 ,h]e=d%ire 9 ,july1 #agcd1 x pleas$ ,god to visit 8 little family ) ! small pox4 ,five days be=e ! date ( ! lett] ,i am j go+ to m5tion1 he _h receiv$ ! agreeable news t !re 0 a prospect ( ! recov]y ( 8 son1 !n "u t awful visitation2 & he _h be5 express+ 8 ?ankfulness = x 9 a lett] :i* he _h s5t away b a few h\rs be=e he 0 in=m$ ( 8 dea?1 ! surprise ( :i*1 9 ?is connection1 mu/ naturally be v great4 ,b behold 7says ! rev]5d & wor?y p]son f :om ,i receiv$ ! copy7 8 truly filial submission to ! w ( 8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 9 ! foll[+ l9es address$ to ! de> p>tn] ( 8 affliction3 ,y\r resignation to ! w ( ,god "u ?is disp5sation gives me m joy ?an ! dea? ( ! *ild has giv5 me sorr[4 ,he1 to be sure1 is happy2 & we %all g to him1 ?\gh he %all n return to u4 ,oh t we _h our latt] end always 9 view6 ,we %all soon foll[2 & oh1 :at reason h we to long = t glori\s day :5 we %all get quit ( ?is body ( s9 & dea? "u :i* we n[ groan1 & :i* r5d]s ?is life s wret*$6 ,i desire to bless ,god t ---- 7ano!r ( 8 *ildr57 is 9 s good a way2 b ,i h resign$ h]4 ,we mu/ n *oose = ourselves2 & x is well we mu/ n1 = we %\ld (t5 make a v bad *oice1 & !re=e x is our wisdom1 z well z our duty1 to leave all ) a graci\s ,god1 :o ha? promis$ t all ?+s %all "w toge!r = good to !m t love him2 & he is fai?ful t ha? promis$1 :o w infallibly p]=m x1 if our unbelief does n /& 9 ! way4 ,! greate/ trial ( ?is k9d t he ev] bore1 0 9 ! removal ( 8 second son1 :o 0 "o ( ! mo/ amiable & promis+ *ildr5 t has be5 kn[n4 ,! de> little creature 0 ! d>l+ ( all t knew him2 & promis$ v fair1 s f> z a *ild c\ld be kn[n by its do+s1 to h be5 a great ornam5t to ! family1 & bless+ to ! public4 ,! sudd5ness ( ! /roke mu/1 no d\bt1 r5d] x ! m pa9ful2 = ?is belov$ *ild 0 snat*$ away by an illness :i* seiz$ him b ab\t fifte5 h\rs be=e x c>ri$ him (f4 ,he di$ 9 ! mon? ( ,octob] #agcc1 at ne> six ye>s old4 ,_! fri5ds 7 ready to fe> t 8 affectionate p>5ts w\ld be almo/ ov]:elm$ at su* a loss2 b ! happy fa!r _h s firm a p]suasion t ,god _h receiv$ ! de> little "o to ! felicities ( ! cele/ial _w1 & at ! same "t _h s /rong a s5se ( ! div9e goodness 9 tak+ "o ( 8 *ildr51 & t1 too1 "o :o lay s ne> 8 he>t1 s e>ly to himself1 t ! sorr[s ( nature 7 q swall[$ up 9 ! sublime joy :i* ^! consid]ations adm9i/]$4 ,:5 he reflect$ :at human life is--h[ _m its sn>es & temptations are--& h[ frequ5tly *ildr5 :o once promis$ v well are ins5sibly corrupt$1 & at l5g? undone1 ) ,solomon he bless$ ! dead already dead1 m ?an ! liv+ :o 7 yet alive1 & felt unspeakable pleasure 9 look+ aft] ! lovely infant1 z safely & delightfully lodg$ 9 ! h\se ( its ,heav5ly ,fa!r4 ,yea1 he assur$ me t 8 he>t 0 at ?is "t s entirely tak5 up ) ^! views1 t he 0 afraid !y :o did n ?or\ghly "k him might suspect t he 0 defici5t 9 ! natural affections ( a p>5t1 :ile ?us borne above ! angui% ( !m by ! views :i* fai? adm9i/]$ to him1 & :i* div9e grace support$ 9 8 s\l4 ,s mu* did he1 on "o ( ! mo/ try+ occasions ( life1 manife/ ( ! temp] ( a glorifi$ sa9t1 & to su* happy purposes did he reta9 ^? lessons ( submission to ,god1 & acquiesc5ce 9 him1 :i* ,i rememb] he once inculcat$ 9 a lett] he wrote to a lady ( quality "u ! appreh5sion ( a brea* 9 h] family ) :i* ,provid5ce seem$ to ?reat5 h]1 :i* ,i am will+ to ins]t "h1 ?\gh a little out ( :at might seem its mo/ prop] place r ?an entirely to omit x4 ,x is dat$ f ,london1 ,june #af1 #agbb1 :51 speak+ ( ! dang]\s illness ( a de> relative1 he has ^! words3 ,:5 my m9d runs hi!r1 t is1 to ,god1 z its refuge & /rong def5ce1 7z ! connection pla9ly det]m9es x17 ,i ?9k ,i c be> any ?+1 ! loss ( all1 ! loss ( heal?1 ( relations1 on :om ,i dep5d1 & :om ,i love1 all t is de> to me1 )\t rep9+ or murmur+4 ,:5 ,i ?9k t ,god ord]s1 disposes1 & manages all ?+s accord+ to ! c\nsel ( 8 own w2 :5 ,i ?9k ( ! ext5t ( 8 provid5ce1 t x rea*es to ! m9ute/ ?+s2 !n1 ?\gh a useful fri5d or de> relative be snat*$ away by dea?1 ,i recall myself1 & *eck my ?\ghts ) ^! consid]ations3 ,is he n ,god f ev]la/+1 & to ev]la/+8 ,& has he n promis$ to be a ,god to me8--a ,god 9 all 8 attributes1 a ,god 9 all 8 p]sons1 a ,god 9 all 8 creatures & provid5ces8 ,& %all ,i d>e to say1 ,:at %all ,i d8 ,0 n he ! inf9ite cause ( all ,i met ) 9 ! creatures8 ,& 7 n !y ! f9ite effects ( 8 inf9ite love & k9dness8 ,i h daily exp]i5c$ t ! in/rum5t 01 & is1 :at ,god makes x to be2 & ,i "k t ?is ',god ha? ! he>ts ( all m5 9 8 h&s1 & ! e>? is ! ,"l's1 & ! fulness !re(4' ,if ?is e>? be good = me1 ,i %all h x2 = my ,fa!r ha? x all 9 possession4 ,if fav\r 9 ! eyes ( m5 be good = me1 ,i %all h x2 = ! spr+ ( e motion 9 ! he>t ( man is 9 ,god's h&4 ,my de> ---- seems n[ to be dy+2 b ,god is all-wise1 & e ?+ is done by him = ! be/4 ,%all ,i hold back any ?+ t is 8 own1 :5 he requires x8 ,no1 ,god =bid6 ,:5 ,i consid] ! excell5cy ( 8 glori\s attributes1 ,i am satisfi$ ) all 8 deal+s4 ,i p]ceive by ! introduction1 & by :at foll[s1 t mo/1 if n all ( ?is1 is a quotation f some?+ writt5 by a lady2 b :e!r f "s manuscript or pr9t$ book1 :e!r exactly transcrib$ or quot$ f memory1 ,i _c det]m9e2 & !re=e ,i ?\ght prop] to ins]t x1 z ! major 7= t 0 ! (fice he bore !n17 by ?us int]weav+ x ) 8 lett]1 makes x 8 own1 & z x seems to express 9 a v lively mann] ! pr9ciples :i* bore him on to a conduct s truly great & h]oic1 9 circum/ances t h ov]:elm$ _m a he>t t c\ld h fac$ dang] & dea? ) ! greate/ intrepidity4 ,i return n[ to consid] 8 "* 9 ! dome/ic relation ( a ma/]1 on :i* ,i %all n enl>ge4 ,x is1 h[ev]1 prop] to rem>k1 t z 8 habitual meekness & comm& ( 8 passions prev5t$ indec5t sallies ( ungov]n$ ang] t[>ds ^? 9 ! l[e/ /ate ( subjection to him1 by :i* "s 9 high life d /rangely debase !mselves1 & lose mu* ( _! au?ority1 s ! natural greatness ( 8 m9d made him solicit\s to r5d] _! inf]ior /ations z easy z he c\ld3 & s mu* ! r1 because he consid]$ all ! *ildr5 ( ,adam z /&+ ^u a level be=e _! great ,creator1 & _h also a deep] s5se ( ! dignity & wor? ( e immortal s\l1 h[ meanly soev] x might *ance to be lodg$1 ?an mo/ p]sons ,i h kn[n4 ,?is engag$ him to give 8 s]vants frequ5t religi\s exhortations & in/ructions1 z ,i h be5 assur$ by sev]al :o 7 s happy z to live ) him "u t "*4 ,"o ( 8 fir/ lett]s1 aft] he ent]$ on 8 ,*ri/ian c\rse1 expresses ! same disposition2 9 :i*1 ) great t5d]ness1 he recomm5ds a s]vant1 :o 0 9 a bad /ate ( heal?1 to 8 "m's c>e1 z he 0 well acqua9t$ ) h] condesc5d+ temp]2 m5tion+ at ! same "t1 ! endeav\rs he _h us$ to promote 8 prep>ations = a bett] _w1 "u an appreh5sion t he w\ld n cont9ue long 9 ?is4 ,we %all h an affect+ in/ance ( ! preval5ce ( ! same disposition 9 ! clos+ sc5e ( 8 life1 & inde$ 9 ! la/ words he ev] spoke1 :i* express$ 8 g5]\s solicitude = ! safety ( a fai?ful s]vant :o 0 !n ne> him4 ,,*apt] ,,viii4 ,,conduct ,,z ,,an ,,(fic]4 ,z x 0 a few ye>s aft] 8 m>riage t he 0 promot$ to ! rank ( lieut5ant-colonel1 9 :i* he cont9u$ till he _h a regim5t ( 8 own1 ,i %all1 = ! future1 speak ( him by t title2 & ,i may n1 p]haps1 f9d any m prop] place 9 :i* to m5tion :at x is prop] = me to say ( 8 behavi\r & conduct z an (fic]4 ,i %all n "h enl>ge ^u 8 brav]y 9 ! field1 ?\gh1 z ,i h he>d f o!rs1 t 0 v rem>kable--,i say f o!rs1 = ,i nev] he>d any ?+ ( ! k9d f himself1 nor knew1 till aft] 8 dea?1 t he 0 pres5t at almo/ e battle t 0 f\ght 9 ,fl&]s :ile ! illu/ri\s ,duke ( ,m>lbor\gh comm&$ ! alli$ army !re4 ,i h also be5 assur$ f sev]al v cr$ible p]sons1 "s ( :om 7 eye-witnesses1 t at ! skirmi% ) ! rebels at ,pre/on 9 ,lanca%ire1 7?irty ye>s be=e t engagem5t at ! o!r ,pre/on :i* depriv$ u ( ?is gallant gu>dian ( 8 c\ntry17 he signaliz$ himself v p>ticul>ly2 = he head$ a small body ( m51 ,i ?9k ab\t twelve1 & set fire to ! b>ricado ( ! rebels1 9 ! face ( _! :ole army1 :ile !y 7 p\r+ 9 _! %ot1 by :i* eight ( ! twelve t att5d$ him fell4 ,?is 0 ! la/ action ( ! k9d 9 :i* he 0 engag$ be=e ! long peace :i* ensu$2 & :o c express h[ happy x 0 = him1 & inde$ = 8 c\ntry1 ( :i* he 0 ev] s m9dful1 & 9 8 latt] ye>s s important a fri5d1 t he did n !n fall1 :5 ! pr(an5ess :i* m+l$ itself ) ?is m>tial rage seem$ to r5d ! heav5s1 & %ock$ "s o!r milit>y g5tlem5 :o 7 n v rem>kable = _! caution 9 ?is respect4 ,b ,i insi/ n on ?+s ( ?is nature1 :i* ! true greatness ( 8 s\l w\ld h>dly ev] p]mit him to m5tion1 unless :5 x t5d$ to illu/rate ! div9e c>e ov] him 9 ^! extremities ( dang]1 & ! grace ( ,god 9 call+ him f s ab&on$ a /ate4 ,x is well kn[n t ! "* ( an (fic] is n to be approv$ 9 ! day ( combat only4 ,colonel ,g>d9] 0 truly s5sible t e day br\ght its duties along ) x1 & he 0 con/antly c>eful t no pret5ce ( amusem5t1 fri5d%ip1 or ev5 devotion itself1 might prev5t _! be+ prop]ly dis*>g$4 ,i d\bt n t ! noble p]sons 9 ^: regim5ts he 0 lieut5ant-colonel1 w always be ready to be> an hon\rable & grateful te/imony to 8 exempl>y dilig5ce & fidelity 9 all t relat$ to ! c>e ( ! troops ov] :i* he 0 set1 :e!r 9 reg>d to ! m5 or ! horses4 ,he knew t x is incumb5t on ^? :o h ! hon\r ( presid+ ov] o!rs1 :e!r 9 civil1 ecclesia/ical1 or milit>y (fices1 n to cont5t !mselves ) do+ only s mu* z may pres]ve !m f ! reproa* ( gross & visible neglect2 b s]i\sly to consid] h[ mu* !y c possibly d )\t go+ out ( _! prop] sph]e1 to s]ve ! public1 by ! due inspection ( ^? committ$ to _! c>e4 ,! duties ( ! closet & ( ! sanctu>y 7 s adju/$ z n to int]f]e ) ^? ( ! p>ade1 or any o!r place :]e ! welf>e ( ! regim5t call$ him4 ,on ! o!r h&1 he 0 solicit\s n to suff] ^! ?+s to int]f]e ) religion1 a due att5dance on :i* he appreh5d$ to be ! sure/ me?od ( atta9+ all desirable success 9 e o!r int]e/ & conc]n 9 life4 ,he !re=e abhorr$ e ?+ t look$ l a contrivance to keep 8 soldi]s employ$ ) _! horses & _! arms at ! seasons ( public wor%ip--an indec5cy :i* ,i wi% !re 7 no room to m5tion4 ,f> f t1 he us$ to h !m drawn up j be=e x began1 & f ! p>ade !y w5t (f to ! h\se ( ,god4 ,he und]/ood ! rights ( consci5ce too well to impose 8 own p>ticul> pr(ession 9 religion on o!rs1 or to treat ^? :o diff]$ f him 9 ! *oice ( its modes1 ! less k9dly or respectfully on t acc\nt4 ,b z mo/ ( 8 own company1 & _m ( ! re/1 *ose 7:5 9 ,engl&7 to att5d him to ! diss5t+ *apel1 he us$ to m>* !m up ?i!r 9 due "t1 s z to be !re be=e ! wor%ip began4 ,& ,i mu/ d !m ! ju/ice to say1 t s f> z ,i c\ld ev] disc]n1 :5 ,i h se5 !m 9 l>ge numb]s be=e me1 !y behav$ ) z mu* rev]5ce1 gravity1 & decorum1 dur+ ! "t ( div9e s]vice1 z any ( ! wor%ipp]s4 ,t 8 rem>kable c>e to ma9ta9 good discipl9e among !m 7( :i* we %all aft]w>ds speak7 might be ! m effectual1 he made himself on all prop] occasions accessible to !m1 & express$ a great conc]n = _! int]e/s1 :i*1 be+ g5u9e & s9c]e1 naturally discov]$ itself 9 a v>iety ( in/ances4 ,i rememb] ,i _h once occasion to visit "o ( 8 dragoons 9 8 la/ illness at ,h>bor\gh1 & ,i f\nd ! man ^u ! bord]s ( et]nity--a circum/ance :i*1 z he appreh5d$ himself1 mu/ add "s peculi> weight & cr$ibility to 8 disc\rse4 ,he !n told me1 9 8 colonel's abs5ce1 t he que/ion$ n t he %\ld h ev]la/+ reason to bless ,god on ,colonel ,g>d9]'s acc\nt1 = he _h be5 a fa!r to him 9 all 8 int]e/s1 bo? temporal & spiritual4 ,he add$1 t he _h visit$ him1 almo/ e day dur+ 8 illness1 ) religi\s advice & in/ruction1 & _h also tak5 c>e t he %\ld want = no?+ t might conduct to ! recov]y ( 8 heal?4 ,he did n speak ( ?is z ! result ( any p>ticul> atta*m5t to him1 b z ! mann] 9 :i* he 0 accu/om$ to treat ^? "u 8 comm&4 ,x is no wond] t ?is engag$ _! affection to a v great degree2 & ,i d\bt n t if he _h f\ght ! fatal battle ( ,pre/onpans at ! head ( t gallant regim5t ( :i* he _h ! c>e = s _m ye>s1 & :i* is all[$ by mo/ unexceptionable judges to be "o ( ! f9e/ 9 ! ,briti% s]vice1 & consequ5tly 9 ! _w1 he _h be5 support$ 9 a mu* diff]5t mann]1 & _h f\nd a mu* great] numb] :o w\ld h rejoic$ 9 an opportunity ( mak+ _! own brea/s a b>ri] 9 ! def5ce ( 84 ,x c\ld n b greatly ende> him to 8 soldi]s1 t s f> z pref]m5ts lay 9 8 p[]1 or 7 "u 8 influ5ce1 !y 7 di/ribut$ accord+ to m]it4 ,?is he knew to be z mu* ! dictate ( prud5ce z equity4 ,i f9d f "o ( 8 lett]s be=e me1 dat$ b a few mon?s aft] 8 conv]sion1 t he 0 solicit$ to use 8 int]e/ ) ! ,e>l ( ,/air 9 fav\r ( "o :om he judg$ a v wor?y p]son2 & t x _h be5 sugge/$ by ano!r1 :o recomm5d$ him1 t if he s succe$$1 he might expect "s h&some ackn[l$gm5t4 ,b he answ]s ) "s degree ( indignation1 ,d y imag9e ,i am to be brib$ to d ju/ice8 ,= su* x seems he e/eem$ x1 to conf] ! fav\r :i* 0 ask$ f him on "o s des]v+4 ,no?+ c m effectually t5d to humble ! enemies ( a /ate1 ?an t su* maxims %\ld univ]sally prevail 9 x2 & if !y d n prevail1 ! wor?ie/ m5 9 an army or a fleet may s9k "u repeat$ disc\ragem5ts1 & ! base/ exalt$1 to ! infamy ( ! public1 & p]haps to its ru94 ,9 ! mid/ ( all ! g5tl5ess :i* ,colonel ,g>d9] ex]cis$ t[>ds 8 soldi]s1 he made x v app>5t t he knew h[ to reconcile ! t5d]ness ( a really fai?ful & condesc5d+ fri5d ) ! au?ority ( a comm&]4 ,p]haps h>dly any ?+ conduc$ m g5]ally to ! ma9ta9+ ( ?is au?ority1 ?an ! /rict decorum & good mann]s ) :i* he treat$ ev5 ! private g5tlem5 ( 8 regim5t2 :i* has always a great efficacy 9 keep+ inf]iors at a prop] di/ance1 & =bids1 9 ! lea/ (f5sive mann]1 famili>ities :i* degrade ! sup]ior1 & en]vate 8 influ5ce4 ,! calmness & /ead9ess ( 8 behavi\r on all occasions also greatly t5d$ to ! same purpose4 ,he knew h[ mean a man looks 9 ! transports ( passion1 & w\ld n use s mu* fre$om ) _m ( 8 m5 z to fall into su* transports be=e !m1 well kn[+ t p]sons 9 ! l[e/ rank ( life are aw>e h[ unfit !y are to gov]n o!rs1 :o _c gov]n !mselves4 ,he 0 also s5sible h[ necess>y x is 9 all :o preside ov] o!rs1 & especially 9 milit>y (fic]s1 to *eck irregul>ities :5 !y fir/ beg9 to appe>2 &1 t he might be able to d s1 he kept a /rict inspection ov] 8 soldi]s2 9 :i* x 0 obs]v$1 t z he g5]ally *ose to reside among !m z mu* z he c\ld1 7?\gh 9 circum/ances :i* sometimes occasion$ him to d5y himself 9 "s int]e/s :i* 7 v de> to him17 s1 :5 !y 7 ar\nd him1 he seldom /aid long 9 a place2 b 0 frequ5tly walk+ ! /reets1 & look+ into _! qu>t]s & /ables1 z well z review+ & ex]cis+ !m himself4 ,x has (t5 be5 obs]v$ t ! regim5t to :i* he 0 s _m ye>s lieut5ant-colonel1 0 "o ( ! mo/ regul> & ord]ly regim5ts 9 ! public s]vice1 s t p]haps none ( our dragoons 7 m welcome to ! t[ns :]e _! "* 0 kn[n4 ,yet no su* bodies ( m5 are s blameless 9 _! conduct b some?+ w be f\nd1 especially among su* consid]able numb]s1 wor?y ( c5sure1 & sometimes ( puni%m5t4 ,?is ,colonel ,g>d9] knew h[ to inflict ) a becom+ resolution1 & ) all ! sev]ity :i* he judg$ necess>y--a sev]ity ! m awful & impressive1 z x 0 already att5d$ ) meekness2 = he well knew t :5 ?+s are done 9 a passion1 x seems only an accid5tal circum/ance t !y are acts ( ju/ice1 & t su* indec5cies greatly ob/ruct ! ends ( puni%m5t1 bo? z to re=m+ (f5d]s1 & to det]r+ o!rs f an imitation ( _! faults4 ,"o in/ance ( 8 conduct1 :i* happ5$ at ,leice/]1 & :i* 0 relat$ by ! p]son *iefly conc]n$ to a wor?y fri5d f :om ,i _h x1 ,i _c =be> ins]t+4 ,:ile "p ( ! regim5t 0 encamp$ 9 ! neighb\rhood ( t place1 ! colonel w5t incognito to ! camp 9 ! middle ( ! night2 = he sometimes lodg$ at 8 qu>t]s 9 ! t[n4 ,"o ( ! s5t9els !n on duty _h ab&on$ 8 po/1 &1 on be+ seiz$1 broke out into "s oa?s & pr(ane execrations aga9/ ^? t discov]$ him--a crime ( :i* ! colonel _h ! greate/ abhorr5ce1 & on :i* he nev] fail$ to animadv]t4 ,! man aft]w>ds appe>$ mu* a%am$ & conc]n$ = :at he _h done4 ,b ! colonel ord]$ him to be br\ght e>ly ! next morn+ to 8 own qu>t]s1 :]e he _h prep>$ a picket1 on :i* he appo9t$ him a private sort ( p5ance2 & :ile he 0 put ^u x1 he disc\rs$ ) him s]i\sly & t5d]ly ^u ! evils & aggravations ( 8 fault1 admoni%$ him ( ! div9e displeasure :i* he _h incurr$1 & urg$ him to argue1 f ! pa9 :i* he !n felt1 h[ inf9itely m dreadful x mu/ be to fall into ! h&s ( ! liv+ ,god1 &1 inde$1 to meet ! t]rors ( t damnation :i* he _h be5 accu/om$ impi\sly to call = on himself & 8 companions4 ,! result ( ?is proce$+ 01 t ! (f5d] accept$ 8 puni%m5t1 n only ) submission1 b ) ?ankfulness4 ,he w5t away ) a m cordial affection = 8 colonel ?an he ev] _h be=e1 & spoke ( ! circum/ance "s ye>s aft] to my fri5d1 9 su* a mann] t !re seem$ reason to hope x _h be5 in/rum5tal 9 produc+ a *ange n only 9 8 life1 b 9 8 he>t4 ,!re _c1 ,i ?9k1 be a m prop] place = m5tion+ ! great rev]5ce ?is excell5t (fic] always express$ = ! "n ( ! bless$ ,god1 & ! zeal ) :i* he endeav\r$ to suppress1 & if possible to extirpate1 t dete/able s9 ( swe>+ & curs+ :i* is e :]e s common1 & especially among our milit>y m54 ,he (t5 decl>$1 at ! head ( 8 regim5t1 8 s5tim5ts ) respect to ?is enormity1 & urg$ 8 capta9s & _! subalt]ns to take ! greate/ c>e t !y did n give ! sanction ( _! example to t :i* by _! (fice !y 7 oblig$ to puni% 9 o!rs4 ,inde$ 8 zeal on ^! occasions wr\ght 9 a v active1 & sometimes 9 a rem>kably successful mann]1 n only among 8 equals1 b sometimes among 8 sup]iors too4 ,an in/ance ( ?is 9 ,fl&]s ,i %all h an opportunity h]eaft] to produce2 at pres5t ,i %all only m5tion 8 conduct 9 ,scotl& a little be=e 8 dea?1 z ,i h x f a v valuable "y m9i/] ( t c\ntry1 on ^: te/imony ,i c ?or\ghly dep5d2 & ,i wi% x may excite _m to imitation4 ',! comm&+ (fic] ( ! k+'s =ces !n ab\t ,ed9burgh1 ) ! o!r colonels1 & sev]al o!r g5tlem5 ( rank 9 _! respective regim5ts1 fav\r$ him ) _! company at ,bankton1 & took d9n] ) him4 ,he too well =esaw :at might happ5 amid su* a v>iety ( temp]s & *>act]s2 & fe>+ le/ 8 consci5ce might h be5 ensn>$ by a s9ful sil5ce1 or t1 on ! o!r h&1 he might seem to pass ! b\nds ( dec5cy1 & infr+e ^u ! laws ( hospitality by animadv]t+ on gue/s s ju/ly entitl$ to 8 reg>d1 he happily det]m9$ on ! foll[+ me?od ( avoid+ ea* ( ^! difficulties4 ,z soon z !y 7 come toge!r1 he address$ !m ) a great deal ( respect1 & at ! same "t ) a v frank & det]m9$ air1 tell+ !m t he _h ! hon\r 9 t di/rict to be a ju/ice ( ! peace1 & consequ5tly t he 0 sworn to put ! law 9 execution1 &1 among ! re/1 ^? aga9/ swe>+2 t he c\ld n execute !m ^u o!rs ) any confid5ce1 or by any means approve himself a man ( imp>tiality & integrity to 8 own he>t1 if he suff]$ !m to be brok5 9 8 pres5ce by p]sons ( any rank :atsoev]2 & t !re=e he entreat$ all ! g5tlem5 :o !n hon\r$ him ) _! company t !y w\ld please to be ^u _! gu>d1 & t if any oa? or curse %\ld escape !m1 he hop$ !y w\ld consid] 8 legal animadv]sion ^u x z a reg>d to ! duties ( 8 (fice & ! dictates ( 8 consci5ce1 & n z ow+ to any want ( def]5ce to !m4 ,! comm&+ (fic] imm$iately support$ him 9 ?is decl>ation1 z entirely becom+ ! /ation 9 :i* he 01 assur+ him t he w\ld be ready to pay ! p5alty1 if he inadv]t5tly transgress$2 & :5 ,colonel ,g>d9] on any occasion /epp$ out ( ! room1 he himself und]took to be ! gu>dian ( ! law 9 8 abs5ce2 & z "o ( ! inf]ior (fic]s (f5d$ dur+ ?is "t1 he in=m$ ! colonel1 s t ! f9e 0 exact$ & giv5 to ! poor199 ) ! univ]sal approbation ( ! company4 ,! /ory spread 9 ! neighb\rhood1 & 0 p]haps applaud$ highly by _m :o want$ ! c\rage to g & d likewise4 ,b x may be said1 ) ! utmo/ propriety1 ( ! wor?y p]son ( :om ,i write1 t he fe>$ ! face ( no man liv+ :]e ! hon\r ( ,god 0 conc]n$4 ,9 all su* cases he might be ju/ly said1 9 ,scripture phrase1 to set 8 face l a fl9t2 & ,i assur$ly believe1 t _h he be5 9 ! pres5ce ( a sov]eign pr9ce :o _h be5 guilty ( ?is fault1 8 looks at lea/ w\ld h te/ifi$ 8 grief & surprise1 if he _h appreh5d$ x unfit to h borne 8 te/imony 9 any o!r way4 99,note3 ,x is obs]vable t ! money :i* 0 =feit$ on ?is acc\nt by 8 own (fic]s1 :om he nev] sp>$1 or by any o!rs ( 8 soldi]s :o r *ose to pay ?an submit to corporal puni%m5t1 01 by ! colonel's ord]1 laid by 9 a bank till "s ( ! private m5 fell sick1 & !n x 0 laid out 9 provid+ !m ) prop] help & accommodations 9 _! di/ress4 ,"l ,cadogan's regim5t ( dragoons1 dur+ ! "t he 0 lieut5ant-colonel ( x1 0 qu>t]$ 9 a v>iety ( places1 bo? 9 ,engl& & ,scotl&1 f _m ( :i* ,i h lett]s be=e me2 p>ticul>ly f ,hamilton1 ,ayr1 ,c>lisle1 ,h]e=d1 ,maid5head1 ,leice/]1 ,w>wick1 ,cov5try1 ,/am=d1 ,h>bor\gh1 ,nor?ampton1 & sev]al o!r places1 especially 9 our inl& p>ts4 ,! natural consequ5ce 01 t ! colonel1 ^: "* 0 on _m acc\nts s v rem>kable1 _h a v ext5sive acqua9tance2 & ,i believe ,i may c]ta9ly say1 t :]ev] he 0 kn[n by p]sons ( wisdom & wor?1 he 0 proportionably respect$1 & left beh9d him traces ( unaffect$ devotion1 humility1 b5evol5ce1 & zeal = ! support & advancem5t ( religion & virtue4 ,! equable t5or ( 8 m9d 9 ^! respects is illu/rat$ by 8 lett]s f sev]al ( ^! places2 & ?\gh ,i h b comp>atively a small numb] ( !m n[ 9 my h&s1 yet !y w af=d "s valuable extracts2 :i* ,i %all !re=e "h lay be=e my read]1 t he may ! bett] judge z to ! colonel's real "* 9 p>ticul>s :i* ,i h already m5tion$1 or :i* may h]eaft] occur4 ,9 a lett] to 8 lady1 dat$ f ,c>lisle1 ,novemb] #ai1 #agch1 :5 he 0 on 8 j\rney to ,h]e=d%ire1 he brea!s out 8 grateful1 *e]ful s\l 9 ^! words3 ,i bless ,god ,i 0 nev] bett] 9 my lifetime1 & ,i wi% ,i c\ld be s happy z to he> ! same ( y3 or r1 9 o!r words1 to he> t y h obta9$ an entire tru/ 9 ,god4 ,t w\ld infallibly keep y 9 p]fect peace1 = ! ,god ( tru? has promis$ x4 ,oh1 h[ ought we to be long+ 'to be ) ,*ri/1' :i* is inf9itely bett] ?an any ?+ we c propose "h6 to be !re1 :]e no m\nta9s %all sep>ate betwe5 ,god & our s\ls4 ,& ,i hope x w be "s addition to our happ9ess1 t1 y & ,i %all be sep>at$ no m2 b t z we h jo9$ 9 s++ ! praises ( our glori\s ,r$eem] "h1 we %all s+ !m 9 a mu* high] key ?r\gh an endless et]nity4 ,oh et]nity1 et]nity6 ,:at a wond]ful ?\ght1 is et]nity6 ,f ,leice/]1 ,augu/ #f1 #agci1 he writes ?us to 8 lady3 ,ye/]day ,i 0 at ! ,"l's table1 :]e y & ! *ildr5 7 n =gott54 ,b h[ wond]fully 0 ,i assi/$ :5 ,i came home1 to plead = y all ) _m te>s4 ,& !n1 speak+ ( "s intimate fri5ds :o 7 impati5t1 7z ,i suppose by ! connection7 = 8 return to !m1 he takes occasion to obs]ve ! necessity ( endeav\r+ to compose our m9ds1 & say ) ! ,psalmi/1 ,my s\l1 wait ?\ only ^u ,god4 ,aft]w>ds1 speak+ ( "o ( 8 *ildr51 :o he he>d _h made a comm5dable progress 9 le>n+1 he expresses 8 satisfaction1 & adds2 ,b1 h[ mu* great] joy w\ld x give me to he> t he 0 greatly advanc$ 9 ! s*ool ( ,*ri/6 ,oh t our *ildr5 may b be wise unto salvation1 & may gr[ 9 grace z !y d 9 /ature6 ,^! lett]s1 :i* to s famili> a fri5d evid5tly lay op5 ! he>t1 & %[ ! ideas & affections :i* 7 lodg$ deepe/ !re1 are sometimes tak5 up ) an acc\nt ( s]mons he _h att5d$1 & ! impression !y _h made ^u 8 m9d4 ,i %all m5tion only "o1 z a specim5 ( _m m1 :i* 0 dat$ f a place call$ ,cohorn1 ,april #ae3 ,we _h "h a m9i/] f ,wales1 :o gave u two excell5t disc\rses on ! love ( ,*ri/ to u1 z an argum5t to engage our love to him4 ,& inde$1 next to ! greatness ( 8 love to u1 me?9ks !re is no?+ s a/oni%+ z ! coldness ( our love to him4 ,oh t he w\ld %$ abroad 8 love ^u our he>ts by 8 ,holy ,_s1 t ours might be k9dl$ into a flame6 ,may ,god enable y to tru/ 9 ,him1 & !n y w be kept 9 p]fect peace6 ,we h met ) _m traces ( t habitual gratitude to ! bless$ ,god1 z 8 ,heav5ly ,fa!r & con/ant fri5d1 :i* made 8 life probably "o ( ! happie/ t ev] 0 sp5t on e>?4 ,i _c omit "o m1 :i* appe>s to me ! m wor?y ( notice1 z be+ a %ort turn 9 z ha/y a lett] z any ,i rememb] to h se5 ( 81 :i* he wrote f ,leice/] 9 ,june1 #agci4 ,i am n[ "u ! deepe/ s5se ( ! _m fav\rs ! ,almighty has be/[$ ^u me4 ,surely y w help me to celebrate ! praises ( our graci\s ,god & k9d b5efactor4 ,?is exub]ance ( grateful affection1 :i*1 :ile x 0 almo/ e h\r p\r+ itself =? be=e ,god 9 ! mo/ g5u9e & emphatical language1 felt itself /ill z x 7 /rait5$ = want ( a suffici5t v5t1 & !re=e call$ on o!rs to help him ) _! concurr5t praises1 appe>s to me ! mo/ glori\s & happy /ate 9 :i* a human s\l c f9d itself on ?is side heav54 ,su* 0 ! temp] :i* ?is excell5t man appe>s to h c>ri$ along ) him ?r\gh su* a v>iety ( places & circum/ances2 & ! :ole ( 8 deportm5t 0 suitable to ^! impressions4 ,/rang]s 7 agreeably /ruck ) 8 fir/ appe>ance1 !re be+ mu* ( ! ,*ri/ian1 ! well-br$ man1 & ! univ]sal fri5d 9 x2 & z !y came m intimately to "k him1 !y discov]$ m & m ! uni=mity & consi/5cy ( 8 :ole temp] & behavi\r2 s t :e!r he made only a visit = a few days to any place1 or cont9u$ !re = _m weeks or mon?s1 he 0 always belov$ & e/eem$1 & spok5 ( ) t hon\rable te/imony1 f p]sons ( ! mo/ diff]5t d5om9ations & p>ties1 :i* no?+ b true /]l+ wor?1 7if ,i may be all[$ ! expression17 & t 9 an em95t degree1 c secure4 ,,*apt] ,,ix4 ,,intimacy ,,) ,,! ,,au?or4 ,( ! ju/ice ( ?is te/imony1 :i* ,i _h s (t5 he>d f a v>iety ( p]sons1 ,i myself began to be a witness ab\t ! "t :5 ! la/ m5tion$ lett] 0 dat$4 ,9 ?is view1 ,i believe ,i %all nev] =get t happy day1 ,june #ah1 #agci1 :5 ,i fir/ met him at ,leice/]4 ,i rememb] ,i happ5$ t day to prea* a lecture f ,psalm cxix1 #aeh1 ,i beheld ! transgressions1 & 0 griev$ because !y kept n ?y law4 ,i 0 l>ge 9 describ+ t mixture ( indignation & grief 7/rongly express$ by ! orig9al words !re7 ) :i* a good man looks on ! d>+ transgressors ( ! div9e law2 & 9 trac+ ! causes ( t grief1 z aris+ f a reg>d to ! div9e hon\r1 & ! int]e/ ( a ,r$eem]1 & a compassionate conc]n = ! mis]y :i* su* (f5d]s br+ on !mselves1 & = ! mis*ief !y d to ! _w ab\t !m1 ,i little ?\ght1 h[ exactly ,i 0 draw+ ,colonel ,g>d9]'s "* "u ea* ( ^? heads2 & ,i h (t5 reflect$ ^u x z a happy provid5ce :i* op5$ a mu* spe$i] way ?an ,i c\ld h expect$ to ! brea/ ( "o ( ! mo/ amiable & useful fri5ds :om ,i ev] expect to f9d ^u e>?4 ,we aft]w>ds sang a hymn :i* br\ght ov] aga9 "s ( ! lead+ ?\ghts 9 ! s]mon & /ruck him s /rongly1 t on obta9+ a copy ( x1 he committ$ x to memory1 & us$ to repeat x1 ) s =cible an acc5t z %[$ h[ mu* e l9e express$ 8 v s\l4 ,9 ?is view ! read] w p>don my ins]t+ x1 especially z ,i "k n :5 ,i may get "t to publi% a volume ( ^! s]i\s ?\gh artless compositions1 :i* ,i s5t him 9 manuscript "s ye>s ago1 & to :i* ,i h s9ce made v l>ge additions3 ,arise1 my t5d]e/ ?\ghts arise1 ,to torr5ts melt my /ream+ eyes6 ,& ?\1 my he>t1 ) angui% feel ,^? evils :i* ?\ can/ n heal6 ,see human nature sunk 9 %ame6 ,see sc&al p\r$ on ,jesus' "n6 ,! ,fa!r w\nd$ ?r\gh ! ,son6 ,! _w abus$--! s\l undone6 ,see ! %ort c\rse ( va9 delight ,clos+ 9 ev]la/+ night6 ,9 flames t no abatem5t "k1 ,! br9y te>s = ev] fl[4 ,my ,god1 ,i feel ! m\rnful sc5e2 ,my b[els ye>n o'er dy+ m53 ,& fa9 my pity w\ld reclaim1 ,& snat* ! firebr&s f ! flame4 ,b feeble my compassion proves1 ,& c b weep :]e mo/ x loves2 ,?9e own all-sav+ arm employ1 ,& turn ^! drops ( grief to joy6 ,! colonel1 imm$iately aft] ! conclusion ( ! s]vice1 met me 9 ! ve/ry & embrac$ me 9 ! mo/ oblig+ & affectionate mann]1 z if !re _h be5 a long fri5d%ip betwe5 u1 assur$ me t he _h = "s ye>s be5 intimately acqua9t$ ) my writ+s1 & desir$ t we might conc]t measures = sp5d+ "s h\rs toge!r be=e ,i left ! t[n4 ,i 0 s happy z to be able to secure an opportunity ( do+ x2 & ,i mu/ leave ^u record1 t ,i _c recollect ,i 0 ev] equally edifi$ by any conv]sation ,i rememb] to h enjoy$4 ,we pass$ t ev5+ & ! next morn+ toge!r1 & x is impossible = me to describe ! impression :i* ! int]view left ^u my he>t4 ,i rode alone all ! rema9d] ( ! day2 & x 0 my unspeakable happ9ess t ,i 0 alone1 s9ce ,i c\ld no long] be ) him2 = ,i c h>dly conceive :at o!r company w\ld n !n h be5 an encumbrance4 ,! views :i* he gave me ev5 !n1 7= he began to repose a mo/ oblig+ confid5ce 9 me1 ?\gh he conceal$ "s ( ! mo/ extraord9>y circum/ances ( ! me?ods by :i* he _h be5 recov]$ to ,god & happ9ess17 ) ^? cordial s5tim5ts ( evangelical piety & ext5sive goodness :i* he p\r$ out into my bosom ) s ende>+ a fre$om1 fir$ my v s\l2 & ,i hope ,i may truly say 7:i* ,i wi% & pray t _m ( my read]s may also adopt = !mselves7 t ,i glorifi$ ,god 9 him4 ,our epi/olatory correspond5ce imm$iately comm5c$ ^u my return2 & ?\gh1 ?r\gh ! multiplicity ( bus9ess on bo? sides1 x suff]$ _m int]ruptions1 x 0 9 "s degree ! bless+ ( all ! foll[+ ye>s ( my life1 till he fell by ^? unreasonable & wick$ m5 :o _h x 9 _! he>ts ) him to h de/roy$ all our glory1 def5ce1 & happ9ess4 ,! fir/ lett] ,i receiv$ f him 0 s rem>kable1 t "s p]sons ( em95t piety1 to :om ,i communicat$ x1 w\ld n be cont5t )\t copy+ x out1 or mak+ "s extracts f x4 ,i p]suade myself t my dev\t read] w n be displeas$ t ,i ins]t ! great] "p ( x "h1 especially z x s]ves to illu/rate ! affectionate s5se :i* he _h ( ! div9e goodness 9 8 conv]sion1 ?\gh m ?an tw5ty ye>s _h pass$ s9ce t memorable ev5t happ5$4 ,hav+ already m5tion$ my ev] de> & hon\r$ fri5d ,dr4 ,isaac ,watts1 he adds3 ,i h be5 9 pa9 ^! sev]al ye>s le/ t excell5t p]son1 t sweet s+] 9 our ,israel1 %\ld h be5 call$ to heav5 be=e ,i _h an opportunity ( lett+ him "k h[ mu* 8 works h be5 bless$ to me1 &1 ( c\rse1 return+ him my he>ty ?anks2 = ?\gh x is ow+ to ! op]ation ( ! bless$ ,_s1 t any ?+ works effectually ^u our he>ts1 yet if we are n ?ankful to ! in/rum5t :i* ,god is pleas$ to make use (1 :om we d see1 h[ %all we be ?ankful to ! ,almighty1 :om we h n se58 ,i desire to bless ,god = ! good news ( 8 recov]y1 & entreat y to tell him1 t al?\gh ,i _c keep pace ) him "h 9 celebrat+ ! high praises ( our glori\s ,r$eem]1 :i* is ! greate/ grief ( my he>t1 yet ,i am p]suad$1 t1 :5 ,i jo9 ! glori\s company above1 :]e !re w be no drawbacks1 none w outs+ me !re1 because ,i %all n f9d any t w be m indebt$ to ! wond]ful ri*es ( div9e grace ?an ,i4 ,give me a place at ?y sa9ts' feet1 ,on "s fall5 angel's vacant seat2 ,i'll /rive to s+ z l\d z !y ,:o sit above 9 bright] day4 ,i "k x is natural = e "o :o has felt ! almighty p[] :i* rais$ our glori\s ,r$eem] f ! grave1 to believe 8 case s+ul>2 b ,i h made e "o 9 ?is respect submit z soon z he has he>d my /ory4 ,& if y seem$ s surpris$ at ! acc\nt :i* ,i gave y1 :at w y be :5 y he> x all8 ,oh1 if ,i _h an angel's voice1 ,& c\ld be he>d f pole to pole2 ,i w\ld to all ! li/5+ _w ,proclaim ?y goodness to my s\l4 ,he !n concludes1 aft] "s expressions ( ende>m5t1 7:i*1 ) :atev] pleasure ,i review !m1 ,i mu/ n "h ins]t7-- ,if y knew :at a natural av]sion ,i h to writ+1 y w\ld be a/oni%$ at ! l5g? ( ?is lett]1 :i* is1 ,i believe1 ! longe/ ,i ev] wrote4 ,b my he>t w>ms :5 ,i write to y1 :i* makes my p5 move ! easi]4 ,i hope x w please our graci\s ,god long to pres]ve y1 a bless$ in/rum5t 9 8 h&1 ( do+ great good 9 ! *ur* ( ,*ri/2 & t y may always enjoy a ?riv+ s\l 9 a heal?ful body1 %all be ! cont9ual pray] (1 c4 ,z our intimacy grew1 our mutual affection increas$2 & my de>e/ fri5d 0 ! =m ( address ) :i* mo/ ( 8 epi/les ( ! la/ ye>s 7 begun & end$4 ,_m ( !m are fill$ up ) 8 s5tim5ts ( ^? writ+s :i* ,i publi%$ dur+ ^! ye>s1 :i* he read ) great att5tion1 & ( :i* he speaks 9 t]ms :i* x becomes me to suppress1 & to impute1 9 a consid]able degree1 to ! k9d prejudices ( s ende>$ a fri5d%ip4 ,he gives me repeat$ assurances t he 0 daily m9dful ( me 9 8 pray]s1 a circum/ance :i* ,i _c recollect )\t ! greate/ ?ankfulness2 & ! loss ( :i* ,i %\ld m deeply lam5t1 did ,i n hope t ! happy effect ( ^! pray]s might /ill cont9ue1 & might run into all my rema9+ days4 ,x might be a pleasure to me to make sev]al extracts f _m o!rs ( 8 lett]s2 b x is a pleasure :i* ,i ought to suppress1 & r to reflect1 ) unfeign$ humility1 h[ unwor?y ,i 0 ( su* reg>ds f su* a p]son1 & ( t div9e goodness :i* gave me su* a fri5d 9 him4 ,i %all1 !re=e1 only add two g5]al rem>ks1 :i* (f] !mselves f sev]al ( 8 lett]s4 ,! "o is1 t !re is 9 "s ( !m1 z our fre$om increas$1 an agreeable ve9 ( hum\r & pleasantry1 :i* %[s h[ easy religion sat ^u him1 & h[ f> he 0 f plac+ any "p ( x 9 a gloomy melan*oly1 or /iff =mality4 ,! o!r is1 t he frequ5tly ref]s to dome/ic circum/ances1 su* z ! illness or recov]y ( my *ildr51 c41 :i* ,i am surpris$ h[ a man ( 8 ext5sive & important bus9ess c\ld s di/9ctly be> ^u 8 m9d4 ,b 8 memory 0 good1 & 8 he>t 0 yet bett]2 & 8 fri5d%ip 0 su*1 t no?+ :i* s5sibly affect$ ! he>t ( "o :om he hon\r$ ) x1 left 8 own b slightly t\*$4 ,i h all imag9able reason to believe t 9 _m in/ances 8 pray]s 7 n only (f]$ = u 9 g5]al t]ms1 b v>i$ z our p>ticul> situation requir$4 ,_m quotations might v]ify ?is2 b ,i decl9e tr\bl+ ! read] ) an enum]ation ( passages 9 :i* x 0 only ! abundance ( fri5dly sympa?y t gave ?is truly great z well z good man s cordial a conc]n4 ,aft] ?is correspond5ce1 c>ri$ on = ! space ( ab\t ?ree ye>s1 & "s int]views :i* we _h enjoy$ at diff]5t places1 he came to sp5d "s "t ) u at ,nor?ampton1 & br\ght ) him 8 lady & 8 two elde/ *ildr54 ,i _h "h an opportunity ( tak+ a mu* ne>] view ( 8 "*1 & survey+ x 9 a mu* great] v>iety ( lights ?an be=e2 & my e/eem = him increas$ 9 proportion to ^! opportunities4 ,:at ,i h writt5 ) respect to 8 conduct 9 relative life1 0 9 a great measure drawn f :at ,i n[ saw2 & ,i %all m5tion "h "s o!r po9ts 9 8 behavi\r :i* p>ticul>ly /ruck my m9d1 & likewise %all t\* on 8 s5tim5ts on "s topics ( importance :i* he freely communicat$ to me1 & :i* ,i h rem>k$ on acc\nt ( t wisdom & propriety :i* p]vad$ !m4 ,,*apt] ,x4 ,,devotion ,,& ,,*>ity4 ,!re 0 no?+ m obs]vable 9 ,colonel ,g>d9] ?an ! exempl>y gravity1 composure1 & rev]5ce ) :i* he att5d$ public wor%ip4 ,copi\s z he 0 9 8 secret devotions be=e he engag$ 9 x1 he always began !m e>ly1 s z n to be ret>d$ by !m :5 he %\ld resort to ! h\se ( ,god4 ,he1 & all 8 soldi]s :o *ose to wor%ip ) him1 7 g5]ally !re 7z ,i h already h9t$7 be=e ! s]vice began1 t ! entrance ( s _m ( !m at once might n di/urb ! congregation already engag$ 9 devotion1 & t !re might be a bett] opportunity ( br++ ! m9d to a becom+ att5tion1 & prep>+ x = conv]se ) ! ,div9e ,be+4 ,:ile acts ( wor%ip 7 go+ on1 :e!r ( pray] or s++1 he always /ood up2 & :atev] reg>d he might h = p]sons :o pass$ by him at t "t1 ?\gh x 7 to come into ! same pew1 he nev] paid any complim5t to !m2 & (t5 has he express$ 8 wond] at ! indecorum ( break+ (f our addresses to ,god to b[ to a fell[-creature1 :i* he ?\ght a mu* great] indec5cy t x w\ld be1 on a little occasion & circum/ance1 to int]rupt an address to our pr9ce4 ,dur+ ! "t ( prea*+1 8 eye 0 commonly fix$ ^u ! m9i/]1 ?\gh sometimes turn$ r\nd ^u ! auditory1 aga9/ :om1 if he obs]v$ any to trifle1 he 0 fill$ ) j indignation4 ,i h kn[n in/ances 9 :i*1 ^u mak+ ! rem>k1 he has communicat$ x to "s fri5d ( ! p]sons :o 7 guilty ( x1 t prop] application might be made to prev5t x = ! "t to come4 ,a m dev\t communicant at ! table ( ! ,"l has p]haps seldom be5 any :]e kn[n4 ,(t5 h ,i _h ! pleasure to see t manly c\nt5ance s(t5$ to all ! m>ks ( humiliation & contrition on ?is occasion2 & to disc]n1 9 spite ( all 8 ef=ts to conceal !m1 /reams ( te>s fl[+ d[n f 8 eyes1 :ile he has be5 direct+ !m to ^? memorials ( 8 ,r$eem]'s love4 ,"s :o h conv]s$ intimately ) him aft] he came f t ord9ance1 h obs]v$ a visible ab/raction f surr\nd+ objects1 by :i* !re seem$ reason to imag9e t 8 s\l 0 wrapp$ up 9 holy contemplation4 ,i p>ticul>ly rememb]1 t :5 we _h once sp5t a great "p ( ! foll[+ ,monday 9 rid+ toge!r1 he made an apology to me = be+ s abs5t z he seem$1 by tell+ me t 8 he>t 0 fl[n upw>ds1 be=e he 0 aw>e1 to ,him ':om1 n hav+ se51 he lov$2'99 & t he 0 rejoic+ 9 him ) su* unspeakable joy1 t he c\ld n hold x d[n to creature conv]se4 99,note3 ,?is allud$ to ! subject ( ! s]mon ! day be=e1 :i* 0 #a ,pet1 #a4 #h4 ,9 all ! (fices ( fri5d%ip he 0 rem>kably ready1 & _h a mo/ sweet & engag+ mann] ( p]=m+ !m1 :i* greatly height5$ ! obligations he conf]r$4 ,he seem$ n to set any high value ^u any b5efit he be/[$1 b did x )\t ! lea/ p>ade1 z a ?+ :i* 9 ^? circum/ances came ( c\rse1 :]e he _h pr(ess$ love & respect2 :i* he 0 n ov] =w>d to d1 ?\gh he treat$ /rang]s1 & ^? :o 7 mo/ 8 inf]iors1 v c\rte\sly1 & always seem$1 because he 9 tru? always 01 glad ( any opportunity ( do+ !m good4 ,he 0 p>ticul>ly zeal\s 9 v9dicat+ ! reputation ( 8 fri5ds 9 _! abs5ce2 & ?\gh ,i _c recollect t ,i _h ev] an opportunity ( imm$iately obs]v+ ?is1 z ,i d n "k t ,i ev] 0 pres5t ) him :5 any ill 0 spok5 ( o!rs at all2 yet1 by :at ,i h he>d him say ) relation to attempts to injure ! "* ( wor?y & useful m51 ,i h reason to believe t no man liv+ 0 m s5sible ( ! bas5ess & infamy1 z well z ! cruelty1 ( su* conduct4 ,he knew & despis$ ! l[ pr9ciples ( res5tm5t = unreasonable expectations disappo9t$1 ( p]sonal atta*m5t to m5 ( "s cross+ int]e/s1 ( envy1 & ( p>ty zeal1 f :5ce su* a conduct (t5 proce$s2 & he 0 p>ticul>ly (f5d$ :5 he f\nd x 7z he frequ5tly did7 9 p]sons t set up = ! greate/ patrons ( lib]ty1 virtue1 & c&\r4 ,he look$ ^u ! murd]]s ( reputation & usefulness z "s ( ! vile/ pe/s ( society1 & pla9ly %[$ on e prop] occasion t he ?\ght x ! "p ( a g5]\s1 b5evol5t & c\rage\s man to ex]t himself 9 trac+ & hunt+ d[n ! sl&]1 t ! au?ors or abettors ( x might be less capable ( mis*ief = ! future4 ,! mo/ plausible objection t ,i ev] he>d to ,colonel ,g>d9]'s "* is1 t he 0 too mu* atta*$ to "s religi\s pr9ciples1 e/abli%$ inde$ 9 ! *ur*es bo? ( ,engl& & ,scotl&1 b :i* h ( late ye>s be5 mu* disput$1 & f :i*1 x is at lea/ g5]ally suppos$1 n a few 9 bo? h ?\ght prop] to dep>t--:atev] exp$i5ts !y may h f\nd to quiet _! consci5ces1 9 subscrib+ ^? =mul>ies 9 :i* !y are pla9ly taught4 ,8 zeal 0 especially app>5t 9 opposition to ^? doctr9es :i* seem$ to d]ogate f ! div9e hon\rs ( ! ,son & ,_s ( ,god1 & f ! fre$om ( div9e grace1 ( ! reality & necessity ( its op]ations 9 ! conv]sion & salvation ( s9n]s4 ,) relation to ^! ,i mu/ obs]ve1 t x 0 8 mo/ /eadfa/ p]suasion t all ^? notions :i* repres5t our bless$ ,r$eem] & ! ,holy ,_s z m]e creatures1 or :i* set aside ! atonem5t ( ! =m]1 or ! influ5ce ( ! latt]1 sap ! v f\ndation ( ,*ri/ianity by reject+ ! mo/ glori\s doctr9es peculi> to x4 ,he _h att5tively obs]v$ 7:at inde$ is too obvi\s7 ! unhappy influ5ce :i* ! d5ial ( ^! pr9ciples (t5 has on ! "* ( m9i/]s1 & on _! success1 & 0 p]suad$ t an attempt to sub/itute t mutilat$ =m ( ,*ri/ianity :i* rema9s1 :5 ^! ess5tials ( x are tak5 away1 has prov$ "o ( ! mo/ successful me?ods :i* ! great enemy ( s\ls has ev] tak51 9 ^! latt] days1 to lead m5 by ins5sible degrees into deism1 vice1 & p]dition4 ,he also sagaci\sly obs]v$ ! artful mann] 9 :i* obnoxi\s t5ets are (t5 ma9ta9$ or ins9uat$1 ) all t mixture ( zeal & address ) :i* !y are propagat$ 9 ! _w1 ev5 by ^? :o _h mo/ solemnly pr(ess$ to believe1 & engag$ to tea* ! contr>y2 & z he really appreh5d$ t ! glory ( ,god & ! salvation ( s\ls 7 conc]n$1 8 piety & *>ity made him eag] & /r5u\s 9 oppos+ :at he judg$ to be errors ( s p]nici\s a nature4 ,yet ,i mu/ decl>e1 t1 accord+ to :at ,i h kn[n ( him1 7& ,i believe he op5$ 8 he>t on ^! topics to me ) z mu* fre$om z to any man liv+17 he 0 n ready1 ^u light suspicions1 to *>ge t5ets :i* he ?\ght s p]nici\s on any1 especially :]e he saw ! appe>ances ( a good temp] & life1 :i* he always rev]5c$ & lov$ 9 p]sons ( all s5tim5ts & pr(essions4 ,he sev]ely condemn$ causeless jeal\sies & evil surmis+s ( e k9d1 & ext5d$ t *>ity1 9 ?is respect1 bo? to cl]gy & laity1 :i* good ,bi%op ,burnet 0 s ready1 accord+ to 8 own acc\nt1 to limit to ! latt]1 ( believ+ e man good till he knew him to be bad1 & 8 notions "r till he knew !m wrong4 ,he c\ld n b be v s5sible ( ! unhappy consequ5ces :i* may foll[ on attack+ ! *>act]s ( m51 especially ( ^? :o are m9i/]s ( ! gospel2 & if1 ?r\gh a mixture ( human frailty1 f :i* ! be/ ( m51 9 ! be/ ( _! mean+s & int5tions1 are n entirely free1 he _h ev]1 9 ! w>m? ( 8 he>t1 dropp$ a ^w :i* might be injuri\s to any on t acc\nt1 7:i* ,i believe v seldom happ5$17 he w\ld gladly retract x on bett] in=mation2 & ?is 0 p]fectly agreeable to t hone/ & g5]\s frankness ( temp] 9 :i* ,i nev] knew any man :o excell$ him4 ,on ! :ole1 x 0 inde$ 8 delib]ate judgm5t t ! ,arian1 ,soc9ian1 & ,pelagian doctr9es 7 highly di%on\rable to ,god1 & dang]\s to ! s\ls ( m52 & t x 0 ! duty ( private ,*ri/ians to be greatly on _! gu>d aga9/ ^? m9i/]s by :om !y are ent]ta9$1 le/ _! m9ds %\ld be corrupt$ f ! simplicity t is 9 ,*ri/4 ,yet he s9c]ely abhorr$ ! ?\ght ( p]secution = consci5ce sake2 ( ! absurdity & iniquity ( :i*1 9 all its k9ds & degrees1 he _h z deep & rational a conviction z any man4 ,inde$ ! g5]osity ( 8 h]oic he>t c\ld h>dly be> to ?9k t ^? glori\s tru?s :i* he s cordially lov$1 & :i* he assur$ly believ$ to be capable ( su* fair support bo? f reason & ! ^w ( ,god1 %\ld be disgrac$ by me?ods ( def5ce & propagation common to ! mo/ impi\s & ridicul\s falsehoods4 ,nor did he by any means approve ( passionate & furi\s ways ( v9dicat+ ! mo/ vital & important doctr9es ( ! gospel2 = he knew t to ma9ta9 ! mo/ b5evol5t religion 9 ! _w by su* malevol5t & inf]nal me?ods 0 de/roy+ ! end to accompli% ! means2 & t x 0 z impossible t true ,*ri/ianity %\ld be support$ ?us1 z x is t a man %\ld long be n\ri%$ by eat+ 8 own fle%4 ,to display ! g5u9e fruits ( ,*ri/ianity 9 a good life--to be ready to plead ) meekness = ! doctr9es x tea*es1 & to lab\r1 by e (fice ( humanity & goodness1 to ga9 ^u ^? :o oppose x1 7 ! weapons ) :i* ?is good soldi] ( ,jesus ,*ri/ fai?fully f\ght ! battles ( ! ,"l4 ,^! weapons w always be victori\s 9 8 cause2 & !y :o h rec\rse to o!rs ( a diff]5t temp]1 h[ /rong soev] !y may seem1 & h[ %>p soev] !y may really be1 w f9d !m break 9 _! h&s :5 !y ex]t !m mo/ furi\sly1 & are mu* m likely to w\nd !mselves ?an to conqu] ! enemies :om !y oppose4 ,b :ile ,i am speak+ ( ,colonel ,g>d9]'s *>ity 9 ?is respect1 ,i mu/ n omit t ( ano!r k9d1 :i* has inde$ engross$ ! "n ( *>ity1 excell5t z x is1 mu* m ?an x ought--,i mean alms-giv+ = :i* he 0 v rem>kable4 ,i h (t5 wond]$ h[ he 0 able to d s _m g5]\s ?+s 9 ?is way4 ,b 8 frugality f$ ! spr+4 ,he made no pleasurable exp5se on himself1 & 0 cont5t$ ) a v dec5t appe>ance 9 8 family1 )\t affect+ su* an air ( gr&eur z c\ld n h be5 support$ )\t sacrific+ to x satisfactions f> nobl]1 &1 to a temp] l 81 f> m delightful4 ,! lively & t5d] feel+s ( 8 he>t 9 fav\r ( ! di/ress$ & afflict$ made x a self-indulg5ce to relieve !m2 & ! deep conviction he _h ( ! va9 & transitory nature ( ! enjoym5ts ( ?is _w1 toge!r ) ! sublime view he _h ( ano!r1 engag$ him to disp5se 8 b\nties ) a v lib]al h&1 & ev5 to seek out prop] objects ( !m4 ,above all1 8 s9c]e & ard5t love to ! ,"l ,jesus ,*ri/ engag$ him to feel1 ) a true sympa?y1 ! conc]ns ( 8 poor memb]s4 ,9 consequ5ce ( ?is1 he hon\r$ sev]al ( 8 fri5ds ) commissions = ! relief ( ! poor2 & p>ticul>ly1 ) relation to "s "u my pa/oral c>e1 he ref]r$ x to my discretion to supply !m ) :at ,i %\ld judge exp$i5t1 & frequ5tly press$ me1 9 8 lett]s1 to be sure n to let !m want4 ,& :]e p]sons /&+ 9 ne$ ( 8 *>ity happ5$1 z !y (t5 did1 to be p]sons ( rem>kably religi\s dispositions1 x 0 easy to p]ceive t he n only lov$ b hon\r$ !m1 & really e/eem$ x an hon\r :i* ,provid5ce conf]r$ ^u him1 t he %\ld be made1 z x 71 ! almon] ( ,god = _! relief4 ,i _c =be> relat+ a little /ory "h1 :i*1 :5 ! colonel himself he>d x1 gave him su* exquisite pleasure1 t ,i hope x w be acceptable to sev]al ( my read]s4 ,!re 0 9 a village ab\t n9e miles f ,nor?ampton1 & 9 a family :i*1 ( all o!rs ne> me1 0 aft]w>ds mo/ indebt$ to him1 7?\gh he _h nev] !n se5 any memb] ( x17 an ag$ & poor1 b em95tly good woman1 :o _h1 ) great difficulty1 9 ! ex]cise ( mu* fai? & pati5ce1 dilig5ce & humility1 made %ift to educate a l>ge family ( *ildr5 aft] ! dea? ( h] husb&1 )\t be+ *>geable to ! p>i%2 :i*1 z x 0 q beyond h] hope1 %e (t5 spoke ( ) great delight4 ,at l5g?1 :5 worn out ) age & infirmities1 %e lay ^u h] dea?-b$1 %e1 9 a mo/ lively & affect+ mann]1 express$ h] hope & joy 9 ! views ( approa*+ glory4 ,yet1 amid/ all ! triumphs ( su* a prospect1 !re 0 "o rema9+ c>e & di/ress :i* lay heavy on h] m9d2 ?is 01 t z h] j\rney & h] /ock ( provisions 7 bo? end$ toge!r1 %e fe>$ t %e mu/ ei!r be buri$ at ! p>i% exp5se1 or leave to h] mo/ dutiful & affectionate daught]s ! h\se /ripp$ ( "s ( ! few movables :i* rema9$ 9 x1 9 ord] to p]=m ! la/ (fice ( duty to h]1 :i* %e _h reason to believe !y w\ld d4 ,:ile %e 0 combatt+ ) ?is only rema9+ anxiety1 ,i happ5$1 ?\gh ,i knew n ! extremity ( h] illness1 to come 91 & to br+ ) me a gu9ea :i* ! g5]\s colonel _h s5t by a special message1 on he>+ ! "* ( ! family1 = its relief4 ,a pres5t l ?is1 7probably ! mo/ consid]able !y _h ev] receiv$ 9 _! lives17 com+ 9 ?is mann] f an entire /rang] at su* a crisis ( "t1 ?rew my dy+ fri5d 7= su*1 amid/ all h] pov]ty1 ,i rejoic$ to call h]7 into a p]fect transport ( joy4 ,%e e/eem$ x a s+ul> fav\r ( ,provid5ce s5t to h] 9 h] la/ mom5ts z a tok5 = good1 & greet$ x z a special m>k ( t lov+ k9dness ( ,god :i* %\ld att5d h] = ev]4 ,%e insi/$1 !re=e1 to be rais$ up 9 h] b$1 t %e might bless ,god = x ^u h] knees1 & ) h] la/ brea? pray = h] k9d & g5]\s b5efactor1 & = him :o _h be5 ! in/rum5t ( direct+ 8 b\nty into ?is *annel4 ,aft] ?is %e soon expir$1 & ) su* tranquillity & sweetness z c\ld n b mo/ s5sibly delight all :o beheld h]1 & occasion$ _m :o knew ! circum/ance to glorify ,god on h] behalf4 ,! colonel's la/ resid5ce at ,nor?ampton 0 9 ,june & ,july #agdb1 :5 ,"l ,cadogan's regim5t ( dragoons 0 qu>t]$ "h4 ,"h ,i _c b obs]ve1 t :]ev] t regim5t came1 x 0 rem>kable n only = ! f9e appe>ance x made1 & = ! exactness ) :i* x p]=m$ its v>i\s ex]cises1 7( :i* x _h ab\t ?is "t ! hon\r to receive ! mo/ illu/ri\s te/imonials17 b also = ! great sobriety & regul>ity ( ! soldi]s4 ,_m ( ! (fic]s copi$ aft] ! excell5t patt]n :i* !y _h daily be=e _! eyes2 & a consid]able numb] ( ! private m5 seem$ to be p]sons n only ( /rict virtue1 b ( s]i\s piety4 ,i d\bt n b !y f\nd _! abundant acc\nt 9 x1 n only 9 ! s]5ity & happ9ess ( _! own m9ds1 :i* is beyond comp>ison ! mo/ important consid]ation2 b also1 9 "s degree1 9 ! oblig+ & respectful treatm5t :i* !y g5]ally met ) 9 _! qu>t]s4 ,i m5tion ?is1 because ,i am p]suad$ t if g5tlem5 ( _! pr(ession knew1 & w\ld reflect1 h[ mu* m com=table !y make _! own qu>t]s by a sob]1 ord]ly1 & oblig+ conduct1 !y w\ld be regul> out ( m]e self love1 if !y 7 n influ5c$1 z ,i he>tily wi% !y may always be1 by a nobl] pr9ciple4 ,,*apt] ,,xi4 ,,emb>ks ,,= ,,fl&]s4 ,t[>ds ! latt] end ( ?is ye> he emb>k$ = ,fl&]s1 & sp5t "s consid]able "t ) ! regim5t at ,gh5t1 :]e he mu* regrett$ ! want ( ^? religi\s ord9ances & opportunities :i* _h made 8 o!r abodes delightful4 ,b z he _h made s em95t a progress 9 t div9e life :i* !y are all int5d$ to promote1 he c\ld n be inactive 9 ! cause ( ,god4 ,i h n[ be=e me a lett]1 dat$ f !nce ,octob] #af1 #agdb1 9 :i* he writes3 ,z = me1 ,i am inde$ 9 a dry & b>r5 l&1 :]e no wat] is4 ,riv]s ( wat]s run d[n m9e eyes1 because no?+ is to be he>d 9 our ,sodom b blasphem+ ! "n ( my ,god1 & ,i n hon\r$ z ! in/rum5t ( do+ any great s]vice4 ,x is true1 ,i h re=m$ six or sev5 field-(fic]s ( swe>+4 ,i d9e e day ) !m1 & h ent]$ !m into a volunt>y contract to pay a %ill+ to ! poor = e oa?1 & x is wond]ful to obs]ve ! effect x has _h already4 ,"o ( !m told me ?is day at d9n] t x _h really su* an influ5ce ^u him1 t be+ at c>ds la/ night :5 ano!r (fic] fell a swe>+1 he 0 n able to be> x1 b rose up & left ! company4 ,s y see1 re/ra9ts at fir/ aris+ f a l[ pr9ciple may improve into some?+ bett]4 ,dur+ 8 abode "h1 he _h a great deal ( bus9ess ^u 8 h&s1 & _h also1 9 "s m>*es1 ! c>e ( m regim5ts ?an 8 own2 & x has be5 v delightful to me to obs]ve :at a degree ( conv]se ) heav51 & ! ,god ( x1 he ma9ta9$ amid/ ^! sc5es ( hurry & fatigue1 ( :i* ! read] may f9d a rem>kable specim5 9 ! foll[+ lett]1 dat$ f ,li*wick 9 ! beg9n+ ( ,april #agdc1 :i* 0 "o ( ! la/ ,i receiv$ f him :ile abroad4 ,x beg9s ) ^! words3-- ,ye/]day be+ ! ,"l's day1 at six 9 ! morn+ ,i _h ! pleasure ( receiv+ y\rs at ,nortonick2 & x prov$ a ,sabba? day's bless+ to me4 ,"s "t be=e x rea*$ me1 7f :5ce1 by ! way1 x may be obs]v$ t 8 =m] cu/om ( ris+ s e>ly 9 8 devotions 0 /ill reta9$17 ,i _h be5 wre/l+ ) ,god ) _m te>s2 & :5 ,i _h read x1 ,i return$ to my knees aga9 to give he>ty ?anks to him = all 8 goodness to y & y\rs1 & also to myself1 9 t he ha? be5 pleas$ to /ir up s _m :o are de> to him1 to be m9dful ( me at ! ?rone ( grace4 ,!n1 aft] ! m5tion ( "s o!r p>ticul>s1 he adds3-- ,bless$ & ador$ = ev] be ! holy "n ( my ,heav5ly ,fa!r1 :o holds my s\l 9 life1 & my body 9 p]fect heal?6 ,7 ,i to rec\nt 8 m]cy & goodness to me ev5 9 ! mid/ ( all ^! hurries1 ,i %\ld nev] h done4 ,i hope y\r ,ma/] w /ill enc\rage y 9 8 "w1 & make y a bless+ to _m4 ,my de>e/ fri5d1 ,i am mu* m y\rs ?an ,i c express1 & %all rema9 s :ile ,i am ,j4,g4 ,9 ?is correspond5ce ,i _h a fur!r opportunity ( discov]+ t humble resignation to ! w ( ,god :i* made s amiable a "p ( 8 "*1 & ( :i* ,i _h be=e se5 s _m in/ances4 ,he speaks1 9 ! lett] f :i* ,i h j be5 giv+ an extract1 ( ! hope he _h express$ 9 a =m] ( see+ u aga9 t w9t]2 & he adds3-- ,to be sure1 x w\ld h be5 a great pleasure to me2 b we poor mortals =m projects1 & ! ,almighty rul] ( ! univ]se disposes ( all z he pleases4 ,a great _m ( u 7 gett+ ready = our return to ,engl&1 :5 we receiv$ an ord] to m>* t[>ds ,frank=t1 to ! great surprise ( ! :ole army1 nei!r c any ( u compreh5d :at we are to d !re2 = !re is no enemy 9 t c\ntry1 ! ,fr5* army be+ m>*$ into ,bav>ia1 :]e ,i am sure we _c foll[ !m4 ,b x is ! w ( ! ,"l1 & 8 w be done6 ,i desire to bless & praise my ,heav5ly ,fa!r t ,i am entirely resign$ to x4 ,x is no matt] :]e ,i g1 or :at becomes ( me1 s t ,god may be glorifi$ 9 my life1 or my dea?1 ,i %\ld rejoice mu* to he> t all my fri5ds 7 equally resign$4 ,! m5tion ( ?is article rem9ds me ( ano!r relat+ to ! views :i* he _h ( obta9+ a regim5t = himself4 ,he endeav\r$ to des]ve x by ! mo/ fai?ful s]vices2 "s ( !m1 inde$ beyond :at ! /r5g? ( 8 con/itution c\ld well be>--= ! wea!r 9 "s ( ^! m>*es prov$ exce$+ly bad1 & yet he w\ld be always at ! head ( 8 p1 t he might look1 ) ! exacte/ c>e1 to e ?+ t conc]n$ !m4 ,?is oblig$ him to neglect ! beg9n+s ( a fev]i% illness1 ! natural consequ5ce ( :i* 0 t x grew v =midable1 =c$ a long conf9em5t ^u him1 & gave animal nature a %ock :i* x nev] recov]$4 ,9 ! mean "t1 z he _h ! promise ( a regim5t be=e he quitt$ ,engl&1 8 fri5ds 7 cont9ually expect+ an occasion ( congratulat+ him on hav+ receiv$ ! comm& ( "o4 ,/ill !y 7 disappo9t$1 & on "s ( !m ! disappo9tm5t seem$ to sit heavy4 ,z = ! colonel himself1 he seem$ q easy ab\t x1 & appe>$ mu* great] 9 t easy situation ( m9d ?an ! highe/ milit>y hon\rs & pref]m5ts c\ld h made him4 ,) great pleasure d ,i at ?is mom5t recollect ! unaffect$ s]5ity1 & ev5 indiff]5ce1 ) :i* he expresses himself ^u ?is occasion1 9 a lett] to me1 dat$ ab\t ! beg9n+ ( ,april1 #agdc4 ,! disappo9tm5t ( a regim5t is no?+ to me1 = ,i am satisfi$ t1 _h x be5 = ,god's glory1 ,i %\ld h _h x1 & ,i %\ld h be5 sorry to h _h x on any o!r t]ms4 ,my ,heav5ly ,fa!r has be/[$ ^u me inf9itely m ?an if he _h made me emp]or ( ! :ole _w4 ,i f9d sev]al p>allel expressions 9 o!r lett]s1 & ^? to 8 lady ab\t ! same "t 7 j 9 ! same /ra94 ,9 an extract f "o :i* 0 writt5 f ,aix-la-,*apelle1 ,april #ba1 ! same ye>1 ,i meet ) ^! words3 ,p "h imag9e ,i mu/ be sadly tr\bl$ t ,i h n got a regim5t1 7= six out ( sev5 vacant are n[ dispos$ (73 b !y are /rangely mi/ak51 = x has giv5 me no sort ( tr\ble4 ,my ,heav5ly ,fa!r kn[s :at is be/ = me2 & bless$ & ev] ador$ be 8 "n1 he has giv5 me an entire resignation to 8 w4 ,besides1 ,i d n "k t ,i met ) any disappo9tm5t1 s9ce ,i 0 a ,*ri/ian1 b x pleas$ ,god to discov] to me t x 0 pla9ly = my advantage1 by be/[+ some?+ bett] ^u me aft]w>ds1 _m in/ances ( :i* ,i am able to produce2 & !re=e ,i %\ld be ! greate/ ( mon/]s1 if ,i did n tru/ 9 him4 ,i %\ld be guilty ( a great omission1 if ,i 7 n to add h[ rem>kably ! ev5t correspond$ ) 8 fai? on ?is occasion2 = :]eas he _h no intimation or expectation ( any ?+ m ?an a regim5t ( foot1 8 ,maje/y 0 pleas$1 out ( 8 great goodness1 to give him a regim5t ( dragoons :i* 0 !n qu>t]$ 9 8 own neighborhood4 ,x is prop]ly rem>k$ by ! rev]5d & wor?y p]son ?r\gh ^: h& ?is lett] 0 transmitt$ to me1 t :5 ! colonel ?us express$ himself1 he c\ld h no prospect ( :at he aft]w>ds s soon obta9$1 z ,g5]al ,bl&'s regim5t1 to :i* he 0 advanc$1 0 only vacant on ! #ai? ( ,april--t is1 two days be=e ! date ( ?is lett]1 :5 x 0 impossible he %\ld h any notice ( t vacancy4 ,x also des]ves obs]vation1 t "s few days aft] ! colonel 0 ?us unexpect$ly promot$ to ! comm& ( ^! dragoons1 ,"l ,cornwallis's regim5t ( foot1 !n 9 ,fl&]s1 became vacant4 ,n[1 _h ?is happ5$ be=e 8 promotion to ,g5]al ,bl&'s1 ,colonel ,g>d9]1 9 all probability1 w\ld only h _h t regim5t ( foot1 & s w\ld h cont9u$ 9 ,fl&]s4 ,:5 ! affair 0 settl$1 he in=ms ,lady ,frances ( x 9 a lett] dat$ f a village ne> ,frank=t1 #c;d ,may1 9 :i* he ref]s to 8 =m] ( ! #ba/ ( ,april1 obs]v+ h[ rem>kably x 0 v]ifi$ 9 ,god's hav+ giv5 him 7= s he express$ x1 agreeably to ! views :i* he cont9ually ma9ta9$ ( ! univ]sal ag5cy ( ,div9e ,provid5ce7 :at he _h no expectation (1 & :at 0 s mu* bett] ?an t :i* he _h miss$--a regim5t ( dragoons qu>t]$ at 8 own door4 ,,*apt] ,,xii4 ,,return ,,to ,,engl&4 ,x appe>$ to him t by ?is rem>kable ev5t ,provid5ce call$ him home4 ,accord+ly1 ?\gh he _h o!r pref]m5ts (f]$ him 9 ! army1 he *ose to return1 & ,i believe ! m will+ly1 z he did n expect !re w\ld h be5 an action4 ,j at ?is "t x pleas$ ,god to give him an awful in/ance ( ! unc]ta9ty ( human prospects & enjoym5ts1 by t viol5t fev] :i* seiz$ him at ,gh5t on 8 way to ,engl&1 & p]haps ! m sev]ely = ! ef=ts he made to pu% on 8 j\rney1 ?\gh he _h = "s days be5 mu* indispos$4 ,x 01 ,i ?9k1 "o ( ! fir/ fits ( sev]e illness he _h ev] met )1 & he 0 ready to look ^u x z a sudd5 call into et]nity2 b x gave him no pa9ful al>m 9 t view4 ,he committ$ himself to ! ,god ( 8 life1 & 9 a few weeks he 0 s well recov]$ z to be capable ( pursu+ 8 j\rney1 ?\gh n )\t difficulty4 ,i _c b ?9k x might h conduc$ mu* to a m p]fect recov]y ?an he ev] atta9$1 to h all[$ himself a long] repose1 9 ord] to recruit 8 exhau/$ /r5g? & spirits4 ,b !re 0 an activity 9 8 temp] n easy to be re/ra9$1 & x 0 n[ /imulat$1 n only ) a desire to see 8 fri5ds1 b ( be+ ) 8 regim5t1 t he might omit no?+ 9 8 p[] to regulate _! morals & _! discipl9e1 & to =m !m = public s]vice4 ,accord+ly1 ab\t ! middle ( ,june1 #agdc1 he pass$ ?r\gh ,london1 :]e he _h ! hon\r ( wait+ on _! royal highnesses1 ! ,pr9ce & ,pr9cess ( ,wales1 & ( receiv+ f bo? ! mo/ oblig+ tok5 ( fav\r & e/eem4 ,he arriv$ at ,nor?ampton on ,monday ! #ba/ ( ,june1 & sp5t "p ( ?ree days !re4 ,b ! great pleasure :i* 8 return & pref]m5t gave u1 0 mu* abat$ by obs]v+ 8 c\nt5ance s sadly alt]$1 & ! _m m>ks ( languor & rema9+ disord] :i* evid5tly appe>$1 s t he really look$ t5 ye>s old] ?an he _h done t5 mon?s be=e4 ,i _h1 h[ev]1 a satisfaction suffici5t to c\nt]balance mu* ( ! conc]n :i* ?is alt]ation gave me1 9 a r5ew$ opportunity ( obs]v+1 inde$ m s5sibly ?an ev]1 9 h[ rem>kable a degree he 0 dead to ! enjoym5ts & views ( ?is mortal life4 ,:5 ,i congratulat$ him on ! fav\rable appe>ances ( ,provid5ce = him 9 ! late ev5t1 he briefly told me ! rem>kable circum/ances t att5d$ x1 ) ! mo/ g5u9e expressions ( gratitude to ,god = !m2 b add$1 t z 8 acc\nt 0 increas$ ) 8 income1 p[]1 influ5ce1 & 8 c>es 7 proportionably increas$ too1 x 01 z to 8 own p]sonal conc]n1 mu* ! same to him :e!r he _h rema9$ 9 8 =m] /ation1 or be5 elevat$ to ?is2 b t if ,god %\ld by ?is means hon\r him z an in/rum5t ( do+ m good ?an he c\ld o!rwise h done1 he %\ld rejoice 9 x4 ,i p]ceiv$ t ! ne> views he _h tak5 ( et]nity1 9 ! illness f :i* he 0 !n s imp]fectly recov]$1 _h n 9 ! lea/ al>m$ him2 b t he w\ld h be5 entirely will+1 _h su* be5 ! det]m9ation ( ,god1 to h be5 cut %ort 9 a =eign l&1 )\t any e>?ly fri5d ne> him1 & 9 ! mid/ ( a j\rney und]tak5 ) hopes & prospects s pleas+ to nature1 :i* appe>$ to me no inconsid]able evid5ce ( ! /r5g? ( 8 fai?4 ,b we %all wond] ! less at ?is extraord9>y resignation1 if we consid] ! joyful & assur$ prospect :i* he _h ( a happ9ess inf9itely sup]ior beyond ! grave2 ( :i* t wor?y m9i/] ( ! *ur* ( ,scotl&1 :o _h an opportunity ( conv]s+ ) him quickly aft] 8 return1 & hav+ ! memorable /ory ( 8 conv]sion f 8 own m\?1 7z ,i h h9t$ above17 writes ?us 9 8 lett] to me1 dat$ ,jan4 #ad1 #agdf-g3 ,:5 he came to review 8 regim5t at ,l9li?g[1 9 summ] #agdc1 aft] hav+ giv5 me ! wond]ful /ory z above1 he conclud$ 9 words to ?is purpose3 ,let me die :5ev] x %all please ,god1 or :]ev] x %all be1 ,i am sure ,i %all g to ! mansions ( et]nal glory1 & enjoy my ,god & my ,r$eem] 9 heav5 = ev]4 ,:ile he 0 ) u at ?is "t he appe>$ deeply affect$ ) ! sad /ate ( ?+s z to religion & morals1 & seem$ to appreh5d t ! rod ( ,god 0 hang+ ov] s s9ful a nation4 ,he obs]v$ a great deal ( disaffection :i* ! enemies ( ! gov]nm5t _h1 by a v>iety ( artifices1 be5 rais+ 9 ,scotl& = "s ye>s2 & ! numb] ( ,jacobites !re1 toge!r ) ! def5celess /ate 9 :i* our isl& !n 01 ) respect to ! numb] ( its =ces at home1 7( :i* he spoke at once ) great conc]n & a/oni%m5t17 l$ him to expect an invasion f ,france1 & an attempt 9 fav\r ( ! ,pret5d]1 mu* soon] ?an x happ5$4 ,i h he>d him (t5 say1 _m ye>s be=e x came s ne> be+ accompli%$1 t a few ?\s&s might h a fair *ance = m>*+ f ,ed9burgh to ,london uncontroll$1 & ?r[ ! :ole ,k+dom into an a/oni%m5t4 ,& ,i h great reason to believe t ?is 0 "o ma9 consid]ation :i* engag$ him to make su* ha/e to 8 regim5t1 !n qu>t]$ 9 ^? p>ts1 z he imag9$ !re 0 n a spot ( gr\nd :]e he might be m likely to h a call to expose 8 life 9 ! s]vice ( 8 c\ntry1 & p]haps1 by appeal+ on a prop] call e>ly 9 its def5ces1 be in/rum5tal 9 suppress+ ! beg9n+s ( mo/ =midable mis*ief4 ,h[ rightly he judg$ 9 ^! ?+s1 ! ev5t too evid5tly %[$4 ,! ev5+ be=e our la/ sep>ation1 z ,i knew ,i c\ld n m agreeably ent]ta9 ! valuable fri5d :o 0 !n my gue/1 ,i prea*$ a s]mon 9 my own h\se1 ) "s peculi> ref]5ce to 8 case & circum/ances1 f ^? ev]-memorable words1 ?an :i* ,i h nev] felt any m p[]ful & m com=table3 ,psalm xci4 #ad1 #ae1 #af1 ,because he ha? set 8 love ^u me1 !re=e w ,i deliv] him3 ,i w set him on high1 because he ha? kn[n my "n4 ,he %all call ^u me1 & ,i w answ] him2 ,i w be ) him 9 tr\ble1 ,i w deliv] him1 & hon\r him3 ) long life 7or l5g? ( days7 w ,i satisfy him1 & %[ him my salvation4 ,?is scripture c\ld n b l5d our m$itations to survey ! "* ( ! good man1 z "o :o s kn[s ! "n ( ! bless$ ,god--has su* a deep appreh5sion ( ! glories & p]fections ( 8 nature--z det]m9ately to set 8 love ^u him1 to make him ! supreme object ( 8 mo/ ard5t & con/ant affection4 ,& x sugge/$ ! mo/ sublime & animat+ hopes to p]sons ( su* a "*1 t _! pray]s %all be always acceptable to ,god2 t ?\gh !y may1 & mu/1 be call$ to _! %>e 9 ! tr\bles & calamities ( life1 yet !y may assure !mselves ( ! div9e pres5ce 9 all1 :i* w issue 9 _! deliv]ance1 9 _! exaltation1 sometimes 9 di/+ui%$ hon\r & e/eem among m51 &1 x may be1 9 a long c\rse ( useful & happy ye>s on e>?2 at lea/1 :i* %all und\bt$ly end 9 see+1 to _! p]petual delight1 ! complete salvation ( ,god1 9 a _w :]e !y %all enjoy l5g? ( days = ev] & ev]1 & employ !m all 9 ador+ ! great ,au?or ( _! salvation & felicity4 ,x is evid5t t ^! natural ?\ghts on su* a ,scripture 7 matt]s ( univ]sal conc]n4 ,yet _h ,i1 z a m9i/] ( ! gospel1 kn[n t ?is 0 ! la/ "t ,i %\ld address ,colonel ,g>d9]1 & _h ,i =ese5 ! sc5es ?r\gh :i* ,god 0 ab\t to lead him1 ,i h>dly "k :at consid]ations ,i c\ld h sugge/$ ) m peculi> propriety4 ,! att5tion1 elevation1 & delight ) :i* he he>d !m1 7 v app>5t1 & ! pleasure :i* ! obs]vation ( x gave me1 cont9ues to ?is mom5t4 ,let me be p]mitt$ to digress s f> z to add1 t ?is is inde$ ! great support ( a ,*ri/ian m9i/] "u ! _m disc\ragem5ts & disappo9tm5ts :i* he meets ) 9 8 attempts to fix ^u ! pr(ligate or ! ?\ghtless "p ( mank9d a deep s5se ( religi\s tru?2 t !re is ano!r important "p ( 8 "w 9 :i* he may hope to be m g5]ally successful2 z1 by pla91 artless1 b s]i\s disc\rses1 ! great pr9ciples ( ,*ri/ian duty & hope may be n\ri%$ & invigorat$ 9 good m51 _! graces wat]$ z at ! root1 & _! s\ls animat$1 bo? to p]sev]e & improve 9 hol9ess4 ,:5 we are effectually p]=m+ su* b5evol5t (fices1 s well suit+ our immortal natures1 to p]sons ^: he>ts are cem5t$ ) ours 9 ! h&s ( ! mo/ ende>+ & sacr$ fri5d%ip1 x is too little to say t x ov]pays ! fatigue ( our ,lab\rs2 x ev5 swall[s up all s5se ( x 9 ! mo/ rational & sublime pleasure4 ,an incid5t occurr$ t ev5+1 :i*1 at lea/ = ! oddness ( x1 may des]ve a place 9 ^! memoirs4 ,i _h !n ) me "o ,?omas ,port]1 a poor b v hone/ & religi\s man1 7n[ liv+ at ,hatfield ,broad-,oak 9 ,essex17 :o is q unacqua9t$ ) lett]s1 s z n to be able to di/+ui% "o f ano!r1 yet is ma/] ( ! cont5ts ( ! ,bible 9 s extraord9>y a degree1 t he has n only fix$ an imm5se numb] ( texts 9 8 memory1 b1 m]ely by he>+ !m quot$ 9 s]mons1 has regi/]$ !re ! *apt] & v]se 9 :i* ^! passages are to be f\nd4 ,?is is att5d$ ) a m>vell\s facility 9 direct+ read]s to turn to !m1 & a mo/ unacc\ntable tal5t ( fix+ on su* z suit almo/ e imag9able v>iety ( circum/ances 9 common life4 ,!re are 9 ?is case two consid]ations t make x ! m wond]ful2 ! "o1 t he is a p]son ( v l[ g5ius1 hav+1 besides a /amm]+ :i* makes 8 spee* almo/ un9telligible to /rang]s1 s wild & awkw>d a mann] ( behavi\r1 t he is frequ5tly tak5 = an idiot1 & seems 9 _m ?+s to be inde$ s2--! o!r1 t he grew up to manhood 9 a v lic5ti\s c\rse ( liv+1 & an entire ignorance ( div9e ?+s1 s t all ^! exact impressions on 8 memory h be5 made 9 8 rip] ye>s4 ,i ?\ght x w\ld n be disagreeable to ! colonel to introduce to him ?is odd ph5om5on1 :i* _m hundr$s ( p h _h a curiosity to exam9e2 &1 among all ! /range ?+s ,i h se5 9 him1 ,i nev] rememb] any t equall$ :at pass$ on ?is occasion4 ,on he>+ ! colonel's pr(ession1 & receiv+ "s h9ts ( 8 religi\s "*1 he ran ?r\gh a va/ v>iety ( scriptures1 beg9n+ at ! ,p5tateu* & go+ on to ! ,revelation1 relat+ ei!r to ! dep5d5ce to be fix$ on ,god = ! success ( milit>y prep>ations1 or to ! in/ances & promises occurr+ !re = 8 c>e ( good m5 9 ! mo/ imm95t dang]s1 or to ! enc\ragem5t to despise p]ils & dea?1 :ile engag$ 9 a good cause1 & support$ by ! views ( a happy immortality4 ,i believe he quot$ m ?an tw5ty ( ^! passages1 & ,i mu/ freely own t ,i "k n :o c\ld h *os5 !m ) great] propriety4 ,if my memory deceive me n1 ! la/ ( ?is catalogue 0 t f :i* ,i aft]w>ds prea*$1 on ! lam5t$ occasion ( ?is great man's fall3 ,be ?\ fai?ful unto dea?1 & ,i w give !e a cr[n ( life4 ,we 7 all a/oni%$ at s rem>kable a feat1 & ,i "q n b _m ( my read]s w ?9k ! memory ( x wor?y ( be+ ?us pres]v$4 ,b to return to my ma9 subject3 ,! day aft] ! s]mon & conv]sation ( :i* ,i h be5 speak+1 ,i took my be/ leave ( my ine/imable fri5d1 aft] att5d+ him "s "p ( 8 way nor?w>d4 ,! fir/ /age ( our j\rney 0 to ! cottage ( t poor b religi\s family :i* ,i _h be=e occasion to m5tion z reliev$1 & inde$ 9 a great measure subsi/$ by 8 *>ity4 ,no?+ c\ld be m delightful ?an to obs]ve ! condesc5sion ) :i* he conv]s$ ) ^! 8 humble p5sion]s4 ,we !re put up our la/ unit$ pray]s toge!r2 & he aft]w>ds express$1 9 ! /ronge/ t]ms ,i h ev] he>d him use on su* an occasion1 ! s+ul> pleasure ) :i* he _h jo9$ 9 !m4 ,inde$ x 0 no small satisfaction to me to h an opportunity ( recomm5d+ su* a valuable fri5d to ! div9e protection & bless+1 ) t p>ticul> fre$om & enl>gem5t on :at 0 peculi> 9 8 circum/ances1 :i* h>dly any o!r situation1 unless we _h be5 q alone1 c\ld s conv5i5tly h admitt$4 ,we w5t f !nce to ! table ( a p]son ( di/9ction 9 ! neighborhood1 :]e he _h an opportunity ( %[+ 9 h[ dec5t & graceful a mann] he c\ld unite ! ,*ri/ian & ! g5tleman1 & give conv]sation an improv+ & religi\s turn1 )\t violat+ any ( ! rules ( polite behavi\r1 or say+ or do+ any ?+1 :i* look$ at all con/ra9$ or affect$4 ,"h we took our la/ embrace1 committ+ ea* o!r to ! c>e ( ! ,god ( heav52 & ! colonel pursu$ 8 j\rney to ! nor?1 :]e he sp5t ! rema9d] ( 8 days4 ,! m ,i reflect ^u ?is appo9tm5t ( ,provid5ce1 ! m ,i disc]n ! beauty & wisdom ( x--n only z x l$ directly to t glori\s p]iod ( life ) :i* ,god _h det]m9$ to hon\r him1 & 9 :i*1 ,i ?9k1 x becomes all 8 fri5ds to rejoice1 b also z ! retirem5t on :i* he ent]$ c\ld n b h a happy t5d5cy to fav\r 8 m imm$iate & complete prep>ation = s spe$y a remove4 ,to ?is we may add1 t x mu/ probably h a v p[]ful influ5ce to promote ! int]e/s ( religion 7incomp>ably ! greate/ ( all int]e/s7 among ! memb]s ( 8 own family1 :o mu/ surely be edifi$ by su* daily lessons z !y receiv$ f 8 lips1 :5 !y saw !m illu/rat$ & en=c$ by s admirable an example1 & = two complete ye>s4 ,x is ! m rem>kable1 z ,i _c f9d f ! memoirs ( 8 life 9 my h&s t he _h ev] be5 s long at home s9ce he _h a family1 or inde$1 f 8 *ildhood1 ev] s long at a "t 9 any "o place4 ,) h[ cle> a lu/re 8 lamp %one1 & ) :at holy vig\r 8 lo9s 7 gird$ up 9 ! s]vice ( 8 ,god 9 ^! 8 latt] days1 ,i le>n 9 "p f ! lett]s ( sev]al excell5t p]sons 9 ! m9i/ry1 or 9 secul> life1 ) :om ,i h s9ce conv]s$ or correspond$4 ,9 8 _m lett]s dat$ f ,bankton dur+ ?is p]iod1 ,i h /ill fur!r evid5ce h[ happy he 0 amid/ ^? infirmities ( body1 :i* 8 t5d]ness = me w\ld seldom all[ him to m5tion2 = x appe>s f !m :at a daily int]c\rse he kept up ) ,heav51 & :at delightful communion ) ,god cr[n$ 8 att5dance on public ord9ances1 & 8 sweet h\rs ( dev\t retirem5t4 ,he m5tions 8 sacram5tal opportunities ) peculi> reli%1 cry+ out1 z 9 a holy rapture1 9 ref]5ce to "o & ano!r ( !m1 ,oh h[ graci\s a ,ma/] d we s]ve6 h[ pleasant is 8 s]vice2 h[ ri* ! ent]ta9m5ts ( 8 love6 yet h[ poor & cold are our s]vices6 ,b ,i w n multiply quotations ( ?is sort aft] ^? ,i h giv5 above1 :i* may be a suffici5t specim5 ( _m m 9 ! same /ra94 ,?is h9t may suffice to %[ t ! same ard\r ( s\l held out 9 a great measure to ! la/2 & inde$ x seems t t[>ds ! close ( life1 l ! flame ( a lamp almo/ expir+1 x sometimes ex]t$ an unusual blaze4 ,he sp5t mu* ( 8 "t at ,bankton 9 religi\s solitude2 & "o mo/ intimately conv]sant ) him assures me t ! traces ( t delightful conv]se ) ,god :i* he enjoy$ 9 x might easily be disc]n$ 9 ! solemn yet *e]ful c\nt5ance ) :i* he (t5 came out ( 8 closet4 ,yet 8 ex]cises !re mu/ sometimes h be5 v m\rnful1 consid]+ ! melan*oly views :i* he _h ( ! /ate ( our public affairs4 ,i %\ld be glad1 says he1 79 a lett] :i* he s5t me ab\t ! close ( ! ye> #agdc17 to he> :at wise & good p among y ?9k ( ! pres5t circum/ances ( ?+s4 ,= my own "p1 ?\gh ,i ?ank ,god ,i fe> no?+ = myself1 my appreh5sions = ! public are v gloomy1 consid]+ ! deplorable preval5cy ( almo/ all k9ds ( wick$ness among/ u--! natural consequ5ce ( ! contempt ( ! gospel4 ,i am daily (f]+ my pray]s to ,god = ?is s9ful l& ( ours1 ov] :i* 8 judgm5ts seem to be ga!r+2 & my /r5g? is sometimes s exhau/$ ) ^? /rong cries & te>s1 :i* ,i p\r out be=e ,god on ?is occasion1 t ,i am h>dly able to /& :5 ,i arise f my knees4 ,if we h _m rema9+ to /& 9 ! brea* ) equal f]v5cy1 ,i hope1 cry+ z our provocations are1 t ,god w /ill be entreat$ = u1 & save u4 ,mo/ ( ! o!r lett]s ,i _h ! pleasure ( receiv+ f him aft] our la/ sep>ation1 are ei!r fill$1 l ^? ( =m] ye>s1 ) t5d] expressions ( affectionate solicitude = my dome/ic com=t & public usefulness1 or relate to ! writ+s ,i publi%$ dur+ ?is "t1 or to ! affairs ( 8 elde/ son1 !n "u my c>e4 ,b ^! are ?+s :i* are by no means ( a nature to be communicat$ "h4 ,x is en\gh to rem>k1 9 g5]al1 t ! ,*ri/ian 0 /ill m+l$ ) all ! c>e ( ! fri5d & ! p>5t4 ,,*apt] ,,xiii4 ,,revival ,,( ,,religion4 ,b ,i ?9k x incumb5t ^u me to obs]ve1 t dur+ ?is "t1 & = "s prec$+ ye>s1 8 att5tion1 ev] wakeful to su* conc]ns1 0 mu* engag$ by "s religi\s appe>ances :i* happ5$ ab\t ?is "t bo? 9 ,engl& & ,scotl&1 & ) reg>d to :i* "s may be curi\s to "k ! colonel's s5tim5ts4 ,he communicat$ !m to me ) ! mo/ unres]v$ fre$om2 & ,i _c appreh5d myself "u any engagem5t to conceal !m1 z ,i am p]suad$ t x w be no prejudice to 8 memory t !y %\ld be publicly kn[n4 ,x 0 f ,colonel ,g>d9]'s p5 t ,i receiv$ ! fir/ notice ( t ev] memorable sc5e :i* 0 op5$ at ,kilsy?1 "u ! m9i/ry ( ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,m',cullo* 9 ! mon? ( ,febru>y1 #agda-b4 ,he communicat$ to me ! copy ( two lett]s f t em95tly-fav\r$ s]vant ( ,god1 giv+ an acc\nt ( t extraord9>y success :i* _h )9 a few days accompani$ 8 prea*+1 :51 z ,i rememb]1 9 a little m ?an a =tnight1 "o hundr$ & ?irty s\ls1 :o _h be=e cont9u$ 9 long ins5sibility "u ! fai?ful prea*+ ( ! gospel1 7 awak5$ on a sudd5 to att5d to x1 z if x _h be5 a new revelation br\ght d[n f heav51 & atte/$ by z a/oni%+ miracles z ev] 7 wr\ght by ,pet] or ,paul1 ?\gh !y only he>d x f a p]son "u ^: m9i/ry !y _h sat = sev]al ye>s4 ,/ruck ) a p[] & maje/y 9 ! ^w ( ,god :i* !y _h nev] felt be=e1 !y cr[d$ 8 h\se night & day1 mak+ _! applications to him = spiritual direction & assi/ance1 ) an e>ne/ness & solicitude :i* floods ( te>s & cries1 t swall[$ up _! own words & 81 c\ld n suffici5tly express4 ,! colonel m5tion$ ?is at fir/ to me z matt] ( et]nal praise1 :i* he knew w\ld rejoice my v s\l2 & :5 he saw x spread 9 ! neighb\r+ p>ts1 & obs]v$ ! glori\s re=mation :i* x produc$ 9 ! lives ( great multitudes1 & ! abid+ fruits ( x1 = succe$+ mon?s & ye>s1 x increas$ & confirm$ 8 joy4 ,b ! facts relat+ to ?is matt] h be5 laid be=e ! _w 9 s au!ntic a mann]1 & ! ag5cy ( div9e grace 9 !m has be5 s rationally v9dicat$1 & s pa!tically repres5t$1 9 :at ! rev]5d & judici\s ,mr4 ,web/] has writt5 ^u t subject1 t x is altoge!r sup]flu\s = me to add any ?+ fur!r ?an my he>ty pray]s t ! "w may be z ext5sive z x 0 glori\s & div9e499 99,note3 ,see ,revivals 9 ,scotl&1 publi%$ by ! ,bo>d ( ,publication4 ,x 0 ) great pleasure t he receiv$ any intellig5ce ( a l k9d f ,engl&1 :e!r ! cl]gy ( ! ,e/abli%$ ,*ur* or diss5t+ m9i/]s1 :e!r our own c\ntrym5 or =eign]s1 7 ! in/rum5ts ( x4 ,:atev] weaknesses or errors might m+le !mselves ) valuable qualities 9 su* z 7 active 9 su* a "w1 he appe>$ to love & hon\r !m 9 proportion to ! degree he saw reason to believe t _! he>ts 7 devot$ to ! s]vice ( ,*ri/1 & _! attempts own$ & succe$$ by him4 ,i rememb]1 t m5tion+ "o ( ^! g5tlem5 :o _h be5 rem>kably successful 9 8 m9i/ry1 & :o seem$ to h met ) "s v unk9d usage1 he says1 ,i _h r be t despis$1 p]secut$ man1 to be an in/rum5t 9 ! h& ( ! ,_s 9 conv]t+ s _m s\ls1 & build+ up s _m 9 _! holy fai?1 ?an ,i w\ld be emp]or ( ! :ole _w4 ,yet ?is /eady & judici\s ,*ri/ian1 7= su* he mo/ assur$ly 017 at ! same "t t he e/eem$ a man = 8 good int5tions1 & 8 wor?y qualities1 did n suff] himself to be hurri$ away into all ! s+ul>ity ( 8 s5tim5ts1 or to admire 8 imprud5ces or excesses4 ,on ! contr>y1 he saw & lam5t$ t artifice :i* ! great fa!r ( fraud has s long & s successfully be5 practis+1 & :o1 l ! enemies ( ,israel1 :5 he _c entirely prev5t ! build+ ( ,god's temple1 does1 z x 71 (f] 8 assi/ance to c>ry on ! "w1 t he may !reby get ! mo/ effectual opportunities ( ob/ruct+ x4 ,! colonel (t5 express$ 8 a/oni%m5t at ! wide extremes into :i* "s :om on ! :ole he ?\ght v wor?y m51 7 p]mitt$ to run 9 _m doctr9al & speculative po9ts1 & disc]n$ h[ evid5tly x appe>$ f h5ce t we _c argue ! tru? ( any doctr9e f ! success ( ! prea*]1 s9ce ?is w\ld be a k9d ( demon/ration :i* might equally prove bo? p>ts ( a contradiction4 ,yet :5 he obs]v$ t a high reg>d to ! atonem5t & righte\sness ( ,*ri/1 & to ! free grace ( ,god 9 him1 ex]t$ by ! op]ation ( ! ,div9e ,_s1 0 g5]ally common to all :o _h be5 peculi>ly successful 9 ! conv]sion & re=mation ( m51 7h[ widely soev] _! judgm5ts might diff] 9 o!r po9ts1 & h[ w>mly soev] _! judgm5ts might oppose ea* o!r 9 consequ5ce ( t div]sity17 x t5d$ greatly to confirm 8 fai? 9 ^! pr9ciples1 z well z to op5 8 he>t 9 love to all1 ( e d5om9ation1 :o ma9ta9$ an affectionate reg>d to !m4 ,al?\gh :at he rem>k$ z to ! conduct & success ( m9i/]s ( ! mo/ opposite /ra9s ( prea*+ confirm$ him 9 ^! s5tim5ts1 yet he always e/eem$ & lov$ virtu\s & b5evol5t m51 ev5 :]e he ?\ght !m ! mo/ mi/ak5 9 ! notions !y =m$ ( religion1 or 9 ! me?ods by :i* !y attempt$ to s]ve x4 ,:ile ,i ?us repres5t :at all :o knew him mu/ soon h obs]v$ ( ,colonel ,g>d9]'s affectionate reg>d to ^! peculi> doctr9es ( our holy religion1 x is necess>y t ,i %\ld also in=m my read] t x 0 n 8 op9ion t ! att5tion ( m9i/]s or _! he>]s %\ld be :olly engross$ by ^!1 excell5t z !y are2 b t all ! p>ts ( ! s*eme ( tru? & duty %\ld be reg>d$ 9 _! due connection & proportion4 ,f> f t di/emp]$ ta/e :i* c be> no?+ b cordials1 x 0 8 delib]ate judgm5t t ! law z well z ! gospel %\ld be prea*$2 & h>dly any ?+ gave him great] (f5ce ?an ! irrev]5t mann] 9 :i* "s :o h be5 ignorantly extoll$ z ! mo/ zeal\s evangelical prea*]s1 h sometimes be5 tempt$ to speak ( ! =m]1 mu* inde$ to ! sc&al ( all consi/5t & judici\s ,*ri/ians4 ,he delight$ to be in/ruct$ 9 8 duty1 & to he> mu* ( ! inw>d ex]cises ( ! spiritual & div9e life4 ,he always wi%$1 s f> z ,i c\ld obs]ve1 to h ^! topics treat$ 9 a rational z well z spiritual mann]1 ) solidity & ord] ( ?\ght1 ) p]spicuity & weight ( expression1 well kn[+ t religion is a mo/ reasonable s]vice--t ,god has n *os5 idiots or lunatics z ! in/rum5ts1 or nons5se z ! means ( build+ up 8 *ur*--& t ?\gh ! *>ge ( en?usiasm is (t5 fix$ on ,*ri/ianity & its m9i/]s 9 a wild1 undes]v$1 &1 inde$1 on ! :ole1 en?usia/ical mann]1 by "s ( ! l\de/ or mo/ solemn pret5d]s to reason1 yet !re is really su* a ?+ z en?usiasm1 aga9/ :i* x becomes ! true fri5ds ( revelation to be dilig5tly on _! gu>d1 le/ ,*ri/ianity1 in/ead ( be+ exalt$1 %\ld be greatly corrupt$ & debas$1 & all mann] ( absurdity1 bo? 9 doctr9e & practice1 introduc$ by me?ods :i*1 l p]secution1 ?r[ tru? & falsehood on a level1 & r5d] ! grosse/ errors at once m plausible & m incurable4 ,he _h too mu* c&\r & equity to fix g5]al *>ges ( ?is nature2 b he 0 really 7& ,i ?9k n va9ly17 appreh5sive t ! emiss>ies & ag5ts ( ! mo/ corrupt *ur* t ev] di%on\r$ ! ,*ri/ian "n1 7by :i*1 x w easily be und]/ood1 ,i mean t ( ,rome17 might v possibly ins9uate !mselves into societies to :i* !y c\ld n o!rwise h access1 & make _! advantage ( t total resignation ( ! und]/&+1 & contempt ( reason & le>n+1 :i* no?+ b ignorance1 delirium1 or knav]y c dictate1 to lead m5 bl9dfold$ :i!r x pleas$1 till x set !m d[n at ! foot ( an alt> :]e transub/antiation itself 0 consecrat$4 ,i "k n :]e ,i c m prop]ly introduce ano!r "p ( ! colonel's "*1 :i*1 obvi\s z x 01 ,i h n yet t\*$ ^u2 ,i mean 8 t5d]ness to ^? :o 7 "u any spiritual di/ress1 :]e9 he 0 inde$ an example to m9i/]s 9 a duty m peculi>ly !irs4 ,i h se5 _m amiable in/ances ( ?is myself1 & ,i h be5 in=m$ ( _m o!rs4 ,"o ( ^! happ5$ ab\t ! "t ( t awak5+ 9 ! we/]n p>ts ( ,scotl&1 :i* ,i t\*$ ^u above1 :5 ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,m',laur91 ( ,glasg[1 f\nd occasion to witness to ! great propriety1 judgm5t1 & felicity ( mann]1 ) :i* he address$ spiritual consolation to an afflict$ s\l :o appli$ to ! pr(essor at a "t :5 he _h n an opportunity imm$iately to give audi5ce to ! case4 ,inde$ s long ago z ! ye> #agbf1 ,i f9d him writ+ 9 ?is reg>d to a fri5d 9 a /ra9 ( t5d]ness :i* might well h become ! mo/ affectionate & exp]i5c$ pa/or4 ,he !re congratulates him on "s religi\s enjoym5ts1 lately receiv$1 79 "p1 x seems1 by 8 means7 :51 among o!rs1 he has ?is mode/ expression3 ,if ,i h be5 made any way ! means ( do+ y good1 give ! :ole glory to ,god2 = he has be5 will+ to %[ t ! p[] 0 entirely ( himself1 s9ce he has be5 pleas$ to make use ( s v weak an in/rum5t4 ,9 ! same lett] he admoni%es 8 fri5d t he %\ld n be too mu* surpris$1 if aft] hav+ be5 7z he express$ x7 ^u ! m\nt1 he %\ld be br\ght into ?is valley aga91 rem9d+ him t we live by fai?1 & n by s5sible assurance1 & repres5t+ t !re are "s su* full communications f ,god z seem almo/ to swall[ up ! act+s ( fai?1 f :5ce !y take _! rise3 ,:]eas1 :5 a ,*ri/ian :o walks 9 d>kness1 & sees no light1 w yet hang1 z x 71 on ! report ( an abs5t ,jesus1 & 7z "o expresses x 9 allusion to ! /ory ( ,jacob & ,joseph7 c put himself z on ! *>iot ( ! promises1 to be borne on to ,him :om he sees n2 !re may be sublim] & m acceptable act+s ( a pure & /rong fai? ?an 9 mom5ts :i* af=d ! s\l a mu* m raptur\s delight4 ,?is is ! sub/ance ( :at he says 9 ?is excell5t lett]4 ,"s ( ! phrases made use ( might n p]haps be intelligible to sev]al ( my read]s1 = :i* reason ,i d n exactly transcribe !m all2 b ?is is pla9ly & fully 8 mean+1 & mo/ ( ! words are 8 own4 ,! s5tim5t is surly v j & important2 & happy w\ld x be = _m excell5t p]sons1 :o1 ?r\gh wrong notions ( ! nature ( fai?1 7:i* 0 nev] m misrepres5t$ ?an n[ among "s17 are p]plex+ !mselves ) ! mo/ gr\ndless d\bts & scruples1 if x 7 m g5]ally und]/ood1 admitt$1 & consid]$4 ,,*apt] ,,xiv4 ,,appreh5sions ,,( ,,dea?4 ,an ende>$ fri5d1 :o 0 mo/ intimately conv]sant ) ! colonel dur+ ! la/ two ye>s ( 8 life1 has fav\r$ me ) an acc\nt ( "s little circum/ances relat+ to him1 :i* ,i e/eem z preci\s fragm5ts1 by :i* ! consi/5t t5or ( 8 "* may be fur!r illu/rat$4 ,i %all !re=e ins]t !m "h1 )\t be+ v solicit\s z to ! ord] 9 :i* !y are introduc$4 ,he p]ceiv$ himself evid5tly 9 a v decl9+ /ate f 8 fir/ arrival 9 ,brita91 & seem$ to ent]ta9 a fix$ appreh5sion t he %\ld cont9ue b a little :ile long] 9 life4 ,he expect$ dea?1 says my good correspond5t1 & 0 delight$ ) ! prospect1 :i* did n gr[ less amiable by ! ne>] approa*4 ,! ^w ( ,god1 ) :i* he _h z intimate an acqua9tance z mo/ m5 ,i ev] knew1 & on :i* 7especially on ! ,new ,te/am5t7 ,i h he>d him make _m v judici\s & accurate rem>ks1 0 /ill 8 daily /udy2 & x furni%$ him ) matt] ( frequ5t conv]sation1 mu* to ! edification & com=t ( ^? t 7 ab\t him4 ,x 0 recollect$ t1 among o!r passages1 he _h lately spok5 ( ! foll[+ z hav+ made a deep impression on 8 m9d3 ,my s\l1 wait ?\ only ^u ,god4 ,he w\ld repeat x aga9 & aga91 only1 only1 only6 ,s pla9ly did he see1 & s deeply did he feel1 ! vanity ( creature confid5ce & expectations4 ,) ! /ronge/ atte/ation w\ld he (t5 m5tion ^? words 9 ,isaiah1 z v]ifi$ by long exp]i5ce3 ,?\ wilt keep him 9 p]fect peace1 ^: m9d is /ay$ on !e1 because he tru/e? 9 !e4 ,& ) peculi> satisfaction w\ld he utt] ^? h]oic words 9 ,habakkuk1 :i* he f\nd arm\r ( pro( aga9/ e fe> & e cont+5cy3 ,?\gh ! fig tree %all n blossom1 nei!r %all fruit be 9 ! v9es2 ! lab\r ( ! olive %all fail1 & ! fields %all yield no meal2 ! flocks %all be cut (f f ! fold1 & !re %all be no h]d 9 ! /alls2 yet ,i w rejoice 9 ! ,"l1 ,i w joy 9 ! ,god ( my salvation4 ,! #ade? ,psalm 0 also spok5 ( by him ) great delight1 & ,dr4 ,watts's v]sion ( x1 z well z sev]al o!rs ( t excell5t p]son's poetical compositions4 ,my fri5d :o transmits to me ?is acc\nt1 adds ! foll[+ words1 :i* ,i desire to ins]t ) ! deepe/ s5tim5ts ( unfeign$ humility & self-abasem5t be=e ,god1 z mo/ unwor?y ! hon\r ( contribut+ 9 ! lea/ degree to ! joys & graces ( "o s mu* my sup]ior 9 e "p ( ! ,*ri/ian "*4 ,z ! joy ) :i* good m5 see ! happy fruits ( _! lab\rs1 makes a "p ( ! pres5t rew>d ( ! s]vants ( ,god & ! fri5ds ( ,jesus1 x mu/ n be omitt$1 ev5 9 a lett] to y1 t y\r spiritual hymns 7 among 8 mo/ delightful & s\l-improv+ repa/s2 p>ticul>ly ^? on behold+ transgressors ) grief1 & ,*ri/'s ,message4 ,:at is add$ conc]n+ my book ( ! ,rise & ,progress ( ,religion1 & ! t]ms 9 :i* he express$ 8 e/eem ( x1 ,i _c suff] to pass my p52 only ,i desire mo/ s9c]ely to bless ,god1 t1 especially by ! la/ *apt]s ( t treatise1 ,i _h an opportunity1 at s great a di/ance1 ( exhibit+ "s (fices ( ,*ri/ian fri5d%ip to ?is excell5t p]son 9 ! clos+ sc5es ( life1 :i* x w\ld h be5 my greate/ joy to h p]=m$ 9 p]son1 _h ,provid5ce p]mitt$ me !n to h be5 ne> him4 ,! =m] ( ^! hymns1 :i* my correspond5t m5tions z hav+ be5 s agreeable to ,colonel ,g>d9]1 ,i h giv5 ! read] already4 ,! latt]1 :i* is call$ ,*ri/'s ,message1 took its rise f ,luke iv4 #ah1 #ai1 & is z foll[s3 ,h>k6 ! glad s\nd6 ! ,savi\r comes1 ,! ,savi\r promis$ long2 ,let e he>t prep>e a ?rone1 ,& e voice a song4 ,on him ! ,_s l>gely p\r$1 ,ex]ts its sacr$ fire2 ,wisdom & might1 & zeal & love1 ,8 holy brea/ inspire4 ,he comes ! prison]s to release1 ,9 ,satan's bondage held2 ,! gates ( brass be=e him bur/1 ,! iron fett]s yield4 ,he comes1 f ?icke/ films ( vice ,to cle> ! m5tal ray1 ,& on ! eye-balls ( ! bl9d ,to p\r cele/ial day499 ,he comes ! brok5 he>t to b9d1 ,! ble$+ s\l to cure2 ,& ) ! treasures ( 8 grace ,to enri* ! humble poor4 ,8 silv] trumpets publi% l\d ,! jubilee ( ! ,"l2 ,our debts are all remitt$ n[1 ,our h]itage re/or$4 ,our glad hosannas1 ,pr9ce ( ,peace6 ,?y welcome %all proclaim2 ,& heav5's et]nal ar*es r+ ,) ,?y belov$ "n4 99,note3 ,?is /anza is mo/ly borr[$ f ,mr4 ,pope4 ,!re is "o hymn m ,i %all beg leave to add1 pla9 z x is1 :i* ,colonel ,g>d9] has be5 he>d to m5tion ) p>ticul> reg>d1 z express+ ! inmo/ s5tim5ts ( 8 s\l1 & !y 7 und\bt$ly s 9 ! la/ rational mom5ts ( 8 expir+ life4 ,x is call$ ',*ri/ preci\s to ! ,believ]1' & 0 compos$ to be sung aft] a s]mon on #a ,pet4 ii #g4 ,jesus6 ,i love ?y *>m+ "n1 ',tis music to my e>3 ,fa9 w\ld ,i s\nd x out s l\d1 ,t e>? & heav5 %\ld he>4 ,yea6 ?\ art preci\s to my s\l1 ,my transport & my tru/2 ,jewels to ,!e are gaudy toys1 ,& gold is sordid du/4 ,all my capaci\s p[]s c wi%1 ,9 ,!e mo/ ri*ly meet2 ,nor to m9e eyes is life s de>1 ,nor fri5d%ip half s sweet4 ,?y grace /ill dwells ^u my he>t1 ,& %$s its fragrance !re2 ,! noble/ balm ( all its w\nds1 ,! cordial ( its c>e4 ,i'll speak ! hon\rs ( ?y "n ,) my la/ lab\r+ brea?2 ,!n spee*less clasp !e 9 my arms1 ,! antidote ( dea?4 ,^? :o 7 intimate ) ,colonel ,g>d9]1 mu/ h obs]v$ h[ ready he 0 to give a devotional turn to any subject t occurr$4 ,9 p>ticul>1 ! spiritual & heav5ly disposition ( 8 s\l discov]$ itself 9 ! reflections & improvem5ts :i* he made :5 read+ hi/ory1 9 :i* he took a great deal ( pleasure1 z p]sons rem>kable = _! k ( mank9d1 & obs]vation ( ,provid5ce1 g5]ally d4 ,i h an in/ance ( ?is be=e me1 :i*1 ?\gh too natural to be at all surpris+1 w1 ,i d>e say1 be pleas+ to ! dev\t m9d4 ,he _h j be5 read+1 9 ,roll9's extracts f ,x5ophon1 ! answ] :i* ! lady ( ,tigranes made :5 all ! company 7 extoll+ ,cyrus1 & express+ ! admiration ) :i* 8 appe>ance & behavi\r /ruck !m4 ,! "q be+ ask$ h]1 ,:at %e ?\ght ( him8 %e answ]$1 ,i d n "k2 ,i did n obs]ve him4 ,on :at1 !n1 said "o ( ! company did y fix y\r att5tion8 ,on him1 repli$ %e1 7ref]r+ to ! g5]\s spee* :i* h] husb& _h j made17 :o said he w\ld give a ?\s& lives to ransom my lib]ty4 ,oh1 cri$ ! colonel1 :5 read+ x1 h[ ought we to fix our eyes & he>ts on ,him :o1 n 9 (f]1 b 9 reality1 gave 8 own preci\s life to ransom u f ! mo/ dreadful slav]y1 & f et]nal de/ruction6 ,b ?is is only "o in/ance among a ?\s&4 ,8 he>t 0 s habitually set ^u div9e ?+s1 & he _h su* a p]man5t & ov]fl[+ s5se ( ! love ( ,*ri/1 t he c\ld n =be> connect+ su* reflections ) a multitude ( m di/ant occasions occurr+ 9 daily life1 on :i* less advanc$ ,*ri/ians w\ld n h ?\ght ( !m2 & ?us1 l our great ,ma/]1 he made e little incid5t a s\rce ( devotion1 & an in/rum5t ( holy zeal4 ,enfeebl$ z 8 con/itution 01 he 0 /ill int5t on improv+ 8 "t to "s valuable purpose2 & :5 8 fri5ds expo/ulat$ ) him t he gave 8 body s little re/1 he us$ to answ]1 ,x w re/ long en\gh 9 ! grave4 ,! ,july be=e 8 dea?1 he 0 p]suad$ to take a j\rney to ,sc>bor\gh = ! recov]y ( 8 heal?1 f :i* he 0 at lea/ enc\rag$ to expect "s little revival4 ,aft] ?is he _h ?\ghts ( go+ to ,london1 & int5d$ to h sp5t "p ( ,septemb] at ,nor?ampton4 ,! expectation ( ?is 0 mutually agreeable2 b ,provid5ce saw fit to disconc]t ! s*eme4 ,8 love = 8 fri5ds 9 ^! p>ts occasion$ him to express "s regret on 8 be+ comm&$ back2 & ,i am pretty confid5t1 f ! mann] 9 :i* he express$ himself 9 "o ( 8 la/ lett]s to me1 t he _h "s m important reasons = wi%+ an opportunity ( mak+ a ,london j\rney j at t crisis1 :i*1 ! read] w rememb]1 0 be=e ! rebellion broke out4 ,b1 z ,provid5ce det]m9$ x o!rwise1 he acquiesc$2 & ,i am well satisfi$1 t c\ld he h di/9ctly =ese5 ! approa*+ ev5t1 s f> z x conc]n$ 8 own p]son1 he w\ld h e/eem$ x ! happie/ summons he ev] receiv$4 ,:ile he 0 at ,sc>bor\gh1 ,i f9d by a lett] dat$ f !nce1 ,july #bf1 #agde1 t he _h be5 in=m$ ( ! gaiety :i* s unseasonably prevail$ at ,ed9burgh1 :]e great multitudes 7 !n sp5d+ _! "t 9 balls1 assemblies1 & o!r gay amusem5ts1 little m9dful ( ! rod ( ,god :i* 0 !n hang+ ov] !m2 on :i* occasion he ha? ?is expression3 ,i am greatly surpris$ t ! p ( ,ed9burgh %\ld be employ$ 9 su* fooli% div]sions1 :5 our situation is at pres5t m melan*oly ?an ev] ,i saw x 9 my life4 ,b !re is "o ?+ :i* ,i am v sure (1 & t com=ts me1 viz41 t x %all g well ) ! righte\s1 come :at w4 ,,*apt] ,,xv4 ,,battle ,,( ,,pre/onpans4 ,quickly aft] 8 return home1 ! flame bur/ out1 & 8 regim5t 0 ord]$ to ,/irl+4 ,x 0 9 t ca/le t 8 lady & elde/ daught] enjoy$ ! la/ happy h\rs ( 8 company1 & ,i ?9k x 0 ab\t t5 or twelve days be=e 8 dea? t he p>t$ f !m !re4 ,a rem>kable circum/ance att5d$ t p>t+1 :i* has be5 t\*$ ^u by surviv+ fri5ds 9 m ?an "o ( _! lett]s to me4 ,8 lady 0 s affect$ :5 %e took h] la/ leave ( him1 t %e c\ld n =be> bur/+ out into a flood ( te>s1 ) o!r m>ks ( unusual emotion2 & :5 he ask$ h] ! reason1 %e urg$ z a suffici5t apology1 ! appreh5sion %e _h ( los+ su* an invaluable fri5d1 amid/ ! dang]s to :i* he 0 !n call$ out4 ,on ?is %e took p>ticul> notice1 t :]eas he _h g5]ally com=t$ h] on su* occasions by plead+ ) h] t rem>kable h& ( ,provid5ce :i* _h s frequ5tly 9 =m] in/ances be5 ex]t$ = 8 pres]vation1 & t 9 ! greate/ extremity1 he said no?+ ( x n[2 b only repli$ 9 8 s5t5ti\s mann]1 ,we h an et]nity to sp5d toge!r4 ,t h]oic contempt ( dea? :i* _h (t5 discov]$ itself 9 ! mid/ ( =m] dang]s1 0 manife/$ n[ 9 8 disc\rse ) sev]al ( 8 mo/ intimate fri5ds4 ,i h res]v$ = ?is place "o g5u9e expression ( x _m ye>s be=e1 :i* ,i ?\ght might be m5tion$ ) "s advantage "h4 ,9 ,july1 #agbe1 he _h be5 s5t to "s place n f> f ,hamilton to quell a mut9y among "s ( our troops4 ,i "k n ! p>ticul> occasion2 b ,i rememb] to h he>d him m5tion x z s fi]ce a "o1 t he sc>cely ev] appreh5d$ himself 9 m haz>d\s circum/ances4 ,yet he quell$ x by 8 pres5ce alone1 & ! expo/ulations he us$--evid5tly putt+ 8 life into 8 h& to d x4 ,! p>ticul>s ( ! /ory /ruck me mu*2 b ,i d n s exactly rememb] !m z to v5ture to relate !m "h4 ,i only obs]ve1 t 9 a lett] dat$ ,july #af1 t ye>1 :i* ,i h n[ be=e me1 & :i* evid5tly ref]s to ?is ev5t1 he writes ?us3 ,i h be5 v busy1 hurri$ ab\t f place to place2 b1 bless$ be ,god1 all is ov] )\t blood%$4 ,& pray let me ask :at made y %[ s mu* conc]n = me 9 y\r la/8 ,7 y afraid ,i %\ld get to heav5 be=e y8 or c any evil befall ^? :o are foll[]s ( t :i* is good899 99,note3 ,i d\bt n b ?is w rem9d "s ( my read]s ( t noble spee* ( ,zw+lius1 :5 7accord+ to ! usage ( t c\ntry17 att5d+ 8 flock to a battle 9 :i* _! religion & lib]ties 7 all at /ake1 on 8 receiv+ a mortal w\nd by a bullet1 ( :i* he 0 expir$1 :ile 8 fri5ds 7 9 all ! fir/ a/oni%m5t ( grief1 he bravely said1 z he 0 dy+1 ,ecquid hoc in=tunii8 ,is ?is to be reckon$ a mis=tune8 ,h[ _m ( our ,dei/s w\ld h celebrat$ su* a s5t5ce1 if x _h come f ! lips ( an anci5t ,roman6 ,/range t ! "n ( ,*ri/ %\ld be s odi\s1 t ! brighte/ virtues ( 8 foll[]s %\ld be despis$ = 8 sake6 ,b s x is1 & s our ,ma/] told u x w\ld be2 & our fai? is1 9 ?is connection1 confirm$ by ^? :o /rive mo/ to ov]?r[ x4 ,z ^! 7 8 s5tim5ts 9 ! vig\r ( 8 days1 s nei!r did decl9+ ye>s & ! infirmities ( a brok5 con/itution on ! "o h&1 nor any desire ( enjoy+ ! hon\rs & pr(its ( s high a /ation1 or 7:at 0 mu* m to him17 ! conv]se ( ! mo/ affectionate ( wives & s _m amiable *ildr5 & fri5ds on ! o!r1 9 ! lea/ en]vate 8 spirits2 b z he _h 9 =m] ye>s (t5 express$ x1 to me & sev]al o!rs1 z 8 desire1 t if x 7 ! w ( ,god1 he might h "s hon\rable call to sacrifice 8 life 9 def5ce ( religion & ! lib]ties ( 8 c\ntry2 s1 :5 x appe>$ to him mo/ probable t he might be call$ to x imm$iately1 he met ! summons ) ! greate/ read9ess4 ,?is appe>s 9 "p f a lett] :i* he wrote to ! ,rev4 ,mr4 ,adams1 ( ,falkirk1 j z he 0 m>*+ f ,/irl+1 :i* 0 only eight days be=e 8 dea?3--,! rebels1 says he1 are advanc+ to cross ! ,fri?2 b ,i tru/ 9 ! ,almighty ,god1 :o do? :atsoev] he please 9 ! armies ( heav51 & among ! inhabitants ( ! e>?4 ,! same g5tleman tells me1 t1 a few days aft] ! date ( ?is1 he m>*$ ?r\gh ,falkirk ) 8 regim5t2 & ?\gh he 0 !n 9 s langui%+ a /ate1 t he ne$$ 8 assi/ance z secret>y to write = "s re9=cem5ts1 :i* might put x 9 8 p[] to make a /&1 7z he 0 v desir\s to h done17 he express$ a mo/ g5u9e & noble contempt ( life1 :5 ab\t to be expos$ 9 ! def5ce ( a wor? cause4 ,^! s5tim5ts wr\ght 9 him to ! la/ 9 ! mo/ effectual mann]1 & he seem$ = a :ile to h infus$ !m into ! regim5t :i* he comm&$2 = !y express$ su* a _s 9 _! m>* f ,/irl+1 t ,i am assur$ ! colonel 0 oblig$ to ex]t all 8 au?ority to prev5t _! mak+ incursions on ! rebel army1 :i* !n lay v ne> him2 & _h x be5 ?\ght prop] to s5d him ! re9=cem5ts he reque/$1 none c say :at ! consequ5ce might h be52 b he 0 ord]$ to m>* z fa/ z possible to meet ,sir ,john ,cope's =ces at ,dunb>1 :i* he did2 & t ha/y retreat1 9 concurr5ce ) ! news :i* !y soon aft] receiv$ ( ! surr5d] ( ,ed9burgh to ! rebels1 7ei!r by ! trea*]y or weakness ( a few1 9 opposition to ! judgm5t ( by f> ! great] & bett] "p ( ! inhabitants17 /ruck a panic into bo? ! regim5ts ( dragoons1 :i* became visible 9 "s v app>5t & rem>kable circum/ances 9 _! behavi\r1 :i* ,i =be> to relate4 ,?is affect$ ,colonel ,g>d9] s mu* t1 on ! ,?ursday be=e ! fatal action ( ,pre/onpans1 he intimat$ to an (fic] ( consid]able rank & note1 f :om ,i _h x by a v sure *annel ( conveyance1 t he expect$ ! ev5t w\ld be z 9 fact x 04 ,9 ?is view1 !re is all imag9able reason to believe t he _h =m$ 8 resolution z to 8 own p]sonal conduct1 :i* 01 t he w\ld n1 9 cases ( ! flight ( ^? "u 8 comm&1 retreat ) !m2 by :i*1 z x seem$1 he 0 reasonably appreh5sive t he might h /a9$ ! hon\r ( 8 =m] s]vices1 & h giv5 "s occasion = ! enemy to h spok5 reproa*fully4 ,he mu* r *ose1 if ,provid5ce gave him ! call1 to leave 9 8 dea? an example ( fidelity & brav]y :i* might v probably be 7z 9 fact x seems to h be57 ( mu* great] importance to 8 c\ntry ?an any o!r s]vice :i*1 9 ! few days ( rema9+ life1 he c\ld expect to r5d] x4 ,i conclude ^! to h be5 8 views1 n only f :at ,i knew ( 8 g5]al "* & temp]1 b likewise f "s intimations :i* he gave to a v wor?y p]son f ,ed9burgh1 :o visit$ him ! day be=e ! action1 & to :om he said1 ,i _c influ5ce ! conduct ( o!rs z ,i c\ld wi%1 b ,i h "o life to sacrifice to my c\ntry's safety1 & ,i %all n sp>e x1--or words to t effect4 ,i h he>d su* a multitude ( inconsi/5t reports ( ! circum/ances ( ,colonel ,g>d9]'s dea?1 t ,i _h almo/ despair$ ( be+ able to give my read] any p>ticul> satisfaction conc]n+ s int]e/+ a sc5e4 ,b1 by a happy accid5t1 ,i h v lately _h an opportunity ( be+ exactly in=m$ ( ! :ole by t brave man1 ,mr4 ,john ,fo/]1 8 fai?ful s]vant1 7& wor?y ( ! hon\r ( s]v+ su* a ma/]17 :om ,i _h se5 ) him at my h\se "s ye>s be=e4 ,he att5d$ him 9 8 la/ h\rs1 & gave me at l>ge ! n>ration1 :i* he w\ld be ready1 if requisite1 to atte/ ^u oa?4 ,f 8 m\? ,i wrote x d[n ) ! utmo/ exactness1 & c\ld easily believe1 f ! g5u9e & affectionate mann] 9 :i* he relat$ ! p>ticul>s1 t accord+ to 8 own /rik+ expression1 8 eye & 8 he>t 7 always ^u 8 hon\r$ ma/] dur+ ! :ole "t499 99,note3 ,j z ,i am putt+ ! la/ h& to ^! memoirs1 ,m>* #b1 #agdf-g1 ,i h met ) a corporal 9 ,colonel ,lascelles' regim5t1 :o 0 an eye-witness to :at happ5$ at ,pre/onpans on ! day ( ! battle1 & ! day be=e2 & ! acc\nt he has giv5 me ( "s memorable p>ticul>s is s exactly agreeable to t :i* ,i receiv$ f ,mr4 ,fo/]1 t x w\ld mu* corroborate 8 te/imony1 if !re 7 n s _m o!r consid]ations to r5d] x conv9c+4 ,on ,friday1 #bj? ,septemb]1 7! day be=e ! battle :i* transmitt$ him to 8 immortal cr[n17 ! colonel drew up 8 regim5t 9 ! aft]noon1 & rode ?r\gh all _! ranks1 address+ !m at once 9 ! mo/ respectful & animat+ mann]1 bo? z soldi]s & z ,*ri/ians1 to ex]t !mselves c\rage\sly 9 ! s]vice ( _! c\ntry1 & to neglect no?+ t might h a t5d5cy to prep>e !m = :atev] might happ54 ,!y seem$ mu* affect$ ) ! address1 & express$ a v ard5t desire ( attack+ ! enemy imm$iately--a desire 9 :i* he & ano!r v gallant (fic] ( di/+ui%$ rank1 dignity1 & "*1 bo? = brav]y & conduct1 w\ld gladly h gratifi$ !m1 if x _h be5 9 _! p[]4 ,he e>ne/ly press$ x on ! comm&+ (fic]1 z ! soldi]s 7 !n 9 bett] spirits ?an x c\ld be suppos$ !y w\ld be aft] hav+ pass$ ! night "u arms1 & z ! circum/ance ( mak+ an attack w\ld be "s enc\ragem5t to !m1 & probably "s t]ror to ! enemy1 :o w\ld h _h ! disadvantage ( /&+ on ! def5ce--a disadvantage ) :i* ^? wild b>b>ians1 7= su* mo/ ( !m 77 p]haps w\ld h be5 m /ruck ?an bett] discipl9$ troops--especially1 too1 :5 !y f\ght aga9/ ! laws ( _! c\ntry4 ,he also appreh5d$ t1 by m>*+ to meet !m1 "s advantage might h be5 secur$ ) reg>d to ! gr\nd1 ) :i*1 x is natural to imag9e1 he mu/ h be5 p]fectly acqua9t$1 z x lay j at 8 own door1 & he _h rode ov] x _m hundr$ times4 ,:5 ,i m5tion ^! ?+s1 ,i d n pret5d to be capable ( judg+ h[ f> ?is advice 0 "r4 ,a v>iety ( circum/ances to me unkn[n might make x o!rwise4 ,x is c]ta91 h[ev]1 t x 0 brave4 ,b x 0 ov]rul$ 9 ?is respect1 z x also 0 9 ! disposition ( ! cannon1 :i* he w\ld h plant$ 9 ! c5tre ( our small army1 r ?an j be=e 8 regim5t1 :i* 0 9 ! "r w+1 :]e he 0 appreh5sive t ! horses1 :i* _h n be5 9 any previ\s engagem5t1 might be ?r[n into "s disord] by ! dis*>ge s v ne> !m4 ,he urg$ ?is ! m z he ?\ght ! attack ( ! rebels might probably be made on ! c5tre ( ! foot1 :]e he knew !re 7 "s brave m51 on ^: /&+ he ?\ght1 "u ,god1 ! success ( ! day dep5d$4 ,:5 he f\nd t he c\ld n c>ry ei!r ( ^! po9ts1 nor "s o!rs :i*1 out ( reg>d to ! common safety1 he insi/$ ^u ) unusual e>ne/ness1 he dropp$ "s intimations ( ! consequ5ces he appreh5d$1 & :i* did 9 fact foll[2 & submitt+ to ,provid5ce1 sp5t ! rema9d] ( ! day 9 mak+ z good a disposition z circum/ances w\ld all[499 99,note3 ,sev]al ( ^! circum/ances h s9ce be5 confirm$ by ! concurr5t te/imony ( ano!r v cr$ible p]son1 ,mr4 ,rob]t ,d\glas1 7n[ a surgeon 9 ! navy17 :o 0 a volunte] at ,ed9burgh j be=e ! rebels ent]$ ! place1 & :o saw ,colonel ,g>d9] come f ,hadd+ton to ! field ( battle ! day be=e ! action 9 a *aise1 be+ 7z f t circum/ances he suppos$7 9 s weak a /ate t he c\ld n well endure ! fatigue ( sitt+ on horseback4 ,he obs]v$ ,colonel ,g>d9] 9 disc\rse ) sev]al (fic]s on ! ev5+ be=e ! engagem5t1 at :i* "t1 x 0 aft]w>ds report$1 he gave 8 advice to attack ! rebels2 & :5 x 0 ov]rul$1 he aft]w>ds saw ! colonel walk by himself 9 a v p5sive mann]4 ,he cont9u$ all night "u arms1 wrapt up 9 8 cloak1 & g5]ally %elt]$ "u a rick ( b>ley :i* happ5$ to be 9 ! field4 ,ab\t ?ree 9 ! morn+ he call$ 8 dome/ic s]vants to him1 ( :i* !re 7 f\r 9 wait+4 ,he dismiss$ ?ree ( !m ) mo/ affectionate ,*ri/ian advice1 & su* solemn *>ges relat+ to ! p]=mance ( _! duty & ! c>e ( _! s\ls1 z pla9ly seem$ to intimate t he at lea/ appreh5d$ x v probable he 0 tak+ 8 la/ f>ewell ( !m4 ,!re is great reason to believe t he sp5t ! little rema9d] ( ! "t1 :i* c\ld n be mu* above an h\r1 9 ^? dev\t ex]cises ( s\l :i* _h s long be5 habitual to him1 & to :i* s _m circum/ances !n concurr$ to call him4 ,! army 0 al>m$ at break ( day by ! noise ( ! rebels' approa*1 & ! attack 0 made be=e sunrise2 yet x 0 light en\gh to disc]n :at pass$4 ,z soon z ! enemy came )9 gun%ot1 !y made a furi\s fire2 & x is said t ! dragoons1 :i* con/itut$ ! left w+1 imm$iately fl$4 ,! colonel1 at ! beg9n+ ( ! onset1 :i* la/$ b a few m9utes1 receiv$ a w\nd by a bullet 9 8 left brea/1 :i* made him give a sudd5 spr+ 9 8 saddle2 ^u :i* 8 s]vant1 :o _h l$ ! horse1 w\ld h p]suad$ him to retreat2 b he said x 0 only a w\nd 9 ! fle%1 & f\ght on1 ?\gh soon aft] he receiv$ a %ot 9 8 "r ?igh4 ,9 ! meantime x 0 discov]$ t "s ( ! enemies fell by him1 p>ticul>ly "o man1 :o _h made him a trea*]\s visit b a few days be=e1 ) great pr(essions ( zeal = ! pres5t e/abli%m5t4 ,ev5ts ( ?is k9d pass 9 less "t ?an ! description ( !m c be writt51 or ?an x c be read4 ,! colonel 0 = a few mom5ts support$ by 8 m51 & p>ticul>ly by t wor?y p]son1 ,lieut5ant-colonel ,:itney1 :o 0 %ot ?r\gh ! arm1 & :o1 a few mon?s aft]1 fell nobly 9 ! battle ( ,falkirk2 by ,lieut5ant ,we/1 a man ( di/+ui%$ brav]y2 also by ab\t fifte5 dragoons1 :o /ood by him to ! la/4 ,b1 aft] a fa9t fire1 ! regim5t 0 seiz$ ) a panic2 & ?\gh _! colonel & "s o!r gallant (fic]s did :at !y c\ld to rally !m once or twice1 !y took to precipitate flight4 ,j at ! mom5t :5 ,colonel ,g>d9] seem$ to be mak+ a pause1 to delib]ate :at duty requir$ him to d 9 su* a circum/ance1 an accid5t happ5$1 :i* mu/1 ,i ?9k1 9 ! judgm5t ( e wor?y & g5]\s man1 be deem$ a suffici5t apology = expos+ 8 life to s great a haz>d1 :5 8 regim5t _h left him499 ,he saw t a p>ty ( foot1 :o 7 !n bravely fight+ ne> him1 & :om he 0 ord]$ to support1 _h no (fic] to head !m2 ^u :i* he said eag]ly1 9 ! he>+ ( ! p]son f :om ,i _h ?is acc\nt1 ,^? brave fell[s w be cut to pieces = want ( a comm&]1--or words to t effect4 ,s say+1 he rode up to !m1 & cri$ out al\d1 ,fire on1 my lads1 & fe> no?+4 ,b1 j z ! words 7 out ( 8 m\?1 a ,highl&] advanc$ t[>ds him ) a scy!1 fa/5$ on a long pole1 ) :i* he gave him su* a deep w\nd on 8 "r arm1 t 8 sword dropp$ out ( 8 h&2 & at ! same "t sev]al o!rs com+ ab\t him :ile he 0 ?us dreadfully entangl$ ) t cruel weapon1 he 0 dragg$ (f 8 horse4 ,! mom5t he fell ano!r ,highl&]1 :o1 if ! cr[n witness at ,c>lisle may be cr$it$1 7z ,i "k n :y he %\ld n1 ?\gh ! unhappy creature di$ d5y+ x17 0 "o ,m',naught1 :o 0 execut$ ab\t a ye> aft]1 gave him a /roke ei!r ) a broadsword or a ,lo*ab] axe1 7= my in=mant c\ld n exactly di/+ui%17 on ! h9d] "p ( 8 head1 :i* 0 ! mortal bl[4 ,all t 8 fai?ful att5dant saw fur!r at ?is "t 01 t z 8 hat _h fall5 (f1 he took x 9 8 left h&1 & wav$ x z a signal to him to retreat2 & add$1 7! la/ words he ev] he>d him speak17 ,take c>e ( y\rself2 ^u :i* ! s]vant retir$4 99,note3 ,! colonel1 :o 0 well acqua9t$ ) milit>y hi/ory1 might possibly rememb] t 9 ! battle at ,bl5heim1 ! illu/ri\s ,pr9ce ,eug5e1 :5 ! horse ( ! w+ :i* he comm&$ _h run away ?rice1 *>g$ at ! head ( ! foot1 & !reby greatly contribut$ to ! glori\s success ( ! day4 ,at lea/ su* an example may conduce to v9dicate t noble ard\r :i*1 amid/ all ! applauses ( 8 c\ntry1 "s h be5 s cool & s critical z to blame4 ,= my "p1 ,i ?ank ,god t ,i am n call$ to apologize = 8 foll[+ 8 troops 9 _! flight1 :i* ,i fe> w\ld h be5 a mu* h>d] task2 & :i*1 de> z he 0 to me1 w\ld h griev$ me mu* m ?an 8 dea?1 ) ^! h]oic circum/ances att5d+ x4 ,x 0 report$ at ,ed9burgh1 on ! day ( ! battle1 by :at seem$ a consid]able au?ority1 t z ! colonel lay 9 8 w\nds1 he said to a *ief ( ! opposite side1 ,y are fight+ = an e>?ly cr[n1 ,i am go+ to receive a heav5ly "o1--or some?+ to t purpose4 ,:5 ,i prea*$ ! s]mon1 long s9ce pr9t$1 on occasion ( 8 dea?1 ,i _h great reason to believe ?is report 0 true1 ?\gh1 be=e ! publication ( x1 ,i began to be 9 d\bt2 &1 on ! :ole1 aft] ! mo/ accurate inquiry ,i c\ld possibly make at ?is di/ance1 ,i _c get any conv9c+ evid5ce ( x4 ,yet ,i mu/ "h obs]ve t x does n appe> impossible t some?+ ( ?is k9d might inde$ be utt]$ by him1 z 8 s]vant te/ifies t he spoke to him aft] receiv+ t fatal bl[1 :i* w\ld seem mo/ likely to h tak5 away ! p[] ( spee*1 & z x is c]ta9 he liv$ sev]al h\rs aft] he fell4 ,if1 !re=e1 any ?+ ( ?is k9d did happ51 x mu/ h be5 j be=e ?is in/ant4 ,b z to ! /ory ( 8 be+ tak5 prison] & c>ri$ to ! pret5d$ ,pr9ce1 7:o1 by ! way1 aft]w>ds rode 8 horse1 & ent]$ into ,d]by ^u x17 ) sev]al o!r circum/ances :i* 7 graft$ ^u t int]view1 !re is ! mo/ und\bt$ evid5ce ( its falsehood2 = 8 att5dant above m5tion$ assures me t he himself imm$iately fl$ to a mill1 at ! di/ance ( ab\t two miles f ! spot on :i* ! colonel fell1 :]e he *ang$ 8 dress1 &1 disguis$ l a mill]'s s]vant1 return$ ) a c>t z soon z possible1 :i* yet 0 n till ne>ly two h\rs aft] ! engagem5t4 ,! hurry ( ! action 0 !n pretty well ov]1 & he f\nd 8 mu*-hon\r$ ma/] n only plund]$ ( 8 wat* & o!r ?+s ( value1 b also /ripp$ ( 8 upp] g>m5ts & boots1 yet /ill brea?+2 & adds1 t ?\gh he 0 n capable ( spee*1 yet1 on tak+ him up1 he op5$ 8 eyes2 :i* makes x some?+ que/ionable :e!r he 0 altoge!r ins5sible4 ,9 ?is condition1 & 9 ?is mann]1 he convey$ him to ! *ur* ( ,tran5t1 f :5ce he 0 imm$iately tak5 into ! m9i/]'s h\se1 & laid 9 b$1 :]e he cont9u$ brea?+ & frequ5tly groan+ till ab\t elev5 9 ! =5oon1 :5 he took 8 f9al leave ( pa9 & sorr[1 & und\bt$ly rose to ^? di/+ui%$ glories :i* are res]v$ = ^? :o h be5 em95tly & rem>kably fai?ful unto dea?4 ,f ! mom5t he fell1 x 0 no long] a battle1 b a r\t & c>nage4 ,! cruelties :i* ! rebels 7z x is g5]ally said "u ! comm& ( ,"l ,el*o17 inflict$ on "s ( ! k+'s troops aft] !y _h ask$ qu>t]1 are dreadfully legible on ! c\nt5ances ( _m :o surviv$ x4 ,!y ent]$ ,colonel ,g>d9]'s h\se be=e he 0 c>ri$ (f f ! field1 & not)/&+ ! /rict ord]s :i* ! unhappy ,duke ( ,p]? 7^: conduct is said to h be5 v humane 9 _m in/ances17 gave to ! contr>y1 e ?+ ( value 0 plund]$1 to ! v curta9s ( ! b$s1 & hang+s ( ! rooms4 ,8 pap]s 7 all ?r[n into ! wilde/ disord]1 & 8 h\se made an hospital = ! reception ( ^? :o 7 w\nd$ 9 ! action4 ,su* 0 ! close ( a life :i* _h be5 zeal\sly devot$ to ,god1 & fill$ up ) _m hon\rable s]vices4 ,su* 0 ! dea? ( him :o _h be5 s highly fav\r$ by ,god 9 ! me?od by :i* he 0 br\ght back to him aft] s long & s great an e/rangem5t1 & 9 ! progress ( s _m ye>s1 dur+ :i* 79 ! expressive phrase ( ! mo/ anci5t ( writ]s17 he _h walk$ ) him2--to fall1 z ,god ?reat5$ ! p ( 8 wra? t !y %\ld d1 ) tumult1 ) %\t+1 & ) ! s\nd ( ! trumpet4 ,amos ii4 #b4 ,sev]al o!r v wor?y1 & "s ( !m v em95t p]sons1 %>$ ! same fate1 ei!r n[ at ! battle ( ,pre/onpans1 or quickly aft] at t ( ,falkirk299 ,provid5ce1 no d\bt1 p]mitt+ x1 to e/abli% our fai? 9 ! rew>ds ( an invisible _w1 z well z to tea* u to cease f man1 & fix our dep5d5ce on an ,almighty arm4 99,note3 ,( ^!1 none 7 m memorable ?an ^? illu/ri\s bro!rs1 ,mr4 ,rob]t ,munro & ,dr4 ,munro1 ^: tragical b glori\s fate 0 also %>$ quietly aft] by a ?ird h]o ( ! family1 ,capta9 ,munro1 ( ,culcairn1 bro!r to ,sir ,rob]t & ! ,doctor4 ,! rema9s ( ?is ,*ri/ian h]o 7z ,i believe e read] is n[ conv9c$ he may ju/ly be call$17 7 int]r$ ! ,tuesday foll[+1 ,septemb] #bd1 9 ! p>i% *ur* at ,tran5t1 :]e he _h usually att5d$ div9e s]vice1 ) great solemnity4 ,8 obsequies 7 hon\r$ ) ! pres5ce ( "s p]sons ( di/9ction1 :o 7 n afraid ( pay+ t m>k ( respect to 8 memory1 ?\gh ! c\ntry 0 !n 9 ! h&s ( ! enemy4 ,b1 inde$1 !re 0 no great haz>d 9 ?is2 = 8 "* 0 s well kn[n1 t ev5 !y !mselves spoke hon\rably ( him1 & seem$ to jo9 ) 8 fri5ds 9 lam5t+ ! fall ( s brave & s wor?y a man4 ,! remote/ po/]ity w rememb] = :om ! hon\r ( subdu+ ?is unnatural & p]nici\s rebellion 0 res]v$2 & x w ende> ! ,duke ( ,cumb]l& to all b ! op5 or secret abettors ( x 9 ! pres5t age1 & consecrate 8 "n to immortal hon\rs among all ! fri5ds ( religion & lib]ty :o %all arise aft] u4 ,&1 ,i d>e say1 x w n be imag9$ t ,i at all d]ogate f 8 glory 9 sugge/+1 t ! memory ( t valiant & excell5t p]son ^: memoirs ,i am n[ conclud+ may 9 "s measure h contribut$ to t signal & complete victory ) :i* ,god 0 pleas$ to cr[n ! arms ( 8 ,royal ,highness2 = ! =ce ( su* an example is v animat+1 & a pa9ful consci\sness ( hav+ des]t$ su* a comm&] 9 su* extremity1 mu/ at lea/ awak51 :]e !re 0 any sp>k ( g5]osity1 an e>ne/ desire to av5ge 8 dea? on ^? :o _h sacrific$ 8 blood1 & t ( s _m o!r excell5t p]sons1 to ! views ( _! ambition1 rap9e or bigotry4 ,! reflections :i* ,i h made 9 my fun]al s]mon on my hon\r$ fri5d1 & 9 ! d$ication ( x to 8 wor?y & mo/ afflict$ lady1 sup]s$e _m ?+s :i* might o!rwise h prop]ly be5 add$ "h4 ,i conclude1 !re=e1 ) humbly ackn[l$g+ ! wisdom & goodness ( t awful ,provid5ce :i* drew s ?ick a gloom ar\nd him 9 ! la/ h\rs ( 8 life1 t ! lu/re ( 8 virtues might d>t ?r\gh x ) a m vivid & obs]vable ray4 ,x is abundant matt] ( ?ankfulness t s signal a monum5t ( grace1 & ornam5t ( ! ,*ri/ian pr(ession1 0 rais$ 9 our age & c\ntry1 & sp>$ = s _m hon\rable & useful ye>s4 ,nor c all ! t5d]ness ( ! mo/ affectionate fri5d%ip1 :ile its sorr[s ble$ afre% 9 ! view ( s tragical a sc5e1 prev5t my ador+ ! graci\s appo9tm5t ( ! great ,"l ( all ev5ts1 t :5 ! day 9 :i* he mu/ h expir$ )\t an enemy appe>$ s v ne>1 ! la/ ebb ( 8 g5]\s blood %\ld be p\r$ out1 z a k9d ( sacr$ libation1 to ! lib]ties ( 8 c\ntry1 & ! hon\r ( 8 ,god6 t all ! o!r virtues ( 8 "*1 embalm$ z x 7 by t preci\s /ream1 might diffuse ar\nd a m ext5sive fragrance1 & be transmitt$ to ! mo/ remote po/]ity ) t peculi> *>m :i* !y _c b d]ive f _! connection ) s gallant a fall--an ev5t 7z t bless$ apo/le1 ( ^: _s he s deeply drank1 has express$ x7 accord+ to 8 e>ne/ expectation1 & 8 hope t 9 him ,*ri/ might be glorifi$ 9 all ?+s1 :e!r by 8 life or by 8 dea?4 ,,! ,,colonel',s ,,p]sonal ,,appe>ance4 ,9 ! mid/ ( s _m m important articles1 ,i _h really =gott5 to say any ?+ ( ! p]son ( ,colonel ,g>d9]1 ( :i*1 nev]!less1 x may be prop] "h to add a ^w or two4 ,he 01 z ,i 0 in=m$1 9 y\ng] life rem>kably graceful & amiable2 & ,i c easily believe x1 f :at ,i knew him to be :5 our acqua9tance began1 ?\gh he 0 !n turn$ ( fifty1 & _h gone ?r\gh s _m fatigues z well z dang]s1 :i* c\ld n b leave "s traces on 8 c\nt5ance4 ,he 0 tall1 7,i suppose some?+ m ?an six feet17 well proportion$1 & /rongly built2 8 eyes ( a d>k gray1 & n v l>ge2 8 =ehead pretty high2 8 nose ( a l5g? & height no way rem>kable1 b v well suit$ to 8 o!r features2 8 *eeks n v prom95t2 8 m\? mod]ately l>ge1 & 8 *9 r a little incl9+ 7:5 ,i knew him7 to be peak$4 ,he _h a /rong voice & lively acc5t1 ) an air v intrepid1 yet attemp]$ ) mu* g5tl5ess4 ,!re 0 some?+ 9 8 mann] ( address mo/ p]fectly easy & oblig+1 :i* 0 9 great measure ! result ( ! great c&\r & b5evol5ce ( 8 natural temp]1 & :i*1 no d\bt1 0 mu* improv$ by ! deep humility :i* div9e grace _h wr\ght 9 8 he>t1 z well z 8 hav+ be5 accu/om$ f 8 e>ly y\? to ! company ( p]sons ( di/+ui%$ rank & polite behavi\r4 ,! picture ( him1 :i* is giv5 at ! beg9n+ ( ^! memoirs1 0 tak5 f an orig9al done by ,van ,dee/ 7a ,dut*man br\ght into ,scotl& by g5]al ,wade17 9 ! ye> #agbg1 :i* 0 ! #dj? ( 8 age1 & is said to h be5 v l him !n1 ?\gh f> f be+ an exact resemblance ( :at he 0 :5 ,i _h ! happ9ess ( be+ acqua9t$ ) him499 ,p]haps he w\ld h appe>$ to ! greate/ advantage ( all1 c\ld he h be5 exactly drawn on horseback2 z _m v good judges1 & among ! re/ ! celebrat$ ,mons4 ,faub]t himself1 h spok5 ( him z "o ( ! complete/ horsem5 t has ev] be5 kn[n2 & !re 0 inde$ some?+ s s+ul>ly graceful 9 8 appe>ance 9 t attitude1 t x 0 suffici5t 7z :at is v em95t 9 its k9d g5]ally is17 to /rike an eye n =m$ on any critical rules4 99,note3 ,9 pres5t+ ?is lik5ess = ! fir/ "t 9 an ,am]ican edition ( ?is "w1 ! arti/ has tak5 ! lib]ty to *ange ! co/ume1 by sub/itut+ ! ord9>y milit>y dress = ! c\rt dress ( ! orig9al4--,editor ( ! ,pres4 ,bo>d ( ,publication4 ,transcrib]'s ,note3 ,! ,portrait is n available4 ,,app5dix ,i4 7,ref]r$ to at ! end ( ,*apt] ,,vi1 ,,lett]s47 ,x may n be amiss1 9 illu/ration ( ,dr4 ,doddridge's rem>ks on ! subject ( dreams1 to pres5t to ! read] ! foll[+ acc\nt ( a rem>kable dream :i* occurr$ to ! ,doctor himself1 & _h a b5eficial influ5ce on 8 own m9d4--,,ed4 ,,pres4 ,,bd4 ,,pub4 ,,dr4 ,,doddridge',s ,,dream4 ,dr4 ,doddridge & ,dr4 ,samuel ,cl>k1 ( ,/4 ,alban's1 hav+ be5 conv]s+ 9 ! ev5+ ^u ! nature ( ! sep>ate /ate1 & ! probability t ! sc5es on :i* ! s\l w\ld ent]1 at its fir/ leav+ ! body1 w\ld h "s resemblance to ^? ?+s x _h be5 conv]sant ) :ile on e>?1 t x might by degrees be prep>$ = ! m sublime happ9ess ( ! heav5ly /ate1 ?is & o!r conv]sation ( ! same k9d probably occasion$ ! foll[+ dream4 ,! ,doctor imag9$ himself dang]\sly ill at a fri5d's h\se 9 ,london1 & aft] rema9+ 9 ?is /ate = "s h\rs1 he ?\ght 8 s\l left 8 body1 & took its flight 9 "s k9d ( a f9e vehicle1 ?\gh v diff]5t f ! gross body x _h j quitt$1 b /ill mat]ial4 ,he pursu$ 8 c\rse ?r\gh ! air1 expect+ "s cele/ial mess5g] to meet him1 till he 0 at "s di/ance f ! city1 :5 turn+ back & view+ ! t[n1 he c\ld n =be> say+ to himself1 ,h[ va9 d ^? affairs 9 :i* ! inhabitants ( ?is place are s eag]ly employ$1 seem to me a sep>ate _s6 ,at l5g?1 z he 0 cont9u+ 8 progress1 ?\gh )\t any c]ta9 directions1 yet easy & happy 9 ! ?\ghts ( ! univ]sal provid5ce & gov]nm5t ( ,god1 :i* ext5ds alike to all /ates & worlds1 he 0 n[ met by "o :o told him he 0 s5t to conduct him to ?is de/9$ /ate ( abode1 f :i* he conclud$ x 0 an angel1 ?\gh he appe>$ 9 ! =m ( an eld]ly man4 ,!y accord+ly advanc$ toge!r1 till !y came )9 sight ( a l>ge spaci\s build+1 :i* _h ! air ( a palace4 ,^u 8 inquir+ :at x 01 8 guide repli$1 x 0 ! place assign$ = him at pres5t2 ^u :i* ! ,doctor wond]$ t he _h read on e>?1 t eye _h n se51 nor e> _h he>d1 ! glory laid up = !m t love ,god1 :5 he c\ld easily h =m$ an idea ( su* a build+1 f o!rs he _h se51 ?\gh he ackn[l$g$ !y 7 greatly inf]ior to ?is 9 elegance & magnific5ce4 ,! answ]1 8 guide told him1 0 pla9ly sugge/$ by ! conv]sation ( ! ev5+ be=e1 & t ! sc5es pres5t$ to him 7 purposely contriv$ to be> a ne> resemblance to ^? he _h be5 accu/om$ to on e>?1 t 8 m9d might be m easily & gradually prep>$ = ^? glories :i* w\ld op5 ^u him h]eaft]1 & :i* w\ld at fir/ h q dazzl$ & ov]p[]$ him4 ,by ?is "t !y came to ! palace1 & 8 guide l$ him ?r\gh a k9d ( saloon into an inn] p>l\r4 ,! fir/ object t /ruck him 0 a great gold5 cup :i* /ood ^u a table1 on :i* 0 emboss$ ! figure ( a v9e & clu/]s ( grapes4 ,he ask$ 8 guide ! mean+ ( x2 :o told him t x 0 ! cup 9 :i* 8 ,savi\r drank new w9e ) 8 disciples 9 8 k+dom2 & t ! figures c>v$ on x d5ot$ ! union betwe5 ,*ri/ & 8 ,*ur*1 imply+1 t z ! grapes d]iv$ all _! beauty & flav\r f ! v9e1 s ! sa9ts1 ev5 9 a /ate ( glory1 7 indebt$ = _! e/abli%m5t 9 hol9ess & happ9ess1 to _! union ) _! common ,head1 9 :om !y are all complete4 ,:ile !y 7 conv]s+1 he he>d a tap at ! door1 & 0 in=m$ by ! angel t x 0 a signal ( 8 ,"l's approa*1 & 0 int5d$ to prep>e him = an int]view4 ,accord+ly1 9 a %ort "t our ,savi\r ent]$ ! room1 & ^u 8 ca/+ himself at 8 feet1 he graci\sly rais$ him up1 & ) a smile ( inexpressible complac5cy1 assur$ him ( 8 fav\r1 & k9d acceptance ( 8 fai?ful s]vices1 & z a tok5 ( 8 peculi> reg>d1 & ! intimate fri5d%ip ) :i* he int5d$ to hon\r him1 he took ! cup1 & aft] dr9k+ ( x himself1 gave x into ! ,doctor's h&4 ,! ,doctor w\ld h decl9$ x at fir/1 z too great an hon\r2 b our ,"l repli$1 z to ,pet] 9 wa%+ 8 feet1 ,if ?\ dr9ke/ n ) me1 ?\ ha/ no "p ) me4 ,?is he obs]v$ fill$ him ) su* a transport ( gratitude1 love & admiration1 t he 0 ready to s9k "u x4 ,8 ma/] seem$ s5sible ( ?is1 & told him he mu/ leave him = ! pres5t1 b w\ld n be long be=e he repeat$ 8 visit4 ,z soon z our ,"l 0 retir$1 & ! ,doctor's m9d m compos$1 he obs]v$ t ! room 0 hung ) pictures1 & ^u exam9+ !m1 he f\nd to 8 great surprise1 t !y conta9$ all ! hi/ory ( 8 life2 & mo/ rem>kable sc5es he _h pass$ ?r\gh1 be+ !re repres5t$ 9 a v lively mann]--! _m temptations & trials he _h be5 expos$ to1 & ! signal in/ances ( ! div9e goodness 9 ! diff]5t p]iods ( 8 life4 ,x may n be easily imag9$ h[ ?is w\ld /rike & affect 8 m9d4 ,x excit$ 9 him ! /ronge/ emotions ( gratitude1 especially :5 he reflect$ t he 0 n[ out ( ! rea* ( any future dang]1 & t all ! purposes ( div9e love t[>ds him 7 s amply accompli%$4 ,! ex/acy ( joy & gratitude1 into :i* ^! reflections ?rew him1 0 s great t he awoke2 b = "s "t aft] he awoke ! impression cont9u$ s lively t te>s ( joy fl[$ d[n 8 *eeks1 & he said t he nev]1 on any occasion1 rememb]$ to h _h s5tim5ts ( devotion & love equal to x4 ,,app5dix ,,ii4 7,ref]r$ to 9 ,*apt] ,,vii1 ,,dome/ic ,,relations47 ,! foll[+ extract f ,dr4 ,doddridge's ,?\ghts on ,sacram5tal ,occasions1 gives a beautiful & edify+ picture ( ! ex]cises ( 8 affectionate & pi\s he>t "u a pa9ful b]eavem5t4 ,,! ,,sev5ty-,,eigh? ,,sacram5t1 ,,octob] #c1 #agcf4 ,,de> ,,betsey ,,dead4#a ,i _h prea*$ 9 ! bitt]ness ( my he>t f ^! words3 ,is x well ) ?y husb&8 is x well ) ! *ild8 ,& %e answ]$1 ,x is well4 #b ,k+s iv4 #bf4 ,i endeav\r$ to %[ ! reason !re 0 to say ?is2 b surely !re 0 nev] any disp5sation ( ,provid5ce 9 :i* ,i f\nd x s h>d1 = my v s\l _h be5 ov]:elm$ )9 me4 ,inde$1 "s h>d ?\ghts ( ! m]cy ( ,god 7 ready to arise2 & ! appreh5sion ( 8 heavy displeasure1 & ! fe> ( my *ild's future /ate1 add$ fuel to ! fire4 ,^u ! :ole1 my m9d 0 9 ! mo/ pa9ful agitation2 b x pleas$ ,god1 t1 9 compos+ ! s]mon1 my s\l became quiet$1 & ,i 0 br\ght into a m sil5t & cordial submission to ! ,div9e w4 ,at ! table ,i disc\rs$ on ^! words1 ,al?\gh my h\se be n s ) ,god4 #b ,samuel xxiii4 #e4 ,i obs]v$1 t dome/ic calamities may befall good m5 9 _! j\rney ?r\gh life1 & p>ticul>ly 9 relation to _! *ildr52 b t !y h a refuge 9 ,god's cov5ant2 x is ev]la/+2 x is sure2 x is well ord]$--e provision is made accord+ to our necessities2 & %all be our salvation1 z x is ! object ( our mo/ affectionate reg>d4 ,"o fur!r circum/ance ,i mu/ record2 & t is1 t ,i "h solemnly recollect$ t ,i _h1 9 a =m] sacram5t tak5 ! cup ) ^! words1 ,"l1 ,i take ?is cup z a public & solemn tok5 t ,i w refuse no o!r cup :i* ?\ %alt put into my h&4 ,i m5tion$ ?is recollection1 & *>g$ x publicly on myself & my ,*ri/ian fri5ds4 ,god has tak5 me at my ^w1 b ,i d n retract x2 ,i repeat x aga9 ) reg>d to e future cup4 ,i am j come f ! c(f9 ( my de> *ild1 :o seemes to be sweetly asleep !re1 ) a s]5e1 compos$1 delightful c\nt5ance1 once h[ animat$ ) d\ble life6 ,!re--lo6 ,o my s\l6 lo !re6 is ?9e idol laid /ill 9 dea?--! creature :i* /ood next to ,god 9 ?9e he>t2 to :om x 0 op5$ ) a fond & flatt]+ delight4 ,me?9ks ,i w\ld le>n to be dead ) h]--dead to ! _w4 ,oh t ,i c\ld be dead ) h]1 n any fur!r ?an t h] de> memory may promote my liv+ to ,god499 99,note3 ,! foll[+ note 0 writt5 9 ! m>g9 ( ! manuscript by ! late ,rev4 ,?omas ,/$man3 ,i ?9k ,i h he>d t ! doctor wrote 8 fun]al s]mon = 8 daught]1 or a "p ( x1 ^u h] c(f94 ,i _h a great deal ( v edify+1 conv]sation la/ night & 8 morn+ ) my wife1 ^: wisdom does inde$ make h] face to %9e "u ?is affliction4 ,%e is support$ & arm\r$ ) a c\rage :i* seems n at all natural to h]2 talks ) ! utmo/ fre$om1 & has really said _m ( ! mo/ useful ?+s t ev] 7 said to me by any p]son ^u ! e>?1 bo? z to consolation & admonition4 ,_h ! be/ ?+s ,i h read on ! subject be5 collect$ toge!r1 !y c\ld h>dly h be5 bett] conceiv$ or bett] express$4 ,?is is to me v surpris+ :5 ,i consid] h] usual res]ve4 ,i h all imag9able reason to believe t ,god w make ?is affliction a great bless+ to h]1 & ,i hope x may prove s to me4 ,!re 0 a fond delight & complac5ce :i* ,i took 9 ,betsey beyond any ?+ liv+4 ,al?\gh %e _h n a t5? "p ( t rational1 manly love1 :i* ,i pay to h] m\rn+ & _m surviv+ fri5ds2 yet x leaves a peculi> pa9 ^u my he>t1 & x is almo/ z if my v gall 7 p\r$ out ^u ! e>?4 ,yet mu* sweetness m+les itself ) ?is bitt] potion1 *iefly 9 ! view & hope ( my spe$y removal to ! et]nal _w4 ,may x n be ! b\nty ( ?is provid5ce1 t in/ead ( h] liv+ _m ye>s ^u ! e>?1 ,god may h tak5 away my *ild t ,i might be fitt$ = & reconcil$ to my own dissolution1 p]haps ne>ly approa*+8 ,i v]ily believe t ,i %all meet h] !re1 & enjoy mu* m ( h] 9 heav5 ?an ,i %\ld h done _h %e surviv$ me on e>?4 ,"l1 ?y w be done2 may my life be us$ = ! s]vice :ile cont9u$1 & !n put ?\ a p]iod to x :5ev] ?\ please/4 ,footnote #a3 ,! foll[+ extract f ! ,di>y ( ,dr4 ,doddridge is "h subjo9$1 z af=d+ an explanation ( "s p>ticul>s allud$ to 9 ! text4 ,,reflections ,,on ,,! ,,dea? ,,( ,,my ,,de> ,,*ild1 ,,& ,,! ,,_m ,,m\rnful ,,provid5ces ,,att5d+ ,,x4 ,i h a great deal ( reason to condemn my own neglig5ce & folly1 t = s _m mon?s ,i h suff]$ no memor&ums ( :at has pass$ betwe5 ,god & my s\l1 al?\gh "s ( ! transactions 7 v rem>kable1 z well z "s ?+s :i* ,i h he>d conc]n+ o!rs2 b ! subject ( ?is article is ! mo/ melan*oly ( any4 ,we lo/ my de> & rev]5d bro!r & fri5d1 ,mr4 ,s&]s1 on ! #ca/ ( ,july la/2 on ! #a/ ( ,septemb]1 ,lady ,russell--t invaluable fri5d1 di$ at ,read+ on h] road f ,ba?2 & on ,friday1 ! #a/ ( ,octob]1 ,god 0 pleas$1 by a mo/ awful /roke1 to take away my elde/1 de>e/ *ild1 my lovely ,betsey4 ,%e 0 =m$ to /rike my affections 9 ! mo/ p[]ful mann]2 su* a p]son1 g5ius1 & temp]1 z ,i admir$ ev5 beyond _! real importance1 s t inde$ ,i dot$ ^u h]1 & 0 = _m mon?s be=e h] dea? 9 a great degree ( bondage ^u h] acc\nt4 ,%e 0 tak5 ill at ,newport ab\t ! middle ( ,june1 & f !nce to ! day ( h] dea?1 %e 0 my cont9ual ?\ght1 & almo/ un9t]rupt$ c>e4 ,god only kn[s ) :at e>ne/ness & importunity ,i pro/rat$ myself be=e him to beg h] life1 :i* ,i w\ld h be5 will+ almo/ to h pur*as$ ) my own4 ,:5 r$uc$ to ! l[e/ degree ( langui%m5t by a consumption1 ,i c\ld n =be> look+ ^u h] almo/ e h\r4 ,i saw h] ) ! /ronge/ mixture ( angui% & delight2 no *emi/ ev] wat*$ 8 crucible ) great] c>e1 :5 he expect$ ! production ( ! philosoph]'s /one1 ?an ,i wat*$ h] 9 all ! v>i\s turns ( h] di/emp]1 :i* at la/ grew utt]ly hopeless1 & !n no language c express ! agony into :i* x ?rew me4 ,"o rem>kable circum/ance ,i _c b recollect3 9 pray+ mo/ affectionately1 p]haps too e>ne/ly1 = h] life1 ^! words came into my m9d ) great p[]1 ,speak no m to me ( ?is matt]4 ,i 0 unwill+ to take !m1 & w5t into ! *amb] to see my de> lamb1 :51 in/ead ( receiv+ me ) h] usual t5d]ness1 %e look$ ^u me ) a /]n air1 & said1 ) a v rem>kable det]m9ation ( voice1 ,i h no m to say to y2 & ,i ?9k t f t "t1 al?\gh %e liv$ at lea/ t5 days1 %e seldom look$ ^u me ) pleasure1 or c>$ to suff] me to come ne> h]4 ,b t ,i might feel all ! bitt]ness ( ! affliction1 ,provid5ce s ord]$ x1 t ,i came 9 :5 h] %>pe/ agonies 7 ^u h]1 & ^? words1 ,o de>1 ,o de>1 :at %all ,i d8 rung 9 my e>s = succe$+ h\rs & days4 ,b ,god deliv]$ h]1--& %e1 )\t any viol5t pang 9 ! article ( h] dissolution1 quietly & sweetly fell asleep1 z ,i hope1 9 ,jesus1 ab\t t5 at night1 ,i be+ !n at ,maidwell4 ,:5 ,i came home my m9d 0 "u a d>k cl\d relat+ to ! et]nal /ate2 b ,god 0 pleas$ graci\sly to remove x1 & gave me com=table hopes1 aft] hav+ felt ! mo/ he>t-r5d+ sorr[4 ,my de> wife bore ! affliction 9 ! mo/ glori\s mann]1 & discov]$ m wisdom1 & piety1 & /ead9ess ( temp] 9 a few days1 ?an ,i _h ev] 9 six ye>s an opportunity ( obs]v+ be=e4 ,o my s\l1 ,god has bla/$ ?y g\rd2 ?y greate/ e>?ly delight is gone3 seek x 9 heav51 :]e ,i hope ?is de> babe is2 :]e ,i am sure t my ,savi\r is2 & :]e ,i tru/1 ?r\gh grace1 not)/&+ all ?is irregul>ity ( temp] & ( he>t1 t ,i %all %ortly be4 ,sunday1 ,octob] #c1 #agcf ,,fur!r ,,reflections ,,aft] ,,! ,,fun]al ,,( ,,my ,,de> ,,betsey4 ,i h n[ be5 lay+ ! delight ( my eyes 9 ! du/1 & x is = ev] hidd5 f !m4 ,my he>t 0 too full to weep mu*4 ,we _h a suitable s]mon f ^! words3 ,doe/ ?\ well to be angry8 ,jonah iv4 #i2 because ( ! g\rd4 ,i hope ,god kn[s t ,i am n angry2 b sorr[ful he surely all[s me to be4 ,i c\ld h wi%$ t m _h be5 said conc]n+ ! hope we may h ( our *ild2 & x 0 a great disappo9tm5t to me t no?+ ( t k9d %\ld h be5 said by "o t lov$ h] s well z my bro!r ,hunt did4 ,yet1 ,i bless ,god1 ,i h my hopes t %e is lodg$ 9 ! arms ( ,*ri/4 ,& !re 0 an occurr5ce t ,i took mu* notice (2 ,i 0 mo/ e>ne/ly pray+ t ,god w\ld be pleas$ to give me "s fur!r enc\ragem5t on ?is head1 by lett+ "s new light1 or by direct+ me to "s fur!r ?\ghts ^u ! subject4 ,soon aft]1 z ,i came into my wife's *amb]1 %e told me t our maid ,betty1 :o _h inde$ ! affection ( a p>5t = my de> girl1 _h j be=e assur$ h]1 t1 on ! ,sabba? day ev5+1 ,betsey w\ld be repeat+ to h]self "s ?+s ( :at %e _h he>d 9 my pray]s & 9 my prea*+s1 b did n c>e to talk ( x to o!rs2 & my wife assur$ me t %e solemnly recomm5d$ h]self to ,god 9 ! words t ,i _h taught h] a little be=e %e di$4 ,bless$ ,god1 ha/ ?\ n receiv$ h]8 ,i tru/ t ?\ ha/1 & p>don$ ! infirmities ( h] poor1 %ort1 *ildi%1 afflict$ life4 ,i hope1 9 "s measure out ( love to me1 z ?y s]vant1 ?\ ha/ done x1 = ,*ri/'s sake2 & ,i w\ld consid] ! v hope1 z an engagem5t to ?y future s]vice4 ,"l1 ,i love ^? :o 7 k9d to my *ild1 & wept ) me = h]2 %all ,i n mu* m love !e1 :o1 ,i hope1 art at ?is mom5t tak+ c>e ( h]1 & op5+ h] infant faculties = ! duties & bless$ness ( heav54 ,"l1 ,i w\ld consid] myself z a dy+ creature4 ,my fir/ born is gone2--my belov$ *ild is laid 9 b$ be=e me4 ,i h (t5 foll[$ h] to h] b$ 9 a lit]al s5se2 & %ortly ,i %all foll[ h] to t1 :]e we %all lie d[n toge!r1 & our re/ %all be toge!r 9 ! du/4 ,9 a lit]al s5se ! grave is ready = me4 ,my grave is made--,i h look$ into x--a de> "p ( myself is already !re2 & :5 ,i /ood at ! ,"l's table ,i /ood directly ov] x4 ,x is "s pleasure to me to ?9k t my du/ w be lodg$ ne> t ( my de> lamb1 h[ mu* m to hope t my s\l w re/ ) h]s1 & rejoice 9 h] =ev]6 ,b1 ,o1 let me n c5tre my ?\ghts ev5 "h2 x is at re/ )1 & 9 ,god1 t is my ultimate hope4 ,"l1 may ?y grace secure x to me6 & 9 ! mean "t give me "s holy acquiesc5ce ( s\l 9 !e2 & al?\gh my g\rd be )]$1 yet %elt] me "u ! %ad[ ( ?y w+s4 ,octob] #d1 #agcf4